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Eromanga Sensei Volume 9 - Tsukasa Fushimi
Eromanga Sensei Volume 9 - Tsukasa Fushimi
by Tsukasa Fushimi
Novel Updates
Translation Group: eromangaweb
Epub: Trollo WN/LN EPUB
Chapter 1
— Nii-san. I…have someone I like.
“Nii-san…”
I proposed to her.
“Ah?”
She raised her head and looked at me like I just said something unbelievable.
“Ah…that…”
She must think that she misheard me. But even while my little sister was
confused, I wasn’t.
“Ahh….”
“Hah….”
“I don’t want to give you to anyone else. Even if there is someone else that
you like, I will not accept defeat until the final moment…So I had decided
that after 「 our dream 」 was completed, I would propose to you and ask for
your hand in marriage.”
“…Ah….Oh…”
Hearing my words, Sagiri was caught off guard. She was unable to say
anything back. Her face was deep red; she looked like she could faint at any
moment
I have a hunch that I was the same as her. I could tell that my heart was
racing nonstop, like it was about to blow.
“Sagiri.”
“~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~”
Her face was getting even redder. Then, like she couldn’t take it anymore, she
covered her face.
“Ah, fine.”
Seeing her reaction, I realized my situation too. I took this chance to propose,
but maybe there should be a limit to what I say.
In the end, the difference was how soon I said it to her. At least it would be
better than letting my little sister endure this pain.
We were sitting in front of each other. From behind her fingers, Sagiri looked
at me.
“Umm….”
“….Nii-san.”
“Marriage…is no good.”
“I…see.”
So it’s not possible huh — After hearing Sagiri’s past, hearing about how we
met before, hearing how Sagiri doesn’t want to call me Nii-san, I – thought
that, maybe the one Sagiri likes — is me.
So that wasn’t the case? Was I mistaken? Aside from me, there is someone
else Sagiri likes?
Sagiri quickly said, like she knew what I was thinking. She pulled herself
forward, and continued:
“I, I can’t marry you now….because…! I, I…I’m only 13 years old…! So…
we can’t…marry…right?”
“Eh?”
“Eh..ah…sorry.”
“Phew….pff…”
Sagiri took a deep breath to calm down. She leaned forward, putting both of
her hands on the floor.
“Okay, Nii-san, listen carefully. I didn’t…make myself clear just now. I will
say it again.”
“Sure…”
Izumi Masamune used a 300 page love letter to confess to Izumi Sagiri.
“That person is –“
“You.”
She smiled.
“I like you.”
I know that I must not look away, that I have to keep my eyes clear, but
everything is getting blurry.
“…Ah.”
“Um!”
I wiped my tears away, raised my head and saw Sagiri’s smile under her tears
And so.
I became a couple with my non-blood-related little sister.
All’s well that ends well — but both of us remained in our positions, facing
each other. We don’t know what to do.
However, since it’s reality, it’s not like we could skip to the next part. It’s
still morning: even in a novel, the author would have a hard time skipping to
the next day.
“I know that!”
There was a moment when I was optimistic, but I still denied it.
“So…er…go ahead, Sagiri.”
“Meaning?”
“Since we just began dating…I want to change what we call each other…
Like…a nickname or something.”
…Oh?
In a romantic comedy setting, changing the way characters address each other
is very important.
“Give it a try then. Well, I can’t exactly think of something entirely new
though. How about Sagiri-chan?”
“Just call me 「 Sagiri 」 like usual. I only wanted to change what I call you.”
“Muu-kun ♡”
“………..”
“Eh, Sagiri? I know that you were really trying…but can you please not call
me Muu-kun?”
“Don’t wanna!”
“Please!”
I knelt on the floor and begged her to change it until she agreed.
” Maa-chan♡”
If she did, then I would “Ahhhhh” anytime she called my name. It made me
happy, but still…
“I have to!”
“How about…Muu-tan ♡”
“Rejected!”
“Masamasa ♡”
“NEXT!”
“It’s not a big change for me. Because in my mind, I always called you
「Masamune 」.”
“…I see.”
“No?”
So what does that mean? Both not right and not wrong?
“Soo….I’m calling…Ahh—“
“Ma… Masamune.”
“——“
That simple word has unexpectedly high destructive power.
I think it’s a wonder that most people with a girlfriend don’t die of shock. I
was at death’s door just now.
“Since you are my boyfriend now, cut off your relationships with other
girls.”
“……………..”
What…what should I say? Cut off relationships…I thought those words only
appeared in drama movies.
“Cut off.”
“No, everything’s fine. I will cut them off!” I accepted her request ” I already
told them that 『I have someone I like, so I can’t go out with you 』.”
I swore that I was telling the truth, but my back was covered in sweat.
“You said 『 I have someone I like, so I can’t go out with you 』…like that?”
“Yup.”
“E…Yeah…that’s right.”
Even now, I couldn’t believe that so many girls would like me — especially
Sagiri.
“…Phew ~ ah.”
Sagiri narrowed her eyes, and glared daggers at me. After a moment, she
muttered.
“No, it’s…complicated….”
“Totally not completely cut off.” Sagiri coldly repeated herself
“You have to make it clear to them. Tell them that you have me…as a
girlfriend…so you will not go out with anyone else.”
She said it aloud, but started feeling embarrassed halfway through so her
voice started getting quieter.
” — You are right. I got it. I will go — right now – and tell them both.”
She threw a phone at me. What a paranoid girl. I already said that I will tell
them, didn’t I?
Anyway, I put the phone in my pocket and went to meet Elf and Muramasa-
senpai. Both of them were on the first floor and preparing a meal.
Elf said while cleaning the table. Seems like today was Muramasa-senpai’s
turn to cook. I could hear the sound of fish being fried. What a good smell.
“Actually, I have something very important to talk about with Elf and
Muramasa-senpai —” I poke my head into the kitchen, and said.
“Yes, Masamune-kun.”
“………..”
Should I say it to a knife-wielding Muramasa-senpai? But that knife really
looks like it belongs in her hand.
“Ah…it’s about…”
“It’s important, right? How about leaving it until after we finish lunch?”
She is very sharp, so there is a chance that she already figured it out.
We finished lunch. After that, I cleaned up the table and told them both:
…………
For now, they — didn’t react at all. No, wait. It was small…but there was a
reaction.
“I did. I asked her to marry me….She said she couldn’t marry me for now…
but yeah, we are dating.”
“What’s with your reaction? Did you think that a pro of the romantic genre
like me couldn’t foresee this?”
“Of course, I already figured out that you two still have some sort of trump
card. It’s a surprise that you could keep it hidden until now. If you played it
sooner…eh, well, I have prepared myself. I know that the current situation is
extremely disadvantages for me.”
“As a genius author of the romantic genre ~ I don’t really like to end my
story with a confession scene. By the way, I hate to write something like 『 I
will not give up 』. If it was my female lead, she would stand her ground and
say —”
With a loud bang, Elf slammed on the table, stood up, and shouted:
“Listen well! My plan will not change. I will turn this around and make you
beg for my forgiveness.”
Then, she turned around and left.
Before she left the room, Muramasa-senpai said while drinking tea:
“…………..”
“Yeah.”
“Of course it is! 『I have someone I like 』 and 『 I have a girlfriend 』 are
totally different!”
“…Kuh.”
“I forgot the name of your romantic novel, but after the final scene where the
two main characters get together, maybe they will break up for some
unknown reason. Or maybe one of them will die.”
“Wait a second, what are you talking about? Don’t add a horror ending to my
masterpiece that I spent blood and tears to write! Those protagonists will live
together in the memory of the readers! They will definitely not break up or
die or something! Because I will never, ever write a sequel like that!”
“I fully agree. The author has the right to stop the story whenever they want –
so that it will stop at a happy ending. They could expand it by writing some
short story or after-ending, showing how the characters live.”
“But reality doesn’t work that way. It’s not like love will disappear after
getting rejected – that’s why people call it a burning love…I…recently, have
noticed it myself.”
Muramasa-senpai didn’t raise her voice: she said it with a calm tone.
“Right now, he likes Sagiri. That’s all. I don’t care who Masamune-kun
dates, as long as he will live happily with me as family it’s fine – I have
confidence that that will be how it ends. Because –”
However —
“The one I like most in the world is Sagiri; I don’t think my feelings will
change.”
After that conversation was over, the next one occurred in the locked room.
“Kuh ~~~~~ Yahhhhhhhh~~~”
My cute girlfriend is making a fuss. She is shaking her ass, yelling non-stop.
I don’t know if she was trying to hide her embarrassment, or if she was truly
angry, but Sagiri kept attacking my right hand.
I replied:
“Sorry, but I’m an honest man! I don’t know how different reality and novels
are, but I would do it again if I had a chance!”
“I like you! I will like you from now till the end! Do you got a problem with
that?”
“…………No, I don’t.”
“Huh?”
“What do you think?”
I nodded.
“…That…”
— Yes.
“…L…L…”
Because she was so nervous and embarrassed, her whole body trembled.
“Achoo*”
“………………………..”
Seeing that I was crying, Sagiri was moved: she blushed in embarrassment.
“~~~~~~”
She lightly knocked on my head, before turning away. But Sagiri quickly
turned back:
“Eh? You mean…. finishing 『 what you want to do now that we are dating
』?”
“Me?”
“Yes. Only doing what I want to do is not exactly fair for you…”
I was speaking honestly, but Sagiri didn’t seem to accept it. She repeated
herself:
“Okay.”
“You don’t have to hold back. You have fulfilled two of my wishes.”
I tried to rearrange the words in my head. But what came out of my mouth
was —
It has been a while since I was attacked like this. I believe I have told her to
reduce the amount of violence. Maybe I should have made myself clearer
back then.
“But that’s my dream! I told you, I don’t want to go out with you! I want to
marry you!”
“If it was Izumi-sensei, I bet you would give your child a light novel style
name.”
“Hey, I wouldn’t use a light novel character’s name just because it’s cool.”
“I bet you would name your daughter Izumi Accelerator; then she would hold
a grudge against you for decades.”
Sagiri asked. I immediately replied with a name that I had thought of.
“I get it, but it feels like a light novel character’s name, so I don’t like it.”
“Very much so. I will say it before hand, but 『 Shana 』 is out of the question
too.”
I think that I should use a character from the mother’s name to name my
daughter.
“I already know the way Izumi-sensei named your characters, so it’s better to
not let a light novel author name a child.”
Well, of course she would understand me. She knew me even before I made
my debut.
“We don’t have to over think the child’s name, for now, I —“
Suddenly, Sagiri blushed madly.
Idiot! Pervert! Hentai! Sagiri kept punching me. It didn’t hurt, but I felt like
my heart was dying.
Until Sagiri calmed down, I was kicked out of her room. That was the email
she just sent me.
“Ok, fine!”
“……………”
I was shaken to the core due the double meaning of that sentence.
And second —
As expected.
I have a feeling that since we started dating, she will always dominate me.
“Yeah…?” I replied
“Starting tomorrow, you might not be able to take a day off for several
months.”
I think that I can still ask for a day or two, but to get a day to ourselves would
require both of us to have our work finished.
With a *crack*, the door opened. Then, Sagiri appeared in a new outfit.
She wore summer clothing. My eyes were drawn to her revealed shoulders
and pure-white neck.
“…This…this is?”
Sagiri looked very cute in the new clothes, plus her embarrassed look stunned
me. But somehow, my praise didn’t seem to make her happy.
“…Masamune, you would say that no matter what I wore, wouldn’t you?”
“No, but…what else could I say? How about 「 your shoulders look delicious
」?”
“Wh, what are you looking at? I can’t believe you! You are a light novel
author, but you can’t think of more colourful words?”
“Kuh….”
“Guh….!”
“Okay…don’t look down on a light novel author! I will use all of my writing
skills to describe how cute you are!”
“Well, that’s what I want to do, but I can’t. Even Senjyu Muramasa-sensei
couldn’t describe the cutest person in the world.”
Ah ~ I sighed and dropped my head. But when I looked up, Sagiri seemed to
be very embarrassed. Her hands were trembling.
“Uuuuuuuu ~~~~~”
“I don’t know!!”
She turned and marched back in to her room. I hastily followed.
After closing the door, my girlfriend angrily folded her arms together and
glared daggers at me.
“So….let’s go on a date.”
“Sure…”
“What exactly are you thinking about when talking about dating? Please give
us your answer, romantic-comedy light novel author Izumi Masamune-
sensei.”
Like a MC, Sagiri pushed the topic to me. I was caught off guard.
“Er….Kissing?”
“I can’t help it! This is the first time in my life that I get to go on a date with
my girlfriend! Even the main character of Sekaimo only did some small ecchi
things!”
“That’s not what I meant! What I was trying to say is that I’m even more
honest to my girlfriend than the main character in my story!”
“Are you seriously comparing yourself to a light novel character?”
“Kuh…!”
“So, in your opinion, what would you think of when talking about dating?
Please give us your answer, the erotic illustration specialist, the illustrator
Eromanga-sensei!”
“Kuh…fine.”
Sagiri raised her chest in confidence. I wonder what her answer will be.
As expected of Eromanga-sensei!!
“No!!”
I thought that she would blush and angrily deny it, but unexpectedly, Sagiri
calmly gave her counter argument. She gave an “everyone calm down” hand
signal, said:
That’s definitely not something a girl should say. Besides, if our roles were
reversed, I would be hated. It’s so unfair!
“Fufufu…!”
“That’s why, Nii-san, you should strip. Right now. So I can see your entire
body to draw my illustrations!”
“Ah ~ you speak in such an erotic way all the time ~ Masamune is a pervert.”
Sagiri gave a cute *yahh* and leapt toward me. I used my hand to hold her
forehead back, and said:
“Even if what you said is true, this part should only be done at the end of the
date! There is no way I could strip at the beginning of our first date!”
“Kuh…!”
“See?”
“What else do you want to do? Aside from stripping your boyfriend, I mean.”
A walk and shopping – it’s a common dating strategy. But of course Sagiri
can’t go out.
“Sure.”
When Sagiri said “a walk” she meant “online shopping”. Thus, we opened
her laptop and began to check the Internet.
Normally, during a date, the couple would go check out clothes for the girl
then the boy would pay, right?”
“Um, I will pick out clothes for you.” Sagiri said with a smile
Damn.
“Will it?”
“See this ~”
Sagiri took her drawing book out and quickly drew me in the clothes that she
had just picked.
“You would look like this. If we order now, it will arrive tomorrow – I can
see it with my own eyes.”
“……..”
Suddenly, Sagiri poked me in the stomach. I returned the favor and asked her
what she wanted.
“Your turn?”
“My turn to pick clothes for you – to celebrate our first date.”
“Hey wait a sec! Do you really think so? This is the first time I have heard
about it!”
When that happened, I had to change the clothes description to match the
illustration.
…But the end result was that my characters got cute clothes, so I let it slide.
“Anyway, so…How about you pick clothes and I pay for them?”
“Um, that sounds good. There is a website that I visit frequently, let’s try it
out.”
Sagiri pointed forward. While we didn’t leave the room, I had fun.
Sagiri sighed:
“I have to go back to work tomorrow – thank to these past few days, I feel
like I’m recharged.”
“I know.”
I’m not the only one who is busy. Sagiri has her job too.
She said:
“Don’t get full of yourself just because our dream is almost here or because
you have a girlfriend.”
“Really…”
“Ask me?”
“Yes. I planned ask this after our dream became reality along with my
proposal. But I think I could make it happen earlier.”
“Um.”
“Ahahaha, really? But please do. Though I will give it up if you say so.”
In my old room, I went to sleep. After a long period of hard work, now the
room was more or less the same as it should be.
Elf was the one who came up with this idea. I agreed with her because living
together in a single room with my new girlfriend would be bad.
So, Elf and Muramasa-senpai returned to living in Elf’s home starting today.
“I will stay at Elf’s home this summer; call me if you need help.”
They still acted like everything was normal — but I know that that is
impossible. Though if I were in their shoes, I would probably act the same
way.
I know what I’m supposed to do, but it’s hard to actually do it.
“Yahhh….”
Every time I think about that moment, I feel like I could faint.
“I helped you once by writing the collaboration story of Pure Love and
Sekaimo, so it’s your turn to pay me back.”
“Huh? But those are two completely different things! You are just trying to
get on my good side!”
“Kuh…”
But…it might be a good chance for me to talk with my same sex co-worker.
And Shidou-kun would probably be there too.
“I have to go to the editorial department at night, so I can’t stay for too long.
Is that okay with you?”
That’s why, the next day, I went to the Shinjuku area where Kusanagi-senpai
lived.
Low and grumpy voice. Black clothes. Blond hair. The guy who looked like a
FF XV party member is Kusanagi Ryouki. He is my senior; his famous novel
is a romantic comedy named “Pure Love”
His hair was a mess, so I guess he just got out of bed. He said in a sleepy
tone:
There were a lot of shoes at the entrance. He clicked his tongue for some
reason and re-arranged them so that I had somewhere to put my shoes.
I put my shoes down and followed him further into the apartment. There was
something suspicious on the way. It looked like a cloth-covered shelf.
“What is that?”
“My figure display shelf. It would be troublesome if a girl saw it, so I usually
keep it hidden.”
“………….”
“More or less.”
More or less…suspicious…
In front of me, Kusanagi-senpai suddenly said “Hey!” and opened the door
like a loan shark who was coming to collect his money.
Behind the door, indeed there were several people that I don’t know. They
were boys, probably in high school or university.
Some were reading manga; some were playing video games, one was
assembling a garage kit by himself.
Their looks ranged from short bodied and baby-faced to tall and muscular –
in short, there were a lot of boys with different looks.
The boy who was making a garage kit looked up and asked. He probably was
Kusanagi-senpai’s younger brother’s friend.
The rest of them greeted Kusanagi-senpai with “Sorry for troubling you” or
“Pleased to meet you”. Looks like it’s pretty typical for Kusanagi-senpai to
yell at them, none of them reacted more than that.
“I don’t give a damn about your reasons! Get! Out! It’s summer break, but
you are still students! Go home and read a book or something!”
“Then you must be lying when you say that you are a light novel author.”
“Yeah yeah.”
“Go to your friend’s home during summer break, but get chased out by his
scary elder brother.”
It was something typical during summer break, but I never thought that I
would be on the elder brother’s side this time. It…pained me.
Taking a look around, I saw that this was a nice room. It even had a cool-
looking lighting system.
“So, why are we gathering today? You said it’s because you want to play
something, but what’s the real reason?”
“Please”
Not long after that, Shidou arrived. I raised a hand to greet him.
“….I managed to get it done; now it’s up to the anime’s production team.”
“…I see.”
“Yes.”
While I could help out somewhat during the weekly meeting, now there
wasn’t much that I could do.
I could only entrust everything to the anime’s production team and prepare
myself to assist them if needed. For now, I could satisfy myself with the
thought that I did my best.
“Eh? Izumi-kun doesn’t know? I’m going to publish a new story at the end of
this summer.” He said with a prideful expression.
“Ahahah, thanks!”
“Shidou, is your new story the same one you wrote during the World’s Light
Novel Tournament?”
It has been a long time since he started writing that one. During that time, he
has had to endure having his manuscript fixed numerous times, and deal with
the occasional writer’s block.
….But in the end, he succeeded. This is a new type of novel for him, so it’s
not easy to write. That’s why he is so happy.
“Please take a look you two! Take a look at the cover page…see, this is it!”
He used his smartphone to show us the cover page for his story.
Both I and Kusanagi-senpai turned to the phone’s screen and judged the
drawing that we saw.
I nodded too.
“Shidou-kun, is your story still the same as the short story before?”
“It changed a lot. My manuscript was fixed many times. But there are still a
lot of delicious sweets in it!”
“I see.”
“After looking at the cover page and the novel’s name, there is something
that I’m curious about…may I ask you a question?”
“Please, go ahead.”
“That’s correct!”
“After enduring the harsh reality…I found out that a small girl saying It’s
okay, it’s okay is super moe! So I gave my female protagonist that
characteristic! In other words, I changed her from a female university student
into a loli! Just like that, my story immediately became interesting! I no
longer have to fix my manuscript over and over again, everything comes out
so naturally! That’s how I wrote a super powerful novel…!”
“Ah! Is this what they call discovering a new self? Anyway, I found new
meaning in my life!”
“Don’t talk like it’s not related to you! All of this happened because you
introduced him to an elementary school girl!”
“I did?”
“Of course!”
“But it’s not a big deal, is it? Based on Shidou’s style and a loli female
protagonist, I could say that this is a wonderful combination even without
reading.”
“Hey, why are you backing away with a this guy is beyond saving expression
on your face? Making a judgment from the cover page alone isn’t something
you usually do.”
“It’s not because of the cover page: it’s mostly because of what Shidou-kun
said after that.”
“Here’s why. You can think of it this way: I don’t know if I could get along
with an older girl….”
Shidou-kun said:
“Don’t you think it’s wonderful when a smaller girl suddenly asks you to
spoil her or to be spoiled by her?”
“I do, actually.”
That’s something I like about Sagiri.
“…It’s wonderful.”
“…It is.”
I think this is the first time I agreed with him about our taste in girls.
“Awesome isn’t it? I have bought and read manga drawn by him!” Shidou-
kun said while looking full of himself.
“That wasn’t my point. What I’m trying to say is, it’s the same as asking the
author of D*agon Ball to draw illustrations for a fighting light novel. Is that
okay? Unless your story is especially good, people will say 『 It’s better to let
the illustrator write the story instead 』, you know?”
“I haven’t read it, but my gut feeling is telling me that…..this one will sell
really well.”
“I think so too.”
“I can’t accept that, so before Shidou comes to his senses, let’s make things
worse for him. How about publicising the fact that he is a lolicon in an online
news article?”
Er…that is how we seniors care for our junior. We are advertising for his
novel. We don’t have any other motives. While this shameful past might
bring him hardship in the future when the media knows about it, what he said
will become good interview material.
By the way, real lolicons have a way to know who is a fake lolicon.
“It’s nothing – oh, right. Since Shidou is here too, let me tell you the real
reason why I called you both.”
“I knew it!” *2
“And…well, have you mentally prepared yourself for what’s about to come?”
“You can treat it like a ghost story. Very summer-like, isn’t it?”
“*Gulp*”
“….Please, don’t tell a story that will end with a curse on the audience.”
Maybe he was afraid of ghosts, but Shidou-kun was already pale. To think
that this is the same lolicon who doesn’t like older girls
“Yes, because it’s super important. Then…after we shared a few drinks, our
conversation continued…until I managed to ask for her number.”
“Yeah yeah.”
“No I didn’t! The fight has just begun! My ability shines only now!”
Really?
“So, what part of this story is horror?” Shidou-kun tilted his head and asked.
“Be patient will you! I’m going to talk about the main topic now. Ready?”
We nodded at once.
“After I got back home…it wasn’t even midnight yet. I was a bit drunk, but I
still thought that I should contact that girl before going to sleep, so I sent her
a message.”
I was beginning to wonder when he would get to the main point…
“Ah….” *2
“…Yes.”
“SCARYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!” * 2
It’s the first time that I have heard such a horror story.
“You think so too?” He forced a smile. “I found out the next morning what I
had done. I think that I’m dead meat.”
“What the?”
“………….”
“…………..”
Suddenly – the door bell rang. Both I and Shidou-kun were forced to endure
the same horror that Kusanagi-senpai had at that moment.
Then the culprit – Kusanagi-senpai – right in front of us, he —
“So you sent that message to the wrong person? I got it. ♪”
It seemed like Aya-chan asked her classmates to come with her. It’s not like
an elementary school kid could come to a 20 plus year old man’s home alone.
“Hm, anyway, I already knew that that would be the case! Oh ~~~”
The girl who was angry with the situation is Aya-chan’s friend, Megumi. She
is a girl with glasses and a wide forehead. Even now, she is still prepared to
pull her emergency alarm at a moment’s notice. Scary.
“I’m so sorry.”
Kusanagi-senpai could only keep bowing and apologising. At the same time,
Aya-chan was yelling “Muh! Mwu!” and kept hitting his head.
The situation was very bad. A single misstep would turn it into a wild fire,
and we risked the police’s involvement too. Their way of handling the
situation was already relatively gentle.
“I’m so sorry.”
“He knew this would happen, yet still called us here. It’s too much!”
Even Shidou was angry. Understandable, since now it’s extremely easy for us
to get drawn into this storm.
“Okay, guys, are you there ~ it’s Megumi ~ Thank you, I’m fine — you can
disperse now. There is no need to stay near the entrance anymore ~ Um ~
let’s hang out together again later ~”
“…I understand.”
Turned out her friends had already gathered right outside, ready to burst in…
scary. I think it’s normal for a current generation light novel to have a
character like her.
“C, condition?”
“………”
From her brand name handbag, Aya-chan took out a light novel and put it in
front of Kusanagi-senpai.
Dengeki Bunko
“It’s not like that! Wh, what are you thinking about! It…it is…”
She took out another light novel and quickly showed it to Kusanagi-senpai:
“Ro-Kyu-Bu!”
Dengeki Bunko
“Hey, the girl who wants to become a light novel author over there, can you
please stop with your metaphor?”
“Hm, looks like a romantic comedy novelist can’t understand me. Then…”
For the third time, Aya-chan took out another light novel and put in down.
Room No. 1301. Otonari-san wa Artistic (Room 1301 – Otonari-san’s
artistic)
Fujimi Shobo
“I feel an instinctual fear toward it. What part of it is easier or simple? Just
tell me frankly! With your mouth!”
“…………..”
“………….”
Even Megumi was so shocked that she couldn’t say anything back. Shidou-
kun was still talking, but no one paid him any attention anymore.
“I told you it’s not like that!” Aya-chan became flushed and was nearly
screaming.
Kusanagi-senpai averted his eyes, like he wanted to run away from reality.
“Taking responsibility – this is the second time in my life that I have heard
it…but it’s still as scary as ever.”
He said with a pained expression. Aya-chan gave him a final light novel
“Ryuuou no Oshigoto! (The Dragon King’s Work is Never Done!)”
GA Bunko.
“That’s why you are suitable.” Aya-chan hung her head low and muttered
“Actually….the next novel that I want to write is a romantic comedy story
too.”
“…Okay. I don’t think I can be your teacher…but if you need my input about
your story, then I can do it. When I have free time, of course.”
Aya-chan smiled brilliantly. At the same time, her teacher fell on the floor in
a 大 shape
“Ah crap. Too many things happened and I forgot to have a talk with
Kusanagi-senpai.”
Still, I doubted I could get any useful answers in that atmosphere anyway. It’s
not like my situation would get better. Megumi turned to me, and asked:
“Yeah.”
It’s not hard to see where it will lead, yet I answered her question anyway:
Megumi’s eyes were shinning. Even Aya-chan looked interested. Seems like
girls their age like this topic.
“In that case, let the romantic master – me – listen to your problems.”
She sounded like Elf for a moment. Who is better, a romantic comedy master
or a romantic master?
……….Megumi. Maybe.
I’m going to ask her about real life, not something in a novel, after all.
“Of course you should! Ahaha ~ I really want to listen ~ about Onii-san’s
love ♡”
“Hmmm…”
What should I do? Should I…ask Megumi? She knows about our family’s
situation, and she is a self-claimed romantic master…Maybe she is a good
choice.
When I was hesitating, Aya-chan gave me a little push. I smiled slightly and
replied:
“Sure…”
First, she let me sit down. Then after quickly communicating via eye sight,
they both sat down next to me: one on each side. Hm, while they were only
elementary school girls, I bet some people would be jealous of my current
position.
After Megumi ordered some drinks, she immediately got to the point:
“Um, actually…”
Both of them were staring at me with sparkling eyes, so I got right into it.
“I have a girlfriend now.”
“Wah!”
Aya-chan was so excited that I thought she was the one who got a boyfriend.
On the other hand, Megumi put a hand on my knee and leaned forward:
But Megumi showed no signs of letting me off. She even drew closer,
smiling happily.
“It’s fine, Aya-chan!” She said and put her other arm around my neck “In my
book, only kissing counted as cheating, so this much is fine!”
“I, I it counted as cheating if you spent more than ten seconds alone with
another girl in a room!”
“Fine ~”
Megumi meekly let me go, then she took her shoes off and kneeled down on
the sofa. Her arms were slightly raised toward me.
“*Gulp*”
“My girlfriend is —“
“Eromanga-sensei.”
“Ah – ah ——————!!!” *2
While I was covering my ears in pain, both elementary school girls asked
question after question:
“Eromanga-sensei ….is…”
Aya-chan was blushing madly; she said my partner’s name with difficulty.
“You mean the girl from the Sekaimo event – the very beautiful–“
Ah, yeah.
To Aya-chan, Eromanga-sensei meant Kyouka-san.
“…………..”
During that event, Kyouka-san (in her twenties) entered the stage as
Eromanga-sensei. Then, per Eromanga-sensei’s orders, she wore an erotic
sailor uniform, and was forced to shout Eromanga beam. It was so hard for
her, but thanks to that the anime’s marketing is much easier.
Still, it’s clear that most people see her as a female pervert. I have no idea
how I could tell her that, nor what I should do about it.
But one thing is clear: for us siblings, Kyouka-san is our most beloved family
member.
“Onii-san…Eromanga-sensei…you mean…”
“Correct.”
“I see ~~”
Megumi looked like she was arranging her thoughts. Then she slowly smiled
“Congratulations.”
“Thank you.”
“Huh…?”
But that means that Megumi didn’t know about me and Sagiri going out until
just now?
“Oh…”
“I told her 「 I will call you as soon as I get home 」…But after hearing it from
you, I got it. This must be what she wanted to talk about.”
“Yeah, probably.”
So…now that we started going out, Sagiri has her troubles too?
Aya-chan, who still doesn’t know the full picture, said with eyes full of
admiration.
“To think that an older woman asked you for advice, Megumi–chan is so
cool!”
“Ahaha ~ somewhat ~”
“Cough cough! Tell us a bit more then! What troubles you after you just
gained a cute girlfriend?”
“Yes! So what!?”
They both spoke at the same time! And what’s with those pitying eyes? There
is nothing wrong with a boy having his first date in high school, right!?
“I’m not angry! Anyway, that’s the problem. Since this is the first time I’ve
had a girlfriend, I don’t know what to do! I’m so confused! We had a date,
but I don’t know about anything beyond that, so I’d like some advice from
you girls.”
I said that all in one go. Megumi said “Um” and began to think.
“I need to hear about the details of the date from her – How about giving her
a present?”
“If you meant a present to celebrate our date, then we already gave each other
one.”
“Of course I mean something else. You just started going out, right? Then I
think that one present every time you meet each other would be okay. Just
treat it like a small, simple gift.”
“Really?”
Is that okay?”
“Not really. That was advice based on what I know about the two of you.”
But…they were right. I didn’t ask for normal advice, I asked for advice that
suits me.
“Of course it must be something that would make the girl happy. Onii-san
must know better than me.”
If I don’t know, then I’m not worthy of being her boyfriend, or her brother.
“Practicing! I’ll play the role of your girlfriend: treat me like your super cute
girlfriend!”
I knew that unless I practiced, I would freeze up when I had to do it for real.
“Muu-kun ♡”
“She just calls me Masamune. Actually, inside, she has been calling me that
for a long time.”
“Um um! Calling each other by name directly is a good start! Then I will do
the same! Let’s begin our 「giving a present practice 」!”
“……….”
First, she closed her eyes. Then when she opened them again, her bright and
cheerful personality became calm and gentle.
Next, she raised a hand and made a door-opening motion. It really looked like
she was opening the locked room.
Finally, “Sagiri” appeared from the door. She said in a small voice:
She is already cute, but acting like Sagiri made my heart race even more!
“Um, it’s not a special day or anything — I just want to give it to you.”
“Stop, Onii-san. You need to be more relaxed. What you just said is a bit too
heavy.”
“Just now, what you said is only suitable if you plan to give her something
worth around ¥10.000” (~ $90)
Both of them were in agreement. I feel a bit uneasy now, wondering if I can
really count on them.
“Sure.”
“I know, but for a present from a boyfriend, this is the worst possible choice.
If you gave her porn, how could you continue with a sweet and romantic
conversation?”
“We will talk about how this pose is erotic, or how she could draw an
illustration based on it.”
“Sounds like you two get along very well! But no!”
“No?”
“Meaning?”
“Since your relationship is close, you understand each other very well. And
your financial situation is not too bad either…”
“Uh – huh.”
“In that case, I think you should do something 「 as a lover 」so you can get
used to your new relationship. I thought that a small present might work, but
in your case, it might set you back to square one.”
“Valuable!”
“Ano, Izumi-sensei! If I were you I would buy a pair of matching key rings!”
Aya-chan excitedly gave her opinion
Because Megumi suggested a realistic present, this was not surprising at all.
“Aya-chan, if you want a key ring, I will buy you as many as you like!”
“So, Onii-san? A present for your beloved girlfriend – do you have any
ideas?”
“…Two, actually.”
“Wow, two!?”
One of them is something I decided to give her when our dream became
reality. Now, the most suitable present for Sagiri is — that.
“**********”
I wonder if I made the right choice, asking an elementary school girl for love
advice
We went back to the train station again. I said goodbye to both of them and
got off at Iidabashi station. Next, I have a meeting with the editorial
department regarding volume 6 of Sekaimo.
During the first part of the meeting —
“But it’s a rare chance to publish while the Sekaimo anime is being aired,
how about adding a big development in the original novel?”
“Yes?”
I agree, but maybe you should have told me that before I finished my
manuscript, don’t you think? I don’t want to have to rewrite everything
again.
“In order to be a huge success, there are five major points that you have to
remember.”
“First, when you have the public’s attention, make sure you have prepared a
high number of products to sell. Second, aside from the anime, you have to
continue selling other merchandise to the public. Third, in order to keep the
original author’s image, make sure to participate in other related activities.
Fourth, take advantage of public events to advertise. Fifth —”
“Matching the timing with your anime, create a big climax in your original
novel! Make sure to add 「 to be continued 」 right after the most memorable
part.”
“While doing so may create tension, the readers will get super mad!”
“But it will guarantee that the anime will sell well until the next volume, so
it’s a good plan ~”
Since she usually gave her opinions this way, I quickly added my thoughts:
“I’m not saying it’s a bad idea, but I hope that every volume will not end with
a cliff hanger – however, it might be possible to add a big climax in time to
match it with the anime.”
“A very typical route, but not bad! But, Izumi-sensei, this is the first time you
have written a romantic comedy story, have you written that kind of scene
before?”
She meant “are you confident that you can write something interesting?”
“I have a girlfriend!”
“…What?”
“So I have an unlimited source of references for writing about this topic –“
“Whatttttttttttttttttt —!???”
Kagurazaka-san yelled at the top of her lungs. Having never seen her act that
way before, I was caught off guard.
“What’s wrong?”
Why are you mad? I hope that it’s not because she actually likes me…
“Phew…”
She wiped the sweat on her forehead, like she just dodged a bullet.
“Ehhhhhhhhhh?”
“A one sided love provides a motivational boost for writers, but when your
love blooms it will have negative effects. Like Muramasa-sensei and
Yamada-sensei, authors are the sentimental type – In my experience, once
they got a lover, many authors’ writing skills went down, and their
motivation went down; sometimes they even totally gave up on writing. The
anime project is on the way and you decided to get a girlfriend? Can you stop
doing something so suicidal?”
“A Dengeki Bunko editor will listen to their author’s love story and quietly
influence their love so that it doesn’t go anywhere. “
“Actually, there was a couple among the authors that I was tasked with.
Doesn’t that prove that I’m the best editor?”
“……….”
Are you sure it isn’t because don’t have enough influence? Based on your
reaction when I told you about my girlfriend…
“However…”
“In contrast, a broken love will bring lots of enthusiasm. So encouraging the
author to pursue someone that you know is out of their reach – right before an
important task begins – is a risky but effective bet.”
Kagurazaka-san repeated her request again. Her eyes weren’t smiling this
time, meaning that she wasn’t joking.
“I refuse.”
Of course I answered her like that. But she didn’t listen to me.
“The truth is, even I’m hurt by this, causing you so much pain – but there are
only eight months before the anime airs! You still have enough time! The
light novel author and the illustrator, if you both are heartbroken then I’m
sure the anime will be amazing!”
She looked like she was saying something cool, but her words were just trash.
I bluntly said:
“No matter what you say, I have no intention of breaking up with her.”
“I thought so ~”
Yeah, I know.
Our meeting ended pretty late. I left the Gotanno station and walked toward
the Takasago bookstore.
It was so hard for me to ask Sagiri out, but she said “break up” so easily. It
felt like someone just poured a bucket of cold water on me.
Authors’ writing skills went down, and their motivation went down;
sometimes they even totally gave up on writing
That was what she said. She even said that for a novelist, love blooming will
have a negative impact.
Falling in love, having a girlfriend – there must be something good that will
come out of it. I will show her.
“Um? Who knows? It’s not like we have any customers, and I’m done with
checking today’s sales – so, what’s up?”
Tomoe came out from behind the counter and came to me.
“It has been a long time since I saw you looking so down.”
Same as the time when I was beaten black and blue by Muramasa-sensei and
she asked about my injuries.
“Eh? You met something annoying? Un, in other words, because of that you
came to my store to meet the cute Tomoe-chan?”
She is that type of person – when you meet her, she can brighten your mood
no matter what.
“Well…maybe?”
I didn’t give it too much thought anyway. I just thought that talking a bit with
Tomoe might be good. Maybe deep down – I was hoping that meeting with
her will be good for me.
“Nah, for example, if I were a worker who is complaining about his work
then you would be a bar’s mama-san.” [TL Note: mama-san is a woman in a
position of authority, especially one in charge of a geisha house or bar or
nightclub in Japan and East Asia]
She folded her arms across her chest and asked me. She had a stern
expression, like she was angry – but it only looked that way. She wasn’t
really mad.
I don’t know whether we are childhood friends or not, but we knew each
other well enough for me to understand that gesture.
Everyone asked the same question. So in people’s eyes, Elf and I look like a
couple?
“Eh…Wow.”
Tomoe put her right hand over her chest, blinking. Her breathing was getting
heavier: she looked like she had trouble keeping a clear head.
“……….”
But it would be a lie. However the situation required Sagiri’s permission for
me to say it, so I was a bit confused. I thought about it and then —
“Tomoe. I believe that you are my trusted friend, and I think that you are very
tight lipped. You are also someone who thinks before acting, someone who
knows what’s right and what’s wrong.”
The truth is: she was the one who has been keeping the secret about me all
this time.
“…Got…got it – I promise!”
Tomoe firmly nodded. I also nodded with her and told her the big secret.
“!…You mean…”
“———–“
That’s right.
There was a long time when I didn’t know that I was working with someone
nearby.
“It happened last year, during spring. After Izumi Masamune’s autograph
event, Eromanga-sensei posted on her blog that my writing was bad – I was
so mad.”
I nodded without saying anything. Tomoe took a few deep breaths, then
smiled wryly:
“Yeah, it is. The illustrator that I worked with was the little sister living with
me…”
Even for a light novel, this is not something that could happen easily.
“But…it’s not all a coincidence. It’s a coincidence that Izumi Sagiri became
Izumi Masamune’s little sister, but there was a reason that Eromanga-sensei
became Izumi Masamune’s illustrator.”
And the most important thing is, we have met before. We have known each
other for over a year via the Internet.
Our relationship is like that – we are each other’s most precious friends.
“I was the one who gave her a start. I told her 「 if you become a professional
illustrator, make sure to help me with my novel 」. Then we went our separate
ways and didn’t contact each other again.”
“And she …is the one who is living together with you –“
“Our promise came true…both of us take care of one side of the job…”
“And the one you made the promise with is a cute girl.”
“Yeah.”
I shook my head.
“I proposed.”
“I said I proposed to her. I have liked her since our first meeting…I like her
even more now that I know that she works in the same field. Then, learning
that she is the one that I made that promise with, it made me very happy…
there were other reasons too….”
Wah! Every time I talk about love, I find it so embarrassing. I couldn’t stop
mid way, so I told her everything starting at the beginning.
“Is she the one destined for you!? How could it be? There is no way this
world actually exists within a light novel!” Tomoe yelled
“What was her answer?”
“Eh?”
“Her answer!”
“Excellent!”
She made a victory pose!? She made a victory pose when she heard that my
proposal was rejected?
“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Tomoe was shaking me back and forth, and I began to tell her about the
reason I was upset.
“Then I started going out with Sagiri, but my editor told me that love will
ruin our work and asked me to break up with her.”
“I don’t know!”
“E ~eeee ~”
“What is with this sudden development! I feel like I’m in a crappy trading
card game with serious balancing issues, and someone used a dirty trick to
beat me!!”
“And the most important factor is: if this part was made into an anime, then
the scene where I am screaming my head off under “Farewell waltz” would
be seen by otakus! They will laugh their asses off!”
“Izumi Masamune!”
“Yes!”
“…..”
Slowly…
I felt a burning emotion coming from her fist. All of my worries were crushed
under it.
My smartphone’s screen told me that it was 21:30 when I get back home. I
opened the front door and said as usual.
“I’m home ~”
“Welcome back.”
I thought I was seeing an illusion. Sagiri, wearing an apron, came to the door
to greet me like a newlywed wife.
“Sa…Sa..Sagiri?”
I’m very happy because she thought about me, and the apron really suited
her, but due to this unreal feeling I had no idea how to react.
“Ak…then…again…I’m home.”
“Um….welcome home….darling.”
How..how….
“Um, I have.”
“….”
“!I, idiot!”
Family.
First, Elf and Muramasa-senpai moved back to Elf’s place and no longer live
with us. And – surprisingly – they haven’t come back even once since then.
Because we had all been living together for a while, I felt a bit lonely.
Also, about the fact that both of them were not currently involving
themselves with us, Sagiri said:
“…Suspicious.”
She always seems to be on guard, but I think she is over thinking it.
After I started going out with Sagiri, I planned to tell her immediately, but —
But she sent us that message before I could. Her reason was “work related”.
What exactly does she do for work? She has never told me.
In other words, right now, it is only us and Makina-san at home. That’s our
situation.
But, one day, when the living room’s clock announced that it was now two
pm…
Aoi Makina – she is the scenario writer who is working on our Sekaimo
anime project.
Since she ate a lot of Elf’s delicious cooking, she became more and more
developed recently. I don’t mean her personality, of course.
“My guess is that you took a step on the scale and became aware of the
horrible truth, huh?”
“Right right, my weight increased – no wait! I told you not to talk about a
girl’s weight!”
“To tell the truth, I really hope that your body and strength won’t be
negatively affected because you lived here, so can you lose some weight?”
The truth is, while she can be called “developed”, she isn’t fat.
I pulled her back to the original topic while ignoring her protest.
“Yes! I told you that there is an anime that I wanted to beat with Sekaimo!”
She did.
“But I hope you don’t turn our work into your weapon to fight with your
opponent.”
“I don’t really care, as long as you do your best for our grand project.”
Me. Sagiri. Director. Makina-san. And other members. All of us are working
to make an anime.
Someone wants to see his little sister smile. Someone else wants to beat her
rival.
And maybe – there is someone who just wants to have a good result to show
off.
Every one of us has our own dreams and wishes. But all of us want to make
an interesting anime.
Because of that, even if we all live very different lives, we can become trust-
worthy coworkers.
Let’s all make the anime with whatever goals give us the most motivation.
“And then!”
Makina-san continued:
“Today, I went to see her! I was half reporting, and half spying on her,
though.”
“So?”
Makina-san replied:
“It’s scary!”
“Yes! Way more than I expected! We were talking while eating, and then she
began to boast about her anime! She was gathering talented team members!
Um, her anime is Elf-chan’s best seller…err, its name is…explosion
something?”
“The Flame of the Dark Elf?”
“Yes! That’s the one! She is making the anime of that novel!”
“I’m now interested. I’m going to read the original manga of it.”
I have said it before, but other novelists are not really my enemies. It’s true
that we are competing against each other, but my primary objective is “my
dream”. I won’t get into a pissing contest with others.
In short, I hope that “even my rival’s work will be successful”. I want to read
more interesting stories.
“Ah ~ damn it ~ she looked so full of herself that it really pissed me off ~~~!!
I will have to do something about her director! If I can stab her in the
back….!”
My trusted coworker is complete trash. What a pity.
“The scenario was written by the original author themselves, so it’s super ~
interesting! All of their members are professionals, which made me jealous!”
If even Makina-san said so, then they must have real talent working on that
anime. A talented anime making team plus the original author wrote the
scenario. I see. A strong opponent.
“She told me that all of the scenarios are finished! Even though they are
planning to air in the spring!”
“Super ~~~~~~ fast! Normally I need until winter to finish writing all of the
scenarios.”
“Normal! That’s a normal speed! Don’t look at me with an 「It’s because you
work too slowly 」 look!”
Even if you said winter – does that mean November or February? There is a
three-month difference in those cases.
I could already guess what her reply would be…but I’m not worried.
Because…
“So, Masamune-san, sorry, but I’m staying at the company from now on! I
have to beat her as a professional scenario writer!”
She can’t do it alone – no matter how hard she tries. But that’s fine, because
she is not alone. There are coworkers who will help her make an interesting
anime.
“This is such a nice place. I have good meals every day; my room was
cleaned every day. I have people who care for my daily needs…”
Then, she put a hand over her chest and said in an unusual tone:
“Makina-san…”
“Eh, don’t say something like 「 see you later 」. I will feel lonely.”
Makina-san turned around and was about to walk out of the room. I called
after her:
“I proposed to Sagiri.”
“Eahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!?????”
Makina-san jumped in shock: she clearly didn’t expect that bomb. What a
pity, she was about to make a cool exit.
“I almost died! What the hell? No, seriously, what the hell? What do you
mean, you proposed to Eromanga-sensei? Are you guys going to get married?
That’s totally different from the plan I heard! Tell, tell me more!”
“Didn’t you say that you got all of the material you needed from us already?”
“Don’t be such a bully! A marriage between brother and sister would be very
interesting! I’m fired up even more than the moment when my rival taunted
me!”
She totally forgot that she was about to make a cool exit and pressed me for
answers.
I spent the next 30 minutes telling Makina-san (who was excited) about what
happened since I proposed to Sagiri.
So, when she left for work, she said this with a smile:
“I never thought that this would be my farewell present…! It’s not just my
victory…now I’m going to get this victory for both of you too!”
We are on the same boat, but each of us has our own part to play.
There are only eight months remaining until the Sekaimo anime airs.
Inside the locked room, I spoke with Sagiri about how Kyouka-san and
Makina-san won’t be here in the near future.
“I see…so we are…alone.”
Sagiri said from under her hood. Even when facing me, sometimes she makes
such a hard to read expression. Her eyes were dancing around, her face
reddening.
Considering her attitude, I think she felt a bit lonely and — embarrassed?
Thus, I decided to eliminate her loneliness first.
“…Um.”
“Still, it’s okay. We just return to how we used to be. We used to live
together: just two of us.”
“…Um…but.”
“..Ah.”
She looked totally different. Her lips look like they’re inviting me!
“————“
“Um…what to do.”
“What —“
You asked me what to do? Are you asking me what to do? What do you want
me to do? Am I over thinking this?
“Since we are alone now, there are many more things that we can do now….”
“……….”
Since what she implied was a bit ecchi, I could only freeze and say nothing.
“…Practicing!”
Sagiri clenched her hand into a fist and said with conviction.
“…Practicing….*Gulp*…”
What exactly does she want to practice while we are alone in this room? I
swallowed hard, awaiting her reply.
She said:
“Oh —“
“So that’s what you meant when you said 「 practicing 」.”
“Um, because there are only eight months left until the anime airs… I want to
practice…so…” She paused, “And then, when our dream comes true, we will
go out together… outside.”
“…Ha ha…”
Even though online dating is fun too, just thinking about how I could go with
Sagiri to a hot spring, to a beach, or to a park made me happy.
Bring Sagiri out of her room and watch our anime in the living room. That is
our dream. What Sagiri suggested just now will happen afterward.
While I was focused on reaching our dream, Sagiri has already started
planning further into the future.
“That’s right.”
“Um.”
Sagiri’s eyes shone. Seeing how motivated she was, I raised a finger:
I brought Sagiri to the living room. Just seeing her slowly walking down the
hallway, and slowly coming down the stairs, made me want to cry.
“…It’s just, I’m so moved. Seeing you can come out of the room, I mean.”
“Eh? But it’s not like I’m some sort of special animal or anything. Didn’t I
come here once in front of you?”
“But that was a special case. When we were living together, you only come
out in some very special cases.”
“….You can come out of your room now – it’s great.” I sighed, my emotions
running wild.
The sound the door made when it opened almost made me unable to hear her.
“Sure.”
I nodded.
“Yes. I’m interested in how you act when I’m not around.”
“……………You pervert.”
“Eh?!”
Don’t make it harder for me! Of course I would be thinking about something
strange.
“Un ~”
Sagiri put a hand under her chin, deep in thought. Maybe she couldn’t think
of anything, so she sat down on the sofa.
I was so surprised to see the house cleaned up while I was gone. There was a
time when I got worried when I saw something that was not where I had left
it
“But after living together with Elf-chan…I realized something.” Sagiri said
“What I was doing before…was meaningless. Those things…can’t help
Masamune at all.”
“I felt happy though. I got the feeling like – Ah; it’s good that Sagiri helped
me with the housework today.”
“…Starting today, let’s split the housework between the two of us.”
Just like when Elf-chan was here. As an equal. That was what she meant.
I nodded
“Got it – I’ll leave it to you.”
“Of course. Still, I have already finished cleaning for today, so let’s try again
tomorrow. We can clean up together.”
She glanced at me while answering. Her reply made my heart skip a beat.
“…Can’t I?”
“Awesome!”
She clenched her hand into a fist, and made a victory pose.
But I’m the only one she can be with when she is out of her room. So she
can’t exactly ask Muramasa-senpai or Elf.
“This is good enough for me. I’m lucky that you decided to ask. Because
cooking together will be very fun.”
“Is…that so?”
“Yes. Absolutely.”
So, we decided to start our cooking lessons while making dinner tonight.
“Exercising.”
“Exercising?”
That…took me by surprise.
“Because you are Sagiri. I didn’t think you and physical activity would
become friends.”
“Oh?”
“Since I spend all my time inside the house, if I don’t exercise my body will
weaken over time.”
“Not only hikikomoris, even illustrators are the same! Anyone working from
home has this problem. If you don’t exercise, sooner or later you will get
sick.”
“Sick?”
“But…those things…isn’t a bit too early for Sagiri to worry about those?”
I didn’t hear her very clearly, but I can guess what she said. That…must be
her real reason for exercising.
I said carefully:
“I see. If you don’t exercise, you will turn into that person.”
It might be rude to say it, but she means that she “will become fat”. And,
because recently Makina-san was so rude to us, I don’t say anything.
“Now that you mentioned it, I think that last year, during autumn, you got fat
too.”
“Ah!”
She had a “this guy still remembers” expression on her face, but she
pretended like she didn’t know what I was talking about.
“Have you forgotten? Because you ate too many of Elf’s snacks, you got fat.”
“Wah wah wah!”
She yelled, trying to end this topic. But I’m the only one here, so that tactic
won’t work.
“Fine fine, this is a good thing after all – okay, now, let’s exercise.”
“Yeah.”
It’s too soon to worry about those illnesses, but exercising is not a bad thing.
In order to write a good novel, a good body is required.
Sagiri thought about it for a moment before agreeing with me. With an Elf-
like-voice full of pride, she said:
And so —
“BGM – start!”
The music started. Sagiri stood in front of me in the living room. She had
taken off her hoodie and was wearing a short T-shirt instead.
While it’s clear that she is copying from a certain movie, Captain Eromanga
is really cute. To tell the truth, if she sold a Blu-ray disk of this training
exercise for ¥50.000 (~ $450), I would gladly buy one.
“We should be using a rope to work out, but a hikikomori couldn’t possibly
use one, so we will skip that part.”
…Didn’t you just say it would be a special, difficult program a moment ago?
“Raise both of your hands above your shoulders! Clap your hands together!”
I didn’t tell her that it’s not hard at all. If this were a movie, then we would
have only barely started the warm-up.
“Ah…hah….phew…!”
Captain Eromanga suddenly started getting slower. Then, she finally came to
a stop, breathing hard. Raising a hand, she said.
“Ha ha…Impossible….I knew it, it’s still too early for intense exercise…”
Sagiri fell to the floor. Now I see. So that’s her definition of “intense
exercise”.
I think that compared to the energy that your recent “exercise” burned away,
a sports drink contains even more calories.
“Here.”
And thus, we gave up on our boot camp and returned to “Sagiri’s normal
exercise”
I couldn’t believe it myself, but Sagiri managed to do one sit up. How
impressive.
After that, we took turns taking a bath before returning to Sagiri’s room.
Some of you might ask: didn’t I finish all of that already? But those things
wouldn’t be completely finished just because I worked on them once. They
will come back a lot.
Write a manuscript => Fix it => Change it => Write it anew from scratch.
That’s how it usually goes.
It’s not like I can be lazy just because I have a girlfriend. Nor would I be
distracted by seeing my girlfriend in pajamas after she took a bath.
“Ok ~”
While I, Izumi Masamune am the original author of Sekaimo, the one who
takes care of character design is Eromanga-sensei.
From the beginning, this is how we have worked: Izumi Masamune writes the
novel. Then, he gives it, and the basic character descriptions, to Eromanga-
sensei, so she can create the first sketches of the characters.
After that, the author, the editor and the illustrator hold a meeting to finalize
the character designs. Then Masamune will fix the character descriptions in
the original novel.
“Director Amamiya just emailed me asking a question. She asked what kind
of underwear this girl is wearing under her pajamas. I just sent her a reply.”
“Of course. Otherwise, there would be some angle where you can’t draw the
character.”
“An answer like that means that there is no angle where you can’t draw her?”
Eromanga-sensei wouldn’t lie. As the original illustrator, she will stand her
ground on this part: no underwear.
“The figure maker also asked about this issue many times, — but she wears
nothing under her pajamas. I will absolutely not allow her to wear
underwear.”
“I know, right!”
“Yes! Yes it is! This is how it should be!” Eromanga-sensei clapped furiously
“As expected of director Amamiya, she totally understands the truth about
underwear!”
“…Even if I have read the script regarding this part, I still have no idea what
the truth about underwear is.”
Even if she didn’t wear underwear, she still had her pants on.
“Let me give you an example. Thankfully I’m wearing light pajamas right
now.”
She got off the chair and got down on all fours. Then, she pointed her ass at
me and explained in a serious tone:
“You can understand like this: If my character doesn’t wear underwear, there
would be noticeable difference outside…And since she also wears light
clothing, you can clearly see her curves, right?”
“That’s right! In order to make the female character purer, I make sure she
does not wear —“
Still lying face down, Sagiri turned to me and caught a reflection of her own
image in the mirror. She blushed immediately
“You are the one who made that pose on your own!”
Sagiri didn’t listen to me and hastily got up, hid in her blanket and spoke to
me from it.
“That’s impossible.”
“Then you have to make an erotic pose too! I’m not getting embarrassed
alone!”
And so —
Some time passed. We both worked in silence without noticing the other.
I’d like to say “my fingers already know how to fix it”, but the truth is it’s
just my habit. I was so focused on my work that I only noticed the time when
my phone vibrated, showing me that it was now 5:00 pm.
Since Elf and Muramasa-senpai weren’t here anymore, I have to cook myself.
Is there something you would like to eat? I was about to say that, but I
stopped myself.
“ —-“
Because she was …sleeping. On her bed. Seems like she fell asleep while I
was working.
“Zzzzzzz…”
I smiled and watched her. In that moment, my heart felt warm. I can feel that
what I was chasing after in the past is right in front of me now.
….I want to be with you for eternity. It would make me very happy.
When I came back to reality, Sagiri’s lips were inches away from my face.
“…*Gulp*”
“………..”
“……….”
My heartbeat was getting faster and faster. I could almost hear it in my ears.
She is my girlfriend. We are going out. There is nothing wrong with it – a
devil is whispering to me.
There was less than an inch left until I touch her lips —
“Wow —“
Because Sagiri is “my little sister”: this was a barrier in my heart before. But
now, she is my “girlfriend”, so my lust is getting harder and harder to control.
Still….
“I have to keep myself in check. 「Now 」 isn’t the time for me to do that.”
“I saw it.”
“Yahhhhh!!!”
A girl’s voice came from behind me. I nearly jumped out of my seat in shock.
Turning back, it was – Elf. She must have come here via the balcony again –
wait, now isn’t the time.
“Since the moment you spoke, right before you almost kissed her.”
She said so with a grin, her smartphone clearly visible in her hand.
“Hey!?”
“It was a joke. I planned to stop you too. But you moved too fast so I’m not
sure if I could have made it in time.”
I got off the bed and stood in front of Elf. She glanced at me:
“Yeah right. Even if both of you like each other, you shouldn’t do that. If you
really kissed her – I would really look down on you.”
Looks like she is mad. Elf’s tone was unbelievably cold and harsh
There was a moment of silence, and then I took a breath. The atmosphere
relaxed a bit.
“Still, I trust you. Even though you hesitated… you won’t do something like
that to a girl you like.”
“Elf…you…why are you here today? I haven’t seen you recently, and now
you suddenly come via the balcony like this.”
“Why am I here? Hmmm~” She smiled “Can I tell you only half of the
reason?”
“I meant that while I won’t lie, I won’t tell you the whole truth either.”
“Okay, fine.”
“No: because it’s you. I always thought that you will definitely come. Since
you didn’t, I was feeling down lately. I thought that you didn’t worry about
me.”
“Of course I will come. Since…the one I like is staying with his girlfriend
right next door…that makes me unhappy.”
Elf looked a bit down, she was muttering to herself. It was rare to see her
talking without meeting my eyes directly.
“It’s painful.”
“………….”
I – the one who rejected her confession, the one who decided to go out with
Sagiri – said nothing.
“There was something that made me unable to come here for the last few
days…I don’t want to talk about it. Simply put….”
“……..”
“You don’t want to hear it, do you? You don’t want to know the details.”
Whatever was said between them left a bad taste. I can see that Elf is very
displeased.
“That girl has her own way to deal with this situation, but she wants to use a
wait-and-see method for now. I can’t accept that, so I made a move on my
own – that’s why I came here.”
Elf made a *bang* sound, and made a shooting motion with her right hand
and showed an evil smile:
So I answered her:
“Not one. In the recent months, you and Muramasa-senpai helped me a lot.”
“Right, right.”
“Not just helping me with the anime: before that you were a source of
positive influence on me. It’s thanks to you that I can be here right now.”
After my parents passed way, Sagiri became a hikikomori…that was the most
difficult period of my life. It’s her light novel that made me laugh again.
And then…
She likes me. She never stopped showing her affection toward me.
“No matter how many times I thank you, it wouldn’t be enough. Thank you
very much.”
She always told people to thank her, but whenever I do, she gets flustered and
clearly embarrassed.
“Oh damn! You made me strange again! Why don’t you say something
idiotic? Like a certain light novel main character?”
How many times have we had this conversation before? More than once,
that’s for sure. But I don’t hate it.
“So, what’s next Elf ? You must have had something in mind when brought
this up.”
“Yes.”
Elf looked very displeased. She probably doesn’t like it when I take control
of the conversation.
“Please listen to a single request of mine. Then, consider everything you owe
me fully paid.”
“Got it.”
“Hm, of course you won’t say yes before hearing what my request is – er?
You accept?”
Looks like it was outside of her expectations. She yelped, which made me
nearly jump in shock too.
“…Will do…any…anything?”
She was the one who said it, but Elf asked with a hint of fear. I nodded again.
“Yes. No matter what it is that you ask. I owe you that much.”
“How could I! If you trust me that much, then I won’t make such request.”
“Kuhhhhh!! Today you are so strange.” Elf glared, then pointed her finger at
me “Anyway, prepare yourself! Because I will ask for a grand repayment!”
Seems like it will still be quite a while until it is time for the “grand
repayment”.
And then —
The sun has set. It’s now night. I was sitting in the living room after eating
the meal I cooked with Sagiri.
“You noticed?”
“…..”
There was more than one meaning to those words. I nodded with her.
“Um.”
“…What will Kyouka-san say… once she knows that we are dating?”
But for a couple, it should be an obstacle. Still, I don’t want to lose this
moment of calm.
“Un…”
Sagiri opened her mouth to say something. I motioned for her to speak.
“….*Gulp*.”
Standing in front of the Izumi household’s main entrance, Sagiri took a deep
breath.
We had a very typical front door. You could find it on any home in the city.
But for her, this door is a big, huge wall.
It has been two years since she became a hikikomori. During that time, she
has never left the house. She couldn’t even open this door.
So, it’s safe to say that I’m more scared than Sagiri. I think that if it is too
hard, she shouldn’t force herself to try it.
“Um.”
“…Got it.”
I got Sagiri’s shoes out. I bought her new shoes every year – each year, a
different kind.
Just seeing the shoes, Sagiri broke into cold sweat. She turned white as a
ghost.
“Kuh….”
Her whole body trembled; she couldn’t even take a single step. It’s like she
saw something horrible in those shoes.
“…Ha…ha….ha.”
She dropped to the floor. It took a while for her breathing to stabilize again.
“…I can’t do it.” She muttered “When I practiced by myself…I could touch
the door.”
“….No.”
“It’s okay.”
She couldn’t even leave her room before. But now she can come down stairs
with me. If this doesn’t count as an improvement, what does?
Sagiri simply is not ready yet. But she is trying. For me, that is enough.
And rest.
I was about to say that when the front door’s handle moved.
“!”
With a crack, both I and Sagiri turned back. Kyouka-san, in her Western style
clothes, entered.
Izumi Kyouka – my father’s little sister; also our guardian.
“I’m home– —“
She blinked, took another look at me, then at Sagiri; her eyes widened.
“Sagiri?”
Of course she would react that way. To see the super hikikomori Sagiri at the
entrance isn’t something you see every day.
“Um…I’m home.”
Kyouka-san’s jaw dropped in shock. She rarely shows any emotion, but it’s
clear that she was very surprised.
“Masamune…this is…?”
“Recently, Sagiri can come down even if I’m home. Just now we were trying
to see if she can go outside.”
She is not exactly afraid of Kyouka-san, but meeting someone else outside of
her room is still too much for her.
“It is.”
“Oh, right right! If that’s the case, we have to celebrate! I’m going to buy a
cake!”
Kyouka-san flushed, but didn’t give up. Seeing how cute my aunt was made
me smile.
“Masamune, please buy the best cake you can with this money!”
“Don’t forget a chocolate card that says 「Congratulations, Sagiri 」.” Kyouka-
san still kept talking.
“I understand.”
“…Tell her…”
“Oh right —“
There is something else much more important than buying a cake, so I spoke
in a somber tone:
“With me?”
“Yes.”
Eromanga — beam!!!!
She must be remembering that time. Because of our request, Kyouka-san was
put into a very embarrassing position.
“Ah, no. We are not asking for anything strange, don’t worry.”
“I’m fine! Just tell me if you need anything! As long as it’s for you two, I
will become Eromanga-sensei any time.” She reassured us.
“Thank you very much. But we don’t have a request this time. There is just
something we want to tell you.”
“Tell me?”
“ —–Eh?”
Froze.
“Er…Eh? Did I …mishear? I think I heard you say something about going
out…”
“———-“
She did not hate us. She is also not angry. I know that she is a very gentle
person, but her aura still scares me. I was trembling while I explained
everything.
How I and Sagiri knew each other even before our parents remarried.
And —
“…………..”
“In other words…you two are going out as a man and a woman…and you
want to get married in the future, correct?”
“Yes” *2
“Because you are the only one I can ask to 「please give me your daughter 」.”
Sagiri has long cut off her relationship with her biological father.
“………NO.”
“….?”
“I can’t accept either – that you two are going out or you two getting
married.”
“………….”
Our jaws dropped. Both me and Sagiri. We didn’t expect that she would
object.
— After hearing what Sagiri said, reading your novel…I have a feeling that
letting you two continue living alone together is very dangerous.
It’s true that she was being cautious about our relationship, but…I didn’t it
would be that extreme.
“…………”
Her gaze became sharper: Her eyes fixed on me, deep in thought. After a
moment, she finally said —
“…What?”
“Exactly how it sounds. I will object to you going out with her, and I will not
say why.”
“I know.”
Like she was suppressing her emotions, Kyouka-san continued:
“What…”
“Eh?”
Suddenly, the pressure lessened. I’d say that she looked tired.
“You two….sorry, but there is no way that I can give you my blessing.”
“…Why?”
“…………” *2
Both Sagiri and I looked at her. We already realized that there must be a
significant reason for all of this.
We felt that we had touched upon something that Kyouka-san was trying to
hide.
“Masamune…I love you two…very much. After what happened, to see that
we have a normal life again, talking, living together…. 「all of this」, it makes
me very happy.”
“…………..”
Does she mean that if I push this, I would be risking 「 all of this 」 ?
“…Masamune.”
Mine and Sagiri’s thoughts about Kyouka-san should be the same. So I spoke
in the place of my clumsy sister.
“We both like you very much, Kyouka-san. Living together every day…we
are very happy.”
“…Masamune.”
“So we should make you happy too. We don’t want to be just going out or
just get married. We want happiness.”
“………”
She didn’t answer. Instead, she looked at us with pain in her eyes.
“….Yes.”
“The reason that I can’t give you my blessing, and the reason that I take care
of you two, is the same.”
Even thought he isn’t alive anymore, I still don’t plan to let it go.
He was still going to school, but he worked part-time late at night. He always
said he wanted to be independent, so he was saving up money.
Then, he took me to a salon and got my hair done. That was the first time I
looked that nice.
“Nii—! Hate!”
Back then, I even pulled my cheek sideways to show that I “hated him the
most”.
If you asked me why I got angry, even I couldn’t answer. All I knew was that
I felt my face getting hotter, then felt something stir inside my heart – in
short, I wanted to hit him. I wanted to break his carefree, looking-down-on-
his-little-sister attitude.
It’s hard to put that feeling into words, but it stayed with me for a long time.
Even now.
— A little sister who has an elder brother much older than herself will
become a brocon – someone might say that, but it’s a deniable lie. “The little
sister who hates her brother” Izumi Kyouka is the proof.
By the way, after that I – Izumi Kyouka – still kept the hair style that Nii-san
praised: Even when I entered middle school.
Why?
Hm, of course it’s to make sure I will not forget how much I “hate my
brother”.
“So it’s not because you are happy that he praised you” – you asked?
Facing his arbitrarily violent little sister, he just kept smiling, and never
raised his voice.
If you only looked at my conversations with him, then when I was small, I
was quite a rascal.
It’s not like I am trying to make excuses, but when talking with anyone who
was not my brother, I think that I was a very polite child.
Looking down on kids who acted like kids, and making people hate me.
Because this child is “trying to act tough” for the sake of others.
During all that time, there was a relationship that never changed.
“…You didn’t come here for me. You came for my brother.”
Crap – this woman came here all the way from Tokyo. If only our relatives
lived abroad, it would be much better. She couldn’t come so easily.
I was very mad on the inside, but I tried to remain calm and just stared at her.
“Don’t try to get too close to me. There is no need for that. And don’t touch
me.”
The reason?
It’s because….because I hate her. Anyway, I hate her. That’s all there is to it!
It’s not not not not not like that….! I don’t know what you are talking about!
“Of course I want to get closer to you ~ because Kyouka-chan is like a little
sister to me! Come on, call me Onee-chan!”
Kondou Shiho.
A bright, cheerful girl.
Normally, she is very mature. Her cooking skills are a match for any
professional chief. She is also very gentle and has many friends; even my
hated relatives like her —
Back then, no matter how tough I tried to be, I couldn’t beat her. Even now,
she is a woman that I can’t beat.
***
“In other words…Kyouka-san is a big brocon little sister, so you hated 「 your
brother’s girlfriend 」, right?”
“Of course not! Why why why why did you reach that conclusion!”
“E..even Sagiri..!?”
“We did. But we wanted to finish listening to your story first. My aunt is a
person who easily gets misunderstood.”
“You always make it out like you are the worst, so we want to hear you out
now.”
Sagiri is right. There is no way we could hate her just because she said that.
Unless she really is the murderer or was somehow directly involved in our
parent’s death… – but that was another matter.
“…You two…why?”
It was hard for us to become family, so I don’t want to lose this again.
“Masamune…you are just like the type of person that I hate the most.”
“…Let me continue.”
***
It was a mix of hatred, anger and envy. I wanted to surpass her in her field, so
I began to learn how to cook…you can guess the result.
“Kyouka-chan, you have no talent in cooking. Even if you did, you are no
match for me.”
“School activities and studying are Kyouka-chan’s strong points. Why did
you choose my field to challenge me?”
“Really? I like you a lot, because you are my favorite little sister.”
Back then, Izumi Kyouka couldn’t stop herself from challenging her
brother’s girlfriend.
I always tried to go against Shiho-san, but it was all one-sided. She returned
my hostility with nothing but goodwill.
She made it harder for me to forgive myself, I became more aware of how
childish I acted…I was surrounded by those complicated feelings.
Those feelings reached their peak the day my brother married Shiho-san.
Even though I had known that this day would come eventually.
“…Nii-san…Shiho-san…con…cong…congra….fueeeeeeeeeeeee ~~~!”
I cried for an hour. Unexpectedly, it was the first time I managed to shake
Shiho-san.
It was the most humiliating moment of Izumi Kyouka’s life. I never planned
to talk about it with anyone, even Masamune.
The Izumi family doesn’t have many relatives, and as an elementary student,
I couldn’t live alone by myself…
So, I had to endure hell: when I was forced to live together with the
newlywed couple.
Cough cough.
“Isn’t he cute?”
“Yes he is.”
It’s like…something that had troubled me for a long time had disappeared. I
felt…relieved.
“Shiho-san…I’m sorry.”
“Sorry for everything. You were my savior, but I always acted with so much
hostility towards you…I will soon leave this place.”
Although we resumed our typical daily conversation, starting that day, our
relationship began to change.
***
If I had some consecutive days off, I would go visit them. Sometimes I would
scold my brother, sometimes I argued with Shiho-san, and sometimes I would
just quietly watch Masamune.
Thankfully, he seemed to like me too. Until he was three, he still called me…
“Auntie.”
“..A…a…auntie?”
We were speaking the same language, but since I was only a high school
student back then, what he said hit me hard.
“Niiiiii-san!! You must be the culprit! Did you teach Masamune that weird
word?”
“Uwo? What are you doing? Masamune will hate you if you yell at me.”
“Kuh…”
“Auntie.”
“Breast.”
“Auuuuu!”
I will say it again. Back then, I was a pure high school girl, so while I knew
he didn’t mean anything erotic, I was still shaken.
“Breast.”
“Mwu au au au ~~”
I can hit him, right? Anyone would agree that that would not be domestic
violence, just righteous judgment, right?
***
“But but but that was very long ago! I was too small to have any impure
thoughts. And I don’t remember any of this!”
“So…Kyouka?”
“Yes?”
“I didn’t!”
Still with her usual innocent expression, Sagiri asked without shame:
Kyouka-san blushed madly and turned away. Seeing that, Sagiri shouted:
“Because, ahahaha!!!”
“If it exists, then the scene where this super cute little sister was breastfeeding
her nephew would be an amazing discovery!”
Sagiri just showed me the picture of Kyouka-san when she had her hair in
twin tails. I took a long look at it and muttered to myself.
***
Let me continue!
Cough cough…Anyway, I will take a moment to say what I normally can’t.
No. I don’t really need to. Masamune was old enough to remember the next
part, so he knows it as well as I do.
I myself also know that I’m not good at explaining things. So I gave up on
meeting him and tried protecting him from a distance.
………………
“See!? Kyouka was hit badly! Hurry up and think of a way to calm her
down!”
Shino-san passed away due to an accident. The Izumi household lost its light.
My brother was hit the hardest…and seeing him like that, Masamune tried to
act tough and didn’t even allow himself to be sad.
He tried to act like Shiho-san and began learning to cook. He took care of the
house. In order to keep his father from worrying, he became a good student at
school and stopped acting like a normal kid.
Masamune hated me, so I couldn’t help him. I couldn’t replace his mother.
From his point of view, I must have been a terrifying, useless, old hag who
just made people angry. That made him hate me even more
***
What Kyouka-san just talked about is the darkest period for my family. I had
experienced all of it first hand, but I still almost cried when she talked about
it.
“…I see.”
There was a long period of time where it was only me and my father living in
this house. I had somewhat recovered, but the root of the problem wasn’t
solved. Every day, I waited for my father to get home from work.
***
Masamune was laughing, but I knew that sometimes he cried when he was
home alone.
There are a lot of children like him in the world: many in much worse shape
than him. Is it strange to feel lonely? Is it strange to be embarrassed? Is it
such a big deal?
Don’t say that. If a family member passed away, even adult would cry. No
one can completely cut their emotions off, much less a child.
When a mother passes away, it is a very serious matter. For me, it was way
more important than everything else in the world.
I had no choice but to feel my levels of frustration and worry increase every
day.
By chance, I met my brother when he was with another woman – that was
our first meeting.
“She was very beautiful, but I felt she was kind of funny. Her appearance was
different, but I can say that she was just like Shiho-san.”
A familiar feeling.
All of this nearly made me break down crying. They were different people,
but…
“Um…I can understand that. Because I had the same feeling too.”
That meant she was the polar opposite of me. The kind of woman that I hated
the most.
Which also meant that she was the type of woman that my brother liked.
“At that moment, I was thinking that maybe she was my brother’s new
girlfriend….but turns out, they were just talking about work.”
Masamune answered:
“Yes. While he didn’t exactly work with the light novel section, from a
certain point of view, what I was working on was similar to his work.”
Masamune looks like he is having fun. His smile is exactly like his father’s.
“You like her, don’t you? Hm, I knew it…she is your type.”
“I haven’t confessed to her and we aren’t going out. It’s just our situations are
very similar.”
Young child. Lacking a partner. Hearing him say that, I agreed. They did
have some similarities.
First thing I learned about her and I already gave her a negative mark.
That day, when she invited me to go see a movie – that was the third time we
“coincidentally” met. We had a long talk with each other.
When I purposely added words like “parasitic”, “ATM”, and “otaku”… into
my conversation with a woman who might have interest in my widower
brother, she suddenly made the invitation above.
“So?”
“Let’s go watch a movie together! It’s very good one, so you must have heard
about it! It’s the most popular recent anime! I hear it’s very moving!”
“So this is your plan huh, 「a preemptive strike 」? Hm, it’s useless to flatter
me. I’m not going to let my brother step on such an obvious landmine.”
“Okay okay, it’s not what you think! I just think that Kyouka has talent! I just
need to teach you a little; then you will be my perfect partner for visiting the
Anime shop.”
“Because each of us already has a child, and I have also married once…”
“So you like him, but you want to give up?”
“It’s more like I was trying to keep myself from liking him.”
“Are you thinking that by telling me this, you will get me to tell you a secret
or something?”
“Nope.”
“Um, I know.”
“You…you —“
***
“Kyouka…are you….mom’s…friend?”
“No.” I shook my head “I hated her. She was too close to my brother.”
“…I see.”
Finally – I will tell them the thing that I swore to myself I would never
reveal.
Maybe they sensed it too. Both Masamune and Sagiri tensed up.
“It was low of me. There was something that I hid from both of you.”
“…….”
My brother and my sister-in-law were very similar even before they got
married.
I heard something similar from both of them: That both of them were
interested in each other, but neither wanted to push it further.
My first love, which died a long time ago, was now burning again.
When he was alone in the house, Masamune was crying silently. During
those times, I was troubled a lot. I kept asking myself lots of questions. My
whole life until now had just been a series of cases where my effort didn’t
pay off and nothing turned out well.
I said it with a pain in my heart. But that was also the push both of them
needed.
***
“……………..”
“………………”
Both Sagiri and I froze, unable to say anything. What she said hit us like a
sledge hammer.
“………….”
It was her. Kyouka-san was the one who secretly led our parents to their
marriage.
And… that if it wasn’t for her…then our parents wouldn’t have gotten
married, wouldn’t have gone on their honeymoon…and wouldn’t have died.
— I cannot say.
“I’m a curse.” She said “Every time I tried something, it turned out for the
worst. Someone like me cannot give you my blessing….for your marriage.”
She said that without changing her expression. I couldn’t tell what she was
thinking.
“You two probably don’t want to see me again…Don’t worry, I won’t come
again. Though I will continue playing the role of 「 your guardian 」.”
“……….”
“……….”
Both Sagiri and I couldn’t say anything. That was how hard it was to hear for
both of us.
I knew that I had to think of a way to solve this…but I couldn’t move. Not a
single muscle.
***
My heart was full of shame and regret… but hopefully, they didn’t notice.
Only at that time did I feel lucky for my cold, emotionless appearance.
Maybe I should have told them the truth earlier and let them hate me?
No…back then, both of them had just lost their parents and wouldn’t be able
to take it. Only I could be their guardian and take care of them at that time.
That’s why…No. That’s not it. I wasn’t lying, but it wasn’t the whole truth
either.
The biggest reason I hid it was because I didn’t want those children to hate
me.
I both hate them and like them. I’m the reason they are in this situation, yet I
want to help them. Not only that, I had hoped that I could become closer to
them.
I didn’t hold it in hard enough and was forced to tell them – now, everything
is gone. Such critical timing, yet I made it harder for them both.
I always make the wrong choices. Nothing happens the way I want it to.
So it’s better if I stay away from my loved ones. Stay as far away as possible.
Now, I won’t make the same mistake anymore. I will return to our previous
relationship, the non-family relationship.
I made a mistake, but I must not let that mistake affect those children.
“…………”
Living together.
The feeling that I help them.
“Goodbye. Farewell.”
“Kyouka, wait!”
A voice that I didn’t expect suddenly came from behind me. Someone…
grabbed my hand.
“Wh…”
I turned around and saw the person who was trying to stop me… it was
Sagiri.
I thought I was dreaming.
“…Ha…ha….ha….”
I was only about ten meters away from the door, yet it should be impossible
for her.
Sagiri had been a hikikomori for two years and only started come out of her
room recently. But now, she was standing “outside”, looking at me
She wasn’t wearing her shoes: her feet were bare. Her breathing was ragged.
She was sweating, her face was pale…But her hand held firm.
She began to cough, unable to say anything. But, amidst the chaos, I heard
something.
“———–“
Sagiri was shouting something, but I couldn’t hear her properly. I must not
get my hopes up: I must have misheard her.
“Sagiri!”
Masamune also ran towards us. He only took a few seconds, but it felt like
hours to me.
“…Kah…ha…ha…”
Sagiri turned back toward her brother.
“I’m …fine…so…please.”
“….”
“Kyouka-san.”
“…Yes?”
“Just leaving after saying your story is unfair. Please at least listen to our
opinions too.”
Both of them have the right to blame me. No matter how hard they curse at
me, I have the duty to listen. Before I leave, I have to accept it all.
Totally opposite from what I expected to hear – that was what he said.
“That was what I thought. But after listening to your story, I understand now
– Kyouka-san, you thought it was your responsibility, so you took care of
us.”
“Not exactly. It’s not just my feeling of responsibly or shame… Part of me
thought that if I took care of you, if I could help you….then I could become
your family, and stay with you.”
“Still, back then, Kyouka-san didn’t want to be our family yet, right?”
“……….”
“I understand the part regarding 「the reason you took care of us 」. But I
cannot accept your reasoning regarding 「 why you can’t give us your
blessing 」. That, and the fact you are blaming yourself for my parents’
deaths.”
“Like I said —“
“I’m not saying that it wasn’t your fault.” He interrupted me “Both Sagiri and
I agree that …we do blame you a bit. If it wasn’t because of you, maybe my
father would still be alive.”
“…Yes.”
“My father was the one who decided the date of their honeymoon… but it
was because we wanted him to choose that day. During those times, we
would be left alone for a week.”
“I was to blame too. I…think that Sagiri feels the same…she must feel like
she killed our parents. Just like you, Kyouka-san.”
“What…!? How could that be?”
“~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~”
My face suddenly felt so hot. I grit my teeth and tried to hold it down.
“Yes! Yes!”
“Kyouka brought us a miracle. You brought us what we like the most, what
helped us forget the things we hated the most. You always…always worry for
us…”
“Oh…oh…”
“So…so…”