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If Dreams Are
If Dreams Are
George’s skeleton and the narrators are both gone. Her mom passed away, and she tries to live
with and without her. On the other hand, the narrator does not try to be both but one; a writer.
This shows in the pictures as well; How to be both, the painting has both sides but in the Enigma
of Arivall, it is a stuckness in a place two characters, one looking back and one looking forward,
The narrator tried to be a man he is not, and when others saw him as the man he is, he felt
nothing but shame. The humiliation he felt was so great that he rejected every opportunity to
make him live in the world, so by not living it, he still made it alive and saw things as
“materials”. He does not write back to Angela at the end because he is Victor to them, not him,
and for the whole thing, we still do not catch his name, as he is still lost on the pier, waiting to
go, waiting to come. All at once he feels in limbo, “we are all migrants of our own existence
now.”(Smith 37) He was a migrant for himself but not for his writer self. It was the shame, too,
“that made me keep my eyes closed”(Naipaul 126) likewise he shut down his identity. Looking
from the outside, picking details he liked, and acting as the god, the upper side of the painting,
sadly for them, they “come and nobody even bats an eyelid. (Smith 46). Being on the upper side
is what the narrator wants but he does not recognize in the first place that he is already living in
down. Nothing is like how they seem, but dreams are dreams. (Pessoa,503) If dreams are
touched they lose their essence as dreams and die. Fantasies need to be untouched and what
The beauty of the painting comes from it being alive. Something is always happening, it is like
“Where is Waldo?” it is a different picture when you try to look for waldo and a different one
when you just look from it from the outside; seeing Icarus falling and not seeing Icarus falling,
the picture changes with what you see. “Everything is nothing but a charming game.”(Smith,45)
The charm of the game is that it is the unknown, the narrator saw a different London from
Dickens's eyes and saw later with his eyes later as a man from Trinidad. He did not see it as
unknown but as usual. “But it is only me who wants to wrap around your dreams, and Have you
In the picture “Enigma of Arrival,” he looks lost, looking for the map he has from Dickens, but it
doesn't look like he is in the right direction. He looks stuck, not moving in the chess board, not
making a move. Stands there and looks around. Realizes there are no ships in the warf, “his life’s
journey had been made.”(Naipaul,172) The narrator moves into the down of the blue after the
fog disappeared, “when the reality surrounded me English literature ceased to be universal.”And
man and the writer became one, space and time became one and he does not need to go on a
journey because he is already there, sometimes under the blue sometimes up the blue. “I a a u
opn ook.”(Smith,58) Both open and not open at the same time. Fantasy and life together, seeing
things that are not there, but their effects still go on. Past is as present as the past, it is about
remembering. George wanted to watch porn to remember the injustice that happened to the girl
but she can simply remember something else. Remember the good times with her mother just
Citations
Smith, Ali. How to Be Both. Anchor Books, a Division of Penguin Random House LLC,
2015.
Bookkeeper in the City of Lisbon. Exact Change, 1998. (I have the turkish
translation of the book and since I could not find the english version I translated)
Mac, Fleetwood. “Dreams.” Rumours. Ken Caillat and Richard Dashut, 1977.
Rich, Adrienne Cecile . In Collected Early Poems: 1950–1970 , Rich, Adrienne Cecile, 230-231.
Aruoba Oruç. De Ki Işte. Metis, 2018. (There is no translation for this Turkish