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Narrative Essay - Mental Illness
Narrative Essay - Mental Illness
18 september 2022
MYP ELA
3rd hour
SURVIVING MENTAL ILLNESS
Living with diagnosed depression and anxiety disorder as well as borderline personality
disorder is not easy. When I first let people know, some thought I was begging for attention
rather than being truthful, which wasn’t the case. I used to fake my happiness; when I wanted to
cry, I would suck it up and smile like nothing had happened. It is a hard thing to do, wanting to
cry but cannot, being afraid to show emotions and wondering if people would prosecute me for
actually doing it. Even though it seems easy when you see others do it, it is actually a really big
struggle. It is probably one of the hardest things to do. Bottling up these emotions is a big no no;
the more one hides it and fakes everything makes life harder to finally release those emotions.
The idea that nobody will believe you or understand what it going on is the worst. These mental
illnesses usually stem from either what happened in the past or through a chemical imbalance in
the brain, meaning a person is born with it, or suffered from tremendous trauma.
I remember being scared of going or meeting new people and places. I would always
avoid leaving the house. I remember being afraid of moving to a new school filled with a lot of
new people and students. I knew if I didnt go I would be disappointing my mom. I decided to go
I regretted having to go to school almost everyday and having to go home everyday and
with everything that was happening on at home was like if going to school wasn't already bad
enough.
I remember as a young girl, I was never heard I never had the opportunity to express
how I really felt. Since then I never really felt comfortable enough to express myself. My mom
would never really care if I was sad she just thought I was throwing a tantrum and didnt care to
ask.
People tend to beautify and misconstrue mental illness as if it was something one can just
call a phase or get attention for. Mental illness is way more than just a trend. If anything, it isn’t
a trend whatsoever. It’s a chemical imbalance in the brain, which can also be triggered by
trauma, something I can’t control. Being a part of the stigma is probably one of the hardest
things, especially when it feels as if you are being a burden or if people think you are faking it,
all because people romanticize it. Certain mental illnesses can cause a motivation deficiency
and what I mean by this is with depression; for example, one tends to lose most motivation for
These experiences I’ve been through have caused different mental illnesses. I know the
struggles. I understand how it feels to be in pain everyday. The stress, anxiety, and depression
has really been kicking in, but I know I can get through it. Mental illness has become a big
problem and it continues to affect many of our youth today and we need more awareness. Youth
struggle with mental illness every day, but one day I will see that this isn’t the end-- I am strong,