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Analytical Confusion My Transparent Persp - Afi Kingdom
Analytical Confusion My Transparent Persp - Afi Kingdom
ANALYTICAL
CONFUSION
AFI KINGDOM
Table of Contents
Preface
Monday: Perspective
Tuesday: Is Everyone Meant To Be In A Relationship?
Wednesday: Chemistry And Compatibility …..
Thursday: Do Opposites Really Attract? Where Is My Soulmate …
Friday: Recipe To Salvation
The Weekend: Assessment Of Early Visuals In Life
The Appraiser: Avoiding Your Nightmares
Anticipation: Contrasting Courting Vs Dating
Saturday Night: The Power Of Planning
Sunday: When The Meaning Of Love Changes!
The Composition Of King Fee.
Mind.Body.Heart And Soul.
In Your Dreams When You Dream Of Success
What Do You See?
Analytical Conclusion
PREFACE
A
nalytical Confusion. The reason why the name of this book is for
a few reasons. Analytical is technically a computer. I'm going to
open mine up to you. The confusion part is because it comes from
all over the place. A lot of my books are structured, however it's
just my pure transparent thoughts. This is me no filter not for an audience
but my own personal memoir other than this preface that I'm writing right
now. I talk about my true feelings on relationships marriage, why couples
last and why they don't last. The history of relationships and even I speak of
the history of my own upbringing and my views on relationships based on
what I saw growing up. I will discuss love vs. true love soulmates versus
life partners, compatibility, being evenly yoked, do opposites really attract. I
will also discuss marriage and is it actually for everyone. A lot of people
think that it's just the way of life but as time goes on and I'm meeting more
people like myself as well as failed relationships and seems like there are
other alternatives. Chemistry and compatibility are some of the main things
that I discussed as well as dating and integrating kids into relationships
between two parents. Should it be done, how should it be done if so. Enjoy
this experience as I speak out loud and you get to hear the thoughts that I
have inside of my mind, little confusion of a brain! I just spill it out onto
this paper for you to enjoy. Some of my views you may like, some of them
dislike. But at the end of the day we are all subject to our own opinion.
These are mine. Welcome to Analytical Confusion!
Monday
Perspective
B ack in the old days like your great grandmother, grandpa etc from
what I know and seen, most situations I have heard of “love” were
slightly different back then. People didn't seem so fixated on the
image of what love was. They preferred to discover that feeling.
There was no internet, no selfies or a way for public admiration and the
opinion of others. It didn't matter, it was shared between those two people.
So it puzzles me that there are so many broken homes nowadays that it is
almost common. I can meet a married women during a hardship in their
relationship, and with a few common interest, a date or two, she will let me
have the same exact privileges as a man she vowed before God "through
thick and thin" etc just because things may have been a little complicated
for a short period of time. With that being said trust becomes an issue as
well as integrity which in result for the most part is broken homes, divorce,
baby daddies and step kids lol etc. What ever happened to stick it out with
your "best friend" or soulmate? The mentality has changed. Falling in love
is a major step in life. It shouldn't happen often, and it can be kind of a
scary thought to give your heart to another person! Before you met this
person your heart was only yours! Getting engaged is another big step. It's
like saying I feel this other person of the many billion people that there is in
the world makes me feel great, makes me better and there isn't another
option out there for me besides this one other person! When you finally
decide to break engagement and actually get married, it's the same, but the
slight difference is, the word "feel" has shifted and graduated to “I know"
and you invite GOD and your family along for your roller coaster of love.
Wow that's deep, now it seems as people treat love like Panda Express! Free
samples lmao.Yea that looks pretty tasty, grab your tooth pic (insert your
favorite item) try it, then now let's see what else I can taste!!!
The importance of marriage and its significance, and hearing about
marriages lasting 6 months, even two three years baffles me. Seriously No
fareal! I've known couples who were together five years, ten years , but
decided to make the next step in their union before God and that
commitment may not even last half of that time. Sometimes not even that!
Isn't it fun being a little different! I suppose that's what makes life cool.
Imagine going through life without Having different perspectives. That is
why the name of this book wasn't chosen by any of it. How we gain
perspective Is through experience, and when we obtain these experiences
our perspectives may also change. I think the problem, well I cant say its a
problem because that my "perspective"lol lets say the issue..Well I feel the
major issue is this. People have these obstacles and experiences but a lot of
time they react the way that they do, or heal etc , then after the storm they
carry on life like they always did previously. You should learn from your
mistakes, there is nothing wrong with making them, we are mammals. We
are human, we run off our instincts and emotions. People tend to make the
same mistakes over and over without receiving the lesson that should have
been brought out of eternity into your skull!
Let's say I have a job that I love. I go to it everyday, do my task whatever it
may be. Then one day I get fired from that job. I'm heartbroken and I don't
have income. So what are my options? Get another job obviously, well this
would be the smart option!lol Ok, so the reason I was fired from my job is
because I couldn't get there on time. Insert excuse (traffic) easy solution get
my ass up earlier. Some solutions require sacrifice, sorry people. A lot of
time we have the solution to our problem but we are not willing to Make the
Sacrifice to acquire the outcome we desire! Whenever I do the work
required to get another job, and I'm fired again,
What shall be my excuse this time? Traffic, better yet they “be hating”, or
“your boss is an asswhole" lol. No matter how much I need to pay bills, let
me get up an hour earlier because I know what the result of getting to work
late may be.
Relationships are a job also. Stipulations and requirements may vary!lol. So
what these are as easy or difficult as they may be as an adult I know that if
certain requirements are meant, then I can be fired! This could be gifts, sex,
quality time, hot cool dates, loyalty, being truthful, not being disrespectful
every person has their own personal love launguage. So every time I don't
hold up to any of my partners expectations it's like being written up at work.
If you're a person over the age of 18 years old, what happens after you get
so many write ups? That's for you to answer, not me. Now if you do not
know your partner's love language,Then you're either a terrible listener or a
bad communicator which you have 2 out of 3 strikes on your relationship
status going into it (we're talking healthy relationships people). In that case
you probably don't need to be in one anyway.
The Weekend
Assessment of Early Visuals in Life
M y belief is you only have one true love. When or if you ever
find that person is up to you. Sometimes you have things
happen in your life that prepare you for the life that God
designs. If we choose our own paths foolishly we could miss out on things
that God promised. A lot of us prematurely get into relationships, when
you're young it's called puppy love, high school age is considered
sweethearts, that's followed by young love and then one day you feel you
met "The One" it's true that your past experiences have helped you by
showing you what you want/ don't want, helps you pick up on red flags or
just brought out some of your best and worst qualities that you can now
reflect on.
What if by design you are supposed to be a kid when you are a kid, focused
on studying in high school and college and then after you have an
education you have started a career that you dream about you find someone
who is the missing puzzle piece. In my early teens into adult hood I always
received a lot of attention from the opposite sex. To the point it was very
noticeable to anyone who was around me. That amount of attention was a
distraction because that became part of who I was. If I had not started
dating so young my life would be SUPER DIFFERENT!
The Composition of King Fee.
Mind.Body.Heart and Soul.
S
peaking of success lets elaborate. What's your definition of success?
Is it money love career fulfillment, children, giving back? What is it
that means the most to you that would make you content in life.
Notice keyword "content" because we know that success is not a guarantee
to happiness. A Lot of times we think we know what's best for us, but as
life goes on our feelings about things change. I always wanted to be an
educator since I was young. I looked up to certain teachers and followed
their transcriptions and remember them to this day. I honored the fact that a
particular person could teach me things that I didn't already know.
Also the fact I was learning things from someone other than my parents or
parents. I admit I'm a person who can be a little bit jaded at times. What I
mean by this is that I'm just a very opinionated individual. I'm that type of
person. I'm a people watcher! I love to sit back and observe others just as
much as I like to articulate!
I am inspired by example. I understand we all have the same 24 hours, so
for instance art. I love art and consider myself an artist as well. But if you
can't showcase your art or your work by example I can become less
engaged by what it is you're trying to show me.However if I see anything
I'm impressed with my personality type is more less motivated and not
deflated. If this person or that person can do this why can't I!! I feel I'm a
great awesome individual, but on the contrary not to the point of my ego not
being able to accept and appreciate other awesome qualities and
awesomeness.
I had a math teacher. He is awesome. He is from Korea and his English is
very bad. When you're trying to learn something like math, which can be a
foreign language to some working adults like myself, someone with English
not so good, sometimes hard to comprehend sounds like a terrible atrocious
nightmare. This man is smart though. Not for the obvious reasons. He
realized his weakness is his language barrier. So In order to connect to
others to demolish his disadvantage into a strength. By initially Bringing his
weakness to the class's attention from the gate, not taking himself too
seriously, making fun of it, what he did was disarm our pre judgement.
Bringing himself down to us ,the students level, although he is the leader of
the class he himself Had his faults. By tapping into us it made him more
relatable in contrast we became more teachable. He liked to tell a lot of
stories and contrast them to math in a way we all adults in the class can
understand and relate to. I myself see how it works and how effective it is. I
will apply that strategy to my craft as well. So as well as learning math I
picked up on a valuable asset that I can use as well!!! He is a smart dude, I
think it's great to learn while being taught something, but it's awesome to
also teach yourself While you're learning!!!So as far as success goes, I'm
pretty simple. Well kinda lol. I think the best thing to have in life is your
piece of mind. To me that's most important. I'd like to receive my doctorate.
No, I don't want to be a doctor, but that's the highest level of education
success that's obtainable. So why not shoot for something that will build my
character knowledge, success and status that is sitting there waiting for me.
It just takes hard work and dedication. Keeping your eyes on the prize. I
want to have my art in a gallery, publish books and I've seen it be done by
others which lets me know it can be done by me too. My ultimate goal is to
write or direct film.
The great thing about that is there isn't a time bracket or age you should be.
The more I enjoy my journey in life, treasure hunting, gaining experience
making mistakes and becoming better when it's time for that chapter I will
have more to talk/write about and be in a more creative space. It is not the
time for that but i'll enjoy the ride before the final destination.I realized
years ago I'm a caregiver. I love to help others. This can be good and bad.
Sometimes others can take your shine
Or drain your soul with you having nothing to gain yourself. So I want to
help people on a big stage. I feel like I'm a natural born leader, the best way
to help the most people is to lead by example. The most I make of myself
the longer I continue to achieve goals as well as new ones.I'm creating a
bigger stage and platform for myself. I'd just like to be on a stage to help
and motivate others. As well as encouraging individuals to help themselves.
When you generate the biggest attention, the biggest billboard it grabs you
baits you in. I'd like to be in that position where people want, not need to
listen to aspire others.
That's when
I feel I've become a success..,
Appreciate greatness in others.
Tarik Afi Kingdom
Analytical Conclusion
I n conclusion I just hope that you took this book and read it with a grain
of salt. You don't have to agree with everything that I said, however I'm
branching off new ideas for you to think about. These ideas will help
yourself grow as well as they help me grow reading them feeling them and
now even looking back at them. Love is a language that everyone speaks
and it's unavoidable in life. The reason why we are here is because either
two people loved each other, or two people lustedb after each other and had
sex, now here I am reading to you in here are you are reading this book.
Take down notes on what things you may or may not agree with. You will
find things interesting coming that we are from completely different places
and had different experiences yet you should be able to obtain information
and relate to at least two or three things throughout these transcripts. So as I
opened up my journal ,my Memoir of my analytical confusion, My personal
clinical thoughts. We all come from different experiences and different
backgrounds, so I felt like instead of just telling you how I felt about certain
things, I gave you pieces of my background to give you a better interest
back of who exactly I am where I come from and how I think. Feel free to
share this book with others and see what they think of it. Make an
observation mate will look at it and see what he or she agrees and what they
don't agree with. A lot of people, especially women think about their
soulmates. Sometimes the line between your soulmate, marriage, and
relationships is simple. Just ask the right questions, communication and
trust is everything and everything that I said and spoke of if you don't have
those two things you won't have anything. So unpack this book and even if
you're out of your ideologies are different, look at your partner ask the right
questions,and even watch their behavior in the way that they move and
roundabout to see if this person is the one for you. Through my mind I'm
giving you something to think about. When it comes to success given
career, life, relationships it all boils down to decisions and exchanges of
ideas. Hopefully with my ideas I can give you a clearer understanding of
either yourself, or the person who you're spending time dating, for that
future person that you've been desperately desiring but haven't come across
yet in this lifetime. This is my life oh, this is my journey, This Is My Mind,
my Analytical Mind, this is analytical confusion.