i dont know how to explain whta im feleing right now.

all i can say is that it

hurts,everything hurts.
my heart feels so heavy that i wanted to do is cry. iwant ot rest but i d ont know
what rest ill take..

maybe its not mixed signal this has to be said; im jsut being delusional and its
all in my head. im giving meaning to those little thins becasue i have feelings.but
for yall it was an argument.how can we freely express ourselves if we keep on
supressing our feelins with out words..

i know it is hard lang,i know it keeps on draining you but i hope you keep on
finding more reasons to be alive. i want to see you see win in life.no matter how
small the progressyouve mad today is still considered.as long as there is small
hope in your heart,its not the end for us or for you.youll get there lang, you
will some feel the genuine joy and love you deserve, you will say soon that it
doesnt hurt anymore. i will keep believnig on you, just keep on holding on i know
yoiu got this.

thank you for being my listener and comforter,

thank you for making me me feel appreaciated,seen, loved and heard. you might not
realize how mych you mean to me, but i am really grateful and blessed that i have
you.

thank you for listening to my countless rants.thank you for making yourself
available for someone.thank you for making me feel that i am not alone,thank you
for everything, i always appreciate you. with that i also want to say that ehener
you have some problmes,you can also share them with me, i am lways willing to
listen. past mistake wont be repeated again, trust me. youve seen how difficult it
is for me to deal with my own problems. youve seen how i cried over some shits i
cant control. you noticed the different scars i created in my wirst, in my thighs,
and the worst in my heart that seems not to be healed in a snap of a finger. you
know how i suffer from problems that i dont deserve, but the best part
of having you is that you dont judge mewhen i am at my lowest. you let mecry. you
gave me a hug, you created a home where i am free to be me, where o am free to
express to you the real me. the me that is not jolly , the me that is not loud and
happy,the me that is hurting so badly. that poem goes to you lang, thank you for
everything. i aprreacitae you!

if letting you go is the right thing for your peace, and if its for you own good,
ill stop. if its for your own happiness even if im not ready to let you go, even if
it hurts, even if its difficult. evem though i may not be able to handle it. i will
let you go. but dont thunk that even if i let you go, it doesnt mean i dont love
you anymore. ill let you go because that is whats better for the both of us. i fi
let you got it doesnt mean ill loving you, it doesnt mean ill stop waiting for you.
cause ill always be here waiting for you. cause ill always be here from afar and
silently. ill be here to secretly long for you, ill be here to watch you reach your
goals from afar . i will never stopm yfeelings from you. its better for u.

i never wanted us to end.but even after everything we did. we couldnt stop the
seperation, maybe our love for each other wasnt enough. but i love you, and i
thought that was enough for the universe to let us stay together.honestly no matter
whatt you do wrong . i would never want you to disappear from my life. the moment i
see a sky full of stars, ill wish for you.
you will always abe welcomed in my life..