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10.1016/j.apnu.2016.03.009: Archives of Psychiatric Nursing
Exploring the Experience of Self-Diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder in
Adults
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Title:
Exploring the Experience of Self-Diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder in Adults
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Laura Foran Lewis
University of Vermont, USA
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Corresponding Author:
Laura Foran Lewis
College of Nursing and Health Sciences
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University of Vermont
105 Rowell Building
106 Carrigan Drive
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Burlington, VT 05405-0068, USA
Email: lforanlewis@gmail.com
Phone: (860) 550-3504
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Funding Acknowledgement:
This research received no specific grant from any funding agency in the public,
commercial, or not-for-profit sectors.
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Other Acknowledgements:
The researcher would like to thank the participants of this study for inspiring this study
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Abstract
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One in 68 Americans has Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD), and diagnosis is often
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delayed into adulthood in individuals without comorbid intellectual disability. Many
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phenomenology was to explore the experience of realizing a self-diagnosis of ASD
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among 37 individuals who were not formally diagnosed. Results revealed five themes:
feeling ―othered,‖ managing self doubt, sense of belonging, understanding myself, and
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questioning the need for formal diagnosis. Healthcare professionals must have an
Keywords:
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Association, 2013, p. 50). One in 68 children in the United States has ASD, and reports
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indicate that it is as prevalent in adults as in children (Brugha et al., 2011; Centers for
Disease Control and Prevention [CDC], 2014). For those who have ASD without
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intellectual disability, approximately half of this population, delayed diagnosis is
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common and individuals may even reach adulthood before they are diagnosed (CDC,
2014; Lehnhardt et al., 2013; Spencer et al., 2011). Though these adults are often able to
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function independently, they face significant challenges that impact quality of life as well
as comorbidities such as depression, anxiety, and risk of suicide (Cassidy et al., 2014;
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Sterling et al., 2007). These symptoms are likely amplified when the individual lacks
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self-awareness and support, as is the case for the estimated 50-60% of the population
with high functioning ASD who remain undiagnosed (Baron-Cohen et al., 2009; Myhill
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Many adults who are unable to obtain a formal diagnosis or are currently seeking
qualitative study of 77 individuals diagnosed with ASD as adults, participants were self-
diagnosed for an average of 3.25 years before they were formally diagnosed (Author,
2016). Many of these individuals used the Internet to explore and confirm their self-
diagnosis while awaiting formal diagnosis. Internet self-diagnosis has been problematic
contributing to ―cyberchondria‖ (Chen & Tumer, 2010; Fergus & Dolan, 2014; Holyoake
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of online support groups and forums, a rise in television characters and media
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representatives from the ASD population, and popular biographical books about adult-
diagnosis of ASD such as those by John Elder Robison, David Finch, and Daniel
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Tammet. Yet, few qualitative studies explore the experience of being diagnosed with
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ASD in adulthood. In a qualitative study of 18 young adults who were formally
diagnosed with ASD at various times during the lifespan, Portway and Johnson (2010)
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reported ―harms‖ experienced by individuals who were diagnosed as older-adolescents or
of low self esteem, high anxiety, depression and suicidal tendencies‖ (p. 81-82). They
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becomes apparent that there are risks associated with not diagnosing in early childhood‖
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(p. 81).
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were diagnosed with ASD as adults, Powell and Acker (2016) reported that individuals in
a subclinical threshold group who displayed ―significant autistic traits but did not reach
full diagnosis‖ (p. 73) experienced themes of ―Diagnostic disappointment: ‗I hoped for
clarity … I was disappointed not to get a clear diagnosis‖ (p. 76) and ―Lack of clarity: ‗I
didn‘t get the clarify I needed … I was hoping for answers but didn‘t get them‖ (p. 77).
of those who are ―undiagnosed and inaccessible‖ (Portway & Johnson, 2010). Though
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experiences of those who are self-diagnosed allows healthcare professionals insight into a
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information on the risks and benefits of not diagnosing ―borderline‖ cases of ASD in
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childhood, on barriers to formal diagnosis in those not diagnosed, and on the self-
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The purpose of this study was to explore the unique experience of reaching a self-
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diagnosis of ASD. This study was borne out of participant feedback from a previous
reported that they had received a formal evaluation and were diagnosed with ASD, or at
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least had seen a professional who informally evaluated the individual and concluded they
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likely had ASD. Upon starting data collection, the researcher was contacted by four
individuals, reporting that they did not meet the criteria, but that they were self-diagnosed
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explained:
authority for an autism assessment, but the response back was that they do not
have any specialist in the field who works with adults. So I have not seen a
mental health professional about it, because there isn‘t one in my region.
He further stated, ―At this stage I cannot support this study, precisely because it is
This is a population that has been largely ignored, begging to be researched and
experiences of those who feel confident that they have ASD but have been unable or
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unwilling to seek formal diagnosis. All healthcare professionals who encounter
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individuals who are self-diagnosed, particularly those working in mental health, must
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adequately educate and support adults with ASD and to understand barriers to formal
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diagnosis in adulthood.
Method
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This study aimed to answer the research question: What is the experience of being
philosophy, truth is viewed from the eye of the beholder. In translating this philosophy to
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method, participants are selected because they have lived the phenomenon of interest.
They are asked to describe their experiences, and the researcher‘s goal is to present an
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all preconceived ideas before and during the research process, called epoche or
phenomenological reduction, to prevent these ideas from influencing data. This element
particularly in mental health. The researcher kept a journal throughout this study to
convenience purposive sample was recruited via posts on public forums and online
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support groups for individuals with ASD with permission from site moderators. Data
were collected from April to August 2015 via an SSL encrypted open-ended survey
website. Inclusion criteria required that individuals be over age 18 and be self-diagnosed
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with ASD but not formally diagnosed.
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Individuals were asked to respond to the following statement: ―Please describe
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your experience of coming to a self-diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder. Please share
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any thoughts, feelings, and specific experiences.‖ Since mistrust in the healthcare system
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was an anticipated barrier to formal diagnosis, the researcher opted not to collect any
contact participants to ask follow-up or clarifying questions. Data were collected until
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Data were analyzed using Colaizzi‘s (1978) seven-step method. First, the author
closely read all ―protocols,‖ or interview transcripts (Step 1). Next, significant statements
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were extracted from protocols (Step 2), and meanings were formulated from each
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significant statement (Step 3). Formulated meanings were sorted into theme clusters
(Step 4). Table 1 depicts an example of significant statements and their formulated
interest (Step 5). This exhaustive description was then reduced into a fundamental
this time, a Masters-prepared nurse reviewed the author‘s audit trail and findings. No
Finally, this fundamental structure was reviewed with participants and edited
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based on their feedback (Step 7). Using another SSL encrypted survey tool, participants
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were recruited once again via online forums and were asked to read a description of
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Based on this feedback, no changes were made to the themes themselves, and only minor
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additive changes were made to the descriptions of themes. Thus, member-checking,
audit trails, and ―thick description,‖ in which the researcher provides rich quotes and
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detailed description of data, were used to ensure trustworthiness (Geertz, 1973; Lincoln
Results
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Sample
were mostly White and male. On average, participants had been self-diagnosed for 3.8
years at the time they participated in this study, ranging from 1 month to 22 years.
Individuals from 11 countries were represented. Participants described five themes that
Ever since I was young, I have felt broken and that I wasn‘t trying hard enough to
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be like other people. It felt like there was some secret language that I was trying
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to view in a closed off room through a muddy window.
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Table 3. As one participant wrote, ―I am struggling with understanding how to do life.
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What should be obvious and appears to be for everyone else baffles me and I feel
When participants initially learned about ASD, often from family members,
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friends, the Internet, or television programs, most felt an immediate ―fit‖ and then began
criteria and provide their input, and others took to online forums. Most took online self-
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tests for ASD. For some, researching ASD became an obsession in an attempt to confirm
or refute a self-diagnosis: ―Learning about ASD consumed me, every moment I was
For most participants, the more they learned about ASD, the more confident they
became in their self-diagnosis. As one said, ―It came to the point where I was no longer
capable of the extreme level of denial necessary to NOT conclude that I am autistic, and I
was forced to give in to the self-diagnosis.‖ Another described disclosing her suspicions
to her mother:
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She initially told me that I was making a big deal about nothing, that I was
perfectly normal and to stop worrying, and I really started to doubt myself. …
After a while I got out the diagnostic criteria again and went through it with her,
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without saying what it was for, both of us listing ways in which I met each point.
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At the end she told me that this summed me up almost to a T, and asked me what
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Some participants described that this denial was rooted in not wanting to accept
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the diagnosis: ―I tried to find any excuse as to how I could just be close but the more I
read, the more I couldn‘t convince myself I was Neurotypical.‖ Another explained:
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Denial also is a significant issue because the more you read about ASD, the
symptoms, the consequences, the statistics, the problems people with diagnosed
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ASD face, the less you actually want to belong to that group due to the sheer
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amount and gravity of the issues that you‘ll have to deal with consciously once
Though participants described ―writing off‖ symptoms for most of their lives, they felt
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that the more they learned about ASD, the less they could doubt their own belief that they
had ASD.
Many participants described feeling like ―others were describing my life‖ when
reading about ASD. Participants said, ―I felt like I could have written half the stuff I was
reading,‖ and ―It was both an incredible relief and very unsettling to hear them more-or-
less tell me my life story in their own words, from their own experiences.‖
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said, ―This was the first time I felt deeply understood, and had my own perspectives
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communicated back to me,‖ and another, ―It is comforting to know there are other people
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like me.‖ However, for some, belonging was a double-edged sword: ―I have since found
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a sense of belonging in the online ASD community – although, on the flip side, I do feel a
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bigger sense of separation from other people as a result.‖
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Theme 4: Understanding Myself
understanding. One said, ―It felt like I finally had a basis for understanding me.‖
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Another shared:
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[The self-diagnosis] finally, for the first time in my life, makes me make sense.
Nothing in my life has ever made sense, and the difficulties I have with things that
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are ―no big deal‖ to others have made me feel utterly worthless. Now that I know
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the explanation behind it all, I don‘t feel so cruddy. It‘s a weight off my
shoulders.
Several participants explained that the self-diagnosis helped them to identify their
strengths:
I have some weaknesses that others don‘t but I also have strengths that others
don‘t … Everyone has things they can‘t do but want to and they make peace with
it. You wouldn‘t look at a fork and think about not being able to eat soup.
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With knowledge of ASD, participants felt better equipped to deal with ASD symptoms.
Participants said: ―For the first time and going forward, I really know who I am and what
I‘m dealing with so I can make more informed and useful choices, and how to deal with
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some of the problems I‘ve experienced,‖ and, ―I am slowly peeling away the shell I have
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built up in order to protect myself from being hurt by others and it gets easier to deal with
these issues.‖
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Theme 5: Questioning the Need for Formal Diagnosis
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Some individuals reported that they were satisfied with a self-diagnosis and did
not feel the need to pursue a formal diagnosis. Others still wished for a formal diagnosis
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to give them ―peace of mind‖ or to help them with work, school, or financial
One major reason for pursuing a formal diagnosis some time in the future is so
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people I choose to tell believe me. I am not obviously autistic so I fear being told
snowflake.‖
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Many individuals reported facing barriers that made formal diagnosis impossible or at
least very unlikely. The following list summarizes participants‘ reported barriers to
formal diagnosis:
Concern that they would be evaluated and would be told they do not have ASD,
particularly among females who felt their symptoms were not ―classic‖ for ASD
and among those who recognized that their symptoms were different than those
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seen in children
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Fear that they their symptoms would not be believed if reported to professionals
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Strong misperceptions about ASD that delayed their own self-diagnosis
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Parents did not want them to be diagnosed in childhood, and they were just now
pursuing a diagnosis
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Concern about stigmas related to autism or "mental illness"
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a diagnosis
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They did not perceive that there would be any benefits to being diagnosed
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Most individuals felt that a diagnosis of any kind, self or formal, gave them words
to explain the previously unexplainable, saying, ―I found the words to describe many
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thoughts I could never explain.‖ Many wished they had known about ASD earlier in life:
My biggest regret is that I didn‘t know sooner, as this understanding has shown
me how life choices I‘ve made, which might have been right for others, have been
very harmful to me simply because I‘m autistic and have different needs and
abilities than other people. I had felt pushed to live up to the ―normal‖ standard,
Discussion
Findings provide insight into the experiences of individuals who are self-
diagnosed with ASD. Comparisons between findings from this study and studies on
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individuals who were formally diagnosed with ASD are shown in Table 4. In general,
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the self-diagnosis experience is very similar to the formal diagnosis experience (Author,
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reported feeling self-doubt as opposed to the validation experienced by those formally
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diagnosed. Also, though services for adults with ASD are limited in general, those who
―very late diagnosis of ASD.‖ Results from the present study fit within the earlier stages
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of Wylie‘s model. Even without experiencing the stages involved in formal diagnosis
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and disclosure, participants in this study described elements of a later stage in the model:
finding self-acceptance and understanding of their strengths. This implies that self-
awareness may be more influential than actual diagnosis on reaching this milestone and
examined. Portway and Johnson (2010) found that there were significant short- and long-
term risks of not diagnosing young adults with ―borderline‖ cases of ASD that arguably
outweighed the benefits of not ―labeling‖ these individuals, since these individuals
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already recognized themselves as being different from others. Findings from the present
study also indicate that participants experienced low self-worth, feelings of inadequacy,
and isolation prior to self-diagnosis. Individuals with ASD are prone to developing
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depression and anxiety and are at risk for suicide (Cassidy et al., 2014; Sterling et al.,
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2007). If these individuals are experiencing significant symptoms and are in a
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they may be at even higher risk while they work through this identity ―crisis‖ and self-
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exploration.
settings should still recognize and validate the experiences and perceptions of these
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Regardless of whether or not they are formally diagnosed, healthcare professionals must
recognize the critical need to screen these individuals for comorbidities and situational
grief.
adulthood, all describe a complex mix of positive and negative emotions, often describing
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concurrent relief and regret for delayed self-understanding (Author, 2016; Powell &
Acker, 2016; Punshon, Skirrow, & Murphy, 2009). In the current study, for example,
despite the positive feelings towards diagnosis described by most participants, others
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indicated that their self-diagnosis was ―unsettling,‖ ―separating‖ them from others,
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difficult to accept, and made them reflect on their pasts and mourn the loss of ―not
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knowing sooner.‖ Several participant stories mirrored Kubler Ross‘s (1969/2014) five
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stages of grief. Participants described initial denial of diagnosis, anger over their
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situations and for not being aware of their diagnosis earlier in life, bargaining with self
trying to account for symptoms without diagnosis, depression, and ultimately self-
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acceptance. Without formal diagnosis, these self-diagnosed individuals may cycle
recognize the concerns of those who are self-diagnosed just as they would treat an
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the self-diagnosed individual‘s concerns based on the merit that no formal diagnosis
exists, they are likely to reinforce existing feelings of mistrust. Instead, professionals
should begin the appointment by listening and validating the experience of the self-
diagnosed individual. For example, professionals might ask, ―What symptoms are most
troubling to you?‖ ―How are these symptoms affecting your daily functioning?‖ ―How
did you arrive at a self-diagnosis?‖ ―Tell me what you know about ASD.‖
diagnosis in general, recognizing that ―fear of not being believed‖ can prevent a self-
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formal diagnosis is not possible. They should assess, ―Have you considered participating
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in a formal evaluation for ASD?‖ ―If so, what has prevented you from participating?‖
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―If not, why not?‖ Professionals who encounter individuals who are self-diagnosed in
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any clinical environment should screen for comorbidities in this population, particularly
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anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation.
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This study had several limitations. First, this study relied on participants‘ self-
incorrectly attribute unique personality traits to ASD. Data described in this study should
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described in Table 3. Another limitation was the reliance on online communities for
would skew findings (Brownlow & O‘Dell, 2006; Giles & Newbold, 2010). These
from their online community than those on the outskirts who do not belong to such
groups. For example, the theme ―Sense of Belonging‖ might be unique to those
recruited from a variety of online forums, it was not possible to recruit those who are not
currently involved in some form of ASD community. Finally, the inability to ask
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individual follow-up questions was a limitation, though the large sample size of this
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While this study was able to qualitatively capture reasons that participants opt for self-
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diagnosis, future studies should examine presence of barriers among individuals who
were able to reach a formal diagnosis in adulthood and generalizability of these barriers
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across the adult ASD population. It is also significant that 44% of this sample was
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female despite the fact that ASD is 4.5 times more prevalent in males than females (CDC,
2014). This is consistent with findings in children that report that diagnosis is more
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likely to be delayed in females than males (Daniels & Mandell, 2013; Russell et al.,
2010), but also warrants asking the question, do females face more barriers to formal
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Findings from this study bring life to the experiences of those who are self-
professionals who encounter individuals who are self-diagnosed with ASD should
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diagnosis, and should assess for comorbidities even if an ASD diagnosis has not been
formally confirmed.
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Makes Sense
―Suddenly, almost my whole When she was self-diagnosed, her
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of Life
life started to make sense.‖ whole life started to make sense.
Experiences
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―I understand my past so much He understands his past better after
better now.‖ self-diagnosing.
Understanding
―Now I‘m happier. I know so He is happier since self-diagnosis.
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Myself
much more about myself and I He knows more about himself and
Self-Diagnosis
like how I interpret the world.‖ likes his worldview.
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―I have struggles, but I also
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The self-diagnosis is allowing him
Individuals to
have strength and the to start seeing his strengths.
see their
pragmatic in me is starting to
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Mean: 29.9 years
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Range: 18-52 years
Highest Level of Education (N=36)
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High school graduate 5 14
Trade/technical/vocational training 3 8
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Some college 13 36
College graduate 9 25
Some postgraduate work 2 6
Postgraduate degree 4 11
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Employment Status (N=36)
Employed 25 70
Unemployed or disabled MA 3 8
Student 8 22
Race/Ethnicity (N=35)
Asian 1 3
Black 2 6
Hispanic 1 3
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White 31 88
Country (N=36)
Argentina 1 3
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Belgium 1 3
Germany 1 3
Canada 4 11
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India 1 3
Russia 1 3
Norway 1 3
Slovenia 1 3
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Turkey 1 3
United Kingdom 5 13
United States 19 52
Note: Sample size is provided for each demographic characteristic to account for missing
data. Total sample size N = 37.
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Becoming absorbed ―I would lose myself in drawing or playing with Barbies and forget to eat
in projects/hobbies or drink.‖
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Behavioral tics ―When I was younger I used to flex/unflex my fingers until they hurt.‖
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Being bullied ―I have been bullied all my life. I can‘t remember a time when someone
wasn‘t picking on me.‖
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Depression & ―I self harmed, and was going to call my mum up to say goodbye to her
suicidal ideation before I killed myself, but as soon as I heard her voice, I couldn't‘ do it
and came home instead.‖
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Difficulty reading ―I have an incomplete understanding or misunderstanding of motivations
others of other people during social interactions.‖
―I have a difficult time understanding when and why people get upset.‖
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Experiencing ―I can get overwhelmed by certain environments and I want to run and
“meltdowns” or hide somewhere.‖
“shutdowns” ―I began to recognize my meltdowns for what they were.‖
Feeling “socially ―I was always on the fringes of social circles, if at all, and I would often
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Poor eye contact ―I have never been able to look people in the eye, and I can‘t get it right if
I try. I either avert my gaze completely or stare intently.‖
Sensory sensitivity ―I dislike touch.‖
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Current Study (Author, 2016) (Portway & (Powell & Acker, 2016) (Punshon, Skirrow, & (Wylie, 2014)
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Johnson, 2005) Murphy, 2009)
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Phenomenology; Phenomenology; Constant Mixed methods study, Interpretive Model only; no research
37 participants; 77 participants; comparative qualitative strand analyzed phenonmenological study
self-diagnosed as informally or analysis; 18 using thematic content analysis; 10 participants;
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adults (age≥18 formally participants with analysis; 74 participants; formally diagnosed as
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years) diagnosed as ASD; young adults adults receiving full diagnosis adults age 21-44 years
adults (age≥18 age 18-35, of autism spectrum or
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years) diagnosed at subclinical threshold
various times diagnosis
Themes from
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Current Study
Feeling I Always Knew I Not quite fitting Negative life experiences Knowing that we are
“Othered” was Different (not feeling accepted in different
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friends and feeling as
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though they ‗fitted in‘
with a group of people‖)
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Understanding Striving for Self- Understanding and Effect of diagnosis on Researching ASD and
Myself Acceptance explanation: ―It puts the beliefs (positive & reaching self-discovery
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pieces together in my mind negative; diagnosis Finding self-acceptance
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… helps because it explains provided a framework to through enhanced
so much … I reflected on my explain their difficulties understanding of our
past‖ & ―exonerated them from
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strengths
Feeling better: ―I feel better being blamed for their
about myself because … I previous difficulties‖;
know it‘s not my fault‖ ―positive reframing of
ED
some symptoms‖)
Questioning the Wandering into the Experience of services
Need for
Formal
Future
PT (pre-diagnosis; being
misdiagnosed & mistrust
CE
Diagnosis in healthcare services)
AC