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Emmens - Who Am I Reflection
Emmens - Who Am I Reflection
Emmens - Who Am I Reflection
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“How will I get there?”, it helped me to realize that I don’t know myself as well as I thought I
did. I was able to realize that I had been leading a life that was expected of me, and not the one I
want.
For as long as I can remember, my parents have always held me to an extremely high
standard. “Bs aren’t good enough to get you into college!”, “How could you not get an A on that
test?”, “You only have a 92 in American History, you better do the extra credit!”. I know my
parents were only trying to set me up for success in high school and college (and hoping I could
have a more secure future), but it has caused me so much pain. I didn’t even realize it until my
roommate pointed it out to me. She was the first to notice how stressed and uptight I would be
about homework and tests. “You don’t need to be this stressed out over a stupid unit test for a
class that isn’t going to matter in the long run.”, “Why do you care so much about your grades?
You’re smart enough to get an A anyway!”, “I don’t see why you need to study; you know you
have this in the bag.”. The sad thing is, she’s right. School has always come relatively easy for
While I don’t know exactly how to heal my toxic relationship with academics, I do want
it to become a healthy relationship. I do know, however, that for the sake of my total wellbeing, I
must make a change. Change is a full-time commitment, but in order to become a happier and
healthier person, I must dive in headfirst. I suppose the easiest thing to do would be to set a time
limit on the amount of time I spend studying. Instead of spending hours on end studying like I
normally do, I could set a forty-five-minute timer in order to learn to study more efficiently and
effectively. Another tactic I could explore is writing down everything I remember from lecture,
then using my notes to fill in the gaps in my knowledge. I actually learned of this method on
TikTok, and it seems to have shown promising results. This may be considered more of a radical
solution, but I could always have my roommate yell at me (I’m sure she would be more than
I don’t want to be the girl who’s so afraid of disappointing her parents that she’s unhappy
and even depressed at times. I want to be more spontaneous and carefree. I now see that in order
to become the person I want to be, I have to stop letting my fear control me. It is not the end of
the world if I don’t get an A in every single class I take at UA. It is not the end of the world if I
don’t graduate with a 4.0 GPA. It will be the end of the world, however, if I never take the time
to be a girl in her early twenties. I need to start focusing on the things that bring me joy:
spending time with my friends, going out on the weekends, meeting new people, and even taking
time to myself. I now, more than ever, realize that if I don’t lead the life I want and continue
leading the life that is expected of me, then I can’t be a well-rounded individual who will