HOLES&GOALS MARWAN KALLAF

HO*S FUCKBO & Y' S

The Antidote of Toxicity

10 Things nobody will tell you about
avoiding toxicity in your life and
finding peace in relationships

M&M

Marwan Kallaf
Toxicity leads to stress and stress leads to a failure loop the only way to break free is finding peace and meaningful social relationships .
HO*S & BO Y' S
FUCK

The antidote of toxicity

10 Things nobody will tell you about
avoiding toxicity in your life and
finding peace in relationships

M&M

Marwan Kallaf
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TO ALL MY TOXIC EX'S
CONTENTS
Introduction: 1
Pineapple Carrot
Fresh OJ
Orange Carrot
Apple Carrot Madness
Pear Kiwi Cooler
They'll stab you in the lung and
then ask why you have trouble
brearthing

My Story

FTER GETTING KICKED

OUT OF THE HOUSE AT THE AGE

OF FIFTEEN. I SLEPT ON THE STAIRS AT NIGHT AND
STOLE ENERGY DRINKS IN THE MORNING. TO SELL THEM
AT A LOWER PRICE TO RESTAURANTS AND SOME SMALL
STORES IN MALLS. YOU CAN BLAME ME FOR IT 
I TAKE THE BLAME FOR A LOT. I AM THE REASON THIS
ALL HAPPENED IN THE FIRST PLACE. WELL, I THINK
WHEN YOU ARE BACK IN THE MOMENT YOU CANNOT SET
BACK AND ANALYZE, BUT THAT EGO KEEPS PUSHING
YOU FORWARD ON THE WRONG PATH AND KEEPS
CHEERING YOU UP ABOUT IT.
I LIVED ON CHIPS, NOODLES AND WHAT WAS LEFT OF
THE ENERGY DRINKS I STOLE. I COULDN'T EVEN MAKE
THE NOODLES I ATE THEM RAW EVERY WEEK AND
EVERY NIGHT. FOR WEEKS. IT WAS CATASTROPHIC.

WHEN I WANTED TO SHOWER I GOT TO THE GYM I

HAVE ABUNDANT FOR LONG AND I STILL HAVE A
MEMBERSHIP. ALL FRIENDS THAT SEEMED TO BE
REAL JUST VANISHED THEY CAME TO ME ONLY WHEN
THEY WANTED TO SMOKE, WHEN THE BLUNT IS
DEAD FRIENDSHIP IS DEAD. NO ONE ACCEPTED ME
IN THEIR HOUSE. ON THIS PATH OVER AND OVER AND
OVER NIGHTMARES KEEP HUNTING ME WHILE
AWAKEN EVEN BEFORE I SLEEP. I WONDERED WHY
ANY OF MY CLOSE RELATIONSHIPS IS BUMPY. EVERY
SINGLE ONE OF THEM PAST OR PRESENT.
SPIT IT