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‫ﻛﻞﺍﻟﺤﻘﻮﻕ ﻣﺤﻔﻮﻇﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﻳﺠﻮﺯ ﺇﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺇﻧﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻱ ﺟﺰء ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻮﺯﻳﻌﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻧﻘﻠﻪ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺷﻜﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺑﺄﻱ ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻜﺘﺮﻭﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻴﻜﺎﻧﻴﻜﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﻈﻤﺔ ﺗﺨﺰﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺮﺟﺎﻋﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺫﻥ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻒ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻗﺘﺒﺎﺳﺎﺕﻣﺨﺘﺼﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺮﺍﺟﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻭ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺴﻤﺢ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻗﺎﻧﻮﻥ ﺣﻘﻮﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻊﻭﺍﻟﻨﺸﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻥﺍﻟﺘﺸﺎﺑﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻠﻴﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﺘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻛﻦ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﻫﻮ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﺐﺍﻟﻤﻠﺘﻮﻱ‪:‬‬
‫ﻣﺼﻤﻢﺍﻟﻐﻼﻑ‪:‬ﻛﻮﻳﺮﺍ ﻛﻴﺴﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﺑﺪﺍﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻹﻏﺮﺍء‬

‫ﻣﺤﺮﺭ‪:‬ﺇﻳﻤﻲ ﺑﺮﻳﺠﺰ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﻳﺠﺰ ﻟﻼﺳﺘﺸﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺫ‪.‬ﻡ‪.‬ﻡ‬

‫ﻣﺪﻗﻖﻟﻐﻮﻱ‪:‬ﻛﺮﻳﺴﺘﺎ ﺑﻮﺭﺩﻳﻦ‬
‫ﻣﺼﻮﺭﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻲ‪RafaGCatala:‬‬
‫ﻧﻤﻮﺫﺝ‪:‬ﺧﻮﺭﺧﻲ ﺩﻳﻞ ﺭﻳﻮ ﺭﻭﻣﻴﺮﻭ‬

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 ‫ﺇﻟﻰﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺩﻋﻤﻬﺎ ﻭﺗﺸﺠﻴﻌﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻣﻲ‪،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ِﺗﻘﺮﺃﻳﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺟﻌﻲ ﻓﻮﺭﺍً‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬

‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﻣﺸﺎﻫﺪ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺳﺘﺨﻴﻔﻚ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬

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‫‪.5‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
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‫‪.7‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
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‫‪.16‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
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‫‪.20‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
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‫‪.37‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
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‫ﻛﺘﺐﺁﻧﺎ ﻫﻮﺍﻧﻎ ﺍﺑﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﻣﻊ ﺁﻧﺎ ﻫﻮﺍﻧﻎ‬

‫ﺷﻜﺮﻭﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ‬

‫ﻋﻦﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻒ‬

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 ‫"ﻣﻠﺘﻮﻳﺔ" ‪ -‬ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫"ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺜﻠﺞ" ‪ -‬ﺃﻭﻣﺎﺭﻳﻮﻥ‬
‫"ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ" ‪ -‬ﺟﻤﻬﻮﺭﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ "‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺴﻖﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺠﺮ" ‪ -‬ﺯﻳﻦ ﻭﺳﻴﺎ‬
‫"ﺃﺷﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ" ‪ -‬ﺃﺩﻳﻞ‬
‫"ﺣﺮﻕ" ‪ -‬ﺇﻳﻠﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺪﻳﻨﺞ‬
‫"ﻧﻮﻉ ﺣﺒﻲ" ‪ -‬ﺇﻳﻤﻴﻠﻲ ﺳﺎﻧﺪﻱ "ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺉﻂ"‬
‫‪-‬ﺳﺎﻡ ﺳﻤﻴﺚ‬
‫"ﺍﻟﺸﺒﺢ" ‪ -‬ﺇﻳﻼ ﻫﻨﺪﺭﺳﻮﻥ‬
‫"ﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻘﺘﻠﻚ" ‪ -‬ﻛﻴﻠﻲ ﻛﻼﺭﻛﺴﻮﻥ‬
‫"ﻣﺴﺘﻴﻘﻆ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻄﺎﻕ ﻭﺍﺳﻊ" ‪ -‬ﻛﺎﺗﻲ ﺑﻴﺮﻱ "‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻏﻨﻴﺖ ﻟﻲ" ‪ -‬ﻣﺎﺭﻙ ﺃﻧﺘﻮﻧﻲ‬

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 ‫ﻟﺪﻳﻪﻗﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪ‪...‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﺤﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻫﻮ ﺷﻴﻄﺎﻥ ﻣﻨُﻌﻢ ﺑﻮﺟﻪ ﻣﻼﻙ ﻭﻣﻠﻌﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺎﺿﻲ ﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﻭﺏ ﻣﻨﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺪﻓﻮﻋﺎًﺑﻤﺄﺳﺎﺓ ﻃﺎﺭﺩﺗﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻟﺘﺤﻘﻴﻖ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡﻻ ﺗﺘﺮﻙ ﻣﺠﺎﻻً ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻀﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻨﺎء ﺑﺄﺧﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻳﺒﺪﺃ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺸﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻩ‪:‬‬

‫ﺻﺪﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﻭﺑﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺮﻳﻖﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻬﻲ ﻋﺎﻟﻤﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻌﺮﻓﻪ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺁﻓﺎﺗﺸﻴﻦ ﻫﻲ ﺭﻭﺡ ﻣﺘﺤﺮﺭﺓ ﻣﺤﺎﺻﺮﺓ ﺑﻜﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬

‫ﺗﺬﻛﺮﻫﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺎﺿﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻄﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪...‬‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻬﺮ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺟﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪﻱ ﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻻ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻩ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻷﺧﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺟﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻨﻘﺬﻫﺎﻭﺳﻘﻮﻃﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻥﺣﺒﻬﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻪ ﻳﻄﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻷﺳﺮﺍﺭﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﻣﺮ ﻛﻠﻴﻬﻤﺎ ‪ ...‬ﻭﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻋﺰﻳﺰ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺕﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻄﻌﺖ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺘﺼﻒ‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﺎﺻﻔﺔ ﻣﻤﻄﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺳﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺜﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻫﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺏ ﻣﺴﻌﻮﺭ ﻋﺎﺯﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻬﺎﺟﻤﺘﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ‪.‬ﺃﻭ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻘﻴﺪﺍً ﺇﻟﻰ ﻛﺮﺳﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺒﻮ ﻣﻈﻠﻢ ﻭﺃﺟﺒﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺔ‬
‫"‪ "Barbie Girl‬ﻷﻛﻮﺍ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺘﻜﺮﺭ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻀﻢ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻌﺒﺎﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺍﻷﻏﻨﻴﺔ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﺳﻴﺉﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﻒ‪.‬ﻓﻜﺮ ﺑﺄﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺑﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﻈﻬﺮ ﺃﻭﺑﺮ ‪...‬ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ".‬ﺣﺪﻗﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺨﻠﺼﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺒﺎﻃﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻃﻤﺄﻧﻨﻲﺍﻟﺘﻄﺒﻴﻖ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ "ﻳﺒﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻲ"‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﺃﻗﻞ ﺗﻮﺗﺮﺍً ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﻒ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻫﺎﺗﻒ ﻳﻌﻤﻞ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺄﻭﻯﻟﻠﺤﺎﻓﻼﺕ ﻹﺑﻘﺎﺉﻲ ﺟﺎﻓﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻟﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﻐﺰﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﻉ ﺟﻮﺵ‬
‫ﺳﺘﺒﺪﺃﺧﻼﻝ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻼﻡ ﻛﻌﻜﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺟﺉﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺒﺰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﺤﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﻗﺪ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻧﺼﻒ ﻛﻮﺏ ﻣﻤﺘﻠﺊ ﻧﻮﻋﺎً ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﻤﻘﺎً‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺪ ‪ -‬ﻭﺧﺎﺻﺔ‬
‫ﻓﺘﺎﺓﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻤﻠﻚ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻬﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻗﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻨﻬﺎ ‪ -‬ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﺪ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﺠﻬﻮﻝ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺣﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻛﺎﻥﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﺍﻟﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ ﻣﻊ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻤﺮﻳﺮ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎً ﻋﺒﺮ ﺧﻴﺎﺭﺍﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺪﻭﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻓﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﻊﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﻌﻤﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻄﻼﺕ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺧﺪﻣﺔ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﺎﺿﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻓﻌﺎﻟﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺎﺭﺓﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﺃﻭﺑﺮ ﺗﻌﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺗﻤﺮ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺬﺑﺪء ﻫﻄﻮﻝ ﺍﻷﻣﻄﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺗﻨﻘﻞ ﻣﺠﺎﻧﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺷﺎﻫﺪﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻼﻡﺍﻟﺮﻋﺐ‪ ،‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﺟﺰﻳﻼ ًﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺧﻴﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺎﺣﻘﺎًﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺧﺬ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺨﺘﺎﺭﻳﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻤﺖﺑﺴﺤﺐ ﺟﻬﺔ ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻠﻴﺖ ﺻﻼﺓ ﺻﺎﻣﺘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺿﻐﻄﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺯﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﻠﻘﺔﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﺣﻠﻘﺘﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﺛﻼﺛﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻴﺎ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻂ‪ .‬ﺃﻡ ﻻ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﺃﻳﻬﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺃ‪ :‬ﺍﻟﻘﺘﻞ ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺧﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺧﻲ ﺳﻴﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺗﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻻﺣﻘﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﺄ؟"‬
‫ﺣﻜﻜﺖﺃﻧﻔﻲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺗﺤﻴﺘﻪ‪" .‬ﻣﺮﺣﺒﺎً ﺑﻚ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻳﺰ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻚ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﺧﻄﺄ ﻣﺎ؟ "‬

‫ﺷﺨﺮﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﺍﻩ ﺍﻧﺖﻣﺴُﻤَﻰًّﺃﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﺘﺼﻞ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺭﻃﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻀﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﺉﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﺼﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻌﻴﺶ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ‪-‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﺬﻩﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻓﻜﺮﺗﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ‪ -‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻧﺎﺩﺭﺍً ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻀﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﺉﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻟﻦ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﻣﺸﻜﻠﺔ‪"،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺤﻮﻃﺖ‪" .‬ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ‪ ...‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﺗﻘﻄﻌﺖ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺳﺎﺉﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻭﺑﺮ”‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻓﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻳﻦ ﺃﻧﺖ؟" ﺍﺧﺒﺮﺗﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺠﺤﻴﻢ؟ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ!‬

 ‫"ﻻ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺩﺭﺍﻣﻴﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺗﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﻟﻠﺨﻄﻮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﺛﻼﺛﻴﻦ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﺑﻌﻮﻥ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ‪ .‬ﺩﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺰ ﺃﻏﺼﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﺷﺠﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺒﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﻜﻤﺸﺖ ﻭﺍﻧﻜﻤﺸﺖ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺠﺄ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻔﻴﺪﺍً ﻟﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ ﻳﻤﻴﻞ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺮﺷﻨﻲ ﺑﻘﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﺎء ﺛﻘﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻗﻮﻳﺔ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻠﺴﻌﻨﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺗﻀﺮﺏﺟﻠﺪﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺟﺎءﺻﻮﺕ ﺣﻔﻴﻒ ﻣﻦ ﻃﺮﻑ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺗﻼﻩ ﺃﻧﻴﻦ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖﻣﺆﻗﺘﺎً‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺧﻄﺄ‪ ً،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﻴﻦ ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺗﺴﻌﺖﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻋﺐ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻟﺪﻳﻚﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲﺍﻵﻥ؟" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺑﻬﻤﺲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ‬

‫ﻣﻦﻋﺪﻡ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﺸﻄﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺗﻲ ﻟﻠﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﺗﻬﺪﺩ ﺑﺎﻟﻈﻬﻮﺭ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﺷﻲء ‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻛﺮﺭ ﻻ ﺷﻲء ‪ -‬ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻓﻈﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻷﻗﺎﺭﺏ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺠﺮﺩﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮ ﺟﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﻜﺖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺣﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ".‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻧﺎﺩﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺩﺕ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ "ﺗﻘﻨﻴﺎً" ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻞ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻄﻠﺐ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻋﺒﻘﺮﻳﺎً‬
‫ﻟﻔﻚﺭﻣﻮﺯ ﺭﺩ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻣﺾ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻤﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺷﺊ ﻣﺎﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻦﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻫﺬﺍ "ﺍﻟﺸﻲء"‪.‬‬

‫"ﺟﻮﺵ ﺗﺸﻴﻦ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻣﺮﺣﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺗﺼﻞ ﺑﻲ‪ ".‬ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻏﻄﻰ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻪ ﺑﻴﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺟﺎءﺕ‬
‫ﻣﻜﺘﻮﻣﺔ‪.‬ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﺃﻧﺜﻮﻳﺔ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻳﺘﺒﻌﻬﺎ ﺻﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺗﺒﻴﻴﺾ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻘﻞ‪.‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪" :‬ﺃﺧﺬ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻲ ﻟﺸﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﻠﺞ"‪" .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‪ .‬ﻗﻢ ﺑﺈﺳﻘﺎﻁ ﺩﺑﻮﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻮﻗﻌﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺪﺩ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺑﻖﻫﺎﺗﻔﻚ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺫﺍﺫ ﺍﻟﻔﻠﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻳﺘﻪ ﻟﻌﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ؟‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻯ ﻟﻲ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺣﻘﺎﺉﺐ‬
 ‫ﺭﺫﺍﺫﺍﻟﻔﻠﻔﻞ ﺑﺪﻻ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﺃﻳﺎً ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎً‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ‪ -‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺘﻲ ‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺮﻳﺢ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﺰءﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺒﺖﺳﺨﺮﻳﺘﻲ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺃﺧﻲ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻄﺎﻟﺐ ﺗﻤﻬﻴﺪﻱ ﻟﻠﻄﺐ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻛﺜﻴﻔﺎًﺟﺪﺍً‪" .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﺑﻖ َﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺎﻧﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﺳﻨﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻓﺘﻘﺎﺭﻙﺍﻟﺘﺎﻡ ﻟﻠﺤﻔﺎﻅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﺕ ﻻﺣﻘﺎً‪" .‬‬

‫ﺍﻋﺘﺮﺿﺖﻗﺎﺉﻼ‪" ً:‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺎﻓﻆ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ"‪.‬ﻫﻞ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ؟"ﻟﻴﺲ‬

‫ﺧﻄﺄﻱﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ‪ - Ub‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻘﺼﺪ ﺑـ "ﻫﻮ"؟ ﺟﻮﺵ!"‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﻓﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﻭﺍﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻏﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻟﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻇﻨﻨﺖﺃﻧﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺗﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﺮﺡ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻔﺼﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﺘﺨﻠﻰ ﻋﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺃﺣﺪ‬
‫ﺭﻓﺎﻗﻪﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻮﺟﺉﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺰﻉ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺧﺬ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ "ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻬﺎء" ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺮﻃﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﻨﺬ "ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ" ﺃﺧﺬ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺎﺗﻘﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻨﺎءﺑﻲ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺧﻲ ﻭﺣﺎﺭﺳﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﻮﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺘﻨﺎﻣﻠﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻮﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻗﻴﻞ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃﺣﺒﺒﺘﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻗﻠﻘﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻤﺮ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪.‬‬

‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺪ ﻭﺿﻤﻤﺖ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺸﻘﻖﻳﺪﻓﺊ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﻇﻬﻮﺭ "ﻫﻮ" ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻣﺾ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺷﺨﺺ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻧﻘﺺ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺒﻲ —‬
‫ﻻﻋﺐﻛﺮﺓ ﺳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺉﻴﺲ ﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ ﻟﻠﻮﻃﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻳﺔ؛‬
‫ﺳﻴﺠﻤﺎﺷﻘﻴﻖ ﺍﻷﺧﻮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﻧﻘﻴﻀﻪ‪ .‬ﻻﺍﻷﻣﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓﺷﻌﺒﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻷﺿﻮﺍء‬

‫ﻭﺃﻓﻀﻞﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﺑﻴﻦ ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻮﺩﻭﺩﻳﻦ‪ .‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻫﻮ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻭﺣﻠﻤﺖ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺃﺣﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﻴﻘﻈﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻴﺲﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﻫﺎﺑﻲ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻱ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺑﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻮﺑﻴﺎﺍﻟﻠﻌﻴﻨﺔ‪.‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺪﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻐﺜﻴﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﺴﺎﺭﻉﻧﺒﻀﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺼﻴﺐ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻠﻞ‬
 ‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﺣﻮﻝ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺉﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﺠﻤﺪﺓﺃﺷﻴﺎء…‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺮﻕ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺗﺠﻨﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻴﻄﺎﺕﻭﺍﻟﺒﺤﻴﺮﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺑﺢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ‪...‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺉﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻓﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻌﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻓﺘﻘﺎﺭﻱﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺼﻴﺮﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﻋﺮﺽ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﻏﺮﺍﻳﺴﻮﻥ ﺑﺈﻋﺎﺩﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺟﻬﻢ ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﺸﺮﻛﺔ ﺃﻭﺑﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻮﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺣﺮﻡ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﺍﻧﻔﺘﺤﺖ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺟﻴﻦ‪،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺫﺍ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﻗﺪ ﺣﻞ‪ .‬ﺍﺧﺘﻠﻂ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻓﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺯﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺩ ﻟﻠﺸﻔﻖ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥﺟﺰء ﻣﻨﻲ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ "ﻫﻮ" ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻣﺾ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺨﺬﻟﻨﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﻓﺸﻞ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎﺑﻲ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻃﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻨﻮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻏﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵﻃﺎﻟﺒﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺪﻡ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﻒ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻄﻠﺐﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺑﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﻘﻄﻊﺷﻌﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺑﻴﺢ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻃﻊ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﺣﺪﻗﺖ ﺑﻌﻴﻨﻴﻦ ﻣﻐﻤﻀﺘﻴﻦ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﺨﻔﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻗﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺬﺭ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺯﻥ ﺍﺣﺘﻤﺎﻻﺕ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺗﺨﺺﺭﺣﻠﺘﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻣﺮﻳﺾ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣﺤﺘﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﻣﻦ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﻼﻧﺪ ﺁﻣﻨﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨﻚﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺗﺄﻗﻠﻤﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻀﻮء‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﺼﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺘﻴﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺎﺭﺟﻴﺪﺓ؟ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺗﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍء ﺍﻷﻧﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﺠﻪ‬
‫ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻠﻜﺎً ﻷﺣﺪ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺎﻑ‬
‫ﺧﺒﺮﺍًﻣﺤﻠﻴﺎً ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺧﺒﺎﺭﺳﻴﺉﺔ؟ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻘﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺗﻦ ﻫﻲ ﺁﺧﺮﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﺃﺭﺩﺕ ‪ -‬ﺃﻭ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ ‪ -‬ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﻄﺤﺒﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦﺳﺄﻗﺪﻡ ﻣﻌﺮﻭﻓﺎً ﻟﺼﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﻘﺬ ﺃﺧﺘﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻘﻄﻌﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻞﻧﻮﻋﺎ ًﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ‪ .‬ﻫﻮ ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧﺎﻃﺊ‬
‫ﻭﺳﺄﺩﻣﺮﻙﺃﻧﺖ ﻭﻛﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻬﺘﻢ ﻷﻣﺮﻩﺭﺟﻞ ﻧﻮﻋﺎً ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻫﺎﺩﺉﺎً ﻭﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎً‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬
 ‫ﻻﺣﻆﺃﻥ ﻋﺎﻟﻤﻚ ﻳﺤﺘﺮﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻮﻟﻚ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﺩ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻗﺪﻣﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺴﻮﺓﺑﻤﻼﺑﺲ ﺗﻮﻡ ﻓﻮﺭﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺮﺭﺕﺑﻄﺮﻑ ﻟﺴﺎﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻓﺔ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻭﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘﺖ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻛﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﺩﺧﻞ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﺮﻓﻊ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ‪ -‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺮﻓﻊ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ‪ -‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺎﺯﻟﺖ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻪ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ ٍﻭﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺨﻴﻠﺖ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ ﻳﻨﺤﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺤﺮﻙ‪" :‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻻ ﺗﻨﺘﻈﺮﻧﻲ ﻷﻓﺘﺢ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ"‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻣﺜﻠﻲ‬
‫ﺑﺸﺄﻥﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﻒ‪.‬‬

‫ﻳﺎﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻟﻄﻴﻒ‪.‬‬

‫ﺿﻐﻄﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ ﻣﻌﺎً ﺛﻢ ﺭﺩﺩﺕ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺳﺎﺧﺮﺓ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻧﻬﻀﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺪ ﻭﺍﻧﺪﻓﻌﺖ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﺤﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻭﺑﺎﻫﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻟﻮﻧﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻠﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻳﻄﺎﻟﻲﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻨﺸﻔﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻷﺿﻌﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻲ‪،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎء ﺣﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺴﺒﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺗﻼﻑ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻠﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻫﻆﺍﻟﺜﻤﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺷﻜﺮﺍ ﻻﻟﺘﻘﺎﻁ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻗﺪﺭ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻟﻜﺴﺮ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺸﻠﺖ‪.‬ﺑﺎﺉﺴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﺴﺘﺠﺐ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﻭ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻲ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺘﻨﻘﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﻌﻄﻔﺎﺕ ﻭﻣﻨﺤﻨﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺩﻳﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﺩ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﺸﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ‪،‬ﻭﻳﺘﻨﻔﺲ ‪ -‬ﺛﺎﺑﺘﺎً ﻭﻣﻨﻀﺒﻄﺎً‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺗﻴﺎﺭ ﺧﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﺮ ﻳﺤﺬﺭ ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﻘﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦﻳﻔﻜﺮﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺒﻮﺭﻩ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﺣﻜﻢ ﺍﻹﻋﺪﺍﻡ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻜﺲ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺖ ﻣﻨﺪﻫﺸﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻬﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺎ ًﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺣﻤﻖ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺃﺳﺒﺎﺑﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻧﻮﻉﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻧﺎً ﺁﻟﻴﺎً ﻋﺪﻳﻢ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻨﺎﺩﺍً‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺍﻟﻤﻘﺘﻄﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺔﻧﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺳﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻣﻦﺃﺧﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﺎﺗﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍً ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺎ ﻟﻪ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻝﺗﻀﺎﻋﻔﺖ ﻗﻴﻤﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻴﺮﺍﺛﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻨﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻌﻨﻲﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺍﺧﺘﺮﻉ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺠﺎً ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍً ﻟﻠﻨﻤﺬﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻳﺔﻣﻤﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﻪ ﻣﻠﻴﻮﻧﻴﺮﺍً ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺖ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻊﻣﻌﺪﻝ ﺫﻛﺎء ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ‪ ،160‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻋﺒﻘﺮﻳﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺎﺭﻳﺦ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻛﻤﻞ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺍﻟﺒﻜﺎﻟﻮﺭﻳﻮﺱ‪/‬ﻣﺎﺟﺴﺘﻴﺮ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻋﻤﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺘﺮﻙﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﺮﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺬﻱ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﺠﺢ ﺷﺮﻛﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻄﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﺭﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻄﻮﺭﺓ‪،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺛﻨﺎء‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻓﻴﻖﺑﻴﻦ ﻓﺼﻮﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﻫﺞ ﺍﻹﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻭﻭﻇﻴﻔﺘﻲ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺘﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺮﺽ ﻣﺎﻛﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ ﻛﻤﺼﻮﺭ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻮﻇﻔﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺘﺨﺮﺝ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﺑﺔ‪،‬ﺣﻔﻼﺕ ﺃﻋﻴﺎﺩ ﻣﻴﻼﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﻛﻠﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧﺖ ﺫﺍﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ؟" ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺇﺟﺮﺍء ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻗﺼﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖﻳﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺳﻜﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻀﻢ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻄﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻨﻮﻋﺔ ﻛﻞ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻣﻨﺬ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﺤﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺖ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬ﻳﻌﺮﻑﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻧﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖﺑﺠﻮﺵ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻤﺮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻃﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء ﺃﻭ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪".‬‬
‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎﺇﺫﺍ‪.‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻳﺘﺠﻮﻝ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﻠﻴﻮﻥ ﺷﻲء ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ‪ .‬ﻗﻢ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺤﺮﻳﺮﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺗﺼﻮﻳﺮ ‪ ،Graysons‬ﻭﺍﻋﻤﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﻠﺒﻲ ﻟﻠﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫‪ ،World Youth Photography‬ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺪ ‪ Josh‬ﻓﻲ ﺇﻧﻬﺎء ﺣﺰﻡ ﺃﻣﺘﻌﺘﻪ ﺑﻌﺪ‪...‬‬

‫ﻫﺮﺍء!ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﺴﻴﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻦ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻃﻠﺒﺘﻪ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﻦ ﻷﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺪ ﺍﻷﻗﺼﻰ ﻟﻠﻤﻬﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﺸﻲء ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫‪ .Crumble & Bake‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺷﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻛﻨﺔﻣﻜﻮﻧﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺕ‬
 ‫ﻣﻊﺣﻠﻮﻯ ﻭﻣﻠﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺒﻮﺩﻧﻎ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﻐﻤﺲ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻛﺴﺮ ﺣﻜﻤﻪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻘﺘﺼﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﺬﺍ‪ "...‬ﺃﻟﺼﻘﺖ ﺃﻛﺒﺮ ﻭﺃﻟﻤﻊ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﻌﻄﺎﻑﺇﻟﻰ ‪".Crumble & Bake‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺄﺧﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ".‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻹﺷﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺮﺍء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﺎﺭﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﻁ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻳﻀﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺤﺔ ﻟﺴﺘﺎﺭﺑﻜﺲ ﻭﺑﺎﻧﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻨﺎﺛﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻲﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﺰﺣﺰﺡ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﻪﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﻑ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻛﺤﺪ‬

‫ﺃﻗﺼﻰ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﻠﺮﻛﺾ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻘﺎﻁ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺒﻪﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً؟ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻄﻰ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﻓﻨﺪﻕ ﺳﻲ ﺁﻧﺪ ﺑﻲ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻳﻮﻣﻴﻦ‪"...‬‬

‫"ﻗﻒ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻠﺘﻔﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻋﺠﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﻣﻮﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻨﻮﻥﺑﻤﺪﻯ ﺟﻤﺎﻟﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻗﺪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺟﻨﻮﻧﺎً ﻷﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻳﻤﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻝﺍﻷﺻﺎﺑﻊ؟ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻓﻌﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﺴﺪﻳﺎ‪،‬ﻛﻞ ﺷﺊﻋﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﻀﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﻴﺸﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺘﺄﻟﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺤﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻮﺍﺟﺐﺍﻟﺪﺍﻛﻨﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺭﻗﺎﺉﻖ ﻣﺤﻔﻮﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺮ ﺟﻠﻴﺪﻱ؛ ﺍﻟﻔﻚ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺩ ﻭﻋﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺨﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻮﺗﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻧﻴﻘﺔ؛ﺍﻹﻃﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻬﺰﻳﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺗﺢ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻴﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺜﺎً ﻭﻣﺼﻔﻔﺎً‬
‫ﺑﺸﻜﻞﻣﺜﺎﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺸﺒﻪ ﺗﻤﺜﺎﻻً ﻓﻲ ﻣﺘﺤﻒ ﺇﻳﻄﺎﻟﻲ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺳﺘﺤﻮﺫﺕ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻤﺸﻴﻂ ﺷﻌﺮﻩ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻃﻔﻼ‪ ً،‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻒﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﻮﺭ ﺑﻤﻈﻬﺮ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻲ ‪ -‬ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺰﻋﺠﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺒﻘﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺑﺸﺮ ‪-‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻈﺖ ﺯﺭﻋﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻀﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺧﺬﺗﻚ ﺇﻟﻰ ‪ ،Crumble & Bake‬ﻫﻞ ﺳﺘﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ؟" ﻻ ﺷﻚ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻧﺪﻡ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎﺑﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺒﺮﺕﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻲ‪" .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‪ ".‬ﺷﻔﺘﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪".‬ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪".‬‬
‫ﻧﻌﻢ!‬
‫ﺍﻓﺎﺗﺸﻴﻦ‪ :‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ‪ :‬ﺻﻔﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺒﺰ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻔﻚ ﺣﺰﺍﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻥ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺬﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻭﺃﻋﺎﺩﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻜﺲ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻦﻟﻤﺴﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﺎﺭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺮﻕ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ ﻭﻋﻀﻼﺗﻲ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺪﻓﺉﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺣﻔﺮﺓ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺑﺘﻠﻌﺖ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪.‬ﻫﺮﻣﻮﻧﺎﺕ ﻏﺒﻴﺔ"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺄﺧﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻐﻠﻘﻮﻥ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪ ".‬ﺃﺩﻧﻰ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻓﺾ ﻣﺤﻔﻮﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺯﻭﺍﻳﺎ ﻓﻤﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟" ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻣﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﻨﺰ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻴﺸﻴﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻓﺎﺿﺢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻳﻤﻴﻞ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﺻﺮﺧﺔ ﻣﺮﻭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺴﺒﺐ‬
‫ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻲ؟ﺃﺑﻴﺾ‪ .‬ﻣﺒﺘﻞ‪ .‬ﺷﻔﺎﻑ‪.‬ﻭﻻ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﻦﺍﻧﻈﺮ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻄﻂﺣﻤﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺑﺠﺪﻳﺔ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻣﻼ ًﻟﻠﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺧﻼﻟﻪ‪.‬ﺣﻤﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻧﺘﻴﻞ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺻﻠﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻜﻴﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ‪ -‬ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲء‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻳﺘﻮﻫﺞ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﻟﻮﻥ ﺣﻤﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺮﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ؟"‬
‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲ‪" ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻚ‪.‬ﺍﻵﻥ‪".‬‬
‫ﻓﻲﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺧﻨﻘﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺣﻘﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻋﻨﻴﻔﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻧﻔﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺄﻛﻞ ﻛﻌﻜﺎﺕ ﺭﺟﻞ ﺧﺒﺰ ﺍﻟﺰﻧﺠﺒﻴﻞ ﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓ ﺷﺮﻳﻚﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺁﻛﻞ ﺃﻓﺮﺍﺩ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺟﻴﻨﺠﻲ ﺃﻭ‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺟﻴﻨﺠﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً‬
‫ﻣﺎﻓﻲ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻠﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺯﻓﺮﺕﻧﻔﺴﺎً ﺣﺎﺩﺍً ﻭﺃﺳﻘﻄﺖ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻄﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺴﻴﺖ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻑ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺓﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﺎﺩﺕﺍﻟﺨﺪﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺘﻬﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺉﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻮﺱ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺃﺗﺠﺎﺩﻝ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻏُﻠﻖ ﻣﺘﺠﺮ ‪Bake‬‬
‫& ‪ Crumble‬ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺗﺪﻕ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻗﻀﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﺎﻟﻘ ًﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺖﻣﻠﺠﺄ ﻟﻠﺤﺎﻓﻼﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺣﺒﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﻧﺘﺸﺮ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻓﻪ‪" .‬ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻤﻘﺎًﻭﺗﺤﺪﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺛﺪﻳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﻴﺮﻧﻲ ﺳﺘﺮﺗﻚ؟ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺣﻘﺎً ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻫﺬﻩﺍﻟﻜﻌﻜﺔ ﻭﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺃﺧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄﻧﺎﻗﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻘﺖﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭﺍً‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻧﻄﻘﺖ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ‬
‫ﺑﻜﻠﻤﺔ"ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻦ" ﻷﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﺗﻬﻤﺘﻪ ﺑﻤﻀﺎﻳﻘﺘﻲ؟ﻭﻧﺴﻤﻴﻪ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﻖ؟‬

‫ﻋﺰﻳﺰﻱﺍﻟﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺿﺮﺑﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺒﺮﻕ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﺃﻏﻀﺐ‪ .‬ﻳﻌﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺿﺎﻗﺖﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺠﺰء ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺻﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻢ ﺗﺼﻨﻴﻔﻬﺎ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺭﺩﻭﺩ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻃﻔﻴﺔﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺴﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻲ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺑﺎﺭﺩ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﺤﻮﻳﻞ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻃﻮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﻗﺎﻗﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺛﻠﺠﻴﺔ‪":‬ﺛﻘﻲ ﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﺪﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻚ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ ﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻟﻮﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﻭﻩ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﻬﺘﻤﺎً ﺑـ ‪ Alex‬ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺗﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮﺩ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﻮﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻗﺒﻞﻓﺮﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻳﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺭﻋﺸﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺿﻮﻉ‪" ،‬ﺗﻤﺘﻤﺖ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﻴﻐﻠﻖﻓﻨﺪﻕ ‪ C&B‬ﺧﻼﻝ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺘﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﺩﻋﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﻴﺮ ﺳﺘﺮﺗﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺮﻭﺝ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻓﻊ ﻣﺴﺒﻘﺎً ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻹﻧﺘﺮﻧﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺟﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﻌﻜﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻀﻠﺔﻣﻮﻗﻮﺗﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻜﻪ‪" .‬ﺳﺄﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻦ ﺗﻐﺎﺩﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻳﻦ ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻼﺑﺲ‪،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺳﺘﺮﺗﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺘﺰﻉﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻈﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﻣﻘﻌﺪﻩ ﻭﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺑﺤﺮﻛﺔ ﺳﻠﺴﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺤﺮﻙﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﻜﻞ ﺭﺷﺎﻗﺔ ﻣﻠﻔﻮﻓﺔ ﻭﻛﺜﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺰﺭ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﻘﻖ ﻧﺠﺎﺣﺎً‬
‫ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍًﻛﻌﺎﺭﺽ ﺃﺯﻳﺎء‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً "ﻏﺒﻴﺎً"‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﺎﺩ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ ﻣﻊ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ‪ Crumble & Bake‬ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻴﺰﺓ‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻱ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻌﻨﺎﻉ ﺍﻷﺧﻀﺮ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺗﺤﺖﺫﺭﺍﻉ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻘﺎﻫﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺠﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻖ ﻣﻈﻠﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﺭﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥﻳﺮﻑ ﻟﻪ ﺟﻔﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ؟" ﺳﺄﻟﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺧﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺪﻭﻕ ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﻢﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﺴﺪﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﻠﺐ‪ .‬ﻻ‪" .‬ﻣﻮﺕ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ" ﺳﻴﺄﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪" .‬ﻗﺪ ﻳﺴﺎﻋﺪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻟﺘﻚ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺍﻱ ﺷﺮﻁ؟" ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻠﻞ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﺘﻬﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺒﺎﺕ"‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺻﻔﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻷﺣﻤﻖ‪،‬ﻓﻤﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻹﻫﺎﻧﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ؟‬

‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻓﻤﻪ ﻳﺮﺗﻌﺶ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺠﻴﺐ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻄﻒ‪":‬ﻻ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﺰﻣﻨﺔ‪".‬‬

‫ﺗﺠﻤﺪﺕﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻜﻲ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺑﺎً‪" .‬ﺩ‪ -‬ﻫﻞ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻤﺰﺣﺔ؟"‬

‫"ﺍﺷﺮﺡ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻙ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ‪ ".‬ﺗﻬﺮﺏ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺆﺍﻟﻲ ﻭﻗﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﺿﻴﻊ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺻﺒﺖ ﺑﺎﻹﺻﺎﺑﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﻣﺰﺣﺔ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﺻﺪﻕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻩ ﺑﺄﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻘﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻊﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼء‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺤﻴﺮﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ —"‬

‫"ﺇﻋﻔﺎﺉﻲ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ‪".‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖﻫﺪﻳﺮ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﺾ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ‪" .‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍﺃﻧﺖﻫﻨﺎ؟ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻠﻚ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺉﻖ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻣﺖ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺴﻜﻊﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﻭﻑ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺑﺎﺳﻢ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵ‪،‬ﺍﺷﺘﻌﻠﺖ ﺍﻷﺿﻮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻄﻌﺖ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﺮﻗﺼﻮﻥ ﻭﻳﻀﺤﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺟﻮﺵ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﺫﻭﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﻯ ﻓﻴﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺜﻘﺐﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺯﺭﻋﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻚ ﻋﻀﻮﺍً ﺣﻴﻮﻳﺎً‪ «.‬ﺛﻢ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻧﺸﺄﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺧﻼﻕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﺿﻔﺖ‪"،‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﻚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ"‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﺗﺒﺎﻃﺄ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺭﺫﺍﺫﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻤﻤﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﺤﺔ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻃﺒﺔﻭﺯﻫﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺑﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺠﻤﻌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻋﺎء ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﺤﻢ ﻭﺃﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲﺛﻢ ﺃﻟﺘﻘﻂ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺼﻒﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ .‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻻ ﻳﻠﻮﻣﻨﻲ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺗﻘﻄﻌﺖ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺗﺄﺧﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻨﻲﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺰﺍﺝ ﺟﻴﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎً ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻏﻠﻲ ﺩﻣﻲ ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﻟﻜﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﻣﺘﻐﻄﺮﺳﺎً ﻭ ‪ ...‬ﻭ ‪...‬ﻟﻪ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﻠﻐﻀﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﻟﻠﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ًﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﻘﻀﻲ ﻭﻗﺘﺎً ﻣﻌﻪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻢ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺰﻳﺎﺭﺓ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺧﺮﻳﺠﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺪﻟﻠﻪ‪.‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﻟﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺻﺎﺏ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﺠﻨﻮﻥ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺕﻫﻮ‬ ‫ﺃﻛﺜﺮ…ﺧﺎﺹ"‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻜﺎﻥﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻫﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﻳﺄﺧﺬ‬ ‫ﻳﺠﺐ‬ ‫"ﺩﺑﻠﻴﻮﻩ‬

‫ﻗﺎﻣﺖﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﺑﺘﻤﺮﻳﺮ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺴﻠﻴﺘﺎﻥ ﻣﺸﺮﻗﺘﻴﻦ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻋﻮﺓﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻤﺮﺭ ﻟﺴﺎﻧﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻔﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﻡ ﻻ‪ .‬ﻣﻬﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ‪".‬‬

‫ﺷﻔﺘﺎﻱﻣﻨﺤﻨﻴﺔ ‪ -‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﺼﻨﻴﻔﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻟﺒﺚ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ‪.‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻴﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻀﻴﻖ ﻭﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﻳﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺣﻠﻮ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻣﺎﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺳﻮﻯ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﺤﺪﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﺎء ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻘﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ‪ BDSM‬ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺸﺪﺩﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻟﻴﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻗﺒﻼﺕ ﻭﻻ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﻭﺟﻬﺎ ً‬
‫ﻟﻮﺟﻪ‪.‬ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﺎء‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﻦ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮﻩ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺭﺷﺪﻫﻦﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺗﺴﺎﻣﺢ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﺍﻻﻟﺘﺰﺍﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺗﻔﺎﻕﺑﺴﻴﻂ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻬﺬﺍﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺗﻤﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﻘﺎﺉﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺳﻤﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺪﺍﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺇﺻﺪﺍﺭ؛ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻼ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﺒﻴﻦ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍءﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺉﻤﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﺪﻭﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺯﺟﺎﺟﻲ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﻉ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪".‬‬
 ‫ﺗﺎﺑﻌﺖﻧﻈﺮﺗﻲ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻧﺜﻰ‪ .‬ﺗﻤﺪﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯﻗﻄﻊ ﺍﻷﺛﺎﺙ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺑﺘﺠﻬﻴﺰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺗﺤﺴﺒﺎً ﻟﻘﻀﺎء ﻋﺎﻣﻪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺝ‪،‬ﻭﺍﺑﺘﺴﻢ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺮﻳﻀﺔ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺗﻤﻠﻘﺘﻪ ﺛﻼﺙ ﻧﺴﺎء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺮ‪.‬ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺛﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻮ ﻳﺮﻳﺤﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻧﻬﺠﻪ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒﻫﻮ ﻋﻜﺲ ﻧﻬﺠﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺯﺍﺩ ﻣﺮﺣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻘﺎ ﻟﺠﻮﺵ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻣﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﻧﺼﻒﻋﺪﺩ ﺍﻹﻧﺎﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﻣﺘﺮﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺍﻻﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ".‬ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺑﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺧﺪﺷﺖ ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻬﺎ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﻣﺎﻧﻊ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻧﻔﺲ‪ ".‬ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺳﻤﺮﺍء ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﺎﺩﺉﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺗﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻲ ّﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺷﺮﻳﺤﺔ ﻟﺤﻢ ﻃﺮﻳﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺼﺮﺥ‪" .‬ﻟﻴﺲ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧﺎﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﻞ ﺷﺊﻣﻌﺎ‪"ً.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻠﻤﻴﺢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻭﺿﻮﺣﺎً ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻗﺎﻣﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺷﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻘﺴﺎﻣﻬﺎﺍﻟﻤﻜﺸﻮﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻳﻨﺘﻬﺰﻭﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺻﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻠﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪.‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﺃﺑﻌﺪﻧﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻴﺄﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﺤﺘﻪ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻄﺮﻫﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻢﺃﻛﻠﻒ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻋﻨﺎء ﺍﻹﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻤﺴﺢ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺤﺜﺎ ًﻋﻦ ﺷﻲء ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﺇﺛﺎﺭﺓﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻟﺠﺬﺏ ﺍﻧﺘﺒﺎﻫﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﻓﻮﺗﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻴﻦﻭﻇﻴﻔﺘﻲ ﻛﻤﺪﻳﺮ ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻱ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ‪ The Archer Group‬ﻭﻣﺸﺮﻭﻋﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺩﻭﻥ ﺣﻀﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﻤﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻘﻼﺉﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ‬
‫ﺑﺮﻓﻘﺘﻬﻢﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻻﺛﻨﻴﻦ ﻟﻘﻀﺎء ﺳﻨﺔ ﻋﻄﻠﺘﻪ ﻛﻤﺘﻄﻮﻉ‬
‫ﻃﺒﻲﻓﻲ ﺃﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻄﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻈﺎﻫﺮ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺣﻘﺎً ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﺖﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻓﻀﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺬﺑﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺪﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻓﺎ‪.‬ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺃﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻣﺸﺮﻗﺔ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻨﺒﺖﺍﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺃﻳﻨﻤﺎ ﺳﺎﺭﺕ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺒﻌﻬﺎ ﺯﻣﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻐﺮﺩﺓ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺠﻮﻝﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻭﺝ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻣﺜﻠﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻗﻔﺖﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻣﺸﺮﻕ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻴﻮﻳﺔ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻀﺤﻚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻲء‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﻪﺃﺣﺪﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﺴﺎءﻟﺖ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺃﻡ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻣﺰﻳﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜﺎﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻌﻈﻢﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺰﻳﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻴﻘﻈﻮﺍ ﻛﻞ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﻭﺍ ﻗﻨﺎﻋﺎً ﻭﻓﻘﺎً ﻟﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﻮﺍ ﻟﻸﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻜﺮﻫﻮﻧﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﻨﻜﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻣﻀﺤﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺒﻠﻮﺍ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍﺕ ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺄﻣﻠﻮﻥ ﺳﺮﺍ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺧﻠﻌﻬﻢﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺵ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﻜﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﺒﻘﺎﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻋﻜﺲ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﺑﺘﻘﺒﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﻷﺣﺎﺩﻳﺚ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖﻋﻨﺪ ﺣﻘﻦ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﺒﻴﻴﺾ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺮﻭﻗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺘﻬﺎ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺎﺓﻓﻘﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺄﻛﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺣﻴﺔ ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﻓﻘﺎﻋﺔ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻴﺴﺖﻣﺸﻜﻠﺘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﻮ‪ ".‬ﻇﻬﺮ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﻩ ﺃﺷﻌﺚ ﻭﻓﻤﻪ ﻣﻤﺘﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﺮﻳﻀﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺭﻓﺎﻗﻪﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﻼ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻳﺮﻗﺼﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻐﺎﻡ ﺑﻴﻮﻧﺴﻴﻪ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﻢ ﻳﺠﺮﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔﺃﺩﺍء ﻟﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ‪ The Strip Angel‬ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﺍﺉﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺒﻮﻧﻬﻢ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻟﺴﻨﺘﻬﻢﺗﺘﺪﻟﻰ‪.‬ﺭﺟﺎﻝ‪.‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﺠﻨﺴﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﻳﻴﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺮﺅﻭﺳﻬﻢﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪" .‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﺤﻀﻮﺭﻙ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﻞ‪ .‬ﺁﺳﻒ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻴﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﻣﺸﻐﻮﻻ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ‪ ".‬ﻋﻘﺪﺕ ﺣﺎﺟﺒﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺛﺮ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻄﺦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻓﻤﻪ‪" .‬ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻚ‪".‬‬

‫ﺍﺗﺴﻌﺖﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻪ‪" .‬ﻭﺳﺎﻡ ﺷﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻗﺎﻃﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‬

 ‫ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺳﺮﻳﻌﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻤﺮﺍء‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻠﺘﻴﻦ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﺘﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻤﺎﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻓﺸﻠﻬﻤﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺬﺏ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻣﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ".‬ﻫﺰﺯﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪" .‬ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﻣﺎﺉﺔ ﺩﻭﻻﺭ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻌﻴﺶ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻛﺎﻣﻞ ﻓﻲ‬
‫‪ .Bumfuck، Nowhere‬ﻻ ﻧﺴﺎء ﻭﻻ ﺃﺣﺰﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﺳﺘﻌﻮﺩ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺎ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﻲ ﺍﻹﻳﻤﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻧﺴﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﺃﻳﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ«‪ .‬ﻗﺎﻡ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺴﺤﺐ‬
‫ﺑﻴﺮﺓﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺒﺮﺩ ﻗﺮﻳﺐ ﻭﻓﺘﺤﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻚ ﻋﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻭﺿﺢ‪":‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺣﻠﺖ"‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﻘﻞ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﻴﺎً ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻲ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻳﺖ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺃﺳﺎﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺄﺧﺮﺝ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺡ‪ ".‬ﻫﻮ ﺿﺤﻚ‪" .‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﺷﺘﺮﻱ ﻣﺠﻮﻫﺮﺍﺗﻚ ﺇﺫﺍﺃﻧﺖﻣﺪﻓﻮﻉﺃﻧﺎ‪.‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖﺑﺂﻓﺎ‪«.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﻗﻒﻛﺄﺳﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺑﻮﺻﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﻩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻭﺗﺪﻓﻘﺖ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺉﺤﺔﺍﻟﻮﻳﺴﻜﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻮﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻃﻌﻤﻪ ﻛﺎﻟﺒﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺸﺮﻭﺏﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻔﻼﺕ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻗﺎﺭﻭﺭﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺎﻛﺎﻻﻥ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺯﺭﺗﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻋﻨﻬﺎ؟"‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﺘﻪ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻳﺘﺸﺎﺟﺮﺍﻥ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺿﻊ‬
‫ﺷﺮﻳﻂﻻﺻﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻓﻮﺍﻫﻬﻤﺎ ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﻫﻲ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺍﻷﺷﻘﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺘﻪﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺻﺒﺢﺍﻟﻮﻳﺴﻜﻲ ﺣﺎﻣﻀﺎً ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻛﺄﺳﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻣﺘﺠﻬﻤﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﻗﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪ ".‬ﻓﺮﻙ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﺪﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻜﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺗﻌﺒﻴﺮﻩ ﺟﺪﻳﺎً‪" .‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ‬
‫ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓﻭﻳﻤﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻨﺎء ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻘﻄﻌﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻼ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ؛ ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻫﺎ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﻭﻳﻤﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺛﻘﺔﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﻴﺬﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺠﺒﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻕ‪".‬ﻟﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﺣﺪﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎﺗﻬﺎ‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺬﻛﻮﺭﻳﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﺣﺪﺍﻫﻦ‪،‬ﺫﺍﺕ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ ﻣﺘﻌﺮﺝ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺗﻨﻮﺭﺓ ﺫﻫﺒﻴﺔ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫ﻣﺜﻞﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻳﺴﻜﻮ‪ ،‬ﺍﺧﺘﺎﺭﺕ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻟﺘﻘﻔﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻭﺗﻬﺰ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻐﺎﻡ ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺏﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻨﻄﻠﻖ ﻋﺒﺮ ﻣﻜﺒﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺷﺨﺮﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ؟ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺴﺆﻭﻟﻴﺔ ﻭﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ‪" .‬ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺗﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺁﻓﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪...‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺟﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺩﺍﻋﻲ ﻟﻠﻘﻠﻖ‪" .‬ﺛﺎﻳﺮ ﺁﻣﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻌﺪﻝ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﻳﻤﺔ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻗﺮﻳﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺘﺤﺴﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺃﺛﻖ ﺑﻪ ﻳﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ؟"‬

‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺎﺭ ﻳﺘﺠﻪ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻣﻨﺤﺪﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻹﻳﻘﺎﻓﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻦ ﺃﺳﺄﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺤﺪﺙ‬

‫‪-‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻧﻔﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺯﻭﺟﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻀﺎﻳﻘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﺉﺎً ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﺇﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻚ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﻗﺒﺘﻬﺎ‪،‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﻟﻠﻘﺘﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻻﺧﺘﻄﺎﻑ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ؟ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻳﻦ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ‪".‬‬

‫ﻗﻠﺖﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪" :‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﺪﻳﻦ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻧﻘﺬﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻚ"‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ".‬ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻢ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵ‪".‬ﺍﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﻧﻌﻢ؟"‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕﺇﻟﻰ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺻﻐﺮﻣﻨﻲ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺄﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﺳﻨﺎً ﻭﺃﻛﺒﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻫﺬﻩ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺤﻤﻠﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﺃﺕ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء – ﺍﻟﺨﻴﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺮ‪،‬ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﺢ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً – ﻭﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﺖ ﺗﺆﻣﻦ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﻴﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻏﺒﻴﺎً ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﻺﻋﺠﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﺑﺪ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﺪﻕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻭﻗﻔﺖ ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻲ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺤﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻟﻮﻥﻭﺟﻨﺘﻴﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﺑﺘﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻏﻴﺮﺕ ﺑﻨﻄﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﻨﺰ ﻭﻗﻤﻴﺼﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻓﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺃﺭﺟﻮﺍﻧﻲ ﻳﺤﻮﻡ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻛﺒﺘﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻴﺉﺔﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻼً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻬﺎﺍﻟﺮﻃﺐ ﻣﻠﺘﺼﻘﺎً ﺑﻬﺎ ﻛﺠﻠﺪ ﺛﺎﻥ ٍﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﻠﻤﺘﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺗﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻧﺘﻴﻞﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ ﻣﻨﺤﻠﺔ ﺣﻤﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﺪﺭﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺘﻪ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﻈﺮ‪ .‬ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﻴﺺ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺳﺤﺐﺣﻤﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﺪﺭﻫﺎ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎً ﺑﺄﺳﻨﺎﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻖ ﻓﻤﻲ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﻢ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺼﻠﺒﺔ‪...‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺘﺰﻋﺖﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺬﻫﻞ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﺄ ﻣﻌﻲ؟ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻟﺠﻮﺵﺃﺧﺖ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﻱء‪ ،‬ﺫﻭ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻇﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻄﻴﻒ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺆ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻴﺾﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻄﻮﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻲ ﻓﻀﻠﺘﻬﻦ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺧﺎﺭﺟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮ؛ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻄﻮﻳﺮ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻓﺎ ﻻ ﺷﻲءﻟﻜﻦﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺎﺣﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺮﺕﺷﺒﺢ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﻟﻘﻄﺔ ﻓﺮﺍﻗﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺜﻘﺐﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻚ ﻋﻀﻮﺍً ﺣﻴﻮﻳﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻋﺪﻭﺍﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﺪﺭ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺳﻴﺉﺔ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ ﺑﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺇﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﻏﻀﺒﻬﺎ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ "،‬ﻃﻠﺐ ﺟﻮﺵ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﻞ‪ ".‬ﺃﺑﻌﺪﺕ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻭﻋﻦ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺭﺟﻮﺍﻧﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ‬
‫ﺟﻠﻴﺴﺔﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪".‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝﻣﺎﺯﺣﺎ‪" :‬ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺛﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ‪"...‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ؟"‬
‫"ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺡ‪ ".‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺍﺑﺘﻠﻊ ﻟﻴﻤﻮﻧﺔ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ‬
‫ﺑﺄﺧﺘﻲ‪.‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻣﻘﺰﺯ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻳﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻔﻀﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻟﻮﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﺗﺬﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻤﻌﺖﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻧﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕ ﺧﻴﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺎﻝ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺣﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻻﺳﺘﺪﻋﺎء ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺎﺉﻤﺘﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﺁﻓﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺸﻴﻦ‪،‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻭﺗﺎﺑﻊﺟﻮﺵ‪" :‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺛﻖ ﺑﻪ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻲ‪.‬ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻗﻠﻘﻲ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺑﺮﻣﺘﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺯﻭﺟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬ﺃﻇﻠﻢ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ‪" .‬ﺃﻗﺴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻴﻦ‪"...‬‬

‫ﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕ‪".‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﻘﻠﻖ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺳﺄﻧﺪﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺃﻭﻗﻊ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﻟﻠﻌﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺒﻞ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻋﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻓﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﺰﻣﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﻬﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﺂﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ‬
‫ﻋﻦﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﻛﻞ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺣﻤﺎﻳﺘﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻣﺄﻟﻮﻑ ﻭﺯﺍﺣﻒ ﺑﺎﻟﻬﻼﻙ ﻳﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ ﻭﻳﻀﻐﻂ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻭﺃﻛﺜﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺣﺘﻰﻧﻔﺪ ﺍﻷﻛﺴﺠﻴﻦ ﻭﺗﺮﺍﻗﺼﺖ ﺃﺿﻮﺍء ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺩﻡ‪.‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻳﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﺎﺛﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻳﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺣﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺗﻬﺎﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻭﺭﻭﺑﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺝ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻮﺫﺕﻋﻠﻲ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﺟﻨﻮﻧﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺗﻤﺰﻳﻖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺠﺰﻳﺉﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﺎﻑﺍﻟﺼﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻋﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺗﻠﻮ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺮﻙ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻞﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻬﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻌﻴﺸﺘﻲ‪،‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﻣﺘﻸﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻑء ﻭﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﻮﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍً ﻭﺧﺎﻟﻴﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺠﺜﺚ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺭﻣﺸﺖﺑﻌﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺧﺘﻔﻮﺍ‪ :‬ﺍﻷﺿﻮﺍء‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺣﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻨﻘﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢﺳﻴﻌﻮﺩﻭﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﻮﺍ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"‪ ...‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‪ "،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡﺑﺪﻭﺭ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺣﺎﻣﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺪﻣﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺣﻄﻤﺖﺍﻟﻘﻠﻮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺤﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﺭﺿﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭﻳﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻮﺍﻗﺐ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﺨﺺ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻏﺒﻴﺎً ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻴﻘﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺒﻲ ﺃﻭ ﻳﺨﺎﻟﻔﻨﻲ ‪ -‬ﺷﻴﺉﺎﻥ ﺣﺬﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻬﻤﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ‪-‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺎً‪" .‬ﺳﺄﻋﻴﺪﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﻗﻬﻮﺓ‪ .‬ﺷﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ‪ .‬ﺭﻃﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﺟﻴﺪﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻳﻦ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺨﺪﻣﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺟﺒﺮﺕﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ‪ .‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺭﻥ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﺇﺻﺒﻌﻲ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻋﻮﺩ‪.‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺁﺧﺬ ﻫﺬﺍ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺧﺬ ﻭﻗﺘﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﻞ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﺸﺘﺘﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﻭﺍﻻﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺮﺍء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺟﻤﻬﻮﺭﺍً ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻳﻖﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﻭﺃﺟﺒﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻜﺎﻟﻤﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻀﻌﺎﻥﺃﻳﺪﻳﻬﻤﺎ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻪ‪.‬‬

‫‪".‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣﺎً ﺍﻟﻤﺼﻄﻠﺢ ﺍﻷﻭﻛﺮﺍﻧﻲ ﻟﻠﻌﻢ‪" .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻋﻤﻲ ﻳﺘﺮﺩﺩ ﻋﺒﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﻂ‪،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﺸﻮﺵ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻋﻘﻮﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺉﺮ ﻭﺗﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪" .‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻻ ﺃﻗﺎﻃﻊ‬
‫"‪"Дядько،‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺳﺮﻳﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺰﺟﺎﺟﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺪﺍﺧﻞ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﻌﻴﺶ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻃﺎﺑﻘﻴﻦ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺣﺮﻡ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲﻣﻨﺬ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﻜﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎً ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺨﺮﺟﺖ ﻭﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ ﻟﻨﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺮﺏﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻜﺘﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻨﺒﺘﻌﺪ ﻋﻦ ﺟﺤﺎﻓﻞ ﻃﻼﺏ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺎﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺧﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺠﻮﻟﻮﻥﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ ﻭﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻴﻄﺔ ﻛﻞ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻗﺪ ﺧﺮﺟﻮﺍ ﻟﺤﻀﻮﺭ ﺣﻔﻞ ﻭﺩﺍﻉ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﻨﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻫﺎﺯﻟﺒﺮﺝ‪،‬ﺑﻮﻻﻳﺔ ﻣﻴﺮﻳﻼﻧﺪ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻳﻘﻊ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻠﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺨﻴﻠﺖﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺳﻴﻔﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ ﺣﻔﻼﺗﻪ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻔﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺪﻋﻲ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺃﻧﻪ ﻏﺎﺭﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻟﻠﺸﺮﺏ ﻭﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻀﺮ ﺑﺄﺩﺍﺉﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻛﺎﺩﻳﻤﻲ‪.‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﻴﻂ ‪.GPA 4.0‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﻤﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ؟" ﺳﺄﻝ ﻋﻤﻲ‪ .‬ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺩﺭﺟﺎً ﻳﻔﺘﺢ ﻭﻳﻐﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﺒﻮﻋﺎً ﺑﻨﻘﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻓﺘﺔﻟﻠﻮﻻﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺜﺘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻗﻼﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺧﻴﻦ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻻ ﺗﺤﺼﻰ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺠﺎﻫﻠﻨﻲﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻤﺔ ﺗﻤﻮﺕ ﺑﺼﻌﻮﺑﺔ؛‬
 ‫ﻗﺪﻳﻢ‪،‬ﺳﻲءﺑﻞ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻭﺻﻞ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻟﻴﺲ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻠﻘﻲ ﺷﺮﺍﺉﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻀﻮء ﺗﺘﺴﻠﻞ ﻋﺒﺮ‬
‫ﻇﻼﻡﺍﻟﻔﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ‪ .‬ﺿﻮء ﻭﻇﻞ‪ .‬ﻧﺼﻔﻴﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺔ‪".‬‬

‫ﺇﻟﻰﺍﻟﻌﺪﺍﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺧﻼﺹ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻤﺪﺓﺳﺘﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻋﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﻲ ﻭﺭﺍء ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﻳﺴﺘﻬﻠﻜﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱﺍﻟﻴﻘﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺣﻠﻤﻲ ﻭﻛﺎﺑﻮﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﺳﺒﺐ ﻋﻴﺸﻲ‪ .‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺸﺘﺘﺎًﺑﺸﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ ‪ -‬ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻄﺮﻧﺞ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺴﻴﺎﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻛﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺑﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻤﺜﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺩﻓﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﺉﺔ ﻟﺠﺴﺪ ﺭﺍﻏﺐ ‪ -‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻜﻤﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻋﻴﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺪﻓﻌﻨﻲﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﺭﺗﻔﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺡ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺪﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺳﺘﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻋﺎﻣﺎً ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺘﺨﺼﺺ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ ﻋﺪﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘﻈﺮﻫﺎ ﻃﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺗﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺩﻣﺮ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻲ؟ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺠﻴﺪﺍ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ".‬ﺳﻌﻞ ﻋﻤﻲ ﻭﻗﺮﺹ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻗﻨﻌﻪ ﺑﺎﻹﻗﻼﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺧﻴﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻃﺮﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﻴﺔ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﻀﻨﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺎﻧﺪﻧﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻨﻌﻄﻒ ﺷﺎﺉﻚ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻲﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻳﻦ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ‪":‬ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻚ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻼﻡ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً"‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻋﻨﻲ‪...‬‬
‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺳﺆﺍﻻً ﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻉ ﻟﻤﺠﻠﺲ ﺍﻹﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺒﻞ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﺿﻴﻊ‪" .‬ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﻲ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺬﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﻤﻲ ﻟﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺁﺭﺗﺸﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺷﺮﻛﺔﺍﻟﺘﻄﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺳﺴﻬﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻋﻘﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ﺑﺘﻮﺟﻴﻬﺎﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﺪﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻮﻫﺒﺔﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻘﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻲ ﻟﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺁﺭﺗﺸﺮ ﻳﻌﺘﺒﺮ ﻓﻴﻼﺩﻟﻔﻴﺎ ﻣﻮﻃﻨﺎً ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻜﺎﺗﺐﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﺤﺎء ﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻘﻴﻤﺎً ﻓﻲ‬
 ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ‪،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺮﻛﺰ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻟﻠﺸﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻹﺩﺍﺭﺓﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﺖ ﺗﻌﻘﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺗﻮﻟﻲ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺬﻱ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻀﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻘﺎً ﻻﺗﻔﺎﻕ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲﻭﺍﺗﻔﺎﻗﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻨﺼﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺬﻱ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﻗﺪﻡ ﻟﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻭﻧﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﻧﻬﻲ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻳﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﺍﻟﻘﻮﺓ ﻭﺭﺍء ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ ﺭﺉﻴﺴﺎً ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻳﺎً ﻣﺤﺘﺮﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﺮﺍﺗﻴﺠﻴﺎﺗﻲﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻭﺻﻠﺘﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻗﺎﺉﻤﺔ ﻓﻮﺭﺗﺸﻦ ‪ 500‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻋﻘﺪ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﻋﻤﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺨﻂ ﻭﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺤﺮﻛﺖﺍﻟﺘﺮﻭﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﻘﻴﻴﻢ ﺗﻄﻮﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎء ‪ -‬ﻭﻋﺪﻱ ﻟﺠﻮﺵ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﻨﺒﻴﻪﻋﻤﻲ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻴﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺧﻄﺘﻲ ﻟﻼﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻓﻴﻖ ﺑﻴﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺛﻨﻴﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺒﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺈﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺗﺮﺗﻴﺐ ﺃﺟﺰﺍء ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎً ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻧﻤﺎﻁ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺮﺿﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺳﻴﻨﺎﺭﻳﻮ‬
‫ﺣﺘﻰﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺯﻥ ﺍﻹﻳﺠﺎﺑﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻠﺒﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﺤﺼﻬﺎ ﺑﺤﺜﺎً ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﻤﻠﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﺖﺇﻟﻰ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﺟﻴﺪ؟" ﻧﺎﺩﻯ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻗﺒﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻪ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺮﺍء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺩﺭﺍﻳﺔ ﻭﺛﻴﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺣﺰﺍﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ".‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﻏﻀﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻲ ﺍﻧﺤﺮﻓﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺒﺦ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﻬﺘﻢﺑﺎﻟﻜﻌﻜﺔ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻛﻮﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ‪ .Crumble & Bake‬ﺗﻮﻫﺠﺖ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻤﺮﺓ ﺑﻠﻤﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻓﺘﺔﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺗﺞ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺍﺏ ﻳﺘﺼﺎﻋﺪ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺤﺎﺑﺔ‬
‫ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ‪".‬ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻃﻠﺒﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪...‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ‪".‬‬

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‫"ﺃﻧﺎﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺟﻴﺪﺃﻧﺎﺃﻛﻮﻥ"‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺜﺎءﺑﺖﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺴﻴﺮ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺳﺎﺣﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻴﻘﺎﻅ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﺍﻟﻔﺠﺮ ﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺃﺧﻴﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﻭﺣﺰﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﺘﻌﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺐ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺣﺘﻰ‪".‬‬

‫ﺿﺤﻜﺖﻭﺣﻠﻖ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺭﺍﺗﺒﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺳﺄﺷﺘﺮﻱ ﻟﻚ ﻣﻮﻛﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺮﺍﻣﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ‪Roast‬‬

‫‪ The Morning‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻳﻌﺪ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻧﻌﻢ ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ‪” .‬ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﻃﺒﻘﺔ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻘﺮﻣﺸﺔ؟“‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻬﺎ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪ ".‬ﺗﺜﺎءﺏ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪" .‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﺠﻌﻞ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻳﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ‬
‫‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻌﺠﺒﻴﻦ ﺑﺒﻌﻀﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ‪ .‬ﻟﻄﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻏﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺧﺬ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺃﻧﻬﻤﺎ ﻣﺘﺸﺎﺑﻬﺎﻥ ﺟﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻛﻼﻫﻤﺎ ﻣﻨﻔﺘﺤﻴﻦ ﻭﺳﺎﺣﺮﻳﻦ ﻭﺫﻛﻴﻴﻦ ﻛﺎﻟﺠﺤﻴﻢ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺤﻄﻤﻴﻦﻟﻠﻘﻠﻮﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻧﺴﺨﺔ ﺑﺸﺮﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻴﺴﻴﻜﺎ ﺭﺍﺑﻴﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﺸﻌﺮ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ ﻻﻣﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺸﺮﺓ ﻛﺮﻳﻤﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻨﺤﻨﻴﺎﺕﺟﻌﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﺑﺤﺴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﻤﻈﻬﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻛﻌﻀﻮﻓﻲ ﻟﺠﻨﺔ ‪ ،Itty Bitty Titty‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺠﻢ ﻛﻮﺏ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻲ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﺛﻨﻴﻦﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﺠﻮء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﻤﻴﻠﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺭﻗﺎﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺸﺘﻜﻲﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎً ﻣﻦ ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﺩﻭﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺟﻬﺎﺯ ‪ Venmo‬ﻟﻠﺜﺪﻱ ﻳﺴﻤﺢ ﻟﻠﻨﺴﺎء ﺑﺈﺭﺳﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝ ﺃﺣﺠﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻛﻮﺍﺏﺑﻀﻐﻄﺔ ﺯﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﻤﻈﻬﺮﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻷﻭﻗﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ‪ -‬ﻭﻻ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺎﺕﺍﻷﺯﻳﺎء ﺃﻭ ﻧﺠﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎ ‪ -‬ﻣﺤﺼﻨﺎً ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻟﻰﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺷﻜﺎﻭﺍﻫﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘﻬﻢ ﺛﻘﺔ ًﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ -‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺃﺧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻏﺮﻭﺭﻩ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺄﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻗﻲﻟﻠﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺗﺮﻙ ﻣﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﻟﺘﻜﺴﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺳﺒﺐ‬
‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺧﺬ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺆﻟﻤﻨﻲﺍﻻﻋﺘﺮﺍﻑ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺳﻴﺊ ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻬﺮ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﻃﻮﻟﻪ ﺳﺘﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ‬
‫ﻭﺷﻌﺮﻩﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﻛﺜﻴﻒ ﻭﺑﻨﻴﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﻴﺔ ﺣﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚﺃﺑﺪﺍًﺩﻉ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﻳﻨﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺎًﺑﺄﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺳﻴﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻨﺤﻮﺗﺔ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻭﻳﻌﺮﺿﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺘﻪ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻉ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﺸﻒ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻛﺮﻫﻬﻤﺎ ﻟﺒﻌﻀﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺷﻜﻜﺖﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻷﻧﻬﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﻧﺰﻋﺞ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﺪﻫﺸﺘﻲ‪،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻗﺪ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺃﺛﺎﺛﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺰﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﻟﺤﺰﻣﻬﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ )ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺳﻴﻠﺘﻘﻄﻬﺎ ﺷﺨﺺ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻻﺣﻘﺎً(‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺾ ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺒﺦ ﺍﻟﻀﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﻳﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺟﻮﺵ؟" ﺗﺮﺩﺩ ﺻﺪﻯ ﺻﻮﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﺽﻭﺿﻤﺖ ﺭﻛﺒﺘﻴﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻫﺎ ﺑﺘﻌﺒﻴﺮ ﻏﺎﺿﺐ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻬﻲﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﺻﺒﺎﺣﻴﺎً‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻦ ﺃﻧﺖ؟"‬

‫"ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻧﻮﻡ!" ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺗﺎً ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻘﺒﺘﻪ ﻟﻌﻨﺔ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﻣﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻧﺰﻝ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻗﺎً ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻮﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻭﺿﺢ ﻗﺎﺉﻼ‪" ً:‬‬
‫ﺗﺒﺎ‪،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺒﺮﻉ"‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺒﺦ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺠﻌﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ‪" .‬ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻭﺗﺤﺮﻡ ﺟﻲ ﺁﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻠﻮﻯ ﻋﻴﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺣﻴﺔ؟" ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻢ ﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻳﺸﺒﻪ ﺟﻴﺴﻴﻜﺎ ﺭﺍﺑﻴﺖ؛ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﻨﺎﺩﻳﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤ ًﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻷﺣﺮﻑﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺗﻮﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻏﻀﺒﻬﺎ ﺑﻼ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﻞﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﻏﻀﺒﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺭﻓﻌﺖﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺭﺃﺳﻬﺎ ﻭﻋﺒﺴﺖ‪" .‬ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﺑﻄﻦ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻟﻌﺎﺏﺍﻟﺮﻳﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻤﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﻱ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﺎً ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺴﺮ ﻋﺸﺎء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺗﺤﺘﺞ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﺯﻡ‪ "،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺼﻔﻊ ﺑﻴﺪﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺘﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺔ‪".‬ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺘﺨﺴﺮﻩ ﻫﻮ‪"...‬‬

‫"ﺗﻤﺎﻡ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻄﻌﺖ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻄﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺴﻠﻚ ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ًﺎ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺨﻴﻔﻨﻲﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪" .‬ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺷﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺩﻋﻨﺎ ﻧﺤﺰﻡ ﺃﻣﺘﻌﺘﻚ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻮﺕ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﺤﺴﻦﺍﻟﺤﻆ‪ ،‬ﺗﺼﺮﻑ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻗﻤﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺘﻌﺒﺉﺔﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﺻﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﻭﺗﺤﻤﻴﻠﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺑﺎﻋﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﺄﺟﺮﻫﺎ ﻟﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﻘﻲ ﻟﺤﺰﻣﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺗﺘﺒﺮﻉ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﻀﺨﻢ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻧﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻪ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻪ ﻳﺤﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻣﻦ؟" ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻋﻠﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺘﻠﻢ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻋﻘﺪ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺭ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻝ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺷﻬﺮﻳﻮﻟﻴﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﺘﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺮﻯ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺗﻌﺠﺒﻨﻲ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﻣﻸ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﺻﻮﺕ ﺧﺮﺧﺮﺓ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﺾ‬
‫ﻟﻤﺤﺮﻙﻗﻮﻱ‪ .‬ﺍﺗﺴﻌﺖ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﻗﻊ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺮﻯ ﺍﻵﻥ‪".‬‬

‫ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻟﻨﺎﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮﺍﺕ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺮﻛﺾ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻭﻧﻔﺘﺤﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺗﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻔﺔ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮ‪ .‬ﻓﺘُﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﺧﺮﺝ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺭﻭﻋﺔ ًﻣﻨﻪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻦ ﺣﻖ ﺃﻱ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﻨﺰ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻴﺎﺭﻳﻦ ﻭﻗﻤﻴﺺ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﺑﺄﺯﺭﺍﺭ ﻭﺃﻛﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﻄﻮﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺧﻠﻊﻧﻈﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ ﺑﻌﻴﻨﻴﻦ ﻫﺎﺩﺉﺘﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻨﺰﻋﺞ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺣﻴﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻗﻴﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻘﻂﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺮﺣﻴﺐ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧﺎﺹ‪ .‬ﺗﻠﻌﺜﻤﺖ ﻗﺎﺉﻠﺔ‪" :‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‪...‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ"‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺟﻴﺪﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﻴﻒ‪ ".‬ﺩﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻓﻲ ﺿﻠﻮﻋﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﺒﺴﺖ ﺭﺩﺍً‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﺎﺧﻨﺎً؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﺣﻤﻖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻫﻼ ﻳﺎ ﺩﻭﺩﻯ‪ ".‬ﺻﻔﻊ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻦ ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺿﻚ؟"‬

‫"ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻞ ﺳﺘﺤﻀﺮﻫﺎ ﻻﺣﻘﺎً‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺫﻭ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺑﺘﻘﻴﻴﻤﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﺮء ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻻﻣﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺐ ﺳﺤﺮﻫﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻣﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻐﺮﻣﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻷﻥ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺳﻘﻄﻮﺍ ﻋﻨﺪ ﻗﺪﻣﻴﻬﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺗﻔﺘﺢ ﻓﻤﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ‪ ".‬ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﻀﺮﺏ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻋﺎً ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻔﺼﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭﻱ‪" .‬ﺷﺮﻛﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺤﺮﻛﺔ‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺘﺤﺮﻙﻫﻨﺎ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻫﻮ‪ ".‬ﻭﺿﻊ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺘﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﺗﺘﻸﻷ ﺑﺎﻷﺫﻯ‪" .‬ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺟﺎﺭﺗﻚﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪".‬‬

‫ﺩﺍﺭﺕﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺑﻴﻨﻪ ﻭﺑﻴﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻠﻼً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻳﺠﻌﻞ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻳﺘﺮﻙ ﺷﻘﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔﻭﻳﻌﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺎﺯﻟﺒﻮﺭﻍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﻫﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻻ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻨﻴﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺘﻪﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﻻ ﻻ ﻻ ﻻ ﻻ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ ﻧﻌﻢ ﻧﻌﻢ ﻧﻌﻢ ﻧﻌﻢ‪".‬‬

‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺧﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎﻻﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﻠﻴﺴﺔ ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻋﻦ ﻣﺠﺎﻟﺴﺔ ﺍﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ؟" ﻫﺰ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﺟﻠﻲ‪.‬ﺳﺄﻋﻮﺩ ﻟﻠﻌﻴﺶ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﻴﺎً‪.‬‬
 ‫"ﻫﺮﺍء‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺒﻨﻲ‪" ".‬ﻫﺬﻩ ﻣﻜﺎﻓﺄﺓ‪ ".‬ﺧﻔﻒ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺟﻮﺵ‪" .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻢ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺮﻣﺘﻪﻣﻊ ﻟﻴﺎﻡ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺟﻔﻞ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺫﻛﺮ ﺣﺒﻴﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﺎﻡ ﻳﻔﺠﺮ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺿﺒﻄﺘﻪ ﻳﺨﻮﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﻨﺬ‬
‫ﺷﻬﺮﻭﻧﺼﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻇﻬﺮ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﻮﺳﻼ ًﻟﻠﺤﺼﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻓﺮﺻﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺩﻣﺮ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺗﻔﻜﻜﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻮﺍﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﻟﺒﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺷﻬﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﺃﻇﻬﺮ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺨﺎﻭﻓﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻄﺢ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻗﻠﻘﺎً ﺑﺸﺄﻥ‬
‫ﺧﺮﻭﺝﻟﻴﺎﻡ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻨﻜﻦ ﺻﺎﺩﻗﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﺎﻡ ﻃﻔﻼً ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍً ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺻﻨﺪﻭﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺉﺘﻤﺎﻥﺑﺮﻭﻛﺲ ﺑﺮﺍﺫﺭ ﻭﻳﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻟﺒﻮﻟﻮ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﺷﺄﻧﻪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻔﺴﺪﺷﻌﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺒﻮﻍ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺮﺝ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻭﺍﻋﺪﺗﻪ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺳﻼﻣﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺴﺪﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺤﺒﺖ ﺫﺭﺍﻉ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺘﻔﻲ‪" .‬ﺍﺗﺼﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺮﻛﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺮﻛﺔﻭﺃﻟﻎ ِﺍﻷﻣﺮ"‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺕ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺠﺎﻫﻠﻨﺎ ﻭﻳﺘﺼﻔﺢ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖﺗﻔﻌﻞﻻﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﻠﺘﺤﺮﻙ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‪ ...‬ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ؟"‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ‪» :‬ﺗﺒﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪«.‬‬

‫ﺃﻋﻠﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ‪" ٍ:‬ﻟﻠﻌﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺅﻳﺪ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻟﻚ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻭﺭ"‪.‬ﺧﺎﺉﻦ‪".‬‬
‫ﻫﻞﺗﺠﺰ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﻗﻤﻴﺺ؟ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺃﻭﺻﻲ ﺑﻪ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪".‬‬

‫ﻋﺒﺲﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖ‪ ".‬ﺃﺷﺎﺭ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻳﻔﻌﻞﻻﺍﺳﺤﺐ ﺃﻳﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺧﺪﻋﻚ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺭﺣﻴﻠﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺃﻳﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪" ".‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﺤﻴﺎﺗﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺮﺑﺎﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺴﺤﺐ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺨﻄﻄﺎﺗﻚ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺉﺸﺔ‪«.‬‬

‫"‪.‬ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺷﺨﺼﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ‪ Ava‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺃﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ‪"Newsflash:‬‬

 ‫"ﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﺧﺘﻲ‪"-‬‬
‫"ﻫﻲ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔ‪"-‬‬
‫"ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﻠﻬﺎ‪" "...‬ﺃﻧﺖﻳﻤﻠﻚﻟﺘﺮﻙ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳﺬﻫﺐ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺛﻼﺙ‬
‫ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪" "...‬ﺃﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ!" ﺿﻐﻄﺖ ﺑﺄﺻﺎﺑﻌﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻌﺒﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺟﻮﺵ‬
‫ﻭﺟﻮﻟﺰﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪" .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﺍﻝ‪ .‬ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺰﺍﺯﻩ‪".‬‬

‫ﻋﺒﺮﺟﻮﺵ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻩ‪" .‬ﺑﺎﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﺃﺧﻴﻚ ﺍﻷﻛﺒﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﻭﻇﻴﻔﺘﻲ ﻫﻲ ﺣﻤﺎﻳﺘﻚ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻌﻴﻴﻦﺷﺨﺺ ﻟﻴﺤﻞ ﻣﺤﻠﻨﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻧﺸﺄﺕ ﻣﻌﻪ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﺘﺰﺣﺰﺡ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻓﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺆﻭﻝ؟" ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﺑﻨﺒﺮﺓ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺒﺮﻭﺩ‪" :‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻟﺴﺖ"ﻣﻞء" ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء"‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻏﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻨﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪".‬‬

‫ﺗﺄﻭﻫﺖﻭﻏﻄﻴﺖ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺳﻨﺔ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺕﺑﻌﺪ ﻳﻮﻣﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺝﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻼﻣﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺼﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻨﻴﺔ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓﺝﺇﻧﺘﺮﺍﻝﺃﺃﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎ ﻭﺃﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻧﺘﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻟﻠﺴﻜﻦ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﺎﻫﺪﺕ ﻋﻤﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻞ ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻮﻥ ﺷﺎﺷﺔ ﺗﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﻄﺤﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻼﻗﺔﻭﺻﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺍﻷﺣﺠﺎﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﺳﺘﻮﻥ ﻣﺎﺭﺗﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻳﻤﻠﻜﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﺸﻬﺪﺍً ﻳﻮﻣﻴﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺍًﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﻠﻴﺎﻥ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻭﺿﻌﻲ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻔﻴﺪﻧﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻨﻊ ﻋﺼﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻤﻮﻥﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻤﻮﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﻐُﻠﻖﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﺽ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺎء ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺟﺪﻭﻝ ﺯﻣﻨﻲ ﻟﻠﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚﺃﻣﻀﻴﺖ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﻛﻌﻜﺎﺕ ﺭﻳﺪ ﻓﻴﻠﻔﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻴﺰﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻗﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻴﺖ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻌﺒﺉﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻠﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﻫﺪﻳﺮ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ﻟﺒﺲ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺴﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﺒﻮﻋﺎً ﺑﺈﻏﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻑ‪.‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺴﺤﺖﺭﺍﺣﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺮﻗﺘﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻲ ﻓﺨﺬﻱ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ‬
‫ﺇﺣﻀﺎﺭﺍﻟﻜﻌﻚ ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻞ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺑﻴﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻳﺠﻠﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻡﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻏﻢ ﻛﻞ ﺃﻣﻮﺍﻟﻪ ﻭﻣﻈﻬﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻧﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻣﺨﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻋﺾﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‬
‫ﻣﻊﻭﺿﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﻤﺄﻧﻴﻨﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﻔﺎﺗﻴﺤﺘﻲ ﻭﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﻭﺗﻮﺟﻬﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ‪.‬ﺷﻜﺮ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺒﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻧﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻉ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻬﺎ ﻋﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺟﺎﺫﺑﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﺄﺻﺮﺥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺟﺰء ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻹﺯﻋﺎﺟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻵﺧﺮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﻘﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻬﺘﻤﺔﺑﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﺗﻮﺍﺻﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻷﺧﻲ ﺳﻴﻔﺘﺢ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻳﺪﺍﻥﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺮﻋﺖﺟﺮﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻً ﺗﻬﺪﺉﺔ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺉﺞ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺃﻟﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺘﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺠﺒﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺨﺮﻭﺝ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺟﺒﺎﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺣﺎﻝ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺮﺕﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺭﻥ ﺟﺮﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪،‬ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺧﻄﻰ ﺧﺎﻓﺘﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺭﺗﻔﻊ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻓﺘُﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲﻭﺟﻬﺎً ﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﻠﻊ ﺳﺘﺮﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺨﻼﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻼﺑﺲﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻪ‪ :‬ﻗﻤﻴﺺ ﺗﻮﻣﺎﺱ ﺑﻴﻨﻚ ﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﻭﺍﻝ ﻭﺣﺬﺍء ﺃﺭﻣﺎﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺑﻄﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻖﺑﺮﻳﻮﻧﻲ ﺯﺭﻗﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺠﻮﻟﺖﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺷﻌﺮﻱ )ﻣﻠﻘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ(‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻲ )ﺣﺎﺭ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺮﻭﻗﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻤﺲﺩﻭﻥ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻭﺍﺿﺢ(‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ )ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺼﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﺍﻭﻳﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻴﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔﻟﺪﻱ( ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺘﻘﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻇﻞ ﺗﻌﺒﻴﺮﻩ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻗﺎﺑﻞ ﻟﻠﻘﺮﺍءﺓ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻚ‪ ".‬ﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ‪ "،‬ﺃﺿﻔﺖ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺩﺍﻉ‪،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻭﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﻯ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻫﺪﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺣﻴﺐﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ‪".‬‬

‫ﻭﻛﺮﺭ‪":‬ﻫﺪﻳﺔ ﺗﺮﺣﻴﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ"‪" .‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻚ‪...‬ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻤﻖ‪".‬ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻳﺪﻙ ﻫﻨﺎ‪"...‬ﺣﻤﺎﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺟﺎء ﺧﻄﺄ‪".‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎﻧﻜﻮﻥﺟﻴﺮﺍﻧﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺪﻋﻮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺪﻧﺔ”‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﻮﺱﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺟﺐ‪" .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻬﺪﻧﺔ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﻟﺴﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺮﺏ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‪ "...‬ﺯﻓﺮﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﺎً ﻣﺤﺒﻄﺎً‪ .‬ﻫﻮﻣﻠﻚﻟﺠﻌﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺻﻌﺒﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎً‪،‬‬
‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎً؟ﻧﺤﻦ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﻮﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻟﻠﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻌﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻨﺎ ﺃﺳﻬﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻘﻂﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻜﻮﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄﻛﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺗﺮﻣﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺗﻄﻌﻤﻬﺎ ﻟﺜﻌﺒﺎﻧﻚ ﺍﻷﻟﻴﻒ‬
‫ﻧﺎﺟﻴﻨﻲ‪،‬ﺃﻳﺎً ﻛﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺭﻓﺖﻓﻤﻪ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻗﺎﺭﻧﺘﻨﻲ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﺑﻔﻮﻟﺪﻣﻮﺭﺕ؟"‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﻻ!"ﺭﺑﻤﺎ‪".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺖ ﺍﻟﺜﻌﺒﺎﻥ ﻛﻤﺜﺎﻝ‪" .‬ﻻ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‬
‫ﺣﻴﻮﺍﻥﺃﻟﻴﻒ ﻓﺮﻭﻱ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺴﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺛﻌﺒﺎﻥ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﺃﺧﺬ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﻚ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺭﻣﺸﺖ‪ .‬ﺭﻣﺶ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑﺷﻜﺮﺃﻧﺎ؟ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺄﺧﺬ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻜﻮﻳﺖﻭﻳﻐﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺸﻜﺮﻧﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎءﺃﻧﻪ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻃﺲ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﺮﻭﺳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء‪،‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲﻛﻨﺖ ﺛﻤﻼً‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﺿﺒﺎﺑﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﻣﺘﺠﻤﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺻﺪﻣﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺿﺎﻑ‪" :‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺪﺧﻮﻝ؟"‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻫﺬﺍ ﺣﻠﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻷﻥ ﻓﺮﺹ ﺩﻋﻮﺗﻲ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﻴﺔﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺣﺘﻤﺎﻝ ﻗﻴﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺤﻞ ﻣﻌﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﺗﺮﺑﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﺮﺻﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪.‬ﺁﻩ‪.‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺣﻠﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻟﻘﺎء ﺳﺮﻳﺎﻟﻲ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻻ ﻳﺼﺪﻕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺴﺎءﻟﺖﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﻀﺎﺉﻴﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺧﺘﻄﻔﻮﺍ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻓﻲ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝﻭﺍﺳﺘﺒﺪﻟﻮﻩ ﺑﺪﺟﺎﻝ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻭﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺗﺤﻀﺮﺍً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ "،‬ﺗﻤﻜﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻀﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺰﻝﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻀﻮﻝ ﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺟﻮﺵ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻧﺘﻘﻞ ﻟﻠﻌﻴﺶ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻳﻮﻣﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺗﻮﻗﻌﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﺩﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻀﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻠﻘﺎﺓ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻟﻨﺎ‪،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺼﻘﻮﻻً ﻭﻣﺠﻤﻌﺎً ﻣﻌﺎً ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﻌﻴﺶ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﻴﻄﺮﺕﻋﻠﻰ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ ﺃﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺗﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻥ ﺑﺸﺎﺷﺔ ﻣﺴﻄﺤﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﺱ ‪80‬‬
‫ﺑﻮﺻﺔ‪،‬ﻣﺰﻳﻨﺔ ﺑﺴﻘﻒ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﺾ ﻣﻄﻠﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ‪.‬‬
‫ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺑﻴﺢ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﻧﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﻳﺪﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻤﺤﺖ ﺁﻟﺔ ﺇﺳﺒﺮﺳﻮ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻤﻄﺒﺦ ﻭﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺳﻄﺢ ﺯﺟﺎﺟﻲ ﻭﻛﺮﺍﺳﻲ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻭﺳﺎﺉﺪ ﺑﻴﻀﺎء ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦﺑﺨﻼﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺛﺎﺙ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺧﺘﻼﻓﺎًﺟﺬﺭﻳﺎً ﻋﻦ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺿﻮﻳﺔ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﻮﺍﺉﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻌﺪﺍﺕﺍﻟﺮﻳﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺟﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺣﻼﺗﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﺪ ﺍﻷﺩﻧﻰ‪ ،‬ﻫﺎﻩ؟" ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻣﻨﺤﻮﺗﺔ ﻣﻌﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﻏﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺩﻣﺎﻍ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻔﺠﺮﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻜﻠﻔﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﺮﻱ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻓﺎﺉﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﺻﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﻬﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻬﺎ‪ ".‬ﻭﺿﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻜﻮﻳﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ ﻭﻣﺸﻰ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭﻳﺔ‪" .‬ﻳﺸﺮﺏ؟"‬

‫"ﻻً ﺷﻜﺮﺍ‪ ".‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻜﺐﻟﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻛﺄﺳﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻳﺴﻜﻲ ﻭﺟﻠﺲ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﻤﻤﺖ ﻧﻔﺤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻟﻮﻧﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻪ‬
‫‪-‬ﺷﻲء ﺧﺸﺒﻲ ﻭﺫﻭ ﺭﺍﺉﺤﺔ ﺑﺎﻫﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣﻊ ﻟﻤﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺑﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺬﻳﺬﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﻓﻦ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺑﺠﻔﺎﻑ‪" :‬ﺍﺳﺘﺮﺧﻲ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺾ‪" ".‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺮﺗﺎﺡ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻣﻔﺎﺻﻠﻚ ﺑﻴﻀﺎء‪".‬‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺴﻜﺎً ﺑﺤﻮﺍﻑ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﺑﺈﺣﻜﺎﻡ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻔﺎﺻﻞﺃﺻﺎﺑﻌﻲ ﺑﻴﻀﺎء ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﻌﺠﺒﻨﻲ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻔﻠﺖ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺤﺪﻳﺚ ﻋﻦ ﺧﻂ ﻣﺒﺘﺬﻟﺔ‪".‬ﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺻﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺮﻏﻢﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﺃﻱ ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺽ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﺮﺽ ﻟﻠﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ؟"‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻤﺰﺡ ﺃﻡ ﻻ‪.‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻏﻠﺐ ﻻ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﺰﺡ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎءﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ"‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﺮﺡ ﻣﻔﻬﻮﻣﺎً ﺑﺴﻴﻄﺎً ﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﺻﻐﻴﺮ‪" .‬ﻟﺘﺬﻛﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱﻭﺍﻷﺣﺪﺍﺙ؟"‬
 ‫"ﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﻮﺭ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ ".‬ﺍﺳﺘﻐﻞ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺟﺒﻬﺘﻪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺗﺘﻼﺷﻰ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻻ‪ ".‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﺭﻗﻤﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﻲ‪ ".‬ﻭﺿﻊ ﻛﺄﺳﻪ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﺩﺍﻛﻨﺘﺎﻥ‪" .‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺓ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻔﻮﻗﺔ‪".‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖﺷﺨﻴﺮﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻓﻪ‪" .‬ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺭﺃﻱ ﻋﺎﻝ ﻋﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪".‬‬

‫ﻫﺬﺍﺃﻛﺴﺒﻨﻲ ﻇﻼً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﻠﻔﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺗﻔﺎﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﺮﻁ ﻧﺸﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﺭﻗﻴﺔ‪،‬ﺃﻭ ‪ .HSAM‬ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﺗﻴﺔ ﻣﺘﻔﻮﻗﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﻔﺤﺼﻬﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ‪ .‬ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺓ ﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻴﺔ؟"‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻳﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺓ ﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻴﺔ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻬﺪﻻﺣﻈﻮﻩ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻗﺼﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻳﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺑﻮﻥ ﺑـ ‪ HSAM‬ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻬﻢ‪.‬ﻛﻞ ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ‪ ".‬ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﻴﺸﻤﻴﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺯﻣﺮﺩ‪،‬ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﻣﺴﻜﻮﻧﺔ‪" .‬ﺳﻮﺍء ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻭﺍ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻡ ﻻ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺟﻮﺵ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺬﻛﺮ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻗﻂ‪ ".‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﻟﻤﺎ ﻳﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻘﺪﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺟﻮﺵ ﻻ ﻳﺨﺒﺮﻙ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺷﻲء‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﻗﻂ ﻋﻦ ﻓﺮﻁ ﻧﺸﺎﻁ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﻗﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺧﻴﺎﻟﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﻓﻴﻠﻢ‬
‫ﺧﻴﺎﻝﻋﻠﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺷﺊ؟‬

‫ﺍﺭﺗﻔﻊﻣﻌﺪﻝ ﺿﺮﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥﺃﻣﺮﺍ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﻫﻴﺐ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻴﻬﺎ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻗﻠﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺃﺗﺮﻛﻬﺎ ﺗﺘﻼﺷﻰ ﻓﻲ ﻏﻴﺎﻫﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﻴﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺷﺒﻜﺔ ﺃﻣﺎﻥ ﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺣﺪﺍﺙﺍﻟﻔﻈﻴﻌﺔ ﺳﺘﻨﺤﺴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻫﻤﺴﺎﺕ ﺧﺎﻓﺘﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻢﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺗﻲ ﻣﻠﺘﻮﻳﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻗﺒﻞ ﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻭﻗﻌﺖ ﺃﻓﻈﻊ ﺍﻷﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪.‬‬
 ‫"ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ؟" ﺍﻧﺎ ﻫﻤﺴﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻢﻫﻮ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﻟﻠﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺠﻠﺲ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ :‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺤﻨﻰﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺣﻘﺎًﺟﺪﺍً ﺃﻳﻀﺎًﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝﺑﻬﺪﻭء‪" :‬ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺃﺷﺒﻪ ﺑﻤﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓ ﻓﻴﻠﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ ﻳﺘﻢ ﻋﺮﺿﻪ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻚ"‪" .‬ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺭﻋﺒﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻌﺮﻕ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻠﺘﺼﻘ ًﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺒﺸﺮﺗﻲ‪".‬ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻛﻮﻣﻴﺪﻳﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺭﻭﻣﺎﻧﺴﻴﺔ؟" ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺰﺡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﺟﺎء ﻻﻫﺜﺎً‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺷﺘﻌﻠﺖﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻃﻠﻖ ﺑﻮﻕ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺣﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕﺗﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻧﻬﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻪ ﺗﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻭﺟﻴﺰﺓ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻤﺲ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻟﻴﺔﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺎﻫﺔ ﺷﻔﺘﻴﻪ‪" .‬ﻋﻮﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻳﺎ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﺑﻘﻰ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻛﻞ‪".‬‬

‫ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻕﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻷﺟﻤﻊ ﺫﻛﺎﺉﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻫﺮﺑﺖ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ ﻭﺭﻛﺒﺘﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﻌﺶ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﻟﻘﺎء ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻬﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍً‪،‬ﺗﺮﻛﻨﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻭﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﻮﺗﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻳﻀﺎًﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺃﻧﺎﺍﻧﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﻗﺒﻀﺘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺍﻷﺯﻳﺎء'ﻭﺟﻪ ‪,S‬ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ‬

‫ﺍﻻﻧﻔﺠﺎﺭﺍﻟﺤﺎﺩ ﻟﻸﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻫﺰ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻻﺻﻄﺪﺍﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﺣﺘﺮﻗﺖ ﻋﻀﻼﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻘﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺟﺒﻬﺘﻲﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺩﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺸﻮﻳﺶ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻳﺪﺓﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺣﻘﻖ ﺿﺮﺑﺎﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺭﺍﺉﺤﺔﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻨﻒ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻠﻮﺛﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺤﺖﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺈﻃﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﻨﺎﻥ ﻟﻠﻐﻀﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺑﻘﻴﺘﻪ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻏﻄﺎء ﺩﻗﻴﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻻﺕﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺐ ‪ Krav Maga‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﻋﻘﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ ﻟﻠﺪﻓﺎﻉ‬
‫ﻋﻦﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻦ ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻔﻴﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻼﺫﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻴﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺿﺮﺏ ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺍﻷﺯﻳﺎء‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺿﻰﻭﺍﻷﻭﺟﺎﻉ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻣﺴﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﻋﻦ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺟﺮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞﺻﻌﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻹﺻﺪﺍﺭ ﻹﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺿﺒﻄﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺭﺍﻟﻒ‪ ،‬ﺻﺎﺣﺐ ﻣﺮﻛﺰ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ ﻭﻣﺪﺭﺑﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﻠﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺠﻔﺎﻑ‪":‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺗﺨﻠﺼﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺣﺒﺎﻃﻚ"‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺼﻴﺮﺍً ﻭﻣﻤﺘﻠﺊ ﺍﻟﺠﺴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊﺑﺒﻨﻴﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﺗﻠﺔ ﻗﻮﻳﺔ ﻭﺷﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺷﺮﻳﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻪ ﺩﻣﻴﺔ ﺩﺏ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻄﻔﺊ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻮﺍﺭﻱﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺛﺄﺭﺍً ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺎً ﺿﺪ ﻫﺎﺭﺑﺮ‪".‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻡﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﺑﺘﺴﻤﻴﺔ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺩﻣﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ ﺑﺄﺳﻤﺎء ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺎﺕ ﺗﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺷﺨﺎﺹ‬

‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﻴﻦﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺒﻬﻢ‪.‬‬
 ‫"ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻏﺰﺭ"‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻮﺩﻳﻮ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ﺑﺤﺮﻳﺔ ﺃﻛﺒﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻋﺘﺒﺮﻩ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎًﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎً‪" .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﺪﻣﻰ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻟﻠﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ‪ Krav Maga‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻗﺘﺎﻝ ﺑﺎﻷﻳﺪﻱ ﻟﺴﺒﺐ‬
‫ﻣﺎ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻔﺎﻋﻞ ﺑﻴﻨﻚ ﻭﺑﻴﻦ ﺧﺼﻤﻚ ﻭﺍﻻﺳﺘﺠﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻞﺫﻟﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﺼﻤﻚ ﻛﺎﺉﻨﺎً ﺟﺎﻣﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﻮﻧﺎ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﺘﻬﻲ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻮﺟﺪﻭﻗﺖ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻲ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﺉﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺔ‪".‬‬
‫ﺭﻓﻌﺖﺣﺎﺟﺒﻲ‪" .‬ﻓﺼﻞ؟"‬
‫ﺗﻬﺘﻢﺃﻛﺎﺩﻳﻤﻴﺔ ‪ KM‬ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻤﺎﺭﺳﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺳﻄﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺘﻘﺪﻣﻴﻦ ﻭﺗﺘﺨﺼﺺ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻠﺴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻓﺮﺩﻳﺔﺃﻭ ﺟﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺘﻀﻴﻒ ﻓﺼﻮﻻ ًﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﻛﺰ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﻫﺰﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ‪" .‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﻔﺘﺢ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻛﺰ ﻟﻠﻤﺒﺘﺪﺉﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﺩﺭﺱ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﻲ‪،‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﺘﺴﻴﺮ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﺘﻨﻲ ﻣﻴﺴﻲ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ‬
‫ﺇﻥﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻧﻮﻥ ﻣﻬﺘﻤﻴﻦ ﺑﺘﻌﻠﻤﻬﺎ ﻟﻠﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺑﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻃﻠﻖ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﻣﺔ‪" .‬ﺛﻼﺛﻮﻥ ﺳﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﺪﺍﻋﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻧﺎ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻧﺤﻦ ﻫﻨﺎ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻧﺎﻫﻴﻚ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ ﺗﺠﺎﺭﻱ ﺟﻴﺪ‪ ".‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ ‪ KMA‬ﻣﻨﺎﻓﺴﺔ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻘﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻃﻠﺐ ﻣﻜﺒﻮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﻭﺱ‪ ،‬ﻧﺎﻫﻴﻚ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺛﺮﻳﺎءﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻬﻢ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺍﻷﺳﻌﺎﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻴﻀﺖﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺭﺍﻟﻒ‪" .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻳﻀﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﺧﺬﺕﺟﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ‪ .‬ﺩﺭﻭﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺘﺪﺉﻴﻦ…‬

‫ﻗﺪﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻵﻓﺎ‪ .‬ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ‪ ،‬ﺣﻘﺎً‪ ،‬ﺭﺟﻼ ًﺃﻭ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻣﻬﺎﺭﺓﻻ ﺗﺮﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻌﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻕ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻮﺕ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻞﺫﻟﻚﻳﻔﻌﻞﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻣﻪ‪ .‬ﺭﺫﺍﺫ ﺍﻟﻔﻠﻔﻞ ﻳﺼﻠﻚ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺭﺳﻠﺖ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﺳﺮﻳﻌﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺒﺪﺃ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﺟﻠﺴﺘﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﺑﻠﻌﺐ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺟﻠﻴﺴﺔ ﺍﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮﻳﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ "ﻫﺪﻧﺔ‬
‫" ﺣﺬﺭﺓ ‪ -‬ﻛﻠﻤﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﻠﻤﺘﻲ ‪ -‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﻏﺼﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻳﺘﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻡ ﺑﺸﻲء ﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻡ ﺑﻪ ﺑﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻣﺎﺉﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺎﺉﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ‬
‫ﻧﺼﻒﻓﺎﺣﺺ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺑﻪ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻴﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﺄﺧﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺳﺠﻠﻬﺎ ﻟﺘﻠﻘﻲ ﺩﺭﻭﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻓﺎﻉﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻔﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻢ ﺑﺘﺮﻗﻴﺔ ﻧﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻹﻧﺬﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺮﺩﻱء ﺑﻤﻨﺰﻟﻬﺎ ‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺻﻴﺒﺖ ﺑﻨﻮﺑﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻳﻘﻈﺘﻬﺎﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻷﻣﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎً ﻟﺘﺜﺒﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺕ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ‪-‬‬
‫ﻣﻬﻤﺎﻛﻠﻒ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻛﻞ‪ ،‬ﻗﻞ ﻗﻠﻘﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻛﻴﺰ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻋﻤﻠﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺨﻄﻴﻂ ﻟﻼﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﺃﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﻌﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻤﻠﻲ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺟﻴﺪﻳﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﺃﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧﺎﺹ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﺎﻣﺖ ﺑﺘﻮﻟﻴﺪﻫﻢ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﺍﻭﻳﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻤﻴﺺ‬
‫ﺑﺪﻭﻥﺃﻛﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﺭﺓ ﻟﺨﺮﺯﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﺗﺘﺪﻟﻰ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺟﻠﺪﻫﺎﺍﻟﺒﺮﻭﻧﺰﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻧﻘﺴﺎﻣﻬﺎ ﺗﻮﻣﺾ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺷﺨﺮﺕ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺿﺮﺏ ﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﻟﻜﻤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻣﻌﺎﺉﻲ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺎ ﺣﺼﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺤﺖﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺮﻭﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﻓﻜﻲ ﻭﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻛﻴﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ‪ ،‬ﺩﺍﻓﻌﺔ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻋﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺗﺸﻴﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻧﻘﺴﺎﻣﻬﺎﻣﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻌﺪﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﻫﻼﻣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻛﺪﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﺰﻫﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ‪،‬ﻭﻣﺪﺩﺕ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺗﺴﻠﻠﺖ ﻫﻤﻬﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺨﻔﻀﺔ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻐﻠﻖﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻮﺩﻳﻮ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺟﺪﻳﻠﻲ‪ ".‬ﺻﻔﻘﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺘﻔﻲ‪” .‬ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﺗﻬﺰﻣﻨﻲ ﻳﻮﻣﺎً ﻣﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇﺎً‪«.‬‬

‫ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ‪".‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ‪" .‬‬

 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻗﺘﺮﺑﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺟﺰءﺍً ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‪ -‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻧﻲ ﻫﺪﻓﺎً ﺃﺳﻌﻰ ﻟﺘﺤﻘﻴﻘﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻓﻮﺯ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﻳﻤﺎ ﺍﻓﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻮﺍﻟﺖﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﺭﺍﻟﻒ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻀﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺒﻠﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺮﻕ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺪ‪" .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭ ﻧﻔﺴﻚ‬
‫ﺑﺬﻟﻚﻳﺎ ﻓﺘﻰ‪ .‬ﻧﺮﺍﻛﻢ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺎء‪".‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺃﻥ ﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻔﺤﺺ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﺑﺤﺜﺎً ﻋﻦ ﺭﺳﺎﺉﻞ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﺷﺊ‪.‬‬
‫ﺛﻠﻢﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﺗﺠﻌﺪ ﺟﺒﻴﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺭﺳﻠﺖ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺩﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻗﻬﺮﻳﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺗﺼﻮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻨﻲﻭﻋﺪﺗﻬﺎ ﺑﺈﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﻊ ﻭﺃﺳﻤﺎء ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼء‬
‫ﻭﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺑﺈﺟﺮﺍء ﻓﺤﻮﺻﺎﺕ ﺧﻠﻔﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻼء ﻣﺴﺒﻘﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﺃﻧﺎﺱ ﻣﺠﺎﻧﻴﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺭﺳﻠﺖ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺘﺎﺑﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ‪ .‬ﻻ‬

‫ﺷﺊ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺗﺼﻠﺖ‪.‬ﻻ ﺍﺟﺎﺑﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻣﺎﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻬﺎ – ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻻ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً – ﺃﻭ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺭﻃﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺩﻡ‪.‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻳﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺭﺗﻔﻊﻣﻌﺪﻝ ﺿﺮﺑﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ‪ .‬ﺷﺪﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺨﻨﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻑ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻛﺰﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻛﺮﻯ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ‪ -‬ﺫﻛﺮﻯ ﺣﻀﻮﺭﻱ ﺃﻭﻝ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺱﻟﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺮﺍﻑ ﻣﺎﻏﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ ‪ -‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺮﺍﺟﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﻊ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺮﺍء‬
‫ﻣﻦﻣﺎﺿﻴﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻓﺘﺤﺘﻬﻤﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺗﺠﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻠﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺘﻠﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻠﻒﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻋﻨﺎء ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺒﻴﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻛﺰ ﻭﺃﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺁﻓﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻤﺘﻤﺖ‪":‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ"‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺮﺿﺖ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻣﺮﺳﻴﺪﺱ ﻭﻗﻠﺒﺘﻬﺎ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﻗﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻭﺑﻮﻧﺖ ﺳﻴﺮﻛﻞ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻲ ّﺍﻟﺴﺎﺉﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺤﺎﻡ ٍ‬
‫ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻎﻓﻲ ﺗﻬﺬﻳﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺻﻠﺖ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻠﻖ ﺭﺩﺍً ﺑﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﻀﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻨﺒﺾﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧﻄﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﻏﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﺠﺎﻫﻠﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺿﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺇﺫﺍﺃﺻﻴﺒﺖ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺩﻓﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﺳﺘﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻊ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻳﻦ ﻫﻲ؟" ﺗﺨﻠﻴﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺘﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ؟" ﺳﺄﻟﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﺍءﺓ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﻇﺒﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻳﻨﺨﺪﻉ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺃﻣﺒﺮﻭﺯ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﺧﻄﺮﺍﻟﻨﺴﺎء ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻲ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘﻬﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺧﻼﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻭﺗﻐﺎﺯﻟﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻐﻔﻼً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺁﻓﺎ‪ "،‬ﺩﻣﺪﻣﺖ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺮﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻬﺎ‪" ".‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﻌﺒﺚ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺭﻃﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺭﺉﻴﺴﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻃﻠﺐﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻟﻌﺮﻗﻠﺔ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺒﻚ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺟﺮﻳﺖ ﺑﺤﺜﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﺁﻓﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﺑﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻳﺪﺭﺱ ﻣﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻧﻮﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺘﺪﺭﻳﺐ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻟﺐ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﻣﺮﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻎ ﺍﻷﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻘﺒﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻮﻕﺍﻟﺘﻨﺎﻓﺴﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺫﺍﺑﺖﻛﻞ ﺁﺛﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺞ‪ .‬ﺿﺎﻗﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻬﺪﺩﻧﻲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﻷﻟﻌﺎﺏ‪".‬‬

‫ﺣﺪﻗﻨﺎﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﺜﻮﺍﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻴﻨﺔ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻴﺴﺖﻓﻲ ﻭﺭﻃﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎً؟ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ‪ .‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺟﺢ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻴﺴﺖﻣﻠﺘﺼﻘﺔ ﺑﻬﺎﺗﻔﻬﺎ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻋﻨﻮﺍﻥ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺣﻤﻘﺎً ﻣﺘﻌﺠﺮﻓﺎً ﺣﻘﺎً‪" ".‬ﻋﻨﻮﺍﻥ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺗﻨﻬﻴﺪﺓ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻙ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ ﻣﻌﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻚ‬
‫ﻻﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻏﺒﻲ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪﺧﻤﺲ ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﻴﻦ ﻋﺎﺉﺪﻳﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺈﺻﺪﺍﺭ ﻓﺎﺗﻮﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻟﺠﻮﺵﺑﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻧﻔﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﺩ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﺪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻗﻠﻘﺔ ﺟﺪﺍ؟ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻛﻠﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻔﺰﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ "ﺟﻠﺐ"‪ .‬ﻗﻠﺒﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺁﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻴﺔ ﻟﻸﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﻟﻤﺴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻤﺮﺷﻔﺎﻫﻬﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻔﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺇﺷﺎﺭﺓ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﺣﻤﺮﺍء‪.‬‬

‫"ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻳﺪﻋﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺖ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻗﻠﻘﺎﻛﺎﻑٍ"‪ .‬ﺗﻬﻴﺞ‬
‫ﻣﻠﻔﻮﻑﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪" .‬ﻣﺘﻰ ﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺮﺩ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺭﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻣﻜﺎﻟﻤﺔ؟"‬

‫"ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻓﺼﻞ‪ .‬ﻋﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻧﺎﺉﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺤﻤﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺻﻮﺭﺓ‪"-‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻣﺮﺕ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪ .‬ﻫﺰﺕ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ‬

‫ﺗﻤﺎﺭﺱﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪".‬‬
‫ﻗﻔﺰﺕﻋﻀﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻧﺴﺨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺃ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﻲ ﺑﻘﺺ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﻗﻤﻴﺺ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊﺑﺈﻏﺮﺍﺉﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺶ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﺧﺮﻳﻦ؟ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻴﻌﺎﺑﺎً‪،‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺍً ﻟﺨﻠﻔﻴﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻟﺘﻘﻮﻝ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺍﻟﻬﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺎﻟﻪ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﺎً ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻬﺪﻳﺪ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻋﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ‬
‫ﺍﺷﺘﻜﻰﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً‪.‬‬
‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ‪ ".‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻳﻘﻊ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﺬﻛﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻭﻗﻔﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺃﺫﻛﺮﺻﺪﻳﻖ‪ ".‬ﻗﺎﻣﺖ ﺑﻔﻚ ﺣﺰﺍﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪" .‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ … ﺗﻨﻮﻳﺮﻳﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻢﺃﺯﻋﺞ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺴﺆﺍﻟﻬﺎ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺗﻘﺼﺪﻩ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻄﻌﻤﻨﻲ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﺍء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﻮﻁﺑﺎﻟﺴﻜﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺗﻘﻀﻲ ﻭﻗﺘﺎً ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺎً‪ ،‬ﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺿﺮﺑﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻘﺒﻀﺘﻲﺑﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﻔﺘﺢﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﻜﺸﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻧﺤﻴﻒ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﻃﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻙﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻧﻘﻒ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺗﻚ؟"‬
 ‫"ﺃﻳﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ؟"‬
‫"ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‪ "...‬ﻣﺸﻴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻲ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺻﻌﺒﺎًﻧﻈﺮﺍً ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺰﻥ ﻣﺎﺉﺔ ﻭﺳﺘﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻛﺤﺪ ﺃﻗﺼﻰ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﻬﻼ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ!" ﺻﺮﺥ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻓﺎﻛﺎﻥﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ – ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻉ ﺧﻄﻴﺮ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺻﺪﻏﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ – ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺳﺒﺒﺎً ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺎً ﻟﻠﻤﻘﺎﻃﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻗﺮﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺧﻄﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﻮﻗﺎﺕﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺴﺎءﻟﺖﻋﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﻣﻊ ﺯﻭﺟﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻖ‪ .‬ﺫﻛﺮ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﻦ ﻋﺮﺱ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻧﻬﺎ‪،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺰﺣﻒ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺎﻣﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻠﺔﻓﻈﻴﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﺠﺎﻫﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻵﻧﺴﺔ ﺻﻦ ﺷﺎﻳﻦ ﺁﻧﺪ ﺭﻭﺯﻳﺰ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺯﻑﺳﻴﻮﻗﻌﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻛﻞ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩﻭﺻﻮﻟﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺨﻤﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻘﺪﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺃﺻﻮﺍﺗﺎً ﺗﻨﺰﻑ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﻮﺡ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﺍﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﺻﻌﺪﺕ‬
‫ﺟﻮﻟﺰﻭﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ‪ Spectacles‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﺜﺮﺛﺮ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺟﺪ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻧﺠﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﺮ ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﻠﻬﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﻭﺗﺠﻤﺪﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪.‬ﺃﺳﻮﺃ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻗﻔﺖﺁﻓﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺗﺪﻳﺔ ًﺛﻮﺑﺎً ﺿﻴﻘﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻧﺘﻴﻞ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺩ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﺮﻙ‬

‫ﺳﻮﻯﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺠﻠﺲ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺭﺟﻞ ﺫﻭ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﺷﻘﺮ ﻣﺴﻨﻦ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍﻳﺘﻬﺎﻣﺴﻮﻥ ﻭﻳﻀﺤﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺎﺷﺔ ﻋﺮﺽ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻨﻐﻤﺴﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻘﺎءﺍﺗﻬﻢﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻼﺣﻈﻮﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﺻﺤﺒﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻌﺒﺪﻱ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﺃﻛﺒﺮ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ‪ "...‬ﻗﻄﻊ ﺻﻮﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﻁ‪" .‬ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﻫﻨﺎ‪".‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﺳﺆﺍﻻ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪ .‬ﺍﻹﻋﺪﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻼﺑﺲ‬
‫‪ ...Ava‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻣﻊ ﺍﻓﺎ ﻛﻨﻤﻮﺫﺝ‪ .‬ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻟﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻏﻴﺮﻣﻜﺎﻧﻪﺑﻼﻱ ﺑﻮﻱ ﻣﺠﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﺩﻏﻄﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺗﻪ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺍﻷﺟﺰﺍء ﺍﻟﻀﺮﻭﺭﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻠﺘﻒ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻳﻜﺸﻒﻛﺘﻔﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻬﺒﻂ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﻔﻊ ﺳﺎﻗﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻣﻌﻈﻢﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺨﻼﻑ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﻃﻖ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻐﻄﻲ ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺑﻴﻦ ﺳﺎﻗﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺸﻒ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻧﺘﻴﻞﺍﻷﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻑ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﻐﻄﻴﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺭﻫﺎ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﺰﻱ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﻠﺲﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻣﻮﺍﺝ ﻓﺎﺗﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﺧﺮﻑ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﺧﺎﻧﻴﺔﻭﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻣﻴﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺒﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻨﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺣﻔﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺑﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺤﺎﺻﺮﺓ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻋﺠﺔ – ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺃﻋﺰ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤﻖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﺤﻴﻢ– ﻭﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﻔﺴﻴﺮﻩ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺍﻵﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺮﻭﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺗﺴﻌﺖﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺑﻔﺰﻉ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﺗﻨﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ؟ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻨﺎ؟"‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻓﻪ"‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ﻻﻫﺜﺔ ﻻﻫﺜﺔ‪ .‬ﺩﻟﻴﻞ ﺣﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻌﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎﻗﺔﺍﻟﺒﺪﻧﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺇﻧﻪ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻠﻚ ﻳﺎ ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ‪ ".‬ﺍﻧﺤﻨﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺧﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﻬﺮﻣﺎﻧﻴﺘﻴﻦ‬
‫ﺗﺘﻮﻫﺠﺎﻥﺑﺎﻟﺘﺴﻠﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﻟﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻯﺻﻮﺭ"‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﺮﺟﺖ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺍﺣﺪﻳﺮﻯﺻﻮﺭ"‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺘﺰﻋﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‬

‫ﻭﺭﻣﻴﺘﻬﺎﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺘﻔﻲ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﺘﻐﻄﻴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭﻭﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻳﺤﺬﻑ ﻛﻞ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄﻬﺎﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺨﻔﺾﻓﻜﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻫﻮ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﺫﻗﻨﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺤﺪ‪" ٍ.‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺧﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺣﺘﻰﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖﻛﺎﻥ‪،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺃﻱ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻓﺮﺍﻏﻲ‪.‬‬
 ‫"ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﻠﺘﻘﻂ ﺻﻮﺭﺍ ًﻟﻚ ﻧﺼﻒ ﻋﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺗﺪﻣﻴﺮ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺇﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺗﻢﺗﺴﺮﻳﺒﻬﺎ؟ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺭﺁﻫﻢ ﺻﺎﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻲ؟‬

‫ﺭﺩﺕﻗﺎﺉﻠﺔ‪" :‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻄﻮﻋﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ"‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻨﻲ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪.‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻛﺸﻒ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻟﻤﻮﻗﻊ ﺇﺑﺎﺣﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻴﻒﻋﺮﻓﺖ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻫﻨﺎ؟ "‬

‫"ﻋﻔﻮﺍ‪ "،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻠﻔﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺁﺳﻔﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺻﻞ ﺍﻟﻐﻠﻴﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻣﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﻠﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻞ‪" .‬ﻳﺤﺼﻞ‪ .‬ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪-‬ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ".‬ﺍﺷﺘﺪ ﻭﻫﺞ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺤﺒﺖ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ "ﻻ" ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻣﻜﻮﻧﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻘﻄﻌﻴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﺃﻱ ﺿﺮﺭ‪ ".‬ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﻣﺔ ﻋﺼﺒﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ‪،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻓﻦ‪ .‬ﺳﺄﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﺤﺮﻳﺮﻫﺎ ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻞ ﻭﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﺎﻫﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻟﻠﻤﻴﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺻﺮﺥ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺎﺟﺎً‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺍﻧﺘﺰﻋﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺬﻑ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺻﻤﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﻤﺖ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺴﻮﻳﺘﻪﺑﻨﻈﺮﺓ ﻗﺎﺗﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻗﻒ! ﻛﻨﺖ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﺳﺨﻴﻔﺔ‪ ".‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺮﻑﻛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ؟ﻗﻒ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺖ ‪ "-‬ﺍﻧﺘﺰﻋﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﺰﺣﺰﺡ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ‪ "-‬ﺳﺤﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ‪" .‬ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﻰ!"‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﻤﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﺻﺒﺢﻣﺰﺍﺟﻲ ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺎً ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺻﻮﺭﻫﺎ ﻣﺴﺘﻠﻘﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺗﺤﺪﻕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍﺑﻐﻀﺐ‪ .‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﺘﻰ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻲ ﻭﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﺗﻔﻌﻼﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻫﻤﺎ؟ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻄﻠﺐ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬
‫ﻋﺒﻘﺮﻳﺔﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﻳﻤﺮ ﺑﻌﻘﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺫﻛﺮ ﺫﻭ ﺩﻡ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻤﻨﻴﺖﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﺑﻌﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﻠﺘﻴﻦ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﺤﺘﻔﻆ ﺑﻬﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺮﺍﺟﻌﺖﺁﻓﺎ ﻟﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻧﺪﻓﻌﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺳﻴﺉﺔ ﺍﻹﺧﻔﺎء ﻟﺘﻔﺎﺟﺉﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻣﺎﺯﻟﺖ ﺃﺗﺬﻣﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺮﻛﺾ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺩﻋﻨﻜﺒﻮﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺛﺪﻳﻴﻬﺎ ﻳﻠﻤﺴﺎﻥ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﻳﺪﻏﺪﻍ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺩﻣﺎﺉﻲﺳﺎﺧﻨﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺣﺎﺳﻴﺲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻗﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺃﻧﻔﺎﺳﻬﺎ ﺗﺨﺮﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻨﻄﺎﻝ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ‪ .‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻻ‬
‫ﺃﻻﺣﻆﻛﻴﻒ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﺪﺭﻫﺎ ﻳﺮﺗﻔﻊ ﺃﻭ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻧﻌﻮﻣﺔ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﺍًﺧﻄﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﻣﻠﺘﻮﻳﺔ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪ً.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻋﻴﺪﻳﻬﺎ"‪ ،‬ﺃﻣﺮﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎً ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻛﻴﻒ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺄﻣﺮﻧﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪".‬‬
‫ﺿﺎﻗﺖﺍﻓﺎ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﻴﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺴﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺧﺮﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻣﺮﺗﺪﻳﺎً ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰﻱ‪".‬‬

‫ﺻﺎﻋﻘﺔﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﻣﺮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻟﻲ‪" .‬ﻟﻦ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪" ".‬ﺟﺮﺑﻨﻲ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻭﺟﻮﻫﻨﺎ ﻣﺘﺒﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺑﺒﻀﻊ ﺑﻮﺻﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻨﺎ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻬﺎﺳﻮﺍﻧﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺧﻔﻀﺖ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻬﻤﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺫﻧﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺧﻄﻮﺕ ﻗﺪﻣﺎً ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﻫﺬﻩﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺰﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻦ ﺃﺣﺬﻑ ﻛﻞ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺳﺄﺩﻣﺮ ﻣﻬﻨﺔ‬
‫"ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻚ" ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﻀﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﺠﻮء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻹﻋﻼﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺻﻮﺭ ﺳﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍﺕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ"‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺮﻳﻐﺴﻠﻴﺴﺖ‪ ".‬ﻟﻤﺴﺖ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺷﺘﻮﻳﺔ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ‬
‫ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟"‬

‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﻃﺮﻳﻘﺘﺎﻥ ﻟﺘﻬﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪ :‬ﻣﻬﺎﺟﻤﺘﻬﻢ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻣﻬﺎﺟﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻳﻬﺘﻤﻮﻥ ﺑﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺭﺗﺠﻒﻓﻢ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺻﺪﻗﺘﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﻛﻞ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻀﻮﺍًﻓﻲ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻮﺥ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻀﻮﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﺎﻋﺔ ﺿﻐﻂ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﺤﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺜﺮﻭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺣﺸﺔﻭﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺰﺍﺯ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﻔﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﺩ‪،‬ﻭﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺻﻞ ﻣﻨﺤﺘﻨﻲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺼﻴﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ "‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖﺃﺣﻤﻖ"‪.‬‬
‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻨﺴﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﻴﻤﺖ‪" .‬ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻯ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﺔ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﺠﺎﺩﻝ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻲ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺨﺘﻔﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻡ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫ﻟﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮﻣﻼﺑﺴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺪﻗﺖﻓﻲ ّﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﻭﻧﻈﺎﺭﺓ ‪ Spectacles‬ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻄﺎﻥ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺩﺧﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺛﻨﺎء‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺸﺎﻫﺪ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢ ﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﺗﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻴﺖﻣﻦ ﺣﺬﻑ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻭﺃﻋﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻞﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻛﻬﺬﺍ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﻠﻘﺖ ﻓﻮﻗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﺎً ﺑﻬﺰﺓ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻭﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻝﺃﻻ ﻳﺮﺗﻌﺪ‪" .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻋﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﻳﻌﺠﺒﻚ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪ "،‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺢﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺗﻨﻲ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻟﺒﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﺾ‪ .‬ﺃﻭﻣﺄ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﻳﺪﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻕ ﻓﻜﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺩﻋﻨﺎ ﻧﺬﻫﺐ‪ ".‬ﺟﺎءﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍًﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺇﻟﻲ‪ ّ،‬ﻭﺍﻣﻀﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ‪" .‬ﺳﻨﺬﻫﺐ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪﺍً‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﻦ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺧﻨﻘﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻤﺘﻤﺖﺑﺸﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﺒﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻼﺣﻘﻨﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺗﺒﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺰﺍﻝﻣﺒﺘﺴﻤﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ‪ .‬ﺳﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻋﺪﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺛﺎﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﻨﻘﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪﺍﻟﺤﺠﺮﻱ ﺗﺤﺪﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﻛﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺘﻔﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﺸﺪﻭﺩﺍﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺷﺘﻬﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺇﺯﻋﺎﺟﺎً ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎءﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺍﺻﻠﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ ﻟﻬﺎ‬
 ‫ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪.‬ﺍﻟﻄﻘﺲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺣﺪﺙ ﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﻔﺼﻞ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻦ‪ ...‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻫﺘﻢ؟‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﺸﻐﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺩﻳﻮ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻨﻲﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﻣﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﻀﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺳﻴﻘﻰ‬
‫ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪.‬‬
‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻤﺼﻠﺤﺘﻚ"‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻳﻘﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻷﺣﺪﺙ ﺃﻏﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺑﻌﺪﺕﺁﻓﺎ ﺟﺴﺪﻫﺎ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﺘﺠﺐ‪ .‬ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻐﻀﺐ ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻲءﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﺪﻣﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻫﻮ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺗﺤﻄﻴﻢ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﺑﻠﻮﻧﺪﻱ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﻤﻌﺎﻣﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻣﺘﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪.‬‬

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‫"‪...‬ﺕﻗﺎﻝ ﻫﻴﻦ‪,‬ﺃﺑﺪﺍًﺑﺴﺄﻝﺃﻟﻠﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺸﻲء ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ‪VA‬‬

‫ﻣﺮﺓﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻻ ﺳﺄﻗﺘﻠﻚ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻭﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻚ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻬﺎ‪ "،‬ﺃﻧﻬﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻛﻼﻣﻬﺎ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺩﺭﺍﻣﻲ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺗﺄﺧﺬ ﺭﺷﻔﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﻛﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍﻣﻴﻞ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﺳﻜﺖ‪ ".‬ﺍﻧﺤﻨﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺍﺳﻌﺔ‪" .‬ﻫﻮ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻣﺴﺘﻨﻜﺮﺓ‪" .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﻟﻐﺔ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﺘﻌﺮﻑ؟ ﺭﺩﺕ‪" :‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﻡ"‪ .‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﻤﻖ ﻋﺒﻮﺳﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﻫﺆﻻءﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ – ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮ‬

‫‪-‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻣﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺬﺭ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ ﻣﻨﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻣﺰﻗﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‬
‫ﻗﻄﻌﺔﻣﻦ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻱ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻜﻴﻦ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻧﺐ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺘﺒﻊ ﺃﻧﻤﺎﻃﺎً ﺷﺎﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻫﻦﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﻭﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻓﻲ ‪The Morning Roast‬‬
‫ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﺔ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺜﻼﺛﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺗﻤﺘﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﺑﺴﺮﺩ ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻎ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻪﻟﻤﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺖ‪" .‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻻ ﻳﺘﻢ ﺟﺮﻩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺇﻃﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ ﻗﺪ ﻭﻟﺖ«‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺮﺽ ﻣﺎﻛﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻋﻤﻠﺖ ﻛﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪ ﻣﻌﺮﺽ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻭﻧﺼﻒﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺻﺮﺍﺣﺔ ًﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺍﻓﻘﻨﻲ‬
 ‫ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺱﻣﻬﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﻭﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻤﻮﻝ ﺃﻳﺎً ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﺪﺍﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻓﻊ‬
‫ﺭﺳﻮﻡﺩﺭﺍﺳﺘﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻔﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻋﺪﺳﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺣﺎﻣﻞ ﺛﻼﺛﻲ ﺍﻷﺭﺟﻞ؟ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖﺃﻻ ﺃﺩﻉ ﺭﻓﻀﻪ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻦ ﻳﺰﻋﺠﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺗﺨﺮﺟﺖ‬
‫ﺩﻭﻥﺃﻱ ﺩﻳﻦ ﻟﻘﺮﻭﺽ ﺍﻟﻄﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﻕ‪ .‬ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻔﻘﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻮﺍﻟﻲﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺪﺍﺕ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺘﺰ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ ً،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻤﻠﻲﻓﻲ ﻣﺎﻛﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺃﺭﻗﻰ ﻣﻌﺎﺭﺽ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻗﻲ‪،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﻣﻤﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻳﻦﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻌﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺣﺘﻰﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ ﻳﺴﺨﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺫﻛﺮﻯ ﻣﻮﻗﻔﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻐﻄﺮﺱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﺃﺓ ﻟﻴﺄﺗﻲ ﻭﻳﻘﻮﺩﻧﻲ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﺘﻬﺪﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪.‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺼﺮﻑ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ‪ ...‬ﺧﺎﺩﻡ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻮﻇﻒ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ‪ .‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺬﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻃﻌﻨﺖ ﺍﻟﺰﺑﺎﺩﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﻮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻐﻀﺐ‪" .‬ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻓﺎﺗﻨﻲ ﻭﻗﺘﺎً ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪".‬‬
‫ﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" .‬ﻛﻞ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﻏﻴﺎﺑﻲ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺗﺤﻀﺮ ﺣﺪﺛﺎً ﻓﻲ ﻗﻨﺼﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﻟﺪﻭﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻴﻮﻳﻮﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻄﻠﻮﺑﺎً ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻴﺮﺓﺇﻟﺪﻭﺭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺤﻴﺢ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻴﺮﺓ ﺻﺎﺩﻗﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﻴﺐ ﻋﺮﺵ ﺩﻭﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺭﻭﺑﻴﺔﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺛﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﺑﺸﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻗﺎﻭﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻴﻘﺘﻴﻦ‪،‬ﻭﺑﻨﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﻧﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺟﺮﻳﺲ ﻛﻴﻠﻲ ﺷﺎﺑﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﻦ ﻫﻲ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﻣﻌُﻴﻨَّﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺲﺟﻨﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪ .‬ﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻷﻣﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻴﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺮﺑﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﻴﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﺤﺐ ﺭﺗﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪,‬ﻭﻫﻲ‬
 ‫ﺃﺻﺮﺕﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﻴﺶ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻛﻄﺎﻟﺒﺔ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﺳﺘﻄﺎﻋﺖ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺛﺎﻳﺮﻫﻮ ﺍﻷﻧﺴﺐ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻔﻀﻞ ﻗﺮﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ ﻭﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺠﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺳﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻟﻲ ﺫﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻤﻲ‪،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ ﻳﻌﺞ ﺑﺎﻷﺑﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺳﻴﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻠﻮﻙ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻟﻴﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻓﻘﻂ‪،‬ﺳﻤﻌﺖ ﺍﺑﻦ ﺭﺉﻴﺲ ﻣﺠﻠﺲ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﺏ ﻭﻭﻟﻲ ﻋﻬﺪ ﻣﻤﻠﻜﺔ ﻧﻔﻄﻴﺔ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻠﺠﺪﻝ‬
‫ﻳﺘﺠﺎﺩﻻﻥﺣﻮﻝ ﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﺪﻳﻮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﺧﺘﻼﻕ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء‪.‬‬

‫"ﺻﺪﻗﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚﻻﻣﻤﺘﻊ‪ "،‬ﺗﺬﻣﺮﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﻬﻴﻨﺎً‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻳﻦ ﻷﻭﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺸﺎء‪،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪«.‬‬
‫ﻳﻮﻣﺾﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﺑﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻧﺼﻴﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪.‬ﻟﻴﺎﻡ‪.‬ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻤﺴﺢ ﺍﻹﺷﻌﺎﺭ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻩ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺰﺍﺝ ﻟﻠﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻪﺃﻭ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻋﺬﺍﺭﻩ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻜﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﺮﺣﺎﻥ‪ ".‬ﺃﻧﻬﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﻛﻌﻜﺘﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥﺳﻜﺮﺍﻥ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﺮﺣﺎﻥ؟" ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻟﻔﻦ ﺍﻟﻼﺗﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﻀﻤﺎﻡﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺪﻭﻧّﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻸﺯﻳﺎء ﻭﺃﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫‪400.000‬ﻣﺘﺎﺑﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ‪ ،Instagram‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍﻋﺘﺪﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻟـ "‪ ."Gram‬ﻭﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺭﻗﺎﺕ‪،‬ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﺧﺠﻼ ًﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺤﻀﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻲﻛﺒﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻥ "ﻋﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻜﺸﻒ ﻋﻦ ﻫﻮﻳﺘﻪ" ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻧﺘﺮﻧﺖ ﺟﻌﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﺒﺮ ﺍﻹﻧﺘﺮﻧﺖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻨﻲ؟ ﻛﺎﻥﺳﻜﺮﺍﻥ‪".‬ﺭﻛﺰ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﻨﻲ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺪﻗّﻨﺎﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻭﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﻬﺪﻭء‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕ‪،‬ﻭﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻓﻬﻤﻨﺎ‪" .‬ﻣﺘﻰ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺭﺃﻯ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪﻧﺎﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎً؟ ﺃﻭ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ؟ ﺃﻡ ﺣﺰﻳﻦ؟ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻻ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﺃﻋﻄﺎﻩ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺍﺕ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﺟﺮﻋﺎﺕ ﺻﻔﺮﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻧﺴﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖﺳﺘﻴﻼ‪" :‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺨﺘﻞ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺎ"ً‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﺧﺠﻠﺖ‪" .‬ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻋﺎﺩﻱﺍﻟﺬﻱ ‪-‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﺗﺴﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪".‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﻣﻨﺰﻋﺠﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺟﺰءﺍً ﻏﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻣﻨﻲ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻣﻀﻄﺮ ﻟﻠﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻋﻨﻪ‪" .‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﺳﻴﺉﺎً ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪"...‬‬

‫"ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺳﻴﺉﺎ؟" ﺍﻧﺘﻬﺖ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻟﺠﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺛﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻜﻢ ﺃﺧﻲ‪".‬‬

‫ﺷﺨﺮﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪" .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻷﺥ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻯ ﺯﻱ ﺍﻟﻔﺉﺮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻮﻳﻦﺍﻟﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ؟"‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺠﻌﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻔﻲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻭﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ‪" .‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻻﺫﻭﻕ‬
‫"‪.‬‬
‫"ﺁﺳﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﻚ‪ ".‬ﺃﻣﺎﻟﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺭﺃﺳﻬﺎ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺘﺎﻟﻲ ﺗﺠﻌﻴﺪﺍﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻛﻨﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻌﺔﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺘﻔﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻤﺰﺡ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻗﺎﺉﻠﻴﻦ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻷﻣﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﻟﻠﺒﺸﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺴﺒﺐﺧﻠﻔﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺪﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺎﻓﺎﺕ ‪ -‬ﺍﻷﻟﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻴﺎﺑﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻬﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻬﺎ؛ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ‬
‫ﻭﺑﻮﺭﺗﻮﺭﻳﻜﻴﺔﻣﻦ ﺟﻬﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﻭﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺑﻮﺻﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻃﺮﺍﻑﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﻠﺪ ﺯﻳﺘﻮﻧﻲ ﻋﻤﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺧﻀﺮﺍء ﺗﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ‪ .‬ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺍﻷﺯﻳﺎء‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺼﻠﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺼﺒﺢ ﻋﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺃﺯﻳﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺠﺮﺩﻣﻼﺣﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﺟﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﺤﻜﻢ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺗﻢ ﺳﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺎﻥ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻨﺰﻋﺠﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ "...‬ﺗﻌﺜﺮﺕ‪ .‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺠﺤﻴﻢ؟ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔﻟﻲ ﻟﻠﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻳﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻠﻦﻳﻬﺘﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻻ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻌﺘﻘﺪﻩ ﺍﻵﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻮ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
‫ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻳﺎ ﺭﻓﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺘﻢ ﺗﻔﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻄﺔ‪ ".‬ﻭﻟﻮﺡ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺑﻴﺪﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪" .‬ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻫﻲﻳﺎ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻓﻌﻞﺇﻇﻬﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻓﺎ‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﻭﻩﻻ‪.‬ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻨﻄﻮﻱ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻦ "ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺔ" ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺎﻋﺐ ﻭﺟﺮﻋﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺘﻤﻠﺔﻣﻦ ﺍﻹﺣﺮﺍﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻬﺘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺍﻯ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻧﻮﺍﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺡ؟" ﺑﺪﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﻧﺔ‪" .‬ﻛﻮﺑﺮﻱ!" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﻛﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺗﺤﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪".‬ﻻ ﺗﺸﺠﻌﻬﺎ‪".‬‬
 ‫"ﺁﺳﻒ‪ ".‬ﺻﻨﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍء ﻭﺟﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺍً ﻫﻮ ‪ "...‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺣﻮﻟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻳﺴﺘﻤﻊ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺣﺎﺭﺳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﺑﻮﺙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺟﻠﺲﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺧﻠﻔﻨﺎ ﻭﺗﻈﺎﻫﺮ ﺑﻘﺮﺍءﺓ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﻳﺪﺓ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺐ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺤﻴﻂﺑﻪ‪“ .‬ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﺑﻠﻮﻣﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺍﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﺣﺘﻔﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻤﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪،‬ﺟﺪﻱ ﻣﺮﻳﺾ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﻲ ﻳﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺑﻐﺮﺍﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺒﻌﺪ ﺗﻔﻜﻴﺮﻱ ﻋﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺟﺪﻫﺎﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﻭﻑ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺑﺎﺳﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻚ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﻭﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻬﺪ ﻧﻴﻜﻮﻻﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻟﺪﻭﺭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻛﺮّ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺄﻧﻬﻢ ﺑﺸﺮ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔﻣﻊ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﻌﺘﺎﺩﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻬﺎ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻋﺮﺿﻲ ﻋﻦ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﻢﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﻠﻮﻛﺎً ﺣﺮﻓﻴﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﺪﻱ ﻧﻈﺮﻳﺔ‪ ".‬ﺍﻧﺤﻨﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻗﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻬﻢ ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﺸﻮﻗﻴﻦ‬
‫ﻟﺴﻤﺎﻉﻣﺎ ﺳﺘﻘﻮﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻃﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻓﻀﻮﻻً ﻣﺮﺿﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺣﺐ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺨﺮﺝﻣﻦ ﻓﻤﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪" :‬ﺗﻘﻊ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺟﻠﺪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ"‪" .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺮﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ ﻣﺪﻯ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺼﻞﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪.‬ﻛﻢ ﺛﻤﻦﻫﻞ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ؟‬

‫ﺗﺪﺣﺮﺟﺖﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪" .‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻘﻀﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ‬

‫ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺒﻚﻗﺪ ﺷﻮﺷﺖ ﻋﻘﻠﻚ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻚ ﻻ ﺗﻤﻠﻚ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺠﺎﻫﻠﺘﻨﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺳﻤﻴﻬﺎ‪ "...‬ﻭﻗﻔﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﻣﺎﺗﻴﻜﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ"‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻟﻸﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﻭﺭﺳﻤﺖﻗﻮﺳﺎً ﺑﻴﺪﻫﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺳﺘﻈﻬﺮ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺳﺤﺮﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺒﺘﻜﺮﺓ‪ "،‬ﻣﺎﺯﺣﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﺳﺘﻤﻊ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﺟﻤﻴﻌﻨﺎ ﻧﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺭﻭﺑﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮﻫﻲ"‪"...‬‬
‫ﺃﺷﺎﺭﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪ ..." .‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺜﺒﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ ﻻ ﺗﻘﻞ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻧﻜﻢ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ ﻳﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﻛﺈﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻭﻟﻮ ﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻓﻨﺠﺎﻥ ﻗﻬﻮﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺳﻠﺔ ﻣﻬﻤﻼﺕ ﻭﻛﺎﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳﺤﻖ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺎً‬
‫ﻋﺎﺑﺮﺍًﻓﻲ ﺛﺎﻳﺮ‬
 ‫ﺍﻟﺒﻠﻮﺯ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻔﻠﺖ ﻭﻗﻠﺖ "ﺁﺳﻒ" ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﻗﺘﺮﺍﺡ ﺍﻟﺴﺨﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺮﻭﺡ‪" .‬ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺃﻏﺒﻰﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﻘﺮﻋﻬﺎ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﻬﺎ‪ "،‬ﻏﻨﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺴﻤﻰ ﺑﺼﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻬﺪﻑ؟" ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪" .‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﺳﻴﻌﻤﻞ ﺣﺘﻰ؟"‬

‫"ﺑﺴﻴﻂ‪ ".‬ﺃﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻗﻠﻤﺎً ﻭﺩﻓﺘﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺣﻘﻴﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﺮﺑﺸﺔ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻮﺻﻠﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻗﺎﺉﻤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺇﻋﻄﺎﺉﻪ ﻓﺤﺼﺎً ﺟﺴﺪﻳﺎً ﺳﻨﻮﻳﺎً ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻌﻤﻞ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺻﺤﻴﺢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" :‬ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ"‪" .‬ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﻌﻤﻞ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻋﻘﻠﻚ ﺗﺨﻴﻔﻨﻲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ‪ "،‬ﻛﺮﺭﺕ‪" .‬ﻻ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻫﻮ ‪ -‬ﻫﻲﻳﻔﻌﻞﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻧﻮﻋﺎً ﻣﺎ…ﻳﻌﻨﻲ‪ ”.‬ﻃﺮﻗﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ ﺃﻇﺎﻓﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻫﺐ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪".‬ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻚ؟"‬

‫"ﺳﺘﻴﻞ!"‬
‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻣﺬﻧﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻫﻲ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﺎ ﻓﻀﻮﻟﻲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻣﻦ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺃﻳﻨﺎﻩ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺰﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻻﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ‪ "...‬ﺍﺭﺗﺴﻤﺖ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺷﺮﻳﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪".‬‬

‫ﺷﺨﺮﺕ‪".‬ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻦ ﻳﻐﺎﺭ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺪﻳﺮﺍً ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻳﺎً ﻣﻠﻴﻮﻧﻴﺮﺍً ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﺫﻛﺎء ﻋﺒﻘﺮﻱ؛ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺎً ﺟﺎﻣﻌﻴﺎً‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤﻞﻓﻲ ﻭﻇﻴﻔﺘﻴﻦ ﻭﺃﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﺤﺒﻮﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﻻﻣﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻻ ﻏﻴﻮﺭﻝﺃﻧﺖ‪ .‬ﻏﻴﻮﺭﺯﻳﺎﺩﺓﺃﻧﺖ‪ ".‬ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻣﻨﺘﻌﺸﺔ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﻳﺤﺐ ﺁﻓﺎ؟"‬
‫"ﻻ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺉﻤﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻮﻝ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻷﺧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻧﻮﻋﻪ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺑﺸﺸﺶ‪ ".‬ﻟﻮﺣﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ ﺍﺣﺘﺠﺎﺟﻲ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻌﻮﺿﺔ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥﻣﺎﺫﺍﻫﻢ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ‪ .‬ﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻟﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﺄﻭﻳﻦ؟‬
 ‫"ﻻ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ" ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺤﺰﻡ‪" .‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻭﺍﻓﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ‪".‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﻌﺪﺧﻤﺲ ﻭﺃﺭﺑﻌﻴﻦ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺳﺘﺒﺪﺃ ﺧﻼﻝ‬
‫ﺛﻼﺛﺔﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺮﻫﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﻬﻮﻑ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔﻣﺎ‪ ،‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎًﺃﻗﻨﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﺗﺘﻌﺎﺭﺽ ﻣﻊ ﻏﺮﺍﺉﺰﻱ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺎﻓﺮﻧﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﺮﻭﻛﻠﻴﻦ ﻟﻤﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓ ﻓﺮﻗﺔ ﺗﺆﺩﻱ ﺃﺩﺍء ً‬
‫ﻷﻧﻬﺎﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻐﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻴﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﺬﺍﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ ﺑﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﻊ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﻄﻠﺖ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺄﺟﺮﺓ ‪ .‬ﺃﻭ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‬
‫ﻗﺼﻴﺪﺓﺣﺐ ﻟﻠﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻹﻧﺠﻠﻴﺰﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺼﺪﻳﻘﺘﻪ ﻓﻘﻂ‬

‫‪-‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺑﻮﺟﻮﺩﻩ ‪ -‬ﻟﻠﻌﺜﻮﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻣﻄﺎﺭﺩﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺴﻜﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘﻪ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺻﻔﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻠﻤﺤﺎﻣﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺡ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﺑﺮﻱء‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎء ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻛﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺻﻌﺪﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻً ﻓﺮﺯ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﺎﺭﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ "ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ" ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻭﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺯﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺮﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﺧﻄﺄﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺫﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺡ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻳﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺟﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ‬

‫ﺍﺭﺗﻌﺪﺕﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻣﻪ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻛﺘﺸﻒ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻔﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻐﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻠﺦﺣﻴﺎً ﺣﺘﻰ ﺧﻠﺪﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﻮﻡ ﺧﻔﻴﻒ ﻭﻣﺘﻘﻄﻊ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺴﺎﻋﺪ! ﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳﺎﻋﺪﻳﻨﻲ!"‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺤﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﻓﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺗﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺃﺑﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﻣﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻃﻠﺒﻮﺍﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺃﻻ ﺃﻗﺘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﻴﺮﺓ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻨﻊ ﺗﻤﻮﺟﺎﺕ‬

‫ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ‬
 ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻮﺟﺎﺕ‪،‬ﺃﺣﺒﺒﺖ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻟﺮﻣﻲ ﺣﺠﺮ ﺻﻐﻴﺮ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺒﺐ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻘﻂﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻮﺟﺎﺕ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺨﻨﻘﻨﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻵﻻﻑ ﻭﺍﻵﻻﻑ ﻣﻨﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻳﺴﺤﺒﻮﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺑﻌﺪﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻀﻮء ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﻬﻤﺮﺕﺍﻟﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﺑﺘﻠﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺩﻓﻨﺖ ﺫﻋﺮﻱ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻯﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺗﻮﺳﻼﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻣﺘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻦﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻟﻦ ﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻷﻡ‪ ،‬ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ!" ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻻﺣﺘﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ‪ ،‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻝ ٍﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺭﺉﺘﺎﻱ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺗﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ ﻣﺘﻘﻄﻌﺎً‬
‫ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﻮﻋﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻫﻮ ﺗﺪﻓﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﻫﻮﺍء‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺿﺮﺑﺖ‬
‫ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲﻭﺳﺎﻗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺎﻋﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺃﻏﺮﻕ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺮﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻜﻴﺖﺑﺸﺪﺓ ‪ -‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺟﺴﺪﻳﺎً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴﻴﺰ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻜﺎء ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩ ‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻗﻠﺒﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻳﻦﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ؟ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﻬﺎﺕﻣﻊ ﺑﻨﺎﺗﻬﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﻲﻣﻠﻚﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻄﺢ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﺍﻗﺒﻨﻲ‪ ...‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺩﺕ؟ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻐﺮﻕ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء ﺃﻳﻀﺎً؟‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺴﻮﺍﺩ ﻗﺎﺩﻣﺎً‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻣﺸﻮﺷﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺪﻟﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻌﺪ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﻟﻠﺼﺮﺍﺥ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻧﻄﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ‪" .‬ﺃﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻓﻀﻠﻚ‪"...‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺘﻔﻀﺖﻣﻨﺘﺼﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺑﻤﻼﻳﻴﻦ ﻃﺒﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺬﻳﺮ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻏﺮﻗﺖ ﺻﺮﺧﺎﺗﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﻫﺘﺔﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﺭﺍﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻯ ﻏﻄﺎﺉﻲ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺳﺎﻗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺨﻠﺼﺖ ﻣﻨﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ ﻳﺰﺣﻒ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﺘﺸﺎﺑﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﺻﺮ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻱ ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﺘﺤﺮﻳﺮ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻨﻲﺍﻟﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﻫﺠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺒﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻌﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﺑﻌﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎً‬
‫ﻇﻬﺮﺕﻭﺧﺰﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻫﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ ﻭﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﻘﺎﻓﺔﺍﻟﺼﻴﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﻌﺘﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻢ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺭﻗﻤﺎ ﺳﻴﺊ ﺍﻟﺤﻆ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻌﻨﻴﻪ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻤﺔ"ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺕ"‪.‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪،‬ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ؛‪ ،sƐ‬ﻣﻮﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻧﻄﻘﻬﻢ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻧﻌﻄﺎﻑ ﺍﻟﻨﻐﻤﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻣﺆﻣﻨﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﺨﺮﺍﻓﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺸﻌﺮﻳﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻐﻤﺮﻧﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻴﻘﻆﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻛﻮﺍﺑﻴﺴﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻌﺔ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺍﺳﺘﻴﻘﻈﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎً ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺳﺘﻴﻘﻆ‬
‫ﺩﻭﻥﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻛﺎﺑﻮﺳﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻴﻨﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖﺻﻮﺕ ﺧﻄﻰ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﺭﺳﻤﺖ ﻣﻼﻣﺤﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺐ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺭﺥﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﺘﺢ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﻳﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻞ‪ .‬ﻧﻘﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻧﺐﺑﺪﺍﺧﻠﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻌﺪ ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻬﻚ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﻤﻞ ﻟﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔﻭﺗﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻄﻤﺉﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺣﺘﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺇﺻﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻘﺎﺉﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺳﻮء ﺍﻷﻣﺮ؟" ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﺑﻬﺪﻭء‪ .‬ﻏﺮﻕ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻱ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺛﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻋﻄﺘﻨﻲﻛﻮﺑﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺷﺎﻱ ﺍﻟﺰﻋﺘﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻧﺘﺮﻧﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﺎﻋﺪ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻼﺝ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ‬
‫ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕﻓﻲ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩﻩ ﻟﻲ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺷﻬﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﺎﻋﺪﻧﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻪ ﻛﺎﺑﻮﺳﺎً ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺭﻗﻢ ﻗﻴﺎﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺣﻈﻲ ﻗﺪ ﻧﻔﺪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻑ‪ ".‬ﺍﺭﺗﺠﻔﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﻛﺜﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺉﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻧﺴﻜﺐ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺏ ﻭﺗﻘﻄﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻤﻴﺺ ﺑﺎﻏﺰ ﺑﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻳﺔ‪" .‬‬
‫ﻋﺪﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻳﺎ ﺟﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﻋﺮﺽ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻤﻲ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻳﺪﻫﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺸﺎﺑﻚ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﻴﻘﻆ‪.‬ﻋﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺍﻫﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺪﻣﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺎﻗﺔﺍﻟﺒﺪﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺮﻃﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﻤﻮﺡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻭﻥ ﻣﻼﺑﺲ ﻟﻮﻟﻮﻟﻴﻤﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺮﻛﻀﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺝﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺣﺸﺪﺕ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺿﻌﻴﻔﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﺳﻒ‪ .‬ﺃﻗﺴﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻧﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻋﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻲ‬
‫”‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻜﻠﻔﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺗﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺇﻳﻘﺎﻇﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻋﻦ ﻻ؟ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺖ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ‪ ".‬ﻏﻄﺘﻨﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻋﻨﺎﻕ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻤﺤﺖ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻐﻮﺹ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻀﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺢ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﺎﺩﺗﻨﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﻗﻒﻣﺸﻜﻮﻙ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﻛﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻟﻴﺲ ﻣﺜﻠﻲ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺭﺍﻭﺩﺗﻨﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ ‪ -‬ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﻔﻈﻴﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻴﻮﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺸﻰﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻛﻮﺍﺑﻴﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺫﻛﺮﻳﺎﺕ ﻓﻌﻠﻴﺔ ‪ -‬ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊﺗﺬﻛﺮﻩ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء ﻗﺒﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺿﺒﺎﺑﻴﺎً‪،‬ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﻗﻤﺎﺷﻴﺔ ﻣﻠﻴﺉﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻈﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻓﺘﺔ ﻟﺤﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﻗﺒﻞ "ﺍﻻﻧﻄﻔﺎء"‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﺳﻤﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺠﻮﺓﺑﻴﻦ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺳﻨﻮﺍﺗﻲ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻗﻒ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﺧﻄﺄﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﻟﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﺑﺠﺪ‪ ".‬ﺗﺮﺍﺟﻌﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻭﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻨﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﺍﻡ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻨﻀﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻲ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺿﻐﻄﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻫﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﻋﺪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺮﻛﺾ ﺃﻭ ﺍﺻﻨﻊ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻚ‬
‫ﻣﻮﻛﺎﺑﺎﻟﻜﺮﺍﻣﻴﻞ ﺃﻭ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺧﺪﺷﺖ ﺃﻧﻔﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮﻭﻝ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻓﺘﺮﻗﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﻛﺎﺭﺩﻳﻮ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻭﻗﺖ‬
‫ﻃﻮﻳﻞ‪.‬ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﺸﻐﻴﻞ ﺁﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ‪" .‬ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺃﻓﺴﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻛﻞﺭﺍﺗﺒﻲ ﻓﻲ ‪ ".The Morning Roast‬ﺗﻔﺤﺼﺘﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺛﻨﻴﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺗﺸﻮﻩ ﺟﺒﻴﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻋﻢ‪".‬ﺃﻋﻄﻨﻲ ﺻﺮﺧﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﺩﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻏﺎﺩﺭ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻌﻤﻞﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ‪«.‬‬

‫"" ﻛﺎﻱ‪ .‬ﺃﺣﺒﻚ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺃﺣﺒﻚ ﻳﺎ ﻋﺰﻳﺰﻱ‪ ".‬ﺃﻋﻄﺘﻨﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻋﻨﺎﻗﺎً ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻐﺎﺩﺭ ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺧﻠﻔﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻄﻒﺍﻧﻘﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺟﻌﺖﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺳﺤﺒﺖ ﺍﻷﻏﻄﻴﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺫﻗﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻً ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻣﺠﺪﺩﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻨﻲﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺗﻤﺮﻳﻦ ﻻ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺪﺳﻮﺳﺎً‬
‫ﺗﺤﺖﻟﺤﺎﻓﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻌﺰﻭﻟﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﺩ ﻇﻞ ﻗﺎﺉﻤﺎً ‪ -‬ﺷﺒﺢ‬
‫ﺷﺒﺤﻲﻳﺤﺬﺭﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻤﻀﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﻻ ﻳﺘﻜﺸﻒ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻧﺮﻳﺪﻫﺎ‪.‬‬

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‫"ﺩﻋﻠﻰ'ﺍﻓﻌﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ"‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﻜﺒﺖﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻓﻨﺠﺎﻧﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻨﺪﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻀﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺭﺷﻔﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻬﻞﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺩ‪" .‬ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺳﺒﺐ ﺍﺗﺼﺎﻟﻚ ﺑﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻳﺠﺐ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻊ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﺮﺍء‪ "،‬ﺑﺼﻖ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﺤﻜﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﻴﻮﻁ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺍﻟﻴﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪".‬‬
‫"ﺇﺫﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻣﺨﻄﺉﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺬﻩ ﻟﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺤﻘﻘﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺎﻋﺘﻲ‬
‫‪ .Patek Philippe‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻠﻔﺘﻨﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﻨﻮﻋﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﻻﺫ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻭﻡ ﻟﻠﺼﺪﺃ‪ ،‬ﺫﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻹﺻﺪﺍﺭﺍﻟﻤﺤﺪﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺤﻜﻢ ﺍﻹﻏﻼﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻭﻡ ﻟﻠﻤﺎء‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺒﻠﻎ ﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﺃﻟﻒ ﺩﻭﻻﺭ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻳﺘﻪﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺒﻴﻊ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﺬﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺃﺭﻗﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺷﻬﺮﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻊ ﻋﺸﺮ‪" .‬ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﻟﺠﻠﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﻣﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﻴﺔ‬
‫‪ ".‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﺄﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻼﻧﺎ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﺫﻟﻚ‪" .‬ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‬
‫ﻣﻬﻨﺔﺛﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﺰﺩﻫﺮﺓ ﻛﻌﺎﺯﻑ ﻣﺘﺠﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻘﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺮﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺳﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻳﺔ‪،‬ﺃﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟‬

‫"ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻓﻀﻠﻚ‪ ".‬ﺗﺤﻮﻝ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺳﻞ‪" .‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻃﻔﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺮﻯﺳﺘﺒﺪﺃ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻴﺔ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﻣﻬﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻜﻢ ﺿﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻼ ﺗﺠﺮﻭﻫﻢ ﺃﻭ ﺗﺠﺮﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻮﻇﻔﻴﻨﻲﺇﻟﻴﻪ”‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺿﺪﻙ ﻳﺎ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﺭﺷﻔﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻘﻬﻮﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺸﺮﺏ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻗﻬﻮﺓ ﺍﻹﺳﺒﺮﻳﺴﻮ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺄﺧﺮ ﺧﻮﻓﺎً ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻡﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪" ً.‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻋﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺷﻴﺊ ﺷﺨﺼﻲ‬
‫‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺣﻴﺮﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﻮﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻬﻤﻮﺍ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﻠﻨﺪﺍءﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻋﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻛﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺗﻄﻠﻌﺎﺕ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻷﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺒﺢﻓﺮﻳﺴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻨﺞ ُﺇﻻ ﺍﻷﻗﻮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﺒﻘﺎء ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺬﺍﺉﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪"-‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻌﺒﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎ ًﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻳﺴﺘﺠﺪﻭﻥﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻝ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﻼ‬
‫ﺭﻭﺗﻴﻨﻴﺎﺳﺨﻴﻒ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻘﺎ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻃﺎﺏ ﻣﺴﺎﺅﻙ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﺨﻂ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻧﺪﺍء ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﻠﺮﺣﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻦﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺣﺰﻧﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ‪ -‬ﺃﻭ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ‪ -‬ﺭﺉﻴﺴﺎً ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻳﺎً ﻳﺘﺤﻮﻝ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻣﺘﺴﻮﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺘﺘﻢﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺤﻮﺍﺫ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺍﺉﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺸﺎﺭﻳﻊ ‪ Gruppmann‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻣﺨﻄﻂ ﻟﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﻷﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﺸﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﻴﺪﻗﺎً ﻣﻔﻴﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻄﻂ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮ ﻟﻸﺷﻴﺎء‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺁﺭﺗﺸﺮ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﺗﻄﻮﻳﺮ ﻋﻘﺎﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻏﻀﻮﻥ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦﻋﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﺳﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻜﺜﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻻﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺠﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻹﻟﻜﺘﺮﻭﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻤﻮﻳﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ‪...‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺟﺎﻫﺰﺍً ﻟﻘﺒﻮﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺮﻭﺑﻤﺎﻥ ﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻨﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺔ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺍﻧﻄﻼﻕ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻃﻤﻮﺣﺎﺗﻲ ﺍﻷﻛﺒﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻞ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﻣﻜﺎﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻞﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺟﻪ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺵ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﻰﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﻖ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺑﺘﺴﻮﻳﺔ ﺑﻬﺪﻭء ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪﻣﻦ ﺳﻜﺮﺗﻴﺮﺍﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺎﺕ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﺗﻬﺎﻣﺎﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺤﺮﺵ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺴﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺤﻈﺮ ﺭﻗﻢ ﺃﻧﺪﺭﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺇﺟﺮﺍء ﺟﻴﺪ ﻭﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﺪﻭﻳﻦ ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﺫﻫﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﻄﺮﺩ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺎﻋﺪﻱﻷﻧﻪ ﺳﻤﺢ ﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﺑﺎﻻﻧﺰﻻﻕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻳﺪﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺉﻤﺔﺟﻬﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﺗﺼﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺿﻌﺔ ﻟﺮﻗﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﺸﺪﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺧﻄﺄﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻋﻤﺎﻝﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﺧﻄﺎء‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺪﻭﻟﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺧﺎﻃﺉﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻟﻤﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺉﺘﺔﻣﻦ ﻛﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺸﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻈﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻃﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﺃ‬
 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻫﺬﻩ ﺧﺪﻣﺔ ﻟﻮﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻀﻮ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧﺠﺮﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﺼﻞ ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ "ﺧﺒﺮﺓ ﻋﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ"‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﺖ ﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻨﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻐﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﺄﺗﻌﺎﻣﻞﻣﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ ﻻﺣﻘﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﺎﺩﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻓﻨﺠﺎﻥ ﻗﻬﻮﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻮﺽ ﻭﺗﻮﺟﻬﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫ﻏﺮﻓﺔﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺧﺘﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﺗﻠﻌﺐ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺫﻫﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺗﺄﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﻜﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻴﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﺝ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻋﻴﺪﻣﻴﻼﺩﻱ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﻳﺘﻴﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺍﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻣﺤﺒﻄﺎً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺻﺎﻏﺘﻪ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺣﺰﻳﻨﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ ‪...‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﺑﺄﻋﻴﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﻼﺩ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻻ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﺍﺭﻳﺦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻮﻳﻢ ﻳﺤﺘﻔﻞ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻬﻢﻳﺸﻌﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﺄﻧﻬﻢ ﻣﻤﻴﺰﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﻤﻴﺰﻳﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﻣﻤﻴﺰﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ؟‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﻤﻴﺰﻳﻦ ﻷﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻳﺼﻨﻌﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪﺍﻷﻋﻮﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺬﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺑﺄﻛﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﻭﺳﺘﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﺑﻴﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻼﺟﺰ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻧﻴﻮﺟﻴﺮﺳﻲ‪،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺄﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺎﻧﻖ ﻭﻧﺮﻛﺐ ﺍﻷﻓﻌﻮﺍﻧﻴﺎﺕ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﻘﻴﺄﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻋﺎﻡ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻟﻲﺃﺣﺪﺙ ﺟﻬﺎﺯ ﺑﻼﻱ ﺳﺘﻴﺸﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺣﺴﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻔﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻫﻲﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻛﻞ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﻈﺎﻫﺮﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ "ﻳﺘﺴﻠﻞ" ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻏﺮﻓﺔﻧﻮﻣﻲ ﻣﺮﺗﺪﻳﻴﻦ ﻗﺒﻌﺎﺕ ﻣﺨﺮﻭﻃﻴﺔ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﺔ ﻭﻳﺤﻤﻼﻥ ﻓﻄﻮﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ ‪ -‬ﻓﻄﺎﺉﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺯﺭﻕﺍﻟﻤﻨﻘﻮﻋﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺮﺍﺏ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺵ ﺑﺮﺍﻭﻧﺰ ﻭﻟﺤﻢ ﺍﻟﺨﻨﺰﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﻣﺶ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﺐ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻳﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻹﻓﻄﺎﺭ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ ﺗﺨﺎﻃﺒﻨﻲ ﻭﺗﺼﺮﺥ ﻗﺎﺉﻠﺔ‪" :‬ﻋﻴﺪ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻼﺩﺳﻌﻴﺪ!" ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﺤﻚ ﻭﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺪﻏﺪﻏﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺴﺘﻴﻘﻆ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﻤﺤﻮﺍ ﻟﻲ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺑﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ ﺍﻹﻓﻄﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖﺃﺧﺘﻲ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﻤﺸﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﻀﻢ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺘﺴﻠﻖ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ ﻭﺗﻌﺒﺚ‬
‫ﺑﺸﻌﺮﻱﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺬﻣﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻮﺍﺟﺪ ﻃﻴﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﺤﺎء ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻲ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﺍﻵﻥﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺣﻠﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻣﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺉﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻣﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻄﺎﺉﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﺤﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺪﺩ‪.‬ﻻ ﻣﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻋﻴﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺎﻭﻝﻋﻤﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻯ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﺷﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﺃﺧﺬﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺎﻟﺔ ﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺷﻌﺒﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺣﺪﻕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻓﺬﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﺗﺬﻛﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺤﻠﻴﻞ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻄﺮﻕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﺭﻛﻴﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﻋﻤﻲ‪" :‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﻫﺐ ﻟﻠﻌﺐ"‪" .‬ﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﻋﻴﺪ ﻣﻴﻼﺩﻙ‪ ".‬ﺟﻠﺲ ﻗﺒﺎﻟﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﺟﻞ ﻗﻮﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻴﺔ‪،‬ﺫﻭ ﺷﻌﺮ ﻣﻠﺢ ﻭﻓﻠﻔﻞ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻴﻦ ﺑﻨﻴﺘﻴﻦ ﻓﺎﺗﺤﺘﻴﻦ ﺗﻜﺎﺩ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻄﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﻟﻌﻴﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺭﺟﻼ ًﻭﺳﻴﻤﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻐﺮﻭﺭﺍً‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﺮﻩ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻣﺼﻔﻔﺎً ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻭﻣﻼﺑﺴﻪﻣﻜﻮﻳﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺑﺪﻟﺔ ﺯﺭﻗﺎء ﺣﺎﺩﺓ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻜﺎﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻷﻃﻔﺎﻝ ﺫﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻮﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻬﻜﺔ ﻭﺍﻵﺑﺎء ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺼﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻢﻳﺘﺠﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮﺍﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﻢ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻗﺒﻞ "ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ"‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺸﺎﺟﺮ ﻫﻮ ﻭﺃﺑﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻢ‬
‫ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥﺑﺪﻻً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺮﻛﻨﻲ ﺃﺗﺠﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﺎﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎً ﻣﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻌﺐ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺿﺮﺑﺖ ﻣﻔﺎﺻﻠﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬ﻃﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻃﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻃﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺛﻨﻴﻦ‪.‬ﺛﻼﺛﺔ‪ .‬ﺛﻼﺙ ﻃﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﻧﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺳﻘﻮﻁ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺟﺜﺚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪.‬ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺖﻛﻞ ﻗﻮﺗﻲ ﻹﺧﺮﺍﺝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﻌﻮﺩﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻮﺍ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻨﺬ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺗﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻌﻬﻢ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻂ ﺭﻭﺍﻕ ﻧﺘﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺍﺣﻲ ﻣﻊ ﺳﺠﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺯﺭﻗﺎءﺭﺧﻴﺼﺔ ﻭﺑﻘﻊ ﺣﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺎء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺮﻫﺖ "ﻫﺪﻳﺘﻲ"‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ ﻧﺤﺖ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺣﻴﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺗﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺶ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﻪ ﻛﺴﻼﺡ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ؟" ﺳﺄﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﻢ ﺇﻳﻔﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﻮﻟﺖﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﻟﻤﻘﺎﺑﻠﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻆ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻟﺒﻀﻊ ﺛﻮﺍﻥ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻢﻳﻌﺘﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﻘﺘﻞ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﺼﺮﻓﻮﺍ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ‪ -‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻷﻧﻬﻢ ﻳﺸﻔﻘﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻬﻢﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺨﺎﻓﻮﻥ ﻣﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮﻳﺰﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎء ﺍﻷﺳﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻬﻢ ﺗﺼﺮﺥ ﻓﻴﻬﻢ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻬﺮﺑﻮﺍﻭﻻ ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍء ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺳﺨﻴﻔﺎً‪ ،‬ﺇﺫ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺎﺭ ﻳﺨﺸﻮﻥ ﺻﺒﻴﺎً ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻋﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻵﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺛﻨﻲﻋﺸﺮ ﻋﺎﻣﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﻮﻣﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻟﻠﺨﻮﻑ‪.‬‬

‫ﻷﻧﻪﻓﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻣﺰﻕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻳﺘﻴﻦ ﻭﺃﺟﺒﺮﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺩﻓﻊ ﺛﻤﻦ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺧﺬﻩ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻳﺎ ﻋﻤﻲ"‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻮﺗﻲ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﺴﺠﻞ ﻃﺒﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺤﺔ‬
‫ﻟﺼﺒﻲﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﺑﻌﺪ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡ‪".‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺯﻓﻴﺮﺍً ﺑﺒﻂء‪ ،‬ﺗﺎﺭﻛﺎً ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻯ ﺗﻐﻤﺮﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻫﺪﻓﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺮﺭﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﻋﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻣﻌﺎﻟﺠﺎً ﻟﺒﻀﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﻘﻖ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﺗﻘﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻞ ﻋﻤﻲ ﻳﺴﺘﺒﺪﻟﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﺴﻚ ﺃﺣﺪﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻮﺍﺫﻟﻚ ﻗﻂ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﻟﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﻛﻴﺰﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻮﻭﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺷﺄﻧﻪﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﻴﻖ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎء ﻭﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﺮﻛﻴﺰ ﻃﺎﻗﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺴﺎﻋﻲ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﺇﻳﺠﺎﺑﻴﺔ‪.‬ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺡ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻔﻦ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺡ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﺎﺿﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺣﺖﻋﻠﻴﻬﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺪﻓﻌﻮﺍ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺍﺣﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺗﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻫﺆﻻء ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﻟﺠﻮﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻬﻤﻮﺍ‬

‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦﻳﺮﻳﺪﻟﻠﺸﻔﺎء‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺣﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺰﻑ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻟﻌﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻢﺣﺎﺭﻗﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺆﻭﻝ ﻋﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﻟﻢ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻒ ﺿﻌﻒ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺟﺉﺖﻣﺴﻠﺤﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﻌﺮﻛﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﺍﻟﻤﻜﻴﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺮﺣﺖ ﺷﻌﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻦﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ ﻣﻊ ﺯﻫﻮﺭ ﺍﻷﻗﺤﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮﺍء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﺮﻳﺤﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺳﻮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻇﻬﺮﺕ ﺍﻧﻘﺴﺎﻣﺎً ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺎً ﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺣﺒﻬﺎ ﻟﻴﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ ﺑﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺮﻋﻨﺪﻩ ﻭﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﻱ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻧﻔﺼﻠﻨﺎﻷﻥﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺸﻜﻞﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ .‬ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺡ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺈﻓﺴﺎﺩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﺍء ﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻧﺎً‬
‫ﺃﻭﺁﻳﺲ ﻛﺮﻳﻢ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﻛﻮﻻﺗﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﻌﻨﺎﻉ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺸﺘﺮﻳﻪ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺮﻏﺒﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺭﺓﺍﻟﺸﻬﺮﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻬﺮ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪ ﻟﻦ ﻳﻀﺮ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻓﻴﻠﻢ ﻣﺴﺎﺉﻲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻌﻠﻦ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﺣﺰﻳﻨﺎً ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﺎﻫﺮﺓ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺍﺧﺘﺮﺕﺍﻟﺨﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﻳﺪ ﻟﻸﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺤﺰﻳﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﻤﻠﻮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ‪ .‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ‪.‬‬

‫ﺭﺃﻳﺖﺟﻮﺵ ﻳﺒﻜﻲ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔﺗﻴﺘﺎﻧﻴﻚ‪,‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺍﺩﻋﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔﻭﻫﺪﺩ ﺑﺈﻟﻘﺎء ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﺼﺐ ﻭﺍﺷﻨﻄﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺬﻛﺎﺭﻱ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺕ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ‪ً.‬‬

‫ﻧﻌﻢﺻﺤﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﻋﻘﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻣﻦ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻛﻴﻒ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻟﺠﺎﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺗﻔﻘﺖ ﻣﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺨﺮﻣﻨﻪ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻣﻨﺬﺃﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﻣﺮﺍﻫﻖﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺨﻄﻴﺖ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺗﺤﻔﻈﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺟﻮﺵﺗﻴﺘﺎﻧﻴﻚﻭﺃﺧﺮﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺳﻠﺤﺔﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪:‬ﻧﺰﻫﺔ ﻟﻠﺘﺬﻛﺮ)ﺣﺰﻳﻦ ﻣﻦﺩﻓﺘﺮ ﻣﺬﻛﺮﺍﺕ( ﻭﻣﺎﺭﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻃﺮﻗﺖﺑﺎﺏ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻫﺸﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﻢ ﻓﺘﺤﻪ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺛﺎﻧﻴﺘﻴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺮﺣﺒﺎً‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ "...‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖ‪ .‬ﻳﺤﺪﻕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻳﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺑﺪﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺘﺐ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻼﺑﺲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺭﺳﻤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﻤﻠﻚ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻴﺎً ﻏﻴﺮ ﺭﺳﻤﻲ‪.‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻗﻤﺼﺎﻧﻪ ﺗﻜﻠﻒ ﻣﺉﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﻻﺭﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺗﺪﻯ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﺎً ﺭﻣﺎﺩﻳﺎً ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺎً ﻣﺪﺳﻮﺳﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺑﻨﻄﺎﻝ ﺟﻴﻨﺰ ﺩﺍﻛﻦ ﻭﺳﺘﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺳﻮﺩﺍءﻣﺼﻤﻤﺔ ﺧﺼﻴﺼﺎً ﻣﻦ ‪.Hugo Boss‬‬

‫ﻣﺘﺄﻧﻖﺑﻔﻈﺎﻋﺔ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻴﺲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﺃﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﺑﻚ ﻭﺃﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻚ ﻟﻠﺨﺮﻭﺝ؟" ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﺧﻠﻔﻪ ﻷﺭﻯ ﺇﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻳﻪﺻﺤﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻴﻜﻞ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺳﺪ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺧﻞ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﺮﻙ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺃﻭﺿﺢ ﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻲ؟"‬
‫ﺳﺄﻝﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓﺃﺣﺮﻗﺖ ﺧﺪﻱ‪.‬ﺗﻢ ﺍﻟﻀﺒﻂ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪".‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ‪" .‬ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻚ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ "،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻛﺬﺑﺖ‪" .‬ﻧﻘﺺ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺃﻏﺮﺍﺽ‬
‫ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺔ‪ ".‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ؟ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻮﻗﻔﻨﻲ‪".‬ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ﻗﺒﻴﺤﺔ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪".‬ﺍﻭﻗﻔﻨﻲﺍﻵﻥ‪".‬ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺴﺘﺨﺪﻡﻟﻤﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺃﺓ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪ .‬ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖُﻻﻓﻘﻂ ﻗﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺿﻐﻄﺖﺷﻔﺎﻩ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻌﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﺁﺧﺮ ﻷﻗﺴﻤﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻻ ﻳﻀﺤﻚ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺃﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺣﺔ ﺗﻨﺘﻤﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺣﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻨﻴﺔ ﻟﺠﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﺣﻤﺮ‪".‬‬

‫ﻫﺬﻩﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻤﺴﺖ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻓﻢ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪" .‬ﻟﻺﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﺆﺍﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎﻛﺎﻥﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖﻟﻠﺨﺮﻭﺝ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻱ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺭﻣﺸﺖ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ‪.‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺴﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺴﺒﺐﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻣﺆﺭﺥ‪.‬ﻳﻨﻈﺮﻋﻨﺪﻩ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺩﻟﻴﻼ ًﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻨﺸﺎﻁ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻪﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺣﺼﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﺎء ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺗﻲ ﻳﺮﻣﻴﻦ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻬﻦ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ‬
 ‫ﺃﻳﻨﻤﺎﺫﻫﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻓﺘﺮﺿﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﺪﻣﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻟﻬﻢ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺣﺼﺮﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺑﻮﻇﻴﻔﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻨﻲﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﺟﻴﺮﺍﻧﺎً ﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻬﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻩ ﻳﺤُﻀﺮ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ‪ -‬ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﺮﻑ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﺍﻗﺐ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻴﻒ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻣﻮﺍﻋﺪﺓ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ‪ ...‬ﻏﺮﻳﺒﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺗﻠﻚ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻣﻬﺎ ﻟﻮﺻﻒ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻋﺞ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪،‬ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺟﻌﻞ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ ﻳﺤﻜﻚ ﻭﻧﺒﻀﻲ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﻣﺮﺗﻴﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺁﻩ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺎﻗﻚ ﺇﺫﻥ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺮﺍﺟﻌﺖ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻌﺜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻣﺪ ﻳﺪﻩ ﻟﻴﺜﺒﺘﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﺰ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻗﻔﺰﺓ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﺗﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﻓﺴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺸﺠﻴﻌﻴﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻗﻔﺰﺓ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣﻘﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻹﺭﺑﺎﻛﻲ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‪" .‬ﺳﻮﻑ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺍﻙﻻﺣﻘﺎ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺨﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻳﻤﺴﻚ‬
‫ﺑﺬﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺗﺠﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻟﻤﺴﺘﻪ ﺃﺣﺮﻗﺘﻨﻲ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻢ‪" .‬ﺃﻓﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻼﺝﺍﻟﻜﺘﻒ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﺩ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺠﺎﻫﻠﻪ ﻟﻌﺪﺓ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻗﺘﺤﻢ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺇﻋﺼﺎﺭ ﻣﺘﻌﺠﺮﻑ ﺫﻭ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺧﻀﺮﺍء‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻃﻮﻝ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﺗﻤﺴﻜﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﻐﻀﺒﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻻﻧﺰﻋﺎﺝ ﻣﺮﻫﻘﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻴﺎءﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻷﻗﻀﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺗﻮﺿﻴﺢ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺧﻞ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻋﻮﺍﻗﺐ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻠﺠﺰء ﺍﻻﻛﺒﺮ‪ ".‬ﺿﺎﻗﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻌﺮﺽ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺭﺟﺎﻝ ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﻧﺼﻒ ﻋﺮﺍﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻦ ﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺳﺘﻌﺮﺽ‪ "...‬ﻧﻘﺮﺕ ﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺎﻧﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺁﺧﺮﺭﺟﺎﻝ؟"‬

‫ﺃﺳﻘﻂﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺟﻠﻴﺪﻳﺔ‪" .‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻳﻨﻲ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺁﻓﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞﺃﺯﻋﺠﻚ ﺃﺣﺪ؟" ﺍﺷﺘﺪﺕ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻪ‪" .‬ﻟﻴﺎﻡ؟"‬
 ‫ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻟﺔﻭﺍﺿﺤﺔ ﻟﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺿﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺩﺍﺭ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙﻋﻨﻪ‪" .‬ﻻ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻﺷﺊ‪" .‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻠﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﻗﻀﺎء ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﻌﺎً"‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻮﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺬﺭ ﺃﻗﻞ ﺇﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻠﺸﻔﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﺎً ﻟﺴﺒﺐ‬
‫ﺣﻀﻮﺭﻱﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﺇﻧﺬﺍﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻴﺲ‪ ،‬ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻧﻜﻦ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﺪﺫﺍﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻓﺎﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﻈﺮ‪،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﻭﺭﺍء ﻋﺪﻡ ﺟﻌﻠﻲ ﺟﺎﺳﻮﺳﺎً ﺃﺑﺪﺍًﺃﻭﻣﺤﺎﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﺨﻴﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻣﻞﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﻛﺎﺫﺏ ﺭﻫﻴﺐ‪ ".‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﺄﺛﺮ‪" .‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻲ ﻟﻮﺟﻮﺩﻙ ﻫﻨﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﻫﺮﺍء‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻮﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚﺁﺧﺮﻋﺬﺭ؟ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺇﺧﺒﺎﺭﻩ‬
‫ﺑﺸﺄﻥﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺖ‪":‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻏﻴﺎﺏ ﺟﻮﺵ"‪" .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺴﻜﻊﻣﻊ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻏﺎﺩﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺍً؟" ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻠﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﺆﺍﻝ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﻣﺪﻯ ﻏﺒﺎء ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻖ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺪﻭﺭ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻝﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﻗﺪ ﻻ ﻳﻘﻴﻢ ﺣﻔﻼﺕ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻴﺔ ﻛﻞ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺄﻛﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﺨﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﻣﻊﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﻭﻳﺤﻀﺮ ﺍﻷﻟﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﺎﺿﻴﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﺃﺿﻔﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪" :‬ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺢﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺳﺘﺬﻫﺒﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﻏﺮﺍﻣﻲ"‪" .‬ﻟﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺳﺄﻋﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻲ‪،‬ﻭﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺴﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻗﺪ ﺣﺪﺙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻤﻮﻋﺪﻙ!"‬

‫"ﻗﻒ‪".‬‬
‫ﺗﺠﻤﺪﺕ‪،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﺪﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺴﺎءﻝ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺧﺮﺝ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻠﻘﺎء ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻲءﺍﻟﻤﻀﺤﻚ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺭ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻡﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺘﻮﺳﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﺗﻨﺤﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ‪" .‬ﺍﺩﺧﻞ‪ ".‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟"ﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻙ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺩﻋﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻛﺴﺮﺕ ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻠﺘﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﺎﻣﺘﺔﻟﺘﺄﺗﻲ ﻭﺗﺘﺴﻜﻊ‪ ،‬ﻓﻼﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺧﻄﺄ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺯﺩﻫﺮﺕ ﺑﺬﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺬﻧﺐ ﻟﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﺷﺠﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺟﺬﻋﻬﺎ ﻭﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺿﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻳﺪﻩ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻠﻐﻲ ﺧﻄﻄﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﺭﺓ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻜﻦﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺒﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳﻌﺪﺗﻨﻲ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻳﺬﻫﺐ‬
‫ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺧﻄﻂ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻏﺎﻣﻀﺔ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺘﻤﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻌﺒﻴﺮﺍﺕ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻯ ﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻌﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺒﻲ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻱ ﻣﻮﺭ؟" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﺘﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﻗﺮﺹ ‪ DVD‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻐﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻠﻘﻴﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺗﺸﻐﻴﻞ ﺃﺭﺻﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺒﻖ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺖ ﺃﻣﺘﻠﻚ ﺃﻗﺮﺍﺹ ‪DVD‬‬
‫ﺑﻨﻔﺲﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣﺘﻠﻚ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻛﺘﺒﺎً ﺫﺍﺕ ﻏﻼﻑ ﻭﺭﻗﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﻲء ﺳﺤﺮﻱ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻻﺣﺘﻔﺎﻅ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻨﺎﺻﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺷﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺿﺪ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻱ ﻣﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺤﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻴﻠﻮﺩﺭﺍﻣﺎ‪ ".‬ﺧﻠﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺳﺘﺮﺗﻪ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺘﺪ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻳﻀﺘﻴﻦ‪،‬ﻭﺗﻢ ﻓﻚ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻳﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻮﻳﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺸﻒ ﻋﻦ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺪﺭﻩ ﻭﻋﻈﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻗﻮﺓﺍﻟﻤﺜﻴﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻈﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻗﻮﺓ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺜﻴﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺎ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺫﺍ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺑﺘﻠﻌﺖ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎﻻﻣﻮﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺃﻭ ﻣﻴﻠﻮﺩﺭﺍﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﻭﻣﺎﻧﺴﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻻ ﺗﻤﻮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ؟" ﺗﺬﻣﺮﺕ‪" :‬ﻃﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬

‫ﻹﻓﺴﺎﺩﻫﺎ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﻃﻠﻖ ﻋﻠﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺼﺪﻗﻪ "ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﺎﻫﺪﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬
‫ﻫﻮ‪ -‬ﻫﻲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻞ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ؟"‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪ .‬ﻟﻦ ﻳﺴﻜﺖ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻋﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻇﻬﺮ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺻﻪ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﺳﺎﻗﻪ ﺑﻘﺪﻣﻲ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢ ﻳﺒﺪﺃ‪ ".‬ﺍﻧﻪ ﺗﻨﻬﺪ‪.‬‬

 ‫ﺍﺣﺒﺒﺖﻣﺴﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻠﺘﺬﻛﺮ‪,‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻟﻘﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺧﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ‪ Alex‬ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻣﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﺎﻕ ﺑﻪﺑﻌﺾﻧﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻﺃﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻧﺪﻯ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺣﻔﻞ ﺯﻓﺎﻑ ﺟﻴﻤﻲ ﻭﻻﻧﺪﻭﻥ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻛﻴﻒ ﻻ ﺗﺒﻜﻲ؟" ﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﺢ ﺩﻣﻮﻋﻲ ﺑﻈﻬﺮ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﺎء ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢﺣﺰﻳﻦ ﺟﺪﺍ‪".‬‬

‫"ﺇﻧﻪ ﺧﻴﺎﻝ‪ ".‬ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻢ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪" .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻜﺎء‪".‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺑﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻲ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻄﺮﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﻋﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻮﻟﻮﺟﻴﺔ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻭﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻗﺘﺮﺑﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﻭﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﻛﺘﻔﻴﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦﻣﻦ ﺗﻤﺮﻳﺮ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻋﻀﻼﺗﻪ ﻣﺘﺠﻤﻌﺔ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻟﻤﺴﺘﻲ‪" .‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟" ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ٍﻣﺤﻜﻢ ٍﻭﻣﺴﻴﻄﺮ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻞ؟"‬
‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺑﺤﺚ ﻋﻦ ﻟﻮﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻚ‪ ".‬ﺭﺑﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻩ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻً – ﻭﻓﺸﻠﺖ – ﺃﻻ‬
‫ﺃﻻﺣﻆﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﻁ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻮﺗﺔ ﻟﻌﻀﻼﺗﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﻗﻤﻴﺺ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺗﺨﻴﻠﺖﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺎً‪" .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺭﻭﺑﻮﺗﺎً‪".‬‬

‫ﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖﻭﻫﺠﺎً ﺣﺠﺮﻳﺎً ﺭﺩﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻳﺮﻯ؟ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﺁﻟﻲ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﺘﻌﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺗﺒﺪﻳﻞ‬
‫ﺑﻄﺎﺭﻳﺎﺗﻚﺃﻡ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻹﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﺤﻦ؟" ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺜﺎﺭ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﻋﻮﻙ ﺑـ ‪"—R2-D‬‬

‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﺬﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻭﻟﻔﻨﻲ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺭﻛﺒﺖ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺳﺎﻗﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺩﻣﻲ ﻳﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺫﻧﻲﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺸﺪﺩ ﻗﺒﻀﺘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻌﺼﻤﻲ ‪ -‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻹﻳﺬﺍﺉﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺤﺬﻳﺮﻱﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﺴﺮﻧﻲ ﺑﺴﻬﻮﻟﺔ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻏﻠﻘﺖﺃﻋﻴﻨﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺷﺘﺪ ﺍﻟﺰﺉﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﺗﺤﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﺸﻤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻤﺤﺖ ﺷﺮﺍﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻟﺸﻲءﺃﺭﺳﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﻋﺒﺮ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻟﻌﺒﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ "،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻧﺎﻋﻢ ﻗﺎﺗﻞ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻠﻌﺐ ﻣﻌﻲ ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺮﻳﺪﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺄﺫﻯ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺑﺘﻠﻌﺖ ﺧﻮﻓﻲ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺆﺫﻳﻨﻲ‪".‬‬
‫ﺗﺒﻠﻮﺭﺕﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﺍﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﻣﻀﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ‪" .‬ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻗﻠﻘﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺜﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺃ‬
‫ﻋﻴﺐ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺤﻨﻰ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻡ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺟﺰء ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺻﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﻋﺪﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺗﻜﺎءﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻒ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻀﻮﺭ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻠﻴﺉﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺘﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻟﻸﻋﺼﺎﺏﺑﺄﻥ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻴﺪ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺑﺮﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺘﻈﺮ ﺍﻻﻧﻔﺠﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﺍً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻧﻴﺎً‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﺑﻄﻼ ًﻣﻌﺬﺑﺎ ًﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﺣﺪﺧﻴﺎﻻﺗﻚ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻣﺎﻧﺴﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻳﻚﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻓﻜﺮﺓﻣﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻭﻋﺪﺕ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﻋﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻚ ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺣﻤﺎﻳﺘﻚ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻚ ﻭﻣﻦ ﻗﻠﺒﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺯﻑ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺯﻫﺮﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻭﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺰﻗﺔ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ –‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ؛ ﺍﻟﻐﻀﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺤﺪﺙ‬
‫ﺑﻬﺎﻣﻌﻲ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﺳﺎﺫﺟﺔ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺭﺑﻂ ﺭﺑﺎﻁ ﺣﺬﺍﺉﻬﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺆﺫﻱ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻥﻫﺬﺍ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻞ ﻣﺒﺎﻟﻎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻜﺘﺔ ﺑﺴﻴﻄﺔ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻜﻲ ﻣﺸﺪﻭﺩ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﺳﻒ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻤﺴﺘﻚﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﺫﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺇﻋﻄﺎﺉﻲ ﺧﻄﺎﺑﺎ ً‬
‫ﻛﺎﻣﻼ ًﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩﻙ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﻤﻖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰ"‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﺷﺘﻌﻠﺖﺃﻧﻔﻪ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺃﺣﻤﻖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰ‪ ".‬ﻏﻀﺒﻲ ﺗﻐﻠﺐ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻮﻓﻲ‪" .‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﺍﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺪ ﺳﻮﺍء‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺃﻧﻚ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ "ﺣﻤﺎﻳﺘﻲ" ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻟﺴﺖﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻧﺎﺿﺠﺔ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻻﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺣﻤﻖ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺅﻝ ﻫﻮﺟﻴﺪﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻷﺳﻒ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻳﻌﻴﺸﻮﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﻭﻫﻢ ﻳﺼﺪﻗﻮﻥ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻵﺧﺮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﺬﺍ ﻷﻧﻬﻢ ﺭﺃﻭﺍ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺃ"‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺟﺒﺘﻪ‪":‬ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻳﺮﻭﻥ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ"‪" .‬ﻫﻞ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻧﺎﺱ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ؟ ﻧﻌﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺔ؟ ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﻭﻥ ﻭﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺪﺙﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺭﻛﺰﺕ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺒﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻚ ﺗﻔﻮﺕ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻹﻳﺠﺎﺑﻴﺎﺕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖﺍﻟﻤﻄﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺮﺝ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃﺩﺍﻋﺐ ﺳﺎﻕ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻘﻴﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﺼﺮﺥ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﺼﺪﻣﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﺮﺧﻰ ﻭﺟﻪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻟﻤﺤﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ‪ .‬ﺧﺪﺷﺖ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻌﻪ‬
 ‫ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓﻣﻦ ﻇﻬﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻗﻔﺰ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩﻳﺔ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺻﻦ ﺷﺎﻳﻦ‪ ".‬ﺷﺮﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ؟ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍًﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻘﺼﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻬﺰﺍء‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺷﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺩﻯ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﻬﺪﺉﺔ ﻏﻀﺒﻲ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻧﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺷﻜﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﻢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻨﻲ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺤﺪﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘﺖﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻣﻜﺘﻮﻣﺔ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﻀﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻨﺠﺮﺗﻪ ﻭﻛﺎﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺴﻘﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻣﺔ‪.‬ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻭﻟﻰ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺪﺣﺮﺟﺖﻳﺪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺮﻱ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻟﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ‪،‬ﺗﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﺳﻠﺴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺧﺰ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻘﺎﺑﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻘﻄﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻔﻌﻞ ‪ -‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟ﺟﺤﻴﻢ ﺃﻛﻞ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺖ ‪ -‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ!" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻌﺜﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺩﻓﻌﺘﻪﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻭﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻧﺒﺾ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‪.‬ﻳﺎ ﺇﻟﻬﻲ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؟ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎًﻣﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺑﻘﻌﺔ ﻣﺒﻠﻠﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻨﻄﺎﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﻨﺰ‪.‬‬

‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘﻘﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻮﺑﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﺑﻨﻲ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻛﻬﻔﺎً ﺟﻠﻴﺪﻳﺎً ﻭﺃﺗﻌﻠﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙﺑﺎﻟﺒﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺇﻇﻬﺎﺭ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺎﺯﻟﺒﺮﺝ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺎﺑﻞ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖﺿﺤﻜﺘﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻣﺪﻣﺮﺍً ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻂﺇﻫﺎﻧﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﻳﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺿﺎء ﺑﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺟﻬﻪﻭﺍﻟﺒﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﻮﻝ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺬﻫﻠﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺒﺎ‪.‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺎً ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺒﺘﺴﻢ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﺇﺫﺍﺍﻟﺬﻱ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻜﻞﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ...‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﺮﻱ ﺃﻱ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝ‪":‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻦ ﻗﻠﺒﻚ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺯﻑ"‪" .‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ؟"‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ‪ -‬ﺃﻧﺖ ‪ "-‬ﺍﻧﺲ َﺍﻟﻘﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻮﺑﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺘﻘﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺦ‪ .‬ﻫﺪﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺿﺤﻜﺔﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻣﻴﺾ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﺑﻘﻲ‪" .‬ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻔﻴﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ؟"‬

‫"ﺍﻋﺬﺭﻧﻲ؟"‬
 ‫ﺃﺩﺍﺭﺫﻗﻨﻪ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻗﺮﺹ ‪ DVD‬ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻓﻴﻠﻤﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻲ؟"‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺟﺊ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺃﺻﺎﺑﻨﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺼﺪﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﺘﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙﻋﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻘﻄﺮ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﻘﺒﻀﺖﻓﺨﺬﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﺮﺧﺖ‪:‬ﻣﺎﺭﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‪" ".‬ﺿﻌﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ‪".‬‬

‫ﺿﻌﻬﺎ– ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺹ ‪.DVD‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻹﺧﺮﺍﺝ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﻴﺾ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺛﻨﺎءﺗﺸﻐﻴﻞ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻤﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﺍﻻﻓﺘﺘﺎﺣﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﺴﺖ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻋﻦ ‪ Alex‬ﻗﺪﺭ ﺍﻹﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺖ‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺩﺗﻴﻦﺑﻴﻨﻨﺎ "ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻋﺮﺿﻲ" ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺪﺑﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻞ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ‬
‫ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻪﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﻠﻔﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻛﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚﻻﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﺩ ﺍﻧﺘﺒﻬﺖ ﻟﻠﻔﻴﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺪﻟﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻭﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻪ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻳﻀﻌﻨﻲ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﻖ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﺍﻗﻒ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺜﺎﻝﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ :‬ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺧﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻗﻞ‬
‫ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓﻣﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﻢ ﺑﺘﺠﻬﻴﺰ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻀﻴﻮﻑ ‪ -‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺿﻴﻮﻑ‬
‫ﻗﻂ‪،‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ‪ -‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﻮ ﻳﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ‬
‫ﺃﺣﻀﺮﻫﺎﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺒﻠﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻣﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺮﻛﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺮﺗﺎﺣﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖﺑﺎﺏ ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻲ ﻭﻭﺿﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺘﺤﺮﻙ‪.‬‬

‫ﻇﻠﺖﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻜﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺎً ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻻﺣﻈﻬﺎ‪.‬ﺍﻧﺘﺸﺮ ﺷﻌﺮﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻛﻦ ﺗﺤﺘﻬﺎ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺑﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻳﺮ ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺩ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‬
‫ﻷﻟﺘﻒﺣﻮﻟﻬﺎ ﺑﻘﺒﻀﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺭﺗﻔﻌﺖ ﺗﻨﻮﺭﺗﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻋﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺸﻔﺖ ﻋﻦ ﻓﺨﺬﻫﺎ ﺑﻤﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺑﻮﺻﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺘﻮﺍﺿﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺑﺸﺮﺗﻬﺎ ﺃﻧﻌﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻳﺪﻱﻟﻼﻣﺘﻨﺎﻉ ﻋﻦ ﻟﻤﺴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﺎﺩﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ‪ .‬ﺗﺤﻮﻝ ﺟﻠﺪﻫﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻇﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺃﺩﻟﻴﺖ ﺑﺘﻌﻠﻴﻘﻲ "ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻄﺮ"‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻣﺰﺡ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺯﻑ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺰء ﻣﻨﻲ ‪-‬‬
‫ﺟﺰءﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﺟﺪﺍً ‪ -‬ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺛﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﻛﺒﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﺪﻫﺎ ﻷﻋﻠﻰ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﻮﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻛﺘﺸﻒ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺑﻠﻠﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺭﺃﻳﺖﺍﻟﺸﻬﻮﺓ ﻓﻲ‬
 ‫ﺗﻠﻚﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮﺓ ‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺜﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺑﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ‪...‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻣﺰﻗﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻜﻲّ ﻣﻄﺒﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻏﻮﺏ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺰﺩﺣﻢ‬
‫ﻋﻘﻠﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺃﻋﺰ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻐﻴﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺓ ﻣﺘﻰ ﺃﻭ ﻛﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻛﺄﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻣﺮﺃﺓ‪.‬ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻣﺸﺎﻛﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﻋﻮﻫﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻱ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺩﻟﻴﻦﻛﻤﺎ ﺧﻄﻄﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻫﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ ﺭﻓﻘﺔ ﻣﺎﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺧﺎﺭﺝ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺘﻄﻮﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻼﻗﺔﺟﺴﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﺻﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺣﺘﺴﺎء ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﺬ ﻭﺗﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء ﻗﺒﻞ ﻛﻞ ﺟﻠﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴﺎﺗﻨﺎﺍﻟﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺭﺕ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺃﺓ ﻣﺎﺭﺳﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻧﺠﻤﺔ ﺇﺑﺎﺣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻥﻗﻀﺎء ﻟﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺳﻴﺉﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﺒﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺟﺎﺫﺑﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺟﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺧﺮﻯﻣﺮﻫﻘﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻄﻌﻢ ﻓﺎﺧﺮ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺎﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺗﺘﻈﺎﻫﺮ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ ﺯﻭﺟﻴﻦ ﺃﻣﺎﻡ ﻣﺤﺮﻛﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻫﺰﺍﺯﺍﺕﺍﻟﻌﺎﺻﻤﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺮﻭﻁ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺗﻔﺎﻗﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﺣﺒﺖ ﺭﻣﻮﺯ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ‪ -‬ﺑﺎﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ ًﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺃﻏﻨﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﺍﺏ ﻭﺃﻛﺜﺮﻫﻢ ﺗﺄﻫﻴﻼ ًﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﻄﻘﺔ ‪ ،DMV‬ﻭﻓﻘﺎً ﻟـﻭﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓﺃﺣﺪﺙ ﻣﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻗﺔ— ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﻣﺰﺍً ﻟﻠﺤﺎﻟﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﻫﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺘﻬﺎ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﻣﺘﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺼﻠﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺰﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻉ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻣﺘﺒﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻔﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﺗﻔﺎﻗﻲ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺎﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺍﺗﺼﻠﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻷﺧﺒﺮﻫﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻗﺪ ﻋﺰﺯ ﻗﺮﺍﺭﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﻤﺎﺩﻟﻴﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺣﻖ ﻋﻠﻲ‪ ّ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺑﻌﺾ ﻭﺟﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺎء ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺺ ﺳﺘﻐﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺭﺃﻳﻲ‪،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺨﻄﺉﺔ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺿﻌﻬﺎ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻷﻏﻄﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔﺣﺎﻟﻤﺔ ﻛﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺴﺘﻴﻘﻈﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺣﻮﺍﺟﺒﻬﺎﻣﺮﺳﻮﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻤﻬﺎ ﺿﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﺳﻄﺤﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺪﺕﺃﺿﻊ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺒﻴﻨﻬﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺪﻻًﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﻟﺖ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻲ ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﻳﺖ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﺎً ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻃﻔﺄﺕ ﺍﻟﻀﻮء‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﻌﺪﺕﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻳﻨﺎﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺑﻴﻦﻛﻞ ﺍﻹﻫﺎﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ "ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻞ" ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻣﻨﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺿﻌﺖﻳﺪﻱ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻً ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﻀﻮﺭ ﺍﻷﻧﺜﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻋﻢ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡﻣﺘﺎﺣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻟﻤﻌﺘﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺪﻻ ًﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻠﻴﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻣﺤﺪﺩ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺠﻞ ﻗﺼﺎﺻﺎﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻫﻨﻲ‪،‬ﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻳﺘﺠﻮﻝ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﺤﻠﻮ ﻟﻪ‪.‬‬

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‫"ﺛﻖ ﺑﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺳﻴﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻭﺟﺪ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻳﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺓﺍﻟﻘﺪﻡ‪ ".‬ﻗﻔﺰ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪" .‬ﻛﻮﻧﻲ ﻻﻋﺒﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺭﻱ ﺍﻻﻣﻴﺮﻛﻲ ﻟﻠﻤﺤﺘﺮﻓﻴﻦ ﺑﺪﻻ ً‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩ ﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﻴﺮﻛﻲ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻛﺒﺮ ﺧﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻣﻞ ﻟﻪ‪".‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﺒﻌﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻴﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﺏ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺿﻮﺍﺣﻲ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﻼﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺍً ﻣﺜﻞ ﻗﺼﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺸﺎﺭﻑ ﻓﻴﻼﺩﻟﻔﻴﺎ ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻴﺶﻣﻊ ﻋﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻠﻔﺘﻪ ﻣﻠﻴﻮﻧﺎً ﺃﻭ ﺍﺛﻨﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪ .‬ﺍﺻﻄﻔﺖ ﺳﻴﺎﺟﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺳﻤﻴﻜﺔﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺨﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺧﺸﺐﺍﻟﻤﺎﻫﻮﺟﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻛﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺮﺍﺯ ﺍﻟﺨﺮﻳﻒ ﻣﺰﻳﻦ ﺑﻘﻮﺱ ﺣﺮﻳﺮﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻖ ﻓﻮﻕ‬
‫ﻣﻄﺮﻗﺔﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺤﺎﺳﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺟﻮﺵ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻼﺣﻆ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻲ‪" :‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺟﺢ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺘﻲ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ"‪" .‬ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻳﻜﺮﻩ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻬﺮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺗﺤﺒﻪ‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺧﺘﻪ ﺑﺨﻼﻑ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﻣﻨﺎ ﺑﺒﻀﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖﺗﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻮﻳﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺷﺘﺮﻯ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻣﻴﺮﺍ ‪ DSLR‬ﻣﺴﺘﻌﻤﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻣﻮﻗﻊ ‪ eBay‬ﺑﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻇﻠﺖ ﺗﻘﺪﻡ "ﺗﻠﻤﻴﺤﺎﺕ" ﻋﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺎ ﻋﺒﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺗﻒ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖﺑﻮﺍﻟﺪ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﻭﻻ‪ ً.‬ﺟﻠﺲ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺸﺎﻫﺪ ﻣﺒﺎﺭﺍﺓ ﺭﻋﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺮ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺳﻮﺩﻣﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺟﻮﺵ‬
 ‫ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻊ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺎﻳﻜﻞ ﺃﻗﺼﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺑﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻮﺕ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺩﺗﻴﻦ ﺟﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻃﻮﻝﻣﻦ ﻃﻮﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﻭﺛﻤﺎﻧﻲ ﺑﻮﺻﺎﺕ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻊ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻚ ﺳﻴﺪﻱ‪ ".‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺑﻼ ﺗﺮﺩﺩ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻫﺰﺯﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺷﺨﺮﻣﺎﻳﻜﻞ ﺭﺩﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﻣﺮﻳﻜﻴﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺻﻴﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺚ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻩ ﻭﻟﺪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺎﻳﻜﻞ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻻﺑﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﻮﺫﺟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻃﺎﻟﺐ ﻣﺘﻔﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻖ ﺑﻤﺪﺍﺭﺱ‬
‫ﺭﻓﻴﻌﺔﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﻭﺃﺳﺲ ﺷﺮﻛﺔ ﻧﺎﺟﺤﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻣﺘﻼﻛﻪ ﺷﺮﻛﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻵﺑﺎء ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻨﺘﻬﻮﺍﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻮﻳﺔ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎء ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﻟﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﻛﺮﺍﻧﻴﺎ ﻭﻫﺎﺟﺮ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺍﻟﻮﻻﻳﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺤﺪﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﻫﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺷﺪﺩﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻛﺘﺸﻒ ﺟﻮﺵ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﻟﻼﺣﺘﻔﺎﻝ ﺑﻌﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺸﻜﺮ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻲ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﻬﺘﻢ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﺎﻧﻲ ﻟﻼﺣﺘﻔﺎﻝ ﻣﻊ ﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺗﺸﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺘﻨﺎً‬
‫ﻭﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎًﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺮﻫﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺷﻔﻘﺔ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺟﻮﺵ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‪ -‬ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ".‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ ﺍﻷﻧﺜﻮﻱ ﺧﻠﻔﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺘﺖﻭﻧﻈﺮﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺩﺉﺔ ﺗﻘﻴﻢّ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺃﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊﻗﺼﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻃﻮﻟﻬﺎ ﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﻭﺧﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻗﺪﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔﻣﻊ ﻃﻮﻟﻲ ﺳﺘﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﺸﻔﺘﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻋﻤﻴﺘﻴﻦ ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻖ‪،‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺷﺮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺎﺭﺑﺖ ﻛﺸﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﺸﺮﻗﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﺤﺪ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺃﻫﻼ!ً ﺃﻧﺎ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ ".‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﻋﻘﺪﺕ ﻳﺪﻫﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺪﻗﺖﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﻼﺷﺖ ﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﺒﺪﻟﺖ ﺑﺘﻌﺒﻴﺮ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺮﻳﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵﺑﺪﻓﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺿﻠﻮﻋﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺡ‪ "،‬ﺳﻌﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﻓﻤﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍ ًﺻﺎﻓﺤﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﺣﺴﺎﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺪﻯ‬
‫ﺳﻬﻮﻟﺔﺳﺤﻘﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻫﺬﻩﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﻭﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺮﻗﺔ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺪﻭﻡ ﻳﻮﻣﺎً ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺮﺑﺺﺍﻟﻮﺣﻮﺵ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﻭﻳﺨﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻧﻮﺍﻳﺎﻫﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻠﻤﺔ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺍﻷﻗﻨﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺧﺮﺟﺘﻨﻲﺻﺮﺧﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﻴﺔ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻃﺎﻟﺖ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻝ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻠﻮﻯﺍﻟﺠﺴﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﺎﻭﺭ ﻟﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻟﻢ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻗﻒ!" ﻏﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺭﺥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺁﻓﺎ‪" .‬ﻻ!ﻳﺴﺎﻋﺪ!"ﺑﻌﺪ ﺧﻤﺲ ﺛﻮﺍﻥ‪ ٍ،‬ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﺸﻐﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺼﺒﺎﺡﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻣﺴﺪﺱ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻈﺖ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺑﺴﻼﺡ‬
‫ﻧﺎﺭﻱﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﺜﺒﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺎﻡ ﺃﻣﺎﻥ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺴﺘﻮﻯ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻧﺘﻘﺎﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﻛﻦﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﺘﺴﻠﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﻓﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﻃﻼﻕ ﺇﻧﺬﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢ ﺍﺧﺘﺎﺭﻭﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝﺍﻟﺨﻄﺄ ﻻﻗﺘﺤﺎﻣﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺟﺪ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺃﺭﺟﻮﻙ!" ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﻠﺘﻮﻳﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﺷﺎﺣﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺼﺮﺍﻋﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺮﺉﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﻫﻮ‪ "...‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺧﺘﻨﻘﺖ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﻟﺮﺉﺘﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﺑﻮﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﺮﺧﺎءﻛﺘﻔﻲ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﻌﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺎﺑﻮﺱ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺐ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻷﻗﻮﻳﺎء‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻫﻮﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء‪.‬‬

‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖﺁﻓﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻌﺜﺮ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‪ .‬ﺗﻤﻨﻴﺖ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎ ﻫﻨﺎﻙﻛﺎﻥﺩﺧﻴﻞ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻷﻗﺎﺗﻠﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺇﻳﻘﺎﻇﻬﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻛﺒﺢ ﺟﻤﺎﺣﻬﺎ؛ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﻌﺎﻧﻲ‬
‫ﺷﺨﺺﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺐ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﻲ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﻨﺘﻬﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﺮﻛﺖﻣﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻣﻀﺎء ًﻭﺭﺍﻗﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺳﺘﺆﺫﻱ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﺮﺏ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺮﻫﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﺠﺰ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﻷﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺨﻮﺽ ﻣﻌﺎﺭﻛﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﻧﻴﺎﺑﺔ ًﻋﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﺪﺃﺕ ﺻﺮﺧﺎﺕ ﺁﻓﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﻳﻘﻈﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻕ‬
 ‫ﻭﻫﺬﺍﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﺳﺎﻋﺘﻴﻦ ﺃﻭ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻏﺎﻟﺒﺎًﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺿﻄﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺧﺬ ﻗﻴﻠﻮﻟﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﺭ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﺘﺤﺖﺟﻬﺎﺯ ﺍﻟﻜﻤﺒﻴﻮﺗﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻤﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﺟﻊ ﻣﺴﺘﻨﺪﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﻳﺪﺓ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺭﻥ ﻫﺎﺗﻔﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵ‪:‬ﻳﻮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻠﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪:‬ﻭﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ؟ ﺟﻮﺵ‪ :‬ﺗﺮﻓﻴﻪ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪:‬ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻗﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻚ‪ .‬ﺟﻮﺵ‪ :‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻳﻘﻈﺖ‬
‫ﺯﻣﻴﻠﺘﻲﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺷﺨﺮﺕ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋﺎﻝ‪ ٍ.‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍء ﻣﻼﺑﺲ ﻗﺮﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮﻙﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﻟﻮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪:‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﺯﻱ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻋﻔﻮﺍ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪:‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺣﻤﺎﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﺟﻮﺵ‪:‬ﻳﺎ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻤﺜﻞ ﻛﻮﻣﻴﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﺘﺮﻙ ﻋﻤﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﺟﻮﺵ‪ :‬ﻣﻼﺣﻈﺔ‪ :‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ؟ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺑﺘﺰﺍﺯﻙ ﺑﺼﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻭﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺎ‪:‬ﻻ ﺗﺨﺒﺮ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ًﺃﻧﻚ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﺑﺘﺰﺍﺯﻩ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻻﺑﺘﺰﺍﺯ ﺃﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﺵ ﻧﻤﺰﺡ ﻭﻧﺘﺒﺎﺩﻝ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﺍء‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺁﻓﺎ ﺗﻨﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎﻣﺪﻓﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻭﺳﺎﺩﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻲء ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺷﻌﻮﺭﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻧﺐ ﺷﻖ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻪ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺃﻣﺮ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﻟﻠﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻋﺒﺜﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻼﻭﺓﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻣﻊ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺃﻋﺰ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﺳﻮﺃ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ ...‬ﺃﻭ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻴﺲﻋﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﺗﺴﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺱﺷﻲء ﻟﺬﻳﺬ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﺤﺔ‪,‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺍﺑﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺮﺍﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎﻣﻄﻠﻮﺏ‬

‫ﺃﻥﺃﻟﻔﻪ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻛﺎﻟﺒﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺤﺎﺿﻨﺖﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺪﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺘﻌﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺪﻑء ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻱ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻮﻱ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺧﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﺭﻏﺐﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻴﻘﺎﻅ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺗﻄﻮﻉ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻠﺠﺄ ﻣﺤﻠﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕﺍﻷﻟﻴﻔﺔ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﻧﻮﺑﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﺽ‪.‬‬

‫ﺳﻤﺤﺖﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺇﺿﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ – ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻱ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻴﻦ– ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﺘﺢ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﺗﺜﺎءﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﻏﺮﻳﺐ‪.‬ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻲ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺻﻮﺭ ﻓﻮﺗﻮﻏﺮﺍﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻄﺒﻮﻋﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺪﺭﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺗﻮﺟﺪﻣﺰﻫﺮﻳﺔ ﻟﻌﺒﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺗﺤﺮﻙ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻘﺎء ﻧﻔﺴﻪ؟‬

‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﻣﺜﺒﺘﺘﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺴﺎﺣﺔ ﻭﺍﺳﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﺪ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻱ ﺗﺤﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻘﻄﺖ‬

‫ﻣﻌﺪﺗﻲ‪.‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻟﻸﻋﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺯﻭﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﻀﺮﺍء ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﺣﺪﻗﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺇﺷﺎﺭﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺎﻫﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺮﻙﻧﻈﺮﻩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺳﻔﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺎﺑﻌﺘﻪ‪ ...‬ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ‪ ،‬ﻣﻤﺎ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺭﻋﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻤﺲﻗﻀﻴﺐ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﻋﻦ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻗﺼﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﻌﺮﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺎﻛﻨﺖ‪ .‬ﻣﺆﺛﺮ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﻗﻀﻴﺐ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‬

‫ﺻﻌﺒﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﻏﺴﻠﺖﺍﻹﻫﺎﻧﺔ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﺟﺔ ﻣﺪ ﻭﺟﺰﺭ‪.‬ﺣﺮﻙ ﻳﺪﻙ‪ .‬ﺣﺮﻛﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ!ﺻﺮﺥ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ‬
 ‫ﻓﻌﻠﺖﺣﻘﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﻣﺘﺠﻤﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻣﺸﻠﻮﻻً ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻣﺔ ﻭﺍﻹﺫﻻﻝ ﻭﺷﻲء ﺁﺧﺮ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻡﺫﻛﺮﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﻣﺾﺻﻮﺭﺓ ﻣﺨﺘﺼﺮﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻫﻨﻲ ﻟﻤﺎ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺰﻣﻪ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺳﺮﻭﺍﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱﺷﻌﻮﺭ ‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺼﻮﺩ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺭﻳﺔ ‪ -‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﺳﻴﻨﺎﻓﺲ ﺃﻱ ﻧﺠﻢ ﺇﺑﺎﺣﻲ ﺫﻛﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﻬﺪﻭء‪" :‬ﻣﻦ ﻓﻀﻠﻚ ﺃﺯﻝ ﻳﺪﻙ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻀﻴﺒﻲ ﺇﻻ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺨﻄﻂ ﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﺑﻬﺎ"‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍًﺃﺑﻌﺪﺕ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﻭﺭﺟﻌﺖ ﻣﺴﺮﻋﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻳﻨﺒﺾ ﺑﺈﻳﻘﺎﻉ ﺟﺎﻣﺢ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻫﻲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺪﺙ؟ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺍﻧﺎ ﻫﻨﺎ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻧﺤﻦ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧﺖ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫‪"-‬ﺃﺷﺮﺕ ﺑﻴﻨﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﻳﻀﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻗﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺎﺇﻟﻬﻲ‪ ،‬ﺟﻮﺵ ﺳﻴﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺇﻟﻘﺎء ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻡ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻧﻤﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻷﺧﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻑ!‬

‫"ﻳﺴﺘﺮﻳﺢ‪ ".‬ﻧﻬﺾ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﺭﺷﻴﻘﺎً ﻭﺭﺷﻴﻘﺎً ﻛﺎﻟﻨﻤﺮ‪ .‬ﺗﺪﻓﻘﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‬
‫ﻋﺒﺮﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﻭﺃﺿﺎءﺕ ﺇﻃﺎﺭﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﺻﺪﺭﻩ ﻭﺑﻄﻨﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺤﻮﺗﻴﻦ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻲ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻭﻫﺞﺷﺎﺣﺐ‪" .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻤﺖ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﻴﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﺐ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء ﺗﻤﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺗﻚ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻫﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻟﺬﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ‪"...‬‬
‫"ﺍﻟﻠﻌﻨﺔ؟ ﻻ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻳﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺪ ﻟﻠﻪ‪ ".‬ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺒﻬﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺿﻌﺖ ﺑﻠﺴﻤﺎً ﺑﺎﺭﺩﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻨﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺭﺓ‪" .‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺎً‪".‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺑﺠﻔﺎﻑ‪" :‬ﺳﺄﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻻ ﺃﺳﻲء ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻨﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﻮﺵ‬
‫ﺳﻴﻘﺘﻠﻨﺎ‪،‬ﻭﻳﻌﻴﺪﻧﺎ ﻟﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻳﻘﺘﻠﻨﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡﻣﻌﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻠﺘﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻟﺘﻴﻦ‪.‬ﻛﺬﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﺲ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﺰﻋﺞ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻓﻌﺘﻪ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺖﻟﺴﺖ ﻧﻮﻋﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﻀﻞ‪".‬‬

‫ﺿﺎﻗﺖﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪" .‬ﻻ؟ ﺛﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺼﻠﻲ ﻳﻘﻮﻝﻳﻜﻮﻥﻧﻮﻋﻚ؟"‬

 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﺒﻜﺮﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ‪" .‬ﺃﻡ ‪ "...‬ﺳﺎﺭﻋﺖ ﻟﻠﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﺁﻣﻨﺔ‪" .‬ﺇﻳﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻣﺮﻫﺎﻟﺪﺭ؟"‬
‫ﺃﻃﻠﻖﺷﺨﻴﺮﺍً ﺳﺎﺧﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﺗﻤﺘﻢ ﻗﺎﺉﻼ‪" ً:‬ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺼﺎﺹ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﺎء ﺍﻟﻼﻣﻊ"‪" .‬ﺃﺧﺒﺎﺭ ﻋﺎﺟﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺻﻦﺷﺎﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻭﺇﻳﺎﻥ ﻟﻦ ﻳﺤﺪﺛﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﺃﻏﻤﻀﺖﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﺮﺝ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺍﻧﻌﻜﺎﺳﻲ ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺁﺓ‪.‬ﻓﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﻣﺘﺠﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌﺮ ﻣﺘﺸﺎﺑﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺠﺎﻋﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺧﻄﺎً‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻠﻌﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻘﺸﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﺷﻔﺘﻲ؟ ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻦ ﺃﻓﻮﺯ ﺑﻤﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺟﻤﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ‬
‫ﻗﺮﻳﺐ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﺑﺘﻦ ﺃﻭﺑﻔﻴﻮﺱ‪ "،‬ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺴﺢ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺎﺏ ﻋﻦ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﺑﺘﻜﺘﻢ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻳﺴﺤﺐ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﺎً ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﻧﻮﻣﻪ ﻣﺘﻨﺎﺛﺮﺓ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻴﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺘﻮﻱﺇﻻ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﻀﺨﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻨﻀﺪﺓ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﻨﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻣﻼﺑﺲ ﺗﺰﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ‪".‬ﻻ ﺗﺠﻌﻞ ﺳﺮﺍﻭﻳﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻠﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻄﻮﺭ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻚ ﺃﻳﻀﺎ‪ً،‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ؟ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ‪ "...‬ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﺣﺎﺟﺒﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺿﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺮﻭﺍﻟﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺭﻋﺸﺔ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؟ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻠﻌﺐ ﺍﺛﻨﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﺒﺔ‪" .‬ﻻ ﺗﻘﺮﺃ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪﺧﺸﺐ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﺭﺟﻞ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ".‬ﻣﺮﺭ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻳﺪﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻌﺮﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺒﻊﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺎً ﺑﻌﺪ ﻧﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ‪" .‬ﻭﺳﺮﺍﻭﻳﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺧﻠﻴﺔ ﻫﻲﻻﻓﻲ ﺗﻄﻮﺭ‪".‬‬

‫ﻏﻨﻴﺖ‪":‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﻠﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ"‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﻣﻨﺎﺩﺍﺗﻲ ﺑﺄﺷﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ‪" ".‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ؟"‬

‫"ﻷﻧﻪ ﻟﻴﺲ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ‪" ".‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻠﻢ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻟﻘﺐ‬

‫‪".‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﺎ ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎ‪" .‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﻻ ﻧﻌﺮﻑ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺟﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﺤﺼﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻷﻟﻘﺎﺏ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺮﻓﻨﺎ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺛﻤﺎﻧﻲ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻉ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻗﺎﺕ! ﺑﺎﻹﺿﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻚﺗﺴﺨﺮ ﻣﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻘﻠﺐ ﻳﻨﺰﻑ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﻓﻊﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺟﺐ‪" .‬ﺗﻨﻮﺭﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻗﺔﻳﻔﻌﻞﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ؟"‬

‫ﻛﻨﺎﻧﺴﻴﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺭﺽ ﺧﻄﺮﺓ‪" .‬ﻧﺤﻦ ﺟﻴﺮﺍﻥ‪ .‬ﻣﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﻭﺩﻳﺔ‪ ".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺟﻬﺪﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻟﻠﻤﺰﻳﺪ‬
 ‫ﻷﻥﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻭﻁ ﻻ ﺗﺒﺪﻭ ﺻﺤﻴﺤﺔ‪" .‬ﺭﻓﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎ؟"‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﻏﻠﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﺑﻴﻨﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﺑﺘﻠﻌﺖ‪ ُ،‬ﻣﺘﻤﺴﻜﺎً ﺑﻤﻜﺎﻧﻲ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻛﺾ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻨﺎﻡﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻣﻊ ﻣﻌﺎﺭﻓﻚ؟" ﺳﺄﻝ ﺑﻬﺪﻭء‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦﺑﺴﺄﻝﺃﻥ ﺗﻨﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻣﻌﻚ‪ ".‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺃﻻ ﺃﺣﺪﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺳﻔﻞﺧﺼﺮﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺐ ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺗﺼﻠﺒﺖ ﺣﻠﻤﺎﺗﻲ ﻭﺍﺻﻄﺪﻣﺖ ﺑﺤﻤﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪،‬ﻭﺍﺣﻤﺮ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻹﺛﺎﺭﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺎﺫﺍﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺠﺤﻴﻢ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪،‬ﻻﺟﻞ ﺑﻴﺖ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺍﻟﺪﺟﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻷﺣﻤﻖ‪.‬ﺍﻻﻧﺴﺎﻥ ﺍﻻﻟﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎءﺃﻥ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺬﻛﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺩﻓﻌﻪ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻭﺃﻧﻬﻲ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺗﻪ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻦ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻗﺼﺪ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺳﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬‬

‫ﺭﻗﻢﺍﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻣﻌﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﻨﺎﻡ ﻣﻊ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ‪ ،‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻀﻰ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺣﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ‪-‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺐ‪ .‬ﻣﺘﻄﻮﻉ‪" .‬ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻟﻴﻔﺔ‪ "،‬ﺗﻠﻌﺜﻤﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻌﺮﺑﺄﻱ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻲ‪" .‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍً ﻟﻠﺴﻤﺎﺡ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺒﻘﺎء ﻟﻺﺷﺮﺍﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ!"‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻐﻠﺒﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﻊ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝ ﻭﺭﻛﻀﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺩﺵ ﺑﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﺳﺮﻉ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻤﻜﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔﺍﻟﺤﺰﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ‪ :‬ﻓﺸﻞ‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖﻟﻤﺴﺖﺩﻳﻚ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ؟"ﺍﺗﺴﻌﺖ ﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" .‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﻚ ﺑﻬﺎ؟"‬

‫"ﺻﻪ!"ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﺴﺘﻤﻊ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﻴﻦﺟﺪﺍً ﺑﻮﺍﺟﺒﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻨﺘﺒﻬﻮﺍ ﺇﻟﻴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻄﻮﻋﺖ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺠﺄ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻢﻳﺮﻣﺶ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﻇﻔﻮﻥ ﺑﻌﻴﻨﻬﻢ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﻣﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺳﻄﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻄﻮﻋﻴﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪﻳﻦﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺟﺎءﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﻨﺎء ًﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻜﺔ‪" .‬ﻣﻦ ﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺐﻟﻸﻣﻴﺮﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺩﻳﻚ‪".‬‬
 ‫ﺧﺎﺻﺔﻓﻲ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺮ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺗﻢ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩﻩ‬
‫ﻟﻤﻨﺎﻗﺸﺔﺍﻟﺤﻔﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺧﺮﺓ ﻭﻣﺎﺱ ﻫﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﻳﻨﺴﺘﻮﻥ‪،‬ﻻﺍﻷﻋﻀﺎء ﺍﻟﺘﻨﺎﺳﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻠﺖ ﺃﺷﻴﺎء ﺃﺳﻮﺃ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻳﻚ‪".‬‬

‫ﻛﺸﺨﺺﻛﺎﻥ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎً ﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻣﺮﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺧﺎﻃﺉﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻟﺬﺍ؟" ﻃﻠﺒﺖ‪" .‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺳﻚ ﺑﻬﺎ؟"‬
‫"ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﻀﻴﺐ‪ .‬ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻭﺻﻌﺒﺔ ‪-‬ﻻ‪ .‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻴﺲﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻗﻂ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻧﻘﻮﻡ ﺑﺘﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﻭﺗﻌﻘﻴﻢ ﺍﻷﻗﻔﺎﺹ ﻓﻲ ‪،Wags and Whiskers‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻮﻣﻠﺠﺄ ﻹﻧﻘﺎﺫ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻟﻴﻔﺔ ﻳﻘﻊ ﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻣﻌﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً‬
‫ﺿﺨﻤﺎًﻓﻲ ﻣﺠﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻄﻮﻉ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺍﻓﻘﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻟﺪﻱﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﺳﺘﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﺗﻌﺎﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ‪ ،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﺑﻘﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺠﺄ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻃﻔﻞ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﺄﺗﻲ ﻣﺮﺗﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﺳﺒﻮﻉ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻔﺸﻞ‪،‬ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ ﺫﻋﺮ ﺑﻮﺙ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺘﻤﺖﺍﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺘﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﻗﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﻴﺔ ﺫﻭ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ ﻭﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻳﻨﻈﺮﺑﻌﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﺒﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺒﻐﺎء‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﻤﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ‪Wags and Whiskers‬‬
‫ﺗﺴﺘﻘﺒﻞﺟﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﻮﺍﻉ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻮﺍﻧﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻴﺲ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﻂ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻗﺴﻢ ﺻﻐﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻪﻗﻮﻱ ﻟﻠﻄﻴﻮﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﺑﻮﺙ ﺧﺎﺉﻔﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻴﻮﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍﺗﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺠﺒﻬﺎ؛ ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﻳﺬﻛﺮﻭﻧﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﺉﺮﺍﻥﺍﻟﻄﺎﺉﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼﻗﺔ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻫﻤﻢ‪ ".‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻣﺤﺒﻄﺔ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺠﺎﺑﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪" .‬ﻭﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡﻟﻲﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻪﺣﺰﻳﻨﺎً ﺣﻘﺎً؟ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻕ؟"‬

‫"ﻻ‪ ".‬ﺃﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﻳﺪﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻔﺼﻲ ﻭﺃﻟﻘﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻤﻼﺕ‪" .‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻤﺖ‬
‫ﻗﺒﻞﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔﻣﺎﺭﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ‪,‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﺃﺷﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺑﻜﻰ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻴﻞ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻤﻠﻞﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻫﺪﺓﻛﻼﻫﻤﺎﺃﻓﻼﻡ‪ ".‬ﺭﻓﻌﺖ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺣﺎﺟﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺷﻘﺮ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺜﺎﻟﻲ‪".‬ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺧﻴﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻪ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﻄﺮﺩ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺿﺮﺑﺎﺕﺍﻟﻘﻠﺐ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻋﺒﺲ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻛﻠﻤﺎﺗﻬﺎ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻟﻄﻒ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺧﺖ ﺟﻮﺵ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻳﻤﻴﻦ‪ ".‬ﺃﻃﻠﻘﺖ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻧﺎﻋﻤﺔ‪" .‬ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ؟"‬

‫ﺁﻩ‪،‬ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ‪ OE‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺳﻤﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻌﻨﺔ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻻﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ"‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﺩﻧﻰ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺃﺳﻬﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻟﺪﻱ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎء ﺗﺜﻴﺮ ﺍﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺳﺄﺩﻓﻊ ﺃﻣﻮﺍﻻ ًﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﻷﺭﻯ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺿﺎﺣﻜﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺑﻮﺙ‪" .‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖﺑﺨﻴﺮ ﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﺙ؟"‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ ﺳﻤﻮﻛﻢ‪ ".‬ﺗﺠﻬﻢ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺻﺮﺥ ﺍﻟﺒﺒﻐﺎء‪" ،‬ﺃﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ! ﺍﺿﺮﺑﻨﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺳﻴﺪﻱ!«‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﻟﻠﻄﺎﺉﺮ‪" :‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺴﺖ ﺳﻴﺪﻙ"‪" .‬ﻳﺒﺘﻌﺪ‪ ".‬ﺭﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﺒﻐﺎء ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻭﻧﻔﺾ ﺭﻳﺸﻪ ﺑﻐﻀﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺎﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺒﺒﻐﺎء ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﻢ ﻧﺸﻴﻄﺎً‬
‫ﺟﻨﺴﻴﺎً‪...‬ﻭﻏﺮﻳﺐ ﺍﻷﻃﻮﺍﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻓﻮﺭﺍﻧﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻫﺎﺩﺉﺎ ًﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ ﺑﺨﻄﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺳﺄﺷﺘﺎﻕ ﺇﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﺗﻨﻬﺪﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" .‬ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺣﺎﺭﺳﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﺑﺮﻭﺡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻋﺎﺑﺔ‪".‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔﺖﻋﻦ ﺗﻨﻈﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻘﻔﺺ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﺑﻮﺙ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺳﺘﺘﺮﻛﻨﺎ؟"‬

‫ﺧﺪﺵﺑﻮﺙ ﻣﺆﺧﺮﺓ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﺧﺠﻮﻻً‪" .‬ﺯﻭﺟﺘﻲ ﺳﺘﻠﺪ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎ‪ ً،‬ﻟﺬﺍ ﺳﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺟﺎﺯﺓ ﺃﺑﻮﺓ‬
‫‪".‬‬
‫"ﺗﻬﺎﻧﻲ‪ ".‬ﻭﺍﺑﺘﺴﻤﺖ ﺭﻏﻢ ﺣﺰﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﻇﻔﺎً ﻟﺪﻯ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻗﺒﻠﻨﺎﻩ‬
‫ﻛﻌﻀﻮﻓﺨﺮﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺘﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻘﺬﻧﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺍﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﻭﻏﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺪﻡﻟﻨﺎ ﻧﺼﺎﺉﺢ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪" .‬ﺳﻨﻔﺘﻘﺪﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺜﻴﺮ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ!"‬

‫ﺍﺣﻤﺮﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺴﺮﻭﺭ‪" .‬ﺷﻜﺮﺍ ًﻟﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺁﻧﺴﺔ ﺁﻓﺎ‪".‬‬

 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺆﺩﺑﺎً ﺑﻼ ﻛﻠﻞ ﻭﺃﺻﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻨﺎﺩﺍﺗﻲ ﺑـ "ﻣﻠﻜﺔ ﺟﻤﺎﻝ" ﺑﻐﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ ﻋﺪﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺍﺕﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻪ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺍﺳﻤﻲ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﻓﻘﻂ‪.‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" :‬ﺳﻨﻘﻴﻢ ﻟﻚ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﻉ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻳﺤﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ"‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻚﺗﺤﻤﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪".‬‬

‫ﺗﻌﻤﻘﺖﺍﺣﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﺑﻮﺙ‪" .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻟﻴﺲ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﻳﺎ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺎﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﻮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺩﻭﺍﻋﻲ‬
‫ﺳﺮﻭﺭﻱﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺪﻡ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﻚ‪«.‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻴﺾﻋﻴﻮﻥ ﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ‪" .‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻚ ﺗﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪.‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ‪".‬‬
‫ﻗﺒﻞﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﻔﺠﺮ ﺑﻮﺙ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺗﺤﻮﻟﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺿﻔﺖ‪" :‬ﺳﻨﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺮﺍﺯ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺒﻐﺎء"‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺨﺮﻃﻨﺎﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻫﺰ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺭﺱ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺑﺎﺑﺘﺴﺎﻣﺔ‬
‫ﻧﺼﻒﻣﺴﺘﺴﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﻧﺼﻒ ﻣﺤﺮﺟﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺫﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺎ ًﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎ ًﻹﺑﻌﺎﺩ ﺗﻔﻜﻴﺮﻱ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‪.‬‬

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‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﺣﻀﺮﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﻟﻠﺘﺮﺣﻴﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ‪ ".‬ﺣﺪﻕ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
‫"ﻫﺬﻩ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺗﺮﺣﻴﺐ‪ ".‬ﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ‪" .‬ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺟﺮﺑﺖ ﻭﺻﻔﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺭﺃﻳﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺻﺪﺭ ﺿﺠﻴﺠﺎً ﺑﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺮ‪" .‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻟﻬﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻜﺎﻟﻤﺔ ﺟﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻧﺼﻒﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻟﻦ ﻳﺴﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪ ".‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﺘﺰﻭﻳﺮ ﺩﻋﻮﺓ‬
‫ﺩﺍﺧﻞﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪،‬ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ‪ .OE‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺫﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲﻣﻮﻗﻔﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﺒﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺷﻴﺉﺎً ﻋﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﻟﻮ ﻧﺴﻴﻨﺎ ﺃﻣﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻮﻳﺎﺕ ﺑﺮﻳﺒﺔ‪" .‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﻜﻬﺔ؟"‬

‫ﺍﻟﻬﻠﻴﻮﻥﻭﺍﻟﺰﺑﻴﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻮﻡ ﻫﺶ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺧﺘﺮﺕ ﻣﺰﻳﺞ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﻮﻧﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﺇﺛﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻼﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲء‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻻﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮ ﺟﺰء ﻣﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻮءﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻄﻴﻔﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺷﺎﻫﺪﻧﺎ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡ ﻭﺃﻟﻐﻰ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻩ ﻣﻌﻲ؛‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻵﺧﺮ ﻣﻨﺰﻋﺠﺎً ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﻌﺎﻣﻞ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺃﻭﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺨﺸﻰﺍﻟﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻲ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺨﺸﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﻭﻳﻘﺘﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻗﻤﺖﺑﺘﻄﻬﻴﺮ ﺣﻠﻘﻲ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ‪".‬‬
‫ﺩﺳﺴﺖﻳﺪﻱ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻓﺨﺬﻱ ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻘﺪﻣﻲ ﺗﺮﺗﺠﻒ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺣﻀﺮ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻠﻒ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻓﻤﻪ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻮﺟﻪ ﻧﺤﻮﻩ ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺟﺘﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻀﻮﻝﺣﻮﻝ ﻛﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻫﻞﺳﻴﺒﺼﻘﻬﺎ؟ ﺃﺳﻜﺖ؟ ﺭﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻌﻜﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻲ ﻭﻃﺮﺩﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ؟‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻳﻤﻀﻎ ﺑﺒﻂء‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﻬﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻜﺸﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺣﺴﻨﺎً؟ ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ؟" ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﻘﻨﺖ ﺣﻤﺎﺳﺎً ﻣﺰﻳﻔﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺻﻮﺗﻲ‪" .‬ﺟﻴﺪ؟"‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﺒﺰﺕ ﻫﺬﻩ‪ ".‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﺳﺆﺍﻻ‪" .‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪".‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺧﺒﺰﺕ ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻜﻮﻳﺖ ﺍﻷﺣﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻤﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺒﺰﺕ‪ ...‬ﻫﺬﻩ‪".‬‬

‫ﺍﺧﺘﻔﺖﺷﻔﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻴﺔ ﺧﻠﻒ ﺃﺳﻨﺎﻧﻲ‪" .‬ﺁﻩ‪ ".‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ‬
‫ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺎًﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺬﺏ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻈﻴﻌﺎً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻔﺎﻅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺟﻪ ﻣﺴﺘﻘﻴﻢ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺍﻧﻬﻢ ﺑﺨﻴﺮ‪".‬‬
‫ﻗﻄﻌﺖﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪" .‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ؟" ﻣﻠﻔﺎﺕ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻒ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺟﻴﺪﺓ؛ ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺇﺟﻤﺎﻟﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺟﺮﺑﺖﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﺑﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻭﺗﻘﻴﺄﺕ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻬﻠﻴﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺜﻮﻡ ﻫﺶﻻﻣﺰﺝ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻀﻎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺑﺘﻠﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻔﺾ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺮﺭ‪" :‬ﺇﻧﻬﻢ ﺑﺨﻴﺮ"‪" .‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ‪،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺳﻤﺤﺖ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻜﺎﻟﻤﺔ ﻷﺭﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺮﻛﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻏﺮ ﺍﻟﻔﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄﺖﻛﻌﻜﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﺔ ﻭﻗﻀﻤﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ‪...‬‬

‫ﺑﻠﻴﺘﺶ!ﻛﻤﻤﺖ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻭﺭﻛﻀﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻄﺒﺦ ﻷﺑﺼﻖ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺷﻄﻔﺖ ﻓﻤﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺎء‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺤﻮﺽ ﻟﻤﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻖ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺑﺮﺍﻋﻢ ﺗﺬﻭﻕ ﻣﻌﻄﻮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻷﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻋﺎﺩﻱ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺒﺘﻠﻊﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺒﺴﻜﻮﻳﺖ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺠﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﻮﺻﻠﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻨﺘﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻄﻘﻲ‪" .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﺭﻭﺑﻮﺕ‪".‬‬

 ‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔﺍﻻﺷﻤﺉﺰﺍﺯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ‪ :‬ﻓﺸﻞ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻃﻔﺔﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪:‬ﻣﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺳﻌﺪﺍء؟‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺻﺎﺑﻨﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺆﺍﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺳﺒﻘﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻟﺜﺔ ﻣﻦ ‪ .OE‬ﻣﻌﻈﻢ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎءﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺄﻧﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺟﺎﻝ ﺳﻌﺪﺍء ﻻ ﺗﻨﻄﺒﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺃﻭ ﻭﺿﻌﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺎﻝ؟ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻨﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﺿﺎﺍﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﻲ؟ ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺣﻴﺎﻝ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻗﻀﺎء ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء؟ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻮﺵﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪﺍً ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊﺑﺼﺤﺒﺔ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺱ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ؟ﻟﻢ ﺃﻣﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻣﻌﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﺠﺮﺑﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻭ ﻷﻱ ﺳﺒﺐ ﺁﺧﺮ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺻﻐﺮﺳﻨﺎ ﻓﻀﻮﻟﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺣﻮﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﺣﺐ؟ﻟﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﺣﺴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﻓﻮﻟﻜﻮﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ‪ .‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺡﺟﻮﻟﺰ ﻣﻤﺎﺭﺳﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﺍﻟﻔﻤﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﻗﻊ ﺗﺤﺖ ﻓﺉﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﺲ ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻋﺘﺮﺿﺖﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻕ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺃﻳﺎﻣﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺼﻒ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺗﻮﺻﻠﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﻲء ﻣﺎﻗﺪﻋﻤﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻟﻦ ﻳﺠﻌﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﻟﻴﻜﺲ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﺳﻴﺴﺎﻋﺪﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺮﺧﺎء ﻭﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ ﻗﻠﻴﻼ‪ً.‬‬

‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺃﻧﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﺠﻠﻮﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ".‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﻔﺮﺓ ﻃﻴﻨﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫"ﺇﻧﻪ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺮﻳﺢ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﺻﺤﻲ‪".‬‬
‫"ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﻫﻮ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺻﺤﻲ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺿﻌﺖ ﺑﻄﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻭﺛﺒﺘﺘﻬﺎ ﺑﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺰﻫﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻻﺗﻨﻔﺠﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺘﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻧﺰﻫﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻴﺮﻳﺪﻳﺎﻥ ﻫﻴﻞ ﺑﺎﺭﻙ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻃﺮﺣﺖ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻳﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻧﺒﺖ ﺭﺃﺳﻴﻦ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻭﺍﻓﻖ‪.‬‬

‫ﺍﻵﻥ‪،‬ﻟﻮ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺬﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ﺑﺄﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺼﻴﻒ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪":‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺐ ﻣﺒﻠﻼ ًﺑﺒﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ"‪.‬‬