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Alice Notley at Night The States 1
Alice Notley at Night The States 1
Alice Notley at Night The States 1
Alice Notley
Yellow Press
Chicago
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Some of these poems appeared in the following publications:
Oink, Ahnoi, Gandhabba, The World, B City, Shiny, St. Mark's
Poetry Newsletter, Environs, Exquisite Corpse, & Big Fish in Exile.
The poem "Sweetheart" first appeared in MARGARET &
DUSTY (Coffee House Press, 1985). Many of the poems were
distributed as hologrpah postcards by the Alternative Press,
for which purpose they were originally written. The author
is grateful to Ken & Ann Mikolowski for their part in the
generation of said poems.
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COMPLINE 1
TED 2
VITAMIN EQUALS CIGARET 3
"grace him my heart there grown pale" 4
"I want to/dream your face" 5
He is, he is not 6
COUNTRY SONG 7
"At one point I was sitting at a large wooden table" 8
A GIRL FOR NOVEMBER 11
"Baby Lovely" 15
"I didn't writef"Joe' s Jacket"" 16
I HAD A DREAM THAT I 17
SONG 18
12/18/83 19
A STORY I TELL 20
'83 21
SEE YOU 22
THE 10 BEST WEATHERS OF 1983 23
THE TEN BEST ISSUES OF COMIC BOOKS 24
SWEETHEART 25
"Toward him your dreams are" 26
"You are freed" 27
"Could only" 28
POEM 29
SONG 30
THE WORLD'S 21 GREATEST ANIMALS: A PLAY 31
SOBER HEART, 32
MY HEART 33
SEA FLU 34
"Even as we get better" 35
VALENTINE 36
437 E. 12th St. 37
"I go there then" 38
AFTER TED FU 39
SOMETHING OFFERED 40
UNSITEL Y STAR 41
3/22/84 42
FROM THE DREAMS 43
MARCH 25th 44
POEM 45
ME 46
SONG 47
AROSE 48
HOW TO REALLY GET AN APARTMENT 49
CUMMINGTON 50
"Then & there we were" 51
LA MORT 52
L'ETOILE 53
"King/Kiss/Kind/Rest" 54
BECAUSE BORN 55
"not having been" 56
"Mother, a flower" 57
LOVE, 58
IT WOULD 59
BACKYARD 60
WEEKEND WEATHER 61
DAHLIAS 62
"Your face comes clearer" 63
AUTUMN 64
ASIDE: VOICE 65
AT NIGHT THE STATES 69
AT NIGHT THE STATES
COMPLINE
The Earth is one word deep
that is your name.
1
TED
He's on the boat
in my heart
the sky part
On earth
we have only
his picture:
ourselves.
8/8/83
2
VITAMIN EQUALS CIGARET
I dreamed he came back secretly for a few
days ... there had been some delays .. .I asked him if
he wished he could really stay & be living again.
No, he said, he was tired of having to be so
masculine, captain of a ship too tight, too small
even. He wanted to be more feminine, quieter for
a change ....
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grace him my heart there grown pale
joy to hear and see him kind
but now I speak only to air
yet how like my mind he is to me
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I want to
dream your face
your lovely face
9/12/83
5
He is, he is not
9/21/83
6
COUNTRY SONG
Appalachia is my own spine
The Missouri's between my footsteps
Shiprock is my back brain
& San Francisco my white white teeth & smile
LA is my solemn little person before dawning
& I'll live to see Texas in the morning someday
With my blue desert eyes
With my big Yellowstone past
With my Pennsylvania motel little hands
10114/83
7
"At one point I was sitting at a large wooden
table, near the ruins, (Greek), & I was trying to
spell out, using spaghetti (in sauce), several
sentences, which I had gotten right in my head &
was quite satisfied with, the first of which was
something like, This will be a personal version of
the history (&thus, harmless.)"
10115/83
8
A GIRL FOR NOVEMBER
When I woke up she was gone.
Last night I
dreamed me & my friend Sherry
were these highschool girls & we met
Bob Dylan. Then we came to visit him in bed
surrounded by thousands of highschool girls.
Do you want us to go to the dance? Sherry
said. Aw, No, Bob said, it will last till
3 o'clock tomorrow afternoon. It will cut into
some a your classes. We nodded, & left.
11
Autumn leaves on my desk
2 of them
You didn't?
No!
*
12
Part of my brain is shaped like a
diary. It is the same size as the entire
rest of my brain, but
part of it is always left blank.
*
Today I cleaned a window. I cut my finger on it
Today is all crystal & blue & golden yellow, dry as glass
... company.
13
Me, I have never considered a position
to be a "position"
But I am here.
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14
Baby Lovely
Dear Baby Lovely
Yellow geranium leaf
Scorpio is over & done
Days go by but you
stay secluded
in your onyx jet walled villa on the
dark side of
our other Mother
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I didn't write
"Joe's Jacket"
about the way I
felt today. Luckily
I had "Joe's
Jacket" to read
instead. Is it
my jacket, too?
16
I HAD A DREAM THAT I
I had a dream that I
was marrying myself.
Looking through a
crystal; & from among the
millions of refracted
brides she walked towards
me, white veil & dress & bouquet
11122/83
17
SONG
Angel of, Angel of,
Bring in the coffee to me
So I can grow up old
But old that they kiss
I want to be kissed again
kissed sometime like
when I would feel it
that would be best
when I can feel it again
12/10/83
18
12/18/83
19
A STORY I TELL
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20
'83
(Haiku to tune of
bird snaps thread)
111184
21
SEE YOU
1/1/84
22
THE 10 BEST WEATHERS OF 1983
1. Sunny & cool
3. Snow, no wind
23
THE TEN BEST ISSUES OF COMIC BOOKS
1. X-rnan #141 & 142
2. Defenders #125
5. New Mutants #1
6. New Mutants #2
7. Micronauts #58
8. Marvel Universe #5
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SWEETHEART
If I address it to you I have not, have I,
let go of you yet. I'm sorry.
1118/84
25
Toward him your dreams are
Without their powers
Toward you they seem to deliver
His love as if from where.
There is no Where.
There is no his.
1123/84
26
You are freed
But you will not listen
All kinds of things
In the sun. I try
thought intangible
out into the paths
tears fall
And I am proud.
It is a stone
thinking.
1/25/84
27
Could only
move as far away
as one who standing still
hands the thief
a miracle
broken-hearted is more
person than half-
hearted is
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28
POEM
212/84
29
SONG
Yes I still hate
I want to
till I'm
gleaming
pure. I still
know who
I hate. And
you don't want
to hear it.
Fine. This
year's crocuses
are white.
217/84
30
THE WORLD'S 21 GREATEST ANIMALS: A PLAY
Announcer:
4. Frog
6. Hamster
7. Chihuahua
11. Chuckawalla
12. Snake
13. Opossum
14. Eagle
15. Phoenix
16. Whale
17. Hippopotamus
18. Baboon
31
SOBER HEART,
heart
not ungentle
fierce, cavernous, sistering, over-
used, unscarce, half-divine
mammoth comedian
manufactured
heart
softness of growing
Lower than the species
Humor of Angels
Titan
2/7/84
32
MY HEART
How can I send my valentine?
Just send it not sending it
I've been thinking red hearts every day
Not sweetly near violently
I think them like I look at
flowers, white light, blue
light, I think my red heart
to whoever is receiving it
whoever it is you are.
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SEA FLU
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34
Even as we get better
we say we
never will. It's
the truth, in a
way, I never
will. A place to
start from Paumanok.
2/12184
35
VALENTINE
Heart a mess
dirty, tear smears
Then I'm lucid
Use me for glass
Then Then
What then?
Careful of a World
Tending to it of it
That's us.
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437 E. 12th St.
Sunny knees
Same
as 1970
I remember this light
I remember
writing this poem
when he left me
to my poems
the first time and
I wrote this
clumsy, fierce
poem.
2/22/84
37
I go there then
from here
as one and
turn. I
cross but I pass
Ms. Later
returning fast to
me, lonely in
her nightie.
3/2/84
38
AFTER TED FU
And all the money I've ever spent
it falls on me as rain
And when I leave I won't be at
this glowing town again
317/84
39
SOMETHING OFFERED
Something offered ancient
mercurous thing else misfortune
as in "the ship plows the sea"
mingle with me and the
bones of the digits light
either human or animal
earth, and place amounting
to nuptial
a mathematimaid
like a tree in compliance
perch of perfecting
cloth of
thing told again
unchanging saintwise
relent to associations
pliancy of
or suffering at which
something is achieved
animal token unblush part
3113/84
UNSITEL Y STAR
3/14/84
41
3/22/84
I certainly wouldn't
want to be guilty
of resisting release, would you?
(No, I never thought so.)
42
FROM THE DREAMS
Come live on the floor with me, he
said, & I did that, gladly. Even
below the bed.
The floor was softer, a rug, I was
Grace to him who filled me, we
smiled; I laid my head on his belly.
Write the play of Phil & Dan, he said,
the Berrigan Brothers, us. There was
more & prettier snow, still, on the
lower Alps than the higher ones.
My marriage has left me early
though he & I share somewhat
the vehicle of only myself.
He said, "Did Anne really say,
'Do children still like White Christmas?"'
He was laughing, it made him laugh.
But in, as it were, my mother's house-
sick for 3 days; he didn't eat.
My mother self told me
to leave him alone with his liver
And before he died the shamaness I did
bless him (I would grieve later).
His real last words must be:
"May your Days be Merry and Bright;
and May all your Christmases be White."
3/84
43
MARCH 25th
I threw out something
dear-
useless suitcase
summer Buffalo -
44
POEM
Why do I want to tell it
it was the afternoon of November
15th last Fall and I was waiting
for it whatever it would be like
4/5/84
4S
ME
I will compass my
release towards your
lips, through
which I will pass
past the hut of my
own forehead and into
the litter light
of the preserver.
4116/84
46
SONG
They say my eyes weep
New York City coquettes
turn' d Destiny's dark jewels
as if she wears me
and I know it not
4/84
47
AROSE
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HOW TO REALLY GET AN APARTMENT
(from a dream) 4/19/84
49
CUMMINGTON
They write about the weather when they live here
if they write. We saw trees pretty mute-looking though
it's April. Sun & snow. Didn't go to
see: HARD TO HOLD, SPLASH, SWING SHIFT,
ROMANCING THE STONE. Alone in a sleepingbag,
dark in the blue, softly seared by sense of
you- it's not that I'm tired of growing
lonesome, lonesomest, it's that and that I
in this waiting, for what, is an always
that I must encompass, walking, as if
I figured to the world, more than ever.
4/21/84
50
Then & there we were
always full
we went as close to
as kind permits
its body
But
we were different
ours
only mine.
5/12184
51
LA MORT
Can't wander as
I was wont where
us the tidings
& tells us no lies.
June, 1982
52
L'ETOILE
June, 1982
53
King
Kiss
Kind
Rest
6/20/84
54
BECAUSE BORN
Because born that way
Where I saw & drank in so much
Possessed to blossom across my back
To open up & look out any more
Will say, Let me ask are you ready yet?
July 7, 1984
55
not having been
oneself & so not
having been sung
suddenly perhaps
having new self sing it
so & so I will, I do
56
Mother, a flower
Father, a flower
continued mild
warm high
mild experience
(memory of Atlantis)
A PASSING THOUGHT
white leaf
57
LOVE,
I can't think of that
Let me help and one
Green is for always then
Let me lay my head upon
I will not fasten it
Will not hold you to me
58
IT WOULD
it would be that
but only if I knew how
again
Could something like
that get lost? no only
a little a little lost
Aug. 3, 1984
59
BACKYARD
Aug. 4, 1984
60
WEEKEND WEATHER
Whether in the course of
and in my arms when that was
the childish happiness of
a mirror when that was
was that of course happiness but now
61
DAHLIAS
Darkest blackish dahlias I've seen
blind dark fire winter windows black
enclosure within
our life like a heart:
I dreamed our dead couldn't
write their letters of explanation
& I felt so tenderly sad for them.
9/14/84
62
Your face comes clearer
as time passes
its back to me
as if goodby were
forever younger
like your face
10/6/84
63
AUTUMN
A lovely name carved above the grass
Magnetizes to it its wife - a moment -
the life of roundabout sky breeze red
leaves taken whole with a car away.
The name endures, the life's lips
tangled in all & its cast, speaking
become freely, are that, will be, & be.
10/8184
64
ASIDE: VOICE
I love your voice.
And when they die
their voices will still
live together.
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AT NIGHT THE STATES
At night the states
I forget them or wish I was there
in that one under the
Stars. It smells like June in this night
so sweet like air.
I may have decided that the
States are not that tired
Or I have thought so. I have
thought that.
69
At night the states
will you continue in this as-
sociation of
matters, my Dearest? down
the street from
where the public plaque reminds
that of private
loving the consequential chain
trail is
matters
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At night the states
whistle. Anyone can live. I
can. I am not doing any-
thing doing this. I
discover I love as I figure. Wed-
nesday
I wanted to say something in
particular. I have been
where. I have seen it. The God
can. The people
do some more.
71
At night the states
whom I do stand before in
judgement, I
think that they will find
me fair, not .
that they care in fact nor do
I, right now
though indeed I am they and
we say
that not that I've
erred nor
lost my way though perhaps
they did (did
they) and now he is dead
but you
you are not. Yet I am this
one, lost
again? lost & found by one-
self
Who are you to dare sing to me?
72
At night the states
dare sing to me they who seem
tawdry
any more I've not thought I
loved them, only
you it's you whom I love
the states are not good to me as
I am to them
though perhaps I am not
when I think of your being
so beautiful
but is that your beauty
or could it be
theirs I'm having such a
hard time remembering
any of their names
your being beautiful belongs
to nothing
I don't believe they should
praise you
but I seem to believe they
should
somehow let you go
73
At night the states
ride the train to Baltimore
we will try to acknowledge what was
but that's not the real mirror
is it? nor
is it empty, or only my eyes
are
Ride the car home from Washington
no
they are not. Ride the subway
home from
Pennsylvania Station. The states
are blind eyes
stony smooth shut in moon-
light. My
French is the shape of this
book
that means I.
74
but you said nothing. Yet you
said once before
and there it is, there, but it is
so still.
Oh being alone I call out my
name
and once you did and do still in
a way
you do call out your name
to these states whose way is to walk
on by that's why I write too much
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