Thoughts

The pillow was so wet. Man, I used to shed so many tears on a bed. I was trying to keep
it positive thinking that somewhere someone was going to help me through all of this
shit, oh boy, I didn't know that things aren't that easy.
I met her when I was 16 years old, god, I loved her from the bottom of my heart even
tho she didn't. When I stumbled on this girl I could tell that she was different,
didn't post much even tho she was beautiful. She messaged me first from a note that I
posted, I am not going to lie I was shocked I didn't burst. I was so excited that I replied so
fast that I didn't know what I typed, rambling like a fool, maybe I was too excited. We got
from minutes, talking to hours over some minor things, I was ignoring everyone so I
could reply to her quick, this girl got a spark for me and the only highlight of my day was
a smile when she replied. That girl had my vibe and I loved it even tho we didn't even get
to a date, my eyes were sparkling when she was walking beside me. She didn't think that
she was beautiful, not even a profile picture in sight, so I told her that she was beautiful
until she saw it with her own eyes. I just wanted her to be mine but I was so scared
because even girls can get tempted you know how it is, what if HE's got a better watch, a
better car, what if HE phones her too, what if HE's doing all the thing that I should do?
But I got a brave face so you'll never know that I loved you, that hurts just as much when
you let them go. And my mom told me not to fall in love because it's a dangerous game
that could get you killed, didn't listen to her so now I'm on the edge of a cliff. Never
again, I had to tell her that we are better as friends even tho I didn't like the idea that
another man would get into her game.