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How I Came To Write Significant Moments
How I Came To Write Significant Moments
The following essay borrows from "Ibsen: Criticism, Creativity, and Self-State
Transformations," by Frank M. Lachmann and Annette Lachmann, published
in The Annual of Psychoanalysis, vol. 24, 1996.
MODEL SCENES
To construct the model scene that depicts the self-state that I attempted to
recapture after I was subjected to devastating criticism in the form of job
harassment and job termination, I combined facets of my life history.
For the first several years of my development, I experienced a childhood
characterized by an overprotective but unempathic mother and a distant,
but at times harsh, father. My father was a highly intelligent man who
settled for far less in life than he was capable. He had quit an academic
high school restricted to college-bound students in the tenth grade and
worked at a factory job. Though he was raised in a strictly Orthodox
Jewish family, he was the only one of seven children to marry outside the
Jewish faith, in 1946. My mother was a Polish-Catholic whose father, an
immigrant coal miner, died in the great swine flu epidemic following
World War I. My father suffered both overt and covert anti-Semitism from
my mother's family during the marriage -- itself a form of criticism. My
father coped with the attacks directed at him by relying on a deeply rooted
sense of his cultural and religious superiority.
Note that I was the only male child in the family. Oddly, when I was a
young boy, my older sister created the fiction that my middle name was
"Stanley," my mother's father's name. I actually came to believe at one
point in childhood that my name was "Gary Stanley Freedman."
Be that as it may.
Taken as a unity, to be spelled out below, these accounts suggest that, for
me, self-states and affects had to be regulated alone, by myself. In later life,
I transformed my despondent state after my critical rebuff at Akin Gump
by drawing on the themes encapsulated in the model scenes.
To explore and to react aversively are dominant motivations for "the hero."
He is uncompromising to the end, a man who does not mean to settle for
rapprochement with the majority. He was ready to bring ruin upon
himself and others rather than "flourish because of a lie."
In my response to the critics, I presented my hero as totally decent and
honest, but naive with respect to political wheeling and dealing. His
decency and goodness are contrasted with the narrow-mindedness of the
majority. They are devoid of a sense of morality of their own and led by
authorities who are rigid, unimaginative, self-serving, and bureaucratic --
banal at best and corrupt ("poisoned") at worst.
The hero pays the price for his naive belief in truth; he is socially totally
isolated, but he remains undaunted. Throughout the book, he remains
loyal to the idea that truth will win the day. He utters the line (through
playwright Arthur Miller) that embodies "the hero's" defiance of the
"majority" and defines the state in which he feels himself to be:
independent, invulnerable, and exquisitely self-contained. "The strongest
man in the world is the man who stands most alone!"