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I Got A Camera To Spy On My Cat
I Got A Camera To Spy On My Cat
01/11/2021 20&19
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‘The problem with getting a camera for your pets is that you also inadvertently get a camera for yourself.’
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The problem with getting a camera for your pets is that you also
inadvertently get a camera for yourself. Years ago, when my ex and I got one
This is an edited excerpt
for our cat, he once caught me eating Pringles on the couch and sent me a
of a piece originally
published by Maybe text: “Once you pop.” The camera, in those moments, was a comical
Baby, a newsletter imposition, fulfilling its duty of surveillance in precisely the ways we didn’t
about hard-to-describe
want.
feelings
Maybe Baby Eventually, though, my ex and I gave into our role as subjects. If we wanted
to remember when we’d gotten home the night before, we’d check the
camera and watch ourselves stumble in. One time I came upon footage of us
getting in a fight. We sat stiffly on opposite ends of the couch. I remember
thinking I looked different in the video than I imagined I did when it was
happening. Did that matter? I lost the camera in the breakup, but kept the
cat.
Technology and social media are full of such promises – not just that we
might gain a 360-degree understanding of our pets, but of ourselves. We
document accordingly, obsessively. And implicit in this compulsion is the
suspicion that our lives are best understood at a distance, the way someone
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else might experience us, rather than the way we experience ourselves. This
renders our online existence into a kind of diorama – we are not just people-
watchers, but people-watched.
I don’t know what There is the trope, for instance, of reviewing your own
I look like to other Instagram story after you post it “to see how you come off”, or
people. Such a taking a video of yourself wearing an outfit to “see how it
paranoia presumes looks”. The comedian John Early has a joke about how he
that what other knows he’s truly bored when he starts looking at his social
people think about media accounts “through the eyes” of various people in his life.
me is both In 2017, I wrote that I don’t know what I look like, but I think I
consistent and meant that I don’t know what I look like to other people. Such a
matters a lot paranoia presumes that what other people think about me is
both consistent and matters a lot.
There are countless similar trends on the app. One of the first I saw
circulating last year was supposed to reveal what you looked like when
someone called your name: people would pretend to look down or away and
then, at a particular part of a song, look up suddenly. Another recent
iteration uses the FreezeFrame filter to capture a “real” laugh. The laugh is
performed on command – and thus fake – but the idea is that participants
will be touched by how happy and pure they look, and briefly cured of their
self-consciousness. Seemingly, it works every time.
There’s something distinctly postmodern about the fact that our compulsion
to consume makes us want to consume ourselves. That as commodities, we
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There was a time during lockdown last year when I was both exhausted by
my boyfriend’s passive observation and starved for the passive observation
of the public. Both represent a core tension of identity – to experience
yourself both as complete on your own and as a counterpart to something
bigger.
They say the unobserved life isn’t worth living, but what of the over-
observed one?
Cope culture
Are you nice or kind?
When I was an influencer
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