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Fermata: DRAFT: 2022 06 28
Fermata: DRAFT: 2022 06 28
DRAFT: 2022 06 28
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Namatay ang isang sikat na musikero. Ang anak na si Ben, umuwi mula sa US para
ayusin ang ilang papeles tungkol sa pagpanaw ng ama. Habang nasa Pilipinas, may
Balak gamitin ni Ben ang pagkakataong ‘yun para imbestigahan at ibunyag ang
Ang dula ay tungkol sa pagdalaw ni Ben sa isang kaibigan para pag-usapan ang
MGA TAUHAN
TAGPO
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Sa pagbubukas ng ilaw, makikitang
counter.
ENTER, Ben.
makikilala.
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Magyayakapan ang magkaibigan.
Ben.
ALEX: Baka masyado ka lang “big time” para sa maliliit na jazz bar.
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BEN: Hindi a!
ALEX: Yeah? I saw a photo on Facebook with you and that famous singer.
(saglit) Ikaw nga, may bar ka e. Dami mo sigurong chicks dito, ‘no?
(saglit) I met someone. She plays the piano for one of the bands here...
ALEX: I have a baby girl at home; she’s six. I have a boy on the way. You
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BEN: Oo, please!
BEN: Ganda ng anak mo, p’re. Sakit sa ulo mo ‘yan ‘pag nagdalaga ‘yan.
ALEX: (matatawa) That’s why I’m hoping she gets a brother, para may
bodyguard siya.
Saglit.
BEN: Grabe! Bilis ng panahon, p’re. Akalain mo may mga anak ka na?
ALEX: Mabilis talaga. That’s why you gotta go with the flow, man. You’re
children!
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ALEX: Gago! Sa’kin ka pa nahiya?
inumin.
ALEX: Pare, I never got to tell you this... I heard about your dad. Condolence,
p’re.
Matagal na katahimikan.
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ALEX: You know what? Change topic tayo.
BEN: Ha?
ALEX: (bibigyan ng baso si Ben) This one’s for your new award.
(saglit) I’m telling you, man, hindi ako fan ng rom-com, but I saw that
BEN: Hindi naman mahirap ‘yung ginawa ko. Baka nga kung ikaw ang
(saglit) Kahit dati pa, kahit n’ung mga bata pa tayo, obvious sa lahat
ALEX: Kung meron mang magaling... Pare, your dad. Magaling magturo ang
dad mo.
BEN: O?
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ALEX: Yeah, man. I even have a favorite; ‘yung “fermata.”
ALEX: It’s a musical symbol you put over a note to show that you can play it
ALEX: Kasi astig s’ya, p’re. It’s like your holding everyone’s breath at the tip
of your fingertips. And the best part is that you get to choose whether
ALEX: P’re, sabi nga nila, jazz daw ang tunog ng free-verse poetry.
Saglit.
BEN: Fermata.
(pabiro) Pupusta ko, p’re, isa ka r’un sa mga kumag na halos ayaw
bumitaw sa nota?
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(a beat) I mean, I know I can hold it longer, but I’m not that kind of
person. Gusto ko “let go” na agad, let’s get this shit done.
ALEX: For me, pare, it’s symbolic. We got so much shit to deal with: bills,
(saglit) Hindi ko alam if you know what I’m talking about, but I get
like that sometimes. Maybe because there’s so much shit going on,
(saglit) Sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I imagine that it’s there,
all that anger, that hate, but I can also let go.
Mahabang katahimikan.
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BEN: (matatawa) Sorry.
Mananahimik pareho.
gilid ng bar.
display.
(a beat) But I gotta tell you, that’s probably out of tune. It’s been a
ito.
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Itutugtog ni Ben ang isang lumang
kanta ng ama.
BEN: You know I’m glad that you can still play after all those music lessons
with Dad...
BEN: Last weekend pala, may reporter na tumawag sa’kin. Tinanong ako
kung puwede raw akong sumulat ng article tungkol kay Dad para sa
kanila. Sabi nila, “to further cement his legacy as a musical icon.”
magpatulong.
ALEX: Saan?
BEN: Sa article.
ALEX: (matatawa) Fuck that, man; I don’t know shit about writing.
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ALEX: Sa jazz?
ALEX: Mag- Internet ka na lang. You don’t need me for that shit.
nakuha.
BEN: Actually, hindi naman tungkol sa jazz ang gusto kong isulat.
ni Ben.
BEN: Come on, Alex. Alam mo kung ano ibig kong sabihin.
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ALEX: Alam mo, uminom ka na lang. Puro ka chismis e.
BEN: May narinig akong “fake news” na ginalaw raw ni Dad mga
estudyante n’ya.
Saglit.
BEN: Ikaw?
ALEX: Hindi naman kami close ng Dad mo. Why the fuck are you asking me,
man?
Mahabang katahimikan.
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BEN: Sinabi ni Mike na-rape daw s’ya, pero wala siyang sinabi kung sino
gumawa.
ALEX: Ang tagal na n’un! Why are you even bringing that shit up right now?
Matagal na katahimikan.
Alzheimer’s n’ya n’un. Dinala s’ya sa’kin n’ung ward. Inupo s’ya sa
harap ko.
(saglit) Ang tagal n’yang tahimik. ‘Di n’ya ko makilala. Paulit-ulit ako,
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(saglit) Tapos nanginginig s’ya... Nakatingin s’ya sa’kin tapos akala ko
nanginginig s’ya. Tumayo ako para tawagin ‘yung ward, tapos nakita
ALEX: (interrupts) Stop, stop. ‘Wag mo na tuloy ‘yang kuwento mo. No one
Matagal na katahimikan.
ng vodka.
Mahabang katahimikan.
ALEX: Fuck you, Ben. You come to my bar after a fucking decade, and that’s
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ALEX: Why don’t you ask your mom? Baka s’ya may alam.
ALEX: They live in one house. If there’s anyone who knows what’s going on,
BEN: Hindi naman nagsasalita ‘yun; kahit dati wala akong narinig d’un.
(saglit) Wala na kasi ako n’un e. Umalis ako for school, tapos nag-
dorm na ko n’un—
kayo ni Dad, tapos ‘yung kamay n’ya nasa loob ng t-shirt mo, sa may
likod—
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ALEX: Hand sa likod? Hindi rape ‘yun; wala lang ‘yun. Besides, it’s been 30
Matagal na katahimikan.
BEN: Pare, I know... I know na dapat may ginawa ako. Pero ano gagawin
(mapanuya) “Hey Dad, kung okay lang naman, sana ‘wag mo hipuan
(saglit) Maybe you didn’t want to say anything, kasi baka hindi ka
ALEX: Think about it! Manghihingi ka ng pera for tuition, tapos malalaman
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BEN: Bakit si Mike hindi nagsumbong?
ALEX: Why the fuck are you asking me? Ako ba si Mike?
ALEX: You want to go visit Mike’s grave and ask him? Tangina, p’re, baka
BEN: Twice a week ang piano lessons n’ya; ten sessions over five weeks.
ALEX: (pasigaw) How the fuck should I know? I’m not Mike!
(saglit) Think about it, pare. If Mike tells his parents that he wants to
Maybe he didn’t know how to talk about that shit; or how to tell his
(saglit) It’s more likely that every week, he hopes and prays that it’s
siya galawin!
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(saglit) Maybe he was afraid, or ashamed, because he’s 14-years-old
shot.
vodka.
ALEX: Imagine mo, p’re. How does a 14-year-old talk about that? What’s he
pantalon ko—”
Matagal na katahimikan.
ALEX: So, you can’t blame Mike... There’s no one to blame but the person
ALEX: Mike’s dead. Your dad’s dead. What else do you fucking want, man?
Matagal na katahimikan.
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ALEX: Alam mo, p’re...
(a beat) I think you’re acting out of guilt. You knew what was
Matagal na katahimikan.
away, p’re.”
ALEX: Really? Where the fuck did you find that, pare?
ALEX: Tangina...
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ALEX: Patayin mo nga ‘yan.
BEN: Gawin mong score ‘yan ng rom com. Mananalo ka rin ng Gawad
Urian.
ALEX: Gago!
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ALEX: I saw a video on YouTube about the “Mandela Effect.” It’s a
ALEX: A lot of people think that Mandela died in the 80s; they have legit
ALEX: Marami sila, p’re. Thousands of people are saying that they have
televised funeral.
ALEX: Tapos ito ‘yung weird, p’re. According to our history records, it didn’t
2013.
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ALEX: Oo nga! Sige. Check mo!
Mandela.
ALEX: I’m one of those, man! Naaalala kong namatay si Mandela. May
ALEX: Man, I’m just saying, “What if we can’t completely trust our
memories?”
(saglit) The other day, I saw a conspiracy theory about it. The video
said that false memories happen when parallel universes collide, and
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ALEX: Ganito. You keep saying that you saw me sa piano room, kasama ng
dad mo?
ALEX: What I’m telling you is that the 14-year-old you saw might be from a
talking about.
have memories of events that didn’t happen; like your memory of that
piano room.
(a beat) Because, like I said kanina, I don’t remember any of that shit.
BEN: Okay.
ALEX: Okay.
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Mahabang katahimikan.
BEN: Pero, Lex, I do remember that shit and I have to write about it.
BEN: It’s the right thing to do. Kailangan kong magsulat tungkol kay Mike.
BEN: (iiling) Hindi tama e. Ang daming nasaktan, tapos ‘yung mga taong
inspirational—
BEN: Tapos ‘yung mukha n’ya lilitaw sa mga social media nila, tapos
BEN: Ano?
BEN: Oo. ‘Yun ‘yung pusang patay at buhay at the same time, ‘di ba?
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(saglit) Imagine mo Shrödinger’s Cat, pero instead of a cat, it’s Mike.
ALEX: We were not in that room. We don’t know what happened to Mike.
(saglit) I’m telling you, man. That’s where we are right now. You and
ALEX: Nasa limbo tayo, because you don’t know what to fucking tell me, or
how to act towards me, because you don’t know whether it happened
to me as well.
(a beat) Once you’re sure, once you find out whether the cat is living
You’ll change your tone of voice to something that says, “I’m sorry
Matatahimik si Ben.
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(saglit) Imagine that awkward shit right now; this weird tension, then
(saglit) That’s the bullshit they’re all going to feel. You’re going to
dump that shit on every single student your father had, and all their
(saglit) People are going to look at them, and they’re going to think,
we can prevent all that speculation by telling the truth ‘di ba?
Matatawa si Alex.
ALEX: Okay. You win. Let’s pretend it happened. Let’s say that every single
(saglit) What are they going to do? Are they going to dig up your
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(saglit) He’s not the one going to suffer. The only people who are
BEN: Bakit sila ‘yung mahihiya, e hindi naman sila ‘yung may kasalanan?
ALEX: That may be true in a perfect world! But we don’t live in a perfect
world. Hindi gan’on ka-simple ang mundo! Alam natin na hindi ang
(saglit) How do you tell your wife and kids that you can protect them,
(saglit) Putangina, pare, even women are ashamed to talk about abuse.
Then you want grown-ass men, men with kids, men with families, to
(saglit) And if Mike was alive right now, what do you think would
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(saglit) Or he’d tell a friend, tapos the friend would ask him, “Bakit ‘di
BEN: Gets ko ‘yun, p’re? Pero hindi ba importante na ilabas natin ‘to, para
Matagal na katahimikan.
sample.
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(saglit) One day, he tells me that he likes me. Sabi ko agad, “Bro,
(saglit) But that night, I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t sleep because there’s
(saglit) So, I went over to his bed, I woke him up, then I let him touch
me. After that, I just went back to bed; went to sleep. My roommate
‘di ba? Ang tanga ko, ‘di ba? Paano mo isusulat ‘yung shit na ‘yan sa
article mo?
Matagal na katahimikan.
ALEX: Ben, while you’re hellbent on exposing your dad, I don’t think you
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BEN: I’m sorry.
(saglit) Ganito. Hindi ko siya kayang kamuhian, pero ang ibang tao
(saglit) Putangina, pare, demonyo ‘yung tatay ko. Pero bakit hindi ko
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(saglit) Pero alam ko sa sarili ko, ‘pag nakauwi na ‘ko, ‘pag mag-isa na
(saglit) Gusto kong isulat kung gaano siya kasamang tao, para isang
Matagal na katahimikan.
Ben.
ALEX: (pabiro) Pare, kaibigan kita, pero tangina ang dami mong daddy
issues.
BEN: Gago!
ALEX: (matatawa) Tangina mo, ako ‘yung na-molest e. Ba’t ikaw ‘yung may
drama?
ALEX: If you’re just going to do that to get back at your dead father, don’t do
it at all, man. Kahit ano pang ganda n’yang article mo, it’s going to
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open wounds. These wounds cut deep, man, and the one thing you
A moment.
ALEX: It’s not easy for me to talk about this. This conversation, by itself,
A moment.
ALEX: I remember the worst part of it for me was was the tickling.
Iiling si Ben.
ALEX: Yeah. He tickles them. He does that so people at your house think that
daughter would be playing in the other room, then I’d hear her
(salit) Then I’d get fucking dizzy; I get vertigo or some shit, and I
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(shakes his head) Think about it, man. I get panic attacks from my own
me look stupid?
Mahabang katahimikan.
(saglit) When I think about Mike, to this day, I felt so guilty, because I
ALEX: But he’s gone. So, the shit I feel should be gone too, right?
(saglit) I went to his funeral because I wanted to bury all this anger
and sadness with him. But the funeral’s over, man. Your dad’s six feet
under, but I’m still here, and I’m still fucked up, pare...
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(a beat) I’m still hoping that I wake up one day and I look at the
know that I’m in control, and I can let go, and I can make it go away...
(saglit) But that’s not how these things work, man. It’s not there.
Mahabang katahimikan.
ALEX: I’m telling you, man. Whatever baggage you carry, that’s nothing.
Magaan ‘yan. Ilang taon na naming bitbit ang bagahe namin. Now,
(a beat) The only people who have a right to talk about this are your
dad’s victims.
ALEX: Tell them that if they want to talk about what happened, you’ll listen.
If they don’t want to talk, that’s okay. You don’t have to get into it.
Tell them that you just want to make sure they’re okay. Putangina,
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(saglit) Alam natin ang sagot d’un; simple lang ang sagot d’un.
(matatawa) I mean, how the fuck do you even begin to talk about this,
ginagahasa—
BEN: (iiling) Hindi nga dapat gan’on, ‘tol. Hindi na dapat gan’on e.
vodka bottle.
ALEX: (lifts the vodka bottle and stares at it) Ito! Ito ang meron tayo. This is it.
(saglit) Ito lang ang puwede sa’tin noon. Ang babae, umiiyak; ang
lalaki, umiinom.
(shakes his head; scoffs) It’s such bullshit. It’s such bullshit, but we all
bought in. We all played along with the macho bullshit. Lahat tayo
nahirapan.
Matagal na katahimikan.
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ALEX: Ben, I’m going to have a son, man...
(saglit) I’m telling you, when he’s born, things are going to be different.
(nods; says the lines as if he’s trying to convince himself) Yeah. All of this
Matagal na katahimikan.
entablado.
TELON
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