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PRAISE FOR GOD’S PROVISION IN TOUGH TIMES
TABLE OF CONTENTS
FOREWORD
1. IT COMES IN PRETTY HANDY DOWN HERE
2. SEEING PAST THE MUD
3. AN ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE
4. PLANS
5. BROKEN
6. SINGING IN THE PAIN
7. BELIEVING GOD
8. YOU CAN’T OUTGIVE GOD
9. GOD OF ALL THE YEARS
10. HE MAKES ALL THINGS NEW
11. TRUSTING GOD, NOT THE AMERICAN DREAM
12. UNRAVELING RELATIONSHIPS
13. FACING FORWARD
14. WHEN HEALTH ISSUES AFFECT EMPLOYMENT
OPTIONS
15. TRUSTING FOR THE FUTURE
16. THE ALPHA AND OMEGA PROVIDES
17. LOSING A JOB IS PERSONAL
18. WHERE DOES MY SECURITY LIE … REALLY?
19. ENVISION YOUR BLESSING
20. HUMILITY
21. RECOVERING FROM A LOST CALL
22. WHERE ARE WE GOING?
23. SHE CRIES ON SATURDAYS
24. LIFE ON THE LAUGH FRONTIER
25. RESTORATION
MEET OUR CONTRIBUTING WRITERS
MEET THE AUTHORS CYNTHIA AND LA-TAN
GOD’S PROVISION IN T OUGH T IMES
Published by Lighthouse Publishing of the Carolinas
2333 Barton Oaks Dr., Raleigh, NC, 27614
ISBN 9781938499449
Copyright © 2013 by Cynthia Howerter and La-Tan Roland Murphy
Cover design by Ken Raney: www.kenraney.com
Book design by Reality Info Systems www.realityinfo.com
Foreword
1. It Comes In Pretty Handy Down Here
James L. Rubart
2. Seeing Past the Mud
La-Tan Roland Murphy
3. An Attitude of Gratitude
Cynthia Howerter
4. Plans
Dee Dee Parker
5. Broken
Eva Marie Everson
6. Singing in the Pain
La-Tan Roland Murphy
7. Believing God
Alycia W. Morales
8. You Can’t Outgive God
Cynthia Howerter
9. God of All the Years
Cecil Stokes
10. He Makes All Things New
La-Tan Roland Murphy
11. Trusting God, Not the American Dream
Beth K. Fortune
12. Unraveling Relationships
Deborah Raney
13. Facing Forward
Cynthia Howerter
14. When Health Issues Affect Employment Options
Carrie Fancett Pagels
15. Trusting for the Future
Ramona Richards
16. The Alpha and Omega Provides
La-Tan Roland Murphy
17. Losing a Job is Personal
Tamara D. Fickas
18. Where Does My Security Lie … Really?
Dan Walsh
19. Envision Your Blessing
Cynthia Howerter
20. Humility
Felicia Bowen Bridges
21. Recovering from a Lost Call
Roger E. Bruner
22. Where Are We Going?
La-Tan Roland Murphy
23. She Cries on Saturdays
Eddie Jones
24. Life on the Laugh Frontier
Torry Martin
25. Restoration
Cynthia Howerter
26. Meet Our Contributing Writers
27. Meet the Authors Cynthia and La-Tan
FOREWORD
Broke?
No!
I am rich because I have God, my Great
Provider who supplies all of my needs.
They say a man loses more than just his income when
he loses his job; he loses a major part of his identity. I
believe that’s true. I lost more than that, however. When
I lost my job at the International Mission Board, I lost
my calling. I couldn’t avoid wondering whether God
would ever help me recover from a loss that great.
I grew up the only child of a Baptist minister. From
earliest childhood, I believed pastors and missionaries—
and everyone else in a full-time Christian vocation—
were special. God chose them; He called them to be His
servants. Yet I also saw what life had been like for my
parents. We lived in parsonages that came nowhere
close to the quality of housing most of our church
members enjoyed, and we could never afford many of
the little things other people took for granted. I not only
resented those sacrifices, I prayed in my own selfish
way that—whatever God chose to do with me—He
wouldn’t call me into a full-time Christian vocation.
Anything but that.
I didn’t have any real sense of calling when I taught
ninth-grade English for six-plus years and even less
when I worked as a job counselor/interviewer for
almost ten. My aging parents knew I hadn’t found my
niche—or should I say God hadn’t revealed it yet?—and
they offered to pay for my study of computer
programming at a local community college. They
thought I might enjoy and benefit from it, and they were
right. I had never caught on to anything so easily.
Programming was definitely going to be my “thing.”
After all those years, had God finally led me to the right
something?
You know the old adage about not being able to get a
job without first having experience? That proved true
even in a field that was wide open at the time. I had
always been interested in the Foreign Mission Board of
the Southern Baptist Convention. My family had
historical connections to it, and it was located in
Richmond, Virginia, where my parents lived. Two big
pluses. Through a series of minor miracles—God was
working this out His way in His time, even though I
couldn’t see it yet—the human resources director’s
response to my continuing interest changed remarkably
quickly from, “We only hire people with experience,” to
“We’ve got something in-house now that’s so new we
can’t find enough experienced people.”
From my initial interview with him to a luncheon
interview with the heads of the tiny Information
Technology department, I felt as if God was about to
deliver me to the Promised Land. I was going to find the
home I’d spent over sixteen years wandering in the
work wilderness searching for. Something I truly felt
called to. I waited for the job offer. It didn’t come. I
grew impatient. Too often, I reminded the human
resources director of my continued interest—and never
received a response. I reminded God even more
frequently, but He remained equally silent. While on
vacation with my in-laws that summer I felt pushed to
look for a programming job in that area—an area far
from Richmond. My heart wasn’t there, however. I
clearly belonged at the Foreign Mission Board—even if
they didn’t know it yet—and I wasn’t going to
compromise.
One day, I flopped down on the bed in frustration and
prayed one of the sincerest prayers I’ve ever prayed.
Lord, I can’t make anything happen. It’s all in Your
hands. Please do whatever You want to. Not two days
later, I heard from my parents. The Foreign Mission
Board had been looking for me, and I was to call as
soon as I got home. Finally! I’d received not just a
physical call, but—more important—a spiritual one. God
knew I didn’t have the temperament to be a pastor or a
missionary, but He also knew I was just right for
working behind the scenes at an agency that recruited
and trained, sent and supported missionaries throughout
the world. Not to mention keeping Southern Baptists
fired up about the importance of missions. I was set. I
relished my work and took advantage of every
opportunity to become more immersed in missions. I
did everything from attending the weekly chapel service
to playing bass guitar at International Mission Board (the
Foreign Mission Board’s current name) events at the
Lifeway Conference Centers at Glorieta, New Mexico
and Ridgecrest, North Carolina. I most enjoyed going on
numerous volunteer mission trips to Romania, England,
Wales, and Australia.
After eighteen satisfying years at the International
Mission Board, things changed. We transitioned from
mainframe computers to personal computers and started
looking for new ways to use the Internet. Although I
thought I was keeping up with the changes, I soon
learned—in a most unpleasant way—how wrong I was.
My department director asked me—I could tell from his
tone I had to say yes, no matter how I felt—whether I
would transfer to a different team. I agreed. Reluctantly.
Try as I might, I never adjusted to my new
assignment. I made some major mistakes, my
performance slipped dangerously, and I couldn’t have
felt more miserable or useless. One day—a year or so
into this role I’d proven incapable of handling—I arrived
at work and found everyone sitting around, looking
gloomy, and discussing a newspaper article about a
pending downsizing at the International Mission Board.
Considering my lack of success over the past year, I
knew that if a downsizing took place, I of all people
didn’t deserve to stay.
I was one of the sixty-some people laid off that day.
On one hand, I felt elated—or at least relieved—to be
free of the biggest failure of my life. On the other—it
took a while for the reality to kick in—I had lost the call
it had taken so many years to receive. I would no longer
be serving God in the way that had been so special for
almost nineteen years and the way I’d expected to serve
until retirement and beyond (as a volunteer).
At first, income wasn’t an issue. Not only had the
International Mission Board provided months of salary
and insurance benefits, they allowed me to convert a
number of unused vacation days to cash. Nonetheless, I
felt like a non-swimmer someone had just thrown into
the middle of a turbulent ocean. Maybe I couldn’t see
sharks, but neither did I feel the comfort of a sandy
bottom beneath my feet or see dry land a few quick
strokes away.
The search for a new call from God seemed
irrelevant; I’d lost the one that really mattered. So I
threw myself into the task of finding a new job. The
mission board paid for special job search classes. I
bought a suit—the first one I’d owned in years. I
ordered some business cards. I whipped my resume
into the best shape it had ever been in.
Even though I gained the job-seeking skills I needed,
something was missing. My call. There was only one
International Mission Board. God had brought me there.
Why hadn’t He let me stay? Bit by bit, He helped me
realize He’d been gently urging me to move on. But I’d
been too committed to my previous call to listen. He
knew this downsizing was the only way to get my
attention.
Okay, Lord, I’m listening. What do you want me to
do? I’m not old enough to retire, but Information
Technology has worn me out. It’s changing so rapidly I
don’t think I have the energy or the patience to keep up
with it any longer.
God answered by involving me in several job search
groups. One met at a Bob Evans restaurant, where the
weekly fellowship time was more meaningful than the
leads discussed. Another took place at the Needle’s Eye
Ministries headquarters. Both of those groups were
Christ-centered. A third group—a secular one—met in
the public room of a local grocery store.
It was at these meetings that I came to appreciate
how pastors and missionaries must feel when they must
quit doing what God once called them to do and move
on to something else. I kept asking God, “What do I
want to do ‘when I grow up’? Moreover, what do You
want me to do?” I was back at square one.
God then inspired me to write a song I dedicated to
my Bob Evans group. I often sang it to myself for
encouragement: