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Healing From A Difficult Birth Experience Final 12 July 2018 PDF
Healing From A Difficult Birth Experience Final 12 July 2018 PDF
Difficult Birth
Experience
By
Caresse Bennett
FINDING WHOLENESS AFTER A DIFFICULT BIRTH
After a difficult birth, women often find themselves wondering, how can I
feel good and whole again after this experience?
Regardless of where or how one births, and whether with many, few, or no
medical interventions, it is possible that a woman may not feel completely
happy and satisfied with her birth experience. Some women may even feel
that a particular birth experience was traumatic.
Let us assume, for a moment, that you have experienced one or more
births that you wish had gone differently. Perhaps you even feel very upset
about your birth experience, whether or not you have shown that
outwardly. You may have feelings of grief, confusion, anger, or even
depression. (In fact, it is arguable that many women who exhibit “post-
partum depression” may be reacting to the birth experience itself.)
You may wonder: How can I process this birth experience in a way that
helps me move forward with a feeling of personal growth and, if I choose
to have another child, perhaps better preparation and support? This is why
healing is needed.
Pick a time and place that feels nurturing to you. If you have the ability to
choose a beautiful location that feels comfortable and cozy for yourself,
please do so. If possible, choose a time that allows you to have the luxury
of working with the issue in a leisurely way, stopping to have a snack, a
walk, a nap, or a cup of tea, as you need to do. If you feel the need to ask a
trusted friend or relative to take care of baby while you work with the
questions, please do so—or you may want baby nearby. Ideally, you want
to be in a location where you feel secure and have some open time and
space for yourself.
If you must stay in the location where you live, could you still have
some hours to yourself while your partner or a trusted friend takes
care of the little one (or ones) elsewhere, if that is what works best
for you?
If your life is super-busy, can you get a notebook, print out this
document, and keep it in the notebook so that you can work with
the questions and information whenever you have 20 or 30 minutes
and it feels right to you to do so?
The reason I make this suggestion is that, when we, as humans, state that
we are ready, willing, and open to heal an issue, often that is when the way
is shown. Sometimes the answers come very quickly, sometimes they
come months or years later but, somehow, in the meantime, we feel more
peaceful about that issue, which allows us to enjoy our lives more until the
time to heal arrives.
Please read the sections on preparation for healing and setting your
healing intention.
Give yourself plenty of time and space while working with these
questions. Feel free to pause at any time. You may need to allow
yourself time to feel and process your feelings, or you may simply
need to take a break. (This is one important way to nurture yourself
during the healing process. You can take as much time as you need
for each part of the healing journey—including each question.)
1. Where did you birth? Was the location beautiful? Did it have a
nurturing feel to it? Were you able to birth in your preferred
location? How did you feel about your birthing location?
4. Were your preferences for your birth (whether you wrote them
down or expressed them verbally) respected? Did you feel you
were respected at all times? If not, in what ways do you feel
disrespect was shown?
6. What was the quality of touch that you and your baby received
during your labor, birth, and immediately following birth? Was it
calm, gentle, nurturing, and respectful? How do you feel about the
quality of touch you and your baby received? How (if applicable)
would you have wanted it to be different?
(Hint: This question can be much more deeply felt by some women
than is usually even considered, let alone acknowledged, in
Western cultures.)
9. Were you supported to give birth (let baby pass out through the
birth canal) in your preferred place and position? (Standing,
squatting, sitting, lying on your side, on hands and knees, in bed,
out of bed, or in a birthing tub in a comfortable position are some
examples.) If not, what did happen and how do you feel about it?
11. When baby was born, were you able to connect and bond with
baby as you preferred, including having immediate skin-to-skin
contact with baby and nursing baby right away if that is what you
wanted? If not, why not? How do you feel about that?
12. Were your wishes about who would hold or touch baby and any
procedures related to baby immediately after birth respected (for
example, cord and placenta-related procedures)? Did you feel that
the environment you were in allowed you to refuse unwanted
procedures and have your choices be respected and followed?
14. Did you have the kind of post-partum support you most wanted
and needed after giving birth (or, if you birthed in a hospital or
birth center, after taking baby home)? For example, were you able
to spend as many days as you needed relaxing, being nurtured by
family, friends, and/or a post-partum doula? Did you have
prepared meal support and/or housekeeping support? Did you have
access to an experienced woman among your family and friends or
a lactation consultant if you had any questions about breastfeeding
or needed other breastfeeding support (such as help improving
baby’s latching)? If you had a spouse or life partner, was that
person able to be with you and the little one (perhaps through
paternity leave) getting used to the parenting role and supporting
you? How do you feel about the type and amount of support you
received after giving birth?
Also keep in mind that these questions are designed to help you determine
whether your needs were met and how you feel about what happened. By
exploring this, you not only can process feelings related to your birth
experience but also think about how you might like things to be different
if you have another baby.
At this point, you most likely have journaled quite a bit about your birth
and post-partum experience. The journaling, in and of itself, often has a
deep healing effect as the process acknowledges your reality of your birth
and post-partum period as you experienced those events and your feelings
about those experiences. Often, while writing, tears may have come—
important tears as they have helped to release difficult feelings and stress
stored in the tissues of the body and neural pathways.
You may wonder, are there other ways that I can honor my experience of
my birth and post-partum period? I will give a few suggestions to
consider.
Create Art
You could create art that reflects your experience and your feelings about
it. (Drawing, painting, collage, jewelry, poems, songs, plays, short stories,
clay pottery or clay figures and dance are just a few suggestions of the
forms your art could take).
Create an Altar
You could create an altar on which you place your birthing journal that
you’ve just written and any items that are meaningful to you on this
healing journey. (Of course, creating an altar is something you could do
while you are exploring the questions and writing your responses to them,
as well.) Examples might be your baby’s hospital bracelet, a copy of the
first family photo with baby, or a card your spouse or partner wrote to you
expressing joy at the birth of the baby. However, if your birth was difficult
in certain ways, you also might feel the need to include as a part of your
altar a poem you wrote about your difficult feelings surrounding the birth.
Your inner self will help you to create your healing birth altar if you feel
called to do so. You will know what to include because it will be
completely individualized to you. You will know what to include, whether
it needs to be changed from time to time, and when (if ever) it is time to
dismantle the altar. You may feel moved at some point to take a photo of
your altar. You may want to meditate by your altar daily or from time to
time.
Create a Ceremony
The most important thing about a ceremony is that it honors you, your
feelings, your experience, and has a positive intention for your healing
and growth as you go forward in your life. Again, your inner self will help
you to know what is best for you if you feel called to create a ceremony.
Many, many women have chosen to honor themselves and the birth
experiences they have had to heal by working to help other women have
better births—regardless of where each woman may choose to birth.
Perhaps you may feel moved to do this, as well.
Make sure that you have a safe, private space in which to do this re-
imagining process and that you will be nurtured and safe afterward, as the
process can sometimes be intense. (For example, if you choose to do the
process out in Nature, make sure you are in a safe area with enough
privacy for you to feel comfortable. If you feel the need for your partner, a
friend, or a family member as a support person, that person is with you
and possibly can drive you home. It also would be a good idea to make
sure that water, juice, and snacks are available to you after you finish.)
There are a few different ways that you can imagine and work with your
ideal birth:
You can write down what you imagine as your ideal birth.
You can record your voice describing what you imagine as your
ideal birth.
You may wonder: How do I know what is the best way for me to do this
re-imagining? The answer is that your inner self knows and will gently
guide you.
You may ask: How can what I have learned benefit me in the future? One
way is knowing yourself, your boundaries, and your preferences better.
Look at what your choices were for your ideal birth and examine what
elements of that ideal birth scenario you would like to implement for a
future birth you may have. Of course, in real life, sometimes finances and
passports do come into the picture. Perhaps you cannot, given finances, fly
to the Mediterranean to birth; however, perhaps a home birth using a tub
with your chosen midwife may be completely doable.
In addition, you also can choose to share your wisdom with other women
who may be stepping into the birthing journey that you have completed
and processed. You may have opportunities to help educate first-time
mothers about ways they can create their ideal birth and have the best birth
they can (if this appeals to you).
Caresse Bennett
divinemotherwisdom@gmail.com