Day 1:

I woke up later than my usual

schedule and because of this I
almost became late to my classes-

Morning was the same as always,

classes, homework, the usual-
But instead of the usual-slack-off-
after classes, me and my classmates
called afterclasses.

Leira and I were the first in the call, it

was going well until she started to
laughing hysterically out of
nowhere-
Fearing for my life, I messaged Alex
for back up.
It didn't work.

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Leira calmed down-

So uh-
Moving on..
After that... incident, we started to
discuss our video project in TLE with
Alex (Although she wasn't in our
group, we didn't mind.)
And after all that discussion, all that
planning, we decided...
That our project will be like a Tiktok
POV-
...
Yeah we are definitely going to fail-

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ZOEIY AND JULIANA JOINED THE

CALL, YES LET'S GOOOOOOO!!!
But I had to deafen myself because I
had to turn in an assignment, it was a
drawing.
However, during my the process of
my drawing, Zoeiy asked me a
question that went along the lines of:
"What's your motivation to draw-
Like, back when we had classes,
you'd draw everyday!"

And mannnnnn, young me's

memories just flashbacked into my
brain.
No kid deserved that mindset, young
me didn't deserve that.

I just answered her that I was

reallyyyyy quiet back then, to the
point where I had to distract myself
with art. I don't really know how to
feel about this because sure, I
improved alot with drawing but at
what cost?

Now, I talk alot and I barely

draw! :DD (JKJK I STILL DRAW
EVERYDAY-)

But anyways, I was now done with

my MAPEH assignment and I turned
it in.
_____

Nothing much happened after that,

we talked a bunch, looked around our
social media while callinggg.

It was a blast!

Well not really, Jule and Zoeiy kept

showing me pics of Ed Sheeran. I
was scarred for life so I left the call in
a rush.
But of course, I had to call it a day.
I don't know how to say this, but talk
to you later? Type to you later??
Yeah bye!
Day 2:

Mornin'
I slept like a log last night.

I just made myself a sandwich and

started drawing this very platonic
drawing of me and my friend.
But iT LOOKS SO ROMANTIC, I'M
LITERALLY CRYING LIKE- WHAT IS
THISIFISIFKF?!?!

I swear I don't like her like that-

(Maybe I'll catch feelings xoxo JKJK-)

_____
Update on the TLE Project, Leira,
Jule and I are calling right now and
we jokingly said that our project will
be about Leira summoning a demon
(Who is me) to show her loyalty and
devotion to the company.

Obviously (and disappointingly), we

didn't do that idea.

Jule made a follow-up question to

what happened yesterday about the
Ed Sheeran incident.
I ignored her.

_____

I'm literally beating myself on wether

to finish my definitely-platonic-
drawing or finish chaPTER 3 ON MY
SUPPOSED WEEKLY FANFIC.

I haven't even finished scene 1 on

chapter 3-
And exams are coming up-
I DON'T HAVE THE TIMEUFDOCID

I'm going to cry :,)

_____

Yeah, tears are shedding all right-

I decided to DRAW THE ENTIRE
DAY!!
bRUH-
I just wanted to update my fanfic-
Oh well, I'll try again tom.
Let's see, bye for now.

Day 3:

I didn't update my fanfic.

I-
I can explain journal-
.....
No, I can't-

Instead of the usual, update fanfic

stuff.
I just drew... a very... q u e s t i o n
a b l e drawing.
Clearly, I need therapy for doing so.
And yes, I showed it to them (The
squad) and they approved.
I'm really happy that I have mates
like them honestly.
 _____

So me and Heather (an online friend)

were chatting and let's say-
Our conversations were something.
It started off normal (well to me it is)
but, it ended up on me fighting the
bank she was in.
It was HILARIOUS-
I'll probs chat her again tom.

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I called Leira awhile ago.
We had to record for our TLE so we
talked about the scenes needed to be
done.

Leira looked FINEEEEEE AS HELL

WITH THAT BUTTON UP-

DAMN MOMMA BE LOOKIN' FINE-

I call this interaction "I'm-not-thirsty-
for-my-friend-I'm-just-aggressively-
supporting-her''

Anyways-
After we were done calling.
I was sweating my pants off because
I had multiple layers on me (I was
wearing a suit) when I was recording
I put the top only and yes I am well
aware that I am a mess.

So after (and during) my recording, I

took a couple of pictures to show my
friends.
Yes, this is a cry for help.
Yes, I am slowly losing my mind.

______

All right, I am done with my things.

I'll probably edit my video tom.
Yeah, talk to you later!
Day 4:
Heather and I will do a movie
marathon after exams!
I can't wait omg but like-
I wonder what she sounds like-
🤔🤔🤔

Oh yeah and-

EXAMS.
HOLY MACKEREL AND FISH
STICKS.
I AM GOING TO CRY, IT'S
LITERALLY TOMORROW.
I need to review-

______

I did not review.

I just... drew-
I COULD'VE DONE SOMETHING
MORE-
LIKE UPDATING MY FANFIC-
......
DARN IT-

______

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I KEEP REMINDING MYSELF TO
WRITE CHAPTER 3-
BUT E X A M S
.....
I'll do it tomorrow-

Day 5:
HCJDMFKCKDJHDJD
EXAMS-
I SWEAR I REVIEWED BUT I
FORGOT EVERYTHING-
I'M GOING TO FAIL THIS
QUARTER
 ______

Psssttt..
Hey journal-
Watch me cram all of the lessons last
minute.

______

Update.
Don't do that.
I literally kept staring in all of the
exams cause I had a brain fart, the
teachers probably thought I froze up-

ANYWAYS-

I was jamming to my gay songs

during exams and I kept BOPPING
my head like there's no tomorrow.
With my excessive head bopping, I
probably lost a few braincells.
My poor teachers definitely put the
emergency number on dial.

______

Oh my gosh I am DONE.
I sent a lil' something-something to T.
Rachelle-
She said I made her day.
And my heart went 🥰😍😍 🥰🥰😍 🥰

______

Heather opened up to me about

something.
She was a victim of flashing, and holy
fish sticks was she really affected by
it.
People who gets off by flashing to
kids? C'mon, that's so disgusting of
them.
While we were chatting, she started
panicking and such.
Luckily, I knew a thing or two on how
to calm someone down.
It was important, I needed to know
how to calm them.

The technique I used was called

"Square Breathing", and I had
another one just in case she started
to lose her senses.

I needed to know what to do just in

case one of my friends started
panicking, I searched this all those
years ago.
I'm glad it payed off.

Day 6:
EXAMS.
HOLY GUACAMOLE!
Today is pain bUT-
Tomorrow... and the day after
tomorrow...
One. Subject.
YESSSSS!!!!
LET'S FRICKIN' GOOOOOO!!

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APAN was conFUSING.

LIKE-
I had a couple of brainfarts here and
there but like-
My entire brain was just ???????
Then again, I have brain farts all the
time.

Filipino was easier, luckily.

Yeah it was a lot easier-
 _____

I'm finally doing it...

Journal.
I'm finally doing it!
I'M WRITING CHAPTER 3!!!!

Oh my gosh- I never taught I'd do it

honestly!
But then again, I kinda have to-
My fanfic literally almost hitted the 1k
hit-
......
Yeah- I'll get working again.
I'll type again if something interesting
happens.

____

Heather and I did a face reveal!!!

And a voice reveal.
And tell me why, journal.
Tell me why doES SHE LITERALLY
LOOKS AND SOUNDS YOUNGER
THAN ME???
SHE IS LITERALLY 5 YEARS
OLDER THAN ME.
WHAT IS THIS.

____

I stayed up late with Jule.

As much as I was really sleepy and
tired.
I wanted to make sure she was okay.
She was on an event with her family
and felt a bit off.
So I wanted to atleast cheer her up??
Be with her??

My emotions are a mess honestly.

Can't even tell if these emotions are
platonic or romantic.
It would've been easier if she wasn't
a friend.
Then I would've known better.
But no.

I don't know what I'm feeling.

And that's scary.

Besides, journal, with all the girls we
confessed.
We'd definitely get turned down again
HAHAHAHA

But hey, what I feel doesn't matter.

She's feeling better now, that's what
matters.
Hahahaha, we both know that Jule
isn't a relationship person.
I think it's better to keep our dynamic
this way.
Yeah, it definitely is.

We are still talking.

My eyes are really exhausted, holy
mackerel-
Okay she told me to go sleep-
It's my cue to sleep now.
Talk to you later, I guess.

Day 7:

Omg.
Last day tomorrow on the exams.
I'm finALLY FREE

____

Okay, journal.
I'm not gonna lie.
But I feel like I'm burning myself out
when I do things I love.

My head becomes so disorganized.

Oh I need to write my fanfiction!
Wait, what about our unfinished
drawing?
Hey! I know you aren't finished with
your things but I think you'd like this
new drawing/writing idea!
Holdon- we gOT SCHOOL-
This was never like this.
Back when I just lazed around all
day, I was organized.
Do your schoolwork after this, draw
some after your done.

But with my online activity?

My mind has never gotten so

disorganized.
I used to always make this schedules
in my head, deadlines even.
I had a plan on what to do the entire
day.

But it's no longer like that.

It scares me.
Everything should have an order.

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Nah it's cool now.

I was able to organize everything
again.
I even finished scene 1 on ch.3!
Instead of this being a weekly fic, I'll
probably update it in 2 or 3 weeks..?
As long as I update it and not going
over the month.

____

Stayed up until 12-

Jule, Cass and I chatted a bunch.

Cassy kept tEASING ME, THAT

DARN HAG.
Heather hasn't been seening my
messages.
I wonder if she can make it to movie
night tomorrow.