I miss you

I miss you,
Every goddamned day, I miss you.

Your smile,
The way you get wrinkles around your lips.

Your eyes,
Divine colour of blue I get lost in
every time you look at me.

Your voice,
every time it says my name.

Your tattoos,
the way they adorn your body so beautifully.

Your hands,
and how I melt into them when they pick my chin up.

Your lips,
how soft those kisses are left on mine.

I miss you,
and I wish I could tell you that I do.

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 How

How do I tell you

that I don't want you to ever leave
just like they all did?

Waking up next to you

is all I ever want.

How do I even tell you

I like you?

When all you ever talk about

are other girls
who are not me.

Do I want to tell you

that my heart shatters a little
each day
I keep my feelings to myself?

I don't see you as only a friend

and you don't see me as one, at all.

I buy you gifts

you can't even meet up with me
Saying sorry and making up an excuse
or not saying anything at all.

How do I tell you

that you occupy ninety percent
of my brain?

Do I just show you this book

and hope for the best;
or stay silent forever
and watch you be happy with someone else?

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 I'm lost

That feeling I have like I'm the only one

holding up a conversation,
or the only one wanting to meet up.
It's tearing through my heart,
bit, by bit.
Wanting it to end so badly.

I want to fall out of love so badly.