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MUHAMMAD AMMAR HAKIMI SUHAIMI

SMA PERSEKUTUAN KAJANG, HULU LANGAT

“Why, why is this happening to me? Maybe I really should just die just like he said?” he
whispered to himself questioning everything. Then, he took a knife and started to cut his
hands while blaming himself.

***

“Arghhh! I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” shouted Roger scared and panting for his dear life in the
corner of the room. Having to take punches and kicks from someone that felt as if he was
superior to others, proud of his wrongdoings to the innocent boy was not something
delightful.

“Why don’t you just die? Why do you need to be alive in this world? If you haven’t
been alive…” Chris continued kicking him in the stomach to relieve his anger. The reason he
was so angry was that he got second place in the whole school, defeated by Roger. Before
this, he always got first place, but since Roger started to get into the same school as him, he
started getting second place. Furious as he was, he never wanted his title as the first to be
taken away from him as if his life depended on it.

“I hope you just die!” shouted Chris while slamming the door of the room.

Roger, who was left alone, couldn’t help but cry his whole heart out. This wasn’t
something he wanted. All he wanted when getting transferred to a new school was to be
happy and make new friends like everyone else, but it was ruined because of one particular
person.

***

“What happened to you?” asked Amy, Roger’s sister, worried why her brother was covered in
bruising. She immediately tended to his injuries even though wasn’t given a response.

Roger started to burst into tears in front of his sister because of how hurt he was and
felt guilty to make his only family this worried.

“I’m sorry for worrying you. I just want him to be my friend,” Roger apologised to his
only family in this world without a proper explanation.
 “It’s okay. I’m here for you,” Amy consoled her brother and pat his head to make him
calm. From this point onwards, she swore to investigate and find the culprit that put his
brother in that state.

***

Finally, after days of investigation, Amy found Chris guilty of the incident that happened to
her brother. Without hesitation, she went to confront him in school.

“I want to ask you. Why did you do that to my brother, Roger?” asked Amy in a
threatening voice.

“Because he took what’s mine. I should’ve gotten the first place but instead, he did,”
explained Chris without feeling even an ounce of guilt in his words.

“Do you even know why he got the first place? Because he’s desperate. He wants to
give us a better life. We don’t even have parents and I need to work all day to support the
two of us. He doesn’t want to disappoint me but instead, this is what he got for working hard.
Why are you so jealous of him? He’s always kind and never irritating. I know him more than
everyone else in the world. And he also said he just wanted to be your friend. But you
betrayed his hope, ruining everything,” Amy burst into explaining everything that was booked
in her heart.

Chris was flabbergasted hearing those words from Amy. There was never an
instance where that kind of thought came across his mind. Guilty as he felt, he was also
ashamed of himself. Why was he so jealous of Roger when it was never actually a
competition? Was it pride? Was it selfish? Was it so that he can get attention from everyone?
Thoughts came running through his mind trying to answer these questions.

“Ding.” A notification from Amy’s phone, meaning someone texted her a message.

“Love you, sis.” A love message from Roger out of nowhere. Amy’s eyes widened as
she read that message having understood the meaning behind it. She rushed to their home
instantly. Chris also followed her to correct the mistakes that he did to Roger. Shivers were
sent down their spines as they were in front of the house feeling scared as to what they
might discover. But they needed to be brave to face what was to come.

Amy rushed to open the door of Roger’s room only to see that the floor has been
dyed with the red blood of someone but could still hear someone’s breath. Their mouths
were wide open upon looking at the scene and suddenly, tears started falling.

“ROGER!”