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A Broken Soul-1
A Broken Soul-1
introduction
My name is Bennice Sibiya but i go by Nissi. I am 21 years old. I have an older sister by
the name of Fanny and she is 30 years old. I live at witbank, at Duva-park to be more
exact. Duva-park is not a fancy place it’s an informal settlement and we a small
community probably +-50 houses in the whole area. We have no electricity, no toilets,
no running water, no clinics or hospitals, and one primary and secondary schools that
are very far from us. Our houses are made of wood and sand with a grass roof top. I live
with my mother who has TB and ontop she is Hiv+ given by my father. My father passed
on when i was 15 years of age, he didn’t die by HIV No sir! he was killed by my sister,
pretty intense isn’t it?. He worked in Gauteng and i bet he messed around with alot of
women there and brought my mom HIV. The reason why my sister killed him is that he
was very abusive to my mother and to us, he tried raping my sister but my sister
stabbed him to death,he couldn’t fight back because he was drunk and my sister never
got arrested because it was ruled as self defence. I finished matric when i was 19 and i
passed but i couldn’t further my studies because i didn’t have money we very poor my
mom is not working we depend on her social grant and if i go to college whose gonna
look after my mom. My sister lives at jhb and she is a prostitute my mom doesn’t
support that at all that’s why she never accept the money or things that my sister buys
us. I am a very quiet girl and I’m very shy, i only have one Friend and no boyfriend.
When it comes to physical features i am a yellow bone, average height, I’m not fat and
I’m not skinny i just have a normal body with big boobs though something that runs in
the family. I have short hair because I don’t have money to braid those expensive
weaves so cutting is less expensive. I am that kind of a girl who has goals and ambitions
i never wanna depend on a man i wanna have my own money and depend on me that’s
why I’m not easily taken by this boys with flashy cars and loaded wallets. Boys in my
hood are even scared of me because kimi alifakwa libuya no daka (i am full of shit),they
say I’m not easily approachable and i always look angry vele angifuni ukuthi
bangijwayele (i don’t want them to get used to me). I have big dreams i wanna be a chef
and own a restaurant one day and no guy is gonna take that dream away from me by
getting me pregnant or using me No! I won’t have that.
Days passed by fanny and i were still not In good terms i haven’t spoken to Uche in a
while been ignoring his calls, and i was still trying to deal with what happened. Gao
came in my room one night,while i was laying in bed and listening to music and
engulfed by my thoughts. I took off my headsets.
Him: Hi
I sat up straight.
Him: i just wanted to tell you that, things don’t have to be like this. All you have to do is
listen to me and everything is gonna be fine. Look how your stubbornness is hurting
you, you invited unnecessary drama and punishment in your life right now.
Wow i can’t believe this guy right now.
Him: Jito has tripled the amount and he wanna have you for Tomorrow and Sunday also,
you’ll come back Monday.
Today it was a Friday.
Me: Wow Gao i seriously cannot believe you right now, after all that Jito has put me
through you suggesting this? What do you want him to do, kill me?
Him: Jito is less aggressive if you just listen to him and give him a good time
Me: i think we done here.
I stood up and walked to the door, Gao pulled me and threw me on the bed.
Him: Listen here you piece of rubbish! If it wasn’t for me you’d still be living in whatever
village you were living at. You gonna cost me a lot of money with your useless chef
school so i want you to pay for all the money I’m gonna spend on you! I own you Nissi
and you gonna do what i say because if you don’t you’ll be sorry.
He said that while walking out. Then stopped.
Him: ohh and if you think of running away then you’ll see my true colours.
he went out and banged the door. I sat on my bed thinking of what i should do because i
cannot let Jito violate me like that. I started pacing around the room, i can’t run away
Gao is gonna kill me, then an idea struck me if I’m gonna leave this place then I’m gonna
leave in a coffin, I’d rather die than have Jito violate me like that. I Walked to the lounge
Fan and Gao were sitting there, i walked to the bedroom and got Fanny’s pills, it was
about 20 pills left that will do. I walked up to my room took my phone and sent Uche a
message saying my goodbyes to him, then walked to the bathroom and ran the water. I
took one pill and drank it, i was crying now am i really gonna do this? Hell dare I’m
scared of dying but i have no choice at least I’ll join my mom wherever she is. I drank
those pills then looked myself in the mirror all crying. I went back to my room and got in
bed Uche was busy calling and sending me messages i ignored…i laid there starring at
the wall until i got dizzy, then got very dizzy and then lights out
I am so thankful that I didn’t faint, because If i did i was gonna draw alot of attention to
myself, and I’m glad that innocentia was there to hold me and prevent me from falling.
Innocentia was a close friend of mine that i got at wits we were studying the same
course.
Her: Friend are you okay?
Me: Yes im okay, sorry i just had a flashback from the past.
Brandon was coming our way now.
Brandon: What’s taking so long?
Inno: She’s not feeling well she almost fainted.
Brandon came to me
Him: Are you okay doll? What happened?
Me: i..
Inno: She received a card from a..
I had to stop her from talking
Me: It’s nothing babe really Inno is just overreacting
Brandon: Are you sure? Because you have been acting very weird today Skat
I flashed a fake smile
Me: im fine babe, we can go now
I hugged Inno
Inno: Call me when you get home
Me: I will.
Brandon and i walked to the car while holding hands, he noticed the card in my other
hand
Brandon: What’s that?
Me: just a congratulations card from a classmate
Him: Okay
We went to our car and went to join sheeda, Vic, and Brandon’s grandma at home, Dora
had prepared lunch for everyone. In the car i was in deep thoughts, that can’t be
Tshepiso i mean he got 30Years how can he be out in 5 years? That doesn’t make sense,
and what does he want? Is he here for revenge?
Brandon didn’t bother starting a conversation with me he saw that i was distracted……..
We got home and i left my graduation gown and everything else In the car. We walked
into the house and Dora started ululating, then after came to hug me.
Her: i am so proud of you ntombazana. Im sure it wasn’t an easy Road but you made it.
I was smiling.
Sheeda: She truly made us proud.
Vic: i agree.
For the first time there’s one thing that i did right in my life.
We went to the dinning room and sat at the table and started dishing up Ofcause after
sheeda had blessed the food. They were all talking and smiling i couldn’t contribute to
the conversation i was scared, what if Tshepiso kills me and Brandon? But was it him
that i saw? I mean the card can’t lie it sure was him.
After eating we just sat and started talking while Dora cleared the table and Brandon’s
grandma helped her.
I went to sit down on the couch while Brandon and Vic went up to Vic’s study busy
talking about cigars. Sheeda came to sit next to me.
Sheeda: What’s wrong Bamboo, you seem disturbed, you haven’t been yourself today
Me: im fine sheeda
Her: don’t lie to me, i thought we were over this thing of keeping things from each other
I might as well tell her because she won’t stop nagging me.
Me: Tshepi is back
Her jaw dropped, leaving her eyes wide open.
Her: whaaaaaaaat!
Me: He came to my graduation sat at the back and gave me a card.
Sheeda: it can’t be, i mean he got 30years
Me: It was him sheeda
She put her hand on my forehead.
Her: could be that you hallucinating i mean you been having a serious fever this past
few..
Me: Sheeda i know what i saw! *shouting*
She got her hand off me
Me: I’m sorry i didn’t mean to shout it’s just that, I’m tired. Maybe you right i probably
have been hallucinating.
She held my hand.
Her: How about tomorrow we go and see my therapist I’m not saying you crazy but you
look stressed and need someone to talk too.
Me: Okay we will go
Her: Loosen up bamboo today it’s your big day you should be happy and not sulking
I smiled.
Her: Your life is going well, you just graduated you are engaged to a handsome boy who
loves you dearly.
I looked at my ring and smiled.
Me: i sure am lucky.
We chilled at Sheeda’s house until late then we decided to leave. We first drove
Brandon’s grandma to her house then after drove to our house. We got there and
Brandon held my graduation gown and hat while i held my degree. We got inside the
house and the card fell from my gown. He picked it up and i snatched it from him before
he opened it. I started tearing it up and put it in a trash can.
He looked at me
Me: What?
Him: I’m not even gonna ask.
We went to our bedroom and he put the gown nicely in the closet.
I took off my heels then he came and hugged me from behind busy kissing my neck.
Me: Brandon not tonight
Him: Come on doll, just one quick round.
I got his hands off me.
Me: im going to shower.
I took off my clothes and went to shower. I swear thinking about Tshepi got my heart
pumping abnormally. I realised that I had been in the shower for too long when I went
back to the main room and found Brandon sleeping. I lotioned and put on my pj short
and a matching pj t-shirt,then went to the kitchen to eat something since i didn’t eat at
Sheeda’s. I took out a pie from the fridge and put it on a plate then when i went to throw
the box in the trash because it was the last pie, the trash can was full and it was starting
to smell. I took out the plastic fasten it and went out to put it outside the gate. I stood
there for a while starring at the stars and it was dark with no one passing, it was very
quiet. I noticed a black car parked close to our house but looked like there was no one
inside, Aii it could be anyone lemme go inside because i don’t feel safe now. When i
turned i came face to face with the devil himself
Tshepi: Hello Nini, remember me?
I seriously thought I was gonna have a heart attack
Me: How.. Why.. Wa..
He put two fingers on my lips.
Him: Shhh, We’ll get to the details later, but now I want us to go for a ride.
I wasn’t going nowhere with this psycho
I shook my head no
He gave me a deadly stare, the one that made my skin crawl.
Him: We can do this the easy way or the hard way.
I started walking away but he grabbed me from my waist, i started screaming but he put
his hand over my mouth,and whispered in my ear.
Him: Shut the fuck up! Or i will kill you right here, and right now you hear me?
I nodded my head yes..
He kissed me on my cheek
Him: shit! You still beautiful just like the first time i laid my eyes on you, and you smell
good too.
I was now crying and praying that someone comes through for me,i don’t wanna die
now not just when i graduated.
Tshepiso did take me that night and he took me to our old house. Alot happened there,
he tortured me by having sexual intercourse with me against my will, he was trying to
get me back in sickening ways and ended up impregnating me but since my womb was
not eligible enough to hold a baby i miscarried. He let me go after a while and my family
was dead worried, i don’t wanna mention Brandon who looked like he was gonna die
without seeing me. I wasn’t gonna run away from Tshepiso anymore running won’t help
so for me to be happy and live a peaceful life i beat him at his own game, i hired a
hitman to kill him and they did a perfect job, made it look like it was a simple hijacking
that went wrong. Yes we buried him and you know what’s sad? No one will ever know
who killed him. Brandon and i ended up getting married and i became honest to him
about everything,he was angry at first to know that i have a sex tape and had an
abortion but he ended up forgiving me. I didn’t tell him about being a prostitute some
other secrets are better left untold. Today we very happy and my life is at peace
although sheeda is still greatly affected by her son’s death but Vic cares less because
Tshepiso had caused him great pain. Brandon and i we set to adopt soon, and me? I have
never been this happy.