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Koma Renee Journal 1 2
Koma Renee Journal 1 2
Professor Kayser
Journal Entry #1
Like Kinsman Pond itself, I’m trying to look mostly smooth on the surface. Lining the
edge of the water are boulders and trees, boulders and trees, and at the moment I’m so still that
I’m hoping all the other living somethings that might be watching me from the water’s edge will
forget that I walked here on my feet and sat down. I want to melt into it all like the twilight is
melting the line between the yellowed sky and the glassy water – boulders and trees, boulders
and trees.
I’ve walked here in dreams and I’ve set myself down at the edge under the arching slope
of South Kinsman’s peak. On the opposite shore, it rises up, up and away, like stairs to the
moon, and the pond surface studded with lily pads is the only indicator that the upside-down
It’s been a year since I sat here last, still dogged by the shadowy black hound, the one
that follows you around to let you know you haven’t healed just yet. I’d stared at my reflection
then, wondering just when I would be proud of what I saw, and comfortable in what was
beginning to feel like awfully tight skin. Only when you’ve walked here from Georgia, barked the
hound.
But now, at mile 1,815, the yawning and doleful sound of summer bullfrog song is
echoing off the slabbed wall of the mountain. The sun has long sunk and the sky is purpling and
so I unfold my swollen feet and my sore legs and I open my journal. In the indistinctness of
twilight, Jello tip toes to me through the boulders and trees, boulders and trees.
“Yard Sale,” he begins, and then he sees me scribbling and he stops himself. I’ve trained
him well.
“I’ll leave you be, then,” he says, backing away. As he disappears into the dark,
however, he turns back around and gives me his two cents - “but don’t forget to eat dinner.” I flip
the page and clean up the dull words, circling here, crossing out there. I stare out onto the
The sky is choked dark blue, so I close my journal, and just once, before I can’t see
anymore, I lean forward to peer at my dirt-streaked reflection. For the first time in the months
and years that are stretching out across the pond, I see the curiosity and the peace return to my
own eyes. I’m at ease here on the edge, and as the very last traces of the sunlight recede, I
watch the outline of my reflection melt into the background behind me, nothing but boulders and