October 28, 2023

Sleep and health

Honestly I have always had a problem when it comes to my sleep schedule. I have never been able to
actually fall asleep on time and I feel like as of recently it’s only been getting worse usually even when I
don’t fall asleep fast I do feel tired my eyes get all droopy and I can tell that I’m about to sleep soon
however as of recently I haven’t been getting tired and I’ve been getting more anxious and I’ve been
feeling nothing but horrible about myself. I’ve been feeling more shaken up and sometimes out of
nowhere while I’m doing work I feel like stopping everything and crying. I did actually end up crying
once and it’s honestly concerning because I’m usually good at controlling my emotions especially in
public. My mental health has never been at an all time low like this. I have a feeling that I know what’s
going on and as of now I’m working on it making sure that what I’m feeling really is what I think it is
because I don’t want to make any decisions I’ll regret later on. However after doing a lot of research I
think that what I’m about to do is the right choice for me and my mental health honestly the more I think
about it that should’ve been something I had done since the very beginning but I suppose I let my hopes
get in the way of rationally thinking what would be best for me. This used to be something I wanted but
now I realize I do want it but not in this way. My mental health has always been something I took care of
greatly it was one of my main priorities, making sure I’m ok although I’ve never actually been open about
my mental health to my friends or family it was something I’ve dealt with on my own because it was
something I needed to know for myself without people getting in my way and confusing me.