Does anyone want to write their heart out here?

Originally Answered: Does any one want to write their heart out here?
Hi… I am 18 years old boy at my last stage of blood cancer and I will probably die within
next 5 to 6 months. I am going anonymous because my parents follow me on quora.

I was diagnosed with leukaemia in june 2015 exactly on my birthday. I have lot to tell but
I can not tell anyone as I always have my parents around and they themselves are broken
from inside and they would leave hope if I left hope.

I have a sister she is 23 and she takes care of all my needs. I love her very much. But I
simply can not do anything for her because I am bed ridden. I get a lot of visitors from
my old school and family.

My parents and my sister do their best to cheer me up and make me smile but I can not
as it is very dufficult when you know you are about to die. I feel ashamed of myself as I
can not move and I sometimes pee on the bed itself as I have no control over my nerves.
All the doctors whom I have been shown to, say that I must do whatever I like as I have
very less time left. Each and every doctor has said to leave hope and just enjoy life. I
know my family cries when I am asleep or listening to songs or when I am not around.
But I am helpless I just can not do anything. But yes I do appreciate that they somehow
hold their tears back in front of me. My sister cheers me up as she calls her college
friends at home and we play ludo and have a good time.

The point that makes me sad is that ispite of all the efforts my family makes I am unable
to do anything for them espescially my sister. I am extremely attatched to her but I have
no words to thank her. I wish god gave me another life…. Just one chance I would work
extremely hard to make my family proud. All I dream is of getting well and working for
my family.

This is it my story

Thanks for Reading…

Humble request

Please do pray for my family so that God can give them strength. :) :)

EDIT 1

Thanks to all the upvoters.

Writing gives me releif.

My sister caught me writing this answer and when she read it she set to tears and I could
not hold myself and started to cry on my helplessness. She told that she loves me the
most. She said that she had no problem in cleaning my dirty clothes and pushing my
wheelchair and feeding me she just demands that I should stay happy forever.

I will reveal my identity if my sister this to my parents. But this totally depends on her.