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effect on our future. Throughout this paper, we will go back in time and review different
moments in my life that helped frame who I am today. These moments will take us on a wild
rollercoaster of emotions including feelings of happiness, pride, joy, fear, sadness, and sorrow.
Whether the story or moment involves feelings of joy or sadness, I was able to learn from the
situation and become a better person for it. This journey is 45 years in the making and has some
plot twists that you might not be expecting. So please, clear your schedule, grab a drink, and join
The first destination on our journey through the Schwartzverse will take us to a small
desert town named Lucerne Valley, which is located in California’s high desert region. For this
stop, we will be looking at my childhood and some of the important moments that helped shape
my work ethic, how I parent, my leadership/followership skills, and my love for baseball. We
will bounce around from the age of six all the way to sixteen, which falls between the years 1983
to 1993. If I was younger and had fewer significant life experiences, this stop could have been
broken down into many more sections. But, because I’m old now and not the age of a typical
Let’s start this period in time with how my parents shaped my view of what hard work
looks like. To start, I want everyone to understand that my mom, Loretta M. Quinn-Schwartz,
was a badass! When we were young, she drove two hours both ways to her job as a Pasadena
Police Officer. She could have found something closer, but she wanted to finish where she
started because she was one of the first of three female police officers in the department. Prior to
the four of us kids being around and when she still lived in the Pasadena area, she worked three
jobs while attending junior college. Why work so much? Because she was the oldest of eight
kids and wanted to help her parents as much as she could. After retiring from the police force,
she became a full-time stay-at-home mom dedicated to her family. In her new role, she made all
of our meals, did all of our laundry, brought us all to our games or events, and did all the other
My dad was an interesting guy and never really seemed settled with what he did for a
living. He was always trying to find a better job or opportunity to make money for our family.
Nothing ever seemed to really take off, but that never stopped him from trying. Some of his
exploits included building a worm farm, a job as a private investigator, opening an electronics
store, and buying into a business that placed smaller phone booth phones inside of businesses
just as cell became more accessible. The most successful time in his professional journey came
as a manager of a rent-to-own furniture store. Once that ended, he sold cars, built above-ground
swimming pools, and whatever else he could find to make sure that some money was coming in
for the family. Long stints of unemployment were never an option for him. He always preached
that you must work hard for what you want in life, there is no easy path.
As you can see, my parents had a strong work ethic and did what they did for their
family. My mom showed us that you can have a career and see something all the way through till
retirement, such as I am currently doing with the Navy. My dad showed us that you never have
to settle and don’t be afraid to take chances even though they might not work out for you. I’m
not sure how much my mom loved that at the time, but I was glad to be able to learn that lesson.
With the value of hard work displayed by both of them, I started my work journey at a young
age. At the age of fourteen, my dad hired me to wash his business's windows twice a month and
would give us extra money to help build some of the furniture to be put on display. He pushed
me to ask all of the businesses in the strip mall to see if they needed a window washer. I quickly
had five more stores that I was responsible for. This helped me to better understand
responsibility and the value of hard work. At the end of this time frame, when I was 16, I started
working at Lucerne Valley Market. I consider this my first “real” job where I learned a lot about
accountability, flexibility, and humility. The lessons I learned from this period of my life are still
Now let's take a look at the role baseball played in my life during these years. From
when I can remember until I was 15 years old, my dad was always one of my little league
coaches. He loved baseball and that love of the game transferred to my brother Dennis and me
through his coaching, taking us to Angels games, and playing catch with us in the yard. He
coached us through losing seasons and championship seasons and my mom was there at almost
every single game to cheer us on. My proudest baseball moment during this period came in the
form of being selected for my first all-star team. I would not have been able to do it without my
dad's time and coaching. To this day, I remember the time I threw hard enough to make my dad
yell ouch and throw off his glove. That was how I knew that I was getting better at the game I
loved. Other foundational memories during this period involved the many times our dad took us
to Angel Stadium to watch our favorite team, even though they were not that great during those
years. Baseball taught me how to be a winner, how to be a good loser, the value of teamwork,
and the dedication which is needed to be good at something. Now if we go back to the future,
you will be able see that these life lessons resulted in me coaching my daughter's softball teams,
coaching boys juniors' baseball teams, becoming a partial season ticket holder for the Padres,
playing for numerous work softball teams, playing for an adult baseball league in London,
England, and now joining a 45 and older San Diego adult baseball league. As you can tell, my
parents helped me to find the love for a game that is fun but at the same time is full of life
lessons.
Another important part of my childhood came in the form of being the oldest child. Even
though I had no idea at the time, being the oldest of my two brothers and sister set the foundation
of my leadership adventure. Being the oldest, I set the example for everyone whether it was good
or bad. One of the examples I set and am proud of it to this day is that no matter the peer
pressure, I never did drugs. Probably because I feared my police officer mother and didn’t know
how it would affect my asthma. Ethier way, neither of my brothers ended up doing drugs. One of
the not-so-great examples a friend and I set for them was the occasional bout of shoplifting. I
learned from my friend and instead of saying no I went along with it. Even though I set a bad
example, none of us do anything like that today and that is probably because of the overall
example set by our parents. There are too many leadership lessons to discuss in relation to this
time period, but as you can see in the two stories I explored, I learned that being a leader is a
full-time job.
We cannot leave this window of my life without discussing how my family raised me.
With my mom being a police officer and a devoted catholic to my dad being an Air Force vet,
let's just say there were rules and ways we were expected to live our lives. Along with being
honest, we were taught manners and politeness at a young age. One of the biggest things that we
were expected to do at all times was, to tell the truth. I remember coming out of the bathroom
one day around the age of eight to find my larger-than-life grandfather standing there waiting on
me. He asked if I washed my hands, and I told him that I did, but he knew that I was lying. He
grabbed my hands to see if they were wet and then smacked them because I lied to him. That one
moment in time left a lasting impression on me, to tell the truth, and wash my hands after using
the bathroom. I also remember the yardsticks we had that stayed next to our refrigerator in the
kitchen. I do not know if they were ever used for anything else besides spanking our butts when
we lied or did something else to get in trouble. Contrary to today’s thinking, spanking did not
scar us for life. Instead, it showed us that there are repercussions for our actions. Being raised by
a strict catholic police officer and a vet forged how we acted as well as how we saw right and
wrong. This way of living and the lessons that came with it helped forge how I would parent my
That ends our time travel back to my childhood. As you can see my parents played an
essential part in how I see the world today. It was not always a specific event, but more so the
example they set for us every day that had the largest impact on the four of us. We cannot forget
the other factors that were an important part of this window in time. Factors that helped shape
who I am today include how involved in the church we were, my friends, our economic status,
and the small town where we grew up. Enough for this period, it is time to hop back into the
Welcome to Lucerne Valley High School, a place that will change my life forever. As a
senior in 1995, I had my first serious girlfriend. As I will explain, the choices Lesher and I made
together changed the course of our lives. Those choices then affected everything we had planned
prior to that. It even paved the path that led me to the job I still have today.
As I made plans to attend the University of Nevada Las Vegas (UNLV) after graduating
high school, Lesher came into my life. These plans would never see the light of day. After dating
for most of my senior year, I decided instead to attend a local community college to be closer to
her while she completed her senior year. It was during this time that we created a little human
who would later be known as Shyla aka Kid. This was probably the most scared I have been in
my entire life. My dad had preached to us to not make the same mistakes that he did and
according to him, having a daughter at the age of 18 was a huge mistake. Needless to say, I was
afraid to tell him. The next concern would be how I tell my catholic mother that I am about to
have a child born out of wedlock. I was terrified! Then after informing my parents, my next and
greatest concern was how in the world was I going to raise a baby right out of high school. I
lived at home with my parents, worked full-time at a market, and was trying to attend college
full-time. The only thing I owned at that point in my life was a car and raising a baby takes a lot
Usually having a baby is a joyous occasion, but that was not our experience. It was scary,
embarrassing, and filled with a lot of feelings about what in the world was I going to do with my
life now. On top of that, my mom was beyond mad and was embarrassed to tell the rest of the
family what had happened. When she found out, she kicked a hole in my door and then made me
repair it. Both of my parents were very disappointed in me and that was hard for me to process.
Thankfully, when Shyla got here everything changed. I was no longer scared as I was before, I
was filled with love and an attitude of I will do whatever it takes for her to have the best possible
life. Don’t get me wrong, I was still scared, but it was for another reason. Shyla was born with a
condition known as gastroschisis. This meant that Shyla’s stomach wall did not form completely
so some of her intestines extended outside of her stomach. Fortunately, she would be able to
leave the hospital after three months and go on to lead a normal life.
While she was receiving treatment in the hospital, I was trying to figure out the best way
to provide for her and her mom. After talking with my dad, I decided that I would try to join the
Air Force as he did. This would give us a steady source of income, provide a house for our
family, and money for college when I got out. The Air Force wanted me to get multiple waivers
for my asthma, so we walked over to the Navy recruiters who decided to ignore it altogether. So,
it was the Navy for me. This scared me some because you never know when a war may break
out, but overall, I was filled with pride for serving my country, but more importantly, being able
These two life-altering situations are probably the two biggest events that have framed
my life. At that time, I feared the unknown and now I cannot imagine my life without Shyla. She
is and always will be my first real love. Even though there ended up being a lot of hurt and pain
relating to my relationship with her mom, I would do it over and over again just to have the
honor of being her father. For the Navy, it helped me to provide for my new family, but at the
same time took me away from them more than I ever imagined. I have always had a love/hate
relationship with the Navy. With that being said, it is time to hop back into our time machine and
Let me warn you, this was a very hard chapter in my life filled with pain, embarrassment,
and disappointment. Do you still want to hear about it? Okay, if you say so, we will get into it.
Fortunately for me, I would come across two of the best leaders I have ever had in the Navy.
They helped me to stay on track and do what I needed to do even though my personal life was
This window of time found me at 22-24 years old and on my first ship in the Navy, USS
Kinkaid DD-965 out of San Diego, California. At this point in time, I was getting used to the
Navy life but was also concerned for my personal life. I was preparing for my first six-month
deployment, which would be the longest time I was going to be away from my family. This was
especially hard because Shyla’s mom, who I had married the year prior, decided to leave me and
moved out of our house a couple of months before leaving. I felt like a failure for not being able
to make it work between us, even though she had previously been unfaithful. I felt helpless and
that I somehow let Shyla down. My parents had stayed married until their deaths, and even
though it was not always great between them, they still made it work. At the time, I believed that
was what I needed to do as well. It did not matter if I was happy as long as Shyla was able to
grow up with both parents. I know, I know, that’s not a good way to live but that was the
While on the deployment, Lesher and I started talking again and decided that we would
give it one more try when I returned home from the deployment. I had received orders to a duty
station in London, England and we were excited to leave our problems in the states and head off
on a new adventure together. To get the orders I had to reenlist in the Navy, which I never
intended on doing. That made this a big commitment and another change to my life plan. Once I
returned, it was good for a while, but a month before the three of us left for England, Lesher
decided to move out and not go to England to work on our marriage. Again, I was sad,
embarrassed, and felt that I had somehow let Shyla down. I had no choice, I had to move to
England without my family. Thankfully, Lesher and I came to an agreement to each have Shyla
for one of the two years I was in England. Shyla was able to attend a British school and had a
cute little accent because of it. Ok, that’s beside the point, just know that this time in my life was
difficult.
Besides having Shyla in England with me for a year, the other bright spot during this
period was the leadership of CTRC Patty Roebuck and CTO1 Jan Crowell. To this day, these are
two of the best leaders I have ever had in my 20-something years in the Navy. They showed me
that true leaders get to know their sailors and then led appropriately. They did not believe in a
“one size fits all” approach to leadership. They knew that I was close to my mom and used a
motherly type of approach to help get the most out of me. Patty would listen to our issues and
give me time to take care of what I needed to while preparing to leave the country and get a
divorce at the same time. One thing I will never forget with Jan is that she wanted me to work on
a ship qualification that I had no intention of completing because at that time there was a zero
percent chance of me staying in the Navy. She asked me to please do it, but I was refusing. She
let me complain about it until I was done and then told me something to the effect of “I
understand all of that, but since you don’t want to do it for yourself, will you just do it for me?”
That was the first time that I realized she just “momed” me and it worked. Of course, I
completed the qualification, and I am thankful to this day for it because I ended up staying in the
Navy.
These two leaders showed me what real leadership looks like and I am forever grateful to
them. I try to emulate the way they were and the things they did so that my sailors know that I
care about them as my mentors cared for me. As for the other part of this stop, the hurt I felt
during that time helped me to become stronger and expect better for myself. Later on, after
moving to England, Lesher asked to give us another try. This time I was able to tell her no
because I had grown to expect more from people and wasn’t going to allow myself to get hurt
again. As you can see that was a rough spot for me, but I was able to learn from it as well. Let's
Glenwood, Arkansas... Never heard of it? Not many people have. It is a small, wooded
town in the southwest portion of the state. This stop includes more sadness, life lessons, and just
a little bit of happiness mixed in. The choice to move to Arkansas changed my life in many ways
and I am still feeling the effects of it to this day. The Arkansas saga lasted from 2007 to 2014
The move to Arkansas happened because my girlfriend and I both decided to get out of
the Navy. At that point, I had been in for ten years, but I was tired of leaving my family on long
deployments. My girlfriend had to get out because her custody of her daughter would come into
jeopardy if she stayed in the Navy. For those reasons, we decided to get out of the Navy and find
a place to live that was inexpensive so that we could raise our kids without worrying about the
problems that come with high-stress jobs. I did join the reserves to keep working toward
retirement from the Navy. Shyla did not understand why we were moving, nor did she want to
move there. She struggled with the situation and did not like my girlfriend. I believe that she
blamed her for everything and just wanted her to go away. Shyla was used to having me to
herself, but now she had to share my time with a girlfriend and her daughter. She was jealous and
I did my best to try and let her know that I would always love her no matter who else came
along. It was difficult trying to juggle how to love everyone enough. I was not perfect, but I did
Then the girlfriend and I broke up and my world was pretty much destroyed, or at least it
felt like it at the time. I had gotten out of the Navy, moved to the middle of nowhere, USA,
bought a house there for our little family, and now that was all for nothing. I felt lost, abandoned,
unable to trust anyone, and scared about what was next. Throw in my dad’s passing and this was
another difficult chapter in my life. I was unable to be there for my mom as much as I wanted to
because I had moved to Arkansas. The stress from all of this led me to a bit of a dark place where
I drank more alcohol than I should have. I did my best to put on a good face for my daughter so
that she wouldn’t see how badly I was hurting. Then the opportunity to deploy to Kuwait came
along and me a close friend both decided to take it. Even though I would be leaving Shyla again,
I had to get away and figure out my life. I thought I could go to Kuwait, save some money,
advance to the rank of Chief, and decide what the future looked like for me and Shyla.
I think I might be starting to sound like a broken record, but this was another difficult
patch in my story. One that led me to trust people less, figure out how to deal with the loss of a
parent, try to still set the example for Shyla, and figure out how to move forward past the painful
situation. After some time, I was able to move on and move forward with my life. That is it for
this sad place in my timeline, let's get back in the Delorian and set our sites for a happier time in
my life journey.
For this brief stop, we find two great career opportunities and a tough period in time with
Shyla. I was still technically living in Arkansas but was on a six-month set of orders to the
Pentagon. During my time at the Pentagon, I had the opportunity to go back onto active duty and
continue the career that I had started fifteen years prior. My only consideration was for Shyla
because that meant I was most likely going to deploy again. At this point in time, she was
finishing her junior year of high school. That meant she only had one year of high school left so I
took the chance and reenlisted on to active duty. Of course, with my luck, I was assigned to a
NATO mission that had me deployed for a year. This meant I would miss Shyla’s senior year
after already missing so much. This was hard for me, but it was the life I had chosen so I had to
make the best of it. Unfortunately, during that time, I left for the deployment and Shyla got
herself into a bad situation. I was stuck on a ship floating in the middle of the ocean and had no
real way to help. In my eyes, I think she was acting out because I had left her with her mom
again and she didn’t want to be there. That was still no excuse for what she had done and made
me question all my life choices. I asked myself if this was my fault, did I let her down, should I
have found another profession. I was so disappointed with her that I don’t believe we talked for
about two or three months. I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t have the words to make the
situation better. I needed time to process things and ended up calling her on her birthday to
reestablish our connection. It took a little bit of time, but we got through it.
As for the NATO mission itself, it was amazing! I was able to visit over 20 different ports
around the world. We sailed with ships and sailors from the German, English, Turkish, Spanish,
Italian, and Greek Navies. I was able to spend ten days out to sea on a German frigate and have
lunch with the captain of a German submarine while underwater. I could fill up a few pages with
all the great places and great things we got to experience or see. It was definitely the happiest I
had ever been as a Sailor in the United States Navy. The admiral even let me fly home from
Estonia to attend Shyla’s graduation. She barely made it, but she did. I was very proud that she
was able to finish after all the moving and bouncing between houses that she had to deal with
growing up. Because I was sent on the NATO mission, I was able to choose orders back to San
Diego to be closer to my mom who was having some health issues. Sadly, please jump in the
time machine and come with me to a dark, dark place for me.
It is now 2016 and I have been able to spend some time with my mom and help her out
both financially and fix things around her house. She had some health issues, but they never
slowed her down too much. In July of 2016, she in for a procedure that she would never recover
from. The doctors botched the procedure leading her to have a breathing tube inserted. As hard
as she tried, her COPD prevented her from coming off the ventilator on her own. My mom had
always told me that she didn’t want to be kept alive on machines and the doctors tried and tried
to get her to come off of it, but she just couldn’t. So, being the oldest, I had to make the call to
take her off the ventilator for good. I gave her an extra week against her sister’s wishes, but it
was my mom, and I wasn’t ready to lose her yet. Eventually, I gave in and let the doctors take
her off the ventilator. She wasn’t able to breathe on her own and passed away soon after. It was
the hardest, most difficult, and most painful decision I ever had to make.
I wasn’t okay after this and turned to alcohol to help make the pain go away. I know it
wasn’t the answer, but I didn’t care, I just wanted my mom back. I would go up to her house and
work on it to try and feel a connection with her. Whether that was a healthy thing to do or not, it
somehow made me feel better. It was like I was still doing it for her, even though she wasn’t
there. I was single at the time and had nobody to really turn to on a constant basis. I’m sorry but
my brothers and sister suck at feelings just as I did, so talking to them didn’t help much. It
started affecting me at work and my evaluation suffered because of it. In the Navy, a poor
evaluation sticks with you for five years which is why I haven't been able to advance to the next
rank.
I don’t like this stop much so we are leaving and heading to the last five years of my life.
A time mixed with both happiness and sadness. I wish there was a period of time where I was
just talking about good and happy moments, but that just hasn’t been in the cards. This stop takes
place mostly in San Diego and starts in 2018. This period involves me getting married,
After dating for a little while, my wife is the one that helped me to see that I was drinking too
much. My friends at the time were doing it, so I didn't really think too much about it. She was
able to help me see what I was doing and move past that part of my life. Our relationship only
grew from there leading me to ask for her hand in marriage. With my wife, Vicki came an
energetic little stepdaughter named Riley. I was happy, I had a little bit of a larger family again.
During this time, Shyla asked for us to help her move to Arkansas to help an old friend
get through a hard time in her life. She said it would just be for no more than six months and then
she would move back. Sadly, she never moved back. She started dating a guy out there and has
lived there ever since. She now has two daughters with him and there are no signs of her moving
back this way anytime soon. As her dad, I had a very different vision for her life than what
actually played out for her. It does make me sad, and I am still trying to figure out how to deal
with those feelings. She doesn't want to do the job she went to school for, in my opinion, has no
solid plans for the future, and doesn’t seem to be interested in trying to move back closer to her
Another part of my story with Shyla that makes me sad is my relationship with her
daughters. To this date, there really isn't one. I have only held the oldest on a couple of
occasions, but outside of that, there hasn’t been much. I don’t know how to be a FaceTime
grandpa. My dad got to take Shyla to the park to play and other places. I don’t get to do that. I
haven't figured out how to have a genuine connection with them on a phone. Sure, I could call
and talk, but where is the connection? They are both still too young to have a conversation with,
so do I just talk to them as they sit there and look off in different directions because they don’t
know who I am? This is something I plan to figure out in the near future, so please wish me luck.
Thank you for coming on a ride in my time machine and visiting such important parts of
my life. There seemed to be more times of hurt and sorrow than I care to revisit. There have been
many times of happiness throughout my life, it's just that the hard times seemed to have the most
impact on me. This exercise made me feel pride as well as pain. It was interesting to revisit some
parts of my journey that I haven't paid attention to in a while. I got to see that I have been
through a lot and have become a better person because I have chosen to learn from them. This
personal narrative will be placed under the about me tab in my electronic portfolio. Again,
thanks for taking the time to read about my journey and I wish you the best in yours.