#I

NSERT1

▶Soi twast hedaybef or

eschool sre-openfor
secondt erm,I'm outsidethebalconyt aki
ng
sel
fies,Dadist akingmet othesalonI'm weari
ngmy
favori
tefloralpinkdr essandwhi tesandals,gotno
makeuponj ustlipglossandI'm Flaunti
ngmy
naturalhairlooki ngallfr
eshandcl ean , Icould
heardadcal l
ingmynamef rom downst ai
rs.
.SoI
wentbackt omyr oom andt hrewmyphoneont he
bedIwentout
Dad:whatwer
eyoudoi
ng?Letmeguesst
aki
ng
pi
ctur
es?
Me:hahahadady
ouknowmet
oowel
l
Dad:you'
remypr
incess,Ihav
eto,whyar
eu
dr
essedupwearejustgoi
ngtothesal
on
Me:I
m notdr
esseduphawu
Dad:y
ouar
eandy
ouar
eugl
y
▶Wel aughedaswelef
tthehouseandgoti
ntot
he
car
..
.Gott ot
hesal
on,dadgavememoneyandleft
.
Iwal
kedi
nsi
det
hesal
on.
Hai
rdr
esser
:whatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday
?
Me:Longbr
aids
Hair
dresser
:ahyzamoIhopet
histi
mear
oundy
ou
wil
lfi
ndaboy f
ri
endwit
hthi
shair
sty
le
Me:Ihopeso
▶Satthereforhour
s di sadvant
ageofdoing
brai
dscall
eddadtocomef etchmehearri
vedasI
geti
ntothecar.
.Hesmil
es
Me:andt
hen?I
m beaut
if
ulr
ight
?
Dad:
No.Youl
ookl
i
kemamaj
ack
Me:Daddy
..
.
▶Idontknowwhybutmydadl ikestot easeme
sayingthatim uglylikehim..
.wegothomeIr ushed
tothekitchenfoundt hefoodcov eredIt ookmi ne
andopenedi t
..
.Ses'Thokoisthebest7col oursanda
chocolatedessertkeSunday .Iheatedmyf ood
pouredmy sel
faf antagrapedr i
nki nthosegl asses
Wer etheypourwi nej ustwantedt ofeel l
ikeIwas
dri
nkingwi neandf antagrapelookslikewi ne,turned
ont heTVandwat chedamov i
e..
.Dadcameand
j
oinedme. ..Wel ov ewat chi
ngmov iesespeci al
ly
actionitwasal most10pm andt omor rowi tsschool..
.
Iki
ssedMydadgoodni ghtandwentst rai
ghtt ot he
bathroom af t
erbat hi
ngIwenti ntomyr oom lotioned
andgoti ntomypj '
s..
.Gotintomybedcheckedmy
Fone.mi ssedcal lsfrom thesquadt heypr obably
wantt odi scusst omor rowsoutfi
t..
IGoton
What sAppt extedthesquadandcheckedFacebook
andIpost edoneoft hesel f
iesItookeal i
eron...
AfterthatIdozedof f

Mondaymor ningalar
m wentoffIwokeupbr ushed
myt eet
hbat hedandgotintomyschool uniform well
todaythet hemei swhitesocks,gr
asshopper ,ski
rt
,
ti
eandbl azer .
..It
iedaBunwithablueribbon
grabbedmyschool bagandwent
downstairs..
.Foundses'Thokoanddadt alki
ng
Me:Mor
ning
Dad:Mor
ningPr
incess
Ses'
Thoko:Mol
oSi
si,Her
esBr
eakf
astandy
our
Lunchbox
Me:Yout
hebestt
hanky
ou.
Dad:I
m goi
ngtobel
atet
odayZamo,
wear
egoi
ng
towor
katDurban
Me:
NoSt
ress,
Im Of
fIl
ovey
ou
▶Iheardahooterout
sidei
twasmal
umsmydr
iver
..
.
Igoti
nsi
dethecar.
Mal
ums:
Mshana
Me:Mal
ums
Mal
ums:
Lezi
kol
ozi
vul
i
we,
Ureadymar
a?
Me:YesI
'
m Ready
..j
ustcan'
twai
ttoseeal
lmy
f
ri
ends
Mal
ums:hay
yiMshanaasi
sheshe
▶Mi ndyouallMalumsdoesn' tspeakengli
shatall
,
hesayshewon' tspeakitunti
lwegetourlandback
wearri
vedatschool Isai
dmygoodby ehewent
off
.myfriendswerealreadywaiti
ngformeatt he
gate,
wewer etheshitIt
ellyou.
samehairst
yle,
same
school uni
f orm,wel ookedsobeaut i
fulandwel ov
ed
attentionmi ndyouwear etheseniorsoftheschool.
.
Fir
stper i
odwegotourr eports.Ever
yonewasso
excited.f i
rstperi
odgotr ui
nedbecauseal lt
heywere
tal
kingaboutwaswhopassedwhof ail
ed..
onour
tablewewer ejustsitt
ingtalki
ngandInot i
ced
Candi cewasnol ongertalki
ng...
Me:Candy
..Ar
eyouokboo?
Candi
ce:
Im al
ri
ght
Kamo:Hahahau'
veFai
l
edr
ight
?
▶Candi
ceDi
dn'
trespond
Me:
UyaphaphaKamone
▶Weal
ll
aughedbutCandi
cekeptqui
et
Kamo:Letmeseey
ourr
epor
tcandy
Candi
ce:
KamoIwi
l
lfucky
ouupne.Leav
emeal
one.
▶Shegotupandaskedt
ogot
othet
oil
etMe:wow
Khomo:that
swei
rdwhat
supwi
thher
.May
beshe
hasfai
l
ed
Me:
May
be
▶Candicedi dn'
tatt
endsecondandt hir
dperiod..
It
wasnowbr eakt i
mewewer eeat i
ngourlunchboxes
andbusytalking.
..Mduduziappearsoutofnowher e
comesst r
aighttomeandgi vesmeahugwhi chI
dodged..
..
Mduduzi i
soneoft hoseannoyingfunny
guys.hehasbeenaskingmeoutsi ncegrade8
Me:Mdu!Yousoannoy
ing
Mduduzi
:I'
vemi
ssedy
ouwi
fey
..
Me:dudei
m noty
ourwi
fe
Mduduzi
:int
hef
utur
eyouwi
l
lbe.Mr
sNdl
ovu
Me:
Youwi
sh.
Mduduzi
:Ir
eal
l
ylov
eyouZamo.
Me:l
olpl
easel
eav
e
Mduduzi
:Notunt
ilIgetmyhug.come(
str
etchi
ng
hi
sarmsoutforahug)
Me:
No
Mduduzi
:OneDay
?
Me:y
eahonedayl
.
▶Weal llaughed.heleftandandt hebell r
angwe
wentbackt oclass.Candicewalkedi nbutdi dn'
tsi
t
wit
hus...Thatwaswei rd..
.I
twasnowaf terschool.
Weusual l
ystandatthegat eandwai tforour
tr
ansportsCandicedidn'twalkwit
hust ot hegate
andshest oodalone.
..Theschool busarr i
vedKamo
andkhomogoti ntot
hebusandwentof f.Meand
Natashawentt oCandiceandt r
iedtalki
ngt oher
Natasha:candywhat
'sup.Wear
ewor
ri
edabouty
ou,
ar
ey ouokay?
Candi
ce:I
mfi
nepl
easel
eav
e.
▶Wedi dn'
twanttoannoyacolor
edgi r
landwe
knowCandi cever
ywellshecangof r
om 0t o100
realqui
cksowel eft
..
.Malumsarr
ivedIkissed
natashagoodbyeandIleft
.
Mal
ums:
Bekunj
ani
Eskol
weni
?
Me:
Ehmal
umsi
twasj
ustadaybutt
henCandi
ce.
.
▶Tol
dhert
hewhol
est
ory
Mal
ums:kungenzekaukut
hyazankeahambekahl
e
mshana,
uzobuy
aalungeUngakhat
hazeki
.
Me:canwepassbyMcDonal
ds?I
'
m cr
avi
ngf
or
Mc'
Fl
urr
y
Mal
ums:Ukunanki
ngasi
ngay
akhona
Gott oMcDonal ds.Iwenti nsideIdontl ikedr i
v e
thrusIwantt obeseenwhati fthere'sfuturebae
i
nsi de...SoIgoti nsi
deboughtMc' flurr
y...Looked
aroundt hepl acewasempt y.
.Iwentoutgoti nsi
de
thecarandwewenthome.Ar r
ivedathomef ound
Ses'Thokowashi ngdishesIgr eetedherandIwent
upst airs..Goti ntomyr oom undr essed, di
dmy
homewor kst
her eafterItookanapwokeupwent
downst airsforsupperIwasnowhungr y.Founda
noteont hefridgewr it
ten"youwer esleeping
peacef ul l
yIdi dn'twantt owakeuup.ButIknowy ou
wheny ouwakeupy ouwi l
lbehungr yyourf oodi sin
themi crowav e. "Ses'
Thokoi ssuchasweet ypi e.I
atemyf oodandl ockedal lt
hedoor s.
wentt omy
room andwasj ustbusywi t
hmyf one.Candi cesent
atextonourWhat sAppgr oupsay ingthatshe
doesn' twantust obef ri
endsany mor e.Shei sdone
witht hesquadandweshoul dn'
twor ryabouther
shei sf ine.
Sincethesquaddidn'
trespondIwasn'tgonna
respondeit
her.Isl
eptt
hinkingaboutherwhatdoes
shemean.

What
swr
ongwi
thher
??
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT2

▶I twasfinal
l
yFriday,wehaven'
ttalkedtoCandice
sinceMonday .
..
It
sBr eakTi
meandwear epl
anning
totakeheroutafterschoolt
oMc'Donal dssowecan
talktoheraboutwhathasbeenbot heri
ngher..
..
we
hav ebeensavi
ngourpocketmoneyf orthewhole
weeksowecant akeherout..
.
Kamo:IJusthopesheappreci
atesouref
for
t.
..
I
coul
dhaveusedthismoneytobuyanewmat te
l
ipst
ickorbuyai
rt
ime
Me: Idon'
tthinkthisplanwi
l
l wor
k,wewi
l
lpi
ss
candiceoffshewi l
lendupstabbi
nguswi
thakni
fe
thatColor
edgi r
liscrazy
Khomo:canyouallpl
easer
elax.
.Ever
y t
hingwi
l
lwor
k
outj
ustf
ine.
..
.butwehaveaproblem howarewe
goi
ngtogetthere.
Kamo:wel l
Iwasthinki
ngsincei
tsNatashas
bi
rthdayt
omor r
owwecoul dusethatasanexcuse
Candicewi
lldef
ini
tel
yjoi
nusandwecoul dask
Nomzamoschauf f
eurtotakeusthere.
.Si
mpl
e
Me:
Kamothemaster
mind.Okaynopr
obl
em
Mal
umscantakeust
her
e.
Kamo:
sor
ted!
▶Wewentbackt oclass,
thebel
lrangforaft
er
schoolwhi
lewewerebusypacki
ngourst uf
f
prepar
ingt
oleav
ewedeci dedt
oapproachCandice
Kamo:
HeyCandy
Candi
ce:
hiandby
e
Me:wai
twewantt
otal
ktoy
ou
Candi
ce:
aboutwhat
?
Me:
Asy
ouknowt
omor
rowi
sTashsbi
rt
hday
..
Candi
ce:
So?
Me:Sowewerewonderi
ngify
oucouldcomeand
cel
ebrat
ewi
thustodayatMcDonal
ds
Candice:
guysIt
oldyouthatIdontwantt
obe
fr
iendswithy
ouanymore.
Me:
please
Nat
asha:pl
easeCandyI
'
llbuyy
ouy
ourf
avor
it
e
v
ani
l
lami
l
kshake
Candi
ce:
okay
▶wegotoutoft heclass, wewal kedtothegate
foundmal umsal readywai ti
ngforme. .
.Gott othe
carIaskedhi mt ot akeust oMcDonal ds,he
agreed.Wear ri
vedatt hemal landwewenti nside
McDonal ds..weor deredlargeev er
ythi
ng,Large
burgers,largeMi l
kshakes, Lar
geChi pswel ove
McDonal dswhol eheartedly.
.Whodoesn' t?Soher e
wear esitti
nginsilencekhomot sodecidedtobr eak
thesil
ence.
Khomo:
SoNatashat
omor
row'
syourbi
rt
hday
?What
ar
ewegoingt
odo?
Natashayouguy
sshoul
dcomeupwi
thsomet
hing.
.
Idontwantt
ogooutt
hough
Khomo:y
?
Kamo:I'
m notheretochi
tchatCandi
cewhyhav
e
youbeenavoi
dingus?
Candi
ce:
Iknewt
hiswasn'
taboutNat
ashasbi
rt
hday
Kamo:y
eahi
twasn'
tsot
alk.
..Whyhav
eyoubeen
av
oidi
ngus?
Me:Kamochill
yourt
it
s,candi
cewi
l
ltal
kyouar
e
causi
ngascene
▶Peoplewerenowlooki
ngatusbecauseKamo
wasshout
ingatCandi
ce.
Candi
ce:okfi
ne!!Ihav
efail
edokay.Areyouhappy
now?doy ouknowhowmuchi thur
ts?Imtheonl
y
onewhohasfail
edinthesquad.
Khomo:Sowhydonty
ouwantt
obef
ri
endswi
thus
anymor
e?
Candi
ce:Iwantt
ofocusmor
eonmyst
udi
es
Kamo:Inot
herwordsy
ou'
resay
ingi
tisourf
aul
t
thaty
ouhav
efai
led?
Candi
ce:
No!
Kamo:
Whatdoy
oumeant
henCandi
ce?
Candi
ce:Ij
ustneededTimetoprocessthi
sIwas
angr
yokay.
..Di
sappoi
ntedi
nmy sel
f..
.i
'
m sor
ry
Kamo:
Oki
m sor
ryt
oo
Candi
ce:
Itscool
Nat
asha:
Sowear
eal
lcool
now?
Candi
ce:yeahI
'm coolandbesi
desI'
vemissedyou
al
l.
.Iwil
lnev
erLeavethesquadIlov
ey ouguys
Khomo:wewi
l
lal
way
sbeher
efory
ouI
fyouneed
anyhel
p
Me:
OkayThi
sneedsagr
ouphug
▶wedi dagr ouphug.Andcont i
nuedwi t
heat i
ngwe
shar edstori
esandgossi peditwasj ustfunhangi ng
outwi thmygi rls.
..
itwasget ti
ngpr ett
ylate..
.
Mal umscamebackandhedr oveust oourhouses
onebyone. .
.Hedr oppedmeof ffewhousesf r
om
homebecausehehadt otakeKhomoandKamot o
kasi.OnmywayhomeaAudi RS3dr ovepastme
andst oppednotsof arfrom mei tlookedl i
kethe
dri
v errecognizedmeandst oppedwel lIknewi twas
theguyt hatli
v ednearmyhouseIst artedfixi
ng
my selftookoutal ipglossinmyschool bagtookout
mysmal lmirrorandcheckedmy selfIlookedgood...
.
Iwasaboutt owal kpasst hecarandhet al
kedt ome
Hi
m:heynotsof
ast
Me:me?
Hi
m:i t
sonlymeandy
ouont
hisst
reetofcour
seu
(
helaughed)
▶Hi sl
aughter heisdar
kandhasacleanf
ade
hai
rcut.
.Iwal
kedt
owar
dsthecardamnhis
handsome
Hi
m: youl
ooksobeaut
if
ulupcl
ose.Wher
ear
emy
mannersI
'
m Vince.
Me:
ok
Aust
in:
ok?What
syourname?
Me:
I'
m Nomzamo
Vi
nce:y
ouknowIjustgotanewjobheresoij
ust
movedinher
eIli
vewit
hmycol l
eague.
..
ist
her
eany
waywecanbuil
dsomething?
Me:
bui
l
dsomet
hing?
▶Myt houghtswerenowrunningwi
l
d..Iwas
t
hinki
ngaboutourwedding,howmydressi
sgoi
ng
t
olook,thecake.
Vi
nce:
Yeahaf
ri
endshi
p
Me:
Ohy
eahsur
eIl
i
vet
her
e(poi
nti
ngatmyhouse)
Vince:Ij
ustcan'
twal
kint
oyourhouseandaskf
or
you,yourdadwil
lki
ll
me
Me:y
ouknowmydad?
Vince:y
eahIdoandy ourhousehel
pert
heyaret
he
onlypeopl
ethatIseewalki
nginandoutofy
our
house
Me:l
olhav
eyoubeenst
alki
ngme?
Vince:NoIhav
ejustbeenwait
ingfort
hismoment
tofinal
l
ymeetyou.
..CanIgetyournumber
s?
Me:
Ok
▶Iwasntgoingtoacthardt
ogetihadacrushon
thi
sguyformonthsnowsoweexchangednumbers
Iwassoexcit
edandhappythankheavenswewent
toMcDonaldswell
Iwalkedhomeandhedroveoff
..I
gothomeasIopenedthedoorIfounddadint
he
kit
chencooki
ng.
Me:DadYouscar
edme,
whendi
dyouar
ri
vef
rom
Dur
ban
Dad:ear
li
ertoday
,woul
dyoul
i
kesomespaghet
ti
andmeatbal
l
s?
Me:nothankyouI'
m act
ual
lyfull
,at
eatMcDonal
ds
wit
hfr
iendsandI'
mtir
edI'
mj ustgoi
ngtot
akea
bat
hthensleep
Dad:
youdoknowthati
tsFr
idayr
ightandwehav
ea
movi
etowatch.
Me:ohshi
tIf
orgot
Dad:
what
?
Me:Isai
dOhShi
rt
..Youknowshi
rtl
i
keIf
orgotmy
shi
rt
Dad:whatshi
rt
?
Me:uhmmm..
.Lemmerunupst
air
sandt
akeabat
h
I
'l
lbewi
thy
ouinasec
▶i r
anupstai
rsdidIjustsay"shi
t"t
omydad. .
.Igot
i
ntomyroom undressedandt ookashower.
..Iputa
t
owelonwheni gotoutwhenIwasaboutt ol
ot i
on
myphonerungitwasVi nce.Thesmil
eonmyf ace
youwoul
d'
veswor nthatitwasDrakecal
li
ngme.
Me:
Hi
Vi
nce:
Hi.
..j
ustwant
edt
osaygoodni
ght
Me:
uhmm Goodni
ght
Vi
nce:
sleept
ight
.
Me:
Wil
ldo
Vi
nce:
Sweet
.(cal
lended)
▶MyDadcanmi ssmetoni
ghtwit
ht hemovi
eI'
m
sl
eepingwit
hasmi l
eonmyface.Iloti
onedand
woremyPj '
sandupdat
edastat
usonFacebook
"f
eel
inginl
ove "andIdozedoff

Coul
dhebet
heone?

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT3

▶Wokeupf eeli
ngbr andnewi twasaSat urday
thankheav ens...Iwokeup, didmybedwentt othe
bathroom t ookashowerandIwentt hr
oughmy
phonei sentat exttoNat ashawi shi ngherahappy
bir
thday ..
.Wentdownst ai
rsmydadwasn' thomeas
alway sandsi nceses' Thokodoesn' tcomeov eron
weekendsIhadt omakemy selfbr eakfastIwentt o
thekictchenIf riedbaconandeggsandt oastedmy
breadt henmadecof feewithal otofmi l
k. .
.After
maki ngbr eakfastIheadedt othel oungeIswi t
ched
ont hetvandIwat chedRegularshowwhi l
eeat i
ng
andwat chingtvIr eceivedaWhat sAppt extfrom
Vince...
west artedt exti
ng
Vi
nce:ar
ey oual
way
sthi
sbeaut
if
ul?CanIst
eal
your
pr
ofi
lepi
cture
Me:Lol
noVi
nce.
.whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odowi
tht
he
pi
c?
Vi
nce:You'
l
lsee.
..Buti
'
llpr
obabl
yst
areati
tthe
whol
eday
Me:hahaha
Vi
nce:
SoCanI
?
Me:
YeahSur
e

▶Wecont inuedtotalkunti
l13pm t ol
dhi m Ihadto
go..
..WellIwentupst air
stochangecl othesIhadt o
l
ookgoodf orNatashasMi nipart
ywel lIwor etor
n
j
eanshor ts,awhitevestandmyt abularsneakers
andanov er si
zedl
ongj eanjacketwi t
hachocker
necklaceItiedmybr aidsandputonahotr ed
l
ipsti
ckIlookedhel l
acut et
hedoorbel l
rangIwent
downst ai
rsopenedt hedooritwasKhomoand
Kamo. .
.
Khomo:wowy
oul
ookni
ce
Me:
Real
l
y?It
ri
ed
Kamo:real
l
yni
ceshodangendodaphel
a,Ar
eyou
done?
Me:hahahakamoy
essim ki
ndadonetheseshor
ts
dontf
itmenomoreshoul
dIgochange?
Khomo:y
ourBut
tget
sbi
ggerev
ery
day
Kamo:l
oly
oul
ookf
inet
ome.
..
Asambeni
Me:okayletmefet
chnat
ashaspr
esentandmy
sungl
assesupst
air
s
Khomo:
Gir
lwhoy
out
rynnai
mpr
ess?
Me:
Noonei
mjustt
ryi
ngt
olookgood

▶Iwentupst ai
r stof etchedt hePr ezzieand
sungl asses...Wegotoutoft hehouse. .Neart he
gatet herewasacarThat oscar ,Khomot sos
Boyfriend.wegoti nt hecaritwasj usthi m,khomo,
Kamoandme. ..theset woareamat chmadei n
heav ent heydeser veeachot her .
...Hedr oppedusof f
atNat ashaspl ace. .
.Wegott her eCandi cewas
alr
eadyt hereandNat ashal ookedbeaut i
fuli
twasa
mini par t
yjustnat shaspar ent s,friendsofnat ashas
brotherandus. ..Wesangandgav eof fourpr esents
toNat ashashewassoemot ional andhappyt hatall
thepoepl ewhomat t
er edinherl ifewer ethereand
weat eal ot.
.cake, braai meat ,salads, snacks, dr
inks
i
twasr eall
yf un. .
.Nat han,Nat ashasbr othercall
ed
ustot hebacky ardt ocomeandj ustchi llwit
hhi s
f
ri
endswewentt
her
e,t
her
ewasboozeandhubbl
y.
Kamo:
okayl
et'
stur
nup!
Me:
yassgi
rl
!
Khomo:
nizof
ayaz
Kamo:
wher
etheweedat
?

▶Theyr ol
l
edusacoupl
eofjoi
ntsandgaveusskyy
vodka.
..Wegotsowast
edKamost ar
tedki
ssi
ng
Nathansfr
iendi
twasj
ustt
ooli
t.
..Myphonerangi
ts
Dad
Me:
Shoul
dIanswerI
'
m dr
unk
Khomo:j
ustanswertel
lhimthaty
ouatNatashas
youwon'
tbesleepi
nginthehousetoni
ght
Me:
ok
Ianswer
edhi
scal
l
Dad:Pr
incessi
ts7pm wher
ear
eyou?
Me:DadIToldy
out
hatI
'
llbeatNat
ashasPl
acei
ts
herbi
rt
hday
Dad:
whenwi
l
lyoubebackzamor
e?
Me:Tomor
row
Dad:
Okenj
oyandt
akecar
e.
Me:
Lov
eyoumor
e(cal
lended)
▶Candi
cewassodrunkshedr
ankunti
lshebl
ocked
out
.Nat
ashawasbusytal
ki
ngwit
htheguyswit
h
Khomot
soIjoi
nedt
hem.
Khomotso:Kamodoesntwast
eany
timeeyal
ready
shehasfoundaboy
fri
end
Nathan:Idon'
tev
enknowwhatChr
isi
sdoi
ngHe
hasagirl
fr
iend
Me:
What
!Manar
edogshowcanhe?
Khomo: notmyman..
.andbyt
hewayheisonhis
wayim sleepi
ngathi
shouset
oni
ghtaccompanyme
tothegateZamo
Nat
asha:
someonei
sgonnagetl
aidt
oni
ght
Khomo:asal
way
shoney
,Nomzamol
et'
sgo
Me:Letmemi
xthi
ssky
ywi
thcr
anber
ryt
henwe
wi
ll
go
Khomo:ar
rggokay
▶Mixedthevodkawit
hacranber
ryjui
ce,
aft
erthat
wewenttothegate,That
owasalreadyt
here
wai
ti
ngforkhomotso
Me:
Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
omar
rymyf
ri
endt
hat
o?
That
o:Wheny
ougetamanandGetl
aidZamo
Me:
ouch!
Khomo:
ouch!babydontsayt
hatt
omybestf
ri
end
▶Wel aughed..
..khomogotinsi
dethecarandthey
l
eftIwastherestandi
ng.
.Ithendeci
detocallVi
nceI
di
dn'tev
enknowwhyIwascal li
nghim
Vi
nce:
Heybabygi
rl
Me:
HeyVi
nce
Vi
nce:
howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m goodandy
ou?
Vince:
Im goodt
oo,Arey oui
ndoor
scany
oucome
out?CanIseeyouplease?
Me:
Im ataf
ri
endspl
ace
Vi
nce:
afr
iendspl
aceoraboy
fri
endspl
ace
Me:Lolaf
ri
endspl
aceIdonthav
eaboy
fri
endy
ou
cancome.
Vi
nce:sendmey
ourl
ocat
ion
Me:
Okaywi
l
ldo
Vi
nce:seey
ousoon(
cal
lended)

▶Isenthi
m mylocat
iont
hengoti
nsi
det
hey
ard.
I
gotacal
lfr
om hi
m
Me:Youhavearr
ived?Sof
astwow,
whatdoy
ou
dr
iveaFer
rari
?
Vi
nce:
NoNomzamousentmet
hewr
ongl
ocat
ion
Me:
Real
l
y??
Vi
nce:
Yesy
ousenty
ourhouseadr
ess
Me:
Real
l
y??
Vi
nce:
Yes
Me:
Thef ucki
m sosor
ryl
etmesendt
her
ightone
(
cal
lended)
▶Ielaughi
ngsohar
dtheweedhasdef
ini
tel
y
ki
ckedinandIwast
ipsy
..
.
Kamo:Theweedhaski
ckedi
nnowwhyar
eyou
l
aughi
ng?
Me:
IsentVi
ncet
hewr
ongl
ocat
ion
Nat
asha:Vi
nce?Who'
sthat
?
▶Idi
dn'
trespond
Kamo:
Senthi
m?Doest
hismeanhei
scomi
ngher
e?
Me:
hahahay
es.
..
Natasha:Yourey
esareredasfuckZamoy ouar
eso
hi
gh,t hi
sv i
nceguycantseey
ouliket
his.
.wearyour
sunglasses
Kamo:
Andshei
sti
psyomg!
Me:NoI'
m not
..
.andIwon'
twearsungl
assesi
ts
al
most10pm

▶Theylaughed,
Natashasenthimtheright
l
ocat
ion.
..Hewastherei
n20mi ns,
Kamoand
Nat
shademandedtoseehi m.Wewal kedtohi
scar
,
gotther
eandtheygr
eetedhim, IGotinsi
dethecar
andtheywal
kedbackinsi
det heyard.Wedroveoff
onourwayIrecei
vedaWhat sAppt extfr
om Kamo
sayi
ng"hei
stheone "Ibl ushed.
Vi
nce:
andt
hen?
Me:
hahanot
hing,
Sowher
ear
eweof
fto?
Vi
nce:
Wher
edoy
ouwantust
ogo?
Me:
Par
is
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:onedaybabygi
rl
,wer
eyoucr
yingory
ouar
e
j
usthi
gh?
Me:
why
?
Vi
nce:
Yourey
esar
ered
▶Il
ookedawayandsai
dnot
hing
Vi
nce:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulwhenhi
gh
Me:
Real
l
y??
Vi
nce:
yeahst
oner
▶Wedr
ovef
orhour
swi
thnor
eal
dest
inat
ionj
ust
l
ist
eningtomusi
candbondi
ngIenj
oyedevery
minuteofi
t.WeWentt
othegar
agetopourpetr
ol
whil
eatit.
..
Vi
nce:
donty
ouwantsomet
hingf
rom i
nsi
de?
Me:
youshoul
dn'
taskmet
hat
Vi
nce:Whynot
?ohaf t
ereffect
sofbei
nghighIdon'
t
mi
nd..comeonlet
'sgrabsomef oodf
ory
out o
munch
Me:
l
ikewhat
?
Vi
nce:
Any
thi
ngy
ouwant
Wewenti nsi
dethegarage..
.Iboughtev erythi
ng
thatIthoughtIneededsoursweet s,Icecr eam,
burgerandchips,Lays,spar
kli
ngwat er,andal otof
thi
ngs.HewassoshockedIcoul dt el
l byt helookon
hisface,i
tCostedhim R350Ihadnor egr etshesaid
anythi
ngIwant ed..
.
Vi
nce:Wow.Nowondery
ougota.
..
Me:
awhat
?
Vi
nce:
Package
Me:
wher
e?
Vi
nce:
Ther
e(l
ooki
ngatmyass)
Me:
mxm
Vi
nce:I
tsaNi
ceBut
tthough
Me:
mxm
▶wel
aughed,
hepai
dthenwedr
oveof
f.
..

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT4

▶Bei ngdrunkandst uffisfunbutIdidn'

twantt o
embar r
assmy sel
fbydoi ngunnecessarythi
ngsorby
bei
ngl oudinfrontofVince,soIkeptitcoolbutIhad
wil
dthought sImeanIwaswi t
hhim...mycrush...I
hadmyey esont hi
sguyf r
om thedayhemov edto
Rosebank...WellWewer ei nhi
scardr i
vi
ngt o
Natashaspl aceinsil
ent.
.Notnecessar il
yinsilentI
wasbusyeat i
ngev er
ythi
ngweboughtatt he
gar
age. .
..
Vi
nce:Someonei
shungr
y..
.Yhosl
owdown
▶ Idi
dn'
tseet
hatIwasouther eeatingl
ikeapi
gI
wassoembarr
assedIjustkeptquietIdi
dn't
r
espond.
wearr
ivedatNatashasplace
Vince:Weaty ourf
ri
endspl
ace,iti
ssoqui
etl
i
ke
nothinghappenedwher
earethepeopl
e?
Me:
ohno
Vi
nce:
Cal
lhert
ocomeout
Me:
I'
drat
hernot
..
.Andt
her
esr
eal
l
ynoone
▶AsILookoutt
hewi
ndow
Me:nomusi
c,nonoi
se,
thel
i
ght
sar
eof
f,howl
ong
hav
ewebeengone?
Vi
nce:
2hour
s
Me:
Ohno
Vi
nce:so.
..l
et'
sgoandknock?
Me:Ar
eyoucrazyi
can'
twel
lnoti
nthi
sst
ate,
Let
's
got
oyouplace?
Vi
nce:MyPl
ace?
Me:yeah,
Icanwai
ttheret
il
lthemorni
ng,
thencome
t
hissidef
ormybaginthemor ni
ng
Vi
nce:ohgoodt
hinki
ng
▶WeAr ri
vedatvincesplaceitwasacoolpl
ace,
ever
ythinglookedexpensive,
itwascosy
,ext
remely
beaut
iful!
!
Vi
nce:wel
comet
oNkandl
a
Me:Lool
,I
tsAcool
placeIl
i
kei
t.
.
Vi
nce:
letmef
etchabl
anketf
orust
oseatand
wat
chamov
ie.
..Oruwantt
orest
??
Me:
Amov
ie
▶Hecamebackwi t
hablanketIwasal r
eadyinthe
l
oungechoosi
ngamovieonNet f
li
x,Ichosetwil
i
ght
br
eaki
ngdawnpart1.
Vi
nce:Wasn'
tther
eabet
termov
ie?
▶Ij
ustst
aredathi
m.
Vi
nce:
kiddi
ngl
et'
swat
chi
t.
Me:thi
sismyfavori
te,
Ilov
eRomancei
fIhada
boy
fri
endthi
swouldbeourfav
ori
temov
ie
Vi
nce:i
tisourf
avor
it
emov
ief
rom nowon
Me:
Younotmyboy
fri
end.
Vi
nce:pl
easel
etmebe
▶Hel eanedt owardsmyf aceIcoul
dn'tbel
iev
ewe
wereaboutt okiss,butIwassoexcit
edIstartedt
o
feel
vomi tcomingbef oreourl
ipscouldevenmeet..
Ihel
dmymout h
Me:
Sor
ry.
..
Vi
nce:Ar
eyouokay
??
▶Icoul dn'tev enindi
cat ethatIwant edtov omitand
didn'
tknowwher ethebat hroom was. .Andt he
vomitwasal readyinmymout hIhadt oletout.
..I
vomit edont hecouch, t
hebl anket ,itjustkept
comi ng..
.Her anupst airstogetabucket ..
.I
continuedt ov omitforlikemi nut es...Hewasso
scaredordi sgustedIcoul dn'ttell
...Hekeptaski ngi
f
Iwasok. ..
Istopped, tookat owel andcov eredmy
mout h..
.Hewasj ustt herest andingl ooking
confusedasev er
..ThinkI'vej ustv omi t
edmy
drunkennessaway .
.BecauseIwasnowsober
Me:I
'
m sosor
ry
Vi
nce:areyouokay
?doy
ouneedsomet
hing?
Watermaybe??
Me:wat
erpl
ease
▶Hewentont ofet
chwater
,camebackwith
headachepi
l
lsandabot
tl
eofwater
,Idrankthepi
l
ls.
.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yesI
'
m okay
..I
'
m sosor
ryVi
nce,
Ireal
l
yfeel
st
upi
dlookatt
hemessI
'
vej
ustmade
Vince:don'
tworryabouti
t,l
ookaty
ourcl
othes.
.
That'
sdisgust
ing
▶hestar
tedlaughi
ng.
..GoshIcan'
tgetov
erhi
s
l
aught
er.
.Il
aughedtoo
Vi
nce:Goandt
akeashower
▶wewentupst ai
rs,Hegavemehi shoodytowear
aftershower..
.Igotint
ot heshower ,
Ishoweredand
gotoutputont hehoody ..
.Ihadnobr aora
underwearon...Theysmel ledvomit,weed,and
alcohol..
.Thehoodyf i
tt
edmesowel li
twaslongy ou
couldn'tseewhatwasunderi t..
.Iwentdownst ai
rs,
foundVi ncecleaningupmyv omithewasal r
eady
done..
Me:y
our
eal
l
ydi
dn'
thav
eto
Vi
nce:Ohy
oudone?Thathoodyl
ooksgoodony
ou
▶hesmil
ed.
..Hi
ssmi
l
ehadal
i
ttl
edi
mpl
eini
tI
wassmi
tt
en
Me:
YesI
'
m done
Vi
nce:
Wel
lI'
m al
sodoneher
e..Letmej
ustt
aket
his
bucketout
sidei
'
llbewi
thui
nasec.
..
▶hewentout ,
whileIwentt ot heki tchenforwat er..
.
Gottot hef r
idgeopenedi tIgr abbedabot tl
eof
water,Ifelthandsonmywai st.Thenaki ssonmy
neck.
..Ijustst oodt heresur pr i
sedhecont inuedto
kissmyneckpassi onat elyIst artedt olaughImov ed
away..Ididn'tev enknowwhyIwasl aughingwel lI
wasst i
llav irgi
nIdidn' tknowhow t or eact...I
openedt hebot tleanddr ankwat erhef oll
owedme,
tri
edtoki ssmeagai nandIgav ei n..Weki ssedso
passionatelyhishandsst artedt ogoundert he
hoodyhef eltmyBut thest ar t
edt omoar nIcan' t
blamehi m Ihav eabi gbut t
...Toldhi mt ost opBuh
hejustcoul dn't.
..Wewentupst airst hekissing
conti
nuedgott ohisbed. ...
felthishandagai nunder
thehoodyhesqueezedmywai st...Hewasnowon
topofmeIcoul dfeel him get tinghar ditwasj usttoo
muchf orme
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Vi
nce:
Uhmm
Me:
No!
Vi
nce:
Sor
ryj
ustgotCar
ri
edaway
▶Ifel
tsostupidIjustt
urnedtotheot hersi
degot
i
nsi
detheblanketsandsleptst
raightawayIwasn'
t
f
eel
inggoodany way..
.Sundaymor ningIwokeuphe
wasnextt
omeIshookhi m up
Me:
Vince!Wakeup,
takemehome
Vi
nce:huh?
Me:
WakeupandTakemehome
Vi
nce:
Mor
ningbeaut
if
ulsoear
lywhatt
imeI
sit
?
Me:IdontknowandIr
eal
l
ydon'
tcar
ejustt
akeme
home
Vi
nce:whyyoushout
ingsoear
lyy
oul
i
veacr
osst
he
st
reety
oucanwalkthere
Me:what
??
Vi
nce:
justki
ddi
ng
▶Hegotup,hewaswear i
nghisboxer
sonl
y..
.His
Bodysobeaut
if
ulycr
eat
edheisn'
tahunkbutthen
hehadaManbody
Me:
wow
Vi
nce:what
swr
ong?
Me:
Huh?Not
hingl
et'
sgo
Vi
nce:
okay
,donty
ouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
?
Me:
Whatdoy
ouhav
e?
Vince:
let
'sgot
otheki
tchen.
.Byt
hewayy
oul
ook
beauti
ful
▶Ijustbl
ushedwel
lwewalkeddownst
air
st here
washisfr
iendMuzi
alr
eadymakingbr
eakfastinthe
ki
tchen
Muzi
:Thenoi
sesy
ouguywer
emaki
ngl
astni
ght
wow.
.Morni
ngMadam
Me:
Noi
ses?
Vi
nce:Nev
ermi
ndhi
m,he'
scr
azy
,Boi
wehungr
y
Muzi:Hel
py our
selv
esguysI'
m of
ftowor
k,Madam
uban?int
roduct
ionnyanaBoi
?
Vi
nce:OhSor
ry.
..
Thi
sisNomzamoMyGi
rl
..
.
Muzi:
YourGir
l?boi
iShi
sa.
.Ni
cet
omeety
ouMadam
I
'm Muzi
,Vi
nceIsmyfri
end
Vi
nce:
Cousi
n..
Muzi
:Noway
sI'
m hi
sFr
iend.
.Enj
oybr
eakf
ast
Me:Thankswi
l
ldoi
tsmel
l
sgoodbyt
hewayni
cet
o
meetyouMuzi
Me:
ILi
keheral
ready
Vi
nce:Muzi
Pleasego
▶Muzi Exit
ed..
.Weat eMuzi sbreakfastitwas
deli
cious..
.Afterbreakfastwedr ovetoNat ashas
placetofetchmybag. ..
Ithencalledmydadt ocome
andf et
chmebecausehei nsi
stedt o.
..IGothome,
wentst r
aightchargemyf onetheni t
ooka
bath..
.f
ini
shed,didhomewor ks,Itookanapwoke
upat6pm,swi tchedonmyphone. .
.What sapptext
roll
edinIrepli
edt ovincesf i
rst
Me:
Heyy
ou
Vi
nce:Fi
nnal
y..
.Howarey
ou?Ar eyouokay?Been
missi
ngyouthewhol
eday.
..CanIseeyou?Justf
or
2mins
Me:l
oli
m okay
Vi
nce:
?
Me:Nott
odaysor
ry
Vi
nceokay..
.Ienjoy
edeveryminut
ewi
thy
oul
ast
ni
ghtIt
hinkI'
m addi
ctedt
oy ou
Me:
that
sreal
l
ysweet
▶Wecont inuedtotextunt
ilmi
dnight
..
.Iwasreall
y
fal
li
nginl
ovewi t
hthisguy.
.Hehasallthequal
it
ies..
Allt
hetenderlovi
ngcare.
..
.Im hopel
essl
ysmitt
en...
Idozedoff.
.

Coul
dhebet
heone?
Vi
nce+Nomzamo#Zamonce

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT5
▶ MondayMor ni
ng..
.IWokeupgoti ntheshower
andIprepar
edtogot oschool,
Ifi
nishedupthenI
wentDownstai
rs.
..MyDadandses' Thokowere
al
readyther
eeati
ngandl aughi
ngasusual
Me:
Mor
ningMyf
avour
it
ePeopl
e
Dad:
Someone'
shappy
Me:
Yes!
Dad:
Good
Me:SoDady
ouknowThere'satr
ipcomingupsoI
wi
ll
needmoney
..
.Forcl
othesandforpocketmoney
Dad:I
'l
ltr
ansf
eritsoonR2000wi l
lbef
iner
ight
?..
I'
m
Offt
owor kHaveagr eatday
..
.By
eSes'
Thoko
Me:
yeah
▶ HeKi
ssedmyFor
eheadandl
eft
Ses'
Thoko:
Zamoy
ouknowI
'
m apr
ophetr
ight
?
Me:
Yeah?
Ses'
Thoko:
ok.
..
MakeTher
ightDeci
sionswi
thy
our
l
i
febecar
eful
okay?
Me:Ses'
Thokoyouscar
ingme.
..
whatar
eyou
t
alki
ngabout??
Ses'
Thoko:
Nothingj
usttakecar
e..
.Her
e'sy
our
fav
ouri
tebr
eakfast.
..
enj
oy
▶Asshewentupst air
st odosomechor es,Iwas
shocked. .
.l
ikewhati sshet alki
ngabout...Youguys
don'tknowSes' Thokoi sapr ophetsoshe
propheciesthi ngsmostoft het i
me..
.RightnowIjust
wishshecant ell
mewhatshesaw. ..I
'm suchacry
babyIjustst artedcr yi
ng. .
..Igotupandwentt othe
gateandwai tedf orMal ume. ..HecameIgoti nand
greetedIwasqui ett hewhol eti
me...
Mal
ume:
Mshanakonkekuhambakahl
e?
Me:
YeboMal
ume
Malume:bowudingaukukhul
umanganey
am
ngi
yohl
ezingi
khona
Me:
ThanksMal
ume
Mal
ume:
UbeNel
angael
i
hle
Me:
NaweMal
ume
▶Igotof fandwentinatschool
,myfri
endswere
al
readythere..
..
wewenttoassemblyl
essonsstar
ted
anditwasbr eakti
mewewer echil
l
inginourspot
underthetree
Nat
asha:
NomzamoWher
edi
dyousl
eepSat
urday?
Me:
Home
▶ TheyAl
lLaughed
Me:
Okayf
ine!Letmet
ell
youwhathappened.
..
▶ Itol
dthem thewhol est
ory.
..
thatwewentt othe
gar
age,foundthegat ecl
osedatNatasha'splace,we
wenttoVince'
splace,Ivomit
ed,wekissed,andthatI
chi
ckenedoutandsl ept.
.
Kamo: Youshould'
vefuckedt
hatni
gga.Heist
he
one.
.youcouldtell
byhowhelooksatyouandshi
t
Khomot
so:
fuck?No!may
becuddl
e..
.
Me:don'
tputpressur
eonmeguysIjustcoul
dn'
tdo
i
t..
.Idon'
tevenknowhowtocuddl
eorhowt oputi
t
i
n
▶ wel
aughed
Kamo:
youshoul
dgoogl
epor
nandl
ear
nther
e..
Khomotso:
goodt
hinki
ngKamoact
ual
l
ylet
'sdoi
t
now..
.
▶ Khomot sot ookoutherphoneandwegoogl ed
howt ohavesext heri
ghtwayf orv i
rgi
ns..howt hey
doit. .
.howt oscream ...
myf ri
endswer ecr azywe
l
aughedt hewhol etimelooki ngatt hev i
deos. .
.The
bellrangandwewentt ocl ass...Thelessonswer e
l
ongandbor i
ng.
...
Malumef etchedmeIgothome
didmyhomewor ksandIwentt othekitchen,I
Madeacer ealI'
m notabi gf anoff oodandIl oved
cereals..
.Iwentt otheloungeandwat ched
Mtv base...
.thenmyphoner angi twasVince
Me:
Hey
Vi
nce:
Weneedt
otal
k
Me:
sur
eshoot
..
what
'sup?
Vi
nce:
Nother
e..
.Comeout
Me:
wel
lthi
ssoundsser
ious
Vince:
y assi
tiscany
oucomeoutnoworshoul
dI
comei n?
Me:
l
olnoI
'
m comi
ng
▶Ichangedqui
ckl
yandwentt
ohi
m,Het
ookmeout
,
whil
eatthetabl
e.
Vince:IJustwant edt ot akey ououtandspendt ime
withyou. .
.Ir eall
ylikey ouZamo. .
..Ispentt hewhole
weekendt hinkingabouty ou...Iwoul dliketost ar
t
somet hingnewwi thy ou...Ilov ehowy ouhandl e
yourself
...Howy oul augh. ..Yourey es..
.Youhav eal
l
thequalitiesIj ustlov ey ou. .
.Iknowi tst ooquickbut
Ijustdon'twantt ol osesomet hingsogoodbecause
i
tst ooear ly
...Ifelli
nl ovewi thy oubef oreIeven
knewIwant edt ofall inlov e..
.Youbr ingmeoutof
theBox. .
.youmakemel augh. ...Ineedagi r
lli
key ou
i
nmyl if
e...I'
m sur ey ouf eltsomet hingt hat
night.
.howweki ssedi twasmagi caltome. .From
thenIknewy ouwer et heone
Me:
Vi
nce:
pleasesaysomet
hing.
..
Me:I
'
llbewi
thy
ou
▶ hegotupandscreamed"shesai
dyes"hecame
ov
ertomychairandkneel
eddown...Peopl
ewere
nowstari
ngatus..Andcheeri
ng.
..Iwas
embarr
assedanddi dn'
tknowwhatwasgoi
ngon
wit
hhim...Hekneel
eddownt ookmyhandand
ki
sseditandsaid
Vince: promi seI'll
takecareofyou,promi
seI'
ll
lov
e
you. ..
Iwon' thur tyou.
..Mist
akeswill
bemadebutI
willnev erhur tyouonpur pose.
..
.Thankyoufor
givi
ngmet hischanceNomzamopr omiseyouI
won' truinit...Il
ov eyou
▶Hegotupandki ssedmei nt
hef orehead.
..I
couldn'
tbel
i
evethi
swashappening. .
..Yeti
nsideI
wassohappy .
.hej
ustl
etthewholewor ldknowthat
helovesme...
.Nev
erfel
tsospecial.
..
.
Me:
lool
andt
hat
?
Vi
nce:Ibecamesoexci
tedsor
ry.
..Il
ovey
ouandI
j
ustwantedyoutoseehowseri
ousIam .
..
.
▶ wef inishedourmeal .
..Hepai dthebi l
landwegot
out.
..
.Whi l
ewalki
ngt othepar kinglotheaskedt o
takepicturesofme...Ididn'tagreehei nsi
stedand
tookthem any ways.
...Gotint hecarwechi ll
edthere
forami nutewest ar
tedki ssing...I
tfel
tsor i
ght.
..I
wassoinl
ove.
..
.wedr ov
eof fwegottoourar ea.
.We
ki
ssedonceagainandsai dourgoodbyes.
..Igot
homedadwasal readythere,hewasinthelounge
..
itwas7pm
Dad:
Nomzamo!
Me:
Dad?
▶ Iwentt
othel
ounge
Dad:
Ubuy
aphy
?
▶GuessI
'
mint
roubl
edadi
stal
ki
ngZul
uwow.
..
Me:
I'
m Fr
om Khomot
so'
spl
ace
Dad:
Don'
tl
iet
ome.
..
.Sowuy
ajol
awena?
Me:
DadNo.
.ISweary
oucancal
lher
..
Dad:Alr
eadydidthatandshesaidshelastsawy
ou
atschool
..
.Iam goingtoaskyouonelastti
me
Nomzamo. .
.Ubuyaphy??
Me:
Dad.
..Don'
tbel
i
ket
hat
..
.I
'
m goi
ngt
omyr
oom .
..
▶ Ididn'tev
enwaitforhimtor espond.
..Iwas
caught.
..Igoti
ntomyr oom .
..Tookabat hthewent
str
aighttobed.
..It
ookoutmyphonechecked
What
sAppat
extf
rom Khomot
so.
..
Khomotso:Youdumbassy oushoul
dhavetol
dme
youweregoingout.
.nowyourdadknowsyouaren'
t
her
e..
whereareyouvele?
?
Me:
sor
ryIdi
dn'
tnot
if
yyou.
..Wasoutwi
thmyman
Khomot
so:
yourMan?Lol
Me:
yassmeandv
incei
tsof
fi
cial
#Zamonce
Khomotso:
#Zamoncecongr
atul
ati
onsbestf
ri
end.
..
Fi
nal
lywecannowhavedoubledat
es.
..
Me:tel
lmeabouti
t.
..
that
owi
l
lfai
ntwhenhehear
s
aboutt
his.
..
.
Khomot
so:That
oevent
houghty
ouwer
eal
esbi
an
mosatsomepoint
..
.
Me:
yourboy
fri
endi
scr
azyl
ol
▶ Icheckedi n"chat
s"toseeifVi
ncetextedme..
his
gi
rlf
riend..
.Hisprofi
lepi
cturewasapicofmet hat
hetookear l
ieronandhisstatusmassagewas"The
beginningofforever "Itext
edhimrightawaysince
hewasonl ine..
Me:
Someonei
sinl
ove
Vi
nce:y
oucansaythat
..
.t
hisf
eel
sri
ghtandI
'
m
wi
ll
ingt
odoyouri
ghtZamo
Me:
Ncooht
hat
'ssosweet.
..
Vi
nce:cany
ouseet
hesmileony
ourf
aceont
hatpi
c
?Itshowst
haty
ouarehappy
Me:
indeedIam happyVi
nce.
..
Vince:
MyHappyGi rl
fr
iend..
.I'
m of
ftoworknow
goodnightsl
eept
ightIlov
eyoudearlyMr
sZulu
Me:
NightMrZul
u..
▶t hesmi lesonmyf aceIcoul dn'
tevensleepthat
nightthi
nkingaboutmyMrZul u...
.WokeupIdi dn'
t
eventalktomyDadIav oidedhi m..
.Didn'
teveneat
breakfast.
..
Iwentstr
aighttowai tforMalumehegot
thereandIwentt oschool...
.Schoolgotoutandwe
weregi venanEngli
shassi gnmentmypar t
nerwas
Khomot so

Asal
way
sli
kethat
'smybestbestf
ri
end.
..Wet
old
Mal
umetocomeandfet
chus..
.Wegothomemade
l
unchahugel unch..
.f
riedchips,
Russi an,
cheese,pi
ckles,br
ead,cheese,andwemade
milkshakes..
.Weat eandwentt omyr oom ...We
reall
ywant edtostar
twi t
htheassi gnmentbut
i
nst eadwecl i
mbonbedandst artedgossi ping
,Facebooknewsandwepost edapi ctureofuson
Facebookwi thacaption"MyRi deorDi e"we
cont i
nuedtot al
kuntilweev entuall
yf el
lasleep

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT6
▶Wewokeupat4pm andst art
edwit
hthe
assi
gnment
,fi
nishedi
tthenwewentdownst
air
sto
watchmusi
cvideosonchannel
O.
Khomot so:It
s7pm bathongkant
ywher
e'sy
our
dad,heIsprobabl
youtondateandwearewait
ing
forhim her
e.
Me:
Lool
don'
tbel
i
ket
hat,
hei
sonhi
sway
..
.
Khomot
so:
tur
nupt
hev
olume,
thi
sismyj
am
Me:
No!
Khomot
so:
bit
chpl
ease,
bri
ngt
her
emot
e
Me:
No!

▶West art
edfi
ghti
ngovert
heremot
e,Iheardt
he
dooropen,Hewastal
ki
ngtosomeoneIstoodupt
o
seewhoitwas..
.i
twasThando.
Thando:
heysi
s
Me:
heyy
ou
▶Wehugged,
Ilovet
handot
houghwehal
fsi
ster
sI
l
ovedhert
obi
ts.
..
Me:
whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
met
haty
ouwer
ecomi
ng?
?
Thando:j
ustwant
edt
osurpriseyou,
I'
m notstayi
ng
act
uall
y,I
'
m heref
ori
mal
it here'
saschooltr
ipin2
weeksti
me...
Khomot
so:
ust
oo.
.Ni
yaphy
??
Thando:
ShakaMar
ine
Me:
ust
oo

▶West ar
tedbeingexci
tedandwetalkedabout
whatwewillwearanddowhi l
ewearet her
e..
.my
DadcameDownst ai
rshecall
edustot hekit
chen,
he
hadli
keR5000inhishands.
..Hegav
eusR2500
each.
..
.
Thando:
wowdad,
doy
ouev
erbecomebr
oke?
Dad:
yeahbutI
'
lldoany
thi
ngf
ormygi
rl
s
Me:
Thanksdad
Khomot
so:
Isowi
shIwasy
ouguy
sri
ghtnow
▶Wel augheditof
f,Mydadaccompani
edthem t
o
kasi
.Iwentupstai
rstobat
h.Whil
eint
hetubIgota
cal
lfr
om Vince.
Vi
nce:
Gir
lf
ri
end
Me:
heyy
ou.
Vi
nce:
howar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m goodhunandy
ou?
Vince:
justti
redIneedamassage,justgotback
fr
om wor k,
duri
nglunchIwenttot
hemal ltobuy
somethingatspurandIendedupbuy i
ngy ou
somethingIknowy ouwil
ll
ike
Me:
howsweet
.WhatI
sit
??
Vince:
you'l
lseei
ttomorr
ow butwel
i
veont
he
samest r
eetyoucancomegetit
.
Me:Mydadwi
l
lki
l
lmei
tsl
ateandbesi
desI
'
m st
il
l
bat
hing.
Vi
nce:
bat
hing?
Me:
yesbat
hing,
don'
tgetnaught
yher
e
Vi
nce:
Lol
sor
ry,
I'
ll
cal
lubef
orey
ousl
eepIl
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
*
cal
lended*

▶ 2weekswentby ..
.i twasnowaFr iday,day
beforet heschool t
ripIgott oschool andev er yone
wast alkingaboutt heShakaMar inetrip.Wegotout
earl
yt hatdayat11am . .
Mal umef etchedme, Igot
homet ookaqui ckbat haft
ert hatIopenedmy
wardrobef oranout f
it
.Itwashel l
ahotout side, Itook
outmyf avourit
eshor tti
ghtpinkdr essandIwor e
sandals, putonapi nklipst
ickandl etmybr aids
down, calledMal umet ocomeandf etchmehe
arr
ivedanddr oppedmeof fatt hesalonIwal kedi n.

My
hai
rst
yli
st:
whatar
ewedoi
ngt
oday
?
Me:j
ustundomyhai
r,washi
tandIwantt
odo
st
rai
ghtup
Myhai
rst
yli
st:okay
,namanj
eindodadol
olo?
Me:
Hay
yiIgotamanhi
snamei
sVi
nce
Idi
shedoutal
lthev
incenews,
spental
most3hour
s
t
her
e,whi
l
ether
eKamoCal
l
ed
Kamo:
Ukuphy
?
Me:
AtTheSal
on
Kamo:OkayWeAtTheMallWhat'
sTakingYouSo
Long?Letmeguessy
ouunbrai
dedyourbrai
dst
here?
Me:Loly
eahbutI
'
m doi
ngi
Str
aightUpI
'
m al
most
done.
Kamo:
Okay
.*cal
lended*
▶OncedoneIpaidandMal umefet
chedmeIgott
o
themallfoundmyfr
iendsatMcDonal
dstaki
ng
pict
ures,
Ijoi
nedi
n.
Nat
asha:let
sgobuysomecl
othesandf
oodf
ort
he
t
ri
pplease..
..
Khomot
so:
yeahl
et'
sgoguy
s
Candi
ce:
Kamodi
dyoubuyweed?
Kamo:Idi
drel
axIgoty
'al
ltheweekendi
sgoi
ngt
o
bel
it!
!
Me:
yasssgi
rl
..
.
▶Myf r
iendsandIdidsomeshoppi ngwebought
sexyswi mwears,
clot
hes,loadsoff oodandbought2
bott
lesofCirocAppleandSky yv odkaStrawber
ry
fl
avoured..
..
aft
erallt
hattheywenthomeIhadt o
waitforMalumet ocomeandf et
chmebuthecal l
ed
andsaidhewon' tbeabletocomehi swifewassick.
.
Itol
dhim nottowor r
yIcal l
edVince...
Me:
Vince
Vi
nce:
Vincewho'
sthat?
?
Me:
lol
..
MyLov
e
Vi
nce:
HeyBaby
Me:
Cany
oucomegetme?I
'
m att
hemal
l
...
Vi
nce:
YouluckyIj
ustgotof
ffr
om wor
ki'
l
lbet
her
e
i
n20mins
Me:
okaybbet
hanks
Vi
nce:
lov
eu
Me:
*bl
ushes*l
oveumor
e
*
Cal
lended*
▶Waitedexactl
ythereforabout20mins,HeGotto
t
hemal l
,cameoutoft hecarandbabykissedme,
t
ookmyshoppi ngbagst othebootwhil
eIwalked
myasstot hefr
ontseat.
.hegotinsi
dethecarand
wedroveoff.
..

Vi
nce:
yourhai
rlooksamazi
ng
Me:
real
l
ybaby
?NcoohThanky
ou
Vince:Ai
n'
tyougonnadournai
lsI
'
dli
ket
opayf
or
them onl
yononecondit
iont
hough
Me:
lol
whatcondi
ti
on
Vi
nce:
Youl
etmechooset
hecol
our
Me:
Yousocheesy
,I'
m notgoi
ngt
odomynai
l
s.
Vi
nce:
okay
..Whyt
hough?
Me: becauseIonl
ydomynai lsdur
inghol
i
days,and
I'
m comi ngbackonTuesday.
..AndWednesdayI'
m
goingtoschoolit
sagainstt
heschoolpol
i
cytohav e
art
ifi
cialnai
l
s
Vi
nce:
owIgeti
tnow.
..
okaysweett
hing
▶Wear ri
vedonourst
reet
.hepar
kedthecarnearhi
s
houseandwestar
tedtal
ki
ng,youknowthosesweet
tal
ksint
hecar.
Vi
nce:
Isn'
twei
rdt
hatwel
i
veont
hesamest
reet
?
Me:
iti
slol
..
.sowei
rd
Vi
nce:
Ishoul
dmov
etoanot
herar
ea
Me:
NooWhy
??
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouaboutt
ocr
y??
▶Myey
eswer
eal
i
ttl
ebi
ttear
y
Vince:
Lolyousuchadramaqueen,
Iwon'
tl
eav
e
youhere,
I'
mj ustki
ddi
ng.

▶Hel eanedoverforahug, andhegavemea

f
oreheadkissIgavein..IHonestl
ycouldn'
tbeli
eveI
wantedtocry,I
'm deeplyinl
ovewithhi
m already
..
thi
sisweirdit
snotl i
kehei sdumpingme.
Me:
youdar
eleav
e,i
'
llki
l
lyou
Vi
nce:r
elaxbabyIwon'
tl
eav
eyou,
butt
omor
rowy
ou
l
eavi
ngme
▶Hepull
edonasadfacewhi
chwassocut
e,Vi
nce
i
sHandsomebant
u.
Me:comeonbabyitsOnl
yforaf
ewday
si'
l
lbeback
Tuesdaymor
ning.
Vi
nce:
youdi
dn'
ttel
lmewher
eya'
l
lar
egoi
ngt
hough.
Me:IDi
dn't
?Sorry.
..Wearegoingt
oshakamari
nei
n
Dur
ban..
I'
m soexci
t edi
tsgoi
ngtobemyfir
stt
ime
bei
nginDurban.
Vi
nce:
real
l
y?That
'sdope
Me:Iknowri
ght
,letmegetgoi
ngI
'
m goi
ngt
ohav
ea
busydayt
omorr
ow.
Vince:lolandIsawt
hosebot
tl
es.
don'
tgett
oodr
unk
okay..
.Iloveyou
Me:
Iwon'
tbbe
Vi
nce:
zamor
eyouv
omi
tedandshi
tlastweek
Me:
youhadt
ogot
her
eri
ghtmxm.
..
▶Igotof
fandbangedt
hedoor
,thebootopened
aut
omat
ical
l
yIt
ookmyst
uffandwenthome.
..

▶Gothomeandt her
ewasnoonet her
e,Icharged
myphone,unpackedmystuffandstar
tedpacking
fort
hetri
p..
.Wentdownst
airsandmadeacer eal..
.
Tunedt
ochannel 111Per
fectGuywasplayi
ng. .
.
Duri
ngthemov i
emydadar ri
ved.
..Hecamet othe
l
ounge
Dad:tomorr
owisgoingtobeal
ongdayy
ouknow
thatr
ight
?Gotosleep.
Me:
DadIknow.
.onl
yanhourl
eft.
..
Dad:
okay.goodni
ght
▶Hegav emeaki ssandwentupst air
s..aft
eran
hourt hemov i
eendedandIwentt omyr oom
upst
ai rstookmyphoneoutoft hechar gerandthere
welike3mi ssedcall
s...From Vince..Ididn'
tget
backt ohiminsteadIloggedint oWhat sAppand
chat
t edtomyf ri
endsongr oupchatandi gnored
hi
m...Hesawt hatIwasi gnori
nghi m. .
hecal l
ed.
.I
answer ed
Me:
What
?
Vi
nce:
List
ent
omeI
'
m sor
ryMami
..
.Il
oveu
▶Myhear
tmel
tedst
rai
ghtaway
.
Me:
itsokaybesi
desIov
err
eact
ed.
..I
'
m sor
ry
Vince:
Noi
tsokayI
'
m sor
ry.
..Goodni
ght
,Il
oveu
okay
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
eVi
nce
*
Cal
lended*

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT7

▶Wokeupt omyal armintheearlyhour

sof
Sat
urdayMor ni
ngat3am , Wenttothebathr
oom
andbrushedmyt eeththenIheadeddownstai
rst
o
makebr eakf
asttomysur pri
seIfoundmydad
l
ocki
ngt hedooritl
ookedl i
kehejustcamein.
Me:
Dad.
..
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Dad:
HeyMubi
..
.Justcamebackf
rom j
oggi
ngsor
ry
di
dIwakey
ouup
Me:
Dadj
oggi
ng?
?At3am?
?
Dad: Yes.
..St
opaski
ngsi
l
lyquest
ionsI
'
m goi
ngto
sleepwakemeupwheny oudonesoIcouldt
ake
youtoschool
Me:
uhmmm okay
..
.
▶Her eall
ydidn'
twantt otal
kabouthim coming
backat3am. .
anywayIpaidnomi ndImadeweet bix
andaf r
uitsal
ad, wenttothefr
idgeandtookout
2bananas,3st
rawberr
iesandsomegr apesand
al
readydicedpineapplesIpr
eparedmysal adina
smal
lbowlndpoury
oghurtatt
heend..
.wentt
othe
l
oungeandIst
art
edeat
ing..
.Acal
lcameinitwas
Kamo
Me:
HeyYou
Kamo:
Opent
hegat
e
Me:
Ya'
l
lar
eher
eal
ready
?
▶Icheckedt heti
mei twasalr
eady3:
45andI'
ve
beensitt
ingonthiscouchwatchi
ngcart
oons,
I
quickl
ywentt ot
hekitchenandputmyplat
esonthe
si
nk...
andIbuzzedthem in.
.
Me:
wowf
ri
endsy
a'l
ll
ooksaucy
Kamo:
Tel
lussomet
hingwedon'
tknow
▶Theyburstoutalaughter
,notanor
mal
laught
er
t
heyweredeadlaughing
Me:
Arey
ouguy
shi
gh?
▶Theyl aughedagainthi
stimeevenKhomotso
crawl
eddownandl aughed.
.i
twasoff
ici
alt
heywer e
high.
..
theygoti nt
hehouseandwenttomyr oom ..
I
wenttot akeashowerandwor emyclot
hes,
wet hen
tookourl uggagedownst
air
s..
..
Me:
Youguy
sar
eaj
oby
ho
Khomotso:Idi
dn'
twantt
osmokebutwhenIgotto
mamelodiIgotKamosmoki
ngwithsomeguyspast
3am Iwasshockedt
hatt
hoseguy
swokeupf or
kamo
Kamo:Thosearemycousi
nslol
andIwentt
her
eto
fet
cht
hoseroll
edweedjoi
ntswewant
ed.
Me:
howmanyar
ethey
?
Kamo:
12wehav
eal
readysmoked2t
hough.
..
Khomot
so:
I'
m hungr
y
Me:
lol
sideef
fect
s..
got
otheki
tchenandmakef
ood
Kamo:
nosi
zodl
aumphako
Khomot
so:
wakho?
Kamo:
Nowakhoeh.
.y
ouar
etheonewho'
shungr
y
Khomot
so:
noway
s!
▶Whi
l
etheywer
est
il
lar
gui
ngIgotacal
lfr
om Vi
nce
Me:
Babe
Vi
nce:
Oh.
.youupal
readyIwant
edt
owakey
ou
up,
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:beenupsi
nce3am..
..
justf
ini
shedpr
epar
ingI
'
m
r
eadytogotoschool
now
Vi
nce:
mindcomi
ngout
?
Me:
uhmm no
Vi
nce:
okaymeetmeout
sidei
n3mi
ns
Me:
okay*
cal
lended*
▶KamoandKhomot
sower
edeadqui
test
arr
ingat
me..
Me:whatar
eyouguy
slooki
ngat
?I'
l
lbebacknow
now
(
KamoandKhomot
so):
heeeee.
..
▶Iwentoutsi
deast hegateopenedIsawVincehe
wascarry
ingasmallpaperbag,Icrosssedt
he
st
reetasIcamecloserIsawthepaperbagwr i
tt
en
PANDORAIst ar
tedsmili
ng
Me:
Ncoohbabyhugme
Vince:Zamouy
aphaphay
az,
whosai
dthi
swas
yours
Me:lol
youtol
dmet haty ouboughtsomethi
ngfor
meandIsti
llhaven'
tyetrecei
veditandi
tsbeen
weekssoI'
m guessi
ngt hisi
sit
.
Vi
nce:
yessi
tis.
Me:
Whyt
hewai
tthough?
Vince:
Ialwaysfor
getiti
nmyoff
ice,
onl
ytooki
t
homey est
erdaybecausemyPAaskedmeabouti
t.
▶Hehandedmet hepaperbag, Iopenedit,I
thoughti
twasapr omiseri
ng,butifitwasapromi
se
ri
ngheshouldbeonhi skneesright??buti
tsabi
t
earl
yforari
ng,Iaskedanyway
Me:
isi
tapr
omi
ser
ing?
Vi
nce:
woah.
..
noo!Lol
openi
t
▶Iopenedthebox,
myjawsdropped,
myey
es
st
art
edbeinggl
assywi
thtear
s
Vi
nce:
l
etmehel
pyouweari
t.
▶Ihandeditt
ohi
m,itwasanecklacewit
hagold
r
oseinit,
i
twassobeauti
ful
,hehelpedmeweari
t.
Vi
nce:
doy
ouy
oul
i
kei
t?
▶Iwi
pedmytearsandgav
ehi
m awar
m hug,
then
west
art
edki
ssi
ng.
Me:
Iti
ssobeaut
if
ul,
Il
ovei
t,Il
ovey
ou
Vince:you'
rebeauti
ful
tomenomzamo. .Il
ovey
ou
too..
..
wait.
..
arethoseyourf
ri
endsl
ooki
ngatus
there?
Me:
wowl
oly
essi
tst
hem,
letmegetgoi
ng.
..
Vi
nce:
okayhungr
eett
hem f
orme,
hav
easaf
etr
ip
Me:
okaylol,
thanksbbe,
takecar
enedon'
tcheaton
mei'
l
lbebacksoon
Vi
nce:
promi
sey
ouIwi
l
ltakecar
e
▶Iki ssedVi
nceonelasttime,can'
tbelievei
'llbe
seei
ngmyy ummyboy fr
iendnextweek, Iwalkedto
myhousehegoti ntohiscarandof fdrovetot he
gym, whenIgottothegatethosebitcheswer en'
t
ther
eIwentt othehouseandf oundthem upst ai
rsi
n
myr oom
Me:
Isawy
ouguy
s
▶Theybur
stoutal
aught
er
Kamo:
Itol
dyout
hatshesawus
Khomot
so:
sowhatwer
eyoudoi
ngt
her
e?
Me:
youdon'
tnot
iceany
thi
ngdi
ff
erent?
Kamo:y
ourl
i
pst
icki
sgonesoy
ougotagoodby
e
ki
ss?
Me:
noy
oust
upi
dass
▶Ishowedt
hem myneckl
ace.
(
Khomot
soandkamo)
:wooooow!
!
Me:
Iknowr
ight.
..
Kamo:
wowf
ri
endi
tissobeaut
if
ul
Khomot
so:
ver
ybeaut
if
ul
Me:
andi
tsf
rom PANDORA
(
Khomot
soandkamo):
PANDORA?
??
Me:l
oly ess.
..Letmegoandcal
lmydadi
tspast
5am al
ready
▶Iwentt
ocal
lmydadi
nhisroom,hewokeupand
wor
earope,
camet
omyr oom t
ocall
usout
Me:
arey
ougoi
ngdr
essedl
i
ket
hat
?
Dad:
Youmeanthegown?YessmubiI
'
mj ust
dr
oppingy
ouof
fhawuI'
m notgoi
ngwit
hy ouguy
s
Me:
wowy
ou'
reamaz
ingl
ol
Dad:
wher
edi
dyougett
hatneckl
ace?
▶Weal
ll
ookedateachot
her
Me:
Khomot
soboughti
tforme
Khomot
so:
y..
yessIdi
d
Dad:
okay.
.l
et'
sgoMant
ombazane
Kamo:
Wedr
ivi
ngt
hegr
andCher
okeer
ight
?
Me:
lol
youl
ovet
hatcary
ong.
..
Dadcanweusei
t?
Dad:
whi
chone?TheMar
oonone?
Kamo:
Not
hewhi
teone
Dad:
okaygogeti
nsi
det
hecari
'
llgety
oual
lther
e
▶Wewentt othecar,l
oadedourluggageinsi
dethe
car,
andwewaitedformydad,dadgotbackandwe
drovet
oschool.GottoschoolNatashaandCandice
werealr
eadyt
here.
.wegotoffandwentt othem,
my
dadcall
edmebackt othecar
Dad:
youwi
l
lneedhowmuchf
orpocketmoney
?
Me:
R2000?
Dad:
Arey
oucr
azy
?
Me:
Sendmeanyamountt
hen
Dad:
Anyamount
?yousur
e?
Me:
okayR500-
700?
Dad:
okayi
'
llsee,
comegi
vemeaki
ss
Me:
NodadI
'
mtoool
dfort
hat
..Goodby
elov
eyou
▶Iwentbacktomyf r
iends,thepri
nci
palstar
ted
call
i
ngusonebyone,theyloadedourluggageint
o
thebusandwegotint
ot hebusandwehi ttheroad,
I
gotansmsnoti
fi
cati
ont hatstat
edR800wasl oaded
i
ntomyaccount.
..
.

Dur
banher
ewecome.
..

▶Itwasast
opandgotri
p,i
ttookus10hourst
oget
t
oDurbanweweresot
ir
edyetexcit
ed,
Durbanwas
breat
ht aki
ngandheartwarming,t
heybookedus
i
ntouShakaMar ineWorl
dHot el
s,I
twassucha
beauti
fulandExpensi
velooki
nghotel l
ucki
l
yMe,
Khomot soandCandicewerebookedi nt
othesame
hotelr
oom.ThenKamowaswi t
hNat ashaandsome
gi
rlcal
ledNoxolowhom wedi dn'
tli
ke.

▶Wegoti ntoourroom andKhomotsowentstrai

ght
tobat
hwhi l
emeandCandi cetunedint
ochannel0
anddancedinexcit
ement,weheardaknock,itwas
KamoandNat asha..
.
Me:
howdi
dyouguy
sgether
e??
Nat
asha:Kamoseducedthesecur
it
yandt
oldhi
m
wewerecomingbackimagi
ne..
▶Kamol
aughed
Candi
nce:
Yassgi
rl
Me:
Kamoy
oudowonder
sal
lthet
ime
Kamo: awawhydi
dn'
ttheybookusi
ntot
hesame
room kant
y
▶Iwentt
otakegl
assesandweopenedour
strawberryvodkawedancedandmadenoi sethe
whol enightweweresohappy..
wedidn'
tevensleep
thatnightwell
,wetookshotsaft
ershot
sofv odka,
I
don'tremembermy sel
fsleepi
ngbutIwokeupi na
balconywi t
hKhomotsobymysi deIshookherto
wakeup.
Khomot
so:
whathappenedanddwhyar
eweout
side?
Me:
Wakeup.
..
▶Iwenttot
hetoil
ett
opeeandIf oundCandice
sl
eepi
ngonthefl
oor,
Ishookhertowakeupi nst
ead
shewokeupandwenttot
hetoi
letseatandvomited.
Candi
ce:
OhmyGodI
'
m sosi
ck.
.myhead
▶Shegotupandwentoutt hetoi
let
,Itookapeeand
whenIgotoutoft hetoil
et.
.Candi
ceandKhomot so
wereinbedasleepalready,Il
ookedforNatashaand
IfoundherinthecouchsleepingandthenIwentt o
myr oom t
osleep..
.t
hatswhenIf oundKamoasl eep
peaceful
l
yso...Idi
dn'
twakeherupIj oinedher.

#Zamonce
#I
NSERT8

▶I t
's9am Sundaymorning,
Loudnoisebangingon
thedoorNatashaistheonetohearall
theknockings
andshouti
ngsheget supandwakesusal lup,we
star
ttopanicbecausewecanhearMrCar tersvoice
andhei st
hest r
ict
estt
eacher.
..
MrCart
er:
Thesegir
lsdon'
tknowwhotheyar
e
messi
ngwit
h,wher
eisthesparekey
?
Hotel
Owner:ThisI
sUnaccept
abl
e,i
tisagai
nstthe
r
ulesoft
hishotel
,Mandl
agogetthesparekeyof
t
hisRoom.
Secur
it
yGuar
d:YesMa'
am.
▶OhNo!wear einbigtr
oubl
eonoursecondday
t
hiscan'
tbehappeni
ng
Candi
ce:
fuckguy
swhatdi
dwedo?
Kamo:
let
'sst
arthi
dingt
hei
l
legal
stuf
fandcl
eanup
Me:
wedon'
thav
eti
me
Khomot
so:
let
'st
ryguy
s
▶Wepi ckedupt heempt yskyv odkabottl
eandhid
i
tundert hebed, thenweputt heglassesweused
i
nsideCandi cesbag, hidtheweedint hefr
idge,af
ter
thatIt
ookoutmyPi nkhappinessbodyspr ayto
spraytheroom t omaket hehorribl
esmel l
ofweed
andalcohol tovani shwet henopenedt hedoor,we
wereallstandingi nfrontofthedoor
MrCart
er:
whatareyou5upto?Wedi dn'tpayf
or
you5tosl
eepinoneroom,
only3,
cansleepi nt
his
r
oom.yougir
lsar
eoutofor
der,mi
ndtell
ingme
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Us:
wear
esor
ryMrCar
ter
.
Hot
elowner:
sor
ry?Whatwasgoingonher
e?I
smel
lper
fumewerey
ousmoking?
Us:
No
MrCarter:
Idoubttheyweresmokingmay bethey
havej
ustusedthebathr
oom.wesear chedallt
heir
bagsbefor
ewecameher e.Expl
ainWHATI SGOING
ONHERE?
Kamo:
Sor
rySi
rit
sjustt
hat
..
.
MrCar
ter
:shutupMokoenaI
'
m nott
alki
ngt
oyou,
Smi
thwhat'
sgoingon?
▶Iseriouslywant
edt
olaughatKamo, MrCart
er
knowst hatKamoCanLi
efordays.
..That
'swhyhe
shutherup.
Natasha:well
..
.Si
rwecameher eforav i
sitandwe
watchedamov i
eweendedupsl eepingduringt
he
mov i
e,andwear einsepar
abl
ewej ustwantedto
enj
oyourf i
rstdayatDurbant
ogether
Hotelowner:
Gir
lspl
easemakesur
ethi
snev
er
happens
MrCart
er:MokoenaandSmit
hgobacktoy
ourroom
now!Br
eakfastwi
ll
bereadyi
n20minut
eswil
lmeet
downst
air
s
▶KamoandNat ashaexi
tedandwenttotheirr
oom,
t
hehotelownerandMrCar teral
sowentout.Pheew!
whatarel
iefIt
houghtwewer egoingt
obepuni shed
Wecl
osedt
hedoorandwel
aughed.
Khomot
so:
I'
venev
erbeensoscar
edguy
syho.
..
Me:
YesesI
'
m st
il
lshaki
ng,
Nat
ashacanl
i
eforAf
ri
ca
Candi
ce:Whowould'
vet
hought
,let
'sgobat
handgo
downst
air
sI'
m hungr
y
▶MeandCandi ceshower edtogetherwhi l
e
Khomot soinsist
edonusi ngthebatht ubal one.We
fi
nishedandgotdr essedIwor emyy el
lowdr essand
putonal i
pgl ossandwor eHoopsear r
ingsand
somewhi tesandals..
.Wewentoutandl ockedt he
room onourwaydownst airsKamoandNat asha
walkedoutf r
om theirr
oom weal lstarted
l
aughing..
.weknewwhatwewer elaughi ngat, got
downstair
sandhadbr eakfastwhil
eatt able..
.
Me:
Nat
asha!
Nat
asha:
Guy
sSt
opi
t.
Kamo:Natashayou'
realway
squi
etwhoknewy
ou
hadi
tinyoutoli
ewithoutmumbl
ing
▶Wel
aughed
Khomot
so:
...
andhowMrCar
terShuty
ouupKamo
▶WeLaughedather
Kamo:
Ya'
l
lar
est
upi
d,t
sek!
▶Mduduzi
camet
oourt
abl
e
Mduduzi
:Mf
az'
wami
,MyAngel
wamuhl
eNt
ombi
▶Ibl
ushed
Me:
HeyMduduzi
Kamo:
Asi
bonakal
ithi
nane?
Mduduzi
:Sor
ryl
adi
es,
Hel
l
oAf
ri
canQueens
Candi
ce:
Dur
banhasbr
oughtoutt
heRomeoi
nyou
ne
▶Wel
aughed
Khomotso:YouandZamoar
eev
enmat
chi
nghee
guyswhat'
shappeni
ng?
Me:Comelet'
stakeapi
cwenaMduduzi
banomona
l
abasibahl
e
Khomot
so:
Zamogi
rlI
siZul
uisnoty
ourl
anguage
▶Theyl aughedatMe, wel
lIgrewupt al
kingEngli
sh
andIhardlyvi
sitsoIneverreal
lygotti
met olear
n
i
sizulubutIcanhearitandIcanrespondbutmy
ZuluaccentsucksIsoundlikeaWhi t
e
person.
..
anywayIgotupandwentt otakepicswith
Mduduzi out
sidethehotel,
thehotelwasbeautif
ulso
breat
htaki
ng.
..WetookpicsandIdeci
dedt
oupl
oad
onecapti
oned(Dur
banVibes)
Mduduzi:
ZamoIReal
l
yli
key
ouwhydon'
tyout
ake
meseri
ous.
Me:
Mduduzi
..
.Ihav
eaboy
fri
end
Mduduzi
:WowNomzamoIhav
ebeenaski
ngy
ou
outsi
ncefor
ever
Me:IknowandI
'
m sor
ry.
.wear
ejustf
ri
ends,
not
hingmorewi
l
lcomeouti
nthi
sfri
endshi
p
Mduduzi
:okaywi
l
lseey
ouar
ound
▶Heleft,
Youcoul
dseehewashurt,
butatl
eastI
t
oldhi
mt het
rut
hfi
nal
ly.
.Iwenti
nsi
de
Khomotso:Mr
sKhumaloj
ustt
olduswear
egoi
ng
toChi
mpandZeetoday
Me:
Owkay
Kamo:
Let
'sgoandt
akepi
ctur
esbef
orewel
eav
e
Asweweregoi
ngout
sidet
otakepi
csIgotacal
l
fr
om Vi
nce.
Me:
heybabe
Vi
nce:
Hi,
how'
sDur
ban?
▶DeepdownIwant edt
otel
lhi
m aboutt
hesaga
thathappenedthi
smorni
ngbutVi
nceistoomat
ured
hewon' tf
indi
tfunny
Me:
Sof
arsogood
Vi
nce:
good,
Arey
ouwear
ingy
ourneckl
ace?
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
Oh,
Dur
banVi
beshuh?
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Vi
nce:
not
hingIwasj
ustchecki
ngony
ou
Me:
Vincecomeonwhat
's.
..
*Cal
lended*
▶Andt hen?Ir
emember edthecapti
onofthepi
cI
posted,soheisj
ealous,
andwhat'swit
hthe
neckclace?Candi
cedistur
bedmyt hought
s
Candi
ce:
Nomzamocome!
▶Iwenttomyf r
iendsandwet ookpi
csaf tert
hat
wewenttoChimpAndZeewhatacool placeour
Sundaywasshortandsimpleyetfun,
Ijustcouldn'
t
waitf
ormondaytogot othebeachasIwasaboutt o
sl
eepIdeci
dedtocal
lVi
ncesi
nceourcal
lendedon
abadnoteear
li
ersoIwant
edtohearwhatwas
wrongwit
hhim
Vi
nce:
Nomzamo
Me:
SoNowI
'
m Nomzamo,
bbewhat
'swr
ong?
▶Hel
aughed
Vince:
justgotj
eal
ousear
li
ernowI
'
mfi
nehow'
smy
beauti
fulbbedoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m goodbbe,
youshoul
dgof
oract
ing
Vi
nce:
lool
yout
hinkI
'
dsucceed?
Me:
youwi
l
lwi
nOscar
s
Vi
nce:MyHunIj
ustgott
oworkandIhavetocl
ock
i
nmyshifti
sst
art
ingnownow,wi
ll
tal
kinthe
morni
ng
Me:
okay,
byt
hewayI
'
m wear
ingy
ourneckl
ace
Vi
nce:hahahai
'
m blushi
ng.
.y
oushouldweari
t
EVERYDAYIhavetogonowloveyou
Me:
lov
eyout
oo*
Cal
lended*
▶I tsMondaymeani ngi tsBeachday .
..Meandmy
girl
swer esoexci ted, Iwor eaor angeswi m suitand
Wor eTheGol droseneckl acet hatVi nceBoughtf or
meguessi '
l
l startwear ingi tev erydayl i
keaweddi ng
ri
ngmay bei tsasi gnf rom hi mt hathei scommi tted
sincehei nsist edthatIweari tEVERYDAY, meand
Khomot sower emat chingwi thourswi m suit
swhi l
e
Kamowor eabl ackoneandCandi cewor eabl ueone
andNat ashaaRedone, wewer esof ly..
.Itookaf ul
l
bodypi ci nmyswi m wearandsenti ttoVi nce...
got
toshowt heboyhi spr oper ty..
.wewentoutandGot
tothebeachandswam t her ewer ehotguy sdamn
sixpacksev er ywhere..youal lknowwhogott he
muscl edhotguyobv i
ousl yi tsKamoshe' sago
getterinst eadofadmi ri
ngandl ookingshef li
rtsher
wayandget swhatshewant s.Theyl ookedcut e
togethershem
Natasha:I'
m al
sogonnagetaDur
banguyMe:
Tasha
Tashay ou'
retr
oubl
etheseday
s
Nat
asha:
wai
tandsee
Khomotso:HeeCan'
twait,
I
'mt
ir
edofplay
ing
ngamanzil
et'
sgoandbuysomefoodordr
inks
Me:
Whydon'
tyougeti
nandswi
m wi
thus?
Khomot
so:
NoI
'
m cool
guy
s
Me:Noyouar
enot..
you'
vebeenwrappedupi
nthat
swi
mminggownsincewegothere,wewantt
o
swi
mthi
na
Khomot
so:
becauseIdon'
tfeel
li
keswi
mmi
nghawu
Candi
ce:
Goodi
deaKhomot
sol
et'
sgoI
'
m ev
en
hungr
y
Me:
Candi
cey
ou'
real
way
shungr
yyeses
▶Wewentt otheshopsf i
rst.
.Peopl
ewer eselling
thei
rAf r
icanMer chandize.Iboughtmydadt hose
Zulushoeswhi leIboughtmy sel
faZuluBr aceletand
sunglasses.Afterbuyi
ngsomest uffwewentt ot hi
s
coolrestaurantwheretheymakedel i
ciouscockt ail
weor deredcocktail
sandsomeseaf ood..Kamo
camet owher ewewer eandj oi
nedus
Khomot
so:
Lookwho'
sback
Kamo:
eDur
bankumnandi
guy
samadoda!I
'
m
dr
ool
i
ng
▶Wel aughed,
ourordercameasIwasaboutt oeat
aWhat sAppnotifi
cat
ioncamethr
oughfrom Vi
nce
,t
hinkinghewascompl ementi
ngthesexypi
cIsentI
smiled..ButmyjawdroppedasIr
eadthetext.

Vi
nce:
Idi
dn'
tknowy
oul
i
keSeaf
ood

What??
howdidheknowI '
m aboutt
oeatseafood?
?
I
sVincenear?
?Ilookedar
oundbutdidn'
tsee
hi
m..
.what'
sgoingon??

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT9

▶Ichokedonthecockt
ail
Iwassippi
ng,Ist
art
edt
o
l
ookaroundandIcoul
dn'
tseehi
m, Thando
di
stur
bedmysearch.
Thando:
Heysi
s
Me:
heyy
ou
▶Wehugged
Thando:didn'
texpecttobumpi nt
oyou.
.wel
lIdi
dbut
IsentyouaWhat sApptextaski
ngyouukut
hy
ukuphyy oudidn'
tanswer.
Khomot
so:l
ool
Zamor
eisAl
way
stext
ingorcal
l
ing
Vi
nceShem
Candice:
youwi
l
ltex
therandshewi
l
ltextbackaf
ter
10mins.
Me:
youguy
sar
ely
ing.
▶Wel aughed,It
ri
edt
olookar
oundagai
nforVi
nce
butst
il
lnothi
ng.
Me:
let
stakeapi
candsendi
ttodad
▶Weonlyt
ook2picturesandThando'
sboy
fri
end
cameandt
ookheryesesIwasannoyed.
Thando:
byesi
sseey
ouar
ound.
.Lov
euy
ezwa
Me:
byeBbe,
l
oveumor
e.
▶Wehuggedandshelef
t,
Acal
lcamet
hroughi
twas
Vi
nceIexcusedmy
sel
f
Me:
wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
Nohel
l
obaby
?
Me:
Vince!
Vince:
rightnowI'
m dr
ivi
ngbackhome,mymom j
ust
call
edshewant smetoaccompanyhert
othemal
l
Me:
backhome?Ar
eyoui
nDur
banf
orr
eal
?
Vince:
yes.
.BbeI
'
m dr
ivi
ngcanwemeetl
ater,
I
'l
l
fetchu
Me:
youknowIcan'
t
Vi
nce:
wewi
l
lmakeapl
an,
seey
oul
aterIpr
omi
se
Me:
okay
Vi
nce:
lov
eyou?
Me:
l
ovey
out
oo*
Cal
lended*
▶Iwentbacktomyf ri
ends.
.t
ri
edt
oeatthose
oyst
erstheywerehor
ri
blewedeci
dedt
ot hr
owthem
away..
.Khomot
sov omit
ed.
Me:
Arey
ouokay
?
Nat
asha:
youdi
dn'
tev
eneatt
hem Khomo
Khomot
so:
Can'
tBar
ethesmel
lsi
es!
Candi
ce:youguysaresoembar
rassi
ngbr
ingy
our
oyst
ershereI
'
lleatt
hem.
Me:Capetownqueen,
you'
reusedt
oseaf
ood
,expensi
vethi
ngst
ell
them
▶Wegav eCandiceouroy stersandweor dered
Durbanbunnychows, af
tereatingweplayed
vol
leyball
nearthebeachwi thsomeguy s,
whol at
er
accompani edusbackt othehot el,
wearri
vedand
wenttoourr ooms.Myphonedi edsoidecidedt o
chargeitandturnitbackon, t
her ewasami ssedcal
l
fr
om myDad, IDecidedtocallhim.
Dad:
Mubi
Me:
heydadIsawy
ourCal
l
,myphonedi
ed
Dad:Wasjustchecki
ngupony
oumyangel
,i
s
ever
ythi
ngokay?
Me: Ev
erythi
ngisper
fectdadI'
m havi
ngagoodt
ime,
andIsawThandot odayIwil
lsendyouapi
cwetook
aft
erthiscal
l.
Dad:
That'
sWonderf
ul,
I'
m happyt
haty
ou'
rehappy
don'
tyouneedanymoney?
Me:Uhmm I'
l
lcal
lyoui
fIneedsomet
hingt
omor
row
sof
arI'
m goodfi
nanci
all
y.
Dad:
Okaygoenjoyandhav
efun,
Il
ovey
ouand
Nomzamotakecare
Me:
Lov
eyout
oodad.Iwi
l
l*Cal
lended*
▶Loggedi ntoWhat sAppt osendmydadt hose
photos,andIopenedat extfrom VincesayingImust
bereadyby7.Isentmydadt hepicturesandleftmy
phonet ogoandbat h.Fi
nishedbat hingwenttomy
room andt ookoutmywhi telacedr essandwhi t
e
converseshoesandwor et hem,wentt othemi rr
orI
appli
edamar oonlipsti
ck,mascaraanddi dcatey es
withtheeyelinerandIwor emyr osegol dnecklace
whileatitKhomot sowal kedin.
Khomotso:
let
'sgodownstai
rsf
orsupperzamor
e,
youdr
essedupforsupper?Lol
Me:
No,
si
tdown.
▶ShesatonthebedandIt
oldherthatVi
ncei
sher
e
andhewil
lpi
ckmeupsoon,andthatshehast
o
coverf
orme.
Khomot
so:
howar
eyougoi
ngt
osneakoutt
hough?
Me:
bit
chIdon'
tknow.
Khomot
so:
lol
textmewheny
ou'
regoneke
Me:
okay
.
▶Shewentoutandshei nf
ormedt heot her
st hatI
'
m
going,
theywentdownst air
s.Vincecalledtoldmet o
comet otherecept
ion,Iwenttherethesecur i
ty
guardwast her
ebuthel etmeout ,Vincebribedhim.
Iwassohappyt oseehi m Icouldn'
tstopsmi li
ng.
andmyguywasdr essedupsmel l
ingallgoodand
handsome
Vi
nce:
woul
dyoupl
easest
op.
.
Me:
what
?
Vi
nce:
star
ri
ngl
ool
.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.I
'
mjust
..
.
Vince:wher
ewoul
dyouli
ketoeat?..
don'
tanswerI
'
ll
takeyoutomyfav
ori
ter
estaur
ant..
.
▶Wewentt osomerest
auranty
oucouldseebythe
sett
ingt
hati
twasqui
teexpensi
ve,wegoti
nsideand
satdown.Awai
tr
esscamet ousandaskedforour
order

Vi
nce:whatareyougoingtohav easadr i
nkand
st
art
er?..
Nodon'tanswer,uhm wewi l
lhavewhit
e
wi
neasadr inkandforst
arteri
twill
hav etobe
cr
ackerswit
hasalsasaladwi t
hmushr oom sauce.
▶Thewai
terwr
oteouror
derdownandwal
kedaway
.
Me:
wowsot
odayIdon'
thav
easay
.
Vi
nce:
babeI
'
mtr
eat
ingy
ou
Me:
wel
lthatmakesmehappy
.
Vi
nce:
real
l
y?Smi
l
ethent
oshowt
haty
ou'
rehappy
▶Ibl
ushed
Me:
Vincest
opi
t.
▶Hel eanedov
erf
oraki
ss.
..
weki
ssedandIpul
l
ed
back.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou
Me:andIl
ovey
out
oo,
Vincewhatar
eyoudoi
ng
her
e?
Vi
nce:
whatdoy
oumean
?
Me:i
sn'
titwei
rdhowyou'
reher
eandy ouknewt
hatI
washav
ingoyster
sear
li
er,
areyoust
alki
ngme?
Vince:
l
ool hunrel
ax,
wellIwasboundtocomehereI
j
ustdidn'tknowwhenIwasgoi ngtocomehome,
andItoldy out
hatIl
iveneart
hehotelyou'
rei
n.
Me:
thebeach?
Vince:
Wel l
uhmmm...
Iknewyouwer
egoingt
othe
beachright
?SoIj
ustwantedt
oseeyou.
Me:
real
l
ythenwhydi
dn'
tyoucomet
ome?
Vi
nce:
Ijustdi
dn'
twantt
obot
hery
ou.
▶Ouror
dercame,
weat
e
Me:Whatar
ewehav
ingf
ormai
ncour
se,
Ihat
e
st
art
ers
Vi
nce:
I'
m hav
ingy
ouf
ormai
ncour
se
Me:
youf
unny
Vi
nce:
Iai
n'
tj
oki
ng
▶Thewai tercametocol
lectt
hepl atesandtakean
orderf
ormai ncour
se,Vi
nceorderedf orusagai
n!
wehadst akeandri
bswithri
ngonionsandchi ps
andfordersertwehadachocolat
ef udge.
Me:
don'
tthi
nkIcaneatany
mor
e,y
hoI
'
mful
l
Vince:
Ienjoy
edbei
ngwi
thy
ou,
didIt
ell
youhow
beauti
ful
youlook?
Me:metoothanky
oufort
akingmeoutonadat
e
meansalott
ome.Youdidtel
lme.
Vi
nce:
andt
hatneckl
acemmmh
Me:whati
sitwi
ththi
sneckl
aceact
ual
l
y?Si
nceI
'
m
f
orcedt
owearital
ldayever
yday?
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
Me:
whyy
ousmi
l
ing?
▶Ismi
l
ed
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyousmi
l
ing?
Me:
becausey
ou'
rehandsome
▶Hesmi
l
edagai
n.
Vince:
mxm getupl
et'
sgoIwantt
oshowy
ou
something.
▶Hepai dthebil
lthenwegotupandgoti ntothe
car.
..
Vincecoul
dn'tst
oplooki
ngatme. .
.l
etmesay
checkingmeouthewassmi t
tenandIlov edevery
minuteofhimlookingatme.Wedr ov
et hrougha
mount ai
n,
thenwentupahill
.Gotoutoft hecarand
theviewwassoni ceyoucoul
dseeDur banf rom up.
Me:
thi
sisbeauti
ful
,butwhatArewedoi
ngher
ein
t
hebush?Ar
ey ougoingtorapeme?
Vince:thi
sgi
rl
,I
'mt
ryi
ngt
oberomant
ic,
showy
ou
thestar
sandshowyoumyhomeci
ty.
Me:
ohh
Vi
nce:
yeahshutupandl
i
stenandl
ookatt
hest
ars
▶Il
aughed.Hewassoser
ious
Vince:
whyy
oul
aughi
ng?y
ounotser
iousmxm l
et'
s
go.
Me:
let
'sgo,
plusi
tscol
dIcan'
tst
andher
e
Vi
nce:
itscol
d?comel
etmewar
myouup
▶Iwentt ohim,hehuggedmef rom behi
ndand
brushedmyar mst omakemewar m,hest
art
ed
softl
ykissi
ngmyneck, t
henheturnedmetoface
hi
m, hethenstar
tedt oki
ssmylipsandhepull
edMe
cl
osertohim andpl acedhi
shandonmybut tand
squeezedit,
hi
sbr eathwasgett
ingfast
er
Vi
nce:
nomzamowhatar
eyoudoi
ngt
ome.
▶Heconti
nuedtoki
ssmehungr
il
yIstart
edtofeel
hi
smanhoodinmybell
yget
ti
nghar
d..
.Igotshyand
st
oppedt
hekiss.
Me:
let
'sgetgoi
ng
▶Wegotinsi
dethecar
,hewassil
entl
ookedl
i
kehe
wasdi
sappoi
ntedbywhatIdi
d.
Me:
arey
ouokay
.
Vi
nce:
yeahi
'
mfi
ne.
▶HeputonVusi Nov a-
Ndikuthandileandwedrov
e
offinsil
ence,ithoughttomy selfthathowam I
goingtotellhimthatI'm avi
rginandI '
m notf
amil
i
ar
withthesethingsofkissingandt ouching.
Me:
youknowI
'
m av
irgi
nri
ght
?
Vi
nce:
what
??
▶Hi
sjawdr
opped,
hewasshocked
Vi
nce:
you'
reki
ddi
ngr
ight
?
Me:
No,
arey
oumadatmef
orst
oppi
ngt
hatki
ss
Vi
nce:
wow,
uhmmm
Vince:
NobbeI'
m notmadaty
ou,
wel
lIwasnowI
underst
and.
Me:
okay

▶Hi
sphoner
angt
hrought
hecabl
e.heanswer
edi
t
Vi
nce:
Mom
Hi
sMom:
itsget
ti
ngl
atewher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
I'
m comi
ngMaDl
ami
ni
Hi
sMom:Ngit
heukuphyhay
iukut
hyuy
ezanoma
uy
ahambaSbusi
so.
Vi
nce:
I'
m ont
her
oad,
dri
vi
ng.
Hi
sMom:
Nobani
?
▶HelookedatmeandIshookmyheadsay
ingnot
o
hi
m.
Vi
nce:
Nomakot
i
Hi
sMom:
uNomal
anga?
▶Myheartbr
okesamet
ime,
Vincel
ookedatmeand
Il
ookedaway
.
Vi
nce:
ChaMmauNomzamo
Hi
sMom:
Ngi
kuLoudspeaker
?
Vi
nce:
YesMa.
▶Hi
smom l
aughed.
Hi
sMom:
ohNomzamoMakot
i?
▶Vincel
ookedatmet
orespondt
ohi
smom,
Idi
dn'
t
Iwassopissed.
Vince:
MmaI '
m dri
vi
ng,
wecomi
ngov
erseey
ounow
now.*cal
lended*
Me:
Nomal
angahuh?
Vince:Areyoujeal
ous?Nomai smyexdatedher
whileIwasstil
latVarsi
tyandmymom knewherand
Ididn'
ttel
lherthatwebrokeup.I
tsi
nthepast
.
▶YesesIwassor
eli
eved.
Me:whatdidyoumeanbysay i
ngwecomingoverI
havetogobacktothehotel
I'
ll
geti
ntot
roubl
eifI
don'
tgetbackby10Vince.
Vince:i
twil
lbej
ustfor10minsIwantmymom to
seey ou.
.Youwon'tgeti
ntotr
oubl
eIpromi
se.
▶Wedr ovetohi shouseandi twasn'
tjustahousei
t
wasamansi on,thehousehadadr i
veway..
.8cars
wereparkedandVi nceparkedthe9thcarwegotoff
andhismom wasatt hedooralready,
shewelcomed
us,youwouldn'tthattell
itwashismom shewasso
youngandbeaut i
fulshehuggedmeandwi nkedat
Vince.Vincelaughed, wegotinsi
de.
Hi
sMom:
woul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Me:
NoI
'
mfi
net
hanksMa'
am
Hi
sMom:
NoDearCal
lmeMr
s-D
Vincelaughed.Theyhavesuchagoodr el
ati
onship
10mi nspassedandwewer est
il
lther
e,we'vebeen
tal
kingforthewholenightitwasnow22: 30pm.His
mom wentt osleepandl ef
tusinthelounge.
Me:
Vince,
Time!
Vi
nce:
don'
twor
ryIt
alkedt
othesecur
it
y
Me:
okayshowmear
oundt
hen.
Vi
nce:
wil
ldot
hatsomeot
hert
imeI
'
mti
red.
Me:
atl
eastl
et'
swat
chamov
iet
hen
▶Wewentt ohisroom, i
thadahugepl asmaTVwe
goti
ntobedandwat ched"TheNotebook"Iknewthe
movi
ealreadysoi
tki ndofbor
edme, IaskedVincea
l
otofquesti
onsabouthisfamil
y.
..
Vi
nce:
stopaski
ngquest
ionsandki
ssme
▶Iblushedandwest
art
edt
oki
sshepausedand
sai
d
Vi
nce:
Ican'
twai
ttobei
nsi
deofy
ou
▶Ididn'
trespond,weconti
nuedtoki
ssam Iopeni
ng
mycookingjarforhi
m,today,
now,
athi
sparent
s
house.
..

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT10
#16SNL

▶Hepausedandasked.
.
Vi
nce:
CanIMakel
ovet
oyou?
▶Iwasbr eathi
ngheav i
lyandr eallyhornyatt hi
s
ti
me..ButIrepri
mandedmy self
, wehav ebeendat i
ng
foronlyafewweeksandIr eall
yl ovehim andhe's
notgonnal eavemer ight?.
.hel ovesmehe
i
ntroducedmet ohismom f orheav ensake..
."
Yes
zamor eandhei nt
roducedNomal angat ooy ou'
re
j
ustoneoft hem".
..
Iignoredmysubconsci ousandI
fol
lowedmyhear t
..
.Iwhisper edtohi m.
Me:
YesPl
ease.
▶Hesmi ledandgotup, r
emov edhiswat chand
placeditontopofachestofdr awer,andhe
remov edhisj
acketplaci
ngi tonachai rheal so
remov edthet-
shi
rthewaswear i
ng..Hewashear t
-
stoppi
nglybeauti
ful
,hisAbs, darkskinhewast oo
yummymaki ngmenott or egretmydeci sion..
.
Vi
nce:
Iassumey
ounotusi
nganycont
racept
ives?
Me:
Yeah.
..
Vi
nce:
thoughtso.
..
▶Heopenedadrawerthatwascl
oset
ohi
m and
pi
ckedupaboxofcondoms..
.
Me:
Wast
hispl
anned?
Vi
nce:
No,
I'
m al
way
spr
epar
ed.
..
▶Hest rol
l
edslowl
ytowar
dsme,myhear
tbegi
nst
o
pound,hedrawsmetowar
dshi
m maki
ngmeto
standupfrom t
hebed.
Vi
nce:
Let
'sgett
hisj
acketof
f,shal
lwe?
▶Hesaiditsoft
ly,
hegent l
ysli
deitoffmyshoulder
s
andpl
aceditonthechairwithhi
sjacket.
..
Atthi
s
momentIcan'tt
akemyey esofhi
m.Her eachesup
andgent
lyrunshi
sf i
ngersdownmycheekt henmy
chi
n.
Vi
nce:
You'
resobeaut
if
ul.
▶Het henstar
tedt
okissme,If
elthi
shandsonmy
t
highsundermydress,
hesl
owlypeel
edmydressof
f
me.Iwasi nmybl ueLacybraandamat ching
under wear,t
hankheav ensIWasinDur ban...
nowhis
handsar egraspingeachsideofmyheadashe
continuestokissme, hethenplacedhisar ms
aroundmybackandhaul edmeagai nsthisbody
squeezingmet i
ghtl
y,Ismil
ed.Itfel
twarm If el
tsaf
e
aroundhi m.Hishandst hentr
aveledtomyassand
hesqueezedi tsogoodhemoaned, hethenhol dme
againsthishipsandIf el
thiser
ect i
on,whichhe
happilypushedintome.

▶Imoanedi nt
ohismouth,
nowIcanhar dlycontain
thehor
monesortheseawkwardlyfunf eeli
ngs
goingt
hroughmybody.
..
itwastoomuchVi nceJust
knewwhathewasdoing,heknew..becauseInow
wanthi
m sobad..
whatwewasdoi ngf eltsoright.

▶Het heneasesmeneart hebed,hethenwenton

hiskneesandgrabbedmyhipswithhisbothhands
andkissedmybellybutt
ongentl
y,hereachedupand
removedtheduvetfrom t
hebedthereaf
tersl
owly
pushedmeIfellt
othebed..
.Sti
l
lkneel
i
ng,he
grabbedmyfootandheremovedmyshoesonbot
h
ofmyf eet
.

▶Hest oodupandundoest hebut tonofhisjeans

andhepul l
shisjeandown..nev erhav eieverfeltso
uncomfortabl
ebecausehewasst ar i
ngatmehal f
naked,
hehadbedr oom eyes..hegr abbedmyl egand
l
eanedov ertothebedandKi ssedmyt hi
ghs
si
mul t
aneouslydown, hef
inal l
yreachedhis
desti
nati
onandheat emypussyl i
kesupper ..
.Itfel
t
sogoodIcoul dn'
tstopmov ingmyl egs.
Vi
nce:
keepst
il
l
▶"NiggahowcanInotmov e"Ithoughtt
omy self
.he
putmypentiesonagai nandHemov edupt osuck
mybreastsandki ssedmyl i
psyetagain.
.andwhi le
doi
ngthatheent eredhishandinsidemypent iesand
hefi
ngeredme. .
.Imoanedhi snamef eel
i
ngt he
sweetsensati
on...
Me:
Vince.
.
Vi
nce:
Mommy
..
▶Het hrusthisf
inger
sinsi
demef orgood4mins,
I
guess.Icryoutashedoesitagai
nandagain
Me:
OhVi
ncepl
ease
▶Ist ar
tedfeelingweir
dandwant ingmor eofwhat
hewasdoi ngandbeggedhi mtodoi tmoreand
fast
er,Ipull
edmyheadback, andgr oaned,mylegs
werestiff
ening,heki
ssedmedeepl y,histongueinmy
mout habsorbingmycr i
es..
.Ist
art
edshaki ngwi t
h
themot i
onofhi sfi
ngersinmycooki ejar..
.nextt
hing
IknewIhador gasm..
.i
twasanext raordinaryanda
weirdfeel
ing.
▶Hest oppedandl ookedatmeandsmi led,a
sati
sfiedsmi l
eonhi sfaceMybr eathingi ssti
ll
raggedasIcal m downf rom myor gasm suddenl yhe
sit
supandt ugsmypant i
esoffandt hr owst hem on
thefloor,
pull
sof fhisboxerbrief
s, hiser ecti
on
spri
ngsf ree,OmgVi nceisgif
tedhi sdi ckwasn' t
hugebuti twasbi gIr eal
lywantedt ot akemyt hi
ngs
andgobecausei twasn'tgonnaf i
tin...Hepi ckedup
thecondom hepl acedont hesideoft hebedt hen
mov edbet weenmyl egsspreadingt hem f urt
her
apartandkneel edupandpul l
edoutt hecondom, i
n
myheadI '
mlike"
howwilli
tfi
tinhi
smanhood"t he
condom l
ookedsmall
forhisdi
ckheputi tinany
way
andheleaneddownhishandsoneithersideofmy
head.
Vi
nce:
Lookatme
▶Ilookedathi
m.Hiseyesweresosmal
l
...
voi
ceso
sof
t.
..
Ifel
li
nloveal
loveragai
n.
Vi
nce:
Doy
our
eal
l
ywantt
odot
his?
Me:
Please
Vi
nce:
Pul
lyourkneesup
▶Heor dersmesof t
lyandIwasqui
cktoobey,
I
pull
edthem up.Hepositi
onedt
heheadofhi
s
erect
ionattheent
ranceofmysexHeslammedi nt
o
me.
Me:
AhhVi
nce.
..
▶IgroanedasIfeelapai
nful
sensat
iondeepi
nsi
de
asheri
psmyv i
rgini
ty.
Vi
nce:
Babey
ousot
ight
,am Ihur
ti
ngy
ou?
▶Inod,
myar
msi
nhi
sfor
ear
ms,
heeasesbackand
comesi
ntomeagai
nIcr
iedoutasecondt
ime.
Vi
nce:
Mor
e?
Me:
Yes.
▶Ibreat
he,
hedoesi
toncemor
eandHepaused
agai
n.
Vi
nce:
Mor
e?
▶OhIwantt
his,
iti
spai
nful
butsweet
lyso
Me:
Yes.
▶Myv oi
cewasbeggi ngforthis.
hemov edinand
outandthisti
mehedoesn' tstop,heshiftsont
ohis
elbowssoIcanf eelhi
sweightonme, hol di
ngme
downhemov edslowlyi
nandoutatf i
rst.Hethen
speedsupImoanedandhegr oaned...Ipickupwit
h
thespeed,andIkeepupwi ththespeed, thenhe
kissedmehar d.
Vi
nce:
ILov
eyou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Icanfeel
somet
hingbuil
dingi
nsi
deofme,l
i
ke
bef
ore.
.myl
egsst
artst
if
feni
ngagai
nashethrust
s
againandagai
nMyBodyQui ver
sIexper i
ence
cli
max.Didthi
sguygraduateinsex, I
'
mi nheavenat
thi
spointsl
owingdownt hespeedashekeepsup
withit
,di
dn'
tknowitcouldfeell
ikethis,i
tregi
ster
ed
tomet hent
hatI'
m nolongervir
gin.Ashecumshe
call
soutmyname, onelaststr
oket hrust
inghardhe
groaned.

▶I '
m sti
llpant i
ng,
myt houghtsarerunni
ngwi
ld,t
hat
wasamazi ng,Iopenedmyey esandhehashis
foreheadpr essedagainstmine,heopenshi
seyes
too,heisst i
lli
nsideofme,leani
ngdownhekissed
myf oreheadt henhesl owl
ypulledoutofme.
heli
ed
besidemeandhepul l
edoutt hecondom.Hethen
turntomysi de,
putshi
shandonmycheek.
Vi
nce:
DidIhur
tyou?
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
okay
.
▶Istr
etchoutbesidehim,mybonesfeeli
ngalljell
y
andweir
d,t
woor gasms, myvaginawasburni
ngl ol
,Vi
ncegotuptogett heduvetonthef
loorheplaced
i
tonusandgoti
nbedhepull
edmecloser
, Ipl
aced
myheadonhi
schestandheki
ssedmyforehead.
Me:
Ilov
eyouVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
BbeYouknowIl
ovey
out
oo.
▶Wef
ell
asl
eep.

▶Nex tday.IwokeupandVi ncewasn'tther

eI
thoughtmaybehewasi nthekitchenorthetoi
l
etI
l
ookar oundther
e'snoev i
denceofhi m bei
ngaround
noclothesonthefloororhisjacketonthechair
,a
dooropeneditwasVi nce'
smom.
Mr
sD:
BabyGi
rlwakeupy
oumustgett
othehot
el.
▶Conf
usedasf
uckIqui
ckl
yhi
demyBr
east
swi
th
t
heduv
et.
MrsD:Vincel
efttoRosebankandhetol
dmehe
di
dn'tl
etyouknowbecauseyouweresleepi
ng
peacef
ully
.SoI'
veranabathfory
ou,y
oucango
bathsowecanl eav
eIalsohavet
ogot oschool
.
Me:
Oohkay
.
▶ShegotoutAndIwassopi ssed,
howdarehe?I
qui
cklystoodupwit
htheduvet
..
.Il
ookedovert
he
bedtherewasbloodonthewhi
tesheet
.Hismom
walkedinagai
n.
Mr
sD:
andbr
eakf
asti
sdownst
air
s.
▶Shel
ookedatt
hebed.
Mr
sD:
Arey
ouokay
?Wantsomepads?
Me:
ohnoI
'
m notmenst
ruat
ing.
Mr
sD:
Ohl
eav
eitl
i
ket
hatdon'
twor
ry.
▶Sheclosedt hedoor.Iwenttot hebathroom took
abathandputmyunder wear,
phoneandaccessor i
es
i
nasmal lbagIf oundi
noneofVi nce'
sdrawer.I
woremydr essandmyshoes, t
henIwentdownst ai
rs.
WishIdi
dn't.Therewashi sMom, Dad(MrZulu)
,Big
brot
her
(Pri
nce)andLi lsi
ster(
Zinhle)
..
.Ihavenev er
beensoembar rassedIlookeddown.
Mr
sD:
Comej
oinus,
takeasi
t.
Me:
Sor
ryICan'
tIReal
l
yhav
etogetgoi
ng.
Mr
sD:
LetmeGetmyBagt
hen,
Zinhl
efi
nishup.
Zinhl
e:I
'm notevendonemom, andudidn'
teven
greetusSi
sandal readyyouwantt
oorderusaround
taki
ngyout othehotelmxm.
▶ shegotupandl
eftt
ogetherbag.
Mr
Zul
u:Aw'
kahl
eZi
nhl
e,Kunj
anNt
ombi
'
yam?
▶Vince'
sbrothergotuptooandlef
tdi
dn'
tevenlook
atme,If
eltsostupidandembarr
assedIhadalump
i
nmyt hr
oatIjustwantedtocr
y.
Me:
Ngy
aphi
l
a.
Mr
Zul
u:Ngey
akwabani
iNt
ombi
?
Me:
Ntshangase.
▶Vi ncesmom di sturbedourawkwar dconv ersati
on
thankGod.Wel eftthehouseonourwayt ot hehotel
sheinsist
edIgetsomet hi
ngtoeat,
andZi nhlewas
nothav i
ngitshewaspi ssedandannoy edbyme.We
wentt osomeCaf egotmuf fi
nsandcof feewhi l
e
waiti
ngondr ive-t
hruVincecalledIi
gnor edi
t, wegot
thefoodandl eftshedr oppedmeof fthegat e.And
i
mmedi at
elyIstartedthinki
ngofli
esI'
m goingt o
comeupwi t
hbecauseIknewIwasintroubl
e.Vi
nce
cal
ledagai
nandIignor
edit,
AndIwalkedin.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT11

▶Igotinsi
dethehot
el,
Iwentstrai
ghtt
othesecur
it
y
guar
dthatletmegooutlastni
ght.
Securi
tyGuard:You'
rebackearl
y,
buttaket
he
elev
atorquicksotheywon'tseeyout
heyarest
il
li
n
theboardroom.
Me:
howmuchdi
dhepayy
ou?
Secur
it
yGuar
d:Who?Idon'
tknowwhaty
ou'
ret
alki
ng
about
.
Me:
MyBoy
fri
end,
theguywhot
ookmel
astni
ght
.
Securi
tyGuar
d:Si
siIdon'
tknowwhaty ou'
ret
alki
ng
about.pl
easeGoIdon'twantanyt
rouble.
▶Ir ushedt ot
heel
evatorgoti
nandout ,
rant
oour
room whi chwast
helastroom Iusedmycardtoget
i
nside, f
oundCandi
cehelpingKhomotsoto
pack,theyimmedi
atel
yleftwhattheywer
edoingand
camet ome.
Candi
ce:
Whathappened?
?
Khomot
so:
Didy
ou.
..
.?
Me:guy
sI'
mr eal
l
yti
redcanwet
alkaboutt
hisl
ater
?
Ihav
etopackandst
uff.
Khomotso:
I'
veal
readypackedy
ourcl
othesy
ou'
re
goodt
ogo.So?Tellus?
Me:
Ihav
etobat
hlool
..
Candi
ce:
Zamocomeonwasi
tgood?
▶Ilaughedandexcusedmysel
ffrom t
hem,Itooka
showerVincekeptoncal
l
ingIf
inall
yanswer
ed.
Vi
nce:
Babe,
arey
ouokay
?I'
vebeencal
l
ing.
Me:okay
?Vinceyoulef
tme,di
dyoupl
anthi
s,If
eel
cheapandused.
.howcanyoul
eavemether
e?
Vince:
slowdownzamor
e.Canwet
alkwheny
ou
comeback.
Me:Slowdown?Icompr
omi
sedal
ott
obewi
thy
ou
yest
erdayVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
Mami
youdon'
tunder
stand.
..
Iknowi
twas.
..
.
Me:
youknowwhatst
uffu.*
cal
lended*
▶Iwassoannoyed,Iqui
ckl
ywor
emywhitehi
gh
j
ean,bl
ackVansT-shi
rtandaNi
keRoshandwent
t
otheli
vi
ngroom.
▶Myf
ri
endswer
eal
lther
e..
.Il
aughed
Kamo:Wecameherei
mmediat
elywhenwef
ound
outt
haty
ou'
reback.
..
sot
ell
us.
Khomot
so:
yeywecan'
twai
t.
Me:
wil
ltel
lyouguy
swhathappenedov
erbr
eakf
ast
.
▶Weallwentdownst
air
s,wewerei
nfor
medthat
wewerel
eavi
nginanhour,
wethenwehadour
br
eakf
ast
.
Me:
Igav
eVi
nceaCooki
e.
▶Theyal
lscr
eamedandot
herst
udent
sst
art
ed
l
ooki
ngatus.
Me:I
twassoNi ce,
Guyswhydidn'
tyoutel
lmethat
sexwasthisgoodIwouldhaveopenedmycookie
j
aralongtimeago.Andgiveoutcooki
es.
.AndVince
canfuckguys,
hisbody
,war
mt hmmmmm Ican't.
Kamo:
bigdi
ck?
Me:
Yassgi
rl
.
Candi
ce:
orgasm?
Me:
Twi
ce.
Nat
asha:
Youl
i
e.
Me:
Iswear
▶Theyscr
eamedagai
nandwel
aughed.
Kamo:
Ishoul
dtast
ehi
m.
Me:
bit
chwat
chmeki
l
lyou.
Khomot
so:
Nat
ashay
ou'
ret
heonl
yvi
rgi
nnow.
Nat
asha:
Leav
emeal
one.
▶Wef ini
shedbreakf
astandwentt ofet
chourbags
upstair
s,gotdownstai
rsandtheyloadedourbags
i
ntot hebusandwewenthome, arri
vedhoursl
ater
at8pm mal umewasal readyt
her
eIbi dfar
ewel
lto
myfr i
ends,andgotinthecar.
Me:
Mal
ums
Mal
ums:
Mshana,
Kunj
an?
Me:I
'
mt i
redmal
ums,
j
ustwantt
osl
eepy
ho,
Wher
e's
mydad?
Malums: usemsebenzi
niungcel
eukut
hi
ngi
kulande,U-
enj
oyil
ekodwa?
Me:
YesMal
umsI
twasf
un.
Mal
ums:
Okay
.
▶Wel eftandgothomeMal umst ookoutmy
l
uggageandgoti nsidethecar, Isaidmygoodby eto
MalumsandIl ookedacr ossthest r
eetandsaw
Vince'scarathishouse, Iwait
edf orMalumstodr i
ve
offIthenopenedt hegateandputmycl ot
hesinsi
de
theyardandIwal kedt oVince'shouse.AsIgetto
thedoorIheardnoi sescheer i
ngwentt othewindow
andIcoul dseehim andMuzi andot her2guyswent
backt othedoorandknocked.Muzi opened
Muzi
:Hawu!
Me:
Hawu?
Muzi
:Sor
ry.
..
Hi,
l
ool
wei
rdseei
nguher
e.
Me:l
oolIknowy
ousur
ear
esur
pri
sed,
I'
mlooki
ngf
or
Vi
nce.
Muzi
:Wher
ear
emymanner
s,Geti
nsi
de.
▶Igoti
nsi
deandweheadedt
othel
ounge.
Muzi
:EyCuzi
tsf
ory
ou.
Vi
nce:
Me?
?
▶HelookedatwhoMuzi
wasr
efer
ri
ngt
o,hesaw
me.
Vi
nce:
Mybabe.
▶Hesmi
l
edandgotup.
Vi
nce:Guysthi
sismybbe..
.y
oulookbeaut
if
ulBbe.
Can'
tbel
ieveyou'
reher
eI'
vemissedu.
▶Vinceissomethi
ngel
sei
shepr
etendi
ngr
ightnow
orwhat?Hehuggedme.
Ot
her
Guy
1:Hey
.
Ot
her
Guy
2:WussupNomzamo?
Me:
Hey
,I'
m Good.
Muzi:
Zamowhatareudoi
ngt omycuz.
.l
ookathim
hewaswit
hyoujusty
est
erdayandhe'
sacti
ngli
ke
hesawumonthsago.
Vi
nce:
Leav
emeal
onewena,
Let
'sgoupst
air
s?
Muzi
:Upst
air
shehehe
Vi
nce:
fucku.
▶Theyal
ll
aughed,
VinceandIwentt
ohi
sroom.
Vi
nce:
Sitdown.
▶Ii
gnor
edhi
m.
Vi
nce:
wantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
▶Ii
gnor
edhi
m.
Vi
nce:
mami
arey
ouokay
?
▶Ist
art
edt
ocr
y..
.hecamet
omeandhuggedme.
..
.
Vi
nce:
Zamowhat
'sup?
▶Ipushedhi
m away
.
Me: whatsup??Vi
ncey ourfami l
yhat esme,you
sleptwithmeandleftme,y oudi dn'
tevencar
ehowI
wasgoi ngtogeti
nthehot el,Icould'
vebeen
suspendedatschool,t
heycoul d'vecall
edmydad.do
youexpectmet obeokayaf t
ery ou'
veusedmeand
l
ef tme.Arewesti
llevendat i
ng?Iknewl ovi
ngyou
t
hismuchwi
l
lhur
tmeatt
heend.
▶Iwasshout
ingandcr
ying,
Vincecl
osedt
hedoor
.
Vince:
I'
m sor
ry,
myf amil
yhatesyou?Babynothey
dontmynom lovesyou..
Whathappened?Itol
dmy
mom totakecareofyou.Andshetol
dmet hatshe
di
d.
Me:
whydi
dyoul
eav
eme?
?
Vince:sor r
yIleftwit
houttell
ingyou,
Ihadtol eav e
andIfIdi dn'
tleaveIwould'vemissedmyf l
ighty ou
sawIdi dn'tcomewi thmycarIusedmybr otherscar
soIbookedanear l
yfli
ghtformet ogetbackt owor k
ont i
me, Ileftver
yearlyIthi
nkat4am.Coul dn'tget
youtot hehot elatt
hattime.
Me:Youshoul
d'v
eatl
eastwokenmeup,
yourf
ami
l
y
hat
esmeVi nce.
▶Icr
iedev
enmor
e.
Vi
nce:
Whatdoy
oumeannow?
Me:Yoursi
stershej
ustgavemeanatt
it
ude,
y our
brot
herdi
dn'
tevengreetme,t
heyl
oveNomalanga
ri
ght?
Vi
nce:
mami
..
▶Vincecameandhuggedmeagai
n,squeezedme
andki
ssedmyfor
ehead.
Vince:Mybi gbrotherisgoi
ngthroughadiv
orce,I
'
m
surehedi dn'
tmeant ober ude,
Zinhl
eisv
eryfondof
Nomal angaI'm surethat
'swhyshewasactingupI
willt
alktoher.I'
m sorrymami .
Me:
Arey
ougoi
ngt
oleav
eme?
Vince:
Nomzamo. .
NoIwon' tl
eaveyouIpromise,I
meantitwhenIsai
dIloveyou,youandonlyyou!Get
thatst
opworryi
ngaboutmypastbyt hati
mean
Nomalangastopmenti
oningheryou'
remypr esent
andmyf ut
ureImeanit.
▶Hewi
pedmyt
ear
s
Vi
nce:
Smi
l
eandgi
vemeaki
ss.
Me:
No.
Vince:
whatdouwant,youdon'twantt
osit
down,youdon'
twantt
osmi l
e,y
oudon'twantmy
sweetlipst
okissy
ou,doyouwantwhitewine?
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
mxm
Vi
nce:
her
e'st
hatbeaut
if
ulsmi
l
e.
▶Hewentont
osi
tont
hebed.
Vi
nce:
comeher
e..
.
▶Hetuckedhi
shandsi
ntomyj
eananddr
aggedme
t
ohi
m, heheldmebymywaist
.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyouy
ezwa.
Me:
Yeah.
▶Ileaneddownandgavehim akiss,west
art
ed
makingout.
..
wehadsexforthesecondti
meandit
f
eltgoodli
keitwast
helastti
me.Afterwedonehe
waslayi
ngupandIwaslayingdownonmyel bows
f
acinghim.
Vi
nce:
stopl
ooki
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
.
Me:
lol
how?
Vi
nce:
li
key
ouwantsomemor
e.
▶Il
aughed.
Vi
nce:
whot
ooky
out
othehot
el?
Me:
yourmom andy
oursi
s.
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
eswhenIsai
d"y
oursi
s"hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
unedr
amaZamoy
az.
Me: Papi
youweren'
tther
e,Si
ssai d"
I'
m noteven
doneeati
ngandudidntevengreetusbutyou'
re
orderi
ngusar
ound"whenIsaidIwantedtoleave.
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
...
andbabywenawhatdi
dyousay
?
Me:
EhIj
ustst
oodt
her
e.
Vince:
You'r
eacowardy oushoul
d'
vedr
aggedherby
herdreadsandbeatherlool
.
Me:I
magine,
Ican'
tfi
ghttosavemyl
i
fe,
ifIdi
dthat
r
ightnowIwouldbeinhospi
tal
.
▶Wel
aughed
Me:
SoMuzi
isr
eal
l
yyourcousi
n,
how?
Vi
nce:
Hisf
atherandmyf
atherar
etwi
nbr
other
s.
Me:
twi
ns?I
dent
ical
?
Vi
nce:
Yer
p.
Me:
Oldmenwhol
ookal
i
ket
hat
sfunny
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
lool
iti
s
Me:
I'
venev
eraskedy
out
hisbutwher
edoy
ouwor
k?
Vi
nce:
AtEskom.

Me:Ismel
lnepoti
sm, y
ourdadi
saCEOateskom
andyouworkthere?
Vince:Loolyoucansayt
hat,butIst
udiedElect
rical
engineeringatTUTsoIhadtogainwor kexper
ience
afterstudyi
ngmydadof f
eredmeaj ob.
Me:
sowhatdoy
oudot
her
e?
Vi
nce:
21quest
ions?
?Whatgoingonlool
??I
'ma
manager
.Let'
sgetgoi
ngbef
oreyourdadget
sback.
▶Fl i
pI'v
ef orgot
tenaboutmydad, Vinceisa
manageratEskom , thatexplai
nstheexpensive
apartmentandcar sanywaywegotupandIgot
dressed,wewentdownst ai
rs.Theyotherguy
s
weren'tthereonl
yMuzi .
Muzi
:Ya'
l
lli
kemaki
ngnoi
sey
ho.
Me:
Youshoul
dcomej
oinussomeot
hert
ime.
Vi
nce:
Zamo!
▶Theyl
aughed.
Me:
ByeMuzi
..
.
Muzi
:
Lool
heheheBy
eNomzamo.
▶Vincel
etmeout
,heopenedt
hedoorf
ormeasI
wentout
.
Vince:
Areyousureyoudon'twantmeto
accompanyyou,Icoul
dleav
ey ouatt
hegat
e.
Me:VinceIcanl
i
ter
all
yseemyhouse,
itsnotf
ar.
.
Seeyousoonlov
eu.
Vi
nce:
lov
eyoumami
.
▶Hegav emeaki ssonmycheekandIwentt omy
house,openedthegateandcl osedit
,lookedf ormy
cl
othesnearthegateandt heyweren'tthere.
..Fli
p
Mydadi shome.Ipanicked.Whatam Igoi ngto
say??
wher edoIcomef rom? ?
andi t
s22: 32pm ...I
fr
eakedoutev enmore..
.
#I
NSERT12

▶Islowlywal kedtothekitchendoor.Usedmykey
toopenthelightswereon, andnoonei nthe
kit
chen.
..AsIwasaboutt oputmyf ootont hestai
rs
andgoupt omyr oom mydadcal ledme, hewas
sit
ti
ngont heloungedrinki
ngagl assofwhi skey
.
Dad:
Comet
akey
ourbags.
▶Iwentt
othel
ounget
otakemybags.
..
Dad:
Leav
ethem,
si
tdown.
Me:
DadI
'
m sot
ir
ed,
Ineedt
o..
.
Dad:
Hlal
aPhansi
Nomzamo.
▶HespokeZul
u,I
'
mint
roubl
eforsur
e,Isl
owl
ysat
down.
Dad:Doyouknowwhatti
meisit
?Frans(Mal
ums)
cal
ledmeafterhedr
oppedyouoff
,wher
edoyou
comef r
om?Anddon'tudar
eli
etome.
▶Ij
ustst
oodt
her
e.
Dad:
Tal
k!
Me:
Iwentt
obuyai
rt
imeatt
hegar
age.
Dad:
soy
oucan'
tuseCel
l
phonebanki
ngany
mor
e?
Me:
Idon'
thav
emoneyi
nmyaccount
.
Dad:
whatdi
dyoubuywi
thal
lthatmoneyIsent
?
Me:Iwithdr
ewallt
hemoneyandboughtsomeGi
rl
s
st
uff
..
.andIboughtyousomet
hing.
▶Iwentintomybagt
otakeoutt
hegi
ftIboughtf
or
hi
m atDurban.
Dad:leaveThatbag!
..
youl
efty
ourbagsatthegat
e
why ?
..Andyoucomeback2hrslat
er?Buyi
ngair
ti
me
takesonly2minsZamo.
Me: Dad.
..
Ilef
tthem att
hegatebecauseIreal
ly
neededtheairt
imeandIthoughtI'
dbebacksooner.
WhenIgotatt hegarageIbecamehungryandI
orderedRussi
anandchipsandIatetherebecause
whenIar r
iveathomeIonlywantedtobathand
sl
eep.
Dad:
mmhmakessense.
▶Igotupandhuggedhi
m
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ousomuch,
we'
l
ltal
ktomor
row
▶ Itookmybagsgav ehimtheshoesandtheZul
u
for
eheadt hi
ngyf ormenandIwentupst
air
s..
goti
nto
myr oom undressedandtookabath,
woremyPJs
andslept
.

▶Weekswentbysoqui ckl
ySecondt erm wasover
.
i
t'
saFridayandwearewr i
ti
ngourlastpaperIwoke
upat8am wentdownst
airsfoundSes'Thoko
Cl
eani
ngi nt
hedini
ngarea.
Me:
Mor
ningSes'
Thokowami
.
▶Iwentt
oherandHuggedher
.
Ses'
Thoko:
Lol
andthen?uneDr
amawenay
azi
Goodmorni
ngmybaby.
▶IThenwentt
otheki
tchent
oGr
abmyBr
eakf
ast
.
Me:I
'
m wri
ti
ngmylastpapert
oday
,I'
m sohappyy
ho
I
'v
ebeenwri
ti
ng.
Ses'
Thoko:
Lool
whatar
eyouwr
it
ingt
oday
?
Me:
Engl
i
shP3
Ses'
Thoko: Plansf ort
heJunehol i
days?Me:Spend
ti
mewi thmyVi nce,Watchmov ies,
Shopping,
bewith
myf r
iendsandThandoi scomingf orthe
holi
days..
surelyI'
llenj
oyt hem andy ou?Whatare
yourplans?
Ses'
Thoko:Goi
nghometoseemyfami
ly
,andI'
m
fi
nal
lyt
akingAngel
tot
hezooImissmybabygi
rlso
much.
Me:Angel
andanimals?Neverr
ememberwhenyou
want
edtobuyherapuppyandshecr i
edsay
ingi
t
l
ooksli
keali
onbecauseitwasfl
uff
y
▶Wel
aughed
Ses'
Thoko:Sheal
way sasksmetotakehert
her
eif
shecri
esIwill
beathershem i
tcost
salotofmoney
togotothezooyho.
Me:
itwi
l
lbeherf
ather
smoneynoty
our
smos
Ses'
Thoko:
Yeyherf
ather
smoneyi
smymoney
▶Ilaughed, shewentt
ocl eantheroomst hatar
e
upst
airs,If
inishedmybreakfastandIrushedtomy
room becausemyphonewasr i
ngi
ngitwasKamo.
Me:
Hey
Kamo:
Hey
,whatar
ewewr
it
ingt
oday
?
Me:
AhyKamo!Ar
eyouser
iousr
ightnow?
Kamo:Ei
shZamoTel
lmef
astI
'
mlef
twi
thR2
ai
rt
ime.
Me:
Engl
i
shP3.
Kamo:
Aheasyt
hings,
seey
ousoonby
elov
eu.
Me:
Mxm l
ool
shar
p*Cal
lended*
▶Ist ar
tedpr epar i
ngf orschool,Ishower edand
l
ot i
oned, wor emywhi t
esocks,shor tgreyskirt
,shortsleeveT- shir
tandIwor eat ie,combmyhai r
andwor eawhi tehairband.AndIusedmascar afor
myey esandputonapi nklipgloss.TodayIt ol
d
Mal umsi '
m notwr it
ingaccor di
ngt ohi m Ifini
shed
writi
ngy esterday,meandVi ncepl annedt hatToday
hewi l
ltakemet oschool andfetchmef rom school.
Itookmywr i
ti
ngt oolsandwentdownst airs.
Ses'
Thoko:
goodl
uckmybaby
.
Me:
ThanksSes'
Thoko,
thoughVi
ncei
s2mi
nsl
ate.
Ses'Thoko:2minsthat
'snot
hing,Ir
ememberonmy
prom night
,Angelsfat
herar
rivedanhourl
ateto
fetchme.Ilear
nedhowt obepat i
entt
hatday.
Me:
Yhoanhourl
ater
,wher
ewashe?
▶Ourconv
ersat
ionwasi
nter
rupt
edbyacal
lfr
om
Vi
nce.
Vi
nce:
Mami
,I
'm out
side.
Me:
OkayPapi
,I
'm comi
ng.*
cal
lended*
▶Saidmygoodby
etoSes'
ThokoandIExi
ted.Got
i
nsi
dethecar
Me:
MrYou'
reLat
e.
Vi
nce:
5mi
nsl
ateBbe
Me:
Sti
l
lyou'
rel
ate.
Vi
nce:
lool
ahy
..
.
▶Wedr
oveof
f
Vi
nce:
Mami
,Ihav
eapr
obl
em
Me:
Probl
em?
Vi
nce:
YesIhat
ethi
sski
rt
.
Me:
Why
?
Vince:Why ?Yourlegsarefi
t,f
ineandper
fectl
ybui
ld,
everyti
mewhenIhav et ochangeagearmyey es
can'thelpbutst
areatt hem onedaywewillcr
ash
thi
scar .wearatrouseroralongskir
t.
Me:
hahahaaLongski
rt?
Vince:Yes,t
hisincr
easesthetemptat
ionofme
wantingtof uckuinthecarri
ghtnow.Andyou'
re
goingt oschoolIcan'
t.
Me:
andwe'
venev
er,
babewemust
Vi
nce:
hahaha
Me:
I'
m ser
ious,
soonIwonderhowwi
l
litbe.
Vi
nce:
stopbei
ngnaught
ytuu
▶Wear r
ivedatschool,
ki
ssedhi
m goodbyeandhe
droveoff
.Wentt olookformyfr
iendsandIf
ound
them att
hespaza.
Kamo: weallworeaccor
dingt
otoday
stheme
expectforguesswho?
Me:
Lool
khomot
so.
.whati
sshewear
ingt
oday
?
Candi
ce:
blazer
.
Kamo:
Mghel
wor
eIbl
azercabangakushi
saso.
▶Wel
aughed
Me:wher
eisshe?YhoIneedt
ouset
het
oil
etbef
ore
Igot
otheexaminat
ionhal
l
.
Kamo:
you'
l
lgethert
her
e.
Me:
okay
.
▶Ir antothet oi
let,
goti nther eKhomot sowas
tal
kingtot hephonei ntoil
etwi t
hthedoorcl osed,I
usedthet oiletandgotoutt owashmyhandsshe
wasst i
llt
al kingtothephone, soundedl i
keshewas
tal
kingtoThat o.
SoIwai t
edf orhertocomeoutI
stoodnearabasi nfacingt hedooroft hetoi
letthat
shewasi n, sheusedt hetoiletandshecameoutof
thetoil
etFixingher self,
Icoul dn'tbeli
evewhatmy
eyeswer eseei ng,myj awdr opped. .
.
Me:
Khomot
so!
!
▶Shequickl
ytuckedi
nhershi
rtandbut
tonedupher
bl
azert
ocoverhertummy.
Me:
Arey
oupr
egnant
?
Khomot
so:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e??
▶Icompl etel
yf r
oze,ital
lstart
edtomakesense.
Shedidn'
twantt oshar eshowers/batheswit
h
anyoneatDur ban,atthebeachshedi dn'
twantt
o
swim shewasi nherswi mmi nggownwhi chcov
ered
hertummy .Andl at
elyshewasn' tweari
ngaccor
ding
toouruniformtheme, andthewei ghtgai
n.
Khomot
so:
I'
m sor
ryIdi
dn'
ttel
lyouguy
s,especi
all
y
you
Me:NoNoNo.
..Thi
scan'
tbehowmanymont
hsar
e
you?
Khomot
so:
5mont
hs.
Me:
Khomot
so!
!
▶Theschool bel
lrang,wecoul dn'
tfini
shour
conversation, Iwasdev astedwhenwegott othehal
l
andwest artedt owrit
e, Icoul
dn'tconcentr
atewhat
wasinmymi ndwasKhomot so,mybestf r
iend
who'spr egnantIj ustcoul dn'
tbeli
eveit,
Icr
ieddur
ing
theexam MrCat ercamet ome.
MrCat
er:
MissNt
shangasear
eyouokay
?
▶Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Me:
Yessi
rI'
mfi
ne.
▶IlookedatKhomotso,
whol
ookedatmeand
cont
inuedt
owr i
te.
MrCat
er:
canwebr
ingy
ouwat
ermay
be?
Me:
Nosi
rI'
l
luset
het
oil
eti
nst
ead.
▶Istoodup, wenttotherest
room camebackand
conti
nuedtowr i
te.f
ini
shedwrit
ingweall
gotupand
l
eft.Myfr
iendscamet ome.
Nat
asha:
Bbear
eyouokay
?
Kamo:
youhadmewor
ri
edar
euf
ine?
Me:
I'
mf i
neguys,
justt
houghtaboutsomet
hingt
hat
t
ri
gger
edmyt ear
s.
Candi
ce:
Isi
tVi
nce?Didhehurtyou?
?I'
l
lst
abt
hat
bast
ardi
ntopi
ecesandcookhim.
Me:
Noi
tsnothi
mI'
mfi
neIpr
omi
sey
ou.
▶If
akedasmi
l
e.
Candi
ce:
Ast
hiswasourl
astpaperl
et'
sgot
o
McDonal
d'
s.
Khomot
so:
yumm I
'
m game.
▶Il
ookedatherandshakedmyhead
Nat
asha:andbesi
deswehav
en'
tbeent
her
esi
nce
wegotback.
Kamo:yhoIdonthavemoneyMina.Ya'l
lshoul
d'
ve
sai
dthatwearegoingt
heret
odayont hegroupchat
whathappenedt
oannouncements
Khomotso:
yhokamo!Wewi
l
lcont
ri
but
eandpayf
or
yourf
ood.
Kamo:v
eley
oudon'
thav
eanychoi
cey
a'l
lhav
eto
payf
orme.
Candi
ce:
babear
eyoucomi
ngwi
thus?
Me:NoIhaveaheadache.Andbesi
desVi
ncei
s
al
readyher
e
Candi
ce:
okaygetwel
l
.
▶Theyhuggedmeandt
henl
eftbutKhomot
so
r
emainedbehi
nd.
Khomot
so:
Iknewy
ouwer
egoi
ngt
oactl
i
ket
his.
Me:
howam Isupposedt
oactKhomot
so?
?
Khomot
so:
nev
ermi
nd.
▶Shest
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
,Idr
aggedher
.
Me:Notal
ktome..
.Doesy ourmom know?Khomo
wehadplans,
goal
stogethernowwi
tht hebabyhow
ar
ey ougoi
ngtostudyatUCPT?That'
smi l
esaway
Khomot
so:st
opjudgingmenomzamoar
ghy
ou
knowwhatst
uffyou!
▶Shelef
tmether
estandi
ngandwentintoj
oint
he
ot
her
s,Iwentt
oVinceandIgoti
nthecar
.
Vi
nce:
Mami
areuokay
?
Me:
Yeah.
Vi
nce:
Noy
ou'
renotwhat
'swr
ong?
Me:
Idon'
tknowi
fIshoul
dtel
lyout
hisbutt
oday
..
.
▶It
oldhi
mthewhol
est
ory
.
Vi
nce:oohsoyou'
resadbecauseyourbestf
ri
endi
s
pr
egnantort
hatyouwasn'
tthefi
rstper
sonshetol
d?
Me:
Abi
tofbot
handbesi
desshei
syoungVi
nce.
Wehadpl anstoget
hershecan'
tbepr
egnantwhat
aboutschool
?
Vince:mami t
eensgetpregnantallt
het imeand
babiesar eablessi
ngfrom godandbesi desthisi
s
thepathGodchosef orKhomot so.Thewor ld
doesn'tendbecauseshei spregnant,Sheshould
havetoldy ouIagreebutmay beshedi dn'
twantto
disappointyou,youneedtootalktoherpr oper
lyt
his
ti
me.
Me:
Iguessy
ou'
rer
ight
.
Vince:soyoucr
ieddur
inganexam sur
elypeopl
e
thoughtyouhaddemons
▶Ilaughed,Vincealway sfi
ndsawayt omakeme
smilewheneverI'
m sad, hedroppedmeatmy
houseandhewentbackt owor k.Igoti
nsidethe
housewentupst ai
rsandi mmedi atel
ycli
mbedmy
bedandslept...Wokeupat9pm undr essedand
woremyPj swentdownst ai
rsfoundmydad
watchi
ng"Ourper fectwedding"Iwenttot he
ki
tchen,
madecof f
eet henIJoinedhim.
Dad:
Wher
e'smycof
fee?
Me: Dad!yousawmeboi li
ngwat erandtaki
ngouta
cuppouringall
theingr
edientsyetyouneversai
da
thi
ngaboutcoffeenowt hatIam sit
ti
ngdowny ou
wantcoffee.
Dad:
Yes,
gomakemecof
feeandpoural
otofmi
l
k.
▶Istoodupannoyed,l
ucklyther
ewassomehot
wat
erlef
tImadehiscoffeeandcamebacktothe
l
oungeIgavehi
m hiscoffee
Me:
Thegr
oom doesn'
thav
est
yle,
Hissui
tisugl
y
Dad:Iwantt
hesamesuitbutdi
ff
erentcolourf
ormy
wedding,
Mubiyoudon'
thavest
yle.Ufuzeubani
?
Me:
fory
ourweddi
ng?
Dad:
yesy
oudon'
twantmet
ogetmar
ri
ed?
Me:
Dadt
owho?
?
Dad:
mygi
rl
fr
iend.
Me:
Gir
lf
ri
end?
??Dadwai
t.
..What
???

Thishastobetheworstdayofmyl
i
fe,
mybest
fr
iendispr
egnantandmydadhasagirl
fr
iend.
..
Whati
nthehel
l
...CanIbewokenupf
rom t
hisdr
eam.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT13

Dad:I
'
mjustki
ddi
ng,
youal
mostdi
edt
her
efora
minut
e
Me:
daddon'
tj
okel
i
ket
hatl
ol
Dad:ButatsomestageIwi
l
lgetmar
ri
edagai
n,I
'
ma
per
sonthathasfeel
ings
Me:
DadIknow.
..I
twi
l
ljustbeawhol
enewwor
ldf
or
me.
..
Dad:
Iknowpumpki
n,Iwil
lfi
nduasuitabl
emot
her
fi
gur
ewhosegonnalov
ey ouli
keIdo.
Me:
okaydad.
..
Ihadal
ongdayl
etmegoandsl
eep
Dad:youwon'
tfi
ndmeher
einthemorni
ng.I'
m
Goingonabusi
nesst
ri
pIwil
lbebackTuesday.
Me:
okayl
ovey
ou.
▶ huggedhi
m andIwentt
osleep.Sat
urday
morni
ngIwaswokenbyVince'
sphonecall.
Me:
hey
Vi
nce:
Heysl
eepyhead.
..
goodmor
ningmi
ndcomi
ng
ov
er?
▶Icheckedt
ime.
Me:
Vincei
tsal
most6am y
ho.
Vi
nce:
opent
hegat
ethen
Me:
TheGat
e??
Vi
nce:
Yesbuzzmei
n..
.
Me:
arey
oumad?
?
▶Ilaughed..
.whi
lstont
hephonewi t
hhi m Ist
oodup
woremysl eeper
sandwenttothekitchenIbuzzed
hi
mi n,heknockedandIopenedthedoor ,
hehada
cupofcoffeewithhim.
Vi
nce:
Goodmor
ning
▶Hehandedmet
hecof
fee
Me:
Omgy
ou'
recr
azy
..
.Thanks
▶Itookasip,
andhegotinwewentt
othel
ounge
andsatdownl,It
urnedt
heTVon.
Me:
Howdi
dyouknowmydadwasn'
tar
ound?
Vince:
Whenwegotbackf r
om j
oggingMuzi andI
sawy ourdadput ti
nghisbi
gsuit
caseont hecarand
hedr i
veoff.
..Iknewhewasn'tcomingbackany t
ime
soonsoIr ant othehouseandmadet hi
scof f
eefast
thenIcameher e.
Me:
l
ool
Bbet
hanky
ou.
..Can'
tgetenoughofmene?
▶Iwi
nkedathi
m
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
takemycof
feeandl
eav
eShem.
Me:
Lool
nodon'
t.
..
Vi
nce:
when'
syourdadcomi
ngback?
Me:Tuesday,youshoul
dcomeandkeepme
companyI'm afr
aidofsl
eepi
ngal
onei
nthi
sbi
g
house.
Vi
nce:
thenwepl
ayumamanobabane.
.
Me:
what
'st
hat
?
Vi
nce:
LoolZamo,you'
venev
erpl
ayed
uManyobany
obana?
Me:
NoWhat
'sThat
?
Vi
nce:
Ama-
Tin?
Masket
o?Shi
bhoshi
?
Me:
Thef
uck?What
'
sthat
?
▶Hel
aughedsohar
d.
Me:
Mxm Iwi
l
lki
cky
ououtofmyhouseneVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
sor
rypri
ncessj
ustol
dgamesweusedtoplay
whenwewereyoungwhatdi
dyoupl
ay?Bar
biedol
ls?
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
Mxm.
.
Vince:
Anywayt
onighti
'
m goingt
oDurban,
tomorrowi
smymot her
'sbi
rt
hdaysoIcan'
tcomet
o
keepyoucompany
.
Me:
Oh,
babyI
'
llmi
ssy
ou
▶Il
eanedonhi
m.
Me:
whenar
eyoucomi
ngback?
Vince:
Tomor
rowni
ghtIdon'
tev
enwannagot
her
e,
comewi t
hme
Me:
comewi
thy
ou?
?..
No
▶Istoodupandwentt
ot heki
tchentowashhiscup,
hef
ollowedmeandhuggedmef rom behi
ndand
ki
ssedmycheekwhi
l
eIwasbusywashi
nghi
scup
hewhisper
edt
omyears.
Vi
nce:
Please.
.
▶Itki
ndofturnedmeon,hugsfr
om behindare
power
ful
,theyaremyweaknessandVinceknew.
Me:
Don'
tdot
hatl
ool
Vi
nce:
Dowhat
?
Me:myhairi
samessandIdon'
thav
epr
oper
cl
othesVi
nce.
Vince:
Areyouavoi
dinggoi
ngtoDurbanr
ightnow
becauseofwhathappenedthel
astti
meyouwere
Withmyf ami
ly
?
Me:
No.
Vi
nce:
Real
l
y?
Me:
Yesr
eal
l
y..
▶wewentbackt othelounget
alkedandtalkedand
tal
ked..
.ohandwekissedtooalot..
.Unti
litwas
eventual
lyt
imeforhimt ogohestoodupandwent
tothedoor.
Me:
don'
tfor
gett
hecupatt
het
abl
e
Vi
nce:
okay
.
▶Hetookthecupandwentout,Ist
oodupandwent
t
omyr oom t
ookmyFoneandIdecidedtoswal
low
mypr
ideandtextKhomot
sosinceshewasonli
ne.
Me:I'
m sorr
yaboutyest
erdaycany
oucomeoverso
wecant al
kI'
m homeAloneyoucanspendt
he
weekendhere.
▶Il eftmyphoneont hebedandwentt ot akea
shower ,f
inishedt henIcamebackcheckedmy
What sAppf orKhomot sosr esponseonl yt of i
ndt hat
shebl uetickedme.Ical l
edherandshedi dn't
respondguessshe' snotr eadyt otalktomeI
l
ot i
onedt ookoutmycl ot hesI twasabi twi ndysoI
wor emyGr eyAdi dastracksui tsandsleeper sa
notifi
cati
onf rom myphonecamet hrough, thi
nkingit
wasKhomot soIr ushedt opickitupandr eadt he
textitwasamessagef rom thebank, atransferof
R1500f rom V. S.Zuluam Iget t
inggirl
fri
end
all
owanceal readyIwentt oWhat sApptot exthim. .
therewasat extf r
om him al ready .
Vince:
Wi t
hthatmoneygof i
xy ourhairandbuyan
outfi
tfortomorr
ow,I'
m nottakingnof orananswer
.
Andoht hedresscodeisformal col
ourthemeisRed
Il
ov eyou.
▶What ?!!
?IWasoutofwor dstobehonestIdidn't
evenrespondIbl ueti
ckedhi mtoosi
nceIwasbl ue
Tickedearl
ierlol
,shouldIgo?Im sur
eIwon'tev en
enjoy,
buti
fitwi l
lmakeVi ncehappyl
etmej ustdoi t
.
Mydadi snotev enhomeandschool sareclosed.So
Itookadeci si
ont ogo.Vi
ncet ext
edmeagai n.
Vi
nce:
Whyar
eyoubl
uet
icki
ngme?
Me:
Ifai
ntedwhi
l
ereadi
ngy
ourt
extsor
ryj
ustgotup.
Vi
nce:
Loolwher
edidIgety
ourcr
azyasshe?
?..
.I
'
ll
pi
ckyouupat5pm
Me:
Okay
.
Vince:
soy
ouagr
ee?Yes!Seey
oul
atert
hen.
..
Ilov
e
you.
Me:
l
ool
lov
eut
oo.
▶ si
nceKhomot
soismadatmeI'
ll
call
Kamot o
comewit
hme.Ical
l
edhershedi
dn'
tanswer
,cal
led
heragai
nandshepi
ckedup.
Kamo:
heyu.
..
Me:
Wheredoesyourphonel
i
ve?Cany
oucomewi
th
metot
hemal l
Kamo:
babeI
'
m atChr
is'
sHouse.
.
Me:
Nat
hansf
ri
end?
Kamo:Yesss,
Iwil
ltel
lyoumor ewhenIgetthere.
..
(Tal
ki
ngtoChriswhil
stonthephonewi t
hme)babe
canyouaccompanymet omyf r
iendshouseshe
wantsmet ogowit
hhertot hemal l
..
..
Kamo:
Bbewecomi
nggi
veme5mi
ns.
Me:
Okayseeusoon*
Cal
lended*
▶Iquickl
ytookoutmysl eepersandIputonmy
conver
seshoes,atextcamet hroughf
rom Kamo
aft
er10mins
Kamo:
Comeout
.
Me:
okay
.
▶Iwentout.
.lockedal
lthedoor
sandwentt
othe
carIgoti
nsi
de..
Me:
HeyChr
is
Chr
is:
Hey
,howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m goodt
hanks,
soar
eyout
wodat
ing?
Kamo:
No
Chr
is:
Yes
▶Il
aughed
Chr
is:
Wear
ewor
kingoni
t.
Kamo:Yhuumnganiloml
unguuSer
iouskanj
ani
and
Minaangfuni
ukuj
olanay
e.
▶Il
aughed.
Chr
is:
whatdi
dshesay
?
▶Il
ookedatKamo
Kamo:Nedumtshel
eukut
hingi
thi
zeni
uzohl
i
kakul
e
Kar
iyethunoMl
unguwami.
Me:l
oluhmm ThatSheenj
oysyourcompanyshei
s
j
ustaf
rai
dthatyouwil
lbr
eakherheart
.
Chri
s:BabeIt
oldy
out
hatIwon'
tbr
eaky
ourhear
t,I
real
l
yl ov
eyou.
Kamo:Canwenottal
kaboutusnow,wewill
tal
k
whenIgetback,
youwil
lcomeandfetchusback
ri
ght
?
Chr
is:
Yeahsur
e,t
akecar
e.
Me:
seemal
lsoon.
Chr
is:
ByeGi
rl
s
▶Kamogav ehim aki
ssonacheekandsaid
goodbye,wegotoffandwentinsi
dethemall
wegot
i
nsidethesalonandIundi
dmyhai r,
andIgot
Freedom cur
lsasmynewhairstyl
e..
whi
leatt
he
salon.
.
Hai
rdr
esser
:how'
sPr
ince?
Me:
i
tsVi
nce.
.V.
I.
N.C.
EIt
ell
yout
hisev
eryt
ime
Hai
rdr
esser:Vi
ncePr
inceky
fanamaar
nsounj
ani
umphethekahl
e.
Kamo:
powercoupl
eIt
ell
you,
alway
stoget
her
.
Hai
rdr
esser
:HeeeandwenaKamo?
Me:yesandwenaKamo?Letmetel
lyouChar
li
ewe
cameherewi
thherwhi
teboyf
ri
end.
Hai
rdr
esser
:Uml
ungu?
?
▶Wel
aughedandcl
appedhands.
Kamo:
Yasswear
edat
ingabel
ungumanj
e.
Me:
youwer
erej
ect
inghi
m nj
e.
Kamo:
Mixedf
eel
i
ngshawuwhyung'
j
udger?
Me:
I'
m not
.
▶Myhai rdr
esserfinisheddoi ngmyhai r..Kamoand
Ialsodecidedtogeti denticalarti
fi
cialnails,they
wer eMaroonincol ourandwer ehighlightedi n
gold.wefini
sheddoi ngournai l
sandwentt oshop
forwhatIwi l
lweart omor row.Wewentt ol egitandI
boughtblackheel sandal soboughtabl ackchocker
andsomeear ri
ngsandwet henwentt oTheFI Xand
boughtal ongReddr essthathadasl i
t,Ial sobought
af l
oweredcropt op...gotoutoft hestor eandwe
wentt oKFCandboughtdunkedwi ngsand
mi l
kshakes,Kamocal l
edChr istocomeandf etchus,
wesatatabencht hatwasnearapar kingl otandwe
startedeati
ngourdunkedwi ngs.
Me:
Tel
lme.
.whatgoi
ngonKamo?Bet
weeny
ouand
Chr
isbecauseIdon'
tget
.
Kamo:okay
,rememberweki
ssedl
i
kecr
azyat
Nat
asha'
sparty
?
Me:
Yeah.
Kamo:
Itwasn'
tourf
ir
stt
ime.
Me:
What
!!
Kamo:Yes,
wef i
rstmetatahousepart
yofhisot
her
fr
iendJason,
theyplayedspi
nthebott
le.
.y
ouknow
moshousepar t
ies.
..Thebot
tl
epoint
edatmeand
Nathan.
.Isai
dIwon' tki
sshi
m.
Me:
Becausehei
sNat
asha'
sbr
other
?
Kamo:
Nobecausemubi
.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Okay
.
Kamo:SoIref
used,andtheytoldmetopickanyone.
SoIpickedChr
isnotknowinghewasNat hansBest
fr
iendandheagreedsoweki ssedt
hekisswasf i
re
gi
rl.
.mmmm.SowhenIgott oNatasha'
spar t
ywe
metagainanddidpart
2becausepart1wasf i
rebut
notenough
Me:
Wowl
ool
,hehasagi
rl
fr
iendr
ight
?
Kamo:
Had.
.
Me:Kamo!
!Butyoudon'
twanthi
m sowhydi
dyou
br
eakthem up?
Kamo: l
oolIdidntIj
usttol
dhimthathehadto
chooseandhechooseme, Bl
ackgi
rlsr
ockpheland
yhoogirl
uk'j
olanomlunguishardEngl
ish24/
7
aw'ngeke
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Buty
oudol
ovehi
mthough?
Kamo:
Ili
kehi
myes.
.hegi
vesgoodki
sses.
Me:
Sex?I
sitgoodorHav
en'
tdonei
tyet
?
Kamo:Toni
ghtwewi
l
l.
..Askmet
hisquest
ionagai
n
tomor
row.
Me:
Kamo!
!l
ool
Kamo:
what
?
▶Chr
isPul
l
edupandwet
hrewourempt
ybot
tl
esof
mil
kshakesanddunkedwingedboxesint
othebi
n,
goti
nsidethecarandwedroveoff
..
theyl
eftmeat
myhouse.
Kamo:
Takepi
ctur
esandenj
oyneboo.
Mee:
Lool
Iwi
l
lby
eguy
s
Chr
is:
Bye,
andt
akecar
e
Kamo:
Byebbel
ovey
ou.
▶Theydr ov eoffitwas15: 38nowsoIgoti nsi dethe
houseandwentupst air
s,Ist art
edpacki ngandI
fi
ttedmyr eddress..Damni thuggedmycur vesso
ri
ght, myasswaspoppi ngVi nceisgonnaf ai nt.I
undressedandpackedi t
,Ipackedal l t
hest ufft hatI
wouldneed.AndIt ookaqui ckshowerf i
nishedand
l
ot i
onedIl oosenedupmyf reedom cur l
yhai rthenI
start
eddr essingupIwor ethef l
ower edcropt opI
BoughtandIwor emybl ackski nnyjeans, and
gladiatorsandals.ThenIAppl i
edmakeup
foundat i
oney eli
ner,
mascar aandar edlipsti
ck.Took
af ullmirrorpicandsenti ttoVi nce.
Me:
(phot
o)I
'
mready
.
▶Ithent
ookmyl
uggageandwentdownst
air
sit
wasnow16:
57Vi
ncecal
ledme
Vi
nce:
I'
m out
side.
Me:
Comegetmybag.
▶Ibuzzedhiminhegavemeakisstookmybag
andwenttothecar
.wegoti
nsi
dethecarandwe
drov
eoff.
..
Vi
nce:
Mam'
Zul
ummmhmmhshi
t!
!
▶Ibl
ushed
Vince:
Ican'
tgetusedt
oyourbeaut
y,Iwonderhow
yourmom lookedyoul
ooksobeaut
if
ulIcan'
t.
Me:Vi
nce.
..St
opit
..
Thankyou.
.y
oucleaneduppret
ty
goodyour
self
,di
dyoucopymewi t
htheblackj
ean
Vi
nce:
No.
.l
ool
Me:
yesy
oudi
d.
Vi
nce:
YesIdi
d.
▶ wel aughed, weconti
nuedtodrive..
DurbanhereI
come...I
nal lhonest
yIkeptont hi
nkingabout
Vince'
ssisterandhisfatherIf
earthatman...Iwas
excit
edaboutseeinghi
smom thoughshe'
sgreat
personaf
teral
l..
.Ihopei
tal
lgoeswellwi
thnofight
s

#Zamonce
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT14

▶Ikeptonsleepi
ngandwaki
ngupduri
ngthedri
ve.
.
Vi
ncedidn'
teventakeabr
eakhedr
oveallt
heway
whenwewer enearhewokemeupbecauseIt
old
hi
mt o.
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e..
.
Me:
mmm?
▶Iwokeup
Me:
arewet
her
eyet
?
Vi
nce:
Wewi
l
lbet
her
ein10mi
ns
▶Wear ri
vedathishouse,thesecurit
yguardbuzzed
usinwegotof ft
hecarandwenti n,thei
rhelpert
ook
ourluggagetoVince'sr
oom whilewewentt othe
l
ivi
ngr oom.Wher ehismother,
brotherandLilsi
s
were.Myhear tstar
tedraci
ngsomebodyt akeme
backtoRosebankI '
m notreadyforthis.
Vi
nce:
Hel
l
ofami
l
y
▶Zi
nhl
est
oodupi
nexci
tementandhuggedVi
nce,
thatti
meI '
m hol
dingVince'
shandIhadtoletgoofit,
theyallst
art
edtostandupandhughi m..
.whil
eIjust
stoodtherehismotherandbrot
herhuggedmet oo
though.
Mr
sZul
u:Vi
ncey
oul
ookheal
thywhatdoy
oueat
?
Prince:
Ver
yheal
thyMma!Nomzamomustbet
he
reason.
MrsZul
u:y
oucansayt
hatagai
n..
.mf
anami
uya-
Gl
owerphel
▶Welaughed..
.Zinhlekeptongi
vingmet heugl
y
l
ookdidntev
ent r
yt ohaveaconversat
ionwithmeI
di
dn'
tcarebecauseIexpectedit
.
Prince:Nomzamohowl
onghav
eyouguy
sbeen
together?
Mr sZul
u:I
'
m sur
ethey
'vebeentogetherforyear
s,
theycomplet
eeachother
ssentencesandt hey'
ve
beenholdi
nghandssi
ncetheysatont hatsofa..
Pr
ince:
theyar
eev
enmat
chi
ngmom t
hecl
othes
Mr
sZul
u:heeIdi
dn'
tev
ennot
ice
▶Theyl
aughed
Vi
nce:
Nomzamocopi
edmebesi
khul
umaamaqi
niso
▶Hel
aughedt
oo.
Me:l
ooluhmm We'
vebeent
oget
herf
oral
most
3monthsnow
Zi
nhl
e:Al
readyy
ou'
vemett
hef
ami
l
ynge3
mont
hs?lool
Me:
Ther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hat
Zinhl
e:ify
ousayso,let'
stal
kabouti
mportantt
hings
mom, thephot
ographerhasn'
tconf
ir
medy et
becauseyoudidn'
tgivememoneyt opayhim.
▶Sot
hisgir
listel
l
ingmet hatmeandVi
ncear
en'
t
i
mpor
tant
..Okaynoted.
..
Mr
sZulu:wedon'
tneedhi
m Zi
nhl
e,wecant
akepi
cs
wi
thourphones.
Zi
nhl
e:Nomom weneedhi
my ouonl
ytur
n50once.
Weneedpi
ctur
es,
qual
it
ypi
ctur
es.
Vince:
Yesmom shei
sri
ghthowmuch?I
'
llpayt
he
photographer
Pr
ince:
Mymomsnextwor
dsar
e"Ni
moshai
mal
i"
y
ou'
l
lhearher
▶Pr
incewhi
sper
edt
omeacr
osst
hesof
a
Mr
sZul
u:Ni
moshai
mal
inj
eni
na.
.
▶MeandPr
incel
aughed.
Zi
nhl
e:I
tsR2000
▶Vincet
ookouthi
sphoneandtr
ansf
err
edt
he
amountt
oZinhl
eimmedi
atel
y.
Vi
nce:
ohi
'
mti
red.
.Mami
let
'sgo
Pr
ince:whyareutaki
ngNomzamoal
ongwit
hyou
whatifshewant
st osi
twi
thusAndt
alk.
Vi
nce:
lool
ndodangy
eket
uu
▶Vi nceandIst oodupsaidourgoodni ghtsandwe
wentupst air
stohisroom tosl eep,Vi
ncedidn'teven
bothertobat horundresswhileIwasundr essinghe
j
ustj umpedt othebedandsl eptstrai
ghtawayI
undressedandwor emyPJst henIgotintothe
blanketsleavi
nghim outofthebl anket
s.Sunday
mor ningIwokeupr eall
yearl
ywentt othebathroom
andbr ushedmyt eethandIcamebackt otheroom I
shookVi ncetowakeuphewokeup.
Vi
nce:
whyam Iout
sidet
hebl
anket
s??
▶Il
aughedathi
m
Me:
becauset
hat
'showy
ouchoset
osl
eep.
Vi
nce:
Wher
edi
dyousl
eep?
Me:
Insi
det
hebl
anket
s.
Vi
nce:soyoulef
tmeout
sidet
hebl
anket
s..
.y
ou'
re
ev
ilBbelool
▶Ilaughedathi
m,Hestoodupandstar
tedto
undr
essandhegotinsi
dethebl
anket
stosleepi
n
hi
sboxers.
Me:weshoul
dgetupandgetreadyf
ort
heday.
..
you
shoul
dhavedonet
hisy
est
erday
Vi
nce:
Iwantt
osl
eeppr
oper
lynow
Me:
Vincey
ou'
recr
azyy
az
▶Ipushedhi m outofthebed,
webot hfi
xedthebed
andwentt othebathr
oom tobath.
..
whenwegotinto
thebathr
oom Vincepouredhotwaterint
othebath
tubandabat hi
ngoilwhichhadasweetsmellaft
er
thatheheldhishandout.
Vi
nce:
Bbe
▶It ookhishandandIwalkedt
owardshim, het
hen
slowlyli
ft
edmynightdr
essabovemyheadandal so
tookoutmyunder wear
,whenIhadnothingonnaked.
hewal kedmet ot
hebathtubandIsteppedi
n.
Me:
mmm Icoul
dgetusedt
othi
s..
.
▶Isatdownt hewat erwaswarm andwelcoming,
andhet ookouthisboxer sandcli
mbedinbehind
me..
neverhav eIeversharedabat hwi
thVinceor
anyotherguythiswasmyf ir
stti
me..
.Alotoffi
rst
ti
meswer ehappeni nginDurban.ImeanIbrokemy
vi
rgi
nit
yher enowt his.
..
Het ookthebat hingoilandsquir
titi
ntoawashcl ot
h
hehadmel i
ebackt ohi
m andher anthewashcloth
usinghishandt hroughmyneckandmyar ms
washi ngthem gent l
yasIclosedmyey eshethen
slowlyranthem t omybr east
ssqueezingthem,my
nipplesweret enderImoanedhedoesn' tdothatfor
toolonghegl i
dedhi shandsdownmyst omach.
..at
thispointmyhear twasraci
ng,hi
sgrowingreact
ion
pressesagai nstmybacki tssuchat ur
nonthatI
coulddot hi
st ohim,tur
ninghim onwi t
houtkissing
j
usttouching.hestopsandsqui r
tsanotherbathing
oili
ntoawashcl ot
hheleansdownandwashesme
betweenmyl egsIholdmybr eat
handmoanher e
andt her
eIcoul dn'
ttakei
tnomor eItur
nedtof ace
hi
m, hiserectedpeniswasabov et hewaterl
ine.we
start
edkissing,wekissedforamomentandt henhe
stoppedtheki ss.
Vi
nce:
itsy
ourt
urnnow,
washme
▶Ismi ledathim andr
eachedf orthebodywash,
squir
tingsomesoapont omyhandIdoashe' s
done..
heseemst oenj
oyashi seyesareclosedI
l
eanedf orwar
dt ookhi
speni sandIkissedthetip.
Don'tknowwhatIwasdoi ngbutI '
veseensome
pornvideosIdi dwhatIsaw.Twi rl
edmyt oungue
aroundt heti
pagainHegr oanedasIsuckedhar der
hepulledmyheadagai nt
shi smanhoodandbegan
tomov e.
Vi
nce:
NomzamoI
'
m goi
ngt
ocomei
nyourmout
h,
st
op.
▶"
Icandot
his"Iwhi
spert
omy
sel
fasIpushhar
der
notstoppinghegroanedandhecame. .
myi nner
goddesswast hr
il
led.
.Icoul
dfeelthewarm salt
y
l
iqui
dgoi ngdownmyt hr
oatIswall
owedquickly.Isi
t
backasIwat chhi
m smi l
e..
hefrowns
Vi
nce:
youknow.
..
younev
erceaset
oamazeme.
▶Ismi l
edandpickedupatowelt
hatwasinthe
hangerandgotoutofthebat
htubandIgavehi
m
onetoo.
Vi
nce:
hav
eyouev
erdonet
hisbef
ore?
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
Yetanot
herf
ir
st
Me:
huh?
Vi
nce: i
t'
smyf i
rstti
mebathingwit
hagirl
endl
inKa
Bab'Zul
uanditsyourfi
rstt
imeblowjobbi
ngandyou
brokeyourv
irgi
nityher
e.
Me:
lool
onl
yift
hesewal
l
scoul
dtal
k.
Vi
nce:
theywoul
dhav
eal
ott
otel
labouty
ouandme
▶Wel aughedandwal
kedoutofthebat
hroom
pr
epar
edt ogodownst
air
sitwasharddr
essing
i
nf r
ontofeachot herbecausey oucoul
dtellt
hatwe
want edtohav esexbutwedi dn't
,Vi
nceworeawhi te
T-shirtandbluetornedjeanswithwhit
eAir-
force
whi l
eIwor eat or
nedjeanjumpsuitwit
hablackv est
andAdi dassuper st
arsneakersandIappl
iedsome
l
ipglossafterthatwewal keddownstai
rs.
..
Wemet
Princeinthecor r
idor
Pr
ince:
Heyguy
s,br
oIneedahugef
avor
Me:
Mor
ning.
Vi
nce:
What
'sup?
Prince:
Ineedy outogoandbuymeatatthemall
,it
wasmyr esponsi
bil
it
ybutIhavet
ogoandf et
chmy
kidsmyex- wif
erefusest
obringt
hem andIwant
them here.
Vi
nce:
Nopr
obl
em br
oIgoty
ou.
Pr
ince:
Iowey
ouone.
▶Wewentdownst airsAllhi
sfamilywasther
eand
somer el
ativ
esthatarri
vedearl
yforthepart
y.We
greet
edt hem,t
heygreetedback.
.andvi
nce
i
ntroducedmeashi sgirlf
ri
end,theywereso
welcominggivi
nguscompli
mentsthatwesuiteach
otherandweshouldn'
tbr
eakup.
.whatagreatwayto
startt
hisday.
..
aft
ert
hatwewenttothemalltobuy
themeat .
.whi
l
einthecar
:
Me:
didy
oubuyanypr
esentf
ory
ourmom?
Vi
nce:If
orgotaboutthat
,wewil
lpurchasei
tatt
he
mall
..
.Whatdoy oubuya50yearol
d?
Me:
jewel
l
erymay
be
Vince:
mymom hasal otofjewel
eri
esI'l
lbewast i
ng
money .May
beIshouldbuyheracar,butPrince
boughtheraV8lasty
earnobodycanbeatt hat.
..
Me:
aV8wow!
Vi
nce:
lool
yeah.
..
Me:wowwell
y oushouldpur
chaseasi
mpl
egi
ftl
i
ke
abeaut
yspavoucher.
..
Vince:Bbeyou'
rebri
l
li
ant
..I
'shoul
dtakehert
o
Krugernati
onal
parkther
earealotofthi
ngst
odo
thereandalsot
here'
sabeautyspa
Me:
that
'sal
soni
ce.
▶Wegotatt hemal lboughtthemeatandVi nce
decidedt obuyhermom aGucci bagwhi chhesai d
wewi l
lsayi tsfr
om me, loolIchosei tsoi twas
basicall
yfr om meandwewentback, peoplewer e
arri
vingwedi dn'
tevenhav espacet opar k.We
walkedt ot hehouseVi nceandPr i
ncehadt opr epare
andbr aaithemeatout sidewithotherguy ssoIwent
tothel i
vi
ngr oom si
nceIhadnot hi
ngt odo.there
weret wol adiessitt
inginthelivi
ngr oom wi thZinhle
Igreetedthem andt heygreetedbackt heycalled
Zinhleandt heotheronesoIwasn' tgoingt ober ude
andnotspeakt oZinhlesfri
endthatwasi nthelivi
ng
room wi t
hmesoIengagedaconv er sati
on.
Me:
Itsgoi
ngt
obeabi
ggr
eatpar
tyhey
..
Her
:Ireal
l
ythoughti
twasgoi
ngt
obeasmal
lfami
l
y
par
ty.
.
Me:
met
ooIdi
dn'
tknowi
twasgoi
ngt
obet
hisbi
g
Her
:Iguesszi
nhl
ewental
lout
..
itl
ooksni
cet
hough.
Me:
toomuch,
thedr
esscode,
decoandev
ery
thi
ng.
Her
:di
dyouseet
hecake?
Me:
No.
.
Her
:ohy ou'l
lfai
nt,
itissobreat
htaki
ngi
tisr
edand
gol
d..
.i
tstherebehindyou.
▶Ilookedbehi
ndmyback,t
hecakewashugeand
br
eathtaki
ngasshesai
d.
Me:
Wow,
ilov
ether
edandgol
dcol
or.
Her
:i
tsbeauti
ful
Iseeyouevensti
ckedtothetheme
col
orwithyourredandgol
dnail
stheyarebeauti
ful
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
thankshey
..
.
▶Ourconv
ersat
ionwasi
nter
rupt
edbyVi
ncewho
cal
l
edme..
Me:
ohsor
ryIhav
etogoni
cemeet
ingy
ou.
Her
:pl
easur
e,i
twasni
cemeet
ingy
out
oo.
▶Iwentt oVinceandwewentupst ai
rstochange
anddressfortheparty.
..
wegotint
ohisbedroom I
pi
ckedoutmydr essandplacedi
tonthebedtowear
i
t,pr
incewasAl soprepari
ngtowearhissui
t.
Vi
nce:
Iseey
ou'
veal
readymetNomal
anga
▶It
houghtIhear
dwr
ong.
Me:
huh?
?

▶TheLadyIjusttal
kedtoisNomalangaomg, what
i
sshedoi
ngher e?Ift
hat'
sher.
.orisitanother
Nomal
anga?Soshei snotj
ustZinhl
esf r
iend?What'
s
goi
ngon.
..

#NomamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT15

Vi
nce:
ThatwasNomal
angay
ouwer
etal
ki
ngt
o.
Me:
yourex?
?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
Me:
Owkayt hi
siswei
rd.
..
shewassof
ri
endl
yandal
l
t
hat
,doessheknowme?
Vi
nce:
Idon'
tthi
nkshedoes.
Me:Thisi
ssowei
rd,
wej
usthadagr
eat
conv
ersat
ion.
Vi
nce:Don'
twor
ryBbeshei
snotabadper
sonaf
ter
al
lri
ght?
Me:
Wel
lyeahIguess.
..
▶westar
tedundressi
ngandwewor
ecl
othest
hat
wer
efort
heparty
.
Vince:y
eah.
..
Andherbei
ngher
eshoul
dn'
twor
ry
you..
.
Me:
any
waywhathappenedbet
weeny
out
wo?
Vi
nce:
itj
ustdi
dn'
twor
kout
.
Me:
how?
Reason?
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e..
..
Me:okayi
fyou'
renotcomfort
abledon'
tanswer
ke.
..
helpmeputonthischoker
.
▶Iwenttohim andheputi
ton,If
eltdi
zzyf
ora
mi
nute,
Iquickl
ysatonthebedandIworemyheel
s.
Me:
Thanky
ou,
howl
ongdi
dyouguy
sdat
e?
Vince:
for4yearswestar
teddat
ingwhenwewere
bothdoingourfi
rsty
earandaft
ergr
aduat
ionwe
wentourseparateways.
Me:
ohokayt
hat
'ssad.
Vince:
li
fe.
..
butIgotmybabynow...Whom Iloveand
whomakesmehappyandwhof orcesmetot ake
self
ieswit
hher,andwil
ldef
ini
tel
ywantust otakea
self
ienow.
▶Ismi l
edandlaughedbecausehewasr ight
,we
fi
nishedandwet ookAlotofselfi
esafter
,welooked
socut eVincewaswearingablacktux,
whiteshi
rt
,r
ed
ti
eandar edfl
oweronthesidewithblackshoes,
andIwasi nmyhi ghsli
treddr ess,choker,
black
heelsandIputonar edlipsti
ckwel ookedheav enly
beautif
ul.Wewal keddownst airsholdinghandsand
wewentt othebacky ar
dwher eev eryonewas
walkingdownt hestepsVi ncehel dmyhandandt he
endofmydr esssoIcoul dwal kproper l
yIfeltli
kea
queenbecauseev er
yonewaswat chingthe
Zamoncemoment. ..
wewer est oppedbyt he
photographerwhot ookpi ct
ur esofusMuzi came
outofnowher eandhephot obombedoneofour
pi
cs.
Muzi
:Br
uhuzi
dli
l
etodayy
eses!
Vi
nce:
Shi
ppedi
nfr
om Engl
andsbal
i
Muzi
:Cot
toneat
er.
Vi
nce:
Ahuy
az,
whendi
dyougether
e?
Muzi:5minsago.
.l
etmegoandgreetot
her
s..
.ni
ce
seei
ngy ouNomzamolooki
nghel
l
al i
tasal
way s
Me:
Thanky
ouMuzi
▶Hel
eft
Vi
nce:
Ever
yonei
slooki
ngaty
oumami
I'
mjeal
ous
Me:
Vincest
opi
t.
▶Ibl
ushed
Vi
nce:
hahaha,
let
sgoandgetat
abl
e.
▶Wewal kedtowar dsthestret
chtentt
herewasa
l
adyther
ewhoi ndicatedeveryoneonwheretosit
.
MeandVincewer esepar at
edIwon'tsayIexpect
ed
i
t,Iwasr
eall
yhurtbecauseIknewt hatZi
nhledid
t
hisonpurpose.
..
Me:
Zinhl
ereal
l
yhat
esmehey
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m sur
etheymixedev
ery
oneupzamor
eyou
mi
ghtbeover
react
ing.
Me:
butIwantt
osi
tnextt
oyouv
ince.
Vi
nce:
comewi
thmet
hent
omyt
abl
e
Me:
Noi
tsf
ine.
▶Vincewentt osi
tonhist
able..whatshockedmei s
ThatVincewasi ndi
cat
edtogoandsi tnextto
Nomal angaIwaspissed,
hurtandIsatwi t
hsome
peopleIdon'tknow.Whatki
ndofbul l
shiti
st hat
?The
part
yst ar
tedVince'
smom lookedgorgeous
ever
ythingwasper f
ect
,t
heystarteddoi
ngt hose
boringspeechesIlookedoveratVince'
stabl
ehe
wasbusyt al
ki
ngtoNomal angasmi l
i
ngorshouldI
sayblushing?Welltheyl
ookedcozymymood
i
mmedi at
elychangedIreal
lywantedtocrybutIhel
d
backmyt ears.Iwasn'
thappynomor eandIthink
Vincenoticedbecausehetextedme.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:Noandit
spret
tycl
earhowmuchf
uny
ou'
re
hav
ingyoucan'
tst
opsmili
ng.
Vi
nce:
It
snothowi
tlookswear
ejustr
emi
nisci
ng.
Me:
OnwhatVi
ncey
ourpast
?St
uffy
ou.
▶Iclosedmydat a.
.andcont i
nuedt oli
stentot he
bori
ngspeech..
.Vi
ncepi ckedupt hechairhewas
seati
ngonandcamet ome. ..
andt heyopenedupa
spaceforhi
m onourt abletositnexttome. Ilooked
atthemanthatwast alkingonstageIdidn'tlookat
him.Hegrabbedmyhand
Vi
nce:
lookatme.
▶Il
ookedathi
m.
Vi
nce:
Don'
tdot
his,
wel
lnotnow.
Me:don'
tdot
his?Ishoul
dn'
tbej
eal
ous?I
sthatwhat
you'
ret
ell
i
ngme?
▶t
ear
sst
art
edr
oll
i
ngdown.
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.
▶Vincet
ookaserv
iet
tet
hatwer
eont
het
abl
eand
wi
pedmyt ear
s.
Me:
doy
oust
il
ll
oveher
?
Vince:
NomzamoNo!Canwegoout
sideandt
alk
aboutthi
s.
Me:
NoI
'
mfi
ne
▶peopl ear
oundt het
ablenoticedthatsomet hing
waswr ongtoav oidalotofthingsIlookedaway ,
Vince'
smom st oodupandt hankedev eryonefor
comingandZi nhleformakingt hi
sev entasuccess,
shethentoldusi twastimet oeatwewi l
lbeser v
ed.
Wewer ethenser vedIdidn'
teat,j
ustdr ankan
orangejui
ceVinceat ehisplateandmypl ate.
Vi
nce:
youdi
dn'teatbr
eakf
astnowy
ounoteat
ing
l
unchwhat
'sup?
Me:
Don'
tfeel
li
keeat
ing.
..
▶TheMCt hankedeveryonef
orcomingandt
he
ev
entcametoend..
.sti
l
latthetabl
e
Vi
nce:
canIgot
othet
oil
et?
Me:
Lool
mxm.
▶Vincest
oodupandwentt
othet
oil
et,
Ial
sost
ood
upandwentt
oVince'
smom..
.
Me:
Ma'
am y
oul
ook25
MrsZul
u:Thanky
oumybaby
,andt
hatGucci
bagI
l
oveit.
Me:
Aft
eral
ltheexpensiv
egif
tsyourecei
ved,
youst
il
l
r
ememberthatIboughtyouaGucci
bag.
MrsZul
u:y
ou'
remydaught
er-
in-
law,
you'
respeci
alt
o
me.
Me:
Ncooht
hanky
ouma
▶WehuggedandIexcusedmy selfbecause
ever
yonewantedapieceofher.
..
.Onmywayt othe
houseNomalangawhowasst andingaloneundera
tr
eecall
edme,Iwentuptoher.
Nomal
anga:
Soy
ouar
eDat
ingVi
nce?
Me:
yesI
am
Nomalanga:Thener
ve,y
ouspoket
omeear
li
erl
i
ke
youdi
dn'tknowme..
..
Me:Si
slook,Idi
dn'
tknowwhoyouwer
eunti
lVi
nce
t
oldme..andify
oucouldr
ememberwel
lyoudi
dn'
t
t
ellmeyourname.
Nomal anga:Well
I'
m heretofixt
hingswith
Vince..
youbett
erstepback,can'
tcompar ean8y
ear
s
rel
ationshi
ptoa3mont hsoldrel
ationshi
p.
Me:
4year
s..
.4!Youcan'
tev
encountpl
easeexcuse
me.
▶Iwal
kedaway
..
.
Nomal anga:4years?Isthatwhathet oldyou?Me
andVi ncestar
teddat i
ngwhi l
ewewer ein
highschoolingrade9wentt othesamev arsi
tyand
wegr aduatedtogether.
..Atourgraduationpart
yI
foundVi nceki
ssingagi rl
that'
showwebr okeup
andnowIwanthi m back.
▶Myhear
tsankdidshej
ustsaygr
ade9??SoVince
wasl
yi
ngtome..
.whatmor
eishelyi
ngabout
..
.
Me:
Hecheat
edony
ouwhywoul
dyouwanthi
m back
?
Nomalanga:Becausethat'
smysoul mate,hewas
drunkIunderst
andandhet ri
edgetti
ngmebackbutI
pushedhim away,i
tisnowt hatIr
eali
zethatweare
meanttobet oget
her.Idon'
twanttofightwit
hyou
j
uststayawayf r
om him becauseI
'm back.
▶Vincesawusandhewalkedtowardsus..Isaw
hi
m comingandIwal
kedt
ot hehouse,hecamet o
me.
Vi
nce:
What
'swr
ong?Whatdi
dshesayt
oyou?
Me:Vi
ncepleasel
eav
emeal
oneIdon'
twannat
alkt
o
youri
ghtnow.
▶Irushedupst ai
rsgotint
oVi nce'
sr oom cl
osedt he
doorandIsatont hebed...Thinki
ngabout
Nomal angaswords"youcan'tcompar ean8y ears
rel
ati
onshiptoa3mont hsoldr el
ationshi
p",
"Vinceis
mysoul mate"andVince'
ssmi lewhenhewaswi t
h
her.
..
andIstartedcr
yinguncont r
ollabl
y.Moment s
l
aterIstoodupandt ookoffthedr essIwaswear ing
andalltheaccessor
ies,Iwipedmymessymakeup
andIworemybl ackdressandajeanj
acket.
..I
star
tedpacki
ngitwasnow16:00pm Iwent
downstai
rstotheki
tchenandIf
oundVince'
sdad
comingin.
MrZul
u:HawuNt
shangase,
Ngi
thySeni
hambi
l
eni
no
Sbusi
so.
Me:
Cha
MrZul
u:Ewu,Mi
nangikhat
helengsay
ocambalala,
l
abantuabaf
uniukuhamba,umcimbiusuphel
i
le
phel
a
▶Isl
i
ppedoutal
augh
Me:
okay
.
▶Hewentupst ai
rs,It
ookabot t
leofwaterandwent
tol
ookforVince, If
oundhim attheli
vi
ngroom
Lyi
ngont hesofahewasst il
linhissui
t,
hisblazer
wasont heothersofaandabot t
leofChivasRegal
andaglassfil
ledwithitwasbesidehim onthet abl
e,
IwentUpt ohim andshookhimt owakeup.He
wokeup
Me:
weneedt
ogo.
▶Hewokeupt ookhisblazerandwentupstai
rs,
homeboydidn'
tsayat hi
ngt ome,justl
eftmether
e
andhewentupstair
s..
..Isatonthesofamoment s
l
aterhecamebackwi thourbags.
Vi
nce:
Let
'sgo.
▶Wewentout si
de,hi
smotherwaswit
hherother
fr
iendsinthefr
ontyar
ddr
inkingandt
alki
ng.
..We
saidourgoodbyes
Mr
sZul
u:Thanksf
orcomi
ngmybaby
▶Shehuggedme.
Me:
Pleasur
ema.
Mr
sZul
u:Ni
hambekahl
eSbusi
sodr
ivesaf
e.
Vi
nce:
yeah
Mr
sZul
u:wewi
l
lseeeachot
heragai
nri
ght
?
Me:
May
bema
▶Vi
ncel
ookedatmei
nconf
usi
on
Mr
sZul
u:May
be?Sbusi
soumenzeni
keuNomzamo?
Vi
nce:
EishmaIdon'
twannat
alkabouti
t.
▶Hewentt
ohi
scarandgoti
n,Iwasst
il
lst
andi
ng
wi
thhi
smom.
MrsZulu:What
'sgoi
ngon?Ar
eyouguy
sfi
ght
ingor
something?
Me:
yeah.
.
Mr
sZul
u:Why
?
Me:
Nomal
anga
MrsZulu:Nomalanga?AhyYoudon' thavetoworry
abouther.
.hi
m andVi ncear
egoodf ri
endssincethey
wereveryyoung..
sincepri
mary.
..Theydiddatebutit
di
dn'tworkout.
..Nowt heyarej
ustgoodf r
iends
Me:
sosheat
tendsev
eryf
ami
l
yev
ent
?
MrsZul
u:Notr
eal
l
y,i
twasact
ual
l
yVi
ncewhoi
nvi
ted
her
..
.
▶Theangeri nmegrew, theconfusi
onIj ustcoul
dn'
t
understandwhywoul
dv inceli
esomuchabout
Nomal angamykneesstar t
edgetti
ngweak
everyt
hingseemedbl
ur..
.Ipassedout .
..Iwokeupin
Vince'
sbed,Icoul
dn'
trecallwhathappenedIj ust
rememberopeningmyey esandseeingVi nce
hol
dingmyhandandZi
nhl
egivingVi
nce
water.
..
Vincegav
emet
heglassofwaterIdr
anki
t.
Vince:
Whathappened?Arey
ouokay
?Zamor
eIt
old
youtoeatbhekamanje.
Me:
I'
mfi
ne,
whathappened?
Vi
nce:
Youf
aint
ed
▶I'v
eneverfai
ntedi
nmyent
ir
eexi
stence.
.Ij
ust
coul
dn'
tbel
ieveIfai
nted
Vi
nce:
andy
ourdadcal
l
ed
▶Isatupst
rai
ght
Me:
and?
?
Vi
nce:
Rel
axIdi
dn'
tanswer
Me:
pleasecanwel
eav
e?Iwantt
ogohome.
Vi
nce:
yeahsur
e,Zamor
eI'
m sor
ry
Me:
Vincepl
ease.
..
▶Istoodup..
.Vi
nceal
sostoodupandwewentt o
thel
ivi
ngroom ,
wesaidourgoodbyes,
ever
yonewas
concer
nedaboutwhathappenedandstuf
fandmy
excusewasi thappenedbecauseIdi
dn'
teat
,we
didn'
tleaveri
ghtawaybecauseVince'
smom
i
nsistedthatIeat,
aftert
hatwelef
t.
..

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT16

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vedatRosebank, ISpental
most2
weekswi t
houttalki
ngt oVi nce,buthekeptoncall
i
ng
andcall
ing.
..
nor esponsef r
om me, Iwasreal
lyangry
Idon'tt
akedishonestylightly.
..
.It
sagoodnor mal
sunnySundayt oday.
..
mydadi shomeIwas
guarant
eedagoodday .
...IwokeupandIwentt o
takeabath..
.AfterbathingIdr essedup,woremy
blackti
ghtski
rt,whi
tetop, chokerandsleeper
sand
thenIwenttomydadsr oom Iknocked.
Dad:
Geti
n
Me:
Goodmor
ningDad
Dad:
Mor
ningPr
incess
▶Ifoundhim al
readyupandhewast
ucki
nghi
s
shi
rtandr
eadytol eav
ehi
sroom.
Me:
weshoul
dbaket
oday
..
.
Dad:
Iwast
hinki
ngweshoul
dgot
ochur
ch
Me:
Dadchur
ch?
Dad:
YesMubi.Goandputonpr
opershoeswear
e
goi
ngtochur
ch.
Me:Wowdad.
..
sincewhen?thi
sisjustodd,
nev
er
hav
eweeverbeent ochur
chsincewemov edHere.
Dad:
Iknow.
.Af
ri
endi
nvi
tedme.
Me:
aFr
iend?
femal
eormal
e?
▶Hel
aughed
Dad:
shoul
dIl
eav
eyoubehi
ndor?
Me:
nol
etmegoandchange
▶Iwentbacki ntomyroom, Iworeblackheels,
black
blazer,r
edlipsti
ckandIputonsomeey eli
nerandI
ti
edmyhai rint
oabunandIputonagol dnecklace..
.
AndIwentbackt omydad.Hewaswai t
ingformei n
thekitchenhewaswear ingaf ul
lsui
t,henormall
y
wear sgolfshir
tsbutafull
suithardl
y.
Me:
mmmhBab'
Ntshangase!
Dad:
Mubidon'
tstartwit
hyourshenani
gans,
I
've
madeyouacereal,
eat.
▶Iat
emycer
eal
,fi
nishedandwewentt
othe
gar
age.
..
west
art
edf
ight
ingaboutwhi
chcart
otake.
Me:
Dadit
sonlymeandy
ou.
.whywoul
dwear
ri
vei
n
aGr
andCher
okee?
Dad:
who'
sdr
ivi
ngbabygi
rl
?
Me:
you,
butt
heAudi
isbet
tert
hough
Dad:
youknowwhat
..
.
▶Hewal kedtowar dstheBMW M3andgoti nand
star
tedthecar.Ilaughedandf ol
lowedhim, wethen
droveoff.Wear r
ivedatthechurchitwasint ownwe
gotoffthecarandwewal kedin.
..Theser
vice
star
tedandended.Nowwear ewal ki
ngouthewal ks
towardsthisotherladyobvi
ouslyIfoll
owedhi mI
knownooneher e..
.theyhugandcheekkissed
Dad:
Gracemeetmydaught
erNomzamo
Gr
ace:
HiNomzamo,
Nicet
omeety
ou
▶Shewenti
nforahug,
wehuggedawkwar
dly
Me:
Hi
Gr
ace:
I'
vehear
dsomuchabouty
ou
▶Ihat
emeet
ingnewpeopl
eforr
eal
,al
lthe"
I'
ve
hear
dsomuchaboutu".
..
"ni
cet
omeety
ou"
Idon'
t
l
iket
hem any
way
Me:
Goodnewsonl
yIhope.
▶Igi
ggl
ed,
Atal
ll
ightski
nnedguycamet
owar
dsus.
.
Gr
ace:
Themba,
thi
sismysonJason(
Jay
).
Jason:
Hisi
r.
.
Dad:
Hel
l
oJason
▶Jasonandhismom ar
ecol
oredpeopl
e.(
just
put
ti
ngitoutt
her
e)
Dad:
I'
vehear
dal
otabouty
ou
▶Herewegoagai
ntheawkwar
dnessIsai
dthi
sin
myhead.
.
Jay
:hahaIwonderwhathav
eyouhear
dsi
r.
.
Gr
ace:
weshoul
dgetgoi
ng.
Dad:
yes
▶We? ?
Gowhere??AnywayIwasn'ti
naspaceto
askmydadquest
ionsaboutGraceandJay.
.we
drov
einmydadscarhim andGraceonthef
ront
whi l
emeandJaywer einthebackinawkward
silencewhil
emydadandgr aceweresmil
ingand
talkingi
nthef r
ont..
.It
ookoutmyphonei thadatext
from Khomot so..
wef i
xedourissueaweekagoso
wewer ebackongoodt er
msnow.
Khomo:
Youi
nchur
ch?
Me:
Lool
bit
chwhot
oldy
ou?
Khomo:
itsasmal
lwor
ld.
..
That
otol
dmehesawy
ou.
Me:loolyes..
wehavealott
otalkabout
,
Bab'Ntshangaseshowedmeflamestoday
.cal
lme
Grace'sStepdaught
er
Khomo:
what
??
Me:
BruhI
'
m st
il
lpr
ocessi
ng
Khomo:
lol
chatl
atert
hen,
letmegoandbat
h.
Me:
l
ovey
ou.
Khomo:
lov
eyoumor
e..
.
Me:
remov
eyourd.
pKhomot
sopl
ease.
▶I
tsmeandVi
nce
Khomo:
byeZamor
e..
.Youdon'
tev
enbuymedat
ato
tel
lmet
hat
..
.
Me:
wowy
ou'
resoannoy
ing
▶Wegott oGr aceshouse,itwasqui etanicehouse,
wegotof fandwentt othecar .
..Gotinthehousemy
dadandIsatonacouchwhi l
eGr aceandJaywere
fi
xingt
het ableforLunch.Ilookedatmydadwho
keptonlookingatotherthingsbutnotme.

Me:
Dad!
!
Dad:
huh?
Me:
so.
..
?
Dad:
So?
?
Me:
Ohgod.
..
▶Jaycal
ledustothedini
ngtabl
e..Isatnextt
ojay
andmydadtowardsGrace.
Jay
:Ar
eyouguy
sdat
ing?
Dad&Gr
ace:
No!
!
Me:
No?
Gr
ace:
Yeswear
ejustcol
l
eagues
Jay
:itl
ooksl
i
kemor
ethancol
l
eaguest
ome
Grace:
Yes,y
ou'reri
ght
..
.wear
ecol
l
eagues,
mor
ethan
t
hatwear efr
iends.
Me&Jay
:Fr
iends?
▶Welaughed.cont i
nuedt oeatandtal
kedi twas
j
ustagreataft
ernoon. .
thetalkswereef
f ort
lessand
f
untoengageinIl earnedamor eaboutj ayandhis
mom..
.vi
sav er
sa..
.aftereatingmeandj aywentt o
t
hekit
chentowasht hedi shes.
Jay:youknowwhatt
hismeansr
ight
,I'
myourbi
g
brot
her.
▶Il
aughed
Me:
theyar
ejustf
ri
endsy
ouhear
dthem
Jay
:andy
oubel
i
evet
hat
Me:
ofcour
senot
,guessI
'myourl
it
tl
esi
ster
t
hen.
.ni
cet
omeetyoubigbr
other
Jay
:ni
cet
omeety
out
ooLi
lsi
ster
▶Weshookhands. .
.andlaughedafter
.wefi
nished
washingt
hedishes,
wentbackt othedini
ngtablemy
dadandgracewerestil
ltal
ki
ng,thesmi l
esonthei
r
facesmydadwasr eal
lyhappy..
.at18:
56pm meand
dadwenthome...Wegothome.
Me:
gracei
sani
ceper
sonhey
,andIr
eal
l
yli
kej
ay
Dad:
youdo?
Me:
yeahIdo,
theyar
ecool
.
Dad:
real
l
y?.
..
that
'sni
ceGr
acei
sagr
eatf
ri
end
Me:
Dad.
.r
eal
l
yaf
ri
end?
Dad:
Eishmubi
,
I'
mti
redgoodni
ght
..Lov
eyou
▶Heki
ssedmeonmyf
orehead
Me:
l
ovey
oudad.
▶Hewentupst ai
rs,
Vincecall
ed..
.i'
vebeeni
gnor
ing
hi
mf orweeksaft
erthegreatdayIhadIdeci
dedto
answer.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
Hi
Vi
nce:
HappySunday
▶InsideIwaslaughi
nghowdoy oucal
lsomeone
who'sangryatyouandsayHappySundaywhat
's
speci
alaboutthi
ssunday.
Me:
ThanksVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
pleasedon'
thangup.
Me:
Iwon'
tunl
esswear
edonet
alki
ng?
Vince:
No...
uhmmm I'
vemissedy
ouZamor
eI'
m
goingcrazywit
houty
ou.
Me:
youdone?
Vi
nce:
CanIt
akey
ouout
?
Me:
I'
ll
see
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
Me:
hmmm
Vi
nce:
takecar
e..
.*
cal
lended*
▶Don'tknowi ft
hiswasinmyheadorwhatbutI
st
art
edgettingreal
lyhotoutoft
heblue,
Itookout
myblazerandpouredmy sel
faglassofwater
..
.t
henI
wentupst ai
rsGoti ntomyr oom, undr essedandI
wor emyl ar
ger edbatT- shirtandIsl epti nit.Monday
mor ni
ngwokeupandmydadwasn' thome, Iwent
downst airsmademysel fthehugestbr eakfast.
..
Eggs,palony ,
r ussian,
bacon, av ocado,lettuce,
t omato,
b
eans,and4sl icesofbr eadandImadea
smoot hie...
.thenIwentt ot hel oungeIst art
edeat i
ng
Iwascat chinguponBei ngMar yJane. ..Aft
er
fi
nishingupmyf oodmi nut esl atermyphonest art
ed
ri
nging, i
twasn' tinthelounge. .
.Istoodupandwent
togeti tfrom t hekitchen. .
.Iwasbl oat edAF,
Khomot sowast heonecal ling
Me:
heyy
ou.
Khomot
so:
Babe
Me:
Howar
eyou?
Khomotso:I'
m good,
That
ohasasoccergametoday
sohecan'tgowithmetothedoct
orcanyoucome
wit
hme?
Me:
YeeeyI
'dloveto.
..
Ican'
tev
enj
umpupanddown
i
nexci
tementI'
m sobloat
ed.
Khomot
so:
lool
From what?
Me:
Hugebr
eakf
ast
.
Khomot
so:
lool
,meetmeatt
hemal
li
n20mi
ns
Me:
Noubermoney
..
Khomot
so:
Vince?
Me:
AhyahyKhomot
so.
Khomot
so:
okayf
ineI
'
llsendumoney
.
Me:
Mcwaah.
▶Iwentt omyr oom shower ed,l
otionedandwor ea
tornedbumshor t
,apinkNiket ankt opandbl ack
Niker oshesneaker sIletmycur l
yfr eedom l
oose.
Appliedmascar aandal ipgloss..
.SMSnot i
fi
cati
on
camef rom capitecR50qui ckl
yor der edanuber .
..
it
cameaf ter5mi ns.
..Iwentinandwedr ovetot he
mal l
..
.wai t
edf orKhomot soandshear ri
vedherbelly
wasnowv i
sibl
eandshewasf at.
Me:
whatar
eyoueat
ing?
Khomot
so:
lool
bruh.
..I
'
m notev
en8mont
hsy
et.
Me:
youst
il
ll
ookcut
ethough
Khomot
so:
thanksf
ri
end
▶WewenttoKhomot
sodoct
orandwewai
tedt
obe
cal
l
ed.
.Whi
l
eatthewai
ti
ngar
ea
Khomot
so:
Mybabyi
ski
cki
ng.
..
wannat
ouchi
t?
Me:
yes.
..
▶It ouchedherbell
y.
..Thebabywasi
ndeedki
cki
ng.
..
Itwasani cefeel
ingtotouchandf
eel
thebaby
kicki
ngy etweir
d..
.
Me:
doesi
thur
t?
Khomot
so:
ofcour
senotl
ool
Zamor
e..
.
▶Thedoct orcalledusi n..
.Khomot sohadan
ult
rasoundt hebabywasheal t
hynocompl i
cati
ons
andsuchshewas7mont hspregnantgoingon8
nextweek.Af terthedoct orsappointmentwewent
toMcDonal d's..
.Didwenotor derev ery
thinglarge
chips,bur
gers,dri
nks,nuggets..
..
while
eatingKhomot so:didn'tyouhav eabi gbreakfastan
hourago?
Me:
Idi
dbutey
..
.Agi
rl
sgott
oeat
▶Wel
aughed.
..
Khomo:
howar
ethi
ngsbet
weeny
ouandVi
nce?
Me:Vi
ncereall
yhurtmeKhomo,from mypoi ntof
vi
ewhedidn'thavetol
i
e,andthefactthathewas
t
heonewhoi nvit
edNomalanga.
..Thathurtsmethe
most.
Khomot
so:
soy
ou'
recut
ti
nghi
m of
f?
Me:
NoIl
ovehi
m..
.
Khomot
so:
thent
alkt
ohi
m.
Me:
Iwi
l
l,heaskedmeoutwewi
l
ltal
kthen.
.
Khomotso:good,askanyt
hingandeveryt
hingyou
wantt
oknow. .
.andmakesur ehecutst
ieswith
Nomalangathosekindoffr
iendshi
psneverendwell
Me:
Iknowkhomo.
..
.Let
'st
alkaboutsomet
hingel
se
Khomot
so:
lool
okayZamor
e.
Me:
yeah
Khomot
so:
MeandThatowanttomakeyouour
baby
sGodmot
hersi
nceyou'
remybestf
ri
end
Me:
Real
l
y??
Khomot
so:
yes.
..
.
Icameoutofmychai
r.
..Ki
ssedandhuggedher
..
I
wasreal
l
yhappy.
..
Khomot
so:
Ilov
eyou
Me:
Lov
eyoumor
e..
Khomot
so:
Zamor
ear
eyoucr
ying?
?Me:
Yeah
Khomot
so:
youandt
ear
sAhy
khonal
ol.
..
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT17

▶Af tereati
ngatt hemal lKhomotsosboy fri
end
fet
chedus. ..Igothomemydadwasn' taroundsoI
wentupst ai
r sandsl eptstrai
ghtawayIwokeupt he
nextday ,
Iwokeupandwentt othebathroom t ooka
quickwar m showerbecausel atel
yafterbathingI'
ve
beenget ti
ngcr azyhotf l
ashes..
.aft
ertheshowerI
wentt obackt omyr oom loti
onedandwor ean
oversizedwhi t
eT- shir
tandaboy f
ri
endj eanand
yel
lowsocksnoshoesIt i
edmyhai ri
ntoabunandI
wor eNerdShades. .
.Wentdownst air
sandImadea
smal lcer
eal wentt otheloungeandwat chedTV. .
.A
What sAppt extfrom Vincecamet hrough
Vi
nce:Hey
,rememberwespokeaboutust
alki
ng,
I
wasthi
nki
ngifyoucoul
dcomeatmyhouse,6pm?
Me:
okay
.
Vi
nce:
soy
ou'
l
lcome?
Me:
Yeah
Vi
nce:
Thanks.
..
uhmm seey
oul
ater
.
▶Ididn'
ttextback.
..
Iwentt
othekitchen.
..Washed
myplateandwentbacktothelounge..
.2hour
slater
at11am Khomotsocall
ed.
Me:
HeyBest
ie.
Khomo:
I'
m att
hegat
e..
Buzzmei
n
Me:
Huh?
▶Iwenttotheki
tchenandbuzzedheri
n,andIopen
thedoorf
orher.
..
shegotinshewascarr
yingahuge
bag.
..
Me:
Uhmm y
ousl
eepi
ngov
er?
Khomo:
yeah
Me:
lol
what
!.
.why
??
Khomo:
why
??becauseImi
ssy
ou
▶Wewentupstai
rs.
..AndIst
art
edunpacki
ng
Khomot
sosst
uffi
ntoanempt ydr
awer.
..
whil
eati
t.
.
Me:
Becauseyoumissme??If
eell
ikeyou'r
elyi
ngto
me,si
nceugotpr
egnanty
ouneversleptover
..
.so
whytoday
?
Khomo:
honest
lymymom i
sjustbei
ng
unreasonabl
eshedoesn'
twannagetalongwi
th
thatosfamil
y.
.nowt
heirf
ight
ingonwhomustbein
theroom whenIdel
ivert
hebaby..
.
Me:
what
?
Khomo:Yeahshesay si
tseit
herherort
hat
os
mom...
theycan'
tstandeachotherandI
'
dchoose
That
osmot herany
day
Me:
andnoty
ourmom?
Khomo:
yeah.
..
Me:
khomo!
!That
'ssadwhywoul
dyoudot
hat
?
Khomo: thatwomansuppor
tedme, thr
ought hi
s
pregnancyZamo..
..
Mymom di dn'tandshewas
happymymom wasn' t.Mymom i sjustjeal
ousandI
can'tst
andhersowehadanar gumentaboutt hi
sI
don'twanttobestr
essedImightmi scarrysoIcame
here.
Me:
l
ool
okay
..
whydi
dn'
tyougot
othat
ospl
ace?
?
Khomot
so:
youdon'
twantmeher
e?
Me:
I'
mjustaski
nghawu.
..
Khomotso:
becauset
hatosmot
herwi
l
lal
sost
artt
his
conv
ersati
on.
..Andi
tannoy
sme
Me:
hmmm.
..
Khomo:
wher
e'sy
ourdad?
Me:
wor
k..
.
Khomo:
yourdadi
sal
way
sawayatwor
k..
Me:
Br uh,Idon'
tevenknowwher
ehewor
kshe
movesaroundal ot
,al
waysaway
..
Khomotso:
hecoul
dbegangst
erandy
ouwoul
dn'
t
know.
..
Me:l
oolyou'
recr
azy...Vinceaskedmetocomeat
hi
shousetodayso.
..LaterI'
m goi
ngther
e
Khomot
so:
I'
m comi
ngwi
thy
ou.
Me:
bit
chno!
▶Wewentdownstai
rsandIwentt
otheki
tchenand
madepopcor
nswedecidedt
owatchmovi
es...
Me:
theper
fumet
haty
ou'
veused,
whati
sit?
Khomo:
youknowweusepi
nkhappi
ness,
why
?
Me:
Ithr
ewmi
neawayi
tsmel
l
shor
ri
ble
Khomotso:
youmustbeondrugs.
.y
oulovei
tand
rememberyou'
ret
heonewhogotmeintoit
Me:thingschangel
ool
itsmel
l
sli
kebl
eachorsome
cl
eaningchemical
Khomot
so:
nahy
ou'
recr
azy
▶Khomot sof el
lasl
eepwhil
ewewer est
il
lwatchi
ng
Iwentupst air
stookasmallblanketandIputi
tov er
herwhent hemov i
eendedIwentbackupstair
sand
l
eftherthereitwasnow17: 15Iwentt ot
he
wardrobeandpi ckedout2outfi
tsandIplacedthem
onthebedt odecidewhi
choneIwasgoi ngtowear .
..
Khomot
so:
chooset
hisone
▶Shepoint
edoutawhi
teski
nnyjean,shor
tbl
ack
boot
s,r
edT-
Shi
rtandabl
ackl
eatherjacket
.
Me:Khomo!y
ouscar
edmet
houghty
ouwer
est
il
l
sl
eepi
ng.
..
Khomot
so:Iwokeupbecausehe/
shest
art
ed
ki
cki
ng.
..
Me:
i
tsashe.
..
andshei
shungr
y
Khomo:
manI
'
m hungr
ytool
etmegoandmake
food
▶Shewentdownst air
stomakeher sel
ffoodwhil
eI
changedclothes.
..Iworet
heoutfi
tthatKhomotso
picked.
..
.Putonar edli
pst
ickandIwentdownstair
s
i
twasnow18: 05
Khomot
so:
Mmmhy
oul
ookf
eist
y
Me:
Iknowr
ight
,thanks
Khomot
so:
enj
oyboo
Me:
wil
ldo.
▶Iwalkedoutofthedoor
..
andIwalkedtoVince'
s
house.
.gotatt
hedoorandIknockedMuziopened
asalways.
.
Muzi
:Hey
,He'
sinhi
sroom.
..
Me:
Hi,
Okay
.
▶Hewasl eav
ingal
ready.
..
soIgoti
nandhegot
out
..
.Iweupst
air
stoVince'
sroom..
Iknocked.
..
Vi
nce:
Ebabay
ini
kant
y??
Me:
It
sNomzamo
▶Heopenedhi
sdoorhal
f.
..
Vi
nce:
babe.
..It
houghty
ouwer
eMuzi
..
.wher
e'sMuzi
?
Me:
hej
ustl
eft
..
.
Vi
nce:
uhmm gi
vemeami
nut
e.
▶Hecl osedthedoorandopenedi
tagai
n..
.hecame
outclosedhisdooragai
nandheusedaclotht
o
covermyey es.
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Vi
nce:
Come.
.
▶Hewalkedbehi
ndme..
openedhi
sdooragai
nand
wewal
kedint
ohisroom.
.Ihear
dhi
m cl
osethedoor
..
.
Vi
nce:
standt
her
e..
.don'
tremov
eity
et
▶Hemov edawayfr
om meandthenextthingI
hear
dDrakes"
ify
ou'
rer
eadi
ngthi
sitstoolate"
al
bum pl
ayi
ng
Vi
nce:
Remov
eit
▶Iremovedthecl
oth.
..
Theroom wasdark,small
candl
esweresur
roundi
ngVince'
sroom l
ighti
ngup
thepl
ace,
whiter
osesonthefloor
..
.ont
hebedt her
e
wasabouquetofr edr oses,
awoodentrayt
hathad
snacksonitand2gl assesofchampagne.
..
.Vi
nce
tookthatbouquetandcameupt omeandhe
kneel
eddown. .
.
Vince:Mami IknowIwaswr ong, andI'm deeply
deeplysorr
y..
.IfIcoul
ddothingsdi f
ferentl
ytrustme
Iwould..
.Il
ov eyouZamore..
.Ilovey ousomuch. .
.I
don'tknowwhatIwoul dbewithouty ou..
Idon'twant
toloseyou..I'
m sorry
..
.Pl
easef orgi
v eme?
▶hegavemet herosesandi t
ookthem,I'
m sucha
cry
babyI
'm sur
ey'al
lknowthatbynow..
.Itri
edso
hardt
oholdbackmyt earsandnotcry.
.WhatIsaw
andwhatVi
ncejustsaidwasjustover
whelming..
.
Me:
thanks.
..AndIdof
orgi
vey
ou.
▶Vincegotupandheldmyshoul
der
swi t
hbot
hhi
s
handsandhelookedatme,
int
omyey es.
Vi
nce:
Iwi
l
lnev
erev
erhur
tyou.
..
Ilov
eyouokay
?
Me:
okay
.
▶Webabyki
ssed.
Vi
nce:
canIt
akeofy
ourshoessoy
oucansi
tont
he
bedt
henwecant
alk?
Me:
l
ool
okay
..
.t
hisi
ssoni
cet
hanky
oubaby
.
Vi
nce:
i
tsal
lfory
ouBbe,
sitont
hebed.
▶IsatonthebedVincekneel
eddownandhetook
outmyshoes..
.wet
hensatonthebedandwe
star
tedeat
ingt
hesnacksandsippi
ngont
he
champagne.
Me:
Enoughwi
tht
hesnacks.
..
Wher
e'sf
ood?
▶Hesmi
l
ed
Vince:
howI'vemissedyoucomplai
ning.
.Ther
e'sno
foodIgenui
nelywantedustotal
kandsolvethi
s..
..
it
s
notadateorsomet hi
ngbi
g..
.
▶SoVincewentthroughal
lthi
sjustf
orust
otal
k
t
hingst
hrough.
..Myheartmelt
ed.
Me:VinceIl
oveyousomuch, y
ou'r
etheonlymanI '
ve
openedupto,you'
remyfi
rsti
nmanyar eas.
..What
youdidreal
l
ytoremeapartanditmademer eal
i
ze
howmuchIl oveyou.
..
whydidyouli
etome?
Vince:
I'
m sor
ryIl
iedIknowIwaswrong,
letme
explai
nI'
m nott
ryingt
ojust
if
ymyacti
onsor
any t
hing.
..YouseeI'v
eknownNomal angaf oraver
y
l
ongt ime, andIknowhowshecanget .Met ell
i
ng
youaboutuswasawayofpr otecti
ngy ou..
.myex
gir
lfri
endswoul ddumpmeorwewoul df i
ghtalot
afterknowi ngt
hatmeandNomal angagr ewup
together.
..Theytendtofeell
i
kethey'r
ei na
compet it
ionwithhersincewearestil
lfri
ends
Me:
sti
ll
fri
ends.
..
?Why
?Idon'
twantt
hatVi
nce!
t
hat
'sbull
shi
t.
..
Vince:
mami calm downwetal
ki
ngnow..
.don'
t
shout.
.Icanstopbeingf
ri
endswi
thheri
fthatwi
l
l
makey ouhappy.
Me:
wil
lyou?
Vi
nce:pl
easebel
i
evemewhenIsayIl
ovey
ou.
..Yes
Iwi
ll
.
Me:pleasedo,becauseinhermindyouguysare
soul
mat esandshewantsy ouback.
..
shedoesn'
t
vi
ewthisasaf ri
endshi
p..
Vi
nce:
yourwi
shi
smycommandpr
incess.
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
mxm.
Vi
nce:howI'vemissedthatsmi
le.
.Nomzamo
Ntshangasepleasedon'
tbeangryatmeeveragai
n
i
tshellyho.
..
Me:
l
ool
you'
rel
yi
ng.
..
Vince:askMuzi
,hewi
l
ltel
lu.
..Di
dyouseemycar
outsi
de?
Me:
no
Vi
nce:t
hat'
sbecauseIgotsodr
unkandIcr
ashed
mycarall
becauseofyou.
..
Me:youcrashedt
heni
ghtwheny
oul
eftmeav
oice
not
ecryi
ng??
Vi
nce:
Iwasn'
tcr
ying
Me:
youwer
e
▶Il
aughedathi
m.
Vi
nce:
l
olmxm.
..
youhungr
y?
Me: l
ooly
ou'
rechangi
ngt
hesubj
ect
,sor
rykeabout
yourcar
..
.
Vi
nce:
Nomzamouy
aphaphay
az.
.y
ouhungr
yornah?
Me:
I'
m hungr
ybutI'
ll
eatatmycr
ibKhomoi
sar
ound
may
beshewi l
lcook.
▶Vi
ncegotupandgr
abbedhi
sjacketandawal
l
et.
..
Vi
nce:
gety
ourcr
azyassupandl
et'
sgogr
abameal
.
▶Igotupandwewentdownst air
s, Vincel ockedthe
door.whilehi
scarwasi nservi
cet heygav ehim Audi
SRT ..
.wewentt oRomanspi zzaweor dered2
medium pizzas.
..Somethi
ngmeat yf orVinceand
Hawaiianpizzaforme..
.Istar
tedeat i
ngmypi zzaon
ourwaybackbef or
eweev enar r
iveitwashal fway
done.Whi l
edriv
ingtoVince'
shousehegotacal l
fr
om wor khewasneededi mmedi atelysohe
droppedmeatmyhouse.Deepi nsideIwassadI
j
ustwant edtobewi thmymant hewhol enight..
.I
di
dn'tevengetdicked.
Vi
nce:
sor
ryaboutt
his,
seey
ousoon?
Me:
youbet
ter
..
.
Vi
nce:
Comegiv
emeaki ss,t
aket
hispi
zzaandgi
ve
i
ttoKhomot
sotel
lhernott
ocook.
▶Igav
eVinceakissandhedr
oveof
ftowor
k..
.I
t
ext
edKhomotso
Me:
Buzzmei
n.
▶Shebuzzedmei
n,andsheopenedt
hedoorf
or
me.
Khomo:
mmmm i
sthatf
orme?
?
Me:
lool
yeahVi
ncesai
dIshoul
dgi
vei
ttoy
ou.
▶Wepour edorangejui
ceandwentt
othelounget
o
eatourpi
zzas,Itookof
fmyleat
herj
acketasIwas
abouttosi
tdown.
Khomot
so:
Nomzamo!
!
Me:
whyy
ouscr
eami
ng?
Khomot
so:
what
'supwi
thy
ourt
ummy
??
Me:
not
hing,
Igetr
eal
l
ybl
oat
edal
ott
heseday
s..
.
Khomot
so:
li
fty
ourshi
rtup.
Me:
why
..
Khomot
so:
justdoi
t
▶Il
i
ftedmyshi
rtup.
..
Khomot
so:
ohmygoshbi
tchy
ou'
repr
egnant
.
▶Il
aughed
Me:mxm st
opit
..
.passmether
emot
eIwantt
osee
what
'spl
ayi
ngonChannel0
Khomot
so:
Whenl
astdi
dyouseey
ourper
iod?
Me:
Per
iod?
?Uhmmm.
..
▶Ist art
edpanicking.
..
peri
od??.
..
Ihaven'
tseenthat
i
nal ongt i
me,Itookmyphoneandwentt omy
calendartheci
rcleddatetogetmyperiodwasthe
12thofJuneandi twasnowthe29thofJune..
.Ijaw
droppedinshockandf rozesametime.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT17 (
East
erSpeci
alEdi
ti
on)

Khomot
so:
Ist
hedat
est
il
lcomi
ngor
??
Me:
Itsay
sthe12t
h..
.
Khomotso:
soy
ou'
re15day
slat
e??Seemsl
i
ke
you'
re.
..
Me:
Idon'
twannaheari
t
▶Ipi ckedupmyphoneandwentupst air
st omy
room whenIgott her
eIclosedt hedoor.
..
Isatont he
bedIt houghtaboutalotofthings,
mydad, school
,my
mom I 'm sur
eshei sdi
sappointedwhereev ersheis,
whati fVinceleav
esme?Ist artedcry
ingKhomot so
walkedi nandsatbesidemeandhuggedme.
Khomotso:you'
renotpregnantunti
lyougeta
posi
ti
vepregnancytest
,don'tst
ress.
Me:Khomot
sowhati
fIam pr
egnant
??Mydadwi
l
l
ki
l
lmeIcan't
▶Iconti
nuedt
ocryuncont
rol
l
abl
yevent
uall
yI
st
oppedandIt
ookoffmybootsandsl
ept.
..
Tuesday
morni
ngKhomotsowokemeupwi t
hacupofcof f
ee
andasandwi
ch.
Me:
Thanks.
..
Khomot
so:
pleasur
e..
.af
tereati
ngy
oushoul
dgoand
bat
hwehavetogothechemi st
.
Me:
okay
..
.
▶Khomot sowal
kedout
,myeyeswer
eswol l
enf
rom
cr
ying,
ItookmyphoneandIt
ext
edVince.
Me:
Imi
ghtbepr
egnant
▶Onet
ickIdeci
dedt
ocal
lhi
m.
Me:
Vince?
?
Vi
nce:Zamor
e??
BbeIcan'
theary
ou,
cany
oucal
l
l
ater
.
Me:
Ithi
nkI
'
m pr
egnant
Vi
nce:
Ireal
l
ycan'
theary
ou,
What
??
▶Iendedt hecall
itwasreal
lynosywherehewas...
I
didn'
teveneatmyf oodIwentstr
aightt
oshower..
.
Afterusi
ngtheshowerIwentbackt omyroom and
foundKhomot sother
e..
.
Khomot
so:
youdi
dn'
teaty
ourf
ood.
Me:
I'
m nothungr
y
Khomotso:okayI
'
m eati
ngitt
hen.
.pl
easesmi
l
e..
.It
hur
tsseeingyoul
iket
his.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
Khomot
so:
I'
veal
readyor
der
edanuber
,it
'sout
side.
▶Il
otionedt
henworemyblackNi
ket
racksui
tsand
myNikecapandsl
eeper
s.
Me:
l
et'
sgo.
Khomot
so:
letmegr
abmybag.
▶Khomot
sotookherbagandwewentdownst
air
s,
mydadwal
kedin.
.
Dad:
Wher
ear
eyout
hreegoi
ng?
Khomot
so:
HahaBabaZamor
e..
▶Theyl
aughed
Dad:
Howar
eyouKhom'
Khom?
Khomo:
Ngy
aphi
l
aba.
.
Dad:
good,
Niy
aphyekseni
so?
Khomo:
Uhmmm eMal
l
.
Dad:
Mubi
,uRy
t?
Me:
YeahI
'
mfi
nedad.
..
▶Iwal kedoutofthedoorl
eavi
ngthem i
nthe
kit
chen,Myphonev i
brat
edwhenIwasonmywayt
o
theubercaritwasatextVi
ncetext
edme.
Vi
nce:
Thi
nk?Whywoul
dyout
hinkt
hat
?
Me:
Imi
ssedmyper
iod.
Vi
nce:
may
bei
tsst
il
lcomi
ng.
.
Me:
I'
m 15day
slat
eVi
nce.
▶Igoti
nsi
det
hecar
Vince:
15??
?Shoul
dIbuyapr
egnancyt
estaf
terwor
k
toconfi
rmthi
ngs??
▶Khomoent
eredandt
hecarst
art
ed
Me:
No,
Ihav
etogochatl
ater
.
▶Ididn'
twai
tforhi
mt orespondIcl
osedmy
dat
a,andwedroveoff
..
.Gotatthemallwewentout
oft
hecarandgotinsi
dethechemist
.
Khomo: canigetabl
ueclearpr
egnacyt
estandone
ofyourcheapestonepl
ease.
Cashi
er:
Thatwi
l
lbeR129,
99ar
etheyy
our
s?
▶Il
aughed.
Khomot
so:
lool
try
ingt
obef
unnyhuh?
▶Khomot sopai
dandt
henthecashiergaveherthe
pregnancytest
sandwewentbacktot hecar
..
it
droveusbackhomewegothome, mydadwasi n
thelounge
Dad:
thatwasf
ast
Me:
Yeaht
hest
orewewant
edt
ogot
owascl
osed
Dad:
Owkay
..
.
▶Wewentst r
aighttomyr oom,gotinsi
deandwe
satonthebedKhomot sotookoutthepregnancy
test
sandplacedt hem onthebed.Andsheopened
thebluecl
earone, andtookouti
tsstick
Khomo:goandpeeonthi
sstickcont
ainerandput
thi
sendinsi
det
hecont
ainerandcomeback.
Me:
butIdon'
thav
eanypee.
Khomot
so:
bit
cht
hengoanddr
inkwat
er.
Me:
okay
..
.
▶Irandownst ai
rs,
tookagl assandpour
edtap
waterandIdrankit
,fi
nishedthewholegl
assandI
wentupstai
rstomyr oom.
Khomo:
sti
l
lnot
hing?
Me:
yeah.
.
Khomot
so:
okay
..
.Run
Me:
Run?
?
Khomotso:
okayj
umpupanddownf
or10secI
'
ll
count
.
▶Ij umpedupanddownandKhomot socount ed,
afterthatIj
ustwant edtopee,Iwentt othetoiletand
Iurinatedonthecont ai
nerandputt hewhi testick
i
nsi dethecontainerandtheli
ttl
escr eensaid" wait
"I
pour edtheremainingpeeonthet oi
letandwent
backt oKhomo.Il ookedattheli
tt
lescr eenithadan
hourgl asst
urningupanddown.Iqui cklygavet he
pregnancytesttoKhomot soandIl ookedaway .
Me:
Whatdoesi
tsay
??
Khomot
so:
wai
t.
.i
tsst
il
lreadi
ng.
▶Whyisittaki
ngsomucht i
me,att
hismomentI
coul
dhearmyheartbeat
ing.
.i
twasbeat
ingsof
ast
andIwasshaki
ng.
Me:
Khomot
so!
!
Khomot
so:
okay
!!I
tsdone.
.l
ook.
Me:
whatdoesi
tsay
??
Khomot
so:
justl
ookati
t.
..
Me:
Not
ell
me.
..
Khomot
so:
Zamor
etuu.
.
▶Khomot sost
oodupandgr abbedme...
andt ur
ned
metolookather,
Ilookedati
t..
.t
heli
tt
lescreen
di
dn'
thaveanhourglassanymore"3+pregnant"
waswrit
tenonit
.
Me:
Noi
tswr
ong.
..
Khomot
so:
Zamor
ethi
sthi
ngi
s99.
9%accur
ate.
Me:wel
lKhomotsoI'
m notpregnant
,no!
wher
e'st
he
ot
heronelet
'st
rythatone.
Khomot
so:
okay
.
▶Shegav emet heot hercheapt estandIwentt o
thetoiletanddi dthesamet hingagai n.
..Thist i
meI
didn'tgot oKhomot sot ochecki tf orme. .
.Iwaited
foritbymy sel
fWhi lewai t
ing, t
hef i
rstredline
appear ed...Iclosedmyey eshopi ngt hatwhenI
opent hem I '
l
lseeonl yoner edline. .
.Iopenedt hem. .
.
Therewas2r edl i
nes...
indicati
ngt hatI'm pregnant.
..
Iopenedt hebat hroom doorandwal kedout ..
.Itook
alookatt hepr egnancyt estthatwasont hebed, t
he
oneonmyhandandi tcli
ckedt omet heyal lsai
dthe
samet hing.Iwaspr egnant !!Idr oppedt heonet hat
wasonmyhandont hef l
oorandIst artedcry i
ng..
..
Khomot socameupt omeandhuggedme.
Khomot
so:
It'
l
lbef
ine
▶Tear
swerestr
eami
ngdownmyf
ace,
Khomot
so
wi
pedmytear
s
Khomot
so:
ever
ythi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obeokay
.
Me:
No,
Khomot
sot
hingsar
enotgoi
ngt
obeokay
..
.
Khomot
so:
Shhhh.
..
Igoty
ou.
▶Nex tt
hingt
hedooropenedsof
ast
,Iwasin
Khomotsosar
msresti
ngmyheardonherchest
cr
ying.
..
Thando:
Sur
rpr
ii
ii
seee!
!!
!
▶MeandKhomot
soqui
ckl
ybr
okeourhug.
..
Thando:
Hawuenden?
?What
'swr
ongZamor
e,why
youcryi
ng?
?
▶Sheputherbagsdown, That
'swhenshesawt he
pr
egnancytestIdr
oppedatthefl
oor,shepickedi
t
upandlookedatmeandKhomot so.
Iquickl
ystood
upandwentt oher
.
Me:
pleasedon'
ttel
ldad,
please!
!Don'
ttel
lany
one
Thando:
Nomzamo!Dad'
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lyou.
Me:
ThandoI
'
m beggi
ngy
oupl
easedon'
ttel
ldad.
Thando:
okay
!Letmesi
tdown.
..
▶Shesatdown,
andl
ookedatme.
Thando:
Ican'
tbel
i
evet
his.
..
Me:Iswearitwasami
stake,
Idon'
tev
enknowwhat
happened.
Khomot
so:
bit
chy
ouhadsex.
..
Me:
Bit
chIknow.
▶Weal llaughed.
..Wethenj
ustsatt
hereinsil
ence
formi nutesThandoandKhomot sostar
tedtal
king,
I
didn'tevenhearwhattheyweret
alki
ngaboutmy
mi ndwasn' tt
hereIdeci
dedt
ostandupandcal l
Vince.
Vi
nce:
Mami
,I
'v
ebeent
ext
ingy
ou.
..Ar
eyouokay
.
Me:
Wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
I'
m atwor
k..
..
Me:
okay
,cal
lmewheny
ou'
reher
e.
Vi
nce:
okay
,Il
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..
*Cal
lended*
Khomot
so:
wast
hatVi
nce?
Me:
Yeah
Thando:
Thef
atheroft
hebaby
?
▶ForamomentIwasconf
usedbutt
heni
thi
tme
agai
n,Iwaspr
egnant
.
Khomotso:
yeah,
ift
hisi
sn'tGodsdoi
ngs,
heeIdon'
t
know.Wearebot
hpregnant.
Me:
that
'sf
uckenwei
rd
▶Istar
tedcl
eaningoutthepr
egnancytest
s
equi
pments,al
lthepaper
sandboxes.Iputthem
backonthepaperbag.
Thando:
whenar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
ldad?
Me:
Thandonotnowpl
ease.
Khomot
so:
canwegodownst
air
sI'
m hungr
y
Me:
Met
oo.
▶Wewentdownst air
sandwecookedMacar oniand
madeami ncest ewandpouredAppl ej
uiceonour
glassesandwewentt othel
i
vingroom.Weat eour
foodandf i
nishedi t
.Khomotsogotacallfrom Thato
hewasonhi swayt ofet
chher.That
ocalledand
saidhewasout sideAsshewasaboutt oleave..
Khomotso:Takecar
e,anddon'tst
ressaboutt
his,
I
'm her
eforyouandI'
llshowyoutheropes.
Me:
lol
i'
ll
keept
hati
nmi
ndThanky
oubest
ie.
.
▶Wehuggedandshel ef
t,
ThandoandIstoodup
andwentt
otheki
tchentowashthedishes.
Thando:
youknowIt
houghtwewouldbedr
inki
ng
whit
ewinei
nyourr
oom ri
ghtnow.
Me:
NjdNomor
ewhi
tewi
nef
orme?
Wow.
..
▶Thandol
aughed
Thando:
seemsl
i
kei
t.
.
Me:
lool
that
'ssad
Thando:
Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
ldad?
?
Me:
ThandoIdon'
tknowwhyy
oupushi
ngt
hisi
ssue.
Thando:
hedeser
ver
stoknow
Me:Vi
ncedoesn'
tev
enknowy
etandyouwantmet
o
t
ell
dad,heisgoi
ngtoki
l
lmeyouknowthat
.
Thando:
ify
oucan'
ttel
lhi
mthenIwi
l
l.
Me:
what
??
Thando:
Yes,
Iwi
l
l
Me:Thandopl
ease,
I'
m beggi
ngy
ou.
.don'
ttel
l
dad,
okayIwi
ll
..
Thando:
when?
Me:whydoesitmattert
oy ou?
?ohIseeyouwantt
o
bedadsfavor
itehencethi
swillmakehi
mtobe
di
sappoi
nted.
Thando:
that
'showy
ouwantt
oseei
t?Fi
ne.
..
when?
Me:
Damnt
hando.
..
whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
?
▶Shesnappedandlef
tthedi
shesandwent
upst
air
s,Ir
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Vince.
Vi
nce:
I'
m out
side.
Me:
okay
..
.*
Cal
lended*
▶Ial soleftthedishesandwentupst ai
rs,Thedoor
onThandosr oom wascl osed,Iwentt omyr oom I
tookoutt hetestsonmydr awer ,
theclearbluetest
thel i
ttl
escr eenwasbl anksoIt ookthecheapt est
sincet her edli
neswer estil
lthereIputitonmy
j
er seypocket ,Iwentdownst airsandIopenedt he
gat e.Vincescarwaspar kednearhishouseIwal ked
toi t,
Iopenedt hedoorandIgoti n..
.
Me:
Hi
Vi
nce:
Hi,
arey
ouokay
??
▶Het
ookmyr
ighthandandki
ssedi
t.
Vince:hav
ey oubeencr
ying?
?yourey
esar
e
red..
.what
'swrong??
▶ Ijusti
nser
tedmyl efthandint
omypocketand
tookoutthepregnancytestandIgaveitt
ohim.He
tookit
..
sawthe2r edli
nesandhel etgoofmyhand
andhesatupst rai
ghtandtookagoodl ookatt
he
test
.
Vi
nce:
wow.
..
▶Ididn'
tknowwhatwasgoingthr
oughhismind,
howhewasf eel
i
ng,whathewasgoingtosay,i
she
goi
ngtoleavemeaft
erthi
s..
.Ij
ustcoul
dn'
treadhi
m

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT18

Me:
wow?
?
Vi
nce:
Ist
hisf
orr
eal
?Ory
akaKhomot
so
Me:
Lool
you'
rej
oki
ngr
ight
▶Wel
aughed
Vince:
Wewil
lneverknow,j
ustki
ddi
ngBbebuti
sthi
s
foreal
?What
'st
hedat et
oday
Me:It
snotApri
lfool,
whyar
eyouj
oki
ngaboutt
his
I
'm sost
ressedout.
Vince:DamnbabyI
'
mjustt
oohappy
,Iact
ual
l
ycan'
t
beli
eveit.
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Vince:
What'
sgoi
ngt obehis/
hername?Noi
tsahe,
andhisnameisVinceJr.
Me:l
,youknowIt
houghty
ou'
dbesadorangr
ythen
l
eav
eme.
Vi
nce:
Idi
dn'
texpectt
hist
ohappensosoon,
butt
o
l
eav
eyouhunnyno.
..
Me:
I'
m sor
ryIdon'
tknowwhyIt
houghtoft
hat
.
Vi
nce:
Youdon'
tseem happyt
houghar
eyouokay
?
Me:
YeahI
'
mfi
ne.
Vi
nce:
whenar
ewegoi
ngt
othedoct
or,
tomor
rowne?
Me:
Vincey
hosl
owdown.
Vi
nce:
Sor
ryI
'
mjustov
erwhel
med,
letmecal
lmy
mom.
Me:
Vince!
!
▶Vi ncewassoexci ted,l
ookedli
keheplanneditbut
Iknewhedi dn'tbecausehewasj ustassur
pri
sed.we
tal
kedaboutt hebabyallthetwohoursthatwewer e
together
,itf
inall
ycli
ckedtomet hatIhadtogo
home.
Me:
Ihav
etogobabakhe.
Vi
nce:
whatwast
hel
astpar
t?
Me:
Babakhe
Vi
nce:
Icoul
dgetusedt
othat,
thanky
ouGodf
ort
his
gi
ft
.
▶Hesmi
l
edbr
ief
lywhi
l
esay
ingt
hat
.
Me:
Goodni
ght
,Il
ovey
ou.
Vi
nce:
Lov
eyoumor
emami
,sot
omor
rowr
ight
?
Me:
ain'
tyougoi
ngt
owor
k??
Vi
nce:
mysoni
simpor
tant
Me:
wedon'
tev
enknowt
hegendery
et!
!!
▶Iscr
eamed,
hel
aughed
Me:
tomor
rowmor
ningi
tis.
Vi
nce:
Comeher
e
▶Hepull
edmet
owar
dshi
m,andweki
ssedf
orgood
5+mi
ns
Vi
nce:you'
repr
essi
ngthewrongbut
tonsnow,
we
wi
llendupmakingbabynumber2
▶Isl
appedhi
m andt
henIpushedhi
m away
.
Me:
l
ool
you'
reaf
ool
,seey
out
omor
row
Vi
nce:
l
ovey
ou
▶Isteppedoutoft hecarandIwenthome,got
i
nsi
det heyardandIwentinsidet
hehouse,opened
t
hekitchendoorlockeditt
henIalsol
ockedthegate,
myphoner angitwasSes'Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:
Ijusthadapr
ophecyabouty
ou,
arey
ou
okay
.
Me:
YeahI
'
mfi
ne,
whatwasi
tabout
??
Ses'Thoko:Ican'ti
nter
preti
t,y
ouwer einalotof
pai
n, cryi
nghavingahar dti
met obr
eath..
.ar
eyou
surey ou'
refi
ne?
Me:yesSes'
ThokoI'
mf i
ne,
don'
twor
ry.
..AndI
'
llt
ake
goodcareofmy sel
f.
Ses'
Thoko:
okaybabyIl
ovey
ouokay
,tel
lyourdad
aboutt
hepregnancy
.
▶Myj
awdr
opped
Me:St
opreadi
ngmeSes'
Thoko,It
oldyouIwasf
ine
andI'
l
ltel
lmydadwhenI
'
mr eady.
.goodni
ght
Ses'
Thoko:
Sor
ryy
ourener
gyi
sjustt
oohi
gh,
Idi
dn'
t
meanto
Me:
okay
..
.goodni
ght
Ses'
Thoko:
Goodni
ght
.*Cal
lended*
▶Thandocameintotheki
tchenaft
erIdr
oppedt
he
cal
l
,sheopenedherarmsouttohugme
Thando:
I'
m sor
ryaboutear
li
er.
Me:
It
sfi
ne.
Thando:
Pleasedon'
tcr
y..
.
▶Shepushedmeback.
Thando:
becozIknowyou'
requart
ert
o▶we
l
aughed,dadal
socametothekit
chenal
ldr
essedup
Dad:
howdoIl
ook?
?
Thando!
char
ming!
Me:
goi
ngt
oseeGr
ace?
Thando:
who'
sGr
ace?
?
Dad:
Yamubi
whoi
sGr
ace?
?BecauseI
'
m goi
ngt
o
work
Me:
Wor
k??
▶Il
aughed
Thando:
Peopl
ewhoi
sGr
ace!
!?
??
Me:
Gracei
sdadsGi
rl
fr
iend
Thando:
l
ool
real
l
y
Dad:
yesGr
acei
sDadsgirlf
ri
endbecauseshei
sa
womansoi
tsagi
rlandsheisafr
iend
Me:
wowdad,
wow
▶Iwalkedaway ,mydadi sacti
ngli
kea13y earol
d
nowitscryst
alcleart
hathim andGracearedat
ing
l
iketf.
..
.Gotint
omyr oom andIwentt oshoweraf
ter
showeri
ngIgotintomyPJsandIwentandknocked
onThandosdoor .
Thando:
ngena!
!
▶Iwenti
nsi
de
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Thando:
I'
m st
il
lbat
hing.
Me:
Okayy
ou'
l
lfi
ndmedownst
air
s.
Thando:
okay
▶Iwenttothekitchendownstai
rsandpi
ckedout
Pr
inglest
osnackon, It
unedintoMzansi
magicand
watchedaser
ies.Thandothencamedownstai
rsshe
undidmyhai rthenwewat chedamov i
etogether
aft
erwards.Mydadcamebackat22h00andj oined
uswewat chedanot hermov i
eaft
erthemov i
eweal l
huggedgoodni ghtandwentupst ai
rsintoourrooms.
WhatSes'Thokosai ddist
urbedmysoulIjust
coul
dn'tstopt hinkingandcr yi
ngabouti
tam Igoing
tomiscarr
y ?
? Ordi e??WhatdoesshemeanIcan' t
l
osemybabyormyl if
e...
Ideci
dedtocal
lher
Me:
Ican'
tsl
eepSes'
Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:
what
'swr
ongnow?
?Ar
eyouokay
??
Me:whaty
out
oldmeear
li
er.
..Am Igoi
ngt
olosemy
baby?
?
Ses'
Thoko:nobabyy ouwon'
t,
Ijustdon'tknowwhat
i
tmeant,ifyouweregoingt
omi scar
ryitwould'
ve
beenaclearprophecy.
▶Iwasr
eli
eved.
..
Me:okay
..
.am Igoi
ngt
odi
e??What
'sgoi
ngt
o
happent
ome.
Ses'
Thoko:
RememberwhenIt
oldy
out
obecar
eful
??
Me:
Yeah
Ses'
Thoko:
nothi
nghappenedtoyouit
sbeen
monthsnow.Evennowmay beIam wr
ong.
Me:
yeahmay
be.
Ses'
Thoko:
sodon'
twor
ry.
..Goodni
ght
Me:
Goodni
ght
..
.*
Cal
lended*
▶Idozedof fandwokeupt henextmor ning,wentto
thebathroom bat hedandIloti
oned, Iwor eblack
boots,ablackj eanandawhi t
eT- shirt,alonggol d
necklacemyhai rwasunti
dyandhadanunpl easant
smellandIdi dn'
twashmyhai raf t
ert handoundi d
myhai rsoIwor eablackbeanie.
..
.Iputonmy
favor
iteli
pstick,aredli
psti
ck.Idon'tknowi fit
s
becauseI '
m ay ell
owbonebutIj ustlov ehowr ed
suit
smeany way ..
.Befor
eIwentdownst air
sVi nce
call
ed.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
HeyPapi
Vince:
Ihopeyou'
redone.
.I
'
vebeenupsi
nce7am I
can'twai
tcanwegonow? ?
▶Mi
ndy
oui
ts9am
Me:
Thedoct
orsar
est
il
lcl
osedMrZul
u.
Vi
nce:
Real
l
ylool
okay
..
.I
'
llcal
laf
teranhour
Me:
l
ool
okay
..
.*
Cal
lended*
▶Iwentdownst
air
sthandoandmydadwer
en'
t
t
her
e..
.Ical
l
edmydad.
Me:
Dad
Dad:
Mubi
Me:
Wher
ear
eyou?
Dad:
Wor
k..
Ilef
tanot
eI'
vemadebr
eakf
astf
ory
ou
two
Me:
OhIseet
henot
e
▶I
twasnearourpl
ates
Me:
..
..
andthebr
eakf
astt
hanksdad.
..sowher
e's
t
hando??
Dad:
Didy
oucheckherr
oom?
Me:
No
Dad:mubi
I'
m wor
kingy
azuy
athandaukudl
ala,
he
endedt
hecal
l
▶Hedidn'tev
ensaybyelool
,It
ookmyplate,
wentt
o
thel
oungeandat
emybr eakf
ast,t
handocame
downst
air
smoment sl
ateri
nherPJs..
.
Thando:
Mmmhi
tsmel
l
sni
cewhatar
eweeat
ing?
?
Me:
yourpl
ate'
sther
e.
▶Shet
ooki
tandcamet
othel
ounge.
Thando:
andwhatar
eyoudr
essedup?
?It
snotev
en
noonyet
.
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
oseeaDoct
orwi
thVi
nce.
Thando:
Ifor
gott
haty
ou'
repr
egnant
.
Me:
mxm l
ol
▶Welaughed,
Ifi
nishedmypl
ateandt
henIpl
acedi
t
ont
hesink.
Me:
seey
a
Thando:
Bye
▶Ibuzzedmy sel
fout
..
.andIwalkedt
oVince'
s
house,
IknockedMuziopenedthedoorasalway
s.
Me:
hey
..
.
Muzi
:
heymamaKast
il
lcomi
ng,
comei
n.
▶Iwal
kedi
n
Me:
soy
ouknow?
Muzi
:thatI
'
m goi
ngt
ohav
eanephew?ofcour
se.
Me:
i
tsnotaboy
.
Muzi
:
Int
ombazane?
Me:
Wedon'
tknowl
ool
..
.wher
e'sVi
nce?
?
Muzi
:He'
sst
il
lcomi
ng,
li
ket
hebaby
Me:
Muzi
whatt
hef
uck
▶Ilaughed..
.Vincewalkeddownt hest
airs,homeboy
waswear i
ngt hesamecol or
sasmeBl ackandwhi te.
Whit
ejordansneaker s,
blackjeanandwhi t
epolo
gol
fshir
tandagol dchainandagoldwristwatch.
Vi
nce:
pleasegoandchange
Me:
Vincepl
easegoandchange
Vince:
NoZamo. .
.Ngvukengo7andI
'
vebeenlikethi
s
since7am andIknowyouwakeupat8am basical
ly
you'r
eacopycat
Me:
sti
l
lIwon'
tgoandchangel
ool
.
▶Hecameupt ome,
huggedmeandhegav
emea
f
oreheadki
ss
Vi
nce:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
thankspapi
.
Vi
nce:
l
et'
sgo.
..
Muzi
:Ni
buy
eni
negender
.
Me:
negenderhow?
Vi
nce:
Youmeant
hebaby
sgenger
?
Muzi
:
ya
Vi
nce:
Ooohl
ool
.
▶Wewal kedoutsidegoti ntoVince'
scar ,wetook
carpicsbef orewel eft
,Ipost edoneoft hepicson
Facebookwi t
hacapt ion"Si ncewear eexpect i
ngI
wonderi fhe/shewi ll
takemygenesorVi nce's
genes,y esI'
m pregnant "It aggedVince.since
Vinceishappyandnonoft hepeoplethatI'm cl
osed
toar ejudgingme, Ididn'tcarewhatotherpeopl e
willsay
.Vi nceandIwer ehappy .Wethendr oveoff,
wewentt oVince'
sdoctori
napr i
vat
ehospital
,we
arri
ved,parkedthecarandwewenti nsi
dethe
premises.Vincefi
lledi
nall
thenecessaryf
ormsand
paid.Wet henwaitedtobecal
led,af
ter15minsa
gynaecologistcal
ledusinherroom.
▶Wewenti
n.
Gy
naecol
ogi
st:
goodmor
ning
Vi
nce&I
:Mor
ning
Gynecol
ogist:I
'm MrsDubewho'saMedi
calDoct
or
andalsoagy necol
ogistwho'
sgoingt
oassi
styou
today
,pleasetakeasit.
▶Thewer
etwochai
rsopposi
teherbi
gchai
rwesat
t
her
e.
Dr
Dube:
howcanIhel
pyout
oday
.
Vi
nce:
Wear
eexpect
ing,
so.
..
MrsDube:
Ohcongrat
ulat
ions,
soy
ou'
reher
efora
scanandcheckup??
Vi
nce:
basi
cal
l
yyeah
Mr
sDube:
MrsZul
u,pl
easet
aket
hiscup,
goandpee
i
nitandcomeback.
▶Shesai dMr sZul
ulol Vi
nceandIlookedand
smil
edateachot herShehandedmet hecupIdidas
Iwastol
dandcameback.Mr sDubetookt hecup
andtest
edmyur i
neforpregnancyi
tcameback
posi
ti
ve,IlookedatVinceandheletoutasmal l
smil
e.
MrsDube:
okay.
..Uhmmm cany oupl
easeent
ert
hat
r
oom,takeoutyourt
-shi
rtandweart
his.
▶Shegav emet hosebluehospi
taldr
esses,
Iwent
i
nsideandwor ei
t,shecameinalongwithVi
nceand
shestar
tedpouri
ngsomebl uegelinasmallthi
ng,
shethenplacedi
tinmyt ummyanddi dascan..
.
MrsDube:
thebabyisgr
owi
ngaccor
dingl
yandy
ou'
re
7weekspregnant
.
Vi
nce:
i
sitt
oosoont
oknowt
hegenderoft
hebaby
??
MrsDube:
Toosoon,wewil
lbeabl
etot
ell
youthe
baby'
sgenderwhenshei
s17weekspr
egnant
Vi
nce:
Wow,
okay
..
Mr
sDube:
Pregnancyi
sapr
ocess,
woul
dyoul
i
keme
t
opr
intouty
ourscans?
?
Me:
Yespl
ease.
▶Shepri
ntedt
hem outandputt
hem onanenvel
ope
andwi
sheduswel
l.
.wewentoutwegotinthecar
..
.
Me:
opent
heenv
elope,
Iwantt
oseet
hebaby
.
▶Vi nceopenedandv i
ewedt hem.webothlookedat
eachot herandlaughed,welaughedbecausewe
werelookingataci r
clethatwasababy .
..
itj
ustdidn'
t
makesense, wethoughtwewer egoingtoseea
face,
feet,
handsy ouknowanor malsmal
lbaby.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT19

▶Aftert
hatVi
ncetookt
hosescan'
sputt
hem back
i
ntheenvel
opeandwedroveoff
.
Vi
nce:
ain'
tyouhungr
y?
Me:
NahIat
ebef
oreIcamet
oyou.
Vi
nce:
wel l
okaythatmeansyou'
regoingt
owatch
meeatthen,
becauseI
'm dr
ivi
ngt
owi mpynow.
Me:
l
ool
what
?
▶Wegott her
e,gotof ft
hecarandwewalkedinside
satonat abl
eawai tercametousVinceorder
edan
Engli
shbreakfastandIhadaVannilamil
kshake,our
ordercameandVi ncestart
edeati
ng
Me:
CanIhav
ethatbacon?
▶AsIwentinVincesl
appedmyhandbef
orei
tev
en
gott
othebacon
Me:
Ouch.
..
Vince:
"Iat
ebef
oreIcamet
oyou"what
'sy
ourhand
doingi
nsi
demyplat
e?
Me:
Ijustwantat
ast
e,andt
hatsl
aphur
ts
Vince:
lool
Zamor
eyou'
rel
yi
ngIdi
dn'
thi
tyout
hat
hard.
Me:
ithur
tsl
ook
▶Ishowedhi m myhandi
twastur
ningredal
ready,
i
tdi
dn'thurtIj
usthav
easensi
ti
veskinandI'
m
l
i
ghtskinned.
Vi
nce:
sor
ryMami
▶Hegrabbedmyhandkissedi
tandhegavemea
pi
eceofbacon,
butweendedupshar
inghi
splat
e.
Vi
nce:
fir
stt
fi
ne
seei
ngy
ouwear
ingabeani
ewhat
'sundert
hat
?
Me:
not
hing.
.
▶Vinceleanedf
orwar
dandhequi
ckl
ytookof
fmy
beani
e.
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e!!
▶Helaughedhy
ster
ical
l
y,Iputmyhandsont
opon
myhead
Me:
Vince,
pleasebr
ingmyhat
▶AsIstanduphet
hrewi
tov
ert
ome,
Itooki
tand
wor
eit
.
Me:
you'
reaf
ool
.
Vi
nce:
Ididn'tknowtherewasaf
orestt
her
e,y
ou'
re
embar
rassingmey errr
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:andIhaveagameonf
ri
day
,Ihav
etogot
othe
sal
onsoon.
Vi
nce:
let
'sgo
Me:Idon'
thav
emoney
..
andIwon'
tal
l
owy
out
odo
myhairl
ol
Vi
nce:
whynot
?
Me:becausemydadwi
l
laskquest
ionst
hatIcan'
t
answer
..
.
Vi
nce:
Eishj
ahne.
▶Itookoutmyphonesinceithasbeenvibr
ati
ngli
ke
cr
azyinmypocket,
Itookitouttocheckwhat'
sup.
ThepostIpost
edbleweveryonewasmost l
y
shocked,
other
sweresayi
ngcongr
atul
ati
onsand
missedcall
sfr
om myfri
ends.
Me:
younott
heonl
yonewhoseexci
ted
Vi
nce:
hahahal
etmesee
▶Af t
erchi
ll
ingandchat
ti
ngf orawhil
ewestoodup
andleft
.onourwayhomeVi nce'
sphonerangandas
usualheansweredi
tonloudspeaker
.Itwasa
pri
vatenumber
Vi
nce:
Pri
vat
e?
Cal
l
er:
Hel
l
osbusi
so
Vi
nce:
Ahyahy
..
.Whatdoy
ouwantnow?
▶Mel
ooki
ngsur
pri
sedi
nmymi
ndI
'
mli
kewhoi
sit
.
Cal
l
er:
issher
eal
l
ypr
egnant
??
Vince:
Nomal
angaIdon'
thav
eyourt
ime.
*cal
l
ended*
▶Vi nceendedthecallandthemusicconti
nuedt o
pl
ayIdi dn'
twanttotalkaboutt
heNomal angaissue
butmyhear tj
ustcouldn'
t.3minut
esafterthecallI
brokethesil
ence.
Me:
arey
out
wost
il
ltal
ki
ng?
Vince:Nomzamonotnow,
Ist
oppedt
alki
ngt
oher
becauseyoutol
dmeto.
Me:
thenwhyisshecal
l
ing?
?Howdi
dsheknowI
waspregnant
??
Vi
nce:Idon'
tknow, shepr
obablysawyourpost
.
Howthehellam Isupposetoknow??
Me:sawthepost
??y
oust
il
lhav
eherony
our
Facebook?
Vi
nce:
probabl
yIdon'
tknow
Me:
wel
lbl
ockher
.
Vi
nce:
Iwi
l
l.
.
▶Ididn'
tsayany
t hi
ngaf
tert
hat.Wefi
nal
lyar
ri
vedi
n
ourbl
ock.Heparkedhi
scarnearhi
shouse.
Vince:
Let'snotf
ightov
ersomeoneIdon'
tcar
e
aboutplease?
Me:
wear
etal
ki
ngbuty
ou'
ret
urni
ngt
hisi
ntoaf
ight
.
Vi
nce:l
ook.
..
Idon'
tknowwhyshecall
ed,she
pr
obabl
ywantedtoknowify
ou'
repregnantornot
.
Me:
sheaskedt
henwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
hery
es?
Vince:
becauseit
snonofherbusinessbbe,
andyou
tol
dmenott otal
ktoherany
mor ehenceshecal
l
ed
ngeprivat
e.
Me:
okayIguess
Vince:that
'showiti
s..
.It
snotherbusi
ness...I
'
v e
tol
dmymom aboutt heBabyandwheny ou'r
e3
mont hsmyf ami
lywil
lexpecty
ourfami
lyfrom then.
Me:
myf
ami
l
ywhy
?
Vi
nce:
bazobi
kai
sisu
Me:
huh?
Vi
nce:
lool
I'
m notgoi
ngt
oex
plai
nthi
stoy
ouShem
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
vaneuy
eemhl
angeni
andot
herst
uff?
Me:
nomydadwoul
dn'
tl
etmet
houghIwoul
dli
ket
o.
Vi
nce:
why
??
Me:
Idon'
tknowwhy
Vi
nce:
number1cheesegi
rlwenababy
.
Me:
lool
mxm l
etmegetgoi
ngIl
ovey
ou.
Vi
nce:
comeher
e
▶Hepi ckedmeupandputmeont opofhisl
apand
hekissedmeaf t
ersomemi nut
esIbr
okeitof
fcar
s
star
tedpassingby.Igotof
fandIwal
kedhomemy
dadwasi nthekit
chenmakingl
unch
Me:
heydad
Dad:
heyubuy
aphy
?
Me:
uhmmm af
ri
endshouse
Dad:
washi
yauThando?
Me:
shedi
dn'
twantt
ogohawu.
..
Dad:okayontopofyourbedt
her
e'smoneyf
ory
our
hai
randforfoodonFri
day.
Me:
thanksdad
▶Iwentt othefri
dgegrabbedabottl
eofwaterand
wentupstai
rs.Igoti
nandt ookthemoneythenI
wenttothandosroom Iknockedandopenedthe
door
.
Me:
Hey
,whatar
eyoudoi
ng
▶Shewasont
opofherbedr
eadi
nganov
el.
Me:
youmustbebor
edy
ou'
rer
eadi
nganov
el.
..
Thando:
angi
shoul
eftme.
..
I'
m gl
ady
ou'
reback
Me:
l
olaccompanymet
othesal
on
Thando:
okaycool
letmewearmyshoes.
▶Thandoworehershoesandt
henwewent
downst
air
s.
Me:
dadwear
egoi
ngt
othesal
oncany
ougetust
o
t
hesal
on?
Dad:
NoI
'
mti
redgetanuber
Me:
butdad.
..
Thando:
let
'saskVi
nce?
▶Aski
ngme
Dad:
who'
sVi
nce?
Thando:
Zamosf
ri
end
▶Isur
edidnotexpectthi
s..
.myey
eswer
erunni
ng
onwher
eexactl
ytolook.
Dad:
okayj
ustasl
ongasIdon'
ttakey
out
her
e.
Me: I
'
llorderanuber. ..Ior deredanuberandi tcame
within10mi nsandwewentt othesal on, thedr iver
droppedusof fwegoti nsideIwashedmyhai rwhile
thandowai tedformet hereaf t
erIbr aided, Idid
brownst raighm.upbr aidsf ini
sheddoi ngmyhai r
after3hrst henwewenti nsidet hemal l tobuysome
snacksatSparwebought2pktofl ay s, 2pktofsour
wor ms, 2ener gydr inksandbowl off ruitsal adand
sav edther emai ningmoney .Weagai nor deredt he
uberandwewentbackhome.Whenwegothome
mydadwascooki ngdi nneri tsmel l
edr eal lygoodI
j
ustcoul dn'twai ttodi gin...buthet oldust ogoand
bathf i
rstitwas18: 13whenwear r
iv edhome. ..
Thandowentupst air
st obat hwhi leIpackedour
l
unchboxandsnacksf orf ri
dayIpl acedt hebagon
topoft hecount erandIt oowentupst airst obat h, I
tookabat hal lofasuddenmybr east swer et erri
bly
soreandwhenIl ookedi nt hemi r
rort heywer ebi gI
didn'tunder st
andwhysoaf terbathingIl oti
onedand
wor emyPj sandputonagownaf tert hatIconsul t
ed
DrGoogl eIsear ched"i si tnor mal forbr east stobe
bigandsor edur ingpr egnancy "
Foundouti twasnor malandi tisoneoft he
symptomsasIkeptonsear chingandsear chi
ng
aboutpregnancyIf oundoutal otoft hi
ngsandandI
deci
det oregist
erintoaforum gr oupoft eenswho
werepregnant, t
opicstheytalkedaboutIj ust
i
ndulgedinandr eadal mostev eryt
hing.Thando
di
sturbedmebyknocki ng
Thando:
whatarey
oudoi
ng,
we'
vebeenwai
ti
ngf
or
youdownst
air
s.
Me:
I'
m comi
ng
Thando:
nogetup.
▶Shecamet omeandpul l
edmeof ft
hebed, Istood
upwor emysl eepersandwewal keddownst air
s.We
satont hediningtable,mydadwental loutont hi
s
dinnertherewasaf ri
edturkey,
redmeat ,
rice,
roastedpumpki n,
beans,dif
fer
entty
pesofsal ads,
healthystuffbutitallt
astedgood,wedishedupand
west art
edeat ing
Thando:
dadt
hef
oodi
samazi
ng
Me:y
esdadit
sgr
eat
,thet
urkeymmhal
lmar
inat
ed
andfr
ied.
Dad:Gr
acet
aughtmehowt
odoi
tli
ket
hat
Me:
Grace?
?Lol
..Letmekeepqui
te
Thando:
dadwhenam Imeet
ingGr
ace?
Me:
whywoul
dyouwantt
omeetdads"
Fri
end"l
ol
Dad:
soony
ouwi
l
l
Thando:y
eahyoumusti
nvi
teherov
ert
otast
eyour
del
ici
oustur
key
Dad:
Iwi
l
l.
..
Me:dadThandoandIaret
urning18soonweknow
t
hatyou'
redat
ingGracewearen'
tki
dsanymor
e
Dad:
youknow?
Me&Thando:
yes!
!!
Dad:
and.
..
youdon'
thav
eanypr
obl
em wi
thi
t?
Me:
asl
ongasy
ou'
rehappydad.
Thando:
yeahdadasl
ongasy
ou'
rehappy
▶Wecont i
nuedtotal
kandlaughaf
tereat
ingthando
andIwashedthedi
shesandwewentt osleep.
..
Thur
sdaymorningwokeupandIspentalmostthe
whol edayinthecourtbackyardpracticingf orthe
gamet omorr
owI '
mr eal
lygoodatnet bal l
Icoul d
spendweekswi t
houtgoingt opr
acticeandwi n
becauseI '
mthatgood, t
henextdaycameFr i
day
mor ningIwokeup, bat
hedandwor emyNi ke
tracksuit
spackedallmynet bal
lgearandt hando
tookt hesmallbagwhichhadf oodini t.Mydad
droveust oschoolhedroppedusof fandNat asha
andkamower ealreadytheretosuppor tbecausei n
thesquadonl yme,Khomot soandCandi ceplay
netball.
Kamo:
MamakaVel
aphi
▶Theyl
aughed.
Me:
whyy
oucal
l
ingmet
hatt
sk
Kamo:becausewedon'
tknowukuthyuVelaphi
uvel
aphiuj
ustgotpr
egnantoutoft
heblue.
Nat
asha:
youdon'
tev
enl
ookpr
egnant
Kamo:bruh,
Idon'
tbeli
eveitMinadi
dyouand
Khomotsopl
anonbeingpregnantt
wicef
ri
endshi
p
goal
s??
Me:
arey
ouser
iousr
ightnowl
ool
no.
..
Kamo:lool
,andIgottheweedt
odayaft
erthegame
weweregoingtosmokeandcelebr
atel
ikeweuseto,
nowthatwon'thappen
Me:
crywi
thme.
..
Me&Kamo:
hii
i
ii
ii
...
.
Nat
asha:
y'al
laar
edumbThandol
et'
sgo
▶Theyal ll
eftandIwentt otheplayersbathroom to
j
ointheotherteam mat eswhenIent eredtheroom
somewer ejustgivingmewei r
dlooksbutIwasused
toitt
hesegirl
swantt obethecaptainsobad, Ididn'
t
carethoughMi nenhleandCandicecamet omewe
satdownandwechangedi nt
oournet ball
gear .
Candi
ce:
babeIt
houghty
ouwasn'
tgonnacome
Me:
becauseI
'
m pr
egnant
?
Candi
ce:
yeah.
Me:I
'l
lprobablyst
opplayi
ngwhenI
'm heav
il
y
pr
egnantIlovenetbal
luknowt
hat.
Mi
nenhl
e:y
oudon'
tev
enl
ookpr
egnanty
ou'
rej
ust
cut
easal
way
s.
Me: hahat
hanksbbe,coachbet
ternotfi
ndout
becauseIwil
lbeexpell
edandIdon'twantt
hatyho.
Minenhl
e:Mbaliwi
l
ljustj
umpatthi
smomentt
otel
l
coachsotheycanmakeherthecapt
ain.
Me:
lool
ihat
eher
.
Mi
nenhl
e:andshehat
esy
out
oo.
▶Wel aughedourcoachcameandupdat eduson
howwegonnapl ayandonwhichposit
ions..
.Asa
captai
nIalsost
oodupandmot i
vat
edt hem and
star
tedasongthenwestart
edcheeri
ngupf orthe
game.Thecoachcall
edustoatt
enti
onwesatdown
Coach:Thisi
sourf
irstgameonthi
syearwebett
er
workhardert
hanever.Winni
ngt
heprovi
nci
alsi
s
i
mpor t
antMakemepr oud.
▶Mbal ir
aisedherhandandcoachpoi
ntedathert
o
hearherout.
Mbal
i:
isi
ttruet
hatsomeofther
esanoat
sadv
ert
andwegonnaappearonTV?
Coach:
youwantt
oappearonTVMbal
i
?
Mbal
i
:ifgi
venachancecoachIwi
l
l.
Coach:i
tsgoodtoseesomeconf i
dence,theadv
ert
opport
uni
tyisf
orthesoccerpl
ayersonlysorr
ygir
ls.
..
Anyquesti
ons??
Teammat
es:
NoCoach
Coach:
okaycool
,capt
ain?
Me:
Yescoach?
Coach:
CanIseey
ouout
side.
Me:
yes.
Pet
ronel
l
a:what
'st
hisabout
?
Me:
Ijusthopei
tsnotaboutmebei
ngpr
egnant
.
▶Ist oodupandt i
edmyNi kesneakersIwas
scaredAFt ohearwhatthecoachwi l
lsay,di
dMbali
tel
lheraboutthepict
urethatIposted.
..
doesshe
knowt hatI'
m pr
egnantIwasl i
ter
all
yanxious.I
openedt hedoorandcloseditcoachwasal r
eady
waiti
ngf ormeinthecorri
dor.
Coach:
isy
ourdadcomi
ngt
oday
?
Me:
nohehast
ogot
owor
k
Coach:
whatar
eyourpl
ansnexty
ear
?
▶Myhear
twasnowbeat
ingf
astatt
hispoi
nt.
Me:
nexty
ear
..
.uhmmm
Coach:
...
taket
his
▶Shegav
emeanenv
elope.Wi
thaWi
tsuni
ver
sit
y
l
ogo.
Me:
andwhat
'st
his?
Coach: rememberwhenwewonatt heNat i
onal
slast
year?Wi tswasoursponsorandt heygav eaway3
bursari
esy ou,
MduduziandBongani gotthe
bursari
esy ou'
retheonl
ygir
l Zamor eandal l
expensesar epaidforf
ees,
res,f
ood,tolatr
iesandyou
wil
l getanextraall
owancef orwhatev eryouwantto
buy.
▶ di
dIj
usthearcor
rect
ly.
Me:thanky
oucoachI
'
llgi
vet
hist
omydadwhenI
gethome.
Coach:
Congr
atul
ati
onsandt
akecakecar
e.
Shegav
emeahugandwal
kedawayIl
ookedatt
he
env
elopeIwasr
eal
l
yexci
tedIcal
l
edMydad
i
mmedi at
ely
.
Me:guesswhogotaf
ull
pai
dexpensesbur
sar
y
f
rom Wits?
?
Dad:
who?You.
..
Me:
yasdadi
goti
t.
Dad:wowmypr i
ncesst
hat
'sanachi
evement
.
Congrat
ulat
ions.
Me:t
hanksdadwil
ltal
kwhenIgethomehav
eto
pr
epar
eforthegame.
Dad:you'vealwaysbeenarespectf
ulgi
rl,
you'
ve
neverdisappoint
edmeandnowt hi
s?IthankGod
andyourmot herforgi
vi
ngmesuchabl essingGod
bl
essy ouprincessIl
oveyou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oodad.
Dad:
seey
oul
ater
Me:
yeah*
cal
lended*
▶Aftert
hecall
endedithi
tmet hatI
am pr
egnant.
.I
can'
tgother
eMyheartbroke.
#I
NSERT20

▶Wel lIbrushedthatthoughtof fqui

cklyandIwent
backt omyt eammates, t
heywer eallnowdr essed
upandr eadyt ogoandpl ay
, wewer eupagai nst
anotherschool wepl
ay edandl ostfi
rstroundafter
taki
ngabr eakwecamebackst r
ongandweended
upwi nningt hegame,af t
erthegamewewal kedout
ofthecour tMduduzi waswai t
ingformenearat ree.
.
Me:
hey
,howar
eyou?
Mduduzi
:hey.
..
I'
m goodcongr
atul
ati
onsont
he
bur
sary
Me:
thanksheyy
out
oo.
▶Hel
ookedatmyt
ummy
Mduduzi
:i
sitt
rue?
?
Me:
what
?
Mduduzi
:you'
repr
egnant
?
Me:
yeahi
tst
rue
Mduduzi
:wowhey
..
Ijustwant
edt
oheari
tfr
om t
he
hor
sesmout
h.
Me:
ohwel
l
Mduduzi
:seey
ouar
ound
▶Her anbackt
ohisfr
iendsandIsawThando,
Kamo
andNatashast
andi
ngwithCandi
ceIwalked
towar
dsthem.
Nat
asha:
Congr
atul
ati
onsbaby
Me:
ThanksHey
..
.I'
m sot
ir
edandsohungr
y
Thando:
Icoul
dnev
erpl
ayNet
bal
lya'
l
lar
erough
Candice:
DidyouseehowMbal
ipushedmeIwas
abouttogiv
ehersomefi
sts
Me:Lool
Iwasshocked,
shepl
ayedqui
etwel
l
t
oday,
butreal
l
yrough
Candi
ce:whenwegett
othelockerr
oom Iwi
l
lhi
ther
anddon'
tstopmeZamore.
Me:Idon'
twantt
obehur
ttr
ustmeIwon'
tget
i
nvolved
Kamo:
Makeav
ideoZamor
e
Thando:
yeahwewannasee.
Me:
l
ool
ya'
l
ltr
ustCandi
cet
ohi
ther
?
Kamo: Loolwehav
en'thadafi
ghtinawhileso
yeah,
Candicemycoloredf
ri
endI'
m count
ingonyou
▶Candi ceandIwal kedawayandwentt ot helocker
room t ot of etchourbags. ..Iwal kedi nfirstandI
grabbedmybag.Openedmyl ockerandIt ookout
myphonewhenIt urnbackt oaskCandi cewher e'
s
myl ipgl ossIsawhercl osingt hedoorandgoi ng
straightt oMbal i shet urnedhert of acehert hen
Candi cet ransf eredal oudsl apt oMbal i.
..They
startedf ighting,pul l
inghai randswear ingateach
other ...Mbal isf r
iendst r
iedt oganguponCandi ce
butMi nenhl eandIt ol dthem tol eavet hem
alone. ..wedi dn'tteart hem apar ttheot hergi rl
swer e
screami ngbei ngent ertainedCandi ceshowedMbal i
fl
amesbecausewest artedseei ngMbal isbr aidson
thef looroneoft hegi r
lssai dthecoachwascomi ng
that'swhenwet earedt hem apar t.Mbal iwasnow
crying, Candi cepi ssedashel l,thecoachcameand
didn'tnot iceat hing, sheaskedust ofini
shupand
makei tqui cksoshecanl ockt hel ockerr oom
door.
..
IgrabbedmybagandCandi cegrabbedhers
wewal kedout.Gotatt
hegateMduduzi,Sfisoand
Kevi
n...Thando,Nat
ashaAndKamower ethere
wait
ingforus.Iranuptothem t
odeli
verthenews.
Me:
youwon'
tbel
i
evewhathappened
▶KamoandIhi
ghf
ived
Kamo:
Izanazol
ool
▶It
oldt
hem ev
ery
thi
ng
Candi
ce:
Zamor
eisbl
owi
ngt
hingsoutofpr
opor
ti
on
Me:
Liar
..
.t
hingswer
ever
yhoti
nther
e
Sfi
so:r
ememberwhenKamof oughtwi
thCandi
ceI
swearthatwast
hebestf
ightever.
Kamo:
Yeydon'
tgot
her
e
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Mduduzi
:Anddawgcav
atheyar
eti
ghtf
ri
endsnow
Sf
iso:
gir
ls.
.ButMbal
ideser
vedi
t
Mduduzi
:sur
ethi
ng.
Nat
asha:
wear
egoi
ngt
othepar
kar
eyout
wo
comi
ng?
Me:
yeahsur
e,butt
her
e'sonl
yonecarnj
e
Kevi
n:I
'l
ldr
ivet
henmduduzi
andSf
isowi
l
lwal
kto
thepar
k
Me:
GoodandI
'
mtaki
ngt
hef
rontseat
Kamo:
AhyZamor
e
Me:
ahyl
eav
emeal
one.
▶Wewentt otheschool parkingl otKev i
nwas
dri
vinghismomscaraPol ov ivoIgoti nt hefront
seatandt heot hergirlsatt hebackandwedr ov eto
theparkwhi l
eMduduzi andSf isowal ked.Whenwe
gotther
ewewai tedfort hem unt i
l t
heygott herewe
parkednearat reewher et herewaschai rsanda
tabl
ewesatt her eandpl ay edmusi ct hrought hecar,
theyboughtSpr iteandacoughsy rupt heymade
dir
tyspri
teandmduduzi rolledsomej ointsthey
wereallsmoki nganddr inkingexpectf ormeand
NatashabutNat ashawasdr i
nkingweat eallthe
foodbroughtatt hepar k.Hour sl ateraf t
erthe
madnessi twasget t
ingdar kkev inst arteddr i
vingus
backtoourcr ibshest artedwi thmeandt handot hen
l
aterwi
ththeothershedroppedusoffata3waywe
hadtowal
khome.Thandowasdr unkandannoyi
ngI
hadtocar
ryherplusIhadtocarr
ymybagsi twasa
l
ot
Me:Itol
dyounott
odr
inkt
oomuchl
eanbheka
manje
Thando:
Ican'
tfeel
myl
egsIj
ustwantt
osl
eep
▶Shekneel eddownI nthemiddleoftheroadwhi l
eI
wascar r
yingher.Itwas6pm andmydadwascal li
ng
usnonst op.Thandodi dn'
tcareIwast heonl
yone
who'ssoberIhadt ober esponsi
blebutIdidthe
stupi
destthingIputmybagsdownandIdr agged
herdrunkassoft hestreetandputherona
pavementgr abbedmybagsandIwal kedtoVi nce'
s
houseitwasn'tfarjusthousesaway.Iknocked.
Vinceopened
Vi
nce:
youl
ookt
ir
edar
eyouokayi
sthebabyokay
?
Me:
CanIgeti
n?
Vi
nce:
yeahsur
egeti
n
▶Igoti
nandhecl
osedt
hedoor
.
Me:No!
!don'
tcl
oset
hedoorgoandf
etchThando
downthestr
eet
Vi
nce:
what
??
Me:
you'
l
lseeherl
yi
ngont
hest
reetgoandf
etchher
.
Vi
nce:
mami
ubuy
aphykant
y??
Me:
Vincet
uu!
!
Vi
nce:
okayIdon'
tev
enknowt
hando
Me:wheny
ouseeagi
rll
yi
ngonapav
ementt
hat
'
s
t
hando
Vi
nce:
oh
▶Hewal kedouttofetcht handoIr anupst
airst
o
takeapee, Iusedthet oil
etthenIwashedmyhands
andIwal kedtothekit
chenVi ncewalkedincarr
ying
thandoinhisarmshel iter
allypickedherup.heput
heronacouch, Thandodozedof fshewasdead
asleep.
Vince:
Zamoreyouhavet
ober esponsi
ble,
you'
re
pregnantf
orGod'
ssakeyoucan'tbeouthavi
ngfun
anddrinki
ng.
Me:
I'
m notdr
unkokay
..
Idi
dn'
tdr
ink.
Vi
nce:
yousmel
ll
ikeweedf
orcr
yingoutl
oudIwon'
t
al
l
owthis.
.
Me:
doy
out
hinkI
'
mthatst
upi
denough?
?
Knowwhat
,I
'
mti
redandIdon'
thav
eti
mef
ort
his.
▶Iwal
kedaway
Vi
nce:
wear
est
il
ltal
ki
ngwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
Naht
alkt
oyour
sel
f.
▶Igr abbedmybagsandwenthomel eav
ingthando
there.Buzzedt hegat eNoanswer .Iinsertedthepin
andIbuzzedmy selfin.I
tsaFr i
daymydadwasn' t
homehewasawayonbusi nessasal waysIgoti n
andIt hrewmybagi nthelaundryroom andwal ked
tomyr oom arri
v edthereandIt ookahotshowerI
woregr eytrackpant sandabl ackv ansjerseyandmy
yell
owsocks. ..Itwas19: 40pm ItextedVince.
Me:
Tel
lthandot
ocomehome.
▶Iguesshewokeherupbecausemi nut
eslat
er
thandobuzzedthegate.AndIwentdownst
air
sto
buzzherin.Iwai
tedforheri
nthekit
chenshewal
ked
i
n.
Thando:
ungusesi
onj
ani
ye?
?
▶Shel
aughed.
Me:
lol
arey
ouokayt
hough?
Thando:
I'
mfi
ne,
Ijustwantt
obat
handsl
eep.
Me:Ial
sowanttogoandsleepy
esesI'
mtiredf
rom
pl
ayingnet
bal
ltodanci
ngandsi
ngingatt
hepark.
▶Ilockedthekit
chendoorandt
hegat
ethenWe
bot
hwal kedtoourrooms.
Igoti
ntomyroom j
umpedinbedandwenton
WhatsAppVi
ncestat
usmessagereadasf
oll
ows:
"
l
ovehasli
mit
s"Isenthi
m atext
Me:
lov
ehasl
i
mit
shuh?
Vince:well
aty ourageyoushoul dknowwhat '
sr i
ght
andwr ong,Iknowy oulovenetball
andy ourfr
iends
butthereareboundariesnowy oujustcan'tdo
whateveryouwantwhenev ery
ouwant .
Me: youmustbekiddi
ng,pl
easetel
lmeyouare.
..
so
I
'm expect
ednottoplaynet
ball
andcel
ebrat
ewit
h
myf
ri
endsaf
ter
?BecauseI
'
m pr
egnant
?
Vi
nce:
that
'snotwhatI
'
m say
ing
Me:
thenut
hinke?
Vi
nce:
dontt
alkt
omel
i
ket
hat
,respectme.
Me: I
'
mf i
ndingithardt
o,whaty
ou'
resayingi
s
absurdyoudidn'
tevenaskyou'
rej
ustassumi
ng
thi
ngsthatain'
tther
e..
.
Vi
nce:
OK,
goodni
ghtNomzamo.
Me:
mxm
▶Icoul dn'tev entellhim aboutmybur saryVince
rui
nedmyday, Ifoundi thardtosleepIwast ossing
andturningt hinkingaboutt hescholarship,Mydad,
PregnancyIst art
edcr yi
ngIcr i
edunt i
lIfell
asleep.
Saturdaymor ningbeingNauseaswokemeup, Ir
an
tothetoiletandv omi tedaf t
erthatMydadcal led
Me:
Dad
Dad:
youhome?
Me:y
eah,
myphonedi
edy
est
erdayIcoul
dn'
tcal
l
back
Dad:
wher
e'st
hando?
Me:
Asl
eep
Dad:
OkayI'l
lcal
lheraf
terourphonecal
l,Iwai
tedf
or
youyest
erdayatwhatti
medi dyougethome?
Me:
4/5I
'
m notsur
e..
.y
oudi
dn'
thav
etowai
tforme
Dad:
IjustwantedtohugyouMubi
,andtot
ell
you
howmuchI '
m proudofyouhowdi
dthegamego?
Me:
wel
l
..wewon
Dad:
that
'sgr
eat
,takecar
e
Me:
Wil
ldo.
*cal
lended*
▶Igoti nsidethebl anketsandIcheckedmyphonei f
Vincet extedmeornot ,0messagesf rom Vince.A
notif
icationfrom thet eengr oupitsentmea
messaget hatr eadasf oll
ows"Mor ningNomzamo
you'r
e7weeksand4day spr egnanttodaymake
surey oust arteati
ngheal thyy ourbabywi l
lhavea
heartbeatsoon"Ismi l
edandIi mmedi atel
ythought
aboutVi nce.Ideci dedtoscr eenshott henoti
fi
cati
on
andsendi ttohi m,Iloggedi ntothegr oupandr ead
otherteenst ories,Icouldr el
atetothem because
t
heywereteensandi
nasimi
larsi
tuat
ionasme.One
r
eachedouttomeandshesentmeamessage
Jess101:
heygi
rl
.
Me:
hey
Jess101:
howar
eyou?
Me:
goodheyandy
ou?
Jess101:
justadjust
ing,
sawyourcommentsay
ingu
were7weekspr egnantI
'
m al
so7weeks
Me:
real
l
ythat
'sni
ce,
twi
nni
e
Palesa101:y
est
winni
elol,Ij
ustwantedustobe
fr
iendsnothi
ngmoreIhopeyoudon'tfi
ndthi
sweir
d
Me:
nonotal
li
tscool
.
▶Shedi dn'
ttextbackaf t
er,It
henwentbacktothe
pageandIcont inuedreadingmorestori
essadand
happyones,outoft hebluemymi ndstart
edpaci
ng
upanddownagai nIthoughtaboutmymom woul d
shehavechasedmeout ??Howam Igoingtotel
lmy
dad??whati
fVi nceleavesmei nalongrun.I
'
m only
18whatdoIknowaboutbei ngamot her
?I'
m so
young,mydadwi l
lbedisappoint
edinmehehasbi g
dreamsofmeIst art
edthinki
ngabouthav ingan
aborti
on...Itseemslikethebestidea.
..
ifIhav ea
chil
dnow, Iwon'tbeabletogot owitsnexty ear,
my
dream ofbecomi ngwhatIwantt obewon' thappenI
l
ikehelpingpeopl ewithallmyheart.Vi
ncedi stur
bed
myt hought sandcalledme.
Vi
nce:hey
,justsawt
hescr
eenshoty
ousentme.I
'
m
sohappy
▶Vincewasi ndeedhappyIcouldfeelhi
m smil
ing
whensayi
ngt his.wheneverhet
alksaboutthebaby
hi
sfaceblossoms, youcanseeitinhi
seyesandhe
smil
esalotwhent al
ki
ngaboutthebaby
Me:
I'
vedeci
dedt
ohav
eanabor
ti
onVi
nce.
▶Af
tersay
ingmyhear
tfel
tcol
d.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT21

Vi
nce:
What?
Me:I
tseemsli
kethebestidea,
Ican'
tbr
ingababyi
n
t
hisworl
dri
ghtnowIjustcan'
t.
Vince:
Isuredidnotexpectt
his,
Ithoughty
ouwer
e
happyaboutthi
s?
Me:
trustmeIam,
but.
..
Vi
nce:Canwemay
bemeett
odayl
ater?I
'
m of
fto
worknow.
me:
yeahwecan.
Vi
nce:
Alr
ight*
Cal
lended*
▶No" Ilovey ou"Iunderstandthathemi ghtbesad
cozhedi dn'
tex pectt
hisatal l
,It
oodi dnotexpectto
havethesethought sbutIwassur eaboutmy
decisi
on.AfterthecallIdecidedtowakeupf r
om the
bed,makemybedt hengot oThandosr oom. I
walkedinherr oom shewasst i
ll
asleepandIshook
hertowakeup.
Me:
Thando.
..
.Thando
Thando:
Huh?
?..
.mmm
Me:
Wakeup
Thando:
why
?Si
yaphy
?
Me:doyout
hinkI
'
m abadper
soni
fIwantt
ohav
e
anabor
ti
on?
▶Thandostoodupst
rai
ghtaf
terhear
ingmy
quest
ion.
Thando:Uhmm maybe..
may benotidon'
tknow
comesithere.Whyt
histhoughtal
lofasudden??
Me:
Idon'
twantt
obeamot
her
,I'
m notr
eady
▶Istart
edcry
ing,myhear
twasbrokenmyli
fewasa
complet
emessThandohuggedmeandcomf or
ted
me,becausemytear
scouldn'
tst
opcomingoutthey
j
ustkeptoncomingandcoming.
Thando:Idon'tknowmuch, buthavinganaborti
on
mightbethebestdeci si
onyouwi l
ltakeaccor
dingt
o
me.Youst i
llhavealongwayt ogoHav i
ngbaby
daddyissuesatay oungageitstough, t
hat
'st
he
l
eastofmywor ri
esdepressi
onisreal Zamo.
Me:
Ifeel
sobadf
ornotwant
ingt
hisbabyr
ightnow.
Thando:
youdi
dn'
tex
pecti
t,i
tsnor
mal
.
Me:
Ifuckedupmyl
i
feser
iousl
y
Thando:
youwi
l
lbeal
ri
ght
,nowwi
pey
ourt
ear
s.
▶Shewi pedmyt earsandgotupf r
om thebed,I
helpedhermakeherbedaf terwardswewent
downst ai
rstomakebr eakfast.Ihadcornf
lakes
whi l
ethandomadepal onyandeggsIwasgoi ng
throughthemostatt hispointwiththesymptoms,
everythi
nghadawei r
dsmel landIcouldtasteit
beforeitevengotinmymout h.Aftermaking
breakfastwewat chedamov i
eaf t
erthemov i
e
thandowentupst air
stobat handpackherbagsso
shecoul dgoatherhousei nMamel odi
.Shecame
downst ai
rsall
dressedupandIor deredanuberfor
her.
Me:
I'
ll
missy
ousomuch,
pleasecomebacksoon
Thando:
I'
ll
missy
out
oo.
.anddadscooki
ng
Me:
Dadscooki
ngi
sthebestr
ight
??l
ool
.
Thando:
yeah.
..Babet
akecar
e,don'
tl
etany
oneget
i
nawayofhowy ou'r
efeeli
ngokaymaket
he
deci
siont
hati
sbestforyou.Il
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Wehugged, herubercameandshewentt o
mamel odi
.Onceagai nIwasallal
oneint hisbigcol
d
house.Iswit
chedof ftheTVandwentt omyr oom.I
gotinsi
detheblanketsandloggedintothatgroup,
Jess101respondedandshewasal soonline.I
text
edback
Jess101:
cool
sohowol
dar
eyou?
Me:
18seemybi
o,andu?
Jess101:
mostpeopl
eli
e,l
i
kemeI
'
m not18I
'
m 16.
Me:
16?Wowokay .
..Sohowdoesy
ourbff
eel
about
t
hepregnancyi
fyoudon'tmi
ndmeaski
ng?
Jess101:
Idon'
tknowhey
,wear
ebot
hst
il
lconf
used,
he'
sdoinggr
ade12
Me:Iwishst
rengt
handwi
sdom upony
ouIknowi
ts
noteasy
Jess101:
thanky
ou.
Me:Ihav
eaheadachewi
l
lchatt
hroughoutt
heday
.
Takecar
e
Jess101:y
ou'
resosweetl
olt
hanks
▶Iwentof fandIwentont oGoogleIstart
ed
googlingaboutabor ti
on,
howi sitdone,i
sitpainful
,
howl ongdoesi ttaketoheal andsoon.Ialsor ead
somear t
icl
esf r
om othergir
lsfrom t
hegroupwho
hadanabor t
ion.Learntathingortwofrom their
experienceIlaterondozedof f.Atabout16:11
VincecalledIjustdidn'
twantt ohearhi
ssadv oice
becausei thurtmesoIi gnoredhiscall
.Hesenta
text.
Vi
nce:
I'
m back.
Me:
giv
emeanhour
▶Vincetexti
ngfeel
ssocol d,
wi l
lhebr
eakupwith
meafterthi
s?Duet ot
hinki
ngt oomuchaheadache
st
art
edbecauset heheadachewasnowsev er
erit
wasjustpoundi
ngandpoundi ng,
Iwenttomydadsr oom andIopenedthewardr
obe
wherether
ewasamedi ci
neboxsoIcouldget
headachetabl
etsIcoul
dn'tf
indi
tIst
artedsear
chi
ng
andl ookingar oundf orit.Itwasont opofanot her
war drobeItr i
edt or eachf orit
,itwast oohi ghI
j
umpedoutt ogeti tandi tfel
lonmyf eetAl ongwi th
apict ure,i
twasapi ctureofmewhenIwasy oung
withmydadandMyMom f ir
sttimeseei ngt his
picture..Ij
umpedupagai nandt r
iedtoseei fthere
aren'tanypi cst here.Ther ewasn' t,
Itookt hepi cand
Iopenedt hemedi ci neboxt ookoutpanado3t abl
ets
andIwentt ot hekit chendownst air
sIpul l
edouta
glassIpour edwat erI nitandIdr ankmypi ll
st henI
wentbackt omyr oom.t ookashoweraf t
ert he
shower i
ngIl otioned, wor ear edAdi dasT-shi rt,a
blackski nnyj eanandbl ackAdi dassandal sputona
vaselineonmyl i
psandIbr ushedmyst rai
ghtup.My
yell
owf acecoul dn'thi det hatIwascr yingal ldaymy
eyeswer eswol l
enf rom t hecr y
ingmycheekswer e
red.It henwentdownst airsbuzzedmy selfoutandI
l
ockedt hedoorandt hegat eandIwal kedt oVi nce'
s
houseatabout18: 23.Iknockedt henMuzi opened
Muzi
:heyuy
athandaukuf
ikabeng'
hambane?
?
Me:
lool
Muzi
:Usekamer
eni
lakhe.
Me:
Okayt
hanks
Muzi
:Ni
ngagangi
ne?
?
Me:
Lool
Muzi
..
▶Igotinandwentupst
air
stoVince'
sroom I
knockedandhet
oldmetogetinIdid.
Me:
hey
Vi
nce:
Hi
▶Hewasonhi sl
apt
opsit
ti
ngonachairi
nat abl
eI
wenti
nforahug,
Igotacol
dhugIf
eltnot
hing..
.I
qui
ckl
ybrokei
tof
f
Me:
howar
eyou?
Vi
nce:
Howam I?
▶Hest
oodup.
Vi
nce:
douwantany
thi
ngt
odr
inkwat
erorj
uice?
Me:
noI
'
mfi
ne.
Vi
nce:
youl
ookpal
e,ar
eyouokay
?
▶Hecamet
omeIwasst
il
lst
andi
ng.
Vi
nce:
Sitdownher
e.
▶Ref
err
ingt
ohi
sbed,
Isatdown.
Me:
I'
m notokay
..
.
Vi
nce:
wer
eyoucr
ying?Yourf
acei
ssor
edwhat
's
wr
ongZamor
e?
Me:
Idon'
twantt
ohav
eababyVi
nce
Vi
nce:
whythesuddenchange?I
sitaboutt
hef
ight
wehadyest
erday
?
Me:
No,
Idon'
tknow.
..Buti
tsnoti
t.
Vince:okay,bythewayI'm sor
ryabouty
est
erday.
ButIjustdon'tunder
standwhynow?Whydi dy ou
changey ourmind?
Me:VinceI'
my oungIdidn'
tpl
anonhav ingachil
d
now.AndIgotbur sar
yf r
om wi
tst ot
hinkthatIwas
onawai t
ingl
istbutnowIwast akenandgivena
bur
sarythisi
shuge.
Vi
nce:
soi
tsbasi
cal
l
ybadt
imi
ngf
ort
hebaby?
▶Hej
oinedmeont
hebed.
Me:
yeah
▶Her
eachedoutandhuggedme,
Ilai
donhi
schest
Vince:It
hinkit
sGodst i
mingI'
m sur
ewecanwor k
thi
soutZamor e,Icanorgani
zeyouabursar
yfrom
mycompany .Wecangetanannynextyearyoucan
sti
llgotoschool.
Me:
Vinceno.
.
▶Ibr
oket
hehugandsatupr
ight
Me: Iwanttoseeev er
ythingmybabydoes, fr
om
teet
hing,crawli
ngandf irstwor dsidon'
twantt o
l
eavemybabyj ustlikemymot herl
eftme, Idon't
wantpeopl etotell
mewhatmybabydi dwhi l
eI
wasn'thomey oudon' tknowhowhar dthisisforme
Iwasnev ermot heredIdon' tknowhowt o..
.pl
ease
understandIcan'thavet hisbaby .
▶Istart
edcry
ing,beendoingal
otofcryi
ng
nowadayst
earsjustfl
ow.Idon'
ti
ntendoncry
ing.
Vince:I'
m sor
ry.
..
okayIunder
standIguesshe/she
willbeanangel.Andwegon'haveanotherbabi
es
ri
ght ?Whenwer eady
.
Me:
lot
soft
hem.
▶Hegav
emeaf
orheadki
ssandl
aidmyheadon
hi
schestagai
n.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
Me:
Ilov
eyouwhol
ehear
tedl
y
▶Ifell
asleeponhisar
mshethenplacedme
comfort
ablyonthebedanddr
essedmewitha
bl
anket,whenIwokeuphewasbusyonhislapt
op.
Me:
lot
sofwor
k?
Vi
nce:
yeah,
youupal
ready
?
Me:
Ifi
ndi
thar
dtosl
eep
▶Vincestoodupf
rom hi
schai
r,hecamet
othebed
andj
oinedme.
Vince:
haveyoudeci
dedonwher
eandwheny
ou
goingtodot
hetermi
nati
on?
Me:
yeahsoon,
butIdon'
tknowaboutt
hepl
ace.
Vi
nce:
okaywewi l
lfi
gur
esomethi
ngoutwhil
eyou
wer
easleepImadefoodcanIdi
shupfory
ou?
Me:
yespl
ease,
canweal
sogoandwat
chamov
ie?
Vince:
youandmov
iesy
eahsur
e,l
et'
sgetoutoft
his
bed.
▶Wegotof fthebedandwewentt othekit
chen
VincemadeGar l
icchickenhoneyandr i
ceand
pouredmeagl assofguav ajui
cewhilehewasbusy
dishi
ngupf ormeIwentt ohisroom andtooka
blanketIwentbackt otheloungehewasal ready
therewaiti
ngforme.Iat eandwewat ched
"Everyt
hing,Ev
erythi
ng"amov i
elat
eronIwenthome.

▶I t
saNewweekVi nceandIhav efinali
zedthedate
fortheabor t
ionitwi llbeonaFr i
daysi ncemydad
goesonbusi nessev eryf r
iday,soFr i
daywast he
perfectdaytogeti tdone.Day sflewbyandi twas
fi
nallyFri
daywhenIwokeupmydadwasn' thome
mysur geryappoi ntmentwasseton11am , Iwoke
upatar ound9am Ibat hedloti
onedandIwor eablue
j
ean, whit
ekni tt
edj erseyandwhi tesuperst
ar
sneakersdidn'tputanymakeuponIwassoner vous
myst omachwast umbl i
ngasIwasaboutt ostep
outofmyr oom Khomot socall
ed.
Khomot
so:
heyangel
Me:
Hey
Khomot
so:
Lov
eandl
i
ghtokay
?
Me:
am Inotabadper
son?
Khomot so:
noy ou'
renot,I
'vet
houghtabouti
t
my sel
f.
..
nobodyshouldjudgeyou,
Bestrongbeinga
teenwho'spregnantandamom i snoteasytr
ustme.
Me:
...
andf
ort
hatI
'
llal
way
srespecty
ou
Khomot
so:
Ilov
eyouokay
..
.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo*
cal
lended*
▶Iwenttothekit
chenandImadecof
fee,
dranki
t
t
henVincecal
ledme.
Vi
nce:
hey
,hav
eyoueat
eny
et?
Me:
Idon'
tfeel
li
keeat
ingwhy
?
Vi
nce:
want
edt
otakey
ouout
,canIseey
ou.
Me:
youcancomeatmypl
ace.
Vi
nce:
okay
.
▶Hecamewi
thhi
scarandhepar
kedi
tout
sideand
Ibuzzedhi mi n.Hef oundmesi t
ti
ngonachai ri
nthe
ki
tchenhecamet owar dsmet ogiv
emeahugme
butIstartedcr yi
ng.Thiswast hehardestmomentof
mylifeVincesawt hatIwasatmyweakesthet ri
ed
byallmeanst obet hereformepastday s,hedidn'
t
j
udgeme, Idi
dn'tfeelneglect
edhereall
ytriedto
understandonmybehal f.
Me:
I'
m suchamessne.
▶Ismi
l
edacr
ookedsmi
l
e
Vi
nce:
y ou'
l
lbealr
ight
,youdon'
thav
etofeelbadwe
ar
egoingtohavealotofbabi
esint
hefut
ure.
Me:
we?
Vi
nce:yeswe,I
'
llal
way
slov
eyouandI
'
llal
way
sbe
byyoursi
de.
▶hesaiditwithasmi le.Ial
somadehi m acupof
coff
ee,wesattogetherunt i
li
twast i
met ogo.we
wenttotheverysamepr i
vatehospit
alwewentto
l
asttimeIlef
tVinceont hewai t
ingareawhil
eIwent
i
ntoawar dwhereIhadmyabor ti
on.
(Idon'
twantto
tal
kaboutitI
'l
lj
ustskipal lt
heprocedureandother
stuf
f)Whenitwasal ldoneIwentbackt othewaiti
ng
areawhereVincewashewassi t
ti
ngonachai
rwit
h
hisfacedownandhelookedatmewhenIwalked
towardshim hest
oodupandgav emethewar
mest
hugIdon'tthi
nkI'
l
lev
erforget
.
Vi
nce:ar
eyouokay
??
▶y
oucoul
dseet
heconcer
nandhur
tinhi
sey
es
Me:
I'
m okay
.
▶Wecont i
nuedt ohugIjustwantedtocrybutIj
ust
couldn'
tcrynomor e.Wewal kedbacktothedoctor
s
room tofi
nali
zet hi
ngshegav emeinstr
ucti
onsand
somepi l
lstodrinkforpai
nandwhent headmi nwas
alldonewewal kedoutgotinthecarandwedr ove
offinsi
lent.
((
GuysIdon'tmeant oberudebutIwontappr
eci
ate
negat
ivecomment sifyouhavenot
hingposi
ti
vet
o
saydon'tsayany
thing)
)

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT22

Vi
nce:
doy
ouwantsomet
hingt
oeat?
Me:
nahIj
ustwantt
osl
eep.
Vi
nce:
okay
▶Wegoti nourar eahedr oppedmeof fatmyhouse
andhewenttohi shouse,Igotinsi
deDr ankaglass
ofwat
erthenImademy selfsomet
hingt oeatI
madetoastedbreadwithcheeseandbaconand
pi
ckl
esonasi deandcof fee,Iwenttothelounge
andwatchedTVIcheckedmyphonet handocalled
andImissedhercallIdecidedtocallback.
Thando:
Heybabyar
eyouokay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne
Thando:
beenwor
ri
edsi
ck,
didev
ery
thi
nggookay
Me:
yeahsof
ar.
Thando:
okayIneedt
ohel
pmom wi
thbaki
ngI
'
llcal
l
ubackokay?
Me:
okay
,tel
lherIsai
dhi
.
Thando:
okaycool
.*
Cal
lended*
▶Cont i
nuedt owat
chTVandIwat chedMorden
Familyat15:00onthedotIst
oodupwentt othe
kit
chentowashmypl ateandthecupIwasusi ngas
Iwasstandingonthesinkmyphoner angf
rom the
l
oungeIwentt her
eandIpickeditupandIanswered
thecalli
twasVince.
Vi
nce:
hey
,whatar
edoi
ng?
?
Me:
I'
m busywashi
ngdi
shes.
.andy
ou?
Vi
nce:
I'
m wai
ti
ngf
ory
ouout
side.
Me:Outsidewhatareyoudoi
ngher
edi
dif
orget
somethinginyourcar
?
▶Iwentneart
hewi
ndowst
oseei
fhewasser
iousl
y
t
her
eandIsawhiscar
.
Me:
Lol
whyar
eyouher
e?
Vi
nce:
Justcomeher
e
Me:
okay*
Cal
lended*
▶Ibuzzedmysel
foutandIwentupt
ohi
m hewas
i
nsi
dehiscarsoIgoti
n.
Vi
nce:
whyy
ousobeaut
if
ul?
Me:
stopi
t
▶Ibl
ushed
Vi
nce:
arey
ousmi
l
ing?
Me:
yes
Vi
nce:
hav
en'
tseeny
ousmi
l
einal
ongt
ime.
Me:wel
lyouknowal othasbeengoi
ngon.I
'
llbef
ine
andbubbl
yagainsoon.
Vince:
okay,andyouf orget
ti
ngyourdut
ies.Got
i
nsidemycaranddi dn'tevengi
vemeahugwowt he
poli
cestat
ionisnotfar.
Me:
l
olwhatwoul
dyouhav
emear
rest
edf
or?
?
Vi
nce:
fornotdoi
ngy
ourj
obasagi
rl
fr
iend.
Me:
okaycomeher
ethen.
.
Vi
nce:
No
Me:
comeher
e.
▶Idraggedhim andIgavehim ahugehugand
t
housandkissesonhisface.
Vi
nce:
l
oool
zamor
eSt
ooop
Me:
Now?
Vi
nce:
uhmm No.
.y
es.
.
▶Wel
aughedandIst
opped.
Vi
nce:
fort
haty
oudeser
vet
his.
▶Hepickedsomet
hingupfr
om thebackseat
sit
wasawoodbucketful
lofmyfav
orit
egoodiesfr
om
Wool
worthsandaCard
Me:
Youl
i
kebei
ngcheesywhat
'st
his?
?
Vi
nce:
Takei
t.
▶It ookt hebucketopenedi tandIsawal lmy
favorit
ethi ngs,andIalsoopenedt hecarditwas
wr i
tt
en.(Fr om:Papi"thishast obethehardest
obstaclewehav eenduredtogetherbutguesswhat,
you'rebymysi deandI '
m byy oursideithasmadeus
stronger,ithasmadeusonewewi llgetthr
oughthi
s,
Ilovey ouMami "To:
Mami )
▶I'
m acrybabyI'
m sur
eya'l
lal
readyknowbynow
andyesy
ou'rer
ightIst
art
edcryi
ngafterr
eadi
ngt
he
Card.
Me:
thanky
ou,
Ilov
euMrZul
u
Vi
nce:
stopcr
ying.
..
Ilov
eyoumor
e.
▶Ihuggedhi
m andhehuggedmeback.
Vince:Iknowwehav
en'tbeenassol
idaswerewere
thepastweekIwashopingthi
swil
lmakeyoufeel
better
.
Me:If
eell
ovedandappreciat
ed,
you'
ret
hebest
t
hingt
hathaseverhappenedtome.
Vi
nce:
Thebest
?
Me:
TheAwesomest
Vi
nce:
Ist
hatev
enar
eal
wor
dMami
??
Me:
Idon'
tknowl
ool
Vi
nce:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
I'
m okaydon'
tknowhowt
ofeel
honest
ly
Vi
nce:
hav
eyoust
art
edbl
eedi
ngy
et?
Me:
Howdi
dyouknowt
hatI.
..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
vedonesomer
esear
ch
Me:
Noty
ett
hedoct
orsai
ditwi
l
ldependonhowmy
bodyr
eact
stot
hepi
l
ls
Vi
nce:
Okay
,ther
ear
eal
soKot
expadsi
nthebucket
Me:
l
olWhat
??
Vi
nce:
What
??
Me:t
hisissosweety
etwei
rdt
hanky
ouf
orbei
ng
t
houghtf
ulthough
Vi
nce:
Ijustwantt
obet
her
efory
out
hroughi
tal
l
.
▶Vi
nce'
sphonest
art
edr
ingi
ng,
heanswer
edi
t
Vi
nce:
Hel
l
o
Cal
ler
:MrZul
u,Wil
lyoubeablet
omakei
ttoy
our
15:
30meeti
ngorshoul
dIcancel
it
Vi
nce:
I'
l
lmakei
t,sendmet
hel
ocat
ion
Cal
l
er:
OkaySi
r.*
Cal
lEnded*
Me:
Dut
ycal
l
shuh
▶I
twas15:
20
Vi
nce:
yeahhav
etogo,
whatwi
l
lyoubedoi
ng?
Me:
Sleepi
ng,
Ijustwantt
osl
eepnow
Vi
nce:
okay
..
cal
lmei
fyouneedany
thi
ng
Me:
wil
ldo,
nowgo!
Vi
nce:
l
etmegoandgett
hatmoney
,fi
rstcomeher
e
▶Hel eanedoverforababyki
ss,
wekissedandIgot
uptookmyst uffandopenedt
hedoorandst
ood
ther
ewhi l
eitwasopen
Me:
Ilov
eyouokay
Vi
nce:
met
oo.
Me:I
'l
ll
eav
ethi
sdoorwi
deopensayy
oul
oveme
pr
operl
y
Vi
nce:
huh?Pr
oper
lyhow?
▶Ileftt
hedooropenedandIwentt
othegat
e,he
openedhiswi
ndowt oseeme
Vi
nce:
lol
arey
oucr
azy
?
Me:
Noy
ouwer
esupposedt
osay"
Ilov
eyout
oo"
.
Vi
nce:
What
??Lool
sor
rycomebacksoIcansayi
t
pr
oper
ly
▶Hel
eanedt
othepassengerseatandcl
osedt
he
doorandIgoti
nsi
demyy
ardhescr
eamed
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
ooNomzamo
Me:
lool
you'
reaf
ool
▶Hedr ov eoffIgotinsidemyhousecl osedt hedoor
andl ockedt hegateIwentst rai
ghtt omyr oom
placedt hebucketinf r
ontoft hemi rr
orandI
Climbedont hebedt henIdozedof f,Hourslaterat
21:03Igotupwentt othekitchentodr inksome
wat erbecauseIwast hi
rsty,Iwentt othetoil
etfi
rst
al
l Icansayi sIregretgoingt othetoil
etwhatIsaw
wasn' tprett
yIstart
edf eeli
nghor r
iblesharppainsin
myabdomen, mylegsst ar
tedget t
ingweakI
kneeleddown.
Me:
Zamor
ewhathav
eyoudone.
▶Isai dtomy sel
fafteraf ewmi nut
esofbei ngdown
thepaindecr easedIgotupandIpr eparedmy selfa
shower ,
andputt heclothesIwaswear inginthe
l
aundr yroom Iwashedt hem andItumbl eddried
them.Ishower edinhotwat erwhenIgotoutIwent
i
nt omyr oom changedmycl ot
hesandwor ewarm
clothesknit
tedpi nkj
er seyandaPJt r
ouserand
somef luff
ysleepinboot sthenIwentt ot hekitchen
pour edsomewat eri
nawat erbot tleIdrankmypi l
ls
andIcar r
iedthatbot t
leintomyr oom goti nmy
room Ipl acedthebot tl
eonadr aweraf t
ert aki
nga
sipthenIl aidonmybedandIdel etedmyaccount
ont hepr egnancyapp, delet
edt hepostIpost edwi th
VinceIst oodupt otakeanot hersi pt henanot her
horriblesharppai ninmyabdomenst artedIcoul dn'
t
taket hisonebecausei twasj ustpai nful,itwas
hurtingmeIpani ckedandi mmedi atelycalledVince.
Vi
nce:
heysl
eepyheadj
ustwokeup?
Me:
somet
hingi
swr
ong
▶Iwassobbi
ng
Vi
nce:
wher
ear
eyou?
?Ar
eyouokay
??
Me:
pleasecomequi
ck
▶Vincewasbythegat
ewi
thi
nseconds,
whenhe
ar
ri
vedhecal
ledme.
Vi
nce:
Opent
hegat
e
▶thegate,
Icouldn'
twal
knorf
indawaytowalk
downthestai
rsIwasweakandfeel
i
ngfunnyIwas
soscar
ed.
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e..
Me:
Ican'
twal
k
Vi
nce:
whatdoy
oumeany
oucan'
twal
k?
Me:
Ithur
ts
Vi
nce:
Takedeepbr
eat
hs,
rel
ax
▶AfterminutesthepaincooleddownIwent
downstai
rsandIbuz zedVincein,hegoti
nhefound
mesitt
ingont heki
tchentablesit
tingonachai
r
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:
No.
.
Vi
nce:
whathappened?
Me:aft
erwaki
ngupIst
art
edbl
eedi
ng,
andIst
art
ed
hav
ingunbear
abl
epai
ns.
Vi
nce:
didy
oudr
inky
ourpi
l
ls?
Me:
yeahIdi
d.
Vi
nce:
youdi
dn'
thav
eany
thi
ngcol
dri
ght
?
Me:
Ionl
yhadwat
er
Vi
nce:
youshoul
dn'
thav
eandy
ouknowt
hat
.
Me:
itwast
apwat
erVi
nceandi
twasn'
tthat"
col
d"
Vi
nce:well
itobvi
ousl
ytr
igger
edsomet
hing,
arey
ou
st
il
lhavi
ngpainsnow??
Me:
Nor
mal
pai
ns.
Vi
nce:
Comey
ousl
eepi
ngatmyhouse,
youshoul
dn'
t
beal
one.
Me:
Your
eal
l
ydon'
thav
eto.
Vi
nce:
Nomzamo.
.
▶ Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing,
Hecamearoundt
hetabl
e
pi
ckedmeupandwewentupstai
rstomyroom,he
pl
acedmeont hebed.
Me:
Icanwal
k.
Vi
nce:
Iknowy
ou'
re18
Me:
mxm
▶Istoodupwentt ot
hebucketandt ookouta
packetofr
aisinsandbecauseVinceinsi
stedthatI
gowithhim Istar
tedpacki
ngthethingsthatIwil
l
needwhenI'mt herei
nasmal l
bag.
Vi
nce:
wil
lyoubeabl
etowal
k?
Me:
youl
i
veacr
osst
hest
reet
,Iwi
l
lbeabl
eto.
Vince:
okaythenlet
'
sgo,
arey
ousur
ethaty
ou'
ve
packedever
ythi
ng?
Me:
Vince.
..
Vince:
I'
mj ustaski
ng,okayl
et'
sgoI'l
lcar
ryyourbag
remembery ou'
renotsupposedtocarr
yorli
ftup
heavythi
ngs.
▶Wewal
keddownt
hest
air
s.
Me:
pleasegogetmygoodi
es
Vince:
yourbagi
sheav
ytheny
ouwantmet
ocar
ry
yourGoodi
ebucket
Me:
pleeeassse.
..
▶Hewentupst airswhil
eIwaitedforhim downst ai
rs,
hetookt hebucketandhecamedownst air
s,I
l
ockedev er
ythi
ngandIbuzzedusout ..wewal kedto
hi
shouseaswewer eabouttost epont hegrass,
Vince'shouseisthetypethatonlyhasal awnandno
gateonlyanent r
ancetothegat e,andapar kingway
ont heside.Wellaswewer eMuzi pul
ledupi nHis
car
.Wegoti
nsi
deandMuzi
fol
l
owed.
Muzi
:af
ter
noonguy
s
Me:
Hey
Vi
nce:
Bro
Muzi
:Whatareweeati
ngtodayZamor eI'
m Hungr
y
AFyourboyf
ri
enddoesn'
tcookthesedaysI'
m
al
wayshungrymaybeyoucancookf orus?
Me:
Vincecooks?Andwhyangasapheki
?
Vi
nce:Icancookhawubbe.
Muzi:
Hehasn'
tbeeneati
ngnorcooki
ng,
he'
sal
way
s
l
ockedupinhisr
oom onl
ycomesoutwhenhehas
t
ogot owork.
Me:
real
l
y..
.?
?Vi
nce?
?
Vi
nce:Muzii
sjustexaggerat
ingdon'
tworry
,letme
goupst
air
sandputy ourbagsdownf oru
▶Vincedodgedt hi
stopi
cclearlybecausehequickl
y
wentupstai
rs,
Ihonestl
ydidn'tseehowbadmy
deci
sionaff
ectedHim,Ireal
lyfeltbadbecauseI
knowitwasallbecauseofme.
#I
NSERT23

▶Vi ncecamedownstai
rsandjoi
nedmeont he
couchIwassitt
ingon,whi
leMuziwasmakingfood
forus,hedi
shedupwewer ehavi
ngmincepiesand
beerbutAppl
ejuicef
ormesinceIdon'
tdobeer.
Muzi
:Her
ewewat
chsoccer
.
Me:
NoPr
obl
em l
ol
Vince:
Mamidi
dyouj
ustsay"noPr
obl
em"
?Br
uhshe
neverl
et'
smewat
chsoccer
.
Me:
lool
youl
yi
ng
Vince:
theonl
yti
meyouletmewat
chsocceri
swhen
youwantsomethi
ngf
rom me.
Me:
Whaaat
???l
ool
.
Muzi:womenareli
ket
hat.
..
it
stoughouther
e,Ona
ser
iousnot
ethoughwhydogirl
shat
esoccer?
Me:Abunchofguysr
unni
ngaf
terabal
l
?not
hing
i
nter
est
ingt
here.
Muzi
:Myf
eel
i
ngsar
ehur
t.
Vi
nce:
BruhIt
hinkIj
ustdr
oppedat
ear
,di
dyouseei
t
?
▶Theyst
art
edl
ooki
ngar
ound.
Me:
Y'al
lar
emadwhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Muzi
:
looki
ngf
orVi
nce'
stear
.
▶Wel aughedaf t
ert hemat chMuzi wentupst airs,
Vincetookt heplatesandhewashedt hedi shesItoo
decidedt ogoupst airsandsleepIwasn' tfeeli
ngso
good.Ifixedt hebedandgoti nsi
dethebl anketsI
heardVincegeti ntot heroom andhest artedbeing
busywi t
hhi slaptopf orhoursIdozedof finthose
hours.Whi l
eIwasasl eephesneakedi nandpl aced
hi
shandonmywai standhuggedmecomf ort
ably
andslept .WhenIwokeupat9: 45inthenext
mor ni
nghewasn' tnextt omeIgotof fthebedmade
i
tthenIwentt omybagt ookoutmyt oil
etriesand
wentt othebat hr
oom, tookabathloti
onedasIwas
busylotioningIhear daknock.
Me:
Occupi
ed!
Vi
nce:l
olbbeJustopent
hedoor
.
▶Iwalkedtot
hedooral
lnakedandopenedi
t,Vi
nce
wal
kedin.
Me:
Ithoughty
ouwer
ewor
kingt
oday
.
Vi
nce:
NopeIt
ookaweekendof
f
Me:
That
sni
ce.
..
Vi
nce:
Yeah
▶Vincewal
kedt
owardsmeheldmywai
stwi
thbot
h
hi
shandsandst
art
edkissi
ngme
Me:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Thatwasj ustar
hetor
icalquesti
onhedidn'
t
answerinst
eadhekeptonkissingme,squeezi
ngmy
buttmovinghi
shandsfr
eelyallovermybody
touchi
ngmehewasr eall
yturnedon.
Me:
No,
stopy
ouknowwecan'
tdot
his
▶Ist
art
edt
ofeel
i
nghi
smanhooder
ect
ingonme.
Vi
nce:
Iwasn'
tgonnat
akei
tthatf
ar.
Me:
IknowIj
ustdon'
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
e
▶Ir
emov
edmy
sel
ffr
om hi
m,Igr
abbedaPadanda
under
weart
owear
.
Me:
soy
ouj
ustgoi
ngt
owat
chmeputonapad?
Vi
nce:
what
swr
ongwi
tht
hat
?
Me:
Lol
atl
eastl
ookaway
.
Vi
nce:
Okay
▶Hel ookedawayandIworethenIputonagown
af
terandIgotoutoft
hebathr
oom.Vi ncef
oll
owed
meput t
inghi
shandsaroundmywaist.
Me:
sosi
ncey
ouwer
en'
tatwor
ktel
lmeuv
elaphi
?
Vi
nce:
Gym
Me:
wear
ingl
i
ket
his
▶Hewaswear ingnormalclot
hes,Whi
teshor
t
Conv
erseshoes,ashortandaBlackT-
Shir
t
Vince:
Lool
yeah,
wheny
ou'
redoney
oucangot
othe
shower
Me:
l
ool
ther
e'sashower
?
Vi
nce:
Yeah
Me:
lol
coool
..
.
Vi
nce:
don'
ttel
lmet
haty
oudi
dn'
tknow
Me:
Ireal
l
ydi
dn'
tknow
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
takey
out
her
eandhav
easessi
onwi
thy
ou
Me:
NoooSi
rthanky
ou
▶wewal
kedt
ohi
sroom.Putmyt
oil
etr
ybagonhi
s
bed.
Vi
nce:
Let
'sgodownst
air
sIboughty
oubr
eakf
ast
.
Me:
okaywai
tletmewearmycl
othesf
ir
st.
Vi
nce:
No,you'
l
lweary
ourcl
othesaf
tereat
ing
br
eakf
ast
Me:
No,
Wai
t.
..
▶Vincepull
edmeandwewalkedt
othekit
chen,he
boughtdonut
sfr
om Wool
wor
thsandAStarbuck
Cappucci
no.
Me:Donut
sfr
om wool
i
es,
myf
avor
it
est
hanky
ou
baby.
▶Igav
ehim aki
ssonhi scheek,
Ilovedonutsthey
makemehappy.
Vincemadehi mselfamueslicereal
andWewenttot
hel oungeandwest ar
tedeati
ng.
Me:
Nooy
ou'
reGay
Vi
nce:
What
??Why
??
Me:
Muesl
i??Li
ker
eal
l
y
Vi
nce:
someofusl
i
keeat
ingheal
thy
Me:andy
ouboughtmeDonut
ssoy
ouwantmet
o
bef
at?
Vi
nce:
Youl
i
ket
hem nj
ena
Me:
Buty
ou'
rehav
ingmuesl
ibabet
hat
'snotf
air
.
Vi
nce:
Idon'
teatDonut
syouknowt
hat
Me:
NoIdon'
t
Vi
nce:
Youdon'
t??
▶l
olnoser
iousHewasshocked.
Vince:4monthsofdat
ingandy
oudon'
tknowt
hatI
don'teatdonut
s?
Me:
Wel
ll
ool
,Ihonest
lydi
dn'
tknow.
Vi
nce:
Pleasegoupst
air
s,packy
ourbagsandl
eav
e.
Me:
Nol
ool
Vi
nce:
okayt
henl
etmel
eav
eyou.
▶Hestoodupwithhi
sbowl
,Ial
sost
oodupt
ost
op
hi
mfr
om going.
Me:
baby
..
.
Vi
nce:
Sesi
wabant
uleav
emeal
onet
uu
▶Igoti nf
rontofhi m andIunt i
edmygown
,exposedmybr easttohi m,andIpl ayedwi t
ht hem a
l
ittl
et henIt ookhislefthandandputi tonmybr east
.
Hegav einhewasst il
l kindofer ect
edf r
om t he
bathr oom andwest artedki ssi
ng.Hepul ledmeup
andwal kedwi thmei nhi sar mst othekitchenand
heputmeont hekitchencount erandwecont i
nued
kissingbot hourbr eathswer ehighandIwas
moani ngVincegr oaningher eall
ywant edtobe
i
nsi deofmepi t
yhecoul dn't
..
.Aswewer eki ssing
andVi nceinsidemyt highsMuzi walkedin
Muzi
:
EyyNi
na!
!Nenzani
▶Vincequi
cklycover
edmybodywi
tht
hegownt
hat
wasnowont hefl
oor.
▶ Il
aughed
Me:
Thi
sisawkwar
d.
Muzi
:getar
oom pl
ease.
..
▶Heawkwar dl
ywalkedupst ai
rstohisroom, Vi
nce
andIl
aughed,Igotofft
het abl
et henIworemy
gownbackonandwewentbackt otheloungetoeat.
WewatchedVince'
sfavori
tecartoons"FamilyGuy"
.

▶Myst ayatVince'shousewasgr eathespentt he

wholeweekendwi thmedi dn'
tgotowor k, t
ookcare
ofme,hemadesur ethatIwasnthungry,hemade
mefood,madesur eIt ookmypill
s,massagedme
whenIhadpainsbasi call
yhewasadoct orandIwas
hi
spati
enthehel pedmewi t
heverythi
ngt hatI
Neededandwant ed,Itwasnowaf t
ernoonona
MondayIjustdidmymakeupI 'm seati
ngona
cl
osedtoil
etseatwaitingforVi
ncet ofi
nishbathing
he'
sinbathtub..
Me:
fini
shup,
I'
vebeenwai
ti
ng
Vince:
Zamor
ey out
akeanhourwheny
ou'
rebat
hing
andnobodyt
ell
syounot
hing
Me:
I'
m agi
rli
tsunder
standabl
elool
▶Ourconv
ersat
ionwasi
nter
rupt
edbyacal
lfr
om
Khomot
so.
Khomotso:l
oveI'
mjustchecki
ngupony
ou,
you'
ve
beenqui
te.Arey
ougood?
Me:
yeahI
'
m good.
Khomot
so:
Pinkypr
omi
se?
Me:
Pinkypr
omi
se.
Khomot
so:
Wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
AtVi
nce'
spl
ace.
Khomot
so:
wher
eishe?I
sn'
thewor
king?
Me:
Her
ebat
hing,
Nahhet
ookday
sof
f.
Khomotso:
bat
hing?Youguy
s!Si
essowena
wenzani
?
Me:
Lool
wat
chi
nghi
m.
Khomot
so:
lool
eeuuwwahygoodby
e.
Me:
lool
,by
e.
Khomot
so:
yeahI
'
llcal
lyoul
aterwheny
a'l
lar
enot
bei
ngwei
rd,
Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooHal
fi
e.*
Cal
lended*
▶Vi ncef inishedbat hi
ngwewentt ohi sr oom sohe
canl ot
iongetdr essedt henwegooutbef oreIgo
home, wewal kedi nhi sr oom Isatonhi swor ki
ng
tablewhi l
ehedr oppedt hehewaswear ingt owel on
thefloorexposi ngabr eathtaki
ngv i
ewandhest ar t
s
l
otioningIt henadmi rehim, He'
sdar kski nned,
skinnyy etwel lbui lthast hemostper fectV- l
ine
foll
owedbyhi sni cel ysquar ed6packandasof t
chestt hatIl i
ket ol ayon, hewasbusyt al kingtomeI
couldn'thearat hi ngIswearIwascaughti nthe
momentIcanonl yseehi slipsmov ing, any waylet '
s
tal
kabouthi sli
pst heyar eper f
ectl
yshapedhi sl
ips
aresur roundedbyhi sconnect i
ngbear dhehast he
bestey ebr owst heyar epr ettyt
hick...
Icoul dhere
"Zamor e"Bei ngy elledoutButf rom afar .
Vi
nce:
YEY!ZAMORE!
!
▶het
hrewasockonme.
Me:
Yeah?
Vi
nce:
Wher
e'sy
ourmi
ndat?
Me:her
e.
Vi
nce:Noyouly
ingIsai
dpassmet
hatcol
ogneand
ubusydr
eaming.
▶Istoodupfr
om t
het abl
e,t
ookhi
scol
ogneandI
gav
eittohi
m,hetouchedmyhandanddidn'
tl
eti
t
go.
Vi
nce:
Hey
,ucabangani
?
Me:
Isweari
tsnot
hingdon'
twor
ry
▶Iwenti nt ogivehi m aqui ckki ssjusttoletgoof
thistopi
cbutt hatkissendedupbei ngadeep
sincereki
ssmyhear tfeltateaset hebutterf
li
esin
myst omachwer edanci ngIdi dn'tst
opIcont i
nued
tokisshim.Youknowt hety peofaki ssthatspeaks
unsaidwor ds,wordst hatcan' tbesaidbymout hbut
youcanf eelthosewor dsiny ourheart,i
twast hat
kindofakiss, i
twast hatdeep. Iwentdownonhi m
kissi
nghischest ,nippleshi sV- li
nesoonenoughI
hadhi sManhoodi nmywar m mout hIsuckedhim.
AfterI'
vehadmybr eakf astbecausehecamei nto
mymout hItookt het owel thatwasont hef l
oorand
wipedhim up.heleanedov erki ssedmyf orehead
andhegotup, Igotupt oo.Ir eappli
edmypi nk
Lipsti
ck,Vincegotdr essedhewor eBl ackAirforce
sneakers,BlackJeanandat or nBlackT- shi
rt
.Me?I
waswear i
ngaDungar eeshor t,
conv er
seshoesanda
YellowTopwi t
hr edroses, wet ookquickselfi
es
beforegoingout ,Ihaveal r
eadypackedmybagsso
het ookmybagsandwewal kedoutofhi s
room, wal
keddownst ai
rsandwegotoutoft he
house.Whi leVincelockedt hedoorIwal kedtothe
car,hejoinedinandwedr ov eof fAswewer edrivi
ng
hest oppedatmyhouseandbecauseIwasn' t
all
owedt ocar ryheavyst uffwegotof fthecarhe
tookmybagandIi nsertedt hecodeatt hegat eand
wegoti n,unlockedthedoorhewal kedi nandwent
i
nt omyr oom putt hebagt her ecamedownst air
s
andwewer eoffonther oadagai n.
Me:
McDonal
d'
sri
ght
?
Vi
nce:
No
Me:
Papi
why
??
Vi
nce:
Becausei
tisf
orki
ds.
Me:
Wow
▶Ifailedtoconv i
ncehi
m soweendedupgoi ngat
Spur,
satonat abl
efor2weor der
edcrumb
mushr oomsandcal amari
withgarl
icbreadand
whit
ewi nef ormeandHeinekenbeerforVinceas
ourstarter
.
Me:Thankyouforbei
ngthemostl
ovingboyfr
iend,
f
ortaki
ngcareofmeov ert
heweekend.Idon'
tknow
wherewoul
dIbewi t
houtyou.
Vi
nce:
Mami
ItsOnl
ythebegi
nni
ng.
..
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT24

▶Wel l
Ismil
edandwecont i
nuedtoeatandt al
k
aft
eranhourwefi
nishedeat
ingandwepr eparedt
o
go.
Me:
cany
oubuymewi
ne?
Vi
nce:
wej
usthad2gl
asses
Me:
Iknow,
I'
ll
dri
nki
tlat
erathome
Vi
nce:
lat
er?al
one?
▶Ist
oodup
Me:y
esl
ateral
one.
.Comegr
aby
ourphoneandl
et'
s
go
▶Hegotupandwewentt opi ck'N'payl i
quorand
bought"CheninBl
anc"myf av oritewi neofall t
imes
wethenwal kedtotheparkingl otgoti nsi
deoft he
carandwedr oveoff
..
.hedroppedmeof fandhe
wenttohishouse,Iwenttot hef r
idgeandst or
edthe
winetherethenIwal
kedupst ai rsgoti ntomyr oom
unti
edmyshoeswentt othedr awerandpi ckedout
myr edsocksandwor ethem, thel aidonmybed
grabbedmyphoneandmoni t
oredit
.Sinceitwas
onlyKhomotsoandThandowhoknewaboutmy
aborti
onIdeci
dedtotel
lmyotherfr
iendsinthe
groupchatIwr
otealongassparagr
aphexplaini
ng
whyIsawt heneedtodoit
.Theywerealloffl
i
nesoI
text
edVince
Me:
nowI
'
m mi
ssi
ngy
ou
▶Hi
slastseenwashour
sago,
soIcal
l
edhi
m.
Me:
wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
atmyhouse
Me:
tex
tmeI
'
m mi
ssi
ngy
ou.
Vi
nce:
okayl
etmet
exty
out
hen
Me:
nowbbe.
.
Vi
nce:
yesnowl
ol
▶Vi ncetextedbackandwechat tedforanhourif
nottwohour s,tol
dhim Ihadtogowest opped
text
ingandIst oodupf r
om thebedwentt omy
bathroom andpour edwaterandsomef oam bat
h
thenIwentdownst airsgr
abbedthatbottleofwi
ne
outoft hefr
idgeandIalsotookaglasst henIwent
upstairspouredmy sel
fagl assandbat hedwhi l
eon
thesideIwasdr i
nkingwi ne.Af t
erbat hingIgotup
wrappedupmy selfinat owel wentbackt omyr oom
l
ot i
onedwor ePj sgotinbedi twas17: 23Ipour ed
my selfanotherglassofwi net hent ookoutmy
earphonesi nthedr awerandl i
stenedt omusi c,I
drankmywi nebr owsedt hr ought hei nternetand
hadconv er
sati
onsonWhat sAppwi thf r
iends
continuedtopourAnot hergl assandanot her,while
beingbusywi thmyphone.t hiscont i
nuedunt ilIwas
reall
yt i
psyandcompl etelydozedof f
.

▶Fol l
owingdaymydadcamehomef rom his
businesstri
pIhidthatbot t
leofwi ne,andIwas
homei nmyr oom thewhol edayt hatday.Ispent
mostofmyt imeinmyr oom t
hatweekonl ysaw
Vincetwice,mydadwasbusywi thwor khecame
homel ateandalwaysf oundmeasl eeporbat hing
whenhecamehomet heonlytimehesaw/ t
alkedto
mei t'
swhenIwashav ingbreakfast...AndIgotr i
d
ofthebot t
le
▶i t'
sthelastweekofthemont handschool sare
reopeni
ngMonday ,t
odayi
tsSat urdayIjustwokeup
checkedmyphonei twas9:03Il
azi l
ygotoutofbed
fi
xeditandwentt otakeashower .ifi
nished,
l
otionedthenIwor eaboyfr
iendjeanwi thablack
vest,
ti
edmyhai randIwalkeddownst airsandI
foundmydadr eadi
nganewspaperwhi lewatchi
ng
TV.
Me:
Mor
ning
Dad:
kant
yuv
ukaemi
nisowhenI
'
m notar
ound
Me:
its9am dad,
shoul
dImakey
oucof
fee?
Dad:
No,
goandgetdr
essed
Me:
andwher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Dad:
tobuygr
ocer
y
▶i tcli
ckedtomet hati
tstheendoft hemonth,I
headedbackupst airsandwor emyconv er
seshoes
appli
edar edli
pstickt henIwentdownst ai
rs,f
ound
mydadwai ti
ngf ormesoweexi t
edt hehouseand
wedr oveofft
ot hemal l
,ar
rivedparkedthecarand
west ar
tedatMug' N'BeansinceIdi
dn'thave
breakfast..
.Ior
dedacheesecakeandcof
feeandmy
dadt oastedchickenmay
oandcoffee,
whil
eatthe
tabl
e.
Me:
dad,
how'
sgr
ace?
Dad:
shei
sokay
.
Me:
justokay
?
Dad:
yesshe'
sgood
Me:
andj
ason?
Dad:
he'
sgoodt
oo,
whyal
lthi
squest
ions
Me:
Justcur
ious
Dad:
cur
iosi
tyki
l
ledacat
Me:
lol
Dad:
readyf
or3r
dter
m?
Me:uhmmm y
eahIj
ustcan'
twai
tformybi
rt
hday
par
ty
Dad:
Bir
thdaypar
ty?
Me: y
esdadabi r
thdaypartyy
oupr
omi
sedme
..
pleasedon'
ttur
ny ourbackonme
Dad:
obv
iousl
yyouwi
l
lki
l
lmei
fIdosuch.
Me:
sowhat
'st
hebudget
?
Dad:
youonl
ytur
n18oncesonobudget
Me:
nobudget
?
Dad:
yesnobudget
..
▶Ist
oodupi
nexci
tementandhuggedmydad
Me:
thanky
ou,
thanky
ou
Dad:any
thi
ngf
ory
ou,
you'
vemademesopr
oudt
his
year
.
▶Wef ini
shedeating,wentatSpart odogr ocery
shoppi ng,whenwedoshoppi ngwithmydadwebuy
alotofunnecessar ystuf fsoweboughtal otof
thingsandwehadt ohel peachot hercarrytheheavy
plast i
cbagst otheparki nglotandi nser
tthem inthe
car ,
wepackedt hem insi dethecarandwedr oveoff
mydaddr oppedmeof fatt hesalonwhenI
i
mmedi at
elyarr
ivedIst arteddoingmyhai r,charl
i
e
unpl ai
tedwhatIhadon. ..whil
eati t
Hai
rdr
esser
:heeMf
azi
,sot
ell
mear
eyour
eal
l
y
pr
egnant
??
▶Yhuuhesaidthatoutl
oudkeev
ery
onewasnow
l
ookingatusy
ouknowmoshowpeopl eatt
hesal
on
ar
e,Ifakedal
aughandsaid
Me:
No.
..
Hai
rdr
esser
:PhelaIsawyourpostandt
hought
maybeyou'
repl
ayi
ng,youwere?
Me:
Iwasandy
ouguystooki
tser
ious,
Iev
en
r
emovedt
hepi
cdi
dn'
tyousee.
?
Hai
rdr
esser
:Nah,
soy
ouwer
ejustpl
ayi
ng?
Me:yer
p,Vi
nceandIdeci
dedt
opul
lapr
ankony
ou
guy
sanditworked.
Hair
dresser:
ahyphel
ayou'
rest
il
lyoungtohav
ea
baby,andimagi
nemebeingUncle'
Char
li
eyhuuI'
m
notreadyShem
▶Icr ookedasmi l
eandsaidnothi
ngandt henthe
topicwaschanged, hewashedmyhairandr el
axedit
after.
..whendoneIcall
edmydadtocomeandf etch
me, hearriv
edandwewenthomewhenIgothome
thegr oceryweboughtwassti
ll
intheki
tchenfil
led
ont hef l
oor.
Dad:
packandputev
ery
thi
ngwher
eit
'ssupposedt
o
be
Me:
Butdad.
..okay
▶Hepour edhi msel fagl assofguav ajuiceand
headedt othel ounget owat chsocceri twas15: 30I
packedandputev erythingwher eitbelongsal lt
he
bendi ng, str
et chi
ngandst andingbr ought
uncomf ort
ablepai n, fi
nishedt henIheadedupst airs
tooka15mi nut esshowerandIwentt omyr oom
l
ot ionedandIputongr eyt rackpant sanda
ov ersizedbl ackT- shir
t, tookmypi l
lsthenIt ooka
Nap.Iwokeupat7pm wentt ot hetoil
etandI
headedbackt omyr oom, thepai nthatattackedme
whenIent eredmyr oom itwasl i
kesomeonewas
twi sti
ngandpul l
ingmyst omachIsatonmybed
thinkingi twasgoi ngt ost opsoonl i
ket heot her
pai nst hatIusual lyfeel,butt hisonewasv ery
differentIhel dmyst omachandt ookdeepbr eaths
fort hepai nt oslowdown, Icouldfeelmy sel fgetti
ng
dizzybutt herewasabot tlenextt omydr awersoI
tooki tandconsumedt hewat erthatwasi nside,the
pai ncoul dn'tstopmi nuteswentbyIwasst i
llfeeli
ng
painIr egr ettedgoingtodoshoppi ngandcar ryi
ng
heavyst uffthroughouttheday ,allt
hewal ki
ngand
whenIgothomeIpackedt hegroceryIwascer tai
n
thatall oft hatcausedthispain..
.Istar
tedshaking,i
t
wasn' tbecauseIwasscar edbutIl i
ter
allyst
arted
shakingoutoft heblue.
..Ipanickedont heothersi
de
I'
mi npai nandnowI '
m shaking..
.Itookmyphone
andt ext edVi nce.
Me:
VinceI
'
m scar
ed
▶Hei
mmedi
atel
ytext
edback
Vi
nce:
What
'sawr
ong?
▶Hei
mmedi
atel
ycal
l
ed
Vi
nce:
Zamor
ear
eyouokay?
?
▶ItwaswhenIheardhisvoi
ceIst
artedcr
ying,
I
coul
dn'
tut
teranywordsIwasfor
ealsobbi
ng
Me:
Wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
I'
m atwor
k,wher
ear
eyou?
arey
ouokay?
Me:If
eell
ikeI'm goi
ngt
odie,I
'mi
nsomuchpai
n
Vi
nceIdon'tknowwhat'
sgoingon
Vi
nce:
Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
▶JesusChr
istIcr
iedev
enmor
e.
Vi
nce:br
eath,
itwi
l
lpassy
ouknowt
hepai
nsoccur
onandoff
Me:
nott
his.
..
.Vi
ncenott
hist
imear
ound
Vi
nce:
okayI
'
m comi
ng
Me:
mydadi
shome
Vi
nce:
Idon'
tcar
eZamor
eI'
m comi
ng*
cal
lended*
▶If orcedmy sel
ftostandupthr
ought
hepainI
couldntstandupstrai
ghtitf
eltl
i
kemywombwi l
l
tearupi fIdi
d,Isl
owlyopenedmydoorandIcal
l
ed
outmydadoutl oudcryi
ng.
Me:
Daddy
!!
..
.Dad!
!.
.
▶Her
anupt
hest
air
sandsawme
Dad:
Kwenzakal
ani
Nomzamo?
?
▶Sobbi
ng
Me:
Idon'
tknowdad
Dad:
Come,
wear
egoi
ngt
othehospi
tal
▶Hepi ckedmeupgr abbedhiscarkey sl ockedall
thedoors, heputmeont hebackseatIl aidthere
andwedr ov eoff,
whileont heroadIt ookoutmy
phoneinmypocket sandIt ext
edVi ncet hatIwason
mywayt othehospitalwithmydad.Whenmeand
mydadar r
ivedatthehospi t
alwewer eimmedi atel
y
takencareof f,
Iwasputonawheel chairandwas
takentoawar dwhilemydadwai tedint hewai t
ing
area,Iwast akentoar oom whereaNur secamei n
andaskedf ormynameandage, askedwhatwas
wrongandwhathappenedIexpl ai
nedev erythi
ng.
Nurse:okayputstil
l
,don' twor r
ythesethingshappen
youwi l
lbefi
ne,Iwillputy ouonadr i
p,you'
velosta
l
otofbl ood,
andwewi l
lrunsomet est
sjusttomake
surethereweren'
tanycompl icati
onscausedbyt he
abort
ionsurgery,
don' twor r
yokay ?
▶Inooded.
Nurse:AndSinceyoursur
ger
ywasdonehereyour
doctorDrMnisiwil
lcomewit
hyourr
esul
tsand
assi
styou,okay?
Me:
okay
.
▶ Adri
pwasputonandt heyi
njectedmetooksome
ofmybloodt or
unsomet est
s,withi
nanhourmy
dadwalkedin.Myhear
titwasracing,Iwasr
eal
ly
real
l
yscared.
Dad:
youscar
edmepr
incess.
▶Hekissedmyf
orehead,
andIsmil
ed.JustasIwas
aboutt
oaskmydadsomethi
ng,Vi
ncewalkedin
Me:
Vince.
.
▶Hewal
kedt
owar
dsmeandmydad
Dad:
Who'
sthi
s?
▶Dr
Mni
sial
sowal
kedi
ncar
ryi
ngt
her
esul
ts.
..
DrMnisi
:HiNomzamoandVi nce,i
tsver
y
unf
ort
unatethatwemeetagainatthi
sbadt
ime,
Nomzamohowar ey
oufeel
ing?
▶WhatintheDi
sneywor
ldi
sgoi
ngon,
Ineeda
pl
acet
ohide!

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT25

▶Ididn'tev
enhearhal
fofwhatDrMnisi
askedme
myfocuswasonVi nceandmydad,sherepeat
ed
her
selfagai
n
Dr
Mni
si:
Nomzamo?Nt
ombi
howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
I'
m okay
..
.
Dr
Mni
si:
that
'sgood,
Siry
oumustbeMrNt
shangase
▶Handshaki
ngmydad
Dad:
Yesi
tis
DrMnisi
:Nicetomeetyousir
,I'
m DrMnisi
andIhave
yourDaughter
sresul
ts,
itl
ooksli
keyourabort
ion
surger
ywentwell,
youweresupposedtocheckin
Mondayright?
Me:
YesIwas
Dad:
Abort
ionsurger
y??Whatabor
ti
on
Nomzamo?Nurseukhul
umangani
Dr
Mni
si:
Nomzamoy
ourdaddi
dn'
tknow?
Vince:
Baba,Nomzamohadanabor
ti
onwecoul
dn'
t
tel
lyoubecauseshedi
dn'
twa.
..
Dad:Nsizwangi kubuzeusangenanj eemnyango
ukut
hyungubani ,azankeukwazi ukungi
phendul
a
manjeungt shelaukut hi
uNomzamowami hadan
abor
ti
on, Nomz amokhul umauy ekeleukut
hulal
apho
kwenzakalanila? ?
▶OnlygodknowshowcloseIwastoshit
ti
ngmy sel
f,
Iwasli
ter
all
yscar
edIt
ell
y ou,
youcoul
dseethe
angerfi
ll
edinmydadseyes.
DrMni
si:Shoul
dIl
eaveyouguysandcomeback
l
atert
oinformyou?Seemsli
keyouhavei
ssuesto
sol
ve
Me:
Noi
tsf
ine,
am Iokay
?
DrMni si
: yeahyouj usthappenedt oov erwor k
yourselftodayCar ryingheav ystuffstriggeredy our
painsduet othaty ou'velostalotofBl ood, we'v
eal so
foundal cohol i
ny ourbl oodstr
eam, youshoul dn'tbe
mixingal coholandy ourpill
ssoy ou'l
lhav eto
remaini nheref or2-3day sforyout obedi schargedit
willdependony ourpr ogressot herthant hagy ouwi l
l
befineandal
soyoushoul
dn'
tgot
oschool
fort
he
nextcomingweekort
wo.
Vi
nce:
Thankgody
ou'
ref
ine
DrMnisi
:Youguysdon'
thav
etoworr
yabout
anyt
hing,Wi
ll
checkonyoulat
er.
▶Sheexi
tedIwasl
eftwi
thmydadandVi
ncei
nthe
r
oom i
twassoawkward.
Dad:
Nawephuma.
.
▶Vincedi
dn'
tobj
ectnoquest
ionany
thi
nghe
openedt
hedoorandl
eft
.
Me:
DadI
'
m sos.
..
▶Hesatonachai
rthatwascl
oset
omybed.
Dad:sav
emey oursor
rys,whenwereyougoingt
o
tel
lmet haty
ouwer epregnantNomzamo,Ihadt
o
fi
ndoutl i
kethi
s?
▶Tear
srol
l
edef
for
tl
essl
y,Iwasscar
ed,
Iwi
ped
t
hem.
Me:
...
.
Dad:
andWho'
sthatol
dguy
?yourboy
fri
end?
▶hisey
esst ar
tedget
ti
ngtear
yHestoodup,
mydad
wasdevast
ated.Weakist
heri
ghtword.
Dad:
youknowwhatdon'
tanswerme.
▶Hest oodupandlef
t,minutesaftermydadl eft
Vinceopenedthedoorslowlyandhewal ked
towardsmeandhehuggedme. .
didInotcr yeven
mor e.Webrokethehugandhet ookat i
ssuethat
wasbesi demeandhewi pedmyt ear s.
Vi
nce:letyourdadandmebet helastt
hingyou
worr
yaboutpl ease,
rightnowf
ocusongetti
ngbet
ter
.
Wewi l
ldealwiththi
sdr amaaf
ter
Me: notonlydi
dhefindoutabouty
oubutalsothe
aborti
on,Iknowitwasboundtohappenbutli
kethi
s
Vince..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ry.
Me:mydadissoangr
y..
.heev
enshedat
earIf
eel
so
badr
ightnow.
Vince:
andyou'
realsoinpai
n,yourdadwi
l
lbeal
ri
ght
andIwill
befi
ne..
.Stopworr
ying
Me:
youknowheal
socal
l
edy
ouanol
dguy
Vi
nce:
lool
real
l
y??
▶Wel augheditoff
,Vincesatont hechai
rheldmy
handandkeptmecompany ,
hel eftwhenitwasti
me
toleave,Ispentt
hewhol enightthinki
ngaboutmy
dad, cal
ledhim athousandtimesbuthedi dn'
t
answer ,
Sundaymor ningDrMni sicameback.
Dr
Mni
si:
Notl
i
kingourf
oodhuh?
▶Ther
ewasat
rayofuneat
enf
ood
Me:
lol
Notr
eal
l
y
DrMnisi
:Youshoul
dbeabl
etogohomet
odayl
ater,
Icandischar
geyou
Me:
noIdon'
twantt
ogohomepl
easedon'
t.
DrMnisi
:mostpeopl
eli
ket
ogohome,
whyshoul
dn'
t
Idi
schargey
ou?
Me:y
ousawmydadl
astni
ght
,I'
m soscar
edhei
s
goi
ngtof
ini
shmeof
f.
Dr
Mni
si:
trustmehewi
l
lcomear
ound.
▶Shewalkedout,
Irequestedri
cecri
spiesinst
ead
ofwhatt
heygaveme, Iat
et hem f
orbr
eakfastthenI
drankmypi
ll
splay
edgamesonmyphoneVi
nce
call
edmeIanswered.
Vi
nce:
Mor
ningMami
Me:
Hey
Vi
nce:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:bet
ter
,I'
mjusthungr
ytheymaket
hewor
stf
ood
her
e
Vi
nce:
shame,
sorr
yi'
m comi
ngt
oseey
oushoul
dI
br
ingy
ousomethi
ng?
me:
Itsmadcol
dher
e,soaj
ersey
.
Vi
nce:
Okay
,thi
sol
dguyl
ovesy
ou
Me:
lool
stopi
t.
▶Wel aughedandhehangedupIwentbackt o
pl
ay i
nggamesIendedupsl eepinglat
erinthe
after
noonVi ncepayedmeav i
sitduri
nghislunch
break,hewascar r
yingpacketofgrapesand
bananas,aMcDonal d'
sburgerandchi ps+Cof f
ee
andanewy ell
owRedbathoody .
Vi
nce:
doy
oul
i
kei
t?Ther
ewer
esomanycol
our
s
si
ncey
oul
ovey
ell
owIchoset
hatone.
Me:Il
ovei
t,y
our eal
lydidn'
thavet
obuyanewone,
youshoul
d'
vejusttakenyours.
Vi
nce:
Iwasl
azyt
ogoatmypl
ace.
Me:soyousawitbestt
haty
oubuyaR499.99hoody
meanwhil
eyouhaveabunchoft
hem athome
Vi
nce:
stopcompl
aini
ng,
letmehel
pyouweari
t.
▶Hehelpedme,gavememyfoodandIst
art
ed
eat
ingwhi
lehesatonchai
r
Me:soyouact
ual
l
ywentt
oMcDonal
d'
s,t
houghty
ou
hat
eit.
Vince:
Ihateitst
il
l,Iwentther
eforyouandy
ou
complainedaboutbeinghungryso.
..
Me:
ncooh,
thanky
oupapi
Vince:
anyt
hingf
ory
oumami
,sohav
eyout
alkedt
o
yourdad
Me:Notr
eal
ly,
he'
ssoangr
yIdon'
tthi
nkhewi
l
lev
en
cometoday
Vi
nce:
you'
l
lbedi
schar
gedTuesdayr
ight
?may
behe
wi
l
lcomet
omor
row.
Me:naht
omor
rowI
'
m goi
nghome,
wil
lyoupl
ease
f
etchme?
Vi
nce:
yeahIwi
l
l.
..
youdon'
tev
enhav
etoask.
Me:
wantabi
te?
▶Handi
nghi
mthebur
ger
.
Vi
nce:
siesmaar
nZamor
e
▶Ilaughedathim,wechill
edforanhouri twasti
me
forhi
mt ogobacktowor k,hi
slunchbreakwasov er
,
ti
mepassedbyi twas8pm nowmydadhasn' tcal
led
norvi
sit
edme...Well
Isleptandwokeupt henext
dayby10am Iwasbeingdischarged.Vincehas
fet
chedme,it
sme, him andDrMni sii
nt her
oom
DrMni
si:
Takecareofy
our
sel
f,Vi
ncepl
easemake
sur
eshetakescar
e
Vi
nce:
wil
ldodoc
Dr
Mni
si:
seey
ouony
ournextcheckup,
byeguy
s
Me&Vi
nce:
Bye
Me:
She'
ssuchacool
andunder
standi
ngper
son,
manIl
oveher
Vi
nce:
right
?She'
ssosuppor
ti
veal
so
Me:
yeahshei
s..
▶Vi ncecar r
iedmybagandwewal kedoutofthe
room andt hehospital
,gotinsi
det hecarandwe
droveoff.knowingv er
ywel lt
hatmydadwasat
workIaskedhi mtodropmeof fatmyhouse, he
droppedmeof fatmycr i
bandwentbackt owork,I
walkedtowar dsthegatebuzz edit, andIwas
buzzedinbySes' Thoko,sincethehol iday
swereover
shewasback.Iwal kedinandshewel comedme
withahug.
Ses'
Thoko:
uri
ghtst
handwa?
Me:I'
m okay
,Iguessyourpr
ophecywasr
ight
,Idon'
t
wanttoli
eIalmostdi
ed
Ses'Thoko:I
'm gl
adyou'
reokay,
andI'
m backtotake
careofy ou.
..
shoul
dIprepar
eforyouanyt
hing?
Me:Ahugemealpl
ease.
..
thefoodfr
om t
hehospi
tal
washor
ri
bley
ho,andI'
vemi ssedy
ourf
oodsomuch
Ses'
Thoko:
wor
rynomor
e,Igoty
ou.
Me:
Ses'
Thokodi
dyout
alkt
omydad?
Ses'
Thoko:
No,
butheseemeddownandsadwhenI
sawhimthi
smorni
nghewasn'
tasbubbl
y
Me:guessI'
vehurthim anddisappoi
ntedhi
m by
get
tingpregnantandhav i
nganaborti
on
Ses'
Thoko:
youhadanabor
ti
on?
Me:
yeah,
thoughty
ouknew
Ses'
Thoko:No,Ithoughtt
her
ewassomet
hing
wrongwiththebaby.
Me:
No
Ses'
Thoko:
arey
ouokay
Me:
No,
butI
'
llbef
ine
Shehuggedmeoncemor ethenIwentupst ai
rstook
aquickshower ,l
oti
onedwor eaNi ketracksui
tand
socksafterthatIwentdownst air
stoeatandal soto
watchTV. .
.wentthroughmyphonemyf ri
endswere
aski
ngmewher eam I. .
.Andwhydi dn'tIshowupt o
school.
..
Idecidedtof acetimet hem duri
ngbreak
ti
met heywer eallt
alkingatthesamet i
me.
Me:
oneatat
imecannotheary
oual
l
.
Kamo:
Themba(
mydad)washer
e.
Me:
youl
yi
ng
▶Iwasshocked
Kamo:
I'
mtel
l
ingy
ou,
hewasher
etor
epor
tyousi
ck.
Candi
ce:
yousoundshockedwhy
?
Me:mydadmetVi
nce,
andhe'
sangr
ysohedi
dn'
t
t
ell
me
Khomot
so:
metVi
ncekanj
an?
Me:
I'
ll
tel
lyouguy
ssomeot
hert
ime
Khomotso:
andit
'sact
ual
l
yti
met
ogobackt
o
cl
ass.
..
byebabe
Kamo:
byeZamor
e*cal
lended*
▶Iatemyf ood,pl
acedthedishesont hesi
nkandI
wentupstai
rs,
start
edstudy
ing3rdt er
mswor kand
t
ookabr eakbytaki
nganap, mydadcameback
f
rom workat15:36walkedi
nmyr oom shookmeto
wakeup,Iwokeup.
Dad:
Comedownst
air
snow.
▶Hewal kedoutandwentdownst air
s,Igotoutof
thebedworemysleepersandIwal keddownstair
s,
hewassitti
ngonhiscouch,notknowingifhewillhi
t
meIsatfarawayfrom hi
m.
Dad:
am Inotdoi
ngenoughf
ory
ouasapar
ent
?
Me:
dady
ouar
e
Dad:
am Ibadpar
entt
oyou?
Me:NoDad,daddyIpr
omiseyou,
you'
ret
hebest
f
ather
,you'
reagoodparent
.
Dad:Nomzamo,
somethingsoimport
anthappened
i
ny ourl
i
feandyoucoul
dn'tev
entel
lme.
Me:Ididn'twanttodisappointyou,youalway spraise
me.Ijustcoul dn'
tbarethethoughtofdisappoi nt
ing
you,andlosingaoncei nali
fet
imeoppor tunityofa
Witwatersrandscholarshi
p,youknowhar di tisto
getinatWi ts.Idi
dn'thaveamot hergrowingupI
don'twantt oendupl i
kemymot herandfailingmy
chi
ld.
▶Att
hispoi
ntIwascr
ying,
tear
srol
l
ing,
hiccupsand
al
lIwasamess.
Dad:Iwouldhav
esuppor
tedy
out
hroughi
tal
lyou
knowthat.
Me:
sti
l
lyouwoul
dbedi
sappoi
nted,
dadIknowy
ou.
Dad:
...You'
reri
ghtandyouwon'tendupli
keyour
mother,you'
rel
oving,
respect
ful
andstr
ong.You'
re
not
hinglikeher
!
▶Si
l
ence
Dad:You'
rewaytooyoungt
obeevendat
ingor
havi
ngsex,thaty
oungmanisol
dert
haty
ouishe
yourboyf
ri
end?
Me:
yes,
andhe'
snotol
ddad
Dad:
didhef
orcey
out
oter
minat
ethebaby
?
Me:
No!Noi
twasmyi
dea
Dad:
he'
snotol
dyousay
,howol
dishe?
Me:
..
..
Dad:
Nomzamo!
??
Me:
twent
y..
..
.f
our
Dad:
24!!Fr
om nowonyou'
renol
ongerseei
nghi
m
andt
ell
him Ineedt
oseehi
m
Me:
tooseehi
m?dadIdon'
t.
..
▶Hest oodupandleft,
needtoseehi
m?Hechased
hi
m outatthehospi
talwhywouldhewantt
osee
hi
m,whatar et
heygoingtotal
kabout
?

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT26

▶Ialsostoodupandwentt otheki
tchengrabbed
somewat erandthenIwentupst
air
s,goti
ntomy
room andIconti
nuedtostudy
,at17:
00Ses'Thoko
knocked.
Me:
Comei
n.
▶Shegoti
nsi
de
Ses'
Thoko:
I'
mleav
ing,
comegi
vemeahug
▶Ist oodup, huggedhergoodbyeandshel
eft,
I
wentbackt obed.Af terst
udyi
ngIdi
dn'
tgo
downst ai
rsforsupper ,
Ishower
edandwentbackt
o
bedt osleep,thenextdaycamedadwenttowork,
ses'Thokowasar oundcheckinguponmeevery
si
ngl ehour,at12:04whi l
eIwasbusyst
udyi
ng
Vincecalledme.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
heypapi
Vi
nce:
Howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m good,
justbor
ed
Vi
nce:
you'
real
way
sbor
ed
Me:
Imi
ssschool
bbe.
Vi
nce:
justacoupl
eofday
slef
t
Me:
youmeanaweekandacoupl
eofday
s
Vi
nce:
hahaha,
yeaht
hat
Me:papisi
nceyou'
rewor
kingf
rom homet
odaycanI
comevisi
tyou?
Vi
nce:
wewon'
twat
cht
wil
i
ghtmov
iesr
ight
?
Me:
lool
no
Vi
nce:
okaycome.
..
Me:
wil
lyouunbor
eme?
Vi
nce:
yesbbeIwi
l
l
Me:
okaycomef
etchme.
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e!I
tsa1mi
nut
ewal
knj
ena,
come.
Me:
Nopapi
youcome.
.
Vi
nce:
okay
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
l
ovey
ou.
..
*cal
lended*
▶Igotupf r
om thebedwor emysandals,
fixedmy
hai
rappli
edapinklipgl
ossandIwalkeddownstai
rs,
Ses'
Thokowasint heloungecl
eani
ng.
Me:
I'
m goi
ngout
,I'
l
lbebacknownow
Ses'
Thoko:t
hankGod,y
ou'v
ebeenl ockedupiny
our
room si
nceyoucameBackfrom t
hehospital
.
▶Ibuzzedmysel
fout
, IsawVincel
eani
ngonhiscar,
athi
shouseIst
oodnearmygat eandcr
ossedmy
armshestar
tedwal
kingt owar
dsme,heevent
ual
ly
gott
ome
Vi
nce:
yourbor
edom makesy
oudowei
rdt
hingsne.
Me:noIsai
dfet
chme, Ishoul
dbeinbednowsoy
ou
cancar
rymetoyourhouse.That
'sf
etchi
ng
someone
Vi
nce:
lool
,yane
Me:
yeahl
et'
sgo.
▶Wewal
kedhandi
nhandt
ohi
shouse,
goti
nsi
de,
I
wentst
raighttothef
ridget
ookoutabucketofi
ce
cr
eam and2t easpoonsandweheadedupstair
sto
hi
sroom.Wel aidonthebedatethei
cecream whi
l
e
j
ustchi
ll
ingandtalki
ng.
Vi
nce:
sobasi
cal
l
yyou'
ret
ell
i
ngmey
ouwant3r
ings?
Me:
yes.
.wel
li
tshowIpl
annedmyl
i
fe
Vi
nce:
Ifeel
sor
ryf
orwhoi
sgoi
ngt
omar
ryy
ou.
Me:
niggasaywhat
?
Vince:j
ustki
ddingbaby
,pr
omiseri
ng2017,
engagementri
ng2019weddingr
ing2020
Me:
2020?I'
l
lbe23Ican'
tbemar
ri
edat23l
ol
i
magine.
Vi
nce:Iwantt
ogetmar
ri
edat30I
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
wai
tforyouMina.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:wheny
ou'
re30I
'
llbe24wowIcan'
tyou'
reol
d
Vi
nce
Vi
nce:
nowy
ou'
ret
ell
i
ngmet
hatI
'
m ol
dli
key
ourdad
Me:
papi
,tal
ki
ngaboutmydadhewant
stoseey
ou
Vi
nce:
what
?
Me:
hesai
dImustt
ell
yout
hat
..
Vi
nce:
when?
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..
Vi
nce:
mustIwearasui
twhenIgot
oseehi
m?
Me:
ahmmm y
ouknowwhat
..
.
▶Isatupstrai
ght
,andst
art
edundr
essi
nghi
m,hi
s
bl
ackT-shi
rt
.
Me:
youmustwear
..
.li
ke.
..Thi
s
Vi
nce:
you'
reget
ti
ngnaught
y
Me:
am I?
▶Ileanedoverandwestart
edkissing,
itwasalong
anti
cipat
edki
ss..
.Wearehardl
yinti
mat el
atel
y.Af
ter
anhourortwoofkissi
ngandcuddlingwetookanap
wokeupat17:25, Vi
ncecompaniedmehome. when
IgothomeSes'Thokowasexit
ingthehouse.
Ses'
Thoko:
yourf
oodi
sint
heov
en,
seey
ou
tomorr
ow
Me:
okay
,uhambekahl
e
▶Igoti nsi
dewentupstai
rschil
ledonmybed,
l
ist
enedt omusicconti
nuedtochatwit
hfri
endson
socialmedia,
at18:03whenmydadar ri
vedhecame
str
aightint
omyr oom andknocked.
Me:
youcancomei
n
Dad:
prepar
eyour
sel
fwear
egoi
ngout
Me:
now?
Dad:yeah,
wit
hGr aceandhersonandmay
bey
ou
cangetyourmindofthi
ngs.
Me:
okay
..
.l
etmegetup
▶Hecl osedthedoor ,Iwenttot hebat hroom t ooka
qui
ckbat hwentbackt omyr oom openedt he
wardr
obeandpi ckedoutsomecl othest hatI'l
lwearI
pi
ckedoutabl ackjean,whiteadi dassuperst ar,
whi
tevestandt hey el
lowRedbatj ersey.Appl i
ed
makeupmar oonl ipsti
ck.Iwalkeddownst air
sf ound
mydadwai ti
ngf ormei nthekitchencount erhet ook
hi
skeysandwewal kedtothegar age.
Dad:
Mubi
whi
chcar
?
Me:
Cher
okee?
Dad:
okayl
et'
susewi
tht
hewhi
tegr
andCher
okee
▶wewalkedtothecar
,gotinsi
deandwedr oveoff
i
nthecarmydadcall
edgracetoinf
orm herthatwe
wer
eont heway
..
Grace:
weareal
readyher
e,shoul
dweor
derf
ory
ou
guysorwai
t?
Dad:wewil
lbet
her
einl
esst
han10mi
nut
esdon'
t
st
ressi
t.
Gr
ace:
okayl
ove,
seey
ounownow.
▶Lov
e??Lov
e??
Dad:
okay*
cal
lended*
▶MyDadt hough,
notev
enan"Il
ovey ou",
Ilooked
athi
m becauseIhear
dthewor
d"love"veryclear
.
Dad:
what
?
Me:
not
hing
▶Ilookedaway ,Ir
efr
ainedf
rom t
easi
nghi
m wit
h
theword"love"Ihear
d,wearen'
tbackt
onormalyet
soIkeptquiet.
Dad:
wher
edi
dyougett
hatj
ersey
?
Me:
huh?
Dad:
didhebuyi
tfory
ou?
Me:
No,
dadSes'
Thokoboughti
tforme.
Dad:Itol
dSes'
Thokonottogoandv
isi
tyou,
sonow
hetaughtyouhowtol
ie?
Me:
No
Dad:
didheordi
dhenotbuyy
out
hej
ersey
Nomzamo?
Me:
hedi
d.
▶Il
ookedout
sidet
hewi
ndow.
Dad:
socl
ear
lyhei
ssayi
ngIdon'
tbuyyouclot
hes?
Nowhewant
stofat
hery
ouandbuyy oucl
othes?
Me:
No,
heboughti
tbecause.
..
.
Dad:Idon'
twanttohearit
..
..Di
dyoutel
lhi
m Iwant
toseehim?Becauseitbet
terbesoon
Me:
Iwi
l
l.
..
▶Af
tert
hathekeptqui
et,
wear
ri
vedatMar
ble
rest
aurant,
Him andGracebookedatabl
eand
ever
ythingwearri
vedatthetabl
eJayandhi
smom
werejustsi
tti
ngther
edrinki
ngwater
,Jaywasbusy
onhisphone.
Dad:
goodev
eni
ng
▶Gracest
oodup,cheekki
ssedandhuggedmydad,
sheal
sohuggedme
Gr
ace:
hel
l
o
Me:
hima'
am
▶MydadandJayhandshaked.
Weal
lsatdown
Me:
Hi
Jay
:Hi
▶Wai t
ercameaskedf orourorder s,weal l
or dered
thesamemeal steak,ri
bs,butt
ernutsquash, white
saucedspinach,potatochipsont hesi deandbeer
formydadandJay, Redwi neforGr aceandOr ange
Juiceforme...Guys!thattimeI'm cravingforwhi te
winesobadl y
, wetalkedl i
kenothinghappenedi n
thecarweal lbondedsowel l
..
.wewer ehavingaf un
eveningIexcusedmy selfwenttot heladiestoilet,I
usedthetoil
etandcameback.Jaywasnowal
onei
n
thet
ableIjoi
nedhim.
Me:
wher
ear
ethey
?
Jay:
mymom boughty ourdadagi
ftsot
heywent
andfet
chedi
tinhercar.
Me:
okay
.
Jay
:youandy
ourdadar
esocl
oseIl
ovet
hebond.
Me:
yeahwear
e..
▶Whyam Il yi
ng?ButI'
m not.
.meandmydadar e
closejustnotl
atelywe'
vebeengoingthr
oughsome
thingsbutIwasn'tgoi
ngtodiscl
oseoursit
uat
iont
o
j
ay .
Jay:Iwi
shIhadt
hatwi
thmydadhey,mymom has
beensadsi
ncemydaddiv
orcedher
.
Me:
div
orced?
Jay:yeahmymom i sadivorcée,
mydadwasal ame
assniggadidn'
tappr
eciatemymom andst
uffbut
yourdad,wowhel ovesher.
Me:
hedoes?
Jay
:yeah,het
reat
susri
ght,andmakesmymom
l
aughIwishmydaddidthatbutInowseey
oursad
asmydad
Me:
wow,that
'sni
cet
houghthatshef
inal
l
yfound
t
heonewhomakesherhappy.
Jay
:yeahy
ou'
rer
ight
.
Me:
doy
ouhav
esomeonewhomakesy
ouhappy
?
Jay:
hahahahowdi
dthet
opi
cmov
efr
om mymom
andyourdadt
ome?
Me:
I'
mjustaski
ng.
Jay
:wel
l
...
.Ei
sh.
..Ido
Me:
okay
..
..
Jay
:youdon'
tbel
i
evet
hatdoy
ou?
Me:
yeahIdon'
t.
Jay
:Ido,
honest
ly
Me:
sur
eyoudo.
▶I'
dbedisappoi
ntedi
fhedidn'
thav
eagi r
lf
ri
end,j
ay
i
say ummycolor
edguy,yel
l
owbone,thi
ckeyebr
ows,
browney es,hasadimpl
eandhedr essesnicewho
wouldn'tdat
ehim, I
'
m suregirl
sfai
ntwhentheysee
him andhe'sarappersoheusespunchlineson
them, i
fhewasn'tmystepbr ot
herwewouldbe
tal
kinganotherstor
yherelool.
Jay
:andy
ou?
Me:
Me?
Jay
:yeahdoy
ouhav
eaboy
fri
end?
Me:
yeahi
do
Jay
:howl
onghav
eyouguy
sbeendat
ing?
Me:
4-5mont
hs
Jay
:lol
real
l
y?
Me:
whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?
Jay:howyouanswered,"y
eahIdo"i
thadthat
conf
identvoi
ce,
Ithoughtyouwer
egoingt
osay3
year
s.
Me:
lool
wowI
'
m hur
t
Jay
:any
waycanIgety
ournumber
s?
Me:
yessur
e
▶ Weexchangednumber sMydadandGr acecame
backanditwast i
met ogoweal lhuggedandsaid
goodbyepromisedeachotherthatwewi ll
dothis
again.Wedrov
eof f,
gothomewentupst ai
rsand
changedtoPJsanddozedof fwhi l
eIwast ext
ing
Vincetel
l
inghi
m aboutmyni ght.

▶2day spassedIkeptmy selfbusybyst udy i

ng
l
isteningtomusi calltheti
mej usttogetmymi ndof f
thi
ngsandi twor ked,itwasnowFr idayafternoonmy
dadhasn' tmetVi ncenortalkedabouthi m.I '
m
preparingtogoandsl eepoveratVi nce'shouse, my
dadsnothomehe' sonabusi nesstri
pandhe' s
comi ngbackTuesdayy ouguy sknowt hedr i
llnow.
AsIwassay ing,I'
m busylotioningli
steningtomusi c,
Istandupf rom thebedandIst ar
teddressingIwor e
ablack2pacT- shir
tandBumshor t
,converseshoes
andIt iedupmyhai ri
ntoabunappl iedapi nklipst
ick
andIwentdownst ai
rs.
Ses'
Thoko:
goi
ngsomewher
e?
Me:
No,
justwannat
akepi
cs
Ses'
Thoko:Okay
..
.I'
mleav
ingal
ready
..Need
anyt
hing?
Me:
yescany
oupl
easet
akepi
ctur
esofme?
Ses'
Thoko:
Wheni
m notar
oundwhot
akesy
ourpi
cs?
Me:
mydadorIwai
tunt
ily
ou'
reback.
Ses'
Thoko:
uThembawabant
ulet
'sgo.
▶Wewentt ot hef r
ontlawnandSes' Thokot ook
pict
uresofme, Il
ookedsocut eev enpostedoneof
thepicsinFacebookandchangedmypr ofi
lepicture
onWhat sAppsamet i
me.Wel lSes'
ThokoleftIwent
upstair
stookmysmal lbagandIwentdownst air
s
readytogo,Igotoutoft hehouselockedthedoor
andlockedthegat et henIwalkedtoVince'shouse
gothim andMuzi playi
ngFIFA,Ijoi
nedinandpl ay ed
withthem IbeatMuzi 1-0.
Muzi
:youwer
ejustl
ucky
Me:
lool
noIbeaty
ourassf
airandsquar
e.
Vi
nce:
Muzi
udl
i
weumf
azi
??
Muzi
:Zamor
echeat
edmaan.
▶Vi ncelaughedathi
m sobad,If
eltsor
ryf
orhi
m
therewasaknockont hedoorIst
oodupand
attendedit
.Who'sknocki
ng?
?thesetwohardl
yhav
e
visit
ors.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT27

▶ IWal
kedtothedooropenedi
t,i
twasVi
nceand
Muzi
sfr
iend.
Me:
Hey
Hi
m:Hi
Me:
Youcancomei
n..
▶Hewal
kedi
n..
Hi
m:I
'
m Per
cybyt
heway
Me:
sor
rywher
ear
emymanner
sI'
m..
.
Per
cy:don'
tworr
yIknowyourname,you'
re
NomzamoI '
mlooki
ngfort
hoseguys.
.
▶Poi
nti
ngatVi
nceandMuzi
Me:
ohcome.
▶Wewal kedt
othel
ounge,
theygr
eet
edeachot
her
andHesatdown.
Per
cy:
Ngat
hyy
a'l
lai
n'
tready
.
Muzi
:I'
mready
,Vi
ncei
stheoneWho'
snotr
eady
Per
cy:bruhyouor
gani
zedt
hiswhol
eshi
tnowy
ou
ar
en'
tready
Vi
nce:
EishI
'
llber
ightback.
..
▶Hegotupandwentupst
air
s
Muzi
:i
ts7pm dawghur
ry.
Per
cy:
Zamor
euhambanat
hi?
▶Conf
usedasf
uckIask
Me:
wher
e?
Per
cy:
Taboo
Me:
ahmmm,
no
Muzi
:Zamor
eisunderaged
Me:
Ayt
sekwena
▶Wel aughed,wellIdidn'
tknowthatVincewas
goingoutImeanhedi dn'tt
ellme.
.af
tersomefew
conver
sationswit
ht heguysIgotupandwent
upstai
rstoVince'
sroom.
Me:
youdi
dn'
ttel
lmet
haty
ou'
regoi
ngoutt
oni
ght
?
Vi
nce:
itsl
i
ppedmymi
nd
Me:itsl
i
ppedy
ourmi
nd?
?Thenwhatam Idoi
ng
her
e?
Vince:t
ovisitandspendt
imewi
thme,
I'
m notgoi
ng
tosleepattheclubnowcomeon.
▶Thi
ngsescal
atedqui
ckl
ybecausewewer
enow
ar
gui
ng.
Me:
comeon?
?OhokayI
'
m goi
nghomet
hen
Vi
nce:
I'
m comi
ngbackNomzamo,soyoudon'
twant
metogoandhavef
unwit
hmyf r
iends?
Me: Idi
dn'tsayt
hat,whatyoushoul
dhavedoneis
tel
lmet hatyou'
regoingout,
andIwoul
dn'thav
e
came.
Vi
nce:
wel
lIdi
dn'
t.
..
Me:
mxm.
Vi
nce:
stopbei
ngdr
amat
ic
▶Heshowednosi gnofbacki
ngdownandnotgo,
hewasleav
ingShem homeboywasnowpouringhi
s
col
ogneonhist
-shir
tandJacket
.
Vi
nce:
I'
mleav
ing,
comeher
e.
▶Hewal kedt
owardsme, gavemeaf oreheadkiss
andhewal keddownstai
rsandt heyl
eft
,mxm all
aloneandboredIwenttot hekit
chenmademy self
fooddrankmypill
sandwentt othel
oungeplayed
FIFAallbymyself
,soonreali
zeditwas23:14to
unboremy sel
fIwentupstair
ssatonthebedand
call
edKhomo.
Me:
justchecki
ngupony
ou,
yougood?
Khomotso:
lool
itsal
most23:
30Zamor
e,ar
eyou
bored?
Me:yeahwai
ti
ngf
orVi
ncet
ocomebackf
rom
cl
ubbing
Khomotso:l
oolhe'
scomingbackt
omor
rowi
nthe
ear
lyhoursyoubet
tersl
eep.
Me:
ne?I
'
vebeenwai
ti
ng
Khomot
so:yeahsl
eep.
..
hewi
l
lwakey
ouupwhenhe
comesback
Me:
how'
sthebaby
?
Khomot
so:
She'
sgoodl
oldon'
tyoucar
eaboutme?
Me:
lool
Icar
eal
oty
ouknow.
..
howar
eyou?
Khomotso:
I'
m goodj
ustt
ir
edcan'
twai
ttogi
vebi
rt
h,
thanky
ouforaski
nghowarey
ou?
Me:
Copi
ng.
..
Khomot
so:
comebackImi
ssy
ou.
Me:
I'
ll
beback
Khomot
so:
Ilov
eyou.Hav
etosl
eepnow
Me:
goodni
ght
,lov
eyoumor
e.
▶Gotupf rom thebed, wentt ot akeabat h, came
backl otionedwor eani ght dressgoti nbedandI
slept.Don' tknowwhatt imeVi ncegothomebut
whenIwokeupi nthemor ni
nghewasnextt ome
sleepingandsnor i
ng, Iwokeupt ookabat hst raight
away ,lotionedwor eblackt i
mber l
andboot s,blue
j
ean, blackl ongsleevedt -shirtItuckeditin, i
twasa
bitchill
yout sidefixedmyhai randappl i
edsome
makeupITi edmyhai rintoabun, mascar a,eyeliner
andr edl ipst i
ck.Wentbackt ot heroom andopened
thecur tains. .
.Thelightwasamazi ngIstartedt aking
pics..
..Vincewasdeadasl eepIt ellyouhedi dnthear
at hi
ng, Idi dn'twanttodi sturbhi m soIwal ked
downst airst omakemy sel facer ealasIwasbusy
pouri
ngcornfl
akesi
ntoabowl
,Muzi
walks
downstai
rswithsomegi
rlt
heyar
ewerelaughi
ng
sti
l
labitdrunk.
Gi
rl
:hey
Me:
Hi
Muzi
:mor
ningZamor
e,pl
easemakemesome.
▶Muzi wal
kedthegi
rlout
,hecal
l
edanuberdr
ive
f
orher,hecamebackImadehim acer
eal
sohe
j
oinedme.
Me:
sowhat
'shername?
Muzi
:Shant
elorAshant
i?I
'
m notsur
e.
Me:
whatdoy
oumeany
ou'
renotsur
elol
.
Muzi:l
oolIj
ustwant
edt
obang,
Idon'
treal
l
ycar
e
abouther
.
Me:
whati
fshe'
stheone
Muzi
:ohnoshe'
snot
,itwasj
ustaoneni
ghtst
and.
Me:sowheny
ouoneni
ght
standdoy
ouusea
condom?
Muzi:
ofcour
se,whati
fshehasHI
V,STDsandhas
doneahundr
edsofabort
ions.
▶Di
dhej
ust
?Ohwowj
ustwow.
Me:
youcoul
dhav
ejusty
esi
phel
elapho
Muzi:y
oushoul
dn'
thavedoneityou'
resobeaut
if
ul
youseenowInolongert
rusty
ell
owbones.
Me:that'
snotagoodthi
ngtosayMuzi
,i
twasa
deci
sionVinceandImade.
Muzi:Noi
twasn't
..
.wel
li
tdoesn'
tmat
terbecause
youdidi
tyouknewwhatyouweredoi
ngyouwanted
t
okill
thebaby.
▶Thi sguywasbusychowinghi
scereal
,cl
ear
lyhe
di
dn'tseethathi
swordswerehurt
ingme,t
ohim we
werehavinganormalconv
ersat
ion
Me:NoIdidn'
t,
anddon'
ttal
kaboutsomet
hingy
ou
don'
tknowabout
Muzi:
Idon'tknow,soy
ousay..
..Vi
ncewantedthe
babyhewasr eadyt
obeafat
herandyoutookthat
awayfrom hi
m hewashur
tandissti
ll
hurt
.
▶Istoodupwentupst
air
sIj
ustcoul
dn'
ttakei
tno
more
Muzi:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?Pl
easepassmet
he
sugar
.
▶Iignor
edhi
m,openedt
hedoorf
oundVi
nce
makingt
hebed.
Vi
nce:
Mor
ning
Me:
doy
ouhat
e/bl
amemef
orabor
ti
ngourbaby
Vi
nce:
what
??wher
edoest
hiscomef
rom
▶Iwal
kedt
omybag
Me:
Iwantt
ogohome
Vince:now?Why
?Zamorewet al
kedabout
yester
dayIfy
outhi
nkIwentt
herebecauseoft
he.
..
.
Me:
thi
sisnotabouty
est
erdayVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
thewhati
sitabout
?
Muzi
:Muzi
sai
dsomehur
tful
thi
ngst
ome.
Vi
nce:
Whatdi
dhesay
?
Me:
Ijustwantt
ogohome.
..
▶Ist
art
edPacki
ng,
zi
ppedi
t,gr
abbedi
tandIwal
ked
t
owar
dsthedoor
Vi
nce:
tel
lme,
whatdi
dhesay
?
Me:youknowhowhef eel
saboutmyaborti
on,
you
knowthestuf
fst
hatyouguystal
kaboutsowhy
don'
tyougoanddiscussmeagainwi
thhim?
Vi
nce:
Mami
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?I'
mlost
▶IpushedVinceback,
becausehewasbl ocki
ngt
he
door,
Iopeneditandwentdownst
air
s,Vince
fol
l
owedme, Muziwascomingupthestairs.
Vi
nce:
whatdi
dyousayt
oNomzamo?
Muzi
:not
hingwewer
ejustt
alki
..
.
▶Hepushedhi m downt hedownst ai
rsMuzi r
olled
backdownwhi l
eVi nceranandj umpedonhi m,
punchinghi m askinghim whathesai d..
.Atthispoint
I'
m beggingVi ncet oletgoofMuzi ,hewas
straggli
nghim, I'
m screami ng"youwi l
lki
llhi
m,
Vincestopi t
"...
Vincei stell
i
ngmenott oget
i
nv olv
ed...Guysitwasugl ythi
nkingaboutthisnow
I'
ml aughing..
.Vincef i
nallylet
'
sgoofMuzi seeing
thathewasn'
tfi
ght
ingbackanymor
e..
.Hest
ands
upandMuzi i
ssti
ll
onthefloor
.
Muzi
:yout
rynnaki
l
lmehuh?
Vi
nce:
justt
ell
mewhaty
ousai
dtoNomzamo.
..
Muzi
:br
uhIsai
dnot
hingt
oZamor
e,
Vi
nce:
wel
lyour"
not
hing"hur
ther
..
.
Muzi
:how?I
'
m sor
ryi
fitdi
dthoughI
..
.
Me:
Noi
tsf
ine.
..
Vince:NoZamoreitsnotfi
neMuzimustcounthi
s
wordswhenhet al
ks,nextt
imewatchwhatyousay
becauseIwil
lst
rangleyouunt
ily
oudie,
don't
di
srespectmygirl
.
Muzi
:sur
e..
what
everdawg
▶hewal
kedupst
air
s
Vi
nce:babypl
easedon'
tgo.
Me:Ir
eal
lywantt
ogo,
I'
ll
seey
oul
atery
oucan
comeover.
Vi
nce:
noy
ou'
renotl
eav
ing.
▶het
ookmybagsandwentupst
air
s.
Vi
nce:
fol
l
owme.
▶WellIhadnotchoicebuttofoll
owhim upstai
rs
homeboywaspissedoffIresi
stedI'
m sureIwas
goi
ngtogetstr
anglednami Heplacedmybagwher e
i
twasandmademesi tonthebednextt ohim.
Vince:
Muzi i
sdrunk,
yousawandwhendr unkhe
tal
ksshit
.Ifhi
swordshur
tyouI'
m sor
ry.
..
Me:
ok
Vince:yeahIl
oveyou,andIwil
lneversayany
thing
badabouty outoanyoneI
'l
lrat
hertel
lyouinyour
facethantosayitbehi
ndyourback.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
Vi
nce:
youl
ookbeaut
if
uluy
aphynaeksenso?
Me:
lool
nowher
e
▶Wehugged, Vincewentt obathIsatont hetoil
et
sitandwaitedforhimt obath,
afterbathi
ngwewent
tohisroom heloti
onedwor eapol owhiteT-shir
t,
blacktr
ackpant sandAdidassandalswent
downstair
sImadebr eakf
astforhim..wespentthe
whol
edayi
nhi
sbedi
twascol
dout
side.
Me:It
houghti
'dheary
ouwheny
oucomeback
homeIdi
dn't
Vince:Muziandthatgir
lwer
emaki
ngalotofsexual
noisesitwastr
aumat i
zi
ngandy
oudidn'
theara
thi
ng?
Me:
lol
yeah,
thatt
imey
oucan'
thav
esex.
Vince:whenar
ewegoi
ngt
omakel
ove?I
'
m sexual
l
y
fr
ustrat
ed
Me:
AugustorSept
ember
Vi
nce:
what
???
?
Me:Iknowi
tst
oolongbutyou'
l
lwai
tformer
ight
?
won'
tdooneni
ghtstandsl
i
kehim
Vi
nce:
ahmm y
eah.
Me:
thatwasnotconv
inci
ng
Vi
nce:
Iwont,
youknowme.
..
tr
ustmeIwon'
t.
▶Wespentt hewholeweekendindoorscuddl
i
ng,
ki
ssing,
watchi
ngmov i
es,pl
ayi
nggames, andt
alki
ng
Sundayaft
ernoonIwentbackhome...
▶Theweekstart
ed, asplannedIdidn'
tgotoschool
ItwasaMondayall
ofmyf ri
endssurpri
sedand
cameoveri
ntheafternoontopaymeav isi
t,I
buzzedt
hem i
nandt heywal kedi
n.
Me:
ya'
l
lar
esobeaut
if
ul,
I'
vemi
ssedy
a'l
lsomuch
▶TheyhuggedmeCandiceandkamowentst
raight
t
othefri
dgeandst
artedmaki
ngfood.
..
.weal
lsaton
t
heloungeandwatchedTV.
Kamo:
sot
ell
usabouty
ourdadmeet
ingVi
nce.
Me:
Yhoguy
sIwasnotr
eadyt
hatni
ght
..
.
▶It
oldt
hem t
hewhol
est
ory
.
Kamo:I
'm sur
eyouwerecr
yingwheny
ourdadmet
hi
m andtal
kedtoyouaf
ter
wards?
Khomot
so:
Zamor
eiscr
ybaby
,vel
eshecr
ied.
▶Wel
aughed
Candi
ce:
isn'
ti
tpai
nful
??t
heabor
ti
on
Me:itwashell
,henceIendedupi
nhospi
tal
butI
'
m
get
ti
ngbetterasdaysgoby .
Nat
asha:
nextweeky
ou'
regoi
ngbackt
oschool
?
Me:
Yeah.
..
Kamo: Heey
ouwon'
tbel
i
eve,
Mduduzi
isdat
ing
Minenhle
Me:
What
??
Kamo:hef
inal
l
ymov
edonf
rom y
ou,
youbr
okehi
s
hear
t
Me:
Idon'
tdat
eschool
kidsawaguy
s,goodf
orhi
m
▶Theyl
aughed
Natasha:
whyar
eyouguy
snotspi
l
li
ngt
het
eaabout
kamo?
Kamo:
wenaNat
ashauy
aphaphane
Me:
whataboutkamoguy
stel
lme.
Khomotso:
wuumar
aNat
asha,
lool
kamonol
onger
usest
hebus
Me:
Ehsowhatdoessheuse?
Nat
asha:
Chr
is.
Khomot
so:
commi
tt
ed,
fai
thf
uli
skamosnewname.
▶Ilaughedhar
datt
his,
becausei
twasnot
hingl
i
ke
kamo.
Kamo:
niy
aphaphasi
es.
Me:soMkhozi
youl
i
keThem whi
te,
youl
i
ket
hedi
ck
Pi
nk?
Kamo:
mxm

▶Itwasal ongfunaf ter

noon,latert
hatdaymydad
andIaccompani edthem totheirhouseswhenwe
gothomeIshower edt al
kedtoVi nceovert
hephone
befor
eIsleep,gotintotobedanddozedof f

#NomzamosDi
ary
Vi
nce+Nomzamo=Zamonce
#I
NSERT28

▶Iwokeupthefol
l
owingmorni
ngf i
xedmybed,had
aqui
ckshowert
henIwentdownstai
rsforbr
eakfast
f
oundSes'
Thokomaki
ngmecof f
ee.
Me:
goodmor
ning
Ses'
Thoko:morni
ngNtombi,j
ustwhenIwasabout
togoupstai
rst
otell
youthatyourbr
eakf
asti
sready
.
Me:
howar
eyou?
Ses'
Thoko:
I'
m goodandy
ou?
Me:
goodt
oo.
..
justhungr
y
Ses'
Thoko:
her
e'sy
ourf
ood
▶Shegavememypl ateandcoffeeonthepl
ate
t
herewasbaconandcheesetoastedbr
eadwith
mushr
oomsont hesi
depluscoffee.
Me:
hmmmm j
ustwhatIneeded.
▶Ist
art
edMunchi
ng.
Ses'
Thoko:
yourdadaskedmeaboutVi
nce.
Me:
Vince?
?WhataboutVi
nce?
Ses'
Thoko:
Ukut
hyuhl
alaphi
.
Me:
Ses'
Thokoser
ious?
?Andwhatdi
dyousay
?
Ses'
Thoko:
ItoldhimthatIdon'
thi
m atal
l
...
het
ri
ed
descr
ibi
nghim andIi
nsist
edonnotknowinghi
m
Me:
you'
ret
hebestl
ool
Ses'
Thoko:
hedi
dn'
tbuymyst
ory
,youknowy
our
dadcanspotal
i
ar.
..
Me:It
houghthehasfor
gottenaboutVi
ncebecause
weonl
yspokeabouthim once.
Ses'
Thoko:l
etmegoandi ronyourdadsshi
rt
s
upst
air
ssizoxoxal
aterwhenI'
m done.
Me:
okay
.
▶Iseriouslyt
houghtmydadhasfor
gottenaboutMe
andVince.Aft
ereat
ingbr
eakf
astIwentupst
airsand
cal
ledmydad.
Dad:
Pri
ncess
Me:
Dad,
Ineedmoney
Dad:
Moneyf
or?
Me:
tobuyPl
aySt
ati
on
Dad:
Playst
ati
on?mubi
isn'
tthatt
hingf
orboy
s?
Me:
Wel
lmostoft
het
imebutIwanti
t.
..
Dad:l
aterwhenIknockof
f,I
'
llcal
lyouwecanmeet
att
hemal latGamesoyoucanbuyi t
.
Me:
itsR2499,
99byt
heway
Dad:
justgetr
eadyi
nti
me
Me:
thanky
ouDad.
..
seey
oul
ater*
cal
lended*
▶Latercame, Ichangedclothesworesnugsanda
bl
ackandwhi teAdidasTracksuitwentdownst
air
s
Ses'
Thokowasknocki ngof fal
readygoi
nghomeso
wegoti nthesameuber .
..
Igotdroppedoffatt
he
mallIcall
edmydad.
Me:
DadI
'
m her
eal
ready
Dad:
I'
ll
bet
her
ein3mi
ns
▶Istoodbythegat
esawhim dr
ivi
ngin,hest
opped
t
hecarandIhoppedin,
wenttotheparki
ng
l
ot,
parkedt
hecarandwewalkedinatGameand
boughtPS3andsomef
ewgames.
Dad:
mubi
thi
sisf
orboy
skodwa
Me:
noi
tsnot
.
Dad:
okay
.
Me:
canwegetMcDonal
d'
sonourwayhome?
Dad:
okay
▶Af t
erpur
chasingthePlayStati
onwewenttoSpur
mydadboughtgar li
cbreadandcalamar
isoupand
somer i
bsthenwepr oceededtogotoMcDonald'
sI
boughtbur
gerl,
chips,nuggetsandaMcFl
urry
..
.
Wenttothecarandwedr ovehome
Me:
youwi
l
ljoi
nmesomet
imesr
ight
?
Dad:
Idon'
tknowhowt
heset
hingswor
k,i
tisl
i
kea
TVgameri
ght?
Me:l
oolyeahwedon'
tcal
li
tthatnowt
hough,
i'
ll
t
eachyouhowtoplayi
t.
Dad:
ohgr
eati
'
dli
ket
hat
.
▶Si
l
ence
Dad:
Mubi
Isai
dIwantt
omeetVi
nce
Me:
Dad,
yousai
dImustbr
eakupwi
thhi
m andIdi
d.
Dad:noyoudi
dn't
,tel
lhi
mtocomeatt
hehouse
tomorr
owmorning
Me:
DadIdi
d
Dad:
yourcal
ll
ogdoesn'
tsayt
hat
Me:
howdi
dyou?daddi
dyoucheckmyphone.
Dad:Nosi
ll
y..
didyouseemet aki
ngy
ourphoneand
checki
ngi
t?JustknowthatIknow
▶Wear ri
vedathome,warmedupourf oodwentt
o
t
heloungeandwewat chedsoccermydaddidIwas
j
ustsi
tti
ngther
eeati
ng..
..
Ideci
dedtotextVi
nce
Vi
nce:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ou,
wher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Me:
theMal
l
...
I'
vemi
ssedy
out
oo
Vi
nce:
Iwasact
ual
l
ydy
ing.
..
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yesI
'
m okay
..
good.
..
Vi
nce:
dranky
ourpi
l
ls?
Me:
I'
ll
dri
nkt
hem nownowI
'
m st
il
leat
ingpapi
.
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.whatwer
eyoudoi
ngatt
hemal
l
?
Me:
Idon'
twantt
otel
lyou
Vi
nce:
whynot
?
Me:
becauseIdon'
twantt
o,y
ouwi
l
llaughatme
Vi
nce:
IswearIwon'
t
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
pleasemami
.
..t
ell
me
Me:
okayokay
,wel
lIboughtPs3
Dad:
you?Lool
bbewhy
Me:yousee,
becauseI
'
m hookedandi
t'
sal
lbecause
ofy
ou..
.
Vi
nce:
doy
ouhav
egames
Me:
yeahIal
soboughtsomegames.
Vi
nce:
that
'sni
ce.
..
Me:
wantt
oknowwhat
'snotni
ce?
Vi
nce:
no,
buty
eaht
ell
me.
Me:
mydadwant
stoseey
out
omor
rowmor
ning
Vi
nce:
don'
tj
okel
i
ket
hat
Me:I'
m deadser
ious,
hewantstoseey outomorrow
morningandheseemedal
lcalm aboutitsoyou
bet
tershowup
Vi
nce:
someofuswor
kthough
Me:
Vince!
!
Vi
nce:
okay
,I'
l
lcome.
..
thoughI
'
m scar
ed.
Me:
dontbe,
youhav
enot
hingt
owor
ryabout
.
▶Iwascer t
ainthatthingswil
lgowel l
aft
eral
lmy
daddidn'
tseem pissedwhenhet oldmethathe
knowsthatmeandVi ncearesti
l
ltalki
ng,
sother
e's
nothi
ngtoworryabout ,It
oldVi
ncet ocal
lmeinan
hour.
..
Me:
dadgoodni
ght
Dad:
Night
,pl
easeputt
hesei
nthet
rashcan
▶Iputt hebagsinthedustbinandthelef
tover
sin
thefr
idge..
thenIwentupstair
scall
edVincefora
goodnightcall
,hewasmadner v
ousabouttomorrow
morningourcallendedIslepti
mmediately
..
.I
coul
dn'tsleepIwasstart
ingtogetnerv
oust ooand
al
soIwokeupear l
ythenextmor ningIthinkat
07:23sentagoodmor ningtexttoVi ncethenIgotup
fr
om thebedwentt otakeaqui ckshowercame
backtother oom Loti
onedandIwor ebluejeansand
awhi t
ehoodywi thsnugst heweat herwascol dit
wasn'tpl
ayingafterallitwasJul y
..
.Iwent
downstair
sf oundmydadr eadinganewspaperand
havingcoff
eewai ti
ngf orbreakfast.
Me:
mor
ningdad
Dad:
Hel
l
opr
incess,
howdi
dusl
eep?
Me:
good,
heySes'
Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:
Hel
l
osi
si
Me:
Isl
eptwel
l
...
you?
Dad:
Met
oo.
.sl
eptl
i
keababy
Me:
lol
whatdi
dyoudr
eam about
?
Dad:
Not
hing,
abant
uabadal
aabaphuphi
Mubi
Me:
lool
dad
▶welaughed,Ses'
Thokodi
shedbr
eakf
astforuswe
wer
ehavingtoast
edbreadwit
hgar
li
cbutt
erand
eggsspri
nkl
edwithparsl
eyandbaconont heside,
westart
edeati
ngIgotat extfr
om Vincesayi
nghe
wil
lbeherei
n10mi ns.
..
Iaskedforanotherpl
ate
fr
om Ses'
Thokonerveswer eki
cki
ngi n,
shedished
upformeagainandIstartedeati
ng.
Dad:
somuchappet
it
e?
Ses'
Thoko:
thenshewi
l
lcompl
ainaboutbei
ngf
at.
Me:
I'
mjusthungr
y
Dad:andshedoesn'
tev
enwantt
ojogwi
thmei
nthe
morning
▶Hest
oodupandwentupst
air
s.
Me:
Vincei
sonhi
sway
Ses'
Thoko:
yhooo.
..
now?
Me:
anymi
nut
efr
om now.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
goodl
uckgi
rl
,I
'
m ner
vousf
ory
ou
▶It
ookadeepbr
eat
h,mydadcamedownst
air
s
Dad:
wheni
shear
ri
vi
ng?
Me:
He.
..
▶Wehear
dabuzzf
rom t
hegat
e
Dad:
final
l
y,ThokoBuzzt
hey
oungmani
n.
▶Inmymi ndI'
ml i
ke"youngman"t hi
sisgoi
ngtogo
good,mydadsmoodi sconst anthedoesn'
tseem
angryoranythi
ngnegative.
..Vincewasnowatt he
doorknockingSes'
Thokoopenedf orhim.
Ses'
Thoko:
goodmor
ning
Vi
nce:
mor
ningMa'
am
Ses'
Thoko:
geti
n
▶Ilookatmydadhe'ssoseriousall
ofasuddenhe
hasasourface,
Vincegoti
ncamecl osert
owhere
mydadandIwer esit
ti
ngatthekit
chencount
er,
off
ersmydadahandshake
Vi
nce:
Goodmor
ningSi
r
▶I'mlookingatt
hem soner
vousl
ywai
ti
ngf
ort
hei
r
handshake.
Dad:
Nomzamogot
oyourr
oom
▶What
??myr
oom
Me:
huh?
Dad:gotoy
ourroom,l
etmeandt
hisy
oungman
haveaconv
ersat
ion
▶ Aconv ersati
onwi thoutme?butt histhingis
aboutmeandVi nceIshoul dbet her emos, Istood
upmeandVi nceshar edaney econt actwhi l
eIwas
goingupst air
s,homeboyl ookedscar editwasf unny
butnotf unnyatt hesamet i
me, Iwentupst air
sgot
i
ntomyr oom, t
riedl isteningtot hem Icoul dn'thear
athing..
..Iwast herepaci ngupanddownhopi ngI
willgetcall
edbutnot hingbutIknewSes' Thokowi l
l
tel
lmeev erythi
ngt hough. .
.Anhourl aterSes'Thoko
camei ntomyr oom andt oldmet hatmydadsay s
thatIcancomedownst airs,ofcour seIimmedi atel
y
wentdownst airs...▶Vi ncewasn' tther e
Me:
He'
sgone?
Dad:
yesandIhopei
tsf
orgood
Me:
forgood?DadWhatdoy
oumeany
ouhopei
ts
f
orgood??
Dad:
...
.
Me:
Whatdi
dyout
alkabout
?
Dad:Ihavetogotowork,
doyout
hinkuwi
l
lneed
hel
pinstal
li
ngyourTVgame
Me:
mxm ar
rrggg!
!
▶Mydadexi tedthehouseandwenttowor k,
Iwent
upstai
rst
ofindSes'Thokososhecantel
lmeabout
whathappened,Ifoundherwashi
ngcurt
ainsIasked
her.
Me:
whathappened?
Ses'
Thoko:
Idon'
tknow
Me:
Ses'
Thoko.
..
?

Ses'
Thoko:Ireal
lydon'tknow,wellIwasdownst ai
rs
ri
ght?Washingdishesthentheywentt othel ounge
yourdadknewt hatImighthearthem hethenasked
mei fIdon'
thaveanythingel
setodoupst airs,soI
wentupstai
rswhiletheyremainedont helounge
tal
ki
ng...
Me:
soy
oudi
dn'
thearany
thi
ng?
?
Ses'
Thoko:
Not
hing
Me:
Eishokay
▶Iwentt omyr oom, t
ookmyphonet oaskhi m what
wentdown, Itextedhim onet i
ck...
call
edhi m
..
.Str
aightri
ngingnoanswer ,curi
ositykil
ledacat
andthatdayitkilledmeIj ustwant edtoknowwhat
happenedIwentdownst airsandbuzzedmy sel
fout
andIwentt ohishouse. .
knockedont hedoorMuzi
opened..
.Ir
egrettedgoingt here,
Ihat eMuzi somuch
ri
ghtnowIcan' tev enst
andhi m, butIjustcouldn'
t
j
uststandtherer i
ght?Iasked
Me:
wher
e'sVi
nce?
Muzi
:Nohel
l
o?Orgoodmor
ning?
Zamor
e.
Me:
Muzi
notnow,
wher
e'sVi
nce?
?
Muzi
:atwor
k,ar
eyoust
il
langr
yatme
Me:
angr
yisanunder
stat
ementbr
uh.
▶Iwal kedaway .
..
gothome, andwithnoluckof
fi
ndingVinceIwentt otheloungeandItr
ied
i
nstall
ingthePlayStat
ion,t
heTVwassohugeI
coul
dn'tentersomewi reconnecti
onsIcall
ed
Ses'
Thokot ocomeandhel pme, wewereablet
o
i
nst all
itwithoutbr
eaki
ngany thing,Ii
mmediat
ely
startedplayingIpl
ayed"needf orspeed"f
orhour
s,at
13:45Ses' Thokocamewi thLunch.
Ses'
Thoko:
getsomeener
gy
Me:
thanky
ousomuch.
▶It
ookt
het
rayoff
oodandst
art
edeat
ing
Ses'
Thoko:
Didheanswery
ourt
ext
?
Me:Myphonei
supst
air
schar
ging.
letmeeatt
henI
wi
ll
goandchecki
t
Ses'
Thoko:
okay
▶af tereati
ngIdeci dedt ogoandst udymyhear t
didn'twanttoIj ustwant edt opl ayallday .
..Wal ked
upst air
stomyr oom t hefir
stt hi
ngIdi dwast ocheck
myphone, stil
l onet ickwel l
t hat'
sunl ikeVince. ..
I
noticedhisdi spl aypictureandst atuswer en'tthereI
sentanot hert extonet i
ck,Ical l
edhi mi tdidn'teven
ri
ng, mycal l
swer eblocked...Whati sgoingon?I
thoughtt omy self..
.Iwentt oFacebook,Iwas
blocked, I
nstagr am bl ocked!Icoul dn'tbeli
ev ewhat
wasgoi ngon. .
.
#I
NSERT29

▶St i
llhav
en'theardathingfrom VinceitsaFriday
now, I
'
mi nthekitchenmakingacer ealsoIcan
dri
nkmypi ll
smyhear tisgoingthrought hemost
hurt,
I'
m madatmydadI '
m withhimt houghint he
kit
chenhe'saboutt oexi
tthehouse, hedoesn'twant
totel
lmewhathappenedsowear enotonspeaki ng
ter
ms.
Dad:
att
heendy
ouwi
l
lthankme.
Me:
..
..
Dad:
whenIcomebackwi
l
lyout
alkt
ome?
Me.
..
Dad:
Nomzamo?
?
Me:
..
▶IWenttothefr
idgetookoutmil
k,pouriti
nmy
cer
eal,
tookmycerealandIwenttotheloungesat
downandstar
tedeati
ng.
Dad:
Mubit
alkt
ome
Me:
andsaywhatdad?
Dad:somethi
ng,
Ican'
tgowheny
ou'
renott
alki
ngt
o
meithurt
sme.
Me:I
'm notaski
ngf
oral
ot,
justt
ell
mewhatdi
dyou
sayt
oVi nce?
▶Hecamet
owher
eIwassi
tt
ingandsatnextt
o
me.
..
Dad:It
oldhimifhel
ovesyousomuchhewillwai
t
fory
outofini
shschoolandy
oucanst
artdat
ingnext
year
.
Me:
Dad,
Vincewasn'
taf
fect
ingmyst
udi
es
Dad:
yougotpr
egnant
.
Me:
butdad.
..
Dad:lookpri
ncessi
fhel ov
esy ouhewi l
lwaitforyou
unti
lyou'
redonewithschool.Iwantthebestforyou
andifyoufai
lyouwill
loseyourbursaryatwits,I
don'
twantthattohappensoIam pr otect
ingy ou.
Me:
DadIknowbut
..
.
Dad:
Nol
ook,
Vincei
sWoki
ngr
ight
,he'
sdonewi
th
school anduni
ver
sit
ywhathehastodonowisgeta
gir
lf
riend,getmar
ri
edandhaveki
ds,It
hinkhe
i
mpr egnatedyoubypur
pose
Me:
Vincewi
l
lnev
erdot
hatt
ome.
Iknowhi
m
Dad:
hashehur
tyou?
▶HehasbutIwasn'
tgoi
ngt
otel
lmydadt
hathedi
d.
Me:
No
Dad:
whydi
dyouhesi
tat
e?
Me:
Idi
dn'
t
Dad:okay,buty
oudogetwher eIam goingwiththis
ri
ght?Examsarecomingsoony ourTri
alresul
ts
havetobeasgoodast heJuneones.Onl y4mont hs
l
eftunti
lDecemberandthenyouwi l
lhaveyour
happyendingwithVi
nce.
Me:
okaydad.
▶MydadandIhugged, myhear tcompletel
y
under
stoodwherehewascomi ngfrom,andI
for
gavehimimmediat
ely.Istoodupand
accompaniedhi
mtothegar age,hegotintothecar
anddroveofft
oabusinesstrip.Inthebackofmy
mindnot hingwasgoi ngtost opmef rom talkingt o
Vincenotev enhim Ihadt ospeakt ohim, Ijust
couldn'tl
eavewi thouthim, mydadsay i
ngt hatVi nce
i
saf fecti
ngmyst udieswasnott r
ue,nottalkingt o
hi
m, nothear inghi sZuluaccentortouchinghi m,
mademecr azy..
.Imissedpl ayi
ngwithhissof t
handswi thhishai rIjustmissedhim sobad. ...Iwent
backt otheloungesawSes' Thokopr epari
ngt ogo
packingherf ood, Iwentupt oher.
Ses'
Thoko:
youandy
ourdadl
ovewast
inggoodne
Me:
Nol
ool
,Ses'
Thoko?
Ses'
Thoko:
Yes?
Me:
CanIusey
ourphone?
Ses'
Thoko:
Myphone?For
..
.
▶Shethoughtabouti
treal
qui
ck,
becauseshe
qui
ckl
yanswered.
Ses'
Thoko:
NoZamor
eIcan'
t
Me:
please
Ses'
Thoko:
okay
▶Shegav
emeherphone.
Me:
Thanky
ousomuch.
▶Itooki
timmedi
atel
ydi
aledVi
ncesNumber
..
.i
twas
r
ingi
ngheanswer
ed.
Vi
nce:
Hel
l
o
Me:
Hey
,Vi
nce?
Vince:
Zamore?Youshoul
dn'
tbecal
l
ingme,
whose
phoneist
his?
▶Her
ecogni
zedmyv
oicehowsweet
,Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
Ineedt
oseey
ou
Vi
nce:
Noy
oucan'
t,
Ican'
tseey
ou
Me:
whynot
?
Vince:
becausewear
edone,
focusonschool
for
get
aboutme.
Me:
youdon'
tmeant
hat
.
Vi
nce:
okay*Cal
lended*
▶Myheartdr
opped,Mystomachalsodroppedmy
ey
esf
il
ledwit
htears.What
'swrongwit
hhimt hat
di
dn'
tsoundl
i
kehi
m.
Ses'
Thoko:
sweet
yar
eyouokay
?
▶Iturnedmybacktof
aceher,
shesawIwassad
shecametowardsmeandasked
Ses'
Thoko:
whati
swr
ong?
?
Me:
Hesai
d..
.Ican'
tSes'
Thokonotl
i
ket
his
Ses'
Thoko:
whatdi
dhesay
..
.cal
m down
Me:
hewant
smet
ofor
getabouthi
m
Ses'
Thoko:
hesai
dthat
?
Me:
yes,
butIknowhedi
dn'
tmeant
hat
Ses'
Thoko:
yeahhedidn'
t,
don'
tworryt
hingswi
ll
get
backtonor
mal,oohmyuberisher
eIhavetogo.
▶Ses' Thokogotherst uf
f,huggedmegoodby eand
shel eft.
..Iwentupst ai
rsgotinthebl anketsand
cri
edmyey esout .Whatwasi nmymi ndthatti
mei s
thatIl oveVi ncesomuch, he'stheonl yguyIhave
everl oved,hebr okemyv i
rgini
ty,
Helef tmeaf t
erI'
ve
donesomuchf orhim,af
tereveryt
hingwe' vebeen
through, coul dn'
thejustfi
ghtforme, forus..
.May be
hehasfor
got
tenme,
nowhewant
smet
ofor
gethi
m
too.
..

▶Icr iedsohar dunt ilIfel l

asleepIwokeuphour s
l
ateritwasdar kout sidet hef i
rstthingIt hought
aboutwhenIopenedmyey eswasVi nce, myhear
wassobr okenandhur tIcoul dact uallyf eel i
t.Igot
offthebed, closedmywi ndowst urnedont hel i
ghts,
thenIwentt othebat hroom t ouset het oilet,when
doneIwentt ocheckmy selfinthemi rrormyey es
wereswol l
en,bigfrom al lthecryingIwent
downst airstodrinksomewat erthenwat chTV, I
wentt ot heki t
chengr abbedabot tl
eofwat erwent
tothel oungeandt urnedont heTVandwat cheda
mov iet i
tled(Lov e, Rosi e)didInotsetmy selfup
againt ocr yIstartedmi ssingVi ncemor e, especiall
y
wher eRosi esaid"Iwi llalway shonest l
y ,
truly
compl et elyLovey ouNomat terwher ey ouar e, or
whaty ou'redoingorwhoy ou'rewi th.".
..ev entually
themov i
eendedandIwentupst air
s.
▶Sat ur daymor ningIwokeupwentt ot hebat hroom,
shower ed, brushedmyt eethcamebackt omyr oom,
l
otionedcombedmyhai r,wor eawhi tedressand
sandal sitwasqui etsunny. ..
Iwentdownst airsmade
my selfbreakf astcof fee,breadwi thpeanutbut ter
andRamasatont hediningt ableandIhadmy
breakfast .
..Afterawhi l
eat houghtofgoi ngt o
Vince'shousecr ossedmymi ndIi gnoredit.Shoul dI
go?Hei snotwor kingtoday ..
.SoIst oodupt hensat
downagai n,It oldmy selffuckit..
.I
'm goingt osee
mymanIl ef
tt hepl at
est here..
.Ibuzzedmy selfout
andwal kedt oVi nce'shouse. ..
Isawhi scarpar ked
outsideIknewhewasar ound...
.Hear tbeatingf astI
don'tknowwhatt oexpect .,whatI'ddoi fhewi l
l
chasemeaway ..IknockedMuzi openedhedi dn' tsay
anythingj ustlef tthedooropenf ormet oent er,and
velengangena.
Muzi
:he'
supst
air
s.
▶Iwentupst
air
s,knocked,
heopened
Vi
nce:
youmustbecr
azyt
oknockkubeuhl
alal
a..
Me:
Hi
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e?
▶Hewasshocked
Me:Weneedt
otal
kyouj
ustcan'
tl
eav
emehangi
ng
l
ikethat
.
Vi
nce:
Not
her
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabouther
e.
Me:
arey
ougoi
ngt
oletmei
n?
Vi
nce:
Noy
ouhav
etol
eav
e..
.
Me:
whatar
eyouscar
edof
?letmei
n
▶Ipushedhi
m asi
deandwal
kedi
nandsatont
he
bed.
Vi
nce:
babey
ou'
reput
ti
ngmyl
i
fei
ndangerHer
e.
Me:
li
fei
ndanger
?
▶Il
aughed.
Vi
nce:
yeah
Me:
whatdanger
?
Vi
nce:
yourdadhasaf
uckengunwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me?
Me:
lool
mxm st
oppl
ayi
ng,
comeher
eI'
vemi
ssed
y
ougi
vemeahug
▶Itri
edtohughi
m buthebl
ockedmyhugand
pushedmyhandsaway
Vince:
zamore!I'
m notpl
ayi
ng.yourdadthr
eatened
meatgunpoi nt
,tol
dmet obreakupwithyou,
block
youonallsoci
almediaorhewillki
l
lme.
Me:
Vincemydaddoesn'
thav
eagun
Vince:sobasical
lyy
ou'r
ecal
li
ngmeal i
ar?
?Justsay
thatyoudon'tknowthegunoryouhav
enev erseen
i
t,IknowwhatIsaw.
Me:
Iknowmydadokay
,hedoesn'
t
Vince:
forcr
yingoutl
oudy
oudon'
tknowwhaty
our
daddoesforaliv
ing,
dou?
Me:
he'
sabusi
nessman.
▶Hechucked
Vi
nce:
abusi
nessman.
.babe.
..
▶Hesatdownont
hebedandgr
abbedmebymy
ar
ms.
Vi
nce:
ify
ouandIcont
inuey
ourdadwi
l
lki
l
lme,
he
hasagun.
Me:
Vincest
opi
t
▶Idi
dn'
tbel
i
evehi
m,notatal
lnotmydad.
Vi
nce:
mxm...
ifIdi
eit
sal
lony
ouj
ustknowt
hat
..
.I
'
ve
mi
ssedyou.
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
out
oo,
dear
lyandIl
ovey
ou.
▶Wehuggedsot ightl
y,forthefi
rstt
imeinalong
ti
meev er
ythi
ngfeltri
ght,myhear twasatpeace,I
wasatahappypl ace.wechi ll
edforawhil
ehet hen
accompaniedmehome, IpackedasmallbagandI
wentbackforasleepov er.
..
Vi
nce:
damnIf
eel
li
kepi
zzahav
en'
thadi
tinawhi
l
e.
Me:papi
somet
imesIf
eel
li
key
oul
ovepi
zzamor
e
t
hanme.
Vi
nce:
you'
remyf
avor
it
epi
zzamami
▶Hehuggedme,
andki
ssedmeont
hecheek
Vi
nce:
let
'sgoandbuyi
t
Me:
I'
ll
chooset
hef
lav
ourr
ight
?
Vi
nce:
ahmmm okay
..
.
▶Wegoti nt
ohiscarandwedr ovetotown.We
arr
ivedatpanarot
ti
sWeboughtt wol ar
gepizzas
si
nceVi nceandIdidn'
tli
kewhateachofusor dered,
IboughtabaconandMushr oom pi
zzawit
hav acado
andheboughtchickenpizzawithpickl
es,
tomato
andoliv
eshowdi sgusti
ngisthat
?
Foradr i
nkweboughtKr ushJuice,
Gr apeflavor
ed
thenwedr ovebacktohishouse..
.wehadamov ie
andpi zzanightItol
dhim aboutyesterdayhe
i
nsi stedonwat chi
ng"Love,Rosi
e"lool,Vinceli
kes
touchi ngandcar essi
ngmewhent hemov iegets
i
nt i
mat e,sowhent heki
ssingpartstartedhestarted
kissingme. .
.
Me:
focus
Vi
nce:
youknowIcan'
t
▶West ar
tedkissi
ngandwef or
epl
ayedthemov
ie
f
ini
shedwithoutVi
nceevenseei
nghalfofi
t.
Vi
nce:
mami
,I
'm sohar
dcanIputi
tin?
Me:
Nopapi
youknowy
oucan'
tdot
hat
.
Vi
nce:
I'
mti
redofwai
ti
ng.
▶Ist
oppedki
ssi
nghi
m.
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
?
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyouget
ti
ngal
lwor
kedout
?
Me:becauset
her
e'snot
hingIcandoexpectt
okiss
you,
youknowIwanttohavesexwithyoubutIcan'
t.
Vince:okay,
nowwhyar eusadi
tsnotl
i
keIdon'
t
understandyoursi
tuat
ion
Me:ifyouunderst
andyouwoul
dn'
tbeaski
ngme
whatyoujustaskedVi
nce
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
for
giv
eme.
▶heplacedmyheadonhi
schestandf
orehead
ki
ssedme.
Vi
nce:
sor
ryne.
Me:
yeah.
▶Acallcamethr
oughmyphone,
Ithoughti
twasmy
dad,
buti
twasn'
t
Me:
Heyu
Khomot
so:
Heyi
tsThat
o,Khomot
soi
sinl
abor
Me:
what
!now?
?
That
o:y
eah,
shesai
dIshoul
dlety
ouknow.
Me:
ohmy
..
.tel
lherI
'
llbet
her
etomor
rowmor
ning
That
o:okay
,I'
l
ltel
lhert
hat
Me:
Congr
atul
ati
onsnewf
ather
.
That
o:hahaThanky
ou*cal
lended*
Vi
nce:
whowast
hat
?
Me:That
o,Khomot
sosboy
fri
endappar
ent
lyshe'
sin
l
abor
Vi
nce:
oh?
Me:
yeah
Vi
nce:
Nice
Me:y
eahwi
llseehert
omor
rowI
'
m sur
etheywon'
t
al
l
owanyvi
sit
orsnow.
Vi
nce:
yeahy
ou'
rer
ight
,comeher
e
▶Vincestoodup,car
ri
edmeupstai
rs,
walkedi
nto
hi
sroom droppedmeatthebedwegotinsi
det
he
blankets, wekissedforawhile,thenstar
tedt al
ki
ng
andweev entual
lyfel
lasl
eep.wokeupf ir
stSunday
mor ningbat hedandgotdr essedIwor eal ong
Peachdr essthathuggedallmycur v
esso
nicely.
..t
iedmyhai rint
oabunf ixedmyedgesIwor e
gladiatorsandals,wentdownstai r
spreparedcoffee
forVince, thenIwentupstair
s.
Me:
Papi
▶Iki
ssedhi
m onhi
scheek
Vi
nce:
mmh?
Me:
wakeup
▶Heopenedhi
sey
es.
Me:
take
▶Igav
ehi
mthecof
fee.
Vi
nce:
thanky
oumami
.
▶Hesi
ppedi
t
Vi
nce:
mmmh,
comeher
e.
▶Iwasbythemirr
orappl
yi
ngmakeup.
.It
urned
ar
oundandwentuptohim.
Me:
notenoughsugar
?
Vince:
nothecoff
eeisper
fect
,butnotper
fectas
youare,t
urnar
ound
Me:
Lool
Vince.
Vi
nce:
Tur
nar
ound.
..
▶It
urned.
..
Vi
nce:
Thi
sisal
lmi
ne?
?
Me:
stopi
tokay
▶Ibl ushed,l
eanedandgav ehim ababykissandI
walkedbackt othemi r
rorhespankedmyass. I
smi l
edathim,hegotupwentt oshower ,
cameback
l
ot i
onedandgotdr essedhewor eablackplainT-
shirtandAWhi t
eGucci tracksuitwi
thblackGucci
sleepers,
wewalkeddownst ai
rsgotintothecarand
wentt othemallfi
rstboughtsomebabyst ufffort
he
babyweboughtapi nkblanket,pai
rofbabysocks
anday el
lowandpinkjumpsui tswet hendroveto
thehospital
.
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT30

▶Wegotatt hehospit
alVincesi
gnedusinwewere
accompaniedbyanursetowhereKhomotsowas,
gotinherwardThat
owashol di
ngthebaby,
Khomotsowasasleep
Me:
heywakeywakey
Khomot
soopenedherey
esandsmi
l
ed.
Khomot
so:
hey
▶Wecheekki
ssedandhugged
Me:
VinceandIBoughtt
hisf
orbaby
..
..
?
Khomot
so:
BabyRene,
she'
sRenei
l
we
Me:
Ncooh.
..
comet
oyourGodmot
her
▶Itookt
hebabyf
rom That
oandbabypl
ayedwi
th
her
..
.
Khomot
so:
Thanksf
ort
hegi
ft
sVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
Pleasur
e,andcongr
atul
ati
ons
Khomot
so:
Thanksal
ot.
▶Af
terawhi
l
eChr
isTheGodFat
herwal
kedi
n.
That
o:Dawgy
ou'
rel
ate.
Chr
is:
IcameassoonasIcan
Khomot
so:
lool
babel
eav
eChr
isal
one.
Me:
Kamoi
skeepi
ngy
oubusyhuh?
Chr
is:
howdi
dyouguy
sknowt
hatIwaswi
thher
.
Me:
itswr
it
tenal
lov
ery
ourf
ace.
▶Hebl
ushed.
Me:
Babe,
wehav
etogoIl
ovey
ou.
Khomot
so:
Ilov
eyout
oo
▶VinceandIwal
kedt
othepar
kingl
ot,
goi
nsi
det
he
caranddr
oveoff
..
.
Vi
nce:
youcant
alkf
orday
syer
rr
Me:
l
ool
youwant
edt
oleav
e?
Vi
nce:
yeahI
'
m hungr
yAF
Me:
met
ooIl
eftbecausewowIwashungr
y.
▶Wel
aughedanddr
ovet
othemal
l,par
kedt
hecar
andwenttomugandbeanforbr
eakfast.Vince
Order
edMuffi
nsandCoff
ee+Chickenwi ngsand
Ribs.
..
Whil
emeont heot
hersi
deorderedCheese
cakeandcoff
ee.
Vi
nce:
Lov
eisbl
i
ndi
sn'
ti
t?
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Vince:
li
keImustreal
l
yreal
l
ylov
eyou,
I'
mt ur
ninga
bli
ndeyeonwhatmayhappentomebecauseIlov
e
you,soLov
eisbli
nd.
Me:
you'
renott
alki
ngaboutmydadr
ight
?
Vi
nce:
Zamor
eIam t
aki
ngabouty
ourdad.
Me:
Vince.
..
Vince:
wheny ourdadcomesbackoutofconcer
n
j
ustaskhim abouthisj
ob,
youdon'
tknowhis
occupati
onafteral
l
.
Me:
what
everman.
Vince:
anywayspoket
omymom y
est
erdayshe
sendsherl
ove.
Me:
Irecei
ve,
whenar
eyougoi
ngt
oDur
ban?
Vi
nce:
Sept
ember
,wannat
ocomewi
thme?
Me:
yeahI
'
dli
ket
o.
Vi
nce:
she'dl
ovet
oseey
out
oo,
mxm Ihav
etocut
myhai
rtoday
.
Me:
ohf
li
p,Ihav
etogot
othesal
ont
oo.
Vi
nce:
youf
orgotaboutdoi
ngy
ourhai
r?You,
you?
Me:
can'
tbel
i
evei
t,wi
l
lyoupl
easegetmet
her
e?
Vi
nce:
yeahsur
e,what
'sony
ourmi
nd?
Me:mysouli
sjusthappy
,It
houghtI
'
dnev
erev
erget
achancet
obewi t
hyouagai
n..
.
Vi
nce:
comeher
e..
.
▶Ist
oodupandjoi
nedhim ontheot
hersi
deoft
he
t
abl
e,hehuggedmethenf
oreheadki
ssedme
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Afterhavi
ngbr eakfastwedr ovebackt
ohishouse
wechil
ledunti
lmi dafternoonVinceandIwentt
omy
sal
on,Iwasalilbitscaredbringi
nghimtomysalon
charl
iedoesntknowhowtobehav
esomet
imes.
..
we
parkedthecaroutsi
de.
Me:
arey
oucomi
ngi
n?
Vi
nce:
yeahIwannasee
Me:
lol
seei
ni?
Vi
nce:
lool
let
'sgo.
.
▶wegotoffthecarlockedi
tandwenti
nsi
de,f
ound
char
li
ebusymakingsomeone'shai
rsowesatdown
andwait
edforhi
mt ofini
sh.
Char
li
e:hay
ikubi
todayy
ourbr
oughtuMr
▶Ei
shmar
athi
shai
rdr
esser
,Ikeptqui
et.
Char
li
e:awukhul
umi
todayzamor
e??
HeeuVi
nceOr
omunyelo?
Me:
Nev
ermi
ndhi
m,Fi
nishupandl
eav
eusal
one
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Char
li
e:y
eyngi
thi
ist
hisVi
nceornot
?
Me:
it'
shi
m
Char
li
e:Vi
nce,
Your
elov
edher
eahyy
ak'
thanda
l
osesi
.
Vi
nce:
isi
t??
▶Hesmi
l
edthenl
ookedatme.
..
Irol
l
edmyey
es
whi
l
esmi
li
ng.
Me:
everdonemani
cur
es?y
oushoul
ddot
hem.
Vi
nce:Ngi
yi
ndodayomZul
uMi
naZamor
e
Angi
kwenzil
okho.
Me:
let
'sseeaboutt
hat
.
▶Ist
oodupandaskedanotherwor
kert
odoVi
nce
Mani
cur
esIpai
dforthem.
Me:
papi
come
Vi
nce:
Bengi
say
aphyy
e?
▶Hest oodupfrom thewai t
ingar eaandcame
towar
dswher eIwas,Hedi dhi smanicuresf
orthe
fi
rstt
imeinhisli
fe.
..
mi nut
esl aterChar
li
ecall
edmeI
didmyhairshortbr
ownbr aids, hour
slat
erIwas
doneVinceandIDrov ebackhome.
Vi
nce:
Icantbel
i
evet
hati
lety
oudot
hist
ome.
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
butmyhandsl
ookgooddontt
hey
?
Me:
theydo.
Vi
nce:
lol
whyar
eyouj
elous?
Me:you'
vebeencomplement
ingyournai
l
s..
.y
ou
di
dntsayanyt
hingaboutme,
ngi
mubi?
Vi
nce:
Nomami
,l
ool
sor
ry.
.y
oul
ook
Me:
ahyl
eav
emeal
one
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
Comeonnow.
..
▶Wedr ovebackt ohi
shouse, gott hereandgotof f
thecarwenti nsi
dethehouse. ..Tookmybagandwe
walkedt omyhouse...
st oodatt hestreetandtalked
forawhi l
e..
.wethenkissedandhuggedgoodby e,I
enteredthecodeandwal kedin...
lockedthegateand
unlockedthedoorgoti nsi deandwentupst air
s
unpackedmybagandIst artedpr epari
ngfor
tomor r
owf i
xedmybagj ustasIwasaboutt otakea
bathVincesentmeat ext .
Vi
nce:isitsaf
etobath/
washdishesi
nthesenai
l
s,
I
'm scaredthey'
l
lwashoffandbeugl
yagain
Me:
Vi
nce:
don'
tl
augh.
Me:
not
hingwi
l
lhappen
Vi
nce:
not
hing?okay
,cool
.
▶Hel oggedout ,ISmiledstupi
dlyandIwentt otake
abath..
.t
ookashowergotoutl ot i
onedwor emyPJs
andIwentdownst ai
rstomakef oodIpr epared
macaroniandcheesewi thbacon,alsopoureda
gl
assofor angejuiceandIheadedt otheloungeI
watched161af terfi
nishi
ngmyf oodIdecidedtogo
andwasht hedishes..
.afterwashingthedishesI
wentbackt owat chi
ngTVIr eceivedat exton
WhatsAppf rom anunknownnumber .
Unknown:
Hey
Me:
Unknown:
itsJay,
Jason.
Me:
OhheyJay
Jay
:howar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
good,
awesomeact
ual
l
ytooky
oul
ongt
otextme
Jay:IknowI'
vebeenbusyy
ouknowi
nthest
udi
o
recor
dinganalbum
Me:
that
'sni
ce,
can'
twai
ttoheari
t.
Jay
:you'
l
llov
eitIpr
omi
se.Howhav
eyoubeen?
Me:
I'
vebeengood,
you?
Jay:
beengoodtoo,
takecar
eokayl
etmesl
eephav
e
towakeupear
ly.
Me:
okay
,goodni
ght
▶Ourper f
ectweddi
ngendedIheadedt othef
ri
dge
tookoutabucketoficecream andIheadedtomy
room, gotther
eandIgotintobedandstart
edeat
ing
myi cecream whi
lebrowsingthr
oughmyphone,
Vincetexted.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
Myper
son
Vi
nce:
I'
m dy
ingt
oheary
ourl
aught
ercanIcal
l
?
Me:
yeahsur
e.
▶Secondsl
aterhecal
l
ed...
wetal
kedandt
alkedfor
hour
s..
.Whi
l
et al
ki
ngIplacedt
heicecr
eam bucket
onthesi
deandl
aidont
hebed.
..
thecal
lended
event
ual
l
y.

▶Mondaymor ni
ng.Iwokeupwenttothebat
hroom
tookaquickshower,l
oti
onedandIworemyuniform
...
school
shoes,tr
ouser,
longT-
shi
rt
,ti
e,
andablazer,
appli
edalipgl
ossandsomemascar atookmybag
j
ustasIwasaboutt ogodownstai
rsMyDadcalled.
Dad:
Pri
ncess
Me:
Mor
ningDad
Dad:
You'
reawakeandr
eadyIhope?
Me:YesDadI
'
m headi
ngdownst
air
snowf
or
br
eakfast
.
Dad:
okay
,Enj
oyy
ourf
ir
stdayatschool
Me:
Wil
ldo.
Dad:
Seey
out
omor
row
Me:
Seey
out
omor
row,
Ilov
eyoudad.
Dad:
Ilov
eyout
ooPr
incess.*
Cal
lEnded*
▶Iheadeddownstai
rsaf
tert
hecal
landIf
ound
Ses'
Thokodr
inki
ngcoff
ee.
Me:
Mor
ning.
▶Ihuggedher
Ses'
Thoko:
mor
ningmyl
ove,
yourbr
eakf
asti
sther
e
Me:
othanky
ou.
▶If et
chedit,satdownthenIst
art
edeati
ng,Iwas
havi
ngt oast
edbr eadwit
hcheeseandham anda
str
awber r
ymilkshake.
Ses'
Thoko:
howwasy
ourweekend?
Me:
itwasgr
eat
,Isawv
ince.
Ses'
Thoko:
youdi
d?y
oursmi
l
esay
sital
lyou'
re
bl
ossoming
▶Ismi
l
ed
Ses'
Thoko:
didheexpl
ainwhyhebl
ockedy
ou?
Me: yeahbuthisstor
ydoesn'taddupSes'
Thoko,
Vincesay st
hatmydadpoi ntedagunathi
m
basicall
ythr
eatenedhim,andtoldhi
mtoblockme,
mydadwoul dneverdothat.
Ses'
Thoko:
So.
..
whywoul
dVi
ncel
i
ethough?
Me:
AhIdon'
tknow.
..
doy
oubel
i
evehi
m?
Ses'
Thoko:
Idon'
twannageti
nvol
ved.
..
letmego
upst
air
s.
▶Sheexcusedher
sel
fandwentupst air
s,mi
nut
es
l
aterIf
ini
shedmyf
oodanddrankmypi l
l
stookmy
l
unchboxthenMal
umsarr
ived,Ishouted
Me:
I'
m gone,
byeby
e!!
Ses'
Thoko:
Byebaby
!
▶Iexi
tedt
hehouseandgoti
nmyt
ranspor
t.
Me:
SawubonaMal
ums
Mal
ums:
Mshana
▶Wedr
oveof
f.
Me:
Ngi
kukhumbul
e..
..
Mal
ums:
Ngi
k'
khumbul
i
lenami
,bukangi
kuphat
hel
eni
.
▶Hepull
edoutAmaf
eti
madebyhi
swi
fet
heyar
e
t
hebestt
rustme.
Me:
Ngi
yabongaMal
ums,
how'
sAunt
ySar
ah?
▶Iatethem t
houghIjusthadbreakf
ast
,thesmel
l
wastoomuchIcouldn'tr
esistIhadt
woandputthe
ot
hertwoinmybag.
Mal
ums:
Usuy
alul
amamanj
eakf
ani
.
Me:
dot
hedoct
orsknowwhat
'swr
ongwi
thher?
Malums:
EishMshanakuy
imanj
eamar
esul
ts
asi
kawat
holi
.
Me:don'
tworryMalumsnot
hingi
swr
ongwi
thher
,
shewil
lgetbet
ter
.
▶Wear r
iveatschoolMalumsdroppedmeof f,
I
saidgoodbyeandIenteredtheschoolpremi
sesa
MessageNot i
fi
cationcamethrough,f
li
pIfor
gotto
putmyphoneonsi l
ent,I
twasaTextMessagef rom
Vinceitr
ead:
"Goodmorni
ngBeautif
ul,
final
l
yyou'r
eatschool
..
.bbe
Ireal
l
yhopey ouhaveagreatdaytodayr
emembert o
takei
teasyIloveyou"
▶Ismilesandr
epl
i
edwi thablowingki
ssEmoji,I
putmyphoneonsi
lentandputitonmyt r
ouser
pocket
.
Kamo:
itshoul
dbeasi
ntosmi
l
eli
ket
hisi
npubl
i
c
▶It
urnedar
oundandgav
eherahugi
nexci
tement
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ou
Kamo:
youknowI
'
vemi
ssedy
out
oo
▶Thebel lrangwewentt oassembl ywesangand
saidapr ayer, aft
erwewentt oclass.
..
fi
rstperi
od
wasaMat hcl asstheteacherwel comedmeI
thoughtev eryonewasgoi ngt obeawkwar dand
stuffIreall
yt houghtev eryoneknowsaboutt he
aborti
oni nsteadoft hatev ery
onewassweetand
kindIdef i
nitelyhadawar m welcomeatschool
everyonewasj ustconcerned..
.i
tseemedl i
kenot
everyoneknewabouti tjustmyf ri
ends,Mydayat
school start
edandendedwel l,l
astperi
odthebell
rangwest artedpackingup.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT31

▶Wepackedourbagsandwal
kedoutofschool
.
..
Candi
ce:I'
mtheonlyonewhohasn'
tseen
Khomotsosbabyahythi
sai
n'
tfai
r
Kamo: Metoo,
Chr
issentmeapi
cbutt
hatdoesn'
t
countIwantt
oseethebabyl
i
ve.
Candi
ce:
whydon'
twegot
oherpl
ace?
Nat
asha:
that
'sagr
eati
dea
Me:
yeah
▶Mal umswasal r
eadyatthegatewai t
ingf orme...I
ranuptohi m andtol
dhimt hatwear egoingt o
Khomot sosplaceandwewi l
lusethebus, hedrove
offIwentbackt omyf r
iendsandwegoti nt he
schoolbus.Iwassi t
ti
ngwi t
hNat ashaandKamo
withCandice.Mbalipassedwherewewer eseat ed
Mbal
i
:Ay
ilaebhasi
nikugcwel
etoday
.
▶Shesaidwhi
lepassi
ng,
Il
ookedupt
oseewhoi
t
was,
itwasher
,Ist
oodup
Me:
whatdi
dyousay
??
Nat
asha:
Leav
eher
Kamo:
uthi
nil
o??
▶Kamoal
sost
oodup.
Mbal
i
:Youhear
dwhatIsai
d.
▶Herfr
iendslaughed,
Iwascl
oset
oloosi
ngi
tIhat
e
bei
ngembarrassed.
Me:
hol
dthi
sforme
▶IgaveNat
ashamyphoneandst
eppedoutofmy
seat
.
Me: I
'
vehaditwit
hyouMbali
alway
sthr
owi
ng
shade,comeher
eandfaceme
Candi
ce:
nother
eZamor
e
▶Shewasbl ocki
ngmeandMbaliwasi
nanot
her
seatst
andi
ngshelookedatmeandsai
d
Mbali
:I'
m notgonnafacesomeonewho'
spregnant
ohkonjenowy ou'
renot,
mindtel
l
inguswherethe
babyi
s??
▶Voi cesinthebussai d"yhoooo"thatannoy i
ng
"yhooo"Ilostmycool andpushedCandi ceasi
deand
divedaf i
stonMbal i
sface, shetr
iedtogr abmeby
mybr aidsbutIgrabbedherweav efi
rstandpull
ed
herfacedownont hefloorthenIrepeatedly
stompedmygr asshopperonherback. ..
theboysin
thebackseatcameandbr oket hefi
ght..
.
Mbal
i:y
oubi
tch,
uzony
awhenwegetof
fIpr
omi
se
yout
hat
Me:
Voet
sekIai
n'
taf
rai
dofy
ou,
nguweozony
a!
Candi
ce:
leav
eheral
onegeez
e..
.
BusDr
iver
:Kamonabangani
bakhogetof
fmybus
▶Kamowentupt othedr
iverint
hefrontandt
alked
t
ohim..
.secondsl
aterMbaliandhercrewwere
t
hrownoffthebus.
Candi
ce:
whatdi
dyout
ell
thedr
iver
Kamo:Dr
iverBaewami
Lona.
..
rel
ax
▶Wel aughed.
..
Kamoandget t
ingoutoftr
oubl
eby
f
li
rt
ingnumber1.Wear r
ivedatSowetoandwe
wal
kedtoKhomot soshouseaftert
hedri
verdr
opped
usoff.
..
wepassedbyt heshopsandboughtApple
munches1eachIremembert hi
sdayv er
ywell
Sowetopeopl
ecouldn'tst
oplooki
ngatNatasha,A
whit
epersoni
nkasi andnayeshelookedall
uncomfort
abl
eitwassof unny.
..
wearriv
edat
Khomotsoscri
bweknockedandhermot heropened.
Khomo'
sMom:
mant
ombazanacomei
n
▶Wegoti
nsi
deandheadedst
rai
ghtt
oKhomot
sos
r
oom,
herandthebabywer
eli
b.
Kamo:
emi
nisoy
eyv
ukani
.
Nat
asha:
kamoy
ou'
remaki
ngnoi
se.
Kamo:
ayi
sukawenaTash
▶Khomotsowokeupandsatupstr
aightwhil
ewe
madeour
selv
escomfor
tabl
ebysit
ti
ngont hebed.
..
Khomot
so:
KamouRasel
aumnt
wanawami
no.
Kamo:
wear
eher
eforhermosv
elesoakav
uke.
Me:
yesakav
uke!
Khomotso:Iwonderwhor
aisedy
a'l
l
,youguy
s
shoul
dntseeReneil
we.
Nat
asha:
Why
?
Kamo:
Tol
dya'
l
l
Me:whatdi
dyout
ell
uskamo?don'
tcomeandl
i
e
her
e.
Kamo:
I'
m notmbal
iMi
naZamor
eIwi
l
ltr
aapy
ou
har
d
▶Wel aughedexceptf
orKhomot
soshewas
conf
used
Khomot
so:
whathappened?
▶BabyRenewokeupIt
ookherandcuddl
edher
.
Candi
ce:
Zamor
ebeatupMbal
i
.
Khomot
so:
what
??Why
??
Kamo:
Asaf
ikanok'
fi
kaeskol
weni
..
.
Khomot
so:
Final
l
y
Me:fi
nal
l
y..
.I'
vebeenwant
ingt
ohi
tthatgi
rlsi
nce
day1.
▶Wetoldhert
hewhol
estor
y,chi
ll
ed,
play
edmusic,
wr
oteourhomewor
ksandupdatedKhomotsoon
today '
sschoolwor k.
..
Khomot soseemedsohappy
withherbabyIenv i
edherhard, Istart
edimagi ni
ng
things,howthingswoul dhavet urnedoutifIkeptt he
baby ,
howmybabywoul dhavel ookedlike.Ifmy
babywoul dhav ebeenagi rl
oraboy. ..
myt houghts
wer ecutshortbecauseIwaswi t hmyf r
iends..
Later
thatDayMal umscameandf etchedme.Wel l
I
arriv
edathomewentupst ai
rsdr oppedmyschool
bagont hefl
oorandj umpedonmybedand
slept.
..
hourslatermyphonev i
br atedi
nmypocket sI
wokeupandIt ookitout.
Me:
hel
l
o
Dad:
wenzani
?
Me:
j
ustwokeupdad,
what
'swr
ong?
Dad:
nothi
ngjustchecki
ngupony ou,
Franst
oldme
hedi
dn'
tfet
chy outodayatschool
whodid??
Me:
dadar
eyouser
iousr
ightnow?
Dad:
Ihopei
twasn'
t.
..
.
Me:Nodadi twasn'
tVince,
Khomot sohadababy
yest
erday
,shedidn'
tcomet oschoolsowewentto
herhouset
odayandweusedt
heschool
bus.
Dad:Hopei
tsj
ustt
hat
,Idon'
twanty
ouneart
hat
youngman.
Me:
yeahy
eahIknow.
Dad:
Goodni
ght
Me:
NightDad*
Cal
lended*
▶It hrewmyphoneont hebedandst oodup, mydad
i
ssomet hi
ngel sesomet i
mesMal umsnev erreports
tomydadaboutmywher eaboutst houghwhydi dhe
dot hat?Iundressed,wor eatowel andwentt obath,
bathedcamebackt omyr oom andl otionedIwor e
myy el
lowspongebobPJs, wor
eapai rofsocksand
agownt ookmyphonet henIwentdownst ai
rs..
.
Foundmyf oodal r
eadyi ntheov en,Mi crowavedmy
dinnerIwashav i
ngchi ckenandmushr oom Lasagne
andsal adonthesi de..
.Iwenttot heloungeandI
startedeati
ng...
fi
nishedeat i
ngwentt owasht he
dishesafterdoingt hatIdrankmypi l
lsandIwent
backt owatchingTV. ..
.
▶Ihav en'tcheckedmyphonesi nceIwokeupsoI
decidedt odoso, Iopenedmydat at henboom
Facebookal most50+not ifi
cationI '
m conf usednow
l
ikewt fisgoi ngon. ..What sAppnot i
ficationsar e
buzzingi nnonst op. .
.If
irstcheckmyFacebook. ..
Therewasav i
deooft hef i
ghtthathappenedi nt he
bus...Myst omachdr oppednowI '
m shaki ngf or
somer easonIdon' tknowIwasshocked. ..Iwent
throught hecomment s.
..Alotwasgoi ngont her e.
..
Mbal icomment edandsai dMydaywi llcomemy
fri
endsdef endedme. ..Herfriendscal ledmea
cowar dfornotr espondi nghawubat hongIwas
asleepandany wayIl ookgoodi nt hev ideoandI
didn'tgetbeat enupsoI '
m cool .
.Ilaughed, mut edthe
notif
icationsandl oggedof f..
.wentt oWhat sApp
Vincesentat extandsai d
"Whatisgoi
ngon"Ididn'
trespondmyfr
iendswere
text
ingmenonstopsoIrespondedt
othem fi
rston
groupchati
nst
ead.
Me:
JesusIwasasl
eepguy
s
Khomotso:Iknewi
t,Iwasquar
tert
ocomi
ngt
oyour
housel
ool.
Me:guy
sMbal
i
sfr
iendar
egoi
ngt
omakeaf
eastout
ofme.
Kamo:
notasl
ongasI
'
m al
i
ve.
Nat
sha:
met
oo
Candi
ce:
Me3
Khomo:
Me4
▶AsIwasaboutt
orespondIgotaphonecal
lfr
om
Vi
nce,
Ianswer
ed
Vi
nce:
BruceLee
▶Ilaughedhyst
eri
cal
l
yandIcoul
dn'
tst
opIdi
dn'
t
expectt
hat.
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyounotr
espondi
ngt
omyt
ext
s
Me:
thenot
if
icat
ionsonmyphonear
ecr
azysor
ry.
Vi
nce:nowthatyou'
ret
hefamousBr
uceLee.
.y
ou
i
gnoreme..Kant
yfamedoesthi
stopeopl
e
Me:
Vincet
hisi
sser
ious.
Vi
nce:
comeout
,I'
m out
side.
Me:
okayI
'
m comi
ng.
▶Iranupstair
sgr
abbedmysnugsbuzzedmy sel
f
outwentoutsi
det
hegate.
..
.Vincewasst
andi
ngnear
thegat
e,wehuggedandkissed.
Me:
papi
yousmel
lsogood
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
Vince:thanks,
don'
trunawayf
rom t
heBr
uceLee
topic.
.
Me:
Noser
iousy
ousmel
lamazi
ng.
Vi
nce:
lol
danki
eNomzamowhathappened?
▶It
oldhi
mthewhol
est
ory
.
Vi
nce:
Soul
osti
t?
Me:
Idi
d,butsheaskedf
ori
t.
..
Vi
nce:
Muzicamet omyr oom r
unni
ng,andshowed
methi
svi
deo,atfi
rstIwasli
kenahmant hat
'snot
myNomzamo. .
butthenIsawthehair
.
Me:
hahahat
heny
ouwer
eli
kenope,
jaht
hat
'sher
.
Vi
nce:
sur
ethi
ng.
..
Me:
Ithoughty
ou'
l
lbeembar
rassedandangr
yatme.
Vince:
Loolno,
yaboiftheybeaty
ourassup.
.Iwas
goingtol
aughatyouforreal
Me:
HaaaVi
nce
▶Welaughedandstoodther
eforafewminutesi
t
wasquit
ewindysowewentinsi
dethehouse,
went
t
otheloungeandchi
ll
ed
Me:
ain'
tyouhungr
y?Ses'
Thokomadesomel
asagne
Vi
nce:
I'
m Hor
ngr
y
Me:
lool
fucky
ou
▶Idi
shedupf
orhi
m andwewat
chedTV.
Afterchi
l
li
ngandsomecuddl ingVincewentbackt o
hishouseIlockedall
thedoorsandwentupst air
s..
.
Gotinbedt ext
edmyf ri
ends,
comment edhereand
thereonfacebook.
..Afi
ghtwasconf i
rmedt o
happenbutt hedat
ewasn't..
.hour
slaterIdozedoff

▶Tuesdaymor ni
ngIwokeup, bat
hed,l
oti
onedand
gotdressedIwalkeddownstai
rsfoundSes'
Thoko
makingbreakfast
,Igr
eetedherandat emy
breakf
ast,t
oldheraboutyest
erdaysfi
ghtand
showedhert hevi
deoshel aughed...
Malumsar ri
vedI
gotingr eetedhim andwewentt oschool,i
twasa
normal day...Mbalididn'tshowup, HerandIwer e
thetopicoft hedayatschool .
..Itwasannoy ingItel
l
you,justsimpl ewalkingt heGrade8swi ll
point
fi
nger satMeandsay" that'
sher ",
people
congratulatingme, otherslookingatmef unnywell
eventuallyschool gotout, Malumsf etchedmeIgot
homef oundmydadbackhome.

▶day squicklywentbyitwasnow5pm ona

Thursdayafternoon,I
'
m headingdownstai
rst
othe
kit
chenIopenedt hef
ri
dgegrabbedaboxofOr ange
j
uiceIpourmy sel
faglassIputtheboxbackint
he
Fri
dge,Ses'Thokowalksdownst ai
rswi
thherbag
readytoleave.
Ses'
Thoko:
Myuberhasar
ri
ved
Me:
gowel
l
Ses'
Thoko:
comegi
vemeahug
▶Igaveherahugandshewal
kedout
,mydadal
so
wal
kedin
Ses'
Thoko:
ufi
kasengi
'
hambat
oday
Dad:
hahahaEi
shzak'
bonasasa
▶Ses'
Thokowal
kedout
,If
ini
shedmyjui
ceIgreet
mydad,hegr
eet
sbackwei
rdl
y,IpaynomindIwal
k
away
..
.
Dad:
comebackher
enomzamo!f
oll
owme
Me:
huh?
▶Owkay
,If
oll
owhi
m Iwonderwhat
'sup.
HetakesoutaCDoutofhisbri
efcaseinsert
siton
t
heDVDpl ayer
..
.i
nmyheadI'mli
kemydadboughta
movieI'
m gametowat
chingamov ieI'
vejust
f
ini
sheddoingmyhomewor ksokumnandi .
Me:
shoul
dImakepopcor
ns?
▶Imakeasuggest
ion,
Hedi
dn'
trespond.
..I
tst
art
ed
pl
ayi
ng.
..
▶Hesatdown
Dad:
I'
m sur
eyout
hinkI
'
m af
ool
.
▶Ast heCCTVf
ootageplaysIcanseemyhouse,
andIcanseemysel
fwalkingoutwear
ingagown,
thegat esopen,outsi
deofthegat
et here'sVince
standingt her
eIhughim andwekiss...West art
tal
king...Thenmoment sl
aterwewal kinsidethe
house...Andhest oppedi
t.
Dad:Mindt
otel
lmewhathasbeenhappeni
ngi
nmy
houseNomzamo??
▶Shi
tjusthi
tthef
anI
'
m shaki
ngandcl
oset
otear
s..
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT32

▶akwar
dsi
l
ence
Dad:
Answerme
Me:
...
.
Dad:
Soy
oucan'
ttal
kany
mor
e??
Me:
Icanexpl
ain.
Dad: Nomzamoul ethaabaf
anaemzi ni
wami Bese
ungtshelaukuthyyoucanexpl
ain.
..
there'
snothingto
explainhere!That
'showyougotpregnantby
bri
ngingthisboylaemziniwami,whenI '
m nota
arounduy azenzel
a...
▶Theangeranddi sappointmentinmydadsv oi
ce
wasscaryIknewIhadmessedupandt here'sno
comingbackf r
om t hi
s,whenIl i
ewheream Igoing
tost
art??Icouldn'
tjusti
fythis.
..
soIkeptquiet
Dad:sonowy
oucantt
alk,
stopl
ooki
ngatmeand
tal
k!
Me:
..
..
Dad:
Don'
twor
ryIwi
l
lmakey
out
alk.
▶Hest oodupandwentt ohisbriefcase,guesswhat
hepulledout??..
.Ar ol
ledcablewi re(Ntamboy egezi
)
asightlythi
ckone. .
.Isawi tr
olldownont hef l
oorhe
roll
edtheotherendonhi shand. .
.hegotcl osetome
nextthingI'
m getti
ngbeat enrepeat edlyi
twas
horri
bleguys..
.Ibeggedhi mt ostop...
"DadIwon' tdo
i
tagain""DadI 'm sorr
y ""You'r
eHur t
ingme"di dhe
stop..
.Nope...
hebeatmeupwi tht hatcablewirefor
minutesandst opped, Iguesswhenhi shandwas
ti
red.
Dad:
Giv
emey
ourphone.
Me:
itst
her
e
▶poi ntingatthecouchwher eIwasseatedbefore
thebeat ing,Iwasfarfrom thecouchIwasnowon
thefloorbecauseIwasdodgi ngallt
hoselashes,he
rol
ledbackt hecablewire,t
ookmyphoneandt hen
hepackedbackhi ssuitcaseandwal kedupstai
rs..
.I
wasl eftont hefl
oor,shiver
ingandfeel
ingnumb
couldn'thol dmybody .
..
.Ist
ayedatthesame
positi
onf or5minutesthenIstoodup..
.Iwalked
sl
owl yupt omyr oom st illcry i
ngIgoti nsideand
criedmor e.Icoul dn'tbel iev ethiswashappeni ngt o
me, thatmydaddi dt hatt omeImeanhehasnev er
everl aidahandonme. .
.aftercr yingforIdon' tknow
howmanymi nutesIdeci det ogetupsi nceitwas
get tingdar k...SoIgetupandIcanf eel painsasI
standup. .
.Ilookedatmyar msI '
m green/ blueishmy
l
egsar eal sopai nful Ideci dedt otakeoutt het rack
pantt hatIwaswear ingt ol ookatmyl egsandt hey
wer er edot herpar tshadgr een/ blueishl i
nesoft he
cabl ewi r
eI '
mv erylightski nned, yell
owbonesot he
brui seswer ecr ystalcl ear...Iputonmypant sback
andwentt othebat hr oom . ..
triedt obat hIjust
coul dn' ti
twast oopai nful Iwasswol lenIgotout ,
checkedmysel font hemi rrort herewasar edcabl e
wirebr ui
seonmycheekt hatgoest omyneck, my
dadr eal l
ybeatmeupheycl oset okilli
ngmeI '
m not
blowi ngthi soutofpr opor ti
oni twasbad. ..Wel lI
l
ot ionedandwentt obedandsl eptmypai naway

▶Fr
idaymorning,Igotupandprepar
edf
orschool
t
hesimpl
estthingtodolot
ioni
ngwashardf
ormet o
do..
.movingaroundwaspai nf
ul.
..
Iwor easchool
tr
ouser,l
ongshirt
,drymagandascar ftohidet he
brui
seonmycheek, putonaredli
pst i
ck,grabbed
myschool bagandIwentdownst ai
r sthankGodt he
weatherwascold..
.otherwi
seIwouldhav el ooked
l
ikeI'
m crazyf
orwear ingli
kei
tscold...
Ses'Thoko
andmyDadwer etalkingandl
aughingi nthekitchen.
Ses'
Thoko:
mor
ningnt
ombi
Me:
mor
ning
▶Isatdown
Ses'
Thoko:her
e'sy
ourbr
eakf
ast
,youdon'
tl
ookokay
areyousi
ck?
Me:
I'
m okay
.
Ses'
Thokogotcl
oset
omet ocheckmytemper
atur
e
andsawtheswoll
enbr
uiseonmycheek
Ses'
Thoko:
ahy
inomz
amowhat
'st
his?
?whodi
dthi
s
toyou?
?
▶DidInotst
artt
ocr
y,shehuggedmewhi
l
eIcr
ied
onher
.
Dad:
uyat
efanj
eloy
ouzobar
ight
.
▶ hegrabbedanappl
e,
tookhi
sMacbookandwent
upst
air
s.
Ses'
Thoko:
Yourdaddi
dthi
stoy
ou?
?
Me:
yes
Ses'
Thoko:oohntombisorr
y,wi
ll
tal
kaboutt
his
whenyou'r
ereadystopcry
ing.
▶Shewi
pedmyt
ear
s
Icont
inuedtoeatmybreakfast
,hear
dahooterit
wasMal umsIsaidgoodbyeandwentout
side,got
i
nsidegreet
edMal ums.
Mal
ums:
ugcokei
Scar
fnamuhl
a,
kyabandane.
Me:
kakhul
uMal
ums.
▶Imadesur ethatwedi dn'
thav ealong
conv ersation,wegotatschool hedr oppedmeof f
andIgoti nsidetheschool pr
emi sesmyf r
iends
weren' tthereyetsoIwenti ntothetoil
et. .
.gotinsi
de
anempt yoneandIcr iedmyey esout. .
.didn'teven
got ot heassembl y.
..Thebellrangforfirstper i
odI
wast hef i
rstoneinclassmyf ri
endsgoti nand
greetedme. ..
Theclassbegan...Thebellrang, Igotup
andprepar
edmysel
ftogotot
henextper
iod..
.Whil
e
Iwaswalki
ngtot
henextcl
assmyfri
endsstopped
me..
.
Kamo:BbeuRight
?Di
dyouar
ri
vel
ate,
wedi
dn'
tsee
youatassembly
Me:
YeahI
'
m cool
.
Kamo:
Owkay
.
Candi
ce:
Noman,
youl
ooksi
cky
ourey
es.
..
Kamo:
Zamor
ewhat
'st
his?
?
▶Peeki
ngt
hrought
hescar
f
Kamo:
whodi
dthi
stoy
ou?
?
Candi
ce:
whodi
dwhat
??
Kamo:
lookatt
his
▶Showi
nghert
hebr
uise.
Me:
kamost
opi
t,i
t'
snot
hing.
Kamo:
whodi
dthi
s??
Me:
nooneIf
ell
..
.l
et'
sgot
ocl
asswewi
l
lbel
ate.
▶Ibr
ushedt
hem of
fandwewentt
ocl
ass.
..2nd,
3rd
per
iod..
.All
donei
twasbreakti
menow. .Weare
si
tt
ingunderthet
reeonourspot
,I'
m qui
teAF.Whi
l
e
CandiceandKamoargui
ngandNatashabusy
l
aughing.
Nat
asha:
whyar
eyounoteat
ing?
?
▶ shewast alki
ngtomebutIcoul dn'
thearher,
my
mindwasel sewhere.
..I
'
mt hinkingaboutVince,
what'sgoi
ngon, i
nhismi ndrightnow..
..
mybodyi s
hurt
ingme...I
'mjustastressedhumanbei ng.
▶Nat ashashookme.
Me:
mmhm?
?
Nat
asha:
youdi
dn'
thearme?
Me:
didy
out
alkt
ome?
?
Nat
asha:
mxm.
..
▶Sher
oll
edherey
es
Kamo:
hay
iZamor
ewhat
'sup?
?
Me:
Not
hing.
..
▶Thebel
lrang,
itwasti
metogobacktocl
ass
bef
orewewenttothecl
asswewentt
othetuckshop
t
obuysomesweet s,IguessCandicegotfedupwi
th
mebeingsi
lent.
..
sheconfront
edMbal i
onourway
t
otheTuckshopbecauseshet houghtt
hatshewas
t
hereasonIwasacti
ngup, webumpedi nt
oher
f
ri
endsandheronourway .
Candi
ce:
didy
'al
lreal
l
yhav
etoganguponZamor
e.
Mbal
i
:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
??
Me:
candyl
et'
sleav
e..
itai
n'
tthem.
Candi
ce:
thenwhobeaty
ouup?
?
Mbal
i
:bi
tchy
ougotbeat
enup?
?
▶Theyl
aughed
Mbal
i
:Idi
dn'
tbeatupy
ourf
ri
end,
butwhoev
erdi
d,
di
dmeafavor
▶Theywal
kedaway
..
.
Me:
NiceoneCandi
ce(
sar
casm)
▶Iwalkedaway
..
.t
heyfol
l
owedme, wegotatt
he
t
uckshopandboughtt
hesweet
s..
.Whichweshar
ed.
Kamo:nonofthi
swouldhavehappenedi
fyouj
ust
tol
duswhathappenedtoyou
Nat
asha:
isi
tVi
nce?
Me:
it'
snonofy
ourbusi
nessguy
scomeon
Kamo:
OKf
ineZamor
e.
Me:
finev
ele!
▶Wewal kedtotheAccounti
ngclass,
Whi l
eincl
ass
Ideci
dedtoborr
owNat asha'
sphone,Il
oggedinon
Facebookusi
ngmyFacebookaccount .
..
Wenttomy
messagesandfoundVince'
stext
s.
Vince:
Mami ,I
'
vetext
edyouonal
lyoursoci
almedi
a
accountswhat'
sup??Whyyoui
gnori
ngme? !(
18:
02)
Vince:
areyouokay?
?what
'swr
ongwi
thy
our
phone???(
20:54)
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e??
?(21:
04)
Vi
nce:
Imi
ssy
ou.(
21:
33)
Vi
nce:
Tal
ktomewhat
'swr
ong?
?(23:
45)
▶Hewasworr
iedsi
ckaboutme,
ncoohmypapi
..
.I
t
ext
edback
Me:Papi
,Mydadconfiscatedmyphone.I'
mtexti
ng
youonNatasha'
sphonerightnow.
..
ImissyouandI
l
ovey
ou.
..
don'
tknowwhenwewi
l
ltal
k.
▶Il oggedoutandgav eNatashaherphone..
.school
gotoutIwenthomemydadwasn' thomesoIstood
atthegateandt houghtaboutgoingtocheckon
Vince, mysubconsciousremindedmeoft heCCTV
camer as.
..Il
ookedatthem..andopenedthegate

▶Ispentt heweekendi ndoor s...

watched
mov i
es,playedPlayStati
on, l
istenedt omusic,I
studi
ed. .
.TobehonestIf elttrapped,ther
ewas
nothingIcoul ddoIwant edt oseeVi ncewi thal
lmy
heart,honestlyIcouldn'
twai tforMondaysot hatI
canseehi sresponseonNat ashasphoneand
respond...TheLandl i
neMobi l
ewoul dhaveshown
thatIwascal l
i
ngVi nceifIdeci dedtodot hat,
Ididn'
t
knowhowt oshutdownt heCCTVsy st
em, Iwas
screwed...Ihadtobepat ientfinall
ytheweekend
camet oanend.

▶Mondaymor ningIwokeupandIprepar
edtogoto
school
,wentdownstai
rsf
oundSes'
Thokoprepar
ing
mybr eakf
ast
..
.Isatdownandshehandedmemy
food..Iwashavi
ngbananabreadwithcoff
eeandon
thesideIwashavi
ngstrawber
ryyoghurtwi
thf
rui
t
salad..
.
Ses'
Thoko:
readyt
otal
kaboutaboutwhathappened
Thur
sday?
Me:
yeah
▶It
oldherev
ery
thi
ng.
Ses'
Thoko:
yourdad?
?Di
dthat
..
.
Me:IwassoshockedSes'
ThokoIcoul
dn'
tbel
i
eve
whatwashappeni
ng.
Ses'
Thoko:
that'
sunli
kehi
m, i
nmy6y earsof
worki
nghereyourdadhasneverev
erlai
dahandon
you.
Me:well
Thursdayhedidandhehur
tmesobadl
y,
st
il
lhav
en'theal
edyet
..Look
▶Ishowedhermybr
uises.
Ses'
Thoko:Nomzamo,t
hisisnothowyourepri
mand
achil
d,Idon'
tcar
ewhatyoudidbutt
hisi
swr ong,
I
'm sor
rybabycomehere.
▶Shehuggedme.
Ses'
Thoko:Iwi
l
lmakesur
ethatIspeaktoyourdad
aboutt
his,
andIpr
omiseyouhewill
nevereverdo
thi
sagai
n..
..
▶IHeardahooteroutsi
de..
.wentt
oMalumsandwe
dr
ovetoschoolandIarr
ivedsametimewit
h
Khomotso.Ir
anuptoher.
Me:
heyBESTI
E!!
▶Iwashappyt
oseeher,shehasn'
tbeent
oschool
si
ncet
hebabyi
tsherf
ir
stdaytoday.
Khomot
so:
hey
,what
'
sthi
snow?
?
▶Refer
ri
ngtomybruise,
Iwasn'
twear
ingascar
f
t
odaysothebr
uisel
i
newasv i
sibl
e.
Me:
Eish.
..
nev
ermi
ndt
hiswel
comeback
Khomot
so:
No!
!Nomzamowhathappened?
?
Me:
I'
ll
tel
lyou.
..
let
'sgeti
n..
.
▶Wewenti nsi
detheschool .
..
wentt
ot heassembly
gavet
hanksandpr ai
sestothemosthighandwe
wentt
oclass..
.Secondperi
oditwasaf reeper
iodso
Isawitfi
ttotel
lmyf r
iendsaboutwhathappened,
so
Itol
dthem ev
erythi
ng.
Kamo:
Cabl
ewi
re?
??
Nat
asha:
didy
out
ell
thepol
i
ce.
Me:
cabl
ewi
re!
..
.ManIt
houghtIwasdr
eami
ng.
Kamo:sni
tchonherdad?
!Awuhl
any
iNat
asha.
..
yaz
abel
ungu
▶Wel
aughed.
Nat
asha:
that
'sabuse.
..
evenify
ouguyssayt
hati
t'
s
t
eachi
ngachil
dalessonit'
swrong.
Khomot
so:
Iagr
eewi
thNat
asha.
Me:
Ses'
Thokosai
dthesamet
hing.
Candi
ce:
soy
ou'
l
lst
opseei
ngVi
nce?
Me:
No
Kamo:
hewi
l
lki
l
lyout
hisar
oundkeubabakho
Me: Ineedtogetasmal lphonetocommunicate
wit
hhi m,lwon'
tbreakupwi thVincemydadisoldhe
needst ounder
standthatI'
m oldenought
odate.
Khomot
so:
Ihav
easpar
ephone
Me:
pleasebr
ingi
ttomor
row
Khomot
so:
okay
.
▶Dur i
ngbreakweheardar umourThatitwasVince
whobeatmeup. ..
appar
entl
yIcheatedonhim..
.and
hefoundoutandbeatmeup. .
.mxm lool
abantwana
bes'
kolo.
..
attheendofthedaySchoolgotoutandI
wenthome.

▶Tuesday : I
ndeedKhomot sobroughtthephone,
whenschool gotoutIr ushedbackhome, Igothome
mydadwasbackIdi dn'tsayawor dtohim Iwent
strai
ghtupstairs,gotinsidemyr oom adrenali
ner ush
runningthr
oughmybl oodst r
eamsIcoul dn'
twai tto
hearVince'
sVoi ceit
'sbeen5day salready.
..
Ilocked
myr oom andt ookoutt hephonei nmybagIdi all
ed
hisnumber s,itstar
tedr i
nging.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#ZAMONCE
#I
NSERT33
Vi
nce:
Vincehel
l
o
Me:
lol
Hey
Vi
nce:
Nomzamo?
Me:
Yesi
tsme.
..
Vi
nce:
Mami ,ar
eyouokaybeentr
yingt
ocal
lyou
wi
thnoluckwhat'
sgoi
ngon? ?
Me:
Mydadt
ookmyphone.
Vi
nce:
forwhat
?
Me:l
ongstorycutshortheknowsthaty
ouwashere
andhehadalreadyt
oldmet obreakupwit
hyouso
hewaspret
tymuchmadatmeandhehi tme.
Vi
nce:
oh,
that
'sbad.
..
hehi
tyou?
Me:
yeah.
..
.
▶It ol
dhim everydet
ail
andwecont inuedt
ot al
k
aboutotherthi
ngsandrekindleourloveshem. .
.af
ter
tal
kingoverthephonewithVinceIst oodupandhi d
thephoneinashoebox. ..
.undressedandfixed
my sel
fclot
hestowearaf t
ershower ,Iwasgoingto
wearabl ackt
ornjeanandawhit
eVanstee..
.Iwent
toshowergotoutandcamebacki nt
omyroom
dressedupandIwentdownstai
rs.
..I
twasaround
15:34nowSes'ThokowasInthekit
chenmaking
dinner.
Ses'
Thoko:
sisi
Me:
Aft
ernoon
Ses'
Thoko:
ufi
kewhatt
imeIdi
dn'
tseey
oubowuf
ika.
▶Ismi
l
ed
Ses'
Thoko:
andt
hen?
?
▶Il
ower
edmyv
oiceandwhi
sper
ed
Me:
That
'sbecauseIwast
alki
ngt
omyboy
fri
end
▶Ses'
Thokocamecl
osert
owher
eIwassi
tt
ing
Ses'
Thoko:
I'
mli
steni
ngt
ell
memor
e..
.
Me:Khomotsogavemeaphone.
..
soIcoul
d
communicat
ewithVi
nce.
..
Ses'
Thoko:andt
hef
ir
stt
hingy
oudi
dwasgethome
andcal
lhim??
Me:
yeah
▶Wel aughed. ..shet ookoutmyf oodinthe
mi cr
owav eandgav eittomesheal sopouredmea
fantagrapedr i
nk. .
.Itookmymeal andheadedt othe
l
ounge. ..Swi t
chedont heTVandIwat chedTeen
Titans.
..Af tereatingIgotupandwentt oputt he
empt ypl ateinthesi nkt henIwentupstair
sintomy
room wenti nsideandIt ookoutmyst udyi
ng
Mat eri
alsandIwentt othestudyroom tostudyand
alsowr ot emyhomewor ks,manyhourslatermydad
halfopenedt hedoor .
Dad:
whenar
eyoueat
ing?
Me.
..
.
Dad:i
tslat
ey oubett
ercomedownst
air
stoeatand
dri
nkyourpil
l
sI '
m notgoi
ngt
ocomebackhere
agai
n
▶Hecl
osedt
hedoor
.
Me:
Mxm.
▶Ist
oodup,
tookmybooksandwenttomyroom
sawt
hecl
ockonthewal
li
twas21:03soIbeeni
n
thatroom for6hourswow..
.Iy
awnedandgotinto
myr oom placedthebooksonthebedandIwalked
downst ai
rs,
Mydadwasi nthelounge.
Dad:
bri
ngmesal
tony
ourway
.
▶Whot ol
dy outhatI'l
lbeeat i
ngdinnerwi thyou? ..
I
walkedintothekit
chent ookt hesaltandgav ei tto
hi
m. .
.wentbacktot hekitchentookmypl ateand
wentupstair
s,gotinmyr oom atemyf oodwhen
doneIwentdownst air
sdr ankmypi ll
sandwent
wentbackupst ai
rs.
..cl
osedmydoorpi ckedupt he
booksont hebedandpr eparedfortomor row...Took
outthehiddenphoneandsentagoodni ghttextt o
Vinceandhesenti tbackt henIputt hephoneback
i
nt heboxandIwentt obed.

▶Wednesdaypassedi tsnowThur sdayMalumshad

j
ustdroppedmeof fatschool
..
.Igotinsi
dethe
schoolpremiseswentt
oassembl ymetallofmy
fr
iendsthere.
.
Me:
Mor
ning,
youl
ooksour
.
▶Khomot
sowasn'
tl
ooki
nggoodatal
lshel
ooked
dr
ained,nomakeupev
ent
hehai
rwasamess
ny
ana...
Khomot
so:
Iknow.
..
Me:
what
'swr
ong?
Nat
asha:
shegotscammedy
est
erday
Me:
scammedhowandwher
e?
Kamo:
kant
yuhl
alaphyuKhomot
so?
Me:ahytskwena,maybeshewassomewher
eel
se,
babewhathappened?
▶Icamecl
oset
oherandr
ubbedhershoul
der
Khomot
so:
Eishbbe
▶Whathappenedt ohercl ear
lyhurthersoIdi
dn'
t
wanttoforcehertotal
k..
.assemblybeganand
ended,aft
erweattendedclasses,wearenowjust
chi
ll
inginmathclassMrsKhumal oi sbusymarki
ng
papers.
Khomotso:
Nev
ert
houghtIwoul
dgetscammed
yazi
ni.
▶Shel
aughs.
Me:
ahywenadon'
tl
augh
Khomot
so:
I'
m suchaf
ool
Me:
kant
ywhathappened?
?
▶Shet ol
dme, justnottoboreyouguy swiththe
detai
lsya'
llknowt hescam whereal adyapproaches
youandasksy outohelphermov estufff
orcharit
y
blablabl
a...i
fudon' taskmeI '
ll
tellyouit
squitea
famousscam now. ..
whenithappenedt oKhomot so
i
twasst i
ll
unknownbymany ..
.soy eahtheytookher
phoneandt heR500That ogavehert obuybaby
stuff
.
Me:
sor
ryf
ri
end
Khomotso:Ei
shwenanowIhat
eXhosapeopl
eI
swear
,thatl
adyl
iedt
omeandIbel
ievedher
..
.
▶Wel
aughed
Khomotso:
mxm Ei
shandbbenowI'
m phonel
essI
'
ll
needt
hephonet
hatIgav
eyouback.
▶Ooohmygod!
!Mx
m whatwi
l
lIdonow.
,It
hought
t
omysel
f
Me:
okayI
'
llgi
vei
ttoy
ou.
▶Hour
slat
erschool
gotoutsowe'
rest
il
lpacki
ngup
t
ogohome
Me:
Khomot
soy
ou'
recomi
ngwi
thmer
ight
?
Khomot
so:
yeahofcour
se
Kamo:
Niy
aphyNam ngy
ahamba
Me&Khomot
so:
ahywena!
▶Weal
ll
aughed.Mduduzi
wal
kedi
nandcamet
o
me
Mduduzi
:Thepr
inci
pal
iscal
l
ingy
ou
▶Conf
usedashel
lIask
Me:
For?
Mduduzi
:It
hinki
tsaboutt
heBur
sar
y
Me:Owkay
,guysI
'
m comi
ngnownowkamopl
ease
car
rymybag.
Kamo:
alr
ight
Me:
wai
tformeatt
hegat
engy
eza.
▶Mduduzi
andIwal
kedout
,onourway
Me:
youandmi
nenhl
elookgoodt
oget
her
.
Mduduzi
:thanky
oul
ol.
Me:
sur
e
Mduduzi
:i
syourboy
fri
endst
il
ltr
eat
ingy
our
ight
??
Me:
yeah
mduduzi
:soyou'
rest
il
lwi
thhim ev
enthoughhe
abusesy
ou,Nomzamoy ou'
rebett
ert
hanthat
Me:
pleasest
opbel
i
evi
ngi
nrumour
s
Mduduzi
:soi
twa.
..
Me:
all
ali
eyesVi
ncecoul
dnev
erev
erdot
hat
.
Mduduzi
:Ify
ousayso
▶Wef inall
yarri
vedattheoffi
ce,
onlyourcoachand
thePri
ncipalwerethereandsomeoft heother
pupi
lswhoal sogottheBursaryt
heygav eus3
for
mst ofil
linathomeandwewal kedout.
..met
Khomot soatthegat eandwewalkedt oMalums.
Mal
ums:
Ububusy?
Me:chaMalums,wentt
ofet
chsomef
ormsatt
he
of
fi
cesorr
ytokeepyouwait
ing
Mal
ums:
ayi
khoi
nki
nga
▶Wedr ov ehome..gothomeSes'
Thokowasthere
khomotsoandIgr eetedherandwewentupst
air
s..
.I
cal
ledVinceonelasttime..
.
Vi
nce:
myl
oveschool
isout
?
Me:
yes.
Vi
nce:
I'
m dy
ingbabeImi
ssy
ou
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo
Vi
nce:
wheni
sSbusi
soseei
ngy
ou?
?
Me:soon,VincelookKhomot
sogotscammed
yest
erdayshe'snowtaki
ngherphonesoIdon'
t
knowhoworwhenwegonnat alk
Vi
nce:
arey
ouki
ddi
ngme?
?
Me:
lov
eIwi
shIwassadl
yI'
m not
.
▶Vi
ncet
ookadeepsi
gh
Vi
nce:
okay
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oo,
takecar
e.
Me:
Iwi
l
l
Vi
nce:
promi
seme
Me:
Ipr
omi
se.
*cal
lended*
▶Khomot sotookherphoneenter
edanewSi m and
call
edThat o..
.whi
l
etheywerebusytal
kingIst
oodup
andundr essedanddressedupagainIworeajean
skir
tdungar eewit
hamar oontur
tl
eneckandlong
winterboots.
Me:
donet
alki
ng?
Khomot
so:
yeahj
ustwai
ti
ngf
orane-
wal
l
etnow.
Me:
soy
ouar
egoi
ngt
owi
thdr
awcash?
Khomot
so:
yeah.
▶I
nanexci
tedv
oice
Me:
soy
ou'
regoi
ngt
othemal
l
??Now?
?
▶Khomot
sogi
ggl
i
ng
Khomot
so:
yeah,
what
'sup?
?
Me:t
hatmeansIcangowi
thy
ou,
thenIcanseemy
Vi
nce!
▶Iwassoexcitedman. .
.KhomotsoseWal l
etcame
t
hroughfr
om Thatowerequestedanuberthenwe
wentdownst
airsSes'
Thokohadalreadymadeus
f
oodweat e.
..
Me:
Ses'
Thokopl
easet
ell
mydadthatIwentt
othe
mal
lwi
thkhomot
sotobuybabyf
ood
Ses'
Thoko:Don'
twantyoutogeti
ntot
roubl
e
Zamorepleasebebackbef
orehecomesback
Me:
urhgokay
.
▶af t
er15mi
nst
heuberr
idecame,
goti
nsi
deandI
cal
l
edVince
Vi
nce:
hel
l
o
Me:
bbei
t'
sme
Vi
nce:
andnow?
?Newnumber
s??
Me:
not
hesear
eKhomot
sost
ens
Vi
nce:
okay
Me:
canIseey
ou?
Vi
nce:
I'
m atwor
kthoughbbe
Me:
papi
please
Vi
nce:
Owkayi
'
llmakeapl
an
Me:
pleasebeatt
hemal
li
n10mi
ns
Vi
nce:
okay
,Il
ovey
ou
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
*cal
lended*
Khomot
so:
mmmmm
Me:
yini
Khomot
so:
itsni
cene.
Me:
lool
wher
e?
Khomot
so:
ngat
hysi
ngahl
angananoThembi
att
he
mall
Me:
ahywena.
▶Wegotatt hemallwentt ocl
icks,Vi
ncecall
ed
aft
erafewmi nut
es..
.toldmetomeethi m atthe
secondentr
ance...WhenIsawhi m, Ir
anupt ohim,
huggedhim andbabyki ssedhim..
.hesmil
edohLord
I'
vemissedthisDimpledsmi l
e.
Vi
nce:
stopi
t,y
ang'
bl
ushi
sa
Me:
mxm I
'
vemi
ssedy
ou
Vi
nce:
I'
vemi
ssedy
oumor
e,comeher
e.
▶Heputhi shandsaroundmyshoul
der
sandwe
walkedhandinhandtoRocomamas,weboughtt
ake
awayVannil
ami l
kshakesandwewentt
ositi
nhis
car.
Me:
papi
youhav
eanewhai
rcut
,I'
m wet
.
Vi
nce:
wet
?Wher
e?
▶Hel
aughed.
Me:
Ithi
nkIj
usthadanor
gasm,
honeyy
ourl
aught
er.
Vince:
Nomzamost opbeingnaught
y,uzi
misel
e
ngokungi
blush(
isa)todayne?
Me:
sor
rysoy
ou'
rel
eav
ingSat
urday
?
Vi
nce:
NopeI
'
mleav
ingt
omor
row.
Me:
Vincet
omor
row?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
Me:
tot
hinkt
hatIwassupposedt
ocomewi
thy
ou.
Vi
nce:
sor
rybbenex
tti
me
▶Heki
ssedt
hebackofmyhand
Me:
sendmyl
ovet
oyourmom.
..
Vince:
wil
ldo,
youknowIt
hinkweshoul
dbuyy
oua
phone
Me:
yeah.
..
weshoul
d
Vi
nce:
let
'sgobuyi
t
Me:
now?
Vi
nce:
yeah
Me:
soy
ouhav
eyourI
Dwi
thy
ou?
?
Vince:konj
e..Ihat
epaperwor
k,butwehav
etobuyi
t
soon..
.
Me:
wheny
oucomebacki
guess?
Vi
nce:
yesdef
ini
tel
y
Me:
okaygoodt
hen
▶ It
ookasi
p
Vi
nce:
youl
ooky
ummydamni
t.
..
comeher
e.
▶Hepull
edmyf acecl
osert
ohim andwestar
ted
ki
ssi
ng.
..
aft
eranhouroftheZamoncemoment
Vi
ncegotacall
from hi
sPAheorderedanuberfor
meandherushedbacktowork.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT34

▶Igothomearound16:34f
oundSes'
Thokopacki
ng
herst
uffi
ntheki
tchenr
eadytol
eave.
..
Me:
Youruberi
sout
sideal
ready
Ses'
Thoko:Ohyou'
reback,
letmel
oveandl
eav
eyou
seeyoutomorr
ow
Me:
seey
out
omor
row
Ses'
Thoko:
comegi
vemeahug
▶Iwal keduptoherandhuggedherthenshel eft
..
.I
wentt othel
oungesatdowngrabbedther emote
controlandswi
tchedontheTV.Hourslatermydad
buzzedIstoodupandopenedt hegat
ef orhim,he
droveinIwentbacktothel
oungehewal kedin
throughthegar
agedoorstrai
ghthewentt ohis
room, camebackandsatdowni nt
heloungewi th
me.
Dad:
Nomzamo
▶Il
ookedathi
m
Dad:
what
'swr
ong?Pl
easet
alkt
ome
▶If
rownedl
ooki
ngathi
m
Dad:okayt
hatwasast upi
dquesti
on,pr
incesscan
weforgett
hatt
hishappened?LookI'
m..
.
Me:
dad.
..
for
gett
his?
▶Ishowedhi
mtheheal
i
ngbr
uiseonmycheek
Me:
for
gett
his!
??
▶Ishov emyl ongsl eevet urt
leneckupandshowed
him somescar sonmyar ms.ThenIst oodupangr i
ly
wentt omyroom andcl osedt hedoor .howcan
someoney oul ovesodear l
yhur tyou,beaty ouupl i
ke
you'
reanadul twhodoesn' tfeel,how?andt hen
comebackandsay" let
'sforgetaboutt his"l
ikeit
neverhappened?I tdid..Icannotj ustpr ogram my
mindt of
orget,hewasn' tev enapol ogizingrightnow
Ihatemydadmor ethanany thing.Ist artedcryi
ng
becausereall
yIexpect edmor et hanjust" l
et'
sforget
aboutthi
s"from him.Ihear daknockonmydoor
andIignoredit,mydooropened
Dad:
Mubi
▶Hecamecl osert
omybedandsatnextmy
sobbi
ngsel
f.
Dad:
look,
getup
▶Hegrabbedmyar mformet ositupst
rai
ghthe
t
henputhisarm overmyshoulderandhuggedmeI
l
ethi
m becauseIlovehim andhe'
smydadaf teral
l
.
Dad:
Ilov
eyouokay
?
▶Hewi
pedmyt
ear
s.
Dad: thingsgotoutofhandI '
mr eal lyr eall
ysor ryyou
grewupsof ast,
itsscar ingme, youhav enev ergi ven
mepr oblemsnowy ou' redat i
ng,y ougotpr egnant ,
nexty eary ou'
releaving.al lt
hisist oomuchf orme
I'
veknowny ouyourwhol el i
feI'
vef edy ou,bat hyou,
clothy ou..
fir
ststepIwast here,fi
rstwor dIwas
ther et heloveIhav ef ory oucannotbecompar edt o
any thingi nthisworldIwasoncey oungIknowhow
cruel boy scanbe.I '
mj ustt r
y i
ngtopr otecty ou
princessandwhi letryingt oprotecty ouI
ov erreactedandhur ty ouI '
m sor ryf or giveme.
Thi ngsgotoutofhandIwi llneverev erdot hatt o
you.
Me:
..
..
▶Si l
entmoment ,I
'mi nhi sarmsI '
mt hi
nkingabout
all
oft het hi
ngsmydadhasj ustsaidI'm cry
ing
uncont r
ollablynowbecauseIcanseeand
understandwher ehei scomi ngf rom.Mydadhas
beenwi thmet hrought hickandt hinhewasamom
andadadt ome.Notev enoncedi dIcryorf eel
neglectedbyhi mi tsonlynowandnotev enoncedid
Ineedmymom. ..
orf eelli
keIneedmymom because
mydadhasbeenev eryt
hingandmor einmyl i
fe
thr
oughi tall
..
.Lolguy sI'm actuall
ycryi
ngwhi le
writ
ingt his.
.anywayl etmecont i
nue.
Dad:Ifyoudon'twanttotal
ktomef oraweek,
monthev enayearitsokayj
ustknowt hatI
'
m sor
ry
andIloveyou,IpromiseIwon'
tlayahandony ou
everagain.
▶Wi
pingawaymyt
ear
s
Me:
itsokaydad.
Dad:
youf
orgi
veme?
Me:
Ido
Dad:
nowgi
vemeasmi
l
e
▶Ismi l
ed,
hesatmeupst r
aighttookouta
handker
chi
efi
nhisjacketandwi pedt het
ear
sinmy
eyesandmynose,hegav emeaf oreheadki
ss
Dad:
Goodni
ght
Me:
NightDad
▶Hest oodup,wentoutofmyroom andcl
osedthe
door
.Igotinsi
detheblanket
sandsl
eptstr
aight
away.

▶Fr i
daymor ni
ngIwokef eeli
ngr efr
eshedbutI
rememberedt hatIdidn'tbathnordomyhomewor ks
l
astnight.
..I
'
m stil
lwear ingy esterdaysclothesI
stoodupfrom thebedIundr essedt ookmygown
thenopenedmydoorandIheadedt othelaundr
y
room toputmydi rt
ycl othest hereaf t
erwardsIwent
backtomyr oom, ont hewaybackt omyr oom,my
dadopenedhi sdoorconf used
Dad:
ewuSaw'
bona
Me:
Mor
ning
Dad:
Noschool
today
?
Me:
Onmyway
..
..
▶Iwal kedpasshi m Goti ntomyr oom wentst raight
totakeabat hf i
nished, wor eatowel walkedback
i
ntomyr oom tooki tof fandIstart edl otioning,
fi
nishedt ookoutmyschool uni
formi nt hewar dr obe
andwor eit.
..Iwasgonnawearagr eyschool t
rouser,
shirt
,ti
eandal ongsl eevedmat ricul antsj ersey
brushedmyhai rl
inewho' snomzamowi thouta
l
ipsti
ck?Ideci dedt oputonamar oonl i
pst i
ckthen
putonamascar a.Tookmybagchangedt i
met able
fi
rstper i
odwasmat hsAndy eswehadahomewor k
buty ourgirldidn'tdoi t..
.Ialr
eadyknewt hatsunci t
y
waswai ti
ngf orme, Itookmyschool bagandI
headeddownst airs
Me:
Mor
ning.
Ses'
Thoko:
mor
ningnt
ombi
,her
e.
▶Handi
ngmemybr
eakf
ast
Me:
Thanky
ou
▶Iwashav
ingbr
eadwi
thAv
ocado,
chi
ckenand
mushroom i
nsi
deandacupofcof
fee.
..
Ist
art
ed
eat
ing
Ses'
Thoko:
andher
e'sy
ourl
unchbox
▶Put
ti
ngi
tinmyschool
bag
Me:
Okay
,thanky
ou.
Dad:
you'
renotcel
ebr
ati
ngy
ourbi
rt
hdayt
hisy
ear
?
Ses'
Thoko:Iwasaboutt
oaskthesamethi
ng
Bhut
'Themba.Shehasn'
tsai
danyt
hing
Me:
Ithi
nkI
'
llpasst
hisy
ear
▶Dad&Ses'
Thokosur
pri
sed
Them:
Why
??
Me:
justki
ddi
ng.
Dad:
Iwasn'
tgoi
ngt
oal
l
owt
hatany
way
.
Me:l
olI'
l
lstartpl
anningsoon,dadrememberwhen
t
heyearstart
edItoldyouthatsinceI
'
mt ur
ning18
mybir
thdaypartyhastobeBIGsoIwantapl anner
.
Dad:
apl
anner
?
Me:
yesIcan'
tdot
hisonmyown
Ses'
Thoko:
Iknowaf
ri
endwho'
sapl
annershecan
hel
pyou.
Me:
see
▶Ihear
dahoot
erout
side
Me:t
hatmustbeMalums,Ses'Thokopl
easegi
vemy
dadt
henumbershecancallher.
▶Ist
oodupandt
ookasl
i
ce
Dad:kodwaIdidn'
tagr
eeonhav
ingapl
anneri
twas
j
ustdiscussi
on
Me:
byedad
Dad:
Mubi
..
▶Iwentoutt
heGat
eopenedIgr
eet
edMal
ums.
Mal
ums:
Kunj
ani
Mshana
Me:
goodMal
umsandy
ou?
Mal
ums:
Ngy
aphi
l
anami
.
Me:MalumsI
'
minv
iti
ngy
out
omybi
rt
hday
,next
monthne
Mal
ums:
Sekuy
is'
khat
hisakhona,
hawumel
e
ngy
okhi
phai
nsuduy
ami
ke.
▶Ilaughed,Wearr
ivedIsaidgoodbyeandIgoti
nat
schoolwenttot
heassemblydi dt
heassembly
rout
ineandwenttoclassfi
rstper
iodwesatdown.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tdomyhomewor
kimagi
ne
Khomot
so:
arey
oucr
azy
??
Me:st
opaski
ngmesi
l
lyquest
ion,
letkecopyy
our
wor
k
▶Khomotsohandedmeherbookf
ormet
ocopy
andshet
appedkamoonhershoul
der
.
Kamo:
ye?
Khomot
so:
sesakhodi
dn'
tdoherhomewor
k
▶Kamol
aughi
ng
Kamo:
ahywenawher
ewer
eyou?
?
Candi
ce:
get
ti
ngdi
cked?
?
Me:
Iwi
sh
Khomot
so:
so?
?
▶Mr
sKhumal
owal
kedi
nmyf
ri
endsst
art
ed
l
aughi
ngatme
Kamo:
ayey
e
▶DamnIwr
oteonl
ythedatenotev
ennumber1and
Mr
sKhumal
oisal
readyher
e.
Mr
sKhumal
o:Goodmor
ningcl
ass
Cl
ass:
Goodmor
ningma'
am
MrsKhumalo:i
fyouhaven'
tdonemyhomework
pl
easegetout
,thedoori
sstil
lopenwedon'
twant
anyrot
tenpot
atoes
▶Kamol
aughedoutl
oud.
Mr
sKhumal
o:any
thi
ngf
unnyMr
sMokoena?
?
Kamo:
Noma'
am
▶myclassmatesst
artedgett
ingupandwalking
out
..
.If
oll
owedthem packedmystuffandheaded
out
,onmyway..
MrsKhumal
o:nawe?
?NaweNt
shangase?
?Thi
sis
unl
i
keyou
Me:
Eishma'
am
▶KamoandCandi cealsostoodup,
andf ol
l
owed
me,wewalkedoutoftheclassandwenttosunci
ty
wepickedupbri
cksonourwayandsatt her
ewhil
e
baski
nginthewi
ntersun.
Me: wenay
ou'
rel
aughi
ngkant
yyoual
sodi
dn'
tdo
yourhomewor
k
Kamo:
who?MeIdi
dmyhomewor
kshem sesi
▶Pet
ronel
l
awal
kedupt
ous.
Pet
ronel
l
a:canIsi
twi
thy
ouguy
s?
Me:
yeahsur
e
▶Pet
ronel
l
asatdown
Candi
ce:v
oetsekyou'
rel
yingwenakamoy oucal
led
melastni
ghtaski
ngmet oscreenshotmyworkf
or
you.
Kamo:oksal
ayoIt
ri
edwr
it
ingNomzamoandy
ou
di
dn'
t.
▶Wel
aughed
Pet
ronel
l
a:nal
ehomewor
kbey
inzi
ma
Kamo:
toomuch.
.
Candi
ce:Isawnumber1andIwasl
i
kenopeI
'
m not
evengonnatr
ytowri
te.
Me:
letmeseei
t
▶Candiceopenedherbagandgavemehermath
bookwet r
ieddoi
ngthesum kamowasbusyon
Facebook.
Kamo:
eeh.
Pet
ronel
l
a:y
inkamo?
Kamo:
mhl
olokel
o!!
!
Candi
ce:
You'
remaki
ngnoi
se
Kamo:
Nomzamocomesee
Me:
comeher
ewena
▶shewasabi tfarf
rom meandIwaslazyt
ogetup
andgotoher
..Kamohandedmeherphone,whatI
sawwasn'
tprett
ymyhear twasshat
ter
edandi
tlegi
t
sank.
Me:
Vincei
stest
ingmey
ho,
ist
hisr
eal
??
Kamo:
yeah.
▶Youknowt hatshocklaught
er,what'
shappeni
ngi
s
ser
iousbutyou'relaughi
ngindisbel
i
efIwas
l
aughingthatlaughter
.
▶SowhatIsawonKamosFacebooki sVince'
spost
...
Vincepost edat ravel
lingactiv
itytoDurbanwitha
caption"MaDl amini yoursoni scomi nghome"then
Nomal angacomment ed" seeyoul at
er"t
henVince
l
ikedt hecomment .Guy sIwasnotokayIdi dn'
t
knowhowt oreact,ngi-
infrontofphamb'kwabantu
soIcont ai
nedmy self
Me:
thi
sguy
..
.
▶Isi
ghed
Kamo:uy
akunyelal
ofaar
n,It
houghty
out
oldhi
mto
cutof
fNomalanga
Me:
Idi
d,cl
ear
lyhecan'
t
▶mydaygotr ui
nedsoear l
y,Thebel
lrangforthe
secondperi
odwewentt othenextcl
ass,Theday
wentbysoslowl
yallIcouldthinkaboutwasVi nce
andhisExIwashurtfinall
yschoolgotout,
Mal ums
fet
chedmeandwedr ovehome, gothomeIl ooked
forSes'
Thokoar
oundt hehouseandf oundher
out
side.
Me:
cany
oupl
easebor
rowmey
ourphone
Ses'
Thoko:
yourphonei
sont
opofy
ourbed
▶Conf
used
Me:
Myphone?
Ses'
Thoko:
yeahyourdadt
oldmetot
ell
yout
haty
ou
canonl
yhaveitonl
yonweekends
▶DidInotr unt omyr oom , soIgott her
et ookmy
phoneandcl osedt hedoorl oggedintoFacebook..I
wentstraighttoVi nce'sti
mel ine.Ir
eadt he
comment soft hatpostIsawatschool .Vincedidn'
t
onl
yliket hecommentheendedupr espondingwith
emoji
s" "Iscr eenshott hecomment s+the
postandsentt hem tohi m onWhat sApp.Mi nut
es
l
aterhet extedmeback.Iqui cklyopenedhis
WhatsAppt extmyhear twaspumpi ngfastwhil
e
openi
nghi stext.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT35

▶Fi
nal
l
yopenedhi
stext
Vi
nce:
yougoty
ourphoneback?
▶Ibl
uet
ickedhi
m af
termi
nut
eshet
ext
edmeagai
n
Vi
nce:
babeIdi
dn'
twantt
ober
udei
tsnot
hing.
Me:
Vincer
ude?
?Ar
euf
uckenki
ddi
ngme?
?
Vi
nce:
comeonbbe.
Me:NoVi
ncef
uckyou,
y oucantbeseri
ousaf
terI
t
oldutor
emoveNomalangaInyourl
if
enowthis??
Vi
nce:
letmecal
lyou
▶Hecal
l
edmeIanswer
ed
Vince:howdout
akeme?YouknowIwoul
dn'
tdo
thattoyou.
..
Me:di
dyour
eadmyl
astt
extoruj
ustcal
l
edt
o
assur
emeli
es??
Vi
nce:
Idi
dandi
t'
snotwhati
tlooksl
i
ke.
Me:
ohr
eal
l
ywantt
oknowwhati
tlooksl
i
ket
ome?I
don'
tcarei
fyouwanttoknowornah. ..
tomeVi ncei
t
l
ooksli
keIdon'
tmat t
ertoyou,youjustdon'
tcare
aboutmeandmyf eel
ingsItol
dut ocutherOUTof
yourl
if
enotbecause.
..
Vince:
Zamoresor
ryt
odi
stur
byoubutpl
easeI
t
real
lywasn'
t.
..
.
Me:
knowwhatSt
uffy
ou*
Cal
lended*
▶Iwaspi ssed. .
.Ididn'
twantt ohearanythingwe
talkedaboutNomal angamosandwecamet oa
conclusionbutwe' r
est i
ll
talki
ngaboutherev ery
ti
mewef i
ghtitsher..
.Iputmyphonedownandgot
up. .
.gotundressedandpi ckedoutsomer andom
clothestowearIwor eanov ersi
zedbluejerseyanda
blackbeani etookmyphoneandIwentdownst air
s
foundSes' Thokoint heki
tchenpreparingtol eave.
Me:
ain'
tyoul
eav
ingi
nanhour?
Ses'
Thoko:
Iam..Ij
ustwantt
ogetr
eady
,babaAngel
i
scomingtofet
chme.
Me:ohhe'
sar
ound?
?
Ses'
Thoko:
yeah.
..
canImakey
ouf
ood?
Me:
NoI
'
mful
l
▶Full
where?
?Myhear twaspai
ning,
spi
ri
tdownI
j
ustdi
dn'
thaveanyenergyt
oeat
Ses'
Thoko:okayI
'
llpr
epar
eyousupperandl
unch
anyway.
..
Me:
okay
..
.
Ses'
Thoko:
youal
ri
ght
?
Me:
yesI
'
mfi
ne,
justneedwat
er.
..
▶Iwentt ot hefridgepi ckedoutabot t
leofwat er
andIheadedt othel ounget owat chsomemusi c
videosmay beI '
l
lfor getaboutVi nceal i
ttl
e.Swi tched
ont heTVandIwat chedMTVbasecheckedmy
phonef oranymessagesormi ssedcal l
sf rom
Vince..
.dololonot hing..
.Myhear twasshat ter ed
shem sohedoesn' tcar e,
he'sprobabl ywi thherI
thought..
.Vincenev erleavesmef eel i
ngsadsowhat
changed...Icheckedhi slastseenmay beI'mj ust
assumi ngt hings.
..Thet i
mewas15: 33hi sl astseen
was15: 30okayshar p.Icontinuedbr owsingt hrough
myphoner espondingt oothertext s.Afterawhi lea
phonecal lcamet hroughf rom Vi nce
Vi
nce:
mami
Me:
...
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ryokay
.
Me:
sor
ry?For?
Vince:
youknow.
.ourconv
ersat
ionear
li
erdi
dn'
t
happenthewayIwantedi
ttoo
Me:
howdi
dyouwanti
ttohappen?
▶Iwascal
mlikeapsy
chol
ogi
stl
i
steni
ngt
oot
her
peopl
e'
spr
obl
ems
Vi
nce:
Itr
ieddi
stanci
ngmy
sel
fbutshe.
..
▶Icr
acked
Me:
tri
ed?
?Vi
nceudi
dn'
thav
etot
ryy
ouhad
Vi
nce:
li
stent
ome.
.
Me:noy ouli
stentomeI '
m notgoi
ngtoactli
keI
under
standwhaty ou'r
esayi
ngbecauseIdon't
..
what
doyoumeant ried?.
..I
fyouwantedtoyouwould
havesowenay outr
ied?MeaningIf
orcedyoutodo
i
tyoudidn'twantto.
Vi
nce:
...
.
Me:
nowy
oucan'
ttal
k?
Vi
nce:
Icant
alk.
..
Iwantust
otal
knotf
ight
..
.
▶Wet alkedf orhoursandeventual l
y" tal
ked"t hings
through,hepr omisedtocutherof fandassur edme
thatitwasj usthim bei
ngfri
endly..hepr omisedt o
blockherandr emov eheri
nhislife...
.anywaylife
continued,day swentbyItsSaturdaynowl ast
weekendoft hemont hJulymydadandIar eout
shoppingwegotatGameandst ar tedbuy i
ngt hings
whi l
estroll
i
ng
Me:whatar
eweeat
ingt
oni
ght
?BecauseIknowy
ou
won'
tcook.
Dad:
Ifeel
li
kepi
zza
Me:
whynotspurf
ood?
?
Dad:
itsmessynotgoodf
oragameni
ght
Me:
Ifor
gott
hatj
aywascomi
ngt
oni
ght
..
.sopi
zzai
t
i
s
Dad:
gobuyi
tnow.
..
Iwantt
ogohome.
▶Westopped,
mydadt
ookouthi
swal
l
etandgav
e
mehi
scard
Me:
Pin?
Dad:
1997
Me:
1997?
▶Il
aughedbecausei
t'
smybi
rt
hyear
Dad:
what
?it
seasyt
oremember
Me:
not
hingf
ather
,I'
l
lbebacknownow
▶Iwal kedoutatGamesmil
ing.
..
Iaskedmysel
fa
quest
ionwhyam Ismi l
i
ng?TheanswerwasthatI
'
m
atmyhappiestevery
thi
ngi
sgoingokay..
.
▶IgotinatPanarot
ti
sI'
m st
il
lthi
nki
ngwhi
l
eIwai
t
t
oplacemyor der
..
.
▶ LikeInolongerthinkaboutt hingst hatupsetmy
heartandruinmymood. ..
everythingisjustgoing
welli
nmyl if
e,I'
m happy,meandmydadf i
nalysaw
eyetoey eandwe'rebackt onor mal .
..
meandVi nce
arealmostperfectwearej usti
nl oveand
happy..
..
social
lif
eisjustgreat...
school isgood,
ngimuhle,myassi sgett
ingf at
terandmyski ngis
poppingkonkekuhambakahl emaarnIain'
t
compl ai
ningIqui
ckl
ysnapoutofmyt houghtswhen
Ifel
tahandt apmyrightshoulder
,It
urnedaroundt
o
seewhoi twas.
Muzi
:hey
▶Ij
ustf
rowned
Me:
hiMuzi
.
Muzi
:Sang'
kwat
ele?
Me:
No
▶Myat t
it
udetowar dshi
m wascl ear
..
Iwassti
llmad
athim..
.wasnexti nli
nesoIorder ed2lar
gepizzasI
wenttositdownwhi l
eIwai
tedf ormynumbert o
cal
led..
.Muziboughtsomethingt oobecausehewas
behindme..Afterpl
acinghi
sor derhecamet ome.
Muzi :y
azNomzamosi ngabant
uwecant al
k...
a
l
ot...
tal
ktoanextentwherewet al
khurtfult
hingsto
otherpeopleandnotnoti
cebecausewet al
kwi t
hout
consideri
nghowt heyf
eel
.Wet alkouropini
ons
withoutthi
nki
ng..
.I'
mreal
lysor
ryi fwhatIsaidhurt
you.
▶Hisapologywassi
ncere.
..
soIhadnoreasont
obe
madathimf oral
ongti
me.ImeanattheendIgain
not
hing.
Me:
itsokay
Muzi:
noit'
snot
..
.Iwasstupi
dandIwon'
tbl
ame
al
coholIbl
ameme..I
'm sor
ry
Me:
Ifor
giv
eyou.
Muzi
:thankyou..
.andImi
sshear
ingy
oumoani
ng
whenyou'r
ewithVince
▶Il
aughed
Me:
ucal
i
le
▶Theycall
edMuzif
ir
st,
hewentandtookhi
sorder
heboughtmeabubbl
egum mi
l
kshakebefor
ehelef
t
hecametomytabl
eandgavei
ttome...
Me:
youdi
dn'
thav
eto.
Muzi
:If
eltl
i
kei
t.
.seey
ouar
ound
Me:
Bye.
..
▶hewal
kedout
,It
ookasel
fi
ewit
hmymilkshake,
t
hepi
ccameoutsopr
ett
yIdi
dn'
twast
eti
meI
posteditonFacebook. .
.Theycal
l
edoutmynumberI
fet
chedmypi zzas,Iwal
kedoutandcalledmydad
hewasal readyinthecarsoIwal keduptothecar
andwedr ov eoff.
..
wegothomeandIst ar
ted
packing
Me:
Ihopej
ayl
i
kesChi
ckenandMushr
oom?
Dad:
wel
lIhopesot
oof
orhi
ssake
Me:
imagi
nei
fhedoesn'
t
Dad:uzobuy
elalaabuy
akhonahemustr
espectt
he
worl
dsbestpizza
▶Il
aughed
Me:
True
Dad:
letmegoandl
i
edownIhav
eaheadache
Me:
okaygoon.
..
I'
l
lpackt
hisgr
ocer
y
▶Mydadwentupst air
swhileIr
emainedint
he
ki
tchenandpackedthi
ngs.
..Myphonerangi
twas
Vi
nce.
Me:
heypapi
Vi
nce:
Imi
ssy
ou
Me:
Imi
ssy
ou.
..
wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
onmywayt
othecarwash,
accompanyme.
Me:
now?
Vi
nce:
yeahy
oubusy
..
.
Me:
No
▶No?Whatdoy oumeanNo?Nomzamoy
ou'
rebusy
packi
ngupSesi
.
Vi
nce:
okay
,I'
l
lgi
vey
ou10mi
ns
Me:
Owkaymcwaah*
cal
lended*
▶Ipackedasf astasIcould...Notsur
ei fIput
thi
ngswher et heyaresupposedt obe..
butatl eastI
packed..
.Irushedt omyr oom chargedmyphone
whil
eIchangedcl othes.
..It
ookoutt heclothesthatI
waswear i
ngandIwor eaplainwhiteT-shirt
,torn
j
ean,j
eanjacketandmywhi teconverseshoes. .
.Put
onar edli
pstickmoi stur
izedmyhandst ookoutmy
phoneinthechar gerandtextedVince.
Me:
I'
m onmyway
▶Wal
kedt
omyDadsr
oom andhal
fopenedhi
sdoor
Me:
Dad?
Dad:
..
..
Me:
Themba?
▶Hewasalreadyasl
eep,
Iwal
kedupt
ohi
m..
and
shookhi
mtowakeup
Me:
Dad?I
'
m goi
ngoutI
'
llbebacknownow
Dad:
okayl
ockal
lthedoor
s
▶Iwalkeddownstai
rsbuzzedmysel
foutandI
wal
kedtoVince'
shousefoundhi
m wait
ingforme
i
nsi
dethecar.
.Igotin
Me:
papi
Vi
nce:
hel
l
omami
..
.comeher
e
Me:
noIj
ustputont
hisl
i
pst
ick
Vince:
okayfi
nedon'taskmet
okissunami
I'
ll
tel
l
youthatIj
ustputonthi
sZambuc
Me:
lol
mxm
▶HegavemeanauxIpl
ayedmymusi candwe
dr
ovet
okasi
gotatt
hecarwash.
..Per
cyandot
her
Vince'
sfr
iendswerether
esomewi ththei
rGfsand
someont heirown.Weparkedourcaranditgot
washed..
theplacewaspackeditl
ookedasifther
e
wasanev enthappeni
ng
Me:Vi
nce,
Youdi
dn'
ttel
lmet
hatwear
egoi
ngt
oan
ev
ent.
.
Vi
nce:
itsnotanev
entbbe
Me:
lool
mxm .
..
▶ThankgodIl eftmyhousepr eparedandl ooking
ni
ceWeboughtmeatandv ibedwit
hVi nce'sfr
iendit
wasacool chi
ll
edafter noonIdidn'
twantt oget
drunksoIwasdr i
nkingCr anberryj
uiceafterawhi l
e
ofdri
nkingandlaughing...
other
sstarteddancing
guesswhoj oi
nedinVi nce..
didInotlaugh..
hewas
ti
psydrunk
Me:
Idi
dn'
tknowt
hatVi
ncecandance
▶Iwast
alki
ngt
oPer
cy'
sgi
rl
fr
iendNt
habi
.
Nthabi
:Vincecandancef
orday
sgi
rlNedkushoda
uMuziloolyou'
l
lseefl
ames
Me:
what
??r
eal
l
y
▶Il
aughed
Nt
habi
:yeah.
..
▶18:53It
oldVi
ncet
hatIwantedt
ogo,wesaidour
goodby
esandwelef
t.Onourwaytor
osebank
Me:
Thanky
ouf
ort
aki
ngmet
okasi
Vi
nce:
lool
whatdoumeanMr
s?
Me:
Iwoul
dn'
thav
efi
ndoutt
haty
oucandance
Vi
nce:
mxm
Me:
youshoul
dgot
oji
kama
Ji
kaweneedt
hatR5000
Vi
nce:
Nomzamot
uu
▶Ilaughedathimforbeingshyaboutthi
s..
reached
ourdest
inati
onheparkedathispl
acewet al
kedf ora
bi
tthenIkissedhi
m goodbyeandIwalkedtomy
house.

PLEASENOTE:
Ionl
ypostonSunday
sand
Wednesday
.
#I
NSERT36

▶okaysoIgethome,t
hedoorisunlockedsoIl
et
mysel
fin.
..
myDadandJasonareeinthekit
chen
pr
epar
ingfort
oni
ght
smatch..
..
Me:
Heyj
ay
Jay
:Heysi
s
▶Wehugged
Me:
whatt
imedi
dyouar
ri
ve?
Jay
:Ij
ustgother
e.
Me:OwOwkay,l
etmegoanduponcomf
ort
abl
e
cl
othesI
'
m ki
ndacol
d.
Dad:
Pleasebr
ingmyphoneony
ourwaydown.
Me:
okay
.
▶Iwentupst air
swor emynewpi nkonesieand
snugsthenIchar gedmyphone..
.wenttomyDad's
room t
ookhisphoneandt henIwentdown
stai
rs.
..
foundthem alr
eadyint
hel oungetal
ki
ngand
j
ustwaitingforthematchtost
art..
.Igavemydadhi
s
phoneandIsatnextt
ojayonasepar
atesof
afr
om
mydad.
Jay:Bar
cel
onahast
owi
nIcan'
taf
for
dtol
ose
R1000
▶Ey
eswi
deopenIask
Me:
R1000asi
n10R100not
es?
?
Jay
:Yeah
Dad:
Itwon'
twi
nmyboy
Me:
you'
real
soi
nthi
s?
Dad:
yeswebetear
li
er
Me:hmm maythebestt
eam wi
n,y
ousmel
lgood
Jaydi
dyoubat
hbeforecomi
nghere?
▶Hel
aughed
Jay:l
maosi
sofcos.
..
Igothomearound4am f
rom
thest
udi
o,t
henIwokeuparound5pm t
ookabath
andcamehere.
Me:
lool
stupi
dquest
ionne
Jay
:yeah.
..
didy
oubat
h?
Me:
hawu.
.y
eah
Jay
:hmmm
Me:
why
Jay
:not
hing
Me:
somet
hing'
sfi
shywi
tht
hat"
hmmm"what
'sup?
Jay
:yousmel
lofsmoke.
..
▶Mydadwasbusyonhisphonebutl
ookedupt
he
momentsmokewasmenti
oned.
Dad:
Smoke?
Me:
Iwasatachi
sany
amaso.
..
▶Ishr
ugmyshoul
der
sandr
oll
edmyey
es
Dad&Jay
:ooh
▶Themat chbeganwewat chedBar cel
onavs
Arsenal
..
mydadwaswi t
hAr senalandjaywi
th
Barcel
onaandme?Iwasbehi ndbothteams
becauseIloveMessandSanchezsoi twashar
dfor
met ochooselol.
..
soBarcel
onawonandJaywona
bet
Dad:
spendi
twi
sel
y
Me:
wher
e'smi
ne?
?
Dad:
your
s?
Me:It
hinkIdeser
veit
,phel
aIwasbehi
ndbot
h
t
eamsR500won' thur
tdad.
Jay
:lool
real
l
ynow
Dad:
imagi
ne.
..
Me:
mxm howar
eyouspendi
ngy
ourmoneyany
way
Jay:si
nceBarcawon..
myf r
iendsandIwi
l
lgoand
cel
ebrateatTaboooratzone6
Me:
CanIcome
Jay
:sur
e..
Me:
DaddycanI
?
Dad:onl
yify
ou'
llt
akecar
eofy
our
sel
f.
..Andi
fjay
cankeepaneyeonyou.
..
Jay
:Iwi
l
l
Dad:
okayt
henl
etmegot
osl
eep
▶Mydadwentupst
air
stosl
eepi
twas22:
05.
..
Jay
:goandputonsomet
hingni
ce
Me:
yessi
rany
thi
ngf
ory
ousi
r!
▶Iwentupst ai
rsexcit
edasf uck,neverBeento
Taboooranyclubbef oresoyeahy ourgir
lwasover
themoon..
.Igotinsi
demyr oom checkedmyphone
2missedcall
sfrom Vince.
..
Idecidedtocallhi
m
Me:Papi
justsawyourmissedcal
l
s,sor
rywasi
nthe
l
oungewatchi
ngsoccer
.
Vi
nce:i
tsokayIwasj
ustchecki
ngupony
ou,
soy
our
sl
eepi
ngnow?
Me:
yeahj
ustgoti
nbed.
▶Wasn'tgonnat el
lhimI'
m goingtopart
y..
.He
doesn'
tl
ikeitwhenIgooutt here'
salway
stensionor
afi
ghtafter
..i
fIdecidet
ogoandj ai
vehepref
ersto
gowithme.Jealousy.
Vi
nce:okaygoodni
ghtmami,Ij
ustgothomeI
'
m
sl
eepi
ngnami Il
oveyouokay
?
Me:
lov
eyout
oopapi
Vi
nce:
sleept
ight
.
Me:
yout
oo*
cal
lended*
▶Af tert hecallendedIi mmedi atelyswi t
chedoffmy
phoneandwentt ot aket hequickestshoweron
eartha5mi nsshower ..
.Iwentbacki nmyr oom
l
ot i
onedt ookoutclothest hatIwillwearI '
vebeen
waitingf orthi
sdaysoIknewexact lywhatIwas
goingt owear ,Iworebl ackheel s,whitehighwaist
skinnyjeanandwhi tepl ainvestwhi chItuckedin
andabl ackleatherjacket. .AchockerandIputon
somemakeup. .
.AHotr edl i
psti
ckobv iouslyand
thenIwal keddownst ai
rs. .
.Jaywaswat chingmusic
videos.
Me:
Let
'sgo
Jay
:woah!
Me:
what
?
Jay
:thewai
twaswor
thi
t.
▶Ismiled,
Ijustcouldn'
twai
tanylonger
..
.Wegot
outoft
hehousel ockedthedoorandthegat
e,we
goti
nJason'scarandwedr oveoff.
..
Jay
:If
eel
sor
ryf
ory
ou
Me:
why
?
Jay:myfri
endsar
egoingt
oannoyy
ouandpeopl
e
wil
lbelooki
ngatyou.
..
Me:
why
??
Jay
:di
dyouseey
our
sel
fint
hemi
rr
or?
?
Me:
comeon
▶Ibl
ushedal
i
ttl
e..
Jay:onaseri
ousnotethoughyoubeauti
ful
andif
yougetannoyedorsomethingj
ustt
ellme...
I'
l
l
accompanyyouhome.
Me:
Nopr
obl
emo.

▶Jayconf i
rmedwi thhisfri
endsthattheywi l
lgoto
Taboo. ..
.sowewentt otaboowegott her
e..
.parked
hiscarwewal kedt otheclubabouncersear ched
him wegoti nsideI'mf eel
ingmyselfhey ,
confidence
l
ev elishighupt herewi t
hthemoon. ..Okaywegot
i
nsi dewal kedt ooursect i
onJaysf r
iendsareal r
eady
there..
.Igreetedt hem theygreet
edback.
Jay
:thi
sismyLi
lsi
s.
Br
andon:
Nicet
omeety
ou
Me:
Nicet
omeety
out
oo.
▶Hadt ospeakoutloudbecauset hemusicwas
l
oud. ..t
hegroovebeganI twassof unnoli
es..
.I
enjoyedeveryminuteofit..Jay
sf r
iendsweresucha
vibeIdidn'
tgetbored...t
heykeptonf i
ll
i
ngupt he
tablewithHennessey'sandChi vasregalIt
hinkIfel
l
i
nl ovewithChiv
asr egalthatdaybecauseIloveitso
muchnow. .
.
Me:
pleaset
ell
Jayt
hatIwentt
othedancef
loor
Teezy
:yeahsur
eIwi
l
l
▶Teezyi
sabl
ackgi
rlj
aysf
ri
endswho'
sal
soa
r
apper
.
▶Jaywasout si
dedoingIdon'tknowwhatt hereI
gotoutofoursectioncar
ryi
ngabot tl
eofChivas
regalandwalkedtothedancef l
oorwi t
hitandwow
guysIdrankitdryandIgotsodr unk,ji
kij
i
kiIwasn't
carry
ingthatbot
tleanymoredontknowwhet hert
hey
stol
eitorwhatIdancedandt wer kedondudesand
gir
lsIdidn'tknowont hedancef l
oor.
..
Iwentbackto
oursectionandy esIgotlostonmywayt her
e..
.butI
fi
nall
yfoundt hem Iwasdr unkbutnotdrunkinaway
thatIcouldn'tsee...
whatwashappeni nginour
secti
ont ableshockedt heshitsoutofme...
Ithi
nkI
becamesoberf orgood2mi nutes.
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngon
Ky
le:
come,
si
t.
▶Ky l
eisacol or
eddudeal
soJaysfri
end.He'
sthe
onlyonewhohear dmebecauseal
ltheother
swere
"busy"
..
.Isatdown
Me:
aret
heyr
eal
l
ydoi
ngcocai
ne?
▶GuysIwasshocked..
.Ionlyseecocaineinthe
movi
es.It
hinkIsatt
hereinsilencef
ormi nut
es
ov
ert
hinki
ngthi
ngsJaydisturbedmyt hought
s
Jay
:Hey
,youokay
.
Me:
jayy
oudodr
ugs?
wtf
Jay
:lool
no
Me:
don'
tl
aughj
ayI
'
m ser
ious.
Jay
:pl
easej
ustcomeandmeetmygi
rl
fr
iend
▶Ishet r
yingt
omakemef or
getaboutthi
s?
Becauseit
sworking..
.Hegotmet ostandup..
.and
wewentupt ohisgir
lf
riend.Whowor ksther
eat
Taboo.
Jay
:Babemeetmysi
s
▶Hesai dthi
swhil
ehuggi
ngherandki
ssi
ngheron
hercheek,
theyl
ookedcut
e.
Her
:HeyI
'
m Adakubuty
oucancal
lmeAda
▶Adakuconfusedashel
lphel
athi
snamei
swei
rd
any
waysIgreetback
Me:
Nomzamo
▶Wehugged.
Adaku:
A-danotAda
Me:
Keny
an?
Adaku:
NoNi
ger
ian
Me:
OhNi
cet
omeety
ou.
▶Hergi
rl
fr
iendwasbeaut
if
ulshem.
Adaku:
letmegetbackt
owor
kI'
l
lseey
oul
ater
?
Me:
yeahsur
e..
.
▶Wewentbackt oourtabl
eandcontinuedtohave
fun.
.At4am Iwassleepyandjustwantedtogo
homebutt hosecocaineheadswerestil
lpar
tyi
ngup
astorm at4am guy
s!!
!
Me:
Atwhatt
imedoest
hiscl
ubcl
ose?
?
Teezy
:7am y
out
ir
ed?
Me:gir
lI'
mti
red.Ij
ustwantf
ood,
cuddl
esandI
'
llbe
f
ine.
▶Jayov
erhear
dourconv
ersat
ion.
Jay
:yout
ir
ed?
?
▶Tiredanddrunkfrom j
aiv
ingandscr
eamingthe
wholeni
ghtyoumean?YesJayI 'mver
yti
red.
.my
mindwassti
lldrunk.
..
Me:
yeah.
.
Jay
:come
▶West
oodupandwentout
sidet
ohi
scar
Jay
:I
'l
lbebacki
nami
nut
e
▶Heopenedt
hecarf
ormeandl
eft
Igoti
nsidehiscarandIdozedof fi
mmediat
ely
.
Minut
esl at
erIwakeup...I
'
m sit
ti
ngnextt
oBrandon
I'
minteezyslap..
.Igetupthecarismovi
ng.
..
Jay
andhi
sgi rl
fr
iendareinthefr
ont.
Teezy
:wakeywakey
Me:
yho.
▶Hol
dingmyheadi
tfel
theav
y.
Br
andon:
Thi
schi
ckov
erher
ecandancehey
Jay
:forday
sbr
uhIwassur
pri
sed
Me:
stopl
yi
ngguy
s.
Brandon:seri
ously
..
.Iwasshockedbecausebefor
e
thealcoholent
eredthesyst
em youwaspol i
teand
reser
v ed
Jay
:af
tert
heef
fectboy
.ItwasRI
Pforus
Br
andon:
RIPbr
uh.
▶Theyl
aughedwedr
ovet
othemal
landwentt
o
Mcdonaldsitwas06: 45am wegotof
fthecarand
wewalkedinsi
de,satdownwhi l
eJayandBrandon
wentt
oor derf
oodf orus.
Me:
wasIr
eal
l
ythatdr
unkl
astni
ght
?
▶Aski
ngAdaku.
Adaku:
Ionl
ysawy
oui
nthedancef
loor
Me:
danci
ng?
Adaku:
yeah
Me:
ohmywor
d.
▶Icov
eredmyf
ace
Teddy:t
obehonesty
ou'
resuchvi
be,themoment
youwalkedi
nwit
hJayIr
eall
ythoughtyouwer
ea
snob.
..
Me:
hahaha
Adaku:
andy
ou'
rer
eal
l
ypr
ett
y..
.
Me:
ncooht
hanks
▶Ibl
ushed.JayandBrandoncamebackwit
h
f
ood.
.westart
edeati
ng..
.Ifi
nishedmyf
oodfi
rst
..
.
Br
andon:
youf
ull
?
Me:
Nah,
I'
ll
eatapr
opermeal
whenIgethome.
Br
andon:
youcanhav
emi
ne
Me:
noI
'
m cool
▶Coolwher
e??Deepdownmyst omachwas
scr
eami
ngatmetotakethatbur
gerandj
usteati
t.
Br
andon:
comeont
akei
t.
▶Hepushedhi sburgert
owardsme. .
andIhel
ped
my sel
f.
..Iateitminutesl
ateraft
erbondi
ngand
l
aughingov erMcDonal dsmeals.
.Itwasti
metogo
homeJayaccompani edhi
sfri
endsandhisgir
lf
ri
end
fi
rstandmel ast.
..
onourwayt omyhouse
Jay
:yourDadcal
l
edy
ouknow.
Me:
when?
Jay:whi
ley
ouwasi
nthecarsl
eepi
ngbutIdi
dn'
t
answer.
Me:
I'
m sur
ehewaswonder
ingwher
ewasI
Jay
:Isenthi
m at
ext
Me:
atext
?whydi
dn'
tyouj
ustanswer
?
Jay
:Iwasi
nacl
ub,
Noi
se?
Me:ooh
Jay:
yeah,
itwasni
cebei
ngwi
thy
ou.
..
Ihadagr
eat
ti
me
Me:
I'
m sur
eyoudi
d,y
oudodr
ugst
heyar
efun
Jay
:ouch.
..
comeon.
▶ wear
ri
vedandwepar
kedout
sidemyhouse
Jay
:thosear
en'
tdr
ugs
Me:
I'
m notaki
dyouknow.
Jay
:okaysur
eIdot
hem butpl
easedon'
tsni
tchon
me
Me:
Iwon'
t"Bi
gbr
other
"..
doy
ou.
▶Isteppedoutofhiscar
,openedthegateandIgot
myselfi
ntheyar
d...Wenttotheki
tchendoorand
Knockedmydadopened...
Me:
mor
ning
Dad:
hey
.
▶Iwal
kedt
owar
dst
hest
air
s
Dad:
youl
ookt
ir
ed
Me:
Ver
yver
yti
red.
▶Iwalkedtomyroom t
ookmycl
othesof
f.
..
wore
backmyonesi
esandIgoti
nsi
demybedandslept
ri
ghtway.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT37

▶Sundayaf t
ernoonaround4Iwokeup, f
eel
ingt
ir
ed
Igotupfrom mybedandIwentst rai
ghttothe
bathr
oom pouredwaterandfoam bathintot
hebath
tub.
..
thenIwentbacktomyr oom t
ot akemyphoneI
founditr
ingi
ng..
.i
twasVince.
.Ianswered.
Me:
Heyl
ove.
Vi
nce:
HiNomzamo,
howar
eyou?
▶Nomzamo?
Me:
Goodandu
Vince:
What
'skeepi
ngy
ousobusy
?I'
vebeencal
l
ing
you
Me:EishloveIwokeupreal
l
yearl
ytoday,
Wentto
churchwithmydadandwhenIgothomeIt ooka
nap.Iwasn'tsoact
iveonmyphonetodaysor
ry.
Vi
nce:
chur
ch?
?
Me:
yeah.
.
Vi
nce:
okaymami
,di
dyoupr
ayf
orus?
Me:
Ial
way
sdo.
Vi
nce:okayI
'
m busymaki
ngf
oodher
eI'
l
lcal
lyou
l
ater
.
Me:
owkay
..
Ilov
eyou.
Vi
nce:
andIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
l
ater*
cal
lended*
▶It ookadeepsi gh,Thankgodhedoesn' tknow
anythingbecauseifhedi d. .
.I
'
dbeindeept rouble.I
thoughttomy self,
Iwal kedbacktot hebat hroom I
undressedthengoti ntot hebatht
ubt hatwasf ullof
bubbles,Iset
tl
edi nandIt ookmyphonet hatwas
besidemeIwant edtopl aysongswhi leIbat h.
..wellI
tookitandstartedgoi ngt hr
oughit
..
.gotintof ounda
What sApptextfrom jay..
.
Jay
:HeyLi
lsi
suup?
Me:
justwokeup
▶Itwentt
hroughIansweredothertexts.
.Wentto
Vi
nce'
scontactther
ewasagi rl
inhisdispl
aypi
ctur
e
..
.myheartstart
edbeat
ingfastIquickl
yopenhi
s
pr
ofi
lepi
ctur
et oseewhoitwas...Guesswhoitwas?
...NopenotNomal angal ool..i
twasme. ..Itwasa
Yest er daypi cturef rom taboomymemor ycame
backf astt ome, Iremembert akingt hispi c...
Hour s
l
at erwhi leatTabooadudet hatt akespi ct uresfor
taboocamet ooursect i
onandt ookpi ctur esof
us..andi nsistedt hatIt akeapi cwher eI '
m al one
becauseappar entlyIchar medhi m. ..
theyusual ly
postt hosepi csont heirpageonFacebooksoI
guesst hat'
swher eVi ncet ookt hispic.Idi dn'tt
ext
him becauseIdi dn' tknowwhatt osayandt herewas
a" goodmor ningmami "t extfrom ear lierwhi chI
i
gnor edandgotoutofWhat sApp.Wentt omymusi c
l
ibr aryandIpl ayedSof tRnbpl ay l
istafterdoi ngt hatI
tookal ongsoot hingbat h, af t
erbat hingIgotup
wr appedat owel aroundmy selft henIwenti ntomy
room l oti
onedandwor eashor tr eddr essandaj ean
j
acketont opandIwor eindoorsl eeper s, wentt othe
mi rrorImoi stur i
zedmyf acewi t
hVasel ineandI
wal kedt othedoorasIwasaboutt ost epoutofmy
room myphoner angagai n,i twasont opoft hebed
Ianswer ed.
Vi
nce:
Sesi
didy
ouj
ustbl
uet
ickme?
?
▶Il
etoutachuckl
e.
Me:
no.
Vi
nce:
andt
henwhat
'sup?
Vincehlewhatdouwantmet osay?ThatIwent
party
inglastni
ghtandIgotsodr unk.
.Itwerkedt
o
thehellandback..
nicepict
ureyouhav ethereon
What sAppasyourprofi
lepict
ureandohsor r
yIl
ied
toyou..?
?"
Me:
wel
lEi
sh.
..
Vi
nce:
whydi
dyoul
i
etoMe?
Me:
Idi
dn'
tl
ie,
yazI.
..
.
Vi
nce:
comet
hrough.
Me:
wher
eaty
ourpl
ace?
?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
.andnow.
▶Ohmy...
.okaywhati
shegoi
ngt
odot
ome?Beat
meup?NahnotVince.
Me:
Owkay
..
.I
'
m comi
ng.
..
Vi
nce:
okay*
cal
lended*
▶Iputmyphonei nmyjacketpocket
sthenIwalked
downst
air
s..
foundmydadl ooki
ngall
dapperandhe
wassmell
inggoodtoo.
Me:
andwher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Dad:
youmeanwher
eam Igoi
ng,
I'
m goi
ngonadat
e.
Me:dadyou'
realmost50buty
ouandGr
acegot
o
dat
esli
keteenager
s.
Dad:pl
easeTi
eupmytieandstoptal
ki
ng,
Idi
dn'
t
cookyoucaneatt
hel
eftoverpi
zza
Me:
okay
▶Itookhi st
iethatwasont
opoftheki
tchen
counterandTieditupf
orhi
m..
.t
henIhelpedhi
mto
putiton
Dad:
Ilookdoper
ight
?
▶Il
aughed.
.
Me:dope??Wher
edi
dyouheart
hatname?Yeah
youl
ookdopedad
Dad:yout
hinkIdontknowt
hingsne.
..
Letmel
eav
e
you.
..
Me:
lool
dad.
..
Sendmygr
eet
ings.
dad:
OwkayIwi
l
ltakecar
eOwkay
.
Me:
YeahIwi
l
l
▶Hewal kedout .
..Iwentt othedoorandcl osed
i
t..
thenIwentt othefri
dget ookouty esterdayspizza
putitonapl atethenImi crowav edit.Pouredwat er
i
ntoaket tl
eandseti ton, Itookoutacupand
preparedt omakecof fee..
.Mi nuteslatermyf ood
wasr eadyIwentt ot
hel oungeswi tchedont heTV
andIwat chedamov iefoundi tintheMi ddleitwas
quietinterestingsoIwat chedal lofitunti
lit
ended. .
.wentt oplacethepl atesont hesink..
.opened
thegat e..
.unlockedt hedoort henIwentouti twas
18:23...IGott oVince'shouseandknockednoone
answer edsoIkeptonknocki ngonmy5t hattemptI
tookoutmyphoneandcal l
edhi m heanswer ed.
Me:
I'
m out
side
Vi
nce:
Iknow.
Me:
open
Vi
nce:
soy
ounowcan'
topenasi
mpl
edoor
?
▶Iletmy sel
finanddroppedthecal
l.hewasint
he
l
oungesoIwal keduptohim huggedhimfrom
behi
ndthesof awhil
egivi
nghim aki
ssonthecheek,
j
usttobreaktheice.
Me:
Hey
.
▶Gotupandwentont
osi
tonasepar
atecouch
Vi
nce:
Hey
..
.wantsome?
▶Hewaseati
ngbr
aai
iredmeatanddr
inki
ng
Hei
nekenont
hesi
de.
Me:
Not
hanks
Vi
nce:
Notev
ent
his?
▶Picki
ngupaHei nekencanandof
fer
ingi
ttome,
is
heki
dding?Ir
oll
edmyey es.
Me:
Idon'
tdr
inkbeer
.
Vi
nce:
kantywhatwer
ey ouhav
ingYest
erdayni
ght
?I
mi
ghthaveitont
hefr
idge

▶Loolwherei
sthi
sgoi
ng?Thef
acthei
ssochi
l
led
aboutt
hismademener
vous.
#I
NSERT38

▶SoIl
aughedaf
terhesai
dthat
.
Vi
nce:
Uhl
ekani
?
▶Hesai
dthi
swhi
l
esmi
l
ing.
..
acr
ookedsmi
l
e.
Me:
NoI
'
mfi
ne,
Ijustat
e.
Vince:Comesi
tnextt
ome,
whyuhl
alel
aek'
deni
kanje?
▶ShouldIgoandsitnextt
ohim?Whatifhe
chocksl
amsme..
.t
hisguyistoocal
m andit
sscar
y.
Vi
nce:
don'
tthi
nkabouti
tjustcome.
▶Howdi dheknowthatIwasthi
nkingabout
i
t..
any
waysIsnappedoutofmymi ndandIgotup
andwenttowherehewassit
ti
ngandIsatnextto
hi
m.
Vi
nce:
goodgi
rl
..
..
comecl
oser
▶Hepulledmesof tl
ytowardshi
m..t
henposit
ioned
hi
msel
f,heplacedhisarm ontheheadtopofthe
sof
awhil
ehebal ancedhisfacewi
thhishandsohe
canfaceme, l
ool Ihopeyouguy sgethi
spositi
on
Engl
ishiski
lli
ngmer i
ghtnow.Any way.
..
Iwasf aci
ng
thet
vav oi
dingeyecont act.
..Hetookhi
srighthand
andturnedmyf acetohi m
Vi
nce:
lookatme.
▶Idi
d.
Vi
nce:
Whydi
dyoul
i
etome?
Me:
Vince,
Iknowy
ou
Vi
nce:
whatdoest
hatmean?
?
Me:
youwoul
dhav
edeni
edmet
ogot
her
e
Vi
nce:
soy
oul
i
ed?
Me:
itsnotl
i
keI
Vince:don'
tj
usti
fyy
ourl
i
esy
oudeci
dedt
oli
e?
Yes..
or..
.nosi
mple
▶Hewascal m,speaki
ngsof
tl
yli
kewhyweshoul
d
bef
ight
ingr
ightnow.
Me:
okayIl
i
edbutI
'
m sor
ry.
Vi
nce:
hmmm
▶Het
ookhi
sempt
ycansandpl
atet
otheki
tchen
Vi
nce:
thatal
lIwant
edt
oknow.
▶If
oll
owedhi
mtot
heki
tchen
Me:It
ookwel
lcareofmysel
fIpr
omi
se.Idi
dn'
tdo
any
thi
ngst
upi
d,Iswear.
Vince:youalwayspreachtome." Vincedon'
tl
iet
o
me"" Vi
ncetellmewheny ou'
regoi ngout""Vi
nce
communi cati
oniskey"who'slyingnow?Butdon't
worryyou'r
estil
lgoi
ngt ogetyourpunishment
▶Puni
shment
??Hai
bo
Me:
lookpaapi
I'
m sor
ry.
..
▶Ihuggedhi
mfr
om behi
ndandbur
iedmyf
aceon
hi
sback
Vi
nce:
Hmmm
Me:
Vince.
Vi
nce:
yini
Nomzamo?
▶Wewal kedt othefri
dgehetookoutanother2
cansofHeineken,thenwewalkedtot
heloungehe
satdownandIgotont opofhi
m.
Vi
nce:
YazIwantt
owat
chTV?
Me:l
et'
stalkaboutt
hisi
ssueandmov
eon,
communicati
oniskey
Vi
nce:
that
'swhaty
ouknowke.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
papi
letmet
ell
youwhathappened.
▶It ol
dhimthewholestor
yofwhyIl
iedt
ohim
reasonbei
ngeveryt
imeIgosomewherewef i
ght
,
unlessIgowit
hhim soIknewgoi
ngoutwit
houthi
m
willmakehi
m sadsoIhadt ol
i
e.
Me:Andbesi
desatl
eastIwaswit
hmybrot
herand
hi
sfri
endssoIwassaf
etheyar
ecool
people
act
ual
ly
▶ andNopeIdidn'
ttel
lhi
m aboutt
hecocai
ne
becauseIwasnevergoi
ngtogooutwit
hJayever
again.
Vince:
okay
, I
'
m sorr
yifIdothatwasn'tawar
e,Imust
real
lyl
oveyoune?Andlookmami Idowantyouto
gooutandhav ef
unjustnotwithpeoplewhoare
bad.Andpl
easedon'teverl
ietomej ustt
oprot
ect
me.I
'
mreal
l
yjeal
ousandangf
unngawe.
Me:
Iknowpapi
,sor
ryne?
Vi
nce:
Itscool
▶Ibabyki
ssedhi
m.
Vince:You'
reshi
neyt
odayngat
hyy
ou'
reaf
resh
chiskop.
▶Hel
aughed.
Me:
mxm.
Vi
nce:
Abel
'
schi
skop
▶webothl aughedsohardandIhi
thimf
orteasi
ng
me.Abeli
sVi nce'
sfr
iendwhohasthemostshi
niest
chi
skopever.
Vi
nce:
didy
ouappl
yVasel
i
ne?
Me:
Yeah
Vi
nce:
uya'
bl
ankerYong.
Me:
mxm
Vi
nce:
Justki
ddi
ngmunt
uwami
comeher
e
▶west
art
edki
ssi
ng,
thedeepki
ssi
ngt
urnedt
odr
y
humpi ngEmot ionswerehighupther
e,hetookout
myj acketandhepul l
edmydr essup..
.hungr
il
y
ki
ssi ngmewi t
houtst
oppingheundidmybr aandhe
startedsuckingmybreasts..
..
thi
ngsweregett
ing
i
nt enseIstoppedhim
Vi
nce:
whatnow?
Me:
No.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ounotenj
oyi
ngt
his?
Me:
Iam .
Vi
nce:
Iknowwecan'thavesex,
you'
rest
il
lbl
eedi
ngI
under
standbutcanwe?
▶Sisyou'reki l
li
ngthev i
benowIr epr
imanded
myself
..Ikissedhim againthi
ngsescalatedquickl
y
t
histi
mear oundnextt hi
nghisdi
ckwasi nsi
demy
mouthI'm grindi
ngi tupanddownandhi smoaning..
.
Hear
ingVi ncecr yi
ngoutmyname" Nomzamo"t ur
ns
meonandhi m moani ngandsaying"fuvk"&"mami I
l
oveyou"justgi vesmepowerandencour agement.I
j
ustwenthar derupanddownunt ilhecame...
.He
thenli
ftmyheadupwit
hhi
shandandf
orehead
kissedmeandsaid.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
▶Ismi
l
ed.

▶Moment
slat
eri
tsnow20:
45Vi
ncei
swal
ki
ngme
home.
Me:
Ihopemydadi
snothomey
et.
Vi
nce:
Wher
eishe?
Me:Onadate,whenl
astwasIonadat
e?,
Zul
umen
andromanceoi
landwater
.
Vi
nce:
Isn'
tyourDadZul
u?
Me:
MyDadi
sadi
ff
erentZul
umen.
▶Wel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
Letmegoback,
bef
oret
heCCTVseesme
Me:
Lool
okay
..
goodni
ghtandgoodby
e
▶Wequi ckl
yki
ssedandhugged,Vi
ncewenttohi
s
houseandIwenttomyhouse,goti
nsi
delockedt
he
doorandthegate.Turnedont helight
sI twascol
d
soIdecidedtomakecof feeaftermakingcoffeeI
wenttothelounge.Gotthereswitchedont heTV
tookoutmyphoneandr espondedt otextson
WhatsApp.
Jay
:Lool
,youwer
eout
.
Me:
andIdi
dn'
thav
ehangov
erf
unnyenough.
Jay
:youwer
en'
tdr
inki
ngcheapst
uffr
emembert
hat
.
Me:
Lool
...
Jay
:MomsnothomeandI
'
m hungr
y
Me:youbett
ermakesomethi
ngtoeatbecause
wher
eversheis,
she'
snotworr
iedaboutyou
Jay
:oucht
hathur
ts.
Me:
Fact
s.
Jay
:loolam Ial
l
owedt
osayf
ucky
ouori
sitt
oo
ear
ly??
Me:
lool
.
▶TVwasbor i
ngsoIswitcheditof
fthenIwent
upst
air
s,goti
nmyroom switchedt
helight
sonandI
changedcl
othesworePjs,Pr
epar
edfort
omorrow
thenIgoti
nbed.ChargedmyphoneandsentVi
nce
atext.
Me:
Ineedat
tent
ion.
▶Hewasof f
line,
Iwentt
hroughFacebookand
I
nstagram af
terawhil
eIdozedoffwhil
eli
steni
ngto
music.WokeupMondaymor ni
ng..
.Ibathedgot
dr
essedtookmyschool bagthenIwentdownstai
rs.
Me:
Mor
ningf
ami
l
y!
Ses'
Thoko:
heyNt
ombi
Dad:morning,
Mubi
thepl
anneri
scomi
ngt
odayso
don'
tar
ri
v elat
e.
Me:youhi
redapl
anner
?Forme?
?dad.
..
Thanky
ou
t
hankyou.
▶Igotoutofmyseatandhuggedhi
m.Can'twai
tto
meett
heplannerandst
artpl
anni
ngmybi
rthday.

PLEASENOTE:
Ionl
ypostWednesday
sandSunday
s
#I
NSERT39

▶Mi nuteslaterIexit
edthehousebecauseIhear d
Malumscarout side,
Igotinsidet hecarandgreeted
Malums, i
mmedi atel
yaftert
hecardr oveoffIt
ook
outmyphoneandupdat edast atusonmyFacebook
thatsai
d"ByTheWayYou' r
eAl lI
nvi
tedToMy
Birt
hdayPar t
y "Mydadf i
nal
lygavemeback
myphonef ull t
imeSoy eah...
wegott oschoolIsaid
mygoodby e,Mal umsdr oveof fandIgotinside
...
hourspassedi tsBreaktimenowmeandmy
fri
endsarechi l
li
ngunderat reej ustt
alki
ngand
eati
nglunch.
Kamo:Njeonthe22ndwewil
lbepoopdrunkand
danci
ngphez'
kwamataful
akaNt
shangase?
Khomot
so:
sil
ahl
aimi
l
enzebasi
cal
l
y
▶Theyl
aughedandhi
ghf
ivedeachot
her
.
Me:
lool
Nat
asha:
youguy
sar
ebor
ing.
Me:
becauset
heyar
etal
ki
ngZul
u?
Nat
asha:
Yeah
Kamo:ml
unguNat
ashanowwemustpr
aat
?
Khomot
so:
shemeanst
hatBasi
cal
l
y
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Me:
wher
e'sCandi
ce?
Kamo:
e-t
uckshop
Me:
Ial
sowantsomet
hingf
rom t
heshopI
'
llbeback
Khomot
so:
bri
ngmeFr
it
ospl
ease.
Me:
may
beI
'
llseei
fI'
mint
hemoodt
obuyFr
it
o's
Khomot
so:
mxm
▶Ist oodupdust
edmysel
fandwentt
othetuck
shop..OnmywayImetupwit
hSfi
so(Mduduzi
sbest
fr
iend)
Sf
iso:
heyNomz
Me:
Hi
Sf
iso:
Ever
yonei
srav
ingaboutt
hepar
ty
Me:
lool
nahul
yi
ng,
buty
oucomi
ngr
ight
?
Sfi
so:ofcour
seI
'
m comi
ngIal
way
scomet
oyour
part
ies.
Me:
Iwast
hinki
ngt
hatt
hist
imear
oundy
ouper
fom.
Sf
iso:
Per
for
m ?Real
l
y
Me:
yeah,
wel
li
fyouwantt
o.?
Sfi
so:ofcour
seIdo,
What
sAppmeaboutt
hati
nfo
okay?
Me:
okaycool
..
.
▶Hewal kedoffIcontinuedmywal kt
otheshop
,Candicewaswal kinginmydirectionandIasked
hert owalkbacktot heshopwithme, Wegotatt he
tuckshopIboughthal lsformyselfandKhomotso' s
fri
tosthenwewal kedbackt oourspot .
..
whenwegot
thereIgavekhomot sohersnackst henthebel
lrang
wewentbackt oclass...
weattendedclassest
he
secondlastperiodwasaf r
eeperiodsowewer ej ust
sit
tingandtalki
ng.
Me:
khomoopeny
ourFr
it
o'sl
et'
seat
Kamo:
Ial
sowantsome
Me:
hay
iKamo,
thi
sisbet
ween2f
ri
endsBasi
cal
l
y.
Kamo:
2fr
iends?Kant
yisn'
tthi
s"K"r
elat
edl
i
ke
Kamo&Khomotso?
Khomotso:I'
ll
eatt
hem athomeandanwaywho
shar
esFrit
o's?
Nat
asha:
Basi
cal
l
ynoone.
Candi
ce:pl
easelet
'sl
eav
e"basi
cal
l
y"i
nJul
yyou
guysar
etir
ingnow
Me:
basi
cal
l
y
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Pet
ronel
l
a:SoZamor
eisVi
ncecomi
ngt
oyourpar
ty?
Me:
Yes!uMrPar
ty
▶Myf
ri
endsl
aughed
Me:
whyar
eyouguy
slaughi
ng?
Kamo:
Thembaakuphy
?
Me:
lool
hewi
l
lunder
stand.
Khomot
so:
Basi
cal
l
yhehast
o
Natasha:Noli
keser
iousl
yyouhavetot
alkt
ohim
abouttheguest
sandment i
onVi
nce.Hehastobe
t
her
e.
Me:
hewi
l
lcome.
..
rel
ax
▶Pear
landKat
ewal
kedupt
oourdesk.
Pear
l:heyy
ous
▶Wegr
eet
edback.
Kat
e:When'
syourbi
rt
hdaypar
tyZamor
e?
Me:
The22ndbbe
Pear
l:Ses'
Thokowi
l
ldocat
eri
ngr
ight
?
Khomotso:
basi
cal
l
yShehast
owhet
hershel
i
kesi
t
ornot
Me:
I'
ll
askt
hepl
anneri
fshewi
l
lbeabl
eto
Pearl
:NoZamore,Ses'
Thokohast
ocat
erf
or
us.
..
herf
oodist
hebestandsomeofusonl
yeati
t
onceort
wiceayear.
Kamo:l
ool
IfSes'
Thokoi
snotcooki
ngI
'
m not
comi
ng
▶wowt hesepeoplewel
lthebell
rangforl
astper
iod
Af
ri
kaans..
.Myleastf
avouri
tesubject
.Any
waywe
wal
kedt
her
eIwaswal
ki
ngwi
thKhomot
so
Me:
Mypl
anneri
scomi
ngt
oday
,pl
easecome
Khomot
so:
lov
eForwhat
?
Me:I'
l
lneedy ouri
nputyoubbe,Iknowwe'
vedone
housepart
iesbutthi
sishugesoIwantyoutohel
p
meplan,
li
kegi vemeideasandstuff
.
Khomot
so:
okayI
'
llbet
her
e.Whatt
ime?
Me:earl
yaspossi bl
e.Whenyougettoy
ourhouse
don'
teatjustchangecl
othesandcome
Khomot
so:
OwkaycookI
'
lldot
hat
▶Wegoti nclassandl earnedtheschool bel
lrang
foraf
terschool wepackedourt hingsand
l
eft.
..
foundMal umsal readywai t
ingformeneart he
gateIgotinsidegr eetedhim andwedr ov eoff
.Igot
home.Ses'Thokobuzzedmei nIgoti nsi
det he
houseandwentupst airstomyr oom. .
.undressed
andwor ecomf ort
ablehomecl othesabl acktrack
pant,
awhi tev estandsocks. ..ThenIwent
downstair
sf oundmyf oodintheki t
chencount er.I
washav i
ngahomemadeChi ckenandMushr oom
pi
eandacr
anber
ryj
uiceIst
art
edeat
ing
Me:
justhopet
hispl
annerwi
l
lmakemypar
tyt
obe
t
hebestoneever
.
Ses'
Thoko:
she'
sthebestnoneedt
owor
ry.
Me:
wheni
sshear
ri
vi
ngI
'
mver
yanxi
ous
Ses'
Thoko:
Youar
ri
ved20mi
nsago
Me:
lool
I'
m soexci
tedl
etmej
ustcool
down.
Ses'
Thoko:
Please
Me:anywaySes'
Thokomyfri
endsl
ovey
ourf
ood
t
heyinsi
stedt
hatYoucook.
Ses'
Thoko:
andy
ou?
Me:you'
rethebestchefIknow,unmat
ched.Iwant
youtocaterf
ormypar t
ybutthi
st i
mearoundIdon'
t
wantcookedfood
Ses'
Thoko:
youwantt
akeal
way
s
Me:
Yeah
Ses'
Thoko:
hmm okay
..
.
▶Someonewasbuzzi
ngt
hegat
e.Ihopei
ts
Khomot
so.
Me:
letmecheckwhoi
tis.
..
▶Igotupandcheckedwhoi twas, i
twast he
PlannerIbuzzedheri n.Irushedt othedoorand
openedupf orherIjustcoul dn'
twai ttotalkt oher
aboutwhatIwantandwher eIwanti t
..
.Iwant eda
Sweet16butmydadsai dnahwhenIwas16now
I'
mt urni
ng18. .
ithast obebi g.
..biggerthant he
sweet16sIseeonMTV. ..
wel l
Ihope, I'
vebeen
waitingf
orthismomentIwel comedheri n,wewent
totheloungeandsatdownSes' Thokoof feredher
coffeeandcooki es.
Planner:
YoucancallmeVi
ctor
ia,
youhav
esucha
beauti
fulhousebyt
heway
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:
Thanks.
Vi
nct
ori
a:l
et'
sst
artpl
anni
ng.
▶Shet ookoutaplanni
ngbookandapenandshe
st
artedwri
ti
ng.Omgwher e'
sKhomotso?Iwant
edt
o
st
artthi
sthi
ngwithher.
Vi
ctor
ia:OnAugust22ndr
ight
?
Me:
Yeah
Vi
ctor
ia:
Isy
ourbi
rt
hdayont
he22ndor
?
Me:
No,
i
tsont
he17t
hbutI
'
llbeatschool
▶Isatcomfor
tabl
yinthesofacr
ossi
ngmy
l
egs.
..
Ses'
Thokowalkedinthel
oungecar
ryi
ngat
ray
wi
thcoff
eeandcookies.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
Her
e
Vi
ctor
ia:
Thanks.
▶..
..
Minut
eslat
eri
ntothemeeti
ngKhomot
so
wal
kedincar
ryi
ngbabyRenei
l
we.
Khomot
so:
sosor
ry,
That
odi
dn'
tar
ri
veont
ime.
Me:
itsokay
▶Ididi
ntroducti
onsev
ery
thi
ngwassmoot
hsowe
st
art
edplanning.
Vi
ctor
ia:
Foodwhatwi
l
lyouguy
sbehav
ing.
Me:Iwasthi
nki
ngthati
tshoul
dbej
ustBurgers,
pi
zzaandsomewingsIwantsomet
hingdi
ff
erent.
▶Khomot
sof
rowned
Me:
Sor
rySes'
Thokowon'
tbecooki
ngl
ol
Vi
ctor
ia:
Oh,
Owkayf
oodf
rom whi
chf
ranchi
se?
Khomotso:pi
zzaf
rom Panar
ott
isandbur
ger
sfr
om
McDonald'
sorBur
gerKing?
Me:
Bur
gerKi
ng?Hay
i..
.McDonal
d'
s
Vi
ctor
ia:
howmanybur
ger
sandhowmanypi
zzas?
Khomot
so:
30pi
zzasand20bur
ger
s?
Me:wholeni
ght?That
'sl
i
ttl
e50bur
ger
sand50
boxesofpi
zza
Khomot
so:
50l
ool
you'
reondr
ugsbbe.
▶Dr ugs?
?IthoughtaboutJayshoul dIinvi
tehim
andhisfri
ends?orjusthim?orIshouldn'
tinvi
tehim
atall
..
.Mydadwi l
lgetsuspici
ousifIdon'tandI'
m
surehewouldn'
tbepl eased.
..
Vi
ctor
ia:
kant
ywear
elooki
ngathowmanyguest
s?
Me:
may
bea100
Khomot
so:
100?Heer
ememberl
asty
earwhen.
..
▶Ipi
nchedhert
ost
opt
alki
ng.
..
.Shest
opped.
Vi
ctor
ia:
whathappened?Lasty
ear
Me:
not
hing.
..
Ithi
nk150orl
ess
▶Lett ellyouguy swhathappenedt hey earbef ore..
.
2014mybi rthdaywasSundayr ightsomeandmy
fri
endsdeci dedt ocelebr at
ei tont he16t hSat urday
bydoi ngasl eepov erbecauseobv i
ousl yMidni ghtit
willbeSundaymeani ngitwi l
l bet he17t hmy
bir
thday ,i
twasj ustthef iveofus, wegotbor edear l
y
sowedeci dedt oupdat edourFacebookst atuses
sayingwear ehostingahousepar ty...wedidn' tplan
thi
swej usttookar ational deci sion...Almostt he
whol eschool came. .
.itwasj ustachaoswehadt o
chaset hepeopl ethatwedi dn'tknowoutbecause
wowi twasj ustamessandwef earedt hatthe
neighbour swi llcal
l t
hepol ice, ev ent houghwedi d
thatther ewasn' tenoughf ood, west art
edf rying
Russiansandmaki ngf r
iedchi psi nthemi ddleoft he
partywewer eunpr eparedandwowi twasaf lop.
Vi
ctor
ia:
okay150orl
ess.
.whataboutt
het
heme?
Col
ours?
Me: pi
nkandwhiteisthethemecolor
..
.Iwantpi
nk
rosesandpinkbal
loonstheyhavetobether
eand
everywherebasi
call
y.AndEveryonemustwear
white,
all
white
▶ Allwhit
ewasst
il
lat
hingt
hatt
ime,
soi
twast
he
per
fecttheme.
Khomot
so:
goodi
dea.
..
Vi
ctor
ia:
indoororanout
sidepar
ty?
Me:Iwantboth,
wewillusethet
hegar ageasthe
i
ndoor,
itwi
llbedecor
atedandstuffIwantastage
i
nsi
de,aDjplaceandaVI Psect
ionplacewit
hwhite
sof
asyougetme?
Vi
ctor
ia:
yeah
Me:yesformeandfri
endsandforoutsi
dewewi l
l
usethef
ronty
ard,i
talsohastobedecorat
ed.
..
And
havesomechair
sforpeoplet
hatwil
lbeoutsi
de
Khomotso:
lol
doy
ouknowy
ourbudgetsi
s?That
's
toomuch
Me:
what
'smybudget
??
Vi
ctor
ia:
it'
sR10000
▶Awhole10000...
surel
ydadcamepreparedand
t
heremustbeboozeincl
udedwhatam Igoi
ngtodo
wi
thR10000???
▶Khomot
soj
awdr
oppedi
ndi
sbel
i
ef
Khomot
so:
yourdadbr
uh?somuchmoney
.
Vi
ctor
ia:
hewant
sthebestf
orhi
sdaught
er
Khomot
so:
yeahhey
,he'
snev
erbr
oke.
Vi
ctor
ia:
wher
edoeshewor
k?
Me:
somecompany
Vi
ctor
ia:
somecompany?Owkay
..
.
Me:y
eahforbev
eragesIwantGuar
ana,Hei
neken,
Redsquar
eandwhatelseKhomotso?
Khomot
so:
Sky
yVodka,
Hennesseymyf
ri
end
Me:
yesf
ri
endandChi
vasRegal
!
▶Vi ct
ori
awasper pl
exedbytheexci tementinour
faceswhent al
kingaboutalcohol,attheendoft he
daywedi scussedeveryt
hingfrom howev erythi
ng
wassupposedt obe.
..Howev eryt
hingmust
l
ook,acti
vit
iesthatwewillpl
ay..
.performanceset c
..
.our2hrmeeti
ngendedshel ef
t.
..BabyRenei
l
we
wokeupIwentupt oher. .
.suchabeautiful
being.
.hersmal
lhands,
pinksmal ll
ips.
..
shewasso
beauti
ful
Khomot
so:
nowIcan'
twai
they
Me:metoo..
.i
tsoundedsoper
fectwhenwewer
e
di
scussi
ngi
t.
▶Ses'Thokocamet otheloungetosay
goodbye..
.shehuggedmegav eBabyReneil
wea
for
eheadki ssandshelef
t.
..
minut
eslatermydad
walkedin,
wentupstai
rschangedclot
hesandcame
downstair
saf t
ertoj
oinusinthel
ounge.
Dad:
how'
syourMom?
Khomot
so:
she'
sdoi
nggood
Dad:goodt
oheart
hatandy
ou'
redoi
nggoodat
school
?
Khomot
so:
Yes.
Dad:
Good,
Mubi
pleasemakemet
ea
▶Iwentt
othekit
chentookaket
tl
epour
edsome
wat
eri
nitpl
uggediti
nandIwentbackt
othel
ounge.
Dad:
howwast
hemeet
ing?
Me: Sogood,I
'
llgeteveryt
hingt
hatIrequest
edfor
..
.shewil
lsendtheinvit
ati
onposter
st hi
sFri
day
, I
'
m
soexcit
edagainthanky oudad.
Dad:
pleasur
epr
incess,
Noboozeokay
.
Me:
Nobooze?ButdadI
'
mtur
ning18
Dad:
Mubi
thi
sisnotopenupf
oradi
scussi
on.
▶Nobooze?
?What
??Mydadhast
obeki
ddi
ng.
..

PLEASENOTE:
Ionl
ypostonSunday
sand
Wednesday
s
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT40

▶Khomot sol
ookedatmydadwi t
hconfusi
on.i
t
shockedmetoanextentt
hatIsatdownwhenI
heardthewor
ds"nobooze"
Me:
Dadl
etst
alkaboutt
his.
Dad:tal
kaboutwhatnomzamo?don'tdi
srespectme
i
nmyhouse, youwil
ldri
nkthedayy
oubuyy ourown
house.
▶Omghe'
sser
iousaboutt
his.
Dad:
Khomot
sonawey
oudr
ink?
▶Khomot solookedatmydadandsai
dnot
hing,
hawubitchanswerthi
smanphelawei
nthi
s
toget
her.
Me:
yhot
hiscan'
tbehappeni
ng
▶Icov
eredmyf
acewi
thmyhands.
Dad:
mubi
uyaphuza?Uf
uzeubani
?
▶Khomol
aughed
Me:
noal
cohol
..
.dadi
tscool
▶Wel lt
here'
sonlyonewayIcangetmydadt o
agreetothi
s,i
stoactasifI'
m unbot
heredandnot
speaktohimforawhile.Soaft
ersayi
ngitscoolI
walkedtotheki
tchenwithbabyRenei
lweinmyarms
andIoverhear
dmydad.
Dad:Mnganakhosekakwat
il
ekemanj
e.Abant
wana
besi
kol
oabaphuzi.
▶Hest oodupandwentt ohisr
oom, Khomotso
di
dn'tevenbothert
odisagreeshe'
sjustbusyonher
phone,Igotbacktotheloungeandsatdown.
Me:
you'
resodumbandusel
essy
ouknowt
hat
?
Khomotso:
surel
yyouwantThembat
ohat
eme,
I
coul
d'
vesaidwhat?
Me:
thatal
cohol
isheal
thyf
ory
oungst
ersmay
be.
Khomot
so:
you'
recr
azy
..
.
▶Wel aughed.
..
wewatchedTVf orabi
tthen
Khomotsosphonerangshetal
kedoverthephone
foraf
ewmi nutest
henhercall
ended.
Khomot
so:
Nanay
ourdad'
snotcomi
ng.
..Letmecal
l
anuberf
orus.
Me:
why?
Khomotso:
hast
obeatworkear
ly.
..AndIdon'
ttr
ust
hi
m si
nceIhadt
hebabyThat
ohasbeendistanci
ng
hi
mself
.
Me:Noy ou'
reov
ert
hinki
ng.That
olov
esy
ousomuch
ev
erybodyknows.
Khomotso:you'r
er i
ght,hesl
eepsatmyhouse
ever
ydayI'
mj ustinsecure
Me:
y ouenj
oybeingaddi
ctedtoyourmanwena
t
hat
'sall
.You'
reworr
iedaboutnothi
ng.
Khomot
so:
any
wayl
etmecal
lanuber
.
Me:Nodon'tVi
ncei
sar
oundwi
l
lgowi
thy
ouguy
s
l
etmetexthim
Khomotso:
youdon'
thav
etodot
hatl
i
keIhav
ethe
money
Me:wel
lsav
eitandbuyy
our
sel
fai
rt
imeI
'
mti
redof
t
oppi
ngyouup
Khomot
so:
real
l
ynow?
▶Wel
aughed.It
ext
edVi
nce.
Me:
Papi
,youbusy
??
▶Onet
ick.
Me:onl
yonet
ickhe'
spr
obabl
yonacal
lhe'
l
lseehi
s
t
extnownow.
Khomot
so:
whati
fhedoesn'
thav
edat
a?
Me:NotVince,heusescont r
actsohehasdat a24/7
andbesi
desVi ncenevereverclosesdat
aifItext
hi
m andthere'
sonet i
ckitseit
herhisphoneisoffor
he'
sonacal l
Khomot
so:
nev
ercl
osesdat
a?
Me:
yup,
hesay
sit
sawast
eoft
ime.
Khomot
so:
aboVi
ncebr
agdi
ff
erentne.
Me:
bruh.
..
tel
lmeabouti
t.
Khomot
so:
I'
m hungr
ynow.
Me:goandfi
xyoursel
ffood,
youexpectf
oodt
ofl
y
andcometoyou.
Khomot
so:
you'
reannoy
ingshem
▶Shest ooduppr eparedherselfandBabyRenei l
we
food.
..
sheat eandIf edReneilwei twassucha
beaut
if
ul weir
dexperienceforme, Ihaveneverever
fedababy .EvenmyLi lbr
otherI'veneverfedhim so
i
twaswei rdashell.MinuteslaterVincecall
ed.
Me:
Hey
.
Vi
nce:Ir
espondedbutbecauseyouclosedat
ayou
di
dn'
tseemyt extnowIhavetocal
lyou
Me:
wuuuspar
eme.
Vi
nce: Wher
eareyouandwhyareyouaski
ngmei
f
I
'm busy?Whatdoyouwantnow?
Me:
arey
ouokay
?
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
I'
m aski
ngy
ouwhatIaskedonWhat
sApp
Me:lol
mxm canweaccompanyKhomot
sot
oher
pl
ace?
Vi
nce:
now?
Me:
yeahnow.
..
ify
ou'
renotbusy
Vi
nce:
Iai
n'
tbusyj
ustgotof
ftheshowerl
etmeget
dr
essed
Me:
okay
.
Vi
nce:
mcwwaah
Me:
shar
p.
Vi
nce:you'
resupposedt
o"mcwaah"mebackt
hen
wedropthecall
.
Me:
wher
edi
dyoul
ear
nthi
s?
Vi
nce:
Nomzamoby
e.
▶Hedr oppedt
hecal
l,
Ismil
ed...
andshookmyhead.
CheckedmyWhatsAppandVincesent4text
s
Vi
nce:
nopenotbusy
.Wannaseey
ourDzaddy
?
Vi
nce:
wher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyouaski
ngi
fI'
m busy
?
Vi
nce:
whatdoy
ouwantnow?
▶Soheactuall
ywasbeinghonestwhenhesaid
whathe'
ssayi
ngiswhathetext
edonWhat sApp.
..
I
l
aughed.Vi
nceisst
upi
d.
Khomot
so:andt
hen?
Me:
nanat
ell
yourmom ukut
hyut
handai
zi
ndaba.
▶Tal
ki
ngt
obabyRenei
l
we
Khomot
so:
hay
iiVoet
sekwena.

▶Minuteslat
erVi
ncecal
l
edt ot
ell
usthatwecan
come.
..
.It
oldmydadI'
m accompanyi
ngKhomotso
andt
hebaby
toThatowhowasatthecor ner.Yesil
ied.AnywayI
buzzedusoutandwalkedt oVince'
shousewef ound
him al
readyi
nsi
det
hecar ,buthegotoutt he
momenthesawusappr oachi
ng
Khomot
so:
HeyHunk
Vi
nce:
Hey
,youneedt
ost
opcal
l
ingmet
hat
.
Khomot
so:
stopgoi
ngt
othegy
mthe
▶Vi
ncei
sn'tt
hatbuffhe'
sjustwel
lbuil
t,
Khomot
so
l
i
kest
oteasehim cal
li
nghim ahunk.
Vi
nce:
Nowwho'
sthi
scut
emonkey
Me:
monkey
?
Khomot
so:hunkdi
dyouj
ustcal
lmybabygi
rl
monkey
,wow.
▶Weal
ll
aughedhet
ookbabyRenei
l
weandcar
ri
ed
hi
m.
Me:
letmewi
peher
.
▶Thebabywasdr
ool
i
ng
Vi
nce:
letmedoi
t.
Me:
okay
▶Igav ehimt hecl
ot htowi pet hebabyup.Hebaby
tal
kedwi thbabyRenei lwe, kissedherhandsand
foreheadthengav eherbackseei ngVi ncetalki
ngto
thebabyt ri
ggeredsomehaunt i
ngt houghts,he'
sso
gentle,carr
yingandf unnyki dslov ethathedef i
nit
ely
woul dhavebeenagr eatf ather.
..Any waysIsnapped
outofmymi ndquicklywegoti nthecarandwe
drovet oKhomot sospl ace...
droppedherof fandwe
drovebackt oRosebankandgott her eat18:04it
wasst il
learl
ysowedeci dedt opar kedathishouse
andj ustchil
l
ed.
Vi
nce:
letmegoandgr
absomeDor
it
ost
hatIbought
theotherday
,sowecansnackont
hem whi
l
ejust
chil
l
ing
Me:"t
heotherday"t
hey
'r
epr
obabl
yhar
dtochew
andhavenotastenow.
Vince:
okayy
oucanj
ustsi
tther
esi
siwhi
l
eIeat
them.
▶Hegotof fthecarandwentinsidet
hehouse.
Camebackwi t
hapacketofclosedDori
tosanda
packetofgrapes,
hegav emethegrapesandwe
star
tedeati
ngandj ustt
alki
ng.
Me:
VinceI
'
m notpl
ayi
ng
Vince:enj
oyyourpar
tyMami
anddon'
tl
ookatme
l
ikethatI'
m notcomi
ng
Me:
lool
mxm
Vi
nce:i
tsgonnabey ou,
yourdad,Thokoand
KhomotsoItel
lyou.Famil
ypart
y.
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
andy
ou.
Vi
nce:
Me?Lool
youhav
eanot
herboy
fri
endcal
l
ed
Vi
nce?May
be
Me:t
herewon'
tbeboozei
nourweddi
ngmossoy
ou
won'
tcometoyourownweddi
ngal
so??
Vi
nce:
lool
what
???
Me:
justki
ddi
ngbuty
oucomi
ngr
ight
?
Vi
nce:
shut
hyI
'
llhav
etocomeal
readydr
unkne?
Me:
VinceI
'
m notpl
ayi
ng
▶Isul
ked.
..
Hest
ret
chedhi
shandoutandr
ubbed
mythi
gh
Vi
nce:
justki
ddi
ng.YouknowIwoul
dn'
tdot
hat
Me:
lool
okay
.
Vi
nce:
Yeah
Me:
you'
resogoodwi
thki
ds.
Vince:Itr
y..
.whenIcarr
iedReneil
weIimmediat
ely
thoughtofmybr other
sbabyIusedt obat
h,f
eedand
clot
hhi m...I
'l
lmakeagr eatf
athert
oourbabyone
day
▶Thebabyt
hought
scamebackandhauntmer
eal
hardthisti
me.Ir egr
ettedevery
thi
ngIdi
d..
.AndI
bl
amedmy sel
ffortheaborti
onIdidmyeyesfi
ll
ed
wit
ht ears.
..
andtherewasahugel umpinmyt hr
oatI
couldn'
trespondt oVince,
helookedupatme
Vi
nce:
arey
ouokay
?
▶Ishookmyhear d,t
earsr
oll
eddown.
..
hepull
edme
cl
osertohim andIburi
edmyfacei
nhischestandI
cr
ied..
..
aloudcrytear
sandmucusrol
li
ngitwasbad.
Vi
nce:
itsokay
.
▶"
It
sokay
"pi
ercedmyhear
tIcr
iedsomuch.

#Nomzamosdi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT41

Me:
NoI
t'
snot
.
Vi
nce:
Trustmei
tisokay
,nowst
opcr
ying
▶Hewi pedmyt ear
sandmynose.l
oolIwoul
dn't
havedonethatt
oany onei
ncl
udi
ngVi
nceAmafinyi
la
aredi
sgust
ing.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oo,
comeher
e.
▶Isatont opofhimf aci
nghi m...Mylegsspreadhe
l
oweredhi
sseatdownabi tandIl ai
dmyheadi nhis
ar
mswhi l
ehebr ushedmybackcomf or
ti
ngme.We
st
ayedinthatposit
ionformi nuteswithoutt
alki
ng.
..
MomentslaterIt
hensatupst raight
Me:
Ithi
nki
t'
sti
meIgohome.
Vi
nce:
Yhoo.
..
fi
nal
l
ygetof
fmeuy
asi
nda
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
mxm
▶Webot hgotoffthecarandwalkedtomyhouse,
Vincetur
nedbackandIgoti nsi
de..
.f
oundmydadin
thekit
chenprepari
ngsupper.
Dad:
CanIal
sodi
shupf
ory
ou?
Me:
Nope
Dad:
okay
.Uv
elaphy
?
Me:
Nowher
edad
▶ImadesurethatIcutourconv
ersati
onsweetand
shor
t.
..
Iwal
kedtomyr oom j
umpedi nbed,
tookout
myphonebrowsedthroughWhatsApp.
Khomot
so:
Don'
tgetl
aidwena,
gohome.
Me:
Khomot
so:
wowanhourl
atery
our
espondt
omy
text
.
Me:
becauseIwaswi
thmyper
son
Khomot
so:
loolIknewt
haty
ouj
ustwant
edt
ospend
ti
mewit
hVince.
Me:
Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ngov
er.
Khomot
so:
Fuv
ku.
Me:
Sleept
ightdon'
tfor
gett
opr
ayIl
ovey
ou.
Khomot
so:Il
ovey
out
oo,
don'
tfor
gett
owr
it
eyour
homeworks
Me:youj
usthadt
obor
emeandment
ionSchool
.
Tsk
Khomot
so:
lov
eyout
oo.
▶Iwasr eallyr eall
yl azysoIdeci dedtodomy
homewor ktomor rowmor ning..Igotof fthebedwent
tothebat hroom t ookashower .
..Wentbackt omy
room gotdr essedandgoti nsi det heblankets.Iwas
soexci tedaboutmybi rt
hdaysoIgoogl ed
nail
s,hair,
clot hes, shoesev erything...
Isleptat2am
busysur f
ingt hr ought hei nternetIsl eptknowi ng
howIwantmyout fitnailshai rtol ooklikeonmy
bir
thday ..
.Tuesdaymor ningIwokeupwentt oschool,
camebackhomesl eptdi dt hesamer outi
nef or2
mor eday si t'
saFr idaynow. ..MydadandIar einthe
l
oungewat chi ngTVI '
m busyonmyphonebuty eah
I'
m wat chingTVi ts14: 30
Dad:
Mubi
changet
hechannel
Me:
I'
m wat
chi
ng
▶AsIputmyphonedown
Dad:Mubiyou'
renot,
Thembaiscomingt
omorr
ow
nayeI
'l
lhav
et ofi
ghtwit
hyouguyst
ousethe
remot
e.SavemeGod.
Me:SeeI '
m enjoyingmy sel
fnowwat chi
ng
ever
ythingthatIwantt owatchbecauseIknowt
hat
tomorrowItsov erforme.
Dad:Mustbuymy
sel
fapl
asmaTVIcan'
tl
iv
eli
ke
thi
s
Me:
Ial
sowantone
Dad:
soImustbuyy
ouTVf
ory
ourbi
rt
hday?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
Imagi
ne.
..
.dadno
Dad:
Whatdoy
ouwant?Iwant
edt
obuyaAudi
RS3
▶RS3t
hat
'sVi
ncescar
,lol
Me:
but
..
.?
Dad:
butGr
acesai
dyou'
rey
oungandIagr
eemay
be
wheny
out
urn21.
▶Gracesai
dI'
my oung?Thatwomanisahat
er
Vi
nceandIwouldhavematchedwi
thcar
slol
Me:
ooh
Dad:
andNol
i
censeal
so.
▶Youhav
eapoi
ntt
her
e.
Me:
soy
ouandgr
acewi
l
lbuymeapr
esent?You
t
wo?
Dad:
wel
lther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hatr
ight
?
Me:
Idon'
tknowdad
▶Istoodup.
..
Iwaseati
ngachi
ckenmayosandwi
ch
soIt
ookmypl at
esandwentt
otheki
tchen.
Dad:
Nomzamocomeher
e.
▶Iwentback.
Dad:
what
'swr
ong?
Me:
Not
hing.
..
Dad:
stopl
yi
ng.
..
.
Me:
isi
tal
soGr
acesi
deat
hatt
her
eshoul
dn'
tbe
al
cohol
atmypar
ty?
Dad:t
hefactt
hatt
herewon'
tbeal
cohol
makesi
t
har
dfory
out osl
eepatni
ghtne
Me:
butdadl
et'
sbehonest
..
.
▶Iwasaboutt
ogivehi
m afi
respeechsoIsat
wher
euputyourar
m/headonthesofa.
.andf
aced
hi
m.
Me:al
cohol
isbadIagr
ee.
.butsomet eenagersand
someofmyfri
endsdri
nkal
cohol.
..Idon't.
..
.
▶Bi
tchwhyy
oul
yi
ng?
Me: that
'showtheyhav efun,Iknowitsnotgoingto
beeasyt oconsiderhavi
ngalcohol.
..Butdadpretty
please..
.I
'
llmakesurethateveryonebehaves..
and
therearenounderages. .
..
eveniftherearethey'
l
l
drinkjui
ce..
.
Dad:
okay
..
..
Me:
OKAY?
??
Dad:
ononecondi
ti
on
Me:
??
Dad:
Thepar
tyendsat18h00
▶If
rowned
Me:
6?
Dad:
Yes,
thatwayev
eryonewi
l
lsaf
ehomeby7pm .
Me:
butdad.
..
Dad:
you'
repushi
ngi
tyoungl
ady
..
takei
torl
eav
eit
.

▶Mydadi sanenemyofpr ogressweagreeonone

thing,hebr ingssomethingelseup..whatki
ndofa
par t
yst artsat13h00andendsat17h00t hi
sisnota
kidspar tyI'm 18not7..
.Iwentbackt othekit
chen,
grabbedapearandwentupst air
stochargemy
phone. .
.at houghtthatonlyThembai scomingov er
tomor rowandnotThandocr ossedmymi nd..
.I
hav en'
tt extortal
kedtoheri nami nut
esoIdecided
tocal l
hert oaskherwhy .
Thando:
whatasur
pri
se
Me:youdon'tcal
l
,textorcomev
isi
thav
en'
tseen
yousi
ncesince.
Thando:
Iwast
her
eamont
hago
Me:
youmean2mont
hsago.
..y
oudon'
tl
ovemene
Thando:
lool
Zeechi
l
l.Howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m good
Thando:
Real
l
y?
Me:
Noy
ourDadsucks.
Thando:
wenzeni
?
▶Tol
dhert
hest
oryf
rom A-
Z
Thando:lolyoushouldsuggesthir
ingaTaxifory our
gueststotransportt
hem.Youl i
veinthesuburbs
rememberi tsreal
l
yhar dt
of i
ndit
ranspor
tezal apho
atnight
,Thatwayt hepartycanendatanyti
meand
yourguestswi l
lbesafe.
Me:
Wowy
ou'
reageni
usIl
ovey
ou.
Thando:
Iknow
Me:
noIhat
eyouwhyar
en'
tyoucomi
ngov
er
t
omorr
ow?
Thando:
School
Me:
owkay
Thando:
IsThembat
her
eyet
?
Me:
he'
scomi
ngt
oday
?It
houghthewascomi
ng
t
omorr
ow.
Thando:heissoampedaboutcomingt her
e,
i
mmedi atel
yaft
erwegotbackfrom schoolheate,
hi
sbagswer epackedal
readysoheat eandlef
t.
Me:
he'
snother
e.
Thando:
probabl
yonhi sway*
cal
lcutshor
t*duet
o
ai
rti
mebeingfi
nished
▶DidInotjumpoutoft hebedandwentst raightt
o
l
etmydadknowaboutt hisbri
ll
i
anti
dea...
Irandown
t
hestai
rsfoundhim sti
l
l watchi
ngTV..
.Istr
aightup
t
oldhi
m everyt
hing.
..
.
Dad:
Youwon'
tgi
veupunt
ily
ouhav
eyourwayne.
▶Hest
oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen,
Ifol
l
owed
hi
m.
Me:
yes.
..
so?
?
Dad:
okay
..
.
Me: okayy oucanhavethetaxi
foryourguest
sbut
thepar tyst i
l
lendsat6pm OrYesyoucanhav et
he
taxi
f ory ourguestst
hepartywil
lendwhatevert
ime
youwantnomz amobecauseIloveyoumy
daught er??
▶Mydadl
aughed.
Dad:Yourpar
tycanendt
henextdayNomzamo,
its
fi
ne.
Me:
thanky
out
hanky
out
hanky
ousomuch.
▶Ihuggedhi m.Fi
nal
lythi
swarisover..
.Iwentback
tomyr oom t
ookmyphonet ext
edthandot oldher
thatmydadagreedminuteslat
eraft
errespondingto
somet ext
sandbrowsingthr
oughInstagram and
FacebookIwenttobacktowenttothel ounge.And
watchedamov i
ewithmydad. .
.
Me:di
dyoueatt
hel
astpi
eceofpi
ethatwasi
nthe
f
ri
dge??
▶Isawapl
atet
hathadpi
ecr
umbsi
nitont
het
abl
e.
Dad:
yes.
Me:
dadwhy?Thatwasmypi
ecey
ouhady
ourpi
ece
Dad:
Mubileav
emeal
onet
hatpi
edi
dn'
thav
eyour
nameini
t
Me:
wow.
▶InallhonestyIwantedt ocr
y..
.Ses'
Thokos
homemadepi esareev ery
thi
ngandmuchmor e.
..
my
dadandIalway sfi
ghtbecauseitistheysi
mplyare
thebest
.Butany wayI'
llgethi
m..Heardabuzz
Dad:
Who'
sthat
?
Me:
mustbeThemba
▶Istoodupandattendedit
,Ibuzzedhi
minand
wai
tedforhi
m att
hedoor .
..
heknockedandIopened.

PLEASENOTE:Ionl
ypostonSunday
sand
Wednesday
s.
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT42

Me:
Ntwana
Themba:
Yougood?
▶Hewal
kedi
n,Icl
osedandl
ockedt
hedoor
Me:
good,
hawusol
ate?
Themba:
Taxi
probl
ems.
▶Mydadi
nthel
ounge
Dad:
Ubanl
owoZamo?
▶ThembaandIwal
kedt
othel
ounge.
Me:
ItsThemba
▶Iwentbackt
osi
twher
eIwassi
tt
ing.
Dad:HawuThemba,
ThoughtIwaspi
cki
ngy
ouup
tomorr
ow?
Themba:
YeahEi
sh
▶Heputhi
sbagdownandsatnextt
ome.
Themba:
tomor
rowi
stoof
ar
Me:
Namangaj
ustsayy
ou'
vemi
ssedme.
Themba:andI
'
vemi
sseduZamo
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Dad:
NotMe?
Themba:
Andyout
oobaba,
Cany
oupassmet
he
remot
esis?
Me: Yhuuhai
iIknewit
..
.DadandIwereactual
l
y
tal
ki
ngaboutthisear
li
erukut
hi whenThemba
arr
iveshewil
lbeincontr
oloftheTV.
▶Wealllaughed,
Ipassedther
emotetoThemba
andheenter
edsomeact i
onmovie.
..
hour
slat
er
Dad:
ZamoAwsukumeuy
ongenzel
aiCof
fee
▶Ist oodup,wenttotheki
tchenpouredwateri
ntoa
kett
leandleftitt
oboil
,Wenttomyr oom t
ookmy
phoneoutoft hechar
ger2mi ssedcal
lsf
rom Vi
nceI
deci
dedt obuzzhim.Hecalledri
ghtaway.
Vi
nce:
busy?
Me:
Nah,
missi
ngme?
Vi
nce:
Nah,
thi
ngi
sIcal
l
edandy
oudi
dn'
tanswer
so.
..
Ithoughty
ouwer
ebusy
Me:
wai
tdi
dyouj
ustsayy
ou'
renotmi
ssi
ngme?
Vince:
Comeoutal
readyI
'
m mi
ssi
ngy
ouhav
en'
t
seenyoui
n2daysI'
m goi
ngcr
azy
.
Me:
okayI
'
m comi
ng.Gi
veme5
▶Iwal kedtot hemi rr
orcheckedmysel f
,sti
llpret
ty.
..
Iwasst i
llwearingmyschool uniform Gr
eytrouser
andaSchool T-shir
tafteral
li
t saFr i
dayI'
m not
goi
ngt oschool t
omor r
owso. ..Ij
ustappli
edal i
p
gl
ossgr abbedmysl eepersundert hebedandI
walkeddownst ai
rsitwas18:34, Iwenttothelounge.
Me:
Dad,
I'
m comi
ngnownow
Dad:
il
angasel
i
shoni
l
eZamo.
Me:
I'
m notgoi
ngf
arj
usther
e.
▶AsIpoi
ntacr
oss.
Me:I'
l
lbebackbef
oreyouev
enknowit,
Ntwana
pl
easemakethecoff
ee,t
hewat
erisr
eady
Themba:
Sho
▶Ihur
ri
edof
f,unl
ockedt
hedoorandIbuzzed
mysel
fout
.Walkedoutoft
hegateandIwalkedto
Vi
nce'
shouse,
gotther
eandIknocked.Muziopened
Muzi
:Heyy
ou
Me:
Hey
..
.
Muzi
:Kant
yyou'
rest
il
latschool
?
Me:
lool
hay
yiwena.
Muzi
:Noman.
..
▶Iwal
kedi
n,hewentbehi
ndt
heki
tchencount
er
Muzi
:Dawg,
Nomzamoi
sst
il
latschool
?
▶Hewasshockedf
orr
eal
,Vincewasstandi
ngi
n
t
hel
oungeput
ti
ngonhi
swatch,hechuckl
ed.
Vi
nce:
yeah
Muzi
:
Whaaat??Nomzamoy ou'
ll
getusarr
est
edf
or
r
eal
..
.It
houghtyou'
redoi
ngyourfi
rsty
ear
Me:
What
?YoumeanIl
ookol
d?
Muzi
:whenyou'
rehome?wear
ingcasual
?makeup
onfl
eek?noonecant
ell
thaty
ou'r
e18.
Vi
nce:
youmean17?
▶Hecamet
otheki
tchen,
Ifr
owned
Me:
I'
m 18.
..
eeei
i
igght
eeeenn!
!
Vi
nce:
justki
ddi
ng.
▶Don'
ty'
al
l hat
eitwhensomeonesaysyou'r
e17
i
nst
eadoftheyeart
hatyou'
ret
urni
ngthatyear
whi
chi
s18, Iwas17lasty
earl
olanyway.
Vi
nce:
Come,
let
'sbounce
Me:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Vi
nce:
Out
.
Me:
Out
sideoroutasi
natt
own?
▶Heopenedt
hedoorwest
eppedout
side.
Vi
nce:
Iwantust
ogr
abameal
,I
'm hungr
y
Me:
youwantmet
ogoout?Li
ket
his?
Vi
nce:
goandchange
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
youdon'
twantt
o?
Me:Ido,
Ijustcan'
tgo.
.i
tsal
readyl
ateandy
ouknow
mydad
Vi
nce:
Oh,
dad.
..
▶Her
oll
edhi
sey
eswhenhesai
dthewor
d"Dad"
Me:
Wecandr
ive-
Thr
u..
.
Vi
nce:
Owkay
,let
'sgo.
▶WeHoppedi
nthecarandwedr
oveof
f,whi
l
ein
t
hecar
.
Me:
howwaswor
ktoday
?
Vi
nce:
Itwasgr
eathoneyt
hanksf
oraski
ng.
Me:youl
i
kei
twhenIasky
ouhowwasy
ourdayat
wor
kne?
Vi
nce:
Ido
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
Me:
youdumb
Vince:
itactual
lymeansalottome, li
keyoucare,
youwantt oknow,youal
way saskandwhenIdi dnot
haveagreatdayy oumakesur ethatIhaveagreat
momentatl eastwit
hyou,your emindmeofmy
mom sheal waysasksmydadt hi
s..
.andit
snotli
ke
youknewt his.
.y
oudothi
saut omat i
call
y.
..
.
Me:
NcooohPapi
.
▶ITouchedhi
sThi
gh.
Vi
nce:
don'
tdot
hat
Me:
What
?
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyoupl
aci
ngy
ourhandt
her
e?
Me:
Youhav
eanaught
ymi
ndVi
nce
▶Wel aughed,wenttoChesa-
NyamaCarwashit
wasstil
lopenVinceboughtAmaqathaandPapwi
th
sal
adsont hesi
dethenWedr ovet
oMcDonalds
Dri
vethru.
Tel
l
er:
CanIgety
ouror
der
Vi
nce:2McFlur
ri
esand.
..
.Ar
eyousur
eyoudont
wantany
thi
ngelse?
Me:
Yeah.
▶Vi nceboughtsomethi
ngf
rom McDonal
d'
s,What
's
goingonthisguyhat
esMcDonald'
sthel
astt
imeI
checked.
WegotourMcFl
urr
iesandwedr
oveof
f
Me:
Don'
tyouhat
eev
ery
thi
ngf
rom McDonal
d'
s?
Vi
nce:
CanIconf
ess?
Me:
Please
Vince:
I'
mi nl
ovewi t
hMcFl
urr
yandI
tisal
lbecause
ofyou..
.Theotherdayy
oumademetastei
tri
ght?
Me:
Yeah?
Vi
nce:Thef ol
l
owi ngday
,whenIknockedof
fat
workIboughti
t..
.andIdi
dn'
ttel
lyou.
Me:
Real
l
y??
▶Il
aughed
Vince:I
twasasecretIdi
dn'
twantt
oshar
e,seenow
you'r
elaughi
ngatme.
Me:
Iact
ual
l
ycan'
tbel
i
evet
his.
▶Wear r
ivedinourareaandhepar kedhiscar
2housesawayf rom myhouse, wetalkedandateour
McFlurri
eswhent heywer efini
shedIgotoutofthe
carandwal kedhome, Vincewentbackt ohishouse,
Igotinsi
det hehousel ockedthegateandt hedoor.
Itwas20:27Iwentt othel oungetocheckmypeopl e,
t
heywer
est
il
lther
epl
ayi
ngPS.
..
Me:
Who'
swi
nni
ng?
?
Themba:
Iam
Me:
Obv
ious.
Dad:WhenIpl
aywi
thyou,
youal
wayspushesmeso
Il
osecont
rol
,andy
ou'
reacheat
er
Me:
Dad.
..Me?
?
▶Thembalaughed.Iwentupst
airsinmy
r
oom,cl
osedthedoor,Cl
imbedont hebedchecked
myPhone,GotanSmSf rom MTNgotFr eeminutes
Whoam Igonnacall
?Obv i
ous.
..Ical
ledVi
nce
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
I'
m mi
ssi
ngy
oual
ready
.
Vi
nce:
Try
ingt
ober
omant
ic?
Me:
Isoundcheeseyne?
▶Webot
hlaughed
Vi
nce:
Yeah.
Me:
Igotf
reeMi
nut
es,
that
'swhyIcal
l
ed.
Vi
nce:
HahaIknewi
t.
▶Wecont i
nuedt otalkov erthephoneunt i
lMyFr ee
minutesdepl eted..
..
afterthatIgotupwentt omy
bathroom tookaqui ckshower ,wentbackt omy
room loti
onedandIwor emyRedSi lkPJs. .
.wentt o
theloungepl ayedPlay Stati
onwi thThemba, wegot
ti
redaround00: 44thenwewentt osleep.Sat urday
mor ni
ngMydadwokeusup. .
.Igotupwentt obat h.
..
Loti
onedt henIwor eBl ackskirtdungaree, wi t
ha
Whitev estandconv erseshoest henIwal ked
downst air
s.Thembaandmydedwer ealr
eadyatt he
kit
chencount ereati
ng.
Themba:
tooky
ouay
earandahal
ftogetr
eady
.
Dad:
Ayearandahal
f?Wasn'
ti
t20y
ear
sandahal
f?
Themba:
itr
eal
l
yfel
tli
ke100y
ear
s.
Me:
Stopi
tguy
s,pl
easepassmet
hatpl
ate
▶Thembagavemet heplat
e,Idishedupformysel
f
wewereeat
ingthel
amestbreakfastev
er.Eggsand
beanswi
thwhit
ebreadandcoffee
Me:
Sov
elewe'
reeat
ingt
his?
Themba:
Ntwanaj
usteati
tgoesi
n,addt
omat
o
sauce
Me:
Tomat
osauce?Si
es
Dad:tomorr
owmor ni
ngy ou'
remaki
ngbr
eakf
astne?
Becauseyou'
reMasterchef
▶Ilaughed.Weatebreakfastf
ini
shedt
henThemba
andIwashedthedishes.
..
Meanwhi l
ewashi
ngthe
di
shes.
Themba:
SoNt
wana.
..
Me:
yeah?
Themba:
Wher
edi
dyougo?
Me:
When?
Themba:
When?I
zol
o
Me:
Ahymaar
nnt
wana,
nga-
wor
ry
Themba:
lool
trustmeI
'
m notwor
ri
edabouty
ou
umdal
a.
▶Il
aughedoutl
oud
Me:
Thathur
ts
Themba:
Tel
lme.
Me:
AhyThembaTel
lyoui
ni?
▶Seeingthatwewer
edone,Iwentt
othel
ounge
andswit
chedontheTV.Thembafol
l
owedmet othe
l
ounge
Themba: I
'
llgety
ou,sodoyouhav
eaDj
fory
our
bi
rthdayparty
?Looknofur
ther
Me:
Arey
out
alki
ngabouty
ou,
bei
ngt
heDJ?
Themba:
Yeah
Me:Thembay ou'
re15y
ear
sol
dwhatdoy
ouknow
aboutDeej
ayi
ng??
Themba:
youpl
ayonesong,
thenpl
ayt
henextone
si
mple
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Mxm
▶Mydadwal
kedi
n
Dad:
Asambeni
.
Me:
Sambeni
?Si
yaphy
?
▶AskingThemba,Thembashrughisshoul
ders.We
fol
lowedmydadtotheGarage,hegoti
nthewhi t
e
GrandCher
okee,
ThembaandIal sohoppedin.
Me:
Ser
iousl
ythoughSi
yaphy
?
Dad:
Sowet
otower
s
Themba:
wowt
hat
'sCool
..
Me:
DadFor
getI
'
m notgoi
ngt
oBunj
eej
ump.
▶Thembawasexci t
ed, Iwasshi t
ti
ngmypant s
scaredAF, IHATEheight s..beinghighupt here
scaresme, wewentt ot heSowet otowers, di
dthe
bunjeejumpIwasscar edAFIj ustcouldn'tbri
ng
my selfi
ntodoingit
..
.SoIdi dn'tdoit.
.Ididother
activi
ti
es..
.Itwasfun.
.Ihadf unwehadaf un
day...
.Butbefor
ewewenthomewegr abbedaspur
meal sastakeaway s,wegothomewentt othe
l
oungepl acedallt
hefoodt hatweboughtont he
tableandwest art
edeat ing. .
.weweresohungr yand
thefoodwassoy ummy ..
.
Themba:I
fIdi
dn'
tknowbet
terIwoul
dhav
esai
d
somet
hingel
se.
Me:
About
?
Themba:
Thewaywear
eeat
ing.
Me:
lool
whatwoul
dyouhav
esai
d?
Themba:
youknow.
..
▶Hepl
acedhi
shandonhi
sfor
ehead.
Me:
clouds9?
Themba:
Yeah
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tnot
ice
Dad:
Cloud9?What
'st
hat
▶Hewasbusyonhisphonesohedidn'
tsee
Thembawhenhepl
acedhishandonhisf
orehead.
Me:
Bei
ngHappy
.
Dad:
wear
ehappyar
en'
twe?
Themba:
Wear
e.
Me:
Wear
e.
Dad:
Good.
▶Aft
ereat
ingThembacl
ear
edt
het
abl
e..
.It
ookout
myphoneCheckedi
t.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouback?
Me:
YesandI
'
m sot
ir
ed.
▶Mi
nut
esl
aterher
epl
i
ed
Vi
nce:
needaMassage?
Me:
Yespapi
please.
Vi
nce:
Comegeti
tforf
ree
Me:
Ifonl
y.Buty
ouknowt
hat
'si
mpossi
ble
Vi
nce:
iti
spossi
ble.
Me:
lool
Noi
tisn'
tunl
essIsneakout
.
Vi
nce:
Doi
t.
▶Ithoughtlongandhardaboutt hi
s..
.Mydadi sin
hi
sroom, Thembajustwentupstair
s..
shouldI?My
Dadwill
besoangr ythough..
.But1+1. .
.Isneaked
outofmyhouseandwentt oVince'
shouse.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT43

▶Itookoutmyphoneandt
ext
edVi
nceonceIwas
out
sideoft
hegat
e.
Me:
Comeout!
!!
Vi
nce:
Now?
Me:
Yeah.
..
Vi
nce:
Youser
ious?
▶IsawVincepeepi
ngthroughthe
wi
ndows..
.mi
nutesl
atert
hedooropenedi
twas,
asI
wal
kedtowar
dshim hesmiled.
..
Vi
nce:
yourdadwi
l
lki
l
lyou
Me:
Iknow
▶Il
aughed.
..
webot
hlaughed.
Vi
nce:
pleasegoback,
lov
eIwasj
ustki
ddi
ng
Me:
kiddi
ng?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
Me:
mxm Iwant
edt
oshowy
ouhowmuchIl
ovey
ou,
l
ikeI'
ddoany t
hingf
oryou.
..
.ev
ensneakoutofmy
housejustt
obewi t
hyou.
▶ Hechuckl
ed
Vi
nce:
youl
ovemet
hatmuch?
Me:
Ilov
eyout
hatmuch.
..
▶Heputhi shandar
oundmyneck,pull
edme
towardshi
m andwestar
tedki
ssi
ng..
.Midki
ssi
ngI
said
Me:
soI
'
m notgonnagetmymassage?
▶West
oppedki
ssi
ng.
Vi
nce:No,
nott
oday
..
.
▶Heki
ssedmyf
orehead.
Vi
nce:
let
'sgo.
▶Hewal kedmetomyhouse.
..Igotinopenedt
he
door.
..Thenwenttomyroom Everyonewasint
hei
r
rooms..soIwentt
omine.
..

▶Weekendsf
lewbysof
ast.I
tst
hedaybef
oremy
bir
thdayi
tsaSundayeveni
ng,t
omorr
owi sMonday
the17th(
MyBir
thday)
.It
s21h45I'
m sit
ti
nginthe
l
oungewi t
hmydadandJay .
Me:
Letmegoandpr
epar
efort
omor
row
Jay
:someonecan'
twai
tfort
hei
rbi
rt
hday
Me:
shutup!It
hrewacusi
onathi
m
Jay
:IHav
eal
ongdayt
omor
row,
letmeal
soget
goi
ng.
.
Me:
letmewal
kyouout
.
Dad:
thanksf
orv
isi
ti
ngusJay
.
Jay
:nowor
ri
es.
▶Wegotupandheadedt othekit
chen.Ibuzzedhi
m
outandIl
ockedthedoor,
hegotintohiscarand
drov
eoff.
..
Iwentbacktot
helounge
Me:
Dadgoodni
ght
.
Dad:
Goodni
ghtpr
incess.
..
▶Iranupstai
rsgotintomyr oom.
..Changedcl
othes
wor
eaonesi ethenIchargedmyphone...Andusedi
t
whi
l
ei twassti
llchar
ging..
.
▶Gr
oupchat
:
Khomot
so:
probabl
yasl
eep
Me:
NoI
'
m her
e.Yey
Nat
asha:
Kamo:
howmanyhour
slef
t?Iwantt
osl
eepmi
na
Khomot
so:
lookwho'
stal
ki
ng
Me:r
ememberl
astyearwesl
eptaround4am on
Kamo'
sbi
rt
hdayandwewerealll
ateforschool
Nat
asha:
Sleepyt
hewhol
eday
,nev
erf
orget
Candi
ce:andIcan'
tbeliev
ethatyoudummiesmade
thi
satradi
ti
ontostayupuntil00:
00towi
sh
someoneahappybi r
thday.
Nat
asha:
Ili
kei
t
Me:
Met
oo
Kamo:
Thankme
Candi
ce:
forwhatkewena?
Kamo:
forst
art
ingt
his"t
radi
ti
on"
Candi
ce:
Hay
isuka
Me:
Nat
asha:
Kamoy
ouwantcr
edi
t
Me:
shewant
sherr
oyal
ti
es
Khomot
so: wher
edi
dIbuyy
ouguy
s!!
Kamo:
ya'
l
lsuck.
▶West i
llhadal ongwayt ogoImeani twaspast10.
ButWet alkedunt i
l00:00thentheyallsentVoice
notessinging,andsentbi r
thdaymessages...
it
smy
Birt
hdayFINALLY I
'v
ebeenwai ti
ngforthisday
sinceforeverIwasj ustsohappy..
.Turning18i sa
bigdealdon'tletnobodyl i
etoyou..Khomotsowas
thefir
stonet ocallme. .
.
Khomot
so:
Wef
inal
l
y18bi
i
itcchh!
!
Me:
Wef
inal
l
y18babby
y..
.
▶Webot
hscr
eamed.
..
.
Khomotso:Il
ovey
ousosomuch,
IknowIwast
he
fi
rstonet
ocall
.
Me:
asal
way
s
Khomot
so:
Asal
way
s..
.Letmesl
eep,
seey
ou
t
omor
rowandhappybi
rt
hday
Me:
thanky
oubestf
ri
end.
▶Iwasal lsmi l
es. .
.Real l
yr eal
lyhappyIcoul dn't
sleepbutev entual l
yIsl ept..
.wokeupi nt hemor ning.
..
ThemomentIopenedmyey esitcli
ckedt hatit
smy
birt
hdayIi mmedi atelysmi l
ed.Firstthi ngIdidwast o
checkmyphone. ..Vincesentmeabi r
thdaymessage
andaGI Fofmesmi li
ng, onWhat sApp. .
.AGI Fthat
had" happy18t hbi rthdayMami "inbi gcur si
veletters
andmesmi li
ngi nit...Belowal ongt extt el
li
ngme
happybi rt
hday ,andhowmuchhel ov esmeandwhat
hewi shedf orme. ..Itwassosweetandcor nyatt he
samet i
meI 'v
enev erbeenmadeaGI F. .
.My
FacebookandWhat sAppwer ebuzzing"happy
birt
hdaymessagesl ef tri
ghtcent er"..
..Igotupwent
tothebat hroom t ookabat hwentbackt omyr oom. .
.
Lotionedgotdr essedIundi dmyhai rtheot herday
soIhadmynat ural hai ron. .
.Iti
edt wosi depony t
ails
usingpinkr i
bbons. .
.Iappl i
edapi nklipgl oss,
mascar aIlookedsoi nnocentandcut e..
.Foruni f
orm
IWor easki rt
,longshi r
t, t
ie,shortwhi tesocksand
school shoes.IGr abbedmybagandwent
downst
air
s..
..AssoonasIst
eppeddownSes'Thoko
andmydadst ar
tedsi
ngi
nga"happybir
thday"song

Me:
thanky
ou.
..
▶Iwentupt
omydadandgav
ehi
m ahugehug.
Dad:
Lov
eyoupr
incess.
▶Iwentupt
oSes'
Thokoandal
sogav
eherahug.
Me:
Sowher
e'st
hecake?
Dad:
Her
e
▶Pointi
ngatmybr eakfast
,Il
aughedt
hensatdown
andIhadbreakf
astbutIwasbusyonmyphone. .
.
Andalsoeati
ngslowly
Dad:Franswi
llbeher
eanymi
nut
efr
om now.
.put
yourphonedownandeat
Me:
I'
m eat
ing.
▶Mi nutesl
aterIputmyphonedown,hadmy
breakf
astandfini
shedi
t.
.Malumsarr
ivedIwentt
o
thegategoti
nandwedr ovetoschool
.
Malums:Hawuusi
siongakausaf
unda.
l,
ubukeka
ukhul
il
enamuhl
a
▶Igi
ggl
ed
Malums:ubenal
angal
okuzal
wael
i
hlemshana,
usukhul
i
lekemanje
Me:
Thanky
ouMal
ums.
Mal
ums:Sar
ahut
hengi
kuni
kenaku,
kut
hat
hel
apho
emuva
▶Icheckedinthebackseatt
herewasaplasti
cbag
Itooki
tandopenedit,
Itwasaphotofr
ame...Not
yournormalphotof
ramethi
sonewascov er
edin
Zulubeads.
..
itwassobeaut
if
ulandcol
urf
ulIlovedi
t.
Me:
Mal
ums,
Ilov
eit
.
Mal
ums:
Ngi
zomt
shel
aukut
hyuy
ithandi
l
e.
Me:
Pleaset
hankherf
orme.
.
▶Wegotatschoolhedroppedmeoff
..
.Iwentt
o
assembl
yfoundNat
ashastandi
ngal
one.
Me:
wher
ear
etheot
her
s?
▶Ourconv
ersat
ionwasdi
stur
bedbyMduduzi
and
Thapel
owhocameoutofnowher
eandst
art
ed
si
nging
Me:
guy
sst
opi
t.
▶Iwasbl
ushi
ngandev
ery
onewasl
ooki
ngatus.
..
Thapel
o:Happybi
rt
hdayLov
e
Me:
ThanksTaps
▶MrCar
teratt
hepodi
um
MrCar
ter
:Canweal
lgat
herar
ound
Mduduzi
:Igoty
out
his
Me:
Ncooht
hanky
ou.
..
▶Ismi l
ed...
.hehandedmeadai rymilkchocolate
sl
ab...Itooki tandputitinmyschool bag.
..
wher e
aremyf riends? ?Whataretheyupt oIaskedmy sel
f.
Assembl ybegan. .
.wesang, prayedthen
announcement swer emade. .
.Beforetheprincipal
camet oaddr essus.
..3bit
chesst oodatthe
podium...yesy oualr
eadyknowt hem Kamo,
Khomot soandCandi cestoodt hereforwhat?Idon' t
know. .
butIimmedi atelyknewt hattheywereupt o
nogood.
Me:
Whatar
etheydoi
ng?
Nat
asha:
Shhh
▶Att
hepodi
um:
Khomo:
Hel
l
oguy
s.
▶KamoLaughed.Herlaught
eri
shi
l
ari
oussot
he
whol
eschool
star
tedlaughi
ng.
Candi
ce:
Shhh
Khomot so:
SoourFri
endNomzamosbi rt
hdayi
s
today.
..Wewouldl
iketodedi
cateasongtoherand
wewoul dalsol
i
keyouguystojoinusandsi
ngfor
her.
Candi
ce:
Kamo!
Kamo:
Oh!
▶Kamoqui ckl
ytookoutherphone. ..Shepickeda
song,playeditandthenpl acedherphoneont he
microphone.Theypl ayedRihanna-Bi t
chbetterhav
e
mymoneysong. .
.Assembl yturnedint oaturnup
everyonewassi ngingalongot herslaughing..
.I
l
aughedsohar dTheboy stri
edt opickmeupbutI
ref
used. .
.MrCartercutthem of f
,thewhol eschool
booedhi
m..
.Theycamedown.
Me:
Arey
ouguy
scr
azy
??
▶Assembl
yendedwewentt
ocl
ass.
Fi
rstperi
odwasMrCar t
ersowewer eInt r
oublewe
gotchasedout..
..Idon'
tknowwhyIwasal so
chasedoutbecauseitwasn'tmyidea.
..Buthey..
.i
t
happenedwewentt oSuncity.
..
andchill
edthere.
Me:
Youguy
sar
eamazi
ng.
..
Candi
ce:
Andy
oual
sol
ookcut
etodayhey
Kamo:
toomuch.
..
Me:
ncoohThanky
ouguy
s..
.
Kamo:
wewer
esoner
voust
odot
hatbyt
heway
Me:
Icani
magi
ne,
whocameupwi
tht
hisi
dea?
Candi
ce:Isuggest
edi
t.
.ThenKamomadesur
ethat
i
thappened.
Khomotso:
Ihadtoli
eandsaywehav
easer
ious
i
ssuetotal
kabout
..
.
Me:
What
??
▶Wel aughed, fi
rstper
iodendedandschool
conti
nued...Ihadsuchagr eatdayatschool.
.
Everyonewast alkingaboutwhatmyf r
iendsdidand
thosewhodi dn'tknowmeknewmet hatday.
..
After
school cameandwewal kedoutoftheschool
premisesaswewer ewalkingoutVincecall
ed..
.I
answer ed
Vi
nce:
Don'
tri
dewi
thy
ourchauf
feurt
oday
..
.
Me:
why
?
Vi
nce:
I'
m onmyway
.
▶Onhi
sway
??Forwhat
??Whati
sVi
nceupt
onow?
?

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT44

Kamo:
Guy
sIser
iousl
ycannotwai
tforSat
urday
Khomot
so:BruhIcannotwai
ttoo,Mymom wi l
lhav
e
tol
ookaf
terBabyRenethatday..
becauseIcan'
t
Me:
Can'
twhatwena?
?
Khomotso:
Dancei
npeace,
andIwantt
obe
D.R.
U.N.
K
Kamo:
Yesgi
rlnowy
ou'
ret
alki
ng
Candi
ce:
Her
e'smyt
ranspor
tseey
ouguy
s
tomor
row
Kamo:
ByeCandy
Nat
asha:
Byel
ove,
SoKamoi
sChr
iscomi
ngt
othe
par
ty?
Kamo:
YeeeyTashwhatarey
ousay i
ng.
..obvi
ousl
y
mymanhastocomeorelseI'
m notcoming.
Khomotso:Orelseyou'
renotcomi
ng??Whaty
ou'
re
tel
l
ingusbasicall
yist
hat"Chri
soverus"
Me:
Basi
cal
l
y
Kamo:Y'
alldon'
tbuymeai r
ti
me,ya'
l
ldon'
tgiv
eme
money,y
a'l
ldon'twishmegoodni
ghtand
goodmorni
ng,ya'l
ldon'
tgi
vemeadickso..
.
Me:
Enoughsi
k'
zwi
l
e
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Khomotso:you'
rej
ustbei
ngdr
amaticZamore
i
nvit
edChrisandNathanandt
hatI
ndianguyuban
Natashakonj
e?
Nat
asha:
Rahul
?
Khomot
so:
Yeaht
hatone
Me:
Guy
sher
e'sMal
umsby
e
Khomot
so:
Byel
ove.
..
▶Thei
rbusarr
ivedtheexactmomentIwentto
Mal
umsKhomot soandKamogoti nandleft
Nat
ashast
andi
ngt her
ewaitingf
orherdr
iver
...
Iwent
upt
oMalums
Me:Malumsmyf ri
endist
aki
ngmeoutf
ormy
bi
rt
hday..
.I
'
lluseanubert
ogohome
Malums:I
thyngfoneleuBab'
wakhongi
mtshel
eke,
Ngobaphelauzothiangi
mtshel
angauy
amaziukut
hy
unj
ani
Me:
Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hatMal
umsI
'
llcal
lhi
m now.
..
Mal
ums:
ayi
khoi
nki
ngakeMshana.
..
▶Hedroveoff
.Iwentbackt
oNatashaandIt
ook
outmyphoneanddi
aledmyDad'
snumber,i
tstar
ted
ri
ngi
ng
Dad:
Mubi
,I
'm abi
tbusymakei
tfast
..
.
Me:Malumsdi dn'
tpickmeup.t
odayIt
oldhi
mI'
l
luse
anuber
...
Vin.
.Natashaist
aki
ngmeout.
Dad:
Okay
*cal
lended*
▶Di
dIal
mostj
ustsni
tchedonmy
sel
fyer
r.
Natasha:
I'
mt akingy
ouout
?Wi
thy
ourmoneyIhope
becauseI'
m broke
Me:
lool
No.
..
Vincei
scomi
ngIwasmaki
ngupal
i
e
Natasha:thoughty
ouwer
eser
ious,
yousounded
ser
ious..
.
▶Igi
ggl
ed
Nat
asha:
itswei
rdbei
ng18f
inal
l
yyeah?
Me:youcansayt
hat
,li
keyouknowasabir
thdayer
youal
wayshavet
hatweir
dfeel
ingony
ourbir
thday.
Nat
asha:
what
'sabi
rt
hday
erZamor
e?
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Tashy
ouknowwhatImean.
Natasha:Ido,sowher
eisVi
ncet aki
ngyou.
..I
ts
probablysomewherer
omanti
cflowersand
Shit
..
.someti
mesIreal
lywi
shthatIhadaboy f
ri
end
Me:Idon'
tknowhey ,hecall
edmemoment sago...I
wasn'
tevenplanningonseeinghimtodaybecause
he'
sworkingonthisbigpresent
ati
on..
.andonthe
boyf
ri
endpart.
..Youknowy ou'r
edoingitonpurpose
youneedtogetaboy fr
iend
Nat
asha:
Ijustcan'
tdeal
wit
hmen.
..
menar
etr
ash
Me:gir
lament
othat
!butmymani
sadi
ff
erentt
ype
oft
rash
Nat
asha:
oohher
ecomesmydr
iver
..
.
Me:
byeBbe.
▶Wehuggedandshelef
t.
..
nowI'
m wai
ti
ngf orVi
nce
keandit
sbeenmi
nut
essinceNat
ashal
eft.
.Ideci
ded
tocal
lhi
m..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
bet
her
enownow.
..
Me:
Vincest
oppl
ayi
ngwher
ear
eyou?
Vi
nce:
Cany
ouubert
omyof
fi
ce
▶I
sheki
ddi
ngme.
.
Me:
VinceNo!
!Idon'
thav
eanymoneyonme.
..
Vi
nce:
Isur
edi
dnotpl
ant
hist
hingpr
oper
ly.
..
▶Hegi
ggl
ed
Me:
andwhyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?
??Mxm
▶Idr
oppedthecall,IwasPissedI'
m aver
y
i
mpat
ientpersonandIcouldbedoingbettert
hings
t
hant
obest andinghere.
..
.hecal
ledagai
n
Vi
nce:I'
m sendingadr
ivert
her
e..
.He'
l
lbet
her
ein
l
essthan10mi ns
Me:10mi
ns???I'
vebeenstandi
ngher
efor20andI
hav
etospendanother10minut
esher
e..
.
Vi
nce:y
oubettercal
m downsi
sibecauset
hisi
s
wort
hit
..
.goodthi
ngscometothosewhowait
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
mxm
Vi
nce:
sor
ry.
..Lov
eyou*
cal
lended*
▶BecauseI'
m Vi
nce'
sPopey
eIwait
ed...
.Adr
iver
cametopickmeupandwewenttoVince'
s
off
ice.
..
whi
leont
heroad
Hi
m:I
'
m St
hembi
sobyt
heway
Me:
Sor
ry.
..
I'
m Nomzamo
St
hembi
soVi
nce'
sLi
tt
lesi
ster
?
▶If
rownedathi
m
Me:
No.
St
hembi
so:
Cousi
n?
Me:
Gir
lf
ri
end.
▶Heopenedhi
sbi
gey
es.
..
inshock
St
hembiso:gi
rl
fr
iend?
?Aren'
tyouabi
tyoung?Vi
nce
i
sli
ke24-25yearsmos?
Me:
Yesgi
rl
fr
iend
St
hembi
so:
howol
dar
eyou?
Me:
Somanyquest
ions.
..Why
?
St
hembi
so:
I'
mjustt
ryi
ngt
ogett
oknowy
ou
Me:
mmmm
▶Whenar
ewearri
ving.
..t
hisguybor
esmebusy
t
ell
i
ngmeI'
m abi
tyoungforVince.
..
whatdoeshe
mean?
?Nxn
St
hembi
so:
yeah,
soy
ou'
re171819?
Me:
tur
ned18t
oday
..
.
St
hembi
so:
18?
?Happybi
rt
hday
Me:
thanks.
▶Wef
inal
l
yar
ri
vedatt
hepowerst
ati
on
.
ThankGod.
..
Igotoutoft
hecari
mmedi
atel
y.
..
Sthembiso:Ihavetoclockinnowbefore13:
30getin
thatdoorandy ou'
l
lfi
ndar ecept
ioni
stshewi
llt
ell
youwhatf l
oorVinceisin.
Me:
okayt
hanks.
.
▶Hewal kedaway..
.Ialsomademywayt othedoorI
wasinst
ructedt
owal kin..
.goti
nsi
deandwent
st
rai
ghttotheReceptioni
st.
Me:
Hi
Recept
ioni
st:
Hi,
howar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
Goodt
hanks.
.
Recept
ioni
st:
howcanIhel
pyou?
Me:
I'
m her
eforVi
nce
Recept
ioni
st:
VinceZul
u?
Me:
Yeah
Recept
ioni
st:
didy
oumakeanappoi
ntment?
Me:
No,
heknowsI
'
m..
.
Recept
ioni
st:Youhav
etomakeanappoi
ntment
,
wouldyouli
ketomakeone?
▶MakeanAppoi ntmentt
oseemyman??Whyam I
bei
ngdisr
especttoday
?Onmybir
thdayt
otopi
t
off
..
.myphonerang
Vi
nce:
Howf
arar
eyou?
Me:I'
m her
ealr
eady..
.Ihav
et omakean
appoi
ntmentf
ir
stthoughbeforeIseey
ou.
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
wai
tami
nut
e.*
Cal
lended*
▶TheCompanyphoner angshepickeditup..
aft
er
thecall
endedshet
oldmet ogoupstair
s..
.SoItook
alif
tandwentupst
air
s..
.GotatVi
nce'soffi
ceI
knocked.
Vi
nce:
Comei
n
▶Igoti
nsi
de
Vi
nce:
Youdi
dn'
thav
etoknock
Me:
whati
fyouwer
ewi
thsomeone?
Vi
nce:
Comesi
tonmyl
ap
▶Iputmyschool
bagont
het
abl
eandIwentt
osi
t
onhi
slap.
Vi
nce:
pleasesmi
l
eforme.
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
whatf
or?
Vince:
youlookcut
esoy
ouj
ustneededt
osmi
l
eto
completet
helook.
▶Ibl
ushed.
Me:
thanks.
Vi
nce:
nowl
et'
sgo.
..
Me:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Vi
nce:
somewher
e
Me:
Owkay
..
.
▶Hel ockedhisoff
iceandwewalkedof
f.
.gotatt
he
parki
nglotVinceopenedhi
scarandwegotinand
droveoff
..
.whil
eont her
oad
Me:
whydi
dn'
tyouf
etchme?
Vi
nce: y
ouknowFr i
dayIhaveapr
esentat
ionat
work.
.soIwasfi
nishi
ngoffsomestuf
f.
..
Me:okay
..
.i
fsomet
hingl
ikethishappensagai
n
pl
easedon'
tsendt
hatuglyFatbigeyedguy.
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
woah.
..
whathappened?
??
Me:Hecall
edmeyourli
ttl
esister
...
Lilsi
ster
???
WhenIsaidNohesai
dy ourcousin..
.Iwasli
kewtf
???
Andheplayedt
heagedi
f f
erencecard...
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
ahdon'
tmi
ndhi
m
Me:
Ihat
ehi
m.
Vi
nce:
nowIhat
ehi
mtoo.
Me:
buty
ou'
rel
aughi
ng.
▶Hel
aughedagai
n
Vince:peopl
ewillal
waystalklove.
..
li
keiti
sclear
thatyou'
reyoungerthanme..Il
oveyoust i
l
landa6
yearsagegapisnothingothercouplesare10-
15yearapart
.
Me:
stopl
yi
ngl
i
kewho?
Vi
nce:
Mymom anddad.
..
12y
ear
sapar
t
Me:
Ser
ious?
?
Vi
nce:y
eah.
..
soIdon'tcar
eabouti
t,i
tdoesn'
tbot
her
me..
.Il
ovey
ousti
ll
..
.andI'
m st
il
lgonnal
oveyou..
.
Me:you'r
esweet..
.tel
lmewher
earewe
goi
ng..
.becausecl
earl
ywearel
eav
ingJo'
bur
g.
Vi
nce:
Stopaski
ngquest
ions!
Me:
I'
m hungr
ybyt
heway
Vi
nce:wil
lIt
akey
out
oapl
acewher
eyouwonteat
?
You'
l
lki
ll
me
▶Il
aughed.Moment
slat
erweent
eredMenl
ynMal
l
...
Me:
Her
etoeator?
Vi
nce:
eatandot
hert
hings
Me:
othert
hings?
?
▶Iwi
del
yopenedmyey
es.
Vince:
yeah..
.Idon'
tknowwhatt
owearonSat
urdayI
havetolookgoodI'l
lbeuMrpar
typhel
a.
▶Vi nceiskiddi
ngri
ght?Wear
ehereforclot
hes?
HI
Scl othes??Whataboutmei
tsmybirthdayfor
cr
yingoutl oud?Whathashegotme?Iwashur t
Me:andyousawitbestt
hatIcomeherewi
thy
ou
whi
leI'
m weari
ngaschooluni
for
m andwhi
l
eyou'
re
l
ooki
ngallf
resh??
Vi
nce:
tol
dyouIdi
dn'
tpl
ant
hist
hrough
Me:
younev
erpl
ant
hingst
hroughev
er.
▶Wegotout ..
.Wenti nsideandwest artedlooki
ng
forVince' soutfi
tforSat urday .
..
.wenttooneoft he
bout i
quesIhel pedVi ncepi ckani cesuit,hebought
aBluebl acksuit..
.andwest artedlookingaroundat
otherthingst hemal lwassobi gIwantedal most
everythingandguesswhat?Vi ncedidn'tbuymea
thi
ng....
at16: 33wewentt oeatatBoabab
restaurant .
..I
twast hebestr estaur
antIhav eever
beeni nal lmylifeandal soexpensi veIguesst hi
sis
mybi rthdaypr esent...
food...Iwassohappy ..
.af
ter
eati
ngourmai nmeal ..
.OurWai tercamecar ryi
nga
smal lchocol at
ecakewi th"happybi rt
hday "wri
tt
en
onwi thonecandl elightinguponi t.
..
Wai
tr
ess:
HappyBi
rt
hday
!
▶Shesmi
l
ed
Me:
Thanky
ou.
▶Ismi
l
edback.
..
Shewal
kedaway
.
Me:
Vii
i
nce.
..
.
▶Tear
ssl
owl
yst
art
edcomi
ngout
Vi
nce:
lol
Zamor
edon'
tcr
y.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..
Me:
thi
sissosweet
..
thanky
ouf
ort
his
Vince:any
thi
ngfory ouandsor
rythatIdi
dn'
tl
etyou
knowont imethatIwasgoingtotakeyouout
..
.I
knowy oumadatmebecausey oucamehere
wearingaschool unif
orm.
Me: NoItsper f
ect.
..
I'
m surpri
sedthatwear ehere
andIl ovesur pri
sesIreall
ydidn'
texpecttoendmy
birthdaythisway .
..I
'minanexpensi v
erestaurant
Sippingexpensi vewine..
.havingthejui
cieststeak
andt hey ummi estvegetabl
eswi t
hMacand
cheese. .
.bestexperi
enceev erandIsharedallofthi
s
withy ou..
everythi
ngisper f
ectIwouldn'
tchangea
thing.
Vince:
Idontwantt
otearup,
Indodaay
ikhal
i
...
Ilov
e
youMami
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
▶Hetookmyhandandkissedit.Onl
yGodknows
howmuchIwantt
okisshimrightnow..
.
Me:Thetabl
ebet
weenusi
sdeny
ingust
odogr
eat
t
hings.
Vi
nce:
Stopbei
ngnaught
yandeaty
ourcake
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
..
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT45

▶Theni ghtendedonasweetnot e..

.Igenuinely
enj
oyedmybi rthday.
..
.Theweekwentbysof ast.
..
it
wasFridayafternoonnow,I'
m wi
thMal umsi nacar
goi
ngtot hesalonwe'reeati
ngGrapest hatwe
boughtonourwayf r
om theseamstresswhomade
mydress...
tomor r
owisthebigdayI'
m soner v ous
andMal umsisn'tmakingthi
ngseasyf orme.
Malums: Ut
hyusasikaikhekhemshanali
velel
iwel
e
phansi
..
.nomaUt hyusasukumakuvelekudabuke
l
engubooy i
thungisi
l
e
▶Webot
hlaughedoutl
oud.
Malums:Ngyadlalamshanalokhonjengeke
kwenzeke.
..
phel
awenaawuzwani nokuhlazi
seka
kumeleuli
ndel
ey i
nanomayiniokungenzeka.
Me:okayMalums. .
.butt
heni
Par
tyi
ngaphel
asame
t
imeifthathappens
▶Hel
aughed
Mal
ums:
nqo!Ngi
ngav
elengi
cimeugezi
kut
hul
e
.
.Besengi
cal
engi
khi
pheabant
u.
▶Wear ri
vedatt
hesal
on...
Igotoffwhil
eMalums
wait
edformeoutsi
de.
..
char
li
ewasbusywi thacli
ent
butassoonasIwal
kedinheleftherandat
tended
mebecauseImadeanappointment.
Char
li
e:I
'
llf
ini
shy
ounownow.
.Zamor
e
Me:
Hey
Char
li
e:Bi
rt
hdaygi
rl
..
.I
'
m st
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ormycake.
..
Me:
you'
l
lgeti
tdon'
twor
ry.
Char
li
e:andt
ell
mewhyam Inoti
nvi
ted?
▶Hest
art
edundoi
ngmyshor
tbr
aids.
..
Me:Becauseyou'
l
l bewor
kingt
omor
rowhawuandI
don'
twantyoutolosemoney.
▶Hef i
nishedundoingmyhai r..
.hewashedi t
,
hairdryeditandmoi st
urizeditthenhest ar
ted
plai
tingmecor nrows.
..Fini
shedpr oducthepl ai
nted
ona100%nat uralhai
rweav e..
.Br azil
ianswer enot
popul arbackthenIwoul dhav erockedi thahaafter
doinghai rIdidmynai l
sIchosef ullti
psbecauseof
school theywer eshortandr osepi nk. .
.aft
er3hours
l
aterIpaidandwal kedoutofthesal ongoti
ntothe
carthenMal umsandIdr oveoff..
.i
twas16:35when
Igothome. .It
ookmydr essinthebootsaidmy
goodby e..
.gotinmyhouseopenedt hedoorandI
walkedt otheloungeIhear
dnoi ses..
.
My Dad,Themba,ThandoandThandosmot herwere
there.
..
Me:
Sani
bonani
Fami
l
y
Themba:
shoNt
wana
Thando:
Hey
ThandosMom:
YeboZamo.
..
Umuhl
emanj
ustdi
d
yourhai
r?
Me:
Yeah,
thanksMom
ThandosMom:
Ist
haty
ourdr
ess?
Me:
yeah.
..
woul
dyouguy
sli
ket
oseei
t?
Thando:
NoIwanti
ttobeasur
pri
set
omor
row
ThandosMom:
Iwoul
dli
ket
o..
..
Dad:
youdon'
thav
etoweari
t,y
ou'
l
lmakei
tdi
rt
y
Me:
Mom pl
easecomeandhel
pmeputi
ton.
.i
nmy
r
oom youwi
l
lbet
heonl
yonewhowi
l
lseei
tonme
f
ir
st.
▶Shest
oodupandcamet
owar
dsme.
Themba:
Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngIwoul
dli
ket
oseei
t
Thando:
okaynowIal
sowantt
oseei
t.
▶Meandt handosmom wentupst airsgotintomy
room ..
.shehelpedmeputonmydr ess..
.WhenIsay
i
tlookedgoodI '
m disr
especti
ngit.
..Itlooked
amazingonme. ..I
twaslightpinkshor thadopen
bubbleplit
s,itcompl i
mentedmyf igur every
well
..
.hadaV- openinginthefrontyourgi r
lscleav
age
wasonf l
eek..
Ilookedsof i
ne.Whil
eIwasbusy
admiri
ngmyGodgi venbeautyThandosmom
star
tedalulil
ati
ng
ThandosMom: y
oul ooklikeapri
ncess,sobeaut
iful
..
.
Let'
sgodownstair
scan' twai
tforyoursibl
i
ngsand
yourdadtoseeyou..becauseIcan'
thandleyour
beautyyoungl
ady.
..
Me:
Mom st
op.
..
▶Ismi
l
ed
Thandos:
Youl
ookl
i
keLondi
we(
MyBi
ologi
cal
mom)
▶Ididn'tknowwhatt
osaysoIj
ustsmi
l
ed,
wewent
downstair
s..
..
ThandosMum:
Thembay
enzai
Drum r
oll
▶Thembahi t
ti
ngthetabl
einadr
um rol
l
sound.
..
Theyall
smil
edwhenIwalkedit
..
Thando
stoodup.
.
Thando:
Daaamnsi
s!
Themba:
Yhoy
hoy
ho
Me:
itssobeaut
if
ulr
ight
??
Thando:
ver
y..
.Il
i
kei
t.
Me:
Dady
oul
i
kei
t?
▶Hewasquietbutwaslooki
ngatme,
itl
ookedl
i
ke
hedi
dn'
tl
ikemydress.
.
ThandosMom:
Shel
ooksl
i
keLondi
we,
Themba
uyambona?
Dad:
Ili
kei
t,y
ou'
rev
erybeaut
if
ul.
..
Me:
DoIr
eal
l
ylookl
i
kemymom?
Dad:
Idon'
tknow.
..
Idon'
tseei
t.
Themba:
Youl
ookl
i
ker
ihannat
ome.
▶Wel
aughed.
ThandosMom:
goandchangepr
incessbef
orei
tget
s
di
rty
..
.
Me:
Thandopl
easecomeandhel
pme
Thisdresswasmadt i
ghtandhasazi
pIcoul
dn't
reachatt hebacksoIj
ustneededhel
pwi
thdressi
ng
andundr essi
ng..
ThandosMom:
Letmegot
raf
fi
cisannoy
ingdur
ing
thi
sti
me.
Me:
soear
ly?mom Ihav
en'
tseeny
oui
nmont
hs
▶Shechuckl
ed
ThandosMom: Iwasjusther
etodropof
fthesetwoI
wasn'tstay
ing.
.andbesi
desI
'l
lbeher
etomorrowso
i
'l
lseey outhen
▶Wehuggedandshel ef
t.
..ThandoandIwent
upstai
rswhi
leMydadandThembawer epl
ayi
ng
Play
Stati
on.
..
wegoti
ntomyr oom andshehel
ped
megetundressed.
.IworewhatIwaswear
ingand
putmydressinthewardrobe
Thando:
didy
ouseehowawkwar
ddadwas?
Me:Idi
d,f
oramomentIt
houghthedi
dn'
tl
ikemy
dr
ess
Thando:y
ourdressi
severy
thi
ng.
..
Ithi
nki
ts
becauseyoudi
dinfactl
ookli
key
ourmom.
Me:
yout
hink?
?
Thando:
yeah.
..
Me:
hesai
dIdon'
tl
ookl
i
kehert
hough.
Thando:
wel
lmom sai
dyoudo.
Me:andthat
'sst
range..
.act
ual
l
yIhav
eapi
ctur
eher
e
It
ookindadsroom...
▶Iwentt omyunderweardrawerandpull
eda
pi
ctureout(
Rememberthefamilypi
ctur
eofme,my
mom andmydadIt ookinmydadsr oom yeaht
hat
one)Ishoweditt
oThando.
Me:
doest
hiswomanl
ookl
i
keMe?
▶Thandot
ookonel
ookati
tandsai
dyes.
.shedi
dn'
t
ev
enst
utt
er.
Me:
Arey
ousur
e??
Thando:
Yes!
Me:Natashahasgoodr
esembl
anceey
esi
ghtl
etme
showittoher
▶It
ookmyphoneandsentt
hepi
ctoNat
asha.
Me:letmecal
lhershewon'
trespondnowandI
'
m so
anxi
ous
▶Ical
l
edherandsher
epl
i
ed.
Nat
asha:
Zamor
eist
hatyouinthe90swhyar
eyou
t
hesameagegr
oupasyourdadthough?
Me:
lol
gir
lfucky
ou.
.
Nat
asha:j.
kist
hatwomany
ourmom?I
fsoy
ou
def
ini
tel
ylookl
i
keher.
Me:
real
l
y?
Nat
asha:
100%
▶Owkay .
..
IguessThandosMom wasn'
tly
ingwhen
shesai
dIlookli
kemymom. ..
wel
lIcan'
tseethe
resembl ancebetweenusbut2peopl ecan,l
etmeget
athirdper sonifsheagr eest henitsconfi
rmedIsent
Ses'Thokosheal sosaidthatwel ookali
ke..
.It
s
confir
medIr eall
ydol ookl i
kemymom. .
Meand
thandot alkedforawhi l
ebutshel ateronwentt oher
room...IcalledVincewet al
kedf orawhile..
.wi
shed
eachot hergoodni ghtandsl ept.
▶SATURDAYMORNI NG:it
smybi rt
hdaypar
ty
ever
ybody! . .
.Lookatmet al
kingaboutt
hisl
ikei
ts
happeni
ngnowwher ear
easithappened2015..
.I
wokeupear l
yreall
yearl
ybefor
e8am andI
i
mmedi at
elycall
edVincetowakeup.
Vi
nce:
Mm mami
Me:
wakeup.
Vi
nce:
Why
??what
'swr
ong?
?

Me:
I'
m ner
vous
Vi
nce:
whatt
imei
sit?Mami
its7:
23am
Me:
Iknow.
Vi
nce:gobackt
osleepI
'
m goi
ngtosomegi
rl
spar
ty
l
ateront
odaysoIneedmybeaut
ysl
eep.
▶Il
aughed
Me:
mxm.
..
tal
ktoy
oul
ater
Vi
nce:
don'
tbener
vous,
Ilov
eyou
Me:
I'
ll
trynott
obe.
..Il
ovey
out
oo*cal
lended*
▶Ipost edast at
usonf acebook(Ifeel
li
keakid
goingonaschool t
rip,
I'm sonervousyetsohappy
abouttoday.Fuck!!
)Ilef tmyphoneinthecharger.
..
AndIwentt ot hebathroom topee..
.Camebackt hen
Iwalkedoutofmyr oom andwentt oThandosr oom
knockedandl etmy sel
fi n.
..
Me:
Thando.
..
Thando.
..wakeup!
Thando:
Ahy
khonanomzamo
▶Shecov
eredherhead.
..
Me:
pleasewakeup.
..
▶Shei
gnor
edme.
Me:
mxm
▶Iwenttothembasroom..
he'
sali
ghtsl
eepert
he
momentIopenedhisdoorhewokeup.
..
Themba:
whatar
eyoul
ooki
ngf
or?
▶Rubbi
nghi
sey
es.
Me:
can'
tsl
eep.
..
let
'sgohav
ebr
eakf
ast
Themba:
whatt
imei
sit?
Me:
9am
Themba:
Owkay
▶Hewokeupandputhi
ssl
eeper
son.
.t
henchecked
hi
sphone
Themba:
AhNomzamoi
ts7am
Me:
Iknow,
IKnow.
..Butcome
▶Idraggedhi m outofhisroom andt henwewant
downstai
rs...
Gottherewemadecor nfl
akesandwe
wenttoplayFIFA...
thi
sthingissoaddi ct
iveIdon't
advi
ceanyofy ouguy stobuyi t.
.sowepl ayedFIFA
forawhil
eunt i
lwehear daknockont hedoor..
I
att
endedit,itwast heguyswhower egoingtoput
upatent.
..Igavethem thepermissiontoputitup
andal
sot
oldt
hem wher
etoputi
t.
..
ThenIwentbacktothehouseithitmethatthisday
i
sfinal
l
yhere.
..Icoul
dn'
tbeli
eveit,i
tfel
treall
y
weir
d..
.Mydadwasupandal r
eadyinthekitchen
whenIletmyselfi
nthehouse.
Dad:
uvel
aphy
?
Me:theguyswhoar
egoi
ngt
oputupat
entar
e
al
readyher
e..
.
Dad:
didy
out
ell
them wher
etoputi
t?
Me:
yesIdi
d..
..
▶Thandocamedownt
hest
air
sandwal
kedt
othe
ki
tchen.
..
Thando:
Can'
twai
tfort
odayt
hesuni
sal
readyout
danci
ng.
..
Me:
I'
mfeel
i
ngwei
rdhey
..
li
kei
tsmyweddi
ngday
.
▶Thembaalsocamet
otheki
tchent
oputourempt
y
pl
atesi
nthesi
nk.
Thando:everyt
hingwi
l
lbef
ineIj
ustcan'
twai
tto
dance.
.al
lnight
Dad:
all
night
..
.?
Thando:yesdad..
.y
ouhavetogoandsl
eepata
hotel
.
.becausetoni
ghty
ourhousewi
llt
urni
ntoa
cl
ub.
Themba:
Who'
stheDJv
ele?
Me:
DJ?
?Idon'
thav
eit
▶ Jesus!meandtheev
entplannerdi
dn'
ttalkabout
anyDJweonlytal
kedaboutThapeloper
forming.
..
Thando:
MC?
Me:
MC..
.Idon'
thavet
hatei
ther.
.mypar
tyi
sgoi
ng
t
obeaj
okeoftheyear
▶NoDJ?NoMC. ..
isthi
sevenapar t
y?..
.Iwas
str
essed..
Imeanit
sl at
etohavethosethi
ngsnow.
..
I
j
ustcouldn'
tdeal
...
Iimmediat
elysatdownand
buri
edmyheadont het abl
ecounter
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT46

▶Someoneknockedonthedoor
,Thandowentt
o
t
hedoorandopenedi
t.
Thando:
HeySes'
Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:
hel
l
osweet
y
▶Shewal
kedi
n.
Ses'
Thoko:
San'
Bonani
endl
i
ni.
▶Theygr
eet
edback.
Ses'
Thoko:
howandt
hen?what
'swr
ongwi
thher?
▶Sheaskedmydad.
..
thencamet
owar
dsmeand
br
ushedmyhead.
Dad:
shedoesn'
thav
eanMCoraDJ.
Ses'
Thoko:
babyy
ou'
rewor
ri
edaboutt
hat
?
▶Il
i
ftmyheadup
Me:
yeah.
..
▶Ir
ubbedmyhandsi
nfr
ust
rat
ion
Me:
letmegoupst
air
sI'
l
lfi
gur
esomet
hingout
.
▶Igotup
Thando:
youcanaskKamo.
Me:
Kamo?
▶Thi
sact
ual
l
ydoesn'
tsoundl
i
keabadi
dea.
Thando:
yeahI
'
m sur
eshecanacei
t,t
alki
ngi
sher
thi
ng.
Me:
omgy
ou'
reageni
us.
..
Dad:
nowt
hat
'sf
igur
edoutwhowi
l
lbet
heDj
?
Themba:
Meobv
iousl
y.
▶Thener
veoft
hischi
l
d.
Me:
def
ini
tel
ynoty
ouThemba.
..
Themba:
Whynot?
?
Me:
youcan'
tDj
I'
venev
erseeny
ouDj
Thando:
met
oo
Themba:
ImeanIcant
ry.
..
▶Weal
ll
aughedathi
m.
Me:
let
'sbeser
iousnow.
..
who'
sgoi
ngt
obet
heDj
...
.
Dad:
whataboutJason?
Me:dadJasonisaRappernotadj
,butI
'
m sur
ehe
hasfr
iendswhoareDJsletmecal
lhi
m...
Dad:
yeahdot
hat
.
▶Iranupst ai r
sgotintomyr oom closedthedoor
andIcalledJayhewasn' tpi
ckingup. .
.Call
edhi m
agai
nandhest il
lwasn'
tpicki
ngup. ..
Iwasst art
ingto
pani
cwhati fhedoesn'tpickupf ortherestofthe
day?li
kewher eam IgoingtogetaDj atsuchshor t
noti
ce..
.mebei ngmeIst ar
tedget t
ingtearybutItold
myselfnot earstodaysoIhel dthem back...Icall
ed
mydadhepi ckedup.
Me:
Dad,Canyoucal
lGraceandaskhert
otel
lJay
t
oanswerhi
sphone.
..
Dad:
okay
.*cal
lended*
▶YesIcal
l
edmydad, hewasdownstair
sandIwas
l
azytogot
here.
Minuteslatermydadcamei nt
omy
r
oom andt
oldmethatIcannowcal lJay,Idi
dn'
t
wast
eanysecondIcalledhimimmediat
ely.
Me:
dudedoy
ouwantmet
odi
e?
Jay:
sorr
y,mymom j
ustt
oldmenow.
..
Iwasdead
asl
eep
Me:
wil
dni
ght
?
Jay
:don'
tev
enwantt
otal
kabouti
t.
.what
'sup?
Me:
Idon'
thav
eaDj
formypar
tyI
'
m st
ressed.
Jay
:I'
m ar
appert
hough.
..
Me:
Iknow.
..
▶Il
azi
l
ylaughed
Me:event
houghIknowy
ouhav
efr
iendsorknow
peopl
ewhoareDJs
Jay
:yeahIdo,
buti
tsshor
tnot
ice.
..
Me:
bigbr
otherpl
easepl
ease.
..
.
Jay
:okaydon'
twor
ryI
'
llf
igur
esomet
hingout
Me:
yourpr
omi
se?
Jay
:Ipr
omi
se.
Me:
thanky
ousomuch.
..
Jay
:don'
twor
ryIgoty
ou*
cal
lended*
▶Icannowbr eathr
ight
?Everyt
hingi
ssorted.
..
I
deci
dedtocallkamoandletherknowaboutthe
changeoft
hings.
Me:
gir
l
Kamo:bbeekseni
kanj
e?Youwantt
hesquadt
o
comeandpeelsomeveget
abl
es?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
No,
butIwanty
out
obet
heMCoft
heday
.
Kamo:
MC?
??
▶Shel
aughed
Kamo:
you'
reki
ddi
ngmer
ight
??
Me:Idon'
thaveit,
y ou'
ret
heperf
ectper
sonf
or
i
t.
.pl
ease.
.Andbesi desyouwanttobea
pr
esenter
..
.It
hinktheygohandinhand
Kamo:
bit
chnot
heydon'
t..
.ar
eyouMad?
?
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:
please.
..
Kamo:I
'
m br
ingi
ngChri
s..
.uyot
hini
Mar
a..
.It
sgonna
besoembar
rassi
ngIcan'
t.
..
▶Shewasn'
tbuy
ingitshem.
..j
ustwhenIt
hought
t
hingsar
egoi
ngaccordi
ng.
..
thenthi
s..
Kamo: butI
'
lldoany
thi
ngf
oryoubi
tchsoy
eahcount
mei nasyourMCandIwantt
oseemynameinthe
program.
Me:
ther
e'snotpr
ogr
am t
hisi
snotaweddi
ng
▶Il
aughed.
Kamo:
Ican'
twai
t.
.l
etmest
artpr
act
ici
ngke
Me:
thanky
ousomuchf
ri
end
Kamo:
nopr
obl
em.
Me:
lov
eyou
Kamo:l
oveyoutooandIcan'
twai
ttoseey
ou.
..
happyr
ealbi
rt
hday
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
mxm *
cal
lended*
▶Igotof
fmybedandIwentdownst
air
supdat
ed
ever
yoneandt
heywer
eal
sohappyt
hatev
ery
thi
ngi
s
okaynow.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
breakf
astany
one?
▶Weal l
saidyes.
..
Ses'
Thokodidn'
thav etobeher
e
soearlybutshecame...
tohel
pwher eherhelpwas
neededandsheev enmadeusbr eakfastshedi
dn'
t
haveto,she'
soffduty
..
.she'
ssuchani celov
ing
humanbei ng.
.meandthandosetthet abl
ewhil
e
Thembahel pedSes'
Thoko.
shemadeeggs, mushrooms, avacadoandchicken
sal
ad,sausages,
bacon,beans, f
rui
tsal
ad,
whitebread
andcoffeeitwasabigbr eakfastki
ndofbreakfast
weallsatinthedi
ningtable..
.
Thando:I
'
m afr
aidt
otastet
hismeal
itl
ooksso
del
ici
ous,t
hankyouSes'
Thoko
Ses'Thoko:
Arggt
handoi
tsnot
hingbi
g,sweet
y
thankyou.
▶West art
eddi shi
ngupandwebeganto
eat.
..
fi
nished..
.ThembaandThandopackedupthe
tabl
e..
.Ses'Thokoalsogotupt
owasht hedi
shes.
..
.I
wasmi ssingVincesoIgotuptogoandcall
hi
m..
.mydadal
sost
oodupwi
thme.
Dad:comeher
e
▶Iwentupt
ohi
m
Dad:
arey
ouhappy
?
Me:
Iam,
Iam v
eryhappydadwhyar
eyouaski
ng?
Dad:good,Ij
ustwantyoutobehappytoday.
.Iwant
toseethatbeaut
if
ulsmil
eofyour
salldaylong..
.
▶Hehuggedme.
Me:youwi
l
ldad,
I'
m happyandi
tisal
lbecauseof
you.
▶Hegotaphonecal l
,Ibr
okethehugwhilehe
answer
edhi sphoneIwentupstai
rstocal
lmyman.
..
Iwasal
r eadysmil
ingwhenIbusydial
inghis
numbers.
Vince:
Iwassogonnabesadi
fyoudi
dn'
tcal
lme
thi
smor ni
ng
▶Ismi
l
edev
enmor
e..
.
Me:
comeon.
..
howar
eyoubaby
?
Vi
nce:
I'
m goodandhow'
smyl
ove?
Me:
she'
sgood.
Vi
nce:
issher
eadyf
ort
oday
?
Me:asmuchassheisnervous.
..
she'
sreadyf
or
t
odayisPapi
readyf
ortoday?
Vi
nce:
Papi
isal
way
sready
,wasbor
nready
..
.But
..
Me:
but
?
▶Iknewwhatthe"
but
"wasaboutIpr
epar
edmy
sel
f
f
oralaught
er.
Vince:
isyourdadreal
lygonnabeatyourpar
ty?He
doesn'
thavetobe.Didyoutel
lhi
mt hathedoesn'
t
havetobethere?
▶Il
aughedmyassout
.
Me:hehastobeatmypar
ty,y
eshewi
l
lbet
her
e..
.
Don'
tworr
ythi
ngswil
lbej
ustfi
ne.
.
Vi
nce:i
fyousaysomami
,i'
llt
akeyourwordf
or
i
t.
.l
etmegoandgetahai
rcutseey
oul at
er
Me:
yes,
lov
eyou
Vi
nce:
lov
eyout
oo.
*cal
lended*
▶Icheckedt heti
mei twas12: 38..mypar
tyis
start
inginanhour .
..
Iquickl
ywentt oshowergotout
l
ot i
onedandputonasundr essthenIwent
downst ai
rs.
..Foodhasar ri
ved..
.
Me:
whendi
dthesear
ri
ve?
Ses'
Thoko:
10mi
nut
esago.
Me:
wher
e'st
hando?
Ses'
thoko:
bat
hing
Me:
get
ti
ngr
eady
?
Ses'Thoko:yes,
onlyanhourl
eftsweety
,thedecois
ready..
.foodisready
..
.Oncet
heDj andtheguest
s
getherei t
sapar t
y
Me:whydoesitl
ookl
i
keI
'
m goi
ngt
obel
atef
ormy
ownpart
y..
..
▶Iwentout si
detoseet hedeco..
.Andohmy
najj
dhshhshakGod. .
.Itwassobeaut i
fuland
exquisit
edust ypi
nk,
yell
ow(favor
it
ecolor)andwhi
te
weret hethemecolorstheycomplementedeach
othersowel l.
.Thecakewasal soamazinghadmy
faceinitand" Happybi rt
hday "writt
enont hesi de.
..
Andwhi l
eIwasbusyadmi ri
ngt hebeaut iful work
thattheev entplannerdi d..Mymakeupar tistwasat
thegat e,Iwalkedt ot hegat eandIl ethimi n..
.Ionly
trustgayment odomostofmyst uff.
..Ijustf eel
safewhenIl etthem dot hi
ngsf orme. .
.My
hair,
dressandmakeupwer edonebyt hem Char li
e
myhai rstyl
istrecommendt hem ..Itr
ustHi s
j
udgmentev entodaymyweddi ngdr esswi l
l si
rebe
donebyGer tCoet zee( i
nmydr eams). .
.hegoti n
andwewal kedinsidet hehousehegr eeted
Ses'Thokoandwewentt omyr oom. ..
andt he
preparati
onsst arted.
▶i ts13:45nowI '
m sti
l
l inmyr oom ,15minslat
e
tomyownpar t
y..
.t
heDj andt heguesthave
arri
ved.
..I
'
m donewi thev eryt
hingtheonlyt
hingl
eft
formet odoi stogodownst air
sandj oi
nmyguests
sothatthepar t
ycanbegi n.
..
I'
m with
Khomot so,Thando,Ses'
Thokoandmymakeup
art
ist.
..
.
Khomotso:Zamorewi
l
lst
artcr
yingagai
ncanweal
l
goout
sidealr
eady
▶Theyl
aughed.
..Iwascr
yingmi
nut
esago
Ses'
Thoko:I
'
m goingtosi
tdown,Zamor
e
ucedi
le,
umuhlel
etthepar
tybegi
nkwashoabel
ungu.
▶Shewal
kedout
..
.
MakeUpArt
ist
:sur
esurey
ouwanttocome
downst
air
salone?Youwon'
tcol
l
apse?
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:
NoIwon'
t.
..
MUA:okaymyjobher
eisdone..
.y
oulookpr
ett
ybut
obv
iousl
yyourf
acewastouchedbyme..
.
Khomo:
shel
ooksgood
Thando:
yeahshedoes.
you'
ret
hebestMuzi
Muzi
:thanksgi
rl
s
▶Hewal
kedout
..
.Thembacamei
n..
Themba:AuntGlor
iasaysy
oumustcomedown.
.
Ever
yoneiswait
ingfory
ou.
Me&Thando:
AuntGl
ori
a??
???
▶Thi
sCAN'
Tbehappeni
ng,
whoi
nvi
tedher
..
.mi
ght
aswellchangebecauseshewilll
ect
uremeabout
myshor tdr
ess,myhair,mymakeupandbl abl
a
bl
a..
.weallhaveannoyingaunt
sri
ght??AuntGl
ori
a
i
sthewor stofthem al
l
...
Thando:
letmegobef
oresheget
sher
e..
.
Khomot
so:
yhuul
etmecomewi
thy
ouIf
eart
hat
woman
▶Theyl aughedandgotoutofmyr oom. ..
andI
start
edget tingscar edIwentt othemirrorlooked
my sel
fIl ookedsogoodIwasa10outof10. ..
Igot
outofmyr oom cl osedthedoorandwal ked
downstairs...Gottot heloungewewer eusingthe
fr
ontdoor ..AndIj uststoodt her
ethinki
ngt wice
aboutopeni ngthedoor .
..LikeIcouldheart hemusi
c
pl
ay i
ng..
.ev eryonet al
ki
ng...Mynervesst art
ed
ki
ckinginf orr ealthist
imeIcoul dfeelthem inmy
stomach...Khomot soscaredmebyopeni ngthe
beforeIev encoul d..
Khomot
so:
hay
iwenacome.
..
▶Shegr abbedmybymywr
istandpul
l
edme
out
side
Khomot
so:
Iknewy
ouwer
ehesi
tat
ingt
ocomeout
Me:
Iwascomi
ngt
hough.
..
Khomo: l
i
ar..
.okaywai ther
eIwantyoutomakea
grandentr
ance...
letmegoandt el
lkamothaty
ou'
re
goingtomakeagr andentr
anceandshemust
announce
▶HowIappr eci
atemykhomo. .
.sheknowsmeso
well.
.i
fitwasn'
tforherI
'dsti
llbestandingther
e. .
.I
stoodthereasIwast ol
dandshewal kedinthetent.
..
Notev en2secondspassedsinceKhomot sowalked
i
nt hattentVi
ncecameoutt alki
ngont hephone...
Hesawmeandcamest r
aighttome. .
.Iheardhim
saying
Vince:
CanIcal
lyouback.Ij
ustsawt
hemost
beauti
ful
per
aononearth.
▶Heendedhi
scal
landputhi
sphonei
nsi
dehi
s
bl
azer
.
Vi
nce:
wowbbei
sthi
syou?
▶Ibl
ushed,hel
ookedsogoodandhandsome
hi
msel
f.
..Newcut,
freshsui
tIwaschar
med.Heal
so
waschar
medbyme. ..
.I
'm notgonnacomplement
hi
mthoughtoday.
.becauseitisal
laboutmeletme
embr
acethecompliments.
Me:
youdon'
tl
ookbady
our
sel
f.
Vi
nce:nev
ermindmemami
you
l
ook.
..
wow...
Nomzamo!
!
▶Hel
aughed.
Vince:
thisi
sallmi
ne,
aw'phumal
angasi
kot
he,
dudluntombi
..
mybbe..
.mamiwhyar
eyoudoi
ngthi
s
tome? ?
▶Vincemademeblushevenmore.
.heusual
l
y
complement
smebutThis.
..I
stoomuch..
Me:
stopi
tpl
ease.
.
▶Weheardt hedoorcl
osewebothl
ookedati
tto
seewhoclosedthedoor
.itwasmydadandhe
cametowardsus..
.
Dad:
andt
hen.
.kwenzakal
ani
la?
▶ Iwasscared!
!!Ii
mmediatel
ystart
ed
shaki
ng.
.Vi
nceev enst
oppedsmili
ng..
mydadsface
wassoseri
ousorangryIcouldn'
ttel
lbuthel
ooked
l
ikehecoul djustpunchVinceoutofhi
shouse.
.he
toldhim nottocomeher eandhetoldmeVince
wasn'tinvi
ted..
.buthecame..
mybirt
hdayhasn'
teven
start
edbuti twasabouttoend.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT47

Vi
nce:
I'
ll
goi
nsi
de
▶Heexcusedhi
msel
fandwentbacki
nsi
det
het
ent
.
Me:
Dadi
sn'
tGr
aceher
eyet
?
▶Idefini
tel
yhadtopretendl
iket
hatawkwar
d
si
tuat
iondidn'
tj
usthappen.
Dad:
she'
l
lbeher
esoon
Me:
Owkayl
etmego
▶Iqui cklywentt othet entandIt r
ippedonmyway
therealmostf all
ing..
.Ifixedmy selfandpr eparedt o
walkinKamosawmeandshest artedsi ngingthe
happybi rt
hdaysongev eryonejoinedi n..
.Iwasso
shyIwal kedinandsatont hemai nt ablewi ththe
squadt heywer eal l
wear i
ngwhi tedr essesandIwas
i
nt hemi ddlewi t
hmydust ypinkdr ess...
theyhanded
met hecr own, Iworei tandwesatdown. ..Minut es
l
aterJayandhi smom wal kedin..
.Jaywentt ot heDj
who'sBr andonhi sfri
endandGr acewentt ositnex t
tomydad. .
.t
hepar tyst arteditwasamazi ng...
.My
dadgav eabr i
efspeechsay inghowmuchhe' sproud
ofmeandhowmuchhel ovesme. ..
blabla
bla..
.Khomotsoandses' thokoal sogav easpeech...
.
Presentswerehandedt omebykamoshecal ledout
theev er
yonewhoboughtmeagi f
tt ocomeandt ake
api cwithmeshecal l
edt hem witht hei
rnames
wr i
ttenonthepresent..
.therewer eal otofpeopl
e
whocamewi thpr esentsthel ov
eIr eceivedwas
overwhelming..
..Shecal l
edoutGr acefir
stshestood
upandcamewet ookapi c
Gr
ace:
youl
ookamazi
ng
Me:
Thanky
ousomuch
▶t hePicwastakenshesatdown,Pet
ronel
l
awas
call
ednextwet ookapi
cshesatdown..i
twasa
cycle.
..AuntGl
ori
awasalsocal
ledshecamethey
broughtoutabigassbox.
..
Kamo:
itski
ndaheav
yIcan'
tcar
ryi
ttoy
ou
Me:
leav
eitt
her
eit
sfi
ne,
wewi
l
ljustt
akeapi
c
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:hayi
iakunamadodakant
ila?
?Gugani
l
ebhoki
sini
li
let
hela
▶Peoplelaughed,Iwaskindaembarrassed.
..Jay
br
oughtittowherewewer estandi
ng.
..
Phot
ographertookapicwheni twastimeforherto
goandsitdownshei nsi
stedtobegiv
ent he
mic.
..
Kamohandedi ttoher
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:Sani
bonani
??
Guest
s:Yebo
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:Ni
phi
l
il
e??
Guest
s:Yebo
Aunt'
gl
oria:kuhl
ewewel comeyouall
..
.Nomzamoi
s
mybrothersdaughter,Il
oveherso
much..
.ukhuli
sweyim..
.Minal
ou-Aunt'
Glor
ia
bangi
bizanjalokebanaboThando.
..
▶Guy sIwasembarrassed,Il
ookeddownwhileshe
wasbusytal
kingpr
ay i
ngthatshecoul
djustf
ini
sh
t
alki
ngsothatshecangoandsi tdown.
Aunt'
gl
ori
a:Iboughtmyniecet
hisbeaut
if
ulgi
ft
..
..
I
vuleNomzamobay ibone
▶Il
ookedupsur
pri
sed.
..
Me:
ngi
vul
e?
Aunt
'gl
ori
a:y
esopeni
t.
▶Il ookedatmydad...helookedatmebackI
bendeddown, hadtocov ermybehi ndbecausemy
dresswasshor t
..
.Idecidedtokneel becauseusi
ng
onehandwasn' thel
ping..
.shestoppedmeasIwas
abouttokneelandwhi spered
Aunt
'gl
ori
a:y
abol
ent
ooyigcoki
l
ebhekamanje,
uf
unaukukhombi
saabaf
anaizi
thozakho.
.
▶Shepushedmeasi de, gavemet hemicand
openedtheboxherself,sheopenedi tt
her
ewasa
tr
adit
ional
att
ir
e,shet ooki toutandtookt
hemic
al
so
Aunt'
gl
ori
a:l
okhukeizi
mpahl
auNomzamo
azozi
gcokanextmonthemhl
angeni
.
▶Iwideopenedmyey
es.
..
meemhl
angeni
??Si
nce
when??
Aunt'gl
oria:
phel
auNomzamol ousey
i-
Vir
gin,
impil
o
yasejoziayi
kamshi
ntsi
I'
m pr
oudofher,
uzi
phethe
kahle.
▶Il
ookedatmyf
ri
ends.
..
Candi
cewasi
ntear
s
l
aughi ng...
IlookedatVi ncehewassi l
ent l
ylaughi ng
coveringhi sfacewi thhishand. .
.thosewhoknew
thatIwasn' tav i
rginany mor ewer ehav i
ngf un
sil
entlylaughing..
.Elderswer ealuli
lati
ngonl yift hey
knew...Shegav ethem tomeIsmi l
edandt hanked
hershegav emeahugt henwal kedbackt oher
sit
..
..
Iputt hem backi ntheboxJayf etchedt hebox
andthepar tycontinued..kamocal ledeachand
everyonewhoboughtmeapr esentt hel astper son
tobecal ledwasBr andont heDj wascal led. .
.Iwas
surpri
sedev enIcoul dn'
thi deit
..
.hecamet owar ds
me.
Me:
Isur
edi
dnotex
pectt
his.
Br
andon:
whynot?
Me:becauseIdon'
tknowy
out
hatwel
l
..Ij
ust
di
dn'
t.
..
thankyou
Br
andon:
pleasur
e..
.
▶Ishakedt
hebox.
.
Me:
Iwonderwhat
'si
nher
e
Kamo:
Nomzamost
opt
alki
ngandposef
orapi
ctur
e
▶Theguest slaughed. .
.sinceBrandonandIwer e
broughtt oat t
ent i
onweposedf oraqui ckpi cturehe
cheekki ssedmewhi l
eIsmi l
ed...
.Thepar ty
conti
nuedwedance, sang, ateandt ookpi cturesI
hadsomuchf un..
.I twast i
met ocutt hecakeIr eall
y
didn'
twantt ocuti tbecausei twast hecut estcake
I'
veev erseen. ..Theysangt hehappybi r
thdaysong
onceagai n...
toldmet omakeawi shbef oreIbl ew
thecandl es..
.Ir ememberwhatIwi shedf orv erywell
Iwishedt hatmymom cancomebacki ntomyl ife
onemor et i
met oexpl ai
nwhyshel ef tme. .
..anyway
Around5- 6t hepar tyendedot herf ami lyandf r
iends
wereleav ing...
Igotupf rom whereIwassi t
tingwi t
h
myf r
iendsandwentt oVi ncewhowassi tt
ingwi th
Muzi andsomegi rls..
.IhuggedVi ncef rom behi nd
andgav ehi m aki ssont hecheek
Me:
arey
ougood?
Vi
nce:
yesI
'
m good.
▶hebr
ushedmyar
ms.
Gir
l1:
youl
ooksocut
e..
.Iwannat
akeapi
ctur
ewi
th
you
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
thanky
ou,
okaynopr
obl
em
▶Iwentupt
oherandwet
ookasel
fi
e
Muzi
:thef
oodwasamazi
ngamal
eftov
erakhona?
Gi
rl
2:Muzi
Muzi
:babyy
ini
?Iwantl
unchboxf
ort
omor
row
Vi
nce:
Met
oo
▶Wel
aughed.
..
Me:
I'
ll
bewi
thy
ouguy
snownow
Vi
nce:
okaywegonnagoandchange
Me:
okayl
ove.
..Thanky
ouguy
sforcomi
ng
Gi
rl
1andGi
rl
2:pl
easur
e
▶Iwalkedaway
..
.onmywaytothehouseIpassed
wher
eJayandhisfr
iendswer
e.
Jay
:MissPar
ty.
..Idi
dn'
tseeMrPar
tyt
houghi
she
her
e?
Me:
heybr
o..
yeah
Br
andon:
youhav
eaboy
fri
ned?
Me:
yep
Br
andon:
soIdontst
andanychance?
Me:
may
bey
oudoIdon'
tknow.
..
▶Whydi
dIj
ustsayt
hat
?
Me:Jaythankyousomuchf
orfi
ndingmeBrandon
andBrandont hanky
ousomuchforcomi
ngi r
eal
l
y
real
l
yappr eci
atei
t.
Br
andom:
Nopr
obl
em.
..
Jay:Noprobl
em?thi
sguydidn'
twanttocome
becausehe'
saHipHopDj hedoesn'
tplayhouse.
.
butyoassoonasIsaidi
tsforyou..
..
hejumped
▶Hej
umped?
doesBr
andonwantme?
Me:Real
ly
??.
..
i'
l
lcatchy
ouguy
slat
erl
etmegoand
t
akethi
sdressoff
.
Br
andon:
yeahwet
urni
ngupnow.
Me:
youknow
Br
andon:
don'
tdowhaty
oudi
datt
aboot
hough
▶Weshar edal
aughIthenl
eftthem andwentt
othe
houseIf
oundAunt'
gl
ori
atal
kingtoThandosMom
andMyDad
Dad:uNomzamoshasexamsGlori
a,nj
eiskhat
hy
sokuyaEmhl
angeni
ngekeasi
thol
e
ThandosMom:
andThandot
oo.
..
may
benexty
ear
Dad:
Yebo
Aunt'
gl
ori
a:Ni
wakhohl
i
weamasi
kokenj
alo.
..
li
njal
o
keiGol
i
Me:
sowuy
ahambaAunt
y??
Aunt'
gl
ori
a:yebo,sasakumele
ngi
yenkozweni.
.kodwayourdress
mtaka'
Themba...l
azel
i
mfishaneuyat
hengi
say
ini
Dad:
yinganel
eGl
ori
aut
hengi
sani
?
▶Il ef
tthem there..
.f
ami l
ydramaisnotwhatIneed
ri
ghtnow. .
..Gracewast al
kingoverthephonewhenI
walkedinthecor r
idorupstair
snexttomydadsroom
Iwantedt ohearwhatshewassay ingandtowhoso
Istart
edwal ki
ngslowly
Gr
ace:
Itshoul
dbeher
ebyMonday
..
.
Gr
ace:
Wil
lbei
nDur
banNextmont
h
Gr
ace:
Yes
Gr
ace:
Yes
▶Shet
urnedar
ound
Me:
fuck
▶shesawme.
.Iwal
kedt
owar
dsheral
mostpassi
ng
her
Gr
ace:
Wil
lkeepi
ntouch,
thanks*
cal
lended*
Gr
ace:
enj
oyedy
ourday
?
Me:
ver
y
▶Ismi
l
ed
Gr
ace:
yourdadwassowor
ri
edt
haty
ouwoul
dn'
t
...
Me:
Iabsol
utel
ydi
dandt
hanky
ouf
orcomi
ng.
Gr
ace:
nopr
obl
em
Me:
arey
oul
eav
ingal
ready
?
Gr
ace:
Ohnowewi
l
lleav
eat8pm
▶We?
Me:
youandJay
?
Gr
ace:
No,
meandy
ourdad
Me:
ow?
▶Sur
pri
sed
Gr
ace:
yeahi
shedownst
air
s?
Me:
yes.
..
Gr
ace:
okay
..
.
▶Shewal keddownstai
rsandIwalkedint
omyr
oom
Khomot so,NatashaandCandicewere
ther
e..
.Candiceinthemir
rorf
ixingher
self
Me:
Wel
lwel
lwel
lnenzaIpar
tyi
nmyr
oom
Khomo:
ahyt
sekwena
▶Shewasdr
essi
ngup.
..It
hrewmy
sel
finmybed.
.
Me:
DamnI
'
m sot
ir
ed
Candi
ce:y
oushoul
dbe.
..
who'
sthatguyt
hatcame
wit
hVince
Me:
Muzi
?
Candi
ce:
Nat
ashawant
shi
m
▶Igotup
Me:
what?
?
▶Weal
ll
aughedex
pectf
orTash.
..
Me:
youwanthi
m?
Natasha:ofcoursenot.
.y
ouknowhowy ourf
ri
ends
areIjustaskedabouthi
m andtheyj
umpedinto
conclusi
ons
Khomot
so:Nat
ashanev
erev
erasksaboutanyguy
sowhyhi
m?
Me:
youmi
ghtbeont
osomet
hing
Nat
asha:
Nomzamonoty
out
oo
Me:
whatdi
dIdo?
?..
.wher
e'skamo?
?
Candice:
atherpl
ace,
shewentt
her
etochange
cl
othesandbuyussomeweed
Me:
shewentt
her
ewi
thChr
is?
Candi
ce:
yep
Me:
AndTashar
en'
tyougonnachanget
oo?
Nat
asha:
Iwi
l
lNat
hani
sbr
ingi
ngmecl
othes
Me:
Owkay
..
.
▶Hour sl
aterwewer ealldressedupandr eadyto
par
ty.
..Mydadi sgoneonl ycomi ngbacktomor r
ow...
Notevenoneadul ti
nsight...
.t
heyleft"bi
gbrother"
j
ayincharge.
..
whataj oke..
.Wel l
Wear eaboutto
wal
koutandheaddownst airswej ustsmokeda
bl
untwear eal
lkindoffhigh.
Me:
doIl
ookhi
gh?DoIsmel
lofweed?
Kamo:
No
Khomotso:
You'r
easki
ngt
hewr
ongpeopl
ebecause
weall
smellthesameway
..
.
▶ Il
aughed
Nat
asha:SoooNomzamoi
sVi
ncesl
eepi
ngov
er
t
oni
ght?
▶Whydoest
hissoundl
i
ket
hebesti
deaev
er?
?
Me:
uhmmmm Idon.
..
Kamo:
Hehast
o.
Khomot
so:
Kumel
e!!
▶Candi
cel
aughed.
Candi
ce:
thesexi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ir
e
Kamo:
Icani
magi
ne.
..
canIr
emai
nbehi
ndandwat
ch?
Me:
nowenay
azuy
ahl
any
a
▶Wel aughedandwal kedoutofmyr oom, Il
ockedit
thenwewentdownst air
s..
.Wentoutsideinthelawn
whereev ery
bodywasatsi ncethet
entwasr emoved.
Vincewast hereal
readywi t
hhisot
herf ri
endsand
Muzi andmor egir
ls.
..Iwentuptohim, greet
ed
everyoneandsatonhi slap.
Me:
whoar
ethesepeopl
e?
Vi
nce:
MineandMuzi
sfr
iends
Me:
Idon'
tknowt
hem
▶Il
aughed
Vi
nce:Ihopey
oudon'tmind,becausetheyasked
whatarewedoingt
onightt
heywant edtochi
llwi
th
ussoIcall
edt
hem here.
..
Me:
Nowor
ri
esbbe.
.
Vince:si
nceIgother
eIdi
dn'
tseeyourdadwher
eis
he..
.t
helastt
imeIsawhimitwaswhenIalmost
f
aint
edear
li
er
▶Il
aughed
Vi
nce:
stopl
aughi
ng
Me:
atJay
shouse.
..
.comi
ngbackt
omor
row
Vi
nce:
tomor
row?
Me:
yeah.
..
andYouknowwhatt
hatmeans
▶Iwi
nkedathi
m andl
aughed
Vi
nce:
Not
ell
me
▶Hesmi
l
ed
Me:
youwi
l
lbesl
eepi
ngi
nmybedt
oni
ght
..
.
Vi
nce:
nott
heDj
?Whocheekki
ssedy
ouear
li
er?
▶Andt
hen?
?IsVi
ncej
eal
ous,
angr
yor?
?Ican'
ttel
l

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT48

▶Il
aughed,
agai
n.
Vi
nce:
Idar
eyout
olaughonemor
eti
me
Me:
whatwi
l
lyoudo?
Vi
nce:
No,
Laugh.
Me:
Wil
lyouhi
tme?
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
nev
erdot
hatt
oyou.
.
Me:
Thenuzongenzani
?
Vi
nce:
Itol
dyout
olaughandy
oudi
dn'
tsol
eav
eme
▶Il
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh
Me:
okaydi
dyou.
..
.aaah!
!
▶Vinceenter
edhiscol
d..
ver
ycol
dhandt hatwas
hol
dingacoldbeeri
nsi
demyback..
.Iscr
eamed
Me:
Vince!
!!
▶Igotupqui
ckl
ytogethi
shandoutofmy
back.
..
hisf
ri
endsl
ookedatus
Muzi
:Whatareyouguysdoi
ngnow?
?Youhav
e
st
art
edyourshenani
gansne
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
sor
rybbecomeher
e
▶Hegr abbedmyhandandpul
ledmet owards
hi
m...
makingmesitonhi
slapagai
n..
.helaughed
oncemor e
Vi
nce:
sor
ryne
Me:
mxm
▶Il
aughedt
oo
Me:
youdumb
Vince:
Itol
dyounott
olaugh.
..
andy
oudi
d,y
ou
neverl
ist
en
Me:
I'
ll
gety
oul
ater
Vi
nce:
lat
er?I
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eepatmyhouse.
..
Me:
noy
ou'
renot
.
▶Imadeasadf
ace
Vi
nce:
doy
oul
oveme?
Me:
ofcour
seIdo
Vi
nce:
thenwhyar
eyout
ryi
ngt
ogetmeki
l
led?
Me:gety
oukil
led?mydadwon'
tki
l
lyouAndhe'
s
onl
ycomingbacktomor
rowl
ate
Vi
nce:
arey
ousur
e?
Me:
yesst
opwor
ryi
ng.
..
.l
etmegetmyf
ri
ends.
Vi
nce:
gett
hem t
ocomeher
e?
Me:
yup.
Vi
nce:
mmmmmmmm
▶Off
ended,
Iwi
deopenedmyey
esandf
rownedat
hi
m
Vi
nce:
what
?Bazor
asal
a
▶Ilaughed,becausehewast
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
h..
butwe
canbecivi
li
zedpeople
Me:
mxm Idon'
tcar
e
Vince:
you'
l
lscar
emyf
ri
endsawayne,
wit
hyourl
oud
fr
iends
▶Ican'ttelli
fthi
sisVi
ncesar
casm orhe'
sbei
ng
seri
ous.
..He'ssuchahardper
sontoreadit
s
annoyi
ng...Igotup
Me:
I'
m comi
ngnownow
Vi
nce:
alr
ight
..
..
▶Iwentt
omyschool
fri
endswhower
esi
tt
ingnear
t
hepool
Pet
ronel
l
a:Zamor
eyou'
rehi
ghasf
uck
Me:
noooooI
'
m not
..
.
Thapel
o:y
ouar
e
Mduduzi
:weknowy
oudon'
tfor
get
Me:okok.
..
I'
m gui
l
ty.
..
yourper
for
manceear
li
eron
mfet
hu
Thapel
o:i
twasf
ir
ene
Me:
F.I
.R.
Ethanky
ou
Thapel
o:any
timeZee
Pear
l:y
ourdadi
ssuchahot
ty
Me:
Pear
l.
..It
hinkIshoul
dgi
vey
ouhi
snumber
s
t
odayI
'
mti
redofy
ounow
▶Pearl
hasathingf
orol
dermanandshel
i
kesmy
dadsomuch.
..
Thapel
o:Iknewy
ouwer
egoi
ngt
obr
ingZamosdad
up
Pet
ronel
l
a:Agai
n..
.
Pear
l:Leav
emeal one.
..
Zamor
eIwantt
hose
numbersseri
ous
▶Wel aughed..
.Mduduzi
camewi t
hhi sgi
rlf
ri
endto
mypartyandshewasquietwhil
eIwast alki
ngtothe
ot
hers.
..
Ididn'
twanttomakeherfeeluncomfort
able,
soIdeci
dedt oengageaconv
ersati
onwi t
hher.
Me:
Minenhl
ewhyar
en'
tyoudr
inki
ng?
Mi
nenhl
e:ahMduduzi
doesn'
twantmet
o.
Me:
Hhay
iMduduzi
!
!
Mduduzi
:what
?
Me:
whati
ni.
..
whydon'
tyoual
l
owhert
o?
Mduduzi
:you'
l
ltakecar
eofheronceshe'
sdr
unk?
Uy
ahlupha
Me:
real
l
y?.
..
that
'sunl
i
key
ou
Mi
nenhl
e:he'
sly
ing
Me:hahaokay..
.Ei
sht
alki
ngaboutbei
ngdrunkIj
ust
gott
hir
styIneedadri
nk...
letmegoandgetmysel
f
one.
▶Ileftthem andwenttogetmy sel
fadr i
nkint
he
house..
.IGotinmyf r
iendswereintheloungewit
h
Jaysfri
endstheylookedkindabusy.
..Candi
cesaw
meandsai d
Candi
ce:
Zamor
eshoul
dbet
hef
ir
stonet
otast
eit
▶Tast
eit?Tast
ewhat
?
Kamo:
yeahZamor
e..
come
▶Shecamet owar dsmeanddr aggedmet ot
he
tabl
e..
.andomg. ..
theywerebusymaki
ngPunch
ther
ewer edi
ff
erentt y
pesofvodkaspi
ri
ts
surr
oundingt
het able.
..
Kamo:
Jayj
ustmadet
hishumongouspunch.
..
tast
e
i
t.
▶Jayscoopedi
tupint
oagl assandgav
eitt
o
me.
..
itwassodi
sgusti
ng.
..I
twasnotanormal
punch.
..
nowondert
heydon'
twantt
otast
eitf
ir
st.
Me:
whatt
hef
uckdi
dyouguy
sputi
nher
e??
Jay
: i
thasor
ange,
mi ntl
eafs,
berr
iesandwater
melonini
tand5dif
ferentf
lavour
ed100% jui
ces.
Me:
what
?Iwon'
tdi
eri
ght
?
Candi
ce:
justdr
inki
t
▶Itwasi
nasmal
lgl
assoIpour
edi
tst
rai
ghti
nto
mythr
oat
.
Al
mostev
ery
one:
Howdoesi
ttast
e??
Me:
ahmm wei
rd.
..
Inagoodwayi
ttast
esgood.
▶Theyal
lst
art
edpour
ingi
tint
hei
rgl
asses.
..
Me:Jaydon'
tbr
eakshi
t.
..
ya'
l
lar
esupposedt
obe
out
side
Jay
:yeahwegoi
ngoutnow.
.wej
ustcameher
eto
makethi
s
Me:
Owkaycool
..
.
▶Iwanttober
esponsibl
easmuchasIcanbetoday
andnotmesst
hingsup..
.Sonoonei
ssupposedt
o
beinsidethehouse..Iwantmydadt obepr oudand
notregretdoi
ngthis..
..KhomotsoandNatasha
weren'ti
ntheloungei twasjustCandi
ceandKamo
Me:
candi
ce.
..
Wher
ear
eKhomot
soandTash?
?
▶shejustshr
ughershoul
ders.i
tsonl
y21:
33peopl
e
ar
en'
tsupposedt
obemi ssi
ng
Candi
ce:
may
bet
oil
etIdon'
tknow
Me:
Owkay
..
.andt
hen?
??
▶Ipoi
ntedatkamousi
ngmyey
es.
..
Candi
ce:
Idon'
twantt
ogeti
nvol
ved
▶Shel aughed..
.Kamowassi t
ti
ngonkyles(
jay
s
fr
iend)l
ap. .
isn'
tshetaken?Andshecamewi t
hChr
is
sowher eishe? ?.
..It
ookoutmyphonetocall
Khomot so..
.buttheywalkedi
n
Me:
Iwasaboutt
ocal
lyouguy
s..
.
Khomot
so:
forwhat
..
.Ngobasi
buy
ojol
a
Me:
mxm.
..
Khomot
so:
ewwwhat
'st
his?
Me:
APunch
▶Theyst
art
edcl
ear
ingt
het
abl
eandwentout
side.
..
.
Khomot
so:
Iwannat
ast
eitdi
dyout
ast
eit?
Me:
yeahIdi
d..
.andi
tisgood
▶Webot hexit
edthehouseandfoll
owedt hem to
thegarage.I
twaspackedIknewal otofthepeople
andalsodidn'
tknowalotofthem .
..
wegott ot he
couchwher eJayandfr
iendswerechil
li
ngat .
..
Thandowasbusydanci ngwit
hherfri
endsi nthei
r
owncouchshesawmeandt hencall
edmeIwentup
toher.
Thando:
goshawt
yit
syourbi
rt
hday
Gi
rl
1:y
eeeeydance
Me:
me?noy
ouguy
s..
.Ican'
t
Thando:oki
tsy
oudr
inkt
hisshotory
oudance
choose.
..
Me:Ashot
..
.y
azt
handoi
tsst
il
lear
lyIcantgetdr
unk
now
Thando:
jai
vake
Me:
Ican'
tthough
▶Shehandedmeashot.
..
.Idi
dn'
thesi
tat
etodr
ink
i
t
Thando:
goodgi
rl
..
..
Me:
what
'st
his?I
tissobi
tt
er
Thando:
1818
Me:
youdr
inkt
hat
?
▶Iwasshocked. .
.1818wil
lhaveyoucrawl
i
ngwhen
drunkitj
ustdi
sconnect
syourkneessameti
me.I
respecti
t
Thando:
itsthebestIdon'
twantt
oseeany
thi
ngby
midni
ght.
..
Me:
don'twor
rysi
syouwon'tseemi
dni
ghtor
t
omorr
owy ouwil
lj
ustwakeupMonday
▶ThandolaughedandIlef
tgotatthecoucht
hey
wer
edrinki
ngandjustchi
ll
i
ng..
.Therewasnospace
f
ormetositsoIstoodinst
ead.
Jay:si
sdidy
oumakesur
ethatt
her
eisn'
tany
onei
n
thehouse
Me:
yeah,
why
?
Jay:
justaski
ng..
.Comeandhav
ethi
sPunchIneed
youdrunktoni
ght
Me:
Jaypl
easeNo.
..
Candi
c:y
eahcome
▶Iknowmyf ri
endswill
makesureIdr i
nkandget
drunkverydr
unk..AndIdontwanttobeVi nces
probl
em..Somebodyrescueme..
.Shest oodupand
pull
edmeIdi dasIwast ol
dIsatdownwher eshe
wassitt
ingat.
..
shepouredmeanot herglassofthei
r
punchandIdrankit.
..
Jay
:yougott
hesugarbr
o?
Kay
le:
Coul
dn'
tbuyi
t
Br
andon:
Igoti
t.
Jay
:Iwanti
t
Br
andon:
I'
ll
giv
eitt
oyouj
ustnow
▶Sugar?...
itdidn'
ttakeMelongtoconnectal
lthe
dotsandseet hattheywer
etalki
ngaboutthei
r
cocai
ne..
.
Kamo:
whatsugar
?
▶sheaskedConf
used
Ky
le:
whi
tesugar
▶Theyl aughed. ..
itsmyf ir
sttimebei ngexposedt o
suchawi ldt hingithasn'tcl
ickedtomef ull
yyetthat
thesepeopl edodr ugsandnotj ustanydr ugbut
cocaine..
.afterawhi leofchil
li
ngwi thmyf ri
endsand
mybr othersf ri
endsmyst omachst artedgrumblingI
washungr y...Iwasabi tshyt oeatinf r
ontofallthe
guestsear l
ierandIwassohappysof oodcouldn't
getit
.
Me:
I'
m sohungr
y
Kamo:
hungr
y?Orhor
ngr
y?
Me:
lool
I'
mjusthungr
yKamo.
Kamo:
getsomet
hingt
oeatqui
ckbef
orey
ouv
omi
t.
..
Khomo:yeahy
ou'
reki
ndadr
unkr
nyoubet
tereat
somet
hing
Me:whatam Igoi
ngtoeat
..
.Ei
shl
etmegot
othe
houseandI
'
llfi
gur
eitout
▶IgotupandItri
ppedov
ert
hehubbl
ygl
assal
most
di
sconnect
ingi
t.
Br
andon:
woah.
..
yougood?
Me:
yeahI
'
m good.
..
Brandon:
letmecomewit
hyoutothehouse.
..
justto
makesurethaty
ou'
rer
eal
lygoodandyouwon'ttri
p
again
Me:
Iwon'
t.
..I
twasj
ustat
inyacci
dent
Br
andon:
wel
lI'
m nott
aki
nganychances
Me:
Owkay
▶Webot hheadedt ot hehouse"t ogether"Idon't
knowwhyIagr eedt othi
s...Butwear ejustgoi ng
theretoprepareameal formeandcomeback
nothingisgoingtohappen. ..Right?Idon' tevensee
Brandonlikethat.
.he'sli
ghtski nneddef i
nitelynotmy
typesonot hi
ngwi ll
happen. ..
whoar eyout ryingto
convince?Iaskedmysel f.
..Brandondi sturbedmy
thoughts
Br
andon:
whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout
?
Me:
huh?
Br
andi
n:y
ou'
requi
et
▶Il
etoutaf
aintl
augh
Me:
arghi
t'
snot
hing
▶WegotatthedoorandIkeptont
ryi
ngt
oputt
he
keyi
nthekeyhol
ebutIf
ail
ed
Br
andon:
letmeassi
sty
ou
▶Het ookt ookhishandsoutofhi sbl ackl eather
j
acketandt ookthekey sfrom myhands. .hi
shands
werewar m whenhet ookt hekey sfrom myhandsI
qui
cklyhandedt hekey stohimt oav oi dlonger
contactbet weenourhands. ..
heopenedt hedoorand
wegoti n..
.wewentst r
aighttotheki tchenandI
openedt hef ri
dgewhi l
ehest oodbesi det he
counter.
..Ther ewereal otofleftover '
ssoIj ustt
ook
vors,2piecesofchi ckendr umsandpl acedt hem on
aplate..
tookoutbunr oll
sinthebr eadcont ainerand
pouredmy selfaglassofcoke. .
.
Me:
youcangonow
▶Hewasnowbusyonhi
sphone.AndIj
ustf
igur
ed
hewasbor
ed.
Me:
youl
ookbor
edy
oucangobackt
oyourf
ri
ends
Br
andon:andl
eav
eyoualone?Idon'
ttr
ustyou..
.y
ou
mightf
all
agai
nandIwon'
tbeHer et
orescueyou..
.
Me:whyareyoutal
ki
nglikeI'
m dr
unk..
itwasj
usta
smal
lacci
denti
twon'thappenagain
Br
andon:
arey
ousur
e?
▶Wel lI
'
m aclumsyperson.
.soI'
m notsure..
.What
I
'm sur
eaboutisthatI
'
m notthatdrunk.
..I
'm Drunk
butnotthatdr
unkI'
mtipsyyeahthat'
sthecorrect
word.
Me:
Iam sur
e
Brandon:
lookaty
ousti
l
lthi
nki
ngabouti
t.
.okayi
f
you'
resurest
andononeleg
Me:
What
??
Br
andon:
yeahi
fyoucanbalance..
I'
l
lleav
eifnotI
'
m
st
ayi
ngherewi
thyouunt
ily
ou'redone
▶I fVinceseesmeandy out oget
herhewill
fli
pand
endthiswhol epart
yletmejuststandononel egso
youcanl eave..
.oneleg?I'
m sureItseasyandI'm
notevendr unkso..
.Iwentclosetohim andtr
iedto
st
andononeleg..
.It
ri
edandt
ri
edandt
ri
edbutkept
onfai
l
inghor
ri
bly
.
Me:
okay
..
onel
astt
ime
▶Hel
aughed
Br
andon:
okay
▶Itri
edoncemor eandt histi
meIfell
down..
.embarrassyourselfnomzamoy ou'
rev
ery
goodatthatIsaidtomysel fasIt
ri
edtoget
up.
.embarrassed.
..
Brandonhel pedmegetup
Br
andon:
youokay
?
Me:
oucch.
..
yeahI
'
m good
Br
andon:
arey
ousur
e?
▶If i
nallyst
oodupst r
aightandhewasi nf
rontof
me...
lookingstr
aighti
ntomyey eshehasbrown
eyes.
..beauti
ful
browney es..
.noliet
heysomehow
capti
vatedmebecauseIj uststoodther
eglanci
ngat
them...
.
Br
andon:
youshoul
dst
opl
ooki
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
Me:
why
Brandom:because.
..I
tsr
eal
l
ytempt
ing,
Ijustwant
tokissyou
Me:
whydon'
tyou?
▶" Whydon'ty ou?"Nomzamo!ar ey oucr azy?
?Ar e
youthatdrunk? ?..
Itri
edrepremandingmy sel
fbutit
didntworkIjustwant edtokisshimr ightnow...He
hasdar kperfectl
yshapedl i
psandIj ustwantedt o
feelthem t
ouchmyl ips.
..
heplacedhi sri
ghthandi n
thebackonmyneckandpul l
edmecl osertohim
andwest artedkissing..
.passi
onately.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT48
#16SNL

▶Af t
erminut
esIst
oppedt
heki
ssbypul
l
ingmy
sel
f
outofhi
shands.
Me:
l
et'
sgo
▶Iwal
kedt
othel
ounge
Br
andon:
Yourf
ood?
Me:
food?
▶Hepoi
ntedt
hepl
ateout
Me:
Oh
▶Itur
nedbackgr abbedmyf oodandwewalkedt
o
t
helounge.
..Heopenedt hedoorandIwal
kedout
f
ir
sthefoll
owed,helockedthedoorandgaveme
t
hekeys.
Me:
Thanks.
▶Wewalkedi
nawkwar dsi
lence.
.tr
yingtopr
etend
l
i
kewhatj
usthappeneddi
dn'thappen..
..
wegotat
thegar
agewher et heot
her
swere..
.whenIthought
thi
ngswouldn'tgetmoreawkwardwesatnextto
eachother.
..
becauseCandi
cewasup
danci
ng..
.Khomot sofr
om t
heopposit
ecouch
Khomot
so:
Wher
ewer
eyouguy
s?
Jay
:yeahy
ouguy
s..
Nibuy
aphy
?
▶Fir
stti
mehear
ingJayt
alki
ngZul
u..
.Isi
de
l
aughed
Kyle:
andi
tdoesn'
ttaket
hatmucht
imej
ustt
omake
food.
Kamo:
leav
ethem al
oneguy
s
▶Br andonandIawkwardlylaughed,Thanky ou
Kamof orsavi
ngmyass...Iatewhileotherswere
busytalki
nganddanci
ng...
.aft
ereati
ngIt ookmy
pl
ateswentupt oJayIr
andoml yaskedhi up
t
ogi
vemecondomshet ookt
hem outandgav
eme
t
wowrappedcondoms.
.
Me:
Doy
oual
way
shav
ethem?
Jay:
y ouhavet
obepr
epar
edasaguy
..
especi
all
yif
youlookli
keme.
▶Thi sguyIj ustlaughedanddidn'tsaymuchaf ter
thatItookthem andwentt othehouse...Igoti
n
placedthedi shesinthesink,wentupstairsandput
thecondomsi nmydr awerandthenIgotoutoft he
house...
Ididn'tgobackt otheGarageinsteadIwent
backtoVi nce...
.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
Papi
..
.mi
ssedme?
▶Isatonhi
slapandonear
m huggedhi
m.
Vi
nce:
toomuch
▶Heki ssedmycheek.
..
.Ismil
ed.
..
Ist
ayedwit
h
Vinceandhisf
ri
endsuntili
ntheA.
ms. .
.i
twas2am
now
Muzi
:Al
mostev
eryonei
sgonenowl
etmegot
oo
Me:
I'
m ev
ensl
eepy
Vi
nce:
sleepy
?Ar
ewer
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
osl
eep?
▶Il
aughedbecauseIknewwhathewasi
mpl
yi
ng
Muzi
:seni
cal
i
le.
..
babygi
rll
et'
sgo.
..
▶Muzi
andt
hegi
rlhewaswi
thgotupand
l
eft
..
.ot
herswer
egonealreadysoItwasj
usthi
m and
t
hegirl
..
.t
heyl
eftVi
nceandIalsogotup
Vi
nce:
who'
sgonnacl
eant
hismess?
Me:
Ses'
Thokoshe'
l
lbeher
eint
hemor
ning.
Vi
nce:
Idon'
twi
sht
obeher
..
Me:
Right
?..
car
rymeI
'
m sot
ir
ed
Vi
nce:
Car
ryy
ou.
..?
?Youwantust
ofal
ldown
Me:
I'
m nott
hatheav
yIpr
omi
sey
ou
Vi
nce:
Ist
il
ll
ovemy
sel
fZamor
eIdon'
twannadi
e
Me:
Mxm,
letgot
her
e
▶Poi
nti
ngatt
hegar
age
Me:
Iwantt
oseewho'
sst
il
lther
e
▶Wewal kedtot hegarage.
..Amess..
.Abigmess
wasmade...NatashawassleepinginJaysLap..
.
Candi
ceinJaysChestandwi t
hJaysarm wrapped
ar
oundher..
.Kamowasont hephone..
..
other
swer e
onthefl
ooritwasj ustamess..
.kamoendedhercall
Me:
What
sgoi
ngoni
nher
e?
Kamo:
Idon'
tknowandChr
isi
sher
eI'
mleav
ing
▶KamowasSober .
.soberasajudgeIcoul
dn'
t
bel
ievemyeyes.Shewasnott hekamoIwaswi t
h
hoursagowhowasdr unkAFandt al
kingshi
t.
Me:
didy
oudr
ink?Whyar
en'
tyoudr
unk
Kamo:
Isober
edupanhourago.
..
Me:
Wher
e'sKhomot
so?
Kamo:
That
ocamet
opi
ckherup
Me:
That
owasher
e?
Kamo:
yes.
..
hawu.
..
letmel
eav
eChr
isi
swai
ti
ngf
or
me
Me:Oooht
hat
'swhyy
ousober
edup.
..
your
eal
l
ylov
e
Chr
isne
▶Kamol aughedandl eftusst andingthere.
..
Iguess
l
ov ereall
ydoeschangepeopl e..
.i
fsomeoner eall
y
l
ov esyout hey'
lldoany t
hing,changet heirbadhabi t
s
j
ustt omakey ouhappy .
..becauset hekamoIknow
wouldhav egonewi t
hKy lesincet heywer ebusy
togetherearli
erohwe' ll
..
.Istartedpatti
ngpeopl eto
getup...
Vincehel pedme. ..NatashacalledNat hanto
comeandf et
chher..
.Whil
eJayandhi sf
riendsgot
i
njayscarandlef
t.
..Icl
osedthegaragethen
Me,Vi
nce,
NatashaandCandicetothehouse...
Candi
ce:
Ifeel
li
ket
hrowi
ngup
Nat
asha:
EuwwEuwwwgetawayf
rom me
Shepushedheraway..
.IguessCandi
cedi
dn'
texpect
thepushbecauseshelandedonthefl
oor
Candi
ce:
Tash!
!
Nat
asha:
Sor
ry
▶Wel aughed,Iopenedthedoorwel
etour
sel
vesi
n
andt
heysati nthedini
ngtabl
e..
.

Candi
ce:
Ihonest
lyneedt
o..
.
▶Shedidn'
tfi
nishhersent
ence.
..
sher
anupst
air
sto
t
hrowup..
..
Nat
asha:
Ijustwannasl
eepI
'
m sot
ir
ed
Vi
nce:
wer
eyoudanci
ngorsomet
hing?
Me:
Nat
ashaanddanci
ng?
▶Nat
ashaLaughed
Natasha:
whi
tepeopl
ecan'
tdancei
tssci
ence
pr
ov en
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
..
Vi
nce:
ow
Nat
asha:y
eah.
..
Iwasn'
tdanci
ngI
'
mjustt
ir
edmy
f
eethur
t.
▶Natasha'
sphonerang.
..
sheanswer
edherphone
t
henendedthecal
l
Nat
asha:
Nat
han'
sher
e
Me:
Alr
eady
..
.Letmegoandcal
lCandi
ce
▶Iwentupst
air
swentt
othemainbathroom If
ound
Candi
cesl
eepi
ngint
hetoi
l
etseat
..
.Ishookher
Me:
Hey
..
.Candy
..
.wakeup
Candi
ce:
Huh?
Me:getup.
..Youhav et
obethemostdi
sgust
ing
per
sonwhendr unk.
..Youal
wayssl
eepi
ntoil
etseat
s
Candi
ce:
Noo.
..
youl
yi
ng
▶Ihel
pedhergetup...
wewalkedint
hecorr
idort
hen
wal
keddownstai
rs.
..
.IgavehertoNat
ashathey
wal
kedout
..
Ilockedthedoor.
..
Me:
wher
esThando?
Vi
nce:
Isn'
tthather?
Me:
Wher
e?
▶Vi ncepoi nt
edherather ,
shewasasl eepi nthe
couch...
Ireall
ydidn'
tseeherwhenwewal kedin.
.she
mustbedr unksleepi
nginthecouchisso
uncomf ortabl
e..
.VinceandIwalkedupst air
swegot
i
nt omyr oom lockedthedoor.
.andIimmedi at
ely
rushedt othebathroom,tookapeegotoutwashed
myf aceandwentbackt omyr oom Vincewasst i
ll
standing..
Me:
arey
ougoi
ngt
osl
eepst
andi
ng?
▶Vi
ncel
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh
Vince:
No,ar
eyousur
ethaty
ourdadwi
l
lcomeback
tomorrowl
ate?
Me:yesI
'
m sur
e..
.nowmakey
our
sel
fcomf
ort
abl
e
pl
ease
▶Hewasweari
ngajeanjacketIwentuptohim and
It
ooki
tof
fhi
m...
Ithr
ewitont opofthebed.
Vi
nce:
manI
'
m scar
edofy
ourdad.
..
Me:Iknowyouar
e..
.ev
enifhecat
chesusI
'
llmake
sur
ehedoesn'
tdoanythi
ngtoyou
Vince:ifhecatchesusmyl ov
eIwantyoutowear
l
ikeawi tchonmyf uneral
becauseI'
l
lbedeadand
you'l
lbet hewi
tchthatgotmekill
ed
▶Iletoutal oudlaugh..
..
becausehewasso
seri
ous. ..Vincewassoscar edofmydadi twasa
realthinghewasn' tfaki
ngit..
.Iundressedwor ean
oversizedT- shir
tandwor enothi
ngunderi tandIgot
i
nbed. .
.Af t
erminutesoft ry
ingtoconv i
ncehimt o
stopst ressingheev entuall
ygotcomf ort
able..
.Iwas
i
nbedal readyandhewasst il
lstanding
Me:pl
easetakeof
fyourcl
othes.
..
comef
uckme
qui
ckbecauseIwantt
osleep
▶Hef
ir
stwi
deopenedhi
sey
esandt
henhel
aughed
Vince:
Isur
edidn'
texpectt
hat..
.whatdoyoumean
comeandfuckyou?Younol ongerbleedi
ng?
Me:I
tsbeenaweeknowIt
houghti
twi
l
lcomeback
andi
tdi
dn't
.
Vince:ar
eyoutel
l
ingmet
hatwecoul
dhav
est
art
ed
havingsexday
sago..
.
Me:
yes
▶Hewassoexci
ted.
..
Vi
nce:
andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lme?
??
Me:
Vince.
..
.
▶Repr
imandi
nghi
m
Vi
nce:I
'm goi
ngtofucky ouunti
lthesuncomesup,
Iwon'
tspareyou.
..
.I
'
llshowy ou
▶Omgwhatdi
dIj
ustl
etmy
sel
fint
o
Me:
No
Vi
nce:
Yes.
..
.
▶Secondsl
ater
Vi
nce:
wow
▶Didhejustsaywow?letmepr
epar
emy sel
fbut
how?Ihaven'thadsexi
nli
ke2mont
hs.
..
anywayI
wasbornreadyIsaidthattomy selfandsmi l
ed. .
.he
unbutt
onedhisjeanandalsotookof fhisT-shir
tand
GoodGodAl mightyVi
nce'sbodyi sTop2andNot2
..
..
heisn'
tbufforanyt
hinghejusthasaper fect
chocol
atemanlybody..
.packsandaper fectV- l
i
neI
havemissedthi
sv i
ew...
.hedi
sturbedmyt hought s
Vi
nce:
Yey
!
Me:
huh?
Vi
nce:
whati
sthi
sdoi
ngher
e?
▶Hewashol
dingt
he2condom wr
apper
sthatJay
gav
eme
Me:Wheredi
dyou..
.Vi
nce!
!Whydidyouopenmy
dr
awers?
?Sowufunaukungi
tshont
shel
a??
▶Idon'
tknowwhatVincewaslooki
ngforinmy
dr
awersImeanhowdidhefindthem.
.Ilaughedand
j
umpedofthebedandIwentupt ohi
m
Me:
Jasongav
etheset
ome
Vi
nce:
Jason?Why
?
Me:
Forus.
..
becausewear
egoi
ngt
oneedt
hem
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
owwwkay
Me:
youl
ooksur
pri
sed
Vi
nce:
trustmeIam.
..
inf
actI
'
m shocked
▶Ismi
l
ed.
..
Vi
nce:
Ial
socoul
dn'
thel
pbutnot
icet
his
Me:
what
?
▶Hetookoutt
hepi
ctur
eofme,
mymom andmy
dad
Vi
nce:
ist
hisy
ourmom anddad?
Me:
yeah
Vi
nce:
andy
ou?
Me:
yeah.
..
Vi
nce:
cut
e..
youwer
eaf
atbabywow
▶Il
aughed
Me:
mxm l
etha.
.act
ual
l
ythi
spi
ctur
ebel
ongsher
e
▶Iopenedanot
herdr
awerandt
ookoutt
hephot
o
framethatauntSar ah,Malumswi f
emadef orme..I
tookthepi ct
urefrom VinceandIplacediti
nsidethe
photoframe. .
itl
ookedlikeitact
ual
lybelongedthere
i
twasf itt
ingandt hepictur
elookedreal
lybeauti
fulin
thatphotof r
ame...
Me:
wher
eshoul
dIputi
t?
Vi
nce:
ther
e..
.
▶Ipl
acedi
tont
opofmymi
rr
orst
ance.
..
Vi
nce:
Ineedt
ouset
het
oil
et
Me:
Owkayi
tst
h..
..
Vi
nce:
Iknowwher
eiti
s
Me:
Mxm
▶Wel aughed...Hewentt othetoil
etandIr emained
i
nf rontofthemi r
rorstanceItookaqui cklookat
my self
..
.Idecidedt otiemyhai r
...I'
mt hinki
ngabout
thefuturenowmyhai rwillpr
obablygeti nthewayof
thi
ngs...
whatt hings? ?Mysubconsci ousaskedme. ..
.
Itookoutar ibbonandt i
edmyhai r..
.asIwasbusy
foldi
ngmyhai rIfeltcoldhandsrunni ngt hr
oughmy
thi
ghst helongert heystayedcaressingmet hey
becamewarm..
..Iwasn'
tweari
nganythi
ngundert
he
oversi
zedT-
shi
rtsoheranthem t
hroughmyassand
thr
oughmyinnerthi
ghs.
..
Me:
stooop
▶Isai
dthi
sinasof
ttoneandt
henIst
eppedasi
de
Vi
nce:doy
oual
way
sweart
hiswheny
ou'
regoi
ngt
o
sl
eep
▶Hegrabbedmybymywai
standmademef
ace
hi
m..
..
Me:
Justt
oday
Vi
nce:
Good.
..
Me:
Why
?
Vi
nce:
Hugme
▶"Hugme?"Ahmmm okay.
..What
'sgoingon?I
di
dn'
taskany
thi
ngIj
usthuggedhi
m..andhehugged
meback
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyouokay
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
▶Hebr okethehugandhel
dmyfacewi
thhi
stwo
handsaroundmyneckmakingmetol
ookst
rai
ght
i
ntohiseyes
Vince:y
oumakemef eel.
..
Idon'tknowhowy ou
makemef eelbutIli
kehowy oumakemef eel.
..
Ilov
e
yousomuchIdon' tev erwanttol oseyou.
..
you'r
emy
weaknessyouhavet hisunexplainablepower
towardsme..
.
▶Whyi sVincetal
kingli
kethis.
..Di
dheseeme
ki
ssingBr andon?Becauseitsoundsli
kei
t.
..
Unexplainabl
epower shehehe..
.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
.whyar
e..
..
Vince:Ij
ustwantedtol
ety
ouknowt
hatIl
ove
you..
andthatIr
eall
ymeanit.
..
▶ Hest artedkissingme. .
..
Ididn'tsawthiscomi ngI
j
ustf elthiscoldtipofl i
pstouchingmi neandt he
butterfl
iesinmyst omachst arteddancing..
.his
handssqueezi ngmyf atassitwast hemost
amazi ngandunexpl ainabl
ef eeli
ngI'veeverfel
t..
.t
his
wasn' tjustakissi twasmor et hanthat.
..
.hetookmy
T-shirtoffandt hrewitont hefloor..
asthi
ckasIam
Vincecar ri
edme. .
.myl egswer earoundhi swai st
wewal kedtomybedourl i
pslockedtogether ..
..
he
gentlyplacedmeont opoft hebedandhest ar t
ed
kissi
ngmyneck. ..
.Isof tl
ymoaned. .
..
whilehewas
kissi
ngmyneckhi sot herhandwassqueezi ngand
caressingmyl eftboob. ..
.hekissedmychestand
madehi swayt omyr i
ghtbr eastwhil
ehisot herwas
stil
li
nmyl eftboob. ..Mymoanswer eslowl yby
surelygetti
ngl oud....Ijustcouldn'
thelpit.
...
he
suckedmybr east,changedandsuckedt heot her
one...
whi l
ehewasdoi ngthismyhandswer e
touchinghishead. .
.hishai rwassoftandv er y
stret
chyIkeptonr unni ngmyf inger
sthroughi t.
..
I
couldn'tkeepst ill
..
..mybodykeptonmov ing....
Ijust
want edhimt ost opt easingmeandputi tinside
me. .
..Hest oppedandl ookedatmesmi ll
ing
Vi
nce:
youwantmeal
ready
?
Me:
please.
.(
breat
hesheav
il
y).
..
please
▶Iwasbr eathi
ngheav
il
y.
..exci
tementresi
dedinmy
hear
t.
..
Iwasl i
keadogseeingitsownerafteral
ong
ti
me..
Ijustwantedt
ofeelhiminsideme...
heshi
fted
upandhest art
edki
ssi
ngmeagai n...
.i
sthi
swhathe
meantear l
i
erwhenhesai dhewi ll
showme. .Iwon't
beget ti
nganydi ckIwast hinkingthiswhi lehewas
kissi
ngme. .nextthingmyt highswer epar tedIf el
t
hisfingersrubbingmycl itinasl owmot i
on...
.My
Godi twassosocal mingi nasexual way .
..Andt hen
heent eredhi stwof ingersi nsideme. ..Iwelcomed
him....
heputt hem i nandouti nthesamepacenot
forlongandt henhet ookhi sboxerout .
..
.hewasso
gentleandcar ef
ul inever yact i
onhet ook...f
eelslike
thefirstti
meIbr okemyv irgini
ty.
..
.het ookone
condom wr appert oreitthenwor eit..het henr ubbed
hispeni sagainstmycl itandheputt het i
pi nside
me. .
didInotmoanl oudl yitwaspai nfulinapl easing
way .
..
Vi
nce:
bbei
tsj
ustt
het
ip
Me:
ithur
ts
Vi
nce:
doest
hishur
t
▶Heputhal
fofi
tin.
..
.Imoanedl
oudert
hanbef
ore.
..
Me:
Vince!
!
Vi
nce:
Sor
ry
▶hest
art
edput
tingi
tful
l
yinandout
..
.hegr
oaned
whi
l
eImoaned.
..
Me:
fast
er
▶Hewentsl owl
ythenfaster.
..
andthenhe
came...
.helai
dontopofmel i
keababyaf t
er.
..
whil
eI
soft
lyrubbedhisbackwithmyhands. ..
.hethen
sl
ightl
ygotupandt ookthecondom of f.
..Ki
ssedmy
cheektoldmet ograbtheblanketandwel aidnex
tto
eachother.
..Myheadont opofhi schest
Me:
ILov
eyousomuch
Vi
nce:
ILov
eyoumor
eandt
hanky
ou
Me:
for?
Vi
nce:
bei
ngmi
ne
▶Ibl ushed..
..
wekeptont alki
ngt helov
el anguageto
eachot herunti
lwef el
lasleep. .
..
Iheardli
ke
someonewascal li
ngmynamebutf rom afar.
..I
openedmyey esthef i
rstthingIsawwast hewi ndow
thesunwasupal ready..
.Ifull
ywokeup. .
..And
panickedimmedi atel
ywhenIsawt hatIwasn't
dreamingsomeonewasi ndeedcal li
ngmyname. ..
I
gotup
Thando:
Nomzamo?
?
Dad:
My ekeThandoubut
handakabi
ub'
thongo
uNomzamouzav uka
▶Thathastobemydad.
..
IshookVi
nce,
Hedi
dn'
t
wakeup.
..
Me:
Heeeeywakeup
▶Isl
appedhimi
nhi
sbacksohar
dthathewokeup
i
mmediatel
y.
Vi
nce:
whatwast
hatf
or?
Me:
mydad
Vi
nce:
Yourdad?
▶Hewasconf
used
Me:
he'
sher
egetup.
..
.
▶Ijumpedof ft
hebed..
.wtfismydaddoi nghereso
earl
y??.
..
.Thi
scan'
tbehappening..
..Vi
ncewasbut t
nakedinmyroom .
..Ihavejust
-f
uckedhair.
..
.my
room r
eeksofsex.
..
.Whatam Igoingtodo?Gr ound
swall
owmeupnow! !
#I
NSERT49

Vi
nce:
I'
m adeadmanwal
ki
ng
Me:
Noy
ou'
renotr
elax
Vi
nce:Rel
axy ourDad,
whohasaGuni
sher
e..
.And
I
'minhishouse
Me:
Stopbei
ngDr
amat
ic
▶Iwentnexttobed, pickedupmyOv ersi
zedT-
shi
rt
worei
tandwentt othewar drobeandtookouta
bl
ackj
ean..
.Iheadedt othedoor
Me:
I'
m comi
ngbackr
ightnow
Vi
nce:
you'
rel
eav
ingme?
?YourDadwi
l
lfi
ndm.
..
Me:
Vincepl
ease!
!
▶Vi ncewassoscar editwasfunnyseeinghimthat
way .
..
hejustwant edtobeoutofthehouseASAP. .
..
I
gotoutofmyr oom closedthedoorandt henIwent
downst ai
rs.
..PassedbymyDadsr oom i
twascl osed.
Ithoughtmay behe'sinsidesoIstar
ted
knocking.
...
Noanswer ..
.IwenttoThandosr oom
f
oundherasl
eepIshookherup
Me:
Thando.
..
Thando:
mmhEi
sh
Me:
Wher
e'sdad?
?
Thando:
Hewentout
Me:out?Outwher
e?out
side?he'
scomi
ngback
nownoworhetookacarandleft
?
Thando:Hesai
dsomethingaboutasui
tcaset
hathe
needs.
.hewasjusther
efori
t
Me:
Ohokay
..
.
▶Ismiledinrel
i
efandwentbackt omyroom Vi
nce
wasnowf ul
lydressedsit
ti
nginachai
rbusyonhis
phone.
.t
hesecondIwal kedinhi
seyesl
ockedmine.
Vi
nce:
what
'shappeni
ng?
Me:
MyDadi
scal
l
ingy
ou.
..
▶Ipul
ledonastr
aightf
ace,
fri
ght
enedbywhatI
hav
ejustsai
dhestoodup
Vi
nce:
Mami
arey
ouser
ious?
Me:Yesnowcome.
..
Iopenedt
hedoorf
orhi
mtogo
outf
ir
st
Vi
nce:
isn'
tther
eawi
ndowt
hatIcanj
ump.
..
?
Me:
arey
oucr
azy
?come.
..
andhe'
ssoangr
y
Vi
nce:
youdon'
tl
ookscar
ed,
why
?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
I'
m soscar
ed
Vince:Nomzamoy ou'
reaf
ool
Ial
mostj
umpedout
ofthiswindow.
..
▶Ilaughedoncemore,
hecamecl
osert
omeand
t
ri
edt opl
aystr
angl
eme...
Me:Vince.
..
Stoop.
..
hewasj
usther
eforsome
sui
tcaseandthenhelef
t
Vi
nce:Youhadmet
her
eIhonest
lyt
houghty
ourdad
wascall
i
ngme.
Me:
shoul
d'
veseeny
ourf
ace.
..
Vince:I
'm 24imagi nethewhol
eworl
dnotseei
ng
thi
shandsomef acebecauseIwaski
ll
edyoungby
mygi r
lf
riendsfather.
..
Me:
handsome?
?mxm
Vince:I
'mver
yhandsomeMi
nababyNedwena
you'r
ejeal
ous
Me:
wowokay
,let
'sgobat
h
Vince:
Nonever.
..
I'
m notriski
nganythi
ng.
..bat
hing
takesti
meyourdadwillcatchus.
..
Me:
okayl
et'
sgohav
ebr
eakf
astt
hen
Vi
nce:Nomzamoj ustsayy ouwantyourdadtofi
nd
meherethenkil
lmesoy oucandatethatboy
..
even
maki
ngbreakfastwemi ghtgetcaught
▶Ihopehe'
snott
alki
ngaboutBr
andon
Me:
thatboy
?
Vi
nce:
theonewhowasy
ourDJy
est
erday
Me:
Oooht
hatone.
▶Isaid"oohthatone"l
i
keIdidn'
tevenknow
Brandon.AndIknowhimverywellhe'
salsoasuch
goodkisser
Vi
nce:
yest
hatone.
..
.t
hatboywant
syou
Me:
andIdon'
twanthi
m..
.l
etmegot
othebat
hroom
▶Vi ncefollowedmet othebat hroom whi l
eIwashed
myf aceandBr ushedmyt eeth..Idecidedtot akea
quickshowerwhi chher efusedt ojoi
nmei nI
fi
nishedthenwegotout ..Hemadet hebed. .
.Whi l
eI
wasl oti
oning...i
twassoawkwar dlotioni
ngand
dressingupi nfr
ontofVi nceandhedoesi tallthe
ti
meIdi dn'tknowt hatitwast hisawkwar d...May be
hedoest hisf r
eelybecausehehasni cebuttcheeks
andabi g* coughs*...
Ipickedoutmypi nk
sundress,combedmyhai rappl i
edmascar aandal i
p
glossandwor ewhi t
egladiator s..
..
Vi
nce:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
▶Ibl
ushed
Me:
thanky
ouPapi
..
.canwegonow?
Vi
nce:
yeah
▶Hest oodupf r om thechairhewassi tt
ing
i
n...
huggedmywai stfrom behindandwewal kedin
thatposi
ti
ont otheki tchen..
.Ses'
Thokowascl eani
ng
upinthekitchen...
whendi dshegether e.
..Vi
nce
quickl
ybrokeof fthehug. .
.
Me:
Ses'
Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:
HeySt
handwa.
..
▶Vi
ncecl
ear
sthr
oat
Vi
nce:
San'
bonani
▶Awkwar
dawkwar
dawks.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
yeboVi
nce.
..
▶Iqui
cklywentt
othedooropenedt
hegatef
orus
t
henIgrabbedVi
ncebythehandwewentout
..
.
Me:
I'
ll
bebacknownowSes'
Thoko
▶Idi
dn'
twai
tforhert
orespond.
..
wel
eft
Vi
nce:
Seemeher
eagai
npl
easedumpme
Me:
Ses'
Thokowon'
ttel
lmydadr
elax
Vi
nce:
Wewi
l
lnev
erknow.
..
she'
sli
key
ourmot
hert
o
me
Me:Amot herSes'
Thokoi
s27may
bemor
eli
kea
Bi
gsi
ster
..

Vi
nce:
She'
ssoy
oungIt
houghtshe'
sabi
tol
dert
han
t
hat.
..
whyi
ssheadomest
icwor
ker
?
▶Wegotatt
hegat
eandst
oodt
her
e
Me:Topayforherst
udi
es.
..
she'
sast
udentanda
Hel
perher
e..
.
Vince:
ohOwkay
..
.notal
otofy
oungpeopl
ecando
that
Me: True,shewor kssohardf orthefut ur
ethatshe
dreamsof ..
.andshewon' tletany onet ell
herwhatto
doandhowt odoi t
..
.Shejustwon' tconf ir
mt ohow
peoplefunctiontheseday .
..asimpl ethingas
workingatShopr i
tey ou'
rej udgedf orit
nowaday s..
..
prosti
tuti
onyou' r
ej udgef orit
Vi
nce:trueyoucanneverwinwi
ththepeopl
eoft
his
worl
d..
.andslowprogr
essisbet
terthannopr
ogr
ess.
Me:
yeah.
.y
oucanl
eav
enow
Vi
nce:
hawu!
!
Me:
What
??
Vi
nce:
Idon'
twannal
eav
e..
.
Me:
youf
orgotaboutt
hesene
▶Ishowedhi
mtheCCTVcamer
as
Vi
nce:comewi
thmet
hen
Me:
toy
ourhouse?
Vi
nce:
yesandbesi
desy
ouoweme
Me:
owey
ou?
?What
??
Vi
nce:
Breakf
ast
Me:
soI
'
m supposedt
omakei
t?
Vi
nce:
ory
oucanbei
t.
..
Me:
doy
ouhav
etobesonaught
y?
Vi
nce:
sor
ry
Me:Letmegoandgr
abmyphonet
hent
ell
Ses'
Thoko
Vi
nce:
okayy
ou'
l
lfi
ndmet
her
ethen
Me:
okay
Vince:
Idon'
ttr
usty
oui
fIgot
her
eal
oney
ouwon'
t
come
Me:
Iwi
l
l
Vi
nce:
NoI
'
m wai
ti
ngf
ory
ouher
ehur
ry
▶Ilaughedandr ushedt othehouse..
.t
oldSes'
Thoko
andthenIwentupst ai
rstot akemyphone...
went
backdownandgotoutoft hehouseandwenttot he
gatefoundVincewai t
ing..
.andwecrossedtheroad
andwentt ohishouse...
.Gott her
eandweknocked
Me:
whati
fMuzi
isn'
ther
e
Vince:
Hewaswi
thagi
rll
astni
ghthe'
sdef
ini
tel
y
here
▶Muzi
opened
Muzi
:Heyy
ous
Me:
Hi
▶Iwal kedi
nVincefol
l
owed..Thegir
lMuziwaswit
h
yest
erdaywasintheki
tchenmakingbreakf
astI
guess,wegreet
edher.
Gi
rl
:Hi
guy
s.
Muzi
:thi
sisTumel
o
Gi
rl
:It
umel
eng
Muzi
:It
umel
engsor
ry.
..
thi
sisI
tumel
eng
▶Vi
ncesi
del
aughed.
..
Vi
nce:
Owkay
Me:
I'
m Nomzamoandt
hisi
s..
.
Vi
nce:
VinceHerboy
fri
end
▶Ibl
ushed.
I
tumel
eng:
wil
lyouguy
sbej
oini
ngusf
orbr
eakf
ast?
Me:
Ahmmm y
ea
Vi
nce:
No.
..
we
Me:
No?
Vi
nce:
Yeahwegoi
ngout
▶Goi
ngout?
?Hawusi
ncewhen
Me:
Owkay
Muzi
:vel
eGoy
ouguy
swi
l
lfi
nishourf
ood.
..
Vi
nce:
Tsek,
letmegoshower
Me:
okayI
'
llwai
tfory
ouher
e..
.
▶VincewentupandIwasleftwi
thMuzi
andhi
s
I
tumeleng.
..
.west
art
edt
alki
ngandIhadagr
eat
conv
ersat
ionwit
hthem unt
ilt
heyst
art
edbei
ngal
l
l
oveydovey.
..
Me:
letmel
eav
eyouguy
s
▶Muzi
laughed.
..
Muzi
:don'
tmakenoi
sewheny
ougett
her
e
I
tumel
eng:
she'
sascr
eamer?
Muzi
:Al
oudone.
..
Me:
Muzi
!!
▶Il
aughedof
fended
Me:
Uyaphaphay
az.
..
nxn
▶Ilef
tt hem...
Am Iascreamer?Orheisj
ustpul
li
ng
myleg...
IgotatVince'
sroom openedt
hedoorandI
l
etmy selfi
n..
.hewasloti
onin.
..
wit
hatowelar
ound
hi
swai stIwishhewasnaked. .
.
Me:
Am Iascr
eamer?
Vi
nce:
Huh?
Me:
Am Iascr
eamerornot?
?
Vi
nce:
Youar
e,whyar
eyouaski
ng?
Me:
NoI
'
m not
..
.
▶breaki
ngnews:NomzamoNt shangasei
sa
scr
eamer.
..
Idi
dn'
twanttobel
i
ev ethi
s
Vi
nce:
yeahy
ou'
renot
▶Iwentupt
ohi
m andsatnextt
ohi
m
Me:
VinceI
'
m ser
iousandbehonest
Vi
nce:
let
'sf
indoutnow
▶Hegr
abbedmebymychi
nandsof
tl
ybabyki
ssed
me.
Me:
you'
resonaught
ytodayy
ini
?
▶Ipul
l
edaway
.
Vince:youwanty oknowi
fyou'
reascr
eamerornot
angisho..
ther
e'sonl
yonewaytofi
ndout
Me:we'
vehadsexbeforesoyouknowi
fI'
ma
scr
eamerornot
..
am Ireal
l
yloud?
▶Vi
ncepul
l
edmebackdown.
..
Isatnextt
ohi
m..
.
Vi
nce:
You'
renotascr
eamer
..
.
Me:
ohokay
Vi
nce:
Somet
imes
Me:
Vince
▶Ipl
aysl
appedhi
m
Vi
nce:
Ouch.
..
comeher
e
▶Hemademesi tonhislap,wit
hmyl egsar ound
hiswaistandMyf acefaci
nghim...
west ar
ted
ki
ssing..
..
nextthi
ngmydr esswaspulledupandhe
wasnakedont opofmegr i
ndingmehar d..
..
aftert
he
deedwasdonehegotdr essedandIalsof i
xed
my sel
fup..
.wegotoutoftheroom itwasar ound
10am Iwashungr yAF..
.wegotdownst ai
rsMuzi and
It
umelengwer en'
tther
e..
.
Me:ar
ewestil
lgoi
ngoutorweshoul
djustmaket
he
br
eakf
asther
e?
Vi
nce:
whatdi
dthatgi
rlmake?
▶Vincewenttot
heki
tchenst
ovet
olookatwhat
I
tumelengmade.
..
Vi
nce:
BaconandeggsIdon'
twantbasi
cbr
eakf
ast
▶Basi
c?Wow
Me:
Whatdoy
ouwant
?
Vi
nce:Idon'
tknow.
..
wil
lseewhenwegetatt
he
mall
..
.wher
earemycarkeys??
▶Hesearchedforthem,f
oundthem andthenwe
wentout.
..
goti
nsidethecar
,hestar
tedthecarand
wedroveoff
Me:
Whydon'
twehav
efatcakesandpol
ony?
▶Hesi
deey
edme
Me:
What
?
Vi
nce:
amagwi
nya.
..
.whatar
efatcakes?
Me:
what
ever
Vi
nce:
Idon'
teatt
hem,
youwantt
hem?
Me:
whynot
?
Vi
nce:It
hinkIat
ethem al
otatv
arsi
tyIj
ustdon'
t
wantt
hem anymore.
..
Me:
Okay
..
.Wi
mpyi
tist
hen
Vi
nce:
youknowmet
oowel
lne
Me:
isn'
tthatmyj
obt
oknowy
ou?
Vi
nce:
Noy
ou'
renotmymom
Me:
You'
ref
ool
▶Wel aughed...
gotatwimpyorderedf ood..
itwas
past10am sowedi dn'
tgetBreakfast.
..
.Vincehada
Quarterchickenwithri
bsandabur geronthe
si
de..
.whileIhadBur gerandchips...
webot hhad
Orangejuice..
.ourf
oodcameandwest ar
ted
eati
ng...
.myphonest art
edringi
ng...
Me:
Ihopei
tsnotmydad
▶Itur
nedi
tup.
..
itwasf
aci
ngdown..
.Icoul
dn'
t
r
ecogni
zet
henumbersoIfr
owned
Me:
hel
l
o
Cal
l
er:
HeyYougood?
Me:
Whoam Ispeaki
ngt
o?
Cal
l
er:
Brandon
Me:Br
..
.cany
oupl
easecal
lmel
aterI
'
m ki
ndbusy
now
Br
andon:
Orbet
tery
etIcancomeseey
oul
ater
..
.
▶Seeme?
?YeyNOO
Me:
No!
!
▶Withoutnot
icingIsaid"No"v
eryl
oudandt
hatgot
Vi
nce'
sattent
ion,helookedatme.
Br
andon:
OkayI
'
llcal
lyoul
atert
hen
▶Iendedt
hecal
l
...
.
Vi
nce:
Whowast
hat
?
▶Ohshi
t!

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT50

Me:
TheCat
erer
Vi
nce:
Ow
Me:
yeahy
ouenj
oyi
ngy
ourf
oodne
Vi
nce:
Ver
y..
..whatdi
dshewant?
▶Vi
ncehl
e..
..
thoughtwewer
eov
ert
his
Me:
Shewant
edmyDadsoIdon'
tknowwhatshe
r
eal
l
ywant
ed
Vince:
OwOwkay. .
.t
alki
ngaboutyourdadweal
most
gotcaughtt
oday
..
.I
'm st
il
lshaki
ng.
.l
ook
▶Heshowedmehi
shands.
..
whi
chwer
enot
shaki
ng.
..
Me:
you'
resodr
amat
ic
▶Wel aughed.
...
wefinishedourf ood,pai
dthebil
l
andwewentbackhome. .
hedr oppedmeatmy
house.
..i
twasaround12. ..Goti n,Ses'
Thokowas
donecleani
ngitwasspot less.
..didn'
tevenlookl
ike
ther
ewasapar tyyesterday..
.Thandowasi nthe
l
oungeeat
ing.
..
.
Me:
arey
ouhav
ingbr
eakf
astor?
Thando:
Ijustwokeupmi
nut
esagosoy
esi
'
m
havi
ngbreakfast
Me:
owowkay
▶Isatonmydadssof
atookof
fmyshoesandIl
aid
back.
..
Thando:Ihav
eanaf
ter
nooncl
assanddadi
snot
hereyet
Me:
didy
oucal
lhi
m?
Thando:
Itol
dhi
m bef
orehel
eftear
li
ert
hismor
ning
Me:t
henhe'
l
lcome.
..Ij
ustwantt
osl
eepI
'
mti
red
wow
Thando:
Tir
ed?Fr
om
Me:
stopi
t.
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:
youdi
dn'
thearmedi
dyou?
Thando:
heary
ou?Si
es.
..
no.
..
▶WheewIknewt hatIwasn'
tascreamerlool.We
watched"Tyl
erPerry
'stempt
ati
on:Confessi
onsofa
marri
agecounselor"oneofmyfavori
temov i
es..
.we
conti
nuedtowatchthemov i
eunti
lmydaddi stur
bed
us
Dad:
Nazenat
hul
angat
hini
bukel
eint
oekhona
Me:
Dad!
!
▶Iwassofocusedont
hemov
ieIdi
dn'
thearmydad
wal
kin,
hescaredme.
Dad:
SukaMubi
esof
eni
lami
▶Hemademest
andup
Me:
wow.
..
▶Istooduptookmyshoesandwentont
osi
ton
anot
hersof
a..
thandol
aughedatme
Dad:
Thandof
etchy
ourt
hings.
..
Thando:
dadcanwepl
easewai
tfort
hismov
iet
o
fi
nish
Dad:Cha.Icamer
unni
ngandy
ouhav
etogot
o
school
Thando:
Butdadj
ust5mi
nut
es
Dad:
Thando.
..
Goandf
etchy
ourt
hings
▶Thandowentupstair
stofet
chherstuff
...Iwasn'
t
gonnaint
erf
ere.
..
whenmydadsay snoitsa
no.
..
especi
all
ywhenitcomestoschoolstuffhe
doesn'
tpl
ay.
Dad:
nisal
eNazi
phat
hakahl
eizol
oZamo?
Me:yeah.
..
not
hingwasbr
oken.
..
yourhousei
sst
il
li
n
goodshape
▶Dadl
aughed.
..
.
Dad:
Icansee,
good.
▶Hest oodup. .
.Andwentt othekitchen..
.t
hando
cametot helounget obidfarewell
..
.wehuggedand
theyl
eft.
..Icontinuedtowat chthemov ieunti
lit
endedandt henIwentt omyr oom..
.IdecidedthatI
wasgoingt otakeanhournapIj ustwasn'tinthe
moodf oranythingIdidn'twantanythingIjust
wantedmybed. .
..Iopenedthedoorandf rowned
i
mmedi atelygi
ftbox esandot herpr
esent swereon
topofmybed. .Ididnothav eanyener gytoremove
them ..
.Ididn'
tev engeti nsideIcl osedt hedoorand
wentstraighttoThandosr oom andIsl eptt here.An
hournapt urnedt obeasl eepingsessi onIwokeup
around8pm. ..
.can' tbeliev ethatt omor rowi t
sschool
Ineedt obath,homewor k?OmgIhav en'tdonea
singl
ehomewor k.
..Wentbackt omyr oom t otakea
bath.
..Igotinsidet urnedont helightchar gedmy
phoneandIt r
iedr emov ingt hosepr esent sont opof
mybed. ..Ipl
acedt hem ont hef l
oor .
...Ithenwenton
totakeabat h..
.Fi nishedbat hinglotionedwor ePJs
andwentdownst airsf oragl assofwat er..
.Gott o
thekit
chenSes' Thokol eftmesomef ood. ..She
madel asagneIwasn' thungr ysoIj ustst artedeat i
ng
thecheeseont op. ..
mydadwal kedi n
Me:
khani
ubuy
a?
Dad:
yeah.
..
pourmesomewat
erpl
ease
Me:
wher
ewer
eyou?
Dad:
I'
m 42y
ear
sol
dandy
ouar
easki
ngmewher
e
wasI?
Me:yes.
..
not
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hatI
'
m aconcer
ned
daught
er
▶Ihandedhi
mthegl
assofwat
er
Dad:concer
neddaught
ery
oushoul
dmi
ndy
ourown
busi
ness
▶webot
hlaughed
Me:
youwer
ewi
thher?Gr
ace?
Dad:
I'
m notwi
thGr
aceal
lthet
imemubi
Me:
tel
lmet
hen
Dad:
Iwasoutwi
thf
ri
ends
Me:
Daddyy
oudon'
thav
efr
iends
Dad:
Idonow
▶Hel eftmether
eandwentt othelounge.
..
Dadhas
fr
iendsnowwellthisisnew...
andagoodt hi
ngtoo.
..
I
al
sopour edmyselfwaterdrankitt
henIwent
upstai
rs.
.Goti
nmyr oom andIfoundmyphone
ri
nging
Me:
hel
l
o
Cal
l
er:
Hi,
howar
eyou?
Me:
Brandon?
Br
andon:
yeahy
oudi
dn'
tsav
emynumber
s?I
'
m hur
t
Me:
atl
eastIr
ecogni
zedy
ourv
oice
Br
andon:
that
'sbet
ter
,I'
l
laskagai
nhowar
eyou?
Me:I'
m good,
Brandonlookyoureall
ydon'
thavet
o
cal
lmeandstuff.
..WhathappenedhappenedAndit
won'
thappenagain.
..pl
easedon'tev
ercal
lme
Brandom:Ir
eall
yhavenointent
ionsofmaki
ngwhat
happenedhappenagai
n..
.unl
essyouwantto..
.I
m
j
ustchecki
ngupony ou
▶Oh?Sodoesthismeanthathedoesn'
twantme
l
i
kethat
..
.I'
mjustbei
ngfor
ward..
.st
upi
dme
Me:owt hankyouf
orchecki
nguponmeI
'
m
good.
.verygood
Br
andon:
goodt
oknow.
..Goodni
ghtal
ri
ght
?
Me:yeahgoodni
ght
..Agai
nthanky
ouf
orchecki
ng
uponme
▶Hehear
dyouthef
ir
sttime.
..
what'
swr
ongwi
th
y
ou.
.y
ousoundmorestupi
dnow..
.st
opi
t.
.
Br
andon:
nopr
obl
em.
Me:
thanky
ou*
cal
lended*
▶Thanky ou??Again..
.whatwrongwi t
hme. .
.I
l
augheditof fandputmyphonebacki ntot he
char
ger.
..Ididn'tevenbothertotakeoutmyschool
baganddomyhomewor ks.
.Iwentstr
aighttobed
andbrowsedt hroughmyphonewhi leitwasont he
char
ger.
..Isentamessaget othesquadgr oupchat
Me:Pl
easedon'
tdoy
ourhomewor
ksguy
s..
.
Khomotso:
don'
ti
nvolv
euswena.
.whydi
dn'
tyour
wri
tey
ourhomeworks?
Me: becauseI'
mtir
ed,l
azy
,exhaust
ed,
drai
nedand
al
lthatstuffKhomotso
Khomot so:copymyworkkeandy ou'
renot
ti
red,
drainedwarawar
aVincesexedyoutohel
land
back
Me: nowdoy
ouunder
standmyst
ruggl
es?
?.
Khomot
so:l
etmesendyouthepi
cske,what
homewor
kdoyouwantall
ofthem or
?
Candi
ce:
All
oft
hem!
Me:andthen.
..
.you'
requi
teal
lthi
sti
mekant
yyou
al
sodidn'
tdoyourwork
Nat
asha:
Candi
ce:andi
tsall
yourfaul
tbabygi
rly
ourparty
wassofunIdancedallni
ghtanddr
ankall
nightI
wokeuparound3pm today
Me:
3pm whatdi
dyoudr
ink?
Nat
asha:
probabl
ythepuncht
hatJaymade.
..
Khomot
so: wemustmakethatpunchagai
nitwas
soni
ce.
..Iwassodrunki
naniceway
Me:y
oucansayt
hatagai
naf
tert
heexamswear
e
maki
ngi
t.
Candice:youguysaredrunkards.
..
Sies.Canwe
focusonmor eimportantt
hings?Khomot so:
what
i
mpor tantthi
ngsnow?
Candi
ce:
Homewor
k!!sendt
hosepi
cs.
..
Khomot
so:
All
oft
hem?
Candi
ce:
yes
Me:
Idon'
twantt
hem I
'
m notgonnawakeupj
ustt
o
wr
it
e3homewor
ks.
..
it
swar
m her
e
Candi
ce:
Youcanwr i
tet
hem i
nthemor
ningbef
ore
youcometoschool
Me:
goodi
dea.
..
wher
e'skamo?
Candi
ce:
Khomot
soIhopey
ou'
resendi
ng
Khomot
so:
yescandy
..
theyar
ecomi
ng
Candi
ce:
goodgi
rl
.
Me:
wher
e'skamo!
!!
Nat
asha:
herphoneandChr
is'
sphonear
eof
f
Me:
off?I
ssheokayt
hough
Natasha:It
hinkso.
..
Nathanwentt
oChris'
shouse
ear
lieronandhesaidKamowast her
e..
.
Khomotso:Nathanwhyazenz
aumf
azi
KaChr
iswhy
i
shedistur
bingotherki
ds?
Me:
hay
ikhomo
Candi
ce:
Nat
asha:
heur
gent
lywant
edsomet
hing
Khomot
so:
Minaangazni
hlekani
..
.l
etmesl
eep
bef
orebabyRenei
l
wewakesup.
.goodni
ght
Me:
nightl
ove
Candi
ce:
night
..
thanky
ouf
ort
hepi
cs
Nat
asha:
nightKhomo.
▶Shel eft..
.Candice,NatashaandIcont i
nuedt o
talk.
..Untilacer t
aintime...
Ifellasleep..
..myal arm
rangat5am Iwokeupandpr epar edt ogot oschool .
..
Fixedmyschool bag, packedmyspor tbagal sowe
hav eagameonSat urdaysowehav epr actice
today .
..Ithenwentt obat har ound5: 30f i
nishedi n
20mi nuteswentbackt omyr oom l oti
onedandI
starteddr essingup. .
aphonecal lcamei nitwasMy
Vince
Me:
HeyPapi
Vi
nce:
yougood?
Me:
yesI
'
m good.
..
whyar
eyouupsoear
ly.
..Ohgy
m
Vi
nce:
youshoul
djoi
nme
Me:
wehavetal
kedaboutt
hisandy
oual
readyknow
t
heanswer
Vince:
Ireal
lywi
sht
haty
ou'
djoi
nmeonedayI
'
llbe
yourtr
ainer
..
.
Me:
not
hanky
ou.
..
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng
Me:
dressi
ngup
Vi
nce:
picny
ana?
Me:
no
▶Il
aughed,
Vincewantnudesnowhehe
Vince:
I'
llcal
lyoul
aterbef
orecl
assl
etmeat
tend
thi
smi l
kshake
Me:
okay.
..
Vi
nce:
mcwaah
Me:
wher
edi
dyoul
ear
nthi
sKant
y?
Vince:say"
mcwaah"backnomzamoandst
op
askingquest
ions
Me:
lool
Iwon'
tyou'
rewei
rdwena.
..
byeIl
ovey
ou
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oomami
Me:ify
oudon'
tcal
lmebef
orecl
assj
ustasy
ousai
d
I
'l
ldumpyou
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
cal
lyou
Me:
okay
Vi
nce:
mcwaah
▶Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
Mxm.
..
*cal
lended*
▶Af t
erIfinisheddressingup. .
..Iwentt ot hemi rr
or
tof i
xmyhai randappl yalit
tl
ebi tofmakeup. ..I
appliedal i
pgl ossandamascar a...
thephot of rame
ofmeandmypar entsalmostf ell whileIwasbusy
ont hemi rrortabl
eIshi f
tedittot het ableonmybed
side..
..Isatdownandkeptonst ar r
ingati t.
..I
couldn'ttakemyey esoffit..
.Ist ar t
edi magi ning
things...
whati fmymom washer eonSat urdayI
woul dhav ehadt hebestdayofmyl if
e..shel ooks
l
ikeagoodper son.
..hersmileal mostl ooksl i
ke
mi ne..
.dosomet hingstogether ...could'vehel pedme
choosemydr essforthepar t
y .
...Issheal i
ve? ?Ifshe
i
sdoesn' tshecar eaboutme?Becausei fshecar es
shewoul dbei nmyl if
eright?.
..Unwel comedt ears
fl
oodinmyeyes..Doesshehaveotherkidsthatare
herf
avori
te?.
..
Icoul
dn'
tstopcr
yingIletthem beand
Ij
ustsatonmybedlookingatt
hepicturejustcr
ying.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT51

▶Aknockonthedoori
nter
rupt
edme..
.Iqui
ckl
y
wipedmyt
ear
sandplacedthephot
oontopofmy
bed.
Ses'
Thoko:
Nomzamo?
?
Me:
YesSes'
Thoko.
Ses'
Thoko:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
?it
shal
fpastsi
x.
Me:
I'
m comi
ng.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
okay
.
▶Ihear dherwal kaway.
.Ist
oodupf r
om thebedgot
myschool bagandcheckedmy sel
finthemirror
befor
eIgotoutofmyr oom..Il
ookedfi
ne...
justr
ed
eyes.
..Ireappli
edmymascar aandgotoutofmy
room..walkeddownstai
rsmydadandSes' Thoko
weretalkingasusual.
..
Me:
Dad
Dad:
Mubi
▶Wehugged.
..
Ses'Thoko:
her
e'sy
ourf
oodsi
si,
you'
rer
unni
ngl
ate
todayhuh?
Me:
yeah.
.noI
'
m goodI
'
llj
usthav
ethi
s
Igrabasl
i
ceofbaconandwal
kedtothefr
idge.
.
Pouredmysel
fagl
assofwat
erdranki
tandIhearda
hoot.
Me:
byeguy
s
▶Isteppedoutsideandr
ushedt
oMal
umscar
..Got
i
nsi
deandgr eetedhim
Mal
ums:
Mshanaunj
ani
kodwa?
Me:I'
m goodMal
umsIdi
dn'
tseey
oul
eav
eon
Sat
urday.
Malums:bekumel
engigi
j
imel
eendl
ini
mshana
bekunezi
ntonj
eebekumel
esi
zenze
Me:okay
,unj
aniuAunt
'Sarahi
ssheget
ti
ngbet
ter
,
shel
ookedgoodonSaturday
Mal
ums:
hay
yiuy
alul
amakancanekancane.
▶Igotbusyonmyphonewhi leMalumswasdri
vi
ng
wegottoschool
..
.Igotof
fthecarandwentt
o
assembly
..
.Myf r
iendswer
en'tther
e.whereare
they?
?Iaskedaroundwastoldkamoi sint
hetoil
etI
wentther
e..
.gott
hereandIfoundthenandsomeof
myclassmatesbusycopyi
nghomewor ks.
..
.
Khomot
so:
joi
nthem Iknowy
oudi
dn'
twr
it
e.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
andhowwoul
dyouknowwena
Khomot
so:
Icanf
eel
it
Me:
mxm
Kamo:di
dyouwri
tet
hough?Ifyoudi
dpl
easewr
it
e
formeaswel
l,
wenayouwri
tefast
Me:Idi
dnt
..
letmewr
it
efi
rstt
henIwi
l
lwr
it
efory
ou
af
ter
Kamo:
Okay
Me:
Wher
ewer
eyouwena?
Kamo:thatwast
hefir
stt
hingKhomot
soaskedme
whenshesawme. .
Ihadadickt
ori
deleav
eme
al
one
Me:
heeeee.
..
li
fe'
sgoodne?
Khomot
so:t
oomuchsheev
enf
orgott
hatwehad
homewor
ks
▶Wel aughed.
..
.asIwaspr epar
ingtojoint
hem and
wri
temyhomewor ksmyphoner angitwasVince.
..
I
pl
acedmyschool bagonthefl
oor,itwasquiet
noi
sysoIgotinsideatoil
etandclosedthedoor.
..
Me:.
.
Vince:Mami?.
..
.I
'
m aboutt
ogotowor
k..
.butI
rememberedthatIpr
omisedy
ouaphonecall
..
.I
'
ll
callyoupr
operl
y
Af
terschool
okay
?
Me:
okay
▶Thebel
lrangf
orassembl
ytost
art
..
.
Vi
nce:
Okayenj
oyy
ourdayt
alkt
oyoul
ater
▶Iendedthecall
IwasupsetIjustwant
edtot al
kto
hi
m...
tohearhi
svoice.
..i
tkeepsmesane..
.j
ustasI
wasabouttoopenthedoormyphonev i
bratedagai
n
andsomeonebangedthedoor
"
Nomzamowel
eav
ing".
..
Ianswer
edmyphone
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay?
Me:
I'
m good
Vi
nce:
youdon'
tsoundgood.
..Whyy
ousocol
d?
▶Unwelcomedt earsfi
ll
edmyey es.
..
Iqui
ckl
yclosed
myeyesforthem todisappear
..
..Thenalump
f
ormedinmyt hroatIcouldn'
tutt
erawor d.
..
Ist
arted
t
eari
ngup..
.
Vince:
bbe?What'
swrong.
..
I'
m get
ti
ngwor
ri
ednow
tel
lmewhat'
swrong
▶Isni
ff
ed,
wipedmyt
ear
sandcl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:
I'
m okay
..
.j
ustnotf
eel
i
ngwel
l
Vi
nce:
I'
m notgonnaasky
ouagai
n..
.
Me:
I'
m wor
thl
essai
n'
tI?I
'
m notwor
thl
ovi
ng.
Vince:whywouldy
ousay.
..You'
renotwor
thl
ess
you'r
eperfectt
omeIdon'
tknowwhatIwouldbe
withoutyou
Me:thenwhydi
dshel eavemeVi
nce?
?Why
??.
..
who
doesthatt
oherdaughter
▶Iwascr
yingwhi
l
stsay
ingt
his.
..Iwasr
eal
l
ysad
thingswerenotcut
e..
..Idi
dn'tcarewhowasi nthe
toil
etandheardme..
.Ijustcontinuedt
oblur
tout
whatIwashol di
nginmyhear t.
..
sobbi
ng.
..
Vince
didn'tsayat
hingortr
iedtost opme. .
hej
ustletme
be.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
▶That"Il
ovey
ou"mel
tedmyhear
t.
..
gavemeso
muchpeacewhenmyhear
twassobroken
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
Vince:t
hat'sal
lthatmatters.
..Ilov
eyou.
..
nowwipe
thosetearsonyourbeaut i
fulfaceandgotocl
ass
...
I'
ll
fetchyouafterschool.
▶Wheredi
dIbuyt
hisper
fecthumanbei
ng?
?Iwas
nowcal
m
Me:
okay
..
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
.
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
Vi
nce:
Mcwaah
▶Il
aughed.
..
webot
hlaughedt
hent
hecal
lended.
I
putmyphonebacki nmypocket sandpr oceededto
opent hetoi
letdoor.
..i
twasempt y..
.ev
enmyschool
bagwasn' tther
emyf r
iendst ooki twit
ht hem I
guessed...
wentoutsidethet oilettherainwas
pour i
ng.
..
Weusual l
ydon' tgot oassembl ywhenev er
there'
srainsoIdidn'tbothergoi ngt othe
assembl y
...
Ihavetogot ot hef ir
stperiod..
.what'
smy
fi
rstperi
od? ?Mymi ndcoul dn'tanswerme. ..
canthis
daygetanywor sebathong...SonowIst ar
twalking
aroundlookingformycl assmat esIbumpi ntoMdu
Mduduzi
:Zamor
e..
.y
oul
ookl
ost
▶Il
azi
l
ylaughed
Me:
Iam,
hav
enoi
deawhat
'smyf
ir
stper
iod
▶Hel
aughed
Mduduzi
:youguy
sar
einMrCar
ter
scl
ass
▶Cart
er?
??Meandt
hathumandon'
tgetal
ong.
..
oh
t
hixoWam sav
emenow
Me:
Real
l
yokayt
hanks
▶Hewalkedaway.
.andImademywayt oclassgot
t
her
ethedoorwasclosedsoIknocked.
..
gotinand
wentst
rai
ghtt
oMrCar
ter
Myclassmates:
"Ubuyaphy?mshayeSir
""Mshay
e""
chaseheroutsi
r""Vi
nceeeeee""
Muhlelo"
▶Theseki
dsMaraIchuckled.
..
andall
t hi
sZulu
l
anguageMrCar
terdoesn'
tevenunderstandathi
ng
MrCar
ter
:Nomzamo
Me:
SirIwas.
..
MrCar
ter
:bef
orethi
sconver
sat
ioncont
inuescanI
seemyhomeworkpl
ease
▶Homewor k.
..? ?Ididn'teven.
..
whyi
sthi
s
happeningtome. ..Iwentt omydeskeventhoughI
knewv erywellthatIdi dn'twri
temyhomework.
..
I
star
tedsearchingf ormybook
MrCar
ter
:ify
oudi
dn'
tdoi
tyoucanexcuseusMs.
▶Finall
yfoundmybookandIst artedpagingtothe
l
astpagesl owlybutsurely
..
.Il
ookedatKamoshe
wasdeadl aughing.
...
Igottothelastpageandmy
homewor kwast here.
..Khomotsol aughed..
Itookmy
homewor ktoSirhegav eitastampandmyday
cont
inued..
.alonglongdayi twasbecauseIkepton
thinki
ngaboutmymom i nsteadoff ocusingin
class.
...Afterschool came. .
.I'm waiti
ngf orVi
nce
whosai dhewi l
lbeher ein5mi nutesbutithasbeen
20mi nsnow. ..I
'm beyondpi ssedIt ookmyphone
outandswi tcheditof fandst artedwalkingtothe
busst ation.
...
whilewal ki
ngt hereaAudi RS3
stoppedbesi deme. .
Icont i
nuedt owalk
Vi
nce:
bbe.
..
I'
m sor
ry
Me.
..
..
Vi
nce:
cany
oupl
easest
op.
..
geti
n..
.
Me:
...
.
Vi
nce:
don'
tmakemegetoutoft
hiscar
..
.Zamor
e??
Me.
..
.
▶Hepar kedhi
scarinthemiddleoft
heroadandI
cont
inuedtowalkawayfrom hi
m..
.Hefi
nall
ycaught
upandstoppedme.
Vince:l
ook.
..
themeet
ingIwasi
ntookl
ongert
hatI
thoughti
twould
Me:
andhowi
sthatmypr
obl
em?
▶Ianswer edwithsomuchat ti
tudehelaughedthe
paused..
.t
hatpissedmeof fyoumakemewai tfor
you,youarri
velateandthent
heny ouhavethenerv
e
tolaugh.
.I'
m beingtest
ed.
Me:
yout
hinki
tsf
unny
???
Vi
nce:
No.
..
it
showy
ousai
ditt
hat
'sf
unny
.
Me:
stopt
ouchi
ngme.
..
.
Vince:
I'
llkneel
downifIhaveto.
.I
'm sorr
ythatIkept
youwaiti
ngwasn'tmyintent
ion.
..
pleaseunderst
and
I
'm sorr
y..
.
Me:
..
.
▶Don' tknowi fIwassadortr
yingtobesad
becauseVi nceisal
lIwantr
ightnowandI '
m madat
hi
m. ..
didn'
tknowwhatt odosoIj ustst
oodther
e
Vi
nce:t
helastthi
ngIwanttodorightnowisto
makeyousadwheny ou'
realr
eadysad..
.Idon'
twant
want
..
.I
'
m sorryokay
Me:
okay
..
.
▶Heki
ssedmyf
orehead.
..
Vi
nce:
nowcomel
et'
sgott
othecar
Me:
Nobr
ingt
hecarher
e
▶Whatdidy
outhinkVincethatIwasgoingt
o
f
orgi
vey
outhateasi
ly
?Sor r
ysirnother
e
▶Sur
pri
sedheasked
Vi
nce:
Her
e??
Me:
Yes.
..
bri
ngi
ther
e
Vi
nce:
you'
reki
ddi
ngr
ight
?
▶Iputona"I
'
m notki
ddi
ng"f
ace.
Vi
nce:
wow.
..
drama
▶Hewalkedbackt
ohiscar
..
.goti
nsi
de,
drov
eitand
st
oppednextt
ome..
.
Vi
nce:
Nowmi
sscany
oupl
easegeti
nsi
det
hecar
Me:
andy
ouexpectmet
oopent
hedoor?
Vi
nce:Zamor
eIhav
etogetbackt
owor
kst
op
pl
ayi
ng..
.
Me:
Ngy
adl
alawuuu
▶Iopenedt
hedoorandgoti
nsi
det
hecar
..
.wedr
ove
of
f.
..
Me:
youshoul
dopendoor
sforme,
younev
erdot
hat
Vi
nce:Ngi
ndoday
omZul
uMi
naZamor
eangi
kwenzi
kel
okho
Me:
real
l
y?Mxm I
'
llf
indsomeonewhowi
l
lke
Vi
nce:
Lol
andwat
chmeki
l
lyou
▶Iinst
antl
ythoughtaboutBr
andon.
..
SoVi
ncewi
l
l
ki
l
lmei fIwer
etocheatonhim..
..
Vi
nce:
evenMal
umsdoesn'
topendoor
sfory
ou
Me:
Mal
umsmdal
aIcan'
tdi
srespecthi
mli
ket
hat
Vince:
kodwat
hat
'shi
sjobnj
e..
.i
sn'
they
our
chauff
eur
?
Me:LolheisbutIwon'
tl
ethi
m opendoor
sforme.
..
youhav
et o.
Vi
nce:
hahahame?wi
l
lseeaboutt
hat
Me:
Vince!
!!
Vi
nce:
what
??I
'
llnev
erdot
hat
▶Hel
aughed.
..
Me:
Noy
ou'
rer
ightwi
l
lwi
l
lsee
▶Ialr
eadyhadapl anonhowIwasgoi ngtomake
hi
m opendoorsforme. .
soIkeptqui
et.
..
.Hedr
ove
i
ntoMcDonaldsdri
v e-
thru
Vi
nce:
Whatar
ewehav
ingt
odayl
?theusual
?
▶Ibl
ushed.
..
Vi
nce:
andt
hen?Whyy
ousmi
l
ingIaskedaquest
ion
Me:
youLov
eme.
Vi
nce:
Ido.
..
nowwhatwoul
dyoul
i
ke?
▶Wepl acedanor derev
er yt
hingLargeIjustwanted
somet hi
ngt oheal myhear tandMcDonal d'sjust
knowswhi chbuttonstopr ess..
.Wegotoutf oodand
wedr ovetoNandosf orVince'sfoodthenwedr ov
e
tohiswor k..
.gotataparkingl othegotout..
grabbed
ourfoodatt hebackseat .
..Istil
lwasn'
tout..
..
he
openedhi sdoorandasked
Vi
nce:
andt
hen?
Me:Comeandopenthi
sdoorf
ormeorel
seI
'
m not
comi
ngoutoft
hiscar
▶Hel
aughedoutl
oud
Vi
nce:
what
'swr
ongwi
thy
out
oday
?
Me:I
'm ser
ious,beagentl
eman.
..
youshoul
dopen
door
sforme. .
.I
'
m alady
Vince:Zulumendon'tdoromanti
cgesturesabheke
eqeleneni
...
you'
l
lst
ayherefor
everthenI'
ml eav
ing.
..
Hecl osedhisdoor
.

Wil
lVinceopent
hedoorforNomzamo?Wi l
lZamor
e
getoverhermot
herandmoveonwi t
hli
fe?Fi
ndout
onthenextNomzamosdi
aryDiar
yInser
t

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamor
e
#I
NSERT52
#16SNL

▶Il etoutaner
vouslaughbecauseIwasn'tsurei
f
Vincewasgoingtoopent hedoorornot
..
.Ichecked
hi
m outont hebli
ndspothewaswal ki
ngar oundt
he
carhecamet omydoorandheopenedi t
,Igotout.
Me:
Thanky
ou.
▶Ibl
ushed
Vi
nce:
Mxm ,
thi
swast
hef
ir
standt
hel
astt
ime.
.
Me:
Noi
twast
hef
ir
stofmanyt
imes
▶Hel ockedhiscarandwewal kedtohisoff
ice.
..we
gotinsi
dehisof f
icehel ockedthedoorandwewent
tositonasofat hatwasont hecornerofhi
sof f
ice.
..
Plat
esandot herut ensi
l
swer ethere.
..
hegavememy
plat
eandwest artedeating.
..
Vi
nce:
howwasy
ourday?
Me:
itwasj
ustaday.
..
your
s?
Vi
nce:
justaday?
▶Hegav
eadoubt
ful
look
Me:I
'
m ser
ious.
..
Itdi
dn'
tst
artwel
lbutI
'
m okaynow
Vi
nce:
becausey
ou'
rewi
thmer
ight?
▶hewi
nkedatme,
Ilaughed
Me:
mxm
▶Wecont i
nuedtoeatandpept al
klikeanormal
couple..
.Butthatdidn'
tlastlongbecauseVinceandI
arenotanor mal coupl
ehewassi t
tingonthecouch
withhislegsont opofthet abl
ewhileIwaslyingon
thesofaf aci
ngupwi thmyheadonhi sl
apandhe
waspl ayi
ngwi t
hmyhai r.
Vince:y
ouknowonedaywhenI
'
m wor
kingl
atey
ou
shouldsur
pri
seme
Me:
sur
pri
sey
ou?Wi
thwhat?
Vi
nce:
youknow.
..
Me:
noIdon'
t.
..wi
thwhat
?
Vince:theki
ndofsur
pri
sethatgi
rlf
ri
endsdof
ort
hei
r
boyfri
endswhoareworki
nglate,
youknowit?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
justsayi
t..
.
Vince:okok.
..
onedaywhenI
'
m worki
nglateyou
shouldcomehereweari
ngacoatwi
thli
ngeri
e
underneat
hit
.
▶Igotupf
astandl
aughed
Me:
whaaat
!!
!?
Vi
nce:
yesI
'
dlov
ethat
▶Igotupandf
acedhi
m
Me:f
ir
stofal
lthi
sisnotamovi
e,secondofal
lstop
dr
eaminghowam Igoingt
ogetherei
nthefi
rst
pl
ace
Vi
nce:
youcanuberher
ehawu.
..
Me:
lookaty
ou.
..
arey
ouser
ious?
Vi
nce:
yess.
..
▶Thisguywasser
ioushewasn'
tev
enl
aughi
ngor
any
thi
ng
Me:wowMrZul
uanddowhatwhenIgether
elap
dancef
ory
ou?
Vince:
seenowy
ougetme,
yesandt
henwedot
he
deeds
Me:
Ican'
tev
enst
ri
par
eyououtofy
ourmi
nd.
..
▶Hel
aughed
Vince:noI'
m notbuti
maginei
tbbei
twoul
dbeso
fun,andyoucanlearnhowtost
ri
p
Me:
what
ever
..
.I'
m notdoi
ngi
t
Vi
nce:
urr
ghy
ou'
regoi
ngt
obeabor
ingwi
fe.
Me:
you.
..cany
oust
ri
p?
Vi
nce:
I'
m apr
o
Me:
showme
Vi
nce:
her
e?Someonewi
l
lwal
kinonus
Me:youl
ockedt
hatdoorsonowil
lwal
kin,
getup
showmeIpushedhi
mt ogetupandst
ri
pforme.
Vi
nce:
wil
lyoupayme?
Me:
Vincet
uu!
Vi
nce:
okay
!..
.t
her
e'snomusi
cthough
Me:
don'
twor
ry.
.
▶Itookoutmyphoneandplay
edasongf
orhi
m.I
pl
ayedComethr
ubyDr ake.
Vince:
Angi
yi
zwamos,
ngawar
iI'
l
lst
ri
psomeot
her
ti
me
▶Hesatdown
Me:Iknewit
..
.Youcan'
tstr
ipsoyouhavet
olear
n
howtoformebecauseI'
m notaboutt
hatl
if
e.
Vi
nce:
MyGod.
..
okayr
est
artt
hesong
▶Idi dasIwast oldandLol hest arteddanci ng
slowl y.
..Ilaughed. .
.Minutesintoi thecaughtt he
rhythm oft hesongandst art
edundr essing...Isatup
straightbecauseIwasbusyl aughi ng..
.Thi sper son
knewwhathewasdoi ngIevenst oppedl aughing
becausewow. .
.Hewasnowhal fnakedhewasonl y
wear inghi st r
ousers...
hisgoodl ookingchocol ate
absandmuscl eswer eexposedt omeandt hey 're
myweakness. .
.Het ookmyhandsandl etmef eel
hisabs. ..Iwasst il
lfeel
ingwei r
daboutt his..
.The
wayVi ncei sgoingi tdoesn'
tlookl ikeitishisf irst
ti
medoi ngt hi
s..
.Itoldhimtost op
Me:
Vince!
!!
▶IwasSHOCKED
Me:
whatwast
hat
?Whatt
hef
..
▶Hesatdowngr
abbedhi
sshi
rtandst
art
edwear
ing
i
t
Vi
nce:
whywer
eyoul
aughi
ng?
▶Ist
art
edl
aughi
ngagai
n
Me:
becausei
twasawkwar
d..
.I'
m st
il
l.
..
Vi
nce:
you'
venev
erbeent
oast
ri
pcl
ub?
▶Str
ipcl
ub?Sodoesthi
smeant
hathehasbeen
t
her
e..
.Vi
nceandast
ri
pclub?
?
Me:
no,
you?
Vi
nce:
yesIusedt
owor
kther
e
Me:
youmeany
ouusedt
obeast
ri
pper?
▶Henodded,didInotl
aughoncemor el
oudert
his
t
imebecauseIcan'
timagi
neVince.
..
Vi
nce:
okayIr
egr
ett
ell
i
ngy
out
his.
.
▶hegotupandwentt
ohi
sdesk,
Ifol
l
owedhi
m
Me:
sor
ryf
orl
aughi
ngbutwhydi
dyoubecomea
str
ipper?Yourf
ami
l
yisr
ich,
i
tsnotl
i
key
ouneeded
themoney
Vince:
Isecuredabursar
ythoughIdi
dn'
tneedit
..
.so
mypar ent
sdidn'
tspendmoneyonmet hatmuchI
hadeveryt
hing.
..
Me:
whydi
dyoubecomeast
ri
pperi
sthequest
ion.
Vi
nce:
I'
m goi
ngt
her
e..
.whyar
eyour
ushi
ngme
▶Hel
aughed.
.andsatonhi
schai
rIsatont
het
abl
e.
Me:
ok
Vi
nce:
Ihadj
ustst
art
eddat
ingNomal
anga
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
.andhesawt
hatIdi
d
Vi
nce:
shoul
dIcont
inue?
Me:
yeahsur
e
Vince:
wellshewashi ghmai nt
enance..ThoughIhad
pocketmoney .
..
Icoul
dn'taff
ordtotakeheroncheap
dates.
.onl
yfancydatesandphel aIcouldn'
ttakeher
toNandosorMcDonal dsIhadtoimpressher .
..
▶Didhejustsayhe.
..
..
aremyearsdecei
vi
ngme?
?I
wi
deopenedmyey esindisbel
i
ef
Vi
nce:
what?
?
Me:am Il
owmaintenance?Youdon'
twantt
o
i
mpressme?Becausey outakemetoMcDonal
d
whatdoesmeanI'
m cheap??
Vi
nce:
No.
..
don'
tmi
sint
erpr
etwhat
..
..
Me:
mxm what
ever
..
.
▶Igotofft
hetabl
eandwenttot
akemybagandgo
ngobat
hisguycl
earl
ythi
nksl
owofme.
Vi
nce:nomzamodon'
tdot
his.
..
okay
!mami
let
's
dr
opthist
opic
▶Hest
oppedmefr
om t
aki
ngmybagbygr
abbi
ng
mebymyarms.
Vi
nce:
look.
..
▶Hel aughed.
..
ishel
aughi
ng?
?Hedoesn'
ttakeme
ser
iousne.
Vince:
you'resodramat i
ctoday..
.youwanttoleave
now?Becausey outoldmet otel
lyou
something.
.whichIdidandnowt hatitupset
sy ou,
youwantt oleave?
Me:
yousai
dI'
m cheapandl
owmai
ntenancemos
Vince:
mami
yousai
dthatIdi
dn'
t.
..Let
'sdr
opt
his
okay?
▶Wi
thasof
tvoi
ce
Me:
okay
▶Someoneknockedont hedoor..Vi
ncewenttothe
doortoseewhoitwas..fi
gureditwashisPA,he
tal
kedtoheranddi
dn'tletheri
n.
Vi
nce:yes,wontat
tendi
t,cancel
all
myot her
meeti
ngs..
schedul
ethem fort
omorrow,
thankyou.
▶Hewentt
ohi
sdeskandsatonhi
schai
r.
Vince:completelyfor
gotthatIhadameeting.
..See
youcomef i
rstineveryt
hingeventot
hiscompany .
..
Mar angicasukelwe.
▶Hemadeacallaf
teri
t,Iwentt
ohi
m andsaton
t
opofhi
sdesk.
Vi
nce:
comecl
oser
▶Imov
edabi
tcl
oser
Vi
nce:
closer
Me:
noI
'
mfi
neher
e
▶Her
oll
edhi
schai
rtowar
dsmet
ofaceme.
..
Vi
nce:
vul
a
▶Hespr
eadmyl
egsapar
t
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Isn'
titfunnyhowwegirlssay"whatareyou
doi
ng"knowi ngver
ywell
whataguyi sdoingor
wherehistouchi
ngwil
ll
eadt o..
.l
ol
Vi
nce:
shhh
▶Heenteredhi
shandinsidemyskirtand
i
mmediatel
ymybloodstarti
ngrunni
ng..
.heentered
hi
shandsandusedhisthumbtosoftlyinci
rcular
moti
oncaressmycoochie.Imoaned
Me:
Vince,
stop
▶Hest oppedashewasaboutt otakehishandsout
Istoppedi tandIputhi
sdamnhandsbacki nmy
coochie..*
hides*heconti
nuedtopenetratemei nt
he
mostcomf ortabl
eway..
.t
oldmet oli
edownIdi don
topofthedeskmt akama. .
.wepushedthepapers
thatwer ebehindmestraighti
ntothefl
oor..
.he
pul
ledmeclosert
ohim andheputmyskir
tupwhi
l
e
hetookoffmyti
ghtsandmyunderwear
..
.Hecame
cl
oserandhestar
tedeati
ngmeout..
Vi
nce:
you'
resowet
..
.
▶Yesy es. .
.Iwasv ery.
..
buthemuf f
edmest i
l
laf t
er
thathegotupf r
om t hechai randst artedunt ucking
hisshirtandunzi ppinghi st rousermyl egswer estil
l
spreadwi deopen. ...
asheent eredinsi demehe
groaned. .
.andImoanedsof tl
yki ndal oud. ..hewent
i
nandoutpl easurablyhet henunbut tonmyschool T
-shir
tandexposedmybr eastt ohi m. .het ookone
outoft hebr aandst artedsucki ngithewasdoi ngall
thiswhilehewasst illi
nsideofme. .
.Idi dntknow
whatt odowi thmy selfwhi leIwasbusyenj oying
whathewasdoi nghet oldmet ogetup. ..Idid, he
gav emea2secondki sst hent urnedmear ound. .
.I
wasnowst anding. .
.myhandsbal anci ngonhi sdesk
..heent eredhismanhoodf r
om behi nd. .
.Iwasi nmy
smal lheav enitwassoogood. .
.hekeptongoi ngi n
andout ...
inandouti nt hator der
Vi
nce:
I'
m aboutt
ocum.
..
▶Hepul
ledoutasquickashecoul
dandhecame
ont
hefl
oor.
..
hethenspankedmyass.
..

▶Thedeedswer enowdone, wear epr

eparingto
comeoutsowecangohomekodwamyj ust-
fucked
hai
risamess. .
.Andthere'
snocombi nthisoffi
ce..
.
Myschool shi
rti
swr i
nkl
ed...Iwastheonlyone
str
essing.
..Vi
ncewaschi l
l
ed. .
.Whatwi
llhis
col
leaguessay??.
.hi
sPA? ??
Vince:t
hesepeopl
edon'tknowyou,t
heydon'tadd
anyv al
ueint
oyourl
if
e..
whattheysayshoul
dn't
mat t
er.
.
Me:youdon'tunder
standVi
nce,
thenextt
imeI
comeherethey'r
egoingtol
ookatmesnaaks
▶Vi
ncel
aughed
Vi
nce:
okayshouldwewaitforev
ery
onet
ogohome?
I
ts18:
07nowy ourdadwi
l
l behomesoon
Me:
letmegof
ir
stt
heny
ouwi
l
lfol
l
owme.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
papi
I'
m ser
ious.
..You'
rej
ustgoi
ngt
omake
t
hingswor
sei
fwegooutt
oget
herl
ooki
ngl
i
ket
his.
..
Vince:
okaygo..
.orl
etmeaskPhi
ndyi
fshehasa
combI '
m sur
eshehasit
..
Me:
Okayaskher
..
.
▶Vi ncecal ledPhi ndyhi sPA. ..
askedherf oracomb
andshecamewi thitupst air
s. .
damnI '
m sureshe
alreadyknowswhyweneedi t..
.Icombedmyhai r
andatl eastIl ookeddecentny ana...
.VinceandI
rushedt ot heel avatorbecauset hi
ngswer en'tcute
shem. .
.thesexwasf unbutnowIr egrethavingi t
becauseIl ooksounor ganized. .
..wewer e
appr oachi ngt heel evatoragr oupof6/ 7peopl ewer e
alsoappr oachi ngt heel evatortheywer efrom t he
meet ingt hatVi ncemi ssed. .
..Asi fthingscoul dn'
t
getanywor se..
.theygr eetedVi ncehegr eetedback
hewasunbot heredy oucoul dseei tnjeinhis
face..hewasev enaski ngt hem howwast hemeet ing
andwhatnot ...
.

DoesVi
nceseeNomzamoaslowmaintenance?Wil
l
If
indmydadhomeandgeti
ntot
roubl
e ?Fi ndout
ont
henexti
nser
tofNomzamosdi
ary

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT54

▶Lucki
l
yitwasoneoft
hoseMTNmessages.
Dad:howdoyoufeel
lov
ingsomeonewhodoesn'
t
car
eaboutyou?
▶Conf
usedasf
uck,
Il
ookedathi
m..
.
Me:
Huh?
Dad:
Huh?Thiswomandoesn'
tcar
eabouty ou
Nomzamoandwe'v
etal
kedaboutt
his.
..
ifshe.
..
Me:
thi
swomani
smymom dadMYMOM .
..
Me:ifshewantedyoutobeinherli
fedon'
tyouthi
nk
shewouldhavecomeandgety oubynow?She
knowswhereIwork..
.knowswhereIusedtoli
ve.
..
Me: Idon'
tknowwhathappenedbet weeny outwo
becausey oudon'twanttotalkaboutit
..
.f
orall
I
knowy ouhavet oldhernottocontactyouever
again..
andwhyar ewet al
kingaboutthi
s..
wealway s
fi
ghtwhenwet alkaboutthisdad??Idon'
tli
keit.
Dad:
becauseshe'
sawal
l
paperi
nyourphone,
you
haveapictur
eofheri
ny ourr
oom...Idon'
tli
ketalki
ng
aboutthi
seit
heri
thurt
smeseei ngy ouyearnf
orher
l
oveliket
hat,
shedoesn'
tcaregetthatthr
oughy our
head.
Me:
what
everdad.
..
Dad:
shedoesn'tevenknowy ou..
.wher
eyouschool
?
Whatyoul
ike?Yourf av
our
itecolor.
.Buty
oucareso
muchaboutherli
keshelovesy ou.
..
Me:howdoy ouknowthatshedoesn'
tlov
eme?
Wholovesme?You?Gr ace?IsGracemymom No
andstopshovi
ngherdownmyt hroat
!Because
she'
snotmymom andshewon' tbe!
▶Wehadj ustar r
ivedhomeatt hispointwewer e
parkedrightout si
det hegarageIgotoutandbanged
thedoorandwenti nsidethehouse. .
..
mydadandmy
negativ
et hought sconstantl
yr emindingmet hatmy
mom doesn' tr eal
lylovemebecausei fshedi dshe
wouldhav er eachedoutandi thasbeen18y ear
s
shestil
lhasn' thurtmeal otbutmay bei t
s
true.
..
may beshedoesn' tcareaboutme. .
.Igotinmy
room andl ockedt hedoorandr ushedt osleeponmy
bedsot hatIcancr ymyey esout ...
.Istartedcr yi
ngI
couldn'tst opt het ear stheyj ustf lowed. ..Iwas
getti
ngt i
redoft hi ssi tuationi twashur t
ingme. .
.a
l
ot .
..
fir
sti twasmy18t hbi rthday ...t
hennowshe' s
gonnami ssmymat ricdance. ..sheknowsI '
m 18
ri
ght?Imeanshebi rthedme. .
I'm sur esheknows
myage. ..
I'
m 18. ..
anddoi nggr ade12Ineedhert he
mostnowI '
mt urni ngi ntoay oungwomanherbei ng
herewi thmet ogui demet hroughl ifewoul dmean
thewor ldt ome. .
.It hinkIsl eptwhi l
ecr yingbecause
whenIwokeupi twasdar kout side..Igotupcl osed
mywi ndows. .
.AndIwentoutofmyr oom wal ked
downst airsmydadwasn' thome. .Guesshewent
alonet oGr aceshouse. .
Iwasn' tgonnagoany way
afterthear gumentwehad. ..Iforgotmyphonei nthe
carsomydadputi tont opoft heki tchencount er
that'
swher eIgoti t...Itooki tandwentt ot helounge
Iwasn' thungr y.
.Icoul dn'tfeel any t
hi ngbutIf elta
sharppai nofhur tinmyhear t...Myhear twasheav y
withhur t.
..forthef irstt i
mei nmyent irelifeIneeded
mymot hersl ove...
myDadgav emeev erythingI
want edandmor e..butt herewassomet hingmi ssing
i
nmyl i
fe..mymom. ...
whoobv i
ousl ydoesn' tgivea
fuckaboutmeIt hinkt hat'
swhathur tmet he
most .
..
Iturnedont heTVandl ayont hecouch. ..
I
startedbr owsi ngthr oughmyphone. .
.nothing
i
nt eresti
ngoni t..
Iwat chedamov ieandsl eptagai n
dur i
ngt hemov ie..
.Iwokeupmi dni ghtar ound3am I
swi t
chedof ftheTVandIwentupst air
scheckedmy
phoneVi ncecal led...Icall
edhim backhedi dn'tpick
up...
(yesbecausei ts3am bi tchwhocal l
sar ound
thatt i
me)Ichangedi ntoPJswhi chausel esst hi
ng
todobecauseIdon' tknowwhatsl eepI '
m goi ngto
sleepnowI 'ver anoutofsl eep..
.whi l
eIwasbusy
get t
ingintomyPJsaphonecal lcamet hroughI
knewi twasVi ncesoIpi ckeditupi mmedi ately.
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
,ar
eyoumadatme?
Me:
No?Whywoul
dyouoft
hinkt
hat
?
Vi
nce:
Ohhy
ouhav
eamnesi
a?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
No.
..
Vince:
Bbeyoufor
gotaboutmet
hewhol
eday
..
Ilast
spoketoyouThur
sday..
.
Me:Idi
dn'
tfor
getabouty
ou,
Iact
ual
l
yhadal
ong
day
Vi
nce:
Longday
?
Me:
Yeah.
..
.(
Itol
dhi
m aboutmyday
)
Vi
nce:
soy
ou'
renotgoi
ngt
opr
om r
ight
?
Me:
whatdoy
oumean"
ri
ght
?"
Vince:
thoughty
ouhad"
bigpl
ans"f
ormeont
hat
day.
Me:Isti
l
ldobbe,
wecanpost
ponet
hem f
or
Sat
urday
Vi
nce:
soI
'
m notgonnaseey
ou?Onmybi
rt
hday?
Wow
Me:
stopi
t.
..
I'
m goi
ngt
oseey
ouobv
iousl
y.
Vi
nce:
when?
▶Iwasgett
ingannoy
edbyhi
sstupi
dquest
ions.
..
so
Idr
oppedt
hecall
..
hecal
l
edback
Me:sor
ryIdon'
tknowwhathappened.
..
mustbet
he
net
work
Vince:i
sitokaynow?Youdon'
tsoundsogood
yoursel
f,y
ougood?
▶HatehowVi ncecantel
l wheneverI'
m notokay
thr
oughmyact i
onsormyv oi
ce..
.easi
lysowhileme
ontheotherhandIcan'
ttelli
fhe'
shappy ,
annoyed
orsadunlesshetel
lsme.ItssohardtoreadVince.
SoI'
m gonnaignorehi
s"yougood? "Questi
on
Me:
noIr
eal
l
ycan'
theary
ou.
..
whyar
eyouawake?
Vi
nce:worki
nglate.
..
Iwannaf ocusony
outodaythe
whol
eday...
bef
orethefi
nal examscomeup,you
won'
thavetimeformet hen.
▶Isn'
thet hesweetest
..worki
ngallni
ghtjustsohe
cannotgot oworkthefoll
owingdayjusttobewi t
h
meinstead..
.I'
m def
ini
tel
ymar r
yingVinceguys.
Me:
Ncoooh,
Ilov
eyou
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyoumor
emami
.
▶Wecont inuedtotalkunti
l6am..
.hehadt o
conti
nuedraft
ingstuff,Ibr
owsedt hr
oughmyphone
becauseIhadnothingtodoaf t
erourcallsoaf
teran
hourofbei
ngonI nstagr
am Igotoffit,
Ihadzero
sleepsoIj ustsl eptt herethinking...ani deapopped
upi nmyheadsoIgotupandIheadedt ot hest udy
room. ..
gott her eItookoutanempt ybookononeof
theshel v esandIst ar t
edwr i
ti
ng. .
.that 'swhenI
startedwr i
tingletterst omymom f irstpagewas
wr i
tteni nal argef ont"Let terst omymom". .
.ever y
ti
meIf eltlikeImi ssher ,needherorwant edt ot ell
hersomet hingIwoul dwr iteont hisbook. ..Ikepti t
safesonoonecanr eadi t.
..Itstayedundermy
under wear si noneofmydr awer s...aft erwr iti
ngt hat
fi
rstl etterIwasi nt ear sagain...Ev enwhenIwasst il
l
wr i
tingIwi llstopandcr ybecausei tj usthur tmet hat
much. ..Ar ound7am Icoul dheart hatmydadwasup
soIgotupandwentbackt omyr oom hi dt hebook
andwentt ot akeabat h.
..
afterbat hingIwal kedt o
myr oom t ookoutabl ackt i
ghtdr esswhi chwasaLi l
bitshor tandademi nj acketIwor esandal s, worea
goldneckl aceandputonhoopear rings. .
.Ihada
straightuponsoIj ustbr ushedi tint hef ront ..Took
mysl ingbagputmyphone, l
ipgl ossandt wi nsav ers
i
ni tmademybedandcal l
edVi ncehedi dn'tpi ck
up..Ical ledhi mt hesecondt imehepi ckedup. .
ina
deepj ustwokeupv oice
Vi
nce:
Mami
?
Me:
I'
m comi
ng,
arey
ouawake?
Vi
nce:
huh?
?comi
ng?
?..
.It
s7:
54Zamor
e
Me:
Iknow.
Vi
nce:
you'
resupposedt
ocomear
ound2pm t
hough
Me:Iknowy ou'
ret
ir
edyoucanj
ustsl
eep.
..
I'
l
lwat
ch
you.
.unti
lyouwakeuporIcanwat
chTV..
.
Vi
nce:
don'
tyouhav
eTVaty
ourhouse?
?
Me:
Vince!
!?
?..
..
Vi
nce:
okayy
oucancome.
..
Me:Iwasn'
taski
ngforper
missi
on.
..Ij
ustwant
ed
youtoopenthedoorf
orme.
▶Hel aughed...
*cal
lended*thatwasn'
taj oke
thoughwhyi shelaughi
ng..
Ilookedmyselfinthe
mirroronel astti
meandIgotoutofmy
room...walkeddownstai
rsdadwasmaki ng
breakfast
Dad:
you'
reupear
ly.
..
Me:
..
..
▶IwasonmyphonesoIl
ockedi
tandputi
tinmy
bag.
..
Dad:
Goi
ngsomewher
e??
Me:
..
..
.
▶Iwalkedt
othekeyhol
der,gr
abbedmykeysand
wasaboutt
oopenthedoorandwalkoutwhenmy
dadsai
d.
Dad:
sti
l
lsadabouty
est
erday
?
Me:
Sad?
?Yout
hinkI
'
m mer
elysad?
?DadI
'
m hur
t.
..
▶Myt
ear
snev
erdi
sappoi
ntt
heyst
art
edf
lowi
ng.
.
Me:yougrewupi
nalovingfami
ly.
..
youexper
ienced
bot
hy ourmomsanddadslovey
oudon'tknowhow
I
'mfeeli
ng.
Dad:
isn'
tmyl
oveenough?
?
Me: stopi
tdadst op!!St
opgui l
ttri
ppi
ngmeabout
yourlove.
..
iti
senough. .
Iappreciat
eitdadIjustwant
toknowmom. ..
pleasetell
meabouther ..
.al
lyouev er
sayisshedoesn'tcar enothi
ngmor eornothingless
di
dshet
ell
yout
hat
??
Dad:
I'
m nothav
ingt
hisar
gumentwi
thy
oumubi
.
..

▶Ileftthedooropenedandwal kedoutangr i
ly.
..
AndIwascr yi
ng...
Idon'twantVi ncet oseemel ike
thi
s..
.soIcalmedmy selfdownf irstthenIopened
thegateandwentout .
..myphonest ar
tedr i
ngingI
tookitouttoseewhoi twas. .
.i
twasmydadI
rej
ectedt hecall
..
GotatVi nce'sIknocked. ..
no
answerIkeptonknocki ngandmyphonekepton
ri
ngingitwasj usttoomuch. ..Iabsentmi ndedly
openedt hedoorandi topened. .
Igoti nsideandwent
toVince'
sr oom..i
twassoqui et. .
.gotthereandI
knocked.
Vi
nce:
comei
n
Me:
hey
..
.
Vi
nce:
Hey
,youal
ri
ght
?
Me:
No,
nini
ngi
kokoda
Vi
nce:
nowt
hat
'sy
ourf
aul
tnotmi
ne
▶Lol
thi
sguy
.
Me:
howt
fist
hatmyf
aul
t??
?
Vince:
Icall
edy ou4times..
.wast
ryi
ngt
otel
lyout
o
comei nbecauseit
'sopened.
Me:
wel
lIt
houghti
twassomeoneel
se
Vi
nce:
someoneel
se?Who?
Me:
someoneel
se.
..
Vi
nce:
heeewenacomeher
e
▶Wehugged.
..
Vi
nce:soar
eyouser
iouslygoi
ngt
owat
chme?
Ngi
lel
e?Zamor
ethat
'screepy
Me:
noi
tsnot.
..
it
scut
e
Vi
nce:cut
e?Ever
ythi
ngiscut
etoyou,
theot
herdayI
br
oughtyoul
unchatschooly
ousaidi
twascut
e.
Me:
Itwas.
▶Hel
aughed.
..
Vince:youwer egoi
ngtobehungryIhadtodo
somet hi
ngaboutit.
..
howtfi
sthatcutet
hat'
smy
responsibi
l
ityasyourboy
fri
end.
Me:
blabl
abl
a..
.i
twasr
omant
ict
ome.
Vince:
you'r
enotnormal
..
.babycanIpleasesl
eep?
For2mi nsI'
l
lwakeupngo10/ 9I'
m sosleepy
Me:
youcansl
eepVi
nce
Vi
nce:
thanky
ou,
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
bef
orey
ousl
eep.
..
I'
m hungr
y
Vi
nce:
takemycar
dandor
deri
n..
askf
ordel
i
ver
y
Me:
okay
▶Iwenttohi
sthi
ngsandt
ookhi
scar
dandpr
epar
ed
t
oorderf
oodforus.
Me:
youwantsomet
hing?
Vince:nomami,or
deranyt
hingyouwantI
'
llj
usteat
youifIdon'
tl
ikewhatyoubought.
▶Il aughed.heturnedhi sbackandsl ept.
..
5minsi
n
hewasal r
eadysnor i
ng..
.Whydoguy sfal
lasl
eepso
quickly
? ?why?how?I tl
it
erall
ytakesmeanhourt o
sleep..
.anywayIor dered2l ar
gepizzasVince'
s
favori
teandMyf av ori
te.
..Withi
nanhourmypi zza
arr
ivedIf
etchedi
tandwentdownst
air
smadecof
fee
andwatchedTV...
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT55

▶Vincewokeup3hour slat
erIwasverybor
edby
nowandMuzi wasn'
tinthehousesoitwasjust
bori
ng.
..
hecamedownst air
sinhi
sboxersonly.
..
I
don'
tknowwhenwi l
lIgetoverVi
nce'
sbodyitsjust
toomuchforme..
.
Me:youshoul
dlear
ntocov
ert
hatupwhati
fMuz
i'
s
gi
rl
fr
iendswer
ehere?
Vi
nce:
cov
erwhatup?
▶Hesatnextt
ome.
Me:
all
thi
s.
▶It
ouchedhi
smuscl
esandpacks.
..
Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
Stop.
Me:
I'
m ser
ious.
.
Vi
nce:
wher
e'smyf
oodbabeI
'
m hungr
y
Me:
yourf
ood?Goandpr
epar
eit
Vi
nce:
Am Il
ovedher
e??Ij
ustwokeupandIhav
eto
makemy
sel
ffood.
Me:
you'
resol
oved,
youhav
enoi
dea.
Vince:
mxm..
.andwhyar
ewewat
chi
ngRegul
ar
showeksenso?
▶Hest oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen.
.Ij
ustneed
Vincebymysideal
ldayt
oday
..
soIfoll
owedhimto
thekit
chen.
Me:
becauseIl
i
ket
hem
Vi
nce: y
ouwat chint
oey1ever
yday.
.t
hoset
woget
i
ntotroubleandtheyal
waysgetr
escuedbythat
whit
ebuf fguy.
Me:
Ski
ps?
Vi
nce:
whatki
ndofanamei
sthat"
ski
ps"
Me:
that
'sbecausehedoesn'
twal
k
Vi
nce:
heski
ps?
▶Hel
ookedatmef
unny
.
Me:
yeah
Vi
ncel
aughedsohar
d..
.Het
henopenedt
hef
ri
dge.
Me:
yourf
oodi
sint
hemi
crowav
e.
▶Heopenedi tandfoundthefoodIpreparedfor
hi
m becauseIknowVi nce,
hewouldn'thaveate
pi
zzainthemorningithadtobesomet hi
ngsolid.
.so
anhouragoImadehi m eggs,
bacon,cheesetoast
ed
br
ead.
Vi
nce:
youmadet
hisf
orme?
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
Me:
yes.
Vi
nce:
thi
slooksy
ummyhowdi
dyouy
oudoi
t?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:bat
hongVi
nceIjustputcheese,
baconandeggs
i
nsi
dethatwhi
tebr
eadandt oastedi
t.
▶Hel aughed.Hemadecof f
eet henweheadedback
tothelounge.Ichangedthechannel hest ar
t ed
eati
ngandwej usttal
ked..
.hi
sphoner ang...
itwason
topofthetableandhi sbackwasl ai
di nthesof aso
heaskedmet opassi tsi
ncei twascl osetome. .
.I
tookitandabsentmi ndedlylookedatt hescr eento
seewhowascal li
nghim soear l
y .
..
Iimmedi at el
y
couldfeel
myst omachget
ti
ngfunny,Istar
ted
shakingIr
emov edmysel
ffr
om him..
andgav ehi
m
hi
sphone...hel
ookedati
tandgrabbedmyhandI
angri
lypul
ledmyhandawayf r
om him andstoodup.
Me:
real
l
y??
Vi
nce:
don'
tdot
his
▶Hestoodupandl
efthi
sphoneont
hecouch
r
ingi
ng.
..
Me:
ok,
Iwon'
t.
▶It ookmyshoesandwentt oVince'
sroom toget
mybagandgett hefuckoutofherebecauseclear
ly
I
'm aBhari
.Gotther
eIworemyshoesandt ookmy
bagandwentdownst ai
rsfoundthedoorlocked
..
.shit
.
Me:
I'
m notpl
ayi
ngwi
thy
ouVi
nceopent
hisdoor
.
Vince:whydoyoualwaysgetworkedoutev
eryti
me
wef i
ght.
..
youchoosetheeasi
estwaypossi
ble.
.y
ou
run.
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
?
▶Iwasscr
eami
ngatt
hispoi
ntbecauseIwasso
angry
..
notevenhur
tbutIfel
tmyheartdr
optomy
stomachIcansaythatIwashur
tandangry
.
Vi
nce:
Don'
tshoutatme
Me:don'
tshoutaty
ou?Whydoyoual
wayshav
eto
t
ell
mewhatt odoandwhatnott
odo??
Vi
nce:
whendi
dIev
erdot
hat
?
Me:knowwhatfucky
ouVi
nceIdon'
twannat
alkt
o
youri
ghtnow.
Vi
nce:
doy
ouev
enknowwhyshewascal
l
ing?
?
Me:
Idon'
tcar
eokayIdon'
tcar
e!
Vince:
thi
sist
helastt
imeI
'
mtel
l
ingy
out
his.St
op
shouti
ngatme.
▶Hel ookedsoser
iousbutIwasn'
tafraidofhim so
I
'l
lscr
eam asmuchasIwantt o.ButIdidn'
t,
Ikept
qui
et.
Vi
nce:
comesi
ther
e,l
et'
stal
k.
Me:
Idon'
twannat
alkIwantt
oleav
eVi
nce.
Vince:Ij
ustwanttot
ell
youwhyNomalangai
s
call
ingmet heny
oucanleav
eaft
erwar
ds.
Me:I'
m noti
nter
ested..
.SocanIl
eav
e?ordoIhave
tocal
lmydadt ocomeandf et
chmebecauseyou
don'
twantmet oleave??
▶LmaowhatdadNomzamo?t heonewhoy oujust
arguedwi thhoursago.Veryfunny .Vi
ncest oodup
andgav emet hekeysandthenwentt ohi sroom.I
openedt hedoorandl ef
t.
..Idon'twanttol i
eIwas
hurtthathejustletmeleavelikethatanddi dn'tsay
awor d..
.Mysoul i
salr
eadytroubledandnowt hi
s
..
..Nomal angajustcan'
tseem toleaveVi nce'sli
fe
andVi ncelet'
sherineverydamnt ime...
ishest il
li
n
l
ov ewi t
hher?
▶AsIwaswal ki
ngdownt hest reettheset hought s
fl
oodedmymi nd. .
.Ij
ustcouldn'tcrynomor e..Iwas
hurt.
..
deeplyhurt.Iopenedt hegat eandwenti nside
thehousef oundmydadwal kingout. ..Hesai d
somet hi
ngIdon'tknowwhathesai di justwasn' tup
forhisdramasoIj ustpassedhi m andwentst raight
tomyr oom.What '
shappeni ngtome. .outofal lthe
emot i
onsIcanf eel..
Ifeelhurt
,sad,disappoi nted,
brokenandandand. ..
.Iwasgoi ngt hrought hemost
l
ifef
icall
yitwasn'tfunny..
..Isetapr ofilepictur eofa
quote"SORRYI FIWASN' TWHATYOUWANTED,
BUTYOUDI DNTNEEDTOGI VEFALSEHOPE"I nmy
hearti
treall
yf el
tli
keIwasn'tgoodenoughf orVince
l
ikeNomal angashei saccomplished,beaut
iful
,
confi
dentdidIsaybeaut i
fulandshehasbr ains.No
wonderVincecan' tl
etgoofherandIdon' tblame
him.PhelaMi naI'
mj ustaschoolgirl
.Atext
messagef rom What sApppoppedinIopenedi t.I
t
wasKhomot so
Khomot
so:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yes.
Khomot
so:
NomzamoAr
eyouokay
?
Me:
No
Khomot
so:
what
'swr
ong?
Me:
Vince
Khomot
so:
arey
oucr
yingr
ightnow?
Me:
No,
I'
m sohur
tIcan'
tev
encr
y..
.
Khomot
so:
I'
m comi
ng.
Me:
no,
youdon'
thav
eto.
▶Shebl
uet
ickedme.
Nat
ashaal
sot
ext
edme.
Nat
asha:
Lmaoy
ourd.
p
Me:
don'
tev
engot
her
e
Nat
asha:
Mjol
o?
Me:
yes
Nat
asha: sor
ry.
▶Thisgir
lwhyi
sshelaughi
ngatme.Il
aughedtoo.
Fort
hefir
stt
imesi
ncemyheartbrokemomentsago
I
'mlaughi
ng.
Me:
You'
redumb
Natasha:
letmetakey
ououtf
orsomei
cecr
eam
you'
llf
eelbet
ter
.
Me:
real
l
y?
Nat
asha:
onl
yify
ou'
reupf
ori
t.
Me:
I'
ll
lety
ouknow.
Nat
asha:
okayl
ove.
▶Ijustgoti
redofl
yingonmybedsoIgotupand
wentdownstai
rsgr
abbedPri
ngl
esandwenttothe
l
oungeandwat
chedamov i
e"Thenotebook"It
hink
anhouri
ntoi
tthegat
ebuzzedIwenttothegat
e
syst
em.
Me:
whoi
sit?
Khomot
so:
whoi
sit
?
▶She'shereforrealwow,why?..
IlaughedandI
buzzedherinIwenttothedoorandwai t
edforher
ther
e..
.shewalkedincar
ryi
ngabottleofwineanda
dair
ymi l
kchocolat
e.
Khomot
so:
Heybaby
,ar
eyouokay
?
▶Shegav
emet
hewar
mesthug.
..
Me:
I'
ll
bef
inenowt
haty
ou'
reher
e..
.Ist
hatf
orme?
Khomot
so:
nyi
sny
aatf
orme.
.ofcour
sei
tsy
our
s
take
▶Shegav ethem t
ome,Igrabbedt
wowineglasses
thenwewalkedtothel
oungeandtal
kedItol
dher
every
thi
ngfr
om mydad, mymom, Vi
nce..
.
Khomot so:
you'l
lgetthr
oughitdon'
twor r
y..
.Il
ove
youandy ousti
llhaveme..
.don'
tsaythatyou'r
e
alone.
..
wear ehereandwel ov
eyou.Yourdadl ov
es
youandtherei
sar easonwhyhedoesn'ttellyou
aboutyourmom ..
.you'r
eol
dnowI'm surey ouknow
ther
e'smoretothi
st hanwhaty
ourdadist ell
i
ngy ou.
Me:Iknowkhomobuthowam Igoi
ngtogetto
knowmorewhenmydaddoesn'twannat
alk.
..
Khomot so: j
ustl
etthi
ngsbe, what'
smeantt obewill
happen...
ifyourpathwithyourmom hav etocross
thentheywi l
lnothi
ngcanst opthatnotevenyour
dad..
.nowj ustbegladthatyou'
renotont hestr
eet,
youhav epeoplewhol oveyoujustthankthatbonga
i
mpi l
ouzobar i
ght.
Me: Iguessy
ou'r
eri
ght
..
..
youknowt herightt
hings
tosayt omeIhatet
hat
,butI
'm def
init
elydumping
Vince.
Khomot
so:
you'
vedeci
dedal
ready?
Me:
yes.
Khomot
so:
youl
ovehi
m nomzamo
Me:Iknow,
Ilovehi
m, kodwaI'mtir
edoffi
ghti
ng
Vi
nceandIhardl
yfight..
.t
heonlyti
mewef i
ghtis
whenNomalangaisinvol
ved.
.ever
ytime.
..
andIlove
hi
m somuchIcan'
ti
magi
nemyl
i
fewi
thouthi
m..
▶Ist
art
edcr
ying.
Khomot so:
shhhcomeonnow.Thi
nkt
hist
hrough
givehi
m achancetot
alkmay
behehasareasonabl
e
reason
▶Ist
oodup
Me:fuckthatKhomo,ItoldVi
ncethatIdon'
twant
Nomalangainourli
ves..
andwhatdoeshedo. .
.l
ets
heri
nourlivesAGAIN..
fuckhi
m andhermaar nahy
I
'mti
red
Khomo:
manj
eukhal
elani
.
Me:
becauseIl
ovehi
m somuchi
thur
ts.
▶Il
aughed.
..
Khomo:
nowy
ou'
rel
aughi
ng?
Me:
becauseI
'
m dr
unkokay
..
.I
'
m dr
unkandhur
t.
Khomo:whatasadgi
rl
..
.shoul
dIpoury
ouanot
her
gl
ass?
Me:
yespl
ease
▶Shepour
edmeanot
hergl
assofwi
ne.
Me:
Ilov
eyousomuch,
Ineededt
his.
Khomot
so:
andIl
ovey
out
oo.
..
passmet
hatr
emot
e
ke
Me:
no.
..
Itooki
tandsatonanot
hersof
a.
Khomot
so:
mxm y
ou'
reannoy
ing
▶AWhat sApptextcamethr
ough..
.Iwi
sheditwas
Vi
ncebutitwasn'
thimitwasNatashaaski
ngmei f
I
'm st
il
lonfort
haticecr
eam wetal
kedabout.
Me:yeah,
I'
m comi
ngl
et'
smeetnowI
'
m comi
ngwi
th
Khomotsobtw
Nat
asha:i
tsokay.
.I
'
m al
readyatt
hemal
lsoI
'
m
wai
ti
ngforyou.
▶Itol
dkhomotsoandweexit
edt
hehouseandgot
i
nsi
deouruber
.Wegotatthemal
landcal
led
Nat
asha.
Natasha:
I'm st
il
latt
hesal
ony
a'l
lcancomeher
e
andwaitforme
Me:
babygi
rlar
ewey
ourPopey
e'sy
ousai
dyou'
re
al
readywai
ti
ngf
orusnowy
ou'
reatt
hesal
on?
?
Nat
asha:
Zamor
ejustcome.
..
bye.
*cal
lended*
▶Thi swhitegi
rlistest
ingme..
KhomotsoandI
l
aughedandwal kedtothesal
on..
.Wewerev ery
ti
psy,webot hhadshadesont ohidet
hatwewer e
drunk..
.andwewer ealsobusywindowshopping
becausewewer en'tinahurr
y..
..
Khomot
so:
omgt
hat
'sVi
nce!
▶Ial
lofsuddenbecamener
vous.
Me:
wher
e??
Khomot
so:
let
'sgo
▶Shedr
aggedmet
owal
kfast
..
Me:
go?Wher
eishe?
?
▶Ist
oppedusf
rom wal
ki
ng.
..
Me:ar
eyouser
ious?Bit
chdon'
tpl
ayl
i
ket
hatI
al
mosthadanheartat
tack
Khomot
so:
may
bei
tsnothi
m..
.t
heyl
ookal
i
ke.
Me:
butshowme.
..
Khomot
so:
ther
e..
.
▶sheshowedmeIhadt otakemysungl assesoff
becauseIcoul
dn'tseeifitwasreallyhim ornot.
..
I
i
mmedi at
elyregrettedcomi ngt
ot hemal l
,wewer e
closetot
hesalonbutbef oreyougett othesalon
therewasarestaurantther
eandt hat'
swher eVince
was.
Me:
Khomot
soi
tshi
m
Khomot
so:
thenwhoi
shewi
th,
don'
ttel
lmet
hat
'
s..
..
Me:
itsher
.
▶Att hi
spoi ntIcouldn'
tbelievewhatmyey eswer e
seeing.
..
.Ifel
tanunusual feeli
ng...
.Iwasangr yyet
scaredandsohur tIwantedt ocrybutdidn'twantto
cryIwant edtoscream...
nev erthoughtI
'dseet hi
s
day..
.Vi
ncecheat i
ngonmewi thhisex..
clearl
yI'm
drunkdreami ng.
..
Khomot
so:
let
'sgo.
Me:
no.
..
let
'sgeti
nsi
det
hisr
est
aur
ant
.
Khomot
so:
Zamor
enot
hat
'snotagoodi
dea.
Me:
howcanVi
ncedot
hist
ome.
..
.I
'
m goi
ngt
oask
hi
m..
Iwon'tf
ightt
hem andIj
ustwantt
oknow
what
'sgoi
ngonbet weent
hem..
.
▶It r
iedwalkingi
nthatrest
aur
antbutKhomotso
draggedmeandpul ledmeaside..
.t
othesal
onwe
l
iter
allystar
tedfi
ght
ing.
..
Iwantedtogoinsi
deand
shedidn'twantmeto...
Me:
leav
emeal
one!
!Khomot
so!Leav
eme
Khomot
so:
No.
..Youar
en'
tgoi
ngt
her
e
▶Nat ashawal
kedoutoft
hesal
on.
..
.andf
oundus
f
ight
ing..
.
Natasha:
what'
swrongwi
thy
ouguy
s??peopl
ear
e
st
arri
ngatya'
l
l.
..
▶WeshowedherVince.
.andi
ttook2sent
ences
fr
om Natashaf
ormetobecal
m andhavesome
sense.
Nat
asha:
youdeserv
et oknowwhat
'sgoi
ngon,and
becal
mthey
'l
lthr
owy ououtify
out
hrowtant
rums.
▶Weal lwal
kedint
hatrest
aur
ant..
.Myfriendssatat
sometablet
olookoutwhil
eIwalkedt
ot hem
al
one.
..
Nomalanganoti
cedmefrom adistanceand
tol
dVinceI'
m notsur
ebuttheywerebot hlooki
ngat
mewal ki
ngtowardst
hem...
Iwasshitt
ingmypant s
scaredandhurt
..
.Idi
dn'
tknowwhatIwasgoi ngto
saywhenIgettothem.Ifi
nall
ygotthere.Shocked
AFtoseemeVi nceasked.
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

I
sVi ncereal
lycheat
ingonNomzamo, IsNomalanga
Vince'
sSoulmate?Ist hi
stheendofZamonce?Find
outont henexti
nsertofNomzamosDi ar
y

#Nomzamosdi
ary
#I
NSERT56

▶Ii
gnoredhisquest
ion,
secondsl
aterhest
oodup
f
rom t
heirt
able.
Vi
nce:
Pleaseexcuseus.
Nomal
anga:
sur
e.
▶Vincetookmyhandandwal
kedwi
thmet
othe
cor
ri
dorneart
hetoi
let
s..
.
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
▶Hel
etgoofmyhand.
Me:
whatam Idoi
ngher
e?
▶Myey
eswer
efi
l
ledwi
tht
ear
satt
hispoi
nt.
Me:howcanyouaskmet hat?
..
.whatareyoudoi
ng
her
ewithheri
swhatIshouldbeaskingyou.
Vince:Idon'
twantt
otot
hisnomzamo,especi
all
y
here.
..Canyougohomenowwewi l
ltal
kwhenIget
back?
Me:
arey
ouaski
ngmet
oleav
eyouher
ewi
thher?
?
▶Iwasquar
tert
osl
appi
ngt
heshi
toutofVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
yes,
butI
..
..
Me:
Vince.
..
whyareyoudoi
ngt hi
stome? ?I
sthi
s
r
eal
l
yhappening?Coul
dn'
tyouatleasthavethebal
l
s
t
odumpmer at
hert
hancheat
ingonme? ?
▶Myt ear
swerefl
owinguncontr
ollabl
ynow.Iwas
broken.IwassobrokentoanextentthatIspokeso
softl
yinahurtt
one.Icoul
dn'
tfi
ghtorbel oud.
Vi
nce:
wipey
ourt
ear
sandcomewi
thme.
Me:
Tel
lme.
..
Coul
..
▶Vincet
ookhishandsandwipedmytears.
.t
ook
myhandsagainanddr
aggedmet owhereev
eryone
was.
..
.Nomalangawassti
l
lther
e.
Vince:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dreschedul
e.MyPAwi
l
lcal
l
you.
Nomal
anga:
butwewer
ejust
..
.
▶Shesi
ghed.
Nomal
anga:
nowwhatmustIdowi
th.
..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
deal
wit
hit
.Justcal
lmyPA,
sor
rybutI
hav
etogo.
▶Vi ncet ookhisj acketoffthechairgrabbedmy
hand..Idon'tknowwhyhekeepsondr aggingmeby
myhandl ikeI
'm al ilchi
ldongalalel
i.Weexi t
edt he
restaurantandIl eftmyf ri
endst her
e..
.Lol.Wegott o
Vince'scarheopenedt hedoorf orme..yes.
..
Vince
openedt hedoory our eadthatri
ghtandhewenton
tositont hedri
v ersseat .
..
wedr oveoffitwast he
l
ongestdr i
veeverbecausei twassilent,nomusi c
nothing..
.andIsur ewasn' tgonnaspeakt ohim eit
her
.
Wegotathi shouse, gotoffthecarandwegot
i
nsidet hehouse.
Vi
nce:
youcanwai
tformei
nmyr
oom.
▶Iwentupst airstohisroom, whyam Isti
llli
stening
tothisguy..
.hewaswi thhisex. ..
nownow...AndI 'm
angryathim. .
Ialsosaidf uckhi m afewhour sago
whatam Idoi ngher e..
.I'
m busywal kingupt hest ai
rs
whilehavi
ngt heset hought s..
.Igott
ohisroom and
satonhisbed. ..I'
mt hi
nkingaboutwhatar ewe
goingtotalkaboutwhenheget shere..
whatwi l
l he
say??Willhel i
et ome? ?I shegoi ngtotel
lmet hat
helovesusbot h..
.andwhyt fi
shenotcomi ngupI '
ve
beensi
tt
ingher
eformi
nut
es.
..

▶IguessIendedupsl eepingbecausewhenIwoke
upitwasdar koutsi
de..Isatupstrai
ght..
.Checked
thetimeitwas18:58.DidIpassout? ?Iwasn'
tthat
drunk..
.Igotofft
hebed. .
.Where'sVince??Igotout
ofhisroom andwentt ocheckhim downst ai
rshe
wasn'tther
e..
.What'
sgoi ngonher e.
..Iwasaboutto
callhi
m whenIheardacarpar kont hedr i
veway.I
waitedforhimtogetinsidebutMuzi wast hefi
rstt
o
walkin..
.
Muzi
:hey
..
.l
ongt
ime.
▶Wehugged.Ismi
l
ed
Me:
Iknow.
..
Muzi:
youwereabouttowal
kout
?Whatwer
eyou
doi
ngherev
elerobbi
ngus??
Me:hahay
eah...
ya'
lldon'
thav
eany
thi
ngwhatwasI
goi
ngtost
ealhere.
.
Muzi
:wedon'
thav
eany
thi
ngt
ost
eal
..
..
you'
re
ki
ddi
ngri
ght
..
.
Me:yeahI'
m kiddi
ngI'
ddief
oryourwatch
col
l
ection.
..It
houghtt
hatwasVincecomingi
n..
.
Muzi
:yeahhe'
scomi
ng.
..
he'
sout
sidegr
abbi
ngsome
pl
ast
ics.
.
Me:
okay
.
▶Muzi wentupst
airs.
..Vi
ncewal
kedincarr
ying
Woolwort
hsplast
ics..
.pl
acedt
hem ontheki
tchen
count
er.
..
..
Vi
nce:
thoughtIwon'
tfi
ndy
ouher
e
Me:
andwhyi
sthat
?
Vi
nce:becauseyoupassedout.
..
wer
eyoudr
inki
ng?
Orsmokingyourweedagain?
Me:
Idi
dn'
tpassout
.
Vi
nce:
wel
lIf
oundy
ouasl
eep.
Me:
becausey
out
ookhour
stocomeup.
▶Hel
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh.
Vince:Ij
ustpouredmysel
faglassofwat
erdrankit
andwentupst ai
rswhenIgott
hereyouwerealr
eady
asleep.
Me:
wel
lIwasn'
tdr
unknorhi
gh.
Vi
nce:
ify
ousayso.
.
▶Irol
l
edmyey es.Hestar
tedpacki
ngt
hemi
ni
gr
ocer
iest
hathim andMuzibought
.
Me:
coul
dn'
tyouwakemeup?
?
Vi
nce:
No.
Me:
sowher
edi
dyougot
o?Youwentbackt
oher?
Vi
nce:
yes.
Me:
yes?
?
Vince:Yesnomzamo, Iwentbackt
ohertof
inal
i
ze
everyt
hingbecauseIdon'
twanttokeeponmeeti
ng
heragainandagain.
Me:
whyar
eyouev
enmeet
ingupwi
thher
?
Vi
nce:
because.
..
▶hesi
ghed.
Vi
nce:
come.
▶Wewenttositonthecouch.
..Hemademesit
down.Het
ookbothofmyhandsandkissedt
hem..
.
Vince:mami.
..
Iwasn'
tevengonnabotheryouabout
thi
s..
.Iwasn'
tevengonnasayshi
taboutthist
oy ou
becauseIknowhowy oufeel
abouther.
Me:
youknowhowbu.
..
Vince:
Shhhl etmefi
nish.
..Iknowhowyouf
eel
abouther.
.andwhat'
sgoingonbetweenmeandher
i
tsnothingbutbusi
ness
▶Business?di
dhej ustsaybusi
ness..
what
busi
ness.
..
hepr obabl
ythinksI
'm hi
sfool
.Ipul
l
edmy
handsawayf r
om him.
Me:
don'
tl
iet
ome
Vince: I'
m not .
.pleasedon' tgetangrylisten..
.
Nomal angaappar ent
lystartedabusiness. .Soshe
want edf undingmymom r ef er
redhertome.She
call
edIr eferr
edhert omyPA. .t
hat'
showwe
communi catethr oughmyPAIpr omisey ou...She
j
usti nsistsonspeaki ngdi rectl
ytomebecausewe
arenotst rangers..soIignor ehercall
s..i
twasj ust
unfortunat ethaty ouhadt oseehercal li
ngmet hi
s
mor ning...mami Ipromisey ouIwasn'tev engonna
answerhercal l..BecauseIdon' t.
.Youcancheckmy
phone.
..
▶Hetooki
toutandgav
eitt
ome.
..Ipl
acedi
tont
he
t
abl
e.
Me:i
fy oudon'
twanthert
obecal
l
ingy
ou.
..
why
don'
tyoublockher?
Vince:youhavet
obeli
eveme..
IloveyouNomzamo,
thelastthi
ngIwantt
odoistohurtyou.
..I
'
m sor
ryI
'
ll
blockher.
Me:
...
.Andwhathappenedt
odayI
sAl
soBusi
ness?
Vi
nce:
whaty
ousawt
oday.
..
▶Hest
uckmi
dsent
ence.
..Iwi
deopenedmyey
es.
..
Me:
can'
ttal
k??
Vi
nce:
itwasbusi
ness.
.
Me:
doIl
ookl
i
keaf
ool
toy
ou?
Vi
nce:
Trustme.
..
Me:noVince..Youcan'tsaythatwhatIsawt oday
wasbusiness..
.Therewasnopaperi nsi
ght.
.Not
evenonepaper...
whatkindofabusinessisthat??
Therewasy ou,herandtwoglasses.
.Andhowcan
yousaythati
tsbusi
nesswhenyouandIwer
e
supposetobetoget
herthewhol
eday?
?Areyou
backwithher?
Vi
nce:
No.
.
Me:
then?
?
Vi
nce:
..
..
Me:
can'
ttal
k?Okayf
ine.
..
▶It
ri
edst
andi
ngupbuthest
oppedme.
Vince:Iwasn'
tgonnahaveameet i
ngwit
hhert
oday
obviousl
ybutIthoughtsi
nceyou'
remadatmeI
shoulddobusinessasusualsoIsetupameet
ing
withher.
▶IknowVi
nceandr
ightnowhe'
sly
ingt
ome.
Me:
you'
rel
yi
ng.
..
stopt
his.
..Youst
il
ll
oveherr
ight
?
Vince:
NoIdon'
t..
okayfi
neZamowhathappened
wasIwentther
etograblunchandIsawhert
hen
sheaskedmetojoinher
.
Me:
grablunch?Ibought2l
argepi
zza'
stodayand
t
her
e'sf
oodi nsi
deofyourf
ri
dgeandyouwentto
grablunch???mi r
aculousl
ysawherandsheasked
youjoinher...andy oudid?YouknowhowIf eel
aboutherVi ncey ouknow. .
.youknowwhatj ustenj
oy
yourli
fewithNomal angabecauseI'
m done..
.Every
ti
me. .
.everyf uckent i
mewef i
ghti
tjusthastobe
her.
..
I'
mt ir
ed.
Vince:Iknowy oudon'tbeli
eveme.Butpl easet r
ust
me.I '
m sorrythatI'
mt hereasonwhywe' real ways
fi
ghting..
.Ialsowantheroutofourl i
vesbutshe
alwaysf i
ndsawayt ogetback.Il ovey ou..
.Ichose
you..
.I'
m gonnamar ryyou...
Ithinkthat'
swhat
mat t
ersmost .
.YOU.
..I'
llj
ustgiveherthemoneyshe
needsf orherbusinessandbr eakcont actwi thher.
Besidesthat'stheonlyreasonwe' reincont act.
Me:
...
▶Somethi
ngj
usttol
dmetograbVi
nce'
sphone.
..I
t
ooki
tandtol
dhimtoopeni
t.Hehesi
tat
edtodoso.
Vi
nce:
howwi
l
lmeopeni
ngi
thel
pus.
Me:
Ijustwantt
oseesomet
hing.
▶AsmuchIloveVi
nce.
..
Iknewhewasl yi
ng.
.Ij
ust
knew.
.hi
swor
dsweren'
tgenui
ne.
..Iknowheloves
mebutnowIdoubti
t.
..
Nomalangahassomeimpact
onVi
nceit
sevenhar
dforhi
mt ohidei
t.Heopened
hi
sphoneandgavei
ttome.
Iwentthr
oughhi
scall
log..
.Theyt
alked2ti
mes
todayand1ti
mebeforethat
.IwenttoWhatsApp.
..
Vincesawandqui
ckl
ytookhisphoneawayf r
om me.
Me:
real
l
y??
Vince:
ther
e'snot
hingt
her
eandIdon'
twantust
o
fi
ghtoveraphone.
Me:pl
easedelet
emynumber sandf
orgetaboutme
Vi
nceI'
m done.You'
rehur
ti
ngme.Iwishyouwell
wi
thher.
Vince:Zamor
elookI
'
m sor
ry.
.pr
omi
seI
'
llcutherof
f
forgoodnow.
Me:
youexpectmet
obel
i
eveu?

Vi
nce:t
akemyphoneanddowhatev ery
ouwant
wi
thit
..
.Ican'
tl
osey
ou.
..
Ilov
eyou.
..
takeit
.
▶Hegavemebackhisphone.
..
Iwantedt
oseewhat
hewashi
dingf
rom me.
.Andapartofmeknewthat
whatIwasgoi ngt ofindwi l
lbr eakmebutIst ill
openedhi sWhat sApp.Theyst artedt alking
yesterday .
..Itallstartedwel lshet oldhi m abouther
newbusi ness, shet hankedVi ncef orunbl ocki nghi m
onWhat sApp. ..Askedaboutme. ..
Vi ncet oldher
we'rest i
l
l toget her.
..meetingwasonMonday .
.not
today..
...
Thent odayanewconv er sat i
onst artedt his
mor ni
ngNomal angaaski ngVi ncewhyi shei gnor i
ng
hercalls..Vincet oldhert heyshoul dj ustst i
ckt o
businessandt hatI(nomzamo)don' twantt hem t o
beincont act.Andt hatIsawt hatshecal ledVi nceI
wasnowupset .
..
Nomal angaof feredVi nceGi nj ust
toapol ogizef ormaki ngmesad. .Vi ncef irstsai dno
thenNomal angasai dtheywi l
l justmeetasf r
iends
that'
swhenVi nceagr eedtomeetNomal angaatt hat
rest
aur antIsawt hem in..Nomal angasentl ocat i
on
thenv i
ncesai d" meety out here"t hatwast heendof
thei
rconv ersation...
Igav evincehi sphoneback.
Me:idontwantyoutoexpl
ainshittome.Idintwant
youtostopmef r
om l
eavi
ng..
.idontwanty outocal
l
me..
.idontwantyoui
nmyl i
fenomor e.
.i
tsbestt
hat
youandIjustt
akeabreakorjustbreakup.Shehas
someimpactonyouthatIdon'
tknow..
.y
oualways
giv
ein.
.al
ways.
..I
thurt
sme. .
Idontf
eelenoughf
or
you.
Vi
nce:ar
eyouleav
ingme.I
'm bei
nghonestwi
thy
ou
whenIsayIl
oveyouandnother.
Me:
pleaseVi
ncei
'
mreal
l
yti
redofhear
ingt
hat
..
..
▶Ist
oodupandl ef
t.
..
gothome..
.andwentt
obed
i
mmediat
elyat11pm i
shJaytext
edme.
Jay
:chur
cht
omor
row?
Me:
ahmmmm.
Jay:
please.
..
youknowIcan'
tst
andy
ourpar
ent
s
al
oney ouhavetobet
here.
Me:
conv
inceme.
Jason: Godwi
l
lbl
essu
Me: t
hatwor
kedseey
out
omor
row.
Jay
:lov
eyouy
ou'
ret
hebest
.
▶Iplacedmyphoneont heothersi
deofthebedand
fel
lasl
eep..
.Sundaymor
ningIwokeup,bathed,
aft
er
bathi
ngIlot
ioned,di
dmyhair
...
gotdr
essedIworea
l
ongr eddressandblackheel
s,putonar edli
psti
ck
putonamascar aandsomeey eli
nerandwor ehoop
earri
ngs..
.wentdownstai
rsmadecornf l
akesand
waitedformydadt ocomedownst ai
rs.9:30he
camedownst air
sfoundmebusyonmyphonehe
didn'
tevengreetme..
.It
sdefi
nit
elygonnabeal ong
day..
.
Dad:
wher
edi
dyousl
eepl
astni
ght
?
Me:
Icamebackat11
Dad:
try
ingt
ogetpr
egnantagai
n?
▶Ichocked...
whatthef.
..
myhear tdroppedt omy
stomachthatquesti
onjustbroughtbackwhat
happenedinthater
a,I'
veblockedallt
hoset houghts
andfeel
ings..
.Inev
erWantt otalkaboutitoreven
thi
nkaboutitandmydadt ojustshootthatquestion
j
ustli
kethathurtme.
Me:
..
..
Dad:Zamoifyouthi
nkyou'
reol
denoughtosl
eep
outyoucangetoutofmyhouse,goandst
aywit
h
yourVi
nceandnevercomebackhere.
▶Wej ustsatthereandat einsil
ent.
..
at9:45am we
wentt
ochur chgott her
ef oundGraceandJason
wai
ti
ngf orusoutsidechur ch.
..
wegreetedthem and
t
henweal lwentinside.
..Churchstart
ed.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT57

▶Thr eeday si ntoanewweek. ..i

t'spast7pm andI '
m
homej ustf i
nisheddoi ngmyhomewor kIwal kedto
myr oom f r
om t hestudyroom, gott hereIpl
acedmy
booksont opofmybedandwentout ..
.Walked
downst air
stookout2mi nut
esnoodl esand
preparedthem, thenIfri
ed2Vienna' s...
wentt othe
fri
dgeandpour edmy sel
faglassofor angejuiceand
Isatont opoft hekit
chencount erwhi l
eIwai tedfor
myf oodt ober eady.
..It
ookoutmyphoneand
repl
iedt owhat sappmessages. ..Facebookpost sand
whatnot ..
.
Khomot
so:
Sohehasn'
tcal
l
ednort
ext
edy
ou?
Me: y
oumeansi nceSat
urdaynight
?Nope..
.heonl
y
sentatextonSundayaf
ternoonsayi
ng"I
'
m sorry"
Kamo:
Menar
etr
ash.
..
Me:ament
othatbutIr
eal
l
ydon'
twannat
alkabout
t
hisguy
s..
.
Kamo:
itsokay
..
we'
veal
lbeent
hrought
hat
..
.
Me:Thr
oughwhatwena? youal
waysbreak
ot
herpeopl
eshear
tsnott
heot
herwayar
ound.
Khomotso: kamomenar
etr
ashbuty
ou'
re
worse.
Kamo:
mxm.
▶Myf oodwasr eadywit
hin20mi nut
es..Icutt
he
Vienna'sinsmallpi
eces,putt
hem inabowl wit
hmy
noodlesandt henIaddedmay onnai
se.Mydad
walkedi n.
Dad:
Aft
ernoon.
Me:
Aft
ernoon,
andy
ou'
rel
ate.
Dad:
hadt
hingst
odo.
Me:Owkay.
..
Ses'Thokoprepar
edchi
ckenst
ewI
don'
twanti
t..
it
si ntheov
en
Dad:
Owkay
..
.I'
l
leatj
ustnowl
etmegochange.
.
Me:
Owkay
..
.
▶Hewentupst ai
rsandIwentt
othelounge.
..
.got
ther
eswitchedontheTVandwatchedRegul
arshow.
Dadwalkeddownstair
sfr
om hi
sroom,wentt
ot he
ki
tchenmi
crowav
edhi
sfoodt
henj
oinedme.
..
Dad:
Regul
arshowmubi
?Youwat
cht
hisev
ery
day
Me:
Ilov
eitkodwa.
Dad:
ahycha.
..
giv
emet
her
emot
e.
Me:
itsaboutt
oendI
'
llgi
vey
out
her
emot
enownow.
Dad:
whenar
eyoust
art
ingwi
thy
ourexams?
Me:
onThe3r
dofNov
ember
.
Dad:
Arey
our
eady
?
Me:
readyasev
er.
..
Ithi
nkI
'
llj
ustf
low.
.
Dad:nowt
hat
'swhatIwantt
ohear
..
.makemepr
oud
ok?
Me:
yesdadIwi
l
l.
..
her
etake.
▶Ihandedhi
mt heremoteandIwentt
oplacemy
di
shesi
nthesink.
..Thenwentbackt
othelounge
Dad:
Mubi
how'
sFr
ans?
▶If
rownedbecauset
hat
'sawei
rdquest
ion
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..
whatdoy
oumean?
Dad: i
shestil
lthesamenothi
nghaschanged?
ThingisSarah'
scancerhasworsenedbuthekeeps
astrongface.Iknowitbr
eakshimtoseeherlike
that.
..
Ieventri
edconvi
nci
nghimt otakepai
dleave
buther ef
used.
Me:It
houghtmaybeIwasexagger at
ingwhenIwent
f
ormeasurementsshewasreall
yskinny.
..Butshe
wassti
l
lthesameoldAunt'
Sarah.
..Malumsi ssti
l
l
t
heSAMEnot hi
nghaschanged.
Dad:
Ireal
l
ydon'
tknowhowt
osuppor
tthem.
Me:you'
repayi
ngforherChemot herapydadthats
ever
ythi
ngandmuchmor e.
.theyappr eci
ate
you.
don'
tstr
essyoursel
f.AndIt hinkthereasonwhy
Malumsdoesn'
twannat akethisleav ei
tsbecause
maybeit'
shel
pshim copewithev erythi
ng.
Dad:whendi
dyoubecomet
hiscl
ever.
..
huhTD
Jakes?
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:DadIreal
l
ywant edy
out
ocomet
omydr
ess
f
it
ti
ngthi
sSaturday
▶Ihonestlywholehear
tedl
ywi
shedhecoul
d
come..
sinceIdonthavemymom Iwanttowal
kthi
s
Prom r
oadwi t
hhim.
Dad:
I'
m sor
ryPri
ncessi
tsnotthefi
nalf
it
ti
ngr
ight
?I
pr
omisetobether
efory
ourfinalf
it
ti
ng.
▶I
nasadt
one
Me:
Okay
.
Dad:don'
tworr
y..
.t
hisi
stheonl
ythi
ngI
'
m goi
ngt
o
miss.
..
okay.
Me:
okay
..
.
Dad:
hav
etowakeupear
ly.
..
goodni
ght
Me:
goodni
ght
.
▶Hest
oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen.
.meshout
ing
Me:
Daddy
!!
Dad:
what
??
Me:
Cany
oupl
easebuymedat
a?
Dad:
what
??
▶Ist
oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen.
Me:
cany
oupl
easebuymesomedat
a.
Dad:
Iboughty
oudat
aMonday
..
.2GB
Me:
itsf
ini
shed.
..Ir
eal
l
yneedi
t.
Dad:
forpr
om orschool
wor
k??
▶Hestoppeddoi
ngwhathewasdoi
ngandl
ooked
atme.
Me:
school
wor
k
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
okaybot
h..
.school
wor
kandpr
om
Dad:
Idon'
thav
emoney
.
Me:
dadpl
ease.
Dad:
I'
m ser
iousIdon'
thav
emoney
.
▶Mydadhasneverusedt
hist
erm,
heal
way
shas
moneyALWAYS.
Me:
Daaad.
.Youal
way
shav
emoney
Dad:
Alway
s?Wel
ltodaybabygi
rlIdon'
thav
eit
..
▶Helef
tmestandi
ngandwentupst
air
s..
.Whi
l
eon
hi
swaytohi
sroom heshout
ed.
Dad:
you'
l
lgett
hem endof
f.
▶Whaaat ??
?? ?Isheser i
ousri
ghtnow...
mydad
playstoomuch. .
.I
'm sousedtogetti
ngev eryt
hing
wellnotev erythingbutsimplethi
ngsf r
om Mydad
withoutahassl e..
.NowIhav etowaitunti
l endoff
...
wowj ustwow. .
.Il
aughedatmy sel
fandwentt o
thelounge. .
.Andpost edaFacebookstatus."Just
askedf ordat aandmydadl egi
ttoldmet owai tunti
l
Endof f.
..endof fguys "
Myfacebookfr
iendscomment
edl
aughi
ngat
me.
..
Kamoal socommented
Kamo:y
ou'
renotdat
ingmossowhatar
eyougoi
ng
todowi
thdat
a??
Irepli
ed"Ineeditwenahl
any
aIgott
hingst
odoI
can'twai
tunti
lEndoff"
▶Iwat chedonelastepisodeofRegul arshowbefor
e
goingtobed.
..Whi l
ewatchingmyphoner ecei
vedan
SMSIknewi twasanSMSbecausemySMSeshav e
aspecifi
cri
ngtone..
.Ii
gnoreditIknewi twasMTN
becausewhost i
llsendsSMSes. ..Fi
nishedthe
epi
sodecheckedt imeitwas22: 05Iwentt omy
room gottherewentt otakeabat h..
.Undr essed,
bathedandf inishedthenIwal kedbackt omyr oom..I
l
otionedaftert hatIputonmyPj s.
..Myphoner angI
i
mmedi atelyrecogni zedthenumber s...Whatdoes
hewantandwhyi shecalli
ngme. ..Myst omach
turnedcol
d...Wei rdfeeli
ng..
.Ianswer editanddi dn'
t
sayanythi
ngf orgood5secondst henhet alked.
Vi
nce:
Asi
mpl
ethanky
ouwoul
dn'
thur
t.
▶Thankyou??I
sthisguydrunk?
?Thankyouf
or
what
??Thankyouforbreaki
ngmyheart.
..
Me:
Thanky
ou?For?
Vi
nce:
For?Youdi
dn'
tget.
..
.Isenty
oudat
a
▶Conf
usedAsf
uckIasked
Me:
dat
a?
Vi
nce:
yes.
▶IputVi nceonl oudspeakerandIcheckedtheSMS
thatcamet hroughearli
eritwasn'
tMTNi twasa
messaget ell
ingmet hatI'
verecei
ved5GBdat af
rom
072..
..
.(Vince'sNumber).
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsee.
..Thanks,
butwhy
?Idi
dn'
tasky
out
o
Vince:Why ?BecauseIcar
eandIreadinoneofy our
comment sthaty
ouneededitsoIthoughtIshoul
d
help.
..
sinceIcould.
Me:
Thanks.
Vi
nce:
itscool
howhav
eyoub.
..
.
Me:
Mxm.*
cal
ldr
opped*
▶I'm notinthemoodf orVinceandwhydoeshe
careukuthynginj
ani
..
.whydi dn'
thecall
fewdaysago
aft
erbreakingmyheart?...
andhet hi
nksthatsmal
l
5GBDat awi l
lmakeusf r
iendsmxm. .
.
Hecalled2t i
mesandIdi dn'tanswer ..Ifi
nished
doingmyni ghtroutine..
.ThenIwentt o
Google,Pinterest,
Instagram andTumbl rsearching
prom relatedt hi
ngs..hair
st y
les,makeup, accessories
EVERYTHI NGIf ellasleepdur ingmysear ch..
.Iwas
soaddi ctedtosear chingpr om t hings..
..I
thelpedme
getalotoft hingsof fmymi nd. .
.i
thelpedmef orget
aboutVi nceandot herthings...Iwokeupat5am had
topackext r
at hi
ngst odayIhav eNetballpracti
ce.I
packedmygeart henshower edandgotdr essed
...
fi
xedmyhai randf acet henIwentdownst air
s.
Foundmydadr
eadi
nganewspaper
.
Me:dadyouknowthaty
oucanf
indev
ery
thi
ngt
hat
i
sinther
e..
..
here
▶Tappi
nghi
sMacbook
Dad:
Iknowi
tsj
ustnotef
fect
ivet
omeasi
tisher
e
▶Tappingt
henewspaper
..
..Ishookmyheadand
l
aughed.
Me:
Mor
ningSes'
Thoko
Ses'
Thoko:Mor
ningsi
si.
..Her
e'sy
ouraf
terschool
l
unchbox.
..
Me:
thanky
ou.
.
▶Iputi
tinmybag.
..
Me:
I'
dli
keacer
eal
today
..
.not
hingser
ious
▶Sur
pri
sed
Ses'
Thoko:
hawu!
Dad: at
hyshewantsherDresst
ofi
therwel
l
..butI
foundhereati
ngNoodleswithMay
onnai
seand
Vienna'
syest
erday
.
Me:
dad!Besi
desIonl
yeatt
hatonceaweeknow.
..
▶Ses'ThokoandmyDadl aughed.
..
.hat
ers..
.I
'
m
real
l
ywatchingwhatIeatnow. .
.IwanttoshowALL
myASSet s.
..Justwanttolookgoodandf eel
confi
dent
...
eatingfat
tyst
uffandsweetswon'thel
p
me.ButIcan'thelpitUKUDLAkumnandi..
..Oh
malumsisher e..
.

▶ Thelastper
iodbeforebr
eakhasj
ustended.
..My
squadandIareprepari
ngtogotoourt
ree
Me: SoyeahbutI
'
m notsur
eifthat
'showyoudoit.
.I
tr
iedlooki
ngatot
herst
udyguidesitt
ell
sadi
ff
erent
stor
ybutsameanswer.
Kamo:
YanoIhat
eaccount
ing.
Nat
asha:
let
'sgoguy
sI'
m hungr
y.
Khomot
so:
yhomet
oobbes.
Kamo:
Hungr
y??Whathappenedt
oeat
ingaf
ter1pm.
Me:
bayeke..
.I
'
m noteat
ingany
thi
ngMi
naj
ustgoi
ng
t
ohaveafrui
t.
Kamo:
yesgi
rl
.
Candice:yout
wodon' tevenhavepart
ner
sforprom..
.
Butyou'r
esoseriousabouthavingbangi
ngbody's
who'sgoingtoholdyouguy sonyourwai
stthat
you'
retryi
ngtoachieve?.
..
Khomotso:YoooooCandice!
!!▶Whaaaat
??!
!That
hur
tCandicedidn'
thavetodousli
kethat
..YessesI
washurt.
..Wealll
aughed.
Candi
ce:
thatwasdedi
cat
edtoyout
wobuti
thur
t
mebecauseI'
minthesameboat
.
▶Wecont i
nuedt ol augh.
..Cantbeli
evethatonl
y
Khomot soandNat ashahav eProm part
nersint
he
squad..
.wewentout sideandwal kedtoourtr
ee
..
.whil
ewal kingthrought hecorri
dorNathan
Natasha'sbrother.Camebehi ndusandt appedme
ontheshoul der.Istoppedwalkingandturnedto
l
ookathi m...
thisisstrange.
Me:
Hey
Nat
han:
sor
ryt
odi
stur
byou.
.butdoy
ouhav
eti
me?
Me:
yeahsur
e..
.
Nathan:Iknowthismaysoundweirdbutcany
ou
pl
easebemypr om date?Iwasn'
tgonnaasky
ou
becauseI'
mr eal
lyafr
aid.
..
▶Bat
hongt
hisMl
ungu.
..
afr
aidofme.
.Ncooh
Nat
han:Ionl
ygai
nedconf
idencewhenIl
ostt
hebed
myfri
endsandImade.
▶Ifrowned..
.Bet
??So.
..
.t
hismeanst
hathe'
snot
bei
nggenuine..
.
Me:Abet??Soi
fitwasn'
tfort
hebety
ouwasn'
t
gonnaaskme
Nathan:t
hatcameoutt hewrongway .
.Iwasgoing
t
oI'm notdoi
ngthisbecauseIlostabet.
.Seenow
I
'm mumblingbecausey our
eall
ymakemener vous.
▶Nat hanhasdarkgreeney
es..
.It
shardnott
olook
atthem andhekeepsonsquint
ingyoucanal
sosee
thathewasneyvas.
Me:
I'
ll
bey
ourpar
tner
▶I
nDi
sbel
i
ef.
Nat
han:
youwi
l
l??
?
Me:Ihavecondi
ti
onst
hough..
.butIcan'
ttel
lyou
nowIreal
lyhavet
ousethetoi
let.
Nat
han:
itsokayIcanwai
tfory
out
her
e..
.
▶If
rowned.
Nat
han:
whatam Isay
ing.
..
sor
ry.
▶Il
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh.
.f
eel
i
ngsor
ryf
orhi
m
Nat
han:
ImeantIcanwai
tfory
ouunt
ily
ougetback
t
ome.
Me:
wecant
alkaf
teraf
terpr
act
ice?
Nat
han:
per
fect
..
.Seey
out
hen
Me:
sur
e..
.
▶Iwal kedaway .
..well
Ididn'
texpectt hat.
.And
Natasha...whydi dn'
tshet el
lmeaboutt hi
s..
.Nathan
hasdar khair..He'scutereal
lycute..
.Those
charminggr eeney es..
.pl
usHepl aysrugbysoy a'
l
l
canimagi nehi sbodyhe'sjusttheperfectpartnerfor
prom het i
cksal lofmyboxes. .
..
Ifinal
lyhavea
part
nery esy esyes...
.
#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT58

▶Iwenttothetoi
letf
ir
stbef
oregoi
ngt
omy
f
ri
ends.
..Gotoutandwentst
rai
ghtt
oourt
ree.
Me:
You!
!
▶Poi
nti
ngatNat
asha.
Nat
asha:
what
??
▶Shel
aughed.
Me:
Soy
ouknew?
Nat
asha:
knewwhat
??Whati
sshet
alki
ngabout
??
▶Aski
ngt
heot
her
s.
Me:
Nat
hanaskedmet
obehi
spr
om par
tner
.
▶Nat
ashasur
pri
sed,
choki
ngonherf
ant
agr
ape.
Nat
asha:
Nat
handi
dwhat
??
Me:
youdi
dn'
tknow?
Kamo:Nat
hanishotIwouldn'
tmind.
..
butIdon't
bel
i
eveyouZamore..
.hehardl
ytal
kst
oanygi r
ls.
.so
whyyou?uSpeci
alnganiwenawithy
ourbighead.
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Me:Idon'
tknowwhathesawbutI
'
m exci
tedabout
t
his.
.
Natasha:Oohthisexpl
ainswhyheaskedmewho'
s
yourprom par
tnerandIsaidIdi
dn'
tknow.
He'
s
sneaky.
Kamo:Ineedt
ogetapar
tnerASAP.
..
Candi
cebemy
par
tner
?
Candice:gi
rlno..
.nev
er..
you'
rewear
ingaBluedr
ess
forcryi
ngoutloudmi nesOrangesothecombos
won'tcommuni cate.
Us:
ORanGe?
???
?
Me:
gir
lyoubet
terbeki
ddi
ng.
Nat
asha:y
outookt
hingsseri
ouswhent
heysai
d
t
hat"Or
angei
sthenewblack"
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Candi
ce:i
tsnotor
ange.
..
it
skinda
or
ange..
browni
sh.
..
it
saweirdcol
or.
Khomot
so:
butbeaut
if
ul?
Candi
ce:
yesv
erybeaut
if
ul
Khomot
so:
Atl
east
.

▶Br eakendedwewentbackt oclass.

..
.Lastperi
od
beforeafterschool
wewer ecall
edt ot
hehallAllt
he
Grade12s. .
.ther
ewerechair
ssowegott hereand
sataroundIwaswi thmysquadi nthemi ddl
eofthe
hallwithothercl
assmates..
theprinci
palcal
ledus
i
ntoor der.
..
Pr
inci
pal
:Af
ter
noonLear
ner
s.
Gr
ade12s:
Aft
ernoonSi
r.
Principal:
Asy oumayal lknowont he30t hiti
sy our
Mat ri
cdance, wewillallbecelebrat i
ngi ttogether.
WhenIsayal lImeanal l ofus.Ther e'
sagr oupof
l
ear nerswhost art
eddonat i
onsfort hel ess
pri
v i
legedsot hattheycanal soexper i
encePr om.I
hav edecidedthatwewi llal
sobedoi ngaf und
rai
singt hiscomingSat urday.Allt
hegr ade12swi l
l
bei ncharge.Somewi llsell
forexampl ef ood,t-
shir
ts
any t
hingenv i
ronment alfri
endly(wel aughed)t o
otherl ear
nersandv isi
tors.Ournetbal l
,rugby ,
and
soccert eamswi l
lbepl ayingfr
iendl ygameswi th
othert eams.Forent ert
ainmentwewi l
lhaveatalent
show i ntheev eningsoIneedy ouguy stobehands
onhel pwher ey oucan. ..
Youwi l
l getpamphl et
sthat
willexplai
nev erythi
ngt oyou.Andwhi chwillt
ellyou
whichcl assininchar geofwhaty ourRCLswi llf
il
l
youi n.Thanky ouf ory ourti
mei fy ouhav eany
quest i
onsy oucanr aiseyourhandnowandask.
▶Theyaskedquest i
ons,theygav eadv icesand
regi
steredallt
helearner
st hatwant edt ogotoProm
butcouldn'
t..
.wegooutat13: 26Afterschoolal
ready
myot herfr
iendsl
eftbutCandi ceandIwentt othe
l
ockerroom wegott hereandwegr eetedtheother
team member swhower eal readythere.
Mi
nenhl
e:HeyZee
Me:
Njani
boobah
▶Isatnextt
oher
.
Minenhl
e:I'
m okayj
ustt
ir
ed,
pleasedon'
tbehar
don
ustoday.
Cy
nthi
a:Ipr
aysot
oo.
.I
'
m sol
azyt
odayshem
Me:
Y'al
lar
eal
way
slazy
..
▶Ist art
edundr essing..
..
weal ldid..
before2pm Itold
theteam togot othecour t.theywent ,therugby
boyswer ealreadyi nt hefield..
.Theyst arted
whistli
ngassoonast heysawusappr oaching..
and
becauset here'sbadbi t
chesi nmyt eam, somegirls
start
edt werkingandshi t.
..
Ilaughed. ..
wegott othe
courtandwest art
edpr acticing. .
..At16:34Itol
dt he
girl
stowr apupbecauseIwasr eall
ytir
ed.We
walkedout ,whilewal king.
..
Candi
ce:
He'
scomi
ng
Me:
Who?
▶Shewalkedaway.
..
IlookedbackbutNat
hanwas
al
readyst
andi
ngnextt
ome. .
.
▶Il
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh.
Me:
Hey
▶Triedwipingt
hesweatonmyf acei
tdidn'
twork
ontopofthatIwassunburnt
..
embarrassi
ng.He
mightchangehi
smindIlooksouglynow.
Nat
han:
wantsome?
▶Hewascar
ryi
ngabot
tl
eofwat
er.
Me:
Not
hanksI
'
m okay
..
.
Nat
han:
yousur
e?
Me:
yes.
..
▶Ist
oppedwal
ki
ng.
Me:
what
'sup?
Nathan:Thatonecondi
ti
onhasbeenonmymi
nd
si
nce..
mindt el
l
ingmewhat'
sitabout
?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
oheasydon'
twearapi
nk,
yel
l
oworar
edsui
t.
Nat
han:
hahahaIwon'
tdot
hat
.

Nat
han:
canIt
akey
ououtt
omor
row?
▶Ifrowned.Woahbr
ikawhi
teboywher
eist
his
goi
ng?
Me:
Takem.
..
.
Nathan:
Notli
keadat
ebuty
ouknow.
.sowecant
alk
aboutProm.
Me:
Oh.
..
Idontknowheywhenar
eyouf
ree?
Nat
han:
fort
hisI
'
mfr
eeany
time.
Me:
tomor
rowni
ght
?
Nat
han:
cool
..
I'
l
lpi
cky
ouupat7pm
Me:
finebyme.
▶Oneofhi
sfr
iendscal
l
edhi
m
Nat
han:
Lat
er
Me:
sur
e..
▶Hewal kedbackt
othem,
whi
l
eIwal
kedt
othe
l
ockerr
oom. .
.
Mi
nenhl
e:Ar
eyoudat
ingNat
han?
Me:
Minenhl
ebo.
.
▶Shel
aughed.
Mi
nenhl
e:wear
eal
lj
ustcur
ious.
..
Me:
whatdoy
oumean"
we"
??
▶Ist
oppedwhatIwasdoi
ngandl
ookedather
.
Mi
nenhl
e:not
hing.
..
Me:
Tel
lme.
..Byt
hewaywher
e'sCandi
ce?
Minenhl
e:zankeahl
alei
skhat
hishegr
abbedher
st
uffandleft
Me:
Ohkay
..
sot
ell
meni
thywhat
'sup?
Minenhl
e:aft
erCandicel
eft
..
.yourbestf
ri
endMbal i
askedusukuthyareyoudati
ngNathanna.Andt hen
i
tbecameat opic.
..
Iknowyou'
renotdati
nghim soI
sai
dno..
.you'
rehappil
ymarri
ed
▶Il
aughed.
..
happi
l
ymar
ri
ed?Gi
rlIwi
shy
ouknew.
..
Mi
nenhl
e:dontl
aughwena.
..
letmegetgoi
ng.
▶Shecal l
edCy nthiaandt heyl eft.Iwasnowal one
i
nt helockerroom Ihadt olocki tl,dammi tIdidn't
tel
lMal umst hatIhav eNet ballpracticetodayhe
probablynother e.
..
nowIhav etospendmymoney
onanuberIt ookoutmyphoneandr equestedan
uber.
..
Igr abbedmyshi tandl ockedt hedoor .
..
I
walkedt othegat etowai tformyuber .
..
.asIwas
walki
ngt ot hegateNat han,hisf r
iendsandMbal i
'
s
fri
endswer ealsowal kingoutofschool ...
Itookout
myphoneandpr etendedt obeoni t,
bestdi str
acti
on
Iwalkedpastt hem. .
.gotatt hegat eandst oodthere.
..
Myphonest ar
tedvi
brati
ngItooki
tout..Ir
ecogni
zed
thenumbersit
sVince..
.mxm.Iputi
tbackinsidemy
schoolbagandwaitedformyuber.
..
theyarri
vedat
thegat
eandseparated..
.Nat
hancamet ome. .
.
Nat
han:
Youl
ookbor
ed.
.i
syourdadcomi
ng?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
No.
..
.I
'
m act
ual
l
ywai
ti
ngf
oruber
.
▶Myphonest
art
edv
ibr
ati
ngagai
n..
.Ii
gnor
edi
t.
Nat
han:
oh,
her
e'smyt
ranspor
t.
▶I
twasChr
isKamo'
sex.
..
hepar
kednearus
Nat
han:cancely
ourubert
ri
pwewi
l
ldr
opy
ouhome,
t
hat'
sifyoudon'
tmind
Me:
No.
.Idon'
t
▶IGrabbedmybag...r
eadytogetinsi
dethecar
ngi
yekhaya.Ihear
dacarhooter,f
arnearthegat
e.I
l
ookedatthecarandWhatthef.
..
it
sVincewhatis
hedoi
nghereandhowdi d.
..
Me:
youhav
etobeki
ddi
ng.
Nat
han:
what
'sup?
▶Myphonest
art
edr
ingi
ngagai
n.IAnswer
edt
he
cal
l
.
Vi
nce:
Let
'sgo.
▶Thatsoundsl
i
keanorderbutguesswhatwena
Vi
ncewearenotdat
ing.
Me:
Go,
wher
e?
Vi
nce:
shoul
dn'
tyoubehome?
Me:
Mxm *
cal
lended*
▶Vi ncet
hinksthatthi
sisGenerat
ions..Igoti
nside
thecar.
..
Nathanwasal r
eadyinsi
de...
IsawVi nce
getti
ngoutofthecarandput t
inghisphoneonhi s
ear.Myphonest ar
tedri
ngingagain.
..Ianswered.
Me:
What
?
Vi
nce:
Let
'sgo.
..I
'
llcountupt
o5.
.
▶I
sheser
ious?
Vi
nce:
1..
.2.
..
.3
▶Iendedt
hecal
l
...
Me:
Myboy
fri
end'
sher
e..
Ihav
etogo.
Nat
han:
yourboy
fri
end?
Me:y
eahseey
out
omor
row.
▶Iquicklygotoutofthecarandwalkedto
Vi
nce...
hesawmewal ki
ngtowardshim,hegot
i
nsi
det hecar.IWonderwhatwasgoi ngtohappenif
hereached5.Igotinsi
dethecar.
..
ChrisandNathan
dr
ov eoff.Hestar
tedthecar.
Vi
nce:
Hi.
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
Ohkay
.
▶Hedr
oveof
f.
..

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT59

▶ASi l
entdri
veitwas.
..heisn'
ttal
kingandIwasn't
abouttotal
ktohim ei
ther.
..
solongIt ookoutmy
phoneandansweredtextsandscr oll
edthrough
Facebook.
Vi
nce:
CanIpl
easef
etchsomet
hingatt
heof
fi
ce?
▶Isi
deey
edhi
m andsai
dnot
hing.
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
taket
hatasaYes.
▶Hewentont otaket hecor nerthatleadstoEskom,
Idi
dn'
tsayanythi
ngIwon' tar gue.
..soIkeptqui
et.
WegotatEskom powerst ati
onVi ncegotoutofhis
carl
ockedmeinside..Lool asifI'
m goingtorun
away.
..
about10mi nuteslaterhecal l
edme.
Me:
...
.
Vince:
Canyoupleasebri
ngmet
hef
il
ethat
'si
nthe
backofyourseatIneedi
t
Me:
ok.
..
▶It
urnedt
othebackt
otaket
hef
il
e..
..Andmyhear
t
mel
ted.
..
Vi
nce:
mami
..
.cany
ouseet
hef
il
e?
Me:
Vincenoway
s!.
..
▶Il
aughedwi
thexci
tement
Vi
nce:
What
??
Me:
stooop.
..
▶Iwasquar
tert
ocr
yingIcoul
dn'
tbel
i
evet
his
Vi
nce:I
'm sor
ry.
..
hopethi
smakesitupf
ormy
mi
stakeofnotbeinghonestwi
thy
ou.
▶It ooktheNi keboxt hathadasi ngleroseont opof
i
twi thanotewr appedar oundt her ose...
readthe
note..
itsai
d"I '
m sor rypleasef orgi veme"opened
theboxt herewasNi keAi rforceWhi tesneaker s,The
otherdayIsett hesameexactshoesonWhat sApp
asmypr ofi
l
epi cturewi thastat us"Iwanty ou,and
I'
ll
gety ou"..
.Andt hismanwentont obuymet he
sameshoes. ..GoshIj ustloveVi nce. .nextthi
ngI
knewt hepassengerdooropened. .
tearswer e
alr
eadyf l
owingt histime. .
.Iplacedt heboxont he
dri
versseatandgotoutt ohugVi nce. .
.
Me:
Ilov
eyou.
..
▶Wehuggedforaboutgoodt
womi
nut
es.
..
het
hen
wi
pedmytear
s..
.
Vi
nce:
stopcr
ying.
..
.
Me:can'
tbel
i
evet
hatyouboughtt
hem .
..
.Il
ovey
ou
sososomuchpapit
hankyou.
▶Vince'
sfacewasf il
l
edwi thr el
i
efhel ovesseeing
mehappyy oucouldsee. .
.Hecoul dn'tst
opgazing
atmeandIcouldn'tstopappr eci
atinghim Ijust
keptonsayi
ng"Ilovey ou,thanky ousomuch" ..
..
▶Ibaby
kissedhi
m
Me:
okayl
et'
sgonowI
'
m hungr
y.
Vi
nce:
haha
▶Webr okeourhugandhewenttot
hedriv
ers
seat
..
.gotinsi
deandthenwedrov
eoff.
..
Vi
nce:
wantMacDonal
d'
s?
Me:
Nope.
..
▶Heimmediatel
yst
oppedthecar.
..
Ihadnoseat
bel
t
onsoIwentontohi
tthedashboar
d
Me:
Vince!
!!Di
dyouhi
tsomet
hing.
..
.
▶Ilookedout
sideoft
hewindowt
hinki
ngmay
behe
hi
tabirdoradogpassi
ngby..
.
Vi
nce:No,you'
resayi
ngnot oMacDonald'ssi
nce
when?I'
m shocked.
..
alothaschangedsinceour
minibr
eakupne.
Me:ar
eyouki
ddingme??That'
sthereasonwhyy ou
st
oppedl
iket
hat?Ial
mostki
ssedthatdashboar
d
wi
thmyhead..
..
▶Isl
appedhi
m onhi
sthi
gh
Vi
nce:
wai
t!
!.
..
▶Hel
aughed
Vi
nce:
sor
ry.
..
▶Hecont
inuedt
odr
ive.
..
Vi
nce:
sowhatdoy
ouwantt
oeat?
Me:
You
Vi
nce:
goodanswer
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
..
Me:knewy
ou'
dsayt
hat
..
.I
'
lleatwhenIgethome.
..
Vi
nce:
Owkay
..
.
▶Ar
ound15:
33wear
ri
vedi
nourbl
ock.
..
Vi
nce:aft
erwri
ti
ngyourhomewor
kmnt
wana
wes'
kolouzeuzong'
bonane.
..
Me:
mxm Iwon'
t.
..
▶Hedr
oppedmeof
fatt
hegat
e.
Me:I'
m notev
engoi
ngt
oki
ssy
ou.
..
ubani
umnt
wana
weskol
o?
Vi
nce:Mamiareyouafi
rsty
earstudentatWi
ts?
Becauset
hat
'sonl
yhappeni
ngnextyear.
Me:
wowIdon'
tl
ikey
ourt
one.
..
▶Webot hl
aughed.
..
.It
ookmysneakersatt
heback
seat.
..Andmygear+theschool
bagthengotof
fthe
car.
..
.
Vi
nce:
soI
'
m notget
ti
ngmyki
ss?
?
Me:
Nope.
..
▶Iwal
kedof
f.
..
heshout
ed.
Vi
nce:
don'
tfor
gett
opol
i
shy
ourshoest
oni
ght
!
▶Vincei
sannoyi
ngIlaughedandgotinsi
de.
..
Ses'
t
hokowasintheki
tchenwhenIwalkedin
Me:
goodaf
ter
noon.
Ses'
Thoko:
Hel
l
oNt
omb.
..Kunj
an?
??.
..
mmmhwhat
's
that
?
▶ExcitedtoshowherIdroppedmyschoolbagand
mygearont hefl
oorandwenttothekit
chencount
er,
Iopenedthebox.
..
shelookedatme..
Ses'
Thoko:
aren'tt
hese?.
..
ahywenagi
rl
..
..You
showedmet heseshoesonMondaymossay i
ngy ou
wanttowearthem KuAfterpar
ty,
whoboughtthem??
Me:
Ses'
Thoko.
..
..Vi
nceboughtt
hem.
Ses'Thoko:
hawuhereal
l
ylov
esy
ouy
azi
nphel
a
theseshoesar
eexpensi
ve
Dad:
Whati
sexpensi
ve?
..
.kot
ikot
i
▶Dadatt hedoorwal kingin.
..Whatam Igoi
ngt
o
sayaboutthese.
..Ses'Thokoboughtthem..
yest
hat
's
thest
ory
Dad:
San'
bonani
Ses'
Thoko:
Yebobhut
i.
Dad:
whoseshoesar
ethese?
▶Hecamecl
osert
ous.
..
Me:
Mine.
..
Ses'
Thokoboughtt
hem f
orme
Ses'
Thoko:
Mina?
?..
.ohj
ah
▶Bat
hongSes'
Thoko.
..
Dad:
Zikuphyezami
?
▶Hewal
kedt
othef
ri
dge.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
hawuy
oual
sowantapai
r?
Me:
Dady
ou'
ret
oool
dfort
hem.
..
Ses'
Thoko:ngzok'
thengel
awenababaZamor
e
ungawari
.
Me:
heeeehay
iiasaz
i.
..
▶It
ookmystuffonthef
loorandwenttomy
r
oom..
.hol
dupwhat'
smydaddoi ngher
esoear
ly.
Me:
dadwhyar
eyoubacksoear
lyt
oday
?
Dad:
becauseIam myownboss.
Ses'
Thoko:Iknewhewasgonnauset
hat
l
ine.
.shoul
dImakeyouguysfood?
▶Weal
lchuckl
ed.
Me:Ievenr
egr
etaski
nghi
m now.
..
yespl
easeI
'
m so
hungr
y.
Dad:
I'
mfi
net
hanks.
▶Iwenttomyroom gotther
eandundr essed...
wore
homecl
othesIworeabluetornJean,
Ami ckey
mousebl
ackT-shi
rtandmyy el
lowsocks...Iwent
downst
air
s..
.
▶Myfoodwasi nt
hekit
chencounterandSes'
Thoko
wasal
readypr
epar
ingSupper
.Itookaseat
Me:
wher
e'smydad?
Ses'
Thoko:
hegotaphonecal
landsai
dhe'
dber
ight
back.
..
Me:
okay
.
▶Itookmyphoneoutandpl
ayedCandycr
ushwhi
l
e
Iwaseat
ing.
Ses'
Thoko:Ntombi,y
ourdadaskedmeukut
hywho
boughtyouthoseshoes.
Me:
what
??.
..
wet
oldhi
mthaty
ouboughtt
hem mos
Ses'
Thoko:
youcanneverl
i
etoy
ourdadwhenar
e
yougoi
ngtolear
nthat
▶Mydadi sl
ikeal
iedet
ector
..
.i
tssohar
dtol
i
eto
hi
m andgetawaywit
hit
..
.dammit.
Me:
sowhatdi
dhesay
..
.
Ses'
Thoko:It
oldhi
mthaty
ourboy
fri
endbought
them f
oryou.
..
Me:
yout
oldhi
mthatIhav
eaboy
fri
end.
.Ses'
Thoko!
!
Ses'
Thoko:
heknowshawu.
..
Me:
No.
..
▶Il
aughed.
Ses'
Thoko:yey.
..
soheaskedi fIknowy our
boyf
ri
end..
.Isaidyeah..
.he'
sagoody oung
man..
.ver
yrespectful
andhel ovesyou.
..Iwasaddi
ng
somepointsforVincephela
▶Wel
aughedandhi
ghf
ived.
Me:
mmmh?
??
Ses'
Thoko:het
hencont
inuedt
oaski
fIhadhi
s
numbers.
.
Me:
hisnumber
s..
.?Hay
bo
Ses'
Thoko:
Isai
dno.
..Andhesai
ddon'
twor
ryI
'
llget
them.
Me:he'
l
lgett
hem?
?Wher
eandwhyi
shel
ooki
ngf
or
hi
snumbers?
?
Ses'
Thoko:
Idon'
tknowhey
..
Me:
Ehh.
▶Shecont inuedtochopt hev egetables..
.whi l
eI
l
aughedi ndi sbel
ief
..
.Mydadbet t
ernotst artwi t
h
hisshenanigansbecausei fhestartsI '
l
lmov eoutof
thi
shouseandst ayatVi nce'shouse. .
.Lol..
.Iwonder
what'sgonnahappenwhenhef indst hem...
If i
nished
myf oodt henputmypl at
eont hesi nkandwent
upstair
sIdeci dedwearmynewwhi tef l
uff
ysl eepers
mymom (Thando' sMot her)bought, nevergota
chancet oweart hem theywer eagi ft..
.soIwor e
them andwentdownst airs..
.
Me:I
'
m goi
ngt
oVi
nce'
shouseSes'
ThokoI
'
llbeback
..
.
Ses'
Thoko:
okay
.
▶Iexitedthehouseandwal kedtoVince'
shouse..
.
hi
scarwasn' tint
hedriveway..
.wher
e'sthi
sguy??,
myf i
rstt
houghtwast hathe'
swi t
hNomal anga.
.I
cal
l
edhi m...
hisphonerangandhedidn'tanswer.
..
.
Cal
ledhim againheanswered.
Me:
Arey
ouwi
thher?
Vi
nce:
Who?
?NomzamoNo.
..I
'
m att
hegar
age
Me:sowhydi
dn'
tyouansweryourphone?I
tsnot
l
iket
heyusey
ourphonetopourpetr
ol.
Vi
nce:
you'r
eov
err
eact
ingnow.
..
what
sup?
?wher
e
ar
eyou??
Me:waswal
ki
ngt
oyourpl
acebutI
'
m goi
ngback
homenow.
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
bet
her
ein3mi
nsdon'
tl
eav
e.
▶Iarri
vedatVince'
shouseanddecidedt
ostar
t
t
akingpict
uressi
nceIhadtowaitf
orhim..
.Mi
nutes
l
aterhearr
ived.
..
hegotofft
hecar.
Vi
nce:
ngshudeNam.
Me:
No,
▶Iputmyphoneaway
.
Vi
nce:
wow.
..Thehat
eisr
eal
.
Me:
mxm.
Vince:don'
ttel
lmethaty
ou'
rereal
l
yupset
..
.Upset
thatyouthoughtIwaswi
thherwhenIwasatt
he
garage..
.
Me:
opent
hedoort
uu.
▶Hegotclosert
ome, huggedmethenwewenton
t
oopenthedoortoget
herwegotinsi
de.
..
Vince:Iwascrav
ingforri
bsandchi psfortoni
ghtso
Iwentont obuythem atSasolgarage.
..Iwasn'
t
cheati
ng..
.Iwouldnevercheatony ou.
..
may beI
shouldcheatonyounedKay1j usttogiveyoua
tasteofit
.
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:y
ouknowthatI
'
dkill
you..
.butIwon'
tbecause
mydadwi
lldot
hatformesoon
Vi
nce:
whatdoy
oumeansoon?
Me:
hewant
syou.
Vince:t
helastti
meyoutol
dmet
hisIal
most
fai
nted.
..
don'tj
okel
i
kethat.
Me:
...
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m notf
all
i
ngf
ort
hatl
ook.
.
Me:
whatl
ook?
▶Ilaughed.
..
Hewenttothefri
dgetookout2
Hei
nekendumpiesandpouredwhit
ewineforme.
..
Me:
itsmi
dweekVi
nceshoul
dwebedr
inki
ng?
Vi
nce:
wear
enotdr
inki
ngsi
j
abul
i
sai
miphi
mboqha.
Me:
you'
remad.
▶Itookmyglassandwewenttosi
tonthecouchhe
t
ooktheremoteandi
nser
tedt
hesoccerchannel
.
Mxm.
Me: I
'
m ser
iousthou.
..
mydadsawt
hesneaker
sthen
..
..
(Itol
dhi
mt hewholest
ory
)
Vi
nce:
ser
ious?
?..
.
Me:
Ses'
Thokosai
dthathewascal
m don'
twor
ry
Vi
nce:
easi
ersai
dthandone.
▶Wedr ankandwat chedasoccermat cht hatwas
on...
kissedher eandt hereandj ustchi l
led...At6pm I
wenthomeVi nceaccompani edme.Igothome
closedt hedoorandwentupst airs...Theadul tr
oom
doorwasopenedIknewmydadwasi nt here,I
want edt owal kupt hest air
sbef oremydadsees
me. .
.AsIwasaboutt owal kthrought hest airsmy
dadcal ledmei ntohi sadultroom iti ssituatedright
befor ey ouwal kthrought hest r
aitsont heleftside.
It
scal ledt headul tr oom becausei thas100sof
whiskey s,Straightsandwi nes,Asnookerpool ,
chairs, Apol ey esast r
ippi
ngpol e..Lol.
..itsapr i
v ate
barr eal l
yandi tcall
edt heprivateroom becausewe
aren'tal lowedt ogoi nthereitsforadul ts..
.Mydad
usedt ocal lhisfriendsandj ustchi l
l t
her e.
..befor e
hemetGr aceAny wayIwassummonedsoIwent
there...Hewassi tti
ngonachai rsmoki ngaci gar
goingt hroughhi sphone. .
.jazzmusi cwaspl ayingin
thebackgr oundsof tly.
..
Me:
Daddy
?
Dad:
Ngi
nikeamanambawal
omf
anaobusynay
e.
▶Ohshi
t.St
rai
ghtt
othepoi
ntj
ustl
i
ket
hat
Me:
...
.
Dad:
Nomzamo?
Me:
Ba?
Dad:
Ngni
kel
amanamba.
▶AsmuchasI'm scar
edr
ightnow.
.Iwon'
tgi
vemy
dadVi
nce'
snumber..
.
Me:
who'
snumber
??
▶Heputt
heci
gari
ntheast
rayandl
ookedatme
Dad:
Ubani
igamal
akhe?
Me:
Vince.
Dad:
Sbongo?
Me:
Zul
u
Dad:
ahyk'
l
ungi
l
e..
usungaphuma.
▶Huh?Kant ydon'ty
ouwanthisnumbers.
.Idi
dn't
evenaskIj
ustturnedar
oundandranformyl i
fe.
..
not
l
it
eral
ly.
.Ij
ustwalkedoutandwentt
omyr oom.Why
i
smydadsodesper
atet
ogetincont
actwithVi
nce?
?
Hopehewon'
tbr
eakusof
fthi
sti
mear ound.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT60

▶Fridaycameandpassed, itwasaSat urday

morningnow Ihavejustfi
nishedapplyi
ngl i
pgloss
i
ts9:15am andIhaveaNet ballmatchat10I'm
r
unninglatebecauseIwokeupl ate.
..
.mydadi s
wai
tingformedownst ai
rssowecangot oschool.
..I
t
ookmyspor tbagandrusheddownst ai
rs.
▶MydadRunni
ngoutofpat
ience
Dad:
ohmygoodness.
Me:
Iwon'
tev
eneatr
elax.
..
let
'sgo
▶Ipassedhim andwenttot
hegar
age.
..
gott
her
ewe
bot
hgotinsi
det heAudi
andmydadopenedt
he
gar
age
Dad:
soy
ou'
l
lpl
ayonanempt
yst
omach?
?
Me:
that'
sbei
ngir
responsi
ble..
.I
'df
aintandwehav
e
t
owintoday.
..
sor
rypleaseexcuseme
▶Iopenedt hedoorandrushedbacktot
hehouseto
get2Bananasandanappleand2sl i
cesofpi
zzai
n
thefr
idge.
..It
henranbacktomydadwhowasnow
parkedonthest
reet
..
..Igoti
nsidet
hecarheclosed
thegarageandt
hegat eandthenwedroveof
f.
..
Dad:wenayou'
regoi
ngt
obel
ateony
ourown
wedding.
Me:whatweddi
ng?
..
.y
oudon'
twantmet
ohav
ea
boy
fri
endmos..
.
▶Tookabi
teofmypi
zza.
..
webot
hlaughed
Dad:
yougotme.
▶Wear ri
ved.
..
Ihur
ri
edtothelockerroom.
..
gotthere
wit
habananaonmyhand, everyonewasthereIwas
ver
ylat
e..
.wassupposedt
ocomei nat9am onthe
dotandIcameat9:35
Me:
sor
ryI
'
mlat
ecoach.
..
▶Isatdown.
..
.
Coach:
youdon'
twantmet oel
ectanewcapt
ain
nowdoy ouNt
shangase?
Me:
Nocoach
Coach:
good.Don'
tev
erbel
ate.
..
Me:
sor
ry.
Coach:ourmeet
ingi
sev
endoneMi
ssXav
ierf
il
lher
i
n..
.I'
m out
▶Bat
hongt
hiscoachdr
amaekana.
..
Candi
ce:
OwkayCoach.
▶Shewentout
..
.
Candi
ce:
Iai
n'
tgonnat
ell
youshi
t.
..
wher
ewer
eyou?
?
Me:
home,
Iwokeupl
ate.
..
.Tel
lmemaar
n
Candi
ce:
shesai
d..
.(shet
oldmeaboutt
hemeet
ing)
Me:
Ial
readyknewt
hatmos.
Candi
ce:
Voet
sekzamor
e
▶Webot hlaughed.
.Itookoutmyphoneand
checkedf
orVince'
st extf
oundhi
m onl
ine.
Vi
nce:
Mor
ningMami
(7:
56)
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouev
enawake?
(8:
07)
Me:
Justgotatschool
wasr
unni
ngsuperl
ate.
Vi
nce:
IJustar
ri
vedaty
ourschool
..
.
Me:
No.
..
.y
oul
yi
ng
▶Vincesai
dthathe'
dcomebutIdi
dn'
tbel
i
evehi
m
andItol
dhi
m nottocome.
..
Vince:
ser
ious.
..Yousai
dyourgamest
art
sat10am
ri
ght?
Me:babeIwon'tbeabl
etoplayi
fIseey
ou.
..
I'
dfal
l
andstuf
f..
.ar
eyouherefor
eal?
Vince:y
eahI'
m att
hegat
enowt
ryi
ngt
ogeti
nit
s
ful
lypacked.
▶Ibl uet i
ckedhi m becausei twas9: 52wehadt ogo
tot hecour t
...Iputmyphonei nsidemybag, wewor e
ournet ballgear s..
.sangsongs. .
.Andwentouti twas
9:58...
.Gotatt hecour tsawmydadwi t
hGr ace...
Gracewav ed, Ilookedatherandsmi ledthenwav ed
back...I'
m sohappyt hatmydadf oundsomeonet o
comeandwat chmygameswi th..hewasal way s
alone...
Vincesai dhe'sherebutIcan' tseehi m...i
t
wasdi sgust i
ngl ypacked, parents, ki
ds,cousin'
s,
fr
iends, gir
lfri
endsandboy f
riendsbutIcoul dn'tspot
mi ne..
.Wegoti nt hecourtandst ar t
edpl ayi
ngwe
wer eplayingagai nstsomeschool from Mamel odi.
..
Wewon, Aftert hegameIwentst raighttomydad. .
.
Dad:
Goodgame.
..
▶Hehuggedme.Ar
ghhmydad.
..Ismi
l
ed
Me:
Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ng
Grace:
Anyt
ime,Idi
dn'
tknowthaty
ouwer
ethi
s
goodinNet
bal
l,y
ou'
rereal
l
ygood
Me:It
ry.
..
it
sti
mef ort
herugbygamenow,ify
ou'
d
l
iket
owatchit
..
.y
ouguy scanwatchi
tther
e
▶Showedt
hem wher
e.
Me:
forf
oodanddr
inksy
oucangett
hem t
her
e..
.
▶Showedt
hem.
Me:
cat
chy
out
wol
ater
Dad:
Okay
.
▶Ilef
tthem standingandwentt ot
helocker
r
oom...
onmywayt othelockerr
oom Isawmy
f
ri
endsIwentupt othem, t
heyhadthei
rownstal
l
wi
thmyot herclassmat es
Me:
lookaty
ouguy
swear
ingapr
onsandshi
t.
Kamo:
Imi
ssedy
ourgamedol
ldi
dyouguy
swi
n?
▶Ist
aredatherdeadl
ynotsay
ingany
thi
ng.
Kamo:youwon?fort
hat.
.y
ougetaf r
eeboerewors
rol
landanor
angejui
ce.
.wher
e'sCandicet
ellhert
o
comeandgether
s.
Khomot
so: ahy
ywenaKamot
hisi
sforf
undr
aisi
ng
noty
ourfr
iends..
.
Kamo:Zamoreisprobabl
yhungr
yyazukudl
ala
i
Netbal
lkuy
adini
sanawena.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:stopityoutwo.
..Nat
ashaaccompanymet othe
l
ockerroom you'
rej
ustsi
tti
ngt
heremosy ou'
renot
doi
ngany t
hing.
▶Shewasl
iterar
ysit
ti
ngonachai
rwat
chi
ngKamo
maki
ngRol
l
sf orcust
omers.
Khomo:Oohucel
aiSkwi
zasakhowhydon'
tyouask
metocomewithyou?
Kamo:
Skwi
za?
?heee
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Me:
jeal
ousy
..
..
comeTash
▶Nat ashastoodupandIt ookmyrollandwe
walkedtothelockerroom. .
.Gott
hereevery
onewas
donedressingupother swerealr
eadyputti
ngon
makeupr eadytogoout .
..Candi
cewasput t
ingon
herconverseshoes..
.Isatdown..
.
Candi
ce:
pleasest
ylemyhai
r
Me:
hay
ibooI
'
m st
il
leat
ing.
..
▶Wet alkedwi ththeot hersuntili
twasempt yint he
l
ockerr oom. .
.netballgi
rlsgocr azywhent heysee
Rugbygent ssot heydidn'twast eanyt
imei nthe
l
ockerr oom t heyj ustgott herechangedclothesand
wentout ...aft
ereat i
ngIst yledCandice'
shai rIdidn't
changeIr emai nedinmyspor tgearwassol azyt o
change...soIj usttookt hebot tl
eofmyor angej uice
andmyphonet henwentt omyf ri
endswegott her e
andjustsatwi t
ht hem....
Me:
howmuchhav
eyouguy
smadesof
ar?
Candice:
probabl
yR20,Idon'
ttr
ustthem l
ookat
Natashaeati
ngwhatt
hey'r
esupposedtosell
.
Nat
asha:
wear
ewor
kingher
emaki
ngmi
l
li
ons
Kamo:
tel
lthem wemakeourownmoney
Khomo:
independentwomen
Me:
Kant
yisn'
tthi
sfort
hef
undr
aisi
ng?
?
Kamo:
someofi
t.
.
▶Welaughed.
.Myfr
iendsarecrazyahy.
..
.It
ookout
myphoneandcal
l
edVincewhosai dhewasher ebut
i
ts11:
35nowandIsti
llhav
en'tseenhim
Vi
nce:
heyGi
rl
fr
iend.
.
Me:
wher
e'sy
ou?
Vi
nce:
wat
chi
ngt
heRugbygame.
Me:
huh??ooh..
.okayIcan'
tev
enheary
oul
etme
t
extyou.
.*
cal
lended*
Khomot
so:
who'
sthat
?
Me:
ahywena
Candi
ce:
Vince,
he'
sher
e.
Myf
ri
ends:
Vincee?
??
Kamo:Vincei
stoohandsome..Ki
ngsmeadpr
ivat
e
school
girl
swil
lst
ealhi
m..uphysi
mlande?
Me:he'
satt
her
ugbygame.
.t
heywon'
tI'
l
lki
l
lthem
al
l
.
Candi
ce:
ishewi
thMuzi
??
Me:Idon'
tknow,
I'
m notsur
e..
heewenawhyar
eyou
aski
ngaboutMuzi
???
▶Il aughed. ..
wecont i
nuedtalkingmess..
.therugby
gameended. .
Vincecalledmeandaskedwher ewe
wereandIt oldhim..hecame, Isawhimf rom afar
wear ingabl ackNYcap, apl
ainwhiteT-shirtand
shortt ornbluejeanswi t
hwhi teAdi
dasSt ansmi t
h
sneaker s..
.hewaswi thMuzi andsomeot herguyI
didn'tknow. .hegreetedmyf riendstheygreeted
back. .
hecamet owardsmeIst oodupandgav ehim
ahug, hecheekki ssedme. .
.
Me:
youl
ookgood.
.
▶Hesmel
l
edgoodt
oo.
.t
hisman.
Vi
nce:
thanky
ou
▶ hear
m huggedme.
Muzi
:manj
eni
thengi
sani
langobani
hlezi
?
Kamo:
sit
hengi
saamakuku
Muzi
:aphyke?
Kamo:
Nawa
▶Pointi
ngatherpussy
..
.Muz
iandt
heot
herguy
l
aughed.
Khomotso:
yekel
alo.
.Weareselli
ngboer
ewor
srol
l
s,
fr
iedchi
psandavari
etyoff
rui
tjui
ces.
Muzi
:don'
tyouhav
epap?
Khomot
so:
Nope.
..
Muzi
:ther
egoesmymoneyI
'
m notbuy
ingany
thi
ng.
Kamo:Vi
ncet
ell
yourf
ri
endst
osuppor
tweneedt
he
money
Ot
herguy
:si
thengekakhul
uyaz.
..
wear
eful
l
.
Kamo:
hambani
kel
a
Candi
ce:
andVi
ncest
ophuggi
ngZamor
eni
hambeni
Muzi
:wowy
a'l
lar
erude.
Me:
thengani
!
Muzi
:okay
..
.we'
l
lget3guav
ajui
ces.
▶Hepai
dandwechi
l
ledwi
tht
hem f
oraf
ew
minutes.
..
theyt
henlat
ersaidthattheywantt
o
watchthesoccergamesot heylef
tandwentont
o
watchit.
.weremai
nedbehind..
.

▶2hour sl atermyDadwasl onggone. ..myf ri

ends
wer enowoutofst ock..sot heycl osedt hei rshopand
tookR200f ort hemsel vesoutoft hefundr aisi
ng
money ..
.thent heytookt her estt othepr incipal...We
helpedt hem pack. .
theyaccompani edmeand
Candi cet othel ockerr oom. .itwast i
met ol eaveal so
soweGotatt hel ockerr oom gotourst uf fandI
l
ockedt hedoorandwewentout .
..Wal kingdownt he
parkingl otwi t
hmyf riendsf rom af arwecoul dsee
Vinceandhi sfriends,theywer ewai ti
ngf orusbut
wecanal sosee3gi rl
sst andi ngwi ththem Ial ready
knewt hatMuzi pr
obabl ysawt hem andst opped
them. ..
Kamo:
enden?
?
Me:
Nost
op.
..
don'
tst
artaf
ight
.
Khomot
so:
yeyKamoakat
hembakal
i
.
▶Aswecamecl
osewecoul
dseet
hati
t'
s
Mbali,
CindyandNoz i
..
.myfriendsandIst art
ed
l
aughing..
.what
'shappening??AllIknowi sthatthi
s
won'
tendpr ett
y..
..
wef i
nall
yarriv
e..Noziisleani
ng
onmymanscarst andingnexttohi m andshe's
hol
dinghisphone..br
eathNomzamobr eath.
.I
cont
roll
edmy self
..
.
Nozi
:Idi
dn'
tseet
hatpar
t.
..
▶Theybot
hlaughed.
..
Vi
nce:
itwasi
ntense.
..
arewegoi
ng?
▶ aski
ngmeandmyf
ri
ends.
Me:
yes.
..
cany
oupl
easeopent
hebootf
orme.
▶HedoesasIsay
..
.
Muzi
:Nomzamouy
ang'
fanel
alobabyuy
ambo?
▶r
efer
ri
ngt
ohi
m andNozi
Me:
Notr
eal
l
yyoudeser
vebet
ter
.
▶Iwal
kedt
othebootandpl
acedmybagi
nther
e.
Myf
ri
endsl
aughed.
..
Muzi
:Yho.
▶Vi
ncewi
deopenedhi
sey
esi
nshock.
Nozi
:hedeser
veswhat?
?
Me:
issomeonet
alki
ngt
ome.
?
▶Aski
ngKamo.
Kamo:
Idon'
thearany
thi
ng.
..
.
Candi
ce:
guy
slet
'sgo.
Mbali:
yeahshe'
stal
ki
ngtoy
ouKantywena
ucabangaukut
hyUkhul
umanobani
..
.
Me:
VinceAsambeni
.
..
▶Itwasgett
ingtense.
..andIdon'
twantaf
ight
.Not
t
oday.
.noti
nfrontofVi
nce.
Mbal
i
:by
eguy
s.
Kar
abo(
theot
herguy
):Kant
yani
say
iatt
hemal
l
Mbal
i
:nowe'
l
lgetanuber
..
Muzi
:wast
eofmoneyasambeni
..
.
Kamo:
bahambanabobani
?
▶Muzi
laughed.
..
Nozi
:Ni
nakant
yni
khul
umani
?
▶Aski
ngmeandmyf
ri
ends.
Kamo:
he.
esi
zok'
tl
abhat
hina.
..
Nozi
:mxm.
..
kidsasambeni
.
▶Theywal
kedaway
..
Kar
abo:
Kant
ywhat
'shappeni
ngher
e?
Vi
nce:
dawgIdon'
tknow.
..
babywhat
'sgoi
ngon?
▶Weal lgotinsi
dethecardiscussedwhathadj
ust
happenedanddecidedthatwewer egoi
ngtochi
llat
Vinceshousesowedr ovetothere.
..

#NomzamosDai
ry
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT61

▶West art
edatthemal l
boughtpizzaandsome
munchi
es..
..Wearr
ivedatVince'
shouseWewer eal
l
j
ustsi
tt
ingandconversat
ing,eat
ingwet hendeci
ded
t
oplay21seconds.
..
itwassof unchi
ll
ingwithmy
f
ri
endsandmyboy fri
end..
.
Kamo: t
hiscr
ibissoamazi
ngahyshem nexty
ear
I
'm comingtoli
vewit
hyouguy
s..
.
▶Muzi
clear
sthr
oat
Kamo:
Ngekengi
zwengaweMi
naMuzi
I'
m comi
ng
Me:
Andi
tsgonnabecl
oset
oRosebankcol
l
ege
Kamo:
yabo.
..I
'
m def
ini
tel
ycomi
ng
Muzi
:No,
Siphel
e
▶Wel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
Muzi
youhat
eKamone.
..Let
'sal
lbehonest
Candi
ce:
heevenatet
hel
astsl
i
ceofpi
zzat
hat
Kamoaskedf
or.
..
Muzi
:Idon'
t"hate"her
..
.okayy
oucancomeand
st
aywit
husr enti
sR7000
Kamo:
7000?
??y
agul
a
▶Shel aughed.Hourslat erat6pm onl yVinceandI
werel efti
nthehouseMuzi andKar aboleftto
accompanyt heothershome, Kar abousedVi nce's
Car..
..VinceandIwer ej ustsit
tingi ntheloungej ust
tal
kingIdecidedt otakemyphoneandcheckt he
ti
mei twas18: 07Ideci dedt ogohomeIt ookmy
stuf
fandwenthome. .
Vi ncecoul dn'tcomewi thme
becausef rom afarInoticedGr acescarsoIwal ked
homeal one.
..GotthereandGr acewaswal ki
ngout
alr
eady ..
.
Gr
ace:
Nomzamo
▶Shesmi
l
ed
Me:
heeyy
oul
eav
ingal
ready
??
Gr
ace:
yes,
itsget
ti
ngl
ate.
Dad:
itsl
ateal
ready
,wher
edoy
oucomef
rom?
Me:myfr
iendsandIdeci
dedt
ogochi
l
latt
hepar
k,
pl
easegr
eetJasonforme
Gr
ace:
Iwi
l
l.
..
wasni
ceseei
ngy
ou,
bye
Me:
bye.
.
▶Iwenttomyroom andlef
tgr
acewi t
hmydadat
t
heki
tchen,
Igotinsi
demyroom satonmybedand
t
ookmysneakersoff.
.Mydadknockedonmydoor
..
.
Me:
youcancomei
n.
▶Hewal
kedi
n.
Dad:
cany
out
ell
Vincet
ocomeher
eri
ghtnow.
Me:
Vince?
Dad:
yesdi
dIst
utt
ermubi
?
▶Il
ookeddownhewal
kedout
..
.t
henIf
oll
owedhi
m
Me:
Dad,
Why
??
Dad:BecauseIjustwanttoseehim.
..Iknowyou
weren'
tatthepark.SoIknowy ouwerewithhi
m.
Justcal
lhim he'
llgetmeintheadul
troom.
▶Hewal keddownt hestai
rs.Ar
ghmydad.
..Iwent
backtomyr oom t
ookmyphoneoutofmybagt hen
di
all
edVince'snumbers.
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.
Me:
Hey
,whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Vi
nce:
Not
hingI
'
mjustchi
l
li
ngangi
shoy
oul
eftme.
Me:
OkayMydadwant
stoseey
ousocany
oucome?
Vi
nce:
huh?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
come.
Vince:yourdadisgoi
ngtokil
lme,
There'snoway
thatI'
m comingther
e..
tomorr
owfi
rstt
hingint
he
mor ni
ngI'm goi
ngtoDurban.
Me:bberel
ax,
hewon'
tkil
lyou.
..
tr
ustme.I '
l
lwalk
yououtwhenyoul
eav
e,Ipromi
sey ou.Justcome
▶Vi ncedi
dn'
twanttocomeshem I 'm surewe
tal
kedfor10mins,
butIwasabletoconv i
ncehimto
comesohecame. ..Mydadwasal readyintheadul
t
room whenIwenttoopenforVince..
.Vinceeven
changedclot
heshewaswear i
ngf ormal..
.Il
aughed
Me:
whyt
fdi
dyouchange?
Vi
nce:
leav
emeal
one.
▶Webot hl aughed. .
.Iwal kedhi mt otheadul tr
oom,
thedoorwasopenedsoheknockedandl ethi msel f
i
n.Ihear dmydadsay ing"AahMrzul uwemeet
agai n...t
akeaseat "Vi ncegr eetedbackbysay i
ng"
i
tsapl easur et omeety ouagai nSir"andIguesshe
tookasi t.
..becauset henextt hi
ngIknowt hedoor
wascl osed. ..
LolIcoul dn' tli
stentothem any mor eI
hadt ogobackt omyr oom.Igoti nmyr oom and
changedcl othesIwasst illi
nmygeari magine..the
sweatandev erythingsi es...
Iwentt otakeaqui ck
showert henwentbackt omyr oom loti
oned,
deci dedt ocheckmyphone, nomi ssedcallort ext
from Vi nce. .
ishest i
llhere? ?Iquicklyworeawhi te
ov ersizedT- shirt
, Boy fri
endj eanandsl eepersI
wal kedoutofmyr oom.Wal keddownt hest air
s, t
he
adul troom doorwasst il
lclosed.
.whati sitthat
they '
redoi ng, angisathembi mydadwi l
lki
llmyVi nce
andt henIwon' tgetl ov ed,sexed,andcher i
shed. ..I
deci dedt oknock.
Dad:
ent
er.
▶Lolwaitwhatam Igoi
ngt
osaywhenIgeti n,what
am Il
ooki
ngfor..
.ohZamor
e..
IJustent
ered.
..
My
DadandVincewerebothsitt
ingcomfort
ably,
wi t
ha
gl
assofwhiskyoneachsideofthem.Bothholding
ci
gars.
.Vi
ncedoesn'
tsmokewhati shedoing..
.heee
ahykumnandil
aclear
lyIdist
urbedthem.
Dad:
youwanthi
m al
ready
?
▶Theybothlaughed,aremyey esdeceiv
ingme
..
.ar
etheybothlaughingandjustt
alki
ng..
.somebody
pl
easebri
ngmet i
ssuesIlov
ewhatI '
m seeing.
..
Me:
noIj
ustwant
edt
ochecki
fyouguy
swer
edone.
Dad:Wedone,pleasesetthedinnertabl
ewewill
be
ther
einaminute,Zul
uisjoini
ngusf ordi
nnert
oday.
▶Huh? ?Lolwhat sHappening..
.I'
m not
complaini
ng...
Ili
ket
his,nev
ert houghtI
'
llseet
his
day..
.Never.
.Iimmediat
elyfrownedatmydadand
Vince.
..
Me:okay
, butdadt
her
e'snof
oodSes'
Thokodi
dn'
t
comeintoday.
Dad:
I'
vecooked.
Me:
okay
..
▶Iwal
kedoutandheat
edt
hef
oodt
hatmydad
made, ohGr acewasher esomydadcookedf or
her...
.af
tert hef oodwasheat edIplaceditonthe
tableandpr epar edev er
ything.
..
Icall
edthem,they
cameandwehaddi nner.
..t
hemostawkwar ddi nner
ofmyl i
fe...Ther ewer emanysi l
encemoment s, f
ew
l
aughes, busi nessconv ersati
ons..
.VinceandIkept
onl ookingateachot her.
.mydadcaughtusaf ew
ti
meswhi chmadet hi
ngsmor eawkwar d.
..Di
nner
endedIwal kedVi nceoutweendedourni ghtwi tha
kiss.

▶WeeksLi terall
yflewby .
..i
twasThur sdaymor ning
the29t hofOct ober2015...Thedaybef oreVince's
birt
hdayandt hedaybef oremymat r
icdance. ..
Nerveswer esl owlybutsur el
ykickinginabout
tomor r
ow..Ihadal otonmymi ndmydr esswasn' t
readytheonl ypersont hatItrust
edt odomydr ess
keptongoi ngi nandoutoft hehospital andnot
feeli
nggoodt hewhol emont h,Ihonest lydidn'twant
tostresshersoIt oldhernott owor r
yabouti tI'
llfi
nd
anotherseamst r
essbutshei nsi
stedonmaki ngi t
,I
wentf orafinal f
it
tingyesterdaywithmydadandi t
wasperf
ectIlovedeverydet
ail,
thecol
or,
howi t
huggedmycur v
es,EVERYTHINGwasper fect
..
.arr
gh
andIhavealotofthi
ngstodowhenIwakeup. .
.I
tookmyphoneoutoft hechargerandt
extedVince.
Me:
Hour
sLef
tunt
ily
ourbi
rt
hday
▶I 'vebeensendi ngVi ncecountdownt ext
ssince
Day10, hesaidI '
m beingunnecessar ybecause
ther e'sacalendarf orthat.
..Ifi
nditcutesoIwon' t
stopdoi ngit.
..
.Igotoutoft heblankiesitwas9am
didn' tgottoschool t
heygav eusadayof ftogoand
prepar eoursel
v esfortomor row..
.Iheadedt othe
bat hroom tookashower .
..
gotoutSes' Thokowas
alreadyknocki ngatmydoor .Ishouted
Me:
..I
'
m al
readyup.
Ses'
Thoko:
okay
,Mal
umsi
sher
e.
Me:
Okay
,I'
m comi
ng.
..
▶Iwalkedst
rai
ghttomyphoneandIf
oundVi
nce'
s
t
ext,
Ii
mmedi at
elysatonmybed.
Vi
nce:y
ouknowhonest
lyIt
houghtyouwouldhav
e
gi
venuporhav
efor
gott
enaboutcounti
ng.
..
Me:hahanev
er.
..Howar
eyoudoi
ngmyy
ummy
boy
fri
end?
Vince:
justgotoutofameet
ing.
..
I'
mint
heof
fi
ce
nowbor ed.
..
Me:Isai
dhowar
eyoudoi
ngnotwhatar
eyoudoi
ng
Sbusi
soZul
u.
Vi
nce:
Mybad,
I'
m goodnotcompl
aini
ng.
▶Iputhi
m onl
oudspeakerandst
art
edl
oti
oni
ng.
Me:t
hat'
sgoodtohear..
Ineedyoutobeonagood
mood.
.st
art
ingfr
om todayunti
lMondaymor
ning
t
henyoucanfeelhoweveryouwant.
Vi
nce:
thebi
rt
hdayweekendhasal
readyst
art
ed?
?
Me:
yesmyl
ovey
es.
..
▶Wel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyoubabyIhav
etogo.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..
takecar
e..
.
Vi
nce:
Mcwaah
Me:
youneedt
ost
opdoi
ngt
hat
..
.
▶Wel aughedthenthecallended..
.Iwasdr essing
upnow..IworeablackadidasT-shirtwi
thagr ey
tr
ackpantandworeAdidasSuper starsneakersfor
shoes,moist
uri
zedmyf acethenwentout .
..
walked
downstair
sgottothekit
chenMal umswasonhi s
phonewhileSes'
Thokowascl eaningupt hefri
dge...
Me:
Goodmor
ning.
Mal
ums:
EyMshana
Ses'
Thoko:
Mor
ningNt
ombi
,yourf
oodi
sint
he
micr
owave.
Me:
okay
,Thanky
ou.
▶Itookmyf oodout,satdownst
art
ed
eat
ing.
..
fi
nishedeat
ingMalumsandIsai
dour
goodbyestoSes'
Thokoandwewalkedout.
..
wegot
i
ntothecarandwedr ovetot
hesal
on..
.
Me:
Mal
umsy
azngi
thukwekanj
ani
.
Mal
ums:thuki
we?Ngawar
iley
omizwai
zov
elei
phel
e
mawuf
ikanjekul
omdansowenu
Me:
nawewawuThuki
l
eMal
ums?
Mal
ums:
Chat
hinanabobabakhozankenj
esi
yeke
l
apho,
kodwaomawakho.
.
▶Hest
oppedt
alki
ng.
Me:
Mal
ums.
..
Mal
ums:
Uyenzi
l
eIappoi
ntmentngat
hykuv
ali
la.
▶Wear rivesatt hesalonat9: 25t hedoorcl osedsoI
hadt ocal landaskChar li
eabouthi swher eabouts.
Mal umsdi dn'
twantt ocontinuet ell
i
ngmeaboutmy
mot her ,healway sdoest hisitwasbecomi ngclear
nowt hathehadal ottoshar ebutcoul dn'tbecause
mydadt oldhim nott otellmeaboutmymom, t
hey
allgrewupt oget her..
Malumsandmydadwer e
fri
endsgr owingup. ..ButMal umsgoti nvolvedwith
thewr ongpeopl eandhel ostev eryt
hing..hethen
becamehomel essf orawhi l
et heny earslatermy
dadf oundhi m andhel pedhi m outthat '
showhe
becamemydr i
v er,anywayIt ookoutmyphoneand
call
edChar l
i
e..
.
Me:
Wher
ear
eyou
Char
li
e:I
'
minsi
decomei
n.
▶Igotoutoft
hecarMal
umswai
tedf
orme.
..Idi
d
myhai r..
Ididn'twantt odosomet hinghect i
c
becausepeopl egoal loutf ormat ricdanceheysoI
keptitsi mpl eIj ustrelaxedmyhai randputonal ong
ponyt ai l
..
.Ilookedcut eAl sodi dmynai l
s..They
werebabypi nkhi ghlighedwi t
hawhi t
enai l..
I'
m
fi
nallydonewi thpr om stuffwhat '
slef tnowi sforme
togoandf etchmydr esst henl i
terallywai tfor
tomor row. ..
.Igoti nsideMal umscompl ement edme,
Isaidt hanksandwewentt ot hemal l
....Vince's
bir
thdayi stomor rowandIhav en'tboughtasi ngle
thi
ngf orhimy et..
.forthepastf ewweeksIwasonl y
focusedonget t i
ngmypr om t hingsst r aight,
butI
decidedt hatweshoul dcelebr atehisbi rt
hdayt oday
becauset omor rowwewon' tgett imesoIwal ked
i
nsidet hemal l andIboughtVi nce'spr esent s,I
want edt omakehi m asensebox. ..Asenseboxi sa
boxwi t
h5gi f
ts.Eachgi ftmustbesensed.The5
sensest hatwehav eashumansar e1.SMELL2.
TASTE3. FEEL( touch)4.HEAR5. SEE.sowi ll
Iwi l
l
buyv incegi ftsaccor dingt othesenseshewi ll
see,hear ,
feel,t
ast eandsmel lhisgifts...Iwasabl eto
buyev erythi
ngt hatIhadnot eddownSonowIhadt o
buydecor atingst uffIwentt osomeshopwher ethey
sellgl
it
tersandst uffIwental loutguy sIbought
ball
oons, st
ri
ngs, r
osest opourt hem outont hefl
oor,
candles..
Heer omancet hings...
.Iwentt owool i
es
andboughtf oodf orust osnackon. ..Ihadsomany
plasti
csIlit
erall
yhadt ogooutoft hemal lusinga
tr
ollyIgottoMal umswhohel pedmeputev ery
thi
ng
i
nsidet hecar..
.wedr oveoffandwentt oKliptownI
hadt ofetchmydr essatMal umsf i
rstbeforecal l
i
ng
i
taday ...
.Wegott hereIgotof fwhil
ehewai tedfor
mei nsidethecar.
Me:
Aft
ernoonAunt
'Sar
ah.
Aunt
'Sar
ah:
HeyMababy
..
.
Me:
Mal
umsat
hyakangeni
soI
'
m her
efort
hedr
ess.
Aunt'Sar
ah:orthepri
ncessdr
ess..
.theper
fect
dress..
.I'
m busyher
eletmecallZwelit
ogetitf
or
you.
Me:
Ohzwel
ii
sher
e?
▶Beenwant
ingt
oseehi
m.
Aunt
'Sarah:
yeshegother
eWednesday
,
Zweeli
i.
..
Zwe
▶Shest
oppedmi xi
ngt
hef
lourandwentont
ofet
ch
mydr
esshersel
f.
Aunt
'Sar
ah:
wuuhe'
sint
hebat
hroom.
..
her
e'sy
our
dr
ess.
Me:
itsokayI
'
llseehi
m nextt
ime.
..
▶Iexi
ted.
.Mal
umsandIdr
oveof
f.
..Onourway
homeIcal
ledMuzi
.
Muzi
:Heyy
oucomi
ng?
Me: Yes, pleasewai tatthegateI '
l
ljustoffl
oad
everythi
ngt herebecauseIcan' tcarryal
lthisby
my self.
..Wegotonourbl ockMuzi waswai t
ingfor
me. .
Ihel pedhi m geteveryt
hinginsidethehouse..it
wasn' tl
otoft hi
ngsjust3Bags. ..1hugeand2
medi um.Hegav emet hekey sandwentt owor k.
..
I
wenthomeMal umsdr oveof f.
.Itwas15:45now. ..I
gotinsidet hehouse.
Ses'
Thoko:
Arewest
il
lmaki
ngt
hatcake?
Me:
konj
eIst
il
lhav
etobakeacake.
▶Irushedt
omyroom pl
acedt hedressontopofmy
bedandwentont
omakeVi nce'scakewit
h
Ses'Thoko.Ihadnoi deawhatt odososheshowed
meev er yt
hing. .
.Itwasachocol atecake. .
.i
tcame
outper fect .
..Around17: 34Ses' Thokowasl ong
gone. .Iwentt otakeashower, loti
onedandIwor ea
whitet -shirtwi t
hbl ackst ri
pes,aj eanski r
t,with
conv erseshoesappl i
edmakeupIl ookedso
beaut if
ul sengat hyi twasmybi rthday .
..Iwent
downst airstookt hecakeandwal kedt oVince's
house. .gott hereWentt ohisroom andIst art
ed
decor ating...
Ididmybest ..
itl
ookedbeaut i
ful.
..
candle
l
itupev ery where, Iwr appedthegi ftsIboughtand
putt hem i nsidet hesensebox. .andIpl acedl i
lnotes
ont opofeachgi f t.
..
thisgifti
scor nyy etsobeaut iful
andt hought ful..
.don'tsayNomzamodi dn'
tputy ou
ont ogr eatt hingsi fyourboy fr
iendsbi rthdayi s
comi ngup.Younowknowwhatt ogethi m.WhenI
wasdonewr appi nggi ftsIwaitedf orVince...At
18:44Ihear dadoorgetcl osed..Andsomeone
walkingupst airshe' sher eearl
y .
..Ijumpedt othe
doorandwal kedoutt henIclosedi t..
Vi
nce:
Youscar
edme,
Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e??
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
howdi
dyougeti
nher
e..
what
'shappeni
ng.
..
Me:
tol
dyouwecel
ebr
ati
ngy
ourbi
rt
hdayt
oni
ght
Vince:y
eahy
ousai
dImustcomehome,
getdr
essed
becausewewer
egoingonadat
e.Nowy
ou'
reher
e.
Me:
yeahi
tsasur
pri
se,
comecl
osey
ourey
es.
Vi
nce:
Myey
es.
..
?Zamor
eyouknow.
..
Me:
Vincet
uu.
.
▶Heclosedhi
seyes.
.Iopenedt
hedoorandwe
wal
kedinsi
dehi
sroom..
.
Me:
don'
topeny
ourey
es
Vi
nce:
Iwon'
t.
.
Me:
okay
..
arey
our
eady
?
Vi
nce:
CanIopent
hem now?
Me:
Yes.
▶Vinceopenedhi
sey
es.
..
andsai
dwowami
l
li
ons
t
imesaft
erthat
.
Vi
nce:
wow.
..
didy
oudoal
lthi
s??
Me:
yesbabyy
oul
i
kei
t?
Vi
nce:
forme?
?..
.wow.
..
bbe
▶Hewassohappy
,hi
sdi
mpl
edsmi
l
eandey
essai
d
ev
ery
thi
ng.
Me:
okayst
opnow.
..
▶Hecametowar
dsmeandgav
emeal
onghug.
.he
di
dn'
tl
etgo.
..
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou,
ok?
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Ismiled,Icouldn'
twai
tfort
hegreatnightIwas
goi
ngtohav e,andtomorr
owisprom..hopenothi
ng
wil
lgowrongt hi
sweekend.what'
sthewor stt
hat
canhappen?findoutonthenexti
nsert.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce

Pl
easeRemembert
oLi
ke,
Shar
eandComment
#I
NSERT62

Me:
Youcansi
tdown.
..
▶Ihadsetuphi sstudyt
abl
ewi t
ht wochairsar
ound
i
tf orourminidi
nner
..
.Hewentont ositdownbut
didn'tsi
tforaminut
ehequi
ckl
yst oodupandcame
towar dsmetogivemeahug..
.again.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
..
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..
Vi
nce:
Wow,
Ican'
tbel
i
evet
his.
..
.
▶Hesatdown. .
.Ifol
l
owedhi m andsatdownt oo..
.i
n
t
het ablether
ewasagl assoforangejuiceformeI
wasn'ttryi
ngtogetdr unkt oni
ghtIhavepr om
t
omor rowsoIhav etobeonmybestbehav i
ort
oday,
aglassofChi vasRegal f
orVincewhichcostmea
f
ortune...
andlasagnet hatSes'Thokoprepared.
..
.
Wit
haf orkandknifeont hesi
de,Vincetookasip..
.
Vi
nce:
ist
hisChi
vasRegal
?
▶Hel
ookedatme,
sur
pri
sed.
Me:
yes.
Vi
nce:
Yho.
..
▶Hegul
pedi
tal
l
...
Vince:i
tsasi
fyouknewt
hatIneededt
his,
thank
you..
.
Me:IknewthatChivasRegalisyourf
avor
it
ecognac
soIboughti
tforyou..
.canIpouryouanot
hergl
ass?
Vi
nce:
yespl
ease.
..
▶LetmebehonestIt
ri
edguy
sIt
ri
edmyhar
dest
..
andwental loutforVincei t
shar dtodosomet hi
ng
forsomeonel ikeVince..
.hehasev erythi
ngThe
moneyev er
ythinghewant shej ustbuy s.
..
I'
mj ust
gladthatheappr eciat
esev eryt
hingt hatIhavedone
sof arforhi
m. .
.AtthispointIcouldn'twaitforhimto
openhi sgif
tsev er
ythi
ngisgoi ngsmoot hl
ythus
far..
.i
twas20: 08nowanhourhaspassedsi nce
Vincegother ewehav ehaddi nner...Wear ejust
talki
ngnowi nt hetabl
e..
hewashol dingmyhandand
thankingMe..hewasmaki ngallthisaboutmewhen
i
nreal
i
tyal
lthi
swasabouthi
m andf
orhi
m..
.
Me:Vi
nce..
Ishoul
dbemakingy
oublushnotvisa
ver
sa.
..
it
sti
mef oryout
oopenyourpr
esentnow..
Vi
nce:
ther
e'smor
e??
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
yes.
..Come.
..
▶Imadehi m standup. ..Wewentt othebedImade
hi
m sit.
.wewer estilli
nhi sbedroom..
.hesatont he
bedItookouthi spr esentont hewardrobewher eI
havehiddenit..
.Itookt heboxwhi chwaswr appedi
n
Vince'
sf av
ori
tesoccert eam coverArsenal.
..
and
pl
acedi tonthebed. ..
.IglancedupatVi ncehewas
smili
ngshowi ngof fhisdi mpledsmil
e...
Vi
nce:
what
'si
nher
e..
.
Me:
openi
t.
..
▶Hewasaboutt
oopen.
..Ist
oppedhi
m.
Me: okaywait
..
.Thi
sisasenseboxney
ou'
llf
ind5
gif
ts..
.Eachgif
twil
laccommodat
eoneofy
our
senses..
.
Vi
nce:
ooookay
..
▶Il ethi
mt akeeachgi f
tout.
..
andplaceditonthe
bedt heywere5.Hehel dhisfi
rstgif
twhichwas
writt
ed1.SMELL( somet hi
ngthathecansmel l
that
hasangoodscent )heopenedit,i
twassomecheap
colognefrom Cl
ickslolIcoul
dn'tbuyhi
mt hereal
stuffbecauseIhavespentallmymoneyonmypr om
thi
ngsandset ti
ngt hi
sallupandbesidesI'
m nota
mill
ionair
e..
.
Vi
nce:
itsmel
l
samazi
ng.
..
Ilov
eit
.
▶ Iknowhewasly i
ng,Hewentont oopenanother
gi
ft
,2.SEE(somethi
ngt hathecoul
dseewi t
hhis
owntwoeyes)Iboughthim anewgamesi nceVince
l
ovesplayi
ngPlayStat
ionIboughthi
m agame...
Vi
nce:
Baaaabee!
!!Thi
sist
hegamet
hatIwant
ed.
..
▶Ismi
l
ed.
..
Me:y
es..
.Iknow,youcouldn'
tfi
ndt
imet
ogoandbuy
i
tsoIboughtitf
oryou..
..
Vi
nce:
wow,
you'
reamazi
ng.
▶Heopenedt
he3r
dgi
fti
thadaLi
lnot
ewr
it
ten
FEELi nit
,(i
twasagi f
tthathecant ouchandf eel)I
boughthim aArsenallatestki
taT-shirt
...
4thsense
wasHEAR( Somethingthathecanlistentoi tcanme
musi c/movi
eanythi
ngt hathasasound) ..
.Ipir
at eda
CDt hathadourfavourit
esongsinit..
.Hecanl isten
tothem whenhegoest owor korwhenhe' scomi ng
backf r
om workorwhenhe' sdoi
ngany thi
ngr eally..
..
Vince:Icannotbeli
evewhat'shappeni
ngri
ght
now..wow...Youreal
lythoughtthi
sthr
ough.
.t
hese
gi
ftsareper f
ectbbe..
.
▶Ijustsmi ledanddi dn'
tsayany t
hing...Idi
dntwant
tocryIwascl osev eryclosebutIdi dn'twantto
Shem, Iwasn'tgoi ngt o.
..
never ,
Inallhonest yIhad
real
lythoughtt histhrough...
Ijustwant edev er
ythi
ng
tobemeani ngfulandi twas..Vincel oveseachand
everygif
tandt hatjustmakesmehappy .
Itwastime
forhimtoopenhi slastgift
..
.Hi sl
astsensewhi chis
TASTE. ..
hehasal readytastedmysweetpussy .
..
so
whatelset hatissweeti shegonnat aste?
Vi
nce:
Acar
d?Am Igonnat
ast
eacar
d?
Me:
Nosi
l
ly,
openi
t.
▶Heopenedthecard,
itwasabir
thdaycar
d..
wri
tten
onitwasal
onglongverypar
agr
aphwhichVince
read.
..
Me:
arey
ougonnar
eadal
lthat
?
▶Hekeptquiet,
andcont
inuedtoreadall
thatwas
wri
tt
eninit
..
..
soIwai
tedforhi
mt ofini
shandgett
o
t
helastpar
tsowecangett ot
heTast egi
ft
..
.
Vi
nce:
wow.
.
▶Il
ookedathi
m..
.Vi
ncest
art
edcr
ying.
Me:
Baby
yy.
..
.
▶Icameclosert
ohim andgavehim ahug.
.he
huggedmeback.
..
thoughthe'
dstop,
hedidn'the
bal
ledhi
seyesout.
..
Irubbedhi
sback.
..
andasked
hi
m.
Me:
whyar
eyoucr
ying?
▶Becausehewasbei
ngdramat
ic.
.phel
aVince
nev
ercri
es.
.I'
mthecr
ybabyHer
e..
.andri
ghtnow
he'
sshocki
ngme.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyouokay
.
▶Iwhippedhi
stear
s..
.hepul
l
edbackandhel
dmy
hands.
.
Vince:Ilovey ouNomzamo, Inev erdoubt edy our
l
ov eforme. ..andthi sjustprovesev eryt hing.Idid
ri
ghtbynotdoubt ingy ourlovey ou'r
et heonef or
me..Iwi l
lalway slov eyouandIwi llalway s
appreciatey ou..
noonehasev erdonet hisf ormeal l
thi
s..
.thecandl elightdi nnerthegi f
ts, thissetupi s
j
ustamazi ng...
Ialway sgethappybi rthdayt extsand
moneyf rom parent sthent hat'
sit..
.Idon' tcelebrate
mybi rthdayatal lt hanky ouforshowi ngmehow
i
mpor tantIam t oy ou.
▶Icouldn'taddnordivideorsubtr
acttohi
swords.
..
Ij
ustsatther eandhel
dmy selfIwantedt
ocryso
badbutno, nottoday.
.Itwasgonnabeamessi fme
andVincest art
edcryi
ng.
Me:
doy
oul
ovey
ourgi
ft
s.?
Vi
nce:
Ilov
ethem andIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..
can'
tbel
i
evey
oucr
ying.
Vi
nce:
stopi
t,I
'
m notcr
ying.
▶Hewi
pedhi
stear
s,Wehugged.
Me:
readt
hel
astpar
t..
her
e..
▶Thebackoft hecard..
.i
tread"Ir eal
lycoul
dn'
t
deci
dewhaty oushouldtaste..
.becauseyou'
ve
al
readyhadthispussy.
..
insteady oucanhavethi
s
cakemadebyme. .
.Il
ovey ou " .
.hel
ookedatme
andlaughed.
.
Vi
nce:
you'
recr
azy
.
▶Istoodupfrom thebedandwentontof
etcht
he
cakei
nthefr
idge,Icamebacktohisr
oom si
ngi
ng
Me:Happybi
rt
hdaytoyou.
.happybi
rt
hdaydearPapi
,
Happybi
rt
hdaytoyou.
..
.
▶Vi
ncesmi
l
ed.
.
Vi
nce:
Thanky
oumami
..
.
▶Hest oodupandcametowardme.
..
hetookt
he
cakeandplacedi
tonourdi
nnert
abl
e..
.
Vi
nce:
Thi
scakecanwai
t.
.comeher
e.
▶Hepul l
edmet owar
dshi
m...
andki
ssedme..
.we
cont
inuedtoki
ssandhadsexonthebedt
hathad
whit
er osesoni twassooromant ic..
.Vi
ncemade
meachi ckenonagr i
l
lert
hatnight,Ididal
ltonsof
posit
ions..
thesexwassosogood. ..
andhewast ipsy
i
twasamazi ng.
..i
twasimplacable..
..
weslept
thr
ought henight..
.

▶My00: 00alarm wentoff.

..Iwokeupquietl
yand
switchedmyphoneof ft
r i
edtowakeVi nceupso
thatIcanoffi
cial
lysay"Happybi rt
hday"hewas
deadasleep..
.Ithencheckedmyphoneagai nmy
dadhascal l
ed4t imes..
.shit
..
.i'
m def
ini
tel
yintr
oubl
e
...
Me:
Vince?
?..
.Vi
nce.
..
?
Vi
nce:
...
Me:
Sbusi
so.
.?
?
▶Ishookhi
m up.
Vi
nce:
Mmh?
Me:
wakeup,
Happybi
rt
hday
.
Vi
nce:
hmmm
▶Het
urnedt
otheot
hersi
de.
Me:
arey
ouser
ious?
▶Ishookhi
m..
.t
hist
imehef
ull
ywokeup.
Vi
nce:
bbewhat
??
▶Ist
art
edsi
ngi
ng.
..
thehappybi
rt
hdaysong.
Me:
Happybi
rt
hdayt
oyou.
..
hapl
ybi
rt
hdayt
o..
Vi
nce:
Didn'
twedot
hisear
li
er?
Me:Butit
soffi
cial
l
yy ourbi
rthdaynowi
zol
oit
wasn'
t.
.sohappybirt
hday..
Vi
nce:
Oh,
sowher
e'smygi
ft
?
Me:
yourgi
ft
??
▶Lolmybr odaIgavey
ou5not1or2but5gi
ft
s
ear
li
er.
..Il
aughed.
.
Me:
Youmadgobackt
osl
eep.
▶Iplacedmyhandsonhiseyessot
hathecan
cl
osehiseyesandgobacktosl
eep.
..
hetookmy
handandsatup..
Vi
nce:
No.
..
giv
emeaki
ss.
▶Weki ssed..
.passionatel
y..
.hethenstar
tedgoing
downonme. .
.i
nmi nuteshewaseat ingmeout ,he
l
aterputitallinsi
deofmeagai n.
.Imoanedhi sname
thi
stimeIdi dn'tsay"Vince"Imoaned"Birthday
boy".
..Ohmygoodnesswhydi dIwakehim up?

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▶Vi nceandIarealr
eadyup,we'vebathedandwe
arebothmadateachot herbecausehedi dn'
tgoto
thegy mtodayandI'
m madathi m becausemy
hair
stylei
smessedupandi tsallbecauseofhim..
.
Wear einbedhavinghi
sbirt
hdaycakeandcof f
ee
forbreakf
ast.
Vince:y
ouknewthatwewer
egoi
ngtohavesex
thoughyoushoul
d'
vewor
nadoektopr
otecti
t
Me:soyou'
resayingt
hatImusthav esexngeduku?
AngekeVi
nce.Futhyyou'
retheonewhosaidthe
cakecanwaitandyoustart
edkissi
ngme.
Vi
nce:
whydi
dn'
tyousayno?
Me:
Angi
shoy
ou'
reol
dandI
'
m af
rai
dofy
ou
▶Hechuckl
ed.
Vince:
Sesiy
oucould'
veeasi
lydroppedt
hegif
tsoff
andwenthome.Nowy ou'
reblamingmebecause
yourpony
tai
lfel
lof
fduri
ngsex?
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:yesIbl
amey
ou.
.nowImustgot
opr
om ngi
kanj
e??
Vince:
Imissedthegy
m..
it
syourf
aul
tsoy
esy
ougo
toprom l
i
kethis.
..
Me:
VinceIai
n'
tpl
ayi
ng
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
putt
heponyt
ail
backon,
itseasy
.
Me:
i
tseasy
?Mxm
Vi
nce:
gof
etchi
tI'
l
lshowy
ou.
▶Mypoorf
akepony
tai
lwasont
hef
loor
.
Me:
youf
etchi
t.
Vi
nce:
Mar
aNomzamodoy
ouknowukut
hy.
..
.
Me:
whatdi
dyoucal
lme?
?
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
you'
rehappyt
odayne.
▶Hetookt
hepl
atesandpl
acedt
hem onhi
sst
udy
t
abl
e.
Vi
nce:
I'
mtur
ning25.
..
25.
..
youshoul
dcal
lmeSi
r
Vi
nce.
Me:
hahay
ouwi
sh.
..Let
'sgo.
▶I twasnowpast7am Vi ncedr oppedmeof fatmy
cri
bandwentt owor k..
..Icall
edSes' Thokot oletme
i
n, shebuzzedmei n..
.Mydadt ookadayof ftoday
soI '
m sur ehe'sst i
llasleepIwal kedupstairs,got
i
nsi demyr oom checkedmyphone, respondedt o
messagesandot herst uff.
..Idecidedt otaket he
"Letterstomymom"bookt hatwashi ddenont opof
mywar dr
obeandwr it
eoni tIst ar
tedpour i
ngoutal l
myt hought sandf eeli
ngsaboutt odayhowexci tedI
was. ..HowIwi shshewasher e...
mydadknockedon
mydoor .
.Iqui
cklycl osedt hebookandhi di tunder
mypi ll
ow
Me:
I'
m comi
ng.
..
▶Ijumpedoutofbedandwor
emyf l
uff
ysleeper
s
andwalkedout
..
.f
oundmydadint
hekit
chenabout
tosi
tdown..
.
Me:
Mor
ning.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
Mor
ningNt
ombi
Dad:
atwhatt
imedi
dyoucomehomel
astni
ght
?
Me:around12i t
sVince'
sbir
thdaytodaysowe
deci
dedtocelebrat
eityest
erday.
.SorryIdi
dn'
tl
et
youknow..
itsl
ippedmymi nd.
▶Mydadl
ookedatmef
unny
.
Dad:Owkay.
..
whyar
eyouwear
ingahat
?What
hai
rst
yledi
dyouget
?
▶Nobodyknowsaboutmyhai
rst
yleev
enSes'Thoko
Iwal
kedi
nhereweari
ngVi
nce'
sEskom beani
e..
.butI
waswear
ingminenow.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tdomyhai
r.
..
Dad:
didn'
tyouandFr
ansgot
othesal
ony
est
erday
?
Me: wedidIonl
ydidmynail
sandr el
axedmyhai r
.I
thoughtt
hehair
sty
lewil
lgetrui
nedifIsl
eepwithit
becauseit
sonlyafakeponyt
aili
tseasi
lyr
uined.
Dad:sowhenareyougoi
ngtodoyourhai
rthen,
I'
m
def
ini
tel
ynotaccompany
ingyout
here.
Me:
whynot
?
Dad:It
ookadayof
fandy
oul
i
vei
nGaut
engt
her
e's
uber
..
.
Me: y
esyoutookadayoffformedad.
..
sowhenI
sayIwanttogotoEaster
nCapenowyoumust
accompanymet her
e.
▶Mydadl aughedandcont i
nuedtor eadt
he
newspaper, onlyifheknewthatIdon'thavemoney
forUber.
..Ev enmoneyt odomyhai rakenaleyona.I
l
ookedatSes' Thokowhosi l
entl
ylaughedand
conti
nuedt ocookusbr eakf
ast.Weat ebr
eakf
ast
thenmydadexcusedhi mselfandhewentupstair
s
i
mmedi atelyaf t
ermydadexi tedSes'
Thokocamet o
me.
Ses'
Thoko:
whathappenedt
othehai
rNt
ombi
?Av
e
ni
gangabo.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:Ses'
Thokoyouhav
etohel
pme..Whatam I
goi
ngtodo?Ican'
tgotopr
om l
iket
his
Ses'
Thoko:
uzov
eleukamei
stay
elauzobar
ight
Me:
NoNo.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
Kuhambenj
ani
izol
o?Di
dhel
i
ket
hecake
??
▶Itoldhereveryt
hingexpectt
hesexpar tbutshe
knewwhathappenedt otheponytail
.Itwasso
obvi
ous.Aftereat
ingbreakf
astIwentbackt omy
room..
unchargedmyphoneandVi ncecall
ed
i
mmedi at
ely.
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
MyPapi
.
Vi
nce:
Youokay
?
Me:
YesI
'
m good,
myVagi
nai
sbur
ningt
hough.
Vi
nce:
youwantmet
ocomet
her
eandheal
it?
Me:no,Idon'
twantsexunt
ilf
urt
hernot
icey
ou
dest
roy
edmycoochi el
astni
ght.
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
that
'snott
her easonwhyIcall
edy out
hough,
whyar
eweev entalki
ngaboutyourcoochie.
..
how
muchdidy
ourhairsty
lecosty
ou?Wi l
lR500beokay?
Me:
Itsact
ual
l
yR200buty
oucansendt
hatR500.
Vi
nce:
Youl
ovemoneyhay
i,t
alkt
oyoul
ater
.l
ovey
ou
Me:
thanky
ousomuch,
Ilov
eyousomuch.
*cal
l
ended*
▶Moment slat
eraR1000banknot i
fi
cat
ioncame
thr
ough..
.i
tsmont hendIf orgotVincewil
lshowoffI
wassosoexci tedthough...Ii
mmedi at
elyordedan
uberandwentt othesalon..Ididn'
tgett
hepony t
ail
againIchangedmymi ndandgota100%Bobcut
i
nsteadandIalsogotl ashes...
theniwenttosome
i
ndianshopt ogetaHennat att
ooonmyr i
ghthand,
whendoneIwentbackhome. ..
Ses'
Thoko:
Ahyy
ouseet
hisst
yle.
..
it
sbet
tert
hant
he
l
astone.
Me:
ser
iousl
y??
Ses'
Thoko:y
esy
ou'
reev
enmor
eli
ght
ery
oul
ook
beaut
if
ul.
Me:Thankyou.I
'
m sohungr
yandIdon'
twantt
oeat
unt
ilt
onight
.
Ses'
Thoko:
Hawuwhy
?
Me:
Ngi
funai
fi
gur
eSes'
Thoko.
Ses'
Thoko:
Habe.
..
okay
..
.
Me:
I'
ll
dri
nkwat
erupunt
ilt
oni
ght
.
▶Shej ustl
aughedatmeandmadecr acker
swi t
h
cheese,
tomatoandham thenconvincedmet oeat
them..
.Itwas14:45Mydadwal kedtot heki
tchenhe
waswat chi
ngsoccer.
..
Dad:
Mubi
,cal
auzi
l
ungi
se.
▶If
li
ppedmyhai
randl
ookedathi
m.
Dad:
Hai
bo.
..
yi
nil
okhu?
▶Hecamecl
oserandt
ouchedmyl
ashes.
..
Dad:
sezi
yaf
akwai
nkopheKant
y?
▶Ilaughed.
..
andst
oppedhi
mf rom t
ouchi
ngme
becausehewasaboutt
opullt
hem out.
Me:
Yes.Ses'
Thokoat
hyngi
muhl
e,ngi
muhl
ene?
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Dad:hay
iMi
naangazi
lehai
rst
yley
ouwant
edt
his
one?
Me:
dad!
!!
??.
..
mxm
▶Hel
aughed
Dad:
Ngy
adl
alaumuhl
ekabi
mypr
incesscomeher
e.
▶Hegav
emeahug.
Dad:
WishIwasyourdat
e..
.Nat
hanwi
l
lfai
nt,
wher
e
ar
emycarkeys?
Ses'
Thoko:
Nawal
e.
Me:
Dadwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Dad:tofetchGracesheaskedifshecouldcomeand
seeyouandj ustbeher
eforyou..Isai
dyes.Me:y
ou
didn'
tspeakt omeaboutthi
s..
.butit
sokayI'
dlove
hertobeher e.
Dad:
itsl
i
ppedmymi
ndnami
.
Me:
wast
hatsar
casm?
▶Mydadwi nkedatmeandl eft...
Iwalkedupstair
s..
..
Gotinmyr oom andputev erythingont opofmy
bed...
heel
s,accessor
ies,
dress, clutchbag
...
everyt
hing..
.ThenIwentt oshowerar ound3..
.
Fini
shedwentt omyr oom l otionedwor emybr and
newwhi telaceunderweart hankGodIwasn' t
menst r
uatingwould'
vebeenamess.Iputonmy
ropeandwentdownst ai
rsSes' Thokowasal sodone
fortheday...
sowesati nthel ivingr oom li
ter
all
y
wait
edforti
met opassby.
.IwasEXCI TED..
.at15:
18
someonebuzzedthegateIgotupthinkingitwasmy
dadandGraceIlookedt
hroughthecamer agat ei
t
wasMySt epmom andmysi bl
ings.
..
Ibuzzedt hem
i
n..
.t
heygottothedoor.
Me:
WooowIdi
dn'
texpectt
oseey
ouguy
s.
▶Tear
sfi
l
ledmyey
es.
..
mymom wal
kedi
nandgav
e
meahug.
St
epMom:
Icoul
dn'
tmi
sst
hisCupcakedon'
tcr
yke.
Thando:
AhyahyahyZamor
e..
..
▶Shewal
kedpastmeandwentt
othef
ri
dge.
Themba:
Ial
sowannagi
vey
ouahug.
▶Iwashuggi ngmymom sot ightcouldn'tl
ethergo
Ididn'
tthi
nkt hatthey'
dcome..thoughtitwasgoing
tobemeandmydad+ses' thoko.Myst epmom
beingHerereallyfil
l
edthegapaboutmyr ealmom
notbri
ngher e..
Ilovethi
swoman. .
.wit
hallmyhear t
shehasbeent hereformethroughi tal
landI '
d
alwaysappreciatehersupportandundy inglovefor
me.Shewi pedmyt earsandwal kedin.
.
Me:
Comeher
e.
▶Igav
eThembaahug.
Me:
isi
tmeory
ou'
vegr
own?
Thando:
hisv
oicer
ight
!??Sodeepandannoy
ing
▶Wel
aughedathi
m
St
epMom:
Stopi
tyout
wo,
Wher
esy
ourdad?
Me:uhmmm he'
soutf
ornowhe'
l
lcomebacki
nno
t
ime..
.
▶Weal
lwal
kedt
othesi
tt
ingr
oom
Thando:yousai
dyou'
rel
eav
ingat5pm whyar
en'
t
youdressedyet
?
Me:i
ts15:
23Igotal
otoft
ime.
.r
elax.
.I
'
vebat
hed
al
ready
.
Themba:
CanIhav
ether
emot
e?
Thando:
Thembaucal
i
le
Themba:comeonwecan'
tbewat
chi
ngAmov
ie
ngal
eskhat
hy.
St
epMom:
Sibukel
eini
themba
Themba:
Passmet
her
emot
eMmangzoni
khomba.
▶Mom gav ehimtheremot e.
..
Thembai nsert
ed322
BlackMot ionftXoliM-Rainbowwaspl ayingwe
l
iterall
ystart
edapar t
yThandoandIst artedDanci
ng
thenourMom f ol
lowedthenSes'Thoko...
wehadf un
busydanci ngandsingingtosongsuntilmyphone
startedri
nging..
.
Me:
Hi
Char
li
e:HeyI
'
m out
side.
Me:
OkayI
'
llbuzzy
oui
nnow.
*Cal
lended*
Ses'
Thoko&St
epMom:
Who'
sthat
???
Me:
Hai
bo.
..
It
stheChar
li
e.
▶Iwentt
obuzzhi
minandopent
hedoorf
orhi
m..
.
Char
li
e:ngi
thyI
'
llf
indy
oudr
essedandev
ery
thi
ng
Me:
dressed?
?
Char
li
e:t
hewayy
ouar
esoex
cit
edIdon'
ttr
usty
ou.
▶Il
aughed.
..Wewentt
othesi
tt
ingr
oom.
Ses'
Thoko:
CanIpoury
ouj
uice?
Wine?
cof
fee?
Char
li
e:Nochampagne?
Ses'
Thoko:
NoChampagneChar
li
e
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Char
li
e:I
'
llhav
ejui
cepl
ease.
..
gogr
abachai
r
nomzamo
▶Wentt ograbbedi t,hegothisjuiceandhest arted
themakeupappl i
cat ion..
..
thesit
ti
ngr oom wasf ull
ofloveandal otofl aught erIwassososohappy
today..
.moment slaterthedoorcl osed..
.Iknewi twas
mydadandGr ace. .
.Ses'ThokoandIknewwel ooked
ateachot her.
..
.theywal kedintheliv
ingr oom...The
room wentqui te.*
Cr ickets*FatherLordIhopeno
dramawi lloccurbet weenMydadsEx- Wifeand
CurrentGirl
fri
end.Mydad' sfacewaspr i
celess
i
nsidemyheadIwasl aughingont hefloorwi t
ht ears
comi ngout.

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▶ThandoandIl ookedateachother,
Ses'
Thoko
stoodupandaskedGr aceifshewantedsomet hi
ng
todri
nk.Theyenteredthel
oungeandgreeted
every
one,wegreetedback.Thembawassi tt
ingin
myDadssof ahest oodupandtositwit
hhismot her
,
Dadandgr acesatdown.Awkwardsil
enceagai n
Char
li
e:andI
'
m Done.
..
.
Thando:
wooowl
ookaty
ou.
..
.whoar
eyou?
?
Themba:
ikhonamamai
Makeupy
abaf
ana?
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
St
epMom:
Whatar
eyougoi
ngt
owi
thi
t?I
fikhona
Themba:I
'
m gonnaputi
ton,
nami
ngi
funaukuba
muhle.
▶Iexcusedmy selfandwenttomyr oom i
twas
17:
05nowNat hanwi ll
beherein25mi nut
es.
..
I
wasn'
tyetf
ull
ydr essed.Thandoknockedandgot
i
nsideshehelpedmeputev eryt
hingonwhil
eIwas
panicki
ng.AnSMSnot i
fi
cat
ioncamethr
ough.It
old
thandotoreaditbecauseIwasbusyputt
ingmy
j
ewel l
eryon.
Thando:
Arey
ousur
ethaty
ouwantmet
oreadt
his?
Me:
comeon.
.i
sitf
rom Vi
nce?
Thando:
No,
arey
oucheat
ingonVi
nce?
Me:
NoThando.
.
▶Icamet
owar
dsher
..
.
Me:
whatdoesi
tsayandwhoi
sit
??
It
ookmyphonef rom her.I
twasamessagef r
om
Br
andon..
.Br
andon?Hav en'
ttal
kedtohimi nawhi
le
whyi
shemessagi ngme.Themessager ead"Hey
St
ar,
Enjoyyourprom ni
ght,seeyoulat
er.Love
Br
andon"
Me:
Ah.
.
▶It
hrewmyphoneonmybed.
Thando:
who'
sBr
andonandwhyi
shecal
l
ingy
ou
st
ar??
Me:
He'
sJason'
sfr
iend.
Thando:
Jason'
sfr
iend?Thest
arname?
Me:
Itsal
ongst
ory
..
hel
pmewearmyshoes
Iworemyshoes.Di df inal touches. .
.Andinmi nutes
Iwasr eadytowal kdownst ai
rsIl ookedamazi ng..
.I
l
ookedl i
keapr incessIj ust -.wow.Iwast heghel.
Mydr esswasaNudi shpi nkl ongbobt ubedresshad
atouchofgol dcr y
stalsi nt heboobar eahadasl it
theheelsweregol d,Idi dn'tputonanyaccessor i
es
onmyhandsbecauseIhadaHennat at
too.Ididn'
t
wantacl ut
chbagbecauseI '
m socl umsyNat han
hastoputmyt hingsi nhissui tbecauseI'l
lgetsuper
exci
tedandendupl osingev erything.
Thando:
youlook..
.y
hohayi.Can'
twai
tforev
ery
one
toseeyou.I
sVincecoming??
Me:Idon'
tknow.
..
he'
satwor
ksoIdon'
tthi
nkso.
andhedoesn'
thavet
o.
Thando:
whatdoy
oumean?hehast
o.
Me:
Lolnohedoesn'
t.Goandpr
epar
eev
ery
onet
ell
t
hem I
'
m comi
ng.
▶Thandoexit
edmyr oom.Andwentdownst
air
s..I
vi
deocal
ledVince,
heanswered.Hewasi
nhisoffi
ce.
It
urnedt
hecamer atothewi
ndow.
Vi
nce:
Zamor
e,Ar
eyout
her
e?
Me:
I'
m al
readydr
essedandev
ery
thi
ng.
Vi
nce:
Soear
ly?
Me:soearl
y??i
ts17:
25Vi
nce.Andt
heev
ent
sst
art
s
at6ar
ey oumad??
Vi
nce:owkshowmehowy oul
ookl
i
key
ourwi
ndows
ar
en'
tthati
nter
est
ingt
olookat.
Me:
okay
.
Vi
nce:
Noooowai
t!wai
t!wai
t!.
▶Conf
usedIasked.
Me:
what
??
Vi
nce:
Let
'sdoacount
down.I
'
m soscar
ed
Me:
Lol
you'
remad.okayl
et'
scountf
rom 5.
Bot
hofus:
5..
.4.
..
3..
.2.
..
1..
..
▶It
urnedt
hecamer
abackatme.
Vi
nce:
wwwwoaahhh!
!!
!!Whaaaaaat
???
??
▶Hest
oodupf
rom hi
schai
r.
Vince:NomzamoMagdel
i
neNt
shangase.
..Mami
youlook..
..
woooow.
▶Ibl
ushedIdi
dn'texpectt
hiscr
azyr
eact
ionf
rom
hi
m.Hewasdoingtoomuchbusyshouti
ng.
Vi
nce:
Yhoooy
hoo.
..
.
▶Iguesssomebodyknockedonhisdoorbecause
hest
art
edtal
ki
ngtothatperson.
.
Vi
nce:youcancomebacki
n20mi
nut
es.
..
ngsebusy
l
amf et
hu..
.
Per
son:
ak'
nast
ressbhoza
Vince:
Eishmuntuunent
ombi
ehl
ekodwa.Nsi
zwa
buyauzongboni
sa
Me:
VinceNo.
▶ Whati
sthi
sguydoi
ng.Thepoorguycameand
gr
eet
edme.
Guy
:Unj
ani
sisi
?
▶ Il
aughedf
ir
stbef
oreanswer
inghi
m because
whataawkward.
Me:
I'
m good
Guy
:Ahychaumuhl
eser
ious
Vi
nce:
yeahuy
akumat
ri
cdance.
▶BathongVi
nceuy
ahl
any
a.I
'
m sur
etheguydoesn'
t
gi
veadamn.
Guy
:uhambekahl
esi
siwami
,
uEnj
oye.
Vi
nce:
Shosho.
..
ntombi
yami
kel
eMf
ethu
Guy
:Ahynouy
ashi
sa,
ahymuhl
e.Umgade
▶Theyl
aughedhet
henwal
kedout
.
Vince:
Youlooksobeaut
if
ulIwantpi
ctur
esmami
ne.
Lotsofthem.
Me:you'
resocr
azywho'sthatpoorguy
?Whydi
d
youdothat
?MaraVince.
Vince:t
hat
'sourj
ani
tor
,hawuKuwr
ongukukhomba
abantumybeauti
ful
gir
lf
ri
end?
Me:
ahy
▶Iletoutasmal
lsmi
l
e,Vi
ncekeptqui
etandst
ared
atme.
Me:
Stopi
t.Andgoodby
eungcedel
idat
a.
▶Thandoopenedt
hedoorandwal
kedi
n.
Vi
nce:
Seey
oul
aterIl
ovey
ou.
..
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.Seey
oul
ater
.
Vi
nce:
Enj
oy
Me:
Wil
ldo.*Vi
deoCal
lEnded*
Thando:
Wast
hatVi
nceorBr
andon?
Me:
Hay
isukawenat
hatwasVi
nce.
▶Il
aughed
Me:Not
hingi
sgoi
ngonbet
weenmeandBr
andon
comeon.
▶Thandowal kedoutandIfollowedher.
..every
one
wasstandingattheendofthest ai
rswai
tingforme
towalkdownt hestai
rs.
.Iwalkeddowntheywowed
andgaspedThembawentVi nceonmehesai d"Yho
yhohayihayi
"Iletoutashylaugh..
..
fi
nal
l
ygotdown.
St
epMom:
YouLookbeaut
if
ulmyangel
▶shehuggedme.
"Pl
easedon'
tcr
y.Pl
easedon'
tcr
y"
Iwhi
sper
edtomysel
f.
Every
oneintheroom gavemehear tf
elt
complements.
..Iwassososocl osetocryi
ngbut
Charl
ietol
dmenott ocryorelsehewi l
lki
ll
me
becauseI'
ll
rui
nhishardworkonmyf ace.Mydad
hadaprouddadf aceonhim helookedatwithso
muchpr i
deI'
m surehewantedtocry.
Dad:
Ilov
eyou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oodad.
▶Myphot ographerwasalr
eadyi
nther
oom t
aki
ng
pi
ctur
es.Igreetedhi
m andapol
ogi
zedf
orbei
ngrude
bynotgreet
inghim
Photographer:
Don'
twor
ry,
Iunder
stand.
..Youl
ook
beauti
fulbytheway.
Me:
Thanky
ou
▶Wewentout si
deandtookpi
ctur
esther
e.
Ever
ythi
ngwasgoingwell
unti
li
twastimefora
fami
lypict
ureAwkwar
dmomentalert
..
.Me,
stepmom
anddadt ookapic, Gr
acesf acechanged.Goodness.
SoItookasepar atepict
urewi thher.At18:
04
Nathanbuzzedatt hegate.Wear el
atetheeventhas
al
readystart
edIt houghtAfricanti
mewasf orblack
people,t
hiswhit
eboycamel ate.Helookedreal
ly
good,hewast al
lsot hesuitf i
tt
edhim sowellI
twas
darkbluewit
hat ouchofgol d.
Nat
han:
sor
ryf
orbei
ngl
ate,
coul
dn'
tfi
ndmysock.
▶Myf amil
ylaughed.Di dhej ustfi
nessethem ..
Lol
welldoneNathan. Hegr eetedeveryone,hebroughta
bouquetofPinkr osesandaboxofchocol at
esf or
meguesshej ustfinessedmet oonow.Wet ook
pi
cturesagainAt18: 15wedr oveoff.Nathangota
Lambor ghi
niasourcar .Manmanman.Iwas
smitten.Whil
edrivingtot heevent
Nat
han:
Youl
ookamazi
ng
Me:
Thanky
ou.Andy
oudon'
tl
ookbady
our
sel
f.
Nat
ham:thanksf
ort
hecompli
ment
,canwepassby
myhouse.Mymom i
nsi
sts.
Me:
didy
ouseet
het
ime?
Nat
han:
wewi
l
ltakeaf
ewpi
ctur
esandl
eav
e.Pl
ease.
Me:
Nopr
obl
em.
▶Wegotathi shouse..
..Natashaandherpar tner
werestil
ltaki
ngpicsIcouldn'tseewhoi twas..
.We
gottothem.Itwasmyf i
rstti
meseei ngthisperson
andtomyshockt heytookapi cpret
endingtobe
ki
ssing.
..
Omg. .
.what'
shappeni nghere.Natasha
l
ookedatme
Nat
asha:
Comel
et'
stakepi
ctur
est
oget
her
.
▶Wet ookpicturesjustthetwoofus, t
henwi thour
part
ners.
.t
henwi ththeparentsitwascut e..
.ButI
j
ustcouldn'
tfathom whatwashappeni ng..
.Itall
happenedfastcouldn'taskquestions,NathanandI
werenowdr i
vingtot heevent..
.butitcl
ickedtome
al
readynowIj usthadt omakesur e.
Me:
isNat
ashaLesbi
an?
Nat
han:
Yes.
▶Conf
usedheasked
Nat
han:
youdi
dn'
tknow?
▶Shockedasabi
tchwhoj
ustgotr
obbedIr
espond
Me:
No!
!
▶ IwassoshockedNol ies.
..
inal
lmyyearsof
knowingNatashashehashadoneboy f
ri
endand
manyboycr ushes.Aboynotagi r
l.Nowshe'
s
l
esbian.
.How??Thisisjusttoomuch.Noway s.
Nathan:
ital
socameasashockt
omyparentsShe
cameoutLastmont
hbutIknewsi
ncel
astyear
.
Me:
Lasty
ear
?Omg.
▶Wegotatt heeventther
ewer ecarsallovernot
evenonest udenti
nsighteveryonewasi nsidethe
venue.NathanandIwer elat
el ate.Wepar kedvery
farf
rom thedoorIwasi nheels..
Icouldn'
twal kfr
om
ther
e.Amess.Hehadt ocarryme.
Me:
don'
tdr
opme.
Nat
han:
Iwon'
t.
Me:
can'
tri
ski
t.Let
'sdr
ivet
her
ewi
l
lpar
kthecarat
t
hedoor
.
▶Wedi djustt
hat.
..Weent
eredthevenue.
Every
one'
sEy eswereonuslikewehadsomething
thatt
heywanted.Wewereinstr
uct
edonwer et
osit.
Wehadtowal
kt othef
ront
.Myl ord.
Thest
udent
s
madecomments,t
hewhist
les.Jesus.
▶Wef i
nall
ysatdown.Thepr ogr
ammest art
edand
endedaf
terawhileIwenttomyf r
iendswhowere
si
tti
ngonanothertabl
e.Isatwer
eThat owasseat
ed.
Kamo:
Nibahl
engat
hyani
phaphi
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Didy
ouguy
sseeNat
asha'
spar
tner?
?
Candi
ce:
Thatboyi
scut
e,Isawt
hem
Me:
that
'snotboywenat
hat
'sagi
rl
.
Candi
ce:
Agi
rl
???
Me:
shegotboobsandev
ery
thi
ngIi
nspect
edher
t
hor
oughl
y.
Kamo: Ar
ey outel
li
ngmet hatTashi
sLesbi
anor
they
'r
ejustprom part
ner
s?
Me:
def
ini
tel
yLes,
Nat
hanconf
ir
medi
t.
Khomot
so:
you'
rel
yi
ng!
!
Me:
Str
u.
Kamo:
Nev
er.
..
.Wher
eisshe?
?
▶Welookedar
oundandspot
tedherl
aughingand
bei
ngl
oveydov
eywit
hherpart
ner
.Kamol aughed.
Kamo:
that
'sdisgust
ingt
houghahyguysi
tcan'
tbe.
Nat
ashadatedKobusmosKagr ade10
Me:
Idon'
tgeti
tNam.
Khomot
so:
let
'sgot
othem.
Me:
No.
Candi
ce:
No.
Khomot
so:
heeeIsawChr
is
Kamo:
Don'
tgot
her
e
▶Wel
aughedather
.
Kamo:
Thatwhi
teboybewi
tchedmey
ho.
Me:
youl
ovehi
m ne.
Kamo:
Alot
Us:
Ncoooh.
▶Wet hendeci
dedtomindourownbusi
nessandl
et
t
hem be,westar
tedt
aki
ngpict
ures.
..
Nat
ashacame
tousandwet ookpi cswi thher, weav oidedtal
king
aboutherpar t
nerwewer eallsohappyt hatour
fri
endshi
pr eachedt hesehei ght s..
.we'vebeen
fri
endssinceGr ade10wel lsomeofus.Khomot so
NatashaandIgowayback, Grade10wer ecrui
ted
CandiceandKamo.Wedanced, conv er
satedand
tookpicswi t
hot herstudent s,
ev er
y onelooked
amazingwel lnotEVERYONEsomel ookedl i
keLady
gagaandsomi zicollaborateddesi gnedt heirdr
esses.
ThePr i
ncipalbroughtusbacki ntoor der,weallwent
backtoouror igi
nal seats.
Pri
nci
pal:
Wel l
wellwel
l.
..
let
'ssi
mmerdown.Imust
sayyoualll
ookgoodtoday.
..Youal
ldeser
vear
ound
ofappl
ause.
▶Wecheer edandcl appedforourselves.Hegav ea
shortspeechandwi sheduswel lforourf i
nalexams
thenhewel comedMrZwanewho' saHi story
teacheryouguy sknowt hatonehoty oungt eacher
atschool r
ight?Whoy ou'dsmashi fhewasn' tyour
teacher..
.MrZwanewasoneoft hose.Hewast all
andlightskinned,hadst yl
e,ver
yf r
iendlyhewasa
real
lycoolper son,myf ri
endsandIwer esosad
whenwef i
ndouthewon' tbeteachinguswhenhe
fi
rstcametoourschool.Well
hegr eetedusandhe
star
tedawardi
ngstudents.
Myf ri
endsandIal lgotEnglishandAccount ing
cert
ifi
catesKhomot soandIal sogotComput erand
BusinessCer ti
fi
cat es.Wewer eall
soproudand
happy.ForMat ricDanceFunAwar dsNat hanandI
gotsmal lcutetrophi esforBestDressedcoupl e.
Howcut e.Kamogott heDivaAwar d,Mbaligotan
awardf orbestdr essed.Ther eweremanyot her
awardsgi ven.MyPr om nightwasFUNand
AMAZI NG.I twas21: 34now.Wewer ealloutside
sayi
ngourgoodby est oeachot her.
Khomot
so:
weal
lgonnameetatTaboor
ight
?
Me:
YeahI
'
m comi
ng.
Kamo:
Tabooi
tswher
eisatsi
yol
alaMonday
Me:
Vel
e..
..
Khomot
so:
Seey
oui
nanhourl
ovi
es.
Weal
ldrov
eoffwithourpar
tner
s..
..Ij
ustcan'
twait
t
ogethome,showerup,l
ookcuteandgot otaboo
andseemyboo.

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NSERT65

▶Nat hanandIwer edri

vingtomyhouse
conv ersatingaboutourpl ansforthefutureandj ust
enj
oy ingeachot herscompany ,hewasagr eatprom
partnerIenj oy edev eryminutewithhim...
het r
eated
mewi thsomuchki ndness.He'ssuchagent l
eman.
Wear ri
v edatmyhousear ound22:16Igotof fsaid
goodby eandhedr oveoff.WhenIgotatt hegat eI
i
mmedi atelytookof fmyheel sandbuzzedt hegate.
LookedatVi nce'shouset herewerenocar spar ked
outsideandal sot hel i
ghtswereoff.Guesshe' s
al
readyatTaboo.SoIbuzzedatt hegat eMydadl et
mei n.Igoti nsidethehouse.Thando, Thembaand
Mydadwer ewai ti
ngf ormei nthelounge.
Thando:
Final
l
yyou'
reher
e
▶Shest
oodup
Thando:
..I
'v
ebeenwaiti
ng.
..
hurr
ygoupst
air
sand
changeyourcl
otheswehavetogo
Me:
yhowai
t.
..
.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
I'
m sot
ir
ed.
..
▶Iwalkeduptowheremydadwasseatedandsat
nextt
ohim Il
aidmyheadonhi
sshoul
der.
Dad:
goandr
est
.
▶Iqui
ckl
yremov
edmy
sel
ffr
om hi
m andl
ookedat
hi
m
Me:Rest?
??Dadwhati sthat?Dotheyselli
tor
somethi
ng..
.I'
m notgonnarest
..
.nott
onight
▶Hel
aughed.
Themba:
Icanf
inal
l
ygot
osl
eepnow.
..
Me:
ncoohy
ouwer
ewai
ti
ngf
orme?
Themba:
yeah
▶Igav
ehi
m ahug.
..
Me:
you'
resosweet
..
.
▶Thembawentupst
air
s.
Dad:
didy
ouenj
oy?
Me:
AlooootIev
engott
hese.
..
.
▶Ishowedhi
m myachi
evement
s,hesmi
l
ed.
..
Me:
Ineedanewcarf
orget
ti
ngt
hese
Dad:
Forbei
ngt
hebestdr
essedcoupl
e?Hai
bo
Zamo
▶Ilaughedsohar
d..
.sohedoesn'
trecogni
zemy
cer
ti
fi
cates.
..
Me:dadIgot4Cer
ti
fi
cat
es4!
!Al
lGol
dnoway
sI
needarewar
d..
.
Dad:
you'
l
lgeti
t.
..
Me:
Acarr
ight
???
Dad:
hel
lnoy
oungl
ady
▶Hest
oodupandwentt
obedal
so.
..
Thando:
comeke!
▶Thandodraggedmet omyroom..
.shejustwant
ed
t
opart
yshem nothingmore.Wegotinsidemyroom,
myaft
erpartycl
otheswer
ealr
eadyplacedontopof
mybed..
.Il
aughed
Me:waitami
nut
eIneedt
ogot
othet
oil
etbef
ore
ev
eryt
hing
Thando:
usay
okakaZamo?
?
▶Shewassoannoy
edwi
thmeshem
Me:
I'
ll
bef
astIpr
omi
se.
..
▶Iqui cklytookoutmydr essandwentt ot het oi
l
et
withmyphone. .
.gotthereandr el
easedanAl bum
whileatitIdecidedtocal lVince.
..
hedidn'tpick
up..
.aft
erev eryt
hingIgotoutandwentt omyr oom I
start
eddr essingupIwor et hewhiteAir
force
sneakerst hatVinceboughtme, acamouf lage
tr
ousert hathaspocket sont hesides(
forgott hei
r
name)apl ainwhitevestandabl ackjeanj acketdid
somet ouchupsonmymakeupandIwasr eadyto
go.
Thando:
Shoul
dIor
deranuber?
Me:
yeahy
oucan.
..
wai
t..
.
▶Ianswer
edmyphone.
Me:
hel
l
o.
Khomot
so:
wher
ear
eyou?I
'
m onmywayt
oTaboo
Me:ThandoandIar
eaboutt
oor
deranuberwear
e
coming
Khomotso:
Nodon'
twor
ryabouti
t.
.That
oandIwi
l
l
fet
chyouguys
Me:
OkayBest
ie.
▶Wewai t
edforthem. .
.l
essthan10mi
nut
esl
ater
theyar
riv
edwenot i
fi
edourdadandwe
bounced..
.wegotinsidethecar
Me:
Par
ent
s.
That
o:Heyagai
nzee
Me:
Agai
n??
..
.Inev
ersawut
odaymi
naThat
o
▶Khomot
soandThandol
aughed.
That
o:di
dn'
tyouseeBur
naBoynj
ewenal
apha
kuPr
om
Me:No,IsawSdumot
houghandImustsayy
ou
l
ookjustl
ikehi
m
That
o:mxm y
ou'
reAnnoy
ing
Me:
you'
reannoy
ing.
Khomot
so:
stopi
tyout
wo,
let
'shav
eshot
s..
▶Shet
ookoutabot
tl
eofJackDani
elsandpour
ed
usshot
s.
Me:HayiiMngani
JACKDANI
ELS?
??wher
edi
dyou
gett
his.
..
.
Khomot
so:
stopaski
ngquest
ionsandj
ustdr
inkt
uu.
Me:
ifIdon'
tdietoday
..
.whoboughtt
hisbet
weent
he
t
woofy ou.
..
youguysarecr
azy
That
o:y
a'l
ldr
inki
zi
ntozaboMkhul
u,cont
inue.
Khomotso:
babyy
oucamewi
tht
hisnowut
hyy
abo
Mkhul
u.
▶ Weal llaughedKhomot soandIdr ank3shot s
eachThandodi d1whatacowar d.Wear ri
vedatt he
Af t
erPar t
yVenuewest ruggledtof i
ndparkingwhen
wegott hereitwasquitepacked.Wegotout
Khomot soandIhuggedandhel dhandsandwe
wal kedinside.
..Tabookindal ookedlikeKi
ngsmead
PrivateSchool 2.0becausei twasfil
ledwithkids
from myschool wegoti nsideKamo, Chri
sand
Candi cewer ealreadyi
nt heVI Psecti
on,whodot hey
thinktheyar e!
!Wewentupt othem
Me:
AndThenVI
P?
Candi
ce:
sorr
ybutI
'
m notaboutt
odancewi
tht
hose
ki
dsNope.
Kamo: she'
sly
ing,
shealmostgoti
ntoaf
ight
becausesomeonesteppedonhernewshoes
Khomot
so:
yhuuBr
uceLee
▶Candi
cel
aughed
Candi
ce:
andIdon'
twantt
ofi
ghtt
oday
,these
Jor
dan'
scostal
ot.
Me:
pleasedon'
t.
▶Vi
ncecal
l
edmeIanswer
edv
iat
ext
.
Me:
Papi
..
I'
m atTaboo
Vince:
I'
m atONYXlove.
..
coul
dn'
tgetpar
kingnor
spaceinsi
deTaboo.
Me:
soy
ou'
renotcomi
ng?
Vi
nce:
Yes,
Icancomegety
oui
fyouwantt
o?
Me:
Noi
tsokay
..
.enj
oyy
ourni
ght
.
Vi
nce:
Okay
,Il
ovey
ou.(
22:
45)
▶Ii
gnor
edhi
smessageandt
ookshot
soncemor
e
wit
hmyfr
iends,
wedi
dat
oastanddr
ankt
hose
shot
s.
Candice:
sowhatci
der
sar
ewedrinki
ngtoni
ght
?
Becausethi
sSky
yVodkat
hatweboughtisf
orshot
s.
Me:
Shot
sonl
y?Youguy
swantust
odi
emos
▶Myphonev
ibr
ated.Textf
rom Vi
nce
Vi
nce:
Mami
?Youdon'
tl
oveme? (
22:
56)
▶Iignoredi
tandputmyphonebacki
ntomy
pocket
s
Kamo:
Guar
ana?
Khomot
so:
yeahGuar
anawi
l
ldo
Candi
ce:
Iwantwi
ne.
Us:
Hay
ii
iCandi
ce
▶Candicewant
sust
odi
eHai
bo.MyPhonev
ibr
ated
agai
n.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouangr
yatme?Mami
..
(23:
14)
▶Iwasmor ethanmadbutIwasn'
tgonnal
etwhat
washappeni
ngr ui
nmyspeci
alday
,li
keIdi
dn'
tsee
himt hewholedayandit
shisbir
thdayweagr eed
thatwewi l
lmeetherebutt
henhedeci destogoto
ONYXcl ub.Hemustenjoyhisbi
rthdayther
eand
l
eav emeal oneher
e.
Candi
ce:
okayokayI
'
llbuyj
ustt
hat
,isTashcomi
ng?
Me:
Yeahshesai
dshe'
l
lcome
▶Ot herThatoandChr is'
sfr
iendscamet oour
secti
onandsatwi thus.Thatowentont obuyus
boozeKhomot soaccompani edherandcameback
west art
eddrinki
nganddanci ng.Wedidnotcometo
playeverysongt hatplayedwedancedf ori
teveni
f
wedi dn'
tknowt hesongwemadeapl anand
mumbl edthroughi t
..
.NatashaappearedoutofNo
whereshewassodr unkkkkk
Nat
asha:
let
'sgot
othedancef
loor
Me:
Tashai
sthi
syou.
..
???
?
Candi
ce:
Ilov
eyourdr
ess
▶Shewaswearingawhi t
eshortdress,
shel
ether
hai
rdownandputonar edli
pst
ickandshehad
bl
ackheel
sonshelookedsocut e.Anddr
unk
Nat
ashai
sthecut
estwhendr
unk.
Nat
asha:
Thanky
ouCandi
ce.
▶Shehuggedher
.
Candi
ce:
Okay
..
woahwai
t
▶shepushedheraway
.
Candice:
Idon'twanty
out
oinf
ectmewi
thy
our
l
esbiandisease.
Nat
asha:
Rel
axCandi
cey
ou'
renotev
enmyt
ype.
Khomo,
Kamo&Me:
Yhoooooooooo!
!!
!
▶Wel
aughedatCandi
ce.
Candi
ce:
Wow.
▶Nat ashadr
aggedust othedancef l
oorwe
continuedtodancel i
kecr azzzytheystart
edplayi
ng
HipHopwel osti
t...I
twassol oud..
.westart
ed
twerkingandsingingal ong..
.Khomotsowentt oour
secti
onandcamewi tht heSkyyvodkabot t
leweall
star
teddr i
nki
ngf r
om t hebot tl
e.
Kamo:
Isn'
tthatBr
andon?
Me:
Huuuh?
??
▶I
twasl
oudIcoul
dn'
thearher
.
Kamo:
BRANDON!
!
▶Shepoint
edatt
heDJboot
h..
IsawBr
andon,
I
shookmyhead
Me:
Yeahi
tshi
m.
▶Itappedt heboothhardj ustt
ogethi satt
ention
andgreethim,myt appi
ngwasn' tt
hathardbecause
hedidn'
tseemeshem. .KamoandCandi cejoined
me...
wetappedi tsohardCandi ceyenawasusi nga
fi
st.
..
wefinall
ycaughtBr andon'
sat t
enti
on..
.Iwav ed
athi
m, hewav edback...Hecalledmeupsoon
enoughIwasi ntheboot hnami nexttohim dancing
Br
andon:
Arey
ougood?
Me:
Yes,
you?
Br
andon:
I'
m gr
eat
..
.Wantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Me:
NoIhav
esomedr
inksi
nmysect
ion
Br
andon:
okay
▶Hecont
inuedt
odej
aay.
..
2secondsl
aterhecal
l
ed
oneofhi sfr
iendswhol atercamebackwi t
habot tl
e
ofChampagnewi t
hhim,Brandonopenedi tforme
andIdrankitstraightf
rom thebottl
eandcont i
nued
tosi
ngmyassof fandenjoymyni ghtI'
m sur eafew
peopl
et houghtIwasBr andonsgi r
lf
ri
endbecause
wewer esinginganddanci ngbusylaughingwhi l
ehe
dej
aays...Myf r
iendsstart
edt appi
ngtheboot hI
l
ookedatt hem t oseewhatt heyweresaying
Candi
ce:
Tel
lhi
mtopl
ay"
Star
tedf
rom t
hebot
tom"
Me:
Huh?
??
▶I
twassol
oudal
lIhear
dwas"
bot
tom"
Kamo:
Draaaakkke
Me:
Drake?
??
Them:
Yeaaah.
▶Isdr
akeher
e??Whataretheysay
ing.
..
.Iwent
downt
ohearwhatexact
lyt
heyweresaying
Candi
ce:
tel
lhi
mtopl
ayDr
ake.
..
Kamo:
Star
tedf
rom t
hebot
tom
Nat
asha:
Draake
Khomot
so:
Star
tedf
rom t
hebot
tom,
uyeeev
a
▶YhoNkosi y
amingazengahlukumezeka.
..Iwent
uptotheboot
hagainandaskedBr andont
opl ayt
he
song.Heplayedi
tIwenttomyf ri
ends.Andwe
sangi
twordtowordtothi
sdayt hatsongisour
song.
Us:Start
edf
rom thebot
tom nowwehereee!
!st
art
ed
fr
om Thebottom nowmywhol eeet
eam f
ucken
herr
ee..!
!
▶Brandoncal
ledmeagai nmi nut
eslater
.Il
eftt
he
bot
tlewi
thmyf r
iendsorIdroppeditIdon'
tknowI
not
icedwhenIgotthereandheaskedmeabouti t
.
Brandon:y
oudon'
tknowwher
eiti
s?Wantanot
her
one? ?
Me:
NoThanks.
Br
andon:
Owkay
..
.
Me:
YesThanky
ouf
ort
hebot
tl
e.
Brandon:Noproblem.
.I
'l
lpl
ayt
womoresongst
hen
I
'm outofthi
splaceIhaveagi
gatSumo
Me:
OhReal
l
yI'
m SadIr
eal
l
yenj
oyedy
ourset
.
Br
andon:
thanky
ou
▶Wehuggedgoodby
e
Br
andon:
don'
tyouwannacome?
?
▶AsIwasabouttoanswerIf
eltsomeonet
appi
ng
myshoul
er,
Itur
nedaround.
Me:
Huh?
Ky
le:
He'
scal
l
ingy
ou.
..
▶Hepoi ntedatsomeonewhowasupst air
sIlooked
upndi twasVince.
..
Vince.
??.
.Whendidhegethere??
washel ooki
ngatmewi t
hBrandont
hiswhole
ti
me? ?.
..
omg..
.no..
..
helookedatmeandindi
cated
thatIcomeup.
Me:
Gott
ogo.
..
Br
andon:
Sur
e..
.
▶Il efttheboothwithi
mmedi at
eeffect.
..Andwent
tomyf ri
endstheytol
dmet ogot ohim andthatthey
won' taccompanymet oVince.Whenday saredar k
fr
iendsar efew.SoIlookedupandVi ncewast here
withhi sotherf
ri
ends.Iwassotipsyandscar edto
goupt ohim.Iknowhesawwhathappenedandhe' ll
cutmyni
ghtshor
tthenwewi
l
lgohome.Yhoj
esoo
Kamo:
Takeashot
Nat
asha:
thener
veswi
l
lgoawayy
eah
▶Shel aughed.StupidmeIl ist
enedtot hem andI
tookashot .
.Iwentupst ai
rs.Gotther
ebi rthdayboy
wasl ooki
ngsohandsome. .Icoul
dn'
twai ttohug
him Iknewhesmel ledasgoodashel ooks. .
.hi
s
secti
onwasf i
l
ledwi t
hsomeni ggasandbi t
chesI
didn'
tknowIonl ynoticedPer cyandNt habi t
houghI
j
ustwav edatt hem hesawmeandcameupt ome.
Vi
nce:
Iseey
ouenj
oyi
ngy
our
sel
fther
e.
Me:
...
..

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT66

Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
▶Hel
etoutal
i
ghtl
augh.Ismi
l
edathi
m
Vi
nce:
comel
et'
sgosi
tdown
▶Heputhi
shandsar
oundmyshoul
derandwal
ked
met
oacouchwherehisf
ri
endswer
esit
ti
ng.
Vi
nce:
Att
ent
ion!t
hisi
sNomz
amo.
..
mygi
rl
fr
iend
Nt
habi
:Mi
ssPar
tykahl
ekahl
e?
Vi
nce:
yougetmewena
▶Theyf i
stpumped. .
.Ij
ustlaughedandgr eet
ed
everyoneandt heygreetedbackt herewere3gir
lsI
onlyknew1Nt habiand4guy sIonl yknew2Karabo
andPer cyVince'
sFr i
ends..
VinceandIsatdown
Vi
nce:
doy
ouwantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Me:
NoI
'
m al
ri
ght
,I'
l
lhav
ewat
er
Vi
nce:
wat
er?
?
Me:
yeahIwantt
ocool
downI
'
m ki
ndadr
unkr
ight
now
Vi
nce:
okay
,eyPer
cy?
Per
cey
:Huh?
Vi
nce:
cany
oupl
easedasht
hatCi
rocv
odkaf
ormy
mami.
Per
cy:
sur
e.
Me:
Vodka?Vi
nceI
'
m ser
iousIj
ustwantwat
er.
Vi
nce:
itsonl
y1am r
elax,
dri
nkandhav
efun.
▶Il
aughed,
MyVi
nceseemedhappyandener
get
ic
Me:
happybi
rt
hdaypapi
..
▶Isi dehuggedhi m..
.hehuggedmebackbybur yi
ng
myf aceinhischest..
Iwelcomedhishugandput
bothmyhandsar oundhiswai st
.Vi
ncesmelledso
sosogood.Icoul deathim up.Mydr i
nkcameI
star
teddr i
nkingandtheystartedpl
ayi
nghouse
musi c.
.guessBrandonhasl ef
tandthere'
sanother
deejaynow
Vi
nce:comel
et'
sdance.
▶Hest
ooduphandedmehi
shandt
ohel
pmest
and
upanddancewi thhim.Wef irstdancedtoget her
withhimtappi
ngmyasswhi leIwast werking,tohim
holdi
ngmywai stwhi l
eImov edf orhimtous
steal
ingki
ssesandj ustlaughing.
landdoi ngcr az
y
dances.NzwanooneofVi nce'sfri
endstarteda
chantwhichVincejoinedandt heyallwentcr azy.
..I
wentt osi
twit
hNt habi whowasbusyonherphone
Nt
habi
:your
escuedus,
koONYXbegobhor
a
Me:
rescuedy
'al
lhow?Idi
dn'
ttel
lVi
ncet
ocome
Nthabi
:youdi
dn'
t?Vi
ncet
oldusthaty
ouj
ustcal
l
ed
andyou'
reher
eatTabooandyou'
remadt
hathe
wenttoONYX
Me:hejustwantedtocomeher
e,hetol
dmethat
he'
satONYXandwasn' tcomi
ngheresoIj
ust
i
gnoredhim af
tert
hat.
Ref
il
we:ar
eVi
ncel
i
ed?
▶Ref
il
wewhowasdanci
ngcameandsatwi
thus
Nthabi:
Yeah,butt
hev
ibewasn'
tthi
sni
cet
her
enna
keratagojai
va
Ref
il
we:
howl
onghav
eyoudat
edVi
nce?
Me:
it'
sbeenmont
hsnow.
Ref
il
we:
mont
hs.
..
Hmmm
Nt
habi
:cany
oudancet
houghZamor
e
Me:
awa.
.Imakej
ustapl
an
▶Wel
aughed
Me:
you'
rev
eryqui
et.
..
▶Refer
ri
ngtotheother3r
dgirl
whowassi t
ti
ngwith
usbutwasqui
te,shewasnotevenonherphone.
Miya:Idontknowy
ousowhatar
ewegonnat
alk
about?
▶Ialmostchockedonmydr
ink.May
beshe'
sjust
hav
ingabadday .
Me:you'
reatacl
ubyou'
reobv
iousl
ygoi
ngt
omeet
peopl
ewhom youdon'
tknow.
..
Mi
ya:
Iguess.
Ref
il
we:
didy
oucomeher
ebyy
our
sel
f?
Miya:
oobsessedKaVinceomolat
elal
emo
ay
ang'tengIknowgi
rl
fr
iendsl
i
keyou
Ref
il
we:
eyankar
ewam'
cont
rol
l
erso
Me: what..
.no..
.myfri
endsaredownstai
rsI'
l
lgot
o
t
hem inami nut
e..
.I'
m notobsessed,
VinceandI
wereini
tial
lycomingherehowcanIcont r
ola25
yearold
▶Bat
hongt
hisgi
rl
yisbei
ngspicey..
.I'
m obsessed
wi
thMYboy
fri
endmositsnotours.
Mi
ya:
Hmmm
▶It ookoutmyphoneandt ol
dThatototel
l
Khomot soandot herstocomeup.Theenvi
ronment
herewasbecomi ngabitweir
dforme,20minutes
passedt heydidn'
tcome.IwaswithVi
ncenowwe
werejusttakingpicsandIwassit
ti
ngonhislap
smoki ngHubbl y
.
Me:
I'
m gonnagot
omyf
ri
endsne.
.I
'
llbeback.
Vi
nce:
okaybaby
.
▶IstooduphespankedmyassasIwaswal king
awayIlookedathi
m andlaughed..
Igotdownstai
rs
myfri
endswereinourVIPsectionbusydancing.
Khomot
so:
wena.
..
mawubona.
..
uVi
nce.
..
uyasi
choshel
a.
▶ Si
ngi
ng,
Khomowasnowdr
unk
Me:
I'
m notgonnasi
ngwi
thy
ou
▶Il
aughed.
Nat
asha:
WeBoughtsomuchci
der
s
Me:
wedon'
tev
endr
inkci
der
s
Kamosi
tt
ingonChr
isl
ap:
Idr
ank4guar
ana'
stoday
.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tdr
inkany
Khomot
so:
Idr
ank1
Candice:
Zamor
ewhat
'sgoi
ngonupst
air
sIwantt
o
gothere.
Khomot so:
metoowewannasi
ngt
hehappy
bi
rthdaysongt
oVince
Me:
noway
sguy
s,
▶weareataclubaretheyseri
ous.
.Kamost oodup.
Fi
xedhershor
tredski
rt.
..
tappedherchestand
cl
ear
edherthr
oat.
Kamo:
haappy
ybi
rt
hhhday
yyt
ooy
oooo.
..
..I
'
mready
l
et'
sgo.
Chr
is:
whobr
oughtachi
ckenher
e?
Kamo:
babyIsi
ngl
i
keachi
cken?
?Chi
cken?
?
▶Wel
aughed.
.
Kamo:
wow.
▶Chri
sst
oodupandhuggedKamof
rom behi
ndand
gav
eheraki
ssonthecheek.
Chri
s:nobabynotyou.ButIswearIhear
dachi
cken
si
nghappybirt
hday
▶Kamol
i
ghtsl
appedChr
is.
Kamo:
Mxm
Khomot
so:
evenaChi
ckensi
ngsbet
tert
hanKamo.
Kamo:Isi
ngbet
tert
hany
oumi
naKhomot
sodon'
t
youdar
e!
Natasha:okay
!okayBey
onceandRi
hannal
et'
sgo
upstai
rs.
▶Theyal
lst
oodupandthosewhowerealr
eady
st
andi
ngj
ustwal
kedupstai
rsCandi
cewasleadi
ng
t
hepack.Khomotsof
ell
ont
hest
air
swhi
l
ewewer
e
wal
ki
ngont hem.
Me:
Kant
ywenzani
▶Istar
tedlaughi
ngather
,Kamojoi
nedme.khomo
pi
ckedhersel
fupandfel
lagai
n.
Khomot
so:
yhoguy
shel
pmeup.
..
Natasha:don'
twearheel
stogr
oov
eify
oucan'
t
handlethem
Khomot
so:
wowJahne.WhenDay
sar
edar
k..
.
KamoandI:
Fri
endsar
efew.
..
▶Weal l
didn'
thel
pherwedidn'
ttel
lhert
owear
heelsandgetdrunk..
.wewal
kedupthestair
sgott
o
Vince'
sVVIPsectionKhomot
sowalkedinlast
.
Me:
Vince.
..
▶Hehear
dmeandt
henhecamet
owar
dsus.
..
Vi
nce:
Heyguy
s..
.
▶Hesmi
l
edandhuggedt
hem onebyone.
Khomot
so:
Hul
kdon'
tev
enhugt
hesesnakest
hey
l
eftmehel
plesswhenIf
ell
ont
hest
air
s.
Vi
nce:
youf
ell
??
Khomot
so:
Yes
▶MydrunkKhomoact
ual
l
ywant
edt
ocr
y..
Ncooh
shame
Vi
nce:
Sor
ry
▶Hel
etoutagi
ggl
e
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
Khomotso:I'
m good.
..act
ual
l
yI'm her
etosingyoua
happybi
rthdaysongsohaaaaappybir
thday
y yt
o
yooooou
Kamo:
Hawuses'
cal
i
lekanj
alo
▶Natashal
aughedbutj
oinedKhomot
sosodi
d
KamoandCandice.
..
Vi
nce:
Thanky
ouguy
s..
▶Mybabywassoembar r
assedi
magineagr
oupof
cr
azydrunkf
riendssi
ngi
nghappybi
rt
hdayt
oyou
l
oudl
yinaclub..
.
Khomo:
pleasur
e..
.
Kamo:
arey
ouokayf
ri
end?
Khomot
so:
I'
m okay
▶Shel
aughed
Candi
ce:
howdi
dyouf
all
?
Khomot
so:
Idon'
tknow
▶Weal
ll
aughedather
.
Vince:
forthatper
for
manceyouguysdeser
veacake.
Manjeasinal
o.Wehav eabi
rt
hdaypl
att
eronthe
tabl
ethough
Candi
ce:
andI
'
m hungr
y
▶Candicewentst
rai
ghtt
othet
abl
eandhel
ped
her
sel
f.
..
Kamo:Itol
dmyboyf
ri
endt
hatIwon'
tbel
ongenj
oy
yourbi
rt
hdayne.
Vi
nce:
thanky
ouKamo
▶Kamowentbackdownst
air
swhil
emeandmy
f
ri
endsmadeour
sel
vescomfort
abl
eandsatdown
withVince'sFri
ends. .
.20-30mi nut eslaterNatasha'
s
boyfri
endcalledherdownst airs...Boyfr
iend?She'sa
gir
lthoughdoIst illcallheraboy fri
endora
gir
lfri
end.
..Thisisconf usi ng..
.Hergi rl
fr
iend.Sounds
ri
ghtbutoddany wayshewentdownst air
sonly
Me,CandiceandKhomot sower el ef
tbehi nd.
..
wejust
chil
ledatetheBi r
thdaypl atter
, l
istenedt omusicand
hadani ceconv ersati
onwi t
hVi nce'sfri
ends.
Nzwano:Sohowdoesonegeti
ncont
actwi
th
you.
.j
ustt
ogettoknowyoubet
ter
?
▶Aski
ngKhomot
so
Per
cy:
NzwanoKant
yar
eyounotmar
ri
ed?
Nzwano:
so?Youcanseemyr
ingmos
▶bat hongthi
smar ri
edman. .
.There'
sari
ngonhis
fi
ngerbuthestil
l wantst
ogett oknowKhomo
"bet
ter"Beafr
aidofMen, nev
ertrustt
hem atal
l
dangerous.
speciesthoseones.
Me:
Wow.
▶Iwasshocked.
Vi
nce:
ufunai
sthembubr
uh,
whyi
sheget
ti
ngi
nthe
wayofy
ourhappi
ness.
Nzwano:
dude!Kar
abodoesn'
twantt
oseeme
happy
▶Isi
deey
edVi
nce
Vi
nce:
Ngy
adl
alababy
▶Boyy
oubet
terbepl
ayi
ng.
Nzwano:Answermetuu.Icanev
enemaily
ou,
post
youalet
terIj
ustwantt
ogettoknowyou
Khomotso:mybabydaddyisdownstai
rsy
oucango
andaskhim aboutmehe'l
lgl
adl
yansweryou,
he
knowsmebet tert
hanIknowmysel
f.
▶Iclearedmyt hroat,
Candi
cel
aughed.
.deepdownI
waslikeyesgir
l!!That'
smybestf
ri
end.
..wedon'tdo
t
hatcheatingshithere.
Nzwano:
youhav
eababy
??.
.Kant
yhowol
dar
eyou
guy
s?
Me:
Oldenough
Mi
ya:
Kema2000a
▶Thi
sLadyi
sshadyAFwhat
'supwi
thher
?.I
sshe
t
hreat
enedbyusorwhat
.
Khomotso:
howol
ddowel
ookNzwano,
justt
akea
guess?
Nzwano:
Iwouldn'
tsayy
ou'
re2000s,butt
heseday
s
youwoul
dn'
tknowsoIguess20/21y
earsold.
Nthabi
:l
ooki
ngy oungdoesn'
tnecessar
il
ymean
you'
rea2000though.
▶VincestoodupwithkaraboandRef
il
weandstood
farf
rom ustheyweredoneeati
ngsot
heyst
art
ed
smokingHubblyanddri
nking.
Miya:
Iagr
eemarabakebanababanny
ane.Ska
bonanmel
eyabona
Nt
habi
:okay
.
Mi
ya:AndwenaoJol
elediAgemat
etsagago,
Vi
nceisol
dhewil
lpl
ayyouandl
eav
eyou.
..
Nthabi
:Vi
ncewamor
ataZamore,KeboNzwanoba
t
seyaAdvant
agemobanengbabang
Me:Vi
nceisMi
ne,
whenhel
eav
est
his.
..
hewi
l
lgo
f
rom t
his(
me)t
owhat
??
▶Candicehi
ghf
ivedmeandgassedmeupt
othe
max.
..
Miya:y
ouguy
sar
est
il
lyoung,
hepr
obabl
yseest
he
ass.
.
Me: ev
eni fhedoes.
.hewil
lgofrom t
his(
meawhol
e
snack,thewholepackage,
A-Class).
.t
owhat
??I
'
ma
wholesnackphelaMi naMiya
Mi
ya:
okay
.
Nt
habi
:Ismel
lj
eal
ousyher
e
Candi
ce:
Met
oo
Mi
ya:
Noasej
eal
ousykennet
e
▶Shedi daskankf aceandl ookedaway ..
.soshe
wantsmet oconcurwi ththerubbi shthatshe' s
sayi
n??Lol she'
scraz y.
.Vi
ncehaspr ov edtome
OVERandOVERagai nthathel ovesme. .
whywoul dI
bel
ievethatHe'splay i
ngme. .
.sozet hat '
smyman
andhel ovesme.Mi nuteslat
erasongcameonwe
al
lstart
eddanci ngIwasbusyonmyphonef or2
minutesguy s..
2not10but2mi nutes...whenI
l
ookedMi y awasbacki ngitupf orVi ncebusydoi ng
exoticdancesonhi m maki ngVi ncetot ouchher
boobsIwasshocked. .
.Vincepushedawayandwas
maki nghertostopwhatshe' sdoi ngandsi tdown
butshekeptonr unni
ngherf ilthyhandsonmymans
abs...
itt
ookawhi l
eformet opr ocesswhatwas
goingonandIal sonoti
cedshewasdr unkbutaf t
er
processingwhatwashappeni ng..
.Ifl
ipped..
Istood
upandl it
eral
lyrantowardst hem. .shehadshor t
braidsIgrabbedherbyt hebr aidsandst ar
ted
throwingmul t
ipl
epunchesonher ...
Me:
ucabangaukut
hywenzan?
?ye?
?Sf
ebe.
..
▶Nzwanopul
l
edmeaway
Me:
Nol
eav
eme.
!!
!Ungj
way
elakabi
wena
▶Nt
habi
andPer
cypul
l
edheraway
..
.
Vi
nce:
Babewhatar
eyoudoi
ng?No!
!don'
tdot
his
Mi
ya:
Ont
lway
elamasepaweni
..
tl
amo
Nt
habi
:Mi
yaNo
Mi
ya:
onaganagor
eodi
rango.
.wamphaphel
amos
Me:
ngzok'
khahl
elakeMi
na.
..
▶It
ri
edget
ti
ngNzwanoawayf
rom meIcoul
dn'
t
Vi
nce:
babyst
op.
..OhmyGod.
..
Khomot
so:
leav
eher
..
.
▶Tel
l
ingNzwanoandVi
nce
Khomot
so:
cal
m downZee.
.she'
snotwor
thi
t.
Me:Thi
sbitchgotmefuckedup.
.Iknewshehada
pr
oblem wi
thmeKantyshewantsmyman
Mi
ya:
Idon'
twanty
ourman.
.y
ou'
rej
usti
nsecur
e
Me:
fucky
ou.
▶Itr
iedr
unni
ngt
owar
dshert
ofl
yki
ckher
.Vi
nce
st
oppedme
Vi
nce:
No,
NoLet
'sgo.
..
▶Ev eryt
hinghappenedsof ast.
.Iwasboil
ing..
.Ij
ust
want edt obeatthatgirl
becauseshecl earl
y
disrespectedme. .busythr
owi ngshadeKantyy ou
knowv erywellthatyouwantmymanI '
llf
ucky ouup
kemi na.
..Anywaynextt hi
ngIknowi st
hatmeand
Vincewer edri
vi
nghome.Di dn'timagi
nethatmy
crazypr om ni
ghtwoul dendi nsuchahi ghcrazy
not
e.

Remembert
oShar
e,Li
keandComment
.Lov
eyou
guy
s

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT67
#18SNL

▶Dr i
vingbackhome, i
ts3am it
sv erycoldinsidethe
car
...
Met r
oFM i spl
ayi
ngandsur pri
singl
yVi nceis
nottal
kingtomeIwasst i
l
lki
ndadr unkandIwas
sl
eepinginthebackseatsoIdidn'tmindthatwe
weren'
ttalki
ng,Iwokeupbecausei twasr eallycol
d
andleanedov ertot
urntheheateron.
Vi
nce:
isi
tcol
d?
Me:
yeah.
▶Isai
dthi
sint
hemosti
nnocentsof
tvoi
ce.
Vi
nce:
sor
ry,
youal
ri
ght
?
Me:
Itol
dyouI
'
m good,
arey
oual
ri
ght
?
Vi
nce:
I'
m..
..
▶Heshookhi
sheadandl
aughed
Vi
nce:
I'
m good.
..
sur
pri
sed,
butgoodandshook.
Me:
aboutwhathappened?
Vi
nce:
Yeah.
.
▶Webot
hlaughed
Me:
thi
ngshappenedsof
..
..
▶Myphoner
ang.
..
itwasKhomot
so
Me:
Hun
Khomot
so:
Zeey
ougood?I
sVi
ncemadaty
ou?
Me:YesI
'
m gooddon'
twor
ryaboutme,
Mymani
s
okay
..
.
▶Vi
ncel
ookedatmeandsmi
l
ed.
Khomotso:
Ican'
tev
enheary
ou,
takecar
e*cal
l
ended*
▶Myf r
iendswerest
il
latgr
ooveMi nabecauseI
deci
dedtobeBruceLeeI'
m headi
nghome.Damni t
Vi
nce:
arey
ouhungr
y?
Me:NoI'm okay
.Besi
desIwantchi
ckent
hat
'sr
eal
l
y
hotandspi
ceyandsomer ounds
Vi
nce:
rounds?Roundsofwhat
?
Me:
...
▶Vi
ncel
aughed
Vi
nce:
ahy
.
▶WegotathishouseIwasasl
eepatt
hispoi
nt.I
f
elthi
mtappi
ngmyl eg.
Vi
nce:
Mami
??
Me:
Hmmm?
?
Vi
nce:
Come.
▶Hegotoutoft
hecar
,Ial
sogotoutandmi
ssed2
st
epsandf
ell
.
Vi
nce:
woah,
arey
ouokay
?Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Hel
aughedandpul
l
edmeup.
Me:
Ouch.
..
thi
sisn'
tfunny
.
▶Wegotinsi
dethehouse,Vi
ncewassti
llholding
memakingsur
ethatIwalkst
rai
ghtanddon'tfall
.
We
wal
kedupthest
air
sheplacedmeont opoft hebed.
Vi
nce:
pleasedon'
tfal
l
.
▶Hewentbackdownstai
rst
olockthedoor
,I
r
emai
nedinther
oom andtri
edtogeti
ntheblanket
s
butwowy ourgi
rlwasreall
ydr
unk,whenItr
iedto
reachforabl
ankettocovermysel
fupIfel
lofft
he
bed..
.
Me:
fuckkk!
!
▶St i
ll
sitt
ingdown, Itookof fmyearri
ngsand
watch..
.t
ookof fmyshoesandsockst henIstar
ted
taki
ngmyt r
ousersoff,Ijustwantedtosleepnothi
ng
moreandnot hi
ngless...Iwasstruggl
i
ngt otakemy
braoffwhenVi ncewal kedinIwasi nthemost
awkwar dpositi
on.LmaoIwassi tti
ngdownont he
fl
oormyheadwasbet weenmyl egsandmyhands
werebehindmybackt r
y i
ngtountangl
et hebras
hook.
Vi
nce:
whatt
hef
uckar
eyoudoi
ng?
?
Me:
I'
mtr
yingt
otaket
hisof
f
▶Ipr omiseyouIwassoannoy ed,t
earswereon
theirway,Ij
ustwantedt
ogetthisbraoffrel
easemy
breastandsleep.
.Butnothi
sfucki
ngbr ahadother
plans..
Vi
nce:
don'
tcr
y..
..
ohmygod
▶Vincehel
dbackhisl
aught
er,
hej
ustshookhi
s
headi
ndisbel
i
efl
ike"who'
sdumbgir
lf
ri
endist
his"
Vi
nce:
comel
etmehel
pyou.
.
▶Heunhookedmybr
athenhel
pedmeup.
..
Me:
Iwannasl
eep.
..
Vi
nce:
okay,
l
et'
sgety
oui
nthebl
anket
s.
▶Hehelpedmegeti
nthebl
anket
ssot
hatIcan
sl
eep.
Vi
nce:I
'
vemadey
ouchi
ckent
hough,
youdon'
twant
i
tanymore?
Me:
chi
cken?
Vi
nce:
Zeey
ousai
dthaty
ouwantchi
cken
Me:yesIdi
d,butwhendi
ditdef
rost
?whendi
dyou
cookit
?.Iwantafri
edchi
cken.
Vi
nce:i
tsf
ri
ed, i
tst
healr
eadymadeoneIj
usthadt
o
mi
crowaveitandserv
eit
Me:
wher
eisi
t?
▶Hewentandt
ooki
tfr
om hi
swor
kingt
abl
e.
Me:
Thanky
oubaby
..
..
Vi
nce:
you'
rewel
come.
▶Ist
art
eddi
ggi
ngi
n,Vi
ncest
art
edundr
essi
ng
Me:
papi
,i
tisnothott
hough?
Vi
nce:
soy
ouwantt
heNandossauce?
Me:
yeah
Vi
nce:
yhooonkos'
yam
▶Hewentdownstai
rsandcamebackwi
thasauce
f
rom Nandos.
..
Vi
nce:
her
e..
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
▶Iatethatchickenli
keIhaven'
teatenin10days,i
t
wassojuicyandsohotint hemostperfectway,i
t
honest
lyfel
tli
keitwasthebestchickenI'
veeverhad.
WhenIwasdoneVi ncetookmyplateandhanded
mewar m cl
othformyhands.
Vi
nce:
yhoCanwesl
eepnow?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Yes.
▶Heswi tchedoffthel
ight
sandgotint
obedwi t
h
me.Camecl osertomeandhuggedmef r
om behi
nd
becauseIwasf aci
ngtheotherway
.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
▶Ismil
ed,andmyheartsmiledtoo.BecauseIknew
hemeanti
t,Icoul
dfeel
it.I
tfel
tsoright
.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Hecameev enmor
eclosertomeandputhi
sar
ms
ar
oundme.Andhebabykissedmyneck.
Vi
nce:
Goodni
ght
.
▶Ikeptquietthistime, didn'tsayitback.minutes
l
ater,meandmymi ndst artedtalki
ng.Sooonosex
today?Notev en1r oundf orcont r
ol?May behe's
ti
red.
..
butIreall
yreallywantt odot hi
s..
.oneround
won'thur
t.Iconvincedmy self..
yesI'l
lwakehim up
andthenwecanhav e1r oundev enifi
tsfor2
minutesi
tsfine.
.Ishest i
llawaket hough?
Me:
Vince?
Vi
nce:
...
▶It
appedhi
sar
mthatwasar
oundme.
Me:
Vince?
?
Vi
nce:
..
..
Me:
Argg.
▶He'sasleepal
readyImeanitsbeen5mi nut
es
si
ncehesaidgoodnight
,maybehe'signor
ingme
becauseofwhathappened.Maybe.
..
Me:
Vincear
eyoui
gnor
ingmebecauseoft
hatgi
rl
?
Vi
nce:
...
.
Me:Imeanify
oul
i
kedwhatshewasdoi
ngwecan
goback.
..
Vi
nce:
..
..
▶Bat hong.Isthisguyreal
lyasleep..
Itappedhis
handonel astti
me, i
ndeedhewasasl eeppr obably
dreamingaboutmer i
ghtnow, Lol.SowhatdoIdo
nowwi thmy self
,Iaskedmy self
.DoIsl eep?Wake
hi
m uporwhat ?I'mreal
lyhornynowIj ustcan'tfal
l
asleep.
..
Notknowi ngwhatt odowi thmy selfI
grabbedVince'sarm andpulledhishandcl oserto
me.Igentlypoisedhisindexf i
ngerinmymout hthat
wascl osedandhel dhi sot herf i
nger sandmadehi m
closehi shandbutIputhi sindexf ingeri nmymout h.
Igent lypushedhi si ndexf ingeri nsi deofmymout h..
.
Ipushedi tint henout ,I
twassowar m Ideci dedto
puti tinagai nsl owl y .
..Pulledi toutt henIr anmy
tonguear oundhi sf i
nger .
..mysanemi ndcameback
tomeIl etgoofhi shand. .whatam Idoi ng?
embar rassi ng.Icl osedmyey esandt riedt osl eep.It
feltsogoodt hough. .."Grabi tanddoi tagai n"my
i
nt uiti
onwasscr eami ngatme. .
.Iqui cklyy etsof t
ly
pulledhi shandt owar dsmeagai n. .
.Ist arteddoi ng
thesucki ngofhi si ndexf ingeragai n.Thi st i
me
thingsgotheat edsof astbecauseIcoul dfeel
Vince'sscentandwar mt hbehi ndme.Ist arted
slowl ybutsur elypushi ngmyasst owar dshi swar m
manhoodar eaandst artedasl owsexual mov ement
onhi m whi lesucki nghi sthumb. ..Itf eltsosogoodI
don'tknowi fi
tst heVodkaormedoi ngal lthis
becauseonet hingf orsur eIdon' tknowwhatt he
fuckI '
m doi ngbuti tfeelssogood! !
...nextt hingI
knowIwasmoani ngaser iousmoan. ...
butIkepti t
l
owwel lIt houghti twasl owunt i
l Ihear dachuckl e.
Vi
nce:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Iimmediat
elystoppedwhatIwasdoingli
keakid
whowasjustcaughtsteal
i
ngcandyfr
om thecandy
j
ar.
Vi
nce:
Don'
tst
op.
..
▶Hesaidthisi
nthemostsof
tvoi
ce.
..Her
emoved
hi
shandundermyarm andpl
acedi
tonmyr i
ght
br
east
,squeezedi
t.
..
andhegr
oaned.
Vi
nce:
Cont
inue.
Me.
..
..
▶YhoIwassoembar
rassed.
..
ngy
ocal
aphy
.
Me:
huh?
▶Vi
ncepl
ant
ingki
ssesonmyneck.
Vi
nce:
Cont
inue.
▶Imoaned, Vi
ncej ustknowswher eandhowt o
touchme...wtf
..
.onceagainIwasdoi ngthoseslow
sexualmov ementsonhi m,hispenisstart
edgrowing
asIwassl owlymov i
ngarounditsexuall
ywit
hmy
ass..
.andVincesuckingonmyneckwasj ust
heavenly
...Istart
edmoani ngal i
ttl
einpleasure
becauset hisiswhatIwant edexactly,
this
unexplai
nabl efeel
ing.hestart
edst r
oki
ngmef r
om
behindwithhi sboxerson..
.Imoanedhi sname. .
.i
t
wasget t
ingsoi ntensehimr ubbingonmybr easts,
thebreathingheav i
ly,
OhGod. .
.
Me:
Please.
..Pl
ease.
..
Vi
nce:
Youwanti
t.
.?
Me:
yes.
..
.!
▶Moani
ngheav
il
y.
..
.
Me:
please.
..
.
Vi
nce:
Takei
t.
..
.
▶Ii mmediatel
yt urnedar oundandf acedhim, the
fi
rstthi
nghedi dwast ogr abmywai standpul ledme
towardshimt oki sshim andf irstt
hingIdidwhenI
facedhim wast ogost raightt ohimy ummyl ipsand
kisshim..
.wekissedsol onganddeepwhi l
eour
handswer eundr essingus. nextthi
ngIknowhewas
ont opofmegr indingagai nstmesoHARD. .
.raw..
.
Stupidus,ar
ewet r
yingtomakeanot herbaby?
▶Wewer esol ostinthesex. ...
focusedonnot hi
ng
butthepleasureandt hepower ful sexchemi st
rythat
wehadatt hatpoint...
Vi ncest artedgr idi
ngonmeso
fuckenhar ditwasr idi
cul ous, Ifeltitinmy
esophagushest artedl osinghi msel finthe
overwhelmi ngpleasuret hatwewer eexperienci
ng
...
"Fuck. .
..Babyy ou'resodel i
cious"heeegoodsex
guysLol willmakey oucr azyIswear ,am Ifood?
ThatallofasuddenI '
m del iciousLol .Anywayhe
cameandwef ellasleepnakedwi thmel ayingonhi s
chestandhi mfacingup. .
.t
hat '
showwewokeupt he
mor ni
ngat11am. ..
.Appar entlyMuzi wokeusup.
Don'twor r
yhedi dn'tfindusnakedwewer ecovered
up,wellthat'swhatVi ncet oldmeIhopehe' snot
l
y i
ngbecauseheknowsI 'l
lfreakout .
..

▶I t
saMondaynow, Idi
dn'tgotoschool because
that
'swhatmeandmyf ri
endsagr eedon. .
.Igot
homet odayaround7am short
lyaftermydadl ef
t,
i
ts9am nowIknowI '
minBI Gtr
oubl e,Iswitchedoff
myphonedur ingthewholedayyest er
day ,
Mydad
couldn'
treachme...
.Any
wayI '
llf
acet hemusi cwhen
hecomesbackf rom wor
k.I'
minmyr oom now
l
isteni
ngtomusicandremini
scingaboutt
he
crazy,
beaut
if
ul,
niceweekendIhad

▶Remembert
oLi
keshar
eandCommentf
ort
he
nexti
nser
t

#NomzamosDi
ary
#Zamonce
#I
NSERT68

▶IwasonWhat sAppchatt
ingwithmyfr
iendson
gr
oupchatwhenSes'Thokoknocked.
.
Me:
youcancomei
n.
▶Sheenter
ed.Iputmyphoneawayanddr
ewal
lmy
at
tent
iont
oher.
Ses'
Thoko:
canImakey
oubr
eakf
ast?
Me:
NoSes'
ThokoI
'
m good.Thanky
ou
▶Igr
abbedmyphonebackandcont
inuedt
ochat
.
Ses'Thoko:
ntombi y
ourdadisreal
l
yworri
edabout
you,andhe'sreal
l
yangrythaty
oudidn'
tcomeback
Saturdayni
ght.
Me:AahSes'
Thokoitwasmyprom ni
ghtandi
twas
Vi
nce'
sbir
thdayweekend,
IknowI
'mintr
oubl
ebut
mydadshouldrel
ax.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
Iguess,
hesai
dIshoul
dgi
vey
out
his.
▶Shewascar r
yingapaperbag,
Isatupst
rai
ght
becauseIwasl
yingonmybedandIt ooki
t
Me:
whati
sit?
Ses'
Thoko:
Idon'
tknow.
.
▶Shewal kedout .
..i
nsi
det her
ewasamar oonbox
turnedupsidedownsoIt ookitoutofthepaperbag
andt urnedthef rontoftheboxt ome.WhenIsaw
theGol dwor dswr itt
eni
nbol d" Car
ti
er"onacard
thatwasbesi dethemar oonboxIi mmediatel
y
startedshaking...Icoul
dn'tbri
ngmy sel
ftoopening
thebox. .
.Icl
osedmyey esandopenedt hem again.
..
Iscreamedmyl ungsout
Me:
Noway
!!
!!
▶Iquickl
ycov er
edmymouthbecausetear
swere
al
readyli
ninguptodrop,
Ist
art
edcryi
ng.
..
Ses'
Thoko
knockedonmydoor .
Ses'
Thoko:
Zamo?
▶Loudl
yIanswer
ed
Me:
I'
m okay
..
.
▶Iguessshelef
t,Istoodupandstart
edlaughi
ngi
n
di
sbel
ief
..
.Iwashesit
anttoopentheboxandsee
whatwasinsi
dethoughmyheartalr
eadyknewwhat
wasinside.
..
.Icoul
dn'
tevenst
andmylegswere
weakfrom beingexci
tedt
oomuchitwastoomuchI
sl
owlywentbackt omybedandsatnextt
othebox.
Me:
Noway
s..
.Thanky
ouGod.
▶It ookt hecar dandopenedi t,itwasacer ti
fication
oft hebr acelet ,Ipl acedi tasideandt ookt hemar oon
boxandpl acedi tonmyl apandopenedi t,i
t
i
mmedi atelyt ookmybr eathawayIact uall
ycan' t
fi
ndt her ightwor dst oexpr esswhatIf eltwhenIsaw
myr osegol d18kcar atCar ti
erbr acel
et..
.Iwasst il
l
cryingIcoul dn'tst opcr y i
ng...Itoldmydadt hatI
want edaCar tierbr aceletwhenIwas16buthe
i
mmedi atelydel et edt hatideaandt ol
dmet of orget
abouti tbecausei twasexpensi v ekodwaIkepton
pest eringhi m abouti tunt i
l l
asty earwhenwewent
toadi nnermeet i
ngi nDur banwi thhi
sf r
iendandhi s
fri
endsgi rl
friendwhowas22, shewear ingitandI
coul dn'tst opcompl ement ingherabouti tduri
ng
dinnerpoorgi rlwasj ustt r
yingt ohaveaqui te
nor mal dinnerwi thhersugardaddyandIwasbusy
talkingaboutt hebr aceletandhowcut eshewasshe
wasper fecty hoIwonderwher eshewentuLov er.I
wipedmyt ear sandr eachedoutf ormyphone.I
call
edmydadbuthedi dn'
tpickup. .Ical l
edhi ml i
ke
5ti
meshest i
lldidn'
tpickup. .
.Ist artedt ypingal ong
l
ongl ong" t
hanky ou"and" I
'm sor ryaboutt he
weekend"messaget ohim..Isenti t.
..Iglancedatt he
braceletIhav en'
tev entouchedi tyet...Iwasi nawe
forreal,Icouldn'tfathom shit.20mi nut eslat erI
grabbedi ttookt hescrewdr ivery ouuset oweari t
andwentt oSes' Thokowhohel pedmeputi ton..
.i
t
wassoheav ywhenIputi tonBUTi tl ookedl i
keit
belongedonmywr i
stitwasper f
ect, whatIl ike
abouti tisthatt heonl ywayy oucant akei tof fi
s
wheny ouunscr ewi t.
..
Iheardmyphoner i
ngi ng
upstairs, Iranupgoti ntomyr oom cl osedt hedoor
andr eachedf orit.I
twasVi nce
Vi
nce:
Hel
l
o
▶Hel
l
o?Bat
hongandt
hen
Me:
HeyPapi
.
Vi
nce:
yougood?
Me:
YesI
'
m good,
per
fect
..
arey
ouokay
?
Vi
nce:
Me?YesI
'
m good.
..Iwasj
ustchecki
ngupon
y
ou.
..Thoughtmay
bey
ou'
rebor
edy
abo
Me:
Wel
lyeahIam bor
ed.
..
canIv
isi
tyou?
Vi
nce:
No!
Me:yohokay,
Iwasjustki
ddi
ng.
..
what
'supar
eyou
sur
ethatyou'
reokay
?
Vi
nce:
YesMami
Me:
Okayt
hen.
Vi
nce:
yousoundex
cit
ed
Me:
exci
ted?Nopapi
I'
m ov
erexci
ted.
Vi
nce:
real
l
y..
.What
'
shappeni
ng?
Me:
not
hingser
ious.
.
Vi
nce:
comeon.
..
."
hi.
..
yes.
.y
oucancomei
n"
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
..
.bbeI
'
llt
alkt
oyoul
ater
..
Me:
i
tsokay
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
..
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oPapi
.*
cal
lended*
▶IgotonWhatsAppandsetapi ct
ureofmeandmy
dadasmyprof
ilepict
ureandset"Ilov
eyoudaddy
"
asmystat
us.
..
.Jasontext
edme.
Jay
:ar
en'
tyousupposedt
obeatschool
?
Me:
HahahaIdi
dn'
tgot
oschool
today
.
Jay
:why
?
Me:
becauseIdi
dn'
twantt
oDad.
.
Jay:chi
ll
,I
'm notpar
ent
ingy
ouThembawi
l
ldot
hat
l
aterforme.
Me:
don'
tcal
lmydadbyhi
snamewena.
Jay
: whatar
eyoudoi
ngnow?
Me:
I'
mjustchi
l
li
ng,
Iwannanapt
hough
Jay
:comet
hroughatt
hest
udi
o
Me:
wher
e?
Jay
:I'
l
lsendy
oul
ocat
ion.
.
Me:
sendi
t.
Jay
:yeahcome,
Brandonwi
l
lbeher
e.
Me:
mxm I
'
m notcomi
ng.
Jay
:justki
ddi
ng,
come.
Me:
no,
byeJay
.
Jay
:I'
m ki
ddi
ngNana.
▶Hesentt
hel
ocat
ion
Jay
:youcomi
ngr
ight
?
Me:
Idon'
thav
emoneyf
oruber
Jay
:stopl
yi
ngj
ustcomet
hrough,
I'
ll
buyy
ou
MacDonal
ds
Me:
notenough
Jay
:AndVodka.
..
Me:
Idon'
twantal
cohol
inmyl
i
feany
mor
e
Jay
:ahmmmm,
Lol
whatdoy
ouwantt
hen?
Me:ABigMac,
Fant
api
neappl
e,Ki
tKatandBl
ue
dor
it
os.
Jay
:you'
l
lgett
hem wheny
ougether
e.
Me:
I'
ll
bet
her
ein20mi
nut
es.
Jay
:
▶Igotof fmybedwentt oshowerbecauseIbat hed
atVi nce'
spl acebutbef orehel ef
tforwor kwehada
quickiedon' twor r
yguy swehadpr otectedsexthis
ti
me, andSundaymor ningVincewentt obuy
mor ningafterpi l
lssoI'm safe.AftertheshowerI
startedloti
oni ng,whendoneIt ookclothesof ft
he
war drobeout fitofthedaywasal l
whi t
esuperst ar
sneaker s,ablackAdi dast r
ackpant ,alongr ed
shoul dercropt op,ablackbuckethatandIal soput
onar edli
pst i
ckIor deredanuberi tarri
vedandI
l
ef t
...
onmywayIt ext
edj ay
.
Me:
I'
m onmyway
Jay
:don'
tbeshywheny
ougether
e.
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
▶hebluetickedmyass.Igotatt
hest
udi
oand
cal
ledJay
,Ist oodatt
hegat
eandwait
edforhi
mto
comeandf etchme.Hecame.
Jay
:Li
lsi
s
Me:
Hey
..
.
Jay
:yougood?
..
.Let
'swal
kthr
ough
Me:yesI
'
m good,
whatdi
dyoumeanby"don'
tbe
shy"
▶Hel
aughed
Jay:not
hing,
justdon'
tbest
uckup,
conv
ersat
ewi
th
other
s.
Me:
aret
her
eal
otofpeopl
e?
Jay
:Nopewear
eli
ke7or8
▶7? ?
??Yhooo.Wewalkedinthestudi
o,Jay
i
ntr
oducedmeashisLilsi
ster
.BrandonandTeezy
weret
here.Br
andonwasmaki ngbeatsandTeezy
wasonacouchIsatnexttoher.
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Teezy
:wr
it
ing.
..
Me:
you'
reasi
nger?
▶Teezyl
aughed
Teezy
:Nosi
l
ly,
Irap.
Me:
Owkay
..
Teezy
:yeahIhav
etof
eat
urej
ayonhi
supcomi
ng
al
bum, Iwasn'
ti
nt hecount
rysoI'
l
ljustjumponone
ort
woofhi ssongsrnbecausewedon' thav
eti
me,
hi
salbum iscomingoutonthe1stofDecember.
Me:
Ihear
d,can'
twai
ttol
i
stent
oit
.
Teezy
:tr
usti
tsgonnabef
ir
e.
Me:
Sowher
ewer
eyou?
Teezy
:LA
Me:
oooh
Teezy:y
eah,mypar
ent
saredivor
cedsomymom
wantedtoseemeandstuf
fit
sfuckedup.
Me:
par
ent
s
Teezy
:st
ress
▶atl easty ourmom want stoseey ou,minedoesn't
wantany t
hingtodowi thme.Isi l
entl
yinmyhear t
saidthis.Jaystartedr appingBr andonandDuket he
otherbeatmaker s/producer swer etel
li
ngJaywhen
tosaywhatandj ayt elli
ngt hem whathewant sand
stuff
..otherdudesont hecor nerwerejustli
steni
ng
tothesongs, cr
ackingj okesi twasfunandJayi sa
greatrapperwoaht hispr ettyboywakogaecanr ap.
..
Teezy
:Br
andon?
Br
andom:
Huh?
Teezy
:yougotSnow?
Br
andon:
You'
reaboutt
ojumpi
ntheboot
h?
Teezy
:yeah.
.I'
mready
Br
andom:
Okay
..
.
▶Br andonsearchedhishoodyandt ookout
COCAI NEguy s,
snowkecocai ne.Iwasshooket h.He
passeditont oTeezyli
keitwasnot hingIj
ustlooked
atthem...
Brandonwinkedatmest upidmeIsmi led
athim, Teezypouredabitofitont hepalm ofher
hands..
.andtastedit
,Jaygotoutoft hebooth
Jay
:Can'
tbel
i
evey
ouni
ggasf
ini
shedt
hesnowf
rom
LA.
Mel
vi
n:t
hatst
uffwasf
ir
eyow
Jay:
dawgIsmokediti
nmycr
ibwi
thmyhun,
thef
ir
e
sexwehad.
..
ahhhdawg!!
▶Theyal
ll
aughed.
..
Br
andon:
fini
shupy
a'l
lIwannagohome.
Teezy
:waaai
i
t..
..Thi
sonei
supt
ightt
heseday
s
Jay
:babymamai
ssues.
Mel
vin:Br
andonhast
hecrazi
estbabymama, I
t
houghtKylehast
hecr
azi
estbutBrandonswooow
Pearl
:bruhrememberwhenwewer eatZi
mbali
,
bi
tchthrewaheel atmeforrefusi
ngtoopenthe
doorforherbecauseshethoughtthatJaywas
Brandon,Iwasscaredasshit
.
Brandon:eyeyeyrel
axcanwemakemusi c.
..
and
stoptal
ki
ngaboutmyper sonall
if
e.Shi
tispersonal
ya'l
lar
etalki
ngabouti
tinpubli
c
▶Wel
aughedsohar
dbecausedudewast
ouched.
..
.
Jay
:Sor
ryman
▶Theyshookhands,
Pear
llaughed.
Teezy
:okaynowI
'
mreadyt
oshi
tony
ouni
ggas.
▶Shest
oodup.
..
Br
andon:
Zeei
sthataCar
ti
er?
Me:
Yeah
Pear
l:
.bi
tchy
ougotaCar
ti
er?
?WoowcanIsee
Matt
:shawdywal
kingaroundwi
thasi
xtyf
ive
t
housandrandbr
acelet
...
wow
Mel
vi
n:R65000?
???
!!
!!
Teezy:bruhIwould'
vewal
kedi
nher
eandf
lexon
ya'
llpoorasses.
▶Theyl
aughed.
Melvi
n:shawdyi
syour
ichorsl
ayqueen?
?no
of
fense
▶Il
aughed
Me:
Nont
aken,
wel
i
vinggood
Pear
l:ooooh,Il
i
keher
Br
andon:
ohIsee.YourNi
ggai
smoni
edt
oot
hough
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
Jay
:howdoy
ouknowt
hat
??
▶Br
andonl
aughedandt
urnedhi
schai
r.
..
Br
andon:
Iknowpeopl
ewhoknowpeopl
e.
▶Ni
ggast
opl
yi
ng,
youwantmeandy
ouhav
emeon
yourFacebookIpostmyNi ggasoy ousawmymans
andwentt hr
oughhi spictur
es.Theyfi
nished
recordi
ngwest art
edlisteni
ngtoHiphopand
smokedHubbl yitwasj ustachil
l
ingsession.
..
Vince
textedme
Vi
nce:
I'
m backcomeandv
isi
tmeke.
.
Me:
lol
I'
m nothome.
Vi
nce:
youwentt
oschool
?(16:
08)
Vi
nce:
arey
ouatanet
bal
lpr
act
ice?(16:
15)
Me:
No,
I'
m wi
thJayandhi
sfr
iends.
Vi
nce:
Wher
e?
Me:
att
hest
udi
o
Vi
nce:
okay
.
Me:
yeahwi
l
ltal
klat
er.
Vi
nce:
who'
sgonnabr
ingy
ouhome?
▶Ohmygod, Vi
ncehasstar
ted.
.Itst
artsli
kethi
s..
..
I
meanIcant
akecareof.
..
.ar
ggletmej ustanswer
hi
m
Me:
Jayoruber
.
Vi
nce:
okay
.
Pear
l:doy
oual
sodoSnowl
i
key
ourbr
other
?
Jay
:I'
l
lki
l
lher
..
noooo
Mat
t:whyki
l
lher
??,
you'
redoi
ngi
t.
Me:
yeswhy?
Jay
:shi
tisaddi
cti
vebr
uh.
.
Me:
youguy
sdon'
tl
ookl
i
keaddi
ctst
hough
Pearl
:wecancont
rol
it,
butt
rust,
wecan'
tl
iv
e
wit
houti
t.
▶Myphonest
art
edr
ingi
ng.
..
itwasVi
nce.
..I
answer
ed.
.
Me:
hel
l
o?
▶Ial
sost
oodupandwentout
side.
Vi
nce:
tel
lmewheny
ou'
rehome,
takecar
e.
Me:
okaybbe.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooPapi
.
▶Iwentbacki
nsi
de.
Br
andon:
you'
rewant
ed?
Me:
No
Jay
:want
edbywho?
▶Brandonshr
ughi
sshoul
der
s.Anot
if
icat
ioncame
t
hrough.
Vi
nce:
sendmey
ourl
ocat
ion,
I'
m comi
ngt
ogety
ou.
▶Wt
f.
.comi
ngt
ogetmef
ori
ni.
..
Me:
Idon'
twantt
ogohomekodwaVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
Imi
ssy
ou.
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo.
Vi
nce:
soI
'
m comi
ngt
ofet
chy
ou,
sendt
hel
ocat
ion.
▶ Isenti
tandi
n30mi nut
esVincewasal
ready
par
kedoutsi
deandIhadtoleave.
Me:
Ihav
etol
eav
eguy
s
Teezy
:whysoear
ly?
Me:
Myboyfr
iendsher
eandbesi
desIhav
eschool
t
omorr
ow.
Jay:
Iwasgonnadropyouoffbef
oret
herent
sgot
homethough,andwer
en'
tyouwit
hthi
sguythe
wholeweekend?
Me:
Iwas,
he'
sal
readyher
ethough.Seey
ousoon
Pear
l:By
elov
e,y
oul
ookl
i
key
oudon'
twantt
oleav
e
Me:
Idon'
twantt
o.
▶Iwassosaaaadt
hatIwasl
eav
ing,
Ienj
oyedbei
ng
wi
tht
hem.
Mat
t:seey
ousoonRi
chki
d.
▶Ilaughedandexi
tedthest
udi
o..
Igotout
sideand
goti
nsideVi
nce'
scar.
Me:
Real
l
y?
Vi
nce:
what
??
▶Il
ookedawayandf
oldedmyar
ms.Wedr
oveof
f.
Vi
nce:what
'supwi
thyou?I'
vemissedyouandIj
ust
want
edtobewithy
ou.Isthataprobl
em?
Me:
youknowt
hat
'snott
het
rut
h.Youal
way
sdot
his.
Vi
nce:
dowhat
??
Me: thi
s! !
..
.You'
rereal
lypossessi
veVinceandyou
don'twannat alkaboutit
,youcoveritwit
h"Imiss
you""Il oveyousomuch""Ij ustwannabearound
you"ev erydamnt ime.
..
youdon'twantmet obeout
withfri
endsorpeopl elongerthanyouwant.I
fyou
feelli
keI '
vehadenoughf unyou'l
lcomeandfetch
meandcutmyf unti
meshor t
.
Vi
nce:
soy
ouwantt
ogoback?
Me:don'
tgivemethat
,youshouldjustst
opt hi
s.I
l
oveyou,youknowIdo.Thi
sisjustnothealthy
comeon.Itsnotl
i
keI'
l
lgoandcheatony ou.And
youknowthis.
▶Iwassoangr y,Vincenev erwantsmet ogoand
havefun, i
fhe'snotar oundi t
sapr obl
em.Hewant s
met ohav efunwi thhi m around.Hewant smy
happinesst obeconsumedbyhi m ormyf amily
..
.t
his
i
sVince' stoxi
ct r
ait.
..Atf i
rstIthoughthewasj ust
smitt
enbyme. ..Asmont hswentbyIsawt hati
t
wasn'tjustsweetj ealousyitwasar ealt
hingandit
wast oxic.
.Imi ssedsomanyBashes, bi
rt
hday
celebrati
ons,becausehewasn' tther eandt hat
meantIcoul dn'tbet hereeither.TheDur bant ri
phe
cameunannouncedheev enst olemeawayandI
sleptathishouset hatwast hef irstredf l
agbutnoI
thoughthewasbei ngsweetbutnopeact ual l
ynothe
necklacethingwast heredf lagIst illwearittoday
I'
m ev enwearingitnowbecausewhenev erIshowup
ngingakay i
gcokangai t
sapr oblem . .
.he'
sv ery
domi nantandpossessi veitssickeni ng.Iguessno
onei sfull
yperfect.Vincei smydr eam guy
everythi
nghedoesandsay si sper fectbutt hi
sis
j
ustwhatIdon' tli
keabouthi m.
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ryokay
.
Me:
..
..
.
Vi
nce:
okay,
Iadmi
tthatI
'
minsecur
e.
Me:
youknowt
hati
tsnotani
nsecur
it
y.
Vi
nce:
ify
ouwerehavi
ngsomuchf
unwhydi
dyou
al
l
owmet ocome??
Me:inev
ery
thi
ngthatIhavej
ustsai
dtoyou,y
ou
chooset
osaythat
??Reall
y??..
yhohayi
fuckoff
Vi
nce!
▶We' ver eachedourst reetatthi
spointIgotout,
bangedt hedoorandwal kedinsi
demyhouse.I twas
18:06Mydadwasn' thomey etsoIst
artedprepari
ng
thedinnert ableforus.Becausehewoul dbeher ei
n
af ewmi nutes.Mydaddygotback, wet al
kedand
reconcil
ed, Vincekeptoncal li
ngandIkepton
Rejecti
nghi scalls.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT69

▶Tuesdaymor ni
ngIwokeup, di
dmymor ning
routi
neafterev
erythi
ngIheadeddownst
airsfor
breakfast
.
Me:
Mor
ning.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
HeyNt
ombi
Me:
wher
e'smydad?
Ses'
Thoko:
Ithi
nkhe'
srunni
ngl
ate.
.
Me:
that
swei
rd.
.
Ses'Thoko:y
esi
tissounl
i
kehi
m,buther
e'sy
our
breakfast
.
▶Shehandedmeachi
ckenmay
osandwi
chand
cof
fee.
Me:
Thanky
ou.
..
▶Ist
art
edeat
ing.
..
Mydadwal
ki
ngdownst
air
s.
Dad:
Mubi
,thi
s(r
edt
ie)or
..
..t
his(
bluet
ie)
Me:
Ther
edone.
..
Dad:
I'
ll
taket
hebl
ueone.
.Thoko?
..
▶Ses'Thokorushedt
ohel
phi
m wearit
.WhywasI
askedifhewasgonnadot
heopposi
temxm.Ir
oll
ed
myey es
Me:
Whyar
eyoul
atet
oday
?
Dad:
Noi
dea.
..
what
'sf
orbr
eakf
ast
?
▶Hesatdown.
Me:DadFinal
sar
ebegi
nni
ngnextweek,
youknow
t
hatri
ght
?
Dad:yes,
final
l
y.NowIcanbuyaboat
.Nomor
e
pocketmoneyandschoolf
ees
▶Il
aughed
Me:
wowdad.
Dad:
needany
thi
ngt
ohel
pyoust
udy
?
Me:
Yes,
justaf
ewt
hingsf
rom CNA
Dad:
okay
,makemepr
oudokay
?
Me:
wil
ldo.
▶Ist
oodup,
placedmypl
ateont
hesi
nk,
kissedmy
dadgoodby eandwentt othegat e.
.Malumsarri
v ed
andwedr oveof ftoschool gottherei
mmedi at
ely
wenttot het oi
letbecauseIknewt hat
'swhereI'
l
l fi
nd
myfriends. .
.walkingint hetoil
eteveryonewas
scr
eami ng,otherswer eseparatingtheoneswho
werefighting..
.yhobat hongsoear l
yinthemorning.
Therewasagi rl standingatthedoor
▶ Iaskedher
.
Me:
what
'shappeni
ng?
Gi
rl
:Candi
ceandNal
edi
aref
ight
ing.
▶Candi
ce?MyCandi
ce?
Me:
whi
chCandi
ce?
?
Gi
rl
:yourf
ri
end.
.
Me:
No.
..
▶Ipushedmy sel
fthroughthecrowdgoti nsi
det
he
t
oil
et.
.Khomotsowashol di
ngCandice'sbag.WhenI
wal
kedinNaledigotoutofthetoil
et.
Me:
what
'shappeni
ng?
Khomot
so:
yhot
odayi
sgonnabeal
ongdayt
rust
me.
Me:
why
??
▶Iwassoconfused.
.Lolli
keev
ery
thi
ngjustst
opped
whenIgoti
n.Candi
cefixedher
sel
fandsatdown
Khomotso:y
oushoul
dn'
thavedonethat
.Whydo
youhav
et obeBr
uceLeeinever
ysit
uati
on?
Me:I'
m gonnaasky
oubi
tchesonemor
eti
me,
what
's
goi
ngon? ?
?
Nat
asha:
itsal
lmyf
aul
t.
Khomotso:Noi
tsnot,Nal
edisai
dTashshouldn'
tbe
her
ebecausewhoknowswhatgoesoni nhermind
whensheseesusf i
xi
ngoursel
vesorchangi
ngin
her
esinceshe'
slesbi
an.
Candi
ce: t
heystart
edaskingoff
ensi
vequesti
onsl
ike
dowesl eepwithNatashali
kewhatkindofa
quest
ionisthatandshelit
eral
l
ydraggedTashtoget
outofthetoi
letThat'
swhenIlostmycooland
sl
appedher .
Me:
she'
smad.Tashar
eyougood?
Nat
asha:
yes.
▶Shest
art
edcr
ying.Wecomf
ort
edher
Me:
shhh.
..
it
sal
ri
ghtbbe.
▶Kamowal
kedi
n..
pissed
Kamo: heardCandi
cewasfi
ght
ingwit
hNal
edi
?
What'sgoingon?Whoarewebeati
ngupaf
ter
school?
Me:
hay
iwenahl
alaphansi
.
▶Shesatdown, Khomot sotol
dherthestory.
.t
he
bel
lrangwewentt oclassNatashadidn'
tat
tendfi
rst
peri
od,sheremai
nedinthetoil
etbutcamesecond
peri
od.Itwasafreeperi
od..
inthatf
reeperi
odwe
gotourexam ti
metabl
es.
Me:
wher
e'sCandi
ce?
Kamo:
noi
dea.
.
Khomot
so:ya'
l
lIt
hinkt
her
e'ssomethinggoi
ngon
bet
weenCandi
ceandMrZwane..
.attheaft
erpar
ty.
..
Us:
yeah?
?
▶ya'l
lrememberMrZwanemos, t
hatchar
ming
y
ell
owbonehist
oryt
eacherIt
oldy
ouabout??the
oneweal l
hadacrushonwhenhef
ir
stgotat
Kingsmead??Yest
hatone.
Khomotso:hearr
ivedatt
heaf t
erpar
tywi
thhis
fr
iends,
soIspott
edhim becauseKamowasbusy
withChri
sItol
dCandicetolookwhowashere.
..
Me:
Bese?
?
Khomot so:BeseCandi cesuggest edthatwegoto
him andgr eethim.ahykewedi d.
.westoodupand
wentt ohi m.Her ecognizedusf r
om t
hesportt
ri
pwe
tooklasty ear,sohewasl i
key ouguysplaynet
bal
l
ri
ght..
candyandIwer eli
key eahwedo. .y
abomos
casual chatti
ng
Kamo:
yahy
ah.
..
Khomot so:Candiceaskedabouthi sgir
lfr
iend..Mr
Zwaneat hyhedoesn'thaveoney abo.
..
Candyat hy
"never"MrZwanei slyi
nghehasone, soveleNam
ngimphiki
sebecauseMrzwanei stoohotakana
girl
fr
iendkanjani
.Mrzwaneat hy" okayhere'smy
phonecheckf orthatgi
rlf
ri
endy ou'r
etalki
ngabout
andcomebackt ome".Candi cejumpedatt he
oppor t
uni
tyandtookhi zphone.Webot hsear ched
f
oragi
rl
Kamo:
whatwasi
nsi
det
hephone?
?Por
n??
Me:
hahahahay
iiwenaKamo
Khomot so:pict
uresofaLil
girl
,
car
s,him andhis
fr
iendsjustrandom shi
tnj
e.Wedidn'tf
indapictur
e
ofhim andagi r
l.
.somanjeit
stimeukuthysini
keuMr
Zwanehi sphonebackguesswhatCandi cesaid?
Nat
asha:
tel
lusdon'
tmakeusguess
Kamo:
hawu.
Khomot
so:
shesai
d"canIputmynumber
sinher
e"
Kamo:
Candi
cena
Me:
youl
yi
ng!
!!
▶LmaoCandi
cewal
kedi
nandcaughtust
alki
ng
abouther
.
Candi
ce:
Candi
ceWenzeni
??
Me:
Chomzsi
tdownandt
ell
usal
lthedet
ail
s.
Candi
ce:
det
ail
saboutt
hef
ight
?
Kamo:
hay
iiwenaBr
uceLeesi
yaphynal
okho?
▶Candi
cet
ookasi
t.
Candi
ce:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Nat
sha:
MrZwanei
swhati
sgoi
ngon.
▶Shel
aughed.
Candi
ce:
ther
e'snot
hingt
otel
l
.
Me:
Khomot
socont
inuet
ell
i
ngust
henewswena
Candi
ce:
okayI
'
llt
ell
youguy
s..
.Wher
edoIst
art?
Natasha:
whatdi
dhesayaft
ery
ouof
fer
edt
oput
yournumber
sinhi
sphone?
▶Candi
cel
aughed.
.
Candi
ce:hesai
dsurey oucan,i
mmediatel
yIt
apped
i
nmynumber s.Igavehim hi
sphoneback
KhomotsoandIlef
tthenthatwasit
.
Khomot
so:
stopl
yi
ng.
.I'
l
lcont
inuephel
ami
na.
.
Kamo:
yesf
ri
end.
Khomotso:yesf
ri
end,soaft
ershegavehim her
numberswewentbackt ooursect
ion.
.ahysa'
jai
va
sa'
jai
va.
.Thenyoucamedownst ai
rswewentto
Vi
ncet
hent
hef
ightbr
oke.
..
Kamo:
howIwi
shIwast
her
efort
hatf
ighty
esses.
Me:
hahahaBese.
..
Khomot so: weleftthosegi r
lstheresinoCandi ceI
wentbackt omyman.Tol dkamoaboutt hefight.
.we
nev ersawNat ashaagai n.Soahyaf tersomet ime
thecl ubcl osed."
Candi cewho'sgonnaaccompany
youhome?"Iasky ourf ri
end.Shegi vesmeadi zzy
answert alki
ngaboutaboLeer oyengi ngabazithat
willtakeherhome.We' r
ebothdr unkatthispoint.
That osuggest swet akeherwi thusforhersaf ety
.
Jikij
ikiont heparkingl otweseeMrZwanehet ell
s
ust odr i
v esafeAhywesayt hanky ousir.Candice
offerstohugsi rgoodby e
Kamo:
Goodby
e??
??Hug?
??
▶Candi
cegi
ggl
ed
Me:
Andt
hen?
?
Khomot so:
Sirl
aughed.Thent
heyhugged.HeeIwas
shocked.
Kamo:
Wow.
Me:
Wowwowwowf
ear
lesscol
our
edgi
rl
.
Candi
ce:
Thenint
hemor
ningIr
ecei
veda
goodmor
ningt
ext
.
Me:
you'
rel
yi
ng.
..
Candi
ce:
Iswear
..
.see
▶Shet ookoutherphoneandshoweduschat s
betweenherandMrZwel i.Candiceiswil
dyhoa
wholeschoolteacher.
.Imeani t
si l
l
egalri
ght?But
someSchool teachersaresohoti nawayt hat
breaki
ngaLilruleisneeded.Afterreadi
nghertext
s
thebellr
angfor3rdper i
od.

▶TuesdayEveni
ngI'
m homewithmydadinthe
l
ounge..
he'
sbusyonhisMacbookandI
'm watchi
ng
Regul
arshoweati
ngicecr
eam.
Dad:
Mubi
howwoul
dyouf
eel
aboutGr
acemov
ing
i
n?
▶Woahwhat ???NoNoNoNo. .
.Igav
emydada
deadstare.Iknowt
hey'
redat
ingandstuff
,well
that
'senoughIdon'
twantanybodymovinginhere.
Yhoha.
aIcan'
tsor
ry.
Dad:
itsj
ustaquest
ion
▶Hel
aughed.
Dad:andnowyoudon'
thavet
oanswermebecause
Ial
readyknowt
heanswer.
Me:
Good.
▶Il
aughed.
Dad:
but
..
Me:
Nodad.
..
No.
..
▶Istoodup.Av oidi
ngtheconversati
onofcour
se,I
knowmydadv erywell
whenhest ar
tssayi
ng"how
doyoufeelabout123"hi smindisalway
smadeup.
Il
oveGracebuti t
sanof rom me.
Dad:
Mubi
..
.?

▶Ipl acedthebowlinthesinkandwentstrai
ghtt
o
myr oom.Ismydadr eal
lyi
nl ovewi
ththi
s
woman. .l
i
kereall
yreall
yinlove.Wow.Idon'
tknowif
Idon'twantthi
sbecausei nthebackofmymi ndI
somehowwi sht hatmymom cansuddenl ycome
backandr ekindlet hi
ngswi thmydadorIt hinkt hat
mydadsl ovef ormewi lldecr ease..
.whyam Iev en
thinkingaboutt his.NoGr acei smov i
ngi nwithus.I
tookmyphoneoutoft hechar gerandbr owsed
throughi t.Ev entuallyfel lasleepitwas20: 50. .
.My
Alarm wokemeupat5am Iwokeupdi dmymor ni
ng
routine.Wor emyschool ski rt
,shortsleeveshi rtand
at i
eputonar edLi pstick..YesaRedLi psti
cki t
sl ast
day smosI 'm wr i
tingmyFi nal
ssoonf uthysoi twon' t
hur t
..Ihav etohi dei tfrom mydadt houghot her wise
hewi l
lfl
ip.If i
xedmy selft henheadeddownst airsI
totall
yignor edey econt actwi thmydadandI
pinchedmymout h.Lmaodoest hatev enmake
sense Engl i
sh.Any wayIwentst raighttot he
fri
dgeandt ookoutanappl e.
Ses'
Thoko:
you'
rel
atet
odayne.
Me:
YeahEi
sh
▶Iwasst
il
lfaci
ngt
hef
ri
dge.
Me:
ByeDad,
ByeSes'
Thoko
▶Ir
ushedt
oopent
hedoorandexi
t.
Dad:
Nomzamo.Wasuphumauj
ahekangaka.
Me:
Mal
umsuzong'
shi
yaI
'
mlat
e
Dad:
Franscanwai
tIwantt
otal
ktoy
ou.Buy
ala
▶Ohshi
t.No.
..
Idi
day
oungu-
tur
n
Dad:I'
l
l f
etchyoutodayaf
terschool
,weneedtobuy
theexam stuf
fandtheotherthi
ngsyout
alkedabout
,
tomorrowIwon'thaveti
me.
Me:
okay
.
Dad:
yinl
eosuy
ifakeeml
ony
weni
Nomzamo?
Me:
..
.
Dad:
Hambosul
alamasi
mba!
!
▶Fuckkkk.Irolledmyey esandwentt oukuy osula
l
amasimba, Ijustwant edtobebeaut i
fulj
eso, I
walkedtomyr oom t ookoutwi pesinmydr awerand
wipedtheli
pstickonmymout handIwent
downstai
rsandwal kedout..
..
Mal umsar r
ivedhe
drovemet oschool .Schoolwasj ustschool,aft
er
schoolmydadf etchedmeatschool andwet hen
drovetothemal l.
Me:
CanIpl
aymymusi
c?
Dad:
Mubi
youl
i
stent
oyourmusi
cev
ery
day
.
Me:
kodwadadt
her
adi
oisbor
ingnj
e.
Dad:
hai
i
▶Hesi ghedt
henswi
tchedt
her
adi
oof
f,Ipl
ayedmy
songs.
Me:
Howwaswor
k?
Dad:
Notsobusy
..
.
Me:
itusual
l
yget
sbusy
?
Dad:
Don'
twantt
otal
kaboutwor
kri
ghtnow.
▶It
snotl
i
keyout
alkaboutyourworkatall
..
.I
'
mj ust
t
ryi
ngt
omakeaconversat
ion.
..Il
ookedoutofthe
wi
ndow
Dad:
How'
sVi
nce?
▶Huh?.
..
Ilookedathi
m.Het
otal
l
ycaughtmeof
f
guar
d
Me:
he'
sfi
ne,
wegood.
▶"
fi
ne,
wegood"hahahahamysubconsci
ous
l
aughedatme. ..
Ilookedaway ,weirdquest i
onf r
om
myDadv eryweird..wegotatthemal l
,gotof fthecar
andwal kedin.Wewentst r
aighttoCNAbought
someExam mat erialsandwentt oDebonai r
sf or
Pizza.Thereaft
erwewenthome, gothomet ookmy
stuffandIheadedt omyroom.Iwentt otakea
showermyphonekeptonr i
nging.Igotoutoft he
showert oansweri t.I
twasMuzi .WellIal
r eadyknow
i
tis.Iroll
edmyey esandanswer edit.
Me:
Hi.
Vi
nce:
Mami
,pl
easedon'
thangup.
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
Arey
out
her
e?
Me:
Whatdoy
ouwantVi
nce?
Vince:Ij
ustwant
edtosayI
'
m sor
ry,
andpl
ease
unblockme.Imissy
ou.
Me:
whatar
eyousor
ryf
or?
Vi
nce:
sor
ryf
orupset
ti
ngy
ou
Me:
Upset
ti
ngme?
?Aboutwhat
??
Vince:
Fetchi
ngy
ouwhi
l
eyoust
il
lwant
edt
obewi
th
yourfr
iends.
Me:OhmyGodv i
ncey oudontgetbi
tdoyou?I
f
that
'st
her
easony ou'r
esorryt
henclear
lyyoudon'
t
knowwhy"I
'm upset"*Idr
oppedthecal
l*
▶Ihav eexamscomi ngup,Idon'tneedthis..
.Can'
t
beli
ev ehe'scall
ingtoapologizeforupsetti
ngme.
Upset t
ingLol.Thatdoesn'tevenbeginto..anywayl
et
menott hinkaboutVince.Ihaveexamscomi ngup
andIwantt odogoodi nt
hem andmakemydad
proud..I'
mt ir
edofVi ncethi
nkinghecanj ustsay
sorryandwemov eon,nowIwanthi mt otake
account abil
i
tyandseewher ehe'swr ongandf ixhi
s
way s.Wecan' tcarr
yonl i
kethis.
..Iwentbackt o
shower.

Remembert oShare,Li
ke,CommentFort heNext
I
nsertLovey a'
ll Thanky ouforyourLoveand
Supportwe'
v eReached30000l i
kes.Thankyou
Thanky ou.
..(asVi
ncewoul dsay)Mcwaaaah
#I
NSERT70

▶I t'sSundaymor ning, sunnydayatRosebank, the

birdsar esi ngingandt heFl ower sar ebl oomi ngman
theweat heri sjustper fect...i
ts10am Ij ustwav ed
mydadgoodby ehe'sof ftochur ch.I'
m notabi gf an
ofchur chsoIdeci dednott ogot oday ,
Dadwasn' ta
bigf anal sobutGr acechangedt hat..
.Iwentback
i
nsi det hehouse.Wentst r
ai ghtt omyr oom t otakea
bat hpour edwat erintot hebat htubIundr essedandI
star t
edbat hi ng,whendoneIl oti
onedandt ookout
theout fitoft hedaywhi chwasal ongt ightwhi t
e
dress, Iputonsomegl adi ator s, Ihadmynat ur
al
haironsoIdi daBunandIputonar edl i
pstick,
mascar aandIf leekedmyey ebrows.Tookmyphone
andIwentt ot akesomepi ctur esi nthebal cony.
Wentbackt omyr oom t henIheadeddownst air
s.
Wentt ot hel oungeandIputonaser iesofMor den
Fami l
y...
aft ersomet i
meIdeci dedt ounbl ockVi nce.
Itriedav oidingt hi
sf eelingbutImi sshi m somuch
..i
tsbeenaweek, Ilastt al
kedt ohi m onMonday .I
mi sshim somuch. .
..Idi dn'tt exthi m Ijustputona
pi
cItookearl
ierasmypr of
il
epict
ureandwaitedfor
hi
mt onoti
ceitthenmaybehewoul dtextme.sil
l
y
meIwaitedforhoursandhourshedidn'tt
ext
..
.My
dadevengotbackf r
om chur
chandjoinedmei nt
he
l
ounge..
Dad:Iboughtpastaandcal
amar
iandsomesal
ads
fordi
nner.Ar
ey ouhungr
y?
Me:
yeahI
'
lldi
shupf
ormy
sel
fnownow.
Dad:
Okay
..
Me:
Howwaschur
chBab'
Mfundi
si?
▶Hel
aughed.
Dad:
ItwasgoodMubi
.
Me:
Hmmm
▶Icont
inuedtowatchMor
denFamil
y.Mydadstood
upandwalkedinwi
thapl
atehedi
shedupforme..
Myhear
tmel t
ed.
Me:
Thanky
ouDad.
Dad:
You'
l
ldi
eofhungersol
oubukel
eiTV.
▶Hesatdownandbecamebusywi
thhi
sMacbook
whi
leIchowedallofthefoodthatwasinmypl ate.
Myphonevibrat
ed.Iatt
endeditimmediatel
y.
WhatsApptextf
rom Mine.Ismil
edbeforeopeningit.
Vi
nce:
CanIst
eal
yourpr
ofi
l
epi
ctur
e ?
Me:Remembery
ousai
dthi
sthef
ir
stt
imewe
st
art
edchat
ti
ng?
Vi
nce:youstol
emyhear
tfr
om dayonewi
thy
our
br
eatht
akingbeaut
y.
▶Ibl
ushed.
Me:
wel
l
...
I'
m gl
adIdi
d.
Vi
nce:
Cany
oucomeov
er?Imi
ssy
ousobadl
y.
Me:
I'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngy
out
oo.
Vi
nce:
Nowbr
ingy
ourassov
erher
e.
Me:
YesDzaddy
.
▶Istooduptookmypl
ateandwentt
oputi
tint
he
si
nk.Wentbacktot
hel
ounge
Me:
DaddycanIgoout
?I'
l
lbebacksoon
Dad:
Nomzamoy
ourexamsar
est
art
ingt
hisweek
y
oushoul
dn'
tbegal
avant
ingwi
tht
hatboy
.
Me:
I'
ll
bebackbef
oresunsetDad,
Ipr
omi
se.
▶Iwentouti twas14: 25sosunset sar ound5pm I
'
ll
haveenought i
met ospendwi t
hmyman.Imi sshim
somuchhi sscent,hi
st ouch..
ever
ythingabouthi
m.I
i
mmedi at
elybuzzedmy sel
foutandexitedmyhouse.
WalkedtoVince'shousehewaspar kedoutsi
de,I
knockedonhi swindow.Hesawmeandhegotout .
Me:
whyar
eyousi
tt
ingi
nther
e.
▶Hecamet owar
dsmeandshoweredmewi
th
ki
ssesal
lov
ermyf ace.Igi
ggl
ed
Me:
staapp
Vi
nce:
Youl
ookpr
ett
y.
Me:
Thanky
ou.
Vi
nce:
EishIj
ustgotbackf
rom wor
k..
.
▶Het
ookhi
skey
soutandopenedt
hedoor
.
Vi
nce:
Thi
sdr
ess.
Me:
ist
heonene
▶Wel
aughed.Il
ookedr
eal
l
yreal
l
ypr
ett
ynol
i
es.
Vince:youhungr
y?Idoubtt
hatMuzicooked
somet hi
ng,wecangoandgrabSundaylunchat
Pattì
o
Me:
Iat
eI'
m good.
Vi
nce:
wel
lI'
m hungr
ywhatam Igonnaeat
?
Me:
Don'
tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
.
▶Vi
ncewasl
ooki
ngatmel
i
keI
'
m hi
snextmeal
.
Vi
nce:
you'
regonnamydesser
t.
▶Wewentt
otheki
tchen.
Me:
soar
eyouser
iousl
ygoi
ngt
ocook?
Vi
nce:Notherear
esomel
eftov
ersf
rom l
astni
ght
I
'l
lheatt
hem up.
▶Hemi cr
owavedhisfoodIl
efthimint
hekit
chen
andiwenttot
helounge,hegrabbedaHei
nekenfor
hi
m andaskedmewhatI '
l
lhave.
Me:
jui
cepl
ease.
▶Hecamet
othel
oungeandhest
art
edeat
ing.
..
Me: Ihardl
yseeyouwear
ingEskom ov
eral
l
s.I
actuall
ythi
nkit
smyfir
stti
meseeingyouwear
ing
one.
Vince:
secondt
imeremembertheothert
imeyou
camet oseemeatworkdur
ingyourwint
ercl
asses.
Me:
oohy
ah.Youl
ookcut
eint
hem.

Vi
nce:
Hahat
hanky
ou,
comel
etmet
hanky
ouwi
tha
ki
ss
Me:
you'
rest
il
leat
ing.
Vi
nce:
ony
ourf
orehead.
Me:
hay
iVi
nce.
..
▶Hecont inuedtochowdownhi
sfood.Wel ater
wenttohisbedroom wher
ehechangedintohis
comfort
ableclot
hesheworeaNiket-shi
rtanda
greyt
rackpantandheputonsl
eepers.
Vi
nce:
Cany
oupl
easeopent
hewi
ndowsf
orme.
▶Iopenedt
hewindowsandwentbackt
or ead
somepaper
sthatwer
eonhisworki
ngdesk.Vince
chi
ll
edonhi sbedgoingthroughhisphone.
Somethi
ngwaswei rdwi t
hVi nce,
butIfigur
edmay be
i
tsbecausewewer en'tonspeakingterms.Ican'
t
expectt
hingstogobackt onor malkanj
alonje.
Vince:
sowhatdi
dyougetupt
owheny
ouwer
en'
t
speaki
ngt
ome?
Me:
Iwentt
oschool
hawu.
▶Idit
chedt
hosepaper
sandwentt
ojoi
nhi
m ont
he
bed.
.
Vi
nce:
onl
yschool
?
Me:y
esandItext
edmyf
ri
ends.Ihadanet
bal
lgame
onWednesday
.
Vi
nce:
ya'
l
lwon?
Me:
nope
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
thoughty
ouguy
snev
erl
ose.
Me:
wedon'
t,
wedi
dn'
tpr
act
iceenoughy
abo
Vi
nce:
uyi
Capt
ainenj
ani
Kant
ywenababy
..
.
▶Il
i
ghtsl
appedhi
mthenwebot
hlaughed.
Me:
wenawhatdi
dyougetupt
o?
Vi
nce:
not
hing.
..
justwor
k..
comeupher
e
▶Iwasl ayingonmyst omachonmysi deoft hebed
whilehebal ancedhisbackont heheadboar d...
he
pull
edmet owar dshi
m andpl acedmeont opofhi m.
West artedki ssi
ngpassi onat elyhetookmydr ess
offandexposedmybr eastt owar dshim Iwasn' t
wear i
ngabr asohest artedsweetki ssi
ngt hem. ..
I
couldf eel him getti
nghar dundermewhi lewewer e
busyki ssing. .
.Hehal fwayt ookhi spantsof fandI
helpedhi m pullhisdickout ...Ididayounghandj ob
andputacondom onhi mt henIl ai
ddownandVi nce
putitinsof tly
..
..
Iwashuggi nghi m pul
li
nghi m closer
tome. .wewer ebothmoani ngoneachot hers
ear..
.andwecamet oget heritwast hemostamaz i
ng
slowsex.
Me:
Ilov
eyouVi
nce
▶Hemi ghtlaughedandplantedaki
ssonmy
f
orehead.
..
thenwel ai
dbesideeachot
herIlai
don
t
opofhim chestwhi l
ehestrokedmyhai
rinsil
ence.
Vi
nce:
don'
tyouwantwat
er.
..
?
Me:
no.
.Ij
ustwantt
ouset
het
oil
et.
..
Vi
nce:
Okay
.
▶Igotup. .t
ookhi sNikeshi rtwor eitandIwentt o
thetoil
et.
..Iusedthet oi
letthenwentont owashmy
handsinthebasi n...Iwashedt hem andt henI
closedthetapasIwascl osingt hetapIsaw2hoop
earri
ngsneart hebasin.If r
owned. .
.Itookagood
l
ookatt hem andcl earl
ytheywer en'
tmine..My
stomachst artedboili
ng...Iclosedt hetap..Looked
atmy sel
fint hemirrorandl aughedi ndisbeli
ef.I
tookthem andwentbackt oVi nce'sroom.
Me:
what
'st
his?
?
▶It
hrewt
hoseear
ri
ngsathi
m.
Vi
nce:
what
??.
..
Me:
andpl
easedon'
tl
iet
omeVi
nce.
▶Istoodther
eandlookedathim.Hesatupst
rai
ght
f
rom thebed.
..
andl
ookedatthem.
Vi
nce:
theyar
en'
tmi
ne.
..
Me:ofcour
setheyar
enotyours.
..
wakabani
??And
whatar
etheydoingi
nyourbat
hroom??
Vi
nce:
babyi
tsnotwhaty
out
hinki
tis
Me:
tel
lmeVi
nce.Whati
sit
??What
..
?!
Vi
nce:
Idon'
tknowwhot
heybel
ongt
o..
.Iswear
.
Me: youdon'
tknow? ?Vi
ncet hisi
sYOURbathroom
..
.yours.
..
youdon'
tshareitwithMuzisoyoucan'
t
putthisonhim.
.who'
searringsarethose?
?I'
m
askingyoufort
helastti
me. ..
Vi
nce:
Iknow.
.IswearIdon'
tknow.
..
babyl
ook
▶Hewasappr
oachi
ngme.
.
Me:
Mxm.
..
don'
t.
..
event
hinkoft
ouchi
ngme.
.
▶It
ookhisshi
rtoffandt
ookmypant
iesandwor
e
t
hem t
ookmydr essandwor
eit
.
Vi
nce:
babypl
easewai
t.
.
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
Fuck.
..
▶Hedeepsi
ghed.
.It
hinkt
hat
'swhenher
eal
i
zedhe
fuckedupIwasinsuchdi
sbel
i
ef.
.DeepdownI
beli
evedhi
mt hough.
Me:
Vince!
!
▶Iwasgett
ingpissednowbecausei
tsclear
somet
hingi
sgoingonandVinceisn'
ttel
l
ingme.
Vi
nce:
Okay
..
.I'
l
ltel
lyou.
..
Me:
..
.
▶Vi
ncet
ookasi
ghandr
ubbedhi
shead
Me:
Vince!
!!
▶Hecameupt
omeandhel
dmebymyshoul
der
s.
Vince:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
okay
..
Idi
dn'
tknowhowIl
ett
his
happened
▶Myheartbeatstar
tedbei
ngcast
ersemeny
a..
.
Whatdi
dhedo? ?
?
Me:sor
ryforwhat
?..
.Vi
ncetel
lmewhoseear
ri
ngs
ar
ethose?
?Andwhyar eyousorr
y?
▶Hesatdownont hebedandbal
ancedhi
sarmson
hi
skneesandburiedhisheadont
opofhishands
andhelookeddown.
Vi
nce:
Nomal
anga
▶Whatdi dhejust
..
.Icoul
dn'
tpr
ocessnort
hink
aboutwhatIhadjusthear
dIsawmy sel
fsl
appi
ng
hi
m...Scr
eaming
Me:
howcoul
dyoudot
hist
omeVi
nce?
?
▶Vi ncecover
edhimsel
fandst oppedme.Iklapped
him andhithi
m sohar
d..
tearswer erol
li
ngdownmy
faceIbecameweakandIst opped..
cryi
ng..
.
Vi
nce:
Mami
,I
'm sor
ry.
.
▶It
ri
edwal
ki
ngoutbuthest
oppedme
Me:
Vincengy
ekel
e..
▶Iwascarr
yingmyshoesinmyhands..
Ihadj
ust
f
uckedhai
r.
..
amessbutIjustwantedt
ogetoutof
t
hispl
aceIdi
dn'tcar
ehowIlooked
Vi
nce:
canwet
alkabo.
..
Me:Noo..
there'
snot
hingtot
alkabout.
..
howcould
youdothi
st omeVince.
.Me??Why ??Withher
..
.
Vi
nce:
I..
.Thi
ngs.
..Mami
I'
m sor
ry.
▶Iwasspeechl
ess.
.St
andi
ngt
her
ehear
t
br
oken.
.f
eeli
ngweak.
..Ij
ustcoul
dn'
tfat
hom what
washappeni
ng
Me:
didshesl
eepher
e?Yousl
eptwi
thher
.
Vi
nce:
yes
▶Iwasbusyf
ixi
ngmy
sel
f,wear
ingmyshoes.
..
Me:
yest
owhat
?
▶Myheartr
eall
ywantedhi
mt osayy
esshesl
ept
t
her
ebutnothi
nghappenedbet
weenthem.
Vi
nce:
bot
h.Ipr
omi
sei
tmeansnot
hing.
..
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ry.
.
Me:
..
..
▶Tear swerest
il
lrunni
ngdownmyface.Ihada
headacheandIstart
edshaki
ng.
.myheartwast
orn.
..
Vi
nce:
ifIcoul
dtaket
hingsback.
.
Me:
Vincepl
ease.
..
▶Isaidthi
sint
hemostcalm sadtone,Icoul
dn'
t
deal
withwhatj
usthappendIj
ustgrabbedmyphone
andwalkeddownt hestair
sst i
l
lcrying..Irequested
anubert oKhomot soshouse. .
Igothomechanged
clot
hes.Iwor eabl acklongtightdresssi milart
ot he
oneIwaswear i
ng.Andal eatherjacket,Iwor ethe
samegl adiatorsIwaswear ingandt ookmyshades
andwor et hem.Myey eswereswol len.
..myuber
arri
vedanddr ovemet oKhomot soshousei nsi
de
theuber..Iwasst i
llcryi
ng..
sil
entl
yt hough..Itookmy
phoneandt ext
edVi nce..
Me:whathur t
st hemostisthatInevert
houghtyou
werecapableofbr eaki
ngmyhear tl
i
kethis.I
'
m so
shat
teredandbr okenIcan'
tevenmakesenseof
whatisgoingon.Hav eanamazi ngl
ifewit
hher
cl
earl
yy oucan'tletgoofeachother
.Takecare.
▶Af terthetextIblockedhi m onallmysoci almedi a
pl
atformsanddel etedandbl ockedhi snumbers...I
wasdonewi thhim...Iarr
ivedatKhomot soshouse
around17: 35.Knockedont hedoorf orabout10
minutesbat hongnoanswer ..
.Icall
edHer .Shedi dn'
t
answer .DidIjustcomeher ef ornothing.Ist
arted
cryi
ngagai nIwasdef eat
ed...
Lolclearlymylif
ei sa
j
okeIcal led,
Thatoheanswer ed.
Me:
That
o,wher
e'sKhomot
so?
That
o:her
ewi
thmewhy
?
Me:
tri
edcal
l
ingher
.Herphonei
sof
f.
.
That
o:l
etmegi
vehert
hephone.
Khomot
so:
Honey
..
.
Me:
I'
m aty
ourhouse
Khomot
so:
myhouse?t
her
e'snoonet
her
emos
Me:
Yah.Come
Khomot
so:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
No
▶Tear
sfi
l
ledmyey
es.
Khomot
so:
I'
m comi
ng.
▶Wi t
hin20mi
nutesKhomotsocamewi t
hbaby
Renei
lweshef
oundmeont hestoep.
..
Khomot
so:
MyZee
▶Shecameupt
omeandgav
emeasi
dehug.
..
Khomot
so:
what
'swr
ong.
..
Me:
Ever
ythi
ng
▶Sheunl ockedthedoorwegoti nsidethehouse
andshewentt oherr oom toputbabyRenet osleep
whil
eIsatont hecouch. .Shegotbackandwe
star
tedtalki
ng..
.Itoldconfidedinher.
.Toldher
ever
y t
hingandcriedmyey esout..Ij
ustwantedher
toli
stentomeandj usthugandt ellmethat
ever
y t
hingwill
beokay ..
.Shedi dexactl
ythat
.I
managedt ofeelbetter
.ForaLi lwhil
e.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT71

▶ IwasonKhomot so'
slapbal l
ingmyey esout
whileshecomf ort
edmebyr ubbingmyback
smoot hl
yandt el
li
ngme" everyt
hingwil
lbealr
ight
zamor e,don'
tcry
"ov erandov eragai
n...
sheknew
nothingandImeanNOTHI NGwasgonnabet t
er
thi
ngs..Iwasatmyl owest
Khomot
so:
getup.
..
wher
e'sy
ourphone?
▶Myphone?
?If
rowned
Me:
her
e..
.
▶Itooki
toutandgavei
ttoher
.Sheunl
ockedi
tand
wenttomycontact
s
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Khomot
so:
cal
l
ingVi
nce.
..
hecan'
t.
..
.
Me:
Idel
etedhi
snumber
s..
▶ Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
andy
oucan'
tcal
lhi
m..
arey
oumad?
▶It
ookmyphoneawayf
rom her
..
andwi
pedmy
t
ear
s.
Khomotso:
wel
lI'
m sur
eyouknowt
hem byhear
tso
at
hini
?
▶Shet
ookherphoneoutandl
ookedatme
Me:
nomanl
et'
snotdot
his.
.
Khomot
so:
Zamor
epl
easet
u..
..
Me:Nother
e'snoneed.
..Honest
ly.
.Whatar
eyou
goi
ngtosay?Hedidwhathedid..
Khomot
so:
Idon'
tcar
eokay
..
Idon'
tcar
ejustgi
veme
hi
snumber
s!
▶Sheshout
edatme.
Me:
Okay
..
▶Itookoutmyphoneandunbl
ockedVinces
numbers,
thenIgav
ehermyphone.Shecall
edhi
m.
Khomot
so:
Hel
l
lo
Me:
Puti
tonl
oudspeaker
▶Shest
oodup.
..Andt
oldmet
o"shh"
Khomot so: Noi tsnother .
..
.tell
meVi ncewhat
exact l
ydoy ouwant ??isNomzamonotenoughf or
you?Hav ey ouf uckenlookedather .
.?Lookedat
herhear t??Youl ostbro..NoNoIdon' twannahear
thatbul lshit..
.that'
sbullshit
...YesIcal l
edt ogi vey ou
api eceofmymi nd..
.Youdi dn'thavet odoherdi rty
l
iket hat..shel ov esyou...
yesshe' swithmenow. .No
don'tcomeher ey oucheat er..
.Idon'tcar eifyoul ove
her..i
fy oul ov ehershewoul dn'
tbecr yingHer enow
woul dshe? ?.Andbesi desshedoesn' twannat alkt o
you..Idon' twannat al
kt oy ou..
you'r
er eally
ungr at
ef ul Ihopey ourotinhel lforhurtingmybest
fri
endl iket his, y
ouwon' tf
indsomeonel ikezamor e
ever .
..
..Tobehonesty oudi sappointedme. ..Actuall
y
futsek* call ended*
Khomot
so:nyay
i l
oveherny
ayi
lov
eher
..doeshe
knowwhatl
oveis?nxn.
Me:
Best
ieIt
hinkIshoul
dgohomenow.
▶ Il
aughedi
ndi
sbel
i
ef,
thatwasawkwar
d
Khomot
so:We'
renotwr
it
ingt
omor
rowcan'
tyou
sl
eepov
er?
Me:noI
'
m notf
eel
ingwel
landIdon'
twantt
odeal
wi
thmydadaski
ngmewher eI
'
m at
Khomotso:l
etmecal
lThat
ot ocomeand
accompanyyouhome.I
'
mr eall
ysor
ryzamor
ecome
here
▶Istoodupandwalkedupt
oher
..
shegavemea
hug..
.shet
hencal
l
edThatot
ocomeandfetchme
theybothdrov
emehome.

It
'sWednesdaymor ni
ng, I
'l
lbewr i
tingmyf i
rstex am
papert odayEngl i
shP1.I '
m notwel l,notinther ight
stat
eofmi nd,
I'
vebeencr yi
ngf or2day sstraight,
haven'tbeeneat i
ngr i
ght,Ididn'tevenpr epar efor
today'spaper ..
atleastitsaneasypaperi twon' tgive
meahar dtime.Iwonderhowwi ll
Igett hrought his
heartbreaki tdefi
nitel
ycameatt hewr ongt i
me. ..I'
m
i
nbed, i
nat owelstarri
ngatawal lI'
m alonei nmy
thought sIjustgotoutoft heshower .
..Ses'thoko
knockedIcoul dher eherknocksf rom afarbutIcan' t
getmybodyt orespondbecauseI 'm solosti nmy
thought s.Sheopened. ..That'swhenIgotoutofmy
t
hought
s,Ij
umpedbecauseshescar
edme.
Ses'
thoko:ar
eyoucomi
ngdownf
orbr
eakf
ast
?It
'
s
6:
30. .
.ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
yes.
..
yesI
'
m okay
..
▶Igotoffmybedt ookmyt oweloffandstarted
l
otioni
ng.
..
Iworemybuccaneer s,agr
eyschool
tr
ouserandadrymag. ..
combedmyhai rbackwar ds
andIputonawhi t
ehairband.Tookamar ker
, rul
er
andapent henwalkedoutofmyr oom..
.Iwalked
downstai
rsandsatwithmydadandSes' t
hokoatt he
ki
tchencounter
.
Dad:
youl
ookt
ir
eddi
dyougetanysl
eepl
astni
ght
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mjustscar
ed.
..
Dad:
don'
twor
ryy
ou'
l
ldof
ine.
..
Ses'
thoko:
isev
ery
thi
ngokayNt
ombi
?
Me:
I'
m okay.
.I'
mj ustscar
edy
ouknowI
'
m wr
it
ing
myl
astschoolexams..so
▶Ismi
l
eddi
shonest
ly.
Ses'
thoko:
okayher
e'sy
ourbr
eakf
ast
.
▶Shehandedmeaplat
eofcor
nfl
akes..
.Iat
edi
dn'
t
ev
enfi
nishmybowl
butIwasal
readyful
l..
.
Me:
Ihav
etogo
▶Iwal kedt othegat
eandst oodt herefor15
minutesunt i
lMalumscarappear edIwal kedtothe
gateandpi ckedmyschool bagupandwal kedt
othe
car.
.Iopenedt hedoorandnot i
cedt hatitwasn'
t
Malums. .
.Ij
uststoodther
eonsome"whot hef
uck
i
sthis"
Hi
m:sor
ryI
'
mlat
e..
.
▶Ijustl
ookedathi
m andproceededtogeti
nthe
car
.Fast
enmyseatbeltandwedr ov
eoff.
Hi
m:hav
ingabadmor
ning?
Me:whatsyournameagai
n?Andwher
e's
Uncl
e'
Frans?
Hi
m:I
'
m Zwel
i
..Uncl
eFr
an'
sson
Me:
ok
▶Isai
duninter
est
ed..
.Ijustwant
edt
ogotoschool
,
wri
tet
hatstupi
dpaper,comebackhomeandcry
somemore.
Zwel
i
:You'
vegr
ownhey
..
.Thel
astt
i.
..
Me:sor
rybutIhonest
lydon'
twantt
otal
k..
.doy
ou
mi
nd?
Zwel
i
:.
..
ohsor
ry
▶Hecont i
nuedt odri
ve..
.Wear r
ivedatschool.
.I
openedt hedoorandwal kedi
nsidetheschool
premises.Gr ade12'
swer eal
readywalkingtothe
exam hall.
..ImissedassemblyIwasr eall
ylat
e..
My
fr
iendscamet owardsme..
Nat
asha:
sor
rybbe.
Me:
i
tsowkay
▶If
akedasmi
l
eandwehugged.
Kamo:
Vincey
inj
atuu.
Yhohay
ii
.
Candi
ce:
youneedt
ost
opcr
yingZeel
ookaty
our
eyes.
.
▶Myey eswereverypuff
edfr
om allt
hecryingIdo
beforeIsl
eep.EvenworseketodayIdidn'
tputno
eyeli
nerormascara.
.Il
ookedsi
ck.
Khomot
so:
youdon'
tl
ookwel
l
...Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne.
.guy
sst
opi
t
▶Yhot hesepeopl ear enowact inglikeIgot
diagnosedwi t
hsomedi seaseorsomet hing.
..
we
walkedt ot hehal l.
..
satdowngotser v edourf i
rst
paper .
.2hourpaperweal l gotdonebef orethat
though...Ididn'twast enot imewi thmyf r
iends
becauset heyj ustmadet hingswor sei nsteadof
maki ngmebet ter.
.nothingcoul dbettermeact uall
y.
..
Sot heyf eltsor r
yforme. .
.andIwasn' tmyusual self
soitjustmadet hingsawkwar dIdeci dedt ogohome
earlyrathert hanchi l
li
ngwi ththem forabi t
.WhenI
gotoutIf oundMal umsMGpar kedfarr ightIwalked
toitandgoti n...
againi twast hatguy ...
wedr ovein
sil
ence
Zwel
i
:howwast
hepaper
?CanIt
alkt
oyounow?
▶Il
ookedathi
m andl
ookedaway
..
.
Me:
thepaperwasgood.Thanky
ouf
oraski
ng.
Zwel
i
:okay
..
.
▶Wecontinuedtodri
vei
nsil
ence.
.Heev
entual
ly
dr
oppedmeof f
..
Igoti
nsi
demyhouseandwent
st
rai
ghtt
omyr oom gott
her
etookmyshoesoffI
hadahorri
bleheadacheIwentt
othemedici
nebox
tookout2panadopill
sandwenttot
heki
tchento
dri
nksomewat er.
Ses'
thoko:CanImakeyoufood?Youdi
dn'
tfi
nish
yourbreakf
astt
hismor
ning
Me:
NoI
'
m good.
▶Idrankthepi
l
lsthenwentbacktomyr oom,I
connect
edmyphonet omyBluetoothspeakerand
l
ist
enedtomusicunti
lIf
ell
asleep.around4pm my
dadshookmetowakeup
Dad:
Mubi
▶Iopenedmyey
es.
Dad:
wakeup,
comehel
pmebake
▶Iwokeup, rubbedmyey esandgotoutofbed..
Guesswhatmyf i
rstt
houghtwas. .
.Vi
nce.I
tsso
drai
ninghowwhensomet hingmakesy oureal
ly
real
l
ysadi ti
sallyouthi
nkabout. .
Itookadeepsigh
andwenttohelpmydad. .
.wegotintotheki
tchen.
..
hewaswear i
ngapr onsandst uf
fandheaskedme
tomakeachocol atecake.
Me:
andwhyar
eyouwear
ingt
hat
?
Dad:Gr
acei
scomingoverfordi
nner
,andI'm
pr
epari
ngi
t.
..
howlonghaveyoubeensleepi
ngI
ar
ri
vedher
earound2pm
Me:
Ohok.
..Ihadaheadache
▶Isaidthi
sinlowv oi
ce.AndIst
art
edt
aki
ngout
chocol
atecakeingr
edient
s..
Me:
Dad
Dad:
Yespr
incess
Me:
who'
sthatguywhoaccompani
edmet
oschool
?
.
▶Iaskedoutofcuri
osit
ybecauseIr eal
lydidn'
t
know.Mymi ndwasfloodedwithsadt houghts.I
didn'
tev
enputtwoandt wotogethertoknowt hat
that'
sMalumssoneventhoughhet oldme
Dad:
Zwel
i
?
Me:
yeahhesai
dthathewasZwel
i
,di
dher
epl
ace
mal
ums?
Dad:
Not
hat
'sThat
'sFr
an'
sfi
rstbor
n..
Me:
Ohy
eah?
▶Iwideopenedmyey essurpr
ised.Ihonestlydon'
t
knowwhoIt houghtt
hatwasbutdef ini
telynot
Malumsson. .
.any
wayIstart
edopeningt he
fl
our,
breaki
ngeggsandmi xi
ng..Idi
dallthisquit
e..
.
Dad:Mubi
y oudon'
tlookwel
lareyouokay
..
yousay
l
it
tl
etonothingt
heseday.
.i
severy
thi
ngokay?
Me:
yes.
.Ev
ery
thi
ngi
sfi
ne.
.
▶Itookoutapani
nsi
detheovenpouredthecake
doughinsi
det
hepant
henplacedi
tbackinsi
dethe
oven.
..
Me:
DadI
'
m goi
ngt
omyr
oom.Doy
ouneedanyhel
p?
Dad:
not
hanky
ou.
.
Me:
Okay
▶Iwal kedupthestairsgotinsi
demyr oom,
undressedandIworePJsaf ter
..
.Iwasr eall
yhungry
i
twas18: 33andIhav en'thadanyf oodf orthewhole
day..SoIdeci
dedtogodownst airs.
..Gr abbedt wo
sl
icesofpizzai
nsidethef ri
dge..
pour edmy selfa
gl
assofgr apej
uice,grabbedsomePr i
ngl es,a
strawberryflavouredy oghurtandsomesourwor ms
thenIwentupst airs...Ipl
acedev eryt
hingontopof
mybedt henr ushedt ogetmyDadsmacbooki nhis
room , Iwasgoi ngwat chmyf av
our i
temoviesall
nightlongjustt ofor getalilaboutVinceif
possibble..
Igoti nsidemyr oom, satontopofmy
bedcomf ort
ablyandst ar
tedeating..
.mydad
knockedont hedoor
Me:
Comei
n
Dad:
Mubi
arey
our
eadyy
et?
Me:
ready
??
▶Il
ookedathi
m..
andshookmyhead
Me:No.
..I
'
m notr
eal
l
yhungr
yandIdon'
twantt
o
bor
eyouguys
Dad:
thanky
ouf
orsay
ingno.
..
3isacr
owdany
way
.
▶Iletoutafaintlaugher,hewalkedoutandclosed
thedoor
..
.Hopeheenj oyshisdi
nnerwithGracenot
i
namoodf oranythingtoday.
..
Iconti
nuedtodowhat
IwasdoingandIwat chedamov ieti
tl
ed"Rai
nman".
anddozedoffaf ewmov i
eslat
er .
#I
NSERT72

▶ Thursdaymor ningIwokeupar ound7am. .

.Thank
GodIdi dn'
thaveanexam. .
.Isatupst r
aight.
.A
mov iewasstil
lplayi
ngonmydadsmacbookI
closeditandplaceditontheside..
.whil
eIwasdoi ng
thatapacketofLay ssnacksfell
ont hefloorand
theyspreadacrosstheroom
Me:
Shi
t!
▶It ookmyphoneandwentt hr
oughi t
.Goton
What sAppandanswer edsometexts.Aftergoing
throughmyphoneIst oodupwentt oopenmy
windowsandIal sowenttotakeabat h.
..After
bathingIwentbackt omyr oom, l
oti
onedt ookouta
pinkNi ketr
ackpant,aNikeWhiteT-shir
tandIwor e
sleepers..
didn'
tevenbothert
odomyhai rIjustwore
abeani eandheadeddownst air
s.FoundSes' thoko
cleaningthef r
idge
Me:
mor
ning
Ses'
Thoko:
hel
l
ont
ombi
.Igotnews
Me:
news?
▶Itookaseatattheki
tchencounterandwait
edfor
mybreakfast
.Shewenttothemicrowavetookout
myfoodandshegav ei
ttome, shethentookouta
f
rui
tsaladinthef
ri
dge.
Ses'
thoko:
wil
lyouhav
eitwi
thul
tr
amel
orYoghur
t?
Me:
Ult
ramel
please.
▶Shewentt
othef
ri
dgeandt
ookoutt
heul
tr
amel
Ses'
thoko:
soIsawy
ourman,
Vince.
▶Mystomachsanksametime.Theword"Vi
nce"
j
ustt
ri
gger
smeIdon'twanttoseenorheari
t.
Me:
oh?
▶Ist
art
edeat
ing.
Ses't
hoko: y
eah,Icamei
nearl
ytoday..
.Sowhen
myuberdr oppedmeheranpastus.
.andkehedi
dn'
t
greetme..
.
Me:
I'
m gonnaeati
nthel
ounge.
..
▶Ses'
thokoconf
used.
Ses'
thoko:
oh.
..
Kay
..
▶Ist oodup,tookmybr eakfastandwenttothe
l
ounge.Gott hereandIt ur
nedt heTVonandI
watchedchannel 320.2hour slat
erIwenttopl
ace
thedishesinthesinkthenheadt omyr oom.
Ses't
hokocamei nfr
om out si
de..Ipl
acedt
hedishes
i
nt hesink.
Ses'
thoko:
isev
ery
thi
ngokayNomzamo?
Me:
yeahI
'
m good.
..
▶If akedasmi l
edandwalkedawayt
oavoid
furt
heringthi
sconver
sat
ion.Shewal
kedupthe
stai
rswi t
hme. .
Ses'
thoko:okaygood,
Ithoughtsomethi
ngwas
wrong..
.Isever
ythi
ngokaybetweenyouandVi
nce?
Me:
ahmmmm.
..Yeah.
..
webr
okeup
Ses'
thoko:
tempor
ari
l
y?
▶Ilaughedfort
hef ir
stti
meinday s.
..
.andme
l
aughingreal
lyf
eltweird.
..Wowthisbr
eakupis
r
eall
yeffecti
ngme...Itur
nedaround
Me:
No,
for
ever
..
.AndIdon'
twantt
otal
kabouti
t.
.
▶Iwal
kedi
ntomyr
oom andshewal
kedpassmy
r
oom
Ses'
thoko:
arey
ousur
e?
Me:
yesI
'
m sur
e.
▶Igoti
ntomyroom andclosedthedoor
..
.My
phoner
angIqui
ckl
yattendedit
.
Me:
Hey
Khomot
so:
arey
oust
il
lcomi
ng?We'
rewai
ti
ngf
or
you.
Me:
youcancont
inuewi
thoutme.
.I
'
m notcomi
ng
Khomotso:youknowAccount
ingbet
tert
hough
Zee.
..
who'sgoingtohel
pusnow?
Me: Ei
shKhomo. ..Ireal
lydon'
thavetheenergyto
comet here.
..AndIdoubtI '
l
levenstudyaccount
ing
today.
.I
'm notokay..
.youknowt hi
s
▶IguessIwasonl oudspeakerbecauseCandi
ce
snat
chedKhomotso'sphoneawayf rom her
wang'
tshel
aizi
ndabazami
Candi
ce:
you'
renott
hef
ir
stort
hel
astgi
rlt
ohav
e
herheartbr
okentr
ustme..
sodon'tnurseyour
brokenheartnow,
thi
sisdefi
nit
elynottheti
me..
.
Postponeyourmourni
ngtotheendofexams. .
some
ofusneedtopass..
▶KamoandNat
ashal
aughed.
Khomo:wow...
(shelaughed)i
fyoucan'
tcomeher
e
thenwewil
lcomet oy ourpl
ace.
Me:Candicepleasedon'
tmakey ourprobl
emsmine.
..
Idon'
twantyouguy stocomeher ekhomoandifyou
guysneedhelpwi t
haccount
ingdon'ty'
all
hav
edata
togoogl
eorstudyguidestohelpy'al
l?
Kamo: Ngazos'
phaphelawena.
.wewanty
out
o
expl
aintousandst uf
f.
..
Me:
mxm *
cal
lended*
▶TheyplaytoomuchandI '
m notintherightspace
toj
okearoundwiththem..
...
theleasttheycoulddois
tobether
eformebutnot heymakef unofmybr eak
up.
..
.Iwassosadanddownal loveragai
nIwas
goi
ngtowatchsomemov iesbutinsteadIgotinside
myblanket
sandsl ept
..
.Mybr eakupwi t
hVincehur t
s
mesomucht hepaini
nmyhear twas
unexpl
ainable..
.andhim notcontact
ingmeorsay ing
sorr
ytomej ustmadet hingsworseinmymi ndthis
meanthedi dn'tcare.
..
HowwasIgoi ngtoget
thr
ought hi
s?..
.Ifeltl
ikeIwaspushedi nadeepdar k
hol
eandwasntgi v
enar opet opul
lmy sel
fout
..
..
.AsI
wassleepingIcoul dfeelsomebodyshakingmet o
wakeupandt heywer ecalli
ngmyname.
Me:
mmmh.
..
Ses'
thoko:i
tsl
uncht
ime..Andwhyareyouasl
eep
eminikanj
e?Vukasi
sihere'
syourl
unch.
Me:
I'
m nothungr
y
▶ It
urnedaroundandcov
eredmy
sel
fwi
thabl
anki
e
t
ocontinuemysleep.
Ses'
thoko:
Noowakeup,
yourr
oom i
samesswhen
l
astdidyoucl
eani
t?
Me:
I'
ll
cleanup
Ses't
hoko:youhav
etotel
lmewhathappened
betweenyouandhim.
..You'
rewr
it
ingaccount
ingon
Mondayr i
ght?
Me:
mmmh
Ses'
thoko:andyou'
renotstudyi
ng..
.Zamoy ou
shouldbestudyi
ngnotsleepi
ng..
youcan'tbesador
cryyoursel
ftosl
eepeverydaybecauseofumfana
zamo...
ther
e'smoretoli
fethanuVince.
▶Yhowhati shappeni
ngt oday
?..I
sitt
ell
Nomzamo
i
zindabazakheandhur thermoreDay?Because
wow.Ses'thokosatbesidemeandpul l
edmeoutof
bedtositupstrai
ght.
Ses'
thoko:
wenzeni
?Tel
lme.
.di
dhecheatony
ou?
▶Inooded
Ses't
hoko:
what'
snew?Al
lmencheat
..
that
'swhat
theyknowbestsi
si.
Me:ngy
amthandaSes'
thokoi
thur
ts.
.i
thur
tsso
muchyoudon'
tunder
stand.
Ses'
thoko:Iknowy oulovedVi
nce..
sit
ti
nghereand
cryi
ngforhim whilehemakesmi l
l
ionsisnotgoing
tohelpyou..
.i
fhel ovedyouthatmuchhewoul dn't
havecheated..
.cheatingi
seasy..
andalsoiti
seasy
tobeloyaltosomeoney oulovei
tsvery
easy.
..
acceptwhathappenedandf ocusony our
exams.
▶Ist
art
edhav
ingt
ear
yey
es.
..
Ses'
thoko:
comeher
e..
don'
tcr
y..
kuzol
unga
▶Shehuggedmeandbr ushedmyback. .andIletmy
sadnessoutandcr iedpainf
ul l
yso.Moment safter
shegotoutofmyr oom andl eftmetoeatmyl unch..
.
Icouldn'
teatitIjustplaceditont hesideofmybed
andgotoutofbedandIwentt ot hetoi
let..
.WhenI
gotbackt omyr oom It ookoutmyst udying
mat er
ial
sandst artedstudyingaccount i
ng...Friday
mor ni
ngImetupwi thmyf r
iendsandst udi edwi th
them...
Satur
dayandSundayIwasi ndoorsheal ing
mybr okenheartwhi l
estudyinghardtof orgetabout
Vince...

▶Mondaymor ningIwokeuppr et
tyl
atebecauseI
sl
eptlat
elastnightbusyst udying.
..
mydadknocked
buthi
sknockswer eunanswer edsohewal kedin
andwokemeupandhest artedshouti
ngatme
aboutmymessyr oom.
Dad:
what'
swrongwithyouthesedays.
..
?Angi
yazi
keMinai
ntombazanaezi
phathanj
engawebuka
ukut
hykunj
anil
a..
kushodanj
ekuphume
amagundwane.
Me:
I'
ll
cleanwhenIcomebackf
rom school
.
Dad:
Zwel
ihasbeenwai
ti
ngf
ory
ou.
.sekuzekoshay
a
u7Zamo
Me:dadi
fyoucangetout
..
.I
'
llbedonewi
thi
n
mi
nutes.
..
please
Dad:bazokuqoshanj
ekaboVincebebangabona
ukut
hiumakot i
wabouhlal
aekamareniel
inj
ani.
Me:Vince!Vince!Vi
nce!Whydoy ouall
actl
i
kemy
l
iferevol
vedaroundhim ?Can'
tIj
ustexi
stwi
thout
peoplementi
oninghim?
▶Mydadwi
deopenedhi
sey
es,
shocked.
Dad:
Arey
out
alki
ngt
ome?
▶ Hesai
dslowlymaki
ngsur
ethatIr
ethi
nkabout
whatI
'
vejustsai
d.
Me:
(Isi
ghed)
..
.sor
ry,
excuseme.
▶Iwentt
othebat
hroom.
Dad:
NomzamocomeHer
e.
Me:
DadI
'
mlat
e..
.
▶Iclosedmybat hroom doorandundressedt otake
aquickshower.
.Iguesshegotoutofmyr oom
becauseIhear
dmydoorshut ..
.Ishower
edqui ckl
y
andgotoutoftheshower ..
.wor
emyschool unif
orm
andwentdownst ai
rs..Igr
abbedapearandabanana.
Dad:Iwar
nedyouaboutt
hatguy
..
.l
ookaty
ounow
bei
ngamess..
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
.
Me:
i'
m of
ftoschool
Dad:andyoubett
erf
ocusony
ourexami
nat
ionsand
for
getaboutboy
s.
▶Iwal kedout .
..Immedi atelywhenIshutt hedoor
tearsmy ster
iouslyappear edoutofnowher e..
.If
ell
apart..
.mydadhadt or ubi tinmyf aceabout
Vince..
.yeshewasr i
ghtVi ncewant edonet hing
from meandhegoti t
, allalonghewasi nlov ewit
h
hisexIwasnai vetothi nkt hathewi l
ll
ovemeand
onlymeIsawt hesi gnsbutIi gnoredthem t heywere
stil
li
nl oveandIwasj ustsoi nlov
ewi thhim andI
i
gnor edthosesigns...
whenIsai dItearedupl olI
cri
edl i
kethefi
rstweekofourbreakup.
..
Iwipedmy
tearsawaybuttheyj
ustkeptonflowi
ng.
..Igot
i
nsideMal umscarandshutthedoorandlooked
outsidethewi
ndow.
Zwel
i
:Mor
ningt
oyout
oo.
..
▶Isi deeyedhim andlookedoutoft hewi ndow
again..
wedrov eoff
..Ikeptonwipingmyt ear swhi
le
wewer edrivi
ngbecauset heykeptoncomi ngand
myt houghtswer enotgivi
ngmeabr eak.
.Ikepton
thi
nkingaboutsadst uffhowI'
m notwor thit.And
howVi nceplayedmesogoodcl earl
yI'm af ool
becauseIbelievedhim.
Zwel
i
:booboowhat
'
swr
ong?
▶Ii gnoredhi m...
thisguyjustannoysmebecausehe
makest hi ngswor sebyt heli
ttl
ethi
ngshesay sthey
j
ustannoymeandIdon' tknowwhy ..
.poorguyIf elt
forhim..
wegotatschool andIgotoutbef or
eI
closedthedoorIsai d" t
hanks"..
andclosedthedoor .
WhenIgotatschool .
..Myclassmateswer ealready
wr i
ti
ng..
..Irushedt othehall.
..
andgotinside
everybodyl ookedatmeIsatdownandt heygav e
myshi tandIstar
tedwr
it
ing.
..
3hour
slaterwewere
done..
myf ri
endsandIwenttothet
uckshoptobuy
slapchipsandsomeicecreamsitwashot..
.whi
l
ein
thequeue
Candice:
IfIdon'
tget80%ormoreont
hatexam
they
'l
lbetaki
ngmef oraPoes.
Kamo:
80?
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Candi
ce:
itspossi
blewhyy
a'l
ll
aughi
ng?
Me:
iti
spossi
blechomi
don'
tl
ist
ent
othem
Kamo:
you'
reabi
gbi
gdr
eamerVuy
o
▶Wegotourst uffandwentt oeatatourtr
ee.
..
A
groupofSoccerpl
ayerspassedus..andonemadea
commentandt heystar
tedlaughi
ng...
Me:
aret
heyl
aughi
ngatus?
Nat
asha:
let
'sl
eav
ethem
Me:
No,
Bat
hini
?Ar
etheyt
alki
ngabouty
ou?
Kamo:Nat
ashay
oushoul
dn'
thav
ecomesoutas
l
esbi
annawe.
Me:may emeleat
hul
eandbeashamedofwhoshe
i
s..
ungazony
anawe.
▶Itur
nedaroundandwenttot
hesoccerpl
ayer
s
whopassedustoconf
rontt
hem..
Khomot
so:
Zamor
eNoo!
Shetri
edtograbme.
.Ipul
l
edawayandf
etched
thosel
osers.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT73

▶Ieager
lywal
kedtothem..
.andst
oodi
nfr
ontof
t
hem,Mduduziwasther
e..
.
Me:
doy ouguy
shav
esomet
hingt
osayt
omeand
myfr
iends?
▶Theyl
ookedateachot
herandsai
dNo.
Me:Wel l
Iguessya'
ll
don'thav
eball
shuh?Theonl
y
bal
lthatya'
l
lhaveistheoneyouguysusei
nthefi
eld.
Mduduzi
:oooh.
..
snap
Me:
itsokayt
hough.
..
enj
oyy
ourdayl
adi
es.
▶Iwalkedbacktomyfri
endswhowerewai
ti
ngf
or
me..
.Wewentt oourt
reeandsatdown.
Me:t
hoseni
ggascoul
dn'
tev
ensaytheshi
tthey
wer
esayi
ngtomyfacemxm theypi
ssmeoff.
Khomot
so:
baf
azi
kabi
laba.
Candi
ce:
Ithoughty
ouwer
ebl
uff
ing
Kamo:
Met
oo
▶Theyl
aughed.
Me: NahIwasn'tpeopl
eshouldstoptr
eat
ing
Natashali
keshehassomei ll
ness,i
sshethefi
rst
l
esbiantheyknow? ?Arggh
Kamo:i
tsaphasemaar
nNat
ashauzobar
ightand
l
ikeboy
sagai
n
Natasha:
youknowKamot hel
eastyoucoul
ddoi
s
tobeunderst
andingbutnoyouchoosetobe
homophobic.
..
growup
Kamo:
woah
▶Wewer eall
shocked..ButIunder stoodheri n
somewayev eryonewast alki
ngaboutherbei ng
Lesbiantheseday sandev ery
onewasj udgingheri
t
affectedhersoherexplodingwasboundt ohappen
any t
imesoon...Idi
dn'thaveanyf i
brei nmet o
misunderstandorjudgeanot herchildforbeing
LesbianImeani tshersexualit
ynotmi ne,
she'snot
hurti
ngany oneandalsoI m goingthroughmyown
stuff
Candi
ce:
truewehav et
obether
eforTasha,
Ihavea
cousi
nwhoislesbi
anandsheneverdat
edboys
.
..
she'
sli
keNat
ashagi
rl
fr
iend.
..
??
Natasha:
yeahyoucancal
lhermygir
lf
ri
endshe'
s
st
il
lagirlt
houghshedr
essesli
keaboy.
Candi
ce:
yeahshealsodr
essesli
keboysand
behav
esli
keone.
..Sowe'
reusedtoher
..
Khomot
so:whendi
dyouf
indoutt
haty
ouwer
e
l
esbi
anTash?
Nat
asha:
grade9
Kamo:
9..
.wow.
..
Me:
Yhot
hatl
ong.
..
Natasha: y
eahatf
irstIwasconfuseddi
dn'
treal
ly
understandwhatwashappeningthenIwatchedthi
s
otherlesbi
anmovie..
Ifor
goti
tsname..t
henIwasl i
ke
ohh
Khomotso:
soar
eyourpar
ent
scool
wit
hyoubei
ng
Lesbi
an?
Nat
asha:
mydaddoesn'
ttal
ktome.
.
Candi
ce:
Ncoohsor
ryt
ash
Nat
asha:
yeahNat
hani
stheonewhot
rul
y
under
standsev
enwhenhedoesn'
tunder
stand
somethi
ngheasks.
..
he'
ssosuppor
ti
ve.
Candi
ce:that
'ssweetImeany ouguysar
etwi
nssoI
guessyouhaveanuncondit
ionalbond
Nat
asha:
real
l
yDi
dn'
texpecti
tfr
om hi
m.
Me:
andy
ourmom?
Nat
asha:
she'
str
yingt
o..
.shehasaccept
edme
t
hough
Me:
that
'sgr
eat
Natasha:justwi
shpeoplecoul
djustl
etmeli
vemy
l
if
e...Kabelosai
dthathewil
lshowmehowgooda
di
cki s.
..
may bet
henI'
llcometomysenses.
Kamo:
hedi
dn'
tl
iet
hough.
..
dicki
sgood
Natasha: f
ory oustr
aightpeopl
e..
.Idon'
thav
eto
experienceitsothatIcancomet omysenses..
.I'
m
Lesbianandpeopl eshouldjustaccepti
t.
Candice:
we'r
ehereforyouNatashadon'
twor
ry
aboutwhatanyonesaysyouhaveus..
Khomot
so:
yesy
oudo
Kamo:
100%
Nat
asha:
Ilov
eyouguy
s.
▶Af tercat chi
ngupandgossi pi
ngwewenthome. .
.I
gothomear ound3pm Iwentt omyr oom gotther e
andIst artedundressing...Itookmyphoneand
connect edi tt
omyBl uetoot hspeakerandIlistened
tosomeRnBmusi cIrelatedt oever
ysadsong. .
."
Me, My self&I"byBey oncebecamemyant hem I
l
ov editsomuchandIpl ayedital
mostev eryday..
.I
playeditforabout3-4t i
mesandsangi tinf
rontof
themi r
r orbusysingi
ng. .
.Thosel yri
cshitmesohar d
l
ol Iwasgoi ngthr
ought hemost .
..
Me:
HeeJahne.
..
amadoda
▶Ist oppedsingingandwentt opickoutsome
clothestowearinmywar drobeItookouta
bleachedtornedboy f
ri
endJeanandabl ackcroptop
thenIwor emyf avori
teyell
owsocksandIwal ked
downst ai
rs.
..Ses'
thokowaspr epari
ngsupper
Ses'
thoko:
Howwasy
ourday
..
.
Me:
Ahhi
twasgood.
..St
art
edbadbutIenj
oyedi
t.
Ses'
Thoko:
Ohkayt
hat
'sgood.
Me:
Yeah.
..I
'
m sohungr
y
Ses'
thoko:Idi
dn'tpr
epar
eyoulunchther
e'sl
eft
over
pi
zza,itl
ooksfreshsoIdi
dn'
tthr
owitaway
Me:
Dadboughti
tyest
erday.
.wewer
elazyt
ocook.
..
▶Iwentt
othef
ri
dget
ooki
toutandmi
crowav
edi
t.
..
Ses'
thoko:al
wayslazytocook.
..
ubhal
ekahl
ekodwa?
Iwaswor r
iedaboutyou.
Me:
YhoIacedt
hatexam.
.Imoer
edi
tSes'
Thoko.
▶Mypi zzawasdoneheati
ngup..
soItooki
toutand
pouredmyselfagl
assofanor
angejui
ceandIsaton
thekit
chencount
ertoeat
.
Ses'
thoko:
Ahythat'
sgood.
.y
oumustst
udyhar
dyaz
fai
l
ingmatri
cisnotfun
Me:
yeahIknow.
..Iwon'
t.
.Ipr
omi
se
Ses'
thoko:good.AndIknowy
ou'
regoi
ngt
odogood.
Ihadav i
sionaboutyou
Me:
visi
on?I
sitagoodorabadv
isi
on?
Ses'
thoko:
agoodone.
.y
ouwer
egraduati
ngsothi
s
j
usttell
smethaty
ou'
regoi
ngt
odoreall
ygoodon
yourexams.
Me:
that
'sar
eli
ef
▶Iwassohappy.
..
njewi
shIwasgr
aduat
ingf
orr
eal
Ij
usthat
est
udyi
ngandstuf
f.
Ses'
thoko:yeahal
lyouhavet
odonow..
ist
ost
udy
st
udyst udy
.Ngigobhozel
ewhat
'snew?
Me:hahahaSes'
thoko.
..Not
hingi
snewy
azj
ustt
his
Nat
ashaissue.
Ses'
thoko:
Nat
asha?.
..
.
▶Shestoppeddoi
ngwhatshewasdoi
ngand
f
ocusedonme.
Me:yeah.
.herbei
ngLesbi
an.
.j
ustbr
ingsunnecessar
y
at
tenti
ont oher.
Ses'
thoko:
sheshoul
dn'
tcar
ewhatpeopl
esay
..
I
meani t
sherl
i
fe.
Me:
exact
ly.
..
Ses'
thoko:
peopl
eneedt
omov
ewi
tht
imest
obe
honestandstopj
ugdi
ngot
herpeopl
eumabehl
ulwa
ezaboizi
ndaba.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
yho.
..
yousoundheat
ed.
.l
etmegot
omyr
oom
Ses'
thoko:
Peopl
ewil
lbor
eyouNtombi
yaz.
.ahy
..
supperwil
lber
eadyi
nanhour
▶Iwentt omyr oom. .
.Downl oadedsomeEngl i
sh
paper
sjusttogot hrought hem..Iwaswr i
ti
ngpaper
1tomorrow.Around6pm Ses' t
hokohadl eftandmy
dadwasn'thomey et...Iate,bathedandslept..
.My
Mondaynightwasshor t
..
.Tuesdaymor ningIwoke
updidallmymor ningroutineandIheaded
downstai
rs.Iwasst i
llmadatmydadsoIj ustsat
downandgotbusyonmyphone.Ses' thokohanded
memycer eal
Dad:
awubul
i
singani
?
▶Ist ar
tedeati
ng.
.andIignor
edhim,Ihadabout4/5
spoonsofmycer ealt
henIwalkedout.Wait
edfor
Zwelitoarr
ive.
.hearr
ivedminut
esearlysoIhopped
i
nt hecarandwedr oveoff
Me:
Goodmor
ning
▶Ya'llshould'
veseenhi
sface..myguywasso
shockedwe' vehadfewawkwar dmomentsand
thi
ngswer ejustweir
dbetweenus..
hecouldn'
t
beli
evablethatIwasthi
scalm andthatIj
ustgr
eet
ed
him.
Zwel
i
:Mor
..
.ni
ng
Me:
CanwepassatMcDonal
d'
s?
Zwel
i
:Yeahsur
e..
.
▶Wemadei tt
oMcDonald'
sdr
ivet
hruIor
ded
chi
ckennuggetsandcof
fee
Me:
CanIgety
ousomet
hing?
Zwel
i
:No,
Thanks.
▶Igotmyf oodandwecont i
nuedourdr ive,Igotat
schoolaround7: 16IwenttothelibraryImeanwhat
el
sewasIgonnadoIwasear l
y.
..soIf oundaqui te
cornerandIt ookoutmyf oodandIst art
edeat i
ng
whilegoingthroughmyphonel isteningtomusi c
withmyear phones.Astimewentbymyf ri
ends
start
edar r
ivi
ngtheyalsocamet ot hel i
brarytosit
withmebutwewer echasedoutbecausewewere
makingnoisebusyl
aughi
ngsowewentoutand
stoodnexttot
heschoolhal
li
tswas8: 40exams
takepl
aceat9:00..
..
Kamo:
Whyt
fisi
tsohot,
YhoIcan'
t
Candi
ce:Iboughtsunscreenyester
daybecause
wow..
it
slikewe'r
ealreadyinhell
Me:
I'
m notgoi
ngt
her
eShem.
.notme.
.
Khomot
so:wewil
lbewear
ingst
arwhi
tei
nheav
en
nabomarr
yanddavi
d
Me:
yasss!
!
▶Wel
aughedandhi
ghf
iveeachot
her
.
Natasha:brav
eofyout
wot
othi
nkt
hatGodwi
l
l
al
lowy ouinheav
en
Me:
l
eav
eusal
one
Kamo:verybrave.
.wenaCandi
ceyoushoul
d'
vegi
ven
methatsunscreenmoneytobuyair
ti
me.
Candi
ce:
arey
oumad?
▶Wel
aughed.
Khomot
so:
Kamoy
oual
way
swantai
rt
imehay
i
Candice:
y oucansaythatagai
n▶Theycal l
edust o
theexam hallwegotther
esatdown. .
theygaveus
ourpapers..
wesignedtheregi
sterandwest ar
ted
writ
ingat9:00onthedot.

▶At10: 32Wewer est il

l writi
ng, thispaperwasl ong
fornor eason.out sidei tsbr eakt imeschool kidsar e
maki ngnoi seandst uff..Ani ntercom sy stem from
theof f
icebr oughtusal l t
oat tent i
on"At tenti
on
please,NomzamoNt shangaseaf terwriti
ngpl ease
reporttother eception"Ist oppedwr i
ti
ngandmy
heartstartedbeat i
ngf ast .
..
andt hen??..
.Iletitslide
becauseIt houghtmay bei t
sbecauseofNet ball.
.but
wedon' thav eagamecomi ngupmossowhyel se
wouldt heycal lme.Myf riendsl ookedatmeon
some"Bi t
chwhat 'supwhyar ey oubei ng
summoned"Ishr ugmyshoul dersonsome"Idon' t
knowwhy/what '
sgoi ngon"Kamochuckl ed.
.
MrGr
ieger:
What
'sf
unnyMi
ssMokoena?
Kamo:
Not
hingSi
r
▶Weal lchuckl
edi
nthehalli
ndi
vidual
ly
..
.After
wri
ti
ngmyf ri
endswait
edformeatt hedoorasIwas
t
helastonetosubmitherpaper
..
.
Kamo:
asambeni
kesi
yeni
eOf
fi
ce
Candi
ce:
yeah.
.
▶Theyst
art
edwal
ki
ng
Me:It
houghtt
heysai
d"NomzamoNt
shangase"me.
.
al
one.
▶Weal l
laughedandpr
oceededt
owal
ktot
heof
fi
ce
Igott
here
Recept
ioni
st:
Nomzamo.
.uy
ajol
ahuh?
▶Conf usedasf uck..If
rownedandl aughedupon
herquesti
on.Ourr eceptionistwasoldsot his
conversat
ionwasj ustgoi ngtobeawkwar dand
whatdoesshemeanbekat hingyaj
ola.Ijuststood
ther
e.Shest oodupf rom herchairandf etchedabox
ofpizzafrom anothertableshepassedi tt hr
ut he
window..Iwasst i
llconfused.
Me:
Whobr
ou.
..
.oh
▶AsIt
ookt
hepi
zzaf
rom t
hewi
ndowIsawanot
e
ontopofitwrit
ten"Iknowy ou'
reslay i
ngy our
examsandIknowhowmuchy oulovepi zzapl ease
sl
aythesesli
cesofpizzaf orme..Imi sseat i
ngpi zza
withyou.
.Vi
nce"Iwal kedoutoft heof fi
ceandI
wenttomyf r
iends.
..
IgaveCandi cet hepi zza
becauseIdi
dnotwantt ot ouchit.
.mymood
changedIwasindisbeli
ef. .
hegoesmi ssingf or
weeksandbr i
ngsmeast upidpizzat al
kingabouthe
misseseati
ngpizzawithme. .Mxm.
Candi
ce:
andt
hen?
Kaml
:whatdoest
henot
esay
?
▶Theyr
eadi
t.
.
Nat
asha:
Ncooht
hisi
scut
e..
Me:
cut
e??Noi
tisnot
▶It
ookt
hepi
zzaawayf
rom t
hem
Khomot
so:
wher
ear
eyout
aki
ngi
t??
Kamo:
she'
sgonnat
hrowi
taway
Candi
ce:
Nozamor
ewear
ehungr
y
▶Thesebi
tches.
..
.i
tsf
unnynowbuti
treal
l
ywasn'
t
f
unnyt
hen.
..
theychasedmeandgr
abbedi
t
Me:
arey
ouguy
smad?
Nat
asha:
don'
tthr
owi
taway
..
.
Me:
why
???
▶Att hi
spoi
ntmysof tsel
fwant
edtocr
y.Because
al
lthoseVi
ncethoughtscameback
Khomotso:
doyouknowhowmanyki
dswi
sht
o
havet
hispi
zza.
.
Candi
ce:
yeahl
et'
srat
hert
akei
tbackt
oVi
nce.
Kamo:
yahgoodi
dea.
▶Theyconv i
ncedmet otakeitback.
.Ithi
nktheyjust
wantedmet ogoandseeVi nce.
.andIalsowanted
thatdeepinsidebecauseI'
vemissedhi m soso
much...Wewal kedtoEskom itwasa40- 45minutes
walkfrom myschool .
..
lmaowehadal otofener
gy
shem ..
busycar r
yingaboxofpizzaandt hesunwas
hotAF...Duringourwalk
Candi
ce:
CanIatl
easteatonesl
i
cezamor
e
Me:
Noar
eyoumad?
Candi
ce:
okay
..
itj
ustsmel
l
ssoni
ce.
▶Wewal kedandwalkedandwal
ked.
..
hal
fwaythr
u
Kamodroppedtheboxwhenitwashert
urntocar
ry
thebox.
.
Khomot
so:
Bat
hongKamo
Me:
wet
oldy
ounott
ousei
tasanumbr
ell
a.
▶Weopenedt heboxandt
hepi
zzainsi
dewas
messedup..
.wesatdowni
ndi
sbel
i
efandjust
l
aughed.
..
Me:
sowhatnow?
Candi
ce:
weeatt
hepi
zza
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
.
Kamo:
andI
'
m hungr
yMi
naYhowe'
vebeenwal
ki
ng
▶Shegr abbedasl
i
ceandst
art
edeat
ing.
.weal
l
j
oinedher.
..
Nat
asha:sowewal
kedal
lthoseki
l
omet
ersf
or
not
hing?
Khomot
so:
Ihat
eya'
l
lIdon'
tev
enknowwher
eIam
Candi
ce:
wecanst
il
lgot
her
e..
.
Me:
KuVi
nce?
?
Candi
ce:
Yes
Khomot
so:
anddowhatbecauseweal
readyat
ethe
pi
zza
Candi
ce:
wecanbr
eakhi
swi
ndowsorhi
str
yer
s
▶Idon'
twantt oli
e..
thi
ssoundedl ikethegreatest
i
deaonearth.
.IwasANGRYandSAD. .Vincebroke
myhearti
ntopiecesIcouldn'tgetbackathim. .
so
t
hisj
ustsoundedr i
ght.
.butIdidn'
thavether age.
..
Kamo:
Candi
cey
ou'
reageni
us.
Khomotso:
noshe'
snot
..
.Youdon'
tdot
hatt
o
someoneaksi
semamovie(
ni)l
a.
Nat
asha:yeshecoul
dgetusar
rest
ed,
let
'sj
ustcal
l
anuberandgohome.
Me:
soundsl
i
keagr
eati
deat
omet
o..
let
'sgo
▶Candi
cest
oodup.
Khomot
so:
NoZamor
ear
eyouser
ious?
▶Ialsost
oodupdust
edmy
sel
fof
fandl
edt
he
way
..
Kamor ant
ome..
Kamo:
arewer
eal
l
ydoi
ngt
his.
.
Me:
yes
▶Webot
hlaughed.
.Myot
herf
ri
endsf
oll
owedus.
.
Nat
asha:
ya'
l
lwi
l
lgeti
ntot
roubl
e..
.
Khomotso:andy
oushoul
dn'
ti
nvol
veusi
nthi
s
madness.
Candi
ce:
weneedahugeBr
ickf
ort
hewi
ndows.
.
Me:
let
'sl
ookar
oundf
ort
hem.
▶Wel ookedar oundforBricksaswewal kedt o
Vince'
swor kplaceitwas10mi nutesaway..
.
Kamo, CandiceandIwer ejustampedandhad
adrenali
nerusht odot hi
s..whil
eNat ashaand
Khomot soont heot herhandwer enotwithitand
wantedust obackdown.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT74

▶Mi nutesl
aterwegotatt
hegat
e..Fuckt
her
ewas
securi
ty.
.
Candi
ce:
guy
sther
e'ssecur
it
y
Khomot
so:
Goodl
et'
stur
nback.
..
mybabymi
sses
me.
Candi
ce:
Whydowehav
esecur
it
yint
hiswor
ld?
Nat
asha:
Tost
opsi
tuat
ionsl
i
ket
his.
.Let
'sgoback
guy
s.
▶KamoandIwal kedtothesecur i
tyguard,welied
andsaidt hatwehav easchool assi
gnmentt hat
needsanswer sfr
om engi neer
s,hewaswasonhi s
l
unchsohedi dn'
tcaremuchaboutwhatwehadt o
sayhet oldust osignfir
stthengetin..
.Wesi gnedAll
5ofust henwegoti n..
.Wewal kedstrai
ghttothe
parki
ngl otthereitwasVi nce'
sRedRS3i tlookedso
shi
nylikeithasbeent othecarwash. .
.Wel aughed
aswerewal ki
ngtowar dsit.
Me:
Thi
sisst
upi
d.
Kamo:
Whati
fikhal
e?
▶Wel
aughedner
vousl
y.
..
Khomotso:itmi
ghtact
uall
y.
..Thenwewi
llbe
caught
..
thenjai
l
lguyspl
ease.Someofusare
mother
shl e
▶Nat
ashai
nthebackgr
oundcr
ying.
Nat
asha:
Let
'sgo.
..Iwannagohome.
Kamo:
bit
chwhyar
eyoucr
ying?
?
Me:
don'
tcr
yit
sani
nandoutj
ob.
..
Candi
ce:
yousoundl
i
kear
eal
gangst
erZee
▶Wel
aughed.
Kamogel
o:Shhh
Me:let
'sj
ustpunchthety
resandleavet
hewindows
maybeinthatwaythecarwon'
tsettheal
arm
sy
stem of
f.
Kamo:
arey
ousur
e?
Nat
asha:y
eahi
thappens.I
ftheownerdi
dn'
tseti
t
t
hough.
Khomo:
Zamor
edi
dhe?
Me:
Idontknowl
et'
sjusthopehedi
dn'
t.
▶"Pooooff
sshshhh"weheardasound.
..
then
i
mmediatel
yturnedaround.
Candi
ce:
Idi
dit
.
▶Shelaughedexci
tedl
y.
..Shewasholdi
ngapi
ece
ofst
eeli
nherhandshehadpunchedoneofVince'
s
tr
yesandnoalar
m wentoff.Iwi
deopenedmyeyes.
Khomo:
Owkayt
hat
senough.
..Let
'sgo
Kamo:
Omgt
hissi
deoft
hecari
sgoi
ngdown.
Candi
ce:
Taket
hisZeeanddot
hiswheel
▶It
ookt
hest
eel
itwassoheav
y.
Me:
Wher
edi
dyougett
his?
Candi
ce:
Ifoundi
tther
e..
▶Poi nti
ngnearsomeaboundedbui l
dingwhere
construct
ionwasunder waybuttherewer eno
construct
orsthatday,l
uckyus..
.It
ooki tand
punchedt womor etr
yes..Gav
eittoKamoandshe
di
dt he4thtyr
e..
Khomot
so:
okayguy
senoughl
et'
sgo.
..
▶shewasnowshout
ingatus.
.Wer
ant
owar
dst
he
gat
elaughi
ng.
..
.
MrSecurit
y:t
hatwasf
ast
,di
dtheyansweral
lyour
quest
ions?
Me:No,
wehadtosetappoi
ntmentfi
rstbef
ore
comi
ng,sowecomi
ngbackFriday
.
MrSecuri
ty:
Okayzinganezam bay
achomav
ele
kul
enkampanihay
i.
▶heopenedt hegat
ef orusandwewal kedout..
Natashahadalr
eadyrequestedanUberforus.
.so
wejusthopedinandwenthome. .
.Wegotatmy
housearound3pm,Ses'Thokobuzzedusinweal l
gotin
Ses'
Thoko:
mant
ombazana
Them:
HiSes'
thoko
Ses'
thoko:I'
vemi
ssedy
oumahl
any
awami
,how
haveya'l
lbeen
Candi
ce:
I'
vebeengood,
wehav
eal
lbeengood.
▶TheylaughedandhuggedSes't
hokothenwewent
st
rai
ghttothel
oungeplacedourwri
ti
ngmater
ial
s
onthet
ableandjustr
elaxed.
Ses'
thoko:
doyouguy
swantanythi
ngtoeat?Ican
fi
xyousomefoodbefor
eIst
artcooki
ngsupper.
Candi
ce:
Ses'
thokodoy
ouwannaknowasecr
et?
▶Ses'
thokol
i
ghtl
aughed
Ses'
thoko:
yeah?
Candice:t
heonl yr
easonIcameher eit
sbecauseof
yourdeli
ciousfoodthatexpl
odesmyt ast
ebuds...
so
whateveryou'l
lmaketodayI'
llenj
oyit
.I'
vemissed
yourfoodsomuch
Ses'
thoko:
Candi
cekodwa.
..
Kamo:YhoSes'
thokowehaven'
thadyourfoodina
l
onglongti
me..
wenajustmakeusany
t hi
ng..wewi
ll
eati
t
Ses'
thoko:
any
thi
ng?
Kamo:
any
thi
ng
Khomo:
andwewi
l
lfi
nishi
t
Ses'
thoko:
Okaygi
rl
s..
.
▶Shewentt ot
hekitchen.
..
myfri
endsandIwat
ched
musicv
ideosandkeptbusyonourphoneswhil
ewe
wai
tedforSes'
thokotobri
ngourfood.
Nat
asha:
hasVi
ncecal
l
edy
et?
?
Me:
Ibl
ockedhi
m.SoIdon'
tknow.
..
Kamo:
I'
m sur
eheknowsbynow.
.t
hat
'si
t'
syou
Me:
Me?I
tsUsal
lofus
Kamo:nosisi
wewerether
eformor
alsuppor
tso
basi
cal
lyi
tsal
lyoutf
aul
t
Me: Noway
sguy
ssonke.
.ev
ent
heoneswhower
e
cr
ying
Khomot
so:
Whywer
eyoucr
yingv
elewena?
Nat
asha:
guy
sjustl
eav
emeal
one.
▶Wel
aughedather
.
Candi
ce:
Ahyabel
ungu
Me:GuysI
'
m honest
lyscar
ednow.
..
howwi
l
lhe
r
eact?
Nat
ash:
ya'
l
lar
egoi
ngt
ojai
lthat
'showhewi
l
lreact
Candi
ce:
Vincewon'
tdot
hatt
oZamor
e,r
ight?
Me:
Yeahhewon'
t.
..
ri
ght
?
▶Khomot sol
aughed...
I'
m surehewon'tgetme
ar
rest
ed..
sad,y
eshewi l
lbekodwaget t
ingme
ar
rest
edHaibo..
.angeke.
..wejustl
aughedoffthe
si
tuat
ionandminuteslaterSes'
thokocameint he
l
oungewithourfood..
shemadeusapl att
er.
..
Ses'
thoko:
Imadey ouguysanafter
noonplatt
er
hopeyouenjoyi
t.I
'
llf
etchyourcockt
ail
sinthe
ki
tchen
Us:
thanky
ou.
..
▶West
art
eddi
ggi
ngi
n
Kamo:
OmgSes'
thoko
Khomot
so:
mmmhmmh
Nat
asha:
wow
Me:
cockt
ail
s??dot
heyhav
eal
cohol
?
Ses'
thokol
aughed.
Kamo:
theybet
terSes'
thokoIhav
en'
thadal
cohol
si
nceIst
art
edmyexams
Ses'
thoko:
No.
.t
heyar
evi
rgi
ncockt
ail
s
MeandKamo:
Aaahh
▶Candicestoodupandhel
pedSes'
thokocar
ryt
he
cockt
ail
s..
.
Ses'
thoko:
Ntombi I
'
ml eavi
ngne.It
houghtI
'
llcook
Ngshaywaiskhat
hi.
.youandyourdadhavetoorder
i
n,Ihaveadoctorsappoint
ment.
▶Ijustnoddedandgaveherat
humbsupasasi gn
ofsayingokay
,Mymout hwasf
ull
Icoul
dn'
tspeak
thefoodwassodeli
cious.
..
Ses'
thoko:
itwasni
ceseei
ngy
ougi
rl
s..
.enj
oy
Nat
asha:
Theybet
tert
hisi
sthei
rlastdi
shbef
ore
goi
ngtoj
ail
.
▶Ses'
thokof
rownedi
nconf
usi
on.
Ses'
thoko:
Jai
l
?
▶Wealll
ookedatNat
ashaonsome"Whatt
he
f
uck"Nat
ashachuckl
ed
Nat
asha:
I'
mjustki
ddi
ng
Ses'
thoko:
whatdi
dyouguy
sdo?
Kamo:
not
hingSes'
t
hoko
Khomot
so:
Not
hing
Ses'
thoko:
heeIhopeso,
seey
ouguy
sar
oundby
e
Us:
bye
▶Ses' thokoputbuf f
aloWi ngs, Cheeseandham
sandwi ches,potat
ochi ps,mushr oom sauce, vanil
la
cooki esdi ppedinchocolatesauceont heplatter..
.
Andmadeusv i
rgi
nst r
awber rycockt ai
ls. .
wewer e
sosohungr yweat eev ery
thing, aft
erthatNat asha,
Khomot soandCandi cewashedt hedishes,wet hen
playedsomecar dscrazy8. .
.Ar ound7pm ev eryone
wasgone. .
Kamowast heonl yoner emai ni
ng
wai ti
ngf orChr
iswhowasatt hegy mtocomeand
fetchherwewer esti
llinthel ounge...Shewas
plaintingmecor nr
owsandwewer ejust
conv er sati
ng
Me:
Soy
out
hinkorknowt
haty
oul
ovehi
m?
▶Kamol
aughed.
Me:
siesar
eyoubl
ushi
ng?
▶Kamocontinuedt
obl
ush,Hai
bothisgi
rli
sget
ti
ng
ust
helandbackmosshe'
sreal
l
yinlovewit
hthi
s
whi
teguy.
Kamo: Well
..
..Ir
eall
ylovehimfr
iend.ImeanI
droppedallmyhoesf orhi
m..Minamngani?
Droppinghow'sforaguy.
Me:
Ahyy
oumustr
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m
Kamo:Ido.
.AndI'
vest
art
edusi
ngt
he.
."Ican'
tl
iv
e
wit
houthi
m"line.
Me:
he'
syouroxy
gennj
e.
Kamo:
Myf
ood
Me:
yourshel
ter
Kamo:
myneed
Me:
yourhear
t
Kamo:(
shel
aughed)
..
.I'
m done
▶Ist
oodupandsatont
hesof
anextt
oher
..
.
Me:
I'
m happyf
ory
ou.
..Honest
lyIdi
dn'
tthi
nkt
hat
y
ou'
dbewi
thhi
mthi
slongl
ol.
.i
tsact
ual
l
ycr
azy
..
Kamo:
Iknowr
ight
..
.
▶Wel aughed.
.Chr
iscal
l
edhert
ell
i
ngherthathe'
s
outsi
de..
weexi
tedt
hehouseandwefoundChrisat
thegateIgr
eet
ed.
Chr
is:
what
'swi
tht
hegl
owy
ouhav
ehuh?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:it
sokayy oucansayt
hatI
'
m ugl
yand
hear
tbroken
▶Chr
isl
aughed.
Chr
is:
Itr
ied.
▶AnEskom v anpassedusandpar kedatVince'
s
house.
..KamoandIl ookedateachot her.
.Myheart
star
tedpumpi ngsofast..
.Vi
ncegotof ft
hecar..
.he
l
aughedwi t
ht hedri
ver.
.andl
ookedov eratus.
.He
sawmel ookingathim Iimmediat
elylookedatChris
andKamo. .
.
Chr
is:
arey
ouguy
sokay
?
Me:
yeah.
.y
eah
▶Ner
vousl
y
Kamo:
that
'sZamosEx.
Chr
is:
oh.
..
shi
t.
.ar
eyouokay?
Me:
I'
m good.
.Hav
etogo.
..
Chr
is:
lat
er.
..
▶Theydr oveoff..
Ilookedov eratVi
nce'shousehe
wasal r
eadyinsi
dethehouse. .Igoti
nsidemyhouse
andjustasIwasaboutt olockthedoormydad
buzzedont hegate.
.Ilethimi n.
..
Iwai
tedf orhimto
getinsi
dethehousesot hathecanapol ogizehehurt
mey ester
day,hewal kedintomepouringwat er
..
.
Dad:
Dishupf
orme.
▶Ii
gnor
edhi
m..
.Hewentupst
air
sandcameback.
.
Hef
oundmedri
nki
ngwat
er.
Dad:
sti
l
langr
yatme?
Me:
No.
.
▶Iwal
kedaway
.
Dad:
Nomzamobuy
ala
▶Icamebackt
otheki
tchen.
Dad:youknowwhatIsai dwasr ight.
.Youbeing"
mad"atmei t
sbecausey oudon'twanttohearthe
tr
uth.
.Younggi r
lweknowt het r
uthhurtsbut
sometimeswej usthavetohearit.
..Getoveri
t.▶
wowwel l
thathurt
s..
okayI'
m notgoingtogeta
sorr
y..
letmebeaspoi ledbratketoshowhi mthat
wearenowcool .
Me:
I'
m hungr
ydad
▶Isul
ked
Dad:
Ses'
thokodi
dn'
tcook?
Me:
yeah.
.Shehadt
orusht
othedoct
or
Dad:
shedi
dn'
thav
eti
met
ocook?Idon'
tunder
stand.
Me:shehadtomakef oodf
ormeandmyf
ri
ends.I
t
hinksheranoutoft
ime.
Dad:
yourfr
iendswer
eher
e?IHopey
ougi
rl
swer
e
st
udyi
ng.
Me:nope.
.wewer
eact
ual
l
ytr
yingt
ofi
ndmea
boy
fri
end.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Dad:
I'
m def
ini
telyki
l
li
ngyournextboyf
ri
end.Uba
mubinj
ekakhuluwhenyou'
reheartbr
okensisi
omdala
Me:
Dad.
.
▶Ilaughedandlightslappedhi
m. .Ohdadbel i
eve
me..Therewi
llbenoboy f
ri
endsforthelongestti
me.
.
Ican'
tstandt
hosebei ngsanymore...Di
sgusti
ng
agentsofSat
an.
Dad:
Goputony
ourshoeswewi
l
leatout
.
▶Iwentupstai
rsputonablackskinnyj eananda
whit
epl
ainT-shi
rtandmyWhi teNikeairf or
ce,Iput
onaneckl
aceandar edli
pst
ic..
wentdownst ai
rsmy
dadwasalr
eadyinthecarwedr oveofft othemall
wewenttoSpurwehadourdi nnerthere.Ont he
di
nnert
able
Dad:
whogav
eyoumoneyt
odoy
ourhai
r?
Me:
Kamodi
dmyhai
r.
.angi
shoIdon'
thav
eaf
ather
Dad:kamocandohair?Whyam Iwast
ingmoneyon
Char
liewher
eareasy
oucandoyourhairf
reeev
ery
mont
h
Me:
NodadNo.
.
▶Il
aughed.MydadandIconti
nuedtotal
kandhad
al
ovel
yeveni
ngwereconnect
ed.Enj
oyedever
y
mi
nutewit
hhim.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT75

▶Fi nal l
yt helongexhaust i
ngexamswer eov er.
..
well
notr eallybecauseI '
m wr i
ti
ngmyl astexam paper
today .Thi sissowei rdl
astex am paper,someofmy
classmat esIwon' tseet hem anymor eunt i
lGod
knowswhen. .
.It
's06: 11inthemor ningI'
m st anding
i
nf rontoft hemi rr
orwear ingmymat ri
ct -
shirt,my
fav oriteshor tskirt,whitesocksandgr asshopper s.
..
I'
m wear ingthisfort helastti
me?Wowi twasso
sur real .
..Ihadmyhai rdonesoIj ustbrushedupmy
car amel blondest raightupandputonal i
ttleli
p
glossandsomemascar a..
.It
ookmywr iti
ng
mat erialsPer manentmar kingpensandSci ssors
wer et hereIwasr eadyf ormy" l
ast"dayatschool ..
.I
gotdownst air
smydadwasn' tt
here..
..
Ses'thokowas
wal kingupst air
swhenIsetmyf ootintheki tchenit
l
ookedl ikeshej ustcamei nthekitchent oletZwel i
i
n. .Hi m andIwer egoodnow. .Thewei r
dt ension
thatwehadwasov er .
.Weki ndagott oknoweach
otherandy eahwegetal ongpr et
tywel l
.
Zwel
i
:Hey
Me:
Hey
..Yougood?
Zwel
i
:yeah.
.Lastdayhuh.
.?Youl
ookpr
ett
y
Me:
Zwel
i
..
▶Ibl ushed,thisni
ggatell
smet hisev er
yday..
.That
I
'm beautiful
/ Il
ookpret
ty.
..He'l
ljustsli
p"youl
ook
prett
y"mi dconv er
sat
ionandI '
l
ljustmelt..
.And
beforeyouassumeany thi
ng..NO!Idon'twanthim.
Zwel
i
:si
tdownI
'
lldi
shup
▶Heal sohasbeencomi ngint oeatbreakfastwi
th
usbecausemydadaskedhi mt o.Iguessit'
s
becausehe'snotearningany t
hinghe'sjustworki
ng
onbehalfofhisdad..Idon'tknowwhyheaskedhi m
tocomej oi
nusdur i
ngbr eakfast.
Me:
ooht
hanky
ou,
gent
leman
▶Zwel
ismi
l
ed.
Zweli:
I'
mt r
eati
ngyoulikeaqueen..Onl
ytoday
thoughbecauseyou'
relit
eral
l
ygoingtobe
unemployedinhoursandit'
snotanicethi
ng..
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:
what
ever
..
▶Myphoner
ang,
itwasKhomot
so
Me:
hey
yyybestf
ri
end
Kamo:
hay
iwenai
t'
sKamo
▶Il
aughed.
.
Me:
ufunani
?
Kamo:
pleaseungphat
hel
eiPen
Me:
arey
ouser
ious?
Kamo: Idon'
twantt
ocarr
yany t
hingschool
rel
ated
todaysopleasebeagoodfr
iend
Me"
:okKamo
Kamo:
lov
eyouu.By
eeee
▶Lol Jahne..I'
m defini
tel
ygoingtomisshercrazy
selfalot.
.Iknowwear egoingtocont
inuetobe
fr
iendsandst uff
..Justherincl
assbei
ngcrazyand
askingteachersstupidquesti
ons.
.Iwentupstai
rs
andgotKamoherpenandwentbackdownst air
sto
eatbreakfastwit
hZwel i
Me:yazhowyoutalkandhandleyour
sel
fonecab
sweart
hatyouhaveaGirl
fr
iend..
.Youdohavei
t
maarnspeakt
hetruth
Zweli
:you'
veaskedme100t i
messi
ncewestar
ted
tal
ki
ngifIhaveagir
lf
ri
end.
.Yini
doyouwantme?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
No.
.
▶No?DoIwanthi m. .Lol.
.Whyam Iaski ngmy self
thi
squest ionIdon' twanthi myesandI 'm st i
ll
heal
ing,can' twantsomeoneel sewhi leI '
m st i
l
l hung
uponVi nceI 'mt r
yingtoheal Ican'tbewi th
someoneel se..Talki
ngaboutVi nce...Letmeupdat e
ya'
llaboutwhathappenedsi ncewebr okedownhi s
car,
Not hi ng..Hehassai dnothingt ome. .Iknowhe
knowst hatIdi ditbuthehassai dnot hing.Hehas
donenot hing.NOTHI NG!DOLOLO!don' tknowi fhe
i
sgoi ngt odosomet hing..Orhej ustdoesn' tcar e..
Butit'
sbeenweekssoIdon' tknow. ..Honest lyIwi sh
hecar ed, Iwishhecamebackr unningt ome.
Beggingmet ot akehi m back.
.ButNo, Thi nkingand
tal
ki
ngabouthi mlevelsdownmymoodandI 'm
happyt
oday
..Ver
yhappy
..
.
Zweli
:soyoudon'
twantmebutyouwannaknowi
fI
hav
eagi r
lf
ri
endornot
..Okay
..
▶Hewaseat ingacer
eali
ntheot
hersi
deoft
he
counterhegr
abbedhi
sbowlandcametomysideof
thetabl
e.
Zwel
i:
I'
m goi
ngt oki
ssyouandmaybethatwi
l
l
pr
ovetoyouthatIdon'
thav
eagir
lf
ri
end.
▶I.
.Ialmostchokedont
hef
rui
tsal
adt
hatIwas
eat
ing.
.
Me:
what
?
▶Hecamecl oserandpl antedababyki ssonmy
l
ips.
..Idon'
tknowwhy yyhonest l
yIdon'tknowwhy .
..
Butmyhandsgr abbedhi sf aceandpul l
editcl
oser
sowecancont inueki ssing..IDON'TKNOW WHYI
DIDTHAT! !
.Weki ssedf orlike5secondsandt hen
Ses'
thokowalkedi nonus. .
.westoppedandI
chuckledundermybr eaththenIcov eredmymout h
andlookedaway ..
.Zwel iclearedhisthroat
.
Zwel
i
:Letmegoandst
artt
hecar
▶Hewal kedout.
..Andlef
tmet
odealwit
h
Ses'
thokoIwassoshy .
.Dammi
tIdon'
tevenknow
howt hathappened..
.
▶Ses'
thokol
aughed.
.
Ses'
thoko:
whendi
dthi
shappen.
.Ar
ethet
woofy
ou
d.
..
Me:
nono.
..Ihav
etogo.
Ses'
thoko:
Nomzamo.
..
Me:
byeIl
ovey
ou.
.
▶Il
it
eral
lygr
abbedmyst
uffandr
an.
.Igoti
nsi
de
t
hecar.
..
Me:
wel
lthatwasawkwar
d
▶Webot hl aughed..
.Thenwedr oveoffwewer esti
l
l
coolnowei rdtensionbet weenuswewer etal
king
l
iketheki ssdidn'
tjusthappen...Thekisswasgr eat
may bet hat'swhyt hi
ngswer en'
tsoawkwar d.
.I
want edr oundt wo..NonoIdon'twanti t..I'
m sti
ll
recov er
ingf rom mybr eakupwithVi nce.Igotat
school andhedr oveof f
.Iwenttomyf ri
endswho
wereunderat reewithourotherclassmat esI
greet edt hem. ..
andwej ustst artedt al
kingabout
pensdownandbl abl abla..
.Mi nut esl aterwewer e
summonedt othehal lwef oundourexam paper s
alreadyont het abl e..Ourpr i
nci pal gav easmal l
farewel lspeecht ot heCl assof2015. .Af t ert hatwe
begant owr iteaboutanhourl aterwewer eal ldone
don' tknowi fthepaperwasshor torwhatbut
ever ybodyf inishedwr it
ingandwewentoutout si
de..
.
Per manentmar ker sandpenswer ef l
yingl eftand
ri
ght ..Theml unguswer ecry i
ng.Fr iendshuggi ng,
other scoul dn'tbel i
ev ethatt heywer edonedone
withschool ..Theemot ionswer ehi ghandhappy ..
.
Myf ri
endsandIwr oteoneachot her '
st -shi rtfir
st
bef orewr i
tingonot herst -
shirtsweal sot ook
pictur es.Af terthatwewentt ot hepar kwewer e20if
notmor e..
.Youknowaf terwr iti
ngv i
bes. ..we
gat her edsomemoneyandbought5bot tlesof
Russi anbear .
.firstmi stake...Andwebought
i
phakaphakaandbr eadanddi fferentkr ushj uicesfor
dashandt oeat ..
.Thapel oandVusi muzi camewi t
h
car ssoweusedt heircar sformusi c..Itwassof unI
enjoy edmydayal lmat ricul
ent sf rom di ffer ent
school sar oundRosebankwer eal sot her e...Imade
somenewf r
iends..
.Wedrankanddancedlike
nobody
'sbusiness.
..i
tst
art
edtogetdark.
..
Me:
hey
,whatt
imei
sit?
Pr
incess:
ahmmm Idon'
tknow.
..
▶Webot
hlaughed.
..
Me: nomancheck.
.Act
ual
l
ywhyam Iaski
ngy
ou.
.I'
l
l
checkonmyphone
▶Ist ar
tedgoingthroughmyskirtpocket..Phone
dololo..
.Icheckonmyboobsphonedol olo..
.Nowmy
hear tst
artspounding..
.IshookKhomot sowhowas
si
ttingbesi demewi thherheaddowndr unkasf uck
Me:Khomot
sowher
e'smyphone?
Khomot
so:
huh.
.
Me:
dawgmyphone!
!
▶Khomot soshrughershoul ders.
..Andwentback
tosleep..
.di
dIlosemyphone?Kamowasi nacar
makingoutwi thVusimuzi .
..Bat
hongKamoIt hought
herfebingdayswer eover..
.Iwentupt oher,t
hecar
wasf arwellnotreall
yIwasj ustdrunkandt hewalk
tothecarseemedl ong.
..Igetther
e, f
inal
ly.
.I
knockedonthewi ndow. .
.Kamol ooksatmeon
some" whatdoy ouwantuy asiphazamisa".
.They
don'
topen..
.Iindicatetothem thattheymustopen
thi
swindow...
Vusi opensit.
..
Voi
cesinthebackoft
hecar
:Hai
iVusi
whyuv
ula
umnyango??
▶Isendmyey estothebackoft hecarIseetwoof
myclassmatesmakingout..Haibowhati sthi
s..
.
Whatishappeni
ng.
..AhyIletitslide..
.Kamowason
topofVusisoshecomesoutandf ixedher
sel
f.
.
She'
snotthatdr
unkkey ena..
.
Kamo:
arey
oul
eav
ing?
Me:
No,
Ithi
nkIl
ostmyphone.
Kamo:
when?
Me:
bit
chIdon'
tknow
▶Kamol
aughed.
.Il
aughedt
oo
Me:
he.
ewenadon'
tl
aught
hisshi
tisser
ious
Kamo:
didy
ouaskNat
ashaorCandi
ce?
Me:
IknowIdi
dn'
tgi
vei
ttot
hem.
..
yhomydadi
s
goi
ngt
oki
l
lme
▶Tear
sst
art
edl
i
ningup.
..
Kamo:
nonoZeewewi
l
llookf
ori
tandwewi
l
lfi
ndi
t.
▶Theparkwasful
lofpeopl
ewher earewegoingto
f
indi
t.
..Kodwakesi
ll
ymeIbeliev
edt hatwewil
lfi
nd
i
t.
.KamoandIwalkedtowherepeoplewere.
..
Kamo:
Zamor
elostherphoneguy
s.
Nat
asha:
babyar
eyouokay
?
▶ okay ?
?Bat hongIjustlostmyphone. .AahI
startedcr yi
ngf orrealthistime..Natashacameupt o
meandhuggedme. ..Ili
teral
lykil
ledeveryone'
sv i
be
becauset heywer enowl ookingformyphonebusy
call
ingi t
..Myphonewasof f
..That'
swhenIknew
thatIwi l
l neverfindit.
..Ibecamesobersamet ime..
.
Butmycr ywasabi tdramat icsoitwasobv iousthat
Iwasst i
lldrunk..Guy sMyphot os,mymusi c..
.No
waitmydad. .I'
m surehecal ledmeat housand
ti
mes. ..YhoIcr i
edsomemor e.
..
Mduduzi
:l
et'
sgety
oudr
unk.
..
Me:
no.
.Iwantt
ogohome
Mduduzi:knowi
ngyourdadhealr
eadycal
leda
thousandti
mes.
..Ar
ey ousur
ethatyouwantt
ogo
home?
▶Hechuckl
ed.
Khomot
so:
you'
remaki
ngt
hingswor
sewena
▶Shel
i
ghtsl
appedhi
m..
.
Me:
fucki
t
▶It ookthedr
inkoutofMduduzishandanddr
ankit
.
Itr
iedtohavefunagainkodwaIkeptonthi
nki
ng
aboutmyphone..Keptontalki
ngabouti
t.
.My
fr
iendswereveryver
ypissedatmebecauseIwas
al
sodr unkandwowi twasjustamess.
Me:
guy
sI'
mleav
ing.
.
▶It
ri
edtost
andup.
.Last
edf
or2secIwasbackon
t
hechai
r
Kamo:
uyohambangani
?
Me:yhokonj
eIlostmyphone.
.Ican'
tcal
lZwel
ito
comeandfetchme..
Candi
ce:
Vusi
muzi
wil
laccompanyus.
..
Me:I'
m goinghomenowMi na.
.Heedi
dIt
ell
you
guy
st hatmeandZweli
kissed?
Khomot
so:
Nooo.
..
Kamo:
arey
ouser
ious?
?
▶Il
aughedi
tof
f.
.
Candi
ce:
tel
lusmor
e..
.
Me:
Noo.
.Leav
eme.
.
▶Itr
iedt
ost
andupagai
n..YhoHai
Iwasdr
unk
dr
unk.
Me:
That
oakez
ikant
iazok'
l
andawenabi
tch?
▶If
li
ckedherbr
aidswhi
l
easki
nghert
hat
.
Candi
ce:
omgNomz
amoi
ssodr
unk
▶Myf
ri
endsl
aughed.
Khomot
so:
Endengzomshay
aMi
nashem.
▶Shef
ixedherbr
aids.
Natasha:mygirl
fr
iendi
scomi
ng.
.Wewi
l
ldr
opy
ou
of
faty ourhouse.
Me:
yaboabant
uabanamagi
rl
fr
iend.
.Wenawher
e's
yourboyfr
iendkhomotso?Pl
ayi
ngf
ifa.
.Where'
syour
boyfr
iendKamo?Pr obabl
yonhi
sdad'sfar
m
▶Myf
ri
endsl
aughed.
Me:
yhoIhav
eaheadache.
Khomot
so:
justsi
tdown.
.You'
l
lgohomesoon.
▶Wi thi
n5mi nutesNat asha'
sgir
lf
ri
endar ri
ved.
.Me
andCandicewal kedtogethertot
hecar .
.Wewer eso
drunkbusysayinggoodby etoeverybody..Evento
theoneswedi dn'tknow...
Me:ev
ent
houghy
a'l
lbi
tchesst
olemyphoneIl
ove
ya'
l
l
Candi
ce:
youwi
l
lgetusbeat
enl
et'
sgo.
..
▶Wegotinsi
det
hecar.
.Greeted.
..Andwedrov
eoff
.
Mydadi
sgoingt
oki
llme..Pleaseya'
ll
prayf
orme

#Nomzamosdi
ary
#I
NSERT76

▶Nat
ashai
nthepassengerseat
Nat
asha:
whyi
sZamosoqui
et?
Candi
ce:
she'
sasl
eep.
.Yeywakeup
Me:
mmmhMaanang'
l
ele
▶Iwasleani
ngtowar
dsthewindowst r
essi
ng,I
wasn'
tasl
eep..
.It
hensatupstr
aightaft
erCandi
ce
wokemeup
Me:y
hoCandy
,I'
m sodr
unkandmydadi
sgoi
ngt
o
ki
l
lme.
Candi
ce:
hewon'
trel
ax.
..
▶Nat
ashagi
ggl
ed.
Nat
asha:wear
etalki
ngaboutzamor
esdadher
e..
He'
sgoingt
okil
lher.
.
Me:woahwoahwoah.
.Tash.
..Wedi
dn'
tgety
our
gi
rl
fr
iend'
sname
Nat
asha:
oht
hisoneshe'
snotmygi
rl
fr
iendI
r
equest
edanUber
..
▶Theybothlaughed.
.Nat
ashat
ookhergi
rl
fr
iend'
s
l
efthandandkissedi
t.
Nat
asha:
Hernamei
sLexi
Candi
ce&I:
ncoooh
▶Nat
ashagi
ggl
ed.
Candi
ce:Idon'
tknowhowt
osayt
hisbutt
hatname
sui
tsyou.
..
▶Inoddedsl
owl
y.
Me:
itdoes.
..Andy
ou'
resocut
eLexi
Lexi
:Thanky
ou.
▶ Shewascut eindeed,shehadhoneybr owneyes
anuntidybun,hadabrowpierci
ngandat att
ooon
herneckhaibosuchacutie.
..WedroppedCandice
offatherhouseandtheydrovemet omycr i
b
Me:
Sol
i
keLexi
arey
ougonnamar
rymyf
ri
end?
Lexi
:hahaIhopeso.
.BecauseIr
eal
l
ylov
eher
▶Nat
ashal
ookedatherandsmi
l
ed.
.
Me:
when?
Nat
asha:
Zamo!
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
okayokay
..
.
Natasha:wegonnadr
opy
ouof
fatVi
nce'
shouse,
you'
retoodrunk.
..
Me:Vince?
?.Not ash.
.Thatni
ggawill
probabl
yki
ll
me..
.Nowai t
..
.Itisgoodideayeahdropmeoffat
hi
shouse..
Nat
asha:
Iwasj
ustj
oki
ng.
.Youl
ookser
ious
▶Iwas. .
.Iwassoser i
ous..Iknowthisi
sstupidand
stuffbutIli
kedtheideaitmadesenset ome...Iwil
l
gotov i
nceshousewewi llfi
xthingsandever
ythi
ng
will
beal ri
ghtthenextday.ZAMONCEwi l
lbe
back..YaI'
m defi
nit
elydoingthis.
Nat
asha:Nomzamo.
.Youcan'
tgothere.
.Where'
s
t
hekeyIwantt
obuzzyoui
nwe'reatyourhouse.
..
▶Il
ookedather
..
Nat
asha:
Nowear
enotgoi
ngt
her
e..
.
Me: myl i
fewil
lgetbet t
er.
.Iwon'tmisshi m muchI
willt
ellhi
mt hatIl
ov ehim..AndthatImi sshim so
somuch. .AndI'l
ltel
l hi
mt hathe'
sthebestt hingt
hat
hasev erhappenedt ome. .
.TashIreall
yneedt osee
Vince..
.SoonNami Iwill
behappyj ustl
ikey ouand
Lexi.
▶Idon'tknowifi
twasthedrunknessi
nmet al
ki
ng
orIr
eall
ymeanteachandev er
ywor dt
hatIhadj
ust
sai
d..
.Natashashr
ughershoulder
sandtookadeep
si
gh
Nat
asha:
Okay
▶Wedr
ovepastmyhouse,
gotatVi
nces
Nat
asha:
andwe'
reher
e.
Me:
doy
out
hinkt
hisi
sagoodi
dea.
.
▶Ist
art
edl
aughi
ngner
vousl
y
Lexi
:It
hinki
t'
sagoodi
dea
Nat
asha:
babyno.
Me:Lexi
I.Li
key
ou.
..Guy
sI'
m goi
ngi
nBy
e
▶Nat
ashashookherhead.
..
Me: t
hankyousomuchf ordriv
ingmehomel exi..
Lovelymeeti
ngyou.
.Iwon'tforgety
ourbeauti
ful
faceandthankyouformakingmyf ri
endhappy..You
toolookgoodtoget
her
▶Lexi
laughed
Lexi
:
thanky
ou
Me:Imeanthi
s..Iknowmay
bey
out
hinkt
hatI
'
m
dr
unk.
.I'
m not
..
Nat
asha:
youar
epl
easegetout
..
Me:
I'
m not
..
.Buthonest
lywi
shy
out
wot
hebest
.
Natasha:
yeahy
eahy
eah.
..Shoul
dIgoknockf
or
you..
Me:
mxm I
'
m goi
ngke.
.Lexi
byeIl
ovey
ou
▶Lexi l
aughedagain.
.YhoIwasaclownguy
sa
drunkcl
own...AsIwasgett
ingoutoft
hecar
..If
elta
bottl
eundertheseat
Me:
Candi
cel
eftabot
tl
eher
e..
.I'
mtaki
ngi
t
Nat
ashh:
Zeeno.
..You'
real
readydr
unk
Me:
lookIal
readydi
d..
▶Ipi ckeditup..
andtookitoutsi
dewithme,itwasa
energizerbott
lefi
ll
edwithRussianbearandorange
j
uicedasht hatCandicesaidshewill
drinkt
omor r
ow
whensheget sbabalaz.
..Nowitismine.
Me:
dri
vesaf
e
Nat
asha:
okayby
e,Il
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eLexi
mor
e..
▶Theybot hl
aughedanddr oveof f,It
ookasi p...
Andwal kedtothedoorIgotatt hedoorandIst arted
knocking.
..Vi
nce'
scarwasn' toutsidebutIt hought
may beMuzi wastheresoIkeptonknocki ng. .
..
NobodywashomeandIcoul dn'tgohomesoIj ust
satdownanddr anksomemor e.
..Idon'tknowhowI
fel
lasleepbutminuteslat
erprobabl y45mi nslaterI
waswokenupbyVi nce..
Vi
nce:
youhav
egott
obeki
ddi
ngme
▶Hepi ckedmeupandt
ookt
hebot
tl
eoutofmy
hand.
Me:
VinceIl
ovey
ousomuch.
..Youknowt
hatr
ight
?
▶Icoul
dn'
tst
andVi
ncet
ookabi
gsi
ghandheput
meonhi sshoul
dersli
kehewascar
ryi
ngasackof
pot
atoes..
.Wewalkedupst
air
swegotint
ohi
sroom
andhedroppedmeonhi sbed
Me:
ouch.
..Whyar
eyounott
alki
ngt
ome?
▶Iwassul
ki
ngt
alki
ngl
i
keababy
.
Vi
nce:
your
eekofal
cohol
..
.Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
▶Ijustst
aredathi
m, Ihav
en'tseenhiminawhil
ehe
l
ookssohandsome...I'
vemissedhim somuch.
..
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
makey
oucof
fee
Me:
Nono.No.Idon'
twantt
hat
Vi
nce:
youhav
etosoberup.
..
▶Heshookhishead. .Lmaohewassopi ssed.
..He
suredi
dnotexpectthisortoseeme..
.Hekepton
l
ookingatme..
.Andshaki nghi
shead.
..It
ri
edto
standupfr
om thebed...
Me:
lookIwannat
ell
yousomet
hing.
..Il
o..
Vince:
don'
tstandup..Justsi
t.
.YhoZamo.
.Does
yourdadknowthatyou'r
ehere?
Me:
Nobutl
ookIl
ovey
ou.
..Ir
eal
l
yreal
l
ydo
▶Ist
art
edl
aughi
ng.
Me:omgIlovey ousomuch..Adaydoesn'
tgoby
wi
thoutmethinkingabouty
ou..
▶Vincechuckl
edabit.
..Hecameandsatbesi
deme
bef
orehecouldsi
tnexttomeIstoodupfr
om the
bedandstar
tedvomit
ingonthef
loor
Vi
nce:
notagai
n..Nomzamo!
▶Agai n? .
..OoohrememberwhenVi nceandIwere
sti
ll
freshal ll
ovedupandloveydov eyIwentto
Natasha'sbi r
thdayandwegotsohi ghanddr unklol
..
funti
mes. .Ohhel lnowai
t.
.Hecalledme
Nomzamo. .
.Thatnamewasf or
eignt ome..Vince
neverev eruseditwowwear ereall
yov er
..Andit
wascl earnow. .
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
▶Itri
edcleani
ngmyv omi
tupusi
ngmy
hands.
.di
sgust
ingIknow.
Vi
nce:
Nodon'
tdot
hat
..
.Omgy
ou'
resodr
unk
▶Hel
aughed.
..
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
cleant
hisupdon'
twor
ry.
..
▶Iwasdef eatedonthefl
oor,
hewentt othe
bathr
oom andcamebackwi thawett owelanda
buckethecleanedupthefl
oorandhelpedmeget
myclothesoff.
..Hegavemeasmal lblanki
etocov
er
myselfup
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
Vi
nce:
it'
sokay
..
.
Me:noi
tisnot
..Youcal
l
edmebyname
Vi
nce:
huh?
▶Istart
edsul kingagai
n..Mytearswerereadyt
o
star
tfl
owing..Ithitmesodeept hatheusedmyreal
name..
.Hedi dn'tevenshort
eneditandcallmeZee.
.
Hewasbr utal.
.
Me:
youcal
l
edmeNomzamoandy
ounev
ercal
lme
t
hat
..
.
▶Tearsstartedrol
li
ng.
.Hestoppedcleaningupand
cameupt ome. .Hehuggedme..Icouldseethathe
wantedtolaughatme..Iwassodr unkitwas
annoyi
ng..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
ry.
..Okay
?
Me:
okay
.
Vi
nce:
sor
ry.
..
▶Hewenttothet
oil
etf
lushedev
ery
thi
ngupand
camebackt
ohisr
oom...
Vi
nce:
doy
ouwantt
obat
h?
Me:
nope.
.Iwantt
oki
ssy
ou
▶hel
aughed.
.
Vince:Ha..Zeeyou'
resof
unny
..I
'
m notgoi
ngt
odo
that.
.Irespecty
ou.
▶Ahmmmm wher edoesrespectent
erhere?
..
Bat
hong..
.Het
hengotmehi sGreyNiket
rackpant
s
towearandawhi
teNiket
-shir
t.
..
Vi
nce:
youokay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
m okay
..
.
Vi
nce:
letmegomakey
out
hatcof
fee
▶Hewentdownst air
s..
.Mydr unknesswassl owl
y
butsurel
yfadi
ng..Iwasst i
l
ldrunkthough..Butnot
stupi
ddrunkjustdrunk.
..Ti
psy..
.Hecameback
handedmet hecoffeeIstart
edsipping.
..
Vince:
youshoul
dn'
thav
edonet
his.
.Whywoul
dyou
comehere?
Me:
Ifeel
saf
ear
oundy
ou.
.Doy
ouwantmet
oleav
e?
Vince:No,I'
m sureyourdadknowst hatwebr okeup
bynow. .AndI'
m surethatwher everhei s.
.Hewant s
tokil
lmeIpr omisedhimt hatIwoul dnev ereverhur
t
youandIdi d.
.AndI'
m sor ryaboutthatZee. .
.That
thi
ngmessedupmyl i
fe..Sobadly .
..Iregret
everyt
hingandwhatIputy outhrough
Me:it
'
sokayVi nce.
..Thi
swhat'shappeni
ngr
ight
now...doesn'
tmeant hatIwantyoubackor
any
thing
▶Sorrysiswhatdidy oujustsay..
.Loolyou
demandedtogot oy ourex'shouseandy ou're
sayi
ngthatyoudon'twanthi m back..
.Minutesago
youweresayingt
haty oulov ehim..Loll
ollol
..
.Shut
up.
.Irepr
eminedmyt houghts.
..
Vince:Iunderst
and.
..IwannagoandshowerI
'
m so
ti
red..
.Willy
oubeokay ?Alone?
Me:
yeah,
I'
ll
bef
ine
▶Hecameback15mi nut
eslat
erhej
oinedmewe
goti
nsidethesheetshewentdownst
airsandmade
meanot hercupofcoff
eeandhemadeonefor
hi
mselftoo..
Me:
thanky
ou
▶Guy snot hingwasawkwar dnothing.
.The
conversat
ionswewer ehav i
ngwer epure..The
questi
onsweaskedeachot her..Thelaugher,we
weresohappy .
..Butwewer eignor i
ngthisbig
el
ephantint her oom. ..Thereasonwhyhedi dit.
..
Whydi dhebr eakmyt rustandmyhear tl
ikethat
..
.
Andwhydi dIdot hatst upi
dthingwher eIpunched
downhi styres..Lol kodwakeot herthanthatmeand
myVi ncewer ehappywet al
kedl i
kefri
endsthough
wedidn'tev ent al
kedaboutus. .

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ary

#I
NSERT77
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouf
eel
i
ngcol
d?
Me:
NoI
'
m okay
..
.
Vi
nce:
Okay
..
.
▶Akwar
dsi
l
ence
Me:
ahmmm howhav
eyoubeent
hough?
Vi
nce:I
'
vebeengood,wel
lbesidest
hefactthatmy
l
if
eli
ter
all
ytur
nedsout
hafterourbr
eakup..I'
m good
Me:
lol
Sout
h?
Vince:
yeah..Youwon'tbeli
evesomeoneandIthi
nk
i
t'
sher..
.Puncturedmyt y
res,welostahugecl
i
entat
Eskom, Ibur
nedmy sel
fwhilecooki
ng..Al
li
none
week..
.
▶waitwaitsoVincethinksthati
t'
sNomal
angawho
punct
uredhist
yres.
..That'
ssad.Lol
Me:
hect
ic
Vi
nce:
ver
yhect
ic.
.
▶Akwar
dsi
l
enceagai
n..Guesswewer
eoutof
t
opi
csandignor
ingthebi
gelephantthatwasi
nthe
r
oom wasn'
thel
pingusanymore.
..Ideci
dedtoj
ust
t
otal
k
Me:
CanIcomecl
ean?
Vi
nce:
yeahsur
e..
.
▶Hepl acedhiscupofcoffeeonhissidet
abl
e..
.I
satupstrai
ghtandlookedathim..Mycupofcoff
ee
wassti
llinmyhands...Ipl
aceditbet
weenmythighs.
Me:
andpl easedon'
tchasemeouti
tst
hemi
ddl
eof
t
henight
.
▶Vi
ncel
aughed
Vi
nce:
thi
ssoundsser
ious.
.Okayt
ell
mewhat
'sup
Me:
I'
mtheonewhot
oredowny
ourt
yres.
..
▶Ifl
inchedmyey es.
..Hejustsatt
her
eandsai
d
not
hingforabout2mi nut
es
Me:
saysomet
hing
Vi
nce:
woooowZeear
eyouser
ious?
▶Hewasshocked.
..Youcouldseeiti
nhisey
es.
..
Hecoul
dn'
tfat
hom whatIhadjustt
oldhi
m..
Vi
nce:
noi
tsnoty
ou.
..Idon'
tbel
i
evey
ou
Me: Iwasreal
lyhear
tbrokenbywhatyoudidt
ome..
Ihadt orev
engewelli
tfeltgoodwhenIwasdoi
ngi
t.
.
Ireall
yregr
ett
editaf
ter
...I'
m sor
ry
Vince:doy ouknowt het
hingsIsaidtoNomalanga.
..
Iblamedher .
.Ithoughti
twasher..Thoseareher
anticsnoty ours..
.YouknowhowmuchIv al
ued
thosetyres..HowmuchIl ovemycar..Wow..
.That'
s
wasav erystupidthi
ngtodo.
Me:
Iknow,
I'
mreal
l
ysor
ry.
▶Heshookhi
sheadi
ndi
sbel
i
ef
Vi
nce:
wow
Me: kodwaVi ncewhatdi
dy ouwantmet odo? ?
You
di
dn'tsayshi tt
omef orweeks.
.Youi gnoredme
aft
ery outerr
ibl
ybrokemyheart.
..Youdi dn'
teven
apologizeforwhatyoudidtome...Andt hathur
t
me...Al ot
..
.
Vince: Icoul
dn'tbr
ingmysel
ftocomeandapologi
ze
toy ou..EvenifIdi
dIdon'
tdeserveyour
forgiveness.
..WhatIdi
dwasf uckedup.
..
.Buty
ou
knowwhatnowI'
m notsur
eifI
'
m sor
ryf
orwhatIdi
d
toyouany
more
Me:
wow
▶Thatt
oremyhear
tapar
t.
..Myhear
tst
art
edachi
ng
Vi
nce:
Idi
dn'
tmeant
hat
..
Me: Noyoudid..
.Youdolovehermor ethanmeaf t
er
ally
ou'veprov
ent hatt
omesomanyt imesbutI
alwayscomebackt oy
oualways.
..I
'
m suchaf ool
forl
ovingyouthi
smuch. .
.Andlookatmenow. .I'
m
herewithyou.
..
Vince:Idon'
tl
ovehermor
ethany
oubaby
..I
don't
..
.Lookatme
▶Hecameupt
omeandhel
dmebymyshoul
der
s.
Vince:you'rethebestt hingthathasev erhappened
tomet hisy ear..
.2015hasbeent hebesty earofmy
l
ifebecauseofy ou..Iloveyousomuch. .Ilovey ou
dearlyNomzamo. .That'
swhyI 'l
ldoany t
hingf oryou..
I'
l
l al
waysbet heref oryou.
..Idon'tcar
eaboutt hose
damnt yres...Igotnewones. .
.AndIdon' tgiv
eaf uck
abouther .
..Iknowwhathappenedbet weenmeand
hercanneverber
eversed..I
'm sorr
yforbreaki
ng
yourhear
tandsorr
yforev er
ythingI'
veputyou
thr
oughyoudidn'
tdeservethat
▶Ij
ustl
ookedawayandt
ear
sst
art
edr
oll
i
ng
Vi
nce:
I'
m sor
rybaby
Me:
stopt
ouchi
ngme.
..
▶Itookhishandsoffmyar ms.
..AndIwipedmy
t
ear
s...Thi
ngsreal
l
yt ooka180lolminut
esagowe
wer
elaughingandjusttal
ki
ngnowI '
m cr
ying.
..
Vince:andIwanty outoknowonet hing..
.Nothing.
..
AndImeanNOTHI NGwashappeni ngbetweenme
andNomal anga..Itwasstrict
lybusinessjustl
ikeI
hadt ol
dyou...Ij
ustdon'tknowhowweendedup
doingthat.
.Itshouldn'
thavehappened
Me:youdon'
tknow?WellVinceIknowhowyou
endedupdoi
ng"that
".
..I
t'
sbecauseyoul
oveher
..
You
Vi
nce:
noIdont
Me:fuckyou.
.Youdo..Ev
erysingl
eti
mewehav ea
hugefi
ghtit
sbecauseofthatski
nnybi
tch.
..Youlov
e
her.
..Idon'
tbel
iev
ethe"st
ri
ctl
ybusiness"bul
lshi
t
thatyou'
retel
l
ingme.I
fitwasbusinesswhyand
howdi dyoutwoenduphereinyourbed..Wasn'ti
t
supposedtoendatworksinceit
's"busi
ness"
▶Vi
ncesi
ghedheav
il
y
Vince:Iknowhowitlooksbuti
tisnotwhati
tseems
Andst opsayi
ngthatIl
oveherdamnitIf
ucken
don't
..
.Il
oveyou!
!
▶Bathongwhyisheshout
ingatme.
.Mxm fuckt
his
ni
ggabusyl
yingtomewhycan'thej
ustmanup??
Me:
mxm i
'
llsl
eepi
nthecouch
▶Ipl acedthecuponmysi detableandcl i
mbedof f
thebed...
Hegr abbedmeaggr essivelybymyar m
andpul l
edmet owardshimthenheputhi shand
aroundmyneckchoki ngmeandhest art
edtokiss
me. .
.Igaveinandki ssedhi
m back. .
.yhoHaiI'
m so
weak. .
.Becausenex tthi
ngIknowVi ncewasont op
ofme, Iwasnakedandhewasgr indingmesl owly.
.I
couldfeelhisbreathonmyearandIcoul dhearhi s
groaning.
.Myar mswer ear
oundhi sneck, myhands
scratchi
nghisback. .
.Thesexfeltsomagi calitwas
sosogood..
.Goodi snottheri
ghtwor
di twasj ust
outofthi
sworldbecauseIstar
tedcr
ying..Real
tear
s..
.midsexyhoI'm suchadramaqueen...Vince
noti
ced
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyouMami
▶Ijustsmil
ed.
..It
hent
urnedhim around.
..Hi
sdick
cameout..
.Icl
i
mbedont opofhim..ThenIwiped
mytearsoff
.Hechuckl
ed
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyoucr
ying?
▶Hewi pedmyey es..
.Ibentdownwhi l
eIwason
topofhim andIst artedlicki
nghiseart
henIcame
aroundhisneck. .St i
l
l l
ickinghi
m andkissi
nghim
hereandt here..
.Hegr abbedmyf atassandspanked
i
twhi l
egr oaning..
.Ipushedmybackupandi nser
ted
thedzickbacki nsideofmeusi ngmyhands..AndI
start
edridingmyman. ..

▶Wehadgr eatsext hatnight,

inthemorningIwoke
upandweat ebreakf astthenIwenthome..We
di
dn'
tspeakaboutus. .Intermsofwherewest and
orwhat
'sthenextstep...AndIreall
ywantedtoknow
butbecauseIl ostmyphoneIcoul dn' ttalktohi m...
AndIhav ebeenav oidi
ngmydadsi nceWednesday ..
WhenheaskedaboutmyphoneIt oldhi mt hatitran
outofbat ter ywhenhecal ledme, sobasi call
y
ndisekakeni becausemydadwi llfreakoutwhenhe
fi
ndsoutt hatIhadl ostmyphonef ort he100t h
ti
me. ..Wel l it
'saFr i
dayt odayandmyf ri
endsar e
comi ngov ersowecanmaket hatpunch. .Don't
knowi fya'll r
ememberbutdoy our emembert hat
PunchJasonmadeonmybi r
thdaycel ebration?me
andmyf riendsl ovedi tsomucht hatwesai dwewi ll
makei taf tert heexamsj usttocel ebr ate?
Remember ?. .
.Youdon' tr ememberr i
ght..Iknewi t.
..
mosy a'llpr etendtol oveNomzamo' sdi ary..
Any way ..
.Soy ahthosecr azybi tchesar ecomi ng
overt odayIusedt het elephonet ocommuni cate
witht hem. ..AndIcan' tbecal li
ngVi nceusi ngt he
tel
ephonel inemydadwi l
l seer ecor ds.Mxm. .
.Iwas
sti
llinbedi twas09: 34Icoul dn'tgodownst airs
earli
ert hant hatbecauseofmydad. .soIwakeup
aroundt hist imenowt oav oidhi m. .Igotupandt ied
myhai rintoabunt henIwentdownst airs..
.Ifound
Ses'thokof ixingDust binbagst ot aket hem out ..
Ses'
thoko:
Comehel
pment
ombi
..
.Ky
asi
ndawuu
▶Ahahah.
.Ahy
khonaIsai
ddeepdown
Iwalkedupt oherandIhel
pedhercar ryi
toutsi
de
ourgate.
..VincewaswashinghiscarwhenIl ooked
upathishouse...Hesawmeandwav edatus..
.
Ses'
thokowav edbackandIjustlaughed.
.Hawui sn'
t
hesupposedt obeatwork??I'
m excitedtoseehim
soIwalkt ohishouseIwaswearingmywhi te
pyj
amasashor tandavestwit
hsl i
pperson..
.
Vi
nce:
ngat
hiukhonanj
eosandakuv
uka?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
am It
hatugl
y??
Vince:y
ouknowyou'
ret
hemostbeaut
if
ulwheny
ou
hadjustwokenup
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
whyar
eyounotatwor
k?
Vi
nce:
I'
m of
ftoKZN
Me:
oh.
.
▶Iwaski
ndasadt
hatIdi
dn'
tknow.
.butmyf
ir
st
thoughtwasthathewasgoi ngtoseeNomalanga
andapologi
zeforblamingheraboutthet
yresthen
theywouldgetbacktogetheraf
ter
.
Vince:y
eah. .uMahcal
ledat
hiwehavetodiscuss
somethingsohecal l
edafamil
ymeeting.
.Yaboif
youdidn'tmakemeaoneni ghtst
and.Ngabey ou
knowall thi
s..
▶Il
aughed
Me:ni
ggashutupIdi
dn'
tmakeyouaoneni
ght
st
and.
.Idon'
thaveaphoner
emember?
Vi
nce:Ithoughtyouwer
eki
ddi
ngwheny
ousai
dyou
l
ostyourphone..
Me:
NoIwasn'
t.
Vi
nce:
youl
ooksogoodi
nthosepy
jamascomegi
ve
mehug
Me:
Idi
dn'
tbr
ushmyt
eet
h
Vi
nce:
Idon'
tcar
e
▶Il
aughed
Me:
okay
▶Iwal keduptohim andgav
ehi m ahug.
..He
placedhishandsonmyassandsqueezedi t.
..He
thenstart
edtokissmepassionat
ely..
Me:Vi
ncest
aaaaap.
..
▶Hel
aughedandcont
inuedt
owashhi
scar
..
.
Me:
missedmemuch?
Vi
nce:
cany
oupl
easepassmet
hatcl
oth
▶If
etchedi
tandhav
eitt
ohi
m.
Vi
nce:
doesy
ourdadknowt
haty
oul
osty
ourphone?
▶Di
dVi
ncei
gnor
emyquest
ion.
..
wow.
..Okay
Me:No..I
'
vebeenavoi
dinghimthiswholeweekhe'
s
atDur
banthoughnowsoI '
m of
ftheleash
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.Let
'sgoandhav
esex.
▶Hai
bo,
IthoughtIhear
dwr
ong.
.
Me:
wwwh.
..What
?!!
?
Vi
nce:pl
easegohome..Youreal
lyl
ookni
cei
nthose
sl
eepi
ngclot
hes.
..Tur
naroundforme
Me:
hay
iiI
'
mleav
ingy
ou'
reget
ti
ngnaught
y
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
saf
etr
ip.
.I'
l
lbemi
ssi
ngy
ou.
..
▶Iwentupt ohughim andsaymygoodby e..But
guesswherethatl
edmet o..I
nVince'sbed..Wi t
h
mypy j
amasont hefl
oor,i
nadoggyposi ti
onwi th
Vincebehi
ndmybackspanki ngmyf atassandwi th
memoani ngVincename..Yho.

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ary
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#I
NSERT78

▶Iwasst
il
lundert
hesheet
swhenVi
ncest
art
ed
packi
ngforKZN.
..Iwaseat
ingbr
eakfastt
hathe
madeformebeforehewenttobath.
Me:
soy
ougonnaweart
hatonSunday
?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
..
Me:
Ili
ket
hatshi
rt
..Idon'
tknowi
tthough
Vi
nce:
youknowal
lmyst
uff
?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
yeah.
.It
hink
Vi
nce:
noy
oudon'
tgetupIwantt
omaket
hebed
Me:
I'
m st
il
leat
ing
▶Het
ookoutachai
ronhi
swor
ktabl
e
Vi
nce:
comesi
ther
eandeat
Me:
No
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Vi
nce:
whatki
ndofaphonedoy
ouwant
?
Me:
huh?
▶Huh?Lol
youhear
dhi
mver
ywel
lNomzamo
Vi
nce:
Ithi
nkIshoul
dbuyy
ouanewphone.
..
Me:
uhmmm why
?
▶Hechuckl
ed.
Vi
nce:
Youdon'
twanti
t?
Me:
NoIdo.
.Ido.
Vi
nce:
wewi
l
lbuyi
ttodaybef
oreIl
eav
e.
Me:
No,
Vincedon'
tpl
ayl
i
ket
hisar
eyouser
ious?
Vi
nce:
yeah.
▶Ijumpedofft
hebedandrantowar
dshim,j
umped
ontopofhi
m andpl
ant
edthousandki
ssesonhi
s
face
Me:
thanky
ou,
thanky
out
hanky
ou.
..
▶IwassohappyIcoul
dfeel
myheartj
umpi
ngup
anddowni
nexci
tement.
.Myhear
twassohappy
..
.
Vi
nce:
itscool
..
.
Me: whenareyouleav
ing??.
.Shoul
dIgobathnow
sowecanl eav
e??Myf ri
endsarecomingov
ersoI
thi
nkweshouldleavenowbeforetheycome
▶Thet
imewas11.
30am.
..
Vince:
I'
lll
eav
elat
e..
.butwecangonowifyouwant
to,soyoucanbewit
hy ourf
ri
endsdur
ingt
heday
Me:
yes.
.YesIwantt
o..Ber
ightback.
.
▶Iquickl
yshov edmysl eeper
sonandwal ked
downstai
rsthenIrantomyhouse. .
.Gotatmyhouse
andIwalkedinSes't
hokowasal r
eadyprepari
ng
foodf
ormeandmyf ri
ends
Ses'
thoko:
hai
bongekent
ombi
,i
khani
ubuy
a?
▶Ij ustlaughedandwentupst ai
rs..
.Igotintomy
room, tookoffmycl othesandbat hed.Afterbat
hing
Ididabunhai rst
ylethenIputmakeuponandt ook
outsomecl othestowear..
.Idecidedt owearabl ack
cropt op,Jeanshor t
sandallstarconv er
seshoes. .I
alsotookasl ingbagandwor esunglasses..Iwal
ked
downst air
s
Ses'
Thoko:
usuy
aphi
kemanj
e..
?
Me:
Vincey
ong'
thengel
aiPhone.
▶Isai
dexci
tedl
y
Ses'
thoko:
haw'
abasezi
yini
abangani
bakho?
Me:chabazof
ika.
..I
'
m comi
ngbacknownow
ses'
thoko
Ses'
thoko:
okay
..
.
▶Iwalkedoutandwentt ov
inceshouse.
.Gott
her
e
homeboywasl ist
eningt
omusicbusyrappi
ng
dri
nki
ngHeineken..
.
Me:
Babyl
et'
sgo
▶Hel
aughedandshookhi
shead.
..
Vi
nce:
whatdi
dIgetmy
sel
fint
o..
.
▶Igrabbedhi
m byhishandandwewalkedout
..I
l
ockedthedoorandwewenttothecar
,goti
nsi
de
andwedroveoff.
..
Vi
nce:
you'
vegai
nedqui
teabi
t.
..
Me:
I'
mfati
sthatwhaty
ou'
resay
ing?
Vi
nce:l
olno..
..You'
rej
ustsot
hickandy
ummy
..Or
i
t'
sgrowth?
Me:
Idon'
tknowy
out
ell
me.
.
▶Il
aughed
Vince:
wel
lIl
ikei
t.
..Ican'
tresi
sty
ou.
.Iwant
edust
o
danceabi
tbefor
ewel eave.
▶Iwideopenedmyeyes.
..
sur
ethi
sguyi
sasex
addi
ctwhatt
heheck.
..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m ki
ddi
ng
▶Wegotatthemall
..
.wewerewal
ki
nghol
dingeach
ot
her
'shandsi
twassocute.
..
Vi
nce:
sti
l
ldon'
tknowwhi
chphoney
ouwant
?
Me:
aSamsung?
Vi
nce:
agai
n?
Me:
it'
sal
lIknow.
.NowIdon'
tknowwhatt
obuy
..
Vi
nce:
thei
Phone6s?
Me:
Theel
atesti
Phone6s?
???
Vi
nce:
yeah.
..Youdon'
tl
ikei
Phones?
Me:Ido,j
ustt
hat
..Ahmm.
.Ar
eyousur
e?I
sn'
ti
tli
ke
10t
housand?
Vi
nce:
it'
sact
ual
l
y12.
.Buty
eahi
t'
sacool
phone
Me:
okaywecangoandgeti
t
▶Ilegitt
houghtVincewasmessi ngwit
hme. ..A
wholeiPhone..
.WowIt hinkI'
m aboutt
ocr y.
..We
walkedinattheiPhonest or
e..Vi
ncepurchasedthe
i
Phone6spl usforme...Aboutanhourlaterwewer e
done..
hegavemet hepaperbag..
.
Me:
thanky
ou
Igavehim ahugt henwewal kedoutofthestor
eI
wasallsmiles.
..Ij
ustcouldn'
tkeepmymout hshut.
.
Ihadahugegr inonmyf ace.
..Wewentto
McDonald'sandwegr abbedMc'fl
urr
iesandheaded
tohiscarandwedr oveoffhedroppedmeatmy
houseandIgoti n..
..

▶It'
s14:57Allmyfr
iendsar ehere.
..Weareinthe
ki
tchenmakingthef
ruitpunchJaymadef oruson
mybirt
hday.
..Kamoandmear ebusytaki
ngpictur
es
onmynewi Phone6spl us.
..Ooukrr
rrr
..
.
Nat
asha:
Idon'
trememberJayput
ti
ngor
angesi
n
t
here
Kamo:Hay
iikhomot
sodon'
tputor
angesi
nther
eI'
m
al
ler
gic
Me:
bit
chy
ou'
renot
Kamo:
Iam.
.
Candi
ce:
sincewhen?
!
▶Weal
ll
aughedather
..
Kamo: mxm ya'
ll
aremadst
upi
dbutpl
easedon'
tput
orangesi
nthere.
..
Me:andKamowhydidy
oubringsomanybot
tl
esof
Vodka.
.y
ouwantust
odiene
Kamo:Itol
dChr i
sthatweweregoingtomakeafrui
t
punchhesaidthatheknowsgreatvodkaf
lav
our
s
fort
hatsoIlethi
mt akethel
ead.
..
Me:
I'
m notmadt
hough.
.Mor
eal
cohol
mor
efun.
..
Nat
asha:
let
'st
akeshot
sbef
oreany
thi
ngel
se.
Khomot
so:
zamor
ewher
e'si
syourdad?
Me: he'
snotcomi
ngbackhomedon'
twor
ry.
.Thati
s
al
lthatmatter
s
Candi
ce:
I'l
ldr
inkt
othat
..
.Weownt
heNt
shangase
mansi
ontoday
Nat
asha:
shot
s?Any
body
?
Me: IhopehecomesbackMondayorTuesday
becausetomorrowisgoi
ngtobehellf
orus..
.The
bhabhalazwegoingtogetf
rom t
hispunchheeee.
Kamo:
let
'st
akeagr
ouppi
ctur
e..
.
Nat
asha:
forf
uckssakeguy
scanwedoshot
s??
?!!
▶Wel aughed. .
.Andhad3r oundsofCi r
ocshot s
beforedrinki
ngt hepunch..Wewentt othel i
ving
room andwest arteddri
nkingandl i
stenedt omusi c,
wesangourl ungsout ,wedanced. .Wet ookashi t
l
oadofpi ctures..
.Andmadev ideos..
.Itwassof unI
enjoybeingwi thmyf ri
endst heyar emyev ery
daylife
theyaremyev erythi
ngtheymakemesohappy ,If
eel
compl et
ewhenI 'm wi
ththem. .I'
m sogonnami ss
them whenev eryonegoest hroughdifferentpaths
nextyearmxm. .
Me:
Ihav
eani
deal
et'
spl
ayt
rut
hordar
e?
Kamo:
nowayI
'
mtoodr
unkf
ordar
es.
..
Me:
don'
ttel
lust
hatwena
Khomot
so:
niy
arasay
ho
MeandKamo:
ahy
yfusegwena
Candi
ce:
okayy
oual
lar
emaki
ngnoi
se.
..
Nat
asha:
evenme?
▶Natashachuckledwelaughed..
.Ourl
aughswer
e
di
sgust
ingbecausetheywereloudandwewereso
dr
unkamess.
Candi
ce:evenyouinnocentNat
asha..
.Shutupguys
maarn.
..I
'
mt hebosshere.
.Soevery
bodylist
ento
me
Me:
I'
mtheboss.
.
Khomot
so:
NoI
'
mtheboss.
..
Kamo:AhykeI
'
mthepr
esi
dentsobasi
cal
l
yIownal
l
ofyou.
..
Nat
asha:
I'
m Godsoguesswhatbi
tchez?
▶West
art
edl
aughi
ngal
lov
eragai
n..
.
Candi
ce:
guuuy
sss.
..Li
sten.
..Let
'spl
ayt
rut
hordar
e?
Me:
noti
nter
est
ed
Khomot
so:
met
oo
Kamo:I'
minifweaskyout otel
lust
het
rut
handwe
don'
tbel
iev
ey ou.
.Youdr
ink..
.
Candice:noyoudon'
tdr
inky
out
akeonei
tem of
yourclot
hesoff
.
▶Nat
ashast
aredatuswi
thherey
eswi
deopened.
▶Wesawandl
aughedather
..
Nat
asha:
I'
m def
ini
tel
ygoi
ngt
oli
ket
hisgame.
Me:
heeeeAhy
Kamo:
angsadl
ali
Nat
ashai
ssexual
i
zingus
Natasha:Idon'
tevenseeyouguy
sli
ket
hat
.Andy
a'l
l
ar
edef i
nit
elynotmytype
Us:
woooooow
Khomot
so:
okayasi
dlal
eni
ke
Me:
kant
izankeUt
hiawudl
ali
..
.I'
m al
sopl
ayi
ngt
hen
Candice:
zamor
egof
etchanyempt
ybot
tl
eint
he
ki
tchen
Me:ah!Whyme?I
sitbecauseIhav
eani
Phone6s
pl
us?
Khomot
so:
wuuuu
Kamo:
Yasssgi
rl
▶Candi
ceendedupfet
chi
ngitandshespunt
he
bot
tl
e.I
tpoi
ntedatNat
asha
Candi
ce:
mmmhokayTasht
rut
hordar
e?
Nat
asha:
trut
h
Candy:okay
..
.Uhmmmm..
.Doy
ouhav
eanyf
eel
i
ngs
forany
oneinthegr
oup
Nat
asha:whatadumbquesti
on.
..No.
.Ya'
l
lar
enot
mytypesandya'
l
lar
euglysoNO
▶AhMinaIwashurtSoI
'
m ugl
y?.
.Okayatl
eastI
hav
eaniPhone6s.
Kamo:
soy
our
eal
l
ymeant
hat
..Ouch
Khomot
so:
yahnoi
tki
ndahur
ts
▶Welaughed.
..Tashspunt
hebot
tl
eitl
andedon
Kamo
Kamo:
Dar
e
Nat
asha:
owkay
..
.
Me:
dar
ehert
ogohome
▶Weal
lbur
stoutl
aughi
ng.
.
Me:
imagi
negoi
ngt
oKasi
now.
.
Kamo:
fri
endshi
pswi
l
lend
Natasha:Il
ovey outoomuchIwon'tdar
eyouthat.
..
Ahhmm Idarey ouKamototextChri
sapict
ureof
youwi t
harandom guyandsay"canIbehonest
wit
hy oubaby,hetreat
smebettert
hanyou.
.Sorr
y
butit
'sover
"
Me:
whaaaat
???
Khomot
so:
Noooo
Kamo:
Idon'
thav
eaPi
cofmewi
thar
andom guy
Me:
amangaKamo
Khomot
so:
youdon'
t?Don'
twor
ryIhav
eit
.
▶10mi nsdownt hel i
nekhomot sosentKamot he
pict
ureandKamosenti ttoChriswi
ththat"canIbe
honestwithyoubaby ,
het reat
smebet t
erthanyou..
Sorrybutit
'sover"caption...I
twaskamost ur
nt o
spinthebottl
e.ItpointedtoKhomot so
Khomot
so:
trut
h
Kamo: ahmm Doyouthi
nkThatoiswit
hyou
becauseorbabyReneorbecausehegenui
nel
ylov
es
you.
Me:
KamoNo.
..
▶Nat
ashaf
rownedandl
ookedatus.
Me:
thatquest
ioni
smezzedupKamo.
.
Khomotso:
wow.
.Ar
eyouser
ious.
.Whatar
e
i
mplyi
ng?
Kamo:whyareyouact
ingup.
.Answert
hequest
ion.
.
I
tisnott
hathar
d.
Candi
ce:
itgenui
nel
yisn'
t
Me: genui
nelymyass..Youdon'thavetheri
ghtt
o
asksuchquestionsyouknowThat ocheatedon
Khomot sowhil
eshewaspr egnant..
.Sonowy ou
thi
nkt hathe'
swithherbecauseofthebaby?
Kamo: ohwelldi
dn'
twetal
kabouti
tthoughwhen
khomot sowasabsentt
heweekbefor
eexams?Now
thatIaskabouti
tI'
m abadper
son?Okay
Khomot so:soy ouguyst
alkedaboutmypersonal
sit
uati
onbehi ndmyback.
..thi
smeansthatallof
youthi
nkt hatThatoi
swithmebecauseofthebaby..
.
Kamo:
nowedon'
t.
..Sor
ryIasked.
..
▶Khomotsost
art
edcryi
ng.
.Yhot
hisgameended
awkwar
d..
.Wecomfor
tedher.
Me:Sorr
yKhomot so.
..That
olovesyou.
.youknow
t
hisouropi
nionsshouldn'
tmatt
er.
Candi
ce:
sor
ryK
▶I twassomessykhomot sowasdr unkcr yi
ng..
.At
thispointIthoughtmay beshe'scryi
ngbecauseof
thequest ionthatwasasked..Butnot hi
swasnot
aboutt hequest i
on.
..Shewascr yi
ngcr y
ing..
.Itwas
sof unnyy etsadatthesamet ime..West opped
playingtruthordare..
.

#I
NSERT79

▶Aft
erawhil
eshestoppedcr
yingnowwewatchi
ng
amovi
edrunkasf
uck..
.wekeptontal
ki
ngand
l
aughingasformeIdidn'
tknowwhatwasgoingon
i
nthatmov i
esoIwasbusyonmyphonet al
ki
ngto
KamousingVoicenot
esbecauseshewason
anot
hercouch.
Khomot
so:
niy
arasamaar
n
▶KamoandIl
aughed.
Me:
kant
ivel
ewhat
'sgoi
ngonl
a..Whyi
sshecr
ying?
Candi
ce:
Zamost
op.
..Wear
ewat
chi
ngamov
ie
Me: y
hohayiokay.
..Istoodupandwentt
othe
ki
tchen.
..Myphonest art
edri
ngi
ngi
twasjust
numbers
Me:
hel
l
o
Hi
m:I
'
m aboutt
opul
luppl
easebuzzmei
n
▶Pul
lup?Hai
bo.
..Who'
sthi
s?
Me:
Vince?
Him:Vi
nce?Nobr
uhit
sZwel
i
..I
'
m 2mi
nut
esaway
youcanopent
hegat
e
▶Zweli
..
.Hai
bo.
.Icheckedt
imeonmyphoneitwas
22:
07.
.t
fwhati
shedoinghereIwentt
obuzzhi
min.
..
Mi
nut
esl
aterheknockedont
hedoor
Candi
ce:
ist
her
esomeoneont
hedoor
?
Khomot
so:
Ithi
nkso.
..
▶Iopenedt
hedoor
Me:
Hi
Zwel
i
:Hi
Me:
Ahmmm what
'sup.
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Zweli
:Yourdadsai
dishoul
dcheckuponyou..
.He
tol
dmydadt houghsomydadsentme.Ar
ey ou
okay?
Kamo:
HawuZwel
iMzwel
i
sto.
..Mzwesh.
..
▶Isideey
edKamo..Shewascar
ryi
ngaglassof
vodkai
nherhandwal
kingupt
ousfunnybecause
shewasti
psyasshi
t.
Zwel
i
:hey
.
Kamo:camet
ojoi
nthepar
ty?
??Bat
hi3isacr
owd
kodwawenay
oucancrowdmypussy.
..
.
Me:
AhyAhyKamo.
..
▶Il
aughedandchasedherawayf
rom t
heki
tchen.
Kamo:
what
..
.?
?
▶Kamospussyitcheswhenev
ersheseesanygent
.
Ahyshemustr
elax
Zwel
i:Usephuzengokweqi
l
e?
▶Ili
ghtl
aughed.Zwel
irandoml
yspeaksDeepZul
u
andt
henIjust
Me:
yeah.
..
▶It
henscr
atchedmyhead
Zweli
:IguessIshouldl
eav
ethen.
.Looksl
i
ke
ever
ythi
ngisokay..
.
Me:
ahmmm y
eah.
..
▶Inodded,
Iwal
kedhi
mtot
hedoor
.
Zwel
i
:aboutt
heki
ss.
..
Me:
ahmmm canwef
org.
..
.
▶Yhonextthi
ngIknowItast
edzambuckl
i
psonmy
l
i
ps.
..Westart
edkissi
ng.
..
.Meundermybr
eat
h
Me:
mmmm Zwe.
..St
op.
..
Zwel
i
:st
opme.
▶Icoul
dn'
tst
ophim.
..I
nsteadIpul
ledhim closerto
me..
.Weki
ssedf
orminutesunti
lNatashadisturbed
us.
..
Nat
asha:sor
ry.
..
.Ahmmm Iwasj
usther
etoput
t
hesegl
asseshere.
..
▶Zwel
iandIgl
ancedateachotherandIsmi
l
ed.
..
Hesmi
ledt
ooandthenhelookedaway .
..
Zwel
i:
Ngzok'f
onel
ameng'fi
kekhay
a,Ngzomtshel
a
noabaukut
hikonkekuhambakahl
eniphet
hekahl
e.
▶Ij
ustnodded.
..Hel
eft
..
.
Nat
asha:
andt
hat
..
.?
???
▶Sheshout
ed
Nat
asha:
Guy
sZamor
ejustki
ssedZwel
i
...
▶Myf
ri
endscamer
unni
ngt
otheki
tchen.
Candi
ce:
shewhat
??
Me:
Icanexpl
ainguy
s..
..
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
..Ev
ent
ual
l
yweal
lfel
lasl
eep
Sundayaf
ter
noonat12pm wewokeuponebyone.
..
Wesl epti
ntheloungethehousewasamessyho
ThembaandSes' Thokoaregoingt
okil
lme.We
st
artedcleani
ngthough..
.Wecomplai
nedand
whinedfir
st.
.Babalazhadusbythebal
ls.
..
Nat
asha:
canwegetbr
eakf
astatWi
mpy
?
Me:
Wimpyi
sforwhi
tepeopl
e..
.Sor
ryNat
asha
▶Kamol
aughed.
..
Kamo:honest
lyIrememberonedayChriswant
edus
togoandhavebreakf
astwithhi
sparent
swewentto
eatatWimpyyhoothatbaconyayehl
akab'
hl
ungu.
..
Thosefi
shfi
ngerskeIwantedtodie.
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Khomot
so:
letgot
oMcDonal
d'
sCaf
ethen?
Me:IwantcoffeeandKr
ispyDoughnut
stheydon'
t
sel
lthem atMcDonal
d'
s.
..
Candice:
let
'sj
ustusethi
sappandleti
tchoosefor
us..
..
whatev
erfr
anchisei
tchooseswearegoing
ther
e
Me:
whati
fitchoosesf
ishandchi
ps?
Khomot
so:
OrKi
ngpi
e
▶Wel
aughed.
..WeusedCandi
cesapp.
..
.
Wef i
rstenter
edthenamesoft herestaurantsand
franchisestherewereabout30+wekepton
suggest i
ngshit..
.Thereweresome5st ar
restaurantswhereadecentmeal costsaboutR400+
wewer ebraveQueensshem. .
.Okaysoi tstart
ed
l
oadi ng..
.Wewai tedfor2seconds...Thenwesaw
l
omkhul uwaseKFCont hescreen.
Nat
asha:
Nev
erguy
s..
.
▶Ikneel
eddown.
..
Me:
why
yyy
yy.
..
..Why
yyy
yyy
yyy
▶Kamost
art
edl
aughi
ng.
Kamo:
yhoooIcan'
tbel
i
evet
his
▶Guy sdon'tgetmewr ongnothingi
swrongwi t
h
KFCnothingitactuall
yslaps.
..Wewer ej
ustsnobs
KFCwasf oreigntous...Theonlythi
ngIeverhad
fr
om KFCwasawi ng..
.EventhatwingIaskedfori
t
fr
om someone. .
..NatashaandKamonev erhadKFC
i
nthei
rent
ir
eli
ves.
..
Khomot
so:KFCi
snott
hatbadguy
syhowhyal
lthe
dr
ama..
..
Me:notthatbad..
.KFCschi ckensmell
sli
ke.
.Eewww
Ahynopleaseplayt hatgameofy our
sagain
Candi
ce.Kamo: pleasemydadsai dKFCisfullofoi
l
nj
eonepi eceofchickeny oucangetchol
ester
ol
Khomot so:Ahyyourdadli
ed..
.EkhayaweeatKFC
everynowandt hen.
..I
tisnotthatbadguy
sI'
m
tel
li
ngya'l
l
▶Wecompl ainedaboutKFCunt i
lwegott here.
..
WhenwegotatKFCKhomot soknewt hemenu
bettersosheor der edforeachandev eryoneofus
accordingtoourl ikesanddi sl
ikes..
.Igotsweetchili
Twi st
erandspr inklespopsandast rawber r
y
krusher..
.Weal lenjoyedourmeal sallofus..
.Our
mout hswer eshutandsel l
otapedandst apledshem
..
.Weonl yhadgoodr eviewsonKFCt i
llt
oday
strawberrykrusheri smyf avuori
tedrinkfrom KFC..
..

01December2015.
KeDecemberboss. ..Yonkeintoewr ongiRight.
..I
j
ustwannahav ethebestsummerandnotwor ry
aboutMat r
icresul t
st hatarecomi ngoutinJanuar y.
..
Iwantt ohavet hebestt imeofmyl if
e..
.That'
sall.
..
MydadandIar edoi ngsomeshoppi ngThembaand
Thandoar evisiti
ng...Sotheyar ealsoherewithus...
ThandoandIar ewear i
ngourBl ackAdidas
tracksuitswithourAF1sneaker s.Wewer emat ching
#Sibl i
ngGoalsmt akabawo.ThandoandIar ebusy
pushi ngat r
olleyar oundandpi ckingrandom stuff
mydadont heot herhandi sonthephone. .
.Wehad
2t roll
eyswithuswewer edefi
nitelybuyi
nggroceries
fort hewholeofSout hAfri
ca..
.Wewentt othetil
lso
wecanpayandgohome. .
Dad:youknowthepi
nri
ghtI
'
m goi
ngt
obuyadul
t
j
uiceatMarkol
i
quor.
Me:
adul
twhat
??
Thando:
hai
bongekeBaba
▶Wel
aughedathi
m.
Mydadexit
edMarkoandwentt
oMar koLi
quor.
..We
wer
estandi
ngi
nthequeuewait
ingf
orourtur
nto
pay.
..Thembawaspl ay
ingwi
thatenni
s,Thandoon
herphone..
.MyphonediedsoIwaslooki
ngat
ever
y t
hingandevery
oneint
hestor
e..
.Mydadcame
backandwepai dthenwewenthome..
.

Nomzamo+Zwel
i=Zamozwe ?

#NomzamosDi
ary

#I
NSERT80

▶It'
sthesecondweekofDecemberI'
m atVi
nces
househejustgotbackf
rom wor
kit
'sar
ound7pm...
Wehav eamov ieni
ghtt
oday...Hebr
oughtPopcor
n,
wine,bi
lt
ongandSpeckl
edeggsandofcourse
Heinekenforhi
mI '
mintheki
tchenbusypr
epari
ng.
..
Me:
howwasy
ourdayatwor
kPapi
?
Vi
nce:
itwasgood.
..andhowwasy
ourday
?
▶Hehuggedmef
rom behi
ndandgav
emeaki
sson
myneck.
Me:itwasgr
eat
..
.ThandoandIwentoutandgotour
nai
l
sdone
▶Iflashedmynail
sinhi
sface.Het
ouchedmy
handsandlookedatt
hem
Vi
nce:
wow.
..
.Andbyt
hewayt
heyar
eugl
y
Me:
hai
bo.
..
▶Il
aughed.
Vince:y
oudi
dn'tcal
lmet
ochooseanai
lcol
ourf
or
you..
.Si
ncewhen?
Me:
baby
yy.
..
▶Il
aughedasIpeekedj
eal
ousyi
nhi
sface
Vi
nce:
cha.
.Leav
eme.
..
▶Hewentt ohisroom, undressedandhecameback
weari
ngaBl ackni ket
rackpantwithablackNi
ket-
shi
rt.
..
every
thingthatVinceput sonhi
sbodyjust
sui
tshim..Hel ookssodarkandar gh.
.He'sso
handsome...
Vi
nce:
mustIt
urnt
hel
i
ght
sof
f?
Me:
yespl
ease.
.
▶Iwasal
readysi
ppi
ngwi
newai
ti
ngf
orv
ince.
..
Me:vel
eyouwenti
nthereandsai
dyahI
'
m gonna
wearbl
ackl
ikemygir
lf
ri
end
▶Helaughed.Iwaswear
ingashor
tbl
ackt
ight
dr
ess.
Vi
nce:
Iact
ual
l
ydi
dn'
tnot
icet
haty
ou'
rewear
ing
bl
ackma'
am.
Me:
hmmmm.
..
▶Hecameandsatbet
weenmyt
highswewer
esat
ont
hefl
oor
.
Vi
nce:
Ithi
nkweshoul
dwat
chFi
ft
yshadesofGr
ey?
Me:
why
?
▶Igi
ggl
ed.
Vince:gotanysuggest
ions?I
tjustcameoutandwe
don'tknowIt
Me:
Iknow.
..But
..
.Okayl
et'
swat
chi
t.
Vi
nce:
arey
ousur
e?
Me:
areYOUsur
e?
▶Webot hl aughedateachot her .
..Weendedup
watchingt hemov iei t
'soneoft hegr eatestmov i
es
I'
veev erwat chedt hecont ent,storyl
ine. .Theact ing
everythingwasj ustwel lexecut ed...
..
.Ify ou'venev er
watchedi tpleasedo. .Pleasewat chi t
...
.infactstop
readingt hisdi aryinser tandgo. .Godownl oadit
NOW. .
.I'm notgonnawast ey ourt i
mewi ththe
detail
s..Immedi at elyaf t
erthemov i
eVi nceandIhad
sexont hef l
oori twasbeaut if
ul,beaut i
ful sex..
.is
theresuchat hing?Af t
ersexwecuddl edont hefloor
andt alked.Iwasl yingonhi schest .
..Runni ngmy
handsi nhi schestandabs. ..Andhewascar essing
mybackwi t
hhi sf ingertips.
Vince:wouldy
oubekeent
ogowi
thmet
oZanzi
bar
nextyear?
Me:
Zanzi
bar
?ForaBusi
nesst
ri
p?
Vince:No.
..Whenwehit1yearIthinkweshoul
dgo
there.
.Soi
t '
sourt
ri
pforus.Tocelebrat
eourl
ove.
Me:Vi
ncear
eyouser
ious?
▶Iwassmi
tt
en.
Vi
nce:
yeah.
..
Me:
baby
yy
▶Ihuggedhi
m.
Vince:
Ijustwanttomakey ouhappyandshowy ou
howmuchIl ovey ou.
..Nextyearwil
lbethehappi
est
yearofourli
ves.
..Ipr
omi seyouthat.Nomore
drama.
Me:
Nomor
edr
ama.
..
?
Vi
nce:
nomor
edr
amaj
usthappi
ness.
..
Me:
andal
otofsex?
▶Hel
aughedoutl
oud.
Vi
nce:
yesandsex.
..
.
▶Wesl eptont hefloor .Muzi wasn'taroundso
basical
lyweownedt hehouse. .
..Thenextmor ni
ngI
wokeupVi ncewasi nt hekitchenmaki ngbreakf
ast
Tev i
nCampbel l'
ssongDandel ionwasbl asti
ng
throughthespeaker s..HaiboMrRomant i
c..
.What'
s
happening?...IgotupVi ncewav edatmeand
winked..Myl ordwhati sthis?ILightl
aughedunder
mybr eath.
.Ipi ckeduphi sNi ket -
shir
tandwor eit
..I
steppedintot hekitchen...
Me:
Mor
ning.
.
Vi
nce:
Mor
ning.
.Sl
eptgood?
..
.I'
m maki
ngbr
eakf
ast
Me:
Icanseet
hat
..
.Why
??
Vi
nce:
why
?
▶Vincecan'
tcooksoI
'
mjustshockedkut
hiwenza
nt
onieKi
tchen
Me:
yeah.
.Why
?youdon'
tusual
l
ymakebr
eakf
ast
..
.
Vi
nce:
Iknow.
.Ij
ustf
eltl
i
kemaki
ngy
oubr
eakf
ast
..
Me:
oooh,
thanky
oubaby
..
.
▶Iextendedmyar mssohecouldhugme,he
huggedmet hengavemeaforeheadki
ss.
Vince:
...
."abeauti
ful
flowerwi
ldbuty
etDevi
neso
hardtofind.
..I
'
m gl
adIpickedupmyLovel
y
dandeli
on"
▶Ilaughedandshookmyhead. .
.Thisoneiscrazy.
..
Minut
eslaterhewasdonewi t
hbreakfastweate..
.
MyVincecan'tcookitwassosal
ty.
.Yhoot heeggs
l
it
eral
lyswam inoil
..
.Theavohadmay onnaisei
nit.
..
Yho
Vi
nce:
howi
sitbaby
?
▶Iwander
edmyey
esar
oundt
oav
oidey
econt
act
wi
thhi
m
Me:
ahmm good
Vi
nce:
andt
hatl
ook?
Me:baby.
..Iknowy ougav ei
tyourbest
..Andfort
hat
Igi
veyoua10. .t
hedeterminati
onyoushowedwas
ofatr
uechef .
..Kodwacany oupleasej
uststi
ckto
bei
nganEngi neerthat
'syourcal
li
ng.
Vi
nce:
isi
tthatbad?
Me:
yes
Vi
nce:
itt
ast
esgoodnj
eki
mi.
Me:
good?Babyst
opl
yi
ng.
▶Ist ar
tedl aughingwhenIsawt hathe'
sbeing
seri
ousIwasgenui nel
yshockedathowheenj oy
ed
hisbreakfast...heateitwit
hnonkinga.Even
fi
nishedt heplate..
.ILefthi
mt of
ini
shit
..Iwentto
bath.AfterbathingIwentt ovi
ncesroom toget
dressed.Hecamei nwithcoff
eeanddoughnuts
fr
om Spar .
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
Vi
nce:
pleasur
e,I
'
llgoshower.
..
Me:
okay
..
.
▶Myphonest
art
edri
ngi
ng.
..Ianswer
edi
t.
.Itwas
Zwel
i
,Vi
ncewentt
othebat
hroom.
Me:
Hey
Zwel
i:Nkosazanakunj
ani
?
▶Ibl
ushed.Nkosazanandi
m?.
.Oht
hixo
Me:
I'
m goodZwel
i
,howar
eyou?
Zwel
i
:I'
m okay
..
.Doy
ouhav
eanypl
ansf
ort
oday
?
Me:
ahmmm i
tdep.
..
.
▶Vincewalkedoutoft
hebat
hroom,Iqui
ckl
y
dr
oppedthecall
andhidmyphonebehindmyback.
..
Vi
nce:
arghhIf
orgotat
owel
.
..
▶Iwasshitti
ngmypants.Don'tknowwhyI'
m such
aclumsyli
arIcoul
d'
vejustpr
etendedt
hatIwas
t
alkingt
osomeoneelse..
.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouokay
?
▶Iner
voussmi
l
ed.
Me:
yeah.
..
▶Myphonest
art
edr
ingi
ngagai
n.
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.
▶Hewentbackt
othebat
hroom.Ianswer
edmy
phone
Zwel
i
:Whathappened?
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..Net
wor
kmay
be
Zwel
i
:canIcomeseey
oul
ater
..
.If
eel
li
kewehav
e
t
otal
k
▶Hav
etot
alk?Hai
boaboutwhat
?
Me:
tal
k?
Zwel
i
:yeboNkosazanangzof
ikaar
ound3
Me:
okay
.
Zwel
i:sokhul
umal
aterke.Enj
oyy
ourday
Me:
yout
oo.
..
Zweli
:I'
l
ldef
ini
tel
yenjoymydayI '
m seei
ng
i
Nkosazanayami t
oday..Hechuckl
edandendedt
he
cal
l
*
▶Lat er?Ngo3. .
..Ahmmm Ihav et oleav eVinces
placearound2or1. .
.Ineedt ocomeupwi th
somet hingI'
l
lsaykhomocal ledmebecause
Reneilweissick...Eishno..Whatam Igonnasay ..
.
Wai twaitZee..Whyar eyoumaki ngpl ansofgoi ng
toseeZwel iandl yingtoVi nceabouti t.
..I
sn'tt
hat
cheating?..
.Am Icheat i
ngonVi nce?. .Ofcoursenot
I'
m Justgoingt oseeaf ri
endwhowant sust otalk.
..
Af r
iend?Af ri
endwhom y ou'vekissed. .
.IloveVince
I'
dnev ercheatonhi m..AndZwel ii
sj ustagood
gent
..
.That
'sal
l
...
Vi
nce:
sti
l
lnotdr
essedy
et?
▶Vi
ncedi
stur
bedmyt
hought
s..
.
Me: Thandoisbusyaskingmeaboutthi
ngs
ezisendl
ini
..AndIendedupget
ti
ngdistr
act
ednow
I'
m onFacebook
Vi
nce:
hat
eitwhent
hathappens.
.
▶Webot hlaughed..Wegotdr essedandchilled
i
nsidethehouse. .Around12hi sfri
endAbel cal
led
him andwewentt ochillathishousewi thother
Vincesfri
ends. .
.At2pm Imadeanexcuseandsai d
thatIwasn'tfeel
inggoodsohehecal ledmeanUber
andIwenthome. ..
.ButInsteadofgoi nghomeIwent
toZwelishouse..Idon'tknowwhyIdi dthisbutdid
i
t..
.

#NomzamosDi
ary

#I
NSERT81
▶Zwelispar
entsweren'
thome, whenIst eppedint
o
Malumskit
chenIaskedaboutt heirwhereabouts
r
ightaway.
.Hecouldseet heunsur enessofbeing
t
hereinmyface,heassuredmet hattheywer enot
t
hereIshoul
dn'
tworry.
..
Zwel
i
:youcangot
hel
oungeI
'
llgety
out
her
e.
▶Iwentt otheloungeandsatdown, lookedaround
andmymi ndkeptscr
eami ngatme."whatar eyou
doinghere""
whatareyoudoi nghere"Zwelicamein
theloungecarr
ying2glassesoforangejuiceina
tray.
.Isai
dthankyouandt ookasip
Zwel
i
:uqi
niseki
l
eukut
hiuGr
and?
Me:
yeah,
I'
m owkay
..
.Idon'
tl
ookokay
?
Zwel
i
:di
ff
erentenv
ironmentmay
be?
Me:
yeahcoul
dbet
hat
..Sowher
ear
eyourpar
ent
s?
Zwel
i:
theywentt
ochur
ch,
mom madesconest
oday
youwantsome?
Me:
NoI
'
m cool
.
Zwel
i:
Ihonestl
ydi
dn'
texpecty
outobeherewi
thme,
Inowdon'
tknowhowtobehaveorwhatt
osay.
▶Heletoutal
i
ghtl
aught
henhel
ookedawayi
n
shy
ness.
Me:
wel
lyouwant
edust
otal
k..So
▶Ishr
ugmyshoul
der
s
Zwel
i
:yeah,
yho!y
ou'
rebeaut
if
ul.
▶Iblushedhejustcoughedthatoutoft
hebl
ue.
..I
t
caughtmeoffguardIblushedsohardli
keadummy .
Me:
thanky
ou.
▶It
ookanot
hersi
p.
Zwel
i:Nomzamo, asmuchasy
oul
i
ket
oactl
i
key
ou
don'
tfeel
itIknowyoudo.
.
Me:
feel
what
?
Zwel
i:
thi
s..
.Thischemist
rybet
weenyouandme, I
knowyoufeelit
.Wemakeeachothersmil
eandwe
l
ookawaybecauseitfeel
swrong.
.Iti
snot
..
.Idon'
t
wantt
oli
eIr eal
lyl
oveyou.
.
▶Iwi
deopenedmyey
es
Zwel i
:Iknowonej ustdoesn'tsayIloveyoubutI
reall
ydo, Ithi
nkaboutyouev eryday
, ever
yhourI
can'tkeepy ououtofmymi nd.Ev er
y ti
mewe
accidentall
ytouchsomethinginsideofmehappens..
.
Ijustwantt omakey ouhappy .
.ButfirstI
'dl
i
ketoget
yourpermi ssi
ontopursuey ou..
Me:
zwel
i
...Ahmmm.
..
Zwel
i
:canIki
ssy
ou?
Me:
Noo.
.Ar
eyoucr
azy
?
▶Ist
oodupget
ti
ngr
eadyt
oleav
e
Me:
honest
lyIdi
dn'
texpecty
out
otel
lmeal
lthi
s..
▶Di dn'texpecthimt otell
y ouallthi
s??..Hai bolol
howol darey ou?14?whatdi dyouexpecthi mt otell
you...youleftVinceandcameal lthi
swayf orZwel i
totellyout hathelikesthecol orgreen.
..Whataj oke
mydar l
ing..
.Iignoredmyt houghtsandpr et
endedt o
l
eav e..Iwant edhimt ostopmef rom going..Tur n
mear oundt henkissmesl owlyandmagi call
ylikein
themov iesyouknow, IknowIdr eam tomuchbut
guesswhatt hati
sexact l
ywhathappened. .
.He
stoppedmebyhol dingmyhand. ..
Zwel
i
:I'
m sor
ry.
.Idi
dn'
tmeant
oscar
eyouof
f.
..
Me:
it'
sowkay
..
▶Isai
dthi
ssof
tl
y.
Zwel
i:canI
?
▶Heputhi shandsonmycheek, wanti
ngt ogoinfor
akissbuti nsteadheaskedi fhecouldkissme. .
.
Consent !
..Consentbaf ethuwhatasexyt hing.He
asksf orConsentt oseeme, consenttotouchme,
hugme, pursuemyhear t,heasksbef orehedoes
anythingIfindthissodamnat tract
iveThewayhe
ask..YhoIsawmy selfnoddi ngmyheadandhi m
planti
nghi scoldorangej uicesmel li
ngli
psonmy
mout h.West artedkissing..Mi ddl
eoftheki ssing
guesswhatIsai d.
..Till
thisdayIcan' tbelievethatI
saidthatandt obehonestt hat'
swhenmyl i
febegan
tobef ucked.
Me:
Ithi
nkIl
ovey
out
oo.
▶Hepaused
Zwel
i
:youmeani
t?
▶Idi
d..
.IknowImeanti
tbecausei
tcameoutso
easi
l
y..Ididn'
thavetothi
nkaboutit
..
.Itf
eltr
ightand
IwasrightIreal
l
ydidloveZwel
i.
..Hehadmebyt he
l
oveandr especthehas.
Me:
Imeani
t.
..
▶Westar
teddeepkissi
ng.
..Heav
ybr
eathi
ngheee
wewer
ecloseto18SNLkodwaubabyboystopped.
Zwel
i:shi
t.
..
▶Hebackedup.
Me:
what
?
▶It
houghtmay
bengi
m'l
umi
l
eormybr
eat
hsmel
l
s.
Zwel
i
:KhonaOcal
aukukhul
uma.
.
▶Hel
ookeddownathi
spant
s.Hewashar
d.
Ismiled...
.Wespentthatafter
noont al
ki
ngsweet
nothi
ngst oeachother..
.Holdi
nghandshekepton
tel
li
ngmehowbeaut ifulIwas..
.Caressi
ngmy
cheek...Around7pm herequestedanUberforme.
.
Andt henIwenthome.IgothomeThandowasi nt
he
l
oungewat chingTVwithThembaIwentt ot
hem.
Thando:
soi
t'
str
uewhent
heysay"
kumnandi
endodeni
"orshal
lIsay"emadodeni
"??
▶Myhear tbeatchanged,
Ifr
ownedandlookedat
heronsome"whatt hefuckarey
outal
ki
ngabout"
shelaughed.
..
Thando:
Let
'sgot
oyourr
oom.
▶Wewentupst
air
s.Goti
nmyr
oom Isatont
he
bed.
..
Thando:
Iknowwher
eyouwer
e..
.
▶Shel
ookedatmef
unny
..
.
Me:yeahIwasatVi
nceshouse,
andt
henwewentt
o
Abel
splace.
..
Thando:
Abel
spl
acei
snowMal
umshouse?
Me:
fuckt
handohowdi
dyou.
.
▶Istoodupandwentupt
oher
..Shel
aughedagai
n,
hai
bothi
sevi
lchi
l
d.
Thando:
youwer
ewi
thZwel
i
,what
'sgoi
ngont
her
e
Zee?
Me:
fuck.
.
▶Il
aughed
Me:
howdi
dyouknow?
Thando:youknowthatyoucanaddsomeone'
s
phonelocati
ononyourphoneri
ght?Theny
oucan
see.
.Each..And.
.Ev
ery.
..Movement
Me:
whyy
out
alki
ngl
i
ket
hat
?
▶Shewast alki
ngl
ikeadet
ect
ivewhoj
ustcr
ackeda
case.
..Shel
aughed
Thando:
Idon'
tknow.
.Sot
ell
mewhatgoi
ngon.
.
Whywereyouther
e?
Me:
not
hing.
.Iwantt
obat
h.
Thando:
Zamo.
..
..
Me:
I'
ll
tel
lyoul
aterIwantt
ogobat
hnow.
▶Thandol eftmyroom, Iwenttothebat
hroom and
tookal onglongbat h.
..Iwasn'tbathi
ngt
houghIwas
thinki
ngaboutmyl ovelife.
.I
'minlovewi
thtwo
guy s.
..Howdi dIgether e..
.It
houghtzwel
iwasjusta
fl
ing
.ButIhav
ereal
l
yfal
l
en.
..Har
d..
.He'
sper
fect
..
.So
perfect...Ifeltl
ikeIcoul dtalktohi
m aboutany thing
andt hatheunder stoodme. .Hedidn'thavetotry
hardliket heot herguy ...He'
solderthanmeby2
yearsVi nce7y ear ssomet imesIfeelli
keIcan'tbe
mef ul l
yar oundVi nce, Ihavetomat ureupal i
tt
lebit,
especi all
yt odayaf termeet i
nghisfri
endsIwast he
youngesti nther oom.Somet imeshedoesn' t
under standmeal thoughhet ri
esIcanj ustseethat
hedoesn' t.
..Myphoner anganddisturbedmy
thought s...
Me:
Kamo,
hey
..
.
Kamo:
Doy
ouhav
edat
a?
Me:
Nowhy
?
Kamo:BuyakuWhat
sappwet
hinkt
her
e'ssomet
hing
wrongwit
hTash.
Me:
Okay
..Letmef
ini
shupl
aI'
m comi
ng.
▶Igotoff.
.Ididn'
tevenl
oti
onIjustworemyPj
s,
boughtDataandloggedi
n.203messagesonour
whatsappgroupchatIwantact
ivetheent
ir
e
weekendsoIexpectedtohavemanymessages.
Me:
Guy
swhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Khomot
so:
didNat
hancal
lyou?
Me:YeahonFri
dayaskingf
orTash.
.ButIdi
dn'
t
knowwhereshewas..What
'sgoi
ngon?
Kamo:
Nat
ashal
eftFr
idayandnev
ercameback.
.
Me:
huh.
.Why
?She'
snotmi
ssi
ngi
sshe?
Candice:NoshesentusamessageSatur
daynight
sayi
ngt hatshe'
sokayshe'
snotmi
ssi
ng..
.She'
sat
hergi
r l
fri
endspl
ace.
Me:somanjewhyarey
ouscari
ngme.Thought
she'
smi
ssingorsomet
hingbadhappenedt
oher
..
Candi
ce:Hergirl
fr
iendsaidshedidn'
tshowupather
houseunt
ilSatur
daymor ning.
..Sosheaskedme
wherewewer eonFr i
daynight..
.Shethoughtmay
be
weweretogether,It
oldherwewer en'
t..
Khomo: somethi
ngisnotaddingup..
.Natashatol
d
usthatshewasathergirl
fr
iendsplaceonFriday
kodwat heGi
rl
fri
endsaysshecameSat urday
morning.
Me:
ahmm may
beshedi
dn'
twantt
ogoFr
idayso
shewentSat
urdayandst
ayedhomeFr
idayni
ght
?
Kamo: St
opbeingadummyZee. .
.Thenwhydid
Nathancall
Fri
daynight.
.Wher
ewasTashFr i
day
ni
ghtifshewasn'tathomeorwit
hhergi
rl
fr
iend?
Me: hai
bohowi
sthi
sourpr
obl
em,
may
be
bekayofeba
Khomot
so:
njengawe
Me: ‍♀ ‍♀
Me:wher
e'sNatashatoanswerall
thi
s?Di
dyou
guy
sremov eherngobangyabonasi4l
a.
Candi
ce:
Kamor
emov
edher
..
.
Me:
sav
age
Kamo: wewi
l
laddheragai
n..Lol
Khomo:weneedtofindNatasha'
snewgi
rl
fr
iend
babygi
rlhas2gi
rl
fr
iendsnow.
Kamo:
she'
sthenewmenow
Me:
ormay
beshehasnewf
ri
endshee
Candi
ce:
angekewewi
l
lbeatherup
Kamo:
nje
▶Onl yifweknewwher eNat ashawasFr i
daywe
woul dn'tbelaughingl i
kethis...Natashagotraped
thatFr i
dayaf t
ernoon, byKabel or ememberhim?The
boywhowant edt oshowNat ashahowgoodsexi s
withamanheRapedherwi thhi sfr
iendstheywere3
Nat ashawasal one.Shewasgangr apedonherway
toseehergi rl
fri
end.Theyr apedhert hewhole
afternoonandni ghtthentheyl ef
tmi dni
ghtfor
groov eandl eftNatashaatsomeabandoned
buildingbleedingandcr yi
ngf orhelp.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT82

▶Mondaymor ni
ngonthe7thofDecember2015,
I
wokeupv er
year
lyar
ound7am, Wentt
hroughmy
phoneIhadamessagefr
om Vince
"Morni
ngsweetf ace,hopey
oufeel
i
ngbett
ernow,
j
ustgotbackfr
om t hegymI'
m of
ftowor
kurgh
enj
oyyourdayIlovey ou "
▶It ext edhim backandIal sosentZwel ia
Goodmor ni
ngmessage, whatisgoingoni nmyl ifeI
l
ightl aughedatmy sel
fandshookmyhead.Igotof f
bedwentt othebat hroom brushedmyt eet handhad
aqui ckshower ,wentbackt omyr oom putonmy
Bluetoot hspeakerandpl ayedsoftRnBoni twhileI
l
ot i
onedandgotr eady .
..Ihadmynat uralhaironsoI
ti
edi tintoabunandappl iedli
pglossitwaski nda
sunnysoIwor eblackshor t
sandabl ackAdi dast -
shirtwi thsleepersandl ongwhi t
esocks...Iwent
downst air
s...
Itwasar ound8am Iwentt ot hekitchen,
Iwast heonl yonewhowasupsoIdeci dedt omake
breakf astforev er
y one,asIwasaboutt oopent he
f
ri
dgemyphoner
ang.
.ItwasKhomot
so
Me:
Soear
ly.
..I
sRenei
l
wekeepi
ngy
ouup?
Khomot
so:
eishuy
amazi
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Khomotso:
Zamol ookIwantustogoandseeTash,
didy
ouseeherstatusonwhatsappIdon'
tthi
nk
she'
sokay.
..Andshedel
etedFacebook.
Me:
what
'sup?Si
thi
ni?
Khomot so:athi"Isawtheli
ght
,Ishoul
d'
v echosen
death"beforeshedelet
edFacebookshewr otesome
pret
tydistur
bingpostsItookscr
eenshotsI'
ll
send
them toyou..
Me:
shesai
dthat
..
.khomot
so!
Khomotso:I'
mreall
yworri
edabouther
,sowewil
lgo
toherpl
acetodaynearound11Ihavetobeat
Thatoshousengabo2there'
sawedding.
.
Me:
okaynopr
obl
em.
..
▶OhTash..Iwonderwhat
'swr
ongwithher
..
.It
's
r
eal
l
yunli
kehertobehaveli
ket
hisandsaysuch
thi
ngs..Khomotsosentt
hosescr
eenshotstheywer
e
darkverydar
kandshesoundedsuici
dalIstart
ed
shaki
ng...mydadcamedownstai
rswhistl
ing.
..
Dad:
hai
bo.
..Eksenkanj
esowuv
uki
l
eNt
shangase?
▶Icr
ookedsmi
l
ed.
.
Dad:
Mubi
..
.Ar
eyouokay
?
▶Ishookmyheadsl
owl
y.
.Mydadcamecl
osert
o
me.
..
Dad:
yi
ni?
Me:i
t'
sNatasha,
BabaIdon'tt
hinkshe'
sokay
somet
hingi
seatingherupandakasholut
ho.
..
Dad:
Ahyi
ndabazabaf
anangy
acabanga.
..
Me:
yeahmay
beshehadaf
ightwi
thhergi
rl
fr
iend.
Dad:
Gir
lf
ri
end?
Me:
..
..
.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Dad!
!.
..
▶Iputmyphoneont
heki
tchencount
erandwentt
o
thefr
idge.
..It
oldmydadaboutNat
asha'ssexual
i
ty
butngobawewer ewit
hGracehedi
dn'thearathi
ng.
..
Me:
Itol
dyouaboutt
his.
Dad:
Chaangi
khumbul
iMi
na.
.Aw'
ngenzel
icof
fee
l
apho
Me:Idid.
..Well
Natashai
sal
esbi
ansoshehasa
gi
rl
fr
iendnotiBoyf
ri
end.
Dad:
wenainganiungabiy
iLesbi
an??
Amantombazaneanconokabikunabaf
ana.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Hai
ingeke.
▶It ookout,eggs, bacon, mushrooms, l
etti
ce,
cheeset omatoout sidethefri
dgeandImademydad
thecoffeeher equest ed..
.Hejustchil
ledont he
kit
chencount erwhi l
eImadebr eakfastforusand
wet al
kedandl aughedf orawhile.
..Anhourl at
er
breakfastwasr eadyThembaJuni orwal kedint
othe
kit
chen...
Themba:
Tyma.
..
Dad:
Tyma?
▶Il
aughed.
Dad:
Ahy
▶Heshookhi
shead.
Themba:
Ntwana,
yhongat
hiuy
aboukut
hingi
l
ambe
Me:
YeahI
'
m al
mostdonej
usthav
etosetust
he
t
abl
e.
Themba:
I'
ll
hel
pyou
Me:
Thanks.
.Youcanst
artbyt
aki
ngt
hesepl
ates
▶Ihandedthem overt
ohi m andwesett
hetablemy
dadwenttothedini
ngareahesatdown,Themba
wentontocall
Thando..Isatdownandwewai t
ed
fort
hem t
heycameandwepr ay
edbef
oreeat
ing..
.
Thando:
Mtaset
hisl
ooksr
eal
l
ygood.
Me:
Itr
ied.
..Thanky
ou
Themba:anditt
ast
esgoodt
oothesmel
lgotint
o
myroom ther
ewasnowayIwasgonnacont
inue
sl
eepi
ng.
.Ihadtocomedownst
air
s.
▶Wel aughed.Wecont
inuedt
oeatandconver
sat
e,
af
tereati
ngIwentupst
air
swhil
ethandost
ayed
behindandwashedt hedi shes. .Mydadhadan
i
mpor tantmeet ingt oat t endat12am buthel eft
i
mmedi at
elyaft erbr eakf ast. .
.Thembawas
downst ai
rsplay ingGTAi twasar ound10andat11I
hadt omeetupwi thkhomot soIst artedprepar ingI
undr essedandwor ewhi teNi keAi rforcesneaker s,
blackJeanapl ainwhi t
et -
shi rtandIputonagol d
chain, myCar ti
erbr acelet ,andbi ghoopear ringsI
putonar edmat telipstick, andl aidmybabyhai r
edgesIcar r
iedasmal lsidebagi twaspi nk..Iputmy
l
ipstickandsungl assesi nit..Irequest edanUber
mi nuteslateritar ri
v edandIcal ledkhomot sot olet
herknowt hatIwasonmyway ,wewer emeet ingat
Sparsuper mar kett hat snearNat asha'splace.She
gott herefir
stIwas20mi nut eslate.
Khomot
so:you'
regoi
ngt
obel
atewenaev
enony
our
ownweddi
ng
Me:
Haisuka.
..Ani
sebahl
ebomat
chy
mat
chy
..
NcooohnowIwantababynami
Khomot
so:
WakaZwel
iorVi
nce?
▶Webot
hlaughed
Me:
Uyaphaphanef
utsek.
▶Wewal kedtoNatasha'
shouse,gotatt
hegateher
motherbuzzedusi
n.Wewal kedi
n,wegotinsi
dethe
houseNatasha'
smothergreet
edusandwesat
down.
Nat
asha'
smother
:shehasbeeninherroom si
nce
Godknowswhen.
..I
'
llgoandcal
lherf
ory ou.
▶ShewenttoNatasha'
sroom,Nathanwalkedi
nthe
l
oungecar
ryi
ngabowl ofcer
ealal
readyeati
ngand
hewaschowingl
i
keapi gwit
hheadphoneson.
Nat
han:
Ohshi
t.
..
▶Il
aughed,
het
ookt
heheadphonesof
f.
..
Nat
han:
whendi
dyouguy
sgether
e?
▶Hecov
eredhi
smout
h..
.
Khomot
so:
doy
oual
way
schewl
i
ket
hat
?
Nat
han:
Icanexpl
ain.
..
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Nat
han:
Mor
ning.
..Idi
dn'
theary
oucomi
ngi
n..
Me:
HeyNat
han
Khomot
so:
Mor
ning.
..
Khomotso:
allthegi
rlswhodrool
overy
ouatschool
wil
lbesodisappoi
ntedift
heysawhowy ouchew.
..
Nat
han:
canwest
opt
alki
ngaboutmychewi
ng.
..
Me:
Khomot
sol
eav
ehi
m..
.
Nat
han:
tel
lher
..
.
Nat
asha'
smom wal
kedi
n..
.
NMot her
:shesayst
hatsheisnotf
eel
i
nggood.She
can'
tseeyou.
..I
'
m sorr
ygir
ls.
Khomot
so:
wear
en'
tl
eav
ingwi
thoutseei
ngher
▶Haibothi
sgirl
..Iwi
deopenedmyey
essur
pri
sed
atherr
esponse.
NMot her
:isther
esomet
hinggoi
ngonwi t
h
Natasha?
?Icanseemybabyisnotokaybutshe
r
efusestotal
k
Khomot
so:
isherdooropen?Iwantt
otal
ktoher
.
Nmot
her:
yes.
▶Khomot sostoodupandwentt
oNat
asha'
sroom.
.
Shel
eftbabyrenei
lwewit
hmeandNat
han.
Me:don'
tknowifIshoul
dst
aybehi
ndorf
oll
owher
..
.
Ir
eall
yhopeTashisokay
Nat
han:Natashaisn'
tusedt otal
ki
ngandKhomot
so
i
snothavingthat
,asafriendIunderst
andher
wor
ry.
..She'
sbeenwei r
dt hesedays
Me:
eish.
.CanIl
eav
ethebabywi
thy
ou?
Nat
han:
yeahsur
e
Me:
arey
ousur
e?
▶Webot hl
aughed,
IleftbabyReneilwewi t
hNathan
andIfollowedKhomot sointoNatasha'sroom.We
gotthereNatashawasst i
llinbed,herroom was
dark,t
issuesonthefloorandpill
sont hefloor
..
.
Khomot sowentupt oher..Andsheshookhert o
wakeup.
Khomot
so:
Tash.
..Ar
eyouokay
?
▶Iclosedt
hedoorandsatont
heot
hersi
deoft
he
bed.
Nat
asha:
I'
mjustsi
ck,
Idon'
twantt
ober
udebut
cany
oupl
easel
eav
e.
Khomotso:NoTash,thi
sisnotyou.
.Andthose
postsonFacebookandwhatsapp?What'
sgoingon?
Iknowyouarenotsick
Me:Pleasetal
ktousTash.
.Ifnotust
henwecan
cal
lyourmom. .Weknowsomet hi
ngi
sup.
.Tel
lus
what'
sgoingon?
▶Shest
art
edhav
ingt
ear
yey
es.
..
Nat
asha:
mymom can'
tknow.
..AndI
'
m okay
..
.
Me:
noy
ou'
renot
..
.
Khomot
so:
shecan'
tknowwhat
?
Nat
asha:
..
..
.
Me:
Nat
asha.
..
.?
▶Shest
art
edcr
ying.
..
sopai
nful
l
y
Khomot
soandI:
Shhhh
▶Wehuggedher .
..Khomot
soandIstar
edateach
ot
hernocl
ueonwhatwasgoi ngonandwhythehell
wasshecr
ying.
..
Nat
asha:
Ifeel
sost
upi
dandusel
ess
Me:
No.
..Shhhi
t'
l
lbeokay
Khomotso:whowoul
d'
vethoughtt
hatwomenain'
t
shi
tei
ther.
.Di
dshecheatonyouorsomet
hing?
Nat
asha:
who?
▶ Sheaskedconf
used.Khomot
sof
rowned
Me:
wer
en'
tyoucheat
edon?
▶Natashal
aughedthroughpain.
.Youcoul
dseeshe
di
dn'
twantt
ol aughbutbecauseKhomotsoandIar
e
cl
ownsshelaughed.
Natasha:Ireal
lydon'tknowhowt osaythis,Idon'
t
wantyouguy stol ookatmedi ff
erent
lyorf eelpi
ty
f
orme. ..SoI'
mj ustgoingtoblurti
tout.
..Iwas
r
aped...Mygi r
lf
rienddidn'
tcheatonme
▶I .
..
.If
roze.
..Myheartbroke.
..If
roze.
..Shedi
dn'
t
fl
i
nchorpause...SheknewIwasgoi ngtobreak
downshewassqueezi ngmyhandt ight
...
Nat
asha:
don'
tcr
y..
.
▶Myey
esbecamet
ear
yIhuggedt
asha
Me:
I'
m sosor
ryt
ash
▶Shestart
edteari
ngupal
lov
eragai
n..Tear
sfel
l
downhercheeks
Nat
asha:
it'
sokay
..
.
Khomot
so:
sor
ry
▶Wewer esohur tandwor dscoul dn'tcomeoutof
ourmout hs.
..Iwasshat tered...Natashaisthemost
sweetestper sononear t
hshedi dn'
tdeservethi
s..
NOONEDESERVESTOBERAPEDSeei ngherli
ke
thi
swassohear tbreaki
ngi fIcouldtakeherpainI
wouldbar eitforherthat'
showmuchIl ov
eherand
thi
nkshedoesn' tdeserv
et his.
..Shewasso
defeat
edi twashar dt owatch...Whenshef i
nal
ly
foundherselfandhappi nesst henthishappens..
.I
real
lyfel
tforher ..
.
Me:weneedt or
eporthi
m/her
..WhowasitTash?
Yourgi
rl
fr
iend?Who?Whenandhowdidthishappen?
Didyougotothedoctor
?
▶Shekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..
.
Nat
asha:
Idon'
twantt
hist
obeapar
tofme,
Idon'
t
wantmyf amil
ytoknow,ormyfri
endsto
know.
..
promisemey ouwon'tt
ell
anyonethatIsai
da
wordt
oy ou?
Khomot
so:
butNat
asha.
..
.
Natasha:NoKhomo. .
.Idon'twantthistobemylif
e
youknowt hiscasewil
ldr
agonf oralongti
me..
Theywi l
lsaytheydi
dn'
tdoi t,
peoplewon'tbel
i
eve
me. .
.Ican'
t.
..Mymom willneverrecoverIj
ust
..
Please..
.
Me:
they
?
Natasha:yeahKabel
o,KeagenandIcouldn'tbel
i
eve
whatwashappeningZee...It
oldt
hem t
ost opbut
t
heydi dn'
t.
..
Khomotso: theydi
dthatt
oy ou?OhnoIcan'
tkeep
thi
ssecret
..Iwantthoser
atstoroti
njai
l
Me: Natashapl easethi
nkt hist
hrough..Wehaveto.
Repor tthem..Iwill
test
ifyifIhavetotheytol
dyou
thattheywi l
linfr
ontofus. .
.Remember ..
.Wehaveto
reportthem...
.Youdon'tr apeapersonbecause
she'slesbianwhatt hefuck..
.
Natasha:No..
..Iwon'
t.
..Theythr
eatenedtogoand
rapemygirl
fr
iendtoo.
.Zamor eIcan'tpl
ease
underst
and.
▶Shecr i
edsohar dandpai nfully..
..Wet i
redt o
conv i
ncehert ogoandr epor tthem butshe
refused....Attheendoft hedayi t'sherdeci si
onon
howshedeal swi ththissi tuationwet oldhert hat
everythingwi llbef i
neitwasn' therf aultbecausei t
reall
ywasn' t
..
.Wet old.Hert hatwewi llal
way slove
herandbet heref orher...wecl eanedNat asha' s
room t oldhert ogoandbat hwemadeherf oodand
wel efthert osleepagai n..Weunder stoodherpai n
somehowwedi dn'tknowwhatt osayt oherbecause
wedi dn'tknowhowshef eltandwedi dn'twhat '
sthe
ri
ghtt hingt osayordo. .Af terbei ngt heref orherwe
l
eftThat ofetchedKhomot soandIt heydr oppedme
offatmycr i
bandt heywentt ot heWeddi ng.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT83

▶Theweekf lewbysoqui ckl

y,Satur
daymor ni
ng
ThandoandIwokeupandcl eanedthehousewe
al
somadebr eakfastSes'
thokowasonl eav
ewe
wereinhellandThembawant edtoseehishouse
cl
ean..
.Around10am wewer edoneandwer ehaving
breakf
astinthelounge..
Thando:chamtasewhenarewegoi
ngtodoourhai
r
andgetournai
l
sdone?It'
sDecemberbutwel
ookso
Crust
y
Me:tel
lmeabouti
tyhol
ookatmyhai
r(It
ookmy
hatoff
)..
.Negr
owthsey
iyeza.
Thando:
Dadmustmakeapl
an.
..I
sheawake?
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..Di
dhecomehomel
astni
ght
?
Thando:y
eahIBuzzedhi
minhecamebackar
ound
1,Iwassti
ll
awake.
Me:around1?Heet
hey
earendf
unct
ionmust
'v
e
beennicene.
Thando:
sur
ely
..
.Kodwahewasn'
tdr
unkI
'
venev
er
seendaddr
unk
▶Webot
hlaughed
Me:
Ihav
eonce.
..Dadi
sat
ank
Thando:Mtaset
heywenttothesal
ony ester
dayand
gotthei
rhai
rdone.
..Basi
shi
yaIst
il
lcan'tbel
iev
eit
Me:met oo.
.We'v
ebeenaski
ngf
ormoneysi
ncet
he
1stofDecemberAhy
Thando:It
houghtdadwaskiddi
ngwhentheyl
eft
..
.
Thenhourslat
ertheywal
kinhai
rdoneIwasli
keah
ahah..
..
Me: l
et'
sgowakehim upMinaIneedtodomyhai
r
shem..SasaIhav
eadat ewi
thZweliIhav
etol
ook
cute.
Thando:
Adat
e?Heey
ou'
reev
ensmi
l
ingy
ouexci
ted
▶Ibl
ushed
Me:Iam...I
t'
ll
beourf
ir
stdat
e.I
'
m ki
ndaner
vous
andIdon'
tknowwhy
Thando:
mtaseyouhav
etochooseevent
ual
l
yyou
can'
tbewit
htwoguysatt
hesametimeawa
Me:
whynot
?
Thando:
Whynot
??Hai
boar
eyoucr
azyZee?
?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
eish.
..Let
'sgot
odadke
Thando:
no.Let
'st
alkaboutt
his
Me:okay..
.LookIr eallyloveVinceIdo. .
.I'm notov
er
whathedidtomei fI'm beinghonest...Ifeelli
kehe
wil
ldoitagainyouknowbecauseonemomentwe
arehappyandt henNomal angapopsoutofnowher e
andVinceloseshi smi nd..
..Andont heot herhandI
can'
tleav
ehi m...Ireall
yloveVincewi thallofmy
heart
..
.Ij
ustleav ear oom fordisappointmentwhen
i
tcomest ohim now. .
.AndIdon' tful
lytrusthim
anymoreit'
stoomuch. ..
.
Thando:thenZweli
?Ifeelli
keyoushouldj
ustbe
singl
etel
l Vi
ncehowy oufeelandtr
ytogatheryour
thought
s.Whatdoy oucalll
ovingsomeonebutat
thesamet imenott
rusti
nghim?That '
snotlove.
Me:IknowThando..
.He'
stry
ingthought
hat'
swhyI
can'
tdumphim..He'
stry
ingtoregai
nmytrust
..
.He
showsmeev er
ydayt
hathechosemeandhel
oves
me..Ibel
i
evehi
m.
Thando:Zweliy
enake..
.Youtalktohi
m overt
he
phoneeverynowandthen..
.y
ougigglealot
..
and
wheny outal
kabouthi
my oujustcan'
tst
opsmi l
i
ng.
..
Yourli
feisamov i
egir
l.
Me: Zwel ineyhooo. .
.Tradit
ionalZuluniggasarej
ust
effor
t l
esslycharmi ngmaar nhowhet alkstomethe
respecthehas. .
.Ihonest lyfel
lforhowhemakesme
feel.
..Il
ikehim al otandheunder standsmeandhe
doesn'tjudgeme. ..IknowwhatI '
m doingiswrong
beinginv ol
vedwi t
ht woguy s..Butthere'sa
diff
erenceIl ov
et heot herguythenILi ketheot
her
one.Youknowt hatnoonecant akeVi ncespl
ace
Thando:youtal
ktoZwelimorethanyoutal
ktovince,
youseezwelimore..
.Lolzamor
ey oual
solovezweli
i
fwe'rebeinghonest.
..
Me:
ahy
ymaar
nIdont
▶Deni al
..Denial
..Denial
..Myhear
tknewt hatIl
oved
bothoft hem Icouldn'
tbeli
evei
tIdidn'
twantto.
..So
Iconsoledmy selfbytell
i
ngmy sel
fthatIl
ovethe
otheroneandIl
iket
heot
herone.
..Zwel
ihadmy
heartbutVi
ncehadmysoul
.
Thando:
yhohay
iit
hisi
stoomuchf
orme.
..Asambe
▶Wel ef
tourbowlsint
hesinkandwewenttomy
dad'
sroom weknockedandwewer egr
ant
edthe
permi
ssiont
oenter.
.Weentered.
Thando:
Baba.
Dad:
eishumsi
ndo.
..Yi
ni?
▶Welookedateachotherandsil
entl
aughed.
.My
dadwassti
l
linsi
debl
ankets.Hangedoverasf
uck.
Me:
roughni
ghtne.
Dad:Ei
shmubi
pleasebr
ingmegr
andpaandwar
m
water
.
Me:
owkay
..
.
Dad:
Nif
unani
?
ThandoandI
:money
Dad:
money
?For
?
Me:
wewantt
ogodoourhai
randnai
l
s
Dad:
ngzoni
sendel
alokhakusekseni
manj
e
Thando:
it'
shal
fpastel
evenbaba.
Dad:
hai
ngeke.
.Ser
iouswher
e'smyphone?
▶Hecheckedt
imeonhi
sphone.
Dad:
Shi
t.
..
Me:
why
?
Dad:
breakf
astdat
ewi
thGr
ace.
.Ei
shei
sh
▶Hecalledheri
mmediatelyandapol
ogi
zed.Kodwa
ngat
hii
twentstr
aightt
ov oi
cemail.
Dad:
nit
hiNi
funamal
i
ni?
▶ThandoandIl
ookedateachot
her
.
Dad:
justt
akemycar
d..Zamor
eyouknowt
hepi
n.
▶Ididn'twasteanyt ydItooki
tandwewentt o
bath.
..
afterbathingwerequestedanUberandwe
wenttot hesalon..
.Igotbabybluenailswithwhite
hi
ghli
ghtt handogotpinknail
swi t
hwhi tehighli
ght
..
.
Thandodi dshortbrownblondeBr ai
dsIdi dlong
brownblondest rai
ghtup..
.Wewentt ogetl unchat
Rocomamas, thenweboughtaf ewcl othes..
.Okay
notfewalotofcl
othes.
..Mostwerematchi
ng
cl
othesJustdif
fer
entcolor
s..Weevenbought
matchi
ngpy j
amasmyphonest ar
tedri
ngingwewere
i
naqueue...Weimmediatel
ystar
edateachother
..
Thando:
it'
shi
m.
Me:
ayey
e..
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
mustwer
etur
nthese?
▶WewereatTheFi
xbuy
ingsunglassesandthe
mat
chi
ngPyj
amasthi
swasourlaststore.
..
Thando:
no.
.Ir
eal
l
yli
ket
hese
▶Wel
aughedner
vousl
yso.
..
Me: aslongaswewon'tdi
emt ase.
..Wecan
purchasethesei
temsandgohome, hewi
l
ljust
shoutatusandthenkuphel
e..
Thando:y
easimple.
..
.hewi
l
lshoutkodwat
hinawe
wil
lhaveourt
hings
Me:
yesssur
r
▶Fastf
orwar
dit
s5pm t
heUberj
ustdr
oppedusof
f
mydadhasbeencal li
ngus. .
..Wear escar edt ogo
i
nsi de. .
.IguessThembasawushebuzzedusi n.
..
Wej ustsawt hegat eopeni ng..West ar edateach
otherandl aughed. .Wewer ecar ryingsomany
plast ics..
.MrPr ice, Factori
es, Legit,foschini,
Spor tsceneev erythingwast her eThandoandIev en
bought3NYbl ackcapsf orourboy f
ri
ends. .Andwe
bought2pi nkonesf orus..all5capscostR1200
addal lt
heot herunnecessar yt hingswebought ..
.We
didn' tknowhowmuchwespentbuty eywekepton
say ing" Savings"andcl icki
ngt hatpi n...Wef i
nally
foundt hecour aget ogoi nsidet hehouse. .
.Thef irst
per sonwebumpedi ntowasThemba. ..Andy ou
alreadyknowt hef irstquest i
onweasked.
Us:
Wher
e'sdad?
???
▶Hel
aughed.
.
Themba:
He'
sint
hel
ounge.
Me:
isheangr
y?
Themba:
letmeaskhi
m..
.
▶Heshout
ed.
.
Themba:Baba,
ThandonoNomzamoaski
fyou'
re
angr
y??
Thando:
Ahywena.
..
▶Shewantedtoslaphim butThembar
anl
aughi
ng
bef
oreThandocould.
..
Thando:
Yourbr
otheri
sannoy
ing.
..
Me:
let
'sgoApol
ogi
zet
henwegot
oourr
ooms.
Thando:
I'
m soscar
ed.
..
.okay
▶Mydadwal kedi
n..
.Helookedatusanddidn'
tsay
athi
ng..
.Wealsol
ookedathim anddi
dn'
tsaya
t
hing.
Dad:
R7326.
..
Thando:
Baba.
..
Dad: No.
..
.angfunikuzwaThando.
..Yabonal
eyo
R7326Ihopei zoni l
astaunt
ily
ou'
reboth25year
s
ol
d...Angaziukuthinidl
il
eorni
phi
sanengayoor
ni
hlafunyi
le.
..
▶Ihonest
lywant
edt
olaugh.
..
.25y
ear
sol
dwhen
I
'
m only18lol
.
Dad:hairandnail
sR7326?ni cabangaukuthi
nihl
akaniphi
l
enina..
.R7326.
..Yonkelakulezi
nwel
e
ezibl
onde?
▶Whydoeshekeeponr
epeat
ingR7326..
.Ipi
nched
myl
i
pstoget
hertost
opmysel
ffrom l
aughi
ng.
Dad:
HlekaNomzamo.
.Hl
eka.
..
▶ThandoandIbur
stoutl
aughi
ng.
Dad: ni
buyongi
dlal
abantwanabami angfuni
ukucambaamanga. .
.Amaplasti
kiamaningikangaka
shuthini
zi
tshel
il
eukuthi
niwinei
Lottongecardlami.
▶Hewentbackt othelounge.
..ThandoandIqui
ckl
y
wentupst
air
swewentt omyr oom gotther
eandwe
l
aughedoutassesoff
..
.
Thando:
"R7326"
▶Wel
aughedhar
der
..
.
Me:
"ni
buy
ongi
dlal
abant
wanabami
"
Thando:
niggasai
dsi
cabangaukut
hisi
winei
Lot
to.
..
Me:
ahy
yyhoo
▶Wesepar
atedourt
hingsThandot
ookhert
hings
andwenttoherroom..
.Ar
ound6Iwassti
l
linmy
room mydadknockedandIl
ethi
min.
..
Dad:wehavet
obeatCappucci
nosar
ound7wear
e
havi
ngdi
nnerwit
hGr
aceandJaygetready
..
.
Me:
Yessi
r.
Dad:
shar
p.
▶Hewalkedout
..
.Hewasal
readydr
essedsoI
qui
ckl
ywentt
othandosr
oom.
Me:
whatar
ewegoi
ngt
owear
?
Thando:
bitchIwasaboutt
ocal
lyouandasky
ou
thesamething.
.l
ook.
▶Shehadherphoneonherhandandshewasabout
tocallme.Wel aughedatt hecoinci
dence..
.Andwe
deci
dedt owearshor tt
ightdressesweboughtat
l
egitminewaspi nkherswaswhi teandwewor e
Jeanjacketsont op..
.webot hwor eouroldall
star
sneakers..
.40mi nuteslaterwewer edonesowe
wentdownst ai
rs...drov
et oCappuccinos,dri
vingto
cappuccinosourdadcoul dn'
tstoptell
i
ngusabout
hisR7336wef inall
yarriv
edhadaf amil
ydinnerit
wentsowell.
.Webondeditwasgr
eatconv
ersat
ions
werefl
owing.
..
.Jasoncamewit
hAdakuher
gi
rl
fri
end.

▶SundayMor ni
ngIwokeupar ound1pm mydat e
withZwel iwasat2pm. .
shitshi
tshit
...Mydadand
graceleftusatt herestauranty
esterdaysowe
endedupor deri
ngcockt ai
lsandhavingshotsof
Vodka...Wecamehomedr unk.
..Al
lofusnowIhav e
thewor sthangov eryester
daywasr eall
yfundamnit
..
.
Itext
edZwel i
Me:Muntuwami I'
l
lbeal
it
tl
elat
eforourdat
e
t
oday.
..Justwokeupsosorr
y.
Zwel
i
:it
'sokayMamaul
elekahl
ekodwa?
Me:y
es,kodwaweendedupget
ti
ngdr
unky
est
erday
myheadisheav
yri
ghtnow.
..
Zwel
i
:Iknowbabyy
oucal
l
edme.
▶Hel
i
ghtl
aughed.
Zweli
:wecancancel
ify
ouwantt
o.Sasai
sst
il
la
day
Me:
Ical
l
edy
ou?
▶Hai
bo.
..Mi
nacal
lzwel
ihow?
?When?
?
Zweli
:yeahIthi
nkaround1am t
alki
ngabouthow
muchy oulov
emeandy ou'
l
lneverhur
tme. .
.I
act
uall
yenjoyedtal
ki
ngtoDrunkZamor e.
▶Ohmy .Goodnessno,
whatist
his.
..DidIlegi
tcal
l
thisni
ggadr unk.
..Whywoul
dIdothat..
.I'
m so
disgust
ing.
Me:
thi
sisembar
rassi
ng.
Zwel
i
:YazUbut
hini
?
Me:
NononoDon'
ttel
lme.
..
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Zwel
i
:zok'
tshel
awhenwesi
tt
inginourt
abl
e..
.
Hambogezakemamaandgetready.
Me:
nowIwantt
oknowkut
hibeng'
thi
ni.
.
▶ Ij
ustwant
edtoknowkut
hiIdidn'tspeakabout
Vi
nce.
.Phel
aIdon'
tremembercall
ingthisguy.
▶Zwel i
imi
tat
ingme"Zweli
pleasedon'
tbreakmy
hear
t,Ir
eal
l
yloveyou.
..Doyouloveme?..Please
don'
tbr
eakmyheart
..Someoneal
readydi
dthat
pl
easedon'
tdoi
t"
Me:
Isai
dthat
..
.I'
m soembar
rassi
ng
▶Zwel
il
aughed.
Zwel
i:t
here'
smore.
..AndIcan'
twai
ttoweart
hecap
Youboughtme.
Me:Ialsot
oldy
ouaboutthecap?.
.Thatwas
supposedt
obeasurpr
ise..
.
▶I '
m suchacl own. .Whati fIactual l
yslippedand
toldhim aboutVi nce...DidIcall Vincetoo. .
.?
?Fuck
myl i
fe.
.Weendedt hecal l
..
.AndIcal l
edVi nce
i
mmedi atelytoclar i
fythings.Andunf or
t unatel
yI
didn'
tcal l
him Ionl ycal l
edZwel i.
..lasttalkedto
Vincear ound11y esterdayatdi nnerwhenIt exted
him goodni ght
...Whyt hehellwillIdrunkcal lzwel
i.
..
YhoI '
m sogoneIr eall
ylov ethi
sguynowIcan' tdeny
i
t.

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT84

▶14: 55justfini
shedapplyingli
pglossIlookso
cute.
..I'
m wear i
ngasummerdr essi t'
sawhitedr
ess
i
thaspi nkflowersalloverit,
hasasl itandmyboobs
cameoutt oplay.
..Il
ooklikearichy oungwif
eZweli
hastol osehismi nd.
..Ismi l
edatmy sel
fbef
ore
standingupt otakemybagandr equestanUber.
..
Myphoner ings
Me:
Hel
l
o..
.
Vi
nce:
Mami
,wud?
Me:
ahmmm not
hinghect
ic,
why?
Vi
nce:
good,
comewat
chsoccerwi
thmeImi
ssy
ou
somuch
▶Ohshi t,ahmm Ineedtocomeupwi thagoodlie.
..
.
I'
l
lsayI'm goi
ngtochurch?No.
.I'
m cookingl
unch?
Shitahmmm I '
l
lsayI'
m baki
ngyeahbaking
Christ
masi scoming.
..Yhowhatawackl i
ewhat
shouldIsay??
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
.
Me:I'
dlovet
okodwaIcan'
tbabyyouknowI'
m
hangedandI'
m st
il
li
nbedcanyouimagi
ne.
..
Vince:t
hatsucks...OkayI
'l
lseeyoulat
er?Maybe
you'l
lbefeel
i
ngf inethenevenifi
t'
sfor2mins.
..I
j
ustwannaseey ou.
Me:
I'
ll
seebaby
..
.Tal
klat
erIl
ovey
ou
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oo.*
cal
lended*
▶Icr ossedmyar msandl ookedatmy sel
finthe
mirror.
..Idon'tli
kewhatIhadj ustdid.
..Il
ied.
..Andit
cl
ickedt hatthiswil
lbemynewl if
eIwi lll
i
elieli
e..
AndI '
m notagoodl i
ar.
..Thiswi ll
catchupt ome. .
.
Myphoner anganddi st
ur bedmyt houghts..
.
Zwel
i:Ntombikayi
sebengkwazi
saukut
hiseng'
suki
l
e
emagcekeningyeTashasmanje.
Me:
I'
ll
beoutsoon.
..
Zwel
i
:Can'
twai
ttoseey
ou.
Me:
met
oo.
..
*cal
lended*
▶Enj
oyt
hismoment.
..
.Snapoutoft
hisl
i
ethi
ng.
..
It'
sjustwhit
eliesforgetaboutVi
nceforami nute..
.
Ifyougetcaughty ou'l
lchooseoneofthem,simple..
.
Myconsci ousnessmanagedt oconvinceme, I
snappedoutofi tabout15mi nut
eslaterIar
ri
vedat
Tashas.Iwal kedin
Wai
ter:
Hel
l
oma'
am,
tabl
efor1?
Me:
Hi,
ahmmm
▶Il
ookedar
oundf
orZwel
i
,sawhi
m
Me:
No,
Myboy
fri
endi
sther
e
▶Boyf
ri
end?Feelsweirdtosayi
toutloud.Iwentup
t
ohim.
.Hest oodup.
..Inoti
cedther
ewasar edrose
i
nthet
able.
.Hewenti nforahugandwehugged.
Me:
Hi
Zwel
i
:yhonkosazana.
..
▶Helookedatmel
i
keIwast
hemostper
fectt
hing
onear
th.
Zwel
i
:Thi
sisf
ory
ou
▶Hepi
ckedupt
her
oseandgav
eitt
ome.
Me:
ncooht
hanky
ou.
..
▶Am Isupposedtosmelli
t?That
'swhattheydo
mosinthemov i
es.
..Ahywenadon'tbedumbI
r
epri
mandedmy sel
f.Webothsatdownandt he
momentoureyesmetwebot hsmiled.
..Il
i
ght
l
aughed
Me:
andIgoty
out
his.
▶Igav
ehim hi
sNYcapt
hatIboughtf
orhi
m.I
twas
i
nagif
tbag.
Zwel
i
:Iwonderwhati
sinher
e..
Me:
youknowwhati
tis.
..
Zwel
i:
angi
thi
nkosazanauthei
twassupposedt
obe
asur
pri
se.
.SoI'
m act
ingl
ikeIdon'
tknow
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
mxm
Zwel
i
:hahat
hanky
ou.
.Il
ovei
t.
..
Me:
puti
ton
Zwel
i:
I'
m weari
ngafor
mal.
..Idon'
tknowi
facap
andashi
rtgohandi
nhand
Me:
theydo
Zwel
i
:theydo?
Me:
yeah
Zwel
i
:Nomzamo
Me:
okay
..I
'
m ki
ddi
ng.
..howar
eyou?
Zweli
:happy.
..YouknowIneverthoughtt
hiswould
happen.
.Iassumey out
hatI
'mt hemosthappiest
Zulumanonear th.
Me:
ohy
eah?
Zwel
i
:yebo,fi
rstt
imewemetyoudi
dn'
tev
enwant
metolookatyou,youhat
edme.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
.YazIwasgoi
ngt
hroughsomeshi
t
Zweli
:Iknow,Iunderst
and.
..umuhl
eNt
ombi
kay
iseI
can'
tstopstar
ing.
..
Me:
canIaskwhyy
oucal
l
ingmet
hat
?
Zwel
i
:becausey
ou'
readaddi
esgi
rl
.
Me:
oht
rue.
▶Wai
tercameupt
ous.
Wai
ter
:Sor
ry,
Goodaf
ter
nooncanIt
akey
ouror
der
?
May
besomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Me:
I'
ll
hav
ewat
erwi
thl
emonf
ornow
Zwel
i
:Hei
neken
Wai
ter
:owkay
y.
▶Hel ef
t.Hei
neken?Reall
ynotBlackl abelnyanahe
hadtoor derHei
nekenthatremindedmeofVi nce..
.
Yowe.Ourdr i
nkscame.Weal soor deredfood,he
orderedabottl
eofRedwi netheconv ersat
ionsjust
keptflowingwecouldn'
tstoptal
king,makingey e
contactthensmil
ing.
..I
twasf un.
Me:
stop
Zwel
i
:what
?
Me:
looki
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
.
▶Zwel ihadthisl
ookhegavemewhenIst art
ed
tal
ki
ngt hatshowedthathewasl
isteningi
twasso
charminghe'drunhi
sfinger
sonhisupperlip
concentrat
ingonwhatIwassayi
ng...YhoIjust-
Zwel
i
:how?
Me:
Ital
kal
otne.
.Ishoul
dshutup.I
t'
syourt
urnt
o
t
alknow
Zwel
i
:youdot
alkal
otact
ual
l
y.
Me:
Ah
▶It
hrewanapki
nathi
m
Zwel
i:
I'
mjoki
ng.
..I
'
mjoki
ng.
..CanIt
ell
you
somet
hing
Me:
yes
Zweli
:anymomentamancanwalki
nandtakehi
s
roseback,
hewi
llpr
obabl
ybeatmeupabi
t.
..
▶Iwasconf
used.
.SoIf
rowned
Me:
why
?
Zwel
i
:becauseIst
olet
hisr
ose
Me:
youdi
d?
Zwel
i
:Icanexpl
ain.
..
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:
youst
olei
t?Ser
ious?
Zweki
:Iwasonmywayhere.
..ThenIsawbeaut
if
ul
fl
ower
satsomefl
owershopIwantedtobuya
bunchoft hem kodwaimagineaZulumancarr
ying
i
mbal iendlel
eni
,thatdi
dn'tmakesensetome.So
ngathathaoneandIputi ther
e(heopenedhi
s
j
acket)andIwal kedoutofthest
ore.
Me:
Zwel
i
!
▶Ishookmyheadandl
aughed.Hechuckl
ed.
Zwel
i
:Ienj
oyedt
his.
Me:
met
oo.
Zwel
i
:Il
ovey
ouNomzamo
▶Ohno.
.Nott
heLwor
d..
.Ahmmmmm.
..Shi
t.
..
.
Zweli
:Iunder
standi
t'
sst
il
lear
lyandmay
bey
ou'
re
notoverVi
nce.
▶Ichokedonmywi ne,
Ist
art
edcoughi
ng.Di
dthi
s
ni
ggajustsayVi
nce
Me:
Vince?
Zwel
i
:yeahi
sn'
tthaty
ourex'
sname?
▶Ex?Ohboyl
olonl
yify
ouknew.
Me:
iti
s..
.Ahmmm.
..Ij
ustcan'
tsayIl
ovey
ou.
..I
tis
soon.
..
Zweli
:it
'sokay
..
.JustknowthatIl
oveyouandmy
i
ntent
ionsarepure.
.Iwantt
omakey ouhappyand
l
oveyou...
▶Ismiled.Around7pm Zwel i
drovemehome. ..We
par
ked2housesf r
om myhousebecausemydad
wil
lnot
icethatthecarbelongstoMalumsi fhesees
i
tandstartaskingquesti
ons.AndIdon'tknowwhy
weareont hi
sst r
eetVincecanpassanyt i
me,Muzi
oroneofVincesf r
iendscanpassanyti
me. .
.
Me:
Ihav
etogonow.
..
Zwel
i
:ahmm y
eah.
Me:
yeah.
..
Zwel
i
:comeher
e..
.
▶Hegrabbedmychi
nandsl
owl
ypul
l
edmet
owar
ds
hi
m..
.Wekissed.

▶Mondaymorni
ng,Iwokeupdidmymor ni
ng
r
out
ineonl
yateBananaandanappl
eforbreakf
ast
Mysibl
i
ngsandIwereint
hekit
chenbecause
Thembawasmaki ngmuf f
insforbreakfastdon'
t
knowwhot aughthim butapparentlyhesawon
YouTubeandnowhe' sconv i
ncedt hathecanbake.
..
ThandoandIwer esit
tingonthekitchencounter
watchi
ngourLilbrot
herinaction.
..Itwasaround
10:56.
..
Me:
woahwoah.
.Whyy
ouaddi
nggr
apej
uicei
n
t
her
e
▶If
rowneddi
sgust
ed.
Thando:
Ohhel
lno.
.I'
m notgonnaeatt
hat
Themba:
trustt
hepr
ocess.
..t
rustme.
Me:
yho.
..
▶MyDadwal
kedi
n.
Dad:
AuntGl
ori
aiscomi
ngt
oday
..
.
Me:
Cant
hisdaygetanywor
se?
?
Thando:
Yhoooooooo.
..Today
?I'
m goi
ngbackhome
▶Dadl
aughed.
Dad:
that
'sy
ourAuntnj
alo.
.Mysi
ster
.
▶Thandoshookherhead.
..
Themba:
Ilov
eAuntGl
ori
a.
Me:
Ofcour
sey
oudo.
..
▶Ev eryonehasanauntGl ori
ai nthei
rfami ly.
..Aunt
Glor iaisthatMam' khul
uwho' sannoy i
ng. .
.
Uy athumanaandal way scompl ai
nsabout
somet hi
ng..Alwaysi neverybody '
sbusi ness..
..She'
s
comi ngov erbecauseev eryyearont he16t hof
Decembermydadhost saf ami l
ygather i
ngofsome
sor t."OfsomeSor t"becausemydad' sf r
iendscome,
evenMal umsnaboSes' thoko, nei
ghbor smyf ri
ends
soi ti snotexactlyaf ami l
ygat heri
ngit'
sj usta
gat her i
ngorapar tyIdon' tknow.Mydadcal l
sita
fami lygat her
ingHel ov
eshost i
ngi t
..
.t
hisy earwe
didn' tplanittogetherhepl annedi twithGr acethank
Godsomebodyt ookmypl ace.
Me:
soev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngokaydad?Pl
anwi
se?
Dad:yeah.
..Wejusthav
et owaitforWednesday
now..
.We'r
egoingbigthisyearbumpingcastl
es,DJ
yeah.
..
Me:
woahwai
taDJ?
Thando:
bumpi
ngcast
le?Hai
boBaba
▶Thembal
aughed.
Me:
why
?
Dad:we'
redoingbigt
hingsthi
syearsweet
hear
t.
.Bi
g
thi
ngs.I
fIcancloset
her oadnj
eIwil
l
Me:
DadNo.
▶ThishasGrace'
snamewrit
tenal
lov
erit
..DJt
hat
's
pushi
ngit
..
.YhooobutnowIcan'
twai
t.
Me:Ahyl
etmel
oveandl
eav
eyouIhav
etobe
somewher
e
Dad:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
somewher
e,dadcanIhav
e5.
..
Dad:
5?
Themba:
hun
Thando:
dred
▶Theset
woar
est
upi
d..Wel
aughed.
..
Dad:
Idon'
thav
e500angithiyoutwof
ini
shedmy
MondayonSat
urdayandspent.
..
Me:R7326Iknow.
..Bef
orey
oust
arty
ell
i
ngatme
agai
n
Dad:
R7326i
sal
otofmoney
..Kodway
ouguy
s
ni
bo.
..
Thando:
yhoy
hoy
ho.
..
▶West
oodupandl
eft
..
..Notanot
herR7326l
ect
ure.
.
Thando:Icangiv
eyout
heR500onl
yify
ou'
l
lpayme
back.
..Uyaphi
?
Me: Vi
ncesof f
ice...If
eelsobadhereall
ywantedt
o
seemey est
erdaykodwaIcoul dn'
tbecauseIhada
dat
ewi thZweli...Sotomakeituptohim.I'
m goi
ng
totakehim out..IonlyhaveR150
Thando:
youhav
eR150ngoDecemberongaka?
Me:
mtasekur
ough.
..
Thando:
okayIwi
l
ltr
ansf
eri
ttoy
ounownow.
..
▶Shegoti nt
oherr oom Iwenttomi neIcalledVince
anhouragohesai dhewasi ntheoff i
ceandwi ll
probablybet
herethewhol eday.
.SoIwi l
lj
ust
surpri
sehim.
..It
ookof fthecl
othesIwaswear ing
offandIputonabl ackJeanskirt,
whi teairfor
ce
sneakers,awhi tetoptookmysl i
ngbag. .AndIfi
xed
myf ace...RequestedanUber .
..goingtoVinces
wor kcostmeR150al lmymoney .
.I'
m offi
cial
l
ya
brokehun.ThandosentmeR500It hankedher
beforeIleft.
..Goti
nsidetheUberandwentt oEskom
Power st
ationgotthereat12:34Vi nceslunchisat
13:00.Gotatt herecepti
on
Recept
ioni
st:
Hel
l
o,howcanIhel
pyou?
Me:
Hi,
ahmmm I
'
m her
etoseeVi
nce.
..Vi
ncentZul
u
Recept
ioni
st:
Pleasewai
tami
nut
e..
.
▶Shecal
l
edhi
sof
fi
ce.
Recept
ioni
st:
Sirt
her
e'say
oungl
adyher
etosee
you.
..
▶Youngl
adyhai
bosi
sidoy
ouknowwhoIam .
..
Recept
ioni
st:
doy
ouhav
eanappoi
ntment
?
Me:
justt
ell
him Nomzamoi
sher
e.
Recept
ioni
st:
Nomz
amoi
shernamesi
r.
..
Okay.
..
Okaysi
r.
▶Shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
.
Recept
ioni
st:
MrZul
uwi
l
lbewi
thy
ou.
.Youcanhav
e
si
t.
Me:
ishebusy
?Ori
nameet
ing?
Recept
ioni
st:
meet
ing.
..
Me:
arghh
▶Isi
ghedandt
ookasi
t.
..

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ary
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NSERT85

▶20mi nuteslaterhewal kedinsidebysi dewith

her.
..YesHERNomal anga. ..Sohewaswi thHERand
hemademewai t20mi nut esforher ?WowI
swallowedahugel umpoft ear
s..
.Theysay
everythi
nghappensf orr easonbutt hisone
happenedt odest r
oymewhenIsawt hem Ilit
eral
l
y
fr
ozeandl ookedatt hem wal ki
ngi nther ecepti
on
areathingsbecamecl eart omet hatICANTKEEP
THISGI RLAWAYFROM VI NCE..Istoodup. ..My
stomacht otall
yfrozeIdi dn'tknowwhatIwasgoi ng
tosayordowhenIwal kedt owardst hem.Vi ncesaw
meandsmi l
ed,agenui nesmi l
eatt hat.
..It'
sthe
samesmi l
eIseeev eryt i
meheseesme. .Hewas
genuinelyhappyt oseeme. .
.Sohei sn't
bothered/scaredthatIcaughtt hem?
Vi
nce:
HeyPr
incess
▶Hekissedmycheekandhuggedme. ..whisper
ed
"
I'
vemissedyou"i
nmyearIfakedasmi le.
.Webr oke
t
hehug..Heheldmeonmywai st
..Funnyenough
hi
m hol
dingmywai sttomeitwaslikehi
m saying"
You'
remine,andIlov
ey oudon'
ttr
ipovershi
tthat'
s
nott
here"si
l
ently
.
Nomal
anga:
HiNomzamo.
▶Shewaswear ingal ongbl azerwitha30i nch
Brazi
li
anthatwasi nf r
ontshef li
ppedi toverand
forwar
dedherhandt ogr eetme...Ilookedatherand
l
ookedatherhand. ..Icrossedmyar msIr efuset
o
greett
hisbit
ch..Ihateher ..
.Idon'tevenwantt ol
ook
ather.
..Orbeinfrontofher .
Nomal
anga:Iguessnot
..Okay
..
.Ahmmm seey
ou
ar
oundVi
nce..Bye
Vi
nce:
Owkay
..
.
▶Whensheputawayherhandandf i
xedherblazerI
noticedhertummy .
.Itwaski ndabigshewas
pregnant.
..Nomalangaispr egnant!
!???.
..Myhear t
startedr
acingmykneesweakened. ..Shesleptwith
Vincedoest hi
smean. .
.Vincedisturbedmyt houghts
whenhet alkedtothereceptioni
st.
Vi
nce:
cany
oubr
ingwat
eri
nmyof
fi
ce.
Recept
ioni
st:
yessi
r
Vi
nce:
Mami
come.
..Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
?
▶Ididn'
tanswerhi
m wej
ustwalkedt
ohis
of
fi
ce..
.Wewalkedi
ntohi
soffi
ceheclosedt
hedoor
Me:
isi
tyour
s?
▶Iaskedhim andIexpectedayesanswer
..
..Ihav
e
r
eser
vedaspacef ordisappoi
ntment
..
.SoIwas
r
eadyforanyt
hing.
Vi
nce:
No,
arey
oucr
azy
?
Me:thenwhat 'st
hisVince?What
'sgoingon?Whyis
shehere?ThoughtItoldy out
ostopdoingbusi
ness
wit
hher .
..Iknewtherewasnobusiness,soshe
comesher ewhen...
..
Vince:cany oufuckencomedown! !.
..Don'
ttal
kto
mel i
ket hatIknowy ou'
rehur
t.
..Andy oudi
dn't
expectto...
Me:don'
ttel
lmet
ocal
m down.
.Whatwasshedoi
ng
her
e???
Vi
nce:
ohmyGod.
.
▶Hesatdownandbur
iedhi
sfaceonhi
shands.
..
Me:
arey
ousur
ethatbabyi
snotYour
s?
Vince:shewasal
readypr
egnantwhenIhadsexwit
h
her.
..Kodwaitmi
ghtaswellbeminesi
nceyoudon'
t
havetimeformethesedays.
..
Me: whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?Imaket
imef
ory
ou
I
'm here
Vince:
Whenwast helastt
imeyouwer
ewit
hme.
..I
l
ivedownthest
reetyouknowI'
m homeby6doy
ou
comeandseemeno. ..Doyoucal
l?
Me:
whymustIcal
lyoucan'
tyou?
Vince:wow.
.ar
eyouseri
ousri
ghtnowNomzamo?I
cally
ouever
yday.
..Someti
mesyoudon'
tpi
ckup.
..
Me: doy ouknowhowmuchy ouhurtmeVince
everyti
mey ou'
rewit
hher..
.It'
sli
kenomatterwhat
youguy salwaysfi
ndawayt oeachotherIdon'
t
wanty outohateheroranythi
ngIknowIcannev er
behery ousharedsomethingspeci
alshewasyour
fi
rstlove..
.
Vi
nce:
nott
hisagai
n..
.I'
mti
redoft
his.
..
..Fuck!
Me:
okayf
ineI
'
mleav
ing.
..
Iwasst
il
lst
andi
ngwi
thmyar
mscr
ossed.
..
Vi
nce:
Noy
ou'
renot
..
.Si
t.
Heindi
cat
edwhereIshoul
dsi
t.
..Ther
ewer
etwo
chai
rshepoi
ntedone.
Me:
don'
ttel
lmewhatt
odo.
Vince:NomzamoSi
tdown.
..Andlowery
ourv
oice
you'r
enottal
ki
ngt
oyourfr
iends.
▶DidInotsitdownqui
etl
y.
..Ifoundt
hatsosexy
doesitmakesense?Hespokesomanl yandyetso
soft
lyIl
ikedt
hat.
.Heputmei nmyplaceandIcoul
d
seethathewastir
edofmyattit
udeandmydramat i
c
ass.
..Hetookadeepsi
gh
Vince:okay
...There'
snothinggoingonbet weenme
andNomal anga..Nothi
ng..Idon'
thavehernumber s
onmyphone, Idon'
thaveheronmyFacebookshei s
notinmyl i
fe..
.Thebabyshei scarry
ingi snotmine,
sheaskedf oraloanmonthsagot ostartabusiness
Igaveittoher.Idon'
tknowwhati sgoi ngon
betweenherandt hebabydaddybutheappar ent
ly
doesn'
twantany
thi
ngt
odowi
tht
hebaby
..She'
son
herown..
.
Me:
Ooohsoy
ou'
ret
heshoul
dert
ocr
yon.
..
Vi
nce:
don'
tdi
stur
bmeI
'
mtal
ki
ng.
▶Hai
bo.
..
Vince:Idon'tcar eifshe'saloneorwhatshehas
fr
iendsandf ami lyshe'sgood.Theonl ythingIcare
aboutismyf ather'sbusiness...Idon'tknowi fshe's
sti
llgoi
ngt ocont inuet odobusi nesswithusornot
i
nt hefuture...Icant el
l theMar ketingteam tonot
hir
ehercat eringser vi
cesagai n...Ifyoudon'twant
hertothatext entI'm nott hekindt ostopsomeone' s
i
ncomebecauseoff eelings,sheal sohast oeat..
..I
knowy out hi
nkIwasi nameet ingwi thher..
.I
wasn't.
..Shehadameet ingwithmymar keti
ngteam
wemeti ntheel evator,IknowherwasIsupposet o
i
gnor eher?
Me:
..
..
Vi
nce:sowej usttal
kedcasuall
yso.Iwon'
thateher,
Iwon'
tstoptalki
ngtoherifIseeherdownthestreet
wearecoolandwewi l
lal
waysbecool..
..I
fyoudon't
l
i
ket
haty
oucandowhaty
ouwantabouti
t.
▶Ijuststaredathi
m Ididn'
tutt
erawor d.
..Hestood
upandcameupt ome...Hestoodnexttomemov ed
mychai randhemademef acehim..Hesquatt
ed
downandhet ookmyhands...
befor
esay i
nganythi
ng
hekissedthem.
Vince:Iloveyou.
..I'
l
lneverbestupi
denoughtohurt
youagai nIpr
omise. .
.Ialmostl
ostyou.
.I'
m sorryf
or
nottell
ingyouallthi
s..
.Ifoundoutaweekagot hat
theyhiredNomalangat ocaterf
orouryearend
functi
on.I'
m sorr
yokay ?
▶Inodded.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
..
.
▶Il
eanedt
owar
dshi
m wehugged
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
▶Mi nuteslaterweweremaki ngjokesandl aughing..
.
Longf or
gottenaboutNomal anga.
..Iaskedhimt o
gooutandhav elunchwit
hme. .Het oldherPAt o
rescheduleallhi
sremaini
ngmeet ingshewast aking
adayof f.Wedr ovetoSpurhewascr avi
ngforribs
andIwascr
avingf
orBuffal
owi
ngs.
..Wegott
her
e
weorder
edfoodandsatdownt
oeat.
Vince:
Sowhaty ou'
resayingtomei st
hatyou'
renot
goingtoat
tendmyy earendfunct
ionbecause
Nomalangaisthecater
er?
Me:
yest
hati
swhatI
'
m say
ing
Vi
nce:
okayt
henwe'
rebot
hnotgoi
ng.
..
Me:
no,
youshoul
dgoar
eyounotl
i
ket
heboss?
Vi
nce:
No.
.Mydadi
s,soy
enahemustgo.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:babyI'
m ser
ious.
.You'
regoi
ngy
ouhav
etodo
nespeech
Vi
nce:
howdoy
ouknowal
lthi
s?
My:becausemydadwasbusyprepar
inghi
sspeech.
.
Hi
sy earendf
unct
ionwasl
astweek.
Vi
nce:Idon'
thaveaspeechpr
epar
ed,
nosui
t,no
pl
usone..
.I'
mjustVi
nce
Me: y
oudon'
tneedaplusone,youcanGoogl
eyour
speech,
andyoucanbuyasuitbefor
eFri
day
Vince:Idon'
tneedapl usone?..
.Ido.
..Andyou'
re
mypl usone.IshouldGooglethespeech?Mami
you'r
esomethingelse
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
Papi
I'
m notgoi
ngt
obey
ourpl
usonemi
na.
Vi
nce:
soy
ou'
regoi
ngt
obuyt
heor?
Me:
you'
renotgi
vi
ngup?
Vi
nce:
Nope
Me:
gosh.
.OkayI
'
llbey
ourpl
usone.
Vi
nce:
youwer
esukel
akdal
anj
e
▶Webothl
aughed,
thewai
tercamewi
thBi
l
l,Vi
nce
t
ri
edt
otakei
t.
Me:
No.
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Hechuckl
ed
Vi
nce:
set
tl
ingt
hebi
l
l.
.
Me:Nononono.
..Nott
oday
..
.Iaskedy
ououtsoI
'
m
pay
ing.
..
Vi
nce:
arey
ouser
ious?
Me:
yes.
..
▶Vi
nceshookhi
shead.
Vi
nce:
Nomzamo.
..
Me:
No.
..
▶Thewai terwaswai tingforust osettl
ethebil
l,she
wasi nfr
ontofus.Vi ncedoesn' twantmet opayf or
anythingathi it
'sthemansr esponsibil
it
ytopayfor
bil
lsorany thingnjeunl essit'
sagi ft
.I'
veneverpaid
forany t
hingi nthi
sr elati
onship..
.Her ef
usesI
rememberonet imewewer eouti boughti
cecreams
forusR20eachhegav emebackmyR40assoonas
wegoti ntot hecar .
..Soit'
llbemyf i
rstt
imepaying
forany t
hingi nthi
sr elati
onship
Me:Igott
hisbaby
..
.
▶Iwi
nkedathi
m..
.Hewassoannoy
ed
Me:
Zul
umen
▶Il
ookedatt
hewai
terandwebot
hlaughed.
Vi
nce:
Mami
arey
ouser
iousl
ypay
ing?
Me:
yesIam
▶Ipai dandwewenthomeonourwayhomehe
couldn'
tstopsaying"sengondli
waumf azi
?Ubaba
angafaimpela"hecouldn'
tbeli
evewhathappenedwe
gotathi spl
acewechi l
ledforabitthenwemade
l
ove...I
twasamazi ng..
.Around9pm Iwent
home. .
.Thandobuzzedmei nIwal kedingoti
nsi
de..
Iheardv oi
cesinthelounge..
.
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:awuzengaphamnt
wanakabhut
i
▶Ohmyf uckenGodshe'
sher
e..
.Shi
tshi
tshi
t.
..
.I
wentt
othelounge.
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:awngekeThembai
gcokeni
ingane.
.
Nomzamo...
?
Me:
Mam'
khul
u?
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:ugcokeni
??
Me:
Ski
rt
..
.
▶Shesi
ppedhert
ea.
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:fut
hinj
eusi
boni
l
eiskhat
hi?Ubuy
aphi
??
ebaf
aneni
???
▶Il
ookedatt
handoshewasdy
ingofl
aught
er.
Aunt'
Glor
ia:bazokuqedaabafananganey ami.Yabo
kut
hi Umuhlenjanibazokuqeda.
..Bazoqedangisho
l
ezinqazakho.
▶Iwi
deopenedmyey
es.
Thando:
Hai
bo.
Me:
AngekeMam'
khul
u
Dad:
Ngi
hlal
aNgi
mkhuza.
▶Mydadi sarat.
..Hewasenj
oyi
ngthi
s..
.YhoI
excusedmysel
fandwenttomyroom..
.Thisi
sgoi
ng
tobealongweekohhelpmeGod.

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ary
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KE,SHAREANDCOMMENT.SEE
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NSERT86

▶TuesdayMor
ningDecember15th06:35.Iheara
l
oudbanginmydoor."boom boom boom"
"
Nomzamo"
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:Zamoo.
..
Me:
whatt
hef
uck.
..
.
▶It
akeasecondt
opr
ocesswhat
'shappeni
ng.
..
Me:
OhmyGodno.
▶Isai
dthist
omy sel
fshewasst
il
latmydoor
.
"
boom boom boom".
..
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:amant
ombazaneawal
ali
kuzekushay
e
l
es'
khat
hi.
▶Iwokeup.
.Wor emygownandunl
ockedmydoor
..
Shewasst
il
lther
e..
.
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:Vukant
ombi
vuka
▶Iy
awnedandscr
atchedmyey
es.
Me:
It'
sst
il
ldar
kout
side.
..What
'shappeni
ng?
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:Vukani
..
.
▶Shel
eft
,Il
eftmydooropen.
..Wentt
ocheckt
ime
onmyphonei
twas06:38
Me:
pleaset
ell
met
hatt
hisi
sn'
treal
..
am Idr
eami
ng?
▶Isatonmybedi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.
..Ihear
dherknockon
Thandosr
oom.
Auny'
Glor
ia:
weeNol
uthandov
uka.
.Angi
kazokuv
usa
kay'
100.
▶Isil
entl
aughed.
..Iwentt
obathby7am Iwas
doneandIwenttoThandosroom.
Me:
Whatt
hef
uck.
..
??
Thando:dudeshehastogo..IHateher
..
..y
hoo
pl
easeI'
m soangryri
ghtnow...I
maginewakingup
at6.
..
6??Arewegoingtoschool?
▶Thandowassopi ssed..
.Webothwerekodwashe
wasworse.
..Thandoloveshersl
eep.
..Webot
hwent
downst
air
s..
.Breakf
astwasserved
Aunt'
Glor
ia:Ni
naMeleni
zongiv
akashel
aiv
iki
el
il
odwanj eeMbumbul
unizobari
ght.
..
Dad:
Goodi
dea.
..BazozangeEast
eruny
akaozay
o
▶Ohhel lno. .
.I'm notgoi
ngthere.
..Yhonev er
..
.I
l
ookedatThandowhowasseat edacr osst hetabl
e.
Thandoi mitatedhanginghersel
f..
.Wesi lent
l
aughed...AfterbreakfastAuntGlori
amadeusmake
umqombot hiI'
v enevermadeit.
.Itsmelledlikepuke,
mixi
ngt heingr edi
entsitwasal ot.
..
.Dur i
ngt heday
Zwelicall
edme.
Me:
HeyBooBear
Zwel
i
:Yougood?
Me:
No,
I'
mjusty
hooIhat
either
e..
.
Zweli
:Isawyourst
atuses.
..Wannar
unawayf
rom
AuntGlori
a?
Me:
shei
swat
chi
ngmel
i
keahauk.
..Can'
trun.
..
Zwel
i
:that
'ssadmeandt
hisMc'
fl
urr
ywi
l
lmi
ssy
ou.
.
Me:
huh?
Zwel
i
:By
ebaby
..Wor
klapho
Me:
Zwel
i
▶Iswal
l
owedsal
i
va,
Iwasr
eal
l
ythi
nki
ngaboutt
hat
Mc'f
lurr
ynowandIwascr avingfori
t.
.Itwasahot
daytodayandAunt
'Gl
ori
adi dn'
twanttoseeus
chi
ll
i
ng...YhosoaMc'
Flur
r ywill
begood
Zweli:
What?..I
maginethoseti
nnycooki
esmel
ti
ng
i
ny ourmouth.
.Thedeli
ciousst
rawber
ry
sauce..
mmmh. .
Me:
I'm gonnacry.
..
.br
ingmeThatMc'f
lur
rynowI'
ll
r
unifIhaveit
..YhooI'
m cr
avi
ngfori
tsomuch...
Zwel
i
:I'
m out
side.
..
▶Woah.
.Hol
don.
.out
side?
Me:
howar
eyoual
readyout
side?
Zwel
i
:justcomeZee.
..
▶IcheckedCoastlookedf orAunt'
Glori
alef
tand
ri
ght..
.Iny
onyobadout si
de..
..WhenIwalkedoutt
he
gateIwenttoZweli
..
.knockedont hewindowand
gotinsi
deMalumscar .Ifoundzwelichuckl
i
ng
Me:
what
..Whati
sit
?Whyy
oul
aughi
ng?
Zwel
i:youlooksoscar
edandconf
usedIdon'
tknow
ngat
hiusandakuphumaej
ele
▶Webot hlaughed.
..Iwasreal
l
yworr
iedthatt
hey
mightcat
chmet ryi
ngtorunawayl
uckil
ynoone
sawme.
Zwel
i
:thi
sisf
ory
ou.
▶Hehandedmetwocupsofmc'f
lur
rytheOreo
f
lav
ourandt
hecooki
esandst
rawberr
yflav
our
Me:
2?
Zwel
i:youst
il
ldon'
tknowwhi
choney
oul
ovemost
soIboughtt
wo.
Me:
thankssohowar
eyout
oday
?
▶Ist
art
edeat
ing.
Zwel
i
:no.
..Ar
eyouf
orget
ti
ngsomet
hing?
▶Weglancedateachot
herandsmil
ed.
..
Ileaned
ov
ert
ohissideandIgav
ehim aki
ss.
..
Me:
you'
resomet
hingel
se
▶Ismi l
ed..AnhourlaterIwentbackinsi
dethe
house.IfoundAunt
'Gloriawait
ingformeinthe
ki
tchen..
.Shesawmebuzzi ngmy sel
fin.
..
Aunt
'Gl
ori
a:uv
elaphi
?
Me:
Ahmmmm.
..
Aunt'
Glor
ia:
ngikunikaumsebenziwenaubonenj
e
kunconoukuthiubaleke?Uv
elakuphiNomzamo?
Me:
YazAunt
iebekuno.
..
.
▶Gr aceandmydadwal kedi n,Isawt hatasan
opportunityformet or unandIdi dIranformyl i
fe.
..
Thedayendedpr ett
ylate.Around10meandmy
cousinsandsomeofmyf ri
endsKhomot soand
Lesego, Lesegowhohasbeenaf ri
endfrom whenI
usedt oliveinMamel odi camet othegatheri
ng
Khomot socomesev eryyeart hat'
smyhomi e.Sowe
wereal l
out si
dear oundaf i
rebusyl aughi
ngandj ust
havi
nggener alconversations.
Lesego:Zeerememberi ngrade8youhadacr ush
onsomewhi t
eguy.
..Ididn'
tknowhim becauseIgo
toalocalschool
butZeeupdat edmeabouthi m
every
day..I
twassocr azy.
Khomot
so:basi
call
yyou'
veal
way sbeenasf
ebe
andwhydi
dn'
tIknowaboutyourcrush?
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Me:
Hai
boawhi
teboy
?Idon'
tremembert
his.
▶Iwasl
yi
ng.
..
.
Lesego:
youwenttoPr
om wi
tht
heguy
..
.Konj
e
what'
shisname?Ahmmm
Pr
eci
ous:
Nat
han?
Khomot
so:
youhadacr
ushonNat
han?
?Zamor
e!!
▶Shel
aughed.
Me:Icanexpl
ain.
..Iwasyoungpleasedon'
ttel
lthe
ot
hersaboutt
his.
..Theywil
llaughatme
Khomotso:
younaught
yli
tt
legi
rl
..
..Ican'
tbel
i
eve
thi
s..
.
Me: becauseitwasjustaninnocentcr
ush.
..Il
ater
becamef ri
endswithNatashasoy ahthewhole
crushended.
Lesego:shecr
ushedonhi m becauseheappeared
outofnowhereandhelpedZamor egotothecor r
ect
cl
asssinceshewasl ost
..
.Sheusedt osayNathan
washerKnightshi
ningarmor.
Thando:
ohohohIr
emembert
his.
..Andr
emember
whenshef oundhisFacebookname.
..FuckZamor
e
wastakenbyNat hanitwascutet
henbutnowYeses
hi
lar
ious.
▶Theyl aughedatmesohar d...ButIdidn'
tcar e
Nathani sagoodf r i
endnow...Hewasmyf i
rstcrush
though...Anywayt henightendedIshar edabedwi t
h
LesegoandKhomot sowhi l
eThandoshar edt hebed
withtheot hers.
..
.16thofDecemberMor ningIwoke
uppret t
year l
yandIheadeddownst airstogetsome
water..
.IfoundGr aceinthekitchenhav ingagl ass
ofwat eralso.
..
Gr
ace:
Hey
..
.Mor
ning
Me:
Mor
ning.
..
.
▶Iwentt
othef
ri
dge.
..
Gr
ace:
howar
eyout
hismor
ning?
Me:
I'
m good.
.You?
Gr
ace:
Good.
..
▶Inodded.
..
Me:
Good.
..
▶Akwar
dsi
l
enceandmoment
.
Gr
ace:
Soo.
..I
sVi
ncecomi
ngt
othepar
ty?
▶Ichokedwhi
l
egul
pingmywat
er.
Me:
W-what
?
Grace:Ishoul
dn'
thav
easkedit
snonofmybusi
ness
sorr
y..YouknowI'
mt r
yingt
omakeaconv
ersat
ion
Me:andi
tsnotwor
king.
..
.t
hatwaswei
rdwhywoul
d
youaskmeaboutmyboyfri
end?.
..
Gr
ace:
Sor
-.
..
▶Iwal kedoutoft heki
tchenbef or
et hi
ngsgotal ot
weirderthant heyalr
eadywer e..
..
Idon'ttal
ktomy
dadaboutVi nce.
..Orumj olowhywoul dItalkt
oher..
Bathong...Igotintomyr oom wenttot heshower
andIwor emybl ackAdidast r
acksuitandallwhit
e
Adidassneaker s.WhileIwasbusyget ti
ngdressed
Thandoknockedi ntomyr oom
Me:
Justwokeup?
Thando:
Yeah.
..Howdi
dyousl
eep?
Me:
Good.
..Howabouty
ou?
Thando:Yourcousinssleepli
keNi nj
asyhoahy .
..I
fit
i
sn'ttheotheronekicki
ngme. .Theotheroneis
tal
kingaboutCheeseandt heotheroneont hefl
oor
tal
kingtohisboyfr
iend.
.Ididn'
tsleepmtase..
▶Shesatonmybedgr
umpymumbl
i
ng.
..
Me:
shhhy
ou'
l
lwaket
hem up
Thando:
Noomaar
nev
ery
onemustwakeup.
..
▶Shest
art
eduncov
eri
ngt
hem.
..Andmaki
ngnoi
ses
Me:
Thando!
▶Il
aughed
Thando:
Yeeyy
eeyy
eeyt
hisi
snotahot
el.
..Upup
up!
!!
Khomot
so:
Whatt
he.
..Thandomaar
n.
▶Sherubbedherey
esandt
urnedar
oundt
osl
eep
somemore.
Lesego:
Thandouzokhal
ast
ru.
..
Thando:
Ngzobi
zauAuntGl
ori
a
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
..
Lesego:Yhot
hatonedoesshehav
eki
ds?
Me:
Yes2bakhul
i
let
hough
Lesego:
I'
m suretheyhadatoughupbr
ingi
ng.
..That
womeny el
lsfornoreason
Thando:
Bruh.
..Yester
dayshekeptonsayi
ngwewil
l
dri
nkuMqombot hisotheymustputi
tawayIwas
l
ike.
..
▶Shemadea"
whatt
hef
uckf
ace"
Me:thedi
srespecti
maginedr
inki
ngMqombot
hi.
Okok'
cal
aitsmellsl
ikey
hoIdon'tknow.
Lesego:
Ihear
ditsl
aps
Me:
Noway
ss
Khomotso:I
tdoesact
ual
l
y..
.wi
thMay
othough.
..
al
onenahitt
astesl
i
keshi
t.
Me:
fri
endy
oudr
ankMqombot
hianddi
dn'
ttel
lme?
Khomot
so:
Hawuwhatwer
eyougoi
ngt
odo?
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..
▶Shel
aughed
Khomot
so:
Mxm.
..
▶Khomot soandLesegowokeup, f
ixedthebedand
wentontotakeashower.
..Thandowentbackt oher
r
oom..Wehadbr eakf
astaround9.
..Afterbr
eakfast
wehelpedcook,cl
eananddecorat
et hetabl
es.
Messagenoti
fi
cati
ononmyphone
Capi
tec:
Payment+R10000.00i
ntoSAVI
NGS
ACCOUNT;RefPAYMENTFROM V. SZULU;
Avai
l
R10026.
56;
16-Dec.I
nfo0860102043
▶Iwaswashi ngdishes.
..Sawthemessageandmy
mindwasbl ownoutIcouldn'
tbeli
evewhatIwas
seei
ng.
..Icall
edVi
ncei mmediatel
y..
.
Me:
Papi
whati
sthi
sfor
?
Vince:
it'
sfory
ou.
..
toenj
oyy
ourDecember
.Happy
holi
daysbaby
Me:
happyhol
i
day
s?.
..Vi
nce
▶Lmao.Niggasai
d"happyhol
i
days"so
nonchal
ant
lyl
i
kehesentR1hai
bo
Vi
nce:
What
?
Me:
youcan'
tsendmet
ent
housandRandsandsay
i
t'
sforj
ustnj
e?
Vi
nce:
whynot
?
Me:
No.
..what
'st
hecat
ch?Thi
sist
oomuch
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:Mami I
'
m aboutt
otogofet
chMuzi
att
he
ai
rpor
tcal
lyouwhenIcomeback.
..
Me:
VinceNoo.
..
ist
hisaboutl
astweekatt
he
r
est
aurant
.
Vince:Mami .
..I
t'
syoursIwantyoutohav eityoucan
dowhat everyouwantwithit
..
.It
'snotaboutthe
restaur
antIdidn'
teventhi
nkaboutit.
..Ij
ustsentthe
money .
▶Icouldn'tbelieveitmaar
n10t housandinmybank
account
.Basi call
yI'
mr i
chli
ke.
.Rich..
.ngcel
a
ni
ngangikhulumi siI
'
mr i
ch.
..Ri
chgang.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
..
okay
Me:
don'
ttal
ktomeI
'
mri
ch
Vi
nce:
oooh
▶Webot
hlaughedandt
hecal
lended.
..
Idi
dn'
tshow
anyoneIt houghthewoul dt akei tback...I'
venever
receivedthatamountmyent ir
elife..
.I'
v eneverseen
thatamounti nmybankaccount ...Iwasev enafr
aid
tousei torment ionittoany one. .
.Ar ound11am we
wer edonepr eparingitwasnowt i
met opar tyand
enjoyDayOfReconci li
ation.Khomot soandIbat hed
together..
.Iwor eapai rofwhi teSt ansmi ths,a
blackJean, awhi tet-
shirttuckedi tinandabl ack
Jeanj acketont opandkhomot sowor el i
kemebut
shewor ebluejeansandabl uejacketi nsteadof
black..
.Wewer einthemi r
rorappl y i
ngmakeup
whenPr eci
ous(mycousi n)wal kedi n
Pr
eci
ous:
Zwel
ii
sher
e.
Me:
Yeah.
..Iknow
▶Khomot
soandPr
eci
ousl
ookedatme.
.
Me:
what
?
▶Khomot
soshookherhead
Khomotso:sohowi sthisgoi
ngtounf
old?Youwil
l
tal
ktoeachotherli
kelover
soryouwil
lhidei
tfr
om
yourdads?WhatifVincecomes?
Me:
hewon'
tcome.
..Pr
eshdi
dheaskaboutme?
Lesego:
havi
ngtwoboyf
ri
endskumnandi
ne.
..Look
atyourf
aceal
lsmi
leysmil
ey.
..
Khomotso: andwhenVincecal
lsshei
salsot
his
happy
..
..Ihonest
lydon'
tli
kethi
sZamore.
Me:
Yho
▶Istoodupandl ef
therthere.
..Iwasnotgoingto
getanother"
Zamorechoose1"l ect
ure.
.when
ni
ggascheatpeopleclaphandsnowt hati
t'
sme
ngi
yi'
SfebeandI'
m wronghay i
..
.Khomotsofol
lowed
meandweent er
edinthestudyroom..
Khomotso:deepdowny ouknowwhaty ou'
redoi
ng
i
swrong..
.Imaginei
fVi ncedidt hi
stoyouwith
Nomalanga.
..
.Stopthist hi
ng..
.Ifyoudon'
tknow
whotochoosetakeabr eakfrom t
hebothofthem..
Andmakey ourdeci
sion...
Me:Iwi
shyoucouldstopj
udgi
ngmekhomot
so.
..
I
t'
snotl
ikeI
'
m goingtomarryt
hem
Khomotso:
areyousur
e?Nomzamo, Vi
nce
i
ntr
oducedyout
ohisparent
s,mety
ourdad,he
i
nvestsi
ny ou.
.Hesuppor t
syou..Andallt
hatother
shi
thedoes..Doesn'
titcl
icktoyouthatheseesa
fut
urewit
hy ou?Doesn'ti
tcli
ckthathecanmarry
youanyt
ime..He'
s25y earsold.
.Heisnotplayi
ng..
.
Whatyou'
redoingisMaddumbandy ouknowit..
..
Me:
Iknow.
..Iknow.
.I'
l
lst
op.
..
Khomotso: when?You'
repl
ayi
ngwi
thpeopl
esmi
nd
andfeel
ingshere.
..
Me:
..
..
.
Khomot
so:
soi
sitZwel
iorVi
nce?
Me:
CantodayendthenI'
l
lmakeadeci
sion
t
omorr
ow..
.Please.
.Nott
oday
..
.
Khomot
so:
Ow.
.Tomor
row?
Me:
YesTomor
rowIpr
omi
sey
ou.
▶Tobehonest .
..Idi
dn'twantt omakeadecisi
on.
..
Itwasaneasyone. ..
.Becausei fagunwasputon
myheadandIwasaskedt ochooseIwould'
ve
chosenVince.
..Butnowt her
e'snoguninmyhead..
.
Theballi
sinmycour t
..
.AndI '
m enjoy
ingthi
sgame..
.
Ienj
oyitsomuch.I tfeelsgreattobelovedand
cherisheddiff
erentl
ybyt woguy s..LosingZweliwill
obv i
ouslymakemesadbecauseourSoul sgenuinel
y
mat ch..
.Butlosi
ngVi ncewil
lkillme.Khomot soand
Igotoutoft heStudyr oom wewentont ojoi
nthe
others..
.Itwasar eal
lyfunday..Seei ngmydad
l
aughi nghappyanddanci ngwi t
hGr acemyf ri
ends
enjoying.
.Theact i
vit
iesweplay ed..Iwassohappy
couldn'thaveaskedf oranyt
hingmor e.

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aughswereshared,new
bondswer emadei twasabeaut i
fuldayatthe
NtshangaseResi denceI twas6pm nowwewer ej
ust
sit
ti
ngint hetentdrinki
ngalcoholandsmoki ng
hubbly.
..Youknowj ustagroupofteenagershavi
ng
fun.
..Zwelicall
edmeusi ngahandgest ur
e.
Me:
Excuseme.
.
▶Hewasst
andi
ngneart
hegat
e.
Me:
Hey
..
.
Zwel
i
:Hey
..
.Wel
lsomeonehasbeenav
oidi
ngme.
Me:
Me?No.
..
Zweli
:yougreetedmeearl
ier
..Awkwar
dlysoand
l
eft
..
.Andy ou'
renotr
espondingtomytext
son
whatsapp
Me:I'
m havi
ngabusyday
..
.YouknowAuntGl
ori
a
busysendi
ngmelenale.
..
Zwel
i
:owkay
..Wel
lIwasj
ustl
ett
ingy
ouknowt
hat.
..
▶Hi
spar
ent
sappear
ed.
Mal
ums:
Zamoni
j
amal
eni
esangweni
..
.
Zwel
i
:hahahangy
aval
eli
saBaba.
..
Aunt'
Sarah:
Sal
ekahleZamo.
..
Mam'khul
uwakho
uyangi
tshel
aukut
hinguweowenzeumqombothi
?
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Mina.
.ChaIwasj
usthel
pingnj
e
Aunt
'Sar
ah:
okaysi
siusal
ekahl
euy
eva.
..
Me:
OkayMa
▶Shegav
emeahug.
Mal
ums:
Ngasi
l
indi
sikeZwel
i
banzi
emot
weni
Zwel
i
:YeboBaba.
Me:
Zwel
i
banzi
?
▶Hechuckl
ed
Zweli
:Yes...CanIgetahugi fyoudon'
tmindIknow
we'r
einfrontofal otofpeople.
..I
tmaybe
uncomfortableforyou
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
Noi
tsokay
▶Wehuggedandhegav
emeaki
ssonmyf
orehead.
Me:
trav
elsaf
e
Zwel
i
:I'
l
lcal
lyouwhenIgethome.
▶Wesmil
edateachotherandhel
eft
.Iwentbackt
o
myf
ri
endsandcousi
ns.
Me:
what
'st
hat
?..
..Kamowhatar
eyoudr
inki
ng?
?
Kamo:
cremedel
a'
Mqombot
hi
▶Wel aughed..
.Thi
schildi
sverywi
ld.
.Whodri
nks
Mqombot hiwhenther
e'sGuar
anaandother
bev
erages.
Me:
whyar
eyoudr
inki
ngt
hat
?
Kamo:KhomotsoandLesegodar
edmet
o..
.It
act
ual
l
ytastesni
ce..
.
Me:
itdoes?
..Nof
ri
endi
tdoesn'
t
Kamo:
comet
ryi
t.
.IthasI
cecr
eam
Me:
wai
t.
..wher
edi
dyouguy
sgett
hei
cecr
eam?
Thando:
goodquest
ionMt
ase.
.
Me:
Lesegodi
dyouguystakemyVani
l
lai
cecr
eam.
..
Wowwowwow. .
.Can'
tbel
iev
eyou.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Lesego:
wet
ookj
ustonescoopIpr
omi
se.
..
Khomot
so:
Zamot
ast
eit
..
.
Me:
Nooo.
..I
'
m goodher
e..
.
▶IshowedhermycanofGuar
ana.
Preci
ous:
tast
eitorwewi
l
ltel
lyourdadt
haty
ou'
re
dati
ngZweli
Me:
Hai
bowenj
a
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
doy
ouwantmet
odi
e..
.Yhomydadwi
l
lfl
i
p..
.
Kamo: okayokayIhaveabetterone.
..Tast
eitorwe
wil
ltel
lNathanthatyouhadacr ushonhim andyou
cal
ledhimy ourkni
ghtshi
ningarmor..
.
Me:Whotol
dyouaboutNat
hanKamo?.
..
Khomot
so!!
Khomot
so:
I'
m sor
ryI
'
m sor
ry.
..Ihadt
o
▶Shel
aughed.
Kamo:kni
ghtshi
ningar
mor
??.
..Mar
aNomzamo
ni
nezi
gaYaz
Preci
ous:
arey
oui
magi
ningNat
hani
nakni
ght
unif
orm
Kamo:
yes.
.Hi
m car
ryi
ngt
hosel
ongkni
fes
▶Theyl aughedsohard.
.Mxm Ihav
estupidf
ri
ends
nowt hey'
regoi
ngtomakefunofmeev er
ydayabout
thi
sissue..
.Weconti
nuedtosmokehubblyandj
ust
havefun..
.WealsoateMohoduandIendedup
tast
ingMqombot hi
..
.
Khomotso:
yourdadi
sinl
ovey
errt
odayIsawhi
m
kahl
e.
Me: br
uhIhatemydaddi dy ouhearhim whenhe
saidtheywil
lsendcowst othePetersonfami l
ybut
thecowswillr
eturnbecausetheyspeakAf r
ikaans
ther
eandnotZul u.
..Hethoughthewasbei ngTr ev
or
Noahandthatwasnotf unny .
..
▶Khomot
sol
aughed
Me:
don'
tl
augh.
..
▶Wel
aughedt
oget
her
..
.
Me:
mxm ei
sh.
.Letmegof
etchmyphonei
nmy
r
oom.
▶Istoodupandwenttomyroom...AsIwas
wal
ki
ngt her
emydrunkuncl
e,Uncl
eTerrysawme
Uncl
eTer
ry:
Mshanawozal
a.
Me:
I'
m comi
ngnownow.
.
Uncl
eTer
ry:
He.
emaar
nwozal
ayak'
bi
zaumal
ume.
.
▶Ohmygosh. .
.Iwalkedupt ohi m..
.Hestoodup
andmetmewi t
hahug. .
.Wewal kedtohisfr
iendshe
puthishandsaroundmyshoul derhuggi
ngme. .
.
Thatti
mehei sdrunksobasi call
yheishangingon
meandhewassoheav y.
..Somebodysendhel pand
rescueme..
Uncl
eTer
ry:
Yabonal
o..Mshanam.
▶Ismi
l
edawkwar
dly
..
UncleTerry:Zobashayabonkel
abaf
ana
abakufunayo.
.WenaMel euyeeskol
weniufunde..
.
UbeuDokot el
anjengomawakho.Nges'
ngisibathi
j
ustlikeyourmother.
..
▶Ibl i
nkedandIlookedathi m..Myear smadet hat
zwii
ingsound.
..Heknowsmymom?Henev erever
spokeabouthernobodydoes. .
.Istart
edshaking.
..
Myst omachfeltcol
d...Iwassuddenl yhear
tbroken.
..
Whyi sever
ybodyhidingthi.
..myt houghtswere
dismissedi
mmedi atel
ybyat aponmyshoul ders.
Uncl
eTer
ry:
Angi
shoShana?
Me:
huhy
ouwer
esay
ing?
UncleTerr
y :
AhynganezomodelCleziniy
asizwa
i
s'ngi
sibafethuo"youwer
esayi
ng"..Babakhe
unemali
..
.Bhut ami
Omkhul
uuThemba. .Ni
mbonil
e?
▶Hisfri
endswerejustl
isteni
ngtohim mumbli
ng...I
l
eftmydrunkuncleandwentt ot
heki t
chent
odrink
somewaterbecauseIfeltki
ndadizzyandIwasalso
ti
psyThembawalkedin
Themba:
Zee
▶Ipanickedandt
urnedaroundt
ofacehi
m because
Iwasfacingt
hesi
nk..Ther
ewasnooneinthe
ki
tchenwhenIent
ered..
.
Me:
Yes?
Themba:
didIscar
eyou?
▶Hel
aughed.
.Ij
oinedhi
m
Me:
yes.
..
Themba:
Sor
ry.
..Wher
e'sThando?
Me:
I'
m sur
eshe'
sint
het
enti
sn'
tshe?
Themba:
I'
ll
gocheck
▶ Iwentupstai
rs..
.Igotintomyr oom andopened
thedoor
..
.Can'tthi
sdayj ustgetanyworseorcanit
endkeatleastwhatthef uckisgoingonIcouldn'
t
beli
evewhatIwasseei ng..
.
Me:
Oohshi
t.
..Sor
ry.
.
▶Theyj
umpedandf
ixedt
hemsel
ves.
Me:
don'
tmi
ndme.
..I
'
m her
eto.
..
▶Iwal kedtowar dsmyphoneandt ookit
..
.Ilooked
atthem theyl ookedatmeback. .Ev
ersawaki dwho
hasbeencaughtst eali
ng.
..Theyweresoshockedt o
seeme. .Imagi nebei
ngshockedt oseemei nmy
ownr oom. .
..IwalkedoutandclosedthedoorandI
l
eftthem inpeacei ftheywanttoconti
nue
exchangi
ngsali
vatheycan.
..Iwal
keddownthe
passagelaughi
ng.
..
Khomotsowascomi ngmyway
.
Khomot
so:
andwhyar
eyoul
aughi
ng?
Me:
youwon'
tbel
i
evewhatI
'
vej
ustseen
Khomot
so:
wher
e?.
..What
??
Me:
..
..
Khomotso:waither
eletmegofetchajer
seyi
nyour
room i
t'
sget
ti
ngal i
tt
lecol
dout
side.
..
Me:
No.
.Don'
tgot
her
e!
Khomot
so:
why
?
Me:
let
'sgo.
.
▶ Idr
aggedherdownst
air
s.
Khomot
so:
tel
lmewhat
'sgoi
ngon.
..
Me:
Lesego.
..
Khomot
so:
Lesego?
?Wenzeni
uLesego
Me:
andJason.
..
Khomot
so:
Jason.
..Wai
t.
..Theyar
einy
ourr
oom?
▶Inoddedandst
art
edl
aughi
ngagai
n
Khomotso:You'
rel
yi
ng.
.How?.
..Idi
dn'
tseet
his
onecoming
Me:
met
oo.
Khomot
so:
wow.
..Menne
Me:
menar
etr
ashmyf
ri
end.
..
▶Wel aughedandwentout si
det otel
ltheot hers.
..
Thenightended. ..Weev ent ual
lyallwenttosl eep..I
sl
eptwi thkhomot soont hecouch, Kamol ef
tand
shesleptatChr is'
shouse. ..Lesegoshar edMybed
withJason. .
.Mybedguy simagi ne.
.Wow. ..AndI
honestlycouldn'tsleep..."uzobaudokot el
anj engo
mawakho"keptonr epeat i
ngi t
selfi
nmyhead. .
.
Thursdaymor ni
ngwewokeupat ebreakfastandwe
start
edCl eaningupLesegoandIwer egivent hejob
ofcleaningthey ardpi ckinguppaper sandbot t
les
etc.
..
.
Me:
Howwasl
astni
ghtgi
rl
?
▶Iwi
nkedatherandwel
aughed.
..
Lesego:
...
.
Me:
comeon.
.Outwi
tht
henews.
..
Lesego:
wher
edoIst
art
..
.
Me:didyoutwohavesex?..
.Nostar
tfr
om t
he
begi
nninghowthefuckdidyout
woendupi nmy
bed.
..Idi
dn'
tseethatcoming
Lesego:Met ootobehonest.
..Okay..
.Angishowe
weresitt
ingoutsi
dethegatewithhisfri
endsmusi
c
bl
astingwewer eenj
oyingt
heGat heri
n
Me:
yes.
.
Lesego:SoIexcusemy
selfIwant
edt
ouset
he
toi
let
..Hefol
l
owedme...
Me:
what
???
Lesego:
he'
sli
ke"di
dyouseeZee"
Me:howbecauseyouguysl
eftmeout
sideandIwas
i
nthetent
..
.Thatwashi
sexcuset
ogettoyou?
Lame
Lesego:hawuIwaslikehowarey ouaski
ngmeZee
wheny ouwalkedpassedheratthetent
..
.AnywayI
pl
aydumbandIsaynoIdi dn'
tseehermay beshe'
s
i
nherr oom I
'
m goingther
ewecangoandcheck.
Me:
younaught
ychi
l
d
▶Shegi
ggl
es.
Lesego:sowegetatyourroom andwedon'tfind
you..
.Iusethet
oil
etandIfi
ndhim standi
ng.
..Ahwe
didn'
tspeakorwhatwejustst
artedkissi
ng.
..And
wehadsex. .
.
Me: whaaat
..
.Youhadsex?
??Youdon'
tknowhi
m.
Lesego:Iknowbutheissocut
e..
.
Me:
Lesego.
..
▶Shel aughed,thedaycont i
nued.Wewer enow
donewi t
hev ery
thing,guestsst artedleavingAunt
Glori
aal soleftthankGod, khomot so,precious,my
familyetc..
.everybodystartedleav ingonebyone. .
.
OnlyLesegoandGr acewer est i
llthere..
.wellmy
sibl
ingsar egoingt obeher ethewhol eofDecember
sotheyl iv
eher ebasicall
y..
..Itwasar ound18: 45
nowwear eintheloungewat chingSt arwar s
becauseofThembawhatabor ingmov i
ewewer eall
bored..MydadandGr acear eint hebedr oom. ..
.The
gateringsf or2mi nutesweal l
ignor eit
Themba:
someone'
satt
hegat
eguy
s.
Me:
goandgeti
t.
Themba:
butI
'
m wat
chi
ng.
..
Me:
mxm Ahy
..
.
▶Igetupt ogoandbuzzwhoev eri
satthegat
ein.
..
IseeJason..Bat
hong.
..Il
aughandshakemyhead.
Thando:
whoi
sit
?
Me:
aspeci
alguest
.
▶Ibuzzhi
min..
.Igotot
hedoortowelcomehim
i
n..
.Hei
mmediat
elyl
ooksdownandlet
'soutasmal
l
l
aughwhenheseesme.
Me:
Heeewena.
..
Jay
:what
??Rel
ax.
..
▶Ishakemyhead. .Wewalki
nt hehousewegot o
thel
ounge..
.WhenLesegoseeshim shelookedat
himforabout2secondsandthenshelookedather
phone.
Thando:
Jay
Jay
:Hi
guy
s
▶Theygreet
edback.
..Icoughedast
hingswer
ea
bi
tawkwardnow.
.
Me:
hawuwhat
'sgoi
ngon?
▶Thandol
aughs.
..
Jay
:Zee.
..
Me:
what
??
Thando:
Heeeasazi
..
..
Jay
:I'
m her
etof
etchmymom.
..Wher
eisshe?
Thando:
Upst
air
s..
.Jay
Jay
:yes?
Thando:
Wher
e'sAdaku?
▶Ilaughed.
..Lesegocr
ackedandl
aughedt
oo.
..
Jay
coughed.
Jay
:what
?
Thando:
Wher
e'sAdaku?
Me:
Thando!
!
Thando:
what
?
Jay
:Who'
sthat
?
Lesego:
wowmen.
..
Me:
Ihat
emen.
..
Thando:
Menar
etr
ash.
..
Jay
:Lesegodoy
ouagr
ee.
..
?Ar
eMent
rash?
Lesego:
SomeMenarenottrashbutt
reasur
ejust
l
ikeJay.
..
.You'
reMyt
reasur
e...
Me:
woooowww.
..Igi
veup
▶Wel aughed..Iwonderwher
ethisthi
ngisgoing.
..I
wasmi ssi
ngmyVi ncesoItol
dthem Iwasgoingto
seehi
m andt hatIwascoming..Il
eft.
..

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▶Ibuzzedmy selfoutandwalkedt
othegatet
hen
crossedthest
reetandwalkedtoVi
ncehouse.
..I
call
edhim.
Vi
nce:
Mami
.
Me:
Noi
tst
hepol
i
cesi
ropent
hedoor
.
▶Hechuckl
edandsecondsl
aterheopenedt
he
door
.
Vi
nce:
youpl
ayt
oomuch.
..
Me:
Comeher
eI'
vemi
ssedy
ousosomuch.
▶Iwalkedst
rai
ghttohi
m andburiedmysel
finhis
chestwhi
l
eIwrappedmyar msaroundhi
m he
huggedmeback,wewalkedhandinhandtothe
l
oungewherewesharedamout htomouthkiss.
..
.
Vi
nce:
ahmm babyMu.
..
Me:
Noshhh.
..
.
▶Hepushedmet othecouchandhegotontopof
me,kissi
ngme...Itookoffhi
st-
shi
rt
..Muzi
appearedoutofnowhereandheclearedhi
sthr
oat
.
Vi
nce:
mmhmmhdon'
tmi
ndhi
m.
▶IpushedVi
nceof
fme.
..
andIf
ixedmy
sel
f.
Me:
Muzi
..
..
▶Isi
deeyedVi
nceonsome"whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me
Muzi
isar
ound"
Vince:Don'
tl
ookatmeli
ket
hatIwant
edt
otel
lyou
andy ousai
d"shhhh"
▶Il
aughed.
Muzi:
Igoawayf oramont
hIcomebackandy ou
guy
shav en'
tchangedy
ou'
rest
il
lsexaddi
cts?
Me:
Sexaddi
cts?
?Wow
Vince:Zamoreist
heact
ualsexaddi
cther
e..
.You
should'
veseenhowshecl
imbedonmel i
keahungry
ti
ger.
..
Me:
Vince.
..
▶Il
aughedt
henl
i
ghtsl
appedhi
m..
.Muzi
camet
o
t
hel
ounge.
..
Me:
Sohowwast
heHongKongt
ri
p?
Muzi:
amazing.
..YeyI
'
dtel
lyoumor
eabouti
tbutI
hav
et ogo
▶Hegrabbedhi
scarkey
sthatwer
eont
het
abl
eand
l
eft
..
.
Vi
nce:
babywhere'
smymeat
?Cooki
eske?OrThe
Mqombot
hiyoudrank?
▶If
rowned.
Me:
Hai
bo.
..
Vi
nce:
youdi
dn'
tev
eni
nvi
teme.
..Nomzamo
▶Il
aughed.
.
Vi
nce:
andy oudi
dn'
tev
enbr
ingmel
eftov
ers.
.
Unj
anikant
iwena?
▶Icont
inuedt
olaugh.
..
Me:
Ibr
oughty
oume.
..Hawuam Inotenough?
Vi
nce:
No..
.Iwantt
hethi
ngst
hatIhav
ementioned.
..
I
t'
sDecembery
ouknow?wemusteatUkudl
a
komqi
mbi
..Wenay
ou'
remydai
l
ybr
ead.
▶Her eachedoutt
omyhandandhepul l
edme
closertohim..Westar
tedkissi
ngagai
n..
.DidVince
thinkcalli
ngmehisdail
ybreadwassmoot h?.
..I
startedlaughi
ngmidkiss.
Vi
nce:
what
?
▶Hest
opped.
Me:
Not
hingcomeher
e..
Vi
nce:
I'
ll
kicky
ououtofmyhouseMi
na.
..
▶Il
aughedhar
der
.
Me:
I'
myourdai
l
ybr
ead?Br
eadVi
nce?
Vi
ncel
aughed.
Me:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ousomuch
Vince:Ar
eyouhungr
y?Iboughty
ourf
avor
it
epi
zza
earl
ier
.
▶Hest
oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen
Me:
yesspl
ease.
▶Hef
ixedt
wogl
asses,
aWhi
skygl
assanda
champagneglass..
.Tookoutanal coholbucketand
putKronechampagneinitandsomei ce..
.Thenput
Hennessyanddashont heside,heal sograbbed
twosli
cesofpizza..Heputal
lthisonat r
ayandhe
camet othel
oungeandputitont opoft hetabl
e.
Me:
ooht
hisi
sni
ce.
..
▶Vincesmil
ed.
..Hesatbesidemepouredmea
gl
assofchampagneandfixedhi
mselfadri
nkal
so.
..
Vi
nce:
woul
dyoul
i
kesomepr
ingl
est
osnackon?
Me:
ahmm y
eah.
..
Vi
nce:
owkay
..
.
Me:
wehav
en'
tchi
l
ledl
i
ket
hisi
nawhi
l
e.
▶Hest
oodupandwentt
otheki
tchen.
Vi
nce:
I'
vemi
ssedi
t.
Me:
met
oo.
▶Itookasi p.
..Vincecamewi thtwosmallbowl
s
onecarr
yingpringlestheot heronehadwhitegr
apes
i
nit.
..Di
dy ouknowt hattheycallt
hosegreengr
apes
"whi
tegrapes"
?Lol Engli
sh. .
.Nowy ouknowyou
shouldreadt hi
sdiarymor eoftenyaboIal
soteach
younewt hings..
.Any way.
..Vincetookasipal
soand
j
oinedmeI nt hecouch..Hepl acedmylegsontopof
hisl
apandhest artedrunninghishandsonmyf eet
soft
lytouchingmewhi l
ewet alkedanddrankour
dri
nksandsnacked. .
..
Me:
thanky
ou.
Vi
nce:
for
?
Me:thi
s..
.You..
.Ourl
ove.
..Idon'
tknowwhatI
'
dbe
wi
thoutyou.
..Il
oveyou.
..
▶Vi
ncesmi
l
ed.
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
ooMami
.
Me: Imeanit.
..Youshowmeev ery
dayt haty
oucare
aboutmywel lbeing..
.Andy oucareaboutme. .
.You
showmeev er
y daythatIcantrustyou..
.Many ou'
re
special
.Iknowal otofgirl
swho' dkil
ltohaveyouin
thei
rliv
es.
Vi
nce:
arey
ouget
ti
ngdr
unk?Whysoemot
ional
sis?
Me:
sis?
..
.Wowmxm
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
VinceImeani
t.
..
Vi
nce:
babyIknowy
oudo.
.Il
ovey
out
oo.
..
▶Heki
ssedmyf
eet
.
Me: t
hat
'sdi
sgust
ing.
..Ar
eyoudonewi
thy
our
speech?
Vince:IhadNthabiwr
it
eitf
orme.
..
.Idon'
tdowel
li
n
publi
cspeaking.
..
Me:Sui
t?
Vi
nce:
it'
sreadyboughti
tyest
erdaymor
ning.
▶Inodded.
Vi
nce:
dress?
Me:Ican'
twaitforyoutoseemet
omorr
ow
ni
ght.
..
you'
l
lfaintandfal
li
nlov
eal
lov
eragai
n.
Vi
nce:
mmmmh
Me:
yesss
▶Iwi
nkedathi
m andt
ookasi
p.
Vince:y
oudi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngaboutbuy
ingadr
ess
though.
.
Me:IknowI
'
m goi
ngt
owearsomet
hingIal
ready
hav
e..
.
Vi
nce:
ah.
..
Me:
don'
tsay"
ah"I
'
lll
ookgood
▶Il
i
ghtsl
appedhi
m.
Me:
canIasky
ousomet
hingandpl
easebehonest
Vi
nce:
okay
..
?
Me:
whydi
dyousendmet
hatmoney
..
.?
Vi
nce:
becauseIhav
emoney
.
Me:I
'm ser
ious.
..Youj
ustdon'
tsendsomeone10
t
housandli
keit'
snothi
ng.
..
Vince:
nowImusttel
l y
oumysecr et
s..
.OkayIki
ll
ed
someoneandIfound10thousandinit
..
.Idon'
tneed
themoneysoIgaveittoy
ou.
Me.
..
.
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
esathi
m.
Vi
nce:okay
..
.WellI
tsDecemberobv
iousl
ysoIgot
BonusatworkandIsentyousomeofthemoney.
..
Me:
isn'
t10t
housandabi
ttoomuch?
Vince:f
oryoumaybe..Ir
eceived200kso10ki
sn'
t
real
lysomethi
ngI
'
dl osesleepover.
..
▶Ooooooohshi tisheflexi
ngonme? ?.
..Hewas.
.
Hedef ini
tel
ywasbecausehet ookasi
pImmediatel
y
aftersayi
ngthat.
..Ibl
ankst ar
edathi
m whenIheard
200t housandandcamebackt omysensesbecause
Iremember edthatVincewasabi gdealheear
ns
cl
oset o90kpermont h.
Vi
nce:
Iwasn'
tfl
exi
ngbyt
heway
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:
noy
ouwer
e..
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
..
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngf
orChr
ist
mas?Let
'sgot
o
Dur
ban
Me:ahmmm chur
chthenf
ami
lyl
unchatmyhouse.
..
Iwoul
dhav
elovedtocomewi
thyouthough
Vince:i
t'
sokay.
..Ididn'
twanttogobutIfi
guredt
hat
I
'dbebor edi
fIdon'tgoandIwasplanningtogo
thereonthe27t
haf terChr
ist
masandcomeback
f
ir
stweekofJanuar
y..
.
Me:youcancomeandhavelunchatmyhouse.
..
Thatwoul
dbegreatact
ual
l
y
Vi
mce:
ahmm gr
eat
?toy
ou.
..
Me:
comeon.
.Don'
tbeabi
rd
Vince:babyimagi
nemehavi
ngdi
nnerwit
hyour
dad..
.Andy ourst
ep-
mom wownoI'
l
lpass.
Me:
babypl
ease.
..
Vi
nce:
no.
.
Me:
pleeeeeeeeeeease
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.No.
▶Hegav emeaser i
ouslook.
..Thi
nkingI
'dbe
i
ntimi
dated.
..Hewaspl
ay i
ng.
.Ireal
lywantedhimto
j
oinus..
Imeanwhatcouldgowr ongitwouldbethe
bestChri
stmasofmyli
fe..
.wi
thallt
hepeoplethatI
Love.
..
Me:
butyouwantedmet
ocomewi
thy
out
oDur
ban
t
hat
'snotf
air
..
.
Vi
nce:
okayl
et'
sbef
air
..Uy
eki
niNami
ngi
yaeki
thi
.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:No..
.Wear
ebothgoingtoChur
chandthen
l
unch.
..I
t'
dbet
hebestChri
stmasofyourl
i
feI
pr
omise.
..
▶Het
ookabi
gsi
gh.
..
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.
Me:
okay
??
Vi
nce:
yesokay
..
.
▶Heshookhishead.
..IJumpedathi
m andIgav
e
hi
m ahug.
..
Me:
thanky
ouPapi
..
.Can'
twai
t
Vi
nce:
trustmeIcanwai
t.
..
Me:
comeon.
..
Vi
nce:
youdon'
tgeti
tyourdadi
sscar
yasf
uck.
..
Me:andI
'
m not
?
▶Iwassi
tti
ngontopofhi
m wi
thmylegswr
apped
ar
oundhi
m...Hi
shandswer
earoundmywai
st.
..
Vi
nce:
Noy
ou'
renot
..
.Wai
tyouar
e..
.Iwasscar
edt
o
deaththeotherdaywhenyouwerewi t
hNomal anga
thelookyougav euswhenyouref
usedt ogreetherI
thoughtahotklapwascomingthrough.
..Iwas
prayi
ngtomyancest or
sthatyoubehaveanddon' t
actcrazy
..
.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
hai
boIwascool
asacucumber
Vi
nce:
no.
..Br
uhy
ou'
rescar
y..
.Tr
ustme.
..
▶Vincewasi nhissweat
pant
sandIwaswear i
nga
yel
l
owdr esssoIwasi nmypant
iesandIhave
spr
eadmyl egsaroundhi
m..Ist
art
edfeel
ing
somethi
ngmov ingunder
neat
hme.
Me:
Vincewhat
'st
hat
?
Vi
nce:
what
?
▶Iopenedupmyl
egst
osee.
..Ist
areddownat
hi
m..
.
Me:
Vince.
..
▶Il
aughed.
.
Me:
thatscar
edme.
..Don'
tdot
hat
▶Iconti
nuedtolaugh.Vi
ncewashorny.
..Hi
sdi
ck
wasexpl
odingreadytogetoutoft
hosepant
s.
Me:
howdoy
ousot
hatt
hough?That
'ssocool
.
Vi
nce:
li
ket
his?
▶Hemov edhisdi
ckagain..
.Icoul
dn'
tunderst
and
whatwashappeni
ng..Becausehewasn'
ttouchi
ngit
buti
twasmov i
ng.
..Iwassoi nt
ri
guedbyi
tIkepton
l
aughi
ng.
.Itent
ert
ainedme.
Me:
ohmyGodt
hisi
shi
l
ari
ous.
▶Vi
nceshookhi
shead
Vi
nce:
Ican'
tbel
i
evet
haty
ouf
indt
hisf
unny
..
.
▶Ist
art
edki
ssi
nghi
m..
.Imumbl
ed
Me:y
ou'
ref
unny
..AndIl
ovey
ou.
..
Vi
nce:
oh.
..Il
ovey
out
oo
Me:
andIwanty
ourdi
cki
nsi
deofme.
.
Vi
nce:
oooh.
..
▶Wecont inuedt
okiss.
..It
ookmyr
ighthandand
puti
tinsi
dehispant
s..
.Ifel
thi
swar
m dickinmy
handsandIwr
appedmyhandsoni
t.
..Hegr
oaned
Vi
nce:
baby
..
.
▶Ist artedsoftlyshakingitupanddownashe
groanedhar der...ThenIdryjumpedhi m we
conti
nuedt oki sspassionately.
..Iwasreall
yreal
ly
ti
psy...Andhor nyt oo.
.Iwantedhi minsideofme
fast.
..Idontdo" dirtyt
alki
ng"butt hatdayIdidandI
surprisedmy self..
.Ipr
omisei twasn'tme...The
champagnemademedoi t.
Me:
youl
i
kei
t.
.?
▶AsIconti
nuedt
osof
tl
ymassagehi
scock.
..
.It
ook
myhandout.
..
Vi
nce:
don'
tst
op.
..
▶Ismi led..
.Ist ar
tedtakinghistshirtof
f.
..He
grabbedmyneckandst art
edkissingme. .
..Imoaned
thenIranmyf ingersonhi sback..
.Whi l
ehesucked
myneckl ikeaVampi re..
.Hethenpi ckedmeup. .He
stoodupIwasst i
llwrappedaroundhi m..West arted
kissi
ngagai n.
..Hepl acedmeont hecouch. ..He
kneeledwhi l
e.Isatont hecouch. .Hepulledmy
dressupandhemademehol dit...Hestarted
kissingmebet weenmyt highs.
..
.Itfel
tsogood..I
heldont i
ghtt ot
hesofaandmydr essIcouldn'
thel
p
butmoan. ..Hefi
nall
yreachedhisdest i
nati
on.
..He
kissedmycoochi ewithmypant i
eson. .Hesoftl
y
pulledsomeofi toutofthewayexposi ngmypussy
l
ipsathi m...Hegentl
yrubbedhisf i
ngersonmy
vagina..
.Ibitemyli
ps..
.
Vi
nce:
you'
resowet
..
.
▶Heent eredhi sf i
ngeri nsideofme. .
.Imoanedabi t
l
oudert histime...hesl owl ytooki toutthenheput2
fi
nger sbacki nsi
deagai n. .
.Hedi dt hisagainand
again..
.Hest artedget ti
ngf asterIst art
edmoani ng
l
oudert ooIcoul dn' twai tIwant edhi sdicknow. ..
Thenher emov edmyunder wearandcamecl oserhe
start
edeat ingmypussyIl ostmy selfmysoul left
mybody .
..Imoanedsol oud. .Hist oungegamewas
j
ust...Toogood, Shi t
..
.Hest oppedt henhet ookof f
hispantsnowt hingsst artedgoi ngf ast.
.Because
thenextthingIknow.I 'm alsot akingoutmydr ess
andhel aidmeont hecouchandhewasont opof
me...Ispreadmyl egswi deopenf orhimt oent erthe
gatesofheav en..
.Heent ered..
.Webot hmoaned. .
.
Hest
art
edhumpingme..
.Fast.
.Itwasamazi
ngand
r
ough..
.Iwant
edtocr
yitfel
tsogood..
.
Me:
uuuh.
..Il
ovey
oubaby
.
▶Vi
ncebr
eat
hingheav
il
y
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyout
oo

▶Fridaymor ningwokeuppr et
tyl
atear
ound11am
ever
y bodywasupbyt hen.
..Imadesomet hi
ngt oeat
Muesl iandstr
awberryyogurt,t
henIputonsome
berr
iesont opandIpour edaglassofmi l
k..
.thenI
wentt othelounge.
.Ifoundmydadwat chi
ngsoccer
Me:
Mor
ningdad.
Dad:
Mubi
..
.
▶Istart
edeat ing..
.Mi nut
eslaterthegameended. ..
Mydadst artedtalki
ngt ome. .
.Justr andom
conver
sation..
.Iwant edtoaskhi m aboutwhatmy
uncl
esaid...ButIdidn'twanttoruint hings.
.Things
weregoodbet weenus. .
.Iwantedt oletitgo..Butit
wasonmymi nd..
."askhi m!!.
..Ask!!..Ask!!..Ask
now"myt hought sscreamedatme. ..Icracked
Me:
soshe'
sadoct
or?
▶Ohshit.
..Ij
ustaskedhi
m..
.ohmyGod.
..Mydad
l
ookedatme
Dad:
who?
▶Inervousl
yanswered..
..Iwassoscar
edofmy
dadandIdidn'
twanttoalwaysbot
herhi
m aboutt
his
woman.
Me:
Mybi
rt
hmom.
Dad:
Mubi
..
.
▶Youcouldhearhi
shappyvoicechangi
ng,i
t
becamesad/di
sappoi
ntedIcoul
dn'tt
ell
..
.
Dad:
whot
oldy
out
his?
Me:
Uncl
eTer
ry
Dad:
damni
t!
▶Hebacameangr
ytookhi
sphoneandst
ormedout
oft
hel
ounge.
..
Me:
Dad?
#I
NSERT89

▶Whyi smymom sucha" topsecret"nooneis

all
owedt otalkabouther,thisi
sreall
ystarti
ngto
makemeangr y
..
.Mydadhast otal
konewayor
anotherIcan'tl
ivel
ikethis.
.IntheendIhav eto
knowher .
..
mxm myappet i
tetoeatdecreasedI
placedmypl ateasi
deandgr abbedmyphone.Went
towhatsappandanswer edsomemessages. ..
Zwel
i
call
ed,Ianswered.
Me:
Hey
y.
Zwel
i
:Hav
en'
thear
dfr
om y
oui
nawhi
l
e.
Me:busyweek.
..Youknowafterthegat
heri
ngthi
ngs
hav
ejustbeengoingcr
azy.
..Busybusybusy.
..
Zwel
i
:If
igur
ed.
..
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yesIj
ustmi
ssy
out
hat
'sal
l
.
Zwel
i
:goodhear
ingt
hat
,t
houghty
ouwasn'
tmi
ssi
ng
meatal
l.
.
▶Igi
ggl
ed.
Zwel
i
:canIseey
out
oday
?
Me:ahmmm canwemakei
ttomor
row?TodayIgot
pl
ans
Zwel
i
:Pl
ans?
Me:
y..
.Yes.
..Fami
l
ypl
ans
▶Fami lyplansyoumeant heEskom powerstat
ion
yearendf uncti
on?Okaygir
l.
..I
'
m start
ingtohate
doingthis.
..Khomotsoswordsplayedthemselv
est o
me"chooseone. .Whatyou'
redoingisnotokay..
."
Zwel
i
:owkay
..
.K'
l
ungi
l
e
Me:
immaseey
out
omor
rowIPr
omi
se
Zwel
i
:Ngi
negamesasaeSt
adi
um.
Me:
oh?
Zweli
:ungezakodwauzong'
bukel
a..
Kungang'
jabul
i
sa.Lokho.
Me:
ift
hatwi
l
lmakey
ouhappyI
'
lldoi
t.
..
Zwel
i
:Ngempel
a?
Me:
Yeah
Zwel
i:Ei
shAvengi
k'
thandaNomzamongendl
ela
ungt
handangay
o..
..
ngzok'
l
obol
amaduze
▶Wel aughed, wecont i
nuedt otalklikeanor mal
couple,sharingjokeshereandt here, fl
ir
ti
ngher eand
ther
e...Afteranhourt hecallended...Iwentt oplace
mybowl andgl assinthesink..
.Wentupst air
st o
chargemyphonepassedbymydad' sroom t hedoor
wascl osed...
.Iremember edtheconv ersati
onwe
hadear l
ieraboutwhatUncl eTer rytoldme. .Iwish
thi
ngswer en'
tli
ket hi
s..
.Thandocameoutofher
room lookingallglamedup. .
.Shei mmedi at
ely
smiledwhenshel aidhereyesonme.
Me:
Gii
rr
rrr
ll
ll
..
.!
!!
Thando:
Gii
rr
rrr
ll
ll
..
..
!!
!
▶Shet
wir
led.
..
Me:
Lookaty
ou.
..Daaaamnnn.
..
..
▶Itookoutmyphone.
.Andpretendedtot
ake
pi
ctur
esofherli
keaphot
ographerandshe
pr
etendedtobeamodel.
.Posi
ngandev er
ythi
ng.
..
Welaughed.
.
Me:
youl
ookamazi
ngI
'
mjeal
ous.
..Yourmakeup
.Thando!
!
▶Shewasdr opdeadgor
geous.
..Fr
om hertoesup
toherhair
..
.Shewaswearingaredlongsl
eevetight
shortdr
ess,redst
il
ett
osandacuteblackbag..
.
Me:whereareyougoing?.
..NowayI
'
m comingwith
you.
..What
'stheoccasi
onandwhyam INotI
nvi
ted.
.?
Thando:stopitmtaseyoumaki ngmeNer vous.
..
it
s
our3rdyearanniver
sarysinoMel usi.
..Hejusttol
d
met ogetdressedbecauseuyezawei ni
ti
all
ydidn'
t
haveanyplanssoangazi ukut
hi siyaphi
Me:anni
ver
sar
ysurpr
isencooh.
..Woahwai
t3r
d??
Whenishemarry
ingyoumtase?
Thando:
hai
boZamo
▶Shegi
ggl
ed.
Me:can'
tbel
iev
ethaty
ouguyshavebeendat i
ng
si
ncegrade10.
..
.CanIbeyourdr
ivershem guys?
?
Thando:
No.
.No.Noo.
..Sukaendl
eni
.
▶Shewal
kedpastme.
Me:
youl
ookpr
ett
y..
.
▶Thandowal
ki
ngdownt
hest
air
s
Thando:
Thanky
ouu.
.
▶Igoti
ntomyr
oom andcal
l
edher
..
.
Thando:
MtaseI
'
mleav
ingy
oubehi
nd.
..Uf
unani
?
Me:pl
easebebackby6pm INeedy
out
odomy
makeup..
Thando:
arey
ouser
ious?
Me:
yes.
..Pl
easeeeeee
▶Sai
dthi
sinasqueekysweetv
oice.
Me:Ineedt
olookpr
ett
ytonight
..
.Vincecol
leagues
can'
tcat
chmetri
ppi
ng.
..Especi
all
ythatexofhis
Ahymtasepl
ease
Thando:
Wowy
ou'
rei
mpossi
ble.
.Okay
Me:
Ilov
eyou.
.Enj
oy
Thando:
Fut
sek.*
cal
lended*
▶I'
m gonnabepr
ett
ytoni
ghtyerr
rfokkk.
..Il
ooked
atmysel
fInt
hemirr
orandjumpedinexcitement
..
.I
char
gedmyphoneandasIwasabouttolaydown
onmybed..Someoneknockedonmydoor.
..Ei
sh
ei
sheish.
..
Me:
whoi
sit
?
▶Thembaopenedt
hedoorandl
ethi
msel
finHai
bo
t
hisl
i
kkl
engwana.
Me:
azankengi
thi
ngena.
..
Themba:
Iknow..
.I'
m Bor
ed,
ImissMyfri
ends.
.I
missmydog.
..Imissmymom..
.ImissPret
ori
a
▶Il
ookedathi
mver
yconf
used.
Me:
and.
..HowdoI
..
.
Themba: f
iti
ntot heequati
on?.
.Idon'
tknowbut
herewear e.
..Thandoleft
,Babayenai
salway
s
busy.
..IDon'
tknowwhatt odoanymore.
..
▶Hewal kedtomyBedanddr
oppedhi
msel
font
op
ofi
t.
..Il
aughed.
Me:
owkay
..
.Howaboutwegopl
ayPS?
▶Hel
ookedatme.
..
Themba:
youandPl
ayst
ati
on?
..
..Zamor
eand
Pl
ayst
ati
on.
..
▶Hel
ookedatmeandl
aughed.
Me:
arey
ouser
ious?Icanpl
ay.
..
Themba:
Sims?Yeah.
..Notsoccer
.
Me:
obv
iousl
ynott
hatone.
.Wecanr
acet
hough
Thema:Idon'
tknowwhat'
sfunnythef
actthaty
ou
canpl
ay..Ort
hefactt
hatyou'
resoser
ious.
..
Me:
mxmx.
.
▶It hr
ewar olloftissueathi m. ..Minuteslaterwe
wer edownst air
sandwepl ay edf i
fa..
.Coupleof
mi nuteslat erLesegoj oinedus. ..Wepl ayedandat e
snackst hr oughout ..
.Ienj oy edmyaf ternoondad
camedownst ai
rsandor der edpi zzaf orus,Ialso
askedf orper mi ssi
ont ogowi thVincelateronhe
agr eed..
.Weat ethepi zzaal l ofitwedi dn'teven
l
eav easlicef orThando. ..Weonl yremember edthat
ther ewasaThandowhenshewal kedinonus
play i
ng..
..
Thando:
akhoneedf
orsuchnoi
seguy
sni
yar
asa
yho.
..
Lesego:bat
hongThando.
..YouknowIwasli
ke
who'sthi
sbeaut
if
ulwoman..Kant
iit
'sy
ou.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:Ithoughtsot
oowhenIsawhershelooksso
goodandlooksol
dert
hemakeuplit
eral
l
ychanged
her.
▶Wel
aughed.
..
Thando:
wowI
'
m of
fended.
Lesego:y
oucut
e..Weknowt
hatbutmakeup.
..Si
s..
.
Stopit
.
Thando:
thanky
ou.
..
Me:
Whyar
eyoubacksoear
ly.
..
Thando:Earl
y???I'
m actual
l
ysur pr
isedt
haty
ou'
re
notdressed.
..I
t'
sli
ter
all
yhalfpast6.
Me:
no.
..
▶Ipausedt
hegame.
..
Themba:
Zeewhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Ist
oodup.
..
Me:
thandoy
ou'
rel
yi
ngr
ight
?
▶Iwentupt ohersheshowedmetime...Il
ookedat
theclockont
hewallitwasi
ndeed18:32Irantothe
kit
chenandcheckedtimeonthemicr
owav eitwas
18:32..
.
Me:
Shi
t.
..
..
nooo
▶Timel it
erall
yfl
ewbyaswewer eplayi
ng.
.Idon'
t
knowhowi t
's6pm alr
eady.
..Iswearwe'vebeen
play
ingfor2mi nutes.
..I
'
mint roubl
e..Vi
nceandI
areleav
ingat7.Ilaughedindisbeli
ef.
Me:
myphone.
..Fuck!
▶I twaslikeIwasn'tont hisearthorsomebodyj ust
wokemeup. .Ijustcouldn'tunderst
andhowt his
happened. .
.Irushedupst airsgotmyphoneoutof
thecharger..
.3mi ssedcallsf r
om Vince.
.Lastcall
was14mi nutesago...Icalledhim..
.Holdi
ngmy
breath.
..
Vince:
doyouwantmet
odi
eofhear
tat
tack?I
'
m
only25Zee
▶Il
aughed.
.Ner
vousl
yso.
..
Vi
nce:
arey
oudone?
Me:
baby
..
.Pl
easedon'
tbemad.
Vi
nce:
Nomzamo.
..
Me:
..
..
Vince:
ahy
..
.Howmanymi
nut
esdoy
ouneedt
oget
done?
Me:
..
.It
hi.
..
.
Vi
nce:
ormustIl
eav
eyoubehi
nd?
Me:
NO!
!!
..
.Gi
vemef
ort
yfi
..
.
Vi
nce:
For
ty!
!!Kant
ybowenzani
??
Me:babypleasedon'
tshoutatmeI
'
mver
ysensi
ti
ve
ngzokhal
a..
Vi
nce:uzokhal
iswayi
ntoekhona.
..Phangi
saucede
I
'm wai
ti
ng..
.*cal
lme*
▶He' ssomadatme. .
.Lol
..
.Fuck.
..
.Iwashedmy
facedidn'tbath.
.Iwasn'tr
ushi
ngoranythi
ngIjust
minimizedal otofthi
ngsthatcoul
d'v
etakenti
met o
do..Andwedi dgroupworkwhichworkedoutwellI
n
theend...BecausewhileThandowasdoingmy
makeup, Lesegowasput ti
ngthingsontopofmy
bed,insi
demybagandi r
oning..
..
anhourlaterIwas
done...
Iwaswear ingabl ackblazerdress,onl
ywor e
blackLingerieunderneath,woreaSi l
vernecklace
andSi l
verHoopear rings,andIwor eThandosheels
theywer esparkli
ngtheywer esi
lver,
Iwascar ryi
nga
blackcutebagsameoneast handos,webought
them whenwewentshoppi ngwithourdadsmoney ..
.
Ilookedreallycute,
Il ov
edmymakeup. .
.
Me:
Iwi
shIwor
eli
ket
hisonmyMat
ri
cdance.
..
Lesego:
youl
ookr
eal
l
ybeaut
if
ul.
..
Me:
wher
e'smyphoneIneedt
ocal
lmyman.
..
.
▶Thandohandedmemyphone.
..
.Ical
l
edhi
m
Vi
nce:
I'
m out
side.
Me:
okay
..
.
▶Ilaughed.Bathongnohell
o..
?St
raightt
othepoi
nt.
"
I'
m outsi
de"..Hewasdefini
tel
yannoyedbyme.
Irusheddownstair
s..
.Tol
dmydadIwasl eav
ingand
Isaidmygoodby estoever
yone...Vi
ncewasnear
thegate.
..Out
sideofthecar.
..Leani
ngontheboot
busyonhisphone. .
.Helookedatme..
.Oureyes
l
ocked..
.IlookeddownbecauseIwasshyandaf raid
thathe'
sstil
lgoingtoshoutatmeforbei
nglate.
..
.I
l
ookedathi m agai
nhewasst il
ll
ooki
ng..
.Buthewas
nowsmi l
ing...
Vi
nce:
..
..Wow.
▶Hesai
dsof
tl
y.
..
Igi
ggl
edasIwal
kedt
owar
dshi
m.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry
Vince:
howcanIbemadaty
ounowwheny
oul
ook
l
ikethi
s?
▶Hewasbl
ownaway.
..Heopenedt
hecardoorf
or
mewegoti
nsi
deandwedroveof
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyousoqui
et?
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
Me:
I'
m soner
vous.
.
Vi
nce:
comeony
oul
ookamazi
ng.
..Ar
etheser
eal
?
▶Het ouchedmylashest
ryi
ngt
otaket
hem
of
f.
..
HaiboHaibo.
..
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
??
▶If
ixedi
t.
..
Me:
Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ou
Vi
nce:
ayaphuma?
Me:
duh.
..
▶Wel
aughed
Vi
nce:
sor
ry.
..
▶. .
.20mi nut esl aterwear ri
ved...Par kedourcarata
reservedpar kingspot ,wegotof fandwal kedi n..
.
Guesswhowegotatt heent r
ancear ea..
.You
guessedr ight .
..She'sact i
ngf ormal andal lsmi l
ey
smileywel comi ngusandgi vinguswel comedr i
nks
wet ookthem andwewal kedi nsidel uckil
ywewer e
notthatlate, youknowAf ri
cant ime. ..WhenIsay
peoplewer est aringatmeandVi ncei san
understatementt heywer egawki ngatus. ..Itwasso
weirdIdidn'tl etgoofVi nceshand. .YeyIdi dn'twant
anythi
ngIwashol di
ngagl assofchampompoonmy
handt heot herhandwasonmymansar m. .List
en..
.
Iwast hegy hel ..
.Thef uncti
onbegan. ..Vi
ncewentt o
thestagemadehi sspeech,awar dswer egivenit
wasani cef unct i
ont houghtitwoul dbebor ing..
.The
MConeofhi scoll
eaguest easedhi m andsai dand
shehasnev erseenVi ncet alkwithagi rlorgetl ovey
doveywi thagi r
lshet houghthewasgay ...People
l
aughed. ..Andsheal soaskedi fIwasn' thi r
edby
VincetoPr etendtobehi sgirlf
ri
end. .
.SinceI '
m so
prett
yuVi nceung' tholephi..
.Iwasqui t
e
embar rassedbecauseI '
m shy .
..Theev eni ng
conti
nuedweat eandhaddr inks,Idon'tknowwhat
champagneIwasdr inkingbuti tjusthitt her i
ght
spots..
.Ikeptondr i
nkingi tbutIwasn' tget t
ingdrunk
that'
swhyIkeptondr inki
ngandkeIhadnot hi
ngto
doot herthanj ustsitthereandwat chVi ncent
conversat e.
Vi
nce:
Pleasedon'
tdr
inkany
mor
e..
.Hav
ewat
er
Me:
why
yy.
..
▶Vi
ncel
ookedatmeandshookhi
sheadl
aughi
ng.
Vi
nce:
please.
..
▶Hetookt hegl
asst
hatwasonmyhandandgav e
mewater.
..Wewereatatablewi
thhi
sother
col
l
eaguesandthei
rdat
es..Somegir
lsawher.
Gi
rl
:she'
shadenough?
Vi
nce:
Idon'
twantt
ocar
ryherout
..
.
Me:
buti
t'
smysecondgl
ass.
▶Thegi
rll
aughed.
Gir
l:t
hischampagneisreall
ynice,andithi
tsy
ou
unawareyou'
ll
justcat
chy oursel
fdrunk.
Me:
Ihav
etogett
hename.
.Iwantt
ost
ocki
t
▶Vi
ncesi
deey
edme.
Me:
what
?
▶Heshookhisheadandt al
kedwithhi
sfri
ends.
..I
dr
ankmywaterinpeace..DeepdownthoughI
want
edanot
herglass.
..
Gi
rl:
it'
sMoet
▶Shewhi
sper
edt
henamet
ome.
Vi
nce:
Ihear
dthat
..
.
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
.
Me:
baby
..
.
▶Ifel
li
nlovewithMoetthatday.
..
.AndINever
l
ookedback.
..I
t'
shonest
lythebestchampagneev
er
created.
.ThankyouClaudeMoetf ory
ourbeauti
ful
sweetwor k.Hawubhubhubhut heexwasont he
tableIdi
dn'tseehercomingIJustsawhertal
ki
ng.
Nomalanga:
..
..Goodtohearthatev
ery
onei
sokay
..
Andyou'r
eallwell
takencar
eof f
.
Someguy:beaut
if
ulwork,I
'm get
tingmarri
ednex
t
yearwehavetohi
reyourdecorat
ingser
vices.
Nomalanga:
pleasedo..
.Justdon'
tbri
ngunder
age
chi
ldr
enatyourwedding.
..They'
l
ldri
nkal
lyour
champagnebecausethey'
renotusedtoi
t.
▶Theyl aughed...Waitwait
..
.She'st al
kingaboutme
ri
ght?..
.Thenervet heaudacit
y!!!.
..
.Please
ngbambeni beforeIcauseascene. ..Vincelookedat
me...Il
ookedatherandchuckl edlightl
ythenI
grabbedmywat eranddrankit.
.Composur e..
.
Composur e.
Nomal
anga:
we'
renowhav
ingwat
er.
..Mmmh.
▶Iwasquart
ert
ohi tt
ingherIswear
..
.Onemor
e
wor
d.Idar
eher.
..
justone.
..
Vi
nce:
Thanky
ouNoma.
..
.
▶Gir
l di
dn'
tl
eave,shedi
dn'
tcat
cht
hehi
nt.
..
she
ev
entual
lydi
dcatchit
.
Nomalanga:Letmegoandmakemoney,someofus
don'
thavethepri
vil
egeofbei
ngcut
eandsi
tt
ingi
n
tabl
eswit
hourr i
chboyf
ri
ends
▶Nowt hatshadewasn'
tformeonlybutalsothe2
gi
rl
fr
iendsandafiancéwhowereatthetable.
Me:
Pleasebr
ingusanot
herbot
tl
ewhi
l
eyou'
reati
t.
..
Nomal
anga:
I'
m notaser
ver
..
.I'
l
llett
hem knowi
n
t
heki
tchent
hough.
Me:mi ghtaswellst
artbei
ngaserv
ersi
ncey
our
babydaddylefty
ou, y
ouneedall
themoneyyoucan
get.
..
▶Thet ablewentqui et..
..Thegirl
whowasbesi de
mecoughed. .
.Vincelockedatmeext remel y
surpr
ised...Hiseyessai dital
l
...Isai
dt hisloudlyI
wantedhert ohearmel oudandcl ear
..Iturnedt o
faceher.
..Wel ockedey esshelookedatmeIgav e
herasmi rk..
.Shewal kedaway .
..
Me:
Ireal
l
yli
ket
hiscut
ler
y..
.whatdoy
out
hink?
Gi
rl
:ahmmmm.
..
.

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▶Thegi
rll
aughed.
..
Gir
l:wai
tsowearegoingtot
alkaboutcut
ler
ycome
on.
..Whatj
usthappened?
Me:
Not
hing.
..
▶Awaitercamewi
th2bott
lesofMoet
..
.Pl
aced
t
hem ontopoft
het
ableandlef
t.
..
.
Vi
nce:
Shoul
dI?
▶Heof
fer
edt
opourmeagl
ass.
Me:
Yes.
..Thanky
ou.
▶Hepr
oceeded
Gi
rl
:doy
ouknowher
?
▶Il
aughedandt
ookasi
p.
Me:
may
be.
..
.
▶Theev eni
ngcontinuedIhadagoodt i
memyonl y
probl
em wasthatIcouldn'tbr
ingoutmyr at
chetsi
de
l
iketwer
kingandscr eaming"Aaaaah"whenmy
favor
itesongcomesonmxm, Ihadtobehav el
ike
thebossesgi r
lf
ri
endandbecivi
l..
.SoIjustchi
tchat
withthegirlt
hatwasbesi
deme. .
..
Vinceputhishand
onmyt hi
ghandsqueezedittogetmyattenti
onasI
wasspeaki ngtotheot
hergir
l
Vi
nce:
let
'sl
eav
e..
.
Me:
ahmmm Okay
..
.
▶Hest oodup. .
.Ialsost
oodupandwoahIwas
ki
ndatipsy.
..
.Butst i
ll
incontrolcan'
taffordto
embarr
assmy selfbywalkingfunny.
..AfterIstood
upIimmediatelyputmyhandsi nVincear mf or
bal
ance..
.Hewasst i
ll
sayinggoodby etohisfriends
Vi
nce:
sur
elyngzok'
bonaar
ound.
..
▶eventual
l
ywewalkedtothecar
..
.Iwasst
il
l
hol
dingontohi
m bal
anci
ng.
Vi
nce:
sis.
..Ar
eyouokay
?
▶Hewr
appedhi
sar
m ar
oundme.
..
Me:
li
lbi
tint
oxi
cat
ed.
▶Helaughed.
..Wegott
othecarheopenedupt
he
doorf
orme
Me:
thanky
ou
▶Igoti
nsi
dehewentar
oundandgoti
naswel
l
...
Me:
baby
..
Vi
nce:
yes?
▶Heclosedt
hedoorandputt
hekey
sin.
..Il
ooked
athi
m
Vi
nce:
what
?Youokay
?
Me:
doy
oul
oveme?
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
..
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
▶Insi
demyblazerIt
ookoutabot
tl
eofMoett
hatI
smoothl
yhi
dinsi
demyblazer
..
.
Me:
cany
ouopent
hisf
orme
▶Helookedatme.
..Fl
i
nchedhi
sey
esi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.
..
Andl
aughed
Vince:Noways!Wow..
.I'
m nevert
aki
ngyou
anywherewi
thme. .
.Al
lthatIl
oveyoubul
l
shi
twast
o
softenmeWow. .
.Women.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
please
▶Igav eittohim.
..Heopeneditbeforewedrov
e
off.
..
.Pleasedon'
tjudgemeguy stechni
cal
l
yIdidn'
t
stealt
hebot t
lemymani stheManagersonginama
ri
ghts.
Vi
nce:
whati
sitwi
thy
ouandt
hisChampagne.
▶It
ookasi
pst
rai
ghtf
rom t
hebot
tl
e..
.
Me:
pleasedon'
tj
udgeme.
..
Vi
nce:
I'
m not
..
.Yougoi
ngt
osl
eepaty
ourhouse?
Me:
No!Hawuwhy
?
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
..
Vince:
whyul
wa?Iwasj
ustaski
ng.
..Ut
handaemzi
ni
Zamo.
Me:Idon'
t.
.OkayI'
l
lgohomekd.
..Uzol
alauy
1and
you'
l
lmissmey ou'
l
lsee
Vi
nce:
Ithi
nkIwon'
t.
Me:
youwon'
tmi
ssme?
Vi
nce:
Ali
tt
leI
'
llmi
ssy
ou
Me:
mxm.
..
▶Wesmi l
edateachot heranddr ov
edownt oSasol
garageVincewant edtofil
l hi
stankandgr ab"r
eal
food"theyser vedreall
yfancysmal lf
oodatt he
eventhedi dn'tli
keitatalleachandev er
yplatehe
complainedt hatit'
ssmal landitwasfoodf or
rabbi
ts..
.wegotatt hegarage
Vi
nce:
youcomi
ng?
Me:
yes.
..
▶Hegotout .
..Atthi
spointIhadt akenmyheelsoff
soIst
art
edlookingforthem Iplacedthebottl
eof
Champagneinthecuphol der..
.Ifoundoneheel.
.
Andst
artedwearingitt
hel aceswer eamessandI
waski
ndat i
psy..
.hepeepedt hroughthewindow
Vi
nce:
babewud?
Me:
fuck.
..Ican'
tgett
heseshoeson.
.I'
m comi
ng.
..
▶ IdecidedtoJustl
eavethem andgoi nsi
debare
footedi
twas12am peopl ewon'tcar
er i
ght?.
..I
steppedoutsi
dethecarandwentt oVincessideso
wecanwal
kin
Vi
nce:
arey
ouser
ious?
Me:
Itol
dyout
hatIcoul
dn'
tgett
hem on
Vince:
youshoul
d'
vest
ayedi
nsi
det
hecary
oudi
dn'
t
havetocome.
Me:
hay
ii
▶Wegoti nsideIwasget t
ingdrunkIcoul
dfeelmy
headspi
nningwhenIwal kedinside,
thosel
ight
s
werebri
ghtasf uck..
.Vi
nceboughthotperi
peri
chi
cken,wors,salsaandpap.
Vi
nce:
Doy
ouwantany
thi
ng?
Me:
NoI
'
m good.
.I'
m gonnagot
othet
oil
et
Vi
nce:
okay
▶Iwalkedt
ot hetoi
let.
..Gotinsi
deandIwent
st
rai
ghttot
hemi rr
or..
Iwasr eall
ystart
ingt
oget
sl
oshedabitbecauseIstart
edt alki
ngtomy sel
f.
Me:Dzaam Bi
tchwheredidyougettheaudaci
tyto
l
ookthi
sprett
y..
.Lookatyou.
..OhMygodIt hi
nkI'
m
dr
unk..
.NonoI'm not
..
.I'
m Pr
etty
..
.Drunkandpret
ty
▶Ilaughed.
..Iwasonthemirr
ordrunkt
alki
ngt
o
myself
..
.Bengizi
chazat
othatext
ent.
Me: t
hatNomalangabi
tchngi
mtshel
eizi
ndaba
zakhe..Yhoo
▶Il
aughed
Me:shethi
nksthatshecantal
kshitandI'
l
lshutup.
.
Haaashegotthewrongbit
ch..Notme..
▶IHear datoiletflush.IsnappedoutofmyZamo
Momentsoqui ck..
.IwasshookIThoughtIwas
al
one...AwomanI 'dsayshewasi nherMi d30s
cameoutoft het oilet.
..Isawhert hr
ought hemirror
s
Shewaswear ingaNur seuni f
orm soIreckonedthat
shejustcameher et oGr absomesnacksf orher
shi
ftorsomet hing...Iwal kedtothetoi
letwhenshe
walkedtothesi nk..
.Icl osedthedoorandl aughed
asIstart
edtopee. ..Itwassoembar r
assingshe
l
eft
..."Babe?
"Ihear dv incesvoice
Me:
I'
m comi
ng.
..
▶Igotoutandwentt
othesi
nkt
owashmyhands.
..
Vi
nce:
youdone?
Me:
Yeah
▶Icameout
..
Vi
nce:
wai
tletmegot
oo.
Me:
ahbaby
..
.
Vince:
promiseyouIdi
dn'
thav
etogo.
..NowIf
eel
l
ikeIhaveto.Bambala
▶Hegav
emet
hepl
ast
icbag.
Me:Vi
ncei
t'
sheav
y..
..
▶Isulked.Hewentt
othemen'st
oil
et.
..Ididn'
tev en
wai
tfora3mi nut
esbutIf
oll
owedhi
mi nside..
..Igot
i
n..
.
Me:
baby
..
.
▶Thet oil
etlookeddif
ferentfrom t
hewomen' s
toi
let
..
.Ijustlookedar
ound. .
.Andst ar
tedlooki
ng
underneaththedoorslookingforVinceIfoundhim
andIopenedt hedoor
Me:
Baby
..
.
Vi
nce:
whatt
f.
..
▶If
oundhi
m put
ti
nghi
spr
oper
tyi
nsi
dehi
spant
s.
Vince:You'
recr
azywudher
ewhati
fsomebodysaw
you..
.
Me:
youl
eftmeal
onet
her
ewhati
fsomeonest
ole
me.
..
Vi
nce:
I..
.
▶HeLaughed
Vi
nce:babyyou'
resodr
unkandinnocent
lyso,
iti
s
sofunny.Heki
ssedmyfor
ehead
Vi
nce:
let
'sgo
▶Wewerestill
insi
dethet
oil
ethewasi
nIwas
st
andi
ngi
nf r
ontofthedoorandhewasf
ixi
ng
hi
msel
fnearthetoi
let
..
Me:
letmehel
pyou.
▶Iputt hepl
ast
icbagdownandhelpedhim wit
hhi
s
bel
t..
.Iundi
ditthoughi
nst
eadofputt
ingiton
becauseademonpossessedmeandt ol
dmet o
undothebelt
..
.
Vi
nce:
baby
..No.
..
don'
tdowhaty
ou'
ret
hinki
ngof
doi
ng.
Me:
what
..
..
wai
t.
..
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶Iputmyhandsar oundhisneckandIst art
ed
kissi
nghi m...
.Her espondedbyki ssingmeback. .
.
HaikeNextt hingyouknowy ourfavor i
teswer e
hav i
ngsexi napubl ictoi
l
et..
.Iputthet oil
etseat
downandmadeVi ncesitonit.
..Isatont opofhi m
whi l
ehehadhi spantsdown. .
.Iwasf aci
nghim so
hest art
edunbut t
onedmybl azerexposi ngmy
l
inger i
etohim hescoopedoutaboobandst art
ed
suckingitwhi l
eIdr yhumpedandki ssedhim. .
.I
unbut t
onedt heli
nger i
einthebottom andVi nceput
hisdickinsideofmeImoanedsof t
lyinhisear s
whi l
eIhumpedupanddownont opofhi minthe
toil
etseat..
.
Vi
nce:
baby
..
..
mmmm
Me:
huh.
..
.
Vi
nce:
baby
..
.I'
m aboutt
o..
.
▶Hepushedmeof
fhi
sdi
ckt
henhecameonmy
l
i
nger
ie.
..
.
Vi
nce:
aaah
▶Weseal edevery
thingupwithakiss.
..Therewasa
ti
ssueasideushetookitandcleanedmeup. ..We
stoodupdressedproper
lyandwalkedout..
..Wegot
i
nsidethecar.
..
Vi
nce:
You!
Me:
what
..
.Ngenzeni
Vi
nce:
AhyNomzamoi
zi
ntoeni
zenzay
o
▶Heshookhi sheadandl aughed.
..
.Hewashappy
hi
sey essaiditall
Wedr ovetohisHouse15mi nut
es
l
aterwear r
ived.
..Hetookt hepl
asti
cfr
om the
backseatandlockedt hecarwhil
eIopenedupfor
us.
..Wewal kedinsidethehousehetunedtheli
ght
s
on.
Me:
arewegoi
ngt
osl
eepory
oust
il
lhav
etoeat
?
▶Vi
nceaboutt
orespond.
Me:
Buty
ouat
emesoar
eyoust
il
lhungr
y?
▶Vi
ncel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
I'
m hungr
y
Me:
Okay
▶Het ookhismeatandpapoutoft heplasti
cand
mi crowav edt hem i
nt hekitchen. .
.Iwentt othe
l
oungeandt ur nedtheTVonsoIcanwai tforhimt o
eatsowecangot osleep.Idi dn'
twantt osleep
alone.It ookoutmyphonei nsidemybagand
checkedf ornot i
fi
cations.
..Okaynotj ust
not i
ficati
onsIwant edt oseei fZwelihastextedand
tomysur pri
seZwel ihasn'ttextedmet hewhole
day .
..Thishur tme...SoIdeci dedt ocallhi
m soI t
cancomeOf fasItriedtocal lwheni nfactIwasjust
buzzi nghi m..Ibuzzedhi m 3t imesthenIsenta
message
Met oZweli:
(Youwi llprobabl
yfi
ndthistextinthe
morningandIhopei tmakesy ousmilewheny ou
seeit,f
ir
standforemostGoodmor ningboy f
ri
end. .
.I
real
lywishyouwer eupr i
ghtnowIknowi t'
slatebut
I'
m upandIcan'tsleep,Ihopeyou'
redreamingof
me...Il
oveyouZwel i
banzi. )
▶Vi
ncecamewhi
l
eIwasst
il
ltext
ingZwel
iandI
wrotesosl
owlyIdi
dn'
twanttot
ypewr
ongwor
ds
becauseIwaski
ndati
psy.
..
.
Vi
nce:
Can'
tbel
i
evet
hati
t'
s2am al
ready
▶Iwasst
il
lty
pingsoIdi
dn'
thearhi
m.
Me:
Huh.
.?
Vi
nce:
sai
dIcan'
tbel
i
evei
t'
s2am al
ready
Me:
Oh.
▶Af tersendingthetextIplacedmyphoneonf l
ight
mode.Icar edaboutZwel iandhi sfeelings.Iwant ed
tomakesur eheknowsIcar ed,thoughIdi dn'ttalkt
o
him asmuchashewant st o..
.Ididn'twanthi mt o
thi
nkt hatIdon'tl
ovehim becauseIdi d..Ireal
lydid
l
ov ehim asmuchast hi
sf eltwrongt odo. .Iwant ed
todoi tsoIjustconti
nuedwi t
hhi m andouraf f
air.
Vi
nce:
thi
smeatne.
..Mmmh
Me:
itsmel
l
ssogood.
..
Vi
nce:
that
hal
engi
phol
i
sil
eforwena.
..
▶ Hegaveitt
ome,Isatnextt
ohim andwestart
ed
eat
ingIat
ethemeatonl
ybecauseIwasn'
treal
ly
hungry.
..Healsocamewithtwoglassesof
HennessydashedwithAppl
eti
zer.
..Weat e,
aft
er
eati
ngwewentt obed,haddr
unknast ysexand
wokeupat13:43thenextday..
.

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ary
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NSERT91

▶Af terthebeauti
fulni
ghtVinceandIhadwhenwe
wokeupi ntheaft
ernoonweshar edlunchi
nhis
house, t
henIwenthomear ound15:16pm.Ibuzz
ed
my selfi
nwal kedi
nandIf oundmydadi nt
he
ki
tchen...Shit
.
Me:
Aft
ernoondad.
..
.
▶Iwalkedpasthim asf astasIcoul
d..
..Iwas
wear
ingVincesNiketrackpantsandami ckey
mouset-shi
rtIl
eftathishouse.
Dad:
Buy
alaNomzamo.
▶Iwalkedbackt
ohim sl
owl
y.Iwascarry
ingapaper
bagt
hathadthei
temsIworelastni
ght
..
.
Me:
Dad?
Dad:
hlal
a..
.
▶Hewasbusyont hestove,hepoint
edatachairon
t
heki
tchencount
er.
..Isat
..Whatisthi
saboutnow?
Dad:
Angf
uni
ukul
wanawe.
.Usumdal
amanj
e.UneI
D
fut
hinjeusucedi
l
eiskol
oamadecisi
on
usuyozenzel
angekekudi
ngekei
-si
gnat
urey
ami
..
..
▶Ohhhkaywhereist
hisgoing?Ij
ustsatt
her
ewi
th
mypaperbagpuzzl
ed.Helookedseri
ous.
Dad:ngcelauz'phathekahle.Uzi
hloniphe.
Amaphut haesenzeki l
ekuweangaphi ndeenzekeI'm
sureyouknowbet ternow.Iacceptedy our
rel
ati
onshipwithhim nawey oushoul dr espectmy
houseandmyr ules.Lengenaphumaoy enzay
o
i
zosicabanisausemncanezamo.
▶IjustkeptquietbecauseIsawwher ehewas
comingfrom...Iwasoverdoingit
.Wit
hthe
sl
eepoversandcomi nglateatnightl
i
keIownthe
house.
..Ireal
i
zedmymi stake.
Me:
I'
m sor
rydad.
..
Dad:
..
..
▶Ileftthekit
chenandwentupst ai
rst omyroom...
Ohwel l
Iguesst herewon'tbeanysl eepover
s
anymoremxm. .
.Butit'
sDecembert here'snoschool
i
smydadser iousrightnow?.
..Ithi
nkI '
ll
runaway
becausehaibot her
e'snoway .
..Ichargedmyphone
andgotitofffl
ightmode. .Ichil
l
edonmybed. .
.I
checkedmessagesandZwel ihadresponded.5
messagesfrom him. .
..
.Ical
ledhim.Hedi dn'
tanswer
Ical
ledhim again.
..Hedecl i
nedmycal l
..
.Icall
ed
himforthe3rdt i
meheanswer ed.
Zwel
i
:what
?
Me:
I'
m sor
ryZwe.
Zwel
i
:okay
.*cal
lended*
▶I'vemessedup. .
..Imissedhissoccermat ch..And
I'
vebeendi sappearingforawhi le.Ifeltsobad. .
.
cl
earlyliv
ingadoubl el
if
eisn'tformeandI 'm notthe
gir
lIthoughtIwas. ..Kuyangihl
ulaukuf eba..
.My
heartwassor ethough. .
.Ibrushedi toffandwentt o
bath.
...Gotof ftheshowerandIwentst rai
ghtt obed
Iwasnotf eeli
ngt hisSaturdayIwasj ustsot i
red
fr
om y esterday..
..Idozedof f.

▶TheweekendpasseditsMondaynowI'
minbed
wit
hLesegowe'rebor
edasshiti
t'
sar
ound11am.
..
She'
sgoingt
hroughmypictur
esonmyphoneandI
wasnai
lpoli
shi
ngmyt oenail
s.
Lesego:y
a'l
ll
ooksot
ir
edher
eandhungr
ywhatwas
goingon?
Me:
oooht
her
e
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:l
ongstor
yshortwewenttoVi
nceswor
kt obur
st
hi
sty
res.I
t'
sreal
l
yfarsot
herewewerecomingback.
Lesego:
nowhat
??
Me:
I'
mtel
l
ingy
ou.
..
▶Shel
aughed.
Lesego:
youandy
ourf
ri
endst
hough.
..
▶Myphonest
art
edr
ingi
ng.
..
Lesego:
It'
sNat
asha.
..
▶Shegav
eitt
ome.
Me:
Hey
yyy
..
..I
'
vemi
ssedy
ou.
..
.
▶Isuddenl yhadthi
shugesmi l
eonmyf ace.
.Idi
dn'
t
expecttohearfrom her
..
.andshehasbeenso
distantl
atel
y.
.Wewal karoundeggshel
lswhenwe
talktohernow..
.Becauseofwhathappenedwejust
don'
twantt
omakehersad.
..Sohercal
l
ingmei
s
real
l
yabigdeal
..
.
Natasha:
I'
vemi
ssedy
out
oo.
..Cany
oucomebymy
house?
Me:yeahy
eah.
.When?Now?
..
..Ican.
..I
'
m onmy
way
..
.
▶Nat
ashal
i
ghtl
aughed.
..
Nat
asha:
don'
tdot
hisZee.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..I
'
mjustsoexci
tedt
ohearf
rom y
ou
Nat
asha:
Iknow.
..Youcancomear
ound1?
Me:
okay
..
.Il
ovey
out
ash.
Nat
asha:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..Thanky
ou.*
cal
lended*
▶Ii
mmediat
elycal
l
edKhomot
sobecauseIwanted
t
oknowi
fthi
swasasquadthi
ngorshejustcal
l
ed
me.
..
.
Khomot
so:
Ami
go
Me:Fam di
dTashhi
tyouupaboutcomi
ngt
oher
house?
Khomot
so:Yeah.
..Weekend.
..shet
oldusont
he
gr
oupchat
?Wherewerey ou?
Me: Ei
sh..
.I'
m avoi
dingZwel i
heisn'ttal
kingtome
somyl astseenonwhat sappshowsSat urdayand
thatwasthelastti
meIt al
kedt ohim soIt hought
he'dgetworri
edifheseest hatI'
m notonlineand
may behe'
dcall.
..
Khomot
so:
didhecal
l
?
Me:
No.
..
▶Webot
hlaughed
Khomot
so:
AhyZeeseey
ousoon.
..*
cal
lended*
Me:looksli
kemyf r
iendsandIwi
ll
bechi
l
li
ngt
oday
atNatasha'
shouse..
.Will
youcomewi
thme?
Lesego:
ahmmmm.
..
▶Shescr
atchedherhai
r.
..
Lesego:
Iki
ndahav
etoseeJay
..
.
▶Iwi
deopenedmyey
esandmout
h..
.
Me:
Jay
???
Lesego:
yeah.
..
Me:lesegoya'
l
lhav
etostopthis..He'
sdat
ing
Adaku..yoy
oucan'
tbedoingthis..
.
Lesego:
I'
ll
bejustchi
l
li
ngwi
tht
hem i
nthest
udi
o
nothi
ngmajor
..
.
▶Ishookmyhead.
Lesego:
rel
axwej
ustf
ool
i
nar
ound.
Me:eyI'
dbejudgi
ngy
our i
ghtnowbutIhavetwo
boy
fri
endssodoyou.
..Andit
'sDecember
..
.Havefun.
Lesego:besidesZeeaf
terwhathappenedto
NatashaI'
m sureshej
ustwantstobewithhercl
ose
fr
iendsonl
y..
..
Me:Thoseniggasdococaineandshi
t,becar
eful
don'
tdothatshit
..
.Justt
akecare.
Lesego:
don'
twor
ry.
..
▶Shel ai
dont hebedandIwentt othewardrobeto
takeoutanoutfitthatI'
ll
bewear ingtoday
..
.Itook
outwhitesummersandal sablackJeanskirtanda
openshoulderredt op.Irequest
edanUberi tarri
ved
minuteslat
erIleftLesego...Vi
ncecalledwhil
eIwas
i
ntheUber
..
.
Me:
Papi
Vince:howarey outoday
?Didn'
tgetyourmorni
ng
text.
.AGAIN...don'
tyouhavedataf
orwhatsapp?
yourlastseenshowsSaturday.
..
Me:
..
..I
..
.Ido.
.howar
eyout
odaymyl
ove?.
.I'
min
anUber
.
▶Ihadt oavoidthatwhatsappconversati
onqui
ck
becausereal
lyIcan'tsayt
hatIdon'thavedat
ahe
gavemeR10ksoIr eall
ydon'thav
eanexcuse
Vi
nce:
Wher
ear
eyouof
fto?
Me:Nat
asha'
splacebutI
'
llpassbyt
hemal
lfi
rst
..
.
Shecal
l
edandinvit
edmeov er
Vi
nce:
oh.
..I
ssheokay
?
Me:
Idon'
tknowbaby
..
.Ihopeso
Vince:okaybbe.
..Ahyndoday
abonakewenzani
...
(t
alki
ngt osomeoneelse)
Vi
nce:babyI'
l
lcal
lyoul
ater
..CanIcomepi
cky
ouup
l
aterwhenyoucomehome?
Me:
yeah,
okaybbe.
..
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
Me:
Ilov
eyouuu.
Vi
nce:
NoIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
NoooooIl
ovey
ouuu
▶Webot hgiggledthenthecallended.ToldmyUber
dri
vertogotot hemal lf
ir
stbeforewewentt o
Natasha'
s..
.Gotatt hemallIwentt oChickenli
cken
andIorderedwi ngsformygi r
lsandI ,
Ialsoboughta
bott
leofCruz...
wentbackt othecarandwedr ovet
o
theothersi
deofRosebank.IgotatNat asha'
s
house..
.Letmy selfi
nandIwal kedt othedoor.
.I
KnockedNat asha'smotherletmei n.
Mot
her:
HeyZamo.
Me:
HiMr
sSmi
th
▶Shedidthemcwahmcwahki ssont
hecheekt
hing
t
henhuggedme..Eyabel
ungu.
Mot
her
:she'
sinherr
oom.
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
▶Iwal
kedtoNat
asha'
sroom,
knockedandshet
old
metogeti
n.
Me:
heybabyt
ash.
..
▶Iwentupt
oherandhuggedher
..
.shesmi
l
ed.
Nat
asha:
andwhati
sthi
s?
Me:
justwi
ngsandYourf
avor
it
e..Cr
uzv
odka.
Natasha: ncoohyousweet
..
..
mymom i nsi
stedon
hosti
ngt hischi
ll
asshemadesandwichesand
orangejuicesoyouactual
l
ysavedthedaywi t
hthi
s..
Thanky ou.
Me:
pleasur
e.
Nat
asha:
You'
reear
lyt
hough.
Me:Iknow..
.SorryIj
ustwantedtoseeyouI
'
ve
mi
ssedy ou.
..You'
vebeenreall
ydist
ant
.
Nat
asha:
..
..
Me:
hav
eyout
oldy
ourmom y
et?
Natasha:
No..
.Ican'
t.
..
.Ican'teventell
myt win
br
otherandweshareeverything.
..I
tisjusthar
d..
.
Me:
..
..
it
'sokayt
akey
ourt
ime.
Nat
asha:letmegoandbat
hI'
m sur
etheot
her
sar
e
ont
heirwaytoo.
..
▶Shewentt othebathr
oom andleftmeal oneinher
room.
..20minslaterwhi
leshewasst il
lbathi
ng
Candi
cearri
ved..
.Wehuggedandt alked..
.Befor
e
youknowitthewholesquadwast here.
..
..
Khomot
so:
YhoI
'
vemi
ssedy
ousonsofbi
tchez.
▶Wel aughed...Wewentt
othel
oungetowatchTV
andjustchil
l
.NoonewantedtoeatNat
asha'
smom
sandwiches.
..noone.
Me:
can'
tbel
i
evey
a'l
l
Kamo: sorr
ybuty
ouknowNat ashaal
waysthr
ows
herlunchboxaway..
.Becausehermother
s
sandwichesar
etrash.
..
Nat
asha:
fact
sss.
..
Khomotso:whydi
dyoul
ett
hepoorl
adydot
hem
though.
..
▶Nat
ashal
aughed.
Natasha:shewasexci
tedmanIcoul
dn'
tbr
eakher
heartl
iket
hat.
..
▶Wel
aughed.
Me: soWhatarewegoi
ngt
odowi
tht
hese
sandwiches?
Khomot
so:
Nat
hancaneatt
hem.
Candi
ce:
Notzamor
eskni
ghtshi
ningar
mor
Me:
fucky
ouCandy
.Wewi
l
lfeedt
hem t
othedog.
▶Wel aughed.I twasf unbeingwi ththesquad
again..Itwassoamazi ngt oseeNat ashasmi l
eand
l
aughagai n..
.Shewasdoi ngokay .
..Shet r
iedtobe
okay..Andshesucceeded. .
.Shewasher selfagai
n..
Al i
tt
ledi ff
erentbutstil
ltheTashweknowandl ove.
..
Itmustbehar df orhersoweunder standandwe
didn'
tt alkaboutitbecausewesawshedi dn'twant
totalkaboutherr apesowel etherbe.
▶Zwel
isentanSMS.Iopenedi
t.
Zwel
i:"nicetoknowthatyoucanact
ual
lyspend
ti
me..Butit
'scl
earl
ywitht
hepeoplewhomat t
er
ri
ght
?Hopey ouhavi
nthebestti
meofyourli
fe"
▶ Hemust '
veseent hepictureofme, Candi
ceand
Natashawit
hthecapt i
on" f
inall
yreuni
ted"Ipost
ed
onFacebook..
.Iexcusedmy sel
ffrom myfri
ends
andwentoutsidetocallhim.Heanswer edstrai
ght
away.
Me:
don'
tbel
i
ket
his.
Zweli:
How?Zamor eyousayyoul
ovemeandsayal
l
thesesweetthi
ngstomethentur
naroundand
i
gnoremef orhour
s..
Me:
Idol
ovey
ou.
..Babypl
easedon'
tbel
i
ket
his.
Zweli:
It'
sokay..
.I'
m nott
ri
ppi
ngngfi
sanj
engat
hi
Ungangithandanconokunal
okhuZamo.*
cal
l
ended*
Me:
shi
t.
..
.
▶Iwentbackt omyfri
ends,IsatbesideKhomot
so
..
..IsentZwel
imylocati
ononwhat sappanda
"
comef et
chme."t
ext.
Khomot
so:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yeah
▶Iwasn'
taboutt
otel
lmyf
ri
endsaboutmy
rel
ati
onshi
pwithZwelit
heywouldhav
ejudgedme
andshitsoIj
ustkeptever
ythi
ngtomysel
f.
.It
'sf
or
thebest
Kamo:
okayokay
..
.TRUTHORDARE?
Candi
ce:
trut
h
Kamo:
didy
ouordi
dyounotsl
eepwi
thMrZwane
Khomot
so:
wooowIwantt
oheart
hisone.
..
▶Candi
cel
aughed.
Candi
ce:
Idi
dnot
..
.
Me:
Youl
yi
ng.
..
Kamo:
Nooway
..Youl
yi
n.
Candi
ce:
okay
..
.
▶ShetookasipofherCruzdashedwi
tht
he
homemadeorangej
uiceNatasha'
smom madef
or
us.
Khomotso:
Candyt
ell
thet
rut
h..
.y
aboukut
hi
wenzani
Candi
ce:
I'
mlegi
ttel
l
ingt
het
rut
h..Wewentout
t
wiceandt
hatwasi
theghost
edmeaf
tert
heexams.
Me:
youl
yi
ng.
..
▶Wel
aughedather
.
Khomot
so:
argghmen.
.Sor
ryCandi
ce.
▶Wel aughedather
..
.Sohar
d..
.ThatKamotear
ed
up.
..Minut
eslat
ermyphonerang.
..I
twasZweli
.
Iwentout
sidet
opi
cki
tup.
Me:
Hel
l
o
Zwel
i
:I'
m out
side.
..
Me:
owkayI
'
m comi
ng.
▶Iwenti
nthefr
ontandIopenedt
hegateandwent
t
oZweli
..
.Wal
kedtowardst
hecarandIgoti
nsi
de.
Me:
..
..
.
Zwel
i
:.
..
..
.
Me:
I'
m sor
ryaboutSat
urday
.
Zwel
i
:.
..
.
Me:
..
..
.
▶Awkwar
dsi
l
ence.
Me:
Zwel
i
...
?
Zweli:Canwel
eav
enow?Ory
ougoi
ngbackt
oyour
fr
iends?
Me:
leav
e?
Zwel
i:onyourt
exty
ousai
d"comeandf
etchme"
di
dn'
tyou?
▶Idid?Ohman.
..Vi
ncesaidhewi
llcome..What
now?..
.Ahmmm..Thi
nkfastZeet
hinkfast.
..
.
Me:
..
..
Zwel
i:
youcangetoffi
fyounotcomingwi
t hme..
..
i
waski
ndabusyathomewheny outext
ed.
..So?
▶Damnni
ggachi
l
lI'
m st
il
lthi
nki
ng.
..
..
Me:
arey
oumadatme?
Zwel
i
:di
sappoi
ntedi
sthewor
d.
Me:
Zwel
iIsai
dI'
m sor
ry.
..
.
Zwel
i:
Iwasexcit
edtohavey
oucomeandwat chme
ZeeIt
oldmyfr
iendsyouwer
ecoming.
..Iboughtyou
stuf
ftosnackonwhil
ewatchi
ngthegame..
..You
knowsomet i
mesIfeell
i
keI'
mtheonlyonewho
wantsthi
srel
ati
onshi
p
Me:
that
'snott
het
rut
h.
Zwel
i
:damni
titZee!
!!
▶Hebangedt hedri
vi
ngwheelsohar
dIwas
shocked.Zwel
i
:don'
tpet
roni
seme
Me:
..
..Let
'sgo.
▶Wel eft...Wewentt ohi
shousei twasal ongdr ive
couldn'tbel i
ev ethathedroveov er40mi nst ocome
andseeme. ..Zwel i
mustr eallyloveme.Whathe
hadpl annedf ormeSat ur
daywassweetandI
disappoint edhi m.WhatIwasdoi ngtohi m was
reall
yunf air..
.Ilovehimtoot hatwast hepr oblem I
couldn'tfindi tinmyheartt ot el
lhimt hatthere's
someoneel sebecauseIlov edhi m. .
.Ireall
ydidIwas
i
nl ovewi tht women. .
.Vi
ncenamepoppedi nmy
head...Vince?OhmyGodVi ncehe' sgoingt ostart
call
ingmeandaskquest ionsaboutcomi ngt ofetch
me. .
.shit..
.
#I
NSERT92

▶Wearri
vedathi
shouse.
..
.ItLookedl
ikehewas
homeal
onebecausehi
sparentswerenothome.
Zwel
i
:youcangosi
tint
hel
oungeI
'
llbewi
thy
ou
nownow.
▶Iwenttositontheloungewhi
l
ehegotbusywit
h
somet
hingelse.
..
.It
ookoutmyphoneandtext
ed
Khomotso.
Me:
Ileft,
ifVi
ncearr
ivesorcal
l
syoutocheckupon
mepleasetel
lhi
m Iwenthomeearl
y.
..
▶Zweliwal
kedi
nandsatnextt
ome.Iputmyphone
onf
li
ghtmode.
Zwel
i
:so.
..
.
▶Webot
hlookedateachot
herandsmi
l
ed.
Me:
soo.
..
.
Zwel
i
:whatdocoupl
esdo?
▶Il
i
ghtl
aughed.
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..Wat
chTV.
▶Wespentt heaf t
ernoont ogetherwatchi
ngmov ies
andsnackingwithlotsofkissingandtouching.
..
.
Around4pm hisparentscamehomewewentt ohis
room Ihadtohide.
..Zweliclosingthedoor.
Zweki
:Idon'
tgeti
t.
..
Me:
what
?
Zweki
:wedon'
thav
etohi
de.
.Imeanwebot
h
gr
own..
.
Me:Iknow..Butitf
eelswr
ongit
'sl
i
kewearefamily
andnowwedat i
ngourpar
ent
shavebeenfr
iends
si
ncesince.
..Idon'
tthi
nkt
hey'
l
lagreet
othi
s.
Zwel
i
:yeahy
our
ight
.
Me:
I'
m al
way
sri
ght
..
.Comeher
e..
.
▶Ipul l
edhimt othebedandwest ar
t edki
ssing
again.
..Zwel i
skissesareperfect
..
.Idon'tknowIjust
enjoykissi
nghi m...Ti
melit
erall
yflewbywhenIwas
withhim, i
twast imeformet ogohomehe
requestedanUberIhadt osneakoutandgohome. .
.
Igothome. ..I
twasj ustme,thando,lesegoand
ThembaIfoundt
hem chi
l
li
nginthel
oungeIj
oined
them.
..Mydadhadwentout
..
..
Me:
Leedi
dyouendupgoi
ngt
othest
udi
o?
Lesego:
Nope.
..Gotl
azy
Me:
owkay
..
.
Lesego:
andy
ourday
?
Me:
Itwasj
ustaday
..
..
Lesego:
arghl
etmegoandbat
h..
.
▶Shewentupst airsIf
oll
owedher..
.Wegoti ntomy
room.
..Ihaveavoidedtaki
ngmyphoneof ffl
i
ght
modesinceIgother e.
.I'
mjustsoscared..
.Idon'
t
knowifVincecal
ledKhomot soornot.
...
didhecal
l
me?
Me:
LesegoIt
hinkImessedup.
Lesego:
messedup?
Me: y
eahy ouknowt hi
swhol et
hingisjustgett
ing
toomuchf orme...Il
ovethem bothandIcan't
choose..
.Ican'
t.
..I'
vel
etmy sel
ffal
lforZweli.
.I
didn'
tgetoutwhenIcould..NowI '
minlovewithtwo
guys..
.AndIdon' tseemy sel
fwithoutVinceandI
don'tseemy selfwit
houtZwel i
..
.Youknowt oday.
.I
di
tchedmyf riendsandVi nceinawayt obewi t
h
Zweli.
..Ienjoyedev eryminuteIdon'tr
egretbei
ng
wit
hhi m..Ijustr egr
etthehurtIwil
lbri
ngbot hVi
nce
andZwel iiftheywer etofindoutabouteachother.
▶Tear sst
art
edrolli
ngasIwasspeaki ng.
..Thi
s
sit
uati
onwasgetti
ngt ome...AndIdidn'
tknowhow
todealwit
hitanymor e..It
hinkthet
houghtoflosi
ng
them bot
handlosingt hesehappyfeeli
ngsIhave
hurtmeandthatmademecr y
.
Lesego:
arey
ouser
iousl
ycr
ying?
▶Shelaughedatf
ir
stt
hensher
eal
i
zedt
hatIwas
r
eal
lycry
ing.
Lesego:
Zeey
ou'
recr
azy
..
..Don'
tcr
y..
.Comeher
e..
.
▶Shecomf
ort
edme.
Lesego:You'r
egambl inghereandfri
endIwon'tl
ieto
you..
.withgamblingy oueit
herwalkawayhappyor
sadthere'
snoi nbet
ween. .
.Youwalkingawayhappy
outofthisiswhent hesetwoniggasacceptwhatis
goingon...Whi
chwi llnev
erhappen.Andy ouknow
t
hewor
stcasescenar
ioi
sloosi
ngt
hem bot
h.
Me:Iknow.
..Iknow.
..
Ijustwishever
ythi
ngwas
easy
..Whycan'twoment akeist
hembu
Lesego:
ist
hembu?Mxm
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Lesego:
I'
m goi
ngt
obat
h..
.
▶Shewenttothebathr
oom..
.If
inall
ygat
heredthe
st
rengt
htotakemyphoneoutoffl
ightmode..
.
Messagesst
artedcomi
ngthr
ough..
..
Zwel
i:"
Thankyouforspendi
ngt
imewi
thme,
Ireal
l
y
appr
eci
ateit
.Il
oveyou "
Zweli
:"Idon'
tev
erwantt
olosey
ou.Youmakeme
happy"
▶Irespondedwit
haheartemoji.Scr
oll
eddown
Khomotsobluet
ickedmymessage.Thisisn'tgood.
Missedcal
lmessagesst
artedcomingthru.3from
Khomotsoand2f r
om Vi
nce.1from Dad.Vincesent
aniMessage.
Vince:
"baby
,Khomotsotol
dmey ouleftear
ly
becauseyouwasn'
tfeel
i
ngalr
ight
..Areyouokay
?
Pl
easecal
lmewheny
ougett
his.
"
▶It ookadeepsi gh..
..I
nsteadofseeingt hi
sasa
chancetogathermyt houghtsandchooseone. .
.I
sawt hi
sasabl essingbothmyr elati
onshipsare
goinggood..
.Bothmymenar ehappy .
..Wegood.I
cal
ledVince.
..Andchangedmyv oiceIpretendedto
besick.
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
y eah..
.I'
m good.
..I
'
llbeal
ri
ghtj
ustal
i
ttl
edi
zzy
t
hat
'sall.
Vince:youcoul
d'
vet
oldmet
ocomeandf
etchy
ou
baby..
.
Me:Ihear
dthatyouwerewit
hpeopl
eear
li
ersoI
di
dn'
twanttodist
urbyoupapi
..
.
Vi
nce:
arey
oui
nbednow.
?
Me:
yes.
..
Vince:
okaysl
eept
ightokay
?I'
m of
ftot
hecl
ubIl
ove
you.
Me:
okay
..
.Il
ovey
out
oo*cal
lended*
▶Ial sotookabathminuteslat
er,LesegoandIsl
ept
earl
ybecausewewant edt ogoforar uni
nthe
mor ninat5am t
heal
arm wentof f
..
.Itwokemeup
fi
rstIshookLesegotoalsowakeup.
Me:
it'
sti
me.
..Hey
ywakeup
Lesego:
MmhAhy
i
Me:
tomor
rowne.
..
Lesego:
yes.
▶Webot hfel
lasl
eep.
..wokeupar
ound9shewas
al
readyawakesti
l
linbedbusyonherphone.
.WhenI
wokeupshelookedatmeandsmi l
ed
Lesego:
Mor
ningsweet
y.
Me:
Mor
ning
▶ Shi
ft
edt
ohersi
deandcuddl
edher
.
Me:
I'
m happyy
ou'
reher
e..
.Il
ovey
ou.
▶Shegi
ggl
ed.
Lesego:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
Me:
wewer
esupposedt
ogof
orar
uni
nthe
mor
ning.
..
Whathappened?
Lesego:
whydi
dweev
enpl
ant
ogof
orar
un?
Me:
whodowet
hinkwear
e?
Lesego:
Cast
erSemeny
a?.
..
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Ahy
..
.Sopl
ansf
ort
oday
?
Lesego:
Idon'
thav
ethem.
.Howabouty
ou?
Me:
met
oo.
Lesego:
you'
renotgoi
ngt
oseey
ourmen?
▶Il
aughed
Me:
No
Lesego:
let
'sgodoNor
thgat
e,i
t'
l
lbef
un
Me:
Nor
thgat
e?
Lesego:y
eah..
..
.Wewi
l
lwat
chmov
ies,
skat
e,eaty
ou
know..
.Gir
lti
me...
Me:
soundscool
.
Lesego:
soy
ougame?
Me:
yeahh
▶Wedi dourmor ningr outine...Madet hebed,
bathed, atebreakf astandwashedt hedi shes..
.
Around12am west artedget tingr eadyt oleave..
.
Outfitoft hedaywasMat chingout f
itswewer eboth
wear i
ngconv ersesneaker s,bumshor ts,whi t
etees,
choker sandwewer ecar r
y i
ngsl ingbags. ..Shades
on..Wel ookedr eall
ycut e..f
riendshi pgoals...We
request edanUbert henwewentt oNor thgate..
.Got
therewer oamedar oundt hemal lboughtmi l
kshakes,
tookpi ctures,wentt oLegi tboughtsomei tems...
Thenwewentt othei cer i
nkt oskat e.
..Idon'tknow
howt oskat esoIwasr eall
yset t
ingmy sel
fupf or
disaster...
Me:
arewer
eal
l
ydoi
ngt
his?
▶Lesegowaspurchasi
ngt
icket
sandget
ti
ngour
r
oll
erskat
eboot
s...
Lesego:
yesi
t'
sgonnabef
undon'
twor
ry.
▶Wegotourboot
sandwewentt
othechai
rst
oput
t
hem on.
..
.
Me:
Idon'
tknowi
fI'
m put
ti
ngt
hem oncor
rect
ly.
..
Someguypassi
ngby:
you'
redoi
ngi
twr
ong.
..
▶Hel
aughed.
Me:
see.
..Mxm.
..
▶Lesegol
aughed.
.
Lesego:
letmehel
pyou.
..
.
▶Shehel pedmewearmyr ol
lerskat
es, andshealso
woreher s...Wewalkedhandi nhandtot hei cer
ink
wegott her epeopl
ewer eshowi ngof
fskat i
ng
especi
allyt hewhit
ekids..
.Somewer ef all
ingit
l
ookedpai nful
whent heyfel
l.
..Iwasstartingtoget
scared
Me:
thi
sGonbey
ou.
..
Lesego:
lookatt
hem.
..
▶Showi
ngmeacoupl
eskat
ing.
..
Me:
Icandot
his.
..Ngekebang'
hl
ule.
..
▶Webot hlaughedandgoti
nside.
..Lesegost
epped
i
nfir
stwit
hinthe10secondsthatwewer eent
eri
ng
shefel
l
.
Me:
AhyngekeI
'
m get
ti
ngout
.
▶Ilaughed..
.Andheldonont hesides.
.Theguywho
walkedi
nwhenIwast r
yingtowearmyboot she
cameoutoft hestaf
fonl
yr oom weari
nghiswor k
uni
form Lookedatmeandgav emesmur k.
..Thenhe
shookhishead..
.
Me:
you'
remean.
.
▶Hecoul
dn'
thearmeduet
othenoi
sesohecame
t
owar
dsme.
Guy:
huh.
..
?
Me:
I'
m say
ingy
ou'
remewhyy
oul
aughi
ngatme?
▶Hel
aughed
Guy:sorryy
oustr
uggledtoweary
ourskat
es,
now
youstruggl
ingwi
thskati
ng.
Me:shewant
edtodothi
ssodon'
tbl
ameme.
..i
sit
pai
nful
whenyoufal
l
?
▶Lesegohel
dont
hesi
desoft
her
inkl
i
kemeand
cametous.
..
Lesego:
whatar
eyout
wot
alki
ngabout
?
Guy
:not
hingmuch.
youcut
e.
Lesego:
thanky
ou.
..Cany
oui
ceskat
e?comet
each
us..
.
Guy:Ij
ustgotheremyshi
fti
sabouttost
art
..
.Ican
t
eachy outhoughsomeot
herti
me..Youcangi
veme
yournumber..
.
Me:
hah!Iknewi
tyou.
.
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Guy
:byt
hewayI
'
m Dumsani
..
.Youguy
s?
Me:
Thi
sisLesegoandI
'
m Nomzamo.
Dumsani:ni
cet
omeetyoutwo..
.Letmegett
o
work.
..Rememberpr
act
icemakesperf
ect
.
▶Hel eftwestar
tedskati
ngbi tbybit.
.Wef el
lher
e
andthere..
.Smal
lvict
ori
eshereandt her
e..
.
Eventual
lygotahangofit.
..Dumsani cal
ledusto
thesi
dewhenwewer esti
llskating.
..Wewentupt o
him..
.
Dumsani
:notbadf
orf
ir
stt
imer
s,y
a'l
lar
epr
osnow
Us:
thanky
ou.
..
▶Wel
aughedbecauseweknewhewasf
ucki
ngwi
th
uswewer
eamess.
..
Dumsani : Idon'
twanttocomeoffasaj er
kor
disrespectfulbutmeandmyf r
iendsarewelcomi
ng
ahomi e,
hewasi ntheUKbuthe'
sbacknowsowe
throwinghi m awelcomehomepar t
y..
.Canyouguys
come?Pl ease
Lesego:
youdon'
tknowus.
..
Dumsani :
Iknow, i
t'
sjustawelcomepar t
yandyou
tooaredecentpeoplefr
om WhatI '
m seei
ngyou
won'tst
ealourshitoranyt
hingli
kethat.
..
▶Wel
aughed
Me:
wewi
l
lcome
Lesego:
wewi
l
l?
▶Sher
aisedherey
ebr
owssur
pri
sed
Me:
youdon'
twantt
o?
▶Dumsani wascute..Goodteeth,goodhair,
cute
eyes,
li
ghtski
nnedniggaswor l
dwi de..
.Sohe'
dmake
agoodfri
end,l
ookedl i
kehewoul dn'thur
taflyf
uthi
i
t'
sDecembercanIj usthav
ef un..
.
Lesego:
Idon'
tknow.
Me:
comeoni
t'
l
lbef
un.
.
Dumsani
:yesi
t'
l
lbef
un.
..
Lesego:
okay
..
.
▶Het ookLesegosnumber s..
.LesegoandIwer e
getti
ngt i
redofskatingandwewer estart
ingtoget
hungrysowewentt oar estaurantcal
ledCol'
cacchi
o
forpizzaandsomewi ngs..Weal soorder
edsome
cocktail
s..
.Dumsani call
edLesegoar ound4t otel
l
usthathe' sabouttoknockof fifwe'
resti
llar
ound
themal lwecangowi thhi
m. .Soweagr eedhecame
tofetchusatt herest aur
antandwewal kedtothe
parki
ngl ot.
.Myphonest artedringi
ngitwas
Khomot so
Khomotso:no"t
hankyouKhomot
sof
orsav
ingmy
assyest
erday
"nothi
ng?.
..
Me:
huh?
Khomotso:i
t'
scool .
..Justr
ememberthenextt
ime
uxakwaama-rel
ationshipsdon'
tcal
lmetomake
excusesf
oryou.
..You'reungrat
eful
mos.
Me:woahwai
t.
..Whati
sthi
s??babewhyar
eyou
at
tacki
ngme?
Khomot
so:
what
everZeeshar
p.*
cal
lended*
▶Whaat
..The.
..Iwassoconf
used.
..
Lesego:
what
'sup?
Me:
it'
sKhomot
sot
alki
ngabout
..
.
▶Inoti
cedDumsani
washer
eandal
socur
ioussoI
j
ustsai
d..
Me:
don'
twor
ryabouti
t.
..
▶Wef
inal
l
ygotatDumsani
scar
..
.
Me:
soar
eyougoi
ngt
othef
ront
?
▶Lesegol
aughed.
Lesego:
Uyaphaphane
Me:
justki
ddi
ng.
.
▶Iopenedthedoorandgoti
natt
heback.
..Legeso
goti
nthefr
ontwit
hDumsani.
..
Dumsani:
myf r
iendsareabitcrazyIhopey
ouguy
s
ar
en'
tshyoranythi
ngli
kethat.
..
Me:
crazy
?theydococai
neal
so?
▶Dumsani
laughed.
Dumsani
:that
'sabi
text
remeno.
..
Lesego:weknowpeoplewhodococai
ne.
.Itdoesn'
t
getcrazi
ert
hanthatsoyourf
ri
endsar
eokay..We
canhandlet
hem.
Dumsani:cocaine?WowMypar entsWouldkickme
out
..Takethei
rcar..
.Thei
rmoney.
..ev
ery
thing.
▶Wel
aughed
Lesego:
sameIdon'
tseemy
sel
fdoi
ngany
thi
ngt
hat
crazy
.
Me:
howol
dar
eyou?
Dumsani
:Iwasdoi
nggr
ade12t
hisy
earbutI
'
m 19.
Me:
real
l
y?
Lesego:
ust
oobutwe'
re18.
Dumsami
:that
'sgr
eat
..
.Readyf
ort
her
esul
ts?
Lesego:
let
'schanget
hesubj
ect
..
.Pl
ease
▶Wel
aughed.
.Wegotatmycr
ibwedr
oppedof
fthe
t
hingsweboughtthenwedrov
etoDumsani
shouse
i
nkemptonpark.Whil
eint
hecarIt
ext
edKhomotso
Me:"Idon'twhatt hatcallwasabout .
.Buty ouknow
you'
retr
ipping..I
'
m sor r
yIdidn'tsaythanky ou.
.But
youknowIwasgr atefulforwhaty oudid.
..Thank
youthough...
andpleasedon' teverspeaktomel ike
t
hat"
▶WegotatDumsani
shouse.
..I
twasagr
andcr
ib.
.
Wewal
kedinwi
thhim.
..
Lesego:
arey
ourpar
ent
shome?
Dumsani
:nahtheyar
eonhol
i
day
..
..I
t'
sjustmeand
mybigbr
other
Lesego:
okay
..
▶Wegoti nsi
de...OvermydeadbodybyDr akewas
pl
ayingreall
yloud...
.Hisbrotherwasshi rt
lessinhis
gamechai rpl
ayingGTA. ..Dumsani walkedi nthe
l
oungewef ol
lowedhi mlikelostpuppies..He
l
ower edthesound. .
.Hisbr ot
hernoticedushewas
al
socut emor ethanDumsani thoughhadt attoosal
l
overhisbodyhadmuscl es..
.Iwasdr ooli
ng.
Dumsani
:guy
sthi
sismybr
otherPer
cy.
..Youcan
si
tdown.
..
▶WesatDumsani wentt
ohisroom .
..Ther
ewasa
bowlofcerealwhereIwassupposedtosit.
.Anda
shi
rt
..
..Lol
itjustshowedthatpar
entsweren'
t
home...
Per
cy:
mmmh.
..Hi
Us:
hel
l
o.
Per
cy:
sor
ryf
ort
hemess.
..Ei
sh.
.
▶Hegotupandt
ookhisshi
rtandthecer
eal.
..And
pi
ckeduphi
smor
ningshoesonthefl
oor.
..
Per
cy:
whoar
eyouguy
s..
.?
Me:
NomzamoandLesego
Per
cey
:mmh.
.Okay
..
.Wantany
thi
ngwat
erorJui
ce?
Lesego:
Nahweokay
..
.
Per
cy:okay.
..
.Sowhi
choneofy
ousi
Dumsani
s
gi
rl
fr
iend?
Dumsani
cameback.
..Andhehear
dhi
m
Dumsani
:don'
tanswerhi
m..Let
'sgo
LesegoandIweredr
ooli
ngyer
rrsowej
ustgi
ggl
ed
l
etmej ustsaywebl
ushed.
Per
cy:
Brodon'
tcomebackst
il
lav
irgi
n..
.Makea
pl
an
Dumsani
:fucky
ou.
.
▶Per cylaughedwel ef t.
..Wedr ov eforabout10
minutesthenwegotathi sf r
iend'shouset hetime
was18: 03sonot hingmuchwasr eallyhappeni ng
whenwear ri
ved,therewasl i
ke5peopl e.West art
ed
smokinghubbl y,
hav i
ngf unconv ersationsj ust
chi
lli
ng..
.Thewel comepar tywasf oraf r
iendwho
gottheoppor t
unitytogoandpl ayov erseassohe
camehomef orthehol i
day shisfri
endswer eproud
ofhimitwascut ef orhi sfri
endst ot hrowasmal l
welcomehomepar tyf orhim. .Wer eallyenj oyed
bei
ngwi ththem andj ustmaki ngnewf riendsand
knowingnewpeopl e..Itwasf un...Mxm. .
..UntilIgot
acallwhichstart
edonar i
ghtpathbutt ookal eft
tur
nandwest artedar guing.
Me:
Idon'
tseear
easonf
oral
loft
his.
.Andy
ou
soundupsetwhy ?
..
.Noodon' tcome...Theywi l
ldrop
meof fatmyhouse. ..Around10..
.nodon' tcome..
..
Youmaki ngabigdeal ofoutofnothi
ng...They'
re
cool peoplekodwaIknowIdon' tknowt hem butisn'
t
thathowy oumakef riends?.
..I
'
m goingt oendt hi
s
callbecausey ou'r
eaboutt orui
nmyni ght..
..By
e..
.
No...Bye...*
callended*
Itwas21:09thepar
tywasgett
ingvi
beypeopl
ewer
e
arri
vi
ngthere'
snowayIwasleavi
ng.
..
.Myphone
rangagai
n..
.
Me:
baby
..
.Pl
easedon'
tdot
his.
Vi
nce:
sendmey
ourl
ocat
ionIwon'
tasky
out
wice.
Me:
okay
.*cal
lended*
▶Iwentonwhat sappandIsenthi
m myl ocat
ion..
..I
wasboredandannoy edmost
lydefeatedbyVinces
act
ions.
..IwentbacktoDumsani
sf r
iendsandsat...
Me:
Myboy
fri
endi
scomi
ngt
ofet
chus.
Shaun:
why
?
▶Shauni
sthef
riendwhotheymadet
hispar
tyfor
.I
shr
ugmyshoul
ders.LmaoIwassosadshem do
y
ouKnowThef eel
i
ngyouhavewheny ouwanttogo
t
oapartyandy
ourpar
entssayno.
..Iwasfeel
i
ng
t
hatpai
n.
Dumsani
:yi
kes.
Me:Iknow.
..Ya'
l
lar
esocool
enj
oyedbei
ngwi
thy
ou
guy
s
Shaun:
wewi
l
lhangagai
nri
ght
?
Me:
yes.
..Dumsani
owesusaI
ceskat
ingl
esson.
Dumsani
:IoweLesegonoty
ou.
.3i
sacr
owd
Me:
woooooow.
▶Wel
aughed.
..
.

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▶Manymi nutesafterhecall
edtot ellmethatheis
cominghear r
ived..
.Hecamei nl
esst hananhour,he
thencall
edmet ocomeout si
de...
LesegoandI
annoyingl
ystoodupandsai dourgoodby es.
..Got
nearthecarwewenti nsi
declosedt hedoorsandwe
droveoff.
..
.Itookoutmyphonei nmysl i
ngbag.
Me:
don'
tyouhav
eear
phoneswi
thy
ou?
▶Tal
ki
ngt
olesego.
Lesego:
noIl
eftt
hem athome.
..
Vi
nce:
youcanusemi
ne.
.They
'r
ether
e..
▶Reffer
ingmetothedashboardglov
ebox.Ijust
st
aredathim wi
tht
he"don'tt
alktome"eye.ThenI
l
ookedaway
Vi
nce:
baby
.
Me:
..
..
.
Vi
nce:
haw.
..Babe.
..
▶Het
ouchedmyt
high.
..Ir
emov
edhi
shandof
fme.
Me:
don'
ttouchmeVi
nce.
▶Lesegof
akecoughed.
Vi
nce:
what
'supwi
thy
ourf
ri
end?
Lesego:
chaangi
zingeni
..
..
Vi
nce:
guesswegonnadr
ivei
nsi
l
ence.
..
▶Vincewasmadi fhethoughtI
'dbecool
wit
hhim
comingt ofetchmeatpar t
yIknewIwassafein.
..
.I
wasn'thavingi t
..Nottoday.
.Nope.
..30mi
nutesl
ater
wearrivedinr osebankwewer eatmyhouse
fr
ontgate..
.
Lesego:
letmebounce.
..
▶Sheopenedt
hedoorandbounced.
Vi
nce:
so.
.You'
renotgoi
ngt
otal
ktome?
Me:
No.
..CanIl
eav
e?Iwantt
oleav
e.
Vi
nce:
youwantt
oleav
e?
Me:
yes.
..
Vi
nce:
arey
oumadatme?
Me:
mor
eli
keaggr
avat
ed.
..
.Youdi
dn'
thav
eto.
.And
t
hef
actt
haty
oudon'tseeany
thi
ngwr
ongwi
thwhat
y
oudi
diswor
ryi
ng.
..
Vi
nce:
whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
Ifeel
li
key
oul
owkeyl
i
ket
ocont
rol
me.
..
Vi
ncex:
cont
rol
you?Ar
eyouser
ious?
▶Hechuckl
ed.
Me:
laughi
t'
sfi
ne.
..
Vi
nce:
let
'sbeser
ious
Me: Vi nceIam ser ious..
..Youdon'twantmet ohave
"f
un"wi thouty ouaround. .
.Youdon't..
.Idon'tknow.
.
Don'ty out rustme?Youal way shavetof etchme
earlyorI 'm notgoingt herebecausey ousomehow
want edt obewi thmet hatdayt henIendupnot
goingout ..
.Igot oaf r
iend'shousey ouwantt opick
meupaf terwar ds.
..
.Andear l
ierthetextyousent
"youshowi ngt hesesmal lboysmyt hings"soon
you'l
l bet el
lingmenott owearshor tthings.
Vi
nce:
Ilety
ouwearwhaty
ouwant
..
Me:I'
m notsayi
ngy
oudon'
tbabyI
'
mjustsay
ingt
hat
soonyouwill
..
.
Vi
nce:
Youmaki
ngi
tsoundl
i
keI
'
minsecur
e..
.
Me:
thi
sconv
ersat
ioni
sn'
tgoi
ngany
wher
e..
.
▶Iopenedt
hedoor
.
Vi
nce:
List
en.
.Don'
tgo.
..
▶Icl
osedt
hedoor
.
Vince:l
ookI '
m sorr
yifIcomeof fascont
rol
li
ngor
j
ealous..Iseeitasprot
ecti
ngy ou.
..Andwanti
ngy
ou
tomy self
..
.Nothingnegati
ve.
▶Ishookmyhead.
Vi
nce:l
ookatme. .Imeanit.
.I'
m sorr
y..
.Youcan
wearwhateveryouwantwhenev er
..
.Youcantwerk
ev
en..
.It
'syourassthatIbor
rowsomet imes.
▶Ismi
l
ed.
.Mxm t
hisi
diot
.
Me: It
scut
et hough.
..Act
inallj
ealous..
..Nooneis
goingtostealme.I'
my our
s..Forever,
don'tf
orget
that.Sor
elax.
▶Rightther
eandthenweki ssedandwewer ecool
agai
n..
..Wespentacoupleofhourstoget
herinthe
carj
usttal
ki
ngunti
laround22:00Iwentinsi
de..
..
Gotinsidewenttothefri
dgetooksli
cesofPizza,
microwavedthem thenIwenttotheloungewher e
everyonewas..
.At22:17wewer eplaying30
secondsmeandThembawer etogethervsLesego
andThando."Bzzzzz"buzzeratt
hegat e..
.
Me:
coul
dbedadgoandopenf
orhi
m.
▶Thembast
oodup.
Thando:
Ifeell
i
keZamoandThembaar
enotbei
ng
fai
r.
.Whenthey.
..
▶ Dooropens( voi
ce)"woah..
..Wai
t..
.Wecangeti n
now"weal l
frowned.What '
sgoingon?(Voice)"you
reall
ydidn'
thav etodothisJason..
icanwalk"..
ThandoandIst ooduptogoandcheckwhatwas
goingon...
.Goti nt
hekitchenJasonwascar r
yingmy
dad...Helookedkindadrunk..
..
well
I'
veneverseen
him drunksoi shedrunkor?..
.Helookeddrunkto
me.
Me:
isheokay
?
Jay
:yeah.
.Just
..A.
.Li
tt
le.
..Bi
tdr
unk
Dad:
I'
m notdr
unk!
..
..Uphi
uNomzamo?
▶Hawubat
hongI
'
m her
e..
.
Me:
..
..
Dad:
Nomzamo?
?
▶Theywal
kedpassedus.
..
Me:
BabaI
'
m her
e..
.
Dad:
Buy
akubaba.
..Yeymaar
nNgy
ekeJason.
..
▶Het r
iedtowal konhisownbutst umbledona
stepthatleadst ot
helounge.
.Jaycaughthim..
.He
wenttot helounge..Hesatdown..
.Wewer e
foll
owingthem. .SoIsatonthecornerofacouch.
..I
wasshockedt oseemydadi nthatconditi
on.
Me:
wher
ewer
eyouguy
s?
Jason: br
uhIdon'
tknowwhathi m andmymom
drank..
.Justwal
kedinsi
dethecribtofi
ndmymom
asleeponacouch..Yourdadsaidmymom isa
partypooperhewantedhi
skids.
..hewantst
ogo
home. .Soherei
am..
.Idrovehim her
e.
▶Lesegol
aughed.
..Andt
handot
oo.
Me:
wtfar
eyouser
ious?
Jay
:Iswear
..
.
Dad:
wozal
aZamooo.
.Zamowam.
..Buy
ak'
baba
▶Didhedri
nkaNomzamobeer. .Whydoeshekeep
oncal
li
ngmyname...Iwentupt
ohim andsatont
he
cor
nerofhi
scouch.
..
Dad: f
irstbornyami.
..
.Yabowenabengf i
le
zothathwanguwei maliyami.
..
.MaraAhywonkeey
ungajabula..
.ThembaMel eayonakekel
aizinkomo
zami enatali
..
.Sonayeuzothol
aamasent shana
▶Thembaf
rowned.
Thando:dadst
op.
.Younotdy
ingwhyukhul
uma
ngokufa.
..
Dad:Thando..Shhhbant
ubay af
aeveryday
..
..
Every
daynamanj ekhonaocedaukufa.
..
Nkulunkul
u
akadl
ali
uyathatha.
▶Lesegowasdeadatt hispoi
ntsi
lent
lyl
aughing
tear
swereevencomingout..
.Mydadwasacl own
hewassodrunk..Thedrunkgest
ureshedid.
.He
wasuncl
eTerry.
Me:
don'
tyouwannagot
osl
eep?
Dad:ahy
yy.
..
.Yazmntwanamingi
k't
handanjani.
..
.
Mamakhoyenaakahambeayofa.
..Wedon'tneed
her
..Dowe?..Wedon'
t.
..WenaYou'r
eclev
er..
Umuhle.
.Awushodi
ngayemaarn.
Me:
dadIt
hinky
oushoul
dgot
osl
eep
▶Thi swasgoi ngtoturnoutreall
ybad. .
.AndIdon't
wanthimt oembarrassmeorhi mself..Whyi she
talki
ngaboutmymom al lofsuddenf uthiheis
drunk..
..
..IaskedJaytocarryhim upstair
s..
..Jay
did..
.Het al
kedtolesegooutsi
debef orehel eft
..
.We
l
aughedaboutmydaddr unktheatri
csaf t
erwards..
.
Eventuall
yweal lwenttobed..
.

▶ItwasThur sdayaf t
ernoon, daybeforeChr i
stmas...
.
Shitdaybef or
eChr ist
mas?Vi nceiscomi ngov erfor
Christmasluncht omor r
owoooohshi t.
..Iwasso
excitedyetscared..AndkeIhav en'
tt ol
dmydad. .
.
Any wayThandoandIar ehelpingLesegot opackher
cl
othes...Shewasl eaving..
..Iwasal itt
lebi tsadbut
si
nceshewast heonlychildherpar entsdi dn'twant
anymi staketheywant edherhomef orChr ist
mas. .
.
Wewer ei
nmyr oom musicwaspl ayingsof
tl
yint
he
backgr
ound.
..WeweredrinkingSkyyVodkadashed
wit
hKrushMangoflavor
edj uiced.
..
Me:
Mar
adoy
our
eal
l
yhav
etogo?
Lesego:
yes.
Me:whataboutme?WhataboutThando?What
aboutus?
..
..
Thando:
whataboutJay
?
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Lesego:
ya'
l
lar
edumb.
Me:
atl
easty
ou'
ref
inal
l
ygoi
ngt
oseey
ourboy
fri
end.
Thando:
wil
lyoumi
ssJay
?
Lesego:
No...Ofcour
senot
..
..I
twasj
ustv
ibes
nothi
ngser
ious.
Me:
Hmmmm.
..
.Wedoner
ight
?
▶Izi
ppedhersui
tcase.
Lesego:
Yes.
.hel
pmecar
ryt
hesebagsdownst
air
s?
Me:
Themba?
???
▶Hecamet
omyr
oom.
.
Themba:
huh?
Me:
car
ryt
hesebagsdownst
air
s..
.
Themba:
real
l
y?
Thando:y
esr eal
l
yit
snotl
ikeyouwer
ebusyt
alki
ng
toyourgi
rl
fr
iendorsomet
hing
▶Wel aughed...Hecar ri
edthem out ..
.Lesegogot
ready,thandohuggedl esegogoodby eandwentto
herroom. .Iwor emywhi t
esocks, pinkmor ni
ng
shoes,blackAdi dast r
acksuit.
..Whenwewer edone
prepari
ngwewal keddownst airsmydadwasi nthe
l
oungewat chingsoccerhi ghli
ghts..
.Wewentt ot
he
garagehet ookoutt heBMW ser i
esLesegoandIgot
i
nt heback. .
.Wet hendrovetot heORTambo
air
port..
.
Lesego:
pleasepr
omi
semet
haty
ou'
l
lcomeand
vi
sitme..
.
Me:Iwi
ll
Ipromisemay
beonJunehol
i
day
s..
..I
'
m
gonnamissyou.
..
▶Il
aidmyheadonherl
ap.
..
Lesego:y
ou'r
ejustgoi
ngt
omi
sscuddl
i
ngme.
..
that
'sal
lyoudo..
.
▶Ichuckl
ed.
.
Me:Yesthatandy
oumakingmebreakf
ast.
..It
hinkI
shoul
dmov etoCapet
ownwit
hyou..Whatdoyou
thi
nkdad?
Dad:
changeke.
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
Ipr
omi
sey
ounexty
earI
'
m comi
ng.
..
▶Wear r
ivedatt
heai
rpor
tIhel
pedlesegogether
bagsout
..
.Wehuggedandsaidourgoodbyes.
Me:
Ilov
eyou.
.
Lesego:
Lov
eyoual
way
s.
▶Shewenti nsi
de...MydadandIdr oveoff
..
.Dur i
ng
thedri
ve..Ireally
...real
lydidn'
twanttobri
ngupwhat
happenedt heot herdaywhenhecamehomedr unk.
.
Wecoul dn'ttalkabouti tbecauseifhewasn'thome
Hewaswi thmeandmysi bli
ngs..
..SoIr
eall
y
coul
dn'tfindt hetimet obringitup.Wewerenev er
real
l
yalone. .Sot hiswast heonlychanceIhad...But
thenagain..IhaveacceptedthatIwasn'
tgonnatal
k
aboutmymom. .
.I'
m nothingtol
etherrul
emylif
eI
meani fthewomanwant edt obeinmylif
eshe
could.
..Shejustchoosesnott o.
..
.
Dad:
youhav
eal
otony
ourmi
ndne.
..Yi
niuVi
nce?
▶Iwasseat
inginthefr
ontseatnow.
..Looki
ngout
oft
hewi
ndow...
Ichuckl
ed.
Me:
No.
..MeandVi
ncear
egood.
..
Dad:manj
eyi
ni?
..
.Lesego?You'
l
lseeheragai
n..
.
Don'
tworr
y.
Me:
Iknow.
..
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Dad:
yeah.
..

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▶It'
sChri
stmasday7am every
oneisup,wearei
n
thel
oungewaiti
ngforourdadtocometowit
hour
Chri
stmaspresent
s..
.
Thando:i
fIdon'
tgetani
PhoneI
'
m goi
ngt
olosemy
mind.
..
▶Il
aughed.
Thando:
whatar
eyouhopi
ngf
or?
Me:
Idon'
tknowhey
..
.
Themba:
Iwantacar
.
ThandoandI
:ACar
!!
!!
!?
??
▶Hewassoser i
oushedi
dn'
tevenfli
nch..
.We
l
aughed.
..Mydadwal
keddownstai
rs.
..Car
ryi
ngour
Chr
ist
maspresent
s.
Dad:
fat
herChr
ist
masi
sher
e.
▶Wesmi
l
edt
henl
aughed.
..
Me:
babar
ememberwhenwewer
eyoungy
ouused
t
odr
essl
i
kef
atherChr
ist
mas?Youwer
esoext
ra
Thando:
hadt
hebear
dandev
ery
thi
ng.
..
Me:
Thembausedt
ocr
ywhenhesawdadl
i
ket
hat
▶Thembaf r
ownedandweal llaughedathim...
Fat
herChrist
massatonhi ssofamysi bl
i
ngsandI
wereal
readyont hefl
oorhavi
ngcooki eswit
hmi l
k
watchi
ngChr i
stmasmov i
esjustli
keweal waysdid
whenwewer eyounger
.wedot hiseveryChri
stmas.
Dad:
who'
sget
ti
ngt
hei
rpr
esentf
ir
st?
Thando:
meobv
iousl
ybecauseI
'
m ol
d.
Me:
awa.
.awaev
eryy
eari
t'
sthando.
..
Thando:
I'
mtheol
donemos
Me:
bymont
hs.
..Ahyt
hando.
▶Shel
aughed.
Dad:t
hisget
shardev er
yyearokay
..
.Ngzoni
nika
beseni
wavulangeskhathi
esi
sodwa?
Me:
yes.
Themba:
yeay
eah.
..
▶Mydadgaveusourpr
esentsi
ndivi
duall
y.
...I
shookmyboxt
ohearwhati
tcontai
nedinside.
Me:
aret
heseshoes?
?
Thando:
Babat
hisboxi
sbi
g..
..Canweopennow?
Me:
boxEl
i
ngaka!
!
▶Il
aughed.
..
Dad:
ngzokwenzai
Count
down.
..
▶Weheardapapertear
..
.Thembawasal
ready
openi
nghi
spr
esent.
..
Dad:
hai
bo.
..Awume.
..Ngzobal
a..
Me:
Babaar
eyouser
ious?
Dad:
yebo.
..10.
..
9..
.8.
..
.7.
..
6..
..
5..
.4.
..
3..
2..
1
▶West artedopeni
ngourpresents.
..
.Themba
openedhisfir
sthegotaArsenalsoccerki
tandnew
soccerboots.
Themba:
Yhoooo!
!!
▶Hehel
dhi
sheadi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.
..
Themba:
Baba.
..
.Yhooo.
..Ngy
abonga
▶Hi sfacewasfi
ll
edwi t
hj oy.
..MydadandThemba
arehugefansofArsenal
...Sothepr
esentreall
y
madehi sdayandhewassohappy .
..Iopenedmine
second..
..
Me:
anal
bum.
..
dadReal
l
y?
▶Hai bowhyam Iget tinganal bum whileother
sgot
presentst hatar ewor tht housandsofRands. .
.I
openedi tont hei nside...Ithadpictur
esofmewhenI
wasst i
llababy .
..
.I 'v
enev erseenthesebefore.
..I
turnedov ert hepage. ..Ther ewasapi ctur
eofmy
mom i nhospi talcar ryi
ngmel ookedlikeshejust
gav ebi
rth....Anot herpi ctureofmymom, dadandI
sti
llatthehospi tal bedsmi li
ngtheylookedhappy
...
.andloadsofot herpi ctur
esofmymom andmy
dadondi nnert abl esatt hezoohai bo..
.Ofherwhil
e
shewaspr egnant , atcol l
ege...Il
ookedatmydad. .
Hegav emeapeacef ul smile.
..
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
▶Myhear twasreall
yreal
l
yheav ynoli
e..Iwas
over
whelmedbyt heemotionsIwasexperienci
ng.
..
.I
coul
dn'
tcryIwantedtoIcouldn'
tIappr
eciatedthi
s
gift
...
itmaynotbewor tht housandsbuti tmeantt he
somet hingt ome. .
.Itmust 'v etakenal otformydad
togivemet hisal bum. .
..Icoul dn'tunder standwhy
though. ..Likewhynow?I 'venev erseent hese
Picturesev eri nmyl ife..
.Ionl yhav etheoneIf ound
i
nhi sr oom. ..Ijustappr eci atedt healbum. ..
.Thando
wasnext .
..ShegotaMacBookAhyshem mydad
wast est i
ngme. .
.AR15000MacBookIdon' teven
havei Lapt opIt akehi swhenev erIwantt ousei tyho
hai.
..Kubi Kubi Iwassoj eal ous. .
..Thandoj umped
upanddownwi thjoy...
.Huggedmydad. .
..Aft
erthe
openingofpr esentswewat chedaChr istmasmov i
e
thenwewentt oourr ooms. ..WhenIgoti ntomy
room Isentmyboy f
riendsandmyf ri
endsMer ry
Christmast ext s...ThenIwentdownst airstomakea
cereal Iwasget ti
nghungr y....Mydadwaswat chi
ng
TVi nt hel oungeIwentt her eaf termaki ngmy
cereal....Isatdownandst ar tedeat i
nghewasso
i
ntot hemat cht hatwaspl ay ingbutIwant edtoask
aboutt heal bum Imeani tdoesn' tmakesensehe
could'vegi veni ttomeany ti
me. .It'
sanol dalbum. ..
Nott hatIdon' tappreciatei tbut ..Nah...
Me:
dad.
..
Dad:
..
..
▶Concent
rat
ingont
het
v
Me:
Baba!
Dad:
huh?
Me:
nev
ermi
nd.
..
▶Icont
inuedt
oeat
.
Dad:
chakhul
uma.
.Yi
ni?
▶Hepausedt
heTV.
Me:
chanot
hing.
..
Dad:
Zamo!
▶Hegav
emea"Iwon'
tasky
ouagai
n"l
ook
Me:
Idon'
tl
ikemyChr
ist
masgi
ft
.
▶Isul
ked
Dad:
why
?
Me:i
t'
sanoldal
bum Baba,
it'
sjustphotosandI
don'
tknowwhyyougavemeamapi ct
uresakhe.
..
.i
don'
tknowherandatt hi
spointI'm notevensureifI
car
eabouther..
.Yousaidityoursel
fthatshedoesn't
car
eaboutmewhyshoul dIcareabouther .
..Just
whenIthoughtwehavepassedt hi
sissueyoubr i
ng
i
tup..
.Andit'
syouwhodoesn' twantt hi
swomant o
bementionedoranyt
hing..
..
Dad: Ital
kedt oUncleTer
ryandhesai dsomethings
thatmademechangemymi ndaboutthi
swhole
situati
on...I
'm sor
ryi
fgif
ti
ngy ouwithyourmother'
s
album wi l
l makeyousad..
itwasn'
tmyi nt
enti
on..
.I'
m
sor r
ypr i
ncess.
Me:chait'
sokay.
..Iguess.
..
andIdon'
twanti
t.
..I
'
ll
gi
veitbacktoyou.
Dad:
pri
ncess.
..
Me:Nodadit
sokayIknowy oumeantwell
..
.let
'snot
makeabigdealoutoft
his.
..Thebigdeal
isthat
Vi
ncei
scomi ngforChr
ist
masl unch.
.
▶Mydadpoppedhi
sey
esoutandl
aughed.
..I
l
aughedt
oo.
..
Dad:
what
?
Me:
yes.
..
▶Ist
oodupandhur
ri
edt
otheki
tchen.
Dad:
Nomzamo.
.
▶Iranoutandwentbackt omyr oom....Itookthe
al
bum andwentt omydad' sroom andpl acediton
hi
sbed..
.Idon' twantt hi
shurtf
ulchapterinmyl if
e
anymoreLikengi GrandI'
m okay.
..Thi
swomani s
notinmylifeIdon' tevenknowhernamebutshe
hurt
sme...Ihav emyDadhel ovesmeandt hat
's
enoughhepl aysar oleofamot herandofaf at
her..
Heisenough. .
.Ileftmydad'sroom andwentt o
Thandosroom. ..Iknockedsheletmei n.
Me:
can'
tbel
i
eveukut
hiubabakhogav
emeanal
bum
▶Thandol
aughed.
Me:
Thandodon'
tl
augh.
..
.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Thando:
tohisdefensehej
ustwant
edtomakey
ou
happyhethoughtI
t'
dmakeyouhappy.
..
Me:f
oramomenti
tdi
dthenIwasl
i
keAhymaar
n
f
uckher
..
.
Thando:you'
veal
wayswantedtoknowaboutyour
mom sinceyoufoundoutt
hatwedon'
tsharet
he
samemot her
..
.
Me: I
'
m overt
hatstagenow.
..Idon'
twanttotal
k
aboutthi
sfut
hi.
..Let
sseeyourMacYohI '
m so
j
ealous.
▶Shepasseditontome.Ar
ound10mydadcalled
usdownst
air
sJayandhismom hav
ejustar
ri
ved..
.
Wewelcomedthem
Gr
ace:
gir
ls.
..Mer
ryChr
ist
mas.
▶ShehandedmeandThandosmall
gif
tbagst
hat
cont
ainedper
fumesf
rom ZARA.
Me:
Thanky
ouGr
ace.
Thando:
Thanky
ou.
..
▶Shebr oughtfoodthatshecookedf rom her
house.
...Itwasal otoffood..
.Damn...Mydad,
ThembaandJaywentout si
detobraaimeat.Iwent
upstai
rst ocall
Vincebecauset hi
ngswer estar
ti
ng
togetChr ist
masyher e.
..
Vi
nce:
Mywoman.
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
Papi
Ihopey
ouhav
en'
tchangedy
ourmi
nd.
..
Vince:Vi
ncehowar eyout
oday ?..
.Ilov
ey ouVi
nce,
comegety ourChr
istmaspresentVince..
..
nonof
that?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
Vince.
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.Youknowy
ourdadi
sscar
yri
ght
?
Me:
yes.
..Buthewon'
tdonot
hingt
oyou
Vi
nce:
babey
oul
yi
ng.
..
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
whywoul
dhehur
tyou?
Vi
nce:
Idon'
tknow.
..
▶Wel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
I'
m comi
ng.
..MustIbr
ingany
thi
ng?
Me:
justbr
ingy
our
sel
f
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.Whatt
ime?
Me:
around1.
.t
o2
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.Il
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.*
cal
lended*
▶Wentbackdownst air
st ocheckonGr acedidn't
wanthert
ogetbor edorany thi
ng.
..
.Justtokeepher
companyandcomf ort
able..
..Shewaspr epar
inga
desser
tWhileIsatonthekitchencounterchatt
ing
wit
hmyf r
iendsonmyphone.
Me:
sowhatdi
dyourmangety
ouf
orChr
ist
mas?
▶ Tr
yingt
omakeaconv
o,Gr
acechuckl
ed.
Gr
ace:
myman?
..
.
Me:
isi
twei
rd.
..
.Li
ket
otal
kabouthi
m?
Grace:
noit
sokay
..
.i
tsokay
..
.Hegotmeaneckl
ace
andawatch.
..
Me:
oooht
hat
'sni
ce.
Gr
ace:andwhi
ter
oses.
..Yourf
atheri
sanamazi
ng
man.
▶Yahnot
hisisawkwar
d..Tal
ki
ngaboutmydadno
Gr
acei
sweir
dandhim bei
nganamazingman..
.I
Justsmi
l
ed
Me:
mmmh
▶Zwel iandIweretexti
ng..
.Gr
acecaughtme
blushi
ngtohistext
..
.Itgotext
raawkwardnow.
.EyI
j
uststoodupandwentt othel
ounge.
..
and
respondedtoZweli
.
Me: I
'
dt i
eyouupi
nyourbedandI
'
llbei
nasexy
l
ingeri
e..
.
Zwel
i
:thi
schati
sget
ti
ngmor
eandmor
enaught
y..
.
Me:
andi
t'
sChr
ist
masweshoul
dbebehav
ing.
Zwel
i
:youst
art
edt
his.
..
Me:
me!
!!Zwel
ist
opl
yi
ngdur
ingt
hepeopl
e
Zweli
:babyyouaskedwhatwasIwear
ing.
..Andnow
I
'm bei
ngti
eddownYazangazi.
Me: .
▶Iloggedoffandwentt
otheki
tchenbecause
Gr
acecalledme..
.
Gr
ace:
cany
oupeel
thesef
orme.
.
Me:
sur
e..
▶Jaywal
kedpassedus.
Jay
:Mom,
Adakui
sher
e.
▶Adaku? ???Ehit'
sr eal
lybringyourboy fr
iendor
gir
lf
ri
endt oChr i
stmasl unchtoday...Hewentt othe
gateandcamebackwi thher .
..
iwaspeel i
ngapples
whenshewal kedinsoIwasf acingdown. ..When
shesaid"heymom, MerryChristmas"Ilookedup...
.
Myey espoppedoutIl ookedatJayt henlookedat
Adaku..Shewaspr egnant..
.Heav i
l
ysoshewas
wearingaChr ist
mashatandar eddr ess.
...
Me:
wowy
oupr
egnant
?
Adaku:
didn'
tJayt
ell
you?
Me:
obv
iousl
ynot
..
.Congr
atul
ati
ons.
..
Adaku:
thanky
ou.
..
.
▶Amadodanesi es.
..Hewascheati
ngonhi s
pregnantgir
lfr
iendhaiboIf
earmen...Adakuset
tl
ed
shejoinedmeandpeel edt
heappleswithme..
.At
12:35thandocamedownst ai
rsweari
ngar edbl
azer
skir
twi t
hblackheelsandaChr i
stmashat..
.
Me:
youl
ooksocut
emt
ase.
..
▶Mydadandt
heboy
sal
sowal
kedi
nwi
tht
he
meat
..
.
Thando:ni
theil
unchi
ngo1nowI '
m dressedlooki
ng
al
lpret
tyNomzamoi sst
il
lonherTracksuit
.Themba
i
snotdressed.Babai
ssti
llI
nhi
sANCt shir
tawa
guys.
Me:rel
axseewearedonewi
tht
heAppl
esnowI
'
m
goi
ngtotakeaBat
h..
.
Dad:
Manj
eiSki
ppaSami
seANCsenzeni
?
▶Wel aughed. .Iexcusedmy sel
fbef oret hando
kil
ledme. ..Shest art
edsettingupt het able..
.Iwent
tomyr oom t ookabat hfi
nishedandt intupmyf ace
Ilookedal lprettyIwaswear i
ngalongf loralpi
nk
dresswi thwhi tesandals.
..AndIwor et henecklace
Vinceboughtme. .
..Iwentdownst airst hetablewas
set..Foodwasont hetabl
e...Everythingwason
point..
.perfect.
..
.Thandowast aki
ngpi cturesinthe
l
oungeIj oinedher .
..
Thando:
Ilov
ethedr
ess.
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
Thando:
youshoul
dgoandt
akeaPi
cwi
thy
our
man..
.
Me:
Iwi
l
lwhenheget
sher
e.
Thando:
he'
shere.
..Ev
eryonewaswai
ti
ngf
ory
ou
phel
ahegother
e10mi nutesago
Me:
youl
yi
ng.
..
.
▶Wai tmyVi ncei shere....Iwentt ohi m strai
ght
awayhewaswi t
hmydadconv ersatingabout
somet hingkodwaIdi stur bedthem. .
.Wesmi ledand
hugged...Wellt
hiswasn' thardVi ncewasget ti
ng
alongwi thmydadandJay .Vincel ookedsogood
andhesmel l
edgood. ..Wet ookpi ctures..
.Wet ook
thousandsofpict ur
eswi theveryonef amilyphoto,
2by2gi r
lsonlygentsonl yy etletmet ellyouthisit
wasav erymerryXmas. ..afterwardswewentt oeat.
..
Vinceblendedinwi thev er y
onei twasgr eatthe
l
unchwasamazi ng.
..Ev eryonewashappyi twas
i
ndeedamer ryChr i
stmasatmyhouse. .
..
Dad:
Jasonar
eyour
eadyt
obeadad?
Jay
:Notr
eal
l
yitdoesn'
tfeel
real
yet
.
Vince:
Wai t
,Thi
sisy
ourgi
rl
fr
iend?Ar
eyounot
dati
nglesego??
▶OhhmyGodnooooooo. .ThetablewentquietI
ki
ckedVinceunderthetable.
..
Ichokedonr i
ceatthe
samemoment. ..Vi
ncewasr eall
ypuzzledhewas
genui
nel
yasking,Idon'
tknowwhohet houghtAdaku
was..
.Thandotookasi p.
..Mydadandgr ace
becameconfused..
.Adakuf r
owned...
.t
handoandI
madeeyecontactandlaughedsi l
entl
y
Adaku:
whoi
slesego?Jason?
Themba:
eshe
Dad:
Jasony
ou'
redat
ingLesego?
Me: No.
.Befor
ewi r
escrossfur
ther
..
.Lesegoismy
fr
iendwhowant edJaysoLesegoandIliedtoVince
andtoldhi
mt hatwemusthav eadoubledate
becauseJayisnowdatingLesego.
.Nothingser
ious
i
twasapr ankonv i
nce.
..
Adaku:
Apr
ank?
Me:
Yesss.
..Jaydoesn'
tev
enknowLesego
Jay
:Iwassosur
pri
sedIdon'
tev
enknowal
esego.
..
Adaku:
oh.
▶Weal l
Laughedatthe"confusi
on"..
.Thando,Jay
andIl
aughedext
rakengobaweal l
knewt hetr
uth
weconti
nuedtotal
kaboutotherthi
ngs...
Asfor
minaI
'm Nev
erevergossipi
ngwithVince.

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ary
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NSERT95

▶Af terthef ami l

yChr i
stmaslunchMyDad, Gr ace,
JasonandAdakul eft,theywentt oGr ace'
spar ents
house, soBasi callymydadwentt ohi sin-
lawsf ora
Christmasf ami lything...
heleftusbehi ndThando
wasi nherr oom andThembawasv isi
ti
nghi sf ri
end
nextdoor ..
.Vi nceandIwer ejustchi l
li
nginmyr oom
outsidethebal conysi tt
ingbesideseachot herwi t
ha
tabl
ei nthemi ddl eofust hathadt hehubbl ygl ass
andt wogl assesofwi neandabot t l
eofwi ne.Sowe
werej ustdrinki ngwi neandsmoki nghubbl yDr ake's
"Wednesdayni ghti nterl
ude"f tPARTYNEXTDOOR
waspl ayingi nt hebackgr oundthroughmyBl uet ooth
speakeri twasar ound17: 23thesunwasset ting
perfectscener y...
Me:
thi
sfeel
sper
fect
..
..
Vi
nce:
what
?
Me:
every
thi
ng..
.You,
thi
scol
dwi
ne,
thesunset
ti
ng.
..
I
'mj
usthappy.
Vi
nce:
I'
m happyt
haty
ou'
rehappy
..
.Iwassoscar
ed
tocomeher
ebuti
tendedupbei
ngt
hebestday
.
Thanky
oufort
hei
nvit
e.
▶Hesmi
l
ed.
..
Me:I
'm act
ual
l
ysur
pri
sedt
hatev
eryt
hingwentwel
l
...
Youandmydadgotal
ongver
ywell
...
Vince:ri
ght
..
.Yourdadi
sageni
us,
he'sagood
businessmannowonderhehasal
lthesel
uxur
ies.
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:ah..
.Sowhatdidyout
wot
alkabout
?Di
dyou
t
alkaboutbr
ingi
ngcows?
Vi
nce:
cows?
▶Hechuckl
edt
hent
ookasi
p.
Vince:
wetal
kedaboutbusi
nessmostlyyouknow
theeconomy
,pol
it
icsandsoccerj
ustguystuf
f..
.
Me:
babyy
oudon'
tknowany
thi
ngaboutpol
i
tics
Vince:
wow.
.justbecausewedon'tt
alkaboutt
hem
doesn'
tmeanthatIdon'tknowaboutthem.
..
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:wellweshoul
dst
artt
alki
ngaboutser
iousst
uff
yaboaboZumanaboMandelaso
Vi
nce:
butbabyMandel
aisdead.
..
▶Hel
aughed
Me:
mxm.
..
Vince:
andwet al
kedabouty
ouact
ual
l
y..Notabout
thecowsthough.
..
Me:
aboutmer
eal
l
y?.
..Whataboutme?
Vince:
yeah.
..
it
ssomet
hingy
oudon'
ttal
ktome
about.
..
Me:
what
?
Vi
nce:
yourmom.
▶Ishookmyheadt
henIsi
ghed.
Me:
whataboutmymom?
Vince:wedon'
thav
etotal
kaboutiti
fyoudon'
twant
to..
.Ir
eal
lydon'
twantt
oupsetyouwehadagood
day
Me:
Noi
t'
sokay
..
.
Vince:ahmmm heaskedmei fdoweeverspeak
abouty ourmom orhaveyouevermenti
onedherto
me...Becausehegift
edyouwi t
hherol
dphoto
al
bum andy oudidn'
tli
keit
..
.Sohewantedtoknow
wherey ourhear
tisatwit
hthiswhol
ethi
ng
Me:
oh.
.Andwhatdi
dyousayt
ohi
m?
Vince:nothi
ng...
.Becausethere'snot
hingtotel
l
real
ly.
.Wet alkedaboutyourmom t wiceIthi
nkand
thatwasi t
..
.Youdon'tli
ketalkingaboutherandI
respectthat.
..
▶Inoddedsl
owl
y.
Vince:
hewant syoutoknowhert hr
oughhim..
.He
thi
nksit'
ll
bebett
erforyou.
..Becauseyou'
veal
ways
l
ongedf orher
.
Me: whynowt hough?Idon' twantt
hatwomani n
myl i
feanymoreI'm happygenuinel
y.
..
.Ifshewants
toknowmet hensheknowswher emydadwor ks.
..
angit
hithat
'swhereshedr oppedmeof fandlef
tme
atthegatesoshemustj ustgotowheresheleftme
Vi
nce:
..
..
Me:
andIdon'
twannat
alkaboutt
his.
..
Vi
nce:
it'
sokay
..
..
▶Her
eachedf
ormyhandandcar
essedi
t.
Me:yoIcan'
tbel
iev
eyoupull
edthatst
untatt
he
l
unchtabl
eaboutJayandLesego
▶Wel
aughedsohar
d..
..
Vi
nce:Mami.
.It
'syourf
aul
tthoughf
orgi
vi
ngme
Hal
finf
ormat
ion..
.
Me:
myf
aul
t?.
..Hai
bowhodi
dyout
hinkAdakuwas?
Vi
nce:Thandosf
ri
endIdon'
tknow.
..Iwasn'
t
i
ntr
oduced.
▶Il
aughed
Me:
Jayal
mostcol
l
apsed.
..
Vi
nce:
didy
ouseehi
m?
▶Wel augheditoff.
..
.Around8pm afterdeli
cious
Chr
istmassexr oundsIaccompaniedVi ncetothe
gat
e,Ilethi
m outthenwentbackt othehouseIt ook
abaththencrashed..
.Iwassot i
red.
..
.Sat ur
day
morni
ngIwokeupwentt obrushmyt eeththenI
wentdownstairs.
..IfoundThandoandThemba
havi
ngbreakfast...
.
Me:andt
henwhyar
eyout
wodr
essedup?Ar
ewe
goi
ngsomewher
e?
Thando:
mxm..
.Ther
e'safami l
ygat
heri
ngf
rom
momssideoft
hefamily
..
..Idon'
twantt
ogo..
.Come
wit
hus?
Me:
Nonono.
.Thanks
▶Iwentt
othecupboar
dsandgr
abbedr
icekr
ispi
es.
..
Thando:
mtase.
..Pl
eeeeeease.
Me:
Noways.
.Sor
rymt
ase.
..Tel
lmom t
hatIsend
myl
ove.
Thando:
okay
..
.Thembahur
ryl
et'
sgo
Themba:
okay
▶t heirUberar
ri
ved,theyl eft
..
..Imademycer eal
thenIWentt othelounge....switchedont heTVthen
Iputon" Webarebear s"car t
oonsIst art
edeating
andr espondi
ngtotextsonmywhat sappand
Facebook...
.Myphoner ang
Me:
daddy
..
.
Dad:
Mubi
..
.Ar
eyouawake?
Me:
yeah.
.Why
?
Dad:Ij
ustgotof
fameet
ingcany
oucomet
othe
mall
?
Me:
now?
Dad:
yeah.
..Cal
lmewheny
ou'
reher
e.
Me:
okay
.*cal
lended*
▶Themal l
?Ir ushedt omyr oom. .Tookaqui ck
shower..Iwor eal ongbl acktightdresswi thaJean
j
acketwi thwhi tesandal s.t
ookabl ackslingbagand
putmyphone, Lipgloss,sunglasses, mybankcar din
i
tthenIr equest edanUber .
..
.gotatt hemal l
.Icall
ed
mydadhet oldmet oMeethi m attheAmer ican
swiss.
..Wai t.
.Pause. ..Amer i
canwhat ??Theysell
RINGSmost here!!!myhear tstart
edbeat ingfastis
mydadpl anningt o..haicha..
.Iputmyphoneback
i
nmybagandwal kedt oAmer icanSwi ssgott her
e
anduThembawasl ookingatrings...Heeejehova.
Me:
Dad.
..Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Dad:
..
..j
ustl
ooki
ng
Me:
justl
ooki
ng?Atr
ings?
..
.
Dad:
owkay
..
..Iwantt
opr
oposet
oGr
ace.
.
▶Idon'twanttolieandsayIfel
thappyort
hisdi
dn'
t
phaseme...Idi
dn'tunder
standwhatIwasf
eeli
ngit
wasn'
tpleasantthough.
Me:
Nodad.
Dad:
No?
Me:
eish.
..Idon'
tmeanno.
..butar
eyousur
e?
Dad:Nomzamo. .
.youfeelli
keit'
snotagoodidea?
YouknowIwon' tdoitifyoudon'twantmetoyou'
re
al
lIhaveyou'remyl if
e. .
.Ical
ledyouheresoIcan
haveyouropinionont hisandmay behel
pme
choosearingfory ourstep-mother
..
.
▶StepmotheryhoIt
ookasighandnervousl
y
l
aughed.
..Sothi
sishappeni
ng.
..Wow.
..
.
Me: i
tsyourchoi
cedadatt
heendoftheday.
..Il
i
ke
Graceshe'scoolbuty
hooAhydadi
sthisr
eal
ly
happeni
ng?
▶Ist
art
edgettinghotf
lashes.
..Outoft
hebl
ue.My
Dadl
i
ghtlaughed.
Dad:event
ual
lyi
twi
llhappenMubi
..
.Let
sgoget
br
eakfasthav
eyoueaten?
Me:Ihadacereal
..
..l
et'
sgo.
..Idon'
tev
enwantt
o
l
ookattheser
ings.
..
▶Idraggedmydadout si
deoftheshop..
..Wewent
toMuggandbean. .Theygaveusat abl
ewesatand
weorderedbreakf
astwebot hhadtheCalif
orni
a
omeletbreakf
astmeal,twochocol
atemuf f
insand
cappucci
nos.
Me:
thesemuf
fi
ns.
..Mmh
Dad:
they
'r
eni
ce.
..
.
Me:
soni
ce.
..
▶Myphoner
angi
twasBr
andon
Me:
Hey
yy.
..
.
Br
andon:
youseehowser
iousIam.
..
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:
okay
..
.Letmemakey
ourday
..
.I'
m def
ini
tel
y
pul
l
ingupt
oday
..
.
Brandon:youbet
terorIwi
l
lfet
chy ouatVi
nces
house..
.Decemberisal
mostoverandyou'
rebusy
si
nging"wemustchi l
lwemustchill
"
▶Il
aughed.
Me: okayBr andonbyebyeseeyoul
ater
.*cal
l
ended* .
..Dad,Ihavetobesomewher
eelse,af
ter
breakfastwe'releav
ingri
ght
?
Dad: Iwantustogoandgety
ouaChrist
mas
presentofyourchoi
cesi
nceyoudi
dn'
tli
kemi
ne.
.
That'
swhyIcal l
edyouher
e.
Me:
real
l
y?
▶Myey
esl
i
ghtup.
Dad:
yespr
incess..
.Andagai
nI'
m sor
ryIt
houghtI
wasdoi
ngtherightt
hing.
Me: dadI'
vepassedthat.
..Ol
dnews...Hist
ory..
.I'
m
notthereanymoreandcanwepl easenev erev er
evertal
kaboutthisanymoreli
kethat
'sburythis
i
ssuebecausewedon' tgainanyt
hingfrom it
..Idon'
t
careaboutitany
mor elet
'smoveonwi thourlives
pl
ease.
Dad:
okay
..
.
Me:
sowhatar
eyouget
ti
ngme?Phel
aIal
sowanta
MacBook
Dad:
ngeke.
..
iy
abi
zal
eyal
apt
op
Me:
it'
sAppl
edad.
.Duh
Dad:
andangekeuy
ithol
eduh.
▶Webot hlaughed.Af terbr eakfastwewentt o
Char l
ie'shairsalonIgotmyhai rdoneIdi dblonde
touchmyassbr ai dsmynai lswer estil
l goodsoIj ust
didpedi cures..
.Dadpai dandwai t
edf ormehenev er
doest hatheal way sl
eavesmebehi ndkodwat o
makei tupt omehewai tedf ormewhi l
eIgot
pamper ed..Thatwassocut eandcar ing3hour s
l
at erIwasdone. ..Wegr abbedMcDonal d'
sonour
wayhomewegothomeIpl acedmyMacdonal dsin
themi crowav ethenIwentupst air
st ochar gemy
phone, IcalledBr andont ocomeandpi ckmeup. .
..
Sinceear lyDecemberwe' v
ebeenpl anni ngtohang
outandsomet hingalway scomesupsot odayI
guesshegotf edupsowechi l
li
ng..
..Itookof fthe
l
ongblackdresst hatIwaswearingandIputona
bl
ackhigh-
waistedJean, myNikeairf
orcesanda
whi
teNikesweat erthathadapinkNiketickpr
int
ed
onit
.Il
etmybr aidsdownandIwor eapinkbeanie.
Br
andoncalledasIwasput t
ingonmyshoes.
Br
andon:
comeweout
side.
Me:
okay
..2mi
nut
es
▶AssoonasIwasdoneput ti
ngonmyshoesIwent
tomydad' sroom tol
dhim Iwasgoingtochil
lwi
th
Jasonandhi sfri
endshewascool wit
hit.
..Sohe
didn'
tgiv
emea"don' tcomebacklate"l
ectur
e.I
buzzedmy selfoutBr
andonwasi nawhitepoloIgot
i
nt her
ewast weezyinthepassengerseat.
Me:
HeyTweez
y
Tweezy
:your
eal
l
ygetpr
ett
ierandpr
ett
ierev
ery
day
damn.
Me:
Gir
lst
oppl
ayi
ngwi
thme.
▶Wedr oveoff
..
.Gotatthestudi
oitwaspret
ty
empt
yjustJason,Tweezy,Br
andon,Li
lmackandI.
Wewerejustchi
ll
ing,
li
steni
ngtosongs,smoki
ng
weedanddr i
nki
ngHennessey .Itwassocool andI
actuall
yr eal
izedthatthey'
renotbadal latallshem
ngathitheydon' tsmokedr ugslabantwana...They
didn'
tev endococai neduringthischi
lli
ngsessi onit
wasj ustgoodl aughsandgoodcompany ..
.At18: 08
acall f
rom Zwel icamet hr
oughIhav en'tt
alkedt o
hi
mt odayl i
keatall.
..
.Ianswerednonchal antly
Me:
Hey
▶Sai
ditl
oudl
ybecauseI
twaski
ndanoi
sy.
Zwel
i
:cany
oucomeout
side?
▶Ididn'
tevenhearawordhesai
d.Ist
oodupand
wenttothetoi
l
etoutsi
de.
Me:
uthi
ni?.
Zwel
i
:wowut
hini
??
Me:
yeahIcanheary
ounow.
..Ut
hini
?
Zwel
i
:wow.
..
Me:
what
?
Zweli
:Nahi
t'
swhatev
er.
..
.I'
m outsi
dethebui
l
ding
thaty
ou'
rei
ncanyoucomeatt hegate
Me:whatdoyou.
..Howdidy ou.
..OhFacebook(Ihad
post
edmylocati
on)..
.whatareyoudoinghere?
Zwel
i
:youcomi
ng?
Me:
yeah.
..Sur
e..
.
▶Myl i
femustbeaj oke..whati st hisni ggadoi ng
here?I fVinceknewwher eIwasnay engabeul a..
Mxm. ..
Ifoundmy selfwal kingt hrought heconcr ete
goingt ohi m..
.Thest udiobui l
dingi sact uallyso
ghet toit
sanunf i
nishedbi ghousewi thl it
erallyone
bigr oom thatwassupposedt obeal ounge/ dining
room i thasar oof,adoorandwi ndowsot herrooms
arej ustroomswi thnowi ndowsandnodoor s.
..Just
anunf i
nishedconst ruction...Thathasagr affitiarti
n
frontoft hehousewr itt
en" Deat hrowst udi os"lotsof
l
ocal Rappersusedt hisst udiot orecor dt heirsongs
soi twaski ndapopul arinr osebank. .
.Thest ory
behi ndthishousei st hatt heydeci dedt obuyi t
becauset heownerdi edwhenhewasst il
lbui l
ding
sohi swi fesoldittot heguy sbecausei twast heir
dream shecoul dn'tdoi twi thouthi m. .SoJay ,
Brandonandot hersboughti twitht heirowncash
nowt hey'r
efail
ingt of i
nisht hisbi gasshousemxm
l
etmenotbor ey ouguyslet'
sgot oZweli
..
.Hewas
i
ndeedout sidethestudi
opar kedoutsi
deofthe
gate.
..
.Hewasout si
deoft hecaronhisphonewhen
Igotther
e, heimmedi at
elyputhisphonebackonhi
s
pocketwhenhesawme.
Me:
Hey
.
▶Zwel istar
edatmeandshookhishead..
..Iwalked
towar
dshi mt henIt
ri
edtohughi
m hejuststoodsti
ll
anddidn'thugmeback..
Me:ar
eyouokay?I
sitbecauseIdi
dn'
ttexty
out
he
whol
eday?Idi
dn'
thaveair
ti
me
Zwel
i
:geti
nthecar
.
Me:
oh.
.Kay
..
.
▶Igotinsi
de.
..Hewentinnext
..
.Hebangedt
he
doorsohardandcl
ickedhi
stongueandhedr
oveof
f.
Me:bruharey
ouokay?Whyar
eyoul
i
ket
his.
..And
wherearewegoi
ng?
▶Wedr ovefur
therandfur
therandwetookaroadI
wasn'
tfamil
i
arwith..Ar
ewegoi ngtohi
shouseor
whatnomanwhat 'sgoi
ngonher e.
..
Me:
Zwel
ist
opt
hef
uckencar
..
..
▶Heparkeditinthemiddl
eofanemptyst
reet
,we
hav
entdr
iventhatlongt
obefarfr
om t
hestudi
o..
.
Me:
what
'sgoi
ngonwi
thy
ou?
Zweli
:you.
..You'
rewhat
'sgoi
ngonwi
thme.
..Ican'
t
bel
i
evey ouZee
▶Iwasconfusedasshi
tbecauseIdi
dn'
tknowwhat
het
alki
ngabout.
..
.
Me:
..
..
.
▶Het ookatsi gh.
..Tookhisphoneoutofhi spocket
andhepul l
edoutscr eenshot
sofpicturesfr
om the
Christ
masdi nner.
..
.Vincehuggingme, mekissi
ng
Vinceoj acheekf ami l
yPict
ureseveryt
hing.
..He
camewi t
hf i
lessot herewasnowayIwasgoi ngto
denythis..Wher eam Igoingtostart
.
Zweli
:shoul
dIgi
veyoumyphonesoy
oucanswi
pe
thr
oughtoseemorepi
ctur
es?
Me:
Iwantt
ogetoutoft
hecarpl
easel
etmeout
.
Zwel
i
:.
..I
sthatal
lyoucansay
?
▶ myheartcameoutofmymout hIwashol dingi
t
onmyhands. .
..I
twasbeatingsofast..
.Icouldn'
t
bel
ievewhatwasunfoldinginf
rontofme. .
.AndI
waskindaunderthei
nfluenceofalcoholyhoIjust
wantedtorunoutofhere.
Zwel
i
:di
dy ouandVinceeverbr
eakup?Didy
ouev
er
l
ovemeZeeory ouwerejustpl
ayi
ngwit
hme?Wit
h
myhear
t?
Me:
..
..
..
▶Zwel
ist
ormedoutofhi
sseatandst
rangl
edme.
..
..
Zwel
i
:answerme!
!!Di
dyouordi
dyounotl
oveme?
▶Hewassquuezi
ngmynecksohar
dIcoul
dn'
t
br
eat
hnorscr
eam..
..
Zwel
i
:Answerme!
!
Me:
..
..
.Youhur
ti
ng.
..
.me.
..
.Zwe.
.
▶Ifor
cedhimtol
etmegoev
ent
ual
l
yhedi
daf
tera
good2minut
es
Me:
whatt
hef
uckZwel
i
...
.
▶Iwassoscar
ednow.
..
.Soscar
ed.Heshookhi
s
headhewassohurtyoucoul
dseei
tinhi
sey
es,
they
wereredandf
il
ledwi
thhurt
..
.
Zweli
: If
eell
ikeafool
...Youshould'v
ejustt
oldme
thatyoudon'
tlovemeany more.
..Orsomethi
ngnot
thi
s..
.Iwouldhavelef
ty oualone..
.AsmuchasIlove
youZeeIwoul dhaveleftyoualone.
Me:
Zwe.
..
Zwel
i
:noZeeNoo.
..
▶Isatupstr
aight,
fixedmy
sel
fcheckedmyneckifi
t
wasn'
tbr
okenbecausewowheal mostki
l
ledme..
.I
f
acedtowar
dshi m..
.Hehadhi
sfacedown..
.
Zwel
i
:Ican'
tbel
i
evet
his.
Me:
baby
..
.I'
m Sor
ry.
..
.
Zweli
:sor
ry!Sor
ry?
..
.Pl
easegett
hef
uckoutofmy
carZeegetout!
Me:
li
sten.
..
▶It
ri
edconsol
i
nghi
m..
..
tr
iedt
ouchi
nghi
shand
Zwel
i
:don'
tfuckent
ouchme!
!
▶Hegotbackupf
astandhi
tmeacr
ossmyf
ace
wit
haslapI
'
veneverrecei
vedinmyent
ir
elif
e..
..He
hi
tmesohardIst
artedheari
ngthe"
zwi
ii
ii
ii
i
ii
ii
ii
"
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Zwel
i
:I'
m sosor
ry.
..
.Idi
dn'
tmea.
..
▶Het r
iedtoreachouttome. .
.Ilostmymindf
ora
fewsecondsIswear.
..ButthenitcamebackandI
hear
dhim sayi
ngheissor r
y
Mde:
pleasedon'
ttouchme.
Zwel
i
:..
.Idi
dn'
tmeant
o..
.
Me:
Zwepl
easel
etmeout
.
▶Adr opofbl ooddr oppedonmywhi tet-
shi
rt.
..I
wasbleedingZwel istart
edpanicki
ngandstart
ed
l
ookingforat i
ssue...Hegotitonandhepassedi t
ontomeIt ookitandIgotoutofhi spar
ent'
scar .
..
.I
sear
chedthr oughmysl i
ngbagandIgotmyphone
out.
..
.Heal sogotoutoft hecarandcamewher eI
wasstanding.
Me:
don'
tyoudar
etouchme.
Zweli
:please.
..
.Pleasef
orgi
vemeIdi
dn'
twantt
his
tohappen..
.I'
m sorry
▶Isteppedawayf rom hi
m...Ij
ustcoul
dn'tf
ace
him.
..Icouldn'
tbel
iev
ethatwast hezwel
iIhad
known...Howcouldhedothis..
.iwassoangryandI
coul
dn'tdeal.
..
Icleanedmybl eedi
ngnose. .
..
.andIwasokayi
na
fewmi nutes.
..Thefi
rstpersonItextedwas
Khomot soIdon'tknowwhybecausewewer e
fi
ghting.
.ButIguesst hehotslapreall
yhadme
dizzy.
..
Me:
pleasecomef
etchme(
emer
gency
)
▶Myf ri
endsandIuset he(emer gency)ref
erence
whenwe' r
ereall
yint r
oubleandweneedhel p..
.Just
togetoutofthesituati
on. .Sowecangethel pASAP..
Shewasof fl
i
neIt r
iedtocal l herbutshedroppedmy
cal
lssoIcall
edJason. ..Honest l
yIunderstoodwhy
shewasmadl i
kemymi ndr egist
ered2seconds
l
atethatshewon'ttextmebackoranswermycal l
sl
becausewe'recurr
ent l
yf i
ght i
ng..
..SoIleti
tsli
de.
Jasonpickedupaft erthesecondr i
ng.
Jason:
ey.
..
Me:
Jasoncany
oupl
easecomeandf
etchme.
..
▶Myv
oicewassosadt
onedandi
twasshi
ver
ing.
Jason:y
ouokay
?Wherear
eyout
houghty
ouwas
outsi
dearey
oulost
?
Me:I
'l
lsendy
oumyl
ocat
ionpl
easehur
ry.
..Iwanna
gohome
▶Myv
oicebr
okeIst
art
edcr
ying.
Jason:
okayI
'
m comi
ng.
Zwel
i
:pl
easel
etmedr
ivey
ouhome.
..I
'
m sor
ryZee
▶Hetr
iedt
oconsol
emeagai
n,hecamecl
oset
o
me.
Me:
zwel
iyoudar
efuckent
ouchmey
oudar
e..
..
Zwel
o:I
'
mreal
l
ysor
ryzee
▶Hebackedaway ..
.Heldhiswaistindisbeli
efand
eventuall
yhehadnochoi cebuttoleavemeal one..
Hegoti ntohiscaranddr oveoff
..
.Iwasl efti
nthe
middleoft heroadinv er
geoftearsIcri
edaf t
era
whil
e...
.Jasonev entuall
ypoppedupi nBrandon's
car.
..Hest oppedthecarv er
yroughlywhenhesaw
myst ate,hegotof f
...
Jason:whatt
hef
uck.
.Whyar
eyoubl
eedi
ngar
eyou
okay?
Me:
I'
mfi
ne.
.I'
mfi
nepl
easej
ustgetmehome
▶Iwasst
il
lcry
ing.
..
.Igoti
nsi
det
hecarJason
f
oll
owedme..
.
Jasom:whatthefuck.
.Yougon'hav
etotalk
becauseI
'm notl
eavi
ngherewit
houtyoutel
li
ngme
whathappened.
▶It
ookadeepsi
ghandt
oldhi
mfr
om At
oZ
Jason:theniggahadnoreasont
ofuckyouupl i
ke
thi
s..
..Areyouokayshoul
dwegot othehospi
tal
?
Me:
NoI
'
m okay
..
.
Jason: homeboyisf innagetit
..
.AndIdon' tcare
whaty ousayIcan' tbeli
evethatyou'r
emaki ng
excusesf orhimtalkingaboutyoudr ovehiminto
hit
ti
ngy ou.
..He'
sapi eceofshit.
..
.Youdon' tl
aya
handonanywomannomat terthecircumstances.
..
.
I'
m goingt olookforhim..Fi
ndhi m andfuckhim up..
.
Me:
Jason.
.Leti
tgo.
..
Jason:
didy
oul
ookaty
our
sel
f.
..You'
rebl
eedi
ng.
..
Yourcheeksar
ebr
uised.
..I
'
m notl
ett
ingshi
tgo.
..
Me:pl
ease.
..Idon'twantt
hist
hingtogof
urt
her
..
.
Pl
easeheapologizedheissor
ry..
.
▶Jasonj ustshookhi sheadandwecont i
nuedt o
dri
ve. .
..InmyheadIbel i
ev edt hatIdr ov eZwel iinto
doingt his, Ishoul dn'thav echeat ed,Ishoul dhav e
beenhonestwi thhi m. .
.Ibr okehi m. .
.hadIbeen
honestandl ovedhi m nonoft hiswoul d've
happened. ..Ideser v edthis...Imustapol ogizefor
hurtinghi m. .Idon' tblamehi mf orhitti
ngme. ..I
t'sall
myf aul tIdeser vedi t.
..
.Weev entuall
ygothome. .
.
Mydadwasn' taroundThandoandThembi wer en't
backy etei ther .
..Iwentt omyr oom goti nsideand
cri
edsosadl yforhour s.
...Iwashor r
ible...
.Islept,
wokeupt henextdayt o53mi ssedcal l
sf r
om Zwel i
and5messages. ..And10what sappt extsfrom
zwel i
...Tel lingmehowsor ryhei sandhowhel oves
meandwi shwecanmaket hiswor k..Thathei s
wil
lingt ogi v eusanot herchancei fIam wi l
li
ng...I
bl
uet ickedhi m Isleptr eallyear lylastnightsoIwoke
upear l
yar ound8. ..Istayedi nmyr oom anddi dn'tgo
out..
.Khomot solef tmeat extl astnight
Khomotso:
You'r
ear eal
l
yshi
tt
ypersoni
fyou'
re
usi
ng(emer
gency)asawaytogetmyatt
enti
on.
▶Ir
epl
i
ed
Me:
Nvm..
.AndIwasn'
ttr
yingt
ogety
ourat
tent
ionI
r
eal
l
yneededy
ou.
▶Vincelef
t2missedcal
lsIdidn'
tgetbackt
ohi
m..
.I
guesszwel
isawthatIbl
uet
ickedhim hecal
l
edme.
..
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Zwel
i
:pl
easedon'
thangup.
.Li
sten
Me:Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoy ounowzwel
i
..Pl
ease
l
eav
emeal one.*
cal
lended*
▶Ev ent uall
yIgotupwentt omybat hr oom t ooka
bath..
.Ihadbr ui
sesar oundmyneck. ..Myr ighteye
hadconj uncti
vit
is(
redey e)Iam l i
ghtski nnedsot he
brui
sesar oundmyneckwer ev eryv eryr ed...I
couldn'tbelievethathappenedt omehowam Igoi ng
toexplai nthistomydad. .
.Vince...Andt hando
they'
regoi ngt oaskquest i
ons....Istar tedcr yi
ngasI
reminiscedwhathadhappenedy ester day .
..Zweli
s
anger...Mebl eedingtell
inghimt ost opst rangling
me. .
.Ibrokedownandcri
ed.
...Musiconmyphone
stoppedplayi
ng,myphonestart
edringi
ng.
..
.If
ixed
my sel
fupandpr epar
edmyselftoanswert
he
phone...I
twasVince.
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
Me:
hey
yyy
Vi
nce:coul
dn'
tgetaholdofyoul
astni
ght
..
.I'
m
l
eavi
ngtodaydi
dy ouforget
?
Me:
No.
..
.
▶Iwasl
yi
ngIhav
e..
.
Me:
When?
Vince:
lat
erar
ound3.
..ComeseemeImi
ssy
ouand
Ineedtobewithy
oubefor
eIl
eave.
▶Seehim?Looki
ngliket
his.
..
.Ican'
t.
.Ican'
t.
."Thi
nk
ofanexcusef
ast
..
.Zamo..Thi
nkthink"
Me:
ahmmmm.
..Ican'
t.
Vi
nce:
..
.Why
?
Me:
I'
mti
red.
..Ihav
etobesomewher
e
Vi
nce:havetobesomewher
e?Ti
red?whi
chone?
Ar
ey ouokaybaby?
Me: y
esI'
m okayI
mjustt
ir
edy
ouknow..
.Andl
aterI
havetobesomewherewi
thmydadsoIhavet
o
rest
..
.
Vince:
pr omiseIwon'
ttakemuchofy
ourt
imej
ust
twomi nutes.
Me:
Idon'
tknowI
'
llseeby
e.*
cal
lended*
▶Itookadeepbr eat handf i
nishedmybat hing,went
tomyroom gotdr essedIwor eay el
lowhoody ,
blue
ski
nnyjeans,whitesockswi t
hsl eeper s..
.Iwent
downstair
s..
.Itookabananat henIwentt ot he
l
ounget owatchTVandgetmymi ndof fthings..
.My
hear
twasi nshambl es...Itwashur ti
ngsomuchI
coul
dn'teatanything...Ijustkeptont hinki
ngabout
Zweli
Icouldn'tstop...
.Jasondi sturbedmyt hought
s
andcall
ed
Jason:
howar
eyout
oday
?
Me:wokeupwi
thconj
unct
ivi
ti
sot
hert
hant
hatI
'
m
okay
..
Jason:
wtfi
sthat
?
▶Il
i
ghtl
aughed.
Me:theReyeyethi
ngthatoccur
swhenyourey
ehad
i
rr
it
ationorwhat
everIdon'
tknowIj
usthavei
t.
Jason:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
Me:
it'
sokay
.
Jason:
I'
ll
comeandseey
oul
ater
..
.
Me:
Jason.
..I
'
m notsi
ckcomeon.
..don'
tcome.
..
Jason:
okay
.
Me:
thanky
ouf
orchecki
nguponme*
cal
lended*
▶AnhourpassedIwasst
il
lont
hecouch.
..Vi
nce
t
ext
edme
Vi
nce:
wil
lIseey
oubef
oreIl
eav
e?Pl
easecome.
..
Vi
nce: pl
ease.
▶ IknowVinceisgoi
ngtoaskmanyquest i
ons
whenheseesmewi ththi
sr edeyeandthesebr ui
ses
ar
oundmyneck. .
.goingtherei
sreall
ynotanopt i
on
soI'
ll
justi
gnor
ehim...Anothert
extcamet hrough
Vi
nce:
Ifawuzi
thenMi
naI
'
m comi
ngt
oyou.
..
Me:
I'
m comi
ng.
..
▶HesentaGI
Fofadanci
ngmonkey
.
▶Iwentupst ai rs..
.Wentt hroughmydr awersl ooked
forascarff oundi tthenIwor eit..Wentt oVi ncent's
houseBlackcof fees" wedanceagai n"ftNakhane
wasplayingl oudwhenIgott here..Ijustopenedt he
doorandl etmy sel fin.
..Hewasn' tint heki
tchennor
thel
oungesoIwentupst airstohi sroom. .
.Iopened
thedoortohi sr oom hewasn' tthereei t
her.
..Figured
hewasbat hingorsomet hingsoIj ustst ar
edout side
ofhiswindow. ..Anddr ownedi nmyt houghts...He
cameinmi nut esl aterIjumpedwhenhewal kedi n...
Me:
youscar
edme.
Vi
nce:
youscar
edme.
▶Webot hchuckl
ed.
..
.Vi
nceletoutahugesmi
leand
openedhi
sarmsandcamet owardsme..Ismi
l
ed
andwehugged..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
vemi
ssedy
ousomuch.
..
Me:
missedy
out
oo.
..
▶Hegavemeaf or
eheadkisst
henwenttohis
dr
awer
stookoutalot
ionandstar
tedl
oti
oni
ng..
.
Vi
nce:wherewereyouy
est
erday
?Tr
iedcal
l
ingy
ou.
.
Younevergotbackt
ome.
▶Bef or
eIst
art
edtal
ki
ngIr
oll
edmyey
es.
..Vi
nce
not
icedmyredeye
Me:aaahnothingmuchwasinthestudi
owit
h
Jason'
sfr
iends..
.Wasn'
tpay
ingthatmuchat
tent
ion
tomyphone...Sorr
y
▶Isatont
hebed.
..
Vi
nce:
ohokay
..
.Youhav
eredey
e?Whathappened
Me:av er
ychi
l
lyspi
ceacci
dent
lygoti
nsi
demyey
e
yest
erday
Vi
nce:
sor
ry.
..
..
.Wasi
tbad?
Me:
yeah.
..ThoughtIwasdy
ing.
▶Funnythi
ngisIactuall
yt houghtIwasdy
ingwhen
Zwel
iwasstrangl
ingme. .
.soVincesayi
ngthi
s
br
oughtf
lashbackway'zolo.Vinceki
ssedmyeye.
Vi
nce:
sor
rycut
eey
e..
▶Ismi
l
ed.
Me:
mxm.
..
Vi
nce:
kant
iiScar
fsani
Kushi
saso??
▶Hel
aughed.
Me:
leav
emeal
one.
..
▶Iquicklybrushedi
tof fandwet al
kedabout
somethingelse.
.Het ookoutawhi t
eNi keAi
rt-
shi
rt
andblackNiketrai
ningshorts.
..Lot
ionedandwore
hi
sclothes..
.
Vi
nce:
youqui
ett
oday
..
..
.uf
unai
Kiss?
▶Hecamecl
osert
omeandl
eanedont
ogi
veme
ki
ss.
..
Vi
nce:
what
'swi
tht
hescar
fit
'
sreal
l
yhotout
side.
..
▶Het r
iedtotakeitoffmeashewaski ssi
ngme. .
.
WhenIsayI" pushed"hi m offme..
.It'
san
understat
ement .
..Ithr
ewhi m off
..
.Ifhewasn'tasfit
..
Hewoul dhavegot tenthroughthewal l
sandfellv
ery
far
..
..
Vi
nce:
woah.
..Babe!
▶Ist
oodupandf
ixedmy
sel
f.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..Sor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeant
o.
▶Hel
aughed.
Vi
nce:
whatt
hef
uck.
..
Me:
arey
ouokay
..
.
Vince:
yeah..
.what
'swi
tht
hescar
f.
..Ar
eyouhi
ding
something.
..
▶Iner
vousl
ylaughed.
..
Me:
hidi
ngsomet
hing.
..Ar
eyouj
oki
ng.
..No.
Vince:youact
ingweir
dabouti
t..
.Youneverweara
scarf.
..
.Andit
'shot
..
.Liker
eal
l
yhot..
.Thehoodie.
..
Me:
..
..
.
Vi
nce:
whatar
eyouhi
ding?
Me:
not
hing.
..
Vi
nce:not
hing?
..
..Youhav
eal
ovebi
tebecauset
hat
woul
dmakesense?
Me:
Idon'
thav
eal
ovebi
te.
..Come.
..
▶It
ri
edt
oki
sshi
m..Buthest
oppedt
heki
ss.
.
Vonce:
arey
ougonnat
ell
mewhat
'swr
ongornot
?
Me:
Vincenot
hingi
swr
ongi
tsj
ustast
upi
dscar
f
▶Thiswast aki
ngal efttur
n...AndIwasaboutt
ocry
becauseitwasget
tingt oomuchf ormeandIdidn'
t
wanttobehereinthef ir
stplaceandnowVinceis
aski
ngaboutthescar fsoonhewi ll
knowabout
every
thi
ng...
Me:dontknowwhyy
oumaki
ngt
hisabi
gdeal
.
Vi
nce:
becausey
ou'
react
ingshady
Me:
I'
m not
..
.
Vi
nce:
takei
tof
fthen.
..
▶Ihesi
tat
edt
otakei
tof
fbutev
ent
ual
l
yIdi
d..
.
Vi
nce:
whathappened?
▶Hecamecl
oser
..
.Hecheckedmyneck.
..
Vi
nce:
thesear
en'
tl
ovebi
tes.
..Whodi
dthi
stoy
ou?
Me:
it'
snot
hing.
..
▶Iwor
emyscar
fagai
n
Vi
nce:
I'
m notgonnaasky
ouagai
nZeewhodi
dthi
s
t
oyou.
..
▶It
ookasi
gh.
..Andst
art
edbi
ti
ngmyl
owerl
i
pin
f
ear
.
Vi
nce:maybeJasonwi
l
ltel
lmesi
ncey
ouwer
ewi
th
hi
my est
erday
▶Het
ookouthi
sphone
Me:
okayI
'
llt
ell
you.
..
▶ Ist
oppedhim.Vi
ncegav
emea"st
artt
alki
ngI
'
m
l
i
steni
ng"look.
Me: af
terwechil
ledJasonhadt odropAdakuather
house..
.Hewasgoi ngtodropmeof flast
..ButIhad
togethomeandchar gemyphonesoIsai dhecan
dropmeof fatSasolgar
age..
.Iwalkedhomei twas
around7..
.ii
nsi
stedongoingalone..
.
Vince:
yougotmugged?..
.Babywhydidn'
tyoucall
meIwouldhav ef
etchedy
ou...Andwhydidn'
tyou
tel
lme.Thatyougotmugged?
Me:becauseIknewyou'
dfl
i
pIdidn'
tev
ent el
lJason
ormydad...If
eell
i
keIbr
oughtt
hist
omy self
..
..
Vi
nce:
Mami
..
.
▶Hecamet
omeandhuggedme
Vi
nce:I
'
m sor
ryIcoul
dn'
tbet
her
efory
ouwhent
hey
muggedyou.
▶It r
anslated"sorr
yIcoul dn'
tbet hereforyouwhen
theymuggedy ou"into"I'm sorryIcouldn'tbet here
foryouwhenhehi tyou"Istartedsobbi ngagai n..
.
Tearsjustkeptonf l
owi ngVinceconsol edme.What
zwelididtomegotmesobad. ...Vincebecamemy
safeplacesinceIdidn'ttel
lany oneabouti t.
..Ifel
tso
safeandpr otect
ed...
.Hecomf or t
edmeand
reassuredmet hatitwasn'tgonnahappenagai n. .
.
Vince:
whatdidtheyt
akef
rom y
oubecausey
oust
il
l
haveyourphone?
▶ Cr
icket
s..
.

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▶Myphoner anganditautomat
ical
l
ysavedme
f
rom answer
ingVince.
..I
twasKhomotso.
Me:
Hel
l
o.
▶Vi
ncegotupandwentoutofhi
sroom.
Khomot
so:
Arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yeahnowI
'
m okay
..
..
Khomot
so:
whathappenedwantt
otal
kabouti
t?
Me:I'
ll
cal
lyouwhenIgethome.
..I
'
m atVi
nces
house.
Khomot
so:
okay
..
..
Me:
yeah*
cal
lended*
▶Hecamebackbr
ushi
nghi
sbr
ushcut
..
.
Vince:
Idon'
tthi
nkIshoul
dleav
eforDur
ban
anymore.
..
Me:
why
?Youshoul
dgo,
yourf
ami
l
ymi
ssesy
ou.
..
Vi
nce:
Iknow.
..Ican'
tl
eav
eyoui
nthi
scondi
ti
on
t
hough.
..
Me:
Vinceno.
▶Gui l
thel
dmet ight
..
.Icouldn'
tl
etVincecancel
his
Durbantri
pbecauseofbruisesIsust
ainedfr
om
cheati
ngonhim. .
.
Vi
nce:i
t'
sokayI'
l
lleav
einadayort
wo.
..Shoul
dI
or
derpi
zzafordi
nner?
▶Vi nceendedupcancel i
nghi sf l
ightWeor dered
pizzaandIspentt heni ghtathi shouse. .
.Hest ay ed
behi ndt ohelpmegett hr ought he" muggi ng"
situat i
on..
..Aspai nful
asi tis..I'
m gl adIgott okeep
Vincei nsteadofZwel i
...Ar oundVi nceIfel tsol ov ed
andcar edf orbyhi mI'
v enev erf el
tunsafeorscar ed
withVi nceev erythingjustf eltlikeheav en, fooli
shof
met or eali
zet hisnowandf oolishofmet ocheaton
him. ..I
tsuckst hatIhadt ogot hr oughwhatIwent
throughy esterdayt oreal i
zet hi
s. .
.Fri
dayni ghtVi nce
post edt heChr istmaspi cturesonFacebookt henhe
taggedme. .
.That 'showZwel isawt hepictures
Sat urdaymor ningandIdi dn' tlogonFacebookt hat
dayhenceIdi dn'tseet hatVi ncepost ed.
Vince:Ma'Dlaminii
ssojeal
ousngaley
't
hombeathi
ning'
tshontshil
eeki
niI
'm nol
ongercomingbackto
seeher .
..Sengyam'
zonda
Me:ncooh.
..She'
ssweetIwishIcanst
eal
youf
oreal
t
houghuhlaleekhay
aorngi'
Movein.
Vince:movein.
??Changekey
ou'
rest
ubbor
nand
spoil
ed.Ngekengi
kukhone
Me:
wow.
..
▶Wel aughed...MondayMor ni
ngVincewentt
o
DurbanandIwentbackhome. .Mybrui
seswere
muchbet t
er.
..Vincetreatedthem,gotmeeye
i
nfecti
onmedi cine..
..Igothomewentt omyroom
andjustchi
ll
edVi ncecalledme.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ouhome?
Me:
yesbabyI
'
m home.
..
Vince:okay
..
..
dontf
orgett
otr
eaty
ourey
eIknow
yo..
..
Me:
Vii
i
ii
nncee.
..Babycomeonr
elaxI
'
m notdy
ing
Vi
nce:
justdoi
t.
..
Me:
Iwi
l
lIpr
omi
se.
..
.
Vi
nce:
good.
.Cal
lyouwhenIgethome.
Me:
okay
..
..
▶Ichill
edatmyhouseanddi dn'tgoany where.
..
.
Didn'
tdoany t
hinginterestingthatday .
..
.Foll
owing
dayIwokeupgotonwi thmymor ni
ngr outi
ne,ate
breakf
ast,vi
deocalledVi nce,itwasj ustaslow
pacedmor ni
ng...Quit
ebor i
ng..
.Mydadwasn' thome
andmysi bli
ngswer estil
l notbacky et..
.Igotacall
fr
om Kamoar ound1
Kamo:
chi
l
d..Wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
home.
..Why
?
Kamo:
oScar
cemaar
nkeng?
▶Ichuckl
ed.
Me:
not
hing.
..
Kamo:
goodI
'
m comi
ng
Me:
comi
ngt
omyhouse?
Kamo:
yes.
..By
elov
eyou*
cal
lended*
▶Yhoy hoyho...I'
m notsur eifIwantt obearound
anyoner i
ghtnow. .
..Myf ami l
ynotbei ngar oundis
actuallyablessingandKamosay i
ngt hatshe's
comi ngov er.
..Ohl ord.
..Iwasn' tgoingt oberude
andt ellhernott ocomeandbesi desIr eall
ymi ss
her..
.SoIwai tedf orher .
..2mi nutesaf tert
hecall
shear rivedokayI '
m kindaexagger ati
ngwhenIsay2
minut esbutshear ri
vedabi tsoonert hanIexpect ed
..Ibuzzedheri nshewascar r
y i
ngabot tl
eof
Rober tsonwiner ysweetr ose,apackofFer r
ero
Rochechocol atesandabouquetofr oses..
..
Kamo:
heyy
ouu.
..
Me:
heyl
ove.
..
.
▶Wehugged.
Kamo: doyouwantt hesef
lower
s,becauseIwon'
t
beableabletoenterNtant
eMokoena'shousewit
h
thesebigassroses.
..
▶Ist
aredather
..
.Per
sonal
l
yIt
houghtt
heywer
e
mi
ne.
.j
okesonme.
Me:
kant
iar
etheynotmi
ne?
Kamo:
whywoul
dIbuyy
ouf
lower
s?
▶Shef
rownedr
eal
l
yconf
used,
thenwel
aughed
Kamo:don'
tbesi
ll
y.
.Mxm y
ouknowt
hatwhi
teboy
ne.
..
yhodon'
tdat
ewhit
epeopl
e..
.
▶Shewentplacedther
osesonthekit
chencount
er
andwenttot
heloungewit
htheotheri
tems.
..I
Laughed
Me:
sekwenzeken?
▶It ookoutav aseandpouredwateri
nitt
hen
placedtherosesinsi
de.
..
.Iwalkedtot
helounge
carryi
ngglasses.
..
Kamo:
youl
oveDr
akene.
..
▶Iwaspl
ayi
ngDr
akesmusi
cont
hesoundsy
stem .
..
Me:
yess.
..Sot
ell
mewhathappened
▶Isatdown.
.Ipour
eduswi
ne.
..
Kamo: okay..
.SoChr i
sandIhadpl anst oday.
.Not
j
ustplansmngani pr
operplansit
sour
monthivessary.
.okaysharpIwakeup, bathIl
ooked
pret
tyyabongi muhlenjani
..
.*si
pswi ne*
▶Inodded.
Me:
Umuhl
ekabi
myf
ri
end.
Kamo: t
hanky ou..
..Mxm any waysopr iortome
gett
ingreadyandlooki ngthi
spr et
tyChr i
ssaidI
mustlookextraext r
abeaut i
fulEhI'mlikeokay.
.
Maybewegoi ngt oaf ancyrestaurant.
..Shar
pIget
pret
tyyabomosIl ookl ikebeyonce...
.AthiImust
comeathi splaceAhyke. .I'
mlikeImustl ookextr
a
pret
tytogoathi shouse. .
.AnywayIr equestanUber
mngani Igotohishouse. .
.
Me:Yah.
..
.*si
pswi
ne*
Kamo:
yhoomngani
whi
temen.
.Yessi
s.Nxn
Me:
khul
umamaar
n..
.
Kamo: ei
sh...*
sipswine*okaysoIgetathiscrib..I
geti
n..Igreetyabo..
.HisLi
lsist
erstart
sbli
nd
fol
dingme. .
.Yhooatt hi
spointngi
thiyahI
'm going
todiemosl abelunguaregoi
ngt okil
lme..
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Kamo:don'
tl
aughitwascr
eepythegir
lhar
dlytal
ks
tomesoAhysheleadsmeintoChri
s'
sroom Iget
i
n..
.Chri
skissesme..
.hecompl
i
mentsmydress..
.I
t
ellhi
mthanksandIt el
lhi
mtoremov
ethi
sclothin
myeyes..
.Her emov
esit..
.
Me:
andthencandl
eli
ghtdi
nner
?That
haChr
ishe'
s
r
omant
icne.
..
Kamo:Heeef r
iend*sipswi ne*r omant
icvi
bes.
..
.Soft
musi
cplaying.
.Di candles...Rosesonthefl
oorgir
lI
wasi
mpr essedsoIst artcrying..
.
Me:
youandcr
ying?
Kamo:
Idi
dn'
tcr
yli
kehi
i
i.
.Sexycr
ying.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
..
Me:
andt
hen?
Kamo: y
hoIwashappyyouknow.."
Thankyoubaby
"
..Iki
ssedhi
m.."
Youdidn'
thav
eto"al
lthemovi
e
stuf
f
Me:
mov
iest
uff
..
.?
?
Kamo: he.emaar nZamo. .
.Sowet alk,
weeat
ever
y t
hingnicey ouknowt hevi
besmos. .
..
allofa
suddenf ri
endthispersonstar
tskneeli
ngand
confessinghislove.
..Yeyyeyyey.
..
..Ngit
hienden
what
'shappeni
ng.
..
.Chr
ist
akesoutapandor
ari
ng.
.
Me:
you'
rel
yi
ng.
..
Kamo: Iswear,
Ehmebei ngmeIwasshockedI
start
edthi
nkingkuthimosthi
smeanst hatImust
l
eav emysideniggasandmarryChr
is.
..YhoIst
art
ed
cursi
nghisass..
.Iaskedhi
m gor
ewhati shedoi
ng..
.
Me:
Ahy
..
.Why
??
Kamo: I
'
m 19Zamor e..Marr
iageyani??.
..YhooIwas
l
ikear eyouseriousrightnow...Mlunguwabantu
wassoshocked. .
..
.Itookthosef l
owers,thewi
ne
andthechocol aterequestedanUberandIcame
here.
..il
it
eral
l
yr anaway ..
.Becausewowwhy
mar r
iage?
▶Il
aughedf
orgood2mi
nut
es.
Me:wenaarey
ousurethatyou'r
eokayupst
air
s..
Whythedr
amay ouev
ent ookthewine.
.
Kamo:
:l
ist
enIdidn'
twanttoleaveal
coholbehind
andt
hechocol
ate..
..Ahyngekeheboughtthem f
or
memos
▶Shel
eanedt
owar
dst
het
abl
eandopenedt
he
pack.
..Herphoner
angi
twasChr
is.Shei
gnor
edi
t.
..
Me:wow...Icanbel
i
evethatyoudidthatbecause
uy
ahlany
abutIcan'tbel
i
eveitalso.
..
Kamk: eh.
..Zamoreareyoumad?.
..Mi
nav el
eI
st
artedseeingmyselfinawhi
tedr
ess.
.Isawour
mixedkidsy hooj
esu..
.
▶Shepour
edher
sel
fanot
hergl
ass.
..
Me:youknowi
tcould'
vebeenaPromi
ser
ing.
..
.I
doubti
twasanengagementri
ng
▶Kamopausedandcol
l
ect
edhert
hought
s..
.
Kamo:
youmi
ghtber
ight
..
.
Me:yeahkodwawenay
ouov
err
eact
ed.
..Poor
Chr
is.
..
.
Kamo:Ahychathatboyscar
edme.
..Any
way
enoughaboutmewhat'
sgoingoni
nyourli
fe.
..
Me: girl
..
..Mov
ie.
..SoZwelif
oundoutthatIwas
cheatingonhim..Hechokeslammedme. .Ji
ki
ji
kia
pool ofbloodi
scomi ngoutofmynose..
.Yhooo
Kamo:
noway
syou'
rel
yi
ng.
..
.
Me:
Eh
▶Ipul
l
edoutmyphoneandshowedherpi
cs.
..
Kamo:Noways.
..Zeedi
dyougot
othepol
i
ceor
somet
hing?
Me: Noy hoIj
ustdon'
twantthi
ssit
uat
ionto
escalat
e...▶Hecaughtme,wangshay
aitsfi
ne.
.
Kamo:
hecti
c..
..
shoul
d'
vet
oldVi
ncebekazomny
isa.
..
Vi
ncel
ooksli
keheoncepl
ayedboxi
ng..
.
▶Wel aughed. .
..West ar t
edget t
ingdr unk...
.Tal ked
alotofshi taboutni ggasandal loft hatst uff,
I
enjoyedbei ngwi thherandget ti
ngmymi ndof f
Zwel i
..
.Around3pm Kamocal ledChr i
sbecauseshe
wasmi ssi
nghi m, Chriscamet of etchKamot hey
arguedf oral ilbitthent heystartedki ssingcr azy
relat
ionship...Mi nuteslatertheyl efttoget herand
wentt oChr is'shouse. .
...Icl
eanedupt ookt he
glasseswewer edr inki
ngf rom tot hesi nkandIwent
tomyr oom wi tht hepacketofchocol ates...Goti nt
o
myr oom andIl ai dont hebedandat echocol ates..
.
At extfrom Jaycamet hr oughIopenedi t.
Jay
:Wegott
hatni
ggasAddr
esswef
innagot
ohi
s
house.
..
▶.
..
.Myhear
tbeatchanged.
Me:
Jaynopl
easedon'
tdot
his.
..
.
Jay
:wasj
ustgi
vi
ngy
out
heheads-
up
▶Icalledhimi
mmedi atel
ytostophimfr
om doi
ng
thi
sbecausehewasgoi ngtogetint
otr
oubl
e
becauseofme.Andalreadymuchhasbeendone
becauseofme...Zwel
iDidn'
tdeserv
etobebeat
en.
..
.
Heanswer edt
hephone
Jay
:yeah
Me:pl
easest
op.
.Leti
tgo
Jay
:youngniggahastolear
nthaty
oudon'
tbeat
womenup..
..I'
l
lsendpics
▶Hi
m andot
her
sont
hebackgr
oundl
aughed.
..
Me:
thi
sisnotf
unnyj
ay
Jay
:yeah.
.Lat
er*
cal
lended*

#NomzamosDi
ary
#I
NSERT98

▶Jasonst art
edi gnoringmeont hesoci al
s...Iwas
panicki
ngbusypaci ngupanddownandbi t
ingmy
nail
s..
.Myhear tbeatwast hrought her oof.
..Many
hourslaterIthinkaround7myphonest ar
tedr i
nging
Iwasi nthekitchenwi thmydadmaki ngspaghet t
i
andmi nce...Mydaddr aggedmeoutofmyr oom so
wecanmakedi nnertoget heronl yifheknewwhat
wasgoi ngoni nmyl i
ferightnow. ..Whenmyphone
rangandIsaw" Jay"wr i
tt
enont hescr eenIj umped
andleftthepot sIwentst r
aighttomyr oom..Closed
thedoorandIanswer edmyphone
Jay
:comeout
Me:
wher
e?
Jay
:out
sidey
ourhouse.
..
.
▶Icutt
hecal
lthenIwentdownst
air
s..
..
Dad:
Mubi
?Yi
niwal
okuugi
j
ima
Me:not
hing.
..Jaywaspassi
ngbysohecal
l
edmet
o
comeandseehi m.
Dad:
tel
lhi
mtocomei
n
Me:
Nodad.
..Andhe'
sinahur
ry
▶Ibuzzedmy selfoutandthenIwenttothegat e.
..
HonestlyIdi
dn'tknowwhatIwasgoi ngi
nto..Maybe
theyhaveZwel ii
nthebootallmessedup. .
..Ij
ust
hopethat'
snott hecase..
.whenIwentoutJaywas
withBrandonandot her2guy s.
..Jayopenedhis
doorandgotoutassoonashesawme. ..
Me:
pleaset
ell
met
haty
oudi
dn'
tdoi
t.
..
▶Br
andonal
socameoutoft
hecar
..
.
Br
andon:
wecookedhi
m up.
..
.Daaaaaamnn
▶Hi
m andJasonl
aughed.
Me:
thi
sai
n'
tfunnyguy
s
Jay
:itwasr
eal
l
yfunnywhenwewer
ebeat
inghi
m
up.
..
Br
andon:
look.
..
▶Brandonhandedmehi sphone,av
ideocl
ipwas
pl
ayi
ng..
.Hear
dav oiceofsomeonewhichwasZwel
i
i
nthi
scasescreaminghelpl
essl
ysayi
ng"Iwon'
tdo
i
tagai
n..
"
Me:
Idon'
twannaseet
hat
..
.
▶It
urnedaway
..
.
Jay:
comeonsee. .
.Youreal
lydon'
twantto?That
guyfuckedyouup...I
'
m sureyoucri
edyoursel
fto
sl
eepthatnight
..
..Asyourbrot
herIhadtodo
something.
..
.Sor
rybutIreal
lyhadto.
Me:
didy
our
eal
l
yhav
etoganguponhi
m?
Br
andon:onlyJayandThabangbeathim up.
..We
werej
usttheretomakesurehedidn'
ttr
yt or
unaway
.
Jay
:funf
acthedi
dtr
ytor
un.
..Mxm t
hatsnaai
▶Hi
m andBr
andonl
aughed.
Brandon:andyouwasn'tt
hefi
rstgi
rlhehi
tup.
..
.Or
thesecondone..Appar
entl
y
Me:
whot
oldy
out
hat
?
▶TobehonestIdi
dn'tbel
i
evethem..
.Zwel
ishowed
somuchr
emorseafterwhathedid.
..
..
Jason:somegi
rlt
hatknowshi
m...Heusedtodat
e
herfr
iend.
..
.WehavetogoAdakuhasbeencal
li
ng
menonst
op.
..
▶Her oll
edhisey es.
..Ijustshookmyheadandwe
parted..
.Ican'tbeli
evethishappenedsot heyreall
y
reall
ywentt obeatZwel i up..
.Isthiswhatol der
brothersdo?Iknowt heypr otectandst uf
fbutIr eall
y
didn'tt
akeJayasmybi gbr other..
..I
nawayIdi d
appreciatewhathedi df orme. ..Igotinsi
det he
housemydadwasont hephone. .
.Iwentbackt ot he
potsIleft.
..
.Themi ncesoupwasdoneIt ast edi
t..It
wasgood. .
.Iplacedthepanasi deandIst arted
grati
ngcheese. ..
.Mydadgotof fthephone
Dad:eyDecembercr
imes.
..Zwel
ihasbeen
hospi
tal
i
zed
▶Myheart
..
..Ist
art
edsweati
ngsamet i
me...
.I
dr
oppedasl
iceofcheeseonthef
loorbecauseof
i
Nerv
es
Me:
hospi
tal
i
zed?Whathappened?
▶"Bitchyouknowwhathappened"
..
..Shutup
consciousnotnow.
..
Dad:
hewasmuggedbekasho.
..
Me:
yho.
..
.
▶Icont inuedt ogr atemycheese. .
.MydadandIset
upt het ableandhaddi nner,thenwewat ched
"Grownups"don' tknowhowbutIf ellasleepont he
couchandmydadl eftmet here...BecausewhenI
wokeupt heTVwasswi tchedof fandmydadwas
nowher et obeseen. ..Iwal kedupst airstomyr oom
swi tchedont helightt henIpeepedt hecl ockitwas
3am. ..Undr essedandwor emyPj '
st henIgoti nto
bed. ..Checkedmyphone. .
.Vincecal led..
.AndZwel i
called. .
.Iblockedhi m soIgotanot ificationthata
blockednumbercal led...Ididn'tknowhowt ohandle
thisZwel i
situation. .
.Idi dn'tprepar ef oritorwantit
tohappenandt hingsar ealreadybadbet weenus
thent hi
shappensy ho...Ialsogotat extf rom
Khomot so
Khomot
so: Ireal
lydon'tl
i
kehowwe'
vetur
nedout.
..
.
I
t'
sli
keIdon'tknowy ouanymor
e.Wehavetot
alk
▶Ididn'
trespondIloggedoffandcont i
nuedwi t
hmy
sl
eep..
.Thingsar
eabi tshakybetweenusandweno
l
ongertal
kdailyl
ikeweusedt o.
..Aftershecall
ed
meoutonmywr ongdoingsIstarteddistanci
ng
my sel
f.
..Andshewasr i
ghtbecauselookwher eIam
now. .
.Wednesdayaf
ternoonaround12Thando
cal
ledmet obuzzthem inIwasstil
lasleepIdidn'
t
havetheenergytowakeupanddosomet hi
ng
useful
..
.Iwentdownstair
stobuzzthem i n..
.
Themba:
Didy
oumi
ssus?
Me:
Ofcour
se.
..
..Soni
ngi
phat
hel
eni
?
Thando:
umgosi
wodwa.
..
Me:
Hai
keIl
i
keumgosi
sout
hini
..
.
▶Thandol
aughed.
..Andwentt
othef
ri
dgef
orsome
wat
er
Thando:
I'
ll
tel
lyou.
..
.
▶Thembawentupst
air
stohi
sroom.
Thando:
Didy
ouj
ustwakeup?I
t'
sQuat
ert
oone.
..
Me:Iknow.
..Mxm If
eel
shi
tt
ytodaydon'
twantt
odo
any
thingnj
e..
Thando:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yesI
'
mfi
ne.
..
Thanf
o:hadbr
eakf
asty
et?
Me:
Ijustwokeupbat
hong.
..
.
Thando:
Eh.
..
.
Me:
wantt
omakemebr
eakf
ast
?
Thando:
angekeIj
ustgother
eandy
hoosi
sinev
er.
..
▶Wel aughed, webot hwentupst ai
rsIgoti ntomy
room andwentt otakeashower ...
.Itwas13: 54
whenIwasi nmybedhav i
ngaKi tKatlisteningto
musi candt het houghtt ov i
sitZweliresurfaced
again...
.Ij
ustshookmyheadandchangedt hesong
thatwason. ...I'
vebeent hi
nkingaboutZwel ithe
whol edaytoday .
..Ifeltr
eallyguil
tyabouthi m being
thereit'
sthe30t hofDecemberheshoul dbewi th
fri
endsorhi sf ami l
ybuti nsteadhe'sinbedal one
andi t'
sallmyf aul t
..
..IcreatedanaccountsoIcoul d
stalkhim onhowhe' sdoingmay behehasbeen
dischargedorsomet hing..
..Hepost ed3hour sagoa
pictureofhishandonaDr ipcaptioned"I '
m not
gonnal iekubuhl ungu "hisl
ocat i
onwasonhe
wasatChar lotteMaxekeHospi t
al..
.Ichuckledatt he
capt i
onandIwentt hrought hecomment s..Oneof
hismat esaskedwhathappenedher epli
edandsai d
"longst oryshortIgotjumped"hi sfri
endr epl
iedwi th
alaughingemoj i sodidZwel i
..
..I'
m goi ngtosee
him...Ifeell
ikeIshould...Imeanal lthisismyf ault.
..
Right?Hedeser vessomeapol ogyno?Iwasr eall
y
tr
y i
ngt otalkmyselfoutoft hi
sbutIcoul dn'tIended
uppr eparingtogot othehospi tal.
..
.ItookanUber
andi tdroppedmeof fatt heent ranceIwal kedi n.
..
Signedi nandIwentt ot her ecept i
onist..
.Anol d
whiteladywear i
ngbi gpr escribedgl asseswas
knit
tingwhenIwal kedupt othedesk. .
.
Ol
dLady:
hel
l
odear
..
.
▶Shecont
inuedt
okni
t.
..
Me:
Hi.
..
Oldl
ady:speakl
oudermydear
..
.I'
m ol
dyouseeI
can'
thear
.
▶Shewasspeaki
ngsosl
owwwwwl
y.
..
.
Me:
I'
m her
etoseesomeone
Ol
dlady
..
.Okay
..
..
▶Shesl
owl
ypl
acedwhat
evershewaskni
tt
ingasi
de
andt ookoffherglassesandwor eanotherpai
rof
glassesforthecomput er.
..YhoyhoyhoIlooked
aroundforsomebodyel sewhocanhelpbecause
there'
snowayt hisoldladywor ksher
e.Shecan
hardlysee.
..
.Andshe' sslowasf uckmaybethisi
sa
signIshouldn'
tbeher e.
...
Oldl
ady:v
isi
ti
nghour
sar
eendi
ngi
n20mi
nut
es.
..
.
Youcan'
tgoin.
..
▶Thi
sisdef
ini
tel
yasi
gnke
Me:
Please.
..
Ol
dlady
:No.
..
▶Shesl
owl
ywentbackt
oherchai
r.
..
.Hai
boHai
bo
hai
bo
Ol
dlady
:nextv
isi
ti
nghour
sar
eat6o'
cl
ock
▶Itwas14:37.Hai
bongekesurelythisi
sasi gn.
..I
j
uststoodther
ethi
nki
ngwhetherIshoul dleaveor
what.
..AsIwassti
l
lstandi
ngay oungnur secameto
t
herecepti
onandtookofhergl
ov es..
..
Nur
se:
Hi,
hav
eyoubeenhel
ped?
Ol
dlady
:she'
sher
etoseesomeone.
..I
t'
sal
ready
l
ate
Nurse:NoGlor
iai
t'
snot
,I'
m sor
ry.
..
.Comel
etme
hel
py ouqui
ck.
..
▶She'sGl oria??Mxm whyam Inotsur prised..
..
Samewhat sappgr oupasAuntGl or i
a,very
annoying..
..Ieventuall
ygotZwel i
sr oom number ..
.I
walkedtohi sroom IknockedNor esponse, second
knocknor esponse. .
.Islowlyopenedt hedoorand
l
etmy selfin..
.Hewasasl eep,IwalkedinIcl osedt he
door.ThenIwal kedtowardshim...Hisf acewasbad
hehadabandageonhi sforeheadandl eftar mt oo..
..
Me:
Zwel
i
...
▶Ididn'tknowwhatt odonow, doIwakehim upor
doIjustleave?...
.Myphoner angNickiMinaj
"Your
Love"wasmyr ingtoneanditwaskindaloudi
t
caughtmeof fguardItookmyphoneoutandI
swit
chedi toff.
.zweliwokeup..
..
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..Iwas.
..
.Ar
eyouokay
?
▶Igotcl
osert
ohi
m
Zwel
i
:I'
mfi
ne.
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
▶Hetri
edtosi
tupst
rai
ght
..
..Buthecoul
dn'
tsoI
hel
pedhi
m out
..
.
Me:
Iknowt
hatIshoul
dn'
tbeher
ebutI
..
.
Zweli:y
ou'reri
ghtyoushouldn'tbeher e.
..
.Uyabona
kodwanjezamoukut hinginjani?Kubewakhul uma
i
qini
soNt shangasengabeasikhol a.
..Ngyavuma
l
okhuengakwenzakonaak' vumel eki
le.
..Ngyaxoli
sa,
ngsaxol
isakuyimanje.
..
▶Ijustst
oodtherewhil
ehepouredhishear
tout.
..
AndIfel
tsoshit
tyforhowt
hingstur
nedout..
..
Me: IknowZwel i.
..Ican'tt ur
nbackt i
me. .
.I'
m sor r
y..
Andy oudidn'tdeser vethis..
.Ijustwant edtot elly
ou
facetofacet hatI'
m sor ry.
..Ishouldn'thavedone
thisfr
om thej ump...Ihopey ouforgiveme. .
..Ijust
didn'
tknowwhatt odoIcoul dn'
tbreakupwi thy ou
orVince...Ireal
lylovedy out houghmyhear tknew
thatIloveVincemor e.Ijustcouldn'tbreakupwi th
youbecauseIal sol ovedy ou. .
..
Zweli
:yeahwereall
ycan'
ttur
nbackt
ime.
..
.Wecan
onl
ymov eon.
..IAccepty
ourapol
ogy
Me:
I'
m si
ncer
elysor
ry
Zwel
i
x:I
t'
scool
..
.
▶Thenur
sewhohel
pedatt
hef
rontdeskcamei
n..
.
Nur
se:
Sor
ryt
odi
stur
byouguy
s..
.Buti
t'
sti
me.
..
▶Shesmi
l
edIsmi
l
edback.
..
Me:
I'
m goi
ngnownow.
..
Nur
se:
okay
▶Shewal
kedout
..
.
Me:
whenwi
l
lyoubedi
schar
ged?
Zwel
i
:lat
ert
oday
..
.
Me:
that
'sgood.
..Ihav
etogogetbet
terandI
'
m
r
eal
l
ysorryZweh
▶Heshookhi sheadandt urnedtothewindow...I
walkedout.
..Idon'tknowi fhehasf orgi
venmeor
whatbecausehesai d"i t
'scool"buthisfaceis
tel
li
ngmesomet hingelse..
..I'
vehurthimthoughsoI
underst
ood..
..Igothomear ound4pm mydadwas
around
Dad:
tri
edcal
l
ingy
oumubi
ubuki
uphi
?
Me:
Isawy
ourcal
l
...Youwer
esay
ing?
Dad:
wher
ewer
eyou?
▶Ichuckl
ed.
..AndIwenttomyroom gott
hereI
tookanapacallcamet
hroughar
ound7pm itwas
Vince.
Vi
nce:
Myhear
t
▶Ismi
l
ed
Me:
Hey
Vi
nce:
Ilov
eyou.
▶Imelted.
..
.Vi
ncel
aughed.
..Ar
gghIhat
eitwhenhe
doest
histome
Me:
you'
rer
eal
l
yannoy
ing
Vi
nce:
It'
sagoodthi
ngthatevent
houghI'
m mi
l
es
awayf
rom y
ouIcansti
l
l makeyousmil
e..
.
Me:
Howar
ethi
ngst
hatsi
de?
Vince:
ever
ythi
ngi
sokay.
..Todaywebought
fi
reworksf
ormybrot
her
'skids.
..
Me:
andy
out
oo.
..Whywenzangat
hiy
oudon'
tl
ike
t
hem
Vi
nce:
I'
m 25ofcour
seIdon'
tl
iket
hem.
Me:
li
ar
Vi
nce:
okayokay
..
..Amany
eewami
.
▶Wegi
ggl
ed.
Vi
nce:
cany
oubel
i
evet
hatt
hey
eari
sov
er?
Me:
whatay
earey
..
.
Vince:
whatagr eatyear
..
.I'
l
lneverf
orget2015.Best
yearofmyli
fe.
...
igotpromotedatwork,Imetyou,I
boughtahouse...
.Thoughther
ewereupsand
downsoveral
lthegoodout wei
ghsthebad.
▶Wi shIcouldsaythesame. ..WhenVi ncecounted
howgoodhi syearwasIr eali
zedt hatmyy earwas
reall
ybadandwi ththi
sZwel isi
tuationthingsjust
gotworse..
.Theonlygoodt hingtocomeoutoft hi
s
yearwerethemoment sIspentwi thVinceandmy
fri
ends.
..
.OtherthanthatIwasn'thappywi th/by
my sel
f.
..
.Nothi
ngt obeproudof ..
.Igotmommy
i
ssues,Vincesleptwit
hhisexandbr okemyhear t
thoughwear egoodnowt hatpainchangedme
becauseIdidn'texpectitfrom him, Igotpregnant,
mymar ksatschool decreased,Il
ostmyphone, my
relat
ionshi
pwithmydadgotshakenandIf eltso
alonethennowt ot opthingsoffIgotassaul ted.
..
my
souljustcr
ashedr i
ghtt hereandt henafterthose
reali
zati
ons
Vi
nce:
baby
??.
..
.
Me:
yeahi
thasbeenar
oll
er-
coast
er.
..
.
Vi
nce:
thr
oughi
tal
lI'
m gl
adIst
il
lhav
eyou.
Me:
met
oo.
..
Vince:andIcan' twai ttomakemor ememor ieswi t
h
you..
..2016isgoi ngt obeagr eaty earf
orus...You
aregoingt oWi t
st hat'soneoft hebesti fnotthe
bestuniversit
yint hiscount r
y..
..Youshoul dbepr oud
ofyourselfforgettingt hatscholarship.
..
.I'
m proud
ofyou
▶Itwasasi fVincewasr eadi
ngmymi nd..
.Though
alotofshithappened.
.Igotmy sel
fawits
scholar
shipAhymaar n.
..Ishoul
dbeproudof
my sel
f.
..
.Lif
eisli
kethatyoucan'tal
waysexpectto
havegoodseasonsal lt
het i
meal l
ongasGodhas
yourbacky ou'regoodandbesi desify
ourwantthe
tasteoffreedom y oujusthavetokeepgoi
ngandnot
focusonbadt hingsthathappenedtoyou.
..We
continuedtotalkf orawhile.

#NomzamosDi
ary
REMEMBERTOLI
KE,COMMENTANDSHARE.SEE
YOUONTHENEXTINSERT.
..LOVEYOUS.
#I
NSERT99

▶Lastdayof2015came, Iwashomewi thmydad,

mysi blings,mySt epmom andst epbr otherwe
basicallyjustsatout sideandchi ll
edbr aai dsome
meatshar edsomej okesandal loft hatgoodf ami ly
ti
me. .
..At23: 58Vi ncecal ledmewet al
kedf or5
mi nuteswewi shedeachot herahappynewy earand
madesomeaf fi
rmat ionsandweent eredt hey ear
witheachot heront hephone. .Thenmyf r
iendsand
fami l
ymember sst ar t
edcal li
ngaf ter war dswi shi ng
meahappynewy eari twasagr eatday /night...my
fi
rstfewday sof2016wer egoodi twast he5t h
whenKhomot soandIdeci dedt ohanggooutsi nce
wehav en'tseeneachot hersi ncel asty earandsi nce
alotwashappeni ngi nourl ivesDecember ...
.Itwas
9:23whenIwokeupandcheckedmyphoneand
browsedt hroughi t...At10am Iwal keddownst airs
ThandoandThembahadl ef talr
eadysoi twasj ust
meandmydadwho' snotar oundmostoft het ime
soi twasbasi callyj ustmeandonl yme. .
.Bor i
ngAFI
getdownst air
st her e'saplat ecov er edatt heki tchen
count erIwalkupt oi tandopenedi t.
..Ther ewas
eggs, 2xsausages, bacon, avacadoandwhi t
ebread
i
ni tandacupasi det hatwasempt yIpr epar ed
my selfacupofcof f ee..
..Mydadi ssuchasuper
dad...Iwenttot heloungeandIst artedeat ingturned
theTVon" Ar
ey outheone"waspl ay ing..
..watched3
episodesandwentt obat haround12: 34...I'
m
meet ingupwi thKhomot soar oundonesoI '
m sure
I'
llmakei tontime...OhboywasIpl ay i
ngmy self
around13: 23Iwaspi li
ngcl othesont hef l
oor
l
ooki ngforanout fi
twhi lenaked. .
..Ev erythingthatI
want edtowearj ustdi dn'timpressme. ..
..Khomot so
call
edmemyphonewasi nthebat hroom. .
..i
ranto
thebat hroom andanswer edit.
..
Me:
Babe
Khomo:Hey.
..Ij
ustdr
oppedRenei
l
weatThatosar
e
youdone?I
'
m onmywayt othemallnow.
..
Me: pl
easebondwithyourmamezal
afor3mi
ns.
..
I
'm sti
l
llooki
ngforafi
t
Khomo:
Ahyzamoy
ou'
reki
ddi
ng.
..
Me:
whatar
eyouwear
ingl
etmecopyy
ou.
..
Khomo:i
'
llsendyouaPi
cnowonwhatsapp..Hur
ry
hl
eIdon'
twanttobenearThat
osmom r
ightnow..
.
Me:
okayokay
..
.*
cal
lended*
*
Checksbat
ter
yli
fe*34%
▶Fuck. .
.Ichargedmyphoneandwai tedfor
Khomot sot osendaPi conwhat sapp. .
..I
'
m doi ngall
theseshenani ganswhi lenaked..
.Mxm Ibecomea
messwhenI 'minahur ry.
..
.Waitedf orthePicf ora
minutekodwai tli
t er
allyfel
tli
keanhour ..
..Shewas
wear i
ngaJeandr esswi tharedt opandsuper star
sneakr s..
.AhyAhyI '
m notsur e.
..
.VinceFaceTi med
measIwasst i
llmaki ngupmymi ndonwhet herto
copyt hisfitornot...
.Iansweredhi sphonebutI
turnedt hephoneawayf rom meandIpl acedi ton
mybed.
Vi
nce:
Hey
..
..
babe?
Me:
huh?
Vi
nce:
what'
shappeni
ng?Youl
i
kebei
ngcr
azy
..What
ar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m notbei
ngcr
azyIwaswear
ingmybr
a
▶It
ookmyphone.
..
Vi
nce:
whyar
eyoui
n..
..Ooooohf
uck.
.
Me:
stop.
..Don'
tbel
i
ket
hat
..
.
▶Ibl
ushedal
i
ttl
e
Vi
nce:
Wowshi
t.Thatbr
aisi
tlace.
..
?Daaamn
▶Heki
ckedhi
sli
ps
Me:Vi
nceplease.
..Thi
si snott
heri
ghtti
meIhaveto
l
eaveandyou'r
edistur
bingmer i
ghtnow.
.Whatdo
youwant
?
Vi
nce:
canIgetl
i
keaf
ull
view.
..Ofev
ery
thi
ng?
Me:
bye.
..
Vi
nce:baby.
..Nononookayokay
..
.Justal
i
ttl
evi
ew
pl
easeeee
▶Ishowedhimthev iewhewaslookingforIwas
weari
ngasetofli
ghtpurpl
elacebraandit'
slace
pant
ywhichwerekindacutesoIhadt of
launtformy
mantoshowhim whathewasmi ssing..
.
Vi
nce:
I'
m booki
ngt
henextf
li
ghtt
oJobur
gnow
▶Il
aughed
Me:
tal
ktoy
ousoonl
etmegetdr
essed.
Vi
nce:
don'
tl
eav
emeal
one
Me:
Vince.
..
..
Vi
nce:
okayokay
..
.*cal
lended*
▶Iendedupwear ingshorts, Nikesocksandmy
Nikesneaker s, abl ackgraphi ctshirtandasmal l
blackbag. .
.Addedsomeaccessor i
esIl ookedr eall
y
good. .Irequest edanUbert henIwentt ot hemal lI
foundKhomot sot herewhol ecturedmeabout
alway sbei ngl ate...
.Wewentt oMcDonal d'sjustfor
oldtimessake. .
..webot hor der edBi gMac, Chicken
foldover s,LargeFr i
esandLar geVani ll
ami lkshakes...
Wef oundat ableandwest ar t
edeat ingandwe
catchedup. ..
.Itoldherev erythingaboutZwel iIlef
t
nodet ailbehind, toldhi
m aboutVi nceandhow
happyi am withhi m now..
.My" new"f ami l
y, what
happenedonChr istmaswher eI'm atnowwi thmy
mom si tuati
onIj ustunpackedev ery t
hingf orherand
shedi dt hesame. ..
Khomo:
Bruhi
t'
sagoodt
hingt
haty
ou'
vedeci
dedt
o
putt
hissi
tuati
onasideit
'sfort
hebest
..Youcan'
tbe
al
wayspausingyourli
feforher
..
.
Me:Inoti
cedIwasdoingthat
..Al
way
sget
ti
ngsad
ov
ershitICan'
tcont
rol.
.
Khomo: yeah..
.Andt hisZwel ii
ssuesomet hingj ust
ain'
tsit
ti
ngrightwi t
hmebuti fy ouseei tthatway
thenwhoam I .?Igenuinelyfeel li
kehedeser vedit
andhedi dyousowr ongy oudi dn'tdeservet hat.
..
.
Nowomandeser vesthat.
...Idon'tcarehowhe
apologi
zedthat'swhatabuser sdoandt hef actthat
youwer enotthefirstgir
lhehi tshowst hatuj wayel
e
umasendakheNxnIhat emen. ...I
'mjustgladi t
's
overanddonewi t
h..
Me:
yeahmet
oo.
.
Khomot so:wegetti
ngourresul
tsonThursdayare
youready?Gir
lIcan'
tbel
ievethatwearedonewi t
h
school
..
.I'
m sonervousaboutThursdayi
tjustf
eels
sounreal.
..
Me:I
'vebeenblockingthoset
hought
ssi
ncet
hey
ear
st
art
ed..
..Yhoostreesss.
..
.
Khomot
so:
dipl
omaorBachel
ors?
Me:
Don'
tst
ressmehl
e
▶Wel aughedandcont i
nuedt ohangar oundand
enjoyourt imet ogetherforhours..
..Iwenthome
around16: 30buzzedmy sel
fingoti nsidethecr i
b
thenIwentt omyr oom,Ichargedmyphoneand
playedmusi cthroughmyBl uetoothspeakerwent
downst airstofetchAchampagnegl asst ouse
becauseIhadboughtmy selfKronechampagnegot
tomyr oom pour edmy selfaglassandIst arted
undoi ngmyhai rbecausewowj esokuni ni
ngachi na....Iwasst ar
ingatmy selfint hemi r
ror
singingt omy self
..
.Anhouri n,myphonest arted
ri
nging. ..After2secondsi tstoppedr inging..
Me: i
t'
sJanuar
ykonj
eabant
uabanamaai
rt
imebusy
buzzi
ngus..
..
▶Ist oodupandwentt othesi
det abl
eofmybed
wheremyphonewaschar gi
ng,tookitof
fthe
chargerthenIsatont
hebed. .
.*Opensphone*..
.It
s
Vince..
.Iwentonwhatsappbecauseheusually
buzzesmewhenhewant smet ogoonwhat sapp.
Vi
nce:
Doy
ouknowwhoZwel
ii
s?
▶Myhear tf
ell
onmyst omach. .
.Ijustst
art
ed
shakingthemusicstar
tedbeingtoolouditwasli
ke
thearti
stwasinmyr oom si
ngingloudmywor l
djust
start
edspinni
ng..Iswit
chedoffthespeaker.
..
.
Vincesentanothert
ext
Vi
nce:
?
▶It
ookadeepsi
gh
Me:
he'
sanol
dex
Vi
nce:
anol
dex?Youwer
edat
inghi
m Nov
-Dechow
i
sheanol
dex?
▶HesentaVN"ungang' sanganisi
zamo, don'tfuck
withme, notr
ightnow. .
.ri
ghtnowIj ustwantt he
tr
uth...Iwouldcal ly
oubutIcan'tbaret oheart he
soundofy ourv oi
ce..
.We'reyoucheat i
ngonme?Or
yout oower ejustfli
rti
ng?Confir
m withme. .Yesor
no...Becauset hisstupi
dnigga* hel
aughedi n
disbelief
*sentmey ourtextswithhi
m. .tal
kingabout
yout wowasdat i
ng.
...
whatisthatal
l about?"
▶Myheartwasbeat
ingsof
ast
...Ist
oodup.
..
St
art
edpaci
ngupanddownscratchi
ngmyhead.
..
.
Me:fuck!
!Fuck!
!fuck.
..
.Thi
scantbehappeni
ng.
..
Notnow..
.PleaseGod...Pl
ease.
..
.
▶Myphonestar
tedr
ingi
ng.
..
..I
twasVi
nce.I
answer
edi
t.
Me:
babyI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.I.
..Pl
easef
orgi
veme.
..
▶Istar t
edsobbi ng..
.Myv oicewasbr eakingandI
wasshaki ngsobad. ..Somet hinginsideofmej ust
knewt hatitwasov erallthel iesandwhatIdi dhav e
comet olight.
..
.IfVincefor givesmei twouldn'tbe
easy
...IknewIhadl osthim andi twassohar df or
metoacceptt hathenceIj ustcoul dn'tstopthet ears
fr
om comi ng..Ijuststar
tedcr yingIhavemessedup
andlosttheonl ymanIhav eev erloved.
Vi
nce:whatdoy
ou.
.OhGod..
.*
hetookadeepsi
gh*
whatdoyoumeanf
orgi
veyou.
.Andwhyareyou
cr
ying?
?
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
..
.I'
m sososor
ryVi
nce
Vi
nce:
stopcry
ing.
..You'
renotmaki
ngsense.
..
.What
ar
eyousorr
yfor?
▶Iendedt
hecal
l
...Andj
ustbr
okedown.
..Iwi
ped
myt
ear
sandt
ext
edhi
m
Me:
Icheat
ed.
.ImessedupI
'
m sor
ry.
..
.
Vi
nce:
wow
▶Her
ecor
dedaVN
"why? .
..WhyZamo? .
..*hechuckled*Ican'
tbeli
eve
thi
s..
..Soyouknowt heguy ?Thisdoesn'
tmakeany
sensebutmay beitdoesi t
sjustthatIdi
dn'
texpect
thi
sfrom you..
..Wowt hishurt
s..
..Buti
t'
sli
feand
youmadey ourchoi
ce...
."
Me:beli
evemewhenIt ell
youthatI'
m sorry
..I
t
wasn'
tsupposedtohappenitwasast upi
dchoice.
..
.
For
givemeplease.
..Il
oveyouVince.YouknowI
do.
..
.
▶Iwasdr owninginapool oftears...
.Theyjust
couldn'
tst opcomi ngout .
..
..Hedidn'trespondhe
wentof fl
ine...
.It
riedcalli
nghimi twentst r
aightt
o
voicemail...Ij
ustcrashed..
..Andcr iedalloveragain.
..
I'
venev ercr i
edsomuchi nmyl i
feitfeltl
ikemy
wor l
djustended. .
.IcalledKhomot so..
.
Khomot
so:
Missme?
Me:ImessedupKhomo. .
.Myli
fei
sover.
..ICan'
t
l
oseVince.
..
.Idon'
tknowwhattodo.
..
Khomotso:Zeewhyareyoucry
ingwhat
's
happeni
ng?Dudyou'
rescar
ingme..
.
Me:
*cont
inuest
ocr
y*
Khomot
so:
Zee.
..
.
Me:
Ican'
tl
osehi
m Khomot
soIcan'
t..
..
Khomot
so:
don'
tcr
y..
..Whathappened?
▶Icoul
dn'
tut
terorform apr
opersent
ence.
..
.
Hi
ccupsfr
om cr
yingtoomuchstart
ed.
..
Khomotso:hewillr
espond.
.Thisdoesn'tmeant
hat
hehasdumpedy ouhejusthasn'tr
espondedwaitf
or
hi
sresponseI
'm surehewil
lrespondI'
m soSorr
y
don'
tcry.
..
.
▶Mi nutesaftert
alki
ngwi
thKhomot soIwent
downstair
st odri
nkwater
..
.Ihadsuchahorri
ble
headache..
..Iwentbacktomyroom andfounda
textf
rom Vince
Vi
nce:
Iwishitwaseasyt
ojustf
orgetaboutthi
sand
moveon.
..Tr
ustmeIwishIcoul
d..
.Ilov
ey ouso
muchZamo, wit
hall t
hatIam andwi t
hall t
hatIhav e,
buthowcoul dItr
usty ouagai n?Howcoul dIlookat
youthesameaf terwhaty oudi dy ou'v
ebet rayedmy
heartandmyt r
ust...It'
snotl i
kewedi dn'
tspeak
aboutcheati
nghowwr ongitisaf terwhathappened
betweenNomal angaandI .
..Youknowi t'
swr ong..
.
It
'sokaythoughI'
llmov eonknowi ngt hatImadey ou
happyandIdon'tregr etti
mespentwi thy ou..
..And
shitI
'l
lpr
obablyalwy slovey ou.
..Idon'tseeus
comingbackf r
om this. .
.
Me:whatdoIhav
etodot
ofi
xthi
s?I
'
lldoany
thi
ngI
pr
omise.
..
Vince:al
lyouhadt owast obefaithfulandnotsit
withmeandhav esexwithmeandt el
lmet hatyou
l
ov emewhi l
ey ouknowt hatyou'
redoi ngshitbehi
nd
mybackcl ear
lyungezaisli
ma. .
..Idon'tseeus
comi ngbackfrom t
hisihopethet i
mesy ouhadwi t
h
him wereworthlosi
ngourr el
ati
onshi pover..
.don'
t
textmebackort rytocal
l me..
.IthinkI'm done
talki
ngaboutthisandI'
m donewi thus. .
..
#I
NSERT100

▶Myhear twasv eryshatteredaf tertalki

ngt o
Vince. ..Iknewt hatmyact ionshadhur thi m. .
..The
onlyt hingt hatIcoul ddoatt hatmomentwast ol et
him beangr yandcool downmay bewecant alk
tomor rowandt ryt osol vethings. .
.Aftert hecal lI
tri
edget ti
ngsomesl eepIf oundmy selfthinking
aboutmyl ifewi thoutVi ncei nsteadofsl eeping, how
l
onel yandsadIwoul dbe.Ir egrettedt hedeci sions
thatIhadt akenr egar di
ngmycur rentsituati
ont henI
startedt ot hinkaboutmymat ricresults...Anxiet y
yay i
ng' bambengamawashi nithatni ght.Icr iedt he
whol eni ght,wear eonly5day sintot henewy earbut
alreadymyl i
fei samessandt here'snot hingIcan
dot of ixthisVi ncest atedt hati twoul dbehar dt o
mov eonf r
om t hi sev enifhef or gavemeandwegot
backt ogether, ifIhadt hepower stomaket his
disappearIwoul d..
..

▶ Icoul
dn'
tsl
eept
heWednesdaymor
ningsun
foundmewi deawake, myey eswereswol l
enandI
hadamassi veheadacheIwokeupandwentt othe
bathr
oom. ..
.Cameback, l
otionedandt henIwor e
comfortablehomecl othes..
.ANi kebl acktracksui
t
andNikesl i
deswi thsockson. ...
Iwentdownst ai
rs
andImademy selfcof
fee..
.Itwasar ound8am .
Vincehasn'ttextedme, call
edorany thingheal so
hasn'
tblockedmeonsoci almedi a.
.that'sagood
signri
ght?Itexthim" Goodmor ni
ng"Mydadcame
downstairs.
Dad:
Goodmor
ning.
Me:
dad.
..
Dad:
howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m good.
..Ar
eyougoi
ngt
omakebr
eakf
ast
?
Dad:
youwantmet
omakey
oubr
eakf
ast
?
▶Ichuckl
ed.Hel
aughed
Me:
yes.
▶Heshookhi
shead.
Dad:
I'
ll
makey
oubr
eakf
astMubi
.
▶Hewenttothef
ri
dgeandtookoutsomei
temsso
t
hathecanmakemebreakf
ast
Dad:
aphumani
niamar
esul
ts?
Me:theyt
hinkwewil
lst
artget
ti
ngSmsest
oday
si
ncewear eapr
ivat
eschool
Dad:
Aret
heyst
ressi
ngy
ou?Youdon'
tl
ookokay
Me:
I'
m okay
..
..Justt
ir
ed.
▶Iwasst ari
ngatmyphone. ..Hopingt hatVi nce
wouldr espondbackorcal lme. ..
.Hedi dn'
t ..
.Mydad
mademeav erydeli
ciouschi ckensandwi chanda
fr
uitsalad..
.Hemadehi msel facupofcof feeIat e
andwet al
kedforawhi lebefor eheleftforwor k.
..I
wasn'tokaymyhear twasbr okenl i
terall
yt herewas
paininmyst omachandi nmyhear tIdidn'tf eelwell
..
.Ijustwant edtodrowni nmyt earsandj ust
sl
eep...
Iwentupst ai
rsgoti nsidethebedand
checkedmyphoneev erybodyonFacebookandon
mywhat sappwast alki
ngaboutt heresults...I
twas
annoying..
.Vincebluetickedmy" Goodmor ning"text
Isenthim anothertext
Me:
pleaset
alkt
ome.
..
.Wecanwor
kthi
ngsout
pl
easeIcan'
tloseyouVince..
.Ithappenedonceand
Il
ostmyself
..
.Pleasedon'
tleaveme
▶Ispentt her estofthedayinmyr oom t ookanap
andwokeupar ound17:30,Iwokeupt oaSMSf rom
school confi
rmingthatmyr esul
tshav earrivedIcan
fetchthem tomor r
owIdi dn'
tsendthe" sms"t hat
l
et '
syouknowbef oreyougot oschool ifyou'v
e
passedwi thBachelors,DiporHigh.Ijustdidn'twant
troubl
eIhadenoughal readyinmypl ate.Myphone
rang
Dad:
Igotamessagef
rom y
ourschool
.
Me:
DadIknow.
..
Dad:
Ithi
nkI
'
m ner
vousabi
t.
Me:
hai
bo
▶Webot
hlaughed.Mydadi
sdr
amat
ic
Dad:f
eel
sli
keI
'
dbef
etchi
ngmyownr
esul
ts
tomor
row.
..
▶Ishookmyheadandsmi
l
ed.
Dad:ngzok'
fonel
ango7getr
eadyGr
acei
nvi
tedus
fordi
nneratherhouse.
▶Dinner
?Ngi
brokenhear
tedkanj
e?Ican'
t.
.Nono
no.
..
Me:
Ahmmm.
..I
Dad:
I'
m nottaki
ngnof
orananswer.
..
..Iensur
ed
gr
acethaty
ouwouldbether
e.Shewantsy out
here.
▶Isi
ghed.
Me:
Okay
.*cal
lended*
▶Icoveredmy selfandt
urnedtot
heothersi
de.
..
I
openedmywhat sappgotintheGr
ade12of2015
groupchat.
..Scr
eenshot
sofwhattheypassedwit
h
werefl
yingitwasBachelor
sandDipl
omamost l
y.
..
GROUPCHAT.
Fr
ank:Sonoonehaspassedwi
thaHi
gher
Cer
ti
fi
cate?
Thapelo:bruhwewil
lseest
atst
omor
rowont
he
noti
ceboardsayi
ng
Bachel
ors:
10st
udent
s
Di
ploma:
45St
udent
s
Hi
gherCer
ti
fi
cat
e:107
Fr
ank:
,
Kamo:
Nat
han:
Mat
hsandsci
encest
udent
sar
ereal
l
yqui
te
Mduduzi
:theyknowt
heygot30%Mat
hs
Nat
han:
Lucia:Nathanyou'
real
soaMathsandSci
ence
student.
..Whatdoyouthi
nkar
eyourMathsmarks?
Nat
han:
NATHANLEFTTHEGROUPCHAT
Thapel
o:
Kel
etso: Nat
hanuf
il
esaan
Mar
ko:
NoZul
u.
Kel
etso:
Mar
koVoest
ek!
Thapel
o:
▶Mxm t hesepeopl
eIl
eftt
hechatandgotonmy
squadsgroupchat
.
THESQUADGROUPCHAT
Candi
ce:
Idi
dn'
tev
enbot
herSMSi
ngIdon'
twant
st
ress.
Kamo:
ISMSed
Khomot
so:
Uphasengani
?
Kamo:
Brav
eofy
out
othi
nkt
hatngi
phasi
l
e
Me:
Candice:
wherehavey
oubeen.
.?Mi
ssedy
oul
ast
ni
ght.Andtodayt
hewhol
eday.
Kamo:Str
essSamar esul
tisreal
..
.Andever
ybodybe
tal
ki
ngabouti
t.
..Ial
sowant edtoSwit
choffmy
phone.
Nat
asha:
MeToo.
Me:Matr
icr
esul
tsar
ethel
eastofmywor
ri
esVi
nce
dumpedme.
Kamo: nj
ani
manj
e?
Me:
bruhdon'
tl
aughI
'
m hur
t.
Kamo: I
'
ml aughi
ngbecauseUnamanga.
..
.Br
uhwe
weretoget
herjustl
astweek.
..Andy
ouwerethe
happi
estgi
r l
nowy ou'
resi
ngl
e?
Candi
ce:youwer
etoget
her
?Wowt
her
e'spr
ivat
e
meeti
ngsnow
Nat
asha:
youwer
eatmypl
acey
est
erdayCandi
ce
Khomot
so:
andwewer
etoget
heront
he31st
Candi
ce:
Kamo:
DidVincecheatagai
n?Ahymaar
nwhy
?You
guy
sarecut
et oget
her
Khomot
so:
no,
hef
oundoutaboutZwel
i
...
.
Nat
asha:
Sor
ryZee.
..Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:No,beencr
yingthewhol
edayandhei
sn'
t
r
espondi
ngtomyt exts.
..
.
Nat
asha:
Sor
ry.
..
Kamo:Ni
zobuy
elana.
..
.hej
ustneedst
ocool
down
don'
twor
ry.
Me:
Ihopey
ou'
rer
ight
.
Khomotso: EndenayeuVinceangazenzi
bet
ter
..
.It
's
notl
ikeyousleptwit
hZwel i
..
.YenauWorsehesl
ept
wit
hNomal anga..
.Youdidn'
tsleepwit
hhimri
ght?
Me:
NoIdi
dn'
t
Candice:younotsl eepingwithhim doesn'terasethe
factthatyoucheat edonVi nce.andhim sleeping
withhisexdoesn'tmakey ounotsleepingwi thZweli
better.
.Attheendoft hedayy oubrokehistrustand
cheatedonhi m..
..Itisuptohi mtof or
giveyou. .Asi
t
wasupt oyoutof orgivehi
m. .Andyoudid...
.
Kamo: ‍♀
Khomo:
Bat
hongCandi
ce
Nat
asha:
Idi
dn'
texpectt
hat
..
.
Me:Wowy
ou'
reattacki
ngmeandIdon'
tl
ikei
t
wt
fmanempat
hizewi t
hmedon'
tdr
agme.
Khomo:
Hawu.
.
Candi
ce:
justcal
l
ingaspadeaspade. ‍♀
Me:
let
'st
alkaboutsomet
hingel
se.
..
.
Candi
ce:weshoul
dfi
ndyouanot
herman?
Val
enti
nesi
snextmont
h..
.
Kamo:
Valent
inesi
scomingwher
e'syourboy
fri
end
zamowon'thav
eoneeveryoneofusis
cuf
fedexpecty
ounow.
.
Me:
mxm f
uckal
lofy
ou.
.
Kamo:
Khomot
so:
Nat
asha:
Me:whatdoy
oumeanexpectme?Candi
cehasa
mannow?
Khomot
so:
He'
sdat
ingMrZwane
Me:
Candi
ce: ‍♀ ‍♀
Nat
asha:
whyam If
indi
ngoutaboutt
hisnow?
Me:
Clear
lywear
enotpar
toft
hesquad
Nat
asha:
tjo
Kamo:Candi
cei
salwaysput
ti
ngtext
sfr
om hi
m on
st
atusnj
ena,
andgoingondat
es.
Me:
Ithoughtuy
afeba
Kamo:
Not
hey
'r
edat
ing
▶Myphoner
angi
twasmydad.
Me:
Dad?
Dad:
you'
rer
eadyr
ight
?I'
m onmyway
?
▶Kanti
whatti
meisi
t?Icheckedt
hecl
ockonmy
bedt
ablei
twas15minut
esto7.
Me:
yesI
'
m done.
..
Dad:
okay
..
.*
cal
lended*
▶Ijumpedoutofbed, wenttothemirrorandIf i
xed
myhai r.
..
.Wenttothebathroom washedmyf ace
andbr ushedmyteeththenIputonaLi pglossandI
walkeddownst ai
rs.
..
.Buzzedmy sel
foutandI
waitedformydadt oarri
veittookhim 5mi nut
est o
arr
ivewedr ovetoGrace'
shouse...
.i
nsi
det hecar
Dad:
uhambaunj
evel
e?
▶If
rowned.
.Whatdoeshemeanngi
nje
Me:
njani
?
Dad:
tracksui
t?
Me:wearejusthavi
ngdi
nnerdad.
.i
ndoor
s..
.wear
e
notgoi
ngtoSandton
Dad:
Hai
boungangi
dli
.
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
mxm.
Dad:
Nophacaf
uthi
Me:
Babal
et'
stur
nback.
..I
'
llwearadr
essandheel
s
Dad:angi
shoukut
hikuwrong.
..Youusual
l
ydr
essup
nanomanjesi
yeGaraget
obuybr ead.
..
Me:
Idi
dntf
eel
li
kedr
essi
ngup.
Dad:Hmmmm.Soksasaeskol
weni
uzohamba
wedwa?
Me:
No,
you'
recomi
ngwi
thme
Dad:Ihaveworkt
omor
row.
..AndIhav
etogot
o
Durban.
..Ar
ound10
Me:Dad.
..We'
vebeenwaiti
ngfort
hisdaysi
nceI
st
art
edgrade12actual
lysi
nceIst
art
edschool
..
.
Youcan'
tdothi
sdot hi
stome
▶Iworkedsohar
donmyexamsbecauseIknew
howhappymydadwill
bewhenheseesmyr esul
ts.
..
Iwanthi
mtoseethem bef
oreme.
..Butnowhehas
wor
k..
.It
'sal
way
swor
korGr
acewi
thhi
m..Mxm
Me:Whatdoyoudoi
nDur
banany
wayy
ou'
real
way
s
goi
ngther
e?
Dad:
arey
ouget
ti
ngupset
?
Me: YesBaba..
.Youdon' tknowhowy ouseeingmy
resul
tswill
makemef eel Iworkedsohar dl astyear
foryou.
..Ij
ustwantedy out obepr oudofme. .
..
You'ret
heonlyoneIhav eandIwant edtoshar ethi
s
special
momentofmyl ifewi t
hy ou..Butitdoesn't
mat t
eryouhavewor k.
..
▶Iturnedt
othewindow.
..I
'
llbesohappyforonce
t
hisweekifmydadcamewi t
hmet ofetchmy
r
esult
s..
Dad:Usukhal
elani
kemanj
eNt
shangase?
ngzohambanaweksasa.
..
▶Heshookhi
shead.
..
Me:
I'
m notcr
ying.
▶Myt
ookouthi
sphoneandmadeacal
l
.
Dad:Iwon'
tmakei
tfort
omor r
ow'smeeti
ngbutI
'l
l
sendoneofmyboystotakecareofev
ery
thi
ng.
..
.
Makesur
enot
hinggoeswr
ong.
..
.Cal
lme.Ok.
▶Hemadeanot
hercal
l
.
Dad:bookaf
li
ghtordr
ivet
oDur
bant
omor
row
morning.
▶Thatcal lended..
.Mydadisbossingev eryone
around.
.No" pleasebookafli
ght"orthanky ou
goodbye"he'smaki ngcommandsAndwhatdoeshe
meanwhenhesay s"makesur enothinggoes
wrong".
..BeforeIknewitwehadar riv
edatGr ace's
houseweknockedJayl etusin.
..Everyt
hingwas
alr
eadyont het abl
eexpextt
hemai n..
.Adakuwasi n
thekit
chenwi thGrace.
..
Jayfoll
owedust ot hetabl
e
wesatdown. .
.
Jay
:Howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m good.
..You?
Jay
:yousur
e?
▶Gr
acecomi
ngt
othet
abl
e..
.
Grace:Jayi
fzamosay
sshe'
sgoodt
henshe'
s
good..
.
Jay
:I'
mjustaski
ng.
..
▶Shepl acedt
helasagneontopoft
hetabl
e..
.And
wenttomydadshegav ehi
m ahugandakissonhi
s
cheeks.
..Andshesatnextt
ohim
Gr
ave:
hel
l
odar
li
ng
▶Mydadsmi l
ed.
.Wuuahyt heboldandt he
beauti
fult
hatI'
m seeinghere..
.Isdi
sgusting.Mydad
wassoshy ..hewassmi tt
enuBab' Ntshangasehe
j
ustsmi l
ed.
..Lmao...Soawkwar d.
..
Adakual socame
tothetabl
ewesat ,dishedupwest artedeating.
..
.
Gr
ace:
myl
ovei
sZwel
iokay
?
▶Ichockedonmyf
ood.
..
.
Gr
ace:
arey
ouokZamosweet
y?
Me:
yeah.
..
▶Idr
ankt
hegl
assofor
angej
uicet
hatwasont
he
t
abl
e..
.
Dad:
he'
sokay
..It
oldy
ounott
owor
ryabouthi
m..
.
Grace:whatt
heydi
dtohi
m waswronghedidn'
t
deservei
t.
.Iwasj
ustwor
ri
edandIfel
tsor
ryfor
hi
m. .
.
▶JayandIlookedateachot
her
..
..Br
oket
hest
are
andIl
ookeddown..
.
Dad:
you'
reki
nd.
..
.Il
ovet
hatabouty
ou.
▶Gr
acebl
ushedandchuckl
ed.
Jay
:Eyl
ovebi
rds.
▶MeandAdakulaughed.Thebabymoni
torst
art
ed
maki
ngsoundsofababycooing.
..
Adaku:
he'
sup.
..
.andI
'
m st
il
leat
ing.
..
Gr
ace:
heal
way
sget
supwheny
ou'
reeat
ing.
Adaku:hehasbadt
imi
ngonev
ery
thi
ngl
i
kehi
s
daddy.
..
Me:
Icangoandgethi
mfory
ou
Adaku:
arey
ousur
e?
Me:
yes.
..AndI
'
m doneeat
ingso
▶Ishr
ugshoul
der
s.
Adaku:
Thankyou.Ther
e'sabot
tl
enextt
ohi
scot
gi
veitt
ohim.
Me:
okay
.
▶Imademywayt oJay'
sroom, thebabywasinhis
cotmaki
ngbabysounds...Iwal keduptohim..
.And
Ipi
ckedhi
m uphewassot iny.
..Veryl
ighti
nweight
..
.
Ihel
dhim sot
ightIwasafraidthatIcoulddr
ophim.
Me:
omgy
ou'
resocut
e..
..
▶Ismi
l
ed.
..Isatonachai
rthatwasbesi
dehi
scot
Me:
howar
eyoudoi
ng.
..
.
▶Ibr ushedhi scheekswi th2ofmyf i
ngersthey
weresosof t.
..Hehadgr eeney esli
kehi sdaddy .
..
.
I'
venev erseensuchacut ebaby .
..
.Hej uststaredat
me...BlanklyI'm surehewasaski nghi mself"who
thefuckar ey ouwher e'smymom" .
...I
t'
sagood
thi
ngt hathewasn' tcryi
ngt hough..
..Igav ehi
mt he
bottl
ehehel ditwi t
hhist i
nyhands..Ihel pedhim
holdit.
..Thiswassuchabeaut i
fulmoment .
..
..
..I
couldn'tholdmy sel
fIstartedhav i
ngt earyeyes
may bei fIkeptmybabyVi nceandwoul dneverbei n
thi
ssituat i
on...Whowoul dhavemybabyl ookedli
ke..
MeorVi nce..
.Idi dsuchagoodj obcar ryi
nghim out
ofthecotandnowf eedinghim hisbot t
le..
.Iwould
havedonet hatformybabyt hi
sjustf i
ll
edmyhear t
wit
hsadnessandthefactt
hatIhadlostVincenow
di
dn'tmakeshi
tbett
er.
..At
earrol
ledout.
..Iwipedi
t
Jaywalkedi
n..
Jay
:Hei
sn'
tgi
vi
ngy
ouanypr
obl
ems?
Me:
No
Jay
:heyy
ouokay
?
Me:
yeah.
..He'
sjustbeaut
if
ul
Jay
:sot
hat
'swhyy
oucr
ying?
Me:
No.
..
Jay
:Sowhat
'sup?
Me:
Not
hingJay
..
.
▶IstoodupandgaveJayhi
scut
ebabyback.
.It
hen
wal
kedoutofther
oom...

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NSERT101

▶AssoonasIgotdownst ai
rsIsatonthetableandI
j
ustplayedwithmyfoodi nst
eadofeat i
ng.Jaycame
downstair
swiththebabywecont inuedtoeatand
ever
ythi
ng.ThefamilydinnerendedmydadandI
wenthome. .
.Whil
stparkingthecarinthegarage.
Dad:
todaywasgr
eat
.
Me:
yeah.
..
Dad:
arey
ouokay
?
Me:
yeah.
.Ij
usthav
eaheadache.
▶Igotoutoft
hecar
..
.Mydadf
oll
owed.
.
Dad:
getpanadoy
ou'
l
lbeokay
.
▶IjustnoddedmyheadandIwentupst ai
rs.Got
i
nsidemyr oom andsl
ept.
.Ij
ustdidn'
thaveany
energytodoanythi
ngtheonl
ythingthatIwantedto
dowast oescapemyreali
tyandsleep.07:
20i nt
he
morningmydadknockedi nmyroom.
Dad:
Mubi
wakeup.
..
Me:
I'
m up.
.
▶Itur
nedtotheothersi
deoft
hebedt
ocont
inue
sl
eepi
ng.
..Heknockedagai
n.
Dad:
Iknowy
ou'
renotup.
▶Webot hlaughed.
..Iwassonervousbecause
i
mmedi atelywhenIopenedmyey esi thi
tmet hati
t
wasThur sdayalr
eady..
..Myhear
twaspoundi ngout
ofmybody .It
ookmyphonet ocheckt heti
meIhad
amissedcal lf
rom JayandKhomot so.Igoton
whatsapp.
Kamo:
wher
ear
eyou?
?
Kamo:
eyywenacomet
oschool
.
Khomot
so:
bestf
ri
endt
eat
eat
eacomet
oschool
l
ol
Candi
ce:Idon'
tknowwhatt
owear
.ZAMO
HELPPPPPP!!!
▶whodoIr espondtofir
st.Ismil
edandshookmy
head.Iansweredthem al
l,andeventual
lyIgotoutof
bed..
.Imademybedt henIheadedt othebathr
oom.
MidbathingdidInotstar
tcrying.
..
.YhooIbawled
myey esout .Ijuststartedthinkingofhowspeci al
thi
sdayi stome.Icanonl yshar eitwi t
hmydadand
myf ri
ends.Vincecutmeoutofhi sl i
f e,Idon'
thavea
motherhowcanmyl ifebesoper fecty etsobrokenI
couldn'
tunder stand.
..Al othashappenedt ome
goodandbad.Thegoodout weighst hebadbutt he
badhur t
st hemostIj ust.
..Can'tbeliev ethi
sismy
l
ifeIeventuallygatheredt hestrengtht ogetupand
gotomyr oom Ist ar
tedl oti
oning.
Me: I
'm goingtobehappyt oday .
.Nomat t
erwhat..I
deservetohappyev enifi
t'sforthisdayonl
y...I
'l
l
dealwithalltheotherbul
lshi
tt omorrow.Myphone
star
tedr i
nging,Iwashopingwi thallofmyheartt
hat
i
tcouldbeVi ncent
..
.Ipi
ckedi tup.Itwas
Ses'
Thoko. ..
Me:
Hel
l
oSes'
Thoko
▶Ianswer
edhappi
l
y.
Ses'
Thoko:
hal
oNt
ombi
,kunj
ani
?
Me:
I'
m good.Justner
vous
Ses'
Thoko:
youhavenot
hingtoworryabout.
..You
knowyouworkedsohar
d...Sodon'
tworryIj
ust
cal
ledtosaygoodluckIhopey
ougett
hemar
ks
you'
rehopi
ngfor.
Me:Yaboi
fKushowenaIt
rul
yhav
enot
hingt
owor
ry
about
.
Ses'
Thoko:I
'
m worri
edabouty
out
hough.
..Yousoul
i
sdowni sever
ythi
ngokay
?
Me:
ses'
thoko.
..
Ses'
thoko:
okay.
..Iknowy oudon'
twanttot
alkabout
i
tbutuzobari
ght..
..Justf
ocusontoday.
Me:
thanky
ou.
..
.
Ses'
thoko:
yourdadissoproudofy
ou,
hepost
ed
youonFacebook.Uboni
le?
Me:
Mydad?
?
▶ Mydadspostarealwaysembarr
assi
ng..
.Whydi
d
hepostme.
..Gosh!Ses'
Thokol
aughed.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
He'
sjustpr
oudmaar
n.
Me:Ahyy
ouknowhowmydad'spost
sar
e..
.AndI
'
m
sur
ethepict
urei
ssougl
y.
..
Ses'
Thoko:
Ver
y..
.
Me:
Ses'
Thoko.
▶Webot hlaughed.Thecallendedafterafew
minutesIputheronl oudspeakerandwej ustkept
ontalki
ngandshewasadv isingme.Ihateitwhen
ses'
Thokopr opheci
esme.ButIr eall
yneededhert o
tal
ksomesensei nt
omebecauseIwasj ustsosad..
.
Around08:45Igotoutofmyr oom andwent
downstair
smydadwasonhi sphone...
Me: Ihear
dthatsomeone'
sdadpost
edmeon
Facebooktal
kingaboutme.
▶Hel
aughed.
Dad:
let
'sgo.
Me:
dadl
etmeseet
hepost
.
Dad:
No.
.
▶Hegotupl
aughi
ngandwentt
othegar
age.
Me:
dady
oul
i
keembar
rassi
ngme.Letmesee
▶Iranaf
terhi
m,her
anandgoti
nsi
det
hecarand
l
ockedal
ldoor
s.
Me:
Daaad!
!
Dad:
let
'sgo.
Me:
Ihav
en'
thadbr
eakf
ast
.
Dad:
you'
l
leaty
ourdi
sti
nct
ionscome.
▶Webot
hlaughed.
.
Me:
you'
resoannoy
ing
▶Iwal kedt othepassengerseat .Goti nsi
deandwe
drovet oschool .Gotther
ei twaspacked. .
..Wegot
outandwal kedt otheoff
iceadmi n.
..Wewer et
oldto
got omycl ass.Wheremycl assteacherwi ll
dist
ributeourst atementstous.Onourwaydadmet
hisoldf ri
endMr sNdabaIl eftt
hem t hereandIwent
toclass...WhenIgoty oclassmyf r
iendswer e
standingout sideIwentupt othem...ItwasThapelo,
Mduduzi ,Natasha,KamoandKhomot so.
Me:
Heyy
ous.I
'
vemi
ssedy
a'l
l
...
▶Imadeasadf
aceandIst
art
edhuggi
ngt
hem one
byone.
Thapel
o:y
ourassgotf
at.
Me:
fuckof
f
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
wher
e'sCandi
ce?
Kamo:
Wit
hMrZwane.
Me:
Eh
▶Welaughed.Pet
ronel
laCameupt
ousandst
art
ed
t
appi
ngmyhandsi nexci
tement
.
Pet
ronel
l
a:dudeSnet
ell
smet
haty
ourdadi
sher
e..
.
Me:
Hai
bo.
..
.
▶Il
etoutal
i
ghtl
aught
er
Pet
ronel
l
a:Ij
ustwantt
oseehi
m nj
e.
Kamo:Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ourcr
ushonNomzamo'
sdad
i
sarealthi
ng.
Me:
Bruh.Nel
l
aiscr
azy
..
.
▶Mydadappr
oachedus.
Pet
ronel
l
a:her
ehecomes.
..
▶Sheclearedhert
hroatandstart
edacti
ngall
giggl
y
.Ishookmyhead.Dadgr eet
edmyf r
iendsandItol
d
hi
mt ogoinsi
detofetchmystatementhegotinand
Ir
emai
nedout
sidewi
thmyf
ri
ends.
Kamo:Br
uhThapelocamewi thhi
smom di
dshenot
fl
i
pwhenshef oundoutThapel
opassedwi
tha
di
ploma.
.Itwasamess.
Thapelo:eydon'
tgot
her
e..I
'
m sur
eZamoi
snot
i
nterest
ed.
Me:
NoIam.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Kamo: shewasonsome"y ousee,You'
renolonger
goingtoWitsnow..What
'st
hisl
evel3inMaths
doinghere,
youplaytoomuchThapeloIal
waystell
you"
▶Il
aughed.
Khomotso:l
it
tl
edoessheknowt
hatumnt
wanakhe
j
ustwantst
orap..
Mduduzi
:andUJaccept
edy
oudogy
oucangot
her
e.
Thapel
o:I
'
m goi
ngt
orappl
easeschool
isnotf
orme.
▶Weal
ll
aughed
Kamo:
l
ookatwi
tski
dsnotwor
ryi
ngaboutwhatst
ep
t
otakenext
..
..Mustbeni
ce.
Khomot
so:
Wit
ski
ds!
!Popopopo.
..
▶I
mpl
yi
ngt
omeandMduduzi
.
Me:
ganggang
▶Welaughedandj
ustcont
inuedtogi
st.
..Our
par
ent
scameoutsi
de.
..Iwalkedupt
omydadashe
wal
kedoutoft
hedoor.
..
Me:
And?
Dad:
youdi
dwel
lbut
..
Me:
But
?..
..
▶Whatdoeshemeanbut.
.Ther
eshoul
dn'
tbeany
but
s.Hel
etoutal
aught
er.
Me:
Dad!
!
Dad:I'
m pr
oudofyoupr incess,
youdi dwel l
..
.▶We
walkeddownthecorridorandtothecar .
..Ididn'
t
evensaybyetomyf r
iendsbecausewewer eallj
ust
focusedonourr
esults..
.Wegoti nsideofthecar..
.
AndasIwasaboutt oopenmyst atementKhomot so
knockedonthewindow. .
.Sheindicatedt
hatIshoul d
comeout
.
▶Iopenedt
hedoor
..Andwentout
Me:
what
'sup?
Khomot
so:
arey
oul
eav
ingal
ready
?
Me:
yeah.
..
▶Ilookedatherconf
used,kant
idi
dwecomehere
t
opartywherewewi l
lhavedri
nksandchi
l
l?Why
mustIremainbehi
nd.
Khomot
so:
owkay
..
.
Me:
whyshoul
dn'
tIl
eav
e?
Khomot so:Nahit'
sokayifyouwantt ol
eave
thoughtwe'dchil
labitbutIunderst
andthesi
tuati
on
you'r
ein..
.breakupsaresad, hopeyougetbett
er
Hav eyoutal
kedtoVincey et
?
Me:
No.
..
▶Iqui
ckl
yclosedt
hedoorbehi
ndme..Didn'
twant
mydadtohearusbuti
twasalr
eadyt
oolate.
Me:
Idon'tt
hinkhe'
l
lev
ercal
lmeorwantt
otal
kto
meit
'sbeendaysnow.
Khomot
so:he'
l
l comearound.Cat
chy
oul
ater
That
osmot
herjustgothere.
Me:
whati
sshedoi
ngher
e?
Khomot
so:
bruh.
..Askagai
n..
.
▶Ishookmyhead, Shelef t
..Igoti nside, Mydad
start
edt hecarandwel ef t
.Iopenedmyst at
ement
andeyy ourgi r
ldidwel l
..
.Real l
yr eallywel lbetter
thanIhadexpect ed.Weev ent uallygothome, l
at er
thatev eningMydad, GraceandIwentdi nnerto
celebrate....Ienjoy edbei ngwi ththem Iwenthome
andcr ied...BecauseIt riedt ocal lVincehedi dn't
pickup. .
.Iev enemai l
edhi m. .Hedi dn' trespond. ..He
j
ustwentonwi t
hhi sli
felikeIdi dn'texi st..
.Icalled
him, t
ext ed, emai l
edhi mf or3day sst raight...Still
nothingf rom hi m. .Icri
edmy selft osl eepeachand
everyday .
..I'dwakeupeat ,sleep, cry, sleep, wakeup
andeat .
..andr epeat .

▶Ont he21stofJanuary,IsawonFacebookwith
myfakeaccountthatIhadcr eat
edt
ostal
kVince,
t
hatVincewasbacki ntownandhe'sbacktowork..
.
Itwas11: 26whenhepost edacupofcof feewas
capt i
oned" r
ewindi ng"
,Iknewhewasatwor k..
.Si nce
Iknowt hathe'satwor k.
.Andt hisguyhasn' ttalked
tomef orweekswhatdoIdo? ?...DoIgot ohi s
wor kplaceorj ustt ryt
okeepmy sel fbusymybr oken
hear tandev ent uall
ymov eon. .
.ButIr eallyneedt o
talktoVi nce..Wi thallmyhear t.
..Iwantt ot ell
hi m
thatIdi dn' tmeananyoft histohappent ousandI '
m
sosor r ythatIl etthishappent ous. ..Ikepton
cont empl ati
ngonwhet hert ogoornot ..Whati fhe
chasesmeoutandembar rassesme. .Itookadeep
sigh.Andcont inuedt owatchRegul arshow. .
.My
eyeswer ewat chingbutmymi ndj ustwant edmet o
l
eav e...I'vemi ssedVi ncesomuch. .Hisv oice,hi s
scent ,hisZul uaccent ,hishands. .Ijustmi sshi m so
much. ..
Me:
fucki
t.
.IfIdi
eIdi
e..
..
▶Istoodupandwentt omyroom...Igotupstai
rs..
.
Woremysuperst
arsandrequestedanUber ,
Iwas
weari
ngawhitet
eeandabl ueJean..
.MyUberdr i
ver
came,Ij
ustt
ookmyphoneandwentdownst ai
rs.We
headedt
oEskom off
ices.
.Gotthere,Iwal
kedin..My
heartst
artedpoundi ngoutofmychest ..
..ISignedin
atthegatethenIheadedt ot herecepti
on...Lucki
ly
hewasst il
lfreetherecepti
onisttoldmet ogo
upstai
rsthankGodshedi dn'
ttellhimthatI'm
downstair
s..Guessshej ustthoughthisgirlf
ri
endis
heretoseehi m nothingmajorany wayIgotatt he
doorandIst art
edknocking.
Vi
nce:
yes.
..
▶myhear tjustkeptont r
yingtocomeoutofmy
mout handrun..
.Istart
edshaki ngl
it
eral
l
y .Isl
owly
openedthedoor .
..Can'
tbeliev
eIwasgoi ngt osee
thi
spersonafterweeksofnotspeaki ng,eventual
l
yI
gotinsi
de.Oureyesmet ..
.Hel ookedatmeandI
l
ookedathim. .
.

#NomzamosDi
ary
REMEMBERTOSHARELI
KEANDCOMMENT I
'
VE
MISSEDYA'
LLSOMUCHANDILOVEYA'
LL.
#I
NSERT102

Vi
nce:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
▶Hest oodupf
rom hi
schai
r.
..Wedi
dn'
tbr
eakey
e
cont
acthewassti
l
llooki
ngatme.
Me:
Iwantt
otal
ktoy
ou.
..
▶Iwalkedtowardshim.
..Ilookeddown,breaki
ng
oureyecontact
..
.Hesatdownandshookhi shead.
..
Hedidn'
tsaymuchbutIcoul dfeelandseethathe
wasn'
tpleasedtoseeme...Orbeinmypr esence.
Vi
nce:
youcanseat
.
▶Itookaseat..
.Sti
l
lshaki
ng.
..Ihadsomuchi
nmy
headtot
ellhi
m, somuchtosayandnowmybank
wasempty.Ikeptonbit
ingmylip.
Me:Iknowyou.
..LookVinceI
...Ij
ust
..
.wantyouto.
..
Imeanustoworkt hi
ngsout.
..I'
mreal
lysor
ry.
..
Vi
nce:
you'
rener
vous.
▶Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
.
Me:
I'
m not
..
.
Vi
nce:
you'
rebi
ti
ngy
ourl
i
ps.
..Youner
vous.
▶Heleanedbackonhischairandheunbut
toneda
but
tononhisbl
azert
orelax.
Vince:Ir
eal
lydon'
twanty
outowast
eyourbr
eat
h..
.I
don'twanty
ouany mor
eZee.
▶Heleanedf
orwar
dandhel
ookedst
rai
ghti
ntomy
ey
es.
Vince:DoIlov
ey ou?Yes.Butyourui
nedeveryt
hing.
Your ui
nedusandt hetr
ustIhadinyou.I
fyoucame
heretotel
lmet hatyouwantmet ofor
giv
ey ou.
..I
have..
▶Att hi
spointtearswereflowingIcouldn'
thol
d
them i
n..
.Ihatemy sel
fforbeingsuchacr ybaby.I
keptonwipingthem offbuttheyjustdi
dwhatt hey
werefamousf or.
.Roll
ingdownmyf ace.
*Vinceconti
nues*.
..Butthatdoesn'tmeanyoucan
beinmyl i
feagai
n.Wecan' thavethatanymore.
Fr
om nowonIcanonl yl
ovey oufr
om adi st
ance.
Me:butVi
nceI'
m aper
son.
.Imakemi
stakesandI
di
dn'
tmea..
..
Vi
nce:
I'
mtal
ki
ng.
▶Hesai dt
hisi
nthemostcalmestwayIdon'
tknow
i
fitt
urnedmeonoritwasjustal
li
nmyhead, buthe
wassoseri
ousanditwassosexy.
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.
▶It
ookasi
gh.
Vince:onethi
ngyouknowaboutmeisthatwhenI
say..Idon'
twantacer
tai
nthi
ngyouknowImeanit.
Right?
▶Inodded
*Vincecont i
nues*...
.SoZamor eI'
mt ell
ingyour i
ght
nowIdon' twantusany more,acceptandr espectmy
decision..You'vehurtmesomuchIcoul dn'
tbel
ieve
i
t..
.Icr i
edf orthefi
rstti
meinmyl ife.
..Icri
edfora
womanbecauseIr eali
zedIlostsomet hingso
preciousandsopur e..
.Neverthoughtwe' dbehere.
▶Hisey
esstart
edtogettear
y..Hesni
ff
edand
bl
i
nkedtocl
earuphisey
es.
*Vi
nceconti
nues*...
.Iev
entoldmyf ami l
y,Iwas
hur
t.
.Butthenbreakupsarepartofl
i
f e.SoI'mfi
ne
now.I
'
m notf
ull
ywel
lbutI
'
llbegood..
▶Youtoldy
ourf
ami
l
ythatIcheat
edony
oudamn
ni
gga.
..
Me:Vi
ncentI
'
mlit
eral
lybeggi
ngyou.
..Pl
ease.
..Don'
t
gi
veuponusbaby.
..Soeasil
y?
Vi
nce:youdon'
tknowwhatIwentthroughpast
weeksZamoredon'tsaysoeasi
l
y..
.Whatpartofwe
wi
llnev
erbethesamedon' ty
ouget?
▶Hisphonerang.
.Hetookitoutofhispocket
,
si
l
encedthesoundthenheputitbackinhispocket
.
Me:onet hi
ngIwon' tdoistobegy outobewi t
hme. .
.
BecauseIcan'tf
orcey outobewi t
hmeandt ogive
usanotherchance.
..Imeanti fi
t'
smeanttobet hen
maybeonedaywewi ll
reconcil
eandreconnect.You
ar
emyf i
rstl
oveI'
llprobablyl
oveyouuntildeat
h...
▶Iwasdr owningintearswhileIwassayi
ngthi
s..
.It
wassohar dtosaythesewor dsbutIknowImeant
them wi
theveryfi
berinsi
deofme.Hi sphonerang
agai
n.Thisti
meheanswer edit.
Vi
nce:
..Hey
..I
'
minami
ddl
eofsomet
hing.CanIcal
l
youaft
er?
..
.*laughs*yeahIpr
omise.
..
.I'
l
lcal
lyou.
..I
promi
sedon'tyoutrustmeanymore?
...*
chuckl
es*
yeahokcool*callended*
Vi
nce:
sor
ryaboutt
hat
.
▶Somethi
nginsi
deofmet ol
dmet hathewas
t
alki
ngtoahun,mymindjustconcl
udedthati
twas
ahunandmyheartj
ustbecamesad.
Me:
it'
sokay
..
.It
hinkIshoul
dleav
e.
Vi
nce:
wedonet
alki
ng?
Me:
yeah.
.Iguess
Vi
nce:
okay
..
.
▶Het ookouthisphone...Andbecamebusywithit
.
Doy ouknowhowi tfeel
swhensomeonet akesout
yourheartandchowsitusingfor
kandknif
e..
.Itf
elt
l
ikethat
..
.Icouldn'
tbeli
evethatt
hiswashappeni
ng.
AnywayIst oodup.
Vi
nce:
takecar
e.
▶wal
ki
ngt
othedoor
.
Me:
yeahIwi
l
l.
▶Openi
ngt
hedoor
.
Me:
Vince.
▶Hetookhi
seyesof
fhisphonet
hathewasbusy
wi
thandl
ookedatme.
Vi
nce:
yeah?
Me:wheny oucall
herlat
er.
..Pl
easegreetherf
orme
andtel
lherI'
m sorr
yfort
akingyourt
imeawayf rom
her
.
▶Hel
ookedatmei
nconf
usi
on.
Vince:Ar
ey ouser
ious.
.?Wearen'
tev
endat
ing..
.
She'sj
ustsomeone. .
.Idon'
tev
enhavet
oexplai
n
my sel
ftoyou
Me:
Iknow.
.Iwasj
ustsay
ing.
▶Il etmy sel
foutandIwal kedaway...
.Fuck!I
hav en'tr
equestedanUber ...Andthi
sar eathatI
'
m at
i
sexcl udedit'
llprobabl
ytaket heUber20- 30
mi nutestoarri
ve.Igotatt hegateandst oodoutsi
de
oft heEskom pr emisesIrequested.
..Itcameafter
anhourofmewai t
ingIwassoannoy edIposteda
statusonFacebookt hatsai d"I
'
m hav ingsuchabad
day mxmxm". .WepassedbyMcDonal d's..I
orderednugget s,ahappymeal ,l
ar gef ri
es, chicken
foldoverandamcf lurry .Igothomear ound13pm.I
wentt otheloungepl acedmyf oodont opoft he
tableandIst art
edmunchi ngwhi l
eIwaswat chi
ng
Fastandf urious6Idi dn' twantanyr omcom mov i
es.
EyIdi dn'
twantt oinv itet earsempi lweni yami .
..
Kodwashem Iwashear tbroken. .Ver y.
..Theonl y
thi
ngIkeptont hinkingaboutwasVi nce..AndhowI
fel
tl i
keafool expressi ngmyf eelingsKuy e..Icried
l
ikeabhar i.
..Het al
kedt oagi rlinf rontofme. .
.Didn'
t
accompanymeoutorhugme. .Not hing..
.Hewas
overmeandhemeanti t...
.Themov ieendedandI
tookmyphoneandkeptmy selfbusywi thit.Iwasso
ful
l andfati
gued.SoIwasj ustlay i
ngont hesof a..
.I
answer edtexts.
Khomotso:what
'shappeni
ngIr
eady
ourposton
Facebook?
Me:
cal
lme.
Khomot
so:
Idon'
thav
eai
rt
ime☹
Me:
I'
ll
buyi
tthenI
'
llcal
lyou.
..
Khomot
so:
hai
maar
ntel
lmey
ini
uRi
ght
?
Me:
all
Icansayi
sthatni
ggasai
n'
tshi
t.
Khomot
so: i
t'
saboutmenkant
i.
.Mxm
Me:
EyMi
naIhat
emenshem
Khomot
so:
cheer
stot
hat
..
▶Ialsogotat
extf
rom Jay.He'sbeentext
ing
checki
nguponmenonst opsincethati
nci
dent.
Jay
:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
mjustchi
l
li
ngathomeJay
..
.What
'sup
Jay
:bor
ed?
Me:
ahmmm notr
eal
l
ywhy
?
Jay:shoul
dIcomeandf
etchy
ou?Comeatt
he
studi
o..
.
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
..
Me:
tomor
row.
..
Jay
:you'
resuchal
oser
Me:
▶Doest hisguyr ememberwhathappenedt hel
ast
ti
meIwentt othestudio...Ial
mostdi edfrom Zwel
i
chocksl
ammi ngme...Ilaughed...EyYazamadoda..I
wasbusyonmyphonef orhour sssss..
..Dadcame
homeandf oundmeont hecouchbusyonmyphone.
i
twas18: 17whenhecamehome.
Dad:
sizodl
ani
njengobaul
elel
aphouzophekani
ni?
▶Il
aughed.
Me:
hai
bo
Dad:uzomuphekel
akanjaniuVi
ncentkodwa
nj
engobaungakwaziukuphekaMubi?
Me:
eh
▶Iwentbackt
omysl eepi
ngposit
ioninthecouch.
Whyismydadtal
ki
ngaboutVince?..
.Mydad
openi
ngt
hefri
dgeandtaki
ngoutwat er
.
Dad:
Kadengamgci
nausaphi
l
il
eyena.
..
?
▶Thismustbeanat tackwhyismydadaski ng
aboutVince.Heasksonceinawhileukut
hihowar
e
weasacoupl earewestil
lgood.Butyouknowwhat
..
Todayisjustnott
heday..
.
Me:
ubani
?
Dad:
Hawu.
.Umunt
uwakho?
Ma:
hai
Baba.
..
▶IstoodupandpickeduptheMcDonal
d'
spaper
s
andemptyboxesonthefl
oorandIwentt
othe
ki
tchent
othrowthem away.
Dad:
yini
nihl
ukene?
▶Ilaughed.Helightl
aughedtoobecausehewas
aski
ngjoki
nglynotknowingthatthepotsarebur
ning
i
nourrelat
ionshi
p. .
.Iopenedthefr
idgetoputmy
remai
ningmcf l
urryi
nit.
Me:
kodwawebr
okeup.
.l
ikef
oreal
..Weeksago.
..
Dad:
impel
a?
Me:
yes.
▶Icl
osedt
hef
ri
dge.Andwal
kedaway
.
Dad:
ukahl
ekodwa?
Me:
yes.
..
▶Icl
i
mbedupt
hest
air
sandwentt
omyr
oom.
..
.I
wenttoadrawertotakeoutapi nhol dersoIcan
undomyhairthenIwentont osi tnearami rr
or,
Iput
onmyspeakerandIst ar
tedundoi ngmyhai rsi
nging
al
ongtomyf avor
it
esongs...Around7whi l
eIwas
sti
l
lundoi
ngmyhai rKhomot socal l
edme.
Khomotso:wenaIhadtobuyairt
ime.
..Yousai
d
you'
l
lcall
figur
edIshoul
djustbuyai
rt
imeandcall
youmyself.
..
▶Webot
hlaughed
Me:Ican'
tbel
i
ev eyoudi
dthat
..
.AndIhadf
orgot
ten
aboutcal
l
ingyou.
Khomotso:sot
ell
me.
..What
'sup?Whatdi
dmendo
toyou.
.Fri
endmenal
waysshowyoufl
ames
Me: t
ell
meabouti t
..
.Anyway ..
.TodayIdeci dedto
goandseeVi nceathiswor kplace.
..Totalkthi
ngs
thr
ough..
.Ihonest
lyfeell
ikewedeser v
easecond
chancefri
end,wejustcan'tbr
eakup.Kanj alonje?
Awa.
Khomot
so:
youmeanat
hir
dchance?
Me:
fucky
ou.
..
▶wel
aughed
Me:soIgetther
e..
.Fr
iendIpourmyhear
toutt
othi
s
guy
..It
ell
him howsorryi
am..ev
ery
thi
ng.
.
Khomot
so:
ncooh.
..Andt
hen?
Me:ahhe'
slikehehhehyouhurtme..HehhehI
l
ovedyou,butyoubrokemyt
rust.
..Mxm youknow
Mosbreakupst uf
f.
..
Khomot
so:
yay
a..
.
Me:y
a..Sowhi
l
eI'
m pour
ingmyhear
toutagi
rlcal
l
s
hi
m..
Khomotso:whaaat
??Agi
rl
..Vi
ncehasagi
rl
fr
iend
al
ready
..Wow.
Me:
waaai
tI'
m st
il
ltal
ki
ng.
..
Khomot
so:
Okokok.
..
..
Me:heignor
esthecall
..t
hegir
lcall
sagain.Vince
answersandtel
l
sherthathewill
callher,
he's
curr
ent
lybusywithsomethi
ng.
..
.Ngiyisomething
Mina??
?
Khomot
so:
hehehey
hoohay
iabaf
ana.Mar
awhati
f
hewast
alki
ngt
oaguy
?
Me:never.
..Hewaschuckli
ngandshi
t.
.Itwas
def
ini
tel
yagi r
l.
.BecausewhenIwal
kedoffIt
old
hi
mt ogreetherforme.
Khomot
so:
noy
oudi
dn'
t.
..
!!
Me:
Iwant
edhi
mtoknowt
hatIknowi
twasagi
rl
..
Khomot
so:
whatdi
dhesay
?
Me:nywenywehe'snotmygi
rlf
ri
end.
..Idon'
towe
youanexpl
anat
ion.
..I
magi
ne.
..
Khomot
so:
whenar
ewebur
ningmeny
e?
Me: t
heyshoul dcallmeIwill
startbyburni
ngZweli
..
Andfriendonlyf ormetogoout si
deandwai tf
oran
Uberforihourbecausethedriverhadtobuyhis
gir
lf
ri
endl unch..Whataboutme?I '
m si
nglenoone
tobuymel unch...
Khomot
so:
shem f
ri
end.
..
Me:
Kubi
..
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Khomot
so:
manj
euBusyngani
?
Me: I
'
m curr
entl
yundoingmyhai r
..
.Needsomet hi
ng
tokeepmebusy ..Vi
nceisli
ter
all
ytheonl
ythingI
thi
nkabout..Iwannacallhi
m sobadortexthim..
Butmypridewon' tl
etme.
Khomotso:
don'
tcont
acthi
m..I
t'
ll
onl
ymaket
hings
worse.
..
Me: Khomot soIl
ovehi m somuch. .Il
i
teral
lyhate
my sel
fforlosi
nghim...Inmyheadwecoul dstill
maket hingsworkevenaf tertodayandallt
het hi
ngs
hesaid...Butmyheartmanj ustknowsthatit
's
over..
..
Khomot
so:
I'
m sor
ryZee.
..
Me:
eywhatcanIsay
..
.
Khomot so: promisey ou,y
ouwil
lbealright.
.Andif
thingsaremeantt obeChomzy ouwillendup
together.
..You'r
elit
erall
ysoperf
ecttogether
nizobuyel
anaj ustgivehimt i
metoheal..Don'
tpush
him.
Me:
okay
..
.
Khomot
so:
Renej
ustwokeup.
.Letmef
eedher
..We
wi
l
ltal
konwhat
sappIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooby
e.*
cal
lended*
▶Icont inuedt oundomyhai r.Finishedaround
10pm wentdownst ai
rstof i
nishupmymcf l
urrythen
Iwentt obed...Wokeupar ound1am andIcr iedso
much. .
.Idon'tknowwhyIwokeupatt hattimebutI
wentt othebat hroom andmymi ndt houghtofVi nce.
Icouldn'tstopcr yi
ng.Icouldn't
..
..Iwasi nlovewi t
h
thisguyandIdi dn'
twantt olosehi m. .
.Icouldn't
stopmy selffrom beinginlovewi t
hhi m andwant i
ng
himinmyl i
feIr eall
yfel
tlonelyandl ostwithout
him...
.Don'tknowatwhatt i
memyey esdecidedt o
closeandsl eep.Butev entuall
yIf ellasl
eep.

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▶Thef oll
owi ngmorni
ngIwokeupwi thmyey es
veryswol l
enandmynosewasbl ocked. ..Igotoutof
bedandwentt obat
hitwasar ound8am soi twas
reall
year l
ybutIhadahai rappointmentat12: 00pm..
.
Aftermybat hIwentbacktomyr oom, lotionedandI
tookoutashor tbl
ackdressandabl uej eanjacketto
wear .Ial
sowor emyAdidassockswi thmy
super st
arsneakersandanankl ebr acelet,tuckedmy
hairinaAdi dascapthatIwaswear ing..
.li
pglossed
myl ipsandt henIwenttomydad' sroom.Iknocked
het oldmet ocomei n.
.Hewasst il
lasleep.
Me:dadI'
m goingtothesaloncanIpl
easehav
e
moneytodomyhai r.
..Ial
sowanttoputon
i
ndi
vidual
lashes.
▶Dadt
urni
ngt
otheot
hersi
deoft
hebed.
Dad:eksenikanjeMubiseni
sit
shel
angama
i
ndiv
iduallashes.Yi
nil
okho?
Me:
Daaad.
Dad:
ngzok'
tr
ansf
erel
ayonaIdon'
thav
emoneywi
th
menow.
Me:
okay
..
..Andwakeupi
ts10al
ready
Dad:
makemecof
fee
Me:
yhoooawaawa.
▶Iquicklywalkedoutofhisroom andwenttothe
ki
tchen.Imademy selfacerealwarmeditupthenI
wenttothelounge.I
twas9: 15am.Teentit
answere
pl
aying.
..
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ficat
ioncamet hr
ough
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▶Isentmydadat hanky outext .
..Ihadalr
eady
request
edanUber ...Itcamet henIwentt ot he
salon.
..
.Iarr
ivedat11: 20am t hesal onwasn' topen
buttherewasaboar dsay ingt hattheyopenat9am
kodwai twas11am andbekusav ali
we. .
.Itookout
myphonet ocallChar li
e. .
.Itstartedringi
ngandas
i
twasr ingi
nghepul ledupi nhisMi nicooper .
..Iput
myphoneaway .Zonke' ssong" Feeli
ngs"waspl ayi
ng
i
nhi sconvert
ibl
e..
.Hest eppedout .
Char
li
e:heeee!
!wuu.
..
.
▶Hehurr
ied.
.Tookkey
soutofhi
sbagandcamet
o
t
hesal
onsdoor.
Me:
what
'shappeni
ng?
Char
li
e:ngi
dakwe,
ngi
dinweI
'
mjustamess.
▶Il
aughed.
..Heunl
ockedt
hedoorwegoti
nsi
de.
.
Heswi
tchedonthel
ight
s.
Char
li
e:hav
eyoubeenst
andi
ngout
sidef
orawhi
l
e?
Me:
nahIj
ustgother
e.
Char
li
e:ohgood.
▶Heopenedsomewi ndows..
.Thenfi
xedher
eand
ther
eMi nuteslat
erhestar
tedgett
ingbusywi
thmy
hair
..Andtell
ingmeabouthisweekend..
.
Char
li
e:heezamoyazGodmadeami st
akeby
maki
ngmen. .
yhoangekeangeke!
!..
.Imtir
edofmen.
▶Il
aughed.
..Passi
nghi
m api
eceofhai
rpi
ece.
Me:
butsi
yawat
handanj
e.
Char
li
e:don'
tgot
her
e..
.Pl
ease.
..Yhobamnandi
abaf
ana.
.Godsnappedwhenhemadei
Pipi
yhoo.
▶Ilaughedsohard.
..Peopl
est
art
edcomi
ngi
n..And
ot
herhairdr
esser
scamei n.
Char
li
e:ser
ious.
Me:
hay
ishem uqi
nisi
l
e.
▶ Ist
art
edmissi
ngmyman' sdick.
.."
Myman"??Yho
konj
engisi
ngl
e..
.Char
li
ewasn'tlyi
ngGodsnapped
whenhemademenanddi ck.
Charl
i
e:kodwawemustnotf
orgett
hatni
ggasai
n'
t
shi
t.
Gi
rl
1attheback:
vel
e!Wuuuni
ggaswi
l
lmakey
ou
cr
azyy
ey .
▶Weal
ll
aughed.
Girl
2:don'tment i
onit..Ir
emembercr yingbeggi
ngt
o
beasi dechik..Becausehewant edt odumpme
becauseofagi r
l.It
oldhimI 'dratherbehisside
chickthannott ohavehi mi nmyl if
e..
..seemedo
thatagain..Ngcelaningbulalekil
lme.
Char
li
e:amadodaasi
funasi
fi
leshem.
Me:
yho.
▶Wecont inuedtov entaboutmenandt hei
r
theat
rics.
..Fewhour slaterar
ound2Iwasdonewi th
everyt
hingIcal l
edJayt ocomeandf et
chme
becausehehasbeenpest eri
ngmeaboutchi l
l
ing
withthem...Hecamewi thBrandon..Theyentered
thesalon.
..Ideci dedtodomynai l
salsosoIwas
dryi
ngmynewsetofnai l
swhent heycamei n..
.Door
bellr
angast heywalkedin.
Charl
i
e:woooooooooo!!
!!God.Thanky
ouf
or
br
ingi
ngmemyf uturehusband.
▶Il
aughed.JayandBr
andonwer
econf
used.
Char
lie:
wow..
.I'
dsell
thi
ssal
onandsel
lmycarFor
you.
..Pl
easemarryme.
▶Jayl
aughed.Theysatont
hecouch.
Char
li
e:uBhut
'wakhol
ozamo.
..
?
Me:
yeah.
..
▶Igotof
fthechai
r.
..Wentt
othemi
rr
orandI
appl
i
edli
pgloss.
.
Char
li
e:eybaki
thi
.Muhl
enongani
wakhei
fnj
e
akangi
funi
yenangi
zot
hat
hal
o
▶Poi
nti
ngatBr
andon
Gi
rl1:
hear
tbr
eakert
hatone.
Char
li
e:hecanbr
eakmyhear
t,myspi
nal
cor
dand
mybank..
.
Gi
rl2:
Konke.
..
Char
li
e:Konke.
..
.
▶Wel aughed. .Char l
iewasi nsanelycharmedby
Jay .
.Itwassof unnyt osee. .
.Wel eftev
ent uallybut
fi
rstwepassedbyt hemal l
andwewentt o
Pick'n'PayLi quor .
.Theyboughtt wobot tlesof
Jaigermast er,4bagsofDor i
tosandapacketof
bil
tongf orme.Wegoti nt othecaranddr ov eof f
..
Wear riv
edatBr andon'shousear ound3t her ewer e2
girl
swhoIdi dn'tknowt herethenTeezyandMat t
..
.I
saidmygr eeti
ngs.Isatnextt oTeezyandwest art
ed
chattinganddr i
nking..
.Itwassuchagooddayt o
rewindandf orgetal i
ttl
eaboutVi nceandal lmyl i
fe
stressesandal sot omakenewf riends,t
hebl ack
girl
swhower et hereBuhleandAnnabel l
ewer e
actuallygoodv i
bes. .
..
Jay:
Thenextper
sontost
andupt
ogopeehast
o
buyusChi
ckenli
ckenwi
ngs.
▶Hesi deey
edme. .Knowi
ngv
erywel
lthatIwas
next
..
.Wealllaughed.
Buhl
e:andZamoi
snext
..
.
Zamo:
bruhandheknowsi
t.
.Thi
sev
ilbei
ng
▶Il
i
ghtsl
appedhi
m,hel
aughed.
Jay
:I'
vebeencrav
ingforwi
ngsandBr
andonf
orgot
tor
emindmet obuythem.
Br
andon:
niggai
tai
n'
tmyf
aul
t.
Jay:
dawgy ouwerebusycompli
mentingZamo.
.
Sayi
nghernewhairdoisfi
rehernai
l
sblablabl
aand
youfor
gotaboutme.
Teezy:Jayat
hi"y
ouf
orgotaboutme"y
ousoundso
j
ealous.
▶Theyl aughedathim..Westartedsmokingweed
earl
i
eronsoourl aughterwasjustannoyi
ng..We
l
aughedatt hesamet hi
ngforhoursonend.
Annabellewaslayi
ngonaout sidecouchstari
ngat
thecloudswhenshesai d
Annabell
e:Youknowr i
ghtnowi fIcanhav eaBurger
KingwhopperandMcDonal d'
sVanil
lamilkshakeand
fr
ies.
.I'
dbethehappiesthighgir
l.
..I
'm sohighri
ght
nowIcanact ual
l
ytastethem inmymout h.
▶Sheslowl aughedasshewashi gh.
..Mesit
ti
ngot
topofacoolerboxnexttoJay.
..
playi
ngwitha
smokeli
ghter .
.Ii
mmediatel
yst
oppedaf t
er
Annabel
l
etal ked
Me:duuuude..
.Let
'sgobuythatnow.
.Itsoundsl
i
ke
heav
enandI '
m sur
eittast
esli
keonetoo..
.Yhooo
thej
alapeñosandthe100%beef..
Annabel
l
e:Comeonl
et'
sgo.
Br
andon:
arey
out
woser
ious?
Me:act
ual
lyI
'
m notsur
e..I
'm sohi
ghri
ghtnowI
'
m
ev
enlazyt
ogetupfrom t
hiscool
er.
Annabel
le:
thinkaboutthehotMcDonal
d'
sf r
ies
Nomzamo. .
.Theirsmell
..
.Mmmmht hesweettaste
ofVanil
l
ami l
kshake..
.Areyousur
ethatyou'
relazy
?
▶Wel
aughed.
Me:
youknowwhat
..I
'
m up,
let
'sgo.
▶Annabel l
eandIst oodup. ..Brandondeci dedt o
accompanyus. .Wewentt oMcDonal d'
sf irstand
orderedtheFr iesandMi l
kshakesf orev eryone. .
.We
alsobought50chi ckenl i
ckenwi ngs...Lastst opwas
BurgerKing. .
.Drivethruwassol ongAnnabel l
eandI
decidedtogeti nandbuyf rom ther e.
..After15Mi ns
ofwai t
ingweev entuall
ygotouror der..
.Wegotout .
.
Walkedt ot hecar,gotther eandweknocked
becausei twasl ocked...Wepeepedt hrought he
windowBr andonwast akingcocai ne. .
.Annabel le
l
ookedatmei nshock. .Ijustblankl ystaredather
withnobot her.
.AndIshookmyhead. ..
heopened
thedoorf orus.Wegoti nAnnabel legoti nt heback
whileIsati nthefrontwi thBr andon. .
Brandon:
didn'
texpecty
a'l
ltobebackt
hisear
ly.
..
Excuseme.
▶Hesni
ff
ed.
Annabel
l
e:Dude.
..
.Wast
hatcocai
ne?Omg.
..
▶Shewassoshockedandpuzzl
edj
ustasIwast
he
f
ir
stt
imeIsawtheseguy
staki
ngcocai
ne.
.
Annabel
l
e:t
hat
'ssocool
.
Br
andonandI
:cool
???
Annabel
l
e:canIseeit
??..I
'
veneverseeni
tbef
ore.
..
Yothi
siscr
azy.
..Zamoyoudon'
tl
ookshocked.
..
Me:becauset
heyar
eregul
arcokeuser
s..
..
Ithought
youknew.
Brandon:Annaletthi
snotbeanot
her"
cocai
nei
s
badforyou"lect
ure.
Annabel
l
e:noi
twon'
t.
.Letmeseei
t.
▶Brandonwashesi
tantbutheev
ent
ual
l
ygav
eitt
o
her
.
Annabel
l
e:Iwannat
ryi
t.
.Wi
l
lIdi
e?
▶Br
andonqui
ckl
ysnat
chedi
toutofherhands.
.
Br
andon:
Bruh.
..No.
..
Annabel
l
e:Wi
l
lIdi
e?
▶Shest
aredatme.
Me:
ehdon'
taskmeIdon'
tknow.
.Guy
slet
'sgo.
Br
andon:
youonl
ydi
ewheny
ouov
erdose.
Annabel
l
e:y
a'l
lar
esocool
yazi
I'
m nev
ergonna
cont
inuemyl
i
fewi
thouty
ouguy
s..
.
Me:
youwannat
akecocai
ne?
Annabel
le:No.
..I
'
m goodwit
hweedIj
ustwantt
otr
y
i
tthoughoneday.
..Notnow.
Me:metoo.
.Justt
otr
yitkay
1andseewhat
'st
he
hy
peabout.
Brandon:Don'tt
rycocai
ne.
..Let
'sl
eav
eguy
sbef
ore
ya'
llaskmef oratast
e.
Annabel
l
e:Zamol
et'
stast
eit
Me:
Dudenooo.
..Ar
eyoumad?
▶Weal ll
aughed..
.Eehbathongthi
sgirl
..Nowshe
wantstodi
ewi t
hme. .
.fi
rstandforemostmydad
wi
llki
llme.
.Njeyhoahywhati fIov
erdoseonmy
f
ir
sttryanddie.
..
Annabel
l
e:you'
resuchabore.
.Lookwewerehi
gh
butwearecool
now..I
t'
snotli
kewewil
ldi
eor
somethi
ng.
..
Me:
wewi
l
ldi
e..
Annabel
l
e
▶Shel
aughed
Annabell
e:wetr
yitj
ustthi
sonceandsmal
ldosage.
.
Brandonwil
lmeasur
eforus..
.
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
thi
shuni
sser
iousaboutt
his.
Br
andon:
ya'
l
lar
enotget
ti
nganydr
ug.
..
Annabell
e: YoayNi
yabhor
a.Jayi
smuchf
unhewi
l
l
l
etmet asteasambeni
.
▶Brandonst
artedpl
ayingRaesremmur
d-NoTy
pe
ashewasprepari
ngfortheroad.
..
Me:
Brandonl
etust
ast
eit
.It
'l
lbeaonceoft
hing
Br
andon:
ya'
l
lar
eov
er18whoam Ist
opy
a'l
l
..?
▶Hetookitoutandgaveittome..
.Ij
ustl
ookedatit
andt
appedit
..
.IlookedatAnnabel
l
eandwel aughed.
Br
andon:
letmeshowy
a'l
l
...
▶Heopenedthesmallpl
asti
cbagandpour eda
small
amountofiti
nadisccover.
.Andhemade3
l
inesf
orususinghi
sFNBbankcar d.
..Annabell
e
l
aughi
ngshewassoner v
ousy oucanhearitinher
l
aughbutexci
tedatt
hesamet ime.
Annabel
le:
soya'
ll
legi
tdot
his.
.Li
kei
nthemov
ies
thi
sissocr
azy
..
.
Me:
Arewer
eal
l
ydoi
ngt
his.
?
▶Il
aughedner
vousl
yal
so.
Annabel
l
e:br
uhno.
.Let
'snot
..
.Br
andoputi
tback
▶Br
andon'
sphoner
angi
twasJay
.Heanswer
ed.
Brandon:br
owecomi
ngnownow.
.Yeah.
.Ok.
.Cool
.
*callends*
Br
andon:
thatwasJayt
heywai
ti
ngf
orus.
Me:
Bri
ngt
hisher
e..
..
▶Itookthedisccov erfr
om BrandonandIhi
tmy
l
ine.
.Ital
lhappenedsof astIj
uststar
tedf
eel
ingl
i
ke
mynosewasonf ir
e...
..
Me:
Aaaagr
hhhh.
Annabel
l
e:what
'shappeni
ngt
oher
?Ar
eyoudy
ing
zee??
Me:
Nooi
tjustbur
ns.
..
.Takei
t
▶Igav
ehert
hedi
sccov
ert
odoherl
i
ne.Shet
ooki
t.
Annabel
l
e:.
..
..
▶Shest
aredatus.
..Wel
aughed.
..
Me:
comeon.
..
▶Shequi
ckl
ytookherl
i
neal
so.
Annabel
l
e:Ooooooohmygosh!
!Itbur
ns.
..
Br
andon:
it'
l
lbef
inei
nami
nut
e
Annabel
legav
eBr andonhi
sdi
sccov
erback.
..And
hehithi
sli
nealso.
..
Me:
Ifeel
not
hing.
Br
andon:
Wai
tfori
t.
..
.
Annabel
l
e:sowej
ustdi
dcocai
ne?
?
HerandIl
aughed.
..Br
andonst
art
edt
hecarandwe
dr
oveofft
ohishouse.

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▶Wi thin20mi nuteswewer eal readyatBr andon's

house. ..Itwasr aini
ngatt hatmomentsot heyhav e
mov edf rom outsidetoi nsidet hehouse.Wegot
i
nsi det heywer eal l
justbl ommi ngi nthelounge
Annabel l
eandIsatnextt oeachot her
..
.Brandon
ent eredcl osedthedoorandt henhewentt othe
kitchen, Jaywasbusypr epar i
ngaPl ayl
istforus..
..I
star t
edf eelingmyhear tbeat i
ng, likeIcouldhearmy
hear tpumpi ngblood..Andev ery thingthatmade
noi seIhear dit,everyt
hingwasj ustl oud.therain
out sidewaswor seit
slikeIcoul dhearnebutnow
myhear i
nghas100%i ncr eased. .
..Brandonopened
thet apandIcoul dheart hewat ercomi ngf rom t
he
pipesi twassuchamadexper ience. .Themost
annoy i
ngt hingwast hatIcoul dn'tst opsniffi
ng.
..
Me:
howdoy
ouf
eel
?
▶Annabel
l
elaughed.
.
Annabel
l
e:Idon'
tknow.
.Wei
rd..
.It
'sl
i
kemysenses
ar
enowopened. .Andl
i
keI'
m sohappy.
..
.
Me:ri
ght
...I
'
m happyt
ooandli
keearl
ierIwasn'
tthi
s
happy
..
.IgotdumpedandI'
m st
il
lnotoverhi
m but
nowI'
mlikefuckhi
m
▶Webot
hlaughed.
..
.
Jay
:Zamoar
eyougood?
▶Webot
hlookedathi
m..
.Annabel
l
est
oodup.
.
Annabel
l
e:Supergood.
..
.
▶Shel
aughedandwentt
othet
oil
et.
..
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne.
..
▶Ismiledathi
mt hensniff
ed.
..
Jaygotuphehada
cur
iouslookonhi
sf ace.
Jay:
bruhwesmokedweedhour
sago.
..Youst
il
l
hi
gh..
.
Me:
Yeah.
..
Jay
:BroIai
n'tnof
ool.
.Whatdi
dy out
ake?andst
op
sni
ff
ingdoyouhavesi
nusesorsomethi
ng.
..
▶Brandonwalkedi
nwithourf
ood.
.Heplacedt
he
f
oodont opofthet
abl
eandsatdown.
..
Br
andon:
Wedi
dli
nes.
..Onl
y1.
..
Jay:l
i
nes? ?
?Bruh.
..What
'swrongwi
thy
ou?These
areki
ds.
..Andshe'
smyLilsi
s
Br
andon:
Pract
ical
lyshe'
snoty
oursi
sandi
twas
j
ustonel
iner
elax.
..
▶Jayaggr
essi
vel
ypickedBr
andonupt
hesof
aand
manhandl
edhi
m...
Jay
:ar
eyoudone?
Buhl
e:Jay
!!Nooo
▶Iwashappybr uh...Ididn'
tev ennot i
cet he
altercationthatwashappeni ngar oundme. .Iwas
hallucinati
ngaboutVi nceandI ...WhenIwasi nmy
wor ldItwasj ustthe3ofusVi nce, MybabyandI
j
ustt he3ofusIwassohappy ..
..Iwashal l
ucinati
ng
thatwewer einBedandwehadaboyhehad
beaut i
fulr
ichhairjustl i
keme....Hadbr owney esjust
l
ikemeandhel ookedl i
keVince. .Histoothless
smi le..
.Itwasamazi ng...
.Ihadt osnapoutofi t
whenBuhl ewasshaki ngmebr i
ngi ngmebackt o
l
ife...
Buhl
e:t
ell
Jayt
ost
op.
..
.
Me:
what
'shappeni
ng?
?
▶JayandBr andonwerefight
inglikeforr
ealforr
eal
theywereateachother
'sneck..
.Jaywasst r
angli
ng
Brandon.
..
Annabel
lewasont hefloorcryi
ng.
.Guysit
wasamess. .
.
Me:
whyi
sshecr
ying?Jayst
ooy
ou'
rehur
ti
nghi
m..
..
▶MattandTeezywalkedin,
theywentt
ohavea
smokeout
side.
..Mat
tquickl
ybroket
hem of
f.
..
Mat
t:whatt
hef
uck.
..
?
Jay
:Fuckt
his.
..Zamol
et'
sgo.
..
Me:
But
..
.Ihav
en'
t
Jay
:Isai
dlet
'sgo!
Me:
okay
..
.
Matt:
youcan'tl
eaveyetbr
uhwhathappened.
..
SomebodypleaseshutAnnabel
l
eup.
.Nobodyis
dead.
lwhyisshecryi
ng?
▶Annabel
l
ewascr
yingcr
yingl
maoooooooo.
..
.
Buhl
e:f
ri
endwhat
'swr
ong?
?
Annabel
l
e:Jayi
sbeat
ingupBr
andon.
..
Buhl
e:t
hat
'swhyy
oucr
yingr
ightnow?
Annabel
l
e:Yeah.
..
▶Shewi
pedherownt
ear
s..
.Buhl
eshookherhead.
..
Buhl
e:Comegetup.
.Theyar
enol
ongerf
ight
ing.
..
Mat
t:cansomebodypl
easet
ell
mewhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Teezy
:Br
andonandJayhavenev
erf
oughtbr
uhi
t
mustbesomethi
ngser
ious.
▶Br andon'snosewasbleedi
ngsohewasf ocusi
ng
onthat..AndJaywasjustonhisphonebei
ng
nonchalant.
..
Mat
t:Jay
?
Jay
:what
??
▶Hewasdi
sgust
ing,
disappoi
ntedanddone.
Mat
t:what
'st
hecl
ashabout
?
Jay
:thi
sli
lfuckthoughti
twasokayt
ofeed18year
ol
dscocai
ne...Br
uhwenev ercr
osst
hatl
iney
ou
knowt
hat
..
Brandon:f
uckyouJay.
.Idi
dn'tf
orceanyonetotake
Coke..
.Theyi
nsist
edandthesetwoareadult
s..
.
Mat
t:don'
ttr
ytoj
ust
if
yshi
tdawg.
.Youwer
ewr
ong.
..
Jay:ar
eyoufucki
ngrunni
ngmad..You'
recal
l
ing18
yearol
dsadult
s?Bruhyou'
re24y
ouknowbet ter
..
.
Mxm fuckt
his.
.
▶Hest
oodup.
..
Jay
:Youl
et'
sgo.
▶Ref f
eringtome...
ij
uststoodupandfoll
owedJay
wewal kedout.
..Whenwewer eoutsi
de,Buhl
e
openedt hedoorandcal
ledus..
Buhl
e:Zamoy
oul
efty
ourbag.
..
Me:
shi
tthanky
ou.
..
▶Can'tbel
i
evethatIjustt
ookachickenwingand
l
eftmybag..Whatthefuck.
..
Jayt
ooki tf
rom Buhl
es
hand.
..
Jay:Whenwegethomey
ousl
eep.
..You'
reso
fucked.
▶Isniff
ed..Andcontinuedt
oeatmywi ng..
.Yho
whodiedandgav eJayt het
it
leofbei
ngmy
Body
guar d..
.Hejustr
uinedwhatcoul
d'vebeenthe
gr
eatestnightev
er..
.Mxmxmxm.
Jay
:wai
ther
e
▶Hewentbacki
nsi
deandBrandoncameoutand
camet
omewhi l
eJaywasst
ill
insi
dethehouse.
..
Brandon:youknowIwouldn'
ttr
ytohurtyou..I
'
m
sorr
yaboutthi
swholet
hingandI'm sor
rythatI
madey ouuse.
..
Me:
Nahmani
t'
sOkayJayi
sjustbei
ngdr
amat
ic
▶Annabel
l
eal
socameoutandcamet
ome.
.
Annabel
l
e:y
ou'
rel
eav
ing.
..
▶Shemadeasadfaceandopenedherar
msoutf
or
ahug.
.Wehugged.
..
Me:
yeah
Annabel
l
e: Iwantedyourcontact
sbutIt
ri
edtouse
myphone..Itwasjustwei
rdthebutt
onswerefl
yi
ng.
..
Ij
ust-
▶Wel
aughedather
..
.
Br
andon:
ya'
l
lar
ecr
azy
..
Me:
Iactual
lyf
eel
li
ket
hewor
ldi
sspi
nni
ng.
.Iwant
t
ositdown
Annabel
l
e:si
t.
▶Isatdownandwej ustconti
nuedtotalkIwasso
happyyholikeev ery
thingjustfel
tri
ght.
..
.Jaywalked
outminuteslater
...Hewal kedpassedusdi dn'tsay
anyt
hinghej ustopenedMat t
'scarandgotinside..
.
Annabel
leandBr andonsai dtheirgoodbyesandIgot
i
ntothepassengerseat .
..
.Wedr oveoffi
nsilence.

▶Jaydr oppedmeof fatmyhousethataf

ternoon..
Hemadesur et
hatIdrankal
otofwatertofade
awaymyhi gh..
.Andhemadesur et
hatIslept.
..
.It
hasbeenaweeksi ncethefi
ghtnow...Mydad,
ThembaandIar eatCNAbuy i
ngThemba's
stat
ioner
y
Me:
Sohav
eyouchosensubj
ect
'sy
et?
Themba:
Yeah.
..
.AndI
'
m goi
ngt
obeaDJl
i
keIdon'
t
needschool
doy
ouunder
stand?
▶Il
aughed.
.
Me:Iunderst
andlil
bro.
.Kodwaangithiy
oucanhav
e
si
debusinessesandhavepeopleworki
ngfory
ou
whil
eyoutravelt
heworldtoDJ..Andhavi
ng
busi
nessesrequi
resyoutostudy.
..
Themba:
Blackcof
feehasbusi
nesses?
Me: Yesl
oadsoft hem...Andbecausehewentt o
schoolheknowshowmakemor emoneyt hrough
makingbusinesses..Youhavetobecleveraboutit
..
▶Mydadlookedatmeandsmi
l
edt
henshookhi
s
head.
..
Me:
what
??
Dad:
Not
hing.
..
Themba:Yazuqi
nisi
l
e..
.AndIchoset
hebusi
ness
st
ream..
Me:goodandmay beonedayy
ouwi
l
lbemy
busi
nesspar
tner
▶Wel
aughed.
.Thenwewentt
othet
il
l.
..Wel
lIwent
tothetil
landpurchasedthei
temswebought ..
..
After
wardswewentt obuypi
zzaatPanar ot
tisthen
wedr ovebackhome. .
.Wegothomeunpackedt hen
wechi l
l
edintheloungeandateourpizzas...
.Each
oneofushadt heirownboxofpizzawej usttraded
sli
cestotastethefl
avorofanot
herperson..
..I
openedWhat sapp
Annabel
l
e:wher
eyouat
?Comet
hroughatt
hest
udi
o
Me:Ar
ghhhUberwi
llt
aketi
met
oarr
ive.
..Tel
l
Br
andontocomeandfet
chme.
..
.

▶Khomotsosentmeaphot
oofherandbaby
Renei
l
we
Khomot
so:
Wemi
ssy
ou.
Me:Ncoooooh Imi
ssyout
oo.
..Ya'
l
lshoul
d
comeandv i
sitmebef
oreImov
etoRes
Khomotso:Fr
iendtal
kingaboutUniver
sit
yIgot
accept
edatCPUTandUKZNi magine..
.UPandUJ
sai
dnahbabygirlasi
kufuni
laeduze .
..
Me:
Forr
eal
??.
..Congr
atul
ati
ons f
ri
endsowhat
haveyoudeci
ded?
?Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oleav
ebaby
Rene?
Khomo:
Idon'
tknow
Me:
Eish.
..
..

Me:
Jay
??(
08:
22)Mon
Me:
Event
ual
lyy
ouhav
etot
alkt
omey
ouknowt
hat
(
09:
25)Mon
Jay
:It
'scool
bruhwhat
ever(
09:
25)Mon
Me:
Itwasj
ustaonceof
fthi
ngr
elax(
10:
17)Mon
Me:
mxm (
08:
56)Tue
Me:
I'
m goingtothest
utodayhopet
oseey
ou
t
her
e..
..
im sor
ryke(
13:
22)Sat

TheSquadGr
oupchat
Kamo: Mar
adoy oubi
tchesreal
i
zethatonce
Februar
ycomeswewon' tbeabl
etotalkandwewi
l
l
havenewfri
ends.
..
Natasha:Weshoul
ddef
ini
tel
yhangoutguy
sI'
l
lpl
an
every
thing
Me:
You?
?
Nat
asha:
Yesme
Kamo: anyv
olunt
eer
sexceptTash?
Khomo:
Candi
ce:Natashapl
easechoseacoolplacenoty
our
mother
'sbackyar
dorsomewhi t
epeoplehangout
spot
.
Me:
Please
Nat
asha:

Annabel
l
e:I
'
m comi
ngt
ofet
chy
ou.
.I'
l
lbet
her
ein5
Me:
Okay

Me: DadI'
m goi
ngt
ohangoutwi
thAnnabel
l
eI'
l
lbe
back..
..
▶Ist
oodup.
Dad:
Annabel
l
e?
Me:
Yeahmynewf
ri
endt
hatwasher
eWednesday
?
▶Annabel l
eandIhangedoutagaintwiceafterthe
Cocainethi
ngie.
.Wewerebecomi ngfri
ends.
...We
real
izedt
hatwehadal oti
ncommonandwel iked
thesamet hi
ngs..Wefi
gureditwasjustaLeo
thi
ng.Shewasbor ndaysaftermeont he21stof
August.
Dad:
Oh.
..don'
tcomebackl
ate.
..
Me:
yeahdon'
twor
ry.
.
▶Iwentt ot hekit
chenpl acedmypl at
eandgl assi
n
thesinkthenIwentt omyr oom...Iwaswear i
ng
sli
desItookt hem offandwor emypi nkVan's
sneakersinstead.
..Iwaswear i
ngawhi tecroptop,
shortJeanski r
tandslides..
..Ichargedmyphonef or
2Mi ns.
..Annabell
ecal l
edmeaf ter10mi nut
es
l
etti
ngmeknowt hatshewasatt hegat e.
..
Me:I
'm coming..
.Nownow.
..I
'
mlooki
ngf
ormyl
i
p
gl
ossbutIcan'tfi
ndi
t
Annabel
l
e:Okay
..
.
Me:
foundi
t.
..I
'
llbet
her
ein2seconds*
cal
lended*
▶Ir andownstairsthenwentout ...If
oundher
parkednearthegat e..
.Sheownsawhi temi ni
Cooperheheher ichkidv i
besl ol
...2015ami ni
Cooperwasat hingst il
li
s...Andappar entl
yshegot
i
tbecauseshef inishedschool withoutaki dorany
tr
ouble..
.Suchagoodgi rl
...Lol.
..AsIwasaboutt o
opent hedoorandgeti nsidet hecar .
..Vincepull
ed
upandgoti nt
ohi sy ar
d...
.Ifroze...
Annabel
l
e:Zee?
Me:
..
..
▶Myheartst
art
edbeatingf
ast.
..
.Ididn'
tseehimI
j
ustsawhi
scar.
.Isnappedatofi
t..
.Igotinsi
dethe
car
.
Annabel
l
e:Br
uhar
eyouokay
?
Me:yeah.
..
.(st
il
ll
ooki
ngatVi
ncecar
).
..Yeah.
..I
'
m
okay
..
.
Annabel
l
e:Okay
..
..
.
▶Vincegotoutofhi
scar
..
.Andwentt
otheboot
andhetookoutafewpl
asti
cbags.
.
Annabell
e:y
ouhatet
hetypeofmusi
cthatIusual
l
y
pl
ay .
.Whoshoul
dIpl
ay?DRAKE?Bry
sontil
l
er?Or
Areece?
Me:
..
..
..
.(st
il
ll
ooki
ngatVi
ncef
rom af
ar)
Annabel
l
e:dude.
.Hai
bo.
.Who'
sthatguy
?
▶Annabell
ealsost
artedlooki
ngathi
m..I
twasaLil
bi
ttoolat
ethoughbecausehehadjustwal
kedi
nthe
house.
..
Annabel
l
e:who'
sthat
?..
..OmgI
sthatVi
nce?
▶Inoddedwitht
earsinmyeyes..
.YhooIwasback
t
oSquare1.
..Cry
ingforVi
nce.
..Seei
nghi
mt r
igger
ed
mesobadly
...
Annabel
l
e:nononodon'
tdot
his.
..
.Agai
n..
..
▶Shepul l
edmecl oseandhuggedme. .
.I'
m sur
e
Annabell
ewascl oset okill
i
ngme. .Thet
wot imeswe
weretogetherIkeptont ell
ingheraboutVinceandI
cr
iedononeoccasi on.
.ThenIcal ledhercryi
ngthe
ot
hernightIcouldn'tsleep.
...BecauseofVince.
..
Me:I
'
m notcr
ying.
..
▶Igotoutofherar
ms.
..Iwasn'
tcr
ying.
.Iwasabout
t
othough.
..
.
Annabel
l
e:ThankGod!
▶Webot
hlaughed.
..Wedr
oveof
fwentt
othest
udi
o
t
ochi
l
lwi
ththehomies.

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▶Wegotatt hest udio.

..Ther ewasBr andon, Matt
,
Kyleandus.Wegoti nsidegr eetedthenwesatdown
theywerehavi
ngchi ckenwi ngswej ustjoinedinand
ate.
..Ky
lewasf i
nishinguphi supcomi ngal bum so
theywerefi
nal
izi
ngsomet hings..
.
Mat
t:wi
l
lJaypul
lthr
ought
ofi
nishuphi
sfeat
ure?
▶Annabel
l
e,Br
andonandIl
ookedateachot
her
..
.
Kyle:hedoesn'
thav
eapr obl
em wi
thmebutwi t
h
these3so...HemustcomebecauseI
'm noti
nvolv
ed.
Annabel
l
e:i
t'
sal
lBr
andon'
sfaul
tifwebei
nghonest
▶Br
andonl
aughed.
Brandon:wowpeopl
ewi
l
ltur
nony
ouwhent
hings
getroughhey.
..
▶Il
aughedt
oo.
Brandon: ni
ggamustjustacceptwhathappened
andmov eon..Thesehunsdidjustoneli
neand
nevertouchedcokeagain.
.Theywerejust
exper
iment
ing.
▶Annabell
ecoughed.
..Andl
ookedatBr
andon.I
l
aughed.
Me:
Nomaar
n.
Br
andon:
whyar
eyou.
..
Mat
t:
..
.Ya'
l
ldi
dcokeagai
n?
Ky
le:
wai
twai
twai
t.
..
.
Brandon:
nowaysmaarnwhenandhow?Why
??I
havesomanyquest
ions
▶Hel
aughed.
..
Annabel
l
e:l
et'
snotgot
her
e..
Me:
let
'snot
..
..
▶ItookasipofBonaquast
rawber
ryf
lav
oredwat
er
t
hatAnnabel
lehadboughtme..
.
Matt:Br
andonseeyourdoi
ngs.
..Soontheywil
lbe
r
egularusersl
i
keus..
.Zamooutwi t
hitwheredi
d
yal
lgetcoke?Didt
heygeti
twhereIthinkt
heygotit
?
▶Br
andonqui
ckl
yshushedMat
tup.
Brandon:
eydon'
tgot
her
e..Theydon'
tknowabout
that
..
.
Me:
wedon'
tknowaboutwhat
?
Br
andon:
don'
twor
ryabouti
t.
..
Me:
Brandon!
???
▶Brandonlaughedagainindi
sbel
iefhej
ustcoul
dn'
t
bel
i
evethatwedi dcocai
neagain.
Br
andon:
Nah.
..Don'
tdocokepl
ease.
..St
opi
t
Me:i
twasj ustt
hatdayonl
yandwhenIt
ookone
f
rom Mattscarnot
hingmuchsowedidi
ttwi
ceand
t
hatdoesn'tmakeususers
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
Matt:i
twasy ouguyswhost ol
emycoke?Damn..
.
BruhyouknowIt houghtJaytooki
tbutt
henIwas
l
ikeitcan'
tbeJay..
.
▶Annabel
l
eandIl
aughed.
.
Annabel
l
e:pl
ayt
hatt
rackagai
nBr
andon
Br
andon:
whi
chone?
Annabel
l
e:t
heonet
hathasmynameoni
t.
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Kyl
e:ey
ywhatar
ey ouonaboutt
her
e'snoAnnabel
l
e
i
nmyMi xt
apepl
ease.
▶Weal llaughed...Thenwehear dthedoorclose..
.It
wasJaywal kingin..Hewasi nhiscream hoodie
wit
hahaton, wear i
ngjeansandAi rf
orceones..
.
Withacigaretteonhi smout h..Hewasonhi s
phone.
..Hegr eeted..
.Wegr eet edback.
..Hesits
down..
.Allofusst olelooksateachot her..
..I
twas
j
ustawkwar d..
..Kylebrokethesi l
ence
Ky
le:
youher
etodot
hatf
eat
uredawg?
Jay
:Yeah.
..MustIj
umpi
ntheboot
h?
Ky
le:
Brandon?
Brandon:
Notyetl
etmedoaf
ewt
ouchupsont
hat
tr
ackthenhecan.
..
Ky
le:
cool
..
.Howar
eyoudoi
ngdawg?
▶Theyshookhands.
.
Jay
:Nonmuch.
..
▶Ni ggawasonhi sphonedidn'tev
enbotherto
makeey econtactwi
thKy l
e...EhHayiwedecidedto
j
ustignor ehim andwecontinuedtochil
l
...Mi
nutes
l
aterBr andontoldhi
mt hathecangetintothebooth
t
of i
ni shup..
..Hegotintheboothandhest ar
ted
r
appi ng.
Br
andon:
BruhJayi
sreal
l
ygood.
Ky
le:
ver
y..
.He'
sgonnabl
owsoon
Matt:
Trust
..
.theyst
art
edbumpi ngtohi
m..Sodid
we.
.Hewasr eall
ygood.
..Thesongwasreall
ygood.
.
Br
andonwasanamazi ngPr oducer
.
Mat tsatdownbesidemeandAnnabel l
eopenedup
apacketofcocaine..Andher ol
ledabluntandhe
spri
nkledthecocaineont opofhisj
oint.
.Andhe
startedsmoking.
..Annabell
eandIlookedateach
otherandletoutsomel aughter
..
.
Annabel
l
e:y
ou'
redumb.
..ButIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
Lov
eyout
oo.
▶Br andonwashavi
ngablunt
..Itwasacl
eanbl
unt.
..
Iaskedforasmoke.
..Hegaveittome.It
ooki
tthen
Ist
art
edsmoki
ng.
..
Me:
you'
renotdoi
ngcocai
net
oday
?
Brandon:wedon'tdoitev
eryday..
.Ifwedi
dit
everydayt
henwewouldbeaddi cts.
.Wekindaar e
becausewesomet i
mescraveitjustli
keweed..But
wehav eit
scrav
ingsundercontr
ol..
..I
t'
saskil
l
.
▶Hewi
nkedatus.
Me:
mxm
Annabel
l
e:cokei
sni
cet
houghy
ho.
..
Me:
Alot
.
Matt
:iti
sbutonemistakeyou'
rehookedandi
na
cy
cleyoucan'
tgetoutoff
.
Br
andon:yeahmani t'
sbad..Jaygothookedhence
hi
sdramaticreact
iontoyoudoingcoke..
.Itwasbad.
.
Hi
smot herchasedhim out
...
▶Thiswasnewst ome..
.AndIimmediatel
y
under
stoodwhyher eactedthewayhedi
d...
.i
fhis
addi
cti
onwast hatbadthenIdon'
tblamehimf or
bei
ngprotect
iveoverme. .
..
Me:
woahr
eal
l
y?
Annabel
l
e:y
othat
'sbad.
Br
andon:
Itwas.
..
▶Jaywal
kedoutoft
heboot
h..
.
Jay
:DoIhav
etor
edot
hatshi
tagai
n?
Br
andon:
Nobr
oitwasf
ir
e..
..
youcancomeout
Ky
le:
Broooo
▶Jaycameout,
Kylewentupt
ohi
mtheyf
ist
pumpedt
henhugged
▶Jayl
aughed.
Jay
:Thanksbr
o
Ky
le:
Naht
hanky
oubr
o
Jay
:cool
..CanIgett
hatwhit
estuf
fbeforeIbounce
i
fyouhaveitAdakui
swait
ingformeinthecar.
..
Ky
le:
Yeahsur
eIgoty
ou.
Hetookouthiscocainepacketandgaveitt
oJay..
Helef
twithoutsayi
nggoodby e.
.YhoJaywasmad
mad..
.Kantieyakheayi
pheli
..Imeanyoucan'
ttel
l
otherstostopdoing123whi lewenay oudo123
everychancey ougetthat'
sbull
shity
ouhav enor
ight
tojudge..
.IknowI '
my oungandblablablabutwoah
stopbeingGod.It hr
ewJayi ssuesandmoodsoutof
thewindow..He'll
justtal
ktomewhenhewant sto.
..
.
Annabel
l
e:Br
andonhav
eyout
alkedt
oJaysi
ncet
he
fi
ght?
Brandon:NahIhaven'
ttal
kedtohi
m orseenhim
unti
ltoday.
..Hehasn'
tbeenint
hestudi
oforawhil
e
now...Andhewasn'tgonnacometodayi
fitwasn'
t
forKyle'
sEP
Annabel
l
e:damnheget
sli
ket
hiswhenhe'
smad?
Kyl
e: Prett
ymuch..Hewil
ltal
ktoyouwhenhe
wantsto..Theny
ou'l
lknowthathe'
soveri
t.
.Li
kehi
s
si
l
encet owardsyouishi
spunishmentt
oyou.
Me:
Lame.
..He'
sact
ingl
i
keaHun.
..
▶Theyl aughedwestartedpl
ayi
ngJ.Colesborn
sinneralbum.
..Wewerenowal li
nthechil
li
ngr oom
j
ustt al
ki
ngshit.
.Ienj
oyedbei
ngwi t
htheseniggas
andt hi
snewf ri
endofmineAnnabell
etheymademe
forgetaboutmybrokenheart
..
.AndI'
venev erhad
anyf ri
endshipout sideofmysquadsot hisnew
groupoff ri
endsj ustbr i
ngoutanot herZeeandt hey
l
ov edher .
.Ital
kedl essandl istenedmor e..Ilaughed
mor eandgai nedmor el i
felessons. ..
they'relives
wer emessedupj ustl ikemi net heyhadt hingst o
deal withbuttheydi dn' tfocusont heirmessedups
l
ives.Al t
houghitwasr ainingi nt heirli
fet heyenj oyed
dancingi nthatrain..Theyj ustdi dn'tdwel lint hei
r
sadnesst hat'
swhatIl ovedaboutt hem andt he
drugscamei nhandyf orthem. .
.It hinkabout2hour s
l
atersi nceJayLef tDukeandMel vi
nar r
ivedt hey'r
e
brothersandt hey'rewhi t
ef rom Mi drand..Al soJay '
s
fr
iends.Theyhav eappear edi nsomei nsertssot hey
aren'tnewchar acter s.Theygoti nsideandj oinedus.
Mel
vi
n:what
'supgang?
Ky
le:
Nonmuch.
Mel
vi
n:l
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
he10t
h
Ky
le:
HahahmanIcan'
twai
t.
Mel
vi
n:pr
oudofy
oudawg.
..
.howar
eyou?
▶Il
aughedt
henanswer
edhi
m.
Me:
I'
m goodMel
vi
n..Howar
eyou?
Mel
vi
n:seei
ngy
oumakesmehappyy
ouknowt
hat
..
.
Br
andom:
Eyey
..St
ayaway
..
.
▶Il
aughed.
Mel
vi
n: DamnnBrandonwhere'
syourki
dandbaby
mama..Ial
sowantthatyouknow.
.Stopst
oppi
ng
mefr
om havingt
hatwithZee.
Br
andon:
shutup.
..
Duke:
passmet
hatCDcov
er.
..
.?
Annabel
l
e:Annabel
l
e..
.
Duke:Annabel
l
ecany
oupl
easepassmet
hatCD
cover
..
.
Annabel
l
e:Sur
e
▶Shegav eittohim..Hethenpreparedtohave
somecoke.Mel vinandKylej
oinedhim...Isowanted
tojointhem toobutnowJay '
sexper i
encewasi nmy
head...Cokeisnice,t
he2t i
mest hatI
'vehadit
..Ihad
thebesthighi ntheworl
d..AndIwantt ofeelt
hose
feel
ingsagain...
▶Mat twhomi xedweedandcokewassuperhi ghby
now...Hehadhi sheadont hecouchbumpi nghi s
headt ot hemusi ct hatwaspl ay i
ngi nt he
backgr ound. .
..AnnaandIwer enol ongerhi ghsowe
werebasi call
ywi thpeopl ewhower ehi ghofweed
andcocai ne..
.Irolledmyey es. .
.Butt henIr eali
zed
thattheywer eal lhighandi nthei rownwor ldnot
mindingwhatt heot herpersonwasdoi ngt heywer e
rappingandl aughi ngandhav ingmeani ngless
conversat ions...Ther ewasapacketofcokei nt he
tabl
et hathadl it
tlecokel eftinit..
.Ideci dedt otakei t
byplaci ngt hebot tleofBonaquaf l
av our edwat eron
topoft hepackett henpushi ngt hecocai net owar ds
me..Itf el
l onmysneaker swheni tr eachedt heend
ofthet able, t
het abl ewasr eallylargeithadmany
thi
ngsont opofi tbuti twasr eallylowandi thad2
couchessur r
oundi ngi t
...
..Annabel l
edi dn' tev en
real
izewhatIwasdoi ngt heywer ebusyt alking...I
l
ookedr oundandsawt hatnoonewasl ooki ngat
me..It ookasi pofmywat erthenpl acedbackt he
bottl
eont opoft het able,Iwentdownt opi ckupt he
cocainet henIst oodup. .
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
ouset
het
oil
et.
..
Annabel
l
e:okay
..
▶Annabel
l
emadeawayf
ormet
opass.
.
Me:
comewi
thme.
..
▶Annabel ledidn'thesit
atetocomeal ongwithme..
Wewentt othet oil
et.
..
.Whenwegott ot hetoi
letI
real
lyhadt ouset hetoil
etsothefi
rstthingIdidwas
touset hetoi
let.Whi l
epeeingIdi
dn'tbeli
evethatI
actual
lydidthat..Ikeptonlaughi
ng.
Annabel
l
e:whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng.
..Fi
nishup
Me:
youwon'
tbel
i
evewhatIdi
d..
Annabel
l
e:wher
e?
▶Iopenedt
hedoor
.
Me:
l
ook
▶If
lashedt
hepacket
..
.Shewi
deopenedherey
es.
Annabel
l
e:Nomzamo!
!
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
let
'sdoi
t.
.
Annabel
l
e:ofcour
se!
▶Wewer esoexcit
edaboutit.
..Sheplacedi
tontop
ofherhandIdidthesame...
.wecheeredonitbef
ore
taki
ngthedrug.
..Welaughedthenwet ookthe
cocaine.
..
Us:
Ahhh
Me:
fuckIhat
ethebur
n
Annabel
l
e:Shi
t!I
tbur
nssobad.
▶Wesni
ff
ed.
..
.Isi
ghedi
nrel
i
ef.
..
Annabel
l
e:Howdi
dst
eal
it?Youal
way
sst
eal
cocai
ne
▶Wel
aughed
Me:
i
t'
smysecondt
imecomeon.
.
Annabel
l
e: whenMel
vi
nandDukewer
etaki
ngi
tI
wascravi
ngfori
t.
Me:
met
oo.
..Yho
▶Wechuckl
edt
henwel
eftt
het
oil
et.
..
Duke:
wear
epl
ayi
ngt
rut
hordar
e..
.
Me:
ohoh.
..
Mel
vi
n:y
all
arepl
ayi
ngr
ight
?
Me:
Yeahsur
e.
Mel
vi
n:somebodypl
easedar
emet
oki
ssZee.
Me:
No.
..
▶Theyl
aughed.
Duke:
I'
ll
gof
ir
st.
..
Us:
Okay
.
Duke:
ZeeTr
uthorDar
e?
Me:
Ahmmm.TRUTH.
Duke:
justwhatIwant
ed.
▶Ifr
owned..
..
.Whatdoeshemeanwhenhesay
s
j
ustwhathewant
s?
Duke:
YouandAnnabel
l
ejusthadcokei
nthet
oil
et?
Ky
le:
Woah!
▶Br
andonl
ookedatus.Mel
vi
nlaughed.
Mat
t:wai
twhat
?
▶AnnabellendIl
ookedateachot
her
..
Annabel
l
e
coughed.
Ky
le:
oohshe'scaughi
ngagai
n..
.Justl
i
keear
li
eron.
.
Wealr
eadyknowthetrut
h.
Me:
ArghcomeonAnnabel
l
e.
Annabel
l
e:I
'
m sor
ry
▶Shel
aughed
Br
andon:
stopt
aki
ngcocai
nezee.
.Why
?
Me:
noty
out
oowhyar
eyoupr
essed?
▶Heshookhi
shead.
Me:
IknowwhatI
'
m doi
ng.
..
.
Br
andon:
Noy
oudon'
t!
!
▶Thedrughitme.
..Thebeauti
ful
highofcocai
nehi
t
me.
..It
appedAnnabell
esthi
gh
Me:
Aaaahhhh
Annabel
l
e:i
tjusthi
tyou.
.?
Me:
yeah.
..
Annabel
l
e:i
thi
tmewhenwesatdown.
..
Me:
soi
t'
smyt
urnnow?
Duke:
Yeah
Me:
okay
..
.Mat
ttr
uthordar
e?
Ky
le:
Mat
tissohi
gh.
..
Mel
vi
n:hemi
xedcocai
neandweed?
?
Ky
le:
youknowhi
m
Mat
t:Imaybehi
gh.
.ButI
'
m st
il
lpl
ayi
ng.
.
Hewasstr
uggl
i
ngt
oopenhi
sey
es.
.Hewas
t
oast
ed.
..
Me:
okayt
hent
rut
hordar
e?
Mat
t:dar
eswi
l
lrequi
remet
ost
andup.
.Sot
rue.
..
Me:
okayDi
dyoumast
urbat
ethi
smor
ning?
Mat
t:hahaha.
..
.
▶Wel
aughed.
Mel
vi
n:Zamoy
o..
.
Me:
what
??
Mat
t:No.
.Iact
ual
l
ydi
dn'
t.
Mel
vi
n:Li
ar.
..
Ky
le:
dudewer
eyouwi
thhi
mthi
smor
ning
▶Wel aughed.
.Wecont i
nuedt oplaythegameand
otherstupi
dgamesunt ill
ate.
..Around9pm
Annabelleaccompaniedmehome. .myhighhas
washedof fatthi
shour..
.Ibuzzedt hegat
emydad
buzzedmei n..
.Ifoundhim waiti
ngf ormeatt
he
door.
Dad:
it'
s10pm Nomzamoi
t'
slat
e..Wher
ewer
eyou?
Me:
Dadpl
ease.
..
.
▶Iwal
kedpasshi
m..
.Hef
oll
owedme.
.Icl
i
mbed
t
hest
air
s.
Dad:
andy
ousmel
ll
ikeweed.
.Doy
ousmokeweed
Zamo?
Me:
NodadIwaswi
thpeopl
ewhodo.
..Idon'
t.
.
Dad:
Comel
etmesmel
lyou.
..
Me:
No.
..
▶Hef
oll
owedmeupst
air
s.
Dad:
Nomzamo!
!!
Me:
Noooo!
▶Icl osedmydoort henlockedi t
...Mydadi sjust
goingt ostressmeal waysguar di
ngmel i
keI '
ma
chil
d..Jeez. .
.Myphoner anoutofbat ter
ysoI
chargedi t.
..Turneditont henIwentt opee...came
backandIst art
edundr essing.
..Gangnot if
ications
start
edcomi ngt hr
oughwheni tswi t
chedof fmy
mobi l
edat awason. .
.Itkeptonbuzzi ngwith
notif
icationscomi ngthrough..
.Concer nedIwal ked
towardsmyphone. .
.Pickeditupt henIunlockedi t
..
Acal lcamet hroughsoonasIunl ockedit
..
.Itwas
Khomot so
Khomot
so:
Didy
ouseewhat
'shappeni
ng?
Me:
No.
.What
'sgoi
ngon?
▶Myhear
tst
art
edr
aci
ng.
Khomot
so:
someaccountpost
edy
ournudes.
..
.
▶Myheartdroppedtomystomach...
ifel
tsi
ck
i
mmedi
atelycouldn'
tbr
eat
h..Isatdown.
Me:
Mynudes?
?
Khomot
so:
wer
epor
tedi
t.
..Soi
twi
l
lber
emov
ed
soon.
..It
hinki
t'
sVi
nce.
..
Me:
Noooo.
..
.Khomot
so.
Khomot
so:
I'
m sor
ryVee.
..
▶Idr oppedthecall.
..ThenIwentt oFacebook.
..
ThereIwas. .
.Taggedi nthi
spostby"Youdi dall
thi
s"YhooIt earedup...
.Iwasshakingitwasso
bad..
.Whocoul ddot histome. .
.Isi
tZweliorVi
nce.
..
Theyar etheonlyonest hatIhaveshar
edmynudes
wit
h..
..Ijustkeptoncr yi
ng..
..

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▶Ist artedcr yi
nguncont r
ol l
ablybecausepeopl e
weresay i
ngr eall
ymeant hingsaboutme. .
.Not hing
l
iket hi
shasev erhappenedt omeandIhat e
humi li
ati
onsomuchIdi dn'tknowhowIwasgoi ng
toescapet his.
..
.Istartedt hinkingaboutmydad. .
He'sgoi ngt okil
lme. .
.att hispoi ntIwasshaki ngso
terr
iblycouldn'tholdmyphoneandIcoul dn'tgetup
from thefloor .
..
.Annabel l
ecal l
edmeIi gnor edit..
.
Kamoandmyot herfri
endsf rom school st
arted
call
ingme. ...
i j
ustletmyphoner angandIcr ieduntil
myt hroatwasl i
terall
ysor eandnot ear
scoul dcome
out..
..

i
Messagef
rom Annabel
l
e
Annabel
le:Ij
ustgothome...AbouttosleepIhope
youarr
ivedwellandyourdaddidn'tscol
dy ou.
.Lov
e
you
▶Iswi tchedof fmyphonet henIl ef titont hefloorI
wentt obed. .
.It ri
edsl eepi ngbutIcoul dn't
...
.My
pict
ure'swer eal l Icoul dt hinkabout ..
..Whatbr eaks
met hemosti st hatmyf acei sv isible...Ont hose
picsit'
smeshowi ngmyboobsandI '
m wear inga
l
acepent y.
..Somyboobsar eal lov ert heinternet
now...Peopl ehav esav edt hem. .Theyar eshar ing
them amongstt hemsel vesonwhat sappandot her
mediasi tes..
..Don' tknowhowImanagedt osl eep
butIfoundmysel fwaki ngupar ound9am f oll
owi ng
day..
..Istayedi nmybedandIcr iedf orsomet ime. .
..
Managedt opul l my selfoutoft hebedar ound
12am. .
.iwentst raightdownst airs..Mydadwasn' t
home. .
.Imadeacer ealthenIwentt othe
l
ounge. .
wat chedFami lyguy .
..Itwasr eall
ywat chi ng
meandmycer eal endedupget tingcol d.Icoul dn't
eatnorf ocusonwhatIwaswat chi ngmyt hought s
werespr inti
ng...Ihear dabuzzont hegat e...Ist ood
upandwentt ot hecamer ast oseewhowasatt he
gate.
..ItwasJay
Me:
Fuck
▶Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tneedt
hisr
ightnow.
..
Iopenedt
he
gateheenter
ed..
.Iwentt
omeethi
m att
hedoor
.I
openedthedoor
Jay
:Hi
Me:
Hey
.
Jay
:Br
oughtt
his.
▶Hegav
emeat
akeal
otpackage.
..
.
Me:
l
eav
eitt
her
e.
▶Isai dt
hisnonchal
antlyandIturnedmybackon
him..Iwentbacktothelounge.
..Iguessheplaced
thepackageont opofthetabl
eint heki
tchenandhe
fol
lowedme.
Jay
:Ar
eyouowkay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne.
..
Jay:Zamo..
.I'
vefor
giveny
ouandBrandonI
'
m
passedthat
..
.Ift
hat'
swhatthi
sisabout
Me:mywor l
ddoesn'
trev
olv
ear
oundy
ouJay
..
.It
doesn'
t.
..
Jay
:.
..
..
..Ooookay
.Ar
eyousur
ethaty
ou'
reokay
?
Me:
you'
l
lseeyour
sel
foutwheny
oul
eav
e..I
'
m goi
ng
t
omyroom..
▶Ilefthi
mint helounge..
.Gottomyroom andIsat
onmybed. .
.Justthinki
ng..
..Thi
nki
ngabouthow
Vi
ncecandot histome. .
.Whywoul dhedothist
o
me..YeahIcheatedbutthis?Howcanhest oopso
l
ow...
.
IheardJaycl osethedoor ..
.Iusedmyphonet obuzz
him outandIcl osedt hegat e.
..
.Itwasconnect edto
thesy st
em. ..
.Assoonasmydat awason. .The
comment s,
inboxes, what sappInstagram
notif
icationsstartedpi li
ngup...
.Istart
edbr eathi
ng
heav i
ly.
..Iwasl osingmybr eathrhythm...Istoodup...
Andhadwat erthatwasonmymi r
rortable...
Swi t
chedmyphoneof fandIslept..
.wellItri
edt o
sleepIjustcoul dn't.
..

Fol
l
owi
ngDay
▶ Isti
l
l haven'
tgatheredt
hestrengt
htotouchmy
phone.
..Ireall
ythoughtmeignori
ngmyphone
wouldjustmaket hi
ngseasierbutIwaswrongi
tjust
mademat terswor se..
.Ijustkeptonthi
nkingabout
whatar etheysay i
ng. .
.Hasmydadseent hem asof
yet.
..Myf amilymember s..
.Iheardaknockonmy
door..Myhear tstartedbeatingsofast.
..Ijustsaw
mywor l
dv anishbecauseIt houghtmydadhasseen
thepictur
es...Secondknock
Dad:
Mubi
.
Me:
..
..
▶Omg. ..I
'
m dead..
.I'
m adeadgir
l.
..
I'
m so
dead.
.deaddead.Iwasnervous.
..
Dad:
Yourf
ri
endsar
eher
egetup.
..
.
▶Myf r
iends?Ijumpedoutofbedandat
tendedmy
dad'
sknocks..
.
Me:
Myf
ri
ends?
▶Dadwasbusyat
tachi
nghi
swat
ch.
..
Dad:
yeahI
'
mlat
e..
.Ihav
etogo.
..
▶Hewentbackt ohi
sroom..
.Ifol
l
owedhi m butI
wentdownst air
stosee"Myfri
ends"Iwalkedslowl
y
downt hest
ai r
s..
.AndIsawmySquadst andingin
theki
tchen.
..Kamowasf i
xi
ngCandiceshair
..
.
Khomot
sonot
icedme.
..
Khomot
so:
Nang'
▶Theyal
ll
ookedatme..
.Il
ookeddown..
.ButIfel
t
somuchbet
terseei
ngt
hem..
.Istar
tedcr
ying.
..
.
Khomo:
sor
ryf
ri
end.
..
▶Theyal l
cameupt omeandt heygavemehugs..
tel
l
ingmenott ocry.
.Thebr
ushingofmyback..
Theseactsjustmakeonebreakdownmorefurt
her.
..
Theydraggedmet othel
ounge..
.Nat
ashahanded
meaglassofwat er.
..
Kamo:Personal
lyIf
eell
ikey
ourboobsareamazing.
..
Ilov
ethosenudesthey
'r
esocuteuyashi
sa.
..Ev
en
theboysatsch.
..
.
Khomo:
Kamoy
ou'
renothel
ping
Kamo:
Howi
scr
yingaboutt
hishel
pingherkodwa.
..
??
▶Shecameupt
omehel
dmykneewhi
l
eshe
squat
ted.
..
Kamo: Iunderstandt
hatthi
shurtsanditwi
ll
probablyhurtyouunt
ilunti
l
..ButZeepeopl
emov e
on..
..
futhir
ememberwhenmynudescameout .
..I
wasnakednaked..
.Atleasty
ouhaveyourfav
ori
te
redlacepent
yandufakeneredl
ipst
ickchayouwere
seri
ous..
..
▶Ilaughedt
hrought
het
ear
s..
..Myf
ri
endsl
aughed
al
so..
..
Kamo:
don'
twor
ryt
hiswi
l
lbl
owov
er.
..
Nat
asha:
Youwi
l
lbeokayzeey
ou'
rest
rong.
Candice:andwewi l
lfi
ndthi
sper
sonwho
dist
ri
butedyournudesthenweki
l
lhi
m..Hewi
l
l
suff
er..
.
Khomo:
per
iodt
Me:
I'
vehur
tVi
nceenough.
..
.I'
l
ljustl
eti
tsl
i
de.
..
Nat
asha:
It
'snotVi
nce.
..
Candice:
It'
snothi
m...
.Ohy
oudi
dn'
tsee,
hepost
ed
thati
twasn'thi
m..
..
Me:
itwasn'
thi
m?
Kamo:yeahini
ti
all
ywethoughtthati
twashi
m..So
wefl
oodedhistimeli
newit
hinsult
sandwecall
ed
hi
m samthuka.
..
.
▶Ncooht hesebitchesdi dthatforme...
.butt hen
howi sitnotVi nce...Khomot soshowedmet hepost
thatVinceshar ed...
.I nshortitjustsai
dt hat .
..He
knowshowt hi
sl ooksi tlookslikehedidi tbuthe
swearst hathedi dn'thewoul dn'tst
oopt hislowand
helovesmesomucht odot hatt ome...
.What ever
happenedbet weenushappenedbutt herewasno
needf orhimt odot hat,hehasababysi st erhe'dkil
l
someonewho' dexposeherl i
lsisli
kethi
ssohe
understandsmyf r
iendsanger .
..whatwoul dhebe
gaini
ngf rom doingt his
Me: Ireal
l
ythoughtt
hati
twashim..Li
keInev
er
sharedNudeswi t
hZweli
soitdoesn'
tmakesense
thatitwashim..
..
.
Candi
ce:maybehesentt
hem t
ohimsel
fyoudon'
t
hi
deyournudepi
ctur
esonyourphonet
hey'
real
li
n
gal
ler
y..
.
Me:
coul
dbe.
..Fuckkk.
▶Dadcamet
othel
ounget
osayhi
sgoodby
es.
..
.
Dad:
nisi
phat
hekahl
elesgul
iSami
..
.
Me:
Dad.
..
Khomotso:
sizos'
phathakahle.
..Kamowi
l
lgomake
foodf
orher.
..Iwi
llbathhernje
▶Dadl aughedandl eft
..
.Itoldmydadt hatIwas
sickbecauseI '
vebeeni nmyr oom f orqui tesome
ti
me. .
..Myf r
iendsreall
ymademef eel bet t
erby
comi ngt hroughtoseeme. .
.Wet al
kedaboutal otof
things...Theytoldmet ogoandbat hwhi letheyf i
xed
Breakf astforme. .
.Ilef
tthem downst ai
rs...Wentt o
myr oom andIpi ckedmyphoneup. .Swi tchediton. .
.
Iwashopi ngt oseeat extfr
om Vi nce...
.Idon'tknow
say i
ngwhatbutsomet hing.
...Ijustwant edtofeel
bet t
er...
.Myhear tdroppedt omyst omachagai n. .As
textsandcomment swer efloodi ngmyphone. .
.Ij ust
swi t
chedi toffbecausei tj
ustt r
igger edmyanxi et y.
..
.
Iwentt obath..
..

▶Mi nuteslaterIwalkedout .
..Loti
onedandIwor e
Adidaspants, whit
ev estandaJeanj acketworemy
blacksocksandal sopi nksli
des..
.Iwent
downstair
s...
.Foundmyf ri
endsi nthediningtabl
e,
thetabl
ewasf il
l
edwi thbreakfasttheymadeBacon,
eggs,smalltomat oes,cheese,polony,bread,
coffee
andj
uice.
Me:
Mynudesshoul
dgetpost
edmor
eof
ten.
▶Wel aughed.Ij oinedt hem...West ar
tedeat ingand
conver singaboutdi ff
erentthingsandwhatwe
want edf or2016. ..Honest l
ymymoodgotbet ter..My
fri
endsal waysbr i
ngoutt hebesti nme..Ienj oyed
beingwi t
ht hem somuchbutr ound2pm t heyl eft.
..
..
Iwentt otakeanapwokeupanhourl ater.
..Italked
my selfintoswi tchingmyphoneon. ..
.Iwasbr aver
thi
st imear ound. ..Myanxi etywasn'tasbadIr eal l
y
hadt hegut st or eadallthemessagesand
comment sthatwer emadeaboutme. ..
.t
heywer e
notal lbadsomewer eposi t
ivemessages. ..And
somej usttoldt heper sonwhopost edmynudes
kak..
.Somesai dt hatngi yi
sfebeveleIdeser ve
what '
shappeni ng. .
..I
'
m sur eIwasonFacebookf or
anhourunt ilIdeci dedtogoonwhat sapp...

Thando:
Zee, bbeIt
ri
edcall
ingyouIhopeyougoodI
sawthepics.
.Manfuckwhoev erpost
edthem.
..
Ever
yonetakesnudes.
..Il
oveyou.
Me:Hey Br uhIcan'
tbel
i
ev eal
lthi
s..
.I'
m okay
t
houghnotenti
rel
ybutIwi
llbe.
.Thanks

Jay:SoIf i
nal
l
yf i
guredwhyyouwereact
ingbit
chy
theotherday.
..It
rackedtheper
sonwhoposted
thosepicstel
lmei fyouwannafi
ndoutwhotheyare?
I
'm sorr
y .

Myst omacht urnedimmedi atel

y..Am Ir eadyt of i
nd
outwhoi twasl maooooobutwai tthisgentsaidI
wasbi tchy..
.Ngi yibi
tchkahl ekahl e??Mxm. .
.Kodwa
Ihadsuchagr eatdaymanl ikeIr eall
ydon' twant
anythingt orui
nmydayandf indingoutwhodi dt hi
s
wil
ldef i
nitel
yruinmydayandmakemeangr y.
..
whatifi t
'sVince? ?..
.OrZwel i I
'
m 120%sur ethatit'
s
hi
m buti tcouldbeoneofmyf r
iendsi tcouldbe
anybodyatt hispoi nt.
..myf ri
endssai ditthatanyone
whohashadaccesst omyphonecanhav emy
nudesbecauseIdon' thidethem whi chist r
ue..ButI
tr
ustev eryonewhohashadaccesst omyphone. ..
.I
decidedt obluetickJay .
..I
'm notr eady .
..
.Itri
edto
respondtoeachandev er
yoneonmywhat sapp..
.No
textoranythi
ngfrom Vince.
..Thathur tmesomuch
thatIstar
tedcryi
ngIf el
tsoal onewi thoutgett
ing
anythi
ngfrom him despit
eev eryonebei ngherefor
meandsuppor t
ingmet hrought his.
..he'sl
iter
all
y
theonlypersonwhocanmakemef eel bet
terbut
he'snotevenwilli
ngtoputourshi tasi deandaski f
I'
m alr
ight
...
.Il
oveVinceandIdon' tthinkI'
llst
op
anyti
mesoon. .
.

#NomzamosDi
ary

HAPPYNEW YEAR DON'TFORGETTOLI

KE,
SHAREANDCOMMENT.
..SEEYOUONTHENEXT
I
NSERT
#I
NSERT107

▶Weekswentby ,itst hemi ddleofFebr uar ynow. ..

.I
ev ent ual
lyf oundoutwhowasbehi ndmynudes
bei ngpost ed..
.I twasZwel iIwasn' tmadt hough. ..I
wasj ustr eli
ev edt of oundoutwhodi dmedi rty...I
gai nedsomepopul arityItwassoannoy ingpeopl e's
boy f
riendsanddaddi eswer eal way sinmyI nbox
poppi ngby ...
.Ment allyIwasn' tr eall
yokaybutIgot
Br andont ogi vemesomecocai nesomet imesMet h
tohel pmewi t
hwhatIwasgoi ngt hroughandi t
hel pedal ottt...Li
keIr eall
ywasn' tgr andIev en
thoughtaboutendi ngmyl ifeandIhadt opr etend
thatIwasst i
llthesameZamomydadknowsorbe
cool aroundmyf r
iends. .I
twasj usthar dandt he
cocai ner eal l
yhel pedmewi thhandl ingmyf eelings...
.
Am Iaddi ctednow?NoIcanhandl ei t.
.Itisn'tthat
har d...OhsoIt hought ..
..
.Myphonest artedr i
ngi ng...
ItwasBr andonhe' sher etodr opofsomecocai ne
finallyhe'susual lyher eby9he' sanhourl at
e. .Iwas
i
nmyr oom j ustf i
nishedbat hingIj ustsl i
dmysl ides
onandIwentdownst airsitwasar ound10AM, I
f
oundhi
m parkedneart
hegat
eIopenedi
tandIgot
i
nsi
dehi
sPolo...
Me:
Hey
..
.
Br
andon:
Youl
ookhappyt
heseday
s..
Me:I
'
vebeenthr
oughsomuchr
eal
l
yI'
m mor
eme
now.
.Happy
..
.
Brandon:Zeeyoushoul
dst
opthi
scocai
net
hingI
'm
herealmostev
erydaynow.
..Doy
outakebr
eaks?
Li
keIt ol
dyouto
▶If
rowned.
.
Me:
yeah.
.Ido.
..
▶Iwasl yingI
'
vebeentaki
ngcocai
nef
or2weeks
str
aightnowever
ydayandt wi
ceaday
..
.Br
andon
shookhisheadhedidn'
tbel
iev
emeevenonebit
.
Br
andon:
ify
ousayso.
..Ahmmmm Ican'
tkeepon
gi
vi
ngyoustuf
fsoI
'
m goingt
ost
opstart
ingtoday.
.
Me:
Brandonwhatdoy
oumean?
Brandon:
Ionl
ygavey
outhest
uffbecauseIwanted
youtobehappyi
tmadey
ouhappyandnowt hatyou
ar
ehappyandoverwhathappenedIshoul
dst
op.
..
Becausenowy
oubecoming..
.
Me:
I'
m becomi
ngwhat
??.
.
Br
andon:
..
..
Me:
Brandon?
??
Br
andon:
addi
ctedZee.
.
Me:
NoI
'
m not
..
.
Brandon:You'
vest
art
edbeingquicktogetangr
yand
youreyesarecl
earwhi
te.
..Youcallmeevery
mor ni
ngtobri
ngyousome...
.
Me:soIcanstar
tmydaynothi
ngi
swrongwiththat
..
Ij
ustwanttobeali
veandwel
lman.
.Ther
e'snot
hing
wrongwit
hthat.
Br
andon:youcanbeali
veandwel
ll
ikebef
ore
wi
thoutt
hecocaineZee.
..
▶It ookabreathandlookedawayIjustwant
edto
punchhimi nthefacebecausehe'
sspewingbul
l
shit
atthispoi
nt.
..Ikeptmycomposure.
Me:
Brandon.
..Justt
odayt
heny
ou'
l
lnev
erhearf
rom
meIpr
omi
se.
..
Brandon:Ican'
tzeeI
'm sorr
y..
.I'
mr ui
ningyouandI
can'tkeepondoingt
hat..
.Ifeell
ikeyoutaki
ng
advantageofmebecausey ouknowhowIf eelabout
you...
Me:I'm notBrandon.
..Andyou'r
erui
ningme?man
you'
renot .
..Cocai
neisnotthatbad.
..Youal
i
veand
well
..Whyy oudoi
ngthis.
..
.
▶Ijustwant edtocryandburnhi
scaratt
hispoi
nt
becauseIjustwantedtotakemycocai
ne.
..Whyis
hedoingthis..
.
Br
andon:
Ithi
nkIshoul
dleav
e..
.
Me:
Brandon?Pl
ease.
..
.
▶Iplacedmyhandsonhi
sknees,Iwasli
ter
all
y
beggi
ngforhi
mtogivemethecocai
ne..
.
Brandon:you'
reokaynowZeedon'tkeepondoing
dr
ugs...You'
vepassedthenudesagather
e'sr
eall
y
nopointforyoutotakecokeormeth.
..
Me:
..
..
Br
andon:
Ireal
l
yhav
etogo.
..
▶Ijustgotoutofhi
scar..
..Leftt
hedooropen. ..
WhenIgotatmygat esomet hi
ngtoldmet or et
urn
t
ohim andaskhim onemor eti
memay be,
just
maybethisti
meuzongini
ka..
.Iwentar oundhis
wi
ndow, i
twasopenedIpeepedt hrough.
Me:
onel
astt
imepl
ease.
..
.
Brandon:okok'calayourdadwill
kil
lme,secondly
Jaywillneverforgiv
eme.. .AndIdon'
twanttolose
you..
.Cocainehast akensomanypeopl ethatIonce
caredabout..
..
Me:
fuckky
ouBr
andon.
..
▶Isl appedhi m acrosshi sfacewithbot hmyhands
...
..
.Hedi dn'
tsayany thinghejustdrov eoff.
..
.Iwas
soannoy edandpi ssed...Ist
oodout sidemygat efor
agoodmi nut
ethinkingaboutwher ethef uckam I
gonnagetMet hwher e?!!
!!
!!I
nthatmi nuteVince
drovepassedme. ..Wel ockedey es..
..Ilookedaway
andwal kedbackinside...Icl
osedt hegat ewent
backi nsidethehouseandIwentupst ai
rs..
.Myhead
waspoundi ngandt hought sweref l
yingIwasj ust
rest
less. .
..Myphoner ang..
.Wentupt oit.I
twas
Jay
..
.Jay
??Whyi
shecal
l
ingme?
..
..
Me:
He.
..
y
Jay
:si
syouokay
?
Me:
yeah.
Jay
:Ahmmm whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
▶ShouldIj
ustaskthi
sguyforcoke?Nobi tchare
youdumb..
.NotJayyouknowJay .
..Hewi l
lsnit
ch
onyoutoyourdad,
Jayiswaaytost r
ictdon'tdoit
.
Me:
Cany
ou.
..
.I
'
m notdoi
ngmuchj
ustchi
l
li
ng.
..
.
Jay
:canIwhat
?
Me:
nahnot
hing.
..
.
Jay:
okayIwasj
ustchecki
ngupony
ou.
..Tal
ktoy
ou
l
ater
..
.
Me:
sur
e..
.*cal
lended*
▶Iwentdownst ai
rs.
..Madeacer eal..
.Iwenttothe
l
ounget owatchamov ieIwatched( GoneGirl
)it
'sa
2014nicemov i
eyallshouldcheckitout.
..Anyway.
..
ItendedIwenttothekitchentofet
chsome
snacks.
..
.ThenIstart
edanewmov i
et hi
stimeI
wat
ched(TheFaultI
nOurSt
ars)14mi
nut
esi
ntot
he
movi
e..
.Annabel
l
ecall
edme.
..
Me:
heyboo.
.
Annabel
l
e:hey.
..Ar
eyoubusy
?I'
m ar
oundcanI
comeseeyou?
Me:
yeahsur
e..
.
Annabel
l
e:I
'
m att
hegat
e..Open.
▶Il
aughed.
..
Me:
bit
ch.
..
▶Ir ol
ledmyey esstoodupIwentt othesyst
em and
Iopenedt hegateforher
..
..Shedroveinandshe
parkedhercarinfrontofthegar
age...Sheev
entual
l
y
gotinsidethehouseandshesatwher emydad
usuall
ysits..
.
Annabel
l
e:i
t'
sbeenawhi
l
e..Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
yeahI
'
mfi
ne.
.Justhav
ingaheadachet
hat
'sal
l
..
Annabel
l
e: y
oushoulddri
nksomemeds.
..You'
l
lbe
fi
nedidyoutakeany
thi
ng?
Me:
No.
..
.I'
m sor
ude.
.Doy
ouwantany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
Annabel
l
e:wat
erpl
ease.
..
Me:
wat
er.
..
??
Annabel
le:yeahfornow.
.I'
mti
reddawg(we
l
aughed)justcamebackfr
om r
egist
eri
ngatUJt
he
l
ineomghor ri
ble.
..
Me:
ohy
ougonnagot
her
e..
▶Webot
hwentt
otheki
tchen.
..
.
Annabel
le:
yeahthat'
swhereIwanttogoj ustwant
todi
sappoi
ntmyparentsali
ltheyexpectalotfr
om
me..
.Haveyouregi
ster
edyet?
Me:
Iwi
l
l.
..
▶Isaidthatjusttogett hroughwi t
ht his
conver
sationbecausei fIwasbei nghonestIdon' t
evenknowwhenwer egisteringandst uff.
..Ishould
askMduduzi ..I
'v
ebeeni nmybubbl e.Forweeksnow
al
lIdoistakecocai ne,got ot hestudio, l
istent o
music,eat
, bewithfri
endsandr epeat..
.it'
st i
meI
comebackt oreali
tyIwentt ot hecupboar dst ook
outaglass..Wentt othesi nkr i
nseditt henIf akad
someiceandt apwat erthenIwentt ogi veitto
Annabel
l
e..
.
Me:
her
e..
.
Annabel
l
e:whyar
eyoushaki
ng?Ar
eyouokay
..
.
▶Shel
aughed.
..
Me:
I'
m notshaki
ng.
..
Annabel
le:wheny
ougav
emet
hisgl
assy
oul
i
ter
all
y
wereshaki
ng.
..
Me:
Nah.
..
▶Ifi
xedussomesnackst
henwewentbackt
othe
l
ounge.
..
Annabel
l
e:y
oudon'
tl
ikeme.
..r
ight
?
Me:
Bat
hongIdo.
..Whyy
ousay
ingt
hat
?
Annabelle:Ihaven'
tseeny oui
nweeks. ..Youdon't
respondt omytextssomet i
mes..
..Ifeelli
keI'm
forci
ngy outobemyf r
iendorsomet hi
ng...AndI
don'thavefri
endsy ouknowsoy oumyonl yfri
endI
wouldn'tli
ketoloseyouwehav eal otincommon
myot herfri
endsjustwanttouseme.
Me:
usey
ou?NooAnny
..I
t'
snotl
i
ket
hat
..
..
You'
reso
dr
amat
ic.
..
Annabel
le:I
'
m notbeingdr
amati
c..
..Youknowwhat
I
'mtalki
ngabout
..Si
ncetheNudesagay ou'
vebeen.
..
Di
stant
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
Me:Ijusthadtogothrought
haty
ouknow.
.I'
m okay
now.
..I'
m backbaby
y y
!!..
.
▶Wel
aughed.
..
Me:
don'
twor
ry.
..
.
Annabel
l
e:whenl
astdi
dyougot
otheSt
udi
otochi
l
l
wit
htheguy
s?
Me:
4day
sago.
..
?YeahIt
hink
Annabel
l
e:wi
thoutme.
..Ya'
l
lhadcocai
ne
Me:
theydi
d..
.Idi
dn'
t.
..
▶whatBrandonsaidtomeaboutlikingthesedrugs
t
oomuchandmebei ngaddi
ctedcamer ushi
ng
whenwestartedt
alki
ngaboutcocaine..
.AndwhenI
t
houghtabouthowI'v
ebeentaki
ngt hem for2
weeksj
ustmademef eel
somehow. .
.
Me:Ij
ustsmokedsomeweed.
..Doy
ouwannahav
e
somecocai
ne??
▶Pleasepl
easesayy
es.
..
.Ij
ustwantsomet
obe
bal
anced.
Annabel
l
e:No.
..
▶Fuckky
ou!
Me:
You'
resuchapar
typooper
Annabel
l
e:Rest
!
▶Iwasgenuinel
ycr
ushedandbor
edbyher
deci
sion.
..
.
Annabel
le:haveyouwat
chedt
henewser
iesofThe
real
housewives?
Me:Notf.
..Idon'
tev
enwat
cht
hat
..
.Cany
oupl
ease
l
eav
e..
..
▶Annabel
l
efr
owned.
..
Annabel
l
e:l
eav
e?
Me:
that
'swhatIsai
d..
..
▶Iwassomadandov
erl
ydr
amat
ict
hatshesai
dno
tousgoi
ngtothestudi
o..
.Il
lgot
othest
udi
oify
ou
don'
twantt
o..I
'l
lgo.
..
Annabel
l
e:Owkay
..
▶Sheslowlyst
oodup,
Annabel
l
ewasr
eal
l
yshocked
andconf
used
Annabel
l
e:Ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
forf
uckssakeAnnabel
l
eLEAVE!
!
▶Shel eft.
..
.Iwentupst airstextedMat tandasked
wher ehewashesai datt heSt udi
o. ..Toldhim Iwas
comi nghesai dcool .
..Iwor ejeans, andawhi teNi ke
t-shirtwithwhi teAirMax. ..
..Iwassoexci tednow
reallyhappy ..
.IknewIwasgoi ngt ogetsome
cocai newhenIgotatt hest udioandbef inall
yhappy
..Whydi dn'
tIt hi
nkoft hi
s..Mxm. ..MyUberwas
out sidewai ti
ngf orme..AssoonasIwasdone, I
wentdownst airs.
..GotinsidemyUberandwedr ov e
tot heSt udio..
..WhenIgott hereBr andonwasn' t
ther e..OnlyTeezy ,Matt,Kyleand3gi r
lsthatIdidn't
know. ..
Mat
t:myf
avor
it
egi
rl
..
.
Me:
Rel
axxxx.
..
▶Il
aughedandIsatdown.
..
.
Teezy
:hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nabi
t.
..
Me:
teezyIwasher
eli
ter
all
y4day
sago.
..
Teezy
:wel
l4day
swi
thy
out
hat
'smor
eli
ke4y
ear
s..
.
▶Ilaughed...West artedchat ti
ngupandl i
steningto
music,crackingjokes...Thegi r
liesthatwer ethere
wereVixenst heystartedt werkingf ortheboy sitwas
sofun..Andt heywer ef untoo...Weedandcocai ne
waspassedar oundanddr inksal so..Igotsof aded.
..
Iwasmy" normal"selfagai n..
.Br andonwal kedin
wit
hJason. ..Hestoodatt hedoorf orawhi le
sur
prisedtoseemet her e.
.Jaywasbehi ndhim.
Jay
:whyar
eyoubl
ocki
ngt
hedoordawgmov
e..
▶Hepushedhi
m..Theyl
aughed.
Jay
:thi
sguy
..
.Li
lsi
s?
▶Jaycal
lsmeLilsi
snow...
*rol
lseyes*Ifi
nditcut
e
t
houghI'
venev
erhadabigbrotherwho'dl
ookout
f
ormeandlovemel i
keJaydoes..
.Ilov
ehim so
muchandourrel
ati
onshi
phasgrownsomuch. ..He
hasbeenwi t
hmet hr oughtheNudesagaandhe
checksuponmef requently.
.Ij
ustl ovehim...But
here'
sathing..
.Heonl yknowsthatIsmokeweed
andIdon'tevenlikeweedIonl yt akecocaine/ met
h
whenI'm wit
hhi sfriendsbutwhenhe' shereIsmoke
smallamountofweedt hentakecocai neinthetoi
let
sothathewon' tbeabl etoseeme. .
.Kodwawhathe
doesn'
tknowwon' tkillhi
mr i
ght?Riiight
tt
.
Me:
hey
y..
.
▶Hesatnexttome. .
.Brandonwenttohi
sproducer
chai
randhejustst
artedgett
ingbusypr
essi
ng
butt
onsandshitt
here..
.
Mat
t:Br
andon?
Br
andon:
yeah?
Mat
t:dawgy
oual
ri
ght
?
Br
andon:
Yeah.
..Wassup?
Mat
t:y
oubei
ngHel
l
arudewehav
eguest
s
Br
andon:
yeaht
hey
'r
eyourguest
snotmi
ne.
..
Teezy
:ni
ggai
shav
ingbabymamapr obl
emsagai
n
sawhowhedi
dn'
tevengreetNomzamo.
..
Jay
:Inot
icet
hat
▶Theyl
aughed.
.Mi
naIj
ustchuckl
ed.
Around6t o7IaskedJayt oaccompanymet o
Annabel leshouseIf el
tsobadaboutwhatIdi d..
.I
didn'tknowwher eherhousewasbutsheoncegav e
meherl ocat ion,shewashomeandIwassuppose
tocomeov erather sbutIt ookal otofcocai nethat
dayIendeduppassi ngout .
..I
nt hebathroom whi le
bathing....That '
sast oryforanot herday .
..Sof inal
ly
wegott her e..Thischildwasf r
om ar eall
yr ich
fami l
y..
...
I'm alsoar i
chkidbutmyhousedoesn' t
haveat enni scour t,4garagesaf uckenwat er f
alli
n
themi ddl eofadr iveway...there'
sadr iveway ..
..
.
Whatl ev elofr i
chi sthis.
.Ther ewasapor chepar ked
ont hefrontdoorYhowhatamansi on.
..JayandI
werepar kedout side.
..
Jay
:ist
hist
her
ighthouse?
▶Webot
hlaughed.
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..
Jay
:thesepi
tbul
l
sar
ecut
e
Me:
Jayewww.
▶Thereweretwobrownpi
tbul
l
satt
hegat
e..Ical
l
ed
Annabel
l
e.Shepi
ckedup.
Annabel
l
e:what
?
Me:I'
m out
sidepl
easecomegetme,
Iwannat
alkt
o
you.
Annabel
l
e:youthr
ewmeoutofy ourhouseMolikeI
meannothi
ngtoyou.
.YeahsuremaybeIdon'
tbut
youmeansomethi
ngtome..y
oudidn'
thavetodo
that
Me:I'
m sor
ryaboutt
hatIcameher
etoapol
ogi
ze
pl
easecome..
.
Annabel
l
e:wai
t.*
cal
lended*

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ary
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SHARE.LOVEYOULOTS!!SEEYOUINTHENEXT
I
NSERT
#I
NSERT108

▶Asday sandweekswentby ...Themor eIgotshor t

temper ed, Ineededaf ixev erymor ningandev er y
nightbef orebed, deepdownIknewIwasaddi cted
butIwasst i
llindeni al,myl ifewasv ani
shi nginf ront
ofmeandIdi dn'tcar e,itwasj ustmeandmydadat
thehousehecoul dn'tnot icet hedi ff
erence, andI
wasdodgi nghi m...
.somet hingi nsi demeconv inced
met hatwhatIwasdoi ngwasokay ,ImeanIwasn' t
hurti
ngany oneIwasj ustnumbi ngt hepai nt hatwas
i
nsideofme, t
hepai nofwhoIwasandwhatIhad
comet obeandhowmot herlessIwas, Icoul dn't
evenbeamot herwhenIwasgi v enachance, how
l
onely ,
howf uckedupIam . .Ijustst art
edcr eat i
ng
painfulthought sinmymi nd. .Thatmessedmeup
evenmor eandIconv incedmy sel fthatonl ycocai ne
andmyf riendsmademehappy , thatonlycocai ne
mademebet t
ernotknowi ngi tj ustmademe
depressedandi tmessedwi thmyhead. .
...It
's12am
random TuesdayI '
m hav ingCor nf lakesr i
ghtoutof
thecont ainer .
..I'
m onmyphoneaski ngmyf r i
ends
what'
sthevibetoday
..
.Iwentt
othel
ounge.
..Ther
eI
gotacall
from Khomotso.
Khomot
so:
Heyst
ranger
.
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:
Hi.
..
Khomot
so:
Imi
ssy
ou.
Me:
Imi
ssy
ou.
.Yougood?
Khomotso:
yeahI'
m gr
eat
..
..Wegoi
ngt
othemov
ies
todayy
oucoming?
Me:
mov
ies?
Khomot
so:
yeah.
..Rememberwet
alkedabouti
tthi
s
Monday
?
▶Mymemor yhasbeenkaakshi
t..Ihadl
ong
f
orgot
tenaboutmakingthosepl
ans.
Me:
yeahIr
emember
..
.
▶Shel
aughed
Khomot
so:
youdon'
t.
..
?
Me:
yeah.
..Konj
ewhat
'sup?
Khomotso:Zamo!...
.Candi
ceisleavi
ngforCape
Townsowegoi ngoutasagroupforthelastti
me.
..
Cozwear eall
getti
ngreadyforourUniv
ersit
yand
Col
legeli
fe.
..
Me:
whatt
ime?
Khomotso:I
'
m al
readyonmywaytoKamo'
snow.
..
youshoul
dbereadytoo.
.wi
l
lmeetatt
hemall
.
me:
owkay
..
.I
'
mther
esoon.
..
▶Iendedget t
ingsohi ghoncocai neont hatdayI
didn'tevenmeetupwi thmyf ri
endsf orthemov ies
orseeany oneev enmydad. .
..Ij
ustwokeupi nthe
batht ubfull ofwat er
...minuteslateraft
erIhad
gottenoutoft hewat erIr
ealizedthatIendedupi n
thatbathtubbecauseIwant edtobat handgot omy
fri
endsi nsteadIt ookcocai ne,thankGodt hatIhave
myownbat hr oom inmyr oom, mydadwoul dhav e
foundme. ..whichf uckedmeupbecauseIgotso
highandIwokeupar ound2am i nt hemor ni
ng..
..
howmuchcocai nedi dItake?. .
.Igotintomyr oom. .
.
sawt wobudsofweedont hesideofmybedt able.
..
Iimmedi atelyr egrett
edmydoi ngs...Ist
arted
cleaningupmyr oom butIhadal i
ghtheadachesoI
j
ustendedupsl eepingandwaki ngupar ound
11am. ..
.soIwokeup. .
..wentdownst ai
rstomake
my selffood.t hehousewassoempt y..
..i
tisusual
ly
l
iket hi
sbutt henIj ustfeltthi
senormouspai nt
hat
I'
m alway salonei nthisbigasshouse. .
.Imade
my selfacereal reall
ydidn'thaveappetit
ef or
any t
hing..
..myphonewasi nmyAdi dastrackpant
pocketi tr
ang...itwasMduduzi .
..Mduduzi ??whyis
thisgentcalli
ngme?
Me:
Hi
Mduduzi
:dudewher
ear
eyou?
Me:
I'
m home.
..
.
▶If
rowned.
Mduduzi:Wellwehaveameetingwithourbursary
sponsorshereatPr
etor
iainl
essthan30mins...
thoughtyou'
dbehereal
ready
..areyouony ourway?
▶mystomachjustt
urned.
..whatmeet
ing?
?Idon'
t
knowany
thi
ngaboutthi
s..
.doI?
Mduduzi
:come.
..y
oucanev
enbel
atet
hey
'l
l
under
standIguess.
..br
uhyoust
ressi
ngme.
..we
weresentemail
saboutthi
s.
▶Tel
l
ingmeaboutemai
l
slol
.
...t
hat
'st
hel
astt
hing
onmymind.
Me:
OkayI
'
m comi
ng.
..
.
▶Ist artedcr ying.
..
..Iwassoov erwhelmedl ikeal ot
oft hi
ngst hatar ehappeni ngi nmyl ifeIcan' tkeep
trackoft hem now. ..
.Idon' thavear el
ationshi pwi t
h
any one..it
'sjustmeandt hi sdrugev eryday .
.andmy
fri
endswhoIt akedr ugswi th..
.Imi ssedy esterdays
funwi thmyf ri
endsbecauseIwassohi ght oev en
wal k.
..
.nowImi ssedthis..
.ithitmeatt hatmoment
that"Shi tmay beIam addi ctedtococai nenow"
beingindeni alwasn'tgonnahel pmeany how. ..it
's
transparentcl earnow. .
.Iwentt omywar drobeand
l
ookedf orcl ot
heswhi lstcry i
ng..
..Itookoutabl ack
formal cut edressandbl ackheel s.
..tri
edt ot iemy
hairbuti tjustcameoutr eallyfuckenugl y..
.whi ch
mademecr ymor e..
..Ifi
xedmyt hi
ngs, checkedmy
bankbal ancesoIcanr equestanUbert oPr etoriait
s
probabl yR200andIwantt obet herei n20mi ns
maket hatR300. ..
.
BANKBALANCE:
R3,
20
Me:
No.
..
.
▶l star
t edt opani c....Ical l
edmydadaskedf or
moneyandhet oldmet hatIaskedf orat housand2
daysago, whathappenedt oi t
? .
..her ef usedt ogi v e
me. .
.Ical l
edJaymay behewi llpul lthr oughf orme. .
heal way sdoes. ..thecal ldidn' tgot hrough. ...his
numberwasunav ailabl eatt hatpr esentmoment ...
.
whodoIcal lnow?. .
..Ist artedshaki ng. ..
.andhad
thi
shugecr avingandsomet hingwast elli
ngmet hat
i
fIt ooksomesmal l cocai net hingswi llalignandI '
l
l
fi
ndawayt ofigur et hingsout ...
.It alkedmy sel fout
oftakingi t,Itookweedi nstead. ...Itwasnow10
minut esbef oret hemeet ing....Idoneaskedpeopl e
formoneynotev en1ofmyf riendspul ledt hr ough. ..
atthispoi ntIhadnochoi ce...Iwasgoi ngt odowhat
Iwasdr agging. .
.cal lingVi nce. ..
.."Justcal lhimy ou
wast i
ngt i
mebyt hinki ngabouti tandnotact ual ly
doingi t
"" Call
l him""Zamoj ustdoi t"...whenIf inally
hadt hegut st ocal l him heanswer edatt hef irst
ri
ng...
Vi
nce:
Hel
l
o?
Me:
h..
..hi
..
..i
t'
sMe.
Vi
nce:
Zamo?
Me:
Yeah.
..
.
Vince:Ar
eyouokay
?yousoundsad.
..whyar
eyou
call
ingme?
Me:
Ineedaf
avor
.
Vi
nce:Outofal
lthepeopl
eyouknowandhangout
wi
threcent
lyI
'mtheonlyoney
oucoul
dcall
?
Me:VinceI'
m notdoingthi
sbecauseIwantto.
..I
'
m
sodesperat
e..
.Ishouldn'
thav
ecalledy
ouit'
sokay..
.
▶Iwast ear
ingupalr
eady..
.myvoicewasbr eaki
ng
i
nv ergeoftearsIj
ustendedthecall
..
.hecal
l
edme
again..
.immediat
ely
..
.
Vi
nce:
whatf
avordoy
ouneed?
Me:IneedtobeinPretori
ain20mi nut
es.
.Vi
nce:
Whycan'tyouj
ustrequestanUberNomzamo?it'
s
notl
ikeyoudon'
thavethemoneyf orit
.
Me:
Idon'
tVi
nce.
Vi
nce:
Wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
Home.
..
Vi
nce:
Iwasaboutt
oleav
eforwor
k..
.let
'sgo.
..
Me:
Thanky
ou.
▶It ookmyf i
lesandwal kedout...If
oundVince
waiti
ngformeatt hegateIjustgoti nsideofthecar
andwedr oveof ftherewassilenceallthewayunt il
wegott oPret
or i
a...
.itwassosadbecauset hishas
neverbeenus...wewer ealway slaughingandt al
ki
ng
aboutrandom thingswhenwewer et
ogether.
..
.
guessthat'
sallinthepast .
..
Me:I'
m sorr
yformakingy
oudot
hisf
orme.
..I
appr
eciat
eitthough.
..
.
▶Thosewerethefi
rstwor
dsIut
ter
ed.
.because
whenIgoti
nsi
dethecarIj
ustgr
eet
ed.
Vi
nce:
Nopr
obl
em.
▶wegotwher eIwassupposedt obe..Vincesent
meR500soIcanr equestanUberandget
somet hingtoeatwhenI'm donewithmymeet i
ng..
..
gotinsidethebuil
dingIwassol at
et heyactual
ly
thoughtIwasn'tcomingany more.
..
.Iapologi
zedand
theyunder stood...
.2hour slatert hemeet i
ngwas
over..
.Mduduzi andBongani wer el onggonewhenI
gotthere...Ifel
tsoshi tt
yandIl ookedshi t
tyIwasso
unorganizedIwasj ustasadper son. .
.buttherewas
aladywhowasi nthemeet ingshecal medmedown
andt ol
dmet otakedeepbr eathsandj ustrelax..
..
I
appreciatedhersomuchshemadet hi
ngsbet terfor
me..Iwasf eeli
ngsosadaboutwhatwas
happening. .
.Icould'velostmybur saryjustli
ket hat.
.
can'tbeli
ev eIalmostl ostthebestt hi
ngthathas
everhappenedt ome. ...
aft
ert hemeet i
ngwithmy
sponsor sIwentt oWi mpy ,hadbur gerandchi ps
requestedanubert henIwenthome. .
.foundmydad
whohi msel fhadj ustgothome. ..
Dad:
Mubi
.
Me:
dad?
Dad:Masenigcokeamalokwengat
hini
thengi
sa
umshwalensekanj
enibuyaphi
?
▶Ichuckl
ed.
Me:
Kodwababa.
..
.
▶Iwal
kedupst
air
s..
..
Dad:
Mubi
awuzel
a.
▶Iwentbackt
ohi
m
Me:
Huh?
Dad:
Awuhl
alephansi
sixoxe.
..
.
▶Iknowhe' smissi
ngmewhenhedoest his.
..and
we'r
eabouttotalkaboutusel
esst
hingsf
oragood
hour.
..
.gosh!
Dad:
Umncanel
anaendl
i
nikul
ezi
nsukuwhy
?
Me: I
'mjusttr
yingtospendt
hetimeIcoul
dwit
hmy
fr
iendsbecausey ouknowever
yonei
sleavi
ngfor
Univer
sit
ylif
e.
Dad:
Yeahne..
.wehaven'
ttal
kedaboutthi
syet
..
..
wher
eareyougoi
ngtoliv
e?hereoreRes?
Me:Thebur
sarypeoplesai
dIcouldl
iv
eany
wher
eI
wantandIt
hinkngzobari
ghteRes.
Dad:
Cha!
!
Me:
Dad.
..
.
Dad:
Uzohl
alal
aekhay
a,seduzekabi
eWi
tsZamo.
..
▶Igotupandl
efthi
mther
e..
.
Dad:
Nomzamo!si
sakhul
uma.
Me:I
'
m goingt
oli
veatResdad.
.it
'smyl
i
fei
t'
snot
upt
oy ou!
▶Igoti ntomyr oom. ..chargedmyphonebecausei t
wasdead. .
.Iwant edt otakeabat h..
butIwasf eel
ing
sick..
..Ivomi ttedthebur gerIate.
.Ihadaheadache. ..
Iknewt hesi gns..
.shaki ngwasnextont hel i
st.
..
thenshor ttemper .
..Itookt helastbitofmycocai ne..
andf eltbet t
erafter..
..Itookashoweri nsteadof
bat hi
ng...gotintomyr oom loti
onedt henIwor emy
Pj's..
.tookmyphoneoutoft hecharger .
..
.
Annabel
l
ewr
oteahugeassmessagef
orme.
Annabelle: Idon' tknowwheny ou'l
lseethisbecause
you'r
epr obabl yhighasf uck..
.youshoul dstopthis
thi
ngzeei tst artedof fasinnocentfunbutnow
you'r
ereallydoi ngt oomuch. ..
.I'
l
lbef or
cedt otell
Jay..
.becauseIknowt heR600y ouwant edear l
ier
wasn'tforUbery ouwant edtobuydr ugs..
.theywill
rui
ny ourli
fe...pleasest op..
.you'
resuchaki nd
personthere'snoonel i
key ouli
teral
lyandy ou'
rethe
onlyfri
endIhav
einthisworl
dpl
easedon'
ttake
yoursel
fawayfrom me..
.Il
ovey
ouzee..
.pl
ease
stop..
.
Me:IDON'TWANTYOUTOCAREABOUTMEOR
LOVEME.y oudon'
tknowmeAnnabel l
e..
.don'
tbe
j
udgyhere..
.whodiedandmadey ouGod?..
.fy
iI
real
l
yneededthatmoneyforUber..
.butt
henIdon'
t
havetoexpl
ainany
t hi
ngt
oyou..
..
▶IsawVi nce'
stextinmistofthetext
sIgott
odayit
wasjustnumberssincehewasnotonmycont act
l
istanymore..
.Iatt
endedhistext.
Vi
nce:
Ihopeal
lwentwel
l
...
?
Me:Yeah,Ever
ythi
ngwentwel
l
..thanky
ouf
orwhat
youdi
dI'l
lpayyoubackIpr
omise..
.
▶Ithad1ti
ckthenblueti
ckwi
thi
nseconds.
..Iwas
soexci
tedy
etnervous.
Vi
nce:
Nopr
obl
em,
youdon'
thav
etopaymeback

▶OkaywhatdoIsayaf
terthi
s..
..Ipr
obablyspenta
mi
nutenotr
epl
yi
ng..
.hesentanothertext
..
..
oohso
hewantt
otal
ktomet
oo.
Vi
nce:
Arey
ousur
ethaty
ou'
reokay
.?
Me:
YesIam.
..
.ar
eyougood?
Vi
nce:
Yeah.
▶Idecidedt osav ehi stens...ifInev erdiedthatday
Iwouldnev erdie....hispr of
il
epi cturewassett obe
seenbyhi scont act sonlysoIguesshesav edmy
numbersaswel l
...Hispr ofi
lepi cturehadhi m
touchi
ngat highofagi r
l inhiscar ..thatthi
ghwasn' t
mine..
..
.IthinkIhadanhear tat tackal it
tl
e,myhear t
j
uststartedbeat ingf ast.
..sohehasmov edon?I
knowit'
shi m becauset hat '
shi shandandt hat'
shis
watch...yhooIbr okesobad. .Icr ied..
..It
ri
edt ohold
backthet earsbutI '
m acr yi
st .Iwr ot
ehi m along
paragr
aphIwassohur t
...
Me:Whydi dy ouagreetoaccompanymet oPretoria
knowi
ngv erywellthatyouhaveagirl
fri
endnow?. .
.
shewouldn'
tbepl easedknowingthatyoudidt hat
andIwouldn'thaveaskedyout oaccompanymei fI
knew.
..
..I
'm notevengonnaf r
ontorlieI
'm hurtthat
youhavemov edon..
..myli
feisamessr ightnow
andthi
s..t
hisi
stheworstt
hingt
hatcoul
dhappen
ri
ghtnow...
.buti
t'
sokay.
..
Vince:
WellIdi
dn'tknowt hatIhadtoreporti
fIhave
anewpersoninmyl ife.
..andyoucan'tbehurtby
thi
sZamoit'sbeenamont hsingazwani
..
..
.
Me:Noit
sfi
ne.
..hav
eagoodl
i
fe.
.andt
hanksf
or
t
oday.
Vi
nce: ‍♀
▶Mydadknockedonmydoor .
..
.Ii
gnoredi
t..
.kept
onlookingatVinceprofi
l
epict
ureheeeebat
lao
hurdaaaa.20mi nsl
aterwhi
l
stbeingbusyonmy
phoneVi ncet
extedmeagain.
Vi
nce:
Comeout
side.
▶Comeout side?!!!whatdoest hisniggamean? ??
?
he'
souther emaki ngdemandswhi lehehasawhol e
humant hatishisgi r
lf
ri
endandt hat'
snotme
mxmxxm . .
..I'
ll
comeout sidethough.Iwas
downstair
sinseconds. .
.Ibuzzedmy sel
foutandI
gothi
m wai ti
ngf ormei nhi scar.
..Igotinsi
de.
..so
thi
sgir
lsitshere...whereIusedt osi t
Vi
nce:
Usukwat
isay
ini
?
▶Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
Vi
nce:
Chaunedr
amaNt
shangase
▶Ichuckl
ed
Me:It
'snotdr
amaVi
nce.
..y
ouhur
ti
ngmeandI
'
m
t
ell
i
ngy ou
Vi
nce:I
'
m sor
ry.
..
Me:
Youdon'
thav
etobe.
..I
'
mleav
ing
Vi
nce:
Don'
tl
eav
e..
.
Me:
Whyar
eyouher
e?
Vi
nce:
Iwant
edt
oseey
ouagai
n..
.
Me:
Mxm.
▶Myhear
twassmi
l
ing.
..
.
Vi
nce:
Gimmeaki
ss.
Me:
Vince.
..
Vince:Ican'
thol
dmy selfI'
vemissedyousomuch..
.
Iwantedtoholdyouandf eelyouinmyarmsear
li
erI
knowit'
sstupi
d..
..Ij
ustcan'thel
pit.
Me:
..
..
..
▶Heleanedovert
ogi
vemeaki
ss.
..
.west
art
ed
ki
ssi
ng.
..
..
ist
oppedmi
dki
ss.
Me:
Ithi
nkIshoul
dleav
e
Vi
nce:
Doy
ouwantt
oleav
e.?
▶Ishookmyhead.
Vi
nce:sowhyy out
alki
ngaboutl
eav
ingi
fyoudon'
t
wantt
oleave.comehere.
.
▶Thenwecont i
nuedki
ssing.
.Weev entual
l
ydrove
tohi
shouse.
..
.westart
edundressingeachot heras
soonaswegotinsi
de..
.wewer ekissingeachother
sopassi
onat
ely.
.wewer emissingeachot herso
much..
..
Me:
Weshoul
dn'
tbedoi
ngt
his.
Vi
nce:
Ther
e'snoot
herper
sonI
'
drat
herdot
hiswi
th.

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