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CHERYL PALLANT
B LA ZE VO X[ B OO KS ]
Buffalo, New York
Light at the End of the Word
by Cheryl Pallant
Copyright © 2023
A number of the works in this collection have been published in the following journals and
anthologies: Empty Mirror, Trance Poetics, Rogue Agent, Spacecraft Project, Deep Time Journal,
Vestiges, and Bridging the Waters III.
First Edition
ISBN: 978-1-60964-448-2
Library of Congress Control Number: 2023946430
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Sometimes I dream a sentence and write it down. It’s usually nonsense, but sometimes it seems a
key to another world.
Anne Carson
Everything in the world began with a yes. One molecule said yes to another molecule and life
was born.
Clarice Lispector
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What’s Okay
If not in the longing then in the lasting. If not in permanence then in permeable
skin in unpoured liquids. Things falls apart when they don’t congeal. I heard her
scream and then I didn’t. She doesn’t know how to hold him inside or how to
hold herself in. If she were here to say she would stay but she stumbled on the
pavement. If he knew the surgical procedure he would make the incision but
his virtues excluded precision and parallel parking. This is no laughing matter.
She lives in the land of men who live at the hand of meant and corrupted reach
muscling weight like a barge of uncontainables shipped from afar and docked at
a nearby port. She said she was okay. She said she likes her eggs scrambled but
was out of cream. I would have told her I was writing but she opened the shades
and grazed her forehead with the back of her hand. He said he was okay. He said
he stores boxes in the attic but the door led to the locked basement and he forgot
the key. I would have wrung my hands but he shook the drawer open to a faded
map with marks concealing names of towns. It’s a fluke that I laughed. There’s a
hint of lunacy in the spittle that never reached the sink. There’s a stool where we
sat to face the unforgivable. I’m okay except when lightning strikes the oak in
the yard and branches break and blisters burst during cleanup. I’m okay when a
truck careening down the highway applies brakes, when you don’t pull the trigger
and when the space between words dreams us a better idea and no idea at all.
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Not Quite a Secret
you or me. Not this glass of water or candle. Speaking about me is a poke
at you. By taking everything so seriously everything is so serious. I’m kidding.
If listening you know what’s true. I don’t expect you to believe in magic but urge
dwelling in possibilities and secrets. I won’t blab if you don’t. You’ve kids to watch
and wounds from war and work. This is not about repairing the ripped screen door
to keep out mosquitoes. Answers don’t justify garbles. What I hear is what I heard
you heard what I hear. Consider jamming the audition and unplugging the speakers.
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Another Before Me
How do we get there without first being here? Everything beside myself is
outside but the door unhinged. My conjunction is your dissociation because
your map omits coordinates and configures balance as shoddy which is how
you crossed the room. Nothing outside resembles the space inside including
the whistle and folded rug. Try again. When I intimate myself in laughter the
solo emerges and violence stops. I drink desalinated tensions by bowing and
lunging from a center stabilized by defying norms. What do you think fringe
festivals are for? Sometimes what comes out in the wash doesn’t. Sometimes
what’s downstream is another’s up yours. Endless beauty gains beginnings and
hearts sliding away from ache. How we sit resembles the delicacy of filo dough.
Someday there’ll be a great awakening but until then we dream. The subliminal
is coming to a tongue near you heeding insomnia’s call. Ready for the great yawn
my ears tell me what you won’t hear and marginalize. Dam rivers and streams.
Dam flows knowing into unknown. By enslaving rest we don’t get to the rest.
Balance paddle-free downstream where the tide reverses. I stuck the daisy behind
my hears. You consider my face rash a blastema but fear exaggerates crude.
Beauty unwilts petals. Before me there was another me and afterward too.
Count me in your calculations. The great yawn generates a suspicious chasm
until we invest wholesale in emotions. A face in the oak stirs a crowd’s revelry.
In the alchemy of becoming, my business is stashing attention for flow. Earth
rises through fissures. Consider me a seismologist but mitochondria rules the hay.
Even with drainage the ground floods. Everywhere overlaps. Let me plug my nose.
Refrain from blowing away possibility. My voice prompts crickets to chirp. Freedom
punctuates a paraphrase. Looks into the back of eyes show the world seed and sow.
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On a Spectrum
am
not
who you
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A Fall
He toppled down the stairs and hit his head on the rail. Blood trickled
from his lips, a sign of words to come. Broken bones worst criticism
and placed my hand on his brow. “Can you stand?” I said. He neither
nodded nor murmured. He didn’t know touch. He didn’t know I could
fly him to my nest. Besides worms, I gathered twigs for his swells and
fed him the remedy of place. He sat up dazed. There are no words to
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Deescalating Hurt
on more than the hand in sight. Insight is half farce, half fleece, half wisdom.
Halves don’t add up like phone plans and shelved books. No secret in dancing
with being with gate, gate, parasamgate. Activate the belly and breathe the glow.
You can follow my meaning but you can’t have my say. Replenish flesh through
game and play for the sake of any and all welcome in the cathedral where gods
unfold blankets for the tried. When you lose everything for gain hidden eyes
open. Looking straight uncrooks the neck. The more curious we are the less
remote is impossibility. I won’t go into details here. Every gesture is an invitation.
Remember where you home yourself and follow me to the back room if you want.
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For the Shelf
We who let words have their way with us get out of the way. In lineated
breath flush with deliberation we sigh and render the couch occupied.
This is how to tug our boat without sink and float towards the ineluctable.
A paragraph in sentience claims boundaries have no claim like the wettest
of wanted kisses. No harm in this arm’s race onto the page. No one suffers
strangulation by a poet’s hand. In versely directs no menace or negation but
its ice and we our page. Let me tell you a story: I appear as a character in
another’s tale. Don’t let the craft come between us.
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Encountering
your abhor? Have you asked your shadow out? The crux
of the matter traps matters and leads to argue membership
size and who’s in charge, a master alert for a slave. The world
will go on without me but what I hear stinks. My business is
it’s time to gasp intimacy. Don’t swear off the small stuff nor fuel
the foil. I will not say it another way and will take myself away.
cut chains and untie the noose. I’ve crossed the desert weak kneed
in the burn of not belonging. I’m writing up a report as we speak.
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