★ TODAREI

STODO★ 18SLV

PROLOGUE

***Tarekwentinandoutofherf ast
erreachinghisendandslammedintoherpus
hingitdeeper
anddeeperashef i
lledherupwithhisj
uicescurs
ing….hepull
edoutandreachedf
oratoweland
wipedbothofthemt henhebendtoherbellyandkissedi
tthenthebabymoved,awidesmile
plas
ter
edonhisf ace***

Tar
ek:di
dyouf
eelt
hat

***hes
aids
mil
ingwi
del
y***

Samke:yeah

***s
hes
aidwi
that
iredvoi
ce***

Tar
ek:myboyi
sgr
owi
ngdamn….
icantwai
ttohol
dhi
minmyar
ms

***hes ai
dbr ushingherbellyandthebabyki c
kedagain….Samkeclos
edhereyesass leeptook
overandTar eks wall
owedhar dashismi ndi mmediat
elywenttohiswife….thi
sshouldbeher
carryi
nghiss eedbutc i
rcums t
ancesmadehi mbreakhisvowsanddowhathepr omi sedhims el
f
thathewi l
lneverdo…. Hehopest hathisplanwor ksc
auseonet hi
nghec antacceptist ol
osehis
wifeorhischild..
.Hegotoffbedandt ookhi sphoneands endhi
swifealovingmas sageand
turnedlooki
ngatSamkef eel
ingguil
ty***

Tar
ek:“
f@#k”

***hec
urs
edwi
thal
owvoi
cebr
ushi
nghi
sheadandwentt
othebat
hroom***

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Ts
himol
ogo:c
any
ous
topc
all
ingmef
orheavenss
ake

Joe:whyar eyouac t
ingup..
.whatyou’r
edoingischildi
shTshimo….i
tol
dyout hatI
’
mmar ri
edin
communi t
yofpropertyandwhenI divorcehershe’
llgethal
fofever
ysh!tIown….Iworkedhar d
formys h!twhileshejustate,
sh!ti
nmyhous eIboughtandsleepst
henpoppedbabiesleftri
ght
andc enterasifshe’
sneverheardofbirthcontr
ol….butnoyoudontwanttounderst
andt hat
right
….you’rebeingself
ishandyouknowi t

***Tshi
mos ni
ff
edandwipedhert
ear
sthens
hes
hookherheadas
kingher
sel
fwhys
he’
s
enter
tai
ningthi
sfool
***

J
oe:al
limas
kingi
sti
meat
leas
tunt
ils
hegi
vesbi
rthandI
’
lls
tar
twi
tht
hedi
vor
ce

***Ts
himos
tar
tedl
aughi
ng***

Ts
himo:
youmus
tthi
nki
maf
oolneh

J
oe:what
??

Tshi
mo: f
ouryear
sandyou’
resti
lls
ingi
ngt
hesametuneJoel
….i
mdonewi t
hyouandyour
li
es….s
taywit
hyourwif
emot howaModimoandkeepongett
ingherpr
egnantandI
’
llgi
ve
seri
ousguysachanc
e

J
oe:whowi
lll
oveyoul
ikeI
dowena….
youar
enot
hingwi
thoutmeTs
himol
ogo.
.
.not
hing!
!

Tshi
mo:imsi
nglewi
thoutyouandreadyt
omingl
e….
.l
osemynumber
sandst
ayawayf
romme
orel
seyourwi
feandkidswil
lknowhowmuchofamanwh#r
edaddyi
snxa

J
oe:i
sthathow…

Ts
himo:
cont
inuehar
ass
ingmeandI
’
llgetar
est
rai
ningor
deragai
nstyounxapi
eceofs
h#t
!!!
!

***t
hens
hedr
oppedt
hec
allands
nif
fedast
ear
sgus
hedout
***

Ts
himo:
FOURWASTEDYEARS….
FOURWASTEDF#CK#NYEARS!
!!

***s
hes
creamedandbus
tedoutwi
thal
oudc
ry***

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***Alphalett
ewokeups weat
ingandpanting.
.
.hequi
ckl
yswitchedonthesi
delampandsi
ghed
wipi
nghi sfacewithhishand.
.
.hegotoffbedandwenttowardstheens
uitbat
hroomand
swit
chedont hel
ightandhewal kedi
nsideandwashedhi
sface***
Al
pha:f
#ck!
!!

***hewonder edwhyhekeepsdreami
ngofthescenethathappenedtwoyearsbac
k…nowi t
hasturnedintoani
ghtmar
ethatwontgoaway..
.
hes i
ghedandwal kedoutoft
hebathroomand
hestoppedonhistr
acks….
hequic
klywentdownonhisonekneeandl ookeddownwi t
hhishear
t
beat
ingf as
t***

Fi
gur
e:ur
ikudanwa

Al
pha:I
’
llbet
her
ebef
ores
unr
ise

***t
henthefigur
edi
sappear
edandAlphas
ighedget
tingup….
hewentbac
ktot
hebat
hroom
andtookashowerwi
thaheavyhear
t***

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***Moerahel
dont ightt
othetabl
easMos spoundedherfr
ombehi ndgroani
ngli
kean
animal
….Sherol
ledhereyesandfakemoanedasMos scont
inuedtopleasur
ehimsel
f….af
tera
fewstr
okeshestil
ledandrel
easedhisl
oadinsi
dethecondomwi t
hhisjawsc l
enc
hed***

Mos
s:damnyou’
regoodbabygi
rl

***Moer
arol
ledhereyesandf
akedas
mil
etur
ningherheadt
ofac
ehi
m***

Moer
a:t
hankyoudaddy

***hepul
ledoutands
hes
toods
trai
ghtf
ixi
ngherdr
essashec
leanedhi
msel
fup***

Mos
s:nowt
ellmewhyyoul
yingt
ome

Moer
a:as
kies
??

Mos
s:youf
akedever
ythi
ng….
fr
omyourmoanst
oyours
mil
e

***hes
aidwi
thanangr
yvoi
cepul
li
nguphi
sbr
ief
sal
ongwi
thhi
str
ous
ers***

Moer
a:I
didnt
….

Mos
s:dontpi
ssmeof
fbyl
yingt
omeMoer
a!!

***hes
aidi
nter
rupt
ingherands
hes
ighedf
ixi
ngherhai
r***

Moer
a:i
mbor
edwi
thal
lthi
sMos
s

***hes
toppedbut
toni
nghi
sshi
rtandl
ookedatherwi
thaf
rownonhi
sfac
e***
Mos
s:whatdi
dyouj
usts
ay

Moer a:imboredwit
hthissameoldthingswekeepdoingMoss….
it
seit
herwemeethereatyour
offi
cet ofuc
koratthehotelthenyoutransf
ermoneytomyaccountaf
terwefi
nis
hasifi
ma
prostit
utethenyoudis
appearforweekss omet
imesformont
hsandonedayyoucallmet
hen
sames h#tagain….
it
sboring

***Mos
ssi
gheds
haki
nghi
shead***

Mos
s:whyar
eyoubei
ngl
iket
hisnowMo

Moera:dontgetmewrongMos
s….i
mnottryi
ngtobeannoyi
ngtoyoui
mj ustt
ell
ingyout
hat
t
his.
..
usisbori
ngmenow….i
mnotfeeli
ngi
tanymore….
youknowIdontdoloveandsh#ts
oif
somethingi
snotexc
iti
ngmeanymoreImoveon

***Mos
sswal
lowed***

Mos
s:wear
enotendi
ngt
hisMo….
dealwi
thyourbor
edombutt
hisi
sneverendi
ng

***hes
aidt
hatandc
lenc
hedhi
sjawsands
her
oll
edhereyes
***

Moer
a:what
ever
….c
allmewhenyouneedme

***shegr
abbedherhandbagandwal kedoutleavingMossbr
eathi
ngheavily….hedoesn’
twant
toadmiti
tbuthehasfal
lenforherandt hefac
tt hats
he’
snotfeel
ingthei
rlit
tlear
rangement
anymoreisnots
itt
ingwellwi
thhim…. hetookhisphoneandmadeac all
***

Guy:bos
s

Mos
s:t
ailherandgetr
idofanyf
oolt
hateat
swher
eimeat
ing

Guy:goti
t

***hedr
oppedthecal
landsi
ghedt
henhi
sot
herphoner
angandhegr
oanedf
rus
trat
ed,
he
si
ghedandansweredi
t***

Mos
s:myl
ove

Woman:babehey….
whatt
imewi
llyoul
and

***hec
lenc
hedhi
sjawst
hens
ighedr
ubbi
nghi
seyes
***

Mos
s:ar
oundt
hreet
omor
row

Woman:oki
vegotas
urpr
isef
oryout
omor
row

Mos
s:I
cantwai
tmyl
ove

woman:okl
etmel
oveandl
eaveyou….
seeyout
omor
rowok
Mos
s:okmyl
ove….
Iloveyou

Woman:I
loveyout
oobaby

Mos
s:ki
ssmypr
inc
essf
orme

Woman:I
wil
lbaby.
.
.bye

***hedr
oppedt
hec
allands
ighed***

Moss
:damni t
….whywoul
dshesayourar
rangementi
sbor
inghernow….
iss
hec
heat
ingon
me…..
isweari
mgonnakil
lsomeone

***hewenttohisbankingappandsendherR20000thenhesendherames
saget
hathewant
s
toseeherbef
oreheleavestomorr
owands hej
ustrepl
iedby“
sho”
***

Mos
s:nxa

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Mas
ai:
yhomamai
stoomuc
hsomet
imesbat
hong

***Hi
ll
slaughed***

Moer
a:dontl
etherhearyous
ayt
hatabouther

Hi
ll
s:mar
aleyena….
toembar
ras
sthemi
nis
ter
’swi
fel
iket
hat

Moer
a:youknowmamadoes
ntt
akes
hitf
romanyone

Mas
ai:
yhoai
shemMr
smi
nis
terwi
llneverr
ecovers
hem

Hil
ls:ai
mamal
eyena….
iwonderwhys
hemakesi
therbus
ines
stoknowpeopl
esbus
ines
sli
ke
thi
s

Moer
a:s
het
ookbei
ngapol
it
ici
an’
swi
fet
oos
eri
ous
ly….
evenaf
terpapa’
sdeat
hshe’
sst
il
lati
t

***s
hes
aids
haki
ngherhead***

Mas
ai:
aibuts
hes
houl
dbec
aref
ulc
aus
eshe’
smaki
ngenemi
esunnec
ess
ary

Moer
a:s
he’
sgangs
tert
hatone.
.
.anunder
dogs
odontwor
ryabouther

***Hi
ll
slookedatMoer
a***

Hi
ll
s:youwer
emoodywhenyouar
riveddi
nts
hang(
what
sup)
Moer
a:mxmoho….
ihadt
hatt
alkwi
thMos
sandhewasl
ikenywenywewear
enotendi
ngt
his

***s
her
oll
edherey
es***

Mas
ai:
mar
aMoyous
tar
tedyouraf
fai
rknowi
ngt
hathe’
smar
ried

Moera:andi
twasf
ununt
ili
tlas
ted….
ij
ust
….MaybeI
suddenl
yhavegr
ownac
ons
ciouswho
knows

***Mas
aiandHi
ll
slaughed***

Moer
a:what

Hi
ll
s:wena??(you)

Moer
a:yesme

Mas
ai:
sinc
ewhen

Moera:s
inceIpic
turedHi l
lsbei
nghur tbyabi
tchli
kemebusychowingherhusband….i
knowI ’
l
l
huntdownanybitcht hatwil
lhurtyoubychowingyourmanevent
houghI dontl
ikehimthat
muchbutthenitwi l
lbehypoc r
iti
calofmetodothatifi
mbusydoi
ngthesames h#ttoanother
woman….doublestandswabona

****s
ilenc
e****

Mas
ai:
Icantbel
ievemyt
winhasac
ons
cious

Moer
a:F#t
s#k!
!!

***l
aught
er***

Moera:plushe’
sbori
ngsexual
ly….Il
oveamanwhot alksshi
tduri
ngmdavazo(sex).
..
ithought
he’
llchangewithti
mebutIguessIwaswrong.
.
.yenahec anmakemec umshembutmdavaz o
withhimitsbor
ing….i
wantexci
tement….
some50s hadesnyananotj
ustt
loft
lofthenahhh….he
doesntevensaysh#twhenhereleas
esmxm

***t
hegi
rl
sbus
tedoutwi
thl
oudl
aught
er***

Hi
ll
s:youneedJ
esusi
nyourl
if
eshem

Moer
a:I
havehi
mboo,
whatI
needi
s50s
hadesmdavaz
o(s
ex)t
hat
’si
t

Mas
ai:
Igi
veups
hem

***Mas
ai’
sphoner
ecei
vedames
sageands
hes
mil
edaf
teropeni
ngi
tands
hegotup***

Hi
ll
s:andnou(now)
Mas
ai:
booi
sher
e….
i’
l
lseeyoul
ater
..
.ornot

Moer
a:mxm

Mas
ai:
dontbeahat
er

***Shewenttochangeandsheki
ssedhers
on’
sfor
eheadt
hens
hewentt
othel
oungeand
kis
sedhers
ist
erscheeks
***

Mas
ai:
bye

Hi
ll
s:youl
ookhot

Mas
ai:
Ifeelhott
ool
ala

***s
hes
aidwal
kingout
***

Moer
a:I
dontl
iket
hatpi
eceofs
h#t

Hi
ll
s:dontMo….
shel
oveshi
m

Moer
a:mxm

***Hi
ll
s’phoner
angands
hes
ighedbef
orepi
cki
ngi
tup***

Hi
ll
s:hel
loma

***Moer
afr
owned***

Ma:gi
vemys
ont
hephoneI
wantt
otal
ktohi
m

Hi
ll
s:ummmi
mnotathomeMai
matmys
ist
er’
spl
ace

Ma:t
hat
sal
lyouknowwhatt
odot
ogal
li
vantar
oundbutgi
vemys
onac
hil
dyouf
ailnxaus
eles
s
t
hing

***Hi
ll
sswal
lowedhar
dast
ear
sfi
ll
edherey
es***

Hil
ls:yous
houl
dtr
yhi
monhi
sphonemamaormaybehe’
sinameet
ingandc
antans
werhi
s
phone

Ma:nywenywenywe…..
rubbi
sh….
imnotyourpr
ost
itut
edeadmot
herwho’
sbei
ngr
apedby
maggotsi
nthegr
avenxa

***t
hens
hedr
oppedt
hec
allandHi
ll
stear
srandownherc
heeks
***

Moer
a:whatdi
dthatbi
tchs
ayt
hist
ime

***Hi
ll
swi
pedhert
ear
sof
f***
Hi
ll
s:l
eti
tbeMoer
a

***s
hegotup***

Hi
ll
s:I
shoul
dgohome….
i’
l
lcal
lyoul
ater

***s
heki
ssedherc
heekandwal
kedoutl
eavi
ngMoer
areel
ingwi
thanger
***

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Cas
tiel
:thi
sisj
ust
….yahneh

Mpumi
:Ic
antbel
ievehe’
sgr
owi
ngt
hisf
ast
….Rhuus
aidi
tsnor
malr
ight

Cas
tiel
:yeahbutmyquesti
oni s….
ishegonnabenor mal
..
.i
meanhewasbor
nmont hsbackbut
nowhelooksl
ikeasi
xyearold….Kal
uissti
llababyandhe’
soldert
hanhi
mandyenahe’sj
ust….
Andpluswhenwil
lhest
opagi ng….imean….

***hes
ighed***

Mpumi:what
simpor
tanti
she’
sal
ivebabe….he’
samirac
le…..
ukut
hihe’
sgr
owi
ngf
astbl
ahbl
ah
bl
ahisnoti
mport
ant….
imamotherbecaus
eofhim..
.
wear ehi
sparent
sCas
s

Cas
tiel
:Iknowbaby.
.
.iknowandhe’
sourpr
ideandj
oy

***hes
aidki
ssi
ngherf
orehead***

Mpumi
:Ic
antbel
ievewemades
uchahands
omeboy

Cas
tiel
:hel
ooksl
ikemeofc
our
sehe’
shands
ome

***Mpumi
laughedpus
hinghi
mli
ght
ly***

J
uni
or:dadl
ook

***Mpumi l
ookedatherson….
shes
til
lcantgetus
edt
ohi
svoi
ce.
.
.i
tsdeepands
omet
imess
car
y
ifhec
atchesyouoffguar
d***

Cas
tiel
:yeah

J
uni
or:t
hiswomani
scr
yingandl
ookher
e

***hi
sparent
slookedatt
hepi
ctur
ehedr
ewandi
twasofawomangi
vingbi
rth….
theybot
h
fr
oze***
Mpumi
:babywhydi
dyoudr
awt
hiski
ndofpi
ctur
e

J
uni
or:s
heneedsourhel
pmama….
looks
he’
sinpai
nandc
ryi
ng

Cas
tiel
:wh.
.
.what

J
uni
or:t
heygonnagetherandki
llher
..
.wehavet
ohel
pthem

***Cas
tielandMpumi
lookedateac
hot
her
***

Voice:hel
pmydaughterCasti
el.
.
.theyarecoming….
yourbr
otherwi
llhel
pyouf
indt
hem….
pleas
e
takecareofher
….pr
otectherandtellherI
loveher

***avoi
ces
pokeandCas
tielr
ememeber
edwhoi
tbel
ongedt
o***

Cas
tiel
:f#!
k!!
!

Mpumi
:whati
sit

Cas
tiel
:thatwi
tcht
hatwasher
e….
shej
ustgavebi
rth….
that
sheront
hatpi
ctur
e

Mpumi
:what
..
.buthowdi
dJuni
orknow….
whatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon

Casti
el:I
needt
ofi
ndherc
hil
d….
Shej
usts
aidMadouwi
llknowherwher
eabout
s….
i’
l
lbebac
k..
.
i
loveyou

***heki
ssedherc
heekandal
soki
ssedJ
uni
or’
sfor
eheadandhedi
sappear
ed***

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Amo’
smother:I
c antbel
ievet
hatboydi
dthatt
oyou….
icantbel
ievehe’
spar
tofac
ult
Amogel
ang..
.
ac ult

***Amoj
ustc
ried***

Amo’
smother
:IknowIdi
dntl
ikeyourhusbandbutI’
l
lac
ceptat
hugf
ors
oni
nlaw overadevi
l
wor
shi
peranyday….
yhomehl
olo(Icantbeli
eveit
)

Amo:I
….i
didntknow….
papal
ovedhi
m..
.
idi
dntknowhe’
spar
tofac
ult

Amo’s
mother:yourf
atherl
ikedsleepi
ngwi
thyoungboysAmogel
ang….youknowthat
….why
woul
dyoutrustanyt
hingthatgottodowit
hthatmanevenaf
terf
indi
ngoutt heki
ndofmanhe
washeh

Amo:youwer
emar
riedt
ohi
mmama….
he’
sst
il
lmyf
ather
Amo’
smot
her
:andI
regr
etmar
ryi
nghi
m….
ihat
ehi
mandI
hopeher
otsi
nhel
lwher
ehebel
ongs

Amo:whenyouwereenjoyi
nghismoney….
whenyouwerebei
ngr
es pec
tedbythecommunit
y
j
ustbecaus
eyouweremar r
iedt
ohimyoudidnthat
ehi
mandnowt hatyouknowyoungboys
sat
isf
iedhi
minst
eadofyouyouhatehi
m

***al
ouds
lapl
andedonherc
heek***

Amo’ s
mot her:thatboydi
dgoodbyservi
ngyouwi
thdivor
cepapers….
you’
reasevi
lasyour
father….
youki l
ledyourownchi
ldbybeingawhor
e….youshoul
d’vebeent
heonetodieandnot
Jabuli
le….IcantbelieveI
gavebi
rtht
oyounxa

***thenshewalkedoutofherwar
ds haki
ngwi t
hangerleavi
ngAmos ti
llhol
dingherburni
ng
cheek….herli
pstr
embledasmoretearsgushedout….s
hecantbel
ievehermotherjusts
lapped
herandJ abuser
vedherwithdi
vor
cepapersandt hatMondli
sacr
ifi
cedheronlydaught
erfor
ri
ches***

Amo:Godwhatdi
dIeverdot
odes
ervet
his

***s
hes
aidc
ryi
ng***

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TOBECONTI
NUED….

#TODAREI
STODO

★ TODAREI
STODO★ 18SLV

CHAPTER01

.
Mpande:ang’
kuqondi
konkel
okhu(I
dontunder
standal
loft
his
)

***Hes
aidwi
thaf
rownonhi
sfac
e***

Al
pha:what

Mpande:thi
sthingyamaengagementpart
y….iz
int
oz abel
ungu….
inf
actumsanganonj
e(t
his
t
hingsofengagementpart
ies
..
.i
tsawhitepeoplet
hing….i
nfacti
tss
tupid)

Al
pha:wel
lvas
ati
vas
wir
andz
a(wel
lwomenl
ovei
t)

Mpande:wellmywomanwi l
lneedt
omakepeac
ewi
tht
hef
actt
hats
hewi
llnevergeti
tor
amabri
dalshowerorbabys
hower

Alpha:t
henyoubet
tergof
indyour
sel
favi
ll
agegi
rlc
aus
eci
tyort
owns
hipgi
rl
slovet
hos
e
thi
ngs

Mpande:wellt
hegirlI
sawIt
hinki
satownshipgi
rleventhoughIf
eell
ikeIknowherf
rom
somewhere….i
sti
llr
ememberhowsheins
ultedmymot herandcal
ledmytypeofmusi
crubbi
sh

***Al
phal
aughed***

Al
pha:I
remember
….yeerxi
vindz
ixayena(yeerherl
iver
)

***hel
aughedagai
n***

Mpande:s
he’sgonnapayt
hatone.
..
thedays
he’
sgonnabemineheehbaf
oncncnc
..
.uma
engi
bonauzothias
heemhloni
shwa(whenshes
eesmes hewi
lls
ayhell
osir
)

***Al
phabus
tedoutwi
thl
aught
erashepar
kedt
hec
ar***

Al
pha:wel
lthat
’si
fyou’
l
leverf
indher

***hes
aidget
tingout
***

Mpande:oohI
wil
l.
..
iwontr
estunt
ilI
findher

***hesai
dal
soget
tingoutandAl
phal
ett
ejus
tshookhi
sheadl
ocki
ngt
hec
arandt
heywal
ked
ins
ide***

Al
pha:whati
fshe’
smar
ried

Mpande:di
vor
cebaba

***Al
phal
ett
elaugheds
haki
nghi
shead***

Al
pha:I
alr
eadyf
eels
orr
yforher

Mpande:i
mnott
hatbadmf
o
Al
pha:yeahyou’
renott
hatbad….
you’
ret
hewor
st

Mpande:mxm

***hel
ookedar
oundatal
lthec
ars
***

Mpande:I
seeal
lthehi
ghs
tat
uspeopl
ear
eher
e

Al
pha:af
terMas
eesus
,weeatt
henl
eave

Mpande:mmmhindl
ebei
zwi
lebaf
o..
.
sis
hayaamaI
nandOut(t
heearhashear
d….
wewi
lldoaI
n
andOutthi
ng)

Al
pha:I
cants
tandal
lthes
efakepeopl
enxa

Mpande:cal
mdownmfo….
angi
funi
amadloz
iaphume(I
dontwantyouranc
est
orst
ocome
out
)….
.rememberwear
eher
eforumamcane(aunt
)

***Alphal
ett
esi
ghedandtheywalkedi
nsidet
hehous
eandass oonasAlphal
ette’syounger
sis
tersawhimsherantohi
mandj umpedonhimandAlphal
ett
elaughedcatc
hingher ….af
ter
theyhuggedandgr
eetedeachot
hershejumpedonMpandeandhes wungherar oundthenhe
putherdown***

Mpande:waz
ewakhul
aCl
air(youhavegr
ownCl
air
)

***Shebl
ushedl
ooki
ngdown***

Al
pha:mmmhandt el
lal
lthos
eboyst
hati
mas
angoma(t
radi
ti
onalheal
er)andyourot
her
br
otherhasagun

Cl
air
:huhbhut
i

Al
pha:i
mjus
tsayi
ng

Mr
s.Rei
neke:myboys

***Shesai
dopeni
ngherarmsfort
hemandtheyqui
cklyt
ookofft
hei
rhat
sandt
heybot
h
huggedherandwhentheybr
okethehughepi
nchedthei
rear
s***

Al
pha:aahma

***Cl
airl
aughedast
heyhel
dthei
rac
hingear
sandMpandegaveheras
ter
nlook***

Mpande:uhl
ekani
wenanekhandael
ikhul
u(whatar
eyoul
aughi
ngatbi
ghead)

***s
hes
tuc
khert
ongueoutandr
anawaywhenMpandet
ookas
tept
owar
dsher
***

Mpande:s
ifel
ani
manj
ema(whatdi
dwedoma)
Mom:i
sthi
sthet
imet
ocomet
oyourbr
other
’sengagementpar
ty

Al
pha:butmaI
tol
dyouwewi
llbel
ate

Mom:lat
eyamasi
mbanxa….Andwhatar
eyouwearing….
.
yaz
inI
’
mnotgonnal
etyout
wot
o
st
res
sme…...
comeandmeetyours
oontobesi
steri
nlaw

***s
hes
aidwal
kingaway
***

Mpande:ngi
mdalamanginjeimagi
nei
ndodaendal
akanje(I
’
mol
d….
imagi
neamanasol
dasme)
pi
nchedonhisearasi
fhe’ssomesmal
lboy.
..
.
thisi
snoton

***hewhi
ned***

Mom:youwantanot
herpi
nchMpandec
aus
ethi
sti
meI
wontl
etgount
ilt
hatbi
gearofyour
s
bl
eeds

Mpande:haai
cha….
indl
ebei
zwi
lema.
.
.i
zwi
lengempel
a(haai
not
heearhashear
d….
ithashear
d
i
ndeed)

Mom:good.
.
.nowc
ome

***Alphalet
tel aughedathi mandhes howedhimthemi ddl
ef i
ngerandt heyf
oll
owedher…
ins
idetheyfoundpeopl es t
andingingroupssomesit
tingdowndr inki
ng….theguyswereweari
ng
for
mal ,s
omes emi formalclot
hingandwomenar ewearingdressesandheelswhiles
omeare
weari
ngs emi formalc lothi
ngaswel l
…..sof
tmusicwasplayi
ng…. t
hewasabarar eaandwait
ers
andwai t
ressess ervingthemfingerfood….Mpandesi
gheds hakinghishead***

Mpande:andt
hen

***hes
aidpoi
nti
ngatapl
ate***

Al
pha:r
elax
..
.l
etseatandl
eave

Mpande:yhohai
s hemumamc anewaz
ewal
it
hwal
aidombol
o(I
feels
orr
yforaunt
y)…eat
what???doyouseefoodher
e…

Al
pha:br
orel
ax

Mpande:umavet
aneus
hadauml
unguyi
ni(i
swhi
teymar
ryi
ngawhi
tewoman)

Al
pha:I
dontknowandI
dontc
are….
let
seatandl
eave

Mpande:sodl
ani(whatarewegonnaeat )
….imnotar
abbi
tandimdefi
nit
elynotondi
et….
did
youseewhattheyar
eserving.
.
.ngi
yindodayomZul
umina.
.
.angi
dli
udot
i….nxa(imaZuluman..
.I
donteatr
ubbi
s h)

***hes
hookhi
shead***
Mpande:i
thi
ngi
yophuz
ibi
ya(l
etmegodr
ink)bef
oreI
los
emymi
nd

***hewentt othebarareaandAl phalettefol

lowedhim….peoplegavehimwei rdlookscause
he’swearingdi
fferentki
ndsofbeadsonhi swris
tsandneck….he’
swear i
ngabl ackgolfs
hirt
,
blackjeansandar edcapandreds neakerswhileMpandeiswear i
ngat ai
lormadenavybl ue
brentwoodpant s,
aMadi bas
hirtthathasbr ownandnavyblues tr
ipswithagol dchai
nhanging
aroundhisneckont opoftheshir
tandnavybl ueCarvel
as.
..
alli
nalltheylookedoutof
place…..
Alphafoll
owedhi mtothebarar ea***

Mpande:hei
ta

Whi
teguy:hi
gent
lemenwhatwoul
dyoul
iket
odr
ink

***hes
aidl
ooki
ngunc
omf
ort
abl
e***

Al
pha:hei
neken

Whi
teguy:ok

***heputa330mlontopofthec
ount
erandreac
hedf
oragl
assbutt
henhes
toppedwhenhe
sawAlphaopeni
ngthebott
leusi
nghi
steet
h***

Whi
teguy:ok.
.
.ummmwhataboutyous
ir

Mpande:whataboutme

Al
pha:uphuz
ani
(whatdoyoudr
ink)

Mpande:ooho….
givemebl
ackl
abell
apho….
AndNgud’

***t
heguyc
lear
edhi
sthr
oat
***

Mpande:bl
ackl
abelndoda(man)

Whi
teguy:ummI
’
msor
rys
irbutwedon’
thavei
t

Mpande:mi
hlol
a(I
cantbel
ievet
his
)

Al
pha:j
ustgi
vehi
mwhatI
’
mhavi
ng

***heknewhewasaboutt
ocaus
eas
cene***

Mpande:hehbaf
oamas
imb….
(hehbr
owhatnons
..
.)

***hest
oppedwhenhes awAlphal
ett
e’smotherwal
kingt
owar
dst
hemwi
thSt
evensandhi
s
fi
anceandAlphal
ett
e’shear
tal
moststopped***

Mpande:baf
o(br
o)
Al
pha:nguye(i
tsher
)

Ma:aahi
biya(beer
)bef
oreeat
ingAl
pha.
.
.Mpande

***Mas
ail
ookedatAl
phal
ett
easi
fshe’
sseei
ngaghos
t***

Mpande:t
her
e’snof
oodher
ema

Ma:Icookedf
oryout
wo.
.
.yourf
oodi
sint
heki
tchenc
aus
eIknowyouwonteatwhati
sbei
ng
ser
vedhere

St
evens
:bi
gbr
o..
.
howz
it

***Al
phal
ett
e’seyesl
eftMas
aiandhel
ookedatSt
evenswi
thas
car
yfr
ownonhi
sfac
e***

Al
pha:s
ho

St
evens
:I’
dli
keyout
omeetmybeaut
if
ulbaby
….myf
ianc
e….
Mas
aiRapul
a

Al
pha:weal
readyknoweac
hot
her
…..
ri
ghtMas
ai

***Hes
aidl
ooki
ngatas
hoc
kedMas
ai***

Ma:youknoweac
hot
her

Al
pha:mmmhbutt
hroughs
omeone

***Mas
ais
wal
lowedhar
dsodi
dSt
evens
***

St
evens
:who

***heas
kedwi
thhi
shear
tbeat
ingf
ast
***

St
evens
:babe

***Shebli
nkedfastandt
earsr
andownhercheeksasherhandss
hookthensheranout….her
si
sterHi
ll
ss awherrunni
ngoutands
hefol
lowedheroutsi
deandMpandefrownedlooki
ngat
Hil
ls***

Mpande:f
uck….
baf
oist
hat
….

***heas
kedl
ooki
ngf
reakedout
….t
henhef
rownedands
hookhi
sheadvi
gor
ous
ly***

Ma:Mas
a….
.
what
sgoi
ngon.
.
.whyi
ssher
unni
ng

***StevenslookedatAl
phalet
tewhos t
il
lhadthats
caryfr
ownonhi sfaceandhecli
ckedhi
s
tonguethenhef oll
owedher….
.hegotouts
ideandHil
lswasreversi
ngoutoftheyar
dandthecar
droveaway ….St
evenscl
enchedhisj
awslooki
ngangryandhec l
ickedhi
stongueandwenttohi
s
caranddr oveofft
oo***
I
NSI
DETHEHOUSE

Ma:what
sgoi
ngonAl
pha….
.
whatwast
hatal
labout

Al
pha:hows
houl
dIknowma

Ma:ungangi
yenz
iis
lima(dontmakemeaf
ool
)….
isawyourf
ace

***Al
phas
ighed***

Alpha:ma….
idontknowwhys heranof
fokmaybeyoushoul
daskyourson….
yesIknowher
causeweoncemetataparty2yearsbacki
nCapeTownandMpandeherehookedupwithher
fri
endandhewasn’tni
cet
ot hefr
iendmaybet
hat’
swhyshereac
tedthatway

Ma:whyt
oyouandnothi
mheh

Al
pha:ma.
.
.ei
sh

***hes
aidr
ubbi
nghi
sfor
eheadt
ryi
ngt
othi
nkofabel
ievabl
eli
e***

Al
pha:we.
.
.ei
sh

Al
pha:wehadat
hrees
omewi
thherf
riendandI
wasmor
eroughert
ohert
hanhi
m

Ma:what
sat
hree….
yuhmi
hlol
a..
.
imdonewi
thyout
wo….
done….
done

***s
hes
aids
oundi
ngandl
ooki
ngdr
amat
ic***

Mpande:I
needas
mokeandubi
ya(abeer
)

***hes
aidwal
kingaway
***

Ma:ni
sher
aabaf
azi
Alphal
ett
eNt
sakoMabunda(yous
har
ewomenAl
phal
ett
eNt
sakoMabunda)

Al
pha:ma

Ma:ungat
hinnywa….nowIseewhyyoutwoarenotmar
ried….
nis
her
aikhekhe(yous
har
ea
pus
sy)….
yhongazengahlol
elwa(I
cantbel
ievet
his
)

***shewal
kedawaymumbli
ngtoher
sel
fandAl
phal
ett
esi
ghedandf
oll
owedMpande….
he
foundhi
ms moki
ngli
keac
himney***

Mpande:I
knewI
’
ves
eent
hatgi
rls
omewher
e

Al
pha:who.
.
.
Mpande:mywif
etobe…..
umf
azi
wami
baf
o….
youdi
dntpaymuc
hat
tent
iont
othemc
aus
eyou
conc
entrat
edonyourgi
rl

***Mpandet
ookal
argegul
p***

Mpande:theywerethreebaf
o….youlef
twithyourgi
rlandIwaslef
twithtwoandIhadat hr
ee
sumwiththem….thatoneyourgir
llef
twit
hi st
hesis
terthatwasengaged.
..
shewasget
ting
marr
iedthefol
lowingweekend

***Al
phagavehi
mas
hoc
kedl
ook***

Mpande:f
uc kbafo….ngimos hil
es tr
aight(Imess
edup)….
icantbeli
eveihadathrees
omewi t
h
themandnowi mi nt
er estedinoneoft hesist
ers
….Yaz
iiknewI’veseent
hatgir
lsomewhere….i
didnts
eeherpr oper
lyt hattimes heinsul
tedmebutIknewI knowherfromsomewhere,
Idont
thinks
he’
llgivemeac hancebaf o….damnit!!
!

Al
pha:ooohs
hit
!!!

***heexc
lai
medt
aki
ngt
hebeerf
romhi
mandhet
ookal
argegul
p***

Alpha:andmyc
hos
enonei
sengagedt
omyyoungerbr
otherandI
haveac
hil
doutt
her
eIneed
tofi
nd….

***hes
aidr
ubbi
nghi
sfor
eheadanxi
ous
ly***

Mpande:yho

***hewal
kedt
othebarar
eaandAl
phaf
oll
owedhi
m***

Mpande:ei
givemes
omet
hings
trongl
apho….
ic
hef
ungi
feonc
e(poi
sons
othatI
die)

Al
pha:makei
ttwo

***Hismindwentt oMasai….shel
ookedbeauti
ful
….grown….she’
sabitchubbycausethatti
me
shewass l
ender….evenherbreastsar
efullt
hatti
met heylookedli
ketennisbal
lsbutnow…..
.he
shookhishead….”nahitcantbe”hethought….
butthen…..
“nah..
.”hethoughtagai
nshakinghis
head***

ONTHEROAD

Hi
ll
s:mnt
asewhathappened….
dids
omet
hinghappen

***Masaic
ontinuedt
oc ryi
gnor
ingher
….whydi
dhehavet
obeSt
evensbr
other
….whydoes
nt
happi
nesslas
tinherli
fe***
Hi
ll
s:bat
hongMas
awhat
sgoi
ngon….
youknowwhati
mcal
li
ngMoer
a

***s
hec
all
edMoer
aMas
ai’
stwi
nsi
ster
***

Moer
a:ef
edi
lepar
tyyamakgowa(i
sthewhi
tepeopl
espar
tyover
)

Hi
ll
s:wher
ear
eyou

Moer
a:home

Hi
ll
s:okwear
eonourway

Moer
a:what
sgoi
ngHi
ll
sisMas
aok

Hil
ls:no.
.
.somet
hinghappenedandI
dontknowwhat
….s
her
anoutoft
hepar
tyands
he’
scr
ying
butshedoesnts
aywhat swrong

Moer
a:okummmhur
ryI
’
mwai
ti
ng….
thatr
ott
enguavahadbet
ternothur
therorel
se.
.
.hehheh

Hi
ll
s:oks
hap

***af
tersometi
met heyar
rivedandgotoutoft
hecarandwentuptot
hei
rapar
tmentandas
soonastheygotinMasair
ant oherbedr
oomandshebustedoutwi
thacr
yasshesl
owlysaton
herbed,MoeraandHill
swalkedin***

Hi
ll
s:Mas
atal
ktouswhathappened

***Moer
ahuggedherandHi
ll
sjoi
nedt
hemunt
ils
hec
almeddown….
Moer
awi
pedhert
ear
s***

Moer
a:whohur
tyou.
.
.i
sitSt
evens

***s
hes
hookherheadasmor
etear
smadet
hei
rwayout
***

Hi
ll
s:t
henwho

Mas
ai:
Stevensbr
otheri
sKhai
’
sfat
her

Hi
ll
s&Moer
a:WHAT!
!!

Mas
ai:
hel
ooksl
ikehi
m….
hisphot
ocopyHi
ll
s…

Hi
ll
s:Ididnts
eehimrememberyourmotheri
nlawt ookyouandSt
evenst
ogoi
ntr
oduc
eyout
o
hi
selderbrot
herandIr
emai
nedwi t
hStevensf
riends

Moer
a:whatdi
dhes
ay

Mas
ai:
not
hingmuc
hjus
tthatweal
readykneweac
hot
her

***Shes
aidwi
pinghert
ear
sof
f***
Masai
:Stevensi
sgonnaleavemeMo….ihaveac
hil
dwithonebr
otherandi
mengagedt
o
anot
herbrother
….whycanthappi
nes
slasti
nmylif
e….
why

Shesai
dcr
yingandt
hes
ist
ershuggedherwi
thHi
ll
scr
yingt
ooandMoer
ajus
tswal
lowed
har
d***

-
---
---
---

***St
evensknoc
kedont
hedoorandi
twasopenedandt
her
est
oodhi
sbabymamaHel
ga***

Hel
ga:whatdoyouwant

St
evens
:you

***s
hel
aughedmoc
kingl
y***

St
evens
:ar
eyougonnal
etmei
nors
houl
dIgoandf
indanot
herpus
syt
osat
isf
yme

***s
her
ais
edhereyebr
ow***

Hel
ga:wher
e’syournewf
ianc
e..
.
herpus
syi
snots
weetanymor
eSt
eve

St
evens
:ar
eyougonnal
etmei
nornotHel
ga

***hes
aidwi
thanannoyedvoi
ce***

Hel
ga:mxm

***s
hes
aidmaki
ngwayf
orhi
mandhewal
kedi
n***

St
evens
:wher
e’smys
on

Hel
ga:atmymoms

***henoddedt
henhes
ighedandwentt
osi
tdownandhebr
ushedhi
sfac
e***

Hel
ga:whathappened

***s
heas
kedwi
thabor
edt
one***

St
evens
:It
hink….
ithi
nkMas
aiandt
hats
hangaanbr
otherofmi
neonc
ehadat
hinggoi
ng

Hel
ga:wai
twhatnow

***s
hes
aids
oundi
ngi
nter
est
ednow***
Stevens:whatif
….i
means hedoes
ntwantt
otal
kaboutherbabydaddys
ayi
nghe’
sdeadt
o
her….whatifhe’
s….
.f
uck!
!!

***hesai
drubbi
nghi
sfac
eandHel
gas
wal
lowedhar
d….
”no”s
het
houghtass
hebl
inked
rapi
dly
***

Hel
ga:whatdoyoumeanSt
evens

***s
heas
kedwi
thherhear
tbeat
ingf
ast
***

St
evens
:Ineedt
orel
eas
e

***hesai
dunbuckli
nghi
sbel
tandunbut
toni
nghi
spant
sandhepul
ledouthi
saver
agedi
ck
str
okingi
tgent
ly***

St
evens
:makemehappybabyandI
’
llmakeyouhappyt
oo

Hel
ga:i
mnotyourf
ianc
eSt
evens

St
evens
:youknowwhatf
uckt
hiss
hitI
’
mnotaboutt
obegyounxa

***hes
aidget
tingupandhef
ixedhi
msel
fthenHel
gagotupands
toppedhi
m***

Hel
ga:uyat
handaukuc
engwaheh(youl
ikebei
ngbegged)

St
evens
:ar
eyougonnagi
vemepus
syorwhat

Hel
ga:I
needR10000f
ormygi
rl
sst
rip

St
evens
:you’
res
ell
ingnow?

Hel
ga:youchoset
omar ryheri
nst
eadofmes
omypus
syi
snol
ongerf
reef
oryoumi
ster
..
.i
fyou
wantf
reepussygotoyourbori
ngfi
anc
e

***hes
ighedl
ooki
ngather
***

St
evens
:fi
ne….
nowgetnaked

***s
hes
mil
edandgr
abbedhi
sdi
ckgent
lyandhegas
ped***

Hel
ga:i
mgonnamakeyous
creammynameoutl
oud….
.

***St
evenss
mir
kedget
tingexc
ited***

St
evens
:makemehappybaby

Hel
ga:t
henmakeyour
sel
fcomf
ort
abl
edaddy

Hewentands
atdownc
omf
ort
abl
yands
hes
tar
teds
tri
ppi
ngf
orhi
mseduc
tivel
y***
St
evens
:fuc
kyou’
regor
geousmamakhe

***hes
aidashi
sdi
ckgothar
derandhar
derashewat
chedher
***

-
---
---
---
--

ATHI
LLSHOUSE

***shegotinandfoundherhusbandont hephone,theconver
sationhewashavi
ngwi t
hthe
personseemedtensecausehekeptbrushinghisri
ghteyebrowtimeandtimeagainandhedoes
thatwhenhe’sst
ressedorangr
y….heturnedands awhers t
andingnearthedi
ningtabl
eandhe
gaveherafaints
mi l
eandhedroppedt hec al
lthenhewalkedtoher***

Hi
ll
s:hey

***hegott
oherandhepul ledhercl
oserbyherthickwais
tandsmas
hedhi
sli
psonher
sand
kis
sedtheli
vingdayl
ightoutofherl
eavingherbreathl
ess***

Hi
ll
s:wowl
ooksl
ikes
omeonemi
ssedmet
oomuc
h

Tar
ek:mor
ethanyou’
l
leverknow

Hi
ll
s:yougood

***s
hes
aidwi
pingof
fherl
ips
tic
konhi
sli
ps***

Tar
:mmmh

***Hi
svoi
cevi
brat
edonhi
sthr
oat
***

Hi
ll
s:s
ure??

****s
hes
aidwi
thar
ais
edeyebr
owandheper
kedherl
ips
***

Tar
ek:yah….
iloveyoubambol
wam.
.
.il
oveyous
omuc
h

Hi
ll
s:I
loveyout
oos
thandwas
am

***hes
ighed***

Tarek:j
ustknowthatever
ythingI
doIdoitf
orus
….ial
wayswantyout
obehappyShal
ate….
your
happinessmeanstheworl
dt omeandI’
l
ldoever
ythi
ngtomakesurey
ouar
ealwayshappy…
***hes
ighedagai
n***

Hi
ll
s:babe

***heper
kedherl
ipsagai
n***

Tar
ek:i
mnotperfec
tandI
’l
lneverbebutonet
hingI
knowi
sIl
oveyout
odeat
hShal
ate….
idont
thi
nkIwil
lbeabl
etoli
vewi
thoutyou

***s
hef
rowned***

Hi
ll
s:babywhat
swr
ong

Tar
ek:ngi
yakt
handamama

Hi
ll
s:I
loveyout
oo

Tar
ek:nevergi
veuponme.
.
.onuspl
eas
ebambol
wam

***s
hes
ighed***

Tar
ek:pr
omi
seme

Hi
ll
s:I
promi
se

***heki
ssedherf
orehead***

Tar
ek:howwast
hepar
ty

Hi
ll
s:yhommmh

***shesai
ddr
amat
ical
lyandTar
ekl
aughedc
aus
eheknewmgoz
i(gos
sip)i
saboutt
o
happen***

Hi
ll
s:i
twasac
tual
lyanengagementpar
ty

***her
ais
edhi
seyebr
ow***

Tar
ek:heban

***hes
aidf
oll
owi
nghert
othel
ounget
osi
tdown***

Hil
ls:mmhs hemtheringist
odi
efornol
ieandt
hef
oodwasf
ives
tarr
est
aur
ants
tyl
e..
.
you
knowt hos
efancyf
ingerfood

Tar
ek:mmmh

Hi
ll
s:butt
hepar
tywasbor
ingbabel
ikeyhowhi
tepeopl
est
uff

***Tar
ekl
aughedl
ooki
ngatheradmi
ri
ngl
y….
Hil
lsi
sat
hic
kwomanandi
mnott
aki
ngabout
thosethic
kwomanwi t
ht i
nywaistnono. .
.
s he’
soneoft hos ewoment hatwer ebor nt hickand
eveniftheytrytoloseweightitwonthappenandt heydon’tneedt oloseitc auset heirt hic
kness
looksgoodont hemwi ththeirt
hickwaist,thickthi
ghs,chubbyc heeksac tuallythick
everythi
ng..
.s
he’snotdarks ki
nnedands he’snotl i
ghtskinnedeit hershe’sint hemi ddl e….and
whens hesmi l
esshebr i
ghtensupt heroombec auseofherdeepdi mplesands hedr i
vesTar ek
crazy.
..
he’
smadl yinlovewithherbutt here’sonlyonethingmi ssi
ngi nt heirli
ves ….ac hild….on
theirweddingdays hetookabulletforhim…. shesurvi
vedbutherwombdi dn’t..
.
shenowhave
complicat
ions,shecantcarryachil
df ul
lter m….sofarshe’shadfivemi scarri
ages ….

Shepr etendstobet hishappyandj oyfulpersonbutTar ekcans eerightthroughher ….

heknows
she’sdyingins
ideandi tkill
shimtoknowt hattheonet hingtheybot hwantt heycanthave….yes
theareot herwayst ohaveac hi
ldoftheirownbutTar ekalsohashi sownwi s
hes….togothr
ough
pregnanc ywit
ht hewomanwho’ sgonnac arryhisseed,feeli
ngt hebabykic k,doc
tors
appointmentandhavi ngt hebestsexwithapr egnantwomanhasal waysbeenhi sfantas
yand
alsobeingavailableint hedeli
veryroomt owi t
nesshi schil
d’sbirt
hi shi
sdr eam….tobetheone
tocutt heumbilicalcord…..heknowshec antexperiencethatwi thas ur
rogate***

Hi
ll
s:babear
eyoul
ist
eni
ng

Tar
ek:ye.
.
.yeah

Hi
ll
s:s
oyeahMas
aif
oundoutt
hatSt
evensel
derbr
otheri
sherbabydaddy….
themys
ter
yman

Tar
ek:what
….i
thi
uyadl
ala!
!!(whats
ayyou’
reki
ddi
ng)

***hes
aids
hoc
ked***

Hi
ll
s:s
truubaby

***t
hens
hes
ighed***

Hil
ls:i
mworri
edabouther.
..
youknowhercondi
ti
onandI don’
twantherstr
ess
ingbaby….
ij
ust
hopetheymakei
twithStevensandAl
phal
ettedoes
n’tc
aus et
hempr obl
emswhenhef i
ndsout
aboutAJ

Tar
ek:damn

Hi
ll
s:l
etmegos
howerwhi
leyouor
dermyf
avor
ite

***sheperkedhi
slipsandgotupandTarekspankedherthi
cka$$thenhesqueezeditgett
inga
bonerinst
antl
y….s
he’sthefi
rstt
hickwomanhe’sdated….
hehasalwayshadathingforhour
glas
sfigurewomenbutHi l
ls….
Hil
ls’c
hubbi
nessdri
veshimcrazyi
ncludi
ngthathotstove
betweenherlegs
***

Tar
ek:l
etmej
oinyoubambol
am

***Hi
ll
sst
oppedwal
kingands
hel
aughed***
Hi
ll
s:mar
ababyyous
mel
lfr
eshl
ikeyouj
ustt
ooks
howermos

***hel
aughed***

Tar
ek:t
hatheatout
sidei
nthepat
iomademes
weatagai
nst
handwas
am

***Hi
ll
slaughedandc
ont
inuedt
owal
kwi
thTar
ekbehi
ndher
***

Hi
ll
s:whatheat.
.
.st
opl
yingMvel
ase.
.
.j
usts
ayyouwants
omeoft
hist
hic
ka$$

***s
hes
aidgr
abbi
ngi
tandhec
urs
ed***

Tar
ek:f
#!k!
!!

***s
hel
aughedandpi
ckedupherpac
eandhel
aughed***

Tar
ek:youknowyouc
antoutr
unmebambol
am

***hi
sphoner angass hegotint heirbedroomandhel ookedatt hecal
leridandc lenc
hedhis
jawsthenhedr oppedit….hesi
ghedandwal kedinthenans msreportedonhi sphoneandhe
openedit….hereaditands wall
owedhar dashisheartstartedbeati
ngfast….hishandsshook
thenhefoldedfist
st r
yingtostopt hem….Hewentoutoft hebedroomast hes howerranandhe
wenttopourhi mselfahotdrinkandgul peditatonegot henhec al
meddownt henhetypedan
sms***

Tar
ek:“youdon’
thavet
odot
hatI
’
llt
ellhert
oni
ght
”

***hes
endi
tanddel
etedi
tfr
omhi
sphoneandwentt
ojoi
nhi
swi
fewi
thaheavyhear
t***

TOBECONTI
NUED….
.

#TO-
DARE-
IS-
TO-
DO★ TODAREI
STODO★ 18SLV

.
CHAPTER2

WEEKSLATER

MASAI
NAI
MARAPULA

***I’
ms itti
ngint hebalc
onyatourapar tmenttryingtomakes enseofwhathappenedweeks
back.
..
.ifoundoutt hatmyfiancé’
sbrot heri
sac t
ual l
ys omeguywhomI onces l
eptwithandaf ter
hewasdonewi thmeheki c
kedmeoutofhi shotelrooml ikeI’
ms omeus eles
spr ost
itute.
..
.
The
guytreatedmel ikegarbageandt hewor stpartishel efthisseedinsi
deofmeandI didn’teven
know...
.
.yesweus edacondombutf ewweeksl aterI f
oundoutI waspregnantandhewast he
onlyguyI sl
eptwi thandbeforehimI wass i
nglef or5mont hs
...
.Maybet hecondombr okeandhe
didn’
ttellmeorher emoveditIdon’tknow, whatI knowi she’sthefatherunlessIals
ogot
impregnatedbyt heHolySpirit
..
..
.(sigh)

ThewayI wasdevas t
at edafterhet reatedmel iket r
ashI didn’tevent hinkofdr inkingmor ning
aft
erpill
sevent houghweus edprotec t
ionbecaus ethoset hingsar en’
t100per cents afe.
...
I’
m
herelookingdownatmys onKhai anddamnhel ookslikehi sfather..
.
.inevert houghtI ’
llever
seehimagai n..
.
.ionlyknewhi snameAl phalett
e, Idi
dn’tknowevenwher ehe’sfromandwhi ch
tri
behe’sfrom...
hellIdi dn’
tevenknowi fhe’sSout hAfricanornotc auseweonl ys pokeEngl ish
eventhoughi twasbr iefbefor ehef#c k!dmybr ainsout ,
t hepieceofs h!tdi dn’
tevenhavean
accent.
..
.I
’
ms ureifStevenspai dmor eat tent
ionint ryi
ngt obui l
ds omes ortofrelationshipor
evenmadeanef f
ortins pendingsomet imewi t
hKhai ,hewoul dhaves eenhi sol derbrotherin
him..
..

Stevenneh...
.
eishwemet5mont hagoandni ggadecidedtopropos
eweeksbackt hesameday
hei nt
roducedmet ohiswholefamil
yoffici
all
y..
.
.IswearIwantedtodi
ethereandt henwhenI
sawhi m..
..
iwishedthegroundcoul
dopenandI wouldgladl
yjumpinandhide.
..
(sigh)….
.Anotherthi
nghe’safr
#ak!nsangomal ikeaGobela.
..
athokoz
aMkhulu..
.yesIsawthe
beadsbutI di
dn’tthi
nkhe’saSangomac auseeventhos ewhohaven’
tbeenini
ti
atedwearthem,
Imeansomeweart hemforpr otec
tionandI can’
tdif
ferentiat
ebetweenasangomaandan
i
niti
ateandarandomper s onwhowear sbeadsforprotect
ion..
..
andforasf
arasIknow
Sangomasarenots upposedt ol
ookl i
kethat,Imeanhot .
..
.idi
dn’ts
mellMpephoortradi
ti
onal
herbsonhim.
..
..
nikkas melledli
kemi l
li
ondol l
ars.
..
(sigh)
..
..
.

Anotherthingthatconfusesmei she’safr#ak!nSangomabuthedi dn’

tknowt hathehasac hil
d
outthere.
..
.doesn’
ttradi
tionalheal
ershaves uperpowerst oseethefutureor
something..
.(si
gh).
..
.
thent here’
sStevenshowdoI t
ellhi
mt hathi
sbrotherismys on’
sfather
wellthat’
sifhedidn’
tputt woandt wot oget
herwhenI r
anof faft
erIsawbabydaddy. .
.
.idon’
t
thi
nkhewoul dwantt omar r
ymeanymor e..
..
imagi
nehavi ngac hi
ldwithonebr ot
herand
getti
ngmar riedtoanother..
.
(s i
gh)
..
..
yhoMas aiwatlawaebaka(youj ustdi
dtheunt hi
nkable).
…

ThedooropenedandI turnedtolookandMoer amyt winsi

sterwalkedinholdingshopping
bags..
.
sheputsthemdownandwal kedtous.
..
.shebendandkiss
edKhai ’
sforehead..
..
goshshe
loveshimandspoil
shimr ott
ens odoeshisgrandmother(ourcrazymom)andHi ll
sourother
sist
ernotbybloodthough..
..
KhaicallsmemommyandMoer amamaandhec all
sHills
Mamkhul u.
.
.he’
sasmar tandc l
everc hi
ldandIlovehi
mt obit
s,Ican’
timaginemyl ifewit
hout
him***

Moer
a:hasi
tbeenl
ongs
inc
ear
obet
se(hes
lept
)

***I
jus
tshookmyhead***

Moer
a:kengot
suput
se(whyar
eyous
ulki
ng)

Me:
akat
supul
a(i
mnots
ulki
ng)

Moer
a:okt
henwhyt
hel
ongf
ace

***I
rol
ledmyeyesather
..
..
mxms
hec
anbeabor
e***

Me:
imj
ustwor
riedofhowSt
evenwi
llt
akeori
staki
ngt
henewst
hatKhai
ishi
sbr
other
’sc
hil
d

Moera:mxmoho..
..
thatoneleboyell
owekareguavayagobola(t
hatyel
lowonet hatl
ooksl
ike
arott
enguava)wel
lims ur
ehealreadyknows
..
.i
meanitsbeenweeksandhesti
llhaven’
tcal
led
you….
takeyourl
ossesMasaandmoveon

***s
her
oll
edherey
es***

Me:
hej
ustneeds
omet
imet
ocal
mdown.
.
.il
ovehi
mok

Moer
a:mmmmhIal
sowouldlovet
owearnot hingbutexpens
ivebrandsonl
ybutIcan’
taf
for
dto
bebr
okes
oIs
ett
lef
orsomethingaff
ordabl
es odon’
ttellmeaboutthatyel
lowone….
***s
her
oll
edherey
esagai
n***

Me:what??.
.
.dudewhatdoest
hatgott
odowi
thwhatI
sai
dandyouknowwear
epr
ivi
leged
..
.
stopl
yingandbeingdramat
ic

Moer
a:I
knowi
tgotnot
hingt
odowi
thwhatyous
aidaboutRGbutI
mademypoi
ntc
asec
los
ed

***Ijus
tgavehert
he“wtf”l
ookthenI r
oll
edmyeyes .
..
.
rightthenmyphoner
ingsandi
t’
s
Stevens.
..
.
goshmyheartnear
lys
t oppedbeat
ing.
.
..
.anywayI answer
edwit
hmyheartbeat
ing
fast
***

Me:
babe

***Moer
arol
ledhereyesandt
ookKhai
frommeandwal
kedi
nsi
de***

St
evens
:hey

***i
hear
dhi
msi
gh***

Me:
Itr
iedc
all
ingyou

St
evens
:Idi
dn’
twannat
alkt
oyou

***ouc
h***

St
evens
:ar
eyour
eadyt
ocomec
lean

***youknowwhat
,letmegett
hisoveranddonewi
th***

Me:
ummm….
ther
e’ss
omet
hingyouneedt
oknow

***hec
lear
edhi
sthr
oat
***

St
evens
:iml
ist
eni
ng

***I
sighed.
.
.f#c
kthi
sishar
d..
.
.i
’mevens
haki
ng***

Me:
ummmyourbr
other
..
..
he’
s.
..
he’
sKhai
’
sfat
her

***s
ilenc
e***

St
evens
:tel
lmeyou’
renotgonnat
ellhi
mhe’
sthef
ather

***I
frowned***

Me:
aski
es???

St
evens
:dontt
ellhi
m..
.
pleas
e

***I
can’
tbel
ievet
his
***
Me:whatdoyoumeanI s
houl
dn’
ttel
lhi
mSt
evens
..
..
he’
sKhai
fat
herf
orgoodnes
ssakeandwhy
don’
tyousounds
urpr
ised

St
evens
:I’
l
lrai
sehi
masmyown

***he’
scr
azyt
hisone***

Me:younevershowedint
eres
tinbuil
dingar el
ati
onshi
pwit
hhimandgett
oknowhims
inc
ewe
metandnowj ustbec
ausehe’
syourbrother
’ssonyouwannarai
sehi
masyourown

St
evens:i
mnottheonewho’
swr
ongher
e..
.youhaveaf
#ck#nc
hil
dwi
thmybr
other
..
.i
shoul
d
betheonewho’
sangry!
!!

***hesoundspi
ssedandI
swall
owed.
.
.iputt
hephoneonl
oudspeakerandputi
tonmyl
apand
massagedthesi
desofmyhead.
..
.t
hes
tressi
sshowi
ngmeflames
***

Stevens:t
hissh!ti
sgonnadivi
demyf ami
ly.
.
..
howwil
litlookyouhavi
ngac hil
dwi t
hhimandme
mar r
yingyou..
..
you’
regonnabecal
lednamesandsh!
t.
..
.lookyoucan’
ttel
lhimI’l
lplayaf
ather
ly
roletowardsyoursonandplushe’
sbeendoi
nggoodwithoutafat
herinhisli
fe.
..
whydoyou
wannadi s
rupthisli
fehuh

Me:
youc
an’
thi
det
hathe’
shi
sSt
even.
.
..
hel
ooksl
ikehi
mandwhydon’
tyous
ounds
urpr
ised

St
even:
Iputt
woandt
wot
oget
her
…..

Moer
a:f
#ts
ekRG!
!(pi
ssof
fRG)

***Iquickl
ytur
nedandMoer
alookedangry.
.
.okhowl onghasshebeenst
andingt
here.
..
.
she
snatchedthephonef
rommeandturnedtheloudspeakeroffandputi
tonherear
….oohLor
d
saveme***

Moer a:sebetesesekanaos etseyakae..

..
whot hef3ckareyou.
..
..bonamooj ouhond, Alphal
ett
e
yourbr otherwil
lknowthathehasas onwithMas aandifyoucantac ceptthatandl oveher
regardlessthenfot
sekel
akwaa. ..
.onaganagorekwenaf elaanalengpi pimolefatshelengheh
(wher edoyougett henerve.
..
.whot hef3ckareyou…. l
ookhereyoudogAl phal et
teyour
brotherwi l
lknowthathehasas onwithMas aandifyoucantacceptthatandl oveher
regardlessthenf3ckof
f.
..
.youthinkyou’r
et heonlyonewithadicki nthewor l
d)

Me:
Moer
a!!
!

Moera:heydon’
tst
artwit
hmewenanxa..
..
iseeonyakonnyel
alempyaeeyagao(Is
eeyou
wannas h!
tyour
sel
fwiththi
sdogofy
our
s)….whenitcomestoAJdontpi
ssmeoff

***itlooksl
ikeStevenss
aidsomet
hingt
oherandt
hei
nsul
tst
hatc
ameoutofhermout
hwer
e
jus
tt oomuchf ormyears***

Moer
a:f
ots
#kel
etl
hogoyal
epr
emat
ure(f
3#kyouwi
thapr
emat
urehead)
***s
het
hrewt
hephoneatme***

Moera:i
mdi
sappoi
ntedi
nyout winni
e...
.
yourchi
ldc
omesf
irs
tnotpi
pi(adi
ck)
..
.t
hiss
h!tyou’
re
doi
ngkedes
perati
onfel
a..
.
.ic
an’tbel
ieveyou

***shegavemeanas tylookandwalkedawayandI si
ghedandt ookmyphoneandt hecal
lwas
dropped(sigh)..
.
she’srightanddeepdownI knowI wouldneverdepri
vemys onachanceto
meetandknowhi sf at
herbutI l
oveStevensandi msc
aredthathewillleaveme.
..
.
ihavebad
luckwheni tcomest orelati
onshi
psandever yt
hingwasgoingwellbetweenusunti
lImethis
brotherandr eal
izedthathe’smymys ter
iousbabydaddy..
.
.Moerawalkedbacktome(oohher e
wegoagai n)***

Moera:os anyakong’gafi
sawenawankut lwa.
..
.don’teverandImeanevers ecureadi ckkaAJ .
.
.e
nnelabof el
o..
..
youdon’twannas eetheothersideofme. ..
.
os abat
lagongf er
oladi bet
e
Masai.
...
Phalett
eisoffl
imits..
.
.iusedtodisl
ikehimmar anouIhatehimnxa(don’ tmakemego
craz
yyouhearme. .
..
donteverandI meanevers ec
ur eadickAJ.
..
.i
tshouldbethel astti
me...
.
you
don’
twannas eetheothersideofme...
.dontmakememadMas ai
..
..
Phalet
teisofflimits
..
..
iused
todisl
ikehimbutnowI hatehimnxa)

***shewalkedaway..
..
goshshe’smad.
.
..
.noshe’
sangry.
.
.(s
igh)I
rubbedmyeyest
heyar
e
painf
ul.
.
.theyusual
lygetpai
nfulwhenIhaveaheadac
heorims t
ressed***

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THEFOLLOWI
NGDAY

MOERAZAHRARAPULA

***ImholdingAJandMas aii
spushingthetrol
ley,wear eatt hegrocerystor
eandyest hi
stwin
ofminedidapologiz
eands hepromisedthatshe’
llalwaysputAJf i
rst
.Shejustneedss omet i
me
tofi
ndawayandc ontactbabydaddyandt ellhimt het r
uthwhi chwontbeapr obl
emc auseI
havepeoplewhoc angetmehi scontact
s….Wellshe’ssti
llheartbrokenaboutthec onversati
on
shehadwithRGbuts he’
llbefine….i
praythattheybr eakupf orgoodc aus
ehedoes n’tdeserve
heratal
l***

Mas
ai:
sohowwasl
unc
hwi
thhi
sbr
other
..
.i
nevergott
oas
kyouabouti
t

***I
sighed.
.
.wellI
wenttohavel
unchwit
hmylatefi
anc
é’selderbr
otherDr
enc
h,thel
astt
imeI
sawhimwast hedayaf
terwebur
iedAl
ex,hewasas
sass
inatedonhiswayhomefr
ommypl ac
ea
yearago(s i
gh)wel lhewas n’taguywhodi dlegalthingsands oishisbrother
..
..
ifoundoutone
daywhenwewer ebeingfollowedandheas kedmet otakethewheelandhet ookoutagunI
didn’
tevenknowheownedands tart
eds hootingatt heothercar.
..
.WellIbrokeupwi thhi
mbut
nikkawouldn’tletmebe, hekeptpes t
eringmeunt i
lI gavehimanot herchanceandf r
omt her
e
onwardhet aughtmehowt os hootandfightt oprotectmys el
f.
..
atleasthepromi s
edt omake
sureIdon’tgettobepar tofhi sotherli
feandhekepthi spromiseunt i
ltheykil
ledhimi ncol
d
bloodandevent odayI don’
tknowwhodi dit..
..
iaskedhi sbrot
herandhej usttoldmehet ook
careofitandI s
houl dn’tworr y***

Me:
aar
gjus
tokhewasj
ustc
hec
kinguponme,
hewasi
ntowns
o..
.

***I
jus
tshr
uggedmys
houl
der
s***

Mas
ai:
mmmmh

Me:
andwhat
’st
hats
uppos
edt
omean

Mas
ai:
aft
erayearhec
all
syouandwant
stohavel
unc
hwi
thyou

Me:
andwhat
’swr
ongwi
tht
hat

Masai
:noof
fens
ebutyouwer
eengagednotmar
riedt
ohi
sli
ttl
ebr
others
owhyi
shec
hec
king
uponyou

***s
her
ais
edhereyebr
owatme.
.
..
mxm***

Me:
tsek

***s
hel
aughed.
.
.mxmt
hisi
diot
***

Me:
youc
anbeani
diots
omet
imes

***s
hec
ont
inuedt
olaughunt
ilAJs
hout
ed“
papapapa”t
ryi
ngt
ogetof
fmyhol
d***

Me:
AJwhati
sit

***het
riedt
owi
ggl
eoutofmyhol
dshout
ing“
papapapa”
***

Voi
ce:WHATTHEFUCK!
!!

***adeepscar
ymalevoic
es ai
dandwebothl
ookedwher
eitwasc
omi
ngf
romandwef
roz
e..
.
”
oohshit
”iswhati
spl
ayinginmyhead***

AJ
:papa

***hewasnowc
ryi
ng.
.
..
theguyl
ookedatMas
aiandatAJwi
thas
car
yfr
ownonhi
sfac
e***

AJ
:papa!
!!
***hewal
kedcl
oserandtookAJfr
ommeandt hi
sli
ttl
ebetrayerwr
appedhi
sti
nyhandsar
ound
hisnec
kandherest
edhisheadonhiss
houl
dersni
ff
ing***

Hi
m:whatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon

***hes
aidl
ooki
ngatMas
ai.
.
.hel
ookeds
hoc
kedandI
canal
sos
ees
omeangeronhi
sfac
e***

Me:
shec
anexpl
ain

***Iwasscaredf ormytwinnie.
.
.shelookedl i
kes he’
saboutt ofai
nt.
..
thi
snikkal
ookss caryand
inti
midati
ng.
..thosedarkeyeshidesomet hingsinis
ter,eventhatmoleonhischeek,thedark
colorofhi
sskinandt heblackandgr ayi
shbear donhi sfacemadehimani nti
midati
ng,s c
ary,
dropdeadgor geoushandsomemot her f
#c k#r.
..
(phweeeu) ..
.
outoftheblueMasairanaway
leavi
ngmeandhers onal
onewi ththishandsomec r
eep***

Me:
theF!
!!Nos
hedi
dn’
t.
..
.
oohnoos
hedi
dn’
t

Al
phal
ett
e:what
’sal
lthi
s….
what
sgoi
ngon

***I
sighed.
.
..yhoI
haveac
owar
dofas
ist
erbat
hong.
.
.ibr
eat
hedoutl
ooki
ngathi
m***

Me:Wellhe’
syoursonandIswears
hewasaboutt
otellyou.
.
..shedi
dn’tknowwheret
ofindyou
andwhenyoufinal
lymetshewasscar
edcaus
eyouareherfiancésbr
other..
.
shedi
dn’
tknow
howtoapproac
hyou

***isai
dthatf
astt
henilookedatthishands
ometinybet
rayerrest
inghi
sheadonhisdad’
s
shoul
derli
kehehasknownhi msincehewasins
ideMasa’
sbelly(mxmneverevert
rustthi
s
gender)
***

Al
phal
ett
e:c
allherandf
ini
shs
hoppi
ngweneedt
otal
kmeandher

***Ij
ustnoddedandc
all
edher.
.
..
whothef#ckrunawayandl
eaveshert
wins
ist
erandc
hil
d
withastr
anger.
..
.
yhoMasai
!!
!(cl
aponce)***

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MASAINAI
MARAPULA

***Idon’
tknowwhathappenedbutIjus
tpanickedandfoundmys elfrushingoutofthe
shop..
.
wellmoreli
kerunni
ngoutoftheshop,
I onl
ysnappedoutofi twhenI wasintheparki
ng
lotbyMoera’
scar..
.
.GoshhowcanKhaidothistome..
..
iwasn’tready.
...
ijustgotoffthecal
lwit
h
MoeraandI f
eelbadforl
eavi
ngherandKhaialonewit
hAl phalett
e..
..
ijustpanicked.
..
.wi
thatai
l
betweenmylegsIwentback.
..
.
igoti
nsi
det hes
toreands
earchedfort
hemandfoundMoera
shoppi
ngandKhaiwassti
lli
nAlphal
ett
e’sarmsashewalkedbehi
ndMoera.
.
..
iswall
owedhard
andwalkedc
losert
othem***

Me:
ims
orr
ytwi
nni
e

***s
hegavemeameanl
ookt
hens
hes
hookherhead(ei
sh)
***

Moer
a:l
etsf
ini
shupher
esoyout
woc
angoandt
alk

***I
swallowednothi
ngandnodded.
.
..
icoul
dfeelhi
seyesonmebutI
coul
dn’
tevenl
ookat
him.
..
.gos
himf #c
k#d***

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ALPHALETTENTSAKO MABUNDA

***Ic an’tbeli
evethis
..
..
ireall
yc an’tbelievethis.
..
..Ihaveas on, awhol esonandt omeethi mf or
thefirs tti
mei nagrocer
ys toreisjust..
.
.yah...
..i
ml ookingatt hiswomanandt hi
nki ngaboutthe
timewef #ck#dandhowI t
reatedher ..
..t
hef actthatshekeptt hepregnanc yevent houghshe
didn’thavet ojustmakesmer especther ..
..
AfterhowI tr
eat edhers hedi dn’thavet okeept he
pregnanc ybutshedidandmademeaf ather.
..
.Wellthes ignswer ethere,thedr eamsandme
hearingac hil
dcryoutloudoutoft hebl ueandwhenI lookar oundther e’
snoc hildins i
ght.
..
.
.i
just
...
..eis
h...
.imess
eduppr ettybad. .
..
.idon’tevenhavear ightt obemadather , wehadaone
nights tandwhi chwasbadf orher(s igh)..
..
yahnehl ifeismes sedup, she’smybabymamaand
she’sengagedt omyyoungerbr other .
..
Anywayt heypai df orever yt
hingandhers i
sterleft
***

Me:
let
’sgo

Her
:wh.
.
.wher
e?

***s
hel
ookss
car
ed***

Me:
tot
alk

***t
hel
it
tlemani
ssl
eepi
ngpeac
eful
lyi
nmyar
ms***

Her
:wec
ans
iti
nar
est
aur
antand.
.
..
tal
k

Me:
nol
etsgo

***I
wentt
owar
dst
hepar
kingands
hef
oll
owedbehi
ndme***
Her:Al
phalet
tei
..
.
idon’
tfeelc
omf
ort
abl
egoi
ngwi
thyou.
.
..
let
sjus
tgos
iti
nther
est
aur
antand
tal
kpleas
e

***I
tur
nedandl
ookedather
***

Me:
what
smaki
ngyouunc
omf
ort
abl
e

***Shes
wal
lowed***

Her
:pl
eas
egi
vememys
onwewi
llt
alks
omeot
hert
ime

***I
chuc
kled***

Me:
heisourson.
.
..
ourson..
.
.ididn’
tabandonedyouwithhi
mandit’
snotyourfaultt
hatI
was
n’t
t
hereei
thers
oforpeac
et oreinbetweenus..
..
forhi
ssakel
et’
snotacti
rrat
ional

***s
hej
ustl
ookedatmewi
thaf
rownonherf
ace***

Me:
nowl
etsgot
alkt
henI
’
lldr
iveyouhome

***Iconti
nuedtowalktowheremyc ari
sleavi
ngherstandi
ngther
e..
..
iunloc
kedmyc arand
openedthebackseatdoorandwai
tedforher.
..
.
shelookedangr
y(welltough).
.
..
shereac
hedt he
carandgotinandIgaveherthel
it
tlemanandc los
edthedoorandgotinsi
dethedri
verseatand
offwewent..
..

Aft
ersomet i
mewear ri
vedandmyr emotecontr
oll
edgateopenedandI drovei
nandparked
andIgotoutandopenedherdoorandtooktheli
ttl
emanandwal kedinsi
dewhileshef
ollowed
me...
.i
wenttothebedroomdowns t
air
sandputours ondownands hecameandputhimina
comfort
ablepos
iti
onandwewentbac ktotheloungeandsatdown***

Me:
somet
hingt
odr
ink

***shej
ustshookherheadno(si
gh).
..
.i
wentt
opourheragl
assofj
uiceins
teadandtooka
bott
leofbeerformeandputtheglas
sdownonthecof
feet
ablei
nfrontofherandsatdown
thenIsi
ghed***

Me:
what
’shi
sname

***shecl
earedhert
hroat
..
..Ic
ouldseet
hats
helookeduncomfor
tabl
eshekeptpl
ayi
ngwi
thher
phonethat’
sonherhands
..
.asformemymindisworki
ngovert
ime***

Her
:Al
…..
Alphal
ett
eKhai
Rapul
a

***Ic
an’
tbel
ieves
henamedhi
mafterme..
..
shes
houl
dbehat
ingmebuts
henamedours
on
aft
erme.
..
.Anywayic
lear
edmythr
oat***
Me:
what
’st
hes
tor
ybehi
ndKhai

Her
:mymot
hernamedheraf
terourl
atef
ather

***I
jus
tnoddedandopenedt
hebeerwi
thmyt
eet
handt
ookas
ip***

Me:
whathappenedt
ohi
m..
.
yourf
ather

***s
hebr
eat
hedoutandbl
inkedf
astpr
obabl
ytof
ightbac
kthet
ear
s***

Her
:di
edi
nac
arac
cidental
ongwi
thmybi
ologi
calmot
her

**s
hes
ighed.
.
.ohhhs
othemot
hers
het
alkedabouti
snotherbi
ologi
calmot
her
..
.mmmhok***

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SHALATEHI
LLSMTHEMBU

Tar
ek:lookI
loveyoubabe.
.
..
ili
vef
oryounana.
.
.i
mdoi
ngt
hisf
orus
..
.i
didt
hisf
orus
..
.i
loveyou
bel
ieveme

***I j
ustlookedathi m..
..
myf ac eisfill
edwi thtearsandI keeponwi pingmys nortwithmy
shirt.
..
.ic
antbel i
evehedi dt hist ome, I lovet hi
smanwi thever ythingi nmeandhedomel ike
this.
..
.idi
dn’tevens eethes igns .
..
.I almos tdiedonourweddi ngdaybec auseofhi mnowhehur t
mebybr ingingathirdpart yintoourl i
ves ,ourmar ri
age...
..
thispi eceofs h!tcheat edandgott he
sidedishpr egnantandnowhewant st ot akeherast hes econdwi f
eknowi ngf ull
ywel lthatI
can’tcarryababyt ofulltermbec auseonourweddi ngday, Iwass hotbyhi sex. ..
.
wells he
want edtos hoothimandI stoodi nf rontofhi m. .
.
.nowI regretits hes hould’veki l
ledhimi nstead
thiswor l
dwoul dbeabet terpl acewi thouthi m…. .
hec onfessedl astnightandi vejustbeeni n
hellsincethen,atfirs
tI t
houghti tsapr ankbuti tsnot..
.i
mhur tbeyondmeas ur e,If
eell i
kemy
heartwi l
lstopbeatinganymi nutenow…. ifeelli
keimaboutt or unmad. .
..
iraisedmyheadand
lookedathi m***

Me:I
’
llneverf
orgi
veyouf
ort
his

Tar
ek:bambol
waml
ookwe.
.
.wec
anmakei
twor
kIpr
omi
sedyou.
.
.wewi
ll

***i
cantbel
ievet
hisman***

Me:
Iwantadi
vor
ce

***hi
seyespoppedoutandI
sawhi
shandss
tar
ttos
hake***
Tar
ek:thatwil
lneverhappen.
.
..
minanawes
ohl
ukani
swaukuf
aShal
ate!
!!(onl
ydeat
hwi
llbr
eak
usapar
tShalate)

***mor
etear
sgus
hedout
***

Me:IWANTADIVORCETAREKMTHEMBU. .
.
.IWANTITNOW….IMDONE….I
MDONE….IENDURED
ALOTFORYOU….YOURMOTHERHATESME, SHEEVENINSULTSMYLATEMOTHEREVERY
CHANCESHEGETJUSTBECAUSEIFAI
LTOMAKEYOUAFATHER…. IMDONE….
.THERE’
SNO
COMINGBACKFROMTHIS….I
GIVEUP….I
MDONE!!!

***i
shout
edathi
m***

Tarek:NGEKEUYITHOLEKIMI.
.
..
NGEKE!
!!(you’
llnevergetf
romme. .
.
never
!!!
).
..
.
YOUAREMY
WIFEANDI TWILLREMAI NLI
KETHATUNTILUMVELI NQANGI (GOD)REMEMBERSONEOFUS
EVENATTHATYOU’ LLSTI
LLREMAI
NMYWI FEEVENI NDEATH!!!

Me:IHATEYOU..
.
.GETTHEF#CKOUT.
.
..
GETOUTNJ
ADI
NI….
I’
LLNEVERFORGI
VEYOUFOR
THI
S….NEVER!
!!

***Isaidcryi
ngoutloudandhej ustwalkedawayl ooki
ngangryleavingmec ryi
ngmyl ungs
out.
..
.hejusthurtmebeyondr epai
randhes ti
llhasthegutstoshoutandl ookangr
y….f#ck
him!.
...
hehurtmedeepl y.
..
.i
lovehim,Igavehimmyal landItr
ustedhimandnowhe’ sdoingme
li
kethis..
.
.he’
sbreaki
ngmel ikethi
s..
..
.
howdar ehe. .
.
.aft
erever
ythingwe’vebeenthrough..
.
.af
ter
allt
hepr omisesandpledgeshemadet omehebr eaksmel i
kethis***

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MASAI
NAI
MARAPULA

***myphoneri
ngasAl
phal
ett
eisbus
ytal
kingt
owhomeveront
hephoneandi
tsMoer
aagai
n
soIans
wered***

Me:
twi
nni
e

Moer
a:ar
eyouandAJs
til
lok

***i
sighed***

Me:
yeah

Moer
a:okcal
lmei
fsomet
hinghappensf
ornowi
mgoi
ngt
oseeHi
ll
sshes
oundedabi
tof
fover
t
hephone
***i
jus
tfr
owned….
ihopei
tsnot
hings
eri
ous
***

Me:
okkeepmeupdat
ed

Moer
a:s
ure

***weendedt
hec
all
***

Al
pha:s
orr
yaboutt
hat
….

***hes
aids
itt
ingdown***

Al
pha:t
wins

***oohhe’
sdonewi
thhi
sphonec
all.
.
..
anywayI
nodded***

Al
pha:who’
stheol
des
t

Me:
her

***henodded***

Al
pha:I
coul
dtel
l….
sodoesSt
evensknow

***i
swal
lowedhar
dlooki
ngdown**

Me:
y..
.
yeah

Al
pha:mmhhh

***thensi
lence.
..
..
het henhegotupagainandputt hebottleontopofthecof
feetabl
ethen
cametowardsme...
.goshmyhear tisevenbeatingfast.
..
.hereac
hedouthisbighandtomeand
heindi
cat
edt hatIshouldtakeitandIswallowednot hi
ngands l
owlyputmyhandonhi sandhe
hel
pedmeupt henoutoft hebluehepulledmei nt
ohi sbroadandmus c
ledchestandheheld
meandI j
uststoodther eshoc
ked***

Him:thankyouforkeepi
ngthepregnanc
y..
.t
hankyouf
ormaki
ngmeaf
atherandi
msor
ryf
oral
l
thepainIcaus
edyou….ihopeonedayyou’
llf
orgi
veme

****whatt
he….
.
didhej
ust
…..
ummmyho***

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NUED….

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CHAPTER3

J
ABU

***I can’tbelieveSbudi dthat,Ididn’tevenknowhehadi tinhim( si

gh) .
.
..
imj us
tgl admy
brotherst ookc areofeverythingandt heyevendeal twi t
ht hepol i
cethatwer ec al
ledbyt he
noisyneighbor s .
.
..
AfterRus l
anwi pedoutt hescenewher eSbus hotAmof r
omherbr ainthey
tookhert ot hehos pit
al.
..
.Whatbaf flesmei sthatuSbudoes n’tevens howr emor seforwhathe
did.
..
..
Heat htalkedtohimandwhathef oundouts hockedever yone..
..
hes aidSbus aidshe
deservesi tandmor eforhavingLilekilledandt hat’
swhenweknewt hathehear dust alki
ng,I
event oldmybr othersthatwes houl dalsowipeSbu’ smemor yaboutt hatshooti
ngs c
eneand
Ruslans aideveni fhedoes ,itwillturnmyboyi ntoanangr yhumanbei ngc ausehe’snot
remor sefulandt here’sj
usttoomuc hangeri nhims oheneedst oletgooft hatangerands ee
thatwhathedi diswrongt henhec anwi peoffthatscene

Thingsaresti
llbadonmys ide,allIdoisdr i
nktonumbt hepain,
Isti
llcan’
tbeli
evethatmyl i
ttl
e
gir
lisgonejustli
kethat .
..
.i
c an’
ts eemt oacceptiti
nfactIknowIneverwill
,shewaskill
edin
col
dbl ood(swallowedt eary).
..
.
.iwi s
hI canturnbackthehandsofti
meandl eaveAmol i
keI was
tol
dt odo..
.
.iwishIli
stenedt oever yonewhowar nedmeaboutherr ecentchangeofatti
tude***

Heat
h:youknowber
vei
snotas
olut
ionr
ight

***hes
aidwal
kingi
n***

Me:
jus
tletmemour
nformypr
inc
essi
npeac
ejoh

***I
hear
dhimsi
gh..
..
he’sbeent
her
einfac
talloft
hemar ethereformebutal
lIwanti
stobeon
myownbutheithes
es namnams(f
ool
s)don’
tcaretheyareallupinmyfac
esayi
ngtheydon’
t
wantmetobeal
onenxa***
Heath:
whi
leyou’
rebusymour
ningourpri
nces
sdon’
tfor
getaboutourpr
inc
e,heal
soneedshi
s
fat
hermor
eespeci
all
yaft
erwhathedid

Me:uz
obaright(
he’
l
lbef
ine)
..
..
angi
thi
heknowshowt
oai
magunands
hooti
ncol
dbl
oods
o
uz
obaright

***I
sai
ddi
smi
ssi
vel
y***

Heat
h:f
#ts
ek.
.
..
you’
ret
alki
ngr
ubbi
shnowms
unuwakhonxa(youc
unt
)

***hewalkedawaylookingpi
ss edmxm...
.
icont
inuedt
odri
nkmybeerwi
thmypri
ncess’
sfac
e
plas
teredi
nmymi nd..
..
fuck.
..
.tearsgus
hedoutofmyeyesasmymindwentt
ohowIfoundher
bodycoveredi
nbloodonherbed***

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---

NARRATI
ON

***Kennysl
ammedi
ntoherandf
il
ledt
hec
ondomwi
thhi
ssemenandheki
ssedher
for
ehead***

Kenny:t
hankyous
thandwas
am(myl
ove)

***hes
aidsmil
ingatherandshes
mil
edbackathi
m..
.
.hepul
ledouts
lowl
yandl
aidnextt
oher
andpul
ledhertohi
schestandhel
dher
***

Kenny:doyouhaves
econdt
hought
saboutgi
vingusac
hanc
e

***Shes
ighed***

Lol
ly:i
mjus
tsc
aredofwhatpeopl
ewi
lls
aymor
ees
pec
ial
lyyourf
ami
ly

Kenny:wel
lIdon’
tcar
ewhatpeopl
ewi
lls
ayasl
ongasI
haveyoubymys
idenot
hingel
se
matters

***shesnuggledcl
oserfeeli
ngloved.
..
shewassti
llheart
brokenbyJabu’swordsbutshet
old
hers
elfthatshewontdwel lonwhathappenedeventhoughithurttohearhimblamingherf
or
herdaughter’
sdeath.
..
shes t
il
lcantbel
ieveJ
abuli
leisgonejustl
ikethat
***

Lol
ly:youdoknowt
heygonnac
allmenamesr
ight

Kenny:andpeopl
ewi
lll
oset
hei
rteet
h
***s
hel
aughedandhej
oinedher
***

Lol
ly:you’
rec
raz
y

Kenny:i
nlovewi
thyouyeah

***s
hebl
ushedandheki
ssedt
het
opofherhead***

Lol
ly:whydi
dIendupwi
thhi
mandnotyou

***Kennys
ighed***

Kenny:bec
auseIwast
oomuc
hint
omaki
ngmoneyandmaki
ngut
hai
ma(f
ather
)pr
oudt
hatI
for
gottoli
veali
ttl
e

***Hes
ighed***

Kenny:i
mjus
tsor
ryt
hatI
was
n’tt
her
etopr
otec
tyou.
.
..
.

***heki
ssedt
het
opofherhead***

Kenny:buti
mher
enowandI
won’
tletanyt
hinghappent
oyou

***shes
ighednotsayi
nganyt
hingthenherphoner
ang,
sher
eac
hedf
ori
tandi
twasSbuc
all
ing
herandshequi
cklyanswer
edsitt
ingup***

Lol
ly:Sbuhey

Sbu:h.
.
his
isLol
ly

Lol
ly:ummar
eyouok

***hes
oundedabi
tof
f***

Sbu:umm.
.
..
whe.
.
.whenar
eyouc
omi
ngt
hiss
ides
isLol
ly

***s
hef
rowned***

Lol
ly:ummi
mnots
ure.
.
.what
’swr
ong.
.
.ar
eyouok.
.
..
dids
omet
hinghappen

***hekeptqui
etabi
t***

Lol
ly:Sbu?
?

Sbu:I
needt
otal
ktoyouandnotovert
hephone.
.
.i
..
.
.

***Het
hens
nif
fed***

Sbu:pl
eas
emaket
imeandc
omet
hiss
ides
isLol
ly
***herhear
tisnowbeat
ingf
ast
***

Lol
ly:okI
’
llc
omet
hisFr
idayhow’
sthat

Sbu:ok

Lol
ly:Sbuwhat
’swr
ong.
.
..
areyouok

Sbu:i
..
.
.idi
dsomet
hingbad

Lol
ly:okokI
’
llc
omeonFr
idayandweummmwewi
llt
alkabouti
tok

Sbu:ok

Lol
ly:okI
’
llc
hec
konyoul
aterok

Sbu:ok

***t
heyendedt
hec
allands
hebr
eat
hedout
***

Kenny:what
’swr
ong

Lol
ly:i
tsSbuJ
abu’
sson.
.
..
somet
hinghappenedand.
.
..
hej
usts
oundedof
f

Kenny:whyi
shec
all
ingyou.
.
..
wher
eishi
sfat
herandot
herf
ami
lymember
s

***s
hel
ookedathi
mwi
thar
ais
edey
ebr
ow***

Lol
ly:maybehec
hoos
est
otr
ustmei
nst
eadoft
hem

Kenny:I
don’tf
eelcomfort
ablewi
ththisLorr
aine.
..
.
.heknowsyou’ref
arandnowyougonnago
ther
ewher eel
sewes houl
dbespendi
ngt i
met ogethert
hisweekend.
..
.youknowI
plannedt
his
weekendforustogettoknoweachothersomemor e

***Lor
rai
nebr
eat
hedoutget
tingof
fthebed***

Kenny:uyaphi
manj
e(wher
ear
eyougoi
ngnow)

Lol
ly:mypl
ace

***s
hes
aidpi
cki
ngherc
lot
hesandget
tingdr
ess
edandKennys
ighed***

Kenny:ar
eyouangr
yatmenow

Lol
ly:nopeI
jus
t..
.
.

***s
hes
ighed***

Lol
ly:Sbui
sagoodboyKenny.
..
.
respectf
ulandki
nd..
.
.hi
sfamil
yhel
pedmeagr eatdeal
..
..
ifi
t
wasn’tf
ort
hemespeci
all
yJabu,Heathandhisgr
andmotherwewouldn’
thavef
oundmy
brother
’sbody.
..
.andnowSbuwant
shelpfromme.Ican’
tbel
ieveyous
omehowf eelent
itl
edto
choosewhoI shouldhel
pandwhoIshoul
dn’t.
.
..
Sbui
sfamil
yt omeandifyoudon’
tgett
hatthen
angazi(Idon’
tknow)

***Kennysi
ghedgett
ingoutofbedandhetookofft
hec
ondomonhi
snowf
lac
cidmanhoodand
hereachedf
oratis
sueandwr appedi
twit
hit***

Kenny:lookI
don’
tfeelenti
tl
edoranyt
hingli
kethat
..
..
myquesti
oniswouldyoufeelhappyi
fI
cancelonusandgohelpsomeboyorgirli
nanot
herprovi
nce.
.
.aboythathasafatherandot
her
famil
ymember swhocanhelphim

Lol
ly:het
rus
tedmeKennet
h

***s
hes
aiddef
ens
ivel
y***

Kenny:t
henwhataboutme.
.
.whataboutus
..
.t
hisweekendheh

***hes
aidget
tingpi
ssedof
f***

Kenny:Iplannedthisweekendforus
..
..ever
ythi
ngispai
dandnowyou’
redroppi
ngever
ythi
ngt
o
gohelpaboyt hatyouarenotevenrelatedto.
..
..
youwantedt
hist
owork.
..
wepromis
edthatwe
wil
lgivethisourallandal
readyimbeings i
deli
nedandnotmadeapr
iori
ty

***hes
hookhi
shead***

Kenny:youc oul
d’vef
orc
edhimt otel
lyouovert
hephoneandhelpedhi
mr es
olveitovert
he
phoneors uggest
edtocallhi
sfat
heroruncl
esorsomethi
ngbutnotwhatyoujustdi
dasifI
meannot hingtoyou

***sheswal
lowedlooki
ngathi
m..
.
.hel
ookedangr
y,s
hewat
chedhi
mpi
cki
nghi
sunder
wearand
walkingt
othebathroom***

Kenny:l
ockt
hedooronyourwayout

***shes wall
owedhar dast
ear sf
il
ledhereyesthenshepickedherhandbagandwal ked
out.
..
.insi
dethebathroomKennyc lenchedhisj
awstryi
ngt ocal
mhims elfdown..
.
.hedidn’
thave
aprobl emwiththeboybuthehasapr obl
emwi thhi
sfatheranduncl
e...
.
whatt hegrandmother
sai
dt hattimest
ills
tuckwithhimandhet ol
dhimsel
fthatifsheagr
eest obehishe’l
lmakes ur
e
shestaysawayfromt hemes peci
allyJ
abu***

Kenny:damni
t

***hes
aidf
eel
ingf
rus
trat
edandhegoti
nsi
det
hes
hower
***

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ALPHALETTE’
SHOUSE

NARRATI
ON

***At3i nthemorninghewasal readyawakebus ymixi

ngherbshe’
sgonnaus etohelpKgosi
hisf
riendandpati
entwi t
h,hefini
s hedmixingtheher
bshummi nghi
sfavori
teancestr
alsong
andhewentt otheroomKgos iwass leepi
nginandhes t
oodbythebedlookingathim..
..
hecould
seehewasr est
les
sinhiss l
eepandhef el
tsorr
yforhi
mc aus
ehe’sbeenthroughhellandback
andstil
lhe’
sgoingthroughhellnow***

Kgos
i:t
akeapi
ctur
eitl
ast
slonger

Al
pha:nxI
thoughtyou’
res
leepi
ng

Kgos
i:howc
anI
sleepwhenal
lyous
mel
lli
kei
sdi
tl
har
e(her
bs)

***Al
phal
ett
echuc
kled***

Al
pha:getupands
howers
oonwewi
lll
eavef
ort
her
ivert
ocl
eans
eyou

***Kgos
isi
gheds
itt
ingup***

Alpha:oohandyourbrot
heri
swai
ti
ngouts
idetheyar
dlooki
ngangry..
.
.heneedst
oc hi
lland
resti
npeacethist
hingofhi
mmeddli
nginlover
squar
rel
sisnoton.
.
..whycanthebehavelike
otherances
tors

***hes
hookhi
sheadheadi
ngf
ort
hedoor
***

Alpha:i
ms t
il
lsayingitagai
n..
.
.vanhuvalevukos
ini
vakar
atanas
wipokos
wakona(r
oyal
ty
peoplearet
roublesomeevent hei
rghost
s)

***hewal
kedoutandKgos
isi
ghed.
.
.hegotoutofbedandwentt
otheen-
sui
teandt
ooka
shower
***

ATTHERI
VER

***Alphal
ett
emi xedc
oinswit
hmut hii
naplasti
cbowlchant
ingt
henhet
hrewtheminsi
dethe
fl
owingwaterthenhestoodt
herequiet
ly.
.
..
thenoutoft
hebluest
rongwi
ndst
artedbl
owing
aroundthemthent
heyhear
dadef i
nings
oundcomi
ngfromthebushest
hats
urr
oundst
he
ri
ver..
.
itwasaswar
mofbeesfl
yingtowar
dsthemathi
ghspeed***

Alphal
ette:donotpani
canddon’
t,I
repeat
..
..
don’
tletyourot
herper
sonal
it
iest
akeoveroral
l
thi
swillbefornothi
ng

***Kgosiswallowedhardast hebeess ur
roundedt hemmaki ngbonechil
lingnoise.
..
.
they
surroundedthemf orsometimeunt ilt
heyflewawayf romt hemandKgos ibreathedoutl
oud
reli
evedandt heywaited.
..
.
afterami nuteorsoahuges nakesl
idoutofthewat erandKgosihel
d
hispeetightasitwasaboutt ocomeoutasf earcreptinwhileAlphal
ett
eknel tontheground
withhisheadbowed. .
..i
tsl
itheredtowardsKgosiandt hatpeehewashol dingrandownhislegs
ashevi s
iblyshook***

Kgos
i:oohGod.
.
.oohGod.
.
.Al
phal
ett
e..
.
..

***hewhis
per
edandtri
edtocal
lAl
phal
ett
e..
.
.i
tsurr
oundedhi
ml ooki
ngscar
ythenitr
ais
edi
ts
headfac
inghi
manditopenedi
tsmout
hwideri
ghtonhisf
aceandKgosif
aint
ed***

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---
---
---

SHALATE(HI
LLS)

***Myheartisbl
eedingandI keepaskingmyselfifi
mdreamingorwhat.
..
.
ican’
tbeli
eveTar
ek
i
sdoingthi
stome. Ican’
tbel
ievehec hoosestobreakmelikethi
s,I
havegi
venthismanmy
hear
t,bodyandsoulandhejus thur
tsmel ikeImeannot
hingtohim***

Moer
a:ha’
ahHi
ll
s.
..
.
youwon’
tki
llyour
sel
fbec
aus
eofaman

***s
hes ai
dwalki
ngf r
omt heki
tchenandI wipedmyt earsof
fwit
hmys hir
t,she’sbeenwithme
si
nceIcall
edherhere.
..
.s
he’smybes tf
riendandsi
steralongwit
hhertwinsisterMas ai
,wel
l
Masaii
smor el
ikeouryoungers
istersi
nc eMoerai
stheel des
tandimolderthanbot hthem***

Me:
ithur
tsMo

Moer
a:I
knowbabyt
rus
tmeI
know.
.
.ij
ustwi
shI
cant
akeawayyourpai
n

***Shes
aidwi
thapai
nedl
ookonherf
ace***

Me:howcanhedomeli
kethi
sMo.
.
..
allI
’
veeverdonei
slovehi
mMo.
.
..
igavehi
mmywhol
e
hear
tandhedomeli
kethi
s

Moer
a:he’
sas
elf
ishpi
gthat
’swhy.
.
..
he’
sjus
tluc
kyyous
til
llovehi
morel
sehewoul
dbeHi
tl
er’
s
bi
tchi
nhel
lbynow

***trustmes hemeansi t
..
..
Moer ais
..
.yahI ’
llj
ustleaveitatt
hat
..
.anywayIj
ustwipedmyf al
li
ng
tears.
..
Tarekhashur tmebeyondr epair.
.
.rightthenthedooropenedandthedevilhi
ms el
f
walkedi n,I
jus tfel
tmyhear tbeati
ngf astasangerf il
ledmeup..
.
.ihear
dMoer achuckl
ingnext
tome. .
..
.wells hehateshi
m...
.shealwaysf elthe’
snotgoodenoughf ormeandI t
hinkhejust
provedherr ight***

Tar
:hi

Moer
a:ar
enyai
nxa(he’
ssayi
ngnyai
nxa)

***s
hegotupandwentbac
ktot
heki
tchen.
.
..
hes
ighedandc
amet
owar
dsme***

Tar
:of
cour
seyouwoul
dcal
lherwhenwear
ehavi
ngpr
obl
emsi
nourmar
riage

***I
jus
tchuc
klednx.
.
..
.t
hismani
stes
tingmef
orr
eal
***

Me:
probl
emsTar
ek???

Tar
:looks
thandwas
am

Me:
don’
tcal
lmet
hat

***hes
ighed***

Tar
:Iknowyoudon’
tseei
tnowbuti
mdoi
ngt
hisf
orus
..
..
pleas
ejus
ttr
ustme

Me:
leavemys
ightTar
ek

***I
sai
dnotevenl
ooki
ngathi
mandI
hear
dhi
msi
ghi
ng***

Tar
:Il
ovey
oumkami
..
.
.kakhul
ufut
hi(I
loveyoumywi
fe.
.
.al
ot)

Me:
mxm

Tar
:I’l
lletallt
hisdi
sres
pectgoc
aus
eyou’
rehur
tbutdon’
tmakei
tahabi
tcaus
enextt
imeI
won’tbet hi
sunders
tanding

***hes
aidwi
thas
eri
oust
one***

Moer
a:kol
obeyanodec
id(
a)gononamopel
aka(api
gjus
tdec
idedt
ogetf
att
eri
nfr
ontofme)

***s
hes
aids
tandi
ngbyt
heki
tchenent
ranc
e..
.
.shel
ookspi
ssed***

Tar
:thisi
smyhous
eMoer
ainf
actI
thi
nkyous
houl
dleave,
youhavenobus
ines
swi
thmy
marit
alaff
air
s

Moer
a:wel
ltoughc
aus
ethi
sismys
ist
er’
shous
easmuc
hasi
tsyour
s
***s
hes
aidwi
thanat
tit
ude***

Tar
:she’
snotyourf
#ck#ns
ist
er!
!!

***hes
hout
ed**

Moer
a:andyou’
renotmanenough.
.
.yourpoi
ntMrmanwhor
e???

***s
hes
aidwi
thanat
tit
ude***

Tar
:whatdi
dyouc
allme

***hesaidwalkingt
owardsherr
eadyt odos
omet
hinghe’
l
lpr
obabl
yregr
etandI
gotup.
.
.ineed
tostopthisbef
oreallhel
lbr
eakl
oose***

Me:
STOP.
.
.STOPI
TYOUTWO!
!!

***Tars
toppedwal
kingl
ooki
ngangr
ywhi
leMoj
usts
toodt
her
eunbot
her
ed***

Moera:THEREASONSHECANTGIVEYOUACHILDISBECAUSESHESAVEDYOURUNGRATEFUL
A$$….OUNGRATEFULWENA…..
SHESHOULD’VELETYOUDIEI’
MSURESHEWOULDBEHAPPI LY
MARRIEDWITHHEROWNKI DSANDALOVI NGANDFAITHFULHUSBANDBYNOWANDNOT
DEALINGWITHBOFEBEBAGAO(withyourwhor
ingways)

Tar
:Iwantheroutofmyhous
eShal
ater
ightt
hismi
nut
e!!
!

***hesai
dpoint
ingatherl
ookingangr
yandIj
ustbr
eathedout
..
.i
don’tneedt
his
..
.hewal
ked
awayandI j
usts
atdownfeeli
ngoverwhel
medandIheardMoerasi
gh***

Moer a:I’
msorryyou’
rehurti
ngbuti mnots orryfort
elli
nghi mthetruth….yougotshotandIkept
quiet….hermothertr
eatsyouli
kes h!tandI keptqui
etc ausetheyareyourinlawsbutenoughis
enoughShal at
e….enoughisenough….gaoc hiwana(y ou’r
enotaor phan)youhaveaf amil
yand
i
tki l
lsmewheneverI seeyoutryi
ngt ohideyourpainwi thyoursmile….i
tkill
smeHi l
ls

***t
ear
srandownmyc
heeksandal
ouds
obl
eftmymout
h***

Moer
a:I
’
lll
eave.
.
..butI
’
llbebac
kwhenhe’
snotar
ound

***I
jus
tshookmyhead***

Me:
don’
tgo.
.
..
pleas
e

Moera:ikeeponpi
ssi
nghimoffHi
ll
s,eventhoughIhat
ehimbutyous
til
llovehi
ms oI
cant
punc
hhi masofyetsoit
sjus
tabadideaformet os
tayher
eandFYImaneedstoknowabout
whatsgoingon

***I
jus
tlaidonthecouc
handclos
edmyeyes.
..
.
ihaveater
ribl
eheadac
he,
Ihavebeenbet
rayed
andmys i
sterwant
stochokes
lammyhusband.
..
thi
sismyli
fe***
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-

NARRATED

ATTHERI
VER

***Kgos
iwokeupwhenwat
erwasspl
ashedonhisf
ace.
.
.hegaspedf
orai
randAl
phal
ett
epul
led
himupandhestumbl
edabi
tandhefi
nall
yfoundhi
sbalanc
e***

Kgos
i:wh.
.
.whathappened

Al
pha:youf
aint
ed

***Kgos
ifr
ownedt
henher
emember
edt
hes
nake***

Kgos
i:t
he.
.
thehuges
nake

Al
phal
ett
e:i
twentt
ofeed.
.
..
sheper
mit
tedust
ous
ethewat
erwhi
les
hegoest
ofeed.
.
..
come

***Kgosi
lookedar
ound.
..
.hecantbel
ievehe’
ss t
il
lali
ve,
itwasabouttoeathi
m..
.
.anywayhe
fol
lowedAlphal
ett
einsi
dethewaterforget
tingthathewethi
spants***

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-

***theyar enowint hewoodsandKgosii

skneelingont hegroundfac i
ngdownashimand
Alphalett
epr ay.
..
aft
erprayi
ngAlphal
ettestar
tedc hant
inganc es
tralchant
ss ummoni
ngRichard
tojoi
nt hemt henallofasuddenKgosi
feltt
hehai ronthebac kofhisheadstandi
ngandhi
s
shouldersgetti
ngheavierandheavi
erandas uddenheadac hepounc edonhimandAlphal
ette
stoppedc hanti
ng***

Al
pha:he’
sher
e

***Kgosi
lookedaroundbuthedidn’
tseehimbuthecoul
df eels
omeoneors
omet
hings
tandi
ng
behindhi
m...
hisheartbeats
ofas
thet houghti
twoul
dexplode***

Alpha:don’
tbesc
ared.
.
.he’
sangr
ybuthe’
syourbr
other
,yourbl
ood.
.
..
nowt
alkt
ohi
m..
.
.openup
tohim,befree
***Kgos
iswal
lowedhar
dthenhes
ighed***

Kgos
i:Ti
rel
o..
.
..

***het
hens
ighedagai
nfeel
ingemot
ional
***

Kgosi:I
..
.
ihaveamulti
plepersonal
it
ydisorderandi
tsmessi
ngwit
hmyl i
fe.
.
..
ihaveki
ll
edpeopl
e
tosurvi
veandnowoneoft hepersonal
it
iesSaddamsleptwi
thBot
lhal
eandthat’
sgonnahur
t
Dineowhens hef
indsout.
.
.she’
sgonnaleaveme

***hes
wal
lowedpai
nful
ly***

Kgos
i:I
loveherTi
rel
o

***wi
nds
tar
tedbl
owi
ngar
oundt
hemvi
olent
ly***

Al
pha:don’
tst
op

Kgosi:imsureyounowknowt hatshe’
smyc hosenone. .
.
.butImadeherangr yandhur ther
feel
ingscauseIcoul
dn’tsleepwithher.
.
..
.icoul
dn’tcauseIfel
tguiltyTirel
o..
.
.iwanted
confi
r mat
ioninawayt hatyouareblessi
ngouruni on.
..
.if
eltl
ikesleepingwithherwillbeme
spit
tingonyourgraveandmemor y.
..
iwantedas i
gnt hatyou’
reblessingus,Idi
dn’tmeanto
makeherangr yIjus
t..
.
.

***hes
wal
lowedhar
dast
ear
sgus
hedoutf
all
ingont
hegr
ound***

Kgosi
:Imissyou..
.
.imissyousomuch.
.
..
iwi
shI wastheonethatgotki
ll
edandnotyou.
..
.iwi
shI
cantakeyourplace.
..
..
Gautawil
lgr
owupwithoutyou.
..
.
.youdidn’
tdes
ervet
odieTee..
.
.you
didn’
tdeser
vetodi e

***hes
aidc
ryi
ngt
hent
hewi
nds
topped***

Kgosi
:Iactst
rongbutimnotbr o..
.
.imdyingins i
de.
..
.
ifoughtt
oc omebac
kt omyfamil
yandyou
werekil
ledbeforewecanevenr econnect
..
..
ifeelemptyatthesameti
mei mangr
y..
.i
mmad
angr
yatouranc est
orsf
orlet
tingyoudi eli
ket hat

***hec
ont
inuedt
ocr
y***

Al
pha:Ri
char
d

***hes
aidl
ooki
ngathi
mandRi
chi
ewasc
ryi
ngt
oo***

Alpha:nowyouknowwhathe’ sbeenthrough.
..
.he’
snotthesamemananymor e.
..he’
s
broken..
..hesurvi
veddeathandheal sohadtofighttocomehomet oyouandt
her estofyour
family.
.
..evennowhe’ ssti
llt
ryi
ngtoadjusttohisnewnormalbeinghavi
ngmul t
iple
personaliti
esthatmes suphisl
if
es ometimes.
..
.
deali
ngwi t
hyourdeathandal
sobei ngs t
rong
foreveryone..
..
he’sonlyhumanmanandt heissomuc hhecantake
***Ri
chi
e’
sghos
tlookeddown***

Al
pha:f
orgi
vehi
mforhur
ting.
.
.what
’shername

Kgos
i:Di
neo

***hes
aidands
nif
fedwi
pinghi
sfac
e***

Al
pha:Di
neoandgi
vehi
mas
ignt
hatyou’
rebl
ess
ingt
hei
runi
onandc
ont
inuepr
otec
tingt
hem

Kgosi
:imsor
rybro.
.
..
iloveDi
neowit
hal
lmyhear
tandI
promi
set
olovet
hemunc
ondi
ti
onal
ly
andals
otakecar
eofherandGauta

Alpha:andstopmeddlingintheiraf
fai
rs.
.
..
coupl
esfightallt
heti
me..
..
aft
ert
histal
kyouneedto
resti
npeac eandletDineogo..
.
yourdaughteri
sinsafehandsandyouknowitsorestandl
et
yourbrotherhandlet
hings.
..
.whenheneedshelphe’llc
allyou

Kgosi
:andimgonnaf i
ndColli
nsandafteri
mdonedeal i
ngwi thhimimgonnamarryDineoand
wegonnar ai
seGautatoget
herbutIneedyourbles
singbro..
.
i don’
twannaf
eelli
keimbetrayi
ng
youcauseColet
oldmehowmuc hyoulovedorloveher.
..
.atthesametimeIdon’
twanna
competeforher
..
..
iwanthertobemineandmi nealone

***t
hensil
enc
e..
.
..
thenKgos
ifel
tahandors
omet
hingt
hatf
eltl
ikeahandonhi
sshoul
derand
hefroz
e***

Al
pha:r
elaxi
tshi
m..
.
.hes
ayst
hat
’sas
ignt
hathe’
sbl
ess
ingyouruni
onandt
hat
..
.

Al
pha:he’
snol
ongerangr
yatyou.
.
..

Al
pha:hes
ayshel
ovesyouandt
hatyous
houl
dtakec
areofhi
sdaught
erandbabymama

***Kgos
i’
stear
sgus
hedoutandhec
riedpai
nful
ly***

Al
pha:andhesaysaboutCol
li
ns.
.
.hes
ayshe’
sinpl
ains
ight
..
..
hes
aidyous
houl
dlookatobvi
ous
pl
aces
..
..
he’
sri
ghtunderyournose

***Kgosiwi
pedhi
stear
saf
terhec
almeddownandhef
rownedasRi
chi
epul
ledhi
shand
back***

Al
pha:he’
sleavi
ng.
.
.

***Ri
char
dst
art
edwal
kingt
owar
dst
hel
ightbutt
henhes
toppedbuthedi
dn’
ttur
n***

Al
pha:hes
aysgoodl
uckwi
thDi
neoc
aus
eyou’
regonnaneedi
t.
..

***Al
phal
ookedatKgos
ifr
owni
ng***

Kgos
i:whati
sit
Al
pha:he’
slaughi
ngbus
ysayi
ngyou’
regonnaneedi
t

***t
henRi
char
ddi
sappear
edi
ntot
hel
ight
***

Al
pha:he’
sgone

***Kgos
igotup***

Al
pha:l
etsgo.
.
..
rememberdon’
tlookbac
k

***t
heywal
kedoutoft
hewoodsandgoti
nsi
det
hec
aranddr
oveof
f***

Al
pha:okwhat
’swr
ongwi
thDi
neo.
.
..
whywasyourbr
otherl
aughi
ngatyoul
iket
hat

***Kgos
isi
ghedbr
ushi
nghi
sheadr
oughl
y***

Kgos
i:s
he’
scr
azy.
.
.whens
hef
indsoutaboutBot
lhal
eal
lhel
lwi
llbr
eakl
oos
e

***Al
phal
ett
elaughedhi
sas
sof
f***

Al
pha:wel
lthengoodl
uckc
aus
eyou’
regonnaneedi
t

Kgos
i:mxm

***Al
phal
ett
echuc
kled***

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ATJ
ABU’
SHOUSE

NARRATED

J
abu:y
ous
ures
hewon’
tremembert
hatSbui
stheonet
hats
hother

***i
tsonl
ynowhe’
saskingaboutherandwhet hereras
inghermindworkedornot
….he’
sbeen
deal
ingwit
hhi
sdaughter’
sdeaththathenevercaredaboutanyt
hingel
se***

Ray:Ruusai
dshewon’t
..
..
shewast
oldt
hatf
akeChr
ist
iani
stheonet
hats
endpeopl
etos
hot
herassoonasshewokeup

***J
abus
ighed***

J
abu:ok….
Sohowdi
dhermot
hert
aket
henews

Ray:s
hej
ustc
riedandemphas
izedonhowmuc
hshewar
nedherbl
abl
abl
a….
.
anywayyougood

J
abu:aahI
’
llbef
ine.
.
..
howi
sMj
,Ihear
dhebr
okehi
sleg

Ray:mxmthatmumu(fool)he’
l
lbefi
ne.
..
.
MJistr
oubl
esomeanddadcan’
thandl
ehi
manymor
e..
.
assoonashefi
nis
heswr
iti
nghe’sc
omingthi
ssi
desoIcankeepac
los
eeyeonhim

***J
abuc
huc
kled***

Ray:nowonas
eri
ousnot
e….
howar
eyoudoi
ng

***J
abus
ighed***

J
abu:t
aki
ngi
tonedayatat
ime

Ray:t
hat
’sgood.
.
.that
’sgoodandSbuhowi
she

***J
abus
ighedagai
n***

Jabu:he’
slockinghimsel
finhi
sroomanddoes n’
ttal
ktoanyone.
..
.
.idon’
tknowwhattodo
anymoreBigRay. .
.
.hegoestoseethether
api
stwegotf orhi
mandhej us
tsit
sther
eandsay
nothi
ngunt i
lthesessi
onends….iknowI’
vebeenupsentandsh!
tbut….

***J
abus
ighed***

Ray:i
mwor
riedabouthi
mman.
.
..
.s
omet
hingneedst
obedonebef
orehedoess
omet
hingbadt
o
hi
ms el
f
J
abu:y
eah.
.
..
idon’
tevenwannas
ithi
mdownandt
alkt
ohi
mcaus
eitendsupi
naf
ights
oyah

Ray:you’
real
sogoi
ngt
hroughal
otman

J
abu:evenMs
hikar
ohasf
ail
edt
omakehi
mtal
kors
eet
hatwhathedi
dwaswr
ong

Ray:al
lwi
llbewel
lbr
os.
.
.

J
abu:y
eahI
’
llbel
ievei
twhenI
seei
thappeni
ng

***Rays
ighed.
.
..
wel
ltheyt
alkeds
omemor
e***

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ATALPHALETTE’
SHOUSE

***Theyj
ustf
inishedeatingandnowKgosiwenttoli
edownabi
tandAlphal
etteisi
nhis
Ndumba(ances t
ralhut)meditati
ngwhenits
uddenlybec
amequi
etandheslowlyopenedhi
s
eyescaus
ehec ouldfeelhewas n’
tal
oneanymore***

Al
pha:Kokwanawaxi
nuna(gr
andf
ather
)

***hes
aidbowi
nghi
shead***

Gr
anddad:
Ukwi
hint
ukul
uwamehewaxi
nuna(wher
eismygr
ands
on)

Al
pha:wi
hiKokwana(whi
chonegr
andf
ather
)

Gr
anddad:
ngwanawawehe(
yourc
hil
d)

***Al
phas
wal
lowed***

Al
pha:Unamananawayehe(he’
swi
thhi
smot
her
)

***t
hegr
andf
atherl
ookedathi
mands
hookhi
shead***

Gr
anddad:Hi
kokwal
ahokayi
niuhl
wer
isaNt
sakoheh?(whyar
eyoudel
ayi
ngNt
sako)

Al
pha:Ndz
itangut
ivi
saKokwana(I
’
lli
ntr
oduc
ehi
mgr
anddad)

Granddad:
Usi
nyankar
himan….
.
Ulavakovonayi
ni!
!(youar
ewas
tingt
ime.
.
.whatdoyouwant
tosee)

***hes
aidwi
thaf
irmt
one***
Al
pha:Namet
waKokwanandz
itangut
ivi
sa(I
heary
ougr
anddadI
’
lli
ntr
oduc
ehi
m)

Gr
anddad:
daasr
ightyi
sona(al
ri
ght
)

***thenhedi
sappear
edandAl
phal
ett
esi
ghedr
ubbi
nghi
sfac
e..
.
.het
ookhi
sphoneandmadea
cal
l***

Voi
ce:Ti
vul
arhamehe(myf
irs
tbor
n)

***hec
huc
kled***

Al
pha:Mhani(
mom)howar
eyou

Mot
her
:ngi
yaphi
lawenas
thandwas
am(i
mgoodandyoumyl
ove)

Al
pha:r
okur
ixakumhani
(imgoodmom)

***hedi
dn’
tsoundc
onvi
nci
ng….
.
hes
ighedr
ubbi
nghi
shead***

Ma:wenz
eni
(whatdi
dyoudo)

Al
pha:I
comebear
inggoodandbadnewsMa

***s
hekeptqui
etabi
t***

Ma:ar
eyous
ick??

Al
pha:I
nevergets
ickMayouknowt
hat

Ma:t
henwhati
sit

***hes
ighed***

Al
pha:your
ememberI
tol
dyout
hatt
heanc
est
orss
aidi
haveaboyc
hil
doutt
her
e

***s
hekeptqui
etabi
t**

Ma:yes
..
.t
ellmeyouhavef
oundhi
m

Al
pha:heac
tual
lyf
oundme

Ma:heh.
.
..
howol
dishef
orhi
mtof
indyou

Al
pha:oneyeart
hreemont
hsorf
our

Ma:heh

Al
pha:youknowt
hemot
herMa

Ma:I
do???Who’
sthat
***Al
phal
ett
eswal
lowedhar
d***

Al
pha:I
methert
woyear
sagoandweummm.
.
.

***hec
lear
edhi
sthr
oat
***

Alpha:yeahandIki
ckedheroutl
ikeshemeantnothi
ng..
..
itr
eatedherli
kegarbageMa..
.
.iwasn’
t
onther i
ghtst
ateofmind,i
twasthatti
meIfoundoutaboutStevensandHel
gas oIj
ustwanted
tooffl
oadbutIendedupleavi
ngmys eedi
nher

Ma:whyar
eyoubeat
ingar
oundt
hebus
h..
.
whoi
ssheNt
sako

Al
pha:Mas
ai

Ma:who’
sMas
ai.
.
..
ionl
yknowt
heMas
aai
peopl
einKenya.
.
.oryoui
mpr
egnat
edaf
orei
gner
Nts
ako

Al
pha:i
mtal
kingaboutMas
ai,
Steven’
sfi
anc
é

Ma:i
thi
uyadl
ala(s
ayyouar
eki
ddi
ng)

***hes
ighed***

Alpha:i
mnot .
..
imjus
tglads
hedidn’
tabor
tma,Imeans
hedi
dn’
tevenknowwher
etof
indme
andshesti
llkeptt
hebabymakesheramazi
ngi
nmyeyes

***hi
smot
herdi
dn’
tsayanyt
hing***

Alpha:s
he’
snotpl
ayi
ngusands
he’
snotmovi
ngf
romonebr
othert
otheot
hers
odon’
tbehar
d
onher

Ma:s
othat
swhys
her
anawayt
hatday….
.
.doesSt
eveknow

Al
pha:yes

Ma:nowonderhe’
shar
dlyhomes
inc
etheengagementpar
ty

Ma:what
’shi
sres
pons
e..
.
ihopeyout
wodi
dn’
tfi
ght

Al
pha:I
don’
tknowI
haven’
tspokent
ohi
m

Ma:asifyouwouldmxm...
.
yaziyout
wowi
llki
llmewi
thahear
tat
tac
k..
.
.yhoyaqal
ainkat
azo
manje(nowtroublehass
tart
ed)

Alpha:Idi
dn’
tpl
ant
hisMa.
.
..
imethert
woyear
sagounl
ikehi
mwhos
leptandi
mpr
egnat
edmy
thenfianc
ée

Ma:nowI
seewhyyou’
ret
ell
ingmeal
lthi
sovert
hephone.
.
..
mxmi
mtoool
dfort
his
***t
hens
hedr
oppedt
hec
allandAl
phal
ett
ebr
eat
hedout
***

I
NKGOSI
’
SBEDROOM

Kgos
i:whatdi
dshes
ay.
.
.

***hes
ighed***

Kgos
i:di
dsheas
kaboutme

***Col
ekeptqui
etabi
t***

Kgos
i:s
oshedi
dn’
t

Col
e:s
he’
sst
il
labi
toutofi
tands
hewaswor
riedaboutGaut
a

Kgos
i:whatdi
dthedoc
tors
ay

***hes
aidc
hangi
ngt
het
opi
c***

Col
e:s
he’
sgonnabef
ineands
owi
llt
hepr
inc
ess

Kgos
i:t
hat
’sgoodandhow’
sGor
ata

Col
e:s
he’
sget
tingdi
schar
gedt
omor
row

Kgos
i:t
hat
’sgood

Col
e:andthepaw-
pawwerehereas
kingques
tions
,theyas
kedGor
atas
omeques
tionsandt
hey
sai
dthey’
l
lcometomor
rowtotal
ktoDee

Kgosi:mxmthos
est
upi
dfool
s.
..
.
theyc
all
edmeonmywayher
e..
.
.nxasi
fthey’
l
levens
ear
chf
or
Coll
insorf
indhi
m

Col
e:wewi
llf
indhi
mdon’
twor
ry

Kgos
i:Ti
rel
osai
dhe’
sinpl
ains
ight
..
..
wes
houl
dlookatobvi
ouspl
aces

Col
e:s
oyout
wot
alked

Kgos
i:yeahs
ortof

***hes
ighed***

Kgos
i:i
twasi
ntens
eands
car
yman.
.
..
.i
’
llt
ellyoual
labouti
twhenwemeet
Col
e:damn

Kgos
i:I
swearAl
phawal
oyaman.
.
.st
ruu(al
phai
sawi
zar
d)

***Col
elaughed***

Kgos
i:I
sweart
oyou

Col
e:I
needt
oseet
hisguy

Kgos
i:youwoul
dn’
ttel
lhe’
sas
angomabutt
hes
h!thedoes

***hewhi
stl
edandCol
elaughed***

Col
e:s
oRi
chi
ebl
ess
edyal
l

***Kgos
isi
ghed***

Kgos
i:yeah

Col
e:t
hat
’sgood.
.
.oohbef
oreI
for
gett
heKi
ngwasas
kingaboutyou

Kgos
i:I
’
llc
allhi
m..
.
.howar
ethi
ngsatt
her
oyalhomes
tead

Col
e:s
admf
owet
hu.
.
..
Mmapul
a’sdaught
ersar
ewal
kingc
orps
es

Kgos
i:Mot
lal
epul
amannotMmapul
a

Col
e:s
ixnoni
nekuyaf
ana(s
amet
hing)

***Kgosi
chuckl
ed..
..
anywayt
heyt
alkeds
omemor
eunt
ilt
heyendedt
hec
allt
henAl
pha
knockedandwalkedin***

Al
pha:youneedt
ost
artwi
thmedi
tat
ion

Kgos
i:heh.
.
.medi
what
?..
.
.idon’
tdot
hos
eyogat
hingsnna.
.
..
imas
trai
ghtdude

Al
pha:ei
shyahneh.
.
..
ignor
antandf
ool
ishpeopl
eofhi
ghs
tat
us

***hes
hookhi
sheadandwal
kedi
ncl
osi
ngt
hedoor
***

Kgos
i:s
es esal
angimnotdoingyogafi
nis
h..
.
.gaket
lodonos
a(i
mnotaboutt
ost
ickmyas
sout
)
i
nquesti
onablepos
iti
onsweari
ngtight
s

Al
pha:oxedayel
a..
.
.xenamnam(you’
reaf
ool
)

Kgos
i:t
sek!
!

***Al
phal
augheds
itt
ingont
hebeds
ohec
anexpl
ain***
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LORRAI
NEMPOFU

***It
ookadeepbreathasweappr oachedJ
abu’splac
ecaus
eIdon’tknowwhatt oexpec
t,not
fromSbusi
sobutfr
omJ abu.
.
..
i j
usthopehedoesn’tki
ckmeoutcausethatwoul
dbe
embarras
singandabummerf orSbucausehesoundedli
kesomethingbigi
sbotheri
nghim..
..
the
carst
oppedandtheuberdri
verturnedandlookedatme***

Dr
ivert
hisi
stheaddr
essmam

Me:
yeahummmpl
eas
ewai
tabi
tandl
etmec
hec
kift
her
e’ss
omeonei
nsi
de

***henoddedandIgotoutandwentc
los
ert
othegat
eandpr
ess
edt
hei
nter
com.
.
..
ri
chpeopl
es
thi
ngsinthetowns
hip.
..
.mmmh***

Voi
ce:yah

***oohLor
dhe’
shome***

Me:
hii
tsLor
rai
ne

J
abu:heh??

Me:
ummi
tsLor
rai
ne

***Isawthegateopeni
ng.
.
..
ummmohk. ..
.
iwenttot
hedri
verandthankedhi
mwhils
tpayi
nghi
m
andItookoutmybagandwal kedi
n..
.
.asimappr
oachi
ngthedoori
topenedandt
herehe
is
..
..
damnhel ooksl
ikes
h!t
***

Me:
hi

***youc
ans
eehe’
sshoc
kedt
oseeme***

J
abu:hey.
.
.comei
n

***Iwal
kedinandwewentt
othel
oungeandI
putmyhandbagonmyl
apandmyt
ravel
ingbag
onthefl
oor***

J
abu:y
oul
ookgood

***ummmohk***
Me:
thanks
..
..
wel
lyoul
ookr
ough

***hec
huc
kled.
.
..
wowI
nevert
houghtwewoul
deverbet
hisawkwar
dtowar
dseac
hot
her
***

J
abu:l
if
ehappened

***hes
hruggedhi
sshoul
der
s***

Me:
im.
.
.ims
orr
yforyourl
oss

***I
hopeI
don’
topenhi
sheal
ingwounds
..
..
wel
lthat
’si
ftheyhaves
tar
tedheal
ing***

J
abu:s
ho

***t
hens
ilenc
e..
.
ohkt
hisi
sawkwar
dyho***

Me:
ummmi
mher
etos
eeSbui
shei
n

***hef
rowned***

J
abu:ummyeah.
.
.why.
.
.i
sever
ythi
ngok

Me:
imaboutt
ofi
ndout

***hegavemeac
onf
usedl
ook***

Me:hec al
ledmesoundi
nghurtors
ad.
..
.heas
kedmewhenimcomi
ngt
hiss
ideands
inc
eIwon’
t
bearoundbytheweekendIt
houghtIs
houldcomet
odayi
nst
ead

***okwhyamIexplai
ningmys el
fli
ket
his.
..
.
hismot
herwalkedi
nfromthebac
kyardwi
pingher
handsandwhenhereyeslandedonmes hesmil
edwidel
yandIr
eturnedt
hesmil
egett
ingup
andwemethalfwayandhugged***

Ma:howar
eyount
ombi

Me:
ngi
yaphi
lama.
.
.ni
nani
njani
(imgoodma.
.
.howar
eyou)

Ma:mxm….

***s
hes
aids
haki
ngherheadl
ooki
ngs
ad***

Ma:aah….
imt
aki
ngi
tonedayatat
ime

***t
hens
hel
ookedatJ
abu***

Ma:di
dyouof
ferhers
omet
hingt
odr
inkJ
abul
ani

J
abu:s
heknowswher
etheki
tcheni
sma

***wow.
.
.ohk.
.
..
hes
aidget
tingup***
J
abu:y
ouc
angoc
hec
konhi
minhi
sroom

Ma:J
abul
ani
!!
!

***s
hewar
nedhi
mbuthej
ustwal
kedaway.
.
.ohkI
needt
oseeSbuandl
eavet
hispl
ace***

Me:
letmegos
eeSbuma

***s
hebr
eat
hedout
***

Ma:don’
tmi
ndhi
m..
.
.he’
s.
.

Me:
don’
twor
rymaI
under
stand.
.
.letmegos
eeSbu

***I
sai
dst
oppi
ngherands
henoddedl
ooki
ngs
adandI
wentup***

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---

NARRATED

***Lor
rai
neknockedonthedoorandSbutol
dhertocomei
nthinki
ngit
shisgrandmot
herand
whenhiseyesl
andedonLorr
ainehequic
klysatupl
ooki
ngathersur
pri
sed***

Lol
ly:hi

***s
hewavedathi
mbr
ief
lywi
thas
mil
eonherf
ace***

Sbu:you.
.
..
you’
reher
e

Lol
ly:yeah.
.
..
yougotmewor
rieds
oIt
ookt
hef
irs
tfl
ightavai
labl
ethi
smor
ning

***hes
wal
lowedhar
dget
tingemot
ional
***

Lol
ly:c
anI
sit

***henoddedands
hedi
dthens
hebr
eat
hedout
***

Lol
ly:what
’sgoi
ngpapa.
.
..
yous
oundedwor
ris
omeovert
hephone

***hekeptqui
etabi
t***

Sbu:I
dids
omet
hinghor
ribl
esi
si

Lol
ly:okummhowf
aral
ongi
sshe
***Sbuf
rowned***

Sbu:huh

Lol
ly:t
hegi
rlyoui
mpr
egnat
ed.
.
.howf
aral
ongi
sherpr
egnanc
y

***Sbuf
rowneds
omemor
ethenhi
sfac
erel
axed***

Sbu:I
didn’
timpr
egnat
eanyones
is

***s
hebr
eat
hedout
***

Lol
ly:okt
henwhatdi
dyoudopapa.
.
.pl
eas
edontt
ellmeyout
rieddr
ugsSbus
iso

***hekeptqui
etabi
t***

Sbu:I
almos
tki
ll
eds
omeone

***hereyespoppedout
***

Lol
ly:i
ni?(what
)

Sbu:Iwasangr
yandI
coul
dn’
tcont
rolmyanger
..
..
allI
sawwasr
eds
isi
andI
jus
twant
edher
dead

Lol
ly:her
?

***henodded***

Lol
ly:whoi
sitSbu

***s
hes
aidasc
alml
yaspos
sibl
e***

Sbu:ma.
.
..
Amogel
ang.
.
..
papa’
swi
fe

***Shef
roz
eabi
t***

Lol
ly:whatdi
dshedo

***hewaspl
eas
edbyherques
tioni
nst
eadoft
ryi
ngt
orepr
imandorj
udgehi
m***

Sbu:s
he’
sther
eas
onLi
ledi
edands
he.
.
..
shef
orc
edher
sel
fonpapawhenhewasdr
unk

***hereyespoppedout
***

Lol
ly:pl
eas
eexpl
ains
oIt
rul
yunder
stand

***Sbusighedandheexplainedever
yt hi
ngandbytheti
mehewasdonehewasac r
ying
mes s
..
..
.
Lollyhel
dhimtightass heal
soc ri
edunti
lhewaslef
twi
thonl
yhi
ccups
..
..
shewipedher
tear
soffandkissedhi
sforeheadmultipleti
mes***
Lol
ly:i
tsokpapa.
.
..
it
sok.
.
..
imher
enowandever
ythi
ngwi
llbef
ine

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---

***Lol
lys
tayedwit
hSbuuntilhef
ellas
leept
hens
hewentdowns
tai
rsandf
oundJ
abu’
smot
her
watchi
ngtvwhil
edri
nki
ngtea***

Ma:howi
she

***s
hes
ighedands
atdown***

Lol
ly:br
okenbutuz
obar
ight(he’
l
lbeal
ri
ght
)

***s
henodded***

Ma:butdi
dhemanaget
otal
k..
.
.youknow

***Lol
lynoddedandJ
abu’
smot
hers
ighed***

Ma:hai
kunz
ima(i
tst
ough)

Lol
ly:he’
sgonnabeal
ri
ghtmamadon’
twor
ry

Ma:hai
Ihopes
o..
.
icookedgoanddi
shf
oryour
sel
f

***Lol
lygotupandwal
kedt
otheki
tchen***

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SHALATE(HI
LLS)

***Mylifeneh. ..
..
anywayI madeanappoi ntmentwi thalawyerMoer arecommendedt omeandI
hopehe’llhel pmegetoutoft hismarriageevent houghs hesuggestedIwaitforMat ocome
fromherover seastri
pbeforeImakeanydec isi
ons..
..
WellMoer aandMas aiareagainstme
makingdec i
s ionswhi l
eimhurt i
nglikethisc ausetheyknowI loveTarwithmyal lbutitsnotl i
ke
hejustcheat ed,healsowanttot akehiss idechickashissecondwifeandI can’thavethat .
.
..i
cantsharehi ms os i
ncethedishispregnantandI knowI can’
tgivehimac hildthenI’verather
removemys elffromt heequati
on...
..
imus edt opeoplehurti
ngmes oIshouldhaveknownt hat
he’l
lals
ohur tme. .
.
.i
fmyownmot hercanbr eakandf ai
lmedi smallythenwhywoul dn’tTaralso
dot
hes
ame***

Voi
ce:hi

***I
jumpedstar
tledandmyhandi
nst
ant
lywentt
omyc
hes
t..
.
sh!
tthi
sni
kkanear
lygavemea
hear
tatt
ack***

Me:
don’
t….
everdot
hatok!
!

***Isai
dnotevenlooki
ngathi
mandc onti
nuedsear
chi
ngf
oraf
for
dabl
eapar
tments
inc
eI
stoppedwhenIfel
ldeepint
omytr
ailofthought
s***

Tar
:Ij
ustgr
eet
edyouShal
e

Me:
hi.
.
.happynow

***i
mst
il
lnotl
ooki
ngathi
m..
.
.ineedt
ost
artt
olear
ntol
ivewi
thouthi
mst
rai
ght
..
..
ineedt
o***

Tar:sothi
ngshavegot
tent
othishuh..
.
.youdi
sres
pec
tingmel
iket
his
..
.i
mst
il
lyourhus
band
Shalateandwil
lremai
noneti
lldeat
h

***mxmI
jus
tignor
edhi
m***

Tar
:ngi
khul
umanawemanShal
ate!
!!(i
mtal
kingt
oyoumanShal
ate)

***br
eat
heShal
e..
.
.deepbr
eat
h***

Me:
res
pec
tisear
nedTar
eknotdemanded.
.
..
you’
vel
ostal
lmyr
espec
tsodealwi
thi
t

****Isaidsti
llnotl
ooki
ngathi
m..
.
.il
ovet
hismanbuthebr
okeme.
.
..
idon’
tthi
nkI
’
llever
recover***

Tar:s
oyou’
l
lbel
ikethi
sunti
lwhen.
.
..
youdoknowsoonerorlat
eryouhavet
oac
ceptt
heway
t
hingsar
eandweneedtofi
ndcommongroundandmakethingswork

Me:
you’
redel
usi
onals
hem

***I
sai
dtur
ningmyheadt
olookathi
m***

Tar
:as
kies

Me:
thi
s.
..
.

***I
movedmyhandsbet
weenmeandhi
m***

Me:di
edwhenyoudeci
dedtoc
heatandgetherpr
egnantandi
tgotbur
iedwhenyoudec
idedt
o
t
akeherast
hesecondwif
e

***hec
lenc
hedhi
sjaws
***
Me:I’
llneverf
orgi
veyouTarek.
..
youj
usts
howedmehowyoureal
lyf
eelaboutme..
..
igues
syour
motherwasr i
ghtal
lal
ong..
.
.shedids
ayyou’
l
lleavemef
orawomanwho’l
lgiveyouachil
dand
i
thashappened

***I
sai
dwi
pingmyf
all
ingt
ear
s***

Tar:wewi
llneverbeoverShal
e..
.
.youar
emywi
feandi
tshal
lremai
nli
ket
hatunt
ildeat
hdous
apart

***t
henhewalkedaway.
.
..
nxf3#khim.
.
.hecangot
ohel
lforal
lIc
arenx.
.
..
iwi
pedmyt
ear
sof
f
andcont
inuedt
osearc
hforanapar
tment***

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ATJ
ABU’
SHOUSE

LORRAI
NE

***i
mbus yinthekitchenwar mingupmymi lklookingatmyphonef orthehundr edt
h’stime
hopi
ngandpr ayi
ngt hatKennyc allsme...
.
i misshimbutmypr i
dewontal lowmet ocallhim..
..i
hopeandpraythatmec omingher ewi l
lnotbr eakusup...
.
i hadt obeher ef orSbuandimgl adI
didcaus
eI coul
dseehet r
ustedme. ..
.Imeanhi sgrandmot hers ai
dt heysendhi mt ot
alkt osome
ther
apistt
heytrustedandhej us twentther eands aidnot
hi ng,sothef actthatheopenedupt o
memeanshet r
ustsmeandi mgl adIdidn’tlethimdown. .
..
i tur
nedwhenI feltafi
gur
es tanding
bythedoorandit’
sJ abu( s
igh)***

J
abu:whatdi
dyous
ayt
ohi
m..
.
todaywast
hef
irs
tti
mehes
atwi
thuss
inc
e….

Me:
Ijus
tli
stenedwi
thoutbei
ngj
udgment
al

***I
saidshruggi
ngmyshoul
der
sandt
ookmyc
upashewal
kedf
urt
heri
n..
.
iwal
kedpas
sedhi
m
andIfel
thishandst
oppi
ngme***

J
abu:I
hear
dyou’
renowdat
ingyourex-
hus
band’
sbr
other

***hes
aidl
ett
inggoofmyupperhand***

Me:
yeah.
.
.he’
sthebes
tsof
ar

J
abu:obonagol
exapwena(doyout
hinki
tsappr
opr
iat
e)
***s
igh***

Me:
appr
opr
iat
eforwho

J
abu:hows
urear
eyout
hathe’
snot
hingl
ikehi
sbr
other

Me:
imnots
urebutwhoknowsmaybeI
gotmar
riedt
othewr
ongbr
otheri
nthef
irs
tpl
ace

J
abu:y
oudi
dn’
tjus
tsayt
hat

Me:
whati
sitJ
abu.
.
.yesKennyi
sBheki
’
sbr
otherandyeswear
edat
ingandyesI
lovehi
m

J
abu:doyou??

***hes
aidgi
vingmeani
ntens
elook***

Me:
yeahI
do

***hel
ookedatmef
ors
omet
ime***

J
abu:mmmmhi
fyous
ays
o

***thenhewenttowardsthefr
idgeandI
justwal
kedoutoftheki
tchen.
.
..
mxmwhatsthat“
mmh
ifyousayso”hej
ustdi
d..
..
Jabucanbeana$$someti
mesnx..
.
t hei
nter
comrangandI
wentto
answerit***

Me:
kemang?

Voi
ce:Lor
rai
ne….
baby???

***myeyespoppedout
***

Me:
Kenny

***hebr
eat
hedout
***

Kenny:i
msor
rypl
eas
eletmei
n

Me:
how….
howdi
dyou…

Kenny:I
bookedusi
ntoahot
elI
camet
opi
ckyouup

***“s
aywhatnow”
***

Jabu:oblomahi
er.
.
.Sbuneedsyousochael
adaimoegoeavaye….agonakooyangfi
nis
hand
klaar(youar
est
ayingher
e….Sbuneedsyousot
ellt
hatfoolt
oleave….
youaregoi
ngnowher
e)

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TOBECONTI
NUED….
#TO-
DARE-
IS-
TO-
DO