MYHEARTLESSGANGSTERBOYFRI

END

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oduct
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heyther
e!MynameisSi
phesi
hleThando
Mbatha.I
m 19year
snaboutt
omyf ir
styearat
UJ!!
!
So.
..Ashor
tdescr
ipt
ionofhowi
look:
ihavebrowney es,caramelskin,medium sized
boobs,smallwaist,regul
arhipsandanass
thatdr
agsattenti
on-ofwhichi hate.Ireal
ly
dontli
keatt
entionunli
kemybest i
eNt okozo
,she'
sli
kemysi sterihave2otherf ri
endsmel o,
l
elo(t
winz)
Let
sjustl
eavei
tther
efornow.
..Whati
wil
ltell
uthoughi
sthatyoumaywannafast
enurseat
bel
tsandrel
axcozit
sgoingt
obeabumpyr ide.

Pl
easel
i
keandcomment
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t3¤

sheleftmeal oneasusual !Isatont hebedand

thoughtaboutt herudeguyi bumpedi ntoandi
mustsayhei sHOT!Uh. .didijustsaythatnoi
t
wasj ustasl i
pofat ongue.Mom' swordswere
ri
ngingi nmymi nd"st ayawayf rom boys
becauset hey'll
messupy ourlifeand
i
mpr egnat euandt henrunaway !"iguessi
l
earntt hatthehar dwayaf terwhatmyexdi dto
me, butt hatsast oryforanotherday
hi
sfacesuddenl yappear edinmymindhehad
afade,hugeblackey es, pi
nkli
psandhis
muscleswer evi
sibl
et hroughhissui
tyepfor
somer easonhewaswear i
ngaformalatt
irefor
why?Forwho?Ormay behe'snotinvarsi
tybut
whocar esanywayright?Yeahpl usi
tsnotli
kei
haveacr ushonhimi j
ustneedawal kandi'l
lbe
fi
ne
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Iwaspissedbey ondmeasureandwhatmakes
memor eangrieristhathedi
dntsaysor
ryhe
wasjuststar
ri
ngatme.
Me:
whatar
eyoust
arr
ingat!
??
Hi
m:bi
tchdoy
ouev
enknowwhoi
am?
?I'
l
l.
..
Me:
you'
l
lwhat
?Iai
ntscar
edofy
ou!
!
Hepushedmer
oughl
yasi
deandi
almostf
ell
whatajer
k!
Any
ways.
..
Inot
icedNt
okozonshescr
eamed
whi
lemaki
ngherwaytowher
eiwasstandi
ng
her
:mybi
i
ii
tch!
!
Me:
hey
y..
Her
:let
sgoal
ready
!
Sowegott
omyr
oom andchomygotacal
l
...
Her
:yesbabyi
'
llbet
her
e(bl
ushi
n)
cal
l
er:
...
Her:
umeant heredone?Yesi can'twai
tforour
ni
ghtokayby
e!(whisper
ing)l
ovey outoo
me:
haanachomyuhav
eamanal
ready
???
Her
:by
efr
iendi
hav
edi
ckt
ori
det
oni
ght
!
Me:
ntokozo!
!
Her
:ini
?
Shel
eftmespeechl
ess
*I
nser
t1*
Goshimreal
l
ynerv
ousandthejourneyfrom
Benoni
toJobur
gseemslongertham usual
.
Dad:ushoul
dntworr
ynanayou'
l
lbeokayj
ust
rememberwhyyourgoi
ngt
hereokay
?
Mom: anddonty
oudar
ecomebackwi
thababy
yezwaori'
l
l.
..
Me:
geezmai
tsj
ustv
arsi
ty!
Mom:
badt
hingshappenatt
hatpl
aceaskmei
know.
..
Iswearmymom i
shi
ding
somet
hingj
ustt
henmyphoner
ang
nt
okozo:
mysweet
cake!
!
Me:
mychubbybunny
!
Her
:im atr
esuphi
nah?
?
Me:
thecarj
ustst
opped.
Her
:hur
ryupuwontbel
i
evet
hehotguy
sher
e
gal
!!
!
Thenshehungupandwepar tedwayswi
thmy
fam af
termymothert
alkedt
ot her
esmanager
tokeepaneyeonmeur ggh!
Asiwasdraggi
ngmysui
tcasei
bumpedi
nto
someone.
..
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t4¤
Jor
da'
sPOV
Aftert hat" i
ncident"ir ushedtomycar ,gotin
andbr eathedheav il
y.Whatj usthappened? ??I
meani fitwasanygi rliwouldhav esether
str
ai ghtt henandt hereherbuti j
ustpushedher
aside.Herwor dsechoedi nmymi nd"or
what ?? "shehadsai d.Honest l
yf oroncei had
noi ntentionofpuni shingheri woul dneverhurt
herpr eet yface.Ihav et ofindoutmor eabouti
mustsayshei sv erybeaut i
ful.Shewaswear i
ng
awhi teof fshouldert opandherpi nkbrawas
sl
ight lyvisibleandt hewayt hatj eanshowed
hergor geousbodywasamazi ng, herwhite
ai
rfor cesneaker slookedcut elikeshepr oll
y
wear sasi ze3* sighs*i f
oundmy selfsmil
li
nga
goof ysmi l
e.At extinter r
uptedmyt houghtsand
i
tsShane(l il
brother )
hi
m:so?
?
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:di
dyougetmei
n?
Me:
obv
iousl
yyes
welllongstoryshor t
, myi diotbrotherappl i
ed
l
ateatt hevarsit
yandi -li
kethecool estbi g
brotheriam, pull
edt hegunont hedeanand
tol
dhi mi'dcuthi sl
egsof fandf eedt hem tomy
dogst heni'
ll
cutal lhisf i
ngerst henmakepsur e
helandsupi nacomaf orawhol eyear.Al lhe
hadt odoismakesur et hatShanehasget sin.I
guessy outhinki'mr uthlessright?Wel lthats
whati tt
akest obei nt hisbusiness.Iam
buil
dingmyownempi re.Fornowi '
mt hegang
l
eaderoft heSilencer sbutul ti
mat el
yi l
ltake
overfrom myf atherandi l
lbet hemaf i
akingof
S.Aandbui l
daf amilywi th"her"mysoont obe
gir
lf
riendandf uturewi fe.
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t5¤
buhl
e'
sPOV(
Sihl
e'
smom)
somepeoplewouldcal
lmeov er
protect
iveof
mydaughterbuti
tsonl
ybecausetheydont
knowwhati wentt
hroughjusttogether.I
'
ve
beenhidi
ngasecretfor19years,evenmy
husbanddoesn'
tknowt hati
stoleherbackthen
wheni wassti
l
linvar
sity.

Wel lt
hest orygoesl ikethi
s..
.Iwasdoi ngmy
fi
rstyearatUCTandi hadthisroomat e,
Nomhl eZul u,ihatedhershewasev erythi
nga
manwant edi nawoman.Whenev erwewal ked
toclasst oget her(sincewewer ebot hdoi ngl aw)
boy swoul dwhi st
leatherandpaynoat tention
tomeandt hatmademybl oodboi l
.Istarted
hav i
ngpr egnancysy mpt omsandbot hmy
boy f
ri
endandi werehappyt hatwewer egoi ng
tobepar ent sonlytof i
ndoutweeksl at
ert hatit
wasaf alseal arm.Thatr eall
yhurtmebuti
decidednott otel
lany oneespeciall
ysincet hat
whor ei callar oomat ewasal sopregnant .
*sighs*i stillr
emembert hatdaywhenshet old
me.
-f
lashback-

me:
Hlehl
ecal
m downandt
ell
mewhat
swr
ong
her
:(sobbi
ng)i
..I
m..
.Im pr
egnant
!!
Me:youdoknowt
hat
'snott
heendoft
hewor
ld
r
ight
?
Her
:youdontunder
stand!
!!I
tsJames'
sbaby
(Jameswasmycrushandever
ygirl
'
sdr
eam
mansoyoucanunder
standt
hatfuel
edmy
anger
)
me:may beyoushoul
dabor
tthebaby,imean
weallknowthatJamesi
saplayerhe'
l
lnever
supportt
hatbaby.
Her:
what?
!neveri
'dnev
erkill
myfleshand
bl
oodi'
l
levenr
aisehim/heral
oneandthat
s
fi
nal
Tocutt
hestor
yshort,if
akedthepr
egnancy
unt
il
lHl
ehl
egavebir
th.Iwasther
ewhenshe
gavebirt
handi stol
eherbaby,thenconvinced
myboy fri
endtorunawaywithme, wegot
marri
edandi namedMYbabySi phesi
hle
becauseshei smywonder f
ulgi
ftandideserve
hermor eunl
ikert
hatslutwhotookmymeal
ti
cket.
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t7¤
Tebza
Sincei wasbor ni alway sf elt.
..dif
ferent.Ifel
t
mor eli
keagi r
l mor ethanaboy.Inev erli
ked
cartoysorf i
ghtingf orthatmat ter,asar esul
t,i
wassof t
erthanmostboy s.Iusedt ohangout
withgirlsinprimar y.Wet alkedabouthowboy s
aredirtyandaggr esiveandt hatl i
feseemed
normal tome.Butt hent hatall changedwheni
gottohi ghschool .
..Theki dsusedt oteaseme
becausei wasn'tnor mal andt hatst artedtosi
nk
i
n* sighs*i sti
llr
emembert hatday ,thelast
conversationi hadwi t
hmymot her.
<f
lashback>
her:(
angri
ly
)Tebogo!
!Howmanyt
imesmusti
tel
lyou!Youar
eaboy!Uwerebor
naboyand
you'
lldi
eaboy!
Me:
but
..
.
Her:
Nobut si
fyoucont
inuewi
ththi
snonsense
iwon'
tregar
dyouasmysony ou'
llbedeadto
me
me:
im sor
ryi
upsety
ou
Her :mybaby
...Il
ovey out
obitsandplease
honourmywi shes.Wheni waspregnantyour
fathert
oldmet hathewantedaboyorel sehe
woul dl
eavemesoi gavehi
my oudon't
disappoi
ntmepl ease.
Aftersayi
ngthatsheleftf
orwor kandnever
cameback, l
atert
hehospitalcall
edandsai
d
thatshewasi nvol
vedinanaccidentandshe
waspr onounceddeadonar ri
val.Iwasonl
y13
From thenihonouredherwi shesandbecame
somet hi
ngi'
m not.So4mont hsbacki st
art
ed
attendi
ngtherapysessi
onsbecausei wasn't
copingandshet ol
dmet hatineedall
the
supporticangetthatswhyi t
houghtishoul
d
tel
l myfri
endsthati'
m gay..
.
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t8¤
Si
hle
Tebzabei ngbeingthedramakinghei shadto
takeust oSpurjusttotel
lussomething.Butim
notcompl ai
ningthoughi meanwheret her
e's
foodimt here!
!Wesatdownandor dered
milkshakesforstart
ers.
Me:
justsoy
ouknow.
.Itwasn'
tme
Theyal
lbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Nol
u:(
laughi
ng)whosai
dudi
dany
thi
ng?
Me:mxm howam isupposedtoknowl
astt
ime
yougotmeavani
l
lami l
kshakeandmademe
conf
esst
ohi
dingMbal
i
'shi
deousdr
ess
Nol
u:wuht
hatdr
ess!
Mbal
i
:thatdr
esswasbeaut
if
ulr
ightTebza?
Hewasn'
trespondi
ng
Us:
Mandl
a!!
!
Hi
m:WTF!
!guy
syouknowi
hat
ethatname
me:
owkay
..
.Whati
sit
?
Hi
m: well.
..Thet
hingis.
..Pr
omisemet haty
ou
won'
tjudgemeort r
eatmediff
erent
lywheni
t
ell
yout hi
s
Mbal
i
:youknowt
hatwe'
dnev
erdot
hatr
ight
?
Hi
m:y
ahokayi
m gay
us:
...
Hi
m:i
newt
haty
ou'
dnev
erunder
stand!
Hestoodupandranawaylordknowsit
snot
whathethi
nksi
tsjustt
hatwewere
over
whelmedandshocked.Wepaidthebi
l
land
chasedafterhi
m buthewasnowheret
obe
found.Hourpassedandsti
l
lmyfri
endwasn'
t
foundNoluwascr y
ingbi
tt
erl
y
Nol
u:i
fonl
yhegaveusti
met otal
kwewould'
ve
t
oldhi
mthati
tdoesn'
tmatt
erthathe'
sgay
Me:
guy
s?
Ntokozo:iknowwecoul
dhav
etol
dhi
mthat
we'l
lsupporthi
m
me:
guy
s!!
!
Them:
what
!!
Me:i
hav
eapl ani
cant
rackTebogowi
thouthi
m
ev
ennoti
cing
Mbal
i
:how?
Me:usi
nghi
sphonebutf
ir
stweneedt
oget
backhome
Nol
uspot
tedTebz
a'scar
.Thisi
sver
yunusual
whywoul
dherunawayandleav
ehiscarbehi
nd?
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nser
t6¤
2mont
hsl
ater
..
.
Si
hle'
sPOV

I'
vebeenset
tl
inginquit
ewel lher
einvarsi
ty
andimetacoupleofnewfriendsatthe
fr
esher
spart
y,weev enasquadoff i
venow-
mbali,
nol
u,Reit
u, Tebza,Ntokozoandme.
Igaveuponfutur
ebaesinceihav
en'tseenhi
m
i
nal oooongt
ime..
.Butt
here'
sthi
sfeeli
ngiget,
l
ikesomeoneiswatchi
ngmyev er
ymov e.
Mbal
i
:uhhel
l
oear
tht
oSi
hle!
Ntokozo:
mmm. ..Iknowwhaty
ou'
ret
hinki
ng
aboutorrat
herwho
Them:
Mrhotguy
!!
!
Ibl
ushedf
uckhest
il
lhasanef
fectonme.
Me:
hay
..
.me?nev
er!
Nol
u:who'
sMrhotguy
?
Me:
justsomeone.
..
Mbal
i
:thaty
ou'
recr
ushi
ngon!
Shesai
dthatal
mostscreami
ngl
i
kei
sai
dim
goi
ngtogiv
eheramill
ion
me:mxm what ever(
rol
li
ngmyey
es)ar
gui
ng
wi
ththesecrazieswil
lmakey
ouendupgoi
ng
cr
azyyoursel
f.
Tebzabargedi
nasusual
(he'
stheonl
yboyi
n
thesquad)
hi
m:gur
rl
s!!
Me:
myl
ovel
ove!
Him:heyguyst
her
e'ssomet
hingser
iousi
shoul
dtel
lyou.
Hi
sey
esgott
ear
ywowokayt
hisi
sser
ious.
..

Jor
dan'
sPOV
(
Atourhi
deout
)
Ineedevery
onetof
oll
owtheplanorelset
he'
ll
behell
topaygetmethatmerchandi
seonthat
tr
uckdoi makemysel
fcl
ear
??
Them:
sur
ebozza
t
heymar
chedout
,andi
mademydai
l
ycal
lto
myP.
I
ME:wher
eisshe?I
sshegood?Whati
sshe
doi
ngnow?
Him:whoah!Rel
axJshe'sf
ineandshe'
sat
spursnowwithabunchofherf
ri
endsand
ther
esalsoaboythatmaybeherboyf
ri
end.
Me:
(angr
y)cool
..cont
inuet
hegoodt
hewor
k.
Ihungup.Iknowy allwonderi
ngwhyi haven'
t
mademymov ey etandthatsbecauseihadto
ti
eupsome" looseends"inthestatesand
endedupstayinglongerthaniexpect
edbut
nowim backandi '
llmakesurethatshe
becomesmi neandthatsonofabit
chshecal
ls
aboyfr
iendwill
soondisappear
.She'
smineand
mineonly!
!
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NARRATED
AllTebza'
sfr
iendswereworri
edandSihlewas
ty
pingfuri
ouslyonherl
aptoptryi
ngtolocate
hi
m andbam!Shegotanaddr ess.Sihl
ef et
cha
boxfrom andtookoutagoldplai
tedgun.
Nol
u:whatt
he.
..Youhav
eagun?
?
Si
hle:mymom gav
eitt
omei
ncaseof
emergency
Mbal
i
:wowy
ourmom t
hough
Si
hle:
i'
m goi
ngal
one
TheydebatedanddebatedbutSihl
ewouldn'
t
havei
tanyot herwaysotheyputal
lthei
rtr
ust
onher.SheusedMbal i
'
scaranddrovetothe
l
ocati
onwher ehisphonewas.Shewas
shockedwhywoul dhecomeher e?Sher ealised
thatbringingthegunal ongwasact uall
yagood
i
dea.Shei mmedi atelynoticedtwobulkymenat
theent rance.Shegotof ft
hecaranddev iseda
planonhowt odistractthem anditworkedshe
gotinandwhoshesawwasn' twhoshe
expect ed.Couldthisbe?Themant hat'
sher
crusht hatshef anti
sizedaboutaki dnapper ?No!
Andf orJor danseeingheragai nwokeupal otof
feel
ings.Shepoi ntedhergunathi m.Nowor ds
wereexchanged.Hechuckl edwhil
etaking
smal lstepstowar dsher .
Hi
m:i
missedy
ousoback
Her:
im nother
efort
hati
justwantmyf
ri
end
back
Herbackwasont hewall
-nowayout .Hetook
thegunfrom herhandslowlyandt hr
ewiton
thefl
oorhiseyesnotleavi
ngher s.Shesnapped
outofherthoughts.Ahotslaplandedon
Jordan'
scheek.Whenshewasaboutt osl
ap
him againhequi
cklygrabbedherhandand
pinneditonthewallaboveherheadandhedi d
thesamewi thherotherhand.Forsomereason
Sihl
el ov
edbeingtakenincontrol
li
kethi
s.She
want edmore.
Withoutwarni
nghesmashedhi slipsintohers,
sheresponded.Theyki
ssedfuri
ousl yli
kethe
worldwasending.Thei
rpaceddecr easedand
theywereslowlyki
ssi
ngnow.Hel iftedherup
andputherlegsonhiswaist,
herhandsont he
backofhishead.Shefel
thiserecteddickand
drovehertotheedge.Moansfil
ledther oom..
.
HELPME!
!HELPME!Tebzascr
eamedout
Theyfor
gotwhatbr
oughtt
hem her
ewhat
happensnow?
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nser
t10¤
Buhl
e
Beware!Bewaret
hetr
uthshal
lpr
evai
l!
!!
Honestyiskey
..
.Conf
essoryoushal
lfacet
he
wr
athoft
heancest
ors!
!
Thosewer etheex actwordst hatt
heol d
womansai di nmyni ghtmarelastnight.Couldit
be?I sthisaboutmydaught erSihl
e?Soi must
confesst osteali
nganot herwoman' schi l
d?
Whoi ntheirri
ghtmi ndwoulddot hat,noi canti
refuse!!
.Idon'tgetwhyt heoldwomani s
furi
ouswi t
hmei tsnotl i
kei'
m abusingher .I
l
ov eherasmyown.I t
sli
keshecamef rom my
womb.Ican' t!Ij
ustcan't..
.Ancestorsar ejust
deadpeopl esoitshouldn'tworryme.I'llhaveto
taket hi
ssecr ett
omygr ave.
.
.
.
¤Jor
dan¤
Welll
etsj
ustsayli
fe'
sgood.Event
hough
Si
hle'
ssti
ladamantthatourst
eamyki
ssmeant
not
hingi'
m det
erminedtomakeherminebut
there'sonepr obl
em t hough-mygangst er
l
ifesty l
e.It hinkt hatsoneoft hereasonswhy
sheai ntconv incedt hatusbeingacoupl e
woul dn'twor k.Iwi shthi
ngwer edifferent,
may bei fi wasj ustanor malbusinessmanwho
l
ivedanor mal l
if
e.Ur gg..
.Whatam i sayi
ng!I
l
ov et hisfastpacel i
fe,i
tswhati l
ivef or
,the
respecti hav eint heunderwor l
disal lbecause
ofwhati do.Atwhatcostt hough?Thewomani
l
ov ewi llnev eracceptme.
Iheardaknock.Wheni opened,therewasno
onebutaf il
eonmydoor step.Thisiswei rd.
Therewasapi ctureofmeandSi hleatherr es.I
droppedherof fthatnight .Onthepi cturewe
werehugging.Iopenedt herestther estof
papersinthefileandt her ewasi nformation
abouther.Whatt he.
..
?!!Ther e'
slikeherwhol e
l
ifehere!.Atthebackofi t,i
twaswr it
ten
"
Nowi
knowy
ourweakness.Becar
eful
"
MYHEARTLESSGANGSTERBOYFRI
END

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nser
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Si
hle

Me:
Sohowdoi
look?
?
Iwaswear i
ngmybodyhuggi ngbluedresst hat
showedmycur vesali
lbit.I
twasn' tt
oof ormal
butdefinatlynotcasual,
justperfectforan
i
ntern.So...Iappli
edforani nter
nshipatH.
Will
i
amsl awf ir
mt okeepmebusydur i
ngt he
holi
days.Andt heycall
edy ester
dayandt ol
dme
igotthef i
nal spot
.
Nt
okz:
(t
ear
y)mybest
iei
sgr
owi
ngup
shecr i
esalott
hesedaysev enfort
het
ini
est
thingsgoodthingi
'
m goingt obeatWORK*
sighs*itf
eelsgoodwheni saythat
.
Iwor
emynudeheel
sandpi
nkl
i
pst
ip,
sai
dmy
goodby
esandNol
udr
oppedmeof
f.Ir
eal
l
y
needacar
..
.
Iwalkedint hebuil
dingandthefl
oorforstart
ers
wasr eal
lyshi ny
.Thewholebuil
dingl
ooked
real
l
ypr ofessional
.Igottot
herecept
ionistand
shelookedl ikeaniceper
son.
Me:
hii
'
m oneoft
hei
nter
ns
her
:idon'
trememberaski
ngy
ouwhoy
ouar
e
whoahtheatt
it
ude!
!Butshecan'
tjustt
alkto
meli
kethat!I
'
m notgoi
ngtolethergetaway
wi
thit
!
Me:(calmly)youcouldhavejustansweredme
l
ikeanor mal personbutyouchoset oactbi
tchy
l
etmegi v
ey ouapi eceofadvi
ce,wheny outal
k
t
ome- county ourwordsbecausei dont
t
olerateshit,youshouldconsidert
hisasa
warningdon'ttestmebi t
chnx
i
walkedawayf
eel
inglikethequeeniam and
f
unnyenoughi
sti
l
l don'tknowwheretogobut
l
uckil
y,i'
mt wentyminutesearl
y.Igotint he
el
evator.Aft
ertwomi nutesanotherguygot
i
n,
Hel ookedolderprobablyi
nhisl at
e40' s.I
l
ookedathi m andhelookedfami l
iar,hisbrown
eyeslookedli
kemi ne.Il
ookedathi m scanning
ever
ydet ai
lonhisface.
Hi
m:st
ari
ngi
srude
me:
i.
.i
'
m sor
ry
hi
m:what
every
oul
ookl
ost
me:yesiactual
l
yam.I'
mlooki
ngforMr
s
Sandr
aim supposedt
obeassi
sti
ngher
.
Hi
m:t
hir
dfl
oor
,secondof
fi
cedony
ourr
ight
thedoor
sopenedandhewalkedoutbef
orei
coul
dutteranot
herwor
d.Whatarudeguy.

Tobecont
inued.
..
Cont
inuat
ion
Si
hle
Besidestherecepti
oni
st,ever
yonewas
welcoming.Wellwewer eatNtokozo'sfl
at.
.Yes
herboyfri
endgotheraf l
atinSandton.He
soundslikeablessertomebutsheassur edme
thathewasn't.Anyways!
..Somysquadwas
thereandwesatar oundthefir
epl
aceandi tol
d
them aboutmydaywhenmyphoner angandi t
wasmommy !Imissedhersomuch.
Me:
mama?
Her
:i.
..Uh.
..I
m..
hel
p
Shesoundedli
keshewasstruggl
i
ngt
obr
eat
h.
Whatshappeni
ng?!
!Ipani
cked
Me:
MOM TALKTOME!
!!
Her
:..
.
Shehungup.Atthatmomentmykneeswer e
weak,if
eltdi
zzy,myheadwasspinning.I
hear
dvoicesbutcoul
d'
ntunder
stand.Mywhole
bodywasshutt
ingdown.Andsuddenl
yitwas
l
ight
soutforme**
.
.
Wheni wokeupmyt hroutwasdryasadesert
.I
quicklyscannedmysur r
oundi
ngsandreal
i
se
thati'
mi nahospital
.Al
lmaf r
iendswer
ehere.
Onet hingsprungupinmymi nd
Me:whathappent
omymom?Wher
eisshe?I
s
sheokay
?
Nol
u:y
ourmom.
..Shel
i
keuhm.
.
Me:
TELLME!
!
Iwastearynow.Thatwomani
sali
tt
lebi
t
over
protect
ivebuti
sti
ll
lov
eher
.
Tebz:shehadaheartat
tackandt
heyar
en'
tsur
e
thatshe'
l
levensur
viv
edt heni
ght
.
Heari
ngthatbr
okemyhear
ttopi
eces.Thi
s
can'
tbehappeni
ng.
Me:
iwantt
oseeher
Mbal
i
:but
-
me:nobut
sionlyhadapanickat
tackandher
condi
ti
oni
sworsejustt
ell
mewher esheis.
Nt
okz:she'
sinGlensi
dehospit
alward29.I
br
oughtyourt
racksui
t.I
'
lleventakey
outher
e.
Me:
not
hanksi
'
llbef
ine.Guy
s?
Them:
yeah?
Me:thankyouf
orbei
ngher
eitr
eal
l
ymeansal
ot
ihopeyouknowthat
.
Wegr ouphugged.Iworemytracksuitand
sneakers.Whenicamebacktot heroom they
hadleft
.Theyalwaysknowwheni needspace.
Soi cal
ledtheoneper
soniknowwoul dbehere
i
nani nstant.
<Cal
lconv
o>
hi
m:cupcake?
Me:
Jor
dan
Hi
m:okayy
ousoundser
iouswhat
supp?
Me:
pleasecomei
needy
our
ightnow
Hi
m:okayt
extmet
hel
ocat
ion
Me:
thanks

Aft
er20mi nut
eshewasher e.Hesignedmy
di
schargedpaperasmynextofkin.Ithi
nkhe
not
icedthatiwasn'
tokaysohekeptquite.
I
nser
t12
si
hle
hi
m:urokay
?
me:
doIl
ookokay
??!
hi
m:.
..
.
me:I
'm sor
ry,
it'
snotyou.
..mymom.
.Jayi
m
scar
edoflosingher
.
hi
m:whathappened??
me:
she'
sinhospi
tal
,shehadahear
tat
tack.
hi
m:babe?
me:
hhm?
?
him:ineedyoutobest
rongforher.Sheneeds
youri
ghtnowandalwaysknowt hatI'
l
lal
way s
bethereforyou.
Afterheari
ngthatfr
om Jay,Icouldn'tbel
i
eve
thattodayheshowedmehi ssoftside.What
botheredmei showmymot hergotahear t
attackbecauseall
iknowi sthatshe'svery
healthy.Wel
lIhopethatshe'sokaybecauseI
sti
llneedher.
Ilookedoutt hewindowassi l
encefi
ll
edthecar
.
Atleastheknowswhent oshutup.Acouple
withachi l
dcaughtmyat tenti
on,i
twasli
kemy
family.Thefatherhadadar kski
nli
kethe
mot her,andthechil
dhadacar amelskincol
our.
Iguessi t'
snormal.I
'veal
way swonderwhyI
don'tlooklikeanyoneinmyfamily.Ist
ill
remembert heaskedherwhyIdon' tl
ooklike
herordaddyoraunt yandsof or
th.hermout h
waswi deopen,shelookedli
keshewasabout
tofaint,l
ikeherwholeworldwasshut t
ingdown.
..Inev erbroughtthet
opicup.

Wearr
ivedatt
hehospi
talandJor
danof
fer
edt
o
goi
nwithmebutIref
used.
"Deepbreat
h",
iswhatIkeptonr ecit
ingbeforeI
gotin.Ther
eshewas, shedidn'
tlookli
kethe
fi
ercewomant hatsheis.Shelookeddefeated.
"
comei
n"shesai
dwi
thherv
oicef
ail
i
ngher
me:
*sobbi
ng*mama?
her:t
her
e'ssomethi
ngineedtot
elly
ouso
pl
easewipeyourt
ears,y
ou'r
emakingmecry
Idi
dasIwast
old
her:
i.
.
her
:you'
renot
...
her:
um.
..I
'
m not
me:
yes.
..
her:
I'm notwel
lsoIneedyoutot
akecar
eof
yoursel
fwhileI
'
mi nhereokay
?
me:
that
'si
t?
her:i
for
gottheot
herpar
tiwantedt
osay.AndI
real
l
yenjoy
edourtal
kbutIr
eall
yneedt
or est
now.
me:
okay
...
i
mademywayt
othedoor
.
her
:nunu
me:
ma?
her
:makesur
ethedoor
'scl
osedt
ight
ly.

urgghh!
!!Thiswoman!bynowIknowthatshe
actsli
kethiswhenshe'
shi
dingsomet
hing.One
t
hingi
sforsur
ethough,
ist
hatwhat
everi
tisI
'
ll
f
indout
.
I
nser
t13
#unknown
It
'salwaysli
ket hisont hi
sday...Icannever
forgetwhatIlost .
..
.mydaught er.Ithi
nkabout
whatshewoul dl ooklike,wouldshegetalong
withhertwinKuhl e?ithinkshewoul d.howdoI
acceptthefactt hatiwascar r
yingtwinsbutone
onlysurvi
ved?am Isupposedt obehappyt hati
j
usthadababyorl ostone?
Ican'
twaitforKuhle'
spl anetolandsincehe'
s
beenstudyi
ngabr oad.Ibethis2l i
tt
lebrot
her
s
can'
twait.I
'
llbethefirsttoscream HAPPY
BIRTHDAY!!!

Ifel
tmyhusband'
sbreat
honmyneckwhi
l
ehe
snakedhi
shandaroundmywai
st.
me:
Hendr
ikl
wazi
Wil
l
iamswhatar
eyoudoi
ng??
hi
m:comebackt
obedpl
ease
me:
nooo!!pl
usy
ouhav
etof
etchoursonf
rom
t
heair
por
t.
hi
m:f
uck!!
heranupst
air
snearl
ytri
ppi
nghal
fway
.I
fol
l
owedhim andheadedtomyroom.
Igotmyboxoft hethingsItreasur
eandstarred
atmyf i
rstbabyscanwheni wascarry
ingKuhle
andSi hl
ei tbr
oughtt earstomyey es.Whydid
shehav et odie?whydi dshehav ealung
diseaseandgoj ustl
iket hat
?
Iguessmysobbi
ngwasloudbecausel
wazi
wasatmysi
de,comf
ort
ingme
Wej
ustsatt
her
eont
hef
loorandcr
iedt
oget
her
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

.
.
TOBECONTI
NUED!!
!!
!!
!!

I
nser
t14
Si
hle
happybi rt
hdayt omy sel
f,myphone'sbeen
beepingnonst opwi thmessagesev enf r
om
Jordansay inghewant stomeetup.Wel lhi
m
andIhav ebeengoi ngoutas" fri
ends"hehas
hisdayst houghofr andomlykissi
ngmeur gh.
..I
don'tknowwhatI '
mf eel
ing,ev
er y
thi
ngabout
him somehowat tr
actsme.Ihav ethisfeeli
ng
thatthere'
ssomet hingdarkabouthim.Iknow
thathe'sinvolv
edinsomedodgydeal i
ngsbutI
won'twor ryaboutthatnow.
Igotmy selfreadyforcozi
m meeti
ngmy
gurl
z!!
!!
!can'tbeli
evethati
t'
salr
eadyDecember
.
Idrovemy selftoNtokozo'
sfl
atandthedoor
wasopenandIhear daman'svoi
ce
guy
:Iwon'
tal
l
owy
out
odot
hatov
ermydead
body
!!!
Her
:so?i
t'
smybodyKuhl
e!howdoy
ouexpect
metorai
seababy
?
ohsot
heguyi
sKuhl
emmmm
Guy
:you'
renotal
o--
hewasinter
rupt
edbyt
hev
asebesi
deme
fal
l
ingoops.
.
Her
:Si
hle??w.
.whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Me:
who'
she?
Hi
m:umeantt
osayhi
,howar
eyoudi
dn'
tyou?
(
whataj
erk)
me:mxm i
fIwant
edt
osayt
hatIwoul
dsai
dit
and-
-
Nt
ok:
whoahguy
s!!
chi
l
lokay
Hi
m:whydoul
ookl
i
keme?
me:
howwoul
dIknow,
Idi
dn'
tmakey
ou.
.
Nt
ok:
Sihl
e!
hi
m:yeahwhateveri
'
m notgoi
ngtoletyourui
n
myday,af
teral
lyouonl
ygetonebir
thday.
Me:
noi
tsmybi
rt
hday
hi
m:no,
it'
smi
ne!!
her
:soy
out
woshar
eabi
rt
hdaynobodycar
es!
!
Me&hi
m:what
??
Me&him:whatdoyoumeannobodycar
escoz
youknowwef amousbaby
!
her:
noactuall
ydi
dn'
tmeani
twhoahwai
t,why
areyouspeaki
ngatt
hesameti
me?
hi
m:shecopi
edme
me:
hecopi
edme
her
:okayokaywel
lIt
hinkKuhl
ewasl
eav
ing
wasn'
the?
shel
ookedatKuhl
e
hi
m:y
esi
wasbutpl
easet
hinkaboutwhatI
sai
dokay
?
her:
yeahsur
e
hepeckedherl
i
psandl
eft
,ist
her
esomet
hing
I
'm missi
ng?
her
:iknowiknowyouwantanswer
sandI
'
llt
ell
youever
ythi
ngsosi
tdown..
..
.
I
nser
t15
-
Kuhl
e-
Thatwaswei r
d,butanywayi '
vegott ofi
nda
wayt otel
lmypar entsthatIimpregnatedagir
l.
Icanjustimaginesay i
ngt omymom " heymom
i
tsnot hi
ngbigbutI'm goingtobeadad"now
that
'sadeat hwish.Ireal
lyli
keNt okozo,my
cupcakeev enthoughweourf i
rstmeet i
ng
wasn'twhaty ouwouldcal l
romant i
c.
Ichuckl
eatthethoughtofwhathappened
earl
ier,
itwasreal
lyfunnyhow wespokeatt
he
samet i
me.
Ipar
katmyf
ri
endAndr
e'spl
ace
hi
m:myni
gga!r
ightont
imegeti
n
hi
m: t
heguysjustlef
ttobuyfoodandbooze
,I
t'
sgot obeli
tli
keI'
mt al
ki
nghotchi
cks,dope
musiclet
'sj
ustsayPARTYOFTHEYEAR! !
.
.
.
-
Jor
dan-
tonight20:00t heonl yti
meI '
l
leverhav etoget
mybabet oofficiall
ybemi ne,Igotev eryt
hing
planned .Iknowi gotthisbutheyshei s
unpr edi
ctableal lI
'm worri
edabouti st hatshe'l
l
behesi tantbecauseIt hinksheknowst hat
whatIdoi sn'
tr eall
ylegal.Thismeanst hatI'
ll
havet omakeupsomest oryli
ketell
ingheri '
ma
privateinvesti
gat orandwhati doisv erytop
secr et
.
myphonerang,somebi
tchifuckedday
sago
andshet
hinksshe'
smygir
lf
ri
end.
her
:babyandi
thi
nk
y
oushoul
dvi
si
t
me:
ithi
nky
oushoul
dfuckof
her
:youknow,
soony
ou'
l
lfal
li
nlov
ewi
thme
me:tell
mewheny
ou'
redonehal
l
uci
nat
ingsoI
canhangup.
her:
don'
twor
ryi
tsj
ustamat
teroft
imebef
ore
you'
remi
ne.
shehungup
I
nser
t16
*
*Jor
dan*
*

Everythi
ngisdonefortoni
ghtandIjustsenta
cartoherhousetopickherup.Iqui
cklygot
dressedupinasuit
,putoncologne,brushed
myhai r
cutandof ftothev
enue!Imustadmit
thatI
'
m abi tnervousandIrar
elyf
eell
ikethi
s,
OnethingforsureisthatI
'
m getti
nghertoni
ght
evenifshesay sno.

.
.
.
^
Nar
rat
ed^
Sihledecidedonar edoffshoul
derl
acedress,
openont hebackandshapedherbodywel l
.
Shewascur i
ousastowhatJaywasplanning
fortoni
ght .Alimoescort
edhertoabeauti
ful
l
ar gehotel wit
hdazzl
ingli
ghts,
thedri
veropen
thedoorwi t
hasmi l
e.
Dri
ver:
wehav
ereachedy
ourdest
inat
ionmy
l
ady
Her
:thanky
oubutwher
eam Iexact
ly?
hi
m:Lav
ichi
hot
el
Si
hle:
okayt
hanky
ou
Shewal kedt ot heentranceandf oundJor dan
waiti
ngf orher .Helookedatherl iket hefi
rst
ti
mehesawherandf elli
nloveall overagain.
Sihl
eont heot herhandhadbut terfly
si nher
stomachasl ookedatt hemanwhowaswai ti
ng
forher,
att hatmomentt heybothknewt hathe
washerki ngandshewashi squeen.
Hi
m:myqueen,
wel
come.
Theywentinaroom t
hatwasdecorat
ed
beaut
if
ull
ywit
hat abl
eint
hemiddleprepar
ed
j
ustfort
hem.
Her
:Ihopeyou'
renotpr
oposi
ngbecauseI
'
m
t
ooyoungtobesomeone'swi
fe.
Heburstoutinl
aught
er,andtheyendedup
l
aughingtoget
her.Di
nnerproceedwitht
hetwo
chat
ti
ngupast orm.
Jay:
babe,Iwant
edtosaysomet
hingbutf
ir
st
l
etsgotot
hebalcony
.
her
:okay
..
Theywentt
othebal
conyandst
arr
edat
Sandt
oncit
y'
sbeaut
if
ulvi
ew.
Hehandedherasmal
lboxwi
thar
ibbon.
hi
m:happybi
rt
hdayl
ove
her:
ncooh.
..l
etmeopeni
t
her:
it'
ssobeaut
if
ul
I
twasagol
dneckl
aceplai
tedwi
thdi
amond
pi
eces-
wor
thafor
tune.
hi
m:y
esi
tisbeaut
if
ul,
li
key
ou.
her:
you'
regonnamakemecr
y.
him:seri
ously,
yourbeautyshi
nesinsi
deand
out,you'
reoneremarkabl
ewomanandIl ove
you,Ilov
edy outhedayImetyouandI '
m sti
l
l
goingtoloveyouwheny ou'
reoldandgrey.I
thi
nkabouty oueveryday
, ev
er yni
ght.I
'v
enev er
fel
tli
kethisbeforeandIl
iket hisf
eeli
ng
becausey ou'
retheonl
yonewhodoest histo
me.Ilov eyousomucht hatIdon'tseemy sel
f
wit
hany oneelseinthi
sli
feti
me. .
Tear
swerefl
owingfreel
yonSi
hle'
scheeksas
shel
ist
enedat
tent
ively
.
hi
m:Bemi
ne?
her
:(sni
ff
ing)y
..
yes
Heheldherwaist,dr
awingherclosetohim.
Theirl
ipsmetandsharedapassi onat
ekiss
wit
hhishandf i
rmlyonherbuttwhichmade
Si
hlemakesof tmoansandt hekissbecame
i
ntense.Theybegangri
ndingoneachot herand
heledhertotheroom.
Assoonast hedooropenedt heystar
ted
undressingeachothernotsparinganymoment.
Helaidheront hebedandat tackedherneck
wit
hki ssesandtrai
ledthem downunt i
lhe
reachedhernunaandmuffedherwhi
lehe
screamedouthisname.Andhewasaboutto
enterherwhenshegent
lypushedhi
m off
.
hi
m:mmm babywhy
?
her
:ijustagr
eedtobey
ourgir
lf
ri
endseconds
agoandplus,wehav
eenoughti
medon'twe?
hi
m:but
-
her
:goodni
ght
!!!
☆I
nser
t17☆
kuhl
e
Iwaschi
ll
i
ngwit
hther
ent
swhenwehearda
l
oudknockont
hedoor
.Mom l
ookedatme
me:
what
??
her:
areyoureal
l
yexpect
ingmet ost
andupand
openthedoorwhil
eIhav
echil
drentodothat
forme??
me:
haaamom!but
..
.
her
:Phi
wokuhleNicholasWi
ll
iams!
!!9mont
hs!
9months!Icar
ri
edy ouandt
hisi
swhatIget
!
Dad:
cal
m downmysnuggl
ybunny
Me:
eww.
.
Them:
GETTHEDOOR!
!!
!!
Istoodupandwentt oseewho'sbot her
ingme.
WhenIopenedt herewere3oldwomen.One
wasi nf r
ontmeandshel ookedpi ssed.And
Ntokozowasbesi deher.Ihaven'ttoldmy
parentst hatIi
mpr egnat
edagi r
ly etandnow
theyar eheredamn!, onethi
ngt hatIhav eon
mymi ndwasst all!
me:
Iumm.
..Thepar
ent
sar
en'
ther
e
Mom:
(shout
ing)who'
satt
hedoor
??
Theol dwomanpushedmeasi deandgoti nand
therestofthecrewalsoent
ered.Ntokozo
mout heda"I'
m sorr
y"assheal sogotin.They
probablyf
oundt hei
rwaytothedinni
ngr oom
becauseIhear
dmymom'
svoi
ce.
Mom:
hiI
'
m Ani
taandt
hisi
smyhusbandLwazi
.
oldlady:Wedon'
tcar
ewej
ustwantt
hismat
ter
resolved.
Dad:
whatmat
ter
?
ol
dl ady: we'
vecomet oannouncet he
pregnancyofmygr anddaughterhere( poi
nti
ng
atNt okozo),
andthefatheri
sy ourson.
Mom:
Kuhl
eist
hist
rue?
Dad:
son?
me:
yesIwasgoi
ngt
otel
lyou.
..
ol
dlady
:si
nceevery
oneknowsI
'
dli
ket
o
pr
oposesomet
hing.
Dad:
thener
vey
ouhav
e!!
me:
dadpl
easel
et'
shearwhatt
heyhav
etosay
.
ol
dlady:mygr anddaughterwassupposedto
bedoinghersecondy eari
naf ewmonths,her
br
ightf
utur
eisdel
ayed.
..
Mom:
gett
othepoi
nt
ol
dlady:
Yoursonmustmar
rymy
gr
anddaught
erASAP
Nt
okozobur
stouti
ntear
sandr
anout
..
..
.
.
.
.
.
♡Nt
okozo♡
Ican'
tbel
iev
ethissonowtheyar
emarry
ingme
off
!Ican'
tdeal
wi t
hthi
sal
onesoIcal
l
edSihl
e
her:
heymyl
ovel
ove
me:
canwemeetup?
her
:ar
eyouokay
?yousounddown
me:
I'
ll
tel
lyouwhenwemeet
her:
ohokaysendmet
hel
ocat
ion.
Me:
wil
ldo,
bye
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
Iwenttothemallspeci
fical
l
yMcDonald's
becausethi
sbabymakesmehungr yal
lthe
ti
me!urgh..
.If
eltwarm handscov
ermyey es
Me:
OMGi
wonderwhot
hati
s!
her
:It
'sMrmuscl
e!
me:
ohgoshSi
hleIknowi
t'
syou.
Sheuncov
eredmyey
esandsatopposi
teme.
her
:sohowi
sourbaby
?
me:
Theywantmet
omar
ryhi
m.
her:
what
???wai
twhoar
ewet
alki
ngabout
agai
n?
me:
Kuhl
e
her
:Oht
hatr
ubbi
shbi
n..
..
♡I
nser
t18♡
Si
hle
Iwasdr eamingofmygr aduationday ,mydress
wasf lamesItell
y ou,asIwasgoi ngt othe
stagemyst upidphonebuzzed-pr obablya
messageandIdon' tev
enr ecognisethe
numbery ouknow, somepeopl eshouldnotbe
al
lowedi nthepear l
ygatesofheav en,
i
nt er
rupti
ngaper son'sbeautysleepl i
kethati
s
acr i
me.Iopenedi tanditread:
"youli
tt
let
rampstayawayf r
om myman!
Jordani
smineandhewi ll
alwaysbemi neunti
l
deathdouspar
tandIdon'tmi ndki
ll
ingforhi
m.
so,BETTERWATCHOUT! !
!!andify
oudon't
beli
evemeaskhim aboutTracy"
Justafewweeksdat i
ngJay,andI
'
m gett
ing
deaththr
eatsal
ready!Thebit
chbett
erwatch
outbecauseI'
m notonetomessedwi t
h.And
whoi sTr
acy??May beIshoul
daskhim aft
er
al
l
..
.
Igotmyphoneanddi
aledhi
snumber
.
hi
m:pumpki
n?
me:
don'
tpumpki
nmewhot
hef
ucki
sTr
acy
???
hi
m:she'
sum.
..she'
snooneokay
,noone
i
mport
ant
me:
arey
out
ryi
ngt
oconv
ince
meory
our
sel
f?
hi
m: Iwon'
trepeatmy
sel
fbecauseIt
oldy
ou
she'
snoone
me:
butshe.
..
hi
m:doy
out
rustme?
me:
mmm
hi
m:sayi
t
me:
yes
hi
m:Il
ovey
oubaby
me:
real
l
y??
!ncaw.
..Il
ovey
out
oo
hi
m:noIdi
dn'
tsayl
oveIsai
dImi
ssy
ouand,
I,
by
e!!
me:
wai
t!
wow.
..Hehunguponme
¤
¤
¤
¤
¤
☆JORDAN☆
Thatbi t
chTracyistesti
ngmenow.Nowmy
babyt hi
nksthere'
sanotherwoman.Imustget
ri
dofherwi thoutgetti
ngmyhandsdi rt
y, Idon'
t
wantHl ehl
etonot i
cethatI'
m nottheperson
shet hi
nksIam.Imean, t
here'st
oomuchat
stake.WorstofallTracycalledmelastnightto
tel
lmet hatshe'
l
l bemygangsterwi
fe,whi
ch
bother
smebecauset hatmeanssheknows
aboutmygangst erli
feand
soonerorl atershe'l
lstar
tthreateni
ngmeandI
can'tjustkil
lherbecauseheruncl ei soneoft he
peopleIwor kwi thinthedrugt r
ader ing, I
seri
ousl ycan'taff
ordtoomanyenemi es.Well
,
thatleavesmewi thoneopt i
on:tellhert hati
'
m
agangst erandj usthopethatshe' l
lacceptme.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
☆I
nser
t19☆
Jor
dan
I
'vedecidedthattodayisthedayItel
lHlehl
ethe
tr
uth-thatI'
m agangster.
Imeanhowbadcani t
be,noI'mjustly
ingtomy selfobvi
ousl
yshe'
ll
fl
ip.Ical
ledherandt ol
dhert ocometomy
house,withi
nanhourshear rived.
Her
:bunny
!!
Me:(chuckl
es)youneedt
ostopcal
li
ngmet
hat
butanywaysitdownwehavetot
alk
Her
:okayt
hissoundsser
ious
Me:
ther
e'ssomet
hingIneedt
otel
lyou
Her
:isi
tgoodorbad?
Me:
er.
.
Her
:nev
ermi
ndt
ell
me
Me: IknowthatyouthinkI'
m anhonest
businessmanwhoj usthappenstoberichbut
actuall
ymostofmyweal t
hdoesn'tr
eal
lycome
fr
om doi ngl
egal
t hi
ngs.
Her:Iknewi t
!!You'
reinv
olv
edi nDODGY
DEALINGS!ohmywor dJay!butIguesswecan
getthroughthis,Imeanyoucouldjustst
op
hangingoutwi thdanger
ouspeopleandruna
l
egitbusiness.
*Wowokayshejustt
hinksit
'scor
rupt
ionand
bri
ber
ymaybethere'
sanotherwaytodealwi
th
thi
sproblem, I
magineifItol
dherthatI'm aki
ng
pinandthatI'minv
olvedinthedrugtrade,
moneylaunder i
ng,
fraudetc.Idon'
tthinkshe'
s
readyf
ort hatsoIwon'ttel
lher*
Me:y
eahbabeI
'llr
unlegi
tbusi
nessesanddo
ev
ery
thi
ngther
ightway
Her
:ncoah.
.l
ovey
ou'
ddot
hatf
orme?
Me:
any
thi
ngf
ory
oubabe,
any
thi
ngf
ory
ou
-
Ringr
ing-
Me:
Iwonderwho'
scal
l
ingme
Her
:youcanansweri
tI'
l
lbei
n
t
heki
tcheni
fyouwantme
Shel
eftandIanswer
edt
hephone
Me:
sur
e
Cal
l
er:
bozzai
t'
sSt
one
Me:
whatdoy
ouhav
eforme?
St
one:
ther
e'ssomei
ntel
from t
hepol
i
ce
depar
tment
.
Me:
gett
othepoi
nt.
Stone:
Somecopcal l
edCol onelMbathaisout
togety
ouandr umourhasitthathe'
scloseto
fi
ndoutaboutourwarehousein CapeTown
andyouknowwhatthatmeans
Me:
ouri
l
legal
mer
chandi
se
St
one:
exact
lysowhatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
Me:
getr
idofhi
m
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

♡Si
hle♡
Iwasi
nthekitchenfi
xi
ngsomet hi
ngt
oeat
whendaddycall
ed,Imissedhi
m somuch
Me:
Col
onel
Mbat
hasi
ryessi
r
Ididthatt
oteasehi
m,hesecr
etl
yli
kesi
twhen
Icall
himthat.
Hi
m:myl
i
ttl
elawy
ert
obe
Me:
Imi
ssedy
ousomuchdaddysowhat
'
sup?
Hi
m:r
ememberhowyouwoul
dbegmet
ohel
p
mewi
thmycases?
Me:
yes.
..
Him:wel
lther
e'st
hisbi
gcaseI
'
m wor
kingon
and.
..
Iscr
eamedwi
thexci
tement
Me:
andy
ouwantmet
owor
kwi
thy
ou.
Hi
m:y
esIneedy
ourI
Tski
l
ls
Me:
and?
Hi
m:y
ouknowt
hatIcan'
ttel
lyoumor
e
Me:andyoualsoknowthatIneedmor
ethan
whatyou'
ret
ell
ingme.
Hi
m: f
ine.
..Theycallhi
m JCandhe'sgang
l
eaderoftheSil
encers,t
heyar
eruthlesspeopl
e
whodon'tthi
nktwicebefor
ekil
l
ingsomeone,
especi
all
ythel
eaderJChei
spur
ehear
tl
ess.
Me:
..
..
Him:Iknowi
t'
sal
otsohowsooncany
ou
come?
Me:
thi
sisbi
gsoI
'
m comi
ngnow
Hi
m:seey
ousoonnunuby
e
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oodaddyby
e
IhungupandIf
eltJay
'shandsonmywai
st.
Hi
m:Mr
sCul
l
ent
obe
Me:
MrCul
l
enIhav
etol
eav
e.
Hi
m:now?
Me:
yesnow
It
urnar
oundandki
ssedhi
m.
Hi
m:Il
ovey
oupumpki
n
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
ebunny
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
♡I
nser
t20♡
Si
hle
Igoti
ntoanuberanditquickl
ywentt
omy
dad'
shouse.Thethoughtofthi
sJCisgi
vi
ngme
goosebumps.
Igotofthecarandinst
ant
lysawmymom and
dadstandi
ngatthedoorsmili
ng,Ihopemeand
Jaygrowoldtogether
,nol
ies,nosecret
s,j
usta
happyfamil
y.
Mom:
heynunuber
rycomeher
e
me:
mum.
.youknowI
'
m 20y
ear
sri
ght
?
her
:youcouldbe50y
ear
sandIwoul
dst
il
lcal
l
youthat
,comein.
Dad:st
opf af
fi
ngwif
eymeandy
ourdaught
er
havealotofworkt
odo.
her
:what
ever
Wel
aughed,
andwentt
omydad'
sst
udy
.
Me:
whatexact
lydoIneedt
odo?
Dad:
Ineedy
out
ofi
ndoutev
ery
thi
ngaboutt
his
man.
Me:
Oni
t.
.
.
☆ Jor
dan☆
Me:
whatar
eyoudoingher
e!youshoul
dbeout
t
her
eget
ti
ngri
dofthatbl
oodypol
iceman!
!
Stone:
boss, theyar
eundersur
vei
ll
anceandI
j
ustgotintel
thathe'
swit
hhiswifeand
daughter
Me: mm. .Igeti
t,I
twil
lbetoomessyand
suspici
ousi fwetakeoutt
hewholefami
ly.
hi
m:y
ouror
derboss?
Me:
getmet
hegi
rli
nst
ead.
.
.
.
♡Si
hle♡
After3hoursofsear chingforinfor
mat i
onI
fi
nallygotsomeemai l
st hatprovethatthi
sJC
i
sacr i
minal
.Iwascur iousaboutt hename,
whatdoesJCst andfor?Imanagedt ohackinto
hislaptopandther ewasaf il
enamed" L♡veof
myl if
e"andIfi
gur edthatifIfoundoutwhoi s
hisishispart
ner,Icanmay begetsomei nfo
throughher.
SoIcl
ickedopenthefil
eandthewerepictures
ofmeandJay .
..wai
t,how??
?butcomet ot hink
ofi
tJC,JordanCull
enmyJayi sagangster.I
hav
etomakesur ethoughsoIhavetocallhim.
¤phoneconv
o¤
Hi
m:heybabe
Me:
don'
theyme!
!youl
i
er!
Hi
m:don'
tyoudar
etal
ktomet
hat
!
Me:
youl
i
edt
ome
hi
m:aboutwhat
???
Me:
isi
ttr
uet
haty
ou'
reagangst
er?
hi
m:l
etmeexpl
ain
Me:expl
ainwhat
?thatyoul
i
edt
omeandt
hat
you'
rel
iv
ingadoubl
elif
e?
Him:i
fItol
dyouwhenImety
ou,
woul
dyou
haveagr
eedtodat
eme?
Me:
Idon'
tknow.
..
Hi
m:cometomypl
aceandI
'
llt
ell
you
ev
ery
thi
ng.
Me:
no
Hi
m:pl
ease
me:
fine
Ihungup."Si
hle"thatwasmydadcal l
ingme.I
quickl
ysavedevery t
hingi
nt hel
apt
opIhave,
as
muchasIwantt odot hi
sformydadImust
thi
nkaboutJay, Ilovehim butI
'
m..
.I'
m
confused.
Dad:
Honeyar
eyouokay
?
Me:
it'
sal
ot,
soI
'
llf
ini
shi
nanot
herdayanddad?
Hi
m:y
es?
Me:di
dn'
tyousayhacki
ngisi
l
legalbecausei
t'
s
i
nvadi
ngpeopl
e'
spriv
acyandstuf
f?
Hi
m:notwheny
ouar
ewor
kingwi
tht
hepol
i
ce
Me:
mmm.
..Igeti
tany
wayIhav
etogo.
WesaidourgoodbyesandIleft
.Ical
l
edacab
andi
tarr
ivedaf
terafewminutes.
Ontheway,I
tstoppedandtwobuff
yguys
appear
ed.It
ri
edscreamingbutt
hensomeone
cover
edmynosewi thawetclot
handIbecame
weak..
.
♡I
nser
t21♡
Jor
dan
Stone:
She'
sint
hebasement
,shoul
dweki
l
lher
now?
Me:
nol
etmegoandseeherf
ir
st.
Itri
edtocal
lSihl
ef i
rstbecausesheshouldbe
herebynowbutnooneanswer ed.*
sighs*I'
l
l
dealwit
hitl
ater
,fornowl etmedealwiththi
s
probl
em.
Iwentt
othebasementandopenedt
hedoor
,
Her
:Jay
??
Me:
ohf
**k!Hl
ehl
ewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
her
:youki
dnappedme!
!
Me:
no
Her
:I'
mti
edt
oachai
r!
Me:
Itwasn'
tsupposedt
obey
ou
Her
:what
?!
Me:
wai
t,ar
eyouhi
sdaught
er?
Her
:whosedaught
er?
whatt
heheck!unt
ieme
Jay
!!
Iwassoshockedt
hatIf
orgott
ount
ieher
.
Me:
I'
m sosor
ryl
ove,
Iunt
iedher
.
Shest
oodupandgav
emeonehel
lofasl
ap.
Me:Whatthefwast
hatf
or!
!It
hinky
out
endt
o
f
orgetwhoIam!
Her
:Ar
eyout
hreat
eni
ngmenow?
Me:
nohoney
,okayl
et'
stal
kaboutt
his
Her
:Idon'
twannat
alkany
mor
e,wear
edone
Me:
No!
Her
:whatdoy
oumean'
no'
?
Me:
exact
lyhowi
tsounds!
Her
:li
sten.
..
Me:
noy
oul
i
sten!Imadeami
stakeokayand
y
esI
'
m owni
ngupt
oitbutI
'
m notl
ett
ingy
ougo.
Her
:but
Me:
nobut
s!nowl
et'
sgoandsl
eep.
.
.
.
♡Si
hle♡
Mxmm whodoeshethinkheis!I
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
for
getj
ustl
i
kethat
!I'
m notev
engoingtosl
eep
onthesamebedashim.
Iheardwateri
nthebat
hroom,He'
sprobabl
yin
theshower.Iwenti
nandopenedt
heshower
doorandtherehewaswithhi
shotwetbody.
Hi
m:wannaj
oin?het
urnedof
fthewat
er.
Iwasst
il
lfocusedonhi
s(y
ouknowwhat)
..
.
Hi
m:y
ouknow,
ify
ouwanti
t.
..
Me:
shutupIwasl
ooki
ngf
ort
heki
tchenandI
t
houghti
twasher
enot
hingmor
e.
Hel
aughed,
Lor
dknowsI
'
m abadl
i
er.
Hi
m:handmeat
owel
Me:
nof
unnybusi
nessneh?
Hi
m:may
be
Itookawhit
etowel
andItri
edt
ogi
vei
ttohi
m
buthepul
ledmeininst
ead.
Hi
m:l
et'
sshowert
oget
her
Me:
no
Het
urnedont
hewat
er.
Me:
JORDAN!
!!
!!

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
♡I
nser
t22♡
Nt
okozo
Mysoont
obemot
heri
nlawi
nvi
tedmet
ohav
e
l
unchwi t
hheratanewr est
aurantacrosstown.
Honestl
yIdon'tknowhowt oreactwhatifshe
hatesme?orwhati fshethinksthatI
'mt r
ying
totrapKuhlewithababy?.Ican'tgoalonesoI
cal
ledSihl
et oaccompanymebutshehasn' t
arr
ivedyeturgh.
..Ishoul
dcallheragain
《CALLCONVO》
Me:
Sihl
e!!
!
Her
:(moani
ng)mmn.
..y
esJaydon'
tst
op
Shemoanedl
ouder
,wt
f??Idr
oppedt
hephone.

.
.
.
.
♡Si
hle♡
Whenwegotoutoft
heshowermybest
iecal
l
ed
meandaskedmet oaccompanyher
somewheresoIt houghtIshouldbequick
becauseIsti
ll
needtogot ores.Iwrappedmy
bodywithatowel.Jaydidn'tevenbother
coveri
nghimself
.It
ookthebodyl ot
ionand
tr
iedtoapplyi
tonmybodybutJayhel dmy
hand.
Hi
m:Letmehel
pyouwi
tht
hat
Iknowt hatar gui
ngwi thhi
mi spointl
esssoIl et
him.Hegent l
ypushedmeont hebedand
remov edthet owelfrom mybody .Ididn'
tgi
ve
him anyhassl esbecauseIknowwhathewant s
todoandIwanti tt
oo.Hesl owl yrubbedthe
l
ot i
ononl egsgoi nghigherandhi gher.He
rubbedmyt highsandIcoul dn'tstopmoani ng.
Hewentont opofmeandki ssedmyneckand
start
edsucki ngoni twhil
etheot herhand
cookieandhest art
edf i
ngeringme.
Myst
upidphonest
art
edr
ingi
ng,
Jaygr
oaned
"
Don'
tanswer".
SoIdi
dn'tevenl
ookati
tandswi
pedt
hescr
een
andi
tstopped.
Heconti
nuedwherehelef
tandnowhe
posi
ti
onedhimsel
fandenteredme.Iwasst
il
l
moaningwhenIhear
dav oice
"
Sihl
e!!
!"
Jaypoundedmehar
der
"mmm. .
.yesJaydon'
tst
op"Imoanedl
ouder
andwebot hcameatt
hesameti
me.ThenI
rememberedshit
!!
Hi
m:what
?
Me:Ohmywor
d!I
'
m supposedt
obemeet
ing
Nt
okozo!
Ireachedf
ormyphoneanddial
edhernumber
,
sheansweredont
hethi
rdri
ng.
Me:
I'
m sosor
ry
Her:
noact
ual
ly,
there'
snoneedtobeher
e,
She'
sni
ceandshelooksl
ikeyou
Me:
mxm y
ou'
recr
azy
Her:ser
iousl
yanywayI
'l
ltal
ktoy
oul
aterand
don'
tfor
gettousecondoms
Me:
howdi
dyou.
..nev
ermi
ndby
e!
Her
:by
elov
ey!
!
Ihungupandf
acedJay
,Hewassmi
l
ingl
i
kea
ret
ard.
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:Round2?
Me:
yes
Wemadeloveallov
ert
hehouseandspentt
he
whol
edaytoget
her.

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Jay
:leav
ingal
ready
?
Me:y
esIhaveaclassat12h00andIhav
eto
got
oresandchangemyclothes.
Hi
m:okaybabeIl
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Hi
m:I
'
lldr
ivey
out
her
e
Me:
thanky
oubunny
Hi
m: anddon'
tfor
gett
otaket
hemor
ningaf
ter
pi
l
ls.
Me:
yeahy
eah
Hedr ovemet oresandboughtt hepi
ll
sont he
way .Weki ssedandIwenti nsideandputt he
pil
lsont hetable.SinceIshower edatmyman' s
placeIjustwor emyt ornblackjeanandblack
Fentysneaker s,agreycroptopandabl ack
denimj acketandt henIwenttot hecaféacross
thestreetandboughtmuf fi
nsf orbr
eakfast
beforeIgot ocampus.
☆I
nser
t23☆
Si
hle
《3weeksl
ater
》
Myl i
fesuks,Ieatt
oomuch, nothi
ngfit
sand
I'
m havi
ngthesecravi
ngsthatareabnormal
.
Likeri
ghtnowIwouldabsolutel
ykil
ltohave
somer i
bsandmuf fi
nsandpickl
esmmm. .
.
I'
m goingoutwi
thmybesti
e-Nt
okozo.Shesai
d
she'
llmeetmeatthemall
.AndJay?hehas
'
business'
inCubaandImisshi
m sooomuch!
Itr
iedfi
tti
ngonmyj eansandt heydidn'
tfi
tur
gh!
seewhatImean? .WellIdecidedtoweara
whiteshortdr
ess,heel sandwentoutandsaw
mydr i
verwait
ing(yesIhaveadr i
verbecause
JaysaidI'
m not"safe"
)
Me:
Mor
ningVi
ctor
(dr
iver
)
Hi
m:Mor
ningMr
sCul
l
en
Me:
it'
sMi
ssMbat
ha
Hi
m:t
hebosssai
dIshoul
dcal
lyouMr
sCul
l
en
y
hoookay
..
.
Hedr
oppedmeof
fatt
hemal
landImetupwi
th
best
ie!
!!
,
she'
sfi
vemont
hspr
egnant
Her
:ahhh!
!!f
ri
end!
Me:
heyy
oul
ookgood
Her
:omgIseeJayi
str
eat
ingy
ougood
Me:
mxm t
sek
Her
:any
way,Ihopey
ouwon'tmindi
fwepass
bymymotheri
nlawtobe'
shouse
Me:
ohokayany
waywheni
stheweddi
ng?
Her
:in5mont
hs,
Ican'
tbef
atonmyweddi
ng
day
Welaughedseriouslymyf r i
endiscrazy
someti
mes.Sowedr ovetot hi
sbeautif
ulhouse
wit
hav eryhi
ghwal landt hey ar
dwasso
enormous.Thi
swomanwal kedtowardsus,She
l
ookedbeautif
ul andv er
yf amili
ar.
Nt
okozo:
mami
!!
Shegotoutoft
hecarandIf
oll
owed.
Lady
:heyl
ovey
Igav
eNt okozot he"
aren'
tyouf
orget
ti
ng
somethi
ng"look.
Her:Oh!Nomhl
ethi
sismybesti
eSi
hleand
Si
hle,t
hisi
sNomhleStacyWi
l
li
amsmymot her
i
nlaw
Me:
nicet
omeety
ou
Shejustf
rozeandst
arredatme,di
dIsay
anythi
ngwrong?.Af
terafewminutesshe
star
tedshaki
ngandthenshecol
lapsed.
..
.
.
.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
It
'sbeenanhournowi nthehospital
andthe
doctor
ssaidshejusthadapani catt
ack.Like
seri
ousl
y?todaywassupposedt obeani ceday
withmyfri
end,shoppi
ngandj usthavingfun.
WecalledNomhle'shusbandandguesswho
appear
ed!MrWi l
li
ams, r
ememberhi m?The
manImeti ntheelev
atorwhol ooksl i
keme?
yeswell(sar
cast
ic)thi
sdaycan' tanybet t
er.I
wenttogetfoodforusatMcD.WhenIar ri
ved
back,Ntokozowasn'ti
nt hewaiti
ngr oom.Or
maybeshewenti nNomhl e'
swar d.Iwentt othe
wardandwhenIgotcl oserIheardv oices
"Hendri
ckpl
easest
opmaki
ngmesoundl
i
keI
'
m
crazy
"
"Honey,ourbabydiedandi
tspr
obablya
coinci
dencethathernameisal
soSihl
e"
"Your
eal
l
ythi
nkIdon'
tknowmybabygi
rl
!!
!!
"
"sweet
y..
."
"No!Iwantmychi
l
d!"
Icoul
dn'
tstandi
tany
moresoIwenti
nandt
hey
bothl
ookedatmesupri
sed.
Hi
m:howl
onghav
eyoubeenst
andi
ngt
her
e?
Me: Longenoughtoknowthatyou'
remi
staken,
I
'm notyourdaught
er,I
'
m sorr
y.
Iwasaboutt
owal
koutwhenshesai
d"don'
t
go"
.
Her
:20y
ear
sagoIwaspr
egnantwi
tht
wins
ThisIgott
ohear
.Herhusbandl
eft
,Iguessi
ts
toomuchforhi
m.
Her :Iwassohappy
,tomei twasthegr
eatest
giftGodhadgivenme..
.butthenIwastol
dthat
shedi edbutt
hatwasn'
ttr
uebecausehereyou
are,ali
ve
Iwasalr
eadyintear
sasshespoke-Icr
ytoo
muchthesedays.
Her:that'
swhyInamedy ouSiphesihl
eandy our
brotherPhiwokuhle.(
giggles)younevergot
alongwhenIwascar ryi
ngy ou,youwouldkick
andt henhewoul dtoobutr egardl
essofital
l
yougav emej oy.
Me:
whati
fyou'
rewr
ong?
Her:
it'
scall
edamother'
sinsti
nct
,Ij
ustknow.
You'
llunder
standmor
einaf ewmonths
Me:
??
Her
:I'
m adoct
or
Me:
andy
out
hinkI
'
m pr
egnant
?
Her
:It
hinky
oushoul
dfi
ndoutf
ory
our
sel
fMe:
maybe
Li
es!I
'm nott
esti
ngIknowt
hatIusedmor
ning
af
terpi
ll
ssoI'm saf
e.
Me:
Ist
il
ldon'
tunder
standt
hiswhol
esi
tuat
ion
Her:May bet
henursesmadeami st
akewhen
youwer ebor
n,it
'spossi
blethatthebabi
eswere
switchedandyourmother'
schildisthebaby
thatdied.
Me:
thi
sisal
ltoomuch
Her
:Iknow
Me:Itmusthav
ebeenhar
dbei
ngt
oldt
haty
our
babydied.
Her:itwasver
ypainfulbutIhadtokeepgoing
forthesakeofKuhleandwhatmadei tworseis
thatmybestfri
endBuhledisappear
edwhenI
neededherthemost .
Me:I
'
m sorr
y.Youknow,
mymot
her
'snamei
s
al
soBuhl
e.

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《《《》》》》》》
☆I
nser
t24☆
Si
hle
Sometimeslif
ehasitsownwayt omessi tsel
f
upwithoutyouevenli
ft
ingaf inger
.IthoughtI
knewwhoIwasbutnowI '
m notsosur e.I
n
somest r
angeway ,
Iknewt hatsomet hi
ngjust
doesn'
tfi
tsandIdidn'
tlooklikeneit
herofmy
parent sbutmy' mother
'ifIcanevencal lher
that,shegav emeal lt
hatIcouldeveraskf or.
Nomhl esaidthatt
hereshouldbeaj ointfami l
y
meet ingbetweenbot hfamili
es,Idi
dn'ttellmy
mot herofcour sebecauseIknowshe' ll
freak
outsoshe' llf
indouttomor r
owwhenNomhl e
andherhusbandcome* si
ghs*Idon'tknow
whatt oexpect .
Onal i
ghternotethough,mymani scomi ng
backhomet oday !
!!I
'vemissedhim.And
yest
erdayIbought2homepr egnancytests.
Honestl
y,I'
m scaredofwhatmyr esult
swi llbe.
WhatifI'
mr eal
lypr egnant?YesIhavebeen
exper
iencingpregnancysy mptomsandIdi dn't
wanttothinkabouti t
.
Ishoweredandst oodinfr
ontofthemirr
or,my
bell
yfel
thard.Ij
ustconti
nueddressi
ngupand
i
gnoredthepossibil
it
y.MaybeIshoul
djustdoi
t.
Iwenttothebathroom andqui
cklydi
dit.
.
.
5mi
nsl
ater
2l
inesmeaningI'
m...I
'
m pr
egnant
!!Ohno!my
mom, mydad,I
'm suchadi
sappoi
ntment
.
Justthensomeoneknockedont hedoor
.Ihi
d
theboxesandthenpregnancytest
sinafl
ash,
Myf acewasfi
ll
edwit
ht earssoIwipedt
hem
off
.
Iopenedt
hedoorandt
omysurpr
iseJay
standi
ngt
her
ehandsomeasf
.
Me:
(sni
ff
ing)baby
!!
Hi
m:Ncoahmyl
ovemi
ssedmel
ooky
ou'
re
ev
encr
ying.
Ididn'
tevennot
icet
hatIwascryi
ngmxm t
his
pregnancyi
sgoingt
obeapr obl
em.Hegave
meahugehug.
Me:
I,Ij
ust(
sni
ff
s)mi
ssedy
ousomuch
Hi
m:t
hat
'swhyIt
houghtt
hatweshoul
dspend
t
heweekendatmypl
ace.
Me:
owokay
..
.
Hi
m:y
ousounddown
Me:alotoft
hingshappenedwhil
eyouwere
awaybutwe'
lltal
kaboutitaty
ourhouse.
Hehel
pedmepackaov erni
ghtt
henwel
eftmy
r
oom andgoti
nthecar
.
Me:
STOP!
!!
Hi
m:what
??
Me:
Isai
dst
op!
!
Hei
mmedi
atel
yst
oppedt
hecar
.Hel
ookedat
me.
Hi
m:whyar
ewest
oppi
ng?
?
Me:I
'
m hungryandt
her
e'saKFCdr
ivet
hrough
t
hatwepassed.
HelookedatmeasifI
'
m crazy
.Li
keseri
ousl
y
ni
ggaIwannaeatandIwannaeatnow!AndI'
m
notbacki
ngdownf
rom t
hisnev
er!
!
Iguesshereal
isedthatandhedi dn'
tsay
anyt
hingandcalmingreversedthecarandwent
backandIorderedthechickenbucketwit
ha
bi
gicecream ,
ami l
kshakeandbur ger.
Hi
m:ar
eyour
eal
l
ygoi
ngt
ofi
nishal
lthat
Me:Jay
,whywoul
dIor
dersomet
hingIwon'
t
eat
?
Hi
m:Iwasj
ust
..
.
Me:
justdr
ivepl
ease
IwaspissedsoIgavehim sil
entt
reatmentand
j
ustatemyf ood,j
ustt
opi sshi
m offImade
sl
ll
l
rrr
rsoundswhenIdr ankmymi l
kshakeunti
l
wegottohisplace.
Hepar
kedhi
scarandl
ookedatme.
Hi
m:babyI
'
m sor
ry
Me:
it'
sokay
Becauseitwaslate,
weor der
edChi nesefood
andhadanaught yshowerthenwedeci dedt o
watchamov i
e.Iwast ryi
ngsohardnott othink
aboutallt
hedramat hatmymot herisgoi
ngt o
maket omorr
owwhi lewearejusttryi
ngtofind
outthetr
uth.
Hi
m:somet
hingi
sbot
her
ingy
ou
Me:
Idon'
tknowwhatt
obel
i
eveany
mor
e
Hi
m:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Itol
dhi
m ev
eryt
hing.Bythet
imeIwasdone
tear
swerer
unni
ngf r
eelyonmyface.
Hi
m:t
hisi
sreal
l
yshocki
ng
Me:
Iknow.
..
Hi
m:doy
out
hinkt
hatwhatshe'
ssay
ingi
str
ue?
Me:Apar
tofmedoes.Butt
hatwoul
dmean
t
hatI
'v
ebeenl
iv
ingali
e.
Hi
m:y
ouknowwhat
'
snotal
i
e?
Me:
what
?
Him:mylovefory
ou.Honey,Il
oveyouwhen
youar
eMbat haorWil
l
iams,heckI'
dsti
ll
lov
e
youeveni
fyouwereZuma'sdaughter
.
Thatl
astpar
tcrackedmeup.Weendedup
l
aughi
ngathiscrazi
ness.
Hi
m: ser
iouslylov
eevent
houghyoudr
iveme
i
nsanesomet imesatt
heendoft
hedayy ou'
re
myrideordie.
Me:
Soy
ou'
l
lsuppor
tmet
hrought
his?
Hi
m:ev
eryst
epoft
heway
.
Me:
thanky
oubunnysowhatwher
eyoudoi
ng
i
nCuba?
Hi
m:Iwentt
osor
toutsomet
hing
Me:
Ist
il
ldon'
tl
iket
hisgangst
eri
sm ofy
our
s
Him:don'
twor
rybabyyouar
esaf
eandi
tsnot
l
ikewehaveweaknesses
Me:
whatwoul
dbeourweakness?
Hi
m:ki
ds
Me:
what
!?Yout
hinkchi
l
drenar
eaweakness?
Hi
m:yesi
nmyl i
neofwor
kandpl
us,
It'
snotl
i
ke
Il
i
ket
hem any
way .
.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
Cont
inuat
ion☆☆☆
Si
hle
Me:
whati
sthatsupposedt
omean?
Him:t
hatIhav
enodesi
reofmaki
ngabunchof
annoy
ingki
ds
Me:
notev
enwi
tht
hewomany
oul
ove?
Him:ohpleaseyou'
remakingt
hisabigdeal
.
Justacceptt
hataslongasyouarewit
hme, we
won'thaveki
ds,i
tsj
ustsounnecessar
y
Me:
howsur
ear
eyout
hatwewon'
thav
e
chi
l
dren?
Him:(st
andi
ngup)y
ouknowwhat?I'
mleav
ing
I
'l
ltal
ktoyouwhenyou'
vecool
eddown.
Me:r
eal
ly??whathappenedtocompr
omi
sing?
I
sn'
twhatpeopl
einrel
ati
onshi
psdo?
Him:babyl
i
sten,
kidswil
lsl
owmedownand
r
ightnowal
lIwantistomakesur
ethatIr
un
myownempi r
e.
Me: (
tear
ingup)i
t'
sal
waysyou,y
ou,y
ou!!What
aboutmehuh?I '
mtheonewhosegoi
ngtobe
fatandugly,t
heonewho'
sgoi
ngtogiv
ebir
thto
thi
sbaby...
Hi
m:whoahwhatbaby
?ar
eyou?No.
..
Omywordwhatdi
dIdo?!Hi
seyesar
egl
uedt
o
myst
omachwhatdoIsaynow?
Me:Idon'
tknowhowithappenedbutal
lIknow
i
sthatnowI'
m pr
egnant
.
Damni
tSi
hle!Whatal
ousyanswer
!
Hi
m:Idon'
tunderst
andthi
sbecausewebought
t
hemorni
ngafterpi
ll
sandyoudrankt
hem.
Me:
yesIknowweboughtt
hepi
l
lsand.
..
Ohshi
tIdon'
tremembert
aki
ngt
hem,
didI
?
Me:
...
Hi
m:whyt
hef
uckar
eyouqui
te!
!!
!
Me:
Ifor
gott
odr
inkt
hepi
l
lsokay
!
Yhoohej
ustwentcrazyforabi
t,Icanseei
tin
hi
seyest
hatheisfuming.
Him:howcouldyoubesocarel
ess!
!Doyou
haveanyideawhaty
oujustdone?Thi
scannot
behappening.
Icoul
dn'
tst
opmyt ear
sany
mor
e.Ij
ustl
ett
hem
rundownmycheeks.
Me:
(sni
ff
s)I
tsf
ineI
'
llr
aiset
hischi
l
dal
one.
Iwentupstai
rsandpackedev
eryt
hingIcame
wit
h,I
'm notgoi
ngtobeghim.Iwenttothe
fr
ontdoorbutwhenIwasabouttoopen,
Jay
hel
dthedoorknobunabl
i
ngmet oopen.
Hi
m:Idi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
Me:
letmego
Hi
m:no
Me:
please
Hel etgoandwi thouthesi
tati
on,Il
eftthehouse
andcal l
edmydr iver.I
nafewmi nuteshehad
arri
ved.Ijustwenthomeandshower ed, cr
ying.
Ont opofev er
ythingtomorrowImayf indout
thatmypar entsarenotmybi l
ogicalparent
s.

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Nomhl
e
Thisi ssost
ressful
, Idi
dn'
tevensleepl astni
ght.
IjusthopethatSihle'smotherwil
ltell
her
versionofeventsthedaySi hl
ewasbor n.Ther
e
mi ghtbesomethingt hatwil
lprov
et hatthe
hospi
tal
madeami
stake,
thatmybabydi
dn'
t
di
e.

Buhl
e
Thismor ningIgotat extfrom Hlehletel
li
ngme
thatshe'l
lbehomet hisafter
noonandshe' llbe
comi ngwithguests.Shebet ternotbecomi ng
withsomeboyorel sehmmm. .
..ButsinceI
haven'tseenmybabygi rl
inawhi l
e,Iam
planningtocookherandi twillbejustli
kethe
oldday s.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
♡I
nser
t25♡
-
Nar
rat
ed-
Whoknewt hatthi
sdaywouldcome.Si hle,
Nomhleandherhusbandi nonecarheadingto
theMbatharesi
dence.Nomhlefel
tli
keshewas
givenasecondchance.Shewouldfi
nallyli
ve
thedream shealwayshad,ahappyfamil
ywith
bothofhert wi
nsinoneplace.Shesmil
edatthe
thoughtofnowhav i
ng4kids,wonderedhow
her2babybr ot
herswil
lreactwhenshetel
ls
them thatnowtheyhaveabigsister
.
OntheotherhandHendr i
ckwassoexci tedto
haveadaughterevent houghtherewasa
possi
bil
i
tythatshemaynotbehi s,hefelta
connect
ionsomehow.Hehashi sownl awfi
rm
andSihl
eisstudyi
ngl aw-theperfectdaughter
towalki
nhisfootsteps.
Sihl
einthebackseatlookedatthecouplein
fr
ontofher,shecouldseethev i
sibl
efeat
ures
onherthatobvi
ouslyprovesthattheywereher
parent
s.Howwoul dhermot herrespondt
ot he
newsthough?
Thecarstoppedinfronttheredgat
ethatSihl
e
knewtoowell.I
twasn'tasbigastheWil
liams'
s
housebutitwasbi
genoughf ort
hem.The
automat
icgateopened.Buhlestoodintheyard
readytowelcomeherguest
s.Shegotthefr
ight
ofherlif
ewhenshesawanol dfr
iend,
Nomhl e.
Thoughtscamef l
oodi
ngbackwhenshe
thoughtofhowshegotherherdaught
er.Could
i
tbet hatthet
rut
hhadcomeout ?
Nomhle:
mygoodness,
youdon'tknowhow
muchIpr
ayedt
ogetthi
schancetoseeyou
agai
n.
Si
hle:
wai
tyouguy
sknoweachot
her
?
Nomhle:
yesr
emembert
hef
ri
endIt
oldy
ou
about
?
Buhl
e:pl
easel
etsgeti
nsi
de
Buhl
eprayedsi
l
entl
ythatt
her
ewoul
dbean
expl
anat
ionwhythi
swomanandherhusband
wereher
e.
Si
hle:
wher
e'sdad
Buhl
e:wor
kingasusual
Theyal
lsatdownont
hecouchesf
aci
ngeach
ot
her
.
Nomhle:Buhl
e,canyoupleasecal
lSi
hle'
s
mother
,ther
e'ssomet
hingimport
antweneed
t
odiscuss.
Buhl
e:y
ou'
rel
ooki
ngather
Hendri
ck:
buty
ouwould'
vebeenpr
egnantatt
he
sametimeasNomhl
etohaveachil
dasoldas
Sihl
e.
Buhl
e:i
fel
lpr
egnantaf
ewweeksaf
terNomhl
e.
Hendr
ick:
but
..
.
Nomhle:honeypleasest
opinterr
ogati
ngher
wearenotincour
t .
Canyoupleasetel
luswhat
happenedonthedayofherbirt
h.
Buhl
e:Ihadst
omachcrampsatni
ghtt
henI
wenttohospi
tal
andIgav
ebir
th.
Hendr
ick:
justt
hat
?
Nomhl
e:hen.
..
Hendrick:awomanwhogav ebir
thwhenasked
thatveryquesti
onwoul dgi
vedetai
lssuchas
theextentofthelabourpai
ns,
numberofhours
spentatthehospital
,howshefeltwhenshe
wasgi vi
ngherbabyet c
Buhl
efel
therbl
oodboi
l
ing,Hendr
ickathi
sti
me
wasknownformaki
nganyoneconfessi
nthe
cour
tofl
aw.
Buhle:
itwashotokay
!SoIbar
elyhadt
imet
o
assessever
ythi
ng!
Hendri
ck:Si
hlewasborninwi
nter
,oneoft
he
col
destyearoft
hedecade.
Buhl
e:.
..
.
H:whydi
dyour
unawayexact
lyaf
terSi
hlewas
bor
n?
Buhl
e:STOP!STOPI
TI'
LLTELLTHETRUTH!
!!
Si
hle&Nomhl
e:whatt
rut
h??
H:
her
ewego
Buhl
e:Ist
olehert
heni
ghtshewasbor
n..
..
.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
TOBECONTI
NED♡♡

♡I
nser
t27♡
Buhl
e
Ican'tbel
i
ev ethatinjustaf ewweeksmyl if
e
changedsomuch.Si hledoesn' ttalktome, my
husbandbar el
ylooksatme.I '
m sur eheiseven
planningt
odi v
orceme.Andal lthisis
happeningbecauseoft hatwitchNomhl e.She
alwayshast ohaveev erythi
ng.Fi rstshetook
themanIl ove, t
henshel i
vedthel i
feIwas
supposedt oli
ve.NowIhav etohav et oputthe
planIhaveonact ion.
Todayi
smyday
.Icanf
eel
it,
thesweetsmel
lof
rev
enge.
Igotr
eadyandspr
ayedal
mostal
ltheIhav
e.
Aftergett
ingdr
essedi
nashortdresswit
h
l
anger i
eIwenttoHendr
ick'
shouse.Iam
planni
ngtoseducehimthenI'
l
lblackmai
lhim,
he'l
lgiv
ememoneysoIcankeephi sdi
rty
secret.
Iknockedonhi sdoorwit
hahugeamountof
confi
dencebecauseIknowhi swif
eisnothome.
Minutesl
aterheopenedlookingassexyasever
,
Icoul
dhavehi mrightt
here.
Hi
m:y
ouar
enotwel
comei
nmyhouse
Me:
iseey
ouhav
en'
tchanged
Ifor
cedmywayin,thebi
tchhastast
e,damn
thehousei
sbeaut
if
ull
ydecor
ated.
Okayf
ocusBuhl
e..
.
Me:youknowamanl
ikey
oushoul
dn'
tbel
eft
al
onewhoknowswhomaysnat
chhim.
Hi
m:mywif
etr
ustsmeandbesi
desf
ake
womenl
i
keyoudon'
ttemptme.
It
ri
edtounzi
pmydressbuthestoppedme.
Whatt
hehell
??Hel
ooksveryangry
Hi
m:Leav
emyhousenow!
!
Me:
arey
ousur
eyouwantmet
oleav
e?
Regardl
essofhi
sanger
,Ist
il
lthi
nkt
hatIhav
ea
chancewit
hhim.
Hi
m:di
dInotmakemy
sel
fcl
ear
?!
Me:
I,I
..
.
Iwasl
i
ter
all
yshaki
ngnow
Him:i
fyoudon'
tgety
ourcr
azyassoutofmy
housenowiwil
l
...
Me:
fineI
'
mleav
ing
Iwasleavi
ngwhenIheardhim st
opme.Yes!
!!I
fi
nal
lygothim!Itur
nedar
oundwithahuge
smil
eonmyf ace.
Him:don'
tthi
nkIhav
efor
got
tenaboutt
hepai
n
youcausedmeandmywifebysteal
i
ngour
daught
er,
I'
m comi
ngf
ory
ou.
..
Thatl
astst
atementmademeshiver
.Icoul
dn'
t
st
anditany
mor esoIr
anoutoft
hathouse.

#Unknowny
et☆☆
Me:
soy
ousayt
hegr
eatJChasaweakness?
St
one:
Iam hi
srighthandmansobet
ray
ing
hi
misgoi
ngtocostyou.
Me:
3mi
l
li
onr
ands?
Stone:doy
ouhaveanyi
deawhathedoest
o
peoplewhocr
osshi
m?
Me:
soI
'
m al
sopay
ingf
ory
ourl
i
fe?
St
one:
ugott
hatr
ight
Me:
namey
ourpr
ice
Hi
m:12mi
l
li
on
Me:
finenowt
ell
me
Hi
m:hehasagi
rl
fr
iend
Me:f
uck!!Obvi
ousl
yshe'
sheav
il
ypr
otect
ed!
Howisthatusef
ult
ome? !
Hi
m:shei
spr
egnant
Ismi l
ed,nowt hisisverygood.Icanki l
lhi
s
pregnantgirl
fr
iendori canwaitti
llshegives
birt
hthenkillt
hebaby, whi
lehe'ssti
llsuff
eri
ng
thenkillhi
sgirl
fr
iend.Whatani cerevenge
plan..
..
St
one:
andt
opofi
tal
l
..
Me:
what
??
Hi
m: addanot
hermi
l
li
onf
ort
hispi
eceof
i
nfor
mation
Me:
moneyi
snotani
ssuej
ustt
ell
me
Him: atthemoment
,Jor
danandherar
enoton
speakingter
ms.
..
Me:
meani
ng?
Hi
m:Iknowhowy
oul
ovey
ounggi
rl
s
Me:youmeanIcanapproachher?Butwhat
aboutthepeopl
ewhohangaroundherthatJC
puttoprot
ecther.
Hi
m:t
heyonl
ytakeact
ionwhent
her
eisdanger
Me:
soIcanpr
etendt
obeahar
mlessper
son?
Mmm.
..Thi
sisgoi
ngt
obef
un
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
♡I
nser
t28♡
Jor
dan
Ican'ttakeitanymore,Si
hle'
sbeenignoringmy
cal
lsandnotanswer i
nganyofmymessages.
Shelikesact i
ngirr
ati
onall
ybecausethatdaywe
hadanar gumentsheleftwit
houthearingme
out.Imean, IloveherandIwanttoraiseour
babyt ogether.Yesi
twasn'tpl
annedbutt henI
haveaccept edit.
Ihav
etogetherback.Iwi
l
ldoev
ery
thi
ngi
nmy
powerev
eni
fIhav
etodr
agherher
e.
Ilocatedherandshewasi nar estaurantnear
Newt own.Iquickl
ydr ovetherewithgr eat
determinati
on.Immedi atel
yaf t
eriparki gotout
thecarandsear chedf orher.Ispott
edheri na
tablenearthewindowandt herewasaguywi t
h
her.Whot hef**kisthat?Ihav etodeal wit
hthis
boynow. ..

^
Sihl
e^
Aft
ermymor ni
ngcl
assIfel
tli
keeati
ng
somet
hingsweetsoIconvi
ncedNtokozot
ogo
outwi
thme.Butshehadtoleaveear
lysoshe
l
eftmealone.
Someguycametome.Honestl
y ,
Iwasn'
ti
nthe
moodforapoi
ntl
essconv
ersat
ion.
Hi
m:what
'sapr
ett
yladyl
i
key
oudoi
ngal
one?
Ur
gg.
..r
eal
l
ynow?Iwant
edt
oleav
esoIl
ooked
aroundfort
hewait
ersohecanbr
ingt
hebi
l
lbut
thenIsawJordanwal
ki
nguptome.Ohshi
tnot
now...
Thebothl
ookedateachot
her
.Theot
herguy
spoke.
Hi
m:I
'
m Si
zwe
Hereachedouthi
shand.What
??doeshehav
e
adeathwish?
Jayl
eanedcl
osert
ohi
m.Ol
ord.
..
J:Idon'
tgi
veafuckwhoy ournameisbutwhat
I
'm goi
ngtosayisstaythehel
lawayfr
om my
wifei
fyouval
uey ourl
if
e.
Hisvoi
cewasscar
y,t
heguyshouldreal
l
yleav
e
now.Andhest
oodupandlef
tpissed.
Jayf
acedmeandhewasn'
tsmi
l
ing.
Me:
idon'
tknowhi
m
Hi
m:i
knowt
hat
.Nowgetupandl
et'
sgohome.
Me:
I'
m st
il
langr
ybecauseofwhaty
ousai
d
Hi
m:di
dInotmakemy
sel
fcl
ear
?
YohIstoodupandhepay edthebi
ll
.Theride
homewassi l
entsoIj
ustlookedoutsi
dethe
windowunti
lwegottohisplace.Heopened
thefr
ontdoorformewit
houtawor d.
Me:i
fyouwon'
tsayany
thi
ngImi
ghtaswel
l
l
eav
e.
Hi
m:whydoy
oul
i
keact
ingl
i
ket
his?
Me:
li
kewhat
??
Hi
m:wehadanargumentandyoujustl
eft,
i
gnor
edmycal
lsandthenyoubecomeangry!
Me:y
ousaidyoudon'
tl
ikechi
ldr
enandshout
ed
atmeforf
orget
ti
ngtotaket
hemorni
ngpil
l
Hi
m:oh.
..
Me:
real
l
yoh?That
'sy
ourr
esponse?
Hi
m:howt
heheckam Isupposedt
oknowwhy
you'
reangrywheny
ouj
ustl
eav
eandshutme
outofyourli
fe?
Me:
soi
t'
smyf
aul
t?
Hi
m:nohoney
Hecamecl
oserandbr
ushedmycheekl
i
ght
ly.
Him:i
wantbewithyouthrougheveryt
hing.And
mosti
mportant
ly,
Iwanttoraiseourbabywith
youmamakhe.
Me:
real
l
y?
Hi
m:mor
ethanany
thi
ng
Hewipedmyt ear
swithhi
sthumb,
Idi
dn'
t
r
eal
isethatIwascry
ing.
Hi
m:howi
smysondoi
ngi
nther
e?
Hebr
ushedmybel
l
yandbr
oughtmecl
oset
o
hi
m.
Me:
whosay
sit
saboy
?
Hi
m:i
canf
eel
it
Webothlaughed.Ir
eall
ymi
ssedhi
m,hi
svoi
ce,
hi
slaughandhistouch.
Me:
ilov
eyoubunny
Hi
m:i
lov
eyout
oohoney
Heki
ssedmesl owl
yandsoonourcl
otheswer
e
ont
hefloorandwemadelovet
hewhol eni
ght
.

☆Jor
dan☆
I'
m sohappyt hatIhavethel
oveofmylif
eback.
Ilookedatti
meandi twas2:
07.Hl
ehlesl
eptan
hourago.Ikissedhersmallcut
eli
ps.I
'mlucky
tohav eher
,sheaccept smethewayIam.
Myphonebuzzedinamessage.Itwasf r
om an
unknownnumber.Itr
eads"becaref
ulofwho
youtrust
.Theper
sonwhoy outhi
nkisloyal
to
youistheonewhowillbet
rayy
ou.
Isatupstr
aightandreadi
tagai
n.Whowould
ev
enthinkofbetray
ingme?.
Ever
yoneknowsmy
r
eput
ati
on.Andwhosentt
hiswar
ning?

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
☆I
nser
t26☆
-
Sihl
e-
It
sbeen2weekssi ncet hebombshellaboutmy
bir
thwasdr opped.Shet ol
dust hewholest
ory,
howshest oleme, howshepai dthenurset
o
sayIdidn'
tmakei t
.* si
ghs*I'
m soangryather,
sheli
edt omemywhol el i
fe.
Rightnowal
lIwantt
odoisf
ocusonme,my
schoolwor
kandmostimpor
tant
ly,
mybaby
.
Kuhl
easkedmetohangoutwit
hhimfort
oday
andIagr
eed,
Imeanhe'
smyt winnow.
Hepi
ckedmeupinhisredBMW car
.Hel
eaned
ont
hecarandgi
rl
sscreamedmxm showoff
.
Hi
m:wel
li
fiti
sn'
tmynewl
yfoundt
win
Hesmi
rked
Me:
yeahy
eahwher
ear
ewegoi
ngany
way
?
Hi
m:i
tsasupr
ise
Wi
ththatbei
ngsai
d,wegoti
nhi
scar
.Iopened
mytuboficecr
eam.
Hi
m:uhuhser
iousl
y?
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:noeat
ingi
nmycar
Me:
itsj
ust
..
.
Myphoner angasIwastal
king,
peopl
edon't
havetiming.Icheckedmyphoneandit
'sBuhl
e,
Ireal
lydon'thaveti
meforhersoIj
ustswit
ched
i
tof f
.
Kuhle:
let
'sgett
oknoweachot
her
,Iask
questi
onsandyouanswer
.
Me:butIwantt
obetheonethataskst
he
quest
ionsandt
heny
ou'l
lanswer
Hi
m:Icameupwi
tht
hei
dea
Me:
ihav
ethebestquest
ions
Wear guedtil
lwear
ri
vedattheWil
liamshouse
butwhatar ewedoi
nghere?Idon'
tthinkI
'
m
readytofacemyrealpar
ents,
Ihaven'
tcometo
termswithit.
Me:
real
l
yher
e?
Hi
m: weareafamil
ysis,
Ithoughti
twoul
dbea
gr
eatideat
ojustr
econnect.
Me:
whati
fIdon'
tbl
endi
n?
Hi
m:ev
ery
onel
ovesy
oual
ready
Me:
fine
Ihesi
tantl
ygoti
nsi
de,
somethingsmel l
ed
del
ici
ousandthewaslaught
er.2li
tt
leboys
camer unni
ngtomeandtheylookedli
ketwins.
Them:
hel
l
owear
eyourl
i
ttl
ebr
other
s!!
Theyspokeatt
hesamet
imencoah.
..howcut
e.
Nomhl
ehuggedmef
oll
owedbyHendr
ick.
Her
:I'
m sohappyy
ou'
reher
e
Kuhl
e:(
shout
ing)whenar
eweeat
ing?
Weall
laughed,
oneoft
winscamet
omeand
hel
dmebymyhand.
Hi
m:I'
m Aust
in,
thecut
eoneandt
hat
'
sMar
ti
n
t
hebori
ngone
Ij
ustgi
ggl
ed,t
hisfamil
yisjustcr
azy
.Nomhle
cal
ledmetot
hedinnert
able.Shehadpr
epar
ed
afeast
.
Wespentt
heeveni
nglaughi
ng,
talki
ngandDad
t
ell
i
ngusstor
iesofhowMom actedwhenshe
wascar
ryi
ngus.
Him:ser
iousl
yshewoul
dmakemebuypi ckl
es
thenwhenIcamebackshewoul dcr
yandtel
l
meIshouldhaveknownthatshemeantdonuts
notpi
ckl
es.
Webur
stouti
nlaught
er,
honest
lyIl
ovedbei
ng
partoft
hisfami
ly.Theyweren'
tper
fect
becausetheydi
dn'tt
rytobe.Thei
rli
vesweren'
t
aboutworkortr
yingtobewhosocietyexpects
them t
obe.
Lateron,meandmommywer ewashingdishes
andjustchatti
ng.Iwasthi
nki
ngaboutJay
becausethesepastweekshe'
sbeencall
ingme
nonstoptell
i
ngmet hathewantsust
ot alk.I
fel
tsomet hi
ngnudgemel i
ght
ly.
Her
:hel
l
o??
Me:
ohsor
ryy
ouwer
esay
ing?
Her
:youknowy
oucant
ell
meany
thi
ngr
ight
?
Me:it
'smyboy fri
end,hedoesn'
twantchi
l
dren
andI'
m pregnantandIgetthati
nhisli
neof
workitcanbev erydanger
ousbut.
..
Her
:youf
eel
li
keheshoul
dbesuppor
ti
ngy
ou
Me:
yes!
Gosht
hiswomanget
sme!Iwi
shImether
sooner
Her:y
oushoul
dsi
tdownandt
alkt
ohi
m,
answerhi
scal
l
s
Me:howdidyouknowt
hatIhav
en'
tbeen
answer
inghi
scal
ls
Her:Isawyouwhenhecall
edyouwant
edto
answeritbutt
hensomet
hingst
oppedyou.
Wewenttosi
tint
hel
i
vingr
oom.Il
aidmyhead
onherl
ap.
Her
:Icanseet
haty
oul
ovehi
m
Me:
mor
ethany
ouknow
Her
:soy
ou'
l
ltakemyadv
ice?
Me:
yesmommyIwi
l
ltal
ktohi
m
Her
:Il
i
ket
hesoundoft
hat
Me:
ofwhat
?
Her
:mommy
Igi
ggl
ed,
thi
sfeel
ssogood.Af
teraf
ew
minut
esIf
eltsleepysoIwentupst
air
stomy
room(y
esIhavear oom her
e)andsl
eptwi
tha
smil
eonmyf ace.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
☆I
nser
t29☆
Si
hle
Me:
what
?!No!
Hi
m:Hlehl
ethisi
snotar
equest
!Youar
e
movi
ngintoday!
Urg.
.hethinkshecanj
ustordermearound!He
doesn'
tevengivemeav al
i
dr easonmxm
Me:
Jayucan'
tfor
cemet
ogowi
thy
ou
Hi
m: l
ist
en,i
fyou'
recl
oset
omeI
'
llbeabl
eto
pr
otectyou.
Me:
from what
?
Him:babey
ouknowmyl
i
fest
yle,
it'
sjustnot
safe.
..
Nothat'
sal
i
e.Hebet
terbehonestwi
thmeor
el
seI'
ll
gocr
azyathi
m.
Me: whatdoyoumeanitsnotsaf
ebecauseit
's
neverbeensafeandyouneverev
erworri
ed
aboutoursafet
y.Ar
eweunderattack?
Hi
m:wel
l
...
Me:
ohmywor
d!Wear
ear
en'
twe?
Hi
m: pl
easedon'
tpanic.Ipr
omi
set
hatI
'
llf
ind
whoeverdar
estocrossme.
Whatam Ihear
ing?
??
Me:
youdon'
tev
enknowwhoi
tis?
Him:yousee?!That
'swhyIdidn'
twantt
otel
l
youbecauseIknewy ou'
dfr
eakout
Me:
wowsoI
'
mtheonewho'
swr
ong?
Hi
m:nol
ove,
okaycanwej
ustgo?
Iwasl
iv
idsoIjustwentt
omyr oom andpacked
upal
lmyclot
hesintoasuit
case.Atf
ir
st,
I
thoughtdat i
ngagangst erwoul
dn'taf
fectme
butnowI '
mf orcedt obeunderhi swatch24/ 7
l
ikeser i
ouslythough. ..DidImakeami st ake?I
rubmybel l
yasIt hinkofmyunbor nchild.Isit
reall
ygoodt obr i
nghi mt omycrazywor ld
wher ehis/herfatherisagangst erbutthe
mot herisfutur
el awy er.Am Inotcontr
adi cti
ng
my self
?
"Babe?
"
Me:
Whendi
dyougeti
n?
Hi
m:j
ustnow
Me:
mmm.
..
Hi
m: Iknowthatt
hisisver
ydi
ff
erentt
oy oubut
pl
easetryt
ounderstandwhyI
'
m doingthis.
Me:Doyoupromi
set
haty
ouwi
l
lpr
otectme
andourchi
l
d?
Hi
m:YesIpr
omi se,y
ouandbabyJor
danwi
l
l
al
way
sbeprotected.
Het
hensmil
edrev
eal
i
nghisbeauti
ful
whi
te
t
eet
h.Il
ovet
hismanwit
hmyall.
Me:
(l
aughs)babyJor
dan?
Hi
m:y
epIj
ustknowt
hatwear
ecar
ryi
ngaboy
.
Me:Iwishit
sagi
rlsowecanannoyy
ou
ev
eryday.
Webot hlaughedandjustlookedint
oeach
other
'seyes.Weain'
tperfectbutIli
keour
rel
ati
onship.
Hi
m:l
et'
smakeabet
Me:
about
Hi
m:ourbaby
'sgender
.Ifi
tisaboyy
ouwi
l
ldo
ev
ery
thi
ngIwantforamonth.
Me:
andi
fit
'sagi
rlI
'
llnameheraf
terme.
Hi
m:deal
Me:
deal
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
^
Jor
dan^
AsIwastal
kingtomybeaut
if
ulwi
feIr
ecei
veda
cal
lfr
om anunknownnumber.
Me:
it'
sfr
om anunknownnumber
Her
:answeri
t.I
'
m goi
ngt
ofi
nishpacki
ng.
Ipeckedherl
i
psandwentout
sidet
oansweri
t.
Me:
hel
l
o??
.
..
:di
dyougetmymessage?
Me:
whatmessage?Andwhot
hef
**kar
eyou?
.
..
:i
tdoesn'
tmatt
erbecauseIknowwho'
s
pl
ott
ingagai
nsty
ou.
Me:whathowdoyou?.
..ohyouar
etheper
son
whosentamessagewarni
ngme
.
..
:yest
hat
'st
rue.Buty
oudi
dn'
tl
ist
en
Me:iputmyri
ghthandmantof
indoutt
he
f
uckerwho'
sdoublecr
ossi
ngme
.
..
:hei
stheper
sony
ouar
elooki
ngf
or
Me:
what
!No!
!
Themanontheotherl
i
nel
aughed.Hi
slaugh
wasdar
kandcold.
Hi
m: l
ookonyourl
eftandy
ouwi
l
lseeman
wear
ingbl
ack.
Idi
dasIwastol
dandIsawt heman.Myhand
wasonmygunjustincasewehaveapr
oblem.
Anyonewho'
severhear
dofmeknowsthatI
nev
ermissashot.
Hi
m:l
ooseny
ourgr
ip.I
'
m ony
oursi
de.
Themanhandedmeanenv
elopeandl
eft
bef
oreaut
ter
edaword.
WhenIopenedt heenvel
ope, t
heotherguyhung
up.Insi
detherewerepi
cturesofStonewith
anotherguy,shaki
nghands.WhenIl ooked
closel
ytheothermanlookedfamili
ar.Wait
..
.
thatsonofabitchisawwithmyl oveatthe
r
est
aur
ant
.Hei
ntr
oducedhi
msel
fasSi
zwe.
..
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
♡I
nser
t30♡
Aweekl
ater
-
Jor
dan-
Ifi
nall
ygottheidiotsthattri
edt ocrossme.
Stoneeventri
edt oski pthecountry .Whata
coward!Hewasev enbeggi ngmet ohav e
mercyonhi m.HeknowswhatIdot of orward
peoplebecauseweusedt odoittoget her
.Iput
them i
nawar ehouset hatnobodyel seknows.
ThenIelectr
ocutedt hem foranhour .The
bit
chesdeserveasl owpai nful
deat h.Ifir
st
wenttotheroom t hatIputBullet(Sizwe)in.He
wasshakinglikeal eaf.
Me:
wel
l
,wel
lwhatdowehav
eher
e?
Il
aughedathi
sstupi
dness.Wher
edi
dhet
hink
hewouldendup?
Hi
m:I
,I
,pl
ease,
letmego.
..
Me:
whywoul
dIwantt
odot
hat
?
Hi
m:i
wil
l
,nev
,vert
ryt
o,ki
l
lyouagai
n
It
ookoutmygoldandsi
l
verpl
ait
edgunandhe
l
ookedt
err
if
ied.
Me:
(chuckl
es)doy
ouknowwhathi
snamei
s?
Hi
m:nnno
Me:
hisnamei
ster
rorandy
ouknowwhy
?
Heswunghi
sheadsi
deway
smeani
ngno.
It
houghtIshoul
dhav
esomef
unf
ir
st.
"
Bam!
!"
Ishothi
slegandhewai
l
edi
npai
n.
Hi
m:ahhh!
!!Fuckno!Huhhhh!
Me:
ohmy
!Di
dyouj
ustcur
se?
Ishothi
sarmt
wiceandt
henl
efthi
mther
e
scr
eaming.
Guar
d:bozzawhatshoul
dIdot
oSt
one?
Me:
kil
lhi
m andsel
lhi
sbodypar
ts.
Iwentoutanddr ovemyblackLambor gi
nitoa
ver
yimportantmeet i
ng.2daysagot heman
whohelpedmef i
ndoutthesnitcharrangedfor
ustomeet.Idrov ef
orthi
rt
ymi nutesuntilIgot
tot
headdresst hatwasgiventome.I twasa
mansionwithveryhighwall
s.
WhenIwasaboutt
ori
ngi
nthegat
eopenedon
i
t'
sown.Okay.
..
Irangt
hedoorbel
landanol
derwoman
answer
ed.
Her
:Jor
dan?
Me:
yes
Her:myhusbandisupst
air
s,you'
ll
seeanopen
doorint
hepassageyouwillf
indhimther
e.
Me:
thanks
Shegav
emeawar
m smi
l
eandwentaway
.
Ifol
lowedthei
nst
ruct
ionsshegav emebut
beforeIbar
gedi
nIthoughtthatIshoul
dknock
"
Comei
n"hesai
dwi
thabol
dvoi
ce.
Myeyesmethis,
tosayIwasshockedwoul
dbe
anunder
stat
ement.
Me:
dad?
Hi
m:noI
'
myourf
ather
'st
win
Hi
m:i
am y
ouruncl
e,Uncl
eJames
Me:
what
?You?
Hi
m:y
ouknowaboutme?
Me:
Iwast
oldt
haty
oudi
edi
napr
isonf
ight
Hi
m:t
hat
'swhatIwant
edpeopl
etot
hink
Me:
butwhy
?
Him:
sitdownandIwi
llt
ell
youever
ythi
ngand
somethi
ngsyouwon'
tl
ikeaboutSi
hle'
sfami
l
y.
30Cont
inuat
ion
Jor
dan
Me:
theWi
l
li
ams?
Hi
m:y
es
Me:
okayt
hent
ell
me
Hi
m:doy
our
ememberwheny
ourl
i
ttl
esi
ster
di
ed
Me: y
ahitwasahitandr
unacci
dentandt
he
dr
iverwasneverf
ound
Him:actual
lymeandy ourf
atherf
oundouta
yearl
ateranditwas.
..
Me:
who?
Hi
m:Hendr
ick
Me:
Sihl
e'
sfat
her
?
No,
no!
!Thi
scan'
tbet
rue.Hecar
ri
edont
alki
ng.
Him:whenwefoundoutiti
nfuri
atedusandwe
conf
ront
edhi
m butthenIcouldn'
tstopmysel
f
soIbeathi
m up.
Me:
that
'showy
ougotj
ail
ed?
Hi
m: y
es,
att
emptedmur
derandhi
m bei
nga
gr
eatl
awy
ergotmea30year
ssent
ence.
Istoodupandpacedar ound.Mylitt
le
si
ster(Chloe)wasmypr incess,
Ipromi sed
myselft oprotectherwithever
ypieceofme.
Andt ofindoutthatHlehle'
sfat
herkil
ledher
angersmet othecore.
Hi
m:ar
eyouokay
?
Me:doIf
ucki
ngl
ookokay
!?!Youj
ustdr
oppeda
bombonmeandImustbeokay?
Hi
m:t
henIguesswe'
reont
hesamepage
Me:andwhatt
hehecki
sthatsupposedt
o
mean?!
Him:wegetr
idoft
hewhol
eWi
l
li
amsf
ami
l
y
onceandf
orall
Me:
What
?No!Mywi
feandki
dar
epar
toft
hat
f
ami
l
y
Hi
m:t
henwespar
ethem
Me:andhowdoyouthi
nkshe'
l
lfeel
knowi
ng
t
hatIki
ll
edherf
amil
y?
Hi
m:l
i
sten,
wecandot
hist
oget
her
.
Me:
isai
dno!
!!
Hi
m:thi
nkaboutyourli
tt
lesi
ster
,myni
ece.She
wasonl
y7yearsold.
Me:
..
.
Hi
m: Youwi
l
l f
inal
l
ygety
ourrevengeremember
t
hat'
swhatyoutol
dmeatherfuneral
r
emember?
Me:ify out oldmeay earago.Butsincethena
l
otoft hingschanged.Ifelli
nlovewi t
hSihle
andev erythingabouther.Iwoul
dn'tevendream
ofdoingsomet hi
ngthatwouldhurther .
Hi
m: soyou'
ll
justpret
endt
haty
oudi
dn'
thear
whatIj
usttol
dy ou?
Me:i
didn'
tsayiwoul
dforgi
vehi
mforwhathe
di
dbutkil
l
ingt
hewholefamil
y?
Hi
m: i
fyou'r
enotmanenought ogetrevenge
f
oryoursist
erthenIwil
landI'
m notpr
omi si
ng
t
hatSihl
ewon'tgetcaughti
nthefir
e.
Me:
ist
hatat
hreat
?
Hi
m:i
tdependsony
ouract
ionsf
rom nowon
Me:anyonewhothreat
ensmeorany
onei
lov
e
doesn'
tl
ivet
otel
lthetal
e
Him:(
chuckl
es)y
ouar
ejustl
ikeyourf
ather
,
onceyouhaveawomaninli
feyougetweak.
Me:iwouldrat
herbeweakandbewitht
he
womanIlovethanbeaspinel
essper
sonwho
wi
ll
diealoneli
keyou.

《 Nar
rat
ed》
JordanwaspushingJamesatthi
spointand
f
eltdi
srepect
ed.I
t'
str
ue,thet
ruthhur
ts.James
st
oodupandfacedJor
dan.Hedidn'
tev
en
l
ookedscar
ed,hedi
dn'
tevenf
li
nch.
Jordanhadaf eeli
ngt hatthi
swoul dn'
tendwel l
.
Hehadhear dstoriesofhisuncle'
st emper-
someev ensaidthathehadbi pol
ar.Anditcould
bethatal lt
hathet oldhim wasal i
e.Jordan
pull
edouthi sgunandai medathi m.One
thoughtlingeredinhismi nd,thethoughtof
protect
ingSi hl
e.Hef ir
edt woshotsathim and
Jamesf elldown.Whenhewasaboutt oleave
5guardssur roundedhi m.Theyhear dtheshots.
Wit
hver
yli
tt
lebr
eat
hinhi
m,Jamesmanaged
t
osayafewwords.
Hi
m:ki
l
lhi
m..
.
¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
♡I
nser
t31♡
Jor
dan
I
njustaf
ewseconds,
ithadbecomeagunwar
.
Theoddswer eagainstme.I twas5agai nstone.
Shotswer efi
redandIwasusi ngthewal lasmy
defence.Theguar dshadnomer cyastheywer e
shootingeverywhere.Ishot2guar ds.After
shootingthem igotoutoft her oom Iwasi n,the
other3wer ehiding.Think,think!IfIwashi ding
fr
om someoneIwasscar edofIwoul dhide
wheret heyar
et hingsbigenoughsoIcannotbe
seen.Likethelounge!!!TheLcouchi sper fect
becauseaper soncoul dliedownandnotbe
seen.Icreptdownt hestair
sandnot i
cedt he
twobloodyscar dycat shidi
ngandshott hem
fr
om theback.Bl oodwasal lovertheplace.The
otheronewasmov ingsoIshothi mt wiceon
hisheadandhedi edinstantly.
Sati
sfi
edbymyv i
ctor
y,Iwal
kedoutoft
hat
houseli
kethebossiam.
"
Don'
tmov
e!!
"
What
?
"
Ther
ewer
efi
veofusr
emember
?"
Damni
didn'
tki
l
lal
loft
hem!
Me:
runwhi
l
eyoucan
Hi
m: no!!Youki
l
ledmyf
ri
endst
her
e'snoway
I
'mlett
ingyougo!
Iturnedar
oundbutitwastoolat
ebecausehe
shotme.Mychestwasi npainandalotof
bloodwascomi ngout
.Iwentdownonmyknee
holdingmychest.
I
naf ewsecondsev er
ythingwentbl
ackandit
fel
tli
keI
'mlosingmyl i
fe.Ishoul
dhavecal
l
ed
backup.Ican'
tdienow.I stheend?
?

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤
Tobecont
inued.
..
31Cont
inuat
ion¤
Si
hle
Thebediscol dwit
houtJay.Hesai dhewoul d
bebacklastnightbuthedidn'
t.Ilookedatthe
cl
ock,06:45wherecouldhebe?Suddenl yIhad
abadfeeling.It
ouchmybel l
y.Noi t'
snotthe
baby.Whati fmymani si
nt r
ouble.Hewoul d
havecal
ledbynowr i
ght?
Il
oveJaywit
hev er
ythi
nginmebutt hi
sli
fe,i
don'
tknow.
.Isthi
sgoingtobeanor m?Am I
goi
ngtoworryabouthissaf
etyfort
herestof
myli
fe?Maybeheisf i
ne,wher
everheis.
Imadet hebedthenshower edandwent
downstair
stomakemy selfbreakf
ast.Ican'
t
bel
ievethatI
'm now6mont hspregnant.Aweek
agowehadanappoi nt
mentwi t
hmydoct or
andwebot hdecidednottor eveal
ourbaby '
s
genderyetbutIcanfeelthatit'
saboy .
*
sighs*t
hehouseissoempt
ywi
thoutmybae.
Myphoneri
nged,i
twasmommy!
Me:
mom
Her:
heysweeti
e,Ij
ustt
houghtwecoul
dhang
outi
fyou'
ref
ree?
Me:
wel
lIdon'
thav
eacl
asst
oday
..
.
Her
:yesss!
!Opent
hedoor
Thi
swoman!She'
sal
readyher
ewow!
Iopenedt hedoorforherandshehadabi g
smileonherf ace.Ilovethi
swomanbutI 'm not
i
nt hemoodf orher,Jayhasn'tcont
actedme
fr
om y est
erdaymor ning.Tr
uthbetol
d,I'
m
wor r
ied.
Her
:I'
vepl
annedthewhol
edayj
ustf
orus.Fi
rst
t
hespathenthe.
..
Izonedout
.Iam get
tingt
hisfeel
i
ngagai
n,l
i
ke
somethi
ngbadisgoingtohappen.
"
Cli
ckcl
i
ck"
Shesnapsherfi
nger
sclosetomyfaceandI
bl
inkedmult
ipl
eofti
mesr eal
i
singt
hatIdi
dn'
t
hearhal
fofwhatshesai
d.
Me:
sor
ryI
'
mjustnoti
nthemood.
Her
:o.kayt
ell
mewhat
'swr
ong
Shepull
edmei ntothesi
tti
ngroom andsatme
down.Iknowshe'slooki
ngforanswersbutI
can'
texact
lysay'it
snothingbi
g,i
tsjustt
hat
Jayi
sagangst erandalotofpeopl
ewantt oki
l
l
ussoI'
m worri
ed'.
Me:hehasn'
tcall
edandi
lastseenhi
m
yest
erdaymor
ning.
Her:ncoahmybaby ,he'
sbat
ter
yprobabl
ydied
anditwast ool
ateandsohedecidedtoaskhi
s
fr
iendtosleepover
.
*Wel
lhedoesn'
ttr
ustany
oneandhisfr
iend
di
sappear
ed,pr
obabl
ybecauseheki
ll
edhim.
Me:
yeahIshoul
dn'
twor
ryabouti
ttoomuch.
Myphonebeepedi
namessage.
Her
:yousee?May
bei
t'
shi
m
If
eltahugewei
ghtl
i
ftedofmyshoul
der
s.Af
ter
unlockingmyphoneIqui ckl
yopenedt
he
messageonl y,onlytofi
ndapictur
eofJay
..
.my
Jayinapool ofblood.Thepict
urewas
captioned"Nowhei sdead".
Mywhol
ewor
ldf
rozeatt
hatmoment
.
Her
:sweet
ie?
Me:
HEI
SDEAD!
!
Iwail
edoutinpai
n, t
earswereunstoppabl
y
comingoutandinamat t
erofsecondsI
becameunconscious..
.

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I
nser
t32
Si
hle
《 5y
ear
slat
er》
Jordanl
eftmeonthi
sday,
5y ear
sago.I
att
endedhisf
uner
alandcr
iedunti
lIcoul
dn'
t
anymor e.Hismotherr
efusestoaccepthis
deathtot hi
sday.Hisr
emai nscoul
dn'
tevenbe
i
dentif
iedsoIchosenott oseehiminsidethe
coff
in.
Apar tofmei sangryt hathel eftmewhenIwas
sti
llpregnantwithbabyJor danYes. ..Idecided
tonamehi m aft
erhislat ef
at her.Hisnamei s
LuthandoJor danMbat ha.Every t
hingabout
JuniorremindsmeofJor dan.Hi ssmi l
e,his..
.
ohgod!I '
mt hinki
ngabouthi m agai n!.Thuto-
theguyIam dat i
ng,say sIshoul djustf or
get
aboutJayandf ocusonmyl i
fewi thhi m.But
then,noonecoul dreplaceJay .Hewasn' tmy
fi
rstbuthewast heonl ymanIt rul
yl oved.
"mommy
,we'
regonnabel
ate"
Ismiledatthel
itt
leangelstar
ri
ngatme.He' s
myl i
fe,myjoy,
myev eryt
hing.Ipromi
sedhim
thatIwil
lspendthedaywi t
hhim.Latel
y,work
hasbeenkeepingmebusy .Iworkatmyfather'
s
l
awf irm.
Hi
m:mommyso.
..
Me:
yesmybaby
?
Iki
ssedhi
scheeksandhi
sfor
ehead.
Hi
m:mommy
!!
!I'
m notababy
Hepoutedhissmal lli
psmakinghiml ookcute
andhesay she'snotababy .Ij
ustlaughedand
wenttothecar.Hef oll
owedbehindmeandI
wantedtostartthecarbuthewasn' toni tyet
.
Oh..
.Iknow,he'stoshorttocli
mbi nal lby
himsel
f.
Igotar oundthecaronlytofindhi m
str
uggli
ngtogeti n.I
twasfunnybecausehe
wouldputinonel eg,t
henanother,t
henhol dthe
cardoor.
Me:
nunu.
..l
etmegety
oui
n
Hegaveupandputhi
sar
msar
oundmeandI
puthi
minsi
dethecar
.
Me:(l
aughi
ng)y
oucoul
dhav
easkedmet
ohel
p
you
Hi
m:onl
ybabi
esneedhel
pget
ti
ngi
ntoacar
Me:
you'
remybabyandy
ouwi
l
lal
way
swi
l
lbe
Hi
m:butI
'
m..
.
Heputhi
sli
tt
lefi
ngersupandst
art
ed
whi
speri
ng1,2,
3,4.
..
Hi
m:I
'
mtur
ningf
ivenextweek!
Il
aughedandst
art
eddr
ivi
ngt
othemal
l
.
Me:
you'
resost
ubbor
nli
key
ourf
..
.
Hi
m:l
i
kewhomommy
?
Me:
nooneJuni
or
.
Whenwegott othemal l,i
twaspackedwi t
h
l
oadsandl oadsofpeopl e.Wef i
rststart
edat
MacDthenshoppedandbasi call
yJuniormade
hi
m buyhimi cecream andlotsoft oys.Att
he
endofthedayIwascar ryi
nghi m becausehe
waswor noutandev entuall
yf el
lasleeponmy
shoul
der.Hol
dinghi
m andtheshoppingbags
wasveryheavy.SoIki
ndastr
uggled.
"her
eletmehel
pmewi
tht
hat
"thatv
oice.
..
.
Am Iseei
ngthings?Nooo.
..Iknowt
hisv oi
ceto
wel
l.Iknowhisfacetoomucht omi
stakenhim
wi
thsomeoneel se.
Me:
Jor
dan?
?
32Cont
inuat
ion☘ ☘ ☘

Si
hle
Him:
I'
m sorryl
adybutmynameisMichael
.
Youmighthavemist
akenmeforsomeoneelse.
Me:
No,
no,
JORDANSTOPLYI
NGTOME!
!
Every
onewasl ooki
ngatusnow.ButIdon'
t
carebecauseIknowmyJayandIwoul dn'
t
'
mistakenhimforsomeoneelse'
Hi
m:l
i
sten,
Iam notwhoev
ery
out
hinkIam.
Het
ookouthi
ssmar
tidcar
dandshowedme.
Hi
m:l
ook.
.
Il
ookedathi
mt henatt
hecardwri
tt
enMicheal
Jonat
hanBrown.Iwasshockedt
omycore.I
guesshesawthatsohejustt
ookhi
sIDandlef
t.
Ipickedupmyshoppi
ngbagsandj
ustl
eftand
drovehome.
WhenIgothome,
IputJuni
oronhi
sbedand
shower
ed.Mymooddroppedfr
om 100%t
o0.
SomeoneknockedonmydoorandwhenI
openeditwasThut
o(myboy
fri
endI
vebeen
meaningtodump).
Me:
hey(
fakessmi
l
e)
Hi
m:heyl
ove
Hetri
estohugmebutIbackaway
.Honestl
y,I
don'
tfeel
li
kehav
inghi
scompanytoni
ght
.
Heget
sinsi
det
hehouse.
Hi
m:i
sthebr
ati
n?
Me:yesThuto,he'
supst
airssl
eepi
ng.
..
any
way swhat'
syourpr
oblem wi
thmyson?
Him: babeIf
eell
i
key ourki
dismessi
ngthi
ngs
upforusmay bei
fyougi v
ehimtoyourmother
totakecareofhi
m babeimaginemedati
ng
someonewi t
hakid..
.
Me:
giv
ehi
mtomymot
her
?!Ar
eyoumad?
!
Hi
m:don'
ttal
ktomel
i
ket
hat
!!
I
sheser
iousl
yrai
singhi
svoi
ceatme?
Me:li
stenher
e!That"br
at"i
smyoneandonl
y
sonandnoonewi l
lseparat
emefr
om hi
m!And
Iwon'
tbecontrol
l
edbyy ou!
Hi
m:Isai
dwat
chhowy
out
alkt
ome!
!
Me:
Iw.
.
Bef
oreIcoul
dev
ent
alk,
ahotsl
apl
andedon
mycheek.
Me:
GETOUT!
!
Hi
m:what
??
Me:
Isai
dgetout
!!
Iwenttothef
rontdoorandopenedthedoor
widel
yforhi
m andhegotout.WhenItriedt
o
tur
nmybackandgeti nsidet
hehouse,he
yankedmyhandroughly.Hewashurti
ngme.
Someonef ir
ed2gunshotssomewhereandwe
bothscreamed.Thut
ofli
nchedinpai
n,hehel
d
thebackofhisheadandhelookedathis
bloodyhand.Hewasshot.Hefell
downonmy
doorstep,It
hinkhei
sdead..
.
I
nser
t33
Si
hle
I
tsbeen2weekssinceThut owaski l
l
edonmy
door
step,thepol
icesti
llhaven'
tfoundanyt
hing
nxusel
esspoli
ce!!
.Hisfamilydidn'
tevenwant
metoattendhisweddingsay i
ngthatIam
probablyt hekill
er .Itookal eav eatwor k
becauseI 'm stil
linshock, hedi edinf rontofme.
Ihadjustr eturnedf r
om dr oppingofJuni orat
daycareaf teral ongdebat eov erhim want ingto
wearaspi dermancost umet odayandme
wantingt odr esshi ml i
keanor mal per son.I
smileatt het houghtofmycut ebabyboy .I
parkedmycaronmydr i
vewayandl ockedi t
.
WhenIt r
iedt ounl ockmydoor , Iwaspuzzl ed
becausei twasopenandIser iouslyr emember
l
ockingi tbefor eIl efttheyard.Iwasr eall
y,
real
lyscar ed.Icr epti nsi
dethehouseand
i
mmedi atelyIhear dtheTV, itwason.Ial so
heardasoundofagl assbeingpl acedont he
tabl
e.Ohl ordhel pme!Whati fitsThut o'
ski l
l
er?
Didhecomet ofinishmeof f?.Islowl yt ookout
myt azerandwentt ot heli
vingr oom.
If
rozewhenIsawhi
m,Agai
n..
.
Idon'
tknowwhatt
osayri
ghtnow.Hest
ands
upandwalkst
owardsme.
Hi
m:babyi
t'
sme.
..Jor
dan
Igat
herupcour
aget
oanswerhi
m.
Me: t
hisgamey ouar
eplay
ingi
sn'
tfunny.
Jordanisdeadandyoumadeitcl
eartheother
daythatyouarenothi
m.
Hi
m:Ihadt
o..
.
Ii
nter
rupt
edhi
m
Me:
youhadt
o??
!
Hi
m:pl
easel
etmeexpl
ain
Webot hsitdownandwelooki
ntoeachot
hers
eyes.Apartofmefeel
sli
keiti
sreal
l
yhim.I
l
ooki nt
ohiseyesandseethemanIlov
e.He
st
artstalki
ng.
Him:thatday,
5yearsbackImetmyuncl e.He
l
iedandt ol
dmethingsaboutyourfamily
becausehewantedmet okil
lallofyou.Iwasn'
t
convi
ncedsoIshothim andkil
ledhim butonl
y
tobeshotbyonehisguards.TheythoughtI
wasdead sot heydumpedmei naf or
estout
oftown.Byt henIhadr egainedconci ousness
butIhadt oactli
keIwasdead.Ihear dvoices
soImadenoi seandtheyhear dmeandsoI
survi
vedbutaf t
erheali
ng, Ithoughtabouti t
,
aboutusandourbaby .Itwasal l
becomi ngtoo
muchandIhadal otofenemi es.Ihadt obe
str
ategicaboutthi
s.Iftheyt houghtIwasdead,
Iwouldattackthem whent heyleastexpectedit
andal otofthem wouldl ettheirguarddown
andthatbecamemychance.Ihadt ofakemy
death,beli
eveme.Idi ditf orus.

Tobecont
inued☘ ☘ ☘ ☘ ☘ ☘
Cont
inuat
ion

Si
hle
Me:
thenwhydidy
ouactl
i
key
oudi
dn'
tknow
meatthemal
l
?
Him:thatcr
azyboy f
ri
endofy ourshadyou
fol
lowedandIfheknewt hatI
'm backhewoul
d
havedonesomethingcrazytoyou.Goodthi
ng
he'
sdead...
Me:whywoul
dyousaysomet
hingl
i
kethat
?
Wait
,di
dyouhav
esomethi
ngtodowit
hhis
deat
h?
Him:I'
vesaidi
tbef
oreandIwi
llsayi
tagai
n,I
wouldn'
tthi
nktwi
cebefor
eIki
l
l someonewho
messeswi t
hwhat'
smineandyouknowthat
he'
scrazy
Me:
stopsay
ingt
hat
!!Heonl
yhadbi
pol
ar
Hi
m:washet
aki
nghi
spi
l
ls?
Me:
wel
l
...occasi
onal
l
y
Him:Idon'
tcar
e,hewasgoingtohur
tyou
somedayplusI
'm backnowandever
yonemust
know
Me:
soy
ouj
ustki
l
ledhi
m?
Hi
m: Canwejustf
orgetaboutev
ery
thi
ngand
st
artaf
resh?
Il
ookedathishandsomef ace,
may behe'sr
ight
.
Ihavehi
m backnow, oursonwill
seehisfat
her
andIcanhavemyj ayback.Webot hhuggedfor
dearl
if
e.
Hi
m:pl
easedon'
tcr
ybabe.
Ididn'
tevennot
icet
hatIwascr
ying.Mustbe
tearsofj
oy.
Me:
I'
mjusthappyt
haty
ouar
eback.
Hi
m:I
'
m happyt
oo,
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Hi
m:Il
ovey
oumor
e
Me:
youst
il
lhav
etomakei
tupt
ome
Webot hlaughed,I
'm ser
ioushecan't
dissappearandreappearandexpectmet
oact
l
ikenot hi
nghappened.
☘☘☘ ☘☘☘ ☘☘☘ ☘☘☘
I
nser
t34
《2weeksl
ater
》

Jor
dan
I
tsourson' sbirt
hdaytodayandt herealottodo.
Honestly,Ican'
tsayI'v
eev erbeenthishappyin
mylife.Ihavemyownf ami l
yanditsgreat.
Thesepast5y earshavebeenhel l
wi t
houtthe
peoplewhomat termost.Imeanl i
vingin
Mexicowasf i
nebutifonlyIwaswi thSihl
ei t
wouldhav ebeenawesome.Il ovehersomuch.
Befor
eIgot othebir
thdaypartyIhavetomeet
upwithmycr ewandpl anforourmissi
on
tomorrow.Imissedhav i
ngthem onmyside.I
woremyal lbl
ackatt
ireandwentt othe
warehouse.
.
.
.
Me:
Iwanty
out
odoacl
eanj
obar
ewecl
ear
?!
Them:
yesboss!
Me:Iwantever
yonet
oknowt hatt
hemost
hear
tl
ess,themostr
uthl
essgangsteri
sback.
JCisback!
!
Theyallcheeredf orme.Wehadasmal l
gatheri
ngandt heyalldrankexceptf orme.I
hadsomet hingupmysl eev ef ormybeaut if
ul
woman.Il eftthem partyingupast orm and
passedt heshopwher eIorder edlit
tl
eme' sgift
andcollectedit.Sihl
e'
sgoi ngt of r
eakout
becauseIboughtJuni orami niredFerr
ari.I
ts
therealdealbuti t
sJunior '
ssi ze.Hecanget
i
ntoitanddr i
veandt hewor stpartofitisthati
t
costsa100kI 'm sodead
I'
mr eall
yl ateandIli
keitbecauseI'
m goingto
makeagr andent r
ance.Iparkedi
nmy
dri
veway (theyli
vewi t
hmenow)andt ookout
theFer r
arifr
om thetrail
erandputi
tnextt omy
yel
lowf err
ari.Damn!Itlookssofi
ne!Abi gand
smal l
Rar i
.Igotintothehouseanditalr
eady
hadst art
ed.Litt
lemer anintomyarms
screaming" daddy"andHl ehl
ehadthe"youare
l
ate"look.
Me:
uhexcusemeev
ery
one!
!
Theyal
ltur
nedt
olookedatme.
Me:sincemyJordanJuniori
sturni
ng5years
ol
dtoday,andobviousl
yhasthemostamazing
dadintheworldIt
houghthedeservesaf
it
ti
ng
gi
ft
.Woul dyouall
liket
oseeit?
Cr
owd:
yess!
!!
Weallwentout
sideandev er
yonewentcrazy
whentheysawit
.Especial
lySihl
e..
.shepul
led
meinsi
de,Shi
tit
'sabouttogetreal
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☆I
nser
t35☆

Jor
dan

Thecr ewandIwentt hrought hegamepl anfor

thebigheistofeverythingi nBigZ' shouse.See,
heisoneofmyenemi esandI '
m notscar edof
him.Hi scr
ewdoest hebi ggestheistsand
everyoneknowst hathest ashestheitemsor
moneyi nhisernoumousmansi onbecausei t
hast hemostupgr adedt echnologyev erbut
nothingistoobigforme.Iputal lmyweapons
i
nmeandweal ldrov einaconv oy.Ihad3of
mycr ewmember swor kont hesecurity
systemswhi le2ofthem wher eonanot her
buil
dingactingassni pers.Andofcour sethe
menwhoki ll
mer ci
lessly.Peopl
ewonderwhyI
nev ergetcaughtandt hat'
sbecauseIgotbr ai
ns,
theycannev erstopme.Orus, TheSilencers.
Aftert hesecur i
tysy stemshadbeendi sar
medI
goti nsidet hehouseandl ocat
edal l
the
valuabl es,bombedt hesafesandcal l
edint he
other st otakeev er
ything.Themi ssi
onwas
donewi t
hnogl iches.
Thenweallwentbackt
othewar
ehouseand
cel
ebr
ated.Al
lki
ndboozewasher
e.
.
..
.:bossy
ougot
taseet
his
Hegavemet helaptop.Weputi
nahiden
camerasi
nthehousebef or
ewelef
tsowe
coul
dseeeveryt
hing.
BigZgotinsi
dehishouseandl ookedshocked
toseehishouseleftwi
thonlyuselessthi
ngs.I
chuckl
ed.Hecheckedallhi
ssaf esbutthey
wereallempty.Hewenttothebasementwher e
heparkshiscarsandther
ewasn' tasingl
eone
l
eft
.

Hi
m:nooooo!
!!
!
Wel
aughedandf
istbumped.
Me:
goodj
obgent
s
Them:
sur
eboss!
Beingbacki
nthegamefeel
shel
l
agood!I
recei
vedacal
lfr
om Hl
ehle.
Her
:youbet
tergetbackhomeMr
!
Ow.
.shi
t!
Me:
I'
m comi
ngbabe
Her
:orel
sey
ou'
renotget
ti
ngany
Me:
anywhat
?
Iknowexact
lywhatshemeansbutIwanna
heari
t.
Her
:youknow.
..
Me:
hmmm?
Her
:t
hev
elv
etcake
Me:butIt
houghtwehadchocol
atecakei
nthe
f
ri
dge?
Her
:ur
gh!
!Justcomehomeandy
ou'
l
lsee!
ShehungupandIwasi
nst
it
ches.
Itookouttheshi
nyrockandhel
ditbythesi
l
ver
partofi
t.Ihav
eli
ttl
eme, nowIneedtomake
Si
hleMr sme.

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☘☘☘ ☘☘☘ ☘☘☘

SEASONFI
NALE
I
nser
t36

Si
hle
Jordani spissingmeof fnow.Hehast hese
phonecal l
sthatheanswer sandcomesback
smili
ngl ikearetard.It
'sli
kehe' splanning
somet hingbutobv iouslyI'
m notpar toftheplan.
YesterdayIsawt wof l
ightticketsonhisdeskat
hisstudybuthequi ckl
ygr abbedt hem beforeI
couldev enseewher ethedest inat
ionis.Ifhe
thi
nkst hatI'l
ll
ethim planr omant i
ctri
psf or
hoest henhei supf orasupr i
se.
Ihadt
opickupJuni
orfr
om daycar
ebecause
hehadsomewhere'
import
ant
'andmeet
someone'
impor
tant
'.
Me:
Nxx.
..
.
Jr
:mommy
,ar
eyouangr
y?
Me:
nononoI
'
m not
.I'
m happy
,see?
Ismil
eathi
m andhedoeshi
sbaby
li
shgi
ggl
e
ncoah.
..
Hepl
ayswi
thhi
stabl
et.IswearJayi
sspoil
ing
hi
ski
dandi
twil
lbackf
irebecausehewi
llbea
st
uckupspoi
l
edki
d.
Wegottothehouseonl
ytof
indJay,
ont
he
phone,
again!
J:
"yesI
'
m sur
eIwantherandonl
yher

J:
Sihl
e?Noshedoesn'
tknow(chuckl
es)

"Daddy!
!"
Wel l
myl it
tl
emousedeci dedtoblowmycov er.
Iwascl osetofi
ndingoutthebigsecret
!Jay
qui
ckl yhunguphi sphoneandpi ckedupJunior.
Ij
ustsqui nt
edmyey esathimt henwent
upstairs.Wewi l
lseeifguil
tiseati
nghim up
he'
llfollowme.Isati nourbedroom f
orawhol e
hourandhedi dn'
tcomei nandbeg.No, Iam
goingt omakehi m confess.
Iwentdownst
air
sandhewasn'
tther
e,Ideci
ded
tocheckhi
soff
iceandl
ucki
l
yIfoundhimthere.
Hedidn'
tseeme,Isawhim smi
l
ing,
hol
ding
somethi
ngunderhi
sdesk.
Me:
Jay
?
Hegotst
art
led,
fi
ddl
edwi
thsomet
hingt
henput
i
tbacki
nthedrawer
.
Hi
m:hey
!
Hecamet
omeandwr appedhisar
msar
ound
meandki
ssedmynecksoft
ly.
Hi
m:babear
eyouangr
y?
Me:y
oudon'
tgivemeanyattent
ionany
mor
e
andy
ouarehi
dingsomet
hing.
Ipout
edmyl i
psandhepeckedthem.Het
hen
l
aughed.Di
dIsaysomethi
ngfunny?
Hi
m:ar
en'
twej
eal
ous?
Me:
soy
ouar
ehi
dingsomet
hing?
!
Hi
m:babei
t'
sfory
ou!
!
Ibl
ushedl
i
kecr
azy
.Imean,
Ihav
ebeen
str
essi
ngfornot
hingandmymani
spl
anni
ng
somethi
ngforme!
Me:
sowhati
sit
?
Him:i
t'
sasurpr
ise.All
youhavetodoiscal
li
n
atwor
k,andpackbecauseonthedayaft
er
tomor
rowwear egoingsomewhereni
ce.
Me:
mmm r
eal
l
y?
Hi
m: y
esandyouowemeforthi
nki
ngt
hatI
'
m
pl
anni
ngsomethi
ngf
orsomeoneel
se.
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayt
hat
(laughs)
Hi
m:buty
ouwer
ethi
nki
ngi
t
Me:wel
lhow(ki
ss),
woul
dyou(ki
ss),
li
keme
t
orepayyou?
Hegr abbedmyassandIsqueal
edi
n
exci
tement.PlusIhav
en'
thadsomeina
l
ooongt ime!
.
Hewhisper
edinmyear"IWANTYOU"t
hat
al
onesentti
ngl
esal
lovermybody
.
Herippedmycl othesof falongwithmy
underwearandi alsotookof fhiscl
othes.Iput
myar msaroundhi sneckandIwaspi ckedup
andwentt oourbedr oom.heputmei nthebed,
Idi
dn'twasteti
measi capturedhiminahot
ki
ssandher espondedqui ckly,
hewant sthi
sas
muchasIdo.Igr abbedhisdi ckandhegr oaned,
hepulledoutandsuckedonmyneckt henhe
wentdownandpul ledmyunder wearoff.
I
gasped,hechuckl edandst art
edplayingwith
mycl i
t,ImoanedwhenIf elthishotbreathon
me.Hemuf f
edmesogood.
Me:
mhm y
es
If
eltmyl egsshakethenIreleased.hefl
ipped
meov erandent eredme, hestartedt
hrusti
ng
sl
owly,thenthepaceincreasedhecur sedand
l
ookedatmewhi lesmil
ing.
Hi
m:y
oul
i
kei
t?
Me:
yesssJay
Heflipedmeandenteredme, hegroanedout
l
oudandcur sed.Hethenstartedmov i
ngandI
wrappedmyl egsar
oundhi m asthepleasur
e
coursedthr
oughmyv eins.Al
l youcoul
dhear
wast hemoansandgr oans
Me:
fa.
.st
er
Hi
m:f
ucky
eah!
Hestart
edpoundingint
omef asterthanbef
ore
andIreal
lyf
elti
t.wereleasedtogetherashi
s
bodyjer
ked,hepull
edoutandhepul ledme
towar
dshim andkissedme.
.
.
.
.
Me:
babe?
Hi
m:mmm?
Me:
doy
our
ememberwhenwef
ir
stmet
?
Him:(chuckl
es)y
eahIwoul
dnev
erf
orgett
hat
day
Me:
myf i
rstdayatv
arsi
tyandIbumpi
ntot
his
r
eal
l
yrudeguy
Hepl
aceshishandonhi
sheartandput
sona
f
akehurtf
ace.Webothl
aughed.
Hi
m:Iwasn'
trude
Me:
(rol
l
sey
es)r
eal
l
y?
Me:andthenyoumistakenedmygayf
ri
endfor
myboyfr
iendandki
dnappedhim!HowdidIend
wi
thsuchacrazyperson?
Hi
m:y
ouf
ell
inl
ovewi
thmyhandsomef
ace.
Hesay
sbr
ushi
nghi
snoneexi
stentbear
d.
Hi
m:may
beIshoul
dgr
owmybear
d.
Ibur
stint
oalaughter
,Iseri
ousl
ycoul
dn'
tst
op
myself
.Helookedatmet henandst
art
ed
t
ickl
i
ngme.
Hi
m:I
'
llgi
vey
ouar
eal
reasont
olaugh
Wewerehavingfunbusyti
ckl
ingeachother
whenhi
sstupidphoneint
err
uptedusurghh!
!
Hi
m:what
?!

Hi
m: t
hemer
chandi
sei
sher
e?*
sighs*I
'
llbe
t
here.
Hehungupandl
ookedatmenotknowi
nghow
t
otel
lme.
Me:
youhav
etogoatt
hist
ime?
Him:yeshoney
,butdon'
twor
ryI
'
llbeher
e
befor
eyouknowit.
Heshower ed,worehiscl
othesandpeckedmy
l
ipsthenleft
.IguessIhavelearnttoacceptthat
heisn'tt
henormal per
sonwhowor ksduri
ngt he
nightandmakesanhonestl i
ving.ButthenIstil
l
wor r
yabouthim.
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SEASONFI
NALE
I
nser
t37

Jor
dan
Istar
r edatherbeaut
if
ul f
acewithherpoutyl
ips,
breathingl
ight
lyknowingthatsoonshe'
llbe
offi
ciall
ymywi f
eisreall
ygood.Myphoner ang
andIanswer editqui
cklybefor
eitwokeherup.
Me:
sur
e
.
..
.:babei
tsmedoy
our
emember
?It
'sSt
acy
Me:
WTF?
!
Wi
fey
:shh.
..
Iwentoutoft
heroom t
oansweri
t.Whatdoes
thi
sbit
chwant?!
!
Her
:youknow,
whaty
oudi
dtomei
sunf
air
!
Me:
y ouwereaoneni
ghtst
andandwef
ucked
t
hat
'sall
!!
!
Her:
andthenyoublockedmynumberwheny
ou
wentbacktoSout
hAf r
ica.
Me:imadeitcl
eart
hatIhaveawifeandki
dso
whatmakesyouthi
nkthatIwoul
dkeepyou
number
??
Her
:wehav
eadaught
er
Me:
don'
tfuckenl
i
etomebi
tch!
Her
:I'
m not
..
.
Ihungupandmadeanothercal
ltooneofmy
connect
ionst
hatImadewhil
eIwasinhidi
ngi
n
Mexi
co.
Me:
Franko?
Hi
m:whatanhonourtobecalledby
thegreatJC
,t
heking,j
ackofal
ltr
icks.(
Hehadt hat
Mexi
canaccent
)
Me:st
opkissi
ngmyassandpayupont
hat
f
avouryouoweme.
Hi
m:st
il
lcockyIsee
Me:Iwantyout
ogetmesomeoneandbr
ing
hert
oSouthAfr
ica.
Hi
m:her
?It
sagi
rl
?
Me:
somehoet
hatneedst
obet
aughtal
esson.
Hi
m:goti
t
"Babe?
"
IlookedupandsawHlehleweari
ngmyt shi
rt
l
ookinghotandtothi
nkthatsomebitchwants
toruinwhatIhav
ewithmysexywi f
e.
Her:l
et'
sgoshowerthenwedropofJuni
orat
yourpar
ent
shouse,thenwepackforour
r
omant i
cget
away!!
!
Shegi
ggledandwal kedinfr
ontofme.Mmm. .
.
damn!She'sbl
essed!Ispankedherandshe
gi
ggl
edlikeaschool chi
l
d
.
.
.
.
.
Her
:sowher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Me:
It'
sasupr
ise
Her
:mmm.
..okay
Theairhost
essservedusdri
nksandwi nkedher
eyeatme.Ipr et
endedasthoughi didn'
tsee
anyt
hing.Luckil
yBabesdi
dn'tsee.Itwouldhave
beenani
ght
mar
e.
Wefinal
l
ylandedont
heisl
and.Andi
twas
wr
it
tenont opoft
hebui
l
dingWELCOMETO
MAURITIUS.

SI
HLE
Maur i
ti
us!!Iscreamedandj umpedi nhi shands.
Liker eal
lyMaur it
ius??TosayIwasj usthappy
woul dbeal i
e!Iwasov ert hemoon.Especi all
y
whenwewentt othehot eldamn!I twasbe-u-t i
-ful!Webot hchangedi ntomuchl i
ghterclothes
andJayt oldmet hatwewer egoingtobegi v
en
at ouroft heisl
and.Thegui defi
nallyarri
vedand
thepoi ntwher ewest artedhadabi gboard
wr i
tten"WI LL"strange.Iaskedt hegui deabout
thename.
Me:
ist
henameoft
hepl
ace"
WILL"
Hi
m:y
ouwi
l
lsee
Ohwel l.
..Wegotonaboatt oseet heother
placesbutbef or
ewel eftalitt
lecutegirl
wear i
ngpi nkcamet omer unningandhanded
mer osesandapi nkcar dwr itt
en" YOU".I
smi l
edather .Wait"You"f orwhat ?Itri
ed
getti
ngar esponseatJaybuthewasn' tbudging.
Wear ri
vedatt hesecondar eaandt her
ewer e
peoplepl ayingslowmusi c.IbetJaypl anned
thisone.Ay ounggirlputaf l
owerneckl ace
aroundmeandhi m.ThenInot icedsomet hi
ng.
Anotherbi gboar dwr i
tten" MARRY".
Suddenl
yital
lcl
i
cked"
WILLYOUMARRY
It
urnedar
oundandJor
danwasononeknee
Hi
m:ME?
Me:
OMG!
!yes,
yes,
yes!
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NALE
I
nser
t38
Si
hle
Ithoughtt odayIshouldt el
l myf amilyt
hebi g
news.Jor dani nsi
stedongoi ngwi thme. Iam
goingt otellthem t
hatJaypr oposedandt hat
am goi ngtobeMr sCullen.Iwonderhowt hey
willreactbutIknowmom i sgoingt obehappy .
Asf orKuhl e?Idon'tknow.It oldthem t
ogat her
i
nt hehouseandwai tforme.Thi sisso
exciting!
!!
.
>>>
If
oundt hewhol
efami
l
yincl
udi
ngmybest
ie
Ntokozoinsi
de.
Her
:fr
iend!
!
Mymom anddadsmi l
edunti
ltheysawJordan.
WTF?Healsonot
icedthesuddenchangebut
wedeci
dedtoignor
eit.Ihuggedevery
oneand
whenIwasabouttotel
lthem Ntokozo
scr
eamed.
Her
:hepr
oposed!
!
Shel
ookedatmyweddi
ngf
ingerwi
thwi
deey
es.
Kuhl
e:Congr
atssi
s
Hecameupt
omeandhuggedme.
Kuhl
e:Jor
dany
ouar
eonel
uckymot
her
..
.
Mom:
languagekuhl
e!
Wealll
aughedbutIwaswai
tingf
orar
esponse
f
rom Mom anddadbutdol
olo.
Me:
mom?
Shej
ustwentupst
air
sandIf
oll
owedher
.
Her
:cl
oset
hedoorbehi
ndy
ou
Idi
dasIwast ol
d.Whattheheckishappeni
ng?
Shouldn'
tshebehappyt
hatherdaughteri
s
get
tingmarri
ed?
Me:
what
'
sup?
Her
:real
l
y?What
'sup?That
'sal
lyoucansay
?!!
Me:whatdoyouexpectmetosayaf
tery
ou
act
ingl
ikei
commi t
tedacr
ime!
Her
:howcany
oumar
ryaper
sonl
i
keJor
dan?
Me:whatdoyoumean?He'
sanhonest
busi
nessmanand.
..
Her
:st
oply
ing!Weknowthathei
sagangst
eri
n
f
acthei
sagangleader
!!
Me:
uh.
.
Her:
No!!Youarenotgoi
ngt
omar
ryt
hatboy
andthat
'sf
inal
!

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Cont
inuat
ion
.
.
.
Me:
how,
howdi
dyouf
indout
?
Her:
itdoesn'
tmatt
erhowIfoundout.Facti
s,
youareengagedt
oav er
ydangerousmanwi t
h
ashadypast
Me:youthi
nkIdon'tknowthat
?Iknowthati
t'
s
ar
iskydeci
sionbutIlovehi
m wit
hever
ythi
ngin
me.Ilov
eJaymama
Isatonthebedandshej
oinedmel
ooki
ng
defeat
ed.
Her
:Iwasoncei
nagang
Il
ookedatherwi
thashockedexpr
essi
on.My
Mom onceagangst
er?Nah
Her:t
heyusedt ocallmebluel
i
ght ni
ng.Iwas
thehacker,Ibrokei
ntothemostadv anced
secur
itysystems,Icoul
ddecrypteveryt
hing
andany t
hing.
Idon'
tknowifi
t'
smebutherfaceli
ghtsupas
sheist
alki
ngaboutwhatsheusedtodo.
Her:
ThenIfel
linlov
ewit
ht hel
eader,hi
sname
wasJake*si
ghs*hewasn'tper
fectbutIl
oved
hi
m despi
teevery
thi
ngel
se.
Thensuddenl
yhersmi
l
edi
ssapear
s.
Me:
whathappened?
Her:wewentonami ssi
ononeday.Everyt
hing
wasperfectunt
ilt
hecopsappeared.Apparent
ly
someonesentat i
pof f
.Jakewasstubborn,he
didn'
twanttohandhimselfsohestar
ted
shooti
ngatthepoli
ce.Wewer eoutnumbered
andsohegotshotandhewaspr onounced
deadatthescene.
Myheartbr
okewhenshecr
ied.Ipul
l
edher
cl
oserandhuggedher
.
"Iwaspregnantandduet
ost
ressIl
ostt
he
baby
"shecontinued
Call
meacr ybaby
,butwhensomeoneIl
ove
cr
iesIcr
ytoo.
Me:
mom.
.
Her:Idon'twantyoutofeelt
hatki
ndofpai
n.
Whatifhedoesn' tcomehomeonedayandy ou
di
scov erthathe'
sdeadorsomeonebrut
all
y
murder edhim ?WhataboutJuni
or?
Thiswholethinggotmet hi
nking.Isbeingwith
himt heri
ghtchoice?Isti
llrememberf iveyears
backwhenIwast oldthatJordanwasdead, the
pai
nwasunbear ableandIwaspr egnant.
May beIshouldjustleav
eJayandmay bemov e
toanothercountrywherehewon' tfi
ndme.I
couldmov eonright?Iwillf
indanot hermant o
l
oveandal sobel oved.No..Lordknowshow
muchIl oveJay.Butwhati f?.
..
.
"
Knockknock"
Iwipemytear
sandwenttoanswert
hedoor
andther
eheIs.Myoneandonly
.
Hi
m:hav
eyoubeencr
ying?
Hecl
encheshi
sjaws.Andl
ooksatmymot
her
.
Hi
m:whatdi
dshesay
?
Mom standsupandwalkst
owardst
hedoor
befor
esheleaves,
shel
ooksatmeandsays
"t
hinkabouti
t"
Hi
m:whatdi
dshemean?
Me:
Jor
dan,
Idon'
tthi
nkIcanmar
ryy
ou.
vv

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NALE
I
nser
t39

Hendr
ick
Me:Ihavetoconfesstohim.Iwill
expl
ainthati
t
wastrul
yanaccident,
thatInevermeanttokil
l
hi
sli
ttl
esist
er.ThatIwasscared.Imadet he
wr
ongdeci
sion.
Wife: butyoudidn'
townupdi dyou?Doy ou
haveanyi deawhathe'lldotoyou?ThisisJC
we'ret al
ki
ngabout .Hi
sreputat
ionspeaksfor
i
tself.Alotofthingscouldgowr ong
Her
:shutup!
!
Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.what
'
sgoi
ngonher
e?
Her
:nobut
s!!Ideal
twi
tht
hesi
tuat
ion
Me:whatdi
dyoudo?Idon'twanty
out
omess
wi
thmydaughter
'shappi
ness.
Her
:rel
axIhav
ethi
sundercont
rol
.
Shestart
edbit
inghernail
sfuri
ously,
nonoi t
can'
tbe!Theotherper
sonali
tyiscontrol
li
ngher
andIrememberherwell.Shewillbeanxious
aboutevery
thi
ngandmaker ashdecisionsand
mostlyshe'
sgonnahurtpeople.
Me:
arey
oust
il
ltaki
ngy
ourpi
l
ls?
Her
:I'
m notcr
azy
!!
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayt
hat
Her
:IAM NOTCRAZY!
!

Si
hle
Jayhasbeenknocki
ngonthedoorfort
hepast
30minut
esandsoundsveryangr
y.I
tdoesn'
t
l
ookli
kehe'sgoi
ngtoacceptmydecisi
onatal
l
.
Hi
m: Si
hle,
Isweari
fy ou'
renotgoingt
oopen
t
hisdoorIwil
lbr
eakitdoy ouhearme?!
Hi
m:ar
eyout
est
ingme?
Me:
okayokay
!!
Iopenedt
hedoorandhel
ethi
msel
fin.
Hi
m:whatt
hehecki
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
Me:no,what'
swr ongwit
hYOU?!Imademy
sel
f
cl
earthatIam notmarr
yingy
ou!
Hi
m:(chuckl
es)hav
ey oufor
gott
enwhoIam?
Di
dyoureall
ythi
nkI'
djustl
etyougoandr
un,
cr
ymy sel
ftosl
eepl
ikesomeweakling?Youare
mine!
!AndI'
dbedamnedi fIl
etgonowafter
ev
eryt
hingwe'v
ebeenthrough.
Me:
thet
rut
his.
..I
'
m scar
ed
Hi
m:ofwhat
??
Me:ofwhatcoul dhappen.Whatifsomeone
hurt
sJuniorjusttopr
ov eapointorwhati
fyou
getmurderedandInev ergett
oseey ouagai
n?
Hi
m:hav
eIev
erf
ail
edt
opr
otecty
ou?
!
Me:
..
..
Hi
m:don'
tmakemer
epeatmy
sel
f
Me:
no!But
..
.
Hi
m:t
henwhywoul
dyoudoubtmehuh?
Me:
iknow,Ishoul
dn'
thav
edoubt
edy
ou.
Hi
m:enemi
eswil
lal
way
sbet
her
ebutIwi
l
l
al
way
sprot
ecty
ou.
Me:
promi
se?
Hi
m:i
promi
se
Me:
and.
..
Hi
m:huhuhbabe
Me:noit
snothingbad.Ial
sowantt
olear
nto
pr
otectmysel
f.

Jor
dan
Whatdoesshemeannow?
Her
:Iwanty
out
otr
ainme
It
hinkI
'
m hear
ingt
hings
Me:
what
?!
Her:y
ouheardmeright.Iwantyoutot
rainme
soIcanbeablet
opr ot
ectmy sel
fandIcan
possi
blyj
oint
heSil
encers.
Yeahthat'
smywi
fer
ightt
her
e!Butj
oini
ngi
n
though?
Me:
babeIcangetmyr
ighthandmant
otr
ain
y
oubutIcan'
tl
ety
oui
nthecr
ew.
Her
:butwhy
?
Shepout
edhersmal
ll
ipsmaki
ngherl
ookcut
e
butI
'
m notf
all
i
ngfori
t.
Me:
trustme,
it'
stoodanger
ous
Her
:*si
ghs*f
ine
Me:
Soy
ouwantt
obemyGangst
erqueen?
Her
:(chuckl
es)y
oudon'
tbel
i
evei
tdoy
ou?
Me:
wel
l
,you'
venev
err
eal
l
yli
kedmyl
i
fest
yle.
Her
:Il
oveyouandwegoingtobemar
ri
edsoon
soImi
ghtaswell
suppor
tyou.
Me:ladi
esandgent
lement
heweddi
ngi
sback
on!
!!
Shegi
ggl
edandst
uff
edherheadonmyneck.
Her
:il
ovey
oumybunny
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
emycupcake
Her:
I'
m get
ti
ngmarri
ed!
!Ineedt
ocal
lbest
ie
andall
myotherf
ri
endsandmom andDad!
!
Ichokedonmyownsaliv
a.Thi
sisveryhardf
or
me.Imean,Il
ovemywifebutwhatherdaddid
makesmewantt obur
yhim al
i
veeveryti
meI
seehim.

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FI
NALEPI
SODE
I
nser
t40
NARRATED
WEDDI
NGDAY
It
'sSihl
eandJor dan'
sweddi ngdayandnerves
arehighforthebothofthem.Ev er
yoneisatthe
weddingv enue-Kuhl
eandhi sgir
lf
ri
endwithhis
daughter,t
heCul l
enfamil
y,evenBuhlecamet o
witnesstheweddingofSihleandJordan.It
s
beenalongj
ourney
.Si
hlefinal
l
yaccept
ed
Jordant
hewayheis.Afterbei
ngseparat
ed
andfaci
ngchal
l
engesont hewaythedayhad
came.
Nt
okozo:fi
nal
l
ymybestf
ri
endi
sget
ti
ng
marr
ied!
!
Si
hle:
iknow,
I'
m sohappy
!!
Tara(Jordan'
ssi
ster
):someonei
satt
hedoor
askingforyouSi
hle.
Acommot i
onwasheardthroughoutt
hevenue
andonepersonwascausingit
.Someonewho
Sihl
eandNtokozohav
en'tseeninawhil
e.
Si
hle:
aaah!
!!Ohmygosh!Tebza?
Theyhuggedasi
fitwast
hel
asthugt
hey
'dev
er
shar
e.
Ty
ler
(Weddi
ngpl
anner)
:uhhwhoi
she?
Tebza:
onlyl
i
kethebestpersonint
he
worl
d(rol
l
shiseyes)whatwouldaweddi
ngbe
wi
thoutt
heQUEEEEN!
!
Het
wir
lsar
oundandshowsev
ery
onehi
str
ail
.
Thedr amai nhi mi soutt hi
swor ld.Everyone
helpedi nget tingSi hlereadyandatl astshewas
ready .Shel ookedathersel fandshewas
sasfiedofwhoshehadbecome.Herf at
her
camei ntot her oom andshedat earwhenhe
sawhi sbeaut i
fuldaught er.Hedi dn'twanthis
daught ertomar ryJaybecauseofhi sguilt
.But
hecoul dn'
tst andi nt hewayofherdaught er'
s
happi nessr ight ?Whatscar edhim mostwas
notknowi ngi fJor danknewaboutwhathedi d
ornot .Hehear dstor i
esaboutJC, howhe
ruthl
essl yki l
ls.Thatal onesentchi l
lstohis
spine.I twasr eall
yanacci dent,henev ermeant
tohur tJor dan' ssisterbutt henagai nJordan
i
sn'tex actlyunder standingsot elli
nghi misn'
t
anopt i
on.
H:
mybeaut
if
uldaught
er,
arey
our
eadyt
ogo?
Sihle:
yesdaddyi nfact
,Ican'
twaittomarrymy
Jay!!I
'veneverbeensureofanythi
nglikethi
s.
Afterallwe'
vebeent hr
ough,If
inal
lygettobe
withthemanIl ove.

Wheny ourl
egsdon'
twor
kli
ket
heyusedt
o
bef
ore.
AndIcan'
tsweepy
ouof
fofy
ourf
eet
.
Wil
lyourmout
hst
il
lremembert
het
ast
eofmy
l
ove?
Wi
l
lyourey
esst
il
lsmi
l
efr
om y
ourcheeks?
Anddar
li
ngIwi
l
lbel
ovi
ngy
ou'
ti
lwe'
re70
Andbabymyhear
tcoul
dst
il
lfal
lashar
dat23
AndI
'
mthi
nki
ng'
bouthowpeopl
efal
li
nlov
ein
my
ster
iousway
s.
May
bej
ustt
het
ouchofahand.
OhmeIf
all
inl
ovewi
thy
ouev
erysi
ngl
eday
.
AndIj
ustwannat
ell
youIam.
Sohoneynow
Takemei
ntoy
ourl
ovi
ngar
ms
Ki
ssmeundert
hel
i
ghtofat
housandst
ars
Pl
acey
ourheadonmybeat
inghear
t
I
'
mthi
nki
ngoutl
oud
May
bewef
oundl
over
ightwher
ewear
e.
Edsheer an'
ssong-t hi
nkingoutloud
accompani esSihledownt heisl
ewithher
fatherbyherside.Jordansmi lesasheseeshis
wife.Aft
erallt
hehar dshipstheyfacedtoget
her
theymanagedt ost aytogetherandtoday'
s
occasionwast esti
monyt othat.
Pr
iest
:dear
lybel
ovedwear
ejoi
nedher
eto
wi
tnesstheul
ti
matesymbolofl
oveandfi
nal
l
y
j
ointhi
scoupl
einaholymatr
imony.MayI
pl
easeaskwhoishandingov
erthebri
de?
Si
hle'
spar
ent
s:wear
e
Pri
est:
tobecomeonei
sn'
tasimpleactthat
onewakesupanddeci
destodo.I
tisaccepti
ng
yourot
herhal
f'
sfl
awsandgrowi
ngoldtogether
.
Thisi
s..
.
.
..
..
:STOP!
!
Thedoorwasopenedv i
olentl
yandawoman
wear i
ngareddressentered.Ever
yonewas
start
ledandshockedtowi t
nesst heunknown
womanwhodar edtointerr
uptaweddinglike
this.
Her
:nowt
hisi
swhatIcal
lagr
andent
rance.
Shef
ir
edt
woshot
sint
heai
r.
Her
:EVERYONEOUT!
!
Jor
dan:
No!
!
Sihl
e:Jayl
ett
hem go,
wedon'
twantany
onet
o
gethurt
.
Ever
yoneranoutoft
her
oom scar
ed.I
sthe
weddingover
?
Thewomanspokewithgreatpri
deandpoise,
put
ti
ngemphasi
sonherMexi canaccent
.She
poi
nti
ngagunatthecouple.
Her
:didyour
eal
l
ythi
nkt
hatIwoul
djustl
ety
ou
goMike?
(
Michael
ist
henamet hatJayusedt
ohav
e
whenhewasinhi
dinginMexico)
.
Her:
didyouthinkt
hatIwoul
dlety
oul
eaveme
andourunbornbaby?Youdon'
tev
enknowt
hat
she'
s3year
snow!
Si
hleshotadeat hstareattheshockedJordan,
wasthisevenr eal
?Ami ll
i
onthoughtsfl
ooded
i
nJordan'smi nd.Didthiswomanwhohehada
onenightstandwi t
hpi tchupinhiswedding?In
fr
ontofhiswi f
e?Maki ngsuchclaims?.
Especial
lybecauseStacyisknownf orher
devi
ousway st hatsheusestocatchrichmen
andclearl
yJaywashernextt arget.Hewasli
vid
andheknewt hatJCwasi ncontr
ol.Andonce
gangsterJCisi ncont
rolhehasnomer cy
.
Sihl
e:WTF? ?I
sthi
strueJordan?Youlef
tme
andy oursonandsl
eptarandom bit
ches??
WhileIcri
edandthoughtyouweredead?
Jordan:no!Li
sten,Idon'
tknowwhatshet
alki
ng
about.Thebit
chi sly
ing!
!
Her
:whoar
eyoucal
l
ingbi
tch?
S&J:
shutup!
!!
Jay:
she'slyi
ng!Whynow?Al
lthi
sti
meshe
di
dn'tsayanythi
ng!
J:r
ightnowIneedy
out
obeonmysi
de.Doy
ou
bel
ieveme?
S:
*si
ghs*y
es,
Ido
Her
:Thi
sisn'
tti
met
obeal
ll
oveydov
ey
becausewi feyhereisgoingtodie.Butletme
i
ntroducemy sel
ffir
st.Mynamei sAnast aci
a
Olândrobutt heycallmeStacy,youseeIam t he
mot herofyourfiancé'
schil
d.Andt henewMr s
Cull
en, hi
shear t
skeeper.Andy ouwill
soonbe
thedeadex.Butl uckil
yIam kindheartedsoI
will
gladlyraiseyourbastar
d.
ShepointedagunatSihl
e,l
aughedanevil
laugh,
cer
tai
nt hatherpl
answeregoi
ngtosucceed.
Her
:di
ebi
tch!
!
Jordanpull
edoutagun, Si
hlealsopull
edout
hergun.Jordanwasut terl
yshocked.Sihl
e?
Holdingagunliket hat
?Damn! !Whendidthi
s
happen?She'saf astlearnerInfact
,thi
sisa
compl et
eturnonf orhim.
Si
hle:
(l
ooki
ngatJor
dan)we'
rei
nthi
stoget
her
Jor
dan:
for
ever
Si
hle:
andev
er
InamatterofsecondsJC'
scr
ewwher
e
ever
ywheresurroundi
ngSt
acy
.
St
acy
:yout
hinky
ourgoonscanst
opmehuh?
Shetookoutherl
i
psti
ckandpr
essedi
tandher
backupal
sojoi
nedin.
St
acy
:lett
hegamesbegi
n
Inaspli
tsecondthev enuehadbecomeawar
zone.Shotswerefir
edev er
ywhere.Bl
ood
spi
ll
edallover
.Intheend,onlyafewmembers
ofJC'scr
ewwer eleftandStacy'
screw?Al
l
dead.
JC:
it'
sov
erhoe
St
acy
:NOBODYSAYSI
TSOVEREXCEPTME!
!!
SheshotSi
hleonherst
omach
J:
Badmov
e
Si
hle:
ahhh!
!
St
acy
:yes,
yesdi
e!!
Si
hle:
(l
aughs)IfonlyIwasn'
twear
ingabull
et
pr
oofvest.Butlucki
lyMYhusbandtaughtme
wel
l.
St
acy
:wha.
..what
?!!
J:
wannaf
ini
sht
hej
obmyQueen?
,hesmi
rked
Si
hle:
let
'sdoi
ttoget
hermyKi
ng.
Let'
sjustsaythatSihleandJor dan'
swedding
endedwi thaBANG! ,l
iteral
ly
.Andsogoest he
storyofthegangsterKi ngandQueen.Si hl
e's
heartl
essgangsterboy fri
endt urnedi
ntoher
heartl
essgangsterhusband.Di dsheaccept
him?Ohshedi dmor ethant hat.Shebecamea
partofhim.Tosayt hatt hi
sist heendwouldbe
fal
sebecausei ti
sabegi nofmanygr eatt
imes
fortheCullenf
amily.

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