Then two years passed by in a blink of an eye,

Yet to recover, to the third I go, The third voyage has sailed and I’m on it,
Barely surviving, last ditch I must try, Riding the waves freely yet carefully,
To make my parents proud and let them know, A challenge for myself to never quit,
Even though alone, I can and will grow, To cruise over hurdles successfully,
Beyond the heartbreaks and loses, they’ll see, To keep hold of myself and sanity,
Determined and unshaken- there is me. Even with fate’s surprise and things unplanned,
Determined and unshaken, I will stand.
I wish- Fate had another plan to spare,
I softened, turned fragile, like a snow flake,
My failures manifested to nightmare,
Lurking, haunting, and keeping me awake,
An audition I failed ruined my sake,
Like water, confidence went down the drain,
I used to excel, but now all in vain.

One by one, everything came crashing down,

I became a shell of my former self,
Recognition I gained became thorned crown,
A book sealed away to a distant shelf,
There, I witness passion fade from myself,
Realization comes flooding to me,
Questioning, is this where I want to be?
A question that no one else could answer,
Results are far from satisfactory,
Is that my best? Could I have done any better?
Not here, but in another world, maybe.
This is what despair feels like, most likely,
Well- perhaps the new year could bring me joy,
A fruitful year that I’ll truly enjoy.