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FELICE. [slowly, reflectively, writing] To play with fear is to play with fire. [He looks up as if he were silently
asking some question of enormous consequence] — No, worse, much worse, than playing with fire. Fire has
limits. It comes to a river or sea and there it stops, it comes to stone or bare earth that it can’t leap across and
Impossible! [He runs his hands through his long hair] Fear! The fierce little man with the drum inside the rib
cage. Yes, compared to fear grown to panic which has no — what? — limits, at least none short of
consciousness blowing out and not reviving again, compared to that, no other emotion a living, feeling
creature is capable of having, not even love or hate, is comparable in — what? — force? — magnitude?
FELICE. — There is the love and the — substitutions, the surrogate attachments, doomed to brief duration,
no matter how — necessary … — You can’t, you must never catch hold of and cry out to a person, loved or
needed as deeply as if loved — “Take care of me, I’m frightened, don’t know the next step!” The one so loved
and needed would hold you in contempt. In the heart of this person — him-her — is a little automatic sound
A. Don't say no to me, you can't say no to me because it's such a relief to have love again and to lie in a bed
and be held and touched and kissed and adored and your heart will leap when you hear my voice and see my
smile and feel my breath on your neck and your heart will race when I want to see you and I will lie to you
from day one and use you and screw you and break your heart because you broke mine first and you will love
me more each day until the weight is unbearable and your life is mine and you'll die alone because I will take
what I want then walk away and owe you nothing it's always there it's always been there and you cannot deny
the life you feel, fuck that life, fuck that life, fuck that life, I have lost you now.