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The Royal Street Witch by Jenna Walker
The Royal Street Witch by Jenna Walker
The Royal Street Witch by Jenna Walker
ISBN-13: 9798392693788
Dedicated to The Walker 4
Everything I do, I do for you.
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About the Author
“NEVER BE TOO MAD TO take their money,” Mother would say,
stacking bills of hundreds and fifties along the kitchen table, a
hand-rolled cigarette hanging from the corner of her scarlet
lips. “They will enrage you, they will belittle you. Think
themselves superior even when they need you. Take their
money and go.”
Another text vibrates in my pocket as I make my way down
Bourbon Street, Mother on my mind. Groaning, I check my
phone, unsurprised it’s another frantic text from Nicola.
Amerie couldn’t wait. Hurry. I’ll pay extra.
“Wow.” It’s all I can muster as I stomp down the street
because I can read between the lines. Amerie opened some
human’s vein and didn’t have my cream to heal it. Vampires.
The most impulsive creatures on the planet. It’s astounding
how they’ve survived this long.
Take their money and go.
Many a girl will be told on their first trip to the French
Quarter, never to go down Bourbon Street on her own,
especially past midnight. But this is my home, and shady folks
tend to stay away from girls with dark lipstick in velvet
hooded cloaks. And because of this, I’ve rarely had to use
magic to protect myself for most of my twenty-five years.
It’s not really the locals I’ve had problems with, it’s the
tourists that expect young women to show their tits in
exchange for plastic beads. Drunken buffoons that think I want
to hear about how many ways they can please me.
The last time I showed an overly aggressive bald man
exactly what pleases me, by pushing him down with a flick of
my finger.
“Two hours,” I had whispered as I walked across his back.
The spell had been cast with him sprawled out upon the
alcohol-covered street for 120 minutes before he had the
strength to get up, the yells in his Brooklyn accent somehow
barely above a whisper.
Sneering at the memory, my feet taking me farther down
Bourbon Street to Comey’s, a no-frills jazz pub where true
music enthusiasts sit to drink and not just listen to music, but
to feel music. Stepping inside, my eyes immediately catch
Oksana’s. Running Comey’s is her job, but her true passion is
being the vampire’s gatekeeper. They lurk inside various clubs
and bars throughout the French Quarter, whispering the
password to the upstairs speakeasy into the ears of captivated
tourists. It’s Oksana who allows passage upstairs once the
password has been repeated, ushering them where she’s about
to take me.
With the usual grimace on her face, she comes from behind
the bar, and we fall in line with each other. A jazz band goes to
town on the tiny stage as patrons sway in their seats or yell
over the music in an attempt at conversation.
“Finally,” she mutters in her English accent. That wispy
woman with a diseased disposition never hides her revulsion
for me.
My index finger points to her foot, an invisible bolt of
power zapping her sandal. She stumbles forward but pushes
her arm to the wall, catching herself.
“You good?” I ask, sprawling out my hands in a fake
attempt to catch her. Those thin lips sneer, but she’s not stupid
enough to accuse me of anything.
Once we reach the back of the bar, she reaches into her
pocket, producing a set of keys. I don’t need the password to
enter. I never will. Unlocking the door that says Employees
Only, she side-eyes me and then waves her hand for me to
ascend, her eyes saying, What are you waiting for? I clench
the inside of my cheek to keep from casting something I may
regret and turn away from her.
The narrow stairs widen as they spiral upward, and I stroke
the heads of the cats that lounge upon them as I climb. Passing
a Vampires On The Loose sign on the staircase wall, I make
my way to the second floor and slowly open the door with
Nightwalkers etched into the glass.
A vampire speakeasy with real vampires. You must stay
clever if you’re a vampire or witch these days, and New
Orleans, with its haunted reputation, is the perfect place to
hide in plain sight.
Just as I push the door open, I hear Nicola’s voice,
desperate, crying, no wait—pleading.
“Why isn’t it enough?” she wails as I walk in, her knees at
Cassius’s feet, hands clasped in prayer position, eyes rimmed
red. This is a first, and is that a stake on the ground next to
her? What is happening?
The clack of my boots causes her head to snap in my
direction, and she looks caught, embarrassed even.
“We had to turn customers away!” she hisses, jumping up
and stomping toward me, then has the audacity to reach for my
bag of products, but I slide it out of her reach.
“You’re so welcome that I rushed an order for you, Nicola.
I’ll remember your gratitude next time.” I flash the fakest
smile and step closer to her. “I’ll take my money first.”
Nicola’s dark eyes glint in the dimly lit room that was once
a Greek Revival condominium but now is a speakeasy covered
in black and white striped wallpaper like we’re standing inside
Beetlejuice’s suit pocket. Small tables line the walls where
tarot readings are as popular as the emerald flow of absinthe.
Licking her canines, sharp and dangerous, Nicola is
consumed with anger as she runs a jittery hand over her
platinum blonde hair. Whenever her nostrils flare like they are
now, I’ve learned the struggle to gather herself is real.
Candles cast shadows along the walls mixing the scent of
lavender with alcohol while a gothic song plays—a vampire
waltz, no doubt. We supernaturals are all about ambiance, and
my eyes return to the oldest, most ambient creature in the
room.
In a large Victorian chair, Cassius sits in the corner, staring
at a wall until his eyes meet mine. He’s usually playing some
melancholic tune on the baby grand piano in the corner of the
parlor, but tonight it seems I’ve walked in on more than one
crisis. And the stake I thought I saw is nowhere in sight.
I can’t help but pity Nicola’s first son. A sullen vampire,
with his long brown hair and perfectly sculpted face. If I were
a usual girl, my heartbeat would quicken every time his
attention was placed upon me, but I’m not usual—not at all.
The sulky vampire bit is old, as far as I’m concerned. Cassius
doesn’t look at me, doesn’t acknowledge my existence, which
is nothing new. My purpose here has nothing to do with him
and his river of sorrows.
I look away from Cassius, and my attention is drawn to the
reason I’m here—to the young man lying on the royal blue
couch in the center of the room. With closed eyes, he’s
breathing ever so softly, as if the life is barely left in him. His
long forearm lies across a coffee table where two fresh
puncture wounds pool with blood on the inside of his elbow.
Next to his arm is the glass of absinthe that put him to sleep,
the drink laced with one of my potions.
This is how I make the bulk of my living—selling potions
and creams to vampires. It’s a lucrative business, but I can’t
say that I love my job.
I sense the tension, sense the vampires are getting restless,
worrying the guy will awaken at any moment. And if he does
with two holes in his arm, they would have to kill him.
Thankfully I made it in time.
Amerie appears from the terrace that overlooks Bourbon
Street, a tiny vampire with smooth dark skin and lips the frat
boys find irresistible. “I couldn’t help myself,” she sneers in
her French accent. “Look at his face. Such a beautiful face has
the sweetest blood.”
My stomach turns, and from the sight of this guy, I decide
not to wait on the cash. I place the brown paper sack down,
pull out a cream, and hand it to Nicola. “It takes seven days to
cure the cream. You need to start placing your orders earlier. I
can’t keep up.”
“Bastian is back, we’ll be needing more than usual,” Nicola
says, and did she say Bastian? I clear my throat and search the
room for him, off guard at the mention of his name. It’s been
years since I’ve seen Nicola’s second “son” Bastian. Vampires
have this strange habit of adopting new vampires and then
calling them family while hardly knowing each other. Bastian
was around when I was a child, and I always wondered where
the only vampire that ever smiled went.
But he’s nowhere in sight, and my eyes turn back to Nicola,
who is spooning a fingertip into the jar, pulling a wad of clear
cream from it. Healing creams are known to burn the skin of
witches. Making it requires extra care, from collecting the
ingredients, to carefully filling each container. Something I
create that harms me, and the irony is not lost on me.
Kneeling next to the young man, Nicola hastily spreads it
across his puncture wounds, caressing his head like he’s some
kind of pet. Then she runs her flattened tongue along his
forearm, lapping up the residual blood.
I turn as if witnessing something I shouldn’t be seeing, a
discomfort that comes with my job, and take a deep breath as
something shifts in the room with heavy footsteps pounding
upon the floor.
There’s a man exiting Nicola’s office, a bag in one hand
while the other runs a thumb along his bottom lip. He watches
Nicola, eyebrows drawn together, and I take a breath to steady
myself, unsure if I’m lightheaded from watching Nicola lick
blood like a sexual wolf, or if it’s seeing Bastian for the first
time in fifteen years. He’s still as striking as he was back then
—even more so, it seems. But now mine are the eyes of a
woman looking upon him, not a little girl. And when his eyes
shift to me, I stand up straight.
“Aster,” he says, eyebrow arching. The dark brown locks of
hair sit in waves on his head, and his green eyes soften. It’s
true that some vampires pale when they turn, but it’s not true
for Bastian, who has managed to keep his deep tan. With long
legs and a lean body, he’s very dapper in a three-piece suit—
which would be overkill for any man that wasn’t a vampire,
but vampires can just get away with anything, can’t they? He’s
fine, and his walk tells me he knows it.
“Bastian,” I say, avoiding his gaze and stepping away from
him.
With searching eyes, he’s placing me as Aster the woman,
not Aster the child. It’s no longer the black-haired witch
making deliveries with her daughter. My mother has long
since moved away, but he smiles as recognition blossoms.
“All grown up.” And something flickers in his eyes as a
hand slips into his pocket.
“That is what humans do,” I say, and he laughs.
“I wouldn’t consider a witch a human.” He’s wrong, but I
don’t bother to correct him. Witches are supernatural beings,
yes. But our hearts must pump with blood, our bodies require
sustenance, we can be killed, and we can reproduce.
“A mere mortal, then?” I bow with a hint of an English
accent.
“Better.” His lips curve into an amused grin. “So you’re the
HBIC now?”
“You mean The Head Witch In Charge,” I correct, and he
nods and holy Maiden, Mother, and Crone, he is hot. And does
my face mirror my thoughts? Because he suddenly straightens
as if remembering why we are even talking in the first place.
“Your pay.” There’s a hint of hesitation when he hands over
the paper bag full of cash. I open it, eyeing the normal stack of
hundreds.
“Said you’d pay extra, for the rush.” Smoke from a burning
stick of incense billows in front of me and I bat it away.
Nicola looks up from the young man, stewing. “You were
already on your way.”
“I’ll pay extra. Your words.”
This is not a typical business relationship, and every
supernatural in this room knows it. Without me, they couldn’t
get away with the amount of tourist blood they drink, and
that’s because over a hundred years ago my great-great
grandmother and her sisters struck a deal with the Vampire
King of New Orleans. Once upon a time, death was the only
option for vampire victims, so my ancestors believed they
were doing the right thing. We make untraceable potions that
incapacitate humans, and the vampires take enough blood that
does no harm. The enchanted creams we create heal the bite
wounds on the spot, and humans are none the wiser—
especially tourists who think they were momentarily lost in a
daydream while at that one speakeasy in the French Quarter.
In return, they pay me. They pay me well. If it weren’t for
me, they would have to revert back to dumping bodies in the
Mississippi, and with today’s forensics, that wouldn’t last
long.
Nicola distributes my products throughout Louisiana, but
some vampires have other arrangements for how they get their
blood, and I don’t ask questions. I do my job—what the
women in my family have been doing for years—with my
mouth mostly closed.
My eyes roam to the comatose boy’s arm. The punctures
are gone, the magic already having healed them.
“I had to run. Running is extra,” I lie. “Do you see these
boots?” Raising my skirt, I showcase my laced-up boots.
“Most dangerous with all the potholes.”
“Always taking advantage,” Nicola says through gritted
teeth, rising from the couch.
“Mother,” Bastian croons, running a tense hand through his
wavy brown hair. “Oksana is still turning customers away
downstairs. Let’s get the boy up and open for business.”
He grabs my hand, pushes a few hundreds into my palm,
then turns it over to his icy lips. “For the rush.” His breath is
cool against my hand, his black lashes blinking and his eyes
boring into mine while a soft kiss is placed upon my skin. “See
you around.” And he says it like a promise.
My hand slips from his, and I shove the hundreds and bag
of cash into my tote. Nicola is fuming, which isn’t out of
character for the hot-headed blonde. But this is different,
there’s a panic in the room.
Bastian turns from me and sits the boy up just as his eyes
flit open. “Amerie,” he says with a flick of his head, and the
beautiful French vampire bounces next to the boy, gently
running her hand up and down his thigh as he comes to.
Bastian pulls out his phone and dials a number. “Let them in,”
he says sternly into the phone—surely Oksana the gatekeeper
—as he unbuttons his suit jacket.
I pull the hood of my cloak over my head, pretending I’m
not at all intrigued by the obvious tension in the room.
Nicola’s head is in her hands as Bastian paces, all while
Cassius forlornly walks to the terrace and yes, it was a stake
on the ground earlier because it’s now in Cassius’s hand.
This is strange because vampires don’t usually have a
weapon that can kill them just lying around or in their own
hands, but it’s not my business. My business here is done. I
look at the college boy and can’t help but feel guilt, though he
won’t remember a thing, and he’s already smiling like a
complete goof at Amerie.
“Well, it’s been a pleasure, as usual.” I dip my head and
walk toward the door with the sounds of Bastian’s and
Nicola’s whispers behind me. I turn and meet Bastian’s gaze,
who gives a sharp, appreciative nod in my direction.
Back on Bourbon, there’s that sound—the sound of a
crowd yelling, laughing, living. Whistles blow from the lips of
locals, enticing you to enter their club. Young bachelorettes
dancing, their white veils bopping down the street right next to
men on business trips in suits and ties, fingers clamped around
Hurricane-filled Styrofoam cups. The Bucket Boys are
perched on stools in the middle of the street, with large white
buckets between their legs, slamming their drumsticks on top
of the plastic, their beats echoing throughout the Quarter. Their
mothers watch from the sidelines, laughing with each other,
holding their babies. Neon signs and jazz musicians line the
streets while every genre of music blasts from the various
clubs. Life sways through my bones. Bourbon Street. The
most alive street in New Orleans. Locals may try to hate it.
But not me.
The French Quarter is always bubbling over with people,
and I take a refreshing breath of clean air once I turn on Royal.
The smell of a hot Friday night on Bourbon is not for the
weak-stomached. First-timers often gag at the smell of
fermenting liquor and recklessness.
My shop sits on Royal Street, just around the corner from
the chaos, yet almost a whole other world. I enter through the
side door, up the stairs to my home that sits above my store.
Pulling my cloak from my red hairline and unlacing my
boots—while my cat Mercury greets me in the entryway—I
ruminate over the scene at Nightwalkers.
“You will never guess who’s back, Mercury.” I plop on the
floor, caressing his tail. Something coils in my stomach, a
warning that the natural revulsion I’m supposed to have
simply is not there. Because of all the vampires I have come
across and hate, I could never make myself hate Bastian
Delacroix.
“ROSE QUARTZ IS LOVELY AND all, but what I really need is
divine intervention!” my customer proclaims, clasping her
hands together and looking to the ceiling of my shop. “Jesus,
send me a man. And not just any man, a good man.” A smile
sits upon her bright pink lips, and then she winks at me, for
god’s sake. “Know what I mean?”
I do my best to nod as if I’m agreeing with her, but honey,
love is not the answer. It doesn’t matter what the answer is,
because it’s what most of my customers are in search of, so I
wrap her rose quartz necklace in lavender-scented tissue paper
and place it into a small velvet pouch.
Wildes Jewelry & Crystal belonged to my grandmother,
and though she is long gone, I work religiously, hoping that
wherever she is, she can see me trying to salvage what she
started.
After sprinkling dried rose petals in the pouch, I tighten it
and place it in her hand. “Wear it every day, and at night, place
the pouch under your pillow. Soon enough, love will find
you.” I close my eyes, envisioning two hearts cut in two, the
halves trading places and then being stitched back together.
My customers may not know the magic at hand, but I put as
much as I can into each stone, so their desires are worn around
their necks or hanging from their ears, unaware that life may
very well unfold just how they wish it to.
She looks at me as if I’ve solved all the world’s problems,
as if I am Jesus Christ himself. But I’m not Jesus, I’m not a
miracle worker. I’m a witch that can do a whole lot, yet there’s
much I simply cannot do. Making two people fall in love is
one of them, but I can certainly help with opening hearts and
minds to it.
“What a magical city. I just love it here.”
Same. Yet, the magic of New Orleans wasn’t created by
witches. It’s just a natural phenomenon that occurred in a place
once considered an uninhabitable environment.
The woman walks out of my shop, her tight mini dress the
only thing on her body not moving, and once she gets outside,
she opens the pouch and puts the necklace right on.
No, love isn’t the answer. But you know what is? Financial
freedom. I scroll through my emails and all that’s there is bill
after bill, and I look around my shop and wish that witches
could create money. Then every problem of mine would be
solved. The pickup from Nightwalkers last night will pay my
mortgage, and once I distribute the coven elders their cut, I
will hopefully have enough to pay my utilities. I am the only
witch in New Orleans paying out the coven, and let’s just say
that witches really suck at money management.
I blow out my cheeks, putting my phone away. Back to
work.
And just as I place a phantom quartz in a glass bowl, the
bell tied to my shop door rings.
Pouring water over the quartz, I feel him before he even
enters—Bastian, walking through the door—and my eyes fix
on my garnet ring. Vampires aren’t supposed to come calling
on witches, and the silver dagger I keep in my boot at all times
warms against my skin.
“I come in peace,” he says immediately, raising his hands
in surrender, a sly grin across his lips. Tonight his attire is less
formal, dark pants and a crisp white button-up. His brown hair
still sits in waves, his natural sun-kissed skin luminous in the
twilight.
Masking my alarm, I continue pouring water into the bowl
until it’s brimming. “Peace,” my voice drips with sarcasm,
because vampires don’t know the meaning of the word, and I
fix my attention on my work as he walks toward me. His
hands slide on the counter, and they are such typical vampire
hands. Long. Smooth. Ageless and perfectly manicured.
Decorated with two rings—one a gold signet on his right ring
finger with B.D. carved into it, and the other a pinkie ring
made of gold etched obsidian. It’s a stone for protection, and I
wonder if he has any idea or if it just looked pretty. Vampires
are extremely sentimental, always keeping tokens from their
long lives, so I surmise there’s meaning there.
His fingers tap until I’m forced to look up at him.
“Just out doing some shopping. I haven’t been on Royal
Street for quite some time. Nice place,” he says, eyes roving
over the deep purple walls I just re-painted last year. He
saunters past the display cases filled with handmade amethyst
and turquoise rings, agate bracelets, and amber necklaces.
I circulate my finger over the water and quartz filled bowl
until it stirs on its own. I’m free to be myself in front of
Bastian, something I find liberating, but also, I want him to
witness the simplest magic and to remember I’m powerful.
“I love magic shows,” he says and crosses his long arms,
feigning excitement.
I grab the bowl and place it in the window, realizing my
back is to him. “Never turn your back on a vampire,” my
mother had always warned, and I always heeded that advice.
But Bastian is playing some sort of game with me, and I don’t
want him sensing any fear. When I turn around, his arms are
still crossed and he’s leaning on the counter.
“Why do you put them in the window?” His eyes twinkle
with genuine curiosity.
I lean next to him, our faces dangerously close.
He. Is. Beautiful.
Masculine and confident, but not in a toxic way. In a way
that makes him approachable and charming. A way that makes
him too easy to talk to.
“Witches don’t tell their secrets to vampires.”
The corner of his pouty mouth curls up into a grin, baring
his white teeth. Bastian is different from the others, something
I’ve always remembered. He once pulled a quarter out of my
ear, that old magic trick not impressing my ten-year-old self
whatsoever. What was impressive was how he treated me,
joked with me—much to our mothers’ chagrin. Because there
was to be no joking, no laughing, and no friendship between
witches and vampires. He was a rarity for a rather solemn
species.
“The moon charges the quartz and water. We then use the
water for healing spells and blessings.”
He looks at me suspiciously because I’ve divulged insider
information.
“Oh, come on, you can google that.” I laugh because I
wouldn’t tell Bastian my real secret spells.
“Like a type of holy water?” he asks, and I shake my head.
“Holy water is blessed by priests. I’m no priest.”
“I knew that,” he says with a mischievous wink. It sets
something off in me, like when you make eye contact with a
crush in high school. There’s a scar on his forehead that runs
from his hairline to his eyebrow, and it suits him, like it has
been there since he was born. I could get lost staring at him, so
I clear my throat.
“I’m closing up for the night. Will you be making a
purchase?” I’m certain that’s not why he’s here. But why is he
here?
“Can we talk? For a moment?”
I look at the time, sighing. “Okay,” I say, my defenses
pricking. My garnet stays pain free, enchanted to sting if I’m
in harm’s way. “Hold on,” I tell him then nod to the shop door.
“Lock,” I command, and the deadbolt turns. “Lights.” The
room dims. “Talk,” I say, turning to Bastian, and he almost
flinches as though I’ve put a spell on him.
“Magic makes one so lazy,” he titters, and I roll my eyes.
“Energy conservation is vital. Talk,” I repeat, and this time
he knows he’s not under a spell, his chin nodding to his chest,
an eyebrow raising.
“Not a little girl anymore.” He’s speaking more to himself
and I blink incessantly, because he’s studying me and I don’t
like it.
“Yeah, you’re not as tall as I remember. Or as handsome.”
A liquid hot smile pulls on his lips, because he’s pretty
fucking tall and handsome and he knows it.
“Sure,” he laughs, amused by my tiny jab, his face fixing
on mine. It’s not like we knew each other well back then, but I
was a little witch, and all the vampires looked at me with
either disdain or curiosity. The little witch that accompanied
her mother to a bar in the French Quarter. Delta Wildes, my
mother sold potions and creams from one hand with a firm
grasp on me with the other.
“It’s been a long time, Aster. Since I’ve been back home.”
He looks out the window, as though a melancholy is taking
over him. I follow his gaze to a couple walking by the
window, hand in hand. “A long time since I’ve seen my
brother.”
Cassius surfaces from last night, sitting in his chair, an
entire room of vampires frazzled, yet he didn’t move. On my
visits, he’s always polite, but never friendly; beautiful in a
haunting way, in the way you’d expect vampires to be. But
Bastian is his opposite in character, and now, looks vulnerable.
A big vampire no-no.
Unsure where he’s going with this, I maintain silence as
Bastian straightens from his lean on the counter.
“What do you think of him?”
I laugh. “Uh, I don’t. We don’t know each other enough for
me to have an opinion of him. You’ve been gone too long.
You’ve forgotten how it works.”
“How does it work, again?” Catching my eyes, he looks
almost innocent, like a lost boy, and I could almost soften. But
a witch can never forget how dangerous a vampire is. He’s so
fast, he could break my neck in seconds. So I swallow, my
fingers pressing into my throat.
“I drop off the goods—I get paid and leave. There’s no in-
between. We don’t even acknowledge each other on the
street.”
“Ridiculous,” Bastian sighs.
“Why do you say that?”
“Because we need each other. To survive.”
“I don’t need you to survive. I can do that on my own.”
“Hm. Seems you’re surviving because of the goods we buy
from you. The mortgage for this place and your upstairs
apartment seems a little high for selling twenty-dollar
necklaces.”
My feet draw back while I place a dramatic hand across my
heart. “My necklaces are not twenty dollars,” I scoff, but we
both know he’s right. I couldn’t afford this building with what
I make from my jewelry.
“Look, I have a proposition. I think you’ll find it
financially beneficial,” he rasps, cutting to the chase.
“We aren’t supposed to make side deals. That’s part of The
Agreement.”
“Fuck The Agreement. It’s antiquated and foolish. We
could benefit so much from what you create, and you could
benefit from what we’re willing to pay you for it.”
My mother’s face flashes in my memory. All the rules and
guidelines she entrusted me with before she left for Europe.
Sell the goods to the vampires, make your living, no
fraternizing, and no side or secret deals. Secret deals can make
things sticky, and this is very cut and dry. It’s well known that
any side deals mean treason has been committed. We must
never make ourselves vulnerable, and all deals must be
approved by the coven and vampire leaders. That’s The
Agreement, and it’s been enforced between my ancestors and
the vampires of New Orleans for one hundred years.
This shop and my upstairs home were once my
grandmother’s where my mother and I were raised. There’s
been a lot of mismanagement of the money for a long time, but
I’m in charge now, and I’m going to be financially secure if it
kills me. Our family shop, family home was placed in my
hands seven years ago to save, and it’s not something I take
lightly.
“So what do you want?” I ask, surprised by his candor, the
rules running through my mind.
He pulls an elegant hand over his mouth and looks out the
window again. “My brother is dying.”
“Cassius is dying?” It comes out flat, disbelieving.
“Not physically, but mentally. Emotionally. My mother
called me back from New York to save him. But I can’t save
him, not if he has no reason to live. Last night, he
threatened…” His jaw clenches as the memory of how undone
they all seemed last night at Nightwalkers surfaces, the stake
that seemed to appear and disappear. “He misses being alive.
He yearns for it. And so, I thought you could help me.”
“I can’t make vampires mortal again.”
“That’s not it. I want a spell or a potion. Or whatever it is
that you do. I want something he can take or chant that will
allow him to walk in the daylight again.”
At first, it’s a tingle, that familiar sensation inside my
wrists. But it slowly turns into a pull, as if each wrist has been
invisibly hooked from the mention of magic and the desire to
create it. This is my grimoire’s doing, tucked behind the
counter, pulsing at the request, causing a tug on the veins
inside my wrists. Spell work, magic, potions. They are always
asked of me, and it’s my nature to create them and my
grimoire’s nature to assist. I drop my hands to my sides in an
effort to get the blood flowing again, to make it stop.
“No spell of that kind exists—allowing vampires to walk in
the daylight.” I shake my head and meet his pleading eyes.
They are as light green as aventurine, good for prosperity and
luck.
“Then create one.”
It hits my chest, his request, and the blood in my wrists
thumps. They want to do it. “No,” I whisper to both Bastian
and my wrists. “I can’t. That’s forbidden. That’s big trouble.
Does your mother know about this?” My voice goes up too
many octaves, and I have to clear my throat.
“Hell, no!” he exclaims. “Only me and you. And eventually
Cassius. It’ll be our secret. Cassius and I can leave, swim the
waters of Fiji, watch The World Cup or go wherever the fuck
he wants to go, and he can live again.”
I’m tongue-tied, shocked at what he’s asking me, how
casual he’s going about it. I massage the inside of my wrist
with my thumb, a desperate attempt to stop the pull for magic.
I wish Bastian would stop talking, would leave, but he just
goes on.
“Cassius suffers, he suffers so much. I want to alleviate his
pain, to help him through it. It’s been so long since I’ve seen
him happy. Truly happy.” He looks out the window again and
then turns back to me. “I know it was you that created the lip
balm. That’s why I chose you. I know you can do it.”
The lip balm…the one I single-handedly created just for
vampires. Once applied, a kiss anesthetizes the skin so humans
won’t feel the vampire bite into their flesh. I think back to my
mother’s surprise after I came up with the idea, her goading
me to finish the balm so she could sell it to Nicola. And she
did, and she made a lot of money on it in the beginning.
Money that she spent on Chanel bags instead of the new
refrigerator we needed. But it didn’t bring in the steady stream
of cash my mother had hoped for, and that’s because humans
usually aren’t too keen on being bitten while they are
conscious even if they don’t feel it. It’s still used by vampires
and human mates, but that’s a rarity.
“The lip balm was a novelty that wore off. You guys hardly
use that,” I rub my other wrist, so uncomfortable with what
he’s asking.
“It doesn’t matter how often we use it, it matters that we
have the choice.”
“Listen, no. Within these walls is where this request dies.
You can’t mess with magic like that. We don’t know what
could happen. What if I killed him? Then I would have a
swarm of vampires after my neck.”
“We’ll test it on me first. I’ll be the guinea pig.” He has
thought this through, and I don’t like it.
“Absolutely not. My coven would burn me for it. Allowing
vampires to be out during the day? You guys would be even
more dangerous than you already are. No.”
“What coven? You’re the only true witch left in New
Orleans. Why do you think we pay you so much?”
“I have a coven!” I say, crossing my arms in defense. But
Bastian is mostly right. I am the last pure-blooded witch left in
the city. The touristy witch shops stocked with a mixture of
gris-gris recipes and spell books made in China don’t count.
Witches only birth girls, we’re an entirely female species and
we haven’t been breeding much in the past hundred years. We
are few and far between, a dying breed.
Bastian leans in, so close I can smell his minty breath, his
hand falling on my shoulder, and I feel its coolness even
through my shirt. “I know what you owe for this place. A
building with an apartment and shop is an expensive mortgage
in the French Quarter, especially on Royal Street. I’ll give you
enough to pay off this entire building. You would never have
to worry again.”
It’s as though time stops. I make enough at the shop to eat
and pay most of my bills, and what the vampires pay me takes
care of paying the elders and most of my mortgage. Even
though this was my grandmother’s home, my mother
refinanced it so many times, we owe more than ever.
My heartbeat quickens and my wrists throb from the
demands of my grimoire, so I step back, because shit just got
real.
And then, Bastian smiles because he’s caught me
contemplating. “Gotcha.” He winks, standing so close he’s
intoxicating.
“It’s time for you to go.” The thought of owning this
building free and clear is too tempting, but secret deals with
vampires would be nothing but trouble for both of us. I walk
behind the counter, brushing against my grimoire, silently
begging it to stop pulling on my wrists. It relents, and I sigh
with relief.
Bastian turns, placing both hands on the counter again,
arms spread wide apart. “You don’t want to pass this up. How
about I come by tomorrow with a prepayment? Then you can
get started. Sound good?” His cocky grin is punchable, a far
cry from the vulnerability he disclosed over his brother only
moments ago.
“Nope,” I purr, resting my face on my hand, and he raps his
knuckles twice on the glass countertop.
“See you tomorrow?”
“I’m busy.” It comes out as dry as fifty-year-old paint.
“Same time, same place?”
“I won’t be here.”
“Good talk.” He nods, seeming lighter, and I pull the smile
from my lips. His hands slide into his pockets as he walks
toward the door. Halting, he points to the deadbolt. “Unlock,”
he commands, but the deadbolt stays in position. He thinks he
has me, thinks I’ll cave, and I’m bewildered by his sudden
arrogance and want him out of my shop.
“Unlock,” I whisper, and he grabs the doorknob and faces
me.
“See, you have a gift! À demain!” French for see you
tomorrow, and my jaw clenches.
“No, you won’t!” I yell, but the door closes and I’m not so
sure. I lock the door behind him and then grab my grimoire, its
red velvet feeling warmer than usual against my fingers. I
march out of the shop and straight upstairs to my apartment.
The candles in my parlor alight upon my arrival, the
Victrola playing Don’t Stop Me Now by Queen. I blow out my
cheeks as I set my grimoire on the coffee table—her cover
flying open as Mercury jumps on the table and meows.
“Winnie,” I say—the name of my grimoire, the Wildes
women’s book of spells handed down to me from my mother.
“I would appreciate it if you would stop pulling on me from
every mention of magic.” I rub my exhausted eyes, knowing
my words will do no good. “I can’t create that kind of magic,”
I say to Winnie and Mercury but mostly to myself. “Can you
even imagine what kind of consequences it could have? What
if other vampires got a hold of it? We can’t have a bunch of
day-walking vampires roaming the streets.” I’m trying to
convince a spell book and it’s not working, because I can
hardly convince myself. My curiosity is peaked, and Bastian
believes I can do it though I hardly believe I can.
Winnie’s pages fly open and stop on a transformation spell.
It isn’t right at all for what Bastian is asking of me, but it
would be a start. My stomach drops while my hand runs down
Mercury’s back, and my mind can’t stop thinking of the
aventurine eyes that offered me financial freedom on a silver
platter.
SOME BAYOU WITCHES RESIDE IN shacks, doling out palm
readings in the dead of night, nothing but a lantern-lit porch
and the sound of alligators slithering through the grass. And
there’re other bayou witches, living in mansions built in the
1800s, taking their morning tea in the parlor to the sound of
Debussy, dressed to the nines with nowhere in particular to go.
Aunt Violetta is just that kind, and one of the reasons my
mother left once my grandmother died. Aunt Violetta became
the elder of our coven and still believes that witchcraft could
remain refined with her teacups and saucers, the hand-painted
portraits of herself, the home that makes you feel as if you’ve
stepped back in time.
The rain pelts me as I trudge up her porch steps, the hour
drive to Houma a wet and nauseating one. I don’t have to
knock or ring the doorbell, the door always opens on its own
upon my arrival. The grand staircase is the only thing that
consistently greets me in this old house, that and the smell of
two-hundred-year-old wood.
“In here, dear,” her raspy voice calls from the parlor.
Violetta’s Federal style mansion sits amid the lush bayou
greens, far from neighbors or wandering eyes. Just as she likes
it.
I turn to the right, my eyes taking her and all her very extra
glory in. She sits with a teacup in her gloved hand, her curly
gray hair half up with a satin bow piercing the bun.
She stares at me as if she has no idea why I’m standing in
front of her then takes a sip of her tea, the black lace glove cut
off at the fingers. “I hope the drive wasn’t too intolerable,” she
says as her cup clacks against the saucer. The drive is always
intolerable and even worse today because I’m nervous, but I
lie, sitting across from her, placing the cash on the small
breakfast table. Behind her in the grand dining room, the large
table is set for a party of at least twelve, and I wonder if she’s
entertaining tonight.
Sliding the bag of cash off the table and opening it, she
moves her brown eyes from the bag to me at least three times.
She takes out four of the stacks of cash, leaving me with the
fifth, sliding it across the table to me.
“What can I get you? Anything to eat or drink?” she asks,
the lines on her face seeming deeper than my last visit, her
hands moving a little slower. She rolls the bag of cash back up
and places it under the table, and my heart thrums against my
ribcage. I lick my dry lips and swallow because if I don’t jump
in and ask now, I won’t do it at all.
“No, nothing. Thank you. I was hoping I could talk to you
about the take.” I clear my throat as her eyes slit like she might
set me on fire. “More and more seems to be coming out each
visit, and it’s getting harder for me to pay my bills.”
Violetta crosses her legs, fluffing out her taffeta skirt. “It’s
so very unfortunate you can’t afford your lifestyle.” Her voice
sounds sympathetic, but there’s not a trace of sympathy on her
face.
“It’s not my lifestyle that’s becoming harder to keep up
with. It’s the fact that more and more of what the vampires pay
me is being taken out…” By you, I want to say but am quiet.
She is an elder and I must respect her at all costs, but she sure
makes it hard.
Her graceful hand slowly stirs more milk into her tea. “As
the leader of this coven, it’s my job to make sure all the
women are taken care of. As the True Witch of this coven, a
direct descendant of our founding witch, it’s your job to create
the potions and creams that keep us all afloat. You will get
your time to be cared for. I told you to move out of The
Quarter. That building is just too much for one woman to
afford. You can live comfortably in Metairie or on the North
Shore. All lovely places.”
My hands ball into fists, a wave of anger taking hold of me.
“That is my home. It was my grandmother’s home. It’s where I
do business, my shop is there. I promised to keep and take care
of it. It’s where the Wildes women will live forever.”
Violetta’s eyes drop to my stomach, and I instinctively
cover it, my jaw hardening.
“There is an order of things,” she says, and I know a lecture
is coming. “Maiden, mother, crone. The maidens care for the
crones. And I don’t see a child in your lap, making you a
mother, so until that day you will hand over my cut and I
won’t hear another word about it. Our coven was forged at the
feet of the hung women of Salem…” And now for the history
lesson. I buckle up for the story I’ve heard over and over my
entire life.
“Our ancestors watched their beloved mothers hang from
the gallows. Their collective rage and sorrow created the
magic, the coven that we are still today. Those three women—
one of your ancestors, the original and True Witch—led one of
my ancestors and one from the Howe family, to form a circle
of three impenetrable, unrelenting women. They bound
together and vowed to never allow another man to ever control
or have power over them or their daughters ever again. We
made our own family, not one constrained by blood but by
sisterhood. It was then our coven became family. Birthing only
women. Living a life without the need for a man. Being the
only dictators of our lives.” With an irritated huff, her angry
eyes meet mine.
“It broke my heart to see your grandmother bled dry by
your mother, and I did all that I could, but now it’s my turn to
be taken care of. I didn’t make the rules. This order has
worked for 300 years. We aren’t going to change it now. Do
your part. Make the potions and creams and be quiet about it.
And please don’t get me started on the baby business. I’ve
been in touch with your mother and she’s told me you’re quite
hard-headed on the subject.”
She said baby business. I don’t even want to think about
that. I can’t.
Fluffing her hair with one hand, she tsks, shaking her head.
“You are the chosen one, the one whose blood is the same
blood as the founding witch of our coven. It’s your lineage. It’s
hard but necessary work.”
I close my eyes, taking a moment to really consider
begging her. Because I’m prideful. I would rather break my
own back than fall to my knees. I’m reminded about my water
being turned off last week, how I used magic to turn it back
on. How dire things are becoming. My back is breaking and
I’m not the one breaking it.
“Please. I’m begging you to help me. I just need a little
more to live off of. I—”
“Witches don’t beg, darling. Please stop.” She licks her
bottom lip, uncomfortable with my vulnerability, the harshness
in her voice a warning.
The metallic taste of blood fills my mouth from biting my
tongue. How easily she can shut me down. How little she cares
about my struggle. It hurts and I’m embarrassed and wounded.
I’m to provide for her until she dies, and then her younger
sister, and then hopefully my mother. For now, I am at her
mercy.
Bastian’s words echo through my mind from last evening. I
think you will find it financially beneficial. That smirk, those
eyes, and I think about Cassius.
“You’re right,” I say, pouring myself a cup of tea. “And
Bastian has returned from New York. There will probably be
an increase in goods sold.” It actually won’t make a difference,
but now I need to pivot the conversation.
“Bastian Delacroix is the most decent of those pitiful
creatures,” she pipes, happy to be changing the subject.
“Yes, I’ve noticed that.” I clear my throat and sit up taller.
“I also noticed Cassius looked, well, he looked tormented.
Like he was suffering…more than usual.”
She titters, her red fingernails tapping the linen tablecloth.
“Cassius has been suffering since he was a child. It’s nothing
at all new.”
“Yes…” I nod in agreement. “But I was just curious if you
knew why. If you knew what happened to him to make him
so…depressed?”
“Good grief, girl. That boy is downright miserable and has
been since 1794 when he set the town on fire.”
I laugh because that is not what I expected, not at all. “One
of the great fires?”
“Yes, set by Cassius and some other young boys playing
with flint and tinder. Wind caught the flames and set a hay
store on fire. Two hundred and twelve buildings were
destroyed. People were killed. When Cassius’s father found
out it was his boy that set the fire, he orphaned him, got on a
boat back to France. He was cast out. Shunned by an aching
city. Never had a mother. He lived destitute and penniless until
he practically begged Nicola Delacroix to turn him. But that
made no difference. He’s been positively unpleasant for most
of his life.”
My back falls against my chair, the breath I was holding
slips out. There’s so much to digest from that statement, and
my aunt said it so nonchalant, so flippant.
“I didn’t know that. How did I not know that?”
“Well, it’s not well known, girl. If you google it, you won’t
see his name. We know it. The vampires know it. He’s lucky
in that regard. History forgot, but he can’t. He never will.”
He never will. But how could he? How could you forget
being the cause of one of the biggest fires in New Orleans’
history? How could you forget that your father abandoned you
when you were only a child? And how the fuck can I complain
about my life? I square my shoulders and smile at the woman
in control of so much of my life, sitting in front of me as if it’s
no big deal. And I see Bastian’s hands on my display case.
Obsidian and gold rings, a life he can offer me. Free from the
begging, the worry, the unknown.
I shake my head, and she eyes me, witnessing my internal
struggle.
“At least you don’t got it that bad,” she laughs and taps the
table, and I suddenly feel very sick because I can’t think of the
life that I could have. I need to focus on the life I’m creating,
the life I will have. But that doesn’t help the here and now. I
need to get out of here.
“See you in two weeks,” I say, rising with my measly bag
of cash. “I’ll let myself out.” I kiss each of her cold cheeks,
and she clicks her tongue at me.
“You have the strongest bloodline in New Orleans, you can
survive a little financial strife.”
I blow out a breath and feign a smile. “I certainly can.”
When my back hits the seat of my car, a sense of dread
washes over me—from the tips of my toes to the top of my
head. I’m leaving feeling worse than when I came. Everything
in my body seizes, my knuckles locking around my car keys,
my jaw widening as I open my mouth and release a scream I
wish could be heard all the way to the Mississippi Delta. But
only one person can hear it, and I meet her eyes from her
parlor window.
That’s when my car starts, the keys still in my hand, and
it’s Violetta’s way of telling me to be on my way, don’t cause a
scene, get the hell out of here. The curtain swings closed, and
she doesn’t give a shit that I’m struggling. In fact, she’s never
really given a shit about me or my mother. Her greed has
grown with her age and there’s nothing I can do about that. It
stings, being in a coven yet so alone.
I WASN’T FIRM ENOUGH. BASTIAN knows it. I know it. His offer is
too enticing, especially after my trip to Aunt Violetta’s earlier
today. And so, in an effort to avoid him, I locked up the shop
early and got dressed for a night out. It doesn’t matter what
night of the week it is, the French Quarter is always ripe as a
Georgia peach, luscious and full of flavor.
My thigh-high boots clunk along the worn concrete as I
take Toulouse St. to Bourbon. I decline the call from my
mortgage company’s 1-800 number that I know by heart. On
the other end sits a man or woman, hating their job, having to
constantly harass the late mortgage payers. It’s 8:58 p.m., for
god’s sake. Nice try, fuckers!
I pass a group of young ladies twerking in the street for a
gaggle of fraternity boys, whose jaws are wide and hungry.
Standing tall in front of this display is The Jazz House, one of
my favorite music spots. I wink at one of the twerking girls as
I enter the House, a gothic piano piece sending chills upon my
flesh. It was here my mother first took me for good jazz, it
being only minutes from our shop.
“Evenin’, Aster,” Ronnie the hostess greets me as she grabs
the menu. I raise my hand to decline, already knowing what I
want.
“Oh, but we got new specials tonight, baby,” she says and
takes off toward my usual spot in the back.
“Thanks,” I say as she lights the candle on my round table
and I settle into the leather booth. The room is dark with all
the light focused on tonight’s artist, a man working his own
kind of magic on the piano keys in front of a velvety curtain
mixed with hues of yellow, red, and burgundy. “I’ll have some
alligator bites and a lemon drop to start,” I say, placing my
purse on the table and wiping my hair from my face.
“You got it,” Ronnie says, and I sit back, allowing myself
to relax. I pull out my phone and look at my texts, the last one
from my mother, a picture of her feet in a new pair of
Louboutin heels, and the question: you like?
Yeah, I like. I like a lot. But that’s not my life since she left
me to run the family business and live out her dreams with
some guy in Prague. She feels she can finally do all the things
that having a daughter held her back from doing, and I’m
handling things just fine without her. In fact, she rarely asks
about the business or the Agreement; most of our interactions
through text are about mischievous spells she’s cast or
whatever beautiful new thing she’s acquired, material or male.
That’s because she trusts me. Trusts me not to make secret
deals with vampires. Having taught me everything I know
throughout my entire life and picking it up easily and eagerly
has left me powerful with many responsibilities.
Responsibility being the key word here because I’m in control
of my family’s legacy now, and it’s a weight that I hold up
every day.
I’m not a crybaby. I know that she should be free to live her
life on her terms. But leaving me to not only run our family
business but to salvage it as well, makes me feel like I’m being
buried alive at times.
They aren’t black I text back with a shrugging lady emoji
and then slip my phone back into my purse.
“Did you order me a Bloody Mary?” a familiar voice
whispers, and Bastian slides into the booth next to me. “See
what I did there?”
I close my eyes for a long moment, taking an annoyed
breath. “Hilarious.” I open my unamused eyes. “So clever.”
“Tough crowd.” He winks, taking the menu in his hands,
his cologne more pungent than yesterday, his thigh grazing
mine.
“How did you know I was here?”
“I followed your scent.”
I lean back, not sure if he’s telling the truth.
“Mint and obstinacy, in case you were wondering.” He
peruses the menu, not looking at me on purpose. When he
slaps the menu shut, his eyes meet mine. “Okay, I followed
you.” He cracks a smile, but I don’t break my death stare.
“Next time I’ll make sure to leave when the sun’s still out,”
I sneer, my index finger tapping on my garnet. “I don’t like
you tracking me.”
“I apologize. You know…” He inhales deeply. “Your eyes
may be the bluest I’ve ever seen, like two turquoise that want
to kill me.”
I squint, instincts full of suspicion, not believing his
bullshit. “Why are you always dressed like you’re going to a
business meeting?” It’s May in New Orleans—another
sweltering summer is just around the corner. Tonight he’s in a
deep burgundy dress shirt with the sleeves folded up, his thick
veins embracing his forearms like vines.
“This is a business meeting.” His tone turns serious and
gruff as the piano envelopes us then suddenly rolls into
silence, the song ending, the patrons clapping.
Ronnie approaches with my lemon drop, her eyebrows
rising at the sight of Bastian. “What can I get for you, baby?”
she asks with a smile that reaches her eyes, and Bastian orders
a brandy then crosses his leg, his ankle casually resting on the
opposite knee.
“All right,” she says and walks to the bar.
“I came here to avoid you. And here you are, taking up all
the space in the room.” My foot is tapping the ground, the urge
to spill my drink on his lap growing strong. I down the whole
thing instead.
“Okay, look. I’m sorry. It’s just that I want this to work so
badly and—what do you mean, I take up all the space in the
room?” Intrigued, his eyes twinkle in the candlelight.
I hate that I’m in public and can’t make myself vanish. But
it’s true. Bastian commands an audience just by existing. I saw
it in Ronnie’s eyes. I see it in the eyes of the bartender and the
older couple sitting in front of us, stealing glances in our
direction.
“Never mind. I’m leaving.” I grab my purse, but his fingers
wrap around my wrist. Cold, to be expected. Soft, not to be
expected.
“Please wait,” he begs. “I brought you something.” He
releases me and lifts one ass cheek, pulling something from his
back pocket, while a fresh song seems to grow louder along
with my anticipation. His hand reappears with an envelope
between his fingers.
“Your prepayment.” He slides it toward me with a steady
hand, and I snatch it, lifting the flap and peeking inside. My
stomach plummets as I suck in. It’s a blank check for one
hundred thousand dollars.
“All you have to do is write in your mortgage company’s
name. And that’s just the beginning. You’ll be paid in full once
the spell works. And if it doesn’t, you get to keep that.”
“Potion.” The word falls from my lips, spellbound by the
check in my fingers. “It would have to be a potion.” And now
I’ve just slipped. His breath hitches because I’ve just bred
hope, and I wish I could take those words back.
“Potion, of course. Whatever you say.”
“You don’t even know how much I owe on my building.”
“It doesn’t matter. Money, I have plenty of. I have only one
brother.”
I close the envelope. The music, trilling in my ears. My
stomach turns from the drink and no food. I wouldn’t have to
worry, ever again. Violetta could take all she wanted. If
something ever happened with The Agreement, I could keep
my home and shop, and the pressure to reproduce would
lessen. I could live as myself, not just Aster, the Royal Street
Witch, with generations full of expectations to uphold.
Vampires have it easier. They get lonely and they can just
turn someone into a mate or family member. Witches are a
dying breed, with an obligation to bear daughters to keep our
lineage alive. Women like my poor mother, forced to have a
child she didn’t really want. Forced to raise me when she was
practically still a child herself. And what did she learn from
that? Nothing, because now she’s pressuring me to do the
same. Her voice echoes in my head. “Just pop out one, Aster.
One and done. Two or three would be better, but at least one
for now.” I don’t want to be forced to do anything anymore.
“Brandy and gator bites,” Ronnie says, interrupting my
thoughts and placing the items on the table.
“Thank you,” Bastian says, raising his glass to Ronnie as
she winks then walks away.
There’s something about him that makes it easy to forget
he’s a vampire. He’s jovial and pleasant, so very different than
the others.
I toss a gator bite into my mouth, trying to play my
nauseated state off.
“I hear they taste like children,” Bastian whispers, his glare
sinking into me, onto my neck.
“Chicken, I think you mean chicken,” I breathe out,
feigning boredom. But it’s impossible to be bored sitting next
to a man like him. He watches the vein on my neck pulse and
then looks at me, gathering himself, and it hits me—no,
reminds me. Bastian is a vampire. Bastian drinks blood. “You
must not be from around here if you didn’t have gator bites…
before…” Before you died, I want to say, but he gets my drift.
“It’s complicated.” He sips on his brandy, looking at the
bartender who waves at him. “You couldn’t come on
Burlesque night?” He bares all his teeth.
“A vampire could be more dangerous during the day, don’t
you think?”
“Cassius isn’t a danger to anyone but himself.” His arms
spread across the top of our booth, and we are so close,
someone could get the wrong idea.
“And the humans he needs to feed on,” I add, looking up at
him through my lashes, and his stare is borderline
uncomfortable.
It’s unfair really, how beautiful they stay. Their only
sustenance—blood and alcohol. I wonder how old he is and
how old he was when he was turned. I wonder what is pushing
him. Why is this so important? His offer is becoming more
and more tantalizing, and to be honest, it’s terrifying me.
“Why do you think daylight will cure his pain?” I want to
tell Bastian I know the root of his brother’s agony, but I don’t,
keeping Violetta’s conversation tucked inside.
“Because it’s all I have left to offer him. It’s my last resort.
Because it has to.” Bastian’s eyes pin me against the booth, the
sincerity, the depth, palpable. He really wants this.
“I have a question. The answer will determine my
decision.”
He slowly nods, skeptical yet hopeful.
“It’s obvious you love your brother. But why are you
willing to risk our lives for this potion, to save him?” I whisper
it, my heart pounding in my chest because I’m actually
considering this. And we could both die because of it.
His eyes scan my chest, most likely picking up on my burst
of adrenaline. “I know what’s most important to you. Your
family home and your business.”
Grandma’s fingers were on mine, her voice was barely
above a whisper when she said, You’re a descendant of the
great Sarah Wildes who watched her step-mother hang. You
are a true witch. Don’t lose our home. Don’t let our name be
forgotten with time. Bastian is right.
His voice hardens with his intensity, with the sputter of his
words. “Do you know what’s most important to me? My
family. My brother, especially. I love him like I love no other.
Let’s save what we love most together.”
It’s quite convincing, the passion in his voice, the veins in
his throat so tight they could burst. Yet, it’s still so hard for me
to say yes.
“If he’s so important to you, why haven’t you come back
all these years?”
“Just because you haven’t seen me doesn’t mean I haven’t
come back. But this time I’m here to stay as long as I need to.”
“It’s so risky. I don’t even know if I can do it.” This is a
vulnerable thing for me to say, and the words almost catch in
my throat.
“No risk, no reward.” He leans toward me, sensing I’m
close to giving in.
“Risks threaten our very existence.”
And then he smiles, a deep genuine smile, and my heart
rate peaks. “Ah. Come on. Risks make life more interesting.
Let go.”
Let go. As if it were so easy. As if my own family members
wouldn’t turn on me if they found out.
“And Aster, I believe you can do it. I believe in you with
every drop of blood in my body. I remember looking at you
when you were a girl, thinking something special was inside of
you. My mother even told me back then, that you would be
powerful. You can do this.”
Stunned, I down his drink and close my eyes tightly while
he chuckles with amusement. The sentiment isn’t what has me
shaken—my whole life I’ve been told that I was going to be
powerful; it’s his admission, it’s that the vampires could see
it…all those years ago.
A powerful witch, indeed, yet still struggling with the
legacy she has to fulfill.
Well, not anymore. I’ve been left on my own, caving to
demand after demand for other elder’s benefit. Tonight, I’m
making my own rules. If they want me to fulfill a legacy and
financially support them, I’ll will, but I’ll do it my way.
Grabbing the envelope from the table, I fold it and place it
in my purse. “If we’re going to do this, we can’t be seen
together.” My heart is pulsating from what I’ve just said, my
mouth suddenly very dry.
“Well, look who’s all business now.” He cracks a smile,
trying to hide his victory.
I settle my pumping blood and grab a hold of his collar,
pulling his ear close to my lips. “I’m not dying for you,
Bastian Delacroix. I’m not dying for anyone.”
My hand slips from his collar and he leans back, his
perfectly defined eyebrow arching in appreciation or surprise.
I can’t tell, but I hope it’s both.
“Noted.” He pulls a money clip from his front pocket,
slides out a hundred-dollar bill, and places it on the table.
I pop a gator bite in my mouth. “You’re right. They do taste
like children.”
He grins and straightens his collar, his demeanor sobering.
“It needs to happen sooner than later. I’ll be in touch,” he says
and walks out of The Jazz House, hands slipping into his
pockets, head leaning to the side like James Dean. I motion to
Ronnie for another lemon drop. I have a hundred dollars to
spend here and a check for a hundred grand in my purse.
IT’S BEEN THREE DAYS SINCE I’ve seen Bastian. Two since I
wrote my mortgage company’s name on the check he slipped
me and sent it off. I made a deal off the cuff and a little too
rash, and the second thoughts steamroll me by the hour. What
I’ve agreed to is perilous, but if I can pull it off, my house will
be paid for and the risk will have been worth it.
I keep seeing my vampire-loathing mother’s face in my
mind. Aster, we don’t associate with parasites. How many
times had she chastised me when I was a child? After smiling
up at Nicola and Cassius, their beauty taking my little girl
breath away. If she found out, she could disown me and strip
me of my powers. Our coven, though sparse and slacking on
organization, could kill me for treason, I would love to think
Aunt Violetta would let no such thing happen to me, but I’m
not at all convinced after our visit, and her sister, Rosemary, is
even less caring than she is.
“Last one,” Chantal announces as her dainty fingers tie a
price tag on a malachite ring. She’s a coven cousin, which
means we don’t share blood, but she’s more of a sister by heart
and thankfully, a faithful employee. Queen plays over the
speakers as Chantal sings along under her breath.
“Nice,” I say as I finish sorting stones that a little girl
jumbled up while her mother shopped.
“Coming to my show tonight?” She stands, places the ring
in the display case, then scrunches her big honey hair. Chantal
sings at a few clubs throughout New Orleans, and though I’ve
seen several of her shows, she’s always annoyed that I’m not
at every one, front and center.
“Can’t. Have a spell to work on.”
“Uh-huh.” She gives her best unamused glare and I wink at
her, trying to dodge any inquiries about what I’m up to. “Sure
you don’t have one of them boys slidin’ through the back
door?”
“Maybe after the spell,” I lie.
“Did Marky finally leave you alone?”
“After I blocked him,” I say, blowing out my cheeks.
“And Charles?”
“I told him to stop showing up on my doorstep so he told
me I was a miserable bitch and that was the last I heard from
him.”
“Damn. Any new candidates for the bun that’s supposed to
be in your oven?”
I look up from my stones, the question I loathe most in the
world plaguing me. “You can help the cause too, you know.”
But she just smirks and shakes her head, a curl flopping
right on her nose. “Nope, I’m not a Wildes. It’s your baby
everyone wants to be born.”
Everyone. Aunt Violetta. The coven. My dead
grandmother. My mother. Most of them dispersed through the
bayous of Louisiana, with only a handful of us actually in New
Orleans. Daughters forced to have daughters to keep our
bloodline alive. The earlier the better, the more the merrier,
and I’m not ready, not even close. So I say nothing, and she
gets the drift. It’s not a subject I like to talk about, and who
would?
“Send me a picture of his abs, for the collection,” she
teases. Grabbing her phone, she opens the album Boy Toys and
shows me her latest conquest.
“Freckles?” I say, squinting to get a better peek of the
palest ass cheeks I have ever seen, littered with orange dots.
“From head to toe, girl,” she laughs, sticking her tongue
out. “It was like I was fucking a work of art.”
“I’ll take your word for it,” I say, remembering the many
body parts I’ve seen in her album. Every color, shape, and size
—the girl is not picky.
Grabbing her backpack and patting me on the head before
walking to the door, she proclaims, “Life is more than working
all the time.”
“Yeah, well, Violetta is bleeding me dry. I don’t understand
why she’s taking more and more money every visit.”
“She’s the greediest witch in the coven. And because most
of her sisters are dead, she gets the majority of it. Lies by
saying she’s spreading the wealth, but she’s really lining her
pockets. That’s what Jade told me.”
“And she’s Aunt Violetta’s favorite right now. Wow,” I
sigh, and Chantal tilts her head sympathetically.
“Heavy is the head that wears the crown. I’m sorry you’re a
True Witch. One day it will be worth it. I love you,” she says
and walks out the door.
I slowly exhale, knowing what must be done so she doesn’t
catch on. I hate lying to her, but I’m also obligated to protect
her.
And then there’s Jade. Violetta’s current favorite of our
coven because she’s had not one but two daughters and she’s
two years younger than me. But that’s not what I’m worried
about. What I’m worried about is her ability to read minds,
which can prove to be very dangerous for me and my present
situation.
So I place my cloak over my shoulders and pull the hood
over my head, locking up the shop. My feet skip down Canal
Street, taking me where they need to go, jumping on the St.
Charles Streetcar, just as it takes off for the Garden District.
It’s not long before the bustle of downtown is behind me and
the quieter, more refined New Orleans sprawls ahead.
I chose Lafayette Cemetery No 1 because there’s less
riffraff in the Garden District. Before it closed for renovations,
it was flooded with tourists and tour guides, whom you can
always spot by the grand umbrellas that shade them from the
Louisiana sun.
The night is muggy and laden with stars as I snap my
fingers, causing the wrought iron gate to disappear for a mere
second, long enough for me to slip through.
The concrete path is crooked and uneven, and it’s dark—so
very dark—yet my boots seem to know just where to step. So I
follow my feet, knowing one must be quick at night in the old
graveyards of New Orleans. Spirits are restless, and the dead
wait for no one. I respect the spirits that rest here, but I don’t
have time to meddle with them.
I blink, and something shifts in the corner of my eye.
Whipping around to the Society for Destitute and Orphan
Boys’ tomb, I see Cassius leaning against the old grave with
his head hung low. He must know I’m here; vampire senses
are more heightened than mine, yet he does nothing to conceal
himself. I consider walking straight past him, the entire reason
I’m in this predicament, and keep on my path, but his head
slowly rises and our eyes lock.
If sadness were a bullet, I’d be lying on the ground, soaked
in blood from the sorrow in his eyes. My mouth parts and my
feet halt, frozen by him and the attention his presence
demands. And he does something he’s never done before
outside of Nightwalkers. He nods his head at me ever so
slightly, gently acknowledging me, and I’m in shock, because
usually Cassius Delacroix only looks through me. I nod back,
my lungs catching because there’s something about his
solemnness that makes him so utterly breathtaking. He turns
his back to me, his white shirt glowing in the night, and I have
to look away, my eyes meeting the tops of my boots. By the
time I look back up, he’s gone.
It takes me a moment to gather myself—the slow unfurling
that Cassius can cause mortals is not lost on me. He’s sullen,
and humans—women especially—want to nurse his internal
wounds, yet they have no idea that he is unfixable. He will
always have the heart of an abandoned boy, a shunned boy,
unless Bastian is right that my potion can actually help him. I
search for his trail, but he’s nowhere in sight, and I must hurry.
Once at the center of the cemetery’s four quadrants, I stomp
three times, close my eyes, and raise my arms toward the sky.
“I, Aster Wildes, descendent of Sarah Wildes, call upon a
spirit to guide me on a mission.”
Gusts of wind caress my face, my eyes opening to that
familiar spark that forms into an orb in front of me. Glowing
green as the Emerald City, and I smile at how easy witching
has become for me. I lean toward the spirit whose bones lie
somewhere in this cemetery. And with a grateful heart, I
whisper its mission, so lingering ears hear nothing. The orb
takes off, and I follow it, knowing only a witch’s eye can see
it, and the sooner we get out of the cemetery, the less likely
that is to happen. We walk through the Garden District up to
First Street, turning right. The pavement is riddled with cracks
and potholes, but my feet know how to maneuver around them
without having to look down, and it’s because of the orb’s
glow.
A mission like this could take hours, but the Garden
District is large enough with mansions filled with families, so
the odds are in my favor. I follow the orb, wondering whose
soul it is, whose grave I called it from. I feel its good
intentions, its desire to please me, and in return, I will pay for
it with gratitude, and that’s all it covets. My gratitude and an
opportunity to do my bidding again.
Under a canopy of oak trees, atop slabs of broken concrete,
my little orb stops in front of a purple mansion, floating in the
air for a few moments to let me know, this is the one. I pull my
hood over my eyes and look to the ground, my feet walking up
the porch steps until I reach the front door, the orb still in
charge until it brings me to my desired location. I peep
through the window because the lights are on, with sheer
curtains drawn, and I’m unsure what I’m walking into.
We don’t move quickly, my little companion and me. We
move like honey, every footstep confident and intentional, so
when the emerald orb, circling and glowing, floats right
through the front door, I take a deep breath and grab the
doorknob, twisting and gently pushing. Once over the
threshold, I’m reunited with my orb, and I immediately hear
the shouting.
A man and a woman engaged in a battle of words.
“You want a mother, that’s what you want,” the woman
cries. “I’m just supposed to feed you and clean for you and
birth your children!”
“Never satisfied,” is all I hear from the man as the woman
lists off all the ways her life is not her own. The orb ascends
the stairs and I follow, my head low, but my eyes like a
hawk’s.
“Light as a feather,” I whisper to my feet, so no sounds are
made walking up the old stairway. I don’t pause, I don’t look
around, I stay on course with the orb, and once I reach the top
of the stairs, I hear it.
Why I’m in these strangers’ home.
The orb turns down the hall, the cries getting louder and
louder as I get closer and closer. I slip through the cracked
door of a room, and in it sits a white crib with a baby boy, no
more than one year old, his cries amplifying when I enter. The
orb glows over his head, and his eyes shoot up with a look of
fear washed over his baby face.
My hand rests on his crib while the orb dances above,
momentarily distracting him from his cries for mommy or
daddy, who are too busy fighting downstairs to hear him. The
baby pulls himself to sit, meets my eyes, and decides to wail
once more.
His face is slick from tears, patches of red on his cheeks,
blonde hair matted to his head. Pulling the handkerchief from
my pocket, I slowly reach into the crib and run the
handkerchief over his wet cheeks and eyes, absorbing every
tear on his soaked face. He resists, twisting his face away from
me. Once I have collected as many tears as possible, I roll up
the handkerchief and place it in my pocket.
“Little one,” I whisper while blowing on my fingers. “You
are safe. You are loved. You are well.” My fingers touch the
crown of his head, and I gently drag them over his tiny nose
and down to his chin. The crying ceases, his eyes growing
heavy with peaceful exhaustion.
Once the orb and I are outside the house, I whisper it my
thanks for its service. The tears of a baby are not always easy
to find if you don’t have any babies in your life, and orbs can
find things so much easier than witches can. It glows brighter
for a moment and then turns back to the cemetery where it
came from. I look up to the bedroom of the child and pour all
my good intentions into the home, hoping that some sort of
peace can be restored. I turn on my boot and make my way
down the street.
Once I’m safely home, I pull out Winnie, the tear-filled
handkerchief, and begin a spell that numbs the senses of
surrounding witches, especially Jade’s mind reading. A spell
that’ll hopefully keep me safe from my dealings with Bastian
because another rule will be broken, another step I can never
come back from.
IT’S A GLINT OF FANG that catches my eye as Bastian appears
while I sit inside Caged, a goth bar in the Quarter. The red
lighting reflects off his face, his jawline looking sharper than
usual, and when he smiles, I see it again, and it’s like a bag of
bones settle inside my stomach, the damage two teeth can
cause, the danger of it all.
Women of all ages dance inside the numerous cages that
line the small room, while plaster gargoyles look on as if
they’re ready to feed.
“It’s the HWIC,” he says, and I snicker, drumming my
fingers on the bar, trying to avoid eye contact. Bastian leans in
to whisper in my ear as the new bartender’s patent leather
dress squeaks by us. “You look well.”
I finally look up at him, not pleased that he’s once again
speaking to me in public because Chantal is in the bathroom,
but I’m taken aback by his stark white T-shirt and…jeans.
He’s actually wearing jeans. I look up and down again in
disbelief. “Is that denim you’re wearing?”
“Ha. Ha,” he answers dryly as his head follows a young
group of ladies to the bar, and it becomes apparent that
tonight, he’s on the prowl.
“Why are you speaking to me? Did you forget you’re not
supposed to speak to me in public?”
“You’re always alone,” he says, ignoring my question as he
stares at my drink and the empty seat next to me. “You could
use company. Let’s start working on our arrangement. I’ll be
by at midnight.” His eyes make their way to the girls again,
and I’m offended that he’s telling me he’s coming over, not
asking me.
“I’m not always alone, for one,” I say which is mostly a lie.
“And for two, witches are solitary. We don’t need a pack of
incesty fuckwads always surrounding us to keep us company.”
Which is true. Vampires are so annoyingly co-dependent.
Bastian clutches his chest as if I’ve shot him in the heart.
“Ouch, that hurts.” He says it almost seriously, until his top lip
curls up and eyebrows rise with amusement. “I can’t deny that
it’s true. Except for the incest part.” He looks confused and
entertained, and he opens his mouth to speak just as a hiss
bellows between us, and it’s coming from the throat of my
cousin.
Bastian backs away as she sits in the empty seat, an
agitated look on her face.
“Why you here?” she asks Bastian as if she knows him, but
she doesn’t. She does know he’s a vampire, though—
something witches can sense.
“Cousin, he’s just—”
“Passing by,” he whispers curtly, aware he’s in front of two
witches now. He nods, excusing himself. “See you…around,
Aster. Cousin.” He walks to the end of the bar and stands next
to the group of girls, quickly striking up a conversation with
one.
“He’s Nicola’s son, back for a while.” It’s obvious I would
know him from my visits there dropping off product, but I also
want to cover my tracks. Vampires and witches are meant to
have a natural repulsion for each other, one that is evident on
Chantal’s face. I don’t have it like she does, though a devious
smile envelops her.
“He is so fuckable. It’s really such a waste.”
I slowly look down the bar at him, now laughing with a
black-haired girl. “He is,” I catch myself saying and then
shake my head. I want to tell Chantal about what I’m doing,
but once I do there’s no going back, and I don’t want to hear
about the terrible mistake I’m making. But mostly, I don’t
want her to be in any kind of danger. The less she knows, the
more I protect her. I look again at him, his finger caressing the
girl’s knee, his eyes upon her so intensely, like he wants to
know her life story. It’s an unspoken rule to look the other way
from vampire and witch dealings. See a vampire feeding on a
human in an alley? Look the other way. If they see us ripping
the toenails from a man (who most likely would deserve it)
they are to do the same. We aren’t to meddle in each other’s
business, but the way Bastian is looking at that girl causes a
swelling in my chest with a wave of fluid anger I can’t quell.
Who the fuck does he think he is? Telling me he’s coming
over and not asking me?
No. No, that’s not how this arrangement is going to work,
and if I’m going all in then I better start putting my foot down
now.
I close my eyes and focus on the black-haired girl—on the
pit of her stomach, on the acid that lies there, on the deep
purple lipstick smeared across her lips.
Boil…boiling fiery heat, up and up and boiling, raging up
and over. Eyes opening, a current shoots between her and me,
and she’s suddenly on her feet, an overwhelming feeling of
repulsion consuming her, the thought of another second
speaking to Bastian, turning her stomach. She yells something
to her friends and bolts out the door. I chuckle as I stir my
drink.
I meet eyes with Bastian, and he glowers at me with
suspicion. I just turn back to Chantal who is typing feverishly
on her phone. I should be ashamed, I should be worried
because I’m crossing every goddamn line, but I just don’t
fucking care right now.
“Let’s dance,” I tell Chantal, downing my rum and Coke
and pulling her toward the small dance area. Right as I’m
about to pass Bastian seated on his barstool, I lower my lips to
his ears.
“I think your girlfriend found you revolting.”
He licks his lips, not meeting my eyes, sipping a clear
liquid.
“I decide when you come to my house. I’m busy tonight.
You may come over tomorrow at sundown. Be prepared to
answer some questions.” The corner of his eye briefly meets
mine before I move slowly to the dance floor. Chantal grabs a
hold of my hands, and we move our bodies to the music with
an alcohol-induced freedom.
He’s watching me and I like it, so I sway, a tight smile on
my lips, and now his eyes are hungry, glaring at me and my
god, he’s so sexy. And I see it again, danger, emitting from his
body. Clenched jaw, flared nostrils, breathing heavily. He’s no
longer the fun vampire I don’t understand. He’s dangerous,
and it should open my eyes to what I’m getting involved in,
make me hesitant, yet it doesn’t. I only want more and I’m
grinding my hips and I can’t break free from him. His gaze is
so intense. I’m trapped like prey, and it makes my heart race
from fear and excitement. His fingers dig into his thigh, his
tongue slides across his lips, and I’ve drunk too much and I’m
causing a scene. I close my eyes and when I look back over at
him, he’s gone.
No.
Meet tonight?
I smile and want to reply, I’m alive, but I may have killed
Bastian Delacroix. But instead, put an eggplant emoji and
place my phone face down on the table. I go over the possible
scenarios.
The Vampire King found out and Bastian was killed and
now I’m being hunted. Nicola found out and Bastian is in big
trouble and now I’m being hunted. Bastian is sick. Bastian lost
too much blood. Bastian is dead.
And now I don’t feel any better, only worse, and if only I
could cast a spell to make time speed by, but that’s against the
rules and I’m already on a slippery slope with going against
rules. So I lie my arms across the table and rest my head upon
them and just breathe. Focus on breathing and that Bastian is
alive and that everything is okay.
When the sun first hints at setting, I’m off the chair at The
Vintage and I’m on the streetcar and I’m in front of my house,
my heart hoping that he’s waiting in front for me. But it’s just
some kids smoking in front of my shop, and I cast a spell so
their cigarettes won’t stay lit as I unlock my door and try to
decide what my next move should be. But then I hear
something, a sound in the courtyard, a scraping on the brick,
so I push through the back door and scan my yard, holding my
breath, praying it’s Bastian, alive, and not the Vampire King,
come to kill me.
UNDERNEATH THE GLOW OF THE gas lamp, Bastian lies on my
lounge chair, arms folded behind his head, feet crossed at the
ankles. He sees me, eyes torn from the sky onto me and he sits
up, bringing his feet to the ground, straddling the lounge, so
agile, so soundless.
My feet guide me in slow and deliberate steps, hands at my
sides, hair blowing in my face. He doesn’t smile, nor do I; he
doesn’t speak, nor do I. I just reach him, pulling my hair out of
my face and straddling the lounge, sitting directly in front of
him, scanning his face for any new marks or scars, the scent of
his cologne filling me with need.
No new scars, only perfect skin that any woman would
envy, intense eyes that still shine in the gas lamp’s orange
glow. I swallow before I speak, not wanting to sound too
desperate but then realizing I don’t care if I sound desperate—
I only care about the man in front of me.
“I was worried.” I say it softly and his chin falls so that our
foreheads touch.
“I know,” he sighs and pulls his head from mine. Tipping
my face up, that need growing, his awareness of my feelings,
my worry for him, my concern, all of it ignites inside of me. I
press my lips against his and we’re all deep breaths and moans
until he falls back on the lounge and I crawl on top of him. He
pushes my hair behind my back, running a finger down the
side of my face, and I have so many questions—about our
future, the potion, where we go from here—but all I want is
him as close to me as possible. Before questions can be
answered, before discussions of what’s happened transpires, I
need him right now. My hands are unbuckling his pants while
his are pulling my dress up, and soon I’m riding him under the
stars with the deepest sense of gratitude that he’s okay. He’s
okay.
And when we finish, I lie on top of him, breathes heaving,
hearts beating. My cheek against his shirt, the muscles
underneath moving up and down.
“And here I thought you’d be angry,” he whispers in my
hair then inhales deeply.
I lift my head, my chin resting on his chest, and he caresses
my cheek with a fingertip. “I was so scared something
happened to you. The Vampire King or Nicola found out, or
you were really sick. I’ve been a wreck.”
Simpering, he tilts his head, studying me in that way I’ve
come to love. “I drank Cassius’s blood and was able to hide
out in my mother’s office for some time. Franklin wanted to
see me, since it’s been years…I had to take my shirt off and
wear just my jacket.” He laughs. “Which is something I can
thankfully get away with. But I could hardly converse after a
couple of hours and needed blood and rest, so Cassius said I
had barely slept the prior day and took me home.” His finger
runs along each of my eyebrows down the bridge of my nose
as he recalls the previous night of horror with so much calm.
“Vampire blood is only needed for rejuvenation, so that would
have been a hard clue that something was wrong. Cassius took
me home, fed me, and stayed with me. I slept all day and woke
up in a panic, knowing I had to get to you.
“You had to get out. I know you wanted to help. But if you
had been caught in the room with me like that…”
“I know,” I say. “I was shook at first, but I realized later
that you were—”
“Protecting you.” He brings his lips to mine and our lips
slide along each other’s, tasting and relishing.
I pull away for air and his head plops down on the chair. “I
don’t need protection,” I say, and he scoffs, rolling his eyes.
“Well I—”
“How are you now? All better?”
He smiles at my purposeful interruption and licks his
bottom lip. “Yeah, I’m fine. Was a little weak earlier, but I’m
okay.”
“Did a beautiful woman give you sustenance?” Ugh, I
sound like a teenager, the jealousy is downright embarrassing.
“Stop,” he warns, and now I’m even more embarrassed.
“Can you describe to me what happened? Because Bastian,
the potion, we need to get rid of it.”
“Huh?” He sits up abruptly, forcing me to sit up with him,
his head shaking, his hands on my arms. “No, Aster. No. It
was just too much. I did too much. We’ll lessen the dosage.
You can fix it.”
“I don’t know if I can. Every ingredient works just right so
you can walk in the daylight.”
“No, no you can fix it, baby. I know you. I know you can.”
His fingers dig into my shoulders, and I stiffen and pull away
from him.
“That’s not how it works. Look at medications for humans.
Everything has side effects. I don’t think there’s anything I can
do.”
His head drops as he pulls on his bottom lip, a fang resting
on it that I hadn’t noticed slipped out.
I lift his chin to meet his eyes. “Bastian, what would have
happened if you hadn’t stopped coughing up blood? Could you
die from that?”
With a groan, he buckles his pants in a feeble effort to buy
himself time, so I follow suit and pull my dress back around
my legs and sit up. He stands, pacing back and forth, his hand
squeezing the back of his neck.
“Well?” I ask, and he glares at me.
“Probably. I’m not sure. If I bled out, lost massive amounts
of my blood, I could probably die. But that was hardly massive
amounts.”
“Yeah, but it started as a nosebleed. What if it gets worse?”
“What if it doesn’t?”
“I don’t mess with ‘what ifs.’ What ifs are dangerous for
witches. It’s what we’ve been waterboarded and burnt for. We
need certainty. And what about Cassius? I’m sure he’s just
chomping at the bit to kill me now.”
He squints his eyes in pain and shakes his head. “He would
never do something like that—”
“Oh, he doesn’t hate me? Hate what I’ve done?” I’m
yelling now, the territory seeming more and more dangerous.
“He’s angry mostly with me. But he’ll get over it. He’ll be
—”
“No! It’s over, Bastian. No more. I can’t fix it and I can’t be
on Cassius’s bad side. I’m already on my own coven’s bad
side. Chantal is on to me, and I hate lying to her!”
The lounge chair catches him as he falls back, burying his
head in his hands. And he’s silent for a long time, digesting the
end of something exquisite. Exquisite and dangerous.
“And there’s something else, there’s the fact that if
something…happened to you…because of me. If you died, or
got really hurt…I couldn’t live, I couldn’t live with myself,
okay?” My hands wring against each other with such force my
fingers lose feeling. And there it is, laid bare and open. The
absolute truth, the agony of the day. The torture of the
unknown and worry that Bastian was hurt or even gone
forever.
His head pops up, those silken lips swollen and wet, those
piercing eyes filled with fevered anguish. “Well, it’s finally
nice hearing it’s not just the fear of the trouble you’d get into.”
He swipes angrily at his nose and I could strangle him. “That
you actually might care about me.”
“Oh shut up! You know I care about you—”
“I don’t want to live a life where I can’t be in the sun!” He
stands when he says it, towering over me. His stupid
suspenders catch my eye, my breath stalling from his words.
I point a finger at him, chastising him like a child. “We did
this for Cassius, not you. This wasn’t about you. You were just
fine without it.”
“I wasn’t fine. I wasn’t.”
“You can’t have both! You can’t live forever and be rich
and do whatever and whomever the fuck you want to do AND
go out in the sun, okay? It wasn’t supposed to be forever.”
“We never agreed on that.” He takes a step toward me, but I
take a step back. “Don’t you love it? What we’ve started?
What we can do together?” He grabs my shoulders and places
his head on mine. “Don’t you love me?”
The trees rustle around us, and the sound of a tuba playing
in the distance coats my ears and it’s all I can hear. We can’t
talk about love. We can’t fall in love. We are sworn enemies
and I pull my head from his, grabbing his hands from my
shoulders, and look him in the eye.
“We can’t do this. I can’t do this.”
I turn around, my heart pummeled to a corpse, and walk
into my house, leaving the door open because I don’t want to
shut him out, but I do need space. I sit at the kitchen table and
do whatever the opposite of thinking is. Staring off with the
drum of my heartbeat in my ear, that’s the opposite of silence,
and I’m exhausted. And helpless. And want Bastian to come in
here and hold me.
Like he’s heard my thoughts, in he walks and he looks
exhausted and his color is off. With hunched shoulders he
pulls on his jaw.
“What is that supposed to mean? You can’t do this?” His
thick arms lean on the counter, ankle locking over ankle.
“I can’t discuss this anymore. I spent the day in hell. A
brutal dumpster fire, and you didn’t contact me. I didn’t know
if you were alive, I didn’t know if you were in trouble. So I
don’t want to talk about the fucking potion anymore.”
A beep comes from his cell phone and he pulls it out of his
pocket, reading whatever notified him. Elegant hands, waves
of brown hair, aventurine eyes. All I want is him.
“I have to eat soon.” He straightens and takes a deep breath
in. “You look tired. You need a good night’s rest.”
I nod, my hands flat on the kitchen table. They look smaller
than usual, weaker and feeble. I don’t feel so powerful
anymore. “Bastian,” I whisper, and he looks at me, a flash of
concern pulling on his face. “Will you lie with me? Just for a
little while?”
Slowly, his hand rises over his heart and he nods,
whispering, “Yes.”
Our hands entangle as I lead him to my bedroom, kicking
off our shoes, no words between us, while we climb on my
bed. He lies on his side and pulls my back against his chest
while his arms wrap around my waist tightly. Our chests move
in unison as his thumb rubs the back of my hand, smelling my
hair, then he places a soft kiss on the back of my head. I can
tell him that I don’t need his protection, but cocooned in his
arms makes me feel so safe. I slip away into a dreamless sleep
until he slips away from me with a hunger he can’t ignore.
Motionless, I let him go as he brushes his lips against my
forehead, his thumb rubbing along my cheek. My eyes feign
sleep, not wanting him to go but also not wanting to talk about
the potion or what woman he will entice for blood tonight. It
cuts more and more, the fact that he has to play that game in
order to eat, and I try to ignore it. Because it’s a warning sign
I’m in too deep, so I let him go and will count the seconds
until I can see him again.
MY ALARM FIRES OFF ITS dreadful sound the next morning.
There’s a message from Bastian that says:
Meet me at Du Monde before work for a proposition. 9
AM?
Are you coming over tonight? I text, and I’m feeling a little
desperate here. I need a taste…
When Bastian wakes for the night, we take the car he keeps
here (apparently 1969 Camaros are a big deal) to the grocery
store so I have food to eat. I pick out easy enough food—eggs,
grits, strawberries, and bread. And on the ride home I ask what
he’ll do for sustenance.
“Every city has its own vampire rules. I stayed many years
in New York with a group of goths that wanted to be a part of
our secret circle and allowed us to drink from them. I’ll get by
here the best I can, on beach drunks if I have to. I brought
potions and creams, but I won’t prey like—” he pauses and
looks at me. “Like usual.”
Like usual means women thinking they are being seduced,
but what he really needs is their blood. I hate that it’s
something I can never give him. There are so many obstacles
stacked against us, it’s hard to imagine how a relationship
would make sense. Designed to hate each other, yet
completely enamored with the other.
Our spat has us off schedule, and Bastian had been right
about Bay Area traffic. By the time we get to the Fairmont
Hotel in San Francisco, we both are worn out and exhausted.
It’s close to dark when we arrive, but I manage to still see a
few sights. We pass Grace’s Cathedral, a gothic and elegant
church only minutes from where we’re staying. Some streets
are so steep, the sidewalks have steps in them. Cable cars of
red bustle by, their passengers buttoned up from the chilly air.
My phone buzzes in my hand while Bastian pulls into the
parking garage. I expect it to be my mother because if I don’t
respond to one of her messages soon she will file a missing
person’s report, blast my face all over Facebook, have Chantal
hunt me down, and then possibly kill me.
But it’s not my mother, it’s worse. It’s Aunt Violetta.
Darling, we are running out of time and excuses. Rosemary
and I will be there Wednesday to go over where we go from
here. I will be informing your mother soon.
My body goes cold, my phone slipping from my lap onto
the car floor. I bolt down to grab it, Bastian studying me. He
grabs my hand once he’s pulled up to the valet. “What’s
wrong?”
“Oh,” I stammer, pushing my phone into my purse pocket,
trying to pretend it didn’t just happen. “Not a thing,” I lie with
a tight smile and he side-eyes me, but thankfully the valet
approaches and I’m saved from further interrogation.
Aunt Violetta texted me back, buying my lie, for now. She still
managed to throw in a threat that I better have plenty of
details, so my tangled web of lies only grows, and I’m shocked
I haven’t heard from Mother.
Bastian’s recovery is much slower than I had hoped, and
who knows how long I will need to stay with him. So I decide
to sneak to the shop to collect some items and my most
important possession, Mercury. This means I will have to tell
Chantal soon, but I don’t think about that at the moment.
There’s so much to discuss, and that time is fast approaching.
I go early evening, once Cassius is awake and can care for
Bastian. He’s still weak and needs to feed soon, and I hope to
get back before that.
Upon opening my front door for the first time in weeks,
Mercury runs to me and I drop to my knees, an overwhelming
agony taking over me.
“I’m sorry, baby,” I whisper as he meows, begging for my
affection, and I finally let myself break down, on the entryway
floor, Mercury in my arms.
I gather myself, wiping my eyes, resolving to do better—
better by Mercury, better by my business, better by Chantal. I
check on the store, my emails, and whatever shipments have
come in. I clean the glass on the display cases and dust all the
shelves. It all feels so distant now, my once life of slinging
potions to vampires and making jewelry for tourists. But it’s
who I am, and life isn’t always glamorous.
After I’ve packed a fresh bag of clothes and have Mercury
stowed away in his cat carrier, I go down to the store to grab a
few crystals for a spell. It’s getting late and I need to get back
to Bastian. Just as I put the crystals in my bag, I see Chantal,
unlocking the shop’s front door, and I freeze.
She’s silent as she sways through the door, inventorying my
bag and Mercury, hair in a tight bun, gold hoop earrings bigger
than my fist. It’s hard to swallow, with her intense gaze
stripping me down, a glint of anger in her eyes.
“You’re in trouble, cousin. Don’t deny it.”
I lick my lips, Mercury’s meowing making it hard to think.
“I won’t deny it,” I whisper, meeting her gaze.
“Do you need help?”
“No,” I say it quickly, but then meet her eyes. “Not yet, at
least.”
She pulls her bottom lip in her mouth as her eyes narrow.
“It’s that vampire, isn’t it?”
I feel my mouth widening from disbelief that she’s nailed it
so perfectly, and I don’t want to lie anymore but don’t want to
implicate her. “You would never let a vampire grab you like he
did that night after my show. It’s been picking at me ever
since, and I was so drunk…”
I walk to her, getting close enough to smell her Victoria’s
Secret perfume, wanting to pull her hands in mine. “I have
wanted to tell you everything, believe me, I have. But I can’t.
Not right now. Don’t make me.”
“That sounds a lot like trouble to me,” she says, lips
quivering, eyes searching my face.
“I didn’t mean for it to happen.”
“Don’t say love,” she huffs, and her eyebrows furrow as
she takes a step back. At first, it feels as if she’s repulsed, but
then suddenly, as if terrified I might vanish before her eyes,
she pulls me into her arms. “I won’t ask. Just promise me.
Promise that if shit gets bad, real bad, you’ll come get me?”
“I promise.” A whisper on her shoulder, her arms around
me, her chin against my cheek and I squeeze her harder than
she’s squeezing me. “Thank you, Chantal. Thank you.”
“This is fucked up,” she admits. “Not knowing what’s
going on in your life. That you’re keeping secrets. It hurts,”
she sighs and releases me. “Jade will find out—”
“No, she won’t,” I say, and she silences, suspicious.
Tears well in my eyes and with one blink, race down my
cheeks. Because we are both trapped, her with so many
questions and me with so many confessions.
“Please believe that I haven’t told you for your own safety,
and not because I didn’t want to share it all with you. It’s been
killing me.”
“Jesus Christ,” she whispers, acceptance in her voice. “Be
careful.”
“I’m the most careful,” I say before I can think, and then I
meet her eyes. “I guess I used to be. I have to go.”
In silence, we walk out together, hand in hand, until our
fingers part and she turns, walking in the opposite direction.
How are you able to keep the shop closed for so long? It
doesn’t add up, Aster.
DEAR BASTIAN,
I was dreaming of you when the ringing woke me. You had
been holding me on the beach in California, your nose on my
neck, breathing me in. The sunrise riveled cotton candy,
shades of pastel pinks and baby blues, and the ocean crashed,
casting pearly bubbles at our feet. Heaven is in each other’s
arms and that’s where we were until the sky opened up to the
bedroom where the trill of my phone rang incessantly. I didn’t
want to let you go, but my eyes opened and there was
Cassius’s name on the screen.
His voice was so frantic, a kind of begging I never thought
Cassius capable of. He was inconsolable, unintelligible, but I
was able to make out three words.
“Please, save her.”
I sat up straight, the tone of his voice slicing like a knife.
“What is it?” I asked him, because Cassius doesn’t reach
out to me. We see each other around town, we nod and he’s
always studying me but I keep walking. I’m staying out of
vampire affairs, but now I suspect that the rumors are true
about Cassius. He’s more different now than he’s ever been.
“I’m in love and I need you to save her. If anyone can do it,
it’s you.” He paused for a moment, like he was pushing down
a sob. “It’s just too poetic, too aligned with my destiny. He’s
gone and I actually want to live.”
It took my breath away, because we don’t speak of you, it
hurts too much.
“What happened?”
“Please, come!” he cried. “I promised, never to turn her, to
keep her human. Please, I keep to myself. I don’t bother you.
But please, please do me this favor.”
And I knew you would want me to, Bastian. Your mother
killed the Vampire King, saving my life. We don’t know if
there have or will be repercussions for that, but I knew you
would want me to help Cassius. So, I got out of bed. I pulled
on my longest coat and buttoned it up tight. I gently placed
Winnie in my bag, along with my case of tinctures and herbs, I
did this all for you, my love.
“Where are you off to?” Mother asked, surprised I was
leaving the house so late because I’ve been quite the hermit at
night. She was working on a spell to light a fire under the
contractor’s asses, to hurry up the rebuilding process of my
home. I long to be home, to be where you and I were us last.
“Cassius needs a favor.” I hesitated because Mother doesn’t
trust him, but I didn’t want to lie.
She stood from Chantal’s kitchen table, shaking her head,
and if her face could speak it would’ve said, “Are you nuts?”
“He sounds desperate. I’ll be fine.” But I can’t lie, Bastian.
There’s something inside of me that softens when she looks
concerned for me. When she’s protective. When she acts like a
mother.
We vowed. Mother, Cassius, Chantal, Jade and I. To never
tell a soul about the potion I created. It was an easy decision
for Cassius; he hated the potion from the start. And that keeps
me free of Aunt Violetta’s wrath…for now.
“Oh, don’t worry, Aunt Violetta,” Mother had said on the
phone after Franklin died. “Per Nicola, the agreement stays in
effect.” She winked at me with that confidence that came so
naturally to her. “No, no,” she said into the phone. “Nicola
killed Franklin because he killed her son. I haven’t a clue why,
but that’s vampire business. A new Vampire King or Queen
will eventually be appointed.”
And that was all the reassurance Aunt Violetta seemed to
need after the Vampire King was murdered at Nightwalkers.
As long as she still got her money, it wasn’t her concern.
Mother stayed. Can you believe that? She stayed to help
me, help us. Nicola rightfully took Nightwalkers back and
didn’t want anything to do with Franklin’s witch. Mother took
over making the potions with the promise that I will never
have to get involved again. Sometimes we can’t always save
ourselves. Sometimes we need help.
Mother kissed my forehead and gave me that look. “I’m
fine,” I said again, as I walked out the door, and it’s only part
true.
Grief still takes over, but with each day that passes, I’m
changing and the grief evolves to something else, something
better, something like hope. And I smiled as I took each step
carefully. That overwhelming feeling of hope invading my
body, my heart fluttering at my abilities, at my control of our
future. All in good time, Bastian.
Farther down Chantal’s street, I couldn’t help but chuckle.
Cassius in love—I never thought I would see the day.
Especially not with a human. And now he wants to live. That
night he was in my backyard he whispered the word two. Two
heartbeats. Two lives in one body. He didn’t tell me then, but I
found out because time is the greatest teller of tales. Just like
this journal I keep for you, Bastian. So you don’t miss
anything. So you know it was all for you. I have let go. Let go
of the pressures of who I should be or what I should do. I live
for us now.
I stepped back on Bourbon Street, another night of
thousands in my life so far. My feet skipped to all the music,
every different sound coming to one grand crescendo. I would
save Cassius’s love and do it for you.
My fingers found my coat buttons, taking care to undo each
one slowly, before I arrive at Nightwalkers, just a touch, just
another woman lost in a crowd. And all the love gushed
through my palms onto my slightly swollen belly, our child
that we planted there.
Our magic created life and I haven’t completely lost you.
With the power of three—your ashes, our child’s blood, and
my power—I can do the forbidden. I’m not scared anymore.
The witch that can’t grow things is growing something,
Bastian. I’m having your child and we will be a family. I will
bring you back.
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