Chess Pieces #5: Loki Von Amstel

by HiroYuu101

Fourth

The mischievous man who's always pretending.

SPG | R-18

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Fourth

WARNING: This story contains mature scenes A LOT. Reader

discretion is advised.
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EL Ordre is an organization that was built to help the government. They were
the ones who did dangerous and illegal works for them. The government didn't have
any clue who the members are. At dahil gumagawa ng mga bagay na labag sa batas,
kahit na tumutulong ay ipinapahuli pa din nila.
Pero mahirap mahuli ang mga myembro. Kahit isa ay wala pang nadadakip sa
kanila. The members were trained to develop their skills and strength. Para lang
silang nanghuhuli sa hangin.
But little did they know, the EL Ordre wasn't good at all. May laro silang
sinimulan na ang mga myembro sa loob ng organisasyon ang mga manlalaro.
It was called the "Bloody Human Chess Game".
Their opponent is called The Red Faction. Just like the EL Ordre, they're an
organization with members who were also trained to develop their skills and
strength. Pero simula pa noon ay magkalaban na talaga ang dalawang organisasyon.
Bloody game dahil paniguradong dadanak ng dugo sa paglalaro. The members will
act as the chess pieces. They have to use their guns and brain to survive.
The game will only end if one has killed the opponent's King and say
"Checkmate".
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Dahil hindi ko kayo matiis, eto na po. Bibigyan ko na ng story si Loki. :)

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Prologue

Why was I born as a woman?

That was the question that pop up in my head while I was staring at myself in a
full-length mirror. I wore nothing that's why I could see the curves of my body and
noticed how slim I am.
My blonde and curly hair flowed down to my waist. It covers the whole of my
back but I couldn't see it in the mirror. All I could see is the front part of my
body. The skin without any flaws, my perky breast, my small waist and my thighs and
legs, I could see it all.
The side of my lips rose as I stared at myself with rage in my eyes.
Disgusting. This frail and weak body is so disgusting.
I lifted my chin while trying to look intimidating. My face remained stoic
while I raised an eyebrow but it was still useless. Mukhang mahina pa rin ako. I
looked like an innocent child trying so hard to be a bully.
"Pathetic." I whispered.
 I heard a knock on the door that stopped me from my reverie. I just stared at
it until someone opened it. Hindi na ako nag-abalang takpan man lang ang kahubdan
ko.
Pierre wasn't surprised when he saw my naked body. His gaze on me didn't even
linger for three seconds. He walked towards my walk-in cabinet and got a dress for
me.
"You should get dress. It's cold." he said as he helped me put on my dress.
But actually, I didn't give any help. Nakatayo lang ako at hindi gumagalaw
while staring at his face. He looked so serious as he put the clothes on me. Sya na
ang nagbihis sa akin habang nakatitig lang ako sa kanya. He was also the one who
puts my undies on me.
But despite me being naked in front of him, I didn't see any disgusting
emotions on his face. There was no... lust or desire in his eyes. All I can see was
his concern for me. Dahil kanina pa ako nakahubad at nakatitig lang sa salamin.
"Are you gay?" I blurted out.
Napatigil sya sa ginagawa nyang pagbubutones sa harapan ng dress ko. The dress
is a black button down dress that has a slit on the left side. Kaya nagtagal sya da
pagbubutones doon. But he continued what he's doing after he stared at me for a
couple of seconds.
"I am not." he answered. I snorted and decided to brush my hair.
I know teenagers like his age are curious about sex. We are on the same age.
And here I am, flaunting my body in front of him but all he did was to dress me up
like a barbie doll.
He's always like this. Kapag nakikita nya akong nakahubad at nakatitig lang sa
salamin ay bibihisan nya agad ako. Saying that I will catch a cold if I stay like
that.
Maybe he's really a gay that just wanted to doll me up.
He stared at me after he's done buttoning my dress. I stared back at him while
brushing my long blonde hair. My face was stoic and he looked like he's trying to
read what's on my mind.
"Am I not beautiful then?" I asked. I saw a hint of emotion in his eyes but
disappeared right after. He sighed and took the hairbrush from me.
"You are and will always be the most beautiful woman for me." he said as he
brush my hair. Sya na ang nagpatuloy sa ginagawa ko kanina.
I smirked that turned into a chuckle. Yeah... That's how it is. I only have
beauty and brains but I don't have the strength. Woman like me could only use their
charm against their enemies. That is my only advantage.
Why was I born as a woman?
"Are they ready?" I asked while he was fixing my hair. He tucked a few strands
behind my ears before he looked at me in the eye.

"Ikaw na lang ang hinihintay."

I smiled and tapped his cheeks. "The party will not start without me. Let's
go."
I finally walked out of my room. I have no idea how long I've been staring at
my reflection in the mirror until Pierre came in. Maybe it has been an hour? Hindi
nya naman ako iistorbohin kung hindi ako nagtagal ng ganoon.
So probably, my visitors have been waiting for me for an hour already.
I chuckled. This is how it should be. People should wait for me 'cause I'm a
very important person. Hindi dapat ako ang paghintayin. All must be ready bago pa
ako makarating.
I descended the stairs and saw my visitors waiting for me in the living room. A
sweet smile has crept on my face when they stood up while waiting for me to reach
the last stair. Inilaan nila ang upuan na nasa may pinakapuno ng mahabang table na
iyon para sa akin. The chair looked extravagant. Like only a Queen like me could
sit in here.
"Take a sit, my dear chess pieces." I said. Mabilis nilang sinunod ang utos ko
kaya natuwa talaga ako.
Yes. That's right. Take my every words as an order that you should follow.
I stared at them one by one. My chess pieces are complete. These are people
that will follow me. These are the people that will serve me.
Joshua, who looked so young, will be one of the Pawn. I decided that I will
call him Sieg.
Liam and Kenji will be the Rooks and my pillars. With a codename as Black and
Dyke.
Bryle and Codee will be the Knights. And with a codename as Ross and Alter.
Pierre will be my Bishop. The Queen's Bishop. And I will call him as Enkidu.
And the last remaining girl who looked so young. I bet that she has the same
age as Alter. She looked so out of place with her head hung so low while fidgeting.
I smiled sweetly. I want young people like her. Madaling mapapasunod.
"Lirae..." I called her. She looked up and I saw the fear in her eyes. My smile
widened. "Your new name will be Yucca. You will guard the King."
She opened her mouth but choose to close it again. I chuckled and called her
again.
"Lirae... From now on, we will call you Yucca. You should get use to it." I
looked at Codee who looked as confused as Yucca. I smiled at her. "Codee, my dear.
Come."
Mabilis syang umalis sa upuan nya at pumunta sa gilid ko. Natuwa ako. I think
she will be my favorite piece.
"I will call you Alter, okay? You will be my Knight."
"Knight po, Ate Eresh?" she asked. I can't help but to pinch her cute cheeks.
"Yes. You have to protect me so you must learn about computers, okay?"
She beamed at me. "Of course, Ate Eresh! Gagalingan ko pa po."
I chuckled and pulled her into a hug. I caressed her hair while hoping that she
will remain as innocent as this forever.
But I am sure that she will hate me when she grew up.
Pinabalik ko na si Alter sa upuan nya at humarap sa kanilang lahat. Enkidu was
just standing beside me, making me feel that he's ready to do everything that I
will say.
"My dear chess pieces." I started. "Our time has come. We will now going to
play the Bloody Human Chess game. As you all know, we will serve as the chess
pieces while defeating our enemy, the EL Ordre."
"Chess pieces? Kung chess pieces tayo, parang may kulang yata." Black
intervened. "Where's the most important piece in the game? Where's the King?"

The smile I'm wearing fade from my face. I looked at Black

who dared to interrupt me while I'm having my speech.
"King Lancer is not here." I said with finality. Pero mukhang hindi nya
naintindihan ang gusto kong iparating.
"He should be here and he should be the one sitting in that chair." he said and
pointed at the chair where I'm sitting. "You're just the Queen."
Why was I born as a woman?
"The Queen is the most powerful piece in the game of chess." Enkidu said.
"Watch your words."
Black shrugged his shoulders. "Nagtataka lang ako. The King's Bishop is here
pero wala ang mismong King?"
I gritted but teeth but still managed to smile sweetly.
"My dear Rook, you are just a mere Rook yet you dared to question my
authority?"
He laughed. "I am not questioning your authority. I was just asking why King
Lancer is not here."
I gave him my sweetest smile. The sweetest yet the most dangerous smile I have.
"Gather as many Pawns as you can."
"What?" Black asked, looking so confused.
 "We need Pawns that we will use as a bait. Huwag kang babalik dito nang wala
kang nakukuha."
"What the actual fu—"
"I may not be the King, but I am still the Queen. A much more higher piece than
you. I have the right to give you punishment if I want it, my dear Rook."
Black remained silent and just stared at me. I saw the anger in his eyes but he
can't do anything against me. So instead, he sighed and leaned his back on the
backrest of the chair.
Yeah, this is how it should be. Everyone should fear my words.
"You are all dismissed except for Yucca and Alter." I said.
Mabilis na tumayo ang iba pero nanatili sa upuan nila sina Yucca at Alter.
While Enkidu remained standing on my side. It is fine by me. He's been my loyal
servant ever since then.
"Yucca..." I called her. Her hands were shaking as she looked up to me. "I have
a mission for you."
Naramdaman ko ang pagkabigla ni Enkidu sa tabi ko. Of course, Yucca was like
seven or eight years old only pero bibigyan ko na kaagad sya ng mission.
I chuckled at the thought.
"Protect our King. Do everything you've got just to protect him When you come
to the right age, I have something that I need you to do. I have a plan and only
you can do it, Yucca."
I stared at her eyes that has a very rare color. It was fill with fear. Her
hands were shaking nonstop so I held both of them.
"Can I trust you on this, Yucca?" I asked while staring at her eyes. She looked
at me. Nakita ko ang pagdadalawang isip nya pero maya-maya ay tumango din.
"Thank you." I said and hugged her tight.
Youngsters. So easy to manipulate.
"Ereshkigal!"
The small hairs at the back of my neck stood up as I heard that authoritative
voice. I quickly let go of Yucca and stand up straight as I looked at the owner of
the voice.
"Father..."
Rage is very evident in his eyes. I looked at him, making sure that there is no
emotion in my face.
Why was I born as a woman?
"In my office! Now!"
I smiled reassuringly at Alter and Yucca who looked more scared than me. I
caressed their hairs before I followed my father in his office. Nanatiling
nakasunod si Enkidu sa likod ko.
"Stay here." I said when we were at the front of the door of my father's office
inside the house. I saw the worried look in his eyes.
"But, Eresh..."
"Call me as Your Majesty. I am your Queen, Enkidu." I said as I opened the door
and went inside my father's office. I left Enkidu outside the room.
I approached my father who was standing on the side of his table. His back was
facing me but I could tell by his breathing and his stance that he's really, really
mad.
I smirked. Oh, I know what will be the ending for today.
My father abruptly faced me so he saw the smirk on my face. Pero hindi ko na
pinagkaabalahan pang itago iyon. He saw it anyway so why bother hiding it?
Nadagdagan ang galit sa mga mata nya at hindi na ako nagulat nang malakas na
dumapo ang palad nya sa pisngi ko. Wow! That really hurts! Halos matumba pa nga ako
sa pagkakatayo pero hindi ko hinayaan ang sarili ko na mapaluhod.
I remained standing. Still with a poise.
Remember, Eresh... You are beautiful. You are smart.
"You dared to laugh even with everything that you've done!" my father angrily
said. "You are a selfish, murderer, bitch!"
Why, father? I got those from you, right?
My face remained stoic. I didn't let myself to feel the pain of his words kahit
na mas masakit pa iyon sa pagkakasampal nya sa akin.
Held your head high, Eresh... You are beautiful. You are smart.
"Remember that you are the cause for all of this! Kung hindi ka sana
pinanganak, then my plan will be fulfilled!"
Why was I born as a woman?
"I hate the sight of you! Get out!"
You told me to follow you in here yet you will tell me that you hate the sight
of me? So funny.
I quickly turned around and went out of the room. I saw Enkidu the moment I
opened the door. Napatingin sya sa mga labi ko at nakita ko ang pag-aalala sa mukha
nya.
"Your Majes—"
"Can I trust you?" I asked him. He looked so taken aback pero mabilis din syang
nakabawi.
"Yes, Your Majesty. I offer you my life. I'm willing to serve and protect you
until the day I die."
I smirked. I could feel the pain on the cut of my lips but I didn't pay much
attention to it.
"Then do that. Help me defeat the EL Ordre." I said and walked away.
I gritted my teeth and balled my fists when tears started to pool my eyes. I
swallowed hard the lump in my throat.
No, I mustn't cry. Fuck it, Eresh! Stop! My father might see me!
I must be strong. I must look strong. He hated weak women. He will kill my
pieces if he'll see me like this. I should stop. I mustn't cry. I mustn't show any
weakness.
If he sees me as a weak person then, I should use the only advantage that I
have. If I use it wisely, then people will start to fear me and obey my words. I
must try hard. I must. 'Cause this is the only chance that I have to win this game.
Why was I born as a woman?

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Chapter 1

I was caressing the tiger cub that was lying on my lap. Its
fur is so soft it almost felt like I was touching a cotton. I look at the baby
tiger and saw that it was sleeping peacefully on my lap. A soft smile had escaped
from my lips but it quickly disappeared when I remembered where I am.
I looked ahead at the long table and saw my pieces having a hard time to come
up with a plan. Enkidu was standing beside me and there's no doubt that he could
also see how disorganized they are. I slowly closed my eyes and counted from one to
ten to stop the throbbing in my head.
It has been a year but they are still like this. They couldn't properly make a
move without my supervision. They don't have the capability to come up with a good
startegy and plan. They were just here, waiting for my orders.
I asked them to think for a better plan 'cause we will make our first move as
early as possible. I wanted the Red Faction to be the white piece in this game. So
we have to strike first.
I am aware that some of the parents from the enemy haven't passed down their
position to their successor yet. Their reason is that they were still too young to
be in this game. But when I looked at Alter and Yucca, it is not a valid reason.
So we will strike even if they are not ready yet. This is a game. We are ready.
We couldn't wait any longer to start this Bloody Human Chess game.
I couldn't wait any longer to execute my plan.
The game of chess is all about a good strategy and carrying out a great plan.
If the player who play this game is unprepared, then he will most likely just lose
in the end.
 But we are more than ready now. My pieces are all excited to make their moves.
I could see the bloodlust in their eyes as they are trying to think of a good plan
to checkmate the enemy's King. I could clearly tell that they are thirsty for
blood.
How did my pieces became like this? They were so violent and desperate to kill.
So desperate that they can't even think of a good plan and just wanted to kill the
EL Ordre's chess pieces.
A smile has slowly crept on my face. They are exactly what I need. No brains at
all but have shitloads of strength.
I will be the brain in this group. That was one of my advantage afterall.
Even if I do not have the strength to fight, at least I have my brain. I could
come up with a good plan. I have the beauty. I could seduce anyone with this face.
And those are enough for the people to fear me.
They should all fear my words.
"Silence." I softly said when I couldn't take the noise anymore. They were all
just blabbering nonsense things. Nagpupustahan kung sino daw ang may pinakamaraming
mapapatay sa kanila.
Dyke and Black were arguing with that topic ever since I let them think of a
good strategy. But both of them seem like they do not have the ability to think of
things like this. They only have the strength but they do not know how to use their
brains.
Black was just sitting on his chair in silence that made one of my eyebrow
rose. He always has a say when were working out with a plan but he seems like he's
not in the mood today.
And that's when I noticed the dark circles under his eyes. His hair was unruly
like he didn't have the time to brush his hair. I noticed that he lose weight and
that's when I realized what's happening to him.
He's definitely using drugs. Not a surprise to me since I know that he's also a
drug dealer.
Alter is busy with her laptop again and Ross and Sieg were looking at the
screen trying to understand what she's doing. But I know, kahit abutin pa sila ng
taon sa pagtitig doon, hinding-hindi nila maiintindihan iyon.

And then there's Yucca. The only girl who seems so out of
place in here. She always looks so scared when she's looking at me.
I smirked. See? I really want young people like her. So easy to manipulate.
"Let me hear your plans, my dear chess pieces." I said when they finally shut
their noisy mouths.
Ross raised his hand so I gave him the signal that he could speak.
"Kill them." he said. I couldn't help but to roll my eyes when I saw how
confident he was with his plan.
"That's a good plan, really." I said sarcastically. Ross chuckled and just
shrugged his shoulders.
The tiger cub stirred on his sleep so I patted his head and hum a lullaby
trying to make it go back to sleep. All of my chess pieces were just watching me
but I couldn't care less. I chuckled when I saw that the baby tiger was sleeping
again.
"Why don't we kill the former Rooks?"
I looked at Dyke when he suddenly suggested that ridiculous idea. It was more
ridiculous than what Ross had said earlier.
Is there anyone of them who knows how to use their brains properly?
"It's against the rules." Sieg said and that made me smile.
I really love the youngsters. They are more smart than these scumbags.
"Thank you, Sieg." I said and smiled at him. I noticed how his cheeks reddened
as he looked away from me.
I chuckled. I am so damn right when I said that I could seduce anyone with this
face.
 Dyke sighed. "Hindi naman nila malalaman. I can see that Alter is good enough
with computers. I'm sure that it will be easy for her to hack and get the
information of the former Rooks."
Alter looked at me like she's expecting me to give her an order about Dyke's
plan. I just smiled at her.
For years, I can say that Alter really did improved her hacking skills. Lahat
ng mga pinapahanap ko sa kanya ay mabilis nya namang nahahanap. She can gave me all
the information that I need within an hour. And I am pretty sure that what Dyke
said is true.
She can get the former Rook's information that easily.
"Against nga sa rules." said Black who finally spoke but he looked so
irritated. "We don't know what punishment the gamemasters will give us."
"Kung lalabag tayo sa rules, bakit hindi na lang natin alamin kung sino-sino
ang mga EL Ordre's chess pieces ngayon?" said Ross who really doesn't know how to
use his brain.
"Mahihirapan si Alter." Enkidu said who's still standing beside me. "Besides,
it wasn't uploaded on the database yet. Kapag natapos na ang laro, saka lang
magkakaroon ng information about the latest pieces."
"I heard that the EL Ordre's chess pieces don't reveal what piece they are to
their co-teammates." Black said and I raised an eyebrow to his statement.
Wow... That's so lame. So they didn't know who their King is? Who their Queen
is? They didn't know who they have to protect the most?
That's no fun. While me, I wanted everyone to know that I am their Queen so
that they know that they need to bow down before me.
"Let's kill the EL Ordre's former Rooks to remind them that the game is already
starting." sabi ni Dyke na ibinabalik ang usapan sa sinabi nya.
I took a deep breath to calm my nerves. I looked at Enkidu who's already
staring at me. He can sense that I am getting impatient because of their stupid
plan.
If I only knew that they were this dumb, I shouldn't have let them think about
anything and only make them follow my orders.
If only they will let me use their strength and let me be the brain of this
group, then we can win this game.
"Alter, find the EL Ordre's former Rooks information." Dyke said who didn't
wait for my appoval.
"Dyke..." I called him with a calm voice. "I didn't approve of your plan yet."
"Don't worry, Your Majesty." he said. "I will make sure that I will succeed.
This will scare them."
"The gamemaster will punish us." I said, stating the fact.
It is against the rules to find information about the former chess pieces. Of
course, if we do that, then we will know the true identity of our enemies. So the
gamemasters doesn't allow that and considered it at cheating.
Fuck the gamemasters. Fuck this stupid game.
I looked at Alter. "Do what he says, Alter."
Mabilis na sumunod si Alter sa sinabi ko. That child will do everything that I
say. That's why she's really my favorite piece. Unlike Yucca who only knows how to
cower under my gaze.
It's irritating the hell out of me. I have this ridiculous feeling that if she
come to the right age and have enough courage, she will defy my words and orders.
I don't trust the look in her eyes.
"Fuck this shit!" I heard Black said and all of us looked at him.
"What's wrong?" I asked. Naiinis syang tumingin sa akin but I bet that he's mad
in the situation that he's in.
"May gustong tumiwalag sa grupo ko, tangina. Nakuha na kasi yung pera
pampagamot sa anak nyang may dengue!"
I snorted. He's talking about those drug pushers that he hired. Now, he's
having a problem because someone wanted to be out of his group.
"Clean your own mess, Black." I said. He sighed loudly and looked at Alter
who's busy with her laptop.
 "Hoy, bata." he called her attention. "Pagkatapos mo dyan, hanapin mo kung
nasaan ang Fiestada family."
I just smirked and looked at the tiger who's still sleeping on my lap. My
pieces cannot move without the order from their Queen but undoubtedly, we can be a
formidable team if we just have a good strategy.
Kahit gaano pa sila kabobo at katanga, once I've come up with a good strategy,
then we can kill the EL Ordre's King.
My gaze move to the second floor of the house where the office of my father is.
I put on an stoic face and stared at the close door of his office. But I know for a
fact that he is inside. Not wanting to see my face.
I smiled sweetly. My dear father. Just tell me if you wanted me out of the
house. Then I will gladly look for another hideout for my team.
Alter stood up from her seat and walked towards me. I noticed the smile on her
face as she gave me her laptop.
And there, I saw the information of the former Rooks of EL Ordre.
"Good job, Alter." I said and hugged her tight. She hugged me back and let go
so I could read what was on the screen of her laptop.
Sanford... The EL Ordre's former Rooks were a Sanford. That information
surprised me. They own one of the biggest company in the country and is known in
the business world.
Wow, huh?
I read all the information before I saw the most important thing. The side of
my lips rose as I read that information.
"Children... Hunter Chase Sanford and Grayson James Sanford."
I stared at the pictures of the two boys who both have the same gray eyes. One
is so much younger than the other one and he just piqued my interest. He's only a
year older than Alter and Yucca.
Grayson James...
I looked at my father's office again. I stared at it for about a minute before
my lips formed into a smirked.
Now, I finally come up with a good plan.

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Chapter 2

I was watching Nergal as it chased it's prey that was

running around the room. The poor rabbit was running for its life and I could see
the fear in its eyes while doing its best not to get caught by Nergal. It knew that
he will be Nergal's dinner for tonight.
I smirked. The scene in front of me looked so beautiful. I can't help but to
get mesmerized while watching Nergal who was obviously just playing with his
dinner. Like he's giving the rabbit a false hope that it can actually escape him if
it will just do its best. I smiled menacingly. I really taught him well.
I crossed my arms over my chest when Nergal stopped chasing his dinner. The
rabbit stopped running and looked at Nergal like it was trying to read his next
move. But Nergal just sat down like he was tired with the chasing.
The rabbit looked like it was given a new hope. It took its chance to run
towards the door that was wide open. But just as about it could leave the room,
Nergal got up on his four feet. He jumped and used its claws and jaws to finally
kill his dinner and eat it. I could hear the scream of terror from the rabbit as
Nergal tear its body apart.
I can't help but to laugh! Oh my God! That was a good show! I am so proud with
Nergal! He really takes after me! And the rabbit cries! Music to my ears!
It's more fun this way, right? When the hope turns into despair.
Emotions will die more if the fear is instense.
Ah... False hope. So powerful to kill oneself.
 Nergal finished eating his food and was already licking the rabbit's blood off
its paws. I smiled and showed him my hand while my thumb is rubbing my other
fingers. I clicked my tongue multiple times to call him.
The tiger looked at me and slowly walked towards me. I chuckled when he let me
pet his head.
"Very good, Nergal." I complimented him and the cat purred.
I looked at Enkidu who was silently standing beside me. He saw it all but there
was no emotion in his eyes. I just shrugged my shoulders. He's always like this
anyway. Magsasalita lang kapag tinatanong ko.
"What can you say about Nergal, Enkidu?" I said while petting my pet. "Isn't he
a smart one?"
"Indeed, he is, Your Majesty." he answered. See? Kung hindi ko pa tinanong ay
baka napanisan na sya ng laway.
"Really?" I looked at him. "How can you say so?"
"He knows who he needs to follow." Enkidu said. I raised an eyebrow at him to
let him know that I need explanation. "He could easily tell who has the authority
like you and your father. Kayo lang ang sinusunod nya."
I looked at Nergal again and the tiger began rubbing its head on my hand. I
tried to tickle its neck and he looked like he's enjoying it.
"So he likes royalty, huh?" I just thought of something. "Will he be able to
know who the EL Ordre's King is? Will Nergal let the enemy's King pet him?"
Well, that's what Enkidu had said. I didn't even know that father acknowledge
Nergal but I noticed the tiger who's always snarling at my lower pieces. With
Enkidu as well but not when I'm around.
"It is a possibility, Your Majesty." my Bishop answered me.
"Hmm..."
Umikot-ikot si Nergal sa paanan ko at doon naupo. He looked sleepy just like he
always is after he finished eating his food. Maybe he was tired with playing with
his prey at well.
I must give him a reward for entertaining me today.
"Your Majesty!"
I was surprised when someone entered the room. It was Ross, my Knight, who was
looking excited when he saw me pero napatingin sya kay Nergal sa paanan ko. The
tiger raised its head to look at the intruder, stared at him before going back to
sleep. I chuckled when Ross heaved a deep sigh of relief.

They all fear my tiger. They fear everything about me.

"What's the rush, Ross?" I asked. Bumalik ang pagiging excited sa mukha nya
"I think I have an idea who the EL Ordre's King is."
Well, that surprised me. Among my chess pieces, I see Ross as someone who is
only using his strength without using his brain. He's someone na susugod sa isang
war na baril lang ang dala at wala man lang plano. And hearing him say this is
actually a surprise.
I don't even have an idea who the EL Ordre's members are. I only know who their
Queen is.
"Who?"
He gave me a smug look. "It's just a hunch. But don't worry, sa oras na
mapatunayan ko, sasabihin ko kaagad sa inyo, Your Majesty. For now, I need to
confirm it."
I sighed. I knew it. See? He told me earlier that he has an idea who the EL
Ordre's King is but then he is now telling me that it's only a hunch. Parang hindi
nya man lang pinag-iisipan ang mga sinasabi nya. He is always wasting my time.
"What will you do to confirm it?" I asked.
"I think he has a girlfriend."
"The Queen?" Ishtar?
He shook his head. "No. An ordinary woman."
And that pique my interest. The EL Ordre's King dared to love a woman other
than the Queen?
"He has two Queens." Ross said and he chuckled. "Gahaman masyado."
I smirked. "Alright. Get back to me once you've confirmed his identity. I am
expecting a positive results, Ross."
"Yes, Your Majesty."
Ross left the room with a big grin on his face. He looked so proud even if he
didn't do anything yet. Hindi nya pa nga nakukumpirma pero ang taas na agad ng
kumpyansa nya sa sarili nya.
It's been years since we did our first move. And that is to kill the EL Ordre's
former Rooks. I didn't know that Dyke's plan would actually work. I bet that the EL
Ordre were shaken up because of our move.
And now, I have another plan.
"Yucca..." I called her when we had our meeting again one time. "Can you give
me any updates?"
Yucca looked uneasy and she can't even meet me in the eye. She looked
everywhere except me. I closed my eyes and tried to calm myself. I like it when
people looked like they really fear me but she's making me feel like I'm a monster
that she doesn't want to see.
"I... I t-think your plan might work, Your M-majesty." she said using a small
voice.
Despite of that, I still managed to smile. "Really? Can I expect that you will
not disappoint me?" she only nodded but that is enough for me. I looked at Alter
beside her. "Alter."
"Yes, Ate Eresh?"
I automatically gave her my warm smile. I really like it whenever she calls me
by that. She is my favorite piece 'cause she's really lovely plus the fact that she
had never disobeyed me before.
Youngsters.
"Can you find Ross? I haven't seen him for weeks now."
The last time that we've talked was when he told me that he has an idea who the
enemy's King is. I was really looking forward to his report pero hanggang ngayon ay
wala na akong narinig na balita mula sa kanya.
"Nandyan lang 'yun sa tabi-tabi." Black said. Itinaas nya ang mga paa sa lamesa
and leaned his back on his seat. He looked so comfortable in this new hideout of
us.
My father moved our hideout here so we can concentrate more with our mission.
He said angrily that if we only have our meeting and making plans in the house, we
wouldn't take this game seriously. Baka akalain pa daw namin na nagbabahay-bahayan
lang kami.
I don't though. I am putting my all to win this game. I need this. I need to
feel strong and powerful. So I want everyone to bow down before me. I want them to
follow my orders and treat my every words as important as their lives.
"Oh, no..." I heard Alter muttered after half an hour on working with her
laptop.
"What's wrong?"
Her cute face looked at me and there's worry in her eyes. "The Knight's
information got deleted from our database."
I frowned. "I don't understand. Elaborate, Alter."
She showed me her laptop. "We have a database where only some of our
information is written, Ate Eresh. EL Ordre has one too but I'm sure that their
tracker is managing it." she tapped some codes. "And I just found out that they had
deleted the Knight's information in our database."
My frown didn't even leave my face. "What does that mean?" Fuck. She's young
but when it comes with the computers, she has a lot of knowledge about it than me.
"I think something bad has happened to Kuya Ross and the EL Ordre tried to
covered it up."
I sighed when I finally understood everything. Ross got busted. His plan
failed. And now, we don't have any idea what happened to him.
"You let this happen under your watch?" I can't help but to feel irritated to
Alter. This is the only time that she disappointed me.
"I'm sorry. Iyon lang naman ang nagalaw nila. Wala na silang nakuha because of
the firewall that I built, Ate Eresh-"
"There's no room for mistakes in this game, Alter." I said coldly. "And call me
Your Majesty."
I saw her gulped. Yucca looked back and forth between me and Alter. Wala akong
pinansin. I am so fucking irritated that I choose to stood up from my seat. I
needed to think.
"Strengthen your defense, Alter. I want you to build a firewall that is
unbreakable so this won't happen again." I walked out and Emkidu just followed me
without saying anything.
I am fucking irritated! I think Ross' hunch is right! Proof is that something
bad has happened to him. Bakit ba hindi ko sya pinilit na sabihin sa akin kung sino
ang hinihinala nyang King ng EL Ordre?!
The EL Ordre deleted our Knight's information 'cause they knew that the reason
of his death will be recorded. And we will be able to trace what happened to him
and who he tried to kill! We were so close!
Ross knew. He knew who the EL Ordre's King is. And I am sure that they killed
him when he confirmed it.
Fuck... The dead couldn't talk.

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Chapter 3

My father fell ill with some disease that destroys and

weakens his immune system. He looked so pale and thin and looked like he has aged
fifty years than his age now. I don't know what disease he has, though. I didn't
bother knowing it.
He didn't want to be admitted in the hospital so he just stayed at home while
his condition is getting worse with each passing day. 'Cause he said that he
doesn't want people to think that he is weak. Hindi ko din naman sya pinilit na
magpa-hospital. What for? To him, his pride more important than his life.
I didn't know what to feel now that I have a dying father. Alter, Yucca, Sieg
and Enkidu looked like they are worried and were just waiting for me to broke down
and cry. Should I do that, then? Does a child really required to cry and mourn for
their parents? Hindi ba pwede ang katulad ko na wala man lang nararamdaman kahit na
pagkaawa?
And to be honest, I felt happy instead.
"Is that for my father?" I asked Sieg one time when I saw him holding a tray
with food. It was only a soup and some fruits. He was about to go upstairs when I
called him.
"Yes, Your Majesty." he answered.
"Let me." I said. But before I could take the food tray from him, Enkidu
stopped me and took the tray from Sieg, instead.
"I'll carry it till we reached his room."
I just nodded and didn't make any arguments with him. I don't want having a
hard time carrying the food tray while climbing the stairs. It's just a waste of my
efforts and energy.
Enkidu carried the food tray as he followed me towards my father's room. We
both stopped in front of his room's door. I looked at Enkidu and motioned him to
give me the tray.
"Sasamahan kita." he said. I can see the worries in his eyes that quickly
disappeared because he knew that I don't need it. And I don't want anyone to be
worried about me.
I am strong. I can take care of myself. They are just wasting their time by
being worried towards a person who can handle herself.
 I looked at Enkidu and smirked.
"My father is invalid, Enkidu. He can't do anything to me." I took the food
tray from him. "He's useless now."
Enkidu sighed and opened the door for me. I wrinkled my nose when I noticed the
disgusting smell that was surely coming out from the old man who was lying on his
bed. I went near him and put down the food tray on his bedside table.
I stared at him for a couple of minutes. His eyes were closed but I can see the
movements of his eyeballs behind his lids. He's awake. He knew that I am here but
he didn't bother opening his eyes.
I looked at him from head to toe. He is so thin that he almost looked like a
skeleton. Anyone could tell that he will die at any minute now. Hindi na nya kaya
pang labanan ang sakit nya.
The side of my lips rose. I can't believe the day will come that I'll be able
to witness him being like this. So weak and dying.
The proud man can't do anything against his disease, huh? Funny...
He always told me that I should be like him. I should surpassed his strength.
That I should forget that I am a woman and stop crying everytime I felt hurt. That
I should act like nobody or nothing could ever destroy me.
But I guess, I failed. 'Cause he's still mad at me. He's still angry that I was
born as a woman.
"Here's your food." I said.
His eyes slowly opened. He stared at the ceiling first, blinking numerous
times, before he found me who was standing beside his bed and looking down on him.

Wow... This felt actually good. Aaraw-arawin ko na siguro

ang pagpunta dito para lang makita syang ganito.
I don't have to look up to him anymore.
"You put a poison in it." he said sounding so weak. Ang akala ko pa nga ay
malalagutan na sya ng hininga sa anim na mga salitang iyon.
So to inspite him and to make him suffer more, I chuckled.
"Damn... That's a good idea. But sadly, I forgot to do it." I tsked. "Do you
want me to go and get the poison?"
His breathing ragged and he looked at me with madness in his eyes. I didn't
back down and even smirked at him. I finally have my chance to humiliate him. I
finally have my chance to let him know how much I despise him.
"You cold-blooded murderer bitch!" he hissed. Pero dahil sa panghihina ay
kulang sa diin iyon. But the look in his eyes was enough to tell me that we both
feel the same way towards each other.
Hatred. Only hatred.
I waved a hand like he just said a simple thing. "Geez, father. I've heard that
insults so many times already. Wala na bang bago?"
Kung malakas lang sya, alam kong kahit hindi pa ako magsalita ay sasaktan na
nya agad ako. But fortunately, he's bedridden. He can't even lift a finger without
taking so much effort.
"You shouldn't have been born." he said. "You're a selfish bitch. You ruined
all my plans!"
I tsked, thrice. "Too bad... I am here in front of you. Alive and kicking!
See?"
I spread my arms and did a twirl. The skirt of my dress followed my movements
and I chuckled when I stopped. I looked at my father and I could tell that if he
can only move, he will not think twice of killing me right now.
I held the side of my skirt and did a curtsy in front of him. Galit na galit na
talaga ang tingin nya sa akin but I am enjoying it. The more angry he felt, the
more happy I become.
"Aren't I beautiful, father?" I said and smiled at him.
"I hate the sight of you." he said. "Hindi ka dapat nabuhay. Ikaw ang dapat na
namatay. You're selfish, Ereshkigal! Even before, makasarili ka na."
 Binitiwan ko ang palda ko at tumayo nang diretso. The playfulness in my eyes
was already gone. I looked at my father, with all seriousness that I could do.
"You're the selfish one, father. All you think about is your plan."
"'Cause it's the only way to defeat the EL Ordre!" umubo sya at hirap na hirap
huminga. "I have a plan to finally win this game! And you? Do you really think that
you can actually defeat them?!"
I lifted my chin and looked at him proudly. "Of course, I can. I have my own
plan, as well "
He laughed and I know that he's trying to insult me. "Can you, really? Your
plans are useless, Ereshkigal! Even your mere existence is useless!"
My eyes darkened. Well, I could say that it affected me but I tried to hide it
by looking elegant and intimidating.
I crossed my arms over my chest. I looked at him with so much rage in my eyes.
The side of my lips rose and I looked at him disgustingly.
"Between the two of us, who do you think is the useless one, now, huh?" I eyed
him from head to toe. "You can't even stood up on your own to take a leak. That's
why you smell so horrible."
Sunod-sunod ang malalalim na paghinga ang ginagawa nya. I know that he is sick.
I know that I could be the reason if he's condition will worsen after this. But I
don't fucking care. I've had enough. I will not let anyone to look down on me
again.
Even him.
Tinalikuran ko na sya at naglakad na papunta sa pinto. But he said something
before I could reached the doorknob.
"Kill the King!" he screamed while breathing so hard. "Kill the King and win
this game! That's the only way that I can be proud of you. That's the only way that
I can acknowledge you as my daughter!"
Hindi ko inaasahan ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata ko. It's a good thing that
he can't see my face anymore. Malalaman nyang hanggang ngayon ay may kakayahan pa
rin ako para umiyak. So I immediately wiped my tears off my cheeks.
"Kill the King, Ereshkigal! Bring back the honor of the Levitsky! Bring back
the honor that they took from me!"
I left him while he was still screaming inside about the Levitsky's honor that
the EL Ordre's King took from our family. My father is a very prideful man. So
until now, he can't move on from what happened from the last Bloody Human Chess
game.
'Cause nobody won back then.
Three days after that talk with my father, he died. I didn't shed any tears. I
didn't feel any pain or sadness. I was relieved. Finally. his reign has ended. I am
the ruler now.
I thought that I will be free from my father's shadows and revenge, but little
did I know, I was actually fulfilling what he wanted.
I asked Alter to look for EL Ordre's King information and make it her top
priority. But they are good at concealing their identity. Na kahit mismong mga
members nila ay hindi alam ang chess piece ng bawat isa.
That's absurb. The King should let everyone know who he is and make everyone
follow his words. He has the authority. He should use it!
And thus, finding the EL Ordre's King became my obsession.
"Oh, my..." I muttered as I stared at those sea-green eyes. "You looked so
beautiful."
I walked towards him without taking my eyes off his face. I have never seen
anyone who looked so beautiful like him. His sea-green eyes easily caught something
deep inside me .
Loki Alexander Nimrod Von Amstel the fourth. The EL Ordre's King.
I lifted my hand to touch his face. Oh, my God... He looked so perfect. Hindi
na ako makahinga ng maayos sa nakikita ko ngayon.
It will be such a waste to just kill this beautiful creature in front of me.
So I stared at his luscious lips. My breathing hitched when I caressed it and
felt it's softness.
 "Your lips... It's so soft." I whispered.
Oh, God... My blood boils in excitement as I felt his warm lips against my
thumb. I traced the outline of his lips with my fingers and when he parted his
lips, hindi ko na nakayanan ang nararamdaman ko.
"Kiss me..." I said.
I want it. I want him.
"Your Majesty, I wanna taste your lips."

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Chapter 4

Warning: Spg
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I don't care about what's happening around me. My eyes just remained on the
beautiful man if front of me. I don't want to take my eyes off him. This is the
only time that someone had caught my interest. I've never got this attracted to
someone even before.
What in the hell is he doing to me? I felt like I was under his spell.
His sea-green eyes looked like a mysterious door that even if I have the right
key, it will never open and I wouldn't know what's inside. His sandy hair would
probably look good if my fingers would dug into it and mess with it. He has a
beautiful facial features with his thick eyebrows, perfect nose and... those lips.
Those lips that I can't stop from caressing.
He has a very define jaw and my hand moved to touch it. He gritted his teeth
and I saw his jaw clenched that made me bit my lower lip.
Oh, God... This man is just so perfect.
I heard the door closed and that's when I noticed that we were the only ones
left in this room. I don't know how the rest of the EL Ordre members made Enkidu to
go with them. My Bishop will never leave me with a man alone in this room
especially if he's the King of EL Ordre.
Loki stared at me without saying anything. He just let me touch his face so I
took my time and shamelessly caressed it.
Fuck... Why does he have to be the EL Ordre's King that I am so obsessed to
kill? All my life I've been insecure to the enemy's King, and my father's last
words for me just added fuel to the fire. So I vowed to myself that I will do
everything to kill the King of EL Ordre.
That's too bad...
"Do you honestly think that I'll just let you kill me?"
My thumb was still on his lips so I felt how it moved when he said those words.
Mas naramdaman ko pa ang lambot ng mga labi nya dahil sa ginawa nya. I caught my
breath as I felt something within me.
Fuck... Is this the King of EL Ordre? Everything in him is shouting in
authority. And just by the mere movement of his lips against my thumb could already
have so much effect on me.
Oh, God... I must kill this man. He's dangerous.
I raised an eyebrow by his question and tried to ignore the attraction that I'm
feeling for him.
"You know what I'm thinking?" I asked while still caressing my thumb on his
lips.
He smirked and held me by the wrist to stop me from touching him. I almost
pouted in disappointment and tried to take my hand but he just wouldn't let go.
I still want to touch him.
I saw him smirked before he lowered his head. He stopped when our faces were
only an inch apart and I could smell his fresh breath with slight minty scent and
it was enough to make me feel intoxicated.
"One look from you and I could clearly tell what you're thinking." he
whispered. "And by the look in your eyes, you want me not just to kiss you but also
to fuck you, am I right?"
I made a loud gasped by his vulgar words. And fuck... It is enough to turn me
on. I got so turn on that I need to clung onto something to remain standing. And
that something is his shirt. Mahigpit ko iyong hinawakan kaya nagusot iyon.
"Answer me, my temptress."
I bit my lower lip. I should get offended by his his endearment. He was the one
who's tempting me. I am not like this. I like people to kneel and beg before me.
But Loki, even without doing anything, makes me wanna beg for him to touch me.

Fuck... I couldn't wait any longer.

"Yes, Your Majesty..." I whispered and bit my lower lip again.
I saw him smirk and I felt his hands on the sides of my waist. I made a loud
gasped when he pulled me closer to him. So harsh that my body slamed on his broad
chest.
He dipped his head and I anticipated his lips to touch mine. But instead, I
felt him kissed my ears and whispered something.
"What do you want?" he whispered huskily.
I clung onto his shoulders to support my knees. The warmth of his breath
tickles my ears that sent shivers down my spine. Kung hindi ako kakapit sa balikat
nya ay kanina pa tumiklop ang mga tuhod ko.
"Tell me what do you want, hm?" he said and bit my earlobe.
I whimpered when I felt the pain because of what he did. But the pain is giving
me pleasure. I got more turned on and I could feel my body becoming hot with desire
for the man in front of me.
"Kiss me..." sabi ko na sinasagot ang tanong nya. "Kiss me, please..."
I heard him chuckled. "And?"
"Fuck me." I breathe. "Fuck me, Your Majesty. Fuck me like there's no
tomorrow."
I barely finished my words when I finally felt his warm mouth claiming my lips.
I moaned and feel so blissful as his soft lips moved against mine. Our breath
mingle and I tried to answer his kiss with the same ferocity that he's giving me.
He did what I want. Base on the rough movement of his mouth, it seems like he
will really fuck me with the way I want. I writhe in anticipation and dug my
fingers on his hair na kanina ko pa gustong gawin.
His tongue delved inside my mouth like he's mining for a gold. A moan had
escaped from my throath when my tongue met with his and I almost screamed when he
twirl his tongue around mine.
"Ah!"
I let a sound of pain when he pulled my hair. Nakatingala na ako sa kanya and
he was looking down on me. His sea-green eyes filled with desire as he stared at my
lips that I am sure are now swollen because of the kiss that we shared.
"Where's your room?" tanong nyang halos pabulong na lang.
I gulped and answered him. "The one at the far end."
I yelped when he suddenly cupped my bottom and carried me so I wrapped my legs
around his waist and clung onto his shoulders. Nagsalubong agad ang mga labi namin
as he walked out of the computer room and made his way to my room.
I was already unbuttoning his shirt when I felt the soft mattress against my
back. Hindi naputol ang paghahalikan namin hanggang sa tuluyan ko nang mahubad ang
button-down polo nya. I stopped kissing him to stare at his body and I was welcomed
with the most breathtaking and sexiest body I have ever seen.
Oh my God... He's a hunk! His ripped body was enough to make me feel wet. I had
the full view of his broad shoulders, his muscular chest and his eight-pack abs
that are so beautiful to look at. I couldn't take my eyes off him. He was like an
Adonis that all of the girls would pray to have.
I caressed his abs down to his v-line. His body was so hot and I'm sure that it
was because of the desire that he has for me. I can see that in his eyes. At alam
ko na ganoon din ang tingin ko sa kanya.
Pinagpalit ko ang pwesto namin. I got up and made him sit on the bed. I sat on
his lap and gave him a rough kiss that he immediately answered.
I moaned when his hands started to roam around my body. He cupped my breast and
he roughly squeezed both of them making me whimper in pain and in pleasure. So my
hands also went down on his body until I found the bulge in between his legs. I
squeezed it lightly and I was rewarded with his wild groan.
Oh, fuck... He sounds so sexy...
Ako na ang pumutol sa halikan namin at bumaba ako sa pagkakaupo sa mga hita
nya. My eyes never left his as I unbutton his pants. Walang kahirap-hirap kong
naibaba iyon. I didn't touch him yet I could almost feel the warmth of length.
I was surprised when he held the back of my neck and pulled me for a rough
kiss. He sucked and bit my lower lip, so hard that I could taste the blood. But I
didn't stop him. The more he moves roughly, the more pleasure that I feel.
My hand went down on his bulge and I almost moaned when I felt it against my
palm kahit na nakaharang pa ang boxer shorts nya. Itinigil ni Loki ang paghalik sa
akin. He stared at me with so much intensity as he challenged me on what I will do
next.
So my eyes went down and my mouth watered when I saw the head of his length
that was already peeking through the waistband of his boxer shorts. Tuluyan ko na
iyong hinubad hanggang sa tumambad sa mga mata ko ang kahabaan nya.
I gasped and my heart beats so fast when I finally saw it. His cock was so long
and so thick. The tip was already wet with pre-cum. And I almost moaned when I
finally held it with my hands na walang anumang nakaharang. His cock was so
beautiful like the man who owned it.
"Can you do it?" I heard Loki asked so my eyes went up to him. There was the
look in his eyes like he was expecting that I will back down.
I smiled at him sweetly. "Of course I can, Your Majesty." I said and my head
went down to lick the tip of his length.
I kneeled in front of him while his legs were spread apart to give space for my
body. Habang sya ay prenteng nakaupo sa dulo ng kama at nakatukod ang kamay doon
habang pinapanood ako.
I wrapped my fingers around his cock. It was so hot and so thick. I gave it a
few pumps before I dipped my head and licked the moisture off the tip. I moaned
when I taste and caught the sweet scent of his pre-cum.
I circled my tongue around the tip, wetting him with my saliva. My heart beats
faster when I heard him groaned and felt the tension on his body.
I smirked. And finally, I took him inside my mouth.

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Chapter 5

Warning: Spg
--
I heard the violent groan from Loki's throat which excites me to do better
while giving him a fellatio. I pumped the length of his cock while licking the head
and sucked his pre-cum. I licked the underside of the head as my other hand
massaged his balls. I could hear the ragged breathing that Loki's making so I
closed my eyes and savor the moment.
I enjoyed the way his cock twitch against my palm. It was so hard, proof how
much he likes what I'm doing to him.
Then slowly, I tried to swallow him inch by inch. He was so thick and long that
I had to force myself not to gag. I opened my mouth wide and swallowed his cock as
much as I could.
Seems like Loki couldn't take it anymore. He held the sides of my head, his
fingers digging on my hair. He slightly moved his hips and I moaned while his hard
cock was still inside my mouth. I heard his violent groan again.
"Oh, bloody hell..." he hissed. "That feels so fucking good."
I moaned again and he let out a multiple curse. I realized that he's talking
about the vibration from my throat when I moaned while his cock was still inside my
mouth. 
His hips moved again so his cock reached the back of my throat. I almost gagged
but fought the urge and even sucked him hard that my cheeks hollowed. He let out a
wild groan and I could hear his deep and ragged breathing making me feel more and
more turned on.
I moved back until only the head was inside my mouth. I licked the moisture off
the tip and fondle his balls as I suck him dry. Tumingala ako sa kanya at mas lalo
pang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko when I saw how intense the lust in his eyes as he
looked down on me.
"You look so fucking good with your mouth around my cock." he said while
gritting his teeth. "I just couldn't take my eyes off you."
I moaned in pleasure as his words affected me so damn much. I got hornier than
ever and I just can't help but to touch myself while giving him a head.
I bobbed my head up and down while my tongue swirl around his shaft. Humigpit
ang pagkakasabunot ni Loki sa buhok ko and he moved his hips, slightly thrusting
his hard cock inside my mouth. Napahawak ako sa magkabilang mga hita nya at mas
binilisan ang paggalaw ng ulo ko.
I could feel him getting bigger and thicker inside my mouth. His cock twitched
and I knew that he's so close to coming. So I pulled him out of my mouth and
started pumping him with my hand while the other played with his balls.
"Oh, fuck it!" he growled and moved his hips. Sinasabayan nya ang paggalaw ng
kamay ko. He looked so fucking sexy that my eyes never left his face. The movement
of his hips was so rough and I almost imagine him fucking me while his hips moves
like this.
Fuck... I want to feel him inside me.
"Bloody hell..." he cursed with a thick British accent. "I'm c-coming."
My lips parted as I saw him looking up and groaning with pleasure. He shoots
his load off my hands and he just looked so beautiful than ever.
He was still catching his breath when I stood up and stripped off my clothes.
Wala akong itinira kahit isang saplot. I am completely naked while standing in
front of him and I just let him stared at my body. Hindi man lang ako nahiya.
Instead, I felt proud when I saw the desire and lust in his eyes.
"Now, fuck me, Your Majesty." I said without taking my eyes off him.
His face darkened with lust as he stood up and walked towards me. He was so
close that I could feel the warmth of his body. I was tempted to close our distance
but waited for him to do something.

And when he harshly pulled my waist that my body slammed

against him, I got excited more than ever.
He didn't waste any second and his mouth slammed to mine again. He was kissing
me, so hard and rough that I had a hard time to keep up with his pace. Napakapit
tuloy ako sa mga balikat nya dahil kung hindi ko gagawin iyon ay malulunod lang
ako. While he wrapped an arm around my waist.
He pulled my hair that made me gasped and he took that chance to ravished the
inside of my mouth with his tongue. I moaned and tried to meet his tongue with
mine. Nag-espadahan ang mga dila namin at napayakap na ako sa leeg nya para mas
hilahin pa sya palapit sa akin.
I could feel the cold wall against my back. Isinandal nya ako doon nang hindi
pinuputol ang halikan namin. And he kissed me senselessly like there's no tomorrow.
Just like what I wanted.
His hand went down on my core and played with my labia. I gasped and tried to
end the kiss to breathe for a second but Loki wouldn't let me. Hindi nya
pinakawalan ang mga labi ko at mas diniinan pa ang paghalik sa akin. He made me so
wet with his kisses that he's giving me and I'm sure that he could feel it with his
fingers playing down on my core
He spread my folds with his thumb and forefinger while his middle finger played
with my clit. I moaned. Sumabunot ako sa buhok nya para mas hilahin pa sya sa akin
at gigil na gumanti sa paghalik nya.
He inserted one of his finger inside me. I whimpered as he inserted another
finger and thrusts it inside and out. Napatingala ako nang sa wakas ay pakawalan
nya ang mga labi ko para halikan ang leeg ko. I was catching my breath as I moan
and whimper in pleasure while moving my hips to meet the movements of his fingers.
I cried in pain but with pleasure when he bit a skin on my neck. Napasandal ang
ulo ko sa pader habang taas baba ang dibdib ko sa paghinga at pinapakiramdaman ang
lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.
Oh, fuck this... I never thought that he's so good with this. How much more if
his cock was inside me and not only his fingers?
"More..." I whispered. "Give me more, Your Majesty."
Loki gave a few more licks on my neck before he looked at me. He held one of my
thighs and lifted it up to his waist. Mas inilapit nya pa ang katawan nya sa akin.
He did all of those without taking his eyes off me.
His sea-green eyes filled with so much lust and pleasure was enough to make me
feel so horny. His fingers was still thrusting inside me and my hips moves to meet
its thrust. I reached for his cock and wrapped my fingers around it and gave a few
pumps.
"Do you want my cock inside you?" he asked breathlessly. He thrusts his fingers
faster and faster and I couldn't help but to bit my lower lip to stop the moans
coming out from my throat.
Fuck... I could feel it. I am so near...
"Moan, my temptress." Loki ordered me. "I want you to moan so fucking loud
while having your orgasm because of my fingers."
"Oh my goodness..." I said breathlessly. His dirty talks just added more
pleasure within me. I stopped pumping his cock and just clung onto his shoulders.
"Moan, Eresh." he said and my name sounds so good with his authoritative voice
while he's giving me orders. "Moan and I will fuck you the way you want after
this."
So I did what he said. When I finally reached my peak, I moaned so loud as my
nails dugged on his broad shoulders. He was just staring at me until I finally let
out that warm liquid inside me.
He smirked and showed me his hand that was wet with my cum. My lips parted when
he sensually lick his fingers. He then chuckled and made me licked the remaining
cum off his hand.

I was sucking each of his fingers and I taste something

sweet that I am sure just came from the release that I made earlier. I moaned and
got more turned on and suck his fingers dry.
"Good girl..." he said proudly and I just smiled at him. I felt his cock that
was already poking on my entrance. "I'm gonna fuck you now, understand?"
Finally...
I nodded and stared at him. "Yes, Your Majesty."
He smirked and with just one thrust, he inserted it fully.
I cried in pain and closed my eyes tightly when I felt something ripped inside
me. Nawala ang kaninang init na nararamdaman ko at napalitan na ng sakit. My kness
almost gave out if only I wasn't holding onto Loki's shoulders.
Dumilat ako. I saw him looking at me with wide eyes and confusion. His face was
pale as he stared at my face and I'm sure that he saw in my expression the pain
that I'm feeling.
"You're... You're a v-virgin?" the words barely left his mouth. He said it so
softly that I wouldn't be able to hear it if only our bodies isn't one right now.
"Yes..." I said and winced in pain when he slightly moved.
 "B-but..." litong-lito ang mukha. His sea-green eyes looked like it's trying to
read me. "You look like you knew a lot about sex!"
I frowned. What about it? Can't I have any knowledge about sex if I am a
virgin? But now was a virgin because he just ripped my hymen a moment ago!
"Bloody hell." he cursed. Then he looked at me, still confused. "Does it still
hurt?"
I shook my head even if I still feel a lot of pain. But I want him to move. I
want him to fuck me. I want to know how it feels to be fuck by the most beautiful
man I've ever seen.
And when he pulled his cock leaving only the head inside me, all of the
pleasure came back into my body. In fact, the pleasure doubled and my body feels so
hot that I thought I am having a fever.
Fuck... He just feels so good. I can't help but to feel so horny.
He thrusts deep again and I let out a long moan. He burried his head on the
hollow space between my neck and shoulders as his hands reached for my breasts and
fondle them.
He squeezed my breasts so hard and sucked the skin of my neck that I am sure
would leave a mark after this. Then his thrusts became harder and deeper that my
back would slam on the wall everytime he thrusts deep.
"Oh my fucking gosh..." I moaned and move my hips to meet his thrusts. "More,
Your Majesty. Give me more!"
I whimpered when Loki held the sides of my waist and thrusts his hips rougher
this time. Marahas ang paggalaw nya at ang mga kamay ay bumaba para pumisil sa
bewang ko. I could hear his ragged breathing since his head was still burried on my
neck.
Then he licked his way on my shoulders and bit it so I let out a cry of pain.
Napasabunot ako sa buhok nya nang mas bumilis ang rahas nang paggalaw nya.
"Oh... Yeah, that's it. Fuck me harder, Your Majesty!"
He groaned and reached for my lips. He kissed me senselessly as he fuck me so
rough that I could tell my core is now swollen. But I didn't care. I really want
this. I want him so bad.
I can't believe that being fuck by the EL Ordre's King would feel this good.
I could feel the tension on my tummy and I know that I'm near again. Loki is on
the verge too base on his breathing and the way his hips move frantically. He
thrusts deeper, harder and faster while my walls clenched around his cock.
I could feel that he is getting bigger inside me. Loki was already groaning and
is letting out a few moans. Beads of sweat formed on his handsome face. He thrusts
faster than ever before he pulled out. I was quick enough to wrapped my fingers
around his cock and pumped him dry until he groaned and shoots his load off my
hands again.
My eyes never left his face so I witness how beautiful he is when he's having
his own climax. So beautiful that I would never get tired of having sex with him
just to watch him with this expression again.
He removed my hand off his cock and turned his back at me. Even his back looked
so sexy and I just couldn't take my eyes off him. He picked up his clothes and get
dressed in front of me without saying anything.
Pinapanood ko lang syang magbihis sa harapan ko. The way he pulled up his boxer
and his pants, the way he button his shirt, I watched it all. He just looked so
beautiful and I got more and more attracted to him.
He's dangerous. I must kill him.
"Get dress." sabi nya pagkatapos magbihis. "You're coming with me."
"But I already did."
He looked confused at first before he sighed like he finally understood what I
meant but was so speechless to say anything. I chuckled before I picked up my
clothes to do what he wanted and smiled at him playfully.
"Yes, Your Majesty."

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Chapter 6

Nergal stood on his four feet when he saw me walked out of

the room. He yawned and stretched his body before walking towards my direction. But
because Loki is in front of me, he stopped and regarded the presence of the EL
Ordre's King first.
Loki just remained standing when my cute little tiger went up to him. His
stance didn't even waver. He let Nergal smell him first to recognized his scent
before he crouched down and pet the tiger on his head.
I smirked.
"Seems like Nergal could tell that you're really the EL Ordre's King, huh?" I
said as I've watched him pet Nergal continously. He even caressed it's body and my
tiger looks like he's enjoying it. I crossed my arms over my chest and raised an
eyebrow at them.
Back off, Nergal... That man is mine.
Loki just made me do that thing I never thought I would ever do with a man I've
only met. Wala pang dalawang oras kaming nagkakakilala but he made me feel that
there's something in my life that I've been missing. I'm just surprised that I've
managed to live for this long without having the pleasure that he just gave me.
Ah... He's just so irresistible.
I thought that I never want to have sex with somebody. Oh, how much I hate men.
My father, when he was still alive, was always slapping me with the truth that I am
a woman and so weak. And I would never have the strength of a man.
So since then, those were the questions I always ask myself. Why was I born as
a woman? Why can't I be a man? Then maybe if I was, my father would be proud of me.
Maybe if I was a man, my father wouldn't do those things to me. Then maybe, I
wouldn't hate who I am today. I wouldn't hate men.
At first. I even wished to be reborn as a man. I cut my hair short and started
dressing and acting like a man. But father got mad even more and made me realized
that I will never be a man no matter how hard I try. That I will remain in this
weak and disgusting shell called woman for the rest of my lives.
But not until I became the Queen of Red Faction.
Men, they were not really as strong as I thought they would be. Most of my
chess pieces were men and I realized that they can be so dumb, so weak and
brainless as well. They were weaker than me so it was so easy to make them bow down
to me and made them follow all my orders.
Men... They are disgusting as well.
But Loki... I don't know. I have no idea what happened to me. He just made me
want to suddenly bow down to him and do everything he wants. I even forgot that I
hate men with just one look on his sea-green eyes.
Maybe because he's the EL Ordre's King and a real royalty?
Of course... That must be the reason. No one would ever made me feel that way
other than the King that I am so obsessed to kill. After all, he's a higher chess
piece than me.
"Where are we going by the way?" I asked when he stopped petting Nergal. He
stood up so I had to crane my neck to look up to him since he's taller than me.
"You don't have to know." he answered with his thick British accent and he just
sounds so hot. "You will stay with me until we find our Rook that you took from
us."
Pinanatili ko ang pagkakahalukipkip ko at tiningala sya. With an eyebrow
raised, of course. I should still look elegant but intimidating.
"So you're kidnapping me?" I asked while suppressing my laugh.
"Perhaps." he said. "But if it's against your will, you can just tell me where
our Rook is. Then we will not resort on kidnapping."
I pouted and acted like I'm thinking. His sea-green eyes were just staring on
me. The intensity of his gaze was too much that I anticipated on touching him
again.
 Wow... I didn't know that I'm a very horny woman.
"Sorry to say this but your Rook is already dead." I said and even made myself
looked sorry because of the news.
He heaved a deep breath before he gritted his teeth that made his jaw moved. I
noticed that he even balled his fists. Obviously, he didn't like what I've said. He
looked so scary with his angry expression and I know that I should be scared.
Siguro ay malandi lang talaga ako para mas ma-attract pa sa kanya kaysa sa matakot.
"Then it's settled. You will stay me." he said and turned his back. Naglakad
sya at humabol ako sa kanya. Nergal was walking behind me.
"You know, even if you me ask me that again and fuck me the same way you did
earlier to make me spill the truth, my answer will just be the same." I said while
trying to caught up with his pace. "Your Rook is dead. He is dead. And he is gone."
He stopped walking abruptly. Mabuti na lang at nasa gilid na nya ako dahil kung
hindi ay babangga siguro ako sa likuran nya dahil biglaan ang pagtigil nya. But
then again, I think that it's better if that was what happened. Then I'll be able
to smell his scent again. His manly scent that was mixed with fresh and his natural
scent.
Fuck... I think I want him again.
Loki looked at me. At first, his expression was very dark. Mukhang hindi nya
talaga nagustuhan ang mga sinabi about sa Rook nila. But what should I tell him,
then? It's the truth! Their Rook is dead!
Then Loki smirked and he had the look of mischief in his eyes. Doon ako
sinimulang kabahan. I don't know if it's because he's getting more and more
handsome or I was just really nervous with this expression on him that looked like
he's planning something.
I gasped when he pulled me by the waist. He was still wearing his smirk when
his head dipped and whispered something on my ear.
"Do not test my patience, woman." he was smirking but there's the danger in his
voice. "I am aware that Shielder is still alive and I will do anything to take him
back."
Nakaramdam pa talaga ako ng panghihinayang nang binitiwan na nya ako. I rolled
my eyes for him and for myself. Damn! What is happening to me? I thought that after
what we did earlier, the attraction that I felt for him will be gone but it seems
like it was just getting stronger than before!
Damn this EL Ordre's King! Is this a part of their plan? Then I will play
along.
I didn't become the Queen of Red Faction for nothing. Afterall, this is my
expertise.
"Muning..."
Pareho kaming napatingin ni Loki sa mga bagong dating. I saw two men standing
just a few steps from us. One was wearing a hoodie while one was wearing a leather
jacket with a stud earrings on his ears.
"Muning, muning..." the man in a hoodie jacket said and it was obvious that
he's calling for Nergal. Pero nagtatago naman sa likod ng lalaking naka-leather
jacket.
They looked like an idiots.
The man in a leather jacket chuckled before he crouched down and clicked his
tongue. I was surprised when Nergal went near him and let the man pet him on his
head!
What in the damnation is happening?!
"Why is he like that to you?" hindi na nakatiis kong tanong nang may ilang
minuto na nyang hinahaplos ang hayop. I was even waiting for Nergal to bite him but
it didn't happen!
The man in a leather jacket looked up to me. "What?" he asked.
I pointed to Nergal and to what he's doing. "That. Exactly that."
The man chuckled and tickled the tiger on his jaw. "Gwapo daw kasi ako."
 "Hoy! Mas gwapo ako!" the man in a hoodie protested. "Mas marami akong naging
babae kaysa sayo!"
"Sumbong kita sa asawa mo, gusto mo?"
Para namang naging maamong tupa ang lalaking naka-hoddie at biglang tumahimik.
"Sabi ko nga mas gwapo ka." he muttered. "You tamed that big pussy."
"Nergal is a he." I corrected them 'cause his reasons was just so unbelievable.
The man in a leather jacket chuckled again. "Pareho daw kasi kaming gwapo."
I decided to not say anything and just observed the behavior of my pet towards
him. This is the first time that Nergal acted like that to a stranger who's not
even a royalty. I don't know what chess piece he is but surely, he was not someone
who has a higher piece than me, am I right?
I know that Ishtar is their Queen.
I heard the man in a hoodie whistled. "Mukhang nag-enjoy yata kayo pag-alis
namin, ah?"
Napaangat ulit ng tingin ang lalaking naka-leather jacket sa akin. Ilang
sandali syang tumitig bago natawa. He pointed on his own neck and smirked.
"May mga marka ng kaligayahan sa leeg mo." he said at parehong tumawa ang
dalawang lalaki na nasa harapan ko na parang wala nang bukas.
I rolled my eyes. They're an idiots. I can't believe that the EL Ordre has
members like them!
Sa pagrolyo ng mga mata ko ay napatingin ako kay Loki. It looks like this scene
was just normal to him. He caught my stare and he fished something out of his
pocket. I saw a white hanky on his hand as he gave it to me.
"What's that?"
"It has a drug that can you make go unconscious." he said. His sea-green eyes
never left my face as he speaks.
"You want me to inhale that?"
He looked around. Napagaya ako sa kanya bago bumalik ang tingin namin sa isa't-
isa.
"Three versus one as I can easily kill the tiger." Loki said confidently. "You
have no choice."
I smirked inwardly. He's right. Kung may maganap na labanan ay sure na matatalo
ako. Father was right. I am weak against these three trained men.
So I took the hanky from his hand and brought it to my nose. My eyes never left
his face and I saw his mischievous smirk when I started inhaling the drug that was
on the hanky.
I got dizzy at first and felt like I wanted to vomit but my body was too weak
to do so. Then I felt so numb before my sight became blurry and everything sounds
like a buzz in my ears.
And before I lost my consciousness, naramdaman ko ang pagsalo ni Loki sa
katawan ko.

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Chapter 7

I noticed an unfamiliar ceiling the moment I opened my

eyes. I was lying on a queen size bed and it just felt so comfortable that I almost
forgot how did I end up here.
I inhaled the drug that was on hanky willingly and the last thing I remembered
was Loki wrapping his arms around mine to prevent me from falling. I bit my lower
lip and chuckled at the memory.
My plan was to kill the EL Ordre's King with every chance that I've got. And
coming with him in this place will give me a lot of opportunities to finally finish
the game. And once I have finished this stupid game, the gamemasters will grant our
group to do whatever we want on the enemy's team. And I plan to kill them all
before finally killing the gamemasters to completely stop this game.
 So for now, I should focus on killing the EL Ordre's King.
I sighed and got up as I looked around inside the room. The curtains were wide
open so I was able to see what's outside the glass window. The city skyline looked
so beautiful in the evening and I could see some tall buildings outside. I realized
that maybe, I was in a penthouse somewhere in the city.
I could tell that it was a penthouse based on the exterior of the room and how
high the view from the outside is. The room was so wide yet has a simple design.
There is also a bathroom inside and a walk-in closet na may mga pambabaeng damit
and other necessities.
I raised an eyebrow and decided to go outside the room. My room is at the end
of the hallway on the second floor and I noticed that there were some other rooms
on the same floor. The doors were closed so I went downstairs and I quickly noticed
the man who was standing on the living room while looking outside the glass window.
He was on the phone and I wasn't even on the last step of the stairs when he turned
around to look at me like he felt my presence.
Wow... A well-trained man, huh?
"Alright." Loki said over the phone but his eyes were on me. I continued
walking without taking my eyes off him.
Geez... This man will always be beautiful.
He wore a cream white sweatshirt and a khaki shorts. It was a simple get up but
he looked like he was going to walk on a runway to model his clothes. Kahit ano pa
yatang isuot nya ay babagay sa kanya.
Well... He looks good naked too.
I decided to walked around the house while he was still busy talking on the
phone. Nakarating ako sa may kitchen and I saw the racks where the knives are.
Kinuha ko ang pinakamaliit doon. I hid my hands on my back before I walked back to
where Loki is.
"Send me the proposal through my email " he said. Tumigil ako sa harapan nya
nang makalapit na ako sa kanya. "Alright. I'll wait for it."
"Is this your place?" I asked when he ended the call.
I looked around and I could see that it's a luxury penthouse. Everything looked
so expensive and I can't help but to feel overwhelmed.
"Aww... I thought that you were going to bring me at some rundown house or on a
filthy warehouse when you kidnapped me." I looked at him and smiled. "You must've
thought that I'm a Queen and I don't deserve places like that so you brought me
here. I'm so touched."
"Think whatever you want." Loki said and put his phone inside the pockets of
his shorts.
I just chuckled and sat down on the couch, still hiding the knife on my hand.
The place was so beautiful plus the magnificent veiw from the outside. It was so
side, like a freaking mansion. I'm even willing to stay here for so long. Walang
reklamo especially that there's a very hot man to accompany me.
"Tell me where our Rook is." Loki said after a while.
I looked at him and saw him leaning on the glass window. His arms were crossed
over his chest and since he's wearing a sweatshirt, I can't see the muscles on his
arms that I remembered were flexing as he held my body firmly while thrusting hips
roughly on me.

I bit my lower lip to stop the thought. Gosh... I just

wished that I wasn't attracted to the EL Ordre's King para hindi ako nasasayangan
kapag iniisip kong papatayin ko sya.
I crossed my legs and the skirt of my dress slightly lifted with my movement. I
saw Loki looked at it before his eyes came back on my face without showing any
emotions.
"He's dead." I simply answered.
Loki didn't say anything and just stared at me so I stared back at him. I
really love the color of his eyes. Sea-green. It feels like I was staring at the
sea and I don't know how deep it is. At patuloy lang akong malulunod sa pagtitig ko
sa kanya.
But sadly... I must kill him.
"You know, it makes me wonder." he said after awhile. And by the look in his
eyes, I could tell that he just thought of something. "Why do you keep on saying
that when we both know that he is still alive?"
I smirked at him and bit my lower lip. I put down the knife first beside me,
hiding it behind the skirt of my dress. Then, I crossed my arms over my chest to
emphasize my big boobs that every man wanted to lick and squeeze. And Loki isn't an
exception.
But if he's affected to what I just did. I have no idea. He never showed it on
his face.
"You are planning something." he said instead.
Hmm... He's a smart man I must say. As expected from the EL Ordre's King.
"Perhaps I am." I said and I heard him chuckled.
"Oh, I know you do. And it also makes me wonder why are you the one who's
planning for your team? Where is your King?"
There's a glint in Loki's eyes that's telling me that he is not an easy foe. He
knows how to manipulate and play with words. Alam kong gusto nya akong hulihin sa
sarili long bibig. But unfortunately for him, I am a great manipulator as well.
I picked up the knife, hid one hand behind me and stood up. I walked towards
him in a seductive way. The side of his lips slowly rose as he waited for me to get
near him. I stopped in front of him and looked at him with desire in my eyes. His
broad shoulders shook as he made a low and raspy chuckle.
"My King is calmly sitting on his throne." I said and ran one hand on his
biceps. Tinanggal nya ang pagkakahalukipkip nya at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang
gilid ng bewang ko.
I put my arms on his shoulders, careful for him not to see the knife, before I
leaned in to whisper on his ears. But I caught his manly cologne mixed with his
natural scent and I took the chance to inhaled his scent before I spoke.
"He's just waiting for me to kill you, Your Majesty."
He distance himself from me just to look at my face but his hands remained
holding my waist.
"He's letting you do the works that was meant for him?" he asked and I just
smiled at him.
I closed the distance of our faces but before our lips could even touch, I
stopped. I could smell his fresh breath but fought the urge to kiss him.
"In the game of chess..." I said with a smirk while looking at his lips. And I
know that he's doing the same too. "The Queen always protects her King. She is
willing to sacrifice herself for him. She is not afraid to lose everything that she
has just for her King to win the game."
Loki chuckled and I almost moaned when I heard his husky voice. I also noticed
the movement of his Adam's apple when he did that.
Fuck. He's just so sexy...
I saw his mischievous smirk again as I felt him tighten the hold of his hands
on my waist.
"No, my temptress." he countered. "In the game of chess, the Queen is important
as much as the King. As he might lose his entire kingdom if he sacrifice his Queen.
For she is much more powerful than the King."
The smirk on my face vanished and I stared at him. I felt a goosebumps when I
saw his eyes filled with mischief and playfulness. He always looked like he's
planning something that I wouldn't be able to escape from.
But his words, he just said that the Queen is more powerful than the King. And
fuck it because I felt so happy with his words. I never heard it before. I always
thought of myself as a weak person because I am a woman but this man in front of me
just told me that I can be powerful that the King. Than him. Than a man.
I tightened the hold of my hand on the knife that I'm holding so I won't lose
myself. Fuck... He really knows how to manipulate a person.
His smirk widened before he chuckled when I became speechless. Mas inilapit nya
ang sarili nya sa akin at bumulong sa tenga ko.
"If your King isn't afraid to lose you, then he must be an incompetent one."
I bit my lower lip and hugged him. I stared at the knife on my hand and played
with it.
"You make me feel horny with your words." I said and pointed the end of the
knife on the back of his neck. "I suddenly want to kiss you, Your Majesty."
I felt his shoulders shook as he chuckled before he looked at me.
"Feel free, my temptress."
I smiled. Slowly, I closed our distance. And when our lips met, I readied the
knife on my hand.

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Chapter 8

Warning: Spg
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"The only advantage that you have against men, against the enemies is your
pretty face. And your body... Now, use it to me first, Ereshkigal."
I closed my eyes tightly as that memory suddenly came back in my mind. I tried
to focus all my attention to the owner of the warm lips pressed against my lips. He
was kissing me fully, trying to suck all the inhibitions out of my body.
I smirked when Loki lifted his hands and held my wrist that was on the back of
his neck. He took the knife out of my hand. I heard the clang that it made when he
threw it somewhere on the floor.
"Do you honestly think that you can kill me that easily?" he said as he let go
of my lips. I chuckled.
"I'll do better next time." I said and he slammed his lips into mine again.
His kisses became aggressive when he put his hands back on the side of my waist
against. He pulled me to closed our distance that even the wind couldn't pass
through. I clung onto his neck more that I am almost hugging him.
I stifled a moan when I felt the sting as he bit my lower lip. Oh, God, his
kisses taste so bittersweet and I'm getting addicted to it. The moment I had the
taste, I couldn't forget about it anymore and just want to kiss him all the time.
His kisses were always rough that can make my lips swollen in just a minute yet
it just add more pleasure in me. I don't care if my lips would bleed. I just want
to have the taste of his lips.
Fuck... I want him again. So bad.
And we must've feel the same way 'cause I heard him unzipping my dress. Tuloy-
tuloy na bumagsak iyon sa sahig at mabilis nya ulit hinapit ang bewang ko palapit
sa kanya like he doesn't want our bodies to separate even just for a minute.
I started answering his kisses when I caught up with his pace. He groaned and
placed his one hand on my nape and pulled me close to deepen the kiss. I gasped as
he became more and more aggressive and I felt him inserted his tongue inside my
mouth.
Our tongue played together, teasing and swirling around on each other. I moaned
everytime I caught the scent of his fresh and minty breath. My fingers dug on his
hair and slightly pulling it to let go of the sensation that he's giving me.
He started walking while still kissing me. Kumapit lang ako sa mga balikat nya
para hindi maputol ang paghahalikan namin. I don't care where he's going. Gusto ko
lang matuloy kung saan man papunta itong ginagawa namin.
Then suddenly, I felt him lifted up my body. He made me sit on something kaya
binuksan ko ang isa kong mata para silipin kung nasaan na kami. We were on the
dining room and he made me sit on the dining table. Now, our faces are on the same
level. Hindi na rin ako mahihirapan sa pagtingala sa kanya.
Oh well, this position is so much better.
His kisses went down to my jaw then down to my neck. The kissmarks that he gave
me before didn't even fade yet and now he's giving me another marks again. I don't
really care. My body is now under his mercy.
I hugged his head and moaned when he started licking the most sensitive part on
my neck. He sucked and nipped the skin and I couldn't help but to let out a cry of
pleasure. I was breathing really hard and my heart beats so loud and so fast. My
body feels so hot that sweats started forming on my forehead.
"Your Majesty, please..." I pleaded but he just did whatever he wants to my
body.
It's okay. As long as I'm hearing his ragged breath and cute little moans, then
it's okay if he take his time. It just means that he's enjoying my body and I'm
giving him much pleasure as what he's doing to me.

I felt him unhooked my bra and he just throw it somewhere.

He massaged my breast and played with my nipples. I cried a moan when he flick the
crown with his fingers.
"Oh my God..." I muttered and bit my lower lip.
His kisses went down to the valley of my breast. My toes curled as I waited for
him to put my nipple inside his mouth.
He didn't disappoint me though. I moaned so loud when I felt his warm mouth as
he sucked my nipple. His tongue played with it while his other hand was massaging
my other breast and pinched my nipple. I sobbed as I couldn't take my arousal
anymore. I know that I'm already wet down there.
I could hear the sounds that his mouth is making whenever he sucked my nipple.
Palipat-lipat ang pagsipsip nya sa magkabilang dibdib ko na halos ikabaliw ko na.
Napasabunot ako sa buhok nya at napatingala na lang.
Fuck! He's just so good. Oh my God... I wouldn't be able to forget the pleasure
that he's giving me.
One of his hand went down on my tummy. Napaangat ang balakang ko nang
maramdaman ang kamay nya sa gitna ng mga hita ko. He slid his hand inside my undies
and played with my folds.
"Oh, fuck!" I sobbed and closed my eyes. Pinakiramdaman ko ang ginagawa nya sa
katawan ko. His warm mouth was still on my breast while his hand was playing with
my core. I held his wrist and grinded my hips against his fingers when he rubbed
his thumb on my clit.
He inserted two of his fingers and there was the pleasure that was building
inside my tummy. He started thrusting his fingers inside and out while I was still
grinding my hips to meet his thrusts.
"I could feel your walls clenching so hard around my fingers." he whispered on
my ears. "Wait till my cock fills you in."
Binunot nya ang mga daliri nya na halos ikaiyak ko. But I saw him unbuttoning
his shorts and he removed it together with his boxer shorts without taking his eyes
off me.
The harsh look on his face mixed with lust and desire for me made me moan.
Pumisil ang isang kamay ko sa dibdib ko habang ang isa ay bumaba sa gitna ng mga
hita ko. I touched myself while staring at his sea-green eyes.
"I want your cock inside me." I whispered. "Fuck me, Your Majesty."
I heard him groaned at marahas nyang hinubad ang natitirang saplot sa katawan
ko. He pulled my hips towards him and positioned himself in front of me. Pinanood
ko ang unti-unting pagpasok nya sa loob ko.
"Oh my fucking gosh!" I screamed and laid my back on the dining table.
Loki just groaned and didn't move for awhile. Maybe he was also feeling the
sensation of our bodies as it became one. He was stretching me and I felt the pain
that was mixed with pleasure. Tumataas-baba ang dibdib ko habang kumukuha ng
hangin. I can't get enough of him inside of me.
"Fuck, Eresh. You're still so tight." Loki groaned and he held my hips tightly.
He removed his sweatshirt. Then without a warning, he rammed his body roughly on
me.
 I made a loud moan when he started thrusting so hard and fast. My breast were
bouncing with every rough thrusts that he made. Hindi ko alam kung saan kakapit
kaya napasabunot na lang ako sa buhok ko.
"Your Majesty! Your Majesty!"
He has an intense looked on his face that added to the arousal that I'm
feeling. He just looked so sexy and beautiful with his muscles clenching everytime
he thrusts deep inside me. And it was enough to make me feel on the edge.
I was already screaming that my throat began hurting but I couldn't care less.
The feeling that he's giving me was too much and I just want to let it all out. He
looked like some god who was giving me a punishment for trying to kill him earlier.
And that punishment is a hard fuck.

He was giving me a mind-blowing fuck and I felt like I'm

going crazy. Mas humigpit ang pagkakasabunot ko sa buhok ko when I felt that I'm
getting near.
Loki must've noticed that as he massaged my breast in a painful way. I screamed
in pain and in pleasure when he pinched my nipples. And after awhile, I could feel
my walls were already clenching around his cock that made him groaned and thrusts
more violently.
Paangat nang paangat ang pakiramdam ko until I finally reached my peak. Loki
continued thrusting so hard prolonging my orgasm. Then I felt him getting bigger
inside me as he made a few more violent thrusts before pulled out and groaned as he
shoots his loads on my tummy.
I was feeling so tired as I tried to catch my breath. Loki held on the end of
of the table to support himself. He was looking at me intently while his broad
chest was heaving up and down.
"I'm hungry." I said. He sighed before he stood up and picked up his clothes.
"There's a food in the fridge. Initin mo na lang."
I sat up on the dining table, still naked and my juices were still oozing out
of my sex. But I didn't bother about it and just watched Loki wearing his shorts.
"My room is at the second floor, first door." he said while zipping up. "Knock
if you need anything. This whole building is mine so don't even think of escaping."
he said before he turned around and walked up to his room.
I remained sitting on the table and tried to ignore the emptiness that I'm
feeling. I want this. I want what happened between us. But why don't I like the
feeling of him leaving me here without helping me to clean up?
I chuckled with emptiness. Oh, well... At least I just reached an orgasm with
him.
I stood up and picked up my undies. Iyon lang ang isinuot ko. I didn't bother
to wear my dress again and walked towards the kitchen. I opened the fridge to look
for food but I grimaced when I saw the 'food' that Loki was talking about.
I went up to his room 'cause I will never eat the food that was on the fridge.
It's adobong baboy and I don't really like adobo. I knocked on his door a few times
before he opened it.
My mouth formed a small 'o' when I saw his topless body. I stared shamelessly
at his eight-pack abs and his broad chest. I suddenly wanted to have a round two of
what we did earlier.
"What is it?" he asked but I saw him eyeing my body as well earlier.
"I don't like the food that's on the fridge." I said and finally looked at his
eyes. I saw him frowned.
"Then don't eat it."
"What should I eat, then? I'm hungry."
He sighed. "There's a food in the fridge-"
I cut him off. "I said I don't like it-"
"Then don't eat it!" he hissed.
I was surprised when I heard his annoyed voice but he was trying so hard not to
shout at me. He sighed and ran his fingers on his hair.
 "Look, you're hungry and there's a food in the fridge that you can eat. Now, if
you're a picky eater, then it's not my problem anymore. I won't cook for you."
I raised an eyebrow at him and crossed my arms over my chest. "I need clothes
as well if you're planning to keep me in here."
"There are clothes in the walk-in closet inside your room."
My jaw dropped because of the shock. "Those rubbish clothes? You'll let me wear
those rubbish clothes?!"
Those were only a simple blouse and some T-shirts for woman. Jeans and some
shorts and a not-so-elegant looking dress. If only I didn't know that he's a
royalty, then I would think that those were not a branded clothes na nabili lang sa
ukay-ukay.
"I don't like those clothes!" tili ko na. Loki chuckled and smirked at me like
he's mocking me.
"Do you think I care?" he asked which made me grit my teeth. "Then don't wear
it. I don't mind you walking around my place naked."
Oh, this naughty boy!
In my mind, I was imitating his words with his thick British accent.
D'yah think I cah? Fuck you!
Sunod-sunod akong huminga ng malalim to calm myself. I was even thankful to him
because he brought me here and not to some filthy place. But he can be a real jerk
sometimes if he wanted to.
"Fine!" I said and turned my back against him. I heard his husky chuckle before
he closed the door.
I could do a hunger strike but I don't want to starve myself. I am a Queen. Why
would I do that? I still have plans. And besides, I'm really hungry right now at
hindi ko na matitiis ang gutom ko.
Fuck it. I have no choice but to eat that shitty adobo.

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Chapter 9

I can't do this anymore. It's been a week that I'm here in

Loki's penthouse and yet he's only making me eat Filipino dish! I have no problem
with those, except for Adobo, but since I'm not used at eating Filipino dish
everyday, my stomach couldn't bare it anymore and I just wanted to vomit all the
foods inside!
What is wrong with Loki? Does he likes these kind of foods then? He's a
royalty, a British so I'm so sure that he's not used to those dishes as well but
the fuck! Iyon na lang ang palaging nakahain sa fridge!
I don't have an idea who's cooking. Basta, I will just wake up in the morning
and find Loki on the living room doing some works or talking to people over the
phone. Then he will tell me that there's a food in the fridge that I can reheat if
I got hungry. But it's always Filipino dishes! I'm not used at eating rice
everyday!
Instead of planning to kill him, I don't have any strength to use 'cause I
don't really like the food that I'm eating everyday. I just couldn't starve myself
since I don't want to get hungry. Food is the source of strength of the human body
so I still need to eat in order to kill the EL Ordre's King.
I don't wanna be weak. But I just couldn't take this anymore. I have to do
something.
When I got up and went downstairs, Loki was not on the living room which is
just a good thing since I can do my plan freely. I think he's inside his room,
still sleeping.
I went to where the telephone is. He didn't bother hiding it 'cause he's
confident that if I call any reinforcements, they wouldn't be able to get inside
the building and take me. He trusts whoever's guarding this place. But I don't plan
on calling anyone to get help anyway.
I still have plans. I need to buy more time.
I dialed on the number of my favorite pizza parlor. I suddenly crave for pizza
after a week of eating rice and some Filipino ulam. Nakakasawa naman na kasi.
I ordered a whole box of pizza and lasagna that I will save for later. Para
kahit ngayong araw lang ay hindi ako makatikim ng kanin!
But I stopped when they asked me the address where it will be delivered.
Fuck... I forgot about that one. That was also one the reasons why Loki was so
confident to leave the telephone here 'cause he knows that i don't know where I am.
And nobody would track me anymore since Alter just joined the EL Ordre.
That traitor... I knew that she'll also leave me one day.
I couldn't just ask Loki for the address, could I?
So I tried to find anything that will have the address of this house. Any
receipt for something that was also delivered in here. Hindi naman ako nabigo at
nakahanap ako. It was from the courier for something that Loki purchased online and
was delivered here.
I'm so lucky! I'll have my pizza today!
Ang sabi ng kausap ko is to expect my orders forty-five minutes to one hour. So
I decided to take a bath while waiting.
I forgot the other problem that I have. The clothes. I don't really like the
clothes that Loki have bought me. It was too simple. A Queen like doesn't suit
simple. It should always be extravagant and elegant things. It's a good thing that
I'm really beautiful and oozing with sexiness so even with the simple clothes on,
it still looks good on me.
As expected from the Queen like me.
I heard the doorbell rang while I was blow-drying my hair. Is that the food
already? But it's been only thirty minutes, I'm not even ready yet and was only
wearing my bathrobe!
The doorbell stopped which made me panicked a bit. It means that Loki opened
the door and he might shoo the delivery boy away since he doesn't know that I
ordered the food!

So I went down, with my bathrobe on and a damp hair. I

don't wanna eat rice today and I even had a hard time ordering those food! It was
Enkidu who's always ordering for me kaya ayokong masayang ang effort ko ngayon!
"It must be an understanding." I heard Loki talking to someone on the door.
"Hindi ako nagpa-deliver nito."
Wow... He doesn't have any accent when he's speaking in Filipino. Parang sanay
na sanay na syang magsalita in Tagalog.
"Eh, Sir. Dito po naka-address, eh." I heard a voice of a man, probably in his
early twenties. It must be a delivery boy.
So I went near them before Loki could say anything. Those are my food and I
swear I will not eat Filipino dish for today!
"Is that the food?" sabi ko nang makababa. Both of them looked at me and I
walked near the delivery boy with a poise. "Well, that was fast."
I noticed Loki eyed me from head to toe. He looked so annoyed so I just winked
and smiled seductively at him.
"You ordered that?" he asked. Halata sa boses na naiinis pa din.
"Yes." I answered and took the box of pizza and lasagna from the delivery boy.
"You can get the payment from him." I pointed Loki with my lips who looked so
surprised. Pero iniwan ko na sila sa may pinto at pumunta sa dining table to start
eating my food. I stared at the table for a couple of minutes before I sat down on
the chair.
Memories... Bring back memories.
I can't help but to get excited while opening the box of pizza. Fuck, finally!
I won't have to bare eating rice and Filipino ulam for today! Hindi na talaga kaya
ng tyan ko. Masusuka na ako kapag pinilit ko pa. And geez... One more rice and I
think I will have a belly fats!
I was already eating my first slice of pizza when Loki went inside. He stood in
front of me, hands on his hips and his stance looks like he will scold me for being
a bad girl.
I'm sorry, Your Majesty. I've been a very bad girl.
I stared at him while chewing the pizza inside my mouth. It's too early in the
morning and yet the whole place is getting hot because of his sexiness. He was only
wearing a simple gray shirt and a maong pants but he looked like a fucking model.
Why does he have to be handsome and hot anyway? And those sea-green eyes, fuck... I
remember the look in his eyes full of lust and desire for me.
"May I remind you that you are an abductee here and you can't just do whatever
you want." he said and I could tell that he's annoyed.
I offered the box of pizza to him. "Pizza, you want?"
"How in the bloody hell did you know the exact address of this place?"
"On the receipt."
I pointed to him the receipt that I pinned on the fridge. Para sa susunod na
mag-order ako ng pagkain ay hindi na ako mahihirapan sa paghahanap ng address.
Besides, I memorized it anyway.
"Don't worry. I only called the pizza parlor to order food. I won't tell my
chess pieces that I'm here since I'm enjoying my time with you anyway."
He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. Mukhang malapit na syang mawalan
ng pasensya sa akin. I just shrugged my shoulders and took another slice of pizza.
"This will be the last time that you'll do this. I won't pay for your food the
next time." he said and just like that, he went up to his room again.
I just shrugged my shoulders and continued eating my pizza. And since that I'm
a good citizen, I decided to left some for Loki. Baka katulad ko ay nagsasawa na
rin sya sa araw-araw na rice and ulam.
I feel so refreshed after I finished eating my food. I fucking satisfied my
cravings for today! Now, I will have the strength to make a plan and kill the EL
Ordre's King while I'm staying here.
Does he have any weakness that I can use against him?
I went up and was about to go inside my room when I got curious to the room in
the middle. There are three rooms in this floor, the first door was for Loki, and
mine was at the end of the hallway. I don't know who's room is this so my curiosity
got in me.
I opened the door and went inside. I was greeted of a wide room that has a
simple interior but still looked elegant. It was a mixed of rose gold and white and
there's a king size bed inside, a bathroom and a walk-in closet. It was obvious
that nobody was using this for a long time pero mukhang araw-araw pa ring
nililinis.
Who owns this room? This looks better than mine!
"What are you doing here?"
I quickly turned around when I heard Loki's voice. He was standing on the
doorway while looking at me with a frown on his face. I looked around the room
again.
"This is such a magnificent room." I said before I returned my gaze to him. "I
want to stay here."
He didn't say anything but I noticed that his face darkened. Inilang hakbang
nya lang ang pagitan namin before he held my arm firmly and pulled me out of the
room.
"That hurts!" I said when he let go of my arm in a harsh way.
He closed the door, locked it and faced me. "Do not enter this room again."
It was my turn to frown. "Why? Who's room was that?"
"None of your damn business." I noticed his jaw moved when he gritted his
teeth. He looked so mad because I went inside that fucking room. "Do not enter this
room again." he repeated. May diin sa bawat salita.
I crossed my arms over my chest to let him know that I'm not afraid of him.
"Or else?"
His eyes became so cold that I almost shivered when he looked down at me. My
heart started to beat so fast because of nervousness as I stared at him with danger
in his eyes.
Fuck... He looked so handsome with an angry look on his face.
"You wouldn't like it if I get mad." he hissed with every words. "Have I made
myself clear?"
"Yes, Your Majesty." I answered 'cause he looked like he wasn't going to accept
any answer other than that.
He stared at me really hard for quite some time before he turned around and
walked inside his room again. Naiwan ako dito sa labas ng kwarto na sinabi nyang
huwag kong papasukin ulit.
The owner of this room was obviously a woman. With a rose gold and white
interior like that, and most of the things are light in color.
He loves the woman who owns that room.
I smirked. I think I know now his weakness.

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Chapter 10

I was staring at my reflection in the mirror that was here

inside the bathroom. I could only see the upper part of my body. Nakatukod ang mga
kamay ko sa edge ng sink. I was only wearing my undies and my long blonde hair
flowed beautifully down to my waist.
Others always tell me that I'm beautiful and looked like a doll with a hair
like this. But as I stared in the mirror, I could only see a weak and disgusting
girl trying to look brave and strong.
Some girls would get insecure because of my looks. I have a pretty face, a
beautiful body. Men would always, always turn their heads when I'm walking around.
I have the face and body that other girls would die for.
But still, I feel so pathetic.
I could still see the kissmarks that Loki made onto my neck. That was the only
flaw that I could see on my skin but other than that, my skin looked so flawless
plus the fact that I have a white skin.
Still disgusting.
My eyes went up and I stared on my face again. I tried to conceal all my
emotions and hardened the expression on my face. That's right. That's it. I should
keep on showing off my power. I should try to look intimidating. I only have these.
I only have my brain and my beauty. The only strength that I have.
I lifted my left arm and saw a small wound on the softest part of my inner arm.
Mukhang kakahilom pa lang ng sugat. Yucca implanted a small communication device on
my skin before the day Alter came back to betray me. It was a waterproof device. We
were expecting something like this to happen. That's why I went with the EL Ordre's
King in here without a second thought since all of these were just a part of a
plan.
I took the scissors with my right hand. I picked up the towel and bit it. Then,
using only one blade from the scissors, I stab the part of my arm to where the
wound is. I screamed so hard when I felt the pain but the sounds I made were only
muffled because of the towel on my mouth. Mariin ang pagkagat ko para doon ibuhos
ang sakit.
When the wound got opened up again, I used my thumb and my forefinger to pick
up the nano device on my skin. My vision became blurry and I almost blacked out
because of the pain but I fought it in. I was screaming and biting the towel in my
mouth just to stop the excruciating pain.
Blood was dripping on the sink because of the open wound on my arm. Basa na ang
kamay ko dahil sa dami ng dugo but I ignored it and focused on getting the nano
device on my skin. It will only prolong my pain if I don't concentrate. It was so
small so I had a hard time finding it.
 I don't know how long I tried but I finally got the nano device out. I closed
my eyes tightly to keep my consciousness. When I opened my eyes again, I could see
in the mirror how pale I was because of the blood that I've loss. I was also
breathing so hard and my heart beats so fast to pump more blood.
I got the hanky I prepared and tied it on my arm tightly to stop the bleeding.
Then I wipe the blood from the nano device and turned it on before I placed it on
my ear. I heard a click from the other line as I leaned my body on the sink.
"Your Majesty." it was Yucca's voice.
"Yucca... How's the King?" I asked with a weak voice.
Fuck it. That blood loss drained my energy.
"We did what you have said, Your Majesty. Where are you? Enkidu is worried
about you."
I wiped the sweat on my forehead. My vision was still blurry and I feel so
fucking weak. Fuck. Ganito lang pero nanghihina na kaagad ako.
"It doesn't really matter." I said. "I want an update about the King's
condition."
I could hear some shuffling sounds from the other line as I waited for Yucca to
speak. I know that Enkidu is also with her. My Bishop was just waiting patiently
for me to speak to him.

"The drug is taking its effects, Your Majesty. But these

past few days, it seems like it's not working quite well. He seems so confused with
his memories. I think that you have to talk to him. He's always looking for you."
I cursed. Fuck. This was the only downside with this kidnap thing. I am buying
some time for us but it will affect the plan that I have for our King. I am the
only one who can manipulate his brain and memories really well.
Afterall, it is my expertise.
I studied the art of manipulation really hard ever since I've learned that I
will be a Queen someday. I was really insecure with my physical strength so I tried
to find another way for me to have a fair fight in this game. And that is to be
smart and to know how to use my power really well.
I've learn that the young ones were the easy ones to manipulate. They will
believe the elders' words without any second thoughts. They will follow everything
that I say. So when I saw Alter, Yucca and Sieg on my team, I was beyond happy.
They became my loyal followers aside from Enkidu. They did whatever I said.
They followed all of my orders. They feared my every words.
But now, all of them betrayed me because of love.
Love, the thing that I lack but always complicates everything around me.
It was a good thing that Yucca came back to my side because of love as well.
Her love for King Lancer. She knew better than to betray me again.
Love could also destroy everything.
"Tell me more." I said. My vision are mow getting clearer.
"He's always asking me questions about his past. I tried to answer him the way
you told me but I'm not good with this, Your Majesty. I might mess everything up
again."
I heaved a deep sigh. I appreciate Yucca being honest with me. She doesn't have
an idea on how to manipulate people. Plus, she loves King Lancer so maybe she was
having a hard time doing this and lying to him.
"I'll talk to Enkidu." I said. Ilang saglit lang ay nadinig ko na ang boses ng
Bishop ko sa kabilang linya.
"Your Majesty... It's me."
"Enkidu. Give King Lancer a shot of the drug. I'm going talk to him."
"Yes, Your Majesty."
I heard shuffling and I waited for Enkidu to do what I have ordered him to do.
Yucca and him have a knowledge in medical field so I know that they wouldn't fail
from this. Our plan will be successful.
"Kailangan ba talaga 'yan?" dinig kong tanong ni King Lancer. Probably, Enkidu
showed him the injection.
"Yes, Your Majesty. It is a medicine to make you feel better and it can bring
back your strength quickly." Enkidu answered.
"Where's the Queen? Gusto ko syang makita."
I smirked. This poor boy is just so adorable.
"Let me talk to him, Enkidu." I said when I'm certain that Enkidu had already
injected the drug. I'm sure that it will take its effects soon.
"Sino 'to?" it was King Lancer's voice.
"My King..." I called him using a sweet tone.
"My Queen!" he exclaimed and he sounded a bit panicked. "Where are you, My
Queen? I wanna see you."
I chuckled. "I can't tell you, My King. But I have to do this to polish our
plan."
Hindi sya nagsalita. Yucca was right. He was now in a confused state so I
readied myself for his questions.
"W-what plan? Kill every EL Ordre's members?" he was hesitating even.
I tsked. It was only a week away from him and yet he had already became like
this. Yucca and Enkidu aren't doing a good job on manipulating his brain. Looks
like I still have to be the one to do this.
"Yes. That's what you wanted to do, right?" I said.
"But... I remembered something." he paused. "In my memory, inaalagaan ako ng
Kuya ko. Our parents got killed. Sya na ang tumayong magulang ko simula noon.
Mukhang mahal na mahal nya ako, Eresh."
I gritted my teeth. What were Enkidu and Yucca's doing to make him remember
those feelings?! Fuck those incompetent idiots!
"My King..." pinalambing ko ang boses ko. "Don't you remember what happened to
you? They made you their bait. They were so busy saving themselves and left you
while the enemies were shooting you like some kind of rat."
He didn't say anything. I know that the drug is now taking its effect so I must
do a better job.
"And do you remember when your brother only thought for his girl who's now his
wife? He did everything to protect her kaya nakalimutan nyang may kapatid sya. He
protected her with all his life pero sa huli ay ikaw ang nagbayad. Your life was
the payment, Gray. At sya lang ang masaya ngayon while you're suffering."
I stood up straight as I stared on the mirror. The bleeding has stopped so my
strength is now coming back. I watched the expression on my face as I tried to talk
with Grayson James Sanford, the former Rook of EL Ordre.
"He maybe treated you like he loves you at first. But it was because he planned
everything. He made you feel loved so you will trust him. But in the end, he will
just use you to be the bait so they could capture me."
"P-paanong makukuha ka nila dahil sa akin?" he asked and he sounds really,
really confused.
I clicked my tongue. "Gray, My King... Do you think that we would be talking
right now if that mission wasn't because of me? They maybe told you that they found
the Rook who killed your parents but they knew that they can find me through him."
"I'm..."
Hinintay ko ang iba pa nyang sasabihin pero hindi na dumating. I smirked at
myself.
"I'm sorry about what happened to your parents but the Rook did it without my
orders. Believe me, Gray. I wouldn't save you that day if I wanted to kill all of
you." I hummed. "I knew your potential, Gray. Yucca— Violet always tells stories
about you so I knew about your strength. I knew that you are stronger than your
brother."
"Yes... Yes, I'm stronger than him." he said coldly.
"That's right, My King. He planned everything from the start. He molded you to
be just their bait. But Yucca saved you. I saved you and gave you another chance so
you can prove yourself."
"Tama. You are right, My Queen."
I chuckled. "So let's stick to our plan, okay?"
 "Stick to our plan." he said with an authority in his voice with a mix of
coldness. "I will let you do the work. I know you are smart, My Queen."
"Don't worry, My King. I will polish the way for you so you can walk on a
smooth road. All you have to do is to kill them one by one and have your revenge.
Leave the King to me. I will be the one to kill him."
I will let him kill the EL Ordre's members but I want to be the one who will
kill the their King. I will prove to them that I am more powerful than him.
And then I will kill the gamemasters.
"Yes, My Queen. I trust you." And just like that, I manipulated him again.
I smirked.
"Thank you, King Lancer."

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Chapter 11

The first thing that I felt when I woke up the next morning
was the pain on my arm. The pain was almost unbearable that my body felt so weak.
But I ignored it and had a hard time getting up. I almost blacked out while doing
so.
Fuck... It was really painful. I can't even move my left arm even slightly
without feeling so much pain. I took a deep breath and calm myself to regain my
strength. Maybe it was hurting so much since I didn't move much on my sleep. The
pain would probably subside later.
Ignoring the pain on my arm, I walked towards the bathroom to take a bath. I
was careful not to make any sudden movements with my left arm 'cause I feel like
the pain will just drain my strength. It's so early in the morning so I don't want
to start the day feeling so weak.
I cleaned up my wound after I took a bath with the antiseptic that I've found
from the first aid kit in the walk-in closet. I put a dressed my wound as a final
step.
I stared at myself in the mirror. My left arm looked swollen because of the
wound. No wonder it hurts so much. But it's a good thing na nabawasan rin naman ang
sakit compared earlier.
Loki will definitely notice this. I know that he is smart so he might have a
suspucion as to why I got this if he sees my wound.
So I decided to look for clothes that will cover my whole left arm. I found a
turtleneck sweater so I chose that one. It was way too different on how I usually
dress but at least Loki wouldn't see the wound on my arm. If he asks questions
about my clothes, then I will just think of an alibi. The more important thing is
that he shouldn't see my wound.
I put on a shorts with ripped design to show skin and counter the sweatshirt
that almost covered my whole upper body. Maybe Loki wouldn't have a suspicion kapag
nagpakita pa rin ako ng balat.
It's a good thing that I'm a right-handed so I don't have to use my left arm
that much. The wound I did was a bit deep and I couldn't move without the grimaced
on my face. It was so hard to act like I'm not hurting when in fact, the pain was
too much.
I went out of the room and stopped in front of the door that Loki warned me not
to enter. I am really curious about the woman who owns this room that made Loki
react like that. He was always so composed and had the mischievous smirk on his
lips and that was the only time that I saw him getting mad like that.
I tried to turn the doorknob to open the door but as expected, it was locked. I
have the knowledge on how to pick a lock but I'm not in the mood today since
there's this fucking wound on my arm.
Maybe next time. But I have to find a way to find out who the owner of this
room is.
 Before, I could just ask Alter if I want someone's information and she will
gladly do it. But now that she chose to betray me and side with EL Ordre, we don't
have any tracker in our team anymore. Enkidu knows stuffs about hacking but it
isn't enough.
I need someone who has the same skills as Alter.
I decided to go down and I saw Loki who was on the phone again. He looked so
handsome in his plain white shirt and maong shorts. But anyway, lahat naman ay
bagay sa kanya.
He already saw me even before I reached the last step of the stairs. He frowned
and eyed me from head to toe before he stared really hard on my sweater. I just
raised an eyebrow at him like this outfit was just a usual thing for me.
"Yeah, someone will take over my position for a while." I heard him say over
the phone but his eyes never left me. Particularly on my outfit.
I just shrugged my shoulders and went on the kitchen. I opened the fridge and
sighed in contentment when I saw the normal breakfast meal that I usually eat.
Bacon, hotdog, egg and a fresh milk. I poured a glass of milk to start the day.

"Hand him over my unfinished works. And guide him with my

schedule." Loki said over the phone when I went out of the kitchen again.
"Alright."
He ended the call and frowned at me. He eyed me from head to toe again while I
naturally drink my milk.
"What's with you today?" he asked.
I had never dressed like this before since my stay in here so maybe it is new
to him to see me like this. I don't like these kind of clothes, except in winter,
and it's really so out of my character kaya siguro ganito ang reaksiyon nya.
"Nothing." I said and shrugged my shoulders.
He stared at me and I stared back at him. He looked like he was analyzing as to
why I am dressed like this.
Fuck it. It was only a small change in me and yet he was thinking about this
really hard.
"You're hiding something." he said as a statement.
I brought the glass of milk to my lips to hide my smirk. I'm impressed. He got
it right just like that. He's really smart, huh?
Looks like I can never deceive this man.
I put down the glass on the dining table and smiled sweetly at him. "Perhaps I
am."
I got excited when he started walking towards me with a serious expression on
his face. God... He looked so sexy with any expressions on. He is the epitome of
sexiness for a man.
I almost gasped when he stopped in front of me and I inhaled his scent. It was
sweet, but not too sweet with a mix of earthy and woody scent. Basta. He smells so
good and so manly.
"What are you hiding, hm?" he asked and dipped his head until our faces were
only a few inches apart.
Fuck... I am addicted with the smell of his fresh mint breath.
"I'm not hiding anything." I said casually. There is no freaking way that I
will tell the truth even if I am this attracted to him.
His sea-green eyes stared at my eyes. I felt that feeling again. The feeling of
drowning while I was staring back at him. I think that even if I sail every oceans
and seas around the world, I would never find the color same as his eyes.
Sea-green. Hindi na siguro ako makakakita ng ganitong kagandang kulay like his
eyes.
I got back from my dazed when I noticed the side of his lips rose for a smirk.
"Should I undress you to find out what you're hiding?"
He said that in a seductive way that I got so excited. But I tried to keep it
in and just raised an eyebrow at him.
 "Can you make me though?" I challenge him and he just chuckled. That low,
almost groan-like chuckle.
"I can undress you in just two minutes."
It was my turn to chuckle now. "You're so full of yourself, Your Majesty. Do it
if you think you really can."
I saw the glint of playfulness in his eyes as he laughed and pulled me by the
waist. I suppressed my gasped and raised my chin to show him that I am not afraid.
"Alright, then, my temptress."
He quickly attacked my lips right after he said that. The feeling if his warm
lips against mine makes me almost lose myself. So I tried to touch my wound to feel
the pain and keep my sanity intact.
Damn it. He's a really good-kisser!
I should concentrate and don't let him win. Maghihinala sya kapag nakita nya
ang sugat ko so he mustn't see this. He's smart and I know that he will have an
idea about what I did.
But his lips taste so sweet. His kisses felt so good. He held my arms and made
me clung on his shoulders. Nawala na ang sakit sa braso ko at ang nararamdaman ko
na lang ay ang sarap ng halik nya.
He chewed on my lower lip before he sucked and used his tongue to trace my
lips. That's when I finally lose everything. I kissed him back forgetting about the
wound that I must hide.
Fuck... I should be the one who's seducing him.
And when he inserted his tongue inside my mouth, I couldn't help but to stifle
a moan. He deepened the kiss and I meet his tongue with mine.
I could feel his hands were now inside of my sweater, touching and pinching my
soft skin. I felt him massaging my breast and it was enough to make me go crazy.
He lifted my sweater and we stopped kissing to let him removed my top. Naitaas
ko na ang dalawang mga braso ko when I felt the pain from my wound and my sanity
came back to me again. Before I could stop him, he had already removed my sweater.
I saw the desire in his eyes when he looked at my exposed breast but it was
gone when his eyes shifted on my left arm. Madaling mapansin dahil sa gauge na
nakatakip sa sugat. He frowned and held my arm.
Before I could take it back from him, he suddenly removed the gauge and I let
out a curse of pain. He did it with a sudden movement and fuck! It freaking hurts!
"Where in the bloody hell did you get that?" he asked while staring at my fresh
wound.
Sinubukan kong bawiin ang braso ko but he just wouldn't let me. He was frowning
and I kinda memorized this look of him. Kapag ganitong magkasalubong ang mga kilay
nya, he was thinking and analyzing of something.
And he probably thought of something since I saw him gritting his teeth that
made his jaw moved. He let go of my arm and he looked at me with a very dark
expression on his face.
"Get dressed and pack some clothes." he said and turned his back at me.
I tsked. "I didn't tell them where I am!" Damn. Nabitin ako sa halik!
He looked at me again and I can see the mischief in his eyes as he smirk at me.
"I'm gonna take you to the EL Ordre's hideout." he cocked his head. "But before
that... Let's do something about your Bishop first." and he walked away just like
that.
Naiinis na pinulot ko ang sweater sa sahig. Fuck! So much of hiding this
fucking wound!
Loki is a good manipulator as well!

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Chapter 12

I grimaced with disgust as I put these shitty clothes

inside the travelling bag that I've found in the walk-in closet. I feel like crying
whenever I imagined myself wearing these. But I have no choice since I know that
Loki won't buy me clothes anyway!
I groaned. Fuck! The only thing that was good when I was abducted was when he
bought me in here instead to some disgusting place, and of course, those intimate
moments with the King of EL Ordre. If not then maybe, first day pa lang ay
tinakasan na ako ng sanity ko.
Loki said that we will go to the EL Ordre's hideout. I know that he found out
how I got my wound. He's too smart to know that I kept a communication device in my
body and used it to contact my chess pieces. But he didn't believe me when I said
that I didn't mention  where I am.
Oh well... I don't trust him as well. I just had to do this to buy more time
for our plan.
I will leave King Lancer to Yucca and Enkidu. They should do everything for our
plan to be successful while I'm buying the time for them.
I groaned in dismay when I put the last cloth in the bag. I zipped it close
when I noticed a presence like someone is watching me. It was only faint but I was
able to feel it since I had my training. And when I looked towards the door, I was
right. I saw Loki leaning on the doorjamb while playing with his lips. I remember
that he was doing that very same gesture when we first met.
I wanted to take a picture of him 'cause he looked like he was posing for a
billboard ad but unfortunately, I don't have my phone with me. He just looked so
good while leaning casually on the doorjamb like that with his black pants and gray
button-down shirt. His hair was disheveled like he just brushed it with his fingers
but that just made him looked more sexy. And fuck... The way he played with his
lips seems so sensual to me.
"Do you need anything?" I asked with a sweet smile on my face, ignoring the
feeling that I'm started to feel whenever I see him. I'm not in the mood for a good
fuck because of the fucking wound in my arm. It still hurts.
Loki just stared down at me like he's analyzing me. I don't know but I really
like it when he's looking at me this way. His sea-green eyes would darkened as he
stares at me and I would feel delighted that those beautiful orbs were just on me.
He sighed and fished something out of the pocket of his pants. He threw it to
me and I tried catch it in an instinct. I frowned when I saw that it's a medicine
bottle.
"What's this?" I asked. I'm not in the mood to read those small letters.
"Pain reliever." he answered. "I'm certain that your wound is painful."
He was looking at my left arm that was already exposed because of the tank top
that I'm wearing. There's no need to hide it since he already saw it. And he's
right. My wound feels so painful than ever. The skin around it were now swollen and
reddish.
I never expected him that he will give me a pain reliever for this. Wala nga
syang pakialam kung kakainin ko ang mga pagkain sa fridge since I never failed on
complaining to him everyday about the food that he's giving me. Sinasabi nya lang
na huwag kong kainin kung ayaw ko, not giving a fuck if I will starve myself.
But now, should I assume that he's concern for me?
I smiled sweetly before I stood up and walked towards him. I choose not to
appreciate his concern since it's useless anyway. Wala rin naman patutunguhan 'to.
"Aww, I'm so touched." I said and put a hand over my chest to where my heart
is. "Thank you for your concern, Your Majesty. But there's no need for that."
He sighed and he looked like he's annoyed but was just composing himself. I
chuckled 'cause he just looked so cute while doing so.
"I am not concerned." he said. "I just don't want you to die on me. I need to
know where our Rook is."

"Yeah, yeah." I said and waved a hand, dismissing the

thought.
 "Do you want me to care for you, then?" he askes with a mischievous glint in
his eyes.
I raised an eyebrow at him. I don't have any clue as to where he wants this
conversation to end. But I decided to played with him.
"Would you, though?" I asked and smiled at him seductively. "Would you care for
me, Your Majesty?"
He smirked and took a step forward to close our distance. I could already smell
his expensive cologne. He tucked the strands of my hair behind my ears and leaned
on me to whisper something.
"No." he whispered and I felt his warm breath on my ears. "You are not
important to me, my temptress."
Lumayo sya sa akin, still with a smirk on his lips. I just chuckled and crossed
my arms over my chest. If he thinks that I will feel insulted because of what he
had said, then he is wrong. I am not expecting something from him anyway.
Those fucking that we did were all just to satisfy our lust. And we both know
that.
"The feeling is mutual, Your Majesty." I said and copied the smirk on his lips.
"Good to know." he looked over my shoulder. "Are you done?"
I nodded and he walked further inside the room to get the travelling bag. He's
still a gentleman even with a harsh mouth, huh?
I saw a cheap looking sunglasses but there was no way in hell that I would wear
that. I will still look elegant even without that so I just followed Loki when we
went out of his penthouse and rode the elevator.
"What's wrong with Enkidu?" I asked, remembering when he said that he will do
something about my Bishop.
"He's been eyeing Alter's father." he answered without even looking at me.
"Why would he do that?" I asked, surprised. I thought that he's with King
Lancer? What the fuck does he want from Alter's father?
Loki shrugged his shoulders. "Maybe he wants to know where you are."
Ah, I get it. He was waiting for Alter to visit her father to ask her about me.
Alam nyang hindi kayang tiniisin ni Alter ang ama nya. But still, I told him to
watch over the King!
"That idiot." I said, gritting my teet that made Loki chuckled.
And he was right. When we got to Alter's place, I saw them in the middle of the
road of that subdivision like they were shooting for a fucking action movie. Enkidu
is pointing his gun to the man beside Alter but there's someone behind him who was
pointing a gun on his head. I lost all my poise as I balled my fist and gritted my
teeth. I thought that Enkidu was the smartest among my chess pieces but he can be
stupid sometimes!
Both Loki and I went out of the car. They were already looking at us and I saw
how Enkidu's face lit up when he saw me.
"Your Majesty..."
"Put down your gun, Enkidu."
He seems surprised by my order. "I will, Your Majesty. But please, come back to
the hideout with me."
I took a deep breath to maintain my composure. I almost smirked when I realized
what he is doing. He was doing this for a show. Magtataka nga naman ang mga taga-EL
Ordre if none of them wouldn't do something like this to find me.
Fuck, Enkidu. You're the best piece for me.
"I won't." I said, playing with his acting.
Enkidu's eyes widened and that seems so natural. "Your Majesty—"

"Be a good servant like you've always been. Put down your
gun. Don't ruin my plan, Enkidu." I said using my authoritative voice.
He put down his gun so I turned my back 'cause the show is over. I was about ro
open the car's door when he asked something again.
"Where are you going, Your Majesty?"
 "Don't follow us."
Loki opened the car's door for me so I slid inside. I saw him smirked at Enkidu
who looked so hurt for some reason.
"He's smitten to you." Loki said when he began driving the car again. I just
crossed my arms over my chest and leaned my back on the backrest.
"I know."
He bought me to the EL Ordre's hideout and I was surprised when I saw that it
was just an ordinary home. The sofas were arranged in a circle so I assumed that
this is where they do their meetings?
Naghihirap na ba ang EL Ordre?
"Bring me back my brother."
I heard the man said and when I saw his gray eyes, I immediately knew that he
was the other Sanford, Gray's brother.
"He's dead." I said and I noticed the fury in his eyes when I said that.
Susugurin nya na sana ako but two of the EL Ordre's members tried stop him. I
just chuckled and looked at the Rook with surprised on my face.
"What's with that reaction?" I asked and looked at Alter. "You didn't tell
them, Alter?"
All heads turned towards Alter who almost cried when he saw the pained and
hopeful expression on the Rook's face.
"He's alive." she said. I just rolled my eyes and snorted.
So she hasn't told them yet? I can't help but to smirk.
"Tracer!"
The Rook took out his gun and pointed it at me. He really looked like he will
do it without any second thought. But I just calmly leaned my back on the sofa and
stared at him.
"Tell me where my brother is. Or I'm gonna fucking kill you."
I chuckled and stood up. I walked towards him and held his hand with the gun
and guided it to my head.
"Go on. Shoot me. Then you will never know if he's really dead or alive."
The Rook's eyes looked murderous as he stared at me. Pero ngumiti lang ako sa
kanya. I know that he can't do it. He won't and can't. That's because of his love
for his brother.
Love, again...
"You're no fun." I said when he put down his gun. I sat on the sofa again and
tried to feel comfortable.
I noticed Loki and the man in the leather jacket were talking to each other.
Their topic must be confidential as they were only whispering to one another.
Then I noticed something. The man in the leather jacket were the one who do the
talking while Loki was just listening attentively to him. It looked like that man's
words were important to him as he nodded to let him know that he understands
whatever he's saying.
I chuckled. Then my chuckle turned into a laughter. I laughed so hard that's
why everyone in the room looked at me.
"This is insane!" I exclaimed.
They all looked like they were confused as to why am I laughing. But this is
just ridiculous!
"Oh my God. This is insane! This is really, really insane!"
I now understand why Nergal acted like that to the man in the leather jacket.
I've been with my pet for all his life and I was the one who trained him. I know
him too well. Hindi sya magiging ganoong kaamo sa kahit sino lang.
"I must say that it's a good startegy, gentlemen." I said, looking at the two
of them.
"Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?" asked the man in a hoodie jacket.
I smirked. They didn't know anything, huh?
I pointed at Loki. "Fourth or Loki or whatsoever. He is not the real King."
Everyone looked so confused and I can't help but to chuckle. I am enjoying
this.
I pointed at the man in the leather jacket this time. "It is him. He is the
real King of EL Ordre.
Nergal let Loki pat his head because he's a real royalty, a royal blood. But he
let the man in the leather jacket pet him because he's the real King of EL Ordre.
I bit my lower lip. That was a really good strategy. Even I thought that Loki
was the King. With a stance and authority like that, and being a royal blood and
all. So I just assumed that he's the King.
But then I understand everything. He let him introduced himself to me, giving
me his full name to let me think like that. Especially that it was just a normal
thing for him to have an authoritative aura.
I smirked. His name really suits him.
Loki, the god of mischief. As I got deceived by him.

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Chapter 13

I was staring intently at the window while I was sitting on

the sofa inside my room. My nails dugged on the armrest of the sofa and I could
feel that its leather skin is now near in tearing apart. My face remained calm but
based on the nails that want to destroy this sofa, it is the proof of what I am
feeling inside.
I raised an eyebrow and lifted my chin, trying to imagine that there's someone
in front of me that I need to intimidate when the truth is, I am alone inside this
room. I don't want to go out, not that they will let me anyway. But I need more
time to accept that I have been deceived.
Aius, the real King of EL Ordre, told everything as to why Loki and him needed
to exchange their chess pieces. And he answered the question as to why one of my
Knight suddenly disappeared after Ross told me that he had a suspicion who the EL
Ordre's King is. It looks like he was right on his suspicion. Thus, he was killed
to keep the truth as a secret.
And here I thought that Ross was the brainless among my chess pieces. He will
always, always rush without having a plan. But he was the first one to know that
Aius is the King of EL Ordre. He even beat me into it.
I gritted my teeth when I remembered what I have discovered. I can't fucking
believe that I have been deceived!
I shouldn't have just judge Aius by his appearance. I shouldn't have just based
everything on Loki's name! Even if he's a royalty, there can be someone who is much
more stronger than him!
My nails dugged even more into the leather skin of the sofa and I felt it
ripped apart that I even felt the foam underneath it. But I didn't care. I was so
fucking mad that I want to throw everything that I could see.
Fuck it! How could I be so careless?! Just because I was attracted and
mesmerized by Loki's sea-green eyes, I didn't even thought of the possibility that
he's not the King! Even Nergal knew that Aius is the one!
I suddenly miss my pet. I hope that Enkidu will take him to King Lancer.
I sighed and put the small communication device in my ears. I want to know
how's our plan. I need to hear a good news to calm myself. I am confident to talk
in here as Alter said that there were no CCTV's in every rooms of this house and
it's even soundproof for privacy. And I even made sure of that. There's not even a
bug in here.
"Your Majesty..." Yucca answered from the other line.
"I am here at the EL Ordre's hideout."
She was silent for about a minute. Pinakiramdaman ko sya. I observed how she
would react. She knew exactly where I am and who I am with.
"Your Majesty, they will not hurt you." she said. I raised an eyebrow and
chuckled. I'm not even concerned about that.
"How can you be so sure?" I frowned in disgust. "This is what I hate about you,
Yucca. You are too soft. You let your emotions ruled over you."
"I've been with them, Your Majesty. I can assure you that they will not hurt
you." she insisted.
"Yes. Because they still need something from me. They want to know where their
Rook is." I said. "Do you even know that Fourth isn't their real King? It was Aius,
Yucca."
I heard her faint gasped from the other line. I smirked 'cause I know that she
wasn't expecting this. None of us were expecting this. It was only Loki, Aius and
their tracker who knew about who the real King is. And the rest of the EL Ordre's
members didn't know about it as well. So I'm certain that this news shocked Yucca,
too.
I chuckled in annoyance. "See, Yucca? They deceived people around them. They
lied to their own teammates. So how can you be so sure that you've met the real
them while you were here? You, who were a traitor."

I got satisfied when she didn't say anything from the other
line. She remained silent while my anger became so intense.
I am so fucking mad at myself. I couldn't believe that I can be deceived that
easily. I feel so ashamed. Where was the brain that I'm so proud of as one of my
strength? Nagiging kagaya na ako ng mga chess pieces ko na hindi marunong mag-isip!
And I couldn't believe that I even fuck the fake King!
Fucking shit! This is so fucking ridiculous!
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko at kinuha ang vase na display sa loob ng
kwartong iyon. I threw it so hard on the wall that it broke and created a deafening
sound. I don't even care if the EL Ordre could hear me from the outside. I don't 
even care how much was that vase. I could pay for it! I'm just so fucking mad that
I just want to let it out!
Yucca didn't say anything but I'm sure that she heard my scream and the sound
when the vase broke. But she just remained silent. She knew that I'd go ballistic
whenever I feel so fucking mad.
I took a deep several breath to finally calm myself. That was enough for today.
I got to let my feelings out. But I'm sure that my anger wouldn't subside just like
that.
"Kill the Rook, Yucca." I said and I heard her gasped.
"What?"
"You heard me. Kill the Rook." I repeated
"But. Your Majesty—"
"They will do anything to find you. And we could do nothing against the two
trackers of EL Ordre plus Alter's skills. I am sure that they will find you soon."
Alter is the best tracker for me since she could defeat the two trackers of EL
Ordre. Kahit pa dalawa na sila, they still couldn't do about the firewall that
Alter built. Kinailangan pa nilang magpunta sa Red Faction's hideout to turn it
off.
And now that it's the three of them who were looking for the EL Ordre's Rook,
I'm sure that sooner or later, they will soon find him.
"So before that happens..." I continued. "Kill him, Yucca. Kill the EL Ordre's
Rook and turn him into our King. The day of his death is the day that our King will
be born."
In order to make Gray as our King Lancer, we should kill the EL Ordre's Rook
inside him.
And that's my own version of the castling method.
"Yes, Your Majesty." Yucca answered that made me smile.
I was about to speak when I heard the room's door opened. I was facing the
window but base on the presence that I felt, I had an idea who the intruder is.
He stood in front of me with his sea-green eyes looking down on me. His faced
looked so dark and I think I have an idea why. Inilahad nya ang isang palad sa
harapan ko.
 "Hand it to me."
I chuckled and held my ear where the small communication device is. He knew
that I am talking to someone using this.
"Was that Fourth?" Yucca asked that made me raised an eyebrow.
Wow... She can recognize him with just his voice, huh?
I chuckled. "Do what I told you to do." I said and removed the device on my
ears without waiting for Yucca's answer. I crashed it before I handed it to Loki.
"L were notified by an unauthorized radio signal that was coming in here." Loki
said. "Did you even know that he can track them down with the signal?"
I snorted and crossed my legs. "I doubt if he can in just a minute. I have to
talk to them for days first for your tracker to be able to locate them. But since I
broke the device, they woudn't be able to." I smiled at him. "Sayang. You shouldn't
have asked me to hand it over to you and just let me speak to them. Mas napadali
sana ang paghahanap nyo."
Loki remained staring down at me. I now know that he is not the King and yet,
hindi man lang nabawasan ang authoritative aura nya. Instead, he seems like he was
born with it. But I tried not to get affected by him.
"You will be able to meet our King din sana the sooner." I said and smirked at
him. "He's our real King, I assure you. Not someone who was just pretending."
His face darkened which made me feel so happy. I even laughed softly as I
tucked a few strands of my hair behind my ears. I looked up to him, eye to eye, and
gave him a loopsided smile.
"What should I call you now? Copycat King? Pretend King?" I chuckled. "I
couldn't believe that I fucked the fake King."
"Call me 'Your Majesty'."
My smile faded as I looked at him and frowned. He looked so serious while
looking down on me. I just couldn't understand him. Everyone knows that he's not
really the King and yet he still wants me to address him as Your Majesty?
"Wow..." I muttered. "You have such a thick face, haven't you?"
He gave me his infamous mischievous smirk. He crouched down and held on the
armrest of the sofa kaya naikulong nya ang katawan ko doon. He leaned towards me
until our faces were just a few inches apart.
"I want you to call me 'Your Majesty', my temptress." he whispered with a husky
voice but I could still hear the authority.
I tried not to get affected. Instead, I raised an eyebrow and smirked at him.
"Then, make me."

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Chapter 14

Warning: Spg
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Loki smirked after I've said those words. He looked so confident that I will
really call him as 'Your Majesty' again based on that mischievous smirk that was
plastered on his lips. But I am confident as well. In fact, I was really
disappointed that he is not the real King. He may have a royal blood but what I
want is the real King of EL Ordre. So I'm sure that I will not address him in that
way again.
I even let him fucked me senseless and used my body 'cause I really thought
that he's the damn King. We both want it, yes, but I will never let him fuck me
that way have I only known that he's the King's Bishop!
The nerve of him! But what else do I expect to a man with the same name as the
God of trickster?
"Oh, that'll be easy." he said talking about making me address him as 'Your
Majesty' again.
"You're so full of yourself." I said, full of disgust and mockery but it looks
like it doesn't affected him. "Do you really think that I'll call you that way
again when you're just the King's Bishop?"
He tilted his head to the side and stared down at me. It seems like he's making
me feel intimidated. I know 'cause I've done this for so many times. But I will not
get affected like before as I know the truth now.
"Wanna bet?" he said before he raised an eyebrow at me. His sea-green eyes were
dancing mischievously.
"I will never let you fuck me again." I said. He chuckled but I noticed his
head were closing the distance between us slowly. "It only happened between us
'cause you deceived me that you're the King."
"But don't deny the truth that you love how I fuck you hard." he whispered. His
lips were already brushing with mine and I couldn't even turn my head away when I
smelled his fresh breath and his expensive cologne.
Fuck. Why does he smelled so good? Just the scent of him could make me feel
intoxicated!
"I still won't call you that way again." I said as I stared at those luscious
lips. And it's like he was teasing me 'cause he wet his lips with his tongue in a
very sensual way and even bit his lower lip.
"You surely will, my temptress. You will even beg me to fuck you senseless
while calling me as 'Your Majesty'."
My breathing hitched when I heard him dirty talked again. Fuck this royalty. He
looked so respectable with his authoritative aura on the outside but he's more than
like that in bed.
I wet my lips and I saw his eyes stared at it with so much desire and lust. I
was about to say something pero mukhang hindi na sya nakapagpigil at biglang
inatake ang mga labi ko.
I moaned when our lips met. He kissed me in a way like he hadn't kissed anyone
for a long time and was thirsty for more. His bold tongue delved inside my mouth
and when it moved in a way like he's claiming what's his. I knew that I wouldn't
last long.
I straighten my back and answered his kisses the same way he's giving me. I
cupped both of his cheeks and pulled him towards me as I leaned my back on the one-
seater sofa. He placed himseld in between my legs while his one hand were on my
back to pulled me more to his body.
There's not even a space between us. Magkadikit ang mga katawan namin na parang
kahit hangin ay ayaw padaanin. My body immediately felt hot as his kisses went down
to my cheeks, to my jaw and down to my neck.
He removed my top and bra and his mouth quickly covered my left breast while he
was massaging the other one with his hand. I bit my lower lip to keep my moan in my
throat as I felt his tongue played with my nipple. I cried in pain when he lightly
bit it and sucked the pain away.

His touch could always burn my skin. I will never get tired
of the feeling of his hands as he caressed my body. The warm touch of his
fingertips as he teased me could make my skin crawl.
I stared at him while he was sucking my breast and a moaned had escaped from my
throat when I saw him like he was enjoying what he's doing. I can't help but to
pulled his hair lightly and I will hear him groan everytime I do it.
"Oh, fuck..." I muttered when he bit my nipple again. I noticed a smirk on his
lips when he heard my moan.
He kissed his way down to my tummy until he reached my belly button. He dip his
tongue inside and out and I was not ready when I felt an electric shock throughout
my entire body. Seems like Loki noticed my reaction 'cause he did better and held
my hips that was staring to move. Every flicked and dipped of his tongue in my
belly button is slowly taking my inhibitions away.
"Call me Your Majesty, my temptress. And I promise I will give you an exciting
fuck that you will never forget." he said before he unbuttoned my shorts and
removed it too with my underwear.
I gasped when I saw him staring intently at my core. His eyes full of lust and
desire na parang isang pagkain iyon na nakahain sa harapan nya. He looked at me
first before he held my thighs and kissed the skin inside.
Wala pa sya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko but I could almost feel the orgasm that
was building inside me. He gave my inner-thighs a wet kisses while his tongue
trailed it's way towards my core. My nails dugged on the armrest of the sofa again
and I already ripped the foam apart.
Oh, shit... He knows how to make a woman feels excited.
He stopped and stared at my core again. Our eyes met before I felt his fingers
brushed against my folds.
I arched my back when I felt him spread my folds using his fingers. It made me
wetter than before so when his head dipped and put his warm lips against my core, I
moaned so loud and grinded against his face.
This is the only time that he pleasured me this much. He never did this before
and I just couldn't believe that he could make me feel so much better than before.
While his expert tongue dipped on the center of my folds, I grabbed his hair and
pulled his head towards my core as I grinded my hips.
He groaned in annoyance and held my hips in place firmly. I was screaming, not
minding if anyone could hear me, as his expert tongue played on my core. Licking
and sucking both my clit and my folds.
"Fuck! It feels so good! You're just so good!" I moaned and pulled his hair
lightly again.
Then he inserted two of his fingers and rammed its way in and out. I grinded my
hips again and meet its thrust 'cause I could feel that I am so close in reaching
my orgasm. I looked down at Loki and when I saw his instense eyes watching my every
reaction, that was enough to set me on the edge.
"Oh, fuck! I'm going to come!" I hissed which made Loki smirk.
He sucked my clit so hard and thrusts his fingers fast but before I could even
reach the peak, he stopped and pulled his fingers out of my core.
"What the fuck?!" naisigaw ko dahil sa sobrang pagkabitin. Tumawa sya at tumayo
sa harapan ko.
"Just say those two words, temptress."
I was naked in front of him and he was still fully clothed but the bludge in
front of him was enough to tell me that he desires me too. Hindi ko lang alam kung
anong pagpipigil ang ginagawa nya para tumigil kanina.
As much as I want to feel him inside me again, I know better than to call him
as 'Your Majesty' again. I am a higher piece than him and he should be the one who
should call me that.
I smiled at him seductively. "You forgot that I have my fingers, King's Bishop.
I can reach my orgasm even without your help." I said as my hands went down and
massage both of my breasts.
I moaned and closed my eyes to feel the sensation more. I admit that it feels
much better if it's Loki's hands who will do this but I don't really want to
address him that way again. I'm not planning to bow down to anyone who's in lower
position than me.
I flicked my nipples using my fingers and that's enough to make me moan. I was
playing the crown while squeezing my breast.
My right hand went down further and touched the part in between my legs. I
moaned when I felt how wet I am. Bumilis ang paghinga ko when I realized that it
was wet because of my juices mixed with Loki's saliva.
I started to play and rub my clit. There was a tingling sensation that I felt
and it just feels so good. My hips were moving together with my fingers.
I opened my eyes and I saw Loki still in front of me while staring down at my
folds. I could see the fire in his eyes filled with lust for me and it just made my
body feel hotter than before. I never thought that it would feel this good when
he's watching me as I touch myself.
He looked up and our eyes met. I know that he could also see the desire and
lust in my eyes. I moaned so hard when I inserted two of my fingers inside my core.
 Hindi malaman ni Loki kung saan titingin. If it's on my face to watch my erotic
reaction or if it's on my core to watch what I'm doing. I also noticed the bludge
in his pants that was getting bigger compared earlier.
"Fuck..." I muttered 'cause I could feel my orgasm again.
Loki's face darkened with lust as he watched the movements of my fingers
thrusting in and out of my core. His chest were heaving up and down as he breath so
hard. I smirked but moaned again and thrusts my fingers faster than ever.
Then finally, my whole body shook as I reached my orgasm. My juices gushed out
off my core and Loki saw it all. But I don't care. In fact, I didn't know that I
will like it this much when I know that he's watching me while I'm touching myself.
Hindi naman ganitong kasarap ang nararamdaman ko noon whenever I touch myself
alone.
I closed my legs and that's when Loki's eyes returned on my face again. I
smirked at him as I sat on the sofa comfortably.
"Is that all you can do?" hamon ko sa kanya. He stared at me before his lips
curled into a smirk. It's like he was planning I will hate byt like at the same
time.
"I am just getting started." he said and took my hand that was wet with juices
and sucked my fingers dry.
Oh, fuck. I think I wouldn't last long if he continues.

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Chapter 15

Warning: Spg
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Loki looked so hot as he licked my juices off my fingers and sucked them dry.
My lips parted as I watched him in front of me, with one of his hands leaning on
the armrest of the sofa and supporting his whole body while his other hand was
holding my wrist to his mouth.
He never took off his eyes on me while doing so. And God... Those sea-green
eyes that looked so intense just made him looked more sexy. My breathing began
uneven when I felt the warmth of his tongue as it touched my fingertips. I just
reached my climax and yet I am starting to feel something again as Loki continue on
pleasuring my fingers. I gritted my teeth and tried to stop the budding feelings
that starting to grow inside of me.
No... I mustn't give in. He's a lower piece than me. I am a Queen and he's just
the King's Bishop.
A smirk had escaped from my lips. I should let him know that I wasn't affected
with what he's doing to me. Even though it's the opposite.
"You can do that all day but still, I won't call you 'Your Majesty' again."
He stopped to make a low chuckle. Amusement was dancing in his eyes. He smirked
and I realized that I will always feel anxious everytime I saw his mischievous
smirk. 'Cause he looked like he's always planning something and he's confident that
he will win. But of course, I won't let him know that his smirk has such an effect
on me.
"I told you, my temptress." he said. He has a sly smile on his lips but it was
his sea-green eyes that were shouting danger. "I'm just getting started."
He stood up straight and started unbuttoning his shirt. He stripped in front of
me and I couldn't stopped my eyes from eyeing his whole body that was exposed. He
was standing with his full glory, not minding his nakedness as he stared down at
me. And when my eyes saw how aroused he is. I couldn't help but to bit my lower
lip.
Loki leaned down and trapped my body on the sofa again. He looked straight into
my eyes with so much desire. He put his mouth against my ear to whisper something.
"Don't you want me to fill you with my cock again, my temptress? Don't you want
me to fuck you again so hard that you will beg me to stop? Don't you want your body
to shiver with my every thrusts inside you?"
I bit my lower lip so hard to stop my moan that wanted to escape from my
throat. Only those words and yet it can make me feel so hot again. I imagined him
doing what he just said. His thick and long cock inside me and all of his muscles
clenching whenever he thrusts himself inside me.
Oh, fuck... He's so good in this game.
I could feel that my core is getting wet again. I crossed my legs tight to stop
but it just made the feeling more intense. Pigil na pigil ang mga kamay ko na
haplusin ang katawan  nya. He feels so hot as well.
"Just call me that way again, my temptress." he whispered again.
I closed my eyes tightly. He was almost hugging me and I stopped myself from
hugging him back. I flinched when I felt the tip of his cock brushed my folds. And
it seems like I wasn't the only one who got affected 'cause Loki made a low groan
and closed his eyes tightly. When he opened it again, so much lust and desire were
in his eyes.
"I know you want it too. Don't make this harder for us." he whispered.
I had to closed my eyes and my fists tightly to restrain myself. Fuck... I
think I couldn't hold on any longer.
He massaged my breast and after awhile, I felt his warm mouth covered my right
breast as he licked my nipple. I moaned but I still stopped myself from touching
him even with so much pleasure that he's giving me.

No... I shouldn't. He's not the King. He's a lower piece

than me. He is not someone important. I mustn't give in. I must held on to my
sanity.
Remember, Eresh. Remember everything.
I should remember how my father always tells me that I could never be stronger
than a man. I should remember those times when he told me that I should just bow
down if a man is my opponent 'cause I will never win against him. I should remember
that he made me feel so weak because I am not a man.
I should remember those times when he taught me how to use my body as my
strength even if I don't want to. I should remember when he forced me to do those
disgusting things just to teach me how to pleasure a man.
I should remember my anger towards men.
"I won't." I said while gritting my teeth. Trying not to get affected with what
he's doing but I know that I'm failing. "I won't call you that."
He stopped and stared at me to which I felt so thankful 'cause I had the time
to catch my breath and to try to extinguish my arousal. But when I saw him smirked
at me again, I know that I will lose this game.
I'm doomed.
"Even if I do this?" he asked.
I squealed when he shoved the tip of his cock inside my core. It was only the
tip but I could fill my insides were ready to stretch for him. Just the tip but
he's so thick and long so it just added to my arousal again.
He began thrusting his hips but it was only the tip that he's slipping in. It
made me feel so frustrated. I wanted more. I want to feel more but I know what I
have to do before that.
"Fuck, Loki..." I moaned and I heard him chuckled.
"You know that's not what I wanted to hear."
He began rubbing his thumb on my clit and I just couldn't help it anymore.
Napahawak ako sa dalawang mga braso nya. My nails dugged on his skin but I didn't
saw the hurt on his face.
"Say it, my temptress. Say it." he urged.
I bit my lower lip so hard. My orgasm is building inside me again. But I knew
that Loki will not let me reached my climax again if he won't hear what he wanted
to hear from me.
 Fuck! But he's just the King's Bishop!
I put my hands on his chest to push him but it seems like he had an idea on
what I'm about to do. He started to thrust so fast and that's the end for me.
"Damn it, Your Majesty! Fuck me, please!"
I saw him smirked before he filled his cock inside me. I moaned so loud while I
heard him groaned na parang kanina nya pa gustong-gustong gawin iyon. My insides
were stretching and adjusting for him.
He didn't waste any second and started to ram his cock inside me. His movements
were so rough and fast kaya naging sunod-sunod ang malalakas kong pag-ungol ko. He
pulled my hair and kissed me so hard that my lips were swollen in just a few
seconds.
Oh, fuck... The way how he move roughly, I just love it so much. I couldn't
believe that I will like being fuck this way. I have the feeling na wala nang ibang
makakagawa nito sa akin kundi sya. No man could ever give me this intense fuck
again.
Only him.
He stopped for awhile to exchange our position without breaking our connection.
He was the one who's sitting on the sofa now while I was sitting on his lap,
straddling his waist.
"Move, my temptress." he said and held my hips firmly.
I did what he told me. I began moving up and down, moaning whenever I feel his
cock fill inside me. And I wasn't contented. I know I am near and I want more.
So I held on his shoulders, my nails dugging on his skin but we both don't
care. Loki was looking at me as I stared at him and ride him fast. He groaned when
my walls clenched around his thick shaft.
He was so thick that I could feel the way how his cock filled my insides. It
was so hot and so erotic. Lalo pa at nakikita ko ang tingin ng pagnanasa sa mga
mata ni Loki.
"Fuck, Your Majesty. I could feel how big and thick you are inside me!" I
moaned.
A few more pumps and my body shivered above him. He groaned and held me by my
bottom. He lifted it up slightly, just enough so he could move under me. Then he
thrusts his hips, ram was the right word, so hard and so fast while I was still
having my orgasm and that earned a long moan from me.
"Oh!"
I felt him bigger inside me. His face looked so red while thrusting so fast so
he could reached his climax. Then he withdraw himself and shoots his load on my
tummy again with a low groan.
Pareho kaming hinihingal pagkatapos. Loki rested his head on the backrest and
leaned his back on the sofa while catching his breath.
We never cuddled even before. It was just a plain sex for the both of us.
Whenever we finished fucking, iiwan nya na lang ako basta without helping me to
clean up or get dressed. So I was surprised when I felt his arms encircled around
my waist when I tried to get off on top of him. Nalilito ko syang tinignan but I
saw the playfulness on his eyes again.
"I told you, didn't I? You will call me that way again."
Inirapan ko sya and moved to get off him. He chuckled before he let me go.
I picked up my clothes and put it on without looking at him. I am so fucking
mad at myself but I couldn't deny that what we did was a good fuck.
But damn it! I don't know what's wrong with me! I hate men but whenever Loki's
around, I just couldn't help but to do want he wants. I couldn't stop my attraction
for him!
Fuck! He's more dangerous that the real King of EL Ordre!

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Chapter 16
 I was staring outside the window while sitting at the end
of the bed. This has been my usual routine every morning since I've got here in EL
Ordre's hideout. I didn't want to go outside the room. I'm in the enemy's lair so I
should just stay in this safe place.
Loki will always check on me once or twice a day just to ask me about their
Rook. But my answer is still the same. That their Rook is dead and whenever I say
that, Loki will have a grim expression on his face and will just walk out of the
room.
Once, he did fucked me like he always do to make me do or say things that he
wanted to hear. But this time, it's different. Kahit gaano pa ako mabitin ay
hinding-hindi ko iyon sasabihin sa kanya.
This is our only ace. This is our only chance to win this game.
I heard a knock on the door so I'm sure that this is not Loki. He never knocks.
He will just open the door and make his way inside.
So I looked at the door and waited for it to open. When it did, I saw the man
on a hoodie jacket peek his head inside the room. He immediately saw me and smiled.
"Kakain na. Gusto mong sumabay?" he asked like he was just asking a friend to
join them for breakfast.
I chuckled and crossed my legs before I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Don't you think that it'll be awkward for all of us?"
He thought for awhile before he shrugged his eyebrows. Nilakihan nya ang
pagbukas sa pinto and he entered the room even without my permission. But he just
stayed on the doorway and leaned his back on the wall beside the door. He put his
hands inside the pockets of his pants.
I stared at him and did what I always do if I wanted to intimidate someone. I
lifted my chin up and raised an eyebrow at him while he stared at me so hard that I
noticed his hazel brown eyes.
He looked like he was solving a puzzle in front of him which was me. His
eyebrows were slightly furrowed as he squinted his eyes. It was obvious that he's
thinking really hard while looking at me.
My lips slowly formed a smirk. This one doesn't look so bad. In fact, I noticed
that all of the EL Ordre's members were actually quite good-looking. Kaya mas
nakakahinayang kung iisipin ko na kailangan ko silang patayin lahat.
"It'll be awkward, I'm sure." I heard the man said. "Pero mas maganda kung may
kasabay kumain kaysa mag-isa, diba?"
I didn't make it obvious that I was surprised by his reason. I just remained my
smirk on my lips and eyed him from head to toe.
He was the only one who invited me to join them for breakfast. I know that they
always eats together to which I find it really odd. In Red Faction, I never ate
with my chess pieces. I always eat alone. I am the Queen so why would I eat
together with the pieces in the lower rank than me?
But I guess that EL Ordre and Red Faction were really different. Proof is that
the secrecy on who belonged to the higher piece that they keep to their members.
Kaya kahit ako ay nalinlang nila.
Fuck it. I always get mad at myself whenever I remembered how stupid I am.
"I don't want to eat with the people that I will soon kill." I said. He bit his
lower lip to stop himself from chuckling but still failed in the end. Pinakawalan
nya ang labi nya so it looked more reddish now.
"No wonder Alter calls you as the Mad Queen."
I remained silent and didn't say anything. I know about that. I knew about
their nickname for me.
The Mad Queen.
I don't how or when it was started. I just heard Ross called me like that once.
And from then on, I knew that they would always call me that way behind my back.

I never confronted them. Maybe they just gave me that

nickname because of the orders and punishments that I gave them. I never accepted
any flaws from them. 'Cause one wrong move and it could be fatal for the team. Kaya
pinaparusahan ko na sila sa simpleng pagkakamali lang. 'Cause if I don't, they will
just do it again. If I don't, they will never know how important every move is.
"What?" I asked when I saw him staring intently at me again.
"I was just thinking why did you become like that."
I didn't say anything 'cause I didn't know what he just meant by that. Mukhang
napansin nya naman ang kalituhan sa mukha ko kaya nagpatuloy sya sa pagsasalita.
"I am a lawyer." he continued. "I can easily read people and know what kind of
person they were with just a few words from them. Plus, the training that I had
under the EL Ordre." he eyed me from head to toe without any emotions on his face.
"At sa nakikita ko ngayon sayo, masasabi kong may pinaghuhugutan ka kaya mo nagawa
o ginagawa ang mga bagay na 'to."
I chuckled and tilted my head. "Aren't we all?"
He shrugged his shoulders. "Sure, we have reasons as well. Pero hindi kami
kasing-sama mo."
That made me so mad. I gritted my teeth and I made sure that he'll see how I
was offended by his words.
"Don't talk as if you didn't do anything bad in your entire life. You're in
this game and I'm sure that you already killed people."
He bit the insides of his cheeks. Tumango-tango sya but when he looked at me in
the eye, I don't know but there's something within him that I can't tell.
"I won't deny that." he said. "But we are not someone that will involve
innocent people. We are playing in a fair way. Pero madaya kayo."
"Geez, we're not six years old kids anymore. As long as we abide the rules,
then there's no problem."
He chuckled. "Do you really think that what you're doing are still in the
rules?"
It's my turn to shrugged my shoulders. "Maybe. Since the gamemasters haven't
given us any punishment yet."
I saw him stilled. Parang may naisip kaya napakunot din ang noo. Then he looked
at me before he shrugged his shoulders.
"Anyway, I can actually make you spill everything that we need know since I had
my practice as a lawyer but Loki said to leave you to him." I saw him looked at my
neck and he even pointed at his own neck. "Pero base sa hindi mawala-walang mga
marka sa leeg mo na nadadagdagan pa, mukhang may ideya na ako sa kung anong
ginagawa nya para mapaamin ka."
I just rolled my eyes when I realized what he meant by that. Of course, I know.
I'm not innocent. I know that he knew what Loki and I had been doing the first time
he took me from the Red Faction's hideout. Nakita rin nila noon ang mga kissmarks
na ginawa ni Loki sa leeg ko.
I don't really care if they find out. As long as it won't be a problem to our
plan.
"Ayaw mo ba talagang sumabay kumain sa amin?" the man asked and I sighed in
annoyance.
"Can you please stop acting like this? We both know that you are not killing me
and I'm still alive 'cause you need something from me."
He chuckled. "You're not actually wrong. Even if Tracer wanted to kill you the
first time he saw you, he still can't do anything. Ikaw lang ang nakakaalam kung
nasaan ang kapatid nya."
"He's dead." I said simply.
"We all know that he is not." I heard him sighed. "Kung ayaw mo talagang
sumabay sa aming kumain, iaakyat na lang ulit namin dito ang pagkain nyo, mahal na
reyna."

I rolled my eyes heavenwards which earned a chuckle from

him. And when he finally left the room, I heaved a deep sigh.
 I don't care about the consequences of my plan. I don't care about the
innocents that got involved to make this plan possible. All I care is about winning
the game. I don't care about anything other than that.
As long as we win, kill the EL Ordre's members and gamemasters, then everything
is worth it.
I stared at the window again while waiting for my food. Palaging ganito sa
araw-araw. They will bring food to my room every morning, lunch and dinner time.
And once in a while, somebody will check on me if I need anything that's why I was
able to have my coffee every late afternoon.
I actually don't feel that I am their captive. Well, maybe because I am the
Queen so they knew how to treat me right. As expected, the lower pieces will
always, always bow down to me.
I know that I'm in danger. They could kill me easily if they wanted to. But I
also know that they can't and won't do it. I have something that they wanted so
much. At hanggang nasa akin iyon, hinding-hindi nila ako magagalaw.
The door opened again and instead of the food, I saw the EL Ordre's Rook enter
my room. He was just like Loki since he entered without knocking and stood in front
of me. His gray eyes were like a dangerous storm that could ruin millions of houses
but I stared straight to his eyes.
No matter how mad he is to me, he can never hurt me.
"Oh, hi there." I even greeted casually to teased him. I saw his jaw moved as
he gritted his teeth and it was obvious that he was just restraining himself.
"Tell me where my brother is." he said with a low voice. I stopped myself from
smiling 'cause he just looked pathetic.
"He's dead." Dying, rather.
He closed his eyes tightly. Mas lalo pa akong natuwa sa naging reaksyon nya. I
never thought that I would be able to see one of the EL Ordre's members being so
distress like this.
He opened his eyes and I could see the pain and suffering in there. His eyes
were begging me not to say those words again. Na kapag inulit ko pa ay hindi na nya
kakayanin ang sakit.
"Alter, L, and I couldn't find him." he said softly. "We worked hard everyday.
We don't even had the time to sleep. But we still couldn't find him."
I raised an eyebrow at him. "So?"
"Tell me where he is." he said softly, almost begging.
I chuckled. "I just told you that he is dead. What part of that could you not
understand? He. Is. Dead! Your brother is dead! O gusto mong tagalugin ko pa?" I
said in annoyance. "Patay na ang kapatid mo!"
He took a step back like every words I've just said were like a dagger that
were stabbing him. And when he looked at me again, pain and anger were mixed in his
gray eyes. I just crossed my arms over my chest and sat with a poise like a Queen.
"Why won't you believe me, though?" I asked. "Are you insisting to yourself
that he's alive? Nakokonsensya ka? Pinabayaan mo sya, diba? You left him alone
while finding your parents' killer and pursuing your woman at the same time. You
forgot about your brother!"
"That's not fucking true!" he bellowed. Ang galit na pinipigilan ay mukhang
kumawala na. "Don't you fucking accused me of something I didn't do! I left him to
find the one who killed our parents so he could be safe! So he could forget the
pain if I gave justice for our parents death!"
I smirked at him. "My... You sounds so guilty."
He glared at me but still wasn't doing anything to kill me. I just noticed that
his body is shaking because of so much rage for me.
"Have you ever tried sacrificing for someone?" he asked out of the blue.
Nevertheless, I answered him.
"Of course."
"Really? 'Cause you don't look like you do." he mocked. "Mukhang hindi ka
marunong magsakripisyo."
I gritted my teeth. "You don't know me."
"You don't know me either." he said. "But I could tell that your sacrifice is
different from mine. I sacrificed everything for my brother. But you? You are
sacrificing for yourself and not for the people you love. You are willing to
sacrifice everything to gain something more in the end. You are self-centered. And
that's just the worst thing."
"How dare you..." I hissed.
He smirked at me. "This will be the last time that I will asked you where my
brother is. I will just find him. I will do everything to find him. And I'll be the
one to kill you after that."
And just liked that, he turned around and walked out of the room.
Naiwan akong nagngingitngit sa galit. I wanted to throw and flipped everything
to let go of my anger.
Who does he think he is to judge me like that? He doesn't know me! He doesn't
know my pain! He doesn't know everything I've gone through! He doesn't know my
reasons! And yet he dare to say those words at me?
Hindi nya ako kilala! Wala syang alam!
I just screamed so loud knowing that nobody will hear me. How dare he... He
just made me so mad!
But I wonder how will he react of he discovered what I'm doing to his beloved
brother?
I calmed down because of that and just chuckled. In the end, I still have the
ace. I still have something against them. I just need Yucca and Enkidu to do this
plan perfectly.
I'll make sure that I'm going to win this game.

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Chapter 17

The EL Ordre's Rook did what he said. That was the first
and the last time that he entered my room just to ask about his brother. Then after
that, he never came back.
But Loki was the most persistent among all of them. He always asks me where
their Rook is every damn time when he's visiting my room just to check on me. He
never forget to ask that stupid question. And my answer will still be the same.
Their Rook is dead.
I don't know why Loki isn't getting tired of asking me everytime when my answer
was just the same. Actually, it is starting to annoy me but I am trying to be calm.
Does he really think that he'll can make me spill the truth by just annoying me? He
must do better than that.
I just wished that Enkidu and Yucca were doing their job right. They knew about
my plan and they were the only ones who can do it in my place while I am buying the
time for them and at the same time, trying to know each and every weaknesses of EL
Ordre's members.
As of now, ilan na sa kanila ang nalalaman ko kung ano ang kahinaan nila. And
they both have the common weaknesses.
Love. My most hated word. It was just a simple word yet it could make a big
impact over someone's life.
I chuckled. I knew it. Love will just complicates things. Look at the EL Ordre.
They seem an indestructible group but the truth is, most of them have the same
weaknesses.
Woman. The love of their life.
I smirked. Maybe sometimes, women were more powerful than men, huh?
I looked at the direction where the door is when I heard it opened. It was just
a usual scene for me to see Loki entering my room without even knocking. But
there's something different today. And that something is the King of EL Ordre.
Nakasunod sya kay Loki sa pagpasok sa kwarto ko.
"Well, this is quite a surprise." I said when he pulled a chair and sat in
front of me while Loki remianed standing by his side. I never once looked at him in
the eye since he entered the room with Aius.
Why would I? When the real King is here. The real one that I must seduced.
I crossed my legs. I was sitting comfortably on the sofa while looking outside
the window when they disturbed my peace. This better be interesting since I want
this day to at least be good to me.
"Fourth, leave us, please." said Aius and that's the only time I set my eyes on
Loki.
He was staring at me, probably since the moment he went inside my room. So I'm
sure that he saw the glint in my eyes. He saw the interest in my eyes as I stared
at the EL Ordre's King. And the look on his face seems scary but I just chuckled.
I don't care though. Here, in front of me is the real King of EL Ordre. The one
that I should kill.
Loki really looked so handsome with his grim expression as he stared at me.
He's just naturally handsome but I really like this look on him. I don't know. It
just ignite the spark deep within me.
In the end, he sighed. He gave me one last look before he turned around and
left us.
"It is such an honor to have you here in my room, EL Ordre's King." I said.
I stared at him. He was wearing a leather jacket with a black plain shirt
inside. And a ripped pants to match the top. One glance at him and no one could
tell that he is the King of EL Ordre.
But as the stud earrings on his ears shone because of the sunlight that's
coming from window, I can actually see why he is the King. His black eyes looked at
me darkly. His jaw moved when he lightly gritted his teeth. Then he rested his
elbow on his parted knees and stared at me in the eye with all seriousness.

"I want to talk to you." he said which made my eyes roll.

"Do you think that you'll still be here if I didn't know that?" inis kong sabi.
"Anyway, I have an idea on what's your purpose here. And my answer will still be
the same. Your Rook is dead."
"That's not the reason why I am here." he said. I raised an eyebrow at him.
Well, this is new.
"I have a proposal to make." seryoso nyang sabi.
I remained silent and just stared at him trying to read what's on his mind. But
it's just hard. His face were showing emotions but his eyes were blank. It's
impossible to read what he's planning.
So this is the real King of EL Ordre, huh?
"Go on." I said and rested my back on the sofa.
"I want to stop the game."
I chuckled when I heard him. Well, of course! Every piece in this game really
wanted to stop this! Even me! This stupid game ruined our lives!
I suffered all my life because of this game. I hated myself because of this
game. Everything that I did was to win this game so more than anyone else, it is me
who really wanted to stop this game.
"The game will end if I kill you now." I said to him with an attempt to make
him remember that we're along inside my room. That's why Loki looked so reluctant
to leave the King alone with me in this room.
"That's not what I mean." Aius countered. "I want to stop the game completely.
I want to kill the gamemasters so this game wouldn't be pass down to anyone again."
I choose not to speak. That was also a part of my plan. I wanted to win this
game but I also want to end this game completely. Imagining that there will be a
person for the next game who might experience everything that I did, that makes me
wanna kill them all just to stop that game!
"We are all innocent." Aius continued. "We are all the victims. At ayoko nang
may madamay pang mga inosente sa laro just because someone wanted them to be their
pawn and make them the bait."
 "And you wanted me to join you on that plan of yours?"
Walang pag-aalinlangan syang tumango. "Yes. If we join force, EL Ordre and The
Red Faction, I am sure that we can stop them. We can kill the gamemasters."
I laughed when I heard what he had said. He's insane! He's really insane! This
is another proof that he just can't think of everything alone!
"What in the damnation are you saying?" I asked, still laughing. "EL Ordre and
The Red Faction? Are you out of your mind?"
"It is possible, Ereshkigal." he insisted. "Aren't you getting tired of this?
It was just so unfair. Since then, we were trained for this. We were trained to
kill one another. Hindi ka pa ba nagsasawa?" he asked. His eyes showed how tired he
is. Despite of the rugged look, I could tell that he really want this game to end.
But I shook my head.
"No." I said. "I want to win this game and kill you. I could actually do it now
but there's a right time for that."
He looked frustrated that she didn't take his proposal. "I am risking
everything thing, Ereshkigal. Can't we just stop the game by joining forces and
kill the gamemasters?"
I shook my head firmly. We may have the same plan but joining forces with them
had never crossed my mind. That was just a ridiculous thing. Hinding-hindi ako
makikipagtulungan sa kanya. I have my own reasons why I am doing this. And he will
never understand that.
He sighed and I could see that he still want to convince me but he knew that my
decision is final. Walang imik syang tumayo at naglakad papunta sa pinto. But
before he could open the door, I decided to say something.
"Did you know that this was just a friendly human chess game before?"
In the corner of my eyes, I saw him stilled. He looked at me with a frown on
his face. He looked confused which made me smirk.
"You didn't know?" I asked when he didn't say something. "That's right. This
game started as a friendly game. No killing. Just a friendly game."
"What are you talking about?"
I chuckled. The King really looked so confused. I smiled widely. They were
really a bunch of stupid idiots. Acting righteous when they do not even have the
rights.
"Did you know when it only started to get bloody?" I continued and he just
keeps on staring at me. "It was when the EL Ordre killed first. Kayo ang unang
pumatay. Kayo ang unang nandaya."
The King looked so surprised. I can't help but to smile in triumph. I feel like
I just achieve something. Sa tingin ko ay malaki talaga ang pag-asa kong manalo
with these clueless and stupid members of EL Ordre.
"That's not true." Aius said while shaking his head. "I know your tactics,
Ereshkigal. And if you think you can use manipulation on me, then you're definitely
wrong."
"I want to kill you, not to manipulate you." I said and shrugged my shoulders.
"But if you don't want to believe me. Then it's your choice."
The King remained his eyes on me. It was like he was looking something in me to
prove that I was just lying.
"You're lying..." he said reluctantly.
I chuckled. I tilted my head and gave him a satisfying smirk.
"Kayo ang unang nandaya. Ang EL Ordre ang unang nandaya!"

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Chapter 18

Aius looked like he's really confused and he doesn't have

any idea about what I'm saying which made me smirk even more. I feel like I'm one
step ahead from them to winning. If he didn't know about it, then it just means
that they weren't serious about killing the gamemasters.
While me, I did everything to know the secrets of this game. I tried to
discovered all of those even if my father wasn't cooperative. He didn't answer all
of my questions but at least, he did tell me some. And it was enough for me to make
a plan against those fucking gamemasters.
One thing is for sure, Aius was right. We are all innocent that was being use
for their entertainment. Just like the reason why people play chess.
But that wasn't enough reason for me to stop my plan about winning the game and
kill him. He's still a player. The most important piece to be exact. The one I
needed to kill.
Since we started playing this game, we ought to finish it.
"You really didn't know?" I asked the EL Ordre's King who remained standing
like he's in deep thought. "Well, that's a suprise. You're the King, right? I
thought you'll have more knowledge about this game more than me."
Mukha namang nakabawi na sya sa kalituhan nya. He stood straight, hands were
inside the pockets of his ripped pants. I raised an eyebrow 'cause he looked like
he's some kind of good-looking bad guy that most of the stupid girls would want to.
"Let's just say... I just have a father that put me in this game and doesn't
really care if I die or not." he said.
I chuckled. Oh my... Seems like we're the same in that department. But there's
no way I would tell him that.
I got up and stood in front of him. I flipped my hair and crossed my arms over
my chest. I eyed him from head to toe. He's handsome alright, but Loki is so
gorgeous and so hot compared to him. In fact, he's the most attractive among the EL
Ordre's boys. Those sea-green eyes of him were just so beautiful.
"You have a very coward father."
He stilled. Looks like he wasn't expecting that I insulted his father. I wasn't
just insulting though 'cause it's the truth. His father is coward. Very, very
coward.
"Do you think I will just let you insult my father?" Aius said. He's voice was
giving me a warning.
But I didn't felt threatened. I even chuckled. He didn't know everything about
his father and yet he's still defending him. I wonder how he would react if I tell
him everything I know?
"Oh, Aius..." I said softly. Lumapit pa ako sa kanya at hinaplos ang mukha nya.
He frowned but didn't try to move away. "You're so naive. Cute but naive."
"Bakit mo sinabing ang EL Ordre ang unang nandaya? You were the one who killed
Tracer's and Shielder's parents!"
I chuckled. "Silly. I'm not talking about our game. I'm talking about the
previous game."
He held my wrist to stop me from caressing his face. "Tell me everything then,
Miss Know-it-all."
I smiled. Since I'm enjoying the satisfaction from seeing the EL Ordre's King
being like this, I will be generous and tell him a very short story.
"Your father is a cheater, Aius. He was the reason why this game became...
bloody."
"Elaborate."
Hindi pa nya binibitawan ang kamay ko kaya binawi ko iyon sa kanya. But I
didn't distance myself from him. I took a step forward instead closing the distance
between us. He didn't move away. Maybe because he was too focused to hear what I'm
going to say.

"This so-called Bloody Human Chess game that we're playing

started as a friendly game. They started playing this to settle over the thing na
hindi nila mapagkasunduan."
"What thing?" Aius interrupted. I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know."
 He smirked at me. "Looks like you're not really that knowledgeable, Miss Know-
it-all."
I just chuckled and played with the zipper of his leather jacket. I don't know
what's with his get up. The way he dressed was totally different from the other
members but it looks good to him anyway. I feel like his real character is showing
because of this get up.
"But hey, at least I knew about these things unlike you, right?" I said
seductively. Mas lalong lumawak ang ngisi nya.
"Point taken."
I just smiled. "Anyway." I continued. "They were about to reach the endgame
until the EL Ordre cheated. The EL Ordre's Pawn killed the Red Faction's Rook."
He frowned. "Who ordered the killing?"
"Your father, maybe? Kasi wala namang plano ang hindi dumadaan sa King, right?"
Aius remained silent. He's probably thinking about what I just told him. He
knew that I'm right. The lower pieces wouldn't do the plan if there was no approval
from the King. But since our King Lancer was unavailable before, sa akin dumadaan
ang lahat ng plano.
So it's probably either of the two. That the killing was a plan from the lower
pieces and was just approved by the EL Ordre's King, or the plan was originally
from the King and he just ordered the Pawn to kill the Red Faction's Rook. But
either way, there was no denying that the EL Ordre cheated.
"Did you know that nobody won back then?" tanong ko and Aius snapped back from
reality.
"What?"
I smiled. "Nobody won back then. 'Cause instead of fixing the mess he started,
your father passed down his position to you even if you were still young. Thus, the
second game started." my hand went up to his stud earrings on his ears and played
with it. "The former Red Faction's King was so mad. He felt like your father
dishonored his family's name. He was so sure that he will win the game because the
EL Ordre's King cheated. But being the coward he is, your father passed down all
the responsibilities to you."
That's why I must kill him...
"You see, Aius? Your proposal is far from impossible. We can never join
forces." I tapped his left cheek. "But I will make sure that this will be the last
game. I will kill the gamemasters after I kill you."
But not now. There is a right time for that. I still have so many surprises for
them.
"Your father isn't only a coward." I said when he remained silent. "He's a weak
King as well."
Aius looked at me and I saw pain and anger in his eyes. I could tell that I
just hit a nail. It seems like he remembered something so I took advantage over his
vulnerability. My hand that was on his cheek went down to touch his neck. I
encircled my arms around his neck before I tiptoed to whisper on his ears.
"So prove to me that you're not like your father. That you're not just a weak
King. Prove to me when the time comes." lumayo ako sa kanya pero hindi ko sya
binitiwan. "I don't want to have a fight that doesn't have any thrill."
He didn't say anything. His eyes were blank again. I feel like I was staring at
something that doesn't have any life in it. He looked so dead. I am now sure that
something happened to him that made him like this. And it is related to him being a
weak King.

Ah, I get it. His second Queen.

I knew it. Their weakness are all women.
"You really won't accept my proposal?" he said so suddenly. He sounded so cold
and I don't know why but it amazed me.
I smiled sweetly and shook my head. "I won't. My plan is still the same. I will
kill you and the gamemasters."
 He looked at me intently and I was surprised when he put his hands on my waist
and pulled me closer to him. He dipped his head and put his mouth against my ears.
"Then, should I just kill you now?" he whispered.
I felt a goosebumps but it just excites me. Fuck... This is the real King of EL
Ordre! I am enjoying this so much!
Lumayo sya but we were still holding each other. Aius looked so serious and it
seems like he wasn't joking about what he had said. But I knew that he wouldn't do
it 'cause they still need something from me. So with that thought, I smiled and my
eyes went down on his lips.
"Can I be lucky to taste your lips first before you kill me?" I whispered
seductively. I noticed his jaw moved as he gritted his lips. Hinaplos ko ang panga
nya before I slowly tried to close the distance between our lips.
Aius didn't even try to stop me or move away. He was just standing still, not
making any slight movements, as he stared at me intently. Is it working though? Is
it getting seduced?
Our faces were only an inch apart and that I could smell his fresh breath and
his sweet scent that were mixing in. I closed my eyes and readied myself to feel
his lips.
"That's right, Ereshkigal. Seduce him. Seduce the King. Use your body. That's
the only way for you to win this game."
Mabilis akong napadilat ulit when I heard that voice inside my mind. Napatigil
din ako and seems like Aius noticed it too. I tried to ignore the voice in my head
but it was just getting louder and annoying, urging me to continue the kiss and to
use my body.
I wanted to scream. Especially when I remembered everything that he taught me
on how to do those things. I gritted my teeth and balled my fist. Fuck it! When
will I ever forget those horrible memories?!
I decided to stop and move away from Aius. Pero bago pa ako makalayo ay bumukas
ang pinto. Loki went in and I am sure that he saw our position bago ako makalayo
kay Aius kanina.
"Aius." he called the EL Ordre's King who's eyes were still on me. "They need
you downstairs."
"Got it." the King answered and I was surprised when he walked towards me. He
dipped his head and whispered something on my ears. "You can't do it 'cause I'm not
the one whom you wanted to kiss."
Lumayo sya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. His eyes were looking down on me
playfully and I just had to roll my eyes. Seems like everyone knows what Loki and I
had been doing.
Aius left at naiwan kaming dalawa ni Loki sa kwarto. I thought that he's going
to follow his King but I was surprised when he walked towards me. He held me
tightly on the chin and looked at my lips with so much intensity in his eyes.
"Did you kiss him?" he said, almost spitting every word.
I just smiled. I didn't try to remove his hand that was holding my chin even
though it's kinda painful.
"What do you think?" I asked back instead.
He didn't answer. Palipat-lipat ang tingin nya sa mga mata ko at sa labi ko.
Then he tsked before he let go of my chin and went out of the room.
I was left alone. Umupo ulit ako sa sofa and tried to calm myself and forget
what happened earlier. I tried to forget the voice in my head even though it's
almost impossible.
Fuck. He's already dead pero sigurado ako na hindi ako titigilan ng mga ala-
alang iyon. Not until I win this game.
Or will I ever forget those horrible memories?
I just chuckled and shook my head. Of course. My brain is my only strength. My
mind is strong. I could handle that.
It was late afternoon when Alter went inside my room. It made me happy 'cause
she never once entered my room ever since I got here. I even asked her if she'll
help me escape even though I know that she won't.
Alter, my Knight. My favorite piece.
 But she already chose the EL Ordre. She chose to betray me.
"But, Your Majesty, I don't feel like a human anymore. Everytime I'm following
your orders, wala akong kaalam-alam that I am slowly becoming inhuman."
My lips parted when she said those words. She said those with a sad smile on
her face. She was hurting but she didn't know that her words hurt me too.
'You're telling me that I'm turning you into monster?" I asked, bewildered.
I took a sharp breath and exhaled using my mouth. I tried to conceal my
emotions and not to show it on my face. But as I hear her reasons, I started to get
mad.
"You are choosing EL Ordre." I said. I knew already about this when she chose
to betray me but it was like an acid on my mouth to say it out loud.
She didn't say anything so I just looked at her face. There was sadness in her
eyes mixed with pain and pity for me. And I hate that. I hate being pitied 'cause
it just made me feel so weak. So I got angrier with every second passed.
"Get out." I hissed.
"Your Majes—"
"Do not call me 'Your Majesty'! I hate traitors like you! You're a despicable
rat!"
She looked like she was about to cry but held her tears in. Her lips tremble
when she spoke again.
"Hindi pa huli ang lahat. You can still be a human."
And that made me mad even more.
"Get out!" I said as I stood up from my seat and pointed the door. "I don't
want to see you again. Get out!"
She took a deep breath. She looked at me before she bowed her head. The thing
she always do to show respect for me.
"Goodbye, Ate Eresh."
Good thing that she immediately turned her back that's why she didn't see the
tears that formed in the corner of my eyes. I turned around and looked outside the
window again. I gritted my teeth so hard to stop the tears from falling. But I
failed. I quickly wiped it harshly off my cheeks.
What does she said? Hindi pa huli ang lahat? I can still be a human?
I chuckled and smiled painfully.
How will I become a human again when in the first place, I was born as a
monster?

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Chapter 19

Warning: Spg
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I was sweating bullets when I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night. It
was dark and the only light inside my room was from the moonlight outside the
window. The moon is at its fullest. It was a beautiful scene opposite of the chaos
that's going on inside my head.
It was the reason why I woke up suddenly. Hindi ako tinantanan ng boses na
narinig ko sa isip ko kanina and it even disturbed me from my sleep. I tried to
cover both of my ears but since the voice was coming out from my mind, it was
useless. I could still hear it clearly.
The voice was scolding me as to why I didn't continue the kiss earlier. Why I
didn't seduce the King. The voice was so angry, telling me that I'm still fucking
useless.
My hands went up to my hair. I pulled it so hard hard hoping that the voice
would stop if I get hurt. But it didn't. Mas lalo lang lumala. Mas lumakas.
Naninigaw na.
I feel like I am going crazy. But then again, I'm already crazy, right? That's
how I got the title as The Mad Queen. My pieces think that I am insane.
I laughed. Fuck it. How would I stop this voice in my head then?
Why now? Of all the days that I could experience this again, why now? Was it
because of what happened earlier? Was it because I tried to seduce the EL Ordre's
King? Was it because of Alter's words?
I squealed in pain when I tried to pull my hair so hard. It was painful. I
could feel my scalp was burning when I stopped. Pero hindi ko pinagsisihan ang
ginawa ko. 'Cause finally, the voice in my head disappeared.
I was panting and sweating when I calmed down. I closed my eyes so tight before
I opened it and turned on the lampshade on my bedside table. It was a good thing
that all of the rooms in here were soundproof. Nobody heard the cry of pain that I
did earlier.
They mustn't know about this. They could use this against me.
I thought this wouldn't happen again. I thought I was already over this. But it
seems like I was wrong. What happened earlier triggered it again.
I got up and went inside the bathroom. I turned on the lights inside and
started taking off my nighties. I just let it fall down the floor. Wala akong
itinira na kahit ano sa suot ko.
I stared at my reflection in the mirror. It wasn't a full-length mirror so I
couldn't see the part from the waist down but it was enough. I just need to see my
face. My face that was pale as the paper. My long blonde hair covered my breast.
I smiled bitterly. Fuck it. I looked so weak. Mukhang isang pitik lang ay
mapapatumba na agad ako. If father would see me like this, for sure, he wouldn't
like it.
"Disgusting..." I said I could hear the pain in my voice.
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck it! C'mon, Eresh. You can do better than that! Forget your
emotions! Forget your feelings and keep your eyes on the prize!
Kill all the EL Ordre members. Kill the gamemasters. Stop this fucking game!
Damn it! It was because I let Alter crawled inside my heart. That's why her
betrayal and words earlier hurt me so much. Kung hindi ko hinayaan na mapalapit sya
sa akin, then I wouldn't be like this.
I need to kill all these feelings.
I decided to wash my face to refreshen myself. My head was still in chaos but I
couldn't do anything about it. It was like this everyday anyway. Nasanay na lang
ako.
I dried my face with the towel and went out of the bathroom without any clothes
on. I don't think someone will see me anyway. It's in the middle of the night,
probably they were fast asleep now.

Pero nalaman kong mali ako the moment I went out of the
bathroom. 'Cause standing in the middle of the room, just beside my bed, was a man
I never thought I would be happy to see right now. He was wearing a simple cotton
shirt and a maong pants. But still, he's the most handsome man for me.
I was surprised so I halted on my steps. I just keep on standing there, staring
at him who stared back at me too. He eyed me from head to toe, my skin tingles with
his gaze. He was not showing any emotions as he stared at me.
But he's here. And I think he can do something to stop the chaos in my head.
I took a deep breath before I walked towards him without taking my eyes off his
face. His jaw moved when he gritted his teeth. Pero wala syang ginawa hanggang sa
makalapit ako sa kanya.
I needed him tonight.
I stopped in front of him. I held his nape and pulled him for a kiss. But
before our lips could touch, he stopped and looked at me in the eye.
"Did you kiss Aius earlier?" he whispered as his sea-green eyes went down on my
lips. I could see that he wanted to taste it, to feel my lips against his but he
was restraining himself to hear my answer.
Despite of the emptiness that I'm feeling I chuckled.
 "No." I whispered and smiled at him seductively. "You're the only one who I
wanted to kiss." and after that, I pulled him again to have the kiss that I wanted.
I kissed him slowly at first, feeling his warm, soft lips against mine. Loki
didn't stop me even though I know that he wanted to move at his own pace. Rough,
hard and fast. But for now, he let me took over him that I even felt grateful.
I need this.
My lips moved slowly as I kissed him. I brushed my lips against his before I
licked his lower lip. And that awakened the beast inside him. He groaned and placed
his one hand on my back while the other one on my nape to pull me closer to him and
gave me a deep, breathtaking kiss.
He was doing the opposite than what I did earlier. He moves roughly, kissing me
in every corner like he didn't want to leave anything untouched. He probed me to
open my mouth to which I gladly did and he slid his tongue inside it.
I moaned. Ah... This is what I want. This is much better. I want it rough. I
want him to took over us. Ayoko pala ng mabagal.
This way, I might forget everything. Just for this night.
He stopped kissing me only to breath for an air before he kissed me again. He
bit my lower lip, chewed on it and I rewarded him with a moan. He groaned and
deepened the kiss. Nalasahan ko pa ang dugo sa bibig ko but I let it be. I wanted
it. I want it rougher.
I pulled the hem of his shirt. Saglit na naghiwalay ang mga labi namin para
hubarin ko ang damit nya. But our lips met again when I took off his shirt. It was
like we were thirsty for each others lips.
I caressed his body and my hands trembled when I touched his muscles. God... It
was so hard. He has a ripped body that I imagined myself being protected while I
was inside his arms.
I chuckled. What? I wanted to be protected by him? No! I am not weak!
And to prove that, I knelt in front of him and unbuckled the belt of his pants.
Mabilis ang pagkilos ko. Walang sinasayang na segundo na hindi gumagalaw. I pulled
down his pants together with his boxer shorts and his cock sprang into life. I
smirked and looked up to him.
"Already this hard with just a kiss?" I teased and I saw him gritted his teeth
that's why his jaw clenched.
"Don't make a fun out of me. You know what that cock can do to you." he hissed
and I just chuckled before made him sat at the end of the bed.
I noticed his body stiffened when I pump his cock using my hand. It was so
thick and so long at halos hindi ko na mahawakan ng maayos. His cock was so hot and
pulsing against my hand. Fuck... Just imagining this thing ramming inside me made
me feel so fucking horny.
I licked my lips to moistened it before I dipped my head and licked the tip of
his cock. I heard him took a sharp breath that made me smirk before I licked his
length up to the tip.
"Fuck..." he hissed. He likes it. He likes what I'm doing to him. And I will
never get tired of hearing those little sounds he's making while I'm trying to
pleasure him.
I licked the tip of his cock, wetting him with my saliva. Loki was already
panting so I looked up to him to see his reaction. My heart beats so fast when I
saw him looking at me with so much intensity on his sea-green eyes. His jaw was
clenching as his chest were heaving up and down.
And without taking my eyes off him, I took him inside my mouth.
"Fuck, Eresh..." he breathes. His moan was like music to my ears. Hindi ko
napigilan ang mapaungol din at narinig ko ang sunod-sunod nyang pagmumura. Probably
because he felt the vibration in my mouth when I moaned while his cock was still
inside my mouth.
I swallowed him inch by inch. He was so big and long that my mouth stretched
for him and the tip already reached my throat. I stopped my urge to gagged and just
sucked him before I moved back until the head was left in my mouth. I swirled my
tongue around it which made him groan. My hands began massaging his balls and I
noticed how his chest reddened like he was stopping himself from moving as he
enjoys his view.
"Damn it, my temptress. Your mouth just feels so fucking hot." he hissed as he
looked at me with his sea-green eyes mixed with lust and pleasure.
I smirked before I bobbed my head up and down in a fast pace while I was still
playing with his balls. Mas lalo ko pang ginalingan when his hips started moving
frantically. What I'm doing to him affected him so much that he almost lose control
over himself.
And when I swallowed him whole again and sucked him so hard that my cheeks
hallowed as I slowly moved back, he let out an animalistic groan. Mukhang nakawala
na ang pagkokontrol nya sa sarili nya.
He held the side of my head and stood up while his hard cock was still inside
my mouth. He began thrusting his hips against my mouth and I fought my urge to gag.
Napahawak ako nang mahigpit sa magkabilang mga hita nya while he was face-fucking
me. I looked up to him and he just looked so beautiful with his reddish face and
clenching jaw.
"Fuck it!" he groaned as he thrusts his hips faster. I couldn't help but to
moan and the vibration from my mouth set him over the edge. Mas bumilis pa ang
paggalaw nya and I felt him getting bigger. His cock was pulsing until he let out a
wild groan and shoots his load inside my mouth. He tasted so sweet and salty at the
same time.
I let out a long moan as I sucked him dry. Hinihingal sya at nakatitig lang sa
ginagawa ko sa kanya. So he saw how I swallowed his load and lick my lips. He just
reached his climax but I saw the renewed lust in his eyes.
I stood up and stared at him. That's it. I needed someone tonight. I needed
someone just to make me forget the chaos that I'm feeling. I'm feeling too much
that I want to shut down everything and Loki was the one who was here in front of
me.
I walked towards him and closed our distance. I encircled my arms on his neck
and stared at his sea-green eyes.
"Fuck me tonight, Your Majesty. Fuck my brains out. Fuck me senseless till I
forget everything."
His jaw clenches as he stared at me with so much intensity in his eyes. I could
see his lust for me and even if he didn't say anything. I know that he will do what
I wanted. He's the only one who can give it to me.
Just for tonight. I will let a man use my body. I need him to stop all the
feelings that I wanted to forget.
Just for tonight.

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Chapter 20

Warning: Spg
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Loki's head dipped as he put his mouth against my ears. He breathes my scent
and everytime he exhaled, his warm breath fanned my ears down to my neck which
added to the pleasure that I'm already feeling. I was already wet between my thighs
and it didn't help when he put his hands on the sides of my small waist and pulled
me closer to him.
He bit my earlobe and I let out a cry of pain and pleasure. He sucked and
licked on it that made my heart beats so fast. Fuck it! He's just so good.
I was already panting when he stopped. He burried his face on the hollow space
between my neck and my shoulders. He planted a kiss on the most sensitive spot of
my neck and I just had to bit my lower lip to stop myself from moaning. I don't
want him to know that with just a small kiss from him, he could already make me
react like this.
Oh, fuck... I want him so bad. I want him to fuck my brains out.
 "Your Majesty..." I moaned when his hands started caressing the curves of my
waist. Pabalik-balik ang kamay nya doon sa paghagod pataas at pababa. Then his
hands went down on my ass and he gripped it so hard that I felt his fingers dugged
on it.
Umangat ang mga kamay nya at napunta sa malulusog kong dibdib. He started
massaging it and I could tell that he's enjoying what he's doing on my breast. He
played and squeezed on it for a minute before he flicked my nipple that immediately
hardened like a pebble because of what he did.
"Fuck me, Your Majesty. Fuck me!" nanggigigil ko nang sabi. This foreplay is
taking a long time! I just want to feel him inside me as he rammed his hips and
make me scream his name!
He chuckled while his face was still on my neck. May naramdaman akong kakaibang
pakiramdam na humagod sa buong katawan ko when I heard his low and sexy laugh. He
grazed his teeth on my skin before he bit the most sensitive spot on my neck. I
moaned as he licked and sucked on that part. Damang-dama ko ang paghagod ng dila
nya doon.
"Damn it, Loki! I said fuck me already!" I hissed out of frustration but he
just chuckled again. I got pissed and impatient so my hands went down and pulled
him by the waist to close our distance. I moaned when I felt his hard cock on my
tummy.
I gripped his cock and placed it in between my legs. I noticed Loki stiffened
and he looked at me with a wide eye. It was like he wasn't expecting me to do this.
But fuck him to tease me and leave me hanging like this!
I started moving my hips and we both moaned when his hot and hard cock brush
against my folds. I grinded again before I heard him cursed and held my hips firmly
to stop me from moving.
"Damn it, Eresh. Stop it!" he hissed when I tried to move again. Nakita ko ang
inis sa mga mata nya and I felt his fingers dugged on my hips.
"Fuck you!" I spat at him. "I told you to fuck me senselessly, Loki! Fuck me
roughly! I don't need this foreplay!"
I was mad. I thought that he could help me to stop the turmoil inside my head
but he's just making it worst! Mas naiinis lang ako dahil sa pambibitin nya!
All I need is a rough and wild fuck!
"Bloody hell!" he cursed angrily. Sigurado akong nawala na pareho ang init na
nararamdaman namin kanina.
But I need him, damn it!
"Make me your King first!" he said so suddenly. Napamaang ako.
"What?"
"Make me your King! Not the Red Faction's King. Not the EL Ordre's King. Not in
the game. Just me."
I stared at him, completely dumbfounded. I searched the joke in his eyes but
all I can see was his seriousness. He looked at me with so much intensity and I
could tell that he's really serious!

"Are you out of your fucking mind?!" I blurted out.

What the fuck is he thinking? I don't understand him! Make him my King? And
what does he mean when he said that not in the game? Is he telling me that I should
make him the King in my life?
I gritted my teeth. Damn it! How could I forget that he's one of those whom I
loathed in my life? He's still a man and he's taking advantage of the situation!
"No." I said firmly. I saw the coldness in his eyes before I saw him smirked
with mischief.
"No rough and wild fuck, then."
He let me go and the moment that he did, I immediately felt the longing in me
which was a very, very dangerous feeling. I shouldn't feel like this. Heck, he's
only a man and with a face and body like mine, I could immediately find someone who
can replace him. In fact, marami na sa loob ng bahay na 'to ang pwedeng pumalit sa
kanya. He's just a fuck buddy anyway.
But when he started picking up his clothes that was on the floor. I panicked,
which I shouldn't even feel. I became restless as I watched him while putting on
his boxer shorts again.
Fuck it! Why am I feeling like this? I could just replace him right?
I am the Queen! A strong Queen and I shouldn't bow down to him!
"Damn it, okay!" I blurted out before he could wear his pants again. He stopped
and I noticed that he's trying so hard to hide his smirk.
I cursed deep inside me. Damn it! Am I being manipulated by him?
"What?" patay-malisya nya pang tanong. I rolled my eyes and just accepted that
he won this time. I just don't have the strength to oppose him because of what I'm
feeling right now.
Mas hindi ko matitiis kung basta na lang sya aalis with my mind and feelings
still in turmoil. I needed to shut everything off.
I took a deep breath before I looked at him straight in the eye.
"You'll be my King." I said. "Fuck me now, Your Majesty."
Mabilis nyang tinawid ang distansya sa pagitan naming dalawa. He kissed me so
deep and hard and I was surprised! It looks like he didn't care if I just gave him
a head and if he could still taste himself inside my mouth!
I don't know why but it made me feel warm inside. Other men don't want to do
it. Other men would find it disgusting. But Loki still kissed me senselessly. It
was like he's repaying me for what I did to him. It was like he's thanking me that
I pleasured him by kissing me without minding everything.
So I answered his kisses back with the same intensity and fire like his. We
both moan when our tongue met and played with each other. We swirled our tongue
over one another before he cupped my both of my cheeks with just one hand and
thrusts his tongue inside my mouth.
His kisses were so hard and rough just like what I wanted. I wrapped my arms on
his neck before my fingers dugged on his hair. I pulled some strands softly which
made him groan.
Nagulat ako nang marahas nya akong itinulak sa kama. My body bounced and before
I could fixed myself, he was already on top of me. He pushed my body until my back
rested on the soft mattress before he attacked me with his kisses again.
He kissed me roughly that I could almost taste blood on my lips. I moaned when
I felt him cupped my breast and started massaging it so hard. I could feel his
fingers dugged on my soft breast on the process.
Iniwan nya ang mga labi ko. His lips trailed down on my cheeks. He kissed my
jaw before he settled himself on my neck and gave me some hickeys. He sucked and
licked its skin and I couldn't help but to whimper.

I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes to feel the sensation

on what's he's doing to my body. He was moving to fast and rough. That's how I like
it anyway. And I was right with what I thought. 'Cause slowly, the turmoil and
chaos inside me were replaced by the pleasure that Loki is giving me.
"Fuck, oh yes!" I moaned when I felt his fingers played with my folds. He was
rubbing my clit as his head went down and licked the valley of my breast. I arched
my back when I looked down and he licked the skin around my nipple. I was panting
as I waited for him to enter one of the bud inside his mouth.
I gasped when he finally did it. His mouth covered my breasts as he squeezed it
while his other hand was playing with my core. Hindi ko na alam kung anong unang
dapat kong pagtuunan ng pansin. All I know is that I was going crazy while he was
pleasuring me.
And this is the kind of craziness that I want.
"Oh, fuck! Damn it!" I hissed when he inserted two of his fingers inside my
core. He started finger-fucking me while his mouth was still busy with my breast.
He bit my nipple and I cried out of pleasure and pain. I looked down on him and
electricity ran down my whole body when I saw his eyes were closed while sucking my
breast. He looked like he was enjoying as well what's he's doing to me.
He inserted his third finger and thrusts them roughly on me. I moved my hips to
meet his fingers as I felt the familiar feeling that was building inside of me.
Tumigil si Loki sa ginagawa sa dibdib ko and he looked up to me.
"The way how your walls wrapped around my fingers is just so hot." he whispered
before he kissed my chest without taking his eyes off me. "Come on my fingers, my
temptress." he said as he thrusts his fingers so fast.
"Oh my fucking—" hindi ko na natuloy ang pagmumura ko. My body convulsed as I
reached my peak. Loki didn't stop thrusting his fingers, prolonging my orgasm.
White light blinded my sight in the process.
When I calmed down, Loki slowly took his fingers out of my core. He licked my
juices and I just had to moan while watching him 'cause he just looked so hot. He
smirked. Itinapat nya sa bibig ko ang mga daliri nya and I gladly did what he
wanted. I sucked my juices off his fingers.
"You're so fucking hot." he hissed and I just smirked. Nang matapos ay tumayo
sya at umayos ako sa paghiga while waiting for him. He took something out of the
pocket of his pants and I just chuckled when I saw what it was.
He tore the foil and wear the condom before he placed himself on top of me.
Nawala ang ngisi sa mukha ko, napalitan nang pagnanasa para sa kanya. And without a
warning, he thrusts his hard cock inside me. We both moaned when our body
connected.
Loki didn't move at first. It was like he was savouring the feeling of him
inside of me. I did the same and it wasn't so hard 'cause I just felt so full. His
cock was thick and long that my insides were stretching for him.
"Damn it!" he hissed as he started moving on top of me. It was slowly at first
which made me so impatient
"Faster, Your Majesty." I breathe. "I want it rougher."
"Beg."
Napatigil ako. "What?"
"I want you begging, Eresh."
I was about to complain when he gripped my hips in place and started moving so
fast and rough. He thrusts his hips so hard that his balls where slapping on my
ass. But before I could savour the feeling, he stopped and started moving slowly
again.
"Fuck! Do it again!" I said angrily but he just smirked at me.
"Then beg, my temptress."
I gritted my teeth. He was moving slowly that I knew I wouldn't reach my orgasm
like this. In the first place, I wanted him to fuck me so hard till I will be able
to forget all the feelings but if he moves like this, then this fuck will be
nonsense.

"Beg, my temptress." he repeated and I just glared at him.

"Fuck you!"
He smirked and stopped. "Beg."
I cursed and tried to move my hips but he held it firmly in place. Kanina pa
ako inis na inis at bitin na bitin. I just want to forget everything tonight
through fucking but why do I have to suffer again first?!
Loki dipped his head. He licked my earlobe and whispered on my ears.
"Beg, Eresh. Just beg and I will fuck you senselessly. I will fuck you so hard
that you will still feel my presence inside you even after a long time."
I felt a goosebumps when he said that. His voice sounded so... erotic. Halatang
nang-aakit. And I couldn't help it anymore. Besides, he's the winner for this night
anyway. Kanina pa nya ako napapasunod sa gusto nya.
"Please fuck me, then. Fuck me, Your Majesty. Please, fuck me so hard and make
me forget everything."
He looked at me and stared at my face. It was like he was reading something on
me but I wasn't an open book so he had a hard time. He frowned.
 "Please." I begged again just like how he wanted me to. "Make me scream.
Wrecked me tonight! Do whatever you want to me!"
I saw the desire in his eyes before he positioned himself. He gripped my hips
and with a gritted teeth, he rammed his hips on me fast.
I bit my lower lip. He was thrusting his hips so rough na kahit hindi pa
nagtatagal ay alam kong namumula na ang ibaba ko. He was just so big and thick and
long! I know that after this, I would have a hard time walking!
He groaned like a wild beast and quickened his pace. With each thrusts, he hits
my gspot. He cupped one of my breast and played with my nipple. He pinched the bud
and flicked it with his fingers. I moaned so loud and gripped on the bedsheets.
"Fuck! So tight!" he hissed. His other hand started playing with my clit and at
that moment, I knew I wouldn't last.
"Oh! Oh, Your Majesty! That's it! Harder!" nababaliw ko nang sabi.
He rubbed his thumb on clit and that set me off. My walls clenched around his
length and I heard him groaned.
"I'm coming, Your Majesty." I sobbed.
"Then come." he said, almost moaning.
I let out a long moan when I reached my orgasm. Loki didn't stop and even moved
faster. So fast than ever before. His grip on my hips was painful but I didn't
complain. I watched him while he was trying to reach his own climax.
"Fuck!" he groaned so loud and moved fast, hard and rough. I was moaning while
watching him. Pulang-pula ang buong dibdib at leeg nya and he just looked the
hottest man on earth.
Bumaba ang mukha nya at mariin nya akong hinalikan sa labi before he moved
away. I sobbed. He let out an animalistic groan before he stopped and reached his
climax.
I looked up to him. He looked so beautiful. I felt tears ran down from my eyes
as I watched him. Mabilis ko iyong pinunasan but it was already too late. Loki
looked down and saw me wiping my tears.
Damn it! I was feeling so overwhelmed even if I didn't have too! I just can't
help it! I mean, my mind was in chaos earlier but when Loki pleasured me, it
suddenly stopped. I didn't know that he could actually stop those feelings. Wala
akong ibang naramdaman kundi sya lang.
May dumaan na emosyon sa mga mata nya that I couldn't even name but it was gone
quickly. It was so brief that I thought I was just imagining it.
Loki touched my face and I was surprised when he wiped the tears left on my
cheeks. I gritted my teeth and stopped myself from crying again.
Damn it! Fuck! This isn't what I'm expecting after the fuck!
Inilayo ko ang mukha ko sa kanya. I pushed his body away from me, praying
silently that he would understand what I wanted. And he did. He sighed before he
got up.
Mabilis akong dumapa sa kama para hindi na sya makita. I heard him opening the
bathroom's door, probably to throw his condom before I heard the rustles while he
was picking up his clothes. I was thankful when he quietly left the room without
saying anything.
Damn. I just let him saw my vulnerable side. I shouldn't have let that happen.
Pero mukhang may ideya na rin naman sya the moment I asked him to fuck me and help
me forget everything.
I sighed. He did it anyway. He helped me forget those feelings. I just never
thought that he could really do it.
I closed my eyes. I will be able to have a good sleep tonight. Finally.

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Chapter 21

The moment I reached the last step of the stairs, all eyes
were on me. Why not? It is not everyday that I will go out of the room to have a
meal with them. That's why I can't blame them when they had that look in their eyes
like I just did a magic trick in front of them.
I just raised an eyebrow at them and stride my way towards the dining area. I
caught the grin from the man in a hoodie jacket when he saw me entered the room. I
just rolled my eyes and his shoulders shook when he chuckled.
He was the one who kept on inviting me to have a meal with them. He would visit
me every meal time, asking me if I would join them or he will just bring my food
inside my room. I would refuse to join them everytime but now... it's different.
Ever since that day when I heard that voice in my head again, I feel like I
will just go insane if I just stayed inside the room. Wala akong ibang nakikita.
Pare-parehong scenery lang ang nakikita ko sa labas ng bintana. So I decided to
accept that man's invitation who introduced himself as Archer. I decided to finally
went out of my room to save that little sanity that I still have.
I still have plans. I just can't lose like this. It was just a voice. I'm sure
that I will be okay if I pull myself together again.
I eyed the people in the dining room. Some were gaping at me who I'm sure will
feel uncomfortable with my presence here. But I saw Auis smirking at me. He even
stood up and pulled a chair for me. Doon nya ako pinaupo sa pinakapuno ng lamesa.
"For the Queen." he said playfully and I heard Archer snickered.
I didn't mind them and sat on the chair that Aius offered to me. Tumabi sa akin
si Aius. He sat at the end of the table on my right.
Nostalgia came rushing through me. I remember myself sitting in this part of
the table back at my house while I was having a meeting with the Red Faction. When
we didn't have our own hideout then.
I still feel like a Queen but with different members of the chess pieces now.
It confused me. I was captured by them and yet why are they treating me this way
like I am also part of their group?
I caught Loki's gaze at me. He was playing with his lips while leaning casually
on his chair beside Aius. His sea-green eyes bored into mine. He stared at me for a
minute before he leaned in to Aius and whispered something to him. The EL Ordre's
King looked at me before he smirked and nodded at Loki.
I frowned and they both stood up at the same time and exchanged their seats.
Now, it was Loki who was beside me. I raised an eyebrow at him but he just gave me
his infamous mischievous smirk again.
"I'll eat inside my room." said the EL Ordre's Rook and he even took his plate
of food with him. Wala nang nakaimik sa kanila at sinundan na lang sya ng tingin.
I just shrugged my shoulders. Well, good thing he did. I'm sure that he'll just
throw me dagger looks the whole lunch time if he just stayed here.
"I'll bring food to Alter." said the man whom I remembered as Alter's man. He
was the reason why she chose to betray me and be a part of EL Ordre just like that.
He took two plates of food with him and went up to Alter's room. I'm sure that
he won't be back until lunch time is over.
"Okay! May gusto pa bang kumain sa loob ng kwarto nila?" Archer said merrily
who was obviously trying to lighten up the mood. None of them stood up again but I
could tell that they're uncomfortable with me being here.
I crossed my arms. I will not go back inside my room to have my meal alone
again. I need a new environment to shut the voice in my head.
I know that I'm far from being like... real crazy. I just can't forget those
horrible things that I've experienced that it even haunts me today.

"Kung wala..." Archer continued. "Kain na tayo!"

And that's what we did. I was silent the whole meal but I was paying attention
to them. I know that they're mad at me. Hindi na nga ako magtataka kung basta na
lang ako bubulagta because they poisoned my food. But none of that happened.
Loki ate silently beside me. And as expected to someone with a royal blood, he
ate his food gracefully. He chewed the food inside his mouth slowly. I just
smirked. This is why I really thought that he's the King at first.
"Ang sarap pa rin talaga ng luto mo, Kier!" Archer blurted out. The man with a
mismatched eyes just chuckled before Archer turned his gazed at me. "Mas masarap
kumain kapag may kasabay, diba?" he said.
I just raised my eyebrow. Indeed, he is right. Mas okay nga ito kaysa tuluyan
nang masira ang utak ko habang kumakain ako sa kwarto mag-isa. But there is no way
I will admit that.
"I still don't like you." I said simply and sipped on my water. Archer just
chuckled and didn't mind my comment.
The meal ended peacefully. I stayed on the living room and sat on the one-
seater sofa, not wanting to go back inside my room. Wala rin namang nagpapabalik sa
akin doon so I just did whatever I want.
This is ridiculous. I don't feel like I'm their captive!
And by late afternoon, the living room was crowded with the EL Ordre's members.
They were complete except for their Rook that we took from them.
"Oh my... I never thought that I would see you here." I said when I saw her as
one of the visitors who came. She was with two men who was obviously her Knight and
her Bishop.
I could tell that the man on her right is her Bishop. But something is off with
him. He looked so lost like he's not used to all of this. He's an open book! Madali
syang basahin! It's so obvious that he didn't know much about killing! And that
concludes me that he didn't experience the same training that we had. Parang ayaw
ipasa sa kanya ang pagiging ches piece ng kung sino man sa parents nya.
But they don't have a choice.
I looked at the man to her left and I rolled my eyes. He was puffing on his
vape ever since he came so the room is now foggy and filled with vanilla scent. I
also noticed his amber eyes with a hint of red whenever the light would hit his
eyes.
"Shut it, Eresh!" the woman hissed and I just smirked at her.
"Well, I can understand. This is your team and I'm the trespasser here." I
smiled sweetly. "But aren't you happy to see me? This is such a wonderful reunion
for the both of us don't you think?"
She rolled her eyes that made me chuckle before she looked at the EL Ordre's
King.
"My King, why is she still here?" she asked but Aius just shrugged his
shoulders and pointed at Fourth who seems enjoying what's happening. He was playing
with his lips as he looked back and forth to me and the woman.
"Why, my dear sister? Ayaw mong makita ako?"
I smiled in triumph when I saw how she got affected by how I called her. Of
course. Judging at the way she dyed her blonde hair to brown, it was obvious that
she doesn't want anyone to know that we're blood related.
"Wow..." she said sarcastically. "You're calling me as your sister when it's
convenient for you, huh?"
I smiled. I stood up from my seat and walked towards her. I was smiling but it
didn't hide the anger in my eyes when I get near hear.
"Of course, Ishtar." I said and touched the end of her brown curly hair. I
leaned in and whispered something on her ears. "Or should I call you like the name
that you introduced to your friends?"
My question triggered her because she looked at me with madness in her eyes.
"Don't you dare involved innocent people again, Eresh!"
I chuckled and kissed her on her cheeks before I distance myself at her and
smiled.
"As you wish, Aaliyah."
She glared at me but she didn't say anything. She looked pass by me and looked
over my shoulder.
"Loki, I need to talk to you."
Napatingin ako kay Loki na agad na tumayo nang tumalikod si Ishtar. I raised an
eyebrow when he silently followed behind her. They decided to talk at the dining
area.
 "Kapatid mo sya?" Archer asked. I just looked at him and didn't answer. I
decided that I have to go back to my room now that Ishtar is here. I don't want in
the same room as her.
I walked towards the stairs and was about to go up when I heard Ishtar's voice.
It wasn't my intention to eavesdrop but her voice was just too loud so I couldn't
help but to hear their conversation.
"What is she doing here, Loki?" I heard Ishtar ask.
"It's Fourth." Loki said. "Didn't your Bishop or Knight tell you?"
"Kylo told me but-"
"Call him Plutus."
"Fine!" I heard Ishtar said impatiently. "But can you blame me? Ilang taon nyo
akong hindi pinatapak dito! I lived a normal life for years!"
Loki chuckled. "You're too important for us to expose you in danger. And about
the Red Faction's Queen, we need her to tell us where Shielder is."
I gritted my teeth and leaned my body on the railings. How lucky that bitch
could be? She lived a normal life and there's so many people who wants to protect
her. She did what she wanted for years while being protected and yet she still
showing them her bitchy attitude?
I smiled bitterly. Fuck it... She's so fucking lucky with her life.
"Aaliyah..." I heard Loki's voice. It was so soft that I almost couldn't hear
it.
"It's Ishtar!"
"I'm asking you as Aaliyah." Ishtar didn't answer so Loki continued.
"How is she?"
"Who?"
"Daphne... How is she?"
I was surprised when I heard his soft voice. He said that name with a mild tone
like it was a fragile glass that would break kapag diniinan nya ang pagkakasabi
nya. And by that, I know that it's someone special to him.
Who's Daphne? Is she the one who owns the room at Loki's penthouse? And why is
this idea saddens me? I felt a sting on my chest but disregarded it.
I tried to focus my ear to them. I wanted to go near them but Loki will sense
me if I even move so I just settled myself here at the end of the stairs.
"Happily married with two kids. Why don't you try to visit her?"
I heard Loki sighed. "I can't. It's too risky."
Ishtar chuckled. "Try to move on na din, okay?"
It seems like their conversation was about to end so I immediately went up to
my room. I closed the door behind and thought so hard.
Ishtar being here will be not easy for me. I knew that I will have a hard time
starting today. But I have to endure it. I gave enough time for Yucca and Enkidu
and if I will to calculate it, I know that they'll be done.
King Lancer is ready.
I smirked. My mind drifted off to what I heard earlier. It seems like I've just
discovered something that I can use against Loki.
Daphne, huh? I'll make sure that I'll see you soon.

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Chapter 22

That was the first and the last time that I joined them
over the meal. I'm sure that Ishtar will join them and I don't think that I will be
able to digest the food properly if I am to eat with her. She's my most hated bitch
of all the bitches out there.
Now I'm back with my usual routine. Sitting on the sofa that's inside my room
while looking outside the window. I was trying so hard to fight the memories that
wanted to resurfaced again. If I lose, then I will have to hear that voice in my
head again.
I just can't believe that I'm having a battle inside my head. I have to win
this game. I have to fight the EL Ordre. And I couldn't just get affected with
what's happening in my mind.
Fuck it. I just hope that my situation won't get worse. The last thing that I
want is to lose myself on the war in my head and to lose in this game.
I closed my eyes hoping that the memories would stop but it just made the
images more vivid. I grunted and opened my eyes.
Fuck. I must forget it, damn it!
I was already in a foul mood when I heard someone knocking on the door. I
didn't bother looking who it was. Maybe it's Archer and will ask me if there's
anything that I need.
So when the door opened, the person who I least expected to visit me entered my
room. It was Ishtar. I smirked as I watched her walk towards me. She stood in front
of me and her expression looks like she's disgusted with me. I smirked at her even
more.
"Wow... I never thought that you'll visit me in here, my dear sister." I
flashed her a sweet smile and laughed when I saw how she got affected. She looked
so angry now.
"Where's Shielder?" she asked with a gritted teeth.
I rolled my eyes. I made sure that she'll see how annoyed I was.
"Oh geez. I am so getting sick answering that question!" I spat at her. "How
many times should I tell all of you that your Rook is dead and he won't be coming
back? Don't any of you have brains to understand that?!"
"Stop lying, Eresh!" she hissed and took a step forward. "We both know that
you're lying! Buhay si Gray kaya sabihin mo na lang kung nasaan sya!"
I watched her every expression while she's talking. Oh, I would really love to
see this woman crumble in front of me. Masyado na syang tumapang. Mas lalo lang
nadagdagan ang galit ko sa kanya.
I stood up and she looked like she was taken aback but she tried to hide it. I
smirked. Ah... I was wrong. She's still that same girl who's scared at me. She was
just trying to look strong 'cause she knew that this is her lair and there's so
many people out there that will protect from me.
I tasted iron in my mouth with that thought. This bitch is really lucky. The
more I want to ruin her confidence.
"You really look like him." I said and with just those words, I saw how much it
affected her.
I walked towards her. Slowly so I could see how her expression turned into
being anxious as she watched my every step. Gone was the girl who looked confident
earlier. Napalitan ng takot ang mukha nya.
"You resembled him so... so much." I said and stopped in front of her. I
touched the tip of her curly hair. "Even with your hair dyed like this 'cause you
don't want the same hair color as him, you still look like him. A lot."
She glared at me but didn't say anything. I smiled sweetly at her. Ah... I
really like her being like this. It just shows that I'm stronger than her and she
doesn't deserve everything she has now.
"How does it feel to almost have the same face as him? The one who you hated so
much? How does it feel to be the daughter of our father, huh?"
"Shut up." she hissed but I continued.

"How does it feel to be a product of his revenge? He just

wanted to take his revenge to the former King of EL Ordre who loved your mother so
much. And you are the result of that revenge. How does it feel, Ishtar?"
I was surprised when she slapped my hand away. She looked so livid and I could
see the tears that's forming in the corner of her eyes. I smiled in triumph. Ah...
How I love this look on her face!
She held her tears and gritted her teeth. If looks could kill, I will be dead
by now. But if she thinks that I will get affected by her glares, then she have to
try harder.
"I bet you're blaming the former Rook of EL Ordre." I said. "If she didn't
disguise herself as a man, then our father wouldn't know that your mother was the
Queen since they thought that she was the only woman in the higher pieces. But
don't worry, Dyke killed her for you."
"You, bitch!"
Nagulat ako nang sumugod sya sa akin at malakas akong sinampal. I was so
surprised that my eyes widened as I felt the sting on my cheeks. I looked at her
and she was fuming mad. She's crying and glaring at me at the same time.
"You are so, so cruel! You're inhuman! Tracer's mother disguised herself as a
man to protect herself 'cause she knew that she can't do anything against the Red
Faction from taking her down if they knew that she's a woman especially that she
was the Rook! They will took advantage of her just like how your father took
advantage of my mother!"
"Bitch! Stop acting like your precious EL Ordre didn't do anything wrong! They
were the reason why this game turned out this way!"
"And you think that will justify all that you did?" she hissed. "Tingin mo tama
na ang ginawa mo dahil nandaya kami? Sila? Wala kang puso! You are just like your
father!"
"May I remind you that he's your father, too." I said mockingly and that
angered her more. "You hate him so much and yet his blood runs through you. How
ironic, right?"
Her chest heaved up and down. I could tell that she wants to do more than a
slap to me but she knew that she can't. I had more training than her while she was
being sheltered and protected by the EL Ordre. She knew that I'm stronger than her.
That's why it surprised me when her expression changed. From being angry, she
smiled. I almost shivered when I recognized that smile whenever I look at my
reflection in the mirror.
"At least my mother loves me. At least your father who I hated so much loves
me. Everyone loves me. And you?" she gave me a pitiful expression. "Wala, diba?
Even your father. 'Cause you don't resemble him like I do. The only thing that you
have in common is your hair color."
It was my turn to glare at her. I balled my fist and restrained myself from
killing her. No. My plan will be ruined if I did something like that.
"Poor Eresh." she tsked. "Did your father ever treated you as his own daughter?
No, right? Ako pa ang mas itinuring nyang anak kaysa sayo. And when the former EL
Ordre's King took me away from him, he got so mad. At sayo nya ibinunton ang galit
nya, diba?"
"Shut up!" I shouted when images started flashing in my mind.
"You deserve all of that, Eresh. You deserve what happened to you!"
"That's fucking below the belt! You don't know everything that I've gone
through!"
"Below the belt? Hah!" she mocked. "How about all of those that you did? Aren't
those out of the line too?"
She needs to shut her fucking mouth or she will regret it later!
She saw that the table has now turned. It was her turn to smirk at me.

"Walang nagmamahal sayo, Eresh. No one does and no one

will. Why don't you just kill yourself?"
"Shut the fuck up, bitch!"
I shouted so angrily. I saw her horrified expression and she looked like she
knew what was about to come. Sinugod ko sya and raised my hand to slap her hard.
But someone held my wrist and stopped my hand mid-air.
"Kylo!" Ishtar exclaimed.
I looked at who stopped me and saw the man with amber eyes. He puffed a vape
using his other hand that wasn't holding me. Ibinuga nya iyon sa mismong mukha ko.
Scent of vanilla filled my nose.
Nang makabawi ako ay tinignan ko ang lalaki ng masama. He looked bored as he
stared down at me like I'm not an interesting thing.
"Fuck you!" I hissed at his face when the vanilla scent vanished.
He raised an eyebrow at me, stared at me and smirked.
"Gladly."
I was caught off-guard when he pushed me to the wall. He pinned both of my
hands above my head using his one hand and pressed his body against mine. I caught
a scent of vanilla from the vape and his expensive cologne.
My eyes widened when he dipped his head and bury his face on my neck. I felt
his tongue licked my skin before he sucked it. I shivered and tried to free my
hands from his grasp but he was just too strong.
My heart beats so fast and anxiety consumed me when those memories flashed
through my mind again. I tried my best to free myself from this man but I just
couldn't. Hindi pa nakatulong ang mga naaalala ko at ang kabang nararamdaman ko.
Then I heard that voice again.
"That's right, Ereshkigal. Stop fighting. I'm just going to teach you how you
can pleasure a man."
I closed my eyes tightly when I remembered the first time he made me touch that
thing in between his legs. I need to stop these thoughts. This isn't the right time
for this! I must fight for myself!
I screamed when I felt the man cupped my left breast. I moved my legs
frantically hoping that I could kick him but I just can't. Hindi na ako makagalaw
sa hawak nya!
"Bloody hell! Plutus!"
Someone pulled the man away from me and even if I don't look, I could
recognized that voice instantly. With his thick British accent and authoritative
voice, I knew that it was Loki.
And somehow, I feel like I am safe now that he's here.
"What in the bloody hell do you think you're doing?!" he said so angrily. I
closed my eyes and tried to calm myself down.
Fuck it. I knew that I'm trembling. I felt so helpless and so weak.
Damn! That's why I fucking hate this body! I fucking hate being a woman!
"She told me to fuck her." the man said and my eyes fluttered open. He was
standing so casually like he didn't do anything to me. He even had his hands inside
the pockets of his pants. While Loki looked so livid as he looked at man.
I saw Ishtar who was just standing motionless. She looked so shocked and when
she caught me looking at her, I saw something in her eyes that I never thought I
would see.
She's worried.
I smiled bitterly. All of these happened because of her. I got harassed because
that man was trying to protect her!
All she does is to breathe but why do people always want to protect her?
"Told you?" Loki's voice boomed throughout the entire room. "Didn't you notice
that she's resisting?!"
The man shrugged his shoulders. "I thought that's her kink."
Marahas na napasuklay ng buhok si Loki gamit ang mga daliri nya. His sandy hair
looked disheveled after.
"Get out." Loki said and pointed at the door. "Both of you, get out."
The man didn't say anything and walked outside the room just like that. Ishtar
looked at me one last time before she go out of the room and closed the door on her
way out.
Loki looked at me and sighed. "Are you okay?"
Honestly? I don't know. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. I am so
numb. The voice in my head is louder than before and those memories that won't
leave me. But I feel so tired to even pay attention to those.
I got exhausted with everything that happened. With my confrontation with
Ishtar and fighting that man. I just don't have an idea what to feel anymore.
I was surprised when Loki held my wrist and pulled me for a hug. He wrapped his
arms around me so gently opposite to what that man did earlier. It was the first
time that someone held me this way so I have no idea what to do.
I don't know what was wrong with me when I felt the urge of crying while inside
his arms. Tears formed in the corner of my eyes. For awhile, I thought of burying
my head on his chest, cry my heart's out and feel the warmth of his hug. But no. I
shouldn't let my emotions win over me. Kahit kailan, hindi maganda ang idinulot sa
akin kapag inuuna ko ang emosyon ko.
"Let go." I said but it was too soft so I had to repeat it. "Let go!"
But instead of letting go, Loki just tightened his hug on me. I panicked when
tears escaped from my eyes.
No! He mustn't see it! Otherwise, he'll think that I'm weak!
"Let go!" my voice croaked. I pushed his body away from me but he just wouldn't
let go. "Fuck! I said let go!"
I punched his chest but he wouldn't budge. I am already crying so I tried so
hard to push him away. Alam kong hindi ko na makakayanan na lumaban kapag tumagal
pa ang yakap nya sa akin.
"Let me fucking go!" I screamed and thrash my hands. I heard him hissed and
that's when I realized that I scratched his neck by my long nails. That made him
let go.
I stopped myself from gasping when I saw the blood on his neck. I quickly wiped
my tears. I saw how Loki's expression turned to being cold. Parang hindi na sya ang
lalaking nagbigay ng mainit na yakap sa akin kanina.
But this is better. His warm hug is more dangerous for me.
"They found Shielder." he said coldly.
"What?"
"They found Shielder and we will go to that location tomorrow to take him
back." he explained. "If we succeeded on taking him back, I'll return you to the
Red Faction."
My lips parted and I couldn't hide my surprise. "You'll let me go?"
"Certainly. So we can finally have a fair game."
I smirked but didn't say anything. I doubt that.
"Get a rest. We will leave first thing in the morning." he said before he
turned around and walked out of the room.
When everyone's finally out of my sight, that's when all my strength left me.
Nanghihina akong napaupo sa sofa at nag-isip.
I knew it. I always knew that Alter has the skills on finding anyone. She did
found the Rook especially that she had the EL Ordre's trackers help.
I looked outside the window and leaned my back on the sofa. The side of my lips
slowly raised for a smirk.
The endgame will finally begin.

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Chapter 23

We were all here in the living room slash their meeting

room first thing in the morning. I was just watching them while sitting annoyingly
on the sofa. They all looked so serious as they talk about something that I have no
plan to stress myself into.
They were planning to take back their Rook today and they were still going
through with their plan. I stopped myself from smirking 'cause they just all look
like an idiots in my mind. I kinda pity them though. They were so ready but I knew
that what will happen later is beyond their expectation.
Ah... I suddenly wanna tell them everything and ruin the hope in their eyes.
But I think it's better if I surprised them, right? It's much better to watch their
hope getting trampled over once they meet their Rook.
Or our King, rather.
 I noticed someone's glare that's piercing right through me and I immediately
found who was it from. It was from the man yesterday who has an amber eyes. He's
looking intently at me while puffing his vape. Mukhang hindi sya nakikinig sa
pinag-uusapan ng mga ka-grupo nya.
What the hell is his problem? And judging the way he looks at me, it seems like
he was watching me for some time now.
I raised an eyebrow at him and lifted my chin, just like what I always do when
I wanted to intimidate someone. But he didn't even bother to look away from me even
if I caught him staring at me. He just continued puffing his vape, creating an O
shape whenever he puffs the smoke out.
I leaned my back on the sofa, before I stared at him and smirked.
"Asshole." I mouthed. And it seems like he understood what I said even without
a voice 'cause he smirked and shook his head in disbelief. He opened the first two
buttons of his shirt before he finally paid attention to his group.
"Tracer will obviously go with us." I heard Aius said. It seems like they were
deciding on who will go to the location. I sighed and just rolled my eyes.
I thought we will go to the location first thing in the morning? Loki didn't
mention that they need to go through their plan first before leaving the hideout.
Fuck... I am still having my beauty rest by this hour. I have no time to listen
to their stupid plan that I know will fail later.
"Archer as well." Aius continued. "He's the only one who can pilot the chopper
beside Fourth. Fourth needs to keep his eyes on the Queen."
I heard the man on a hoodie sighed. "Sana matapos na 'to bago pa manganak ang
asawa ko. I wanna be there for her."
Fuck. May nag-drama pa. Can't they just finish their plan first before getting
emotional? I am so excited to know what will happen later!
"So L, Archer, Tracer, Fourth, Queen Eresh and me will go." Auis said. Now that
everyone knows that he's the King, he's now the one who's planning for them.
"Once we have Shielder back, we will return their Queen to the Red Faction to
start a fair game." Loki said and everyone's eyes were on me.
I rolled my eyes to let them know that I am so bored right now. I don't know
how long I have been listening to their plan that I started to get bored.
"I want to go too."
From me, everyone looked at Ishtar now. She was sitting on the sofa beside her
King who's also looking at her. I frowned. Since the bitch opened her mouth, I knew
that this will take longer than I thought.
Fuck! I wanna go now or return to my room than be in the same room as her!
I gritted my teeth and decided to calm down. It's okay. I know that this wait
will be worth it. I can't wait to see their reaction in their eyes once they see
King Lancer!

Will they be happy? Will they be sad? Disappointed? Or...

Will they kill him?
Damn it! The more I get excited, the more I can't wait! I want us to go. Now!
I am pretty sure that Yucca and Enkidu are now done with the plan. I trust
Enkidu. He never disappoints me even before.
"No, Ishtar. Stay here." Aius said. "I'm sure it'll get dangerous and we can't
risk your safety."
"Yeah, right." I can't help but to interfere. I just wanted to annoy the bitch.
"Just stay here and get protected like a fucking useless Queen. You'll just be a
bother to them."
I smirked as she glared at me. Oh, how I really love it whenever she gets
affected with just a few words from me.
"Aren't you ashamed of yourself? You're the Queen and yet they only think of
you as a bother." I said to added to fuel the fire.
But it seems like the bitch is getting brave with her chess pieces around. She
mimicked my expression. She raised an eyebrow at me and smirked.
 "No. They are just protecting me." she said proudly. "You didn't know about
that 'cause there's no one who wanted to protect you, right?"
I just raised an eyebrow at her and decided not to get affected. I don't
fucking care. I don't care if there's no one who wanted to protect me. At least I
can fight for myself. I know how to fight 'cause I don't want anyone to think that
I am weak. I have my strength. I don't want to be like her.
But then, she got to live a normal life because of the people who protected
her.
"I do."
All head turned to Loki when he said that out of nowhere. They all looked shock
except for Aius who chuckled and shook his head.
"What?" I heard Ishtar breathes as she looked at Loki in disbelief. But Loki's
sea-green eyes were on me and he looked so serious.
"I do. I want to protect her."
I heard Ishtar gasped as my eyes widened. Aius laughter roared in the entire
living room while everyone were gaping at Loki. I frowned.
"What the fuck are you saying?"
Is he playing mind games with me? Is he looking down on me just because he saw
me at that miserable state yesterday? Does he think that I am some fucking damsel
in distress that needs to be protected?
"Binata na si Peppa Pig." I heard the man with the mismatched eyes commented as
he chuckled.
Archer whistled. "Kilig 'yan si Eresh."
I glared at the two of them but they just chuckled even more. I realized that
they were laughing at me and that annoyed me to hell. I fucking hate it when
somebody treats me like I'm an easy person!
What the fuck is wrong with them?! I am their enemy's Queen but they don't
treat me like one!
I gritted my teeth and stood up. I squinted my eyes at Loki who smirked at me.
His eyes were full of mischief and I hate it so much.
"Do you think I'm easy? Are you all looking down at me?" I asked and stared at
them coldly. "Fine. Why don't we go now to the location where you found your Rook?
My surprise is waiting there."
The tension filled the air and finally, they stopped laughing. Tracer stood up
and went out of the house just like that. I could tell that he's nervous and he
doesn't want anyone to know about that. But it's too late. I already noticed it. He
was the first one who got affected with what I've said.
Maybe he thinks that my surprise is the dead body of his brother? Oh my... That
sounds fun!
I glanced at Alter who looked so pale as she looks at me. It seems like she
wanted to say something but chose not to.
I smirked. Ah... I knew the wait will be worth it.
An hour had passed and the chopper already landed on top of the mountain where
the villa is. I smiled inwardly. Nobody was saying anything but I know that they
were all anxious.
Mahigpit ang hawak ni Loki sa braso while we're trying to go inside the villa.
They were expecting enemies base on their stance but no one tried to get in their
way. I almost chuckled when they noticed it.
"Where are your Pawns and lower pieces?" Tracer stopped to asked me that.
I shrugged my shoulders. "How would I know? You kidnapped me, remember?"
"Kidnap daw pero kusang sumama." Aius mumbled and I shot him a deathly glare
but he just chuckled.
Walang pumigil sa pagpasok namin until we entered the villa. They were taken
aback when they saw someone standing in the middle of the living room. His back
were on us but I noticed how they all tensed. They recognized the man.
"Gray..." Tracer mumbled and the man turned around.
"Kuya..."
I smirked. Oh... This is so fucking interesting!
Tracer walked towards his brother. Mabilis ang hakbang nya at nang makalapit ay
niyakap kaagad ang kapatid.
"Damn it, Gray. Pinag-alala mo ako."
I noticed Aius looked at me but I didn't bother to hide my smirk. I counted
inside my head and waited for something to happen.
Three... Two... One.
Then we all heard a loud gunshot.
Aius and Fourth readied their gun and tried to find where the gunshot came
from. But when they noticed that it came from the direction where the brothers
were, they stilled.
Tracer slowly let go of his brother. His one hand was on his stomach as we all
saw his brother holding a gun.
"What—" I heard Tracer mumbled but was cut off when I laughed. I laughed like
everything was just so funny and interesting to me.
When I stopped, I saw them looking at me so I smirked.
"I told you, didn't I? Your Rook is dead."
The EL Ordre's Rook is dead 'cause he is now the Red Faction's King.

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Chapter 24

A smirk had escaped from my lips when I saw that they

looked so confused because of my words. I knew that they wanted to ask questions to
me to clarify what I've just said but they're in the middle of an important fight
and they can't do anything but to protect themselves.
King Lancer pointed his gun to the EL Ordre's Rook again who looked like he was
turned into a statue. He was looking at his brother with confusion and longing in
his eyes while trying to stop the blood from his gunshot wound
Tracer didn't move even with a gun pointed at his face. We all knew that King
Lancer will really pull the trigger and kill him. The King was looking at him with
coldness in his eyes. But I knew that there's still something behind that coldness.
Anger. I could clearly tell that he's angry because of the tight grip of his
hand on the gun.
King Lancer was about to pull the trigger when we heard another gunshot. The
gun flew out of his hand and he looked coldly at the man who did that. I know that
the impact hurt him but his face was void of emotions.
I looked at him adoringly. Oh my God... He looks like a King now!
I knew it! Hindi ako nagkamali ng pagpili sa kanya!
"Dammit, Aius! Stop!"
Instead of stopping his brother, Tracer stopped their King instead. But he
winced in pain right after and knelt at the ground. It looked like he can't endure
the pain of his wound anymore.
But what excites me is when King Lancer took that opportunity. He took a step
forward towards Tracer and punched him in the face. The Rook didn't put up any
fight against his brother who obviously wanna torture him and kill him.
I laughed evily. It sounds so evil that made me laugh even more. Fuck! This is
so interesting!
"The drug did its work!" I exclaimed while looking at the wonderful scene in
front of me.
I just can't believe that it worked! I can't believe that our plan succeeded! I
had so many doubts about this when we first planned it. I just got interested at
the rare drug that Black keep on mentioning before. I don't really trust that man.
Lulong sya sa droga at sa paghihiganti para sa mga magulang nya.
But it turns out, he's a genius as well. I am only realizing now that my pieces
were reliable as well. Why they were all acting like a stupid idiots whenever were
having our meeting though?
I stared at King Lancer. He was still punching the Rook so hard that the
muscles on his arms were clenching with every punch that he's giving Tracer. I bet
that it hurt so much but the Rook didn't even try to stop his brother.
Ah... Love. A family love.
Enkidu suddenly came out of nowhere and he tried to take me away from Loki. But
Loki was quick enough to not let Enkidu touch me. From my arm, his hand went down
and gripped me on my waist.
The two Bishops tried to fight with one another. Enkidu was trying to take me
away from Loki but Loki wouldn't let him. He did his best to keep me away from my
Bishop. His gripped on my waist was so firm and he just wouldn't let go.
I caught the scene from my left and saw Yucca fighting with Aius. I tsked.
Yucca is good with close combat fights but the King is much stronger than him.
Especially that it looked like he recognized Yucca's moves!
He thought of himself as a weak King but judging at the way he fights, I knew
that he's lying.
I shrieked when Loki let go of me for awhile to punched Enkidu on the gut. But
Loki held my arm shorty after Enkidu staggered on his feet. He pulled me hard that
my body crashed on his chiseled chest.
Fuck it! Why am I caught in the middle of their fight?!
"Damn it, Enkidu! The guy in the leather jacket! He's the King! Kill him!" I
shouted when I realized that Yucca can't do nothing against Aius.
Fuck! My only hope now is that they can't touch King Lancer since he was so
important to the EL Ordre!
And this is my plan. To make Gray as King Lancer and the EL Ordre wouldn't be
able to touch him. They wouldn't be able to kill him.
We will win this game!
Aius gave a spin kick to Yucca and take King Lancer away from his brother.
Aw... That's too bad. I still wanted to watch more.
"Aius! Putangina, ibaba mo ang baril mo!' Tracer shouted when the EL Ordre's
King pointed a gun at the Red Faction's King.
I smirked even more. I'm glad that Loki took me here. Or else I wouldn't be
able to witness this so entertaining scene in front of me.
"Shoot him!" I challenged Auis. "Kill him, EL Ordre's King! Kill him and this
game will be over!"
He looked at me with confusion in his eyes. He doesn't understand what I meant.
I smirked.
"We killed your Rook, gentlemen. He is now our King."
Aius expression turned into anger when he finally understood what I meant. He
gritted his teeth and gave me a deathly glare but that made me entertained even
more.
"Fall back!" he shouted. "We need to retreat! Damn it!"
He helped Tracer on his feet while his gun was still pointing at King Lancer. I
looked the King and our gaze met. The coldness of his eyes just got worse because
of his gray eyes. I gave him a sweet smile.
Good job, King Lancer.
"Your Majesty!" Enkidu shouted when Loki tried to step back but he never let go
of me. I just keep on looking at King Lancer who's staring at me really hard
without any emotions in his eyes.
"My Queen." he mumbled.
I got surprised when I felt the cold metal against my head when Loki put the
gun on my temple. That stopped Enkidu from walking following us. His eyes went wide
when he saw what's happening.
But instead of getting scared I even smirked. Damn... I am really the Mad
Queen. I can't believe that I will enjoy everything that's happening right now!
"Go on! Follow us!" Loki hissed and took a step back again. "Or I will plant
the damn bullet inside her pretty head!"
None of them tried to make a move. Even King Lancer who never took his eyes
away from me. I don't have any idea what he's thinking but I'm still proud of him.
Ah... Young ones are the best!
Mabilis ang pagkilos namin hanggang sa makabalik kami sa chopper. Archer
panicked when he saw Tracer who fainted because of too much blood loss.
Too bad. The show is now over.
Sumakay na kami sa chopper and I just kept my eyes on Aius who's sitting on the
seat across mine. Kaharap ko lang sya kaya madali ko lang makita ang mukha nya. He
looked so stressed and problematic because of everything that happened.
I smirked. My surprise caught them off guard.
I saw him looked outside the window as the chopper took off. I knew that Yucca
followed us and when Aius' eyes widened, I knew that Yucca finally revealed her
identity to the EL Ordre's King.
I'm so happy! I can smell the victory of the Red Faction!
They can't hurt King Lancer, but King Lancer can hurt them. I just have to wait
for the endgame and this game will be over.
After that, I will surely kill the gamemasters.

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Chapter 25

"What happened?!"
Ishtar welcomed us with that question using her exaggerated tone when we came
back to the hideout. She went near Aius and L who were carrying Tracer on their
shoulders and I heard her loud gasp when she saw the blood on his shirt.
"He got shot." Aius answered in a restrained voice. "Kaya mong alisin ang bala
sa katawan nya, diba?"
"Yes, yes. I can." she answered, trying not to panic. "Viper! Hoax! I need you
here!"
Her Bishop and the man with a scar on his face went near her. They took the
unconscious Tracer from Aius and L and Ishtar instructed them to take him to the
room at the basement. She has her own clinic in this hideout, apparently.
I just raised an eyebrow and walked passed by them. I sat on the sofa and
watched them panic over Tracer who looked white as a paper. I rolled my eyes. I
know that the bullet didn't hit any vital organs. King Lancer hate him so much to
kill him that easily. I know that he will torture his brother first before finally
killing him.
Wow... Yucca and Enkidu did their job so well. Even without me, they
successfully brainwashed him and killed the Rook in him.
Well, I don't care about the Rooks' brotherly issue. All I want is to kill the
EL Ordre's King and kill the gamemasters afterwards.
Now that I've showed them my surprise, I think I should start planning on how
to kill Aius. It'll be easier since he's near with me.
Keep your friends close, and enemies closer.
Aius sat across me. He leaned his elbows on his knees and buried his face on
his hands. He looked really, really problematic compared to how he was earlier
while fighting Yucca. I bit my lower lip to suppress my giggles.
Ah... I love how all of them got affected emotionally and psychologically.
"Naiintindihan ko na." Archer broke the silence. "You keep on telling us that
our Rook is dead. Now I understand what you meant."
I just smiled at him and leaned my back on the sofa. I stared at all of them.
Archer looked really shock and was in deep thought. The man with amber eyes
surprisingly isn't puffing his vape and was just sitting on the sofa trying to
understand what's happening. L was standing beside Alter with his arms encircled
around her waist. The man with mismatched eye color was sitting silently on the
corner. And Loki was standing beside Aius while looking down at me. He looked so
serious and based of the movement of his jaw while he's gritting his teeth, I knew
that he's angry.
I just raised my chin and smirked at him. Aren't you proud of me, Your Majesty?
"You killed the Rook within him." Loki said, spitting every words like an acid
in his mouth. "You killed Gray and made him a different person. He's not Gray
anymore."
"You were talking figuratively when you said that he's dead." Archer said.
"Pinatay mo ang pagiging Rook nya sa EL Ordre. Pinatay mo ang pagiging Grayson
James Sanford nya. You killed his former self and made him into someone different."
I smiled sweetly at them. "Bingo."
Finally, I won't have to answer their questions again and again. Hindi ko na
sasabihin ng paulit-ulit na patay ang Rook nila. They understood everything now.
Took them so long though. It only proves how stupid they are.
"Is that even possible?" Archer asked and I rolled my eyes. He's a lawyer,
right? But why can't he use his fucking common sense and try to understand
everything?
"Ano na naman?" nababagot kong tanong.
"I mean, Shielder is our Rook. He's the EL Ordre's Rook. But how did he became
the Red Faction's King? And why did he changed so much?"

I sighed and looked at him. Disappointed.

"You know what? For a lawyer, you're really stupid."
"Aba't—"
"It's like a castling method in chess but much different." Aius cut off
whatever Archer was going to say. "Castling involves the King and the Rook in the
same color that will move at the same time. In actual chess, mukhang nagpalit ng
pwesto ng dalawa but not really. Players use this move to connect the Rooks and
protect the King more. Sa ginawa nila, they took our Rook pero wala silang ipinalit
na King sa pwesto nya."
"'Cause we don't have a King to exchange with in the first place." I said.
"What do you mean by that?" the man with mismatched eyes, who was sitting
silently in the corner, asked. Looks like the rest of them understood what just
happened kahit hindi ipinaliwanag sa kanila ang lahat.
I just smirked at him and didn't answer his question. I will leave it to their
imaginations. How I really like it that I could play with their minds like this!
"We started this game... Without a King." Alter answered.
I looked at her who finally decided to break her silence. She looked so pale
and nervous at the same time. I can't help but to feel happy knowing that she
hasn't told them everything that she knew.
Ah, Alter... That's why you're my favorite.
"I don't know why." she continued. "Hindi ko alam kung bakit kami walang King.
I only noticed that when Queen Eresh was the only one who gave us orders.
Especially when she gave Yucca the order to keep an eye on the EL Ordre's Rook."
her lips quivered. "Queen Eresh made a plan. Kukunin nya ang pinakabatang myembro
ng EL Ordre and she will make him our King."
"Si Shielder nga ang pinakabata sa amin." the man with mismatched eyes mumbled.
Alter nodded at him.
"Kaya sya ang kinuha ni Queen Eresh. She likes to control people who's younger
than her."
Of course. 'Cause it's easier to control them. It's easier to manipulate them.
They believed my words because I'm older and I'm the Queen. They believed and did
everything that I said.
"You knew all of this?" L asked him. He removed his arms on her waist and I
watched how Alter paled even more.
"I..."
"You knew all along and yet you didn't tell us about this?" I could tell that L
was just trying not to raise his voice but I knew that he's mad. Base na rin sa
mabilis na pag-iling ni Alter.
"I didn't know her whole plan!" Alter defended herself. "She never told me!
Hindi ako sigurado kaya hindi ko sinabi sa inyo. Ngayon ko lang din naintindihan
ang lahat!"
 "You could've warned us!" L finally raised his voice. I saw Alter flinched.
"You could've told us what you knew to warn us! But you chose to keep everything to
us!"
Alter tried to held his arm but L took a step away from her. Tears formed in
the corner of her eyes.
"Ano pang alam mo?" L asked in a low voice.
"T-the drug." Alter answered in a shaky voice. "They drugged Shielder and I
think that's why he wasn't like himself anymore."
"Dammit, Alter." L cursed under his breath and Alter tears fell from her eyes.
I smirked. Aww... Poor Alter. The man she loves called her by her codename.
It's like he couldn't accept the fact that his beloved keep something important
from him. He must've felt that she wasn't Codee anymore that's why he called her by
her codename.
This is such a good drama! More interesting than what I've usually watched on
television!
"You should've told us everything!" L shouted at her and Alter looked like
she's not use with him being like this 'cause she flinched. "Sinabi mo sana sa amin
ang lahat ng alam mo! So we can expect for the possibilities! I thought that you're
going to help us? I thought that you chose the EL Ordre now?"
"She maybe chose to help you but her loyalty is still with me." I said and I
noticed Loki glared at me.
I just shrugged my shoulders. Why? It seems that way, right? Why would Alter
keep it a secret to them? It's such an important information but she chose to hide
everything. Simply because she's still loyal to me, right? She still wanted me to
win.
And it really made me happy knowing that Alter didn't completely betrayed me.
"No! That's not it!" Alter shouted at me then looked at L. "Hindi ko alam kung
anong plano nya. I didn't know everything! Yes, I knew about the drug but I didn't
know what will be its effect on Shielder. And I trust that Yucca will protect him
'cause she loves him so much! Ang akala ko, hindi nya hahayaang mangyari iyon kay
Shielder. Ang akala ko, hindi nya hahayaang mapahamak ang mahal nya. That's why I
didn't tell those things to you 'cause even if she betrayed EL Ordre, I still want
to give her a second chance to protect Shielder. I still want to believe in her
just like how you all believe in me."
"She wants to protect him that's why she did those. She helped me kill the
Rook." I said.
"I didn't know." Alter buried her face in her hands. "Ayoko din namang sabihin
sa inyo nang hindi ako sigurado. What if it'll turn out that I'm wrong? Ayokong
bigyan kayo ng ibang poproblemahin."
"Who's Yucca?" I heard the man with the amber eyes said. The light showed the
glint of red on his eyes.
"It's Violet." Aius said and I saw all of them got frozen. "She was there. I
fought with her and recognized her moves. Now, I understand. Kaya pala palagi syang
wala. I thought that the government gave her a mission and she just wants to work
alone. Looks like she's in the Red Faction whenever she's not here."
"She's not that bad, though." I said. "I asked her so many times where the EL
Ordre's hideout is but she never tell it to me. I bet she just wanted to make sure
that I will not hurt her beloved while he's here with you."
"You knew about this too?" I heard L asked Alter again. Alter nodded with tears
in her eyes.
"I'm so sorry..."
"Tangina." he hissed. "How did all of these happen? Her information is in our
database! And then that fucking castling method, paano nangyari lahat ng 'yon?!"
"How could the gamemasters allow all of this?" Aius asked.
They all looked at me, expecting me that I will answer them. I smiled and
crossed my legs. I let my elbow sit on my knee and leaned my chin on my hand.
"I don't know. Maybe... They favor the Red Faction more than the EL Ordre."
"That's bullshit." the man with amber eyes hissed.
I placed my arms on the armrest of the sofa and smiled seductively.
 "Maybe the gamemasters want us to win this game, don't you think?"

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Chapter 26

I was just sitting comfortably on the sofa as the EL Ordre

stared at me in silence. It looks like they couldn't find enough words to say. They
were all serious and I could tell that some of them wanted to strangle my neck.
I chuckled softly. It was so entertaining to watch them slowly crumble in front
me. I know that they are breaking apart. With Alter, L and the Rook, I can't
imagine what was going through in their heads right now. I know that they wanted to
blame Alter but just can't because of L. Malaki nga naman ang magiging pagbabago
kung sinabi lang sa kanila ni Alter ang lahat.
Aww, Alter. You will forever be my favorite piece.
I bit my lower lip to hide my smirk. They looked gloomy. They looked like
they've just lost everything. They looked like they don't have any idea what to do
anymore.
My God... I'm such a smart bitch. Only one simple plan but it affected all of
them.
Well, that's their weakness. Mas inuuna nila ang emotions nila so they couldn't
think of a proper plan. They let their emotions win over them. That's why they all
looked miserable right now.
While me? I killed all my emotions and used my brain. And it lead me in here.
The EL Ordre slowly breaking apart.
But there's one person that's different to all of them. It was Loki. When I
looked up to him, I saw him staring at me intently. Instead of feeling down because
I outsmarted them, he looked like he was trying to read me. He looked like he's
trying to open that close book to see right through it. But he will never succeed.
I will never become an open book. I won't let anyone know my weakness.
I will not let anyone know that the close book has a shred pieces inside. That
it would be so hard for anyone to read and understand it.
Loki's sea-green eyes looked so intense. He really looked so handsome in every
angle. Even now that he looked so serious that one would think he never know how to
smile. He just looked so fucking hot.
"Can I ask a favor to all of you?" L said after awhile and they all looked to
him. "Please don't mention this to Tracer. About what Alter did."
I heard Alter sobbed and she buried her face on her palms. I saw L's jaw moved
so I bet that he's gritting his teeth out of anger. But he never looked at Alter
who's crying beside him.
"Walang problema sa amin." Archer said. "But I think we should do something
about the Queen."
I raised an eyebrow when they all looked at me. Do they really think that I'll
talk to Tracer after everything?
"Do you all think that we will ever talk to each other?" I scoffed. "And if we
do, do you really think that he'll believe me?"
They looked away. It seems like they understood my point. God... How stupid
they can get? Sa susunod na magkita kami ng Rook nila ay baka magpatayan lang kami
and we will never have a chance for that talk!
"I'm so sorry, L..." Alter said when she removed her hands off her face. She
looked at L like she's hoping that her beloved will look back at her. "Are you mad
at me?"
L sighed. He closed his eyes for awhile. And when he opened it again, he looked
at Alter.
"I'm not mad. You know I will never get mad at you even if I wanted to. I'm
just... disappointed."
Alter cried again and L heaved a deep sigh before he pulled her inside his arms
and hugged her. Mas lalong lumakas ang pag-iyak ni Alter. I rolled my eyes in
annoyance.
Geez... So much drama for today.
"Vexen will be hurt if she hears about Violet." said the man with a mismatched
eyes.

I chewed the insides of my cheeks. I don't know who that

Vexen is but base on what he said, it seems like Yucca is important to her. Maybe
she treated her as her friend and Yucca's betrayal will hurt her.
"Why don't you have a King?" Archer asked and I frowned. Sa lahat ay sya ang
pinakamaraming tanong. I don't know if it was just his nature as a lawyer to dig
everything or he's just plain stupid that couldn't understand everything and needed
an explanation first.
"None of your fucking business." I said while smiling at him. I chuckled when
he looked offended.
Okay... I admit that he's cute. Cute but stupid.
"Where's the antidote?"
I looked at Loki who finally spoke. He looked so serious and I couldn't help
but to smile just to annoy him. It looked like it didn't affect him though.
"Shielder is being drugged." he continued. "Where's the antidote? I'm sure that
there's a drug that could alter its effects."
I chuckled. He's smart, eh?
"Do you think I'll tell you?" I noticed the EL Ordre being attentive with what
I've said. Parang nabuhayan sila na maibabalik pa sa dati ang Rook nila. "But sorry
to say, there's no antidote that could neutralize the effects of this rare drug."
"Liar." Loki hissed. "I know there is."
"Give it a break, Fourth." the man with the amber eyes said. "She has no plans
of telling it to us even if we torture her."
I looked at him and smiled. "Finally! A smart one in this group that could use
his brain."
But the man smirked at me mockingly. I don't know but I got annoyed with the
way he smirked. His lips curled upwards and his eyes looked at me disgustingly.
"I don't need to be smart to know how evil you are. Just one look at you, I
could already tell clearly that you're a fucked up person."
I gritted my teeth but I didn't let it show on my face how annoyed and offended
I was. Instead, I flashed him my sweetest smile.
"I really fucking hate you."
"Same here." he said and chuckled. "At least I don't kill innocent people. I
don't involve innocents in this game."
"I am not the one who killed them. Dyke killed the EL Ordre's former Rooks and
it was Ross who killed..." I trailed and looked at Aius. He was clenching his jaw
and I could tell that he has an idea on what I'm about to say. I smirked and looked
at man with amber eyes again. "The second Queen."
"Really?" the man laughed in a mocking way. "Alam mo kung sinong naaalala ko
sayo? Ang putanginang si Poncio Pilato. Ang kapal ng mukha mong ibaling ang sisi sa
iba when you are the reason for all of these shits!"
"Me?" I asked, surprised but I laughed it off. "You all talk like the EL Ordre
never did anything wrong! Hindi kami ang dahilan kung bakit naging ganitong kagulo
ang laro! If it wasn't for the EL Ordre's cheating, then all of these fucking shits
won't happen in the first place!"
"That was a long time ago!" Aius said who looked like he can't keep his mouth
shut anymore.
"Oh, no..." I said dramatically. I even put a hand over my chest. "It was a
long time ago yet it left a big impact on the game! Kung hindi nandaya ang EL
Ordre, then my father—"
I stopped before I could say more. They were all looking at me and if I didn't
stopped myself on time, then they will all hear it. They would discover my weakness
and the table might've turned. Instead of me getting near on the victory, baka sila
pa ang manalo kung hindi ko lang napigilan ang sarili ko.

Fuck... That was a close one.

I cleared my throat and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Anyway, don't you think it's only fair? The EL Ordre was the one who made the
first move of killing our former Rook. And in this game, we took the first move of
killing the former Rooks of EL Ordre which was the Sanfords parents. It's now fair,
right?"
"Fucking bitch." I heard the man with the amber eyes said to me. But instead of
getting offended, I smiled at him.
"I'll take that as a compliment so thank you." he just snorted and shook his
head in disbelief.
Nobody tried to speak to me after that. I know that they were tense and was
waiting for Ishtar to finish treating Tracer. Their worry is visible in their eyes
and they didn't even bother hiding it to me.
This is why it's so easy to break them. This is why I planned on taking their
youngest member to make him our King. They were emotionally invested to one another
and they treated their members as their family. So with me making their youngest
Rook as the Red Faction King was a big blow for them. They wouldn't be able to
touch nor harm him.
It was so easy to play with their emotions. This is only the beginning but they
already looked so defeated. What more if King Lancer will move on his own?
"Ishtar... Kumusta si Tracer?"
They all stood up when after an hour, Ishtar finally went to the living room.
Her clothes were bloody but instead of stopping to answer Aius who asked her, she
walked straight towards my direction. Her fists were balled and she looked really,
really mad. I smirked to annoy her even more.
Hindi na ako nagulat nang malakas na dumapo ang palad nya sa pisngi ko. My head
turned to the side because of the impact but I quickly regained my poise.
Ikinagulat ko na ang pagsampal nya ulit sa kabilang pisngi ko.
"You, bitch." I hissed while trying to control my emotions. But Ishtar was the
opposite 'cause she looked like she couldn't control all her emotions anymore. Her
tears fell.
"No! You are the bitch!" dinuro nya ako. "Demonyo ka! Puta! Mas masahol ka pa
sa hayop!"
Nobody tried to come in between us and stopped us even before this could turn
into worse. I think maybe because they were men and men really hate women's drama.
"Anong ginawa ng magkapatid sayo para ganituhin mo sila?" Ishtar said while
crying and glaring at me at the same time. "What have they done to you to treat
them like this?! You are so evil, Eresh! Hindi ka na tao!"
She was so mad and her glares could already kill me. But being the Mad Queen I
am, I smirked to inspite her more.
"None. I just want to win this game. That's all." I said simply and that
angered her more.
"None? None?! Mas mahalaga pa ba ang laro sayo kaysa buhay ng ibang tao?!"
dinuro nya ako sa dibdib and the force made me took a step back. "Nasaan ang puso
mo, Eresh?! Did you finally turn into a monster?!"
"Shut your fucking mouth." I hissed. "I will not answer your fucking questions
so shut the fuck up."
She slapped me again and I wouldn't let her do it to me without fighting back.
So I slapped her so hard that she almost staggered but her Bishop caught her. I had
a training compared to her so when it comes to physical strength, mas lamang ako sa
kanya.
"Bitch! Monster! Hayop!" she screamed so angrily when she regained her stance.
"Ikaw ang dapat na mamatay! You should've been the one who suffered instead of the
Sanfords! You deserve all of the shits that happened to you whatever it was! Kulang
pa nga iyon!"
"Shut the fuck up bitch!" I hissed and grabbed her hair firmly.
Ishtar winced in pain but her Bishop nor anyone didn't try to stop us. Maybe
because this is the only time they saw how angry I am.
"You don't fucking know anything, Ishtar, so shut the fuck up!" I hissed and
grabbed her hair harder. "You don't know how much important this game to me! You
don't have the right to judge me 'cause all your life, there were so many fucking
people who wanted to protect you! You lived your life like a spoiled bitch that got
everything she wanted! You don't know what I had gone through to be this determined
to win this game! Wala kang alam kaya manahimik kang putangina ka!"
I released her harshly and her Bishop caught her. She was crying so hard and I
heard Alter's sobbed too and I realized that she was crying as well. I fought the
urge to cry.
No. I must be strong. Malapit na. Malapit na akong manalo. I am so closed on
winning this fucking game.
"Don't fucking act like a righteous bitch when you are worse than me.
Nagpapakitang gilas ka lang naman ngayon dahil may nangyari, diba?" I smirked at
her. "Wala kang alam, Ishtar. Just continue to live your life behind your pieces'
shadows and be the useless Queen. Stop running your mouth with that empty brain of
yours."
I took a step towards her. Her eyes filled with tears looked so alarmed when I
stopped in front of her. I smiled at her in a mocking way.
"Just be thankful that you got to live your life in that way. You are so lucky
even if you don't deserve it."
I walked passed by them without looking at anyone. I went up and locked myself
inside my room. I could still feel the pain from Ishtar's slaps.
Fuck it. It was never my intention to act like that in front of the EL Ordre.
Damn it! It was Ishtar's fault! She made me so mad with her righteous bitch act
when she got to enjoy her life!
Damn it! Damn! Fuck! I got so caught up with our arguments back there!
I heaved a deep sigh. It's okay. It's okay. I will win this game. With King
Lancer as my King, they will never be able to kill him. It's okay. Everything is
going according to my plan.
It's okay. I can do this. I will win this game.

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Chapter 27

Warning: Spg
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I decided to take a shower before going to bed. So many things happened on this
day and I couldn't stop the things that's going through my mind. My mind is being
chaotic again. I couldn't even think properly and I need a very nice shower.
I took off my clothes, left it on the tiled floor of the bathroom before
stepping under the shower. I closed the glass door and let the water run down my
body.
With my eyes closed, I let my body feel the coldness of the water as it ran
throughout my body. I stayed that for God knows how long before I opened my eyes. I
watched the water flowed down from my long blonde hair, so long that it could cover
my breast. I gasped for an air and closed my eyes again.
I remember what happened. I succeeded on my plan. Yucca and Enkidu perfected
the plan even without me. I thought that there's going to be a problem if I left
the two of them to continue brainwashing King Lancer and showed him the dark side
of the EL Ordre. But  they've surpassed my expectations. What happened back there
at the villa is such an entertainment for me.
A smile has slowly crept on my lips. We're now at the endgame. I'm sure that I
have a big chance on winning this game. The Red Faction can win this game now that
we have our King Lancer.
I was surprised when I let out a chuckle that's full of bitterness. If father
is here, would he be proud of me? My plan succeeded. The EL Ordre wouldn't and
couldn't kill King Lancer. I can finally end this fucking game.
Father, are you watching me? Will you finally admit that I can be a match
against men too? That I can fight against them without using my body? With just
only my brain and an effective plan?
Father, can you forgive me now and stop blaming me because Mom died because of
me? Can you acknowledge my existence now?
Father... Will you finally accept me as your daughter and stop torturing me?
I opened my eyes when I felt the burning sensation inside my chest. I took
several deep breaths when the sensation turned into pain that wanted to escape as
tears in my eyes.
I remember the heated argument that I had with Ishtar. Fuck... That triggered
my emotions so I'm having a hard time again on killing my feelings again. That
bitch... She had the audacity to say all of that when she knew nothing about me.
About what I had gone through.
She should be thankful that the former King of EL Ordre loves her mother, the
former Queen of EL Ordre, so much. That even if she's the daughter of our father,
the former King is willing to take and protect her because of the love that he has
for her mother.
Ishtar got out of hell even before she experienced it. What a lucky bitch, huh?
But then, I don't think that she'll ever experience hell even if the former EL
Ordre's King didn't take her away. 'Cause between the two of us, our father loves
her more. I doubt if he had even regarded me as his daughter. It has always been
Ishtar.
I laughed with emptiness. Why can't I be lucky just like her?
Fuck it. Now, I'm self-pitying. I don't need a feeling like this.
I finished taking a shower and dried myself with a towel. Hindi muna ako
lumabas ng banyo at tinitigan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin sa may sink. I was naked.
My hair looked so disheveled because I just wiped it with a towel.
I stared at my face. A lot of people complimented me because of my face and my
body. But everytime that I looked at myself in the mirror like this, why do I only
see a disgusting person that nobody would ever want?
My eyes... My eyes that looked so cold and merciless was one of the reason why
people never looked down on me. But nobody could see the real person behind those
merciless eyes. Even me.

"Don't you know how to knock?" I asked when I felt that I

wasn't alone inside the bathroom.
I looked at his reflection in the mirror and I saw Loki leaning on the doorjamb
of the bathroom while playing with his lips. He was shamelessly staring at me
through the mirror and he didn't look away even when I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Don't you know how to lock your doors?" he asked me back using his thick
British accent. I just rolled my eyes and tried to ignore him.
But his presence was so dominating that it's so hard to ignore. His footsteps
seem so loud to my ears when he went further inside the bathroom and walked towards
to where I was. He leaned his back on the sink beside me. Nakatalikod sya sa
salamin at sa akin lang nakatingin. The scent of his cologne mixed with the scent
of the bathsoap that I've just used.
He crossed his arms over his chest and crossed his legs while his hips were
leaning on the tiled sink. I stared at the reflection of his broad back in the
mirror. Even with just his back, one could quickly tell that he's a fucking hot
man.
"Why are you here?" I asked, ignoring the feeling of his gaze that's piercing
on my skin.
 "I have no idea." he answered "But I had the feeling that I need to be here...
For you."
My head quickly turned to look at him. I saw him staring at me with gentleness
in his eyes. I got surprised 'cause he's the first and only person that looked at
me in this way. His sea-green eyes twinkled with emotions that I never thought
someone would give me.
I tore my gaze away from him and looked at myself in the mirror again. The look
of surprised and confusion were evident on my face. I don't even recognize the girl
in the mirror so I had to closed my eyes to kill those emotions.
Fuck it... Focus. I must focus! I shouldn't break right now!
I opened my eyes and saw the coldness was back in my eyes again. I smirked and
looked at Loki.
"Well then... I need you to fuck me."
He doesn't look surprised with my words. Kung nasanay na ba sya o hindi nya
lang pinakita ang pagkagulat nya ay hindi ko alam. He just stared at me. His sea-
green eyes roamed around my face like he's searching for something.
"Is that what you want?" he asked.
I frowned. "What's with you?"
"What?"
"You seem... different."
He wasn't like this before. Gently asking me with what I want. This is so new.
But when I saw his mischievous smirk, I rolled my eyes.
"You know what to do." he said.
He wants me to beg. So without a second thought, I did what he wanted.
"Please, fuck me, Your Majesty."
I don't know but everytime that I need to do something to stop the chaos in my
head, Loki is always there. Bigla na lang syang susulpot nang walang pasabi and
something inside me was relieved whenever I see him. But I knew I had to stop that
feeling.
Better yet, kill all my emotions.
Inalis ni Loki ang pagkakahalukipkip nya at tumayo sa likuran ko. He was tall
that the top of my head could only reach his chin. So I could see his entire face
even when he's at my back. We were both staring at our reflection in the mirror.
I took a sharp breath when he held my shoulders. Mula doon ay hinaplos nya
pababa ang braso ko till he reached my hands and intertwined our fingers. I got so
confused 'cause this is so different from his usual harsh moves. It feels so...
sensual.
Without taking his eyes off our reflection, he slowly kissed my shoulder
blades. I tilted my head to gave him more access on my neck when he reached it. He
kissed my neck sensually and licked my skin there.
His lips when up till he reached my ears. He kissed my earlobe and sucked it
gently which earned a moan from me.
"Your Majesty..."
Binitiwan nya ang mga kamay ko. He held my waist and caressed my curves upwards
till he reached my breast. He molded it using his palms while sucking my earlobe.
"Fuck!"
My body began to feel so hot as I stared at our reflection. I know that Loki
could easily make me feel so hot with just a touch of his hands but watching him
from the mirror while doing it, he could already make me reach my climax.
I tried to look away. I don't want to explode yet as I'm enjoying what he's
doing to me. But Loki held my chin and make me looked back at our reflection again.
"Look at yourself, my temptress. Look how much you wanted me." he gently bit my
earlobe and I whimpered against his hold. "I really like the look on your face
while I'm pleasuring you. Makes me want to fuck you really hard."
He parted my lips and inserted his thumb inside my mouth. He played with my
tongue and I swirled it around his finger.
"Suck it." he ordered. His warm breath tickles my ears.
I sucked his thumb while he's slowly thrusting it inside my mouth. The sound
that it created echoed throughout the entire bathroom and it just made me feel so
horny. My hand went up to his other hand that was massaging my breast and guided it
down to folds. And when his rough hand touched my core, I leaned my body against
him and moaned. His shirt got wet because of my hair.
"Make me come." I whispered as my chest heaved up and down.
"Beg." he ordered. Of course. What do I expect?
"Please, Your Majesty. Make me come."
I could feel the bulge inside his pants against my back. I slowly grinded my
hips and I was rewarded with his wild groan.
He made me sucked two fingers this time. His forefinger and middle finger
played with my tongue as his other hand rubbed my core while I was grinding my hips
against him. He expertly parted my folds with just one hand and played with my
clit.
I was watching everything from the mirror. My face flushed and I saw Loki
watching my every reaction as he grinded his hips. He looked so fucking hot and it
seems like we were dancing at some erotic music that only us could hear.
He inserted his two fingers inside my core and that set me over the edge. I am
near but Loki keep on thrusting his fingers in my mouth and in my core while he's
grinding his hips against my ass.
He licked the length of my neck and I couldn't helped but to moan so loud.
Fucking shit. That feels so good. He never took his eyes off our reflection which
added pleasure to me.
He thrusts his fingers in my core fast. My walls clenched around his fingers at
mas idinikit ko pa ang likod ko sa katawan nya. I held on his arms and countinue
sucking his fingers that's on my mouth.
Mas bumilis pa ang paggalaw ng daliri nya sa baba ko. My nails dugged on his
arms and I let out a long moan when I reached my orgasm. Loki watched all my
reaction through the mirror. I saw him smirked afterwards.
"We're not done yet." he whispered and took out his fingers off my core and
mouth. I chuckled and turned to face him.
I smiled at him seductively and groped the bulge inside his pants.
"I know."

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Chapter 28

Warning: Spg
---
Loki quickly attacked my lips and kissed me so hard. That's how the way he
always kiss me anyway. It's was like he really finds my lips sweeter than a
chocolate and he can't get enough of the taste.
He bit my lower lip sensually before he gently tugged it between his teeth. I
gasped 'cause I find it so erotic yet sensual. My hand went up to his hair as my
fingers dugged into it.
I felt his hands caressed the curves of my waist. The way he moved his hands
were so slow that I felt goosebumps all over my body. He wasn't moving roughly for
tonight. Pati paraan ng paghawak nya sa katawan ko ay napakagaan.
I find it strange that he's suddenly holding me this way. I'm not used to this
kind of touch. Ever since I was born, I saw the world in a different perspective.
That people were evil and the weak ones were always taken for granted. That only
the strong ones can survive in this world full of madness.
That's what my father thought me. That's why I never questioned him about all
the training that he made me do. For me, it was all to make me strong. Not until I
realized that I was one of the weak people and it was my father who's using me.
But even when I realized that, I didn't stop reaching his goal. He trained me
so hard, so hard that I could call it as a torture, just to be strong and win this
game. 'Cause I was born as a frail and weak thing called woman.
 And even when he died, I still continued with what he wanted. Only this way he
can accept me as his daughter. Only this way he can finally be proud of me.
Loki's lips travelled down my neck and kissed the sensitive spot there. I
shivered when I felt how his tongue moved against my skin. It was so slow and I
could feel the spot he's licking getting wet with his saliva.
He stopped for a moment to held my waist and made me sit on the tiled sink. He
stared at my eyes before he claimed my lips again.
His tongue probed it's way in my mouth and I gladly welcome it with my own. Our
tongue played and I couldn't help but to stifle a moan.
He parted my legs and placed himself in between my thighs like that space was
only meant for him. I heard him unbuckling his belt and he stopped kissing me for a
while to put on a condom.
Loki looked up to me and our gaze met. His eyes tells me how much he wanted me
as desire was written all over his face. I really like this look on his face and I
will never get tired looking at him while he's like this. I never felt wanted in my
whole life.
He's the only one who gave me this feeling. The feeling of being wanted.
I gasped when his cock slowly fill me inside without breaking our eye contact.
I bit my lower lip as I couldn't take all the feeling and Loki was just watching
me.
"Did I ever tell you that you look so fucking hot with your face flushed as I
am all the way inside you?" Loki whispred huskily that added with the pleasure that
I felt.
Fuck... He's using his bedroom voice while talking dirty to me. He knows that I
really love him doing this.
Pinagdikit nya ang mga noo namin. And with his eyes still on my face, he slowly
thrusted his hips making me feel wanting for more. All we did before were rough and
hard sex 'cause that's what he do and that's what he wants. Kaya hindi ako sanay sa
ganito at pakiramdam ko lang ay bitin ako.
"Harder, Your Majesty." I breathe. "Please "
I heard him chuckled before he smirked.
"Now, you're learning."
With that, he rewarded me with what I want. He gripped my waist and started
thrusting his hips roughly on me. I moaned and locked my legs on his waist and
pulled him closer. Napatingala na lang ako at napakapit sa balikat nya.

"More, please, Your Majesty! Give me more!"

Loki let out a groan and rammed his cock inside my core. My insides were full
of him and I could feel how his cock move inside of me. I closed my eyes and savor
the feeling.
He suddenly stopped that made me open my eyes again. He chuckled when I let out
a groan of protest. Pinababa nya ako sa sink at pinatalikod paharap sa salamin. He
wrapped an arm around me and held my neck using his other hand. His thumb guided my
chin and made me look at the mirror to see our reflection.
"Keep your eyes on the mirror." he said before he held on my arms and started
fucking me from behind.
"Oh, fuck!"
I looked at the mirror just like what he wanted. My body felt so hot and I felt
wetter than ever now that I'm watching how he's fucking me. My face flushed and my
skin were a bit reddish because of the sensation that I'm feeling.
I never thought that it would feel so good to see myself being fucked by him.
Loki watched how our body is being connected from behind before he looked up.
Our gaze met through the mirror and I saw his jaw moved when he gritted his teeth.
He groaned before he began fucking me so roughly. He will pull his cock until only
the tip was left inside me before he will rammed it all the way in. He did it again
and again.
"Your Majesty..." I sobbed.
 Napakapit ako sa sink dahil hindi na kinakaya ng mga tuhod ko na suportahan ang
katawan ko. I bend over until my breast were pressed against the cold tile. I
couldn't stand anymore because of the way how he fuck me like this while watching
him thrusting his hips behind me. He never looked away from my face and just
watched my every reaction. I realized that he always stared at my face whenever
he's fucking me.
But I realized that he's doing it to add to the pleasure that he's feeling.
Because now that I'm seeing him through the mirror and watching how his jaw moved
with every thrusts he made, he just looked so hot and beautiful that I couldn't
take my eyes off him.
"I want to hold you." he whispered before he pulled me by my arms until my back
were pressed against his chest. He wrapped his arms around me to give me support
'cause I couldn't stand anymore.
He put a hand on my tummy and pulled me to close our distance. Magkadikit na
ang mga katawan namin and there's no space for an air to pass through us. He was
still fucking me and I let out a moan when I felt a familiar feeling that's
building inside me.
"Look at you, my temptress." Loki whispered. His warm breath tickled my ears.
"Look at how much you wanted me.
I looked at myself in the mirror and all that I could see is a wanton woman in
the arms of a strong man. I gritted my teeth when I saw something in my eyes. I
could see my real emotions, broken and emotional, and I tried to hide it because I
know that Loki could see it too.
He let out a groan and began fucking me in a faster pace. I moaned as my walls
clenched around his cock. My face looked so red. I held onto Loki's arms until my
body shook when I reached my climax. I watched myself looking so vulnerable as I
reached my peak.
"Fuck! So beautiful..." Loki whispered and thrusts his hips faster than ever. I
could feel that he's getting bigger inside me and a few more thrusts before he
groaned as he reached his own climax. I was watching him as he looked up to the
ceiling with a gritted teeth.
So beautiful...
Hindi nya ako binitiwan habang pareho kaming naghahabol ng hininga. Ramdam na
ramdam ko tuloy ang pagtaas at pagbaba ng dibdib nya sa likod ko pati na rin ang
bilis at ang lakas ng tibok ng puso nya. He was sweating but that's just made him
more handsome than anyone.
"Let's get you to bed." he said.
He took off his condom without letting go off me and threw it in the trashcan
that's in the bathroom. Inayos nya ang damit nya. I was surprised when he put an
arm behind my legs and carry me in a bridal style way. I looked at him with a wide
eye but he never looked at me until I felt the soft mattress on my back.
But what's surprise me more is when he tucked me to the bed. Nakatingin lang
ako sa kanya sa buong panahon na ginagawa nya iyon dahil hindi ko maintindihan ang
mga nangyayari. But he looked so serious as he cover my body with a blanket.
Wala syang sinabi hanggang sa matapos sya. He just stood beside my bed and
looked down at me while I was quietly watching him, trying to understand why he
just did that.
"What's with you?" I asked but it was so soft and I heard the tiredness in my
voice.
"Nothing." he said and heaved a deep sigh. "If you want anything, don't
hesitate to tell me."
I frowned as I can't really understand him. Nobody has ever said that before
out of their own will. Nobody has did this to me before just because they wanted
too.
He was not the first one to carry me and tuck me to the bed. Enkidu was always
doing those things for me but that was because he is my Bishop and it's his duty to
take care of me. But Loki... I am his enemy that did so many things to his team and
yet, why is he starting to treat me with gentleness now?
Is he up for something?
 "I want you to leave." I said without taking my eyes off him. He stared at me
for a minute before he slowly nodded.
"Goodnight." he softly said and it sounds so husky before he walked towards the
door and leave my room.
I was left alone inside and that's the only time that I felt how drained I was.
So many things happened today and I felt exhausted. I stared at the ceiling trying
to remember what happened but the drowsiness took over me and I closed my eyes.
And despite what happened, I never thought that I will have a good sleep
tonight.

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Chapter 29

The people inside the house tried to ignore me and that go

on for days. Before they knew about King Lancer, it was obvious that they were
trying so hard to make me feel comfortable around them. I don't know why they even
did that given that I am their enemy. But now that they've discovered that I turned
their Rook into our King and brainwashed him using the rare drug, it seems like
they couldn't keep up with their righteous act anymore.
Before, Archer would always ask me every meal if I will join them but now, it
was Loki who's doing that. He was the only one who's entering my room everyday to
check on me. And he never fails to ask me about the antidote every damn time.
I sighed. Dati kinukulit nila ako about sa Rook nila, now that they have they
answer, it seems like they will pester me about the antidote now.
Is there an end for this? Is there an end for their stupidity?
I was sitting alone in my room while looking outside the window, my routine
everyday. All the EL Ordre's members were in the living room and I'm sure that
they're trying to make a plan about their Rook that is now our King Lancer. I bet
if they can come up with a good plan though.
Maybe they can. If only they knew how to set aside their emotions and use their
brains that were displayed inside their heads.
Loki was always updating me with whatever they're doing except about the
details of their plan. He said that Tracer is recovering but he mustn't move much.
I bet that the first thing that he'll do when he became totally fine is to strangle
my neck.
The door of my room suddenly opened and I felt a not-so-familiar presence that
entered the room. I quickly turned around to see who it was and frowned when I saw
that it's a woman.
Obviously, she's not Ishtar. This girl looked like an Italian with her brown
hair and hazel eyes. She has a nice body that got emphasize with her turtle neck
top and jeans. She's gorgeous but of course, I'm the most gorgeous of them all.
"Queen Eresh... Right?" she asked when she stopped in front of me.
I raised an eyebrow and eyed her from head to toe. I think I've seen her
before. Her hazel eyes were familiar and I'm guessing that she's a member of EL
Ordre since they go to the mission with half of their face covered in a black mask.
That's why maybe, her eyes were familiar to me.
"I immediately went here from Italy after hearing about what happened." she
said. She looked at me straight in the eye and I admire how bold she was. "What
happened to Violet?"
I smirked. With only her four-words question, I could tell how much important
Yucca is to her. Maybe she's the girl named Vexen that the man with mismatched eyes
was talking about. The one who will get hurt if she hears about Yucca.
Ah... Now I remember. I think Yucca mentioned her to me before. That other than
the Queen, there's another woman in the team.
She's V. The former Pawn of EL Ordre.
I giggled which made her frown. I bet that Yucca's betrayal hurt her so much.
 "Who's Violet?" I asked, acting like I don't have any idea.
"You know who she is." she said with a gritted teeth. Aww... She's emotionally
weak.
"Oh! You mean Yucca?" I asked. Her face darkened and I almost laughed. "She's
the King's Bishop of Red Faction but a traitor to EL Ordre."
I stood up and walked towards her. I could tell that she got really hurt with
the truth but she's trying so hard not to show it on her face. But the news shocked
her that her eyes couldn't hide her emotions well.

"You know..." I said and pointed at her chest to where her

heart is. "That's the weakness of EL Ordre. Emotions. Kaya ang dali nyong
paglaruan."
"I already got a hunch that she's a traitor." she said and I noticed that her
voice was shaking. "When Liam said that Violet's phone got bugged and what happened
to parking lot. Our plan was too perfect and Violet is too good in close combat
fights to get easily abducted like that. Pero nawala yung hinala ko when she fell
into coma. Naisip ko na... The Red Faction wouldn't go that far. Pero mukhang mali
ako."
I smiled sweetly at her. Wow... She's smart. Too bad that she's not part of the
human chess game now. Magagamit sana ng EL Ordre ang talino nya na mukhang wala sa
iba.
"It was Black's idea." I said. She looked so confused that I used Liam's
codename but I didn't bother explaining it. She's smart. She can figure it out. "He
did that to Yucca 'cause he knows that you will have a suspicion on her after
everything that happened. I agreed with his idea, though. I also want to punish
Yucca 'cause she didn't want to tell us where the EL Ordre's hideout is."
Well, that's because Yucca wanted to protect the EL Ordre's Rook. She didn't
want to risk telling us where their hideout is when the Rook is still with the EL
Ordre.
Not that I plan on attacking their hideout though. It wouldn't be fun that way.
The game wouldn't be entertaining to end like that. Plus, if we win without a King,
I don't think that the gamemasters will accept our victory. So I had to take the
Rook from them first and make him our King.
"They're right." she said. Her words full her hurt. "Napakasama mo nga talaga."
I chuckled and I saw that she got angry with the way I act. Wow! I really like
it when they got affected with every little thing I do!
"Oh, no, V." mukhang hindi sya nagulat nang banggitin ko ang codename nya.
"Don't act as if you didn't do anything wrong. You're the one who killed Black. Did
you know that he doesn't deserve to die just like that?"
"Madami syang pinatay! Madami syang dinamay na inosente! He's a drug lord!"
"That boy was just hurt. His parents got killed when the EL Ordre cheated! They
killed his parents and even his whole manor! The EL Ordre ruined his life!"
She was shock but got recovered quickly and just stared at me. I recognized
that look. She was trying to read me but I know that she wouldn't succeed. A lot of
people tried to do this, especially my chess pieces, but all of them failed. 'Cause
how could they do it when even me can't understand myself?
"Is that why you're doing this? Because you got hurt?" she asked softly.
I didn't give her the reaction that she wanted to see from me. Instead, I
smirked at her. No. Mind games won't even work with me. Nobody could break the wall
that I built around myself.
Nobody can and nobody will.
"No. I just wanted to win this game." I said and smiled at her sweetly.
She stared at me, still trying to read me but stopped after a minute. Maybe she
realized that she will never succeed.
She sighed.
"Ito ang unang pagkikita natin and I don't want to judge you that easily. But I
think you deserve this."
 I got shocked when her palm landed on my cheeks. It hurts so bad! Ishtar's
slaps were nothing against her! Damn it! I heard that this girl is good at close
combat fights too so maybe that's why her slap hurts!
"That's for Shielder." she said and slapped me again on my other cheek. "And
that's for Tracer."
Fuck! I could taste the blood in my mouth! Pumutok yata ang labi ko sa lakas ng
pagsampal nya! Damn it!
"That's not enough." she said. She was gritting her teeth and tears formed in
the corner of her eyes because of too much emotions. "Kulang na kulang pa 'yan sa
lahat ng pahirap na binigay mo sa kanila. They were the one who suffered the most
in this fucking game!"
Oh no, pretty face. You're wrong. In this Bloody Human Chess game, I was the
one who suffered the most.
"Win this game, Ereshkigal. You were born just because of this game. This is
the only meaning for your existence."
And if I wouldn't win this game, I feel like I don't deserve to live. Father is
right. This is the meaning of my existence.
I smirked at the girl in front of me. Does she really think that I will just
let her slap me when I didn't even fucking know her?
It seems like she's underestimating me. The Queen of Red Faction.
"Wrong move, V." I said.
Her stance became defensive. Maybe she noticed what I will do to her.
"You shouldn't have laid a hand on me." I said before I attacked her.

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Chapter 30

I want to have the first hit so I decided to gave her a

feint punch on her face. But the truth is, I was aiming for the side of her waist.
So when she blocked my fake attack, I quickly shifted and put my whole weight on
one leg before I gave her a side kick.
But she was quick. Mabilis nyang nasalag ang paa ko bago pa iyon tumama sa
tagiliran nya. She tried to held my ankle but I pulled back my leg and readied
myself for her counterattack.
She threw me a quick punch but before it could landed on my face, I held her
wrist and twisted her arm behind her back. She screamed in pain and I held his arm
tighter. But I didn't expect that she will use the back of her head and slammed it
into my face. I let go of her when I felt the pain on my nose.
Fuck! Ang tigas ng ulo nya!
I tried to touch my nose and winced in pain. When I looked at my hand, I saw
blood on it so I'm sure that my nose is bleeding.
I tsked. She got the first hit alright. So now's the time to get serious.
"Three times." I said. "You hit me three times already and you'll definitely
pay for it."
I attacked her again, quickly this time. I didn't gave her a chance to block my
attack. Sunod-sunod akong nagpakawala ng suntok and sometimes, my punch hit her
body but she still tried to block my continuous attacks. Umaatras sya with my every
attack until her back reached the wall.
"Shit!" she hissed when she got cornered. She tried to give me a side kick but
I caught her legs in between my arm and my sides. I slapped her really, really hard
that she staggered. Lumayo ako at nang tumingin sya sa akin ay nakita kong
nagdudugo ang labi nya.
I smirked. "It hurts, right? But there's two more to go."
I saw madness in her eyes before she stood up and tackled me. Nakayuko sya, her
head on my tummy while her arms wrapped around my waist. She pushed me until my
back reached the wall and gave me a hard punch on the gut. I coughed and almost
vomit but I held it in.
It was her turn to punch me again and again. She's punching me on my stomach
and I really, really want to vomit but I couldn't get her off me. So I pulled her
hair tight pero hindi pa rin sya nagpatinag.
Damn it! This girl really knows how to fight!
I got pissed so I kneed her face. She screamed but I didn't let go of her hair.
Paulit-ulit kong tinuhod ang mukha nya that I made sure she wouldn't have her
pretty face anymore after this.
She caught me off guard when she kicked me on the shin so hard. I screamed in
pain! It almost feel like she broke my leg that I couldn't supported myself from
standing anymore. I tried to held onto something but it was the vase and it fell on
the ground with a loud crash.
Mabilis akong pinaibabawan ni V. I saw that her face were full of blood and was
swollen because of what I did earlier. I almost smirked but stopped when she threw
a punch on my face.
"An eye for an eye. A face for a face, bitch!" she hissed and punch my face
again and again.
I could tell that she received a hard training to fight so good like this.
Every punch she's giving me were so hard and there's no doubt that she could fight
against men in terms of close combat fights. I am so sure that my face will get
damage just like hers.
I was panting while trying to come up with an idea on how to get off her. I
will faint if this will go on any longer so my hand tried to search for something.
Nahawakan ko ang mga bubog galing sa vase at alam kong nasugatan na ako sa kamay
pero hindi ako tumigil. Nahawakan ko ang dulo ng vase na hindi masyadong nabasag. I
did what I had to do. I slammed that part of the vase on her head and it broke with
a crash. That made her stopped punching me as she fell on the ground.

She groaned while I was trying to get off her. Nakahawak

sya sa ulo nyang dumudugo but that didn't stop me. Even in a weak state, it was my
turn to get on top of her and threw several punches on her face.
"Do you really think... That a Pawn like you can win against me? The Queen?" I
said and threw punches on her with every words before I slapped her twice. Now I
got even. "Not a chance, bitch!"
That was the state were in when the door of my room opened. Pero hindi ako
tumigil sa pagsuntok. I had enough of all those slaps that they gave me like they
didn't do anything wrong in their entire life! The fuck! I know that I'm not kind
but I have never judge anyone and give them a slap! They just provoke me and me
being the Mad Queen, hindi ko hahayaan na ganituhin lang nila ako!
"Vexen!"
I heard a male voice before I felt someone wrapped his arms on my waist and
lifted my body up. I tried to get away with his grasp. I did everything and punch
the man but he held me tighter and pulled me against his body. It was like he's
hugging me.
I stopped when a familiar scent attacked ny nose. I looked up to him and I saw
the handsome face of Loki as his sea-green eyes roamed around my face. He cursed
and glared at someone.
"What the bloody hell, V?! You said that you will just talk to her!"
I looked to where he's looking at and I saw the whole EL Ordre, except for
Tracer and Shielder, inside my room. They looked worried for V and when their eyes
met mine, I saw anger in their eyes. They shifted on their place like they were
protecting the girl in the arms of the man with mismatched eyes from me.
"You are barking at the wrong tree, my lord! Vexen got hurt!"
"Are you fucking blind, Death?! She's not the only one who got hurt!"
I looked at Loki. I could feel the rage in him now that I'm inside his arms.
His body was slightly shaking and I could see in his eyes that he's really, really
mad.
 "Don't tell me that you'll choose that girl over V?" said the man with the
amber eyes.
"There's no need to choose." Loki said. "But if I have to... Then yes."
My lips parted and it seems like I was not the only one who got surprised by
his words. Tumahimik ang EL Ordre habang hindi makapaniwalang nakatingin kay Loki.
But Loki looked at me with gentle in his eyes.
"Are you okay?" he said softly. Despite of the shock that I'm feeling, I wanted
to scream at him.
With my face full of blood and some bruises that were swollen, does he really
need to ask if I'm okay? How stupid is he?
"Fourth! Ano ba?!" Ishtar screamed. There's frustration in her voice.
"I want you all to leave the room." Loki said coldly. "Vexen needs to get
treated too."
Muling napasigaw si Ishtar. "Fourth!"
"Leave." Loki used his authoritative voice. The one he used that's why I
thought that he's the EL Ordre's King. "Now."
Isa-isang lumabas ang mga myembro ng EL Ordre. Ishtar was the last to leave
'cause she was staring at Loki with hurt in her eyes before she glared at me and
finally left the room.
Loki sighed. Dahan-dahan nya akong binitiwan and he gently guided me to sit on
the bed. I winced when I felt the pain on my legs with every step I made. Then Loki
went outside the room. I thought that he left as well but he came back shortly. He
was holding an ice pack bag and a first aid kit.
"Let's treat your wounds." he said gently as he sat beside me. He held my chin
with gentleness and wipe the blood off my face.
I was staring at him the entire time. I was speechless. Hindi ko alam ang
sasabihin ko. I never expected him to treat me like this and defend me against his
teammates. The last time I checked, we were only fuck buddies.
I gasped in pain nang mapadiin ang pagdampi nya sa sugat ko sa mukha. He pulled
his hand away and looked at my eyes.
"I'm sorry..." he whispered. "I'll do it more gently."
But before he could touch my face again, I looked away.
"Leave me alone." I said. "I could do it."
"I could do it better." he said and tried to held my chin again but I slapped
his hand away.
"I said leave me alone! I want you to get out of my room as well!"
He didn't say anything and just stared at me. The one thing he always does when
he's trying to figure me out. But he will never understand me. Kahit anong pilit
nya. I'm sure that he can't.
"I know that you didn't attacked her first." he said. "You just got provoked.
But then, it's not right to involve in a fist fight."
"So I'll just let her slap me, then?" inis kong tanong.
"No. Of course not." he said. His hand went up like he's trying to touch my
cheek but I looked away. I heard him sighed. "I promise that I won't let anyone
enter this room other than me. No one will ever hurt you again."
Mabilis akong napatingin sa kanya. He smiled that caught me off-guard. His
smile was so beautiful that I felt too much emotions inside me.
"I want to understand you, Eresh. I hope that you'll let me."
The emotions that I felt wanted to get out off my chest. I could feel my eyes
were getting hot so before he could see my tears. I looked away.
"Get out." I said coldly. "Get out. Leave me alone!"
I heard him sigh before I heard some movements on his side. Then his footsteps
as he walked towards the door.
"If you want anything, just look for me." he said before he finally went out of
my room.
I was left inside the room again. Sobrang makalat ang loob ng kwarto ko because
of the brawl that I had with V but that's nothing compared to the mess that I'm
feeling in my head and in my chest. I am so confused and I had to stop this.
I don't need this feelings to win the game. It will just be a hindrance for our
victory.
Loki is just a hindrance for our victory.

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Chapter 31

I opened my eyes the next morning and grimaced when I felt

the pain on my face. It fucking hurts that I can't even move a muscle without
hurting. And I could tell that my face was swollen with bruises even if I don't
look in the mirror.
I groaned. It seems like I had to deal with this pain for awhile. I just hope
that it wouldn't leave a scar on my beautiful face. My father will get mad if that
happens. 'Cause according to him, I wouldn't be beautiful if I ever have a small
flaw on my skin. I will be useless by then.
A chuckle had escaped from my throat. Wow. He's dead and yet I still remember
him with every little thing I do. When will he ever leave me alone and just let me
do things in my way?
Even when he's gone. I am still living with his memories. And I think the only
way that I could be free is to win this game.
I frowned when I finally noticed a presence inside my room. I looked around and
found the man with sea-green eyes that's sitting on the sofa inside my room. He
looked so comfortable as he watched me that I bet he's been doing ever since he
entered my room this morning.
"What are you doing here?" I asked. My voice sounds so hoarse. I rubbed the
sleep off my face.
Loki remained silent but he stood up and walked towards me. He sat on the bed
and stared at me deeply.
"You said that you would treat your wounds." he said as he used the back of his
hand to caress my cheeks. His hand felt so rough against my skin.
I tried to look away and slapped his hand off my face. I felt so uncomfortable
with his gentleness. It was so early in the morning but he's already here inside my
room doing surprising things that's making me confused about his intentions.
"I never said anything like that." I said as I tried to got up and sat on the
bed. My back was resting on the headboard. Loki was silently watching me the whole
time. "Leave it. It will heal anyway."
"We must treat so it would heal faster and avoid infections." he said. We?
Wow... So he's involving himself now?
"Don't bother yourself. It will heal even without treatments."
"It'll prolong your pain."
"That's not something new. I'm used to pain anyway." I said. Loki didn't say
anything but when he did, it surprised me.
"Are we still talking about your wounds on your face?"
God damn it. Inaantok pa yata ako that's why those words slipped so easily from
my mouth!
I just raised an eyebrow and lifted my chin to intimidate him. I wonder how do
I look though. With my face swollen and me acting like this, I bet I looked like
shit.
Fuck... That's why I don't always engaged myself in a close combat fights.
There's always my pieces and Enkidu to do things for me.
"Let me treat your wounds." he said and took the first aid kit that I left on
my bedside table. Instead of arguing with him, I let him do what he wanted. Baka
may masabi na naman akong kung ano.
He used a cotton buds and put an antiseptic there. He held my chin in a gentle
way and started treating my wounds.
His face was so close that I could smell and feel his breath against my skin. I
caught the scent of his cologne. He just smells so good so early in the morning. I
wonder how do I smell. I just woke up, fuck!
Wait. When did I ever start to be concious around him? I know that I'm
beautiful even with a woke-up-like-this face anyway.
Loki's face looked so serious as he applied the antiseptic on my face. He did
it so gently that I couldn't really feel the touch of the cotton buds on my face.

Fuck it... This man is really handsome. This is the only

time that I got to stare at his face with my full concentration on. 'Cause
everytime that we fuck and his face is near mine, I couldn't stare at him because I
am getting distracted while he's trusting deep inside me.
I never thought that I could see the most handsome and hottest man in the
entire world. That's Loki for me. With his captivating sea-green eyes, perfect
nose, reddish lips and an angled jaw, he could attract any woman. He's like the God
of Handsomeness if there's any.
"Vexen is fine." he said after awhile of silence. "She had a small cut on her
head but she's fine. She just needs to rest."
I raised an eyebrow 'cause he said that so suddenly. I know that he's always
updating me with what's happening but I don't really want to hear anything about
the girl who did this to my face.
"And Tracer is fine now. He can walk again but he should do it with caution.
Otherwise the stitches on his stomach will open again." he started to put a cream
on my wounds. "And Aius asked me to keep an eye on you. I'll still do it even
without his orders, apparently."
"What's with you?" I asked, confused. He looked up to me and stopped treating
my wounds for a moment. "Why are you doing this?"
I am really, really confused with his actions. I almost killed one of his
teammates and yet he's here in my room treating my wounds with gentleness! I can't
figure him out!
"You suddenly started treating me with gentleness. Tell me, are you up for
something?"
He stared at me before he sighed and put down his hands on his lap. He looked
at me with all seriousness.
"Tell me where the antidote is."
I looked at him, deadpan, before I started to chuckle without any emotions. My
chuckle turned into laughter and Loki was just watching me as I crazily laughed in
front of him.
"Darn..." I said as I wiped off the tears in the corner of my eyes. "That's so
cliche, Your Majesty. You're treating me differently now because you want
something. Do you actually think that it will work on me?"
Loki stared at me silently. Sinalubong ko ang mga titig nya nang walang pag-
aalinlangan. I want him to know that I wouldn't be deceived easily like that. I
want him to know that he mustn't look down on me for I am not an easy enemy.
Does he really think that I will succumb to him just because he started
treating me with gentleness? Does he really think that I would buy that bullshit?
"Yes..." he breathes. I chuckled with remorse.
Fuck it. Father is right. The strong ones will take advantage of the weak. And
since I am here in their hideout, Loki must've think that I'm powerless without my
chess pieces.
Oh no... He is definitely wrong. I don't need anyone to be strong. I can be my
own Queen. I can be my own chess pieces. And I can be my own King. And definitely,
I can win this game.
"But no." pahabol nya na nagpakunot sa noo ko. "Yes, I want to know where the
antidote is. I want you to tell me where it is. You're the only hope to return
Shielder to the way he was before..." he sighed. "But no. I'm not doing this
because I want something from you. I'm doing this out of my own free will. Do you
really think that I will waste my time doing things that I don't really wanted to
do?"
 I chuckled again. "Bullshit."
The side of his lips lifted for a smirk. He looked at me using the gaze that
nobody gave me before.
"I really, really want to understand you, Eresh... If you will just let me."
I took a sharp breath and looked away from his eyes. Damn it. His eyes were
unguarded. He removed the mask that's trying to hide his real emotions on his face
that's why I saw everything and I just had to look away. I couldn't take it. I
couldn't take what I've just seen in his eyes.
I saw... myself in him.
I looked back to him with a glare. "You think I'll believe you?" I asked with a
gritted teeth. "You may not be the real King of EL Ordre but you're the King of
Pretend! You like to pretend! You like to deceive people! Do you actually think
that you could use that facade of yours on me?!"
"It's okay..." he said so gently and that just angered me more. "I can hear
your real voice that you're trying to silence, Eresh."
"Damn you!" I spat at him and push him off the bed. Umalis naman sya sa
pagkakaupo doon at tumayo na lang. Pero hindi ako nakuntento at tinulak pa sya
papunta sa may pintuan. "Get out! Fuck you! Get out!"
He sighed before he turned around and walked towards the door on his own. My
chest was heaving up and down while I'm trying to calm myself down. Damn it. I lost
my composure there once again.
I am so mad. Hindi ko alam kung para ba sa sarili ko o para ba kay Loki. Do I
really became that transparent to him? Did he finally find a way on how to open and
read that enclosed book with shred pieces inside? Did he find a way on how to
understand those words even with torn pages?
Damn... I knew it. Loki isn't good for me. I thought that all the EL Ordre's
members were stupid. But it seems like Loki is one hell of a genius.
I'm scared... What if the day finally comes when he could clearly see right
through me? What if he will think that I am so weak and used those things to his
advantages?
I must hurry and end this game before that happens, fuck!
"Eresh..." Loki called me.
I looked at him. Hindi pa pala sya nakakaalis. Nakahawak ang isa nyang kamay sa
door handle ng nakabukas na pinto. His eyes were serious like he's trying to pierce
his gaze on me and see what's inside me.
He sighed and spoke.
"You said that I'm the King of Pretend. But between the two of us, who do you
think is the one who's pretending?"

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Chapter 32

My pieces have to make a move soon. They've been idling for

so long and I'm getting tired and impatient while waiting. I can't do anything
since that I'm here in the enemy's lair but I really, really want to know if they
have a plan or not.
I'm not used to this, doing nothing and waiting for my chess pieces to move. It
has always been me who's planning for the group and they'll be the one to do it for
me. But now, kahit ang pagpaplano ay hindi ko magawa.
How could I make a plan for my chess pieces if I can't talk to them? Fuck it.
I will leave everything to King Lancer then. This is everything I didn't want
to happen. To give King Lancer the reign and let him do the planning. But I will
make sure that I will not bow down to him. He must be the one to do that instead.
I wonder if they already have a plan though. If so, then when are they planning
to make a move? Naiinip na ako.
I really want to end this game soon.
 I sighed. I don't think that they will move anytime soon. King Lancer is new to
this. I think that he had never led a team before given that he's the Rook of EL
Ordre. All he's been doing is to obey the orders from the King.
Should I make a plan on how to escape here then? I doubt if I ever succeed
though. Kumpleto na yata ang lahat ng members ng EL Ordre that's in here at their
hideout. And I'm their only captive. There's no way I can escape here.
Damn it! You need to make a move the soonest, King Lancer!
The door of my room opened and I couldn't help but to roll my eyes. Kilalang-
kilala ko na kasi kung sino ang pumasok. First, he's the only one who's entering my
room without knocking. Second, he's the only one who's always checking on me these
past few days. And third, his familiar scent suddenly filled the room.
It was Loki.
I heard his footsteps before he came in my view. I just looked at him, deadpan.
He stares down at me while I'm sitting here comfortably on the sofa. He looked so
good with his maroon turtle neck longsleeve top and a black pants. I couldn't help
but to eye him from head to toe.
Damn it. This man is totally attractive.
"What do you want?" I asked when he didn't say anything after a minute had
passed. He sighed and I was surprised when he held a hand in front of me.
"Let's go. They want to talk to you."
"They?" I asked and he nodded.
"The whole EL Ordre."
That made me raise an eyebrow at him. What do they want though? After the brawl
that I had with V, nobody, except for Loki, ever talked to me again. I bet they got
really, really mad that I just hurt one of their female members. 'Cause apparently,
they treated girls as a fragile thing.
What? Will they torture me because of what I did? I don't care though. V
deserves it. She's the one who entered my room and provoke me like she knew me all
her life when it was the only time that we have met. I will never feel guilty for
fighting with her.
I heaved a deep sigh. Mag-isa akong tumayo mula sa sofa at hindi pinansin ang
kamay ni Loki na nakalahad sa harapan ko. I walked my way towards the door.
Nakasunod lang si Loki sa likuran ko.
Indeed. The moment I went to the living room, I saw the EL Ordre was there
sitting on the sofa. They all looked at me when I got there and I just raised an
eyebrow at them and sat on the only available one-seater sofa. I made myself
comfortable and even crossed my legs together. They all looked at Loki as he stood
beside me but they didn't say anything about that. I noticed Alter and her man were
so focused on their laptop.

"So? What is this all about?" I asked. The man with amber
eyes snorted but I didn't pay him any attention.
Attention seeker.
"I want to talk to you." Aius said as his black eyes stared at me with all
seriousness. I smirked.
"I heard. About what?"
"Team up with us and let's stop the gamemasters. Together."
I rolled my eyes as I heard Ishtar groan by Aius' proposal. I thought I already
made it clear to him that I will never join forces with them?
"Not a chance." I said. "One of us needs to win this game. Meaning... It's
either you killing our King. Or it's our King that will kill you."
"No one's gonna kill anyone!" Tracer shouted and I looked at him with a smirk.
"I don't think so, Tracer... Our King badly wants to kill you, though."
He just gritted his teeth and didn't say anything. He's so emotionally invested
into this. Maybe because of his brother. He's just so entertaining to watch!
I really like it when everyone's getting anxious and frustrated just because of
me. I never thought that I will make a big impact on them.
 "Ayaw mo ba talagang matapos ang larong 'to?" Aius asked who really looked
frustrated now. He brushed his hair with his fingers and some strands landed on his
forehead in a dramatic way. "Mas madali kapag ganito, Eresh. Mas maayos. Let's team
up and stop the gamemaster."
I smirked. "Matatapos ang laro if one of us wins and that's the only time that
the gamemasters will be stopped. The winner will stop them."
"Bakit ba gustong-gusto mong manalo sa laro?" asked Archer and I just had to
look at him.
Nakaabang silang lahat sa isasagot ko. But no. I will never answer that
question. They will never know why I really wanted to win this game.
They will never know about my father. They will never know all the things that
he did to me. They will never know a thing about me.
I just smiled at Archer sweetly and shrugged my shoulders. "I just want to."
"Baliw ka nga talaga." said the man with amber eyes. I looked at him.
"And you're an asshole."
God... I fucking hate that man. He's the most asshole of all the asshole that
I've met before! I will never forget what he did to me back then! And he will pay
for that!
If I win this game, the gamemasters will grant me everything that I want to do
with the EL Ordre's members. At uunahin ko ang gagong lalaking 'to!
We were interrupted by the noisy beeping sound that's coming from Alter's
laptop. Napatingin kaming lahat sa kanya as she frowned while she worked her
fingers and typed so fast.
"What's happening?" V asked her.
"Someone's trying to hack my laptop." Alter said. Beads of sweat formed on her
forehead. I noticed her man beside her that's typing on his laptop as well and I
figured that he maybe helping Alter to get rid of the hacker.
"You have another tracker?" tanong ni Loki sa tabi ko. I looked at him like he
just said a ridiculous thing.
"No. Alter's the only tracker of the Red Faction." I said. "You all know about
that right?"
He didn't say anything and we all looked at the two who had their own battle
with their laptop as their weapon. But it looked like whoever's trying to hack
Alter's laptop is too good because both of them looked like they were having a hard
time.
"Shit! Binubura nya lahat ng files!" Alter exclaimed.
"Fuck!" the man beside her cursed. "Codee, try this."
Then after a moment, I noticed that Alter stopped typing with her laptop. She
put it on the coffee table and stared at it.
"He got in..." she mumbled. "I lost all the files."
Tracer stood up and took Alter's laptop. He tried to type something but frowned
awhile.
"These codes looked so familiar." Tracer said and Alter's man nodded.
"I noticed it as well. Kamukha ng mga codes na ginagamit mo."
Tracer stared at the laptop. He's frowning while looking so lost in his own
thoughts. Maya-maya ay napansin ko ang pamumutla ng mukha nya.
"I think it's Gray..." he mumbled.
And right after he said that, King Lancer's face showed on the screen from
Alter's laptop. Standing on his sides were Enkidu and Yucca while the King was
sitting comfortably on an elegant-looking seat.
King Lancer smirked as he greeted everyone.
"Hello, EL Ordre..."
I smirked. So it began, huh?

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Chapter 33
 I was grinning widely while we're all looking at the screen
of Alter's laptop. I think I am the only one with a smile on the face 'cause they
all looked so serious and I could clearly feel the anxiousness of the people in
this house.
King Lancer was wearing an all black clothes, a button down shirt, and a coat
over it. He's also wearing a black pants. His hair was in a brush up style and he
wears a black cross earring on his right ear. The slit on his eyebrows made him
looked like a villain. He looked so good-looking and I never thought that he was
the kid from before. Gone the aura of him being the Rook of EL Ordre. He looked
like a cold-blooded King now.
I held my breath as I stare at King Lancer. He was sitting on the magnificent
chair with his legs crossed and his arms resting on the armrest. I softly laughed
with appreciation. Fuck... I couldn't believe that he could transform from being
the good brother to this... This beautiful King!
I put a hand over my mouth as I couldn't help but to gape at him. My heart was
thumping so fast with excitement the longer I stared at him.
I knew it. He's perfect as the King of Red Faction.
King Lancer cocked his head as he looked at us. His gaze was so intense that it
feels like he was really in front of us. I could feel the fire in his eyes and it
just made me feel more excited!
Fuck! He's such a masterpiece! I'm so proud!
King Lancer smirked and chuckled for a second. Even his chuckle sounds so deep.
I bit my lower lip to stop myself. The fuck... I suddenly wanted to moan when I
heard his low laughter.
"How's my team?" he said and chuckled again like he just said something funny.
"My bad. What I mean is... How's my former team?"
He smirked after he said that. The atmosphere here in this house didn't feel
good but I don't really care. I am feeling beyond happy here. Damn it! I feel like
we are really going to win this game!
With King Lancer being like this, there's no doubt about that.
"Gray..." Tracer muttered. I heard the pain in his voice. Walang kakurap-kurap
syang nakatingin sa screen ng laptop ni Alter.
King Lancer shifted his gaze and he's now looking at his brother. He smiled, a
cold smile that even the air here felt so cold too.
"Buhay ka pa." he said. "Don't expect me to kill you that easily. I want to
torture you first, Kuya."
I heard Tracer gasped as King Lancer laughed coldly. Parang hindi sya
makapaniwala sa nakikita nya ngayon. He's looking at his brother with longing and
pain in his eyes.
"You're already torturing me." Tracer said. He even choke at his own words.
"Bumalik ka na Gray."
King Lancer tapped his jaw with his forefinger. He tried to look innocent as he
began acting like he's thinking for what Tracer said. But King Lancer's cold-
blooded aura is still with him kaya hindi sya nagmukhang inosente sa ginawa nya. He
just looked like he's thinking whether he will kill Tracer or not.
"Hmm..." King Lancer hummed. "How about... No?"
He then chuckled so loud and I couldn't help but to smile. Fuck! Fuck it! I
wanna see him in person!
I shrieked when my pet suddenly came in the view. Nergal walked towards King
Lancer and sat on his feet. King Lancer pet his head and caressed it afterwards.
"Nergal!" I exclaimed. The Sumatran tiger purred like he recognized my voice
and looked at the screen. "Are you okay? Do you miss me?"
Nergal roared and I saw King Lancer bit his lower lip as he smirked. He looked
at me, straight in the eye. I don't know how he could do that when we can only see
each other on the screen.
 "My Queen..." he said so sweetly. I bit my lower lip. "Ako?
Aren't you going to ask me if I missed you?"
I giggled. "Oh no, My King... You are so naughty."
He laughed and I noticed Yucca looked at him with hurt in her eyes. But she
quickly looked away and if only I didn't know her, I wouldn't notice it.
"Violet..." V mumbled and Yucca's face hardened. She looked at V like it's the
first time she had seen her. "Violet... How could you?"
"I'm not Violet. My name is Yucca." she said without any emotions. I saw the
hurt in V's eyes at hindi na sya nakapagsalita ulit.
King Lancer cleared his throat and shifted on his seat. He leaned his back on
the backrest of the chair at nagpangalumbaba sya. His gaze became deadly serious.
"Listen, EL Ordre. Let's make a deal." he said. "Bring me back my Queen and
let's start this stupid game so we could end it soon."
"Anong kapalit?" Aius asked. Tracer glared at him but I saw Aius shot back a
warning glare at him. It was like he was telling him to shut up when it was
Tracer's brother he's talking to.
"Magiging mabait ako." he said simply and chuckled. "Kayong dalawa lang ni
Tracer ang mamatay sa laro. Hindi ko na idadamay ang iba."
I smirked. Of course, my King. I know what you're planning. Dahil sa akin mo
ipapaubaya ang natitirang mga myembro.
Aius stared at King Lancer before his gaze shifted to Alter's man. Alter seems
to understand his gaze as well 'cause she mouthed something.
"He's at the Red Faction's hideout." she said without a voice but I was able to
read her lips.
Aius nodded. Hindi nakita sa view ni King Lancer ang ginawa ni Alter. I wanted
to give him a warning but I felt Loki on my back. He crouched down para magpantay
kami as he put a hand on my mouth.
"Be a good girl, my temptress." he whispered. His lips were on my ears that I
could feel his warm breath and even the movements of his lips when he spoke. I
pressed my legs together as electricity went down my spine.
"So?" King Lancer asked.
I noticed the man with mismatched eyes, the man with a scar on his face, the
man with amber eyes, and Alter's man got up on their seats. It was like they were
getting ready to go the Red Faction's hideout. Tracer looked like he wanted to go
too but Alter's man shook his head.
"Stay here." he said so softly. "Hindi pa magaling ang sugat mo."
"But that's my brother!" giit ni Trace pero mahina rin.
"I know! Pero kapag may nangyaring hindi inaasahan, magiging pabigat ka lang.
So just stay here and leave everything to us, alright?"
Tracer just stayed silent. He looked like he really wanted to go but he got his
point. So he just sat back on his chair quietly.
"Lugi kami." Aius answered to King Lancer. "Kailangan may kapalit kapag binalik
namin sayo ang Queen mo."
King Lancer raised an eyebrow. "So what are you proposing?"
"Give us your Bishop." Aius said. "Give us Yucca."
King Lancer frowned. It seems like he didn't get his point. Napatingin pa sya
kay Yucca sa gilid nya na tumingin din pabalik sa kanya. I looked at Aius but he
looked dead serious with his offer.
"Sige." sabi ni King Lancer na hindi man lang pinag-isipan ang sagot. "My Queen
is more important than her so give her back to me and I'll give you my Bishop in
exchange of her."
"Damn it, Shielder..." I heard Loki muttered. His hand was still on my mouth.
Nahihilo na ako sa bango ng kamay nya. I could also smell his fresh breath and
manly scent. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung anong pagtutuunan ko ng pansin na amuyin.
Yucca didn't show any emotions if she's hurt by King Lancer's words. Maybe this
is part of their plan. But she loves him so much that I knew she got hurt when he
said that like he wasn't even important to him.
"It's a deal, then?" Aius asked. Nagde-kwatro sya ng upo and he really looked
like a King who could lead an army.
 A King making a deal with a King... What a nice scene.
King Lancer showed his smirk again. "It's a deal. I'll contact you again to set
the date and place."
"Ayaw mo ngayon?" Aius asked that made King Lancer chuckled with remorse.
"Do you still think that I'm your stupid Rook?" he asked. Bitterness was
dripping on his voice. "No. I will fucking contact you again for the date and
place. And that's final."
Aius raised his hands like he's surrendering to the police. "Alright, alright."
He glanced at Tracer who was clenching his jaw while looking at his brother on
the screen. Mukhang pinipigilan nya lang na sumabog ang mga emosyon nya. His hands
were on a fists. He looked away from the laptop's screen and looked down instead.
He looked defeated.
"My Queen..." King Lancer called me. I removed Loki's hand on my mouth.
"My King." I answered but shivered when Loki caressed my neck sensually.
"My King, huh?" he whispered. Danger was in his voice and I just gritted my
teeth.
Fuck it...
"Wait for me, my Queen." King Lancer said. "I'll take you back. We will win
this game together."
I smiled and nodded at him. "Yes, my King. I will wait for you..."
The screen went black after that pero hindi pa rin lumalayo si Loki sa akin.
Narinig ko ang maingay na pagbuga ng hangin ni Tracer before he looked at Aius.
"What now?" he asked.
Aius gritted his teeth that made his jaw moved. He looked back at Tracer.
"We will wait for the others to come back before we make a plan."
"Paano kung hindi nila makuha ang kapatid ko?" Tracer asked. Worried was in his
voice.
"We will still see him. Afterall, may isang bagay sya na gustong-gusto makuha
sa akin."
I smiled sweetly when they all looked at me. Of course. I'm that thing that
King Lancer wanted to take back. I bit my lower lip before my smile turned into a
smirk.
Ah... Hindi na rin ako maiinip sa wakas.
King Lancer made a move... Finally.

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Chapter 34

We, or they rather, waited for the others who went to the
Red Faction's hideout to get King Lancer. I got really, really bored watching the
rest of them glaring at me like they wanted to strangle my neck. Especially the
look in Ishtar's eyes. I could see the jealousy that she's feeling as she looked at
Loki who never left my side. Then she will glare at me afterwards.
Does it mean that she likes Loki? I thought that she loves the EL Ordre's King?
Or gusto nya lang na sa kanya ang atensyon ng lahat?
What a bitch.
I groaned in boredom and decided to went to my room instead. Mas mag-eenjoy pa
ako doon kaysa titigan ang mga mukha nila. If looks could only kill, I'll be death
by now for like a thousand times already. That's how much hatred I could see in
their eyes.
Especially with Tracer. He just saw his brother turned into someone he couldn't
even recognized anymore. Yes, he still has his face but that's the only Grayson-
James-Sanford-thing remained in him. The rest were totally different from the way
he was before. I bet that Tracer felt worst when King Lancer said that he likes to
torture him first before killing him.
Nagdalawang isip tuloy ako sa pag-akyat sa kwarto ko. I think mas enjoyable
kung aasarin ko pa si Tracer.
"Let's go."
I looked at Loki who suddenly said that after awhile. I need to look up because
I was sitting while he was standing beside me and looking down at me. He is too
tall that my neck immediately ache with just a second that I looked up to him.
I frowned. "Where?"
He glanced at the people in the living room, who I'm sure were watching us. But
Loki disregarded them and did something that's either they will enjoy or will
shocked them.
Loki crouched down until our face were inches apart. Itinukod nya ang isang
kamay sa armrest sa gilid ko while his other hand was on the backrest of the sofa.
It looked like he was caging my body on the sofa and I'm sure that this view is
such a sight for the EL Ordre.
"You did something unforgivable." he pressed his lips on my ears and I shivered
as he whispered. "I should punish you, shouldn't I?"
He put distance between us enough for me to look in his eyes but not enough to
escape from him. The look in his eyes tells me that he will do something wicked to
me and I should feel scared but I don't know what's wrong with me 'cause it excites
me instead.
Oh, fuck it.
"What?" maang ko pang tanong. "I don't know what you're talking about."
He chuckled. Tumingin sya sa gilid nya that's why I had the perfect view of his
angled jaw with stubbles on it. I couldn't help but to caressed it and he snapped
his head back to look at me again. He held my wrist which made me stopped from
touching his face.
"Let's go." ulit nya sa sinabi nya kanina, using a dangerous tone this time. He
pulled my wrist kaya wala na akong nagawa kung hindi ang tumayo at magpahila sa
kanya.
Nobody from the EL Ordre said anything when we left the room. But I'm a hundred
percent sure that they have an idea on what we will do base on the chuckle that I
heard from Archer and on the hurt from Ishtar's eyes when I looked at her.
Oh, geez... Now everybody knows that we're fuck buddies.
Mabilis ang paglalakad ni Loki that I almost run just to keep up with his pace.
Damn those long legs of him. One step of him is two steps for me. Makakaladkad nya
ako kung hindi ko rin bibilisan ang paglalakad. He seemed so impatient and...
Angry.
He opened the door of my room and he pulled me inside before he closed the door
with a slam and locked it. I was still catching my breath because of the walk that
I did when he suddenly walked towards me. He cupped my face and without a word from
him, he slammed his lips into mine.

I got surprised 'cause I didn't expect him to move this

fast but I closed my eyes afterwards and tried to kiss him back. But I had a hard
time 'cause his kisses were so rough that I stopped answering his kiss and just let
him do whatever he wants.
He was sucking my lower lip hard that it quickly felt numb. He bit and lick it
and a moan had escaped from my mouth despite the pain that I'm feeling. I held onto
his wrist but I didn't tried to stop him.
It was a punishing kiss. Loki is mad because I called someone as 'My King' even
though I told him before that he's my only King.
It just slipped my mind when I saw King Lancer earlier. I mean, I was really,
really surprised when I saw how much he changed! I could still remember the first
time his gray eyes landed on mine. The time when he woke up after months of being
in a coma. He looked so confused and scared. With his emotions being in turmoil,
mabilis ang pag-epekto ng rare drugs sa kanya.
"Fuck!"
I yelped when he pushed me to the bed. The bed bounced with the impact but he
quickly followed me after and positioned himself on top of me. He attacked my lips
again and I just moaned when he inserted his tongue in my mouth. I moaned and my
tongue meets with his. Our breath mingled and I arched my back when he tried to
take off my shirt. Our kiss break apart for a second when removed my top on my
head.
"This sinful mouth of yours must received punishment." he said. His voice
sounded so hoarse.
He put an arm on the back of my neck while the other was on the back of my
thighs. Inayos nya ang pagkakahiga ko until my head touched the headboard of the
bed. He removed my brassiere and my breast were in full view for him.
He knelt on the bed, his knees were on the either side of my waist as he began
unbuckling his belt. I parted my lips to catch my breath as this sight of him were
so breathtaking.
He looked so dominating while he's looking down at me. His eyes were very, very
dark and it almost feel like he's going to unleash a storm inside him. And maybe he
would. And I bet that he will move rougher than before.
He took both of my wrists and I was surprised when he began tying it on the
headboard with his belt. I tried to break free while he's doing so but he clicked
his tongue and glared down at me.
"I said be a good girl, Eresh." he growled. His voice sounds so dangerous but
it just made me feel more excited.
Fuck... This will be good. I am fucking sure of it.
He tied my wrists so tight on the headboard and I had no way to break free. He
made sure of that 'cause he just smirked at me when he saw how I struggle. It
frustrates me to be tied up like this but Loki must've been really, really mad to
do this to me.
"I don't want to be restrained, Loki." I hissed but his smirk didn't disappear
on his lips.
"Then you shouldn't have defied me, my temptress."
He removed his turtle neck top and I took a sharp breath. Even the way he took
off his clothes looked so sexy. Hindi ko alam kung sinasadya nya o he just wanted
to excite me more.
But my excitement died when he covered my eyes using his shirt. Ang mata ko
lang ang tinakpan nya leaving my nose and my mouth uncovered. I caught the scent of
his cologne mixed with his natural scent and damn it 'cause I got horny just like
that!
"Fuck! Removed your shirt off my eyes!" I demanded but I just heard his sexy
chuckle.
"I told you. I'm gonna punish you."
"Loki!"
I tried to break free from being tied up but it's useless. Sobrang higpit
talaga ng pagkakatali nya. I tried to moved my legs but he was out of my reach.
Nakapwesto nga pala sya sa may bandang tyan ko.
"Fuck you!" I said frustratedly but gasped when he chuckled on my ears. His
warm breath tickles my skin.
"You're such a bad girl, my temptress." he said so huskily as he nibbled my
earlobe. I moaned. "I am your only King, right?"
"God..." I breathe when he licked my ears. Sunod-sunod na ang pagkuha ko ng
hininga and my body feels on fire.
"Why did you call Shielder in that way, hm?" he asked but his voice sounds
dangerous.
"'Cause he's my King." I stupidly answered. Loki tsked and I cried in pain when
he bit my earlobe.
"Damn, girl. You really deserve this punishment."
Naramdaman ko ang paglayo nya which made me feel anxious and excited at the
same time. I heard shuffling sounds as he moves and I could feel his instense gaze
on me even with my eyes covered. He really got this effect on me.
He removed my shorts together with my undies leaving me naked in front of him.
I really wanted to see whatever he's doing but I couldn't.
 Fuck it. I don't know if I should feel excited or frustrated being restrained
like this. Nobody ever did this to me before!
I feel powerless and I should be angry but all I could think of are the thing
that Loki might do to me.
He is going to fuck me... Hard. And that thought really excites the hell out of
me.

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Chapter 35

Warning: Spg
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My senses heighten as I wait for Loki to move. I have no idea what's he's doing
because of his shirt covering my eyes. I really want to remove it 'cause I don't
want to be in this state. I want to see him. I want to caress his ripped body. I
want to see his reaction as he fuck me.
But it seems like he's really mad 'cause no matter how much I beg for him to
remove the bind on my wrists and the cover on my eyes, he never listen. I can't do
anything and he has the full control over me. It frustrates me but I can't help but
to feel excited as well.
I took a sharp breath when I felt his hand on my shoulder. From there, he moved
his hand down to my arm in a very sensual way. I started to breathe fast. Nakabuka
ang bibig ko para doon kumuha ng hangin kaya maingay ang naging paghinga ko.
"You have a very beautiful body, don't you know that?" he said so huskily as he
caressed my skin. "So soft..."
"I know." I managed to answer.
I heard his sexy chuckle and the fuck is wrong with me that I moaned by just
hearing it. I guess my lust just doubled now that I couldn't see him that's why I'm
giving reaction with his every move. I am trembling with every touch of his warm
hand on my skin.
His hands started caressing my waist and up. I gasped when I felt his thumb
grazed my nipples. But he's really serious about giving me a punishment 'cause even
though he knows how much I want him to take me now, he stil continued caressing my
body.
His hands feels so rough against my soft skin. Kaya naman damang-dama ko ang
bawat haplos na ginagawa nya sa katawan ko at napapadaing na lang ako out of
pleasure. My body writhe with his touch. Fuck... He's too good at this. He's too
good at everything. Even when giving punishment.
"Oh, fuck..." I moaned when I felt him giving wet kisses on my shoulders.
"Do you want more?" he asked and I quickly nodded that made him chuckle again.
"Tell me who's your King first."
His hand travel down my body until he reached my folds. He rubbed a finger on
my clit and I let out a loud moan.
"Wrong answer." he said, talking about the moan that I made. He pressed my clit
hard and rubbed it fast.
"God damn it!" I whimpered and my body arched. He planted a kiss on the valley
of my breast and I couldn't take it anymore.
I feel like I'm going crazy. He was pleasuring me but I could only feel him. I
really wanted to watch him doing things to my body but this fucking cover on my
eyes stopped me from doing so.
"Still wrong." he said. "I want a correct answer this time, my temptress. Tell
me who's your King?"
His other hand started massaging my breast before he played with my nipple and
flicked his fingers on it. I bit my lower lip to stop my moan and gave him the
answer that he wanted.
"It you!" I said while trying to catch my breath. "It's you, Your Majesty!"
 "Is that so?" he asked, full of mischief.
"Oh, God!"
I felt his mouth covered my breast and suck on it. His tongue played with my
nipple, swirling on it from time to time making me scream with so much pleasure.
His fingers were still playing with my folds and I could feel that I'm so wet right
now.
Lumundo ang kama nang sumampa sya doon. He parted my legs and placed himself in
between me. I could feel his cock poking on my thigh that earned a gasped from me.
"Take me now, Your Majesty." I breathe. Hindi na ako makapaghintay. I wanted
him inside me.
But his mind was set on giving me a punishment. He just continue sucking my
breast and playing with my folds. I wanted to touch him and dugged my nails on his
skin but I couldn't do it because my hands were tied on the damn headboard.

His lips trailed kisses on its way up to my neck. He licked

it and I could feel the wetness on my neck as he sucked the skin. I moaned with
frustration. I couldn't take it anymore. I thought that this punishment will
excites me pero nabibitin lang ako lalo na at hindi ko sya nakikita.
"Should I start calling you my Queen?" he whispered while his head was still on
the space in between my neck and my shoulders.
I shivered. Just imagining him calling me that way makes my blood boil and
heart beats faster.
"Answer me, Eresh..." he breathes. "Can you promise me that I'll be your only
King if I start calling you as my Queen?"
Oh, fuck! Yes! Of course! I will do everything just for him to call me in that
way!
I opened my mouth to answer him but it turned into a scream mixed with moan
when he roughly inserted his cock inside me. I felt a pain when he suddenly did
that but my insides quickly adjusted for him. Kaya naman napalitan agad ng init ang
nararamdaman ko kanina.
"My Queen..." he groaned when my insides clenched around his cock.
He held my hips and started thrusting his hips in a forceful way but it just
added pleasure to what I'm feeling. I am burning. I could feel my sweat on my body
but Loki didn't mind it and even licked my tummy up to my breast.
"More, Your Majesty!" I squealed when I felt his warm tongue licking my body.
Loki fucked me so roughly. He will pull his cock until the tip was left inside
me pagkatapos ay bibiglain nya ang pagpasok sa akin. My breast were bouncing with
each of his foreful thrust that quickly set me over the edge.
From my neck, his lips travelled up to my jaw until he reached my ears. Dinig
ko ang marahas na paghinga nya doon as he continue thrusting his hips on me.
"When I heard you calling Shielder as your King," he said and I heard him
gritting his teeth. "it makes me wanna fuck you in front him like this. I wanna see
his reaction when he hears you calling me as Your Majesty and Your King."
Ramdam ko ang galit nya habang sinasabi nya iyon. Mas dumiin ang pagkakakapit
nya sa balakang ko that his fingers almost dugged on my skin. Mas rumahas din ang
paggalaw nya. It seems like he really didn't like that I called King Lancer as my
King.
I heard him chuckled in a very sexy way again. "You're a very naughty girl, my
Queen. I could feel your pussy clenching around my cock. Did you like my idea then?
Did you imagine your King Lancer watching us while I fuck you hard?"
I moaned. I must've been a very bad girl then. 'Cause he is right. I think I
like his idea and I really did imagine it. I never thought that this kind of thing
is my sexual fantasy not until he said it.
"Your Majesty..." I moaned. I could feel that I'm near and Loki must've too.
Naging mas marahas at mas bumilis ang paggalaw nya. I moaned so loud when I finally
reached my orgasm. I heard Loki's groaning as he thrusts his hips faster than
before and after a while, he pulled out his cock and shoots his load on my tummy.
 We were both catching our breath when he finally removed his shirt off my eyes.
I shivered when I saw his intense eyes staring down at me and I could see the
pleasure in him.
He wants me again.
"You came..." he said and smirked after. "You came just imagining those things,
my Queen. What a naughty girl."
He removed the tie on my wrist and helped me up until I was sitting on his lap
while he was sitting on the bed. He cupped my cheeks and kissed my lips in a
passionate way that surprised me.
"What have you done to me?" he whispered against my lips before he claimed it
again. I could feel his erection on my tummy so I reached for it and pumped my fist
up and down.
He groaned against my mouth before he ended the kiss. Pinagdikit nya ang mga
noo namin at tinitigan akong mabuti.
"So beautiful..." he whispered while staring intently at me. All of a sudden, I
could feel my heart started to beat so fast when I saw the emotion on his eyes.
He stopped my hand and held my waist. He lifted me up slightly and positioned
his cock on my entrance. We both moaned when our body connected again.
"Who's your King, Eresh?" he asked as I began moving my hips. I held onto his
shoulders for support. He groaned and gritted his teeth that made his jaw moved.
"It you, Your Majesty." sagot kong titig na titig sa kanya. "Only you."
He flashed me a beautiful smile that made gulp. There's an unknown emotion
inside me that I couldn't even name but I choose to ignore it. I continued moving
my hips up and down as Loki groaned and held my hips tighter.
I didn't know how many rounds we did. I don't even know that Loki could last
that long. We fuck until we both got tired. I was so exhausted that I couldn't even
lift a muscle after we did it and Loki tucked me to the bed again.
That's the last thing I remember when I fell deep into sleep
And for the first time, I had a dreamless sleep. I didn't have my usual dream
that always wake me up in the middle of the night. So when I opened my eyes the
next morning, I couldn't actually believe it.
I never thought that a hard and tiring fuck will chase those dreams away.
But that's wasn't the only thing that surprised me. 'Cause I felt something
very unusual inside my room. And when I looked at the space beside my bed, my heart
almost leaped out of my chest when I saw someone sleeping peacefully beside me.
It was Loki.

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Chapter 36

It took me a moment before the scene finally sink into my

mind. Loki was sleeping beside me, so peacefully that it looked like he will never
wake up anytime soon. He looked so at peace. Banayad ang paghinga nya and his face
looked so relaxed.
My lips parted and I couldn't help but to stare at him. Even in his sleep, he
really looked so handsome that I couldn't take my eyes off him. I've never slept
with anyone so this is so new to me. I should wake him up and shove him out of my
room but I chose to just watch him sleeping peacefully beside me.
He had the comforter covered his body from his waist down. We were both naked
under the sheets 'cause we were so exhausted from yesterday's fuck that we didn't
have any strength to put our clothes on.
So I have the full view of his chiseled chest and arms. His muscles were in the
right places and I caught the sight of his abs down to his vline. And just by
looking at it could already make me feel so hot early in the morning.
Fuck it... Ibinalik ko na lang ang tingin ko sa mukha nya.
I don't know what to feel. This is the first time that I woke up with someone
else beside me on the same bed. I know what to do though. I should make him leave
the room immediately. Ganoon ang dapat na gawin ko sa lahat. But this is Loki. And
I don't know what's different with him that I couldn't make him leave and I just
wanna stare at his sleeping face all day!
God fucking damn it!
He looked so unguarded. I could quietly get off the bed and took any weapon to
kill him. I could use a knife and slash his throat. Or I could break his neck in
one swift move.
I should move my body and kill him. And show the EL Ordre how much of a Mad
Queen I am. But there must be something wrong with me 'cause I did nothing.
What in the damnation happened to me?
Maybe I was just tired to make any rash movements. Yeah... That's must be it. I
always make a plan before doing anything against the enemies. This isn't the right
time for that.
Then the timing had passed 'cause I saw Loki slowly opened his eyes. He looked
distorted for a while like he's trying to remember where he is. But then, his eyes
met mine and flashed me a breathtaking smile.
"Hey..." he greeted using his bedroom voice.
I groaned inwardly. His voice sounds so sexy that I felt it so unfair. How can
this man be so attractive from head to toe and inside and out?
I pulled myself together. Fuck it. I mustn't let my guard down just because we
slept together. I just didn't have any strength from last night to shoo him away
because I am so damn tired.
"What—" I choke on my words so I had to clear my throat. "What are you doing
here?"
He raised an eyebrow at me like I've asked a very obvious question.
"I slept here." he said as a matter of fact and I had to roll my eyes to show
him how much I am annoyed by his answer.
"Obviously." I said. "But why did you slept here? You have your own room."
Loki got up and sat on the bed. I caught my bed when I saw his broad back and
half of his butt. He had a flawless skin as well and I fought the urge to run my
hands and caress his skin.
"Too tired from last night to go to my room." he answered.
Nilingon nya ako and I caught my breath when his hand touched my face. He
caressed my cheeks in a most gentle way like he was touching the most valuable
glass.
"How are you feeling?" he asked. Even his voice sounds so gentle too.
I slapped his hand off my face and decided to get up. The comforter that's
covering my breast fell down but I didn't bother about it. I saw Loki eyed my body
before his eyes settled on my face.

"Can you walk?" he asked when I stood up. I glared at him

but he looked serious with his question.
"The fuck. Of course!" I hissed and walked towards the bathroom.
"Where are you going?"
Inis ko syang nilingon. "I'm gonna take a shower."
"Go down when you're ready."
I just looked at him and didn't say anything. Pumasok na ako sa banyo at
nagbabad sa ilalim ng shower to clear my head. I was caught off guard when I saw
him sleeping peacefully beside me earlier. I never thought that there would come a
day that we will actually sleep together when we're only fuck buddies.
I'm only using him 'cause he could chase my bad dreams away. He could calm the
chaos in my head whenever we fuck. And I think that's also the reason why I didn't
kill him earlier. I still need him 'cause the more we go near the endgame, the more
nightmares would visit me. The more chaos that I will experience inside my head.
And Loki is using me as well. Nobody could resist me asking them to fuck me.
And he's only a man. A man with sexual desires and needs.
 A man. My most hated creature in the entire universe.
I didn't expect that Loki is waiting for me when I got out of my room. He was
leaning casually on the wall beside the door while playing with his lips. He stood
straight and offered a hand to me that I ignored. I went down the stairs habang
nakasunod sya sa likuran ko.
It was like a replay from yesterday. The whole EL Ordre is here in the living
room again. even the ones that left to go to the Red Faction's hideout. Obviously,
nakabalik na sila. And much more obvious that they didn't got King Lancer.
Of course... I didn't choose him for nothing.
I sat down on the same spot and Loki stood beside me again. They all looked at
us and I noticed Archer was the only one who's smirking among them.
"Mukhang kinulang kayo pareho sa tulog, ah?" komento pa nya and I just rolled
my eyes. And while I did, I noticed Ishtar looking at me with jealousy in her eyes.
And I really like to annoy her so I smirked at her like I just won something that
she lose.
"So what is this about again?" I asked and looked at them one by one. Tracer
looked like hell at mukhang mas kinulang sya sa tulog compared sa amin ni Loki.
"They're not in the hideout." Aius said and I stared at him.
"This is a boring topic."
"Alter concluded that they are at someplace." Alter's man said. "At ginaya lang
nila ang ayos ng hideout to confuse us."
I smiled at them and held my chin up. "King Lancer is so smart, right? He can
fool you that easily."
"Where's the antidote?"
I rolled my eyes. I didn't bother knowing who the fuck asked that question
again. Paulit-ulit na kasi and I really wanna fucking kill anyone who will ask that
stupid question to me again!
"There's no antidote." I said, looking so bored.
"Sa tingin mo ba maniniwala kami sayo?" Ishtar asked and I groaned in
annoyance."You're lying."
I chuckled and leaned my back on the sofa. I looked at Archer who's obviously
studying my reaction.
He's a lawyer.
"What do you think, Attorney?" I asked and relaxed my face. "Am I lying or
not?"
I looked at him straight in the eye. I don't know if he could actually tell the
truth but I never removed the protective wall that I built around me. Bahala syang
mahirapan sa pagbabasa sa akin.
I raised an eyebrow when the man with amber eyes got up. He walked towards to
where I am and stopped in front of me. He put his hands on the armrest of the sofa
and crouched down para magpantay ang mga mukha namin. He was caging my body making
it sure that I would only look at him.
"What the fuck are you doing?" I hissed. I saw Loki shifted on his feet from
the corner of my eyes but I ignored him. Nagpapapansin na namin kasi ang lalaki sa
harapan ko.
He smirked, showing me his white perfect teeth. The light hit his eyes and I
saw the hint of red of its color making him looked so wicked. But I didn't back
down and even raised an eyebrow at him with a smirk on my lips. I saw amusement in
his eyes because of my boldness.
"I am Attorney Kylo Villaraza. A lawyer as well." he introduced himself. "And I
could tell if you're lying or not."
I smiled. "Let's try it then."
"Where is the antidote?"
I looked at him straight in the eye before I gave him my answer.
"I don't know 'cause there is no antidote."
Kylo raised an eyebrow at me and stared at my eyes. I stared back at him and
even leaned in that left a few inches space between us. But I felt Loki's hand on
my shoulders and pushed me back on the sofa until my back was leaning on the
backrest.
 The smirk on Kylo's face slowly disappeared after awhile of staring at me.
Mabilis syang lumayo at lumingon sa EL Ordre.
"She's telling the truth." he announced and that made everyone angry.
Sabay-sabay silang nagsalita, throwing words at me but I just relaxed myself on
my seat. I glanced up at Loki and found him already staring down at him so I gave
him a wink.
"Stop lying, you witch!" I heard Tracer shouted at me but I just raised an
eyebrow at him.
"He said that I'm not lying." sabi ko at itinuro si Kylo na bumalik na sa upuan
nya.
"Tracer, stop!" Archer shouted and tried to stop Tracer when he was about to
lunge at me like he's trying to kill me. Mabilis din namang pumunta sa harapan ko
si Loki making me feel like he's trying to protect me.
"Let go!" Tracer growled as he tried to break free from Archer's grip. Tumulong
na rin ang iba pero hindi pa rin sya kumakalma. "Tangina! Bitaw sabi!"
"Hunter!"
Everyone stopped when we heard a woman voice. We all looked at the door and
from there, I saw a woman march her way towards Tracer. Her blue eyes were
strikingly beautiful
"Fuck..." I heard Archer muttered. He looked like he's about to panic and I
noticed that some of them stood up from their seats when the woman came.
I think I have an idea who this woman is.
"Artemis..." Tracer mumbled and he immediately calmed down. I smirked.
So this is Tracer's weakness, huh?

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Chapter 37

Tracer's face paled suddenly when the woman came in.

Actually, it was not just his face. All of them looked so pale while looking at her
before they will glance at me. I could almost hear their thoughts.
I rolled my eyes. I know her even before. Alter already had her information and
we even used her to scare Tracer a little 'cause he's been into hiding back then.
So if I wanted to kill her, sana noon ko pa ginawa.
My God... Can't they use their brain to think of that and stopped looking me
like I will just attack her and kill her in front of them? She's not part of my
plan now.
If I have to kill somebody in this room, it will be the King. Then the man with
amber eyes for being an asshole and then Ishtar for being a spoiled bitch.
"What..." I saw Tracer gulped. "What are you doing here?"
"Why? Don't you want me here?" the woman glared at him and I like her already.
"My gosh, Hunter! Nabaril ka na lahat-lahat pero wala pa akong alam!"
"I didn't want to worry you."
"Damn you! So kailan mo balak sabihin sa akin? Kapag namatay ka na? Oh, wait!
The dead couldn't talk nga pala so it will be your fucker friends who will tell
that freaking news to me!"
Wow... Loki didn't give me a heads up that there will be a drama for today. I'm
not usually into this scene but I really admire the boldness of the woman with blue
eyes. I like her guts.
"Good thing that Fatima told me about it! 'Cause apparently, her husband is
telling her everything unlike you!"
Tracer frowned and looked at Archer. "You're telling her what's happening?
She's pregnant!"
Archer shrugged his shoulders. "I don't want to keep secrets from her. At mas
mag-aalala sya kapag hindi ako nagsasabi sa kanya."
I raised an eyebrow in amusement. Wow... Hindi ko inakala na may papatol talaga
sa kanya.
"See?!" sigaw pa nung babae at hinampas si Tracer. He winced when she hit his
wound but the woman just glared at him. "What? Masakit? Masakit?! Damn you, Hunter!
Sa iba ko pa ba kailangang marinig kung anong nangyayari sayo?!"
"I'm sorry..." Tracer softly said when his wife cried as he pulled her for a
hug. "Where are the twins?"
"With Mom and Dad." she sobbed.
I rolled my eyes in annoyance. It was an interesting scene before she started
crying dramatically. I was enjoying their show and even admire her but I guess that
she's just a woman who can be dramatic and it always annoys me.
Fuck... Women are so weak against men.
I decided to stood up and went to my room. Sinundan lang ako ni Loki ng tingin
at hindi nagsalita. Maybe he already knows that I am getting annoyed with what's
happening. And now that we got interrupted by someone, probably our talk ended as
well.
I sat on the sofa inside my room and made myself comfortable. I just thought of
something. The EL Ordre's members are still complete and nobody from them has died.
While us the Red Faction, there were only four of us left since Alter choose to
side with the enemy.
I think I'll just make them recruit people that we could use as Pawns. Maybe
Black's goons that got escape from the last mission.
If my plan didn't succeed, there will be no way for us to win this game. Buti
na lang at matalino ako kaya naisip ko ang ganitong plano. To make their Rook as
our King Lancer since they can't hurt him.
Loki just brought me food when the lunch came. He even ate with me to which
made my eyebrow raised but I didn't say anything.
He's been acting so different these past few days compared from the first time
that I saw him. He has this... ridiculous gentleness aura that surrounds him
everytime he's with me. And I also noticed his gesture earlier like he was trying
to protect me from Tracer.

Something is changing. I don't if it's him or... me.

I got disturbed when I heard a knock on the door. It's been so long since I've
heard that. Wala na kasing pumapasok sa kwarto ko except for Loki so I'm sure that
it is not him. And when the door opened slightly, I realized that I was right.
"Uhm... Hi?" the woman with blue eyes greeted me reluctantly. Nakasilip lang
ang ulo nya mula sa pinto at parang ayaw pumasok sa loob.
I stood up and walked towards the door. I noticed Loki behind her who didn't
say anything. Kung sino ang binabantayan nya, I have no idea.
"I just want to ask for your help if it's okay?"
"It's not." I quickly answered and I saw her smile faltered.
I glanced at Loki who's behind her but he just nodded at me, encouraging me to
say yes. I rolled my eyes. Since I am so bored and I like this woman, I just found
myself following her to the kitchen.
"Thank you for saying yes!" she said as she puts on an apron. "I want to try
doing this with someone kasi." she took another apron.
I took a step back when she was about to put it on me. Natigil ang kamay nya sa
ere at ako naman ay nakatingin lang sa kanya. I was frowning while looking at the
disgusting apron. It pink for fucks sake!
"What the fuck are you doing?" I asked like she was about to do something
horrible.
"I'm putting an apron on you." she said as a matter of fact.
"I can see that. But why?"
"So your clothes won't get dirty? We're going bake, eh."
"I don't know how to cook!" my ridiculous reason na ang dapat ay na ako at
bumalik sa room ko.
She gave me an encouraging smile and took a step towards me to put the apron on
me. We're about the same height so she didn't have a hard time doing that.
Pinatalikod nya ako para ibuhol ang tali sa likuran ko.
"We're just going to bake. It's easier than cooking. I want to bake meryenda
for the EL Ordre." she tied my hair on a bun. "I'll teach you naman."
She got everything we need and after a while, the whole countertop was filled
with ingredients and materials that we're gonna use. I was even holding a mixing
bowl and did what she instructed like the right measurements of flour, water and
flavors that we used.
What the fuck am I doing anyway?
"You know, hindi rin ako marunong magluto before." she started telling me while
mixing the ingredients in the bowl. "I don't even do chores. I was the Gallagher
princess. But I decided that I should learn to be a good housewife for Hunter."
I tried to mimicked the way how she mixed the ingredients. I was very careful
since she said that one mistake could change the taste of the muffins.
I didn't know that it's hard to bake.
"I want to be the one who will take care of him since he's been through a lot.
I want him to relax everytime he gets home."
Napatigil ako sa paghahalo. Ah, fuck it. How could I forget? She's Tracer's
wife! And I'm sure that she has an idea about the game and what's happening lately!
Fuck... Maybe it was a disguise that she asked me to help her bake. But her
real intention is to talk to me or maybe to slap my face!
Damn! Ilang asawa pa ba ang magpapakita sa akin at ilang sampal pa ang
matatanggap ko? Why did I even agreed on helping her?
Maybe... It was the look in her eyes. She's looking at me in a different way
compared on how the EL Ordre looked at me. It was almost the same with Loki...
Almost. Since there's that unnamed emotion in Loki's eyes when he's looking at me.
"Aren't you mad at me?" I asked.
"I am." She didn't even glance at me when she answered. "I am so mad at you."
"Then why are you so calm?" You're supposed to be screaming at me. You're
supposed to be slapping me. I don't know... punching me, pulling my hair and
cursing me to death!"
She turned off the hand mixer and looked at me. "Should I then?"
She continued mixing the ingredients and that's what I did as well. But I was
still confused by her reaction. Ibang-ibang kasi iyon sa ipinakita sa akin nina
Ishtar at V. She's so... calm.
She's Tracer's wife, right? I'm sure that she's hurting while watching her
husband like he will break down anytime soon.
"That was my plan." she said. The hand mixer was creating so much noise but for
some reason, I could still hear her.
"Then why didn't you?"
She turned off the mixer and so I did. She took the muffin pan and started
transferring the mixture there. I was just copying what's she's doing since I
really don't have any idea about this.
"The look in your eyes were too familiar." sabi nya habang naglalagay ng
mixture sa pan.
I raised my eyebrow and didn't say anything. I don't know why I want to hear
her answer. Maybe because she was the only one who didn't hurt me even when she
admitted that she's mad at me.
"Someone said to me that there's always three sides to a story." she said after
awhile.
Three? That's a new version. I thought there's only two.
She looked at me and smiled. "Yours, theirs, and the truth. It was Fatima who
said that to me."
"Archer's wife."
She nodded even if I'm not asking for an answer.
"When I saw your eyes, I decided that I don't want to judge you rashly. I want
to hear your story first before I'll do that."
I chuckled with emptiness. Wow... I think Loki hinted that to me too. They
wanted to understand me so they're treating me this way, huh?
 That's impossible though. They can't. It's hard for me to understand myself.
It's hard for to tell anyone what my reasons are. It's hard for me to look back to
what I've gone through and tell anyone about it.
They can't and won't understand me.
"By the way... Do you know who said those words to Fatima?" she asked. "It was
Gray."
That put a smirk on my lips. I just keep silent and tried to look at her in the
eye. I could tell that she's having a hard time looking at me so she's just kept
herself busy by baking the muffin. I bet that she didn't even want to bake for
today though.
"And so?" I asked. She looked at me and smiled.
She was smiling but I could tell that she can be savage if she wanted to.
"When I've discovered about this world of Hunter... I have learned so much. I
was a brat since I am the only girl of the Gallagher siblings. Both of my brothers
protected me and that made me so selfish. I was always thinking of myself and only
cared about my feelings. Wala akong pakialam sa iba. A typical brat, diba?"
She urged me to continue transferring the mixture on the pan. I rolled my eyes.
She's still a brat though. I don't want a simple girl like her ordering me around.
"Then Hunter told me everything. About the game, about the pieces, about his
past... Everything. And that's when I realized that the world doesn't revolve
around me." she sighed. "My ex-boyfriend cheated on me when he didn't even give any
effort in our relationship. He hurt me so much that I got mad at him. But I heard
his reasons. It was ridiculous for me but still, he had his reasons as to why he
didn't put so much effort to us. Kaya na-realized ko na... maybe, you have your own
reasons as well as to why you're doing this."
We both finished transferring the mixture and the muffins were now ready to
bake. Artemis turned on the oven and put the pan inside before she stood beside me.
We were both leaning our back on the counter top while looking at the oven.
"I'm not saying that what you did is right just because you have your reasons.
I'm just saying that it's not right to judge you when I don't know anything about
your story." she looked at me and smiled.
It was a sad smiled.
"And you reminded me so much of my bestfriend. Your eyes reminded me of
Daphne... Hurt and broken."

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Chapter 38

Daphne... There's that name again. I've forgotten about it

since I've been thinking about King Lancer these past couple of days. But now that
Artemis had mentioned it, I was reminded of the day when I first heard it.
It was when Loki was talking with Ishtar. He asked about Daphne to her with a
tone in his voice that I've never heard him use before. So that gave me an idea
that she's important to him. It was confirmed when Ishtar said that Loki should
started move on.
Daphne... She is Loki's weakness...
"Your bestfriend?" I asked, not making it obvious that I'm really, really
interested of knowing everything about that girl.
Artemis nodded. "That look in your eyes, she also had that before. I thought
that it was just her normal look. It was already too late when I've discovered the
truth. That she's depressed. She's in pain. She's broken inside. And she was just
trying to hide it."
"And you think that I am depressed, I am in pain and I am broken inside just
because we had the same look in our eyes?"
She stared at me. Her blue eyes were twinkling with the light from the kitchen.
It just made her so beautiful... And alive. So opposite of me.
 I could see that she has already experienced being happy like she's on a cloud
nine. Her eyes show it all. Those orbs are so beautiful that it could captivate
anyone. And maybe that's why Tracer is still sane despite of what's happening with
his brother. 'Cause he has Artemis. One look in her eyes could make him feel okay.
She's his string of hope. Kaya naman halos mabaliw na sya noon nang pati ang
babaeng 'to ay ginamit namin laban sa kanya.
"Yes." she answered. "Kaya instead of slapping and hurting you the moment I saw
you, I stopped myself. I want to know your story. Isang bagay na hindi ko nagawa
para sa bestfriend ko."
"It would be better if you just hurt me though." I looked at her and smirk.
"'Cause you are definitely wrong. There's nothing wrong with me. I just want to win
this game that's why I did all of those things. That's all."
She didn't say anything and just keep on staring at me. She had this ook in her
eyes like she's pitying me. And I had to stop myself from pulling her hair and
slapping her. She didn't even hurt me. Yet.
But I really, really hate if anyone feel pity towards me.
I wanted to look strong. I've tried so hard to look strong so they wouldn't
look down on me. So they would fear me. So my enemies will think that I'm not an
easy foe. And I've succeeded. Not until this woman beside me set her eyes on me.
Wala pang isang oras kaming magkausap but it feels like she could see right
through me. But I will never let her think that she's right. She's Tracer's wife.
And she might be doing this to know my weakness. She's still on the side of EL
Ordre.
Inside this house, no... In my whole life, the only one that I could trust is
myself. 'Cause everyone has an evil side within them. And one day, there will come
a time that they will unleash that evilness inside them.
"Ganyan din si Daphne noon." she said and I rolled my eyes. I didn't bother
hiding my annoyance at her. "She's always telling me that she's okay. Pero hindi
pala."
"I am not her." I said.
"I know..." she said. "Magkaiba kayo. Daphne hid her pain by hurting herself.
And you, you're hiding your pain by hurting everyone around you."
I laughed with emptiness. She said it like she's really sure that I am
depressed. That I am like her bestfriend. I don't know what the hell Daphne had
gone through but I'm certain that were not alike. And Artemis saying that Daphne
and I are the same were like an insult for me.

She must not have compared me with that woman. I am not

like her. We're different. And I hate the fact that because of Daphne, she is
treating me this way.
"I am so mad at you because of what you did." she continued. "You killed
Hunter's parents."
I rolled my eyes. It was Dyke who killed them. And Sieg. Not me.
"You killed Fatima's parents."
I scoffed. Fuck it. It wasn't me! It was Black! And it's their fault 'cause
after Black helped them and got the money, basta na lang sila titiwalag sa grupo
nya! Walang utang na loob!
"You tried to kill me by hacking the plane."
I laughed. It was Alter not me.
I smirked at her. "You don't know anything."
Fuck it! I was only sitting on my throne, making plans for the Red Faction to
win the game! Pero ang mga makukulit kong pieces na walang ibang ginawa kundi
pasakitin ang ulo ko ay palpak magplano! And now I'm getting the blame because of
their stupidity!
Kasalanan ko bang bobo sila?
Pero hindi nya ako pinansin at nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita. "And you did that to
Gray..."
 Ah... That's the only thing that I'm guilty about. Of course. I need him to win
this game. I need him to end the game. I need him so father will finally be proud
of me.
"I really wanted to hurt you." Artemis said. "But the look in your eyes stopped
me."
"'Cause you remembered your bestfriend." I finished her sentence. "You know.
I'm getting curious about that Daphne. She must've been so special that it made you
stopped from hurting me."
"She is. She's wonderful..."
I smiled at her sweetly. "It makes me wanna meet her soon."
I wonder what will Loki do if Daphne and I meet? She's important to Loki too.
And it makes me think that the reason why he's been gentle towards me lately is
because of her.
Because we have the same look in our eyes. Hurt and broken...
"Leave Daphne alone."
Pareho kaming napalingon ni Artemis sa entrance ng kusina. We saw Ishtar, the
spoiled bitch glaring at me while she walked her way towards us. I chuckled when
she stood in front of me.
"What? Mandadamay ka na naman ng inosente?" mataray na sabi nya.
But I keep my sweet smile plastered on my face as I eyed her from head to toe.
I fucking hate her so much... And I know that the feeling is mutual 'cause her
glares could almost spit daggers.
I crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow at her.
"Are you getting tired of hiding behind the shadows of your chess pieces kaya
nakikisali ka sa usapan ng may usapan?"
"Huwag mong idamay si Daphne, Eresh!" she said and looked at Artemis beside me.
"Artemis, don't talk to her. She's crazy! Baka hindi mo alam nagpaplano na pala
syang patayin ka!"
"It's okay..." Artemis said. "I'm having fun talking to her, actually. Don't
worry about me."
I laughed so loud that made them looked at me. This is ridiculous! This is the
first time that someone said that to me!
Oh no... Mali sya ng kinausap. My meaning of fun is far different from hers.
Does she think that by doing this, I'll end up telling everything to her?
No. No one has ever broke down the wall that I've built to protect myself. To
show everyone that I'm strong.
"If you involved Daphne in this..." Ishtar said. "I swear, I will do everything
to stop you!"

I smirked at her. I crossed my arms over my chest to

intimidate her. Wow... She had the guts to threaten me when all she did is to enjoy
her normal life.
"D'yah think I cah?" I said, imitating Loki's accent.
I laughed when they both look at me like I've grown a third eye on my forehead.
My God! This is so fun!
"My bad..." I said and smiled apologetically at Ishtar. "Loki and I spent the
days together these past few months. Medyo nahahawa na rin ako sa accent nya, you
know."
I let out a smirk to inspite her and I saw how her face reddened because of
anger and embarrassment. I knew that she has an idea on what Loki and I have been
doing when he's inside my room. Everyone knows that. Everyone knows that we're
fucking each other.
Ishtar regained her poise, making it look like she wasn't affected but her eyes
said otherwise. She's jealous... envious at me but the fuck I care. That's the
reaction that I want from her anyway.
Ishtar... How does it feel now that you've realized  that you can't have
everything? Even the one that you like the most.
 "I'm warning you, Eresh." she said after awhile. "Huwag mong idadamay si Daphne
dito."
That was her last words before she stormed out of the kitchen. I just shrugged
my shoulders. Napakaarte. A typical bitch.
I watched Artemis as she got out the pan from the oven. Tinignan ko ang gawa ko
at ang kanya. It looks... Normal. I didn't know that I have a talent in baking
other getting on the EL Ordre's nerves.
"Palamigin muna natin." Artemis said.
I stared at her while she's placing the pan on the countertop. She looked like
a typical housewife with her apron on and a pot holder gloves on her hands. Her
hair is in a bun like mine and I wonder how do I look since I have an apron as
well.
I have a feeling that I looked like a tamed tiger right now. If my enemies will
see me, they will also think that I'm just a regular housewife.
So I took of my apron since we're done baking. Artemis didn't stop me anyway.
"Ishtar..." she said while staring at the muffins. "I heard that she's your
sister?"
"Half-sister." I corrected her. "We have the same father.
"But you're both Queens. Your mother?"
I nodded. "Her mother was the Queen of EL Ordre. While mine's the Queen of Red
Faction."
"But your father's also the King of Red Faction, right?" she asked, confused.
"Kung naging lalaki ka pala, you'll be the King of Red Faction in this game."
I didn't say anything. I didn't correct her nor deny her assumptions. I wonder
where she heard that information?
She took one muffin from my pan. She took a bite and I waited for her till she
gulped it down. I smirked and took a muffin from my pan as well.
"It's good!" she said and took a bite again. "It's a bit dry. Maybe you stirred
the ingredients a little too much but for a first timer, it's good!"
Inubos nya ang isang muffin na gawa ko. I didn't say anything and stared at the
muffin in my hand. Itinapat ko pa iyon sa mukha ko para matignan ng mabuti.
I looked at Artemis who took a muffin from her pan this time before she looked
back at me. She smiled but I gave her a smirk that is full of mischief.
"Do you realized that you ate the one that I made without a second thought?" I
asked. "Without thinking if I've put a poison in it?"
Her eyes widened and her face paled. I smirked at her reaction. I noticed that
she's panicking now. Malikot ang paggalaw ng mga mata nya at hindi alam kung
isusuka ang kinain nya o hindi. I chuckled.
"Kidding." I said and started to eat the muffin that I made.
That calmed her down as she sighed with relief. She laughed. Sinimulan nyang
kainin ang ginawa nya.
"Artemis."
Muli kaming napalingon sa entrance ng kitchen when we heard that manly voice.
We saw Tracer who looked at me like he's about to kill me but I just raised an
eyebrow at him. Not feeling a little scared now that he's here.
He looked at his wife and I saw how his gaze turned from being murderous to
being gentle. Lumapit sya sa asawa nya and held her waist.
"Hunter! You won't believe it. Eresh and I made these muffins!" Artemis said
and showed him the muffins like she's proud.
I rolled my eyes and took a step towards the exit of the kitchen. I'm done
here. Tapos ko na syang tulungan so I can finally have my peace again.
"Eresh!" Artemis called so casually like we've been friends for so long. "Saan
ka pupunta?"
"To my room." I said without looking at her.
"What about the muffins that you've made?"
I turned around to look at her. Nasalubong ko ang tingin ni Tracer and I saw
noticed his stance like he's protecting his wife from me. I smirked and looked at
Artemis.
"I've put a poison in it so make sure that all of the EL Ordre's members will
eat it."
Artemis was about to say something but I turned my back and ascended the
stairs. I know that she won't believe what I've said because we just ate the
muffins that I've made and we're both still alive.
I smirked. Or she could just throw my muffins into the trash. I don't care
about those anyway.

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Chapter 39

Artemis spend two days at the hideout and that whole time,
I was just inside my room. I don't want to go out thinking that she might ask for
my help again about baking or worse, doing the laundry.
Loki said that Artemis wanted to go inside my room and talk to me again. I'm
aware of that since she has been knocking on my room's door from time to time,
calling my name but I ignored her. I told Loki as well not to let her in.
That one time is enough. I would never let anyone speak or treat me in that way
again. They might think that I am soft. They might think that I am weak. So no. It
won't happen again.
Proof is that Artemis seems to think that we are now close with just that one
hour encounter of us. She never gave up having the chance of talking with me again.
Good thing that she needs to go home tonight because of her twins.
Just what the fuck. That one hour encounter is enough for her to be clingy.
"She left."
I can't help but to heave a sigh of relief when Loki announced that as he
entered my room. He closed the door behind him and sat on the sofa across mine.
"She looked dejected when she found out that you have no plans on saying
goodbye."
I raised an eyebrow at him. "Why would I? Goodbyes are for those people who
have memories together. She's not even my friend."
"Goodbyes are not only for friends." Loki countered. "And you've created
memories with her, as far as I know, with that baking lesson."
"That's not counted." I just said and I heard him chuckled.
I rolled my eyes and leaned my back on the sofa. There's Loki too who has been
hanging out inside my room lately. I thought that it's because of Artemis but I
never see any reason for him to stay inside my room just because of her. Also now
that she's gone, he's here inside my room again looking like he will not leave
anytime soon.
Then there's the meal time. He's always eating with me since then. I didn't say
anything though since I'm used with his presence anyway and he's not really
bothering me.
"I didn't know that you have a talent in baking." he said after awhile.
Napatingin tuloy ako sa kanya.
"The muffins were good."
I stopped my lips from parting because of the shock that I felt. Ngayon nya
lang nabanggit sa akin 'to so I never had any idea that he ate the muffins that
I've made.
I expected that no one will eat it and it was thrown in the trash since I've
made it. Especially I said that I've put a poison in it. But Loki's saying that my
muffins were good just means that he actually ate it.
"It's not perfect but it's good. And I'm sure that you can still improve your
baking skills."
"There will be no next time." I said, recovering from my shock.
Loki just shrugged his shoulders. "That's sad to hear. I want to watch you
baking this time."
He leaned on the coffee table between us and reached for my hair. He stared at
me using his brooding eyes and I didn't look away. I could see emotions in his eyes
as he smiled at me.
"You look cute with your hair in a bun." He said and played with the curls at
the end of my hair. "But I like it better when it's loose."
I slowly took a deep breath to stop myself from getting affected with his
words. 'Cause he just made me remember something from my childhood. Back when I was
still trying to look like a man.

I even cut my hair short and started to dress like a boy

when I was still young. I even attented some party that my father got invited while
dressed in a tux and my short hair in a brush up style. But I could still see the
the disgust look in my father's face. He didn't even introduced me as his child to
his friends.
And worse, Ishtar was there at the party. And she saw me in that state.
Since then, I realized that my father will still saw me as a woman. At
pinanindigan ko iyon. Kaya hindi ko na pinaputulan uli ang buhok ko. I always let
my hair long. I never tied it in a bun nor in a ponytail. I want to feel that I'm
sa woman with my hair softly brushing arms down to my elbow.
And Loki telling me that he like my hair loose instead of a bun that will make
it look short triggered those memories.
"Why are you here again?" I asked to divert my attention away from the memories
inside my head.
"Just because." he said and shrugged his shoulders. Bumalik sya sa pagkakaupo
sa sofa. "I have to stay close with you until you tell me where the antidote is."
Ah... It's all about that stupid antidote again.
I chuckled. "Might as well stay with me forever. There is no antidote, Your
Majesty."
"I'll stay with you forever then."
I just rolled my eyes and didn't say anything. We stayed in silence for about a
minute. I could feel his brooding gaze on me. He was leaning his back on the sofa
while his elbow was on the armrest and he's playing with his lips. The light inside
my room was dim since I was preparing to go to bed when he came in. The dim light
make him look so dominant.
"How can you make Shielder hate us?" he asked after awhile.
I raised an eyebrow at him. "Tell me first who Daphne is."
Napansin kong napatigil ang mga daliri nyang naglalaro sa mga labi nya. He
looked taken aback with my question but he quickly regained his composure. He
heaved a deep sigh and stared at me.
"She's... Artemis' bestfriend."
"And Aaliyah's friend." I added. "Who is she to you though? That's what I
wanted to hear."
"She's someone important to me." diretso nyang sagot na parang hindi pa pinag-
isipan.
Natigilan ako pero hindi ko pinahalata. "Is that why you've begun treating me
differently? 'Cause you saw her in me as well?"
"What?"
"Artemis said that we have the same look in our eyes. That she could see her
bestfriend in me." I crossed my arms over my chest. "Ganoon ka rin ba?"
He chuckled and shook his head like I said some ridiculous thing. He stood up
and my eyes followed him when he sat at the end of the bed. Our eyes met and
there's that mischievous glint in his eyes again.
"No... That's not it. You two are so different that I can't even see any
similarities." he smiled. "Daphne is important to me."
I pursed my lips. Ah... I get it. Daphne is way too important to him that he
can't even compare me 'cause I'm nothing to him. He said it before. That I am not
important to him.
I smirked. "I'm glad to know your weakness."
 "Who said that she's my weakness?"
I just raised an eyebrow at him. Of course he will deny it. Takot nya na lang
na baka gamitin ko din ang babaeng iyon laban sa kanya.
That gave me an idea. What if I do that then? How will he react?
I really, really wanna meet that girl.
"Pack up." he said. "We're going back to my penthouse tomorrow."
I frowned. "Why?"
"Shielder wants to take you back. But I won't hand you to him without knowing
where the antidote is."
"Fuck it. Here we go again..."
He chuckled when I rolled my eyes. "I promise that I will give you to him once
we have the antidote. This game started with countless of cheating. So we want to
end this in a fair way."
I groaned frustratedly and stood up. I went to bed and laid down. Loki tucked
me in despite me glaring at him and stopping him. But he still win the end.
"Maaga tayong aalis bukas so you need to sleep."
That was one of the rare times that he spoke in Tagalog in front of me. And
everytime he's doing it, I can't help but to get more and more attracted to him.
Fuck... Walang katapusang atraksyon.
"You know, I like your British accent." I said and smiled at him seductively.
"But you sounds so hot when you're speaking in Tagalog."
"I do?"
I bit my lower lip and I saw his eyes went down and stared at it.
"Yes... Why don't start speaking in Tagalog around me? Who knows? I might tell
you something about the antidote when I got horny."
He laughed so hard that I just stared at him and admired him. His Adam's apple
was moving when he did that and fuck it 'cause it made him looked sexier! With the
dim light in my room, this scene is so dangerous.
Loki looked down at me and smirked. "Sabihin mo sa akin kung nasaan ang
antidote."
I smiled at him sweetly and reached for his face to tap his cheeks lightly.
"Nice try, my King."
Tinalikuran ko na sya and I prepared myself to sleep. I felt the mattress sunk
indicating that he laid down beside me but I didn't open my eyes and just let him
be.
I heard him sighed.
"Goodnight, my Queen."

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Chapter 40

Damn it!
I groaned when I felt the pain on my tummy just below my navel. It fucking
hurts that my back ache as well. I decided to take a pain reliever 'cause I know
that the pain will not go away by just groaning and staying on the bed.
It sucks to be a woman.
I took a bath and cursed when I found out that there's only one pack of tampons
left in my drawer. This won't do! It's not enough! My period lasts for seven days
and this fucking one pack of tampons isn't enough for me!
Damn it! This is one of the times when I really, really hate being a woman!
I stormed out of my room and knocked at the door where Loki's room is. It's
been days since we got back here in his penthouse. I kinda like it here compared to
the EL Ordre's hideout since I don't have to stay all day inside my room to avoid
the members.
Loki never imprisoned me inside my room here in his penthouse even back then.
Although he told me not to leave the penthouse, at least I could walk around here,
swim in the pool, and watch TV and movies. And it also has a nice view of skyline.
Sa hideout kasi ay walang kahit anong mapaglilibangan sa kwarto ko. So whenever
Loki will enter my room there, we always ended up having our own fun time together.
"Loki!" I even called him while knocking at his door desperately.
He finally opened his door and I was welcomed with the sexiest man that I've
seen in my entire life. It was obvious that he just got out of the bath with the
towel wrapped around his waist. I could see the droplets of water in his bare chest
as he wiped his hair with another towel. His damp disheveled hair make him looked
so hot than ever.
I shamelessly stared at his ripped body. Damn it. I will never get tired
looking at his body like this. His abs and vline was enough to make me feel hot so
early in the morning.
Damn this hormones. It got worse since I'm on my period.
"Eresh?"
Loki called my name 'cause I've been eyeing his body for too long. I've seen
him naked for so many times already but I've never seen him in this state! Fresh
from the bath that the water was still dripping from his hair down to his chiseled
chest!
He's still wiping his hair and I groaned when I got the view of his arms. Fuck
it.
"I need money." I said while my eyes were still staring at his body.
Fuck this fucking shit! Eyes on his face!
"What for?" I heard him asked.
I looked at him and I saw him looking at me with a frown on his face. I'm sure
that he saw me eye-raping his body earlier but it's a good thing that he didn't say
anything. Maybe he knows that I'm not here for his body and I just got distracted.
Wow. What a gentleman... but very wild in bed.
"I'm gonna buy something." I said, trying so hard not to look down at his abs
and vline again.
"Hindi ka pwedeng lumabas dito. Tell me what you have to buy. Ako na ang
bibili." he said and went inside his room to get dressed.
That's one of the things that changed when we got to his penthouse. We started
speaking in Tagalog! Not straight Tagalog though but unlike before, he's using that
language more often now!
Just fuck! He really sounds so hot while talking in Tagalog!
I didn't go inside his room even if I wanted to watch him getting dressed. I
have to remind myself that I'm on my period and I don't want a messy sex. It's just
so gross.

May susunod na araw pa naman. And I swear to God, after

this one week of torture, I'm gonna raid his room and watch him get dress every
fucking day and ask him to fuck me every fucking night.
Lumabas na ulit si Loki na nakadamit na. He's wearing a black button down shirt
tucked in his maong pants. At mas naging delikado pa yata sa akin ngayong nakadamit
na sya 'cause he looked ten times hotter now!
"Anong bibilhin ko?" tanong nya habang tinutupi hanggang siko ang sleeves ng
shirt nya.
And that's when I remembered why I am here. Damn it. I'm asking money so I will
buy my own tampons! There is no fucking way that I'll tell that embarrassing truth
to him!
"Ako na ang bibili. I'm not going to escape."
As expected, hindi sya pumayag. "No. Ako ang bibili. Dito ka lang."
I heaved a deep sigh to stop my irritation. Mas mainit ang ulo ko ngayong may
period ako. And I really, really hate it when someone's oppose me especially with
the state that I'm in!
"I'll buy it, Loki. Hindi mo magugustuhan ang bibilhin ko."
He frowned. "What? Are you going to buy a gun?"
 "What?"
"Or any device so you can call your King Lancer?" sabi nyang gumagalaw ang
panga dahil sa galit.
"What the fuck are you talking about?" I asked with a gritted teeth. I am
trying so hard not to lash out on him but he's impossible.
"I'm telling you, Eresh." he hissed. His eyes were shouting danger and that's
it! "You're going to stay with me—"
"I need to buy tampons!" I screamed on the top of my lungs 'cause I don't wanna
fucking repeat it! Nakakahiya!
That stopped him from talking as he blinked numerous times. He's looking at me
like he didn't hear what I said kahit sinigaw ko na iyon.
"What?" he dared ask. I rolled my eyes.
"Tampons, Loki. I'm on my period! Damn it."
He nodded absentmindedly. "Get dressed."
I frowned. Naintindihan nya ba ang sinabi ko?
Loki looked at me and blushed. "I... I'll go with you. I don't even know what
tampon is."
"Don't blush!" nanggigigil kong sabi. "This is much more awkward for me! Damn
you!"
"Alright..." he said softly. "Hihintayin kita sa baba."
He went down and when he finally out of my sight. I groaned. Fuck it! This
thing is normal for women but what happened was just so embarrassing! Tatanong-
tanong pa kasi hindi naman alam! Ayaw na lang magbigay ng pera!
I got dressed, the only dress that's here inside the closet. It's a maroon lace
type dress that has a three-fourth sleeves. The end of the skirt just reached my
knee. It is much more better that the jeans and trash clothes that's in here.
Loki drove our way to the mall. It surprised me but I didn't say anything. I
thought that we're just going to buy my tampons but maybe he has some errands to do
as well.
I was just looking outside the window of the car. Tahimik sa loob ng kotse.
Loki didn't even bother turning on the stereo and I swear, I almost hear some
crickets because of the silence.
When we left the EL Ordre's hideout, Loki made me take some sleeping pills and
I figured that it was like the first time. He didn't want me to know where his
penthouse is but now... I am concious kaya nalaman ko kung nasaan ang penthouse nya
What changed?
We went to the supermarket first and I just raised my eyebrows when Loki took a
pushcart. I was just silently walking beside him when he looked at me.
"Lead the way." he said.
So I lead the way till we reached the sanitary section. I took three packs of
tampons with my brand but I was so shocked when Loki took all the displays of that
tampons and put it in the cart. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang ginagawa nya
'yon and he looked so serious.
He looked so hot even with tampons in his hands!
"The fuck are you doing?" I asked. May isang napadaan sa aisle kung nasaan kami
and the woman looked at us quizzically.
"Buying your tampons or whatever this is."
I gaped at him. "One year supply na 'tong binili mo! I ain't gonna stay for
that long!"
He stopped and frowned at me. "What? I thought I told you that I'll stay with
you forever?"
I groaned. Damn this British man! Hinayaan ko na lang sya sa gusto nya tutal
sya naman ang magbabayad. And to my horror, that's the only thing that we bought in
the supermarket!
"Why do we have to go to the mall when it was only my tampons that we're gonna
buy?" I whispered at him with my greeted teeth 'cause the grocery boy helped him
put the three bags full of tampons in the backseat.
"Who said that this is the only thing that we'll buy?" he asked as he closed
the door. He smirked at me. "I'll pamper you today, my Queen."
 "What?" I asked. My lips parted while asking him to repeat the words he just
said.
"Buy anything you want. Especially those that you really need."
I just stared at him, trying to digest what he really mean.
He leaned towards me until I was able to smell him. I felt him kissed my cheek
before he whispered to my ears.
"Buy everything you need and make sure that you wouldn't run out of supply. So
you can stay with me forever."

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Chapter 41

We went inside the main mall and my eyes almost glitter

with delight when I saw my favorite stores. It's been so long since I visited them
and did shopping because of this stupid bloody human chess game!
I felt excitement as I stared at these entrances to heaven for me but hell for
Loki. They are already waiting for me to go inside and I'm just being a good
citizen so I walked towards the first store that I wanted to visit.
I was welcomed with the saleslady who's dressed in a black coat, white inner
and a black slacks with black heels. Ah... I miss this feeling. The feeling of
people bowing down to me.
That's right, peasant. Bow down. Your Queen is here.
This is my most favorite designer store since they sell dresses that suits my
taste. I like their designs and whoever the fashion designer is will receive a big
clap from me.
I know how to appreciate good work.
Since Loki said to buy everything, I will literally buy everything that I want.
Gusto kong palitan ang lahat ng mga basura na nasa loob ng walk-in closet ko in his
penthouse. They were all trash. Those jeans and blouse looked disgusting.
I am disgusted with myself so I need clothes that will make me feel confident.
I took one dress from the display. It was a fitted black longsleeve dress with
huge holes on the sides and I'm sure my bare waist and side boobs will get exposed
in this. It also has a slit on the skirt. It looked decent but daring at the same
time. So perfect for me.
I looked at Loki with a smile on my face. Itinapat ko ang damit sa katawan ko
and showed it to him.
"What do you think?" I asked. The saleslady were just on the side, watching us.
"Looks good." he said but he was looking at my face. I rolled my eyes.
"The dress, Loki. I'm asking about the dress."
That's the only time he looked down at the dress and stared at it. The
saleslady chuckled softly but I didn't mind her.
"Looks good." he said again like he didn't give much thought about it. I rolled
my eyes heavenwards and turned to look at the saleslady.
"I'll get this." I said. I handed her the dress but I'm not finished yet. "And
this." sabi kong basta na lang kumuha ng dress. I like all the dresses in this
store anyway.
Loki didn't say anything as I walked around. He just quietly followed me and
I'm sure like any other men, he will get bored soon.
"And this. This... Also this." I said, randomly pointing to the dresses that I
walked past through. "I'll get this as well."
Kinukuha naman ng saleslady ang lahat ng tinuturo ko. I stopped and looked at
Loki who's casually following me with his hands inside the pockets of his pants. He
looked so handsome that all the women here inside the store were gaping at him.
I smiled at him.
"From here..." I said as I pointed at the first dress on the rack without
taking my eyes off him. "Up to there." I said and pointed at the last dress. "I'll
get those."
I saw Loki frowned as he eyed all the dresses that I pointed including those on
the hands of the saleslady. He looked back at me as he opened the second button of
his shirt. I noticed that he's wearing his crown necklace today.
"Do you truly need all of that?" he asked. I smiled sweetly at him.
"Yes, my King. I need these if I'm going to stay with you forever."
His lips slowly formed into a smirk before he took a step close to me and put
an arm around my waist in a possessive way. It surprised me so I looked at him but
his attention was on the saleslady.

"You heard my woman." he said and I felt him lightly

squeezed my waist. "We'll get that."
"My woman, huh?" I asked him when the saleslady was out of sight. "I didn't
know that I am yours, Your Majesty."
He smirked at me. That one smirk that is full of mischief.
"You are my Queen, Eresh. You are mine as I am yours."
I felt my heart skipped a beat by his words. It's a good thing that he lead me
to the counter for us to pay so I didn't get too stunned with what he had said.
I don't know what he meant by that. Does it mean that he is my man as well?
That I have a claim on him? But when did our relationship become this way?
Damn it. I'm having a hard time breathing so I didn't say anything as I quietly
walked beside him when we got out of the store.
Loki was already holding two bags on each hand but my attraction to him didn't
lessen. Why does he still looked so hot and delectable in my eyes even with those
shopping bags?
I went to the jewelry store to distract myself. He's so gentle towards me now!
Naninibago talaga ako!
"Can I try those?" sabi kong hindi man lang tinitignan ang tinuro ko.
Damn it. I have to calm down. This isn't me. This isn't like me. A Queen will
never get affected by just mere words easily.
I put on all the rings that could fit my fingers. Limang singsing ang nakasuot
sa bawat daliri but I told the realtor that I'll get it all. I also pointed at the
necklaces and earrings that looked really expensive but I couldn't care less. It's
not me who will pay for these afterall.
"Do you need all of that?" Loki finally asked as he watched me tried the white
gold necklace with small diamonds as the design. I bet that it costs millions but
the fuck that I care.
"Yes, my King." I said and he helped me locked the necklace on the back of my
neck. "These are women necessities."
"Women." he scoffed. "May I remind you that I'm a normal human with two hands."
pagrereklamo nya sa mga bags na dadalhin pa.
I smiled at him seductively and fixed the collar of his shirt kahit hindi naman
magulo. I mimicked what he did earlier. I kissed his cheeks and leaned towards him
to whisper on his ears.
"Use your connection as a royalty, Loki." I said as I trailed a finger on the
length of his neck. "Prove to me that you're worthy to be called as my King."
Lumayo ako sa kanya and I saw his face darkened. His jaw was moving as he
clenched his teeth. I know that I offended him but I need to do something so he
would stop his advances on me.
Is this his way on getting information from me? About the antidote?
Loki fished his phone out of his pocket. He dialed and after awhile, he was
already talking someone over the phone. The next moment, may limang lalaki na ang
nakasunod sa amin dala ang lahat ng binili ko.
This feels funny 'cause everyone were obviously looking at us as we walked
towards the next store. It makes me feel that I'm some sort of celebrity or
something.
"Let's go, boys." I said seductively when we stopped at the lingerie store.
Loki's clenched his jaw and looked at his bodyguards who didn't show any emotion. I
guess they're professionals as they were a royal guards.
"Stay here." sabi ni Loki and he followed me inside the store. I almost
chuckled.
Loki and lingerie store just don't match.
Obviously, he was the only man inside the store, mostly women and they were all
staring at him. From him, their gaze would landed on me who was beside him and I
only have to raise an eyebrow at them and they will quickly look away.
May lumapit sa aming saleslady and greeted us. She let me choose a lingerie
that I wanted so I have my own piece.
"Do you think this will look good on me?" I said as I showed Loki a red
lingerie. I know that it will definitely look good on me with my fair skin and
flawless body. I just wanted to tease Loki.
He looked at the lingerie first before his eyes landed on mine. I held my
breath when I saw his eyes filled with desire like he's already imagining me in
this lingerie.
Fuck... Seven days to go.
"What's the use of buying a lingerie when we both know that you'll end up naked
on my bed?" he asked and that made me smirk.
"So you'll have something to rip off, my King."
Binalingan ko ang saleslady, who's obviously blushing out of embarrassment by
our words. It should be us pero sanay na kami ni Loki sa isa't-isa.
We ate lunch first before we continued on shopping. I also bought shoes and
heels and by the time were done, it's already nighttime. Maraming tao kaming
nakakasalubong na mukhang pauwi na rin while were on our way to the parking lot.
Someone even bumped into me so hard and that fucking someone didn't even apologize
to me and continued walking towards hell.
We had our dinner at the restaurant where his penthouse is. So I was damn
exhausted when I went inside my room that I ignored all the luxury things that Loki
bought me. I put down my purse on the bedside table when I heard a clang inside it.
I frowned. I don't remember that I put anything in it that would create a sound
like that.
So I slowly opened my purse and spilled the contents on my bed. I was surprised
when I saw the unfamiliar thing which made my heart beats fast.
It was a glass chess piece. A white King piece with a red stain that made it
look like a blood.
I picked it up and stared at it. I remembered the man who bumped into me
earlier. I'm sure that he's the one who put it inside my bag.
I cursed. Fuck. I should've noticed that he placed something inside my purse!
I got distracted. I was distracted this whole day that I spent with Loki. And
with this chess piece, it was like that someone was telling me to get my head in
the game.
Fuck it! I knew it! Loki isn't good for me! He's a distraction!
And I think I have an idea who that man is that reminded me about the game.
About what I have to do. About who I am.
It was the gamemaster. The Red Faction's gamemaster.

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Chapter 42

I should focus on the game especially now that we're

playing the endgame. I shouldn't let myself be distracted from anything. I should
think of a plan on how to defeat the EL Ordre while waiting for King Lancer's move.
I have no way of knowing about what he's planning but I hope that he will move
soon. I'm afraid that the longer I'll stay with Loki, the more distracted I will
be. Loki was so dominant, even his presence, and it's almost impossible for me to
ignore him.
That's the reason why I thought that he's the King of EL Ordre. Because of his
authoritative aura. One look at him and one could say that he's powerful. I just
didn't know that it was all because he's a damn royalty.
I went down that morning and I could already smell the food even if I haven't
reached the last step of the stairs. I walked straight towards the kitchen and saw
Loki cooking our breakfast.
What a nice view... But I have to keep in mind that I shouldn't get distracted.
Fuck it!
Loki must've felt my presence. Lumingon kaagad sya sa akin bago pa ako
makalapit sa kanya. He flashed me a heart warming smile that made me grit my teeth.
Fuck it. The game! I should focus on the game!
"Good morning..." he greeted me with those captivating smile of his. His eyes
were twinkling like he's happy to see me here.
I folded my arms over my chest and leaned on the marbled space beside the
cooktops to where he was cooking. He was frying a bacon strips and egg, to my
delight 'cause it's a normal breakfast.
"I could still remember when you told me that you won't cook for me. What
happened?." I asked.
He chuckled. "You still weren't my Queen back then. Pero ngayon...
Pagsisilbihan na kita."
Fuck... There's his Tagalog again. I regret that I told him to speak in that
language since his hotness was overflowing whenever he did that! And I just
couldn't ignore it!
"Stop talking in Tagalog." I said.
He looked at me. "What?"
"Stop talking in Tagalog. I won't tell you anything about the antidote even
when you do that 'cause there's no antidote to begin with."
He stared at me for a second before he flipped the bacon on the pan. Then he
looked back at me again and smiled.
"Tatawag ako ng mag-aayos doon sa kwarto mo ng lahat ng pinamili mo. Para hindi
ka na mahirapan."
I groaned. He just ignored what I've said about not talking in that language!
And that was the first time that he spoke two sentences in straight Tagalog!
I think he has an idea on what he's doing to me. I don't know if I'm that
obvious or he was just really good at reading people. And I'm afraid that he will
use it against me.
Something is changing. And it is only now that I realized that it's me. I've
changed. I let myself be affected by Loki. I let myself be distracted by him. When
before, no one has ever oppose me. They all feared me.
Why did I let him change me?
I gritted my teeth. Enough. This should stop. The Red Faction's Queen is me. I
am the Mad Queen. And no one could ever bring my destruction.
I raised an eyebrow at him and lifted my chin, my mannerism whenever I wanted
to intimidate someone. Yes... This is how should be it.
"Tell me, Loki... What are you planning?"
Napansin ko ang pagkakatigil nya sa pagluluto bago lumingon sa akin. He turned
off the stovetop and transfer the food on the plate. He placed it on the countertop
table before he finally looked at me.

"What are you talking about?" he asked with his thick

British accent.
I snorted and smirked at him. "I'm not dumb, Loki. I know that you are planning
something. You think I wouldn't notice?"
"You're overreacting." he said with a frown on his face.
I laughed with emptiness. Does he really think that I'll believe him?
"You change your approach to me. You suddenly became so gentle. Calling me your
woman, your Queen. When I could clearly remember when you told that I am not
important to you!" I squinted my eyes. "Is this your strategy to get information
from me?"
He's manipulating my emotions and making it my weakness. Kasi nakikita nya na
wala akong kahinaan. He doesn't have anything to use against me so he's creating
one. Like how L is Alter's weakness. Like how Artemis is Tracer's weakness.
And like how Daphne is his weakness.
Loki was clenching his jaw like he was stopping himself from getting mad at me.
He continued preparing our breakfast, ignoring my words that made me so annoyed.
No one has ever ignored me this way!
"Let's eat." he even said like he didn't hear anything from what I've said.
"Daphne."
Natigilan sya and that's when I smirked. I can't believe that it's this easy to
ruin his defense.
"You're easily affected by just mentioning her name." I said with a sly smile
on my face. "She really is your weakness."
"Daphne is not my weakness." he said and I just chuckled.
I walked towards him. He was just watching me with an eye like a hawk habang
papalapit ako sa kanya. I didn't bother erasing the smirk on my lips. I wanted to
intimidate him. I wanted to show him who is the Queen of the Red Faction.
I caressed his arms that was exposed on the plain white shirt that he's
wearing. Every muscles were flexing with my touch and I couldn't help but to smile.
I like him being like this. Getting affected with my touch.
"She is." I said so seductively and even bit my lower lip. "At iyon ang
pinagkaiba natin, Loki. You have a weakness while I don't."
"Don't ruin our morning, Eresh." he said with a gritted teeth. I chuckled.
"That's my talent, Your Majesty. Ruining people. It's so fun, you know. And I
can't wait to ruin you, my King."
He didn't say anything and just looked down at me. His morning face looked so
handsome. I couldn't help but to stare at his perfect jaw with a stubble but still
looked clean.
"Haven't you thought about it?" I asked while still stroking his arm. "Gray
knows who Daphne is. She knows where this penthouse is since she lived here before.
King Lancer would probably know that you're hiding me here if he finds out that I'm
with you."
"Stop, Eresh." he said. Hindi ko alam kung anong tinutukoy nya. Kung yung
paghaplos ko ba sa braso nya o ang pagsasalita ko.
But I caressed him more and continued talking. Now that I decided not to get
distracted by him, hindi na nya ulit ako mapapasunod sa mga gusto nya.
"King Lancer will come and get me soon. He's probably making a plan on how to
get me back. And you can't do anything to him."
"Bloody motherfucker!" he hissed as he took my wrist and pinned me between the
countertop and his body. I have no time to react with his sudden movements because
of the shock that I've felt!
His eyes were looking at me and I could tell that he's mad. His face darkened.
His aura was shouting danger and there's that dominant part of him again. I tried
to meet his gaze and glared at him.
"Do you honestly think that I haven't thought about that?" he hissed. His voice
was vibrating with anger.
"Have you?" I asked with my chin lifted up. I even smirked at him to let him
know that I wasn't affected by him, even by just a bit.
Which isn't true.
"Of course. I prepared everything when I made up my mind to get away from your
King Lancer."
I frowned but he smirked at me like he just won in this argument.
"I'm taking you to England with me."
That fucking shocked me. England?! In Europe? That's fucking far! I bet he's
really serious on getting informations from me!
Fuck! King Lancer should move fast!
 I was about to say something when the doorbell rang. We both ignored it and
stayed in our position but whoever the fuck was behind that door is really
consistent. Sunod-sunod nyang pinatunog ang doorbell na nagparindi sa tenga namin
ni Loki.
He frowned and finally let me go. Naglakad sya papunta sa may pinto and I
decided to follow him. It's not like everyday that the doorbell would rung
especially that Loki seems to have no idea whoever it was.
Loki opened the door and stilled when he saw who the fuck disturbed our
morning. I saw a woman standing outside who immediately smiled when she looked at
him.
Who the fuck is she?
My heart hammered. I dismissed the idea that came into my mind and watched the
woman as she took a step inside the penthouse with a wide smile on her face and
eyes sparkling with happiness.
"Loki!"
And the moment she threw herself on Loki and hugged him, I realized that my
intuition is right.
She is the infamous Daphne. The weakness of the pretend King.

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Chapter 43

I stared at the red-haired girl who clung herself on Loki's

neck like they were some kind of couple who didn't see each other for a long time.
Loki was even holding her waist, trying to support her body as she suddenly threw
herself at him. It was really obvious that she's excited about their reunion.
"I missed you!" she said and put a distance between them. I grimaced at the
scene in front of me and rolled my eyes.
The girl has a plain face, plain body, wearing a plain clothes. In short, she's
plain. I can't see anything special on her.
So this is Daphne? Loki's weakness? I am disappointed!
I was expecting a woman who can match up with my beauty and sexy body. O yung
mas mahihigitan pa ako. Like some kind of a model or an actress. But the fuck is
this? She's nothing against me! Kahit ang mga kuko ko ay hindi nya mahihigitan!
Fuck! What is wrong with Loki? What did he see in her that made her his
weakness? 'Cause I can't see anything but this plain woman who I can easily kill in
front of me!
I could see the surprise in Loki's eyes when he finally released her. He stared
at her like he was making sure that she's really in front of him.
"My lady..." he muttered while staring at her and smiled in a gentle way.
I frowned. What the fuck did he just fucking call her?
Daphne laughed and tapped him on his cheeks lightly. "Akala ko nakalimutan mo
na ako, eh."
"You know that will never happen, my lady."
I folded my arms over my chest and stared at the two lovebirds in front of me.
They were looking at each others eyes with a smile on their face na parang may
sariling mundo sila. And I am so fucking annoyed 'cause it looks like Loki had
forgotten about me!
I gritted my teeth while trying to stop myself from pulling the girl's hair and
shove him away from Loki. I could easily do it. I could even wring her neck and
she'll be dead in no time but that won't be necessary. I don't want to waste any of
my strength with her.
Fuck. Hindi pa nakatulong ang kung anong meron dibdib ko. I don't fucking know
what this is.
"What are you doing here?" tanong ni Loki na hindi matanggal ang ngiti sa mga
labi.
 "May isang lalaki kasi dyan na hindi man lang magawang bumisita sa akin at sa
mga inaanak nya! Sino kaya 'yon, no?"
Loki chuckled. "Come in."
The plain girl stepped inside and that's when our gaze meet. She looked
surprise when she saw me but I remained standing with my arms still crossed over my
chest.
I raised an eyebrow and looked at her from head to toe. I purposely let her see
the judgement in my eyes while doing so. I noticed that she became uncomfortable
with my gaze but she still tried to gave me a small smile.
So plain.
"Eresh."
I looked at Loki who called my name with a warning tone. It was like he's
silently telling me to treat his guest in a nice way. But being nice isn't in my
dictionary though.
"This is Daphne." he introduced and looked at her with a smile on his face.
"Daphne, this is—"
"Eresh..." Daphne cut him off and offered a hand for a handshake. "I'm Daphne
Gallagher."
"Ereshkigal Levitsky." I introduced myself and accepted her handshake.
"I heard so much about you from Artemis, Eresh—"
"Call me Miss Levitsky." I said. She blinked and stared at me.
"What?"
"Call me Miss Levitsky." I said with a smile.

She stilled. Mukhang mabilis syang makaramdam na ayoko sa

kanya. I was still smiling but based on her expression, it looks like she was
looking at the calm before the storm.
She's smart. But I still don't like her.
"Nice to meet you, Miss Levitsky." she managed to say and shook my hand a
little. I smiled sweetly at her.
"Likewise."
Binitiwan nya ang kamay ko at nanatili lang na nakatayo sa harapan ko. She
looked like she was about to panic soon and looked everywhere except on my eyes.
And that annoyed me so damn much.
The more I noticed our differences, the more irritated become! There must be
something wrong in Loki's eyes!
"Have you eaten?" Loki asked Daphne. He must've seen the irritation in my eyes
kaya sumingit na sya sa usapan. "We're gonna have our breakfast. Join us."
Damn it! Niyaya pa talagang kumain! Ang aga-aga ba naman kasing bumisita!
"No. Thank you. Kumain na ako." Daphne said as she glanced at me.
I rolled my eyes and marched my way to the kitchen. I need to have my
breakfast. I need to have my strength 'cause I am fucking sure that I will be
annoyed for the whole fucking day!
They both followed me to the kitchen. I sat on the high chair as Loki prepared
the meal for me. Naupo sa katabi kong upuan si Daphne and I could tell that she's
watching Loki as he put the bacon strips and egg on my plate.
I remember when he said na pagsisilbihan nya ako because I am his Queen. Pero
ngayon, may tinatawag syang ibang babae as his lady.
Wow, huh?
"Are you sure that you don't want to eat? I can cook for you." Loki offered to
Daphne and that made me rolled my eyes.
The pretend King is going to cook for his lady! Wow! I could still remember
back then when he said that he won't cook for me! But it's so easy for him to tell
Daphne the opposite like it was so natural for him!
"You can cook?" Daphne seemed surprise and that made me looked at her. "Hindi
ko alam! I mean, there's Kieron who was cooking for us back then! Pero hindi ko
alam na marunong kang magluto!"
 Who the fuck is Kieron?
Loki chuckled and leaned his elbow on the countertop. His tummy was on the
tiled top and he looked like some delicious dish that's ready-to-eat.
"My cooking skills is nothing compared to him, though."  he said with all
smile. His eyes were sparkling with happiness.
I heaved a deep breath and decided to eat. Fuck it. I think I want to murder
someone just to let out my anger. I don't even fucking know why I am mad!
Is this plain girl affecting me? Damn it! No!
"Kieron is a really good cook." Daphne said. "Miss ko na din mga luto nya."
"Yeah. I could still remember that you forced him to learn how to cook Filipino
dish 'cause you always crave for it."
They both laughed and I rolled my eyes in annoyance. I couldn't find anything
funny about what Loki said for them to laugh like that.
I bit the insides of my cheeks. These two people were fucking reminiscing their
past like I'm not here!
Fuck! It's morning but my annoyance meter already reached it's maximum level!
"You can ask him to cook for you. I'm certain that he'll be glad to do it."
Loki said as he smiled widely.
"Okay lang kaya kung i-hire ko sya bilang cook sa birthday party ni Cupid?"

"That would be awesome. Just tell him. He won't say no to

you."
I just continued eating, chewing my food really hard to let out the irritation
inside my chest. Hindi ko na rin napansin na madiin na pala ang pagkakahawak ko sa
tinidor.
Fuck!
"Where are your kids?" Loki asked.
"Apollo's taking care of them." she chuckled. "Okay nga 'yun, eh. Para
maranasan nya naman 'yung hirap ng pag-aalaga sa mga bata. Lalo si Eros! Sobrang
kulit!"
"Really?"
I glanced at Loki. He looked so happy while listening to her. There's the
gentle smile that was plastered on his face for the whole time. I looked away and
gritted my teeth when I felt a pang inside my chest.
Maybe I couldn't see anything special on Daphne but Loki sees something in her.
And his eyes, I saw how much he treasures her with his eyes.
I swallowed the lump on my throat. Tumingin ako sa plato ko na hindi ko na
nagawang galawin. Nawalan ako ng gana bigla. And it frustrates me more.
Why the fuck am I acting like this?
"Alam ba ng asawa mong dito ka pupunta?" I asked. Hindi ko na napigilan ang
sumabat sa sobrang pagkairita ko. "Did he let you come here knowing that Loki might
be alone in this house?"
"Eresh." pagsaway ni Loki pero hindi ko sya pinansin.
Daphne still gave me a smile. "Alam nya. At nabanggit din naman ni Artemis sa
akin na nandito ka kay Loki kaya alam nya na hindi lang kaming dalawa ni Loki ang
nandito."
I rolled my eyes and continued on staring at my food. There's no fucking way I
would let them to be alone!
"Oo nga pala." I heard Daphne said. "Do you still have that Peppa Pig stuff toy
that Kieron gave to you as his welcome gift?"
Loki frowned. "What about it?"
"Pwedeng sa akin na lang?" Daphne asked shyly. "Cupid loves Peppa Pig kasi and
we couldn't find the same stuff toy like what Kieron gave to you. Is it okay?
Inaanak mo naman sya."
Loki chuckled and shook his head in disbelief. "Alright. Kukunin ko lang sa
kwarto."
Loki left us both in the kitchen which surprised me. He knows that I am so
fucking irritated that's why he's not trying to engage me in their conversation and
gave me my space. He knows I am so annoyed on the way how I talked to Daphne
earlier. That's why it surprised me that he left us alone just like that.
Didn't he think that I might kill Daphne as I know that she's his weakness?
Isn't he afraid that I might to something to her and use her against him?
"Hi..."
I heard Daphne called my attention with uncertainty. I looked at her. Nakita
kong nag-aalangan sya kung paano ako kakausapin.
"Pasensya na kung naistorbo ko kayo ng ganitong kaaga." she said.
Then she shouldn't have came here if she's really sorry.
"Pero naikwento ka kasi sa akin ni Artemis. And she mentioned that you're with
Loki kaya nagpunta ako dito. Gusto kong makita yung pangalawang babaeng pinatapak
nya sa loob ng penthouse nya."
I rolled my eyes. Is she trying to tell me that she's the first ever woman who
set foot in this place? And so? What does she want me to do? Give her an award?
Give her an standing ovation? Fuck it!
I composed myself and didn't say anything. I must remember that we aren't on
the same level. She's so plain.
"Loki is a very important person to me." she said and I have to close my eyes
and took a deep breath to calm myself.
Their feelings are mutual! Fucking wow!
"Gusto kong mahanap na nya ang babaeng para sa kanya." she continued. "Kaya
nang mabanggit ni Artemis ang tungkol sayo, pumunta agad ako dito para makilala
ka."
"I bet she told you everything about me, huh?" I said, bitterly. What should I
expect? They are best of friends.
But Daphne shook her head.
"Nakwento nya lang na nag-bake kayo ng muffins together. At iyon nga. That Loki
is taking care of you." she gave me a sad smile. "But she didn't mention that you
have a sad yet beautiful eyes."
I looked at her and that's when I noticed that she has a very expressive brown
eyes. I realized that this must be it. This must be the special thing that Loki saw
in her.
She has an expressive eyes while I don't. My eyes were trying so hard to hide
the truth within me.
"Mag-bestfriend nga talaga kayo."sabi ko at uminom ng tubig. "Both of you are
trying to act like they knew everything."
She raised her hand and showed me her left wrist. I frowned as I looked at it
and I was surprised when I saw what she's trying to show me.
Her left wrist are full of deep and straight scars.
Ibinaba nya ang kamay nya at hinaplos ang peklat sa pulsuhan nya. Then I
noticed that her expressive eyes became sad.
"My mother was raped by my father." she gave me a sad smile. "At ako ang naging
bunga ng kasalanang 'yon."

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Chapter 44

I am not dumb not to know how she got those scars on her
wrist. It looks like it was scratched by thousands of cats but I know better.
She did it to herself. Now, it's finally clear to me when Artemis said that
Daphne hid her pain by hurting herself. And looking at those scars, it was obvious
that she did it for so many times.
I just stared at her who's now smiling at me sadly. I realized that she
purposely sent Loki away so we could be alone. It's obvious that she wanted to talk
to me but one thing is clear.
 The feeling is not mutual.
I actually want her to get out of my sight. I don't want her here in Loki's
penthouse. What is she doing here anyway? If she badly need that fucking Peppa Pig
stuff toy, then she could've ask someone to make it for her! Mas bago pa!
I want her out of this penthouse. And I don't want to hear her story.
"I was a product of rape." Daphne said and I needed to take a deep breath and
gritted my teeth to stop myself from doing something to her. "Hindi ako tanggap ng
nanay ko kaya araw-araw syang naglalasing. At kapag nalalasing sya, doon nya ako
sinasaktan."
Araw-araw naglalasing... That means na araw-araw din syang sinasaktan.
"But Apollo, my husband, came into my life. Ang dami nyang itinuro sa akin. He
thought me that it's okay to cry if you're hurting. Hindi kasi ako umiiyak noon,
eh. Ang akala ko, kapag umiyak ako, pinapatunayan ko lang na mahina ako."
She looked down at her scars and caressed it. Umiwas ako ng tingin. I don't
want to see the emotions on her face. I don't want to see why Artemis said that we
have the same look in our eyes.
No. We're different. We're not the same.
"Hindi ako tanggap ng sarili kong ina but with Apollo, I found a new home. He
was the first one who made feel that I have a place where I belonged. Kaya kahit
masakit sa akin na hindi ako tanggap ni Mama, I felt okay... With Apollo."
I took a deep and shaky breath. Nagsimulang manginig ang mga kamay ko so I had
to hide my hands under the countertop so Daphne wouldn't see it. I gritted my teeth
so hard that my jaw hurt. I swallowed the lump in my throat.
No. Fuck... We're not the same!
"But Apollo hurt me, too." Daphne continued but I'm having a hard time
controlling my breathing.
What the fuck is happening to me? Why is she affecting me this much?
"At doon na talaga ako sumuko. Sa tagal na panahon kong kumapit na baka maging
maayos pa ang buhay ko, sumuko ako nang saktan ako ni Apollo." I bit my lower lip
when it started to tremble. "And then Loki came. He fixed me. He became my second
home. And I was so glad that he did. Pero hinahanap-hanap ko pa rin yung naging
unang tahanan ko kahit na may masakit akong naging karanasan doon. Kasi pakiramdam
ko, doon ako nakumpleto talaga. Doon ako natutong lumaban. Doon ko natutong
tanggapin ang sarili ko at harapin ang problema ko. And I feel like if I haven't
met Apollo before Loki came, hindi ko rin magagawang ibangon ang sarili ko."
"Stop..." I said but it was so soft that Daphne didn't hear it.
"I've learned how to stand up with my own two feet because of Apollo. Yung
sakit na pinaramdam nya sa akin, it gave me a push to be a better version of
myself. He thought me how to forgive and how to accept myself. At inalalayan naman
ako ni Loki throughout the way."
"I said stop." madiin nang sabi ko. I looked at her and she looked back at me
as she flashed a gentle smile.
"So don't be afraid of opening yourself up to someone. Don't be afraid to show
your vulnerable side. You need it. Dahil kapag hindi mo 'yan inilabas, mas masakit
sa dibdib."

I stood up abruptly that the chair made a noise. My chest

was heaving up and down as I try to calm and stop myself from doing anything to
this girl beside me.
The fuck. Did she come here just to tell me her story? Why? Did she also see
what Artemis saw in me? That we have the same eyes back when she was still hurting?
"I didn't say that I want to hear your story." I said while looking down at her
and it just made me feel so fucking bad. Nakatingala sya sa akin na may malamlam na
mga mata.
"I know. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na noong akala kong wala na rin akong pag-
asa, saka biglang nagbago ang buhay ko. The same will happen to you."
"Oh, fuck it!" I hissed. My fist were balled and I could feel myself trembling
because of anger and something else. "You don't fucking know anything about me. So
stop acting like you knew what I'm going through! We are nothing alike!"
I quickly turned around and decided to went up to my room. I closed the door so
hard and I suddenly want to throw everything that's in here.
Fuck it! I've never felt so much anger like this before. So much that I have no
idea what to do. At ngayon lang nangyari sa akin ang hindi alam kung anong gagawin.
Daphne's story... Her story triggered something in me. Her mother can't accept
her as her own daughter. Her mother as a rape victim. And her being broken...
No! Fuck this shit! We're not the same!
I remember when I first saw her at the doorstep earlier. She was smiling
widely, eyes were shining brightly that one would never thought that she
experienced something hellish before. She looked so happy as she told Loki about
her husband and children. So happy and contented with her life.
Will I get to experience that kind of happiness? Will I be able to flash a
radiant smile like hers? Maybe... That's why Loki fell inlove with her. 'Cause she
could do something like that.
And I don't.
Fuck! This is not good.
I heard the door opened and I rolled my eyes. Loki still has his habit about
not knocking on someone's door before entering the room.
"Come down. Aalis na si Daphne." he said as he leaned on the doorjamb.
"Why do I have to go down? Does she want me to throw a despidida party for
her?"
He sighed and walked towards me. I was surprised when he held my hand and
gently tugged on me. Sa sobrang gulat ay wala na akong nagawa kundi ang sumunod sa
kanya.
I was just looking at our hands as we walked down the stairs. His hand was warm
and I couldn't help but to squeeze it. Loki looked at me because of what I did. He
smiled when our eyes met.
Fuck. This is not so good.
"She's here." Loki announced when we finally reached the doorstep.
"Aalis na ako, Miss Levitsky." Daphne said. "I'm sorry if ever I offended you.
But it was nice talking to you."
I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest. Hindi ako nagsalita kaya
nakangiwing binalingan nya si Loki.
"Aalis na ako, Loki. Sa susunod, dadalhin ko na mga inaanak mo."
"There will be no next time." I interrupted before Loki could say anything.
Pareho silang napatingin sa akin. "We're going to London the soonest."
"Ay, talaga?" tanong ni Daphne pero kay Loki naman nakatingin like she's
verifying what I've just said. Mas lalo akong nairita.
"Yeah..." Loki said and I smiled smugly at Daphne. Ngumiti lang sya sa akin. "I
will go to Cupid's birthday. I promise."
Fuck promises.

Loki walked her to the elevator at nagpaiwan na ako sa

loob. I went inside my room and got dressed. Hindi na ako nag-abala pang kumuha ng
mga gamit especially the ones that he just bought me. I could buy them anyway.
I have to leave here. The more that I'm with Loki, the more that I got
distracted from the game. And I'm worried that he might find something that he can
use against me.
So before that happens, I have to leave.
"Where are you going?" Loki asked when he noticed that I changed my clothes.
"I'm getting out of here." I said, looking straight at him. "I'm not going with
you to London."
His jaw moved as he clenched his teeth. I noticed that his face darkened as he
went further inside the room.
"So now, you're gonna run away?" he asked.
 "What?"
"Daphne told you about her, I'm sure. You realized something from it and now
you're afraid so you decided to run away."
"I don't know what you're talking about!" I spat. "And we're not the same!
Daphne and I were different!"
"I know!" he said trying so hard to keep calm. "Alam na alam kong magkaiba
kayo."
"Then stop comparing us!"
"When did I—?" he just sighed, obviously frustrated but still trying not to
show it to me. "Stop running away from your problems, Eresh."
That angered me. How dare him to say something like that?! I am not running
away! I am facing my own problems! That's why I wanted to win this game! So that I
could finally be free from this shit! So I could finally be free from the memories
of my father!
"You, son of bitch!" I cursed and pushed him away.
Hindi sya nagpatinag at hinuli ang dalawang pulsuhan ko. I still tried to kick
him but he pushed me to the wall and pinned my body with him.
"Fuck you, Loki! Fuck you!" I said so angrily. "You don't have the right to
tell me that! You don't know me!"
"Then make me!" he said. "Make me understand you, Eresh! Stop pushing me away!"
"No!" I tried to free myself but he didn't even budge. "You will never
understand me, Loki. No one ever does!"
"You'll never know about that unless you try."
I shook my head and chuckled with emptiness.
"I know what you're doing." I smirked. "You're doing everything to know my
weakness and use it against me. And what? Dinamay mo pa talaga si Daphne."
"What in the bloody hell are you saying?" hindi makapaniwala nyang tanong
habang nakatingin sa akin.
I chuckled again. "Stop pretending. I know that this is your strategy to get
information about the antidote. But you won't get anything from me. There's no
antidote. There is no fucking antidote!"
"Fuck that antidote!" he shouted that made me flinched. He looked so mad that
it surprised me. "I don't fucking care about this game! I just want to get Shielder
back and save you, Eresh!"
"I need no saving!"
"You do!" he insisted. "You do and you realized that now that's why you choose
to run away."
He let me go and took a step back from me. He brushed his hair with his fingers
that made it looked disheveled. And even in an angry state, I couldn't help but to
get attracted to him.
He's wrong. This is the reason why I want to run away.
Loki took a deep breath and sighed. He looked at me, anger was gone now in his
eyes and when he speak, he did it so gently.
"You're not facing your problems by pushing and hurting people around you,
Eresh. You're only hurting yourself more. You're only breaking yourself more. And I
know that you realized all of that when Daphne talked to you.  But you still choose
to run away."
He took a step towards me and touched my cheeks. His hand against my skin was
so warm that my heart ache so suddenly.
"Stop hurting everyone around you, Eresh. Mas lalo ka lang nasasaktan sa
ginagawa mo."
"Go to hell." I said with a gritted teeth. "Go to hell!" Pinagtulakan ko na sya
palabas ng kwarto. "Fuck you! You're wrong! You're fucking wrong! I'm not hurting
myself! I'm happy doing all of this!"
Loki just let me push him away and didn't say anything. I just stopped when
he's finally out of my room. I was about to close the door but he stopped it and
looked at me.
"You and Daphne were not the same and that's a fact. But did you know what
makes you different from her?"
 He stared at me with serious eyes and I knew that I wouldn't like what he's
about to tell me.
"She knows how to be brave and face her problem unlike you who only know how to
run away and pretend like everything is fine... When obviously, it's far from
that."
I slapped him and he just accepted it. Alam kong kaya nyang pigilan 'yon but he
just let me do it. And fuck, that made me feel ten times worse.
"Go to hell, Loki." I said and slammed the door on his face.
I just stared at the closed door when my lips began to tremble. My eyes sting
that I had to blink and I realized what's happening to me.
I bit my lower lip so hard that I could almost taste the blood. My eyes watered
and I cursed at myself.
Fuck it... No. Stop, Eresh... Stop it.
A tear fell from my eyes and I quickly wiped it with the back of my hand but
another tear fell. Hindi ko na napigilan ang panginginig ng mga labi ko kahit kagat
ko pa ang pang-ibaba.
This isn't me. I had to stop. This isn't like me.
I sobbed and more tears fell from my eyes and I realized that it's impossible
for me to stop myself from crying. I covered my face with my hands while trying to
avoid making any sounds.
And for the first time... For the first time ever since that day, I let myself
cry so hard again.

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Chapter 45

I have no clue what time it is. The whole room was so dark
and I didn't bother opening the lights. My only source of light was from the moon
outside the window.
I was sitting on the edge of the bed, shoulders were slumped and eyes were
puffy out of crying for an hour. My throat was so dry that it hurts whenever I
gulped.
I felt so dejected after crying that hard. And I felt so stupid as to why I let
my emotions took over me. This isn't like me. I am not like this. I always use my
brain and make a lots of plan instead of being emotional.
That's why I need to get out of here... Soon.
Loki has been affecting me. And it's clear that he's doing everything to know
about my weakness. To know everything about me. He really wants to know about my
past. And breaking down like this means that he's slowly achieving his plan. So I
have to go back to my place, to where I needed to be, before that happens.
Nakiramdam ako sa paligid. I don't hear any movements outside of my room so I'm
thinking that Loki might be sleeping. Well, it seems like it's really late now so
it's understandable. Halos isang oras din akong umiyak but I have no idea how long
I've been staring at nothingness.
I got dressed. This is the only time that I felt thankful about the trashy
clothes inside the walk-in closet. I put on a jeans and a fitted longsleeve top so
I could move freely. I wore a sneakers and looked at myself in the mirror.
Even with this trashy clothes, everyone will say that I looked gorgeous.
Especially that these tight jeans and top emphasize my body curves. But still...
All I can see is a very disgusting woman.
I tsked. I have no time for this. I need to get out of here.
Loki said that this whole building belongs to him so I was expecting that I
will fight for my way out. Even if I got hurt, I will do it. I will do my best
instead of Loki knowing about my weakness. Instead of him knowing about my past.
I am the Queen of the Red Faction. I must always remember that.
I tied up my long blonde hair in a ponytail. A few strands falls on my forehead
but I didn't care much about that.
The whole house was awfully quiet when I went out of my room. Nadaanan ko ang
kwarto ni Loki at wala akong narinig na anumang tunog mula sa loob so I assumed
that he's really asleep.
I tiptoed on my way out. Loki has his training and one wrong move will
definitely wake him up so I have to be careful. Nakahinga lang ako nang maayos nang
makalabas na ako at makasakay ng elevator. I immediately pushed the button to the
ground floor.
I know that when the elevator door opens as it reached its destination, things
will not be easy on me.
I readied myself when the elevator dinged and I stepped outside. Napansin ko
kaagad ang dalawang lalaking may kalakihan ang katawan like they've been guarding
the elevator for the whole time. And I immediately knew that Loki knows about my
plan.
Still, I calmly walked with a poise towards the exit of the building. The men
followed me from behind. But I only took five steps when I felt that one of them
tried to held me on my shoulders. But before he could touch me, I quickly turned
around and gave him a punch on the chest which caught him off-guard.
"Just let me go, alright?" I asked sweetly but they must be on Santa's naughty
list 'cause the other man tried to grab me.
I tsked and noticed that two more men were approaching us.
"Fuck!"
The second man tried to grab me again but I ducked and gave him a punch in the
gut. Napalayo sya pero nakalapit naman sa amin ang dalawa pang lalaki kanina.

I attacked them first and they were just blocking all of my

punches. I gave the third man a high kick and hit him in his face kaya ang pang
apat na ang kinalaban ko. And this man looked more aggressive than the other three.
He tried to punch me but I blocked his attack using my arm and gave him a
counterattack which he blocked as well. I tried to gave him a kick but he caught my
ankle. He pulled me to him and when I got near, I quickly threw a punch on his
face. Nabitiwan nya ako.
"Be a good boys and just let me walk away." sabi ko pero wala silang narinig.
Sabay-sabay silang sumugod. They were all royal guards that I'm sure that had
their trainings as well but I'm way better than them. Nailagan ko ang lahat ng mga
atake nila. Lahat ng mga suntok at sipa ko ay tumatama sa kanila.
The fourth man looked so annoyed. Mukhang hindi nya matanggap na mas magaling
ang babae kaysa sa kanya.
Well, I can quite understand him. He was entrusted to guard a royalty and yet
he couldn't even take down someone like me.
I ducked when the first man swing a punch on my head kaya hindi nya ako
tinamaan. But what surprised me was when the fourth man grabbed my hair and gave me
a punch on gut.
It fucking hurts of course! He's a man! Father always tells me that men are
stronger than women and in this moment, I think I knew what he meant.
I coughed and I could taste the blood inside my mouth. Fuck it.
Napansin ko na natigilan ang tatlong lalaki pero patuloy na sumugod ang pang-
apat. I readied myself but before he could throw a punch, the elevator dinged
indicating that someone is in.
The door opened and I cursed when I saw Loki inside. Base on his expression, he
doesn't look happy that I tried to escape. He took a step outside and let the
elevator door close behind him.
He looked at the four men first before his eyes landed on mine. He frowned when
he saw something on my face. His jaw clenched and glared at his royal guards.
"Who in the bloody hell laid a hand on her?!"
His voice boomed throughout the entire lobby. It was fortunate that it's late
at night so there's no one on the lobby except for the receptionist that was
watching us the entire time.
He saw a blood on my lips due to the punch in gut that the fourth man gave me.
I almost coughed a blood because of the pressure.
"Your Highness, she tried to—" the fourth man tried to explain but he was cut
off by Loki's angry voice.
"Of course, she did! Have you forgotten what I've told you? She's special and
you must treat her above me!"
"We apologize, Your Royal Highness." the men said in unison with their head
hung low.
Loki sighed and dismissed them. Lumayo sila, still within the sight like they
were still guarding us.
"I apologize if they hurt you." Loki said so I looked at him. He was looking at
me apologetically like he regretted what that fourth man did to me. "Come. You must
get treated immediately."
He tried to took my hand, like what he did back at my room but I quickly shove
his hand away. Natigil ang kamay nya sa ere. I looked at him, all seriousness is in
my eyes.
"I want to leave, Loki." I said. "I want to go back to the Red Faction."
But he acted like he didn't hear anything that I said. "You need to pack your
things. We're going to London later."
I groaned. "I am not going anywhere except to where my chess pieces are!"
Loki stared at me. His face darkened when he saw that I'm deadly serious. He
bit his lower lip and frowned at me.
"You have to get pass through me first before that happen." he said.
I stared at him. Besides from the King of EL Ordre, I am sure that Loki
received a lot of training too. Maybe more intense than the King 'cause he needs to
protect him. He must be a hundred percent excellent in doing his job. No room for
errors as he might get the King in danger if he fails.
And I'm sure, that I will lost against him. I had my training, but I haven't
used it properly since I am the brain of the Red Faction and was just always inside
the hideout. Hindi ako kailanman sumama sa mga misyon.
Mananalo si Loki ng walang kahirap-hirap. But still... I have to fight. It's
better to fight him than him discovering my weakness and about my past.
And this is the only time that I got scared as I stared at his sea-green eyes.
I am scared that he might be able to change me completely. Like how I changed Gray.
I realized that Loki can do it to me without even using the rare drug. He's
affecting me so much that it scares me.
"Well then, Your Majesty." I said, acting so brave. "Let's fight."
After I said that, mabilis ko syang sinugod. I am at the disadvantage here so I
mustn't give him any chance to attack me. Dahil siguradong matatalo nya ako pag
hinayaan ko syang makakita ng butas sa mga galaw ko.
I tried to kick his face but he blocked it using his arm. I threw a punch and
he caught it with his hand so I threw another one again.
Panay ang atake ko habang sinasalag nya ang lahat. I am fighting for my life
here. 'Cause if I let him win against me, then there's a big chance that he could
make me spill everything.
He can make me cry. He provoked me to cry so I know that he can do it. And that
scares the crap out of me.
But no matter how much I attacked, I couldn't hit him. Nababasa nya ang mga
galaw ko kahit gaano pang kabilis. And in this case, I will lose my stamina soon.
So I decided to give him my finishing blow. I faint an attack, acting like I
was about to punch his stomach when I was really going to give him a side kick on
the face.
But he blocked it so easily. Pagkatapos malaman na peke ang atake ko ay mabilis
nyang iniharang ang braso sa gilid ng mukha nya, blocking my kick. I put down my
foot and stared at him in disbelief.
How can I ever defeat a Bishop of the King?
"Is that all you can give, my Queen?" he asked like challenging me. "Then it's
my turn now."
 He attacked and threw a punch on my face. I tried to block it with my two
hands, expecting the impact only to realize it was fake. He caught both of my wrist
and quickly pinned me on the wall. My hands were above my head.
"Let me go, Loki!" I hissed when I realized our position. We're giving a show
to his guards and the receptionist!
"Go to London with me." he said looking at me straight in the eye.
"I would rather fight you to death than go anywhere with you!"
Gumalaw ang mga panga nya. I even heard him clenching his teeth so hard. He
didn't like what I said but I meant it.
I must leave now. This is my only and last chance to go back.
"Let me go!" I tried to free from his grasp but he held my wrist tighter. At
kahit isang kamay na lang ang nakahawak doon ay wala pa rin akong laban sa kanya.
"That's the last thing that I would do, my Queen." he whispered. "I apologize
but this is my last resort."
I was surprised when his lips covered mine. It was so sudden but my body
betrayed me and my eyes closed immediately. Mukhang kabisado na sya ng mga labi ko.
Fuck! Bite him! I must bite his lips!
But before I could do that, I felt a sting on my arm. I opened my eyes again
but he just deepened the kiss.
My sight became blurry and that's when I realized what he did. He injected a
drugged on me that made me so sleepy this instantly.
"I can't let you go." he whispered against my lips. "I'm sorry, my Queen."
I tried to look at him but my eyelids feels so heavy. I closed my eyes and
before I could fell asleep, he said something again.
"Stay with me forever."

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Chapter 46

My sleep got disturbed because of the faint noise that I

heard. It sounds like someone's was pouring a water to a cup and it must be true
except that it's an Earl Grey tea as I caught its smell afterwards. I opened my
eyes and was welcomed by an unfamiliar room.
I let my eyesight adjust to the sunlight that blinded my vision for a while. I
rubbed the sleep off my eyes and tried to get up. I looked around and realized that
wherever I am. I'm sure that this is a very extravagant house.
I was sitting on a king size luxury bed in a European style that made me feel
like I'm in some kind of a palace and I'm the Queen. There was even a chandelier
inside the room and some other decorations that I'm sure was only there to make the
room looked luxurious.
"Good morning, Your Majesty."
I looked at that soft voice and noticed a young woman dressed like a servant
pushing a tea trolley as she walked towards to where I am. She stopped at the side
of my bed and handled me a cup of tea.
"Earl Grey tea to soothe your stomach, Your Majesty."
British accent...
"Where the fuck am I?" I asked. The smile on the servant's face didn't fade
even with my vulgar words. She still remained to look professional yet in a
courteous manner.
"You are in the second Von Amstel manor, Your Majesty." she said. Her voice
sounds so gentle but it didn't stopped my irritation.
"No. I mean where the fuck is this? Where is this located?"
"The second Von Amstel manor is located at the city of York, Your Majesty."
I cursed. Fuck this shit! This is not happening!
"How..." I tried to combed my unruly hair. "How long I've been here?"
"You've been here for almost six hours, Your Majesty."
 Pumikit ako nang mariin dahil bigla yatang sumakit ang ulo ko sa mga nalaman.
I'm in England! Loki drugged me and brought me here in England without my consent!
I clearly told him that I won't go here with him and yet he still did this!
I've been here for six hours already plus the flight hours, meaning that I was
out for almost a day! What kind of drug did he inject to me?! He made it sure that
he'll brought me here while I was drugged!
Fuck! Fuck it! I wanted to stay away from him but what happened was the
opposite!
"Where the fuck is Loki?" I asked the servant who's smile started to irritate
me. It was obvious that I'm so annoyed and yet she didn't bother to wipe that
fucking smile off her face!
"His Royal Highness is at the main Von Amstel manor, Your Majesty."
"Where the fuck is that?"
"It is in London, Your Majesty."
Oh, what the fuck?! He left me in here?!
"But I'm certain he's on his way back now, Your Majesty." sabi nung katulong
nang makita ang iritasyon ko.
Nanginginig ang mga kamay kong nakahawak sa tasa as my anger started to control
me. I felt so helpless now that I am here! Loki is a member of British royal family
and now that I am here in his domain, I know that I'm powerless.
"Macaroons for your breakfast, Your Majesty." the servant said I glared at her.
"I don't need that. Get the fuck out."
She immediately put back the plate with macaroons on the tea trolley. I gave
her the cup without even taking a sip on the tea but she didn't take it. I frowned
at her.

"I don't need this."

"His Royal Highness has a message to convey to you, Your Majesty."
"What?"
The servant smiled at me once more. "He said that you must consume all of
this." she said showing me the macaroons the tea.
"Fuck off!" I hissed. "Tell to that Royal Highness of yours to bring me back to
the Philippines! Tell that to him!"
"Yes, Your Majesty."
I put the cup of tea to the trolley and she quickly went out of my room.
Probably she got scared when I finally yelled at her. I was so fucking irritated
and yet she still remained her smile on her face!
Fuck it! How could I go back? I need to be at the Red Faction now!
I got up and that's when I noticed that I'm wearing a different clothes than
the last time. I was on a silky nightgown na pinatungan ng robe. It was so soft
that I'm sure it's a branded clothes.
I looked outside the window and groaned when I noticed the gate was out of
sight. I realized that I need to ride on a car before I could get out of this
manor. Kaya kung tatakas man ako ay mahuhuli na agad ako even before I could reach
the gate.
Damn it. Loki is so fucking smart. He planned it all!
"My Queen..."
I turned around and saw Loki who's walking towards me. He looked so attractive
in his three piece suit and a neatly combed hair but I was so angry to be affected
by him.
"Fuck you, Loki!" I spat at him. He looked like he was expecting my anger and
wasn't even surprised.
"How are you feeling?" he asked instead, taking off his coat and tie.
I tried not to get affected while he was fixing himself. He threw his coat and
tie on the sofa bench at the end of the bed. He opened the first two buttons of his
inner button-down shirt and folded the sleeves up to his elbow.
"This is kidnapping!" I said, silently thanking myself for being sane even with
that fan service show. "You brought me here against my will!"
Ginulo nya ang buhok nya gamit ang mga daliri nya. I stared at him as some
strands dramatically fell down on his forehead. He looked so sexy now with his
disheveled hair. Like someone who just woke up after that tiring fuck last night.
God damn it! This is why I wanted to get away from him! He can easily distract
me, making me forget about my real goal!
I'm fucking scared. I don't want to be like this. This is not a part of my
plan. This feeling wasn't planned at all!
"Aalis ako." I said, trying to hide the fear on my voice because of that
thought. I didn't know if I succeeded because Loki looked at me with his brooding
eyes.
"Don't even think of escaping." he said. "I've brought you here illegally. No
passport or any documents. They will arrest and detain you so better stick with
me."
I laughed, full of remorse. I can't believe he just blackmailed me!
"D'yah think I cah?" I mocked him, mimicking his accent.
His jaw clenched and he looked like he's getting irritated but still tried to
remain calm. That gave me a boost thinking that I'm not the only one pissed here.
"Do you really think that I'm afraid of the law? That I'm afraid of the
government?" I chuckled. "Ah... Of course you don't have any idea about that. The
EL Ordre has been helping the shitty government, am I right?"

He sighed. He took a step towards me but stopped when he

saw me took a step away from him. He scratched the side of his right eyebrow and
licked his lips.
"I have to go to the Palace. If you need anything, just ring the bell on your
beside table."
Napatingin ako sa itinuro nya at nakita nga ang isang bell doon. Probably to
get the servants attention to attend to me. But that fucking bell is the least
thing that I wanted!
"Bring me the fuck back to the Philippines, Loki!" I screamed but Loki acted
like he didn't hear me.
"I'll finish my business first then let's go shopping, okay?"
I glared at him. What does he take me for? Maluho? Does he really think that
I'll just sit back here quietly waiting for him just because he told me that we'll
go shopping when he comes back?!
He's so fucking unbelievable!
He took his coat and tie before he walked towards me again. At kahit na
humakbang ako palayo ay hindi sya tumigil until my back reached the wall. He stared
at me, eyes were gentle before his hand cupped my left cheek and softly caressed
it.
"I apologize for all of this, my Queen." he said. "Pero babalik agad ako sayo.
I promise you that." then he did the most unexpected thing.
He planted a kiss on my forehead. It was so sweet and gentle that I didn't know
how to react.
I swallowed the lump on my throat. Fuck... There's this emotion in my chest
again that wanted to get out. It wanted the kiss that Loki just gave me. It wanted
more. It wanted Loki to pull me in a hug telling me things that no one has ever
told me before.
And I'm so scared. This emotion is like a stranger to me. I didn't know what it
was. I didn't know what to do with it. But one thing is for sure, this wouldn't be
good for the game.
Loki was gone for almost a week. I never heard anything from him after that. I
tried to ask the servants about him but they said that he was doing his royalty
duties because he was gone for so long.
I tried to escape the first three days that he was gone. Ginawa ko ang lahat ng
mga naisip kong plano but it was to no avail. The place was heavily guarded. I even
fought with the guards but I can't win against thirty men who wanted to bring me
back to my room by hook or by crook. So I gave up with the thought of escaping.
Damn it. I felt so powerless. I felt so weak. Nasaan na ang pinagmamalaki kong
talino ko? Nasaan na ang pinagmamayabang kong magaling akong magplano?
Fucking damn it. Loki prepared everything. And I'm sure that there are more
than thirty guards guarding this place! Maybe even hundreds!
I felt so alone... And weak in this foreign country.
"When do you want to go shopping?" asked Loki when he finally got back like he
didn't disappear for a week. I glared at him but stopped when I got to stare at him
fully.
He was wearing this... Some kind of uniform. Probably exclusive only for the
royal family members. His white coat was slightly longer than those usual coats. He
has this kind of gold braid on his right shoulder and the end was pinned on the
center of chest. He was also wearing a gold sash while his medals pinned on the
left side of his chest. His coat was a closed neck and there's also some designs on
the top of his shoulders.
He looked like the prince on the Disney fairytale Cinderella. When he was
attending the ball finding the right woman for him to marry.
I blinked when he started to remove all those accessories on his coat. He
looked annoyed with it as his brows werr furrowed while unpinning the medals on his
chest.
Fuck... I got distracted again! I knew it! I must get away from him
immediately!
"I want to go home, Loki." I said and that stopped him from what he's doing.
"Bring me back to the Red Faction."
Hindi nya ako pinansin at nagputuloy sa ginagawa. It annoyed me but this is my
last chance.
I did everything to get away from him. I tried to fight but I am no match
against him. I tried to escape but I can't really do that now that I'm in his
domain. To where he could use his full power over me.
"Loki..." I called him but he ignored me. I gulped and utter the words.
"Please."
He stilled and looked at me. Surprise was in his eyes 'cause I just beg
suddenly. But I must remember that this is my last chance. If I don't do this and
remained by his side, mas malala pa ang mangyayari. He could discover my weakness.
"You wanted to run away to your problems that badly? That you even begged for
it?" he asked, amused and annoyed at the same time.
No... It's not my problem that I wanted to get away. It is you, Loki. 'Cause I
know that you can make me spill about my past that easily. Because of what I feel
for you...
Fuck it! Fuck this emotions! I fucking knew that love always complicates
everything!
"Just let me go." I said, looking straight at his eyes.
"You're afraid." he said, staring back at me. "You're afraid, am I right?"
Umiling-iling ako. Fuck! Why does he have to be so smart?
"What are you afraid of?" he asked so gently that made my heart ache. "Tell me,
Eresh... What are you afraid of?"
He walked towards me that I began to panic. He must've noticed that 'cause he
quickly closed our distance before I could get away. He imprisoned me between the
wall and his body. Nakatukod ang dalawa nyang mga kamay sa magkabilang gilid ng ulo
ko as he stared down at me.
"Tell me everything..." he said. "Pour all your emotions to me, my Queen."
I shook my head and blinked. This is dangerous. His voice, his eyes, the way he
looked at me were dangerous. I felt the tears formed from the corner of my eyes so
I looked away. But he held my chin and made me look back at him.
"Tell me."
I shook my head. "Don't make me remember my past, Loki."
Fuck. My voice broke when I said that. Mariin kong kinagat ang pang ibabang
labi ko but Loki stopped me. He caressed my lower lip in a very gentle way that I
couldn't almost feel his finger brushing against my lip.
"Don't keep it inside you. You have to let it out. Ikaw lang ang mahihirap kung
aalagaan mo lang 'yan."
"Go away." I said and I heard him sighed.
"You're putting up a strong facade, but for me, it looked like it was your cry
for help. That's how you cry while waiting for someone to hear you. And I'm here,
my Queen. Eresh... I'm here. I heard you." he was almost begging. "Don't shut me
out."
A tear fell from my eyes after he said that. I gritted my teeth and tried to
hold on to the last brick of the wall that I've built that he hasn't broken down
yet.
One more push... And I might finally broke down in front of him.

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Chapter 47

I quickly wiped the tears off my cheeks. I put my hand on

Loki's chest to push him away from me but he wouldn't budge. He just kept on
staring at me, trying to read my emotions that I wanted to conceal.
But fuck... The last brick of my wall was slowly crumbling into pieces. No
matter how much I hold onto it, I knew that it would also break soon.
Loki broke down my wall that I built around me. He was the only one who got
this far. 'Cause he was the only one that affected me this much.
I don't know when it has started. Maybe that night when my mind was so chaotic
and he was there? Maybe the walls were started to break even back then as I let a
tear fell from my eye even when he's around.
Maybe because he was always there, when I really needed to calm the chaos
inside my head. He was there, trying to understand me no matter how many times I
pushed him away.
And now... I didn't know what would happen if I let go of this brick... The
last brick of my wall.
"Go away, Loki." I said while gritting my teeth. Trying to make myself not to
be affected by his words and actions.
"I won't..." he insisted. "I will never leave you, Eresh. I'll always be here
for you... Forever, right?"
"Stop..." I said with a shaky voice. His words were his weapon against the wall
that I built around me. And he's slowly getting there.
Just one more push...
"Don't be afraid." he said softly as he try to ease my fear. "I am here. I
heard your cry of help, Eresh. So I'm here for you."
I shook my head, still trying to push him away.
"I don't need you, Loki. And just stop! You're only doing this to know my
weakness!"
"No." he said and I was surprised when he cupped my face and stared deeply at
me. "Nakikita kong nahihirapan ka. So I wanted o help you. If you can't take it
anymore, then pass your burden to me. I will help you carry them. Hell, I would
even carry it alone."
He caressed my cheeks softly using his thumb. I took a deep breath 'cause I
just felt those the emotions wanted to took over me again. His sea-green eyes were
showing so many things to me.
He's giving me assurance with his soft touch. His eyes were telling me that he
won't leave me. That whatever I'm going to say, he will listen to all of it.
"Just don't shut me out." he said. "Include me in your life, my Queen."
My voice sounds so broken when I speak again.
"I'm not weak, Loki."
"I know..." he said. "I never saw you as someone who's weak. I never looked
down on you."
I stared at him. Fear was visible in my eyes now. I let him see how much scared
I am because of what he's doing. I let him see that I am not use to this.
And it seems like he saw it all. He kissed my forehead again before he stared
at me.
"I want to understand you, Eresh... Open up to me. I'm here for you."
I gritted my teeth and anger consumed me when he finally broke down the last
brick that I'm holding to so easily. He easily broke down the wall. He opened that
closed book with so many shred pieces inside and stared to read it. He just did it
so easily that I felt so mad.
"Fuck you!" I spat at him and tried to push him. Pero malakas talaga sya and I
felt frustrated even more.
I am not weak! I'm not weak! I'm strong!

"You really want to understand me? You do? You really want
to hear my past?" I asked as my tears started to roll down my cheeks out of
frustration. "Then, listen to me, you son of a bitch!"
I was throwing punches on his chest but he accepted it all. He didn't try to
stop me so I cried harder, letting out my frustration on him.
"Calm down, Eresh..." he said when I continously attacked his chest.
"No! Fuck! Listen to me!"
I pushed him again while crying. He finally took a step back and I sobbed as I
began attacking his chest again. I was crying habang paulit-ulit kong hinahampas
ang dibdib nya. His medals that was still pinned on his coat came off one by one
because of my continuous attacks.
But I don't fucking care. I don't fucking care. All I'm thinking is the pain in
my chest and I'm trying to keep it in by attacking Loki.
Fuck... It hurts. My chest hurts.
"Eresh..." Loki tried to caught my wrist. "You have to calm down first—"
"My father sexually assaulted me!"
Natigilan si Loki sa pagtatangkang hulihin ang pulsuhan ko. He looked at me
like someone who didn't understand what I've said even if he's so fucking smart.
I sobbed and cried harder. Damn it! People said that it's good to let your
feelings out but why do I feel more miserable now that I've said it? Why do the
pain in my chest doubled after I've said that?
I looked at Loki, trying to contain my sobs while wiping my tears. He was just
looking at me like I just dropped a bomb in front of him.
"Is that what you wanted to hear?" I asked. Pain was so much in my voice. "Iyon
ba? My father sexually assaulted me!"
I heard him took a sharp breath and looked at me with pain in his eyes. Mas
lalo akong naiyak. I covered my mouth with my hands, attempting to stop those
agonizing sobs that were escaping from my lips.
Fuck it. My chest hurts so much. Just by telling those words to Loki triggered
those memories again. Sunod-sunod na nag-play sa mga utak ko ang nakakadiring mga
eksenang iyon. I closed my eyes, hoping that it would disappear but it just made
those scenes more vivid.
"He did so many things to me... So many disgusting—"
My voice broke and I couldn't keep it anymore. My body began to tremble because
of those memories. Fucking damn it. I just want to forget everything. All of those
things. Pwede ba?
I slowly sat on the carpeted floor and leaned my back on the wall. Loki took a
step towards me but I held a hand to stop him.
"Stop!" I said. I looked up to him with tears still flowing from my eyes.
"Please, stay away. I'll tell you everything... Just stay away."
I am scared that if he get near me and hold me, I might clung onto him and cry
my heart's out. I might depend on him and I don't want that. I want to tell him my
past as to how I faced it all alone. Without anyone by my side. Without anyone to
support me. Without anyone to comfort me.
Just me. All alone.
I was thankful when Loki did what I said. He sit at the carpeted floor as well.
His back was leaning at the end of the bed. I noticed that his chest was heaving up
and down as he jaw moved while he gritted his teeth.
I bit my lower lip when I began to sob again. Hearing my own sobs felt so new
yet painful for me.
When was the last time that I cried like this hard? Like I've been mourning
over someone's death? But maybe I am. I'm mourning for that Ereshkigal that still
wanted to prove herself despite of everything that happened to her.

Fuck... So stupid.
"At the former human chess game..." I started when my sobs subside. "The Red
Faction was about to win when the EL Ordre cheated. They killed the Red Faction's
former Rook so the game became chaotic. Nobody won and that angered my father."
I looked down and played with my fingers. I've never felt like this before. So
miserable as my tears were continously rolling down my eyes.
"He took revenge and raped the EL Ordre's Queen whom the King loves so much.
Mabilis nyang nalaman kung sino ang Queen 'cause she was the only female on the
game. But little did he know, meron pang isa. Nagpapanggap lang bilang lalaki. It
was their Rook."
"Tracer and Shielder's mother." Loki said and I nodded. "She pretended to be a
man so enemies won't look down on her."
I nodded. "And Ishtar... Was the product of that revenge." I looked at Loki.
"Ever wonder why she became friends with Daphne so easily? That's the reason."
I saw Loki gulped so hard. I looked at his eyes and I saw pain in there. Like
he was hurting for me. Like he was also hurting because I am hurt. Because I'm
finally telling him about my past.
And I don't know... But I kinda like it that someone is hurting for me.
"Father took Ishtar from the EL Ordre's Queen and took care of her. He showered
her with love. He loved her as his own daughter. So opposite of me..."
My voice broke and tears started to pool my eyes again. I remember those times
when my father will get home, giving toys and gifts to Ishtar. Buying her a lot of
dresses na hindi nya ginawa sa akin. I remember watching all of those fatherly love
that he gave to Ishtar. But never to me.
Ishtar took pity on me and everytime she received something from our father,
palagi nya akong binibigyan. We always share things and that made me stop my anger
for her. Hindi ko magagawang magalit sa kanya kung ginagawa nya ang mga iyon.
She was pampered like a princess. She got everything that I was deprived of.
Father protected her. While he exposed me to dangers.
Sa akin nya ipinaliwanag ang lahat about sa game. He told me that I must win
the game this time. He never told Ishtar anything about it.
"Father made a plan to get revenge to the EL Ordre's King in this game. In our
game that we're playing." I continued. "But his plan failed the moment I was born.
He wasn't expecting a daughter. He wanted a son. He wanted a King. And he couldn't
have that anymore 'cause mother died while giving birth to me."
I looked down at my hands again dahil hindi ko makayanan ang sakit sa mga mata
ni Loki na mas lalo pa yatang tumitindi kapag tumitingin ako sa kanya. So I
remained on looking down while my tears dropped down to my hands.
I couldn't believe it... That I'm telling my past to someone. The past that I
consider as my weakness.
I can't believe that I'm exposing my weakness to Loki... My enemy.
"Father was selfish and egoistic." I said and tried to wipe my tears but they
continued flowing. "Ang gusto nya, Levitsky ang maging King and Queen ng Red
Faction. That's why she married my mother. But that ambition fell when she died
while giving birth to me. Ayaw nyang mag-ampon ng lalaki. He didn't want any woman
to carry his son, the King. He just wanted my mother."
 "Fuck..." I heard Loki whispered. Mukhang hindi na nakayanan ang pananahimik.
"He kept it as a secret to the Red Faction's gamemaster at first." I continued.
"But the gamemaster found out about it in the end. Maybe, our gamemaster made it a
secret to the EL Ordre's gamemaster. Kasi hindi nyo nalaman that we didn't have a
King from the start."

Umiling lang si Loki but I noticed his hands were balled in

fist. I could see his veins on his arms were showing dahil sa tindi ng pagkakakuyom
ng kamao nya. He folded his legs. Ipinatong nya sa tuhod nya ang mga braso nya.
"That angered my father more." I said and another batch of tears fell from my
eyes. "Feeling nya, natapakan ang ego nya. He felt insulted that our gamemaster
must hide this secret for us. At sa akin nya ibinuhos ang galit nya na 'yon."
I stopped when I made an agonizing sob. Damn it. Sunod-sunod ang paghikbi ko. I
still remember everything. Even when I tried so hard not to remember those things.
Pero paano ko nga ba makakalimutan ang mga iyon kung gabi-gabi naman akong
dinadalaw ng mga bangungot na iyon?
"His planned got ruined because of me. Because I was born as a woman. My mother
died because of me. I was branded as a selfish murderer bitch by my own father. He
told me that I was born because of this game so I must win this. But despite all of
that, my stupid young self still longed for his fatherly love."
I covered my mouth with my hands as I cried so hard. I was crying so hard that
I couldn't keep the ugly agonizing sounds deep within me. Siguro sa pandinig ni
Loki ay napakahina ko dahil umiiyak ako ng ganito.
I sounded like I lost something. Maybe I really did. I lost myself after all of
those things that I experienced. I am crying for the lost Ereshkigal.
I don't know who I should be anymore.
"Mas nadagdagan pa ang galit nya when Aius' father took Ishtar from us. He was
so mad but I felt so happy. Ang sama ko talaga, no? I felt so happy 'cause I
thought that... Maybe, father will finally see me as his daughter. Ngayong wala na
ang pinakamamahal nyang anak, akala ko sa akin nya na ibubuhos ang pagmamahal nya
bilang isang ama. Pero mas lalo lang syang lumala."
Fuck it... Just remembering those things and scenes again made my body tremble
with fear... and disgust.
"I was once attended a party with him dressed as a boy." I chuckled. "My blonde
hair were cut so short but because of my pretty face, everyone could still notice
that I was a girl."
I chuckled again but even with that chuckle, I could still hear the sound of
pain in my voice. And I'm sure that Loki heard it too.
"Father attented that party because he got news that Ishtar will be there. He
wanted to see his beloved daughter again." I sobbed. "I don't know how old I was
that time. But I could clearly remember the disgust on my father's face as he
looked at me, so opposite on how he gaze at Ishtar who looked like a princess that
night."
I looked at Loki and he was just looking at me. I realized that he was watching
me this whole time that I'm crying while telling these stories to him. I must've
looked like shit because of my face full of tears.
"Did you know how hurt I was when he introduced Ishtar as his daughter to his
acquaintances even if Ishtar was beside the EL Ordre's King, so many tables away
from us? Did you know how hurt I was when he ignored me the whole night when I was
the one who was by his side?" napahagulgol ako. "I was so hurt, Loki! I was so
insecure! Anak nya rin naman ako, ah?"
"Eresh..."
"But that wasn't all. Alam mo kung ano yung pinakamasakit? It was when we got
home that night." I chuckled. "He finally let out his anger at me because of how I
dressed up. Saying that no matter what I did, I am still a girl. That I still have
a pussy."
Loki closed his eyes so tight. I could tell that he has an idea about what I'm
gonna tell him and he's hurting kahit hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kanya. But he didn't
stop me anyway. He wanted to hear it all. All about me. All about my past.
"He undressed me..." I said and Loki muttered a lot of curses. "He was so angry
that I got hurt as he ripped the clothes off my body. And then he... He—"
"Fuck!"
"He removed his pants and... And boxers. He f-forced me to... He forced me to
suck his dick—"
"Putangina!"
Mabilis na lumapit sa akin si Loki despite what I've told him earlier. He
hugged me so tight that I felt his body shaking because of anger. I could hear his
ragged breathing like he was trying to calm himself but is failing miserably.
I buried my face on his shoulders and cried so hard. Nanginginig ang buong
katawan ko at nararamdaman kong mas humihigpit ang yakap sa akin ni Loki. It's like
he wanted to stop my body from shaking. He wanted to stop my fears that I'm feeling
by hugging me this tight.
""I was so young! So young that time!" I cried. "Ang bata-bata ko pa noon!
Seven or—"
"Fuck! Tangina! Fuck!"
I cried and clung onto his shirt. I might ruin his uniform but Loki didn't care
about that. Hinayaan nya akong umiyak nang umiyak sa balikat nya as he hugged me so
tight.
So tight making sure that I would feel so secure. Like nobody will ever hurt me
again now that I'm inside his arms.

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Chapter 48

Loki didn't let me go even if his uniform is getting wet

because of my tears. He was just hugging me tight like he's afraid that I might get
hurt more if he loosen his hug on me. I could still feel his body trembling out of
anger which made me cry even more.
I didn't know that I will feel comfort in him. That it will feel this good
because someone is getting mad about what happened to me. I didn't know that I will
be glad that he's showing reaction like this. It makes me feel that I'm special to
him.
I didn't know that I would feel comfortable telling him about my past. I never
knew that deep inside me, I want someone to listen to me, to know about what
happened to me. I didn't know that I want someone to understand me. Kahit isang tao
lang. Isang tao na makakaintindi sa akin.
I didn't know all of that. Not until I began to tell my story to Loki.
And now that I'm inside his arms, parang gusto ko na lang na sabihin sa kanya
ang lahat. I want him to understand me as what he had said to me. I am clinging
onto his coat like it's my lifeline.
I was sobbing so hard that I'm having a hard time breathing. Loki began to
stroke my back gently, soothing my pain in his own way. I clung to his shirt even
more. Not minding if I ripped or ruin his uniform. Loki didn't say anything like
his uniform was the least of his problem.
"It hurts, Loki..." I mumbled and Loki tightened his hug.
"I'm here... You're not alone, now." he said. "I'm listening, Eresh."
I nodded and tried to continue telling him my story even if it feels like it
will break me thousand times. But Loki is hugging me, na parang sinisiguro nyang
hindi ako mawawasak dahil hawak nya ako.
"I didn't know what's happening that time. His big and disgusting d-dick was
inside my... My small mouth." I continued as my tears began to fall again. "I was
gagging and coughing but my father didn't care about that. He started to move his
hips and... F-fuck me in my mouth."
 I heard Loki took a sharp and painful breath. He was having a hard time
listening to my stories. I could feel his anger. He's livid. But he tried to remain
calm and let me pour my pain out.
"He was gripping my hair and I couldn't get away. He didn't care even if I
couldn't breathe anymore. He was doing it roughly. Buti na lang, nilabasan din sya
bago pa ko malagutan ng hininga. That was the first time he came into my mouth."
I chuckled but it sounds like a cry of pain. I just let myself cry after that.
I want to let it all out without looking miserable. I want to let out the pain
without crying this much.
But I can't. Akala ko, dahil matagal na ay hindi na ako gaanong masasaktan. But
it hurts a hundred times more now that I'm telling my stories to someone. I can't
help but to cry so hard.
"First time, Loki..." I said. "Dahil hindi iyon ang huli. That was the start of
my living hell. Just the start of everything."
I closed my eyes but opened it again 'cause I could see those scenes in the
darkness. Like it just happened yesterday. It was vivid and clear. I could see my
young self, kneeling on the floor while my father was sitting at the end of the
bed, teaching me on how to give a proper head.
"He taught me disgusting things, Loki...." my voice broke even if I try to tell
those words softly. "He taught me how to pleasure a man using my own body. He came
into my mouth a lot of times. And my stupid young self thought that by doing what
he wanted, he will accept me as his child eventually. Pero hindi. Wala.  Nababoy na
ko lahat-lahat, but I was still deprived of his love."
I can't count how many times I questioned myself why he was treating me
differently compared on how he treated Ishtar. He loved her as his daughter even if
she was a product of a rape. She was born out of revenge but my father still loved
her and accepted her.

But I realized everything one day. That my father was a

very prideful man. His ego was very important to him. He was about to win the game
when the EL Ordre cheated that stopped the game. He had his revenge to the King by
raping the King's beloved woman. Nabuo si Ishtar and that's the reason why the EL
Ordre's Queen chose to break up with the King.
For my father, Ishtar was the representation of his successful revenge. She was
the proof that he got even with the EL Ordre's King that's why he loved Ishtar so
much. While I was the representation of his failed plan. That we couldn't win the
game anymore because I was born as a woman. That I was the reason why he couldn't
have a son anymore.
For him, his honor was everything.
"He taught me how to pleasure myself as well." I continued while sobbing so
hard. "He was watching me... While jerking off."
"Fuck!" I heard Loki said while gritting his teeth. "Putangina, Eresh.
Makakapatay ako."
Humagulgol ako sa mga balikat nya nang marinig ko iyon. It made me happy that
he's willing to do that for me. Pero pakiramdam ko ay ang sama-sama ko, not that I
don't after everything that I've done. Pero pakiramdam ko ay ako na ang
pinakamasamang tao dahil natuwa akong gusto nyang patayin ang ama ko.
"He made me think that I was just born for the game." I said. Still trying to
talk in between ny sobs. "That the game was the sole reason of my existence. That
if I don't win this, then I have no right to live."
"That isn't true." Loki mumbled as he caressed my back. "That's not fucking
true."
"He made me think that by using my body, I will have a chance to win. He said
that I should seduce the EL Ordre's King in this game. He preserved my virginity
only for that reason. That I was born to sacrifice my body to the enemy's King so
we could win the game."
I pushed him away and I cried when I saw his face. He looked so much in pain.
His eyes were bloodshot because of unshed tears. He was trembling with so much
anger. His jaw was clenching as he gritted his teeth.
"I was alone, Loki... Alone. Nobody was beside me to comfort me. I don't even
know how I could even live after all of that." I smiled bitterly at him. "You might
tell me that I have my Bishop who looked like he would do everything for me. But
no... He hurt me as well."
His lips parted like he wasn't expecting what I just told him. Like he couldn't
believe that there was still more. I was smiling while my tears were falling down
from my eyes. I know that I looked like shit and miserable but I don't care
anymore.
Everything. I want to tell him everything.
"One time..." I continued. "My father came to my room with Enkidu. I thought
that he was just going to talk to me about the game. Pero nagulat ako nang maghubad
sya ng pantalon."
I covered my face with my hands. Doon ako humagulgol dahil hindi ko na kaya. It
hurts so much. It fucking hurts.
I felt Loki hugged me again. Hindi ako tumigil sa kakaiyak as I felt his
comfort.
He's here... Someone is finally here to protect me.
It's okay... Tell him everything, Eresh. It will be okay.
"He made Enkidu watch us. I was crying, Loki. Pero naisip ko na baka tulungan
ako ni Enkidu. He was my Bishop afterall." I chuckled. "Pero alam mo kung anong
nakaka-putangina? He got a boner!"
I chuckled so loud. I feel like I'm going crazy. I was crying while laughing
but Loki still tightened his hug on me. He didn't care if he's hugging someone who
was about to go insane.
Maybe... Whoever will experience what I've gone through might go crazy as well.
Tumawa ako pero mas lalo lang akong nasaktan. Nakakatawa naman kasi. I thought
Enkidu will took pity on me. I thought Enkidu will help me stop my father on what
he's doing to me. Pero hindi. Instead, he got a boner while watching how my father
ruined me.
"When father saw that..." I continued talking but sobbed again.
Fuck. I think I'm so near at getting so fucking crazy.
"He made Enkidu removed his pants. And when he ordered me to pleasure Enkidu, I
lost it all." I bit my lower lip. "He was my last hope, Loki. My last hope. Pero
nung nilabasan din sya? Nawala na ang lahat."
"Fucking shit! Fuck!" Loki muttered a lot of curses that made me cry more.
"That's why I didn't care whenever he saw me naked. He never got a boner again
so I began teasing him if he's gay. But I know, he was just guilty." I chuckled.
"Wala na akong pakialam kung ano pang makita nya. He already saw me so low. He saw
me in that state. And I'm done fucking hoping that I will still have a good life."
I was breathing heavily as I cried so hard. I felt something wet dropped on my
shoulder and that's when I realized that Loki was crying.
It surprised me pero dahil doon ay mas lalo lang akong naiyak. Wow... Someone
is crying for me. Me who is so fucking evil. Someone is crying because of what I've
gone through.
I kept it for so long. I didn't cry for so long. And now, there is someone who
is crying for me.
Pakiramdam ko, bawing-bawi ang mga panahon na hindi ako umiyak.
"I started to believe that what my father had said is true. I will never have a
good life because my existence is only for the game. My body is only for seducing
the EL Ordre's King so we could win. That I don't have the right to live if I lose
this game."
I looked at Loki whose eyes were so red. There were traces of tears on his
cheeks as his sea-green eyes were shedding tears for me.
"But you know what? Despite all of that, I am still longing for his fatherly
love. I am still hoping that one day, he will finally accept me as his own
daughter. So I did everything I could to win this game. Kasi doon lang ako
magkakalugar. 'Cause I don't have a place to go if I lose in this game."
 I smiled bitterly at Loki. I know that he wanted to say so much pero hinayaan
nya akong sabihin ang lahat. And I felt so thankful because of that.
"Do you understand me now, Loki? Do you understand where I'm coming from? You
might say that I'm selfish 'cause I'm doing all of these for my own benefits." I
started to cry again. "Pero hindi ko na kasi alam kung saan ako lulugar kapag
natalo ako. Winning this game is the reason of my existence. So let me win this...
Please."
Loki cupped my face. There's a tear that fell down from his eyes so he wiped it
but returned his hand on my face quickly. He stared at me, his sea-green eyes were
looking at me deeply. He made sure that I will realize that I am the only one he's
seeing now.
Only me.
"Listen to me." he said. I nodded and stared back at him. "I understand you.
But I want you to know, win or lose the game, you have a place here, Eresh."
I shook my head, not believing the words he just said. How could I when all my
life, iba ang pinaniwalaan ko?
"Eresh." he softly caressed my cheeks. "You have a place here. With me. I can
be your safe place. I can be your home. I am here for you."
"Please, don't make me hope again." I said while crying. But Loki gave me his
most gentle smile.
"Forever, Eresh. I'm willing to be your safe place, forever."
I sobbed and buried my face on his chest. Loki quickly gave me his hug as he
caressed my hair softly. I cried so hard as I felt that I'm really safe inside his
arms. 'Cause he won't let anybody hurt me again.
Fuck it. I don't want to depend on someone. I am a strong Queen. I am strong. I
want to get through all of this alone.
But I know that I can't. And I only realized that now.
I thought that I was doing okay. But Loki made me feel otherwise.
So just this once. Just this one time... Can I depend on someone and ask for
his help?
Can I depend on Loki and make him my own safe place?

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Chapter 49

I can't remember what happened after crying so hard on

Loki's shoulder because of what he had said to me. His words comforted me but it
made me feel sad at the same time. I am scared of what I've heard.
I never thought that I badly needed someone who will listen to me. I never
thought that I would feel so calm while Loki was hugging me telling me that I can
have my own safe place. I never thought that he could make me pour all my emotions
like that onto him.
And it's true. I felt better than before now that I've told him about my past.
I found myself lying on the bed when I woke up. I was still inside the room of
the second Von Amstel manor. But what made this morning different from yesterday is
that I have someone beside me in this bed.
Loki was sleeping peacefully on the space next to mine. It surprised me when I
finally realized our position. Nakaunan ako sa braso nya, his arms were wrapped
around my back while the other was on my waist, hugging me closer to him. Our faces
were only inches apart that his breath was fanning my face. And fuck... His breath
smells so good.
I stared at his face. The first time I woke up and found him sleeping beside me
already shocked the shit out of me, what more now that he's hugging me like he is
protecting me against anything or anyone who will try to hurt me?
I must've fell asleep in his arms after crying so hard. Siguro ay napagod ang
katawan ko at ang mga mata ko sa kaiiyak and Loki tucked me in the bed again.
Thinking about what he did made my heart skipped a beat.
Dahan-dahan akong kumalas sa pagkakayakap nya. He looked so peaceful and I
didn't want to disturb him from his sleep. I appreciate what he did, not letting go
of me while I was pouring my emotions out so this is the least that I could do.
I got up and went inside the bathroom. I took a bath and stayed under the
shower while watching the water drop from my hair. My long blonde hair that I truly
despise.
It is a representation on how much I tried so hard to prove to my father that
despite being a woman, I could still win the game. It is the representation of the
first day I decided to let my hair grow. That day when father started to ruin
everything in me.
They said that for a daughter, their father is the first man in their life, the
first man they ever love, and the first man that would protect them. But that
didn't happen to me. 'Cause my father was the first man who ruined me and broke me
into pieces.
That's why I am so envious to Ishtar. She got my father's love. She got
everything I longed for. And the EL Ordre's King took her, mas gumanda pa lalo ang
buhay nya. 'Cause there were so many people who wanted to protect her.
While me, I have no one. I only have myself. So I did everything to become
strong all alone. I did everything so nobody will ever look down on me. So everyone
would fear me.
But above all of that, I know... I still wanted my father's approval. I still
wanted to be accepted.
Stupid, huh?
I blow-dry my hair inside the bathroom. I have no idea how long I am here but
I'm sure that Loki is now awake because of the noise that the blow dryer is making.
I walked out of the bathroom with my bathrobe on to get clothes in the walk-in
closet. Nakita kong nakaupo na sa kama si Loki pero hindi ko sya nilingon. I saw in
the corner of my eyes that he was just looking at me as I entered the inside the
walk-in closet. It was so spacious with a lot of clothes and shoes that I'm sure
will cost billions altogether.
But instead of getting dressed, I just stared at myself in the full-length
mirror. Loki came in the view and leaned his body on the wall holding a phone on
his ear while waiting for someone to answer his call. He was topless and was only
wearing a boxer short. Magulo ang buhok nya but still, one couldn't deny that he's
a royalty. A very attractive prince.

"L..." I heard him. I was looking at him through his

reflection on the mirror and he was doing the same.
I began to untie my robe while looking at him. Hinubad ko iyon and let it fall
on the tiled floor. Loki's expression didn't even change. He was looking at me with
dark and brooding eyes as he talked over the phone.
"Track down the Red Faction's Queen's Bishop." he said. "Do it quickly."
"What are you gonna do to him?" I asked when he ended the call. He didn't
answer me and walked closer to me.
He looked at my reflection in the mirror. Hinagod nya ng tingin ang buong
katawan ko. I could his gaze on my body at he stared at every inches off my skin.
And I don't know but I began to feel nervous.
It was the first time that I feel this way. I was always so sure back then that
people will compliment me whenever they saw me. But with Loki, especially now that
he knew everything about me, I'm scared of what he would say.
I am so naked in front of him but I don't feel uncomfortable. I'm just...
Afraid. Afraid that he might find me hideous.
"Disgusting... Isn't it?" I asked.
Ibinalik ni Loki ang paningin sa mga mata ko. He moved closer until I could
feel the warmth of his body on my bare back pero hanggang doon lang. Hindi nya
idinikit ang katawan sa akin and that made me feel so anxious.
 Wow... I feel so weak against him. He can make me feel emotions like this.
"People were always telling me that I'm beautiful." I continued. "But I wonder
if they could still say that once they've known about my past? Once they've known
that this body was used a lot of times by my father. That he came a lot of times
inside my mouth that made me want to rip my throat out."
I began to get teary eyed and I cursed silently. I thought that I let it all
out yesterday. I thought that I cried every tears out of my body. Pero meron pa
pala.
Fuck... I'm not a crybaby. But it just... Hurts so bad to talk about my past.
I eyed my body from head to toe. Women will do everything to get a body and
face like this. But I never really wanted this. I hated my body. I hated everything
about me.
I'm not loveable. Nobody have ever loved me. Who will, though, if they discover
how disgusting I am.
"I feel so dirty... So disgusting."
He eyed my body again. Nakatitig lang ako sa mukha nya, inaabangan kung anong
magiging reaksiyon nya. Fuck. I wanted to cry. I never felt so helpless before. But
waiting for his reaction like this can scare the shit out of me.
"Which one?" he asked when he returned his gaze on my face.
"Me." I said. "Everything about me. You know now about my past. So tell me how
disgusting I am."
He sighed and his breath fanned my shoulders. It sent chills down my spine that
made me anxious even more. But I didn't expect when he wrapped an arm around my
waist, pulled me closer to him and planted a soft kiss on my shoulder blades.
"You are beautiful." he whispered.
"Look at me, Loki." I said kahit na hindi nya naman tinatanggal ang tingin sa
akin mula sa salamin.
"I am looking at you, Eresh." he said. "I find you beautiful even before..."
He trailed off his words and I just waited for him to continue his sentence.
The nervousness was so evident on my face but I didn't hide it from him. He already
saw everything about me. He saw that I'm just a weak human trying to look so
strong.

He flashed me a gentle smile.

"And now that I've learned about your past... You just became the most gorgeous
woman in my eyes."
My eyes watered because of the emotions that resurfaced inside my chest.
"Liar." I said, voice quivering.
"I'm not." he said so softly and looked at me intently again. "I am looking at
you. And you know what I'm seeing? I could see a woman who is so powerful and
strong that she overcome all those things that hurt her. I could see a woman who
can turn her pain into a power. I could see a woman who tried to live even when the
world was against her."
I shook my head. Tears started to fall down from my eyes. Fuck it. His words
can really affect me so much. Everything about him can do something on me.
Just by his words and I could already feel that there's still hope for me. Hope
that I've already abandoned for so long.
"Hindi, Loki." I said as tears flowed down from my eyes. "I just don't know how
to live anymore. I continued what I think will let me deserve the life that I was
given. You didn't know how many times I thought of giving up. But I stopped that
thoughts whenever I think that I don't deserve anything even death."
He planted a kiss on my shoulder blades again and stayed like that for a while.
His eyes were closed and I felt him tightening his hug on me. I began to sobbed.
I don't want to get used to him doing this. I don't want to get used that
everytime I will crt, he will always be there to comfort me. Fuck, I could count
all the moments when he comforted me pero nasasanay na agad ako. And I don't want
this. I am becoming greedy.
 I want more. I want more of his comfort.
"I know your past hurt you so much." he said when he looked at me again. "But
don't let it hurt you forever. Your past is not going to be your present and your
future. Your past is not going to be your whole life."
"It's not that easy, Loki..." I said. I realized that I am really opening
myself up to him.
"I know... I know that it won't." he said. "And I really admire you how you
used your past to move on everyday and fight. Others may judge the way how you
fight but you still stood strong and held your head up high. And that's the proof
that you deserve to live. You deserve everything in this world, Eresh..."
I started to cry really hard. My tears continously fell down from my face. I
began to sobbed as Loki held my chin and slightly lifted it up.
"You are a strong, independent woman. No matter how many obstacles you've met,
no matter how many times you tripped, no matter how many thorns you've step on, you
still walked past through it on your own. All alone, without anyone helping you.
And I am so proud of you, Eresh."
I bit my lower lip. Loki kissed me on the side of my head before he smiled at
me.
"You are a true Queen, indeed."
Napahagulgol ako. Fuck... How many times I've longed to hear those words? How
many times I've wished that someone will say that they are proud of me after all
that I've done? After all those times of pretending to be strong?
All the words that I've wanted to hear from my father, Loki said it all.
That's all I ever wanted.
"Tell me everything that you want." sabi ni Loki kaya napatingin ako sa kanya
habang humihikbi. "Tell me everything, Eresh."
"Loki..."
"You deserve everything. You deserve the world. And I'll give it all to you."
I sobbed. Fuck. How could I not fell inlove with this man?
"Let me see the real you, my Queen. The real Ereshkigal Levitsky."
Hinawakan nya ako sa magkabilang balikat at hinarap ako sa kanya. He crouched
down and stared at me in the eye.
"You are the Queen that even the King will bow down to." he smiled. "And this
King is now bowing down before you."
I was surprised when he knelt down in one knee while looking up to me. He held
my hands when I tried to move away from him.
I am so naked in front of him. So naked even before now that I've told him
everything about my past. There's no wall in between us. We're looking at each
other, eye to eye, soul to soul. And I began to cry again.
Fuck... This royalty in front me is kneeling down before me. Like a King who
worships his Queen even if we are at his own castle.
"I'll give you everything that you deserve, my Queen."
I couldn't help but to cry out of happiness. Hindi ko alam na pwede pala 'yon.
That one could shed a tears because she's happy. And I never thought that I will
still be able to feel this way.
"Rise... My King." I said. Loki immediately did what I said. "You'll really
give me everything I wanted?"
He nodded and cupped my cheeks. He wiped my tears. "Everything."
"Then..." I licked my lower lip. "Let's go shopping."
His lips parted as he stared at my eyes. Para bang naninigurado kung tama ba
ang narinig nya. And when I didn't take back what I said, he chuckled.
"Of course... Let's go shopping."
I turned around and pretended to find clothes I will wear. And after awhile, I
felt my lips broke into a smile.
The first smile I did out of happiness..
I know that everything isn't alright yet. I am still hurting. I'm still in pain
after remembering my past again. But I'm better compared to what I was before.
We still have our game but for now, I will do what I really wanted. I will set
aside the game and let myself be happy.
 Kahit sandali lang. Siguro naman, I still deserve even a minute of happiness,
right? Even if it's not forever.
For now, I will stay at my safe place and let myself be comfortable and at
ease.

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Chapter 50

I wore a mermaid style red dress and I just let my long

blonde hair fall down to my waist. This is one of the advantages of having a
slightly curly hair. I didn't have to try so hard to think of a style.
Loki already went down and he said that he will just wait for me on the garage.
A servant had to guide me when I went out of the room. And fuck. I just realized
that this second Von Amstel manor is so damn big, spacious and luxurious.
Fuck it. Then what about their main manor? I bet that it would look like a damn
castle!
I was looking around the freaking house. There were a lot of expensive
paintings, vases and some decorations. The interior were a mixed of gold and brown
that one would feel that this is a very luxurious house. We went down the stairs
and I even saw that there's a family painting of the Von Amstel displayed at the
wall of the staircase.
There is only one magnificent chair in the picture and a child was sitting
there. Both of his parents were standing by his side, looking at the camera with a
serious expression on their faces. The father almost looked like the same as the
child, only younger, but he got his sea-green eyes from his mother.
I looked at the kid in the picture. He was wearing a white longsleeve button
down shirt with a blue lines on the sleeves. It was tucked in his blue shorts that
reached below his knees. He was wearing a high blue socks and I can't help but to
stifle a laugh.
He looked so damn cute.
But there was sadness in his eyes as he stared at the camera. I stared at the
kid in the picture and he looked like he was trying to look stoic and powerful just
like his parents who didn't have a smile on their faces. He did it though, but I
could tell that he was sad.
Did he have a rough childhood as well?
Ah... Damn it. I'm really curious about him.
Nagpatuloy kami sa paglalakad until we finally reached their garage. There was
a lot of expensive cars there but I saw Loki leaning on the hood of his damn car
while waiting for me.
He was wearing an aviator but I could feel him eyeing me from head to toe. The
dress that I'm wearing has a very thin strap with a low neckline that my cleavage
were already exposed. It almost looked backless on the back dahil kalahati na ng
likod ko ang kita doon.
I waited for his words when I finally stopped in front of him. He stood
straight and it was me who eyed him whole this time. He was wearing a navy blue
button down shirt tucked in his white pants. The sleeves were rolled up to his
elbow and the first two buttons of his shirt were open. Humahapit sa mga muscles
nya ang damit nya making him ten times hotter than before. I saw him wearing a
silver chain necklace this time. His hair was unruly and some strands were falling
down to his forehead but it just made him more attractive.
He removed his aviator and I finally saw his sea-green eyes. I just raised an
eyebrow at him and jerked my head at a certain direction.
"Do we really need all that bodyguard of yours?" I asked.
He glanced at his bodyguards. The three men dressed like men in black were
standing beside a black car while the other two was standing beside the car with
the same color as the first. Loki looked back at me and he shrugged his shoulders.
 "I love to accompany you but I have no plans of carrying loads of shopping
bags." he said. "And we need protection. There might be paparazzi around."
Geez. It's not like a paparazzi could harm him though.
I crossed my arms over my chest and frowned at him.
"With your car like that, it's like you really want a paparazzi following us."

Of course! I'm sure that they already know all of his cars!
The internet knows about his cars! He's a damn royalty and every move that he does
might be on the paper or internet after a minute or so!
And even if they haven't still know that he have this car, they will discover
it today! It's a fucking Lamborghini Huracan! It's not like some simple or ordinary
family could ever afford that!
He chuckled at my statement. "Is it wrong that I just wanted to spoil my
Queen?"
I just raised an eyebrow at him and didn't give him the reaction that would
lift his ego. He just gave me a boyish grin and opened the passenger's car door for
me. And when he turned his back at me, I bit my lower lip to stop the small smile
that wanted to escape from my lips.
The moment I opened myself up to him, I don't know... I just feel so... Free.
Like I can finally do everything I wanted without worrying for anything. I felt
better. Slowly, I feel like I can really live a good life now.
And I'm scared... Natatakot akong hanap-hanapin ang ganitong pakiramdam. I'm
scared that this will be all temporary. Because we still have our game.
I looked at Loki who was driving the car in a fast speed. The car's roof was
retracted so the wind were freely blowing our hairs. And looking at him feels like
I'm watching a romantic movie. He looked so handsome as his hair were swaying from
the wind.
Sinikop ko ang buhok ko sa isang balikat at hinakawan lang iyon. I looked at
the road and the scenery and it looked like we were back at the medieval times. I
couldn't help but to be amazed. It was a wonder how the this city could keep this
look. I never realized that the city of York is so beautiful.
Loki parked the car at the parking lot of some mall. He opened the car door for
me and guided me to the entrance of the mall. His bodyguards were just following us
and if someone who didn't know about him will saw us now, they will immediately
think that he's a very important person because of his damn bodyguards. Kahit hindi
paparazzi ay susundan kami ngayon.
"Where do you want to go first?" he asked, not minding about the attention that
we're receiving. Siguro ay sanay na sya. I realized that he's really famous in his
own country.
Of course. He's a fucking royalty.
I rolled my eyes. Might as well enjoy the attention with him. I'm sure that
whatever angle they took of my pictures, it will turn out good.
"Women necessities." I said and winked at him. He chuckled and followed me as I
entered the jewelry store.
Loki was just waiting patiently as I tried almost all of the jewelries na
natitipuhan ko. He never said anything. He was giving me his opinion honestly
whenever I asked him about it. He was so attentive to all of my questions to him.
Fuck... He knows how to make me feel special.
"Does it suit me?" I asked when I went out of the fitting room of the first
boutique that we visited. Loki was sitting on the waiting area. Nakade-kwatro sya
at matyagang naghihintay sa akin.
"Turn around." he said which I immediately did.
He eyed the dress intently and played with his lips. He was frowning a little
and I immediately knew what his opinion is.
"I get it." I said and turned around. Pero bago pa ako makapasok ulit sa
fitting room ay hinawakan nya ang braso ko para pigilan ako. I saw him standing in
front of me when I looked around.
 "Every dress suits you, Eresh." he said sincerely. "It's just that—"
"I said I get it, geez." I said and chuckled.

I noticed that he stilled and just stared at my face. I

pursed my lips when I realized why did he became like that. I cleared my throat and
raised an eyebrow at him.
"What?"
"I love the sound of your laugh." he said, straightforwardly.
Fuck... I think all my blood just went up to my face.
We heard a click of a fucking camera so we looked where that sound came from.
We saw a man who pretended that he's looking around when it was obvious that he was
the one who did that.
I saw Loki rolled his eyes. "Fucking paparazzi." he mumbled that made me
chuckle again.
After an hour of going from one store to another, the bodyguards were already
carrying four big and large shopping bags at each hands. They looked so funny as
they struggle themselves on how they would carry eight shopping bags at the same
time.
We're still aware that a paparazzi were following us but we tried to ignore it.
Pero nakakailang din pala dahil bawat galaw namin ay kinukuhaan nya. And I'm
fucking sure that I'm included at every picture of Loki.
"Is it always like this for you everyday?" I asked. It was too late to stop
myself. I just got so curious that I can't help but to ask him.
"Nah..." he said, following me inside the store again. "They were just
interested in me 'cause I'm the remaining one in the line who haven't gotten
married yet."
I stopped from scanning the racks of dresses and looked at him.
"Line of what?" I asked.
"Line of succession." he answered so simply.
I gaped at him, shocked at his news. Damn it! He is one of the successor of the
throne and I never knew about it! I just thought of him as the second cousin of the
real heir!
"I am only the sixth in line." he said like it's a simple thing. "There were
four before me not including the Prince of Wales. He's the real heir, though."
"But still!" I insisted. "Fuck..."
That's why Nergal was tamed around him! He knew that this man is one of the
fucking successors to the throne!
Damn you, Nergal!
Loki just chuckled and paid for my dresses. Wala syang pakialam kung magkano na
ang nagagastos nya. He was just giving his card to pay for everything that I want.
He really did what he had said. He's giving me everything that I wanted without
a second thought. And I think that whatever I ask of him, he will immediately give
it to me.
He's spoiling me. At ayokong masanay sa ganito.
May nadaanan kaming isang establishment na nagpatigil sa akin. I stared at the
name and quickly made up my mind.
"Wait here." I said to Loki. Hindi na rin naman nya ako sinundan sa loob.
The receptionist greeted me and a hairstylist assisted me immediately. He made
me sit on one of the chairs in front of the mirror.
"I want it cut like this." I said and pointed at the photo of my desired
hairstyle. The stylist looked at me warily.
"Are you sure?"
I nodded. "So damn sure.
The hairstylist began his work on me. I was just staring at my mirror and I
watched how he cut my long blonde hair to my desired length. Napatingin pa sya sa
akin sa salamin nang gawin ang unang gupit. Probably to know my reaction but when
he saw that there was no regret in my eyes, he continued cutting and styling my
hair.
He did it for almost an hour. I wonder how Loki and the bodyguards could wait
for that long without knowing what's happening to me in here. I asked the
receptionist not to let them in as I wanted to surprise Loki with my new look. He
paid for my haircut though.
I wonder how he will react.
"Perfection!" the hairstylist exclaimed when he finish his work on me. I
smirked at him when I got satisfied with what he had done. "I was having my doubts
of cutting your hair. It was beautiful and long but I must say that this new style
of yours really suits you."
He smiled at me and I gave him my smirk. I went out of the salon and when Loki
saw me, his lips parted and stared at me until I was already in front of him.
It probably surprised him. My long blonde hair was now cut short. I asked the
stylist to cut it in a inverted bob style with choppy layers. My hair was wavy with
curls and I could feel some strands were touching my face. The length only reached
half of my neck. My new hairstyle emphasize my pretty face.
I was not planning of having a haircut today. Basta pagkakita ko lang sa salon
kanina ay bigla pumasok ang idea na iyon sa isip ko.
I feel like... now that I'm starting to get better, I must let go of the things
that will remind of my painful past. And that is my long hair that I keep so I
could show my father that a woman can fight against men too.
Loki is right. My past is not going to be my whole life.
Loki was not saying anything and just keep looking at me. I raised an eyebrow
at him, trying to look tough even though I am so damn nervous of what he would say.
"So..." I started. "What do you thi—"
I was surprised when he suddenly cupped my cheeks and pulled my head towards
him. The next moment, I could feel his warm lips against mine.
I got shocked and couldn't move for a while. He was kissing me! He was kissing
me in front of the people of his country! In front of the paparazzis that were
taking photos of us continously!
Come to think of it. He was never this intimate to me in front of others
before. Not like I was asking for it though. I just realized about it now that he's
kissing me while having an audience.
Loki let me go without giving me a chance to kiss him back. Pinagdikit nya ang
mga noo namin at tinitigan ako. His hands were still cupping my cheeks.
"The paparazzis..." I reminded him.
"I don't fucking care." he said. "Let it be a headline so everyone will know
that you are mine. Fuck, you look so beautiful, my Queen. I can't help myself."
He kissed me again and when I felt the warmth of his lips moving against mine,
I kissed him back. Fuck, I don't care about the paparazzis as well! I missed his
lips, damn it!
"You are so beautiful." he whispered as he enveloped me in his hug.
"But full of flaws." I countered.
"Your flaws are what makes you perfect."
He tightened his hug on me, not giving a care if everyone was watching us. Not
giving a care about the paparazzis taking photos of us. He just keeps on hugging
me, not even planning of letting go of me soon.
So I relaxed myself inside his arms and hugged him back.
My own safe place...

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Chapter 51

I went out of the room after I was done taking a bath and
eat breakfast. Loki was eating with me when a servant suddenly came inside the room
and told him that he got a visitor. He left me for a while but he's taking a long
time. I was done with my morning routine but he still hasn't came back yet so I
decided to check on him.
I stopped on my tracks before I could reach the stairs. I don't know what am I
doing. It was so natural for me to think that I should check on him now that he's
gone for too long when he promised that he'll came back quickly. And I feel like I
am not myself. This isn't like me.
I don't care about people. All I care about is winning the game but why am I
here, trying to walk down the stairs and find where Loki is?
Or is this the real me? Am I being too attached to Loki?
Oh, fuck. This isn't what I wanted. I don't want him to think that I'm being
too clingy or I'm being depende on him!
I don't want to get used of him being around me. I know that our lives were so
complicated. Our lives weren't simple because of the fucking chess game that we're
playing. So being like this to him might be so wrong.
"His Royal Highness is at the lounge with the visitor, Your Majesty."
I almost jumped in surprise because someone suddenly talked at my back. I
turned around and saw the servant who served me the firsy day that I came here
looking at me.
"I'm not fucking asking you." I said, totally pissed off that she saw me in
that state. Almost out of myself because of what I'm thinking that I haven't even
felt her presence.
Fuck! Loki could affect me this much!
"I apologize, Your Majesty." she even bowed down and walked when I called her
attention.
"Hey." she looked back at me. "Where did you say... Where did say Loki is?"
She flashed me that irritating smile again and I just rolled my eyes to hide my
blush. Fucking damn it.
"His Royal Highness is at the lounge, Your Majesty."
I rolled my eyes at her and went down the stairs. Wala na akong panahon para
pag-isipan kung itutuloy ko ba ang pagpunta kay Loki o hindi. Not when the servant
caught me in the act.
Just fuck. I'm just not used at being like this. Finding someone just because
they've been gone for too long when they left while we're in the middle of eating
our breakfast. I'm not used at everything that's happening around me lately. But
Loki made me feel that this is just a normal thing. That I shouldn't worry about
anything and enjoy myself.
He really did spoil me. He's always asking what I wanted to do and he will make
it happen in a blink of an eye. And I appreciate him for that.
It's just that... I still have my doubts. I really want to enjoy being with him
but I can't help to think about the game from time to time.
We're still enemies and I'm the Queen. I did unforgivable things to them and
I'm worried that Loki might be doing all of this just to hurt me.
It was so hard for me to trust other people. Not when my father, the first
person I thought would be my ally, was the first one who betrayed and hurt me. The
first person whom I thought would protect me.
Not when the Pierre, the person whom I thought would help, ended up hurting and
betraying me as well.
I really wanna trust Loki. But... I just can't. Especially with our
circumstances.
"The Duke also wants you to settle over this... mess, Your Royal Highness."
I heard a male voice before I could even see them. Sitting at one-seater sofa
is Loki, his legs were crossed and he's holding a white envelope with a red crest
in the middle. Across him is a man, dressed like his bodyguards, sitting straight
as he talked to him.

"I have told my father not worry about it." Loki said as he
played with the envelope ins his hands. "You didn't have to come here, Gerard."
 "The Duke ordered me to talk to you personally." said the man named Gerard.
"The palace is becoming chaotic because of this rumors, Your Royal Highness."
Loki chuckled. "Not that it wasn't before."
"Reporters are flocking over the main manor and the Palace. The Duke is not
please. He wants you to settle this mess immediately."
"There's no mess to clean as this is the truth." Loki said. His jaw were
clenching and I could that he's trying to remain calm although I could see that
he's annoyed. "Stop calling her a mess."
"You wouldn't like it if the Royal Duke will be the one to talk to you, Your
Royal Highness."
Loki raised an eyebrow. He chuckled smirk menangcily at the man. His eyes were
full of danger as he stared at him.
The corner of my lips rose for a smirk. This is one of the reasons why I
thought of him as the EL Ordre's King. His aura was so powerful and this look of
him could make anyone cower before him.
"Are you threatening me, Gerard?" Loki asked. He looked like he's smiling
because of the smirk that he's wearing but his voice sounds danger.
"I am just stating facts, Your Royal Highness."
Loki's smile faded. His eyes were full of mischief as he stared at the man who
looked like he regrets whatever he said to him. Loki put the envelope on the coffee
table before he leaned his back on the sofa and rested his arms on the armrest. He
tapped his fingers on it.
I could see that the man is starting to get uncomfortable with his gaze. He
dipped his head, a gesture that he's bowing down to him and apologizing silently
for what he had said. Loki raised an eyebrow before he found where I was standing.
I crossed my arms over my chest and raised an eyebrow at him. I saw him played
with his lower lip using his thumb and forefinger to hide the smile that he did. He
bit the inner of his cheeks before he looked back at the man.
"Tell my father that I'll see him at the party. Dismiss."
He stood up and the man did the same. He bowed down to him before he turned
around and when he did, he immediately saw me. Naglakad sya palapit sa akin and he
eyed me from head to toe while doing so. I raised my chin and did the same to him
as well. I eyed him whole with disgust showing on my face.
I heard Loki chuckled as the man walked pass by me. I rolled my eyes and took a
step closer to Loki. He immediately wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me
closer to him. He did it so casually like he's been doing this for all his life.
"Who's that?" I asked, trying to ignore the fast beating of my heart.
"Personal bodyguard of my father." he answered as he dug his fingers onto my
hair. I noticed that he always does that ever since I cut my hair short. "Why did
you decide to cut your hair all of the sudden?"
That made me anxious. I touched the end of my hair. I'm still not used of
feeling the end of my hair touching my neck.
"Why? Doesn't it suit me? Do I look more hideous now?"
Loki sighed. He looked at me deep into my eyes. His sea-green eyes were trying
to tell me so many words that I had to look away 'cause it's just making my heart
beats so fast. But Loki held my chin and made me look back at him.
"Long or short hair, you are beautiful, my Queen." he said.
"But you said that you like my hair loose." I said when I remember that one
time when Artemis tied my hair in a bun. "That means you like my hair long."

Loki smiled at me. I gritted my teeth and curse my fucking

heart. Mukhang sa kahit na anong galaw ni Loki ay pabilis nang pabilis ang tibok ng
puso ko.
Fuck it. I'm scared.
"I noticed that you looked uncomfortable with your hair tied." he put his hand
on my neck and caressed it, sending electricity down my spine. "I love to see you
being confident, Eresh. And you look confident with your hair loose."
 I touched his hand that's caressing my neck. He smiled at me when he felt that
I gulped because of the emotions that I'm feeling.
I never thought that he would notice such small details like that. He's right.
I didn't like it whenever I tied my hair that will make it look short. 'Cause it
just reminds me of the days when I tried to look like a boy but ended up being
sexually assaulted by my own father.
"I just feel like..." I started saying. "I need to cut it. My long hair was a
part of my past and I thought that cutting it short would make me feel better."
Ibinaon ulit ni Loki ang mga daliri nya sa buhok ko. He played with the strands
like he's trying to memorize the new length of my hair with his fingers. He's
trying to feel how short my hair is.
"I like this better." he said. He looked at me, eyes scanned my face down to my
neck. "Easy access."
He dipped his head and planted a soft kiss on my neck. I bit my lower lip to
stop the sound that wanted to come out from my mouth as I crane my neck to one
side. I felt Loki gave small but wet kisses on the sensitive part of my neck that
gave me a hard time breathing.
Fuck... He's right. He now has an easy access on my neck.
"Loki..." I can't help but to mumble. Ah... I never realized that I missed his
touch.
"Hm?"
He looked at me, eyes were full of mischief that made me frown. He chuckled as
I rolled my eyes and my lips broke into a small smile.
Nagulat ako nang ang mga labi ko naman ang hinalikan nya. He was giving me a
soft and gentle kiss, so different from what he was giving me before. Napuno ng
emosyon ang dibdib ko at hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong gawin doon.
"I love to see you smiling." he said, full of emotions.
I looked at him, scared. I know that whatever I'm feeling for him won't be good
for me. It won't be good for the game. It won't be good for my original plan.
I made a plan of winning the game and killing the gamemasters. I tried to do
everything for me to achieve that goal. My whole life was revolving around the
game. But when Loki came, nagulo ang ikot ng mundo ko.
I started to feel things that were new to me. I started to do things that will
ruin my plan but I still did it anyway. And now... I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know if it's good to continue feeling happy with him. I don't know if
it's good to feel this way for him.
"Loki." I said. "If you're just doing this to get information from me, please
stop."
Halata ang gulat sa mga mata nya dahil sa sinabi ko. I can understand him. We
we're just kissing earlier but now I started talking like this.
"I told you everything about me, Loki. Everything. I made myself be naked in
front of your eyes. I made you see my weakness. I made you see my vulnerable side.
You can now hurt me in any way you want."
I took a deep breath and looked at him straight in the eye. I gathered my
courage to say what I wanted to tell him. He looked so serious as he listened to
me.
"Kaya bago pa lumalim ang nararamdaman ko sayo, I want to tell you the truth."
I said. "There is no antidote, Loki. There is no antidote for Gray. If you're doing
this just for that, then please stop."
I'm scared. I'm scared that everything that he did is all part of his plan.
That he just did all of that for the game.
I'm scared. I'm scared that he was just using me to get Gray. To get back their
Rook that I took from them.
I know that I deserve to be punish because of what I did. I'm evil. I don't
deserve anything unlike what Loki said. But I don't want to be hurt anymore.
And if Loki hurt me, I don't know what will I become. I think that I wouldn't
be able to take the pain of him hurting me.
Especially now that I've fallen inlove with him.
Loki sighed. Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya, inaabangan ang reaction nya. I've
never felt so vulnerable like this before.
But it's okay. Kung masasaktan man ako, mas mabuting mas maaga. Bago pa mas
lumalim ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya.
"Eresh..." Loki said. He cupped my face, stopping me from looking anywhere but
him. "I did all of these because I want to. I want to spoil you. I want to give
everything that you want because that's what you deserve."
He caressed my cheeks so gently like how his words affected me. I took a deep
shaky breath trying to stop myself from getting emotional.
"I did all of this not even thinking about the game." he continued. "I know
you're scared and I don't know what to do to give you an assurance to let you know
that I'm sincere. But I hope that you'll let yourself feel happiness."
He kissed me on the forehead and pulled me into a hug. I buried my face on his
chest as I listen to the sound of his heartbeat.
They said that you will know if a person is lying or not by how fast his
heartbeat is. But Loki's heart beat sounds so gentle just like his words and how he
holds me right now. And that's enough to give me an assurance.
"Can we stop thinking about the game for the mean time?" he said. "Can we just
think that we're a normal couple and enjoy our moments together?"
Normal couple...
I bit my lower lip. Buti na lang at nakasubsob ako sa dibdib nya kaya hindi nya
nakita ang pamumula ng buong mukha ko.
I nodded. "Okay."
"Get dress. I want to show you something."
Humiwalay ako sa kanya at tinitigan sya nang may pagtataka. "We're going
somewhere?"
Loki looked down at me and smiled.
"I'm gonna show you the real me, my Queen. The real Loki Alexander Nimrod Von
Amstel the fourth."

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Chapter 52

It surprised me when Loki pulled over his car on the side

road at what it seems like a beach. I looked around and besides from the white sand
and the sea, I could only see one beach house. It's obvious that it was not just a
simple beach house base on the exterior. It already looked magnificent on the
outside, what's more when we get in?
Loki opened the car door for me. I went out the car and the wind strongly blew
my hair and the skirt of my dress. It's a good thing that my hair was now short. I
won't be having a hard time shielding it from the wind. I'll just have to mind my
dress.
I saw Loki who was just looking at me while I struggle with the skirt of my
dress. It seems like he wanted to help me pero umiral yata ang pagka-gentleman nya.
He didn't want to touch my skirt.
"I thought that we're going to London?" I said when we started walking towards
the beach house. I was holding my skirt in one place, trying to stop the wind from
lifting my skirt.
"What makes you think of that?" Loki said as he guided me 'cause I was having a
hard time walking.
Fuck it! If only I have known that we're going to the beach, then I shouldn't
have wear a fucking shoes with four inches heels!
Lumulubog ang heels sa bawat pagtapak ko sa buhanginan. I was cursing Loki
under my breath whenever I almost tripped. Loki will just hide his smile which made
me feel more irritated.
Loki chuckled before he stopped walking. Napatigil na din ako sa paglalakad at
nagulat ako nang walang sabi-sabing binuhat nya ako. He carried me, bridal style
way! This isn't the first time that he did this but still, it surprised the shit
out of me!
"Can you give me a warning before you do something like this?" I said,
irritation is evident in my voice but I still wrapped my arms around his neck for a
support.
Loki chuckled. "What makes you think that we're going to London?"
I rolled my eyes but still answered him anyway.
"You said that you'll show me the real you so I assumed that you'll introduce
your life as a royalty to me."
That's what came into my mind when he said those words to me. And I just
realized that I don't really know much about him. I don't know anything about his
life besides him being a royal blood and the King's Bishop of EL Ordre.
I really thought that we're going to London, to Buckingham Palace and he'll
introduced his life as a royal blood to me. So it surprised me that he actually
brought me here.
He put me down when we finally reached the beach house. I tidied my dress and
Loki helped me fixed my hair na nagulo dahil sa hangin.
"I want you to meet the real me, Eresh." he said as he looked at me in the eye.
"The one behind the mask of pretending. The one behind the title of His Royal
Highness, Prince Alexander. The one behind the Fourth of EL Ordre."
He tucked behind my ears the few strands of my hair that were touching my face
because of the wind. Then his hand touch my face and I could feel the warmth of his
hand against my cold skin.
"I want you to meet the real Loki." he said. "'I want you to trust me as much
as how I trust you."
He gave me a gentle smile. His lips quivered and I don't know if it's because
of the cold wind or because of nervousness. But it must be the first one. There's
no way of him to feel nervous when he'll just introduced his real self to me.
I nodded at him and he heaved a deep sigh before he smiled widely at me. Mukha
syang nakahinga nang maluwag. He guided me inside the beach house that looked more
like a freaking mansion to me.

I looked at Loki and squinted my eyes at him. I can't help

but to think that he's just showing off his wealth to me. It's obvious that this
whole beach is his property! Walang ibang tao ang nandito!
"What?" he asked when he saw my expression. I just rolled my eyes at him and
looked around the freaking beach house.
Bitch.
Fucking royalty.
"This whole lot..." he said and I looked back at him. "Is a gift from my father
for my seventh birthday."
He went to the kitchen to offer me refreshments. I was still busy looking
around. It's really freaking big. I realized that a seven year old kid would feel
overwhelmed about this as a gift.
I could tell that someone has been taking care of this beach house in behalf of
Loki. There was no evidence of dust anywhere. Malinis na malinis ang lahat at halos
kumintab pa ang sahig. I could even use it as a mirror.
"You don't sound happy, though." I said when he gave me a juice. We sat on the
countertop, him beside me as he began telling me his story.
"I celebrated my seventh birthday alone." he said softly. "Here, Eresh. Alone
in this big beach house."
Natahimik ako. That doesn't turned out really good.
"But I was thankful that my father gave this to me. Whenever I feel down and
sad, I will just spend my time here alone. Doing everything I want just on my own."
he looked around the house. "This beach house witnessed mostly all of my troubled
moments. That's why I brought you here."
I stared at him. I don't want to look away now that he began to tell things
about him. I just keep on staring at his eyes, just like what he did when I broke
down in front of him while opening up to him. I want him to know that I will listen
to him just like what he did to me.
"I'm all ears." I said and grimaced afterwards. I sounded so cold and strict
just like how I usually do. Not very much helpful to give someone a comfort.
I think it's much better if I won't speak at all.
But Loki smiled like he understand me and he continued his story. "My father is
a very strict man."
"Is that why you brought me in York instead in London?" I asked.
Loki didn't say anything as he guided me to stood up. Nakatingin lang ako sa
kanya habang inaalalayan nya ako pababa sa high chair.
"He's ten times stricter than Aius's father since I'm a Bishop that must
protect the King and I'm a royal blood." he continued. "Everything I do will affect
the Royal Family. So I must act like a royalty."
Now, I understand what that Gerard issue is. I remember the paparazzis and
people who shamelessly taking a photo of us while we're doing something in the
public which is so unroyalty.
Loki's father has been asking him to settle the chaos we created. That's what
Gerard was referring to when he talk about the mess. And it seems like Loki doesn't
have any plan of fixing this thus the visit of his father's bodyguard.
We climbed up the stairs and he opened the last door on the second floor.
Bumungad sa akin ang kwartong pambata na may kung ano-ano pang nakadikit sa
ceiling.
It was obvious that the owner of this room must be a kid. With a Buzz Lightyear
bed sheet and some robot figurines that were displayed on the cabinet.
I walked towards the bedside table when I saw a picture frame. I took it and
looked at the picture.
It was a photo of a kid, probably around seven with the beach house as his
background. He was wearing a gray sweatshirt and the collar of his inner white polo
was stuck out. He's wearing a brown shorts, the length reached below his knees. He
was also wearing a gray high socks.
The kid has a sea-green eyes. A very sad sea-green eyes.
Seeing his young eyes like this made my heart ache so much. The photographer
must've said to him to say 'Cheese' before he took the photo but Loki still didn't
flash his smile. Probably he was really sad to do so.
He really does have a rough childhood.
I put back the frame on the table and scanned the inside of the room. I
realized that this is Loki's room when he was a kid. He preserved everything. His
toys was still here, displayed on the shelves. Hindi nya pinabago ang itsura ng
kwarto nya.
I frowned when I noticed something on the shelf of tapes beside the TV. Pink
were dominating the color of the cd's that's why it made me curious so much.
Lumapit ako doon at kumuha ng isang cd tape. My frown deepened when I saw the
cover. It was a pink... creature that look like a pig. I looked at Loki and showed
it to him.
"What is this?" I asked him. Kumuha pa ako ng isa sa display at ganoon din ang
cover sa cd. It seems like he has a collection of this creature too.
"That's from my butler." he said. "Former butler. He said that I sounded like
Peppa Pig whenever I'm speaking. Apparently, she has a British accent. Do you know
her?"
I shook my head, my frown is still on my face. How the fuck would I know
someone who looked like this? I couldn't even tell what she is until I saw her
nose.
"I have no idea who the fuck this is." I said. "But you do have a thick British
accent."
I stared at the cd again before I put it back on the shelf. I can't believe
that he has a lot of cd of her. Is this his own version of porn?
"Sounds like your former butler was teasing you." I said. "Wouldn't that be a
disgrace to you?"
 He smiled at me and shook his head. "I honestly like it more if he's teasing
me. I feel like I can be a normal person if he does that."
I looked around the room again. I saw his drawings as a child pinned on what it
looks like a display board inside his room. I noticed that he was always drawing a
picture of him and his parents. He never drew himself alone. Probably because he
wanted to feel that he's with his parents even if it's just a drawing.
I looked at Loki. His eyes looked so sad and I just wanted to do everything to
make him smile.
I want to see his smile. A real one.
"My childhood isn't that happy." he said so softly. "Father will always tell me
what I should do and what I should not do. He controlled everything around me. Even
me."
I touched his cheeks and ended up caressing it. He leaned in my hand and
planted a kiss on my palm.
"That's why I was so glad when my butler came into my life. Everything change
when Death began serving me."
I froze. I stared at Loki but I couldn't find the right emotions in his eyes
compared to what he's telling me.
Death... Don't tell me... Loki became suicidal?
Loki chuckled when he saw my reaction. He took my hand that was caressing his
cheek and planted a kiss on my palm again.
"My former butler. Death Kieron Ferrante. As well as the former Pawn of the EL
Ordre."

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Chapter 53

Loki tugged my hand gently and led me out of the room. I

was just following him as I didn't know where he's planning to go. I know that he's
gonna tell me his story. That's what he really meant when he said that he'll
introduce the real Loki to me.
We went to the veranda in front of the house that has a view of the whole
beach. The wind was now calm compared to what it was earlier. It was blowing our
hair gently so I didn't have to mind much about it.
Loki leaned his elbows on the railings and looked at the sea. His hair was
gently moving against the wind. He has a calm expression on his face but I could
see the sadness in his eyes.
I looked at the sea as well. The sounds of the waves made me feel so calm and
sad at the same time. Maybe that's why I, as well, saw saw those expressions on
Loki's face.
I remember what he had told me. That he celebrated his seventh birthday here
alone. What if that day was like this as well? Imagine a seven-year-old boy hearing
the calming sounds of waves of the sea and instead of celebrating, he felt sad and
cried that no one was with him that time.
I was right. He had a rough childhood as well.
"My original plan was to take you to the main manor at London." he said, eyes
were still on the sea. "But father was there so I had to bring you to York. It
doesn't mean that I don't want you two to meet. There's a right occasion for that."
he looked at me. "I'm just afraid of what he'll do if he sees you."
Loki being afraid... This man who looked so authoritative and powerful. I just
can't believe that there's something that he's afraid of.
"He's a very, very strict man, Eresh. It was obvious how influential he is with
just his title." he continued. "His Royal Highness, the Duke of York. And he used
his power even to me."
He played with his fingers. I noticed that he doesn't want to look at me while
telling me his stories. He's not comfortable showing his vulnerable side. And I
realized that he really is the King of Pretend.
He was just pretending to be strong, to be powerful, to be manipultive. But the
truth is... He has weak side as well.
"You don't have to tell me this, Loki. If it makes you uncomfortable."
Mabilis syang napatingin sa akin. He shook his head firmly like he's telling me
he wasn't going to change his mind.
"No. I told you, Eresh. I want you to meet the real me. No mask. Just the bare
me."
I nodded. Well... I kinda understand why he looked uncomfortable. I was like
that when I was opening myself up to him. I was uncomfortable. I felt
uncomfortable. But I still tried to tell him everything. 'Cause I want him to
understand me. I want him to know my story.
And maybe, he's like that to me as well. Trying to tell me his story even if he
feels uncomfortable 'cause he wants me to understand him.
I sighed. I know Loki had said that we should forget the game for awhile but I
can't help to think what will gonna happen after this. Especially now that I have
special feelings for him.
"My parents disciplined me to act like a royalty. To think like a royalty. And
to talk like a royalty." he said. "That's what my childhood life is. I wasn't
allowed to play 'cause they said that apparently, playing isn't necessary as a
royal blood and it will just just make me a naughty child."
I looked away. I don't know what to do. Loki looked so sad as he talks. It
seems like he really was hurt from what happened to him.
"All I did was to study and read books. That's all." Loki continued. "It felt
like... I was just a robot that needs to follow all the orders from my masters. I
must behave. Or else, I won't be of any use if I disobey."

I tried to keep my eyes on him. I want to see everything in

him now that he's opening up to me. I mustn't look away. It takes a lot of courage
from him to tell me his story. He's showing his real self to me so I must look at
him.
"That was what my life is until Death came. I saw him reading a book one time."
he looked at the sea with a slight smile on his lips. "I talked to him and he
looked annoyed that he got disturbed. But I was ecstatic to see my butler, almost
the same age as me, in our manor. I asked him to be my friend right away."
He chuckled. Maybe he was reminiscing the past. It must be one of his happy
memories as his gentle smile never faded on his face while he's talking about his
butler.
His gentle smile looked so beautiful. It was real. And I'm so glad that I chose
to look at him that's why I was able to witness this beautiful smile of him.
"I was lucky that Death agreed. He became my first friend. It occurred to me
that I was really longing for a playmate like a normal child. And I was glad that
Death didn't make me feel like I'm a royalty that he's serving whenever I was with
him. He let me do whatever I wanted. I felt so grateful to him that I got to
experience being a normal kid even just for a while."
I think I want to thank whoever that Death is. And he must feel lucky 'cause I
never actually thanked anyone in my whole life.
"But I guess... having a normal life is not for me." Loki continued. "Father
got so mad when he saw me playing under the rain with Death. He was livid but no
matter how angry he was, he never really took out his anger on me. He beat his
butler instead." He looked at me and flashed me a sad smile. "It was Death's
father."
I saw hurt in his eyes. It made my heart ache but I didn't look away. Now that
he's showing his real emotions to me, I want to see it all. I want to know his
every expressions on his face that he was trying to hide before.
He's just like me. We really are the King and Queen of pretend.
"Fuck, hiyang-hiya ako kay Death." he said with so much hurt in his voice. "All
he did is to make me feel like a normal kid which made me happy but that's what he
got in return. His father got beaten up because of me. Because I tried to be
normal. If only I just accepted being a royalty, then that wouldn't have to happen.
Hiyang-hiya ako sa kanya."
"Loki..."
"That's when I decided to just obey my father. I don't want anyone to get hurt
again because of my doing. I stared to treat Death as my mere butler. Calling him
as Kieron so I wouldn't remember those times I felt normal because of him." he
sighed. "I hated being a royalty. So when I was given a job to do in the
Philippines, I accepted it without a second thought. There, I felt having a normal
life again."
The job that he's talking about was to find Daphne Madrigal. He never asked any
help from Tracer or L as they could track her easily in just a blink of an eye. He
said that he doesn't want to involve the EL Ordre in that job since Daphne is an
innocent.
He freed Death by being his butler when Daphne found a man she would want to
marry. Dahil masyado syang nakonsensya sa nangyari noon. He said that Death
deserves to be free.
"I hated being a part of EL Ordre." Loki continued. "But it never occurred to
me that I could find family in them. They knew that I'm a royalty yet they never
treated me as one. They will say what they wanted to say. No holds barred." he
chuckled. "But I still put a distance between them. I don't want my father to do
something again that I might regret later."
I felt so sad for him. He found friends. Real friends that would treat him as a
family and yet, he couldn't do what he wanted because of him being a royalty.
He build walls around him but he did it not protect himself but to protect the
people that's important to him. He's afraid that his father will use his influence
of being a Royal Duke to the members of EL Ordre.
His father let him join the EL Ordre just for the game. Nothing more, nothing
less.
Loki sighed. He looked at me in the eye before he held my hands and pulled me
close to him. Pinatalikod nya ako sa kanya and he hugged me from the back. He
planted a kiss on my shoulder blades first before he rested his chin on my
shoulder.
My heart began to thump so fast. I tried to calm myself but the cold wind is
not making it easy for me.
Fuck. I'm so new to this kind of feeling and I don't know what to do! Mas
pinalala pa ng maikli kong buhok na sa bawat paghinga ni Loki ay tumatama sa leeg
ko!
"I was always wearing a mask when I'm with them." he said so I tried to ignore
these fucking feelings inside me. "Being their pretend King. Trying to manipulate
their moves. Trying to think of a plan. Trying to analyze the next moves of the Red
Faction. I did it all. And I never let anyone to see the real me."
And he did a great job. I was amazed when he calculated the next move of our
Rook and Pawn. Ang magkapatid na si Sieg at Dyke. He knew that Sieg would contact
Artemis as he was so inlove with her. He wanted to protect her against Tracer
'cause he thought that she's in danger when she's with him.
Loki realized their plan. He's so fucking smart. He's a genius!
"You did a great job handling the EL Ordre, Loki." I said. 'Cause I knew how
hard it was to make your pieces obey you. I know that the most.
I felt Loki shook his head as he tightened his hug on my waist.
"No. I didn't, Eresh. I failed. I made a mistakes. And I'm afraid that Tracer
might resent me if he discovered it."
I tried to look at him pero mas lalo nya pang hinigpitan ang yakap nya sa akin.
I could feel that he's being scared. And he's hugging me so tight like I could
chase his fears away.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
He took a deep and shaky breath. I could feel him slightly trembling and I'm
not sure if it was because of the cold wind or he's just scared. Scared of what
he's going go tell me.
"I... did something terrible." he said, still trembling.
"Loki?"
He cursed before he leaned his forehead to my shoulders. I looked at him at mas
lalo kong nahalata ang panginginig nya.
What is happening to him?
Nag-angat sya ng tingin at agad na nagsalubong ang mga mata namin. His eyes
were full of hurt, sadness and...
Regret.
"I let Shielder joined that last mission that he did, knowing that he's your
target, Eresh."
My lips parted. Humarap ako sa kanya para mas makita pa sya.
He smiled at me. It was a very sad smile. And when he spoke, he sounds like he
was hurting inside.
"I purposely let him join that mission as a bait, Eresh. I used him as a bait
to lure you out."

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Chapter 54

I just stared at Loki after he said that. I didn't know

what to react. That shook the hell out of me. I never thought the he made a plan
like that.
I mean, I already knew that he's a good strategist. He's smart. He calculated
the plan of Dyke and Sieg. He expected that they would kidnapped Artemis to use her
against Tracer. All was because he has a good reasoning and deducting skills.
I could see the hurt in his eyes as I stared at him. It was obvious that he's
regretting what he did. He's blaming himself when it should be me that he should
blame. Their Rook became like that because of the drug that was injected to him.
Shielder became like that because I brainwashed him.
But I couldn't see in his eyes that he's blaming me. Sarili nya lang ang
sinisisi nya sa nangyari kay Shielder. Like everything that happened was his fault.
"He was a Rook, Eresh." Loki said. His expression was so painful to look at.
"But I treated him like a Pawn and made him a bait. Like what I did to Artemis.
Like what I did to Alter."
"You have your reason, I'm sure." I said. I wanted to hold him but I don't know
how to. "How did you know that I was after him?"
He took a deep breath and sighed. I know that this is hard for him. I can see
it in his eyes. There's a part of me that wanted to comfort him like what he did
when I was opening myself up to him. But I don't know how to.
I just keep my eyes on him as I listen to him. 'Cause that's what I wanted when
it was me who was telling my stories to him. I want Loki to listen to me. To listen
to everything that I say because I want him to understand me.
Fuck... I never thought that I'm so lame. I never thought that I will ever feel
wanting to comfort someone.
I never even thought that I would fall inlove with someone.
"Shielder got a message that the Red Faction's Queen is interested in him." he
said. "At first he tried to ignore it but he decided to think deep about it
eventually. He tried to locate the sender using his hacking skills that he got from
his brother. But no matter how hard he try, he couldn't locate who the sender is.
And that's when he consulted me."
I pursed my lips. Magkaharap kami kaya kitang-kita ko ang lahat ng mga reaksyon
sa mga mata nya. He's unguarded. He's being vulnerable in front of me and I'm just
falling harder for him. I realized that I'm loving this side of him too.
"He talked to me about it. It was just a simple message that one wouldn't pay
any attention to it but as I think through it, if it's not an important message,
then the sender wouldn't try hard to hide their identity. With Shielder's hacking
skills, he could be compared with L. But he only used that skill of him to provide
protection and security for us. He let his brother do the hacking for the team."
I nodded. I remember that King Lancer hacked Alter's laptop. He even defeated
her firewall that she built. Means that compared to the three trackers of this
chess game, Shielder is the most skillful one.
Pero pinaubaya nya sa kapatid nya ang pagiging tracker ng grupo. It was because
he didn't want his brother to feel useless. He wanted his brother to be the one who
will find their parents' murderer. Kasi alam nya na mas malaki ang galit ni Tracer
sa magkapatid na pumatay sa mga magulang nila. He wanted his brother to get the
justice that Tracer wanted for their parents' death.
That's how much Gray loves his brother.
I closed my eyes and swallowed the lump in my throat. Fuck it.
"I offered Shielder to be the bait." Loki continued so I opened my eyes. "I
told him that if the message is real, then he's our only chance to lure you out.
But Shielder declined. He doesn't want to take the risk as the message was too
suspicious. I got his point so I didn't push him through it."

He chuckled softly but it was full of hurt. He combed his

hair with his fingers like he's really frustrated but he didn't know what to do
with his frustration.
"I moved on with my plan. To make Artemis the bait to lure the Red Faction's
Rook's out. Shielder heard about it. He tried to stop Artemis and so, she declined
my... offer. And Shielder took my offer to him in exchange that I'll leave Artemis
alone."
He closed his eyes tight. His jaw moved as he clenched his teeth. His brows
were furrowed and I could see how much he regretted what happened. I took a deep
breath to stop my tears 'cause it's too painful to watch him like this.
"Everything make sense now. It was Violet who sent that message that's why she
was the only one who's eager to continue the mission. I thought that she was like
that because she wanted Shielder to get justice for their parents as I know that
she loves him so much." he chuckled softly. "But I was wrong."
Loki opened his eyes and look at me with painful expression on his face.
"I wasn't expecting that that mission will be his last." he said, full of hurt.
"It was a bait for him, Eresh."
My lips trembled so I gritted my teeth to stop my emotions from overflowing.
It was me who made that bait for Shielder. I was happy when we finally got him
not knowing that I hurt so many people because of that one successful plan.
But I didn't want him to got shot so many times that made him fell into a deep
coma for months! He was our only hope to have a King kaya hindi ko kayang ipahamak
sya ng ganoon!
That's why I was so mad at Violet. She let that happen to him under her watch!
Where he could almost die!
"I'm so sorry..." I whispered and I felt tears formed in the corner of my eyes.
"What?" Loki looked panicked when he saw me almost crying. "No. No! I didn't
mean—" my tears began to fall. "Fuck, Eresh."
He hugged me as I tried to stop my tears. I cried as I realized all that things
that I've done.
I'm so fucking selfish.
Maybe Ishtar was right. I deserve all that happened to because I'm this
selfish. I'm evil.
Fuck... I don't deserve to live. Pero kahit ang kamatayan ay hindi ako
tatanggapin.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed and Loki caressed my back.
"Don't be, Eresh." Loki said so gently. "I'm not blaming you. I understand why
you did that and I just can't blame you."
Fuck... I should be the one to comfort him. Alam kong nasasaktan din sya sa mga
nangyari pero fuck! Ako pa 'tong umiiyak!
"Nobody could blame you after what you've gone through, Eresh." he said. Still
trying to comfort me. "You only did that seeing that it was your only way to live.
Yes, it wasn't right but no one should judge you when you still tried to hold on to
life that hurt you so much."
I was crying and Loki put a distance between us to look at my face. I know I
looked like shit. Gone was the confident and intimidating Queen that I tried so
hard to be.
But Loki still looked at me like I was the most beautiful woman alive. He
cupped my face and wiped my tears using his thumb.
"You only did what you thought is right so you can continue to live. Gusto mong
mabuhay and nobody could ever judge you because of that. So don't blame yourself
too much, hm?" he smiled at me. "Such a strong Queen you are."
Mas lalo pa akong umiyak. Fuck! He never failed to say the words that I wanted
to hear. I never regretted that I told everything to him. He understands me
completely. And I never felt so lucky that I met someone like him in my life.
"I'm sorry." I said, never minding that this is my third time apologizing to
him. "I should be the one to comfort you. I know that you're hurting as well, Loki.
But here you are, comforting me again."
His smile widened and wiped the tears away from my face.
"I told you, Eresh. I want you to meet the real me. It's fine even if I'm
hurting. Everything is fine as long as you're here..." he pulled me for a hug. "You
being here is more than enough for me."
I felt him kissed my hair which earned a small smile from me. I could hear his
heart beating so fast against my ears. Almost the same pace as mine.
"Stay with me forever..." he whispered.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. He's looking down at me and I'm so glad to
see that the hurt was nowhere to be seen on his face.
"I'm sorry to burst your bubble, my King. But nothing lasts forever. All things
come to an end."
He frowned. Mukhang hindi nya nagustuhan ang sagot ko. But later on, I saw him
smile again. He pulled me closer at naramdaman kong ipinatong nya ang baba nya sa
tuktok ng ulo ko.
"Hmm..." he hummed. "If that's the case, then we'll just have to create our own
forever."
Tumingala ulit ako sa kanya. A frown was on my face as I can't understand what
he's trying to say. He chuckled.
"What do you think?" he asked. "Will you accompany me as I create forever for
the both of us?"
I stared at him. My heart was thumping so fast. His sea-green eyes was looking
at me gently and full of emotions no one has ever given me before. There was an
urge of me to cry again but I held it in. I wanted to stare at his face more. To
stare at this beautiful man in front of me.
Fuck... I love him. I really love him.
"Stay with me forever, my Queen."
I smiled at him. Nakita kong mas lumawak pa ang ngiti nya dahil sa pagngiti ko.
His eyes were dancing in amusement and happiness. And I couldn't ruin it for him.
"Of course, my King."
He chuckled before he cupped my face and planted a kiss on my lips. It was such
a gentle kiss that could make me smile and cry out of happiness at the same time.
I clung onto his neck and hugged him. This is the man that made me feel that I
deserve everything. This is the man that made me feel that I'm not really evil like
what I always think. This is the man that made me feel that I still have a chance
to live a good life.
And I'm so thankful to him. That's why I decided that I will take
responsibility for everything that I did. So he wouldn't blame himself anymore.
But for now, I will enjoy every moments with. It may not be forever but at
least. I'm with him.
And he's with me.
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Chapter 55

Note: This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual

persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
Please keep in mind that I wasn't trying to harm anyone. All of this were just
a product of my imagination.
Thank you.
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Loki and I decided that we're gonna spend our time at his beach house. He just
asked someone to brought my clothes since he already has everything that he needs
in here. Seems like he spends his time more in this beach house than in palace or
any of their manors.
I tried to enjoy every moment and opportunity that I'm with him. There's still
my worries and doubts but I set it all aside for the mean time. I just want to
create happy memories with Loki since this is also the first time that I felt like
I'm on a cloud nine.
I felt Loki planted a kiss on my shoulder blades which automatically put a
smile on my face. We were lying on a sun lounger while watching the calm waves of
the sea together. Sya ang nakahiga talaga sa sun lounger habang ako ay nasa pagitan
ng dalawang hita nya at nakakulong sa mga bisig nya.
This moment feels so perfect.
"I always feel chuffed whenever I see your real smile." he said
I made a soft chuckle and I felt him smile against my shoulders. I was wearing
my two piece bikini under a sheer beach robe while Loki was only wearing his beach
shorts. He was topless so I could feel his body heat as the robe that I'm wearing
was so thin.
"Loki?"
"Hm?"
"You told me that your butler made you feel like a normal kid, right?"
"Uh-huh?"
"Tell me what other things you did as a normal child besides playing under the
rain."
I want to hear his stories. 'Cause me? I've never got to experience being a
normal kid that will always play and have fun. I was busy trying to get the
approval of my father and make him proud. I was busy with the training as a chess
pieces and the Queen.
Come to think of it. I didn't get to have a normal life like the majority of
the people have. I was never the normal teenager. I was busy thinking of a plan for
our team. I was busy being the Queen of the Red Faction.
That's why I wanna hear his stories. It will be enough for me. I'm sure that he
enjoyed those times and that is enough for me.
"Hmm..." Loki hummed as he was thinking.
He put his chin on my shoulder and from the corner of my eyes, I saw him smile.
"He let me take a bath on a river." I smiled with his story. "Where there were
so many leeches that would clung on me."
That surprised me. "Seriously?"
He chuckled. "Yeah... Then Death would have a hard time trying to remove the
leeches off me while lecturing me. But he always took me to the river again
whenever I asked him."
I smiled. That sounds fun...
"I got to laugh so loud whenever I was with him. He doesn't care if I didn't
look like a royalty anymore as I laugh my ass out. I got to scream. I got to
experience running so fast as he chase after me."
I looked at him. His face was on a side view but I could see clearly how his
eyes twinkle as he tells me his childhood stories. He really treasures those
memories of him.
I couldn't help but to feel envious of him. How I wish I also have memories
like that where I can smile whenever I tell someone about it. How I wish that I got
to enjoy my life even for a while.

Pero wala. All that I have were painful memories.

"Oh! I bathed on the mud as well!" Loki said that made me frown.
"What?"
He gave me a sideway glance before he chuckled.
"Death let me took a bath on the mud."
I pursed my lips, trying to suppress my smile.
"On the mud?" I said with a British accent but looks like he didn't notice it
'cause he chuckled.
"Yeah."
"Like a pig?" I said with the same accent. Doon na sya napatigil at nawala ang
ngiti sa mga labi nya.
He removed his chin on my shoulder to have a better view of me. I bit my lower
lip to stop myself from smiling.
"Yeah..." he answered and I could hear his uncertainty. I grinned at him.
"Peppa Pig."
He glared at me and I couldn't keep my smile anymore. I giggled like a fucking
idiot 'cause he looked so funny! I still don't have an idea who that Peppa Pig is
but I could tell that it annoyed him so much!
Oh, fuck! He looked so funny to me!
He rolled his eyes and that made me laugh more. Ibinalik nya ang chin nya sa
balikat ko at hinapit pa ako palapit sa kanya.
"Pasalamat ka mahal ko ang mga ngiti mo." he said with his sexy Tagalog accent.
I just grinned at him.
"Thank you very much."
He groaned and buried his face on my neck. I just chuckled before I looked back
at the sea again and leaned my body on him.
How I wish that we are not a part of the Bloody Human Chess Game.
"Loki?"
"Hm?"
I hesitated. "Can I ask you a question?"
"You don't have to ask for my permission, Eresh. You can ask me anytime you
want."
Umalis ako sa pagkakasandal sa kanya. He let me go but didn't fully as his
hands were still on my waist. I moved so I could see his whole face. Patagilid na
akong nakaupo sa pagitan ng mga hita nya.
"Did you know... who the EL Ordre's gamemaster is?"
I could tell that I caught him by surprise with my question. His lips parted
slightly as he looked at me before he frowned.
He was surprised. Understandable since we were just talking about his childhood
earlier and all of the sudden I asked him about the game when he already said that
we should forget about it for awhile.
But I just couldn't.
"I'm not planning anything. I'm just asking out of curiosity." I said. "Our
gamemaster never showed himself to us. But I could tell that they're always
watching our moves."
They even have an office in our hideout where nobody has entered before. Ang
gamemaster lang. There was a tinted glass panel above our training room and I could
always feel their gaze on us whenever we're having our training.
"No..." Loki answered as he shook his head. "We've never seen him... or her
before."
"But the EL Ordre receives orders from the gamemaster to help the government,
right? You're the one who's stopping the... bad guys if the police couldn't handle
it since they're too slow."
"It was L who receives the orders through email." he said. "But it wasn't
traceable."
Oh... But in our case, it was Yucca who's receiving the orders. At first it was
Enkidu but after awhile, kay Yucca na ipinapadala ang mga email which made question
why. Yucca doesn't have an idea as well so I just let it be since we rarely
receives any orders from the gamemasters. Ang pinakahuli ay iyong pinarusahan kami
dahil sa pagpatay nina Dyke at Sieg sa former Rooks ng EL Ordre. And till then, the
Red Faction's gamemaster just watched us in silence.

"Have you ever think... of defying their orders?" I asked.

Loki sighed before he closed his eyes and shook his head. I was amazed. He was
still answering my question given that I am an enemy.
"Why?" I can't help but to ask. "I mean, the government isn't that good, Loki.
They're not... really kind. Sa botohan lang sila nagiging matulungin, pero kapag
nakaupo na sa pwesto, kinakalimutan na nila ang lahat ng mga bumoto sa kanila. Like
they wouldn't be in that seat if not for the people who voted them in the first
place. But instead, they made them their pawns!"
"The government isn't perfect, Eresh... But they're doing their best. And the
EL Ordre is there to help them."
I shookt my head. "They are selfish. They only think of themselves. They enjoy
the privileges that were given to them not minding about the poor people. About the
deprived who badly needs help. And when a crisis broke out? Mas inuna pa nilang
sagipin ang mga sarili nila when they should be saving the people first!"
"They are not superheroes. They are humans but they still trying their best to
help." Loki said, trying to make this conversation calm.
"But it's their job. Niluklok sila sa pwestong iyon to help people and not to
be VIP's. The people were expecting for their help pero mas inuuna pa nila ang
sarili nila."
"Is that why the Red Faction was always trying to hinder in our every mission?
Because they are against the government?"
I stared at him. "I'm not sure. But I'm certain that our gamemaster is against
the EL Ordre's propaganda."
"Sempientem uno semper vincit." he said trying to recite the Red Faction's
motto. "The wise one always wins. I hope that your gamemaster will be wise and just
help the government by making the country better."
"Segui EL Ordre per vivere." I said, reciting the EL Ordre's motto. "Follow the
order to live. And I hope that your gamemaster would open their eyes and stop being
a blind follower. There is always a flaw in everything."
Natahimik kaming dalawa. Nagsukatan ng tingin. We have our different views and
I know na kapag hindi pa naman itinigil ito ay hindi na matatapos.
I looked at him, straight in the eye.
"I still want to win the game, Loki."
Loki pursed his lips before he sighed. He held the back of my neck before he
pulled me closer to him and kissed my forehead.
"Forget about the game for now, Eresh."
I sighed before I nodded. Muli akong tumingin sa dagat at isinandal ang katawan
ko sa kanya. I'm so glad that Loki chose to cut our heated conversation. 'Cause I
know that I wouldn't stop. Nasa nature ko pa naman ang hindi nagpapatalo.
I closed my eyes and listened to the calm waves of the sea. The wind feels cold
indicating that the sun had already set. It was a waste that I wasn't able to watch
it because of the talk that Loki and I had.
I hope that I could watch it tomorrow. With Loki.
I woke up the next morning without Loki by my side. I am so sure that he's
cooking breakfast for us. Palagi nya akong dinadalhan ng breakfast in bed at dito
kami kakain but for now, since I woke up before he could finish cooking, I decided
to eat downstairs.
I took a quick bath and I just wore Loki's white longsleeve button-down shirt.
It was too long at halos nasa kalahati na ng mga hita ko ang haba noon. Still, it's
the best pambahay for me. Hindi naman nagrereklamo si Loki kahit maubos ko pa ang
mga ganitong damit nya sa closet nya.
I stared at the mirror and realized that I looked good on his shirt.
When I reached the kitchen, I saw Loki still cooking our breakfast. Siguro ay
kagigising nya lang din nang magising ako that's why he still wasn't finished.
I stared at his back and I know that he already knows that I'm here and
watching him. Given with the training that he had as the King's Bishop of EL Ordre.
He was wearing a simple white shirt and a black boxers but still, he's the most
attractive man for me. I'm just falling inlove harder for him everyday.
"I have a blind item." I said. I heard him chuckled before he looked at me.
"Go on."
Lumapit ako sa kanya at niyakap sya sa bewang.
"The who—" I started but he chuckled again. "Is this someone who said that he
will never cook for me but is now cooking my every meal for two weeks now?"
I noticed his shoulders shaking as he chuckled. I just raised an eyebrow at
him, urging him to answer my blind item.
"Hmm..." he playfully hummed. "Ereshkigal Levitsky's King?"
I made a wrong buzzer sound. "Wrong! It is Loki Von Amstel."
He chuckled before he gave me a soft but sweet kiss. He was smiling widely when
he ended the kiss.
"Good morning, my Queen."
I returned his smile. "Good morning, my King."
He kissed my forehead before he let me go. I was about to seat on the highchair
at the countertop when I noticed a white envelope there.
"What's this?" I asked as I took it, trying to examine it. It looked familiar.
Loki turned off the stove before he looked at me.
"Oh. An invitation to a party."
Ah... The one that the bodyguard of his father brought to him.
Loki walked towards me. He opened the envelope and give it to me so I began
reading the letter on it.
It was an invitation for the birthday party of the heir to the throne. There
will be a party that will be held at the Palace.
"A party?" I asked. He took the letter from me and put it back on the
countertop.
Loki held me on my waist and pulled me closer to him. He always does this. It
was like he never wanted me to be away from him even for a second.
"Uh-huh. And you will be my date."
That surprised me. "Wow. I never knew about that."
He chuckled and took my hand. He guided me for a turn before he put my arms
around his neck, his hands were on my waist again as we began swaying our body for
a slow dance.
"And we're gonna take a waltz."
I smiled before I leaned my head on his shoulders as we dance on a slow music
of our heartbeats.
This is such a sweet moment and I knew that I will never forget about this.
"What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawing me in, and you kicking me
out. You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down."
I was surprised when he started singing that I almost stopped my body from
swaying but Loki took the lead. Napasabay na lang ang katawan ko sa kanya.
"What's going on in that beautiful mind. I'm on your magical mystery ride. And
I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright."
"Loki..." I whispered as my heart feels so many emotions. His singing voice
sounds so good.
I feel so overwhelmed. Nobody has ever sung for me. Nobody took me for dance.
Nobody made me feel so special like this.
Only him. Only Loki.
 My King.
"My head's under water but I'm breathing fine. You're crazy and I'm out of my
mind."
I buried my face on his neck, trying to stop my tears. Fuck... I feel so happy
and sad at the same time.
Sad, 'cause I knew that this moment would end soon.
All of this would end anytime soon.
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

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Chapter 56

I was staring at the full length mirror in my room after I

took a bath before going to sleep. My lights weren't on and my only source of light
is from the moon outside. I was only wearing a bath towel that was wrapped around
my body but I couldn't find the courage to take it off.
I'm scared of what I would see. I always find my body disgusting and I really
hate to see myself in the mirror. But everything changed now. Loki made me feel
that I'm beautiful.
I have Loki now who still sees me as a beauty despite me being a monster.
Slowly, I reached the knot of the towel in front of my chest. I untied it and
let the towel dropped on the floor. I was welcomed with the reflection of my naked
body in front of the mirror.
My short hair made me feel different than the last time that I stared at myself
like this. There's no hindrance  covering the every inch of my skin and I could
almost see everything in me.
My lips parted as I looked at my face. I could tell that something has really
changed. Gone the wall that I've built around myself so I could see my every
emotions on my face.
I looked... beautiful.
Saka lang ako nakahinga nang maluwag. Ang kabang nararamdaman ko kanina ay
nawala. I chuckled softly as I realized how stupid I am. Sarili kong katawan pero
kinatatakutan ko.
My lips formed a small smile and I couldn't almost recognized myself with my
short blonde hair and a smile on my face. I don't know but I looked better now
compared to the last time I saw myself in the mirror.
Wow... Loki could do so much change in me.
I tried to do what I always did before just to look strong and intimidating. I
raised an eyebrow and lifted my chin as I crossed my arms over my chest. Now that
I've seen my real emotions, I could tell how fake this gesture of mine.
Did Loki see through me the first time that I did this? Or was it the first
time I cried in front of him after the fucking that we did?
But either way, I'm so glad that I opened up myself to him.
He's the best thing that ever happened to me.
I heard the door of my room suddenly swung open and I don't know what's with me
'cause I suddenly panicked and have no idea what to do. Thinking that it was Loki
made me panick so much!
 I did the first thing that came to my mind. I picked up the towel that was on
the floor and tried to cover my body but I know that it was already too late. Kaya
humarap na lang ako sa kanya habang sinusubukang takpan ng towel ang harapang
bahagi ng katawan ko.
Fuck! It was obvious that he had seen it as well as my idiotic stunt with the
towel!
Loki looked so surprised. He looked like a statue while holding the doorknob
and contemplating if he should enter my room or not. Mukhang nabigla sya sa ginawa
kong pagkataranta.
I don't know what's fucking wrong with me anyway! I mean, Loki already saw my
body a lot of fucking times and we did so much fucking! I even touched myself in
front of him, and oh, fuck, that was so fucking embarrassing now that I remember
it!
I did those kaya hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nag-iinarte ngayon! Fuck!
"I... I apologize for my rudeness. It has become a habit." si Loki na hindi din
alam kung anong gagawin. He even scratched the side of his left brow.
"It's okay." I tried to sound unbothered but I fucking squeaked! I cleared my
throat. "Do you need anything?"
Loki took several steps going inside my room but he stopped when he saw me took
a step back and tightened the grip of the towel that I'm holding. I wanted to curse
at myself so fucking bad for being so stupid at this time.

"When do you, uh..." Loki looked uncomfortable as well.

"When do you want to buy a dress for the party?"
"Tomorrow." sagot kong halos hindi na pinag-isipan pa.
Loki nodded but he remained standing on his spot, a few feet away from me. I
could feel the tension in the air as my hands began to sweat. I began to breathe
heavily.
When was the last time that we did fucking? Loki didn't move further besides
kissing ever since he heard my story. I could tell that he's trying to consider my
past.
But I never felt disgusted whenever he's touching me. Rough or gentle, I always
like his touch.
"So, uhm..." I waited for what he's going to say. He shifted his weight on his
other foot. "Goodnight."
That got me disappointed. I don't fucking know but I want something to happen
to us. I miss him despite us being in the same house but we're only talking and
cuddling and kissing everyday.
I want more of him.
"Yeah..." he said and nodded like he was trying to convince himself.
"Goodnight."
I panicked again when he turned around. I don't want him to leave. We have been
sleeping at separate rooms and I just want to be with him tonight. At sa mga
susunod pang mga gabi.
"Loki." I called him and he quickly looked at me.
"Yeah?" he looked like he was expecting me to say something.
I gulped. "Goodnight."
Oh, what the actual fuck? When did I become this lame?
Loki nodded and turned around again. He started to walk towards the door and I
just wanted to beat myself for my own stupidity.
That was my chance! But fuck! I blew it off!
I stared at Loki's back. I wanted to stop him but decided not to 'cause I don't
wanna embarrass myself again.
Loki stopped when he was about to reach the door. Nakatingin lang ako sa likod
nya so I saw him frustratedly combed his hair with his fingers.
"Fuck!" he cursed and I was surprised when he turned around and walked towards
me in a fast pace. He was standing in front of me in just a second and without
saying anything, he held the back of my nape and pulled me for a kiss.
I let go my the towel that I'm holding and wrapped my arms around his neck. We
shared a kiss like we've never seen each other for too long. It was a deep and
breathtakingly kiss. A kiss that was rough and could suck the air out of my lungs
but I didn't care. I kissed him back with the longing that I'm feeling for him.
I felt Loki's hand was on my back and he pulled my body closer to him. I was
naked and he was still fully clothed but his clothes wasn't enough to feel the
warmth of his body. I could tell by how he's holding me that he wanted me so much
just as how much as I wanted him.
He was biting and sucking my lips and all I could do was to moan. Fuck... I
missed this kind of kiss from him.
His tongue was seeking for an entrance so I opened my mouth and welcomed his
tongue with mine. Our tongue played together, swirling and tasting each other.
Suddenly, the room began to feel hot. I was naked but I was already panting and
sweating. My body feels so hot as Loki began sucking my tongue. The sound that he's
creating added pleasure to what I'm already feeling.
Fuck... I really want him so bad.
His hand that was on my nape went up to my hair. His fingers dugged on it and
pulled my head closer to him to deepen our kiss. He stopped sucking my tongue and
kissed my lips again.
He bit my lower lip and tugged it gently before he let go of my lips. We were
both trying to catch our breath after that kiss that we shared. My lips felt so
swollen and red. He leaned his forehead on mine as he stared at my eyes. His eyes
tells thousands of emotions but it was clear how much he desires me.
"I want you, Eresh..." he whispered so huskily that made my body writhe with
pleasure.
"Then fuck me, Your Majesty."
I held onto his shoulders when he carried me in a bridal style way and put me
down on the bed. I was sure that he will kiss me roughly than before when he placed
himself on top of me so it surprised me so much when he began kissing me so gently.
He gave me a gentle kiss that was so new to me. It was so gentle like he was
afraid to move roughly and hurt me. His lips was moving against mine as he guided
my chin and lift it up to kiss me better.
I closed my eyes and just let myself feel what he's giving to me. I don't know
why but his kiss sent chills down my spine. He was kissing me in a passionate yet
gentle way. No tongue. Just our lips moving together.
"Loki..." I mumbled against his lips. He stopped kissing me and looked down at
me. "What are you doing?"
Judging by how he kissed me for the second time tonight, I could tell that he
has no plans of fucking me like what I just told him earlier.
Is he worried because of my past?
He smiled at me. His sea-green eyes looked so beautiful as he looked at me
straight in the eye.
"I am treating my Queen like how she should be treated."
He put his hand against my cheeks and caressed it softly. I almost tear up when
I felt how gentle he was holding me. Like I would break if he treat me roughly.
He dipped his head and planted another kiss again on my lips. Nakadikit lang
ang mga labi nya sa mga labi ko. His lips wasn't moving but I already felt
thousands of emotions from the way he was kissing me.
He stopped and kissed the tip of my nose before he looked at me in the eye
again.
"I'll give you what you deserve, Eresh." he said. "No fucking."
I was about to protest but stopped when he caressed my cheeks and smiled at me
again.
"We're gonna make love this time."

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Chapter 57

Warning: Spg
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Make love. Just hearing those words could make my heart thump so fast that my
breathing hitched as I stared at Loki who's smiling gently at me but his eyes were
full of desire for me. He looked so handsome that I felt so thankful that I was
given the opportunity to love a man like him.
This new feeling in my heart is so overwhelming. I felt like I wouldn't be able
to take it all. It's overflowing and I don't know what to do about it.
I want to show Loki how much I love him. That I am thankful that he made me
feel different kinds of emotions. That I am thankful that he never gave up breaking
the wall that I built around myself. I felt like I'm slowly becoming a human now.
Despite me being born as a monster.
It feels like I could really live a normal life.
"Making love?" I asked as I didn't know how to do that. "Is there any
difference between making love and fucking?"
Loki chuckled and planted a quick kiss on my lips. I pouted when he ended the
kiss 'cause I want more. He smiled at me again.
"Let me show and make you feel how do they differ."
Loki put a distance between us. He was kneeling on the bed, both knees were on
the sides of my hips as he pulled the collar of his shirt from his back and took it
off. I gasped stupidly when I got to see his ripped body again.
Fuck those abs. Fuck those vline. Fuck those broad chest.
"Fuck me, please, Your Majesty." I couldn't help but to say. I want him so bad.
Loki just smiled at me before he dipped his head and kiss me fully on my mouth.
I answered his kiss like how I kissed him earlier, so deep and full of need but
Loki isn't doing the same. He was kissing me in a slow yet passionate way. My eyes
were still open so I could see Loki while he's giving me this out of this world
kiss. His eyes were closed and I could smell his fresh breath with a slight mint
fragnance dominating my nostrils.
His hand rested below my ear, thumb was slowly caressing my cheeks. It made
feel so much. I always like his kisses but this kiss was so different from what he
gave me before. So I closed my eyes and just savour this sweet moment.
I answered his kisses, with the same way as how he's kissing me. Loki groaned
and gently suck my lower lip before he kiss me again. I wrapped my arms around his
neck. My fingers dug on his hair and I gently tugged a few strands which earned a
moan from him.
The room began to feel so warm. I never thought that a kiss like this could
make me feel so much pleasure in me. I ran my hand down his spine and pulled him
close to me until there was no space left between us.
"I want more, Loki..." I said and I felt him smiled against my lips.
He gently bit my lower lip as his hands started to caressed my body. He was
doing it slow and I felt ticklish everytime he touched the sensitive part of my
skin.
He was holding me differently from how he holds me before everytime we fuck.
This time, he's moving gently and slowly. Like I would bleed if ever he moves a
little rough.
But fuck... I couldn't wait any longer. I am not used to this kind of intimacy!
"Ah!" I gasped when I felt his hand massaged my left breast.
I don't know... Pero mas lalo pa yatang nag-iinit ang pakiramdam ko sa mabagal
nyang paggalaw.
His lips went down my jaw and reached my ears. He kissed and sucked my earlobe
in a gentle way that made my body writhe under him. I could feel that I'm getting
wet. My body began to sweat and my chest was heaving up and down.
 Loki's hand moved further down. Pinaraanan nya ng paghaplos
ang bawat parte ng katawan kong madadaanan ng kamay nya until his hand reached my
thighs and caressed it. He stopped kissing me and I just watched him as he held my
foot and lifted it up. His other hand was caressing my thigh so softly that made me
bit my lower lip.
I have no idea what he's trying to do so I just watched him. He was still
holding my foot. He looked at me, eyes were so serious that sent shivers down my
spine. And when he took my foot near his mouth and gave it a kiss, I almost lost it
all.
"Oh my— fuck!" I tugged my foot away from him but he didn't let go. "Loki, it's
dirty— fuck!"
My hands gripped the bedsheet when I felt him licked and lapped at my foot. My
body is twisting with so much pleasure as this feeling was so new to me.
"Loki, stop." I was sobbing but he just continued with what he's doing.
I squealed so loud when he put my toes inside his mouth and suck at them one by
one. Hindi nya rin pinaglapas ang pagitan ng mga daliri ko sa paa. He was licking
the spaces between my toes while looking at me and watching my reaction.
"It's dirty..." I sobbed when I said that.
I was thankful when Loki finally stopped 'cause I feel like I was going to cum
with just that. He put down my foot gently and placed himself on top of me again.
"There's no part of you that's dirty, my Queen." he said with all seriousness.
"Every inch of you is worth it. Remember that."
Yumuko sya and he inserted one of my nipple inside his mouth and sucked it
gently. I moaned and I felt his hand massaging my other breast in a slow stroke. I
bit my lower lip and hug him.
Oh my God... Is this what making love is? I feel like I wouldn't last long with
the new sensation that I'm feeling!
Every touch of his hand and kiss that he's giving to me could sent so much
pleasure in me. I know that I'm so wet and so ready for him but Loki is taking his
time sucking and playing with my nipple with his tongue. He twirls and lick the
crown of my mound and my body arched as a response to him.
His lips went down and I just watched him kiss his way until he reached the
part in between my legs. He spread my thighs apart. I was watching him so I saw the
desire in his eyes when he looked at my core.
My toes curled when I saw his face inching close to my folds. A moan has
escaped from my lips when I felt his warm breath touched my core. And then finally,
I felt his tongue licked that part of me.
Nakapaikot ang mga braso nya mula sa ilalim ng mga hita ko paikot sa harap so
there's no way that I could close my legs even if I wanted to.
I could feel my climax building inside me. It was too fast but this making love
that were doing was making me feel too much sensation and pleasure than to what I
felt before.
Loki began licking my core. His fingers were spreading my folds so he was
licking every inch of me there. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang bawat paghagod ng dila nya
na halos magpabaliw na sa akin.
It's so fucking hot. My body feels so hot as Loki continue to what he was
doing. His eyes were closed like he was enjoying licking me.
"Fuck..." I moaned. I know I'm near and if Loki won't stop, I will reach my
orgasm that fast.
I tried to push his head away from my core but he just held my hand firmly and
continued licking me. Palakas na nang palakas ang mga ungol na pinapakawalan ko and
Loki knows it too but he didn't stop. Instead, he licked me more and sucked my clit
so hard and that finally set me off.

I moaned so loud and my body shook when I reached my

climax. White spot blinded my vision. Halos mabingi na ako but that didn't stop me
to feel when Loki inserted his fingers inside my entrance and pumped his fingers in
and out that prolonged my orgams.
I was panting after that earth shattering orgasm that I had. I tried to calm
myself down and waited for Loki 'cause I was expecting that he will now fuck me.
But he didn't move away and just stayed in between my legs. So I wasn't expecting
when he inserted his hardened tongue inside my core and began tongue-fücking me.
"Oh, fuck! Fuck, Loki!"
I tried to look at him and leaned my elbow on the bed to support my body. But
when I saw his face as he opened his eyes and our gaze met, it made me feel to have
another climax again.
"Oh, goddammit!"
Napabalik ako sa pagkakahiga nang mas bumilis ang ginagawa nya. He was fucking
me using his tongue and he's doing it fast.
"Loki, stop—" I begged 'cause it feels like I couldn't take it anymore.
But it seems like Loki didn't hear anything. He inserted his finger again as he
sucked my clit hard. He thrusts his fingers inside and out that my hips began to
meet his thrusts while I was trying to reach my peak.
"Faster! Oh!"
And he did. He thrusts faster and sucked my clit harder that made me hit my
orgasm after a few more thrust of his fingers
Pagod akong napahiga sa kama. Loki moved away to removed the remaining clothes
off his body. His cock sprang into life and my mouth watered with the sight of it.
He placed himself on top of me and spread my legs. He positioned himself in
between my thighs and we both moaned when he slowly inserted his cock in my core.
Fuck... I missed this. I missed the feeling of him inside me. His big and long
cock filled my insides kaya naman ramdam na ramdam ko sya sa loob ko.
"Eresh..." he breathes. I could see that he was trying to control himself. To
give me what he promised to me. That we're gonna make love this time.
His whole face turned so red as he restrained himself. I don't want him to do
that. Gusto ko ay gawin nya kung anong gusto nya. Gentle or rough, I will always
like it.
So I began moving my hips that made Loki groaned. He held my hips in place and
did it on his pace. No matter how much I wanted him to do it rough, he never gave
it to me.
He was thrusting his hips, deep but slow that almost made me cry.
"More, Loki." I begged. "Please, Your Majesty."
He groaned. He knelt on the bed and held my thighs to pull me close to him.
Then he gave me what I wanted. He began to thrust his hips, hard and fast.
My body bounced with every thrust that he made. Still, it wasn't that rough
compared before but there was something in his movements and the way he's looking
at me that made my heart swells with happiness.
He was looking at me with so much warmth in his eyes...
"Faster, Loki!" I begged as I felt my orgasm building up again.
Loki groaned again and moved faster. Binitiwan nya ang mga hita ko and held me
on my waist instead. I locked my legs on his waist as he thrusts deeper and faster.
He was hitting my g-spot that made my moan became louder.
My walls clenched around his cock and I felt him getting bigger inside me. I am
near and based on the soft moans that Loki is making, I know that he's about to
reach his climax too. Pumatong sya sa katawan ko at ibinaon ang mukha sa leeg ko.
"Fuck! I'm near, Eresh!" he hissed and thrusts his hips faster than ever.
I bit my lower lip, unable to answer as I try to meet his thrusts, trying to
reach my own peak. Loki's making a sexy, little moans and hearing those sounds
added pleasure in me.
"Eresh... I'm gonna come—" he warned and began ramming his hips roughly. I know
that he's asking for my permission.
"Inside!" I squealed, almost crying with all the sensation that I'm feeling. I
heard Loki let out a manly and sexy moan because of what I've said. "Inside, Loki!"
"Fuck, Eresh! The things you make me feel—"
Orgasm finally hit me and after a few more thrusts, I heard Loki groaned as he
shoots his thick and warm load inside of me.
 We were both panting after that. A tear had escaped from my eyes and I didn't
know why. Maybe because I felt so many emotions inside me and I didn't know what to
do about it.
Loki pulled out his cock and I felt our juices oozed out off my core. He looked
down at me and he looked so handsome as he tried to wiped my tears away.
I sobbed. Fuck... I don't even know why am I crying. I felt so happy. What we
did tonight was a really different one. Loki did treat me gently and made me feel
beautiful inside and out.
I stared at his sea-green eyes. Those eyes that captivated me from the first
time that we've met. I looked at him with tears on the corner of my eyes.
"I love you, Loki..."
I said it. I finally said it as I poured out my emotions with every words. Loki
stared at me. His eyes were dancing with happiness. He dipped his head and planted
a kiss on my forehead. Pinagdikit nya ang mga noo namin at tinitigan ako
pagkatapos.
"Stay with me forever."
I smiled and nodded at him. He returned my smile before he buried his face on
my neck and kiss my soft spot there. I hugged him tight and closed my eyes.
Fuck... I hope I can. I really hope that I can stay with him forever. To the
forever that he's building for the two of us.
But I know that it's close to impossible.
I know that I just can't...

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Chapter 58

Warning: Spg
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I woke up, feeling ticklish as I felt someone caressing my face. I frowned
before I opened my eyes. My gaze immediately landed on the most handsome man lying
beside me on the bed and looking down at me. His hand was supporting his head while
his elbow was leaning on the bed.
He didn't remove his hand away from my face even if he saw woke up already. He
just continue softly brushing his thumb on my cheeks and sometimes, his using the
back of his fingers while caressing my face.
A smile has automatically appeared on my face. I savoured the feeling of his
soft touch on my skin and stared at his face. His sea-green eyes was looking
straight at me and I knew that had he woken up for a while now and has been
watching me ever since.
"Good morning, my Queen." he greeted me with his sexy bedroom voice that made
me bite my lower lip.
"Good morning, my King."
He gave me a beautiful smile that nearly knocked out the air out of my lungs.
Fuck it. I just woke up and I must've looked like shit but here's Loki who looked
so attractive and sexy than ever with his disheveled hair and a smile! We were both
naked under the sheet that was covering from my chest down. Habang kay Loki ay sa
bewang pababa ang natatakpan sa kanya so I have the view of his chiseled chest and
abs.
Loki slowly inch close on me and I caught the smell of his fresh breath before
he buried his face on my neck. He hugged me as he inhaled my scent that sent chills
to my whole body.
"Are you okay?" he asked, his voice were muffled against my skin. "Did I hurt
you? Was I too rough?"
I giggled because of his questions. He sounded so worried and uncertain that he
didn't do good job last night. But it's a total opposite. I think that what we did
last night is the best for me given that I almost cried out of happiness after we
did it.
I caressed his hair and shook my head.
"No, Loki. It was the best night for me."
I heard him heaved a deep sigh na parang doon lang sya nakahinga nang maluwag.
I smiled as I continue on caressing his hair. It was so soft against my fingers as
I try to grip some strands of it. I kissed his head and hugged him back before I
closed my eyes.
I could feel the loud thumping of my chest and I'm sure that Loki could feel
and hear it too 'cause I was feeling his. Halos magkasabay sa bilis ang tibok ng
mga puso namin. It was simple yet perfect moment for me.
Another beautiful moment added to my memories.
We stayed like that for a while. I was hugging him while his face was still
buried on my neck. I could hear his gentle breathing that I thought he's sleeping
again if not for him kissing my neck from time to time.
"Let's take a bath together." sabi nya at na-concious tuloy ako sa amoy ko
especially that he was inhaling my scent.
"Do I smell that bad?"
I felt him smile against my skin. "No. You smell so good that I could stay like
this for the whole day. But we have to buy you a dress for the party."
Dahil sa sinabi nya ay pumayag ako sa gusto nya. He planted a quick kiss on my
lips before he helped me got up on the bed. He chuckled when he saw me struggling
while covering my body and he's fully naked as we walked towards the bathroom.
I don't even know why am I starting to get embarrassed around him. We just made
love last night! He licked every inch of my body and the audacity of me to feel
embarrassed at this time.
Fuck! We're going to take a bath together! Naked, of course! So stupid of me to
let that slip my mind.
Sa inis ko ay binitiwan ko ang kumot na nakatakip sa katawan ko. I let it fall
on the floor and Loki grinned as he eyed me from head to toe. I just made a face at
him and walked inside the bathroom.

We were both under the shower as we took a bath together.

It was Loki who shampooed my hair and massaged my scalp in a gentle way. Nakakapit
lang ako sa mga balikat nya habang ginagawa nya iyon. And fuck of me to feel horny
at a time like this.
I was trying to ignore his erection for a while now. I know that it was just a
morning wood but fuck, I think I want him again.
So instead of embarrassing myself again, I turned my back on him and washed the
shampoo off my hair. Pero parang mas napasama pa ang pagtalikod ko sa kanya dahil
nagsimula syang haplusin ang katawan ko. And when he planted a kiss on my shoulder
blades, I shivered.
"Loki..." my moan echoed inside the bathroom.
He began massaging my breasts and played with my nipples. That's when I
realized that we won't do a simple taking a bath in here. The water was still
running down from our body but it didn't stop us to feel hot.
I leaned my back on his body 'cause I feel like my knees wouldn't be able to
support me but it's a wrong move. I felt his hardened cock on my lower back and I
couldn't help but to moan.
His hand went down and he immediately found my clit and played with it. Mas
lalong napadikit ang katawan ko sa kanya and I hold onto his arms to get support.
"So wet for me..." he whispered against my ears before he bit my lower lip. I
whimpered in pleasure as I try to steady my breathing.
"You said that we're just... g-going to take a shower." I said, gritting my
teeth to stop my moans but I failed. "Oh, fuck!"
"You're so beautiful, Eresh..." he whispered as he pressed his fingers on my
clit and rubbed it fast.
"Oh! Oh, damn it! Loki!"
 My grip on his arms tightened that my nails almost dugged on his skin. I know
that I'm hurting him but Loki didn't stop on pleasuring me. Like that is all that
matters to him.
I was breathing so hard. I leaned my head on his shoulders and closed my eyes.
My lips parted as I tried to catch my breath. I could feel the intense gaze from
Loki as he watched all of my reaction.
"You're so perfect." he whispered before he kissed my neck. "I feel so lucky to
have you."
"Loki..." I moaned his name.
I could feel my orgasm building up inside me. Loki continued on rubbing my clit
while his other hand was playing on my nipple. He licked the length of my neck
before his lips reached my ears and sucked my earlobe. And after awhile, I felt my
body shivered as orgasm hit me. Mas sumandal pa ako sa katawan ni Loki habang
naghahabol ng hininga.
He turned off the shower before he made me leaned on the tiled wall of the
bathroom. Nakaharap ako doon habang nasa likuran ko pa rin sya. His one hand was on
my waist as he tried to insert his cock on my core. I bit my lower lip and moaned
when he finally put it in.
He was so big. Fuck. His cock was so thick and big that my walls will always
need to adjust for him. And it always makes me feel so good.
He started to thrust his hips and I moaned as I put my hands on the tiled wall.
It wasn't enough for me to support myself pero wala na akong ibang makakapitan so I
just leaned my whole body on the wall. My breast were pressed against the cold tile
while Loki was taking me from behind.
Fuck... It feels so fucking good. Loki was ramming his cock inside me that make
my knees wobble. He will pull out his cock until the head was left inside me then
he will thrust all the way in. He was hitting my g-spot and I could feel my climax
building up inside me again.
Loki pulled me to lean on his body again before he hugged me as he thrusts his
hips on me. I hold onto his arms as my moans filled the room. I began to move my
hips and meet his thrusts so I could reach my peak the soonest.
"Fuck, Eresh..." Loki hissed and based on his breathing, I could tell that he's
near from reaching his climax too.
He guided my chin to look at him sideways and gave me a passionate kiss. No
tongue. Just a kiss that's telling me he's claiming me. That I'm only his. That he
should only be my King.
Of course he is. He's the only man that I love.
"Stay with me forever." he said against my lips. "Promise me that you'll stay
with me forever, my Queen."
I couldn't answer him as I hit my second orgasm. My body shivered but Loki
continued on thrusting his hips, faster this time as he tried to reach his peak and
it just prolonged my orgasm. I moaned so loud but I heard Loki groaned as he
finally spurt his load inside me.
We stayed like that for awhile, him hugging me as I leaned my body on him for
support. Loki pulled out his cock inside me and I felt our juices oozed out from my
core down to my thighs.
When we finally recovered, we finished taking a bath dahil masyado na kaming
tumagal and Loki was worried that I might catch a cold. I just rolled my eyes at
him.
Kasalanan nya naman kasi... Na ginusto ko rin naman.
We stayed inside the bathroom and dried our hair while wearing a bathrobe. I
was using a blow dryer while looking at the mirror when Loki took it from my hand
and did it instead. I turned around. May tuwalya pang nakasabit sa balikat nya at
ginamit ko iyon para patuyuin ang buhok nya.
He chuckled when we realized what we're doing. He was drying my hair while I
was drying his. We could do it on our own but made it dramatic instead.
Another perfect moment to add to my memories.
Fuck... I want to experience this again.
I was rubbing the towel on his head as I try to dry his hair. Kung minsan ay
may tumatamang buhok sa mga mata nya but I never heard any complain from him. He
will just close that eye that was hit by his hair and will just chuckled.
While him, he was drying my hair gently and carefully. Careful that no strands
will touch my face that could hurt me and it almost made my heart melt.
I was staring at his face while drying his hair with a towel. Fuck... He really
is the most handsome man for me. His eyes... His sea-green eyes that always
captivates me. His thick brows, perfect nose and red lips... I know that I wouldn't
be able to forget his face.
His face and whole existence will be forever tattooed in my mind... And heart.
"I love you so much, Loki."
Mabilis na bumaba sa mga mata ko ang paningin nya mula sa buhok ko. I know that
he heard what I've said despite the noise from the blow dryer. At kahit na hindi
nya narinig, I am willing to say it again.
He turned off the blow dryer, put it on the tiled sink before he caressed my
cheeks and planted a kiss on my forehead. Pinagdikit nya ang mga noo namin at
tinitigan ako.
"Stay with me forever, Eresh..."
I just hugged him as answer. He hugged me back and I was contented with
everything.
It's fine... It's okay if I have a dark past. Nabawi ang lahat ng iyon sa mga
sandaling ito.
I thought that I wouldn't be able to live a good life. But I did. I am living
my good life right at this moment.
Even just for a while...

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Chapter 59

Because Loki didn't make something for our breakfast since

he chose to pull off that "taking a bath" version of him first, we decided to eat
at some cafe at the mall before looking for a dress that I will use for the party a
week from now.
I almost laughed when he took those five bodyguards with us saying that he's
certain that the dress wasn't the only thing that I would buy given that I'm a
woman. He even told me that the duchesses and the princesses that belonged to the
royal family were like that.
And now, we're being the center of attraction again as we walked from stores to
stores.
I raised my held high, enjoying the attention that those commoners were giving
us. I know that they were just curious about who I am that their Prince Alexander
is with but the fuck I care. I could still see in their eyes that they are admiring
me, especially from the man who shamelessly stared at me now that I'm wearing a
tube type red dress with a flowy skirt that emphasize my fair skin.
Yes, bitches. I know I'm beautiful. Your Prince Alexander said so and he made
me feel it too.
I heard Loki chuckled, probably he noticed what I'm doing. He's always like
that anyway. He always figures and understands me so easily.
Loki took my hand and guided me for a turn. I did what he wanted and made a
twirl that the skirt of my dress followed my movements. I giggled and Loki chuckled
as he caught me when I lose my balance.
Fuck... A nice show for everyone.
The poor bodyguards already carrying four shopping bags each. Hindi pa ako
nakakabili ng dress for the party and yet they already carrying that much.
But Loki seems like he wanted to spoil me again. Sya pa nga ang nagtuturo sa
akin ng mga bagay na sa tingin nya ay magugustuhan ko. And of course, I wouldn't
back down. It's not like he would go poor with this. He even has a fucking black
credit card that has no spending limit.
We spent the whole day doing shopping and eating whenever we got hungry, still
not minding the eyes of the people watching us. We both don't care if there's any
paparazzi around. Loki doesn't care about anything and just keep his eyes on me
every damn time like I am the best attraction in this world.
"What do you think?" I asked when I went out of the fitting room. Loki was just
outside, sitting at the sofa while reading the magazine and waiting for me. His
gaze went up to look at me.
It seems like Loki knew who the owner of this boutique is as it was the
designer who personally attented to me. He was also standing outside the fitting
room and we were both waiting for Loki's reaction who eyed me from head to toe.
Loki frowned. He put down the magazine that he's reading and stood up. He
stared at my whole as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"I used a fine thread for this, Your Royal Highness." the designer said,
talking highly of his work. "I hand-stitched the details as well as the beads."
I stared at Loki. This is what I really like about him. Whenever I ask his
opinion even for the dresses, he will think through it thoroughly to give an honest
opinion.
"She's too..." Loki started to say. "Covered."
It was my turn to frown. It was a turtle neck dress with a long sleeves and
he's right. It was covering my whole front but the back has a deep cut that almost
showed my whole back. The length already reached the floor.
"It's already daring, Loki." I said and turned my back at him to show the
design there.
"No..." he said. Shaking his head. "You're too fully-clothed."

My frown deepened. "That's a birthday party for the heir,

Loki. A royal party. I must look decent for the royalties."
He sighed. Clearly against my opinion. Ano bang gusto nya? Mag-two piece bikini
ako sa party?
"This isn't like you, Eresh." he said. "The dress doesn't match your
personality. It feels like... I was looking at a stranger."
I frowned, still not getting what he's saying but looks like the designer did.
"Can you tell me her traits, Sir?" the designer asked Loki politely. "I could
suggest a dress that might actually fits her. Or even make one for her."
Loki looked back at the designer and answered him seriously.
"I want a dress that would show how strong, bold and daring woman she is. That
she could captivate anyone with just a glimpse of her. A bit mysterious that would
want everybody to know more about her. But since, she's a tough one... she wouldn't
let anyone to get pass the wall that she built." he looked at me. "Like a real
Queen she is. Beautiful and strong."
My lips parted as I stared at him. I didn't know that is how he sees me. It
made me feel like what he said is all true. That I'm really a Queen. That I'm
really beautiful.
Fuck... Why does he always says the words I really wanted to hear?
"We don't have a dress like that." the designer said. "But I can definitely
make one specifically for her, Your Royal Highness."
"Can you make it in just a week?"
The designer smiled at him. "I may have to put an all nighter but certainly,
Sir."
They talked about the details and I just watched and listened to them while the
designer was taking my measurements. It was Loki who took care of my dress. The
designer would ask him from time to time about the details and he always has his
answers. I'm surprised that he even knew about fashion.
Of course... He's a royalty. He need to learn about the fashion as well for his
awareness.
I smiled... I've never been so proud about anyone before. Ngayon lang.
 "I'll just sent the dress on the address that you gave me, Your Royal
Highness."
"Much appreciated." Loki answered as he ended their conversation.
It was already dark when we went out the boutique and we decided to finally
have a dinner at some restaurant that he suggested. But as we walked towards the
exit of the mall, my eyes caught something.
I stopped on my tracks to stare at the displayed books on the bookstore. Now
that I think about it, when was the last time that I've read a book? A novel that
would take me to a different world?
I can't remember.
"You like books?" Loki asked when he saw where I was looking.
"Used to." I answered.
"Used to?"
I nodded. I don't want to tell him the story behind that 'cause I know that it
will just ruin the happy atmosphere around us. But it looks like Loki thinks
differently. He was looking expectantly at me. Eyes were just focus on me and it
was obvious that he's willing to listen to everything that I'll say.
I sighed. "I used to love reading books when I was a kid but father wanted me
to focus on my training."
I looked at Loki. There was a glint of anger in his eyes. Kung may galit man
syang nararamdaman para sa ama ko simula nang sabihin ko sa kanya ang nakaraan ko,
mukhang mas nadagdagan lang iyon ngayon.

I looked back at the displayed books again. Some were

familiar with different books covers but mostly were a new one.
I flashed a sad smile at him.
"Father burned all my books, Loki. It was... really heartbreaking."
I heard him sighed as he balled his fists and stared at the displayed books at
that bookstores as well.
"What book would you want to read again?" he asked.
I looked at him. "Harry Potter."
"You haven't finished reading that?"
"I was about to. I was on the last three books but father burned my books
before I could finish it."
He took my hand then tugged me towards the bookstore.
"Then read, Eresh. Read it again. It is me who's with you now. I will let you
do all the things that you want."
I stared at him. Loki looked so serious as he said those words at me. He looked
so determined that I should do everything that I want now that he's with me.
"I'll give you everything that you deserve, my Queen."
I finally smiled at him and with that, we entered the bookstore, hand in hand.
The smell of the books filled the air. Nostalgia runs through me as I remember
my childhood. I remember back then that I really love the smell of the books
especially when it's new. I would always try to smell the pages everytime I turned
it to a next one before finally reading it.
Loki took the book bundle, the one with a chest, and took it to the counter. I
didn't stopped him even if it's only the last three books that I needed. We were
second in the line as he declined the offer of the first in the line na paunahin
sya.
He hates getting special treatment, huh? So unlike me. Kung ako 'yon, matutuwa
pa ako.
My eyes caught a book with a catchy book cover. It was a fantasy book. As a
child back then, I almost like stories with these kind of genre as it could always
take me somewhere in my imagination.
I picked up the book and read the blurb on the back. Sounds interesting but I
put it back on the shelf.
"Don't you want to buy it?" Loki asked. I looked at him and shook my head.
 "No. Those were enough." I said, pertaining to the Harry Potter books.
Besides... I don't have that much time left anyway.
"I never thought that you're someone who love books."
I shrugged my shoulders and continued browsing the books on the display table.
"I love reading." I answered him. I picked up another book and read the blurb
on the back again.
"Magkakasundo kayo ni Daphne..."
My eyebrows shot up because of what he had said. I didn't even notice that the
grip on my book tightened that I almost tore the safety cover off it. I slowly
looked at Loki who even dared to smile at me after what he had said.
"Tinatanong ko ba?" I shot back at him, my tone raising.
He looked so surprised with that. Some people even looked at us dahil napalakas
ang pagkakasabi ko. But I won't and don't fucking care if they think that I'm
shouting at their Prince Alexander. I don't care if I'll be jailed because of this!
It's not like they've understood whatever I said anyway. They were all Peppa
Pig here just like him!
"Daphne?" I asked. I almost spit that name out of my mouth.
Loki nodded. "She loves books as well." he even dared to smile. "She always got
mad whenever we fold the pages and will scold us to use a bookmark."
"Hindi ko naman tinatanong."
He frowned. Obviously wondering why I started to act like this. Well, I am like
this! Even before! So why does he looked so confused now?
Does he really think that I will feel happy now that he mentioned that name?
Then suddenly, Loki looked like he was trying to hide his smile. Eyes were
dancing in amusement that just made me more irritated.
"I just wanted to tell you that Daphne—" he said but I cut him off.
"I don't want to hear about it."
He laughed so hard that almost all the people inside the bookstore looked at
us. I got more annoyed and fought the urge to punch him on the face as it was our
turn to pay now.
"My Queen is jealous." he said and the cashier even heard about it based on the
small smile on her face.
I looked at Loki. I know my face was now red because of embarrassment and
anger, opposite to Loki's mischievous smirk and playful eyes.
"I am not!' I said. "I'm more beautiful than her!
Loki chuckled and my face flushed even more when I heard the lady on the
counter giggled. I glared at her and she just smiled sheepishly at me.
"Of course, my Queen." Loki said. "You are the most beautiful woman for me."
Imbes na kiligin kagaya ng babae sa counter ay mas lalo pa akong nainis. It
feels like Loki was just teasing me to see my "jealous" reaction! Sa inis ko ay
iniwan ko sya doon at lumabas na ng bookstore.
Damn it! Me? Jealous? The fuck! I will not get jealous over a plain girl like
Daphne! She's nothing against me! I'm more beautiful than her!
I didn't talk to him when he went out the bookstore and even on the way to the
restaurant for our dinner.
Fuck! Loki just ruined the day by mentioning that name! Fucking great!

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Chapter 60

Warning: Spg
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I was wearing a frown on my face the whole ride to the restaurant where we
would take our dinner. I was feeling so bad since earlier at the bookstore and I
don't fucking know why.
I'm jealous? Hah! Why would I get jealous over someone who looked so plain and
boring anyway? Fuck, she doesn't stand a chance against me! I mean I'm beautiful,
smart, sexy and all of the good adjectives one could think of so there is no
fucking way that I will be jealous over Daphne! What Loki said was just a plain
bullshit!
Loki didn't try to talk to me anyway but I could see that he's trying to hide
the smile that wanted to show on his face. He has a mischievous look in his eyes
that irritated me more 'cause it feels like he's just making fun of me.
Fuck him!
A man greeted us when we entered the restaurant. I could tell that it's a high-
class restaurant that only the VIPs could afford but I don't fucking care as I was
still feeling annoyed with everything.
The man, whom I discovered was the manager of the restaurant, guided us to our
table on the second floor. Medyo sa hulihang bahagi kami nakapwesto to give us some
privacy but the people could still see us. They only looked at us once before they
mind their own business again but there were still some who stole glances to their
Prince Alexander of York... And me with confusion in their eyes.
The manager gave us the menu that I didn't even bother to read. Loki gave me a
glance and I just rolled my eyes at him as I put down the menu on the table. He
started to give orders to the manager.
"How about for the dessert, Your Royal Highness?" the manager asked.
"Give us your best-seller, please."
"May I take your order, Ma'am?" tanong ng manager nang balingan ako
"Just a red wine."
I noticed Loki's jaw moved as he clenched his teeth. Obviously, he didn't like
my order. He looked at the manager again who has a confused look on his face.
"She'll have the same as mine." Loki said.
The manager politely excused himself saying that they will start preparing our
dinner.
A waiter serve us a wine and poured our glass while were waiting. I gulped it
down before asking for a second glass. I saw Loki glared at me and wave the waiter
away nang akmang lalapit ulit sa amin para lagyan ang baso ko.
"Are you truly planning to ignore me for the whole night?" he said with his
thick British accent.
I just raised an eyebrow at him and just stared outside the window. Fuck it.
Whatever I'm feeling right now is slowly eating me up. I could almost taste the
bitterness inside my mouth and the aching inside my chest.
I just looked away and stared outside the window. I watched how the lights
flicker like the stars in the night sky making me feel ten times worse than before.
Fuck... I don't want this kind of feeling.
"Eresh..." I heard Loki whispered my name. It was so soft, urging me to look
back at him but I just remained staring outside the window.
I began to feel like this ever since he mentioned that woman's name. Is it
really possible that I feel jealousy towards her?
But no... I mean, how could it be? I know that I'm more beautiful and sexier
than her. She's... plain. Why would I feel jealous then?
"Talk to me, Eresh..." Loki said, almost begging.
I looked at him and I saw hopeful in his eyes. Mukhang kanina pa talaga nya
inaabangan na kausapin ko sya. Gone the mischievous smile on his lips. He looked
all serious now.

I balled my fist that was on my lap and gathered the

courage to ask him the question that has been bothering me since the first time I
heard that woman's name.
"Did you really fell inlove with Daphne?"
If he was surprised with my question, he never let it show on his face. He
sighed before he stood up and drag his chair beside me. I could see some people
followed his movements but he didn't pay them any attention.
 Loki stared at me when he sat beside me. My heart racing as I wait for his
answer.
"I did."
Wow... That hurts.
The pain that I felt inside my chest double that made me want to burst out
crying. Fuck... Okay. What he said was true. I really am jealous.
Damn it. This is the first time that I fell inlove and I don't want this
jealousy to consume me. I never thought that I would feel like this when I love
someone. Ang akala ko ay kuntento na ako na mahal ko sya, even if he doesn't love
me back.
But fuck... This love that I'm feeling makes me a greedy person. I'm becoming
possessive and that's dangerous.
'Cause I know that I have to let him go someday.
"What happened?" I asked. My voice were hoarse for trying to stop my tears.
"Why didn't you fight for her?"
I mean this is Loki. A person that every woman would dream of. He's a prince. A
real prince. If he only fight for his love for Daphne, I know that he would have a
chance.
Loki smiled. He took my hand. Tinanggal nya ang pagkakakuyom ng mga kamao ko
then he intertwined our fingers.
"She's the kind of love that I'm willing to let go." he said before he kissed
the back of my hand. "But you... You're the kind of love I would always keep. The
love that I want only for myself."
My heart raced. Loki looked at me in the eye and flashed me a warm smile.
"You're the kind of love that I would take all the chances I get to fight for
you. You're the kind of love that is worth fighting for."
And just like a magic, my jealousy and negative feelings melt away.
Loki noticed that. He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and smiled at
me.
"Are you still jealous?"
That put the frown back on my face. I removed our intertwined hands and crossed
my arms over my chest.
"I'm not jealous."
He chuckled and put his arm on the backrest of my chair. Kahit sinong
makakakita sa amin ay aakalaing nakaakbay sya sa akin.
"Oh, yeah?"
I gasped when he suddenly put his free hand on my thighs. I tried to ignore it
at first, thinking that it was just one of his gestures but when he started
caressing it in a sensual way, I knew that I was wrong.
"Stop!" I hissed and tried to remove his hand on my thigh. Pero binabalik nya
rin kaagad hanggang sa hinayaan ko na 'cause were starting to catch people's
attention.
Ang gulo naman kasi!
I made a loud gasped when Loki squeezed my thigh. I glared at him but he just
grinned at me.
Slowly, his hand went inside my dress' skirt and I could feel his warm and
rough hand caressing my thigh. I tried to ignore it but his hand is slowly going up
with every caress that he did.
Fuck! We're outside!
I held his wrist to stop his hand but he buried his face on my neck and lick my
sensitive spot there. I almost let out a whimper but I bit my lower lip to stop it.

"Loki, stop..." I tried to say but it came out as a moan.

Fuck it!
His hand were now caressing my inner thigh and I'm now starting to feel so hot.
I was looking at the people, trying to see if someone notices what's their Prince
Alexander is doing but they were all busy with their own businesses.
 His hand grazed against my underwear that made my breathing hitched. I looked
at Loki, trying to glare at him but all that I gave him was a look of pleasure and
desire. I saw the fire in his eyes when I gave him that look.
Fuck it!
He grazed his hand again for the second time on the same spot and I let out a
soft whimper. Loki planted a kiss on my ears and I heard his ragged breathing too.
I bet that he's getting affected to it as well.
Damn... I don't want him to stop. But fuck! We're outside!
His hand remained on my core and moved his finger in a circular motion against
my underwear. Pero kahit na may nakapagitan na manipis na tela ay ramdam ko pa din
ang init ng kamay nya.
I held onto his wrist, trying to get a support to stop my hips from moving. The
fact that we're actually outside made me feel excited and worried at the same time.
"Loki..." my voice were in a soft whisper and moan. I saw Loki clenched his jaw
bago nya hinawi ang underwear ko at naglumikot ang mga daliri nya sa gitna ko.
"You're so wet." he whispered and brushed his lips on my cheeks. "Fuck!"
He suddenly inserted a finger inside my core that I let out a whimper which
immediately muffled againt my palms. Sobrang higpit nang pagkakatakip ko sa bibig
ko, trying to ignore the feeling of his finger thrusting inside me.
"Don't." he said and removed my hands on my mouth using his hand that was on my
shoulder. "You'll hurt yourself."
I was about to say something but it turn out as a soft moan when he inserted
another finger again. Two fingers of his were now thrusting inside.
"S-someone might notice us." I tried to look around pero mukhang wala pang
nakakapansin sa amin despite the noise that I'm making. Maybe it's too soft that
they couldn't even hear it.
Fuck! It's so hard to control my moan! I wanna moan so loud!
I looked at Loki and saw the desire in his eyes as he continued on thrusting
his fingers on my core. I tried to stop my hips from moving when I made a slight
attempt on meeting the thrust of his fingers.
"You're so beautiful. Fuck!" he cursed as he watch me struggle on how to
maintain my straight face because we're outside.
"Oh!"
I bit my lower lip when he started to thrust his fingers in a fast pace. I was
worried that someone might notice the movement of his arms. And fuck, he's a
royalty and this will be a huge scandal if he got caught!
But as I looked at the people, I noticed that he might be a regular in this
restaurant. Nobody tried to look at him again, siguro ay sanay na sa presensya nya
or they just know how to respect someone's privacy even if he's a royalty.
Kaya siguro malakas ang loob nyang gawin 'to. He trusts this restaurant that
much.
"Oh, fuck..." I breathe when I felt my orgasm building up.
Loki noticed it. Mas bumilis ang paggalaw ng mga daliri nya. He thrusts his
fingers in a faster pace than before inside of me, helping me to reach my peak. I
know that I'm making an erotic expression as I couldn't help it because of the
pleasure that I'm feeling. I was thankful when Loki pulled me and made me buried my
face on his chest.
I was breathing so hard. My walls clenched around his fingers and Loki thrusted
it faster. My hips started to move as I bit my lower lip so hard when I finally
reached my peak.
My body shook but Loki hugged me so tight trying to calm me after that earth
shattering orgasm that he just gave me. Fuck... I didn't know that it was this good
doing it sneakily outside.
My heart hammered when I felt someone putting down a plate on our table before
I heard the manager's voice. My body hasn't recovered yet and I was still slightly
shaking when the manager came back.
"Thank you." Loki thanked the manager and when I heard his footsteps away,
humiwalay ako kay Loki at tinapunan sya nang masamang tingin.
"That is so—" I struggle to find the right words but just groaned in the end.
 Loki chuckled before he removed his fingers off my core that made me bit my
lower lip but glared at him after. He gave me a grin as he wiped his fingers with a
tissue.
"Are you still jealous?"
I gaped at him. I can't believe this! He did that just because I'm jealous?
He kissed me on the forehead before he planted a quick kiss on my lips.
"You don't have to get jealous to her or to anyone, Eresh." he said. "You are
my Queen. It has always been you."
He smiled and he helped me fixed my dress before he stood up. He was about to
drag his chair back on its place when a waiter helped him and did it to his stead.
He gave me a smile when he sat down and I stared at him before I returned his
smile. I realized that Loki could really have so much effect on me. He could make
me happy, then annoyed and then back to being happy again with just his words.
I picked up the fork and started eating, feeling more than okay now. And I
think that if I ever hear Daphne's name again with his own mouth, I wouldn't get
jealous anymore.
I made a small smile and made up my mind.
I will spend our remaining time enjoying every moments together.

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Chapter 61

I spent my days reading the books that Loki bought for me.
Days had passed like a blur and I didn't even realize that the day of the party is
slowly closing in.
Fuck... I need to prepare myself to look beautiful, working out, do a skin care
routine, or anything else that I need to do but I just couldn't take my eyes off
the book. The story was so good and I can't even put the book down for a minute!
I was in the living room, sitting comfortably on the sofa as I wait for the
lunch to be cooked. I could smell all the here way the food that Loki is cooking
that makes my stomach growls but I didn't move an inch from my position.
I was so engrossed while reading the book. My brows were slightly furrowed but
my expression changed into something else.
I screamed.
I could hear some clattering from the kitchen before I saw Loki who looked like
he ran the distance between the kitchen and the living room to where I am. I even
saw him holding a gun that I didn't bother to think how he could take that with him
in just a short period of time.
"What? What happened?" he asked, looking around as he loaded the gun. "Why did
you sceam?"
He looked at me when he saw nothing around. My gaze went up to him and I gave
him a mournful look.
"Padfoot died!" I cried.
Loki just stared at me. Probably my words haven't sink in on him and just
watched me cry stupidly.
"I shouldn't have continued reading this book if only I have known!"
I heard Loki heaved a deep sigh before he put down the gun. He walked towards
to where I was sitting, a small smile was on his face as he looked warmly at me.
He sat on the carpeted floor in front of me and gaze up to look at my face.
Tuluyan na syang tumawa nang makita nang malapitan ang mukha ko.
"I thought that something happened." he said, trying to tucked my short hair
behind my ears.
"Something did happen!" I insisted. "Padfoot died! He's my favorite character,
fuck!"
Loki chuckled and put his chin on my thighs. He hugged me on the waist while
still looking up at me.
 "You're so cute..."
But I ignored him since I was still grieving.
"Malfoy is my second favorite. Is he gonna die in the end?" I asked
He grinned at me. "I'm not gonna spoil you."
I groaned. "Just tell me. So I can prepare myself at least." but he shook his
head that made my eyes roll.
What a killjoy.
"What do you like about Draco? A lot of people dislikes him."
I closed the book and gave it to Loki. He took it from me and put it down on
the coffee table before he returned to his position, wrapping his arms around my
waist while his chin is on my thighs.
I started caressing his soft hair. Damn... I will always like the feeling of
his hair slipping off my fingers. I always thought that men's hair were rough
because they've been putting a lot of wax on their hair but Loki is different. His
hair feels so smooth against my fingers.
"Draco is just misunderstood, Loki." I said as I continue on brushing his hair
with my fingers.
"How could you tell?" he asked. "You haven't finished reading all the books
yet."
I stared at him in the eye, trying to tell him what I wanted to with just a
look.
"I just know..."

He looked at me, straight in the eye and I didn't care if

he could see my real emotions. He saw everything in me anyway. I let him see
everything in me. I let him break down the walls that I've built around myself.
Nakita na nya ang lahat.
"I saw right through you, Eresh..." he said softly. "I understand you."
And that is enough for me.
We finally went back to the second Von Amstel manor the day before the party
after spending almost a month at his own beach house. The servants immediately did
their job assisting us and it just feels so weird now that we're not alone and have
a lot of company inside this big mansion.
Still... I was glad that I got to spend time with him. With only the two of us
together.
The day of the party came and Loki hired a makeup artist and a hairstylist and
he even made the stylist who did my dress to assist me with everything. They did
their job on me. The makeup artist painting on my face and the hair stylist styled
my hair. I don't think that I need someone to do my hair though. I mean, it's
really short and there couldn't have been a lot of style that they can do with my
hair. They just made my hair straighter and parted my hair on the side.
I looked at the mirror and saw their finished product. I smiled with
satisfaction when I saw my reflection. They made my eyes looked smokey and balanced
it with a nude lipstick.
"Perfect!" the designer exclaimed after he helped me put on my dress for the
party.
I stared at myself in the mirror and realized that he's wrong. This is beyond
perfection!
I was wearing a red dress. The lace sleeves reached till my wrist. Like a wall
that I've built for myself.
It has a deep v-cut on the front and this is what Loki meant when he said
daring and beautiful. The skirt is tulle and flowy but it has a high cut on the
right side and my legs would show whenever I walked.
Like a real temptress. And a Queen...
Loki fetched me in my room and I watched how he stared at me in awe but with a
dark expression on his face. And I know that expression so much.
He wants me.
 "You are breathtakingly beautiful." Loki whispered to my ears when I went near
him. I smiled at him seductively and if not for the party, for sure, he will ripped
this dress in no time and we would just end up in the bed.
But no... This party is important and Loki's presence needed there.
"And you're breathtakingly handsome." I countered when I saw him in his Prince
uniform again. This time, it's black but with the same gold details as the white
uniform that I saw him wearing before.
A real prince indeed.
I wasn't even surprised to see that it was a limousine that will take us to the
party. Loki is a fucking royalty and he needs to show off his wealth in a party
like this and make a dramatic entrance.
The Buckingham Palace looked so magnificent on the outside and I bet that it'll
be a hundred times more on the inside. I saw that there were so many reporters and
paparazzis flocking outside the palace to take pictures and interview anyone that
will attend the party.
"Wow..." I tried to sound impressed while looking at the reporters and
paparazzis taking pictures at the limousine that we're in even if its heavily
tinted while it's entering the gate. "You're like a celebrity, huh?"
Loki chuckled and looked at them too. The royal guards were trying to stop them
in a peaceful way even some of them looked like they were ready to die just to take
pictures of the royal family.

"I think I'll hire them as my pawn next time." I commented

that made Loki chuckled.
"We have an official photographer and reporter inside. They're calm, I assure
you."
I just make a face at him and soon enough, we reached the main entrance of the
Palace. We descended the car and I just raised an eyebrow as I stared at the real
palace on front of me, trying not to show that I'm too impressed with the place.
It's so fucking big!
Loki offered his arm at me and I accepted it, holding it as we entered the
palace. True enough, a photographer is waiting for us there asking us for a pose.
"May I know who's this beautiful lady with you, Your Royal Highness?" asked the
reporter with a recorder on her hand.
Loki glanced at me before he answered.
"My Queen."
The reporter chuckled. "Does Your Majesty, the Queen, should feel jealous?" she
asked and they laughed afterwards.
I bet they're talking about the real Queen of England.
We reached the Ballroom and music immediately filled my ears as well as the
chattering from the people. Only a few were invited to this party and I bet that
they were only the close friends of the royal family.
The room was so wide with big chandeliers above us. Parang ngayon pa lang
nagsi-sink in sa akin kung nasaan ako.
I can't believe this! I'm at the Buckingham Palace! The Buckingham Palace!
Fuck... Loki is a real Prince! I'm with a Prince this whole fucking time! A
royalty! A real royalty!
Damn it! Ang galing ni Nergal dahil nalaman nya agad about Loki being a
royalty! I'm so proud! And fucking irritated!
"Come." Loki tugged me when I was just looking around the room. Good thing that
he did 'cause I was embarrassed even to myself that I almost freaked out.
Where's your poise, Eresh?
But I gulped when I saw where Loki wants to go. He walked past the people who
greeted him and he just greets them back with a smile and a nod.
We reached the end of the room, to where two magnificent chairs were placed.
There was an old woman sitting on the left while the right side was empty.
"Your Majesty." Loki greeted and bowed as a respect. I did the same and curtsy
in front of the Queen.
"Prince Alexander." the Queen greeted merrily. "I feel so happy that you were
able to make it."
"I wouldn't miss this one for the world, Your Majesty."
The Queen shifted her gaze at me and I tried not to feel intimidated at her. I
mean, she's the Queen for fucks sake!
She was kind looking. There's a lot of lines on the corner of her eyes. Proof
that she really likes to smile so much when she was still young.
"And who is this fine lady here?" she asked.
"She's the woman that owns me, Your Majesty."
I was surprised by Loki's answer. I never thought that he would answer like
that in front of the Queen! I kinda expected him to tell her that I'm just a friend
or a fucking acquaintance but not this!
I feel so... happy though.
The Queen softly chuckled. "Should I expect another royal wedding soon, Prince
Alexander?"
Loki grinned at her. "And ready your best dress, Your Majesty."
The Queen laughed at his words. While me, I don't know how to react. They are
talking about the wedding for fucks sake! A marriage!
It made me happy but sad at the same time. I want a life with him... But I just
can't.
"Have you greeted your father?" the Queen asked and Loki shook his head.
"We just arrived, Your Majesty."
"And you chose to greet me, first?" the Queen asked. "I'm flattered, Prince
Alexander. But you should go and greet your father. And the celebrant."
Loki nodded and excused him and me on the Queen. I did a curtsy again as a show
of respect.
"Your father is here?" I asked Loki. His eyes looked so serious. Clearly, he's
not happy with that news.
"Yeah." he just answered but stopped when he saw someone.
I followed his gaze and my eyes landed at the man with the same facial features
with Loki. He was at the far end of the hall still talking to someone. He looked
like an older version of Loki except with a different eye color.
He was also wearing his royal uniform that made him looked more powerful and
strong. Kahit ang tindig nya ay deretso. Like he's proud of the medals on his chest
and what he had become.
I looked at Loki, his eyes were dark and the expression on his face were grim.
Parang bigla syang nawala sa mood.
He looked at me. He knew that I already saw the man that he was looking at
earlier.
"That is my father, Eresh..." he said. "The Duke of York."

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Chapter 62

I stared at the Duke from a distance. He was talking at

someone, probably one of the royal family members as well 'cause he's also wearing
a uniform almost identical to Loki. The Duke was in a three piece black tux though
and he looked like he was going to attend a funeral rather that a birthday party.
I could feel his radiating aura from here but I tried not to get affected. He
has a domineering aura as well that would want anyone to kneel down for him.
But not me... I'm a Queen.
He might've noticed that someone is staring at him 'cause his body stiffened
and looked around. His eyes immediately find mine. I raised an eyebrow before I
smirked at him.
"Eresh." I heard a warning tone from Loki. I chuckled before looking at him.
 "What?" I asked innocently before I looked back at his father who was looking
back and forth from Loki and me. "I must say hi to your father."
I chuckled when Loki pulled my arm back when I took a step towards his father.
But it seems like I don't need to do that. Nakita kong papalapit na ang Duke of
York sa amin.
I saw how Loki tensed but he tried not to show much on him. Maybe because I am
always with him 'cause I see right through him. He's nervous. Or worried. Because
his father is walking towards us.
So I ran my hand on his arms down to his hands and intertwined our fingers. He
looked at me and I gave his hand a slight squeeze. That made him looked better.
"Alexander."
We both looked at the owner of that baritone voice and we saw his father
already standing a few feet away from us. His domineering aura got intense but I
still held my chin up and slightly lifted the side of my lips.
"Father." Loki said and made a small bow.
His father eyed him from head to toe. His gaze felt so cold. He seems like he
was looking at a stranger instead of his son. There's no emotion in his eyes. Only
ruthlessness.
His cold eyes turned towards me. One might actually feel cold with just a look
at him but not me. I even gave him my sweetest smile and did a curtsy in front of
him.
"Your Royal Highness." I greeted him. Hands on the sides of the skirt of my
dress, slowly lifting it up and one foot at the back of the other as I did a
curtsy.
"You're the girl from the scandal with Alexander."
I froze. I didn't know what scandal he was talking about. Fuck... Did someone
saw us when Loki pulled that stunt on me at the restaurant?
"That kissing scandal at the mall." the Duke added.
Oh... Now I remember.
"She's Ereshkigal Levitsky, father." Loki introduced me.
My smile didn't leave my face. I continued giving him my sweetest smile as Loki
tried to hide me behind his back but I didn't comply. Hell, I don't need protection
against this old man.
"Aren't you going to ask me for a dance, Your Royal Highness?
Halos lumagutok ang leeg ni Loki sa bilis ng pagbaling nya sa akin. But I
didn't gave him any attention as I continue on looking at the Duke who's face
looked grim with my invitation.
"It will be my pleasure." the Duke answered instead and offered me his hand.
I let go of Loki and put my hand to the Duke's waiting hand. I could tell that
Loki wanted to protest but choose not to. He knows that I could handle his father
just fine.
Of course... I'm a Queen.
The Duke made me hold his arm as we walked towards the dancefloor. Tumigil kami
sa pinakagitna. I did a curtsy again in front of him before he put a hand on my
waist and held my hand while my other hand is on his shoulders. And we began to do
a waltz.

"Let me introduce myself properly, Your Royal Highness." I

said, looking at his face who looked grim.
Loki got his facial features from his father. Even his authorative look and
aura. But he got his sea-green eyes from his mother as his father have a dark brown
eye color.
I flashed my sweetest smile at the Duke.
"I am Ereshkigal Levitsky. The Queen of Red Faction."
His jaw tightened that made me giggle. I could tell that he was surprised and
annoyed at the same time. Looks like he didn't want anything to go against his way.
And the Red Faction's Queen in his arms as they did a waltz isn't really a plan of
him.
"You're still alive." he stated that made me chuckle.
"Alive and well, Your Royal Highness."
"Alexander hasn't killed you yet. What is that gormless kid thinking?!" he
hissed.
I chuckled with no emotion. Wow... He's rude, huh?
"Who's Alexander you're talking about? You?" I smiled. "Ah... Yes. You're
stupid."
The Duke glared at me. He looked so scary that anyone would cower under this
gaze of him. Anyone will kneel in front of him asking him not to kill them if he
just looked at them with this expression.
But not me... I'm not scared of him.
"You are stupid, Your Royal Highness." I said. "You failed to see the real
problem here."
"Stop acting superior." he hissed.
I chuckled. "I am not. I'm just saying that you should open your eyes and start
looking at your son. Like really look at him."
I looked to where Loki is and saw him standing behind a cocktail table. A man
is talking to him but Loki's eyes were on me. I looked back at the Duke again.
"Did you really know who your son is? Did you even know that he could sing?"
"Bullshit." the Duke hissed. "That is unnecessary! Unless he is planning to
kill you with a song!"
"That's is!" I almost screamed at his face. "That's the real problem! You! You
are only looking at him as a piece in the game! That he needs to do this and that!
You controlled his life!"
"How dare you accuse me like that! I was only trying to make him survived the
game! By training him hard!"
"And control him? Did you even know that he pretended to be a King just to
protect the real one?"
His jaw clenched as he glared at me. "The King must be protected until the
end!"
"See?" I mocked him. "The King is more important to you than your son!"
"He needs to win this game so he could live!" the Duke said with a gritted
teeth. "I am certain that the Red Faction will kill the EL Ordre if they win."
"You still controlled him for all his life." I countered. "A child must enjoy
his innocence. But you took that innocence from him and made him hold a gun with
his tiny hands. Where all he wanted to is to play under the rain."
We both stopped dancing. I don't even know why am I having this kind of
conversation with the Duke. Maybe... it's because when I heard the pain in Loki's
voice when he's telling me his stories, I really wanted his father to know about
it. I don't think that his father has an idea that he suffered instead of enjoying
his childhood life.
"You could've at least let him to enjoy once in a while." I said and shook my
head. "You failed to be a real father to him." I said and I saw the rage in Duke's
eyes.

"You are talking to a royalty, young lady! Have some

manners!"
"And you are talking to a Queen!"
He's is livid. His eyes show so much anger as he looked at me and I wouldn't be
surprised if he suddenly slap me in here. But I saw his hands balled in a fist
while his jaw moved as he gritted his teeth. It was like he was just trying to stop
his anger to consume him.
"Father..."
Hindi ko namalayan na nasa tabi na pala namin si Loki. His father shot his son
a glare before he walked away without saying anything.
I know that he's here 'cause he might've noticed the expression on his father's
face and thought I might needed help.
I looked at Loki who has a serious expression on his face. I just raised an
eyebrow at him and crossed my arms over my chest.
"What have you done?" he asked.
"I disrespected your father a little bit." I said like it's no big deal.
"You sure?" he asked and I knew that he didn't believe what I said. I rolled my
eyes.
"Alright! I disrespect your father!" I said, removing the 'little bit' that I
said earlier.
He sighed. "Are you okay?"
I frowned. "Ako pa talaga ang tinatanong mo?"
He took my hand and made me hold his arm. We started to walk away from the
dancefloor.
"Father can be so..." he trailed off and even if he didn't continue his
sentence, I somewhat understand him.
"I think you both need a talk. A real talk, Loki." I said and I heard him
sighed.
"Not today, my Queen."
He guided to where he was standing earlier and I saw that the man he was
talking with was still there, grinning at the two of us as we walked towards him.
"Well, well, well..." ang pauna nyang sabi nang makalapit kami. "Care to
introduce me to the beautiful woman behind you, Prince Alexander?"
"Eresh, this is His Royal Highness, Prince Henry, the birthday celebrant and
the heir to the throne."
Oh... So this is him, huh?
"Ereshkigal Levitsky." I said and offered him my hand. The Prince took it and
planted a kiss on the back of my hand.
"It's a pleasure to meet a beautiful woman like you." he said and I noticed
Loki glared at him.
"You're married. Back off."
Prince Henry laughed. "I was just complimenting her!"
But Loki continued on glaring at the Prince na tinatawanan lang sya. Mukhang
nainis na si Loki at hinila na ako palayo doon.
"I will expect another royal wedding soon!" pahabol pa sa amin ni Prince Henry
bago pa kami tuluyang makalayo.
Lumipat kami sa isang cocktail table, doon sa bandang dulo and we have a whole
view of the room. People in a dress and tux enjoying the party by dancing and
complimenting one another.
Loki took two glasses of wine nang may dumaang waiter sa harapan namin who was
serving drinks. Loki gave me the other glass and we began sipping on our wine while
staring at the scene in front of us.
"So Prince Henry is the heir to the throne, huh?" I asked while staring at the
man earlier. He was smiling while talking to the people who's probably greeting him
a happy birthday.
"He's married." Loki answered that made me laugh. He pointed at someone.
"That's His Royal Highness, Prince Mark of Sussex. The second in line to the
throne. The girl he's with him is Her Royal Highness, Duchess of Sussex, Elizabeth.
His wife."
I was still staring at the two of them when he pointed at someone again.
"His Royal Highness, Prince Brian, the third in line to throne." he pointed a
finger at another man wearing a uniform again. "His Royal Highness, Prince Anthony
of Cornwall. The fourth in line to the throne. The woman in his arms is the Her
Royal Highness, Duchess of Cornwall, Barbara." he pointed at someone wearing a
uniform again. "Then that's His Royal Highness, Prince James, the fifth in line to
the throne."
All of the men he pointed at were all wearing the inform that looked almost
identical to one another. Pero makikita ang pagkakaiba kung tititigang mabuti.
"Then His Royal Highness, Prince Alexander of York " I continued. "The sixth in
line to the throne."
 He smiled at me and sipped on his wine. I did the same and frowned at him
afterwards when curiousity eats me.
"You're the sixth in line to the succession of the throne, right?" I asked and
Loki nodded. "Then if something happen to those five, will you inherit the throne
then?"
Loki looked at me with a serious expression on his face while I was looking at
him with real curiosity in my eyes.
"Eresh." he warned that made me chuckled.
"What? I was just asking!"
He sighed before he put down his glass on the cocktail table and offered me his
hand.
"Would you like to dance with me?"
I smiled and took his hand without giving a second thought.
We made our way towards the dancefloor, our fingers intertwined and I saw the
Princes looked at us nang madaanan namin sila. They have a grin on their faces and
that's when I realized that this is the only time that Loki brought a girl at a
royal party.
Fuck... This couldn't be.
We both faced each other when we reached the dancefloor. I put my hands on
Loki's shoulder but he took it and made me wrapped my arms around his neck as he
put his hands on my waist.
We just stared at each other's eyes as our body began on swaying with the slow
music. It feels so magical... Pakiramdam ko ay kami lang dalawa ang tao sa
bulwagang 'to.
Loki is looking at me like I'm the most beautiful girl in his eyes. It made my
heart clench with both happiness and sadness.
"Did you know that a Von Amstel never beg?"
I looked at him, now confused when he said that so suddenly.
"Saying please isn't our thing." he added.
"With a father like that..." I trailed off. Nag-alangan na ituloy ang sasabihin
ko but he smiled at me.
"But when I'm with you, whenever I am holding you like this, you made me want
to beg all the saints that I know." he said. " Beg them to to let me be with you
forever."
I pursed my lips. Trying so hard to ignore the pain in my chest. I should be
happy with what he had said. I should be jumping in joy but it hurts me so much.
He really believes in the forever that he's building for the two of us. While I
was counting the remaining time that I can be with him.
I gulped down the pain in me and tried to smirk at him.
"Is that why you wanted me to beg you?" I leaned in and whispered on his ears
and teased him in a seductive way. "Please, fuck me, Your Majesty. Faster, please.
Fuck me rough, please."
I even breathe on his ear before I pulled away. I almost laughed when he got
affected with my words.
"You shouldn't have done that." he said with all seriousness.
But I smirked. Still trying to ignore the pain in my chest for the reality that
is about to come.
"Fuck me like there's no tomorrow, please... Your Majesty."
That triggered him. He took my hand and quickly pulled me away from the
dancefloor. Lumabas kami ng Ballroom habang hinihila nya lang ako. He was walking
in a fast pace that I almost run just to keep up with him.
I know what is about to come.
I looked down at our hands. He was holding my hand like he didn't want to let
go. Like he's planning to never let go. And I know that he really did.
I squeezed his hand with the hope that I could do the same as him.

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Chapter 63

Warning: Spg
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Loki was walking too fast and even if I wanted to stop to take a look around
inside the palace, I just couldn't. I feel like if I hesitated for just a second
while following him, I will stumble on the floor as he was dragging me now. The
grip of his hand on my hand was so tight, never wanting to let me go.
We walked up the stairs that looked like it was made of gold and was shining
brightly because of the lights from the chandelier above. We walked pass so many
doors when we reached the hallway that I've lost count when Loki opened one of the
doors and dragged me inside.
Hindi pa yata nasasarang mabuti ang pinto and I haven't even looked around
inside the room when Loki cupped my face and gave me such an intense kiss, claiming
my lips like he owned it. I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck and
I even tiptoed to kiss him fully.
We shared a demanding kiss. Demanding for one another to give everything we
have. To own each other. And so we did.
Loki slid his tongue into my mouth. He even held my neck and lifted my chin
while his tongue delved inside claiming every corner of my mouth. I felt the closed
door behind me as Loki pinned me to it with his body.
A soft moan had escaped from mouth when I tried to meet his tongue. Our tongue
played with one another, swirling and sucking and the room was filled with such an
erotic sound that we're making.
I tried to open my eyes to see where we are. The room was dark but because of
the moonlight illuminating the room, I saw a magnificent bed, almost the same with
the bed I had sleep on at the second Von Amstel manor. But this one is a lot bigger
and the decorations looked more luxurious and manly. It gave a vibe that this is a
King's room.
I bet this is Loki's room in this palace.
Loki unzipped my dress while his kiss went down to my jaw. My lips parted as I
try to breathe an air when I felt hid lips on my neck. I helped him remove my dress
and let it fall down to the floor.
I wasn't wearing any bra as the dress has a deep cut on the front that reached
my navel so it shows a part of my boobs. Loki palmed my breast and I immediately
felt the warmth of his hands as he massaged it while still kissing my neck.
"Your Majesty..." I whispered.
I could feel it. His bulge on his pants that's poking on my stomach. And this
time. I want to be the one to pleasure him. I want him to feel my feelings to him.
How much I love him.
Pinagpalit ko ang pwesto namin and it took a lot of willpower to do that as I'm
enjoying what he's doing to me. Loki was now leaning his back on the closed door.
He was surprised by what I did but when I kissed him, he quickly kissed me back.
I was having a hard time removing his uniform. It was so fucking complicated
with all the medals and accessories with it. I groaned impatiently that made Loki
chuckled against my lips. I remember that I ruined his uniform when I cried myself
on him the day I opened myself up to him. And I don't wanna ruin his uniform again
this time.
It was a good thing that Loki helped me removing his fucking coat. In no time,
he was already topless in front of me. I caressed his ripped body with my hands,
lightly running my fingers on the lines and everytime I do that, Loki will bite my
lips and will suck on it afterwards. Mukhang naapektuhan sya sa ginagawa ko.
Good. I want him to feel good.
My lips went down to his neck. His breathing become ragged when I suck on his
skin and played my tongue in small circles on the sensitive spot of his neck.
"Fuck..." I heard him hissed. Bumaon ang mga daliri nya sa maikli kong buhok ko
at marahang sumabunot doon.
I bit him lightly on his neck which made him groan. His hands went to my waist
and caressed my curves while I was trying to make him feel good.

The sound of his heavy breathing and soft moans and groans
turned me on so much that it set my body on fire. It was like a music to me my
ears. I really like the sound that he's doing at a time like this.
"Eresh..." he hissed, tunog galit pero may halong pagnanasa. My lips when down
and I kissed on on his collarbones.
My hands continued on caressing his body. Ramdam na ramdam ko sa mga palad ko
ang mga muscles nya sa katawan. Fuck... He was like a masterpiece. He has a ripped
body that I could feel the curves because of his muscles.
I tried to feel his abs down to his vline. Nagpakawala sya nang malulutong na
mura when my lips went down again and I kissed my way down to his chest. He looked
down at me. Our gaze met when I looked up to him before I took one of his nipples
inside my mouth. Hindi ko inalis ang tingin ko sa kanya kaya nakita ko ang
pagtingala nya. His jaw was clenching as he gritted his lips.
"Tangina—" he breathes.
I smiled and licked his nipples while my hands was doing their job feeling
body. Loki amazed me so much. He's British yet he could talk in Tagalog without any
accent like it was his first language. That's why it turned me on so much whenever
he's talking in Tagalog. He just sound so... sexy with his deep and baritone voice
that was mixed with gentleness. And whenever he's speaking at me in a gentle way, I
feel like I was listening in a calm waves of the sea.
This is bad. I think whenever I'll see a sea from now on, it will remind me of
him.
"Fuck, Eresh!" he moaned when I swirles my tongue around his nipples and gently
suck on it. His chest heaved up and down.
My hands went further down and I unbuckled his belt. He helped me removed his
pants and I palmed the bulge in his boxers shorts which earned a groan from him.
Oh, fuck... I will never get tired hearing the sounds that's he's making.
I kissed my way down to his stomach, licking his skin from time to time. I
trailed my tongue on the lines on his abs and I heard Loki cursed a lot of time.
His muscles contracted with my every lick.
"Damn it, Eresh! You're so fucking  good with this!" Loki said with a gritted
teeth. I just chuckled and continued licking his body down to his vline. Mas lalong
syang napaungol dahil doon.
I stopped when I reached the waistband of his boxer shorts. The bulge in it was
so big that my mouth started to water with just the sight of it. The tip was
already peeking from the waistband and even if there's a cloth covering it, I could
already feel the warmth of his cock.
"Eresh, you don't have to— Fuck!"
Loki cursed when I suddenly licked the length of his cock against the cloth
that's still covering it. Nag-angat ako nang tingin kay Loki at nakita kong
napatingala sya, jaw were clenching and he looked beautiful in my eyes.
I licked the base of his boxer where his balls should be and licked my way
upward until I reached the tip that was peeking outside of his short. Sunod-sunod
na napamura si Loki nang paulit-ulit kong gawin iyon. The boxer short became wet
because of my saliva.
"Fuck! That sexy mouth of yours." sabi ni Loki nang may halong gigil at
pagnanasa.
I didn't prolonged his agony and freed his cock out of his boxer shorts. I came
face to face with it and I bit my lower lip as I stared to his cock. It was
beautiful and hot just like Loki.
I was about to wrapped my hands around it when Loki stopped me. He reached for
my wrist and looked down at me as he shooked his head.
"You don't have to do this, Eresh." sabi nya at nakita ko ang pag-aalala sa mga
mata nya.
 I got confused. Like why? He was enjoying this me before.
He liked me doing this? What changed?
And then it hit me... He was being considerate because of my past.
My heart swells with so much warmth and happiness. I've never met anyone who
could treat me like this. That I would always comes first before himself. And I'm
so glad that finally... Someone is treating me right.
I'm so happy that I fell inlove with the right man.
"It's okay, Loki." I assured him and removed his grip on my wrists.
"You don't have to do it if it'll make you uncomfortable. If it'll hurt you."
I smiled warmly at him. "It won't." I assured him. "It won't 'cause it's you,
Loki."
"But—"
"I love you."
That stopped him. He looked at me with warmth in his eyes before he crouched
down and kissed me on my lips.
"Stay with me forever..."
He leaned his back on the closed door again and looked down at me. I looked up
to him, our gaze met when I finally took him inside my mouth.
His breathing his and watched me as I try to swallow him whole, inch by inch.
He was so big and feels so hot inside my mouth that it's turning me on so much. I
couldn't help but to moan which make Loki groan.
"Fuck!" he hissed.
I fondle his balls before I bobbed my head and stopped. I pulled my head back
until the tip of his cock was left inside my mouth. I swirled my tongue around it
while my hand was still playing with his balls.
I could feel myself getting wet by this. Fuck... He feels so good inside my
mouth. I love the expression that he's making and that sounds everytime he moans
and groans.
"Fuck, Eresh... You look so fucking hot with your mouth around my cock."
Ah... Yes. Him and his dirty mouth. I totally miss it.
I bobbed my head and he let out a loud curse. I suck him so hard that my cheeks
hollowed and I felt his hands sinked on my hair. Marahang sumabunot ang mga kamay
nya sa buhok ko.
His hips started to moved. Meeting my mouth with his thrust as I continued
bobbing my head. I held on his thighs to fight my urge to gag.
"I'm gonna come..." Loki said but I didn't pull away.
I gripped on his hips in case he's thinking of pulling away. I decided to
pleasure him tonight and I'm planning to go all out.
He was thrusting his hips and I just accepted all of it. Loki looked so sexy as
his face turned red before he groaned and shoots his load in my throath.
I looked up at him. His lips parted and his chest heaved up and down as he
tried to catch his breath. His eyes were closed and he looked so vulnerable in
front of me.
He trust me that much.
Nang makabawi sya ay hinila nya ang braso ko patayo at pinahiga ako sa kama. My
legs dangling on the floor. He placed himself in between me before he removed the
remaining clothes that I'm wearing. We both moaned when he inserted his cock inside
my wet folds.
"Loki..." I moaned his name when he started to thrusts his hips.
He closed the distance between our bodies and buried his face on my neck. He
was breathing so hard. I hugged his body and my nails scratched on his back that
made him groaned. He thrusts roughly as my punishment for hurting him.

But this is not a fucking punishment!

"It feels so good! It feels so good!" I whimpered. He was so big and thick that
my insides were adjusting for his cock.
"My Queen..." Loki hissed as he gripped my waist and thrusts deeper and faster.
I could feel my orgasm building up inside me. I moved my hips, meeting his
thrusts as I try to reach my peak. I wrapped my legs on his waist when I felt him
getting bigger inside me.
He's gonna come again.
He thrusts so fast and that made me reached my peak so soon. He continued
thrusting roughly before he groaned and I felt his warm and thick loads filled
inside me.
I don't know how long we've been here but I don't care. As long as I'm with
Loki, I will get every opportunity to be with him.
Fuck... I really love him so much.
Loki helped me cleaned up and get dressed after we rest for a bit. I was in
front of the window, staring at the moon. Loki is taking a lot of time getting
dress because of those annoying accessories of his uniform.
I felt him hugged me from behind after he's done. He leaned his chin on my
shoulders and we both stared at the moon.
"I have a question." I said and I saw him smile from the corner of my eye.
"What is it?"
"The one who is being addressed as Your Majesty is higher than the one who is
being addressed as Your Royal Highness, right?"
He nodded. "Yes. The Queen is addressed as Your Majesty and us, Princes,
Princesses and Duchesses, are addressed as Your Royal Highness."
"Then why are your servants at the manor were addressing me as Your Majesty
while you as Your Royal Highness?"
He looked at me, confusion is in his eyes. "You're seriously asking me that?"
I raised an eyebrow at him. "Of course. Hindi ko 'to itatanong kung wala lang.
He chuckled at my sarcasm. "It's because you are my Queen, Eresh. Haven't I
told you that a lot of times already?"
I didn't say anything and just stare at the moon again. But a smile has already
plastered on my face.
Damn this Peppa Pig.
We stayed on silent and just quietly listened on our breathing while watching
the moon. This feels so perfect...
"Is there any stronger word other than love?" Loki asked so suddenly. "Is there
any powerful word than love?"
I turned around and looked at him but he didn't let me go. His hands were still
on my waist pulling me closer to him.
"What about it?" I asked.
Loki stared deep in my eyes. He wanted to tell me something but just didn't
know how to. Instead, he sighed and rested his hand below my ears. His thumb slowly
caressing my cheeks.
"It wasn't enough." he said. "That word isn't enough for what I feel for you."
"What word?"
"Love." he answered. "It wasn't enough, Eresh. What I feel... It's so much
stronger than love."
I looked at him. He looked so lost as he tried to explain what he meant by
that.
"That word can't justify what I feel for you." he said, both hands were now
cupping my face. "Fuck! This is making me crazy. Tell me, Eresh. Is there any
stronger word other than love?"
My eyes teared up. Fuck. His explanation wasn't clear. He looked at lost but I
understand. I understand it all. I understand what he's trying to say and it's
making my heart swells with so much happiness.
I now understand. Whenever I say I love you to him, he never said it back.
'Cause he feels like the word love isn't enough for what he feels for me.
Oh my God... He's been telling me how much he loves me all this time. Even
before I confessed my feelings for him, nauna na nyang sabihin ang nararamdaman na.
My tears rolled down from my eyes and I saw the alert on Loki's eyes. He looked
worried and panicked that I suddenly cried.
"I apologize. I'm deeply sorry, Eresh. I couldn't say it back." he said, words
were leaving quickly from his mouth. "It feels so wrong to say it when what I truly
feel is so much stronger than that."
I shook my head and tried to tell him that he doesn't need to worry about
anything but I sobbed instead. Mas lalo tuloy nataranta si Loki kaya ikinulong ko
ang mukha nya sa mga palad ko.
"It's okay, Loki. I understand... I understand it so fucking much." I sobbed.
"God, I love you so much."
Loki looked at lost. He tried to find the right words to say but he couldn't
find any. He wiped my tears and I smiled at him after.
"It's okay, Loki... You don't have to force yourself to say it back. You let me
know what you feel for me by making me feel it."
"No." he shook his head. "I feel so damn happy everytime you said it and I want
you to feel the same. I want to make you happy, Eresh."
My tears fell again and Loki wiped it with his thumb. I stared at him deep in
his eyes.
"Say it with your own words, Loki..." I said.
"Eresh..." he hesitated.
"I love you."
He sighed and stared back at me. And his sea-green eyes could already tell so
many things to me.
"Stay with me forever." he said and pulled me for a tight hug. "Stay with me
forever. Fuck, stay with me forever, Eresh."
I buried my face on his shoulders and cried silently. Fuck... It fucking hurts.
Now that I know the real meaning behind those words, it's fucking hurting me.
I should be happy because we both feel the same. But the way how he tells me 'I
love you' hurts me so bad. He chose the right words. For me, those are much
stronger than love.
I should be happy... But I can't. 'Cause I can't do it and it feels like I am
declining his love for me.
I can't stay with him forever.
My chest felt so heavy when we went back to the party again. He introduced me
to the royal family members and his cousins and their wives welcomed me warmly.
They talked to me and I tried to pretend that I was enjoying the conversation but
with Loki beside me, I know that he could see right through me. So I just excuse
myself and went to the ladies room to get my shit back together.
But before I could reach the restroom, the lights inside the palace went out.
I could hear some screaming but I was alert. Sobrang dilim but with the
training that I had, this will be an easy peasy for me.
I noticed a silhouette approaching me. I readied myself and attacked whoever it
was when it tried to grab my hand. But the man blocked my attack.
"Your Majesty, it's me."
I froze. That voice... I recognized that voice so damn much.
"Enkidu?" I asked even if I'm a thousand percent sure that I am right.
"Yes, Your Majesty."
"What are you doing here?"
He held my wrist and I flinched with his touch. I'm sure that he noticed it and
chose to ignore it as he pulled me away from the Ballroom. We reached the wide
garden in no time.
Enkidu looked at me. He was serious as he stared at my eyes.
"I'm here to take you back, Your Majesty."

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Chapter 64
 Enkidu was wearing a black tux just like most of the men in
the party were wearing. But he doesn't have any tie on and the first two buttons of
his white inner shirt were open.
He looks good. Handsome even with his brush up hair. I remember that I used to
adore him when I was a child. For the young me, he looked so reliable and I was
even thankful that he is my Bishop.
Not until that day happen. He didn't even try to help me and just watch me
pleasure my own father with wide eyes and a fucking boner.
The two of us were so young but he could at least... stop my father or declined
when my father asked me to pleasure Enkidu.
Fuck... Remembering those makes me feel so filthy.
I was betrayed by the two first men in my life. But the stupid me still chose
to trust Enkidu despite what he did to me. 'Cause in my mind, he already saw me so
low. He was guilty and he looked like he will do anything to make it up to me. I
have no one so I chose to made him my right hand just how a Queen's Bishop should
be to his Queen.
Pero alam ko na kahit ano pa ang gawin nya ay hinding-hindi na sya makakabawi
pa sa akin. He broke me as well. Just what my own father did.
I was alone.
But now that there's someone who is making me what I should feel, who is giving
me everything that I deserve, who is making me feel that I can live the life with
happiness... I feel so strong. I feel that I'm really a human and not a monster.
I want to be with him. I want that forever that he's offering me. But I just
can't. I just can't ignore everything that I've done and be with him.
I removed Enkidu's grip on my wrist and stopped walking. We were in the middle
of the dark garden and I could still hear the sounds from the party inside.
"How did get you get in here?" I asked.
"King Lancer hacked the security system of the palace." he answered and I
almost cursed. Fuck... Right. He's a hacker too.
"And the royal guards?"
"Asleep."
I snorted. Knowing Enkidu, he has a peculiar definition of asleep.
I noticed another presence, not just one, but a lot of presence surrounding the
garden. I almost smirked at Enkidu. I forgot that he always do his job perfectly so
it wasn't a surprise knowing that he came here prepared.
He hired a lot of people as his pawn. He hired goons and I'm sure that they
weren't professionals compared to the pawns that were originally included in the
game. They didn't undergo such training and maybe all they know is to shoot their
guns everywhere without even aiming. Enkidu literally used them as his Pawn and as
his bait in case something would happen.
My clever yet merciless Bishop.
"Let's go back, Your Majesty."
I raised an eyebrow at him and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Do not order me around, Enkidu. I am your Queen."
If he got offended or not, he never showed it on his face. Not that it's new to
me since he always has his stoic face on. Always doing everything that I say.
That's how guilty he is.
I remember the first time I saw him. The day he was introduced to me as my
Bishop. He's a year older than me. I was so damn happy thinking that I will finally
have a playmate and a friend whom I can share my few toys to. But I was wrong.
Fuck... I just realize that I was so pathetic hoping to live a normal life like
that. I was so young yet I already experienced the feeling of my hope being
trampled over just like that.

Their betrayal is not what it hurts the most. What hurts me

is that they were the one who betrayed me.
"I'm glad that you still know who you are, Your Majesty." Enkidu said after
staring at me for a while. "You are the one and only Queen of the Red Faction."
I gritted my teeth. "I know."
"Then why are you still with the EL Ordre?" he asked. "I let you do what you
wanted thinking that it's for our team. But why are you still here playing house
with the EL Ordre's Bishop?"
Rage blinded my eyes. I was livid that my body shook with anger while glaring
at Enkidu.
"How dare you talk to me like that!" I shouted at his face. "You let me do
whatever I want because that is your fucking job, Enkidu! You are the Queen's
Bishop and I am your Queen!"
"Then stop this! Stop whatever you're doing with that Bishop and go back to the
Red Faction! This is not a part your plan anymore!"
"Fuck you!" I spat at him. I want to hit him so fucking hard with anything on
his head.
I felt so insulted. It feels like all I've done was to play around when my
whole life, I was the one who let the Red Faction grow! Kung hindi dahil sa akin,
hindi kami tatagal hanggang dito!
"This is all part of my plan, you dumb asshole! I bought time for King Lancer
for the drug to take its effect so don't you fucking dare accused me that I'm just
playing around!"
"Hindi ba?" he even had the audacity to ask that! "King Lancer is ready now. We
made sure to inform you that the very day that he hacked Alter's laptop. We thought
that you'll make your way back to the team after the call. But I was surprised when
I discovered that you're here in England with that motherfucker!"
"I couldn't escape. Their security was too tight." I said with a gritted teeth.
"Kayang-kaya mong makatakas sa EL Ordre kahit walang tumutulong sayo but King
Lancer still did something to their security to help you escape." he said. "But
this is your choice."
I stared at him. Trying to defend myself but he knew me too well. And I know
that he already has an idea as to why I remained to be with Loki. Kahit hindi ako
magsalita, alam na alam na nya. And that really pissed me off.
"I won't go back." I said. Letting my heart speaks for me for the first time.
"I won't go back."
Does he really think that I'll go with him when he fucking insulted me like
that?!
"You're getting soft, Your Majesty." Enkidu said. An emotion is showing on his
face. He's angry. "If that's the case, then I'll just drag you back to the
hideout."
It surprised me when he made a move. He approached me quickly before he
crouched down and carried me like a sack of rice. My tummy was on his shoulders and
my face was against his back.
"I'm sorry for doing this, Your Majesty." he started walking. "But I will take
you back to the team, by hook or by crook."
"Fuck you, Enkidu! I'll make sure to punish you after this!" I screamed on the
top of lungs and punched his back a lot of times. Alam kong masakit ang mga suntok
ko pero hindi nya iyon ininda at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad.
The fuck of him to think that I wouldn't put up a fight against him!
I gathered my strength and lifted half of my body. I held onto his shoulders to
support myself before I kneed him in his face. Nabitawan nya ako at napaupo ako sa
lupa. I watched him groan in pain while holding his nose that was bleeding.
Enkidu looked at me with wide eyes. I know that he wasn't expecting me to do
that pero hindi ko din inaasahan na gagawin nya iyon sa akin! This is also the
first time that he defy my order!

"Your Majesty..." Enkidu mumbled. Ang dugo ay tumutulo mula

sa ilong nya.
I looked at him, chin up with a raised eyebrow to intimidate him. It seems like
he's forgetting where he should be.
"You want this?" I asked.
And without taking my eyes off him, I reached for my skirt and tore it off.
Pinunit ko iyon hanggang ang haba ay kalahati na lang ng mga hita ko. My bare legs
were exposed and because the skirt has a slit on the side, konting galaw ko lang ay
makikita na ang underwear ko with this new length. But I don't fucking care. I need
to do this to move freely.
I smirked at him. "Come, Enkidu. I'll show you who the real Queen is."
He launched at me and I just keep on blocking his attacks. I watched him
whenever he's having his training so his moves were so familiar to me. I know that
the left is his dominant hand so that's where I focused my attention. So I was able
to read when he faint an attack using his right arm but it was his left that tried
to grab me.
I caught his left wrist and twisted it onto his back but seems like Enkidu also
knows my moves as well. Sumabay sya sa pag-ikot ko so I wasn't able to twist his
arm. I was still holding his wrist and he took that opportunity to pull me and
enveloped my body with his right arm.
I can escape from his grasp easily. I can knee him where it hurts the most, or
kick his leg or step on his foot hard. But I wasn't able to do anything when a
voice boomed behind me.
"Put your filthy hands off my Queen, you bloody bastard."
"Loki!" I exclaimed.
Fuck! I didn't know that he noticed my absence and would be able to find us so
easily! Pero siguro ay ilang minuto na simula nang magpaalam ako sa kanya and when
he couldn't find me at the rest room, he started to search the palace for me.
Enkidu looked at me when I said Loki's name. His jaw was clenching and he made
me turn around to face Loki before Enkidu imprisoned me with his arms again.
Loki looked so livid. His face was dark as he glared coldly at Enkidu but his
eyes could almost make anyone to kneel down for him. I've never seen him so angry
before. He looked scary and I know that he wouldn't hesitate to kill Enkidu now.
His eyes went down at mas dumoble pa ang galit sa mga mata nya nang makita ang
punit na skirt ng dress ko. His jaw clenched and his hands balled in a fist.
"The Bishop who pretended to be the King." Enkidu said. I could hear him
smirking. "Did you enjoy the attention, fake King?"
"What the fuck did you do to her?" Loki asked. Halata ang galit sa boses.
"Answer me, motherfucker."
Enkidu chuckled. "I'm here to take my Queen back."
Loki didn't like what Enkidu has just called me. Galit na galit sya that his
body was shaking with rage. I wouldn't be surprised if he'll attacked now and kill
Enkidu in just a snap. But I was shocked when the corner of his lips rose for a
smirk.
"L was having a hard time finding you. I figured that Shielder might be hiding
you." he chuckled with remorse. "I'm glad that you willingly showed up."
"Of course. I need to take back what's mine."
"You don't own anything here, you bloody wanker."
I was watching every expressions on Loki's face he looked scary and all but I
couldn't help myself to be attracted to him more. He looked so sexy and handsome
while glaring at Enkidu with so much anger in his eyes.
I know that I should move. I can easily free myself from Enkidu's arms. But
just like the first time when I saw Loki, I was so attracted to him that I don't
want to take my eyes off him.
"It was unfortunate that the person who I wanted to torture is already dead."
Loki said. "But there's you who can take his place plus the things that I'm
planning to do to you."
Fuck... This is all about my past!
Loki's smirked menangcily at Enkidu. "I will fucking torture you and in case
you die, I will drag your soul back up from hell to bring you back to life and
torture you again and again and fucking again."
Enkidu chuckled. "Bold of you to assume that I came here unprepared."
 And from the shadows, the goons that he hired finally showed themselves. I know
that there were so many of them but I still gasped in surprise when I saw them all.
There were more than thirty of them!
It was Loki who chuckled this time. "Bold of you to assume that they would be
able to take me down."
I heard Enkidu gritted his teeth. "Kill him!"
Sumugod nang sabay-sabay ang mga lalaki. I wanted to help Loki but Enkidu
pulled me with him. I got annoyed so much when he dragged me with him that I almost
stumble and fall to the ground.
I elbowed him on the gut so hard that he coughed so hard. Nabitiwan nya ako at
humarap ako sa kanya. My stance was guarded as I looked at him.
"And bold of you to assume that I'll just let you drag me back."I said before I
launched myself at him.
It was now me against my own Bishop and Loki against thirty and more pawns.

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Chapter 65

Fighting against my own Bishop, I know that this isn't

right. It was like I am betraying my own team. I know that I should go with Enkidu
and go back to the Red Faction. Go back and continue playing the game 'cause that's
how everything should be.
But I can't. Not now. If I leave Loki, I'm sure those goons will really kill
him. And I can't just go away with things like this.
I am being a traitor to my own team, helping Loki like this.
Love... really complicates things.
I threw a punch at Enkidu, aiming for his broken nose that was bleeding earlier
but now it stopped. But he was able to block it and tried to grab my wrist but I
immediately put a distance between us.
Fuck... I'm still wearing my five inches heels! It's okay though. I could fight
like this. With a poise just like how a real Queen should be.
"I'm not your enemy here, Your Majesty." Enkidu said while looking at me
grimly.
I fucking know that he's right. We're on the same team but I'm really doing
this. I actually feel so bad but something is telling me that this is the right
thing to do.
I don't know anymore...
"I can't just let you kill him." I said.
Enkidu stared at me like he's studying me. Before, he was the one who knew me
so well that he didn't have to look at me this much to know what I'm thinking. But
now, Loki already replaced him.
"You fell inlove with him." he said and it was a statement. There was a hint of
pain in his voice. "You fell inlove with the fake King."
I stared at him coldly. "Go back, Enkidu. I won't go with you."
"King Lancer orders for your return."
I gritted my teeth. King Lancer is finally making his move. This is what I've
been waiting for. I was waiting for him to take me back to the Red Faction. I could
escape on my own but my plan back then is to let him meet the members of the EL
Ordre in person to shook them up.
"He is here in England and waiting for you, Your Majesty."
Fuck.
I am expecting for this to happen. The day that I will go back to where I
should be. I know that my days with Loki were just a temporary happiness. We're
enemies. I am the Queen and I'm also the reason why the EL Ordre was suffering.
"So let us go back, Your Majesty."
Enkidu slowly walked towards me but I kept my foot rooted on the ground. I am
trying to come up with a plan. I'm trying to think about what I should do.
I am the Red Faction's Queen and this is what I've been waiting for. For King
Lancer to be ready and make his first move. This is all going well according to my
plan.
But I can't just leave Loki like this. I want to make sure of his safety first.
Enkidu had already placed his hand on my wrist that made me flinched again. He
never touched me before ever since that day of his betrayal but he is now. And I
think that he's really desperate to bring me back.
"Don't you fucking touch her!"
Loki shouted that surprised me. I looked to where he was and saw him walking
his way towards us in a fast pace. My heart clenched with pain when I saw his look.
Magulo na ang ayos ng uniform na suot nya. Some of his medals pinned on his
chest are now missing and I could see that the fabric was even torn off. His hair
looked disheveled at ang ibang mga hibla ay tumatama na sa mga mata nya. He's
sweating and looked tired but there's still that same rage in his eyes.

Some of the goons were already on the ground, unmoving,

pero marami pa rin ang nakatayo. But Loki didn't care about it. He was staring at
Enkidu's hand holding my wrists while he's walking his way towards us.
My breathing hitched when I saw three goons pointed a gun at him. Loki noticed
their presence. Mabilis syang lumingon sa likod nya. He shoots the three of them
using the silencer he's holding. In no time, three more dead bodies were on the
ground.
Wow... He did that in a span of three seconds!
Nagpatuloy sa paglalakad si Loki but the goons were really determined to kill
him. They all pointed a gun at him so I quickly removed Enkidu's hand on my wrist.
Nagulat sya sa ginawa ko but I ran towards Loki. Mukhang alam na nya ang gagawin ko
dahil hindi na sya nagulat nang kunin ko ang baril sa kamay nya and faced the goons
behind him while Loki continued on walking towards Enkidu.
"One more move and I'll fucking shoot you all!" I warned.
It wasn't just a warning 'cause I'll really fucking do it. I pointed my gun at
each of them while glaring at them. I don't know if they have any idea who I am but
based on their reaction, it seems like they had a talked with King Lancer and he
explained it to them.
"Fucking asshole." I heard Loki hissed. "No guns. I wanna torture you using my
own hands."
I heard Enkidu chuckled. "No guns."
I don't know what's happening since they're behind me but I could tell from the
noise that they're began fighting with each other. I was still pointing the gun at
the goons, daring for them to move.
I saw one of the goons pointed the gun at my back but I pointed my gun at him.
"Don't you fucking dare interfere. I am your Queen! Bow down!"
They all looked at each other, confused on what they should do. I aimed my gun
on the ground and pulled the trigger just to scare them. They all flinched and
raised their hands in the air.
"Pero ang utos sa amin ay ibalik ka kahit anong mangyari." the one reasoned
out.
"How much did they offer you? I'll double it! I'll even fucking triple it! Just
get lost!"
"Kami ang papatayin ng King nyo kapag hindi ka namin naibalik sa kanya."
I slowly looked at the one who said that. My eyes were cold as I aimed the gun
at him. He looked scared that I almost laughed. They were, what? Fifteen? Twenty?
Yet they were afraid at the woman with a torn dress pointing a gun at them.
"Choose." I said. Even my voice were cold too. "Die here or die later. 'Cause I
fucking swear, if you make a slight attempt of interfering, I won't hesitate to
kill you all."
"Paano mo kami mababayaran?"
 I smirked. Ah... Madali naman pala silang kausap.
"I have my ways. You will receive the money within this week." I aimed the gun
at them. "Now, get lost!"
I didn't have to say it twice dahil mabils silang kumilos. They retreated
themselves and in just a minute, they disappeared on the shadows. I tucked my hair
behind my ears.
Well, that was easy.
I turned around to know what's happening between the two Bishops. I saw Loki
grabbing Enkidu on his collar and giving him a hard punch on the face. Enkidu's
nose began to bleed again but he didn't back down and punch Loki in the gut so hard
that he almost cough blood. Napalayo sila sa isa't-isa while trying to recover.
Enkidu was trying to mend his broken nose. Patuloy sa pag agos ang dugo mula sa
ilong nya. His white inner shirt were now stained with blood. He removed his coat
and fold the sleeves of his inner shirt up to his elbow.

Loki spits blood on the ground. His uniform was already

ruined. Medals and accessories were everywhere but he doesn't really care about it.
His eyes remained on Enkidu, glaring at him as he attacked him again.
I want to help but judging by the angry punches they threw to each other, I
decided not to and just keep on watching them. I have the feeling that I shouldn't
meddle between them. This fight is about Bishop against Bishop.
I watched Loki in awe as he tried to block Enkidu's attacks. I have never seen
him in a fight before. His moves were calculated and he seems like he was reading
Enkidu's moves, trying to find an opening. And when he did, he quickly used that
opening. Magkasunod syang nagpakawala ng suntok. One in Enkidu's gut and one in his
neck.
Enkidu gagged and coughed but Loki wasn't finished yet. He grabbed Enkidu on
his right arm at pinatid ang isang paa nya para matumba sa lupa. He was about to
give him another punch on the face but Enkidu reached from his back pocket and
slashed the knife he's holding.
Mabilis na lumayo si Loki sa kanya. I gasped when I saw that his uniform got
torn on the chest part. May kaunting dugo ang lumabas sa balat nya but he seemed
fine.
Loki smirked at Enkidu. "So this is how it will be, huh?"
Enkidu helped himself up. "What? You never mentioned that knife isn't allowed."
I chuckled with his reason. Madaya. But then again. Who am I to judge him?
Madaya rin akong maglaro. And I think Enkidu got it from me.
Malakas na ang loob ni Enkidu na sumugod ngayon. With the knife on his hand, he
was at advantage. While Loki was trying to avoid the knife but still finding an
opening.
But Enkidu attacks furiously. He's fast. It was impossible for Loki to make a
counter attack and I could see in his eyes that he's getting angrier with every
second passed. Nagagalit sya na hindi sya makalaban kay Enkidu.
So instead of avoiding Enkidu's next attack, he actually welcomed it. Nagulat
ako nang hindi sya lumaban at hinayan ang kutsilyo na bumaon sa tyan nya. The part
below his ribs. Enkidu smirked and pushed the knife deeper.
"Loki!" I screamed. Blood were dripping down to stomach.
But I was even more surprised when the side of Loki's lips rose for a smirk. He
chuckled menacingly before grabbing Enkidu's hair and kneed him in the face.
Hindi nya binitiwan ang ulo ni Enkidu. He looked so livid as he continue on
kneeing Enkidu in the face. Loki then, strangle Enkidu on the neck as he tripped
him on his legs and they both stumbled on the ground.
Mabilis na pumaibabaw si Loki kay Enkidu before he could even recover. He
punched him so many times on the face. His eyes spit so much anger and resentment
while his jaw was clenching so hard.
"You fucking asshole!" he said with with every punch. "You should've helped
her! That was your fucking chance! You should've helped her!"
 I gasped so loud and covered my mouth with my hands. My eyes got misty with the
tears that wanted to escape. I knew it. This is all about my past.
"That was a sexual harassment happening in front of you, fucking dumbass! But
what? Tinigasan ka pa talagang putangina ka!"
Patuloy lang sa pagsuntok si Loki sa mukha ni Enkidu. My Bishop couldn't fight
back as Loki's punches were too strong that his face were now full of blood.
Fuck... Loki has always been acting so formal around anyone. He never let his
emotions go way above him. He never cursed so much. But now, looking at him ad he
threw punches at Enkidu, he really looked livid and scary. He looked pale because
of his wound pero hindi nya ininda 'yon.
"You should've declined when her father—" Loki wasn't able to finish his
sentence. His voice broke at halos maiyak ako nang ma-realize na nasasaktan din sya
dahil sa nangyari sa akin.
He can't even say it loud.
"I was y-young..." Enkidu tried to say even with a weak voice. "I couldn't
really do anything back then."
Loki threw a punch on Enkidu's face again. "Eresh was young too! You are her
Bishop yet you already failed on protecting her since then! You don't deserve that
position! You don't deserve calling her as your Queen! You don't even deserve to
call her name or to look at her, fucking asshole!"
Enkidu reached for his pocket again and my eyes widened when he took out
another knife. I was already too late to warn Loki as he already stabbed his knife
on the same part where he stabbed Loki earlier.
Loki groaned in pain but Enkidu stabbed him again. He got off from Enkidu and
when Enkidu was about to attack Loki, I shoot him on his leg.
Enkidu screamed in pain and looked at me with wide eyes. I really don't want to
do this. I don't want to hurt him. He's my Bishop and shooting him like this means
that I'm betraying my team. But I can let him hurt Loki anymore.
"Go away, Enkidu." I said, gun were aiming at him. "If you take a step closer
to him, I'll aim for your head next."
Pain was in his eyes as he stared at me. Mukhang hindi sya makapaniwala sa
ginawa ko. I just protected our enemy, my enemy against him. I became the traitor
on my own team. A traitor that I hated so much.
Unti-unting umatras si Enkidu while his eyes were still on me. I could see the
hurt, the pain, the love and the regret in his eyes bago sya tumalikod at tuluyang
umalis.
If he just helped me back then, I wonder if things would be different.
Mabilis kong pinuntahan si Loki. He was lying on the ground, unmoving that made
my heart fell.
I knelt beside him and put his head on my lap as I tapped on his cheeks.
"Loki... Loki!"
I keep on tapping his cheeks but he never answered. I checked his pulse.
Sobrang hina ng pulso nya at namumutla na din sya sa dami ng dugong nawala sa
kanya. Looks like his strength left his body too after that strong punches that he
gave at Enkidu. My eyes stared to water.
"Loki!" I put a pressure on his wounds, trying to stop the bleeding but he
should be treated immediately.
Fuck! Hospital!
I felt another presence around so I quickly grabbed the gun beside me and
pointed to where I felt it. My lips parted when I saw who they are.
"Give him to us."
Hindi na ako nangialam nang buhatin nila si Loki mula sa kandungan ko. If I
could trust anyone for his life, then it will be them.
Aius, Tracer, Alter's man, and the one with amber eyes.
It will be the EL Ordre.

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Chapter 66

Happy birthday, Jozen Madarang Raguini! Enjoy your day :)

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I was watching them as they walk away with Loki who's now unconscious in their
arms. Aius and Alter's man carried him on their shoulders. I sighed when I felt a
pang on my chest.
What now? I don't have any idea where I should go right now. I just couldn't
follow Enkidu and showed up to wherever they were hiding here in England. And I
want to make sure that Loki is really safe first before going back to the Red
Faction.
He got stabbed for three fucking times! He's bleeding so much and his pulse was
faint! He needs to get treated immediately!
"Saan 'yung—" Aius started to say but stopped when he saw nothing on his other
side. Hindi pa sila nakakalayo kaya dinig ko pa din ang mga sinasabi nila.
With the training that I did, of course I can.
Aius frowned and stopped walking. The rest of the EL Ordre looked at him as he
looked around before finally meeting my gaze.
"Ano pang ginagawa mo dyan?" he asked which confused me. Except for Tracer, the
rest of the men looked at me too. Parang nagulat pa na nandito pa rin ako.
"What? Do you want me to leave now?" I asked.
My plan is to watch them leave until they were out of my sight. This might be
that last time that I'll see Loki and watching them walk away with him is the only
thing that I could do.
"No, stupid." It was the man with amber eyes who said that. I glared at him but
he just smirked at me. "You're going with us."
I stared at him. I don't really trust this man so there's no way that I'll
believe what he just said so I looked at the other men. Tracer was not looking at
me but Alter's man and Aius looked like they were waiting for me.
"And you're an asshole." I said to the man with amber eyes before I looked at
Aius. "I can go with you?"
Aius glanced at Loki before looking back at me. "I'm sure that you're the first
one he'll find when he wakes up."
I looked at Loki. Fuck! He needs medical attention but here they are waiting
for my answer! So I had no choice but to go with them!
And besides, I really wanna make sure that Loki is really fine before anything
else.
And after that, I will go back to reality.
Nakahinga lang ako nang maluwag when the Doctor said that Loki is okay. But
there were still some worries in me as he was still not waking up. I don't want to
leave him like this. What if the Doctor was wrong?
Fuck... So this is how it feels to get worried for someone. This is my first
time of feeling like this so I don't know how to calm myself down. Every minutes
pass that Loki's unconscious, I feel like I would die.
We decided to let Loki rest at the second Von Amstel manor instead at the
hospital, where he get treated, for his privacy. It was a good thing that the
hospital agreed to make the record confidential as Loki is a royalty.
"He'll live." Aius said and sat down on the sofa beside me. I scoot over to put
more distance between us.
"I know." I said, trying to look everywhere but him.
This is so awkward.
It has been a day since they've been here in the manor and the awkwardness in
the air was really thick. I could tell that they're avoiding me but seems like
Lucius got tired of our game.

"Then stop worrying." sabi nya kaya mabilis akong

napatingin sa kanya.
"I'm not!" I said. My voice rising an octave high.
Aius chuckled and I just rolled my eyes at him, hiding my embarrassment.
Fuck... Am I becoming an easy-to-read book now?
"Nagbabawi lang sya lang lakas after all those strong punches that he gave to
your Bishop even if he's wounded."
I looked at him again, realizing what he had said. He smiled at me and he
looked like he already knew what I am going to ask him.
"We saw everything."
Fuck... I was busy worrying over Loki that's why I wasn't able to feel their
presence sooner. Or they're just really good at hiding their presence.
Then it means that they heard everything as well.
"We saw how a Queen protected her King."
I stared at the bed where Loki was lying. He doesn't have any shirt on but his
body was wrapped in a bandages where his wounds are. His face looked so peaceful as
his chest were heaving up and down.
"There's no antidote." I said and looked at Aius. "You can kill me now."
"I won't." he said and looked at Loki. "I'm sure that my Bishop will kill me if
I do that."
"But you wanted to."
He chuckled. "I still believe that we're all innocent in this game and there's
no one that needs to die. Except the gamemasters."
I slowly clapped my hands. "Such a righteous King you are."
He just smiled and we both stared at Loki. It was so heartbreaking for me to
see him in this state. He let Enkidu stabbed him at first so he would be able to
grab him and made a counterattack. And he pushed his body to its limit when he
punched my Bishop so many times.
He did all of those... for me. So he could get revenge for what Enkidu did to
me back then.
Stupid, Peppa Pig. I didn't tell my past to him to do a stupid thing like that!
"It was Loki's own decision to bring you here in England. That's when I knew
that he's not doing it for the game anymore." Aius said.
I remained silent as I really don't know what to day. I mean we're not close to
talk like this and he's my enemy. It's even weird that he's telling stories to me
right now.
"Nainis ako sa kanya, inaamin ko." he continued. "After all those things that
you did but he chose to protect you."
"He's not protecting me. He brought me here... to..."
I wasn't able to continue my sentence. What am I going to say anyway? That he
brought me here to know about my weakness? He now did. And yet... He's not using it
against me. What more... He did those to Enkidu to help me get revenge.
And... we both fell inlove with each other.
Aius smiled. Probably saw the hesitation in me so I quickly hide all my
emotions on my face.
"Loki saw something in you." Aius said. "He wouldn't do what he all did if he
doesn't like it. You're one of his reasons now why he wanted to stop the game."
No... Not now.
"My offer is still open, Eresh." Auis glanced at me. "Join forces with us and
let's kill the gamemasters."
I shook my head firmly. "My answer is still the same. I am declining your
proposal."
He stared at me, trying to read my emotions but I just raised an eyebrow at him
and stared back. He sighed and stood up when he couldn't see anything on my face.

"One more question." he said and looked down at me.

I leaned my back on the backrest of the sofa and crossed my legs before I
looked up at him with a raised eyebrow.
 "What is it?"
"How did you find out about Angela?" he asked. His voice sounds in pain when he
mentioned that name. "We were so careful so no one would discover of me being the
real King of EL."
I heaved a deep breath and sighed before I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I don't have an idea, Aius." I said while looking at him straight in the eye.
"It was my Knight that knows everything but he died before he could tell it to me.
I didn't even know that you're the real King that's why it was Loki who I seduced,
right?"
He nodded his head when he saw that I was telling the truth. I didn't like
lying though. I hate liars. I hate betrayals. I hate traitors.
But I became one.
"Violet?" Lucius asked.
I shook my head. "She doesn't have any idea about it too. You, Ishtar, Alter's
man and Loki. Kayo lang naman ang nakakaalam who's the real King right?"
Aius sighed and nodded his head. He didn't say anything and just left the room.
It's been three days but Loki hasn't woken up yet. I am getting anxious now but
the EL Ordre still looked so chill even if one of their members could be dying
right now!
The fuck! That doctor is a liar! I thought that Loki is okay now?
Nagulat ako nang may mag-abot sa akin ng one cup of tea as I was sitting at the
sofa, watching over Loki with a panic slowly rising on my chest.
"You look tense." Alter's man said when I didn't take the tea from his hand.
"This will help you calm down."
I looked at him, wondering why he's suddenly doing this. He sighed like he's
bored.
"It was the servant who made that." he said like that would answer everything.
I took the tea from him when I realized that I really needed it. Alter's man
sat beside me on the sofa as he opened his can of beer. His elbows were resting on
his slightly apart knees.
"You're strong. Facing twenty armed men with a gun." he said.
"I'm not afraid of them." They couldn't really harm me though.
"You finally have your weakness." sabi nya kaya mabilis akong napatingin sa
kanya.
"I am not weak."
He looked at me, boredom in his eyes.
Fuck him! He's the one who sat beside me then he'll act that talking to me is
just a waste of time?!
"I'm not saying that you're weak." he reasoned out. "I'm saying that you
finally have someone who you wanted to protect. You don't feel alone anymore."
I just stared at him. Still confused as what his purpose here. I was able to
see how black his eyes were.
"That's what Codee wanted." he said.
I frowned. "Codee? She hates me."
I felt a pang on my chest when I said thay. I remember the last time when she
called me her 'Ate'. The day of her goodbye as my ally.
She betrayed me as well.
The man sighed again. "She's worried about you. Even if she doesn't say
anything, I know that she's worried for you."
I chuckled, full of remorse. "I made her do monstrous things, Alter's man. What
you're saying is impossible."
"She doesn't blame you about everything. She knew that she's at fault. She has
her own mind. She chose to obey those orders from you. 'Cause she sees you as her
older sister."
I felt a lump in my throat when I remember those days when I used to praise
Alter whenever she's doing her job well. I will always caressed her curly hair and
tucked some strands behind her ears. And as I looked at her face, I saw her bright
and proud smile because of my praise for her.
"She betrayed me." I said.
 Alter's man sipped on his beer-in-can and I did the same with me tea before he
stared at me with serious eyes.
"She didn't." he said. "She wanted you to stop what you're doing. She choose
not to help you anymore but that doesn't mean that she betrayed you. Remember that
she didn't tell us everything?"
Ah... Right. That's why I was shocked that they still didn't know about Yucca
being a traitor. About King Lancer. About my plan.
Am I wrong about her then?
"I'm sure she will be happy with this news." Alter's man said.
Will she, really?
I saw a slight movements from where Loki is so I immediately got up and went to
his side. Alter's man got up and went outside the room, probably to call the rest
of the EL Ordre's members and in no time, they were already inside the room as
we're waiting for Loki to wake up.
And when he did, his sea-green eyes quickly found mine. He flashed a small
smile that almost made me cry.
He's okay... He's finally okay.
"Hey, my Queen." he said
"My King..." I said before I dipped my head down and planted him a kiss on the
lips.
It's time to go back to reality.

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Chapter 67

We let Loki eat first even though I could tell that the EL
Ordre wanted to talk to him as soon as possible. They should wait though. He has
been unconscious for three fucking days and I think they could wait for another
minute before talking to him.
I stared at Loki's face while he was eating. Those thick eyebrows of him na
ngayon ay mukhang magulo but it made him more attractive anyway. That perfect nose
of him that I wanted to run my fingers on, memorizing the sharpness of it. His
reddish lips that he always played with his fingers whenever he's starting at me.
Those lips that I always love to kiss. His sandy hair that feels so soft everytime
my fingers dugged into it. His long and thick lashes that made his eyes
mesmerizing.
And finally... His sea-green eyes. Those eyes that captivated me the first time
I saw it. Those eyes that always sparkle with happiness as he smile gently at me.
Those eyes that showed millions of emotions to me.
I will miss it all...
"Why are you all here?" Loki asked as he sat on the sofa inside the room.
He groaned in pain and closed his eyes tight before he inhaled deeply. I got
worried so I went near him to give him assistance but he just smiled at me and
tapped the space beside him urging me to sit to which I did. The members of the EL
Ordre were standing in front of us.
"Alter found out that Shielder is here but before we could obtain his exact
location, it was already gone." it was Alter's man who said that.
"So you went here after that?" Loki asked. He's controlling his voice whenever
he's speaking para hindi mapwersa ang sugat nya. "Didn't you think that it might be
an another trap?"
"Naisip na namin yan." Alter's man said. "But this is the only lead that we
have about him."
"Trap or not, I'm willing to take the risk if it's about my brother." Tracer
said.
Loki didn't say anything. He probably understands Tracer so he chose to keep
quiet instead.
 "We saw everything that happened at the party." it was the man with amber eyes
who spoke this time. "Hindi lang kami nangialam 'cause we know that it's your
fight."
"I appreciate that." Loki said gratefully.
"Plano sana naming sundan sila ni Eresh at ng Bishop nya kung sumama lang sya."
Aius said. "But this is better so we could lure Shielder out. Who knows what's
waiting for us in their hideout."
Aius shrugged his shoulders and quickly looked at me.
"Fourth doesn't know anything about this so don't think that he's just using
you."
I frowned at his ridiculous statement. I would never think like that. Among
everyone here, it was me who felt Loki's feelings for me with his actions and
words.
"We're just going to wait for him to show himself up, then?" Loki asked.
"And make a plan." Alter's man said.
"He got brainwashed so right now, he thinks of us as his enemies." Aius said
and I noticed the man with amber eyes looked at me.
"What did you say to him that he began to think like that?" he asked.
I raised an eyebrow at him. I lifted my chin as I eyed him from head-to-toe
before I crossed my legs.
"I just told him that you're an asshole."
He raised an eyebrow at me before smirking and chuckled afterwards. He just
shook his head like he couldn't believe my guts.
He's really an asshole though.

"He said something about us thinking that he's a stupid

Rook." Tracer said.
"We shouldn't make any rash move. I think he's a bit violent now compared to
the gentle Shielder." it was Alter's man who said that
I was just listening to them as they started to plan on how they will take
their Rook back to them. It was so weird that I'm an enemy yet I could hear the
plan that they're making. Mukha pa ngang wala silang pakialam kung marinig ko ang
plano nila.
I felt Loki's hand held mine kaya napatingin ako sa kanya. He still looked pale
but when he smiled at me, I realized that he'll always be the most attractive man
for me.
"We should do something about the two Bishops. I'm sure na kayang-kaya natin
sila if ever they think of hiring goons as their pawn. Yung mga Bishop lang talaga
ang problema." Aius said and the man with amber eyes nodded.
"The Queen's Bishop is wounded so we're at advantage."
"Not really." Aius shook his head. "We don't want to hurt Gray. Kaya kung may
gawin sya, then we couldn't fight him back. So better move quickly and capture him
before he decided for a move."
"Leave the Queen's Bishop to me." Alter's man said.
"Ako nang bahala kay Violet." it was the man with amber eyes who said that and
Aius agreed with them.
"Hunter and I will try to talk with Shielder."
I rolled my eyes. They were all talking like I'm not even here! It was my team
that they were talking about and I could hear them! Hindi ba nila naisip that I
might do something to ruin that stupid plan of them?
"What if... he wouldn't show himself?" Tracer asked and I could hear the
uncertainty in his voice. Na para bang ayaw nyang mangyari ang tinanong nya but he
still asked it in the end.
"He will." Loki answered. "He will take Eresh back. He would never put that
much effort of hiring goons, infiltrate the Palace and sending one of the higher
pieces just to take her back."
I felt his grip on my hand tightened. He was bothered by his words... I know,
'cause I saw it in his eyes. Mahigpit ang pagkakahawak nya sa kamay ko, not even
wanting to let it go.
It just made my heart aches so much. 'Cause I know that at the end of this
day... I have to leave.
Mas tumindi pa ang sakit sa dibdib ko lalo na nang sumapit ang gabi. I tried to
act normal so Loki wouldn't notice anything wrong. It was hard 'cause he knew me
very well. Sa saglit na panahong magkasama kami ay nakilala nya agad ako so I
couldn't hide anything from him. I just hope that the pain from his wounds would
distract him from me.
Fuck... My heart hurts so much.
"You should rest." I told Loki when it was already time to sleep. He was still
sitting on the bed, his back leaning on the headboard while he's staring at me.
I wanted to look away but I know that I shouldn't dahil makakahalata sya. It
feels like... he was trying to read what's on my mind.
"I'm... scared of what's gonna happen." he said after some time of staring at
me.
Mabilis akong napatingin sa kanya. My lips slightly parted with surprise
because of his words. I couldn't believe that I will ever hear him use that words.
That he's scared. That he would admit that he's scared of something.
I covered the half of his body with comforter.
"Sleep, Loki. You need to get your strength back." I said.
"You're not thinking of leaving me, aren't you?"
Pinigilan ko ang mapasinghap sa gulat dahil sa tanong nya. I knew it. He has an
idea. I don't know how but I really tried my best to act normal earlier. Nagsungit
ako and at the same time, tried to be sweet to him kahit na ang gusto kong gawin ay
makasama sya sa buong araw ngayon.

Only the two of us.

"You're going to stay with me forever, right?"
I looked down and bit my lower lip. Tears formed in the corner of my eyes. He
sounds like he's begging and I know that if I look at him in the eye, I wouldn't be
able to take it.
"Loki..." I mumbled his name and gathered the courage to finally look at him.
And oh, God. I shouldn't have done that. His look right now will haunt me for my
entire life.
He has a hopeful look in his eyes. Like he's expecting me that I will say the
words that he wanted to hear. He even held my hands and grip it tight. His moves
were telling me that if ever I declined, he still wouldn't let me go. He almost
looked like he's begging and it hurts so much.
"Stay with me forever, Eresh..." he said as he looked at me in the eye. Eyes
were telling the same emotion that he just told me.
I almost sobbed but I managed to smile at him.
"I love you too, Loki."
It was a good thing that he fell asleep after a while. I was lying beside him,
hugging him while his face was buried in my neck. It was so hard to let go of him
as I still wanted to feel his warmth that always gives comfort to me.
I got up, careful not to wake him up. I stared at him, memorizing the face of
the man that made me feel such things that I don't even deserve. The man that gave
hope in my life.
He's the only man that I will ever love.
Kahit na mahirap ay inalis ko ang paningin ko sa kanya. Pigil ang mga luha na
lumabas ako ng kwarto at isinarado ang pinto. I started to walk away without any
emotions in my face but my chest feels like it will burst with so much pain that
I'm feeling inside.
I hope that we met in a different circumstances. In that way, we could have a
normal life that we will live for the rest of forever.
My heart hammered when someone grabbed me from the arm and pulled me with great
effort that my body almost slammed against his chest. Kabang-kaba ako, thinking
that it might be Loki but when I looked up, I saw the man with amber eyes staring
down at me.
"What the fuck..." I breathe, trying to calm myself down.
Fuck! He scared the shit out of me! Ang akala ko ay si Loki na!
"I know what you're thinking." he said.
I pulled my arm away from him and glared at him. "Shut up, asshole."
But he just smirked at me that annoyed me so fucking much.
"I won't let you do that though. This is our only chance to lure Shielder out.
Don't ruin it."
"Fuck you." I spat.
He chuckled. "Remember what happened the last time you said those words to me?"
I didn't have the time to think about what he had said when he quickly grabbed
my wrists and pinned me to the wall. Hawak nya ang dalawang pulsuhan ko at inilagay
sa magkabilang gilid ng ulo ko. He put his thigh in between my legs, restraining me
to move.
I glared at him and if looks could kill. He must be dead by now.
"You, fucking motherfuc—"
"I like you."
I stilled. I think I just heard some disgusting and ridiculous words that came
out from his mouth. Hindi agad ako nakapagsalita at nanatili lang na nakatitig sa
kanya.
"I like women like you. Strong, daring, bold, feisty and knows how to fight."
sabi pa nya.
"Are you on drugs?" I blurted out.
He chuckled before he shrugged his shoulders.
"T'was a good thing that we don't feel the same. Kasi kung nagpakita ka ng
kahit kaunting pagkagusto sa akin... God forbid but I'll do anything to steal you
away from Fourth."
Is he fucking serious?!
I looked at him, trying to find the joke in his amber eyes that has a reddish
hint. But I couldn't see anything to prove that he's joking. His eyes looked
serious despite the playful smile on his lips.
I raised an eyebrow at him. Fuck... Maybe that's the reason why he likes to
annoy me so much.
"It was a good thing that I don't have a fetish for an asshole like you." I
said before I rolled my eyes at him.
He smirked and I saw his eyes traveled down my lips. He stared at it for a
second before he chuckled and finally let me go. Lumayo sya habang ang mata ay
nakatingin pa rin sa akin.
"Asshole." I said but he just smirked again.
We heard a loud gunshots that's coming down from the lounge. We both looked at
each other at walang anumang salita na agad na nagpunta kung saan nanggaling ang
putok ng baril.
Fuck! Judging by how loud it was, I'm sure that Loki is fucking awake now!
The man with amber eyes and I descended down the stares. We saw dead bodies of
the servants on the floor that have gunshots on their body. And when we're finally
at the lounge, we saw our special visitors.
I stopped on my tracks when my I saw the main actor of this incident. He was
wearing an all black three piece suit with a long black coat with the length that
reached his knees. He dyed his hair in gray that was in a brush up style. The slit
on his brows made him looked like a villain especially with a smirk on his lips.
"My Queen." he greeted me with a menacing smile on his lips. "I missed you so
much."
"King Lancer..." I muttered and walked towards him.
Nakita ko ang pagtaas ng isa sa mga kilay nya. I know that he's confused that I
called him by his codename instead of calling him back as how he just called me.
Yucca and Enkidu were also with him. Hindi ko pinansin ang dalawa at tinitigan
lang ang taong nasa harapan ko.
 Is this... the same kid from before? He had changed so much.
"Gray..."
I heard Tracer's voice behind me and I'm sure that the rest of the EL Ordre's
members were there too. King Lancer smirked widened when he saw the people behind
me.
"Eresh..." it was Loki. "Come here."
I could hear the fear in his voice. He was afraid that I won't do what he
wanted. I keep all my emotions inside me as King Lancer was staring at me. He
looked like he was studying me.
So I lifted my chin and raised an eyebrow at him. I smirked which made him
chuckled before I turned around and faced the EL Ordre.
My eyes immediately landed at Loki who was only a few feet away from me. He
looked in pain because of his wounds but still managed to stand up straight as he
waited for me to go near him.
But instead, I smirked at him.
"Play time's over, my King."

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Chapter 68

I was still smirking as I looked at Loki who was staring

back at me. He looked confused with my words but I could see the hurt in his eyes.
It seems like he already knew what I meant with what I had said but still choose to
be ignorant.
I crossed my arms over my chest and looked at the rest of the EL Ordre. Aius
and the man with amber eyes were staring hard at me but I just smiled sweetly at
them. Tracer was looking at his brother while Alter's man was looking at Loki.
"What..." I heard Loki muttered. "What do you—"
I chuckled without any remorse and didn't wait for him to finish his sentence.
"It's over, Loki. Whatever's between us is over." I smirked. "I'm done playing
games with you."
I saw him heaved a deep breath slowly and he looked like he was in pain. His
lips looked pale and he was already sweating bullets. He looked so weak. He was
wearing a white shirt but I saw a red stain on the stomach part, the part where his
wounds are. Maybe he came here in a rush when he heard the gunshots and that made
his wounds bleed again.
I saw him gulped so hard but I didn't stop talking and hurt him with my words
even more.
"I just bought time for King Lancer to get stronger. And now that he is, I am
going back to the Red Faction."
"Fourth has been true to you."
I looked at Aius who said those words. He looked so serious but I laughed at
him.
"And then what? Did you expect me that I'll do the same?" I rolled my eyes.
"You, guys, are all stupid! I'm still the Queen of the Red Faction!"
"Eresh..." I heard Loki's soft voice. "Stop this. Just come here. Don't..." he
wet his lips with his tongue and gulped again. "Don't leave me."
He started walking towards me but he was having a hard time because of his
wounds. Nakita kong mas dumadami ang mantsa ng dugo sa shirt nya pero hindi nya
ininda iyon at nagpatuloy lang sa paglalakad.
Aius tried to help him but Loki shoved his helping hand away from him. The rest
of the EL Ordre were just watching him as he struggled walking towards me.
He stopped a few feet away from me. Probably because he saw the look in my
eyes. Cold, and my face were void with any emotions. But he still held out his hand
to me.
"Come here... Eresh." he breathe but I just keep on staring coldly at him and
didn't take his hand.
"I had fun playing with you, Loki."
I felt King Lancer's arm snaked around my waist as he stood beside me. I
glanced at him and I saw him looking at Loki like he's planning something.
I looked back at Loki. He was looking at King Lancer's hand that was holding
the side of my waist. Hurt was in his eyes the moment he looked at me.
"My Queen..." Loki mumbled like it was his last string of hope. Like it was his
only assurance that I am really his. That whatever's happening now doesn't mean
anything.
It was his last hope believing that everything happened between us is true.
"She's not your Queen, Fourth." King Lancer said and Loki looked at him with
determination in his eyes.
"Eresh is my Queen as I am her King."
King Lancer chuckled. "I am her real King, Fourth."
"No..." Loki muttered while shaking his head. Still not believing whatever King
Lancer is telling him. Tumawa ako kaya napatingin sya sa akin.
"You're used to it anyway." I said and smiled at him. "Being a pretend King."
Loki stared at me like he's studying me. I didn't back down and stared back at
him with a smile on my lips. His chest was heaving up and down. Alam kong masakit
na ang sugat nya pero hindi nya iyon pinapansin. He looked at me like I'm the only
one that matters in this world.

I smiled sweetly and leaned my body against King Lancer's

chest. Nakita kong naapektuhan si Loki sa ginawa ko. He even looked like he wanted
to snatch me away from King Lancer but he's too weak now to do any rash move that
requires a great effort.
I chuckled.
"Since I had fun playing with you and you entertained me so well... I won't
kill you." I giggled. "I'm so kind, right?"
Bumalatay ang sakit sa mukha ni Loki dahil sa sinabi ko. And when he speaks, I
heard the pain in his voice.
"You are already killing me with your words, Eresh..."
I felt the lump in my throat but I force myself to gulped it down and chuckled
instead. I looked at King Lancer and smiled sweetly at him.
"I guess we're done here." I said. Telling him that we should go but he just
keep on staring at Loki.
I tried to move but King Lancer tightened his grip on my waist preventing my
movements. I looked at him and I saw him smirking at Loki.
"Kneel." he said without any mercy.
My eyes widened pero nanatili ang tingin nya kay Loki na parang natutuwa pa.
"Kneel, Fourth. My Queen might be able to consider to stay with you."
"King Lancer!" I exclaimed. Hindi makapaniwala sa gusto nyang mangyari.
"Oh, c'mon! You said that she's your Queen, right?" he even said when Loki
remained standing. "Then kneel for your Queen!"
I gasped in surprise. Fuck it! He's not the same kid that we planned to take
before! He is now the cold-blooded and heartless King of the Red Faction!
Fuck... He takes after me. 'Cause those words were exactly the same words that
I said to Alter back then!
My plan on brainwashing him really succeeded.
Napatingin ako sa harapan nang may makitang pagkilos doon mula sa gilid ng mga
mata ko. And my heart almost drops when I saw Loki, slowly lowering his body and
knelt down. His two knees were on the floor.
"Beg." King Lancer said and I feel like I won't be able to stop my tears
anymore.
But fuck... I need to.
Loki looked up to me. There's hope and pain in his eyes as he looked straight
in my eyes. Parang gusto nyang iparating lahat ng gusto nyang sabihin sa tingin
nyang iyon. 'Cause he knows that he won't have any chance telling those to me.
I heard King Lancer chuckled so I looked away from Loki and stared at King
Lancer instead. Ayokong... tumingin sa harapan ko.
"Eresh..." I heard Loki called my name.
King Lancer smirked at me. "Go on, my Queen. Look at him."
He studied me with a smirk on his face. Alam kong inaabangan nya ang gagawin
ko. I now realize what he's doing as I look in his eyes.
He's testing me... if I'm still the same Queen from before. Tinitignan nya kung
may nagbago sa akin sa mga panahong nakasama ko si Loki.
That's why he didn't leave earlier kahit na wala na kaming kailangang gawin
dito. His only goal is to take me back to the Red Faction. But he's making sure
that what's he's taking back is the same Queen.
So I looked back at Loki and stared coldly at him. I know that King Lancer is
watching me. He's watching my every move and every reaction.
"Beg now, Fourth." King Lancer chuckled. "My Queen is waiting."

"Eresh..." Loki muttered.

I crossed my arms over my chest and raised an eyebrow at him as I wait for his
words. Loki looked at me. His eyes were already begging.
"I'm never anyone's first choice. But I want you to choose me. Please..."
His voice broke. Narinig iyon ng lahat pero wala syang pakialam at patuloy lang
na nagsalita.
"Don't leave me... I'm begging you."
"Did you know that a Von Amstel never beg?"
I gritted my teeth so hard and wanted to curse at myself when his words back
then just came into my mind.
Here is a Von Amtel in front of me. A royalty. Prince Alexander of York. Yet he
is kneeling and begging me not to leave him.
I felt King Lancer's gaze on me. Walang nagsasalita at pinapanood lang nila si
Loki na nakaluhod sa harapan ko. Probably they were too shocked that they saw him
in this state.
"Pathetic." I muttered. Nakita ko kung ano ang naging epekto ng mga salitang
iyon sa kanya.
His face... Oh, fuck! He looked like he's suffering in pain!
"Tangina." I heard the man with an amber eyes said. I almost thanked him when
he walked towards Loki and helped him got up.
Pero hindi pa rin tumayo si Loki. He remained kneeling in front of me that
pissed the man with the amber eyes so much.
"Tangina, Fourth! Stand up! There's nothing you can do!"
He forced Loki to stand up despite his struggle. But since Loki is weak because
of his wounds, he couldn't really put up a fight against him. In the end, he
managed to get Loki on his feet and dragged him away from me.
"Hi, Kuya!" King Lancer greeted his brother who's eyes never left his face
since he saw him.
"Gray... Itigil mo na 'to."
King Lancer chuckled at his brother's words. "Anong ititigil? Hindi pa nga ako
nagsisimula."
"C'mon. Let's go back." Tracer said and slowly walked towards his brother.
"Artemis gave birth to a twins. Hinihintay ka na ng mga pamangkin mo."
But King Lancer looked at him coldly. I even saw a hint of anger in his eyes as
he looked at his brother.
"Do you really think na mauuto mo ako dyan? Ang tingin nyo talaga sa akin ay
isang malaking utu-uto, ano?!" he said with so much anger. "Tangina nyong lahat!
I've done everything for EL Ordre but all you did was to treat me like a fucking
pawn!"
"Damn, Grayson James! That is not true!"
"Shut the fuck up!"
 I was surprised by his next move. Tinanggal nya ang braso nyang nakapulupot sa
bewang ko. He reached his gun from behind him and pointed it at his brother with so
much anger in his eyes. His hand was shaking because of his anger and I'm afraid
that he might pull the trigger accidentally.
Alter's man moved to reach for his his gun but Aius stopped him. Tracer didn't
even try to move away to guard himself. He just stay rooted in place as he stared
at his brother. And that angered King Lancer more.
"The only thing you can do to stop me is to kill me." he said. "Magpapatayan
tayong lahat sa larong 'to."
"Then kill me, Gray." Tracer said. "Hindi ako lalaban. Kill me kung iyan ang
magpapatigil sayo."
King Lancer smirked at him. "Okay. Madali naman akong kausap."
I saw his finger slowly pulling the trigger. My heart hammered and I could feel
the tension in the air. I could feel the anxiousness from the EL Ordre but they
can't do anything to stop King Lancer. They don't want to hurt him.
King Lancer's smirked widened and I saw the hint of evilness in his eyes.
"Checkmate."
And on the last minute, he pointed the gun to the direction of Aius and finally
pulled the trigger.
Kasabay ng pagputok ng baril ay ang pagkilos ng isa sa kanila. Alter's man
covered Aius with his body and caught the bullet that was meant for him. The bullet
pierce in his chest but King Lancer didn't stopped and shoots him two more times.
"Stop!" I screamed. Iniangat ko ang braso nyang may hawak na baril kaya ang
pang-apat na bala ay tumama sa itaas.
Everything around us was in chaos. I saw Enkidu and Yucca pointing their guns
at the EL Ordre but I stopped them with my glares. Nakuha nila ang gusto kong
iparating kaya ibinaba nila ang mga baril nila.
King Lancer laughed out loud like a fucking villain. He put down his gun and
continued laughing mercilessly.
I looked back at the EL Ordre. Alter's man was bleeding so much. Tatlong bala
ang tumama sa dibdib nya and I'm not sure if he'll be able to make it. Aius and
Tracer tried to mend on him but he's already losing too much blood. While the man
with amber eyes was supporting Loki who looked so weak and couldn't move that much.
But his eyes were still on me.
"Kuya Lucius..."
Napatingin si Aius kay King Lancer. Pain and anger were in his eyes as he tried
to stop Alter's man's wounds from bleeding, putting pressure using his hands. But
he knew that he couldn't do that much. He can't hurt King Lancer as he was still
Tracer's brother.
"Did you know how our dead Knight knew about Angela?"
Aius looked so shocked by the mention of that name. Hindi sya nakapagsalita at
nanatili lang ang titig kay King Lancer who chuckled by Aius reaction.
"It was because of your Queen, Kuya Lucius. The EL Ordre's Queen." King Lancer
said. "Sya ang nagsabi sa Knight namin. You can even ask her about it."
Everyone looked so shocked with what he had said. Hindi sila nakapagsalita.
Even I was surprised and confused on how he was able to obtain that information.
But King Lancer just smiled at them before he looked at me.
"We're done here. Lets go, my Queen."
Nauna na syang maglakad palabas. I saw Tracer wanted to go after him but he
couldn't leave with Alter man's in that state. Nagsimula na rin akong maglakad and
that's when I heard Loki's voice.
"Eresh..."
I looked back at him. His voice sounds so weak but I was still able to hear it.
His eyes were begging me not to go.
I stared at him one last time before I flashed my sweetest smile at him.
"Farewell, Loki."

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Chapter 69

JUNK TERROR BILL NOW!

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I was quietly glancing at King Lancer while we're on our way to wherever the
hideout is here in England. I don't really care though 'cause I know that we will
go back to the Philippines as soon as possible.
We're the only ones that's inside the car, driving by their hired goon, as
Yucca and Enkidu was in the car that's following behind us. 
King Lancer is ready to play the game now. I'm sure that he already made a plan
on how to defeat the EL Ordre. Judging by how he moved back at the second Von
Amstel manor, I know that he has an idea on how to wrapped them in between his
fingers.
He knows that they couldn't really hurt him.
I could see the smirk on King Lancer's lips while he was looking outside the
window. His elbow were leaning on the window frame while his fingers were playing
with his lips. I quickly looked away 'cause I remember someone who always does that
gesture.
Fuck it...
The car stopped in front of the mansion that was in a secluded area. I didn't
really care much about and followed King Lancer inside as he went in.
Pabagsak syang umupo sa mahabang sofa while I sat at the one seater sofa across
him. He was leaning his back at the backrest as he looked at me with amusement in
his eyes. And when I finally settle down on my seat, his smirked widened before he
laughed out loud.
I crossed my arms over my chest and leaned my back on the sofa as I watched
King Lancer laughing his ass out. His laughter was in between of evilness and
happiness at the same time. He's happy about what he did earlier at the manor.
"Have you seen their faces?" he said in between his laughter. Hinampas nya pa
ang isang tuhod nya na parang tuwang-tuwa talaga sa mga nangyari kanina.
Then he cleared his throat and tried to sit straight. He made his expression
looked angry that was mixed in pain. And I understand quickly what he's trying to
do. He's copying the expressions of the EL Ordre's faces earlier.
Especially Aius expression when he told him about his second Queen who died by
the hands of our dead Knight.
"They all looked stupid!" sabi ni King Lancer at tumawa na naman. "Galit na
galit sila pero hindi naman nila ako magawang saktan!"
He laughed again and I even saw tears forming in the corner of his eyes dahil
sa matagal na pagtawa. He chuckled as he wiped those tears away.
"And my brother?" he chuckled again. "Hindi nya alam ang gagawin nya! Mukhang
tanga talaga!"
I heaved a deep sigh. He really enjoyed what happened earlier. So opposite of
me.
He stopped laughing and stared at me. I stared back at him without any emotions
on my face as I know that he's reading my expressions right now. I am a master in
this field. Hiding my real emotions and pretending that I'm unaffected with
everything.
Slowly, the corner of his lips rose for a smirk.
"But the best part was when the King's Bishop knelt down for you." he chuckled.
"A fucking royalty! A Prince begging on his knees! That was epic!"
Tumawa ulit sya habang ako ay kumuha nang malalim na paghinga. It was a bad
idea as pain shot in my chest remembering what happened earlier.
Remembering the face of the King's Bishop as he beg for me not to leave him.
"You shot their Knight." my attempt to change our topic.
I succeeded 'cause he stopped laughing. The playfulness is now gone in his
eyes. Sumandal ulit sya sa sofa and crossed his legs in a number four shape as he
tapped his knees with his fingers.
 "Those bullets were meant for Aius. Sinalo nya lang lahat."
he even shrugged his shoulders like it wasn't a big deal.
I stared at his eyes to see if he feels any remorse or regret on what he did. I
don't really know what brainwashing did to him but Alter's man was still his
teammate. They've shared a bond that was close to being a family. And I heard from
Yucca that he was treated like their own little brother.
But I didn't see any guilt in his eyes. He even looked unbothered though like
he didn't do something earlier. He shot Alter's man three times on the chest.
Nakita ko kung gaano karaming dugo ang nawala sa kanya. I am not even sure if he'll
be able to make it.
Three bullets... pierced on his chest.
If he dies... I know that Alter wouldn't be able to take it.
"How did you know about Angela?" I asked King Lancer after a moment of silence.
He smirked like he remembered something. "If you're a hacker, you can have an
access to every information that you wanted to obtain. Depends on how good you
are." he chuckled. "Hindi ba sinabi sayo ni Alter?"
"You haven't even met her yet." I said but he just smiled at me meaningfully.
Ah... I get it. He hacked Alter's information too.
Fuck it. He's really the best hacker out of all the trackers in this Bloody
Human Chess game. He just didn't use that skills of him to give way to his brother.
Mas pinili nya ang magpaka-Shielder, taking care of the EL Ordre's security instead
of being a good tracker.
He knows that obtaining information is his brother's work. At ang kapatid nya
ang gustong-gustong makakuha ng impormasyon sa mga pumatay sa mga magulang nila. He
wants his brother to be the one to obtain the justice that he wanted for their
parents. So his brother would finally felt at peace.
Then the castling method happened. Where we took him away from the EL Ordre and
made him our King.
"Anyway..." sabi ni King Lancer nang matahimik kami. "I was trying to find a
way on how to break the EL Ordre apart. Malaki ang tiwala nila sa isa't-isa, eh.
And I wanted to break that trust. Then, boom! I found out about Angela."
"What you said about Ishtar back there... Is that the truth?" I asked.
He laughed again before he stood up and walked towards me. He stopped in front
of me before he crouched down, his hands were on the armrest of the sofa where I
was sitting, caging my body. He leaned in until our faces were only an inches apart
that I could smell his fresh breath. He looked at me in the eye before he smirked.
"My Queen... I am not a liar. Hindi rin ako mahilig gumawa ng kwento." he said.
His eyes showed a hint of evilness.
"Then... Ishtar was really the one who told our Knight about the second Queen?"
King Lancer chuckled. "That half-sister of yours is a fucking selfish and self-
centered bitch. Ang gusto nya, sa kanya lang ang lahat ng atensyon kaya nya ginawa
'yon."
"How did she know about our Knight?"
"She did everything just to get Angela out of the picture. Pero ayaw nyang
madumihan ang kamay nya. A real bitch, right?"
"You haven't answered my question." I said.
He chuckled as he put his hand below my ear and caressed my lips with his
thumb. I didn't move away as I want him to feel that I can be trusted with this
information.
"So impatient..."
He played with my hair like he's memorizing the new length of it. I stopped
myself from moving away as I remembered someone again because of what he did.
"I like your new hair." he whispered.
I wanted to move away... But I know that I shouldn't. I need to earn his trust
back.
He stared in my eyes while his hand was still playing with my hair. He
chuckled. He stood up straight and sat down on the sofa where he has seated
earlier.
"Before your father fell ill, nakipagkita si Ishtar sa kanya. Sinabi ng ama mo
sa pinakamamahal nyang anak kung sino-sino ang mga myembro ng Red Faction."
I stilled. Unable to comprehend this information. King Lancer chuckled at my
reaction.
"Your father didn't tell her about the Red Faction without any King though.
Though she knew everyone of you, my Queen." he smiled menacingly. "She just
couldn't tell the EL Ordre 'cause her priority is to get Angela out of the picture.
'Cause she truly believes that a King must only have one Queen."
"Oh my God..." I muttered.
"She used our Knight. Pero hindi nya pa rin sinabi sa EL Ordre ang lahat
pagkatapos noon." King Lancer continued. "'Cause she's afraid that they will find
out about what she did. Kaya hinayaan nya rin ang EL Ordre na itago sya and she
lived a normal life."
Napatulala ako. I just... couldn't believe it. How could she do that?! The EL
Ordre keep her in the shadows and protected her and yet she even had the audacity
to be selfish when her King loved a different Queen?
They protected her. She got everything that I wanted... pero hindi pa rin sya
nakuntento.
Fuck... That bitch. She even had the guts to act all high and mighty back at
the EL Ordre's hideout!
"She's the real evil in this game, my Queen." King Lancer said. "The real
traitor. A real fucked up bitch."
"Yeah..." I looked at him coldly. "A real. Fucked up. Bitch."
He chuckled when I repeated what he had said. I bet that he was quite expecting
me to defend my sister even just a little. 'Cause he really thought that something
had changed in me for those months that I've been with EL Ordre.
But there's no denying that my evil half-sister is fucked up though. We are
both fucked up. Gone were the days when she would let me borrow her toys and
dresses that our father bought her. Gone were the days when she became my first
ever playmate. Gone were the days when we were both an innocent kids.
We've both grew up as a fucked up person.
"I wonder how Aius took that though." King Lancer said. "The woman he protected
for all his life turns out to be the reason why he's suffering now."
"I'm sure that the EL Ordre is slowly breaking apart." I said.
With Alter's man in that condition, I'm sure that Alter wouldn't be able to
work for the team properly. Especially if he dies. And then Ishtar's secret... Her
Bishop will probably defend him against the King. And the man with amber eyes... I
wonder if he'll take her side.
And then there's also Loki who's wounded right now.
Fuck... King Lancer is so smart.
"Rest now, my Queen." he said. "We will go back to the Philippines tomorrow."
I stared at him. He really looked different from the kid who fell in a coma for
months after he was shot for so many times because of Yucca's negligence. Muntik pa
kaming mawalan ng King dahil sa kanya!
But as I look at King Lancer now, I could say that our plan had succeeded.
There's only one thing that's left. And that is to win this fucking game.
I stood up. King Lancer's eyes followed me while doing so. I looked down at him
and showed him my smirk.
"You should rest as well... King Lancer."
His eyebrow shot up but he didn't say anything. I know that he has something to
say on how I called him while he keeps on calling me as his Queen. But he chose to
stay silent again.
I turned my back at him and a servant guided me to my room. I sighed as I
closed the door and leaned my back against it.
The endgame will now begin.
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Chapter 70

We went straight to the new Red Faction's hideout after we

got back to the Philippines. It looked almost like our old hideout but this was a
lot bigger and in a secluded area. It looked like a big villa but I knew that once
inside, it will be a lot different from a normal villa.
King Lancer was wearing an all black outfit again. His inner was a turtle neck
longsleeve under a long coat that reached his knees. And a tight pants that was
paired with a black combat boots. His gray color looked disheveled as he brushed it
with his fingers.
Yucca and Enkidu were walking behind us but I didn't have to look back just to
know that Yucca was staring at King Lancer. I almost laughed 'cause for me, she
looked like she was waiting for him to look at her.
"This is the throne room." King Lancer said as he opened the wide door that was
inside the hideout.
I went inside as I looked around the place. There's a red carpet that was set
up on the floor from the door up to the that elevated place where there are two
golden royal chairs on top of it. I chuckled as I walked towards it.
I slowly sat down and made myself comfortable. I sat straight and rested my
arms on the armrest. I crossed my legs and lifted my chin as I looked at King
Lancer who was walking right up to me.
"This is what you wanted, right?" he said before he sat down at his own chair
too.
"Yeah..." I answered as my fingers slowly caressed the armchair, tracing the
details.
"I have another gift for you."
King Lancer's snapped his fingers after he said that. I squinted my eyes and
keep staring at him while I'm waiting for something to happen. He chuckled and
pointed a finger to the door. And there... I saw my favorite pet.
"Nergal!"
He ran his way towards to where I am. I giggled when he put his front paws on
my lap and rubbed his head on my cheeks and purred. I keep on giggling as I tickled
him on his chin.
"Did you miss me, huh? Did you miss me?" I asked as Nergal excitedly put his
paw against my cheeks and put it back on my lap again.
He did miss me!
"He's been a very good boy." King Lancer said as he watched us with a smile on
his face. I smiled back at him and continued playing with my pet.
Fuck! I now realized that I missed him! How could I live those days without him
by my side? I mean Nergal has been with me since I was a kid. Father forced me to
take care of him, saying that I will look strong with Nergal by my side.
We've been together yet I managed to live for so many months without him!
Of course... I was having fun that I couldn't even think of him. But those fun
days were now over.
We decided to eat lunch after that little reunion that I had with my pet. There
was a long table on the dining area at doon kami sa magkabilang dulo naupo ni King
Lancer. Enkidu and Yucca were standing at our sides, just watching us while we're
eating and waiting for our orders.
Now... This is the reality for me.
"That fucked up sister of yours..." he said after awhile of eating. "I heard
that she's a product of a rape."
I cut the steak elegantly and eat that small piece before I answered him.
"Yes."
King Lancer chuckled. "I found out that incident wouldn't even happen if only
my mother didn't pretend to be a man."
"Probably."
 "Well... Nagpanggap si Mom na isang lalaki so the enemies wouldn't look down on
her and target her. 'Cause apparently, there's an issue of misogyny in this game
that the men are looking down at women. That men think that they were stronger than
women."

I didn't say anything and just keep on eating. My back were

straight as I took the wine and sip on it, waiting for King Lancer for whatever
he's gonna say.
"That's why my Mom did that." King Lancer continued. "Father was the only one
who knew the truth about her as they were both Rooks. They were the walls of the
kingdom." he shrugged his shoulders. "With my Mom pretending to be a man, that
makes the former Queen as the only woman in the EL Ordre. Kaya madali syang
nakilala ng ama nyo. Then, boom! He did that horrible act."
"What were you trying to say?" I asked. Hindi ko na alam kung saan papunta ang
mga sinasabi nya.
He smirked at me. "I'm just saying..." he trailed off. "That you knew that
feeling, right? Ang magpanggap na isang lalaki."
I felt Yucca's gaze on me. She doesn't know about this part of my past kaya
alam kong nagulat sya. But my eyes remained on King Lancer who was smirking at me.
This bastard... He found out about my past.
So he did his research, huh? After Yucca had successfully continued on
brainwashing him, he researched everything that he wanted to know, hacking on every
resources just to find out everything. Even my past.
My past that hurts so much when I opened it up to someone. But King Lancer did
that so easily.
I stared at him without any emotions in my face. I wanted him to know that I'm
unaffected with what he said but deep inside, I am trembling. I wanted to feel that
familiar warmth that always comforted me.
But I can't. So I have to do this on my own.
I looked down at my food and continued eating again. I could feel King Lancer's
eyes watching my every move, naghihintay ng maling galaw ko. But I'm sure that he
wouldn't find any.
I stared back at him as I chewed on the food inside my mouth. I gulped it down
before I smiled at him.
"Do you have any plans on how to win this game?" I asked.
He shrugged his shoulders and leaned his back on the chair. "Kill them. Leave
the gamemaster to you."
I took the wine glass and gracefully put it in my mouth and sipped on in. King
Lancer tapped his fingers on the table as he watched me put down the glass.
"Can you really kill them, though?" I asked. "I mean, they were your teammates
before. You, guys, shared an unbreakable bond. Maiintindihan ko kung hindi mo
magagawa."
His face darkened as he glares at me. Itinago ko ang mga ngisi ko sa muling
pag-inom ng wine. I could feel the fire in his eyes. His jaw moved as he clenched
his teeth so hard. Nakita ko din ang pagkuyom ng kamao nya na nakapatong sa table.
"Are you looking down on me?" he growled.
I smiled sweetly at him. "I was just asking."
He was still glaring at me but I kept the smile on my face. I put the wine
glass back on it's place. I used the napkin to wipe my mouth before I stood up.
"I think I'll go now and check my room."
I turned around and let out the smirk that I tried so hard to keep since
earlier. I made a short giggle before walking back towards my room.
Does he really think that he could shook me up like that? Me? The Queen of Red
Faction! He must try harder though.
There's only one man who could do it effortlessly.
I entered my room and ignored the design and the queen's bed inside when I
noticed the ambiance of the room. Something is off but I still closed the door and
walked further inside.

I scanned the whole room. There were so many furnitures

inside. One look and everyone could tell that the one who will occupy the room must
be the Queen. It looks like the room that I had at the second Von Amstel manor.
Only different interior, color and designs.
I turned off the lights and closed the curtains. Dumilim ang kwarto but the
bright sunlight from the outside that's passing through the thick curtains was
enough for me. Still, normal people wouldn't be able to see in this darkness.
I looked around, trying to find a spy camera that I suspected they would put
here. I walked around the room in a clockwise direction. Still finding that
blinking low green light that was usually found in a night vision camera.
But what I found isn't a camera but a microphone. As I passed the painting that
was displayed inside the room, I heard a low buzzing sound. It was almost inaudible
but because of the training I had, I was able to hear it.
I checked the back of the frame just to be sure. And I was right. I saw a small
microphone transmitter that was attached to it. I chuckled softly as I put back the
paint on its place without touching the spy device.
I'm sure that there were still more inside this room.
I am under King Lancer's surveillance.
I sat at the end of the bed. He's still suspecting that something changed in
me, huh?
I heard a low knock on the door before the door opened. It was Enkidu and
Nergal was beside him who immediately went inside the room and sat on the floor
just beside my feet.
"Your Majesty—" Enkidu started to say but I put a finger on my lips to shush
him.
He stopped and stared at me. I stared back and it looked like he understands
what I was trying to say.
"I'll tour you around the new hideout if you want, Your Majesty." he said.
I smiled at him. "That would be a great idea." I looked down at Nergal. "Come,
Nergal."
We didn't see Yucca or King Lancer around as we go out using the backdoor.
Enkidu led me to the greenhouse which I'm sure that a new vicinity of this hideout.
"It's safe here, Your Majesty." Enkidu said and showed me where I could sit. It
was a small bench but this will do.
It's better that to that room that was full of microphone transmitters.
I sat down on the bench and Enkidu remained standing in front of me. Sumunod na
umupo si Nergal sa paanan ko.
"So?" I started. "You wanna say something?"
Enkidu stared at me. This Bishop of mine rarely shows his emotions. Minsan ko
lang syang makitaan ng mga emosyon. Madalang at lumilipas pa nga ang isang araw na
walang anumang emosyon ang nakikita sa mukha nya. I understand though. Maybe that
was part of his training.
But now. He looked... uncomfortable. And that gave me an idea about what he was
going to say.
"I... want to apologize." he said.
"About what?" I asked even if I'm a hundred percent sure on what he's talking
about. I even crossed my arms over my chest and crossed my legs.
"About what happened... In the past." he took a deep breath and stared at me in
the eye. "I'm so sorry, Eresh..."
I raised an eyebrow at him, ignoring the lump in my throat and the pain in my
chest.
Fuck... I fucking hate these emotions.
"I'm really sorry." he said.
"You could've declined." I said, feeling thankful that my voice sounds sturdy.
"I was being abused, Pierre. Yet you fucking had a boner."
 "I'm sorry... I was young back then. I couldn't really do
anything."
"You could've declined." ulit ko. "You could've declined, Pierre. You could've
declined."
He closed his eyes tight. He probably couldn't take the hurt in my eyes now as
I failed to conceal my emotions.
Fuck! Those horrible memories again! I could see it clearly in my mind!
The young me, who saw him as my savior when he entered the room with my father.
But my hope fell apart when I saw him having a boner while watching my father
sexually assaulting me.
"You didn't know how much it affected me. Pierre. Ikaw ang inaasahan kong
tutulong sa akin. You were my only hope back then. Pero binigo mo ako nang wala ka
man lang ginawa."
My voice broke that I even had to clear my throat. No... I wouldn't cry in
front of him. Sa isang tao lang ako iiyak sa harapan nya.
"I'm so sorry." Enkidu whispered. "I just can't go against your father, Eresh.
He's so powerful and stronger back then. He might hurt me."
"Kaya mas pinili mong ako ang masaktan?"
Pain and regret were in his eyes now. "Fuck... I'm sorry."
"You hurt me, Pierre. You left a big scar in me. You and my father broke me
into pieces."
"I'm really sorry." paulit-ulit nyang sabi at alam kong gusto nya nang lumuhod
but he knew better.
Alam nyang mas magagalit lang ako.
"Believe me, Eresh. I tried to ask my father to help you. To get you out. But
he was just a former Queen's Bishop. He couldn't fight his King."
I shook my head before I looked away. I felt the pain in my chest is now
getting stronger, urging me to burst out in tears. But I held it all in. Kahit na
masakit. I held in all in.
There's no one to comfort me now. I am alone again.
"I know that what I did is unforgivable." Enkidu continued. "Kaya ginawa ko ang
lahat, Eresh. Lahat ng gusto mo ay ginawa ko. But still, it wasn't enough."
"I know..." I said before I looked back at him. "I purposely used you, Pierre.
I know that you're doing it because it's guilty."
"I really am." he admitted. "I'm really sorry."
"I did my best to let you feel the pain, though." I continued. "Wanting to do
everything to earn forgiveness but no matter what you do, you know that it isn't
enough." I stared at him. "And that's the most painful punishment I could give you,
right?"
He closed his eyes. Alam kong alam nya iyon. I chose to trust him to torture
him even more. Dahil mas uusigin lang sya ng konsensya nya.
Ah... The power of conscience.
We fell in silence. I tried to calm myself down. I was trembling deep inside
and just wanted to cry as I remember those things again. But it was so hard to do
it alone.
Fuck. I wanted to feel... Loki's warmth again. I wanted to go back to him.
But the game should be played.
"You are planning something."
I looked at Enkidu who was already staring at me. "I am planning something."
"And you won't tell me."
"I won't."
I heard him sighed. "I understand. But please, Your Majesty. Keep in mind that
I am your Bishop. I'll do everything to finally be worthy for that title."
I remained silent. This plan of mine is dangerous. There were too many holes
and if I wouldn't be careful, I might end up losing my life.
So if there's anyone here that I could ask for help, I know that it'll be
Enkidu.
But still, I couldn't trust him yet... to tell him everything about my plan.
"Then, I want you to do something for me."
He looked alerted. Even quite happy that I gave him another order.
"Anything, Your Majesty. I'll do anything."
"Find out what happened to Alter's man. Mag-usap na lang ulit tayo kapag may
ibabalita ka na." I said, slightly dismissing him.
But he just keep on standing in front of me while staring down at me. I raised
an eyebrow at him, asking in that way if there's still anything that he wanted to
say.
"You are changing, Your Majesty." he said but shook his head right after.
"No... You've changed."
I looked at the beautiful flowers around the greenhouse. I even saw some that
were still a bud.
"I haven't changed, Enkidu." I said and looked back at him. "This is the real
me. I just haven't realized it."
He stared at me with gentleness in his eyes. Those rare times where he show his
emotion.
"Because of him?"
I made a small smile. Kahit hindi sya nagbanggit ng pangalan, alam ko kung sino
ang tinutukoy nya.
"Because of him."
"You love him?"
I shook my head and looked at him helplessly. "I love him so much."
Pain shot in his eyes but it disappeared quickly. He stood straight and acted
professionally.
"I will get back to you the soonest, Your Majesty."
I nodded at him as he looked at me. His eyes were telling me kung aalis na din
ba ako but I just shook my head. Maya-maya lang ay naiwan na akong mag-isa dito sa
greenhouse.
I stared at the flower buds before my gaze turned to the bloom ones.
Yeah... This is who I really am.

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Chapter 71

Thank you for all the love and support, readers and Hiroes.
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It's been days but I haven't heard anything about Enkidu. I couldn't move
freely here in the hideout since even my own room has too many microphone
transmitters. I'm not sure if there's any hidden camera since as far as I know,
King Lancer was once the protector of EL Ordre. He knew how to make devices that
will be useful for their security. He can invent devices on his own.
And I heard that the spy necklace that I've found from Alter when she came back
to the Red Faction's hideout to spy on us was also made by Shielder. That's why I'm
not sure if he made a spy camera that couldn't be detected. Kaya limitado lang din
ang mga galaw ko.
King Lancer took me back 'cause he knew that I'm a great planner. He doesn't
want me to be his enemy.
But he's keeping me under his surveillance, though. Like a fucking prisoner.
He's afraid that I might leave him. Like how a brainwashed person is.
I was on my way back to my room after spending the whole day at the greenhouse
again when I saw Yucca walking down the stairs habang paakyat naman ako. We stopped
in the middle, there were two steps between us so I was looking up on her while
she's looking down at me. And that pissed me off so fucking much. Kaya umakyat pa
ako at tumayo sa baitang kung nasaan sya.
 "I'm thrilled that you succeeded on brainwashing him." I said,
straightforwardly. I don't see any reason to prolong this conversation.
I just want to know some things from her.
"When I left the Red Faction to buy time for him, there hasn't been any changes
from him." I continued. "That's why I was surprised to see that he really did
become someone... unrecognizable."
She flashed me a small smile. "I just did what you have instructed."
I stared at her. If she did it so perfectly, then she's dangerous. I mustn't
look down on her. Parang may iba pa syang tinatago.
I know even before though. That something was off from her. She's not like
Alter who always loved to impress me. Si Yucca, sunod lang ng sunod. And I don't
really know much about her. Except for her real name and that she loves King Lancer
so much.
"Where are the drugs?" I asked.
"I used it all on him, Your Majesty."
I let out a soft curse. That's a lot of drugs! I never said anything about
using it all to him!
Fuck... This isn't good. Mahihirapan ako nito.
"I killed the Rook in him, Your Majesty." she continued. "I killed the person
that he was before and made him a completely different person." she smiled. "Like
how you instructed."
I raised an eyebrow at her and crossed my arms over my chest. Yeah... That was
my idea. But I want to know everything and every step that she did that made King
Lancer like that. I gave her the instructions. And I don't think that those were
the only reason that made King Lancer a different person. She did a job well done.
I smirked when I realized something.
Yucca has an idea on how to brainwash someone completely.
"How are you, Your Majesty?" she asked. I flashed her my sweet smile.
"It's good to be back." I answered.
"Is that really how you feel?" she asked.
My smile didn't leave my face. "What in the fucking hell are you trying to
say?"

"I know that you fell inlove with Fourth." she said.
If she thinks that I would be shaken up by that, then she's wrong. I could even
shout to the world that I fucking fell inlove with Loki deeply and I won't care
much.
If she thinks that we were the same now that we both fell inlove to our
enemies, then she's fucking wrong.
I chuckled and flashed her my sweetest smile.
"Oh, I am. I love Loki with all my heart."
"You now understand what I feel, Your Majesty. The reason why I did betray this
group."
Well... She's right about that. But still... We're not the same.
"Actually..." I trailed off.
I walked towards her. I touched the end of her hair and played with it. I saw
that she got affected as this was my gesture to them whenever there's something
bigger on my mind. I stared at her eyes, she wasn't wearing any colored contact
lens that's why I was able to see its true color.
Amethyst...
"I still don't understand, Lyrae." I said. "You betrayed your beloved man. You
are the reason why he almost died and now, you are actually the one that did the
brainwashing."
"I was just trying to protect him from you!" she said. Her voice was shaking.
I giggled. "Really? Can't you see, Yucca? You're not really protecting him. Mas
napasama lang sya sa ginawa mo."
"'Cause that was what you ordered me to do—"
 "Oh, shut it!" I spat. "Huwag mong isisi sa akin ang ginawa mo! You could've
fucking declined! You could've completely betrayed me just like what Alter did! She
betrayed me because of love! Pero ikaw? No. Mas pinahamak mo lang sya, Lyrae. And
that's not love."
I could see the rage in her eyes. I smirked.
Yes... That's it, Lyrae show me who you really are.
"That's not love, Yucca." I repeated. "'Cause love will make you want to
protect that person even with your life in the line. Love will make you a selfless
person. But you?" I eyed her from head to toe. "You just tried to find a way to
keep him by your side while doing your job as a member of the Red Faction at the
same time. Without thinking that it will actually harm him."
She didn't say anything. She just keeps on staring at me with anger in her
eyes. Hindi ko alam kung kanino sya mas galit. Kung sa akin ba o sa sarili nya.
'Cause she knew that what I said were right.
"I already branded you as a traitor, right?" I continued. "Sana nilubos-lubos
mo na kung ako naman ang sisisihin mo sa mga ginawa mo."
If she really loves him, then she wouldn't be afraid of me and will betrayed me
all the way for him.
Love will make anyone fearless just for the safety of their love ones.
It was almost midnight when Enkidu finally knocked on my room's door and I
immediately let him in. I've been waiting for his news for days now kaya hindi na
dapat patagalin pa. I don't fucking care if I let him inside my room in the middle
of the night.
"So?" I asked and sat down at the end of the bed, caressing Nergal as he sat on
his four paws.
"The EL Ordre's Knight is dead."
I pursed my lips, trying to take in his straightforwardness. That was quite a
news!
I am actually expecting it judging on how many bullets that pierced in his
chest and how much blood he lost before they could take him to the hospital. But
this news still shocked me to the core.

"How's... How's Alter?" I shook my head. "No. You don't

have to answer it."
I bit my lower lip. Fuck... I couldn't imagine what she's feeling right now.
She loves him so much that she even choose to betray me for him.
Fuck it...
"There's something that you must know, Your Majesty." Enkidu said and I looked
up to him.
"What?"
"Their Rook is missing."
"What?" I said with a shocked tone this time.
"They couldn't find him. Alter is their only tracker now. Pero hindi sya
makapagtrabaho ng maayos. She's mourning."
"I understand..." I said. But where is their Rook now?
"They think that he's here." Enkidu said like he just read what's on my mind.
"But he was with them when we left the manor, right? How could he be here
then?"
"I don't know... But that's what's they're suspecting, Your Majesty."
I closed my eyes tight. Everything isn't going according to my plan. I am so
sure that something bad will happen.
But fuck... I must finish what I started. Only I can do it. Only me.
I opened my eyes and looked at Enkidu again.
"You've done a great job, Enkidu."
"What are you planning?" he asked.
I looked down at the direction to where the door is. That spaces between the
door and the floor. I could see the lights from the outside that's coming inside
the room through that space.
"I'm going to talk to King Lancer." I said while still looking at the spaces.
"Now."
Nakita ko ang paggalaw ng anino na kanina pa tumatakip sa ilang bahagi ng
liwanag doon. I smirked. Fuck. She doesn't have to listen, though. Didn't she know
that King Lancer already bugged my room and he's listening to my conversation with
Enkidu now?
Poor Yucca...
I looked at Enkidu and shot him a meaningful look. Mukhang nakuha nya naman
dahil tumango sya. He walked towards the door and opened it for me.
I walked my way to King Lancer's room to talk to him. Enkidu and Nergal was
following me from behind. I knocked on his room's door before I opened it. I saw
King Lancer sitting at a one seater sofa that's inside his room while Yucca was
standing beside him. He was wearing a plain black shirt and a tight pants while his
hair looked like it wasn't comb. Pero bumagay pa rin naman sa kanya.
I walked near him and stood in front of him.
"Their Knight is dead." I said.
King Lancer stared at me first. His gray eyes looked cold before I saw his lips
formed into a smirked. He chuckled softly before it turned into a laughter.
This is the first time I saw someone who looked so happy over someone's death.
"What a great news!" he said and smiled proudly at me. "I killed him, my Queen.
Aren't you proud of me?"
He laughed again and I just keep on staring at him. He really looked so happy,
almost celebrating that he did kill the EL Ordre's Knight.
"May kinalaman ka ba sa pagkawala ng Rook nila?" I asked that made him stop
laughing.
He tilted his head as he stared at me. He looked confused. Siguro ay nagtataka
sya dahil hindi ko sya pinuri sa ginawa nya. He looked distorted for a second
before he smiled at me again.
"I have another gift for you. Come."
Tumayo sya at naglakad palabas ng kwarto nya. I was just walking beside him
while Nergal, Enkidu and Yucca were following us from behind.
King Lancer made his way to the corridor, took a turn and stopped at the only
door in this part of the hideout.
"That's..." I wasn't able to finish my sentence.
That's the gamemaster's room. Like the one at the old hideout, where he would
watch us through the glass panel while we're doing our training.
King Lancer smiled at me before he opened the door and went inside. Of course,
I followed him.
There was a mini ref inside and a one-seater sofa but other than that, the room
looked so plain without any design inside. Except that the wall on the left was
full of glass. It was dark that I almost thought it was a black glass before King
Lancer clicked on something.
Bumukas ang ilaw sa kabilang bahagi ng kwarto. My lips parted when I saw that
it was the training room from below. But what really surprised me was when I saw
the metal cage in the middle of the empty training room.
Inside the cage was a man on his knees. His hands were tied up in a chain from
the metal above the cage, unconscious with his head hung low. He was only wearing a
boxer shorts that's why I was able to see the long straight wounds on his body.
Like someone lashed him with a whip all night.
The wounds looked so fresh... Parang kanina lang nangyari ang lahat.
I looked at King Lancer. He was looking down at the training room, particularly
at the man inside the cage. His eyes were full of joy when he looked at me.
"That's my brother, my Queen." he said with a wide smile on his face. "Look at
him."
Muli syang tumingin sa baba, he looked like he's enjoying the show kahit ang
palabas lang ay ang kapatid nya na walang malay dahil sa dami ng natanggap na sugat
sa katawan.
I looked at Tracer. His body was full of wounds. I wouldn't be surprised to
know that he lost consciousness after receiving those lashes.
I gritted my teeth so hard, realizing what's about to come.
Fuck... I must execute my plan now. I shouldn't waste anytime.

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Chapter 72

King Lancer's eyes were twinkling as he looked at his

unconscious brother with a smile on his face. He looked so happy and my eyes
couldn't even believe how much he had changed from the last time that I saw him.
He was still Shielder back then. Defending his brother from the lies that we
feed on him. Nahirapan pa nga ako papaniwalain sya sa gusto kong mangyari until the
EL Ordre came to the hideout and Loki took me with him. I entrusted Yucca and
Enkidu with everything and bought time for them.
And when I came back, Shielder had already become the cold-blooded King of the
Red Faction.
What did you really do to him, Yucca?
I noticed King Lancer turned to me, still with a smile on his face.
"Want to see him closer?" he asked.
He didn't give me any chance to answer as he held me on the wrist and pulled me
with him as we walked out of the room. I was still thinking how they could come in
and out of the gamemaster's room so easily like that when it was a golden rule not
to enter the gamemaster's room back at our old hideout.
We passed the hallway and went down the stairs. Nakasunod lang sa amin sina
Yucca at Enkidu. Nergal must've feel bored that's why he choose to stay at the
living room when we passed that part of the hideout and he sleep on the carpeted
floor.
King Lancer opened the training room's door and we went inside. I immediately
noticed that metal iron smell and I wasn't sure if it's coming from the metal cage
or from Tracer's blood na natuyo na sa katawan nya.
The cage was wide enough to accommodate four people inside pero nanatili ako sa
labas. I don't want to go in. It's... scaring me.
I stared at Tracer through the spaces between the metal bars of the cage. His
head hung so low but I could still see some part of his face. He was sweating and
his breathing looked so painful. I ran my eyes throughout his entire body and
grimaced when I saw his wounds. Punong-puno ng mga latay ang katawan nya.
"How long he's been here?" I asked without taking my eyes off Tracer.
"Two days." King Lancer answered. "Pinagbigyan ko lang sya na magkita kami and
he said that he's willing to be my captive. So... I took him here."
Two days... I'm sure that he didn't let him take any food or water since then.
Mukhang hinang-hina na rin si Tracer.
King Lancer opened the cage and went inside. The metallic sound when he pulled
the door was so loud but it wasn't enough to wake Tracer up. I bet that he's really
weak and his body needs a lot of rest that any loud sounds couldn't even disturb
him.
King Lancer crouched down in front of his brother. Nakatalikod sya sa akin
dahil nakaharap ako kay Tracer. But I was able to see when he tapped his brother on
the cheek.
"Wake up." he tapped his brother's cheeks again when he remained motionless.
"Wake up!"
Hindi pa rin gumalaw man lang ang kapatid nya. King Lancer chuckled before he
looked at his side. He sighed and stood up. It surprised me when he made a drastic
move and gave Tracer a hard slap on the face.
Anyone would definitely wake up from that.
"You're not supposed to die yet. Wake up, you bastard!"
Tracer stirred on his sleep. His eyes slowly fluttered opened. He looked dazed
for a moment before he looked up and his eyes immediately landed on his brother.
"Gray..." he muttered. Even his voice sounds so hoarse and weak.
King Lancer glanced at Yucca and gave her a meaningful look. Mukhang
naintindihan kaagad iyon ni Yucca dahil kumilos sya to get the whip that was
hanging on the corner of the room. My lips parted and just watched her as she gave
the whip to King Lancer.

"Ganyan nga." King Lancer said as he straightened out the

whip. "Dapat gising ka para mas ramdam mo yung sakit."
I flinched when he whipped the floor first. It created a sound that scares me
so much. I looked at Tracer and saw him looking back at me. His eyes tell me that
he knew what was about to come but I couldn't see any fear in his eyes.
"One hundred lashes." King Lancer said before he showed a smirk.
Tracer and I was still looking at each other when King Lancer whipped him on
the back so hard that I knew it gave him another open wound. But Tracer didn't let
out any cry of pain. He was just gritting his teeth so hard that made his jaw
moved.
"One." King Lancer counted before he hit his brother's back again with a whip.
"Two."
Nakita ko ang panginginig ng katawan ni Tracer. He's in pain but he didn't want
to let his brother know that what's he's doing is actually hurting him. He's
hurting and all but he's still thinking about his brother.
He's so fucking selfless.
"Three." King Lancer said after he hit his brother again and did another one.
"Four."
Every hit that he's giving to Tracer was hard and a quick one kaya mas masakit
ang dulot noon. I looked at King Lancer and saw him enjoying what he's doing to his
brother.
"Five." he counted before he gritted his teeth. He looked so annoyed that
Tracer isn't making any sound kaya mas nilakasan nya ang paghampas ng latigo sa
likod ng kapatid nya. "Six!"
On the seventh lash, Tracer made a short groan. Nakita ko na mas lalong
nanginig ang katawan nya sa pagpipigil na dumaing pero hindi na nya nakayanan. King
Lancer whipped him again and again in a hard way.
"Ano? Masakit?" King Lancer asked when he heard his brother groaned. "You
deserve it, bastard!" he hit his brother again. "Pinabayaan mo ako!"
Tracer made another groan like he's in pain. "That's not—"
He wasn't able to finish his sentence when King Lancer hit him with a whip
again.
"Shut the fuck up!" King Lancer screamed. Galit na galit nyang hinampas nang
paulit-ulit ang kapatid nya gamit ang latigo. "All you cared about is your revenge!
Ginamit nyo lang ako! Ikaw at ng EL Ordre! You used me like a fucking pawn!"
I willed myself to look away as I cannot continue on watching them. Kitang-kita
ko ang paghihirap sa mga mata ni Tracer at ang sakit doon. Doble ang sakit dahil sa
sugat na natatanggap nya at sa dahilan na ang kapatid nya ang may gawa noon.
"I did everything, Kuya! Everything for the EL Ordre!" I heard King Lancer said
followed by a whip lash sound. "But you all treated me like a Pawn! Tapos ikaw,
pinabayaan mo ako!"
"Hindi... totoo y-yan." I heard Tracer coughed in between when he said that.
"Here in the Red Faction, they made me their King. A fucking King, Kuya! Ibang-
iba sa EL Ordre na ipinapain ako sa bawat misyon!"
"Gray..."
"I like here, Kuya." King Lancer said. "The Red Faction will win this game!"
I quickly looked back to them when I heard King Lancer's continous whipping on
his brother back. Tracer's groaned in pain to every whip that he receives. Mukhang
hindi na talaga nakakayanan ang sakit.
King Lancer was hitting his brother using all his strength. And if this goes
on, Tracer might die.
"Stop it!" I finally shouted when I couldn't take it anymore.
That made King Lancer stopped. He looked at me like he was checking if he heard
it right. At nang hindi ako magsalita ay akmang lalatiguhin nya ulit ang kapatid
nya when I shouted again.

"I said stop it, King Lancer!"

He stopped his hand mid air as he looked at me with confusion in his eyes.
"Why?" he asked. "Am I... doing it wrong, my Queen?"
I looked at Tracer who's body was trembling because of pain. He needs to get
treatment immediately or have a source of strength. He needs water. Or food even
and a first aid.
"He'll die if you won't stop." I said when I looked at King Lancer again. He
looked more confused though.
"But I want really want to kill him."
Fuck... I need to outsmart him. He's looking at me suspiciously now.
"It's better if you'll kill him slowly, right? So he'll suffer more. Hindi mo
gugustuhin na madaliin ang pagkamatay nya."
King Lancer put down his hands and shifted his weight on his other foot. He
tilted his head as he looked at me.
"Is that so?"
I nodded and smiled sweetly at him. "Yes, King Lancer. Slowly... Kill him
slowly so he will feel the pain and suffer longer. He doesn't deserve a quick death
for what he did to you."
King Lancer stared at me for a minute. He's probably weighing my words on his
mind. I knew that he wanted to whip his brother to death and I have to stop him.
And then, I saw him nodding his head.
"You're right. That would be better." he muttered.
"Give him food and water as well." I said. Mabilis akong ngumiti sa kanya nang
makita na naman ang pagdududa sa mga mata nya. "You need to feed him so he'll live,
King Lancer. Then you can hurt him again."
He nodded his head before he looked at Yucca.
"Yucca—"
"No." I cut him off before he could give her his instructions. "I'll do it."
Mabilis na napalingon sa akin si King Lancer. He really looked so suspicious
now and I let out a chuckle.
"I'm helping you here, King Lancer. In case you'll kill him with poison."
He stared at me for a second. My smirk didn't leave my face as I stared back at
him. I even crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow at him, challenging him to trust
me.
"Alright..." he finally said.
It was a good thing that he and Yucca left us after agreeing with my proposal
so I was able to move freely. I know that there's a lot of hidden camera in this
place and I should still limit my movements and words so that King Lancer wouldn't
find me suspicious.
I ordered Enkidu to get a wet towel and a food and water for Tracer. I went
inside the cage with a bottled water in my hand as I tapped him lightly on the
cheeks to wake him up.
"Drink, Tracer." I instructed him when he opened my eyes.
He must've been so thirsty as he was able to emptied the bottle down to its
last drop. It was a good idea that I ordered Enkidu to get a lots of water for him.
I took the wet towel from my Bishop and started wiping Tracer's body carefully
para hindi matamaan ang sugat nya.
"You're going to die like this." I whispered as I wiped the dried blood off his
body. "Is this what you want?"
My lips wasn't even moving when I tried to speak to him. My voice sounds
inaudible but he was able to hear what I said.
 "I don't want to die... I have kids and a wife who's waiting for me." he
admitted, speaking so quietly and weak as well. "Pero ayokong pabayaan ang kapatid
ko."
That didn't surprise me. Even before, I knew him as a person who will do
everything for the people that's important to him. I couldn't even understand how
could he be so selfish back then. But now that I also have a person that I wanted
to protect, I understand him clearly now.
"I have a plan, Tracer." sabi kong halos wala nang lumabas na boses sa bibig
ko.
Tracer looked at me. His eyes were unfocused because of the pain that he's
feeling from his wounds. His gray eyes looked so much like his brother.
"Can you still withstand another batch of whiplash from your brother?" I asked.
"What are you planning?" he asked.
I put my head closer to his ears as I pretended to wipe his back.
"I need time for this plan, Tracer. It wouldn't be easy. So try to endure the
whiplash from your brother. And after that..." I trailed off.
Lumayo ako sa kanya. I took the food I was gonna feed him before I smiled at
him.
"I'll do my best to keep you alive."

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Chapter 73

It was a good thing that I was able to convince King Lancer

to let Tracer regain his strength before he torture his brother again. I reasoned
out that since Tracer's body was full of whiplash, he must be feeling numb now
because of pain. And he wouldn't able to feel it if he whipped him again.
I was feeding him again as his hands were still tied up on a chain from the
metal bar above and was still kneeling on the floor. I am sure that both of his
arms and knees couldn't feel anything as he was in that state for almost a week
now. King Lancer refused to unchain him even for a second.
I ran my eyes through Tracer's body. Punong-puno ng mahahabang sugat ang buong
katawan nya. Mas marami ang sa likod pero marami din ang sa harap. His ripped body
looked so hideous now with that long and open wounds. I bet that some of it will
leave a scar on his body.
"Tracer." I softly called him and his eyes were the only ones that moved when
he looked at me.
It looked like he's having a hard time moving his body. Any slight movement
will hurt him.
Fuck... While his strength is slowly coming back, the more he will be in pain.
"Tell me what happened between you and Gray." I said, lips almost not moving
when I speak.
"What do you mean?" mahinang tanong nya pagkalunok ng pagkain.
"Something must've happened as to why he really believes that you abandoned
him." I answered. "I thought that we'll be having a hard time convincing him with
that idea given the fact that he's smart. His hacking skills could surpassed all of
the trackers in this game. That's why it's quite a shock that he believed that idea
so easily."
He just stared at me and didn't say anything. I stared back at him and waited
for his answer but he shook his head.
"I won't tell you."
I rolled my eyes at him. "I need to know so I could move on with my plan."
He smirked at me but with his pale face and body that is full of wounds, he
didn't really intimidate me.
"I don't trust you." he said, straightforwardly.
I pursed my lips. I can't blame him though. In the first place, I am the Red
Faction's Queen. Plus the fact that it was me who made the plan of taking his
brother and brainwashed him into thinking that the EL Ordre is the enemy.
I chuckled and made him drink a water. Nung una ay umayaw pa sya at inilayo ang
ulo nya when I put the mouth of the bottled water near his lips. Pero sa huli ay
uminom din naman. He probably realized that he needs to drink water to get his
strength back.
"Unfortunately, Tracer..." I said. "You have no choice. You can't really do
anything with that weak body plus being chained in this cage."
I know that I should sweet talk him into trusting me but fuck it. I am not like
that. He doesn't have much choice anyway.
"Choose, Tracer. Die here and you won't be able to see your wife and kids
again..." I smirked at him. "Or you will tell me everything I need to know."
He gritted his teeth that made his jaw moved. I stopped myself from chuckling
'cause I really don't want to mock his situation right now. I understand him. He
hates me but he doesn't have any choice.
In the end, he sighed and stared at my eyes.
"The night when our parents died..." he started. "I wasn't in our house. I was
at some fucking business party representating my Dad."
He was speaking so quietly that his lips weren't even moving. Good thing that
we both had a proper training for things like this.
Of course. Especially the EL Ordre that was a fucking dog of the government.
They're like secret agents doing works for them that the police couldn't do. Mostly
were illegal to fight illegal deeds too.

"When I came home, I saw my parents bathing in their own

blood." he continued even if he was having a hard time telling his past to me.
Now, I know why he was so against it earlier. His reason is personal.
"And I found Gray hiding inside the closet. Gripping his teddy bear like it was
a fucking lifeline." he closed his eyes. "He looked so scared... Narinig nya ang
lahat ng nangyari sa gabing iyon. I couldn't imagine how scared he felt when he
heard the gunshots that killed our parents."
He opened his gray eyes that were full of hurt as he tells me his story. I
didn't look away and listened quietly.
"He must've felt so alone that time. Pakiramdam nya ay nag-iisa sya. He must've
felt that I abandoned him and left him all alone."
I'm... not good with comforting words. I wasn't even used of the fact that
someone is opening up to me... Again.
And what's more surprising is that... It was Tracer.
"That's why I did everything to find the one who did that to our parents. To
give justice to them. At para na rin sa kapatid ko." he gave me a sad smile. "But I
must've really abandoned him as I got busy chasing my goddess. My goddess that gave
me strength."
"Artemis?" I asked and he nodded.
"Iyon din ang mga panahon na palaging nasa frontline si Gray in every mission."
he continued. "He really did become the shield of the EL Ordre."
I sighed. I now understand. That one traumatic night that happened to them gave
King Lancer the idea that his brother really abandoned him. Plus the fact that
Tracer got busy finding justice for their parents' death while chasing Artemis at
the same time.
Pero wala syang sinabi at hinayaan nya lang ang kapatid nya. He knew that it
will make Tracer happy. Artemis will make his brother happy. But deep inside him,
he must've felt alone.
Pinaniwalaan din nyang ginawa lang syang pain ng EL Ordre. As he was their
shield that could protect his team. With his inventions and all.
I looked at Tracer who looked like he was regretting every decision that he
made back then. He knew that Gray really felt that way deep inside him. Kaya nga
mas madali nyang pinaniwalaan ang mga ideyang ipinapasok namin sa isip nya. Tracer
must've felt that he doesn't deserve everything he has now.
"Tracer..." I called him and he looked at me. "Hang in there... Please, hang in
there."
The look that he's giving me was telling me that I should not give him any
hope. But I will. 'Cause he deserves it. He must hope and must never give up.
I gave him an encouraging smile.
"I'll bring you back to your family... I promise."
It was almost midnight when I decided to talk to King Lancer. I locked myself
inside my room to think about my plan after I treated Tracer and feed him. I walked
my way to King Lancer's room and was surprised when I saw Yucca inside.
What the fuck? It's almost midnight now!
King Lancer chuckled at my reaction. He looked at Yucca and with just a look in
his eyes, he dismissed her that she quickly obeyed.
My God! She was so... desperate.
"What is it, my Queen?" King Lancer asked when Yucca left. I just rolled my
eyes and sat across the sofa where he was sitting.
"Tell me about your plan." I said, straightforwardly.
He smirked at my boldness. He stared at me, his elbow were leaning on the
armrest habang nakapangalumbaba sya. I was kinda worried that he might not answer
me but he actually did.

"I wanted to ruin the EL Ordre." he said. "With that bitch

sister of yours, I'm sure Kuya Lucius is so mad at her now. Also their Knight being
dead, ang Rook na wala silang ideya kung nasaan. And also..." he smirked at me.
"With the King's Bishop who's wounded... Malapit na."
He's so fucking smart even with a brainwashed mind.
"Kapag mahina na sila..." he continued. "Saka tayo susugod."
"And when is that, though?"
He smiled at me. "I'm just waiting for something to happen. That will be my
signal."
He said those words with finality. Giving me the hint that I shouldn't ask more
than that. So I chose to change the topic.
"How about Tracer?" I asked. "Are you really planning to whip him to death?"
He smirked at me. "Yes, my Queen. Torture him first and then kill him."
I looked at him in the eye. Kung mata lang ang papansinin ay magkapareho talaga
sila ng sa kapatid nya. I almost feel like I was also looking at Tracer, but this
time, coldness and evilness were in those gray orbs.
"What about... his family?" I asked. The words carefully leaving my mouth. "Ang
mga pamangkin mo?"
"I don't fucking care about them."
"They have twins."
Natigilan sya sa sinabi kong iyon. Tracer already said this to him back then at
the second Von Amstel manor but he probably thought that his brother was lying to
him. And now that it's me who's telling this, naniwala na sya.
I saw uncertainty in his eyes and I took that opportunity.
"They're still a baby. Mawawalan sila ng ama."
He looked at me. Punong-puno ng kalituhan ang mukha nya. That made me realized
that Shielder has a soft spot for babies.
So opposite of me who like to use kids just for my plan.
"Am I... Am I doing things wrong?" he asked. Litong-lito sya at malikot ang
galaw ng mga mata.
"Don't you think that the gamemasters are the real enemies, King Lancer?"
Right after I popped that question, his face turned blank. I badly wanted to
curse at myself when I realized what I have done.
I don't fucking have an idea if this will work!
"I will let you handle the gamemaster, my Queen." he said with a cold tone.
"Leave the EL Ordre to me."
 "They wanted to kill the gamemasters too, King Lancer." I said.
"What are you trying to say, then?"
I looked at him in the eye. "Why don't we join force with the EL Ordre and kill
the gamemasters?"
He stared at me, coldness was in his eyes. He clenched his jaw and he looked so
mad with the idea that I just offered him. I am so fucking sure that he will reject
it, given the fact that he hates his old team so much.
He smirked before I heard him chuckled. It sounds so evil but I willed myself
not to be scared.
He just became the King because of me. I am still the Red Faction's Queen.
"I knew it..." he said. "Something changed within you. You got brainwashed by
them."
I almost fucking laugh with that ridiculous idea. Especially the fact that he's
the brainwashed one.
"Do you really think that they would be able to do that?" I asked. Almost
chuckling. "Me? The Mad Queen? Are you fucking serious?"
"Yes!" I got surprised when he shouted and even stood up. He was looking at me
with anger in his eyes. "Yes! 'Cause you fucking fell inlove with Fourth!"
I rolled my eyes. Fuck you to hell, Yucca! I will fucking punch her so hard in
the face and cut her fucking tongue the next time I'll see her!
Fuck! Anyway... There's no denying it 'cause it's the truth.
"And so?" I asked and stood up dahil ayokong nakatingala ako sa kanya.
He should be the one who should bow down!
"I fucking fell inlove him with! Tama ka! But I am still in my right mind!"
His face softened all of the sudden that caught me off guard. His shoulder
sagged and he looked helplessly at me.
"What should I do, then, my Queen?" he asked and slowly walked towards me.
"I... Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko."
He held me on my shoulders and looked at me in the eye. I got so confused as I
didn't know what he's doing.
"Ang sabi nila... Tama daw ang ginagawa ko." he said.
Nila? Sinong sila?
"Pero ang sabi mo naman ay mali... Hindi ko na alam kung anong papaniwalaan
ko."
His tone... His tone changed after he said that. He sounds so confused. It
reminds me when he was still Shielder. He also said the same thing back then.
"King Lancer..." I muttered as I stared at him looking at me with a begging
eyes.
"Please... Huwag mo akong iiwan." humigpit pa ang hawak nya sa balikat ko.
"Don't leave me, my Queen."
That triggered the memory that I wanted to forget. It reminded me of Loki while
he's on his knees in front of me, begging me not to leave him.
Fuck... That look he gave me back then, I will never forget it and everytime I
will remember it, it will always give pain in my heart.
"Don't me leave me, my Queen." King Lancer said, almost hugging me. "Don't. I
really don't know what to do."
"I won't leave you..." I said. I wonder what should've happened when I said
those words to Loki back then.
Will we have our happy life that I crave so much?
King Lancer looked so happy when I said that. It made me think if Loki will
this be this happy if I said those words instead of leaving him.
"Promise?" King Lancer asked. Looking at him now who looked so hopeful as he
stared at me, I realized something.
We're both the same. I can see myself in him. Doing unforgivable things but was
actually feel broken and alone inside.
I nodded at him.
"I promise."
His face lit up before he enveloped me in a warm hugged. That just made me feel
more empty inside, wishing that it was Loki who's hugging me.
 I missed him so much...
"Halika, may ipapakilala ako sayo." sabi ni King Lancer pagkabitaw nya sa akin.
I was about to asked him who when he pulled me in the wrist again and dragged
me with him. Lumabas kami ng kwarto nya at bumaba. The hideout was too big and I
realized that I haven't even tour around this hideout. Kaya naman nagulat ako nang
lumiko si King Lancer sa hallway na hindi ko alam na nag-eexist pala.
We stopped on front of the door. King Lancer looked so excited while I looked
confused.
Sino ba ang ipakikilala nya?
He knocked on the door before he turned the doorknob. He glanced at me first
and showed me his meaningful smirk.
"Ready?" he dared to ask. I don't fucking even know who was on the other side
of the door!
"Who is it, King Lancer?!" tanong kong inis na.
He must've noticed my irritation and that made him chuckled. He finally opened
the door and smirked at me.
"I want you to meet the gamemaster."

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Chapter 74

I wasn't able to compose myself from the shock when King

Lancer turned the doorknob and opened the door that made me feel so anxious. My
heart hammered from my chest and it was starting to beat so fast.
Gamemaster? Did he really say the gamemaster? The one that I so wanted to kill?
But... how? I mean... How was he able to know the gamemaster? Back in our old
hideout, it was forbidden to get near inside the gamemaster's room but now, he's
telling me that he'll introduce me to him?
The door creaked open and King Lancer went inside before turning to me. He
encouraged me to go inside but I couldn't find the strength to move my feet.
What the fuck... I've waited for this moment for so long. I wanted to meet the
one behind this stupid human chess game and I don't really need this fucking
feelings right now!
"My Queen?" King Lancer called my attention that I flinched as I remember
someone who's calling me in that way as an endearment. And remembering him gives me
strength that I was finally able to move my feet and went inside.
But I stopped after a few steps inside. I saw a very familiar face inside the
room. She was facing the door so I was able to recognized her easily.
It was Yucca.
She was standing in front of the monitors with a view in every part of this
hideout. I almost laughed thinking that she always watched my every move inside
this room.
Her head turned when she heard the opening of the door. She was looking at King
Lancer in a gentle way before her eyes turned at his back where I was. Napalitan ng
pagkagulat ang reaksiyon sa mukha nya.
"King Lancer!" she exclaimed and pointed at me. "What is she doing here?! Get
her out of—"
"Leave her be, Lyrae."
I heard another voice inside the room. It sounds so deep and harsh that the
room vibrated with his words. His voice sounds so domineering that my body
stiffened.
Fuck... Who the fucking hell?
That's when I only noticed the high back single sofa that was inside the room.
Nakatalikod iyon sa akin kaya hindi ko makita kung sino ang nakaupo with its high
backrest. But I saw his arms that was on the armrest.
"Come, my Queen." King Lancer urged me to went further inside.
 Mas dumoble pa ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. But I gathered my courage and
walked till we reached the middle. My eyes not leaving the back of the sofa and
just keep staring on it.
The man behind the sofa let out a chuckle. I felt a goosebumps all over my body
even with just a chuckle from him. I held my breath when the man stood up. He was
wearing a three piece white suit and a white beaver hat is on his head. He was
tall. His back was facing me but I could easily tell that he has a well-defined
body.
He turned around and I let out a gasped when he finally faced my way. He was
wearing a plain white mask that made him looked so creepy.
"This is the gamemaster, my Queen." I heard King Lancer said but my eyes
remained on the man with a mask. "Sir, this is Ereshkigal Levitsky, the Queen of
the Red Faction."
I don't know how but I could tell that the man smiled behind his mask. A smile
that I bet I wouldn't wanted to see.
Fuck... Who the fuck is this man?
"It is nice to finally meet you, Queen Ereshkigal." he said and offered me his
hand for a handshake. That's the only time I realized that he's also wearing a
white gloves.
He was concealing his identity.
I took his hand and accepted his handshake. His grip on my hand was so firm and
hard.

"So you're the gamemaster?" I asked when I took my hand

away from him. I crossed my arms over my chest, my gesture to hide what I really
feel and to intimidate him.
"Indeed." he answered.
"Why are you showing yourself now, all of a sudden?"
"What do you think?"
Nainis ako nang sagutin nya nang isa pang tanong ang tanong ko. I really
fucking hate it. I mean, can't he just answer the question instead of throwing
another one?
He chuckled again when he saw the irritation in my eyes. He put his hands
inside the pocket of his pants and tilted his head as he looked at me.
"The Mad Queen..." he said. "I've heard so much about you and I know that you
are smart. Itatanong mo pa lang, alam mo na ang sagot."
He's right. I already know the answer to my question.
He's here in front of me... 'Cause we're now at the endgame.
Judging by how King Lancer went inside the room without having a second
thoughts, and Yucca who looked so comfortable even with the gamemaster's presence,
I realized that they must've known him for so long.
But when? Was it the time when I was at with EL Ordre?
It was Yucca and the gamemaster that King Lancer was talking about earlier.
Nung sinabi nyang may nagsasabi sa kanya na tama ang ginagawa nya. It was them.
I know why now. How Yucca was able to brainwash King Lancer so perfectly. She
got help from the gamemaster. They hid this from Enkidu as well 'cause they knew
that his loyalty is mine.
Fuck. I feel like... I was betrayed.
"How about the EL Ordre's gamemaster? Did he also show himself to them?" I
asked.
I heard the gamemaster and King Lancer chuckled at my question that confused me
so much. I looked at Yucca and saw her mocking smile at me. She looked so happy
that she knew something that I don't. They are definitely hiding something.
Everything isn't going well according to what I'm planning. With the gamemaster
here, my plan will be so impossible to succeed. Everything is so dangerous for me.
I shouldn't have came back. I was caught in their trap.
"Did you ever think of the possibility that the EL Ordre and the Red Faction
being as a one group before?" the gamemaster asked.
I stared at him, thinking of what he meant with that question. I mean, it
wasn't possible. Seeing how the EL Ordre and the Red Faction wanting to kill each
of their members while fighting to win this game.
But the more I think deeply of it, the more I realize something. An idea popped
in my mind.
No. That's... impossible.
I heard the doorbell rang and their eyes immediately flew to the monitor where
the view of the front gate is showing. Napatingin din tuloy ako doon at kumabog
nang malakas ang dibdib ko nang makita kung sino ang nagpatunog ng doorbell.
It was Alter.
"What... is she doing here?" I asked, still watching the CCTV footage. Binuksan
ang gate ng isa sa mga hired goons at pinapasok si Alter.
"She's the sign that I am waiting for."
Napatingin ako kay King Lancer dahil sa sinabi nya. He walked towards the door
and opened it. He looked at me and gave me a smirk before he closed the door as he
went outside.
And then it hit me.
"No!" I shouted but it was already too late. Nakalabas na si King Lancer sa
kwarto.

Fuck! They will use Alter against me!

I was about to follow King Lancer pero humarang sa daraanan ko si Yucca. I
glared at her, wanting to wring her fucking neck till she dies.
Fuck this bitch! She's the one who told them about how I felt for Alter! That I
saw her as my own little sister!
"Stay out of my fucking way, bitch." I said with a gritted teeth.
"You have to go through me first." she said that made me chuckle.
"Do you really think that you stood a chance against me?"
Hindi sya sumagot at basta na lang ako sinugod. She had her training as well
but I knew that she's no match against me.
I saw a slight opening with her stance and I fucking go with it. I ducked when
she threw a punch on my face and gave her a counterattack on her gut. I punched her
stomach and when she lose her stance, I grabbed her wrist and kneed her on the gut
before grabbing her hair and kneed her face.
"Fuck! You and your fucking tongue!"
She tried to kicked me on my knees kaya binitiwan ko sya. I saw her nose is
bleeding pero nakulangan pa ako sa ginawa ko sa kanya.
I wanna fucking cut her tongue!
"Your Majesty!"
Nagulat ako nang bumukas ang pinto at pumasok doon si Enkidu. Nagulat din sya
sa inabutang tagpo sa loob ng kwartong 'yon but being the Bishop who wanted to
protect his Queen, he still pointed a gun in the direction of the gamemaster.
'Cause he was the most suspicious one in here.
"No!" I shouted and ran the distance towards him.
Fuck! I'll be the one to kill him!
"Enkidu, si Alter!" I said. Now that he's here and with a gun, hindi na
makakalaban ang dalawang nasa loob.
But I won't let him touch them. Ako mismo ang tatapos sa kanila.
So I pulled him out of the room and ran our way towards the gate para mapigilan
si Alter sa pagpasok sa hideout. 'Cause the moment that she will, it'll be the end
of me.
But we're already too late. Bago pa kami makalagpas sa living room ay nakita ko
ang pagpasok ni Alter mula sa pinto. Kasunod nya si King Lancer na nasa likuran
nya.
"Ate Eresh..." Alter muttered and she looked so surprised. But my gaze went to
the man behind him who pointed a gun at her head.
 "One wrong move and I will kill her." King Lancer warned.
I was so mad. Fuck... This isn't what I planned! Everything looked so hopeless
now. With Alter here who they can use as my weakness, Tracer who I promised that I
will take him back to his family and King Lancer that I was planning to make him go
back to the way he was before... I feel like there is no hope for me now.
But still... I have to fight. I wanna see Loki again.
I smirked at King Lancer who was still pointing a gun behind Alter's head. Si
Alter naman ay hindi gumagalaw at nakatingin lang sa akin. She knew that King
Lancer is pointing a gun at her.
"Kill her, then." I said with a smirk on my lips. "Kill her. I don't really
give a damn."
King Lancer showed me his evil smirk as he was slowly pulling the trigger,
waiting for me to take my words back. Pero sa oras na ginawa ko iyon, malalaman
nila ang kahinaan ko, kung gaano sya kaimportante sa akin. And they will use Alter
until they can make me follow them.
With things being like this, I have no choice but to put my trust to my Bishop,
Enkidu.
Hindi nya naman ako binigo. Before King Lancer could pull the trigger, he
pointed the gun at him and tried to shoot King Lancer's gun out of his gun. Pero
mabilis si King Lancer at nakailag. I immediately held Alter on her wrist and
pulled her away from him.
Enkidu tried to fight with King Lancer. But I forgot he still have a wound on
his leg where I shot him before. He's at disadvantage but he still tried to put a
fight against the King.
And it was a fucking unperfect timing that the hired goons showed up. Kasunod
si Yucca na may hawak na ring baril ngayon.
Two skilled fighters plus a lot of goons against three fighters but one is
injured and one isn't skilled at fighting but also the weakness of the last one, we
are at fucking disadvantage.
"Enkidu, stopped." I ordered him. I don't want him to hurt himself further
more.
Mabilis nya akong sinunod at pumunta sa kung nasaan kami. He tried to hide
Alter and I behind his back like protecting us and he was the one who's facing
Yucca and King Lancer. Pero napapaligiran na rin kami ng mga goons.
Fuck... Fuck this shit! We will gonna lose this fight!
Looks like King Lancer understood what I was thinking. He chuckled and tried to
look at me through Enkidu's shoulders.
"What now, my Queen? What are you planning to do?"
I gritted my teeth and just glared at him. It will not be a good idea to talk
back to him.
I saw him smirked.
"I won't kill you, my Queen. Pero 'yang dalawang kasama mo, I'll kill them
both."
Fuck... My plan backfired.
"I'll reconsider not killing them, though." King Lancer chuckled. "All you have
to do is to bow down."
Nakita ko ang pag-angat ng kamay ni Enkidu pero pinigilan ko sya. We should
just let him say anything that he wanted.
Damn it! I must think of another plan where I could save Alter and Tracer!
King Lancer flashed me his evil smile.
"Bow down, my Queen. Kneel before your King."

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Chapter 75

Happiest birthday to Allyssa Marie Pandiño Romero! Enjoy

your day!
----
I underestimated him. I thought that because he is young, I could wrapped him
around my fingers and made him follow all my orders. 'Cause that's what youngsters
are. They tend to believe everything that the older people are telling them.
I was planning on using him against the EL Ordre so I could win this game. He
was supposed to be my weapon and shield against them. That was what my plan should
be.
But then I forgot something. The most critical information that I overlooked.
I forgot that a younger person can be the strongest once they've developed
their mind. And those ideas that the older people feed in them will be their weapon
against everything.
Just like me. Fuck... I was the best example and yet, I forgot.
I used the hurtful words from my father as my foundation to win this game. To
not be weak. To not let anyone look down on me. To prove myself to everyone.
King Lancer is stronger now than his young self. And he's using the ideas we
shove in his mind as his strength.
Young people can be the strongest.
It was a good thing that he let us go without me kneeling down in front of him.
He just warned us that we will be under his watch.
Enkidu, Alter and I were in the greenhouse, the only place in this hideout
where there are no hidden cameras and microphone transmitters that's why we can
talk freely in here. I was standing in front of Alter who's sitting on the bench.
Nakayuko sya habang pinaglalaruan ang mga daliri nya sa kamay. Sa isang banda naman
ay nandoon si Nergal and Enkidu is petting him.
"What the hell are you doing here, Alter?" I asked. My hands were on my waist.
"This isn't your hideout where you could go in and out since the moment you
betrayed me!"
Hindi sya nagsalita at nanatiling nakayuko lang, still playing with her
fingers. It actually pissed me off 'cause it feels like she wasn't listening to
what I'm saying.
"Pinahamak mo lang ang sarili mo!" inis kong sabi. "Are you being suicidal
because of what happened to your man?!"
That's when she finally looked up at me. Her eyes were telling me that she's
guilty for what she did but not feeling sorry anyway.
"He said that he was gonna to kill you!" she spat. "Can you blame me if I just
wanted to save you?!"
I stilled and just remained staring at her. I didn't expect it to be her reason
to go here which she knew that it can be dangerous for her just to save me.
Fuck... She's still the same Codee from before.
"You fell for a stupid trap just like that?" I asked. Trying to ignore the
emotion of happiness because of her reason.
I thought... that she stopped caring for me ever since the day when she
betrayed me.
Alter was frowning. She's obviously didn't please because of my question. At
anong inaakala nya? Na pupurihin ko sya? She's now in danger because of this! She
even told me na hindi alam ito ng EL Ordre! Na tumakas lang sya!

"The fuck? You are smart, Alter! You are a fucking hacker
yet you fell for that stupid trap?!"
She lowered her head and continued playing with her fingers. Hindi ko na
nakikita ang mukha nya but it surprised me when I saw something dropped down to her
hands.
"Are you crying?" I asked and I heard her sniffed that confirmed my question.
"I panicked..." she said with a soft voice. "Ayokong matulad ka kay L, Ate..."
Natigilan ulit ako dahil doon. She was crying. Her shoulders was shaking and
tears continue to fell from her eyes down to her hands. Hindi na sya nag-angat ng
tingin sa akin at nanatiling nakayuko na lang.
"King Lancer told me not to let anyone know and he will kill you if I did. That
I am the only one who can save you." she sniffed. "I panicked that I wasn't able to
think clearly..."
I sighed and sat down beside her. I looked at her. Her curly hair was covering
her face kaya kahit na nakaupo ay hindi ko pa rin nakikita ang mukha nya.
Her mind is in chaos right now because of what happened to her man. Kaya hindi
na sya nakapag-isip ng maayos and just panicked instead.
"Why did you betray me, Codee?" I asked softly. Heart were clenching because of
pain the moment I asked that question.
Nakita ko ang pag-iling nya.
"I didn't, Ate Eresh. I was trying to save us both."
"Save us? You wanted to save me by betraying me?"
She looked at me. Her eyes brimmed with tears.
"Pakiramdam ko, pareho tayong nagkakasiraan kapag magkasama tayo, Ate. I was
following your orders, not knowing that it was breaking you inside. Sa bawat utos
mong sinusunod ko, mas lalo ka lang nasisira."
And in every orders that she followed, she's slowly becoming like me as well.
"That's why I left, Ate."
I didn't say anything as I understand her fully. In every orders the she
followed, I was slowly becoming a monster. I am getting further and further away
from being a human.
She was right when she said that she's slowly becoming inhuman whenever she
follows my orders.
What's more, she didn't completely betrayed me as she hid my plan to the EL
Ordre. Alam nyang mas hindi magiging maganda ang mangyayari kung sinabi nya ang
lahat.
I will probably... lose my mind. And Loki and I wouldn't happen.
"How is he?" I asked after awhile. "Your man? How's L?"
I saw her eyes turned sad even more because of my question.
"Hindi pa rin sya nagigising, Ate."
I noticed Enkidu looking at me and I just glanced at him for a second. I won't
deny that what he did is the smartest. Even if I didn't tell him about my plan, he
still know what to do. Like it's his nature as my Bishop.
I was thinking of a way to turn King Lancer back to the way he was before. I
was trying to trigger his emotions being Shielder or the caring little brother. And
Enkidu took L's condition as an opportunity.
He purposely said that he's dead knowing that there were many bug inside my
room and King Lancer could hear us. Enkidu got a hunch of my plan and he's helping
me in his own way.
That move was really smart of him.
"The doctor said that he's passed the critical condition. Pero iba pa rin kapag
magising sya."

"He'll be okay, Codee. He should be."

Fuck. He's the reason why Alter choose the EL Ordre so he must fucking wake up!
Kung hindi ay ako talaga ang gigising sa kanya!
"Listen, Codee... King Lancer thought that L is dead. That's what we've told
him."
I explained to her why we did that. I even told her about my failed plan. She
nodded like she understood everything.
"Nawawala din si Tracer, Ate." she said.
"He's here. I am actually planning to get him out of here." I glared at her
when I remembered something. "But it will be so much impossible now that you're
here!"
Fuck! Now, there are two person that I need to save!
"I am so sorry if I just wanted to save you." she said, full of sarcasm.
 "Sana inisip mo man lang na hindi ako matatalo ng ganoon lang!"
"E'di sorry na!"
Nergal growled. My pet was probably pissed off dahil sa sigawan namin ni Codee
at naistorbo pa namin ang pagtulog nya. Enkidu chuckled.
"Bumalik kayo sa simula ng pinag-uusapan nyo kanina." he said like it was a
funny thing.
Alter and I glared at him but my Bishop just smirked at us. Umiling sya habang
nangingiti at nagpatuloy sa pagpapatulog kay Nergal.
I looked back at Codee.
"We'll get out of here. But I need your help."
She looked surprise for a moment. Her lips parted as she stared at me. I got
confused if I said something surprising but I can't remember anything for her to
act like that. Then she smiled at me. It was such a warm and gentle smile and I
could even see in her eyes like she's proud of me.
"You've changed so much, Ate Eresh... You are asking for a help now."
I rolled my eyes at her. "'Cause someone ruined my plan."
Now that Codee is here, my main priority is to get her and Tracer out of here
before making a plan on how to return King Lancer back to Shielder. Hindi ko
hahayaan na gamitin nila si Codee laban sa akin.
She just chuckled at my sarcasm but smiled at me again. "You are opening to the
world, Ate. Handa ka nang magpapasok ng mga tao sa buhay mo."
I remained silent, not knowing what to say. She's right... I think this is the
first time that I admit and asked for anyone's help nang hindi sila inuutusan.
"I think it's because of Fourth." Alter said. "At first I thought that he was
just using you. But seeing this so much change in you, Ate... He let out the best
in you."
"I didn't change, Codee... This is the real me that I was trying to hide."
"He's looking for you, Ate. Araw-araw nya akong kinukulit na hanapin ka."
But Codee can't. With King Lancer setting up the security and firewall around
this hideout. Hindi madaling mahahanap ni Codee kung nasaan kami.
I didn't expect him to look for me. I hurt him so bad. He knelt and beg for me
not to leave him. But I still did. I still did despite the promise I made that I'll
stay with him forever.
Fuck... I'm so sorry, my King.
"Help me, Codee." I said and I knew that she could see the desperation in my
eyes. "I want to see him again."
Napatitig sa akin si Codee bago ngumiti at tumango.
"I want to see L, too." she said. "We have to contact EL Ordre and ask for
their help, Ate. Kailangan nating makalabas dito."
I nodded. But we have to save Tracer first. I know that his body wouldn't be
able to take another batch of whiplash from his brother again.
I noticed Codee looked at Enkidu.
"I need certain things for this. Can you help me, Enkidu?"
Napatingin din ako sa Bishop ko. Nergal was already asleep so Enkidu stood and
stared back at me.
"I'm willing to do everything for the Queen. My loyalty is with her."
I gave him a small smile to let him know that I am grateful to him. His lips
parted like he was shocked that I flashed him such a smile. Mabilis din naman syang
nakabawi at ngumiti sa akin pabalik.
Codee, Enkidu, Nergal and I... There's only four of us in this plan against so
many people that were in this hideout.
It's weird but... Why does it feels like I am stronger than before now that I
have people whom I can put my trust to?
I really hope that we can get out of here. I wanna see Loki again.
I wanna see my King again. The only King in my life.

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Chapter 76

The greenhouse serves as our safehaven after what happened

last night. We spent the day in here and Enkidu was the one who brought our
breakfast and lunch for us. It's a good thing the King Lancer was not planning to
starve us to death.
Codee is busy with her laptop again while I was busy feeding Nergal and Enkidu
was on guard for us. It was also him who looked for a laptop that Codee could use
to contact the EL Ordre.
Using a laptop is really dangerous. I remember when I was at the EL Ordre's
hideout and I contacted Enkidu and Yucca to get an update about King Lancer, L was
notified by the signal. And I'm sure that King Lancer, being a professional hacker,
will be notified by the radio waves as well.
"I will send them an SOS message, Ate." Codee said. "Hindi ko na lang sila
kakausapin kasi mas delikado." she looked at me. "Kailan natin planong umalis
dito?"
"Tonight." I said.
King Lancer said that Codee was the sign that he's been waiting for. He lured
Codee in here para wala nang tracker ang EL Ordre and they wouldn't get notified if
ever they plan to attack their hideout. Walang magiging mata ang EL Ordre ngayon.
So we must escape in here bago pa mahuli ang lahat.
"But they have a security in the hideout." Codee said when I explained to her
why we need to move fast.
"Don't underestimate King Lancer. He's the one who's been in charge for the
security of EL Ordre before. Plus he's a hacker. Madali lang sa kanyang gibain ang
security nila."
Codee nodded like she understands my reason.
"We must escape to lessen the damage." I continued. "We should'nt engage them
in a fight. Especially now that the EL Ordre isn't on full strength."
"What about Gray, Ate?"
I looked at Codee. She's asking about my plan on how I will bring King Lancer
back to being Gray now that we're planning to escape.
"Just leave it to me."
King Lancer invited me over the dinner. Pinagbawalan nyang kumuha ng pagkain si
Enkidu para sa amin if I wouldn't join him for dinner. It's okay if I'm the only
one who will starve for the night. I know that Enkidu could take not having
anything for dinner but I have Codee and Nergal to worry about. And Codee was still
afraid at my pet saying na baka sya daw ang gawing hapunan if Nergal got hungry.
I have no choice but to accept King Lancer's invitation.
I asked Enkidu to guard Codee at the greenhouse when he insisted staying with
me. Wala naman syang ibang gagawin kundi ang tumayo doon just like Yucca as we
watching King Lancer and I while eat our food. So it's better for him to eat with
Codee and Nergal at the greenhouse.
Plus, I'm afraid that Codee is freaking out now that she's alone with Nergal.
"How are you, my Queen?" King Lancer asked after a while of eating in silence.
I gulped the food in my mouth and sipped on my wine. I did it so elegantly like
nobody was waiting for my answer to their question. King Lancer waited patiently
for me though. I smiled at him sweetly.
"Still can't get over the fact that you ordered me to kneel in front of you."
He chuckled at my sarcasm. "I was just kidding. Of course... I wouldn't want my
Queen to kneel in front of anyone even to me, would I?"
I flashed him my sweetest smile to let him know that I agree with him. I cut
the meat with the knife, still with a smile on my face.
"That's good." I picked up the small piece of meat with my fork and pointed him
using the fork with meat on it. "Remember that you're in that seat because of me."
 His smile faded on his face that made me chuckle before I
finally put the meat on the fork inside my mouth and chewed on it. I gulped it down
and smiled at him again.
"You wouldn't become the King of the Red Faction if it weren't for me.  Be
grateful to your Queen, King Lancer."
I feel like I just won the jackpot when I saw him clenching his jaw. Fuck...
I'm so good at this game.
He sighed and leaned his back on his chair. His arms were resting on the
armrest.
"Sigurado ka bang ikaw talaga ang Queen ng Red Faction?" he asked.
I raised an eyebrow at him and continued eating, unbothered by his question.
Why is he suddenly asking the obvious, though?
"Of course. I am the Queen of the Red Faction."
He smirked at me. "It runs in the blood, I guess."
I frowned at him. Not sure where this is heading out.
"What in the fucking hell are you trying to say?" I asked with a smile on my
face but I'm really pissed off. I don't like beating around the bush. If he's
trying to tell me something, then he should get straight to the point!
King Lancer leaned his elbows on the table. Pinagsiklop nya ang mga daliri nya
sa kamay at nagpangalumbaba doon.
"I'm just saying that if you're really the Queen of the Red Faction, then why
did you ask the EL Ordre for their help?"
I chuckled. I knew it. He's been notified by what we did earlier.
"Because the King of the Red Faction is trying to imprison me here." I
answered. "He even planned to use Alter against me."
"Because my Queen is acting so different now." he glared at me. "And she even
fell inlove with the EL Ordre's Bishop!"
Hinampas nya ang table at napatayo pa sa sobrang galit. While I was still
sitting here, calmly cutting the meat with the knife and eat it.
"Akala mo ba hindi ko alam ang plano mo?" King Lancer asked. He looked livid
now as he pointed me with a finger. Hate is in his eyes. "You're planning of
bringing me back to the way I was before! Iyong uto-uto!"
"'Cause this isn't the real you, King Lancer." I said.
I sipped on my wine and gently wiped my lips with the table napkin. I pushed
the chair that created a sound before I stood up.
King Lancer was just looking at me. Alam kong nagtataka sya sa sinabi ko
kanina. It was a good thing that he's listening to me as I am the one who talked to
him the moment he woke up from the coma.
Just like how a newly hatched egg of a duckling is. They put their trust on the
first one that they will set their eyes into.
"You are Grayson James Sanford, also know as Shielder. The Rook of EL Ordre."
"No..." he muttered.
Yucca seemed surprise by what I did. But I didn't pay her any attention and
started walking towards King Lancer.
"The little brother of Hunter Chase Sanford. And the babysitter of the women of
the EL Ordre."
I stopped walking when I was only a few meters away from him. He was looking at
me, confusion is in his eyes.
This is the only time that I can do this so I must took every opportunity that
I have. I must trigger his emotions as his mind is not him right now after being
brainwashed like that.
"You said the you didn't like being their babysitter but deep inside, you are
actually enjoying what you're doing. You like talking to their women. You like
being friends with them."
He frowned. Nagsimulang maglumikot ang mga mata nya. Like he was searching for
an answer for his unasked questions. His chest started to heaved up and down.
It's working...
"C'mon, Gray..." I said desperately. "Remember who you are. Remember the
feelings that you felt when you were with them. When you were with the EL Ordre."
 "King Lancer..." Yucca muttered. Worry was in her eyes nang makita nya kung
paano naapektuhan si King Lancer sa sinasabi ko.
"You know that what you're doing right now is so wrong." I continued. "You're
just thinking that it's right 'cause that was what they've told you."
King Lancer stared at me. His eyes were slowly showing a hint of emotions.
"Gray... You have your own mind. Don't listen to them."
"King Lancer! Don't listen to her!" sigaw ni Yucca pero nagpatuloy ako.
"You don't really want to kill your brother. He's the most important person to
you. Alam kong gusto mo na ring makita ang mga pamangkin mo."
By the mention of his nephews, I saw longing in his eyes.
He really likes kids.
I knew that there's a chance for him. Malaki ang pag-asa na maibalik sya sa
dati. All I have to do is to trigger his emotions. 'Cause Gray gave so much love
for his brother and important person to him before.
If only there's no Yucca around.
"Inuuto ka lang nya." she said with a funny accent but it still affected Gray.
Fuck... He hates that word.
"No, Gray." I shook my head. "I am trying to make you realize everything. Ano
sa tingin mo ang mararamdaman mo kapag namatay ang kapatid mo? Hindi mo kakayanin."
"No, King Lancer! That's what you really want! To kill your brother!"
Oh, this fucking bitch.
"They brainwashed you, Gray!" I said. "So you must wake up!"
"Liar!"
"Shut up!" King Lancer shouted.
I didn't expect him to hide a gun behind his back when we're only having a
dinner. He reached for it and pointed it to me. Huli na para makaiwas ako but I
still tried to avoid it but failed. I screamed in pain when the bullet grazed my
left shoulder.
My wound started to bleed. I was wearing a sleeveless blue dress kaya kitang-
kita ang pagtulo ng dugo sa braso ko. In no time, my whole left arm was painted in
red. Napahawak ako sa balikat kong may sugat.
I gritted my teeth. Ignoring the pain in my left shoulder. Kahit na daplis lang
ay malalim pa rin ang iniwang sugat doon. I was lucky that I was able to avoid the
bullet. I was so sure that King Lancer was really planning to shoot me earlier.
"M-my Queen..." King Lancer stuttered. He looked so bewildered as he stared at
my wound. "I didn't mean— I-I'm... I'm sorry—"
"Wake up, Gray." I cut him off. "Remember the good things that you did for your
brother. Remember how much you love him."
His eyes tear up. Nakikita ko ang dating sya sa mga mata nya but there was
something that's stopping him. I know that it wasn't enough. Hindi madaling ibalik
sya sa dati.
He's being violent whenever he's confused. It won't be so easy.
I took a step back. This is enough... For now.
"Wake up, Grayson James Sanford. Remember who you are."
Mabilis akong naglakad paalis sa lugar na iyon. Fuck it. Things will not be
good after this.
We must move quick. We must escape... Now.

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Chapter 77

My wound is fucking throbbing but I tried to ignore the

pain as I almost run towards the greenhouse where Codee and Enkidu is. My whole
left arm was full of blood and there's also blood stains on my blue dress but the
fuck I care. If I don't move fast, it'll be much worse than this wound.
I was already panting when I reached the greenhouse. I am so sure that I looked
so horrible right now but fuck that poise, I don't need that if I die in the end!
Codee and Enki looked so surprised when they spotted me. My Bishop immediately
approached me with a frown on his face mixed with shock and concern.
If I have enough time, I would probably stare at his face 'cause this is the
first time that I saw him showing three different emotions on his face at the same
time!
"What happened to your arm?!" he asked, looking at my arm that is full of
blood.
"Never mind this. There's no time!" I said so they will start to move their ass
but my Bishop doesn't think the same as me.
"You should get treated!"
I glared at him. "Shut up, Enkidu! We need to escape. Now!"
This is our only chance to escape. Kung patatagalin pa namin ito ay mas lalong
imposibleng makatakas pa kami. They knew about our plan and if we fail on this,
there will be no next time for us.
"Anong nangyari, Ate?" Codee asked but she started fixing her laptop, turning
it off and broke it in half. Nergal got up like he knew something is up.
"I've triggered King Lancer's emotions. He's a bit violent now. He knew about
our plan."
Enkidu helped me put on my trench coat that he readied ever since we made this
plan. Dahan-dahan nyang ipinasuot sa kaliwang kamay ko ang sleeves, careful not to
hurt me in any way but still failed in the end.
"Ouch!" I squealed when the cloth graze on my wounds.
"Sinabi ko na kasing kailangan mong magamot!" inis na sabi ni Enkidu.
"This is nothing compared to what's gonna happen now! Mas malala pa ang
mangyayari kaysa dito sa sugat ko if we won't move fast!"
Enkidu just glared at me. I was shocked! This is the first time that he gave me
this look!
"Enkidu!"
"Fine!" he said and rolled his eyes. "I'll go get the Rook."
"Sasama ako!" I said before he could make any step.
"Sasama na rin ako." it was Codee who even move to my side.
Mukhang mas lalo pang nainis sa amin si Enkidu.
"It be more dangerous!"
"Fuck it!" I finaly spat at him. "It'll be more dangerous if you'll move alone!
Especially you're injured! We need to move fast!"
"Damn it!" he cursed. "Why do I have to serve such a stubborn Queen?"
He said it like he's really, really frustrated with me. I almost laughed if we
weren't in a dangerous situation right now. He gave Codee and I guns to protect
ourselves.
We went out to the greenhouse silently. We don't want to alarm the goons this
early now that we still don't have Tracer with us. Delikado. Baka gamitin pa si
Tracer laban sa amin.
We got inside the training room successfully and I glanced up at the glass
panel. I'm sure that someone was watching us right now. If it's Yucca or the
gamemaster, I don't know. All I know is we need to take Tracer now before they
could make any move.

"Where's the key?" I asked when I saw that there's a lock

on the cage's door. Pero hindi problema iyon para kay Enkidu.
He kicked the lock a lot of times with so much force that it got broken. Tracer
woke up from the commotion that we made and looked at us with confusion in his
eyes.
"What—"
"We're getting out of here." I said before he could even ask.
I don't know what Enkidu did with the lock on the chain that binds Tracer
'cause when I looked at him, he's already helping Tracer to get on his feet.
 Tracer groaned in pain and I gasped when I saw that his two knees were swollen
so much. It was reddish. Fuck... I expected this. He's been kneeling on the floor
for a week now. I am so sure that he wouldn't be able to walk on his own with his
knees like that.
Lumapit ako sa kanila at tinulungan ko rin si Tracer na makatayo. I put his arm
over my shoulders and wrapped an arm on his waist to support his weight. I'm sure
that his whiplash wounds hurts so much but he's trying his best to ignore it.
I could see that it's painful for him everytime he walks but he still did it
para hindi kami mahirapan. Enkidu is injured as well at paika-ika rin sya kung
maglakad but all of us were doing our best to make this plan successful.
Nauunang maglakad sa amin si Codee, guarding us if there's an enemy that would
suddenly show out of nowhere. She already shot down two goons and it's a good thing
that Enkidu always has a silencer for his guns. We wouldn't want to alarm the rest
of them.
We're already near the door to make our exit. Malapit na kaming makalabas.
Tracer was already panting now because of pain. He's sweating and he looked so
pale. Alam kong nasasaktan sya sa paglalakad pero hindi sya nagrereklamo.
Fuck. If only I have strength like a man...
"Do you actually think that you can escape?"
It was Yucca who said that and the next thing I knew, I heard Codee's cry of
pain. Yucca just shot her on her right chest.
"Codee!" I screamed. She fell down the floor and her chest began to bleed. She
clenched that part and winced in pain.
Fuck it! I glared at Yucca who's now walking down the stairs while pointing a
gun at us.
"Putangina mo, Yucca!"
I reached for my gun at my back and fired at her. Looks like she wasn't
expecting it since I'm helping Tracer. She tried to dodge but the bullet pierce
through her left thigh. She screamed in pain at napaupo sa sahig.
"Bitch!" tinutukan nya ako ng baril and I know that I wouldn't be able to dodge
the bullet since I have Tracer with me. I just stay rooted in place while waiting
for her to fire her gun at me.
Another gunshot was heard but it didn't came from Yucca's gun. It actually flew
away from her hand when someone shoot the gun out of her hand. Yucca glared at that
someone but her expression changed to being surprised.
"King Lancer!" she exclaimed when she saw him pointing a gun at her.
"Let them escape." he said.
Yucca stared at him, dumbfounded, as King Lancer walked right at the scene. His
back was facing us while he's still pointing his gun to Yucca. The goons already
showed themselves but seeing their King pointing a gun at Yucca, they all looked
confused.
"Let them escape, Lyrae. Please..."
"Gray..." Tracer called his brother softly.
King Lancer put down his gun before he turned to us. He looked at his brother
from head to toe and I saw tears pooled from his eyes.

"Kuya..." his voice broke when he called him. "I'm sorry."

I stared at him. He looked so much like Gray now. The kid that woke up from a
coma who looked so scared when he learned that he's at the Red Faction's hideout.
His tears fell from his eyes but I could still see something in his eyes that
wasn't there before.
Tracer shook his head. "Halika na... Umuwi na tayo."
It was King Lancer who shook his head this time.
"Tumakas na kayo, Kuya. Hangga't nasa katinuan pa ako "
I've succeeded in triggering his emotions. I've woke up the Gray inside him but
still not fully since I could still see the King Lancer in his eyes. There's still
cruelty in him but he's trying to shut him off to give time for us.
 "No, Gray!" Tracer said. "Hindi ako aalis dito nang hindi ka kasama!"
"Kuya... Isipin mo naman ang pamilya mo."
"You're also my family, Gray."
King Lancer smiled. "Alam ko. Pero ikaw na lang ang pamilya ko, Kuya. So
please... Don't make me ruin myself more. I don't want to hurt you."
He closed his eyes tightly and shook his head. I realized that he's fighting
the King Lancer inside him and I bet he's remembering now the things that Yucca and
the gamemaster said to him to brainwashed him. He opened his eyes and looked
straight at me. Nakita ko ang paghihirap sa mga mata nya.
"Eresh, please... Umalis na kayo."
He was fighting King Lancer in him... For us.
I stared at him before I nodded.
"You'll be okay, Gray."
Sandaling binitawan ni Enkidu si Tracer to carry Codee on his back. She looked
like she's in pain and a part of me wanted to cry to see her in this state.
Fuck... Let her be okay, please.
Enkidu helped me with Tracer again at nakita kong nahihirapan sya since he has
an injured leg. But we still managed to get out of the hideout.
We need to move fast bago pa muling magising ang pagiging King Lancer ni Gray.
He'll be more violent when that happens.
But still. There's still hope. Gray was fighting the King Lancer in him, trying
to shut off the ideas that was fed in him just to protect his brother. I knew it...
Triggering his emotions is a good way to bring him back to being Gray.
I could tell that Tracer didn't want to leave his brother in that hideout. But
he couldn't do anything now that he's like this. He can't even stand up on his own.
With Enkidu, Codee and Tracer being injured, it was so hard for us to make any
progress. Mabagal ang usad namin at halos hindi pa kami nakakalayo sa hideout and
we're already dead tired.
What's more... Codee looked so pale now. She needs to get treated ASAP.
"I think it'll be best to just leave me here." Tracer said after a while.
"Alter needs to get treated. L will kill anyone if something bad happens to her."
We stopped walking. I could see the forest ahead of us. It was dark but that's
our only hope. 'Cause at the end of that forest, the EL Ordre will be waiting for
us.
I looked at Nergal beside me. I was thinking to let Tracer ride on his back but
my pet wouldn't be able to take it. His spine isn't made for a human to ride. So I
pushed that ridiculous idea out of my mind.
There's only one solution now.
"Listen, Enkidu— Pierre." I looked at my Bishop who seems exhausted and in pain
as well because of his injured leg. "Take Codee to the nearest hospital."
He nodded. "Yeah..."
"Sasamahan ko si Tracer dito."
Nanlaki ang mga mata nya. "What? No! Your Majesty—"
"Pierre, you're injured! Kung ikaw ang maiiwan dito, you wouldn't be able to
protect him well!" I reasoned out.
"Your Majesty, it is my job to protect you."
"And it is your job to obey my orders as well."
I looked at Codee at his back. She looked so pale now and she even fainted as
well. I gulped the emotions that wanted to come out in me. I don't need that now.
I looked back at my Bishop again.
"I have a gun with eight bullets and Nergal is also with me." I said. "You knew
how good I am at fighting." I pointed at the forest. "The EL Ordre will be waiting
for us at the end of that forest."
"Your Majesty..."
I looked at him with pleading eyes.
"Please, Pierre. Save Codee."
He winced like he was in pain. He doesn't want to hear that word from me. He
doesn't want me begging him. All his life, he's been doing my orders with just a
one word from me.
 "Why do I need to serve such a stubborn Queen?" he said with pain in his eyes
as he looked at me.
I smiled at him and took a step closer. I reach for his face and touched his
cheeks.
"My dear Bishop... You made a mistake but I've watched how you did everything
to make up for it." I caressed his cheeks. "We're just the same. I did horrible
things and I'm doing everything now to make those things right."
He just keeps staring at me. His eyes wandered around my face with adoration
and pain in his eyes. I am aware about his feelings for me. But he didn't make any
move as he thinks that he doesn't deserve to have that feelings for me because of
what he did in the past.
I gave him a gentle smile.
"You're not perfect... But I won't deny the fact that you're the best Bishop
for me."
"Your Majesty..."
"If I'll have the chance to choose for my Bishop, I'll still choose you,
Pierre."
"Your Majes—"
"Eresh." I cut him off. "Call me Eresh."
He stared at me before he called me by my name that I haven't heard from his
lips for a long time now.
"Eresh..."
I smiled widely at him.
"This will be your last order from your Queen. After this, I am giving you your
freedom."
Pain shot from his eyes. I know... It was so painful for me too. He's been
there for me ever since. But he deserves it. He already paid for what he did to me.
He was the best.
And I've already forgiven him.
"If I'll have a chance to choose who's Queen I will serve." he said. "I will
still choose to serve a stubborn Queen... I will still choose you."
I smiled at him. Inalis ko ang kamay ko sa pisngi nya and took one step away
from him.
"See you soon, Pierre."
He smiled. The first smile that he gave me after that horrible night.
It was so beautiful...
"See you soon, Eresh."

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Chapter 78

I watched Enkidu, with Codee on his back, walk away from

us. He was limping because of his injured leg but he's doing everything so that
Codee wouldn't fell on the ground.
Thought that this might be the last time that I will see them crossed my mind.
It made my chest hurts so bad. I don't want to think that something bad will happen
to them, or to me. I still want to see them being safe.
Please... Let them be safe.
I looked back at Tracer who's been sitting on the ground. He looked so horrible
with his wounds all over his body and a swollen knees. I know that his whole body
was aching but we need to move if we want to live.
I took off my trench coat. Masyadong mabilis ang paghubad ko at nakalimutan ko
na ang sugat ko sa balikat. I think that's the thing with adrenaline rush. If you
sense that you're in danger, makakalimutan mo ang lahat at iisipin na iligtas na
lang ang sarili.
My breathing hitched when the pain came back from my wound. I looked at it when
I finally removed my coat off me. I winced when I saw how it looked so much worse
now. Namamaga dahil sa paggamit ko ng pwersa sa pag-alalay kay Tracer kanina.
"Here." iniabot ko kay Tracer ang coat ko. He's only wearing a boxer shorts and
it's our fault that we forgot to bring clothes for him.
Tracer looked at my coat before his gaze went up to me. Nakita kong napatingin
din sya sa sugat ko. He was about to say something about my wound but I cut him off
before he could say anything.
"Can you still move?" I asked. "We need to get out of here. Kahit hanggang sa
gitna lang ng gubat."
Hindi pa rin kami nakakalayo and we could still see the hideout from here. And
I'm certain that anytime now, the goons will be looking for us to take us back to
the hideout. And if that happens, it will be the end for us.
Tracer nodded even if I know that he couldn't really move his body well. But it
seems like he doesn't want to be a burden anymore. I chose to stay here with him so
he must've thought that he should at least help me to save ourselves.
I helped him up. Nakita kong nalukot ang mukha nya sa sakit dahil sa pagtayo
nya but he did his best not to let out any sound out of pain. I draped the coat
over his shoulders before he put his arm over my shoulders and I wrapped an arm
around his waist to give him support.
He was so heavy. Fuck... I've never carried something so heavy like this in my
whole life. Enkidu will be always there to do it for me. But now, I'm the only one
who can help Tracer kaya hindi na lang ako nagreklamo.
We went into the forest. Mabagal ang paglalakad namin dahil ramdam kong
nasasaktan si Tracer sa bawat pagtapak nya. He couldn't move his knees without
being in pain. Masyadong maga ang dalawang tuhod nya at mas lumalala pa dahil
pwersahan nyang ginagamit iyon kahit masakit.
Nergal is following behind us. It was perfect as I can't really guard our back
in this state. Nahihirapan na din ako dahil sa bigat ni Tracer.
I don't know how long we've been walking and what part of forest we are now.
Pero ramdam ko sa pagod at pananakit ng sugat ko na malayo-layo na rin ang
nararating namin. It's better than being near at the hideout.
It was so dark but we both have our training so it's easy for us to see in the
dark. Ramdam ko ang lamig ng hangin at narinig ko ang pagkulog. A sign that a rain
is coming.
"I really want to keep going..." Tracer said. He was panting and was drenched
with sweat. "But my knees are giving up."
I quickly looked around to find where we could rest for a while. I was lucky to
find a big tree with a big roots. The ground on it was elevated at pwede kaming
makapagtago sa ilalim noon.

The ground serves as our roof. Nasa ilalim kami ng ugat ng

malaking punong iyon. It started to rain and Tracer was just watching the raindrops
without saying anything. Nergal curled beside me.
I looked at Tracer. I could only see the half side on his face but anyone could
tell that he's feeling sad now. I bet that he's thinking about his brother... As
well as his family.
"I'm sorry..." I mumbled. I thought that he wouldn't hear it because of the
sound of the rain but he looked at me. "I'm so sorry. All of these happened because
of me."
Tracer stared at me before he looked up to watch the raindrops again. My eyes
teared up, feeling that he just rejected my apology.
Of course... Nobody would ever forgive me because of what I did... Especially
him.
"I'm so sorry..." I said as I really want him to know that I meant those words.
"There's always a three sides to a story. Yours, theirs and truth." Tracer
said. "It was Gray's favorite quote."
I know... I've heard about that quote from Artemis before.
 "At first, I really wanted to kill you." Tracer continued and pain shot through
my chest. "This isn't what I wanted for my brother. I let him join the EL Ordre
kahit na ayaw ko. Naghanap pa ako ng pwedeng pumalit sa kanya but there's none.
Still, Gray insisted that he'll help me find our parents' murderer since we're a
family."
I kept my silence and didn't say anything. Family. I knew that at EL Ordre,
family is everything. They even treating each other in that way instead of just
being a teammate.
"I want to avenge and give justice for my parents para na rin kay Gray. I
thought that it'll be good for him and it'll help him move on. Kahit na hindi nya
sabihin sa akin, alam kong na-trauma sya dahil sa nangyari."
I looked down at my hands and played with my fingers. I almost smiled when I
remember Codee when she did this thing. Now I understand why she did such gesture.
It was because she's feeling guilty. 'Cause that's what I feel right now.
"But you made him into a different person and used him against us." Tracer
continued. "Galit na galit ako. I wanted to kill you so bad. Kasi tanginang Red
Faction yan. Kami yata ng kapatid ko ang paborito nyong pahirapan."
Tracer looked at me and I'm sure that he saw that I was feeling guilty. I saw
pain in his eyes as well. Basta talaga tungkol sa kapatid nya ay ang dami nyang
emosyon na ipinapakita. That's how much he loves his brother.
And I used that love against him. Fuck it.
"But Fourth saw something good in you." he said and I stilled when I heard that
familiar codename. "Handa nya kaming kalabanin para sayo. Nagalit ako sa kanya. He
knew my story yet why is he defending you? I know that he's a smart man. That's
when I remember that favorite quote of Gray."
Loki heard the side of my story. He knew my story and defended me to them even
after I hurt him. Even after I left him when he knelt down in front of me and beg
me to stay. He still defended me.
Fuck... I wanna see him so bad. I miss him so much.
"Alam ko rin na ginamit nya si Gray." Tracer said. "Inamin nya sa akin. I got
mad but then I realized, we all want to end this fucking game. Fourth is like that
as well that's why he took every opportunity he got. We're all just a victim in
this bloody human chess game. Even you."
I looked down at my hands and listened to the sound of rain for awhile. The
sounds made me feel so calm that I decided to tell Tracer everything.
He deserves to know my reason. I am not doing this to defend myself but I think
it is just right to let him know. I don't want him to think that I did it out of
boredom. That I looked at Gray as a guinea pig, a subject for that rare drug. I
want him to know that I never think of him in that way because Gray is so much more
than that.

So I told him everything.

Alam kong nabigla sya sa mga sinabi ko. It was still hard for me to open up the
truth, my past to someone but not as hard as before ever since Loki made me feel so
special. Maybe... I am slowly accepting my past. I am slowly accepting that it's a
part of me.
"He made me think that my existence is just for this game." I continued. "That
if I don't win, I don't have the right to live. That's why I was so desperate to
win this game."
Tracer stared at me. His jaw was clenching as he gritted his teeth. He was mad,
mad at my father for doing those horrible things to me.
"Your father is a fucking trash." he commented.
I chuckled at his remark but smiled sadly in the end.
"But I still longed for his fatherly love." I said. "For his recognition and
acceptance."
"That's normal. 'Cause he's your father."
We both fell silent after that and just watched the raindrops. It was really
dark and we couldn't almost see the rain dropping from above but the leaves were
dancing everytime the rain drops on it.
"Gray will be okay..." I said and I saw Tracer nodded from the corner of my
eye.
"I know that he will. He's a Sanford. Malalagpasan nya 'to."
I nodded and smiled while still looking up above.
I know that Tracer understands my reason. He could see why I did those things.
Mas lalo lang tuloy akong nakonsensya. I realized that I want him to curse at me.
To throw insulting words and not like this. 'Cause what I did is not right even
with a reason.
But I'm willing to make everything's right.
And maybe someday... They will learn to forgive me.
I frowned when I heard something that was so far from the sound of the rain.
Nergal and Tracer must've heard it too as they looked on guard now.
"They're here." I said, stating the obvious that made Tracer cursed.
"Fuck!"
Gumapang ako palapit sa kanya to help him up so we could escape. But his body
was already at its limit. Hindi na nya maigalaw ang mga tuhod nya. Idagdag pa ang
sakit ng mga sugat sa katawan nya.
"Fuck these useless knees!" gigil na sabi ni Tracer at hahampasin pa nga sana
ang tuhod nya. Mabuti na lang at napigilan ko.
"Don't! You'll just make it worse!"
He looked frustrated now. Palapit na nang palapit ang mga tunog ng naririnig
namin. And judging by the sounds of it, there were more than ten footsteps that we
can hear.
With Tracer being like this, malabong makatakas kami sa kanila. Kung sakali man
na umalis kami dito ay mahahabol nila kami. And I couldn't really fight more than
ten men while protecting someone. Okay lang kung ako lang. But Tracer is with me.
But if we stay here, there's a big chance that they'll find us dahil hindi
naman tagong-tago ang pinagtataguan namin.
There's only one solution now.
"Stay here, Tracer." I said. "Ilalayo ko sila sayo."
"What?" he asked, looking so surprised.
"I'm sure that the EL Ordre will start to look for us if we failed to meet them
at the end of the forest."
"What the fuck are you saying, Eresh?!" galit nyang sabi pero hindi ko sya
pinansin.
"I'll take Nergal with me."
"Eresh!"
I smiled at him. I am so glad to see that he's worried about me.
"You have a family, Tracer. Pareho tayong mamamatay kung walang kikilos."
"And you have Fourth as well!"
I flashed him a side smile. Fuck... Remembering him just made me want to burst
into tears. I really want to see him so bad. But we have to survive first.
And this is our only chance. If I'll take Tracer with me, then mahuhuli lang
kami. If I don't and we'll just stay here, mahuhuli lang din kami.
"Eight bullets, Tracer." I said. Inilagay ko sa kamay nya ang baril. "Use it
wisely."
My hand trembled when I put the gun on his hand. Ayaw nyang tanggapin so I had
to use my other hand to open his palm and put the gun there. I could tell that
Tracer noticed that my hands were shaking.
This is the only time that I got scared. Scared that I will die.
"Listen, Tracer." I said and looked at him in the eye. "I don't know if I'll
make it out alive. So could you please tell Loki that I love him? Tell him that I'm
sorry as well."
Tracer gritted his teeth. Ayaw nya pa ring tanggapin ang baril.
"Tell him yourself, Eresh."
"King Lancer doesn't need me anymore. Nagising ko na ang pagiging Gray nya. And
only you could make him came back to the way he was before, Tracer. Ikaw lang ang
nakakakilala sa kanya ng lubos."
Tracer held my wrist as well in case that I will just leave the gun beside him.
Ayaw nya akong pakawalan at it's just making this so much worse.
"You have a family who's waiting for you, Tracer. Artemis and the twins."
I could feel him slowly loosening his grip on my wrist by the mention of his
wife and his kids. I smiled and was about to stand up when he held my wrist tightly
again.
"At least take this gun with you." he said. Magrereklamo na sana ako pero
nagsalita uli sya. "Please..."
I smiled. "Okay."
I took the gun from him and finally stood up and went out of that simple
hideout. Mabilis akong nabasa ng ulan pero hindi ko pinansin iyon.
I looked at Tracer who's looking back at me. I flashed him a sad smile.
"Promise me that you'll tell him, Tracer."
Tracer stared at me. Nakita ko ang sakit sa mga mata nya. He didn't want me to
do this 'cause it's like I'm sacrificing myself. But he knew that we don't have any
other choice as he was wounded. Or we will both die in the end.
With a gritted teeth, he nodded.
"I promise."

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Chapter 79

I walked away with a heavy feeling and with a hope that

this plan would succeed. I really hope that the enemies will choose to follow me
and they wouldn't be able to find Tracer.
He needs to live. He has a family. Gray needs him. He's the only one now who
could trigger his emotions further since he's his brother. If he will succeed, then
there's no need for anyone from the team to win this game. They might join force
instead and kill the gamemaster.
The rain got into my eyes, blinding my way. Basang-basa na din ako but it
didn't stop me when I started running. Nergal ran with me.
The ground was wet and it was so slippery that I had a hard time running. I
almost tripped countless of times but I held my ground and keep on running.
Kailangan kong mailayo ang mga kalaban kay Tracer. I must ran as far as I can
so they wouldn't be able to find him.
The direction where I'm running from was on the west of the end of the forest
where we planned to meet the EL Ordre since this is the only way where I could take
them away from Tracer. I don't know what's waiting for me here but I just keep on
running.
I stopped to catch my breath and mend the wound on my arm. Masyado na kasing
masakit at hindi ako makapag-focus sa pagtakbo.
I looked at my wound and grimaced when I saw it looking so horrible now. I
decided to cut a cloth from the skirt of my dress and tie it on my wound so tight
to stop the pain.
I looked back to where I came from, to where Tracer is. Malayo-layo na rin ang
tinakbo ko so I guess that this distance will do.
I looked at my pet beside me who's quietly watching me.
"Are you ready, Nergal?" I asked like he could talk.
I loaded my gun, pointed it upwards and finally fired. It created a loud sound
and I know that despite of the rain, anyone who's inside the forest could hear it.
If I got lucky, maybe the EL Ordre will hear it too.
Seven bullets.
I am so sure that I got the enemy's attention now.
I started running again, slipping and tripping on my way as I tried to run as
fast as I can. I cursed and decided to remove my heels. Nakapaa na lang akong
tumatakbo ngayon but it was still so hard dahil madulas talaga ang lupa.
Fuck! I am so sure that I looked so horrible right now! Wala na akong poise!
I could hear footsteps behind me. So many footsteps tried to ran after me. I'm
sure that they were the enemies since their footsteps sounds like from someone who
didn't undergo such training that we had in the organization.
I cursed when I heard a gunshot at naramdaman ko ang paglagpas ng bala sa gilid
lang ng tenga ko. Mabilis akong nagtago sa likod ng punong nadaanan ko and Nergal
did the same, hiding from the tree beside me.
They fired their guns against the tree where I'm hiding from. Lumuhod ako sa
lupa dahil sa taas sila nagpapatama where my head is. Lumabas ako ng puno at
pinaputukan ang dalawang kalaban na nakita ko. Nakita kong natamaan sila so I hide
myself behind the tree again.
When I didn't hear anything, I decided to run again. Marami akong natatapakang
mga bato at sanga ng puno that hurt my feet but I ignored the pain as it was
nothing if I'll die in the end.
The rain was still blinding my sight so I wasn't able to see the roots that's
on my way. I tripped and fell on the ground with a loud thud. Napatigil sa pagtakbo
si Nergal at patakbong bumalik sa akin urging me to stand up.
"I know, I know." I said while I was trying to get up.
I cursed when I felt the pain on my foot. Mukhang nabalian pa yata ako nang
sumabit ang paa ko sa ugat ng puno kanina. But that is not what's important right
now. I have to get away since I've heard another footsteps again.

So I started running again and groaned when I realized that

I look like a shit. My dress was now full of mud, even my arms, when I tripped
earlier. I feel so dirty and the rain was just making it worse.
It seems like I haven't learned my lesson yet as I slipped on the slippery
ground again. Muli akong nadapa and I wanted to curse so loud dahil sa katangahan
ko.
Nergal went back to me again. He made a sound and I'm so sure that if he could
only talk, he'll tell me that I am so, so stupid for tripping like this.
"Fuck this shit!" I cursed and got up again.
Napalingon ako sa likod ko nang makarinig ako ng mga yabag. I saw an enemy,
pointing his gun at me but I was so fast now that I'm feeling so irritated kaya
naunahan ko sya at naunang paputukan. In no time, the man fell dead on the ground.
"I am so, so fucking annoyed now!" I screamed. It was so disgusting having mud
all over my body like this!
Fuck you, fake Pawns! If only I get out here alive, I will fucking roast you
all to death!
Nagsimula kaming tumakbo ulit ni Nergal pero hindi pa man kami nakakalayo ay
nagulat ako nang may sumulpot na kalaban sa harapan ko mula sa likod ng punong
pinagtataguan nya. It was already too late to stop myself so he was able to trip me
by the foot. I fell on the ground with my butt.
"Fuck!" I groaned.
The enemy approached me but before he could get any nearer, I kicked him on the
shin. Napaatras sya and I took the opportunity to get up and kicked him on his
front where it hurt the most.
The man cursed at me and I just smirked at him. Mukhang nainis ko pa yata sya
dahil bigla nya akong sinugod.
But a hired Pawn against a skilled fighter like isn't really a problem. I was
able to grab his arm and judo flipped him so he fell, lying his back on the ground.
I stepped on his neck when he tried to counterattack making him choke as he tried
to removed my foot on his neck.
"Eat all the dirt, fucking bastard!" I spat.
I heard another footsteps from my back kaya napalingon ako doon. An enemy was
pointing his gun at me and it was already too late for me to get my gun. He was
already pulling the trigger when Nergal roared so loud. Dinamba nya ang lalaki bago
ako nakarinig ng magkasunod na putok ng baril.
"Nergal!"
I shoot the enemy that I'm holding on his head bago ko binalingan ang isa pa.
He was trying to get up dahil nadaganan sya ni Nergal and when he did, I saw his
body that was full of Nergal's blood.
I cried as I pointed the gun on the enemy and shoots him on the head without
any second thought. He fell on the ground but I didn't give any care about him.
Mabilis akong lumapit sa alaga ko at lumuhod sa harapan nya.
"Oh my God, Nergal!" I cried when I saw him bleeding nonstop. The bullet
pierced on his chest and on his stomach.
I sobbed and tried to apply pressure on his wounds to stop the blood. But
Nergal whimpered like I just hurt him more.
"Nergal!" I sobbed his name as my tears flowed down from my eyes. "No... No,
please."
Memories from the first day my father gave him to me flashed through my mind.
My father wanted me to take care of Nergal and used him so anyone would fear me.
'Cause he said that a lot of people were afraid of tigers.
Nergal has been with me ever since. He would sleep on my lap when he was still
a baby while I was feeding him on a bottle. Magkatabi pa kaming natutulog sa kama
noon. And I never felt scared of him even after he grew up like this.

He's not only a pet to me. He is also my bestfriend.

"I'm so sorry..." I sobbed when I saw that he's suffering.
Nergal purred and I know that he's trying to cheer me up. I remember those days
when I will cry inside my room everytime my father will hit me or do disgusting
things to me. Nergal is always there, trying to make me feel better as he rubbed
his face on my cheeks. He will lay down in front of me, his head on my lap while
looking up to me with a sad expression on his face.
Nergal tried to breathe at nakita ko ang paghihirap nya. My heart was breaking
seeing him like this. Two bullets and he's bleeding so much. He wouldn't able to
make it.
"I'll e-end your suffering." I sobbed. I looked at him and saw tears in his
eyes. "I'm so sorry I couldn't save you."
He whimpered in protest. I caressed his head one last time before I put his
head on my lap. Napapikit sya at mas lalo akong napaiyak.
"Farewell, Nergal."
I pursed my lips to keep my sobbed before I held his head with my two hands and
break his neck. His breathing stopped and I hugged him as I cried so hard.
I was sobbing as I cry while hugging the dead body of my pet. Memories of the
times when I played with him flashed into my mind.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry!"
Nakarinig ulit ako ng mga yabag. I tried to steady my breathing before I put
down Nergal on the ground and stood up. He just save me and died in my stead. He's
such a good boy until the end.
Papalapit na ang mga yabag kaya wala akong nagawa kundi ang umatras. I took one
last look at my pet before I turned around and started running again.
I was feeling angry but also crying at the same time. I lost someone who's so
important to me because of this stupid game. Mas lalo lang nadagdagan ang galit ko
dahil sa putanginang larong 'to.
I tried to run as fast as I can. My feet was hurting and no matter how many
times I tripped and fell, I will always stand up and continued running again.
I looked like a shit. My hair was dripping wet because of rain. My dress, arms
and legs were covered in a mud. Pero wala sa anumang bagay na iyon ang nagpatigil
sa akin sa pagtakbo.
It was then when I heard a gunshot before I felt pain on my back. I've been
shot. Napaluhod ako sa lupa dahil sa sakit but I tried to stand up again. I heard
another gunshot again and another pain on my back.
 I whimpered in pain but I tried my best to turned around and shoot that
someone. I wasn't even aiming but I still pulled the trigger at him and saw him
fell dead on the ground.
Napahiga ako sa lupa pagkatapos noon. I used so much effort killing that enemy
despite the wounds on my back. My back hurts so much that I couldn't even move any
muscle because of it. And everytime I breathe, mas lalong sumasakit ang tama ko sa
likod.
I looked up and saw the night sky between the spaces of the leaves. The moon
was peeking from the spaces as the rain still continue to fall down my face.
Still, I did my best to got up. I groaned when I felt the excruciating pain
from my back when I put a lot of effort as I do so. I did my best to crawl till I
reached a big tree and leaned my back against it, feeling so tired and weak.
I was left with only one bullet now but I doubt if I can even use it. I
couldn't lift my arms dahil sa sobrang sakit ng tama ko sa likod. I could feel the
blood flowed down from my wounds that made me feel so week even more. It hurts so
much to even breathe.
My vision started to blur because of pain. All of a sudden, I remember someone
that made my wounds feel ten times worse.
It was the only person who made me feel that I deserve everything in this world
despite the things that I did. The only person who believes that there's something
good in me. The only person who showered me with his love with each passing day.
The only person who made me feel what it's like to live a normal life even just for
a while.
It is my King... Loki. The only man that I love so much.
Tears started to fell from my eyes. My heart hurts so much thinking that I
wouldn't be able to see him again. Na nasaktan ko pa sya sa huling pagkikita namin.
It hurts so much thinking about his promises to me. Mukhang hindi na nya sa
akin matutupad iyon.
That forever he's building for us... is getting further and further away.
I sobbed but winced after I felt the pain from my back. I was feeling so weak
that I couldn't move any muscles from my body. I was already taking a deep and
quick breath, trying my best to fill my lungs with air but is failing so.
I haven't wished for anything... But I'll make my first wish now.
I wish that Loki will find someone whom he can spend his forever with.
I remember Tracer. It seems like he'll be the one to tell those words to him.
Please, Tracer... Tell Loki that I love him. Tell him that I'm sorry for
leaving him like this.
"Stay with me forever, Eresh..."
I sobbed when I remember his peculiar way of saying how much he loves me. But
it was the sweetest and greatest thing that I've heard.
I'm sorry, Loki. But it seems like I can't really stay with you forever. I'm so
sorry...
Unti-unti nang kinakain ng dilim ang paningin ko. My body felt so numb and I
couldn't really feel anything now.
I was still crying when my eyes slowly close on it's own. And Loki's face was
the last thing on my mind before I finally closed my eyes.
I'm sorry, my King.

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Chapter 80

The grand ballroom of this hotel where the party held was
packed with VIP guests and visitors that were dress in an expensive clothes.  They
were complimenting each other and it was obvious that the smile on their faces were
all fake.
The room was so bright because of the chandelier and lights from above. Soft
music from the violin and piano can be heard at the entire room. Waiters and
waitresses were serving wines and finger foods for the guests.
I looked at my father who was laughing with his acquaintances for awhile now.
We had been standing here for a minute now and he hasn't even take a glance at me,
even for once, ever since we set foot inside this hotel.
He's angry. I can feel it. He's angry at me.
It was always his acquaintances who will bring me up to their conversation.
Kapag napapatingin sila sa akin ay agad silang napapangiti.
"Is that your daughter?" a woman asked my father while looking at me. "She
looked so cute dressed like a little boy!"
"But she's so pretty that nobody would ever mistaken her for a boy." said a man
and they all laughed with his remarks.
My father just made a small smile and sipped on his wine without saying
anything. Halos lumubog na ako sa tabi nya. I know that he did that to hide his
anger. Matalim ang tingin ng mga mata nya habang umiinom sa kopitang hawak nya. But
when he put down his glass, he had a wide smile on his face.
"See that little girl in a pink dress who looked like a princess?" he asked and
pointed at someone across that room. "She's my daughter."
We all looked at where he's pointing at and I just hoped that I never did.
'Cause my young heart got broken when I saw that little girl he's talking about.
It was Ishtar.
She was wearing a pink dress with a ballon tulle skirt. She looked so cute with
a little tiara on her head that made her looked like a princess.
I glanced at my father who looked so proud at Ishtar as the EL Ordre's former
King introduced her to his friends. Samantalang ako, hindi man lang nya matapunan
ng tingin kahit isang segundo lang. Like he was disgusted by the sight of me.
No matter what I do, he will never be proud of me. No matter what I do, he will
never look at me like how he looks at Ishtar.
I decided to go to the garden of the hotel when I feel like I wouldn't be able
to stop my tears. I sat down on one of the benches there and started crying
silently.
I just can't understand. I am the legal child yet why can't he accept me? Is it
because I was born as a woman? That's why I tried so hard to look like a boy
tonight!
Ishtar is a product of his revenge. The proof of his revenge for the EL Ordre
so maybe that's why he's really proud of her.
His own creation.
And me? I am the proof of his failed plan. Everytime he'll look at me, he'll
always remember the humility as he couldn't have an heir for his position as the
King of the Red Faction.
"There are a lot of pretty chicks inside, yet why does a handsome lad is here
and crying alone?"
I looked at that voice who disturbed me from crying and I saw a young boy, just
around my age who's looking at me. His hands were inside the pockets of his pants
and even for a child, his stance tells me that he is no ordinary kid.
I sniffed and looked away at him. I don't want him to see my crying face. I
don't want him to think that I'm weak.
"You don't know how to whoo chicks?" he asked when I didn't say anything. "I
can teach you."

"Leave me alone."
The kid giggled that annoyed me so much. I was busy crying here after my father
broke my young heart and then this kid suddenly came our of nowhere and disturbed
me.
I glared at him and decided to leave the place 'cause it seems like he's not
planning to do so. He was smirking as he played his lips with his fingers while
looking at me. I rolled my eyes and finally walked away.
 He's British based on his accent. And I remember him calling me lad earlier. A
slang for a young boy.
He's the only one who mistaken me as a boy. And somehow, it made me feel good
na kahit isang tao lang ay may napaniwala ako ngayong gabi. My effort didn't go to
waste.
Sadly, I was so upset that I don't feel like asking for his name. But there's
only one thing I can remember about him.
He has a beautiful sea-green eyes.
"Your Majesty! Your Majesty!"
I could hear someone is calling me. His voice was very familiar that I could
recognized it even without seeing him.
"Your Majesty, wake up!"
Unti-unti kong idinilat ang mga mata ko dahil na rin sa sinabi ng boses na
iyon. I didn't even realize that I'm dreaming about my past ealier.
That party where I dressed up as a boy. The night when that horrible things
started.
I saw a man kneeling down in front of me and he looked so worried while looking
at me. Napakunot ang noo ko nang luminaw ang paningin ko.
"Pierre?" I looked around before I returned my gaze on him, looking so
confused. "What happened?"
I was still in the forest, sitting down while leaning my back on the big tree.
But the rain has stopped now and the sun was already up.
Maliwanag ang paligid dahil sa liwanag ng araw na sumisilip sa pagitan ng mga
dahon. The sunrays looked so magical as it hit the ground. I could also hear the
birds happily chirping na parang walang nangyaring kung ano kagabi.
Anong nangyari?
"Where's Codee, Pierre?" I asked him. Nadala nya ba sa hospital? And he's
kneeling in front of me. What about his injured leg?
Pierre looked at my back and I could see the panic and worry in his eyes as he
returned his gaze on me.
"Your Majesty, you need to wake up." he said.
That confused me to the core. I am awake. My eyes were open and he can see it.
Kaya bakit sinasabi nya na kailangan kong gumising?
"But I am awake, Pierre." I said.
I felt something on my arm and when I looked at it, I saw Nergal was rubbing
his head on my arm. That confused me more when I remembered what happened last
night.
Nergal was shot by the enemy, two fucking times. One on his chest and one on
his stomach. He was suffering that's why I decided to end his life para hindi na
sya mahirapan at masaktan pa.
Yet Nergal is here... In front me. Alive and well as he rubbed his head on my
arm.
"This is impossible." I muttered. "What happened? Nergal is—"
Dead.
My heart hammered as I looked at Pierre in front me. I looked at his injured
leg but I didn't see any gunshot wound on it. And that's when I only realized that
I didn't feel any pain from my back where I've been shot twice. My wound on my left
arm was gone too.

My eyes started to water when an idea popped into my mind.

"No, Pierre..."
Nergal stopped rubbing his head on my arm and walked beside Pierre. He sat down
on his four feet and both him and Pierre were now looking at me.
"You must wake up, Your Majesty."
Tears started to fell down from my eyes. I shook my head, refusing to believe
what's happening right now. I wanted to move and hurt myself to confirm it but I
couldn't move my body. I cried even hard when I felt so helpless.
 Pierre reached for my cheeks and wiped the tears away from my face. I started
to sobbed when I couldn't feel any warmth from his touch as he wiped my tears.
"Bakit?! Bakit?!" I cried harder and stared at Pierre's face when he flashed me
a sad smile.
"You need to get out of here, Eresh."
Fuck! I wanted to move and held his hands that were on my face. He continued on
wiping my tears na wala na yatang katapusan sa pagtulo.
My heart hurts so bad. Pagkatapos ni Nergal, si Pierre naman ngayon. Those two
who remained loyal to me till the end.
"You need to save yourself, Eresh." Pierre said. "Your King is waiting for
you."
Mas lalo lang akong napahagulgol sa sinabi nya. The birds had stopped singing
and it seems like they were also mourning for me.
Fuck! Ang sakit-sakit na!
"I can't... I can't move!" I said and Pierre cupped my face and looked intently
at me.
"You can. I'll lend you my strength, Your Majesty. Just like what I always do."
"Pierre!" I cried his name and sobbed even hard. "This isn't what I meant when
I gave you your freedom! Hindi ganito, Pierre!"
My Bishop eyes teared up. Mas lalo lang akong napahagulgol nang makita ko ang
lungkot sa mga mata nya
"I'm so sorry for everything. Eresh... For what I did in the past."
"Sinabi ko nang napatawad na kita!"
He smiled. But it was such a sad smile that broke my heart even more.
"I'm lucky that I was given the chance to serve such a strong and good-hearted
Queen."
I sobbed so hard. Hindi na matigil ang paghikbi ko at wala na akong magawa
kundi ang umiyak nang umiyak na lang.
"I told you, right?" Pierred said. "It is my job to protect you."
Pierre removed his hands on my face and knelt on his one knee. His stance tells
me that he's paying me with so much respect.
He smiled at me.
"And for my last job, I will protect you until you get back with your King."
My vision started to blur. Unti-unting lumalabo sina Pierre at Nergal sa
paningin ko. I panic and tried to move but I really can't. Everything started to
get so dark.
And before my vision turns black, I heard Pierre's last words to me.
"Wake up now, Your Majesty."
Maingay akong napahigit nang paghinga nang idinilat ko ang mga mata ko. I felt
the pain from my back as I do so.
I don't know how long I was out. It was still raining and dark inside the
forest. Ibang-ibang sa panaginip ko kanina.
And remembering my dream, my heart clenched as I began to cry again.

My Bishop is gone. Pierre is dead.

And even in his last moments, he never fails to serve me.
I know that he wronged me before. He was one of the reason why I felt so
broken. But I've witnessed how he tried so hard to pay for what he did. Kahit na
ikasisira nya ang mga pinapagawa ko sa kanya ay hindi sya nagreklamo.
And that's the most important thing right? To own up for the mistake. Kaya
hindi ako nahirapang patawarin sya.
He's so loyal to me. He had all the reason to betray me as I haven't been a
good Queen to him. But his loyalty never faltered. He did his best to protect me
and gave me everything that I want.
My Bishop... My poor Bishop.
I wouldn't let Nergal's and Pierre's sacrifice go to waste. I need to live.
I tried to get up even with a wounds on my back. Strangely, I got strength that
came out of nowhere and I was able to stand with my own two feet.
"I'll lend you my strength, Your Majesty."
I pursed my lips and tried to ignore the pain in my back as I started to walk
further away.
Thank you, Pierre... And Nergal.
I heard an enemy approached me from the back and I was quick enough to point my
gun at him and pulled the trigger. The enemy dropped dead on the ground.
I groaned as I moved my feet. Kumukuha ako ng suporta sa bawat punong
nadadaanan ko. I am slow compared to when I was running but fuck it. It was because
of my fucking gunshot wounds on my back!
I must survive! I must survive!
I tried to run faster when I heard footsteps from my back again. I could feel
the wind is getting stronger, a proof that I am near at the end of the forest.
I was feeling so weak when I reached the last tree on my way and cursed when I
saw what's waiting for me.
It was a cliff. And there's no way in hell that I would jump off the cliff.
I laughed with no emotions nang makarating ako sa dulo. It seems like the fate
wanted me dead, huh?
Napalingon ako sa likod ko at nakitang naabutan na ako ng kalaban. Isa. He was
holding a gun and I threw mine off the cliff when I realized that there were no
bullets left in it.
My knees are giving up. I am weak because of the pain in my back. But I still
stood with my two feet and faced the enemy.
"Are you gonna kill me?" I asked and even my voice sounds so weak.
"Ang utos sa amin ay ibalik ka, buhay man o patay."
I chuckled that made my back hurt even more. Pain blinded my sight and I knew
that I wouldn't last long. But still, I managed to smirked at the enemy.
"I am wounded with a gunshot wounds on my back. I am unarmed. I am weak. Pero
hindi ako sasama sayo."
The man pointed his gun at me. I didn't even move nor try to defend myself.
Fuck... My body felt so numb now. I couldn't move because of the pain. I loss
too much blood and I feel so weak.
"Kung ganoon, wala na kong magagawa kundi ang patayin ka."
I saw him slowly pulling the trigger but I just keep staring at him. I want
look strong in his eyes, like a real Queen.
I want to look strong even at my end.
The silence was disturbed by a loud gunshot that can be heard in that forest. I
was waiting for another pain from the bullet that should pierce my body anytime now
but it never came.
Instead, I saw the enemy fell down on his knees before his body lay dead on the
ground.
And that's when Loki appeared in my sight.
He was holding a gun. Nasa likod sya ng kalaban kanina at natatakpan lang kaya
nang matumba ang kalaban ay saka ko lang sya nakita. I also saw the man with amber
eyes and the man with a scar on his face helping Tracer to stand. I even saw Auis
and the man with mismatched eyes trying to search the place for more enemies.
I looked back at Loki when he started to walk towards me. He was staring
intently at me as he stopped in front of me.
"I'm sorry I am late, my Queen."
I shook my head. Right now, I'm just so glad that he's here in front of me.
And now that he's here, it seems like all of my strength finally left my body.
My knees gave up but before I could fell to the ground, Loki caught me and
enveloped me inside his arms.
I closed my eyes, feeling his warmth as my consciousness started to drift away.
Finally... I am safe.

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Chapter 81

I was feeling lightheaded when I opened my eyes as I felt

the pain from my back and all over my body. But it was gone the moment I felt
someone's holding my hand. His hands was so warm as he enveloped mine with it.
I was in an unfamiliar large room, lying on the bed. The sun was bright as its
light goes through the glass panel wall of the room.
I looked to my side and I saw Loki who's staring down at me. He was holding my
left hand with his large hands and kissed the back of it. The warmth from his lips
travelled till it reached my heart.
Seeing him here beside me made my eyes teared up. His sea-green eyes that felt
like it has been so many years since I last saw it.
"Loki..." I whispered his name. Kasabay noon ay ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata
ko.
Loki immediately wiped the tears off my cheeks. But it flowed like a damn river
when I felt the warmth of his hand on my cheeks. He just keeps on wiping my tears
as he stares down at me. He's still looking at me with gentleness in his eyes like
I didn't hurt him from the last time that I saw him.
Fuck... I missed him so much.
"I'm so sorry..." I said, remembering how he knelt and how he begged for me to
stay with him.
"Shh..."
"I chose you back there, Loki." I sobbed. "I chose to protect you. You were
wounded. You were not in a good condition to fight. And they can't hurt King Lancer
—"
"Shh, Eresh..." Loki cut me off. "I know..."
I cried even more. I was feeling so emotional now that he's here beside. All my
fears and worries had suddenly gone away.
Maybe, it's okay to let myself be weak once in awhile, right? I tried so hard
to look so strong back there at the forest even if I was feeling so scared. Scared
that I'll die and I wouldn't see Loki again. Kaya okay lang naman siguro na maging
mahina muna ako sa ngayon.
"Lay down beside me, please." I said as I was not contended with only the
warmth from his hands.
Loki made a small smile before he did what I asked him. He laid down beside me
slowly and carefully. That's when I remembered that he has a stab wounds.
Ginawa kong unan ang isang braso nya. He pulled me closer to him in a gentle
way until it was now his chest that became my pillow. His other arm was supporting
my back so I wouldn't feel hurt or uncomfortable.
"How's your wound?" I asked. Iniingatan ko rin na huwag masagi ang mga sugat
nya.
I heard him sighed before he hugged me even more.
"I should be the one asking you. How are you feeling?"
"My back hurts so much." I told him the truth. He'll know if I'm lying anyway.
"Will I be okay?"
What if I hurt my spine? I don't want to have a hunchback. I mean, best
poisture is also one way to look confident.
Still, I know those gunshot wounds will leave a scar on me.
"You will." Loki answered.
He didn't say anything after that, nor gave me any assurance that I will really
be okay which made me confused. He wasn't like that before. He will tell me things
I needed to hear to boost my confidence.
But that's okay for me. Everything is okay now that he's here with me.
"The baby is fine as well, Eresh."
I looked at Loki. Bahagya pa akong napabangon para makita ang buong mukha nya.
My back began to hurt because of my sudden movement but I just ignored the pain.
 "What did you say?" I asked. Loki looked at me in the eye.
"You are pregnant with our child, Eresh."
My lips parted out of shock. I was surprised! I was never expecting those words
from him!
I stared at his face but he looked so serious that I know he wasn't joking. His
jaw was even clenching as he gritted his teeth. Napabangon sya at inalalayan pa ako
para makaupo.
I was still in dazed because of this news. We did it so many times without
protection. I should've expected this!
"My God..." I mumbled and stared at him, looking bewildered. "I didn't know,
Loki!"
Damn it! I remember the things that I did at the Red Faction's hideout. Those
dangerous things that a pregnant woman shouldn't even do!
I remember that I even carried Tracer on my shoulders. The tiredness I felt
after that. I remember how I tried my best to ran so fast so the enemies wouldn't
catch me. I remember how many times I fucking tripped and fell on the ground. And
those stunts and moves that I did while fighting the enemies on hand to hand
combat. And the gunshot wounds on my back...
Fuck! I was so careless!
"Oh my God!" I exclaimed out of bewilderment. "Oh my God, hindi ko alam!"
Napahawak ako sa tyan ko. Fuck! Fuck it! Oh my God, I didn't know!
"What if I came even later than that?" Loki asked in a restrained voice. "Fuck,
Eresh! Dalawa kayong mawawala sa akin kung sakali!"
His body began to tremble with the thought of that. He looked up and pinched
the bridge of his nose. He closed his eyes tightly and when he looked at me again,
I saw pain, fear and regret in his eyes.
"Fuck! I can't even imagine my life without you. And then our child—" his voice
broke, eyes were bloodshot because of unshed tears. "Tangina, Eresh... Hindi ko
kakayanin."
My eyes teared up seeing him so weak and vulnerable like this. He looked really
scared with that thoughts in his mind.
"If only I have known that you're already pregnant, I wouldn't let you go even
if I have to kneel in front of the whole world."
My tears began to fall again from my eyes. Ang sakit na makita syang
nagkakaganito. He always has a plan with everything. Sigurado ang bawat galaw na
ginagawa nya pero ngayon, sising-sisi sya sa ginawa nya even if he didn't do
anything wrong.
It was me.
"I'm so sorry..." I said and cried even more.
I felt Loki's hand on my uninjured arm and pulled me closer to him. He put his
arms around me and enveloped me in hug, careful not to hurt me because of my
wounds. Mas lalo lang tuloy akong napaiyak sa ginawa nya.
Fuck... I am so emotional with him beside me.
"Shh... It wasn't your fault." he softly said as he caressed my hair gently.
"Don't cry... It's bad for our child."
I stayed inside my arms and calmed myself down. Inilapat ko ang tenga ko sa
dibdib ni Loki. I listened to his heartbeat. It never fails to calm me down.
I feel so safe now that I'm inside his arms. That even if I let my guard down,
nobody will be able to hurt me.
My only safe place.
I heard my rooms door opened kaya napabitaw kami ni Loki sa isa't isa. I saw
Codee in a wheelchair, entered my room and Archer is pushing her wheelchair. I felt
so relieved to see that Codee is okay.
"Ate Eresh..." her voice broke as she called my name.
"Codee..."
Itinigil ni Archer ang wheelchair sa gilid lang ng kama ko. Loki stood up and
gave space for me to sit at the edge of the bed. I hugged Codee, careful not to
hurt her as she's injured as well.
 She cried on my shoulders. I caressed her back lightly to comfort her. I know
that she felt scared as well back there. Anyone would feel fear if they were in
that situation.
"Si Enki, Ate! Si Enki—"
My heart hurts so bad with the thought of my Bishop. I don't know what
happened. Codee is safe. He successfully did my last order to him. But what
happened?
"We surveyed the place after we brought you to safety." it was Archer. It seems
like he read the questions in my mind. "We found the dead bodies of your pet and
your Bishop."
Tears fell from my eyes but I immediately wiped it away. Codee let me go to
listen to our conversation.
"How..." I wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. "How did he die? Pierre...
My Bishop? Codee is safe. She was with him kaya paanong—"
"Ako ang naiwang magbantay sa dulo ng gubat sakaling magpakita kayo." Archer
cut me off when he realized that I couldn't form my question properly. "Your Bishop
came with Alter on his back. He told me to bring her to the nearest hospital.
Sinabi nyang babalikan ka nya."
I couldn't stop my tears anymore. Oh, God... He came back for me. He looked for
me to try to save me. But he died on his way.
Magaling makipaglaban si Enkidu. He was the best fighter in the Red Faction.
But he's injured and tired that night. The enemy's know about our plan of meeting
the EL Ordre at the end of the forest. Maybe King Lancer told them. Pierre got
ambushed and he was killed. I failed to lure all the enemies to go after me.
But still, it was supposed to be easy for him to defeat untrained hired Pawns.
Pero siguro, dahil sa pagod at sugat nya ay natalo sya ng mga kalaban.
And he was killed.
He really wanted to save me that even in the brink of death, he visited me on
my dreams. He didn't want me to give up. He did his best to wake me up and get me
back to life.
"He really loves you, Ate." sabi ni Codee na umiiyak pa rin ngayon. "You
already gave him his freedom but he still came back for you. He did it not because
he's your Bishop, but because he loves you."
"I know! I know!"
I covered my face with my palms and cried so hard. I know about that! I know
about his feeling for me! I'm not dumb not to feel it!
But Pierre, even on his last moments, he still didn't tell his feelings to me.
He chose not to say it. 'Cause I know, he felt like he doesn't deserve the feelings
that he has for me because of what he did in the past. I already forgave him but he
still felt guilty about it till the very end.
I felt Loki hugged me as I cried my heart's out. I don't fucking care if Codee
and Archer can see me in this state. I can mourn for a friend right? Not just only
a friend but a very loyal friend. And I'm so done pretending that I am strong and
unaffected with situations like this.
Nergal and Pierre didn't only protected me, they also protected the life inside
my tummy.
Fuck... They were the best.
I wouldn't let their sacrifice go to waste. I will only protect my child. I
want to live a life with this child and Loki.
I will do everything to stop this fucking game.

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Chapter 82

The past few days had been quiet for us which was good
since we need time to rest and to recover. Half of the EL Ordre's members were
wounded and L hasn't been awake yet which put Codee in more distress.
Loki wouldn't let me go out of the room if not for necessary things. He wants
me to completely recover my strength and for my wounds to heal. Since I am now
pregnant, he wants me to avoid stress. He said that it's bad for my pregnancy.
They said that the first few months of pregnancy were critical. It was a good
thing na malakas ang kapit ng bata sa tyan ko that even after what happened in that
forest, the baby is still inside my tummy.
Such a fighter...
I was standing in front of the full length mirror inside my room that morning
after I ate my breakfast and did my morning routine. It was still kinda hard to
move for me since the gunshot wounds on my back will hurt by just a sudden
movements. Kaya dahan-dahan pa din ako sa pagkilos ko.
I was wearing Loki's longsleeve white polo shirt. It has become my habit to
wear his shirts. Maluwag kasi iyon at bawal sa akin ang masikip dahil sa sugat sa
likod ko. He's not complaining at kahit maubusan pa sya ng damit ay wala yatang
planong magreklamo.
It was a beautiful morning. The sun was up and shining brightly that the sun
rays goes through the large panel glass window of my room. I could hear the birds
chirping from the outside making me feel like I'm living a normal life.
After what I've gone through at the Red Faction's hideout, I do deserve to let
my mind and body rest for awhile right?
I just want to feel being back in Loki's arms again.
"I'm excited for my baby bump."
Patagilid pa akong nakatayo sa harap ng salamin para mas makita kung may baby
bump na nga ako.
Dahil maluwag ang suot ay hinigpitan ko iyon at ang ibang tela ay hinawakan sa
likod so I could see my flat stomach. Nang hindi makuntento ay itinaas ko na ang
damit hanggang tyan ko. I was wearing a pajama pants even if I'm used with only
wearing an underwear if I have a top like this. But Loki was so strict. Malalamigan
daw ako at baka makaapekto pa daw sa bata at sa sugat ko.
Loki was standing behind me. Handang-handa para umalalay kahit nakakatayo na
naman ako. Iyon nga lang, kailangan dahan-dahanin ang paggalaw para hindi sumakit
ang sugat sa likod ko.
"When do you think I will have it?" I asked.
"I've no idea. I haven't experienced being pregnant yet."
I glared and rolled my eyes at him because of his stupid answer. He laughed and
stood closer to me and hugged me from behind. His hands caressed my stomach.
"Let's visit an ob-gyne once you get better and ask her, hm?"
I pouted a bit. Iritado pa din sa sagot nya pero hindi na lang masyadong
pinansin. Pero natigilan nang may maisip.
"What's wrong?" tanong nya nang makita ang pagbabago ng expression ko through
the reflection of the mirror.
"I just thought of something."
"That is?"
He put his chin on my shoulders. I craned my neck to gave more space for him.
"I'm worried."
"About what?"
"When my tummy gets bigger, I'm worried that I might look like a fat cow."
Natulala sya so I continued talking.
"God! I will look ugly!"
Loki chuckled and buried his face on my neck that irritates me more. What's so
funny? I'm so worried here! Fuck! Can't I get pregnant without having a mega big
stomach?

Papanget ako!
"Damn, I missed you so much." bulong ni Loki pero natatawa naman.
I elbowed him out of irritation.
 "Ow..." daing nya.
"Try to get serious!"
"I am! You're just so cute I can't help but to laugh!"
Hinayaan ko na lang syang tumawa. Nakakainis, eh! Sya kaya ang mabuntis dito at
lumaki ang tyan? Let's see kung kaakit-akit pa sya.
He did stop after a while and just keeps on caressing my tummy. I was just
watching him through the mirror and feeling his warm hands against my skin.
"Anong gusto mo? A boy or a girl?" I asked.
I'm curious.
"Hm..." he hummed.
Nakita kong para syang nag-iisip. He even stopped caressing my tummy for a
while but continued when he found his answer to my question.
"At first, I wanted a boy. So he can protect his younger siblings. But I
realized that even if it's a girl, she can protect them as well. I know that they
will grow up as a strong person like their mother."
I smiled. "That's sweet."
He chuckled. "What would you name him if it's a he?"
Natawa ako. Hindi pa nga namin alam ang gender pero napag-uusapan na namin ang
ipapangalan sa anak namin.
We're both excited for this. Just the thought of having a child and Loki is
with me taking care of them excites the hell out of me.
"I'll name him after you. Loki Alexander Nimrod Von Amstel the fifth. The
Prince of... Whatever title they will give you when you became a Duke."
He smiled and pulled me closer to him in a gentle way.
"The Duke of Norfolk." he said.
My lips formed a small o.
"Then Loki Alexander Nimrod Von Amstel the fifth, The Prince of Norfolk."
He kissed my cheeks and stared at our reflection through the mirror.
"Much better."
We talked about small things and I realize that we barely have any moments like
this. Kailan lang ba? Back at his beach house. That's the only time that we got to
live a normal life.
And now, talking our future with him made my heart swells with so much
happiness. I can be happy with him, right? Nothing bad will happen again to us,
right?
We really need to stop the game.
We were interrupted when someone knocked at our door. We were cuddling sa sofa
kaya si Loki na ang tumayo at nagbukas ng pinto. Pagbalik nya ay kasunod nya si
Tracer na nakaupo din sa wheelchair.
Loki went near me and kissed my forehead.
"I'll just wait outside." he said.
I nodded at him and he smiled at me before he turned his back. He tapped Tracer
on the shoulders before he finally went out of the room, closing the door as he
left.
I stared at Tracer. There's a brace guard on both of his legs. I could still
see some whiplash wounds on his body that's peeking on his shirt but it's starting
to heal.
"How are you, Tracer?"
I don't know... Something had changed between us after what happened. There was
no... wall and none of us were on guard right now. Wala na rin ang galit sa mga
mata nya na palaging nandoon kapag tinitignan nya ako dati.
"Getting better." he said. "You?"
I smiled at him. "Doing good."
Natahimik kami. I waited for him to say something. He wouldn't personally visit
me here just to ask that question.
"I'm sorry about Nergal... and Enkidu."
I got shocked. I didn't imagine him to say their names. I didn't even know that
he knew their names! I thought that he'll gonna address them as my 'pet' or my
'Bishop.'
 Hearing those names made my heart ache so bad. I think I will always feel this
way whenever I will hear their names.
"I didn't know that this is how it feels to lose someone so important to me." I
said.
I looked at Tracer. At a young age, he lost both of his parents. Naiintindihan
ko na ang nararamdaman nila ng kapatid nya. I now understand why he wanted justice
and revenge for his parents' death. 'Cause right now, iyon din ang nararamdam ko.
"Pain, regrets, sorrow, guilt... Lahat ng 'yon sabay-sabay kong nararamdaman."
I said. "They were always beside me even from the start. I thought that it'll be
forever like that but now... They're gone."
My eyes teared up. Fuck... It was so sudden. All of these just feels like a bad
dream.
"It hurts so bad thinking that I have to wake up everyday bearing the truth
that they're not here in this world." I continued. "It hurts thinking that I would
never feel their warmth beside me anymore."
Tracer didn't say anything and just let me poured my feelings. It was so easy
for me now to open up to him. He knew, he witnessed that Enkidu and Nergal were
willing to sacrifice their lives for me. Alam nya iyon sa sandaling panahong
nakasama nya kami.
"It's unbearable..." I whispered. "Nasanay akong palagi silang nandito sa tabi
ko then all of a sudden... Bigla na lang silang mawawala."
"I know... I understand."
"I'm so sorry..." I said.
These feelings made me realized so many things. Even if I'm not the one who
killed their parents, still, I know that I have to apologize.
Tracer sighed. Pumikit sya at nang dumilat ay agad na tumingin sa akin.
"This is why I am here, Eresh..." he said. "I want you to stop blaming
yourself."
"But this is all my fault."
"Stop beating yourself because of this. I know that you were willing to
sacrifice your life back there to atone for what you did. Pero hindi mo kailangan
gawin iyon, Eresh."
He sighed again and licked his lips.
"You're wounded ever since. But you did your best to keep moving on everyday
even with a broken mind and heart. I want you to stop suffering now, Eresh."
Napaiyak ako. Sa lahat, sa kanilang magkapatid ako nakagawa ng malaking
kasalanan. Yet he's here, trying to comfort me.
He made a small smile. A smile I never thought he will ever gave me.
"I forgive you. So let yourself heal, Eresh..."

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Chapter 83

My eyes remained on Tracer while I was trying to digest

what he had said. My mind couldn't process his words and I even thought that I
didn't hear him right.
It just so... impossible.
I mean, Red Faction wasn't really good to him. Especially the Sanford brothers.
Sieg and Dyke killed their parents. We even targeted Artemis once when we found out
that she's one of his weaknesses. And the thing I did to Gray.
It was... unforgivable. So maybe I just heard him wrong, right?
"You're... forgiving me?" I asked, just to make sure.
He nodded that surprised me. I clearly heard what he said a minute ago and now
that he's confirming it, mas lalong hindi kapani-paniwala.
"Why?" tanong kong nagpakunot sa noo nya. "I mean, Tracer. I did so many
horrible things to you and your brother. I don't even have the rights to talk
casually to you like this. I am so ashamed to even look at you. Then, you'll just
gonna forgive me that easily?"
"Easily?" he asked with a furrowed brows. "Do you really think that it was easy
for me?"
Natahimik ako.
"I was so mad at you! Tangina, namatay na nga ang mga magulang namin pero hindi
ka pa nakuntento. You took Gray and drugged him! Tingin mo madali lang sa akin ang
magpatawad?"
"Then why are you doing it—"
"Because we both deserve it!"
He sighed. Pinipilit nyang pakalmahin ang sarili dahil sa maling nasabi ko
kanina.
"Mahirap ang magpatawad especially if you've been hurt so much." he said.
"Hindi madali, Eresh."
He closed his eyes tight. Natahimik kaming pareho at walang nagsasalita. I
don't plan of interrupting him. It seems like this is the most crucial moment for
him.
Of course. This is really hard for him. I was not even expecting that he'll
ever forgive me kaya gulat na gulat ako ngayon.
"I won't ever forget the feeling of losing my parents. I will never forget that
time when I saw my little brother hiding inside the closet looking so fucking
scared. I won't forget the feeling when I thought that he's dead. I won't forget
the feeling when he looked at me with hatred in his eyes. I will never forget how
it feels with every whiplash that he gave me."
My eyes started to water. Fuck. I am not emotional. I don't cry easily. Kaya
kong pilitin ang sarili ko na huwag umiyak. I could even act opposite to what I'm
feeling.
But ever since I opened up myself to Loki, nahirapan na akong itago ang emosyon
ko. It actually feels good to let go of my emotions. And maybe because, I am
pregnant as well.
"I was so sure I will never forgive you. No matter what your reason is, I still
won't."
"Alam ko naman..." bulong kong nakayuko at pinaglalaruan na ang mga daliri sa
kamay.
I heard him sigh. "But after all that happened, I realized that we shouldn't
really judge people so easily without knowing their story. Kasi hindi lahat ng
nakikita ng mga mata natin ay ang totoo."
I looked at him. Wala na ang galit sa mga mata nya kanina. All I can see is...
gentleness.
"After I heard your story, nahiya ako sa sarili ko. I judged you too quickly.
Mas matindi pa pala ang pinagdaanan mo."
I shook my head at him.
"No, Tracer... We both suffered. Walang mas lamang. We have our own sufferings.
Hindi kailangan pagkumparahin dahil pareho tayong nagdusa."

"I know... But still, I felt ashamed. You suffered ever

since you were a child. You tried hard to live even after what you've gone through.
You did everything to feel alive that you are willing to hurt other people. At
nakakatakot isipin kung anong naramdaman mo while you were trying to climb up when
the whole world is dragging you down."
Tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ko at mabilis ko iyong pinunasan. I'm really weak
when it comes about my past. When it comes about everything that I did just to
deserve living the life that was given to me.
My father made me think that in order for me to deserve living in this world, I
must win the game. Dahil walang kwenta ang buhay ko kapag hindi ako nanalo. That I
should just die if I lose. My existence is only for this game, to win this game
kaya walang magiging saysay ang buhay ko kung matatalo ako.
 "I will understand if you can't really forgive me, Tracer. Marami akong
nagawang mali. I have to pay for all my sins—"
"And you did." Tracer cut me odd. "You did, Eresh. You did well."
You did well... Did he really just... compliment me?
"I'm here 'cause I want you to know that I understand you. Hindi ko man alam
ang nararamdaman mo, but I understand. You were just trying to live. You want to
live and that's so brave of you."
Hindi na ako makatingin sa kanya at yumuko na lang. Fuck... I'm so ashamed of
myself. I'm so ashamed of all those things that I did. Pero wala na akong ibang
maisip na paraan, eh. I was desperate to win the game. I was desperate to live. I
was desperate to have a normal life. Kaya kahit mali, ginawa ko.
"And I saw how you changed." Tracer continued. "You changed a lot, Eresh. I saw
how much you wanted to pay for what you did that you are even willing to sacrifice
your life. Pero malapit nang matapos ang laro, Eresh. Ngayon ka pa ba bibitiw sa
buhay na ayaw mong pakawalan?"
I saw tears fell down to my hands. Fuck it, Tracer. Why are you so kind? Mas
lalo lang akong nagu-guilty sa ginawa ko.
"If you think that's the only way to atone for your sins, then you're wrong."
he said. "You suffered enough already. The best you can do is to let go of your
past and heal yourself. That's what I want you to do as a payment for what you did.
And I will do the same as well."
Napatingin ako sa kanya. I saw a gentle smile on his face that hurt my heart
more.
I can't believe that I did horrible things to this wonderful person yet he's
still doing this to me.
Then again, I realized that this is one of the thing that I need. I need this
closure. I need this to move on with my life. I need this to be able to let go of
my past. I need this to start living a better life.
Tracer knew it. That's why he's giving it to me.
"I'm sorry, Eresh. For judging you. You are just a human. And it's a human
nature to protect oneself. It's a human nature to wanting to live a life."
"I'm so sorry, Tracer." sabi kong hindi na mapigilan ang paghikbi. Napangiti
sya.
"Forgiven."
Hinayaan nya lang ako na umiyak doon. Sinubukan ko naman na pakalmahin ang
sarili ko kaagad.
Fuck... After our talk, parang may kung anong nawala na mabigat sa dibdib ko. I
realized that even if I was expecting him not to forgive me, I still wanted it to
happen. That's why I did everything, even sacrificing my life just to save him.
'Cause I know that what I did were unforgivable.
Yet Tracer is here. Still giving me his forgiveness even if I'm still alive.
Kahit na hindi ko isinakripisyo ang buhay ko. I couldn't believe that despite of
his grudge and anger, he still has a big heart.

It was so brave of him to forgive the person that do him so

much suffering. Wala sya ngayon sa wheelchair na 'yon kung hindi dahil sa ginawa ko
sa kapatid nya.
"Did you tell Artemis about this?" I asked when I've calmed down. "'Yang
nangyari sayo?"
He shook his head. I saw a ghost smile on his face.
"I couldn't. Kung sinabi ko sa kanya, malamang wala ako dito ngayon dahil
pinauwi na nya ako sa bahay."
Natawa ako dahil doon. Naalala ko nga pala na sumugod si Artemis sa hideout
nang malaman nyang nabaril si Tracer. What more now?
"You have twins, right?" I asked. Tumango sya. "Identical?"
Nakita ko ang kislap sa mga mata nya.
"Yeah. They both have blue eyes. Nakuha nila kay Artemis."
 "Aren't you jealous, though? I mean, kahit isa man lang sana sa kanila, nakuha
ng eye color mo."
His gray eyes were beautiful. Both Gray and his eyes were captivating.
He shook his head. Sumilay na ang ngiti sa mga labi.
"I really don't give a damn kung wala silang manahin sa akin. As long as their
mother is Artemis, everything is alright." he chuckled.
Natahimik ako. May gustong itanong pero nahihiya naman. We just have our
closure and I don't want to act friendly all of the sudden.
I mean, yes, he might've forgiven me but maybe, he doesn't want us to be
friends. It'll be more awkward for the both of us.
But I want Artemis as my friend though. I admire how she could tame this man im
front of me.
But fuck! I'm really curious!
"You have twins, right?" was my stupid question. Natanong ko na 'yan kanina,
eh! Inulit pa!
I saw Tracer frown. Naguluhan din siguro sa akin. But he still answered my
question.
"Yeah."
"Then, uhm... Her tummy must've twice bigger than normal when she still had the
twins inside her... right?"
Tumango si Tracer. There's a confused look in his eyes. Maybe he doesn't have
any idea where our conversation is going to.
I cleared my throat. Nahihiyang magtanong but fuck that shame. That word is not
even in my dictionary.
I am always, always a confident Queen.
"Did Artemis look like an ugly fat cow, then?"
Natulala si Tracer sa akin. Nagulat yata sa tanong ko at hindi kaagad
nakapagsalita.
"Sabi kasi nila, tumataba at pumapanget ang mga buntis." I said to the confused
Tracer. "What about Artemis then?"
He frowned, still confused with my questions. He stared at me before I saw his
eyes travelled down and stopped on my stomach. Mabilis din nyang ibinalik ang
tingin sa mukha ko at tumawa.
"No..." he answered while still laughing. "She was still gorgeous. The most
beautiful pregnant woman I've ever seen."
"Ah, talaga?"
Napaisip ako. So Artemis remained beautiful even with a big tummy, huh? She
didn't get ugly. But then, she's really beautiful though. Will I be the same?
But then again, I am more beautiful than her. So maybe, my beauty will remain
even with a big stomach.
"You're pregnant?" tanong ni Tracer na may ngiti sa mga labi.
I smiled back at him. Unconsciously caressing my stomach.
"Yeah."
"And you're worried that you'll get ugly."
I raised an eyebrow at him. "That will never ever happen."
He chuckled. "Let's see."
I glared at him. He smirked at me at nagpatuloy pa sya sa pagsasalita.
"Ang sabi nila kapag nabuntis daw at pumanget, hindi na bumabalik even after
they gave birth."
My eyes widened because of that.
"No way!" Fuck! No! My beauty won't say goodbye to me!
Narinig ko ang malakas na tawa ni Tracer at na-realize kong inaasar nya lang
ako. I rolled my eyes at him. Annoyed that he almost got me there.
He stopped laughing and when he looked at me, I saw his genuine smile at me.
"I'm happy for you."
I smiled back. I want to say those words to him as well. But not now... Not now
that Gray is still now well.
Bumukas ang pintuan at pumasok si Loki mang hindi man lang kumakatok. I rolled
my eyes at him. Old habits die hard.
 "I heard the both of you laughing so I figured that everything is okay now?"
tanong ni Loki na umupo sa tabi ko.
Tracer grinned. He chuckled before he shook his head.
"Alright, alright. Lalabas na nga." sabi nya at hinawakan ang control ng
wheelchair. "Eresh..."
I nodded at him out of courtesy. He nod back and controlled his wheelchair and
went out of the room.
"You okay?" Loki asked when Tracer is finally out. He hugged me on the waist
and carefully pulled me closer to him.
I smiled and leaned my body to him.
"Better than ever."

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Chapter 84

Loki finally let me out of the room when I proved to him

that I could already walk and stand without any problems. There's still a slight
pain on my back but it was now bearable unlike before that I had to be careful with
my every move.
It was a beautiful morning. The birds were chirping and the sun was shining
brightly. I was sitting on the back garden of the new EL Ordre's hideout. I don't
know where this is though as I was unconscious when they brought me here. But I'm
sure that we're safe with the help of Codee and Tracer's skills. They built the
security around the hideout.
I was slowly caressing my tummy, feeling excited about my pregnancy but also
worried at the same time. I don't have any idea about being a mother. I was
deprived of parental love so I've no idea on what to do. Natatakot akong... baka
kamuhian din ako ng magiging anak namin ni Loki.
Also... I'm really worried about my beauty when my tummy gets bigger.
Fucking dammit! I just wanna feel excited pero hindi ko pa rin talaga maiwasan
ang mag-alala tungkol doon!
What if I do really become an ugly fat cow? Loki might leave me!
I was still panicking deep inside when I heard a footsteps. I looked to where
it's coming from and saw V walking towards me with a smile on her face.
"Hi!" she greeted and stopped in front of me.
"Hey..."
"Can I sit beside you?" tinuro nya pa ang space sa tabi ko.
I nodded and scoot over to give her more space. She thanked me and sat down
beside me.
Well... This is fucking awkward.
The last time we were in the same room, we almost killed each other.
Bigla syang lumingon sa akin.
"How are you?" she asked. "I heard na nabaril ka. Okay ka na ba?"
"Yeah... I'm feeling better now."
She smiled and nodded her head. Tumingin sya sa harapan nya at pagkatapos ay
natahimik na kami.
This is so, so fucking awkward. I haven't been in a situation like this before
that's why I don't know what to do!
I hurt her before. I should apologize, right?"
I cleared my throat.
"How's your..." I trailed off. Di alam kung paano itatanong sa kanya.
Napatingin sya sa akin. I pointed at the part of my head where I know I hit the
same spot of hers with a vase before.
"How's your head?"
She laughed. Probably because she saw the awkwardness in me. Umiling sya at
ngumiti sa akin.
 "It healed a long time ago, Eresh. Don't worry. I'm okay now."
Tumango na lang ako at hindi na ulit nagsalita. I have a feeling that I'll just
make it more awkward between us if I do.
I looked at her from the corner of my eye. I heard that she already has a
daughter yet she still looked gorgeous and sexy like this.
I still have a chance.
"I'm sorry for judging you, Eresh."
Napalingon na ako sa kanya nang magsalita sya. She looked at me. Regret and
shame were in her eyes.
"I only heard stories about you. About what the things that you did. And I
quickly judge you because of that." she smiled sadly at me. "I may not know your
whole story, but Loki accepted you and Tracer forgave you made me realized things.
That I don't really know the real you. I don't have any idea what daily struggles
you have. I'm really sorry for what I did."

I rolled my eyes at her.

"Yeah. Imagine my shock when you suddenly slapped me thrice! And that was our
first meeting!"
Napangiwi sya pero tumawa din naman.
"Sorry talaga. I've been with Tracer ever since so I know how much he loves his
family. Kaya napangunahan ako ng mga emosyon ko noon." she tilted her head. "I hope
you'll forgive me?"
I couldn't blame her though. I realized everything now as well. That all of us
have our own share of sufferings in this game. Everybody had gone through
something. And that people shouldn't really judge a person with just knowing a
little piece of their story as they wouldn't understand everything about them.
Do not judge a person by their past mistakes. Instead, judge them on their
insight to own up their mistakes and having the courage to make it right and move
on.
"I'm sorry too." I said. "About what I did to your head."
She laughed and I smiled at her. I couldn't really believe that there are
people with a big heart and understanding mind like the EL Ordre. They are willing
to listen to every sides of the story and give chance to the person who did them
wrong.
"So Violet is Yucca of the Red Faction?" she asked after awhile.
I nodded at her. "The King's Bishop."
"And she made us think that she's a part of the EL Ordre kasi binabantayan nya
si Shielder. 'Cause you're planning to make him as the King of the Red Faction."
I heard pain in her voice as she said that. She really treated Yucca as her
friend. Madalas nga syang nababanggit ni Yucca sa akin everytime she's giving me a
report.
"So that's why she's always alone when she's doing her mission. Ang akala ko ay
gusto nya lang talagang mag-isa sa mga misyon."
She stared at her front for awhile but I know that her presence of mind is
somewhere else. Hinayaan ko lang syang mag-isip.
"But she fell in coma after what happened in Zambales!" V said when she looked
at me again. "That's why it never crossed my mind that she's actually a traitor.
Iniisip kong hindi nyo hahayaang masaktan ng ganoon ang teammates nyo!"
"It was her punishment." I said. "Black— Liam Ortega asked her where the EL
Ordre's hideout is. But she never answered. Si Liam ang nagbigay ng parusa sa
kanya. I let him gave his punishment for her."
"It means that she treasured EL Ordre to keep a secret like that, right?"
I saw hope in her eyes when she said that. I sighed.
"She did that to protect Shielder. Ayaw nyang umatake kami sa inyo hangga't
hindi pa namin nakukuha si Shielder."
"She really loves him, then."
Napayuko sya. I know that she's hurt. She really treasures Yucca as her real
friend and not just as a teammate. I noticed that whenever Yucca was talking about
her as she gave me her report.
I don't know if Yucca feels the same though. If she treated V as her Fri as
well.
"I just can't understand why she drugged Shielder when she knew that it'll be
dangerous for him?" she asked. "Kung mahal nya, hindi nya dapat ginawa 'yun."
I looked at her and gave her a sad smile.
"There are different kinds of love. I guess hers is the destructive one."
We went back inside after she chatted for awhile. Mainit na kasi sa balat ang
sikat ng araw. Loki brought lunch in my room and that's where we shared our meal
together. Ayaw nya na akong pababain. He's worried about our child in my tummy.
I'm worried as well. I'm worried that I might make a mistake again. I'm worried
that something bad will happen to the baby if I won't be careful. Ayokong masayang
ang sakripisyo nina Nergal at Pierre.
Thinking that they wouldn't be able to see the other life that they saved hurts
me so much.
"Eresh."
I was surprised when it was Aius who approached me the next day while I was
sitting in the garden. Loki is with his teammates. They're trying to make a plan
samantalang ako ay nagpapaaraw dito sa labas. So anong ginagawa ng King dito?
"Auis." I greeted him and he sat beside me.
Pareho kaming napatingin lang sa harapan namin. I thought of the time when he
offered me to join force with them. Iyong bago pa man ako mahulog ng husto kay
Loki. I declined his offered twice. That's when the time when I still wanted to win
the game to prove myself to my father.
But now, I realized that I do not need anything from him. He was the reason why
I got so broken and hurt. Ibang pagpapalaki ang ginawa nya sa akin. He almost made
me into a monster. But Loki came and saved me.
"I have a question, Aius." I said. Napatingin sya sa akin pero nanatili ang
tingin ko sa harap. "Your father loves the EL Ordre's former Queen, right? Bakit
iba ang nanay mo?"
Natawa sya sa paraan ng pagtatanong ko. Fuck... I still don't know how to talk
to people... normally. I guess I wasn't normal, huh? All I did back then was to
think of a plan and give orders to my chess pieces.
"Nakabuntis si Dad. It was my Mom." sagot ni Aius sa tanong ko. "They were
still together at that time pero nabuntis nya ang nanay ko. My Dad was so guilty
for hurting her. But the former Queen still accepted him though and she's also
willing to adopt me as her own."
Tumingin ulit sya sa harapan nya pero nanatili ang tingin ko sa kanya. I saw
the sadness in his eyes.
"But then, I guess they weren't really made for each other. The Red Faction's
former King raped her. Dad was still willing to accept her pero hindi sya pumayag.
'Cause there's me and Ishtar. Kaya nang mamatay sya, Dad took care of Ishtar para
pagbayaran ang kataksilan nya noon."
Napangiwi ako. "I'm sorry. I was just curious. Hindi ko alam na malalim pala
ang rason."
He chuckled. "No worries. I'm okay telling everyone about my story."
Pinasadahan ko sya ng tingin. He was wearing a black shirt and a black ripped
pants. Hawak nya sa isang kamay ang black leather jacket na hindi nya sinuot dahil
mainit.
"I'm sorry about Angela."
He didn't say anything but I saw a sad smile on his face. He looked up the sky
and closed his eyes, feeling the warmth of the sunlight on his face.
"I still love her after all those years." he said. "Hindi ko na magagawang
magmahal ng iba pa."
My heart hurts for him. I didn't understand back then the feeling of losing
someone you love. I don't understand the EL Ordre as to why their love one is their
weaknesses. But after what happened to Nergal and Pierre, I now understand
everything.
 Especially now that I have Loki and our baby in me.
They are my weaknesses.

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Chapter 85

This is the last chapter of Chess Pieces #5: Loki Von

Amstel. Thank you for supporting Loki and Eresh's story. Hope you'll support the
next book entitled Chess Pieces Endgame: Checkmate!
Next ud is the Epilogue.
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I was standing in front of the closed door, contemplating if I should knock or
what. I know that there's someone inside this room. And thinking that I will see
her once I open this door made me wanna rethink of my decision.
But I must do this. This is also a part of moving on. I have to talk to her.
'Cause in the first place, naging dahilan din sya ng pagkasira ko.
"You sure about this?" Loki asked. He was beside me as I stared at the closed
door. Nakita nya siguro ang pag-aalala sa mukha ko habang nakatitig ako doon.
I looked at him and smiled.
"Don't worry. Ishtar didn't undergo any training. Hindi nya ako masasaktan."
Loki nodded but there's still uncertainty in his eyes. I chuckled. Humarap ako
sa kanya at niyakap sya sa bewang. He hugged me back.
"You've witnessed us fighting before, right? She can't do anything to me, my
King. So stop worrying."
He sighed and kissed me on the forehead. Ipinatong nya ang baba nya sa tuktok
ng ulo ko.
"I just don't want to get hurt again."
Natawa na lang ako. What could Ishtar do to me though? She couldn't even
slapped me! Sya pa nga ang masasaktan ko!
Loki let go of me after I convinced him that he shouldn't worry about anything.
I stared at the closed door again before I knocked. I took a deep breath and turned
the doorknob before I opened the door.
I left Loki outside as I took a step in the room. I closed the door behind me.
I'm sure that Ishtar heard the knock and me entering the room but she didn't
even looked at me. Nanatili lang syang nakaupo sa sofa na nakaharap sa bintana kaya
nakatalikod sya sa akin ngayon.
Somehow, I remember myself in her. Back at the old EL Ordre's hideout. I was
also like that, sitting on the sofa and not minding anyone who's going inside my
room.
Nagkabaliktad na kami ngayon ng sitwasyon.
I wonder how she felt now? I mean, she's not like me. I was alone, I am used of
being alone for my entire life. With only Pierre and Nergal on my side. But
Ishtar... She's not used to it. She's been surrounded with people who loved her for
all her life. Being alone like this was surely new to her. And she's been here ever
since Aius found out about what she did.
I stopped in front of her, blocking her view of the window. She sighed in
frustration and looked at me with anger in her eyes.
"Ano? Nagpunta ka dito para pagtawanan ako?"
"I want us to talk, Ishtar."
She laughed as if she's mocking me. "Talk? Alam nating hindi lang 'yan ang
gusto mong gawin. You want to kill me, right? Then kill me! You're a murderer
anyway!"
I didn't say anything and just look at her. There's anger in her eyes like she
wanted to hurt me but she knew better than that. She knew that she doesn't have a
chance against me when it comes to physical fight. So she's using words to me. Alam
nyang mas masasaktan nya ako sa mga salita. Just like before.
 "You are evil!" she spat at me. "Demonyo ka! Ang dami mong ginawang masama! You
deserve everything that happened to you! Kulang pa nga ang mga 'yon!"
I just stared at her, still not saying anything.
"Nobody wants an evil witch like you! Walang nagmamahal sayo! While me? I got
everything! Pero ikaw wala kasi demonyo ka!"

Nanatili pa rin ang mga titig ko sa kanya. I know that

she's just spouting nonsense. I was trying to find something in her to understand
her. I still want to understand her.
Siguro, kung ako ang dating Eresh, malamang kanina ko pa sya sinampal.
But... I'm not that Ereshkigal anymore. Loki introduced me who the real
Ereshkigal is.
The strong and brave Queen.
"Ang dapat sayo, mamatay!" Ishtar continued. "Pay everything that you did with
your life!"
She stood up when I still didn't say anything.
"Ano?! Magsalita ka! Magsalita kang demonyo ka!"
"Okay..." I sighed. "You're right. I'm evil. Maybe I do deserve to die. But
what can I do? Even death doesn't want me. So I decided to treasure the life that
was given to me."
Yes... Treasure my life. 'Cause just like what Tracer said, I did everything to
live, ngayon pa ba ako bibitaw?
And I don't want Nergal and Pierre's sacrifice go to waste.
I smiled at Ishtar. Mukhang nagulat sya sa pagngiti kong 'yon.
"You know what? I envy you so much, Ishtar. You got everything that I wanted.
So many people loved you. So many people wanted to protected you. While me? I had
no one."
"Kasi demonyo ka."
I flashed her a sad smile.
"Maybe you're right... You got our father's love. That's what I really wanted,
Ishtar. For him to love me as his own daughter. Anak nya rin naman ako. That's why
I did everything to make him proud. Even if I turn into a monster, I didn't care."
Si Ishtar naman ngayon ang hindi na nagsasalita. She was just looking at me,
still with anger in her eyes.
"You got everything I wanted, Ishtar." I repeated so she could understand
better. "Everything. You even got to live a normal life."
She gulped. Nakita kong naapektuhan sya. She's so easy to read as she didn't
undergo such training about not showing emotions on her face.
I looked at her sadly.
"But what happened to you? Why did you have to betray the people who showed you
kindness?"
She glared at me but I continued.
"You know how much Aius loved Angela. Pero bakit kailangan mo syang ipapatay?"
"Shut up!"
"Bakit kailangan mong mandamay ng inosente?"
"Shut up!" mas malakas nyang sigaw kaysa sa una. "Huwag kang magmalinis!
Nandamay ka rin naman ng mga inosente!"
"Hindi ako nagmamalinis! Isa pa, I never actually killed anyone! Yes, I know I
did mistakes but I never ordered anyone to kill someone! Pero ikaw, Ishtar? Nagawa
mo! And worse, it was the woman that your King loved!"
"Shut up!" she screamed at the top of her lungs.
The rooms here are not soundproof unlike to the old EL Ordre's hideout. They
didn't have a time to make every rooms soundproof as L is still unconscious and
Gray is not with them.
So I'm sure, that Loki could hear our conversation here as he was just waiting
behind that closed door.
"Hindi mo ako naiintindihan!" Ishtar said. Tears formed in the corner of her
eyes. "I never really wanted to be protected like that! They were just doing it
because I'm the EL Ordre's Queen!"
She sobbed. I choose not to say anything as I want her to tell me everything. I
want to hear and understand her reasons. Just like how Loki did. Just like how EL
Ordre did.

I want to give her a second chance as well. As we are all

just victim of this game.
"You think I wanted to be the EL Ordre's Queen? No! Ayoko! Pero ipinamigay ako,
Eresh! Our father let Lucius' father took me away like that! All I wanted is to be
with him! Pero bakit ikaw ang nanatili sa tabi nya?"
My eyes widened because of her words. I couldn't believe what I'm hearing. I
couldn't believe that I'll actually hear this from her!
"He raped my mother, right?" Ishtar sobbed as tears fell from her eyes. "He
should pay for what he did and took good care of me! Pero pinamigay nya ako! He
chose you to stay with him! And I loathe the both of you to depth!"
What the fuck?
"The EL Ordre protected me but their attention isn't on me! Hinayaan lang nila
ako. They never treated me as their Queen! Lucius even got a girl when I am his
Queen! Wala silang pakialam sa akin!" she glared at me. "And then you! You got
Loki's attention! Anong meron sayo na wala sakin at palaging ikaw ang pinipili,
huh? Bakit palaging na sayo ang atensyon nila?!"
My body began to tremble with rage. I tried to calm myself down 'cause I'm
worried about the baby but I just couldn't. Hearing those words angered me to hell!
"Tapos gustong bumawi ng ama natin kung kailan huli na ang lahat? He helped me
to kill Angela! That good-for-nothing girl who got Aius' attention!"
"Tangina, Ishtar! Just shut up!"
"You took everything from me! You all took everything away from me! You all
deserve what happened to you! Angela deserves to die!"
"I said shut the fuck up!"
I couldn't stopped myself when I slapped her so hard. So hard that she lost
balanced and fell down on the sofa. Napaupo sya habang nakahawak sa pisngi nyang
sinampal ko. Her lips began to bled as her tears fell down from her eyes.
"You're so selfish! You're so selfish!"
Hindi ko na napigilan ang pag-iyak habang sinasabi iyon. Fuck! I couldn't
believe na kinainggitan ko sya buong buhay ko. I couldn't believe that I got
envious to someone like her. Pakiramdam ko, nasayang lang ang mga panahong
kinainggitan ko sya.
"You are so selfish, Ishtar!" sigaw ko sa kanya. Tears fell down from my eyes.
"You killed someone so innocent because of your selfishness? Dahil ano? Minahal sya
ni Aius?"
"You didn't know what I felt 'cause you got everyone's attention! You got Loki
and father's attention!"
"Putangina naman, Ishtar!" I almost cried out of frustration. "You didn't know
what I've gone through! You didn't know anything! Ikaw ang walang alam!"
I cried. Nanghihina akong napaupo sa dulo ng kama. Umiyak na naman ako. V said
that this was just pregnancy hormones. That I will get more emotional now that I'm
pregnant.
I looked at Ishtar. She was also crying and her cheeks that I slapped started
to get reddish. But I didn't care. I actually think that it wasn't enough for her
to wake up.
"I've been through hell by the hands of our father." I said as I wiped the
tears off my face. "He sexually assaulted me, Ishtar. He did disgusting things to
me. Iyon ba ang kinaiinggitan mo, huh?"
I saw that she got surprised when I told her the truth. Her eyes widened as her
lips parted out of shock. Hindi sya nakagalaw sa sobrang gulat.
"He made me think that I was just a tool for this game. He never treated me as
his own daughter. He never showed his fatherly love to me. While he was so proud of
you even when you're away."

I laughed without any humor. It still hurts. And I know

that everytime I'll talk about my past, I will still get hurt. The scar will
forever remain in my heart.
"Naiinggit ka pa rin ba sa akin?"
She cried and buried her face on her palms. I bit my lower lip to stop my sobs
that wanted to scape. Pero hindi ko napigilan ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko.
"You should've treasured what you have, Ishtar. You shouldn't have asked for
more." I wiped my tears. "You should've counted your blessings instead of counting
others. Walang nagagawang mabuti ang pagkainggit."
Humagulgol sya habang nakatakip pa rin ang mga palad nya sa mukha nya. I closed
my eyes. I suddenly feel so drained. So tired of everything.
We both got our own insecurities that made us do unforgivable things. It's
never really good to be envy and jealous of others. As you will not find happiness
and contentment if you do.
That's why I'm letting go of my past. So I could finally move forward.
I stood up and looked down at Ishtar. Unti-unti nang tumutubo ang buhok nya
kaya nagpapakita na ang totoong kulay doon. She dyed her blonde hair to brown. I
thought that she hated our father but just like me, she just wanted to feel
parental love.
She got that though. From the EL Ordre's former King. But she chose to look for
more.
Kung dati ay kinaiinggitan ko sya, ngayon ay naaawa na lang ako sa kanya.
She's... a family. I wonder what we'll become if father didn't let the EL
Ordre's former King took her away from us.
Ishtar and I still had our sister moments back then. Pero nasira ang lahat.
"I know it's hard." I said. "But I hope that you will have the courage to pay
for what you did. They showed you kindness and yet..." I sighed. "I hope that
you'll be able to move on."
I looked at her one last time before I walked towards the door. Naririnig ko pa
rin ang mga hikbi nya nang pihitin ko ang doorknob at binuksan ang pintuan.
I thought that I'll find Loki waiting outside but I was shocked to see that
he's not alone. Nakatalikod sa akin si Loki na parang hinaharangan ang pintuan sa
sinumang gustong pumasok. While the whole EL Ordre was in front of him.
I saw Codee who's crying with her hands covering her mouth while looking at me.
I saw Archer who's helping Tracer to stand straight and they're both looking at me
with gentleness in their eyes. I saw V crying as her husband, Kier hugged her
tight. There's also the man with amber eyes and Viper who were staring at me. I saw
Ishtar's Bishop who looked worried as he glanced inside the room. And there's Aius
who's eyes were bloodshot, jaw was clenching and there's pain in his eyes.
"Lucius..."
Napalingon ako sa likod ko. Ishtar looked surprise when she saw the whole EL
Ordre. She took a step forward but Aius shook his head. Kitang-kita ko ang galit at
lungkot sa mga mata nya habang nakatingin kay Ishtar.
"I never thought that you could be so low." he said.
Mas lalong napaiyak si Ishtar. Aius gulped hard. His jaw moved as he gritted
his teeth and looked at Ishtar with disappointment in his eyes.
"I regret that I met you."
Aius turned around and walked away. Mas lalong lumakas ang pag-iyak ni Ishtar.
The man with amber eyes tsked as he shook his head.
"I have been serving the wrong Queen." he chuckled. "You're right. You
shouldn't have become the Queen of EL Ordre."
Ishtar's Bishop glared at him but he just smirked and puffed his vape. He
glanced at me before he chuckled and walked away.
 I realized that they heard everything.
The Bishop went inside the room and hugged Ishtar. She cried hard on his chest.
I looked away and saw Loki who's just waiting for me.
"Are you okay?" he asked. I smiled and nodded at him.
"Hm."
"Ate!"
Nagulat ako nang sugudin ako ng yakap ni Codee at umiyak sa mga balikat ko. She
kept on saying she's sorry. I hugged her back and glanced at Loki who looked happy
for me.
I'm happy but... I still couldn't help to feel sad for Ishtar.
Damn. The last time I checked I don't really care about anyone.
I guess I really did changed.
"Wait." I said when they were about to leave. "I wanted to talk to all of you.
There's something I wanna tell you."
Nagkatinginan silang lahat. Even Loki who looked at me with confusion in his
eyes. I didn't tell him about this as I know that it must be the whole EL Ordre who
must know this.
We gathered at the living room who served as their meeting room just like back
then at their old hideout. I remember back then that I used to belittle their
hideout. But now that I think about it, having a normal house as a hideout felt
comfortable.
Aius and the man with amber eyes were also with us. Except for L who was still
unconscious and Ishtar who's inside her room.
I took a deep breath and dropped the bomb.
"I met the gamemaster."
Nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata nila. Loki was holding my hand and I noticed
his grip tightened. I know that he's surprise as well. Hindi ko man lang sya
nabigyan ng hint about dito.
"When?" Aius asked.
I looked at him.
"Back at the Red Faction's hideout."
"The gamemaster is there?" Codee asked.
"Does Gray know about this?" Tracer asked. I nodded at him.
"He's actually the one who introduced him to me." I answered. "Kilala din sya
ni Yucca... Or Violet, rather."
"You didn't kill him yet?" asked the man with amber eyes.
I looked at him irritably. He just chuckled.
"I so wanna kill him, alright?" I said. "But it wasn't the right time as Codee
—" I glared at Codee. Napangiwi lang sya. "Went to the hideout that very day. I
never saw him again since then."
"Kilala mo ba sya?" Archer asked. "In personal?"
I shook my head. "He's wearing a mask. And his voice isn't familiar."
"So the Red Faction's gamemaster is a he, then." Viper said.
"Yes. But based on his voice... He's around at his early fifties."
"Hala, matanda na?" tanong ni Codee at hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o ano. I
chose not to laugh though.
"No, Codee. He looked strong with his age. I think he could even fight against
me and he still stood a chance."
Natahimik sila. They probably think that the gamemaster's position has been
passed down as well just like to the chess pieces. In that case, he must be around
our age. Pero hindi. He was about the same age as our parents.
"Nagpakita na sa inyo ang gamemaster, bakit hindi pa rin lumalabas ang
gamemaster ng EL Ordre?" Kier asked.
I looked at him but Tracer said something.
 "Yeah... He's been sending L his orders for our mission.
Bukod doon, hindi sya nagpaparamdam."
They went silent again. I looked at Loki who's been eyeing me. Alam kong
nakikita nyang may gusto akong sabihin so he nodded his head to encourage me.
"About that..." I said. They all looked at me. "I might have an answer to that
question."
"Shoot." said Aius.
I glanced at Loki who's beside me before I looked to all of them.
"There is only one gamemaster in this game."
They got shocked even more. Nakita kong napatayo ng maayos si Aius na
nakahalukipkip from leaning his body on the wall. The man with amber eyes was about
to puff his vape but stopped as he looked at me with shocked expression on his
face.
"I don't know how it happened." I said nang wala pa ring nagsasalita sa kanila.
"I know it's impossible but this is what I believe."
"Are you sure about this?" Aius asked. I nodded at him.
"I'm sure. The gamemaster gave me a hint. Sinabi nyang isang grupo lang ang Red
Faction at ang EL Ordre noon."
"Fuck, I don't know what's happening anymore." Viper muttered.
"I think we need to ask the former chess pieces." I said.
"But isn't that against the rules? Natapos na ang game nila kaya hindi na sila
dapat mangialam." Archer reasoned out. I looked at him.
"Do you still think that there's really a rule that needs to be followed? Ever
since, the Red Faction has been breaking that rules pero nagpapatuloy pa rin ang
laro. And remember, we started this game without a King."
Natahimik sila. Mukhang nakuha ang paliwanag ko. Yes, at first. The gamemaster
punished the Red Faction when we took the EL Ordre's former Rooks information and
involved them in our game. But when I think about it clearly, walang rules na
nasusunod talaga.
"My father is dead." Codee said. "The former Knight."
"My father is just a Pawn so he didn't know much just like me." said V.
"I don't know who my real parents is." Archer said.
"I'll asked my father."
Napatingin kaming lahat kay Loki. Kung kanina ay ako ang nanggugulat, ako naman
ang nagulat ngayon.
I thought they weren't okay?
Loki smiled when he saw my shocked expression. Alam kong nakikita nya ang mga
tanong ko sa mga mata ko lang.
"We're trying to build our father and son relationship. It's never too late,
right?" he said.
I smiled at him and squeezed his hand that's holding mine. He looked delighted
about this.
I'm so happy for him. At least, he got a chance with his father.
"Eresh..." Loki called me. His whole body is facing me. "You're pregnant now.
And I don't want you to get hurt again. Pakiramdam ko, mababaliw na ako kapag
nangyari ulit iyon. Please... I want you out in this game."
Hindi pa sya tapos sa pagsasalita pero umiling na ako. I held his hands and
looked at him in the eye.
"I'm sorry, Loki. I understand that you're just worried. I understand it well.
Believe me."
The EL Ordre went silent and I know that they're watching us. I'm used to
getting people's attention though. I'm used that they will look at me as I walked
in front of them. But this time, parang ayokong may nanonood sa amin.

But... I need to talk to Loki about this. I want him to

understand my reason.
"Loki... My father made me believe that my existence is just for this game.
That I have to win so I'll be deserving with the life that was given to me. And all
my life, that is what I believe."
"I told you, Eresh. You don't need to prove anything. You deserve everything in
this world. You are my Queen."
I smiled at him. "Yes. I know. And I'm so thankful to you because of that. Pero
Loki, I feel like my life wouldn't be complete if I will stop here. It has been my
goal ever since. To finish this game and kill the gamemaster. After all, I got hurt
because of this human chess game."
"Eresh..."
"I know you're worried for our child. I am too. But Loki, please understand. I
wouldn't feel complete if I don't finish this game. I need this to completely close
this bad chapter of my life."
He stared at me, eyes were trying to understand me. I stared back at him and
made him understand what I wanted to say while looking in his eyes.
I was born with the thought that I am weak just because I'm a woman. My father
was expecting a man for his successor so he made me think that my existence was a
mistake. And to prove that I deserve to live, I must win this game.
I've been through hell because of this. At kung titigil ako ngayon, pakiramdam
ko ay mawawalan ng saysay ang lahat. Pakiramdam ko ay may mawawalang malaking parte
sa akin. Hindi ko magagawang mabuhay ng masaya at kumpleto.
I know Loki made me realize that father's words were not true. He made me feel
that I'm important. That I have a place in this world. But still... there's a part
of me saying that I need to finish the game as this is my goal ever since.
"And... I want to correct my mistakes." I said.
Loki sighed. He closed his eyes and when he looked at me again, he smiled
helplessly.
"Alright..." sabi nya at napangiti ako. "I know that you're a fighter. And I
admire that about you. But let me protect you, my Queen. In this last mission, let
me protect you and our child."
Tumango ako sa kanya. Feeling happy that there's someone like him who wanted to
protect me.
"We will protect them as well." said Archer kaya napatingin kami ni Loki sa
kanya. "Ano ba kayo? Nandito din kami."
"We will protect the Queen." said the man with amber eyes.
"Suggestion lang..." Codee interrupted. "Why don't we make Ate Eresh as the
brain of this group? Nakita na nya ang gamemaster. She has knowledge about Yucca
and King Lancer. And she's been the brain of the Red Faction. Sa kanya nanggagaling
ang mga plano ng Red Faction."
"Pwede." sabi ni Tracer na ikinagulat ko. Napangiti si Codee.
"Diba? I know that her plans ruined the EL Ordre but she's willing to help us
now. If she'll be the game of this group, I'm sure na makakabuo sya ng planong
hinding-hindi aasahan ng gamemaster."
"Are you out of your mind, Codee?" gulantang kong sabi. I just couldn't believe
that she actually suggested that!
"Alter has a point." Aius said. "I must say that your plans were good."
"Yeah... Nakagawa ka ng planong mahirap kalabanin." Kier said and I know that
he's referring to my plan to make Gray as King Lancer.
"At nakasama mo ang gamemaster, si Yucca at si Shielder as King Lancer. Ikaw
ang may idea sa lahat." Archer said.
"If there's someone here who doesn't want Ate Eresh to be the brain of this
group, raise your hand." luminga-linga pa si Codee pagkatapos sabihin iyon.

Walang nagtaas ng kamay.

Codee beamed at me.
"Paano ba 'yan, Ate? Majority wins."
I gaped at them. "I was right! You are all stupid!" I said. Tinawanan pa nila
ako!
 Loki also chuckled beside me. "I agree with them, my Queen. We need your help."
"Fuck! You're all out of your fucking mind!"
Natatawang niyakap ako ni Loki. "Shh... Stop the bad words. Our baby will hear
it."
I couldn't believe that they are willing to trust me after all that I've done!
They really are all stupid!
Fuck! But why do I feel happy with the thought of them giving me their trust?
"Tsaka diba buntis sya?" tanong ni Archer. "Swerte daw yun, eh! Edi suswertihin
tayo! Mananalo tayo!"
"Fucker!" Tracer cursed at him. "She's not a lucky charm!"
But Archer ignored him and looked at me. "Eresh! Nagvo-volunteer na ko as a
ninong basta may lumpia sa handa!"
I looked at Loki. "Don't include lumpia sa handa. I don't want someone like him
as a godfather for our child."
"Aba't—"
Pabirong binatukan ni Aius si Archer kaya napatigil sya sa pagsasalita. Archer
glared at him but Aius just raised his middle finger and showed it to him.
"Fuck you, fucker."
I couldn't help but to laugh. Before, I was criticizing them for letting their
emotions involved in this game. For making them treat each other as a family.
Saying that it will be the reason for their destruction. But looking at them now,
made me realize that it is actually their strength. That because they see each
other as a family, they are strong and their bonds are unbreakable.
I was wrong. From the very start I was so wrong about them. Codee saw this love
they have for each other that's why she chose to help them. And now that I'm seeing
it too, I am willing to help them as well.
And I couldn't believe the fact that they are willing to include me in this
family. After all that I've done to them.
They all have a beautiful hearts.
I was staring at the graves in front of me. We are in this hill that I chose
for their graves. I closed my eyes and uttered prayers that wherever they are, I
hope that they are now in a peaceful place as they already suffered in this world.
My own chess pieces.
Black—Liam, Ross—Bryle, Dyke—Kenji, and the original Pawns. As well as Nergal
and Pierre.
I might not be a good Queen to all of you, but I appreciate what you've done.
And I'm sorry for everything. I regret that I didn't treat you like how EL Ordre
treated each other. 'Cause we are all just the same. We are all just a victims in
this game.
Thank you, my dear chess pieces.
I looked at Loki who's looking at the graves as well. Napatingin sya sa akin
nang maramdamang tinitignan ko na din sya.
"Let's go?" he asked. But I didn't move.
"Loki..."
"Hm?"
"I've been thinking about something."
"That is?"
I looked at the graves. I am having doubts but when I saw his name, I'm sure
that what I'm doing is right.

I looked back at Loki.

"I know I've told that I will name our child after you. But... Pierre and
Nergal sacrificed their lives for me. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be here
standing in front of you."
Loki didn't say anything and just keep on looking at me. Napalunok ako. I can't
read what's on his mind. He was just staring blankly at me.
"I will understand if you're against it." I continued. "But Pierre did
everything for me. I know that he hurt me before but he never left me even if he
had all the reasons to. He was always there for me. And it was already too late
when I realized all of that."
Tears formed in the corner of my eyes that was soon flowed down my cheeks. Loki
cupped my face and wiped the tears off my cheeks.
"Binalikan nya ako doon sa gubat even if I already gave him his freedom. Kung
hindi nya ginawa 'yon, baka buhay pa sya. And on my dying state, he visited me in
my dreams to wake me up. To tell me to fight. Lahat ginawa nya para mabuhay ako,
Loki."
I sobbed. Hindi na matigil sa pagbuhos ang mga luha ko kaya patuloy lang sa
pagpupunas si Loki doon.
My poor Bishop.
"I want to thank him, Loki. If it's a boy, I want to name our child, the other
life that he save, after him."
I gulped and looked at Loki in his eyes.
"Pierre... Von Amstel."
Loki didn't say anything and just keeps on wiping my tears. Hindi ko makita ang
expression nya sa nanlalabong paningin dahil sa mga luha. We were just silent until
I've finally calmed down.
And when I did, I saw Loki smiled gently at me.
"I... want to thank your Bishop as well." he said. "I was actually saying my
thanks silently to him earlier. For always staying by your side. For saving the
both of you."
I sobbed and Loki held me in his arms.
"I understand, Eresh... So stop crying now. It's bad for our child."
I nodded and hugged him back. Feeling thankful that I have someone like Loki
who is so understanding.
"Don't worry, okay?" he said. "Gagawa naman tayo ng The Fifth so stop
worrying."
Hinampas ko ang likod nya na nagpatawa sa kanya. He kissed me on the temple
bago nya ako pinakawalan at tinitigan sa mga mata.
"Stay with me forever, my Queen."
I smiled at him. "I love you too, my King."
I thought that he was just telling me his peculiar way of saying his feelings
to me. But it confused me when he reached for the back pocket of his pants and
showed me a red velvet box. He opened it and I gasped when I saw a diamond ring
inside.
"I know that you still think of yourself as a bad person. I know that you still
want to pay for the things that you did. And I'm so proud of you for having the
heart to correct your mistakes. That's so much courage you have in you."
I stared at the ring. Hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak na naman ako. My cries even
have a sound as I sobbed while looking down at the ring.
Loki put a finger under my chin and lifted it up that made me look at him. He
looked so beautiful and handsome as he smiled at me with gentleness in his sea-
green eyes.
"I know that you're still thinking that you don't deserve everything even after
how much I tell you that you do. As you are my Queen. And Eresh... I am here to
prove to you that you really deserve everything in this world. You deserve to be
happy after all that you've gone through. Please, give me a lifetime to prove it to
you."
He took the ring out of the box. Lumakas na ang pag-iyak ko. Still not
believing everything that's happening right now.
"Please, stay beside me as I build our own version of forever. Stay with me
forever, Eresh."
I didn't have to think twice and nodded at him. He chuckled but I saw tears in
his eyes and slid the ring on my finger.
"I will change all those bad memories that you have with a beautiful ones.
Together with our family. We will give you the love and everything that you
deserve. And we have our own version of forever to do that."
 Loki hugged me tight and I cried on his chest. Fuck! I never know that you can
cry out of happiness. This is the first time for me!
"I love you so much, Loki! I love you so much!"
I felt him tightened his hug on me.
"Stay with me forever, my brave and strong Queen."
I've been through so much. So much that one will think to just give up. It
scarred me. What happened broke my heart and my soul. But I'm glad that I still
chose to fight for my life. I'm glad that I have the courage to do so. I'm glad
that I chose to be brave and be a fighter.
And in the process, I hurt so many people. I did horrible and unforgivable
things. I am slowly becoming a monster as I fight for the life that was given to
me. But I met someone and before I could completely turn into a horrible monster,
he saved me.
After everything that I did, it made me realize that I don't deserve him. He
was too much for me. I did unforgivable things yet why was I rewarded with someone
like him? At sobra-sobra pa.
Love... I thought love will complicates everything. It did though, but it
complicates things around me for the better.
With love, I was given the courage to move on.
I thought love is a weakness. I was wrong. It is a strength. As love can give a
strength to someone to fight for what's important in this world.
His love gave me strength but my love for him gave me courage to heal myself,
to correct my mistakes so I could finally move on.
I wanted to correct everything that I did. I wanted to be the right person for
him. I don't want people to question why he still chose me after all that I've
done. I know Loki will tell me not to mind other people's thoughts but I also want
to prove to myself that I really do deserve him.
'Cause after I met Loki, there's so many things that I realized.
No matter what the reason is, it's still a mistake. People will understand the
reason but it wouldn't deny the fact that it's a mistake. It's a sin. The best
thing to do is to take the courage to own up to it, to have a heart to correct
those sins and move on.
And that's what I'm gonna do. After all, I have a forever with him to do that.
I have our own version of forever with my King.
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Belated happy birthday kay Ate Reyziel Denava! Isa sa magaganda kong admins!

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Epilogue

Being a royalty is like being a celebrity or a public

figure. People were always looking up on us, expecting us to make good deeds and
always help the ones in need. We are their role model. And that alone taught me
that I shouldn't do any rash moves.
I was always, always a reserved man.
His Royal Highness, The Prince of York.
Despite having that title, I was the sixth and the last in the line of
succession. Regardless, I never got interested in the throne. I don't want my life
to be more chaotic than it was. I want to have a normal life.
Still, the media and paparazzi didn't show me any mercy. They were always
wherever I am. Always making a big deal out of simple things. It's tiring but I
couldn't do anything about it. As I am a royalty. A royal blood.
Their Prince Alexander.
Father knew about this life and because of that, he did everything to train me
to act like a royalty. The etiquette training. He was so strict. I never got the
chance to play and live like a simple kid as he was teaching me what I should and
shouldn't do. He wanted me to be pleasing in the eyes of the public, and not to
taint the name of a Von Amstel.
I remember that he will let me study for the whole day, making me memorize the
whole content of the book even their page numbers.
There was a time that he hired a tutor and taught me how to walk, talk and act
like a royalty. There were five books placed on my head while I was eating or
walking like a fucking royalty. Always reserved.
Father also trained me under him. Really intense training. He even taught me
how to use different guns. He said that it was just for self-defense.
And Mom was just supporting my Dad.
"Rules about shorts?"
I looked down at the shorts that I'm wearing. Mother slammed her stick on the
table to get my attention. I straightened my back when I noticed her glares at me.
I pursed my lips and answered her question.
"Boys are expected and must wear shorts in the public until the age of eight.
As trousers are for second class only." I answered.
"Page?" my mother asked impatiently.
"Hundred and sixty five."
She smiled at me and I knew that she was pleased with my answers. I played with
my lips and looked down at the book im front of me.
I sighed.
My life was boring. It feels like I was just their puppet, or a doll that I
need to abide to all the rules as I am a royalty.
I became matured than my age. I knew a lot of things and acted so reserved and
formal even at a young age. The feeling wasn't good. Like I was in a cage and
couldn't escape my fate.
But when I meet my butler, I realized that he was more matured than me.
I got excited when I saw him sitting alone and reading a book with a language I
couldn't even understand. Royalties are also required to learn second language but
I couldn't recognize the language of the book he's reading.
"Pwede... ba kita... magi kaibigan, Death?"
He's gonna be my butler. Is it okay if I become friends with him?
I'm certain my father wouldn't allow something like this. I know how he treats
his butler. Father never showed emotions. It might even seems like he never cares
about anyone... Except for my mother.
With Death, I got to experience living like a normal kid. He let me bathe on
the river, let me ran as fast as I could, let me scream and shout that my throat
will hurt, let me bathe on the mud.

And I was thankful for him with that reason.

My boring life changed ever since then. But I didn't know that it will change
for more.
"You will be a Bishop, Alexander. The King's Bishop. You must protect the King
in this game."
Father explained about the game called the Bloody Human Chess game. He said
that he also played this game before but now theirs already ended and he's now
passing down his position to me.
One member in the royal family must do this to protect and maintain the
monarchy. And it was the Von Amstel.
"When will the game start?" I asked. I didn't fully understand everything back
then so that question was the only thing in my mind at that time.
"Most of the other chess pieces are on the same age as you, if not, younger."
My father said. "I'm certain it won't begin anytime soon."
I looked at my father. He's looking straight at me like he's weighing what's on
my mind.
Ah... I finally get it. Those intense training that I have under him that
almost killed me was because of this.
 Bloody Human Chess game... It sounds like it's a death game.
"Stop making a fuss about it." Father told me when he noticed I won't say
anything as my mind were in turmoil at the moment. "Your butler is also a Pawn in
this game. You can use him."
Surprised, I looked at him.
"Death?"
Father frowned. "Call him as Kieron."
Death is already my butler who pledge his life to serve me. And... he's also a
Pawn in this game. And from what I know, in the game of chess, a Pawn were always
used as a bait to catch the higher piece.
My butler will become a bait. For me.
I don't want him to think that he was born only to serve me.
"Could you free Death from being my butler?"
I saw the surprise in my father's eyes when I asked him the question. He must
be. As this was the only time I asked him about things such this one. I was only
following their orders without any complaint.
He frowned. "Don't be stupid. Ferrantes will always, always serve the Von
Amstels."
"But-"
"Tell me, Alexander. Do you take pity on your butler?"
I didn't say anything as I could tell that he's mad now. I forgot. This is the
thing that he hates. Showing emotions towards anyone.
In his perspective, emotions are only a burden towards the success.
"Don't let your emotions rule over you."
He's right. Emotions are not good.
I remember the first time I felt overjoyed. It was raining that day and my
butler let me play under the rain. That was the first time for me. The first time I
felt the raindrops on my body.
But that feeling soon changed into something worse. My parents caught us while
I was laughing happily and playing under the rain.
And being the strict parents they were, I received a punishment.
Instead of hitting me, my father hit his butler instead, Death's father. And it
was so much worse than him beating me up. It so much worse 'cause I saw the look in
my butler's eyes. He wanted to save his father, to take his place but he couldn't
do anything. And it was all because of me.

Bloody hell. Hiyang-hiya ako sa kanya nang mga oras na

'yon.
Emotions can be someone's weakness.
Since then, I got serious with my royalty etiquette training, with the instense
training I had with my father. I never let anyone see the real emotions that was
inside me. On the outside, it may seems like I grew up as a good kid, pleasing in
the eyes of the public. Like how a royalty is. A Von Amstel.
Nilayuan ko si Death simula noon. I treated him like a mere butler. But deep
inside, I just wanna be friends with him again.
"Attend this party with me, Alexander. You might meet the other chess pieces
there."
I looked at the envelope that he gave me. It was an invitation to a party and
just by looking at it, I could clearly tell that the party was only for the VIP's.
For the families that were prominent all around the world.
"Lucius D'Angelo will attend that party as well. He's gonna be the King in your
game."
The King... I will meet the chess pieces in this party. I don't have any idea
how should I feel about the.
The party was held in the grand ballroom of the luxurious hotel in the country.
I was right. Based on the clothes the guests wear, they were not from ordinary
family. They moved in a reserved and graceful manner. But they all had fake smiles
on their faces that made me want to vomit.
My butler was just standing on the side together with his father, waiting for
our orders. And as my father introduced me to his acquaintances, I thought that it
will be much better if I will just stood on the side just like what my butler is
doing.
Bloody hell. This is a boring party.
Father already introduced me to the King earlier. We were just staring at each
other, not saying anything. Like we were studying our personalities.
My eyes caught someone from the table near us in the group that was standing
near us. It was a group of grown up people but what caught my attention was the
only kid in that group.
The side of my lips rose as I stared at her. She has a blonde hair that was cut
too short. And I could tell that she was trying to look like a boy as she was
wearing a tux also the back that she has a short hair. But one glance at her pretty
face and anyone could simply tell that he's a she.
She was trying so hard to look like a boy but she's not doing a good job.
She's a real beauty.
I looked at the man beside him. He has a blonde hair and I'm guessing that he's
a father. But I noticed that he never glanced at his daughter beside him despite
the smiles of the people that were looking at her. But then, she looked like she's
not liking whatever they're telling him.
The kid looked when her father pointed at someone. Napayuko sya pagkatapos at
ilang sandali ay lumabas ng party hall na 'yon.
I looked at my father who was still busy chatting with his acquaintances. I
took the opportunity to get out of the crowd and followed the young girl as she
made her way towards the garden.
I don't have any idea why I'm doing this. I guess... I wanted to know more
about her? I wanted to know why she's trying to look like a man.
I heard her sobbed that made me stop on my tracks when I reached the garden.
She was sitting at one of the benches. Her head was hung low, not wanting anyone to
see her crying face.
I wanna see her pretty face. She's really pretty. I've never seen anyone as
pretty as her.
Crush? I chuckled. Blimey! Crush my ass. I was just curious.

"There are a lot of pretty chicks inside yet why does a

handsome lad is here and crying alone?"
The kid looked at me and I did try hard to maintain a straight face when I
finally saw her face. Her eyes brimmed with tears but that just made it look like
it were sparkling by the moonlight.
I was young... And so is she. I have no idea things about an opposite gender
but bloody hell... This one is something.
She sniffedand looked away at me. Nakaramdam ako ng panghihinayang. I want her
to look at me just as how I am looking at her.
Come on, pretty lad. Turn around this way.
"You don't know how to whoo chicks?" I asked, trying to get her attention. "I
can teach you."
"Leave me alone."
Oh, bloody fucking hell. Her voice! It's pleasing to my ears! Like a soft
music! Like a lullaby!
My young self giggled at that thought. Damn it. I think I should try to mingle
with opposite sex. Masyado yata akong na-curious sa isang 'to dahil walang malapit
na babae sa akin. Well... Of course, except for my mother.
The kid glared at me. I smirked and I couldn't help but to play with my lips,
my mannerism when someone seems interesting to me.
But I saw something in her eyes. She has a sad eyes for someone so young.
Parang may mabigat na pinagdadaanan.
 What is it, pretty lad? Tell me.
I bet she'll look prettier with a smile on her face.
Tumayo sya habang masama pa rin ang tingin sa akin. And I must've gone mad as I
felt overjoyed to see her looking at me. But she rolled her eyes and turned her
back before walking away.
I chuckled while I watched her back. I bit my lower lip to hide my smirk.
Bloody hell. Is she a witch? 'Cause she easily caught my attention just like that.
"You like her?"
I looked at Lucius that was also here in the garden. Kanina ko pa napapansin
ang presensya nya but I ignored him as I was fascinated by that kid.
"Her?" tumingin ako sa bata at nakitang nakapasok na sya ulit ng hall. I looked
back at Lucius. "That's a boy!"
Lucius frowned at me. "Everyone could tell that he's a she."
I chuckled. 'fcourse I know. I just want to appreciate her effort of trying to
look like a boy.
She's so damn cute.
"That's my sister."
Napatingin kami ni Lucius sa bagong dating. It was the Queen of EL Ordre.
Lucius father introduced us to me and ordered me to protect her as well. Like how I
should protect the King.
Kumapit si Ishtar sa mga braso ni Lucius. She was wearing a pink gown with a
tulle skirt and a small tiara on her head making her look like a princess. Ibang-
ibang sa kapatid nya.
"She's the Queen of the Red Faction." she continued. "We'll have to kill her
when the time comes."
Nagkatinginan kami ni Lucius sa sinabi nya. Just wow. She's young but she's
already saying something like this without any remorse in her eyes. At kapatid nya
pa talaga ang pinagsalitaan nya ng ganoon.
My thoughts went back to the kid earlier. So she's the Queen, huh? It suits
her.
Makes me wanna become a King.
That was just a random thought but it never occurred to me that it will come
true one day.
Something happened that Aius and I need to switch our position. I had to be the
pretend King for him as the Red Faction's Knight found out about him being a King.
It was a good thing that we were able to silence him as it will be the end of us.

We took advantage of our rule to conceal what chess pieces

are we against others except for the Pawns. Mas madaling napaniwala ang iba na ako
nga ang King. Ishtar, L and I were the only ones who knew about Aius being the
King.
But despite that, I found a new family with the EL Ordre.
Mr. McIntosh, a family friend of the Von Amstel asked me for a favor to look
for her daughter in the Philippines. I immediately said yes without having too much
thoughts about it as I wanted to escape my royalty duties for awhile. The EL Ordre
was under the Philippine government kaya doon sa bansang iyon ang naka-base ang mga
myembro.
When I with them, I feel like I was just a normal person. Kaya tinanggap ko
kaagad ang pabor ni Mr. McIntosh.
Daphne Madrigal. Mr. McIntosh said that he's been sending money to her mother
for support but she never gave him her real address. It was always a fake one as
she's claiming the money over-the-counter kaya hindi kailangan ng totoong address.
I never asked for L or Tracer's help to look for Daphne as she was just a
normal person. I was just being careful. The enemy might found out about her if I
ask for our trackers' help.
Kaya natagalan ang paghahanap namin but eventually... I did found her.
The first time I saw her eyes, I felt nostalgic. It took me back so many years
ago to that party where I saw that kid who's the first one that caught my
attention.
Daphne... Her sad eyes reminded me of that young girl who tried to pretend as a
boy at the night of the party. They both have sad eyes.
It makes me wonder how she is now? How she's doing? Does shw still have that
look in her face?
I wanna see her. See how much she grew up.
And maybe that's why I promised to myself that I will take care of Daphne. I
wanna take away her pain. I saw that she has no will to live anymore.
And it wasn't that hard as she tried to stood up on her own. I just lend her a
helping hand. And I was so proud of her that she managed to get pass through her
dark days.
And because of her courage, I fell in love with her.
I love the courage she showed despite everything that happened to her. I've
witnessed everything as I was beside her, trying to gave her a push whenever she's
not feeling okay.
It was all because she wanted to have another chance. Hindi dahil tinulungan ko
sya. As one wouldn't be able to stand up after falling down hard if they won't try
hard enough to pick up themselves again.
I was reminded of that kid again. From time to time, as I was watching Daphne
trying to stand up again, her face will always flashed on my mind.
She's the Queen of the Red Faction. There's a big chance that I will see her
again in the future.
Bloody hell... I couldn't wait for that day to come.
I freed Death as my butler when Daphne accepted Apollo's proposal. It was my
promise to him. Na kapag naging maayos na si Daphne, I will free him as my butler.
He deserves it. He's been serving me for all his life. L
But there's still a problem about him being a Pawn in the game.
So I tried to find ways to vouch for his freedom that wouldn't alarm my father.
Ayokong isipin nyang pinakawalan ko si Death dahil sa emosyon ko. Good thing that
there's V who's willing to do everything for him.
And so, I vouch for his freedom as a Pawn. He's no longer included in the game.
He can have a normal life at last.

The game started. I'm aware that this will not be a normal
game and that I shouldn't look down on our enemy, the Red Faction, but I did not
expect that they will give us a hard time.
In a simple mission that was given to us by the government to make the country
better, they always try to stop us but will always fail. As it were only the Pawns
who's moving that time.
But whenever they have the first move, it will be a big blow to us. Like how
Liam Ortega tried to corner V, how Kenji and Joshua tried to take Artemis. Like how
Angela was killed, and how they killed the Sanfords' parents.
They were aiming for our emotions. As it was our weakness.
Whoever made their plans is a bloody genius.
"Tell them to capture the Red Faction's Queen." I told L when him, Aius and I
were making a plan.
We haven't even heard about the enemy's King yet but we already know who's
their Queen. And in the game of chess, the Queen is the most powerful piece. It can
do moves more than the other pieces and could take over the chess board.
Kapag nawala ang Queen, para na ring napilayan ang King.
I noticed Aius' smirk at me. He must've remembered what happened at the party
many years ago. 'Thought he forgot about but seems like he has a good memory as he
had that playful smirk on his lips now.
"What? Are you planning on making her as your Queen now that you're the King?"
the bastard asked.
I smirked back at him and played on my lips as I reminisce what happened at
that party. It was only a minute of interaction, it didn't even last for an hour
yet I couldn't take her off my mind. There's something in her eyes that made me
curious about her.
She's been on my mind and I think that she's the reason why I decided to help
Daphne even if there's no even need to. Her father's favor for me was only to find
her but as soon as I saw her eyes, that pretty lad's face came into my mind.
Daphne reminded me of her sad eyes.
I do think that she'll be prettier if she smiles. I wanna see her smile.
I wanna see you again, pretty lad.
"Fourth."
I glanced at Shielder who came to the room to where I am. He sat down on the
chair across mine. He was holding a laptop. I put down the book that I was reading
before he came in.
"What is it?"
He turned his laptop my way so I could see the screen. He showed me an email
that he received from an anonymous sender. I frowned when I read the message.
"The sender said that the Queen of the Red Faction is interested in me."
Shielder said, confirming what's in the email.
My eyebrows almost shot up but I held my emotions in. Bloody motherfucker. This
is outrageous! Why would a Queen would be interested in the Rook? Why would that
pretty young lad would be interested in Shielder?
I am the King! Sa akin dapat sya maging interesado, bloody fucking hell!
"I ignored it." Shielder said as I glared at his laptop, particularly at the
message.
I had not felt so enrage as this moment but that message is making my blood
boil!
"Pero sinubukan kong i-track ang sender. I got suspicious that the sender knows
about the game. Pero hindi ko ma-locate ang IP address ang nya."
I frowned. "You can't locate?" This is new.
Shielder nodded. "I got even more suspicious. Alam ng sender ang tungkol sa
game. Alam nya din na kasali ako. Maybe the message is important... Or the sender
is telling the truth? What do you think?"

My lips formed into thin line. Shielder didn't know that I

already met the Queen before. Si Aius at Ishtar lang ang nakakaalam.
But that's what confused me. I am the one whom she meet before. The EL Ordre
thought that I am the King. Yet why would she be interested in someone like
Shielder who's only a Rook?
"If you think that the message is true, then be the bait." I told him and I saw
the surprise in his face. "This will be our chance to lure out the Queen."
Shielder declined that offer as he was suspicious about the message. I got his
point so I didn't push much about it despite the fact that I want to see the Queen
and talk to her as to why she's interested in Shielder but not me.
But when Artemis got involved in the game, Shielder finally made up his mind
and accepted to be the bait. Only then I realized that it was a bad move.
That was the last mission that he did as the EL Ordre's Rook.
That pretty young lad planned it all.
"But you know how I punish bad pieces, right?"
I chuckled. Yes, pretty lad. Want some punishment for what you did?
I praise you for making such a brilliant plan like that. But I wouldn't let you
win this game.
Alter was facing my back. Natatakpan nya ang taong kaharap nya sa paningin ko
and thinking that if Alter will move a little, I will finally see her again. That
pretty young lad who occupied my mind for so many years. That pretty young lad so
caught my attention so easily.
She must've had some ability in her. And seeing her beautiful face frowning at
me, it was enough of her to take my whole attention again.
 Ah... This is bad. She might stay in my mind but this time... Forever.
"Who the hell are you?" she asked.
Oh no, my temptress. That's totally unfair. You've been occupying my mind for
so long yet you can't even remember the day we've first met?
Such a very bad Queen. You really deserve some punishment.
My smirk vanished when I felt her fingers caressing my lips. She was staring at
it while I was staring hard at her. I couldn't take my eyes off her now that she's
this near. I couldn't even properly breathe.
Oh, bloody hell. She grew up as a temptress... If this is her way to fight
against me, then I'm gonna lose.
"Kiss me."
My chest hurts as my heart hammered inside. My eyes traveled down her lips and
saw how reddish it was. Damn it. I wanna taste her lips.
"Your Majesty, I wanna taste your lips."
And the moment our lips touched, I know that I wouldn't be able to escape.
I was always looking at her face, watching her reaction whenever our bodies
were connected. 'Cause I saw that her expression was changing as I thrust myself
inside of her. And whenever she's reaching her peak, she looked... vulnerable.
I remembered that sad look in her eyes when she was young. It was gone now but
I'm certain that she was just hiding it. She fooled everyone by making them think
that she's strong, she's evil and that no one could ever defeat her.
But not me. As I was given the opportunity to see right through her.
At first, I was so confused as to why she gave me herself so easily. Despite
her vulgar words and her knowledge about giving a head, I have not really thought
that I'll be her first.

It made me feel overjoyed. That pretty young lad who grew

up as a temptress, the woman who caught my attention so easily. I am the first man
in her life.
"Cuddle, Peppa Pig."
I asked my former butler one time about how could I make someone to open up to
me. But it seems like the whole EL Ordre already have an idea on what Eresh and I
has been doing.
"What?" I asked. I certainly do not understand what he just meant by that.
"What cuddle?"
Gulat syang napalingon sa akin.
"Cuddle! Hindi mo alam?" I shook my head and he tsked. "I regret the day I
didn't make you watch porn."
I frowned at him but he just continued talking.
"But your Mom will surely get mad. Peppa Pig pa nga lang pinanood ko sayo noon,
halos patayin na ko."
I glared at him. "Seryoso ako, Death!"
"Seryoso din ako! Tangina, naaawa na lang ako sayo. Hindi mo pa yata
nararanasang mag-cuddle sa babae!"
I groaned in annoyance. He's being like this to me ever since I freed him as a
butler!
"Pakiramdam ko, nabigo ako bilang butler mo." he said sadly but I could see the
playfulness in his eyes
Oh, this bloody wanker!
"But seriously, make her feel comfortable around you. Huwag mong iparamdam sa
kanyang ginagawa mo ito 'cause you're the EL Ordre's Bishop."
"I am doing this out of my own free will."
He chuckled. "I know. Alam kong hindi mo gagawin ang mga bagay kung ayaw mo
talagang gawin."
I let out a curse for myself when I remember those times I made her feel like a
trash. I didn't help her clean herself up after some fucking that we did as I don't
have any idea on what to do.
 I'm the first man in her life but she's the first woman in mine too.
"Fuck me like there's no tomorrow, Your Majesty."
It occurred to me that she was only using me to feel numb whenever she was on
the verge of break down. I don't know... But there's this connection we had that I
could always tell whenever she needed someone. And we always ended up on the bed as
it was her way to forget everything for awhile.
That got me worried that if ever she get tired of me, if ever I failed on
making her feel good anymore, I won't be of any use to her and will throw me aside
like a filthy trash.
It made me panic. Blood hell. It was obvious that she gave herself to me as she
thought that I am the King. Hindi ko kayang isipin na ibibigay nya ang sarili nya
kay Aius kung hindi sya nagkamali noon. Fuck! I must do everything so she won't
ever think of leaving me. So she won't give herself to anyone but only to me.
I need to be the only King in her life!
"Death, where can I get ideas about... sex?"
I asked my butler as I do not have any idea on what to do. I feel restless
whenever I think of Eresh getting bored with me.
"Nood kang porn."
I looked at him. Hindi alam kung seseryosohin ang sasabihin nya o hindi as he
had this strange hobby of making fun out of me whenever he had the chance.
I could still remember those Tagalog words he thought me back then.
This bloody wanker.
"Eto, basahin mo." he gave me a book that based on the cover is an erotic one.

"Fifty shades of Grey?"

Death grinned at me. "You'll get a lot of ideas there. Trust me."
I shouldn't have asked for his advice.
The hatred of the EL Ordre towards Eresh were getting worse as times goes by.
But I still believe that there's more to her than that. That she's better than
this. That I just have to be with her and I'll be able to get through to her.
Whenever I see the hurt in her eyes, I wanna do something about it. I wanna
made her feel happy and safe.
I don't know... There's something in her that I can't just really ignore.
She's trying hard. I can see that.
The EL Ordre sometimes will hurt through words. But then there's V who's a
fighter and had training under EL Ordre. They had fist fight at parehong napuruhan
ang dalawa.
But I noticed something with Eresh. She's not violent. She was just actually
sitting at the sofa inside her room.
She will only got provoked when the other person hits her, tsaka lang sya
lalaban kapag ganoon na ang nangyari. She was prepared though. If her opponent hits
her, she will do everything para makaganti. Hindi nya hinahayaan ang sarili nya na
sya ang naagrabyado.
She's really interesting.
"Loki."
I looked at Ishtar. She cornered me after I went out of Eresh's room. It was
the same day when V and Eresh had a fight.
I was expecting that Ishtar will talk to me about what happened earlier. I saw
in her face that she didn't like what I did. Nang magpaiwan ako sa kwarto kasama si
Eresh.
"I'll go straight to the point." she said. "Do you love my sister? Do you love
Eresh?"
Love?
"I don't." I said straightforwardly.
Nakahinga sya nang maluwag. Clearly, she didn't like her sister. Even back
then. She even told us that disturbing words for a child. Like she's really
expecting us that we will kill her sister.
 "That's good." she smiled at me. "I thought that you're doing this 'cause you
love her. Alam ko naman ginagawa mo ito para sa EL Ordre, right? You want to fool
her, diba?"
I let out a sigh. "Think whatever you want."
I don't want to explain to her. I... didn't like Ishtar's personality. She's
like a brat. I saw her as someone who will whine nonstop if we fail to give her
what she wanted.
She smiled at me before walking away. I bit the inside of my cheeks and walked
towards my room, thinking about my answer to Ishtar's question earlier.
I don't love, Eresh. Certainly not. What I felt for her isn't the same as what
I felt for Daphne. It is much, much more different than that.
It is much, much more stronger than love.
I don't know what to name it. I don't even know that I could feel something as
instense as what I feel for her. It is too much. I feel like my heart is going to
burst because of this feeling.
Telling her to stay with me forever is my only way of telling her what I should
feel. As I do not want to tell her the same words that I said to Daphne. Dahil
ibang-iba ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Much intense. Much stronger. Much
powerful.
And by telling her to stay with me forever, I will be able to make her feel
what I feel for her throughout eternity.
The feeling is good yet too much at the same time.

It really is as because of her, it was also that first time

that I feel of wanting to kill someone.
"My father sexually assaulted me!"
Hearing her past from her was something I couldn't take. I heard the pain in
her voice. That was also the first time I saw her cried like that. The first time I
saw her miserable and so vulnerable like like that.
Ang sakit habang pinakikinggan ko ang kwento nya. And while I was listening, I
thought of those days that these horrible things happened to her. I thought of what
she felt at that time. I thought of what she felt waking up everyday remembering
what happened to her.
Putangina... I wanna fucking kill someone. Is there any way that I could drag
someone back up from hell and torture him? O kahit na ako na mismo ang magpunta sa
impyerno, I just wanna make him feel my wrath.
Eresh didn't deserve what happened to her.
She opened up herself to me, and ever since that day, I finally saw the light
in her eyes. I finally saw her true smile. And indeed. She's really beautiful with
a smile on her face as her eyes were sparkling with happiness.
Finally... I got through to her.
"I want a royal wedding."
I chuckled and caressed her soft hair as her body lay on my side, head was on
my chest. We were cuddling and talking about the future like we're not in the
middle of the game.
My other arm that was hugging her waist went to her tummy. My hand tried to
feel the life inside it pero wala akong naramdaman. Natawa si Eresh sa ginawa ko.
Probably she knows that I wouldn't feel anything as her stomach was still flat.
Parang hindi nga buntis.
Bloody hell... I really love it when she laughs. It makes me feel that I was
the source of her happiness. And I'm willing to do anything just so I could hear
her laughter everyday.
"Five weeks pa lang, Loki. The doctor said the baby bump usually shows up at
twelve weeks."
I don't really understand. I'm just overjoyed that she's pregnant with my
child.
"The Queen, my granny, already knows about you. So she's actually expecting a
royal wedding soon."
She looked up to me. Nahigit ko ang paghinga ko. Bloody hell... How can someone
be so beautiful like her?
"She knew?" tanong nyang parang gulat na gulat.
I chuckled. Of course. As it was a royalty tradition that before a royal family
member will propose to someone, the Queen must know about it.
"Yes, and she's also excited for your wedding dress."
"Oh... I read an article that I should get the Queen's approval for my wedding
dress. Is it true?"
I nodded. We have more weird family tradition. I hope that Eresh won't back out
just because of this.
I am willing to give everything she wants just so she won't leave me again.
I remember that time when I noticed something is off about her. I first got
aware of it at the night of the royal party. Her Bishop came and I got worried that
she will go with him. I guess she will if not for the clots that we're hired by the
Red Faction and if not me getting injured.
I know that she's planning to leave me. I know her too well. But I'm just
hoping that she will stay beside me.
"She's not your Queen, Fourth."
I looked at Shielder who seems so much different from the last time I saw him.
He had changed. I was blaming myself that he became like this. If I hadn't thought
of that plan, then this wouldn't happen to him.

"Eresh is my Queen as I am her King." I said and I don't

know whom I was trying to convince at this moment.
Shielder chuckled. "I am her real King, Fourth."
"No..." I said while shaking my head. Fuck this bloody wound! If not for this,
I will snatch Eresh away from his! Wala akong pakialam kung magalit si Tracer but I
need my Queen beside me!
But I'm feeling so weak. Hindi pa bumabalik ang lakas ko. I was only watching
Eresh as Shielder held her waist.
Eresh flashed me a smile.
"You're used to it anyway. Being a pretend King."
Her words were like a thousand daggers that pierce right through my chest where
my heart is. It hurts hearing her say that. But I knew her.
Her eyes were telling me that she's lying right now. She's planning something
again and I didn't like that she's doing it alone.
I didn't like the idea of her leaving me because of this plan.
"Kneel, Fourth. My Queen might be able to consider staying with you."
I will do everything just so she will stay with me.
"Beg." Shielder said after I knelt on the ground.
Nakita ko ang gulat sa mga mata ni Eresh. See this, my Queen? I'm willing to do
everything for you.
"Eresh..."
I looked at her while kneeling on the ground. She might see me as someone so
low. A royalty kneeling for his Queen. But fuck. I'm desperate.
"I'm never anyone's first choice. But I want you to choose me. Please..."
Thoughts flashed on my mind as I beg for her to stay with me. My father who
choose not to treat me as his child for this game. My mother who's always following
what my father wants. My butler who got married the moment I freed him. The EL
Ordre that made me the King as a bait. And Daphne who chose Apollo over me.
"Don't leave me. I'm begging you..."
If my father will hear what I'm saying, he will beat someone who's important to
me again as my punishment.
As a Von Amstel never beg.
Still, Eresh left me that night.
I talked to Tracer and told him the truth about Shielder. That I offered a plan
to him as a bait. That his brother accepted it just so he could protect Artemis. As
he though that Artemis is more important to his brother over him.
Tracer got mad. I got hit by him. He threw me punches pero hindi ako lumaban. I
deserve it. I actually wanted him to do this as I deserve this.
"Kakalimutan ko ang ginawa mo, Fourth. Alam kong gusto mo lang na matapos ang
laro. Just please, help me bring back my brother."
That's what I'm planning to do.
L fell in coma after he was shot three times by Shielder. Tracer went missing
and I figured that he must've with his brother now. Wala syang pakialam kung
masaktan sya ni Shielder. He's guilty to whatever Shielder's accusing him. But he
also wants to bring his brother back.
That left Alter as our tracker.
"Find her, Alter. Please..."
"Hindi ko nga mahanap, Fourth. King Lancer is a great hacker. He surpassed my
skills nga, oh? Hindi ko sila mahanap!"
Bloody fucking hell! Tangina! I want my Queen back!
I can't stay here doing nothing! Hindi ako matahimik nang hindi nalalaman ang
kalagayan nya!

No... If something happens to her, I wouldn't be able to

take it.
But she's strong. She's a fighter. She's brave. That's the reason why she got
my attention at first and eventually fell inlove with her because of her traits.
Hindi dahil maganda sya.
It was because she didn't give up even if the whole world was telling her to.
She still tried to stand up again, with her head held high as she fought the
obstacles that were thrown in her way.
I was not expecting when my father paid me a visit one day. Mas lalong hindi ko
inaasahan ang mga sinabi nya noon.
"I apologize, my son, if you felt like I never looked at you as my child." he
said.
Looking at my father right now, who have so much pride in him, I couldn't
believe my eyes. His head hung low like he couldn't meet my eyes as he was ashamed.
But I know that whatever he's saying is the truth.
I can't believe that I'll be seeing him like this.
"I wanted you to be strong. I wanted to protect you against this harsh world by
making you as a strong man. By making you realized that emotions were not needed as
it will only be a hindrance. It never occurred to me that by doing all of that, it
was me who's hurting you."
"Dad..."
"I never thought what you will feel about this game. It didn't occur to me the
dangers not until I heard about you getting stabbed wounds. I lose you before when
I made you feel that you're not important to me. But you are, Alexander. I don't
want to lose my son again."
He looked at me. Nakita kong namumula ang mga mata nya at nakaramdam ako ng
bikig na nakabara sa lalamunan ko.
It was the first time that we had this kind of talk. I am already a grown up
man but talking to my father like this makes me feel like I'm a child.
Of course. I will always be his son.
"Emotions are not a hindrance, Dad." I said. "It can actually become a
strength."
Kinakabahan pa ako nang sabihin ko iyon. I never talked back to him. I always
did what he wanted. Walang pagrereklamo. Natatakot kasi akong may idamay na naman
syang importanteng tao sa akin kapag nakagawa ako ng ayaw nya.
But instead, Dad flashed a fatherly smile at me.
"I know... I realized that when I talked to your woman."
I went silent. Kilala ko kung sino ang tinutukoy nya.
 "She's smart. I've never seen a woman who's so smart like her." Father said.
"She went back to the Red Faction."
I saw the surprise in him. He probably thought that I wouldn't let her go
'cause he witnessed how whipped I am to her at the party. And as well as the truth
that I am a Von Amstel. A royalty. Kaya alam kong nagulat sya ngayon.
I heard him sighed. Tinapik nya ang likod ko at inakbayan ako.
"You looked more worried about her than being sad. I can see that you
understand the reason why she left you."
I chuckled. He saw right through me.
"If you'll ever need help, don't forget that I'm here. I am your father,
Alexander."
Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagngiti.
"Thanks, Dad."
I feel chuffed that we're finally okay. I thought that this will be impossible
but it did happen.
I understand. They might have a different ways of taking care of me but they
did tried to protect me. They gave me what I wanted. Iba lang talaga ang paraan ng
pagpapalaki nila.

But... I know that my parents love me. Father made me

realized that.
When we got Alter's message asking for our help as they will try to escape the
Red Faction's hideout with Eresh and Tracer, we didn't waste any time. Kabang-kaba
ako habang naghahanap sa loob ng gubat.
My hands were trembling when I heard a gunshots that was coming inside the
forest. Mas dumoble pa ang kaba ko nang mahanap namin si Tracer particularly when
he said that Eresh was willing to sacrifice for herself.
I wanted to scream and shout that time. Why? Why would she sacrifice herself?
Fuck! Does she still thinks that she doesn't deserve everything? That she deserves
to die in payment for what she did?
She's been through enough! Ang gusto ko na lang ay sumaya sya. Pero bakit sya
na mismo ang umaayaw?
Her guilt is eating her. But I am so proud that she's willing to own up and
correct what she did. I know it took a lot of courage to do that. And I just fell
for her harder because of that.
Such a brave and strong Queen. Hindi na kita pakakawalan pa.
I will do everything so you won't think of leaving me again. You already did
your part, Eresh. So let me do the rest for you. Let me protect you. Let me protect
our family.
You're always telling me that I was the one who save you. But you save me as
well, my Queen. You made me realize that I shouldn't judge anyone without knowing
their whole story.
You taught me that mistakes will not define a person as we can only see a
fraction of them in what they did. It is what they will do afterwards that will
define them. How they will own up to their mistakes, how they will apologize and
fix what they did. How they will try to pick themselves back up again. It is what
they learn after the mistake that they did. That will define them as a person.
You taught me that when a person did a mistake, it will not be the end of them.
They still have a chance to prove themselves by having a heart and a courage to
accept their sins and forgive themselves. And that gave me the strength to own up
mine to.
You taught me that there's still light in the dark, there's a rainbow after the
rain, there's a moon and stars in the night. You taught me that not to give up
'cause there's still another day to come. The sun will shine upon us again.
You see, my Queen? You save me as well. So please, don't you ever leave me
again.
"How many times do I have to tell you? Even when you're crying you're beautiful
too. The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood."
This song... Really suits her and what I'm feeling for her.
I felt her smile beside me. Mas isiniksik nya pa ang sarili nya sa dibdib ko at
niyakap ako sa bewang. I smiled. Fuck. I am contented as long as she's here beside
me.
"You're my downfall. You're my muse. My worst destruction, my rhythm in blues.
I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you."
That's right, my Queen. If you'll ever leave me again, I wouldn't be able to
take it.
So please... Stay with me forever.
Stay with me forever, my brave and strong Queen, together with our child.
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
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I put on my earpiece and watch Eresh as she puts the gun on the gun holster
placed on both of her thighs. She was wearing an all black tight clothes. It was a
long sleeve top with a turtle neck and a tight black pants that's why I could see
all the curves on her body. A black knee high boots and a black fingerless gloves
that is made of leather. Her short hair is an advantage as she didn't need to tie
it up high like what V did to her hair.
"You're already out of the game yet you'll still join us?" I heard her asked to
V.
V smiled at her. "Hindi ko maiwanan ang EL Ordre. Ganoon din si Death so he'll
help too. Also we're now at the endgame so we need help as much as we can have."
"You really can't separate your emotions in this, huh? That's why it was so
easy to break all of you using that as a weakness." Eresh said and I heard Archer
laughed at her.
"Strength din namin 'to! Kung wala kaming pakialam sa isa't-isa, baka matagal
na kaming naubos." he said while putting his sniper in his bag.
Eresh didn't say anything and just played with her lips. I love how she's now
comfortable around the EL Ordre.
"It's all in the past, Eresh. Kalimutan mo na." Aius said and Eresh just rolled
her eyes at him making him laugh.
Still the same old Mad Queen.
"Turn on all your trackers so I could check if there's a problem." L said while
looking at his laptop.
We did what he said. I saw him nodded like he's satisfied with everything. He
looked at Alter beside him like he's connecting their laptop or something.
"You all ready?" Tracer asked.
"Ready." said Viper.
"Ready." said Kier and V.
"Ready." said Archer.
Plutus puffed on his vaped and just nodded once.
"Ready." sais Aius.
"Ready." Eresh said and she looked at me. I smiled and held her hand before I
answered.
This is just the beginning.
"Ready."