November 30, 2018 MISS YOU HEAPS

Longing
Dearest Evie,

Let’s start off with HOW YOU ARE DOING IN THERE? I cant stop thinking about how much its
eating away at me that you are still there.

I’ve decided to reassess my priorities and figure out exactly what I want and how I’m going
to go about getting there.

Agenda

First of all, I need my own space again. I miss having my own place and the ability to shut
things out when I want. Ended up moving in with a girlfriend that was basically at the end
of her tether with everything.

So, this week has been about changing her headspace and attitude to pull her out of this
depressed headspace shit. I guess we both can agree that a poor outlook on things won’t
get you anywhere but being bitter or unhappy.

I ended up going to town on her apartment and did it up the best I could with a few bits I
managed to grab from my old place. Looks heaps better here now and the vibe is much
nicer. Just gotta try and get back to collect the rest of my things which will be a
nightmare in itself. Bring it lol.

I also started to get my head around your case as much as I can. Unfortunately, the media
and people are soulless shells merely coexisting with the rest of us. I actually wanted to go
out and knock a few heads in, but then again, karma and rising above low life individuals
is a much more productive way of getting things done.

I am going to spend this week scouting out some really good lawyers and running your case
by them to see what angle they would take to appeal on your behalf. Like I said, you
shouldn’t be in there and you definitely don’t need to be going through that shit.

Im going to study as much of the law as I can that relates to your case and then see if I can
find any similar cases we can use as part of your defence and to show cause as to why we
need you moved out of there.

SO IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU HAVE THAT YOU CAN THROW MY WAY I CAN USE TO HIGHLIGHT WHAT
ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN THE LEAD UP, THEN THAT WOULD BE GREAT . I’m sorry if it stirs up bad
memories. If there was another way around it, I would use it, but tbh, you know better
than anyone else where your head was at around that time.

Then I can go about using what you send over as a basis to cover off what the prosecution
used to justify sending you to prison.

I have a few people that owe me favours; including a couple of shrinks and Drs. I’ll be
using whoever I can to build a case. At the end of the day, no one fucking died and the
victims all seem to be trying to milk the situation for their own benefit, which isn’t right.

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I don’t know, maybe its just me that’s a bit off, but like wtf? Yeah, you were attacked. So
fucking what. It’s not like there was irreversible damage anyways. If anything, you were
the one who ended up getting fucked over.

So as long as you’re happy with that, and I’m not overstepping my bounds, I’ll be busy
working on building capital, assets and a case to get you the fuck out of there.

HOW ARE THE OTHER INMATES AND LIFE IN GENERAL? LIKE REALLY THOUGH? ARE YOU DOING OK?
IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT? IS THERE ANYTHING YOU NEED ME TO DO?

Its weird as fuck, but I barely know you and yet I feel like you’re so familiar lol.

Maybe I have cracked it. Who knows or cares lol. I do miss you heaps though. Lets hope
they don’t screw up my visit this week.

Mindset

I still don’t know how people don’t lose their minds over breakups. Some moments I’m
fine with it and know its for the best. Other times it just hurts. Like a lot. How people can
just betray and lie to one another is beyond me. Im definitely not an emotionally
orientated person, but this shit is actually kicking my ass.

Figure 1: Relationships are cute till someone fucks it up lol

Decided to get my ass back into the swing of things and spend a few extra hours in the
gym trying to recentre myself. HOW’S YOUR TRAINING GOING? ARE THE GIRLS STILL SHOWING
UP ?

This week has been all about the legs lol. I honestly cant believe I let my shit get so far off
track. One thing I know for certain- it wont happen again. I miss my happy place!

Least I can just close the world out with some music and pain that actually benefits me!
Did some killer squats I was wishing you were there to play around with. It literally
rendered me cripple for a few days and walking was excruciating! ‘

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Figure 2: Busting ass hahahaha

Questions and plans

Once all our dramas blow over, we need to go away on a holiday. Bali or Thailand. Spend a
few weeks just exploring places and immersing in different cultures and adventures. Have
you been overseas before? Or even to either of those?

If you haven’t, then get ready to be blown away. Such an awesome experience! There are
so many temples and shit everywhere too. I used to practise my yoga session in this really
cool sacred temple when I was in Ubud, Bali. And everywhere you go, theres some sort of
amazing scenery, beach and infinity pool.

Below is a few of my fave in Bali. I miss it so much!

Figure 2: Wu Wei Sanctuary guest house and outdoor bath

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Figure 3: Wu Wei Sanctuary pool and yoga garden

OMFG and then there is the most magical effing place I have ever been to for an outdoor
rave. It’s held at a place called La Laguna… You basically arrive just before it gets dark,
and party away till sunrise. Then they light this massive bonfire as the sun begins to rise
across the bridge down towards the beach. Check this shit out…

Figure 4: La Laguna, Cangu

Figure 5: La Laguna, Cangu

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Figure 5: La Laguna, Cangu

Basically, everyone is tripping balls and dancing away or just chilling out. So good and so
many more places to visit!

I F THERE WAS ONE MAD ASS ADVENTURE YOU WOULD WANT TO GO ON , WHAT WOULD IT BE AND
WHERE WOULD YOU GO? I think I’d always go looking for somewhere with amazing beaches
tbh!

Where it’s at

Anyways babe, I’m gonna let you go. But before I do, here’s a few things I need you to pls
keep in mind.

You got this babe. Its easier said than done, but don’t let your present circumstances fuck
with your head. The difference between me telling you this now vs someone telling you
this shit in general is this… I GOT UR BACK  No matter how hard it is, tiring it may be,
how many hurdles we have to jump, I’m going to do whatever it takes to have you out of
there. Even if it means I gotta kidnap you. You are so much better than this shit right now.
I don’t know what it is Evie, but there’s just something about you that’s got me like… Fuck
it. You’re coming home. Simple as that. I’ve never come across anyone that’s managed to
make me feel compelled to keep around. I probs sound like a fucking nut, but it is what it
is. Like I actually feel ripped off that I had to leave so soon. It was just one of those things
I couldn’t let go. Safe to say, you’re stuck with me for now. But I do promise you this… Im
getting you out. I’ve pulled some crazy ass shit off in my time, some stupid, some smart.
But loyalty and honesty shows a person’s integrity. If there’s ever been something I’ve had
to achieve, I have always made sure that I nail it.

Which brings me to my next point. You are stuck in my fucking head. I don’t know why.
But there’s just something I cant shake off and that’s never happened before. I don’t like
connecting too much with people at the best of times. But there is definitely something in
your face and being that keeps you tied in. Plus, jail visits suck balls and so does jail
itself. You are too important to be there. Fuck, maybe its like your aura or something. I
don’t know. All I know is that I just can’t ignore it.

The people around you and your surroundings, both now and in the past, isn’t what was
meant for you. You belong in an environment surrounded with people and places that
inspire you to flourish and show exactly how amazing you are as a person. You are

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committed, smart, funny, caring, beautiful and most importantly- special. You have more
substance in you than an army of Buddhist Monks. Do not let ANYTHING make you think or
feel otherwise.

Anyways babe, Im legit about to crash hard. Miss you heaps and heaps. Cant wait to see
you!

Love you xox

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