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Liv Mayer
Sophia Shealey
ENC 2135
02/20/2023
I always thought happiness was this far-off thing, something unreliable that I would
suddenly feel whenever exciting things happened. I used to think that I just needed to get through
our move, then get through middle school, then high school, and then eventually I’d just be
happy one day. I used to just put it off - over and over because I didn’t think I had any choice in
the matter. Happiness was just something that happened to me, and I couldn’t decide when it
came or went. And lingering in the shadow of every happy moment was the feeling that when it
was over it would all come crashing back down. My depression, late nights, messy room, crying
on the floor, stress, and loneliness. I think after a certain point, you expect nothing less. And
that’s when you get bitter and closed off and unwilling to accept anything good into your life –
Throughout high school, my parents always mentioned the chip – which loyally kept
residence – on my shoulder. Of course, I would have denied its existence until I was red in the
face. However, looking back, it was spot on. My perpetual sarcasm masqueraded as humor when
in reality I was harboring negativity and always felt like I got the short straw. Having this
perspective for so long does some damage. I always felt like people didn’t like me because I
didn’t like myself. And Since I thought everyone didn’t like me, I started to not like anyone –
which made people not like me. I closed myself off, and when I did make exceptions and let
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people in, I was so separated from myself that I chose people who weren’t worthy of my time
and effort, people who thought it was funny to make jokes about not liking me to my face. This
chip stayed with me for most of high school, but around the middle of my senior year, it started
to shrink and shrink, until finally after I graduated it seemed to have disappeared entirely become
microscopic. I had set up permanent residence in a dark, dark circle of insecurity and isolation
during most of my high school years. The negative perspective and how other people treated me
led me to believe that I genuinely thought I was a bad person throughout high school. I relied on
the opinions and input of others to feel validated and satisfied with myself. If someone didn’t
like me for whatever reason, I immediately assumed all their opinions and judgments of me were
right, no matter how little they knew me. I let myself, my image, and my opinion of myself be
shaped by those around me to the point that I felt so distanced from myself and wasn’t sure how
to turn it around disassociated from myself. I had no idea how to turn it around.
I’m not exactly sure how it happened, but it all changed. Somehow, I became an entirely
different person. When I decided to come to Florida State University last June instead of going to
my local university, something just switched. My fresh start was imminent and that meant there
was an opportunity to sculpt a new identity, outside of how people viewed me in high school. I
decided that I wanted to be happy. I started to feel more grateful for the experiences I’d gone
through and approached things with far more acceptance than I could fathom just a few months
before.
Gratitude was so vital to the changes that I went through after graduation. Taking stock of
what is going well in life really makes you more grateful for the good things. Beyond my own
anecdotal evidence, I can provide, gratitude is proven to lead to increased life satisfaction
(Chavan). Research in the field of positive psychology and studies on happiness have found that
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gratitude and happiness have a positive correlation: people who rank higher in gratitude indexes
also rank higher in happiness and life satisfaction (Chavan). When you constantly feel like
you’re getting fucked over, you don’t really feel satisfied with your life. But as my gratitude
practice grew and I outgrew the negative cycle of emotions, I felt far more content and satisfied.
Practicing gratitude helps people to become more appreciative of the good things and makes it
easier to overcome bad days. In my opinion, The key to feeling ‘happy’ is appreciating what you
have. Gratitude is a skill that can be nurtured and developed. I started by writing down three to
five things I was grateful for every day and after a while I found myself practicing gratitude in
real time. These habits made me feel solid, the world was not going to end just because
something bad happened. I started to feel less like the world was ending when bad things
happened and learned how to deal with my anxiety in a more effective manner, accepting my
emotions as they came without judging them. Emotions and anxiety became easier to manage as
I started to accept my emotions as they came instead of judging them. I started to feel like
everything was working out, I was getting lucky with everything I wanted to do.
The Roman Stoic philosopher Seneca once said, “enjoy present pleasures in such a way
discussions of wellness and may seem like a new thing in contemporary, Western culture, it has
been encouraged in cultures across the world for centuries. The Stoics believed that death was
inevitable and encouraged people to live in the moment and make meaning of the now as a way
to soothe the human anxieties around mortality. When people think of mindfulness, they might
think of monks in orange robes chanting OM, but I’ve found that mindfulness doesn’t always
have to be about meditating and yoga. While these are tried and true ways to practice
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mindfulness, there are some more casual ways to practice. My mindfulness can be found while
listening to music, taking a shower, walking to class, crocheting, sitting outside, swimming, and
journaling. This isn't a new practice, the Stoics of ancient Greece and Rome believed in paying
attention to the moment and disregarding the past and future. In his letters to Lucilius, Seneca
preached the uselessness of fear and hope as they both bring people out of the moment: “true
happiness is to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future, not to amuse
ourselves with either hopes or fears but to rest satisfied with what we have.” Mindfulness is often
used as a way to reduce anxiety by focusing attention on the moment (Cordero). In therapy, I
learned to practice mindful breathing exercises in order to calm my mind and reduce racing
reframing events and learning to be more content and satisfied with life. These types of therapy
The great Stoics' most core trait was rationalism and thus they encouraged people to
examine their thoughts from an objective perspective. In Seneca’s letters, he explains that no
event is inherently good or bad, but rather these attributes are assigned by people. To free
ourselves from the external input the world has to offer and rid us of useless emotions would
allow people to lead a life with less suffering and anxiety and more satisfaction. According to
Seneca, good things and bad things don’t occur, because everything just happens outside of good
or bad. The field of positive psychology today teaches these very same principles. Allowing
yourself to feel however you feel, without prescribing judgment to it, and acknowledging those
feelings with considerate attention. Through this process, strong emotions may be soothed, and
individuals can work towards better emotional well-being. Radically accepting one’s emotions is
tied to mindfulness. I’ve found myself practicing this, and while it’s not something that I succeed
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at every time, it is an incredibly helpful perspective. When bad things happen, urging myself to
remember that it is not a reflection of me. It’s just something that happened, then accepting my
emotions without letting them take me over. By accepting emotions as they are, the unhealthy
relationship that people have with their emotions can be untangled. All emotions are a valuable
part of the human experience and can be used to guide people’s lives in the present by accepting
them individuals are able to lead more content and satisfied lives (Cordaro). What happens,
happens, but how we choose to react to our circumstances and experiences is what really decides
Since I was a child, I have always been told I’d make a good lawyer. Looking back on it
as an adult I now realize this was somewhat of an insult or inside joke among the grown-ups. It
was a way for them to make light of the fact that I was a smart, but argumentative kid who loved
to talk to adults. But of course, at the time I took it to heart. Wearing it as a badge of honor that a
At the start of the fall semester, I dove headfirst into the pre-law track. I used it as an
identifier and told every family member who asked what my plan was. Growing up, my parents
instilled a desire for success in me. I’ve always been smart, ambitious, and independent – the
perfect equation for a feminist older daughter with the desire to get shit done. My mom regularly
reminded me to never rely on a man the way she relies on my father. Financial security – that’s
the most important thing. Of course, those things are incredibly important, especially for me to
maintain the lifestyle I had growing up and to be able to afford my health issues, but I’ve had
Success in my career and education are still things that I desire and will work to get, but
since the fall semester began, my goals have changed. Rather than an impressive career or wealth
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that I must kill myself to build, I just want to feel happy and content. I want to find a way to do
something I like that will make me content, happy, and satisfied with my life. Appreciating the
simple things and changing my goals in order to find more fulfillment and purpose. Prioritizing
experiences, traveling, creating connections, building a community, and finding a purpose. These
are obviously far more difficult things to do in many ways, but I believe it will lead to less
I’ve come to realize that success can mean a multitude of different things to different
people. I have friends that think this way of thinking might be settling or believe that they would
need require a more dramatic and stimulating life. In the context of choosing to do things that
will increase life satisfaction, contentment, and happiness, I believe that while we cannot always
change our circumstances it is possible to change how we react to them. In this way, happiness is
a choice. Surrounding myself with better friends, practicing gratitude and mindfulness, accepting
happier than I have ever been, even when things are difficult and with this happiness, I have been
waves, and we might not know when it will happen next. But everyone can choose contentment,
we can make decisions and choices that will make us more satisfied with our lives and have
greater well-being overall. And With these changes, it’s a lot easier to be happy and find
happiness in the smallest moments. Contentment is within everyone’s grasp, something that can
be found through reflection and lifestyle changes. And While it may seem daunting at first, I
cannot express how rewarding it is. I’ve not always had the easiest time being content. In fact,
there was always something that could have been better, but ultimately that’s a choice. Choosing
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to be content and developing skills that allow for the opportunity of happiness is so accessible,
yet so many people seem to be caught up in a state of needing more and craving perfection to the
point of misery. My life changed when I started to make a decision to prioritize contentment and
life satisfaction and I am so beyond grateful for whatever inside me clicked and allowed me to
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