Monologue Piece Except from

DEAD STARS by Paz Marquez Benitez

“JULIA SALAS”
You! You! And You!
Do you really know how it feels?
Do you really know how it grips me inside?
And threatens me to rip apart?
Do you really know the weight that holds me down?
A weight so powerful I can hardly move!

Alfredo! Oh, Alfredo!

I thought it was me.. (I thought it was me)
I thought you’re the one and I’m your girl next door!
Oh. poor heart! You fell in love, yet you fool in love!

So sad?
Yes, it is.
What would a woman feel when the man she loved was now engaged to someone?
It hurts! It really hurts!

Esperanza! Alfredo’s four years’ fiancée.

She was one of the fortunate woman
Who have the gift of uniformly acceptable appearance?
While me?
My face was not notably pretty
Yet I have a tantalizing charm all the more compelling
Because it is an inner quality—an achievement of the spirit.

Pretty, Pretty!
A foolish word!
Something is pretty when it pleases the eye.

Six weeks!
Six weeks I have been in his arms.
His unloving false arms embrace that somehow once made me feel warm
And made my heart so tender.
Those six weeks were now swift-seeming in memory
Yet they have been so deep in the living,
Charge by the compelling power and sweetness.

I need to feel that you’ll be there for me

I need to feel that you’ll never give up on me
Even though our relationship has no label.
That you’ll never leave me,
And you’ll never go away!

You’re my sweetest hello and my hardest goodbye

I used to hide the pain that breaks my heart inside,
I used to smile pretending that everything’s alright.
(clap)
I congratulate you for your wedding,
CONGRATULATIONS!
Don’t worry, this will be the last time that we met
And I won’t bother you anymore,
GOODBYE! And the last word has been said!

I’m waiting