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Self Reflective
Self Reflective
Deion Solis
English-110-25
Self-reflective essay
When thinking about my semester I think of a few words, lazy, unmotivated, and just flat
out not good. Poor mental health hit me about 2 weeks into October, and I let myself become a
victim to it for the first time in my life I turned over instead of getting up and pushing through. I
tried at the end to make a difference and finish strong, I did too little to late in my eyes. I very
much did enjoy this English class, it was one of the better English classes I’ve taken, but due to
prior experiences with English classes instead of putting an effort of reaching out when I needed
help, I instead stupidly chose to say silent. Now for someone like me who very much enjoys the
sound of their own voice that is abnormal, when I was sick and couldn’t get into a group for my
topic for the second essay instead of reaching out, I went silent and didn’t show up. I am
someone who has no problem asking for help so going quiet isn’t majorly unexpected. With all
these negatives, there were a few positives mainly me getting better as a writer. I’m not claiming
to be some great writer no not that, but am I a hell of a lot better than I was coming into Cal
Lutheran resoundingly yes. Still though I struggle with time management in everything I do but
especially writing. Why I take my time with it, I cannot give a definitive answer but I know that I
need to be more focused when it comes to writing. I feel my biggest strength with writing is that
I’m able to put what’s on my mind onto my paper, the way im able to transfer my thoughts onto
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paper is by far what I’m best at. To me my worst trait when writing has to be my inability to use
my time well, I struggle to sit down and focus on my work I feel I always distract myself.
and I continue to try and get stronger as a writer and as a student. I specifically want to work on
my research methods. Research papers are something I struggle with mostly because of the
research itself. When I do work, I always find a new way to completely distract myself from my
work. I feel next semester I need to find my own space where I can clear my mind and focus
everything on my work. I do feel hopeful for my next semester however, I feel excited to take on
new challenges that are going to come from new classes and a new semester, mostly im excited
to become a new a better student. I want to be a student next semester that voices he is
struggling. That’s my main goal for my second semester and time at college and that’s to learn
from my fault in this class and ask for help when I need it.
I just think most of my struggles come from my horrible procrastination I think that if I
could just get the work done and in, I wouldn’t have issues but I let myself drag on and on for
days instead of turning in my work which ultimately leads straight to my downfall. That’s
honestly my biggest takeaway is that it seems I’m so set on self-sabotage all the time like it
seems I want myself not to succeed in some odd self-hatred kind of way. So, I think I need to
turn in my work and turn it in on time, then I feel I will have all the tools ill need to succeed in
college. I realize all my success is completely dependent on me and me alone and when I need
help I need to reach out because at this school help is everywhere as long as you are asking for it.