The choice I made last month proved an awful one.

That strange chaos astonished me a lot. It revealed, at least,

people in India not always eager and ready to be responsible
for their duties. It is, however, the world-wide need for people
to study aboard, which brings a enormous demand in the
world, thus many agents with poor quality also can work for
those students.
This situation of being delayed by their careless work, with all
misery and anxiety which happened to me, was a important
lesson for me to understand those who relying on others might
be wronged more than the ones managing their business by
themselves. Therefore, becoming a mature person capable of
handling my things is the right way for me. Also, it would be
foolish, after all those sufferings, I still do not change my
behavirour trait to the utmost. However, no everyone have got
the opportunity to borrow their family’s money to invest their
future, hence I am supposed to be peaceful and even happy
instead of being gloomy.
But still there is left a vague but important thing I have been
obliging to do, which is to satisfy my family, sicne I owe them
too much. Besides, I know my past actions were no doubt
faulty to a terrible extent, thus such wrongs must be
superseded by far better efforts rather than such a poor result
now.

The progress of my plan for the future is waiting to be picked

up right now, since too much time has been wasted by me and
others. I shall become a person with meaningful daily tasks
instead of the one just laying in the bed like a spineless animal
and not knowing whether it is still a human being or not. As can
be remerbered, I do not think I am able to heard my name
mentioned by God if I die tomorrow. In that absent diary
notebook, almost ten years old, that God gave me, though
there should have got a little remarkable things written down, I
can barely think of any of them, since almost none of them
ever came true. Absurdly enough, in my past there is not a
single indulgent thing which is not regarded as being of more
importance than the right mission I am obliged to strive for.
Why such ridiculous fauts I committed has become a greatest
mystery I am devoting my life to reveal, hoping the real good
can come of me one day.

The choice I made last month proved an awful one.

That strange chaos astonished me a lot. It revealed there are
some people in India not always eager and ready to be
responsible for their duties. It is, however, the worldwide need
for people to study aboard, which brings an enormous demand
to the world, thus many agents with poor quality also can work
for those students.
This situation of being delayed by their careless work, with all
misery and anxiety which happened to me, was an important
lesson for me to understand those relying on others might be
wronged more than the ones managing their business by
themselves. Therefore, becoming a mature person capable of
handling my things is the right way for me. Also, it would be
foolish, after all those sufferings, I still do not change my
behaviour trait to the utmost. However, not everyone has got
the opportunity to borrow their family’s money to invest in
their future, hence I am supposed to be peaceful and even
happy instead of being gloomy.
But still there is left a vague but important thing I have been
obliging to do, which is to satisfy my family since I owe them
too much. Besides, I know my past actions were no doubt
faulty to a terrible extent, thus such wrongs must be
superseded by far better efforts rather than such a poor result
now.

The progress of my plan for the future is waiting to be picked

up right now since too much time has been wasted by me and
others. I shall become a person with meaningful daily tasks
instead of the one just laying in bed like a spineless animal and
not knowing whether it is still a human being or not. As can be
remembered, I do not think I am able to hear my name
mentioned by God if I die tomorrow. In that absent diary
notebook, almost ten years old, that God gave me, though
there should have got a few remarkable things written down, I
can barely think of any of them, since almost none of them
ever came true. Absurdly enough, in my past, there is not a
single indulgent thing which is not regarded as being of more
importance than the right mission I am obliged to strive for.
Why such ridiculous faults I committed has become the
greatest mystery I am devoting my life to reveal, hoping the
real good can come of me one day.