Pr

ologue

Onceuponatimelivedthemostbeautif
ulpri
ncess.
Zobuhl
ethedaughterofkingBhenguthe5th,of
i
sizwesakwaBhengu.Abeautif
ulgem tohernati
on
whofeedsonloveandal soacurse.

Alongcameasuitorthemosthandsomeand
charmi
ngladiesman.ThembinkosiMambaXulu,
whowast akenbythepri
ncessesbeaut
y.But
someoneelsehadeyesonhim.

Pri
ncessZobuhl
eandMambadi sobeyed,t
herules
andlawsandli
vedahappyli
fe.Unti
lonefat
alnight
thepri
ncessdi
scover
ed,
shewasexpect i
ngexcited
andoverj
oyedasshewas.Li
ttl
edidsheknowt his
washerend.

Mamba:Nkosazane
Shesmi
ledandwel
comedhi
m wi
thaki
ss.

Mamba:Wamamat hekakwenzakal
an(
Yourhappy,
whathappened)
Zobuhle:Kunent
oekumel
engikut
shel
eyona
(Ther
e'ssomethi
ngigott
otel
lyou)

Hesmil
edandwaitedf
orhert
osaywhati
twast
hat
madehersohappy.

Zobuhl
e:Sengi
zit
hwel
e

Hi
scheeksf
alldown.

Mamba:Angi
zwankosazaneut
hikwenzenj
an
Zobuhl
e:Mi
nanawesesobaabazal
i

Shej
umpsf
orj
oy,
butnot
icet
hedi
sappoi
ntmenti
n
hi
sface.Shechoosest
oignoreandcontinuest
o
smil
e,shegoestohughim buthepushesheroff
hi
m.

Mamba:KodwaboXul
uni
ngi
shi
yel
anii
nganemi
na.
..
Kuzomel
eusi
khi
phe

It
slikeakni
fewasbei
ngst
abbedr
ightt
hroughher
stomach.

Mamba:Zobuhl
eakukwazi
..Akukwazi

Hest
ormsout
.

.
..
..
..
..
..
.

Aft
erdaysofsl
eepl
essnightsandMambanot
ret
urni
ng,t
hepri
ncesspackedhert
hingsandl
eft
..
.
Uponherarr
ivalbackatt
hepal
acet
hingsdi
dn'
tgo
wellf
orher
.

Kingbhengu:Uzi
thwel
eZobuhl
eihl
azoel
ingaka
(Youpregnant,
pureut
terdi
sgr
ace)

Heshout
sscar
ingever
yonei
nther
oom.

Kingbhengu:Ingabeil
omfanakudal angi
kut
shela
ukuthhlukananaye(Isthi
st heboy,
ilongwarned
youtost ayawayfrom).Ngikhul
umanaweman(I
am tal
kingtoyou)

Wordsfailhershedoesn'tknowhowt ohandl
eher
fat
herscreamingather.Shewi peshert
earsand
gentl
ynods, t
hekingl
osesi theattempt
stohither
thequeenstandsup.

Ki
ngbhengu:Ohuyangi
vimbamanj
einkosazane
yakhol
eibuki
sangathi(
Youstoppi
ngmenow,
whil
eyourpri
ncessmakesfunofus)
Queenbhengu:Babakubei
phut
ha(Myki
ngi
twas
amistake)
Kingbhengu:Shuthnalokhukuyobekuyiphut
ha(I
guessthi
sisami stakealso)Sokhuzu,
Sokhuzu
Sohuzu:Nkosiyami
Kingbhengu:Susalent ombazanephambikwami
nakumhlabawami .Akasavumelekil
enezeaphinde
al
ubhadela(Removet hisgir
lfr
om myf aceandmy
ki
ngdom.Ibanishherandt oneversetf
ootever
againi
nmyki ngdom)
Queenbhengu:Babakodwauthii
nganeyet
huiyeph
(Mykingwheredoyouexpectourbabytogo)

Heignoresherandgivesorderstor emoveprincess
Zobuhle.Hercr
iesandpleadingfallint
odeafears,
pri
ncessNomvul awasenjoyingever yminuteofit
.
Watchinghersi
sterbei
ngdr aggedoutl i
kethat,
boughtimmensej oyt
oherhear t.
.
..
..
.

Withoutwar ningsheisthrownoft othefi

elds,t
he
carri
agesleaveherdest i
tuteli
kethat.Aft
ercryi
ng
solongitwast i
metogetupandf indshelter
,but
howt hefi
eldswer ecoveredinheavyf og,shecould
barel
yseeanyt hi
ng.Shescr eamedf orhelpbuther
voi
cewasi naudibl
e,herheartstar
tedbeatingoutof
herchest.Af r
aidshetreadednotknowi ngwhere
thi
scouldleadhert o.

Shewalkedt heneverendingjourney.Avoicespoke
shestopped,shecontinuedandt hevoicekept
gett
inglouderandlouder.Shetripsandfal
ls,her
eyeswer emetbyabeaut ifulbl
ackglist
eni
ngRi ver
.

Voi
ce:Zobuhl
e

Thevoi
cespokeagai
n,shewasmor
eint
ri
guedby
t
hebr
eat
htaki
ngbeaut
yoft
hisr
iver
.

Voi
ce:Zobuhl
e

Itseemedthevoi
cewascomi ngf
rom theri
ver,
it
hadpoweroverher.Shegotupandproceededto
theriver
.

Voi
ce:Zobuhl
e

Shet
ookofhercl
othesanddi
vedi
nther
iver
.

Ther i
verbecameherhome, shedevelopedanevi l
andcur sedsidetoher.Shecur sedMambai ntoan
actualMambat hatwil
lli
veforeverint
heblackriver
.
Sheal socursedthebhenguseed.Ever ymale
broughtintotheworldwillgr
owupmi str
eati
ngtheir
spouses, andtohavemor ethanonespouse.Those
voiceswer ebeginni
ngtosoundl i
keneedl
esbeing
pokedinherears,
shedidn'tknowhowst opthem.
Theevilwi
thi
nhergrewf onder,shecreated
monsterandcreat
uresunknownt oman, thepal
ace
wasnotsparedshecursedi tt
osi nkaft
erherdeath.

Theki ngdom wasshakenandunst able.Theking

knewaboutherspeci algi
ft
,butreali
zedl at
erofthe
evili
tcomeswi th.Theywereinsearchf orthe
pri
ncesshi ghandlow.Shewasnowher et obe
foundunt il
onedayshemanagedt oescapet hose
evilvoicesandwasf oundal
ongt heroadside.

Zobuhlegavebir
thtotwinsaboyandagi r
l,butso
muchdamagewasdonet hetwinsdi
dn'
tbri
ngany
j
oytoherheart.Shethoughtabouthert
woki dsand
real
izedshedi
dn'twantthem togrowupsuffer
ing.

Zobuhlesetoutonaj our
neytorewri
teherwrongs,
butthatwasaf ai
lsheaskedthelor
dandt he
ancestor
sforforgi
veness.Heranswerwasshowna
queen.
Wil
lthi
squeenr
iseuptothechal
lenge?Orwil
lthe
cur
seconsumeher?.St
ickar
oundtof i
ndout
.
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06/
06,
10:
21] :Pr
esentDay

Phi
ndi
le

'
'Don'
tgot
hereyouwi
llbecr
eati
ngalotof
probl
emsfort
hefami
ly.Whycan'
tyouli
stent
ome'
'
.

Hervoi
cesentshi
ver
sdownhi
sspi
ne.

'
'
Babewhatdoyoumean,
youknowihavet
odo
t
his'
'

Hewalkedtowar
dsher,hereyesweretear
yshe
wasbegginghi
m nott
ogo.Heki ssedherfor
ehead
andl
eaves.
.
..
.

'
'Myman'
'
'
'
Shoshozi
khi
phani
'
'
'
'Awuzwekel
et'
swai
tfort
heot
her
stocome'
'

Thecr
ewmakest
hei
rwayi
n.

'
'Ei
shent
lekr
enal
eji
venyana'
'

Ashewast
alki
ngshemadeherwayi
n,gr
abbi
nga
mapandamarkerf
rom t
het
abl
e.

'
'Youhaveaboutfi
vemi
nut
est
odot
his,
thepol
ice
havebeent
ippedof'
'
'
'
What
''
Hest
andsbackandal
lowshert
otakeover
.

'
'
Sincewhendowel
etbi
tchesi
nourt
urf
''

Heignor
eshim atf
ir
stbutt
hant
hewor
dbi
tch
pusheshi
m oft
heledge.

'
'
Uthi
ni'
'
'
'
Likewhatt
hehel
lbr
o''
'
'
I'
minar
eal
lygoodmoodandiwon'
tletyour
uini
t'
'

Hewal
ksaway,
hegr
abshi
sar
m andshout
s.

'
'
I'
mtal
kingt
oyou'
'

Ther
oom goessi
lent
.
'
'
Uzungaphi
ndeukhul
umenamikanj
alowenasar
n''

Hehashi
shandsonhi
sthr
oat
.

'
'
Ninani
ngi
bhekeniani
muzwangaf
ivemi
nut
es'
'

.
..
.

Iwakeupbr
eat
hingf
rant
ical
ly.

Ma:Yi
ni
Isi
gh.
Me:El
inyei
phuphof
uth
Ma:Bekuyi
nimanj
e
Me:Luthool
ut heningi
sendaweni
,eyodwakukhona
i
yit
hunziezi
ningi
Justrecentlyafterdiscover
ingimayhavean
ancestralgi
ft,newt hingshavebeenatt
acki
ngme
dail
y.Nowi tsthesedr eamsiwonderwhatt
hey
tr
yingtot el
lmenow.Iam Phi ndi
leGumedeandthi
s
i
smyst ory.

MzwakheBhengu
Ihi
tusingabat
onst
icksi
nki
ngdeepi
nhi
sbl
oody
back.

Me:Wher
eismymoney
Locks:I
'
m sor
ryboss
Me:Yoursor
ry

Ihi
thar
dwi
thal
lthatigott
aki
ngoutmyf
rust
rat
ion
onhim.
Sakhi
le:Okayt
hat
'senoughexci
tementf
ort
heday

Idr
opthest
ickandheadt
othebat
hroom si
nk.I
washmyhandslooki
ngatt
hemirr
or.

Me:Di
dhet
ellyouwher
emymoneyi
s
Sakhi
le:Uthiangi
tshel
ekanj
anusumshaye
okweslwaneoyisona
Me:F*
*kyou
Locks:Iwas
Sakhi
le:Ayshutup
Me:Iwil
lbegoi
nghomemakesur
ewhenicome
back,
youhaveanswer
sforme

Iwal
koutandgeti
nmycart
hanl
eave.

Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:'
'
Skhul
u''
Iar
ri
vebackhomeandmetwi
thanauseat
ingsmel
l
.

Me:Hai
bokwenzakal
anyi
nil
e.Jameswhatt
hehel
l
Voi
ce:Baby

Ir
ollmyeyes.

Me:If
orgotyouevenl
iveher
e
Pear
l:Ar
eyouf
orr
eal
Me:Mamelakesweethear
tcelamaseuqedil
e
l
enyovadamnyakho,ngif
unaikhisil
amil
ome
gcwakaungabahl
uphiabasebenzibami

Iheadupst
air
stomyr oom andtakeamomentt
o
l
augh.Whatissheevendoinghere.

Voi
ce:Uhl
ekani
Me:Yobroshei
scookinginmykitchen,whythe
hel
lwoul
dyouguysletheri
n.Don'tanswerthati
'
m
sl
eepi
ngnowmakesur eiam saf
e

Il
ockt
hedoorandt
akeashowerj
ustwhatineed.

Phi
ndi
le
Aftercleani
ngiwentt othemallineedadistr
act
ion,
fr
om ever yt
hingthatishappeni
nginmyl if
e.i
stoppedwor king,
istoppedhavingasociall
if
e
becauseoft heancestors.Myphonerings
di
st ur
bingmypeace.

Me:Heysam
Sam:Dar
kbeaut
yhowar
eyou
Me:I
'
m okayil
eftt
hehouset
oday
Sam:Ngempel
athatmeansyoucomi
ngbackt
o
work
Isi
gh.

Sam:Bossladyt
her
eissomuchicandosome
thi
ngsneedyou
Me:Samkel
oiam notr
eadyf
ort
hat
Sam:Tellyouwhatiwil
lgi
veyouFr i
dayandt
he
weekend.Mondayazil
imeziyet
sheni
Me:Samkel
o
Sam:Hee..hel
lo.
.hehel
locanyouhearme,
ican'
t
hearherokaybye

Il
aughhehungsupi'
m almostdoneshoppi
ng,
i
gr
abmyf avor
it
echocol
ateandpay.

Sakhi
leNdl
ovu
Mzwakheprettymuchmessedupt heguyt
herewas
not
hingicoulddo.Il
eftt
hehospi
talandpi
ckedup
smangel
emypar t
ner
,lol
.Iar
ri
veatthepenthouse
Mzwakhe'sthi
ngishere.
Sma:I
'
m goi
ngt
ogof
reshenup
Me:Youknowwher
etof
indme

Iknockonhi
sdoor
.

Mzwakhe:Eyf
okofwena
Me:Babyopenup

Thedoorunl
ocksandopens.

Me:Ul
ele
Mzwakhe:Lockt
hedoor

Hegoesbackt
osl
eep.

Me:Ahhul
elenj
ayam
Mzwakhe:Di
dyougetmymoney
Me:Angi
zel
angal
okhoasambe
Mzwakhe:Agai
n
Me:Ngi
zokushi
yauzokhal
a
Mzwakhe:Yohumunt
usekagwaj
iswamanj
eukut
hi
ayophuza
Me:Cel
aubemuhl
engi
funaogi
rlbat
hat
heke

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Wetookaj
oyr
idet
othechi
sanyamamor
eli
ke
f
orcedt
o.

Me:Ngagci
nani
niukudl
ainyamaeyosi
we
Sakhi
le:Usef
akenecar
wash
Me:Aynozi
yakhi
pha
Guy:Razo
Me:I
shayei
cwebezel
emf
ana

Abunchofcar
spul
lupwelookateachotherand
l
augh.Wemadesur
etohi
def r
om them andthey
f
oundus.

Nt
ando:Ni
zit
shel
aukut
hini
sil
eni
nahuh!
Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Me:Weeenangoke
Sakhi
le:Wozaniphel
a

Phi
ndi
le
Myf r
iendcall
edmesayi ngshehassomethi
ngfor
me.Excitedl
yichangedandheadedout,
imustget
usedtopeople.Samkelowantsmebackatwork,
speakingofSamkelohiscarpul
lsup.
Me:Hai
bo

Hehoot
sthegat
eopens,
hedr
ivesi
n.

Nonhl
e:Heygi
rl
..
.uyaph
Me:ULondi
euyangi
fonel
aat
hikhonaangi
bekel
e
kona
Sam:Ndl
ovukaziyami
..uyaphi
Me:Asambe

Thechisanyamaispackedt
odaynowayiam
passi
ngbyt her
e,ical
l.

Londi
e:Sho
Me:Asi
hlanganengekei
ntoegcwel
ela.
..Khona
uNonhl
e
Londi
e:I
makengi
yeza
Wesitonthest
eel
bar
rieribrowset
hroughmy
phone,
suddenl
yif
eel
eyesonme.IaskSamkel ot
o
st
andinfr
ontofmeNonhlelaughs.

Mzwakhe
Afewdr i
nkslaterweweredrunk,t
hanthisbeaut
if
ul
dar
kbeaut yshowedupwi t
hanotherbeauti
ful
yel
lowebone.Thisidi
oti
sblocki
ngmyvi ew.

Sakhi
le:Ahhbukamanj
eseni
daki
wekant
ini
njan
Me:Skhul
urel
axwewi
llcal
ljamest
opi
ckusup
Sakhi
le:NaweThabi
so
Thabi
so:Yophumaki
mi

Her
oll
shiseyesthechi
sanyamaisnowpacked
l
adi
esthr
owingthemsel
vesatus.

Voi
ce:Thobani
Thebeauti
fulladiesmakethei
rwayup,
thi
sdark
onemani sfuckingmeup.Hecomesouthesmi l
es
whenheseest hem,suddenl
yit
savi
bewhenthey
ent
ered.

Nt
ando:Bukaniononkr
oyibedansel
aut
shwal
a

Shelooksatusasifsheheard,
shecall
sSi
phothey
touchyfeel
yidon'
tli
kethat
.Hecomestoourt
able
withablackbot
tl
e,hegi
vesittoNtandowi
thanote.

Nt
ando:Unonkr
oyiodansel
aut
shwal
a
Sakhi
le:Haahaa

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Whatadayandi tisti
mef ormetogetsomesleep.I
enjoyedbeingwithmygi rl
sandSamkelo,Nonhl
ei
missheralreadysleepinvadesme.Ipr
aythandrif
t
offtolal
aland.

.
..
.

Phonecal
l

'
'
What
'st
heupdat
e''
'
'
Wer
eadyandwai
ti
nggr
oot
man'
'
'
'
Goodabohat
a''
'
'
Simoj
a'
'
'
'
NiceuvauT'
'
.
..
'
'
Babncwane'
'
Ncwane:Don'tmesst
hisuptorever
yonei
sgoi
ng
t
ofeelmywr ath
T:Areyousmashi
ngbecauseyouonl
ymake
thr
eats,
whenubabNcwaneisdoingagr
eat
perf
ormance
Ncwane:T
T:Rel
axwegott
his

Thecal
ldi
sconnect
s.

T:Boysi
t'
sti
me
.
..

I'
mi nthemi ddl
eofther
oadast hecarli
ghtsshine
bri
ghtonmyeyes.Ihol dmyhandupwal ki
ng
for
war dtr
yingtogetavisual
,ofwhatisgoi
ngon.
Whyar etheresomanypol i
cevanswithguns
pointi
ngatme.Whati sgoingonwhyam iher e.

BANG!BANG!BANG!
Shot
sar
ebei
ngf
ir
edl
eft
,ri
ghtandcent
er.

'
'
MOVEMOVE'
'
'
'
GETDOWN,
GETDOWN'
'

Moreshotsarebeingfi
redt hescenehasbecomea
seaful
lofblood.It
ri
pandf allsomethi
ngwarm and
sl
imywr apsaroundmyl egs,il
ookupabigblack
snake.

.
..

Iwakeupscr eaming.Asnakewhyam idr eaming

aboutsnakes,if
eeldrowsyagain.Iopenmyeyes
i
'm st
il
linthemiddleoftheroodanditissti
ll
wrappedaroundmyl egs.Whyam inotf r
eakingout
abloodysnakeisonmybody.
Voi
ce:Whyyouscar
edofme

Di
dthi
sthi
ngj
ustt
alk.

Voice:Pl
easeacceptmei
'
m har
mlessij
ustneed
yourhelp

Harmlessthi
sthi
ngcanki
llmepleasesomebody
getitof
fme.Itl
ooksl
ikei
thear
dme, itget
soffmei
quickl
ygetup.

Voice:I
twon'
tleaveunt
ilyouaccept
,youwi
llseei
t
everywher
eyougo
Me:Whycan'
tyouguysj
ustt
ellmewhati
tist
hat
youwantf
rom me
Voi
ce:Theti
mehasn'
tcomeyetf
ort
hatbutsoon
youwil
lfi
ndout
Greatnowiam speakingt osnakesitlooksl
ikei'
m
notgoingtogetoutofthisone.Iclosemyeyesand
spreadmyarmsapar t,gentl
yifeelitwrappi
ng
aroundme.It'
sheadr estonmyshoul der,if
ind
myselfhuggi
ngitbeingcomf ort
ablewi t
hitt
hanit
disappear
sonme.

.
..

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.
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06/
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10:
21] :02

Mzwakhe
Ireal
lyhateitwhenpeopl
edi
stur
bmybeaut
if
ul
peacefulsl
eep.

Me:Eyeyf
okof
Voi
ce:Imadeyoubr
eakf
ast
Me:Okay
Pear
l:Youcomi
ng
Me:Yopear
lawungi
yekangi
khat
hel
e

Ipulluptheduvetcoverbutsheper
sistont
he
knocking.

Me:Whatdi
digetmysel
fint
o

Myphonebeepsigr abfr
om thepedestal
.Ifrown
anddeletethepict
ures,
asal adyreal
lyhavesome
respectf
oryourself
.Don'tsendnudeswithout
beingasked,sheknocksagain.

Me:Kant
iawuzwayi
ni
Voi
ce:I
minamasi
mbakho

Igetupandopent
hedoor
.
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Moj
a
Sakhi
le:Bat
hini
Me:I
sever
yoneher
e
Sakhi
le:Baf
ikamanj
e
Me:Ican'
tbel
ieveyoul
edmet
odr
inki
ngl
ikeacow

Hel
aughs.

Sakhi
le:I
t'
smyf
aul
tnowokayiwi
lladmi
tlastni
ght
wascrazy

Theybar
gei
nmybedr
oom andl
ayonmybed.

Thabi
so:Ngi
zobuyaphel
aOlwet
huehenna
ngi
noMzwakheungezaphel
ausenent
ombi
Hai
bo.

Phi
ndi
le
Itsnotthefi
rstt
imebondingwitht
hatsnake,
but
thiswassosur r
ealandscaryashel
l.Whyare
ancestorssounclearwi
ththei
rmessages.

Ma:Ukahl
e

Idr
opt
hecup.

Me:Hmm wangi
thusa

Igr
abadustpanandpi
ckoutt
hebr
okenpi
eces.

Ma:Uphupheninamhl
anj
e
Me:Kusayi
lel
ophupho

Il
ieidon'
twanttotel
lwhati
twasherpar
anoi
ais
j
ustonanotherl
evel.

Ma:Unesi
qini
sekoukuthkusamadl
ozihl
ampe
nganeyamiabathakat
hi
Me:Mayashi
wol
ent
oesont
wenimangi
yacel
a

Seeal
ready,igotal
otgoi
ngonal
lbineedi
ssuppor
t.
Myphoner i
ngsohmygoodnessicannothewil
l
j
usthavetoforgi
veme.

Mzwakhe
Si
sNokubonga'
sscrumpti
ous,gr
easy,j
uicy
br
eakf
asti
sjustwhatthedoct
ororder
ed.

Me:Hmm ngabayi
ninj
engaphandl
ekwakho
Her
:Dead

Shel
aughs.

Me:Ngabengiyaf
aindl
alaandchaangi
buyel
i
ekhayael
ikhul
u
Her
:Hai
bosengi
theni
..Eh
Sakhi
le:Younotget
ti
nganot
herr
aise
Her
:Hawuubaniot
hesengi
funai
mal
i
Sakhi
le:Ngi
lal
ele
Her:Kunentokaziebengathandaukut hsiyisi
ze
i
sukal ekwaMaphumul o,il
indeimphumel aka
matikulet
sheningit
hengithingiyayizamangemal i
yal
a.Bengi f
isaezosebenzanamiangi lekelel
eathol
e
i
mal iakwaziukuqhubezaizimfundozakhe
Sakhi
le:Mengasi
wol
amar
otoohl
eziuwal
etha
kul
ungile
Wel
augh.

Me:Uf
unaukuf
undel
aini
Her
:Ubudokot
ela
Me:Ni
ce
Her:Ngi
yacelani
ngamshel
iuyacwebezel
auvut
hiwe
ni
ngangiphoxi
Sakhi
le:Uzwi
leMzwakhe
Me:Hai
bonal
ibhadil
ami
bo

Myeyesar
eal
readysetonsomeoneel
se.

Thabi
so:Wemadodani
waboni
lekodwal
ama
ntombazane
Sakhi
le:Mf
ethu
Nt
ando:Thobanimal
inil
eli
bhodl
ela
Thobani
:Hal
fami
le
Nt
ando:Umpel
onamahal
a
Thobani
:Ul
it
hengi
le
Thabi
so:Huh!
Thobani:Wenawhyubi
zai
zinganezabant
u
ngononkroyi
Thabi
so:Ngi
zit
hol
elel
eli
yadar
kyhmm

Heshakeshi
sbodywel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Uzoshawauzof
ahmm khuzeka

Hesawme.

Phi
ndi
le
NonhleandSamkelocamebackagai
nnotona
soci
alvi
sit
,theset
woareannoyi
ng.
Me:Ihat
eyout
wo
Sam:Nol
etsgetaf
ewt
hingsdone
Me:Yoi
ndodayakhoNonhl
e

Shelaughs.Astheyweretal
kingizoneoutidon'
t
evenhearwhattheysayi
ng,theyhavetakenover
mybodyagai n.

Me:Eyni
bangaumsi
ndo

OhmyGodanyonegoi
ngt
hrought
hisi
'
m wi
thyou
t
hest
ruggl
eisr
eal
.

Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Awukahl
e

Ivi
gor
ouslygetupthenf
eel
drowsy,
Samkel
ohol
ds
meihissandsneeze.
Me:Samkel
o
Nonhl
e:Babyl
etgoofher
Me:Hm hm hm.
..(
snor
ti
ng)hm hm

Mybodyt
enseup.

Nonhl
e:Okaygent
lyhol
dherandt
hanl
ayherbody
down

If
eelmovementbuti'
m sooutofitst
rengt
hleaves
mybody,if
alli
ntocomplet
edarkness.

.
..

Iopenmyeyesi'
mi nt
hemi ddl
eofther
oadagain.
Isn'
tther
eabet
terwayfort
hem tocommunicat
e
withme,whati
fpeopl
eseemeandt heythi
nki'
ma
wi
tch.

Voi
ce:Younotawi
tch

Il
ookupabeauti
full
adyi
sst
andingbeforeme,
she
kneel
sdownandhelpsmedr
inksomething.

Me:Wowt
hat
'
sref
reshi
ng

Shesmi
les.

Her
:Don'
trusht
hingswi
llcomebackt
oyouont
hei
r
own

Sherunsherhanddownmyfaceif
eeldr
owsy
agai
n.Iwakeupgasping.

Nonhl
e:Br
eat
h..
.Br
eat
hit
'sokay
Ihol
dmychest
.

Me:Whathappened
Samkel
o:Ungixol
elesweet
hear
tsoqhubheka
si
phat
heizi
ntouzeubuye

Icr
ytheseancest
orshaveconsumedmylif
eso
much,t
hati'
m notal
lowedtohaveanybi
tofli
feof
myown.

Mzwakhe
Itwaspi
ckupti
meCar
sonshowedup,idon'
thave
energyf
orhi
sbull
.

Me:MrOwen
Car
son:Skhul
u(I
nhi
swhi
teaccent
)
Me:Don'
tbemadbutt
hebagsar
eshor
t
Car
son:Howmany
Me:Thr
ee

Hel
aughs.

Car
son:Ngi
yabonauf
unangi
khul
umei
sZul
u
Me:Car
son
Carson:Don'tCar
sonmei '
m notcashingi
n
anythi
ngl esst
hanrequi
redunless.Youwantmet
o
gotojailandyouknowim notgoingdownby
myselfhawunanguengidakelwa

Theyl
aughheheadst
otheki
tchen.

Car
son:Icoul
d'vebeenwi
thmywi
fe
Sakhi
le:Kephikhona
Carson:I
'
m sur
eshemi
ssesmebuther
eiam wi
th
youclowns
Me:Ayf
okof

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Lookwhoi
found
Me:Hmm
Sakhi
le:Fi
rer
ight
Me:Idon'
tknowSakhi
le
Car
son:Whoset
hat
..Whoaubanil
o
Sakhi
le:I
mtr
yingt
ohookhi
m up

Hecr
acksi
nlaught
er.

Me:Angi
lungil
abaf
o
Carson:I
twoul
dtakeamir
acl
ephel
ayouacr
ack
head,youwon'
thandl
eher
Me:I
nil
etsbeti
m goi
ngf
**kt
hisgi
rlsohar
d10k
Car
son:Whatki
ndofabeti
sthat
Me:Af
airone
Sakhi
le:I
fyoufal
linl
ovewi
thheryouoweuseach
25kpl
ust hi
s10k
Car
son:Nowyout
alki
ng

Nowtheypl
ayi
ngmebuti
tscooll
ett
hegames
begi
n.

Me:Fi
ne
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Carson:Owenhel
lo.
..What
..Howt
hef
**kdi
dthat
happenf**k
Me:Whathappened
Car
son:Kant
iusebenzakanj
annabant
ubakho
Me:Whathappened
Carson:Nywathihappenedl
et'
sgo,
getont
he
system andcl
eant hi
smess
Sakhi
le:EyoSenzot
her
e'sbeenabr
each
Senzo"
Hmm i m headi
ngt
othewar
ehousenowl
ets
al
lmeetther
e"

Someonei
spl
ayi
ngadanger
ousgame.
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06/
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10:
22] :03

Mzwakhe
Wegotar
rest
edj
ustt
wodaysaf
terandst
il
linj
ail
.

Car
son:Yaneh.
.Thi
sisbul
lshi
t

Her
oar
s.

Me:Cal
m down
Carson:Youtellmetocalm downonemor
eti
mei
m
f*
*kingpunchingyourface
Il
aughsomeonecomesr
uini
ngt
hei
rst
ickont
he
bar
s.

Car
son:Ther
easonf
oryout
omakenoi
sei
s

Heunl
ocksandcuf
fsus.

Pol
iceman:Fol
lowme
Car
son:Ar
ewebei
ngr
eleased

Wetakent
ointer
rogat
ionr
oom wel
ookateach
ot
herandscof
f.

Det
ect
ive:Si
t

Wedo.
Detect
ive:Final
lyigotyouguysmoreespeci
all
y
you,howdoesi tfeelknowi
ngyougoingtobe
spendingyourlif
einjail
.Hi
jacki
ng,
murderandyou
moneyl aunderi
ng
Me:Not
hing
Det
ect
ive:Oh
Me:Becauset
hatwi
llneverhappenent
lekuwubani
wena

Hepr
essest
her
ecor
der
.

Det
ecti
ve:Youmindt el
li
ngmewhatyouwer edoi
ng
onrest
ri
ctedfaci
li
ti
es.Withunl
icensedweapons,
whi
chi'm sur
ehavemul ti
plemurderstot
hem
Carson:Whil
eyousti
llt
ryi
ngt of
igurei
tout
,canyou
getmecoffeeandsomeKr ispyKremedonutst
hank
you
Me:Uyasi
bophanomauzosi
dakel
wa
Det
ect
ive:Cookyt
oot
aket
hem backt
othei
rcel
l

Ibeenkeepi ngmycoolbuti m gett

ingmad.Two
mor eoff
icersarebroughti
n,wel ookatt
hem more
areboughti n.Theyroughl
ygrabusandbangus
withthesticks.

Det
ecti
ve:I
ftheyf
ightyouagai
ndon'
thesi
tat
etohi
t
t
hem hard
Me:Ohal
lofyouar
edead
Detect
ive:Ar
eyouthr
eateni
ngoff
icer
softhel
aw,
caniquoteyouonthatMrbhengu.Taket
hese
del
inquentsaway

Weroughl
ytosseddownl
ikeasackofpot
atos
somebodywantsmetoki
llt
hem.

Phi
ndi
le
Myspi
ri
twasver
yuneasyi
'
mfeel
ingver
y
over
whel
medandagi
tat
ed.

Nonhl
e:Awngazengavel
elwami
na

Il
augh.

Me:Hmmm
Nonhl
e:Nazo

Igetup.

Me:I
tsokaydon'
tfol
lowme

Iheadt
omyr
oom andl
ock.

Voi
ce:Baboshi
wenkosazanemanj
eabezwa
Voi
ce:Thol
aumf
ulaohl
anzeki
leuzi
geze,
ubabi
ze
bonkeobhengubekukhanyi
sel
e
Voi
ce:Ut
hiuzokwazinj
e
Voi
ce:Ebeseuyekhayauphuzeamanziasemful
eni
nj
engobaenjal
outhandazekonkekuzol
unga

Thevoi
cesgoawayiopenmyeyes,
thesevoi
ces
wil
lbet
hedeat
hofme.

Me:Nonhl
enomamakhonaumf
ulaowazi
yoocl
ean
Nonhl
e:Idon'tknowl
etmecal
lsam hemi
ghtknow.
.
Ohuthiukhona
Me:Ngi
yisel
aphoekuseningovi
vikuyaphut
huma

Sakhi
le
Ever
ythi
ngj
ustt
umbl
eddownt
hingsar
enotl
ooki
ng
good.

Me:F*
*k
Senzo:Sophumakanj
ankul
ent
o
Ayanda:I
fit
ryt
ologi
ntot
hesyst
emsf
rame
maybe
Me:Noi
tst
oor
iskyt
hatwi
lll
eadst
rai
ghtt
ous

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Weengi
bul
alenij
esu
Senzo:Don'
tanswer
Ayanda:Ar
eyoucr
azyyouknowhei
sgoi
ngt
obe
br
eathi
ngfir
edownournecks
Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Whyam ist
il
lher
e
Me:We
Mzwakhe:Idon'
tcar
eSakhi
legetmeoutofher
e
Me:Wehavebeencompr
omi
sedigott
ogo
Ihungupsenzoact
ivi
ti
est
hevi
rusesandwesneak
out.

Mzwakhe
Ican'
tbel
ieveawhol
eMzwakhei
sinj
ail
.

Me:Nhl
akani
phowhywest
il
lher
e
Nhl
aka:Ican'
tgett
othosedocket
shi
sguar
ding
t
hem wit
hhisli
fe
Carson:Andt
hat'
sourpr
obl
em how,weshoul
d
havebeenoutthemomentwegotin

I
fhewasn'
tmybr
otheriwoul
dhaveki
ll
edhi
m.

Me:Makethi
sgoawayNhl
akani
phoCar
soni
s
annoyi
ng
Car
son:Annoyi
ngyouannoyi
ngyousweetheart
.
Youtheonewhogotusherei
nthefi
rstpl
ace,so
pl
easedon'
tgetal
lupi
nmygr
ip

Hesnapshi
sfi
nger
s.

Nhl
aka:Ihavet
ogoiwi
llbeback
Car
son:Andbr
ingmef
**ki
ngdonut
s
Me:Shutupwi
tht
hedamndonut
sah

Ishouthelaughs.Partoft
hereasonwhyi '
m
annoyedishim annoyingmewiththesedamn
donuts.

Car
son:Ist
il
lwantmydonut
s
Me:Carsonim goingtof**
kyourwhi
tea**sobad
youwouldthi
nkt wiceaboutt
hesebl
oodydamn
donut
s
Car
son:Kahl
eukungi
sabi
saawukhonswempu
Me:Ut
hini
Car
son:Ngi
yadl
ala

Hel
aughs.

Carson:Wowt
heyser
iousl
ydenyi
ngmet
hese
donuts

Iexhal
e.

Sakhi
le
Thabi
so:Yenzekekanj
anl
ent
osi
ngaboni

Wewentintocompl
etehidi
ngi
'
m outofopt
ionsand
Mzwakheisgoingt
okil
lme.

Thabi
so:Asi
kwaziukuhl
alal
aengat
hsamagwal
a
melekubekhonaesi
kwenzayo
Me:Li
kewhatThabi
so
Thobani
:UphiuMel
usi
Me:Hospi
talt
her
ewasahugeacci
dentont
heN2
Thobani
:Int
erest
ing
Me:Let
'
swai
titoutunt
ilt
omor
rowicani
magi
ne
Ayanda:Usemf
uneamadonutwazewamci
ka

Theyl
augh.
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06/
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10:
22] :04

Phi
ndi
le
Wedrovedowntotheri
ver.Aladycamet omy
dr
eamswi t
htheri
verwater
,iprayedbefor
ewel eft
.
Wedri
veintoanopenfi
eldsurroundedbytrees.

Nonhl
e:I
yasabekal
endawo

Ist
epoutoft
hecarandseet
her
iver
,iundr
ess.
Me:Sabel anibobhengunanguumt wanawenu
esondela.WenawakwaDl abazane,kaNgwane,
kaNephu, kaLamulanyawozigezwangamazolo,
ninaenivukanixhubhengelal
a.Shongolol
o,
Ngcolosi

Thewat erstart
sbubbli
ngupigeti nandwashmy
body.Calli
ngallthebhengu'
saskinglightfort
he
boysandt heirsafet
yaft
erthati
tstops.Ijumpout
quickl
yandheadbackt othecarwithoutlooki
ng
back.

Igeti
nthecarandmyt
ensi
onst
art
stof
adeaway.

Nonhl
e:Let
shopeever
ythi
ngwentwel
l
Me:I
tdi
diknowi
tdi
d
Nonhl
e:Sowhatnow
Me:Weeat
Shechuckl
es.

Me:Uyazinj
eangi
nampi
lo
Nonhl
e:I
'
m goinghometodayt
omymanwhi
leyou
st
il
ldr
eamingaboutyour
s
Me:Nonhl
e

Welaughidon'
tknowwhatt hismeans,buti
fit
meansmeacceptingitiwi
llhavemylif
eback.Than
sobeit
,myphoner i
ngs.

Nonhl
e:Baby
Mxol
isi
:Lodot
iloakaf
uniukubambai
yinci
ngozami

Mzwakhe
Ican'
ttakeCarson'
swhini
nganymorei
tisdri
ving
mecrazy.Ihavereachedmybreaki
ngpoi
nt,
i'
m
l
ayingdownont hi
sunhygieni
cdisgustingfl
oor.I
haven'tt
akenmymedi cati
onandi '
m probablygoi
ng
todiewithoutf
indi
ngthatbeauti
fullady.That
'smy
missionwhenigetoutofthishellhole.

"
Ehzi
boshwa"
Me:Nxiayf
**ki
ndabayakho
Car
son:Whatausel
esscopofabr
otheryouar
e
Me:Shutt
hef
**kupokay
Nhl
aka:Car
sonst
opl
etsgo

Hej
umpsup.

Nhl
aka:Mi
racul
ousl
yever
ythi
ngdi
sappear
ed
Car
son:OhthankGodidon'
thavet
ospendanot
her
ni
ghtwit
hthi
sbozo

Hecuf
fsus.
Carson:Thisi
sviol
ati
onofr
ight
syoucan'
tjust
pushusl i
kethat

It
ryt
ohi
thi
m mybr
otherst
opsmet
heyl
augh.

Car
son:Of
fi
cerar
restt
hismanhei
str
yingt
oat
tack
me
Me:Ohl ookwhatcamei nt
heawar
dwi nni
ngfor
bestannoyingpersoni
nthewor
ldgoesCarson
Owenshutt hef**
kup
Nhl
aka:Khumbul
aniwhati
sgoi
ngon
Lani
:Her e'
swhatisgoi
ngonthei
rmurderoushands
madet heirwaytot
hedocket
sandjustl
ikethat
ever
ythingisgone
Nhl
aka:Theywerei
npossessi
onofi
ll
egalf
ir
ear
ms
whataboutt
hat

Car
sonandisl
owl
yeyedeachot
her
.
Lani
:Thatt
ogonepr
ocesst
hei
rrel
ease
Nhl
aka:Aybaf
anai
yasebenzai
ntel
ezi
yenu

Het
hrowst
hepenatme.

Car
son:Pi
cki
tMzwakhe
Nhl
aka:YeahMzwakhepi
cki
tup

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Heeimi
nal
owenzi
wakanj
eaykul
ungi
le
baf
ethu
Car
son:Wher
eismywat
ch
Me:Car
sonl
etsgoyouwi
llbuyanot
herone
Carson:Excusemethat
sanexpensi
vewat
chmy
wif
eboughtf orme
Hedoesn'
tevenhaveawi
fe.

Car
son:Iwantmywat
chback

Ipul
lhi
m away.

Carson:Eymt anomZuludon'
tpi
ssmeoffyou
motherf**ker
sbetterhavemywatchwhenicome
back

Hetakest
hecof
feeandpaperbagt
hat
sont
he
count
erwhy?
.

Sakhi
le
Thi
ngswentbacktonor
maltheshitl
oad,heis
goi
ngtobethr
owingatmeiain'
treadyfori
t.Iknow
i
tsgoi
ngtoannoyme.
Me:Theycomi
ngupnow

Idon'
twantt
obearound,t
helif
topenstheybot
h
enter
.Mzwakhej
ustheadsupstai
rs,
isi
ghand
fol
lowhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Youal
lowedmet
ospendani
ght
sinj
ail
Me:I
Mzwakhe:Shutupshutt
hef
**kupt
ellmewhyi
wasi
njailSakhi
le
Me:Br
oi
Mzwakhe:Youcan'
tri
ght

Cansomeoneswit
chpl
aceswi
thmet
hatl
owt
one
i
nhisvoi
ce,i
sscari
ngme.

Me:Ever
yonei
sdownst
air
s
Mzwakhe:Fokofhambamasi
mbakho

Igetupandl
eave.

Thabi
so:Hei
smad
Me:Morel
ikebr
eat
hingfi
rewhenhedoesn'
tshout
atyout
hat
swhenhei smoredanger
ous

Hecomesdownaf terawhil
eheadi
ngtothefr
idge,
hegrabsawaterbott
le.Car
soncomesthr
ough
fr
eshenedup.

Mzwakhe:Di
dyoueatyourst
upi
ddonut
s
Car
son:Noiwasaboutt
o

Awkwardsi
lencenextt
hingt
hatbot
tl
ecomesfl
ying
t
hrough.Wedarenotmoveorsayanythi
ng.
Mzwakhe:Sengazengi
gidl
eest
ocksi
nnal
oml
ungu
ngenxayenuzi
nja

OnanygivendayCar
sonwoul
dhavedef
ini
tel
ysai
d
somet
hing,butt
hemomenti
stoot
ensetomake
j
okes.

Mzwakhe:Kuyacacaphelaayisadumikanj
alo,
ani
ngif
unikuyonki
ntoesesi
dlulekuyonani
ngif
aka
ej
ele

Youknowthatmomentaparenti
sshout
ingatyou.
Icovermyf
aceit
sevenworsewhenhisshouti
ng.

Mzwakhe:Hmm aniyi
ndawoningangi
tshel
anga
ubanil
oshlamaekumelengi
mucishenou
Thabi
so:Hawusomeofushavewi
ves
Mzwakhe:I
gqel
eyouyangi
zwaawuyi
ndawo.Ukut
h
uwubhut
iwamiomdal
aakushoukut
hngeke
ngi
kubul
aleeyt
sekThabi
so

Hethr
owsthegunatusandi
tlandsonmyl
eg.Why
doial
wayshavet
obeonepunished.

Phi
ndi
le
Ifeelal
otl
ight
erandbett
ermeani ngeveryt
hing
wentwell
.Howevernowi'm heari
ngsoftsobsof
someone,whomightthi
sper sonbenow.

Nonhl
e:Yougoodnowcanigo

Idon'
twanthert
ogo.

Me:Yesyoucan

Ihi
dmysadnesswi
thasmi
leherl
if
emust
n'tst
op
becauseofme.
Nonhl
e:Hewi
llpi
ckmeupi
ntheaf
ter
noon
Me:Cool
Nonhl
e:So
Me:Whyyousmi
li
ng
Nonhl
e:Haveyouseendr
eam bae
Me:Canyouheart
hat
Nonhl
e:St
opt
ryi
ngt
ochanget
hesubj
ect
Me:Noi
'
m ser
iouscanyounotheart
hat
Nonhle:Hear
ingwhatPhi
ndi
leyoubet
ternotbe
st
art
ingyourshit
Me:Hai
bo

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:I
m sor
ry
Ma:HawuSi
pho
Si
pho:Yeboma
Ma:Kunj
ankhehl
a
Si
pho:Kuyancengekamaakuf
aniukhonal
osi
si
Me:Mrhandsome
Si
pho:Ayhawu

JamesZul
u
Themessigot
tenmysel
fint
o.

Andi
le:I
sitdone
Me:Theygotout

Hef
rowns.

Andi
le:Ar
eyoubul
lshi
ti
ngmer
ightnow
Me:Itappear
sthedocket
stoget
herwi
tht
he
evi
dencedisappear
ed
Andi
le:Youruselessyouknowdoihavet
odo
ever
ythi
ngmysel f,doineedt
oremi
ndyoujames
whatisatstakehereJames

Iwasboi l
ingi
nsideionlybetr
ayedt heboys,
becausemyf amilyist
rappedinsideamagi calpool.
Theonl ywayicanhavet hem backisbybr i
nging
downt hebhengu's,
myconsci encef el
tbadont he
otherhandmyhandswer eti
ed.Ialsodoi tbecause
thoseboysdon'tseeme.

Andi
le:Yougobackinthei
randfi
ndouteveryt
hing
youcantonailt
hem down.Onceandf
oralland
don'
tyoudarebull
shi
tme

Hecomescl
osert
omeandwhi
sper
sinmyear
.

Andi
le:Youhaveabeauti
fuldaught
eri
'
m sur
eiwi
ll
makeaf or
tuneoutofher
Ihol
dmysel
ffr
om punchi
ngt
hef
**koutofhi
m.

Me:Wewoul
dn'
twantt
hatnow
Andi
le:Thangetmewhatiwant

Hegetsinhiscaranddr
ivesoff
,iwatchitti
lli
tsout
ofmysight.Igetonmykneesandbreakdown.I
can'
tdothisanymoreij
ustwantmyf amilyback,
Godpleasehelpmeitst
artst
orainicryevenlouder
.

Phi
ndi
le
Si
pho:Cor
rectqueenwi
fey
Nonhl
e:Igotamannj
alo
Me:What
swr
ong
Si
pho:Bukakuval
iweakat
hol
akal
inasef
oni
ni
Nonhl
e:That
'sbad

Voi
ce:Tel
lhi
mtoopenever
ythi
ngi
sfi
ne
Izoneout
.

"
Babywemustchanget
hisr
oom"
"
Why?
"
"
Becausetheseareoldf
ashionedwhost
il
lhas
war
drobesthatf
il
ltheent
ir
ewal l
"
"Babeasingaj
wayel
ani
kabiihadt
hem speci
fi
cal
ly
designedtobeli
ket
hat"

Nousetal
kinghimint
ogett
ingacl
osett
hisroom i
s
sobi
g,t
hatthishugewar
drobei
sveryunnecessar
y.

"
Finet
han"
"
Bri
ngyourdar
kbeaut
if
ulsel
fher
e"

Hetakesofhi
stopoowi i
idamn.Im asuckerf
orabs
t
heydrivemecrazy.Iputthegl
assdownandsl owl
y
t
akeof
fmycl
othes,
wal
kingcl
osert
ohi
m.
.
..
..

Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
esnapoutofi
t
Me:Whathappened

Theylookatmewei
rdwasdaydr
eami
ng,
didi
bl
ackout.

Nonhl
e:Uvesanewaj
amanj
engakuhl
ali
saphansi
Me:Hmm
Nonhl
e:I
mleavi
ngar
eyougoi
ngt
obeokay
Me:Letmewashmyf
aceandwal
kyouout
[
06/
06,
10:
22] :05

Mzwakhe
Ameansuckerpunchl
andsonmyf
ace.
Me:F*
*k
Sakhi
le:Thatwasf
orhi
tt
ingmewit
hagun,
iknow
youmadbutdon'tt
akei
tther
ewit
hme
Me:Youhadt
odoi
tinf
rontoft
hesei
diot
s

Theyl
aughai
n'tnot
hingf
unny.

Thobani
:Ni
ngacasuki
phel
anonke
Me:Whatt
hehel
lhappened

Si
lence.

Me:Bat
hul
aabant
u
Sakhi
le:Weont
opofi
t
Car
son:Goodmor
ning
Foral
lthet
imesheannoyedmet
her
e'sabi
gboxof
donut
swaiti
ngforhi
m.

Thobani
:Apr
esentcamef
oryou

Heunwrapst
heboxt
hanl
ooksatmeyeahenj
oy
b*
tch.

Thobani:Sthandwasam ngifonelwanguweayno
zi
yakhipha..Chakubenezinkingaingakhongi
val
il
e
haibongempel a,
ahkodwawenaukubawangi qoma
ngabesiphushaintoeser
ious.Wakhet ha
ukuzit
shelake

Hel
aughshedoesn'
ttal
kli
ket
hiswi
thhi
sgi
rl
fr
iend
i
tmustbesomeoneheissmashi
ng.

Thobani
:Awkodwamommywal
enzausukul
wami
okaymylovesho
Nt
ando:Usuyaf
ebaf
uth
Thobani:(
Singi
ng)Phumaeyintwenizami
..
.aybo
bekaindabazakho.
.Ngisahambangizoni
bona
Thabi
so:Howcomeheget
stol
eaveandwecan'
t
Me:Thobaniuyaph
Thobani
:Igotabusi
nesst
orunduh
Sakhi
le:Wegotpol
icewat
chingourever
ymoveand
youwanttoopenupyourstupi
dspazashop

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Ohnohedi
dn'
t
Sakhi
le:Fokof
Thobani
:Unl
ikeyoub*t
chigotf
ri
endsandt
hose
fr
iendsl
ookoutforme,nowt
ryandst
opmeand
seewhatwil
lhappen
Me:Sakhi
lemyeke
Sakhi
le:Ent
lekunahanaumangwenaehbabaakho
munt
uohambayo

Thobanir
unSakhi
lei
sgoi
ngtohurtyou,het
akes
outhi
sgunsandcocksi
tusi
nghisfeet
.

Sakhi
le:Ungenel
aphongi
yakushaya

HewalksbackwardsSakhil
eisf
ir
ingbutnot
hingis
happeni
ng,Thobanishowsushi
smi ddl
efi
nger.

Thobani
:Lat
erb*
tches

Wi
thahugesmi
rkonhi
sfacewhatj
usthappened.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasdownatt hechisanyamahelpi
ngthem open
upwheni tsuddenl
yrained,t
hisi
sn'
tanormalkind
ofr
ain.Thosecriesagainiext
endmyhandout .
Thobani
:Phi
ndi
le

Ist
aggerhehol
dsme.

Thobani
:Wenzanmanj
eusuqal
aiyi
ntozakho

Whatdi
dthi
spersondof
ort
hem t
obebr
ingi
ngme
somuchagony.

Thobani
:Si
phowozanamanzi
Me:Nenyama

Hesmi
les.

Thobani
:Nenyamabo
Si
pho:Queen
Thobani
:Queenwaniwenaaht
hul
a

"
Thobani
ii
"

Thobani
:Awuphut
hel
wai
lut
ho
Londie:Cel
aningenzel
aiskhaf
thi
ni.
.Kanjankodwa
oeiphungalenyamalinukakamnandikanjet
hatha
Si
pho:Ngenzeningal
ent
o
Londi
e:Fakai
nyamayi
nii
nki
nga
Si
pho:Udaki
we
Londi
e:Weel
okhengi
ncengananawe
Si
pho:Shonakhona

Wedi
einl
aught
er.

Mzwakhe
Wepul
lupatchi
sanyamaThobanineedst
oexpl
ain
whatmut
hihei
susi
ng.Wegett
her
eandmywi
fei
s
t
hereohmyGod.

Fri
end:Laphongithingi
funaukugr
oovai
slwane
sangi
casulaasi
yikhiphi
lei
mali
Her
:Awukhol
atenj
e
Thobani
:Her
emuhambi
se
Fr
iend:Mekukhonawenaaveest
handal
obhut
i
Si
pho:Akasi
thet
hisi
nokusi
thet
hisa
Fr
iend:Mnganingi
zokubona
Si
pho:Baf
o
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u

Hegr
eet
sus.

Sakhi
le:Ubanil
oya
Sipho:MuphiohuPhi
ndi
lenoLondi
ePhi
ndi
lel
ohl
eli
phansi
Phi
ndi
leyouhavet
akenmyhear
tgi
rl
.

Thobani
:Ni
funanil
a
Me:I
nyama
Thobani
:Inyama
Sakhi
le:Kwangat
hiakekhor
ightnj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Thobani

Her
unsovert
her
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Thepeopl
ewi
thi
nmedi
dn'
tl
iket
hewayt
heseboys
werel
ooki
ngatme.

Thobani
:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Me:Idon'
tknow
It
ryt
ogetupmyl
egsf
ailme.

Thobani
:Weent
ombazaneungal
ingeyezwa

Iseet
hesnakesl
it
her
ingif
oll
owi
t.

Thobani
:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Shhhwoza

I
tleadsmet
oawhi
teBMW Xhmm l
ovel
ycar
.

Me:Whosecari
sthi
s
Thobani
:EyaMzwakhe
Me:Openi
t
Thobani
:Vul
aimot
oyakhoeyvul
awenaman
Igetin,
healsogetsin.Il
ovebigcar
sthisonejust
makesmewantt ohavesexinit
,somethi
ngis
wrongwi t
hthiscar
.Isearchi
tandcomeacr ossa
packetwithsubst
anceinit

Thobani
:Shi
t

Mzwakhe
Whataret
heydoingi
nmycar
,poi
lcevansandcar
s
makethei
rwayin.

Thobani
:"Ever
yoneactcool
"

Theycomebackwi
thThobanihol
dingagym bag.

Lani
:Wel
lwel
lwel
l

Nott
hisi
diotcopagai
n.
Lani
:What
sint
hatbag
Thobani
:Noneofyourbusi
ness
Nhl
aka:Gooddaygent
lemen

Hehandsmeapaperi
'
m sur
ehei
sget
ti
ngt
ir
edof
seei
ngme.

Nhl
aka:Sear
ch
Me:Forwhat
Lani:That
'sf
orustoknowsoyourmurderous
handsdon'tgett
oit
,takeyourt
imel
eavenostone
unturned
Nhl
aka:Thebagpl
easesi
rthebagpl
ease

Het
hrowst
hebagont
hef
loor
.

Nhl
aka:Ther
ereal
lyi
snoneedf
ort
hatwej
ust
doi
ngourj
ob

Whatar etheyhopingtofi
ndandwhatwasi nmy
car.Hegoest hroughthebagiseeasmirkonhi
s
face,hetakesoutallt
heclot
hesfrom t
hebagandi
t
l
ightmat er
ialnothi
ngcanbehiddeninit
.

Pamel
a:Sor
rysi
siuyaph
Phi
ndi
le:Homekhonai
nki
nga
Thobani
:"Ehj
oekhuzal
omt
anakuzomosheka
bl
ind"
Phi
ndi
le:Hmm di
dn'
tthi
nkso
Lani:Excusemepr
incesswher
eyout
hinkyou
going
Phi
ndi
le:Uzeungi
thi
ntengi
yakul
ingayeyi
..
.Yeahi
di
dn'
tthi
nkso

Shewal
ksawayiwanther
.
[
06/
06,
10:
23] :06

Phi
ndi
le

Itwasanor malFridayij
ustgotbackf r
om workand
wai t
ingonmymant ofetchme.Hei salr
eadylate
probablybusywhor i
ngar ound, i
tsjustbeentwo
weeksdat i
ngthisguyandever ydayhasbeena
totalbli
ss.Heisver ydemandi ngatt imesifeelli
ke
noican' tdothisanymore, iwantt oleavehimt han
hegoesar oundandbet hisromant iclovingmani m
meet ingforthefi
rstti
me.

"
Liphii
sokal
akho"

Myfamil
ynotveryf
ondofhi
m, butt
heyl
ovehis
moneyofwhichigi
vet
hem al
ltheti
mewhenever
t
heywantit
.
"
Angazikadengi
buyi
lengi
yasol
anj
euzongi
landa
l
ate"
"Ubabawakhoakazukuyi
thandal
ent
oyokuhamba
ebusukunomaungamuphaengakananimalil
e"

There'
snotmuchicandotheancestorswantust
o
betogether
.Ifwebr
eakupagai
nal otofthi
ngsar
e
goi
ngt ohappen.

"Yeahkonakunj
alokemamangi
fanomani
na
sot
hini
"

Andiwaitandwai tandwai
tandwait
,ti
mei sgoing
bysofaststi
llnot
hingfr
om hi
m.I'
mfall
ingasleep
now.
..Myphoner ingsandi
tstwel
vemidnight
.

"Hel
lo"
"
Mama,
i'
m out
sidewoza"
"
Okay"
Igr
abmyst uffi'
m ver
ysleepyandt i
red.Mom is
watchi
ngtvthisisnotagoodlook,whol eavest
heir
homeattwelvemi dni
ght
.Ohwai tiknowt hi
sgir
l.

"
Wemad"
"I
'
m col
dandiwantt
ogeti
nabedr
ightnow"

Hedri
vesoffi
'mreal
lycol
diwishiboughtablanket
ort
hrow.Hetakesof
fhishoodi
eandgivesitt
ome.

"
Thankyou"
"Mamangi yaxol
isangi
sukengabambekabengaf
uni
sixabana.
.Mamamommyyohnt ombikaMzwakhe"

Iwakeupcoughi
ng.

Mzwakhe
Iwakeupexperienci
ngamassiveheadache,
never
gooutwithSakhil
e.Dri
nki
ngisnotgoodformy
hear
tli
ter
all
ywhatdidwedr i
nk.

Me:Yoyoyohmm.
.Hel
lo
Cal
ler
:Youdon'
tsoundgood
Me:Eyboyboy
Li
ndo:I
'
m ol
dnowbr
other
Me:Uyohl
eziuyi
ntwanayamiandngi
kuncanywa
bl
ind

Hel
aughs.

Li
ndo:Awushokeyi
nil
engakaeni
yenzi
leobhengu
bacasukekabi
Me:Shoul
dn'tyoubesl
eepingi
nsteadofwaki
ng
peopl
eupfineiwasarr
estedwit
hCar son
Li
ndo:Mt
anoml
ungu
Me:Eyi
sdi
nasodwa
Li
ndo:AwholeMzwakhear
rest
edyoushoul
dbe
ashamedofyour
sel
f
Me:Whatdi
dtheysay
Li
nda:Theyt
ookcar
eofi
tandi
'
m comi
ngback
Me:Udaki
weuyaf
undaf
ocusont
hatangi
kuf
uninj
e
l
a
Lindo:Ngebhadisengi
phakat
hi"
Whenyouget
ti
ng
yourownhouse"Keawecanbot hshar
ethi
shouse
Kea:Heybr
o
Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Lindo:Evensowecan'
tli
vei
nthest
atef
oreveryou
knowaboutmygift
Me:Mysisterai
n'tcomingbackt
othi
stur
moi
l
f
orgeti
tli
ngamanel i
bhubhe
Li
ndo:Okusal
ayosi
yabuyabyeigot
tago
Me:Weel
indokuhl
ewena
Hehungsup.

Me:Wowt
hisboy

Sakhi
le
Someoneistar
get
ingusandnoti
nagoodway,
Thobanii
sbackweneedtodi
scusswhati
stheway
for
ward.

Ndu:Yal
ldopi
ngnow
Thobani
:Mzwakhe
Me:Whati
sgoi
ngon
Thobani
:It
scocai
nel
otsandl
otsofcocai
ne
Me:Wedon'
trol
lli
ket
hathedef
ini
tel
ydoesn'
trol
l
l
iket
hat
Thobani
:Butweknowwhodoes
Me:No
Thobani
:Hei
sadr
ugl
ordandhumant
raf
fi
cki
ng
ki
ng

AndileandMzwakheoi landwatert
heydon'tmixi
n
facttheyhateeachot
her, si
ncewayback.Mzwakhe
deltwitht
hisguyandonl ynowhethinksabout
revenge.

Thobani
:Whatar
ewedoi
ngt
odo
Ndu:Uzobul
alauSakhi
lekuqal
a

Theylaught
hisbr
okenr
ecor
dofhewi
llki
llSakhi
le
fi
rsti
sannoyi
ngme.

Mzwakhe:Zi
mnandiheokushoukut
hni
yit
hol
il
e
bebhar
iekumel
engiyi
cishe

Whenhei
smadyouwal koneggshellsandt
ipt
oe
ar
oundhi
m.Westareateachotheriknowmyboy
pr
ett
ywel
landal
lisfor
given.
Ndu:Skhul
u
Mzwakhe:Shutt
hef
**kup

Ij
umponhi
sbackhef
rowns.

Me:Iknewyouwoul
dn'
tdar
est
aymadatme
Mzwakhe:Getof
fme
Ndu:Ar
eweont
hecl
ear
Mzwakhe:Fornow

Phi
ndi
le
Sincethatdr
eam ihaven'tgott
enanyrest
.Ifeel
fuzzyandsuperexhausted,im sur
pri
sedigot
throughtheday.

Ma:Usudl
il
engi
kwenzel
eukudl
a
Me:Yebongi
yabonga

Idon'
tthi
nkicaneatbutiwi
llt
ryt
o,myphoner
ings.

Nonhl
e:Seyi
suki
lenj
alo
Me:Hereiam i
nthemiddleofthedr
eam, dr
eam
baeissexydoi
ngallt
hingshesayshisname
ngi
yavukaangi
sakhumbulil
uth
Nonhl
e:No
Me:Iwassoangr
y

Ist
arthi
ssi
ngandsnor
ti
ng.

Me:Hm hm ngi
yabul
awal
a

Igr
abacushi
onandl
ayont
hef
loor
.
Si
s:Sani
bonaniweesezi
suki
l
enj
alo
Ma:Angi
yit
handinezel
ent
o

Ikeepheari
ngmanlycrieswhoisthi
smancryi
ng
l
ikethi
s,eachsobisf
il
ledwithpassi
onandanger
.
Couldbeconnect
edtotheseancestor
s.

Voi
ce:Asi
kwaziukumsi
zakephawenaungakwenza
Voi
ce:Inhli
ziyoyakhei
buhl
ungukephai
mpi
loyakhe
i
sezandlenizakhe
Voice:Si
yacel
ankosazaneumbonisei
ndl
elangoba
l
eehambangayokuzogci neukut
hmelesingenel
ele
l
oludaba

That'
snotagoodi
dea.
..Iopenmyeyeswi
lliever
getsomerest
.

Mzwakhe
Thobanii
shavi
ngt hemot herofallpart
ies,
surlyim
goi
ngtoseemyl ovethere.Sheist heonethingthat
hasbeenonmymi ndsinceisawher ,these
di
str
acti
onsaremakingi thardformet ofocus.

Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:Yesmybaby
Me:Don'
tdoi
t
Sakhi
le:Sengenzeni

Iknowhim hehasseenthewayiml ooki

ngather
andheisbusywithi
nvesti
gati
ons.Idon'
twantthat
idon'
twantanyoneknowingexceptus.

Thabi
so:I
qal
ani
nil
ent
oyaThobaningi
zil
ungi
sel
a
kahl
e
Sakhil
e:Shookayf
orwhenokaysharp.
.Ucel
aama
earphonesyi
nil
ent
oenci
phi
saumsi ndo
Thel
if
topensbabyNozir
unsi
nandj
umpsonme.

Me:Mommysawubonawenasawubonawena

It
ickl
eherherl
aughmel
tsmyhear
taway.

Me:Sakhi
le

Hel ooksatmeichuckleidon'tunderst
andthi
s
hugephobi ahehasagainstchil
dren.Heei
therruns
away, act
sweirdinfr
ontofthem orhaveaser i
ous
nervousbreakdown.It
sjustki
dsonehewi llhave
someday.

Me:Yourmanl
etyoucomeherebyyoursel
fphel
a
ubr
awamiakasi
funinhl
oboeduzekwakho
Set
hu:Ut
heubusyhecan'
ttakemet
ohi
spl
ace
Jamesdr
oppedmeoff
Nozi
:Si
dwi
Me:Swidiokayhambauyekumaucel
aukudl
a
ngi
zokunikauswi
di
Nozi
:Ebo

Phi
ndi
le
Ij
ustwokeupfr
om apeacef
ulsl
eepmymissi
on
nowist
ofindt
hiscr
yingmanandiwil
l.

Ma:Wal
azi
wangaphesheya
Me:Kwenzi
wani

Ipeept
hrought
hewi
ndowandi
tisgoi
ngdown.

Me:Awmi
nangi
zil
aleangi
zwal
utho
Ma:Hl
ampebazokul
anda
Si
si:Uphat
hei
nyama
Me:Ni
zogul
aphel
ainyamanj
alohai
bo
Si
si:Avei
mnandif
uth
Ma:Ayi
nawol
amasauceanesdi
na

Mom l
oveshermeatsal
tedandf
lamednot
hing
mor
enothingl
ess.

Ngqongqo

Ma:AwubangenaoNonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Ngi
zol
andawenama
Me:Uf
unangi
yosukel
aabant
ulaphaya

Sheheadsstr
aightt
omyr oom wel
aughshewant
s
metofightwi
thpeoplet
here.

Mzwakhe
Thest r
eetdur
ingthedayi
sl i
keaghostt own.Once
Thobaniopensorhaveanevental ltheratscometo
play,t
heseidi
otswerewastedincludingmyselfi
couldn'
tseemyl oveandt
hepl acewaspacked.

Thabi
so:Mebef
ikal
abosi
siuThobanimel
e
ebahl
ali
sel
ana
Sakhi
le:Hai
bo

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Wezi
njaani
sashomaseni
khona
Thabi
so:Hai
boul
elekunj
e
Me:Skhul
u
Thobani
:Nyul
utsekman

Thef
riendent
ersandsi
tsopposi
teussheis
l
ooki
ngl i
keal
ostsoul
.Siphost
andsbehi
ndherand
kisshercheekhethansmoochesherokay.Than
thegirlofmydreamsandyel
lowbonecomeand
i
nt er
ruptthemoment.

Thiswomanf eedsmysoulwheniseehermymi nd
j
ustdisappears.Shet
akesmybr eat
hawaymaybe
thi
sistheuniversewayoft
ell
ingme, ineedt
obe
wit
hher .

Thobani
:Hi
Phi
ndi
le:Myt
hings
Thobani
:Youst
ayi
ng
Phi
ndi
le:Anhourandi
m gone
Yel
lowbone:Yayauphil
oosibi
zeononkroyiukhona
l
angiyadlal
ampint
shi
,cabangauyoj
olasisel
ethina
ayayyinimanj
e
Thobani
:Ohobhut
ilababacel
aukut
hni
hlal
enabo
Yel
lowbone:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Weee
Theyl
aughandj
oinourt
abl
eokaynow.
[
06/
06,
10:
23] :07

Sakhi
le
Usuall
ytheladi
eswoul dbethr
owingthemselvesat
us,butwit
hthem aroundnoneofthathappened.It
wasactuall
ythefir
stti
mewedr ankpeaceful
ly.I
wouldenjoymyselfmor ei
fmydrinki
ngbuddies
werearound,iwi
llt
akewhaticanget.

Mzwakhechickenoutfr
om aski
ngthi
sgi
rlout
,she
i
sbeauti
fulbutsomethi
ngabouthert
hat
s
i
nti
midat
ing.

Me:Mommyukahl
enj
e
Nonhl
e:Ahshe'
sgone
Mzwakhe:Shedi
dn'
tevendr
ink
Nonhl
e:Shedon'
tneedt
obedr
unkt
obegone
Me:Angi
thandikekuzobaengat
hsi
yani
bhor
a
Nonhl
e:Ni
yabhor
avel
e

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e:Li
keser
iousl
yay

Hephoneri
ngsNonhl
etakesi
toutofherpocket
andansweri
t.

Nonhle:Heybabelolngit
hingiyamkhipha
uzongibukani
sanabantuokayut humelei
message.
Ngizokhohlwayeahsohambavel ebayabhor
a
nnalabantuesi
hlel
inabobahlenjeint
oengathshu

I
sshef
orr
ealr
ightnow.
Nonhl
e:Nonoayphel
asi
singekenj
engi
dlal
ewena

Shepoursherashotshegul psitl
ikeit
sagl assof
water,
shepoursheranotheronethisgirli
snotreal
.
Shelooksatmeasi fsheheardme, ismilebecause
she'
sdefini
tel
ygi
vingmet helook.Holdon.

Phi
ndi
le
Thi
sguyhasbeenst
ari
ngatmepar
toft
her
eason
whyizonedout
.

Me:Whyyoul
ooki
ngatme
Hi
m:Ngi
kubukanj
eunani

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Celaubukekwenyei
ndawoungi
phat
hisa
ngekhanda
Hi
m:Hai
bosi
siasi
ngaphaphel
ani
Me:Konj
eut
heuwubani
Hi
m:Akubalul
eki
lel
okhonakhonakuyinkinga
mengi
kubuka,
ushomawungifuningakulungi
sel
a
f
ast
Me:Ngi
zokuphoxaangi
siyeumnganiwakho
Hi
m:Hai
bonal
ibhadil
amiawukahl
ekancane

Il
eanforwar
dandwhisperhi
m somet
hinghe
chokesonhi
sdri
nk.

Igetupineedsomefreshai
r,f
ir
sthi
sfr
iendcall
s
usslut
sandhet hi
nksiwantt
osleepwi
thhim hmm.

Sakhi
le
Hepr obablywentwi
thhi
sstupi
dment al
it
ynot
everygirlwant
satast
eofhim.Hegotwhathe
deservediwonderwhatshetol
dhi
m, heisinshock
andi wanttogohome.Nonhle'
swordswer ehar
sh
i
fanyt
hingwegoti
tgoi
ngon,
todayj
ustwasn'
tit
.

Thabi
so:Ngathungazeumlethel
eintombi
uyi
caci
seleukut
huyahlanyakuqala
Me:Mf
ethuahl
olesdi
didi

Thechisanyamar umbl esiseeNonhleshedances

thanstop,notonlyisshebeautif
ulshemoveto.
Thepeopl echeerthem onahhnowiwantt odance
butidon'twanttor ui
nthismoment .I
nst
eadi
whist
letheymovet oitohthesearemykindagir
ls

Thecamer
asshi
ftt
hei
rfocusont
hem.

Thobani
:Kahl
ebowena

Theyt
ear
ingt
hedancef
loor
.
Thobani:Awsthandwasam bengazi
bengangiphoxabonkeaywena

Weneverreal
lyt
ookti
metocometothe
chi
sanyamaandlookwhatwehavebeenmi
ssi
ng
outon.

Whatt
heheckileavethei
rsorr
yassandjoint
he
l
adi
es.Sooneveryonejoi
nsinthedancef
loor
.

Phi
ndi
le
Ifocusedmyangerondanci ngthatwayiwon't
havetohurtanybody,butsadlyit
stimetogohome.
Iboostedthevi
beal i
tt
lebitit
hinktheywere
waiti
ngforustodanceandij ustwasn'tf
eel
ingi
t.

Wear r
ivehomeNonhlei
ssti
lldanci
ng,i
nsteadof
knocki
ngidecideweusemybr ot
hersout
side
house,nopet
helight
sgoonmom mustbeawake.
Nonhl
e:Kodwal
abobhut
imnganihmmm

It
roubl
emom alotbutshedoesn'
tmi
ndand
worr
iesaboutmealot
.

Me:Qal
eugezesokhul
umakusasa
Nonhl
e:Ngazengi
khohl
weuMxouf
oni
le
Me:Angiyi
ngeninjeeyal
oyomekukut
hakabuyi
angi
funiukukhul
umanaye
Nonhl
e:Ut
hei
zinganekanj
an

Sheheadst
obathroom.
.Afewminut
eslat
ershe'
s
done,
igeti
nandtakeaqui
ckshower
...

Nonhl
e:Beseni
banganinoguy
Me:Hisat
ti
tudescreamediwant
edt
of*
*khi
m andi
puthi
minhisplace
Nonhl
e:Hell
ohmm sengi
yal
alamanjeokay
ngi
yakut
handanamiokaybye.Si
ngaphi
ndesi
hlal
e
nabobayabhor
a

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Ist
il
lcan'
tbelievewhatshet
oldme, i
fthatgotouta
l
otoffri
endshipswouldbebroken.Myguyswoul d
hat
eme.Af tertheyl
eftwedeci
dedtoleavealso.

Igott
omyr oom andtookashower.Doesshehave
somespecialpowersorwhat,
iki
llt
heideaofgoi
ng
aft
erherdammi tman.Ir
eal
lyneededt
hatgir
lyeah
neh.

Ifi
ndSakhil
eandThobanii
nmybedwhatar
ethey
doingher
e.
Thobani
:Ayngi
zol
alauf
ivemi
nut
esmase
ngi
buyel
ale
Me:Sakhi
lef
inet
hanl
etmegetdr
essed
Thobani
:It
snotl
ikewehaven'
tseeni
tbef
ore
Me:Eygowanmani
hambani

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Wearr
iveatthi
sgor
geousmansi
on,
hestepsoutof
t
hecarthancomesaroundt
oopent
hedoorforme.

"
Wowt
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul"
"
Wai
tti
llyouseet
hei
nsi
de"

Het
ell
smet
ohoponhi
sbackdon'
tmi
ndi
fido.
"
Evenonyourbacki
m shor
t"

Hel
aughsandent
erst
hef
ir
str
oom upst
air
s.

"Tel
lmesomethi
ngi
syourr
oom t
hef
ir
stonei
n
ever
yhouseyouown"

Hechuckl
esandguesswhatt
hatwar
drobef
il
li
ng
outt
hewholewal
l.

"Iwi
llt
ellyoul
ateraboutal
lthatf
ornow"

Heki
ssesmeli
ft
ingmeupiwrapmyar msaround
hi
sneckandmovetot
herhyt
hm ofhi
slips.

.
..
..
..
..

It
ossandt
urnast
hisdr
eam t
akescont
roloverme.
[
06/
06,
10:
23] :08

Mzwakhe
Itur
naroundasthesunlightbur
nsthr
oughmyeyes.
Someonegruntscausingmet owakeup.We
conti
nueddri
nki
ngevent houghiwasreadyt
ocal
lit
anight,
theboysdi
dn'tall
owme.

Me:Sakhi
leul
alel
anil
a

Het urnsaroundi
gnori
ngme,iam f
orcedtogetup
everyoneispassedoutwit
hacushionunder
neath
thei
rheads.Thelif
topenshegotbr
ownpaperbags
withhim.

James:Wow
Me:I
m goi
ngupst
air
swaket
hem up
Icar
eful
lywal
kupbutt
ri
pandf
all
.

Me:Fuck

Theyl
augh.

Me:Fuckyou

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupscr
eami
ng.

Nonhl
e:Ubani

Shef
all
sof
fthebedmom f
li
esi
nther
oom.

Ma:Kwenzenj
an
Nonhl
e:Damngi
rli
wasaboutt
omar
rymyni
ght
andshi
ningar
mor

Il
aybackdowncat
chi
ngmybr
eat
h.

Ma:El
inyei
phuphof
uthi

Inodnotjustanydr
eam iwasaboutt ohavesex
andthat
'swheniwokeup.Couldthisguybet he
sameonecr yformyhel
pidon'tgetitnow.

Nonhl
e:YoyoyoPhi
ndi
le

Am ibeingbewitchedar et
heytryi
ngtogetmeto
sl
eepwi thaspir
itualhusband.I
sthisamessage
fr
om theancestors,howdoif i
ndthem wit
houteven
knowingwhot heyar e.

Nonhl
e:Gi
rl
..
.Nomybabyi
tsokaydon'
tcr
y
Isobevenl
ouder
.

Nonhl
e:Ehl
isaumoyagogosengi
khonakul
ungi
l
e

Shegentl
ystr
okesmybackcalmingmedown.Thi
s
i
st oomuchwhytheynotsayi
nganyt
hing,
i'
m
feeli
ngdr
owsyagai
n

Nonhl
e:Shuui
tsokayNonoi
sher
e

Igetl
osti
nhervoi
ceandsl
owl
yst
artf
adi
ngaway.

Mzwakhe
Shehadmeat"ngi
zokuphoxa"nowidon'
tknowi
fi
shoul
dpur
suehersheisdangerous.

Sakhi
le:Goodmor
ning
Me:Hmm youri
nagoodmood
Sakhi
le:whywoul
dn'
tibe
Me:Shef
inal
lyl
etyouhi
tit
Sakhi
le:Wecel
ibat
eremember
Me:List
enift
hatgirlhurt
syouiwon'tbotheraski
ng
quest
ionsiwi
lldealwithheraccor
dingl
y
Sakhi
le:Let
'sdealwi
thot
hert
hingsaccor
dingl
y
Me:I
bambel
aphomf
okaNdl
ovu

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Sobozzayami
Me:For
getabouti
t
Sakhi
le:Hawumf
ethu
Me:Ebabai
ji
ndel
eway
Sakhil
e:Skhuluthatwasalongt
imeagoyoul et
ti
ng
gooft hat
,phel
aisawt hewayyouwerelooki
ngat
her.Youonlygivethatl
ookwhenyouheartfi
nds
whati
tloves
Me:Mt
hat
hewenake
Sakhil
e:Iwoul
dlovet
obutyouandiknowil
ike
them yel
low
Me:Li
keyel
lowbone
Sakhi
le:Sheai
n'tmyt
ypeigotmygi
rl
Me:Wher
eismymoneySakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Howam isupposedt
oknowwhenyou
panel
beatedt
heguystopdist
ract
ingme

Il
ookathi
m.

Sakhi
le:Iwi
llgetyourmoneybackst
ayont
het
opi
c
Me:Idon'
tknowman

Iser
iousl
ydon'
tknow.
Phi
ndi
le
Nonhle:Whatifdr
eam baeist
hatguyimeanhe
per
fectl
yfi
tsthedescr
ipti
on

Weoutt
ogetsomef
reshai
rwhi
chit
otal
lyneeded.

Me:Idon'
tknowthatarr
ogantbast
ardijustknow
howhisbodylookl
ikeidon'
tknowhisface
Nonhl
e:Don'
tyout
hinkhehasi
t
Me:Whatiknowi
sthathi
stal
l
Nonhl
e:Hei
sal
sot
all
Me:Iwoul
dn'
tmi
ndi
fitwashi
m imean
Nonhl
e:Sowhatwasi
t

Idon'
twanttot
alkabouti
tandidon'
twantt
oget
herworr
ied.

Me:Somet
imesif
orgetwhatidr
eam aboutbuti
ts
defi
nit
elysomet
hingdon'
tovert
hink.I
'
m sur
eit
s
notbadr el
axmama

Iqui
ckl
ypayandexi
tfastbef
oreshest
art
sget
ti
ng
al
lemoti
onal
.

Nonhle:Musaukungi
shi
yaphel
a,l
etsgot
ochi
cken
l
icken

Il
ookatheri
sshef
orr
eal
.

Mzwakhe
"
Ithoughtit
ookonest
ep
It
ookt
wobacki
'
m not
Evencl
oset
hist
ime
Andt
hat
'saf
actal
l
Iknowi
sthatwe'
l
lbe
Aper
fectmat
chso
Wher
eyouathuh
Ij
ustgot
taf
indyou"

Iwasl
ist
eni
ngtonostal
gicsoundsofBobby
Val
ent
inoandt
hinki
ngalotaboutPhindi
le.

Them:"Iwannaknowiwannaknowyourname,
yournameyourname,
whyyougottabe
anonymous"

Theyl
augh.

Li
nda:Skhul
usami
Me:Baf
o
Sakhi
le:(Si
nging)i
fidi
dn'
tknowbet
terit
hinkyou
werei
nl ove.
..Whipped
Me:Edakwaumunt
u
Them:(
Singi
ng)Doyouwantt
otel
lussomet
hing
Me:Eyani
kahl
eukungi
dakel
waeatyourf
oodand
st
ayoutofmybusi
ness

Iam notwhi
ppedbutiwasgraspedbyherbeaut
y
andhowshecarri
edhersel
f.

Phi
ndi
le
"Idon'
tunder
standwhyyouangr
y"
"
Areyouseri
ousl
yaskingmet hatst
upidquest
ion.
..
Haichasi
siungi
jwayel
akabiawuziboni
"

Whati
sheangr
yabout
.

"
Whenyoumygi r
l,youmygi
rlnotohever
yti
mewe
f
ightyougoar
oundwhori
ng"

Hest
epscl
oserimoveback.
"
Uyangi
zwaukut
hngi
thi
ni"

Iam act
ual
lyscar
edoft
hismanhecandoanyt
hing
atanymoment.

"YouknowwhatMzwakheican'
tdot
hisanymor
e
goodbye"
"
Angi
zwaut
hini
"

Heshoutsigr
abmythi
ngsbef oreicanevenleave
ahotslapl
andsonmyface.Icomebackt oreali
ty
hol
dingmycheekandt
heystaringatme.

Me:Ouch!Nonhl
eungi
shayel
an

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Senzenj
ant
hinamaseundwazi
leamehl
o
ebeki
l
eaycha
Me:Bi
tchyousl
appedme

Yesizoneoutal
otbutthatdon'
tmeansl
apme
damnmyf acei
sonfir
e.
[
06/
06,
10:
23] :09

Aweekl
ater

Mzwakhe
Lat
elyweir
dshithasbeenhappeni
ng.Idon'tknow
i
fwedrinki
ngtoomuchormymi ndispl
aying
gameswithme, whati
sitr
eal
lyidon'
tunderstand.

Sakhi
le:Howyouf
eel
ingnow

Hehandsmeagl
assofwat
erandsomepai
nki
ll
ers.
Me:Thankyou

Aweekagoist ar
tedexperi
enci
ngreall
ybad
headachesandhasbeenhappeningalot.They
comeandgot hepaintheybri
ngisexcruci
ati
ng.

Me:Angi
sazimanj
eakukhol
uthool
usi
zayo
Sakhi
le:Ngat
huPear
luyakut
hakat
ha
Me:SlayqueenPear
lwhatdoessheknowabout
wi
tchcraf
t
Sakhi
le:Yougott
oadmitsomet
hingcol
daboutt
hat
gi
rlandidon'
tli
keher

Il
augh.

Sakhi
le:Justt
ryandgetsomer
estiwi
llcomet
o
checkonyou
Inodandgetcomf
ort
abl
eundert
hecover
s.

Me:Canisl
eeppleaseeveni
fit
'soneort
wohour
s,i
woul
dbegratef
ulthankyoui
nadvance

Phi
ndi
le
Isuff
eredami niheartat
tackandhavebeen
hospi
tali
zed.Icouldn'
tbreat
heonmyownmybp
skyr
ocketedonanot herl
evel,
theancest
orsshowed
menomer cy.Thedooropensandt hedoct
orwalks
i
n.

Dr
:Lovel
ywebr
eat
hingonourown

Hei
ssuperf
ine.

Dr
:Igotawi
femyl
ady
Me:Wel
lit
sdef
ini
tel
ynotheal
thr
elat
ed
Dr
:Notqui
tebutwegoi
ngwi
tht
hef
low

Ichuckl
ehechecksmyBPl
evel
s.

Voi
ce:I
sever
ythi
ngokay
Dr:Yeahiwouldn'
tmindswappingshif
tswit
hyou
anydayifyougetsuchgorgeouscl
ients.
.Soyour
l
evelsarest
il
lhigh
Me:Li
keisai
dit
snotmedical
lyr
elat
edineedt
o
f
indsomeonesoicanr
eli
evemyself
Dr
:Youdon'
tlookl
ikeasangoma
Me:Iam j
ustspi
ri
tual
lygi
ft
ed
Dr:Sowhatcanwedoast
hishospi
talwedo
sympathi
zewit
hbot
hwest
ernandcultur
alpr
act
ice
Me:Youcoul
djustl
etmegohome

If
lapmyeyesathi
m hesmi
les.
Dr:Nothappeni
ngtel
lyouwhatyoucanusemy
off
icei
tsverypri
vat
eandavai
labl
e.I
'm doct
or
ThatoMkhize
Me:AwMkhi
zekhabhazel
akamavovokodwa
Dr
:Nomaungangi
thakazel
akamnandikanj
anno

Hehelpsmeoutoft
hebedif
eelt
hem ent
eri
ngmy
body.

Me:Ngi
yisekuyena
That
o:Mommy
Me:Ul
anal
omunt
u
That
o:Okaywozakenkosazane

Aswewal ki
nghi
spr
esencebecomesst
rongerand
st
ronger
.

Voi
ce:That
owenzan
That
o:Awumeawuboniwenakwenzakal
an
Man:Takeherback
That
o:Zamaniwai
tshemi
ghthur
tusZamaniwai
t

Mzwakhe
Iwasablet osleepformoret
hantwohour sthank
you.Igetupandt akeashower.
..Iheaddownstair
s
andeveryoneisher e,
isi
ghnouset el
li
ngthem to
goi'
m alri
ght.IlaydownonSakhil
e'sthi
ghs

Sakhi
le:Youhungr
yi
Me:Sakhi
lecal
m downi
'
mfi
ne
Thabi
so:Fi
nekwaniwena
Me:Baf
ethu

Thel
if
topenst
heyent
erar
gui
ng.

That
o:Eyuyi
sli
mayezwaangi
kazengi
bonei
sli
ma
esaf
anenj
engawenxiuyangi
nyanyi
sa

Phamandl
aisdyi
ngi
nlaught
er.

That
o:Uyi
siphukuphuku
Sakhi
le:Yi
ni
Me:Nimenzanimanj
euZamaniangi
thandinj
alo
ngal
obhuti
That
o:Mxm

Hefol
dshisarmsandfr
owns,t
hesetwoareas
thi
ckasthi
evest
heydon'
tar
gueunlessonedi
d
somethi
ngwrong.

Phamandl
a:Somet
hinghappenedatt
hehospi
tal
That
o:Ihadt
hesi
tuat
ionundercont
rol
Phamandla:Ther
ewasthi
spr
ett
ymommyyeyi
angi
kazengiboneumunt
uomuhl
ekanj
eya.Shewas
admit
tedaweekago, zi
thatheninoZamani
appar
entl
yshehasaspi ri
tualgif
t.That
odi
dn'
twant
todi
schargehershesti
llwasn'toutoft
hewoods,
heoff
eredhertousehisoffice
That
o:Lemfeneleizongi
vimbangi
sabat
hei
ma
Zamaniakayi
ngenileyo
Phamandl
a:Abi
zeamasecur
it
yuZamani

Bl
ackpeopl
eandt
ell
ingast
orydr
amat
ic.

Phamandl
a:Athiayambambasi
bonengabant
u
bendi
zaphezul
u(Laughi
ng)
That
o:Ar
ghyousuchadamnf
ool
Zamani
:Younott
heoneshehi
t
Me:Shehi
tyou

Wel
augh.
Thato:That'
sbecauseofyourf
ool
ishwaysdoyou
understandthat
Me:Okaywhoacal
m down
Ndu:Umshayengani
PhamandlaMetaldetect
oryashoekhandangezwa
i
khalakwel
amiwadl aphansiuThat
osasala
si
thwelei
zandl
a
Me:Hai
boawul
imal
anganj
e
Zamani
:Lucki
lyi
m okay
Me:Youshoul
dsueherubaniyenal
esf
ebel
esi
That
o:Hernamei
sPhi
ndi
le
Sakhi
le:Huh
Thobani
:Lo
That
o:Yeahheryi
ndabyouknowher

Hecr
acksi
nlaught
er.

Thobani
:Waayaziuyi
sli
mangempel
aamanzi
amancanel
awakunezi
ntoangazenza
Thabi
so:I
loyomuhl
ezil
oengi
mthandayo
Thobani
:Youdon'
tmesswi
tht
hatgi
rl
That
o:Hai
boni
yamaziyi
ni
Li
nda:Ubaniloyosel
okheni
shoi
gamalakhe
akamoyi
zelikanj
eomunyeumbengest
i

Okayidon'tt
hinkt
hat
ssuchagoodi
deai'
m sor
ry
babyical
ledyouabit
chbutyoumybi
tch.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Nonhl
e:I
'
m her
eim her
e
Me:Whathappened
Nonhl
e:Thehospi
talboughtyouback
Me:Oh
Event
sofwhathappenedst
artr
epl
ayi
ngi
nmymi
nd
ohGodthatdoct
or.

Me:Hmm mel
engi
yoxol
isakul
oyadokot
ela
Nonhl
e:Whathappened
Me:Lomuntuongiphathi
sangosiziebekhona
esbhedl
ela,
manjeesthubeniuyangivi
mba
l
odokotel
a.Ngacasukangabahlasel
aohnkosiyami
namasecurity

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:I
'
m sor
ryiknowyouhat
ewhenil
augh
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Sor
rywhathappenednext
Me:Idon'
tknowipassedoutnomabangi
jovi
le
angazi
Thisi
ssoembarrassi
ngidon'tgetphysi
calwi
th
anyoneicompl
etel
yactedoutofcharact
er.

Nonhl
e:I
mleavi
ngkenamhl
anj
e
Me:Thanksf
ri
endi
knowi
m al
ot
Nonhl
e:Don'
tment
ioni
t

Ifi
twasn'
tforheriwouldn'
tknowhowtohandl
eor
copewit
hthisgif
tipromisetoGodiwoul
dn'
t.

Sakhi
le
Weendedupchi l
li
nginthetheaterroom watchinga
movi e.Mzwakhet oldmeaboutt hisgir
l,i
tsbestwe
don'tantagonizehershedefini
telyisspir
it
ual.
Mzwakhe, Thobaniandiaretheonl yoneswho
knowt hatMzwakhesl eptwithLindani'
sgirlZoe.I
don'tknowwhadr ugshetookthatdayf orhimt o
fuckupl i
ket hat
.
Ineedtopee,ist
epoutasi
m walki
ngihearmoans
andgroansheesomepeoplear
eenjoyi
ng
themsel
ves.

Li
nda:Skhul
u
Me:Moj
a

Somethi
nggoneinhi
m icanseei
tinhi
seyes,
he
tr
iest
ohidei
twit
hasmi l
e.

Li
nda:Cava
Me:Hmm
Linda:Iknowyoudon'toweanyt
hingorany
explanati
onbutineedtoknowonethi
ng.Di
d
Mzwakhesl eepwithZoe
Me:Yeshedi
d
Ear
thswal
lowmer
ightnow.

Li
nda:Ar
eyousur
e
Me:Nohowcanyouevent
hinkt
hat
Li
nda:Sakhi
lei
fyou
Me:Iwoul
dtel
lyoustraightupifhedidyouknowi
woul
dhavekepti
trealthemi nutei
thappened

Hedoesn'
twantt
obelievemebuthehast o,hehas
nochoi
cethi
sistheonetimei
'm goingfor
Mzwakhe.I
tcangetmessyrealquickrealfast
.

Li
nda:Ayokayskhul
u

Hewal
ksawayipul
loutmyphoneandmakeacal
l.

Me:Ukuph.
..Canicomeover
Ifist
ayher
eimi
ghtj
ustsaysomet
hingsoi
'
m out
ofhere.

Thobani
:Skhul
u
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Mzwakhe
Irecei
vedanemergencycallfrom t
hehospi
tal
,what
di
didot obeunderthescopel i
kethi
s.Thedoor
openswewereonThat o'
sof f
ice.

Nhl
aka:Ar
etheygoi
ngt
ofi
ndanyt
hing
Me:Whatyout
hink

Hesi
ghs.

Nhlaka:Howi sthi
shappeni
ngsincewhenareyou
t
hiscareless.Themecreall
yandyoufucki
nggot
khumbul
aniher
e,whohasi
toutf
oryou
Me:Ar
eyouscar
edbecausei
'
m not
Sakhi
le:Nowi
sn'
tthet
imet
obepr
idef
ulwecoul
d
gotojail

Thephoner
ings.

Me:Yes
Cal
ler
:Si
rther
e'ssomeoneher
etoseeyou

Anot
herone.

Me:Okaybr
ingt
hem i
n

Thedooropensandmywor
ldbr
ight
ensup.

Ni
cki
:Si
r
Me:I
tsokayni
ckiyoucango

Mygirl
fr
iendpeopleshei
sherewhatdoido.She
seemssurprisedseei
ngmehere,
iownbabywe
ownitmyl ove.

Phi
ndi
le:I
'
m Phi
ndi
let
hisi
sGar
ymyl
awyer

Myheartisovert
hemoonshei
ssodamnbeaut
if
ul
andchocolat
ehmm damn.

Phi
ndi
le:I
sZamaniar
oundweneedt
ospeakt
ohi
m
Me:Thi
sidi
ot.
.Ni
ckiyeahpageZamanit
otheof
fi
ce
t
hankyou
Sakhi
le:Youcansi
tdown
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou

Theycl
eart
hei
rthr
oat
swhatdoyousayt
osuch
gor
geousness.Shehasonjustpl
atedcor
nrowsno
makeup,nonailsnot
hing.

Phi
ndi
le:Cel
ani
yekaukungi
bukabandl
a
Sakhi
le:Aysi
yaxol
isamommysi
yaqal
aukubona,
ubuhl
eobufananobakho
Phi
ndi
le:Hel
loheybabe

Babeshehasaboyf
ri
end.

Phindil
e:Eyyasazii
scefeiwascomi ngtoapol ogi
ze
hejusthadtoangermygui des.Youbel i
eveama
boyfri
endakhoabhorayo, nowt heystari
ngandi ts
makingmeuncomf ort
able.Holdonhel louyabuya
yi
ningisenki
ngeningishayeabant ungiyazikodwa

Shecover
sherf
acemyhear
tst
art
spani
cki
ng.
Phi
ndi
le
Ihol
dmyheadthi
smani
sher
eigot
tat
alkt
ohi
m
nomatt
erwhat
.

Sakhil
e:AyminanguSakhi
lel
onauMzwakhel
aba
abanyeabanamsebenzi

Mzwakhewhydoesi
tfeel
li
keihavehear
dthat
namebefor
e.

Mzwakhe:Ar
eyouokay
Me:Cel
ani
ngi
pheamanzipl
ease
Sakhi
le:Ther
eyougohai
bomommyMzwakhe

Hegetsupandcomest omeican'
tbr
eat
he.Hi
s
bodyagainstmineseemstobecal
mingmedown,
atthesamet i
mehei sannoyi
ngme.
Mzwakhe
Aft
ert
hatminimeltdownshegother
selftogether
.
Zamanif
inal
lyshowsupwecanf i
nal
lydiethis
i
ssuedown.

Phi
ndi
le:Hiuhm okayideser
vedt
hatl
ook
Me:Whatdi
dyoudo
Phindil
e:Ngiyaxoli
sabengafuniukushi
sampepho
mina,amakhandl el
aininanibengif
una
ukuthandaza.Nkosiyamif ut
hbenginomlayezo
ophumakwabaphansi ,lomuntuebekumele
ngikhulumeebekadeekhona.Ubhut iwakhoebethi
uyangisizanjeqha
Zamani
:Butwhatdoest
hatgott
odowi
thyou
hi
tt
ingme
Me:Zamani
Zamani
:Noyoucould'
vecausedmeani
njur
yima
doct
orimakemi
ll
ions
Wel
aughwhati
shedoi
ng.

Phi
ndile:Youaf
ineonet
otal
ksi
nceyoul
eta
pat
ientdie
Me:Okayiapologi
zeonhisbehal
flet
sjustactl
i
ke
not
hinghappened,andal
liswel
lri
ghtZamani

Sheistur
ningmeonsheknowsoursecrets,
thi
sis
onestr
ongdlozi
.Thedooropensannoyi
ng
det
ecti
vewalksi
n.

Lani:Whati
sgoi
ngonher
eandwhatar
eyoudoi
ng
si
tti
ngdown
Nhl
aka:Aski
ngt
hem quest
ions

Hi
seyest
ravel
sthr
oughal
lofushechuckl
es.

Lani
:Ishoul
dhaveknownal
lthi
sgoodyt
woshoes
wasallanact
.Youwor ki
ngf
orthem r
ightthat'
s
howtheyalwaysgotawaywit
hit,ohi
mt akingyou
al
ldown

Thi
sisbadNhlakani
pho'
scovercannotbebl
owni
l
ookatthem.

Phi
ndi
le:Wai
t
Lani
:Ladyiwi
llnotbebr
ibed
Phi
ndi
le:You.
.Yougotsomet
hingonyourf
ace

Sher
unsherhanddownhi
sfacehef
aint
s.

Phindi
le:Youoneannoyingcopthat
'swhynobody
l
ikesyou.Howf astcanyouwri
te
Nhl
aka:I
nabl
inkofaneye
Phindi
le:Younotgoi
ngtorememberanyt
hing,
you
notgoingtoremembercomingi
nhereandtheynot
r
elat
ed

Shehol
dsherheadandst
agger
sThat
ohol
dsher
.

Phi
ndi
le
Myheartiscl
osinginonmet hi
spersonisnear
.
Thedooropensifeelhi
m andhissadheart
,ipul
l
outf
rom That
o'sgri
pandlookatthesetwoman.

Man:Iti
snotl
ooki
nggoodoutt
her
ewhati
s
happeni
ngguys
Sakhi
le:Thisfoolwentandsuedherassandher
peopl
et ookitoutonus
Man:Zamanikant
iyi
niubusyul
alel
ananoMzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Me
Man:AkashongouThobaniukut
hiyekel
ent
o

Ist
aratt
hismancar
ryi
ngsuchaheavybur
denon
hi
sshoul
der
s.

Man:What
shappeni
ngher
e
Mzwakhe:Jamescl
eart
hisupiwi
llexpl
ainl
ater
Thabi
so
Thabi
so:Okaycheckt
hecoast
Me:Iknow
James:Sor
ry
Me:Iknow
James:Whoar
eyou

Itouchhi
swr i
standever
ythi
ngthathappenedto
hi
sf ami
lyrepl
aysinhi
smi ndhegoesdowncr yi
ng,
i
hughim.

Me:I
tsokay
James:Noi
tsnotokayt
het
hingst
heymakemedo
Me:I
tsovernowi
'
m her
ewehear
dyourcr
ies,
we
hear
dyourpl
eadsi
'
m her
etohel
pyou

Thisisbadt hewayhei
scr yi
ngandhol di
ngme
real
lytightshowshowhurtheis.Heloveshi
s
familysomuchandhei sheartbrokenhecoul
dn'
t
protectthem.

Me:Uhm i
tsokayiknowwheretheyareandi
'm
her
etohel
pyou,butthatal
ldependsonyou

Hecal
msdownandgat
herhi
msel
ftoget
her
.

Me:Hereputyournumbersdownitsveryimpor
tant
wetal
k.Don'tcr
yanymorepleaseyourcri
eshave
beenmakingmeveryverysi
ck

Hewr i
teshisnumber
sdownandsaveshi
scont
act
,
ical
lhim sohecanhavemynumbers.
James:Buthow
Me:Iseeandhearthi
ngsandtheseancest
orshave
notbeenhappywit
hthewayyouhavebeengoi ng
aboutthi
s,hewant
stocomethroughbutithi
nki
scar
edyouguysenough

Igrabmychequebookandcompensatehi
ma
hundredt
housandr
ands,t
hat'
smorethanenough.

Me:Looki'm sor
ryokaytaket
histal
ktomylawyer
andeveryt
hinghappeningwil
ldi
sappear
.Thankyou
foryourt
imeJamescal lme

Ifeelhugewei
ghtl
if
tedoffmyshoul
der
s,icanl
ook
forwardtot
henextt
hing.

"
Phi
ndi
le.
..Mama"

Whatdoeshewant
.
Mzwakhe:Youf
orgetsomet
hing
Me:Ahmyphonet
hankyousomuch

Henodsandsmilesokayiwal
kawayleavi
nghi
m
smil
ingli
kear
etard,
hehasaleftsi
dedi
mplewai
ta
minute.

Mzwakhe
Thankgoodnessnothi
nghappenedandnot
hing
wasfoundi'
m sti
lli
nthegame.

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:I'
m goi
ngtof
indt
hissonofbi
tchhewi
llwi
sh
heneverst
art
edt
hiswar
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Yeyihmm mf
ethu
Sakhi
le:Li
ndaniwasaski
ngmeaboutyou
Me:Hewi
llhavet
odealandwest
il
linvest
igat
ethat
Sakhi
le:Getherandiwon'
thavet
otel
lhi
m
Me:Youthr
eat
eni
ngmehol
donmybestf
ri
endi
s
t
hreat
eni
ngme

Wel
augh.

Me:Akekhor
ightl
omtanaaymanyouwouldthi
nk
shehassomesortofbackgr
oundi
nfor
mat
iononus
Sakhi
le:It
houghtaboutt
hatbutherr
elat
ionshi
p
wit
hThobani
Me:Yeah

Phi
ndi
lei
'
m comi
ngf
oryoubaby.
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06/
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24] :11

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupi
nanunusualpl
acei
tisf
reezi
ngcol
d
here.Igetupanddustmysel fwher eam i.Itr
yt o
speakbutnothingilookar ounditsal lf
oggy,this
mustbet heancestorsagai nican'tseeat hi
ng.But
whywoul dtheyputmei nsuchavul nerabl
est ate,
i
'mf reaki
ngoutandanxi ous.Idon'tknowwher ei'
m
goingbuticontinuewalking,unti
lireachacer tain
point.

Thegroundstart
sshakingilookt omyr i
ghtahuge
snakecominginfullf
orce.Ilooktomyl ef
tabig
gushofwateralsocomingi nspeed, whatdoido
hel
pmesomebodyican' tmovemyl egs.Wit
hina
spl
itsecondthesnakegrabsme, icovermyf ace
andscream nosoundiscomi ngout.

Igasp.Wher eam imyeyesar ebur ning, ibli

nka
fewtimesandf ull
yopent hem.Igetupdust i
ng
myselflookingar oundwow, iam blownawaysuch
abeautifulglist
eningblackri
ver.Itisbr eathtaki
ngi
haveneverseenanyt hi
ngl i
kethis,sti
lladmi ri
ngthe
placeihearf ootstepst
wool dladiesst andbef or
e
meandbow.

"
Nkosazane"
"
Wel
comet
oyourhome"

Excusememywhatnow.

"
Thisi
syourhomenkosazanet
hisi
swher
eyouwi
ll
f
indme"

Iwakeupgasping.
..I
'
m st
il
linbedisi
ghandgetup
togodri
nkwater.Whatam i
beingpuni
shedf
ornow.

Mzwakhe
I
tsoneoft
hosedayst
hewhol
ecr
ewi
sint
ownand
i
'
m notupfort
hat
.

Me:Ni
yit
hil
eimal
iyamingekengi
kwazi
ukugci
na
i
mal
iehot
shi
ni
Ndu:Howi
she
Sakhi
le:Pr
ett
ymessedupidoubthewi
llt
ellme
anyt
hing
Me:I
mal
iyamiuyi
thol
il
eyi
nina
Sakhi
le:Af
ewbr
okenr
ibsher
eandt
her
e
Thabiso:Sakhi
let
ellhi
m wher
ehi
smoneyi
sat
engazeekushaye
Sakhi
le:Mzwakheashayemi
nat
hatwi
llbet
heday
Set
hu:Goodmor
ningever
yone
Them:Mommy

Nozist
andsbymyl
egsandt
il
tsherheadsmi
li
ng.

Thobani
:Hl
ukananokuni
kai
nganeyamiuchocol
ate

Whathedoesn'
tknowwon'
thur
thi
mri
ght
,hi
s
phoner
ingshesmiles.
Thobani:Myoneandonl ybathini
..
.Apr i
vat ething
orjustasection,intoengizoyenzaukukni kaleli
el
ingasemgwaqeni .Butmyboysl i
ketosi tthere,
mxm leziyi
mf enelezizongibangeleiscefe.Naleli
el
unual i
nanki nganj enxiuyadakwakant iwaa
nomaungangi sabisa,ngekengiyenzeleyont oawu
mossuyangi thandanj esikhonalesosdididisenzela
l
amakhehl alawaukudl a
Ndu:Thobanikodwa
Me:Avedel
ela
Thobani
:Okayawukahl
esho.
..Nangi
hlahl
ela
amehlo
Me:Whoyout
alki
ngt
o
Set
hu:Thobaniuzongi
nikal
eyont
o
Thobani:Awumengicabangaukut
hukhul
umangan
ohthat'
swhyshe'scall
ingmeinamhl
anyeyi
niokay
okaynevermind

Hel
aughs.
Thobani
:Wenzanngeyi12nevermindkhonausi
s
ocel
aukusebenzi
sai
taful
alenuwenza,bi
rt
hdayto
you
Li
nda:Asi
funi

Wel
aughil
eavet
hem wi
tht
hei
rmadness.

Phi
ndi
le
Mybest i
esbi r
thdayiscomingupi'm soexcit
ed.I
plannedat ri
pforustotheSeychell
es,thiswil
lbea
welldeservedbreakforher.Butf
ir
stwegott ostar
t
thepartyatthechisanyama, myphoner i
ngsa
Mzwakhef l
ashesont hescreenwit
hahear tnextt
o
i
thaibo.

Mzwakhe:Hel
lohel
l
o
Me:Hi
Mzwakhe:I
'
m sur
eyousawmynumber
Me:Andhowdi
dyournumberr
eachmyphone
Mzwakhe:That
'sast
oryf
oranot
herdaycanit
ake
youout
Me:Why?
Mzwakhe:Don'
tmakemebegnowcauseiwon'
t
Me:Okay

Ihungupwhodoeshet
hinkhei
s,hecal
lsmeagai
n.

Mzwakhe:Okayokayit
hinkyourr
eal
lybeaut
if
ul
andiwouldl
ovetogett
oknowyoumor e
Me:Nodi
dthatki
llyouwheni
sthef
uner
al
Mzwakhe:Canipi
ckyouupt
odayorwheneveryou
f
ree
Me:Tomor
rowi
sfi
neican'
tdot
oday
Mzwakhe:Ngi
yabongamommyj ustl
etmeknow
whenandwhereayungi
chazi
leshameaykancane
f
uth
Ichuckl
e.

Me:Okaybye

Ihungupi
mmedi
atel
yandcal
lNonhl
e

Nonhl
e:Whatwhatkhul
umaphel
a
Me:Bi
tchigotadat
ebr
ingyourassoverher
eri
ght
now
Nonhl
e:Wai
twho,
when,
wher
e,how
Me:Yourboyf
ri
ends

Wescr
eam andl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Bi
tchsengi
laphongi
yangenamanj
e
Me:Wozabo
Iam soner
vousyetsoexci
ted.

Sakhi
le
Iwantthi
stowor koutformyboyr eall
ybad.He
hasn'
tbeenpayingatt
ent i
ontoourconver sati
on,he
i
sjustsmil
ingandgiggling.Nhlakaniphowasgi vi
ng
usanupdate,khumbulaniisli
vidiftheycouldn'
tnail
usbackthantheyneverwi l
l.

Nhl
aka:Baf
ethuubanil
oyaqueen
Thabi
so:Ngokwazi
kwet
huumnganikaThobani

Hestopswhat
everhi
sdoi
ngonhi
sphoneand
l
ooksathi
m.

Me:Besengi
thukeni
Nhl
aka:oZamaniyi
nikodwausungazeubophe
i
ntokazienhl
ekanj
eunemal
iyonkesi
nemal
iyonke
Set
hu:Sengi
yahambake
Thobani:Ut
hiiphumakumi
nanomaungangasho
uyazivelei
phumakumina
Set
hu:Awukahl
e
Thobani
:Ngi
yakut
handayezwa

Theworstpeopletodat
eint hi
sf amil
yisThobani
,
Mzwakhe,Lindaniandl
indokuhle.Yourspi
ri
twil
l
neverbeatpeace.

Thobani
:Hambakeungazeukhal
isei
nganeyami
Me:Lomj
it
alona

Wel
augh.

Nhlaka:Manj
eskhul
uwhoi
sthatbabeumaze
kanjan
Me:Wej
ustwantt
oknowhow
Thobani
:Ubanil
oyo
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Thobani
:Aveni
zit
handai
yindaba
Mzwakhe:Uyi
ninaye
Thobani
:Int
ombiyami
Mzwakhe:kwakubiyazibesengi
qal
eukumt
handa
Thobani
:Ngi
kuf
isel
ainhl
anhl
a
Linda:Chamelengi
mbonel
osi
sheee
sesiyasongel
anamanj
e
Me:Okayanyoneknowst
hest
orybet
weenJames
andi
darkyl
ethu
Mzwakhe:Sombuzamasef
iki
le
Thobani
:Haibondodaangi
kusabinoma
ungangi
bukakanjal
o

Mzwakhe
I
ftheywer
edat
ingshewoul
dn'
thaveagr
eedl
ago
onadat
ewi
thme,
bef
oreisl
eepimustcal
lher
.

Sakhi
le:WeeJamesonZul
u

Hef
oldshi
sar
msgi
vingusabor
edl
ook.

Sakhil
e:Sonkesi
funaukwaziyi
nil
eebi
yenzeka
esbhedlel
a
James:Mayel
ana
Me:Don'
tmakemebeatt
hecr
apoutofyou
James:Ikwenzephelauvinj
weyiniayi
hlangenenani
l
entoeyenzeki
le.Nazii
zinganezi
ngij
wayelakabi
angi
yenauntangawenu
Thabi
so:Hai
boJames

Hecl
ickshi
stongueandl
eaves.

Me:Whatt
hef
uck
Thel
iftopensithoughtit
oldt
hisboyt
ofocuson
hi
sstudies,t
heyjumponhi m.

Li
ndo:Okayokayni
yangi
li
mazaphel
a..Ahyi
ni
wena
Nt
ando:Nt
wana
Me:Ubekwayi
nil
a
Li
ndo:Awusaj
abul
inakancaneut
hukungi
khohl
isa

Hemakesacal
l.

Li
ndo:Sengi
buyil
engi
kul
andeniniayangi
nendaba
phel
aminanalokhoahkant
iuzongi
dakel
watsek

Hehungsupt
hephoner
ingsagai
n.

Li
ndo:Ungaphi
ndeungi
khul
umi
senawekanj
alo
soxabanaSi
ndi
swai
zwanj
eusuwabauSi
ndi
swa

Hel
aughscr
azi
nessr
unsi
nthef
ami
ly.

Li
ndo:Il
oveyout
oobye.
..Nenzaningeweekend
Me:Whyar
eyouher
e
Li
ndo:Awukahl
ewenaphel
ani
yazal
wai
ngakho
ngi
la
Sakhi
le:Hai
boheekombe

It
otal
lyfor
gotourbi
rt
hdayi
scomi
ngupt
his
weekend.

Me:Umbuzout
hiuf
unanil
a
Li
ndo:OhGodubhut
ionj
anongajabul
eliukut
h
ubhut
iwakheomuhl
eubuyi
leaysuka

Ist
il
lwantt
oknowwhyhei
sback.
[
06/
06,
10:
24] :12

Phi
ndi
le
Iownadancest udioidancefrom t
imetotimemy
escapef rom myr eali
ty.Myheartl
edmeher etoday
iwasf eelingver yoverwhelmedandanxious.Ikept
thinki
ngaboutt hedr eamsJamesandMzwakhe, i
feelli
kecancel ingbutpoort hi
ngwillbe
disappointed.I'm heretoblowofsomest eam
maybeiwi l
lfeelbetter.

Nonhleenter
swi t
hSethu,Thobani
'
sbabymamawe
onlyfr
iendsbecauseofherman.Shehasf ri
endsof
herownbutThobanidoesn'twantthem ar
oundher.
Certai
nsomethingshappenedandshehadt oleave
them.

Me:Ngi
yaphi
la
Sethu:I'
m okaybabeskadengakugci
nat
hankyou
forincl
udingme
Me:Anytimesi
ssoyout
oldhi
m wegoi
ngt
othe
Seychel
les
Sethu:Akadel
elekanj
ekul
eynsukuangi
kwazi
nokuphefumula
Me:Wel
ikei
ntheweehour
swhyungamt
shel
il
e
Nonhle:Andiam notmi
ssi
ngtheSeychel
les
becauseofThobani,
sogi
rlwor
kyourmagi c
Me:Nozihasthr
eegrandmot
her
'sandwegoi
ng
shoppi
ngaft
erthi
sineedtodomyhair
Them:Okwesi
ngaki
Nonhl
e:Zi
zoshai
zinwel
ezakhouzokhal
a
ngi
kut
shel
e

I'
m gett
inganewweavehawut
heymustl
eaveme
alone.

Mzwakhe
Myner veski
ckinasi'
m goingt
ofetchPhindil
e.I
am neverthi
snervousbutiwassuperexcit
ed,ical
l
her
.

Me:Hey
Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Don'
ttel
lmeyoubai
li
ngoutonme
Phi
ndi
le:Nonotatal
lij
ustdon'
tfeelgood
Me:Woul
dyoubekeenf
orsomet
hingi
ndoor
s
Phi
ndi
le:Iwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hat
Me:Okayt
ime
Phi
ndi
le:I
'mreadyandwaiti
nginiuyangi
dakelwa
l
oyongit
heakabuyeother
wiseangimkhulumisi
Me:Ohokayi
'
m onmyway

ShehungsupohMzwakhebhenguwhatdoyou
knowaboutdat
ing.

Sakhi
le
I'
m atpeacewhenMzwakhei
sn'
tar
ound,
ihopehe
doesn'
tmessup.

Me:Ohani
zimengekhouMzwakhe
Thobani
:"Ngi
khonanj
emi
na"

Hei
sfuckinghisbabymamahowisheherewit
h
me,
theli
ftopensilookupoht
hedevi
list
est
ingme.

Me:Wenzanl
ana
Pear
l:Ohshutup
Me:Ut
hini
Li
ndo:Yoyobr
ocal
m down
Me:uMzwakheakekhoandangekeuzeuhl
alel
a
Pear
l:Shamewhatyougoi
ngt
odoabouti
tshoot
meagain

Shel
aughs.
Li
ndo:Sakhi
le.
.Sakhi
le
Pear
l:Angi
yindawo

Myi
nsi
desar
eboi
li
ng.

Me:Sokesbonesusai
zandl
azakhokumi
na
Li
ndo:Pear
ljustgogo

Phi
ndi
le
Hewassohappywhenhecal ledme.Ifeelsooutof
i
tipackedanoverni
ghtbag,j
usti
ncaseigetreal
ly
bad.Iseehiscarmaki
ngit
swayupt heroad,he
stopsinf
rontofmeandstepsout
.

Mzwakhe:Mommymanj
eiyi
cat
hul
o

Ishr
ug,
hechuckl
es.Heopenst
hedoorf
ormeiget
i
n.

Mzwakhe:Ukahl
e..Okay

Hest
art
sthecaranddr
ivesofif
allasl
eep.

Mzwakhe
Okayt hi
si soneweir
ddat esheisl
it
erall
ysleepi
ng
andi don'tknowwhattodo.I'mthi
nkingabout
taki
nghert othepenthouseorahotel,idon'
twant
thoseidiotsknowi
ngherorbei nanyofmy
business.Iam goi
ngt otr
yandkeepi tpri
vatedon'
t
knowhowican.

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Sheshoot
shereyesopen.
Phi
ndi
le:Yoh

Sheyawnst
hansi
tspr
oper
ly.

Phindi
le:Youtaki
ngmet
oahot
elwowiai
n'tt
he
hoesyoubef ucki
ng

Ichuckl
e.

Phi
ndi
le:Let
'ssetaf
ewt
hingsst
rai
ghtyourphone

Ihandi
ttoher
.

Phindil
e:Shouldieverstartmyt
hingsandf orsome
reason,ican'
tcalm downoryoucan' tcal
m me
down.Cal lt
hisnumberhervoicewillbeableto
calm medownandiwi llsaywhat
everineedt osay
Me:Okay
Phi
ndil
e:Assesmysituat
ionf
ir
st,don'
trunawayor
bescar
editwil
lei
therhurtmeorangerme
Me:Icandot
hat
Phi
ndi
le:Iei
therhi
ss,
chantorf
reeze
Me:Ohhee

Sheopenst
hedoor
.

Phi
ndi
le:Asambekenumzane

Wow.

Phi
ndi
le
Ihadanotherepi
sodewhenhecameoutofthe
showernaked.Myjawdroppedandt
heancest
ors
rui
nedthemoment .

Me:Iam t
otal
lysor
ry
Mzwakhe:I
tsokay
Me:Icanl
eavei
f
Mzwakhe:Whatawuyi
ndawo

Hesmil
esshowinghislef
tsidedimpl
eohmy,he
l
ookssocuteandexactl
yli
kethemani nmy
dr
eamsthatoneshoutsatmeal lt
heti
me.

Voi
ce:I
twasn'
tsupposedt
ogodownl i
ket
hisbut
wecannotdeci
deondesti
nynorchangei
t.

Iseehi
shandwavi
ngatme.

Mzwakhe:I
sithappeni
ngagai
n
Me:Noi
'
mjustl
ooki
ngatyoursexyhandsomesel
f
Mzwakhe:Ohr
eal
ly

.
..
..
..Seegr
oup.
Sakhi
le
Iwil
lnotbetri
edbyanobodyidon' tunderst
and
whythisgi
rlgett
hefactthat.Mzwakhedoesn't
wanthersheissomethingthathecan'tgetr
idof,
thel
if
topensshefreezeswhensheseesus.

Thabi
so:Namanj
eusasi
saba
Si
ndi
:Sani
bonani
Me:Wi
fey

Shesmi
les.

Li
ndo:"
Excusemegetyourassi
nher
ehai
bo"
Si
ndi:Avengizokuphoxanjal
oakaphel
ingi
shot
wo
minutesusuyangibampel
a
Li
ndo:"Ngi
yaxol
isa"
Li
nda:Waaa
Wel
augh.

Thabi
so:uMzwakheuphi

Her
ecomest
roubl
et heykeepqui
eti
'
m al
sonot
goi
ngt
osayanyt
hing.

Li
nda:Sakhi
le
Me:Hai
boni
mbekekumi
nayi
niayf
uckyouman
Thobani
:Sohedi
dit

Ir
emai
nqui
et.

Thobani
:Uyajwayel
auMzwakhekodwaat
hi
ngi
thul
efuth
Iwon'tl
etanyt
hingcomeinbetweenthem i
ncludi
ng
Mzwakhehi msel
f.Thi
sthi
ngisgoingtot
urnintoa
rel
ati
onshi
p.

Me:I
m goi
ngt
obedl
aterbi
tches
[
06/
06,
10:
24] :13

Mzwakhe
Iar
ri
vehomeheadst rai
ghtt
omyr oom andj
umpon
mybed.Ithi
nkihavekil
ledt
hepoorgir
lohman
whataboutt
hefutur
eshehad,herfami
ly.

Me:Fuck

Phi
ndi
le
Itur
ntoanempt ybedsidemaybeheisi
nthe
showerorhelef
t.Igetupandcheckt
hebathr
oom
empty,notasi
nglesignshowi
ngsomeonewas
herear
eyoukiddingme.
Me:Unbel
ievabl
e

Igr
abmyphoneandcal
lNonhl
e.

Nonhl
e:Hel
lo

She'
sst
il
lsl
eepi
ng.

Me:Canyoucomeandf
etchme
Nonhl
e:Okay
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Ar
eyoucr
yingPhi
ndi
lewhati
sgoi
ngon
Me:I
'
minahot
elandineedyout
ocomeandf
etch
me

Ihungupandcuddl
ewi
tht
heduvett
hancr
y.
Sakhi
le
I'
m pret
tyshockedseeinghim here,idon'
tknow
whethertolaughathi
m orfeelsorryforhim.
Mzwakhemanishoul d'vehavepr eppedhim,
Thobanijoi
nsusandl aughs.Ican'thelpbutl
augh
alsowhatiswr ongwi
ththisboy.

Thobani
:Yeyi
Me:Lemf
enel
e

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Angazingempel
auhl
ekaningobanonke
ni
yasazii
simosami
Me:Ohmygoodnessyoufucki
ngi
diotohmyi
coul
dpunchyour
ightnow
Li
nda:Yi
nikwenzenj
an
Me:Dammi
tman
Mzwakhe:Ever
ythi
ngcamebackifel
tdi
sgust
ed
anddi
sappoint
ed,ipani
ckedandl
eft

Thobanidi
esi
nlaught
er.

Si
ndi
:Sani
bonani
Me:Wi
fey
Li
ndo:Mzwakhe

Hel
aughs.

Li
ndo:Uyenzel
enil
ent
ooyenzi
lenaweThobani
uyambukaenzaudoti
Thobani
:Mm hm ungangi
fakiangazil
uth
Li
ndo:Whatar
etheysayi
ng
Me:I
sthatt
hebi
rt
hmar
k
Si
ndi
:Mmm t
her
e'sal
otweneedt
otel
lyou
Li
ndo:Butt
hatcoul
donl
ymeanonet
hing
Me:Ahh

Thequeenhasbeenf
ound.

Phi
ndi
le
Andl
iket
hatiwaspl
ayed.

Sam:Iwi
llt
aket
hisandyout
aket
hat
Me:Idon'
twantanyt
hingext
ravagant
Sam:Evensogugei
tup
Me:Fi
nel
et'
saddonemi
rr
ort
abl
e
Sam:Twoi
'
mli
steni
ng
Me:Dowehavef
lower
s
Nonhl
e:Theywi
llar
ri
veont
hedayof
Me:Let
shopei
twon'
tbet
oohumi
d
Sam:Youhungr
yshemadef
ood
Me:Yest
hankyou
Sam:Manj
eni
hambani
ni
Me:Sundayt
hreeni
ght
s

Myphonebeeps.

Me:Khet
hosaysourdr
essesar
eready
Nonhl
e:Noi
ce
Me:Doineedt
osi
ng
Nonhl
e:Obvi
ousl
y
Me:Okayit
hinkweset
Nonhl
e:Samkel
o
Sam:Yebobabykul
ethe

ThobaniDl
adl
a
Meet
ingwi
thmyst
affwegotaheavyweekend
uponus,
weneedt
obepr
epar
edi
nal
laspect
s.

Me:Tal
ktome
Noxy:It
hinkweneedt
ocl
oseandl
eti
tbeapr
ivat
e
event
Me:Iwast
hinki
ngt
hat

Ihavet
obement
all
ypr
epar
ed.

Si
pho:Sopi
sset
ti
ngupuf
unauMl
a
Me:She'
sjoki
ngr
ight
Noxy:uMl
aezazi
sakanj
e
Si
pho:Masi
thiuphi
ndi
leomf
unayouzoza

Theylaughi
tssohardget
ti
nghimtoplayforme,
becauseofhi
segoheforget
swemadehi m.How
muchmor ewhenisayit
sforsomebodyel
se.
Me:Awumcel eesaleesenzayonkel
endawo
kungabii
sideel
iyioneeli
hle
Si
pho:Shepai
dforanopenbar
Me:Umunt
uusazodakwal
a
Si
pho:Andt
heboys
Me:Ongi
yekengal
abo
Noxy:Ithi
nkthat
'sabouti
twehaveever
ythi
ng
undercontr
ol

Bet
terbebecauseshewi
llsl
aught
erourheadsof
.
[
06/
06,
10:
25] :14

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
e:Yazi
ndri
nki
ngisnotgoi
ngtosolve
anythi
ngsostopori
'm goi
ngtopunchyouinyour
face
Me:Whyyoubei
ngmeanwhati
f
Sakhi
le:Nowhati
fher
eyoudon'
tevenknow
akusi
yoi
nganeyedl
ozil
eya
Me:Yourpoi
nti
s
Sakhi
le:Mypointi
syoudon'
tknowandyou
snubbedthatgi
rlf
ornor
eason

Imeanili
keherbutt
histhi
ngisaprobl
em f
orme.
Theycomebackmakingalotofnoi
secan'
tihavea
fewsecondst
omyself.

Me:Awul
ethei
nyamal
auyekeukubangaumsi
ndo
Li
nda:Imakear
ewegoi ngsomehoesaround.I
wanttomakesureshouldibr
ingZoeyornot
Thabi
so:WeLindaningi
cel
aukuphuzangokut
hul
a
ngi
shoekhonauOlwethuangi
sfunii
scef
e
Li
nda:Mzwakheukahl
e
Sakhi
le:Cel
ani
myekebandl
a
Thobani
:Ngekeni
ngi
vusel
eumsangano
Hegr
absmyphoneandmakesacal
l,ishoul
dputa
pi
nonmyphonenowthesei
diot
sar
enosy.

Thobani
:Weeml
ainki
ngayakhoi
kuphimf
ethu
Ml
a:I
nki
ngayamingi
busyandf
uthini
namanga
Thobani
:Okay
Ml
a:Yi
ndabuvi
kangaye
Thobani
:Wemlacelaungangi
dakel
wamuf onele
wenakeuzozwaukuthngi
thi
niayfokof
..Thankyou
Me:Youbookedml
aforus
Thobani
:Ni
shi
loyi
niukut
hni
yeza
Sakhil
e:Wel
lwhateveryouhavegoi
ngonwi
llhave
tostopwearr
ive
Thobani
:That
'snotgoi
ngt
ohappen
Thabi
so:Wenaengat
husuyaj
wayel
aengat
hmel
e
uphi
ndel
elaohl
alakhona

Whati
swr
ongwi
thhi
misset
huact
ingupagai
n.
Me:Baf
ougr
and
Thobani:Okusal
ayoangi
nendabasohere'
swhat'
s
goingtohappen,yougoi
ngtosharet
hespacewith
theladi
es.Thecli
entpai
dextr
aforuMlaandan
openbar
Me:Whyyoubei
ngsosecr
eti
ve
Thobani
:Sowegoi
ngt
ohaveapr
ivat
eevent
Li
nda:Bahl
ekuqal
abengahl
alanat
hiumabebahl
e
Thobani
:Whoi
sgoi
ngt
opayt
orentoutt
hewhol
e
pl
ace
Me:Ngobaukhul
umakakhul
uuwenangi
yadl
ala

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Ijustar
ri
vedhomeandi'
m superexhaust
ed.Ifeel
l
ikeadirty,
cheaponeni
ghtst
and,todayi
sgoingto
beal
ongdayf
orme.

Ma:Usukhul
umi
lenoMxol
isi
Me:AveekhathazauMxomasengi
yenzi
lel
ent
o
ebeyi
funa.Ngi
zomfonel
a
Ma:Uf
unanivel
e
Me:I
yinganezakhe,
iskol
e,ut
hol
enomuziomusha
Ma:I
mhl
uli
lei
homeschool
ing
Me:kudal
angimt shel
aukuthi
zinganezidinga
i
ndawoehlel
eki.Onemi nut
euseSingapore,next
minut
euseBelgium zi
thi
nikei
zingane
Ma:Manj
ephoubunqabel
ani
Me:Ngobangi
funaubhut
iwamiebuye

Ishoutandstorm of
f.Howdi diletthi
shappen,why
didiall
owittohappen.If
eltsuchadeep
connecti
onwi t
hhim,ournightwasf il
ledwi
thlove,
passionandsomuchpl easure.Ithoughtweboth
enjoyedit
,butwhoam ikidding.Asexymanl i
ke
t
hatpr
obabl
yahugef
uckboy.

Mzwakhe
Isurvi
vedal otofthi
ngsbutthi
sican't
.Ireall
ycan't
iwannabewi t
hthisgir
lsobad,i
tsdri
vingmecr azy.
Thisalwayshappensr i
ghtonmybirthday,iheart
he
personisleptwit
hdied.It
sonlyamat t
eroftime
beforeshediesalso.

Me:What
"
Canyoucomedownpl
ease.
.Pl
ease"
Me:Whati
sthi
snow
Pear
l:If
igur
ediwon'
tbei
ncl
udedi
nyourbi
rt
hday
pl
anssosurpri
se

Cut
egest
ureshesetupandi
ndoorpi
cni
c.

Me:Youexpectmet
osi
tdownknowi
nghowver
y
t
alliam
Pearl
:St
opyounott
hatt
allyoucansi
tont
hecouch
keifi
tsgoi
ngt
obeaproblem

Isi
gh.

Me:Yohmf
aziuzazel
aphil
ezi
nto

She'
stheonlyonewhohasn'tdi
edsomaybei
shoul
djustacceptt
hatshewil
lfor
everbemy
headache.

Pear
l:Foryou
Me:Whendi
dyoudot
his
Pearl
:Isawyoul
ooki
ngatt
hem t
hanwentt
ogoget
them
Me:Ncoooht
hankyou
It
ryt
hesneaker
son.

Me:Aynozi
yakhi
phaiwi
llweart
hem onmy
bi
rt
hdayt
hankyou

Phi
ndi
le
Idi
dn'
tthi
nkanyonewoul
dfi
ndmebuttheydi
d.I
wasn'
tevenangr
yitwast
heancest
orswhowere
angr
y.

Nonhl
e:Hmm si
yamt
hol
ama
Thobani
:Phi
ndi
lemommy
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
ekodwadoyouknowhowwor
ri
ed
wewere
Thobani
:Don'
tlethi
m havethi
spoweroveryou
don'
tdothi
stoyoursel
f,youbi
ggert
hanthat
Nonhl
e:Bukamanj
euzi
li
mazi
le
Sam:Nonhl
elet
'st
akeherbackhomebef
ore
somet
hingel
sehappens

Igeti
nt hecarandsitwit
hmykneesup.Iam not
eveni
nl ovewit
hthisguy,buthedi
dmewr ongwhy
coul
dn'thesti
ckitout.

Nonhl
e:Phindi
l
e..AhhThobaningi
zomshaya
l
oyamubizanxi

Mzwakhe
Iwasfeel
ingal otbet
tert
hankstot
hedemonpear
l
butmyheartisstil
lonedge.Igr
abmyphoneand
l
ookatherpictures.

Sakhi
le:Shame
Me:Awukahl
e
Sakhi
le:Yi
nil
efunwauThobani
Me:Kwenzenj
an
Sakhi
le:Heistr
yingt
olocat
esomeone.
.Heyyeah
youswitchedonthemonit
ors,
hai
bo

Hest
andsonhi
sfeet
.

Sakhil
e:Yousurewhathappenedhmm okayokay
sureiwil
ltur
nthem ofsho
Me:Yi
nii
nki
nga
Sakhi
le:I
nki
ngauwena
Me:Whatdi
didonow
Sakhi
le:Uyangi
cika
Me:Sakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Aysuka

Il
aughwhatdi
didonowiwasher
ethewhol
eday
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06,
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Mzwakhe
Ithoughtaboutcal
li
ngherbutthanshemi ghtkil
l
met hroughthephone.Il
aughoutloudthatwasnot
supposedtohappen, t
heylookatme.Ihaven't
heardanythi
ngaboutadyingperson,i
'mlosingmy
mindherpeople.Sethuenter
swithalotof
shoppingbags.

Set
hu:Si
ndi
swa
Si
ndi
:Hey
Set
hu:Idi
dn'
tknowyouguyswer
eher
e
Si
ndi
:Iseeoft
ospendi
nghi
smoney
Sethu:Whynothoneyyazikwakuhl
eukut
hni
khona.
Thobanidoyouthi
nk

Hel
ooksatherwi
thar
eal
lybadst
inkeye.

Sethu:Acoupl
eoffr
iendsofminearegoi
ngona
tr
ip,canii
nvi
teyouguystocomeifshe'
sokaywi
th
Ol
wet
hu:Ohwewoul
dn'
twantt
oimpose
Set
hu:Pl
easei
tsgoi
ngt
obef
un
Sindi
:Clear
lyi
fyougoi
ngt
hatmeansyouhavenew
fr
iends
Ol
wet
hu:Andhel
ovest
hem
Si
ndi
:Don
Thabi
so:Hai
bo

Wel
augh.

Me:Usukeekuphil
oSi
ndi
swal
okhul
umakanj
e

Shelooksdownshehasalwaysbeenshyaroundus.
Ter
ri
fiedofusbutweloveher
,sheonl
yrel
axes
whenhermani sar
ound.

Thabi
so:Aykul
ungi
leni
ngahamba
Ol
wet
hu:Set
huil
oveyourf
ri
ends
Thobani
:Ni
hambanganngasi
phii
skhat
hi
Set
hu:Shehi
redanh1idon'
tknow4
Thobani
:Mzwakhecel
aungi
bol
ekai
bhanoyil
akho4
wanini
Set
hu:I
nthemor
ning
Thobani
:Ini
udaki
wewhati
fiwantt
ofuckyouand
yougone
Sethu:Shehast
ochecki
nandf
etcht
hekeyst
othe
house
Thobani
:Mzwakhe
Me:Yookay

Ihavenochoi
ce.

Me:Ni
yakuphi
Set
hu:Seychel
les
Me:Haaanallexpensespai
dtr
ipubanil
oyo
mnganiwakhoungipheyena
Set
hu:Obvi
ousl
yihavet
opayf
ort
hem now
Ol
wet
hu:Don'
twor
rywecanpr
ovi
def
orourown
Thobani
:Okayl
etsgoandshowmewhat
sont
hose
shoppi
ngbags
Ol
wet
hu:Si
ndi
Si
ndi
:Ri
ghtbehi
ndyou

Sakhi
le
Iseri
ousl
ycannotst
andMzwakheandthi
spear
l
ndini
.Iwi
shshecanburni
nhel
lorPhi
ndil
ecomes
back.

Sma:Soyoui
nvi
ti
ngmet
omor
rowf
oryourbi
rt
hday
par
ty
Me:ifyouwantt
odosomet
hingf
orme,youcan
dur
ingthedayot
hert
hant
hatnoihavenot
hing
pl
anned
Sma:Youcanj
ustsayno
Me:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oletmef
uckyou

Shekeepsqui
et.

Me:Wat
hul
aumunt
u

Myphoner
ings.

Me:St
handwasam
Thobani
:Cel
auFi
vet
housand
Me:Wanimanj
e
Thobani
:Ngenzel
ani
nanj
alol
ethauf
ivet
housand
Me:Hai
boThobani
Thobani
:Uyangi
nikanomaniphi
hli
zanimanj
e
ni
funaukungi
qhathanoPhi
ndil
e
Me:Canyoubel
ievet
hisi
diot
Thobani
:Umt
wanawedl
oziSakhi
lesoakul
ulaukut
h
kwenzekenomayi
ni
Me:Hei
sgoi
ngt
oregr
eti
tlomubi
za
Thobani
:Cel
auf
ivet
housandke
Me:Owani
Thobani
:Ni
zobonakusasai
tisl
ooki
ngbombi
n
her
e
Me:Canicomekhonal
eli
demonil
aMzwakhe
Thobani
:Sol
ongyouwon'
tcauset
roubl
e

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasatot
alwreckiapologi
zedtomom andshe
for
gaveme.Iam alotcalmernow.

Ma:Uzol
enzani
nii
khekhe
Me:Hlampekusasanomangi zosal
esengi
li
thenga,
uThobaniusangi
bizi
lengi
sayakuyena

Iar
ri
veandal
readyt
hevenuei
slooki
ngbeaut
if
ul,
i
l
ovewhatmyt
eam hasdone.

Me:Samkel
o
Sam:I
zimbal
izof
ikakusasaThobanipl
easet
ake
car
eofmyf l
ower
s
Thobani
:Hai
bongi
hlanganaphinezi
mbal
imi
na
Mommy
Me:Heyyoucal
ledme
Thobani
:Come
Me:Samkel
ongi
yabuyakuwena

Weheadt
othebackandoutt
otheki
tchen.

Thobani:Seeiknewt hiswoul
dcheerup,ihave
deposi
tedfivethousandinyourbankaccount,
31i
s
thenumbert ol
ookf orwardt
o.Ifkukhona
okushodayoungasabi
"
Sengi
khona"

Thobani
:LonauSakhi
le
Sakhil
e:Chaungangi
bukikanj
alongobanayel
o
ubestfr
iend

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le
If
eeli
nti
midat
edherbeaut
yisonanot
herl
evel
.

Phi
ndi
le:UyakwaziukubhakaSakhi
le
Me:Notr
eal
lymommybuti
'
m happyt
otr
yitout
Phi
ndi
le:Okay

Shesmilesandi
mmedi at
elyif
eell
ikefai
nti
ng.We
werebakingmorel
ikeshe'
sdoingallt
heworkand
i
m helpi
ngher.
Thobani
:Akuset
shenzwebo
Phindi
le:Becauseyouwi
llmakeami
stakeher
ea
scale

Neverunder
esti
matethi
sindust
ryshegotme
cracki
ngmybrain.Gr
ams,cups,t
hreequar
ter
sofa
cupwhatthefuckist
hat,
150mlyoh.

Me:I
yint
ozakhovel
elezi
Phi
ndi
le:Il
ovet
obakewheneverigetachancet
o
Me:Ni
cewhatel
seyoudo
Phi
ndi
le:Eventpl
anni
ng
Me:Yousetupi
nther
e
Phindi
le:Myt
eam didandi
'
m happywithever
ythi
ng,
ihopewhoeverwi
llbeshar
ingt
heplacebrags

Iwi
lldar
enotment
ioni
tisus.Ihel
pput
ti
ngt
he
muf f
int
raysi
ntheoven.I
tsmell
slovelyal
readyi
underst
andMzwakhewhoeverhisheartdesi
res,
thatper
sondiesri
ghtonhi
sbir
thday.Butshecan't
diewhatwil
lbecomeofhim.

Phi
ndi
le
Sakhil
eisaf
unnychapandthewayhesays
mommyahhmycoochi emel
ts.Don'
ttel
lMzwakhe
thoughhewi
llsl
aught
erme.

Sakhi
le:Manj
emommy

Myphoner
ings,
wel
augh.

Me:Heybaby
Nonhl
e:Gi
rl
Me:Yi
ni
Nonhl
e:Osi
stazbayakhul
umaphel
ayi
ndabbona
bengayieSeychel
les
Me:Nakhoke
Nonhl
e:I
tsnotl
iket
heybei
ngexcl
uded
Me:KodwaNonhl engashongathafteri
bir
thdayno.
I'
m planni
ngat ri
pisai
dwi l
lbepayingforthehouse
only,
everyoneagreedandwashappynow
sekunenkinga.Sethui
sinvi
tedbecauseofThobani
Nonhl
e:Usi
qhat
hanabant
u
Me:Thosear
enotmyf r
iendsl
ett
hem t
alk,
idon'
t
havet
odoshitf
oranybody.
Nonhl
e:Theyf
eel
ent
it
ledoncomi
ng

Theyshouldhavetoldmet opl
anat r
ipforever
yone
whichididbutiai
n'tpayi
ngfornobody.Iam
comfort
ablebutnor i
ch.

Theovenbuzzes,
iputt
hecal
lonspeaker
.
Nonhl
e:Wenzanl
apho
Me:Fucki
ng
Nonhl
e:YouwantMzwakhet
oki
llyou
Me:Ifiseet
hatmananywher
eiam goi
ngt
ocuthi
s
bal
ls

Sakhi
lel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Hef
orgi
venr
ight
Me:Sti
llt
hinki
ngaboutitwowthesecameout
beaut
if
ulgirll
etsseeeachot
hertomorr
ow,
howis
thedr
ess
Nonhl
e:Ut
heSamkel
ouzongi
val
elaendl
ini
,wenzan
l
apho
Me:NgenzaamakhekhenoSakhi
lei
nsi
zwa
yakwaNdl
ovu
Nonhl
e:AwGat
sheni
,boyabenyat
hi
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Myl
oveihavet
ogoihaveal
ongni
ghtahead
ofme
[
06/
06,
10:
25] :16

Mzwakhe
Happybirt
hdaytomewher ei smyboot hangto
j
umpupanddownmybed.That '
showheal ways
wakesmeuponourspeci al day,igr
abmyphone
andbrowsethroughsocials.Icomeacr oss
Sakhi
le'
spostiplaythevideot hechisanyamal ooks
gl
amedup, whoisthisladyhei sdancingwi thiget
upandheaddownst air
s.

Me:Ubanil
odansanoSakhi
lekanj
e
Ol
wet
hu:Happybi
rt
hdaymyAngel
Them:Angel

Theycr
acki
nlaught
er.
Li
nda:Thati
sal
it
tl
efarf
etched
Thabiso:MrsThabi
sonobaby.
.Happybi
rt
hday
thoughsti
lll
ooki
nghandsomeasever
Li
nda:UphiuSakhi
le

Thel
iftopenst
heybot
hent
er,
hej
umpsonmyback
andscreamsinmyear.

Sakhil
e:Okayokayakukuhl
ekanj
eyouguysare
l
it
erall
ygoingtobeblownaway.Thecakesar
ethe
bestpart
Thobani
:Man
Me:Youdr
unk

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Ubanil
osi
siodansanaye
Sakhi
le:I
labant
uesobesi
hlezi
nabo
Me:Whydi
dyoul
eaveme
Sakhi
le:Angi
hlal
inamademonimi
na
Thobani
:I'
m goingtosleep..Kodwankosiyami
hel
loyaPhindi
le,nam angisazingenzenj
anokay.
Sakhi
lecel
aufoneleuMl a

She'
sal
ive.

Sakhi
le:Wesf
ebe
Ml
a:I
'
m busyuf
unani

Thanihearherbeaut
if
ulvoi
cemyhear
tshat
ter
s.

Phindil
e:"
Weeml alalel
amawungangi funicela
ubuyiseimil
ionlam sinceyouchargeindol l
ars.I
f
youdon'tplaytonighti'
m goi
ngtosuet helivi
nghell
outofyou,idon'tcareaboutthosepeopleyou
mentioned.Ipar
tyekaLondi ei
fidon'tseeyouon
thedecksi'
m goingt omakesur eyoulivetoregreti
t
Mla:Soyoudon'tknowMzwakheorhaveany
af
fil
iat
ionwi
ththem
Phi
ndi
le:Nonhl
efi
ndmeanot
herDj

Thecal
ldi
sconnect
s.

Thobani
:Uyalungadot
iast
hembeuzokwazi
ukuyi
melalento
Ml
a:Ohr
elaxiwi
llbet
her
e
Sakhil
e:Ngat
hungangafi
kakubekhonai
nto
ekul
ibazi
sayouphaphakabiwena

Hehungsup.

Phi
ndi
le
Ican'
tbeli
eveMladit
chedmel
iket
his.Thepar
tis
hoursaway,idon'
twantt
obemadinsuch
si
tuati
ons.
Nonhl
e:Rel
axuyazi
tshel
avel
eiam notsur
pri
sed
Mandl
a:Sowhatwedoi
ngt
oday

Isi
gh.

Me:Sot
hisi
smydr
essiwashopi
ngshor
torki
nky
cur
l
Mandl
a:Def
ini
tel
yshor
tbabes
Me:Wor
kyourmagi
cboo
Nonhl
e:Shei
scal
li
ngmewhatdoisay
Me:I
gnor
ehercanyoust
yleherf
rom home
Mandl
a:Asl
ongasyoupayi
nghel
lyeah

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e:Nai
lsyoumustal
sodot
hem andapedi
Me:Ohwow
Nonhl
e:Howdi
dthecaket
urnout
Mandl
a:Wowt
hosear
ebeaut
if
ulbuka

Shewhi
stl
es.

Mzwakhe
Whenyouexpectt
hedayt
ogof
ast
erandi
tgoes
evenmor
eslower.

Li
nda:Kant
iayi
saqal
iyi
nil
epar
tyyenu
Me:Veleint
omawuyi
li
ndel
eizi
ntozi
hamba
kancane
Li
nda:Hai
bokant
ini
yat
hut
hayi
ni
Set
hu:Angi
funiuPhi
ndi
leacasuke
Li
nda:Heebafet
hukant
iubanil
omommy
namusabakangaka
Shei
sdanger
ousandver
yint
imi
dat
ing.

Me:Howmanyar
eyal
l
Set
hu:Si
x
Si
ndi
:Wer
eadyf
oranyt
hing
Olwet
hu:Set
huiloveyourf
ri
endsibought
somethi
ngfort
hem
Thabi
so:Idon'
tli
ket
hiswhydi
dievenagr
eet
othi
s

I
fiaskanyquesti
onsaboutPhindi
leimightmake
t
hingsobvi
ous.Iguessiwi
ll
justhavetoseefor
myself
.

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhl
ecal
lsSet
huandi
'
m angr
yidon'
tknowwhy.

Nonhl
e:Heygi
rl
Set
hu:Hey
Nonhl
e:Soi
'
mjustchecki
ngmoghelukwat
il
e,zat
hi
f
ourwemustbeattheair
por
t
Set
hu:Hol
donher
eisThobani

ThobaniwhatdoesThobanihavet
odowi
thourt
ri
p.

Thobani
:EhNonhl eihaveabet t
erideayi
ni
ni
ngasukil
a,nivayeegoliebeseniyal
aeni
yakho.
Mzwakheagreedt oborr
owmehi saeropl
aneil
ona
el
izobesel
ini
hambi sa
Nonhle:Hmm f
lyi
nginst
ylewhynothoney,t
his
MzwakheishethesameMzwakhet hat
,iknow and
sheknows
Thobani
:Noi
tsj
ustmyf
ri
end

Hel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Wenyokandi
niuyenzelanilentooyenzi
le
kumnganiwami.Hmm yazikuyonisizaadakwe
uPhi
ndi
lengobai
heei
hee
Thobani
:Ngani
lungi
sel
alokho
Nonhl
e:Si
ngaj
abul
aihavet
ogobye
Me:Mzwakhe
Nonhl
e:Yesi
shel
oaded
Me:Ngi
zomnqumaamasendel
oya

Wel
augh.

Thobani
I'
m busymaki
nglastmi
nutechecksever
ything
mustbeonpointwhenever
yonegetshere.Alsoi
havetogett
hiswomansett
led,
thedooropens.

Sipho:Ther
ewegowedi dn'
tknowwhatt
obr
ing
yousoi t
sabitofever
ything
Zi
khona:Hai
boseni
yangi
xoshaphel
a
Si
pho:I
sphuzo
Zi
khona:Jui
cewoul
dbef
ine

Hi
sphoner
ings.

Si
pho:Sho
Zi
khona:Whyyoul
ooki
ngatmel
iket
hat
Me:Not
hing

Set
huwasnevermeantt obealongti
met hing.I
wasfool
ingaroundwit
hherthi
ngsturnedout
di
ff
erent
ly.Wehadababywhom ilovesomuch, i
woulddi
elosingher
.Il
oveSethubutZikhonaisthe
oneforme,iam goi
ngtofi
xthi
sidon'tknowhow.

Zi
khona:Soyougoi
ngt
okeepmeher
eti
llwhen
Me:Youcancomedowni
fyouwant
Zi
khona:Ther
e'sonl
ysomuchunder
standi
ngican
do
Me:Zi
khonaidon'
tli
kei
twhenyout
hreat
eni
ngme
l
iket
hat
Zi
khona:Webeent
oget
herf
oralongti
me,
you
br
okeupwithmeit
sfi
neyoucanleave

Il
ookdownshemakesher
sel
fcomf
ort
abl
e.

Zi
khona:Il
oveyou
Me:Il
oveyoumor
e

Iheadoutt hearr
ogantMlahasar ri
vedwithbafana.
Hest i
llhasn'
tfor
givenushisgirl
fr
iendwascaught
i
nt hecrossfir
e,helovedherbuttherewasnothing
wecoul dhavedonet osaveher.I'
m posi
ti
vel
ysur e
hehasmovedonbuthedon' tl
ikeus.
[
06/
06,
10:
25] :16

Mzwakhe
Sakhi
leandigotr eadyever
ybodyelsehasl
eft
.He
tookovermywar drobe.Somebodymusthave
madehi m adeputyofwhat,ishoul
dwear.

Me:Whyam iwear
ingt
his
Sakhi
le:Uzobona

Isi
gh.

Sakhi
le:Whoboughtyout
hese
Me:Pear
l

Hedr
opsmysneaker
sonf
loorsor
oughl
y.

Me:Hai
boyi
nii
nki
ngayakhowena
Sakhi
le:Asambesi
shi
wai
skhat
hi
Me:Ar
eyoudoi
ngt
hissoshecanseemeorisee
her
Sakhil
e:Konkeshei
sgoi
ngt
olooki
ngdr
opdead
gorgeous
Me:Wazingani
Sakhi
le:Iknowwhatshewi
llbewear
ingt
rustme
yougoingtobebl
ownaway

Thi
sisst
upi
dshepr
obabl
yhat
esme.

Sakhi
le:BehaveMzwakhe

Isuf
feratt
hehandsofSakhi
l
e.

Me:Okayst
ophi
tt
ingmel
etsgo

.
..
.

Wear
ri
veatt
hechi
sanyamaandi
tsqui
et.
Me:uMl
angempel
augci
neengaf
ikanga
Sakhi
le:I
twasami
staket
hathappenedal
ongt
ime
ago

Wewalkinandtheyshoutsurpri
seihol dmychest.
Onecanneverbeprepar
edf ort
his,evenifyou
knowit
ssti
llgoi
ngtobeasur pr
ise.Thewhol ecr
ew
i
shere,wel
lnotever
ybodyinsomebl ackandwhit
e
wit
hatouchofyell
ow,okay.Theyst artsi
ngi
ngi
l
augh.

Them:Happybi
rt
hday
Thobani
:Happybi
rt
hdayman'
s
Me:Br
ingi
tin

Iseeweshari
ngthespacewi
thsomehotbabes,
yel
lowboneent
ersshel
ookshot
.
Nonhl
e:Thobani
Thobani
:Kuphel
eindwanguyi
ni

Shef
rownsandhugshi
m

Me:Youl
ookhot
Nonhl
e:Thankyouwher
eisTr
evor

Okayimessedupf
ine.

Nonhl
e:Hai
boyi
nimanj
ewangi
shut
hanabant
u
ababi

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
If
eell
iket
hisi
sgoi
ngt
obeamadni
ght
.Thobani
st
epsouthewhi
stl
es.

Thobani
:Youl
ookamazi
ng
Me:Thankyou

Hehandsmet
hemi
candst
aresatme.

Me:Hai
bounest
hembuwena,
nenganef
uth
Thobani
:Wowhmm ayno
Me:Ml
a
Thobani
:Ukhona
Me:Goodiwi
llseeyoui
nsi
dei
sthi
smi
cwor
king

Hei ssolosti
nmehewi sheswewer etoget
her.He
sortofhadahugecrushonme, wetriedthi
sthingi
t
didn'twor
k.Weremainedascoolbestfri
ends.
Me:Thobani

Hegoesbacki
nsi
deiheart
hem scr
eam sur
pri
se
okayi
tsshowt
ime.

Mzwakhe
"Happybi
rt
hdayt
oyou"

Headst
urnhear
ingt
hisangel
icvoi
ce.

"
Happybi
rt
hdayt
oyou"

Shecansi
ngt
ooil
ookatSakhi
le.

Phi
ndi
le:Obanniabanyeabazal
wayo"
Happy
bi
rt
hdaytoyou"
Theypointi
ngatusshef rownsal i
tt
leand
cont
inuessingi
ng.Thisisbyfarthebestbir
thdayi
havecelebr
atedinyears.Theyclapandwhistl
edo
youclap,wowshehasabeaut i
fulvoice.

Phindil
e:Mnganingiyaziutheawuyi
funiipar
ty,
ngihl
uleki
leukuzibambasohappybi rt
hdaynt ombo
cheerstomanymor eyearsfil
ledwi
thlove,j
oyand
happiness
Londi
e:Yazini
nanj
alokodwaungenzanii
minal
o
Phindi
le:Tothetwogentlemenngishonganazi
happybirthdaykuni
na.Nibenosukuoluhl
e
ol
ugcwel einj
abulonezi
busiso
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Si
yabonga
Phi
ndi
le:Djawuvul
elapho

Howi si
tmyskeem knowsaboutthi
sgir
landi
knownothi
ngabouther.Shewentwit
hshorthai
r
doinganumberonher,ashor
twhitel
acylooki
ng
dr
essandst
rapheel
s.

Sakhi
le:Shel
ookshot
Li
nda:Ubanil
oya
Li
ndo:Usuyamf
unake
Li
nda:Vel
engi
yamuf
unavel
e

Hel
ooksatmeidon'
twantt
ogivemuchaway.I
l
ookdownandgr
ababeerbott
le.

Li
nda:Loyangekel
i
phel
elol
usuku
Sakhi
le:Doyouwantt
odi
e

Li
ndanibr
odon'
ttestmeiam goi
ngt
ohur
tyouso
bad.

Phi
ndi
le
Ratherbei
ngangryatthesituat
ionichoset oaccept
i
tandl i
veahappylif
e.Howeveridocar eandwhat
toknowwhathehast osayaboutdisappearingon
me.Sethutakesmet othei
rtable,
idon'tknowwho
gavehertheri
ghttoinvi
teotherpeopleonmyt r
ip.
Thevoiceinmyheadsai dit
sokay.

Sethu:Olwet
hu,Si
ndi
swat
hisi
sPhi
ndi
leihopeyou
don'tmindagai
n
Me:Themor
ethemer
ri
erni
cet
omeetyou

Thi
sonegi
rll
ooksatmel
ikeshehasseenaghost
.

Me:Ever
ythi
ngi
spackedandr
eady
Ol
wet
hu:Don'
twor
ryyourbeaut
if
ulsel
fabouti
t
Me:Ni
cei
m headi
ngbackt
omypar
ty
Man:Feelf
reet
ojoi
nus
Me:Yeahidon'
tthi
nkso
Mzwakhe
Luckil
yf orLindanithatfoolcan'
tbechecked,hei
s
thetypet hatwil
llaughitoffandconti
nuewi t
hhis
l
ife.Iknowihavet otalktoheratsomepointand
thatpointhascomenow.

Shestandsbefor
emewithherar
msf
olded,
ipush
thechai
routandgrabmydri
nk.

Phi
ndi
le:Unj
anMzwakhe
Me:Ngi
yaphi
lawena
Phi
ndi
le:Angi
sakwazi
Me:Ngi
lokhengi
mat
asanj
elaphnal
aphaya
Phi
ndi
le:Hmm soyouthi
nkyoucanfuckmeand
weactli
keyoudi
dn'tmakemeyouroneni
ghtst
and

Shel
ooksatt
hegl
ass,
ihi
dei
tbehi
ndmyback.
Me:Idon'
tthi
nkandidon'
tpret
endasfaras
makingyouaonenightst
andthatwa

Shecut
smeof
f.

Phi
ndil
e:Howdoeshavingagreatni
ghtandyou
l
eavi
ngmet henextdaycont
emplateasnotaone
ni
ghtstand
Me:Canwetal
ksomewher
epr
ivat
elyatl
east
,
phi
ndi
lewai
t
Phi
ndi
le:Igotmyanswer
Me:Youdi dn'
tletmeexplai
nbutit
scool,
justdon'
t
expectmet oignor
eyourgorgeouscur
vesoutto
play.Thatper
fectl
ypor
trayedassint
hisdress

Shechuckl
es.
Me:I'
m goi
ngt
ogetyouandyouwon'
tbeabl
eto
r
esistme

Il
etgoofherohil
oveachal
lenge.
[
06/
06,
10:
26] :16

Sakhi
le
Ihaven'
thadthi
smuchinforeverwhoknewpr i
vate
eventswoul
dbet hi
smuchinter
esting.Thevibethe
l
adiesarebr
ingi
ngisonanotherlevel
,theboysare
rel
axedandhavingagr
eatti
me.

Li
nda:Baf
ethumeni
cabangangi
ngamt
hol
alo
mommy

Mzwakhel
ooksathi
m,il
ookdownandl
augh.

Li
nda:Bukankosiyamiur
ichwodwa
Thabi
so:Yewenaawuboniukut
huzoshawa
ngempamamanj e

Wel
augh.

Me:Yougood
Mzwakhe:I
'
mfi
ne
Me:WeNonhl
e..
.Nonhl
ewozal
a
Nonhl
e:Hel
lohandsomeness
Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone
Li
nda:Mommy
Mzwakhe:AyLi
ndaniwhyar
eyout
hisdesper
ate
Me:Nazi
qhelani
sanat
himanj
ecomeont
hisi
sa
par
tynotafuner
al
Nonhl
e:Okay

Shewal
ksawayt
hancomesback.
Nonhl
e:Higuyssani
bonanini
njannazenabahl
e

Shegrabsabott
leandsqueezesher
sel
fbet
ween
NtandoandThabisowelaugh.

Me:Okayyoumadeyourpoi
ntkodwaphel
a
ni
yaj
ampisahawu
Nonhl
e:OkayPhi
ndi
le
Me:Ayayhawu

Andshemakesherwayt
ous.

Phi
ndi
le
Myfr
iendisenj
oyi
nghersel
fandhavi
ngagood
t
imethat
'stheonl
ythi
ngthatmat
ter
s.

Me:Il
ookawayf
ort
wosecondsandal
readyyoui
n
t
hemi
ddl
eoft
wobi
gman
Nonhl
e:Iwasbor
nfort
hishoney

Theyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:uGat
shenil
auf
unasi
hlal
enabo
Me:Abasabhor
imanjengobausuhl
eliphakat
hi
kwezi
khondl
akhondl
a

Wel
augh.

Me:Idon'
tknowthesepeopl
ebutt
heot
herl
adi
es
ar
ewelcomet oj
oin
Nonhl
e:Mossnal
abaabanyeabasaziandt
hey
get
ti
ngalongwi
thuspr
ettywel
l
Mzwakhe:Ngekeuzuf
eundawo
Them:Shutup
Sakhi
le:Youshi
di
Theylaughwhoevenaskedhimtospeak.Hei
s
l
ookingatmeli
kehewant st
odevourmysoul.

Nonhl
e:Foodyay
Thobani
:Sor
ryguys
Nonhl
e:Thobanit
hisl
ooksamazi
ng
Noxy:Heygi
rleyasekhayai
sil
ungi
le
Me:Thankyoumyl
ove
Mzwakhe:Cel
aungi
phakel
a
Me:Awunazoi
zandl
ayi
ni
Mzwakhe:Ukhonakanj
anmommy
Nonhl
e:Ahahdon'
tst
art

Mzwakhe
Iwasforsuredr
unknowandthingswere
happeni
nginmybody.Whenshegotupt ogo
i
nsideiwait
edalit
tl
ebi
tthanf
ollowedher
,shegoes
i
nThobani'
ssexdungeonper
fect
.Ient
erandl
ock
t
hedoor.

Phi
ndi
le:Thehel
l

Ist
areathershei
sfucki
nggor
geous.

Phi
ndi
le:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Me:It
oldyouiwasgoi
ngt
ogetyou
Phi
ndi
le:Doyouhaveacompr
ehensi
onpr
obl
em
Me:Wal
okheungi
chomel
anj
engesi
ngi
sisakho

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Yi
niehl
eki
sayo
Me:Can'tihavesomepussyf
ir
stt
han,
wewor
ry
aboutcomprehensi
onl
ater
Ipushhershef
all
sont
hebed,
shet
ri
est
ogetup.

Me:Ahahngi
shi
lonj
engat
hngi
zokuchazel
a

Ifeelmydickhardeni
ngikissherandi
mmediat
ely
feeltheconnect
ion,
ifel
tthemomentil
aidmyeyes
onher .

Phi
ndi
le
Wewer ebot
hnakednowevenafterhisbul
l.I
neededhi
sdickdeepi
nsi
deofme, themorehe
pumpedthemoreifel
thi
sdickexpanding.

Me:Hmm
Mzwakhe:Aski
es

Hemovedsl
owerandgent
lehewashi
tt
inghi
tit
f
rom t
heback,somethi
ngaboutmyassal
lupi
nhi
s
f
acedrovehi
m crazy.

Me:Ahh.
.OhGod

Hepicksuphispaceagai
nr ubbingandspanki ng
myassaf ewti
mes.Hi
sfi
nger srubbedonmycl i
t,
al
lthepleasur
eiwasfeel
ingintensi
fied.Il
if
tedmy
bodyuphegr abbedmyboobsandf uckedmehar d.

Me:AhhhhMzwakhe

Hetakesovermymi nd,bodyandsoul.Hewasnow
f
eel
ingit,
hethrustharderandfast
ermytoescur
l.A
l
oudescapefrom hismout h.

Mzwakhe:Fuck
Hespanksmyassandpul
lsout
,wel
aydownand
hehol
dsmyhand.

Mzwakhe:Relaxyouminenowanditwil
lbe
i
mpossibleforyout
ogetri
dofme.Idon'twantt
o
getal
lseri
ousonsuchanauspici
ousoccasi
on,see
younottheonlyonewi
thbigwords

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe:Thenighti
sfarfr
om bei
ngover,mydick
wil
lbehungryt
hewhol et
ime.Okaynt
okaziengath
ngi
yakubhor
anje,si
qhubekelanomasiyepart
ini

If
acet
heot
hersi
dehebr
ingsmecl
osert
ohi
m,
l
if
ti
ngmyl
egup.

Mzwakhe:Iguesswecont
inui
ng
Me:Justputyourdi
cki
nal
ready
Sakhi
le
I'
mf eel
ingver
yveryhappyit
stimetocutthecake.
Mzwakheandphi ndi
legonethebi
rthdaygir
l
disappear
ed,t
hecakeslookamazingcanthisget
anymor ebett
er.

"
Hai
bokwat
hul
akal
anj
ela"

Appar
ent
lyi
tcan.

Me:Baf
owet
houghtyouguysar
enotcomi
ng
Ayanda:Ngekekubei
bir
thdaykamfet
hu
si
ngaphelel
efut
hkesiboni
leukut
hzimnandi

Hel
ooksatNonhl
eiknewt
hiswasgoi
ngt
ohappen.

Luyanda:Happybi
rt
hdayskhul
u
Me:Moj
a
Ayanda:Uphivel
eubhut
i
Si
pho:I
siphel
il
eyi
nii
par
ty
Me:Mhl
athiwakhosi
li
ndewena

Theycomedownhei
shel
pingherwal
kdownt
he
l
it
tl
esteps.

Mzwakhe:Ayanda,
Luyanda
Nonhl
e:Wehavet
ocutt
hecakesphel
asi
yabonga

Wel
aughil
ovet
hisgi
rlshedoesn'
tcar
e.

Phi
ndi
le:Thecakeokay
Nonhl
e:Weee
Mzwakhe:Awet
hul
amakhekhe
Me:Bi
rt
hdaygi
rlwozaphel
a
Londi
e:Ngi
mephi
Me:Phakat
hinendawongobanaweuwushot
i

Theysi
nghappybi
rt
hdaydi
dn'
tever
yonesi
ngt
his
songal
ready.

Phi
ndi
le:Smi
lephel
ahawunazokei
li
phiel
idl
iwayo
Me:I
lel
i
Londi
e:Hai
bo
Me:Yai
tsonl
yfai
r
Londi
e:Ani
sikinganiel
enu
Mzwakhe:Uyabonanawel
enzi
wengemi
ll
ion
l
eli
khekhe
Nonhle:Hai
bongekephel
asi
ngal
idl
iikhekhe
l
iyadl
iwa
Ever
yone:Li
yadl
iwa

Wel
augh.
Phindil
e:Okaysengi
yahambakemi
na,
ngi
zobuya
sengizoni
landa

Leavi
ngwer
eisshegoi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le
It
sgettingclosert
omi dni
ghtmyassneedst
obeat
home, befor
emyspi r
itawakensandiendup
rui
ningt hemomentforeveryone.

"
Phi
ndi
le"

Mzwakhe:Yewenaawugudl
ukel
apho

Hepul
lsmecl
osert
ohi
m andgr
absmyass.

Mzwakhe:Yougoi
ngt
oleavewi
thoutsayi
ng
goodbye
Me:Di
dyouwantmet
ocomeandr
epor
ttoyou
Mzwakhe:I
ndodauyayi
hlebel
aukut
husuyahamba
kant
iunj
an

Shesi
tsont
hest
eel
bar
ri
ersandiont
opofhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Whyyoul
eavi
ng
Me:Idon'twantt
oruinthenightforanyonei
ts
closetot
hedarkhoursofthenight.I
tgetshect
icat
thist
imeandialwaysleaveearl
y

Hepout
s.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantyout
ogo

It
ryt
oki
sshi
m hel
ooksaway.
Mzwakhe:Ayungangi
qabul
ihawu
Thobani
:Manj
esenzenj
ansi
yahambanoma
Mzwakhe:Uhambel
ani
Thobani
:Awndoda
Nonhl
e:Al
ri
ghtwecangono
Me:I
jacketyabanimanj
e

ThobaniandMzwakhel
augh.

Me:Akaf
uningi
hambe
Nonhl
e:Hai
bouzomel
ayi
nimaseqal
aiyi
ntozakhe
Mzwakhe:Yes
Nonhl
e:AsambePhi
ndi
le
Mzwakhe:Pl
easedon'
tgoiwil
ldowhat
evert
hat
needst
obedonengiyani
cel
a
Nonhl
e:It
syourdeci
siontomakemawusal a
ngi
yovoshokaandangiyi
ngenii
ndabayakho
Thobani
:It
sjustgonemi
dni
ght
Nonhl
e:Let
swai
t

Hehol
dsmywai
standwewai
t.

Mzwakhe
It
sbeenthi
rtyminut
esandnot
hingi
shappeni
ng,
exceptf
orhershi
veri
ng.

Me:Not
hingi
shappeni
ng
Nonhl
e:Youj
ustwai
t

Shestar
tsmovingherhairar
oundandlet
soutai
r.
Shetr
iestogetofmygripbutihol
dherput.

Thobani:Mzwakhel
ethergoshei
sdanger
ousshe
canhurtyou
Me:Thanl
etherdowhat
evershewant
s,i
'
m not
l
ett
inggo

Idon'tknowwhyi '
m hol
dingherbutsomethi
ngin
mej ustdoesn'
twanttoletgoofher.Shest
art
s
shakinguncontr
oll
ably.

Thobani
:YabonakeMzwakhe
Me:Awukahl
e
Phi
ndil
e:Nonhl
ether
eisabot
tl
eofwat
eri
nmybag
pl
easebri
ng

Shecan'tf
ini
shhersentenceil
etgoofhershe
gasp.Sheishyper
venti
lat
ingnowifeelbad.

Me:Asambenike
Nonhl
e:Yabonai
ndababekumel
esi
hambe
Phindi
le:Nonhl
ecal
m down.
.I'
mf i
neionl
yhavea
fewminutestospar
ethani
'm out
Ismi
leicoul
dwor
kwi
tht
hat
.
[
06/
06,
10:
26] :16

Phi
ndi
le
Idi
dn'
texpectthem t
obethisangry,
butthese
peopl
earecrazytheywi
llhavetodeal.

Nonhl
e:Youdon'
thavet
o
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Yousur
ebecausengekengi
lokhe
ngi
gadananawe
Me:Cal
m yourt
it
sdown

Iwi
llbef
inenow,
shecanhaveherf
un.

Mzwakhe
I
'm MzwakheBhenguial
waysgetwhatiwantand
whatiwantr
ightnowist
hatcoochi
e.

Li
nda:Manj
eskhul
u
Me:Li
ndanimfethucanij
ustenj
oyt
hisni
ght
wi
thoutyour21questi
ons
Li
nda:Aykul
ungi
lenj
ayami

Oureyesmeetimimetohercanwedisappear
.Fir
st
she'
sli
kehuhNonhlewhi
spersinherearandshe'
s
l
ikeri
ghtnow,ishr
ug.

Li
nda:Aymar
nshi
dimommyngi
cel
aubeowami
Phi
ndi
le:Angazii
khandal
amil
ibuyel
it
hiqhwi
Li
nda:Soqhwi
hizasobabi
limommy

Wel
augh.
Li
nda:Ngazengakuf
unashame
Phi
ndil
e:Hl
alal
apl
easedon'
tletheroutofyour
si
ghtcome
Me:Ungi
yisaph

Shewal
ksawayif
ini
shmydr
inkt
hanheadout
.

Me:Awubungashonganingi
kuni
keukhi
ye
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easeopeni
'
mfeel
ingcol
d
Me:Wher
eyout
aki
ngme
Phi
ndi
le:Tomymast
erwegoi
ngt
osacr
if
iceyou

Il
augh.

Me:Leadt
heway

Ist
artt
hecaranddr
iveof
fshel
eadst
heway.We
conver
sat
eoversi
ll
ythi
ngs,
shel
eadsmet
oadar
k
al
ley.

Me:Masesi
banj
wai
nkunzil
a
Phi
ndi
le:Youdon'
tlookl
ikeaper
sonsomeonecan
pul
laf
astoneonyou
Me:Hmm ngi
zokhuphukangor
ever
se

Aphoner
ingsandi
tsnotmi
nesshei
gnor
esi
t.

Me:I
boyf
ri
endyakhoi
yakuf
onel
a
Phi
ndi
le:Uzobast
rong
Me:Angi
zwa
Phi
ndi
le:I
tsnotmyphone
Me:Fuckicamewi t
hSakhil
ehepurposeful
lyl
eft
hi
sphonewowkancanenj e.
.Helloi
phet
hwei mina
andangikhoeduzekwakhefonel
auThobaniokay
bye.Ar
g
Iki
ssher
.

Phi
ndi
le
Hisbodyfeel
swar m andhisdickishar
d,upand
readyforme.Isquatoverhiskneesandslowly
i
nserthisdi
ck,it
sjustsolusci
ousiwanttoeatit.I
goslowandshor tbouncehenibblesonmyneck, i
pinchmynipplesashisdickreachesatantal
izi
ng
sport.

Me:Mmmmm

Her emovesmyhandsfrom mynipplesand

squeezethem.Hi
sonehandpl ayswithmyclitt
he
othergr
absmyneck,mybouncesi ncreaseasi
pumpmysel ft
odickpar
adise.

Me:Mzwakhe
Hegr
oans.

Ili
ftmyassupandr idethatdickthef eel
ingthat
comeswi ththisisoutofthi
swor ld.Itfeedsmysoul
thebestpartisthatheisenjoyingit,
icont i
nue
ri
dinghard.

Me:OhmyGod.
..Ahhhh.
..Ahhhh
Mzwakhe:Ohf
uck.
..Wai
tsl
owdownbaby

Icatchmybr eat
handf eelmyjuicesdri
pping
thr
ough.Islowlygri
ndonhi sdickherubsmycl i
t
extr
emelytender.Ibouncehardandfasteragai
n,he
i
sabouttocum igetof fhi
m andshovehi sdick
deepdownmyt hroat.

Sakhi
le
Imayhavescor
edmysel
fahoneyort
wo.Mzwakhe
comesbackafterdi
sappear
ingfor
ever,
notthathi
s
presenceswasmissed.Hegrabsabeerbot
tleand
takesalongsi
p.

Mzwakhe:Nomai
singaphel
aipar
ty
Me:Udaki
we

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Ani
ngi
khumbul
angakodwa
Me:Si
thisi
kwenzel
anil
okho
Mzwakhe:Youokay
Me:Aynongigr
andskhul
u
Mzwakhe:Any
Me:Awaw

Wehi
ghf
ive.
Me:Ngekengahl
abineveruphiumommy
Mzwakhe:Angazi
Li
nda:Kadeni
ngayi
leyi
niukuyobhebhana
Mzwakhe:Andthat
'st
her
easonwhyi
'
m nott
ell
i
ng
youguysanyt
hing

Welaugh,
weseeherwithThobanishehas
changedi
ntosweat
s.Mzwakheleansback.

Mzwakhe:Dowehaveahousei
nSeychel
les
Me:Nowedon'
thaveahousei
ntheSeychel
les
Mzwakhe:Mmm

Ihaveafeeli
ngi'
m goi
ngtoaccompanythem,j
ust
tohavethem set
tl
einorst
ayfort
hedurati
onofthe
tr
ip.Butwit
hMzwakheyouneverknow.
Nonhl
e:Youdi
dn'
ttel
lmeyouchangi
ng
Mzwakhe:Asi
ri
ngemi
nanawe

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowwhosejacketi
sthi
s,buti
'
m
notar
ri
vingi
nSeychel
lesl
ookingli
keahooker

Wel
aughshewaschangi
ngi
nthedungeon.

Nonhl
e:Weebant
ungamanekungayi
wa,
howar
e
wearr
ivi
ngt
here
Me:Thobanisai
dhehassomethi
ngpl
annedangazi
i
bhanoyikwenzenj
an,
ngikhat
hel
emanjengi
funa
ukuphumula
Nonhl
e:Youl
eftmef
oradi
ck
Me:Youwoul
difyout
ast
edhowi
tfel
tli
ke,
we
st
art
edher
e
Nonhl
e:La
Me:Hmm ther
e'snot
hinghedi
dn'
tdot
omeyayazi
sexaddi
ct

Ihopethi
stimewhat evert
hisi
swil
lpanout.Shoul
d
hepullt
hisstuntagai
niam goingt
okil
lhi
m.

Mzwakhe
Iwantmoreandmor eofherabigthankyouto
whoeverbroughtheraround.Thebigguyupthere
ormywi l
dancestors,t
hankyouguyst hankyou.

Me:WeeSet
hui
ndodayakhoi
thi
nimanj
e
Linda:Ncooohshameawuf
uniukul
alaesf
ubeni
sebabazi
Me:Ngi
zokuhl
abangempamawenaLi
ndaniyezwa

Theyl
aughidon'
tknowi
fthi
swhol
eti
mehehas
beent
ryi
ngtoannoyme.
Nonhl
e:Uphikant
iuMzwakhenebhanoyil
akhe
Phi
ndi
le:Ubani
kef
uthl
oyo

Shewasrest
ingonmybackmymanwasi
tchi
ngt
o
beinsi
deher
.

Nonhl
e:UtheuThobaniuyamaziunal
ent
swebu
yal
obhut
ioseduzekwakho
Phi
ndi
le:Ushonj
eyazibayaf
anakodwakel
oyo
Me:Uzokhal
a

Shel
aughs.

Me:uThobaniusebanj
ezel
weyi
nimanj
e
Phi
ndi
le:I
maniuphivel
eloesi
zengaye
Theyl
ookateachot
herandl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:uSi
phonoLondi
ekodwa
Me:Yougoi
ngt
omi
ssme
Phi
ndi
le:Fori
nisengi
yint
ombiyakhoyi
ni
Me:Okaykewhenyoucomebackwoul
dbemy
gi
rl
fr
iend
Phi
ndi
le:Thatdepends
Me:Onwhat
Phi
ndi
le:Doiwantt
obeyourgi
rl
fr
iend

Il
augh.

Me:Youmi
nef
ini
sh

Phi
ndi
le
Iam checkedouti
fwedon'
tleavenowwegoi
ngt
o
missourf
li
ghtandtravelt
ime.Theydeci
dedt
o
r
evivet
hepart
y,ial
readyhadmybagandphonei n
myhand.IseeMzwakheandmakear unfori
t.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokuqhumi
sangempamayezwa

Il
augh,if
eelli
ketheydel
ayi
ngforwhat
everr
eason
buti
fidon'
tleavei'
m goi
ngtobever
yangry.

Me:Nowehadenoughnowi
needt
ogo

Hesmi
les.

Sakhi
le:Ngenzenj
anke
Mzwakhe:Rel
axskhul
utheybi
ggi
rl
s
Li
nda:Mommy

Mzwakhepi
cksmeupandr
unswi
thmeout
side
t
heyl
augh.

Me:Putmedown

Myhearti
spumpingoutofit
schest.Idon'
tknow
anyofhi
sfri
endsexceptf
orSakhi
leandThobani.

Sakhi
le:Li
ndaniskhul
u
Li
nda:Nomaungabal
ekanayengi
zomt
hol
a
Mzwakhe:Udaki
wel
auyanyangamanekul
iwe
si
ngazwani

Theybot
hscr
eami
ngateachot
herl
aughi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Somathi
sisSakhi
lemybestf
ri
end,
br
otherandl
oveofmyli
fe
Sakhi
le:I
'
m goingtot
ryandmakesurehedoesn'
t
messup, hei
sroughontheedgesr
eall
yrough
kodwangi
yacel
amommy

Ther
eisjustsomet
hingaboutt
hewayhesays
mommyi t'
sahugeturnon.It
hinki
tsmeantt
obe
l
iket
hat.

Sakhi
le:Yeahkul
indwewenachaawuhambinami
wozabo

Hewal
ksaway.

Mzwakhe:Thankyouforawonder
fulni
ghtand
cel
ebr
ati
ngmybi r
thdaywit
hyou
Me:Hadyout
oldmeiwoul
dhavesomet
hing
Mzwakhe:Nodoubtaboutt
hat

Weki
ssSeychel
lesher
ewecome.
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06/
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Mzwakhe
Theyhavebeenaskingmewhati sgoing,whois
she,whenaretheymeeti
ngher.Ihavebeen
i
gnoring,
dodgingandavoidi
ngallt
heirquest
ions,
l
etmedealwi t
hitbefor
eibri
nghertot hi
srubbish.

Sabel
o:Ni
thiuskhul
uukhechi
le
Li
nda:Akakwazinokul
ala
Thabi
so:Nkabi
ndecal
led
Me:Fi
nal
lysomet
hingpr
oduct
iveyouguyshavet
o
say
Li
nda:Nowest
il
ltal
kingabout
Me:Li
ndanimf
ethuyi
ni

Myphoner
ingsf
inal
lyibeenwai
ti
ngf
orhercal
l.

Me:Wowl
ikewow
Phi
ndi
le:Usungi
khumbul
il
e
Me:Bi
tchyouwer
esupposedt
ocal
lmeever
yday
Phi
ndi
le:Nophonesal
lowed
Me:Iwi
llcomet
her
eandbustal
lofyourassess
Phi
ndi
le:Howar
eyoudoi
ng
Me:Bet
ternowyoucomi
ngback
Phindil
e:Noappar entlysomeoneAngelf
urt
her
bookedt hehousef oraweekandnowwewai t
ing
onaj etthat
'
stakingf orever
Me:It
sonit
swaypr
oper
lyst
ucksomewher
eor
r
efuel
ing
Phi
ndi
le:I
'
mreadyt
ocomehomenow

Il
augh.

Me:Okaybye
Nonhl
e:Byesexy
Me:Byeyel
lowbone
Thejetshoul
dbeoni tswaybacknow, iwonder
whatisthedelay.Thel
iftopensmybabyNoziruns
tome,butsit
scomposi nghersel
f.Whatdi
d
Thobanidothi
st i
me.

Me:Uyenzenii
nganeyamiwena
Thobani
:Tel
lhi
m whatyoudi
d
Me:SawubonankosazaneThobani
Thobani
:Iact
edl
ikeapar
entt
ellhi
m okayiwi
ll
showyou

Hehandsmehisphonesheempt
iedouthercl
oset
andwasdr
awingonthewall
sNozigi
rlwhy.

Me:I
sthatl
ipst
ick
Thobani
:Yallbabymybabyal ot,
iloveNozibut
danggir
l.Weasdaddyspentaf ewdayscl eani
ng
hermess,shefoldedhercl
othescleanedt
hemar ks
ont
hewal
l
Sabel
o:AhThobani
Me:She'
sababyhawucomeher
emyl
it
tl
epr
incess

Herli
psquiveril
aughandbri
nghertomychestshe
cr
ies.Thobanii
samonsterbutshedi
dwrong.

Me:Angi
thngekeusayenzal
ent
ooyenzi
le

Shenods.I
nnotimeshewi llbecl
ingywit
hher
daddyohmypoorbaby,igiveheraslabfrom our
secr
etst
ashofchocol
ate.Thobanilooksatmewe
l
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Aweekt r
ipwhodoesthat
,that
'spushi
ngitbutthe
otherl
adi
eshadthel
uxurytoandThobanidecided
topayextr
afort
hevacati
onwhy.
Nonhl
e:Justhowr
ichyoupeopl
ear
e
Ol
wet
hu:Anot
hert
ri
paf
tert
his

Webondedsowel lwit
hthem exceptforSi
ndi
swa.
Herandi,idon'tknowifeell
ikeineedtohavea
privat
econversati
onwithher.I
tfel
tawkwardcoul
d
shebespiri
tualandwespi r
it
ualbeingsdon'
tgeti
s
thatit
.

Set
hu:Shoppi
ngspr
eef
ordays

Shekepttel
li
ngmet hewhol
et imeeveryt i
me
Mzwakhe'snamecameup.Ishoul dst
ayawayf rom
him.Shekeptcomi
ngatmesi deways, andi tfel
t
l
ikeMzwakheandherpossiblyhadat hing.Maybe
shewantshim whi
chisconfusinganddi srespectf
ul.
Thobanii
saveryhandsomemanidon' tunder st
and
whatherprobl
em i
sandiwilltellMzwakheabout
thi
s.
Nonhl
e:Wow
Sethu:Imeanyoucoul
dalsobeapar
toft
hecl
ique
butMzwakhehasagi r
lf
ri
end
Si
ndi
:Set
hunobodycar
es
Nonhl
e:Youbeensayi
ngt
hatuyamf
unayi
ni
Set
hu:Ihaveamanhel
ovesandwoul
dn'
tcheaton
me

Thobanihasawomanhever
ymuchl
ovesandi
t
ai
n'tyou.

Set
hu:I
'
mlooki
ngoutf
ormyf
ell
owsi
ster

Si
ster
.Wel
augh.

Set
hu:Nohearmeoutidon'
twantyout
ogethur
t.
I
'mjustl
ooki
ngoutf
oryouthat
'sal
l
Me:Honeyidon'
tneedanyonet
olookaf
termei
canl
ookoutformysel
f
Set
hu:Don'
tsayidi
dn'
twar
n
Si
ndi
:It
hinkihearcar
spul
li
ngup

Greatiam gl
adt
obel eavi
ngnowandi
m goi
ngt
o
exi
toutnowbeforeismackher.

Mzwakhe
Thabi
so:Thi
sist
hel
ongestihavebeenawayf
rom
mywife

Outofthet
ensibli
ngsheistheonlyonethati
s
marri
edobvi
ouslybecauseheistheoldest
.

Thabi
so:Angi
phi
ndengi
vume
Sabel
o:Sakhi
leuvar
Me:Khonal
aengi
mut
humekhona
Sabel
o:That
swhyyoubor
ed

Iam notbor
edijustdon'
twantt
hem aski
ngme
stupi
dquesti
ons.

Me:Angibhor
eki
lengi
zit
hul
eleangazif
uthni
funani
l
a,nonkemeleni
hambileqhambakubuyauSakhil
e
Li
nda:Why
Me:Ngobangi
yakut
shel
aLi
ndanii
khonai
nki
nga
Li
nda:Skhul
u

Sakhi
le
Imagi
nehesaidhedi
dn'
twantmet
oleave,
nowhe
hassentmetogofet
cht
hem.Hebett
erpaymef
or
thi
s.

Me:Sodi
dyoul
adi
eshaveagoodt
ime
Ol
wet
hu:Wehopet
hisai
n'tt
hel
astone
Me:Mommy

Shewasver ymoodywhensheboardedt
heplane,
i
l
ookatNonhl eshel
ooksatSet
hu.Whathast
his
peasantdonenow.

Nonhl
e:Ohgat
sheniitwasagr
eathear
tyt
ri
p.I
t
hinkt
hisi
sthebestoneweeverhad
Phi
ndi
le:Mmmm
Londi
e:Ngibongenj
ekumnganiwami omuhl
e
ngabuyengibeyi
ningaphandl
ekwakho

Mzwakhet extmehemaymeetusatt
heairpor
t.I
texthi
m nosometi
mesthi
sboycan'
tcont
rol
himself
.

James:Okaynowwecanl
eave
Mzwakhe
Iwantt
hoseidiot
snottohavethesli
ghtesti
deaof
whoiam dat
inglol,
im dati
ngsomeonewho
Mzwakhe.I
'm goi
ngt othr
owthem ofther
etrack.

Si
we:Fancyseei
ngyouher
e
Me:Iknowsoihaveaf
ewt
hingst
odot
haniwi
ll
comebacktoyou

Phi
li
siwei sj
ustaf
uckbuddynostri
ngsatt
ached.
Ayugirlsometi
meslosesi
tandgoesofour
agr
eement .

Si
we:Fi
ne
Me:Cooliwi
llbeback
[
06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Jamesf i
nall
ycontact
edme.Ineededapri
vat
e
placet
obeabl etopassdownthemessagefr
om
theancestor
s.Iwenttomyapart
mentiheart
he
dooropening.It
oldhi
mt oj
ustcomein.

James:Nkosazane
Me:I
nher
e

Theywer
ever
yangr
ycant
heybl
amet
heguy.

Me:Yebomakhosiamakhul
u..Takeyourshoesof

Idon'
twantt
ouset
hisgi
fti
nacul
tur
alwaybuthi
s
casei
smakingmegothatr
out
e.

Me:Don'twor
ryyoudon' thavetopr
aisemeor
anyt
hing.Sol
et'
sstartbytell
ingmewhathappened
andhowyougott othispoint
James:Hewasgr eatfri
endswi thmysont hey
almostdi deveryt
hingtogether.Iwasi nfi
nancial
strai
nt hat'
swhenimett heboysf atherand
everythingchanged.Heneededpr otect i
onandwas
topaygoodmoney, iwenttherelooki ngforajob.I
becameoneofhi sbodyguar dthanl ateronhis
personalbodyguar d.Alottranspir
edmysonwent
tojail
,whent heboysr eali
zedhewasspyi ngon
them forAndile

Me:Andi
le

James:Andi lei
sadr uglordandahumant raf
fi
cker
,
bothhi m andMzwakhear ethemostf earedmen
ever.WhenAndi l
efoundoutiwasst i
llworki
ngfor
thefami l
y,hekidnappedmyonl yfamilyand
trappedthem inthismagi calpool
.Heusedmet o
getintelongetti
ngr idofthebhengu'sonceandf or
allandonl yt
hanwi lligetmyf ami
ly
Me:Hel
iedhi
snotgoi
ngt
odot
hat

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Seeyouhavebecomeal i
abil
itytohim,
your
sonwasn'tsupposedtogetar
rested.Whati'
m
seei
ngherethismanplantedthosedrugshimsel
f
andblamedyouandt heboysforit.Hencewhyhe
doesn'
twanttoseeyou

If
eelhi
spai
nit
stoogr
eat
.

James:Ihadaf
eel
ingi
twashim,butt
hanagain
youdon'
tspyonMzwakheBhenguandgetaway
wit
hit
Me:Youmakehi
m soundl
ikeaGod
James:Mmm
Me:I
'm goi
ngt
ohelpyouandgett hem out
,buti
t
wi
llt
aketimet
hatwi
llsol
elydependonyou.The
ancest
orsar
ever
yangr
yatwhatyoudi
despeci
all
y
thesamemanyouguar
dedwit
hyourli
fe

Hel
ooksawaywi
pinghi
stear
s.

Me:Youl
ovet
hem don'
tyou
James:Moret
hananyt
hingi
nthewor
ldwhat
everi
t
i
siwilldoi
t
Me:Foronest opcr
yingyoucannotbeaweakness.
Ireal
lyneedyoutobereall
yangrythatwayhewon'
t
seeyoucomi ng
James:Howwi
llidoi
t
Me:Ther
eisapi
nkgem hecarr
ieswi
thhi
m al
lthe
t
imeandyougoi
ngtogetitf
orme
James:Icandot
hat
Me:Holdonitsnoteasyasyout hinkitis.It
san
i
nvinci
blegem, i
fitshi
nesthatmeanshei sin
dangerorsomeonei sworki
ngagai nsthim.Iwil
l
expl
ainlat
erfornowyoust i
llgoi
ngt obebet r
ayi
ng
t
heboys

Hesi
ghs.

Me:Ineedyout
otel
lhi
mthere'
scashi
nthehouse
andyouknowhowtogeti
tandwherespeci
fi
cal
ly
togo
James:Whathowt
hehel
lam igoi
ngt
odot
hat
Me:Youhavedoneitpl
ent
yoftimes,wegoi
ngt
o
getyourst
ubbor
nsonoutofj
ailfi
rst
James:Whatdoyoumeani
twi
lldependonme
Me:Youracti
onswil
ltellmeifishouldhel
pyouor
not.What
everyoudecidejustknowyouwi l
llose
yourfami
lyandMzwakhewon' thesi
tat
etokillyou

Wespendt
het
imeconver
sat
ing.

Mzwakhe
Thereissomethi
ngwedon'tseeof
tenJames
smil
ing,hej
ustgotbackaf
terdi
sappear
ingt
oGod
knowswher e.

James:Wowi
tist
ensei
nher
Me:Youpunkassbi
tchwher
ethef
uckyoubeen

Ishoutt
heyhavet
hei
rgunsout
.

James:Iwaswi
thPhi
ndi
le
Me:Yousaidyouwer
egoi
ngt
othemal
lnowyou
wi
thphindi
le
James:So
Me:Ar
eyout
heonesel
li
ngusoutJames
James:Yesiam
Me:Thi
sisnotagame
James:Unl
essiwantt
oendupiabodybag
Me:Wei
rdshi
thavebeenhappeni
ngl
atel
y
James:Andyout
hinkiJamesZul
uist
heone
Ndu:St
oppl
ayi
ngr
ever
sepsychol
ogy
James:Iam notplayi
ngatanythi
ngifyoufeeli
'
m
theculpr
itt
hantakemeoutrightnow,iwil
leven
helpyou

Her
eachesf
orhi
sgunandgi
vesi
ttoSakhi
le.

Phi
ndi
le
Itfel
tawkwardhuggingSindi
swatouchi
ngher
broughtbackthesnake.That
'sonet
hingidon'
tli
ke.

Voi
ce:Ipr
omi
seiwi
llbehave
Me:Whenhaveyoueverbehaved

Shesmi
les.

Il
aymyheadont
het
abl
enonot
hiscan'
tbe
happeni
ng.

Si
ndi
:Dr
inkt
his
Me:Whatdi
dyoudotomewhydi
dif
eelsomet
hing
whenit
ouchedyou
Si
ndi
:It
sokay.
.It
sokay
Me:St
opt
ell
ingmei
tsokayi
tsnotokayandyou
maki
ngmemad
Sindi
:Iwoul
dn'
twantthatt
ohappenbutyouneed
tocal
m downother
wisetheygoi
ngtobemad

Iser
iousl
ywanttopunchheri
nthef
ace.Icl
osemy
eyesandexhal
e.

Sindi:Seewhathappenswhenyoucal m down,i
knowwhatyouar e.Youranancestralgoddessan
animalyoufeedonlove.Bot
habl essinganda
curse,youdothi
ngsthatnohumancan.Youwi sh
youknewwhati sgoingonwithyoubutt heynot
gi
vingyoucl
earanswer
s

Me:Si
ndi
swaican'
t

Sindi
:Insteadtheybringterr
orandhardshi
pt oyour
l
ife.I
tsnotyourf aul
tyoulikethi
snobody
understandsit
,butyoui ngoodhandsi twi
llget
tr
ickyandal ottobare.Iam hereforyouandt ohel
p
you

Me:I
tsgoi
ngt
ogetwor
se
Sindi:Dependi
ngonhowthingshappenar
oundyou
ican'tsay.I
fgoodt
hingshappenthani
twil
lbea
blessing
Me:Whyme
Si
ndi
:Thoseannoyi
ngancest
orswi
llt
ellyou
Me:Am isupposedt
obewi
tht
hatman
Si
ndi
:Ican'
ttel
lyout
hatt
heywi
ll
Me:Ohwow

Idon'tt
hinkicanhandl
ethi
sget
ti
nganywor
set
han
i
talreadyis.

Mzwakhe
Ihatethefactyoucan'
ttel
lwit
hmyguyswhether
theytel
li
ngthetrut
hornot.Buthi
m iknowhei
s
l
ying.

James:GoaheadNdlovut
akeyourbestshotoh
waitl
et'
smakethi
ngsmoreexci
ti
ng

Hegi
veshi
sot
hergunt
oThabi
so.

James:I
'
m al
lyour
s

Hi
sphoner
ings.
James:Hel
lo..Yeaht
heywantt
oki
llmesoi
'
m
gi
vingt
hem thegoaheadokay

Hetakest
hegunf
rom Sakhi
l
eandpl
acesi
tonmy
hand.

James:Don'
taskquest
ionsj
ustshootme
Me:Manyout
est
ingmer
ightnowimi
ghtj
ust
James:Goaheadi
shayel
emf
ana

Iswearisawar
efl
ect
ionofdadf
lashi
ngt
hrough
hisf
ace.

Me:St
anddown
Ndu:What
Me:St
anddown
James:Whyyounotki
ll
ingmeyoudon'
ttr
ustyour
i
nst
inct
snow
Me:Shutup
James:Haveagoodday

Hest
ormsof
.

Sakhi
le:Yourphone
James:Foundwhatyouwerelooki
ngf
or.You
sat
isf
iedareyougoi
ngtosendAyandatoki
llme
Sakhi
le:James
James:Fuckyouihavehadj ustaboutenoughof
youandyourar rogantbehavior .Thisdisrespect
towardsmef orheavensakesiam ol derthanyou
motherfucker s,yetyouhavet heaudaci t
yt olook
downonme.Ihopeyoudoki llmeandPhi ndil
e
dealswithyou.I '
m ahumannotsomet oyand
defi
nitel
ynotyourf r
iend.Howaboutwekeept hi
s
rel
ati
onshi pstri
ctlyprofessi
onal ly.Don'
tcallme
whenmyshi ftisover ,
don'tcallmewhenyoudo
yourshit,don'tcallmewhenshi thit
sthef an.Don't
cal
lmef
orcl
eanupsokayokaygood

Di
dhej
ustpopofonus.

Phi
ndi
le
Hewantedtoseemeitol
dhim iwasatKri
spy
Kreme.Heent
erst
hestor
eandt hest
aresheget
sis
enoughtomakemejeal
ous.

Mzwakhe:Iwi
llpay

Igr
abmydonut
shepaysandwel
eave.

Mzwakhe:Hi
Me:Hi
Mzwakhe:Theycal
lmeMzwakhebhenguuhl
anyo
Me:Magumede
Hel
aughs.Heli
ft
supmychi
nandkissmeourl
ips
dot
hedir
tydanci
ngimoani
nhi
sli
ps.

Mzwakhe:Awusukamadodal
etsgosomewher
e
pr
ivat
e
Me:I
'
m notgoi
ngwi
thyout
oahot
el

Hepull
smyhand.Wegett
ohi
scarandist
op
wal
king.

Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Somebodywasi
nthecar
Mzwakhe:What
Me:Theyputsomei
nthesomet
hing
Mzwakhe:Theywhat
Me:There'
ssomethi
ngi
nthecarMzwakhe
somethi
nginthecar
Mzwakhe
Idon'
tknowwhatt
odonowi
mlostbutihavet
oact
cool
.

Me:Phi
ndi
let
ellmewhatt
odo

Shel
ooksatme.

Me:Mama
Phi
ndi
le:I
'
m okayl
etsgo
Me:Yousur
e

Sheget
sint
hecar
.

Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:I
tsf
inesomet
hingwasi
nthi
scar
Me:Doyoul
ikeseeever
ythi
ng
Phi
ndi
le:Iseewhati
'
m supposedt
osee
Me:Wow.
..Khonabanil
apho
Sakhi
le:"
Ever
yone"

Idon'
twantanyoneknowi
ngorf
indi
ngoutwhoshe
i
s.

Me:Mamak
Phi
ndi
le:Younott
aki
ngmet
oahot
el
Sakhi
le:"
Ngi
bagxoshe"
Me:Noidon'
twantt
hem i
nmybusi
ness
Sakhi
le:"
Mommy"
Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Nomat
terwher
eit
akehert
heygoi
ngt
ofi
nd
me
Phi
ndi
le:Wecangot
omypl
ace
Me:Ngi
yaphiki
ni
Phindi
le:Ihavemyownhouseyouknowj
ust
thr
owingi toutt
her
e

Thatcoul
dwor
k.

Phi
ndi
le
Wegett
omypl
aceandhei
samazed.

Mzwakhe:Unedl
adl
ael
inswempukanj
e
Me:Bef
oreal
lthi
scr
azi
nessihadmyownl
if
e
Mzwakhe:Ni
cemamel
aayukut
hangi
thandiuf
ike
edl
adl
eni
Me:Ar
eyouagangst
er
Mzwakhe:Whatmeyesiam

Wel
augh.
Phi
ndi
le:Ul
wimil
akhoiseventhoughukhul
uma
i
sZul
uyouhavethatst
reetl
ingo

Hel
aughs.

Me:Wellr
elaxmakeyour
sel
fathomeandiwi
llf
ix
somet
hing

Hegrabsmyar m pi
cksmeupandpl acesmeonthe
i
sland.Heri
psmyshi r
tofandsuckonmybreast
.
Heythatshi
rtwasreal
lyexpensi
ve.
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06/
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26] :19

Sakhi
le

Allihaveishi
snameenoughtodoabackground
check.I'
m goi
ngtodot
hispr
ivat
elywi
thoutt
he
cr
ewknowi
ng.

Me:Ibl
ameyouNdumi
so
Ndu:Fuckyou
Me:Yeahifyouhadn'
tputdoubti
nMzwakhe'
smi
nd
noneoft
hiswouldbehappening
Ndu:Mxm

Thel
if
topens.

Nka:Haiboni menzeniuJames.Hedi dn'

tsmileat
mehewasl ikegooddaysirnyi nyiwahcl
ear.He
waspattingmedownif el
tviolatedandil
eftmygun,
iwil
lgetitbackonceileave.ItwasMzwakher i
ght

Wel
ookatNdumi
soandl
augh.

Me:Let
snotbot
herhi
mlethi
m dohi
sjobandhope
hewi
llcomear
ound
Thabi
so:Don'
tyouguysneedhi
mfort
hej
obwe
aboutt
odo
Me:Eyawukahl
e
Thabi
so:Uphivel
eumnganiwakhoThobani
Thobani
:Hai
bongi
mazel
aph

Il
augh.

Me:Skhul
u

Wef
ist
bump.

Thobani
:Hawengi
mazel
aph

Phi
ndi
le
If
eelmyspi
ri
tjustspi
ral
ingoutofcont
rolcan'
tthey
j
ustletmebehappy.Iwi
lldowhat
evert
heywant
pl
easejustapi
eceofmind.

Mzwakhe:Thi
sisgood
Me:Mmm
Mzwakhe:Ever
ythi
ngokay

Izoneout.Isl
eptwithhimthewholeni ghtwhyare
theyact
ingli
kethis,
ifthi
ngsaresupposedt ogo
thiswayandnottheirownwayt hanletthi
ngsbe.
Theseancestorsmuststopint
erfer
ingtheymust
givemeabr eak.

If
eelast
ingi
ngpi
nchundermyar
m.

Me:Ouchwhatyoudot
hatf
or
Mzwakhe:Undwazi
lenj
engenzenj
an
Me:Oh
Mzwakhe:Doest
hathappenof
ten
Me:Yeaht
hisoneti
meNonhl
eslappedwel
lact
ual
ly
i
twasyouslappi
ngmei
navision
Mzwakhe:AwnkosiyamingavukauNgcol
osi
i
mbalaazongi
tat
abuna
Me:Ngi
yinganeyedl
oziucabangani
Mzwakhe:Gi
rlyouscar
ingmeyoumi
ghtchaseme
awayahahngiyadl
alahawu

Heki
ssesme.

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
ecall
edmedot hesepeopleunderst
andiam
dati
ngnow.Miracul
ouslyhefoundint
eresti
ng
i
nformati
onaboutJames.

Me:Sakhi
lecoul
dn'
tthi
swai
t
Sakhi
le:I
tsaysher
ehewor
kedwi
tht
ermi
nat
or
Me:What
Sakhil
e:Tr
ust
edhim alothewentnowherewithout
James.Hedecidedtostaywit
hf ami
lyaf
terhe
di
sappearedi
ntothinai
r,onedaught
eronesonand
awife.Youwi
llneverbel
ievewho
Me:Who
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Yabonawenadi
di
Sakhi
le:Yousneakybi
tchokaysompi
lwenhl
eZul
u
Me:Ubanil
oyo
Sakhi
le:Yenayedwa

Whoi
sthi
smpi
lonowshel
ooksatme.

Me:Thesamempilowhowasspyi
ngonme
conspi
ri
ngagai
nstmenoAndi
le
Sakhi
le:Boom
Me:Ther
e'ssomet
hingf
ishyher
e
Sakhi
le:Youthi
nki
fidi
gmor
ewenotgoi
ngt
oli
ke
theoutcome
Me:Andi
'
m notpr
epar
edt
oki
llJamesngi
yaj
ola
manje

Sheget
supandgoest
othebat
hroom.

Me:Let
sgi
vehi
mthebenef
itoft
hedoubt
Sakhi
le:Zwakal
ajampass
Me:Ay
Sakhi
le:Oho
Me:Getever
yoneoutandiwi
llcome
Sakhil
e:Mxm udaki
wekant
ingi
bambei
khandl
elal
a
uyanyaboss
Me:Ngi
zohl
alakenemama

Shecomesoutsneezi
ng.
Sakhi
le:Iwi
llkeept
hem di
str
act
edhai
boyi
ni
Me:Uwenanal
eyomngodoyi
Phi
ndi
le:Ahhhhai
bo
Me:Sakhi
lebye
Sakhi
le:Sho
Me:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Phi
ndi
le:Yeahst
opi
nvest
ingJames

Sakhi
le
Ihavenoideawhereheisandican' ttrackhim
downbecauseitwi
llal
erteveryone.Ijustrecei
veda
textf
rom hi
m,imustdropinvesti
gatingJames.

Li
nda:Skhul
umanj
elent
wanai
var
Me:Angi
cavinexskhul
u
Li
nda:I
mamal
eli
ya
Me:Uzoni
dal
elamasekut
handayena
Li
nda:Oh
Thobani
:Musaniukut
handai
zindabakanj
e
Me:Yewenangi
funaukur
inganawe
Thobani
:Kwenzenj
an
Me:Set
humaybehavepossi
blyar
guedwi
th
phi
ndi
leandi
'
m damnsureshehastol
dMzwakhe
Thobani
:Ar
guingaboutwhatnowidon'
thavet
he
ener
gytogotherewit
hhim
Me:I
'
m notsurebutwhateveri
twasshewasl
ivi
d
t
hewholefl
ightwasi
ntense

Her
oll
shi
seyes.

Phi
ndi
le
Happyi
sanunderst
atementhei
sexact
lywhati
needt
ogett
hroughli
fe.

Mzwakhe:Thankyou
Me:Uj
abul
isami
navel
enoma
Mzwakhe:Idon'
teatbabyal
thoughishoul
d
becauseofmyheart
Me:Thatscar
Mzwakhe:Theyhavecutmesomanytimest
hat
t
heyti
redofit
,ihadmajorhear
tpr
obl
ems
Me:Wellnowyouhavemeandyourhear
twi
llnever
hur
tagain

Heki
ssesmyf
orehead.

Mzwakhe:Tel
lmeaboutSeychel
les
Me:I
twasgor
geous,
blue,
sandyandal
lki
ndsof
Amazi
ng
Mzwakhe:Youl
adi
eshadf
un
Me:Mostoft
het
ime
Mzwakhe:Whathappened
Me:Ar
ghSet
hu
Mzwakhe:Wenzeni
Me:Thewhol etimeyournamecameup.Mzwakhe
hasagi r
lfr
iendohhi st
hisandthat,i
'
m savi
ngyou
from aheartbreak.Toapointwhereever
yonegot
fed,Si
ndiswawasl i
kenobodycaresaboutthat
Mzwakhe:Shesai
dthat
Me:Andawholebunchofot
hernonsense.We
t
houghtper
hapsshehasacrushonyou
Mzwakhe:Ukewangi
bonaPhi
ndi
le,
iskeem sam
sona
Me:ExactlyThobaniisver
yhandsomenowshe
saidi
'm notyourtypeandthatmekenj
eint
ombi
yakhoyangithol
a
Mzwakhe:Aychabowazewangi
jwayel
akabi
Me:Doyouhaveagi
rl
fr
iend
Mzwakhe:Notagi
rl
fr
iendsomeoneican'
tgetr
idof

Voi
ce:Shei
spar
tofyourj
our
neynkosazane
Me:Okay
Mzwakhe:Younotmad
Me:Don'tl
ett
hebi
tcht
hinkshecandi
srespectmei
am nott
heone

Hepi
nsmedownki
ssi
ngmyneck.

Me:Mmmm
[
06/
06,
10:
27] :20

Mzwakhe
WhodoesSethut
hinksheis.Thi
siswhyidon'
t
wantanyonei
nmybusiness.

Sakhi
le:Youokay
Me:I
'
m onl
yher
eforaf
ewmi
nut
est
hanil
eave
Sakhi
le:Okay
Me:Wenaongi
tshel
auxakweyi
niezi
ndabenizami
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Awut
hul
e
Set
hu:I
'
m sor
ry
Me:Whot
hefuckdoyout
hinkyouar
erunni
ngyour
mout
haboutme
Thobani
:Mzwakhe
Set
hu:Idon'
tknowwhatyout
alki
ngabout
Me:I nilalelalawenaSethundiniyezwaawungazi
angikwazi .Angaziuxhumauxhasaphiezi ndabeni
zami, ngiphindengizweukhul
umangaminoma
ngegamal ami.Ngi
zokwenzadotiphambi
kwalendodanyanayakho, ungali
ngeungixhaphele
ningij
wayel aamasimbaninaaningazikahle

Iheadt
omyr
oom.
..Ichangeandwal
kout
.

Me:Weyimfeneningiphumel
eemzi
niwami
angeke
ngi
jwayel
weininafokof
Sakhi
le
Wel
augh.

Li
nda:Baf
ethuni
menzaniuMzwakhe

Set
huwasshaki
nghover
ingoverherman.

Me:Mommykant
ikwenzakal
eni
Thabi
so:Ol
wet
hukhul
umahawu
Ol
wet
hu:AySet
hibat
shel
eukut
hut
heni
Me:Okayifnoonewant
stot
alki
'
m goi
ngt
opl
ay
t
herecor
ding
Ol
wet
hu:Ut
shel
euPhi
ndi
le

Shel
aughs.
Olwet
hu:Shefel
ttheneedtowarnherabout
Mzwakhe,hehasagirl
fri
endtheyl
oveeachother
.
Shetol
dhertobecarefulanddon'
tthi
nkshei
s
Mzwakhe'
stype
Me:That
snotyourbusi
ness
Thabi
so:Uhl
anganaphngempel
anent
oenzi
wa
uMzwakhengobaphelananguumunt
uwakhoubab
wenganeyakho
Me:Nxiyour
ubbi
sh
Li
nda:Hl
ampeakuyonananganeyakhenj
e
Thobani
:Ahahyabonakei
nganeyami
manj
e
i
ngenaph
Me:Unenhlanhlaangiyonai
ntombazanei
nto
ebengi
zokuvit
hizayona
Li
nda:Youshi
di
Thobani
:Okayt
hat
'senoughexci
tementf
ort
heday

MzwakheandPear
lai
n'tevendat
ing.I
fdemonwas
aper
sonitwoul
dbeher.Isowishicanslapher
,
not
hingisgoi
ngt
ocomebet
weenMzwakheand
phi
ndil
e.

Li
nda:I
yobonanabaf
ethu
Ndu:Aymi
ssThobani
Me:Isowi
shicanpunchher

Igr
abmyt
hingsandl
eavewi
tht
hem.

Phi
ndi
le
Itissocol dinher eisweari'm goingtodieof
hyper t
hermi a.Thef oggymi stisn'
tdoinganyj usti
ce,
butiseem t oalwaysknowmywayar oundher e.
Themi stclearsnowi '
mi nsomef oresti'm walking
holdingmysel f
.Thi sisthepointwher ethewat er
andsnakecomesl i
ther
ingandgushi ng, wantingto
takeme.It rytospeakbutnot hingcomesout ,ilook
aroundi tisdar kwhati sthisplace..
.Ohher eitgoes
ilooktomyl ef
tt hewateriscomi nginf ul
lforce,
gushingandspl ashingilooktomyr i
ghtt hesnake
i
ssli
ther
ingver
yfast
.Itl
if
tsupi
tsbodyand
snat
chesme.

Iscr
eam andhi
tmyheadagainstsomet
hing.Down
igobangi
ngmyheadreal
lybad.

Mzwakhe
Iwasmadashel lt
heonlythi
ngiwant
edwas
Phi
ndi
le.Ient
erherhouseandfi
ndherunconsci
ous,
wit
hbl
oodonherf orehead.

Me:Phi
ndi
le.
.Phi
ndi
lemamaPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Hm mm
Me:Ohmyt
hankGodyoual
i
ve

Shecr
ies.

Me:What
Phi
ndi
le:Ihi
tmyhead
Me:Iseet
hatmyl
ovei
'
m sor
ry
That
o:Skhul
u
Me:Findmeandgether
ekeepyourmout
hshutand
don'
tusethemoni
tor
s
That
o:W

Ihungup.

Phi
ndi
le:Am idead
Me:Nobabynotyet
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhehasn'
tlef
tme

Ichuckl
eiwi
llf
oreverbebyyoursi
debaby.

James
Ihat
edever
ysi
ngl
emi
nut
eoft
hisbutPhi
ndi
le
l
ook'sli
keatr
ustwort
hyperson.Shehel
pedsaving
Nhlakani
phofr
om gett
inghi
sassbusted,ihaveno
doubtnottot
rusther
.

Andi
le:Younevercal
lme
Me:Thi
ngschanged
Andi
le:Excuseme
Me:Ther e'
sbigbagsofcashstashedinMzwakhe'
s
room f
rom gigshemade.Hecan' tcashi
nbecause
hismissingafewbagsi nt
hatbagi saphonewort
h
dest
royinghimforever
Andil
e:I
sthi
sasetupar
eset
ti
ngmeupJames
haveyoufor
got
ten
Me:Iwilltellyouwhent
omovei
nandhowt
oopen
i
tifyouridiotsmessuphmm

Igetupandl
eavemyhear ti
scl
osinginoneme.
How muchlongerdoineedtoconti
nuedoi
ngthi
s,i
j
ustwantmyfamilyback.
Sabel
o:Youset
ti
nghi
m upagai
n
Me:Iwoul
dshutupi
fwer
eyou
Sabel
o:Caref
ulnowJamesigotnot
hingt
oloseyou
ontheother

Il
augh,
ilaughr
eal
lyhar
dwhodoeshet
hinkhei
s.
Doesheknowme.

Me:Yourf
unnywowineededt
hat

Phi
ndi
le
Iful
lyregai
nedconsci
ousnessandDrMkhi
zewas
coveri
ngupmywound.

That
o:Okayyougoi
ngt
ofeelal
it
tl
ebi
tofpi
nchi
ng
Me:Mmm.Ouch!
Mzwakhe:That
oman
That
o:Anddone
Me:Yourmean
That
o:I
twi
llheali
naf
ewdays
Me:Thankyou

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hel
lo
Mxo:Hai
bouyakhal
ayi
ni
Me:Ngi
shayeki
leandkubuhl
ungu
Mxo:Ncooohintwoweeksi
wil
lbebackcel
a
ungi
lungi
sel
aiyi
ntozami
Me:Ngi
zokubul
alanj
alo
Mxo:Awungi
yabuyangempel
a
Me:Okayngizokhul
umanomaouchcanyoubea
l
it
tl
ebitgent
le.
.Okaybye
Theancestor
scomeoutt
opl
ayaver
yst
rongmal
e
comesthrough.

Me:"
Mkhi
ze"
That
o:Mommy
Me:"
Yindabni
ngangenzelangaumsebenzi
ubusy
noMommyabangat hishuhuhumaneyenahuh
mommymommy"

Hel
ooksatmeconf
usedt
hanr
emember
swhoiam.

Me:"
Makubenj
alomf
ana"ouch
That
o:Thenigetar
eadi
ngwow
Me:If
ucki
nghat
ethi
s

Mzwakhe
Mygirl
fr
iendi
ssomethi
ngelseguysiam scar
edof
heratt
hesametimeecstat
ict
obewi t
hher.She
fi
ll
sthevoi
dinmyheartnoot
herwomancanand
exci
tesmyball
sli
ter
all
y.

Me:Youl
ookoutofi
t
Phi
ndi
le:Benef
it
sofbei
ngspi
ri
tual
Me:Okaynow
Phi
ndi
le:I'
mr eal
lysor
rythi
sisalsot
oomuchfor
me,t
hisjourneyhasbeenhard.Iwoul
dunder
stand
i
fyouleavemebutt hatwil
lbr
eakmyheart

Tearsfal
ldownhercheekdoessher
eal
izeshei
s
breaki
ngmyheart.

Me:Youmani pul
ati
ngmewit
hyourtearsnow,hey
i
'
m notleavi
ngyounodoiwantto.Vi
oletsar
eblue
r
osesarerediknowyouhappyi
'
m wi t
hyou

Welaugh,
shelaysherheadonmychestnot
hing
beat
sthi
sfeel
ing.
Me:Ngi
zohl
alanawel
aungakhal
iphel
a
Phi
ndi
le:Okay

Weki
ssandonet
hingl
eadst
oanot
her
.
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06/
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10:
28] :21

Phi
ndi
le
"Gonehomeseeyoul
ater"t
henotereads.Whati
f
helef
tmeagainwoul
dn'tbethef
ir
sttimehedid,
i
grabmyphoneandcal
lNonhle.

Nonhl
e:Heypr
ett
ylady
Me:Hel
eftmeagai
n
Nonhl
e:What
Me:Gonehomeseeyoul
ater
Nonhl
e:Ar
eyouf
orr
eal
Me:Hedi
dn'tt
ell
menorbot hert
owakemeupand
sayi
'
m goneoratextihopeyouokayi
'
m madbusy
Nonhl
e:Thedi
ckdr
ivi
ngyoucr
azyal
ready
Me:Youwoul
difyout
ast
edi
t

Shel
aughs.

Me:Pl
usi
'
m hur
t
Nonhl
e:Whati
sitnow
Me:Ibangedmyheadreall
ybadandican'tbeon
myown, whati
fmyheartstopsorizoneoutand
nobodyisher
etowakemeup
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
ecal
m downhei
scomi
ngback
Me:Ishoul
dn'
thavecall
edyouiknewyouwer
e
goi
ngtotakehi
sside.Arghyounouset
ome
Nonhl
e:Gi
rliwi
llsmackyou
Me:Whatam isupposedt
odowi
thmysel
fthe
whol
eday
Nonhl
e:Het
oldyounj
ehei
scomi
ngback
Me:Hewr ot
elat
er,
lat
ercoul
dmeanaweek,
monthsyears
Nonhl
e:Yousoundr
idi
cul
ous

What
ever
.

Me:Howar
ethi
ngsgoi
ngwi
thyouandSamkel
o
Nonhl
e:Idon'
twantt
otal
kaboutSamkel
o
Me:Nonhl
eyout
hat
Nonhl
e:Justl
etmehandl
emyowni
fitget
stoughi
knowwhattodo

Isi
gh.

Me:Okay
Ihavetogohomenow.Iwon' tbest
ucki
nmy
housebymyselfnotwi
ththesewil
dancest
ors,
anythi
ngcanhappeni'
m adangertomysel
f.

Mzwakhe
Helaughedatmehardihavebusi
nesst
otakecar
e
ofwhatiswrongwi
thleavi
nganote.

Sakhi
le:Iam notl
ett
ingyour
uint
hiswhatdi
dyou
l
eavewi t
hthenote
Me:Not
hing
Sakhil
e:Youcan'
tjustl
eaveanotewit
hnot
hing
hangingoutl
iket
hat.Leaveaf
lower,
money,
breakfast
Me:Ar
gh
Thobani
:Sengi
khona
Me:Li
ndani
Thobani
:Howwi
llt
hiswor
kwi
thoutJames
Me:Wegooddon'
twor
ryaboutJames
Sabel
o:Sor
ryi
'
mlat
eij
ustf
oundacoolr
out
es
Me:Seewedon'
tneedJames
Sabel
o:Anyoneeverbeenher
eit
sver
yqui
etwi
th
ver
yli
ttl
emovement
Me:Ani
khul
umenayemel
engi
hambe
Sabel
o:Buyt
hoset
hings
Me:Yeahwhat
ever

Nonhl
eSi
biya
Iam NonhleSibiyat
hel astborninthefamil
y.Ihave
fourothersi
bli
ngs,l
ifewasn'talwayseasyonme.I
wast heonlygi
rloutoffourboys,lefthometo
pursuemydr eamsbuti ntheendl i
fegottomeand
taughtmeaver ypainfull
esson.

Me:Si
biyasawubona
Cal
ler
:Yel
lowbone
Ther
e'sonl
yoneper
sonwhocal
lsmel
iket
hat
.

Me:Mzwakhe

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Angazikanjanngonephikodwacel
a
usi
zolwakho.Bengif
unaukucavauqueenuzishaya
ngani
,yonkenj
elenonsenseyenu

Il
aughohnohedi
dn'
t.

Mzwakhe:Ngempel
amommy
Me:Wellshei
sabigfanofchocolat
ekhona
esi
dayi
saloawut
handaimpela,i
bhokisiel
ibovu
Mzwakhe:Yahungakhohl
waamahl
amvuenu
Me:Wowbr
awowhydr
angeasar
eherf
avor
it
e
f
lower
s
Mzwakhe:Weeengi
zozi
cavaphimanj
elezozi
nto
ei
shsan
Me:Iwilltextyouwhattheylookli
ke,anddon't
for
getthewayt oawoman'sheartforgi
vingisfood
l
otsandl otsoffood.Asuckerforwings,ri
bs
anythi
ngexceptf orseaf
oodnof i
shnonot hing
Mzwakhe:Ngobangi
bonauf
lyi
ngf
ishnj
emi
nal
a
Me:She'
sal
ler
gic
Mzwakhe:Okaymommyt
a

Hehungsupil
aught
hant
exthi
m andwhathe
shoul
dbuy.

Sam:Whatyoul
aughi
ngat

Mymooddropsinstantl
yihadhopedhewasgoi ng
tobemyfor
ever
,buthet ur
nedouttobetheworst
night
mar
eoutofallhismonsterbr
other
s.Iwonder
whatMzwakhewoul dsayifhef
oundoutSabel
ois
thebrot
herofhi
sarchenemy.Andil
eandMzwakhe
areswornenemieswhentheyfi
ghti
tswarand
complet
echaos.

Me:Phi
ndi
le
Sam:Youdi
dn'
ttel
lher
Me:Wet
alki
ngaboutherboyf
ri
end
Sam:I
'
m goi
ngoutdon'
tdosomet
hingiwoul
dn'
tdo

Onedayi '
m goingtogetoutoft
hishellhol
eand
t
hatwillbethebestdayofmyl i
fe.Hopeful
lyt
his
wil
lcheerPhindil
eup.

Mzwakhe
Icoul
dn'tf
indthestupidhydrangeas.Iordered
them t
heywillarr
iveanyti
mef rom now, idi
dgett
he
boxofchocolateandsomeot herthings.Whobuys
chocol
ateforhundredrandthat'sawast eofmoney.
Il
ayt
het
hingsont
hei
slandandheadt
oherr
oom.

Me:Uyaph
Phi
ndi
le:Home
Me:Il
eftaver
yimpor
tantmeet
ingt
ocomeandbe
wi
thyouandyoutel
li
ngmeyourgoinghome
Phi
ndi
le:Yeap

I'
m get
ti
ngangr
yidon'
tknowyouandshe'
sonher
phoneisnat
chi
tfr
om her.

Phi
ndi
le:Youl
eft
Me:Mamaiwr
oteanot
ethi
sti
me
Phi
ndil
e:Cal
landsayyouokayt
extmef
indouti
f
i
'm up
Me:Okayyouknowwhatidon' thavet
imeforyour
stupidt
antrums,i
'm goingtogoshower
.Usungaya
ekhishi
niukubekaiyi
ntozakho
Reallyareallf
emal
esli
kethi
sorisheracting
ri
diculous.Idar
ehert
oleaveandshewillknowme.

Thabi
soBhengu
I'
m Thabi soBhengut heel destbr ot
her.Igotnine
othersiblingsonlyonemar r
iedtomyl ongt i
me
partner,sweetheartOlwet huBhengunot hing
i
nteresti
ngaboutmeot hert hanbeingcr azy.Iheld
thi
sf amilyandcr ewf oraver ylongtime, i
twast ime
formet ohandovert her opest oMzwakhe.He
seemst obehandl i
ngi tlikeapr oisomet i
mesdon' t
agreewi thhowhewor ks, butheal waysget sthejob
doneandmakessur ehi sf amilyisprotect
edbef ore
anythingel se.

Thel
astbor
nandhi
spar
tnerhadsomet
hingt
otal
k
tomeabout
.

Li
ndo:Si
ndi
swaar
eyousur
e
Si
ndi
:Li
ndokuhl
eBhenguiam posi
ti
ve
Me:Ni
ngaxabaniphel
aphambikwami

Theysi
gh.

Me:Yougoi
ngt
otel
lmewhat
'sgoi
ngon
Li
ndo:I
nkosazanei
fi
kil
e

Ist
andonmyf
eet
.

Me:Ni
thikunj
ani
Si
ndi
:She'
sher
efi
nal
ly
Me:Howsurear
eyouaboutt
hisyal
lsai
ditcoul
d
t
akefor
ever
Si
ndi
:Butshe'
sher
enow
Li
ndo:Ihavet
otal
ktoyouaboutt
his
Si
ndi
:Shecanonl
yrevealher
sel
fonceshef
eel
s
Me:Lovedareyouki
ddi
ngmet
heseboysknow
not
hingaboutl
ove
Li
ndo:I
'm goi
ngdisappearforawhi l
eihaveto
makesurewef oundher.Nomat terwhathappensi
wi
llal
wayshavet otakeherside
Me:I
sthatwhyyouback
Li
ndo:Thabi sokuningiokuzokwenzekauzela
ukuzolungisaizi
ntoezenziwaugogo,melesenze
i
siqi
nisekisoukuthsihlezisi
mphathakahl
e
si
mnakekel a
Me:Yaqalai
nkat
hazomadodakodwangat
h
seni
yazinj
e

Theyl
ookateachot
herandsmi
le.

Si
ndi:Hei
sver
yhappywit
hthechosenonet
hey
j
ustneedt
obondali
tt
lemore
Me:Ihopeitdon'tchooseMzwakhet hatboywi
ll
dest
royeveryt
hingandi twi
lldest
royus
Si
ndi
:SheThabi
soshe

Imustshowt hem whatitmeanstoloveahuman

beingespeci
all
ytheothergender
,becauset
hese
foolsar
edefi
nitel
ygoingtomakeamess.

Sakhi
le
Idon'
thaveanswersf
orthet
hequesti
onsthey
aski
ngme.Iknowwhohei swit
hbutihavenoidea
wheretheyar
e,Thabi
socomesbar
ginginreadyt
o
punchsomeone.

Thabi
so:Yougoi
ngt
odot
hisj
obwi
thoutMzwakhe
Me:Wemor
ethancapabl
eofdoi
ngi
t
Thabi
so:Youmaybet
hesemot
herf
ucker
sidon'
t
thi
nkso
Thobani
:Thabi
so
Me:Haveal
it
tl
efai
th
Thabiso:Idon'
tfuckwi
tht
hatandyounotgoingt
o
testmesoisuggestyoucall
yourboyr
ightnow
Me:But
Thabi
so:Mf
onel
enj
engamanj
e
Me:Yoh

Ical
lhi
m.

Me:Hi
snotanswer
ingokay

Voi
ce:Mzwakhe'
sphonehel
l
o
Me:Mommy
Phi
ndi
le:Sakhi
leohhey
Me:I
sthatbi
tcht
her
e
Phi
ndi
le:Hei
sshoweri
ngohSakhi
lei
scal
li
ngyou
sor
ryf
oranswer
ingyourphone
Mzwakhe:Youcananswert
hephoneanyt
ime
Sakhi
lewhatdoyouwant
Iputt
hephoneonspeaker
.

Me:Ebbabaubhut
iwakhouvut
hauml
il
oukuf
unal
a
nou
Mzwakhe:Angi
thandi
Thabi
so:Angi
zwayewenaungazongi
dakel
wa
yezwauzol
andwai
minalaphoangekekubemnandi
Mzwakhe:Youmor ethanwelcomet obi
tchandsee
whatiwilldotoyou.Lalel
anil
aningali
nge
ni
ngiphapheleni
yangizwa,val
aifoniPhi
ndil
e
Phi
ndi
le:But
Mzwakhe:Nj
engamanj
e

Thecalldisconnect
sever
ybodyhear
dfor
themselves.

Sabel
o:UbaniuPhi
ndi
le
Thobani
:Nobodyyouneedt
owor
ryyour
sel
fabout

Ilaughhi
m andThobanidon'
treal
lygetal
ong
there'
sal
istofpeopl
eThobanidoesn'
tli
ke.

Me:Okayl
etsl
ookattheser
out
esThabi
socal
m
downwegotever
ythi
ng
Thabi
so:Hambamt
akabhengu

Hecl
apsonceandl
eaveswel
augh.
[
06/
06,
10:
28] :22

Mzwakhe
Thesepeopl
earesodi sr
espect
fulespeci
all
y
Thabi
sothebiggesthypocr
it
eofthem all
.

Me:I
kuphii
nki
ngayakho
Hei
gnor
esme.

Me:Washolaniukut
hangi
phat
hemawuzoqhubeka
uzi
phat
hiseokwesfebe
Thabi
so:Angi
zwa
Me:Ungizwekahl el
alelamawunenki ngangendlel
a
engenzaizi
ntongayo.Wamukel ekil
eukuphatha
kodwaungal i
ngeucabange, ukuthuzongit
shela
ukuthngenzeni,
ngenziniyezwaangi zuphat
hwa
uwenaungangi j
wayelikabi
.Thisi smycrewandi
wil
ldowhat ever
,wheneverandhowevert hefucki
wanttodookay
Thabi
so:Getoutofmyhouse
Me:Wi
thpl
easur
e

Heissoimpossi
blesomet
imesiwi
shiwast
he
el
dest
,igeti
nmycar .

Me:Wher
eyouatokayi
'
m comi
ng
Phi
ndi
le
Het extmeheai n'tcomi ngbackt
heyrequest i
nghis
presence.It
sgoi ngt obeal ongnightblahblahbl
ah.
Ifeelli
kehei slyingt omeandmygutf eeli
ngis
neverwr ong,ican' tstayherebymyselfsoiuber
backhome.Iam sur et heymissmeandcan' twait
formet otellthem al l
.

.
..
.

Anhourl ateriar r
ivehomeyeahiwant edtobefar
awayf rom t hem,andmakei talmosti
mpossibl
efor
them tovisitme.Becauseiam f arawayandyou
canonl ytravelbycar,ienterandmetwiththe
biggestsur priseofmylif
e.

Me:Sengi
yazi
sol
anokut
hngi
buyel
ani
Hesmi
les.

Mxo:Goodt
oseeyout
ool
it
tl
esi
ster
Me:Ubuyel
ani
Mxo:Aw
Me:Ut
het
woweeks

Welaughhegetsupandhugsmeahmyfavor
it
e
br
otheri
sbackimissedhi
m somuch.

Mxo:Unj
ankodwa
Me:Bet
ternowt
hatyouher
e

Mzwakhe
Ifi
ndthem dr
inki
ngreal
lyt
heymadesuchaf uss
aboutmenotpayingatt
ent
ion,nowtheydr
owning
i
nliquor
.Il
eftmywomanf orthisshi
t.
Me:Sakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Skhul
uawul
anabengi
th
Me:Ubut
hini
Sakhi
le:Aynohadebaf
o
Me:Sengi
khonakhul
umanibat
hul
aabantuheheki
f
ki
fuMzwakhekwashokwacimaamal
ahlezi
thi
ni
khul
umaniphel
a

Iheadupst
air
s.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Thi
siswhatyoucal
ledmef
or
Sakhi
le:Wethoughtyouwi
thyourgi
rl
fr
iendahah
Thabi
soistheoneokayyeahso
Me:Ungal
ingeuzi
xabani
senami
Sakhi
le:Awskhul
ungat
hkuyi
miengi
funawena
noMommyni yi
phushel
ent
okhambani
Me:Aynozi
yakhi
pha
Sakhi
le:Idon'
ttr
ustt
hissuddeni
nter
estwi
th
Sabel
o
Me:Idon'
tei
thersowecomeupwi
thapl
anbt
hat
onl
yyouandiknow
Sakhi
le:James
Me:Don'
twor
ryabouti
t
Sakhi
le:Okaysoiwi
llseeyouwheniseeyougo
backt
oi mama

Ishakemyheadahit
hinkiwi
llseehert
omor
row.

Phi
ndi
le
Mxoli
siandiwenttof
etchhi
ski
dstheywereso
happytoseeme.Idon'
tknowwhyhedidn'
tjust
comewi t
hthem onet
ime.

Mvel
o:Aunt
ysohambanawenamhl
anj
e
Me:Hmm si
yahambanamhl
anj
emj
Hesmi
les.

Li
zeka:It
hinkt
hiswi
llbeenough
Me:Awl
izekai
tsj
ustf
ort
heweekend
Li
zeka:Thisoneisawil
dcatthi
smessesupalot
tr
ustmeyougoi ngtoneedthi
smylove.Okayboys
goputtheseindaddy'
scare

Theyr
unofexci
ted.

Mxo:Mvel
o
Mvel
o:Sor
rydaddy

Iwil
lal
sowai ti
nthecartheymi ghtwanttohave
somegoodgood.IwonderwhatMzwakhei sdoi
ngi
cal
lhimitgoestovoicemail
,icallhi
m agai
n
voi
cemail.Ical
lNonhlei
nstead.
James
Anunexpect
edvisi
torshowedupilethi
mt hr
ough.
Hel
ooksexhaustedwhateverhegottosayican'
t
doi
t,hepourshi
mselfadrink.

Mzwakhe:Ineedyou
Me:It
houghtisai
d
Mzwakhe:Jamespl
easeican'
tdot
hiswi
thoutyou
Me:Thebaddesti
nthegamescar
ed

Hepul
lsouthi
sgun.

Mzwakhe:Iwon'
taskyouagai
nyoupunksof arwe
don'
tknowwhat'
sgoingonwit
hyou.Younot
sayi
nganythi
ngasfarast
herespectpar
tyes
maybebut
Me:Iwi
llt
alkt
osomepeopl
eift
heyagr
eet
hanonl
y
wi
llihel
pyou.
.GoodbyeMzwakhe

Hi
sf at
herwasj ustliket
hisimpulsi
veandar
rogant.
Heleavesbangingt hedoori l
aughoncemyfamily
i
sout ,
i'
m goi
ngt oteacht hatAndil
eaver
yhard
l
essonhewon' tforget.
[
06/
06,
10:
28] :23

Twoweeksl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Ihaven'
theardanythi
ngf r
om Mzwakhei nawhile,
butihaveheardofmul t
ipl
erobber
ies.Hehasn't
text
edmenorcal l
edyetihavebeenbl owinguphis
phoneli
keamadper son.

Mxo:Awi
zinj
amadoda
Nonhl
e:Hai
bongi
yaphuphayi
niMxol
isi
Mxo:Sawubonamunt
uwami
Nonhl
e:Heenowonderi
zint
ozi
mnandikanj
eand
t
hanwenasanbonaendl
ini
Mxo:Doesshehaveaboyf
ri
end
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowdoyouhaveaboyf
ri
end
Me:I
tsbeent
woweeksandihaven'
thear
dasi
ngl
e
t
hing
Nonhl
e:Maybehei
sbusy
Me:I
sthi
sbei
ngbusy

Shet
akesmyphone.

Me:Iwon'
tbemadeaf
oolNonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Whyyoucr
ying
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhle:Okayl
ist
eni
'
m nother
eforthatzi
yawa
ngaphesheyanamhl
anj
eandsiphakat
hihl
ampe
uzombona
Hepromisedmehei
snotgoi
nganywher
eandhe
br
okehisword.

Sakhi
le
Nkabi
ndeamongstotherswerehappywit
hwhatwe
di
dandourbankbalancesaredoingavosho.

Ndu:At
oastt
othi
sguyMrcr
azyMzwakheayman

Hedownshi sdri
nkinonegohehasn'
tbeenhappy
l
atel
y.Ihaven'
taskedwhati
swrong,t
hingscannot
gowrongsosoon.

Me:Mzwakheyouokay
Mzwakhe:Whywoul
dn'
tibe

Hepour
sanot
hershotandgul
psi
tdown.
Me:Youbeenmoodynj
e
Mzwakhe:Okayemvakwanamhlanjecel
a
ni
ngi
phumeleemziniwamiangi
nicel
ifut
h

Hegr
abst
hebot
tl
eandheadsupst
air
s,if
oll
owhi
m.

Me:Skhul
u
Mzwakhe:Thathoengithingi
mshayangosurpri
se
ngi
ficaumuntuumuncananomunyeumj i
ta,ey
ngezwainhl
izi
yoinyokoza
Me:Umbuzi
lenomaukhet
heukumzi
ba
Mzwakhe:Ngi
thingi
kwenzel
anil
okhoumunt
u
engi
jwayel
akabi
Me:Uyazi
zwaukut
hut
hini
Mzwakhe:Hl
ampenjengizombonanamhl
anj
e,
ngi
zoyi
shayal
eyangane
Me:Weengat
hungazi
sol
ayezwanxiyoubul
lshi
t
Ican'
tchangehi
smindormakehim seer
eason,
he
al
readymadeuphismindanddeci
dedsheisgui
lty.

Thobani
Eventt
imeil
ovet
hrowingpart
iesf
ort
hepeopl
e.
Theyshowupdance,
drinkandhavel
otsandl
otsof
fun

Me:Ever
ythi
ngi
sready
Noxy:Omamababhi
ziekhi
shi
niyonki
ntoi
hamba
kahl
e

Igetasur
pri
sevi
sitf
rom mybabi
es.

Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Wol
alapho
Nonhl
e:Hel
lohel
losanbona
Me:Uf
ikeni
ni
Mxo:Beent
woweeksnow
Me:Andt
hisbi
tchdi
dn'
ttel
lme
Mxo:Bamghost
il
e

Hel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Mxol
isino
Mxo:Whati
tst
het
rut
h
Me:Ngiyashonj
eizi
ntozi
mnandikanj
eyal
lcomi
ng
t
onight
Nonhl
e:Cha

Sheshoul
dnotl
etMzwakhegettoherl
ikethi
s.Iam
notenj
oyi
ngt
hisPhi
ndi
leitl
ooksli
kesheisfarf
ar
away.

Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Yi
ndab
Phi
ndi
le:Not
hingi
tsokay
Me:Okay

Ileti
tgobecausei
ficonti
nuebei
ngpersist
ent,she
i
sr eal
lygoi
ngtopopofonme.Alreadyshelooks
l
ikeshewant st
ohurtsomethi
ng.

Mxo:Besengi
nikhumbul
ebafet
hueymanje
umsebenzi
,bukanjeumunt
uuzoshayaamaget
down
Me:AyayMxol
isiuzongangeniukhul
umaul
wabi
shi

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Ir
ecei
vedeachandever
yoneofhermessages.
Somewereinsul
ts,
somewhereinsul
tsandsome
werej
ustsi
lent
.Thi
nki
ngaboutherandanot
her
manjustmakesmesickt
omyst omach.

Set
hu:Di
dyouseet
hispost

Sheshowsmeapi ct
ureofphi
ndil
eandt
hesame
dudeisawhersucki
ngfaceswi
th.

Sethu:Myti
mingmayhavebeenwr
ongbutiwas
ri
ghtsheisnott
heonef
oryou
Me:Shutyourmout
h

Youdon' tdomelikethatevenifourr
elat
ionshipis
sti
llnewandf r
esh,shedoesn'thavetheri
ghttobe
entert
ainingot
hermen.Wer at
hernotbetogether
thanhaveherbet ouchyfeelywit
hanotherman, oh
hellno.Iheadtomyr oom andtextSi
weim comi ng
over.
Phi
ndi
le
Mxo:Usungconokemanj
e
Me:Obvi
ousl
yif
eel
bet
terwi
thyouguysar
ound
Mxo:That
'swhatiwantt
ohear

Iwasfeel
ingver
yemot
ionalbutmybr
otherand
Nonhl
earoundwascomfort
ing.

Nonhl
e:Uboni
leuSet
huut
heni
Me:Thatgi
rli
slocof
orr
eal
sigotnot
imet
o
ent
ert
ainhe
Nonhl
e:Ngi
hal
elaukumshayangempama
Me:Maseuyaboshwa
Nonhl
e:Kadengagci
naukul
waf
uth

Shel
aughst
hanl
ooksatme.
Nonhle:Babesyoudon'
tthi
nkhei
signor
ingyou
becauseofthi
s
Me:Hei
smental
lyunstabl
eiwoul
dn'
tputi
tpass
hi
m hei
scr
azyifthat
sthecase
Nonhl
e:Awmnganiwami

Shelaughs,
Mxoli
si'
sscof
fthatwouldbereal
ly
ri
dicul
ousofhi
m.Hei smybigbrot
herforGod'
s
sake.

Sakhi
le
Itwassuchavibealreadydemonpear li
sher eyou
knowMzwakheij ustcan'tl
.Idon'
tunderstandwhy
hehadtobringher,imighthavetoleaveearl
yhow
canyouenjoyyourselfwhenshe'saround.

Pear
l:Uhm i
tlooksl
ikeihavet
ogo
Oht
hankGod.

Mzwakhe:Wantmet
o
Pear
l:Noyouhavef
uniwi
llseeyoul
ater

Goodr
iddancet
obadr
ubbi
sh.

Li
nda:Thobanil
oyamommyuphi
Thobani
:Akezi
Mzwakhe:Ubusyuyaf
eba
Me:Yazingi
theuzozi
sol
a
Thobani
:Uxakweyi
niwena
Mzwakhe:Thankyouohandshe'
spayi
ngr
ight
Thobani
:Youaski
ngmeort
ell
ingme
Mzwakhe:Fedeabanyeabananki
ngayena
Thobani:Iwanthert
omakeyousweatyourbal
ls
yougoingtoregrett
his
Mzwakhe:Loyal
tyThobanil
oyal
tyt
hat
'sal
li'
m
aski
ng

Ilookupandagroupofpeopl
ewalki
n,amongst
them Phi
ndi
lehol
dinganot
herman'
shand.

Me:Thobani
Mzwakhe:Angi
thuyabona

Ohheisdef
ini
tel
ychar
ginghert
hef
ucki
sshe
doi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le
Wear ri
veandt hedynamicshavechanged.We
stoppedreceivi
ngthefi
vestartr
eat
ment ,
nois
payingattent
iontousthi
sisridi
cul
ous.Igetupi
needtof i
ndoutwhatisgoingon.Thobanistopsme
onmyt racks.
Thobani
:Ei
shmommyi
yakhal
alendoda
Me:Whati
sgoi
ngon
Thobani
:Igot
tat
reatyoul
iket
her
estoft
hem and
l
etyoupay
Me:I
'
m sor
rywhat
Thobani
:Idon'
tknowwhati
sgoi
ngonmaybeyou
cantel
lme

Ir
emovehi
shandof
fme.

Thobani
:Mommy
Me:I
fthat
swhatyouwantt
hansobei
t

Iheadovert
oourt
abl
eMxolisihugsmef
rom
behindandwewal
ktoourt
able.

Mxo:Yi
nii
nki
nga
Me:Wecangot
ococo'
sidon'
thaveapr
obl
em
Nonhl
e:Howit
oldSamkel
othatiwi
llbeher
e
Me:uThobaniut
heangaziubanimel
esi
nganakwa
si
khokhefut
h
Nonhl
e:Aw
Mxo:Yi
nimanj
euThobani

Sakhi
leandLi
ndanii
nvi
tet
hemsel
vest
oourt
abl
e.

Sakhi
le:Mommy
Li
nda:Awumunt uwamiusuyangi
fel
anj
alo
ngi
kufunakanj
e
Mxo:Ut
hini
Sakhi
le:Uyenzel
anil
ent
oyaziukhawat
hisaubr
a
wamiubanilebharil
e

Mxol
isil
et'
sgoofmeist
ophi
m.

Mxo:Gci
nol
etgoofme
Me:Theynotwor
thi
t
Nonhle:Whydon'
tyougobackt
oyourt
abl
eand
j
ustleaveusal
one
Li
nda:Si
funaukwaziubanil
o

Il
ookathi
m.

Nonhl
e:Ubhut
iomdal
akaPhi
ndi
le

Theyl
ookateachot
herandl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Nowai
tst
opl
aughi
ngt
heyser
ious
Me:Pl
easego

Mzwakhe
Whywouldshedothi
stomeitdoesn'tl
ooklikethey
l
eavi
ngandshehasonashortdress.Abunchof
br
okeugl
yboyshavejoi
nedt
heirtabl
e,i
'm goingto
f
ucksomebodyup.

Nt
ando:Bengat
hini
yosusauchukul
aphaya
Li
nda:Aysi
mangal
il
e
Sakhi
le:Basi
qedaamandl
a
Thabi
so:Ut
hiubaniubhut
indi
ni

Theyl
ookateachot
herandl
augh.

Li
nda:Ayangi
ngenendawomi
navel
eangazi
nokut
huwubanil
osisi

Hel
aughs.

Li
nda:Skhul
u

Nowhei
shover
ingoveryel
lowbonewhoi
sthi
sguy,
iwantt
oknockhi
sugl
yfaceout
.

Thobani
:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Ayay
Thobani
:Nonhl
emf
ethu
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tcar
eaboutwhatyouhavet
osayyou
madeyourbed
Man:Ubanikant
ilendodaej
olanoSi
swami

Ichokeonmydr
inksi
swami
.

Him:Changobai muzibeutwoweekswonkeiphi
nde
i
yamnqabelaajabulenoubaniloemele
ngi
mhliphi
zefast.Ayangisat
handiangi
sat
handi
ngoSisiwami
Nonhl
e:Mxol
isiwai
t

Shel
ooksatmet
hanr
aisesherhandsatme.Si
ster
.
Sakhi
le
Ididsayhewasgoingt oregreti
tnowlook.He
accusedherwi
thoutfactsandican'tbel
ieveiwas
dumbenoughtof al
lforit
.Ifsheisherbr
ot hernoxy
wil
lknowshewasser vingus.

Me:Ehnoxy
Noxy:Yesdar
li
ng
Me:Ubanil
oyabhut
i
Noxy:Who

Li
ndanipul
lsherhand.

Me:Thatguy
Noxy:OhMxol
isiubhut
iomdal
akaPhi
ndi
le

Li
ndanicr
acksi
nlaught
er.
Me:Awukahl
e
Thabi
so:Ubhut
iwakhe
Noxy:Boysenj
oy

Ifheal
lowedmet odoabackgroundcheckhe
wouldshehasabr ot
her
.Theyhitthedancefloor
yeahyouwon'tbeablet
otel
ltheybrotherandsist
er.

Phi
ndi
le
CanMxol isivi
sital
ltheti
meourr elat
ionshi
pis
beyondamazi ng.Wel oveeachotherhar dandwe
protecteachotherhard,whenhei saroundi'
mfree
spir
ited.Hebringsoutthebabyinmewenaught y
together,
wedr inkt
ogethernobodycancome
betweenusnotevenhi swif
e.

Thobanii
nter
ject
shimsel
fbet
weenussepar
ati
ng
mefrom mybr ot
her
.
Thobani
:Bengangi
zondabonkekodwaaywena

Hepul
lsmeawayf
rom t
hecr
owd.

Mxo:WeThobaniwena
Thobani
:Ngi
mil
a
Me:Letgoofme
Thobani:Nol i
stennowigeti thethoughthewas
yourboyfriendorsomet hi
ng.Nooneeverknows
what'
sgoi ngoni nhi
shead, pleasemommy
ungayenzil entoungiphathakabuhlungu

Heissti
llmyf r
iendeventhoughhedi
dmewr
ong
butourf
r i
endshipist
hatvaluabl
e.

Mzwakhe
Icanadmi
ttomywr
ongsnowai
tican'
t.I
misinter
pretedthewhol
esi t
uat
ion,iwasfil
ledwi
th
angerimi ssedhersomuchandwant edtosurpr
ise
her.Ican'tbel
ieveimi
stakenherbrotherf
ora
boyfri
endwowMzwakheyourani diot
.

Thabi
so:Ngat
huyayi
shubi
sal
obhut
indi
niwakhe
Me:Theydef
ini
tel
yknowandr
especthi
m

Thechi sanyamawasonf ir
epeopledanci
ngon
tablesineverseenanyt
hingli
kethisi
nmyl i
fe.
Thankst omyboysandherbr othernomancomes
closetoher .

Thabi
so:Mzwakhehambaphel
a
Me:Thabi
so
Thabi
so:NoMzwakhegoandapologi
zeyouwere
wronganddon'
tuseyourdi
ckasagetawayr
espect
her
Isi
gh.Theypassbythi
ssideyel
lowboneisnow
wastedamanvigor
ouslypull
sher,shescr
eams.

Mxo:Yewenadi
di
Hi
m:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Nxinyol
isi
wokunukawenzaniSamkel
o
Samkel
o:Oht
hankGodi
tsyou
Mxo:Ahhal
lyoubi
tchesar
eluckyi
'
m dr
unk

Idon'
tli
kethelookonherfaceshelooksatmethan
l
ooksdownokayi '
m shut
tingthi
sdownr i
ghtnow.I
grabherpayi
ngnoattent
iontothi
sthisbi
tch.
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06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Ichosenottogetinvolvedbecauseidoadead
bodyiscomingout .Shehasalwaystol
dmenott o
beinherbusiness,whensheneedsmeshewi llcal
l
me.Idon'tcar
eiftheyscream atmeoraccuseme
ofbeingabadfri
end,theywon'tbearoundwhen
she'sgonebacktohim andhewhi sper
ssweet
nothingsandi
'mtoblame.

MyheartbleedsforNonhleidon'tunder st
andwhy
she'
snottrusti
ngme.Couldshebeaf raidtel
li
ngme
Samkeloisabusingheri
nsomeway, willl
eadtome
taki
ngdrasti
cmeasures.Idon'thonestly.

Me:Ukungi
thet
hisakwenukwenzamuphiumehl
uko
Mxol
isi
:Ubestf
ri
endwakho
Me:Manj
e
Mzwakhe:Akekhoumunt
uwesi
fazaneomel
e
ahl
ukunyezwekanj
e
Me:Ohyouaf
ineonet
otal
k
Mzwakhe:Phel
aasi
jol
ingekeuqhat
hani
sei
zint
o
ezi
ngaf
ani
Me:Vel
eut
hul
engobai
nyongoyodwal
e
oyi
khul
umayo
Mzwakhe:Ungakhul
uminamikanj
alo
Me:Iwi
llt
alkt
oyouhowevert
hef
uckiwantso
backof
fall

Sheget
supsmi
li
ngwi
pingherf
ace.

Nonhl
e:Youknowhei
sgoi
ngt
opuni
shyour
ight
Me:Idon' tcareyazianginendabausengenzanoma
yiniuzikhi
phil
enjekumi naandyouknowwhat s
funny.I'm goi
ngtoignorealltheredfl
agsandrun
backt ohim

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Youguysar
emyf
avor
it
ecoupl
e
Me:Sowegoi
nghomeori
tsal
readypassmybed
t
ime
Nonhl
e:Andnoonei
njur
edupt
op
Me:Mxo
Mxo:Wahleziut
hiMxothanibhut
iMxowenakade
ngabonal
entoyakhoyokungi
that
hakancane
Me:Youwai
ti
ngf
orsomeone
Mxo:Umawezi
nganezami
Me:Umauzosi
xoshayezwa

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e:Fami
lymeet
ing
Mxo:Engat
hiseni
phuzanj
alokhonaekumel
e
ngi
kushoaw
Me:Oncewashonj
alo
Mxo:I
phel
il
eindabanomor
edr
inki
ngnomor
e
par
tyi
ng
Me:Weshoul
dhi
tthecl
uboneoft
hesedaysbef
ore
youl
eave
Mzwakhel
ooksatmel
iket
hef
uckyouar
e.

Mxo:Dadbei
ngi
nmyearidon'
tthi
nksoumf
akel
il
e
khonai
mali
Me:Uwenanj
eMxoebekumel
eumni
ke

Hel
aughs.

Me:Yayi
zwal
ent
oedl
alayousef
iki
leuMl
a
Mxo:Lel
oqont
i
Me:uMlaudlal
amekukhonami
naubuzeunombani
bazokut
shel
e

Heisbumpi
nghi
sheadt
othebeatandsmi
li
ngwi
th
hi
sphone.

Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Nonhl
eongi
yeka
Nonhl
e:Maybehewant
stot
alkt
oyouanddoesn'
t
knowhow
Me:Heshouldhavethoughtaboutbef
orehewent
onar ampageandaccusi
ngmeofbei ngina
rel
ati
onshi
pwithmybigbrother
.Yesiam ina
rel
ati
onshi
pwecomeoutoft hesamewomb
Nonhl
e:Wel
lkeit
ri
ed
Mxo:Ut
hiwenzeni
Me:Asambeusef
iki
l
e

Mzwakhe
Ihadachancet ospeakwithherbr other.Wehada
greatconversati
onheexplained, onewoul d
i
nstantlyassumet heydati
ng.Buti tsj ustj
ustthe
brother
,sist
erlovetheyhavef oreachot her.She'
s
thelastbornandwi thherspir
itualgiftsheneedsal l
theloveandcar ebecauseanor malper sonwoul d
considerherafreak.Yeahshei saf r
eakal ri
ght.
Hewentont osayheismar r
iedgottwokidswho
aret
oointel
li
gentfort
hemselves,iwoul
dliket
o
meetthem andhehasawi f
e.Figuri
ngouthowt o
gett
hroughtoPhindil
eshoul
dbeeasyr i
ghtornot.

Thobani
:Looksyougoi
ngt
hrought
hemost
Set
hu:Yeahi
tsst
art
ingt
ogetchi
ll
i

I
'
m pr
ett
ysur
ehewast
alki
ngt
omebutt
hat
'sokay.

Thobani
:Maybeyoushoul
dgohome
Sethu:Oryoucoul
dbr
ingmeyourj
acketiwi
llbe
fi
ne
Thobani
:Si
phohasi
t
Me:Whydi
dn'
tyouj
usti
tsherbr
other
Thobani
:Wenayiniungabuzangaukut
hubanil
o
abusyamuncananaye
Me:Fuckyou
Thobani
:Don'
twor
ryhei
sacooldudej
ustdon'
ttr
y
hi
m

Ihavet
orespecthi
m nowbecausehei
smyi
nlaw,
i
l
aughandgetup.

Me:Si
ngakhul
umaahahdon'
tbel
iket
hat

Ihol
dherwai
st.

Me:Whyyoual
wayst
aki
ngmet
odar
kconf
ined
spaces
Phi
ndil
e:Iwanttohearyourl
ameexcusesloudand
cl
earnowqui ckbef
oreMxoli
sif
indsouti
di
sappeared

Phi
ndi
le
Ial
waysgi
veonet
oomanychancesandt
hat
'show
ialwaysgethur
t,butwi
thhi
mi t
sdiffer
ent
.It
sli
ke
i'
m supposetobewithhi
m eventhoughheisabig
whackass.

Mzwakhe:Yazisesi
khul
umai
qini
soPhi
ndi
le
i
phut
halakho
Me:Iwi
llsmackyouhar
dandyouwon'
tli
kei
t

Hegrabsmyneckandki
ssesmeit
ryt
opul
laway
heholdsmeput
.

Mzwakhe:Mm hm

Mydressgoesdownhegr
absmyboobs,
i'
mtur
ned
on.

Mzwakhe:I
fyouwantmet
ost
opt
ellme
Onehandgoesinmydressandinsidemypant i
es.
Hevigor
ouslyr
ubsmycli
tforasecondt her
eilose
contr
olt
hancomebacktomysenses.Wenotabout
tohavesexonther
oadwherevereveryonecansee.

Me:Mzwakhe

Iwhi
sperhi snameiam outofbreathandheinser
ts
hi
sfingerinsi
deandfingerf
ucksme, whi
leki
ssing
meandpi nchingmyboobs.Iam feeli
ngal
lki
ndsof
hor
nyiwanthi m sobad.

Mr
:St
opst
op

Hepull
soutandhi sf
ingeroutt
hansucksit
.Ihear
mybrothershout
ingatthetopofhi
slung.

Mxo:I
maniwhoauphiuPhi
ndi
le
Mzwakhe:Ngi
kul
andeni
ni
Heaskr
epeat
edl
yki
ssi
ngmycheek.

Mzwakhe:Okayl
etsgobef
oreTar
zanexpl
odes

MyTarzanhasdefi
nit
elyexpl
oded,
wereacht
hem
andmyvaginaist
witchi
ng.WhyisMzwakhel
ike
thi
smarahayiman.

Mzwakhe
Wef i
rstaccompaniedSiphoandLondi
e,now
Sakhil
e,Thobaniandiareaccompanyi
ngmybaby,
yel
lowboneandherf er
ociousbrot
hert
hischap.

Mxo:Phel
aminangil
alangaphandl
esengi
khohl
i
we
kodwaukhi
yeungaphakat
histi
ll
Phi
ndi
le:Kadeukhul
umamanj
ekwanel
e
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Wel
augh.

Mxo:uLondi
euqal
eni
niukuj
olanoSi
pho
Phi
ndi
le:Asazibayat
shot
shana
Mxo:Wenauqaleniniukujolaeybengizoyi
qhumi
sa
ngevuthayol
eimpama.Ngi cikwanawukuthi
ungikhul
umelai
stsot
si,eyyabomanj erazo
ngi
yamncanywalosisiarg

Welaughidon'
teventalkl
iket
hatwhyishe
mimicki
ngmyvoiceinabadway.Wear ri
veifi
nal
ly
gett
oseewheresheliveshmm dopehouse.

Mxo:Hambakegci
no
Phi
ndi
le:Nanguumf
aziwakho

Ipul
lhert
othesi
dewhi
let
heyst
il
lfi
gur
ingoutwho
i
sgoi
ngt
obebangi
ngt
hegat
e.

Me:I
nguboemf
ishanekanj
ekodwa
Phi
ndi
le:I
'
m si
ngl
eicandowhat
ever
Me:Wellyounotsi
ngleyoueverdi
srespectmel
ike
t
hati
'm goingt
okil
lyou

Shest
andsonhert
ipt
oeishake.

Mxo:Gci
no
Sakhi
le:Eyf
okof
Thobani
:Yi
niwena

Wel
augh.
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Phi
ndi
le
Iam happyNonhl
eissheismuchmor esaferwit
h
met hanSamkel
o.Igotmyeyeonhi m onedayiwil
l
pluckhi
seyesout,
andfeedthem t
ohim.

Nonhl
e:Hei
scomi
ngt
ofet
cht
o
Me:Hetextedmeearl
iersai
dhei
sgoi
ngt
obebusy
butimustbereadywhen
Nonhl
e:Atl
eastwedonewi
tht
hecl
eani
ng
Me:Yeahar
eyougoi
ngt
obeokay
Nonhl
e:Hewil
lcomeandf
etchmehei
sal
sobusy
wit
hsomethi
ng
Me:Awkwar
d
Nonhl
e:Iknowr
ight

Wel
aughigetupandhugher
.

Me:Ohmyl
ovei
'
m sor
ry
Nonhl
e:I
tsokay
Me:Noi
tsnotokayyouknowigotyourbackj
ust
cal
lmynameandiwi l
lbet
her
einaf l
ash

Ihugheragai
nmyheartbr
eakst
hatshedoesn'
t
feelcomf
ort
abl
econf
idi
nginme.

Me:Let
sgoannoyMxol
isi
Nonhl
e:No
Me:Come
Nonhl
e:Hai
boPhi
ndi
le

Mzwakhe
Canigof
etchhernowididn'
thavenohangoveri
j
ustwant
edPhindil
enextt
ome.Iam mindingmy
ownbusi
nessherecomesSakhil
etwer
kinginmy
face.

Sakhi
le:I
sitgoi
ng,
isi
tgoi
ng,
isi
tgoi
ng
Me:St
op

Wel
augh.

Me:Wher
ear
etheboys
Sakhi
le:Whenyoudeci
dedt
odi
tchusweki
ckedi
t
onthefir
stf
loor
Me:Nowonderi
twassopeacef
ulandqui
et
Sakhi
le:Theyshoul
dcomeupf
orbr
eakf
ast
Me:Luckyf
orever
yoneior
der
edbr
eakf
ast
Sakhi
le:Thankyoubaby
Me:Yourwel
comemyl
ove

Thelif
topensabunchofdr
unkmi
ser
abl
e
test
oster
oneent
ers.

Me:Ni
njebaf
ethu
Ndu:Awukahl
eumsi
ndo
Me:Awngi
lahl
wauwenaskhul
usami

Hebuzzesmeof
fil
augh.

Me:Nkanyi
so
Ndu:Rat
oismadeathi
m
Me:Okayngi
yani
zwani
funaukucavazi
khi
phi
thani
.
Yeahi
mamaukhonayenu
Ndu:Skhul
u
That
o:Whoamuhl
ekuqal
a
Me:Bi
tchyouknowher
That
o:I
lel
adar
kdi
ndi
li
Sabel
o:Syamcava
Me:Changekef ut
hnimaziingakhononkeni l
ana
kunezi
ntoengif
unaukuziqondisa.Andubanimazi
njeyi
nileeni
yenzayo,oMthi
yaneangaziziyakhal
a
ndawozonke.Lindanikwenzakalannakuwena
angazinokut
hkwenzakalannakumina,majita
ngif
unaukwazikhonaongajabul
il
e.Khonaof una
ukumashakhonaenginenzekona,ngiyazi
zibuye
zi
thiqhwilakumi
nayinii
nkingainyukuayikho
sharp
Ndu:NangokeuMzwakhemf et
huthol
alomunt
u
uqedengayesi
qhubekenezi
mpilozet
hu
Me:ChamelengibuzeNdumi somekukhona
onenki
ngaongat
handiindl
elaengiphet
hengayo
ni
ngahambabafethungekenibhodeangekengi
sho
l
uth

Theyi
gnor
eme.

Me:Ayngiyaj
abulasonkesi
yezwanaokulandel
ayo
ngi
shayaumuntu.Maseniqedil
eningi
hambele
ngi
yacel
asihl
oniphanengal
okho
Sakhi
le:Doest
hati
ncl
udeme
Me:Idon'
tknowdoesitcel
aukungabul
alimunt
u
maji
tamasemelenimazingi
zomlet
ha
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Thobani
:Iam gl
adidon'
thavet
opr
etendanymor
e

Igot
tagof
etchmyl
adynow.

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhepul lsuphecoul
dn'
twai
ttoseeme.
Nonhleisridi
ngwithmeSamkel
oisstil
lbusy,we
al
sodidn'tknowMzwakhewascomi ngthi
sear l
y.
Shedidn'twanttostaywi
thmomsandMxol isi
wait
ingforSamkelo.

Mxol
isii
sstil
lasl
eepwhichisgoodwifeymadea
gr
eatchoicenott
oal l
owustowakehim up.Ican
l
eaveinpeacewithoutMxol
isist
oppi
ngme, weget
i
nthecar.

Mzwakhe:Ahmyl
ovel
yladi
es
Me:Heyihopeyoudon'
tmi
nd
Mzwakhe:Notatal
l

Heki
ssesmehmm howimi
ssedhi
m somuch.

Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:Heysexy
Mzwakhe:Akakugwaj
isangauMxol
isi

Wel
augh.

Me:Ngenhl
anhlausal
eleebengekenjeangi
dedel
e.
Ngat
hfuthkadeeqali
lebef
oresifi
kil
ethi
na

Hechuckl
essomet
hingof
fabouthi
m hedoesn't
havet
hatspar
kormaybeit
stheseancest
orsagai
n.

Me:Wher
eyout
aki
ngmeahot
elagai
normypl
ace
Mzwakhe:Iain'
ttaki
ngyoutoahotelnoram igoi
ng
t
oyourplace.Uzobonakhonasweetheart
Me:Okay

Ipul
ltheseatbackal
it
tl
ebi
t.

Sakhi
le
ThegentswereveryhappyMzwakhef ound
someone.Iwasevenmor eecstat
icforhi
m, ihope
thi
sworksoutforhimreal
lyido.Hewast exti
ngme
wil
libeokayidon'
thavetoleave,ical
lhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Sho
Me:Iwi
llbef
ineidon'
twantt
obeat
hir
dwheel
Mzwakhe:Ifyouthi
nki
'
m goingt
oal
lowyout
obe
byyour
selfthanyoumi
staken
Me:Mzwakhemanyoubei
ngr
eal
lyunf
air
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
le
Me:OkayMzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Youbet
ter
Me:Isai
dokaywhat
'st
hepr
obl
em

Itel
lyouevenifhei
swor
kingdownt
heaisl
ethi
s
onewillst
il
lcr
ymynamelikeabi
gbaby.

Me:Guessi
'
m goi
ngbackt
othepent
house

Mzwakhe
Idon'
tknowbutsomet hingoffaboutme,idon't
knowmaybei tsbecauseiwaswi t
hSi webeforei
fet
chedher.Somethingjustai
n'tr
ightwe'
llseeas
thedayprogress.

Me:Ngi
yakwamukel
aehont
shi
nlami
Phi
ndi
le:Wowt
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul
Me:Youl
ookbeaut
if
uli
nit
Shesmi
lesadmi
ri
ngt
hepent
house.

Me:Youcangetcomfor
tabl
ethisisyour
snow,
yenzanomangabeyi
niezowenzekaukhulul
eke
uhlal
eunet
hezeke

Shei ssmil
ingf
rom eart
oearandifeelwei
rdas
fuck.Mzwakhewhatiswr ongwi
thyougeti
t
together
.

Me:Myroom t
hefi
rstoneupdoubl
edoor
s,i'
m
goi
ngt
ogof r
eshenupandwecandowhat ever

It
akehert
hingsandr
unt
omyr
oom.

Me:Shi
tshi
tfuck
Iqui
ckl
ytakeashowerimustreal
lyscr
ubmysel
f.
Mzwakheyouacompletef
ooliknowshower
ingi
s
goi
ngtorel
axmeabi t
.

Phi
ndi
le
Hesai dgetcomf ortabl
eandt hat
sexactlywhati'm
doing.Ifeelli
keihaveseent hisplacebefor
e,idon't
knowwher eitsl
ikeibelonghere.Iwasmaki ng
dinnerhedi dn'
thavemuchbutif oundsomet hi
ng
andcr eatedmagi c.

Mzwakhe:Mmm somet
hingsmel
lsdevi
ne
Me:Youal
sosmel
ldevi
ne
Mzwakhe:Ihavet
osengi
nent
ombiphel
a

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe:Whatyoumaki
ng
Me:Roast
edchickensomebakedpot
atoes,
gravy
andgar
li
cbread

Hef
rowns.

Me:Tr
ustmei
tsdel
ici
ousyoudi
dn'
thaveanyt
hing
so
Mzwakhe:Ayluthomamamengabeukahl
enj
e
mi
nangijabul
il
e

Ibenddownandpi ckupthespooniwasn'twearing
anypanties.Ineededhisdickburi
eddeepi nsi
deof
me, il
owert hestovehepullsmeandt hebigfel
low
hascomet oplayjustwhatiwanted.Weheadt othe
couchhet akeshi spant
soff,igodownonmy
knees.Iam justgoingtoteasehim ali
tt
lebit
,iwant
thatmonsterdeepdowni nmygut s.
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06/
06,
10:
30] :25
Sakhi
le
Ican'
tbel
ieveMzwakhewant smetobesubjected
tothi
sbull
.Icatchhim smil
ingchowingt
hatfood,i
t
i
smout hwater
ingthough.Iguessihavet
osucki t
out.

Me:Mommyt
hisi
sabsol
utel
ydel
ici
ous
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou
Me:Ar
eyouokayyouseem t
ense
Phindi
le:Yal
ljusthavet
otakemeasiam andof
coursewhatyoual mostr
anint
o

Wel
augh.

Me:Ngebhadikeumunt
uwakhol
oakaf
uningi
hlal
e
ngedwa
Phindi
le:Obvi
ousl
yyounotatt
hatst
agepeopl
ecan
tr
ustyou
Il
ookathi
m.

Mzwakhe:Idi
dn'
ttel
lheranyt
hing
Phi
ndil
e:Youshoul
dalsobecar
efulwit
hthepeopl
e
youhangaroundwi
th.
..Ahhi
tsstar
ti
ngagain
Me:What
swr
ong
Phi
ndi
le:Ami
ll
iont
hings

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Youdi
stur
bingme
Thobani
:Wegotapr
obl
em t
aket
heof
frampt
oour
l
ocati
on
Me:What
sgoi
ngon
Thobani
:Sakhi
le
Me:Okay.
..Uhm ihavet
ogo
Phi
ndi
le:Nowai
t.
.Don'
tgo
Mzwakhe:Mamai
tsokayhewi
llbef
ine
Phi
ndi
le:Sakhi
lepl
easedon'
tgo
Me:Mommywi
thal
lduer
espectihavet
ogo

Heholdshericanseetheconcer
nedl
ookonher
f
ace,myphoner i
ngsagain.

Mzwakhe:Sakhi
le
Me:Okayokay

Ican'
thelpbutfeelli
keishouldlist
ent oher.She
hasagiftandprobablysawsomet hinghappeni ng
tome.IcomebackMzwakhei sst i
llt
ryingtocalm
herdown,shelooksatmeandst opsf ighti
nghim.
Wedefinit
elygoingtofightaboutthisbutitrustshe
knowswhatshe' stal
kingabout.
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
le

Iheadt
omyr
oom.

James
Hewaspl anningonbusti
ngthem againnotthis
ti
meAndi l
e,icamejusti
ntimeandl eadthem toa
saferoute.Mzwakhe'scarspeedsont heotherside
oftheroad, iseehimfr
om themirr
orsmaki ngau
tur
n.Hespeedsal lt
hewayt ot
hefrontheknows
wherei'm going..
.

Ndu:Nowyoucomet
ohel
p
Mzwakhe:Shut
..
.Your
..
.Damn.
..Mout
h

Helooksatmeiwonderwhatgavehi mt he
i
mpr essi
onthatiam actuall
ytheonewhois
betr
ayingthem.Ican'tsayanythi
ngbutihavea
feel
ingSabeloi
swhi speri
ngthingst
ohim,shoul
d
Mzwakheknowaboutt
hisabunchofpeopl
ear
e
goi
ngtoexpl
ode.

Thobani
:Uphikant
iuSakhi
lekadengi
mfonel
a
Mzwakhe:Don'
twor
ryaboutSakhi
lef
ocusont
his
l
etmetalktoyou
Me:No
Mzwakhe:JamesJamesiam noti
nthemoodokay
Me:I'
m goi
ngbackhomeigaveyouthechanceto
t
akemeoutyoudidn't
.Idon'
thavet
oli
stentoa
t
hingyousayi
ng
Mzwakhe:I
fyougeti
nthatcari
'
m goi
ngt
ocutyour
bal
ls
Me:Woul
dn'
tyoul
iket
hat
Mzwakhe:James

Igeti
nmycarandl
eavet
heycanhandl
eitnow.
Nonhl
e
Workhasbeenkeepi ngmebusySamkel orunni
ng
thecompanyandibei ngtheperf
ectl
it
tl
eassist
ant,
thi
ngshavebeenhect i
ceventsarej
ustcomingin
oneaft
ertheother.Wehavebeenmanagi ngsofar
butPhi
ndil
ehast ocomeback, sheneedstocome
backandsteerhership.

Sam:Youcanr
esti
fyout
ir
ed
Me:Act
ual
lyiam
Sam:Youhungr
y
Me:Fami
shed
Sam:Okayiwhi
pupaqui
cksandwi
ch
Me:Thanks

Whyishebei
ngnicet
omesuddenly,
isowantto
l
aughbadl
yathi
m buti'
m goi
ngt
oholdmysel
f.
Me:Iwaswonder
ingwhenyouwer
egoi
ngt
ocal
l
Phi
ndi
le:Bi
tch

Wel
augh.

Phindi
le:Ican'
ttal
kmuchmymi ndisinahazyvi
ew
butiwillbesur
et otakeyououtorcomether
e
Me:Noprobl
em sweet
hear
tenj
oyyourmanhoney
deser
vei
t
Phi
ndi
le:Idor
ight

Ismi
leshehungsup.

Sam:Howi
sshe
Me:Wellshehaszonedoutshewil
lcomeback
don'
twor r
yabouti
t,gi
vehert
imebaby.
.Yi
nil
e
oyi
thosayo
Sam:Chi
cken
Me:OhGod

Igetuphei
sgoi
ngt
obur
nhi
ski
tchen.

Mzwakhe
Iaskedthesepeopl
eift
herewasapr obl
em al
lof
them sai
dno,nowwhyar etheyset
ti
ngtrapsf
or
Sakhil
e.

Me:Ani
shongongat
hayi
khonki
nga
Ndu:Mzwakhewe
Me:Shutupyallsai
dtherewasnopr obl
em ri
ght
thatswhatyal
lsai
d.Noyoudidn'tsayanyt
hingyal
l
i
gnor edmeandnowt hi
sisthefuckupyoupull,
yall
director
der
swhatthefuck

Theypushi
ngmyhandiwillbefor
cedtol
etthi
sgo
i
ftheycont
inuebei
ngl
iket
his,myphoneri
ngs.
Me:What
Voi
ce:Youcomi
ngback
Me:Phi
ndi
lei
m busyngi
zokuf
onel
a

Iqui
ckl
yhungupbef
oreshegoesonandonsul
king.

Me:Niyangi
casulanxit
urnonthemonitor
syou
moronsiam goingtoki
llal
lyourugl
yasses

Iam swi
tchi
ngt
hingsupt
hesepeopl
ewi
llknowme.

Nonhl
e
Oursexli
fest
il
lhasasparki
tsjustthewayhe
tr
eatsmetoget
herwit
hhisfamily.Theydon'
tlike
meandidon'tl
iket
hem aswell
,inthemi ddl
eofhim
poundi
ngmegoodmyphoner i
ngswowper fect
ti
ming.
Phi
ndi
leguyshavenochil
lsheisgoi
ngthr
ough
somet
hingthat
'swhyshe'
sblowingupmyphone.
Shewi
llhavetobestr
ongi'
m occupi
edatt
he
moment.
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06/
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10:
30] :26

Phi
ndi
le
Ithoughtweweregoingt
ospendt oget
herineach
other'
sarms,butt
hatwasn'
tthecase.Heleftand
camebacki ntheweehoursofthemorning,wehad
sexidon'tknowhowandwhy.Isawhi m being
i
ntimatewithanot
herwoman, whatki
ndofaman
doesthaticanheart
hem scr
eami ngatSakhil
e.

Hedoesn'tneedtoexplai
nhimself
,itol
dhim nott
o
l
eaveandhel ist
ened.Iam j
ustwait
ingfort
hisman
towakeupandt akemehome.Iwi pemyt earshow
doesthi
sgiftwork,iseewhohesleepswithandit
s
nott
hefir
sttimehehasdonet his.
Iwil
lnotbesubj
ect
edtothishowiwi shSindi
swa
washere,shewoul
dhavegivenmesomecl ari
tyon
thi
s.Myhearti
sshatt
eredican'
tbel
ievethis.

Mzwakhe
Myheadf eelsheavyit
rywakingupbutiam
knockedout.Itur
naroundt
oanempt ybedside,
wherehasshegonenow.Il ookdownseeashadow.

Me:Mamauf
unanil
aphowozaembhedeni
Phi
ndi
le:Iwantt
ogohome
Me:Hm hm comebackt
obed
Phi
ndi
le:Iwantt
ogohome

Whatigetupandlookathershei
sal
readydr
essed
andwentunder
ground.
Me:Uyagulayi
niPhi
ndil
ebuyelaembhedeni
.
Angaziuvukwei
kuphiukuhl
anyakodwa
awuyindawo

Il
ockthedoorthangobacktosl
eep,
ihearher
sni
ff
ingissheseri
ousr
ightnow.

Me:Ukhal
elanimanj
e

Shegetsl
ouderohGodiam notbuiltforthi
sshit
.I
getupandentert
hebathroom.Idon'tunder
stand
outoft
heblueshe'
scrying.

Phi
ndi
le
I
tfi
nal
lyr
esonat
edt
ohi
mthatiwasact
ual
lycr
ying.

Me:Youcandr
opmeof
fher
e
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lekant
ikwenzeken
Iopent
hedoorhecl
osesi
t.

Me:Mzwakhel
etgoofme
Mzwakhe:Whywhat
swr
ongl
ookatme
Me:Justl
etmego

Idon'
twantt
olookathi
m heroughlyl
et'
sgoofme,
ial
mostbangmyhead.Iwipemyt ear
sandquickl
y
getoutt
hecar.

Mzwakhe:Yewenasf
ebeungasi
val
ii
scabasam
kanj
alo

Ir
unf
astt
ight
lyhol
dingont
omyt
hings.
..

Mxo:Yi
nikwenzenj
anPhi
ndi
le
Ifi
ndcomf or
tinhi
m andjustl
eti
tallout
,myt
hings
fal
l.Ij
ustwanthi
mt ohol
dmej ustholdmeMxoli
si.

Mxo:Gci
nokwenzei
sitMzwakhe

Icr
yevenl
ouder
.

Mzwakhe
Ihaveneverbeenthi
smadi nmyentirel
if
e.Iar
ri
ve
atthewarehouseandtheysti
llar
gui
ng.

Me:Eyf
useganinonke

Myinsi
desar
ecr
ingi
ngwhatt
hef
ucki
sthi
swoman
pl
ayi
ngat.

Me:Akwenzekangal
uthkuwena
Thobani
:Yeah
Me:Smoko

Hekeepsqui
et.

Me:Namhl anj
eakulonausukulokuthini
ngi
casule.
Ngizoni
hlabangempamanonkeandwenasukel a
ni
niungayenzi,
int
oekut hi
waiyenze.Valal
owo
mlomowakhoyoushi dini
ngal
ingenizongi
nyanyisa
ni
na

I
st hi
srevenge,
ist
hispayback,
ist
hissomeki
ndof
ajoke.

Sakhi
le
Thereismoretohisangerthanthi
swhatever
happenedbetweenhim andPhindi
lewashecti
c.

Li
nda:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Hegi
veshi
m adeat
hst
are.

Me:WhathappenedMzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Ngazelaphukuthkwenzekeni
onemi nut
e
si
yanyobananextminuteumuntuukhihl
aisl
il
o
Me:Youaskedherwhat
'swr
ong
Mzwakhe:Shewoul
dn'
ttal
ktome
Li
nda:Andyoul
ethergo
Mzwakhe:Anginasoi
skhat
hisedr
amamawungeke
ungi
tshel
eikuphii
nki
ngaminangihl
anganaphi

Wel
augh.

Me:Youarenotmessingt
hisupokayl
etsgoback
whathappenedbef
oreyougotback
Mzwakhe:Idon'tknowihel
pedthesef
oolst
hat
t
ookfor
ever,ipassedbySiwethanwenthome
Me:Youseeandt
hat
'st
hepr
obl
em
Thobani
:Di
dyouf
uckher
Mzwakhe:Ofcour
seidi
d
Me:Ar
eyoudumbnol
ikear
eyoust
upi
d
Thobani
:Shepr
obabl
ysawyou

Wel
ookathi
m.

Thobani
:Shesawyouohmanshesawyou

Mzwakhe
Iam shat
teredhowinthehel
lcanthatbepossi
ble,
whyisitpossibl
ewhatki
ndofgif
tisthi
s.

Me:Wai
tcomebackyousai
dwhat
Thobani
:Justt
hatMzwakhe
Li
nda:Skhul
u
Me:Ayyi
ni
Sakhi
le:Cal
lher
Me:AndsaywhatThobanii
sspeaki
ngl
ies
Them:Hai
bo
Me:Shutup
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhecal
lher
Me:Br
ost
op

Iam stil
ltr
yingtowrapmyheadar oundthis.What
am igoingtosaywhatpl ausi
bleexplanat
ioncani
give,t
osomeonewhomyst er
iousl
ysawmehavi ng
sexwi t
hsomeoneel se.Fuckitmeantnothingshe
i
st heoneiwantt ospendmyl if
ewi t
h.Igrabmy
phoneandcal lherherbrot
hersanswer s.

Mxo:Ifyouhaveanythingtodowi t
hmysister
cryi
ngliket
his.I
'
m goingtofindyou,t
akeyour
eyebal
lsoutandfeedthem tomydogs.Youpiece
ofshit
Hehungsup.Iam notgoi
ngtoloseherbecauseof
t
his,
ifihavet
ofi
ghtthanfi
ght
ingiswhatiwilldo.
[
06/
06,
10:
30] :27

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassummonedt otheriverihaveabet ter
understandingofwhathappened.I tssomet hi
ngi'
m
goingtoexper iencemovi ngon, whowant stosee
thei
rmanf uckinganotherbitch.Idon'tli
kethisgi
fti
wishiknewwhati twasreally,iai
n'tstr
ongforthi
s
butwhatcanisay.Ial r
eadysol dmysoult othe
ancestors,ipluckoutaf ewpeaches, amanwal ks
towardsmehebowsandsmi l
es.

Hi
m:Nkosazane
Me:Notyout
oo
Hi
m:I'm Li
ndokuhl
ebhengunowt
hatwehavemet
myjourneyendshere
Me:Idon'
t.
.Maybei
fiknewwhatt
hiswas
Li
ndo:Alli
nduet i
menkosazanet hemissi
ngpi
eces
ofthi
spuzzleareslowlyst
art
ingtounr
avel.We
needastrongqueenyouar estr
ongert
hananythi
ng.
Youjustneedtobelievei
nyoursel
f

Hebowshi
sheadandwal
ksaway,
hedi
vesi
ntot
he
r
iver
.

IopenmyeyesMxol i
siisholdi
ngmyhand,il
ook
aroundtheycal
ledNonhle.Isi
ghwhywoul
dthey
tr
oubleher.

Mzwakhe
Iam st
il
ltr
yingt
ofi
gureouthowi '
m goi
ngtogetout
oft
hismess.Ican'
tthi
nkofanythingl
adi
eslovet
o
bebeggedandi'
mjustnotthetype.

Sakhi
le:Moneyi
sin
Me:Don'
teverdot
hatokay
Sakhi
le:Neverkhohl
wai
ntoeshi
woumommy
ngi
zoyenza
Me:Mommyf
uckyou

Hel
aughs.

Thobani
:Her
e
Me:Whati
sthi
s
Thobani
:Thepl
acei
sbookedoutgoanapol
ogi
ze
Me:Nott
hisagai
nal
lofyouj
ustst
opPhi
ndi
leandi
knowhowfixt
his
Sakhi
le:Fucki
ngneversol
vest
hepr
obl
em
Me:I
'
m nott
alki
ngaboutt
hatpl
easej
ustl
eti
tgo

Iam gi
vingherspacet
ocoolofshewi
lldef
ini
tel
y
comebackihopeshedoes.
Phi
ndi
le
Khethokuhl
eZuludesignerextraordi
nai
resentmea
fewitemsfrom hi
scol
lecti
on, andaskedmet o
modelit.Ir
entedoutt
hechi sanyamaThobaniwas
kindenoughtoletmeusei tforfree.

Nonhl
e:Yougoi
ngal
lout
Me:I
'
m pul
li
ngoutal
lthest
ops

Mrsbhenguar r
ivesiinvi
tedthem si
ncetheyhad
suchbeautif
ulheart
s.Olwethusheissuchaballof
gorgeousness,
olderthanmebutl ooksf
ift
eenyear
s
younger.

Me:Heymama
Ol
wethu:Ihopei'm notl
ateSindi
swacoul
dn'
tmake
i
tshelef
t,butaskedmet ogiveyouthi
s
Me:Ohshedi
dn'thavet
obutthankyouiwi
llbe
sur
etot
exther
.Thankyouforcoming
Olwet
hu:Thankyouforhavingmelordknowsi
coul
duseabr eakf
rom al
lthatmadness
Nonhl
e:Sur
elyt
her
e'sot
herl
adi
est
aki
ngcar
eof
t
hosehandsomefr
eaks
Ol
wethu:Lut
hosthandwaoutofthe10t
ensi
bli
ngs
myhusbandist
heonl yonemarr
ied

Tensibli
ngsMzwakhenevertol
dmeaboutthat
comet othi
nkofi
twedon'tknowanyt
hingabout
eachother.

Ol
wet
hu:I
'
m hopi
ngyougoi
ngt
ojoi
nmesoon
Me:Who
Ol
wet
hu:You
Me:Ohhel
lno
Nonhl
e:Yougoi
ngt
otel
lmewhyyouwer
ecr
ying
l
iket
hat
Me:Okayiwasseeingthi
ngsoneofthem cal
led
Sakhi
leit
oldhi
m nottogofastf
orwardheleaves
somewher ehismindswitchesofhesnapsat .Okay
thenightpassesi '
m st
il
lwaitingforhimt ocome
back, t
hani '
m shownhim sleepingwithsome
phil
isiwe.Hecomesbacksl eepswi t
handactl i
ke
everythi
ngi sokay.Theaudaci t
yofitallhowdare.
Youi nvi
temet othisgrandluxuryhouset hanyou
fuckanot herhoeandyoucomebackt ome

Sakhi
le
WemadeThabi somakehiswif
ewearacer t
ainki
nd
ofearr
ingstheyhadl
isteni
ngdevicesi
nthem.
Mzwakhebhenguhef indssomethinggoodand
dest
roysit
.

Me:Youdi
sgustme
Thabi
so:KantiwenaMzwakhei
khandal
akho
al
it
hathikahl
esengiyabona
Me:Whywoul
dyoudot
hatnoMzwakhewhywoul
d
youdot
hat
Li
nda:Ungekeusahl
oni
phi
sanakancanenj
emf
ethu
mxm
Mzwakhe:Wel
lobvi
ousl
yimadeami
stakebutdon'
t
wor
ryabouti
t
Thabi
so:Wehavet
owor
ryabouti
tMzwakhewe
havet
o
Me:Ani
chi
sheniyonkel
ent
o
Li
nda:Ngi
zomt
hat
hami
nangi
kut
shel
e
Me:Uyadakwa
Thobani
:Thi
sguy

Wel
augh.

Me:Wehl
ulembhem
Thabi
so:MzwakheNhl
anhl
abhengu

Wel
augh.
Phi
ndi
le
Icamebackt othepenthousewithOlwethuand
star
tedprepari
ngfood.Shelef
tandit hi
nki'
m by
myselforwithJames.Hewi l
lbeshockedtoseeme
iknow,iprobabl
yangeredmybr otherbutt
hats
okay.Thelif
topensJamesent er
s.

James:Myshi
fthasended
Me:Wai
tforMzwakhe
James:Ineed
Me:Doyouwantmetotel
lhi
mit
syouwhohas
beensel
li
ngt
hem out

Heunbut
tonhi
sjacketandsi
tsdown.

Me:Idi
dn'
tthi
nkso
James:uZul
uwonkeuzosongel
wai
ngane
i
ntombazanefut
h
Me:Shutupdoyoul
ikechocol
ateMrZul
u
James:Uyangi
gul
isa
Me:Wel
ltheonei
'
m maki
ngwi
llbe
James:Idon'
tdr
ink
Me:Mor
eforme

Mzwakhe
It
sbeenal ongdayij
ustwantt
or el
ax.Mzwakhe
manwhydi dyoumessup,theli
ftopensthey
giggl
inganddri
nki
ng.

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Theyl
ookup.

Phindi
le:IaskedOl
wet
hut
obr
ingmeihopet
hat
's
notapr obl
em
Ofcour
senotidon'
tmi
ndatal
linf
acti
'm happy
she'
shere,
butl
etmekeepmyhappi
nessinside.

James:Welliwai
tedf
orhi
m andnowihavet
o
l
eavethankyouma'am
Phi
ndi
le:Andi
fyoueverneedashoul
dert
ocr
yon
Them:Justeatchocol
ate

Hewasthereasoni
wasangr
yint
hef
ir
stpl
aceand
it
ooki
toutonmygirl.

James:MrBhengu
Me:Fuckyou

Hel
aughs.

Me:Unj
an
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaphi
la
Me:Ngi
gci
naukukbonawawukhal
ami
iizi
nyembezi
Phi
ndil
e:Youcan'
tbewi
thmet
hangof
uck
someoneelse

Ihaveknowexcuseiwouldhavedeniedt
il
lJesus
camebackandican'tevenuserever
sepsychol
ogy.

Phindi
le:Uyangi
shi
yalauyahambauyol
alanenye
i
ntombazaneuyinikuwenausungazewenzenje
Me:Phi
ndi
leiwascaughtupi
nthemomentiwas
angr
y
Phi
ndi
le:Youcan'
tbeangr
yinmyvagi
na

Iscr
atchmyheadnogirlhasevertakenmetocour
t
l
ikethi
s.Iam scar
edwhatisshegoingtodot
ome.

Phi
ndil
e:Youshoul
dbel
ikehowmanyt
imesshoul
d
ial
lowyoutofuckmeup
Il
ookdown.

Phindi
le:Ishoul
dn'
thavecomebackbecausei
ts
l
ikeyoudon' tgi
veafuck
Me:Whydi
dyoucomeback
Phi
ndil
e:Becauseiwant
edt
obeher
eandican'
t
st
optheinevi
tabl
e
Me:AwukahlePhi
ndi
lenesi
ngi
sisakho.
.Okay
Phi
ndi
lewaitdon'
tgo

Il
aughshepoi
ntsherf
ingeratme.

Me:I
'
m sor
ryokayimadeami
stake

Shest
raddl
esme,
igr
abherwai
st.

Phi
ndi
le:It
houghti
wasr
eal
lygoi
ngt
ogoati
twi
th
you

Shecaressmyf acethi
sisaper f
ectti
meto,fuck
hermadcrazywhi l
eshe'sdrunkandwef i
xthis
onceandforal
l.Shepullsoutmydi ckandstr
okes
i
t,il
iket
hisf
ixsortourmi sunder
standi
ngwit
h
someheavyfucking.
[
06/
06,
10:
30] :28

Sakhi
le
Hehashisfl
awsmanyoft hem li
keeveryonehe
deser
vesasecondchance.Deepdowni nsidehei
s
goodman,iam happyt
heywor ki
ngitout.

Li
nda:Don'
ttel
lmehebr
oughtanot
herbi
tchyazi
uMzwakhe
That
o:Whomadet
heset
heyar
ethebomb
Mzwakhe:Aveni
ngal
alel
ikodwayi
niwhatar
eyou
doi
ngwithmycakes
Me:Whoboughtt
hem
Mzwakhe:Theywer
emadef
ormeThat
o
That
o:Awukahl
e
Si
snokubonga:Okaywhatam icooki
ngt
oday
Mzwakhe:Don'twor
ryaboutt
hatyoucancont
inue
wi
thothert
hings
Si
snokubonga:Seni
dli
leyi
ni
Mzwakhe:Cha
Sisnokubonga:Ohusuf
unaukungi
xosha
ngezi
phansi
Mzwakhe:Nokubonga

Wel
augh.

Me:Okayguyspl
easelet
snotangerhi
m hei
sin
t
roubl
ebecauseofbei
ngangry
"
Mzwakhe"
Herunsupstair
smyboyishappy.Thatost
eel
s
moreoftheblueber
rymuf
fi
nsandr unstot
heli
ft
t
heyleave.

Mzwakhe
Idon'twantt
obombardherwit
hthecrewt
hese
i
diotscanbetoomuchandhowt hewayhergi
ft
workscanleadtoser
iousdamage.

Me:Onehast
ousef
orcewi
thyouguys
Sakhi
le:Khohl
waiyi
nhl
anyaumaekwazi
ukuphat
ha
wenathinaubal
alol
o
Me:I
tsnott
hatidon'
twantyouguyst
oknowher
butj
ustl
etmedomyt hi
ng
Thobani
:Youdon'
toweanyoneanyexplanat
ioni
f
that
swhatyouwantweallhavet
orespectit
Phi
ndi
le:Sani
bonani
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Seehowcomf
ort
abl
eshei
simagi
neal
lofyou
ar
ound
Thobani
:Awuzi
bal
inganiwena

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Konkekumashakahl
ear
eyouhappy
Me:Idon'
treal
lycar
eaboutt
hatyouknowt
hisi
s
wheremyhappinessli
es
Sakhi
le:Wel
ayi
ngl
ow
Me:Fornow
Thobani
:Shoul
dwel
eaveal
sookayphel
aasi
funi
ukuf
a

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasreal
lyhungrythankgoodnessiwentshopping
andboughtsomet hi
ngsotherwise,
iwoul
dhave
di
edofhunger.Wear eonabet t
erpathweshallsee
wher
et hi
sleads.
Nonhl
e:Iwaswonder
ingwhenyouwoul
dcal
l
Me:Youpi
eceofshi
t
Samkel
o:Whenyoucomi
ngbackt
owor
k
Me:Anyt
imeSamkel
owhyyour
ushi
ngmebackt
o
work
Samkel
o:Bi
tchi
tsyourcompany
Me:Gi
veNonhl
ebackt
hephone
Nonhl
e:Ohwowt
hat
'snotahot
el
Me:Gi
rli
'
minpar
adi
se
Nonhl
e:Don'tgi
vehimthef
ivest
art
reat
mentnow
andheleavesyouagai
n
Me:Thi
sti
meiwi
llcuthi
sdi
ckandst
rangl
ehi
s
bal
ls

Theyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Youwentback
Me:I
tjustf
eltr
ight
Nonhl
e:Mi
ndyouMxol
isii
sshout
ingatmel
ike
whatt
hehel
l
Me:Hewi
llbest
rongi
'
m gr
own
Nonhl
e:Howi
sthatgoi
ngt
owor
kout
Me:Iwi
llj
usthavet
opr
ayabouti
t
Nonhl
e:Yousur
emyf
ri
endyour
eadyf
ort
his
Me:Iwouldn'
tbehereifiwasn'
t,
ihavet
otake
cont
rolofmyli
feagain
Nonhl
e:Yal
lbot
hpsychologi
cal
lyi
nsanei
dlozi
l
akhofr
om nowher
eattacks
Me:Wegoi
ngt
owor
kitout

Il
ookathi
m andhei
ssmi
li
ngatme.

Nonhl
e:Okaygi
rl
ingswhenam iseei
ngyou
Me:Youknowt
hatkhet
hosai
d
Nonhl
e:It
oldyout
oletmesl
apt
hatgi
rl
Me:Set
hui
sadi
srespect
fulpi
eceofshi
t
Nonhl
e:Ngi
zomshayaf
uthphambikwaThobani
Me:Ihavet
ogo
Samkel
o:Andcomebackt
owor
k

IhungupSamkel
odar
li
ngyouwi
llj
usthavet
odeal
.

Mzwakhe
Sheser
vesusbreakf
astnotevenNokubonga
makesthi
sthi
spict
ureper
fectjui
cybr
eakfast
.

Me:Ngi
yabongamama
Thobani
:WenzeniuSet
huPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Thatwasaconver
sat
ionbet
weenNonhl
e
andi
Thobani
:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndil
e:Haibohei
snotaski
ngmeabouti
twhy
youbother
edbywhatshe'
sdoing
Ismi
le.

Thobani
:Iwantt
oknowi
fthi
sisgoi
ngt
ocause
probl
ems
Phi
ndi
le:Thobaniawumet
u
Thobani
:Okay

Heget
supandl
eaves.

Me:Thobani
Thobani
:Fuckyou

Wel augh.Iwaswait
ingforhert
ocr
ackbutshe
kepthercool.Myboyscanmakeyousweatiguess
beingspiri
tualt
amesyou.

Sakhi
le:Wel
llovebi
rdsbyet
hankyouf
ort
hisl
ovel
y
meal
,iwi
llseeyoul
ater

Fi
nal
lysomeal
onet
imewi
thmybaby.

Phi
ndi
le
Wewer
ehavi
ngt
het
alknow.

Mzwakhe:Youdone
Me:Yeahi
'
m comi
ngr
ightnow

Ilaybesidehi
m ont
hecouchheki
ssesmy
forehead.

Me:Howyouhol
dingup
Mzwakhe:Happyi'
m ahappyhappymanf
oronce
i
nmyl i
febecauseofyou
Me:Ohr
eal
ly
Mzwakhe:Ir eal
lyli
keyouandi tsnotbecauseof
yourlooks.Letmej ustsetaf ewt hi
ngsst raight
,ifi
didsomet hingorhavehaveapr oblem withwhati '
m
doing.Pleaseandt hisi sanhonestpl easet akeme
upstair
sandaddr esst hesit
uation,iwillf
indaway
tofixi
t.Ifyougoi ngtocr yandnott alkthanidon' t
knowhowyouexpectmet ofixit,anotherthing
JamesandSakhi l
ealwayshavet oknowwher eyou
at.Igotanumberoft hingsgoingon, i
fyouwantt o
comeher eyoucancomeanyt i
me.Justcal lJames,
Sakhil
eormysel f

I
shef
orr
eali
sthi
swhati
tsl
ikedat
ingagangst
er.

Me:Thosear
eal
otofr
ules
Mzwakhe:Oneyouneedt
ofol
loworel
sewegoi
ng
t
ohaveproblems
Me:Okay

Weki
ss.
Mzwakhe:Iam goi
ngt
ofi
ghtt
il
ligeti
tri
ght
Me:Iam goi
ngt
ofi
ghtt
il
ligetr
ight
Us:Wegoi
ngt
ofi
ghtt
il
lwegetr
ight

Igetont
opofhi
m buthepi
nsmedownokay.
[
06/
06,
10:
30] :29

Sakhi
le
Curi
osi
tygotthebestofusidi dabackgr
ound
checkonthiskhet
hoper son.Onl
ybecauseThobani
wasannoyingme, ineededtoknowwhatSethuwas
upto.

Thobani:Eyngi
zoyishayal
ent
ombazane
ngi
zoyibulal
angenduku
Me:Ayskhul
umyekeshei
snotwor
thi
trat
herend
t
hingswi
thher
Thobani:Andshekeepsmeawayfrom mychi
ld,
becausethat
'sdef
ini
tel
ywhatshei
sgoingt
odo
Me:Si
ncewheni
sshef
ri
endswi
thphi
li
siwe
Thobani
:I'
m goi
ngt
oki
llher
Me:Ihaveani
dea
Thobani
:Am igoi
ngt
oli
kei
t
Me:Yougoi
ngt
olovei
t

Idon'
tknowwhatSet hu'
sdealisshewillneverand
imeannevergetMzwakhe, notwhil
ePhindilei
s
al
iveanddefi
nit
elynotwhil
ei'm st
il
lher
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Myl
egwasupandhewashi
tt
ingi
tfr
om t
hesi
de.

Me:AhhMzwakhe

Hehol
dsmyl
egandpoundshar
dgr
oani
ngi
nmy
ear
.Ifi
ndawaytosneakmyhanddownandrubmy
cl
it
,heremovesmyhandanddoesi
thi
msel
f.

Mzwakhe:EyaMzwakheayi
thi
ntwai
nomai
kanj
an

Herubsvigor
ouslyandpoundshar
derican'
ttakei
t
anymore,
anotherhotwaveofor
gasm bui
ldsup.

Me:OhmyGod.
.Ahhdon'
tst
op.
..Don'
tst
op

Iwhispert
aki
nginallofhi
sdi
ckidon'
tknowwhat
happenshegoesinsane.

Me:Ahhyesss.
..Ahhhh.
..Mmmm
Mzwakhe:Goodmor
ning
Me:Goodmor
ning

Hesmi
lest
hanki
ssesmewhi
legent
lymassagi
ng
mycl
it
.

Sakhi
le
Iam notgoingtostayandl
ist
entoMzwakheand
phindil
egetti
ngitonohhel
lno.Il
eftiam sur
ehe
hasn'tnoti
cedi'
m gonewhi
chisgoodf orme.Ican
dowhat everiwantwheniwant.

Me:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:AhSakhi
le
Me:Hey

Wehug.

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Nonhl
e:Wel
l

Sheshowsmehergym bag.
Me:Youwor
kout
Nonhl
e:Si
ncemygym buddyi
soccupi
edatt
he
momenti'
m bymysel
f
Me:Maybeicoul
djoi
nyou
Nonhl
e:Youshoul
ditwi
llkeept
heboysaway

Ismi
lenowondershehasabangi
ngbody.

Nonhl
e:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Me:Li
keyoumybuddyaswel li
soccupi
edatt
he
momentandi
'm gi
vinghi
m space
Nonhl
e:Okay
Me:Wher
eyouheadednow
Nonhle:I
tsal
mostherbi
rthdaysoi'
m shoppi
ngfor
hergif
twellt
wogif
ts.Mxoli
siandherwerebornon
thesamemont h
Me:Heenowonderzi
thicousi
nkubonabobabi
li
t
heyJunebabi
es
Nonhl
e:Youhavenoi
dea
Me:Wheni
syourbi
rt
hday
Nonhl
e:Sept
ember
Me:Howar
eyouguysf
ri
ends

Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassquatt
ingoverhiskneesandhewas
cont
rol
li
ngmybounci ng,hewasdoingast el
larjob
wehaven'tl
eftt
hisroom wehaven'
teatenanyt hi
ng
j
ustinandoutofeachot her
.Hestopsjustafteri
cum,hepull
shisdickigasp.Hecarri
esmet ot he
bed,
hegotthisconcernedlookonhisface.

Me:What
swr
ong
Hei
slooki
ngatmenotknowi
ngwhatt
osay.

Me:Mzwakhewhati
sit
Mzwakhe:Notsayi
nganythingnehandidon'tmind,
butgi
rlsmi
ghthaveaproblem andseei
ngthatyour
spi
ri
tual
Me:Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
Mzwakhe:Babi
es
Me:What
Mzwakhe:Idi
dn'
tst
utt
er
Me:Youstoppedbecauseyouwantt
oaskme
aboutbabi
es
Mzwakhe:Li
keisai
didon'tmindweati
tal
lthe
t
imewhatifyouenduppregnant
Me:Ther
e'sot
hert
hingst
hathappenbesi
des
pr
egnancy
Mzwakhe:Iusecondomsbaby
Me:Youdon'
tthi
nkihavesomet
hing
Mzwakhe:Thet
ypeofper
sonyouar
eyouwoul
dn'
t
havel
etmehiti
traw

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantyoubl
ami
ngmef
or
unwant
edpregnancy
Me:Wel
liwon'
tgetpr
egnant
Mzwakhe:Ishooti
nsi
deofyoual
lthet
imedoesn'
t
t
hatworr
yyou
Me:Youl
ikei
tnj
enadoesn'
titwor
ryyou
Mzwakhe:Nginemal
isi
singanakekel
aezi
wut
en
i
zinganel
ezi
Me:Wowi
'
m oncont
racept
ives
Mzwakhe:Uyaj
ova
Me:Noi
tsonmyl
eftupperar
mtouchi
t
Mzwakhe:Aymamayi
nimanj
ele
Me:I
mpl
ant
Mzwakhe:Ohi
sebenzakanj
an
Me:St
opsyouf
rom get
ti
ngpr
egnant

It
saboutt
oexpiret
houghimustr
epl
acei
tfast
.I
getupi
'm par
ched.

Mzwakhe:Uyaphimanj
e
Me:Ngi
yophuzaamanzi

Hegr absmyhandandtossesmeont hebedhe

sl
ideshisdi
ckin.Hest
artsthrust
ingslowl
yand
graduall
ypi
cksuphispace,befor
eiknowi thei
s
poundingonmehardandi '
ml ovi
ngeverypoundof
i
t.

Nonhl
e
Idi
dn'
tpi
ctur
eSakhi
let
obet hisgent
leandhumbl
e.
Heisabi
tint
imi
dati
ngespecial
lyhi
sfri
end.
Me:Idi
dnotexpectyout
obel
iket
his
Sakhi
le:Tr
ustmei '
mf arworset
hanalloft
hem,
you
can'
ttel
lfr
om al
lthishandsomenessness
Me:Wowokaydoyouhaveagi
rl
fr
iend

Heshowsmeapi ct
urewaitami
nut
eiknowt
hisgi
rl
,
she'
sSamkel
o'ssi
depiece.

Me:Wowyouf
ucki
ngwi
tht
hat
Sakhi
le:Noshei
scel
ibat
e

Ichoke.

Me:I
'
m sor
rywhat
Sakhi
le:Shesaysshe'
snotr
eadyf
orsexyet
Iam shockedohmyGod.

Sakhi
le:Doyouknowhert
hewayyouchokedi
ts
l
ike
Me:Noiam j
ustshockedwhowoul
dwantt
obe
deepi
nyourbal
ls
Sakhi
le:Icanr
espectt
hatbut
Me:Youhavesomeot
hert
hingsont
hesi
del
ines
Sakhi
le:Eywayi
bekakhonamommy

Iam goi
ngt
oholdontothi
sinfor
mationwhent
he
ti
mecomesi'
m def
ini
tel
ygoingtocashin.

Me:Aycel
ibacyil
ovet
hedi
ckt
oomuch

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Ibar
elydi
danyt hingtoheriam st
il
lgoi
ngtotake
mytimewithher .Sheissl
eepi
ngpeacefull
ynextto
me,ineedtofeedherweonl yateeachothershe
mustbedyingofhunger .

Me:Ukuph
Sakhi
le:Home.
.Okayi'
m att
hemalliam not
comingbackandl
ist
eningtoyouf
uckingmommy
nothankyou
Me:Wher
eyougoi
ngt
obeat
Sakhi
le:Myhousewi
thLi
ndaniandThobani
Me:Okay
Sakhi
le:Enj
oyt
hist
imet
akecar
eofher
Me:Sur
eskhul
u

Iheaddownst
air
s.

Me:James
Theli
ftopenshestandsinsi
deleani
ngarms
cr
ossedlookingl
ikeasexygrandpaokayJames
Zul
u.

Me:Celaungi
thengel
eukudl
ainyamat
obeexact
f
orPhindi
lepl
ease
James:Sur
e
Me:Thankyou

Nowihavet
obegbutheisoldert
hanusandwe
shoul
dgi
vehimt
herespecthedeser
ves.

Sakhi
le
Nonhleisabal
loffunyoufeelcomfort
ablear
ound
her.Sheist
hatl
ovableandbeauti
fult
o,don'
tgeti
t
twist
edidon'
twanther.Ayandaalr
eadyhashis
eyessetonher,
hejustneedsthatki
ckli
tt
lepush
hereandhegother.
Thobani
:Youri
deawor
kedwonder
s
Me:Tol
dyoui
twoul
d

Ihadt obewithsomeoneiam notall

owedtobeby
myselfbecauseofmypast.Idon'
twanttogoback
tothepenthouseandidon'
tli
kebeinginot
her
people'
shouses,Li
ndaniwal
ksin.

Li
nda:Umunt
umel
akasakhi
leuvesaneal
aleunde
ndende
Me:Il
ikei
tli
ket
hat
Li
nda:Ni
hlebanganiuMzwakhenoPhi
ndi
le
Me:Nocanyoubel
ieveSet
hust
il
lli
nger
ingover
Mzwakhe
Li
nda:I
gqont
ilel
okudalangambonaumuhl
ekabi
wenabrawamiuyisbabaneunobuhl
ebaMzwakhe
Thobani
:Cor
rectskhul
u
Li
nda:Lahl
alent
oleuzi
thol
elei
smomondi
ya
Us:Zi
khonat
shona
Thobani
:Ngi
zoni
mbi
biza

Wel
augh.

Linda:Bukasengi
yal
alaf
uthaySakhi
lel
endl
u
yakho
Me:Awuhl
ukanenomuziwamimawul
alal
alahai
bo

Wel
augh.

Me:Hai
bongi
boneuyel
lowbone
Li
nda:Mmm l
eyonganemf
ana
Me:Mf
ethu
Li
nda:Angi
kwazinokut
hngi
hal
elaukumbona
enqunu
Me:Uzof
akhuzeka
Thobani
:Ut
hini
Me:Mommy'
sbi
rt
hdayi
scomi
ngup
Thobani
:Oh
Me:Wacavaofcour
seyouknowihopeMzwakhe
knows
Li
nda:Okaykeshhhngi
funaukul
ala
Me:Fusegwena
Thobani
:Gowanwena
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06/
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10:
31] :30

Mzwakhe
Asoftknockemer
gesfrom t
hedoor
.Doesthe
per
sonreali
zehowexhaust
edandti
rediam.

Me:Ubani
"I
tsmebroij
ustwantt
otal
ktoyouguysf
ora
second"

Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Li
ndo:Pl
ease

Iheadtothebat
hroom ibr
ushmyt
eet
hthanwash
myf ace.

Me:Ayikwaziukul
indal
ent
oof
unaukuyi
sho.
.
Nokubongawenzanimanje

Shet
urnsar
oundandi
tsnotsi
snokubonga.

Me:Whot
hef
uckar
eyou
Her:Goodmorni
ngsiri
'm NothandoNzuzaiknowi
sai
di'm goi
ngt
owaitfornextyear,
butweneedthe
moneyandiwasboredathomeihopeyoudon' t
mi
nd
Me:Usi
zweukut
humuhl
ebengi
zokueyhmm ubani
yenal
o
Sakhi
le:Remembersisnokubongasaying
somethingaboutaf
amilythatneedshelp

Il
ookather
.

Me:Ongi
buka

Il
ookatSakhi
le.

Me:Whywasidr
aggedawayf
rom myr
oom

Sheser
vest
hem br
eakf
astst
art
ingwi
thme.

Me:Noi
'
m okay
Not
hando:Khonaokunyeengakut
hol
elakona
Me:Wat
er
Thabi
so:Awudl
inganiMzwakheuyagul
ayi
ni
Me:Angi
thandi
Li
nda:Awngi
yabongaspawupet
e
Thabi
so:Muni
kei
plat
enzuzo
Me:Idon'
twantt
oeatyi
nii
nki
ngayakho
Thobani:Chaishoukut
hawuf
uniukudlaukudl
a
ongenziwangaimamasimpl
engekesikwenzelut
h
nooffense
Not
hando:Nonet
aken
Thabi
so:Wenana
Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Thabi
so:Shoul
dn'
twewai
tforever
yone
Li
ndo:Noever
yonewhoneedst
obeher
eisher
eso

Thi
sbet
terbegoodf
ormet
oleavemygi
rl
.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupexper
ienci
ngar
eal
lybadheadache,
wheredi
dthi
smangonow.

Voi
ce:Hei
sdownst
air
s

Igetupandheadt othedoorisli
ghtlyopenitt
han
callhi
sname.Ican' tevenshouthisnamenouse
nowbecausehei snotgoingtohearme, icl
imb
backont hebedandcal lhim.Whyam i
experi
encingtheseheadachesagai n.

Voi
ce:Yougoi
ngt
obef
inenkosazane

I
tri
ngsnextt
omehel
efthi
sphone.

Me:OhGod
James:Nkosazane
Me:Canyout
ell
Mzwakhet
ocomet
ohi
sroom
James:Youdon'
tsoundokay
Me:Iam notokayt
her
e'speopl
eandhel
efthi
s
phonepl
ease

Ihungupandl
aydownt
hisi
snotgood.

Mzwakhe
James:"Mzwakhephut
humaekamer
eni
uyadi
ngeka"
Me:Iwi
llbeback

Ir
usht
omyr
oom.

Me:Mama
Shecal
lsmewi
thherhand.

Me:Kut
hiwauyangi
dinga
Phi
ndi
le:Hmmm
Me:Mamakwenzenj
an
Phindi
le:Idon'
tknowi'
m exper
ienci
ngaver
ybad
headache,canyougetmeapai nkil
ler
Me:Okay

Idon'
twantt
opani
cbutsi
ncehei
sher
eletmet
ake
advant
ageofi
t.

Me:That
owozal
ashesha
Phi
ndil
e:Isai
dbr
ingmepai
nki
ll
ersnotThat
o
Mkhize
Me:Shutuppl
easecheckherukhal
angekhanda
That
o:Okaywhendi
dyouexper
iencei
t
Phi
ndi
le:Justnowwheniwokeup
Hei
nspectheraski
ngi
fitwaspai
nful
.

That
o:Ngi
phei
thi
shuMzwakhe

Ienterthebat
hroom whatdoesheneedat
issuefor
.
Hewi pesherheadandcomesbackwi t
habloody
ti
ssue.

That
o:Cal
lanambul
ance
Me:Whatt
hat
sgoi
ngt
otakel
ong

Ipi
ckherupandbl
ooddr i
psdownherknowsohmy
Godwhatist
hisgi
rldoi
ngme.

That
o:Don'tr
unMzwakheyoudon'twanttor
upt
ure
what
salreadybust
ed,
keepherheadsti
ll
Sakhi
le
Wejustar
rivedatthehospit
alMzwakhei
slooki
ng
l
ostwhatthehellhappened.

Me:Skhul
u

Hei
gnor
esme.

Me:She'
sgoi
ngt
obeokay
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lepl
ease

Ishutupihopehedoesn'tt
hinkshei
sgoi
ngt odi
e.
Heislooki
ngsodist
raughthegetsupwal
kingaway.

Li
nda:Ml
andel
eSakhi
le
Me:Nohewi
llbef
ine
Li
nda:Ofcour
seyougoi
ngt
osayt
hat
NonhleandMxol
isiar
ri
ve.Inowgettoseeher
br
othernotbadf
oraniggerreal
lynotbad.

Nonhle:Heywecameassoonaswecoul
dwhat
happened
Mxo:Wher ei
sheisweari
fhedi
danythi
ngtomy
si
steri
'm goi
ngt
obloodyt
akehi
sball
sout.What
happened
Me:Wedon'tknowhecamerunni
ngdowncar
ryi
ng
her
,fol
lowedbyThat
oheisaneurol
ogi
st
Nonhl
e:Neur
oheadr
ight
Me:Yes

Shesi
ghs.

Me:WhatWhat
swr
ong
Nonhl
e:Let
swai
tfort
hedoct
or
Mzwakhe
Shewasokaywhenwewentt osl
eepwhatcoul
d
havecausedbl oodt odri
pdownhernose.Igot
suchaf r
ightandf earedforherl
if
e,t
hatshi
twas
scaryiti
nsti
ll
edf earhecti
cfearonmeidon'twant
toloseher.

Sakhi
le:Youokaynow

Ii
gnor
ehim whyi
shetal
kingijustwantt
oremain
cal
minthi
ssit
uat
ion,
idon'twanttot
alkt
oanyone.

Me:That
o
Thato:Ever
ythi
nghmmm dot
hesehappenof
tent
he
headaches
Nonhl
e:Theypar
tofherl
if
e
That
o:Noever
ythi
ngi
sfi
nebutshesl
ippedi
ntoa
coma
Me:What
Mxo:Whatdi
dyourugl
yassdo
Me:I
fyoudon'tshutupi
'
m goi
ngt
ogi
veyoua
r
easontoshutup
Mxo:Ohyoust
eppi
ngupyouwantt
ost
epupt
ome
Nonhl
e:Yi
nil
eeni
yenzayoani
kahl
e

Ithoughtt
hatwasgoi
ngt
oscarehi
m hei
s
annoyingandmymainpr
ior
it
yri
ghtnowi
sPhi
ndi
le.

Nonhle:She'snotinacomashei sstuckbet
ween
spir
it
ualandt hiswor
ld.Youneedtodischar
geher
ther
eisnot ell
ingwhenshewillwakeup
That
o:That
'sagai
nsthospi
talr
ulesandi'
mthe
doct
orherwedealwit
hfactsandscience

Shel
ooksatme.
Me:That
omanj
ustl
ist
ent
ohersheknows
That
o:Yal
lknowver
ywel
li'
m notgoi
ngt
odo
Nonhle:Unlessyouwantroundtwoofmecandt
he
copsf l
oodingthi
shospi
talyouaregoi
ngt
o
dischargeherri
ghtt
hissecond
Sakhi
le:Iwi
llgett
hedi
schar
gepaper
s
[
06/
06,
10:
31] :31

Nonhl
e
Nodoctororsur
geonintheworl
dcanhelpherat
thi
spoi
nt,t
hedoctorr
efusedt
olethergo.Shejust
needst
olayonherbedandeverythi
ngwillbeokay.

Mxo:Nonhl
ear
eyousur
eaboutt
his
Me:Noi
'
m not

Theyl
ookatme.
That
o:Ohandyal
lwantmet
olethergo
Me:Areyoucrazyyouthi
nkiam goi
ngt
ol etmy
bestf
ri
enddie.Iknowherandiknowwhatshe
needscont
inuekeepi
ngherhereyouwi
llgetyour
sci
enceandfacts

Mzwakhel
ooksl
ikehei
sfr
om outofspace.

Mxo:Iam herbr
otherandi
'
m or
der
ingyout
o
di
schargeher
That
o:Youcan'
tjust
Mxo:Iwi
llsi
ghyourdamnAMAyoudon' tknowher
l
ikewedoshemi ghthavedi
sappear
ed

Mzwakhel
ooksathi
m.

"
That
o"
Dr
:Ehyousai
dyounotdi
schar
gingher
That
o:Idi
dn'
t
Dr
:She'
sgone
Me:Ni
yabonakei
nkaniyenu

Mzwakhechuckl
esl
ooki
ngup.

Mxo:Ut
huleunekeamasendeuhambi
lemanj
eusi
si
waminxiar
gh

Hewal
ksaway.

Sakhi
le
Ther
eisnosi
gnofheranywher
eit
sli
keshe
di
sappear
edi
ntot
hinai
r.

Li
nda:That
ouzokubul
alauMzwakhe
Wel
augh.

That
o:Haibohowwasisupposedt
oknowshehas
magicalpower
sofdi
sappear
ing
Me:Ther
eisnot
hingont
hesecamer
asnot
hing
Li
nda:Sur
ekuphiyousur
epul
lupt
hecamer
as
fr
om t
hepent
house

Idoshe'
slayingonMzwakhebedheent
ers
j
umpingont hebed.

Phi
ndi
le
Theheavinessli
ft
sof
fmybodyistartt
of eelmyself.
Itt
akesawhi l
eformetocomebacktoli
fe,ifeelli
ke
ihavebeeninacaracci
dentandi
ttookforeverfor
Mzwakhet ofi
ndme.
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Ukuphungi
shi
yel
aningedwa
Mzwakhe:I
'
mri
ghther
emyl
ove

Hel
if
tsmeuphuggi
ngf
ordearl
if
e.

Me:Whydi
dyoul
etmesl
eepf
ort
hisl
ongkant
i
whatdi
dwedo
Mzwakhe:Youdi
sappear
ed
Me:What

ThedooropensNonhl
eandmybr
otherwal
ksi
n.

Me:NonoMxol
isinenzanil
aut
hingi
nyamal
ele
Nonhle:Reall
yheiscr
azywhathemeansisthat
youwasn'twakinguphepani
ckedandcal
ledme,i
cal
ledMxolisi
Me:Oht
hatmakesmuchsense
Nonhle:Youknowhowmenar
etheyl
ovet
o
exaggerat
e

Wel
augh.

Me:Theancest
orscal
ledmeagai
n
Nonhl
e:Pr
obabl
yhewascr
yingl
ikeababy
Me:Mymancr
yli
keababyhi
ghl
yunl
ikel
y

Mzwakhe
Idon'
tunder
standhowdoesshenotr
emember
.

Me:Idon'
tgeti
t
Mxo:Thepoi
ntisnott
omakeherremember
becauset
heancest
orsdon'
twantherknowi
ngyet

Isi
gh.
Mxo:Pl
easei
fyoucan'
thandl
eitbri
ngherback
homewecantakecar
eofher,nextt
ime
Me:Ther
ewon'
tbeanextt
ime
Mxo:Mahmm ngi zot
hiukuhl
alanayeuyaphi
la
ebekhal
angekhandafut
h..Ukhonanayeakaqal
i
vel
eukusihl
ukumezaokayma

Hehungsupyoucanheart heworr
yinhi
svoice.
That
ohewasdoi nghisj
obhehadnocontrolover
whathappened,
iam notgoingt
odoanyt
hingto
hi
m.

Mxo:Li
zekayeahtel
lmyboysiwon'
tmakei
t
Phi
ndil
eisact
ingupagai
n

Hegoesupstai
rs.Il
ookatThat
ohekeepshi
s
composur
e,igetup.Hegetsof
frunni
ng.
Phi
ndi
le
Iknowitroubl
ethem alotbuttheywoul
dn'
tbe
anywherethanhereri
ghtnow.Mybr ot
herhaslosti
t
heisalwaysli
kethi
s,ineverpayatt
enti
onhis
tant
rums.

Nonhl
e:Wowt
hisr
oom i
sbi
ggert
hanSamkel
o's
Me:Iknowr
ightandwhatannoysmei
sthat
wardr
obe
Nonhl
e:I
tsl
ookscl
assyandexpensi
ve
Me:Ol
dfashi
on
Mxo:Ugl
y

Wel
augh.

Me:Thankyouguysf
orbei
ngher
ereal
ly
Mxo:Ngi
hambe
Me:Doyouwantt
ochi
llher
e
Mxo:Angi
funiumnyamanewakhoangi
jwayel
ekabi
Nonhl
e:Theyal
mostf
oughti
hadt
ojumpi
n
Me:Howdi
dthatgo
Nonhle:I
tdidn'
tgoMzwakhewasli
keshutup
befor
eigiveyouareasont
oshutupandhewas
l
ikeohyouwantt ohi
tmenow

Wel
augh.

Me:Yousur
ehedidn'
tst
epasi
debecauseyoumy
br
othert
hewayhesometi
messhoutathi
sfri
ends
Mxo:Thatdon'
tmatt
eridon'
tcar
eifhei
syour
boyf
ri
endnobodyisgoi
ngtotryme
Me:Phakat
hwayo
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06/
06,
10:
31] :32

Mzwakhe
Af
tert
hatneardeat
hscar
eever
ythi
ngj
ustwent
backt onormal.Mxoli
sistayedbehindjusttomake
sureshei sokayhewasl eavingheadingbackto
Singapore,ihopethi
swon' tcauseanotherdeat
h
scare.Lindokuhl
edisappearedagain,somehow
what everhehadtosaywasn' ttheri
ghttimetosay
i
tmybabyal mostdied.Sakhilehadtextedmeher
birt
hdayi scomingup.Ihavet odosomet hi
ng
specialforher.

Phi
ndi
le:Yougoi
ngt
otel
lmewhyyoust
ari
ngatme
Me:Thatsmor eofaguythi
ngtosaykant
iwenayi
ni
ubei
bhincikanje.
.Okayi
'
mj ustadmi
ri
ngyou
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Haveyout
houghtaboutdoi
ngyourhai
r
Phi
ndil
e:Idon'
tdomyhai
riwanttori
pitof
fthe
momentsomet hi
ngi
sbr
aidedinmyhair
.Iwear
weaveshalft
heti
meandshorthai
r
Me:Okaybutl
ikecoul
dyouidon'
tknownotl
ook
l
iket
his
Phi
ndi
le:Youwantmet
ogot
obedwear
ingmakeup
Me:Yeah
Phi
ndi
le:It
houghtyoul
ovet
hewayiam
Me:Idobutyoudat
ingmenowandwest
eppi
ngi
t
up

Il
aughherhandcansmackmeanymi
nut
e.

Phi
ndi
le:OkayMzwakhe

Herphoner
ingsihandi
ttoher
.

Phindil
e:Yeah,whyuf onangef
oniyama.Idon't
knowwher eMxolisii
sntombazaneuMxolisi
unemal ibonaukut hwenzenj
an.Angazinoma
nisukeniqomet hinayi
niasukaokaykuthi
wa
ngenzei khandalamiokay

Il
aughshe'
sgonet
olal
aland.
Sakhi
le
Whatihavelear
nedaboutMxoli
sisofarheisvery
i
mpatient
,heistheactnowtal
klat
erperson,
since
wearri
vedhehasbeenaskingoneofust ogo
di
stur
bMzwakhe.Pauseaf t
erwhathappenedlets
gi
vethem abreather
.

Mxo:Daveheynoiam comingyouknowthestor
y
wit
hmysister
,ohbutyoudon'thavet
ohmm cani
getbackt
oyouonthatokayyeahiwil
lokaybye
Me:Whatdoyoudoi
nSi
ngapor
e
Mxo:That
'snotyourbusi
ness
Me:Areyoui
ntosomeshadybusi
nessr
uini
nga
car
tel
Mxo:Idon'
tfuckwi
thyoul
iket
hat
Thabi
so:Whyyoubei
ngsodef
ensi
ve
Me:Yourr
unni
ngacar
tel
Mxo:Heenabaabant
ubengi
jwayel
akabiiam not
yourfr
iendorsomeguyyout
hinkyoucan
i
nterr
ogate
Li
nda:I
nter
rogat
ethat
'sabi
gwor
dwej
ustasked
whatyoudoing
Me:Your
unni
ngacar
tel
Mxo:Mxm

Welaughnowayheisnotint
oshadystufft
hisone.
Mzwakheisi
nti
midat
ingnomatt
erhowt oughofa
per
sonyouare,
buthestoodupt
ohim.Whi ch
makesmewonderdoeshedealwit
hil
legalstuf
f.

Mzwakhe:Engabeni
phaphani
menzeni
Me:Hei
srunni
ngacar
tel

Hegi
vesmeadeat
hst
are.

Me:Nomaungangi
bukakanj
alookusal
ayo
Mxo:I
sPhi
ndi
l
eawakeihavet
oleave
Mzwakhe:Iwoul
dn'
tleavei
fiwer
eyouthat
sjust
mebutkenoshehaszonedout,i
phil
entombazane
manzuzaweenzuzo

Shecomest
hroughmyhear
tst
opsbeat
ing.

Not
hando:Yessi
r
Mzwakhe:Cal
lmeMzwakheokayMzwakhe,
Ma.M.
Z.W.A.K.H.EMzwakhe
Not
hando:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Awubonikengi
zocel
aungenzel
elezi
nto
ukhohl
wail
aba
Nothando:Whatabout
..Okaysengi
sest
oloal
ready
si
r,Mzwakheimean

Hel
ooksatmet
hansmi
lesohwhat
ever
.
Phi
ndi
le
Ijustwantedaquietdaytomysel
fican'
tevenget
that,iheaddownstai
rsMzwakhehasdecidedtof
all
asleep.Hegavemeal lhi
sbankcardsandtol
dme
theymi ne,doesheknowwhaticandowithall
these.

Li
zekacal
lsme.

Me:Iam comi
nggi
rlkant
iyi
ni
Li
zeka:Ohiwasl
ooki
ngatt
het
ime
Me:Iam comi
ng

Ir
eachunder
groundwhoi
saccompanyi
ngme.

James:Sakhi
lei
'
mleavi
ng
James:Wher
ewegoi
ng
Me:Uhm t
othemal
l
James:Sopr
incess
Me:Wewor konourti
menotyour
si'
m st
il
l
watchingyouJames.Iknowi
tsbeenl
ongand
understandyourpai
n
James:Hasyourf
amil
ybeenki
dnappedandt
her
e's
not
hingyoucandoabouti
t
Me:Haveyoueverbeengi
venagiftandther
e's
nothi
ngyoucandoabouti
texact
lyletsnotf
ight
aboutthi
s

Isti
llhavenoi
deawhati'
m goi
ngt
odobuthel
ping
himismyonedi r
ect
ive.

Mzwakhe
Theydist
urbmef r
om mypeacef
ulsl
eepwhyar
e
theyevenher
e,ican'
twi
tht
heseboys.

Me:Ni
funani
la
Li
nda:Youknowwecan'
tst
ayawayf
rom you
Me:UzobhebhekaLi
ndaniyezwa

Wel
aught
hel
if
tsopensiseeThobanif
rowni
ng.

Thobani
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
ewhati
sthi
s
Set
hu:Ineedherhel
pwi
thsomet
hingit
houghti
t
wouldbeokay
Thobani
:.Don'
tihaveahouseSet
hu
Set
hu:Yousai
dyouwer
eher
eif
igur
ed
Me:Skhul
u
Thobani
:Eyngat
hengakushayauPhindileyezwa
ngobaengat
hingqondoyakhoayi
thathikahle

Iam ver
ygoodatacti
ngl i
keapersonain'
teven
ther
e.Al
ltheti
mephil
isiwebreaksther
ules,when
i
sshef r
iendswit
hSethu.

Set
hu:Whywoul
dshedot
hatanywayscome
Me:Ohi
'
m goi
ngt
ofucki
ngki
llal
lofyou

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasreal
lyoutofi
tbutmyspi
ri
thasbeenl
if
tedupi
doneededtogetaway.

Lizeka:Whatyouthinkaboutt
hisgoodenought
o
keepMxol i
siaround

Whydoesheneedkeepi
ngar
oundt
heset
woar
e
mar
ri
edhavetwoboys.

Me:Whydoesheneedkeepi
ngar
ound.
.Li
zeka
Li
zeka:Ij
ustwanthi
mtost
aywi
thmesomet
imes
Me:Youraver
ybadl
iar
Li
zeka:Okayf
inehei
sleavi
ngagai
n
Me:What
Li
zeka:Phi
ndi
lewai
t
HowcanMxoli
sil
eavewit
houtsayi
nggoodbye
knowi
nghi
m hehasalr
eadyl
eft.

Me:Takemehome
James:Nkosazane

Mzwakhe
Phi
ndil
ecanenteratanyminutemostoft
hem have
l
eft
.Idon'
tknowwhatt ypeofper
sonpisbutshe
l
ooksli
keshewillsmackabitch.

Mxo:Awkodwanj
alouPhi
ndi
leuhl
ezi
engi
bambezel
a
Me:Uhambel
aniwena
Mxo:Ihaveaj
obaj
obt
hatt
akescar
eofmyf
ami
ly
Me:Doyour
unacar
tell
ikeSakhi
lesai
d
Mxo:I
'
m anAIspeci
ali
st
Me:Thef
uck
Mxo:Whatthehellmadeyouguyst
hinkir
una
car
tell
ikeser
iousl
y
Me:Noonehast
hebal
lst
ost
andupt
omesohow
muchdoyoumake

Hescoff
swowthi
smani
sthedeal,
iwonderi
fmay
babyi
sassmar
tashi
m.Hisphoneri
ngs.

Mxo:Uphikant
iyouwhat

Thel
if
topens.

Me:Mamawuuawusemuhl
e

Shel
ooksatMxol
isir
eal
lybad.

Set
hu:Sot
hat
'si
tnj
eyabo
OhGod.
[
06/
06,
10:
31] :33

Phi
ndi
le
Mxolisihasal
waysbeenlikethat
,that'
swhyhe
somet i
mesavoidmebecauseheknowshowiget .I
l
ovemybr ot
hersomuchwhenhel eavesmyheart
breaks,butwhatcanisayhehasaj obandiam
happyt hi
sti
mehesai dgoodbyeratherthanme
fi
ndingouthealreadyl
eft
.

Mzwakhe:Ungi
dinel
wa
Me:Cha
Mzwakhe:Ungi
zibel
anipho
Me:Awul
eleyi
nikant
i
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Iam notmad
Mzwakhe:Okayt
ell
mewhatishoul
ddoandiwi
ll
doi
t
Me:St
opdi
srespect
ingme
Mzwakhe:Idi
dn'
tbr
ingher
Me:What
everyourboysandsocal
ledgi
rl
fr
iends
ar
enotal
lowedtobehereoratl
eastwheniam
ar
ound
Mzwakhe:Okaycanigetaki
ss

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le
Mxo:Ungabeusut
hiubhut
iakangi
thandi
Me:Iam goi
ngt
omi
ssyou
Mxo:Iwon'
t

Wel
augh.
Mxo:Yourabi
ggi
rlyoucanhandl
eitangi
thuyaj
ola
wena
Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Heyiwast hereforareal
lyl
ongt
imethi
stime
buti
'
m neededsis,iloveyouokaybeagoodgir
l
andtel
lthatbi
tchifhehurtyouimmafr
yhisbal
ls

Welaughhehungsup.Myli
feisoverwhydi
dn'
the
j
ustl
eavewit
houtsayi
nggoodbye.

Sakhi
le
BecauseofSethuthewholecrewisbannedf
rom
ent
eringthepent
house.Thobanii
sannoyed,
iwoul
d
betooliket
hisgi
rli
streadi
ngonthini
ce.

Mzwakhe:Hal
lowi
nguys
Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Skhul
uleti
tgoshei
snotwor
thi
tdon'
t
doanyt
hingtoher
Me:Leavet
hem al
one

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Okaywhati
sgoi
ngon
Me:Thehei
stbaba
Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantt
odoi
tyazi

Heistest
ingthem onwhattheygoi
ngtosay
Thabi
sowi l
lbethefi
rstonetocomplai
n,heal
ways
complai
nsthatone.

Mzwakhe:Yal
lnotcompl
aini
ng
Thabi
so:Sot
hiniphel
aangi
thabant
usebeyaj
ola
Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Okayexhi
bitA

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhl eandiweremeetingatthedancest udi
oi
havet otel
lheraboutal
lset
hu'sdoi
ngs.Shei sa
disappoint
menttoThobaniwedef i
nit
elyneedt o
talk,
howcansomeonewhohasamanbet hi
s
obsessedwi t
hsomeot herguywhoi staken.

Nonhl
e:Gi
vemeanh
Me:Hey
Nonhl
e:Gi
vemeab
Me:Bi
tch
Nonhl
e:Heybi
tch
Wehugihavemi
ssedhersomuch.

Nonhl
e:Mama
Me:Gi
rl
Nonhl
e:Yi
nimanj
euphi
ndewakushi
yaf
uthubaby
Me:Akusi
yeuSet
hu

Sher
oll
shereyes.

Me:I
'm outwi
thuskwi
zashet
ell
smeMxol
isi
is
l
eavi
ngagain
Nonhl
e:Usehambi
le
Me:Yeahiwassohurtanddisappoint
edbutt
hat
ai
n'ti
tSet
hubroughtt
hegir
lMzwakheal ways
sl
eepswit
htheoneisawinmyvi sions
Nonhl
e:Unamanga
Me:Il
ostal
lstr
engt
hidi
dn'
tevenf
ighti
tidi
dn'
t
havet
heenergy
Nonhl
e:I
nthepent
house
Me:Inthepent
houseit hi
nkshewantedareacti
on
outofmeandMzwakhe.Ihadasenset hathedidn'
t
real
lypaymuchattent
iontoitandt
hatkindofset
thetoneofhowishouldact
Butdamniwant
edt
osmackherr
ightacr
osst
hat
ugl
yface
Nonhl
e:Howi
sThobani
Me:Shamemyfri
endweneedt
otal
ktohi
m and
askwhati
sgoi
ng

Idon'tl
iket
hesi
tuat
ionshehasputhi
minbut
Zikhonaist
her
etoexti
nguishshef
ir
eSet
huhas
start
ed.

Mzwakhe
Thobaniandiwentforadriveheshouldn'
tpayany
att
enti
ontothi
sri
diculousgir
l.Herpl
anoftryi
ngto
getsomethi
ngoutofust ot
allybackf
ir
edonher.
Thobani
:Racet
rack
Me:Tobl
owofsomesteam idon'
thavemucht
ime
Phi
ndi
leneedst
ofi
ndmeathome
Thobani
:Br
angenaemandl
eni
Me:Skhul
u
Thobani:Ababaningiabakwaziukut
holaleyangane
kuningiasedl
ulekukhonanalamadloziumphathe
njekahle
Me:Kwangat
hiuyangi
songel
anj
e
Thobani
:Iam

Il
augh.

Me:Let
sdot
hispl
easedon'
tki
llmeigotagi
rl
fr
iend
now

Hel
aughs.
Phi
ndi
le
Iarr
ivehomeaf t
erthatgoodwor koutsessi
on.The
penthouseisemptythat'
safir
st.Iam nevealone
buti'
m happyioffl
oadthegroceri
esibought,thel
if
t
openshesmi l
es.

Mzwakhe:Iwon'
tli
eandsayipi
ctur
edyoul
ikethi
s
cr
apbutthisi
swhatihavedr
eamedallmyl
ife
Me:Ncoooh

Iki
sshi
m.

Me:Howwasyourday
Mzwakhe:I
twasgr
eatmama
Me:Icanseet
hat
Mzwakhe:Youwhatdi
dyoudo
Me:Iwentdanci
ngandboughtsomef
oodmetup
wi
thNonhl
e

Myphoner
ingsl
izekawhatdoesshewantnow.

Me:Mf
azikamf
ethu
Li
zeka:Mxol
isihasbeenshothei
sint
hehospi
tal
ri
ghtnow

That
'st
hel
astt
hingihear
dbef
oreicol
lapsed.

Mzwakhe
Iam notsureifsheisunconsciousorwhat .She
almosthitt
hewr onghard,l
uckilyiwastheret o
grabherinti
me.Iwonderi fshewi l
lfai
ntl
iket hat
formeshouldigetshot,Mzwakhewhati swr ong
withyouherbrotheri
sinthehospi t
alandiam
thi
nkingaboutmyself.
Me:Anyl
uck
Sakhil
e:Hiscarwastorchedsomewher ei
nadit
ch,
tur
nsouthei sasshadyast heycome.Heispar
tof
someor gani
zati
onadealwentwr ongthey
thr
eatenedhim,helef
tfastforwar
dnyanaivr
ou
i
gidlanalomj
ital
oabatheshanaye
Me:What
Sakhi
le:I
yincosizakhengenzekezi
be

Iwhi
stl
e.

Me:Hect
ic
Sakhi
le:Iknowwhatyougoi
ngt
odo
Me:I
tsnotmybusi
nessshoul
dtheywanthel
pfr
om
meiwil
lbehappyt
ohelp
Sakhi
le:Mebehl
asel
aimama
Me:Yabonakengi
zobesengi
bul
alaumunt
u
Sakhi
le:Howi
sshe
Me:Idon'
tknowimagi
neifshewasbyhersel
f
hmmm iseenowwhyt heysayshet
roubl
esthem a
l
otayaylosisi

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Phi
li
siwe
Me:Ongi
yekengaleyont
oiwillsorti
toutwheni
havet
othi
sisjusthighschoolbehavior
Sakhi
le:Onet
hatcoul
dlandyousi
ngl
e
Me:Anginendabaokusalayobobabi
lingekebaze
bangi
thol
e.Ungibekekahleangi
sonaischaka
esi
hambasi t
apainomaubani

Iwon'
tent
ert
aint
hisnonsensehel
aughs.
[
06/
06,
10:
31] :34

Phi
ndi
le
Mymi ndwasmi l
li
onmi
lesawaymytear
skeep
fal
li
ngdown,ikeepwhi
ppingmyf
acewhowoulddo
suchathi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Mamaicant
akeyout
othehospi
tal
Me:Idon'
twantt
ogot
othehospi
tal
Mzwakhe:Mama

Hebr
ingsmet
ohi
schesticr
ylouder
.

Me:Iseeever
ythi
ngwhycoul
dn'
tiseemybr
other
i
ndanger
Mzwakhe:Ehl
isaumoyagogouzobar
ight
Me:Ifeell
ikeif
ail
edhi
m hegotshotandicoul
dn'
t
pr
otecthim

Icoul
dn'
tpr
otecthimtheycanshowmeMzwakhe
sl
eepi
ngwit
hanot herwoman,butcan'
twar
nme
thatmybrot
heri
sindanger
.Whydi
dtheyevenl
eti
t
happen.

Mzwakhe
Thisisbeyondweirdshefel
lasl
eepinthemiddl
eof
cryi
ngandcr ushi
ngmyhear t
,igent
lygetof
fher
thanlayathrowoverherbody.

Sakhi
le:I
ssheokay

Hewhi
sper
s.

Me:Idon'
tknow

Shewakesupgaspi
ng.

Me:Ar
eyouokaydoyouneedwat
er
Phi
ndi
le:It
hinkiam goi
ngt
olaydownf
orawhi
l
e
Me:Youdon'
twantt
ogot
othehospi
tal
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
twantt
ogot
othehospi
tal

Shesnaps.

Sakhi
le:Andt
han
Me:Ithi
nktheyhaveaMzwakheandSakhi
le
r
elat
ionshi
p
Sakhi
le:Hect
ic
Me:Iknow

Ihavet
ocleanupt hemesshemadeihat
est
upi
dit
y
andcar
elessness.

Nonhl
e
Thi
scamei nt
oashockicanimaginewhatPhindi
le
mustbegoingthr
ough.Herwor
ldhasstoppedthe
wayshelovesherbr
othersomuch.Hewashol di
ng
myhandf
ordearli
fe,
Samkel
oandicametocheck
onhi
mthi
smor ni
ng,t
hankGodhei
sawake.

Li
zeka:Wher
eisPhi
ndi
lesheshoul
dbeher
eri
ght
now

Thebondt heysharei
simpeccabl
etheyrel
yon
eachotheralot.I
fsheeversawhimli
kethisshe
won'tr
ecover.Evenyol
iisdi
str
aughtshecan'
tbare
toseeherbrotheri
nthi
sstate.

Mxo:Li
zekast
op

Heevensoundsweak.

Me:Yi
ndabkodwa
Mxo:Longst
ory
I'
m surpr
isedshedi
dn'tseet
hiscomi
ngbecause
spir
it
uall
ysheisgif
ted.

Ma:Usef
iki
leuPhi
ndi
le
Mxo:Celaniyekelentoeniyenzayomunikeni
i
skhat
hiuzoza, akukahl
alikuyenaukut
h
ngi
dutshul
iwe

Pol
icecomei
n.

Off
icer1:Goodmor
ningweheart
oinvest
igat
ewhat
happened
Of
fi
cer2:Canwespeakt
oyoui
npr
ivat
e

Hel
ooksatmehai
boMxol
isi
.

Me:Idon'tt
hinkthi
sist
heri
ghtt
imet
obeaski
ng
quest
ionshejustwokeup
Of
fi
cer2:Hel
ooksf
inet
ome

Thedoct
orcomesi
noht
hankGod.

Dr
:Okayguysyouhaveover
stayedyourwel
come
mypati
entneedst
orest
Of
fi
cer2:Weher
e
Dr:Likeisai
dmypat i
entneedsrestandhei
snotat
l
ibert
yt otal
kyoushouldhavecamet hemomentwe
call
edyou

Iseesomeresemblancebet
weenthedoct
orand
thecool,
cal
m andcoll
ect
edoff
icer
.Theysor
tof
l
ooklikeMzwakhe.

Of
fi
cer1:Yougoiwi
lldealwi
tht
his
Offi
cer2:Thankyouigotbet
tert
hingst
odo
anyway
Hel
eaves.

Dr
:Unesi
cef
elomunt
uwakhowhyar
eyoupai
red
wi
thhi
m
Of
fi
cer1:Tel
lmewhyiam noti
nvest
igat
ingyou
Me:Holdupar
eyallbyanychancer el
atedt
othat
handsomemanthatlooksexact
lyl
ikeyoutwo
Off
icer:Andwhomi
ghtyoubeaski
ngt
hose
questi
ons
Me:Noonejustthatmyfr
iendsi
sterofhi
sisa
dati
ngaguywhoal mostl
ooksli
keyoutwobut
apologi
esf
orasking

Mzwakhe
Tobeabl et
ogethim outoft
hissi
tuat
ion,
ineedt
o
di
schargehim.Ient
erhiswardasPhamandla
fi
nishesupwit
hhim.
Mxo:Thankyouf
orwhatyoudi
dear
li
er
Phamandl
a:Thoset
woar
eannoyi
nganyways
Mxo:Yal
llookal
ike
Phamandl
a:Wegett
hatal
ot
Mxo:Noyal
ldef
ini
tel
ylookal
ike

Nhl
akani
phowal
ksi
n.

Nhl
aka:Baf
o
Me:Hmmm
Phamandl
a:Andhecomesback
Mxo:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Me:Icamet
ofet
chyou
Mxo:Excuseme
Phamandl
a:Wedi
schar
gingyou
Nhl
aka:Gi
vemeonegoodr
easonishoul
dn'
t
ent
ert
aint
his
Me:Comeonhei smybr ot
heri
nlawiwouldhate
f
orhimtogot oj
ail
,bythewaybrawhatastupi
d
wayofcover
ingyourtr
acks
Nhl
aka:Usuyaj
ola
Me:Duhhaven'
tyouhear
d
Nhl
aka:Wowt
hat
'sonehel
lofawoman
Me:Iwantt
oshowyoubutwel
l

Il
augh.

Phamandl
a:Anddone
Mxo:Iai
n'tgoi
ngnowher
ewi
thyou
Me:I
twouldbeinyourbestint
eresttodowhatit
ell
yout
ootherwi
se,iam t
ell
ingPhindi
leandyour
whol
efamil
y
Mxo:Ohuhlul
ekil
eukungi
shayamanj
eusubona
engat
hungangisongel
a
Me:Awukhonj
emdal
akunamiphol
angi
yamt
shel
e
uPhi
ndi
lenoma

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Yeahidi
dn'
tthi
nkso

Mybr
other
slaugh.

Phamandl
a:HaaMzwakheusabi
swaumunt
ukanj
e
Me:Uyangi
dakel
wal
oucat
hingi
yamsaba
Nhl
aka:Somegi
rlaskedi
fwer
elat
edt
oyou
Me:Who
Nhl
aka:Omunyenj
eumommyoyiyel
lowbone
Me:Ohawdon'
twor
ryabouthershe'
snotat
hreat
Nhlaka:Ohyout
hef
ri
endt
hat
'sdat
ingherf
ri
endhi
s
si
ster
Me:Skhul
u
Nhl
aka:Ohaykul
ungi
lekephel
asi
bani
ngi
esi
fanayo
Me:Wenaazi
she

Hei
sactuall
yol
dert
hanmeandscar
est
hefoutof
mebutidon'
tcar
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Heent er
swithmybrothert
heyargui
ngihavezero
tol
eranceforl
oudnoisesandscr
eaming,theybet
ter
cooldownbef or
eismackthebothofthem.

Mxo:Angi
siyeumnganiwakhowena
Mzwakhe:Shutup

Hecomesoverandki
ssesmycheek.

Mzwakhe:Mommyiam sor
ryil
efti
m backnow
Me:Iseeyoubr
oughtcompany
Mzwakhe:Ngekengi
benentombiekhal
ayo
engaf
uniukukhul
umangenxayabantuabangasi
le

Il
ookathi
m.

Mxo:Canwet
alk
Me:Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoyou
Mxo:Whyuyangiphakamel
amanj
ephambikwe
boyf
ri
endyakho

Igetupal
mosthi
tt
inghi
m Mzwakhehol
dsme.

Me:Ungi j
wayelakabiyezwaMxolisi
,uvumele
umhobol oukungenaekhanda.Ufakeimpil
oyet hu
encuphenimaseuyaphi ndel
aekufenif
uth,ey
unenhlanhlaangi
yibonangayonkelent
o.Angifuni
ukukhulumanawemengakwenzal okho
ngizokugqemaingozi
Il
ookatMzwakhehel
etsgoofmeiheadupst
air
s.

Me:UyajwayelawenaMxolisiangaziucabanga
ukuthngi
yisl
imayiningi
zokukhahlekuyobhosha
obozo

Sakhi
le
Phindil
eisscarywhenshe'
sangr ythatdeepvoi
ce
wasenought oratt
leme,il
it
erall
ythoughtshewas
tossMzwakhet othesi
deandf ucki
ngmur der
Mxolisi
'sass.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
mtshel
eli
ukut
hat
hul
ewenzanyena
Me:Uzobhoshaobozobaba

Wel
augh.
Me:Wef
oundsomei
nfor
mat
ion
Mzwakhe:Ver
ydamagi
ngi
nfor
mat
ion
Thobani
:Youknowt
hisguy
Mxo:MongeziV
Me:Whydoest
hatsoundf
ami
li
ar
Mzwakhe:Rightanywaysadealwentwr
ongr
ight
andhedecidedtotakeyouout
Thobani
:What
shi
saf
fi
li
ati
onwi
thyourwi
fe

Helaughsslowl
ythanget
slouderandl
ouderand
boom hi
sgone,weseri
ousl
ylaughatcr
azinessbut
thi
sisser
ious.

Me:Doyouknowt
heyhavi
nganaf
fai
rokayiguess
t
hatst
oomuchinf
ormat
ion
Thobani
:Al
lint
hisf
il
e

Weheadt
otheki
tchen.
Me:Ngazengalambaumommyakaphekanga
Not
hando,Thando

West
areathi
m.
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06/
06,
10:
32] :35

Aweekl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhewasn' thappyaboutmegoi nghomehe
pull
edaf i
t,gavemeonet housandreasonswhyi
shouldn'
tleave.Wemar r
iediam donegivi
nghim
thefi
vestartreatment,ican'
ttel
lwhenilefthome.

Nonhl
e:Whatwedoi
ngt
omor
row
Me:Iam get
ti
ngol
d
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Idon'
twantanycel
ebr
ati
onidon'tt
hinkican
handl
ethatmanypeopl
enotaft
eri
dramakaMxol isi

Hecamewi t
hsomedammi ngi nf
ormation.Icannot
beli
evehewouldthi
nkt hatthesecuteli
t t
leboys
werenothis.Iwoul
dhaveknownoratl eastpi
cked
uponi t,
hedidaDNAt esttheresultsshouldcome
anytimesoon.Weaskedf orat horoughtesti
ngand
Mzwakhewaski ndenought ohelpspeedupt he
process.

Me:Ij
ustwantsi
mpl
emeatanddr
inks
Nonhl
e:Bor
ing

Mzwakhe
Imisshernowcanshecomebackal
r eady.But
anywaysiti
sdoi
ngusjust
ice,
wedon'thavetoget
usedtoeachot
hert
hanweendupbr eakingup.
Phamandl
a:Yourt
estr
esul
ts
Me:Ar
etheyhi
s
Phamandl
a:100per
centposi
ti
ve
Me:Oht
hankGod

Ical
lher
.

Phi
ndi
le:St
handwasam
Me:Mommy
Phi
ndi
le:Sengi
yat
handwaf
uth
Me:Nokodwaket
het
estr
esul
tsar
eback
Phi
ndi
le:Iam st
il
lther
eAunt
Me:100per
centposi
ti
ve

Sheexhal
es.

"
Aret
hoset
het
estr
esul
ts"
"
Aunt
ie"

Phindi
le:Heybabiesni
njant
shel
aniugogoani
geze
sohamba. .Thankyousomuch
Me:Anyt
imemyl
ove

"
Haaangi
sal
inj
enami
,ngamanengayi
wa"

Me:Ubanil
oyo
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
hlezi
noNonhl
eokaybabybye
Sakhi
le:Shoul
digoorsendJames
Me:Iwi
llgo

Nonhl
e
It
sal
waysnicebei
ngwi thPhindi
leigettogetaway
fr
om mymessysituati
on.Acarpullsupthatmust
beourr
idemyfri
endi sleavi
ngtheli
fehere,
ever
si
nceshehadthi
sgi f
tshehasbeent reat
edli
kea
queen.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayl
etusgo

Weheadout
..
.Wegeti
nthecarandi
tsMzwakhe.

Phi
ndi
le:Youubanil
oweeay

Boys:Si
funaukuhl
alanoAunt
ie

Weswapseat
s.

Mzwakhe:Seatbel
tspl
ease

Boys:Yebomal
ume

Hesmi
les.
Me:Ayi
yinganezaMxol
isi
Phi
ndi
le:I
yaphi
lakemunt
uwami
Mzwakhe:Ngobasengi
kuboni
lei
nhl
izi
yoyamii
thi
cosol
olo
Me:Ahhyoucan'
tbecut
ewi
tht
hisgi
rl

Hest
art
sthecaranddr
ivesof
.

Mzwakhe
Haveagi rl
fr
iendt heysaidt heseancest
orsgotno
ti
mingt hr
oughoutt her i
deshewaszonedout .We
gottothemal landever ythingwasexciti
ng,
they
wereshoppingandshoppi ngandshoppingand
shopping.Isawhergr abbingaf ewthi
ngsforme
andmaybeMxol isi,ihaveneveri magi
nedmy
happinesstobeanyt hi
ngl i
ket hi
s.

Af
tershoppi
ngwewentt
ospurMxol
isihasl
ovel
y
ki
ds,i
tsunl
ikehi
m.Heispassi
ve,
loud,
conf
ront
ati
onalandcr
azy.

Mj
:Si
yabongaAunt
ie

Ismi
leshegi
vest
hem bot
haki
ss.

Me:Qui
etwel
lmanner
edki
dshei
srai
sing
Nonhl
e:Theyamazemesomet
imes

"
Siswamiomuhl
e"

Mj
:Bababukangi
thol
eni
Mxo:Yazeyayi
nhl
emf
anawami
Phi
ndi
le:Ukuph
Mxo:I
'
minr
ecover
y
Shet
urnst
hephonear
ound.

Mxo:Awuyi
thandil
endodayakhoembi

Wel
augh.

Me:Awmf
ethu
Mxo:Ngi
zobuyakusasaungasabi
Phi
ndi
le:Whatyougoi
ngt
odoabout
Mxo:Asi
yixoxesobabi
lil
eyomfazi
wami kodwa
uvumel
akanjanusiswamiejol
enalomnyamane
Phi
ndi
le:Mxol
isiokaybyesaybyedaddy

Idi
dn'
tevendoanyt
hingwr
ongt
ohi
m.

Phi
ndi
le
Af
terl
unchwewentandpl
ayedgamesboydi
dwe
havealotoff
un.MjandMvelohavef
all
enasl
eep.I
am gl
adtobehomet hecarpar
ksont
heside.

Nonhl
e:Iwi
llof
fl
oad
Mzwakhe:Iwi
llcar
ryt
heboys
Me:Hai
bobavusebezi
hambel
e
Mzwakhe:I
tsokaymama

Ir
emai
nint
hecarwhi
let
heybusywi
tht
hat
.

Me:Whataday
Nonhl
e:Youl
eavi
ngwi
thhi
m
Me:No

Shenodst
aki
ngthelastsetofshoppi
ngbags,
Mzwakhecomesdownandcl osestheboot
.
Mzwakhe:Whataday
Me:Tel
lmeabouti
t
Mzwakhe:Manj
euhambanami
Me:Cha
Mzwakhe:Awkodwamommy

Ist
epoutoft
hecarandgot
ohi
ssi
de.

Me:Ngi
zobuyengi
kubonembhem
Mzwakhe:Iam goi
ngt
omi
ssyou
Me:Don'
tli
eyouj
ustwantt
osl
eepwi
thme
Mzwakhe:Duh!

Hegr
absmyneckandweki
ss.

Mzwakhe
Idon'
twantt
orui
nmydaybutigott
osor
tsome
thi
ngsout.Sheopensthedooril
etmysel
fin,she
comest omeandwr apsherar
msaroundmyneck
andkissme.Ihappil
yobli
geshesendsmet othe
chairandst
raddl
esme.

Me:Youhavebeennaught
y
Si
we:Whatyougoi
ngt
odopuni
shme

Shet
akesof
fmyj
acketihol
dbot
hherwr
ist
s.

Me:Uhl
anganseninoSet
hu

Shel
ooksdown.

Me:Ngi
zokubuzaf
uthuhl
angani
seninoSet
hu

Hereyeswanderar
ound.
Me:Okayl al
elakemunuyabonalent
obiyenzeka
phakathikwaminaweiphel
il
enyasuka
phezukwamisukaman

Sheget
sofcr
yingiwon'
tbedi
srespect
edl
iket
hat
.

Si
we:Wai
t

Afamili
arsoundbuzzesi
nherr
oom ichuckl
eand
walkout.
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06/
06,
10:
32] :36

Phi
ndi
le
Iam vi
gorousl
ypul
ledoutofbedbyNonhl
eshe
runswit
hmeout si
de.

Me:Yi
nikwenzenj
an
Nonhl
e:Look
Icovermymoutht
hewhol
eyar
disf
il
ledwi
th
hydrangeas.

Me:Hai
bo
Nonhle:Eachbouqueti
saccompani
edbyaboxof
l
indtchocolat
e
Me:What

Myphonebeeps.

Me:"
Lookupi
nthesky"
Nonhl
e:Happybi
rt
hdaymommyohmyGod

Shescr
eamsandact
shi
lar
ious.

Nonhl
e:Hehast
ickedal
ltheboxes
Idon'
tknowhowam isupposedtoacttothi
s,no
manhaseverdoneanyt
hingthi
sspecialf
orme.I
covermyface.

Mzwakhe
Theexpr
essi
ononherf
acepr
icel
ess.

Sakhi
le:LookatNonhl
eyouwoul
dswearshei
sthe
onewhogott hefl
ower
s
Thobani
:Ahmanngi yoj
abul
amhl
azaneuAyanda
wayit
hat
halengane
Me:Zi
thi
nivel
e
Thobani
:Hedoesn'
tdeser
vehert
hat
'sal
licansay

Thecr
ewwal
ksi
nweswi
tchoft
hemoni
tor
s.

That
o:Akukhoukudl
alaykhaya
Senzo:Awudl
angayi
nikwakho

Hecomesandl aysonmyshoul
dergi
vingme
puppydogeyes.

Me:Yewenangazongi
jwayel
akabi

Heput
shi
shandunder
neat
hmi
nes.

Me:Hai
boThat
o

Hef
rowns.

Me:I
mamanj
eal
iyenzil
ent
ooyenzayo

It
akeoutmyphoneandor
der
.
That
o:Ahahngi
funal
okho
Me:Ngi
zokukhahl
ela
That
o:Mzwakhe
Me:Hai
bo

Hel
ooksatmeagai
nwi
thpuppydogeyes.

Me:Heeayi
Thabi
so:Andt
hanwena
That
o:AyThabi
soongi
yeka

Phi
ndi
le
Mxol
isi
:Andthannonsenseyanil
egcweleej
ari
di
umuntuakasakwainokuhambaubhi
zi,
unyat
hel
ana
namahlamvu
Me:Awukahl
e
Mxoli
sial
wayshassomethi
ngnegati
vetosay.He
can'
tcompli
mentwi
thoutfi
ndi
ngfaul
tinthat
somethi
ng.

Nonhl
e:Asi
khohl
iwevel
euyi
bhi
nci
Mxo:Sukahappybi
rt
hdaymynungul
uzahappy
bi
rt
hday
Me:St
op

Ical
lhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Uzamaukungi
bul
ala
Mzwakhe:Ngankodwamommy
Me:Thefl
ower
s,chocol
atet
hemessagei
nthesky
al
lforme
Mzwakhe:Flowersididn'
tsendyouanyf
lower
s
ngi
hlanganaphinezi
mbali
Me:Babe
Mzwakhe:Iam gl
adyouhappy
Me:Am iseei
ngyout
oday
Mzwakhe:Ukukbonakwamiukut
huzel
a
Mxol
isi
:Udaki
we
Me:Ngi
yabongakakhul
u
Mzwakhe:Okaymommy

Hehungsup.

Me:Real
ly

Mzwakhe
Thefoodarr
ivesher
unst
othel
if
t.
.Fewmi
nut
es
l
aterhecomesback.

Not
hando:Canigetyouanyt
hingsi
r
That
o:Apl
ateofyougor
geousness

Il
ookatSakhi
leandhei
sfr
owni
ng.

That
o:Hmm uvel
aphi
Not
hando:At
housandr
andf
oryouranswer

Hel
ooksatuswel
augh.

Not
hando:Youknowwhat
sat
housandr
andr
ight
That
o:Babyicangiveyoual
lthet
housandsr
ands
i
ntheworldyouneed
Not
hando:Real
lyyoudon'
tlookl
iket
het
ype
That
o:Ohnoyoudi
dn'
thoneyiam r
ichigotaj
ob
Not
hando:Iwoul
dn'
tpi
ctur
eyouani
net
ofi
ve
That
o:Ehbafet
huubanilof
oryouri
nfor
mat
ion
Madam iam aneur
ologi
st
Not
hando:Agai
ndon'
tlookl
iket
het
ype

Shewal
ksawaywel
augh.

Sakhi
le:WeThat
owena

Hewasaboutt
ogoi
nter
rogat
eher
.

Me:Okayguyswozanike
That
o:Aywenzanangi
thkadeni
ngi
hlekagetaway
fr
om myfood
Thabi
so:Whati
sthi
sabout
Me:Whyar
emybuzzer
sinsomebodyel
se'
shouse
Thabi
so:Youcal
ledusf
ort
hat
Me:Iwanttol
ookyalli
ntheeyeswhyar
emy
buzzer
sinsomebodyelse'
shouse
Theykeepqui
et.

Me:Nathulamanjeani
ngiphendul
inganiangi
funi
ukudi
niwekuzalwaimediyamingi
mnandiyabo
ni
ngangicasul
i
Thabi
so:Sakhi
le,
Thobaninat
hul
amanj
e
mpenduleni
Thobani
:Manj
eel
ami
igamal
ingenaphi
Mel
usi
:Angi
thphel
ani
nani
yikhul
unaziyonki
nto
Thobani
:Ncooohmanj
ekukphat
hakabil
okho
Me:Eyf
okof

Ipul
loutmydet
onat
er.

Me:Ifipressmyt humbher eeveryonei

sgoingto
blowupexceptf ormeifyoudar egetupiam goi
ng
toblowthissuckerup.Nowt el
lmewhyar emy
buzzersi
nsomebodyel se'shouse
Itri
edt
alki
ngtothem cal
mlytheyignor
edmenow
theypi
ssedmeof f
.Thosebuzzerscanputmeinjai
l,
whataretheydoi
nginphil
isi
we'shouse.Myphone
beeps.

Me:Ubaniot
het
hint
aif
oniyamiwena

Hel
ooksatMel
usi
.

Thobani
:Ohngi
yaxol
isabengi
theyami
Me:Chazaukut
hthi
ntai
foniyami
Thobani
:Hadeskhul
u

Theyl
augh.

Thabi
so:Canwegonow
Me:Fuseganizi
nja
Iheadtomyroom iam goi
ngtokil
lMel
usibutiam
goingt
osetupanicetrapforhi
mtohanghimself
.

Sakhi
le
Thosearehightechbuzzersst
ateoft
hearti
fthey
l
andi nwronghandsyohMzwakhei sdoomed.
Somel ef
tsomest ayedbehi
ndandtheywere
tur
ningtheplaceup.

Nka:Usel
ungi
sei
zint
onoPear
lyi
ni
Me:Pear
lhai
bonanguumunt
uedakwa
Thabi
so:Kant
iamabhazaanil
awo.
.Ohl
awa
Me:Yeah
Thabi
so:Yoh
Me:UzoboshwauMzwakhef
ori
minyaka
Mzwakhe:Ni
sal
a
Me:Goi
ngsomewher
e
Mzwakhe:I
tsmygi
rlf
ri
endsbir
thdayhowcaninot
goandshe'
sdef
ini
tel
ywait
ingtoseeme
Me:Oh
Mzwakhe:Ican'
ttakeyouguyswit
hmeohGodwhy
can'
tyouguysletmedateinpeacemxm
Me:Younevergoi
ngt
owi
nwi
tht
hisgr
oup

Thabi
soi
sal
readyst
andi
ngbyt
hel
if
twel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Thebraaii
sunderwaywecollectedal
lthe
chocol
ateandhadtoputiti
nt heref
ri
gerat
or,
itwas
ablueskysunnydaythechocolatewasmelti
ng.

Nonhl
e:Ohmyf
ri
end
Me:St
opi
t
Mxo:Manj
esohambaphiazi
ngeni
swangani
l
ezi
mbali
Nonhl
e:Hehast
ickedal
lther
ightboxes
Ma:Heeni
ngabeseningi
shiyanomt
hwal
oomngaka
engat
humakotiof
ikaemzini

Wel
aughLondi
ecomesscr
eami
ng.

Londi
e:Ngi
zel
eist
hombenj
e

Abunchoff
ancycar
spul
lup.

Nonhl
e:Ubanimanj
elaba

Sakhil
eisthefir
stper
sont ostepoutofthecar,
thanthewhitecarpul
lsup,irunoutidon'teven
givehim achancetopark.Iopendoor.

Mzwakhe:Mamai
maphel
ahai
bo
Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Awul
ungi
lekodwamama

Weki
ss.

Mzwakhe:Ngit
heangif
ikephelangoba
mengafi
kangaubuzokwatel
aintoengekhoand
ngi
yaj
abulaukuthngi
fi
kil
e
Me:Come
Mzwakhe:Ngi
fi
kenabaf
ethu
Me:Bebezokubangel
aiscef
evel
e

Mzwakhe
Iwaskindofner
vousaboutt
hiswholethi
ng
howeversheismaki
ngmeandmypeopl eas
comfort
ableaswecanbe.Thefl
owerslookmagi
cal
theyt
urnedoutwaybet
tert
haniant
icipat
ed.

Mxo:Weee
Wel
augh.

Ma:Wabuyangezi
nyawoi
phii
mot
oMxol
isi
Mxo:Gci
nohaibomangif
ikal
aphakuval
iwe
ngi
yamfonel
auSamkel
oakayi
phendul
iif
oni
Nka:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Nkanyi
sohai
boumhl
abaumncane

Assheaboutt
ohughi
m Mxol
isipul
lsherhand,
i
shakemyhead.

Nka:Uj
olanal
eladar
ki
Me:Don'
tmakemeki
llyounow
Nka:Hai
boMzwakhe

Hei
ssmi
li
ng.Mybabycal
lsmet
othesi
de.
Phindi
le:IneedafavoruJamesengakwazi
ukuhambi sauma
Me:Ofcoursemylovesoam ibei
ngi
ntr
oduced
hai
bongiyadl
alanj
aloPhi
ndi
l
e

Shi
tmeandmybi
gmout
h.
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06/
06,
10:
32] :37

Phi
ndi
le
Itur
nedmot heroverni
ghtMjandMvel
oarehect
ic.
MxolisiwentbacktoSingapor
eint
heear
lyhour
sof
themor ni
ng.

Mvel
o:Aunt
iebukasi
thol
eni
Me:Yi
nimanj
ele

Theyshowmesomet
ypeofwi
re,
wher
edi
dthey
getthi
snowhmm theseki dswil
lbetoomuchf or
me,withmom goneyoliatworkcan'
treall
ydepend
ondad.Nonhl
ewasl eavingmeiam seriousl
ygoing
tohaveamentalbr
eakdown.

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Hmm
Mzwakhe:What
sthepr
obl
em
Me:Iwantyou

Myvoiceechoesont
hebackgr
ound,
thanihear
Nonhl
escoldi
ngtheboys.

Me:Mzwakhebhengu
Hel
aughs.

Me:Expl
ainyour
sel
f
Mzwakhe:Ei
shmama
Me:Youknowwhatdon'tiam exhaust
edenought
o
l
ist
entol
ousyexpl
anat
ions
Mzwakhe:Uyaphi
lakodwamabhebeza
Me:Ngathi
ngqondoyamii
hlangahl
angeneMxol
isi
uhambi
leumaakekhoyabonanje
Mzwakhe:Youcancomeoverihavel
otsofgadget
s
t
hosesmartypant
swil
llove

Soundstempt
ingbutican'
tiwi
llseehi
m some
ot
herti
me.

Me:No
Mzwakhe:Awkodwa
Me:Mekungi
hlul
auzobonanaweukut
hmel
e
ungi
landeihavet
ogocal
lmel
aterbye

Mzwakhe
Shehungsupil aught hesenaughtyki dshow, what
wer et
heyevendoi ngforthem tofi
ndt hose
l
isteni
ngdevices.Thepoi ntofali
steningdeviceis
someonenotknowi ngit
st her
eandl i
st eni
ngtoyou,
theyusel
essnow.Iam gl adshedi dn'ttakeoffense
orgotmadabouti t,imustf i
ndawayagai ntohave
them i
nstal
ledagain.Withoutthem fi
ndi ngout.

James:Ithoughtit
oldyouidon'
twantt
obeapar
t
ofanyt
hingyougotgoingon
Me:Sekuyi
nimanj
eJames
James:Whydi
dyousendmei
nthemi
ddl
eof
nowhere
Me:Phi
ndil
easkedmet ohel
pherandiagr
eedyou
r
eali
zeyouweretr
avel
ingwit
hmymot heri
nlaw
James:Don'
taskmet odoanyt
hingt
hati
snot
rel
atedt
omyj obaf
terhour
s
Me:Okay

Therei
snouseargui
ngwit
hhim hei
sbl
oody
annoyi
ngandi
nfuri
ati
ngme.

Nonhl
e
Iam backinthishel
lhol
ehisbrotherswer eher
e
andihadt oactli
keamakoti.Isti
lldon'
tgetwhere
hewas, becausehetol
dmehewi llbearoundwhen
Mxoli
sicomest ofet
chPhindil
e'scar.

Andi
le:Ahhkadengani
gci
na
Sabel
o:Youbacknow
Andi
le:Ayiam backl
it
tl
ebr
oi'
m back

Hecomesthroughlookingmadiam notsur
eican'
t
r
eadhisf
acialexpr
essions.
Sam:It
houghtever
ythi
ngwasgoi
nggoodbet
ween
us
Me:Theyar
e
Sam:Okayt
hanwhyar
eyouposi
ngwi
tht
heenemy
Me:I
tsj
ustapi
ctur
e
Sam:Nonhl
e
Me:Ther
eisnoescapi
nghi
m
Sam:What
Me:Hei
sdat
ingPhi
ndi
le

Igr
abhi
sphoneandgetonpi
nst
agr
am account
.

Andi
le:Ever
ythi
ngokayt
her
e
Sam:Yeahbr
eakf
asti
sal
mostr
eady
Me:Whydidn'
tyouopenthegat
eforMxol
isi
you
knewhermotherwasgoi
ngaway
Sam:Itt
otal
lysl
ippedmymindwehadt
ogof
etch
Andi
lesoshe'sdati
ngMzwakhe
Andi
leandMzwakhear eknowntobesworn
enemies,
Andil
ehast r
iedtosel
lmebutnotthi
s
ti
me.Igottheperf
ectescapeandtheywon'
teven
seemecomi ng.

Phi
ndi
le
Ij
ustwantt of
lymyselfallt
hewayt othepent
house
imisshim andhi
scraziness.Mxol
isiandNonhle
goneiam bored,
usuallyisl
eepateverychancei
getbutnowican't
.

Igetavisi
onofawomancel ebrat
ingvict
orywi t
h
anotherman.Theyfinall
ygotMxol isiwherethey
wanthim,iheadt omyr oom.Whenigett her
e
Mzwakheandt hi
sgirlaregett
ingiton,myknees
fai
lmeicollapse.

Voi
ce:Thet
imehascome
Voi
ce:Yousur
eaboutt
his
Voi
ce:I
tsnowornever

Ibl
ackout
.

Nonhl
e
Mxol
isical
lsme.

Me:Heybaby

Theycr
ying.

Me:Mxol
isiwhati
swr
ongMvel
o
Sam:Kwenzakal
an
Me:Idon'
tknowt
heycr
yingandt
heyby
t
hemselves
Sam:What
Hegr
abshi
scarkeys.

Me:Mxol
isiokayst
ayont
hephoneiam onmyway
okaymyboy
Mj
:Akavuki
Me:Ngi
sendl
elenibaf
anabami

Itr
ytoputMzwakheonaconf
erencecal
lhi
sphone
goesst
rai
ghtt
ovoicemai
l
.

Sam:Shoul
dical
lMxol
isi
Me:Not
hatwi
llputhi
m onpani
cmode
Sam:Whati
ftheyal
readycal
ledhi
m

Ihol
dmyheadishoul
dn'
thavel
eftheral
one.
[
06/
06,
10:
33] :38
Mzwakhe
Shewaswhi ppingmer eall
ybadthesamewayi
dealwit
hpeopl e,takingoutallofherf
rust
rat
ionon
me.Itwasami stakeaweakmomentmy
i
rrever
siblefl
aw.Shest opswheniam nolonger
moving,ifeell
iquidbeingpour edonmyneckit urn
aroundinagony, islowlyopenmyeyesshel ights
upamat chandt hrowsi tatme.

Iwakeupscr
eami
ng.

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Ihol
dmyhead,
ireachf
ormyphoneandcal
lher
voi
cemai
l.

Me:Fuck

Nonhl
e
AspredictedbySamkel otheboyscall
edtheirfather
hewasont hef
irstfli
ghtoutofSingapore.Whenwe
foundhershewasl ayi
ngont hefloorunconscious,i
shouldn'
thaveleftheralonetheboyswentt hrough
averytraumati
cexper ience.

Sam:Cof
fee
Me:Thankyou
Sam:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Idon'
twantyourst
upi
dcof
fee

Myphoner ingsidecl
inedhi
scallPhi
ndi
le'
s
outbursthassomet hi
ngtodowitheit
herhi
m or
Mxolisi.Thananothernumbercall
sme,herphone
ri
ngs.

Mxo:Nonhl
ebambaamaf
oni
nomauwaci
she

Ihavenochoi
cebutt
oputt
hem onai
rpl
anemode.
Mzwakhe
Youknowi t
sbadwhent hebestf r
iendisignori
ng
yourphonecal
ls.Thatdr
eam feltreali
tfeltsoreal
mybodyi si
npainandican'treachher ,
idecideto
cal
lherbrot
her
.Iknowhewi llskinmeal ivebuti
needtoknowwher esheisandifshei sokay.

Mxo:Hel
lo
Me:HeyMxol
isii
mina
Mxo:Uf
unani
Me:Kadengizamaukumfonel
aiyi
nci
ngo
akazi
bambiandngi
yawabonaamami sscal
l
aNonhle
Mxo:Ngekeakwaziukukhul
umanef
oni
nj
engamanje
Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Kuyokusi
zakungabiwenai
mbangel
ayayo
yonkel
entoeyenzakal
ayo
Me:Mx

Hehungsup.Iexhal
e.

Sakhi
le:Youf
uckedupagai
n
Me:HasNonhl
esai
danyt
hingt
oyou
Thobani
:Shesai
dshei
sunconsci
ous
Me:Shewhat
Thobani
:Whyubungaphendul
iif
oniyakho
Sakhi
le:Kwenzeken
Thobani
:Shewasunconsci
oust
heboyswer
e
cr
yingnoonewasaround

Myhear
tst
art
sbeat
ingoutofi
tschest
.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasawakenowist
il
lhadmyeyescl
osed.My
bodywasst r
ong,ifel
tpowerful
.Idi
dn'tappreci
ate
theancestorsputti
ngmei nthatposi
ti
on, wheni
wasalonewi ththeboys.Butitwasbetterthatway
thanbreakingdowni nfr
ontofthem.

MypoorboysthoughtiwasdeadMzwakheand
Mxoli
siwi
llbet
hedeathofme, it
urnar
oundandl
ay
st
il
l.

Nonhl
e:Nono

It
urnt
heway.

Nonhl
e:Mausebuyi
le
Mxo:Si
sigci
no,
gci
noNonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Isai
dshei
sbacknotawakeshei
snow
r
espondi
ngtomyvoice
Iam goi
ngt
ocuthi
minhal
fandbur
nhi
sbody.

Sakhi
le
Thobani
:Isaywehi
tthem her
eandt
hanuset
his
roadasanescaper
oute
Me:Toomanycasual
ti
es
Thobani:OkaySakhi
leyi
nii
nki
ngahl
ampeunecebo
el
ingcono
Me:Asi
yishayel
asi
phumenayol
a
Thobani
:Int
hemi
ddl
e
Me:That
sthesaf
estwayandt
ogetoutqui
ckl
y
Thobani
:Mzwakheut
hini

Ilookathi
m andij
ustwantt
osmackhi
mint
he
face.

Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Yi
niohbeni
thi
ni
Me:Mxm soyi
shayal
a
Thobani
:Izowazinganiphomel
eihambal
a
Me:Iwi
llf
igur
ethatout
Thobani
:FineLi
ndaniineedyourcr
azyassback
her
e,Ntandouyaziskhul
u
Thabi
so:Canyoudot
hiswi
thoutJames
Me:Siphi
langoJamesyinimel
esi
zesi
ncel
e
amasendeakheatheshenat
hi
Thabiso:I
makemanjet
hinasi
ngenaphi
kumsanganokamnganiwakhohaiboaycha
nisi
jwayel
akabiandmi
naleangekengi
yimel
e

Heal
waysdoest
hisandt
her
eisnot
hingwecando
t
ohel
phim.
[
06/
06,
10:
33] :39

Nonhl
e
Thi
sisanewl
evelofbr
eakdownf
orPhi
ndi
le.She
hasgonecrazy.Iwakeupshe'snotinbedwel ook
forherandshewasout si
dewashingthefacebri
ck
nowshei si
nsiderepai
nti
ngthewall
s.Shei sbei
ng
i
mmunet osomethingandshut
ti
ngtheout si
de
world.

Mxo:Phi
ndi
le
Ma:MyekenaweMxol
isiuzomcasul
a
Me:Kuyat
husakonakodwakuj
wayel
eki
le
Mxo:Thi
sisnotnor
malNonhl
edi
dthi
sMzwakhe
dosomethi
ng
Me:forgetaboutuMzwakheandfocusonyour
si
sterandmaki ngsur
esheisokay
Mxo:Igotaj
obandbei
ngher
eisaf
inef
orme
Ma:Angiboniukut
hmel
euhambauyakudi
nga
uyani
dinganobabi
li
Me:Mxol
isimayhaveapoi
nti
fwel
eavemaybeshe
wi
llcometohersenses
Ma:Nonhl
esobabi
lisi
ywziakusi
loi
qini
sol
elo
Hermi
ndisfarawayandnoti
ntouchwi
thr
eal
it
y.
Whati
sthesolut
iont
othi
s.

Mzwakhe
Ifsheisnotgoingtot
ellmeanythingandtheynot
sayinganyt
hing.Iam goi
ngtohavet oassume
everyt
hingi
sokay, myli
fecan'
tstopandnur se
emot i
onsofsomebodywhocan' tcommuni cat
e
withme.

Theycallheragai
nij
ustdon'
tunder
standr
eal
ly,
theydr
opt hecall
.

Thobani
:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Hey
Thobani
:Whati
sgoi
ngon
Nonhl
e:Phindi
l
eMzwakheisonthephonemaybe
youwanttosaysomet
hingt
ohim,hemissesyou
Whyi
sshepai
nti
ng.

Mxo:Phi
ndi
lepl
easeiwoul
ddojustaboutanyt
hing
t
ogetyoutotal
keveni
fit
soneword
Nonhl
e:Wellasyoucanseet
her
e'snocont
rolwe
j
ustwatchi
ngher
Me:Phi
ndi
le

Shepausesf
orasecondt
hancar
ri
eson.

Nonhl
e:Youdi
dsomet
hingdi
dn'
tyou
Me:Ngizowazinganukuthngenzenimengabe
mnikaziwendabaengasholut
h

Shehungsup.

Me:Ahbr
ingmyphonebackngi
lokhengi
ncengana
nenonsensesuka

Phi
ndi
le
Mymi ndwasgonet heancestorstookovert
hat
wouldexplai
nmyst rangeforother
sbutnormalfor
mebehavior.Idon'tknowwher eandhowigott he
str
engthtodoallthis,icoul
dnowt urnint
oasnake
canitgetanyscaryt hanthat.

Mxo:Lokhukungaphezukwamil
okhumel
e
ngi
hambe
Nonhl
e:Mxol
isi
Mxo:I
fyounotgoi
ngt
otal
kthanimi
ghtaswel
l
l
eave
Ma:WenaMxol isinjalomasekukubiuyabaleka
awukwazinjeukubonaukut hudadewenuudi nga
uthando.Kungihlukumezakabiukubonai ngane
yami i
seyi
nhlungwi niengazazinayo,
nokuth
si
musi zeayi
nqobel entowenaufunaukuhamba
Iwi
pemyt ear
sast heyf
alll
iketheNiagarafal
ls,
i
wasn'
tcr
yingbecauseofthat.Butt
hereitisagai
n
MzwakheandthisSiwe.

Mxo:Rogeryeahli
steni
m goingtobeworkingfr
om
homepleaseemailmeeverythi
ng.Mysist
erisnot
feel
ingwel
landtel
lDaveto..
.real
ly.
..
.Ohawesome
iwil
lseeyouthanokaybye.Maungashokanjan
ukuthangi
nendabanosisiwami

Hehugsmeandij
ustl
eti
tal
lout
.

Mxo:Okaygci
nongi
yaxol
isaangi
yindawoyezwa

Sakhi
le
Ican'
tsayiam surpr
isedhehasalwaysbeenli
ke
thi
s.Hewil
lneverconsideryourf
eel
ingsunl
essyou
bri
ngituptohi
m, andexplaini
ngAbandCandhe
wil
lmanagetosolveXandY.
Me:Yougoi
ngt
oloseher
Mzwakhe:Thansobeithowam isupposedt
ofi
x
somet
hingidon'
tknow
Me:Mzwakheitisti
meyouletthatgocan'
tyousee.
Sheisdi
ffer
entever
ythi
ngaboutthi
srel
ati
onshi
pis
di
ff
erent
,whydoyouhavet orui
nitwit
hyourstupi
d
mental
it
y

Hei
gnor
esmeheknowsiam r
ightbutbecausehe
i
shi
m hewon'
tl
ist
en.

Me:Aychaunesi cef
emanayhawuyousl eepi
ng
aroundwi t
hSiwehaveyouforgot
tenshesees
thingsbeyondthehumaneye.Exact
lyconti
nuenot
givingafuck,
conti
nueshowingherhowmuchofa
dickyouare

Aphoner
ings.
Me:Swi
tchoft
hatbl
oodyt
hing
Thobani:Hell
o..
.Forwhenawesomegiveherphel
a
whatevershewant s.
..Dr
amat
icuf
iki
lel
aphookay
Si
phoal ri
ghtskhul
u
Me:Youf
oundawayt
ocl
eanupt
hemoney
Thobani
:Thi
sweekendcabangaahhPhi
ndi
lei
s
goi
ngtomakeusrichbaby
Me:Ever
yoner
eady
Thobani
:Nt
andout
hiakayi
thol
iimi
shi
ni
Me:Okayhei
stheonl
ythi
ngwewai
ti
ngon
Thobani
:Icango
Me:Skhul
u
Mzwakhe:Wher
eyougoi
ng
Me:Ohnowyouhaveavoi
cenowyouwantt
osay
somet
hing
Mzwakhe:Thobaniuyaphi
Hest
andsup.

Nonhl
e
Shewasdonewi
thhercr
azi
nessandwassl
eepi
ngi
cangohomenow.

Mxo:Kuwumngqondoomuhl
ekodwaukut
h
uhambemfaziwami
Sam:I
'
m her
ei'
m her
e

Wel
augh.

Me:Ever
ythi
ngi
sfi
nei
fit
sapr
obl
em t
hanshe
woul
dstopme
Mxo:Samkel
othankyouf
orcomi
ngt
hroughman
Ma:Syabongakakhul
uukumshi
yayedwahmm
Me:Ni
ngabeni
sakhat
hazekakonkekukahl
e
Whatam isayi
ngwhatiam aski
ngt
hem i
stoo
muchevenforme.
[
06/
06,
10:
33] :40

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupbombar dwit
htressandl
eaf
s.Iam i
nthe
for
estagai
n,igetupdust
ingmysel
fandtaket
hat
l
ongwal kt
ofreedom.

Iarri
veatmydest inati
onthi
sisthepoi
ntwher e,
the
groundst ar
tsshaking.Thegushofwatercomingin
theleftandthesnakeont heri
ght,
howeverthat'
s
notthecaset odaythewaterandsnakearehere
beforeme.Whati sgoingon.

Me:Hel
lo.
.Hel
lo

I
'
m speaki
ngicanf
inal
lyspeak.
Me:I
sther
eanybodyher
e..
.Hel
pmepl
ease

Myvoi ceechoesthewaterstar
tsbubbli
ngupidon'
t
li
kethewayi ti
sgushingandsplashingl
iket
hat
.
Thesnakel i
ft
sitsbodyupt hewateri
sscari
ngme,
suddenlyiti
sboili
nghot.Idon'
tli
kethi
snotonebit
iruntothesnake.

Iopenmyeyesiam swi mmi ngunderwaterwaiti

can'tswim.Idr
ownif ightthei
mpossibl
eican't
breathe,
itr
ymyl evelbest.Astr
ongforcepull
sme
outicough..
.

Man:Hi

Hel
ooksf
reaki
shl
yhandsome.

Hi
m:Thankyou
Di
dhej
ustr
eadmymi
ndar
ethosegr
ayeyes.

Hi
m:Iam Si
zwewel
comet
other
iver

Wasn'
tii
nther
iveral
ready.

Si
zwe:Noyouwer
enotbutt
hat
'sokay

I
sher
eadi
ngmymi
nd.

Si
zwe:Noyouj
ustt
hinki
ngoutl
oud
Me:St
opi
t

Hehel
psmeupwowhei
ssof
ine.

Si
zwe:Iknow
Sakhi
le
Heisst arti
ngtoreali
zethi
sisseri
ous,
itisstart
ing
towor r
yhi m hetr
iedtoacttoughbutl
ikeisaidthi
s
i
sdifferent.Theweaki sal
mostoverandshehas
notcont actedhi
m, imysel
fisstar
ti
ngtogetwor ri
ed
butidon' twantt
opani candassumeanything
wit
houtf acts.

Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Me:AyThabi
soawukahl
e
Thabi
so:Whati
sgoi
ngonhedoesn'
tlookokay
Me:St
opi
t

"
Sakhi
le"

Me:Sur
e
James:"
Iam l
eavi
ngnowcheckt
hecoast
"
Me:Wher
eyougoi
ng
James:"
Inkosazanecal
ledmesoiam l
eavi
ng"
Me:Okaydoyouwantust
oswi
tchoryougoodf
or
t
heday
James:"
Anyt
hingt
obeawayf
rom youguys"
Me:Aw
Thabi
so:Ubanii
nkosazane
Me:Phi
ndi
le

Themomentisai
dthathebecameal
ive.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam weirdastheycomeist i
llcannotbeli
eveican
turnint
oasnakeofal lthingsandthatthese
ancestorschoosemet obeaqueen.Iam yett ofind
outaboutmymi ssi
on,iam hopingitwon'tbeas
rockeyasmyr elati
onship.

Me:Iam f
ineNonhl
elet
sjustf
ocusont
hesur
pri
se
par
ty
Nonhl
e:Okayil
iket
heener
gyMzwakheyena
Me:Iwi
llseehi
mlat
err
ightnowwesomeshoppi
ng
t
odo
Nonhl
e:Soyouact
ual
lyl
ikeseeseet
heguydoi
ng
t
hedir
ty
Me:Allthei
rmoansandgroansal
thoughit
sjust
smashingbutt
heirbodi
esarest
il
lconnect
ingand
shei
spr ett
y
Nonhle:Andyouareabombassbi
tchdon'
tsel
l
your
selfshor
thoney
Sam:Canihugyou
Me:Hey

Wehug.

Sam:Youcomi
ngbackt
owor
k
Me:Samkel
ofornowyoucont
inuebei
ngaboss
Sam:Not
edsowhatar
ewedoi
ng
Me:For
malbl
ackt
ie
Nonhl
e:Haveyout
alkedt
okhet
ho
Me:Hesai
dgi
rli
tsnott
hatdeep

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le
Idon'twantgi
rl
sthi
nki
ngiam t
hei
rbestf
ri
end
especial
lyt
hisone.

Me:Iam notMzwakhe'
skeepersoungangi
jwayel
i
kabi
Si
we:I
Me:Eytsekawuzwakant
ieyhambalaman.
.
Angazingempel
alamant
ombazane
angi
caphunaphi
Theyl
augh.

Me:EyuMzwakheengi
jwayezaneyi
hlamazama
nt
ombazane
Li
nda:Zi
yakubampel
a
Me:Mf
ethu

Myphonevi
brat
esishowi
ttoThobanihechuckl
es.

Me:Thi
nkwecankeept
hem onal
eash
Thobani
:Anyt
hingf
orourboyr
ight

Wel
augh.

Li
nda:Seni
hlebangani
Me:Ut
handai
zindaba
Wel
aughathi
m.

Li
nda:Ni
zongi
khumbul
anj
alo

Phi
ndi
le
Shamepoormanf eel
ingbadiam ignoringhim.He
broughtthisuponhimsel faf
tert
hemeet ingiwent
shoppingiknowt hereismaidsthere.Butwheni
showupt hehouseismi ne,Mxoli
sisentthekids
backtolizeka.Hewentbackhomehewi llcome
backforhi sbi
rt
hday.

James:Itsalmostt
imef
ormet
oknockofanyt
ime
youf
inishing
Me:Youcangoi fyouwanttoiwillj
ustcal
lSakhi
le
andtel
lthem topi
ckmeupi fyouthoughtAndi
le
wasathreat.Iam yourbi
ggestni
ghtmare

Myeyeschangehest
epsbackal
it
tl
ebi
t.Hewon'
t
r
emembert
hist
henextday.

James:Hol
doniknowoneper
sont
hatusedt
odo
that
Me:Andiam wor
senowkeepi
tmovi
ng

Nextst
opl
inger
ieshop.
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10:
33] :41

Mzwakhe
Mybodyi nst
antl
yfeelshotandsohorny.Iopenmy
eyes.
..What.
..Whoisthisnakedper
sonont opof
mydickreall
yworkingthei
rmagic.

Me:Mmmm

Ican'
tst
opt
hisper
sont
heydoi
ngagoodj
ob.
Me:Fuck

Ilovehowshei sbobbingherheadandgent ly
massagingmybal l
s,waitwhatifi
tsaman.Buti
knowt hi
stechniqueipullherheadof f
,shegiggl
es
whatisshewear ing.Mydickistwitchi
ngsobad, i
takeoffthi
sstupidchainshegasp.Iam goi ngto
dealwithherlat
erfornowiam goi ngtof uckher
mad.

Nonhl
e
Phindi
leandiar
esupposedt
omeetbutt
heboys
tel
lme,sheisbusy.

Sam:Babear
eyouseei
ngt
his
Me:Babewecant r
ansf
orm anyvenuet
oan
ext
ravagantpar
adi
se
Sam:Youcal
ledmebabe
Istoppedcal
li
nghim petnamesbecauseofill
behaviort
owardsme.Iseeadiff
erenthi
m each,
al
thoughiam notsureifi
tsanactorheisreal
ly
changing.

Si
pho:Mf
aziwamiever
ythi
ngokay
Me:uThobaniuseyephimanj
eyi
niesi
ngayi
shi
ntsha
l
a
Si
pho:Wi
feyangazil
uthmi
na
Me:Shoul
dwest
ayorgr
abt
akeaways
Sam:Let
ssi
tdownandwai
tforher
Me:OkaySi
phocel
ausenzel
ainyamanezi
phuzo

Shebet
tershowuporiam goi
ngt
oki
llher
.

Phi
ndi
le
Ican'tf
eelmylegsif
eell
ikeabrandnewki
ndof
personandineedtopee.Icl
imbofft
hebedandf
all
ipinchmyl i
pstogetherfrom maki ngnoise, icrawl
myselftothebathroom half
wayt hroughiam bei ng
li
ft
edupt hanplacedont hetoil
etseat .Iclosemy
eyesandt akeanicelongpee, ithinkhei salso
peeingohGodihopehedoesn' tpeeont hef l
oor.

Hewi pesmecleanthanf
lush,
iwasmyhandswe
headback.Hel i
ft
smylegupandinser
thi
sdi
cki
n,i
fl
inchhekissesme.

Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Mommy

Nonhl
e
Thiswasawast eoft i
meicouldbesleepingat
home.Mzwakhe' sdickreal
lydri
vesPhi
ndi l
ecrazyi
tel
lyou,shehadn'tact
edoutofcharacterthough.
Wear r
ivehomeandiam t i
red.
Andi
le:Samkel
o

Whyar
etheyst
il
lher
edoesn'
thehaveahouse.

Sam:Yi
nimanj
e
Andi
le:Wehavet
otal
k

Itakethebagsandheadovertomyroom cani
eavesdroppi
ngonthem no.Myphoneri
ngsasiput
thebagsdown.

Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Wher
eisshe
Me:Shei
swi
thhermanhoney
Mxo:Thatr
idi
cul
ousboyf
ri
end
Me:Ahunemal
iuMzwakhe
Mxo:I
sgebengul
esi
ya
Il
augh.

Me:Iwi
llt
ellheryoucal
ledigot
tago
Mxo:Byewi
fey
Me:Bye

Itexther"
wher
eisshet
hewhol
ewor
ldi
slooki
ng
foryou"

Me:Ineedt
oeat

Sakhi
le
Thebanalsoappli
estomet heymustbefucki
ng
andiam notabouttodi
stur
bt hatnot
hankyouver
y
much.

Thobani
:Ar
ewegoi
ngaheadwi
tht
hehei
st
Me:Nakanj
anmf
ethu
Thobani
:Weeemf
ethu

Ntandofi
nal
lyf
oundthearmorandwegoodtogo.
Thisist
hemostexci
tedihavebeenwhenpl
anni
ng
aheistwedon'
tneedJameswegotthis.

Me:Wannahi
tthecl
ub

Hel
aughs.

Thobani
:MaseuMzwakheeyangi
bul
ala
angi
cabangi
Me:Awskhul
u
Thobani
:Noi
fyoubor
edwecancal
lthegent
sand
weturni
tup

Thatcoul
dwor
k.
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10:
34] :42

Mzwakhe
Fi
rstsheignor
esmet hanshowsupf r
om nowhere
gi
vingmeonehel lofaBJ.Thanact
slikenot
hing
happened,noshegotsomeexplai
ningtodo.

Me:Phi
ndi
leuvel
aph
Phi
ndi
le:Home
Me:I
ndodaayi
ti
ntwangani
Phindil
e:Iyangi
febel
afut
hkebengayi
funi
ukuyiphazamisa

Icl
oseherl
apt
opshel
ooksatme.

Phindil
e:Icoul
dn'
tspeakfordaysiwasnotmysel
f.
Iwasmeantt oignor
etheoutsideworl
dand
couldn'
tbeinti
matewithanybody
Me:At
extPhi
ndi
leat
ext
Phi
ndi
le:Li
keisai
didi
dn'
twantt
odi
stur
byou
Me:Ungangi
casul
iyezwa
Phindil
e:Noamountofscrubbingcanwashoft
he
factthatyoust
il
lsl
eepwit
hot herpeopl
e
Me:Wenotexcl
usiveidon'
toweyouadamnt
hing,
i
don'
thavet
oexplai
nmyselftoyou
Phi
ndi
le:Wel
lthankyouf
ormaki
ngt
hatcl
ear
Me:Phi
ndi
le

Shet
akeshert
hingsandgoesupst
air
s.

Phi
ndi
le
Ididn'
texpecthi
mt ober emorsef
ulheisnott
hat
typeanyway.Iwasont opofplanningmybrot
her
s
surpri
sebir
thday,heentersandsit
sonthebed
l
ookingdown.
"Ther
eisagununder
neat
hhi
sbedt
akei
tandshoot
him"

Avoi
ceechoesf
rom somewher
e.

Me:Ohmydar
li
nghei
snotwor
thi
t

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Heydarl
ingcanwemeett omor
rowandf
inal
ize
ever
ythi
ngyespleaseokaybye
Mzwakhe:Ngi
yaxol
isa

Il
ookathi
m.

Mzwakhe:Angazikunganiungi
bonaangazi
ungibonakanj
anfut
hangekengizikhul
umele.Ngi
yi
outi
eesokuyenzekakwesinyei
skhathingi
hlul
eke
ukuzibamba, mawungekeufuneukubanami
ngizozwisisakodwael
ami i
calangakhawat
heka
bl
indukul ahlekel
wai
ntoesi
yizamayo

Hegetsupandchangesiam notgoingtosay
anythi
ngiam goingtostandmyground.Heneeds
toknowthereisawayoft alki
ngt
opeopleandnot
todisr
egar
dt hei
rfeel
ings.

Sakhi
le
Phindi
lei
sgoingtosor
tMzwakheouttothet.I
fhe
doesn'
tgeti
ttoget
herhegotanot
hert
hingcoming.

Li
nda:Losi
siuzomshayauMzwakhe
Me:EySkhul
u

Wel
augh.
Linda:Umoyawakheuphasingat
hiil
enhl
obo
ezit
hulel
ayoi
zibukel
eumuntuesangana
Me:Ngi
mthandanil
apho

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Mf
anawami
Mzwakhe:Ni
kuphi
Me:Echi
sanyama
Mzwakhe:Okay
Me:Youwantust
okeepaneyeonyou

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe:Al
it
tl
ebi
t
Me:Sur
eskhul
u
Li
nda:Ut
hini
Me:Hei
sjustchecki
ngonme

Phi
ndi
le
Hehookedmeuptohisstat
eofthear
tssystem.
Nonhl
eandSamkel
or ef
usedtomeetbecausethey
haveadat
eli
ker
eall
y.

Me:Adat
ereal
ly
Nonhl
e:Awuj
oliwedwasi
si
Me:Samkel
o
Sam:Gi
rl
Nonhl
e:Sowhatar
ewedoi
ng
Me:Howabouti
fweputamar
queei
nsi
de
Sam:Nangokeumnganiwakho
Me:Shi
ff
ondr
api
ngs
Sam:Yourt
hinki
ngwayoutoft
heboxwi
tht
ool
it
tl
e
space
Nonhl
e:Haveyoucal
ledMxol
isi
Me:Iwi
llj
ustbeenbusy

Mzwakhecomesdownal
ldr
essedup.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
sacel
aukuyakwabaf
ana
Me:Youdon'
thavet
oaskper
missi
onf
rom wenot
excl
usi
ve
Mzwakhe:Mayigo
Me:Yes
Mzwakhe:Iwi
llbebackbef
oredi
nner

Per
fectt
imef ormet
oplansomethi
ngr
omant
ic.I
nodhekissesmebefor
eheleaves.

Nonhl
e:Whathaveyoudonet
ohi
m
Me:Iam nott
hehoeshedat
ing
Wesnapourf
inger
sandl
augh.

Nonhl
e
Itwasimport
antishowSamkel othatPhi
ndi
lei
s
dati
ngMzwakhe.Shouldhetriessomethi
ngor
makesmest opmyf ri
endshi
pwi t
hphindi
le,
iwi
ll
singl
ikeacaner
ian.

Sam:I
sthi
sat
hingt
hingorpassi
ngby
Me:Shei
sathi
shousei
sn'
tthatmor
ethanat
hing
Sam:Okaynotat
rai
nsmashwegott
his
Me:Okayt
hanl
etswor
kont
hissur
pri
separ
ty

Mxoli
sical
li
ngisobvi
oushewantstoknowshoul
d
hecomeoristhereanyt
hingwedoi
ng.

Sam:Younotanswer
ingt
hat
Me:Mxol
isi
Sam:Wee

Wel
augh.
[
06/
06,
10:
34] :43

Sakhi
le
Whatawi l
dnightwedr ankt
il
lwecouldn'tdri
nk
anymore.IhadtotakeMzwakhebackhome, he
cri
edandcriedPhi
ndileisgoi
ngtoleavehi m.After
al
ltheworkhehasputi n,whatwor
kt hi
sf oolevery
chancehegetshemessesup.

Theli
ftopenswewel
comedbyf
lower
sont
hef
loor
welookateachot
her
.

Mzwakhe:Fuckif
orgotaboutdi
nner

Hei
snotgoi
ngt
orememberat
hingoncehewakes
up.ShecomesdownMzwakhehi
desbehi
ndme.

Me:Hai
bo
Mzwakhe:Mm hmm

Shef
indswastebagsandst
artcl
eaningthef
lower
s,
whydidheevencometousbloodyfool
.

Not
hando:Icanhel
pyou
Phi
ndi
le:Andyouar
e
Not
hando:Not
handoNzuza

Phi
ndi
lel
ooksatmet
hanherandsmi
les.

Phi
ndi
le:Gor
ightahead

It
akeMzwakheupst
air
s.
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Yi
ni
Mzwakhe:Il
oveyou
Me:Asambe
Mzwakhe:Whatki
ndofabestf
ri
endar
eyou,
iwas
supposedt
ocomeback
Me:Howwoul
diknow

Phi
ndi
le
Wef i
nal
lygoteverylastbitoft
herosesint
othe
wastebags.Nothandohast akenthetr
ashoutiam
verydi
sappoi
nted,istartonbreakf
astshecomes
back.

Me:Whati
sabeaut
if
ulgi
rll
ikeyoudoi
ngher
e
Nothando:Iwentt
ost
udysi
snokubongagotme
t
hisjob
Me:Haveyoubeenar
oundt
hisbunch
Not
hando:Hect
ic
Me:Focusonthebiggerpi
cturetheyfi
neyoung
mandon'tl
etanyoneofthem gettoyou
Nothando:Idon'
tthi
nktheycaneventr
ywith
Sakhil
eimeanMrndl ovuhavingt
hisover
prot
ecti
venessofme
Me:Goodrunal
ongnoworbett
eryett
aket
heday
of
fiam goi
ngtobear
oundforawhil
e

Shesmi
lesNonhl
etext
sme.

Mzwakhe
Icoul
dn'
tsl
eepmyconsci
encewouldn'
tletme.I
openmyeyesandmyworstnight
marehasarri
ved.

Phi
ndi
le:Ohgoodyourawake
Isi
tupandl
ookatheri
sshewear
ingmysweat
s.

Phindi
le:Ididn'
twanttobreakyourhear
tlikethat
andleave.Iam meet i
ngupwithNonhle,iam
al
readyr unningl
ate.Ther
e'sf
oodforyoui fyou
hungryokaybye

Shel
eaves.Whyam icr
ying.

"mommyungamshi
yisi
yacel
a"
"Ani
gudl
ukeiam j
ustgoi
ngout
"
"Youcomi
ngback"
"
Ofcour
seiam comi
ngbackkant
ikeng"

Igetupandheadt ot
hebathroom,ient
erthe
showerandturnthet
aponi sitont
hefloorandl
et
thewaterpouronme.Idon'
twanttoloseher.
Nonhl
e
Phindil
eandimetSamkel ocanceledonmet hel
ast
minute.Iwasn'tgoi
ngt ostayhomewi t
hthose
Msomi 'snoandhavet hem mistr
eatmeespecial
ly
thatAndil
e.Everyti
mehel ooksatmehet hinksofa
thousandwayst osellme,hewillmakegoodmoney
everydayifearformylif
e.

Me:Heeusugqokaamagi
venchy

Isayi
thowi
tsnotpr
onouncedwel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tknowifi
tist
wosmal
lformeort
oo
bi
gngi
lit
shontshi
lekuMzwakhe
Me:Howar
eyouguys
Phindil
e:Heist hr
owinghi
mselfapit
ypartywheni
l
eftithi
nki nhismindhethoughtiam l
eavi
nghim,
hedidn'tcomebackandihadsuchabeaut i
ful
eveningplanned
Me:Ncooohuzobest
rongandyourancest
ors
Phindi
le:Sur
pri
singl
ytheybehavi
ngaf
tert
hatcr
azy
scenar
io.
Me:Doyouwantt
otal
kabouti
t
Phindil
e:Ifi
tai
n'tmybr
otherandMzwakheyazi
kukhuluokuzayokul
ent
okaMxol isinol
izeka.Ineed
mybr otherher
ewhereicanseehim andpr otect
him.Yeshei sagrownmanbutt hepeoplehemi xed
upwi t
h
Me:Tel
lmeabouti
t
Phindi
le:Andt
hanMzwakheandt
hatgi
rldamni
wishiknewwhatitwas
Me:Maybeweshoul
dgoonanot
hervacat
ion
Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
lldr
inkt
othat

Mzwakhe
"Iam sohandsomewhenir ockmyGi venchydress"
thecapti
onreadsiam alotcal
m now, t
heboys
cameby.Theywi l
lli
ter
all
ystopwhatevertheydoing
andgi
vemet
hel
oveandsuppor
tineed.

Li
nda:Uzof
aindukuwena
Sakhi
le:Shutup

Theli
ftopensshe'
sbackal
readythemoodkindof
j
ustgoessour,dangwhati
swr ongwi
ththi
sgir
lit
s
l
ikesheisnotreal
.

Me:Usubuyi
le
Phi
ndi
le:I
twasj
ustadat
ewhoar
ethesepeopl
e
Me:Theycamet
ocomf
ortme
Phi
ndi
le:Ican'
tcomf
ortyou
Me:Younott
alki
ngt
omewhatam isupposedt
odo

Shemakesthatchuckl
ethatsayswhodoyout
hink
youar
e,uyangi
jwayel
alo.
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Me:OkayPhi ndi
lei
am sorryhowmuchmor eare
yougoingtokeepdoingthist
ome.Youdrivi
ngme
crazydon'
tlookatmelikeiam goi
ngi
nsane,do
somethingsaysomethi
ng
Phindi
le:St
opfeel
ingsor
ryf
oryour
selfandmove
onisn'
tthatwhatyoutol
dme.Youthatguyri
ghtso
bethatguy.Don'
tbeagrownmansul ki
ng,
andget
thesepeopleout
Me:Okaycomeher
e2mi
nut
es
Phi
ndi
le:30seconds
Me:OkaymeetLi
ndanihehasbeendyi
ngt
omeet
you
Li
nda:Wakhet
hai
sli
masi
khonamommy

Il
ookathi
m hel
aughs.

Li
nda:Li
ndaniDl
ami
ni
Phi
ndi
le:Ni
cemeet
ingyou
Li
nda:Awkujabul
ami namommyi
ndl
elaaj
abul
e
ngayongat
hngahlezikunj
e

Shelooksaway,sheget
suphol
dingherst
omach
thanshegoesdown.

Me:Phi
ndi
le
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06/
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Mzwakhe
Shedisappearedthi
sisnotnormal,thelastthing
shesaidpleasecheckonmymot her.Idon'tknow
whatthatmeant,ican'
texactl
ygot hereandsay
heyyourdaughtersentmet ocomeandcheckon
you.Li
keletsbereal.

Me:Sakhi
leongi
vezel
akubokamama
Iam Mzwakheandihadt hoseli
steni
ngdevi
ces
andcamer asinst
all
eddon'
task.Heplayst
he
foot
ageandr ewind.Ahandpassesbysoquickl
yon
theface.

Me:Wai
tgobackandsl
owi
tdown

Wegaspthetwoboyshol
deachother
.Doest
his
gi
rlhaveadeat
hwish,
Sakhi
l
ewhistl
es.

Sakhi
le:Akusi
yeumawabol
o
Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:I
vroukazal
oishayaumamezal
ahee

Helaughs.Howiam goi
ngt
ofi
ndPhi
ndi
lenow,
i
cal
lyel
lowbone.

Nonhl
e:Hel
lo
Me:Hai
bouwubanimanj
ewena
Him:Ishoul
dbeaski
ngyout
hatsi
nceyout
heone
cal
li
ngmygi r
l

Il
augh.

Me:Okay
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowwhati
sfunny
Me:Youmyniggernowgi
veyel
lowbonet
hephone
bef
oreil
osei
t

"
Whatar
eyoudoi
ngSamkel
o..Hel
lo"

Me:Nonhl
emengif
onaungal
ingenj
eungi
khul
umi
se
namadodaakho
Nonhl
e:MzwakheohmyGodsor
ryaboutt
hatyes
whaticandof
oryou
Me:Pi
smi
ssi
ngidon'
tknowwher
etof
indher
Nonhle:Shei
snotmissi
ngcheckever
yroom i
n
yourhouseshei
sprobabl
ylayi
ngther
e
Me:Showmeever
yroom i
nthehouse
Nonhle:WhywouldyoudeletethenumberSamkelo
itol
dyousheisdati
nghim whywoul dil
ieabout
that
,bukamanjeuli
zekaushayeumakaPhindil
e.
Unyamalel
eohwowyouj ustgoingt
oignor
eme,
Mzwakheihavetogo
Me:Sur
e

Iwasj
ustinmyroom howdidinotseeher
.Igoup.
.
Ipi
ckherupfr
om t
hebatht
ub.

Me:Ungenekanj
ankodwamamal
a

Icar
ryhert
hanpl
aceheront
hebed.

Me:Thul
awenamommyngi zomgqondisai
gwegwe
l
oli
zekandi
nigamal
inil
elol
ishoukut
hinif
uthnxi
.
Mawungavul
aamehl
onj
est
handwasami
,mommy,
mamaokay

ThatmadmanMxol
isimustneverf
indout
.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam al
mostt empt edtosi
tdownwi t
hli
zekaandask
herwhatistheissue.Whati sthi
sbigt
hingshe
wantsthatmybr otherdoes,ineedmoreti
meto
coolof
f.Sizwegr ayeyeschasedmeoutand
dumpedmei nthebathtub,seri
ousl
yheisli
ke
Mzwakhenochi l
lwhatsoever.

Iunderst
andwhyt heyhidethet ruthsometi
mes.
Somet hi
ngsarejusttoounbear abletoexper
ience
vi
sionsofthem.Iknowt hi
sonet hingmom prays
andGodi sbyhersideyoudon' tcomeather
si
dewaysandt hi
nkyourl i
feisgoi ngtobeokay.
Trustmeilear
nedt hatt
hehar dway.
Iopenmyeyescansomebodygetmewat
er.

Mzwakhe
Thobaniwasdownloadi
ngmewi t
hsome
i
nformati
onaboutt
hismongezichar
act
erandal
li
cansayisicanbl
owhi m up.

Me:Thi
swannabe
Thobani
:Yout
hinki
ngwhatiam t
hinki
ng
Me:Notal
loft
hem havegut
sli
keidoso
Thobani
:Youknowyoucancountonme

Igul
pmydrink,
mybabycomesdownshegetson
topofmeandsnuggl
esherheadonmyshoul
der
.

Me:Youwantsomedi
ck

Sheshakesherhead.
Me:Youhadmewor
ri
edwher
ewer
eyoual
lthi
s
t
ime
Phi
ndi
le:Justhol
dmemzwakhe
Me:Okaymyl
oveokay

Thobanihaslef
tthebuil
dingidefi
nit
elydowant
somethinggoodgoodso.Iputmyhandsi nsideand
squeezeherasscheeks,shelooksatmeikissher.

Nonhl
e
Tokeepmysel fsaneiwentt othemall.IfMxol i
si
weretofi
ndoutaboutt hi
sthewholewor ldisover ,
thi
swasherl aststrawshehadcr ossedt helinein
somanyways.Iwantt opunchherinthet hroat.
Themotheroft hemanshecal l
shusband, the
fat
herofherchildr
en, suddenl
ybraveenoughand
hasthenervetoputhandsonhermot herinlaw.
Thatisf
oulandevi lsheismakingmemad.
Aacti
ondoesn'thavetobeareacti
onshewil
lregr
et
t
hisonewayoranot her
.Ibumpintosomedude,he
t
urnsaroundwithaverybaddeathstar
e.Hesees
meandhi scheeksfal
ldown.

Me:Ngi
yaxol
isa
Hi
m:Aykhul
ulekamommy

Ipushmyt r
oll
eyanotheronelooki
ngli
kehim
comesi nfrontofme.Hel aughsar
etheytwinsokay
weird,il
ookbackhei sstari
ngatmewi t
hhishands
i
nhi spockets.Myheartisbeati
ngsofastiam
getti
nggoosebumps.Whyi sthi
sdudemakingme
nervous,Thabisoshowsup.

Thabi
so:Andt
hanni
nanadomor
ozanj
ekwenze
nj
an

Theothert
wini
sjustl
aughi
ngl
ikeahyena.Thi
s
j
ustgotawkwar
d.
Mzwakhe
Theyknowt herulestheyshouldn'tbeher
ewhen
Phindil
eisaroundbutdot heyli
stenno.Butt
hey
familyican'
tchasethem out,t
heymyyounger
brother
s.

Me:LuyandaZi
shap
Thabi
so:I
zingqondozal
abaazi
that
hikahl
e
Me:St
opl
aughi
ng

Hel
aughsmaki
ngmel
augh.

Me:Mengekeni
khul
umeni
hambeni
zovusai
mama
Thabi
so:Justaskherouti
fyouwanthert
hatbad
Ayanda:Askwhoout
Thabi
so:Lent
ombazaneekuhl
anyi
sayo,
enza
ubhut
iwakhoekuhl
ekekanj
e
Luyanda:Ngat
hevel
ewaj
amaumunt
u
Ayanda:Awut
hul
e

Helaughsileavet
hem t
othei
rmadnessmybodyi
s
cal
li
ngPhindil
e.
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06,
10:
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Mzwakhe
Shecomesdownandl
aysont
opofmeandsi
ghs
heavi
ly.

Me:Idon'
tli
kewhatyoudi
ddi
sappear
ingl
iket
hat

Shewr
apsherarmsar
oundneckil
aysi
dewaysshe
hol
dsmeti
ght.

Phindi
le:Iknewiwasgoi
ngtoki
llt
hatgirlsowheni
gottothebedroom t
heyt
ookmesot haticancalm
down
Me:Mamamengabesoyenzal
ent
omel
esi
zwane
eyomanyamal
alaayi
phel
e

Sheki
ssesme.

Me:Mamaangi
shongongat
hngi
qabul
e
Phi
ndi
le:Okayf
ro.
.Fr
om nowon.
.Ipr
omi
se

Igetont
opofhershet
akesofhert
op.
.Isuckon
hersmal
lroundt
it
s.

Sakhi
le
Li
ndokuhl
efinal
lyisbackhewil
ltellustogoahead
ornot
.Ineedallhandsondeck.Ifeell
ikeweare
goi
ngtomakeast at
ement.

Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Helooksatmeihatet
hisunbot
heredl
ookt
hese
Bhengu'
shave.Hebet
ternotmakemesmackhim.

Me:Iam t
alki
ngt
oyouwhyyoui
gnor
ingme
Lindo:Yousai
dLi
ndokuhl
enowiam wai
ti
ngf
oryou
totalk
Me:Canwedot
hehei
st
Thobani:Andcanwedoi
twi
thMzwakhesl
eepi
ng
around
Li
ndo:Idon'
tknowcanyou
Me:Okayiam i
nagoodmoodiwon'
tletyouf
ool
s
r
uini
tforme
Thobani
:Skhul
ucal
m down
Me:Iam cal
m

Iam notcal
m iam f
rust
rat
ed.
Li
ndo:Iknowwhatwi l
lhelpyougohomeyouwil
l
fi
ndanicepresentwai
tingforyouusei
twi
sel
y
Li
nda:HambaSakhi
leunesdi
nanj
engobaul
a

Phi
ndi
le
Heholdsmesti
llandpumpshardfrom under
neat
h.
Iam moani
ngandscreami
nghisname, heis
graoni
ngandcursi
nghegoesfast
ersinki
ngdeepin
myvagina.

Me:Aaaaaaaaah

Hest
opsandpr
essmedownt
ight
ly.

Mzwakhe:Fuck

Hel
etsgoofmeif
allbackonhi
schest
.
Me:Mmmm

Hesl
owl
ypul
lsouthi
sdi
ck.

Mzwakhe:Fuckayyouar
ever
ywr
ong
Me:Sengenzenimanj
e
Mzwakhe:Ayay

Hepullsoutandcar r
iesmet othebat hr
oom.We
takeashowerigodownonmykneesandgetbusy
withhi
scock.Her esthisheadont heti
lewal l
,he
deepthroat
smei tfeelsl
ikeit
sgoi ngtor eachmy
gut.Hesmilesatsightofhiscockgoi nginandout
ofmymout h.Idon'tswallowbecauset hat '
sjust
youknow.Butiputal lt
hataside,hewant stopull
outbutiholdhi
m heexpl odes.Heseesmeswal l
ow
andsmi l
esideserveaLoui sVuit
tonbagaf terthi
s.

Nonhl
e
Iwenttogoseemom andjustcheckonherafter
herdaught
erinl
awdidtheunthi
nkable.Shei
s
cl
earl
yshockedbutmorethananythi
ngsheishurt.

Ma:uMxol
isibeseni
mtshel
il
e
Me:Chama
Ma:Goodi
zombul
alal
ent
oasanganel
wei
khanda
Me:Kodwama
Ma:Angazii
bingenweyi
nil
engane
Me:Kubonakaengathi
khonai
ntoebeyi
li
ndel
e
ukut
hizokwenzeka
Ma:Ungi
shayengenhl
oso
Me:Yeboma
Ma:Angi
kazel
okhengazal
wa
Me:Kunenxabanonjeenkul
umaphakat
hikal
izeka
noMxoli
si,engazi
wakwayenakeuMxol
isi
Ma:Ay
Ifeelherpainmyf amil
yandiaren'
texact
lyongood
termsbecauseofSamkel oandhisannoyi
ngfamily.
Theywi l
lforgi
vemei fonl
yibreaki
tofwithhi
m,for
met odot hatineedprot
ecti
on.

Mzwakhe
Iarr
iveatt
hewarehousemybabyaskedt oseeher
mom.Iam okaywiththatiwil
lpickherup
tomorroworwhenevershefeel
slikeishoul
dpick
herup.

Me:Awsenir
eadybaf
ana
Them:Skhul
u
Me:Awuzwekeokayi
thi
nii
ndabami
nangenzani
uphiuSakhi
le
Li
nda:Kadeebangai
sdi
nasamugoduki
sa
Me:Mi naokwamiukuthngenzeniweeyazi
ngaphindel
aekhayangif
onelei
mamasi qhubekel
a
esi
gcinekhona
Thabi
so:I
shayenat
hi
Me:Uyaziangi
ngenil
apho
Thabi
so:Manj
eubuzel
aniayf
okof

Ilaugh.Thi
sismyl asthei
stiai
n'tdoi
nganyaft
er
this,
theywouldhavetousetheirmoneywisel
y.

Thobani
:Skhul
u
Me:Ayngi
yayi
val
amanj
eskhul
usami
Thobani
:Mf
ethu
Me:Angishodingal
uthumuntuengaphumul
a
okweskhashanakodwaalr
ightkeasambe
Thabi
so:Sakhi
le
Me:Uyabhebhal
oyo
Li
nda:umzwakhebaf
ethu

Il
augh.
Me:Uwenaongenel
eiskhal
asaSakhi
le
Li
nda:WabodaLi
ndokuhl
esokuvusaet
hunenil
akho
si
kwenzedoti
Me:Mi
naangekengi
zingi
kukhal
eleshame

Ibeenwarni
ngthischampt ojustf
ocusonschool
butnohedoesn'twanttoadheretomywarni
ngs
andther
eisnothingicando.

Li
ndo:Honeyi
am unt
ouchabl
ewat
cht
hespace

Wel
augh.
[
06/
06,
10:
35] :46

Sakhi
le
Ithoughtwewoul
dbesmil
ingt
othebankdoi
ngthe
vosho,nowtheyt
ell
i
ngmethehei
stdi
dn'
thappen
t
heygott
her
eandwasoutnumber
ed.

Me:Okayaningi
tshel
ekahl
ebeni
shawaumoya
nomabeniyospana
Thabiso:Thef
actt
hatyouwer
efucki
ngandhave
theball
stoaskusstupi
dbl
owsmymi nd
Me:I
ninanj
eeni
thengi
hambe
Thabi
so:Wel
lit
swehavear
at
Me:WeeLindokuhl
ebhenguawukhul
umeuphi
uMzwakhe

Thel
iftopensheent
erswit
hPhindil
e,shegoes
st
rai
ghtupstai
rsandbangsthedoorhelaughs.

Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Skhul
u
Me:Whathappened
Mzwakhe:Ngi
nit
shel
il
eukut
hangi
saf
uniukuphi
nde
ngi
shayeamahei
stnahl
anya
Thabi
so:Soyousetusup
Mzwakhe:Soyi
shayangosukuol
uthi
ze

Heishidi
ngsomet
hingicant
ellbyt
hewayhei
sso
exci
ted.

Me:Canwet
alk
Mzwakhe:Nobutwhatyal
lcandoi
sgetoutofmy
houset
hankyouver
ymuch
Me:WeeMzwakhewena
Linda:Asi
yindawomenenki
ngaumommyakeze
yenaezosixhosha
Mzwakhe:OkayPhi
ndi
lebat
hiwozauzobaxhosha
wena

Shecomesdown.
Phi
ndi
le:Si
tdown

Hesit
snextt
omeil
ookathi
m whyi
shehi
ding
t
hingsfr
om me.

Phindi
le:Idi
dit.
.Ist
oppedyouguysgoi ngahead
wit
hwhat everyouhadgoingon.Itwasn'tgoi
ngto
endwel l
,ihadseenithappenal
lofyouwer egoi
ng
tobedecimated
Mzwakhe:Si
fi
kal
aphoundendendewabogat
a
usi
mele
Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
rybutwegotbi
ggert
hingst
o
wor
ryabout
Li
nda:Kodwamommyukhal
elanikodwa
Mzwakhe:Ineedateam i
nSingapor
eand
somewherecloset
oSingapor
e
Phindil
e:Ineedyourhel
pican'tpr
otecthi
mifhei
s
thereandican'tmakehi
m giveuphisjob
Mzwakhe:That
swher
eicomei
n
Hehandsmeaf
il
eMViknewt
hatsoundedf
ami
li
ar.

Phindil
e:Hehaski dsandmaybeyal lonedayhope
tohavet heremotherisashitstar
terandidon'
t
havethatkindofst r
engthtotakecareofboys.Not
whileidon'tknowwhati sgoingwithme,soiam
beggingyouf orgetaboutt
heseheistnonsenseand
j
usthelpme
Thobani
:What
sini
tforus
Phi
ndi
le:Iwon'
thavet
obr
eakupwi
thyourboy
Thobani
:Heai
n'tr
eal
lyapossessi
onofwor
thiness
youaski
ngtosendourguyst
oAsiari
ski
ngitallf
or
whoforwhat

OkayThobaniwi
tht
hequest
ionshehasapoi
nt
t
hough.

Phi
ndi
le:Your
ightigotnot
hingt
oof
fer
Thobani
:Soyouprepar
edf orust
oriskoursel
ves.
Yeahweloveyou,
youdat i
ngourbestfr
iend
amazingbutf
orwhatPhindil
e

MzwakheputThobaniuptothi
shewant
stoseei
f
shewi
llusehermyster
iousgi
ft
.

Lindo:Wowmant hat
scol
dumuntuenicel
akahl
e
kanjeandsavedyoufr
om get
ti
ngki
ll
ed
Mzwakhe:Howwouldyoui
tsnotli
keyousai
d
somethi
ngshecoul
dhavedoneitt
ogetustofocus
onherbrot
her
Li
ndo:Aybafet
huokubeni
zoyi
mel
alent
o
eni
yiqal
ayo
Thobani
:Sowhat
sit
sgoi
ngt
obe
Phi
ndil
e:Okayt
hanifthat
showal
lofyouf
eelihave
nochoi
cebuttorespectt
hat

Theyl
ookateachot
hert
hist
otal
lybackf
ir
edi
nthei
r
f
aces.Shewi
peshert
ear
sandheadsupst
air
s.

Phindil
e:Hell
o..Heyyeahineedyoutobookmea
fl
ighttoSingaporenopedi
dn'tworkout
.Itdoesn'
t
mat t
erifiknowwhoi ssel
li
ngthem out

Phi
ndi
le
Mxoli
sii
sgi vi
ngmesleeplessni
ght
sigot
tagoand
tal
ktohim andfi
gureouthowwecansortthi
sout
.
Befor
eitgetsoutofhandspeakoft
hedevi
l.

Mxo:Ar
eyoucr
ying
Me:Heybabybr
o

Hel
aughs.

Mxo:Lasticheckiam t
heonewhogotoutf
ir
st
Me:Real
lywhot
oldyout
hat
Mxo:Mom anddad
Me:Theyl
ied

Wel
augh.

Mxo:Unj
ankodwagci
no
Me:Imi
ssyou
Mxo:Howmi
ssigotaboyf
ri
endnow
Me:Thi
ngshappen
Mxo:Thi
ngshappenhai
bo
Me:Weneedt otal
kihavebeenavoi
dingthi
s
si
tuati
ont
hinki
ngiam goingt
ohandleitbymysel
f
butiti
swei
ghingheavyonmyshoulders
Mxo:Okayhol
donsomeone'
satt
hedoor

Mzwakhe'
speoplewerest
il
lher
echi
ll
ingmaki
ng
noi
seidi
dn'tcar
efort
hem.
Mxo:Whyi
syourmansendi
ngpeopl
etome
Me:Who
Mxo:Thi
sbl
ackcat

Heshowsmesomedocument
s.

Me:Idon'
tunder
stand
Mxo:Whosentyouguysagai
n

"
MzwakheBhengu"

Mxo:I
sever
ythi
ngokay
Me:Iwi
llbecomi
ngt
her
eshor
tl
y
Mxo:Theygi
vingmeanot
hernote"
Wesorr
yyou
don'
thavet
ocometoSingapor
eM.T"whatisgoi
ng
on
Me:Canwet
alkl
ateridon'
tfeel
towel
l
Mxo:Gci
no
Me:Il
oveyoubye

Mzwakhe
Ili
keThobaniheget sme, hehast hebal l
sunli
ke
them andheai n'
taf rai
dtogot herewi t
hyou.Ididn'
t
puthim upt odot hatthough, Phindil
ewasj ust
explai
ningtomewhati shappeni ngint heworldof
Mxol i
siandhiswi fe.Itookituponmysel ftobutin,
Thobaniont heot herhandidon' tknowwhatwas
theissuenowhegotmet akingmul t
ipl
ejetsto
Singapore.Thisidiothehadpoi ntswhyar ethey
ri
skingtheirli
veswhat sinitfort hem.

Me:Whydi
dyouhavepi
ckaf
ightwi
thher
Thobani
:Youhear
dwhatshesai
dri
ght
Me:Mmm

I
tswei
rdt
hatsheknowswhoi
tisbutt
hanagai
nis
shecompell
edt
otel
luswhoi
tisgoi
ngbehi
ndour
backsno.

Me:Welljustl
ikeyoushedoesn'
towemeanythi
ng
exceptf
orbeingmygirlf
ri
endnowifiwantt
oknow
iwil
lknow
Thobani
:DoyouknowPhi
ndi
le
Me:Wel
lweher
ebecauseofyou
Thobani
:Tur
nthi
spl
anear
oundiam notgoi
ngt
o
Si
ngapore
Me:Wowbr
a

Phi
ndi
le
Iknowimadeami stakementioni
ngimayknow
whoisouttogetthem.Idon'tevenknowwhy
Nonhleaskedmet hatquesti
on,iwasdr
inki
ng
coff
eenotreal
lymyt hingbutiti
scal
mingmedown.

Thel
if
topensJamesent
ers.
James:Nkosazane
Me:Zul
u
James:Qui
etat
hingyoudi
dbackt
her
e
Me:Iam notgoi
ngt
obl
owyourcoveri
fthat
'swhat
youaski
ng
James:Youal
mostdi
d
Me:Wel
lthati
snevergoingt
ohappenunti
lyour
f
amil
yisbackaft
erthatyouonyourown
James:Youhaven'
tact
ual
lydoneanyt
hingt
omake
methinkyoucangetmyfamil
yout

Isi
gh.

Mzwakhe
Thepl
anet urnediwaslookingatt
hevisualsat
homeicouldn'ther
ewhatt heyweresayi
ngand
Jamesdidn'thavethepenwi t
hhim,wil
ldisabl
eany
l
ist
eni
ngdevi
ces.

Youknowwhattheonlyper
soniwanttoworr
y
aboutnowismygir
lf
ri
endthat
'sal
lot
herthi
ngs
don'
tmatter
.
[
06/
06,
10:
35] :47

Fewdaysl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Howwasiappr oachthi
ssi
tuat
ionicomewithal ot
ofbaggagesodoeshe.IneedNonhleandseeing
hehasapr obl
em wit
hmegoinghomehewi llhave
toaccept
.

Mzwakhe:Yes
Me:Sor
ry
Mzwakhe:What
everyouwantiwi
llgi
vei
ttoyou
Me:Yousur
e
Mzwakhe:Iam sl
eepi
ngver
ypeacef
ull
yandidon'
t
wantyoubuggi
ngmesoyes
Me:Okay

Ij
umpoutoft
hebedhegr
absmyhand.

Me:Ngi
dedel
aphel
a

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yeah
Nonhl
e:Wemeet
ingorwhat
Me:Noyoucomi
ngover
Nonhl
e:What
Me:Yeahyeahsoidon'
tknowwhatl
ieyougoi
ngt
o
t
ellyourboyf
ri
end
Nonhl
e:Youj
oki
ngr
ight
Me:Idi
dn'tevenhavetoaskhejustst
rai
ghtupsai
d
yeswhateveryouwantiwil
lgi
veittoyou

Wel
augh.

Me:Thanl
ateronar
ghi
figot
her
eiwi
llki
llt
hatgi
rl
Nonhl
e:Wecangot
oget
hert
ofet
cht
heki
dsidon'
t
mind
Me:Awesomepl
easebeonyourbestbehavi
or
Nonhl
e:Yougoti
t
Me:OkaybyeMzwakhephel
auyangi
li
maza
Mzwakhe:Younotl
eavi
ng
Me:Don'
tial
wayscomebackt
oyou

Heki
ssesme.
James
Andi
lecal
ledmeient
erhi
sst
udy.

Andi
le:AhJamesZul
u

Ican'
tbeli
evet
hejokeofamanihavetur
neda
smallboyli
ket
hishasmebytheball
s.

Me:Whatdoyouwant
Andi
le:Al
it
tl
ebi
rdi
etol
dmeacer
tai
nhei
stdi
dn'
tgo
t
hrough
Me:Sonotmybusi
ness

Hewantstoknowi
fihadahandinwhateverhei
st
t
heyhand.Maybei
fitel
lhi
mthatwil
lgi
vePhindi
le
t
hepushsheneedstogetmyfami
lyout
.

Me:Youcl
ear
lydon'
tknowwhatyoudeal
ingwi
th
hereri
ght
.Mzwakhehasagirl
fr
iendsheknowsi
beenbetr
ayi
ngthem,sheal
soknowssabeloisyour
brot
her

Hegr
absmebyt
hecol
laril
augh.

Me:Youknowwhatshetoldmeshewi
llgetmywi
fe
anddaught
eroutoft
hatpool

Hel
aughs.

Andi
le:Wai
tcomeback
Me:Yessooniwon'
thavet
odoanydi
rt
ywor
kfor
you
Andi
le:Ohsothat
'swhyyoubeenallt
oughguyhee
yout
hinkther
eisawayofgett
ingyourfami
lyout

Hel
aughsr
eal
lyhar
d.
Andile:Ohyousost upidandt hatbitchahhJames
nobodycangett hem outnomat terhowpower ful
theyare.Whatwi l
lhappent hougheacht imeyou
delaymet heinf
ormat ionineedtogett hose
monkeyl essenthetimespanyourf amilyhas.Aft
er
threedaysihavetot akethem outsot heydon't
drowndi dyourgir
ltellyouthat

Hel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Hebl ewmycoveriwasatt her
iver.It
oldhim hi
s
acti
onswilldeter
minethewayforward,idi
dn'
tneed
nopushij ustneededhi
m nott
otur nhi
sbackon
hisfamil
y.

Si
zwe:Youknowyoucangett
hem out
Me:Si
zwenotr
ightnow
Si
zwe:Thanwhen

Isi
gh.

Si
zwe:Yout
hequeenyoucandot
hingsnobodycan
Me:Whataboutt
hedr
owni
ngt
hing
Si
zwe:Yout
hequeenyoucandot
hingsnobodycan

Iopenmyeyes.JameswhyJameswhy.

Nonhl
e
Icannotbelievemyeyesiwasatt hi
sgorgeous
penthouseagain,i
tssocleandef
ini
tel
yabachelor
's
pad.Phindi
leisyettoaddherfl
airt
oit.

Sakhi
le:Yel
lowbone
Me:Hi
Sakhi
le:Whatyou

Thedoorssl
amswel ookupshescr
eams.Looks
l
ikeicameatther
ightmoment,
ThankGodforthe
personwhocametofetchme.

Me:Nono
Phi
ndi
le:Ohyouher
e
Me:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Phi
ndil
e:Ij
ustwantever
yoneawayf
rom met
hink
youcandothat
Me:Al
readygi
rlyouhaven'
tevenof
fer
edmeadr
ink
Phi
ndi
le:Techni
cal
l
yit
sal
readyyour
ssodo
what
everyouwant

Shewal
ksaway.

Me:Ahhwow
Sakhi
le:I
ssheal
waysl
iket
hat
Me:Onlywhensomeoneclosetoherdidsomethi
ng
stupi
d.Shefi
ndswayswiththeancest
orstomake
theprobl
em sor
tofdi
sappear
Sakhi
le:Umnganiwakho
Me:Amazi
ngne

Hesmi
les.

Sakhil
e:Okayl
etmeshowyoutoyourbedr
oom
becausemoghelhasl
eftt
hebui
ldi
ng

Wel
augh.

James
Shemadeaf oolofmeshepromisedmeshewoul d
getthem outbutsheli
ed.Myphoneringsit
hrowit
overthemount ai
ns,i
trai
nswhyisitwhenicryi
t
rai
ns.I
sn'
trai
nsupposedt
obegoodnews.Ihave
beenfool
edandnowtheywil
lknowiam nott
obe
messedwith.
[
06/
06,
10:
36] :48

Phi
ndi
le
Wewentt ogofet
chmyl i
tt
lecut
emunchkinsthey
weresohappyandexcit
ed.Ihadtokeepmycool
andactli
kenothi
nghappenedeventhoughdeep
i
nsideiwanttori
poutherint
est
ines.

Li
zeka:Mxol
isiuyabuyayi
ni
Nonhle:Doesn'
thecal
lyouandt
ellyouhei
s
coming
Li
zeka:Noni
ngangi
zwakabi

Ther
eisamani
nthi
shousewowl
izekawow.
Me:Iam j
usther
etof
etcht
heki
ds
Li
zeka:Ican'tj
ustl
etyout
akemyki
dswi
thoutmy
consentorthei
rfat
hers
Me:Okayl
etscal
lhi
m

Hewon'
tanswerthedamncal
lsoineedt
o
i
mprovi
seical
lSakhi
lei
nst
eadawomananswer
.

Her
:Mommy

Icovermymout
handhungup.

Me:Ohl
ooksl
i
kehei
sbusy

ThanMxol
isical
lsme.

Mxo:Whyyoui
nter
rupt
ingme
Me:Lizekaisr
efusi
ngmetotaket
hekidsandi
fyou
checkthecamerasyouf
indsomet
hingvery
i
nterest
ing

Shesnat
chesmyphone.

Me:Whatt
hehel
l
Li
zeka:Mxol
isi
..Mvel
o

Sakhi
le
Whatgavehertheri
ghtt
oanswermyphonebeat
s
me,shegi
vesitbacktome.

Sma:Whyungavel
euhl
ukanenaminokut
h
ungi
febel
e
Me:Kadengaqal
asi
si
Sma:Angi
zwa
Me:Yougoi
ngt
ogi
vemet
hecoochi
e..Exact
ly
Sma:Thatdoesn'
tgi
veyout
her
ightt
ocheatonme
Me:Iam notcheat
ingonyou
Sma:Ubanil
o

Shehasnor
ightt
oquest
ionmeatal
l.

Me:I
ntombikaMzwakhe
Sma:Yousavedpear
lasmommyit
houghtyou
hat
ed
Me:Ngi
thei
ntombi
kaMzwakheangi
shongongat
h
pear
l
Sma:Hehasagi
rl
fr
iendhmm

Il
ookatherwhatdoest
hathmm mean.

Phi
ndi
le
Wearrivehomesaf eandsound.Leavet
hekidsout
ofi
ttheyinnocentandshoul
dn'tbesubj
ect
edto
thei
rparent
sdrama,ser
iousl
yiwillhur
tthebothof
them shoul
dtheycomeateachotherusingthe
boys.Iwil
lnotbehel
dresponsi
bleforwhateverido
tothem.

Me:Okayboyst
hisi
sgoi
ngt
obeyournewhome
f
ornow
Mvel
o:Daddyboughtt
hishouse
Me:Nomal
umel
ivesher
eit
shi
shome
Mzwakhe:Seni
buyi
le

Hegivesmeaki
ssont
hecheekmyhear
tmel
tshe
smi
les.

Me:Yesyouknowt
her
ewasamani
nther
e
Nonhl
e:What
Me:Ngi
yakut
shel
awena
Mzwakhe:Bazol
alakuph
Me:Uhm
Nonhl
e:Icansl
eepwi
tht
hem nowor
ri
es
Mzwakhe:I
tsokayigotpl
entyofroomst
hegent
s
cancr
ashdownont hefi
rstf
loor
Me:That
syour
stoo
Mzwakhe:Thi
swhol
ebuil
dingi
smi
net
heone
acr
osstenant
sli
vet
her
e
Nonhl
e:OhmyGodcanibeyoursi
de
Me:Excuseme

Wel
augh.

Me:Haveyoueat
enshal
limakeyousomet
hing
Mzwakhe:Iam hungr
yforanot
hert
ypeoff
ood
Me:MzwakheBhengu
Mzwakhe:Mommy
Nonhl
e:Okayboyscomemommyi
sgoi
ngt
otake
usshoppi
ng
Theyhiphoptotheirbedroom,Mzwakhepull
sme
tohi
m.Hegr absmywai standl
ooksatme,ismi
l
e
hereal
lycan'
twaitbutnothere.

Sakhi
le
Iwaswatchi
ngNothandodoingherthingSmangele
l
eftshewasannoyi
ngmeandidi dn'thavethe
pati
encef
orher21quest
ions.Iam gladshelef
t.

Not
hando:Coul
dyoupl
easest
opst
ari
ngatme
Me:Iam sor
ryidi
dn'
treal
izeiwas

IaskedMzwakhet odoabackgr oundcheckf orme

onher.Idon'twantherdoinganyofthiscleani
ng
andportr
ayingheassetsfortheseuglydemonst o
see.Assoonaswegett heresul
tswear eapplyi
ng
andshe'sgetthefuckoutofhere.Evenifshehas
togotoCubat ostudymedi ci
nesobe, shehas
charmedmeandmanagedt ofil
lherspaceinmy
hear
t.

Not
hando:Sakhi
le
Me:Okay

Headache1and2comer unni
ngtotheki
tchen,
they
l
eanont hecount
erandgr
eether
.Idon'
tknowwho
i
swhoher e.

Nonhle:Ohwowfor
givet
hem it
hinkt
heyver
y
happytobeher
e
Me:Kubongat
hinamommy
Not
hando:Whatar
eyouguysname
Boy1:Iam Mvel
oandt
hisi
sMJhei
snamedaf
ter
myfather
Me:Ubaniomdal
a
Mvel
o:Hei
sthancomesme
Ihear
dMzwakhesayt
heyt
oosmar
tfort
hemsel
ves.

Mvel
o:Aunt
iewehungr
y
Nonhl
e:WeMxol
isiar
eyouhungr
y

Hedoesn'
tanswer,
heisnotmuchofapeopl
es
per
son.Nonhl
ecrouchesdown.

Nonhl
e:Ngikwenzel
eintoencaneuzoyi
dla..Asif
uni
uAunt
ieesi
thet
hiseanganukuthasidl
il
e..Okaydo
youwantyogurtandthanwecanthinkaboutf ood

Seethisiswhyihaveaphobi aofki dssheis

begginghim,andheisnoti nt
erestedinwhat ever
shehast osay.Event
uallyshegivesupon
convinci
nghimt oeatfood,shegiveshimt he
Danoneandspoon.Mvel otheextr
overtaskf orone
tootheybothsaythankthangosi tdown, yeah
SakhileNdl
ovuisnothavi ngababyanyt i
mesoon.
Phi
ndi
le
Nowt hatJamesi
sdonecryi
nghei
sreadytostr
ike.
Idon'
tknowhismovesnoweversi
ncehetol
d
Andil
e,Sizwei
sri
ghtimustst
ri
kef
ir
stbef
orethey
do.

Mzwakhe:Usucabanganif
uthmanj
e
Me:Kunent
oekumel
engi
yenze
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Iknowbuti
tisi
mpor
tant
Mzwakhe:Whati
smor
eimpor
tantt
hanme
Me:Not
hingbut
Mzwakhe:Exact
lynot
hing
Me:Okayt
hancanwenotbei
nti
mat
eforaweek
Mzwakhe:Mxm f
useghambal
auzongi
dakel
wa
kant
i
Me:Iwi
llmakei
tupt
oyouj
ustbeonyourbest
behavi
orpl
ease
Mzwakhe:Getout

Howwi
lliappr
oacht
hismat
terandst
il
lfoolAndi
le.

Me:Babe
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Umenzakanj
anumunt
uisl
ima
Mzwakhe:Yi
nini
thandaukubuzaumsanganoaf
ter
umdavazo
Me:Nohowdoyouf oolaper
sonletssay.Iam a
cl
ientiwantsoandsobutialsogotsomething
pl
annedforyouandyouknowwhatevenhi tyou

Het ur
nsmear oundilayflatonmystomach, he
getsontopofmeandbr usheshiscockagainstmy
coochie,awijustaskedasi mplequest
ion.He
sl
owl yputsi
tinhegr oanshet akesi
toutandgoes
i
nagai n,hedoest hatunti
lhesli
desri
ghtthrough.
Me:Ahhh

Hehol dsmyhandsandst ar
tsmovinghmm thi
s
feelssogood.Yougivethem somet
hinggoodto
thinkaboutasadist
ract
ion,igotmyanswersi
giggle.

Mzwakhe:Yourwel
come
Me:Aaaaah.
.Baby
[
06/
06,
10:
36] :49

Nonhl
e
IhopeMzwakhewon' tgetangryorshoutatus
taki
ngoverhishouseli
kethis.Helooksl
ikethat
typethatwi
llj
ustbeannoyedbyt oomucht r
affi
c,
howevereveryt
hingi
sdoneandcl eaned.
Voi
ce:Goodmor
ning
Me:Goodmor
ning
Hi
m:Andwhoar
ethesecut
ies
Mvel
o:Iam Mvel
othi
sismybr
otherMxol
isi

YouwouldswearMvel oi
stheol
dest
,hetal
ksalot.
Answersyourquesti
ons,
answer
sMj'squest
ions
oncehestar
tstherei
snostoppi
nghim.

Hi
m:Wel
liam Li
ndokuhl
eBhenguni
cet
omeetyou
Me:Ar
eal
lofyout
alldar
kandhandsome

Hel
aughs.

Li
ndo:Noonlyt
heol
deronesiam t
heyoungestdad
wasagiant

Iam gl
adt
obeher
ethant
obei
nanevenmor
e
t
oxi
cenvi
ronment
.

Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Hey
Sakhi
le:Ni
lal
ekahl
e
Mvelo:Haakunombhedeomkhul
ukanj
e
bekumnandi

Seewhatimean.

Me:Qedaukudl
aMvel
o
Sakhi
le:Therei
sapl
ayr
oom downt
hepassaget
hey
cangot her
eoncet
heydone
Me:Playr
oom t
heywoul
dn'
twantt
oleavet
his
house

Wel aughthel
if
topenstheguyfrom t
hestor
ewho
keptstar
ingatmeenter
sorisithist
win.Noit
s
def
ini
tel
yhi
m myhear
tst
art
sbeat
ingf
ast
.

Sakhi
le:Ayanda
Ayanda:Mmm
Sakhi
le:Whatareyoudoi
ngher
ewher
eisyourt
win
phel
ani naani
hlukani
Ayanda:YouknowLuyandasomet
imesdoesn'
tli
ke
hover
ingoverme,idi
dn'
tknowyouhadcompany
Sakhi
le:Ri
ght

Hesmi
rks.

Mvel
o:Sesi
qedi
le

Mjisst
il
leat
ingitt
akesal i
tt
lewhileforhi
mto
cometoli
feandMvel ojustpressureshim.Some
mayseeitasharshbuthej ustloveshisbrot
herso
much,t
heyareinseparable.
Mj
:Done
Me:Okaycomewhoi
swashi
ngwhoi
sdr
ying
Mvel
o:Iwi
llwashMxol
isiwi
llwi
pe

Sakhi
le
Myboyistot
allysmit
tenbyt
hisgir
liam surei
nhis
mind,
heenvisi
onsthosebei
ngtheirki
ds.I
sthi
s
whatbei
nginlovemeansyoujuststar
eataperson
andyourwholeworl
discomplet
e.

Mzwakhe:Hai
boni
ndwazel
ani

Hesnapshi
sfi
nger
sidi
dn'
tevenseehi
m comi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:Hey
Mvel
o:Haasohi
ghuphowar
ewegoi
ngt
oreach
t
her
e
Nonhl
e:Youmusteatyourf
rui
tsandveget
abl
esso
t
hatyoucanbetal
lasdaddyandmalume
Mvel
o:Veget
abl
est
ast
ebad
Nonhl
e:Thanyoubet
allasdaddy
Mvel
o:Mal
umei
stal
lit
sli
kehei
sgoi
ngt
oreach
t
hesky'
s

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e:Sowewantt
opl
aygames

Sher
unstheyf
oll
owherrunni
ngaswellMjfal
lsbut
hepi
ckshi
mselfupqui
ckl
yandcont
inuesrunning.

Ayanda:Manj
eezakheyi
niuMommy
Us:Yes
Ayanda:Oh
Hel
ookswel
aughathi
m.

Mzwakhe:Awkodwamt
akababa
Ayanda:What
Me:Theynother
s
Mzwakhe:Ezabhut
iweMedi
yami
Ayanda:Bengi
zibuzel
ahawu

Wecont
inuelaughingathi
m heget
supandl
eaves
wedi
einlaughter
.

Mzwakhe
Me:"
HasanyoneseenJames"

Hehasbeenmissi
ngi
nact
ionhaven'
tcheckedi
n
t
hisunl
ikehi
m.
"
No"

Icallhi
m hi
sphonegoesstr
aightt
ovoi
cemai
l.
Phindil
efi
nal
lywakesup.

Me:Mama

Shel
aysonmyt
highsokayshei
snotwaki
ngup.

Me:Sakhi
lewhoi
smanni
ngt
hef
loor
Sakhi
le:"
Ther
e'snoonet
her
e"
Me:Hai
bonal
ibhadil
ami
yazi
..Phi
ndi
legetof
fme
Phi
ndi
le:Yi
ningodl
ameekuseni
Me:Ekusenii
sebusukumanj
e

Shevi
gor
ousl
yget
sup.
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Hel
lomylovenonoNonhl
etol
dmenott
oal
l
ow
yout
osleepf
ormorethan
Phi
ndi
le:Funnybecausewedi
dn'
tsl
eep

Ismi
le.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayiam goi
ngt
otakeashower
Me:Iwi
llj
oinyouj
ustnowigotsomet
hingt
otake
car
eof

Sheki
ssesme.

Nonhl
e
Everyonewhoent er
shasbeenverywelcomi
ng,i
heardthem sayi
ngtheynotal
lowedtobeherewhen
Phindil
eisaroundandMzwakheisgoingtoki
ll
them,ialsofeeliam outofpl
aceal
lbymyself
.
Everyonemi ndi
ngtheirownbusi
nesstheboyshave
fal
lenasleep.

"
Myf
avor
it
ehumani
nthewhol
ewor
ld"

Me:Ahidon'
twantMzwakhet
oki
llme
Phindi
le:Thatonehel
ovesyout
othemoonand
back
Me:Gi
rl
Phi
ndi
le:Iam sosor
ry
Me:I
tokayiam enj
oyi
ngmysel
f
Phindi
le:Nowiam bri
ngi
ngbaggaget
othe
rel
ati
onshipontopofthi
scr
azygif
t
Me:Thi
sisyourbl
oodhei
snotbl
ood
Phi
ndi
le:Evenso
Me:Andthatgi
fti
sther
easonwhytheyher
eifyou
di
dn'
thaveitwhoknowswhatt
hatpsychogi
rli
s
doi
ng
Phi
ndi
le:Shedi
dn'
tevencomeofasthi
stypeof
per
sonwhyisshebehavi
ngli
kethi
s
Me:Ther
eisMxol
isi
'
ssi
del
izeka'
ssi
de
Us:Andt
het
rut
h
Me:If
oundf
reezerf
oodwantmet
owar
mitup
Phi
ndi
le:Andwecangoshoppi
ngl
etmef
ix
somet
hingforhi
m aswel
l
Me:Seeyoucandoitsat
isf
ytheancest
ors,
buil
da
rel
ati
onshi
pwithMrbaeandkeepwhoeveryou
needtokeepsafe

Shei
snol
ongerpayi
ngat
tent
iont
ome.

Mzwakhe
Ayanda:Eyskhul
uasi
mthol
i
Me:Ayandayout
hebestt
echguyoutther
ewhat
youmeanyoucan'
tfi
ndhi
m yal
lreal
izet
hisi
sbad
Jamesknowsever yt
hinghei
sourri
ghthandguy.
Him notcheckingi
ncanmeanal otoft
hings,
maybehei skidnappedorsomet
hingbadhappened
tohi
m.

Me:Yal
lbet
terf
indhi
m

Hemaybecoolwi t
husatthemomentbut
somet hi
ngwrongwithhi
m emoti
onal
lyhehas
detachedhi
mself.I
fidon'
tfi
ndhi
m ihavet
ostar
ta
searchpart
y.
[
06/
06,
10:
36] :50

Phi
ndi
le
Hest andsbeforeeverybodylookingcrazy.Hegi
ves
mear eal
lybaddeat hstar
e.Hedoesn' tscar
eme
exceptformybr otherandMzwakhe, iam al
sonot
scaredoft hem j
ustthatirespectthem.
Mzwakhe:Wher
eyoubeenJames
James:Ineededsomet
imet
omysel
f
Mzwakhe:Jamesiam goi
ngt
oki
llyouandiwon'
t
evengi
veaf uck
James:I
twon'
thappenagai
n
Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokushayangempamami
na
ungi
jwayel
akabi
Thobani
:Phi
ndi
le

Whatdoeshewant
.

Thobani
:Rememberyousai
dyouknowwhoi
s
bet
rayi
ngus

Agai
nThobanist
icki
nghi
snosewher
eitdoesn'
t
bel
ong.
Me:Yeah
Thobani
:Ubanil
oyo
Nonhl
e:Whyshouldsheansweryouwenanj
e
owokugci
naukubuzai
mibuzo
Me:Whoevensai
diknowwhoitismat
teroffact
eveni
fidi
dmymani sthef
ir
stper
soniwouldtel
l
Mzwakhe:Wel
liam r
ighther
ebaby

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Wecoolr
ight
Me:Wecool
James:Canigo
Me:Wai
tyougotsomet
hingi
nyourf
ace

Bl
ooddr
ipsdownhi
snose.
Mzwakhe
Ineedmybabyt oinvit
emet oMxoli
si'
spart
yineed
adiver
sion.Il
ovehowcomf ort
ablesheisar
ound
mewi t
hherbody,shedoesn' thi
deitandshe
doesn'
tcareiam i
nt heroom.

Me:Baby
Phi
ndi
le:Yesbaby
Me:Cel
a
Phi
ndi
le:No
Me:Awmommy
Phi
ndi
le:Mxol
isidoesn'
tevenl
ikeyou
Me:WhoMxol
isihel
ovesme
Phi
ndil
e:Okay.
.Nonhl
ecanyoudomyhai
rwhat
youdoi
ngtoday
Me:Runni
ngaf
ewer
rands
Phi
ndil
e:Canist
eelf
ewmi
nut
esofyourt
ime
pr
efer
ablyatni
ght
Me:Okayiwi
llsqueezeyoui
n

Alabysor
tedwithJamesannoyi
ngmeihavet obe
extr
avigi
lant
,it
extthecr
ewwepulli
nganallni
ght
er.
IwalkoutNonhlecomesinshei
slooki
ngbomb
wherearetheygoi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le
Iknowial wayshavecr azyideasandSamkel oj
ust
executesthem t
othet .Wepul lupatt
he
chisanyamahisattenti
ont odetai
l,
isai
dputa
mar queeinsi
dehet ur
nedt hewholechisanyama
i
ntoaf rametent.

Me:Yabonawenangakucabuzaamasende

Nonhl
egr
eet
shi
m andt
heyki
sshel
ooksexhaust
ed.

Nonhl
e:Babet
hisi
samazi
ng
Sam:Wenotgoi
ngt
oaddthemir
rorsnowbecause
wedon'
tknowhowt
hesedoor
sclose
Me:AymanSamkel
o
Sam:Youl
ikei
t
Me:Li
kei
til
ovei
tthi
sisexcept
ional
Sam:Somet
hingsar
ebol
ted

Thisi
sbeyondmywil
desti
magi nat
ioninevergot
thechancet
ospoi
lmybrotherandifeell
ikehe
needsthi
snowmorethanever.

Sam:Wheniseet
ear
siknowidonemyj
ob
Nonhl
e:Nono
Me:Samkel
othi
sisj
ust
Nonhl
e:Ibetyout
hesket
chi
sevenamazi
ng

Mzwakhe
Sakhi
le:Yousmi
li
ng
Me:Ani
kahl
e
Thabi
so:Yourgi
rl
fr
iendwhenar
ewemeet
ingher
Me:Yal
lnotmeet
inganybodyanyt
imesoon.Thi
sis
gor
geous
Thobani:Thi
sai
n'teveni
twai
tti
llt
hewhol
ethi
ngi
s
fi
nished
Me:I
ntwodays
Thobani
:uPhindul
eloyaever
ythi
ngshet
ouches
tur
nstogold

Whoknowt hechisanyamacoul dl
ooklikethat.I
t
def
ini
tel
yneedsar enovat
ionnow, peoplearegoing
towanttoseethatfunkyclassyfr
eshlook.

Me:Youknowpeopl
ear
egoi
ngt
owantt
hisnow
Thobani
:Udaki
we

Wel
augh.
Me:Heybaby
Phi
ndi
le:Ahhh
Me:Vi
sual
snow.
..Now

Mygi
rl
fr
iendohhel
lno.

Sakhi
le
Nowtheyattackingmommydodi dtheyevenknow
whosheisdat i
ng.Hewasrocki
ngbackandf ort
h
t
appi
nghi sleg,wecan'
tst
artwarwitht
hisclown.
Mxol
isineedstocomebackandf i
xhismess,
Mzwakheisgoingt osl
apt
hepissoutofhim.

Nonhlecomessheopenst
her
efr
iger
atorand
f
reezes.

Thobani
:Mommy
Shequi
ckl
yret
ract
sherar
m back.

Thobani
:It
sokayyousaf
enow
Nonhl
e:Damm ital
lhappenedsofasttheycame
f
rom nowher
e.ThankGodt heki
dsstayedbehind
Mzwakhe:Theydi
dn'
ttouchyour
ightNonhl
e

Heshout
s.

Nonhl
e:Justt
hesl
apsPhi
ndi
legot

Heget
sup.

Me:Mzwakhewai
t

Het
akest
hest
areshei
sgoi
ngt
oki
llsomeone,
i
f
oll
owhi
m dammi
t.
[
06/
06,
10:
36] :51

Sakhi
le
Istoppedhimfrom makingthebi ggestmist
akeof
hisli
fe.Noneofthepeopleconnect edtousknow
aboutPhindi
lesolet
sjustkeepi tatthat,
wedon't
wantt obemakingmoreenemi esont opoft
heone
wehave.Hemustl etMxolisidealwi t
hthisi
tshi
s
baggage.

Me:Mzwakhe

Hewasi
gnor
ingme.

Me:Okayi
twasmommybut
Mzwakhe:Awukeninexet
shunakal
ayonemama
Me:I
ji
ndel
ewaybr
a
Mzwakhe:FuckyouSakhi
lef
uckyou

Hel
eavesisigh.Iam sti
llnotl
ett
inghi
m ki
llt
he
manandiknowhewi llaskingThobani
,isweari
f
t
heydoanythingiwil
lleave.

Not
hando:Sawubona
Me:Manzuza

"
Isi
tsaf
etocomei
n"avoi
cewhi
sper
stheyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Gi
rl
Not
hando:Iwasal
sohi
ding
Mvel
o:Mul
umecanwegot
othepl
ayr
oom
Nonhl
e:Eatyourf
oodt
hanyoucango
Mvel
o:Whati
fwepl
ayfir
stthaneatourf
oodand
r
emainqui
etf
ort
herestoft
heday
Ichuckl
eohMvel
o.

Mj
:Mi
nacel
aukudl
a
Nonhl
e:Nazokemf
anawami
Mvel
o:Okayiguesswecaneatf
ir
st

Hesaysi
nlowdi
sappoi
ntedt
one,
Mxol
isii
sgoi
ng
t
okil
lme.

Phi
ndi
le
Ibruiselikeapeachmyski nmaybemel aninbut
youpi nchmeorhi tme.Iwillhavet hebaddest
reacti
ont hat
showsensi ti
veandf ragi l
emyski nis.
Mydearbr ot
heragainimusthi dethi ngsfrom you,
theynotmaki ngthisafairf
ight.Idon' tunderstand
myi nvolvement,Mzwakhei sli
vidhecoul dn'tsl
eep
hewasshaki ng.Thethoughtofamanput t
inghis
handsonpushedhi m andhei sbayi ngf orblood.
Me:Youokay
Mzwakhe:Youseewhyit
ellyounott
olosesi
ghtof
JamesorSakhi
le
Me:Yebo
Mzwakhe:Thanwhyyougoi
ngagainstmyrules
anddon'tyoudar
egi
vemethatspi
ri
tualshi
tofan
excuse.Youmakemewantt
opunchyousodamn
hard

Whateverisayi
sgoi
ngtoangerhi
m evenmor
e,i
getupandgodownstai
rs.

Me:Ladi
es
Nonhl
e:Mommy

Wel
augh.

Me:St
opkhonaukudl
a
Igrabatrayhewillbemadthewhol
eti
meandsex
won'tdohimjust
ice.Ij
usthavet
obegandaskf
or
for
giveness.

Nonhl
e:Youknowi
am l
eavi
ngr
ight
Me:Iknow
Nonhl
e:Wi
lli
taf
fectyou
Me:Yes
Nonhl
e:Weal
soneedtogotothechi
sanyama
Samkel
ocan'
tdoever
ythi
ngbyhimsel
f
Me:Ifiwinthi
sbatt
lewecangothesit
ti
ng
ar
rangementcanonlybefi
xedonceeveryoneRSVP
af
tertodaywhoeverdi
dn'
tRSVPsorr
ykuyena.
Wherearetheboys
Nonhle:FunmanSakhi
leint
roducedt
hem t
oa
playr
oom somewher
einthehouseanditi
sabal
lof
funinther
e
Me:Hai
bo
Mzwakhe
Ismel
lfoodil
ookup,
sheput
sthet
rayont
hebed.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:AyPhi
ndi
le
Phindi
le:Okayi
twasi r
responsi
bleofmetonot
ensuremywher eabout
st oSakhi
leorJames.Any
fat
ali
ti
escouldoccur

Ilookathershepoutshermouthandlaysherhead
onmyar m.Isi
tupstrai
ghtwhenshecall
edi
thoughtshewassleepingwit
hsomeone,butmy
souldidn'
tall
owmet obeli
evethat
.

Me:Awujolinanomaubaniokayngi
cel
aukuf
ake
engqondweniyakhol
okho
Sheki
ssesmeigent
lycar
esshert
high.

Phi
ndil
e:Okayherei
syourf
ood,eat
,fi
ndyour
st
rengt
handkillt
hatmot
herf
ucker

Shel
eavest
her
oom.

Nonhl
e
Thelit
tl
ebitoff
reedom ihaveisoutofthisworl
d.I
wasenj oyi
ngmyselfacti
nglikeiowntheplaceand
theboysdidn'
tmind,theli
ftopensSabelowalksi
n.
Itakeahugebiteofmysandwi chandmoan.

Me:OhGodt
hisdel
i
cious

Heistr
yingtoi
nti
midat
emeandiam lovi
ngever
y
minut
eofit,
butihavet
heupperhandher
e.
Sabelo:Lest
orynyanasakhoangi
sibat
hul
i
esandton

It
akeanot
herbi
twalki
ngawayf
rom hi
m her
oughl
y
gr
absmyarm andcoversmymout
h.

Sabel
o:Tr
ymeNonhl
etr
yme

Ibi
thi
shandhel
etsgoofme.

Me:Touchmeagainandiwil
lhaveyourhead
choppedyouinmyter
ri
tor
ynowisuggestyou
comecorrect

Ayandapassesbymyhear
tstar
tsbeat
ingoutofi
ts
chest
.Di
dheseewhathappened.

Ayanda:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Il
ookatSabel
o.

Sakhi
le
Whatisgoi
ngonnowthet
ensi
oni
ssot
hickyou
cancuti
twit
haknif
e.

Me:Awndodausul
a
Sabel
o:Fede
Me:Andt
hansmoko
Ayanda:Ngi
fi
cabayamuncanal
a
Sabel
o:Awj
oe
Nonhl
e:Excuseme

Shewal ksaway.Ayanda'
slookatSabeloshotsiam
goingtokil
lyou,Ayandadoesn'
tlookatyouli
ke
thatunl
essyoudi dsomethi
ngandhewasn' tt
ot ake
youout.Hewal ksawayiknowthatlookverywell.
Sabel
o:Manj
espawupet
esonasi
gidl
amo
Me:Noi
mpi
ntshiyevr
oukaskhul
u
Sabel
o:Hmm

Ther
eisthathmm agai
nfi
rsti
twasSmangel
enow
hi
m whatexact
lydotheymeanwit
hhmm ofthei
rs.

Me:Yeahsoher
e'swhati
shappeni
ng

Iwon'tf
il
lhi
mi nonever
ydet
ailwi
thever
ythi
ng
that
'sbeenhappeni
ngMzwakheisbei
ngextr
a
cauti
ous.
[
06/
06,
10:
37] :52

Sakhi
le
Iwantt
ogettothebott
om ofwhathappened
bet
weenAyanda,Sabel
oandNonhle.Ift
hisfool
t
ri
edt
odosomet
hingheneedst
obedeal
twi
th.

Me:Nonhledi
dsomet
hinghappenbet
weenyouand
Sabel
odidhedosomethi
ng

Shekeepsqui
et.

Mzwakhe:Sabel
odi
dwhatt
owho
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Notmuchhej
ustt
ri
edt
oactsmar
twi
thme

Idon'
tbel
ieveherAyandagavehimthatlookiam
goi
ngtokillyouandiam goi
ngtoki
llyourightnow.

Me:Youknowthishousehascamer
asandiam
gonnaseewhathappened

Shel
ooksshockedandt
err
if
ied.
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lecal
m downheprobabl
ywas
f
anci
ngherandlitt
lebr
odidn'
tli
ket
hat

James
Andil
eandhisbrot
her
swereboringmeagain.
Sabel
owastalki
ngaboutajobt
heyabouttodo,
whyam iher
ebecauseitl
ooksl
iketheygot
ever
ythi
ngundercont
rol
.

Sabel
o:If
eell
ikehedi
dn'
ttel
lmeever
ythi
nghet
old
mewhatineededtoknow

That
'sbecauseyoumaki
ngyour
sel
fvi
sibl
edummy.

Andi
le:Youhavet
ogobacki
n
Me:No
Andi
le:Sor
ry
Me:I
tisgoi
ngt
orai
sesuspi
cion
Andi
le:James
Me:Ohfuckyouifyouwantedtodosomet hi
ngto
myfamil
yyouwoul dhavedoneitbynow.Butyou
r
eali
zeyoucan'
tbecauseyougoingtoloselever
age
Sabel
o:Iknowyouknowever
ythi
ng
Me:Youdumbyoushowi ngyouri
mmaturi
tywhy
didyouevengetint
owit
hNonhlewhenyou
could'
vej
ustwalkedaway
Andi
le:WhatdoesNonhl
egott
odowi
th
Sabel
o:She'
sst
ayi
ngi
nthepent
house
Me:AndnowSakhi
lei
sinvest
igat
ing
Andi
le:Pl
easel
eavet
hebot
hofyou

Wi
thpl
easur
e.

Mzwakhe
Ihadt
oSakhi
leoutt
hehousemybabyi
shal
fdead,
canseemesleepingwit
hot
herpeopl
e.Idon'
tli
ke
thi
sgif
tit
stoogreat.

Me:Whatwast
hatabout
Sakhi
le:AyuAyandaakavesaneekubukekanj
e
melengithol
ekungani
Me:Sakhi
lel
ett
hisgo
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Sakhi
lel
eti
tgo

Het
hrowsaf
itandf
oldhi
sar
ms.

Me:St
opact
ingl
ikeababy
Wai
ter
:Ther
eyougosi
r
Me:Thankyou

Whenmybabywakesupthi
sjui
cymeatwi
llbe
r
eadyandwai
ti
ngforher
.
Me:Fi
nepl
ayt
hecl
i
p

Hegrabsthelapt
opandaccesst
hepent
house
secur
it
ysystem.

"
Younotgoi
ngt
ofi
ndanyt
hing"

Sakhi
le:Wher
eisi
t
Ayanda:"
Del
etedandwecan'
tgeti
tback"
Sakhi
le:Whatt
hef
uckwast
hatabout
Ayanda:"
Areyouherboyf
ri
end"
Me:Mbuzebhut
imbuze
Sakhi
le:Kuhl
anganaphil
okhongi
zokuhl
aba
ngempamaAyanda
Me:Hai
bowal
wamanj
enomunt
uongekhol
a
Sakhi
le:Yougetmethatf
ucki
ngf
oot
agebef
orei
bl
owyourbr ai
nsout
Ayanda:"Haaishet
hreat
eni
ngmear eyou
thr
eateni
ngmeSakhileweSakhi
leuyangazi
ngiwubanimina"

Hekeepsqui
etil
augh,
Ayandaisthemostfear
ed
amongstt
hecrew.Aprof
essi
onalhi
tmannobody
dar
eshim.

Me:Ani
kahl
elemsanganoyenu
Sakhi
le:Don'
tcomet
omewhenshi
thi
tst
hef
an
Me:Wegoi
nghomeSakhi
leandyougoi
ngt
olet
t
hisgo

Nonhl
e
Ifhet
hinksiam goingt
or unmyassbackt ohi
m he
hasanotherthi
ngcoming.Infactiam incr
easi
ng
mystayhereatthepenthouse,phindi
leand
Samkelowillj
usthavet
odeal.
Voi
ce:Sawubona

Myhear
tdr
ops.

Me:Whati
swrongwi
thyoudoyouhavet
oscar
e
meallt
het
ime
Ayanda:Scar
eyout
hat
sal
it
tl
efarf
etchedAyanda
bhengu
Me:Nonhl
eSbi
ya
Ayanda:Ngi
yaj
abul
aukwazi

Ij
ustsmi
leandshakemyhead.

Ayanda:Whoi
sthel
uckyguy

Iwoul
dn'
tsayl
uckyiwantt
ogetout
.
Me:That
snotyourbusi
ness
Ayanda:Ofcour
sengi
yaxol
isankosazane
Me:Whoi
sthel
uckyl
ady
Ayanda:You

Hesayst
hatwithsomuchconf
idenceandl
ikei
am
goi
ngtogetyou.

Ayanda:Yah.
.Iniawukwaziwenaukuzenzela
Luyandaiam goingfuckingpunchyourbrai
nsout
wow..Yeahiam comi ng.List
enhefuckedupagai
n

Thisguyismaki
ngmef eelallt
ypesofwayt
hati
s
i
nterest
inghel
eaves,
iexhale.

Mzwakhe
Icomebackhomeandi t
sempty,
iputt
hemeati
n
thef
ri
dge.IcheckonNonhl
eandtheki
ds,
shei
son
herphone.

Me:Heygi
rl

Shel
aughs.

Me:Ihaven'
tactuall
ywelcomedyoutomyhome,
butwhatiwantyout oknowyouabigpartofmy
gi
rlandyouwillfor
everbewelcomedher
e
Nonhl
e:Thankyou
Me:Ever
ythi
nggoodsof
ar
Nonhle:Weenjoyi
ngoursel
vest osaytheleast
theseli
tt
lemunchki
nstherefavori
teparti
sthe
playr
oom
Me:Iknowi
tisaddi
cti
ve
Nonhl
e:Otherthant
hatweokayr
eal
lyt
hankyou
f
orwelcomingus
Me:Okaygi
rlenj
oywai
tyoudi
dn'
ttel
lMxol
isi
right
Nonhle:Hei
scr
azyandthi
swi
llj
ustdest
royhi
m.
HelovesPhi
ndi
lesomuch

Il
ovehert
oo.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupscr
eami
ng

Mzwakhe:What

Hecockshi
sgunit
urnont
hel
amp.

Mzwakhe:Mm mm mm
Voi
ce:What
sgoi
ngonar
ewebei
ngat
tacked

Iwokeever
yoneup.
Mzwakhe:Yi
nikodwa

Hegoest
othedoorst
il
lhol
dinghi
sgunheunl
ocks.

Sakhi
le:Youokaywehear
dscr
eami
ng.
.Mommy
Mzwakhe:Uyel
okadehayi
za

Hesnortsandgoest ot
hebat hroom.Sakhi
le
i
nspectstheroom fr
om cornertocorner
,Thobani
checksthebalconyNonhleenterswit
hAyanda.

Mzwakhe:Putt
hegunsaway
Li
nda:Kant
ibayabhebhana
Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokushayawenashl
ama

Theyl
augh.
Nonhle:Don'
tworryyal
lwouldgetusedt
oitatl
east
she'
snotcryi
ng..Youhungry

Inod.

Nonhl
e:Come

Igetupandf
all
.

Mzwakhe:AyPhi
ndi
lemankwenzenj
an
Nonhl
e:Heydon'
tshoutatherl
ookwhatyoudi
dno

Iam alr
eadycausi
nghi
m pr
obl
emsl
ikeidowi
th
Nonhle.

Nonhl
e:I
tsokayhoneydon'
tcr
y
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06/
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10:
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Mzwakhe
Givemeadayj ustgivemeadayt osoakmy
brui
sesafterexperiencinglastnight
'str
auma.I
couldn'
tsl
eepaf terthatscreem, i
tcaughtmeof
guardiwasr eadyt okil
l.Ididn'
tmeant osnapather
shescaredmel iteral
ly.

Me:Babypleasecometome..WozaPhi
ndi
leiam
notgoi
ngtodoanythi
ngtoyou

Iwasamess.

Me:Ngiyaxol
isabengaqondi
leukukt
hethi
sa,kube
i
phuthamama.Uvesanewangi thusangashawa
ol
unyeuvalo,ngi
yaxol
isakodwasthandwasam
Phi
ndi
le:Iam soiscar
edyou
Me:Youdi
dbutiam sor
ryf
orshout
ingatyou
Shesmi
lesheyigotasmi
le.

Me:Canigetaki
ss
Phi
ndi
le:Ther
e'speopl
eher
e

Iki
sshershecar
essmyf
ace.

Me:Khonaokadeukushoabant
uini

Shesmi
lesil
etgoofhershegoest
otheki
tchen.

Sakhi
le:Mf
anawami
Thobani
:Skhul
u
Li
nda:Whoknewhi
m havi
ngagi
rl
fr
iendwoul
d
br
ingthi
ssi
deofhi
m
Thobani
:Ungekeuncomei
ntoenhl
eLi
ndani
Mvel
o:Aunt
ie
Phi
ndi
le:Heymybeaut
if
ulst
rongboys

Mji
snoti
nthemoodhesi
tsdownqui
etl
yont
he
r
ug.

Me:Heychamp

Iknowhowtobri
ght
enki
dsl
ikehi
m,idot
hatal
lthe
ti
mewithNozi
.

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakheont heoutsi
deistoughdon'tfwithmeon
thei
nsideheissuchamar shmal l
ow,t
hewayhe
j
ustbri
ghtenedMjmoodupt ell
smehel ovesbei
ng
afat
her.Ical
lthei
rfat
herhet akesawhil
eto
answerhisphone.

Me:Masi
mbakho
Hel
aughs.

Me:Dot
i
Mxo:Awumamaat
hiniamadodaakhomommy

Wel
augh.

Me:Mxm
Mxo:Uyaphi
lakodwast
handwasam
Me:Angi
boniungi
bangel
aisdi
naut
hiuyabuya
awubuyi
Mxo:I
yinganezamiziphephi
lei
ntoezi
jabul
eyona
noiam joki
ng.Idon'
tknowifil
andtomorrowort
he
dayaf
ter

Whatigotabi
gsur
pri
sewai
ti
ngf
orhi
m hebet
ter
not
.
Me:Mxol
isiiam goi
ngt
ohur
tyousobad
Mxo:Yohawut
shel
eusbar
iangi
bol
ekei
ndi
za
mshini
Me:What
sini
tforhi
m
Mxo:Uzohl
ukananayekabuhl
ungukabi
Me:Pl
easedon'
tdi
sappoi
ntme
Mxo:Aymt
asengi
zozakhul
uleka
Me:About
Mxo:Idon'
tcarewhatpeopl
esayidon'
twantt
osee
herandidon'
twanttofi
xthi
ngswit
hherwewillt
alk
onceiam t
here
Me:Okaysaf
etr
avel
s
Mxo:Myboyshel
lo
Me:OhMvel
oyourf
atherwant
stospeakt
oyou
guys

Ihaveabi
gdayaheadofmepl
easel
ett
hese
ancest
orsnotbot
herme.

James
Theyincludedmenotbecauset heytrustmeor
needmyhel pinanyki ndofway.Theytesting
everyone'
sloyalt
y,thei
rfat
herusedtodot hisi
knowever ytr
ickthereisonthebook.Itakemygun
andgi vei
ttoNdumi sohehasbeengi vi
ngmeabad
sti
nkeye.

Sakhi
le:St
opi
tthebot
hofyou

"
Whati
shedoi
ngher
e"

Sakhi
le:Ical
ledhi
m
Mzwakhe:"
Why"
Sakhi
le:Weneedhi
m
Me:Icanl
eavei
f
Ever
yone:Shutup

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe:"
Youwantmetowor
kwi
thacr
ackhead
nowonderyoul
ookcr
azy"
Me:Iam notacr
ackhead
Sakhi
le:Whywasbl
ooddr
ippi
ngdownf
rom your
nose

Phindi
lei
stheonewhodi
dthatbutican'
ttel
lthem
that

Me:Iwasgoi
ngt
hroughal
otandidr
ankt
oomuch
Mzwakhe:"Jamesngi zokubul
alazi
qoqeMageba
ngi
zokuhl
iphizakabuhlungukabi"

Iam st
uckbet
weenar
ockandahar
dpl
ace.I
fi
messupher
eimightl
oset
hechanceofever
get
ti
ngmyfami
lyback.

Mzwakhe
Itsthefi
rsttimeseei ngPhi ndiledoingsomet hi
ng
constructi
veandever yonei sjustfoll
owingher
orders.Theent i
rechi sanyamahasbeen
transfor
medi ntoagi antf r
amet ent,whenyouenter
thereisabi gwritt
ensi gnont hedoor ."
Welcometo
Mxol i
si'
sextravaganza" ,t
her eisglasseverywhere
andwhi teitiscleanandcl assy.Theexactopposi te
ofMxol i
sihershi ff
ondr apingswer ecoveringthe
ceili
ng,i
tlookedmor eofaweddi ngthanapar t
y.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayever
ybodyst
op.
.Idon'
tli
ket
ha

Agl
assbr
eaks.

Phi
ndil
e:That
scomi
ngoutofyourpaycheck.
.Noi
am j
oki
ng
Samkel
o:Li
ght
ing,
soundandf
oodt
hat
sonyou
Phi
ndi
le:Howmucham ipayi
ngyou
Samkel
o:Mymoni
eswor
th
Phi
ndi
le:Nol
ikeser
iousl
yidon'
tli
ket
hat
Samkel
o:Whatdoyouhavei
nmi
ndf
orpi
ctur
es
Phi
ndi
le:Myphot
ogr
aphyi
shandl
ingt
hat

Iam justher
esothatt
hecameracangetaclear
pict
ureofwhereiwas,i
fsheneedsanyt
hingdone
wear ehere.

Nonhl
e:Mama
Me:Whati
sthi
s
Nonhle:Foodtest
ingsi
nceyal
lher
emi
ghtaswel
l
putyouintogooduse
Me:I
fther
e'sf
oodcountmei
n

Nonhl
e
Wetakeastepbackandl ookattheamazi ngwor
k
mybabydid.I
tlooksthosedineoandsol o
weddi
ngsyouknowr ichpeoplevibes,Samkel
ohas
t
rul
youtdonehimselfitl
ooksmagi cal
.

Me:Babet
hisi
sjustwow

Heki
ssesmyneck.

Samkel
o:Ubuyani
ningi
kukhumbul
e
Me:Uyazimengi
hambamanj
ekumel
engi
phi
nde
ngi
buye
Samkel
o:Okaynopr
obl
em
Me:Ngi
yadl
alaungi
landekusasa

Weki
ss.

Phi
ndi
le:I
fyoudon'
tsucki
ngf
acescanwegetback
t
owor
k
Me:Excuseusf
orami
nut
e..Come

Mzwakhe
Ient
ert
othem dr
inki
nganddanci
ng.

Me:Doyouguysevert
akeanyt
hingser
ious
Thobani
:Whyar
eweher
e
Me:Iam put
ti
ngyouguyst
oat
est
That
o:Why
Me:Seningij
wayelakabini
zit
shel
aukuthni ngcono
kunami.Iam test
ingeachandeveryone'sl
oyalty.
Ayandayouher ewithmeThabisoyoul eadthey
beenwantingyout ocomebacksinceforever
Thabiso:Iwouldl i
ket
otakethi
sopportuni
tyt
o
thankmyl it
tl
ebr ot
herohiam sohonored,
youguy
won'tregrett
his.Youwanttogetever
yonearrest
ed
Me:Angi
thbangi
funangi
wil
enamhl
anj
e
el
amanqamu,
LuyandaandZamaniyoucanst
ay
behi
nd
That
o:I
niudaki
wemengi
fahl
akasi
fahl
akasonke

Il
ookathi
m.

That
o:HadeBaf
o

Theylaugh.Thesoundofheel scli
ckingechointhe
warehouse,sheslowl
yt akesherstr
idesshe
promisedmet heywon'trememberhert henextday.
Iknowiam r i
ski
ngherlifebutineedt oknowwhat
i
shappeningwi thi
nmycr ew.

That
o:Mommy
Phindi
le:Hell
oboyslet
smakethi
ngsal
it
tl
emor
e
fun.Youwillhavef
iveminut
est
ogoandout
Me:I
nt hosefi
veminut
esiwi
llbewat
chi
ngeach
andeveryoneofyou
Phi
ndi
le:Youwil
lhavetomakeitbackt
othe
war
ehousewithi
nthosefi
veminutes
Thabi
so:I
sthi
saj
oke
Phi
ndil
e:I
fyoufailtoret
urnwithi
nthosemi
nut
es
oneofyouwil
lalertthepol
ice
Me:Vol
unt
ari
ly
Thobani
:Holdonwet
heset
hingsar
enotdone
magical
lyoh
Zamani
:Guys
That
o:Shutupwena
Zamani
:Thet
imerhasst
art
ed

Thobanigr
abshi
sthi
ngsandr
unsout
.

That
o:Uyi
njaMzwakheyezwamgodoyi

Sorr
ygentst
hisigot
tado.Let
sseewhoi
sforme
andagai
nstme.
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06/
06,
10:
37] :54

Aweekl
ater

Mzwakhe
Colormenotimpressedtheyfai
leddismally.Ihad
alr
eadytakent
hemoneybef oretheycouldevenget
toit
.Ihavesomeveryunreli
ablejer
ksinowknow
whoi sf
ormeandagai nstme.TheliftopensJames
walkinwithahugebouquetofflowersandabasket .

James:Del
iver
yforma'
am

Ir
eadt
hecar
d"Thebestsi
steri
nthewhol
ewor
ld"

Mxolisi
'
spartywassomethi
ngelseicouldn'
tst
ay
l
ongbutt heybot
hhadablast.Helovedever
y
secondofit,hel
eaves.
Me:Ngi
yabonga
James:Forwhat
Me:Imustscr
eam l
oudnowf
ort
hewhol
ewor
ldt
o
hear

Hest
epscl
osert
ome.

Me:Yeahyeahdon'
tincl
udeyouwhat
ever

Iwi
lli
ncl
udet
hiscr
ackheadwheneveriwantt
o.

Phi
ndi
le
Theychi
ll
ingonthekitchenstool
s,hestepscloser
tohi
m.Het hanvi
gorouslygrabshim andruns,the
pent
houseisundersiege.

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.
Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Notcut
ePhi
ndi
le
Me:Thehouset
hepent
housei
sunderat
tack
Mzwakhe:What
Me:YouandJameswererunningtherewasashout
outhegr
abbedyouandst
artedrunning
Mzwakhe:Babycal
m downitwasj
ustabaddr
eam
ever
ythi
ngispr
acti
cal
lyf
ine

IseeJamesapproachinghi
mf r
om theback,he
pull
sthet
ri
ggerstr
aightonhishead.Hefal
lsontop
ofme.

Iwakeupscr
eami
ng.

Mzwakhe:Ayayi
jwayel
ekil
ent
oyakho
Me:Uhm
Igetupandl
ookout
sidet
hebal
cony.

Me:I
sther
eacamer
alooki
ngatme
Mzwakhe:Mxol
isisentyouf
lower
sandat
hankyou
basket
Me:Mxol
isidoesn'
tsendmef
lower
s
Thobani
:"Bestsi
steri
nthewhol
ewor
ld"

Ir
ipt
hef
lower
sapar
t.

Me:Mxol
isidoesn'
tsendmef
lower
s
Thobani
:AhMzwakheyoumi
ghtwantt
oseet
his

Thesnakeshowsupbef
oremeicol
lapse.

Mzwakhe
Expl
osi
vessosoonthisper
sonwant sustodance.
Jamesenter
sPhindi
lehascol
lapsed,hel
ooksat
hert
hanme.

James:Youcal
ledme
Me:YouknowJamest
her
e'snot
hingmor
eihat
e
t
hanbetr
ayal
James:Di
dn'
twegot
hrought
his
Me:Iam goingt
oaskyouonel
astt
imear
eyout
he
onebet
rayingme

Phi
ndi
lewakesupcoughi
ngiseeasl
ightr
eli
efi
n
hi
seyes,
ipret
endt
onotseethat
.

Me:Youokay
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easedon'
tdot
his

Shef
aint
sagai
nthi
sbet
terbeonegoodbet
rayalf
or
Phi
ndi
let
obest
icki
ngupf
orhi
m.

MambaRi
ver
Phi
ndi
le

Si
zwe:Her
eal
lydoesn'
tdeser
veyourpr
otect
ion
Me:Ever
yonehasagoodhear
t
Si
zwe:Hi
sisnot
Me:Youj
ustdon'
tli
keanyonesayt
hat
Si
zwe:Notent
ir
elyever
yoneyouher
eandil
ikeyou

Ihavetr
iedandtr
iedt
opr
otectJamesbuthei
sso
defi
antihavegi
venmyal
l,
ican'tanymor
e.

Me:Dot
heyneedt
ost
ayher
e
Si
zwe:Idon'
twantJamesbadj
ujual
lupi
nmyr
iver
Me:Yourr
iver
Sizwe:Imeanyourri
verwewil
lgivet
hem
protecti
ononcet
heyoutAndi
lecanneverputt
hem
backi n

Mzwakhe

Phi
ndi
le:St
handwasam
Me:YouandthatJamesbet
terhaveagood
expl
anat
ion
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easel
eti
tgoandpleasetel
lyourpeopl
e
tol
eti
tgoyounotgoi
ngtol
ikeitpl
ease
Me:Iwi
lll
eti
tgoi
fyoust
ayabi
tlonger
Phi
ndi
le:Weekends

It
hinkabouti
t.

Me:Oneweekend
Phi
ndi
le:Myf
ami
lywi
llki
llyou
Me:Noti
fishovemoneyi
nthei
rfaces.
..Ngi
yadl
ala

Ican'
tkil
lJameshewasf at
her'
sfavor
it
eperson.
Dadwillsendheavythunderonmeseei ngasheis
thest
rongguidelooki
ngaf t
erus.

I
tthunder
s.

Phi
ndi
le:Seel
ett
hisgo

Il
augh.
[
06/
06,
10:
37] :55

Phi
ndi
le
Jameswasseemi nglynaggingmetodayhedi
dn't
wanttol
eavemysi de.Whereverit
urnedhewas
ther
ethi
sisri
dicul
ousnothingisgoingt
ohappento
me.
Me:I
sther
esomet
hingyouwantt
osayJames
James:Noiam j
ustdoi
ngmyj
ob
Me:Yourj
obi
sunder
ground

Thenigetavisi
onofmanat t
acki
ngthepenthouse.
Hegivesmeaquest i
onabl
elookwhyisthi
s
happeni
ngtoday,Mzwakhecomesdownheki sses
mycheek.

Mzwakhe:Youokay.
.Phi
ndi
le
Me:Mmm yeahiam okay.
.Iam okayandyouif
eel
l
ikesomet
hingbadi
sgoingtohappen
Mzwakhe:Doweneedt
opr
epar
eour
sel
ves
Me:Idon'
tknowbutsomet
hingj
ustdoesn'
tfeel
r
ight

I
tisnott
her
obber
yiam wor
ri
edabouti
tist
he
acci
dentisawhi
m get
ti
ngi
nto.

Andi
leMsomi
Iam notsureicantr
ustJamesanymore.Ial
ways
gott
ot esthi
m, mypati
encei
srunni
ngverythi
n.I
needthosebhengu'
soutofmysightforgood.

Me:Sohesai
dinhi
sbedr
oom
Sabel
o:Thedoubl
edoorr
oom,hewi
llj
am t
he
syst
em andcutt
hecameras
Me:Ar
ether
eanycasual
ti
es
Sabel
o:HimselfSakhi
leandMzwakhearetheonl
y
onesthathaveaccesstosecr
etmoneyst
ash
Me:Yousur
e
Sabel
o:Ifiknewhekeptcashther
eiwouldhave
l
ongtakenit,i
tsver
yeasygaini
ngexcesswhenyou
i
nside
Ical
lJames.

James:Sur
e
Me:Youbet
ternotf
uckt
hisupt
her
eisal
otatat
st
ake
James:Doyourwor
stidon'
tcar
e

Makemeunder
standhowpeoplesuddenlyhaveso
muchbal
lst
onotfearme.Idon'
tunder
stand.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam af
raidofaski
ngwhatisthebeefbet
weenthe
Bhengu'sandtheMsomi's,
peopl
ecannothate
eachotherli
kethi
s.Iwaspeacef
ull
ymindingmy
owneatingmymeat .

Li
nda:Mommycel
aukubuzayi
ndabuhl
eziudl
a
i
nyama
Me:Mengakut
shel
alokhokuyomel
engi
kubul
ale
Mzwakhe:Li
ndaniawuhl
ukanenemama

Ieatalotofmeatbecausewel
liam asnake,
ican'
t
eathumanssureashellwon'
teatani
mals.Buti
can'
ttel
lthem t
hatt
hough.

Mzwakhe:Uzi
shayanganinamhl
anj
e
Me:It
hinkiwi
llbei
nbedthewholedaysl
eepi
ng,
hal
fofthet
imeiam sl
eepi
nganyways
Mzwakhe:Mor
eli
keever
yti
me
Me:Exact
ly
Mzwakhe:Doyouwi
shgoi
ngbackt
oyourol
djob
Me:Idon'
tbutever
yti
meispeakaboutwor
k..
.Wee
kudumaikhanda

Nonhl
ecal
lsme.
Me:Mayipl
easet
aket
hisphonecal
l.
.Heypr
ett
y
l
ady
Nonhl
e:Justchecki
ngnj
eukut
huyaphi
la
Me:Howwhenyounotar
ound
Nonhl
e:Babyt
reat
ingyouwel
l
Me:Iam st
ucki
nthi
sloonybeanf
oral
it
tl
ewhi
le

Wel
augh.

Me:Ihavetogobef
oremom get
sherpar
anoi
aand
cal
lMxoli
siandr
antaboutmebei
ngabadchi
ld
Nonhl
e:Umdal
aanywaysigot
tago
Me:Wantt
ogoout
Nonhl
e:Someot
hert
ime
Me:Okaymyl
ovebye.
.Wantt
ogoout

Hel
aughsever
yti
meit r
ytodosomethi
ngromanti
c
f
orhi
m hedoesn'
tpi
tchupandthati
sahugered
f
lag.

Mzwakhe
Ineedt omakemysel funderstandnowihavea
gi
rlf
riendandsheisgoi ngtodot hi
ngsthatiam not
used.Shei ssohappyiam outandaboutwi thher
butthisnoguys,don'tt
heyt eachcashi
erstobefast
oropenupmor eti
ll
s.Iam toohandsomet obeseen
i
npubl icl
ikethi
s.

Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
ry
Me:Ayayhawu

Shesmi
les.

Me:Yougotever
ythi
ng
Phi
ndi
le:Yes
Me:Wher
etonow
Shesmi lesiam notsit
ti
nginanotherstore.I
receiveamessage" Iseeyou"di
dn'tiblockthis
girl
'
snumber ,idel
etethemessagesshecanseeme
walkingwithmywoman.Igi veheraki ssont he
cheek.

Phi
ndi
le:AhhThankyou

Myhear
tmel
ts.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhebei ngallbooedupiam kindoflonel
ybut
idarenottellhimthatsowedeci dedwewer egoi
ng
togoclubbingi t
sbeenawhi le.Cl
ubcocohas
missedit
sr esidentsandbiggestspender
s.Wewer e
inLi
ndani'
shouse.

Me:Usabaniukuhl
alal
awedwamuhl
ekabiumuzi
wakho
Li
nda:Ngi
hlal
anoThobanif
ini
shandkl
aar

Wel
augh.

Li
nda:Fut
hkeonceiset
tl
edowniwon'
tneedt
oli
ve
wi
thhim
Thobani
:Vel
enamiangi
thandiukuhl
alanawe

Mzwakhecal
lshi
m can'
thegett
hepi
ctur
eiam
i
gnor
inghi
m.

Me:What
Mzwakhe:Gi
veThobanit
hephone
Me:Hewant
stot
alkt
oyou
Thobani
:Skhul
uayi
buzwaphel
aleyookaysho
Me:Youhappynow
Mzwakhe:Boybyedon'
tactl
ikeyoudon'
tmi
ssme
Me:Mommyr
ubbi
ngofonyou
Mzwakhe:Ican'
tshej
ustbr
ingsoutt
hebesti
nme
Me:Awuzweke
Mzwakhe:Anddon'
tswi
tchofyourphone
Me:Okaydaddy

Phi
ndi
le
Todaywasawesomeigotallhi
sundi
vided
at
tent
ionandhewasmor et
hanhappytogivei
tto
me.WeenterandthemooddropsJameshasbeen
l
ongwaiti
ngforustocomeback.

James:Myshi
fti
sovernow
Mzwakhe:Hambakhehl
andi
ni
Me:Okayst
opi
tJamespl
easest
ay
James:No
Me:James
James:Noma'
am
Mzwakhe:James
James:I
skhat
hisamisesi
phel
il
egoodbye

Heent
erst
hel
if
ticanonl
ypr
ayhel
eaves.

Mzwakhe:Doineedt
ochaseaf
terhi
m
Me:Idi
dwhatihadt
odo

Ihopeiwi
llgett
hemoneybackbecauset
hati
sal
ot
ofmoney.

Mzwakhe
Afteragreatdaysomet hi
nginmejustdidn'
twant
tosleep.Ist
areatherbigasssheisfastasleep,
do
iwakeherupwi t
hthedickargh.Whatthehecklet
mej ustgodr i
nkwaterassoonasiopent hedoori
feelsomethingonmyback.
Voi
ce:Don'
tmove

Ihi
thi
m wit
hanuppercutgr
abbinghi
sguntwo
moreguyspoi
ntgunsatPhi
ndil
e,heext
endshi
s
hand.

Guy1:Wegonnashoothert
hesecondyoupul
lthe
t
ri
gger
Guy2:Suchani
ceassyouwoul
dn'
tmi
ndi
fwe
someri
ght
Me:I
fyout
ouchheriwi
llki
llyou
Guy1:Yetwet
heoneswi
thgunsnowhandover
t
hegun
Voi
ce:Youi
n
Guy2:Yeahweinbrohegotani
cebit
chnextto
hi
m.Chocolat
eski
niam get
ti
ngtur
nedonjustby
l
ooki
ngather
Guy1:Hol
dthi
s
Het akesoutapocketkni
feandcutsthroughmy
carpet,yougott
atobekiddi
ngmePhi ndilemoves.
Shedi dsaysomethi
ngbadwasgoi ngtohappen, i
should'vel
ist
enedandtooknecessar
ypr ecaut
ions.

Guy3:Don'
tmove

Howt
hef
ucki
sthi
shappeni
ng.

Guy1:Howdoweopent
his
Me:Idon'
tknowyout
heonewhof
oundi
t
Guy1:Hmm okay

HegrabsPhi
ndil
eshescreamsit
rytodo
somethi
ng,
theyhitmebythel
egsigodown.

Man1:Howdoiopen
Phi
ndi
le:What
sgoi
ngon

Shescr
eams.

Me:Heywat
chi
t
Man2:Youaski
ngt
womanyquest
ions

Hefir
esthelockbingoican'
tevenlookathershei
s
nakedandthanstartshert
hings.

Guy1:Gett
hebagsudl
iwayi
nil
o
Phi
ndi
le:Wa.
.Wat
erpl
easei
c..Ican'
tbr
eat
he

Theygrabthebagswit
hnocareint
heworld,
wher
e
thefuckar
ethesepeopl
etheal
armlongr
angon
thei
rphones.

Guy1:Wel
eavi
ngnowbutnotwi
thoutget
ti
nga
t
ast
eoft
his

Hedr
agsherki
cki
ngandscr
eami
ng.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
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10:
38] :56

Sakhi
le
Wearr
iveatthepenthouseanditdeni
edusaccess.
Wehadtogoar oundthebuil
dingandcli
mb,we
al
mostther
eandicanhearherscr eamsFuck.

Voi
ce:I
fyoucoul
djustr
elax

wef
inal
lyr
eacht
het
opagungoesoft
hreet
imes.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
She'
scr
yinghyst
eri
cal
lynaked.

That
o:Her
e
Mzwakhe:Whatt
hehel
ltookyouguyssol
ong
Me:Wecoul
dn'
tgeti
n

Ntandocomesdownwithablanket
,Mzwakhe
wrapsitar
oundPhi
ndi
le.Iseet
earsinhi
seyest
his
i
smessedup.

That
o:Hel
lo.
.Whathowokaynoweokayokay
shar
p
Me:What
That
o:Jameshasbeenr
ushedt
othehospi
tali
ts
notl
ooki
nggood

Phi
ndi
leget
supMzwakhef
oll
owsher
.
Me:"
Senzocomei
n..Senzo"
Senzo:"
Yeahyeahwhati
sgoi
ngonkwakhal
a
i
alar
m"
Me:"
Mzwakhe'
sbeenat
tackedcheckt
hecamer
as"
Senzo:"
EySkhul
uakhof
okoll
ahai
boever
ythi
ng
hasbeener
ased"
Mzwakhe:Theyt
ookt
hemoney
Me:Whathow
Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokwazel
aphhewasn'
tdoi
ng
anyt
hingwhenyoushothi
m
That
o:No
Mzwakhe:Doyounotl
ikewor
kingwi
thme
Me:Mzwakhewebeent
hrought
his
Mzwakhe:Andyoufai
ledhowthef
uckdobi t
ches
ent
ermyhouse,tr
iedt
or apemygi
rlandknow
whereist
ashmymoney
Hechuckl
es.

Mzwakhe:Youmysel
far
etheonl
yoneswhoabout
t
his
Me:Idon'
tknowMzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Aykulungi
lebaf
ethuqhubekani
,
qhubekanini
hambanodwamanj e.
.Qhubekani

Hegoesupst
air
s.I
tisgoi
ngt
obeal
ongni
ght
..
..

Mzwakhe
Idi
dn'tsleepawi nkPhindil
ealmostgotrapedi
f
That
oshowedupami nutelat
erohman.Met al
king
andthreateni
ngthem clearl
ydidn'tmovethem,
somebodyont heinsi
deisoutt odest
royme.

Sheturnsar
oundlayi
ngonmychestandget sa
fr
ight
,shecover
sherfacesi
ghi
ng.Ilaysi
deways
andputmylegoverhers,
icanhearandfeelher
hear
tbeat
ingsof
ast
.

Iholdherti
ght
lybr
ushingherbacksheist
aki
ng
thi
sbettert
haniam,butifshebr
eaksit
sover
.

Andi
le
Iam sur
roundedbyi
diot
sandi
ncompet
entusel
ess
humanbeings.

Me:Whatt
hef
uckSabel
o
Sabel
o:If
orgott
hatt
hinghadanal
arm
Me:Youwer etobusycompli
menti
ngbigboot
ies
andyouforgotthemissi
onahh,
iwishican
assassi
nat
eyouruselessass
Sabel
o:Andi
le
Me:Shutup

Okayt
hinkAndi
let
hinkyeahcal
lJames,
ilookat
hi
m.

Me:Youruglyasst
amperedwi t
hthebreaksand
t
hatfooli
slayi
nginhospi
talican'
tgetanyt
hing

Ifli
pthet
abl
einf r
ustr
ati
ont hosecopscameoutof
nowhereandtookeveryt
hing.Ishoul
dhavewait
ed
ti
llwehadeveryt
hingi
nourhandsandt hangotri
d
ofJames.

Me:Yougobacki
nther
eandl
etmeknowwhatt
hey
sayi
ng

Iwon'
tst
opunti
lthatmonkeyi
sgoneandoutofmy
si
ghtf
orgood.

Me:Whyar
eyoust
il
lher
e
Sometimesi
fyouwantsomet
hingdone,
yougott
o
doityour
sel
f.

Phi
ndi
le
Thingsgotabi thecti
ciknowtheseancestors
woul dn'tl
etanyt
hinghappentomebutt hatwasnot
nice.Mzwakhei sangryhedidn'
tsl
eepatal lthi
s
angeri snotgoodforhim,Jamesishospitali
zedi
toldhim nottogothechosetonotli
sten.

Iheaddownstai
rsandalloft
hem areherewel
lnot
al
l.Theymakewayf ormeisitandsnugglehe
ki
ssesmyforehead.

Mzwakhe:UwuvulelomlomowakhoPhi
ndi
le
ngi
zokusakazangenzi
maimpamale

Ikeepqui
et.
Mzwakhe:Thesearemybr
other
stheynot
i
mport
antrightnow
Thabi
so:Excusemewedomat t
erhawungabe
asi
kholaumakotiwet
hukanj
an

Finall
yigett
oseethemani
nmyheadhest ands
behindtheonewhogavemeabl
anketyest
erday,
theyalll
ookli
kehi
m.

Hi
m:"
Iwasahandsomemanbacki
nthedays"
Me:Iseet
heyal
llookl
ikeyouandt
hemi
ll
iondol
lar
l
eftdi
mple
Hi
m:"
Andt
hat
'showal
loft
hem ar
eher
e..Hmm"
Me:Wher
ear
ethebags
Hi
m:"
Nhl
akani
phohast
hem hei
sapol
iceman"
Me:Yougavet
hebagst
oacop
Him:"Hei
smysonul
amal
emf
eneeseduze
kwakho"
IlookatMzwakhethanbackathim andheisgone.
Igetupiam hungr
y,ihopetheydi
dn'tst
ealt
he
food.

Mzwakhe:Wher
eismymoneyPhi
ndi
le
Me:Nhl
akani
phohasi
t

Mzwakhe
Nhl
aka:Bhut
iomdal
a
Me:Thosebagsiwantt
hem back
Nhl
aka:Hel
lot
oyout
oiam f
abul
oust
hankyou
Me:Shutupbri
ngthosebagsbackNhl
akani
phoori
am comi
ngtheregunsbl
azing
Nhl
aka:Whatbags
Me:Kunemal
iwenamanshi
di
Nhl
aka:Eyakhoi
funaniphokuAndi
le
Me:Br
ingmymoneyandst
opt
alki
ngnonsense
Nhl
aka:Mzwakhe
Me:Idon'
tcar
ewhatyoudoiwantmymoney

IhungupAndi
lewhati
swr
ongwi
tht
hatguyhmm.

Me:Mama
Phi
ndi
le:Weee

Il
augh.

Me:Twohour
stops
Phi
ndi
le:Don'
tmakepr
omi
sesyoucan'
tkeep
Me:Babe
Phi
ndi
le:Whatam igoi
ngt
odowi
thmysel
f
Me:Iwi
llbr
ingyoumeat
Phi
ndi
le:Hee
Il
augh.

Me:Iwi
llbebackipr
omi
seyou
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10:
38] :57

Sakhi
le
Wedefi
nitel
yhavearatandit
sstinking.James,
Mzwakheandiaretheonlyoneswhoknowabout
t
hesecretmoneystash,
howdi dallofthi
shappen.

Me:I
dladl
alabanil
eli
Thobani
:El
amommy
Me:Ni
cewhyweher
e
Mzwakhe:Youneedt ogofet
chthebagsfr
om
Nhlakani
pho,secondfi
ndoutwhyisAndi
leaf
termy
assliket
his
Me:Isi
buyi
lel
eyonj
adi
dyougobackhome
yest
erday
Mzwakhe:Yesno

Wel
augh.

Me:UzokushayauPhi
ndi
le
Mzwakhe:Whyyout
hinkiam her
e
Me:Aydon'
tinvol
vemei
nyourwi
ckednessl
etsgo

Nhlakani
phoicallhi
m ont hewayout ,
het el
lsme
wecanmeeti nthemount ains.Iwonderwhat
Andil
ewantsnowst i
llangryaboutprojectcupcake.

Mzwakhe
Sheistaki
ngthisbett
ert
haniam icouldn'
tcome
home,ithoughtabouthi
tt
ingi
tbutthatwouldhave
beensoinsensit
iveofme.

Me:Youdon'
thavet
ost
rongcr
yifyouwant
.Shout
scr
eam atmegoahead
Phi
ndi
le:Whatdi
ff
erencei
sthatgoi
ngt
omake
Me:AngaziPhi
ndi
leangazi
Phi
ndi
le:I
fibr
eakyouar
egoi
ngonar
ampage
Me:Nconol okhonokut
hwenzeengat
h
akwenzekangalut
h..ChaPhi
ndi
lemusa
ukungi
bamba

It
ryget
ti
ngherof
fmei
tsnotwor
king.

Phi
ndi
le:Iknowiknow
Me:Howcanyoubecoolwi
tht
his
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhebabyl
ist
ent
ome
Me:NoPhi
ndi
leno
Phindi
le:Wegotbiggerthingst
oworryaboutbut
yesitdoesn'
ttakeawayf r
om whatiam f
eeli
ng,iam
probablygoi
ngt obescaredkuzodl
ula
Me:Rat
hert
hatt
hanyoursi
lencedon'
tdot
hist
o
mePhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:I
tsokayiam okay

Sakhi
le
Aft
ergetti
ngthebagswepassedbyt he
chi
sanyamat obuymommysomemeat ,
than
headedbacktothepent
house.Youcanf eelt
he
connect
iontheset
wohaveitsgreat
erthananythi
ng.

Hecomesdownt oplesswecheerhi
m onandmake
thel
oudestnoi
seenoughtoannoymommy, he
smil
esandshakeshishead.

Mzwakhe:Ni
funauPhi
ndi
leani
shaye
Li
nda:Uyi
nxenyeyet
hukuzomel
eakwamukel
e
l
okho
Me:Asi
yindawo
Li
nda:Si
mphat
hel
einyamaf
uth
Wel
augh.

Me:Wegotthebagsandanot
hert
hingyoubi
tch
whyi
sthi
sjustl
ayingar
ound
Mzwakhe:Bengazikuzokwenzekai
ntoenj
e
Me:I
fthi
sphonel
andsont
hewr
onghandsi
tsover
f
orus
Mzwakhe:Yawel
lSakhi
lei
thappened
Me:Ukut
hnaweubajwayezekakhul
ubacabanga
ukut
hbengadal
anomayini

Knowinghi
m hewilli
gnor
ethisthanonce
ever
yone'
sguardisdownhewi l
lstr
ike,
idonot
wanttobearoundwhenthathappens.

Phi
ndi
le
Isneakedoutofbediwassohungr
yimakemysel
f
asmoot hi
e.Iknowtheyal lwonderi
ngwhyam i
beingsost rong,i
fibreakalloft
hem aregoingto
causeunnecessar yproblemsidon'tneed.Iam not
builtli
kethatallmyli
feihadt obestrongandnot
breakorshowweakness, f
ormet oacceptthi
sgifti
hadt obet est
edmymi nd,bodyandsoulhadt obe
tested.Iguessiwasbei ngpreparedforsi
tuat
ions
l
iket hi
s.

Hewrapshisst
rongarmsar
oundme,
andpr
esses
meagainstt
hecount
er.

Mzwakhe:Pl
easedon'
teverdot
hatagai
n
Me:Iam sor
ryigotal
it
tl
ehungr
y
Mzwakhe:Youcandot
hatoncemyeyesl
ayonyou

Het urnsmear oundbendi

ngmeover,
hecaressmy
thighsslowl
ylift
ingupmysil
kni
ghtdresshe
plungesinwithoutwarni
ng.
Me:Aaaah
Mzwakhe:I
'
m sor
ry

Sakhi
le
WewasonSkypewi ththewholecr
ewwhi l
epand
Mzwakhewerebangingeachother
.Ineedtol
et
t
hem knowontherecentdevel
opments.

Ndu:Skhul
u
Li
nda:Sengi
lambi
leyazi
Me:Li
ndaniawukahl
e

Wel
augh.

Me:Okaysowegott
hemoneybackandCar
son
hast
akenit
Thobani
:Nowdon'
texpectt
obepai
d
Sabel
o:Whathappenedexact
ly
Me:Thepenthousewasat
tackedt
hesebastar
ds
tr
iedt
opullafastoneonmommy,Thatobroifyou
hadn'
tshowedup
That
o:Wel
lanyt
hingf
ormydar
kbeaut
if
ulpat
ient
Mzwakhe:WeeThat
o

Hewal
ksi
nLi
ndanir
unsoutMzwakhechasesaf
ter
hi
m.

Li
nda:"
Mzwakheawukahl
e..Mzwakhe"

Wel
augh.

Me:Okaysoidon'
tknowwhathappenedt
heyj
ust
knewhowtogetinandhackoursyst
ems
Ndu:Wher
ewasJamesi
nal
loft
his
Me:Jameslef
thei
sst
il
lint
hehospi
talandt
oease
yourhear
tNdumi
sowewatchi
ngme
That
o:Basi
call
yumfethumengadl
ulanga
ngal
aphayangabesi
culaamagugu

Theycomeback.

Mzwakhe:SeeNdumi
sot
heguyi
snotat
hreat
Ndu:Youallf
ool
sandiam goi
ngt
obel
aughi
ngat
yourasses
Me:Ndumi
soKheswai
yekel
eway

Heshowsusthemi
ddl
efi
ngerandt
urnsofhi
s
scr
eenahh.
[
06/
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10:
38] :58

Mzwakhe
Youknowwhenyoujustf
indyourhappyplaceand
not
hingcanmat
chthatamazingfeel
ingintheworld.
Iam havi
ngmybestt
imewiththi
sgirlandifucki
ng
l
ovei
t.

Phi
ndi
le:Myboneswi
llendupcr
acki
ng
Me:It
houghtyouwoul
dbesl
eepi
ngconsi
der
ing
Phi
ndi
le:Honeyicangoonf
ordays
Me:Ushonj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Whoamanaphel
a
Me:Awangi
thut
he

Shegi
ggl
es.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhest
opMzwakhe

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Hel
lohmm ayangenzilut
hongiyabuya
vel
ebazobastr
ong.
.Aymangi yabuyaokaybye.
Wow
Me:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Phi
ndi
le:Justt
heboyswant
ingt
ocomeher
e
Me:Real
ly
Phi
ndi
le:Nothappeni
ng
Me:Awmama
Phi
ndil
e:Letmegoandiwi
llcomebackon
Wednesday
Me:Mxm kul
ungi
leamasont
oamabi
linama
weekend
Phi
ndi
le:Done

Shej
umpsovert
hecouchandr
unsaway.

Phi
ndi
le:Il
oveyou
Me:Il
oveyout
oobi
tch
Shel
aughsigotsomewor
ktodoanyways.

James
Itr
ytoopenmyeyest heyfeelheavyashell.It
ryt
o
speakidon'
thavetheener
gysomebodygett hi
s
thi
ngoutofmyf ace.Mybodyhur t
sfeel
slikeaton
ofbri
cksfel
lontopofme,ican'tmoveat hing.

Voi
ce:Ther
ewego

Icanbr
eat
heagai
n.

Phamandla:Hel
loJames.
.Ahahrel
axyoui
nthe
hospi
tal
,youwereinanacci
dent

IthanrememberPhindi
le'swordsstay,don'tgo.
Andil
eisajer
kmycarhadnobr eaksicouldn'tsl
ow
down,nextt
hingicamei ncontactwit
hapot hole
andboom mycarwentf lyingi
nt het
ree.
Phamandl
a:Your
ememberwhoyouar
e

Inod.

Phamandl
a:Youknowwhoiam.
.Okaybhut
ihei
s
awake

Hewavesthi
sannoyi
ngfl
ashinmyeyes,
igat
her
thel
it
tl
ebi
tofst
rengt
hihaveandpushhi
shand
away.

Phamandla:Youver yl
uckyZamanif
oundyou,
had
i
tbeenami nutelatert
hecarwoul
dhavegoneupi
n
fl
ames,ohwat erri
ght

Hepour
sthewat
eri
nthegl
assandi
nser
tast
rawi
n.
Phamandl
a:Ayi
nkul
uindabakul
imal
anawe.
.Ref
il
l

IshakemyheadiseePhi ndil
e,isupposeiam t
he
onlyonewhocanseeher .Icl
osemyeyesj ustki
ll
meal r
eadyican'
ttaket
hisanymor e.

Phi
ndi
le
Homesweethome

Me:Heybedhowar
eyouimi
ssedyousomuch

Mynaught
yrascal
sruni
nther
oom.

Mvel
o:Aunt
ie
Me:Ni
njanbeni
ziphet
hekahl
e
Mvel
o:Uzosi
landa
Me:Chamkhul
usohambaMondaysi
hlal
eisont
o
l
onke
Mvel
o:Ngempel
a
Me:Ngempel
ast
handwasam

Theyrunofiam sohappytobehomebutt
hani
misshim now,
letmecallhi
m.

Me:Voi
cemai
lar
gh
Ma:Sal
eusungi
nekel
aiwashi
ngi

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe
It
rustmygir
lf
ri
endshewon'
tbet
raymeunl
essi
messupthanshewil
lhi
tmeandburnmeali
ve.

Me:Yousai
dhewasawake
Phamandl
a:Themedicat
ionmusthavedrugged
hi
m,hehasn'
tful
lyr
ecoveredweveryl
uckyhe
sur
vived
Me:Ar
ethei
rfat
ali
ti
es
Phamandla:Afewbr
okenbones,l
ostal
otofbl
ood
howeverwearedoi
ngthor
oughtesti
ngj
usttomake
sur
e
Me:Hashespoken
Phamandla:Nohecommuni cat
eswi
thhi
seyes
thoughear
li
eroni
tlookedl
ikehewasseei
nga
ghost
Me:James

Hegaspwaki
ngup.

Phamandl
a:Mzwakhengi
zokuxhoshayezwa
Me:HiJamescanyoutel
lmewhodidt
hist
oyou
andiki
llhi
m.Nobodymesseswi
thmel
iket
hatand
get
sawaywi t
hit
Phamandl
a:Thi
sist
hel
ookhehad
Il
ookbackwhatishestari
ngat.Iam goi
ngtohur t
Andi
lesobadhehasf or
gott
enwhoiam.Het hinks
myguar di
sdownandhecancomeatmei nall
angl
es,iwasn'
tscaredt
hanandiam notscared
now.Ifhet
hinkstaki
ngmedownwi llmakehim
somepowerhousehegotanotherthingcoming.

Phi
ndi
le
IfbeingwithMzwakhemeansidon' thavet obe
troubledli
kethi
siwillt
akeit,aft
erhangi ngthe
washedcl osedonthelinetheyattacked.Ikeep
runningaroundthehospitalcantheyl eaveJames
alone.Hei sagrownmanandcanmakehi sown
decisionsifhewantstocontinuebetrayingtheboys
that'
sonhi m,andthereisathingcalledkar ma
she'smybestf ri
end.

Myphoner
ingssomewher
e.
Mvel
o:Aunt
ie
Me:I
phendul
e
Mvel
o:Ukhonayebo

Heshovest
hephoneonmyear
.

Me:Hel
lo

Hescr
eamsandshout
sinmyearismi
le.

Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Wazewangi
lal
eli
sai
ri
ngt
one
Me:Ngi
yaxol
isast
handwasam
Nonhl
e:Sani
bonaweesi
siul
alel
aniphansikuma
t
il
es
Mzwakhe:Ohayiwasj
ustchecki
ngonyou
Me:Thankyou
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Angi
lel
engi
khul
umanoMzwakhe
Nonhle:Youtal
kinghal
fasl
eepweeayat
hi
ngaphazamisi
Me:Baby
Mzwakhe:Utshel
elawomadlozingizowashaya
usuyaj
olamanjeengal
okot
hiengijwayelekabi
Me:Si
yakuzwaNgcol
osiihavet
ogonowil
oveyou
Mzwakhe:Il
oveyout
oo

Mzwakhe
Iwantedt
oseeifeveryoneforgottheysawherand
todi
scussthewayforward.Ican'tkeephavingan
l
oseendsandenemi esthi
nkingiam perishabl
e.

Senzo:Ngi
yaqal
aukukbonauj
abul
ekanj
e
Me:Kuyangi
fanel
a
Senzo:Skhul
u
Mel
usi
:Ubanivel
eloyongi
yahal
elaukumbona
Me:(Si
ngi
ng)ngi
shoungakhal
aubizeumal
ume
ubi
zeumamakhongekenimbonalongekeni
mbone

Theyl
augh.

Me:Okayyal
lcangonow
Melusi
:Wehavejobsandl
ivesyouknowout
sideof
t
hisdon'tdot
hat

Onlyt
heonesagai
nstmewoul dhaveaprobl
em
wit
hmekicki
ngeveryoneout.Myguyst
heynoiam
cr
azyandpaynoattent
iontome.
[
06/
06,
10:
38] :59

Nonhl
e
Aweekawayfr
om Samkel
oandtheMsomi '
sist
he
cher
ryont
op,
idon'
thavet
oli
stentoAndi
le'
s
whi
ning,
idon'
thavetoworr
yaboutmysaf
etyor
whenSamkeloi
sgoingtocheatonme.

Mvel
o:Ut
heaunt
iesohambasi
yekamal
ume

MalumeisMzwakhehehasal ovi
ngandcari
ng
si
deunderneat
hal
lthescar
inessheposes.

Me:Ngempel
a
Mvel
o:Uzobeukhonanawe
Me:Ngi
yasebenzami
naMvel
o

Hel
ooksdi
sappoi
nted.

Me:Kodwangi
zokhul
umanoaunt
ie
Mvel
o:Yaay
Shewakesupcoughi
ng.

Me:Awuyavukai
nkosazane
Phi
ndi
le:Youri
nagoodmood

Ismi
le.

Me:Youhungr
y
Phi
ndi
le:HasMzwakhecal
led

Shegr
absherphonewowokaynoiam j
oki
ng.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhe'
sphonedist
urbsushesmi
les,
thegent
s
l
ookateachot
her.

Mzwakhe:Mommy
Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Changi
hlezinj
eawkodwaokaymommy
bye
Senzo:Hai
boSakhi
leubanil
ohl
anyi
sauskhul
u
kanj
e
Me:Angazinam
Ndu:Obvi
ousl
yyouknowyouhi
sbestf
ri
end
Mzwakhe:WhatdoesSakhi
leknow

Heshowsmeapi
ctur
eofPhi
ndi
lehesmi
les.

Mzwakhe:Al
lmi
ne
Me:Eyakhonj
ayam
Mzwakhe:Mfet
huyazini
nesdi
nat
hinasi
yazazi
i
yint
ombizenu
Thobani
:Washa
Mzwakhe:Si
yazaziyi
ninani
ngazongi
phaphel
a
mxm f
uckindabayenu

Hest
ormsof
.

Me:Mzwakhemanj
euyaphini
yabonake
Ndu:Sukauseyombhebha

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
It
sli
kewereadeachot
her
'smi
nds.Hef
etchedme
andweendedupnakedonmybed.

Mzwakhe:Damnimi
ssedyou
Me:Youl
eftyourboys
Mzwakhe:Kadesihl
eli
kamnandisi
ziphuzel
aangazi
bahl
anganaphinawe
Me:Dr
inki
ngsoear
ly
Mzwakhe:Theywer
edr
inki
ngnotme
Me:Wellil
eftNonhl
eandtheboysal
onesoa
qui
cki
enyanaoryout akemebackhome
Mzwakhe:Iwantyoubacki
nthepent
housef
igur
e
outwhatyougoi
ngtodo

Heheadstothebat
hroom ouragr
eementwas
Wednesdaywhyisheacti
ngliket
hisnow.

Mzwakhe
Thereasonwhyiwantheraroundtheygoi
ngt
o
keeppester
ingme.Iam onl
ylet
ti
nghermeetmy
famil
ynotthecrew.

Sakhi
le:Ahmf
ethuwemeet
ingt
hegi
rl
fr
iend
Me:Ican'
teven
Sakhi
le:Maybet
heywi
llbackofoncet
heyknowher
Me:Thesecl
ownsidon'
tknowshei
scomi
ngwi
th
Nonhl
eandtheboys
Sakhi
le:Don'
twor
ryabouti
twegoi
ngt
owor
kitout
Me:Justmyfamil
yidon'twantthecr
ewknowing
herobvi
ousl
yThobaniandLindaniwi
llshowt
hei
r
ugl
yassidon'tmi
nd.
Sakhi
le:Heyt
akeyourt
imeboywei
nnor
ush
Me:Okayiwi
llmeetyoubackathomeshe'
sangr
y
atmeihavet
odropheroff

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e
Phindil
e:WeagreedonWednesdaynowheis
switchi
ngthi
ngsupheheiwantyoubackint
he
penthousefi
gur
eoutwhatyougoingtodo
Me:Sowegoi
ngbackt
othepent
house
Phi
ndi
le:Wegoi
ngbackt
othepent
house
Il
augh.

Me:Don'
twor
ryyougoi
ngt
obef
inehei
spr
obabl
y
t
esti
ngyou
Phi
ndi
le:Het
estwi
tht
hewr
ongone
Me:Gi
rlihavet
ogoigotanot
heri
ncomi
ngcal
l

Ihungupandanswerhi
scal
l
.

Me:Hey
Sam:Heyj
ustchecki
ngonyou
Me:Oht
hankyouiam f
ineandyou
Sam:Gr
eathowi
sever
yone
Me:Theygoodpwentt
obuysomemeatiam her
e
wi
ththeboys
Sam:Okayisentyousomet
hingsenj
oy
Me:Wow

Il
ikethathetryi
ngbutt hi
ngsdon'tchange
overni
ght.Hemi ghtbesweetSamkel onowlat
erhe
i
samonst ergunningformyblood.Letmegopack.
[
06/
06,
10:
38] :60

Mzwakhe
Mybabyiscomingiam bothner
vousandexcited
fort
omeetthem.Theyshalli
mpressherorel
sei
am goi
ngtokil
lever
yone.

Thabi
so:Fi
nal
lywegetapr
operi
ntr
oduct
ionwi
th
thi
syoungl
ady
Me:Pleasebehaveyoul
eadt
hepackyouneedt
o
r
epresent
Thabi
so:Iam mar
ri
edsor
elax
Ol
wet
hu:I
sther
eanyt
hingicando
Me:Wel
liwantyout
obutei
sh
Olwethu:Ohcomeonwhat
sthewor
stt
hatcan
happen
Sakhil
e:Haadoyouhaveanyi deawhathis
gir
lf
ri
endisli
ke,
that'
swhyhedoesn' teatanythi
ng
notprepar
edbyher.Ifshel
eavesshemakessur e
sheleavesmeal
sthatwecanj ustdefr
ost,heatup
andeat

Ismi l
eyesmybabydoesleavemewit
hmealssoi
don'thavet
osuf
ferordi
eofhungerwhenshe'
snot
around.

Nothando:Ohsot
hat
swhyyoudon'
twantmet
o
cook
Sakhi
le:Youcancookf
ormeangi
nanki
nga
Me:Okayl
ookj
ustt
ellt
hem t
heybet
ternotbe
comi
ngandgoi
ng
Sakhi
le:Nhl
akani
phocomi
ng
Me:Ar
ghl
etmecal
lhi
m andseei
fhecanmakei
t

Iam fr
eaki
ngoutOl
wet
huandNot
handost
art
prepar
ing.

Phi
ndi
le
Wewentoutf i
rstt
ogetoursel
vespamper edand
someshoppi ng.Mrsaidsomethingaboutthewayi
dress,canitgetanymorecontr
oll
ingthanthat
.He
i
st r
yingtochangeandunf or
tunatel
yican'tbethat
barbiedollhewants.

Nonhl
e:Wher
eisourr
ideyoudonewi
thever
ythi
ng
Me:Iam notsur
e
Nonhl
e:Whoi
sthatgwegwewal
kinghunk

LindanihesentLindanicouldn'
tThobaniorSakhi
le
fetchmesi nceJamesisst i
lli
nhospit
al.Hediesi
n
l
aught ericantel
lheisgoingtoannoymewi t
hout
event
ryi
ng.

Li
nda:Mommy

Iwal
kawayf
rom t
hem t
heyl
augh.

Li
nda:Hawusweet
hear
t
Nonhl
e:Comeboys

Whyam igett
ingli
kethi
snow.Thesecur
it
ysees
meandopenst hedoor,
igeti
nandwaitf
orthem
t
aki
ngtheirsweetti
me.

Mvel
o:Si
yakamal
umemanj
enomasi
yekhaya
Nonhl
e:I
sur
pri
se
Mvel
o:Ngi
yawat
handaamasur
pri
se
Doesheevenknowwhatasur
pri
sei
stheyl
augh.

Li
nda:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Nonhl
e:Let
sgoLi
ndani
Li
nda:Awmommy
Voi
ce:Yewenanj
a
Li
nda:Sakhi
leiam comi
ngbacknow
Sakhil
e:"
Ohyoubet
terbehaveMzwakhegoi
ngt
o
ki
llyou"
Li
nda:Atl
eastiwi
lldi
eahappyhappyman

Theyl
augh.

Me:Nonhl
e

Mzwakhe
Theyshoul
dbebackanymi
nut
enowt
heyt
went
y
minutesawayf rom t
hepenthouse.Speaki
ngoft
he
penthousei ti
ssmel l
ingdevi
neupi nhere,
my
brot
her sallofthem areher
e.Nhlakani
phosai
difhe
doesn'tcomei nanhour sti
me,hewi l
lmeetPhi
ndil
e
someot herti
me.

Sakhi
le:Rel
axbr
o
Me:Don'tt
ellmet
orel
axyoumeet
ingwi
thmy
gi
rl
fr
iend,t
hemostnot
ori
oushumanbei
ng

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Ndodacomedown

Thel
if
topenst
heyent
ert
heboysr
unt
ome.

Me:Heyt
her
eli
tt
lebuddi
es
Mvel
o:Wenotl
it
tl
eanymor
e
Me:Ahmaphaphi
yose

Sheheadsupstai
rsilookatLi
ndaninottoworr
yi
am goi
ngtotapthatasswhenallofthi
sisover
.

Sakhi
le:Li
ndani
Li
nda:Idi
dn'
tdoanyt
hing
Me:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:Heyiknow
Me:Don'
tworr
yherbaggagei
smi
nej
ustasmuch
asmybaggageisher
s
Nonhl
e:Baggageokay
Me:Youknowidi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
Nonhl
e:I
tsokay
Me:Wast
her
idef
ine
Nonhl
e:Youhershe'
sfi
ne
Mvel
o:Theevi
lspi
ri
tshaveent
eredherbody
Nonhl
e:Whot
oldyout
hat
Mvel
o:Dad
Nonhl
e:Comel
etsgodon'
tli
stent
oyourdaddy
Mvel
o:Buthesayswemust
Nonhl
e:Mvel
o

Ibeensayi
ngthi
sMxolisii
snotokayi
nthehead
whosaysthataboutt
heirsi
ster
.

Thobani
:Mxol
isikodwa

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwastot
all
youtofitidi
dn'
tknowwehadguest
s
coming,
whycouldn'thej
ustt
ellmet
hati
nst
eadof
goi
nglocoonme.
Mzwakhe:Ayuyenakel
obaf
ethu

Iam atmywor
standhedeci
dest
oint
roducemet
o
hisf
amily.

"
Baf
okwangat
hiakaj
abul
inj
eukusi
bona
Mzwakhe:I
yint
ozakhebaf
oehl
okhul
umayo
uNt
ando
Me:Youcoul
dn'
tsayyoui
ntr
oduci
ngmet
othe
f
amily
Mzwakhe:Kunenki
ngayi
ni
Me:Lookatmehowam isupposedt oknowwhatis
goingon.Doyouunder
standthatwheniwakeup
tomorr
owt her
eishi
ghpossibi
li
tyiwon'
tremember
whathappenedorwhotheyare,awesome

Il
eanbackandcl
osemyeyes.Hel
aughs.
Mzwakhe:Okaybabyiam sor r
yjustthattheykept
pressur
ingme.Ithoughtmaybeiftheyknewand
sawyou, t
heywouldgetoffmyback.St opstari
ng
atherandint
roduceyoursel
ves

Theyl
augh.

Me:I

Aspi
ri
tpassesbyi
getupcoughi
ng.

Mzwakhe
Okayididnotthinkthi
sthr
oughperhapsishoul
d
haveprepar
edher .Shehascol
lapsedandnot
respondi
ng,iknewt hi
swasami st
ake.

Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Iam notsur
ewhati
shappeni
ngl
etmet
ry
agai
nNono
Ayanda:Usaphi
lanj
elomunt
u
Me:Mama
Nonhl
e:WePhi
ndi
lewenaawuvuke

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Okayherbaggi
vemeherhandbag

Iqui
ckl
yrunupstair
sgrabt
hebagandheadback
down.Shet
akesoutsomewat erbot
tl
ethan
spri
nkl
esali
tt
lebitonherf
ace,shewakesup.

Me:Mama

Shei
sbr
eat
hingheavi
lyandcr
ying
Nonhl
e:OkayPhi
ndi
lecal
m downl
ookatmecal
m
downsisi
Li
nda:Maybeyoushoul
dtakeherupst
air
sbr
o
Me:Mamakwenzenj
anmanj
e
Nonhl
e:Takeherupst
air
s

Mzwakhewhatdi
dyoudo.

Nonhl
e
Iwishinewwhatt otel
lthem imysel
fiscompl
etel
y
l
ostandwor r
ied.Thelastthi
ngiwanttodoiscause
paniconthem,ibeli
eveeverythi
ngwil
lbefi
ne.

Sakhi
le:Ni
yabonaukuphaphakwenu
Ol
wet
hu:I
sever
ythi
ngokay
Me:Idon'
tknowshewi
llevent
ual
lycal
m downwe
j
ustneedtowait
Thabi
so:Uj
wayel
evel
eukwenzanj
enomai
thi
na
Me:Thebestwayicanexpl
aintheymaybecal
li
ng
herort
her
e'saspi
ri
tthatwantstoconnect
Ol
wet
hu:Maybeweshoul
djustgo
Mzwakhe:Nal
okhongayi
ceboel
ihl
e

Hesayswal
kingdownt
hest
air
s.

Thabi
so:Ungasi
dinel
waphel
anat
hibesi
ngazi
Me:Pl
easedon'tgoi
twi
llupsetherl
et'
swai
tokay
l
et'
swaityeah

Imysel
fam notconvi
ncedwej
usthavet
ohavet
o
wai
t.
[
06/
06,
10:
42] :61

Mzwakhe
Lastnightwasacomplet
edisaster.Il
it
eral
lysaw
mylifefl
ashbefor
emyeyes,allthetimesheact s
l
ikethismymi ndaut
omati
call
yt hi
nksokayt hisi
sit
sheisdying.Whydorel
ati
onshipshavet ot
hi shard,
especi
all
ywhenoneper
soni
sspi
ri
tualohGodgi
ve
mest r
ength.

It
urnovert
hebedisempty,iheaddownit
salr
eady
abrawli
nhere.Igr
abherbytheneckshescr
eams.

Me:Ngikutshel
ekangakiukut
hyi
bai
ntoyokuqal
a
engi
yibonayomengivukahuhPhi
ndi
le

Il
etgoofhershehi
tsme.

Phi
ndi
le:Uyasanganaekhanda
Me:Ngobaungaboniayi
bal
uleki
leyonkel
e
nonsenseoyenzayo
Phindi
le:Ngi
zokushayangempamawenaci
she
ngashonaizol
obewuzothinaahsuka

Ihugheri
twi
llt
akemeal
if
eti
met
otameher
Me:Okayiam sor r
yPhindi
lebutyoudon'tl
ist
en
howmuchbeggi ngdoineedtodokanti.
Asingaxabaningal
ent
oPhindil
engizoqheheka
ubchopho
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaxol
isa
Nonhl
e:Wowilikehi
m..
.Phindi
ledoesn'
tapol
ogi
ze
yousayfyoushesaysfyoutoo
Thabi
so:Ut
shwal
akodwaekusenikanj
e

Shel
ooksathi
mli
keexcuseyou.

Nonhl
e:Yeahiwoul
dn'
tevenl
etyousmasheveni
f
youhadallt
hemoneyi
ntheworld

Shegul
psherdr
inki
nhi
sface.

Me:Pl
easedon'
tdot
hat
Phi
ndi
le:Ican'
tpromi
seyouthatbutyoual
ways
moret
hanwel cometospankmyass

Don'
tmi
ndi
fido.

Phi
ndi
le
Iknowiembar rassedmysel fbecausetheygiving
met hesestr
angel ooks,whicharepier
cingthrough
mysoul .Aspir
itcamebyiwasal readyalloverthe
place,iwasmiserable,igotscar
edididn'tknow
whattodo.

Me:Ngi
thiuyabaphakel
a
Nonhl
e:Haiboamadodaamangakacabanganj
e
yi
milosengiguqel
aiyi
mbhodl
aezi
ngaka
Me:Bazokuphoxa
Nonhle:Weeobanilabashamebukaindl
ela
abangibukangayongathngi
li
thamboekumele
bal
icabe
Shesayst
hatl
ookingatAyandahelooksdown
bl
ushi
ngandlooksawaytheysmil
e.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
yabonga

Ihandhim aplate,
hepul
lsmyar
m andki
ssesmy
cheek.Igetbut
terf
li
esi
nmystomach.

Li
nda:Awkodwankosimmm

Thespi
ri
tappear
sagai
nandt
hist
imeicanseehi
m
cl
earasdayli
ght
.

Hi
m:"Foralongti
meiwant edtocommunicat
ewith
hi
m.Iwantedtohughim andtel
lhimi
tsokay,iam
al
waysherelooki
ngoutf
orhim"
Hechuckl
esandtoucheshim ont
heshoul
der
.
Sakhi
lel
ooksathi
sshoulder
.

Hi
m:"Nowyouher eiwantt
oensur
ehi
m myl
ove
f
orhi
m wil
lneverend"

Iseeahandwavi
ngt
hroughmyf
aceiqui
ckl
y
removei
tandhei
sgone.

Me:Whatyoudot
hatf
or
Mzwakhe:Okayyouar
eannoyi
ngmenowandi
don'
tli
kethat
Me:Iam sor
ryj
ustt
hatsomeonei
mpor
tantwas
her
eandnowhei sgone

ABambi
nocomest
omyt
hought
s.

Me:Bambi
no
Theyst
opeat
ingandl
ookatme.

Mzwakhe
Wealli
naweonepersonusedt ocallhimthat.Aft
er
hi
sdeathhemadeusswor etonevereverreferto
hi
m asBambino.Hi
sbrotherdi
edaver ypainful
deat
h,i
twasat r
aumati
cexperienceforhi
m.
Thabi
solooksatmeboylooktheotherway.

Sakhi
le:Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay
Me:Baf
o
Phindi
le:Pl
easej
ustcomebackandsaywhatyou
havetosay
Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
e

Shel
ooksathi
m andsi
tsdown.
Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
ryf
orsnappi
ngatyou
Me:Iwi
llf
orgi
veyoubecauseyoubeaut
if
ul
Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
engi
khul
umanawe
Phi
ndi
le:Ohsor
ryyes

Hechuckl
es.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
ubambai
cher
ryyakhongaze
kudal
ekeamanyala
Li
nda:Haa
Me:Youknowshe'
s
Sakhi
le:Voet
sekMzwakhegetyourgi
rl

Hewal ksawayiam nol

ongeri
ntr
oduci
nghert
o
anyone.

Sakhi
le
Smisousedt ocallmeBambinowhenhediedmy
l
if
ebecameani ghtmar
e.Idon'
twanttohat
e
Mzwakhe'sgir
lf
r i
endbutt
his,t
hisist
oomuchf
or
meandisbringingalotofemotions.

Phi
ndi
le:Youmadbecauseical
ledyouBambi
no
Me:Okayenoughst
op
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lej
ust
Me:Eyt hul
awenangi t
hekhuzaint
ombiyakho
kuzomoshakalakakhulu,
ngi
yakuncanywayezwa
grootungadal
iamaf l
op
Phi
ndi
le:Youknowtheyreadyandwai t
ingt
o
communicat
ewithyou,yourmotherandbrot
her

Ial
mostgrabbedherneckthat
showangr
yshei
s
makingandpissi
ngmeof .

Me:Getthi
sbit
choutofmyf
ace.
..Nowbef
oreipop
herbr
ainsout
Phi
ndi
le
Jamesbr oughtmeal otofheadachesandagony
andnowi tsSakhil
e.Thelongerhepr evai
lsthi
sthe
har
deritgetsforme, t
hispersonwillnotrestunt
il
hespeakst oSakhil
e.Mzwakheent ersiwasf ol
ding
hi
sclothes.

Me:Youdi
dn'
thavemybackoutt
her
e
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lei
smybrot
heriwi
llal
wayshave
hi
sback,wit
hregar
dst
otheBambinosit
uat
ion
Me:Youki
ll
edhi
m

Hesi
ghs.

Me:Youdon'
tneedtocli
ckt
hepennobodyi
sgoi
ng
t
ohearourconver
sati
on
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
leiwas
Phindi
le:Supposedtopr
otectmeyouwer e
supposedtopr ot
ectme,yousawhim al
mostand
thatsabigalmostwantt
ost r
angl
eme
Mzwakhe:Wedon'
tcal
lhi
mli
ket
hatanymor
ehe
Phi
ndi
le:Hei
sst
upi
dandact
ingl
ikeabi
tch
Mzwakhe:Eygadamawukhul
umaPhi
ndi
leangi
siye
umnganiwakho

It
akehi
sthi
ngsandputt
hem backont
heshel
ves.

Mzwakhe:Manj
euyaphingobasakhul
uma.
.
Phi
ndi
le

Il
eavetheyst
eelher
e,helooksdowncl
enchi
nghi
s
Jaws.Iheadt
otheli
ftineedtocl
earmymind.

Nonhl
e
Thi
sfami
lyi
ntr
oduci
ngwasadi
sast
erf
rom
yest
erdayandt
hingsj
ustwentl
eft
.Phi
ndi
lehasl
eft
Godknowswhereshewent.

Li
ndani
:Phel
awenamommyl
eli
gamal
il
etha
i
mizwaebuhl
ungukabi
Me:uPhi
ndi
leyenaal
imul
ethel
iiyi
nhl
ungust
op

Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Nonhl
ewher
eisyourf
ri
end
Me:Idon'
tknowyouki
cki
ngusout
Mzwakhe:Iam l
eavi
nghavef
undon'
twai
tup

Ifisomuchopenmybi gmouthhewi l
lletmehave
i
tinapainf
ulway.Thesepeoplearenotreadyf
or
her,hei
sdefi
nit
elynotr
eadyforher.

Thobani
:Uyi
shi
yani
nii
ndodayakho
Me:I
fyouknowwhat
sgoodf
oryou,
youar
egoi
ng
t
oshutup

Hegivesmet hemi ddl

efingerilaugh.Ayanda
st
aresatmeeat ingthi
speach, isti
ckmyt ongueout
ali
tt
lebitandtakeabit.Heshiftslooki
ngatthe
ot
herpersontheydi ei
nlaughter.
[
06/
06,
10:
42] :62

Fewdaysl
ater

Sakhi
le
Ididn'
tmeant osnaporcausepr obl
emsbetween
them.Ijustdon'twanttobecal
ledbambino
Phindi
leandNonhl earesti
ll
here.Mzwakhehasn'
t
beenbackf oraf ewdaysnow,probabl
ysmashing
someoner uini
ngagoodt hi
ng.

Me:Uhm mommy
Nonhl
e:Don'
tdot
hatunqabi
leanganukut
h
akhul
umenawe
Thobani:Cal
lMzwakhet
ellhi
mtomeetatt
he
warehouse
Thabi
so:NowSakhi
le

Wher
ethehel
lam igoi
ngt
ofi
ndhi
m.

James
Iwasslowlyr ecover
ingbutthesest
upi
ddoctor
s
won'
treleaseme.Mzwakhedayandni ghthasbeen
her
edoesn' thehaveagi r
lf
ri
endorishewatchi
ng
mewant ingtoseewhat '
sgoingon.

Me:Oht
hankGodpl
easegethi
m of
fmyl
eg

Hi
sbigheadwassoheavyonmylegididn'twantto
i
nter
rupthi
m,hecamei
ndrunkt
alki
nginriddles.
Phamandl
a:Mzwakhe

Heshoot
shi
sheadupr
ubbi
nghi
sneck.

Mzwakhe:Ouch
Phamandl
a:Howdi
dyousl
eep
Me:Okayconsi
der
ing
Mzwakhe:Youmustr
eal
lyhat
emewhywoul
dyou
l
etmesleepher
e
Me:Youwoul
dhaver
uinedagoodt
hingwi
tht
hat
l
ovel
ylady
Mzwakhe:Ican'
tbel
ievet
heymaki
ngmechoose
bet
weenthem

Whati
shet
alki
ngabout
.

Mzwakhe:Nobodycal
lshi
m bambi
noanymor
ehe
gotr
eal
lyangr
yandal
mostst
rangl
edher
Me:Sakhi
le
Phamandl
a:Your
espondi
ngver
ywel
li
nnot
ime
youcango
Me:Whathappened
Mzwakhe:Idon'tiguesssomeonef r
om t
heother
sideistr
yingt
ocommuni catewithSakhi
leshesai
d
thiscoolnameandeverythi
ngjustwentl
eft
Me:Iwoul
dki
llt
ohavecommuni
cat
ionwi
thmy
f
amily

Helooksatmeshi
thowam i
goi
ngt
ooutoft
his
one.

Mzwakhe:Nowt
heyput
ti
ngmei
nthemi
ddl
e
Me:Theydi
doryoudi
d
Mzwakhe:I
tdoesn'
tmat
ter
Wel
augh.

Phamandl
a:Whyyouscr
eami
ngnow
Me:St
ayoutofitSakhi
lelovest
hatgir
landyouare
goi
ngtor
uinit
,ifbambinowantstotal
khewillf
ind
awaytogethi
sat t
enti
on
Mzwakhe:Hei
smybestf
ri
end
Me:Andshei syourgi
rl
fr
iendthosecomeandgo
Sakhi
leisfor
everyal
lwil
lbelaughi
ngthenextday
l
ikenothi
ng
Mzwakhe:Andihavetobegandpleat
il
lJesus
comesbackahh..Wi
llhesur
vive
Phamandla:Hei
sast
rongoet
hisonedi
ehar
d
yangempela
Mzwakhe:Whati
syourconnect
ionwi
thAndi
le

Iknewt
hisdaywascomi
ng.
Sakhi
le
Heent
erst
hewar
ehouseandsi
tsdownqui
etl
y.

Me:Skhul
ubengaqondi
leukukxabani
sanemama
Mzwakhe:Ni
zosebenzal
anomani
zongi
dakel
wa
Thobani:Khonai
tr
uckezayoi phet
heimishi
ni
engasukumiphansii
ntandokaziyet
huiyazi
funa
Mzwakhe:Nkabi
nde
Thobani
:Noher
e'swhathei
sgoi
ngt
omakeand
thi
siswhatwegoingt
omake

Ihat
ebeingatoddswi
ththi
sguyican'
tevensay
anyt
hingbecausei
twi
llj
ustt
urni
ntoamess.

Mzwakhe:Doyouhaveapl
an
Thobani
:That
'swher
eyoucomei
n
Mzwakhe:Ni
yacavabekwi
spansamisokugci
nal
esi
Thobani
:Youneverst
opj
ustbecauseyouhavea
gi
rl
fr
iend
Mzwakhe:Wat
chme
Thobani
:Okaycel
asi
yenzemasesi
yaval
a
Mzwakhe:Ayanda

Hepul
lsoutt
hehomesecur
it
y.

Phi
ndi
le
Wehadthehousetoour
sel
vesandwewer e
dri
nki
ngaway.Mvel
oandMjwerehavingabrawli
n
thepl
ayr
oom,soonwehavetopul
lthem out
.

Nonhl
e:Yuuiwoul
dsuckt
hosebal
lst
il
ltheymel
t
Me:Eww

Wel
augh.
Nonhl
e:Iwoul
dbeTi
ff
anyHaddi
shongi
rl
str
ipwi
th
t
hoseball
s
Me:St
opgr
apef
rui
t
Nonhle:Gr
apefr
uitt
hatshi
tmnganihmm bayaf
ana
bonkeiwouldn'
tknowwhot ochoosef
rom
Me:Theyal
lugl
yandmeanwhoel
se
Nonhl
e:Thabi
so

Igasp.

Me:Ol
wet
hui
sgoi
ngt
oki
llyou
Nonhl
e:Unobuyummymar
nahhayi
sekhol
ent
o
Me:I
tdoesn'
tlookl
ikehecanl
astt
hatver
ylong

Wel
aughOl
wet
hui
sgoi
ngt
oki
llus.

Me:Iam sodr
unkiwi
shmyasswashangi
ng
somewhere
Nonhl
e:Howi
sit
Me:Gi
rli
fitwasuptohi
m hewoul
dlockmei
nhi
s
r
oom andneverl
etmeout
Nonhl
e:Chi
lliwantat
hat
,thatsecur
it
ythatst
abi
li
ty
Me:Youknowhol
don

Theywat
chi
ngandl
ist
eni
ngt
ous.

Sakhi
le
Thef
eedcut
sof
f.

Thabi
so:What
sagr
apef
rui
t
Mzwakhe:Wat
chpor
nThabi
soyouwi
llknowwhat
i
sgrapef
rui
t
Thabi
so:Youknowwhatagr
apef
rui
tis

Wel
augh.
Thabi
so:Nowhati sagrapefr
uitandhowdareshe
saysidon'
tlookl
ikeicanlasti
nt hebedr
oom
Mzwakhe:Canyou
Thabi
so:Iam notadi
seasecar
ryi
ngbi
tchl
ikeyou
Li
nda:Thabi
so

Wel
augh.

Thabi
so:Okayt
ellmewhati
sagr
apef
rui
t
Mzwakhe:Eyawusi
yekewena
Me:Skhulu.
.Don'
tlookatmeliket
hatidi
dn'
tmake
youchosesidesawskhulusami.Ngi
zamil
e
ukuxol
isakwashoukuthakayi
ngeni

Igetupandgost
raddl
ehi
m.

Me:Mzwakheyoh
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10:
42] :63

Phi
ndi
le
Wepr ett
ymuchj ustavoi
dedeachotherorrat
her
avoidedtal
kingtoeachot her.Welai
dinbedquiet
ly
i
neachot her'sarms, not
hingmorebutint
imacytoa
pointwhereher eall
yheldmel i
keiwasescaping
him orsomething.

Mzwakhe:Sawubona
Me:Hi
Mzwakhe:Iam sorryfordisappear
ingyouguysput
mei naverydi
ffi
cultposi
tion.Yal
lpissedmeoff
andi di
dn'
tappreci
atethat.Iknowishouldhave
stayedoutofi
tandididt heopposit
eofi t
Me:Thankyouf orapol
ogi
zingididn'tmeanforthi
s
tohappen,
itsgoingtobugmef orawhi l
etopoint
whereiam l
iter
all
ygoingendupint hehospi
tal
agai
n
Mzwakhe:Ngenzenj
anphomi
nangobaubr
awami
Me:Thebestt
hingi
stosepar
ate

Iknowheisgoi
ngt
otaket
hisasmeusingt
hisas
anexcuset
ogohomeandthati
snott
hecase.

Mzwakhe:I
tsokayiwi
llt
akeyouhomewhenever
your
eady

Heget
sof
fandgoest
othebat
hroom.

Sakhi
le
Iam t hebadguyf ormakingMzwakheandPhi ndi
le
fight.Shemustunder st
andiwentthroughaver y
diffi
cultti
me.Idroppedoutofschoolendedup
takingdrugs,myhomewasabr i
dge.Iwoul dgo
thereaf t
erasmokeandj ustall
owthedar knessto
consumeme, t
herewasnothingmoret hatexci
ted
met hansnif
fi
ngiwasi nparadi
secruisingoncloud
ni
ne.

Hecomesdownt
heboysj
umponhi
m.

Mvel
o:Mal
umekadesagci
naukukbona
Mzwakhe:Bengi
yosebenzant
wanayami
Mvel
o:Ut
heaunt
ieuzosi
phat
hel
aint
oemnandi

Hei
sdef
eat
ed.

Mzwakhe:Nonhlecel
aumenzel
eukudl
amase
uyamhambisel
a
Ol
wet
hu:She'
snoteat
ingwi
thus
Mzwakhe:Akaf
uniukudal
aiyi
nki
nga

Il
ookdown,
thel
if
topensSmangel
eent
ers.
Me:Thedevi
lmustbet
est
ingme

Hereyessinkdeepint
oNonhlesheseemsso
shockedt
oseeher .Mymindgoesbacktot
hedayi
showedherapictureofSmangel
eandNonhle
actedwei
rd.

Nonhl
e
Thismomentrighther
eisbringi
ngmesomuchj oy.
Iam facet
ofacewiththiswhoreohifeell
ike
Mzwakheisgoingtolovethi
s.Shecan'tunderst
and
athinggoi
ngonhermi ndisperpl
exed,fi
nall
yigot
herwheresheissmall.

Sma:Whoar
ethesenewpeopl
e
Sakhi
le:Ayabahl
angenenawet
hisi
slovel
y
surpr
ise
Mzwakhe:Canit
alkt
oyouf
orasecond
Me:Sur
e
Igr
abmypl at
eandfol
lowhim idon'
twantt
oreveal
al
lmycardsnow.Dammi tdat
ingsomeonewhois
si
bli
ngswit
hadruglor
disabl essi
ngandacurse.

Me:Ohar
eyoupl
anni
ngonbendi
ngmedownal
so
Mzwakhe:Youknowver
ywel
liwantt
o

Wel
aughhel
ockst
hedoor
.

Mzwakhe:Awusonai
sli
mauyacavangi
kubi
zel
ani
Me:AngaziMzwakheuiam j
usteat
ingmyf
ood
Mzwakhe:WhyuSmangel
eekubukaengat
h
uzokuki
nya
Me:Idon'
tknow
Mzwakhe:Nonhl
engizohl
ukananomnganiwakho
kuzobai
ngenxayakho
Me:Hai
bo
Mzwakhe:Ngikubuzekahl
ekuyokusi
za
ungi
phendul
eNonhl e

Ist
areathi
m.

Me:Heabusesmesomet i
mes,physi
cal
ly,
emoti
onal
lyandverbal
ly.Smangel
eishisside
pi
eceiam notsur
ewhati sgoi
ngon.Sabelo

Ipause.

Mzwakhe:Sabel
oiswhat
Me:Sabel
oubhut
iomncanekaAndi
le

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Al
ltheim cel
ibat
ethi
ngi
sali
eidon'
tknowi
f
t
heyheretospyonyouorwhat
Mzwakhe:Youj
oki
ngr
ight
Me:AskThobanii
fyoudon'
tbel
ieve
Mzwakhe:Heknowssabel
oisAndi
le'
sbr
otherand
Smangel
e

Igr
abmypl
atet
hedooraut
omat
ical
lyopens,
iwal
k
out
.

Li
nda:Heengi
thi
heeweNonhl
enj
alo
Phi
ndi
le:Wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom

Mzwakhecomesbackil
ookatherandsmi
le.

Phi
ndil
e:Youknowiwoul
dn'
tevenf
eelbadabout
ki
ll
ingyou
Me:Kanjankodwait
oldyouweshar
ingt
hese
handsomedevil
s
Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Ican'tnotbel
ievet
hei
nfor
mat
ionNonhl
ejust
sharedwithme.

Me:SawubonaweSl
indi
le
Sakhi
le:Smangel
e
Me:Aysmangel
engempel
aubekwayi
nil
a
Sakhi
le:Azi
hambezonkemawuf
unaahambe
Me:Okay

Theycomet
hroughwi
tht
hei
rsui
tcases.

Sakhi
le:AwMzwakhengi
yadl
alamf
ethu
Me:Don'
twai
tupf
orme
Phi
ndi
le:Hel
longi
yabuyavel
emanj
eumemezel
ani
.
ByeMxol
isi
Me:I
sthi
sever
ythi
ng
Ayanda:Awseni
yahambanj
alo
Me:Bayahambabaf
o
Ayanda:Ohayni
hambekahl
e

Somewei rdthi
ngtranspir
esbetweenNonhleand
Thabisotheychaseaftereachother
,sheenter
sthe
l
iftj
ustasitsabouttoclose.Hol
dingabott
leof
somet hi
ng.

Sakhi
le
Youmustjusti
gnor
epett
inessidon'
thaveti
mef or
nonsensewegrownassadult
s,l
etusactl
ikeit
.

Thabi
so:Iam sogoi
ngtoki
llNonhl
eyouknowshe
st
olemyf avor
it
ebot
tl
eofal
ltimes
Itwasfunnywatchingthem chaseeachotherf
ora
bott
leofalcohol
,sheranint
ot hatel
evat
orli
keher
l
ifedependentonit.

Thabi
so:Nxingi
zomt
hol
a
Li
nda:Whyyoul
ett
ingt
hem l
eavel
iket
hat
Me:Idon'
thavet
imef
ornonsense
Thobani
:It
snotnonsensei
fPhi
ndi
lecan'
trel
ayt
he
messagetoyousheisgoodasadyingper
son
Me:Thobani
Thobani:Yout
hinkhelovesseeingherl
eavehi
m,
heisdoingwhatsbestforhercomeonnowman
thi
nkaboutthi
s.Zamanisuedherwewer ein
shambles
Me:Nowt
hatyouputi
tli
ket
hat
Thobani
:Int
oazoyi
gul
ayonamanj
ustl
etherdo
whatsheneedstodo

I
ftheyl
eavet
hesepr
emi
sesMzwakhewi
llnever
f
orgi
veme.Il
ookatt
hem.

Li
nda:Hambauyabovi
mba
Me:Yohsesof
elauMzwakhenent
ombiyakhe

Mzwakhe

Me:Di
dyoust
eal
thatf
rom hi
ssecr
etst
ash

Shel
aughshar
d.

Nonhle:Isawhim oneti
meandonedayiover
head
theboyssayinghehideshi
sbestal
cohol
somewher e
Phi
ndi
le:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:What
Welaugh..
.Wer
eachunder
groundii
nst
ructt
hem t
o
gooutfi
rst
.

Me:Idon'
twantyout
ogo
Phi
ndi
le:Thandon'
t
Me:Yousupposedt
osayidon'
twantt
ogoei
ther
kant
iunj
anwena

Shegiggl
es.Somebodybangsont
heot
hersi
dei
open.

Sakhi
le:Idon'
twantyout
oleaveei
ther
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06/
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10:
42] :64

Mzwakhe
Fi
nal
lyshewastoot i
redt
ogetupandmake
br
eakfastf
ornoreasonli
keiam herbr
eakf
ast
,
l
unchanddinner
.HerphoneringsMxoli
sil
etme
j
ustannoyhi
m,icl
earmyt
hroatandanswert
he
phone.

Me:Awsbar
i
Mxol
isi
:Yout
hel
ongestboyf
ri
endshe'
severhad
Me:Real
ly
Mxol
isi
:Yi
ndabungi
jwayel
akabiwena
Me:Awsbar
i
Mxol
isi
:Sbar
iwokunukani
kauPhi
ndi
lei
foni
Me:Shei
ssleepi
ngbraandyounotgoi
ngt
owake
herupwi
thyourcrazi
ness

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Phi
ndi
le.Mama
Phi
ndi
le:Hmm
Me:Mxol
isiwant
stot
alkt
oyou
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Me:Aysbar
iengat
hkoyomel
eumf
onel
e

Hehungs.

Nonhl
e
Mxolisiisnothappyhewillbef
inewesti
llenj
oyi
ng
ourselves.Phi
ndil
eisagrownwomanandshe
needssomet hingconst
ructi
vei
nherli
fe.

Me:Usi
thol
il
eiskol
eMxol
isi
Mxo:Whyar
eyouguysevent
her
e
Me:Heyptakescar
eoftheboyswit
hheral
lshe
woul
dneverdoanythi
ngtohurtt
hem.Pl
usthey
l
ovebei
nghere

Hei
gnor
esme.
Me:Thekidsneedstabil
it
ywecan'tf
orevership
t
hem fr
om thi
splacetothattot
hatplace.Theygot
t
ogot oschoolandplaywithot
herki
ds
Mxo:Iwishyourf
ri
endwast
hatpassi
onat
einst
ead
ofchasi
ngrott
enbal
ls
Me:Okaythanwhatareyoudoingasther
efather
whatareyoudoingtomakesuretheyset
tl
ein.You
tr
iedhomeschooli
ngdi
dn'twor
k,whatist
heplan
now
Mxo:Ishoul
dhavemar
ri
edyou
Me:Findthem aschoolandasaf epl
acef
ort
hem t
o
st
aysimpleungalokheuzixakangokut
huPhi
ndi
l
e
uj
olanobani
Mxo:Thatwastheonethi
ngiwaswor
ri
edabouti
t
rust
edherwithmykidsandnow
Me:Mxol
isist
opyournonsense
Mxo:Wow

IhungupSamkel
ocall
sme.It
hinkaboutignor
ing
hi
m butt
hanheisgoi
ngtobeapainintheass.
Me:Heybaby
Sam:Real
lyNonhl
e
Me:Iam sor
ryihavebeensooccupi
edwi t
hthe
ki
ds,phi
ndil
eiwaspull
edinmanydiff
erentways
Sam:Okaywhenar
eyoucomi
nghome
Me:TomorrowMxoli
siisbackit
hinksoandshe
haspeopl
etotakecar
eofher
Sam:Okaysendmeyourl
ocat
ioniwi
llpi
ckyouup
Me:Okaybye
Sam:Il
oveyou
Me:Il
oveyout
oo

Mzwakhe
Shejustcouldn'
tgetoutofbedandwaswor ryi
ng
me.ButlikeNonhlealwayssaysit
snormalforher
andi
tsmyf i
rstt
imeexperi
encingi
t.Ihavet
ocheck
onherfrom ti
met oti
me.
Thabi
so:Yadevi
lngakut
hol
a
Me:Thabi
so

Shesmi
lesandpokesherf
rui
tsal
ad.

Thabi
so:Wasi
ndabast
ard
Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Moj
a

Iknewtherewassomet hi
ngofaboutt
hisgi
rl
,ifel
tit
i
nmybal lsandt
hereisnowayiam goingtolether
playwi
thmyboysf eel
ingsli
kethat
.

Sakhi
le:Mommyusangi
dinel
wayi
ninamanj
e
Me:Khohl
wai
ndabazamommy
Sakhil
e:She'
ssti
llnotgoi
ngsoyoucando
whateveri
tisyouwantoriam goi
ngtomyhouse
Me:Okay

Nonhl
eheadsup.

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhlewakesmeupt hi
sistor
tur
ebutit
snotas
heavyanddeepwheniam athome.She'
scoming
herewit
hnewsiam notgoingtol
ike,
shejumpson
thebedandlaughs.

Me:Pl
easedon'
tst
art
Nonhl
e:Iam l
eavi
ngt
omor
row
Me:Canyoul
eavet
hedayaf
terpl
easet
extSamkel
o
Nonhl
e:No
Me:Wow

Ical
lMxol
isiiover
heardal
it
tl
ebi
tofther
e
conver
sat
ion.Hedecli
nest
hancal
lsmehimsel
f.
Me:Bhut
iomdal
a
Mxo:Uyi
shadi
lel
eyondoda
Me:Yaziangi
gul
ikakhul
umengi
la
Mxo:Ohunedl
ozinomaubusangani
swaukut
h
awunayoi
ndoda

Il
aughandputhi
m onspeaker
.

Me:Bengi
hlanyi
swaukut
hangi
nayoi
ndoda
Mxo:Ayi
mpel
angi
yabona
Me:Youcancomeher
eal
lyhasabeaut
if
ulhouse
Mxo:Phindil
eiunderst
andyouhavet odat
eand
whatnot,butheari
ngthatyougof ordayswithout
checki
ngin.Imeani sthatevenokay.Heisthat
muchimpor t
antforyounott obothercomi
nghome
cal
li
ngmom knowi ngthatyouar ecrazy
Iputhi
m ofspeakerNonhl
eexcuseher
sel
f.

Nonhl
e
Wheni tcomest oPhindi
leandMxol i
sibuttt
hefuck
out.Younevergoi ngtowindon'ttakepsideand
don'ttakeMxol isi
'
sside.Iexcusedmysel fbecause
thatconver sat
iongottense,anditdidn'
tneedme.I
endedupt exti
ngSamkel otojustbarewithmeiam
comi nghome.

Ayanda:Sawubonant
okazi
Me:Weee

Hel
aughs.

"
Ayandaohiam sor
ryidi
dn'
tmeant
oint
err
upt
"

Theyl
ooksomuchal
ikehowcanyout
ellwhoi
s
who.

Ayanda:Yi
ni
Luyanda:I'
m Luyandaibarel
yspendanyti
mewi
th
mybr ot
herssoyouwon' thaveaprobl
em
separat
ingus
Me:Icar
ebecause

Theyl
ookateachot
her
.

Mzwakhe:Whatar
eyoui
diot
sdoi
ngar
ethey
har
assi
ngyou
Ayanda:Comel
etsgosor
toutyourpr
obl
em

Iam notsur
ewhatthedeali
swi
ththi
sguyandhe
i
sannoyingme,il
ookatMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe:Don'
twor
ryyel
lowboneiam goi
ngt
o
dealwi
thi
t
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06/
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10:
43] :65

Mzwakhe
Iwonderhowl ongiam goi ngtoenjoymy
rel
ationshipwi t
houtpeopleaddingthei
runsoli
cit
ed
advice.Enemi eswillbegunningforhertheywil
l
rushmet omar kher,shewi l
lbecaughtinsomeof
mybat tles.Theygoingtousehert ogettome,itsa
l
ot.Iam goi ngtotrymybestbutidon' tknowhow
fariwillget.

Phi
ndil
e:Soif
eel
li
kei t
sokaytomeett
hef
ami
ly
now,cookani
cedinnerandhavef
un
Me:Aybabymaseuqul
ekal
a
Phindi
le:Ipr
omisenothi
ngisgoingtohappenandi
f
somethingneedstohappen,ican'
tst
opitfr
om
happening
Me:What
everyoucomf
ort
abl
ewi
thiwi
lldoi
t
Phi
ndi
le:Whoi
sont
hephone

Il
ocki
tandputi
tinmypocket
.

Me:Iam sor
ry
Phi
ndi
le:Ohandanot
hert
hingMxol
isi
iscomi
ng
Me:OhGodt
ellmeaboutyouguysr
elat
ionshi
p
Phindil
e:I
nyovadamnnkosiyami .Iam t
helast
bornatfir
stwejustdidn'
tli
keeachother
,idon'
t
knowhehadt hi
stoughexteri
ordon'
tmesswi t
hme.
Ohir emembermysomebodyatt hatt
imewewer e
toget
her,withnocareint
hewor l
dohmyt hisis
embar r
assing
Me:Awubhekeubhi
ziuni
kaot
apenii
yint
ozaminxi
Phi
ndi
le:Weneverevengot
tenachanceto,
he
camei
ngunsblazingMxoli
sihasnochi
ll
.Dragged
meoutbeatt
hehelloutofme
Me:Good
Phi
ndi
le:Whenwegothomeheat
tackedmesome
mor eonsome" ngekengif
ikengi
sebenzekanzima
maseuyoqwayi za"nobodyhadmybackhi sword
wasf inal
.Eventuall
yigotmyt hi
ngstogetheri
studiedbusinessmanagementever yt
hingwas
goinghellagood.Istart
edmyevent scompanyand
roll
ed
Me:Thi
ngswi
thMxol
isiwer
enowf
ixed
Phindi
le:Nowedi dn'
ttal
ktoeachot heroridi dn'
t
tal
ktohimf orareall
ylongtime.Thanwhent hisgif
t
camehebecamemyl overandNonhl e,idon'tknow
whatiwoulddoi fyouhurtthem kil
ldoesn'teven
begint
oexpl ai
nwhatiwoul ddot oyou
Me:Thatsni
ceasfami
lywenotmeanttohateeach
other,
iadmi
ret
hatimyselfhavenoi
deawhatiwil
l
do.Thosear
emyboysbr other
sweprot
ecteach
othertot
hecor
e
Phi
ndil
e:Whatist
het
hingwi
thl
aughi
ngt
hough,
youguysjustman

Il
augh.
Me:That
swhat '
suni
queaboutusandpl
easedon'
t
t
rytounder
standyouwon'
twin
Phi
ndi
le:Ayper
missi
ont
oleavet
her
oom pl
ease
Me:Per
missi
onnotgr
ant
ed

Ipi
nherdownshebi
tsherl
owerl
ip.

Sakhi
le
Nonhlelockedherselfi
nherr oom she'
st i
redof
Ayanda,shamepoorbhenguboyi ssmi t
ten,
whipped.Hislif
ehasst oppedbecauseofNonhl e,
if
hewant sherjustmakeamoveal ready.Inst
eadof
st
aringli
kehei ssomepsychost alker,comeon
Ayandageti tt
ogether.

Thabi
so:Ndodamawumfunamushel
e
seni
ngahl
ulwauMzwakhe
Ayanda:I
nki
ngayenui
kephiaysuka
ni
ngazongi
jwayel
a

Wel
augh.

Me:Wowshame
Mzwakhe:Ayandal
etst
alk
Ayanda:Mzwakhe

Hel
ooksathi
m.

Ayanda:I
fthi
sisaboutNonhl
e
Mzwakhe:Whosaidi
tsaboutNonhl eli
stenyou
needtogopi
ckupPhindile'
sbrotherandphindi
lei
s
makingdi
nnergobuythese,lal
elasendsomebody
el
seandiam goi
ngtokillyou
Ayanda:Yebo

Hel
eaves.
Me:Youst
il
lmadatme
Mzwakhe:Li
stenidonotcar
etobemadatyou

Thi
sispai
nfulwhatar
eweevenf
ight
ingabout
.

James
Iam heal
ednowbutst
il
ltheydon'twanttoletme
go.Theseknowi
tal
ldoctorsareannoying,
Mzwakhehastotal
ktothem aboutdischar
gingme.

Me:Ni
sangi
gci
nel
ani
langempel
a
Voi
ce:Ahandhei
sawake

Isi
ghandopenmyeyes.

Me:Youmusthaveadeat
hwi
sh
Andi
le:Ai
n'tnobodygoi
ngt
oseemeimadesur
eof
t
hat
Me:Ohr
eal
lydressi
ngupasadoct
orandsneaki
ng
i
nmakesyouinvi
ncibl
e

Il
augh.

Me:Youf
ail
edt
ogetr
idofmenowyouher
eto
t
hreat
enmesomemore
Andi
le:Ist
il
lhaveyourf
ami
ly

Mzwakheent
erswi
thabasketonhi
shand.

Phi
ndi
le
Andil
e'
sdaysoft
hreat
eni
ngJamesi
soveriam
runni
ngthi
sshownow.

Mzwakhe:Yohumuntmenganaki
lel
auzokhul
phal
a
IsentSizwetobeont hel
ookforAndi
le,
because
theyarewatchi
ngJamesunderami cr
oscope.I
hopehedoeskillanyonet
hatonehassomel ose
screws.

Mzwakhe:Baby
Me:Yah
Mzwakhe:Ngiyabongayezwaukubakhonakwakho
empi
lweniyami
Me:Ahyouar
esuchasweet
hear
t,Nonhl
eyoucan
comeouthei
snother
e

Iseesomespar
kbet
weent
hem.

Mzwakhe:Ayandasayst
heyont
hei
rwayback

Iam soexci
tedt
oseehi
m imi
ssedhi
m somuch.
Mzwakhe
DoesMxol i
sievenknowhowt osmil
e.Hehasthis
di
sapprovallookwatchi
ngPhi
ndil
eintheki
tchen,
nobodyissayinganythi
ngandit
sawkwardashell.

Me:SoMxol
isiGumede
Mxo:Whatar
eyouri
ntent
ionswi
thmysi
ster
Me:Iwantt
ofuckhert
il
lfor
ever
Mxo:Boy

Il
augh.

Me:Ilikehermanandifwehavet
ofightf
orher
thanletsf
ight
.Iwi
llhur
tyou,
youcomebetween
Phindil
eandi

Hei
snotbuyi
ngt
hat
,iexcusemysel
figot
tagosee
Jamesanyways.

Phi
ndi
le
Mxo:Whyam imeet
ingwi
thyouher
eandnotat
home
Me:Becauseiam spendi
ngt
imewi
thMzwakhe
Mxo:Younotmar
ri
edt
othi
sguy
Me:Yourpoi
ntbei
ng
Mxo:Youspendaweekendmaximum thr
eedaysat
aboyfr
iendshousenott
hewhol
ebloodydamnti
me
Me:Youwoul
dunder
stand
Mxo:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Under
standwhatt
hatyoudr
ivencr
azybya
st
upiddi
ck

Iam notcrazyhedoesn'
tunder
standt hesethi
ngs
don'
tattackmewheniam here,ifeelatpeacewhen
iam ar
oundMzwakhe.

Mxo:Engat
hizoqal
aukungi
dinal
ent
oyakho
Mvel
o:Daddy
Mxo:Heyboysdi
dyoumi
ssme
Mvel
o:Comewehavet
oshowyousomet
hing
Mxo:Ungi
boni
sani
Mvel
o:Comedaddycome
Mxo:Whoaokay

Ist
artondi
nner
.

James
Me:Twi
cei
nonedayyoumustr
eal
lyl
oveme
Mzwakhe:Whatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutij
ustgother
e
Me:Oht
hanimusthavebeeni
nlal
aland
Mzwakhe:Kuyacaca
OhPhi
ndil
emanhesti
lldoesn'
tknowwhatdi
dido
t
odeser
vesuchl
uck.

Me:I
mit
hiyaboi
buyei
dakwane
Mzwakhe:Youdoi
ngwel
l
Me:Bat
shel
ebangi
khi
phephel
a
Mzwakhe:Forwhat
Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Forgetaboutt
hatf
ocusonr
ecover
ingwe
gotever
ythi
ng
Me:Theycan'
tkeepmeher
efor
everyouknow
Mzwakhe:Iknowbutyousaf
erher
ethanout
side
Phamandl
a:Iwoul
dn'
tbesosur
e

Heent
ersgi
vingMzwakhehi
sphone.
Mzwakhe:Thef
uckhowdi
dhegeti
n
Phamandla:Theysaidhewasdressedupina
doct
orsunifor
mt heydi
dn'
tpayattent
iont
oit
Mzwakhe:Andi
leuyangij
wayelayazi
ubanil
o
sewukhul
umanezipokhimanjeJames
Me:It
oldyounj
eiwasnotmysel
f
Mzwakhe:Whatthehel
lar
eyouguysadmini
steri
ng
onhi
m, youknowwhatgetthedi
schar
gepapers

ThankyouAndil
eiam goinghomeSabeloi
sthe
onewhoprobablyhackedint
othesyst
em,t
hati
diot
i
sgoingtogetcaught.
[
06/
06,
10:
43] :66

Phi
ndi
le
Iappr
eciat
eMxoli
sist
ayedbehi ndf
ordinner,t
his
wil
lgi
vehim anoppor
tunit
ytogettoknowt hem.
Theyreal
lyni
cepeopl
eandt heyhavebeenniceto
me,Mzwakhewalksinjusti
nt i
mealongsidehimis
James.

Sakhi
le:Awbhut
iwezipoko

Theyl
aughil
ookatt
hem andt
her
oom goessi
lent
.

James:Yal
lwer
esayi
ng
Mzwakhe:Shutupal
lofyougof
reshenupandbe
byt
hetablegotit
Me:What
sgotyousoupt
ight

Weent
ert
hebedr
oom.

Mzwakhe:Babywedon'thavetodothi
sifyounot
ready.Sakhi
leal
mostki
ll
edyouwhatifi
thappens
again
Me:Stopstr
essi
ngoutwehavenocont
rolover
whathappenswejustgott
odealwi
thi
t
Hereal
lyl
ooksworri
edandtheonl
ytocal
m him
downistohavehi
m pumpingmycoochi
ehard.

Sakhi
le
Wehavenocontroloverthi
ngsifSmi
sowishesto
communicat
ewithme, igottoal
lowi
t.Maybet
his
wil
lbet
heclosur
et hatineedwhoknows.

Mxo:Whyyoul
ooki
ngatherl
iket
hat
Me:Ayudaki
weawufuninoPhi
ndi
leawuf
unif
uth
noNonhl
eweeeuyanya

Wel aughleaveAyandaaloneheissohangover
Nonhleihopeheget sher
.Shedoesavi deo,he
comesbehi ndandalit
tl
ecutechemistr
yhappens
bet
weent hem.Iam notsureifheiski
ssingheror
whisperi
ngliesi
nherear.
Thabiso:Mywishforyouguysistofi
ndhappi
ness
andifthesewomanbr ingoutt
hebesti
nyouguys.I
wil
ldomybestt oprotecti
t

Li
ndanicomesandi
nter
rupt
sthemoment
.

Ol
wet
hu:YohLi
ndaniunomonayoh

Wel
aught
hel
if
topens.

Nhl
aka:Am il
ate
Me:Justi
nti
me
Nhl
aka:Thesear
efort
hel
adyoft
hehouse

That'
swhatweshoul
dhavedonef
il
ledt
hehouse
wit
hroses.

Mzwakhe
Thedi nneri
sunder
waynobodyissayi
nganyt
hing,
theyjusteat
ingandnowisnott
hetimetoeat
.Why
didtheywanttomeetift
heygoi
ngtokeepquiet
.

Ayanda:hmm kwazekwamnandiukudlausi
bona
nj
esithuki
lenat
hiubhut
iuvel
ewasil
ethel
aenyi
nto

Okayt
her
ewego.

Ayanda:NguAyandaminamommyngi yi
wel
e.
Sihl
ezisi
ndawonyeminangi
phaphil
eyena
uyazi
thul
elaakaj
wayel
eukuhl
alanathi
Luyanda:Heyit
hinkicani
ntr
oducemysel
fver
y
well

Welaugh..
.Theysl
owl
yadj
ustandi
ntr
oduce
t
hemselves.

Nt
ando:Aychaumzami
lewazamekangempel
a
Sakhi
le:Hai
bokushoukut
hinil
okho
Me:Awumbuzengempel
a
Thabi
so:Iam Thabi
sot
heel
dest
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaj
abul
aukunazinami
Thabi
so:Yazi
Nonhl
e:Hel
lo

Okayal
it
tl
ebr
eat
her
.

Nonhl
e:Bengi
shi
lonj
eukut
hngi
zobuyakusasa.
..
Whatno

Phindil
ebrushesmyt
highdoessher
eali
zethat
's
notcalmingmedown,i
nsteadi
tsget
ti
ngthebigguy
heated.

Phi
ndil
e:Hinoshe'
swit
hmeionl yaskedfortoday,
youcanfacet
imeipromiseyouwetogether
..Okay
byeyouwantt
obei
ntr
oubl
ewi
thyourman
Nonhl
e:Nakaamadodaakhol
awauphumeki
mi
Phi
ndi
le:Okayexcusemyf
ri
endsheal
it
tl
eti
psy
Nonhl
e:Ohmyawungi
khuzinganiit
otal
lyf
orgot
Phi
ndi
le:Doyouneedhel
p
Nonhle:Justf
ightformeandpr
otectmeyouand
yoursexyboyfri
ends
Phi
ndi
le:Youknowial
waysgotyourback
Nonhl
e:Agai
nstt
hosedr
ugl
ordsidoubt
Phi
ndi
le:UyamaziuMzwakhe
Nonhl
e:Mxm

Theyl
augh.

Li
nda:Ayngal
aphomi
nangi
zomvi
kel
auyel
lowbone
Sakhi
le:Shutup
Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Excusemeiam j
ustgoi
ngt
ogocheckon
her

Ifimakethi
ngsobvi oustheyar egoingt
oknowiam
uptosomet hing,t
hisfuedbet weenSakhi
leandi.
Theygoingtot hi
nkthereisbadbl oodbet
weenus
andtryt
ouset hatsi
tuati
onf orthei
rownbenef
itbut
igotsomethingupmysl eeve.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakheandihavebeenar oundeachotherlong
enough,iknowt
hisbastar
dhehassomet hingup
hissl
eevebutwhatthoughandwhydon'tiknowi t
.

Sma:It
hinkiam goi
ngt
ocal
litani
ght
Mxo:Yazeyabhor
aidi
nneryenu
Wel
augh.

Mxo:Mvel
o,Mxol
isi
Mvel
o:Si
lal
anoAunti
ekumbhedeomkhul
uangazi
kewenauzol
alaph
Mxo:Ukhul
umanobanikanj
alo

Hej
ustsmi
lesaf
terst
uff
inghi
msel
fwi
thf
ood.

Mj
:Babasengi
qedi
le
Mxo:I
thingi
bone.
.Awkodwamf
anawami
kusasel
e
nj
e
Mj
:Sengi
sut
hi
Mxo:Okayi
yiphuniezi
wu3
Mzwakhe:Skhul
u

IhavetogoputSmangeletobedoht hi
sisone
dreadf
ulr
elat
ionshi
p,oneiam notl
eavi
ngunti
lit
ap
t
hatasst
hanl
eaveher
.

James
Iam goodthissi
deAndi
lewon'tbeabl
etoreachme
andiwillsl
eepwit
houtl
ooki
ngovermyshoul der
.
Mzwakheent er
sthi
sboyhejustcan'
tgetenoughof
meichuckle.

Mzwakhe:Don'
tfl
att
eryour
sel
f
Me:Whatdoyouwantineedt
orest
Mzwakhe:Justaf
ewquest
ionsandiwi
llbeoutof
yourhai
r

Igeti
nthecover
s.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
tknowwhatisbetweenyouand
Andi
leihopeiwon'thavet
oki
llyou
Me:Goon
Mzwakhe:I
sthatgi
rlpl
ayi
ngmyboy
Me:Iam notsur
ewhatt
hedynami
csar
ebutaw
she'
sacallgi
rl
Mzwakhe:Sabel
oher
etospyonus
Me:Yes

Imustsl
owl
yeaset
hisonhi
m idon'
twantt
odi
e.

Mzwakhe:Mmm
Me:Canisl
eepnow
Mzwakhe:Jamesyouar
eourf
athernowiwoul
d
hat
etohavetodosomethi
ngt
oyou

Iwantt
osaysomethi
ngbutidon'
thavethewordsi
hopeweal
lcanmoveonfrom thi
s.Ihadnochoice
andiwoul
ddoitagai
n.
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06/
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10:
43] :67
Mzwakhe
Igl
adt heyknowherknowandiam donet ryingto
geteveryonetoknowher.Becausei tal
waysgoes
badmyf ami
lyknowsherthat'
sallthatmatters.
Everyoneisinagoodmoodt oday,idon'tknowwho
connectedherwithmysoundsyst em.The
penthousewasonbl astwi
tholdskoolnost al
gic
sounds.

Mxo:Youknowthiswasherbeforealloft
his,
free
spi
ri
teddi
dn'
tcareaboutwhatpeoplesaidabout
her
.Thanthi
sspir
itualt
hingcameabout
Me:Ihear
dyouwer
eat
yrantbacki
nthedays
Mxo:I
tsmydut
ytopr
otectherandwantwhat
sbest
f
orher
Me:Doyoupi
ctur
emeaswhat
sbestf
orher
Mxo:Mzwakheyour eekoffuckboytendenci
es,i
wouldn'
tbesurpr
isedifyouweretobreakup.You
won'tl
astmysist
erisbeauti
fult
othecoreshe
needsstabi
li
ty
Hesi
ghs.

Me:Iperfect
lyunderst
andyourconcernsbutidon'
t
j
ustletanyonemyhear tandmyplace.Sheisthe
f
ir
stonet oeverentert
hepenthouse
Mxo:Bet
hatasi
tmayyoust
il
laguy

Il
augh.

Mxo:Dl
anaukudl
aMxol
isi
Mj
:Mommysl
appedgogo

Fi
ndmear
ockt
ohi
deunder
.

Me:Remembert
hatj
obof
ferigaveyouiwas
t
hinki
ng
Mj
:Mommysl
appedgogo
Youwoul dthi
nkhei sgoingt
ol eti
tgobecauseno
onei
spayi ngattent
iontohim butnothequi
etchi
ld
fi
nal
lyhasavoi ce.Evensmartmout hher
eismute
asamul e.

Me:Chi
ldwhati
swr
ongwi
thyou
Mxo:Wozal
a

Heget
sup,
hisf
athert
akeshi
mtohi
slap.

Mxo:Mvel
owhati
syourbr
othersayi
ng.
.Mvel
o
man
Me:Ahahyouscar
ingt
heki
d
Mvelo:Umawashayaugogongenkat
hiugogo
esi
nqabel
aukut
hsihambenoma
Me:Ehmanj
euyaph
Phi
ndi
le:Mxol
isiwai
t
Mxo:Fuckyouokaygetyourhandsof
fme

Mjwil
lbethedeat
hofussuchanobser
vantchil
d
no.Aki
dissupposedt
ofr
eeandbubblysomething
i
snotokay.

Mxo:Awungit
shel
inganiul
izekaushayeowami
umaongizal
ayonathul
anonkeniyadakwa
emakhandaenu

Helooseshi
m mindandyell
sscar
ingt
hekids.
Ayandaiski
ndenoughtoremovet
hem fr
om the
si
tuat
ion.

Mxo:HeeamnandiamasendeakheheePhi ndil
e.
Solokhewaqalalomjolowakhoongasil
eangazi
i
khandalakholikuphi
,i
ngqondoyakhoayit
hathi
kahleayVoetsekmannxiuyanginyanyi
sa
Phi
ndi
le
Mxol
isii
sspitt
ingf
ir
eonmeican'tbel
ievehet al
ked
t
omei nthatwayandsayi
ngsuchhurt
f ult
hingsto
myfacebreaksmyheart
.

Nonhl
e:Hey
Me:Mm
Nonhl
e:I
tsMxol
isiweal
lknowhowheget
s
Me:Uyangi
thukaNonhl
eakumel
engi
thandwemi
na,
akumel
engithandeumunt
u
Nonhl
e:Hei
sact
ingl
ikeanybi
gbr
otherwoul
d

Il
ookather
.

Nonhl
e:Hei
shur
thel
ovedt
hatandshedi
dhi
m
di
rt
y
Me:Minamyfeel
ingsshoul
dn'
tbeconsi
der
ed.I
shoul
dn'
tdr
eam t
ohaveaf ami
lyoneday
Thelit
tl
ebitofhappi
nessican'
tenjoy.Nobody
knowswhat sgoingonwit
hme, iam li
keamad
woman.Eachdayiam beingtormentedbyt hi
ngs
andvoicesthatpushmeoftheledge.Idomybest
totakecareofhiski
dsandprot
ectandt hi
sishow
hethanksme.

Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Iwi
llf
indsomeonet
otakeyouhome

Il
eaveher
.

Mzwakhe
Di
sgustt
hat
'sal
it
tl
edr
amat
icnowcomeonimean.

Me:Yewenai
kuphi
nki
ngayakho
Sakhi
le:Youcan'
ttel
lyoursi
stershedi
sgustyou
Me:l
ikecomeonman
Thobani
:Especi
all
yPhi
ndi
leuyal
wazi
udabal
wakhe
Mxo:Idi
dn'
tmeant
oij
ustgotangr
y
Me:Youknowt hever
ysamepeopl eyoudoshady
thingswithkidnappedNonhleandPhi ndi
le,
theone
thatdisgustyouyeahthinkaboutthatbefor
eyou
goar oundtell
ingpeopletheydi
sgustyou.What
kindofbr ot
herareyouahshutup

Anychanceigett
obebossyar
oundMxol
isiiwi
ll
gr
abitwit
hbothhands.

Me:Bukalawenasl i
mabukaasi kutshel
angaf ut
h
angaziyi
ndabsingakutshel
anga.Didengsbizodala
amaf l
opbli
nd,kuyantoababeyif
una.Sebenzisa
i
ngqondo

Sakhi
le:MrAIspeci
ali
styoudon'
tat
tackanenemy
behi
ndcloseddoors
Me:Youlookathi
mint
heeyesandwat
chhi
s
demise

Seewhatidi
dther
e.

Thobani
:Andyousmi
leyoubl
oodydamnsmi
leand
fuckt
hatb*t
chup
Me:Sokuyekel
auyicabangi
sisel
ent
oebese
uyahambauyoxoli
sakwiMama.I st
ocksiasi
yif
anel
e
i
outieeshar
pnjengamiangi
thuyangit
hola

Nonhl
e
Ifeelbadaboutleavingwit
houtseei
ngt hesi
blings
resolvet
heirsi
tuati
on.Lookathowheact ed,t
he
reasonwhywedi dn'
ttel
lhi
m.Lizekastagedallof
thi
sandi tbackfi
red.Iwonderwhatwil
lhappent o
them.

Ient
ert
hehouset
hesedi
nosaur
sar
est
il
lher
e,t
his
t
imeidon'tf
eell
ikegreet
ingt
hem.Iheadst
rai
ghtt
o
myroom..
.Igetther
eandahotsti
ngsendsmet o
t
heground.

Samkel
o:Youpieceofshi
t.
..It
ookoutoft
hegut
ter
andt
hisiswhatyoudohuh
Me:Samkel
owai
t

Hesl apsmemulti
pleti
mes..
.kicksmeint
he
stomachrepeat
edlyican'
tevendefendmysel
for
scream whyam ibei
ngbeatenup.

Samkelo:Ngikhathel
eiloPhindi
leuyenaokuf undi
se
ukufebanjal
oubusyunakanenaye.Ukut handana
kwethukuyashabalalangapha.Phindi
le,phindi
le
Phindil
e..
.Mxoli
siMxol i
siMxoli
sii
yinganeaywena
uyangij
wayela.Ngizokufundi
saukuthngiwubani

Heconti
nuest
obeatmeup.
..Ti
llif
eelmysel
f
sl
ippi
ngaway.
Mzwakhe
Theweathersuddenlychangedanditwasr
aining
cat
sanddogs.Iwi shicouldbesmashingr
ightnow,
butsomethi
ngjustdoesn'tf
eelr
ight
.

Me:Awkodwabaf et
hubami
ngi
nit
hembekanj
e
nangi
lahl
a.Mvel
oMj
Mvel
o:Mal
ume
Mxo:Ayayubaniumal
ume
Me:Leavet
heboysal
onehow
Mxo:Shutupwenamf
ene

Il
augh.

Me:Uyakhumbul
ekakeuyel
lowboneuphiuJames
Sakhi
le:Ul
ele
Me:Bengamel
engi
mkhi
pheesbhedl
elabukamanj
e
sengi
khohl
iweuyenaudl
il
ekodwa
Not
hando:Sani
bonani
Me:Ahhhisweetcakes
Nothando:Uzumekamanj
euqedakudl
ulawase
yal
ala
Me:Ngi
yabongaswi
ri

I
tsnoteasybei
ngme.
[
06/
06,
10:
43] :68

Mzwakhe
Mybabywasnotokayt earsjustkeptfal
li
ngdown
hercheeks,shewoul
dn'ttel
lmewhati sgoingon.I
t
can'
tbestil
lthel
it
tl
edisagreementt heyhad,the
twi
nscomebackt heybet t
erhavegoodnews.

Sakhi
le:Howdi
ditgo
Ayanda:Wei
rdbutkewegoti
t
Phi
ndi
lecol
lapse.

Me:Mama

She'
scr
yinghyst
eri
cal
ly.

Me:Babywhat
swr
ong
Phi
ndi
le:Ayandahel
pmeup

Shegr
absapi eceofpaperandwri
tesdown
somet
hings,
number sandcodes.

Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easehacki
ntot
his
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easepl
ease
Hedoeshi
sthi
ngwel
ookatt
hescr
een.Her
ewi
nd
andr
ewind

Ayanda:Whatar
eyoul
ooki
ngf
or
Phi
ndi
le:St
op

Nonhleent er
stheroom andi ssentdownfastbya
slapont heface.Wewat chthismanslap,punch,
kickheralloverherbody.Thosedogsdon'tdeserve
tobealive,okayMzwakhet hinkfastwhatwould
youdo.

Nonhl
e
Icoul
dn'tsl
eepmyf acewasbr
uisedmybodywas
i
nseriouspain.Thi
sfeel
sli
keahorri
bleni
ght
mar
e
andiam sti
lli
nit.

Smanga:Whathappenedt
oyou
Me:Don'
tactl
ikeyoucar
e
Idi
dn'
tfeell
ikehi
dingi
tiwantt
hem t
oseeal
lthe
beaut
if
ulmessSamkelodidtome.

Andi
le:Letmeguessyouf
ell
downt
hest
air
s
Me:Whyareyouevenbuggi
ngmei
tsnotl
ikeyou
car
ejustl
eavemealone
Andi
le:I
tsnotl
ikei
don'
tcareyouj
ustannoyme
someti
mesbutohwelli
fthat'
swhatyouwant

Perhapsheisr
ightispendtoomuchofmyti
me
worryi
ngaboutwhatPhindil
eisdoi
ngi
nst
eadof
focusi
ngonourrelat
ionshi
p
Ileavehi
mf ordaysiactl
ikeitmakesmehappybut
deepdowniwi shhelovedme.Howwheniam not
evenaroundtorecei
vethatlove.

Mzwakhe
Ont
opofcal
mingPhi
ndi
ledownineedt
oal
socal
m
Ayandadown.Hedoesn'tt
hinkheact
sfastand
unlesshereal
lywant
sthi
sgirlhei
snotgoi
ngto
ret
aliat
e.

Phi
ndi
le:Cansomeonepl
easedr
opmeof
f
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Ipr
omi
seiam notgoi
ngt
otal
kabouti
t
Me:Canyoucont
rolyour
sel
f
Phindi
le:Idot
hingsbasedof
fpeopl
e'
sacti
onsi
promiseiam notgoi
ngsayanyt
hingij
ustwantt
o
checkhowshei sdoi
ng

Thisi
sabadideabuti
fitwi
llputherateaseiam
okaywit
hit
.

Ayanda:Iwi
llt
akeyou

Iam def
eat
ed.
Sakhi
le:Sani
bonabaf
ethu
Me:Moj
a
Sakhi
le:Bayaphil
aba
Me:Bayobhebhana
Sakhi
le:AwMzwakhemf
ethungi
kwenzeni
Me:Uyangi
jwayel
anj
eakukhookunye

Sor
rybudican'
ttel
lyouyet
.

Nonhl
e
Idon'
twantanyonet opit
ymeist i
lldon'
t
understandwhyorhowiwasbeat ent oapul
p.I
paidnoat tent
iont
othei
rconver
sationij
ustwant
them toleavemealone.

Sma:I
twasafamil
ydinnersomesor tof
i
ntr
oduci
ngi
tdidn'
thavetoresul
tinyoubeat
ingup
t
hegi
rl
Samkel o:Doesitl
ookli
keicar
eshesai
dsheis
thereforPhindi
lesowhythefucki
sanot
herman
kissi
ngandhuggi ngher

Manki ssingandhuggi ngohsot hi

sb* tchwas
recor
ding.Ayandawasn' tevendoinganyt hi
nghe
wasjustapol ogizingformakingmef eel
uncomf ortabl
e,iwasi nthemoodi twasahappy
vibeeverybodywashavi ngagr eatti
me.Lindani
camet oshecoul dn'
trecordthat.

Thehousephoner
ingsSmangaget
supt
oansweri
t.

Smanga:APhi
ndi
lei
sher
e

Hel
ooksatme.

Sam:Wenotavai
labl
e
Myphoner
ings.

Phi
ndi
le
Sheignoresmycall
sthegateisnotopening.Iknow
sheisinthei
rwhydoesn'
tshewantt oletmei n,a
textmessagecomesfrom herphone"Iwil
ltextyou
wheniam okay"

Me:Textmewheni
am okaywhatt
hehel
l

Ical
lheragai
nthi
sti
mesheanswer
s.

Me:Nonhl
ewhat
'swr
ongwhywon'
tyoul
etmei
n
Nonhl
e:Whatyoudoi
ngher
e
Me:Iwasbor
ediboughtsomef
oodnowl
etme
Nonhl
e:Nowisnotagoodt
imecanwedot
his
someothert
ime
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndil
epleasej
ustpl
easeiwi
llcal
lyou
whenever
ythi
ngisokaybye
Me:Nonhl
e

Ayandast
art
sthecaranddr
ivesof
f.
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10:
44] :69

Twomont
hsl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Ihavebeent ryingtogetthroughthesepastf ew
mont hs.Il
ivewi t
hMzwakhenowionl ygohomeon
weekends, hehasbeenasweet hearttr
eatingme
wellandaccommodat i
ngmeasbestashecan.My
l
it
tlemunchki nsar estar
ti
ngschoolinacoupl eof
mont hs,Mxolisii
nhi ghschoolst
arti
nggr ade8and
Mvelopr i
mar ystarti
ng7hewentbal last
ic.
Hedi dn'
tfeelitwasf ai
rseparati
ngt hem,butwe
hadt oMxolisineedst ohavehisownvoi ceandbe
hi
sownper sonwi thoutMvelobut t
ingin.Theywil
l
meeteachot herinhighschoolanyways.Nonhle
sti
llhaven'
thear dawor dfrom her,mostpeople
bl
amemef ortheirshort
comingsbecauseoft his
gi
ft.

Mzwakhe:Nt
ombikaMzwakhe
Me:Hey

Heki
ssesmycheek.

Mzwakhe:Mxoli
siut
heuyabuyat
hoset
woar
e
dr
ivi
nghim nut
s
Me:Ngamtshel
eukuthengahambinezi
nganedoes
heli
stennonobodyl
ist
enstome.Butwhenshithi
ts
thef
anohiam needednow
Mzwakhe:St
il
lnowor
dfr
om her
Me:I
tsnott
hef
ir
stt
imeshehasbl
amedme
Mzwakhe:Caniaskf
orsomet
hing
Me:Okay
Mzwakhe:Cel
aukukbonakul
eweekend

Hesmi
lesshowi
nghi
slef
tsi
dedi
mpl
eichuckl
e.

Me:Okay
Mzwakhe:Okayiam goi
ngsomewher
eseeyou
l
ater
Me:James

Theli
ftopenshi
ssignatur
eposeleaningon
el
evat
orarmscrossed,anklescr
ossedandabored
l
ookyesZaddyJames.Heal sor
ecoveredver
ywel
l
aft
eraneardeat
hsituat
ion.

Me:Let
sgoshoppi
ng
Sakhi
le
Missionsarej
ustcominginl
eftr
ightandcent
er,
its
gett
inghecti
cthecrewmetupidon'tknowif
Mzwakhei sgoingt
oapproveanyofthis.

Mzwakhe:Okaywhati
sthepl
an
Me:Ithi
nkweshoul
dsti
cktoournormalr
out
ine,i
f
wechangeandaddunnecessar
ythi
ngswegoingto
getbust
ed
Mzwakhe:Changei
sgoodSakhi
lef
oroncet
hey
won'
tassumeohMzwakhedidit
Me:Br
o
Mzwakhe:Khul
umaningi
zwe
Me:Whyweswi
tchi
ngt
hingsup
Mzwakhe:Cal
litt
henewnor
m
Me:Fuckt
hatyouchanget
hingsiam out
Mzwakhe:Thobani
Me:Wowokay

Itakemythi
ngsandl
eaveiwillnothavet
hisclown
undermi
neme.Hecanforgetaboutmehelpingin
anygighedoes.

Thabi
so:Sakhi
le
Me:Sal
aninemf
eneyenu

Phi
ndi
le
Ihaveneverbeentopr
isonandiam notgoi
ngto
enterone.Weneedtot
acklethempi
losit
uati
on.

Me:Wel
lmymi
ssi
onendsher
e

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Hi
scasei
sbei
ngr
evi
ewedgoi
nther
eandt
alk
tohim.Theonlywayhecangetoutistofor
giveyou
andallt
hechar geswi
llbedr
opped,
itsi
mportant
thathefor
givesyou

Hepopshi
sknuckl
esihopehedoesf
orgi
vehi
m..
.

Itakemysel
ftot
hemal
lineedchampagneand
chocol
ate.

Mzwakhe
Sakhi
lehasal
waysbeensensi
ti
veihadt
ohavea
separ
atemeet
ingwi
ththem.

Me:Af ewt hi
ngsbefor
eSakhi
leget
shereiam
goingtoexcuseyoubecauseyouhaveshownme
yourloyal
ty.Sabel
oubhut
ikaAndil
e
Li
nda:What
Thobani
:Yes
Me:DoesNdumi
soknow
Thobani
:Yes
Me:Smangel
e
Thobani
:It
hekenikaSamkel
o
Me:She'
snotcel
ibat
e
Thobani:Usual
lyacal
lgi
rlsheahmanshesel
ls
thatst
orytotheguysshehastouse
Me:Okaywenotment
ioni
ngt
hist
ohi
m

Theyputmei
nsuchat
ightspotihavet
otel
lthem
myplans.

Li
nda:I
sthatwhyyoul
ikehi
m somuch
Me:Ili
keal
lofyou,
youguysaretheoneswhohate
meiwonderwhybecauseiam t
hesweetestman
al
ive
Li
nda:Sweet
estokay
Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Whyam inotsur
pri
sed
Me:Ohst
opbei
ngababy
Sakhi
le:Yakhul
uma
Me:Sabel
oisont ousandifiam cor
recthehas
beenapartofourdownfal
landmissi
onsgoing
wrong
Sakhi
le:Whywhati
shegoi
ngt
ogai
n
Me:Ubhut
ikaAndi
le

Hel
aughshar
d.

Sakhi
le:Youj
oki
ngr
ight
Me:Thr
eepeopl
econf
ir
medandi
ncl
udi
ngmybaby
Sakhi
le:Youstompi
ngonmyf ootandt
heyt
hinkwe
notgett
ingal
ongtheycangetme
Me:Ngekekubel
ulaukukt
hol
amanj
e
Sakhi
le:
That
sthedumbesti
dea.Somet
imesyou
needmysmar thead
Me:Whatineedist
oteacht
hesef
ool
siam nott
o
bemessedwith
Sakhi
le:Mel
usiyena
Me:Oneheadacheatat
ime
Sakhi
le:i
tscool
Me:Canyougetyourgi
rlout
Sakhi
le:Why
Me:Skhuluangi
thandiukul
wananipl
easej
ust
r
espectthat
Sakhi
le:Iguess

Phi
ndi
le
IseeNonhleandSamkelowalki
ngont hesideof
themall
.Mymi ndst
art
sseeingthingsevenafter
shetol
dmet obackoff
,heissti
llhit
ti
ngher.The
crazyt
winscomehippi
ngandhoppi ng,ihol
dmy
head.
Me:Notyout
wo
Ayanda:Mommywewi
llt
aket
hesef
oryou
Me:Wow
Ayanda:Sowher
etonow
Me:Ithi
nkwecangohomeoht
hesomet
hingi
f
orgottobuyl
etsgo

Webumpint
othem t
hetwinscarr
yonwalkingl
i
ke
t
heydi
dn'
tseeher
.Iseethehurti
nhereyes.

Sam:Heypl
ongt
imenosee

Iignor
ehim andcatchuptotheboysthat'
swhat
shewantedrightandthat
'sexact
lywhatiam goi
ng
togiveher
.
[
06/
06,
10:
44] :70
James
Ihavepr
eparedthemotherofallbr
eakfast
.Myson
myoneandonl ysonisbackhomewi thme, he
comesthroughlooki
ngal
lscaryandmad.

Mpi
lo:Real
lydadr
eal
ly

Hecal
ledmedadhesi
tsdown.

Me:Ihopeyouhungr
yipr
epar
edsomeofyour
f
avori
tethi
ngs
Mpi
lo:Real
lydoyouevenknowhowt
ocook
Me:Ar
eyouangr
yatme
Mpil
o:Ofcour
seiam angr
ydadyoul
eftmet
oroti
n
j
ail
Me:Mpi
lo
Mpi
lo:Nodadno
Her
oar
s.

Mpi
lo:Anywayswher
eismom andHl
elo
Me:Il
ostt
hem
Mpi
lo:Cheat
edonmom
Me:NoAndi
lehast
hem heki
dnappedt
hem

Mysoni
sbackhomewi
thme.

Mzwakhe
Jamessai
dheisgoi
ngtobelat
eihavebi
gger
thi
ngst
oworr
yaboutthanhi
smadness.

Phi
ndi
le:AyMzwakhe

Igetbacki
nthecover
s.
Phi
ndi
le:Notevent
womor
emi
nut
es
Me:That
swhyiaskedf
ort
heweekendbabyiam
busy
Phi
ndi
le:Mxm hamba
Me:Yewenangi
zokubhaxabul
ahmm
Phi
ndi
le:IsawNonhl
eandhermanyest
erday
Me:And
Phi
ndi
le:Hegr
eet
edmeandii
gnor
edt
hem
Me:AwPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndil
e:Shet
oldmet
ost
ayawayandt
hat
'swhati
am doi
ng

Nonhl
e'swor
dsri
nginmyheadPhindi
lei
sthekind
ofper
sonyousayf"
ckyoushesaysf*
ckyoutoo.

Phindi
le:Youknowwhatpainedherthemost
Ayandawal ki
ngoffl
ikehedoesn'
tseehert
hat
s
whatbr okeher
Me:Inst
eadofbeingab*t
chmaybeyoushouldcal
l
herdoesn'
tsheever
yti
met heycal
lher
..Shef
li
est
o
you
Phi
ndil
e:Idi
dthatbabyiwentt
her
ethenextday
andshedidn'
tletmein
Me:Youthi
nkwhenapersonsaysl
eavemeal
one
t
heyactual
lymeanl
eavemealone
Phi
ndi
le:Iam alwaystoblameMzwakheal waysi
di
dn'
taskf orthi
s,idon'
tunderstandwhati
sgoi
ng
onmyself.Idon'
tknowi fiam dying
Me:MzwakheubaniuMzwakhe

Shecri
esokaymaybeiam beingalit
tl
ebithar
sh,
butt
heybestfr
iendsandshouldhavefi
xedthi
ngs
bynow.

Phi
ndi
le
NowthatMpil
oZului
soutmynextfocusist
he
f
amil
ytrappedint
hepool
.Mzwakheisri
ghtmy
f
ri
endshi
pwi t
hNonhl
emeanssomuchmor ethan
t
hispet
tyf
ight
.

HappymanJamesent
erswi
thahugesmi
leonhi
s
f
ace.

James:al
it
tl
esomet
hingj
ustt
osayt
hankyou
Me:Ahhchocol
ateyoudi
dn'
thavet
o
Mzwakhe:Yewenakhehl
ael
igugi
leuyenzani
i
ntombiyami

MzwakhemanMzwakhehasnochi
lli
nli
featal
l.

Me:Wedef
ini
tel
ymovi
ngi
nther
ightdi
rect
ion

Hestrangl
esJamest heboysjumpin,i
ttur
nsi
ntoa
funnybrawl
.Heknocksinaf ewpunchesbutt
hey
overpowerhim hegoesdown, t
heyl
augh.
Mzwakhe:Don'
twor
rybabywej
ustpl
ayi
ng
Me:Aychani
dlal
akabi
Sakhi
le:Youweak
James:Getofme
Linda:AyJameskant
iuxol
ani
niyouusedt
obeat
theshitoutofus

Hei
gnor
est
hem andl
eaves.

Thobani
:Mzwakhef
ixt
his
Mzwakhe:Rel
axmommy

Hegr
absmyneckandki
ssesme.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
yakut
handayezwa
Me:Ngi
yakut
handanami
Li
nda:Somommyuphiuyel
lowbone
Me:Angi
mazi
Li
nda:Manj
eni
bonananj
alo
Me:Kwesi
nyeiskhat
hingenxayesimosamimase
ngi
vukwei
yint
ozam uyakwaziukungehl
isaumoya
Li
nda:Oh
Me:Yeahangi
jwayel
eukuhl
alaengekho
Li
nda:Ungambi
zanj
ekodwa
Me:Ihaven'
tthoughtabouti
tngi
sukengi
sekhaya
naye
Mzwakhe:Awukhoyi
niekhayal
a
Me:Youknowwhatimean
Mzwakhe:Babymi
nanomayi niangi
nanki
nga
ngashoukut
hkhul
ulekai
kwakhomanj el
aungenza
nomayini

Mybr
othercal
lsme.

Me:Hey
Mxo:Masi
mbakho
Me:Hawuol
waniudl
ame
Mxo:Usendodeniyakhof
uth
Me:Il
iveher
e

Sakhi
le
Nkabi
ndecal
ledust
ohi
sfor
tresswhatdoeshe
wantnow.

Me:Towhatdoweowet
hispl
easur
e
Nkabi
nde:Iwanttoint
roduceyoutomynewf
ri
end.
It
oldhi
mi fanyonecandoi ti
tsyouguys

Irecei
veamessagef r
om pnotallisl
ost"
Getoutof
there"
.Unl
iket
hem ichooset
olistent
oher.

Me:Ei
shhadegent
swehavet
ogo
Nkabi
nde:Whatwhy
Me:Ther
e'st
roubl
eathomeweneedt
ogett
her
e
f
ast
Thobani
:Yi
ni
Me:I
mama

Iwal
koutbecauset
heynotgoi
ngt
oli
stent
ome.

Lani
:Goi
ngsomewher
eawsani
thol
akahl
enonke
Nhl
aka:"
Coul
dyal
lbeanymor
edumb"

Phi
ndi
le
It
sbeenanhourwai t
ingher
eforNonhl
eandshe
sti
llhasn'
tar
ri
ved.Myphoneri
ngsismil
e.

Me:Heybabe
Mzwakhe:Whathel
liswr
ongwi
thyou
Me:Sor
ry
Mzwakhe:Usujol
anoSakhi
lemanj
ewenahe
ubhebhananayemanjehewenzi
wayi
ni
ungi
dakelwewenasfebe
Me:Ahnowthati
snowayt
otal
ktoaper
son
i
nki
ngayenuanil
alel
i
Mzwakhe:Buyauzekhayamanj
e

Hehungsup.

Wai
ter
:Anyt
hingel
sema'
am
Me:Thebi
llpl
ease

Heisbei
ngreall
yunnecessar
yifisenthi
mthat
messagehewouldhaveignoredit
.Thismanis
t
aki
nglongileavecashonthetableandgo.
..

Igettotheparki
nglot,
Nonhl
eisstandi
ngnextto
thecar.Westareateachot
hershekeepswipi
ng
herfaceastearsfal
ldownhercheeks.
[
06/
06,
10:
44] :71

James
Everyt
imeihavetotellt
hisstor
yigetsoemotional
notadaygoesby,withoutmemi ssi
ngmywi f
eand
mybabygirl
.Iam suretheyhavegivenuponme
whyisn'
tdaddycomingt ofet
chus,arewefor
ever
goingt
obestuckhere.

Mpi
lo:Wow
Me:I
magi
nei
fit
ellt
heboys
Mpi
lo:Theynotgoi
ngtodot
hatf
rom whatyousai
d
Mzwakhedoestakecar
eofhi
sown
Me:loosecannont
hatonet
heysneakyandver
y
sl
ippery
Mpi
lo:Iwantt
oseet
hem
Me:Idon'
tthi
nkt
hat
sagoodi
dea
Mpi
lo:Wai
tforme
Me:Mpi
lwenhl
eZul
u

Ican'tl
oosehim againj
ustaf
terget
ti
ngoutofjai
l
meandmybi gmout h.I
tswhatgotmeint
otroubl
e
i
nt hefi
rstpl
ace.

Mzwakhe
Iam goi
ngt
hroughaphaseandiam notsur
ewhat
i
tis.

Me:Manj
eakudl
iwangobasi
xabene
Phindi
le:Mawukaziukuthukai
ntombiyakhoshut
h
nokudl
aungakwazi ukuzenzel
a
Me:Mxm t
sek

Iam cr
avi
ngsomet
hingr
eal
jui
cyandgr
easy.

Me:Ngekesi
lokhesi
ncengananaweamaf
oni
si
nawo
Phi
ndi
le:Ukungi
ncengai
yonant
okeozoyenza
Me:Eygowanwena

Nonhl
eisher
ethisonenomat terhowmuchyou
wisht
ohateheryoujustcan'
t.

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Nonhl
e:Icamet
oseePhi
ndi
le
Me:It
houghtyousai
dyoudi
dn'
tli
ke
Sakhi
le:Yi
niwena
Me:Awukahl
e..Mamangi
yaxol
isa
Thobani
:And
Me:Bengamel
engi
khul
umenawengal
eyondl
ela
ngi
yaxol
isa
Phi
ndi
le:Uzokhal
angi
kut
shel
e
Me:Cel
aukudl
ake
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhear
eyouokay

Theyannoyi
ngmewher
eismkhul
ubaeJames,
he
wil
lbr
ight
enupmymood.

Phi
ndi
le
Ican'tt
elli
fhewokeupont hewrongsideoft
he
bedanddeci dedtoi
nsul
teveryt
hingandever
yone
i
nhisway.Hei sact
ingl
ikeabigandisdemanding
somuchat tenti
onfr
om me,doineedtotakehimto
theloonybin.

Not
hando:Howdoyoudoi
t
Me:Hemustknowiam nott hesubmissi
vet
ype.
Mengabeindodaizi
fel
angaweavekulula
ukuyi
lawul
auphindeuyihl
oni
phefut
h
Not
hando:Masei
ngasakuhl
oni
phi
Me:Qoqai
mit
hwal
oyakhobabesuhambe
Mzwakhe:Mommy
Maybehei
scomi
ngdownwi
thaf
lu.

Me:What
swr
ongyouokay
Mzwakhe:Ij
ustwantyou

Icl
imbont
hebedandcheckhi
stemper
atur
e.

Me:Ngobaawushi
sinj
ekwenzakal
an
Mzwakhe:Shhh

Helayshi
sheadonmychestokay.It r
ytoseeifi
canknowwhatisgoingon.Theancestor
sarenot
showingmeanythi
ng.

Me:AhhweeNgcol
osi
Mzwakhe:Ngi
kubhebhePhi
ndi
le
Il
augh.

Me:No
Mzwakhe:Cel
aut
hul
eke

Ican'thol
dmysel
finaspl
itsecond,
het
urnsme
aroundandpul
lsmedown.

Mzwakhe
Sometimesallyouneedi sagoodst eamysexual
i
nter
corsetoreli
eveyouf rom yourst r
essand
anxi
ety.I
tsi
mpor tantikeepmysel fstressf
reet
o
avoi
dmychestbei ngcutopenagai n,Zamaniwil
l
j
ustkil
lmebyt han.

Me:Andt
hanni
na
Whatt
hehellar
etheydoi
nghere.Thel
if
tsopens
Jamesent
erswithaweir
dlooki
ngman,ilaugh.

Li
nda:Hai
bondodazi
shaphi
Me:Mpi
lo
Mpi
lo:Mzwakhe
Me:Iam sor
rybutyoul
ookugl
ywel
comeback
Mpi
lo:Seeit
oldyout
her
e'snot
hingt
owor
ryabout

Sakhi
leat
tackshim wit
hawhip,Thobanikickshi
m,
hefal
lsonhisknees.Ishovet
hebombi nhi smouth
qui
ckl
ycoveringi
ttypeandholdthedetonater
.

Me:Notsof
astboy
James:Mzwakhepl
easedon'
t
Me:Yout hi
nkafteral
ltheseyearsMzwakhei sa
stupi
dheehisast upi
d.Isbindiesi
ngaka
usit
hathaphi
,uyangazingiwubanimina.Uzoqedel
a
i
ntooyi
qal
il
ehee.Ungangi
lokhot
hiyezwa
Sakhi
le:Nxiyoushi
di

Heroughlyr
emovest
het
apeMpi
lospi
tsoutt
he
smallbomb.

James:Ar
eyoucr
azy
Me:Ohshutup
Mpi
lo:Okayideser
vedt
hat
Me:Wat
erundert
hebr
idge
Mpi
lo:Yout
rul
ygonesof
t
Me:Haven'
tyouhear
dngi
nent
ombimanj
e
Mpi
lo:Youcr
azymanhaveagi
rl
fr
iend
Me:Jeal
ousydoesn'
tsui
tyou
Mpi
lo:Youwer
ereal
lygoi
ngt
obl
owmeup
Me:Dynami
tecomesi
nsmal
lpackages
Mpi
lo:Touchee
Me:OkayEverybodythisisMpil
wenhl
eZul
umost
ofyoudon'
tknowhi m becausewel
l
Mpil
o:Iwasbehi
ndt
hescenes.
.Youwor
kforhi
m
now
Thobani
:noNdu
Mpi
lo:St
op

Whyi
shebackt
hough.

Nonhl
e
Ayandaent
ersmyr
oom whi
leiam naked.

Me:Ekhandauyaphi
lakahl
enoma

Heignoresmeandgoest
othecl
oset
,hecomes
backchanged.

"
Canicomei
n"
Athr
owsarobeatmeandwai
tsf
ormet
oputi
ton
t
hanheopensthedoor
.

Luyanda:Ohiam sor
rymommy
Ayanda:That
hai
ntoyakhouphume.
.Mama

"
Canicomei
n"

Me:Gi
rli
sthi
snotaguestbedr
oom
Phi
ndi
le:Noi
tshi
sroom
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phindi
le:Whattheydon'
tli
veher
eunl
essyouwant
tobeinf i
rstf
looral
lbyyour
sel
f
Me:Someprivacyandr
espectwoul
dbe
appr
eci
ated

Hel
eavesbangi
ngt
hedoort
heyl
augh.
Mzwakhe
Weendhavi ngareal
lygoodti
mejustdri
nki
ngand
reminisci
ngaboutt
hegoodolddays.Mywonderf
ul
gir
lf
rienddeci
destobapt
izeMpil
wenhleZul
u.

Me:Okay
Phi
ndi
le:Younotsupposedt
obeher
e
Me:Babewef
ixedt
hings
Phi
ndi
le:Youar
enotsupposedt
obeher
e

Shewal
ksawaybutnotbef
orespl
ashi
nghi
m agai
n
wit
hwater
.

Mpi
lo:Okay
Me:Heyont
hebr
ightsi
deyououtandback
Mpi
lo:Thankyou
Wel
augh.
[
06/
06,
10:
44] :72

James
Ireal
lythoughtt
heywil
lmurderhi
m.Mzwakhe
sometimesdoesholdgrudgesanditmademeso
happythattheywereget
ti
ngalong.

Me:She'sspir
it
ualyouwoul
dn'tbeher
eifi
twasn't
forher
,somaybet herei
sareasonshedi
dthatand
iam pr
ettysureiam goi
ngt
ogetit
Mpi
lo:Whoi
sshe
Me:I
ntombikaMzwakhe

Hepopshi
seyesout
.

Mpi
lo:Hei
sthatl
ucky
Me:Thatl
ucky
Mpi
lo:Al
ri
ghtiam comi
ngwi
thyou
Me:Mpi
locan'
tyouj
ust
Mpi
lo:Si
taroundanddonot
hingnoiam outt
hey
mustseethepri
ncei
sout

Isighiforgotmykidsareasstubbor
nand
tenaci
ous.Ihopehei snotpl
anningont
aki
ng
revenge,wedon'tneedthat
.

Phi
ndi
le
I
fSabeloseest
hischapwhoknowswhatAndi
le
mightdo.

Mzwakhe:Ist
il
ldon'
tli
keyou

Nonhl
egiveshimteawi
thgi
nger
,het
hrewupthi
s
morni
ng,
idon'tknowwhati
sgoi
ngonwithhi
m.
Mzwakhe:Youhurtmybabyal
otyouknowt
hat
..
Hmm thi
sisnotgoodthi
s

Hegi
vest
hecupbackandr
unsupst
air
s.

Me:Di
dheeatsomethingbad,di
dipr
epar
e
somet
hingbadidon'
tunder
stand
Nonhl
e:Gocheckonhi
m
Me:Yout
hinkiwantt
oseevomi
tyouknowmy
phobi
a

I
cewi
lldot
het
ri
ck.

Me:Baby

Hecomesoutoft
hebathr
oom,hepul
lsmyhand
t
aki
ngmewi t
hhimtothebed.
Me:Youokay
Mzwakhe:If
eelhor
ri
ble
Me:Tr
ythi
s
Mzwakhe:Notanot
hert
ea
Me:Noher
e

Hetakest
hecupandgrabsonepieceofice,t
he
minut
eheputitonhi
smouthitwaslikeheaven.No.

Nonhl
e
Phindi
leleftsheaskedmet oaccompanyherididn'
t
wanttobeseen, irat
herbeindoorswit
hthesecrazy
boysthant heanxiet
yofbeingoutsi
de.Theli
ft
opensnott hesetwoagain,
Mzwakhecomesdown
tomyr escue.

Mzwakhe:I
sther
eanymor
eice
Me:Yes
Mzwakhe:Pl
ease

Helooksexhaust
edhesupposedt
obedr
inki
ng
f
lui
dsandeat i
ng.

Me:Doyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantt
oexper
iencet
hatt
ort
ure
agai
n
Me:Butyouhavet
oeatsosi
tiwi
llwhi
psomet
hing
Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone
Me:Si
t
Mzwakhe:OhSabzat
heboysar
edownst
air
s
Sabel
o:Okay

Theli
ftopenst
hisMpi
loguyent
ersanditsli
ke
Sabel
ohasseenaghosthepaysnoattenti
onto
hi
m.
Mpi
lo:Livai
hot
shil
aThabi
so

Wehearst
ompi
ngcomingf
rom Someone,
Mpi
lo
r
unssomewher
eThabi
soshowsup.

Thabi
so:WeeMpi
lowena

Theysor
tofal
lcomebackandi
tshect
ic.

Ayanda:Cel
aungenzel
anami

Heasksl
eani
ngnextt
othest
ove.

Me:Yaziuzosha
Ayanda:Angi
nanki
nganokusha
Me:Okayt
aketheseandheatt
hem upl
uckyf
oryou
t
hisi
saburner
Myphoner
ings.

Me:Heybabe

Shecr
ies.

Me:What
swrong.
.Phi
ndil
ewhyyoucr
yingwhat
'
s
wr
ongwherear
eyouPhindil
e
Mzwakhe:What
swr
ong

I
nst
ant
lyhei
sonpani
cmode.

Me:Phi
ndi
lewher
ear
eyou
Phi
ndi
le:Att
hehospi
tal
Me:Att
hehospi
talwantmet
ocome
Phi
ndi
le:Yes
Shecont
inuescr
ying.

Me:Okayl
etsgoshe'
satt
hehospi
tal
Mzwakhe:Whi
chhospi
tal
Me:
Idon'
tknowl
et'
sgo

Phi
ndi
le
Howdi dthishappeni sn'tcontracepti
vesupposed
tobeprotectingyoufrom get t
ingpr egnant.Iwasa
messhyst eri
call
ycryingiknewi thadt obe
something,thewayhewasshout i
ng, i
nsulti
ngus
andtheconst antthr
owi ngup.Thi sisadi sasteri
j
ustcan'tbepr egnant.

Theyenterwit
hthedoorsMzwakhecomest
omy
si
de.Idon'twanthi
m nearme.
Mzwakhe:Babywhat
'swr
ong
Nonhl
e:Nono.
.Okaysi
scal
m down
Thabi
so:Youspeakwhathappened
Mzwakhe:Baby
Me:Goj
ustgol
eaveMzwakhe

Mzwakhe
Me:OkayThatothi
sistheonetimedoct
orpat
ient
conf
ident
ial
it
ygoesoutthewindow

Hesmi
les.

That
o:Ei
shidon'
twantt
obei
ntr
oubl
ewi
th
Mommy
Thabi
so:Tal
kbef
oreimakeyout
alk
That
o:Congr
atul
ati
onsyougoi
ngt
obeadad
Mywhol
ewor
ldst
ops.
[
06/
06,
10:
45] :73

Phi
ndi
le

Theywayhewassohappyhecoul dn'
tcont i
nue
himself.Theyplaningapart
ytocelebrat
et hese
wonder fulnews,icoul
dn'
tbeli
eveiwascar ryi
nghis
seed.Phamandl ahadt or
emovemyi mplantitwas
uselessnow.Iheaddownst air
stheysingingand
dancing, il
ookatthem.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Mzwakhe:I
yasebenzaboy
Nonhl
e:Congr
atul
ati
onsmyf
ri
end
Me:Ahmanmeamot
her
Nonhl
e:Gi
rlhowf
aral
ong
Me:Fi
veweeks
Nonhl
e:Youbeenpr
egnantf
oramont
h
Me:Andwej
usthumpi
ngandgr
indi
ngnotknowi
ng

Thel
if
topensOl
wet
huandSi
ndi
swa.

Mzwakhe:Si
sii
yasebenza
Me:Manj
euzot
shel
awonkeumuntl
eyont
o
Mzwakhe:Ngi
yaxol
isa

Igrabmysmoot hieandheadupiam notreadyf

or
thi
s.Isti
llhavet
odealwit
hMxoli
sishouti
ngatme,
mypar entsandsist
erweegi
vemeabr eak.

Andi
leMsomi

Letmeint
roducemyself
.Iam Andil
eMsomibest
knownasthehumant r
affi
cker
,druglor
donedoes
whathehastosurvi
ve.Iam 30yearsofageil
ivei
n
abeautifulf
ancyhouselol.Dopeoplesti
lli
ntr
oduce
themselvesli
kethatanyways.IhaveasonPhi l
ani
Msomiadopt edson,hismot herandiwereina
hecti
clovingrel
ati
onshipuntilmybusi
nessgotin
theway.

Ilosttheloveofmyli
fei
ncol dbloodedmur der,ti
ll
thisdayihavenocluewhoassassi nat
edher.She
l
ef thi
m behindhewasthemostcut eadorablet
hing
nowhei samonster
.Het akesaftermeiam as
crueltheycome,wegetalonglikeahouseonf i
re.
Het hanksmeeverydayfortaki
nghi mi n,
ihaveno
i
deawhatiwoul dwi
thmysel fi
fieverlosthim.

Hehasaspi ri
tualgiftonethatwaspasseddown
fr
om ancest or
s.Abi greasonwhymydaddoesn' t
wanthim, ihavegr ownt oignorehim ont hat
.What
elseam iforgett
ingihavef iveothersibli
ngsanda
wonderfulstepmot her.Iwouldkil
lforthatwoman
yeahthat'
sabouti t.
Sabel
o:Andi
le
Me:Yi
niwangenanezi
cabhanj
e
Sabel
o:Mpi
loi
sout
Me:Whoandwhatnow
Sabel
o:Heisbackandhei
slaughi
ngandgr
inni
ng
wit
hthebhengu'
s
Me:Whydi
dn'
tJamest
ellme
Sabel
o:That
'shi
ssonyouhoe
Me:Ohyeahwhywoul
dhe
Sabel
o:Nowi
sthet
imet
omovei
nont
hem

Oricoul
djustgetMpi
lot
ocomewor
kformeagai
n.

Me:Okaywhati
syourpl
an

Mzwakhe
Okaycel
ebr
ator
ymomentoveri
tst
imet
ohaveasi
t
downandfi
gur
eouthowwegoi
ngt
ogoabout
doi
ngthi
s.

Me:Doyouwanttokeepi
tnotsayi
ngiam not
goi
ngtol
etyounotkeepi
t
Phindi
le:Youdon'
tpl
anf
orbabi
essowhydoneed
tokeepit
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:What
Me:Okaysowhati
sthewayf
orwar
d
Phindi
le:Wej
usthavetofigur
eitout
,gett
hebal
l
rol
li
nganddotherightt
hing

Thiscoul dn'thavecomeatahecticmomentforme.
Shewi llnotbepl easedandidon'
twanttol
eaveher
afterhearingsuchnews, butnowmorethaneveri
gottadot his.Iam goingtobeafat
her,
ineedto
provideformyf amily.
Me:Phindi
lepl
easedon'
ttakethisthewr
ongway.I
am sett
ogoonmi ssi
onsitcouldtakeawhil
eto
wrapthi
ngsup,amonthormont hsiam notsur
e
Sakhi
le:"
Zwakal
akusasaskhul
uthi
nasoyi
bamba
noufast"
Phi
ndi
le:Yout
hinkl
eavi
ngi
sagoodi
dea
Me:Youwon'tbebyyoursel
fthat'
swhyOl wet
hu
andSindi
swaareher
e,everybodywil
ltaketur
ns
watchi
ngyou
Phindil
e:Soyouwanttobebackwheniam fi
ve
yearspregnantandyoumi
ssscans,t
hefi
rstki
ck,
fi
rsteveryt
hing
Me:Phelamamaangi
hambiungunaphakadei
ts
j
ustfor

Icantellsheisnotint
erestedinanyt
hingihavet
o
say.Iknowwegot tenusedt ousbeingwitheach
otherandiknowshei sthinkingiam goi
ngtocheat
,
probablybutisi
gnedupf orthis.
Phi
ndi
le:Youcango
Me:Real
lymommyipr
omi
seyoui
Phi
ndi
le:Butdon'
texpectt
oseeababyar
ound
whenyoucomeback
Me:Ohyout
hreat
eni
ngmenow
Phi
ndi
le:Justst
ati
ngf
act
s
Me:Idar
eyouPhi
ndi
leandyouwi
llseej
ustwhati
am madeof
f
Phi
ndi
le:Yout
hinki
am scar
edof
Me:Nobutiknowyourespectmel i
stenher
eno
for
cewil
lbeablet
oprot
ectyouf r
om mywr ath.Not
event
hoseGoddamnancest or
s
Phi
ndi
le:Weshal
lsee
Me:Okay

Andi
le
Itr
iedtof
reeHlel
ofrom t
hepoolshewasn'tcomi
ng
out,t
hecryst
alwasn'
tgl
owingindi
cat
ingtherewas
aproblem ornot.Fli
ppenhellcouldshehavedrown,
nothatcannothappenit akeofmyclothesand
j
umpi nthepoolt hantel
eporttowhereihavekept
them host
age..IgetthereMr sZului
scryingHl
eloi
s
l
ayingstil
lonthegr oundwhatt hehel
l.

Iswi
mtoherandcar
ryherbodyup.

Me:Hl
elo.
.Hl
elo.
..Hl
elowakeupHl
elodammi
t
wakeupyoubl
oodygirl.
.Hl
elo

Shecoughsoutt
hewat
er.

Me:Ar
eyoust
upi
dit
oldyout
okeepyourbr
acel
et
on
Hl
elo:Mama.
..Ma
Me:Unyokoakekho
Hl
elo:Letgoofme
Idr
agherinsi
dethosetwoar
egoi
ngt
owor
kforme
whethert
heyl
ikeitornot
.

Phi
ndi
le
SizwedidsayJameswasgoingt
otur
nonme.I
thanktheancest
orsf
orshowi
ngmetheway,
ihol
d
myst omachandsmile.

Me:Ihopenot hi
nghappenst
oyouandi fitdoes
youbeagoodangelf ormommy.Iknowyouj usta
dotsoonyougoi ngt
obeanact ualbaby.Iwant
whateverhappensnowyouforgivemommyand
daddyokayyeah

Ilaydownandgrabat
hrowohJamespl
easemake
theri
ghtchoi
ce.
[
06/
06,
10:
45] :74
Phi
ndi
le
Ididn'
tt hi
nkiwoul dmi sshi mt hi
smuch.Iam angr y
athim whywoul dhel eavemeatsuchavul nerable
state,
ijusthat eever yoneandever yt
hingaround
me.Thabi soandThat or egularl
ycheckonme, itol
d
theladiest oleavei ncl
udi ngNonhle.Idon'twantt o
experi
encet hispregnancyt hingal
lbymysel fi
meanwi thoutMzwakhe.Igr abmyphoneit hink
aboutcal li
nghi mt hanr ememberiam st il
lverymad
athim.

Iheadtothekit
chentheremustbesomet hi
ngthat
wil
lcheermeup.Igot hroughthecabinetsluckilyi
fi
ndpopcornandsourj el
lybabies.Ineedar efi
llof
everysnackienj
oy,t
hel i
ftopensThabi soentersi
i
gnor ehi
m andmunchonmypopcor n.

Thabi
so:Mzwakhesaysdoyouwi
sht
otal
ktohi
m

Igr
abmyst
uffandwal
kawayf
rom hi
m.Idon'
t
wantt
otal
ktohi
m,hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Ithadj ustbeenaf ewdayssinceilef
tandshe
doesn'twantt ot alktome.Iam hurtsheshoul dat
l
eastf eeltheneedt oventandshoutatme, iwatch
herever ydaytalkingtoourchil
dwithahugesmi le
onherf ace.Theot herdayshewentshoppi ngand
cameacr osscut ebabyshoes,iam defi
nitely
missingoutont hat .Myboyorgir
lihopeoneday
theycanf orgi
vemedaddyhadt owor kforthem.

Sakhi
le:Thosehor
monesar
ereal
Me:Shoul
dhaveseenheratt
hehospi
tali
tsi
tsl
ike
someonewashit
ti
ngherorst
olesomethi
ngver
y
deart
oher
Sakhi
le:SoMzwakhej
uni
or
Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:Webarel
yf i
veminut
esi
ntot
her
elat
ionshi
p
andal
r eadywepregnant
Me:Iwantagir
lhmm idon'
tknowmebeingher
eis
def
ini
tel
yput
ti
ngstr
ainonourrel
ati
onshi
p

Thobanihandsmeaf
il
e.

Me:Thobaniyi
nil
e

Igetup.

Thobani
:Heynamiangazi
Me:Fucki
ngcal
lThabi
sor
ightnoweyngi
zoni
bul
ala
yezwa

Iwal
koutcal
li
ngPhi
ndi
le.

Me:Dammi
tb*
tchpi
ckupt
hephone
Phi
ndi
le:Whatdoyouwant
Me:AwumekancaneuphiuThabi
so
Phi
ndi
le:Thabi
so

"
Yeah"

Phi
ndi
le:Hewant
stot
alkt
oyou
Thabi
so:Yel
low
Me:Yewenasfebengizokubulal
ayezwa,
ngi
zokubul
alakancane,kancaneuzeufi
seukut
h
ngi
qedengawe
Thabi
so:Yi
nimanj
e
Me:Whyt
hehel
lam ir
ecei
vingpi
ctur
esofphi
ndi
le
Thabi
so:Idon'
tknowshehasn'
tlef
tthehousei
mysel
fhavenoidea
Me:Clearl
ysomeoneiswatchi
ngThabisoyoucan
notbeirr
esponsi
bleandnotvi
gil
antatati
meli
ke
thi
s.
Thabi
so:Letmeaskar
oundandseewhatif
ind
Me:Thabi
so
Thabi
so:Ngekengi
vumel
elut
hol
wenzekeku
Mommy

Mygutist
ell
ingmet
ojustdr
opever
ythi
ngand
headhome.

Nonhl
e
Igetanint
erest
ingcal
liwonderwhathewant
sto
ventaboutt
omet hist
ime.

Me:Hel
loMxol
isi
Mxo:YeboNonhl
e
Me:Yousounddownwhati
swr
ong
Mxo:Idon'
tknowmybel ovedsonoutoft
hebl
ue
j
ustblur
tsoutAunt
ieukhulel
we
Me:What
Mxo:Andshe'
signor
ingmycal
ls
Me:Whot
oldyout
hat
Mxo:I
sPhi
ndi
l
epr
egnantiseeyout
wohavef
ixed
t
hings
Me:Idon'
tknowMxol
isiwhywoul
dyoursonsay
t
hat
Mxo:UyamaziuMxol
isiunj
an
Me:Idon'
tknowsweet
hear
teveni
fidi
dit
snotmy
pl
acetotel
l
Mxo:Soshei
spr
egnant
Me:Comebackandf
indoutf
oryour
sel
f

Ihungupihaveaprobl
em wit
hkeepi
ngsecret
s,i
j
ustcan'twhent
hemomentcomesijustbl
urti
tal
l
out.Samkel
ocomestothekit
chenwi
thbaby
cl
othes,hei
ssnoopi
ngaroundmythi
ngsnow.

Sam:Wenotpr
egnantar
ewe
Me:Kanjanungi
bhonyaeveryf
iveseconds,
kwazi
banihl
ampesezini
ngii
zisuezi
phumile
ukungi
bhonyakwakho

Hel
ooksdownandf
oldst
hecl
othes.

Me:Theyf
orPhi
ndi
le

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:She'
spr
egnantohiam soexci
tedf
orher
Sam:Nonhl
engi
yaxol
isa
Me:Yousai
dthatal
ready
Sam:Iknowidon'
tdeserveyouandhavebeena
monstert
oyoulat
ely.Thi
ngsshoul
dn'
thavegot
ten
tot
hepointwher
ei
Me:Wouldyoul
ikesomet
hingt
oeat
ingiam
maki
ngtacos
Sam:Iwi
llgoputt
heseback
Hewalksawayit
urnar
oundwi
pingmyt
ear
show
di
digether
e.

Mzwakhe
Anot hert
hingmybabydoesi ssl
eepal ot,l
ikeri
ght
nowsomebodyhast ogocheckonher .Shehasn' t
eatenyetwhydi dshethrowthel
adiesout ,
Phindil
e
somet imesahugepettychamp.Thescr eengoesof
ilookupmyenemi esareinf
ormati
on,dot hese
foolsreal
lythi
nktheycantakemeoutliket hat
.

Sakhi
le:Awnaf
ikamadoda
Sabel
o:Tookusawhi
let
ofi
ndi
t
Sakhi
le:Mpi
louyeza
Me:Ihavenobusi
nesswi
thMpi
lowej
ustcool
Sakhi
le:Hmm

Ical
lPhi
ndi
le.
Phi
ndi
le:Hel
lo
Me:Mamakodwausungazeungi
zibeyi
ningempel
a
Phi
ndi
le:Whyar
eyounother
e
Me:Angi
funiukul
wanawest
handwasam ngi
yacel
a
Phi
ndi
le:Imi
ssyou
Me:Ubungekevel
eungangi
khumbul
i

Theyl
ooki
ngatmeigetupandheadout
.

Phi
ndi
le
Thesuddenur getopeewokemeupir oll
edover
andwentt othebat hroom.Godbl esst heperson
whocr eat
edensui te,
whowant st owal klong
passagesinthemi ddleoft
heni ght.Idomy
business.
.Fl
usht hanwashmyhandsiam hungr yi
hopeOl wet
hu'sf r
uitsarest
il
lthere.Iwal koutand
metbysomet hingonmyhead, ifreezeont hespot
.
Hi
m:Wal
k

Ist
andput
.

Hi
m:Ladyidon'
thaveal
ldaymove

Hestar
tl
esmehegrabsmygownandt hr
owsitat
me,iwaswear
ingsi
lkshor
tsandsl
eevel
esst
op.

Me:Pl
easedon'
thur
tmei
Hi
m:Shutupputyourgownonandmovei
t

Iputitonwi
thmyhandsshaki
ngwhyaren'
tthe
ancestor
sdoi
nganyt
hing,
hepushesmewiththe
gunandgentl
yopensthedoor
.

Thabi
so:Notsof
astnowdr
opi
t.
.Dr
opi
t
Hi
m:Makeme
Thabi
so:Okay

Befor
ehecandoanyt hinghegetswhackedatt
he
backofhi
shead,iscream hecover
smymout h.He
hi
tsever
ypartofhisbodywithabat,Thabi
soohmy
God.

Hi
m:Okayenoughwegotwhatweneeded

Whyi
sthi
shappeni
ngt
omeagai
n.

Mzwakhe
Ipul
lupt hebal
aclavadamnthisthingi
shot
, idon'
t
usual
lygoonmi ssionswit
hijustleadt
hem outof
danger.

Thobani
:Youar
etheman
Me:Wel
ldi
dyouf
indoutwher
ethosepi
ctur
es
camefr
om
Thobani
:Nobutithi
nkifshewasint
roubl
eshe
wouldhavedef
ini
tel
ysaidsomet
hing
Me:Idon'
tcar
eaboutt
hat

Il
ookoverhi
sshoul
dert
hescr
eenshowsahuge
bl
inki
ngreddot
.

Me:I
sthatacoder
ed
Thobani
:Thabi
so.
.Thabi
so
Me:Thabi
so

Heshowsthehomesecur
it
yhei
slayi
ngf
lat
out
sidemyroom.

Thobani
:"Sakhi
le"
Sakhi
le:"
What
"
Iknewishoul
dhavegot
teni
nthecarandwentt
o
gocheckonher.
[
06/
06,
10:
45] :75

Phi
ndi
le
Thecarstopssomewher ewehavebeendr i
vingal
l
ni
ght,icoul
dn'tseewhereweweregoing.The
windowswer estar
kdarkmyheartwasbeatingout
ofmychest.

Guy1:Thi
swi
llbeyourhomef
oracoupl
eofdays

Theyst epoutofthecarleavi
ngmeal one.Ibreat
he
outisear chfori
nmypocket shopingtofi
nd
somet hingthatwil
lleadMzwakhet ome.Ifi
nda
dist
ressbut t
onipressitandquickl
yputitbackin
pockett hedooropens.
Guy:St
epoutl
ady

Ist
epoutoft
hecart
heyputabagovermyhead.

Voi
ce:Hewi
llsur
elyl
osei
tonceweshi
pherof

Whatshipmeoffitr
ytof
ightt
hem.Theysl
apsme
andi
njectsomet
hingonmeislowl
yfadeaway.

Voi
ce:Takeheri
n

That
'st
hel
astt
hingihear
d.

Mzwakhe
Theyt
ookPhi ndil
eandat
tackedmybr
other
,Sakhi
le
andThobanisitbesi
deme.
Thobani
:Wehaveal
ocat
ion
Sakhi
le:Thear
eai
ssur
roundedbutwecangether

That
ocomest
hroughhol
dingmybr
other
.

Me:Br
o
Thabi
so:Ni
mthol
il
euPhi
ndi
le
Me:Theyhaveal
ocat
ion
Thabi
so:Nibhizini
hlel
ilauPhindi
leakakabuyi
ni
khamisi
le,sukumaniSakhilesukumahamba
ni
yomfunasukumani

Hehi
tsever
yonemaki
ngt
hem getup.

Thabi
so:Getup
Me:Thabi
so
Thabi
so:Mzwakhegetupbefor
eiwipethefl
oor
wit
hyoushe'
souttherepr
egnantgetupandgofi
nd
her

Hehol
dshi
shead.

Thabi
so:Asambeiwantal
lofyoutofi
ndherand
bri
ngherbackhomesafeandsound

Sheismyweaknesstheyknowiam power
less
wit
houther
,isi
tonthi
schairl
ooki
ngaheadat
not
hing.

James
Imadesuretheyal
ert
edaboutacoder ed,shehasa
devi
cewheretheycanpi
npointherexactl
ocati
on.I
di
dn'tt
echni
call
ysendhert
ot heli
onsdenwi t
hout
prot
ect
ion.

Mpi
lo:Dadyousur
ewemadet
her
ightdeci
sion
Me:Yoursawhi
mreadyt
osel
lthem ihadt
odo
somethi
ng
Mpi
lo:St
il
l
Me:What
everhappensj
ustl
etmet
aket
hef
all
Mpi
lo:Dad
Me:Mpi
lwenhl
eZul
u

Iam readyf
oranythingtheythrowatme.Iam not
suremysoncanhemayknowt hegame,hedoesn'
t
knowMzwakhe.Mostpeopl eunderest
imat
ethat
mannobodyi spreparedtogoathimf acet
oface,
that
'swhytheysendpeopl ein.

Me:Relaxiknowwhatiam doi
nghopef
ull
ythi
swill
gethertomovequi
ckl
yandgetyourmotheroutof
thatpool
Mpi
lo:I
fyousayso

Andi
le
Theypouri
cecol
dwat
erathershegasp,
iremove
thebagofher
.

Me:Ri
seandshi
nesweet
hear
t

Igr
abachai
randsi
tfaci
ngher
.

Me:Iunderest
imat
edhi
m het
houghtyouwel
l,
buti
mustsaythatwasawrongmovemydear

Shelooksatmewithnoemot
ionshe'
sbeaut
if
ulno
l
iel
ikereal
lybeaut
if
ul.

Me:Andf ort
ryi
ngt
oactsmar
tiam goi
ngt
opuni
sh
you.
..Br
ingthemachi
ne

Theybr
ingmet heel
ect
rocut
ionmachineshestar
ts
bei
ngscared,
myguyspourmor ewateronherand
connecthert
othemachi
ne.

Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easeiam beggi
ngyoudon'
tiam

Shedoesgettofi
nishhersenttheyzapherwi
tha
mil
li
onvol
ts,icanalmostfeelherpai
n.

Me:Ahbeaut
if
ull
adyl
ookwhatyoumademedo
ar
ghmanagain

Iwonderwhati
tfeel
sli
kebei
ngel
ect
rocut
ed.

Me:Ni
ce
Phi
ndi
le:h.
.Hei
sgoi
ngt
ofi
ndyouandki
llyou
Me:Ihi
ghl
ydoubtt
hat
Phi
ndi
le:Yougoi
ngt
opayf
ort
his
James
Sabel
odr
opsofaCD.

Sabel
o:Andi
lesaydel
ivert
histoMzwakhe
tomor
roworwheneveryoufeelli
kei
tohheympi
lo
Mpi
lo:Pl
easel
eave
Sabel
o:Besengi
hambavel
e

Igr
abthelapt
opandi
nsertt
heCDipr
esspl
ay.He
el
ectr
ocut
eshermyheartbr
eaks.

Mpi
lo:Dad.
.James
Me:Enoughi
magi
nei
fthatwasyoursi
steror
mother
Mpi
lo:Dadt
hiswasnotpar
toft
hedeal
..

Hetol
dmet oki
dnapherMzwakhe'speopl
ewer
ein
hi
ster
rit
ory,
hedidn'
ttel
lmeanyt
hingabout
el
ect
rocut
ion.

Mpi
lo:Whyi
sther
ebl
ooddr
ippi
ngdownhert
highs
Me:Wher
e
Mpi
lo:Pl
ayback
Me:No

Wel
ookateachot
her
.
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06/
06,
10:
45] :76

Sakhi
le
Wewer el
atewhenwegott
her
ewasnosi ghof
anyt
hingbei
ngther
enowwewillneverf
indPhi
ndi
le.

Thabiso:Ayandacan'
tyout
riangul
ateeveni
fit
snot
theexactlocat
ionwhi
chdir
ectiondi
ditgo
Heisreall
yst
eppingitupasabigbrotherMzwakhe
haslosthi
sbrai
nbyt heti
mehewakesupandwe
don'
thavePhindi
le.Majorf
ir
eworks.

Ayanda:Wecant
ry
Thabi
so:Senzo,
Luyandaenzani

Thel
if
topensJamesandMpi
loent
ers.

Mpi
lo:Wol
abaf
ethu
Me:Maybeyoucanhel
puscome
Mpi
lo:What
swr
ong
Mzwakhe:Whatdoyouhavei
nyourhand

Heaskscomi
ngdown.

James:I
tswr
it
tenMzwakhe
Hesnat chestheCDf rom hi
m nobodyaskanythi
ng
theygivehimt helaptop.Heinsert
st heCDand
pressplayswewat ch.Theyelectr
ocuteherfr
om..
Nextthingheat t
ackJamesaf ightbreaksout
betweent hem,surprisingl
yJamesi sall
owing
himselftobebeatenup.

Thabi
so:Mzwakheyi
nimanj
ekwenzenj
an
Mzwakhe:I
shonel
enganeJamesngi
zokubul
ala
yezwa

Andi
le
Mzwakhecanst r
ikeanymomentbutit
hinkheis
sti
llt
ryi
ngtofi
gureout,
whi
choneofhisenemies
tookhisbel
oved.

Samkel
o:WeAndi
le
Me:Yi
ni
Samkel
o:Whoi
sthegi
rll
ayi
ngt
her
e
Me:Mzwakhe'
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Hechuckl
es.

Samkelo:Tel
lmeyouj
ustkepthert
her
eandyou
di
dn'
ttouchher
Me:Imayhaveel
ect
rocut
edheronceort
wice

Il
augh,
hehi
tsmewi
thacushi
on.

Me:Whati
tsnotl
ikeiam goi
ngsel
lheroranyt
hing
Samkel
o:Yewenasl
ima
Me:Awukahl
ekancane
Samkel
o:She'
spr
egnantyoui
diot

Isi
tuppr
obabl
y,mysonshowsup.
Phi
lani:Youcannotbemyfat
heranddidwhatyou
j
ustdid..yabonamanj
eayngi
kushayel
aizandl
a

Myphonebeepsil
ookatt
hem.

Me:Hewant
stomeetup
Phi
lani
:Goddammi
tdad

Mzwakhe
Hesett
lesdownopposi
temehatedoesn'
teven
begi
ntoexplai
nwhatif
eelf
ort
hisguy.

Andi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Whati
sitt
hatidi
dtoyou
Andil
e:Not
hingper
sonalj
ustbusi
nessyourman
havebeendanci
ngaroundmyturfandidon'
tli
ke
that
Me:Soyouki
dnaphert
ogai
nwhat
Andi
le:Tosendacl
earmessagedonotmesswi
th
me
Me:Whatdi
dtheyt
ake
Andile:Leonwasworki
ngwit
hmeidoubl ed
crossedhim,hewenttoyouguysandsetupat
rap
tolureyouguys
Me:Youbor
ingme
Andi
le:Iwantmydi
amondsback

Ical
lNt
obeko.

Nt
obeko:Skhul
u
Me:Thedi
amondsyouguyst
ookwher
ear
ethey
Nt
obeko:Wej
ustaboutt
odel
ivert
hem
Me:Don'
tmoveasyet

Heshowsmecoor
dinat
es.
Me:Iam sendi
ngyoual
ocat
iondr
opt
hem of
fther
e
r
ightnow
Nt
obeko:Skhul
u

Ihungupandsendhimthecoor
dinat
esandwe
wait
.Iseehi
mtryi
ngtoreadmyemotionsbuti
won'tgi
vehi
mthatsat
isf
acti
on.
..

Twohoursl
aterher
ecei
vesamessagesandmakes
thecal
l.

Andi
le:Br
ingt
hegi
rl
..Fol
lowme

Hel
eadsmet
oabl
ackGwagon.

Andi
le:Howdoiknowt
hisi
snotasetup
Iignor
ehim..
.Heopensthedoorshest
epsoutof
thecarhandcuf
fedandabagcoveri
ngherhead.

Phi
ndi
le:Wher
eyout
aki
ngmenowoft
otor
tur
eme
somemore

She'sal
lbloodyandshakingheget sinthecarand
theydri
veoff.Shef
all
stot hegroundcryingihol
d
backmyt earsandl
if
therup, shefight
smei
removethebag.Carspullupcircl
ingusibringher
tomychestandshel et
si tal
lout.

Andi
le
Ipourmysel
fagl
assofwhi
skeyli
steni
ngt
othesi
ll
y
conver
sat
ionmybrot
her
sarehavi
ng.

Si
yanda:Jabul
aphel
ayouf
inal
lybr
okehi
m
Me:Di
di
Igul
pal
lofi
tdownandpouranot
herone.

Sandi
le:Howdi
dthemeet
inggo
Me:Icoul
dn'
treadthebast
ardsf
acehelookedso
col
dandempty,heshowednoemotion.Hedidn'
t
tal
knormovehiseyesfr
om me

Imayhavecr
eat
edamonst
eriwon'
tbeabl
eto
handl
e.

Si
yanda:Andt
hanwenaudl
iwayi
ni

Hi
seyesar
ejustpi
erci
ngt
hroughmyski
n.

Samkel
o:Ngi
yat
hembauzoyi
mel
aint
ooyi
qal
il
e
Me:Angi
musabiuMzwakhe
Samkel
o:Ngempel
angobaniuAndi
lekay1enyint
o
ukut
husaumunt
ukodwaukubulal
ainganeyengane
yedl
ozihee
Sandi
le:Wenzeni
Me:Howwoul
dishei
spr
egnant
Sandi
le:Don'
tyout
alkt
oJames
Siyanda:Kahl
eniboangi
thukhonauboyboyyedl
ozi
nayeyiniengayenzal
o
Samkelo:Eyyaziuzof
isaengabekut
hiwauwenal
o
obuchokhwangogesi
Phi
lani
:Sani
bonani
Si
yanda:Washowaqhamuka
Me:Canigetoutoft
hisone

Hel
ooksatmewi
thdef
eat
.

Me:Phi
lani
Phil
ani:Eybabaumoshileyezwaaykancanefuth
khohlwailempathaebekhul
elweangazingempel
a.
Kuzomel engi
khulumenaboningenzil
uthfut
h
Theonlythi
ngthatcanscar
emei
smysont
ell
ing
meireall
yfuckedup.

Mzwakhe
Ilaybesideherwi t
hmyeyescl osediknowsheis
upt oo.Whenwegother et her
ewasnosi gnof
pregnancymybabywasnomor e.Iwasnumbto
thepai nihavesomanyquest ionswi t
hnoanswers.
Ihol dherti
ghterandbr
inghercl osertomeshe
cries,t
hatsallicoul
dri
ghtnowi stoholdhercl
ose
tome.Igott or emai
nstrongfort hebothofus.

James
Andi
lewasscr eaminginmyearicouldn'
tcareless.
Ial
sodidn'
tknowshewaspr egnantot
herwise,
i
wouldn'
thaveagreedtohaveherkidnapped.Butno
usecryoverspli
tmilkweallhavetomoveon.

Mpi
lo:It
oldyout
hiswasabadi
dea
Me:Shutupandopent
hedoor
Mpi
lo:Dr
inki
ngi
snotgoi
ngt
osol
veanyt
hing
Me:Doyouwantt
ogobackt
ojai
lyeahshutt
he
f
uckup

Heunl
ocksandopensthedoorafamil
iarsmel
lhi
ts
mynost
ri
ls,
MrsZulufamousbeefstew.

Me:Sengi
dakwekakhul
uukut
hsengi
zwai
phunga
l
okudl
aka
Mpi
lo:Ma

"
Hel
lomyboy"

Idr
opt
hebot
tl
e.

Mpi
lo:Hl
elo
Istaggerbackhi
tt
ingsomet
hingdownigoand
blackout
.
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06/
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10:
46] :77

James
It
houghtiwasdr eamingbutnot
heyher
eandt
hey
maki
ngbr eakf
ast,isi
tdownandwatcht
hem
maneuveraroundthekit
chen.

Mpi
lo:Mom
Boniwe:Iam sohappyyoubackhoneywhendi
d
thi
shappen
Mpil
o:Beenafewdaysnowandyouiheardwhat
daddid,
Andi
leletyougobecauseofhedi
d
Boni
we:Nowegotki
ckedoutandiwasst
art
ingt
o
enj
oymysel
fther
eohwell
Hl
elo:Webeenoutf
ort
womont
hsnow
Ichokeonmydr
ink.

Boniwe:Shetol
dyoushewoul dgetusoutwhy
didn'
tyoubeli
eveher,
nodon'ttr
ytotouchme.You
veryl
uckyallt
hishappenbef
oreyouf ool
swent
aheadandkidnappedher
Mpil
o:It
oldhimthiswasabadi
deadidheli
stenno
t
hewayyoul ookedatmesi
siknewsomethi
ngwas
wrong
Hl
elo:Howdi
dil
ookatyou
Mpi
lo:Li
keyoudi
dn'
tknowme
Boni
we:Ohwel
leatyourbr
eakf
ast

Sakhi
le
Wor
dscannotevenexpl
ainwhati
sgoi
ngon.

Thabi
so:Ifyoubr
eaknowwewon'
tbeabl
etoget
thr
oughthis
Icovermyfacewhydoesever
yoneexpectmetobe
str
onginsuchsit
uat
ions,
iam humanalsoiam
al
lowedtobreak.

Me:Kuyaf
anaThabisoangekeenzelut
houvesane
wakhaesi
nyei
slwaneengekesikwaziukusi
mela
Thabi
so:Her
etheycome

West
andup.

Thabi
so:Iwi
llt
aket
hat

Phindi
lel
ooksatallofuswehavefai
ledherwe
fai
ledt
opr ot
ecther
,shewalksawayfrom ust
he
gentsfol
lowherout
.

Me:Youokay
Hiseyesshowdeepcol dness,hi
sfaceshows
nothi
ngbutempt iness.Apartofhim blames
himsel
ff orwhathappenedt oPhindi
le,anotherpar
t
makesyouwantt oswallowal umpst uckinyour
thr
oatlikeiam doingri
ghtnow.Hewal ksaway
aft
ergivingmeananswer ,if
eelataponmy
shoul
der .

That
o:Let
sgo

James
Olwet
hu:Idon'
tknowi
fyoushoul
dbeher
erat
heri
don'
tthi
nktheygoi
ngt
oneedyou

Ial
sof eell
ikeishoul
dn'
tbeher
e,butidon'
twantto
rai
sequestionsandgiveMzwakheanymorereason
toblowmeup.
Me:Iwi
lll
eaveshoul
dtheyf
eeliam notneeded
Olwethu:OhJamesiam sor ryididn'
tmeanitl
ike
that
.Youknowwi thPhindil
elosingthebaby,
ever
ythingi
sjustallovert
heplace
Me:I
tsokayiunder
stand

Thel
if
topensmomentoft
rut
h.

Phi
ndi
le
Weent
erandOlwet
huat
tacksmewi
thahug.Ihol
d
ont
oherti
ght
.

Ol
wet
hu:I
tsokaysi
si
Thabi
so:OhJameshey

IpushOl
wet
huofmeandt
urnmyat
tent
iont
ohi
m.

Me:Wasi
twor
thi
t
Hel
ooksdown.

Me:Iam t
alki
ngt
oyou
James:Ihad
Me:Don'
ttel
lmeaboutchoi
cesever
yonehasa
choi
cewhyJameswhywoul dyoudothi
stome

If
allonmykneesandcr
y.

Me:Don'
ttouchme

Mzwakhepusheshim andpul
lsmeup.Theyt
ook
mybabywithnocareatall
,weent
ert
hebedroom
andicr
ymyhear tout
.

Theyi
njectmewi
thsomet
hingt
heyput
ti
ngmet
o
sl
eep.
Andi
le
SamkelosaidNonhlemi ghthaveabet t
er
underst
andingofwhatMzwakhe' sgi
rlf
ri
endmight
be,weinvi
tedthem overPhilanican'
tseem t
ofi
gure
outhowiam goingtof i
xthis.

Ma:Nonhl
esavakashel
wauwenanamhl
anj
e
Nonhl
e:Sawubonama
Ma:Sawubonanganeyam namanj
eusamuhl
e
umfanawamiukuphet
hekahle

Shemakest
hatsar
cast
icl
augh.

Ma:Comej
oinus
Me:Si
tdownandt
ellmeaboutyourf
ri
end
Nonhl
e:Igotmanyf
ri
ends
Me:I
fyouwasn'
tSamkel
o'sgi
rl
fr
iendr
ightnowi
woul
dhavesl
appedyousobad
Nonhl
e:Butiam andyouwon'
tsowhat
'sup
Samkel
o:Phi
ndi
lebabe
Nonhl
e:Whatabouther
Me:Whatissheandwhatcanshepossibl
ydot
o
me,iknowtheyt
oldyouwhathappened
Nonhl
e:Whathappened
Me:Samkel
oiam goi
ngt
oki
llt
hisgi
rl
Samkelo:AndangerPhi ndil
esomemor etel
lher
whatyoudi dri
ghtnow, sheist
heonlythi
ngthat
canprotectyou.Soleaveyourbul
lshi
toutthedoor
andtel
lher

Il
ookathi
m.

Samkel
o:Andi
le
Me:Fi
neiel
ect
rocut
edheridi
dn'
tknowshewas
pr
egnant
Shel
aughshar
d.

Nonhl
e:Thi
sisbet
tert
hanSamkel
opanelbeat
ing
myass
Ma:I
ni
Samkel
o:Not
hingmaNonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Why
Me:Sor
ry
Nonhl
e:Whyshoul
dihel
pyouguysi
tsnotl
ikeyou
l
ikeme
Me:Ifucki
nghatethatpeopl
enowt
hinkt
heyar
e
notsuddenl
yafr
aidofmeyewenadoyouknowwho
iam
Phil
ani
:Daddadcal
m downubabaisri
ghtuyena
kuphel
eumuntuongakusi
zamawuxabananaye
manje
Me:Yazi
nvesaneuhambeut shel
eloyomngani
wakhondiniangi
musabikanyenendodayakhe
Iam Andi
leMsomiidon'
tbowdownt
onobody.
[
06/
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10:
46] :78

Sakhi
le
Mxoli
silandedt hi
smor ningnowwasnott het
ime
forhi
mt oactlikeanar shole.Sheneedst hesuppor
t
andallthecomf or
tshecanget ,forstupi
d
diamondsi senoughreasont oel
ectrocutesomeone
whoispr egnantatthesamet ime.Andileannoys
thecrapoutofmeiwi sht heyburnhisdi aboli
cal
ass.

Jamesenter
siam yett
oknowhowhei
sconnect
ed
i
nalloft
his.

Mj
:Ubul
alei
nganekaAunt
iewena

Weal
llookathi
m.
Ol
wet
hu:Mxol
isiwozal
a

Hegi
vesJamesabaddeat
hst
aret
hanr
unsof
fjol
ly
t
oOlwet
hu.

Mxol
isi
:Yewena
Ol
wet
hu:Mxol
isil
eavet
hechi
ldal
one

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Ijoi
nthem theyhavingapar tyMxoli
sicameback
ohGodpl easel ethi
m notannoyme.Theboysr un
tome, icr
ouchdownonecl imbsonmybackicar ry
theotheri
nf ront.Mindyoutheyheavyasfuckbut
anythi
ngtot akeawayt hepain.
Me:Ngi
yaphi
la
Mvel
o:Wemi
ssedyoual
ot
Me:Ngempel
aubungi
khumbul
enomaukhumbul
e
ukudl
ala

Hel
ooksdownandl
aughs.

Me:Exci
tedt
ost
artschool
Mvel
o:Iam goi
ngt
omi
ssmybr
otheral
ot
Mxo:Nasekhayaf
uthni
khul
umanesi
ngi
si
Mvel
o:Butdaddy
Mxo:Ahshutup

Wel
augh.

Mxo:Youokay
Me:Iwantt
obeokaybutican'
t
Mxo:Iam st
il
lgoi
ngt
opunchyout
houghso

Li
kemylovealwaystel
lmeihavenochi
llher
br
otheri
stheworst
.

Mxo:I
ssheawake
Me:Man
Mxo:Don'
twor
ryiam st
il
lgoi
ngt
opunchyoubot
h
Me:Don'
tmakemehur
tyouman
Mxo:Real
lywenaul
imazemi
nat
hatwi
llbet
heday

Heent
ersmyr
oom andshout
swel
augh.

Thobani
:Youcan'
tbemadatt
hisguynomat
ter
howmuchyout r
y
Sakhi
le:Nott
or ubsal
tonthewoundbutMxol isi
sai
dsomet hi
ngveryint
erest
ing.Jamescamei nhe
l
ookedathim verybadandsaidubulal
einganeka
aunt
ie
Me:Yousai
dthat
Mj
:Hmm ubul
alei
nganekaaunt
ie
Me:Ngi
zombul
alanami
Mj
:Ungambul
aliumushayekodwa

Hepunchest
heai
rmaki
ngf
unnynoi
ses.

Me:Ngi
mushayekanj
alo
Mj
:Mmm wenzekanj
e

Hedoeskarat
emovesandsoundswelaugh.Akid
j
ustneedsyoutopayat
tent
ionandt
heywil
ltel
lyou
ever
ythi
ngyouneedtoknow.

Andi
le
Igetdownstai
rsandfal
lonthechairididnotsl
eep
welli
nfactidi
dn'tsl
eepatal
l.Ikeptheari
ngbaby
cr
iesandbabi
escr
ying.

Ma:Whathappened
Me:Idi
dn'
tsl
eepatal
l
Si
yanda:Yi
ndab
Ma:Doyouwantanyt
hing
Me:Nomaiam good
Ma:Hai
bo
Me:Thul
ipl
ease
Ma:Whathaveyoudonenow

Isigh.Thi
swi
llsendherst
rai
ghtt
otheemer
gency
room.

Phi
lani
:Hel
loever
yonemyf
avor
it
egr
andma
Ma:Youronl
ygr
andmawhendi
dyouar
ri
ve
Phi
lani
:Yest
erdayiam l
eavi
ngal
sot
oday
Me:Phi
lani
Phi
lani
:AyAndi
lesi
zami
leukuksi
zawal
wawena
Me:Okokqal aangi
siyeuAndi
lengubabawakho
okwesibi
liuzongi
sizangi
phumekulentosyezwana
syezwanana

Hemumbl
essomet
hing.

Me:Ut
hini
Phil
ani
:Dadireal
lyhavetogoican'thel
pyou,
you
needtoapol
ogizetothi
sgir
landthat'
sit
Dad:What
sthepoi
ntofhavi
ngagi
fti
fyounot
goi
ngtouseit

Her
aiseshi
shandhi
sheadf
all
sont
het
abl
e.

Phil
ani
:Mygif
tisnott
obeusedinamali
ciousway
apol
ogizet
oherandshewi
lll
etyougo
Me:i
fyoucoul
ddot
hiswhatcanshedo

Mzwakhe
Igotivdripspreparedf
orheridon'tknowifbei
ng
el
ectrocutedohmandr ainedheroritsthe
ancestors,idon'
tknowshejustdidn'tl
ookokay.

That
o:Ayenzil
uthnj
elent
o
Phindi
le:I
khi
pheiam f
ineidon'
tneedyouguys
tr
yingtomakethepai
ngoawaybecausei twon'
t
Me:Ij
ustwantyout
obeokayt
hat
sal
l
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
twantt
obeokayij
ustwantt
obe
al
one

Sheget
supbutf
all
sbackdown.Thabi
sohel
psher
up.

Thabi
so:Yi
nikodwaunj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
njani
Thabi
so:Uyazinj
eindodayakho
Phi
ndi
le:Khonai
gaziel
izochi
theka
Thabi
so:Eyawusi
yekekancane
Phi
ndi
le:Manj
e

Hel
aughs.

Nonhl
e
Phindi
lehasn'
tcall
edmebuticanf eelshei snot
okaywherevershe.Mxoli
sitext
edmehei sbackat
l
eastshehasashoul dert
ocr yon.Iwasheavyon
thebott
lewhenSamkel otol
dmehi sf amil
ywant s
toseeme.Ihadnoi deaAndiledidthatiam surei
mayhavement ionedthi
ngsishouldn'thave.

Samkel
o:It
houghtweagr
eednott
osayanyt
hing
Me:Iam sor
ry
Samkel
o:HasPhi
ndi
lecal
ledyou
Me:No
Samkel
o:Whatdoyout
hinkmybr
othershoul
ddo
Me:Leti
tgo
Samkel
o:Hehei
shear
ingbabycr
ies
Me:Ifyouguysat
tackorevent
ryt
owhat
everi
tis
youguysthi
nkofdoing
Samkel
o:Heshoul
dcar
ryonwi
thhi
sli
fe
Me:Lethermour
nthet
hebabyt
hatwasst
art
ingt
o
beababy

I
fAndi
leval
ueshi
sli
fehewi
l
llett
hisgo.
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06/
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10:
46] :79

Mzwakhe
Thankstobeingi
nar el
ationshi
piam abl
etohandl
e
toughsit
uat
ionswithalevelmindset
.Hear
ingmy
l
ovetalkandventl
ikethatbrokeme,"Whyaream i
angry,i
st hatgoi
ngtobringmyback.Mycol dness
andlif
elessemot i
onswilli
tbr
ingbackwhatwe
creat
ed,imustst opbei
ngmadandst rikebackhard
andthemyanger nesscancausemet olayhands
onher."thatbrokemeandsor toft
ookmeoutof
mypi t
ypar ty.

Thabi
so:Youl
ookl
ight
ert
odaydi
dyougetsome
goodgood

Isi
gh.Theyl
augh.

Me:Heychamps
Mvel
o:Mal
ume
Me:Mxol
isiokaywenoti
nthemoodt
oday
Mvel
o:Canwegopl
ay

Mxoli
sist
opseat
ingandlooksatmecanhego
al
readyandl
eaveuswit
ht heki
ds.
Me:IfyoucangetMxol
isit
otal
kwit
houtyou
shouti
ngathi
mt hanwecangoplay
Mvel
o:Okayiguessicant
ry

Thel
if
topensandmyboyswal
kin.

Sakhi
le:What
sgoi
ngoni
sther
eameet
ingif
orgot
Li
nda:Jamessai
dyouwant
edt
oseeus
Me:Idon'
tremembercal
li
ngyouguys

Theli
ftopensagai
nwhatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngonwhyi
s
ever
yonehere.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwishedtheytol
dmeorshowedmesomet hingl
ike
thi
swasgoi ngtohappen.Ourhappinesswasshort-
l
ivedidon'tknowwhatmyemot ionsare,if
eel
empt
ymyphoner
ings.

Me:Hey
Nonhle:Heywhat
swr
ongyoudon'
tdon'
tsound
okay

Ij
ustcr
yatt
hesoundofhervoi
ce.

Nonhl
e:Ohmyl
ove
Me:I
sthi
swhatyougot
hroughever
yday
Nonhl
e:Ibr
eat
het
hrought
hewound
Me:Iknowi
twasababybutst
il
liwaspr
egnantyou
know
Nonhl
e:Ohmyl
ove

Thedooropensheseesmecryi
ng,
hepull
smei n
forahugiwarpmyarmsaroundhi
m andcry.
James
Idecidedt otel
lthem thetrut
hiam notaf r
aidof
dying.Myonegoalwast ohavemyf amil
yback
togetherinonepi ece,andnowt hattheybackidon'
t
minddyi ngforthem.Ical l
edtheboyswhoseemed
tobecl osetoMzwakhe, mysonwasher ealso.I
don'tthinkineedhi m howeverthereisafewinthe
packwhodon' tmi ndpull
ingthetri
gger.

Mzwakhewal ksi
nandsit
sdownhiseyeswerered,
idon'tknowwher
eiam goi
ngtost
artapol
ogi
zingto
Phindil
e.

Me:Igotsomet
hingt
otel
lyou
Ndu:Yout
hemol
e
Sakhi
le:Ndu
Me:Yesiam
Ndu:Nxingazi
le
Sakhi
le:What
Ndu:It
oldal
lyoub*
tchesheisasnakeheisthe
onl
yonewhoknowseverythi
ngwit
hinthecr
ew
Me:Al
lthebi
gdeal
sthatwentwr
ongwasbecause
ofme
Mzwakhe:Yaziuyangi
bhor
a
Me:Ial
ongsi
deAndi
lewant
edt
otakeyoudown
Thabi
so:Excuseme

Iam lookingatthem t
heyver
ycalm andnot
respondingwhichscaresmetodeath.Itel
lthem
everyt
hingihavedone, t
hemoneyheiststhatwent
wrong.Themi ssingmoneybags,t
ippingofthe
poli
ce,tr
yingtopinMzwakhewithdrugs.

Thabi
so:WowJamesonwow
Sakhi
le:James
Ndu:Nyamest
sekkudal
alesgogwanisi
shambel
a
ot
herwise
Mzwakhe:Shutupal
lofyouj
ustshut
,thi
sisnotmy
whol
ecr
ewwhyyounott
ell
ingever
yone
Me:It
houghtit
ellpeopl
ethatar
emostcl
oset
oyou
Mzwakhe:Soi
fical
lever
yoneyouwon'thavea
pr
obl
em withr
epeat
ingwhatyouj
ustsaid
Me:No

Henodsandget
supever
yoneoft
hem t
akesout
t
hei
rguns.

Mzwakhe:Ayehlisaniumoyangekengimenzelut
h..
Yaboangikuzwangifunaukukbukaemehl
weniz,
fut
hanginendabanalentooyi
shoyo.I
szat
husokuth
uPhindi
leakhal
ekungani
Me:Ihadt
omakeachoi
ce
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lewast
hesacr
if
ice
Me:Ionl
yhadt
obr
ingher
Mzwakhe:I
nor
der
Me:Tost
ophi
m orr
atherder
ailhi
mfr
om t
raf
fi
cki
ng
mydaught
er
Mzwakhe:Whycouldn'
tyoutel
lusheki
dnapped
yourdaught
eryouknowilookoutf
ormyown
Me:Isnott
hatki
ndofki
dnappi
ngmywi
feand
daught
erweretr
appedi
nsi
deapool
Thobani
:Fuck
Thabi
so:Youknow
Thobani
:Ahbutst
il
lyoumot
herf
uckercoul
dhave
tol
dus
Me:Kanj
anThobanibeni
zobakhi
phakanj
an
Mzwakhe:Someoneexpl
aint
omewhatt
hehel
lis
goi
ngon
Me:Phi
ndileknowsshe'
stheonewhoinst
ruct
ed
metostealthemoneybutasal
waystheywould
messup
Mzwakhe:Yazini
nenhlanhl
angiyaj
olawaaey
ukukbul
alangi
zozuzaniheeJamesZulu

Igetupidon'
twantt
obei
nther
ecei
vingendof
what
everhei
sthi
nki
ngi
nthatscr
upul
ousmi
nd.

Mzwakhe:Ohuyabal
eka.
.Mamamommy

"
Mzwakhe"

Mzwakhe:Cel
auzengaphakubi
oskope
Phi
ndi
le:"
OhGod"

Phi
ndi
le
IsteelOl
wethu'
sfrui
tsal
adandyogurtthanheadto
thetheat
erroom.Butist
ophal
fwaythangobackt o
thebedroom,iheart
herumbl
edownst air
s.Idi
dsay
ijustwantt
obei nmyroom.

Mzwakhe:Iam sor
ryishoul
dn'
thavedonet
hati
wantt
okillhi
m sobad
Hescr
eams.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
yaxol
isakodwa
Me:I
tsokay
Mzwakhe:Tel
lmeaboutt
hisf
ami
lyofhi
str
apped
i
nsi
deapool
Me:Letmeshowyou

Mzwakhe
Jamesi sreachi
ngidon'tknowhowhehadt hegut
s
totakemeon.Hel earnedat hi
ngort wof
rom dadi
am surpri
sedwedon'tknoworr ememberwhoheis.
Iam supposedhurtanddi sappoint
mentwil
lwe
evermovef orwar
dfrom this.

Phi
ndil
e:I
tsnotj
ustanypooli
samagi
calpoolwho
caniuset
odemonstrat
e
Me:SukumaSakhi
le
Hewon'tl
eti
tgoli
keiam soimustdomybestt
o
easeJamespuni
shment.

Sakhi
le:Whymeyouknowwedon'
tgetal
ong

Heget
sup.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayt
ryi
ngcomi
ngt
ome

Het
ri
est
omovebuthei
sst
uck.

Sakhi
le:Hai
bomommyyi
nimanj
ele
Me:What
swr
ong
Sakhi
le:Okayidon'
tli
ket
hisnotonebi
tgetmeout
ofher
e
Phi
ndi
le:I
magi
net
hatbutunderwat
er
Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Yi
niwhyyoubei
ngdr
amat
ic

Hesi
tsdownbr
eat
hingheavi
ly.

Phi
ndi
le:Youcl
aust
rophobi
c
Me:Amongstot
hert
hings
Sakhi
le:Thatwasnotgoodbr
othatwasnotgood
Me:Sohowdowegett
hem out
Phi
ndi
le:Theyal
readyout
Me:What
Phindi
le:Kudal
angabakhi
phangangi
tshel
iwe
uzongenzelaphansi
Me:Youdi
dn'
tthi
nkatl
eastt
otel
lme
Phindi
le:I
tisnott
hatdeepyourancest
orsknew
abouti
tandicouldn'
tri
skanyoneknowingbecause,
whoknowswhatt hatmonstercoul
dhavedone
Thabi
so:Not
hisdoesn'
tmakeanysenseweneed
toseet
hisf
ami
lyJamesi
stoocockyf
orhi
sown
good
Me:Anduyazingekengi
menzel
uthakanendaba
nokushonaf
uth
Thabi
so:Exact
lyl
ikeSf
isoist
il
lsaywemustmeet
hi
sfamil
y
Me:Whati
fheki
dnapst
hem agai
n
Phi
ndi
le:Not
hingoft
hatsor
tisgoi
ngt
ohappen
whi
leiam ar
ound
Me:Aht
hul
aakekhookubuzi
le

Shesmi
lesandheadsupst
air
s.
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46] :80

Mzwakhe
Idi
dn'tknowwhattomakeofallt
hisbutt
hanher
words,keptr
ingi
nginmyheadstri
kebackhard.Out
ofnowhereSakhil
eandThobaniwhipt
heshitoutof
James.
Sakhi
le:That
'sf
orl
ying
Thobani
:That
'sf
ormaki
ngusl
osesomuchmoney
Sakhi
le:I
nganekamommy

Hegr
oans.

Thobani
:Ifwedi
dn'
tloveyout
hismuchyouwoul
d
be

Theywhi
phi
mti
llt
heysat
isf
iedt
hanl
augh.

Me:Maout
ienj
ankant
ingi
theni
ngamt
hint
i
Ndu:Akazi
khohl
iweomunyeumbengest
iezenza
uMzwakhe
Me:Ut
hini
Ndu:Ayl
uth
Theyl
augh.

James:I
tsokaysi
r
Me:Thathastochangefr
om nowonwar dsyou
addr
essusbyournamesi fheevercal
lsanyoneof
yousi
r,per
missi
ontoslaphimthefacegrant
ed
Sakhi
le:Shhht
urnt
hatup

ThesoundsofSj
avaechoest
hewaySakhi
lel
oves
Sj
ava,Phi
ndi
lehasmadeasoli
dpl
aceinhi
sheart
.

Sabel
o:Kunej
iveyi
ndabsi
hlanganel
ala
Me:Yekal
aminangizi
xakengal
okhoasi
khulume
ezi
sengakho,
zwakalavadangedl
adl
eniwena
wedwakhonaist
uffengi
kuphat
hel
esona

Henods.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwasplanni
nganot hervacat
ionaf t
ert hatiam
pl
anningonretur
ningbackt owor k.Livingwit
h
Mzwakhehasbeenver ybenefi
cialformespi ri
ts,
headachesandtort
uredon'tatt
ackmeanymor eor
notasmuchast heydidwheniwasathome.

Ol
wet
hu:Whatyout
hinki
ngofdoi
ng
Me:Woul
dyourhusbandhaveaprobl
em wi
thyou
l
eavi
ngagai
nwegoingnottofar
Ol
wet
hu:Youi
nvi
ti
ngmet
oanot
hert
ri
p
Me:Yes
Ol
wet
hu:Oht
hancountmei
ngi
rl

Notinvi
ti
ngSethu,l
ondi
ewillprobablybewor
king.
It
sbeenawhilesincewelasttalkedandit
sshort
noti
ce.
Me:Anyot
her
sgi
rlicani
nvi
tebesi
desus
Olwethu:Thereist
hisonel
adyidon'
thowwe
dri
ft
edapar tshedeci
dedshewastoocoolt
ohang
outwithus
Me:Wellitwouldbeagreatideat
oinvi
teher
t
onightandallofuscansortofst
artoncl
eansl
ate
Ol
wet
hu:Wellyoucanaskyourmanhewi
llbeabl
e
t
omakeithappen
Me:Awesome

Mzwakhe
Li
nda:Umommyl
odl
alai
staf
fesi
nswempukanj
e

Ibetyousheusedtogotocl
ubsalot,
idi
dn'
ttur
n
onthescreensj
ustl
ist
eni
ngtowhat'
sgoi
ngonin
thepent
house.

Me:Thi
nkyoucanmaket
hathappen
Nka:No

Leratoidon'
tknowshesuddenl
ydevel
opedthi
s
hatetowardsus.Shewasasweethear
tandthe
otherladi
estur
nedheragai
nstuswhyidon'
tknow.

Me:I
yint
ombizenuzi
yakenyayezwa
Nka:Iguessicant
ry
Me:Br
ingt
heki
ds
That
o:Uhm wehavet
ogo

Thei
rpagesr
ings.

That
o:I
yobonana
Sabel
o:Canileaveal
soi
fther
e'snot
hingmor
eiwi
ll
comebylater
Me:Skhul
u
Theyl
eave.

Li
nda:Khul
umai
ndabasi
lana
Me:l
onkelovuchuol
uqedaukuhambai
sagai
nstme
yi
boabaf
unaukungiqhumbaphansi

That
ocomesbackipulloutmyphonehei
sbackto
bugme.Iwonderi
fheactsli
ket
hiswit
hhi
swifeor
i
sheamonst erwi
thher.

Me:Yazii
mamaal
inzinj
engawe
That
o:Ahah

Heevenhashisar
m under
neat
hmi
nel
eani
ngon
myshoul
der.

That
o:I
mamamel
elazinat
hisi
khona
Me:Wat
choutf
orMel
usi
,Sabel
oisAndi
le'
sbr
other
don'
twor
ryNdui m notgoi
ngt
oki
llyouunl
essyou
gi
vemear eason

Hel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam notsureifimustinvit
eNonhl ewillsheeven
agree.Jamesfami l
yentersaccompani edbyMpi l
o
ZulubothherandMrZul uhaven'tagedabit.James
l
ooksl i
keacompl etesnackher eall
ytakescareof
hisbody,l
ivi
nginther i
verhel
pedBoni weabi t.

Me:Wel
l
Boni
we:Thankyouf
ori
nvi
ti
ngus
Hl
elo:Doyouneedhel
pwi
thanyt
hing
Me:Whatyoupl
anondoi
ngnowt
hatyouout
Hl
elo:Idon'
tknowit
hinkiwantt
ost
udyawayf
rom
t
hiscountry
Me:That
snicebutt
her
e'snot
hinghecandonowt
o
hur
tyouguys
Hl
elo:St
il
lsf
eelwei
rd
Me:Iknowr
ight

Nonhl
etextmebackshecan'
tmakeitbutonthef
or
t
hevacati
onhmm iam bummed.Butiguessigot
t
obondmor ewi
ththebhenguwi
ves.

Me:Wecanmakedesser
t
Mj
:Aunt
ie
Me:Yebokhehl
alami
Mj
:Cel
aukudl
a
Me:Okayuf
unani

Heshr
ugs.

Mzwakhe
Myhousel ooksbreathtaki
ngPhi ndi
lereal
lyhasa
neckforthesekindofthings,wef i
nal
lygettomeet
Jamesinfamousf amily.Hejoinsuslookingdapper
asever,t
hewi f
eblushes.

Thobani
:Okaynow
Thabi
so:Evenmyf
atherwasn'
tli
ket
his
Me:Ayayubabawayemuhl
ekabihowyout
hinkhe
gott
enchi
ldr
en
Thabi
so:i
fyoudon'
twat
chi
tyougoi
ngt
oendup
l
ikedad

Il
ookathim heisafineonet
otal
kespeci
all
yletme
l
eavei
tthere,welaugh.

Me:SoMr
sZul
uuwel
o
James:Thi
sismydaught
erHl
elol
wenkosi
Li
nda:Hmmm youar
ebeaut
if
ul
Me:No
Li
nda:Hawu
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Hisor
ryiam sor
ry
Me:Comeher
e
Phi
ndi
le:Awkodwabhengu
Me:I
phel
ani
nil
ent
oyenu

Theli
ftopensSabel
owal
ksi
nshi
tif
orgotwhati
cal
ledhimfor.
[
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47] :81

Andi
le

Mandi
sa:Damncanyougetyourphone
Me:Awukahl
emandi
sangi
funaukul
ala
Mandi
sa:Iam t
ryi
ngt
osl
eepal
so
Whoeveri
tiswi
llj
usthavet
owaititwasawi
ld
ni
ght
,aloudbangonthedoorannoysme.

Me:Kant
iyi
ni
Voi
ce:Vul
ayouswi
ne

Sl
eepyigetofbedandheadt
othedoor
.

Me:What

Hesmacksmeicl
enchmyJaws.

Sabel
o:Lookatt
hisawuyi
phendul
ingani
foni

Ilookathi mthanrunouthef oll

owsme.Idon't
bot hert
akingofmycl othes,
ijumpinthepooland
teleport
..Theygone.
..theygone..No.
Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhewasnotkeenonwaki
nguport
aki
nghi
s
d*
ckout.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
leyi
ni
Me:Ngi
funaukuyochama
Mzwakhe:Chamaphel
a
Me:Kuzonukaumbhede.
.Mzwakhe

Hegent l
ytakesitout.
..ican'
tholditanymor e.
..I
runtothebathroom andt akeanicelongpee.He
enter
saf t
erafewsecondshet akesapi sstoo,ihad
toomucht odrinklastnightwasamazi ng.Iam glad
theygoingfi
xthingstogether,
nomor ebetr
ayaland
nomor eli
es.

Hewipesmewhileki
ssi
ngmeewwmor ni
ngbreat
h,
hef
lushes.Weheadt
othesi
nkwashourhands,
thanbrushourteet
handwashourfaces.Per
sonal
hygieneisamustformeican'
tbutasamanf orme
yougottobeclean.

Wegetbackint
hebed..Backhisd*ckgoesi
nohno
howam igoi
ngsur
viveanotherhourst
ocome,wi
th
hi
sthi
nginsi
deofme.

Mzwakhe:Kubuhl
unguyi
ni
Me:No
Mzwakhe:Okayt
hulaumsindoul
ale.
.
Ngi
zophendul
angibhekel
emaseuyakhal
a

Ikeepmymout
hshutandcl
osemyeyes.

James
Myhearti
scomplet
emywi febackinmyar
ms,my
chi
ldr
eninonepi
ecewhatmor ecoul
damanask
for
.Weagreedt
ofixthi
ngsandnowihavetost
ep
upandplayt
hef
atherr
ole,
icoul
dn'
tbemor
e
happi
er.

Boniwe:ManjeMagebamasushiyaizikhal
izakho
yonkeindawouyaziangi
zwaninal
ezinto

Somet
hingbr
eaksi
ntheki
tchen.

Boni
we:Mpi
lowenzani
Mpi
lo:I
twasn'
tme
Boni
we:OhmyGodJames

Weheadt otheki
tchenandt
hemostdanger
ousand
cunningani
malislayi
ngonwhatwast
hekit
chen
tabl
e.

Me:Don'
tpani
ctheyhavef
orgi
venme
Boni
we:Whati
sitdoi
ngi
nmyki
tchen
Myheartmelts.Iwi
llf
oreverbegr
atef
ult
othat
beaut
if
ulyounglady.

Andi
le
Allofmewasn' tfuncti
oni
ngnobodyhasthatkindof
powert oenteri
nt hepool
,nobodyhowthehelldi
d..
.
Isigh.Igrabmyphoneandcal lPhi
lani
.

Phi
lani
:Pi
ngoshe
Me:Ungangi
bangel
iisdi
nayezwa
Phi
lani
:Whathavei
donenow
Me:I
sther
eanyt
hingmor
epower
fult
hanyou
Phi
lani
:Thewomanyouel
ect
rocut
ed
Me:Cansheent
ert
hepool
Phi
lani
:Noonl
ythecr
yst
alcanal
lowheri
n

Ikeepi
tonmeal
lthet
imehowcoul
dshehave
got
teni
t.

Ma:Thi
scamef
oryou

Iputthephonedownandopent heenvel
ope,t
he
cryst
aldropsdown."
Sti
llnotscaredofme"thenot
e
reads.

Me:Phi
lani
Phi
lani
:St
ayawayanddon'
tdoanyt
hingst
upi
d

Hehungsup.Ithrewtheglassinmom'sdir
ecti
on
sheranbefor
eitcoul
dhither,icl
ear
edeveryt
hing
thatwasonthecounter
.Takingmyfrust
rat
ionout
onthesinkandthecabi
nets.

Sandi
le:Andi
le.
..Andi
leman
Me:Theyt
hinkt
heyhavewont
heyt
hinkt
heywon
Sandi
le:St
op.
.St
opi
t
Me:Nobodywinsagai
nstmeiam goi
ngt
oshow
t
hem whothef
uckAndil
eMsomiis

Mzwakhe
Phindil
e'
sscream wakesmecausi
ngmyd*ckto
pulloutinavi
gorousl
yinhumaneway,
iam sur
e
thatcausedalotofpai
n.

Me:Yi
nikodwaf
uckPhi
ndi
le

Whydoesshehavet
oscr
eam l
ike.

Me:Kodwaj
ereval
enganeyoh

Ishouldn'
tbeshout
ingt
hat'
sgoi
ngt
omakeher
emotional
.Il
ookatherdammitt
ool
atet
hedamage
i
salreadydone.
Me:Okayiam sor
rymyl
ove.
.Ngi
yaxol
isamama
Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
ry
Me:Nobabydon'tworryaboutt
hatnongiyaxol
isa
okayphel
ankosazaneungakhalimommyungakhal i
awnzenebaki
thi
,inkosazanel
eenkuluekhal
ayo
aybohm mm baby
[
06/
06,
10:
47] :82

Phi
ndi
le
Iwaswat
chi
ngt
hem f
rom t
heki
tchen.

Mzwakhe:Mommy
Me:Nir
eady
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Ni
kul
ungel
eyininaumalensi
zwayakwaMsomi
i
gadl
anomanisanekeamasendenkosi
nat
hi
Ishout
.

Me:Yaphel
angi
yani
buzaNhl
anhl
a

Jamesent
ersigott
ohi
m andpul
lhi
shand.

Me:Babukebanekeamasendeabo, bukabuka
badl
aimal iyaminjekuphel
aaybayayi
bhubhudl
a
shame..Azazilut
hlezint
olut
hawshamel okhu
okuwunhlanhlakuyazamashameakufani

Nextt
hingif
aint
.

Mzwakhe
Andi
lecancomeatmeal lhewant
siam r
eady,ai
n't
noprecauti
onsiam goi
ngt ot
akeandt
heybett
er
noti
nvolvePhindi
le.
James:Sheact edli
keyourfatherhewouldpullme
andwest andbehi ndatintedwindow.Andscream
l
ooklookt heybusyst uf
fingandshitt
ingmymoney,
Iwouldstandt hereandhewoul dpushmei nsi
de
andeverythingsortofpickedup
Me:Oht hat
swhyshewasscr
eami
nghei
smad
aboutsomethi
ng
James:Sur
elySabel
otol
dhi
m
Me:Idon'
tunder
standwhycan'
ttheycomeatme
di
rect
ly
Sakhi
le:Theycan'
tb*
tcht
heycan'
t
Me:Aysuka

Thi
sismaki
ngmeangr
y.

James:There'
snoreasontoactnowortake
precaut
ionsSabel
oisstupi
dandpredi
ctabl
e
Me:Youatr
uedefi
nit
ionofl
ooki
ngmei
nmyf
ace
andtaki
ngmedown
James:Il
ear
nedf
rom t
hebest

Igetupheget
supwehugandwej
ustal
low
oursel
vest
obeemot
ional
.

Sakhi
le:Gr
ouphug

Phi
ndi
le
Iwentoutt
olunchwithNonhl
eandOlwet
hushe
wastel
li
ngusthatThabi
soref
usedhert
ogoout
wit
hus.

Nonhl
e:Butit
snotl
ikewegoi
ngt
othecl
ubyeahwe
dogotoclubs
Ol
wet
hu:Hef
latoutr
efused
Me:Iwi
llmakehi
m agr
eenobodycansaynot
ome

Wel
aughhei
sgoi
ngt
olethercomet
othet
ri
p.
Si
ndi
swa:Ladi
es
Me:Ahyoucame
Si
ndi
swa:Woul
dn'
tmi
ssi
tfort
hewor
ld
Nonhl
e:Ar
eyouguyst
winsorsomet
hing
Si
ndi
swa:Youcanj
oinusandwebecomet
ri
plet
s

Theyl
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Rat
o..Rat
ocomeon

Hmm shei
sbeaut
if
ulshecomest
ous.

Ol
wet
hu:Kodwar
atowhatdi
dwedot
oyou
Rato:Reall
yreal
lyMr
sDoni
fyouguyswerenotso
persi
stenti
nsett
ingmymanupwesti
llwoul
dbe
fr
iends
Ol
wet
hu:Wewoul
dneverdot
hat
Rat
o:Pl
easedon'
tpat
roni
zeme
Sindiswa:Whyyouaccusi nguswithoutfactsi fi
remembercor rect
ly.Wendyandtheot herladies
wer etryi
ngtodothatthanblameditonus, i
twas
MzwakhewhogotNkanyi sooutoft hatsit
uation
afterwet ol
dhim whathappened.Honeywedon' t
caret osetanyoneupaninsecureb* t
chwoul df eel
that

Nonhl
e'
sjawdr
ops.

Me:Yeahyoushoul
dn'tbehangi
ngaroundt
hose
peopl
esomeofthem don'
tevenli
keyou
Rat
o:Andyouar
e
Si
ndi
swa:I
ntombikaMzwakhe
Rat
o:Whatwowyourbeaut
if
ul
Me:Thankyou
Ol
wet
hu:Gi
rlsi
tdownwedi
dn'
tdot
het
hingsyou
ar
eaccusi
ngusof

Andi
le
Theyent
erliket
heybeingchasedbyaghostor
somethi
ng,someofthem areinj
ured,
someofthem
havenoclot
hesonthisgottobeinter
est
ing.

Me:Whatt
hehel
lhappened
Fl
ower
:Eyboss
Me:Don'
tEybossmewhatt
hehel
lhappened
Fl
ower
:Gr
andshar
pref
it
lel
edar
Me:Iwil
ltur
nyourassi
ntoar
ealf
lowerspeak
coher
entl
y
Fl
ower:Okaywewerethereasperyouri
nst r
uct
ions
wefol
lowedthegi
rlhoweverwecouldn'
ttakeher
Me:Excuseme
Fl
ower
:Themostunbel
ievabl
ethi
nghappened
Vukani
:Abunchofsnakesat
tackedus
Il
aught
heyl
ookatme.

Fl
ower:Afewofourmendi
ednotj
ustanysnakes
bi
gblackMamba's

Myphonebeeps.

"St
ayawayf
rom t
heZul
u'sMsomiyoupushi
ngmy
hand"

Themessager
eadsmyson'
scal
lcomest
hrough.

Me:Fi
neifit
swart
heywantwari
swhatiam goi
ng
t
ogivethem

Phi
ndi
le
Wej
ustgotbackt
hatwasagr
eatdayf
il
ledwi
thj
oy
andlaughter
.Iextendedthei
nvit
etorat
oshedidn'
t
l
iketheshortnoti
cebutagreedtocome,nowihave
toi
ronaf ewthingswithThabi
sotheDon.

Me:Baby
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:uThabi
soukhonangi
funaukukhul
umanaye

Hel
ooksatme.

Mzwakhe:Whatyouwantt
otal
kabout
Me:Canyoubel
ieveher
efusedOl
wet
hut
ogoon
ourgi
rl
str
ip
Mzwakhe:Gi
rl
str
ipyanimanj
e
Me:Thel
adi
esandiar
egoi
ngonl
it
tl
etr
ipagai
n
Mzwakhe:Ar
ewegoi
ngt
ofi
ghtaboutt
his
Me:Yeapiam goi
ngtohateyouevenifiwas
di
agnosedwi
ththisgi
fti
nbetweenthatiwoul
dgo
onvacat
ions
Mzwakhe:Di
agnosed

Hechuckl
es.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
tknowwher
eThabi
soi
sandpl
ease
don'
tinvol
veme
Me:Don'
twor
ryiam nott
hatdumb
Mzwakhe:Manj
euyaphi
Me:I
Mzwakhe:Wozal
auzobuyeumboneuThabi
so
[
06/
06,
10:
47] :83

Phi
ndi
le
IhavebeenlookingforThabi
soal
lover
,somehow
i
tsli
ketheuniverseknewiwantedt
oseehim and
wasjustder
aili
ngthemat t
er.
Me:Justt
hehumaniwantt
osee
Thabi
so:Ar
eyoumar
ri
edPhi
ndi
le
Me:No
Thabi
so:Okaysowhatichooset
odowi
thmywi
fe
i
sofnoconcerntoyou
Me:Wenotevenf
arf
rom her
e
Thabi
so:No
Me:Thabi
soi
t
Thabi
so:Ngi
thechabikant
iawuzwayi
ni
Me:Wellt
hanfine.
.Iam sureshewil
lbeexci
tedt
o
l
earnherhusbandimpregnatedsomebodyel
se

Het
urnsar
oundandwal
ksovert
ome.

Thabi
so:I
tscut
eigeti
tyouhavet
hismagi
calgi
ft
butl
it
tl
egir
ldonotmesswit
hme

Ist
epcl
osert
ohi
m.
Me:Musthavebeenhardhardingkil
li
nghisbrot
her
.
Imeanthehol
eyoublastedinsideofhim must
havebr
okeyourheart
,ohwaityoudon'thavea
hear
tseei
ngyouresponsibl
eforhisdeath

Hel
aughs.

Thabiso:Yougoingt
oratonyourboyfr
iendimagine
hewillhaveforyout
heywil
lfor
giveeachotherand
youarghshame.Mywi fei
sn'
tgoinganywhereand
that
sit

Hegoestotheli
ftt
here'
snowayi
nhel
lthatdi
dn'
t
r
att
lehi
m, iwi
llwai
tforhi
smove.

Mzwakhe
Thabisotextsmehewantsmetocomeovertohis
house,real
lynowihavet
odri
veawholehourjust
t
ogett
ohi
shouse.

Me:St
handwa
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm
Me:Thabi
sotext
edmeufunasi
hlanganeso
ngi
zoqal
aespani
nimasengi
yombona
Phi
ndi
le:Real
lywhatdoeshewanthewasj
usther
e
Me:Abathat
hikahl
elabai
ngqondozabozi
yahamba
okwangempela
Phi
ndi
le:Manj
ewenzanl
apho
Me:Ngi
bhekai
zint
oengi
zoyi
gqoka
Phi
ndi
le:Hmmm
Me:Rel
axmamahawu
Phindi
le:Ayangi
shol ut
h..Ngobangi
zohambanj
e
i
yinganengizozi
yisakuma
Me:Bengahl
alaayi
khoi
nki
nga
Phi
ndi
le:Ubaniozobagada
Me:Awsesi
ngahl
ulwauMvel
onoMxol
isibadal
a
phel
avel
eki
nini
baf
ishane

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:WeMzwakhe
Me:Mommy,
howdoil
ook
Phi
ndi
le:Asexymi
l
lionai
re

Iki
ssherandl
eave.

Nonhl
e
Iwaspacki
ngSamkel
oent
ersandf
all
sont
hebed.

Samkel
o:Idon'
twantt
obedoi
ngt
hisanymor
e
Me:Don'
twor
ryaf
tert
hisPhi
ndi
lei
scomi
ngbackt
o
work
Samkel
o:Ngempel
a
Me:Hmm youcanr
esi
gni
fyouwantt
o
Samkel
o:Okaywhatdi
didonow
Me:Youdidn'
tcomeandyoumissedt
he
appoi
ntmentwit
hthet
her
apist

Hesi
ghs.

Me:Whysuggestsomet
hingandt
hannotseei
t
t
hrough
Samkel
o:Iam wi
ll
ingt
odoanyt
hingj
ust
Me:Wel
lthanshowitt
alki
scheapifyouwantt
oki
ll
meSamkelogoaheadbutwhatyounotgoi
ngtodo
Samkel
o:Okayokaypleasest
opshout
ingwewi
l
l
st
opthether
api
stifyoudon'
twantt
o

Isi
tdownandhol
dmyheadiam notsur
eifiwant
togotot
hisst
upi
dtr
ip.
Mzwakhe
Therewasnoworkfort
odaysoijustt
ogostr
aight
tothepr
esi
dent
shouse,iwonderwhatthi
sbi
g
thi
nghehastotel
lmeis.

Me:Thabi
so

"
Int
hest
udy"

Il
ookthroughhisref
ri
gerat
orfi
rstnot
hinglooks
appeal
ing,igot
hroughthecabi
netshopingtofi
nd
somesnacks.

Me:Whatnosnacksi
nthi
shousear
gh

Ient
erhi
sst
udy.

Me:Okaybhut
iomdal
asengi
khona
Thabiso:Youwon'
tbesmi
li
ngl
iket
hatonceit
ell
youthis

Hel
eansbacksonhi
schai
r.

Me:Iam l
ist
eni
ng
Thabi
so:Yourgi
rl
fr
iendi
sthr
eat
eni
ngme
Me:Ngi
theni
ngangi
faki
Thabiso:Ever
yoneknowsnott oquesti
onthe
decisi
onsimakeincludingmywi f
e,soforyourgi
rl
thinki
ngshecandot hatbecauseofhergif
treal
ly
pissesmeof f
Me:Ut
heni
Thabi
so:Uyayi
khumbulaimf
ihl
oyami
..
Yayi
khumbulaimfi
hloyet
hu
Me:Wegotal
otofsecr
ets

Ther
oom goessi
lent
.
Thabiso:Idon'
tcar
eifshetakesvacati
onsand
whatnotbutmywi f
eismywi fe,idon'
twantt
ohave
tocausepr obl
emsbetweenus

Idi
dnotseet
hishappeni
ng.

Thabi
so:Fi
xthi
sbef
oreideci
det
obuti
n
Me:Ngazengaphoxeka
Thabi
so:I
ni
Me:Bengazingempel
aukut hkuyobai
nina
eni
ngayi
ncwanyiit
hekeniyami
Thabi
so:Hai
bosi
fi
keni
nil
aph
Me:Wow
Thabi
so:Mzwakhe

Igetupandl
eave.
Thabi
so:Mzwakhewai
titdoesn'
t.
.Mzwakhe

Thef
ir
stt
imeanyonehasseenmecr
y.

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhletextedmeshecan' tcomeanymorethatwas
abummer .It
extrat
owithOl wet
hunotcoming
defi
nit
elySindiswawon'tcome,rat
oandidon't
knoweachot herthatwellidon'
twantt
hist
obean
awkwardmomentf orher.

Me:Ohwow

Shequi
ckl
ytextmeback.

"
Iam sosorr
ybabesthankyouif
orgotiwasinthe
momentNkanyisoandihadpl
ans,t
otal
lysl
ipped
mymind.Thankyouanyways"
Me:Wel
latl
eastyounotl
yingl
ikemostpeopl
e

Iputmyphonedownandst
areahead,
atearf
all
s
downmycheek.
[
06/
06,
10:
47] :84

Phi
ndi
le
Iwait
edf orhi m andhedi dn'
tcomebackhome.I
wasfinishedbutidi dn'twanttoshowi t
,iasked
Mxoli
sit ocomeandf et
chandhesai dhei sonhis
way.Myphoner ingscausinganunsettl
ingshar p
paini
nmyhead, mimosasdon'tplayespeciall
y
whenyoudr inkthem wi t
hMoet ,
iam notsur ehow
manybot t
lesihadal liknowisthatican'tgetup.I
cansleepatanymomentbutiam notgoi ngt o
al
lowt hatbynoonihavet obeoutofthishouse.

Somebodycomesandcl
eansupt
hebot
tl
esand
what
everihadgoi
ngon.

"
Shoul
dimakeherbr
eakf
ast
"
"
Nol
ooksl
ikei
twasawi
ldni
ght
"
"
Mor
eli
kepar
tyf
orone"
"
Isn'
tshewi
thMzwakhe"
"
Hedi
dn'
tcomeback"

Iam notsleepi
ngandt
heydoi
ngal
ousyj
obat
whi
spering.

Me:Whenyoudonef
ucki
ngeachot
herdi
sappear
f
rom mysi
ght
Sakhil
e:That
'snowayt otal
ktopeopl
eanddon'tbe
taki
ngoutyourfrust
rat
ionsonus.Uqhubeki
le
wajolanayeungali
ngeusij
wayel
ekabi
Not
hando:Sakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Mxm
Isear
chformyphoneitr
yopeningmyeyesthey
heavyascement
,ipushandpushbutnot
hingat
l
eastmyvoicei
snottoti
red.

Me:Mvel
o..
.Mvel
o
Mvel
o:Aunt
ie
Me:Fonel
aubabwakhoumbuzeukut
husekuphi
Mvel
o:Yebo

Sakhi
le
Phindi
lei
srudeanddi
srespect
fulbutist
il
lloveher
though.Wher
eisMzwakhenowandwhatt hehell
happened.

Not
hando:Youshoul
dn'
thavespokent
oherl
ike
t
hat
Me:Iknow
Iwaswi thherint heki
tchenshewasmaki ng
breakf
ast,theli
ftopensMxol i
sient
ershedoesn'
t
evengreethegoesst r
aightt
ohissist
er.Theyal
l
rudeinthisfamily.

Mxo:Gci
no
Phi
ndi
le:Mvel
o
Mvel
o:Daddy
Mxo:Heyboysr
eadyt
ogohome
Mvel
o:Sor
tofki
ndagot
tenusedt
othi
spl
acebuti
mi
ssgogo
Mxo:Mmm wel
lki
ndayourassandgof
etchyour
t
hings
Mvel
o:Yesdaddy

Tobeabletoli
vewiththem andlovethem youhave
tounder
standthem,butifyoudon'tyoural
ways
goi
ngtotakeeveryt
hingtheysaysosensi t
ive.
Phi
ndil
e:Fivemi
nut
esandt
hanwecango,
ineed
youtocarr
yme
Mxo:Ngamf
onel
iuNonhl
e
Phi
ndi
le:Hl
ukananabant
uabangangi
funi
Mxo:Weni
xabenef
uthayMxol
isi
..Mvel
o

Heshout
s.

Mzwakhe
Iar
ri
vehomeiam i
nnomoodtofi
ght
.Mxol
isii
s
her
edammitt
hisguyi
sannoyi
ng.

Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Sho
Me:Unj
an
Mxo:Aynongi
grandwena
Me:Mmm
Sakhi
le:Wher
ehaveyoubeen
Me:Bengi
dingaukushawaumoyanotnowSakhi
le

Igot
omyr
oom.

Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Hi
Me:Whyi
sMxol
isiher
e
Phi
ndi
le:It
oldhi
mtocomeandf
etchus
Me:Ukhonanj
euJamesebengani
hambi
sa
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
cel
eubhut
iwamikhonai
nki
nga

Shehasseenmesoimi ghtaswellst
artexpl
aini
ng
mysel
fandireal
lydon'
tregr
etwhathappened.

Phi
ndi
le:Di
dyoucomebackhome
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Why
Me:Yazii
mpi
lomayi
ngat
handiukut
huj
abul
e
Phi
ndi
le:Iam st
uckwi
thsomet
hingidon'
tknow
Me:Uwenawedwai
ntoebengi
jabul
isaandl
okho
ngasekuphel
e

Shet
ri
est
olookatmehereyesf
ailher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayokay
Me:Wenotatt hatpoi
ntwher
eicanri
ski
tallf
or
you.Ibarel
yevenknowyouandtofi
ndoutyou
planni
ngondoingsomethi
ngthatmi
ghtt
akeaway
thepeaceofmyf amil
ypi
ssesmeofandican'
tlet
youdot hat
Phi
ndi
le:Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
Me:Iknowwhatyout
ryi
ngt
odoandi
fit
sli
ket
hat
t
hanihavetol
etyougo
Phi
ndi
le:I
sthatwhyyoudi
dn'
tcomehome
Me:I
tdoesn'
thavet
oendli
ket
hiswecant
alkabout
t
hisl
iket
hegrownadul
tst
hatweare
Phindil
e:Di
dyoutalkt
omel i
keagrownadul
twhen
youdecidedtospendtheni
ghtsl
eepi
ngwit
h
anotherwoman
Me:Idon'
tregr
etitandyounotgoi
ngt
omakeme
f
eelbadaboutit
Phindil
e:Okayandiam supposedt
obeokaywi
th
thatokay

Sheget
supandopenst
hedoor
.

Phi
ndi
le:Mxol
isi
Me:Phi
ndi
le

Sheshut
sthedoor
.
Sakhi
le
Hehol
dshersi
sterandt
heycomedown.

Mxo:Ungakhal
iphel
auj
olewazi
..Ngi
kut
shel
esi
si
wam abaf
anaizi
nja
Phi
ndi
le:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Okayboysl
et'
sgo
Mvel
o:Daddyi
sshegoi
ngt
obeokay
Mxo:Sheisgoi
ngt
obef
inemyboyr
ememberwhat
it
oldyou
Mvel
o:Theevi
lspi
ri
ts

Mzwakhecomesdown.

Mzwakhe:MawuhambaPhindi
leyazi
ukut
h
yonki
ntoesi
nayoi
hambanawe

Shel
aughs.Theyent
ert
hel
if
tandt
hat
'si
t,what
happeneddamn.

Phi
ndi
le
Het
hinksit
sokayt
odowhateverhewantsbecause
hei
sMzwakheBhengunosweethear
t,l
if
edoesn't
wor
kliket
hat.

Mxo:Wozasi
khul
ume
Me:Okayididsomethi
ngishoul
dn'thavedone,i
wasonlytr
yingtomakesur
emypl answor koutand
t
hanthishappened
Mxo:Okaysowhyareyounotexpl
aini
ngi
nst
eadof
br
eaki
ngupliket
his
Me:Her
eist
hetwi
sthedidn'
tcomeback,
hedidn'
t
gi
vemeachancet
oexplainwhyidi
dwhatidi
d
Mxo:Wenzeni
Me:Thabi
sodi
dn'
twantOl
wet
hut
ocomeont
het
ri
p
Mxo:Whyar
eyoucomi
ngbet
weenhusbandand
wi
fe
Me:Ifel
titwasn'
tfai
rwegoi
ngandshest
ays
behi
nd
Mxo:Obvi
ousl
yhehadhi
sreason
Me:Gr
ant
edheusedi
tagai
nstme
Mxo:Woul
dyouhavegoneaheadwi
thwhatyou
pl
anned
Me:Notmebutt
heancest
orswoul
d
Mxo:Iam pr
oudofyoustandingyourgr
ounddon'
t
l
etnomancontrolyouortel
lyouanydif
fer
ent
Me:Mmmm
Mxo:Soi
tsover
Me:Yeahpl
easecomf
ortmom
Mxo:I
fyouwantmet
ocomebackican
Me:Youhaveagr
eatj
obandagr
eatl
if
eleavei
tat
t
hat
Mxo:Wowcheer
stoZi
mbal
i

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhewascr
yingl
ikecr
yingreal
lybadididn'
t
knowwhatt
odo,hewasbreaki
ngmyhear t.

Thobani
:Skhul
u
Me:Mzwakhet
elluswhati
sgoi
ngon
Mzwakhe:Hambani
..Phumanimanhambani
Me:Okayokay

Wel
eavehel
ockst
hedoor
.

Me:Jameswhathappened

Thel
if
topens.

Li
nda:Andt
hanni
nakwenzakal
annamuncunj
e
James:Chazankosi
nat
bikwenzakal
eni
Thabi
so:Ohi
tsmyf
aul
tnow
Me:Whatdi
dyourassdo
James:Thabi
so
Thabiso:Okayididn'
twantmywi
fel
eavi
ngsoshe
thoughtshecouldthreat
enme
Me:Wi
thwhat
Thabi
so:Leyampahl
aleya

Whati
shet
alki
ngaboutil
augh.

Me:Youi
diot
Thabi
so:Umyi
saphiumf
aziwamiezi
hlal
elekwakhe
Me:Ihaveaf
eel
ingyounott
ell
ingt
het
rut
hbuti
ts
okay
Thabi
so:Hesai
dhenevert
houghtwewoul
dbet
he
oneswhodonotli
keher
Thobani
:Hesai
dthat
Thabi
so:Andl
eft
Me:Wel
ltheybr
okeup
Hel
aughs.

Thabi
so:Youj
oki
ngr
ight

Iwi
shiwas.
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Sakhi
le
Ihaveexhaust
edmyselfoutbecauseofMzwakhe,
i
rubmyeyesyawning.

Ol
wet
hu:Youdeser
veagol
dmedal

It
sbeenmont hssi
ncewelastsawPhi
ndi
lei
thas
beenareckoningmont
hs.
Ol
wethu:Ipr
eparedsomethingf
oryoui
tsokayi
wil
l
l
ookaft
erhim..Mzwakhegivemethebott
le
Mzwakhe:Why

Hebur
ps.

Ol
wet
hu:Ohmygoodness

Ayandacomest
other
escue.

Ayanda:Br
ost
opt
his
Mzwakhe:Khonaengi
nihl
uphayongakhoni
sho
phel
angizohamba

Hedownst
hebot
tl
eofvodkaasi
tis.

Mzwakhe:Mmm yamnandii
nto
Theyf
ightf
ort
hebot
tl
e.

Me:Ayandai
tsokaymyeke
Ayanda:Whatno
Mzwakhe:Yesl
eavemeal
one

Hesaysbr
eat
hlessandbur
pingohmyGod.

Ayanda:Uyazi
bonaukuthunjanMzwakheuyazi
uzoj
abulauPhindi
leukukbonaunj
e
Mzwakhe:Unandabaniangi
thani
mfuniani
mfuni

Het
ri
est
aki
ngt
hebot
tl
eagai
nMzwakhebi
teshi
m.

Ayanda:Hai
boyewenasar
n
Mzwakhe:Leavemeal
one.
.M var
ningyou
Hecanbar
elyevenpr
onouncet
hewor
dspr
oper
ly.

Mzwakhe:Comecomeandcl
oseryouwi
llbeti
t

Iwishwecouldlaughireall
ywishwecan,hei
s
breaki
ngourheart
sbreakingdownli
kethi
s.

Ayanda:Theonl
ythi
ngiwi l
lregreti
smybrot
her
dyi
ngwemaynotbef rom t
hesamewombbutwe
fr
om thesamesperm stopdoingthi
spl
ease
Mzwakhe:It
sokayAyandaiam okayangit
hanif
uni
ukungi
bonangij
abuli
lengaphanif
una
ukungi
qhumbaphansi .Hl
ampenawenje
awungif
uninj
eulokheusholegetl
anyot
chingmy
brot
herdief
uckyou

Helaughs.Jamesent
ersmaybehecanknock
somesensei nt
ohi
m.
Phi
ndi
le
Sizwe:I
tsti
mef oryout
ogobacknowwegoodwe
don'twantyouanymore

Icouldn'tevenenjoymyt i
mehereMzwakhe' s
brokenhear tdi
dn'tser
vemeanyj usti
ce.I
tsbeena
goodf i
vemont h'sformeandhellforhim,hehas
beendr owninginalcoholandcr
yingforme.

Sizwe:Andwegoi
ngt
obewi
thyouever
yst
epof
theway
Me:Iwon'
tmi
ssyouei
ther
Si
zwe:Byeyourmaj
est
y
Me:Areyouguysevergoi
ngt
otel
lmewhatiam
her
efor
Sizwe:Welli
tal
lli
eswit
hthebhengu'
sthoseboys
andi r
eal
lyhopeyourboyf
ri
endthi
sti
meget shi
s
acttoget
her
Whatiam hear
ingi
smor
etor
tur
e.

Sakhi
le
Jameswasgett
ingthroughtohi
m,hehadhi
shead
rest
ingonhi
skneecrying.

Mzwakhe:She
James:Forgetaboutheriam her
eforyou,
weher
e
foryouokaylet
sgo
Mzwakhe:Don'ttouchmeicanwalkonmyown.
Youguyscansi thereandshowmeyourf akel
ove.
.
Olwet
hungiyakuthandayezwalemfeneyakho
ayi
kuf
anele,sukaniphelangi
hambeyinimanje
James:That
sthecouch
Mzwakhe:Okaymaybeidoneedhel
pyout
heonl
y
onewhocaresforme
Ntandot
akesmei
ntohi
sbi
gar
msandhol
dsme
t
ight.

Ntando:I
fyoubr
eakdownnowwhoi
shegoi
ngt
o
dependon

Ishakemyhead.

Ntando:Iknowiknowthi
sistoomuchforyoualso
butweallknowhim.Hegetshisst
rengt
hfrom you
andyoucan'tfal
lapar
t

Icryonhi
sbigchestmykneesf ai
lmei t
sbeena
l
ongf i
vemonthswatchi
nghim crackli
kethi
s.I
thas
hithomeandican'
ttakei
tanymor e.

Thabi
so:Sakhi
lewenotgoi
ngt
oletyoudot
hat
Hehugsfr
om behi
ndit
shisfaultwehere,butt
hey
ri
ghtnowt
hatithi
nkabouti
t.Ican'
taf
fordtofal
l
apar
tli
ket
his.

Nonhl
e
Fivemonthslat
eristi
llf
eelbadiabandonherwhen
sheneededme.Thel astthi
ngisawofherwast he
vacat
ionpict
uresint
endedforusgirl
s,shedidn'
t
l
ookhappyandij ustneededtobethereforher.

Samkel
o:Cal
lher
Me:Andsaywhat
Samkel
o:Wel
lfi
xthi
ngs
Me:Idoubtshei
sback

Mxol
isical
lsme.

Me:Mxol
isi
Mxo:Heyhel pmeiam havi
ngtr
oubl
ebooki
nga
fl
ightidon'
tknowwhatisgoi
ngonineedt
ogo
homeasi nnow
Me:Okaywhen
Mxo:Iam r eadyri
ghtnowican'
taccessmy
accounts,ican'
tpayformykidsschoolf
eesican'
t
doanythingpleasejusthel
pme
Me:Okay
Mxo:Pl
easeNonhl
ekuyaphut
huma

Hehungsup.

Samkel
o:She'
sback
Me:Nohewant smet obookafl
ightf
orhim
appar
entl
yhecan'taccesshi
saccountsidon'
t
know,l
etmejustquickl
ydothi
sforhimthanget
backt
oyou

Phi
ndi
le
Homesweethomeidon' twanttoscar
ethem soi
knockonthedoor
.Itopenstheyatt
ackwit
habig
barehugmyheartmelts.

Me:Haibosenamagiantkanj
engokuhambanj
e
kancaneseni
bangaka
Ma:Usubuyi
le
Me:Bengasaf
uni

Theyl
augh.

Me:BabaYol
i
Dad:Awyabuyai
nkunzi
mal
anga
Me:Zi
dlanil
ezi
yinganezakhul
akangaka
Ma:Sengimdal
aminamanj
eukut
hsengagada
i
yinganewasi
zawabuya
Me:Ni
menzeniugogo
Mvel
o:Lut
haunt
iesi
vukaekusenisi
yeeskol
eni
masebuyaut
hiashi
washeamakhet
hini
Me:Youspeaki
ngZul
unow

Hesmilesmyfamilyisusedtomedi
sappear
ingi
t
doesn'
tbot
herthem anymore.

Me:Manj
eni
yazi
hambel
anoma
Mvel
o:Mkhul
uJamesf
etchesus
Me:Mxol
isi

Hel
ooksdownst
il
lshyasever
.

Me:Ngi
yajabulakeukuni
bonaukut
hni
jabul
il
e
ukut
hsengibuyil
e

Theycar
ryi
ngonasi
fihavebeenher
ethewhol
e
ti
me.
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10:
48] :86
Mzwakhe
Itfeel
sli
keatruckf
ellonmeandanal
cohol
brewerypukedonme.Iam metbyi
cecoldwat
er
splashedonme.

Me:Thef
uck
Sakhi
le:Iam si
ckandofthispathet
icexcuseofa
manthatyouar e.Her
eiswhatyougoi ngtodori
ght
now,getyourassuptakeabathdoyourbedand
meetmedownst ai
rsf
orbreakf
ast
Me:Sakhi
lel
eavemeal
oneokay
Sakhi
le:Okay

Heenter
smybat
hroom andcomesoutwi
thahose
pi
pe.

Me:Isweariam goi
ngt
o
Idon'
tevenfi
nishmysent encehelet
soutthewat
er.
Igetupandstophi m butmor eoft
hem comeout
wit
hpipesandt heybaptizemewi t
hwater.

Sakhi
le:It
hinkt
hat
'senough,
getyourasst
oget
her

Iam speechl
essmywhol
eroom i
swetever
ythi
ngi
s
wet.

Phi
ndi
le
Jameshasarrivedt
opickuptheboysandiwas
readytogobacktowork.Theboysgeti
nthanme,
heturnsar
oundandstaresatme.

Mvel
o:Ubabaut
heuyabuya
Me:Ngempel
athat
'sni
ce.
.Wecangonow
Hest
artsthecaranddri
vesofiknowhewi
llr
un
andt
ellt
hem iam back.

Mzwakhe
Iheaddownst air
stheyhadivshot swait
ingforme.
Itsbeenhellf
ormeit houghticouldhandleit
,butit
hasbeenmont hsandihaven'theardanythi
ngfrom
her.Iwouldgot oherhouseandherapar tmentall
theplacesshecouldgot obutnothing.

Sakhi
le:Phamandl
a

Il
ayonthecouch,
hel
ooksf
oravei
nandi
nject
sa
needl
e.

Sakhi
le:Usj
wayel
ekabiwenanxi

Myheadisheavymybodyispr
obabl
ygoingt
o
suckt
hesebadboysf
ast,
myphonerings.
Me:Hel
lo
Mxo:Ineedyourhel
p
Me:Wher
eisyoursi
ster
Mxo:Idon'tknowandidon'
tcar
eiam st
ucki
nan
ai
rpor
tpleasejustbor
rowmeyourj
et
Me:What
swr
ong
Mxo:Iam bl
ackl
ist
edcanyoui
magi
ne
Me:Whathappened
Mxo:Idon'
tjustpl
easegetmeoutofher
e
Me:Okaywher
ear
eyouat
Mxo:Dubaiicoul
dn'
tgetnonst
opf
li
ght
Me:Okayiwi
llsendmypeopl
e
Mxo:Thankyou

Hehungsup.
Me:IsJamesbackokaycel
ani yol
andauMxol
isi
eDubaihesayshei
sblackl
ist
ed
Sakhi
le:Thabi
sohambauyoml
andacal
lJames

Phi
ndi
le
IaskedJamest oaccompanymei nsi
de.Ineeded
someonear oundt oensurenothinghappenstome,
andi am capableofworkingsof arsogood.Ihave
j
ustbeenset tl
ingmyselfinSamkel oandNonhle
havedoneanexcept ionaljobatkeepingthi
s
companyaf loat,
everybittheyhavedoneiwill
cheri
shitfortherestofmyl if
e.

James:Whowi l
lfetchtheboys. .Okayiwil
lsend
youanaddressafterpickingupt heboyscome
str
aightt
othataddress,itdoesn'tmatt
eryoujust
dowhatitel
lyouokaycool

Whathasmybr
otherdonenow.
James:Nkosazanemel engi
hambekut
hiwa
ngi
yol
andaubhut iwakhoappar
ent
lyheis
bl
ackl
ist
ed

Il
augh.

Me:Mxol
isibl
ackl
ist
edwowshej
ustdoesn'
tgi
ve
up
James:Sor
ry
Me:Noitsokayyoucangoiwi
llmanagej
ust
per
fect
lyfi
ne

Igr
abt
het
elephoneandcal
lhi
m.

Mzwakhe
Ifeelsomuchbettertheexhausti
onandfati
guehas
beenlif
tedofme,damniwasamess.Oneday
aparticanbar
elysurvivefivemonthst
hat
'sstr
aight
upsendingmet othegr ave.
Sakhi
le:Atl
easteatsomet
hing
Me:I
sthatgoi
ngt
obr
ingbackPhi
ndi
le
Sakhi
le:B*
tchyout
heonewhol
ethergo
Me:Yeahwel
limadeami
stake
Sakhil
e:Idon'
tunder
standwhyyoudidi
tThabi
so'
s
reasonwasnotwhyyoudi d,
cel
audleMzwakhe
bukaukuthuzacekanjanayman

Itaket
hepl
atefr
om hi
m andt
ryt
oeathecannever
knowaboutt
his,
never
.

Sakhi
le:Yourdemoni
sbackt
ospendi
ngmoney
Me:Woul
dyoust
op
Sakhi
le:Shoul
dicl
osei
t
Me:Letmesee
Sakhi
le:f
if
tygr
andwhatki
ndofshoppi
ngi
sthat
Me:Thesear
enotpear
lsaccount
s
Sakhi
le:Whatsomebodyi
sst
eal
ingourmoney
Me:Awumeman
Sakhi
le:Awabanipho
Me:They

Ichuckl
e.

Me:She'
sback
Sakhi
le:Whoi
sback

Igi
vehi
m backt
hel
apt
opandcont
inueeat
ing.

Phi
ndi
le
SamkeloandNonhl ear
eschedul
edt
ocomeinnow,
iam packi
ngandonmywayoutican'twai
tforthe
boyssoiwillubermywayhome.Igr
abmythings
andmydi ar
yitsgoodtobeback.
Me:Goodbyeof
fi
ceseeyout
omor
row

Iwalkout
..Iapproacht
hem l
aughi
ngandf
li
rt
ing
wit
heachot her
.

Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Mydiar
yifther
e'sanycompl
aintsemailme
haveagoodday,ohandihavescheduledaphot
o
shoot
Nonhle:Younotgoi
ngt
ohugmeoratl
eastbe
exci
tedtoseeme
Me:Youexci
tedt
oseeme
Nonhl
e:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Ihavet
ogo

Idon'
twanttobebl amedforanyt
hingitsallabout
meandl ooki
ngoutf orme.Ist
epoutoft hebuil
ding
andmybi ggestni
ghtmareisoutheresit
tingonthe
bonnetwithhisar
mscr ossed,
whydi dievenuse
hi
scr
edi
tcar
d.

Hegetsoffandopensthecardoormyof f
icesarei
n
themiddl
eofnowhere,ther
e'snotaxispassingbye
anduberi
ngcostanarm andal eg.Isi
ghandwal k
tohiscar
..Ist
areatt
heseatf orawhilet
hangetin
thi
sishowonemakesmi st
akes.
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06/
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10:
48] :87

Phi
ndi
le
Nowhehasdeci dedtobemyper sonalchauffeur
ohwai tJamesi sn'taround.Wef i
rstdr
optheboys
offatschool,nowhei staki
ngmet owork.
Mzwakheandidon' tcommuni cat
euntilaft
erit
worksf oracertainamountoft ime.Icantellhe
wantst osaysomet hi
ngbuti am notgoingto
enter
tainhim.

Mom cal
lsme.
Me:Ma
Ma:Sewuf
iki
leemsebenzi
ni
Me:Ngi
yel
angakhonayi
ndab
Ma:Khonai
ntoengicel
aungiphathel
ayona
sengi
vel
engashodel
wai mal
ingisendl
eleniebuyayo

Il
augh.

Me:Makodwaokayngi
zozama
Ma:uMxol
isiut
husengaphi
Me:Hl
ampeusandi
zaemoyeninomauyaf
ikamanj
e
Ma:Okaykeungi
phat
hel
abye

Shehungsupshedi
dn'
tevent
ellmewhatt
obr
ing
wow.
Mzwakhe:Uzongi
zibakuzekubei
nini
Me:Bengazingi
yakuzi
ba
Mzwakhe:Fi
veyear
sPhi
ndi
lef
iveyear
s
Me:Yeahwel
liti
swhati
tis
Mzwakhe:Maybeishoul
dhavecomebackhome
andgaveyouachancetoexpl
ain,
maybei
fyouhad
tal
kedt
omeiwoul dhaveknownhowtogett
hrough
mybrother
Me:Ohwhi
chbr
otherThabi
soormar
ri
edThabi
so
Mzwakhe:Let
snotf
ightaboutt
his
Me:Maybeiwaswr ongtothr
eatenyouandyour
brot
herijustwant
edaf ungetawayandthancome
backtoreali
ty
Mzwakhe:Woul
dyouhavet
oldhi
m
Me:Iam notst
upi
dMzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Younotanswer
ingmyquest
ions
Me:No
Mzwakhe:Goodbecauseiwon'
thesi
tat
edoi
ngt
he
samet
hingt
oyou

Hi
sphoneringshedecli
nesthecal
landswi
tchesof
hi
sphone,
myphoner ings.

Me:Hel
lo
Cal
ler
:Mi
ssPhi
ndi
leGumede
Me:Yest
hisher
Cal
ler
:Iam cal
li
ngwi
thr
egar
dst
oyournephew
Mkholi
si
Me:What
swr
ongwhathappened
Cal
ler
:Hei sexper
ienci
nganint
ensepanicat
tack
wejustcall
edanambul ancewejustwant
edto
i
nform you
Me:Okayiam onmyway

Ihungup.
Mzwakhe:Whati
swr
ong
Me:Mxol
isiugqul
eki
leangazibabi
zei
ambul
ance

Hemakesaswi
ftut
urnt
hecar
shootheput
shi
s
handout
.

Mzwakhe:Yeahwhoisatt
hehouseidon'
thave
t
imetojustr
ushtoMj'
sschool
,don'
tworr
yabout
wher
eiam somethi
nghappenedtohi
m.Quickl
y

OhGodwhati swr
ongwi
thmybabypl
easedon'
tlet
anyt
hinghappent
ohi
m.

Nonhl
e
OkaythathappenedbetweenPhindi
leandi
.Al
lis
welli
am goingtogetherback.

Me:Guesswhocal
ledme
Samkel
o:Phi
ndi
le
Me:WhatnoNdumi
sot
heannualwhi
tepar
ty
Samkel
o:Noways
Me:Mmm hesai
dimustt
ellyouandyout
ellyour
f
amil
y

Iam goingtoinvi
tePhindi
leasmybackup, iknow
theMsomi 'swil
lganguponmeandt reatmel i
kean
outsi
de.Wi t
hphindil
ebymysi detheywon'tdare
meespeci all
ysi
ncetheyhavewr ongedher.

Samkel
o:Ni
ce
Me:Onemustgoshopf
orawhi
teout
fi
tnow
Samkel
o:Don'
tyouhavecl
othes
Me:Ol
dandout
dat
ed
Samkel
o:Okaywher
eisbossl
adychi
ckenedout
agai
n
Me:Awukahl
e
Myphonebeeps.

Me:Shej
usttext
edme"
Gonet
ohospi
talMxol
isi
hadasei
zur
e"what

I
mmedi
atel
yical
lher
.

Me:Heyi
sever
ythi
ngokay
Phindi
le:Theysayassoonashewal
kedt
hrough
thegatehef el
landhadasei
zur
e
Me:OhmyGodpoorboywhat
sgoi
ngonnow
Phindil
e:Hehasbeenrushedtothehospi
tal
,iam
fr
eakingoutiam pr
obablynotgoingt
omakei tt
o
work
Me:Okaykeepmepost
ed
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyouf
orcal
li
ng
Me:Anyt
ime
Ihungup.

Samkel
o:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Me:It
hinkMxol
isii
sfi
nal
lyspeaki
ngout
Samkel
o:What
Me:Yeah

Mzwakhe
Mxol i
sifaint
ingthat'
sratherunusualunless
somet hi
ngt ri
ggeredit,igothroughthefoot
age
fr
om t hemomentidr oppedhi m of
f.Amanappears
fr
om nowher e,hefr
eezesont hespottheman
crossest heroadandget sonhiscar.Aft
erthecar
drivesoffthanMxol i
siexperiencesaheartatt
ack.

Idi
dsaysomethingwasn'
tokaywitht
hisboyand
nowitsshowi
ng,imustgetonwit
hpureprecaut
ion.
Idon'
twanttost
artsomethi
ngandihavenoproof
of
,idel
etet
hef
oot
ageandmakemywayt
ohi
s
ward.

Phamandl
a:Bhut
iomdal
a
Me:Whati
sgoi
ngon
Phamandl
a:Healmostwenti
ntocar
diacarr
est,
bl
oodcomplet
elyst
oppedpumpingi
ntohisheart
Me:Canyoudosomet
hingf
ormepr
ivat
ely
Phamandl
a:Okay
Me:Iwantyout
otestf
oranysi
gnsofabuse
Phamandl
a:Whatt
hechi
ldi
snotyoumeanvi
olat
ed
Me:Andifhehasaprobl
em wi
thyout
ouchi
nghi
m
getsi
hlet
odothetest
Phamandl
a:Mzwakhet
hat
's
Me:Aser
iousl
if
eordeat
hsi
tuat
ion
Phamandl
a:Okay

Sakhi
le
Mxol
isican'
tli
vewi
thhi
m can'
tli
vewi
thouthi
m.

Thabi
so:Iam neverf
etchi
ngt
hishoeeveragai
n

Jameslaughsmusthavebeenonehel
lofaj
oyf
ul
ri
debackhome.

Mxoli
si:Yeahwel
lidon'
tli
keyoueit
hercome
Sakhi
leineedyourhel
pgetyourgadget
s
Me:Hai
bo
Mxoli
si:Noidon'
thaveal
lday.
.Mayasengi
buyi
l
e
chakhonalaengi
dlul
ekona.
.Ini

Heget
supr
unni
ngt
othel
if
t.

Mxol
isi
:Gci
noyani
kuphiokayngi
yezamanj
e

Wel
ookateachot
her
.
Me:Gci
nouPhi
ndi
lephel
aloyai
ngabe

"
she'
sback"hi
swor
dsr
ingi
nmyheadwowokay.

Me:Anywaysannualwhi
tepar
tyi
scomingupand
youknowwegottoleaveamarkt
hist
ime
Thobani
:Ndumi
soKheswa
Me:Thisoneisgoi
ngtobebi
ggerandbet
tert
han
t
helastoneicanfeeli
t

Thel
if
topens.

Mxol
isi
:Somebodypl
easet
akemet
othehospi
tal
mysonisnotokay

Jamesf
oll
owshi
m hel
ookeddi
stur
bed.
Mzwakhe
Ienterthewordhei srest i
ngpeaceful
lyl
ikean
angelohiam goingt okillthatsonofab*tch.Ki
ds
andf emalesidon'tpl
ay, itookdownAndile'
senti
re
cart
elofhumant raffi
cking.Ifanyoneismessing
wit
hmyboyl ikethat,
theygoi ngtowishtheywere
neverborn.

Ist
andbehi
ndPhindi
leholdinghershoulder
.She
put
sherhandontopofmi ne.Iam notsureifshe
hasseeni
tornot
,sheseesever yt
hing.Iam
sur
pri
sedonhowshemi ssedsucht ragi
cthing.

ThedooropensYel
l
owboneent
ers.

Nonhle:Iwouldn'
tbeatrueannoyi
ngf
ri
endnow
wouldiifidi
dn'tshowup.
Phindi
le:Myli
ttl
ebabyhedoesn'
tdeser
vet
his,
ijust
can'ti
maginetheli
fehewi
llhave
Theyshoul
dlethi
mrestt
odayandconductt
het
est
tomor
row.

Nonhl
e:Mxol
isii
tsyourf
avor
it
eaunt
ieiknowyou
wantt
owakeup..Okay

Ichuckl
e.
[
06/
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10:
48] :88

Mzwakhe
Phamandlacal
lsmeihopeit
snotbadnews.
Mxoli
siwasherer
ant
ingifhewastol
earnabout
thi
s.

Phamandl
a:Ar
eyoual
one
Me:Nobutyoucant
alk
Phamandl
a:Okaysoicapt
uredsomeofi t
,itdoesn't
l
ookli
keheisbei
ngabusedwellsexual
lythatis.I
f
bei
ngyourbr
othert
aughtmeonet
hing
Me:Youar
emybr
other
Phamandla:Idon'
tknowMzwakheitlookedasifhe
wasprepari
nghimselff
orsomet
hing.Istoppedwe
boughtsi
hlein,
Me:Hol
dpl
ease
Phamandl
a:Yeah
Me:Okayokayihavet
ogobye

Ical
lPhi
ndi
le.

Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Whenyoucomi
ngbackhome
Phi
ndi
le:Ar
ewenotbr
okenup
Me:Cel
aungangi
bhor
itu
Phi
ndi
le:West
ickont
heagr
eementweekendsi
comebackhome
Me:What
everwhatyoudoi
ngnow
Phindil
e:Wearegoingbackhomebuthesayshe
wantstogot oschoolhedoesn'
twantt
obe
depressedathome
Me:Okaybye
Phi
ndi
le:Bye

Phi
ndi
le
Iwil
lletMzwakhehandl ethi
soneijusthavetobe
str
ongf orMj.Mzwakhei sgr
eatwit
hkidst hey
absol
utelyadorehi
m, ihopehebreaksthisbarri
er
andgetMxol i
sitot
alkaboutbeingabused.

Nonhle:Heynowecomi ngbackwej ustgoi

ngto
dropoffMxoli
si.
.Haveali
tt
lefai
thyoushouldsee
herinful
lgearworkmode

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Okaybye
Me:Thankyouf
orbei
ngher
e
Nonhl
e:Wef
ami
ly,
sist
ersandbestf
ri
ends
Me:Butisai
diam comi
ngbackt
owor
k
Nonhl
e:Whyyouneedaphot
oshoot
Me:Rebr
andi
ngt
hewebsi
te
Nonhle:Wowokaysohbef
oreif
orgetcanii
nvi
te
youtosomewhitepar
ty
Me:Okaywhen
Nonhl
e:It
hinkt
hisweekend
Me:MrBhengui
snotgoi
ngl
i
ket
hat
Nonhl
e:Youguysbackt
oget
her
Me:Techni
cal
ly

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Ayanda:Wel
lthi
sper
soni
snotsmar
twhaticando
i
sret
ri
eveever
ythi
ngbackandl
ockt
heper
sonout
Mxo:Okaywhatyouwai
ti
ngf
ordoi
t
Ayanda:Iai
n'tdoi
ngt
hisf
orf
reephel
a
Mxo:Doesi
tlookl
ikeicar
e
Sakhi
le:Whyyoubei
ngr
udewear
ehel
pingyout
he
l
eastyoucandoisbegr
atef
ul
Mxo:Iai
n'tagangst
erbutiwor
kformymoneyand
r
ightnowsomeoneissteal
ingi
t

It
aket
hel
apt
opf
rom Ayandaanddoi
tmysel
f.

Me:Youneedtocr
eateanewpasswordandpin.
Changeyouremai
landupdat
eyouraccountwhen
youthatsi
de
Mxo:Okay
Me:Icanonl
yhol
ditf
ort
went
yfourhour
s
Mxo:Okaywai
tmysonnomyson
Me:t
hreedaysandt
hat
sit
Mxo:Thankyou
Me:Ononecondi
ti
on
Mxo:Yabonakeusuyangi
bhor
a

Il
augh.

Me:Younotgoingt
oshoutatmypeopl
eli
ket
hat
andiam notgoi
ngtodot
hisforf
ree
Mxo:Mxm

Il
augh.

Me:I
tsonl
yfai
r
Mxo:Nott
hisweek
Me:Nam bengashomanj
edowehaveadeal
Mxo:Wedon'thaveadealungal
ingeuzi
jwayeze
nam youwon'
tli
keit
Me:Wowbuti
tsokay
Mxo:Whatyoupl
anondoi
ngaboutaynevermi
nd

Ourunderst
andi
ngwi
llgoaver
ylongway,
his
phoneri
ngs.

Mxo:Mommy

Il
augh.

Mxo:Ngempelawhatdi
dthedoctorsayokayiam
goi
nghomeandweneedt otalkokaybyemommy. .
Wenangizokunqumaamasendelawa
Me:Il
oveyout
oo

Heget
supandl
eaves.
.theyst
ari
ngatme.

Me:Kwenzakal
annangi
hlahl
elaamehl
onj
e
Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
eubuyi
le
Ayanda:Ngabeushi
lonj
eukut
hngenzesi
mpl
e
Me:Okaycel
ani
ngi
hambel
asi
mpl
e

Theyl
augh.

Thobani
:Udaki
weasi
yindawo

Phi
ndi
le
Foodwasdeli
veredcourtesyofMrBhengu,shame
heist
ryi
ngiatleastneedtomeethim hal
fway.

Nonhl
e:Let
sseewhatbaeboughtwee
Me:Yi
ndab
Nonhl
e:I
tsf
ish

Il
augh.
Me:Nowonderi
tsmel
lssobad
Nonhl
e:Thi
nakeesi
ngawonaamabhi
ncisodl
a
Me:Mef
akeubhekami
nangedwa
Nonhle:Angi
nankingaayphel
ayinhl
ephel
aindoda
yakhohaangiyababonabonkekodwayenaaysuka
man

Il
augh.

Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Buyaphel
a
Me:Iwi
llmaybenextweeknextmont
h
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Thankyouf
orl
unch
Mzwakhe:Idi
dn'
tsendyouanyl
unch
Me:Youdi
dn'
t
Mzwakhe:Nousuyangi
febel
anj
alo
Samkel
o:Bossl
ady
Me:Di
dyoubuyanyl
unchf
orher
Samkel
o:Noij
ustgother
e
Me:OhmyGodNonhl
e

Idr
opt
hephoneandr
unout
.

Me:Nonhl
e

Mzwakhe
Iwi shi
twasoneofmyenemi esbecausethey
predict
able,
thi
soneisplayi
ngmi ndgamesandi
am getti
ngannoyed.Heabusest heli
tt
leboyand
at
t acki
ngthefamil
ynow, i
fididn'
thaveeyesonher
whoknowswhatwoul dbehappeningr i
ghtnow.

Sakhi
le:Iam goi
ngt
otel
lyouagai
nifyougoaf
ter
t
hischapiwil
lleaveyouandyourgoi
ngtoregr
eti
t,
l
etMxoli
sidealwitht
hist
alkt
ohim iswear
Mzwakhe
Me:Okayhowwouldyoufeeli
fitwasoneofyour
ki
doranybodyel
se'
skidbei
ngsexuall
yviol
ated.
.
Howwouldyoufeel
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Don'
tMzwakhemeattheendoft
hedayheisa
ki
dSakhi
leaki
dandiwi
llbedamn.Idon'
tcar
e

Il
eave.Ihopeyel
lowbonei
sokay.
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06/
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10:
48] :89

Mzwakhe
Hewaslateandihadalotonmyplate.Ieven
missedt
heopport
unit
ytotakePhi
ndiletowork,
doesMxoli
sit
akeanythi
ngseri
ousinhisli
fe.He
si
tsdownnexttomewi t
hnocareinthewor l
d.
Me:Myt
imei
sver
ypr
eci
ousandyouwast
ingi
t
Mxo:Iam her
enowwhati
sthi
sabout

Igi
vehimthefi
leheopensithepull
souttheone
pi
ctur
eiknowisgoingtosendhimtothegrave.He
put
sthepict
urebackinsi
deandlooksaway.

Me:I
fidothi
siwi
llbest
art
ingawaryewena.Iwil
l
begoi
ngagai
nstmycrewandfi
ghti
ngthi
sbattl
eon
myown

Helayshisheadonthetabl
eshaki ngit
.Hecomes
backwit
ht ear
sinhi
seyes,iain'
tlett
ingthi
sgoi
don'
tcarewhatSakhi
lesays.Somebodyneedsto
pay.

Sakhi
le
Whatweneedtodoi scal
lthepol
icear
restl
izeka.
Mxol
isihavef
ullcust
odyoftheki
dsandwemove
onfrom t
hiswhol
ethi
ng,yesi
tsgoi
ngt
oleavea
scarontheki
d.Buti
tsbett
ert
hananongoingwar
.

Thobani
:Sakhi
lekodwayouthef
ir
stper
sonwho
putabul
lett
hroughhisskul
l
Me:Lent
oidi
ngauyi
ngenel
engobucophel
ele
Thobani:Yeahbuti
maginet
hewhol
eti
mesheisn'
t
noti
cingthi
s, t
heki
dever
ydayhast
osuckagrown
man'sdick..Comeonnowskhul
uwakewezwaphi
Sakhil
e
Me:Nhl
akani
phoandever
ypoli
cei
ntownwi
llmake
sur
ethi
sisdeal
twi
thcorr
ect
ly
Thobani :Okayletsseef atherhalfwayacrossthe
world,aunt i
ehasagi ftandcoul dn'tseewhatwas
happeni ng.Mot hert
oobusyt ryi
ngt ogether
husbandbackf orwhat everandf ail
ingtotakecar
e
ofherchi ldr
en,inyourcapabl ewor kingmindhowis
thi
sgoi ngt ofavorhi
sf ami l
y..Yeahyout hi
nkabout
thatandl etmeknew
Mzwakhe
Icall
edmygent st
heyneedtoseethi
smanhear
t
broken,
theyneedtof
eelhi
spain.

Me:Okayyousi
tdownher
e
Li
nda:Andt
hanwhati
supwi
thhi
m
Me:Viewerdiscr
eti
onisadvi
sedngi
nenki
nga
enkul
ukabiiyangi
sindaemahl
ombe
Thabi
so:Yi
nii
nki
nga
Me:It
snotanenemyofmi nebutitissl
owly
cr
eepingin.Lonaubhutiwethekeniyamicel
a
ni
ngahlekii
seri
ouslendaba,ifyoucouldj
ustpay
at
tent
iontothescreen
Li
nda:Ci
shaci
shayi
nimanj
elemanyal
amanil
awa
Me:Thatboyi
sli
tt
leMxol
isi
Thabi
so:What
Me:Icoul
dfeeli
tinmygutsomet hi
ngwaswrong
wi
thhim.Idi
dal i
tt
lediggi
ngbecauseofwhat
ever
messhedidresul
tedinthi
sidon'
tknow.That
'snot
thepoi
ntnowiwanttodealwit
hthismot
herf
ucker
sobadsobad,Sakhi
leuyangi
nqabela

Al
leyest
urnt
ohi
m.

Me:Akaf
uninj
enokuyi
ngenanj
eleyo
Li
nda:Ungakhul
umauthi
ninomunt
uongazi
thandi
i
yingane,
osabangi
shoukuyi
bambalei
nganemxm
Thabi
so:Ar
ehi
sreasonsval
id
Me:Iwentagai
nstadr
ugl
ordandst
art
edawar
whoisthi
spersont
ome
Thabi
so:Andl
ookwher
ethatgotyou,
youl
osta
baby

Theyl
augh.

Me:Fi
nebutwhati
fthatwer
etohappent
oyour
ki
dsoneday
Sakhil
e:Haveyouaskedyour sel
fhowwoul dMjf
eel
aboutyoukill
inghi
sabuser,doeshewanthi mt
obe
ki
ll
edordoeshewantt heuni ver
setotakei
ts
courseanddealwithhi
m.Whatar eyougoi
ngto
saywhenhei sallgr
ownupandsayt hatwasnot
yourbusinessandnotyourdecisiontomake
Thabiso:Ayphel
aifhei
sref
usi
ngt
hant
her
eis
nothi
ngwecando
Me:Youknowwhatgetf
uckoutofmyhouseal
lof
you
Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Me:Now

Thel
if
topens.

Phi
ndi
le
Iplacemybagont hecounterandheadovert omy
brotherikneeldownandhughi m andthebeasti
n
meawakens.Hecr iesist
rokehisback, hehol
dsmy
waistandcr i
eshisheartout.Everyt
hingwithmy
br
ot herandii
ssodeepandint
ense,whenhe
br
eaksihavet obest
rongvi
ceversa.Thi
swas
ki
ll
ingmeandihadt obestr
ong.

Ihavetobetheoldoneandshowhi m comf or
t.If
therewaseveratimeMxol i
sineededmei twasat
thisver
ymoment .OfcourseiboughtNonhl ewea
team wetr
oubleeachotheralot,l
ookoutf oreach
otherandj
ustloveoneanothertotheveryend.

Icanonlyimaginewhatmybabyi sgoi
ngt hrough,
heisshowingsomuchcour ageanditslottodeal
withasanadulthowmuchmor eathi
rteenyearold
tr
yingtofi
ndhimselfi
nthi
swi ckedworld.

Mzwakhe
Li
nda:Sakhi
leunenhl
izi
yoembikodwa

Theyl
augh.
Ndu:BengayenauNonhl
eloya
Li
nda:Heebasobha

Iwasn'
tint
erest
edintherest
upi
dconversat
ion.My
hear
twaswi tht
hatl
it
tleboyandhi
sbrokenf at
her
.

Thobani
:Bekuyena
Ndu:Uskhul
uukhi
yananoNonhl
e
Me:Uxakweyi
niwenaukut
hngi
jol
anobani
Ndu:Awskhul
uuyazinj
emi
nangaf
anawe

Theyl
augh.

Ndu:Ungasi
faki
thi
nakwi
nxabanoyakhonoSakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Butwenotf
ight
ing
Ndu:Nobutyouver
ywr
ong
Sakhi
le:Iam notgoi
ngt
ogeti
nthissongand
danceandifyouguysdogoaheadcountmeout
andiam out
Ndu:Asi
buyel
ekuNonhl
elomunyeangi
kwazi
ukumbonakahl
e
Sakhi
le:Manj
eni
zophi
ndeni
hlukanef
uthngoba
ngi
nqabil
i
Me:Ukut
hsiyahl
ukaniasi
hlukani
,si
yaj
ola,
asi
jol
i
ani
xhumiani
xhasil
apho
Sakhi
le:Okay

Iwantt
ohearwhatt
heyt
alki
ngabout
.

"
Younott
hinki
ngofdr
ivi
ng"

Phi
ndil
e:"Imeanwecancrashi
nhereorj
ustask
oneofthedri
ver
swaitnowecanuberourwayback
home"
Nonhl
e:"
Phel
aawuxabani
lenendodayakho"
Phi
ndi
le:"
Mzwakhe"

Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Eseboni
leukut
hngi
laneverl
etmego"
Nonhl
e:"
Whatwedoi
ngabouthi
m"
Phindil
e:"Wegoi ngtof i
xitoursel
vesyazingane
yami angizwi
sisilomf analo.Ngangilanabafana
bamiekhal auNhl anhl
aekhala,umnganiwakhe
bayamhl ukumeza.Mi naloawonet i
mekwaphel a
konke"
Nonhl
e:"
Ist
her
easpi
ri
ther
e..
.Phi
ndi
le"

Agl
assshat
ter
sigetupandt
aket
hest
air
s.

Phi
ndi
le
Ihadamomentandjustsmashedthecof
feetabl
e
wit
hmybarehands,
bothmywr istwer
ebloody.
Mzwakhewascl eaningmywounds.Isigh
wheneveriactoutofcharact
er,
itbet
hesevoicesin
myheaddr i
vingmecr azyandidotheimpossibl
e.

Me:Iam sor
ry
Mzwakhe:Thet
abl
ewecanbuyanot
herone
Me:Forbei
ngapar
toft
hismess
Mzwakhe:Ichoset
obepar
tofi
tandidon'
tregr
et
anyt
hing
Me:Ihavet
odosomet
hingigot
Mzwakhe:Don'
texplai
nwhat
everyouneedandi
fi
cangetf
oryouiwillgeti
t

Isi
gh.

Mzwakhe:Youl
eavi
ng
Me:Ihavet
ogoweleftt
heki
dswithmom andi
don'
twantt
hem t
othi
nkweabandonedt
hem,you
don'
twantmet
ogo

Heshakeshi shead.Hefinisheswrappi
ngupt he
bandagesandkissesbothmywr ist
,hegoesallt
he
wayupki ssi
ngbothmyar ms.Myneckandf i
nally
endinguponmyl i
ps,hegrabsmyneckandki ss
getsdeeperandpassionate.Heisgoingtofi
nish
myass.
[
06/
06,
10:
49] :90

Sakhi
le
Iguessicouldseereasondaddypouredhi sheart
andsoulint
oprotecti
ngme.Wewer eingr adeeight
iwastheboybymysel fhecameandst oodbesi de
me,ourfri
endshipbl
ossomedintothi
sf or
mi dable
for
cetoday.Wecanhel pMxoli
sioutbutmyway,
Mzwakhe'swayi sbl
oweverybodyupl i
ter
ally.

Ndu:Webafet
huaningi
thol
elel
oyamunt
uowenza
i
chisanyamai
babekanj
eya
Theyl
augh.

Me:Ipart
yingeweekendi
khaniubonamanj
eukut
h
meleutholeumunt
u
Ndu:Iknowl
ookatwhatt
heyi
namat
teroft
wo
days
Thobani
:Ayuqi
nisi
lel
aphomekukhonaongayenza
l
entoil
oyasi
si
Ndu:Ongi
thol
elayena
Thobani
:Khul
umanewakhe
Ndu:Mxm kombeni
funaukuncengwani
na
Thabiso:Nj
engobaechazakhulumanoMzwakhe
asi
kwaziukumanesenzeinto,singadl
ulangakul
e
outi
e

Il
augh.
Ndu:WenaSakhi
leawumazi
Me:Bayakut
shel
anj
eukut
htshunaniyi
ndab
ubhayi
za

Mxoli
siwal
ksbyputti
ngonahoodi
ewher
eishe
goi
ng,thel
if
topens.

Mzwakhe
Iar
ri
vej
usti
nti
mewher
eishegoi
ng.

Me:Wher
eyougoi
ng.
.iam t
alki
ngt
oyou
Mxo:Idon'
tneedt
oexpl
ainmysel
ftoyou
Me:OkayMridon'
thavetoexpl
ainmysel ft
he
minut
eyoudosomethingst
upidthepolicewil
lbe
r
ightt
herewai
ti
ngforyouandarrestyou.Sonow
l
etmeaskyouagainwherethefuckareyougoing
Mxo:Manj
eumemezel
aninxiaysuka
Her
emovesmyhandandent
erst
hel
if
t.

Me:Iam wat
chi
ngyou
Thobani
:Skhul
u
Me:Mmmm

Idr
inkhi
sjui
ce.

Thobani
:Ungekenj
eususeuchuku
Me:Ungekeuthuleforonceempil
weniyakhohmm
yamnandil
ejuice.
.Uphuzaijui
cekaPhindi
le
Thobani
:No.
..Yes

Ipunchhi
minhi
sar
m.

Thobani
:OuchMzwakheyi
nihawu
Me:Udl
aningi
lambemanj
ezi
khi
phabomawhat
Sakhil
e:Bef
orewet
ouchonthatiguessigrewa
consci
ouswecanhelpMxol
isi
,butwedot hingsmy
way
Me:Ayngisharpskhul
uhl
alanonembezawakho
ngokungaf
uniukusi
zai
ngane

Theyl
augh.

Me:Ut
heawuf
unianganayi
dumekanj
alo
Thobani
:Yi
nimanj
ekugcwel
eukudl
ahawu
Me:Angi
thsi
dlandawonyehawuyi
nimanj
e

Wel
augh
Me:Uhl
ekani
Thobani
:Wenauhl
ekani
Me:AhThobanidl
adl
a

Hewhi
sper
ssomet
hingt
ome.
Me:Akekhoyi
niomunyeengamut
hol
a
Thobani
:Ust
handi
lephel
aist
uffsakhe
Me:Eyyazimani ngekhoseriousngempi
lo
ngi
zoni
shiyanikhami si
le.Angazihl
ampenichat
hi
ngi
yadl
alayini
Thobani
:Soicancal
lher
Me:Yeahsur
e

Het
akesouthi
sphone.

Me:Manj
eyi
nipho
Thobani
:Idon'
twantt
oloseyourhappymoment

I
tri
ngsf
orawhi
lewebustamove.

Phi
ndi
le:Hel
lo
Thobani:Mommyngidingausi
zolwakhophel a
sthandwasam.Iam havingapar
tythisweekend
andi needyout
oworkyourmagic..Phindi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Usuqedi
leyi
ni
Thobani:Ohokaysoitsanal
lwhit
epart
yarounda
thousand,mi
ll
ionguestswewantsomet
hingthat
canaccommodat ebothmaleandfemal
e
Phi
ndi
le:I
sitdecoronl
yordoyou
Thobani
:Iam goi
ngt
ogowi
thal
loft
heabove

"
WeThobaniwena"

Thobani
:Awkodwasl
avi
thi
Nonhl
e:Awazikuyi
cal
aukuzi
jwayezanent
ombiya
baf
o

Theyl
augh.
Nonhl
e:Iam j
oki
ngnj
alodowehaveavenuei
fyes
wewouldli
ketoseei
t
Phi
ndi
le:Damnwhit
eisexpensi
vewhothehel
l
goi
ngtocleanmychai
rswhentheyst
ained
Thobani
:Yeswedohaveavenue
Phindi
le:Okaywhydon'tyouemai
lususingthe
company'semailaddr
essandwewi l
lgetbackto
thankyouforcal
li
ngusbye

Phi
ndi
le
Wet ouchdownatbigbeaut
if
ulhugevenue.Alr
eady
icanseemyvi si
onandhowigoingtotransf
orm
thi
splaceint
oawhitepart
yexpl
osion.

Me:Thisi
slikeablankcanvasf
ormeitscal
li
ngon
metodot heunt
hinkabl
e.Theentr
ancei
saplus
t
hisspaceishugeandbecauseofitwehavetodo
Nonhl
e:Al
oungesetup
Me:Youcat
chmyvi
bel
ovey,
bot
hendswesetupa
barareai
nthemiddl
eweputt
hedjsomewher
e
aroundhi
m mustbeast
ageandt
hanwestart
Nonhl
e:Food
Me:Somewher
ebet
ween

Wegotal
otofwor
kcutoutf
orus.

Me:Youthi
nkishoul
dinvi
teMxol
isiwhi
lehei
s
f
eeli
ngli
kethi
s
Nonhl
e:Hewon'thewoul
djustf
eell
ikeiam out
her
epart
yingwhil
emychil
disinpai
n
Me:Iwonderifhei
sokayheneedst
obearound
menifheisathome.Hewoul
dsnapatever
ythi
ng
andever
ybody
Nonhl
e:West
il
lneedt
odoshoppi
ng
Me:Whati
fthi
sist
hesamewhi
tepar
tyyouar
e
i
nvi
tedi
n
Nonhl
e:Wel
lther
e'sapossi
bil
it
y
Me:Wel
lgi
vet
hem apar
tyt
oremember
,measur
ing
Nonhl
e:Ohboy
Me:Yeshoneyyes

Ical
lMzwakheitsendsmestraightt
ovoicemai
l
ahhwhydoesitdothatever
ytimeicallhi
m.

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
ecankeephi sapologi
esreal
lyidon'
twant
them ij
ustneedmybabyher e,
orcareaboutt
his
stupi
dheist.Igrabmyphoneiseeihaveami ssed
callf
rom her,ical
lherback.

Phi
ndi
le:Wowbr
a
Me:Ubaniubr
a
Phi
ndil
e:Whyal
lthet
imewhenical
ligett
he
voi
cemail
Me:I
signalmamasi
sukesi
yij
ami
lel
uthool
utheni
wenzanl
apho
Phi
ndi
le:Iam att
hisbi
gvenuel
ikebi
gbi
gal
ready
pl
anni
ng
Me:Phokwangat
hini
yaj
aivanj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Wear
e
Me:Ohokay
Phi
ndi
le:Howi
sMxol
isi

Igetup.

Me:Hewentjoggi
ngmor
eli
kecomr
ademar
athon
hi
sassoutofhere

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Eat
ingorl
ockedhi
msel
fup
Me:Idon'
tknowihar
dlyseehi
m
Phindi
le:Pl
easedocheckonhi
m iknowhei
slot
butokwamanje
Me:Igotyoubaby
Phi
ndi
le:Awusakwazi
ukul
indal
iket
hreedays
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
thengi
yabuyanj
eShongol
olo
Me:Notsexyatal
l

Shel
aughs.

Me:Yi
nil
eekuvi
mbaukut
hungabuyi
Phi
ndil
e:Ihaveplanswi
thNonhl
ethisweekendso
wheniam withyouobvi
ousl
ythoseplansar
egoing
tof
all
through
Me:Savumel
enenjeaymanjeusuyangi
ji
kel
a
engat
hmanjengekeusaphi
ndeubabone
Phi
ndi
le:Umj
oloyoh
Me:Ngi
zokukhahl
ela
Phi
ndi
le:Howf
arawayam if
rom t
hepent
house
Me:hourt
hir
tymi
nut
es
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Me:Ipi
ckyouup
Phi
ndi
le:Nonhleandiaregoi
ngshoppi
ngsowewi
ll
beatt
hemal lorhouseof
KZ
Me:YouknowwhatPhi
ndi
leokay

Ihungup.

Me:Okayiam l
ist
eni
ngwhathaveyougot
.
Ndumisoi
maliunayoyokukhokha

Hel
ooksatmeconf
used.

Ndu:Kant
iakenzimahal
a
Me:Edakwaumunt
u
Theyl
aughf
orf
reeonwhosegi
rl
fr
iendNdumi
soi
s
cr
azy.

Phi
ndi
le
Hewon'tstopti
lliam backatthepenthouse,
ijust
needtotal
ktomom.Iam goi ngtoneedmyf amily
fort
hisone.Wej ustgotbacktotheoffi
ceigotalot
ofworkcutoutforme.

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Awmkhul
uuj
ehova
Mxol
isi
:Hey
Me:Owaki
thiwenaQwabe.
.Yeyeye
Mxol
isi
:Shutup
Me:Howyoudoi
ngmyl
ove
Mxol
isi
:Ij
ustneedt
otal
ktoyou
Me:Howi sthepent
househavingf
uniwillst
opby
l
ateri
sitokayifibr
ingt
hekids.Mom wi
llcompl
ain
t
il
lfor
ever
Mxoli
si:Idon'
tmi
ndandshewi
llj
ustseer
ight
t
hroughme
Me:Okaybi
gbr
otheriam her
eforyouanyt
imeof
t
hedaynoMxoli
sidon'
tcry

Icr
yto.
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10:
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Mzwakhe
Thisiswhereshebel
ongsandiam gl
adshecame
back,butiwasti
redandshewast
akingf
orevert
o
getready.

Me:Sheshi
saphel
aPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Ukhonanj
euJames
Me:Uj
olanoJames
Phi
ndi
le:Nobutit
oldyout
hiswoul
dhappenbutno
Me:Shutupandgr
ayyourt
hingsl
etsgo

Shel
aughsandkissesme,wegetdownstai
rs
Mxol
isii
sreadyMvelost
il
lsi
ngi
ngintheshower
.

Mxol
isi
:Mvel
o

"
Comi
ngdaddy"

Theyal
sover
yexci
tedt
obeback.

Mxoli
si:Sobi
gboyappar
ent
lydoyouwantmoney
orl
unchbox

Helooksatmet
hanhisdaddyandt
hinksabouthi
s
deci
sionf
oraminut
e.
Mj
:Iwi
llt
aket
hel
unchbox
Mxol
isi
:Goodver
ygood
Me:Your
eadyMvel
otakehi
sthi
ngsandl
etsal
ljust
go

Nonhl
e
Samkel oboughthisfri
endoverNgcebot hings
haven'tbeenworkingoutf orhim.Athomet hey
tr
eathiml i
keanout cast,idon'tknowwhathewi l
l
doher ebutanyjobisabl essing.Weweretaking
outthecouchest heyfil
ledwithdustatl
eastthey
coveredinplast
ic.

Samkel
o:Yourf
ri
endcomi
ngt
owor
k
Me:Whywoul
dn'
tshe
Samkel
o:Yout
hinkshecanhookmyguyup
Me:She'
sal
otoft
hingsbutanani
malshe'
snot
Samkel
o:Okayiwi
llt
akeyourwor
d
Me:Mmm
Samkelo:Youaft
ert
hisweneedtodost
ockt
aking
wemaysomet imesdon'
tpayat
tent
iont
othefi
ner
det
ail
sPhindil
edoes
Me:OkaySamkel
owewi
ll
Samkel
o:Ar
eyouokay
Me:Iam f
ineexhaust
edt
hat
'sal
l

Idon'twanttoassumewhatithi
nkiti
sidon'twant
tohaveababywi thSamkel
o.Iwouldki
llmyself
l
iteral
lyt
hisguyisthewor
stidon'
tthi
nkababywi l
l
solveanythi
ng.

Me:Iam f
ineSamkelokugcwel
eidustnj
ekuphel
a
ngat
hii
yonaengixakayo
Samkel
o:Ri
ghtokay
Mzwakhe
Idecidedtosti
ckar oundandwatchherwor k,when
wear ri
vedtheywer ebusypul
li
ngout,tabl
eand
chai
rsandwhat not.Il
ovet
hatsheisindependent
howeverwheni tcomest ospendi
ngmymoney,
honeyshedon' tplay.I
nawayshei steachingmei
am themanandial waysneedtoprovideforher
.

Me:Youl
ookgoodbehi
ndt
hatdesk
Phi
ndi
le:Iam wor
kingMrBhengu
Me:Youwoul
dlookevenbet
teront
opofi
t

Ipul
lthechai
rback.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Scr
eami
ngmynameoutofbr
eat
h

Ipi
ckherupandpl
aceheront
het
abl
e.
Phi
ndi
le:Someonemi
ghtent
er
Me:So

Iki
ssher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Babypl
ease
Me:Don'
ttel
lmewhatt
odo

Shemoansandunzi
pmypant
s.

Me:Usuyayi
funel
amanj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Iam t
ryi
ngt
ogetyout
ofi
nishf
ast
Me:B*tchidon'
tdoqui
cki
esgetdownandt
ake
yourpantsof
fbefor
eir
ipthem of
f
Phi
ndi
le:Ar
eyouser
ious
Me:Nt
ombiyaMzwakhesheshi
sa
Themoreshemakesslowt
helongeriam goi
ngt
o
take,
shet
akesherpant
sof
f.

Me:Tur
nar
ound

Shetur
nsarounditakeof
fmypants,
ipressdown
thet
ableandspankherassandt
hanslowlyi
nser
t
my..
.

Phi
ndi
le:Mmmm

Someonebet
terpr
aytheydon'
twal
kinbecausei
am goi
ngt
of*ckher.

Phi
ndi
le
If
allonmykneesholdi
ngontot
hetabl
ewhatt
his
manj ustdi
dn'
ttomewaswronginsomanyways.
Mzwakhe:Andt
hef
unpar
tofi
tal
langi
kaqedi
ngawe

Hegoesandl
ockst
hedoorl
aughi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Il
ovei
twhent
hathappens.
.Her
e

Igr
abt
het
owelf
rom hi
m andsl
owl
ygetup.

Me:Ni
ceone

Hechuckl
esandwegetdr
essed.

Mzwakhe:Sowannagoagai
n
Me:Noiam hungr
y
Mzwakhe:Yougoodnowicanunl
ock
Me:St
opl
aughi
ng

Isi
tdownandopenmyl
apt
op.

Mzwakhe:Youcanj
ustor
deranyt
hingyouwant
Me:Youhavef
oodappsonyourphone
Mzwakhe:TheyforThatosomet
imeshethi
nksiam
hi
sman, hewoul
dcomet omeandshowmehi s
puppydogeyeseveryt
hinghast
ostopbecausehe
i
shungry
Me:Youl
iket
hem
Mzwakhe:Toobadt
heydon'
tli
keme
Me:Il
ikeyou

Hesmi
lest
hatdi
mpl
e.

Nonhl
e
Iopent
hedoorandcl
osemyeyes.
Me:I
sitsaf
etoent
er

"
Openyoureyesandseef
oryour
sel
f"

Me:Wellt
hisj
ustcameandi
boughtgoodi
eshey
handsome

Hel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le:I
sthi
sal
l
Me:I
tski
ndofshor
tnot
ice
Phi
ndi
le:Ihavecushi
onsl
iket
heset
hisi
shor
ri
ble
Me:Okaywhatdoyousuggestwedo
Phi
ndil
e:Ihaven'
tbeenpai
dandThobanihasn'
t
email
edme
Me:Wi
ngsl
ovel
y
Phi
ndi
le:Doyouwantsome
Mzwakhe:Ial
readyat
e

Canhel eaveal
readyiwantPhi
ndi
let
oseei
fiam
pregnantornot
.

Phindi
le:Idon'
tknowanyt
hingaboutt
hispar
ty
exceptforit
swhite

Me:Qwabeevent
ssawubona
Cal
ler
:Gi
veMzwakhet
hephone

Il
ookathim andhandhimt hephone,phi
ndi
le
wri
tessomething,
coveri
ngitwit
hherhandi
chuckl
eshetearsthepaperokaythat
sareli
ef.

Mzwakhe:I
mmat r
yandf i
nisht
hisear
lyt
hancome
pi
ckyouifnott
haniwi
llseeyouathome
Heki
ssesher
.

Mzwakhe:Byehandsome

Hei
mit
atesmyvoi
cewel
augh.
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49] :92

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhedoesn'tf
orgethemustt akemetoworkin
facthel
ovesi
t,butf
rom nowiam goi ngt
oworking
athomeandpopi nshoulditbenecessar
y.The
doorsopensj
ustasisettl
edown.

Me:BabauMsomi
Samkel
o:Wowokay

Theysi
tandt
hismansaur
ajustengul
fsme,
not
anot
hercr
yingsoulohmyGod.

Samkel
o:Thi
sismyf
ri
endNgcebokhumal
oi
Me:Uhl
alanobaniki
ni
Ngcebo:Myaunt
sandsi
ster
s
Me:Khonaul
ungazwaniphakat
hikwenu
Ngcebo:Angi
nasoi
siqi
niseki
sobayangi
thanda
ekhayangazi
ke
Me:Samkel
ocoul
dyouexcuseus

Heiswrappedaroundayel
lowi
shbr
ownl
ikesnake
wi
thblackspot
sallover
.

Mzwakhe
Iam cal
li
ngPhindi
leandmycall
sarenotgoi
ng
thr
ough.Theseidi
otsar
eover
worki
ngmywoman
andidon'tl
iket
hat.
Thel
if
topens.

Mpi
lo:Skhul
u
Me:Moj
a
Mpi
lo:Icamewi
thher
Me:Wef
ami
lyi
fyoueverneedt
ocomej
ustcome
Mpi
lo:Ungi
qhat
hanobabamanj
e
Me:Whot hatoldmandon'tworr
yabouthim ineed
you.Youresponsibl
efordr
ivi
ngthetr
uckswith
Ntando,
headst r
aightt
othewarehousetakethe
moneyandl eave
Mpi
lo:Noteasyasi
tsounds
Me:Yeahwel
lthat
'sar
iskiam wi
ll
ingt
otake
Mpi
lo:OkayMrbhengu

Everyt
hingseemstohaveset
tl
eddownwithoutme
knowing,maybemyenemiesarepl
ott
ingand
recr
uit
ingmorepeopl
etotakemedown.Ijusthave
t
omoveonwi
thl
if
e.

Sakhi
le:Nomabengenzaniangekebesi
qhumbe
phansi
Mxo:Sani
bonani
Me:Youl
ookbet
tert
oday
Mxo:Iam t
ryi
ng
Me:Comepartywit
hust hisweekenditwil
lbefi
ne
andagreatst
ressr
eli
ever.Iam notsayi
ngbecause
Mxo:I
smysi
stergoi
ngt
obet
her
e
Me:Ayazimi
namf
anaka

Hechuckl
es.

Mxo:We'
l
lsee

Nonhl
e
Whatiwaswi tnessi
ngwasamat terofl
if
eand
deathf orme.Shesi nksherhandsdeepi nto
Ngcebo' sshoulderhescr eamsandcomesoutwi t
h
afift
yf ootsnakewithblackspots.Shedr awsouta
tri
dentf r
om herhand, herlowert
ur nsi
ntosnake.
Shest absthattri
dentdeepwi thi
nt heot
hersnakei
fel
titinmygut .

Thisisadr eam rightiam dr eamingicovermy

mout histhisthegif tt
hatwasgi ventoher.She
looksupandt hanf ull
ytransfor
mi nt
oasnake, my
heartburstthisisreal,iclosemyeyes.Onl ytoopen
withthem andshei tisinfrontofme.Iam shaking
inmyboot sf eardoesn' tevenbegintoexplai
nwhat
iam experiencing,myf riendisasnake.

Me:Phi
ndi
le.
.Buthow

Itl
ooksoverthansli
thersbackt
ransfor
mingback
tohersel
f.Iam bl
ownawayiam st uckfr
ozent
othe
ground,t
hisisunbel
ievabl
e.
Phi
ndi
le
Onceiam seent hatpersonwi l
lforeverseemefor
whoiam.Nonhl ej
usthappenedt obet her
eand
therewasnot hi
ngicouldhavedone, Ngcebowas
will
ingtoletmehelpnowheneedst opr ot
ect
himselffr
om theotherside.Theevi launti
sbyfar
donewi t
hhi m.

Me:Gezangalamanzikabilingosukuuwaphohloze
kwamanziogezangawo, uthandazeucel a
unkul
unkul
uakukhanyisele.Izi
ngelosizezul
uzi
be
kanyenawe

HeisgobsmackedjustasmuchasNonhleis
unfor
tunat
elyf
ort
hem, theynowknowit
urnint
oa
snake.

Voi
ce:Don'
twor
ryyoudi
dagoodt
hing
Awhiteli
ghtshi
nesbr
ightonhi
m.Igr
abmyphone
andcallMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe
"
Mzwakhe,
Mzwakhe"

Me:Hmmm
Sakhi
le:Yourphonei
sri
ngi
ng

Iyawnif
ellasl
eepont
hecouch.

Me:Mama
Phi
ndi
le:Am idi
stur
bingyou
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Mayyoupl
easecomeandf
etchme
Me:Okay
Shehungsupigobacktosl
eepi
ng.Igetup
vi
gorousl
yfr
om t
hecouchandheadupstai
rs,
why
am igoi
ngbackt
osleep.

Nonhl
e
Iwasintotalshockshet ookmebysur prise.I
coul
dn'tdoanyt hi
ngafterthat,i
mmediatelyit
old
Samkelotot akemehomebutt hanwentagainstt
he
i
dea.Thismi ghthurtherfeeli
ngsshehassome
expl
aini
ngt odoasnake.

Samkel
o:Iboughtyouf
oodmaybet
hismi
ghtmake
youf
eelbet
ter

Igrabthetakeawaybagmaybethi
sisal
ljusta
dream tomorrowwil
lbeokay.

Me:Wemustl
oadt
het
hingsi
nthet
ruck
Samkel
o:Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hatf
ocusonyour
sel
f
r
ightnow

Shewalksoutandiseei
tonher
,west
areateach
ot
hershecomesover.

Me:Nost
aywher
eyouar
e

Mzwakheenter
sheiswiththetwi
nsoneoft
hem,
def
ini
tel
ynotAyandabecausehewoul
dbestar
ing
atme.

Mzwakhe:Youokay
Phi
ndi
le:Yeahl
etsgo

Theyl
eavebutshet
urnsbackar
oundcomi
ngt
ome.

Phi
ndi
le:Nonhl
eiam r
eal
lynott
hathar
mless
Me:Don'
tcomeanycl
oserpl
ease
Phi
ndi
le:Ij
ust
Me:Phi
ndi
lepl
easeyouscar
ing
Phi
ndi
le:Howyout
hinkif
elt
Me:How
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tknowhowt
rustmei
tst
il
lscar
est
he
l
if
eoutofme
Me:Noi
mal
apho
Phi
ndi
le:Nonhl
e

Shecomescloserandcl
osermyhandsar
e
sweat
ingam it
heonlyoneseei
ngthi
s.

Me:AhahPhi
ndi
ledon'
ttouchme
Phi
ndi
le:Ipr
omi
seiwon'
thur
tyou
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phindi
le:LookatmeNonhlelookatmethi
sisi
tthi
s
i
st hegif
t.Thi
sisthewhol
ethingthewhol
eti
me
thathasbeendrivi
ngmecrazy,iwon'
thur
tyou
Iswall
owhardandsl
owlyt
ouchher
,itsl
idesdowni
ret
ri
evemyhandbackandrunawayfrom her
.Oh
hel
ltotheno.
[
06/
06,
10:
49] :93

Mzwakhe
Iam mor erel
axedwhenshei sar ound,t
hatcomfort
feel
ingofyoupar tnerbeingaroundyoui st
hebest.
Thel i
ftopensLindokuhleandSi ndiswaenter
,it
ri
ed
prot
ect i
nghim heisin,heisin.

Si
ndi
swa:Nkosazane
Phindi
le:Phakat
hikwaminaweangaziubani
onyamal al
akakhul
u
Si
ndi
swa:St
op
Me:So
Li
ndo:Wewasn'
tgoi
ngt
omi
sst
hewhi
tepar
tynow
Me:Youver
ybadyouknowt
hat
Li
ndo:Plusihavesomet
hingsineedt
otel
lyou
guysaft
erthewhit
epart
y

Thel
if
topensJamesent
erswi
thabi
gbox.

Phi
ndi
le:I
sthatf
orme
James:I
njal
onkosazane

Shescr
eamsandgr
absakni
feandopenst
hebox.

Phi
ndi
le:Youknowwhenyouor
dersomet
hingand
i
tcomesinthewrongcol
or

Sheyel
ls.

Phi
ndi
le:Isai
dwhi
tewhatt
hefi
sthi
s
Igr
abherwr
ist
.

Me:Whendidyoufindatimetodoat
att
oomy
gi
rl
fr
iendsdon'
thavetat
toos
Phi
ndi
le:Iwil
ltel
lyouaboutt
hissomeot
herti
me
somet
imei tmayappearsomet i
meitmaynot
Me:Ohyourgi
ft
Phi
ndi
le:Exact
lyungakwaziukungi
hambi
sa
somewhereali
nenf act
ory
Me:Okayst
handwasam

Weheartheatonguebeingcli
ckedwelooki
ts
Mxol
isigi
vingusabadlook,welaugh.

Phi
ndi
le
Ngcebocal
ledmeear
li
erandsaidhisaunt
'shut
bur
neddown.Itol
dhi
mt ojustcont
inuepr
ayi
ngand
bathi
ngwithther i
verwater
,nobodyi
sgoingt
o
knowhehasi t.Ialsowentaheadandgavehi
ma
jobunti
lhefi
ndswhat everhewantstodo.

Mzwakhe:Avengi
shayanj
aloumunt
u
ongi
bhedel
ayo
Me:Sekwenzenj
anmanj
e
Mzwakhe:UbaniuNgcebo
Me:Whyyougoi
ngt
hroughmyst
uff
Mzwakhe:Iam yourmanhoneyubaniuNgcebo
Me:Ther
easonwhyyoucan'
tsmashme

Heexhal
eil
augh.

Me:Mygif
twaswor kingshamepoorguyhi
saunt
aybyhi
m notsucceeding,
sheget
sallt
hewort
h
Mzwakhe:Thatshi
tisr
eal
Me:Babeyouwi
llbesur
pri
sedbypeopl
eandt
he
l
engt
hst
heywi
ll
ingt
ogoj
ustt
oobt
ainweal
th
Mzwakhe:Iai
n'texact
lyaSai
ntmysel
fbutevi
lay
Me:Kunj
alonj
e
Mzwakhe:St
il
ldoesn'
texpl
ainwhoi
sNgcebo
Me:Doyouhavepl
ansf
ort
oni
ght
Mzwakhe:Ot
hert
hanbei
ngi
nyourgutno
Me:Canwehavet
hehouset
oour
sel
ves
Mzwakhe:Ihaveabet
teri
dea

Ical
lNonhl
e.

Nonhl
e:Hey
Me:St
il
lavoi
dingme
Nonhl
e:Youknowwhat
Me:West
il
lgoi
ngoutt
hisweekend
Nonhl
e:ofcour
seut
shel
eindodayakhof
uthukut
h
ngi
the
Me:Okayl et
sbedonewitht
hisdecorohbabeis
thatplacesecur
etoleavemythingsbecausewe
startsett
inguptomorr
ow
Mzwakhe:Not
hatpl
acei
sli
keinthemiddl
eof
nowher
eyoucan'
tcomeonthedayof
Nonhl
e:Hai
boPhi
ndi
le
Me:Itsf
inewecanhavethedayof
ftomor
row,
whichmeansihavetocometoworkandt
hanwe
canstar
tsetupl
ikeoneint
hemorning
Mzwakhe:Niyabonakeninazi
njaintoeseni
yenzi
le
eyamii
ntombimel ei
vukengeyi
ntathamanje.
Ndumisouzohambayenaeyogadal aphaya
Nonhl
e:DidhesayNdumi
soohmyGodgi
rlaski
f
hi
ssurnameiskheswa
Mzwakhe:UyezwaNdumi
sokheswa

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e:Donotment
iont
hatwegoi
ngt
othesame
par
tybye
Mzwakhe:Don'tstressiam notgoi
ngt
otel
lyou
don'tgoorwhat,iknowNdumi soandt
hem ar
e
fr
iends

If
orgotthi
shousehasl
ist
eni
ngdevi
cesand
whatnot
.

Mzwakhe
Didshereal
lyt
hinkidon'
tknowwegoi
ngtothe
sameparty,
thi
sisgoodbecausenowever
yoneis
goingt
oseeiam dating.

Ndu:"
Sof
akaamacamer
aMzwakheyi
nimanj
e"
Me:Maseumunt
uwamiel
ahl
ekel
wai
ntozakho

Iam wor
ri
edthatpl
acei
sinaf
iel
dthat
swhyi
ts
goi
ngtobeeasytodoourj
ob.
Ndu:"Hawuigotalotgoi
ngont
hant
obewor
ryi
ng
aboutyourgi
rl
fr
iend"
Me:Ngi
zokuyekant
wanayamiinki
ngaawumazi
maseumbonahmmm, ngi
zokuyeka

"
Ujabul
isai
nhl
izi
yoyami
Ut
hokozi
saumphef
umul
owami
Umangi
nawekonkekuphel
eleyoucompl
eteme"

Me:WeNdungi
thiweNdumi
so

Wel
augh.

Me:I
ntombiyamil
e

Phi
ndi
le:"
Youmydesi r
eyoumyheartngi
thanda
wenakonkekuphel
eleyoucompl
eteme"
Me:Okaysoasenzeso
Mxol
isi
:Uyozeashoneumunt
uindodayakho
i
nqabanawe
Me:AwMxol
isiawukhul
umikahl
e
Mxo:Shutup

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Mxoli
siandimeetupwi t
hmyguysatt hevenue,
theywereput
ti
ngupdr api
ngstocoverthecei
li
ng
andthatgoi
ngtotakehoursbecauseofhowbigthe
venueis.

Me:Ngi
yani
bongazi
thandwazamingabengi
kuphi
nj
e
Nonhl
e:P
Me:Yeah
Nonhl
e:Di
dyouknow

Shepressessomebut
tonandt
hesi
deski
ndof
openup.

Me:No
Nonhl
e:Cabanga
Me:Doest
het
opopenupl
iket
hatt
oo
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowheybi
gbr
other

Hewavesather
.

Nonhl
e:No
Me:Okayst
opyouknowinst
eadofdoi
ngaf
ull
dr
ape,doi
thal
fwayandt
hen

"I
twouldsti
llneedt
obeaful
ldrapi
ngandthanwe
candecorat
ions,weal
somuststar
twi
thitf
ir
st"
Me:That
sext
raworkokaycont
inuei
fidon'
tli
kei
t
wechangi
ngthewhol
ething

"
Yesma'
am"

Me:OkayNonhl
eiam goi
ngnow

Icantel
lMxol
isij
ustneedsami nut
ewit
hme,letme
j
ustgivehi
m myundividedat
tenti
onanddot
he
thi
ngswebothenjoy.

Mzwakhe
Mjcal l
edmeandsaidschoolcameoutearl
y.I
arri
ve,heseest
hecarandrunsnowwhyi she
running.

Me:Whyyour
unni
ngMj
Mj
:Ngi
yaxol
isa
Me:SonowwhatdowedoMvel
oisst
il
linschool
Mj:Wecanhaveahugef
undayandcomebackt
o
f
etchhi
m
Me:Okay

Istar
tthecaranddri
veof
f..
.Whatdoki
dsl
ovej
unk
foodlot
sandlotsofj
unkfood.

Wear
ri
veatt
hemal
ltwent
ymi
nut
esl
ater
.

Me:Okaywhatdoyouwant
Wai
ter
:Goodday
Me:Mmm khulumaphel
aMjsi
vimbeul
ineokayone
ofever
ythi
ngpl
ease

Helooksatmeli
kedoihaveani
deaofwhatiam
sayi
ngcaniaf
fordi
tal
l.
Me:I
sther
esomet
hingwr
ong
Wai
ter
:Nosi
rcashorcar
d

Itakeoutmywal lethiseyespopoutwhenhesees
theblackcard.Idon'tknowwhatiti
swit
hpeople
beingjudgemental.

Me:Takeaway
Mj
:Youknowt
hat
'swast
ing
Me:Wel
lthanyoushoul
dhavesai
dsomet
hingmy
man

Wewaitanhourt
wohoursper
sonal
lyt
hat
swrong,
wegetouror
derandl
eave.Wegosomewher
equiet
andchi
ll
.

Mj
:Thi
sisgoodmal
ume
Me:I
tsal
lyour
s
Mj
:Mvel
owon'
tli
ket
hat

Wel
augh.

Mj:Hewoul dt
akemet othegar
ageout si
deand
openhi spantshisthingwoul dspri
ngout.Hewould
pointagunatmeandt el
lmeifidon'tdoithei
s
goingtokillmom anddad, soidi
ditbecauseilove
mommyanddaddy, ilovedaddythemostandyou.I
woulddoi twheneverhecamebyhouse, mommy
wast hereikepthearingsoundf r
om herroom

Heistell
ingmethi
sst
oryi
nsuchahappyt
one.
Whatkindofdogwoul
ddosomethi
ngli
ket
his.

Mj :Soididi
thewentont osayifidon'
tmakeit
niceforhim hewi
llgotoMvelo.Mveloiscr
azyhe
willbeli
keewwwhati sthat
,youwantmet otouch
that
Ichuckl
east
ear
sfal
ldownmyf
ace.

Me:Tel
lyouwhatmal
umei
snotgoi
ngt
oal
lowt
hat
t
ohappen
Mj:Buti
fidon'
tdoi
tmommyanddaddyar
egoi
ng
di
e
Me:Listent
omet hatisnevergoingt
ohappen
daddyandiwillpr
otectyou.Daddyisnotgoi
ngt o
diemommyi snotgoingtodie,youwil
lneverever
everhavetodothateveragain
Mj:Whatguar
anteecanyougi
vemei twon'
t
happenagai
n,hecomestoschoolever
yday
Me:Iam goi
ngt
oki
llhi
m
[
06/
06,
10:
50] :94

Sakhi
le
Unnecessarywarwasr
eall
ynotonmyplat
e,why
cr
eatemor eenemi
esontopoftheoneswehave.
Butthanthatconver sationohiwasnotpr epar
ed
andthiswasnot .Itotallymisunderstoodthegravi
ty
ofthi
swhol ething,becauseihadr efusednobodyis
goingtoevendoat hing.Wewer etryingtoget
Mxolisionarollagain, hear
inghissonspeakl i
ke
thatwithsomuchj oyi nvoicecrippledhim.Imyself
wasshakeni nmybal ls.

Li
nda:Whywepar
tyi
ngwhenal
loft
hisi
sint
heai
r
Mzwakhe:Heyt
her
echampupt
op
Mvel
o:That
snotf
airhowar
ewegoi
ngt
oreach
t
here
Mzwakhe:Fi
nishyourf
oodwena

Hewipeshi
shandonhi
sschoolshi
rtt
hischi
ldwi
ll
bet
hedeathofus.

Mxol
isi
:Real
lyduder
eal
ly
Mvel
o:Sor
rydaddyi
twasami
stake
Mxoli
si:I
lokphaphakwakhoubhiziukhuluma
nesi
ngisiekusenikanj
e,phut
humauyol andael
inye
i
shir
t
Mvel
o:Yebo

Nt
andoent
erswi
thAyanda.

Ayanda:Icomebear
inggif
tsandyouar
egoi
ngt
o
l
ovewhaticameupwi th
Mxol
isi
:Mvel
oboiam goi
ngt
obanyouguysf
rom
comi
nghere
Mzwakhe:Mxol
isi
'
sphonesawubona,
iam hi
s
boyf
ri
end.
.Whydoyoucare
Me:Ayanda
Ayanda:Iknowright.
.Ialsoupgradedthel
ist
eni
ng
devi
ces,igott
hevenuesecur edifyoucli
ckhere
thi
sisoutsi
de,i
nside,topandsidesain'
tnobody
evengoingtotr
yus
Mzwakhe:Theki
dsar
efi
ner
eal
lymyboyMjwas
tel
li
ngmehel ovessoccert
heli
ttl
eguylovesvi
deo
games..Ofcourseyouwouldn'
tbecauseyoudon'
t
payatt
enti
ongoodbye

Mzwakhe
Hesaidhewant edt otakehi
skidstoschooland
pi
ckthem upcool .Isenthi
m wi
t habunchof
undercoverbodyguards,mypri
ncessissleepi
ng,
herdecorisarri
vingimustmakesur eeveryt
hingi
s
i
ntip-
topconditi
on.

Ayanda:Nowiwantust
otr
ythef
ivemi
nut
ethi
ng
Sakhi
le:Ngazodakwa
Ayanda:Nojustli
stenihavecal
culat
edever
ythi
ng
fi
veminutesisactual
lygoodforuswemaket he
i
mpactmor eless
Thabi
so:Youcan'
tst
ealcar
sinf
ivemi
nut
est
hat
cr
azy
Me:Ar
eyougoi
ngsomewher
ewi
tht
his
Ayanda:Let
sgot
othet
heat
er
Me:Okayigetyounow
Thobani
:Mzwakhe
Me:Everwonderwhywebar
elygetcaughtand
makeout
Thobani
:Wegoodatwhatwedo
Me:Evenbet
terwhenmyst
eri
ousf
orceswor
kwi
th
us
Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
e
Me:Nodummyl eavemygi
rl
fr
iendoutoft
hisdad
wasinandoutl
ike
Sakhi
le:Al
lhandsondeck
Me:Al
lhandsondeckbut
Thobani
:Iwi
llt
aket
heot
hert
ruckyougetMpi
lo
i
nside
Thabi
so:Howdoyoudi
sabl
etr
acker
sint
hatt
ime
Ayanda:Withthi
sonepr
essdisabl
esever
ythi
ngbut
al
soiwillkeepthatt
omysel
f
Shecomesdownsneezi
ngandgr
unt
ingar
eher
thi
ngsst
art
ing.

Me:Yi
nikwenzenj
an
Phi
ndi
le:Ayl
uthni
hlebanini
badal
akangaka

Iki
sshercheek.

Me:Whyyouup
Phindi
le:Ngi
vusweil
enkul
umoyenuengasi
lemm
thi
sissoannoying

Ibrushhershoulder
,shekicksthecouchitopens
out.Shealsopull
soutastringinsi
dethecouch,
thr
owi tonthetabl
ethanleaves.Sosomebodyhas
beenlist
eningt
omeal lt
ime.
Me:James

It
aughtiwassmar
tatt
hisbutno.

Phi
ndi
le
IcanhearMzwakhef ai
ntl
ytal
kingtosomeone.
Physicall
yiam her
ebutmymi ndissofaraway,
he
getsclosert
omeandicanhearhi m pr
operl
y.

Mzwakhe:Baby.
.Baby.
.Mamashei
snot
r
espondi
ngokaybyehandsome

Hel
aughs.

Me:Mzwakheno
Mzwakhe:Awst
handwasam ngenzenj
ani
kemi
na
Me:I
figetupnowi am l
eavi
ngandiwi
llcomeback
l
atei
nthemorning
Mzwakhe:Udaki
weungal
ingeuzongi
dakel
wa
ngi
kukhahl
elamina

Wheniam l i
kethisiti
sverydi
fficul
tformetowake
up,bei
ngasmymi ndisst
il
loccupiedbythe
ancest
ors.Ifeelhi
sl i
psonmy, hiscoldhandgoes
i
nsidemyt opandsqueezemyboob.

Me:Mzwakhengi
yakucel
a

Wownowihavegr
indmyass.

Sakhi
le
WhyisMzwakheli
kethi
smaraandnowever
yone
hast
obesubject
edtothi
sbul
l.

Me:Ngel
inyei
langasofundaukut
hmel
esi
be
nezi
ndl
uzethusihl
aleemakit
hi
Thobani
:Lethi
m behawuhei
shappyshemakes
hi
m happy
Me:Shereal
lydoeshecan'
tspendt
woseconds
wi
thouther

Ihopeonedayiam blessedwit
hthatuncondit
ional
l
ove.Thelif
topensNonhleandJamesent erwi
th
sui
tcover
s.

Nonhl
e:Thankyousomuch
James:Nopr
obl
em nkosazane
Nonhl
e:Sani
bonani
Us:Heygi
rl

Wel
augh.

Thabi
so:Usi
phat
hel
enil
apho
Nonhl
e:Thi
sisf
orPhi
ndi
leandi
Thabi
so:Anot
hervacat
ion
Nonhle:Wel
lwewi
llbesur
enott
oinvi
teMr
s
Bhengu
Si
ndi
swa:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:Ani
sashomaseni
khona

Thet
hreeoft
hem j
ustst
artl
ooki
ngl
iket
ri
plet
s.

Li
nda:Kant
ithi
navel
ekwakwenzenj
an

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e
Iam atthepenthouset
odayhaven'
tbeenherei
na
whil
e,ibroughtafewthingswecanwearfor
tomorr
owandanupdat e.

Sakhi
le:Ngempel
aNonhl
eseni
yahambaf
uth
Me:Noeveni
fsohambasohambasobabi
limanj
e
yi
nii
nki
ngayakho
Olwethu:Kodwaphel
auSi
ndi
swaakanayoi
nkabi
yendoda
Me:Si
hambasonkenomasi
hlal
aphansi

Thekingandqueencomeaf
terbr
aci
nguswi
tht
hei
r
i
ntenselovemaki
ng.

Phi
ndi
le:Nonhl
e
Them:Heygi
rl
Me:Iwi
llneverheart
heendoft
his
Phi
ndi
le:Whatyoudoi
ngher
e
Me:Bengi
sashawaumoyanj
e
Phi
ndi
le:Youst
ayi
ng
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Aw
Me:Yeah
Shel
aughs.

Me:Okaysor ealqui
cktheboyssai
dnowayinhel
lI
aretheygoingtobeworki
ngonaweekend,t
hey
goingtodoeverythi
ngandwecangointhe
mor ni
ngforfi
nalcheckup
Phi
ndi
le:Okayt
hat
'sr
easonabl
eingeni
lei
mal
i
Me:Happydoesn'
tevenbegi
ntoexpl
ainwhatt
hey
f
eeli
ng
Phindi
le:Iwi
llaskificanjustpopinidon'
twantt
o
l
eavethem andt hanngibanenkinga,
butitr
ustmy
team
Ol
wet
hu:I
sthatf
orus
Phi
ndi
le:Unlessyouwantt
osi
tar
oundwi
thyour
mansWher eisMxoli
si

Theyst
opeat
ingandl
ookateachot
her
.
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Andi
le
It
sbeenawhi l
esinceeveryt
hinghappened,ijust
haven'
tbeenmysel fatall
.Iam hopingtodaythings
wil
lsortoflookoutforme.Phi ndi
lehasbeenstuck
onmymi ndsincethatdayielectr
ocutedher.

Smanga:Reall
yyoucoul
djustfi
ndahoeorcal
l
Mandi
sainsteadofmast
urbat
ing
Me:Shutupyouf
ool

Hel
aughs.

Me:Whatyougotf
orme
Smanga:Ihear
dtheypl
anni
ngondoi
ngahei
sti
n
Ndumiso'
spart
y
Me:Theyhaven'
tnot
icedt
hel
ist
eni
ngdevi
ces
Smanga:Idon'
tthi
nkso
Me:Okayand
Smanga:Al
ahl
auml
enzeoei
scomi
ngoutofpr
ison
Me:What
Smanga:Yeap
Me:Thi
ngsj
ustgoti
nter
est
ing

Ther
estofmybr
other
swal
kin.

Sandi
le:Shoul
dn'
tthi
sonebeatschool
Me:Cont
inuet
alki
ngl
iket
hatandever
yonewi
ll
t
hinkiam t
heel
dest
Sandi
le:Butyounotsowhati
sgoi
ngonher
e
Me:Thosemonkeysar
eupt
osomet
hingandiwant
i
t
Samkel
o:Youamaf
iasi
ncewhendoyoudealwi
th
car
s
Me:Welldearbr
otheri
fitmeansnotseei
ngt
hose
monkeysanymoreheyiwillt
akei
t
Samkel
o:Enl
ight
enme
Me:I
tsgoi
ngdowntodaySabel
oisgoi
ngbacki
n
andwewil
lfi
ndoutmore
Samkel
o:Ther
eisf
iveofusandhundredsofthem
howarewegoingt
odothatwit
houtsuspici
on
Me:Li
keisai
d
Samkel
o:Andi
lest
opbei
ngadumbman
Smanga:I
fSiyandawasherehewoul
droastyou
ri
ghtnowstopbeingacoward
Samkel
o:Youknowwhatal
lofyouar
edumbiam
l
ivi
ng

Hest
ormsout

Sakhi
le
Weneededadi ver
sionandt hr
owoffanyone
l
ookingt
obustusf orthismissi
on.Wecall
ed
ever
yonein,
Sabelowasn' ther
eandheistheone
wewanthere.Phindil
eleftt
hekidsar
egoingtobe
wat chedbyMr sZulunotbecausetheir
grandparentsarenotcapableofwatchingt
hem,but
forsafetypurposesLizekaandherpedophi
legang
willnotbeabletoreacht hem.

Mzwakhe:Engat
hangi
niboninj
eni
phel
ele

Thelif
topensMxolisienter
sthisBuffal
ohmm, he
l
ookslostinl
ife.Heleansont heki
tchenisl
and
fi
xinghisj
acketsomeofl augh.Mzwakheget sup
hegoesaroundt otheothersi
deoft hecounter
.

Mzwakhe:Phakaudl
emaseuyogezaul
ale
Mxo:Ar
emy
Mzwakhe:For
getaboutt
hat
Mxo:Manj
eumel
ani

Hechaseaf
terhi
m,her
unsoutt
hebal
cony
Hi
sphoner
ings.

Mxo:Yeah.
.Uyangi
hlukumezaungi
khi
yel
ala
ngaphandl
e

Welaugh.Hecomesbacki
nsi
deandst
art
sdi
shi
ng
out
.

Thabi
so:Uzoshadakanj
anMzwakheusabi
sausbar
i
Mzwakhe:Everychanceigetoverpower
ingt
his
b*
tchiwil
ltakeit

Hi
sphoner
ingshei
gnor
esi
tandcomest
osi
tdown.

Mzwakhe:Madodangi
theani
phel
elei
kuphii
nki
nga
Me:Youokay
Mxo:Iam f
ine
Me:Wedon'
thavet
oadmi
tyou
Hel
ooksatmet
hanever
yoneel
se.

Me:Nextt i
meyouthinkaboutdi
sappear
ingiam
goingtolockyouup.Dri
veyoucrazyandyouwill
nevergetout

Hest
aresatme.

Me:Mmm

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhlewantedustogetreadyatherhouseikindof
underst
andwhy,thedooropensSamkelowalksin
helooksshockedseei
ngus.Butlat
eronsmi l
es.

Me:Yabonanj
eweneedtocal
lamakeupar
ti
st,
si
fonel
euMandlamanj
e
Nonhl
e:uMandl
auzof
unaukuhambanat
hikodwa
Samkel
o:Ladi
es
Me:Sam ohheywedi
dn'
tseeyout
her
e

Myphoner
ingsigr
abmygl
assandwal
kout
.

Me:Bhenguwami
Mzwakhe:Mommy

Ismi
lel
ikeal
it
tl
ehi
ghschool
.

Mzwakhe:Uzi
phet
hekahl
eudal
ilapho
Me:Iam goodwej
ustchi
ll
ingwest
oppedbyt
he
venueohmyGod
Mzwakhe:Kuyanyi
wa
Me:Yobaby
Mzwakhe:Sohecamel
iedhei
ssl
eepi
ngnow,
iam
wonder
ingi
fweshoul
dleaveor
Me:Wakehim andaskthanyouknowdecidi
ngon
ownandthanhewillbeli
kengasal
akengedwayou
know
Mzwakhe:Okaymamaihavet
ogo
Me:Thankyouf
orcal
li
ng

Hehungsup,igobacki
nsi
dethanihearmoans
andgr
oans.Nonhl
ehowcouldyou.

Mzwakhe
Ever
yonei
stenseandqui
et.

Me:Yi
ninat
hukakangaka
Thobani
:Si
li
ndewenausi
tshel
eukut
hkwenzi
wani
Me:Okayhere'
swhat
'sgoi
ngon,
weusi
nganew
warehouse
Thel
if
topens.

Sakhi
le:Youl
ate
Me:Si tdownasiwassayi nganewwar ehouse.
Sabelo, Sakhil
ewillgiveyout hedetail
s,therestof
yallwillheadtothepar ty.Senzoyour esponsiblef
or
allthi
ngst ech,Nkanyiso, mel
usiyouguysar e
responsi bl
eforthetrucks.Anypr oblemswi ththat

Theykeepqui
et.

Li
ndo:Ipr
obabl
yshoul
dhavesai
dthi
s

Theyi
mit
atehi
svoi
ce.

Them:I
fisomuchsmel
lyouhavebeenwi
tha
womaniwil
lst
opthi
swholet
hing
Wel
augh.

Li
ndo:Musaniukungi
phaphel
a
Thobani
:Ungadakwikakhul
uboy
Me:Cabangangobangi
zobengi
dakwanaye
Sakhi
le:Youi
nvi
tedher
Me:Nobutshewillbet
hereimeanitwi
llbegood
webarelydoanyt
hingt
ogetherweal
ways
smashingsoyeah
Sakhi
le:Ni
ce
Me:Okaymadodaakubenj
alo

Andi
le
Sabelocall
edaqui ckmeet
ingwemetupatour
usualspot,iguesshehasmorei
nfor
mati
onabout
thi
sheist.

Me:Thi
sbet
terbegood
Sabel
o:Heisusi
nganewwar
ehouse,
hehas
swit
chedupteams
Me:Meani
ng
Sabelo:Tr
yingt
othr
owofsomebodywhoi
sont
o
them
Me:Ont
othem Sabel
o
Sabel
o:Whi
chmeanst
heyknowt
her
eisamol
e
Me:Howdi
dthi
shappenwai
tyoudon'
tthi
nkJames
Sabel
o:Idon'
tthi
nkheknowsi
tsmeNdumisoand
Thobanicoul
dhaverat
tedmeoutal
ongt
imeago
Me:Jamesknowsnot
hingaboutnocode
Sabelo:Him usi
ngt heot
herguyshewantstofi
nd
outwhot hemol eisoral
readyknowsandthey
creat
ingadiversionbutatrap
Me:Ofwhi
chwecan'
tlett
hathappen
Sabel
o:I
fiam t
oocl
oset
heygoi
ngt
osmel
lme
Me:Fuck
Sabel
o:Ihavet
ogobef
oret
heynot
iceiam not
t
her
ekeepyourphoneson
Me:MzwakheBhenguyougood

Igr
abmyphoneandcal
lmyguy.

Me:Yeahwedoi
ngi
tagai
n

Mzwakhe
Iwaswatchingthem observi
ngeachandevery
onesmoves, ontopofthesediversi
onsihadmy
ownplans.Iknowal oti
sgoi ngtogowrongsoiam
st
eppingin,Sabeloandeverybodyelsewon'
tknow
whathitt
hem.

Phi
ndi
lecal
lsme.

Me:Heymyl
ove
Phi
ndi
le:Uhm iam f
eel
ingver
yover
whel
medand
anxi
ous
Me:It
oldyounott
ogeti
nvol
ved
Phi
ndi
le:Iam notso
Me:Okayl
etstexteachot
herandyoucanof
fl
oad
t
heheavyweightonyourshoul
der
Phi
ndi
le:Okay

Ihungup,
igr
abmyot
herphoneandt
exther
.

Phi
ndil
e:"
Theyknowyout
ryi
ngt
ocr
eat
ea
di
versi
on"
Me:"Igotapl
anofmyownsoyouandt
he
ancest
orscanrel
ax"
Phi
ndi
le:"
Ican'
trel
ax"
Me:"For
getaboutt
hatyouf
ocusonbei
ngmy
gi
rl
fr
iend"
Sakhi
le:I
zinj
amadoda
Mxo:Yabonakeubuf
ebebuqal
akanj
eawani
amaf
oniamabi
li
Me:Yaf
unaukuzi
khi
phanamhl
anj
e
Mxo:Zi
phii
yinganezami
Sakhi
le:Awukahl
eMxol
isi
Mxo:Iguessican
Me:Okayuzohambanamingobaangi
kut
hol
jkahl
e,
Sakhi
le

Ihandhi
m myot
herphone.

Sakhi
le:Noways
Me:Ngizobakhombi
saukut
hngi
wubani
..Si
yageza
Mxol
isimasihamba
Mxo:Thankyou
Me:Forwhat
Mxo:Mysist
er,
myboysyouguysiknowyouowe
menothi
ngbutthef
actt
hat
Me:Don'
tsweati
tman
Mxo:Nol etmesayt hi
sifitwasn'tforyouwe
wouldn'
tknowandiunder standwhymysi st
er
couldn'
tseeit.Theywereprotecti
ngusf rom t
his
disgust
ingtruthbutwhatiam tryi
ngt osayyou
havebeent hebestandmysonsl oveyou

Idon'
twantt
ogetemot
ionalonsuchani
ght
.
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Phi
ndi
le
Wear ri
veatt hevenueandi tisdropdeadgor geous.
Ican'tbeli
evemyt eam theamountofwor kand
ti
met heyputi nhereisexceptional
,from t hewhi te
carpetentrancetothebeaut i
fulwhitefl
or alwal lour
parti
esalwaysst andout.Whenyouent eritsheaven
onear t
hf ourbarstat
ions,plentyofseat i
ngf or
everyone.Wai t
ersaregearingupf ortheni ghtwe
areal i
tt
lebitearl
ybecause, ihavegot hroughone
mor efi
nalcheck.
Nonhl
e:Soyouhappy
Me:Ili
kewhatyoudidwithf
lower
scascadi
ngli
ke
that
,mayberemovethosebi
gonesandplacet
hem
ontheseemptytabl
es
Voi
ce:Samkel
o
Samkel
o:Sho
Hi
m:Naear
lykwenzenj
an
Samkel
o:Sol
ungi
saokuncanengobaubonanj
e

Hest
aresatme.

Nonhl
e:Ndumi
sot
hisi
sPhi
ndi
le,
pthi
sisNdumi
so
Ndu:Wazewamuhl
e
Me:Ngi
yabonga

Heissmil
ingfr
om eart
oearisendMzwakheat
ext
ihopeheseesit
.
Mzwakhe
Ihadeyesont hem from abuil
dingnottof
arfrom
thevenue.Everyonewasi nposit
ionandwait
ingfor
themissionathand.Myphonebeepsi t
samessage
from mylove,"
Pleasebringmesomet hi
ngformy
earsthank"
.Ireplyokay.

Me:Ayanda

Hegi
vesmeanearpi
ece.

Me:Di
disayiwantt
his
Ayanda:Uf
unanikant
i
Me:Getmeear
plugsyoudummyf
orl
oudnoi
se
Ayanda:Awushonganpho

Il
ookathi
m hel
aughsandget
sup.
James:Thi
sbet
terwor
kMzwakhe
Me:I
twi
llhavef
ait
hinme
James:Fi
necal
lmewhenal
loft
hisi
sover
..You
cancomeoutMpil
o

Il
augh.

Mpi
lo:Okusal
ayongi
bizweuyena
James:Don'
tactl
ikeyounotecst
ati
ctobeback

Hel
eaves.

Me:Tymal
akhomf
ethu
Mpi
lo:Savage
Me:Heisamonstertheonl
ypeopl
ehel ovesar
e
t
heladi
es,
butiwouldn'
ttr
adehi
mf oranythi
ng
Mpil
o:Mom,Hl
eloandiback.Youguysal
lowi
ng
hi
mt obeapar
enti
nyourlives,
whatmorecanhe
askf
or

Guest
sst
artt
oar
ri
ve.

Phi
ndi
le
Guestswerearri
vingdressedt okil
l,
admi ri
ngand
taki
ngpict
ures.Thestarofthedayi st hatfl
oralwall
Nonhleandispentawhi letherejusttakingpictur
es.
Someguyscomet ousNonhl estart
sf i
dgeti
ng, i
l
ookatherdownt hatdrinklikeherdependsoni t.

Samkel
o:Youher
e
Them:Yeah
Samkelo:Thesearemybrot
her
sSmangaand
Sandi
legentsthi
sisPhi
ndil
e

Theylookathi
m,t
heyweredef
ini
tel
yther
ewhen
Andi
lezappedme,inodmyheadandsmile.
Nonhl
e:Wantsomef
ood
Me:Yespl
ease
Nonhl
e:Wewi
llbebackpl
easeexcuseus

Weheadtot
hebar
.Itl
ooksl
i
ket
heMsomi
'
sar
e
ar
gui
ng.

Me:Lookweareher
etohaveagoodt
imedon'tl
et
t
hem gett
oyou.Not
hingi
sgoingt
ohappenokay

Shenods.

"
Ladi
es"

Nonhl
esmi
lesandl
ooksdowni
tst
heot
hert
win.
Luyanda:Don'
tbesmi
li
ngatmenow

Wel
augh.

Luyanda:Thesear
eforyou
Me:Theear
plugst
hankyousomuch
Luyanda:Uthenauzewenanedl
ozil
akhocel
a
ni
ngamj wayelikabi
Me:Di
dheal
sosaypoi
ntatme

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Theplacewasnowj am packedwi
ththemusi
c
fl
owingandeverybodyhavingagoodti
me.If
eel
l
ikeweshouldwaitanhourorsoandnotmake
thi
ngssoobvious.
"
Kant
isi
li
ndenimadoda"

Mpi
lo:"
Rel
axboy"

Thet
rucksar
ri
veout
side,
iseePhi
ndi
ler
aisi
ngher
gl
assup.

Ayanda:Youknowthebeautyofthist
hingyoucan
pr
essitanywhereandi
twilldi
sablecartr
acker
s
wit
hinit
smileradi
u.
Me:"Okayboysi
tsshowt
ime"

Thecarsbl
inki
nsanet
hanstop,t
heyenterthecar
s
andonebyonetheydri
veout.Mpi
loset
st heti
mer
thi
sisamakeaorbreakmoment .

Mpi
lo:Someoft
hem ar
eawar
eofwhatyoudoi
ng
Me:Butt
heynotst
ri
kingt
heywantt
opr
essmei
nto
at
ightspot
Mpi
lo:HowdidyougetThobaniwi
thNdumi
so,
t
hoseareAndi
le'
sbestguys
Me:Pr
ojectcupcake
Mpi
lo:St
op

Hewhi
stl
es.

Thobanii
sthefi
rstonetoarr
ive,
fol
lowedbyThato
theydr
iveint
hetruckandremovethetracker
s.Thi
s
ti
merisrunni
ngli
kewildfi
ream igoingtomakeit.

Phi
ndi
le
Byt
heti
meMzwakhegetsher
eiwoul
dalreadybe
i
nbedsl
eepi
ng.Nonhl
eandiwer
edanci
ngaway.

Me:Gi
rlbyt
het
imeheget
sher
eitwoul
dbet
imef
or
metol
eave
Nonhle:Can'
tyouhaveagoodtimewit
hout
worr
yingaboutancest
orsorMzwakheli
kel
ivea
l
it
tl
e.Webar el
yevengotoclubsnow
Me:Okay

Sheisgoingheavyonthatal
coholiknowi
tsnot
easyleavi
ngapersonyoulove.Il
oveMzwakheand
webreakupalltheti
me.

Me:I
fthi
sscenedoesn'
tchangewear
eleavi
ng
Nonhl
e:Int
hemeant
imeZuko,
Zukomyl
ove
anot
herone

Mzwakhe
Withjustt womi nuteslef
titi
scruncht
ime.Thefir
st
tr
uckisf inall
yfull
,Mpilogetsinanddr
ivesout.
Soonl atertherestofthem arr
iveandf
il
lupthe
tr
ucks.Ther eisnot imeoneort wooft
hem haveto
getinthebackoft hetruckandremovethose
tr
acker s.
Itakemyt
hingsandheadt
omycar
,myphone
ri
ngs.

Senzo:Wel
lther
eisdef
ini
tel
yacarf
oll
owi
ngus
Me:Youknowwhatt
odoLi
ndokuhl
ewi
llbewai
ti
ng
f
oryouguys
Senzo:Skhul
u

Hehungsupigeti
nmycar
.

Mxo:Sot
hisi
swhatmysi
sterl
ovesacr
imi
nal
Me:Lookwho'
stal
king
Mxo:Don'
tbecompar
ingyour
sel
ftome

Ii
gnorehi
m ist
artt
hecaranddri
veoff.This
depr
essi
onandisol
ati
onpart
yhethrowsf or
hi
mselfi
snotgood.Heneedstostepupandgethi
s
i
shtoget
her,MjandMvel
oneedapr
esentf
ather
nott
hisguy.

Sakhi
le
Thabisoandiwerestandi
ngnott
of arfrom the
part
yvenueandjustlaughi
ngourassesof .Ican'
t
beli
eveMzwakheactuall
ypull
editof,
wi thi
nthose
fi
vemi nut
esthepar
kinglot
swerelookinglikea
ghosttown.

Thabi
so:Ayay
Me:Yougott
olovet
heboy

"
Eyo"

Thegent
swal
kupt
ous.

Me:Yeahyeah
Thabi
so:Unj
anuf
ivemi
nut
es

Wel aughthebothofusdi
dnotwantt
obeapartof
thi
sbutnowt hatiseet
hem,Imi
ssedoutonal
otof
adrenali
nefun.

Li
nda:uMzwakheebengenweyi
ningempel
a
Me:Uyi
shayi
lekodwaubast
ard
Thabi
so:AhZamanimyl
it
tl
eput
sununu

Wel
augh.

Li
nda:Uzwai
nhl
izi
yoi
xukuzal
aphougi
ji
mango
120
Mel
usi
:Sowhatnow
Me:Wewai
tforMzwakhe'
sinst
ruct
ions

Henods.
Mzwakhe
Myselfandthetr
ucksar r
iveatthesameti
me.The
tr
ucksgoi nipar
koutsideandst epout
.Nkabi
nde
approachessmir
king,
lethimjustgivememy
moneyandwegooursepar at
eways.

Nkabinde:MzwakheMzwakhemymanasal
ways
l
ovelydoingbusi
nesswi
thyou.

Hi
smenbr
ingf
orwar
dthr
eebi
gbl
ackbags.

Me:Li
kewi
se

Theycar
ryt
hebagswel
eave.

Me:Gost
asht
hebagsandmeetmeatt
hepar
ty
IknowSabeloisnotgoi
ngtofal
lformytr
icksoi
askThobaniandThatoi
nsteadtogowit
hthe
money,whil
eiheadtothepart
y.
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06/
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Mzwakhe
Theyhappyandannoyedwhyaretheycomplai
ning
becausewedidit
.Thei
rpocket
saregoingtobe
l
ovelyinacoupl
eofdays,mybabySindiswast
ruts
herwaytouscarryi
ngaboxinthosesuperhi
gh
heel
s.

Lindo:UkeuweSi
ndi
swangi
yakut
shel
auzongazi
kahle
Si
ndi
:It
ssuchavibeinther
ebeauti
full
adi
esyeni
na
hl
ampenizobanenhl
anhlanyanaandscor
eafew

Wel
augh.
Sindi
:Okayorderoft
hedayt akeof
fyourcl
othes
putthem i
nsi
dehere,changegrababott
leanddri
nk
Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Li
ndo:Thi
sisadi
ffer
entki
ndofi
nvol
vementandi
am sor
rywecan'
tescapei
t

Wetakeofourclot
hesandt
osst
hem i
nthewast
e
bagspr
ovided.

"
Sani
bonani
"

Shecomesovert
omeandweki ss,
shewr
apsher
ar
msaroundmyneckiam t
urnedon.

Me:Mommy
Phindi
le:Ever
ythi
nggoodnodon'
tlookatmel
ike
that
Iki
ssheragainit
sgoodthi
ngiam notdr
unkmy
ner
vesarejustst
art
ingt
ocalm down.

Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
llseeyoui
nsi
de
Me:Iwi
llseeyoui
nsi
deal
ri
ght

Shewal ksawaythangrabsthetwosmallbot
tl
es,
shegivesNonhleabottl
eandt heywal
kaway.
Alongthewayt heymeetMxoli
siamenhewas
goingtomakemycarst artsmelli
ngf
unny.Noiam
j
okingichuckle.

Senzo:Uyenal
oskhul
u

Theywillj
usthavet
ofigureitoutt
hemselves,
becauseeveryti
meitr
yt ointr
oducehersomethi
ng
badhappens.

Li
nda:Ehhm i
yonant
ombiyakheni
ngal
okhe
ni
mbuzakeheheskhul
uuj
olanobaniseni
mboni
le
Sakhi
le:Mm hm

Theyl
aughigr
abmybot
tl
edr
inki
tthanl
eavet
hem.

Sakhi
le
Wemakeourwayinsi
deNdumi
soseesusand
makeshi
swaytous.

Ndu:Guys
Li
ndo:Dr
inkt
his
Ndu:Yi
nimanj
eleiwasbegi
nni
ngt
othi
nkyal
lgot
caught
Mzwakhe:Wet
heBhengu'
swedon'
tgetcaughtnoi
am j
oki
ng
Ndu:Okayiwi
llbewi
thyouguysj
ustnow

Hecut
sthr
oughusr
ushi
ngt
osomebodywel
ookat
hi
m.

Me:Hedoesn'
tknow
Mzwakhe:I
tshi
sni
ghtl
ethi
m havei
t,l
etsnotbur
st
hi
sbubble

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Whati
ftheyki
ss
Mzwakhe:Iwil
lbl
owthebothofthem upandifhe
doesn'
tbehavear
oundherheisgoingtogeti
t

Wesitdownt
hetabl
eisal
readyf
il
ledwi
thal
cohol
i
tsaboutt
ogodown.

Mzwakhe
Mla:Miccheckonet
wohell
oeverybodyhel
lo.Good
eveni
ngladi
esandgent
lemen,
tonightwear
eher e
onaveryspeci
aloccasi
on.Wecelebrat
ingt
he
bi
rt
hdayofMrNdumi soKheswa,helpmewelcome
onstageMrbir
thdayboyhimsel
fehNdu

Themusi
cst
art
s.

"
Nabal
ababant
u
I
laba"

Theydancethei
rwayt ot
hestagetear
ingupthe
danceandthecrowdcheeri
ngthem.Ipulloutmy
phoneandrecor
dt hem,t
hewayherbodyi smoving
i
tsdri
vingmecrazy.

Li
nda:I
shayeboy

Idoubthecanheart
hat.Sherequestfort
hemic
andasksforustost
artthi
ngsoffwithaprayer
.
Ndu:Wowokayidi dnotexpectthatthankyou
ever
yoneforcoming.Iam ayearolderyayidon'
t
knowwhatelsetosayexceptforthankyou,pret
ty
l
adyngiyabonga
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Ndu:Pl
easehavef
unenj
oyt
heni
ghtil
oveyoual
l
Phi
ndi
le:Nowt
hepar
tycanst
art

Theygetdownhecomest
ous.

Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:Youdi
dgood
Ndu:It
ri
ed
Sakhi
le:Yi
nhl
elendawo
Me:Nj
engal
omommyobudansanaye
Ndu:Aykuyaf
iwal
aphaya
Me:Uyazi
shayangaye
Ndu:Woul
dn'
tyouhaveyouseenher

Yesever
ydayi
nmybedbuti
mmakeept
hatt
o
mysel
f.

Sakhi
le:Uyaziukhi
yananobani
Ndu:Yi
ndabt
hoseMsomif
reaks

Thi
sguyanywaysi
am st
il
lkeepi
ngmycool
.

Sakhi
le:Ngekekut
hakajol
ihl
ampenj
eumunt
u
wakhenjeengakubul
ala

Notonl
ywil
liki
llhi
m iwi
llmassacr
ehisass,
sl
aught
erever
ythi
ngandeveryoneconnect
edto
hi
m.

Nonhl
e
Clearl
yNdumi sohasnoi deaPhi ndilei
sdati
ng
Mzwakhe.Hei sact i
ngl i
keal ovesi ckpuppyand
can'tgetenoughofher .Shamebyt heendofthis
nightheisgoingt ogethishear tbroken,Andil
e
arri
vesholymot heriseePhi ndil
e'st hi
ng.Myheart
explodesshehol dsmyhandiwasr eadytojump
thef*ckoutofthere,whydi dshehavet obeasnake
thelastthi
ngiwanti sherchangi ng.

Me:Youwantmet
ocal
lMzwakhe

Sheshakesherhead.

Me:Wantt
oheadout

Shenodsigr abherthingsandwewal kaway.Step

asideeveryonesnakecomi ngthrough.Ndumi so
andi am guessi
ngthisisAyandabecause, every
ti
meiam ar oundhim igetbutter
fli
es.Ihad
mistakenhim ear
li
eront heylooksomuchal ike.
Ndu:What
swr
ongl
eavi
ngal
ready
Ayanda:Pever
ythi
ngokay
Ndu:Uyamaziyi
niSkhul
u
Ayanda:I
ntombi
kaMzwakhe

Hel ooksathimthanPhindi
lehelooksfor
somebodyel seil
ookover.Mzwakher ai
seshis
glasstheylaugh,
ididsayhisheartwasgoingtobe
broken.

Ndu:Fuck
Me:Excuseuspl
ease

Mzwakhe
Ifigoafterheri
tsnotgoi
ngtobeni ceiam goingto
turnthi
splaceup.Nonhlecanhandleit,
Ndumi so
sit
sdownwi t
haheavyheart.Ayandadefini
tel
ysaid
somethinghestar
esatme,theidi
otsnextt
omear
e
l
aughing.Hetr
iestospeakbutheremains
speechl
ess.

Ndu:AyMzwakheunamahl
ayayezwa

Wecr
acki
nlaught
er.

Ndu:Sungazeunqambeamangangent
oenj
e
ni
hlekanini
naumuntuekhul
umaamanga
Me:Dudeiam wi
thherallt
heti
meshel
iveswi
th
mewesmasheachot herever
yday
Li
nda:Cor
rect
ionever
yti
meoft
heday
Ndu:Eykahl
eniukuqambaamangani
na

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Uf
unai
proofnayi
Theysitontheot herendNonhl egoessomewher e.I
l
ookathersheshakesherhead, inod.Andil
eis
l
ookingatust hatbast ar
dtookawayherpr egnancy,
ther
eisnothingmor ethri
ll
ingt
hanshowi ngyour
enemyyouar estillstandi
ng.

Me:WeNonhl
ewena
Nonhl
e:Ohsor
ry

Sheisblocki
ngmyview,shehandsherapl
ateof
meat,iwonderwhati
sthesecr
etwit
hherand
eat
ingalotofmeat.

Phi
ndi
le
Mlawaspl ayingmyjamswheneverwear einthe
samepl ace.Heneverl et
st heopport
uni
tyofputt
ing
mei nthespot li
ghtpasshim by,t
hearri
valofAndil
e
mademyski ncrawlther
eandt haniwantedtori
p
hisheart.Thel adi
esherejoinusit
swet ur
nthis
placeup.NonhleandAyandaweregett
ingthei
r
fr
eakon, Sakhi
ledanceswit
hme.Ihavebeen
avoidi
nghim idon'
twanttocauseanyprobl
ems.

Sakhi
le:Angit
handikemasuwenzakanj
eengat
h
manjesixabane
Me:Yout
ri
edt
ost
rangl
eme
Sakhi
le:Iknowiknowbutt
hatdoesn'
tmeanwe
shoul
dactl i
keahcomeonmommyhuh

Hesmi lesiseehisbrother.
..Wehugheisnotready
tomoveon, event houghhehasacceptedt
hathis
mom andbr otherarenol ongerher
e.Hi
shearti
s
sti
llf
il
ledwithpain.

Mzwakhe
List
ent heyfi
xedwhatevermisunder
standingthey
hadi am happy.Ican'
tchoosebetweenthet woof
them ihonestl
ycan't
,theyver
yimportantpeoplein
myl i
fe.Them atoddswi t
heachotherconstantl
y
meantf
ight
ingal
lthet
imebet
weent
het
hreeofus.

Thabi
so:LookatAyandahavi
ngt
hebestt
imeofhi
s
l
if
e

Phindi
leandNonhlehavedonesomethi
ngtot
he
peopleitwasl
it
.Thedanci
ngdroveever
yone
i
nsane

Me:Letmecal
lJames
Thabi
so:Hai
bot
hepar
tyj
ustst
art
ed
Me:Yeahwellmybabyi
sgoi
ngt
oleaveatmi
dni
ght
mi
ghtaswellprepar
e
Thabi
so:Ohkombe

Phi
ndi
le
It
sbeenf
unbuti t
sti
meformetogetoutofher
.I
can'
tbel
inger
ingwhendar
kfor
cesawaken,we
headoutsi
deaccompani
edbyAyandaBhengu.I
don'
tknowt heni
ghti
ssti
llyoungweneedt
otal
k
aboutwhereisNonhl
egoing.

Ayanda:Okayut
hiuMzwakhesi
mli
ndel
aimot
o
i
yeza

Iwanttogett
oabednow, helooksatNonhl ethan
meandmi mesiwanther .Nonhleisabeautiful
womananddeser vesallt
helove,aff
ect
ionand
happi
nessSamkelodepr i
vesherof.Butseeingas
howmyr el
ati
onshipiswithMzwakheidon' tknow
notsayi
ngeverymani sli
kethat.

Me:Youcomi
ngwi
thme

Shel
ooksatme.

Me:Texthi
m andt
ellhi
m youl
eavi
ngwi
thme
Iwantt
ogohome.
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Phi
ndi
le
Igetupandheadt othebat hr
oom.Myheadi s
spinningitakeashowerandl ett
hehotwat erdrip
allovermybody, thisfeelsgood..Ifini
shupand
headout ,somethingmovesi nthebedigett he
biggestfri
ghtofmyl i
fe.I
tt ur
nsaroundi t
s
Mzwakheshi tnowi rememberwhathappened.
Whenwel eftthepar t
ytherewasboozei nthecar
wedr anksomemor e,whenwear r
ivedatthisplace
thepar t
ycont i
nued.Wedr ankanddr ankuntilwe
couldn'tandtherestast heysayi shistor
y.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lebuyaembhedeni
Me:No
Idon'
tthi
nkicanhandl
eanymor
eofhi
spoundi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Umunt
ungekeesat
hol
angi
shoi
mor
ning
gl
ory

Heget
supnakedandst
andsi
nfr
ontofme.

Me:Mzwakheno
Mzwakhe:Mmmm

Nonhl
e
Iam sleepi
nginthisbigbedl
astnightwaswi
ld.I
don'tknowifiimaginedsomeofthethi
ngsor
hall
ucinati
ng.Ihaveneverdr
ankli
kethisi
nmyl i
fe
ever.

Ayanda:Anyr
egr
ets
Me:No
Ayanda:Good
Me:Youanyr
egr
ets
Ayanda:Yes

Okayt
hat
'snott
heansweriwasexpect
ing.

Ayanda:Ofnotdoi
ngt
hisear
li
eri
nti
meiguessl
ast
ni
ghtwasamakeorbr eakf
orme

Myheartsmi
lesheari
ngthat
,heki
ssesmeandwe
cont
inuewer
ewel ef
toff
.

Sakhi
le
Thebeaut
if
ulcoupl
efi
nall
ydecidestoj
oinus.Ipul
l
Mzwakhetosidehepr
otestl
ikeali
tt
lebaby.

Mzwakhe:Ongi
yekaSakhi
le.
.MommySakhi
le
Me:Whatt
hehel
lhappened
Mzwakhe:Wepul
ledi
tof
fnj
e

Idr
aghi
m out
side.

Mzwakhe:Sakhi
le
Me:Tal
k
Mzwakhe:Ar
ghf
inef
oll
owme

WeenterAyanda'
sgar
age.Heunl
ockshi
scart
han
openstheboot
,hepul
lst
wobagsforwar
dand
opensone.

Me:Yousneakymot
herf
***
**
Mzwakhe:Ihadnoot
herchoi
ce
Me:Sowhat
'si
ntheot
herbags
Mzwakhe:Asur
pri
set
heywi
llneverf
orget
Me:Hai
bowakhe
Mzwakhe:Wegoingt
odr
opt
hisof
ffastandhave
Car
soncashiti
n
Me:Wel
ldone
Mzwakhe:Thankyou
Me:I
nfut
ureiwi
ll
Mzwakhe:Ij
usthadtotestitoutbutdon'
twor
ryi
wi
llgi
veyouful
lplansgoingforward

Li
kehewi
lldot
hat
,ichuckl
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Ihonest lythoughtthiswasahot elwhenwegot
here, everybodywasj ustint
hemooddr inki
ng.I
didn'tpicturethisbeingahouse.Ayanda' shouse
forthatmat t
er,hewaspl aci
ngfoodonthet abl
e.I
cansmel lNonhl ealloverhim.

Mzwakhe:What
swr
ongwi
thyou
Heki
ssesmycheek.

Me:Ayl
uthobaby
Nonhl
e:Hel
loever
yoneihopeidi
dn'
tmi
ssanyt
hing
Me:SoAyandat
hisi
snotahot
el

Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Whywoul
dyout
hinkt
hat
Me:I
twasj
ustr
eal
lyni
ceandni
ce
Ayanda:Chamommyumuziwakhe
Me:Hmm umuziwakhe
Mzwakhe:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Me:Ever
ythi
ngi
sfi
nemyl
ove

Ist
artdi
shi
ngup.
Andi
le
Thatwasat otal
bustnothingiswor
kingout.If
eel
l
ikeiam notincont
rolofthings,
iam annoyedand
exhaust
ed.

Si
yanda:Angi
yizwal
ent
oyenuni
thikwenzakal
eni
Sabelo:Si
fi
kil
elaphayasabonabazi
bekaph
i
zikhwama.Wet ookthem whenweopenedt hem a
bunchofsnakespoppedoutt heywer
ealloverus
Siyanda:I
tst
hel
iesMzwakhet
ell
sthathasr
ubbed
ofonyou
Sabel
o:Hewast
her
e

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Phi
lani
Phi
lani
:Readyt
olett
hisgot
hisi
sonef
ightyou
nevergoi
ngt
owi
n

Wewi
llshal
lseeaboutt
hat
.

Nonhl
e
Iwasn'
tgoingt
oplayallmycardsifAyandais
seri
ousaboutmethanthi
swillbehisfi
nalt
est.I
tookajour
neybackhome,whenilefthomemy
motherandfat
herwerenothappyli
keanyparent
would.

Mybrother
sdi
sownedmemydadwas
di
sappoint
edt
hemost ,
theygotdr
aggedi
ntosome
oft
hemostmessiestsi
tuat
ionswi
thAndi
le.

Ihadtodohi sdir
tyworkdeli
vercokepackages,
scoutfemalestobetr
affi
ckedort aket
hem t
o
part
iesformant odohorr
ifi
cthingsonthem.
IthankthedayMzwakhecameandbust edhis
entir
eoperati
on.Hecan'tbreat
hanygirlthat
disappear
s,hisdooristhefi
rstdoort
heaut hori
ti
es
knockon.Projectcupcakehispurehat
redf or
Mzwakhest art
edthereandeverydayhehasbeen
tr
yingtotakehim down

Iknockonthedoorihopetheyopenforme,t
he
onlyti
metheyweregoingtoacceptmebackwast
o
l
eaveeveryt
hingbehi
ndandcomebackhome.
That'
sexact
lywhatiam goingt
odo.

Vumi
leopenst
hedoor
.
[
06/
06,
10:
51] :99

Aweekl
ater

Mzwakhe
Ij
ustgotbackf
rom dr
oppi
ngof
fPhi
ndi
leatwor
k
andi
missheral
ready.

Me:Whyar
eyouguysal
waysher
e

Idon'
tevenhavetheenergyforthem eversi
nce
theyfoundoutiam dat
ing,
everydaythesehoes
arehere.

Ndu:Ngebhadiasi
zel
ewena
Me:Boybye

Theyl
augh.

Me:Hai
bonal
ibhadil
ami
yazi
Thobani
:Don'
twor
rybr
oheal
sof
oughtme
Li
ndo:Ical
ledt
hem
Me:Why
Li
ndo:Ihavesomet
hingt
otel
lyouguys

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Mama
Phi
ndi
le:Sengi
khohl
iweuNonhl
e
Me:Okayletmeher
ewhattheygott
osayandt
han
iam comi
ngbacktofet
chyou
Phi
ndi
le:Okaymyl
ovet
hankyou

Ismi
le.

Li
ndo:I
nkosazanei
sif
iki
le
Me:What
Li
ndo:Let'
sjusti
ronoutafewthings.I
tisver
y
i
mpor t
antandcruci
alatal
lti
mesyoushowherl ove,
anyoneofuscanbet hechosenone
Thabi
so:Wasn'
titnotmeantt
obej
ustus
Li
ndo:Nothat
'swhyeveryoneisi
fyoudati
ng
anyonepl
easetr
eatherr
ightiam beggi
ngyou
Me:I
sitPhi
ndi
le
Sakhi
le:Iwasj
ustgoi
ngt
osayt
hat
,thet
hingsshe
sometimesdo
Li
ndo:Icannotconfi
rm nordenyshewi
llonl
yshow
her
sel
fonceshef eel
slovedandthi
s
Me:Thef
ami
lybi
rt
hmar
k

Herwr
istsomewhi
leagowasbl
ack.

Lindo:Shecandot hi
ngsnohumancanhowever
therear econsequences.Ifyoudon' ttreatherri
ght
alotofbadt hi
ngscanhappen, shecar ri
est hemost
power fulgif
tever.Shecant urndarkcr eatemor e
creatures,oneswewi l
lneverbeabl etodef eat.
What evergoesdownbet weenyouandher
unfortunately,
Sindiswaandiwi llal
wayssi dewith
herbecausewear eherprotect
or salongwi thgif
ted
people
Me:Shecangoaheadandchosesomebodyel
sei
al
readygotmyqueenokay

Wel
augh.

Li
ndo:Ngi
yani
cel
abafet
huni baphat
hekahle
umkhul
uumonakoloongenzeka,umalent
okazi
si
ngayi
phet
hekahl
e

Me:Doest
hatmeanihavet
oletherknown

Lindo:Notheancestorswi
llmostl
ybetheonetodo
theexplai
ning.Shealr
eadyisawareofhal
ftheshi
t
wedo, andsavingyoursorr
yasses

Ij
ustfear
edl
osi
ngPhi
ndi
let
hisqueenbet
ternot
chooseme.
Li
ndo:Mayelananal
espaniesosi
shayayonki
nto
i
mojaihl
eli
weukuthsibangene
Me:Ni
cei
sthatwhyyouback
Lindo:Menicabanganizi
bukenjeni
ngayi
phatha
kanjaninyokangothando,Thabi
sohi
smar r
iedhe
knowsat hingortwo.Nina,ni
na

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Ihopei
tsnotyou
Me:Aw
Sakhi
le:Thatwi
llbet
heendofus

Iam nott
hatbadiact
ual
lyt
onedi
tdown.

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhl
eimi
sshersomuchiam happyaboutt
he
deci
sionshemade,event
houghshel
eftmeagai
n.
It
scoolial
waysgotherback.

Nonhle:Ngathubuyeubenezint
ozakho
uzozi
nakekelakanj
aniyi
nganezaMxolisi(
Youhave
yourweirdthi
ngsgoingonhowar eyougoingt
o
takecareofyourbrot
her
skids)

Me:Ngi yezwaNonhl ekodwanjengamanj

e
uyangidingaebesefunanokuyekaumsebenzi(
I
understandbutrightnowheneedsme, heeven
wantedt oquithi
sjob)

Nonhl
e:Kodwamasekuwenaodi
ngayenahaa(
but
whenit
syouwhoneedshi
m)

Il
augh.

Nonhl
e:Wel
lhecancountonuswewi
llt
akecar
eof
t
hem noquest
ionsasked,
haveyouatl
eastt
alked
t
ohim

Me:Yeahwet al
kalott
hosemanar
ght
hel
oveand
suppor
ttheyshowedhi
m

Shewasgivi
ngmet heeyeil
augh,Ayandaprobabl
y
thi
nksshewentbacktoSamkel
o.Iwishicouldtel
l
him nobr
aever
ythi
ngisgoodbutyeah.

Me:Wewi
llcomeandpi
ckyouup
Nonhl
e:Okaybyegi
rl

Shehungsup.

Me:Comei
n

Samkel
oent
ersisi
gh.
Mzwakhe
There'
snowaywecangetmat
tbl
ackcar
s.We
havetospr
aypai
ntt
hem.

Me:Doanyofyouknowhowt
ospend
Thabi
so:Thi
sisasetupi
tsmel
lsl
ikeoneandl
ooks
l
ikeone
Me:Jokesont
hem idon'
tgetsetup
Thabi
so:Mmm
Me:Ayandayouokay
Ayanda:Askmet
hatquest
iononemor
eti
me

Hebr
eat
hesout
.

Me:Youcoul
djustcal
lheri
nst
eadofassuming
r
ememberwhathappenedtome.IaccusedPhi
ndi
le
wit
hfact
sandturnedoutt
obeherbrot
her
Hel
ooksatme.

Me:List
enokayweneedt ogetitt
oget
herbefor
ewe
l
oseitallanddon'
tlookatmeli
keyougoingkil
lme

Hegr
abshisphoneandmakesaphonecal
lput
ti
ng
i
tonspeaker
.

"
Hel
lo"

Hel
ooksatmecar
ryon.

Nonhl
e:Whyyouanswer
ingmyphone
Hi
m:AyubaniuAyanda

Hel
aughs.
"
Vumi
le"

Nonhl
e:Givemebackmyphonewhyyoucal
li
ngme
ohwaitdon'
tanswert
hat

"
Nonhl
e"

Nonhl
e:Baba

"
Ohyouont
hephoneiwi
llcomebackl
ater
"

Nonhl
e:Noi
tsnoti
mpor
tant

Thecal
lcut
s.

Li
nda:Noti
mpor
tant
Hel
aughsi
nhi
sfacewel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam packingupandr eadytogof etchNonhle.
Samkelodi dn'
tcaretoaskmeabouther ,inhismind
iam surehei sthi
nkingonceshei sback.The
beati
ngshei sgoinggeti soutofthisworld,
itsthe
fi
rstti
meNonhl ehastakenabr eatherwit
houtbeing
inthecrossfir
e.

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yeahiam l
eavi
ngnow
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tfeel
towel
l
Me:What
Nonhl
e:It
hinkiam goi
ngt
ost
ayal
it
tl
elonger
Me:Nonhl
e
Nonhl
e:Iknowmyl
oveiam sor
ry

Isi
tdownshewassoeagert
ocomebackwhat
happened.

Nonhle:Ihavet
ogowequi
tebusyher
eiwi
llcal
l
youlater
Me:Wowkant
ikwenzakal
an

Mzwakhe
Ipassedbyt hemal lf
irstiwanttogetherafew
thi
ngst osnackont her oad.Ibumpint
osomebody
ther
et hi
ngsfalldown, shegoesdownpi cki
ngthem
uplikeamadper son,ihelpher.

Her
:Iam sosor
ry
Me:Nahi
tsokay
Theol
dmewoul
dhavei
nsul
tedheriam di
ff
erent
now.

Her
:Thankyou
Me:Cal
m down
Her
:Iam r
ushi
ngt
oameet
ingagai
niam sor
rybye
t
hankyou
Me:Okay

Il
aughsheisstil
lbumpingint
opeopleand
apol
ogi
zing.Ipayformyparkingt
ickett
hanl
eave.
Whyam ithinki
ngaboutthi
sladynowdammit
Mzwakhe..
.

Aft
eranhouriarr
iveatherwor
kplace,shei
s
st
andingout
sidel
ookingdown,ihootshewal
ks
l
ookingdownwhatisgoingon.

Me:Yi
nii
nki
nga
Phi
ndi
le:uNonhl
eut
hiakasabuyi

Oopsmybad.
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06/
06,
10:
51] :100

Nonhl
e
Iworkedsohar dl
astnightwhocouldbebangingat
mydoorsoear lyi
nt hemor ni
ng.It
ryt
oignor
ei t
,
butt
hi sper
sonisjustbangingandbangi
ngthatcan
onl
ybeVumi l
e.Whatiswr ongnowigetupandput
onar obe.

Me:Whyyoubangi
ngonmydoorl
ikeamadman
Vumi
le:Ther
e'speopl
eher
etoseeyou
Me:Ngi
lel
e

"
Yel
lowbone"
Ir
unoutt heroom i
stophalf
wayandcompose
myself
,thanentert
helivi
ngroom andhei
sher
e
si
tt
ingnexttohisbrot
hers.

Dad:Nonhl
euyabazil
abant
u

Icoul
dsaynobutMzwakhei
sgi
vingmeast
inkeye.

Me:Yebobaba
Dad:Ubazel
aphikanj
an,
nini
,ngobani
Me:BazwananoPhi
ndi
le
Dad:Ukhonaozwananawe

Iam goi
ngt
oki
llt
hem.

Me:Yebo
Dad:Ohokay
Hewal
ksawayilookatthem hei
gnor
esmeand
t
hanambushmel i
kethi
s.Dadcomesbackwit
ha
whi
p,t
heyoutt
hedoorbef or
ehecanwhi
pthem.

Dad:Ni
zongi
del
elakwami

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe
Iwoulddoanyt hingformybr other
sanyt
hing,
if
Ayandawant sust ogetonapl aneanddiveunder
water.Iam gett
ingont heplaneandweswi mming
withthefi
shes.Nonhl eli
vesfarmaninthebundus,
thereisnoreceptionican'
tevencheckonPhindil
e.
Shemakesherwayt ousandl aughs.

Me:Mommy
Nonhl
e:Ar
eyouf
orr
ealr
ightnow
Me:Khulumauwenaosi
let
hel
a(Tal
kyout
heone
whobroughtusher
e)
Nonhl
e:NaweThabi
songi
kut
hembi
le(
Evenyou
Thabi
soihadf
ait
hinyou)
Thabi
so:I
ndl
elai
buzwakwabaphambi
li
Nonhl
e:Thi
sisi
nsanewhydidyounotcal
lme,was
i
tnotyouwhosai
dihavebeendreami
ngaboutthi
s
Ayanda:Nonhl
eiam sosor
ryihonest
lyt
hought
youwentbacktohi
m
Nonhl
e:I

Shesighsdamnshei sbeauti
fulgotmethi
nki
ng
aboutthatladyibumpedint
o.Mzwakhemanwhy
am ithi
nkingaboutanot
herfemalewhenigota
gi
rlf
ri
end.

Me:Ubanil
osgor
a(Whoi
smuscl
eman)
Nonhl
e:Usuyahamba
Hi
m:Mmm
Nonhl
e:Uhambekahl
e
Hi
m:Mmm
Nonhl
e:HawuVumi
l
e..Vumi
le

Heignor
esherandconti
nuewithhisjour
ney,
anot
herguywalksuphetakesonelookatus.She
wavesathi
m,hecarri
esonwalking.

Me:Wedi
dn'
trui
nanyt
hing
Nonhl
e:Not heyhaven'
tquitf
orgi
venme.They
mustprobablythi
nkyouthatyou
Me:Wedon'
tmeananydi
srespect
Nonhl
e:I
tsokayl
etmegogr
abmyt
hingsandwe
cango
Thabi
so:Youbet
tert
reatherl
ikeaqueenAyanda

Phi
ndi
le
Mxol
isibei
ngawayher
eli
esonmef
oral
otof
t
hings.Mymindi
sjustpet
ri
fi
ediaskedLi
ndokuhl
e
t
ogooverthecaseforme.

Me:Okayhewantsf
ullcust
odyofhi
ski
dsandone
weekendvi
sit
ati
onr
ight
Li
ndo:Youknowcour
tsusual
lysi
dewi
tht
he
mother
Me:Itsalosel
osesi
tuat
ionf
orbot
hoft
hem f
or
negl
igence
Li
ndo:Wat
ert
ightbuticandoi
t
Me:I
fthi
spr
oceedst
othecour
tsMxol
isihast
owi
n
Li
ndo:Iwi
lldomybest

It
hinkoncet
hismessi
ssor
tediwi
llbeabl
eto
br
eatheagai
n.

Me:Doyouknowyoucar
ryi
ngyourf
ather
sspi
ri
t
Li
ndo:What
Me:Hei
srest
ingbehi
ndyouwi
thhi
seyescl
osed
Li
ndo:Dadi
stheone
Me:Yourhisfavor
it
echil
dafterNhlanhl
a,butyour
myfavori
teson.Ukuzeakwaziukulawul
ekakumele
wenzel
weumsebenzi( I
norderforhimtotameda
r
it
ualhastobedonef oryou)
Li
ndo:Seewhyyout
hechosenone
Me:Whyam iher
eLi
ndokuhl
e
Li
ndo:Unlockingyourgi
ftandfi
ndi
ngoutwhatyou
havetodolieswithMzwakhe.Heistaki
ngt
olong
andiam afrai
dtheevilf
orcesar
eawaken

Thisi
snerve-
wracki
ngiam st
ucki
nli
mboandi
ts
fr
ustr
ati
ng.

Mzwakhe
Weatt hemal lnowchil
li
ngiwasn'
tgoi
ngtodrive
anotherfourhoursohno.Wearri
vedinst
yleihir
ed
hel
icopterstoflyusbackhome.Nonhl
eand
Ayandawereheadedbacktohishouseandwe
camehere.Thegir
lfr
om yest
erdaywalksthr
oughi
n
acuteworkoutf
it
,myheartbeatsacertai
nki
ndof
way.

Me:What
..What
Thabi
so:Unent
ombiMzwakhe
Me:Ngi
yakwazil
okho
Thabi
so:Foryoursakeihopeyoudo

Thiscan'
tbeacoi
nci
dencet
heuni
ver
sei
str
yingt
o
tel
lmesomethi
ng.

Thabi
so:Soyouhavepl
ansf
ort
hismi
ssi
on
Me:Noheal readygott
hemessage,theonl
ythi
ngi
am goi
ngt odoismakeithardfort
hem t
otakeme
down.Iam notscaredofanybodyt
heycancomeat
mealltheywant ,
idon'
tcar
e
Thabi
so:Youal
waysdon'
tcar
e
Ouror
dercomeshmm t
hisl
ooksyummy.

Nonhl
e
IwasinmyelementPhi
ndil
ecametocheckonme.
Hewasi nt
heloungewat
chingmemakefoodinhi
s
ki
tchen.

Ayanda:Yougoi
nghar
dont
hatbot
tl
e
Phi
ndi
le:Anyt
hingt
otaket
hepai
naway
Me:Whatpai
n
Phi
ndi
le:Ever
ythi
ngsorr
ytobethebar
ri
erofbad
newsbuthaveyoutal
kedtoSamkel
o
Ayanda:Shedoesn'
tneedt
otal
ktohi
m
Me:I
tsokayihavet
otal
ktohi
m
Phi
ndil
e:Youknowt
hathi
ssoni
sspi
ri
tualal
most
st
rongasiam
Me:Ngi
zokhul
umanaye
Phi
ndi
le:Good

Ishoul
dhavethedecencyt
otalktohi
m andl
ethi
m
go,t
hisshoul
dn'
ttur
nintoafi
ght.

Phi
ndi
le:I
sthatanor
ange
Me:Gr
apef
rui
t

Ayandasmi
les.

Phi
ndi
le:No
Me:Yes

Shelaughs.Thatsexact
lyhowil aughedwhenisaw
thegrapef
rui
t,iwassosur pr
isedtheynoteveni
n
seasonandyesididandi twasgood.

Phi
ndi
le:Ohwel
liwi
shyoual
lthebest
..Ihavet
ogo
Me:Youj
ustgother
e
Phi
ndi
le:Igotki
dsandamanhoney
Me:Ayandaar
ether
eanyl
unchboxes
Ayanda:Mengaphosi
sialaphayai
shal
oful
okuqal
a
(
Ifiam cor
rectt
hefir
sttopshelf
)
Me:Okay
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06/
06,
15:
14] :101

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasstandinginthemi
ddleoft
heroaddead
bodi
eseverywhere.Myhandswerebl
oodymyhear
t
wasracing.
..Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Yi
ni
Me:Cel
aungi
pheamanzi

Hegetsofft
hebed,
hewal
ksoutandscr
eamsat
somebody.
Mzwakhe:Ther
eyougo
Me:Thankyou

Igul
pdownt
hewat
er.

Mzwakhe:Wathukanj
emamakwenzenj
andi
dyou
seesomethi
ng
Me:Bl
ood
Mzwakhe:What
Me:Iseeal
otofbl
oodshediseedeadbodi
esandi
seebl
oodonmyhands
Mzwakhe:Am idyi
ng
Me:Somethingbi
giscomi
ngandi
tsgoi
ngt
ocost
usourl
ives
Mzwakhe:Can'
tyoust
opi
t

Hel
aughs.
Mzwakhe:Ngi
yadl
alamommy
Me:Letmegetr
eadyf
orwor
k

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Mr
sDl
omo
Rat
o:Heyhopet
hisi
snotabadt
ime
Me:Noever
ythi
ngi
sfi
newhat
sup
Rat
o:Ineednoiam t
hrowi
ngmyhusbanda
sur
pri
separt
yandineedyourhel
p
Me:Idon'
tcomecheap
Rat
o:Ibet
terr
ecogni
ze

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e
Ayandawasnervousaboutthiswholemeetup.I
am ner
vousmyself,
butidon'tthi
nkanyt
hingwil
l
happentome.

Me:Iam l
eavi
ngnowAyandast
opsul
kingiam wi
th
younow
Ayanda:Iam notsul
king
Me:Not
hingi
sgoi
ngt
ohappent
ome
Ayanda:That
snotwhatiam af
rai
dof

Ican'
treadmindsbuticant
ellhei
snotwor
ri
ed
aboutmysafety.

Me:Canyouatl eastgi
vemethebenef
itoft
he
doubt,t
heleastyoucandoi
strustt
hatiwil
lmake
theri
ghtdecisi
onandchoi
ce
Ayanda:Okaywai
ther
e
Hedisappear
ssomewher
eandcomesbackwi
tha
box.

Ayanda:Youpresst
hisincaseofanemer gency,
wearthi
searr
ingssoiknowwher eyouareshould
youbeunabletocal
lforhelpthesewil
ltel
lmei f
youinadangerzone
Me:Real
lyAyandaal
lthi
s..Okay
Ayanda:Mpil
oiswait
ingforyouout
sidei
fyou
decidetodosomeshoppingletmeknow.I
fyou
goingtoseePhi
ndi
leletmeknow
Me:Okay

Heki
ssesmenot
hingi
sgoi
ngt
ohappen.

Phi
ndi
le
Ler
atoandherhusbandcamebywi
thherki
ds.
Mzwakhecomesout .
Mzwakhe:Yi
so
Nka:Skhul
u
Rat
o:Youmyki
ndofgi
rl

Iprepar
edacheeseboar d,
somemeatpl att
ersand
champagnef orher
.Sheisbeaut
ifulandcl
earl
y
l
ovesherself
,ithi
nkiam goingt
ol i
keheraswell
.
Mzwakhewant smet ol
ookacer tai
nkindofway
andshewillhelpmeinthelongrun.

Rat
o:Thesear
emybeaut
if
ulki
dsKwanel
eand
esi
hle
Mzwakhe:ThankGodshei
ssl
eepi
ng

Hewhi
sper
stheychuckl
e.

Mzwakhe:Wegoi
ngt
oloveandl
eaveyoubeaut
if
ul
l
adi
es
Heki
ssesmycheekandt
heyl
eave.

Rato:Thankyouforagr
eei
ngpeopl
etel
lmeyoua
beastatwhatyoudo
Me:Thankyouthankyouthesecouchesopenup
youcanjustpl
aceherher
e
Rat
o:Thankyousogi
rlf
ir
stcongr
atul
ati
ons,
Mzwakhetheal
pha
Me:St
op

Wel
augh.

Nonhl
e
Hecamewi t
hSmangelethi
smeeti
ngisstri
ctl
y
betweenus.Shef
ixeshersel
fandpul
lsherhair
back,igag.Awai
termakesthei
rwaytomesmi l
ing.
Wai
ter
:Tabl
eforone
Me:Not
hankiam meet
ingsomeoneovert
her
e

Hewal kswithmewegett othet

able,
heopensthe
chairformeandasksmewhatiwoul d.Iwantwat
er
onlytocoolmeof f
,theirl
ooksarenolonger
i
ntimidati
ng.Igotakil
lersquadbacki
ngme.

Me:It
houghtt
hiswassupposedt
ojustyouandme
Samkel
o:Idi
dn'
twantt
olosemycool
Me:Okay
Samkel
o:Wher
eyoubeenNonhl
e
Me:Home
Samkel
o:Home
Me:Yesiwenthomeandt
heywer
ehappyt
o
wel
comemeback

Hi
smi
ndi
saski
ngquest
ionshecan'
tanswerl
etme
j
ustputhi
m outofhi
smi
ser
y.

Me:Thisshoul
dn'tbediff
icul
tandpl
easedon'
t
makeitdi
ffi
cul
titisoverbetweenus

Hel
aughs.

Samkel
o:Ahmant
hankyouineededt
hat
Me:Isleptwit
hanothermanwhenweleftt
hewhite
part
yandi twasgood.Itwassogoodt
hati
topened
thedoorsforme

Myphonebeepsil
ookati
t.

Samkel
o:Her e'
swhat 'sgoi
ngtohappen.Ithinkyou
don'
twantanythingt ohappentoyourlovedones
ri
ght
,si
nceyoual readyinyouareperfectforthi
s
j
ob.Youwillgatherinfor
mationforusinfor
mat i
on
wecanuset otakethem down
Sma:Mawungakwenzilokhoi
gazil
omndeniwakho
l
izobaezandl
enizakho
Me:Yout
hreat
eni
ngmeSamkel
o
Samkelo:Youshoul
dhavethoughtaboutt
hat
befor
eyouwentandopenedyourlegs.Don'
tyou
darebreat
hawor daboutSmangel
e,yourmine
rememberthat

Theybothgetupandwal kaway.Idrinkmywat er
Sakhi
lestandsbeforememyhear tstart
sracing.Oh
noheputshi shandsinhi
spocketsandl ooksatme,
it
akemyt hingsandwalkouthefoll
owsme.Ipul l
myphoneoutwi thouthi
m seei
ngit,hecomesi n
fr
ontofmeandsnat chesmybagil augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Chil
li
ngwithrat
oandget t
ingtoknowherwasl ovel
y.
Sheiscoolandbubbly,warm heart
ediseewhat
att
ract
edNkanyiso.Shehasthatthingtheywer e
nowbackmaki ngsomuchnoi seicoul
dn'tdeal
.
Theli
tt
legir
lwassoecstat
ichoggi
ngMzwakhe, t
he
l
if
topensSakhileandNonhl
eentershewasplayi
ng
wit
hherfinger
sandSakhil
ewasangr y,
icoul
dfeel
i
t.

Rat
otakesherki
dandwal
ksaway.

Mzwakhe:What
swr
ong

Het hr
owsthatbagathi m wit
hsomuchf orce,it
hit
shim onhisfacehecl oseshi
seyesandcl ench
hisjaws.Hegoest othem andki
cksthecoffeetabl
e,
theygetupandst andfarawayaretheyf
ighting.

Sakhi
le:Eyyaziwenaungi
jwayel
akabi

Hesayst
hatchuckl
ing.
Sakhi
le:Ungi
jwayel
akabi

Hesmackshi
mr i
ghtacr
osst
hefacesomethi
ng
movesi
nmeiclosemyeyesandleanback.

Sakhil
e:Wenaungenzakanj
emybestfri
end,
my
brot
herthi
siswhatyoudotome.Uyabhebha
manjekumnandi

Het r
iestosmackhi
m agai
n,Mzwakhekickshi
m he
fal
ls.Hegetsupqui
cklyMzwakhesendshimto
fl
oortheyfi
ght.Mymindzonesoutiheadtot
he
balcony,
igrabachai
randuseitt
oclimbup.

"
Phi
ndi
le"
[
06/
06,
15:
14] :102

Nonhl
e
WhywasSakhi l
eevenf oll
owingme, that
'si
fhewas
andt hantheyfi
ght.Phindil
ealmostjumpingoffthe
balconyjusttost
opt hefight,
hecti
cnobodywas
tal
kingandineededt osaywhatihavet osay.She
comesdowndr essedup, whereisshegoing.

Me:Uyaph
Phi
ndi
le:Wor
k
Me:Theyt
ri
edt
oki
llyourman
Phi
ndi
le:Hi
snotdead
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Iti
staki
ngmyal
lnott
ogoandki
llt
he
l
ivi
nghelloutofhi
m
Me:Okaycal
m downwedon'twantyousnappi
ng,
whydidyouwantt
oki
llyour
self
Phi
ndile:Iam notgoi
ngtositandwatchhi
m bei
ng
at
tackeditwasei t
herorofwit
hhishead

Theyl
ookather
.
Me:Si
tyourassdown

Shet
hrowsher
sel
font
hecouchnextt
oMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe
Thisiswhyidi dn'
ttel
lhim hehi
tsmei nfr
ontof
everyone.Wef i
ghtandmygi rl
fr
iendwastojump
overthebalcony.Sakhil
eissensit
ivetot
hecore,
whenhebr eakshebr eakswhetheritwasmyplace
ornotidon'tcare.

Me:Youcancal
m downnowi
tsnotgoodf
oryou
Phi
ndi
le:Coul
dn'
tyouhavet
alkedl
iket
wogr
own
men
Thabi
so:Sakhi
le
Sakhi
le:Iam sor
ryhel
iedt
omehedi
dn'
ttel
lme
whatwasgoingon
Thabi
so:Iam sur
eitwaswithgoodreasonitdi
dn't
havet
oturnwithyoualmosttaki
ngyoureyebal
ls
out
Me:Ididn'tt
ellyoubecausethi
sisexact
lyhowi
knewthingswer egoingtobeli
keyouslapme
Sakhi
le,youmi ghtaswellpi
ssonme
Sakhi
le:Yeahwel
lyoudeser
vedi
t
Me:Okay
Sakhi
le:Andyousowil
li
ngl
ytr
ustherhowsur
ear
e
yousheisnotgoi
ngtobetr
ayusli
keJames
Me:UngenaphiuJameskul
ent
o
Thabi
so:Mzwakhewhati
sgoi
ngon
Me:Somewhi l
eagoNonhletol
dmeSmangel ewas
dat
ingsomeoneelseherboyf
ri
end,shetol
dmethat
.
Shetol
dmet hatSabel
oisAndil
e'
sbrother
Thabi
so:What
Sakhi
le:Nonhl
eit
houghtwecool
Nonhl
e:Hai
bowhoar eyoutotel
lmeiowedyou
t
hatki
ndofloyal
ty,
alotofpeopl
enoabout
Smangel
edi
dtheyt
ellyouno
Me:MamaPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm
Me:Wef
ixedt
hingsnowdon'
tbemad

Iknowiwil
lbethel
aughingst
ockidon'
tcar
eand
thewayLi
ndaniisl
ooki
ngathim.Hesobadly
wantst
olaugh.

Sakhi
le
Ican'tbelieveMzwakheiam sohurtand
disappointment,yeahyest
erdaywasn'tsupposedto
turnoutlikethat.Heshoul
dhavetoldmeiatl east
deservedt hat,
thedooropensandcloses.He
cli
mbsont hebedandhugme.

Me:Don'
ttouchme
Wef
ightbuthehol
dsmet
ight
.

Me:Whywoul
dyoudot
hist
ome
Mzwakhe:Ihadt
obr
olookatyour
ight
Me:Mzwakheyouknow

Hebri
ngsmeclosertohi
m myvoi
cei
sbr
eaki
ng
andnowiam cr
ying.

Me:Ihat
eyou
Mzwakhe:Il
oveyouihadt
odothi
s,iwasshocked
mysel
fther
e'snot
hingmor
eiwant
edthantogetri
d
ofher
Me:Ineedami
nut
etomysel
f
Mzwakhe:Nowegoi
ngtost
ayherel
iket
hisand
youcanhaveami
nutet
oyoursel
f

Isi
ghhewon'
tbackdownheget
sofmeandget
sin
t
hecover
s,myt
ear
sar
ejustpour
ing.

Nonhl
e
Thatwashect
icbutithinktheygotoveritihopeso.
Myheadwasr est
ingonAyanda' schesthewas
brushi
ngmyback, whi
lekissi
ngmyf orehead.

Ayanda:Musthavebeenhar
dforyou
Me:Notr
eal
lyt
hiswasmyescapepl
an
Ayanda:Sweetr
evenge
Me:Noext
raspi
cy

Wel
augh.

Me:ButGodhadanot
herpl
anf
ormeamuchmor
e
bet
terpl
an
Ayanda:Howmanysi
bli
ngsdoyouhave
Me:Four
Ayanda:Ubaniomdal
a
Me:Iwishi
twasmebutVumilei
stheol
destt
han
Let
hu,Thami,
Sfundoandme
Ayanda:Wel
lihaveni
ne
Me:Yourf
athermusthavebeenr
eal
lybusy
Ayanda:Youhavenoi deawhathappenedwasafter
thefourfi
rstboys.Thabiso,Mzwakhe,Nhl
akani
pho
andSbusisoyouhaven' tmethim.Thancame
Ntando,Phamandl aandusLuyandaandit hanwe
thoughtokayhewasdone, nopethancamealong
Lindokuhl
eafterLindo.Keacamehai bo
Me:Samemot
her
Ayanda:Nohewascheati
ngonMzwakhe' smom
withourmom mayherbel
ovedsoulcont
inue
rest
inginpeace
Me:Doest
hatmeaniam goi
ngt
ohavet
wins
Ayanda:Idon'
tknowmaybebecausegrandmai
sa
t
win,wehavenoi deawher
ethosepeopl
eare
Me:That
sint
erest
ing
Ayanda:Weani
nter
est
ingbunch

Weki
ssandaknockont
hedoordi
stur
bus.

Ayanda:Yi
nikodwangena

Theyent
er.

Me:Howdi
diknowi
tsyou
Phi
ndi
le:Youcomi
ngbackt
owor
k
Me:Iwi
llt
hinkabouti
torwecanj
ustwor
kher
e
Phi
ndil
e:Mzwakhedoesn'
twantmewor
kingher
e
wereal
lygeti
ntoi
t,ohwel
lokay

Shel
eaves.

Phi
ndi
le
Inmidstofi
tal
lthesnakehadt
oshoweup.I
haven'
tseenhi
mi nawhile.

Me:Heyt
her
ebi
gboy

Ibr
usht
het
opofi
tsheadheshoot
shi
stongueout
.

Me:Youmi
ssmeimi
ssyout
oomybi
gbadscar
ry
baby

Hegoesdownandcoi lshimselfiam notgoing

home, i
fhewant ssomet hinghewi llj
usthavetodo
i
ther e.Heslowlywr apshi sbodyal lt
hewayupand
disappearsinme, il
eavet heroom andheadt o
Sakhile'
sienter.Theyl ooksocut etogether
,i
tr
ansf ormtoasnake. ..icl
imbont hebedandcoil
mysel fihopetheydon' tshootme.
[
06/
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14] :103
Sakhi
le
Iwasawakebutst
il
lkeptmyeyescl
osed.
Mzwakhe'
slegwascausingst
rai
nonmine,i
removei
tofmeitdoesn'
tmove.

Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Mmmm
Me:Susaunyawol
wakhophezukwami
Mzwakhe:Unyawol
animanj
e

Iopenmyeyesial
mostpeeonmysel
f.

Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lecanij
ustsl
eepi
npeace
Me:Youhoeyouwon'
tbesl
eepi
ngi
npeace
Mzwakhe:What
Hevi
gor
ousl
yget
supbutcan'
tmovehi
slegs.

Me:Don'
tyoudar
emove
Mzwakhe:Thef
uck

I
tsl
ayingt
her
ebyourl
egsonewr
ongmovef
rom us
wedead.

Me:Whatdowedo
Mzwakhe:Idon'
tknowi
tsnotever
ydaywewakeup
wi
thasnakechil
li
ngonthebed
Me:St
opscr
eami
ngyougoi
ngt
owakei
tup
Mzwakhe:Youal
soscr
eami
ng
Me:Okayokay

Wegentl
yandquicklyremoveourl
egsundert
he
snaket
hangetofthe,igr
abmygun.
Mzwakhe:Real
lySakhi
le

Beforeicanpul
lthetri
ggerLindokuhl
eent
ers,
smackingthegunoutofmyhand.Ishoott he
cei
ling,
wewakei tup.I
tSlidesdownthebedLindo
opensthedoor,shesli
therout.

Li
ndo:Ni
yasangaemakhanda
Mzwakhe:It
hinkij
ustpeedonmysel
f

Wel
augh.

Me:Yi
niwenaawubonici
shesashona
Li
ndo:Youi
diot
sthati
sthequeen
Us:What
Li
ndo:Your eal
izeyoucouldhavekil
ledherandyou
wereaimingforthehead.Pleasedon'teverf
ight
becauseyougoi ngtoki
llher
Mzwakhe
Thatwashell
ascaryandembarrassing.Lindokuhl
e
i
scrazyhowdoesoneactcalminf rontofsucha
danger
ous,cunni
nganimal
.Ihaven'tseenPhi ndi
le
si
nceyester
dayiwonderwhatsheisupt o.

Ient
ermyr oom ifi
ndhersleeping,i
fsheisnot
sl
eepingsheiszoningout.I
sthiswhati t
sli
kebeing
spi
ri
tualhavi
ngnol i
fe,
justservi
ngtheancestor
s
shelooksupithoughtshewassl eeping.

Me:It
houghtyouwer
easl
eep
Phi
ndi
le:Noj
ustr
est
ing

Isi
tnextt
oherandki
ssher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Imi
ssedyou
Me:Ngempel
a

Sheki
ssesmeagai
nandagai
nandal
lovermyf
ace.

Phi
ndi
le:Youokayyoul
ookedpuzzl
ed

Ilookathershehast
hatsamestrongscaryaura
thesnakehad.Iti
swei
rdshetheseamazing
powers,si
milart
owhatwebeentoldgrowingup.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:AyubaniuMzwakhemanj
e
Phi
ndi
le:What
swr
ongbabe

Maybeiam readi
ngtoomuchi
ntoi
t,igetont
opof
herandsuckherboobs.

Phi
ndi
le
Iscar
edthelif
eoutofMzwakheheisfr
eakedout
under
standabl
y,sol
ongtheydon'
tfi
ghtt
heywon'
t
seeme.

Hegr
abbedmythighandwenthar
dhitt
ingi
tfr
om
t
hesi
deilosemysel
fint
hemoment .

Me:Aaaaah

Hechangeshi
spositi
onandgetsi
nbetweenmyleg,
heput
stheotheroverhi
sshoul
derandpounds
har
der.

Me:Aaaah.
..Yesbaby.
..Ri
ghtt
her
e

Sakhi
le
If
eellovei
ntheair
,theatmospher
eisdi
ff
erentt
hey
pl
ayingmusicwhatsgoingon.Nonhl
ewasinthe
ki
tchenever
ybodyelsewasloungi
ng.
Me:Mommyiam sorryi
fiscar
edyouorquest
ioned
youiknowyoudon'
towemeanyloyal
ty
Nonhl
e:I
tsokayr
eal
lyal
thoughiwant
eddr
amabut
wecool

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Howl
ongt
heybeent
oget
her
Nonhl
e:Don'
tdot
hist
oyour
sel
f
Me:Pl
easeij
ustwantt
oknow
Nonhle:Iam notr
eall
ysurei
fshebef
orethebaby
mamaoraf terbuti
tsbeenalongt
imecloset
of i
ve
year
s
Me:Wow
Nonhl
e:Iam r
eal
lysor
ryboonowt
heyt
hreat
eni
ng
myfamil
y
Me:Canit
rustyou
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowiam gul
li
ble

Wel
aughohSmangel
eiwi
shyoubur
ninhel
l.
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14] :104

Mzwakhe
Iwasn'tf
eel
ingthishei
styouknowyourgutnever
l
ies,
butiam alsonotonet obackawayf r
om a
chal
lengeandthiswasar ealchal
lenge.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Gat
sheni

Hehasn'
tfor
givenmet
hatmuchiknowbutwenot
f
ight
inganyti
mesoon.

Sakhi
le:Idon'
twantt
obewi t
hthatgi
rlanymor
e
andiam happythetr
uthcameout
Me:Okaywhatdoyoupr
oposewedo
Sakhi
le:Wecan'tsendNonhl
etoabur
ningf
ir
e
Ayandawil
lki
llus
Me:Herf
ami
ly
Sakhi
le:Shehastogobackhomef
orawhi
leand
showthem sheisnotscar
ed
Me:Whatwer
eyouevendoi
ngt
her
e
Sakhi
le:Ij
usthappenedt
obet
her
e
Me:Youwasn'
tfol
lowi
ngher
Sakhi
le:No
Me:Okay

Ihavesomethingplannedf
orSmangelei
tst
imeigo
backtotodi
sinfect
ingsomeroaches.

Phi
ndi
le
Thist
hingofdr
oppingofft
heboysfi
rstt
hant
hey
takemetoworkisstr
enuous.I
tst
enhoursof
dri
vingf
orJames,
buthedoesn'tmi
ndiwasfeel
ing
ver
yoverwhel
medandanxious.Whent
hathappens
somethi
ngbadoccur
s.

Me:YouknowJames
James:Wenotar
gui
ngaboutt
his
Me:Butl
ookyougoi
ngt
odr
ivebackanot
hert
en
year
sandthen
James:Iknowhowt
omanagemyt
imewheni
ts
overi
tsover
Me:Okaynousear
gui
ng

Isi
gh.

James:Khul
ulekankosazaneayi
khoi
nto

Hedoesn'
tfi
nishhissent
enceat
ruckcomes
smashi
ngint
ot hecar,myear
sri
ng.
Mzwakhe
Wewerebri
efi
ngNonhl
e.Nonhleshei
sasmart
cheekj
ustt
hatahmanherbrai
nworksoni
tsown
ti
me.

Ayanda:Nenzaninent
ombiyami
Me:Hel
lot
oyout
oo
Nonhl
e:Ahyousawt
hem ki
ssi
ngwowt
hisi
sgol
d
Sakhi
le:Ayandaawukahl
eyi
nimanj
e
Ayanda:Ican'
tki
ssmygi
rl
Sakhi
le:Noyoucan'
tmove
Ayanda:Hai
bo

Wel
augh.

Me:SoAyanda
Ayanda:Nothappeni
ng
Me:Br
o
Ayanda:That
'sst
upi
dtheyhaveVumi
lenot
hingi
s
goi
ngtohappen

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Baf
o
Phamandl
a:Phi
ndi
leandJameshavebeenhi
t
Me:What
Phamandl
a:Theyher
enow

Sakhil
etakesthephonef
rom memymindshuts
down,theyrushoutandl
eavemegl
uedtothe
couch.

Sakhi
le
Al
lthecar
spul
lupatt
hehospi
tal
,Thabi
soi
s
shout
ingateveryone.Howdi
dever
yonenotsee
thi
swhydidn'tt
heal ar
msri
ng.

Thabi
so:Ni
khami
sil
e..
.ShutupuphiuMzwakhe

Hismi
nddoesn'tworkt
hatoneever
ytime
somet
hingbadhappenstoPhi
ndil
e,hedoesn't
j
umpittakesawhil
eforhi
smindtojumpstartand
comebacktoli
fe.

Me:For
getaboutMzwakhel
etsgo

Nickitel
lsust heyi
nthewaiti
ngr oom,wegetther
e
theylaughinganddr i
nki
ngcoffee.Phindi
lehasa
bandagear oundherwr i
st,
thei
rclothesaretor
n
whatt hehellhappened.

Me:Mommy
Phi
ndi
le:Ohheyguys
Thabi
so:Ni
hlekakanj
ankodwani
sengozi
niyemot
o
Phi
ndi
le:Si
zikhul
umel
aumsanganonj
ewel
eavi
ng
now

Wehelpt
hem uptheygr oaninpainnowiknow
whatMzwakhei
sf eel
ing.Seeingherhur
tparal
yzes
you,
sheli
mps.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayiam goi
ngt
oneedsomebodyt
ohol
d
me

Mzwakhe
Mymindcanseewhatsheisgoingt
odobutmy
bodyi
sunablet
oact
,shesplashest
hebucketof
col
dwateronme.

Nonhl
e:Heysnapoutofi
tyi
nii
nki
ngayakho
Me:Uyahl
anyayi
niwena
Nonhl
e:Undwazel
eni
Me:Wangi
thel
angamanzi
Nonhl
e:Thisi
showyoushouldhaveactedwhen
youweretol
dPhi
ndi
legoti
ntoanaccident
.You
wantt
ohitmenowidareyou
Me:Val
auml
omowakho

Iheadupstair
sshelaughs,
ichangethi
scan'tbe
myenemi esthisper
sonwasclear
lysendi
nga
message.Itextmycrewtocheckinoneofthem
wil
lshow,whoi sontot
hem.

Me:Yel
lowbone
Nonhl
e:Yeshandsome
Me:Canyoupl
easeordersomef
oodanddr
inksand
somethi
ngf
orPhindi
le

Thel
if
topensOl
wet
huent
ers.
Olwet
hu:Ihear
dwhathappenedhowi
sshear
ethey
okay
Nonhle:NotmuchhappenedSakhi
lesai
dtheyon
t
heirway
Ol
wet
hu:OhmyGodhowar
eyoudoi
ng
Me:Iam doi
ngj
ustf
ine

Il
eavet
hem.

Ol
wet
hu:Hi
snott
aki
ngi
twel
l
Nonhl
e:Atal
l

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le
Wearr
ivehomehecal
ledever
yonet
heyi
nagood
mood.
Me:Mzwakhe
Ndu:Haiboandt
hanubanikodwal
oobef
una
ukubul
alaumunt
uwami
Mzwakhe:Umunt
uwakhohai
bo
Ndu:Mommy
Me:Yi
niwena
Ndu:Awukahl
e

Melusipopshi
sknuckl
esMzwakheandist
areat
eachother.

Mzwakhe:Takeherupst
air
s

Hewat
cheshershet
akest
hef
ir
stst
epandhol
ds
ont
oNdumiso.

Ndu:Iwi
llcar
ryyou
Li
nda:WeNdumi
souf
unaukuf
a
Ndu:Awl
askhul
uzi
ngat
hat
hana
That
o:Don'
tdot
hatyougoi
ngt
ohur
ther
Mzwakhe:Weel
askhul
uki
fki
fki
f

Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
mni
kaumuntuuyathit
hizal
ahawu
hambauyovul
aumnyangoyoushidi

Welaugh.Hecar
ri
eshershewi
nceal
it
tl
ebi
t,t
hey
headup.

Me:Ni
bekwayi
nil
a
Li
nda:Si
bizweuyena
Me:Ohseni
thol
il
eukut
hkwenzakal
en
Nonhl
ecomest
hroughl
ooki
ngf
ly.

Me:Hm hm hm hm
Thabi
so:Uwel
o
Li
nda:I
thangael
ifr
eshkanj
e
Me:Damm gi
rlgoi
ngsomewher
e
Ayanda:Iam wow
Nonhle:Takeapi
ctur
ehowdoyoust
opt
hedoor
s
f
rom closi
ng
Me:Landai
camer
alapho
Ayanda:Camer
ayaniasambe
Nonhl
e:HawuAyandaBhenguphel
a
Ayanda:Ayay

Theyl
eave.
[
06/
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14] :105
Mzwakhe
Jameswasexpl ai
ningwhathappened,it
hinkthe
medicati
onhasdr uggedhi
m.Heisnotmaki ngany
senseidon'tknowwhatkindofmedicati
onthe
hospi
taluses.

Sakhi
le:James

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Uyazi
zwaukut
hut
hini
James:Ngi
yani
tshel
abaf
ana
Me:Idon'
twanttowakePhindil
eupbutifwhatyou
sayist
ruesomebodyismessingwithme.Ineed
youtofi
ndoutanyt
hingandeveryt
hingabout
Melusi
James:Hei
sshadyt
hatone
Me:Yazimaj
it
aiskhat
hisokuzi
lungi
sel
amanj e
i
mamal et
hekhonaimpiezayo.Melesi
bashaye
kuqal
a
Sakhi
le:Andi
le
Me:Hegott
hemessagethatonebutheai
n'tr
est
ing
soupdat
eever
ythi
ngandbeonthelow
Sakhi
le:I
spani
Me:Youknowineverbackdownf
rom achal
lenge
Sakhi
le:Uyakhul
umakemanj
e

Phi
ndi
le
Al
lofthi
shasnot hingt
odowi thmebutahecti
c
warhasstar
ted.Iam grat
efulwesur
vivedandt
he
l
adiesbei
ngheret ocheckonme.

Rat
o:Uphil
omunyeusi
s
Me:Weakaj
oliakaj
olisekhohl
iwenayi
mi

Wel
augh.
Rato:Okayiwanttoinvi
teyoutomyhomedon'
t
br
ingyourboyfr
iendsthankyouver
ymuch

Mzwakhewal
ksi
nwi
thSakhi
lehel
ooksatus.

Me:Icanhel
pyou
Mzwakhe:Uhl
anganaphezi
ndabenizami
Me:Angi
khul
uminaweangi
hlangenef
uth
Mzwakhe:Ukhul
umanamikanj
alo
Me:Ngi
yaxol
isa

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Nganikodwamommy
Me:Icanhookyouupwi t
hsomeoner eal
lyf
inebut
youcan'tsl
eepwit
hthem buticanal
sohookyou
upinthatdepar
tment
Mzwakhe:Hai
bousunebhi
zini
sil
omaqhwayi
za(
You
r
unni
ngapr
ost
it
uti
oncompanynow)
Me:I
twil
lhel
pkeepSmangeleawayni
net
yper
cent
youwon'
tbeabl
etoescapeher
Mzwakhe:Why
Me:Bamnikaintoyokut
hiamadodaazif
elengaye
aphendukei
zil
ima(Theygivehersomepoti
onthat
att
ract
smalesanddr i
vethem cr
azy)

Voi
ce:Yoyourgi
rl
fr
iendi
sher
e

Me:Thi
nkaboutwhatisai
d
Olwet
hu:Wegoi
ngtoheaddownour
sel
veswel
eft
somemeatontheoven
Mzwakhe:AwOl
wet
huangi
nixoshi
Ol
wet
hu:Rel
axhoney

Wel
augh.
Mzwakhe:Iwasnotchasi
ngt
hem outnj
alo
Me:Theyunder
stoodt
heassi
gnment
Mzwakhe:Howyouf
eel
ing
Me:Pai
nher
eandt
her
eiam exhaust
ed
Mzwakhe:Rememberanyt
hing
Me:Notreal
lyir
emembermyear
sri
ngi
ngbecause
t
heysti
llr
ingi
ng
Mzwakhe:Di
dn'
tseeanyt
hingnopr
essur
e
Me:Youknowi fiam notmeantt
oknowaboutiti
f
orgetaboutt
hisoneisonyouandiam t
hetarget

Hesi
ghs.

Sakhi
le
Isobadl
ywantt
osl
apherf
acet
hesi
ghtofherj
ust
annoysme.

Sma:Youokay
Me:Idon'
tknowyout
ellme
Sma:Sor
ry
Me:Mawubonami naubonai sli
makubhal iwela
ukuthSakhi
lei
sli
masomf anangi zosikhohlisanj
e
kungabii
ndabazalutho(Doil ooklikeaf ooltoyou,
whenyouseemei tswri
ttenSakhi l
eisaf oolamere
manwhodoesn' tknowanyt hing.Hecanbeeasi ly
fool
edwithnorepercussi
ons)
Sma:Sakhi
lebabewhat
sgoi
ngon
Me:Yewenant ombazaneungali
ngeungi
sanganel
e
yezwaugcini
lenamhlanj
engicel
authat
he
ongokwakhouhambeyezwa
Sma:Sakhi
le
Me:Nj
engamanj
e

Myshout
ingstar
tl
esheriam hol
dingmysel
ffr
om
br
eaki
nginfr
ontofher
.

Me:Smangel
ejustgetyourt
hingsandl
eaveinever
wantt
oseeyouagai
niti
soverbet
weenus
Thobani
:Hewon'
taskyouagai
n
Sma:Thobaniidi
dn'
tdoanyt
hingwhati
she
accusi
ngmeof f
Thobani
:GoodbyeSmangel
e
Sma:Sakhi
le

Ifididn'
tknowt hethingsiknowaboutherand
actuall
ydidn'
tseehermaki ngoutwit
hthatguy.Her
crocodil
etearswoul dreal
lybeworking,
butihavea
strongteam behindmeandt heynotgoi
ngtolet
anythinghappent ome.Smangel eyourdaysof
maki ngmeaf oolareover.

Andi
le
Smangelewasspeakinggi
bber
ishandcr
yingover
thephone,
ilookatSamkel
owhatdidhedothi
s
monkey.
Me:Smangel
ecal
m down
Sma:Andi
le
Me:St
opcr
yingandt
elluswhathappened
Sma:Hebr
okeupwi
thme
Me:Who
Sma:Sakhi
le
Me:What
Sma:Iknewt hathafferwasgoingtoratmeoutand
guesswhatshedi d.Theykickedmeoutofthe
penthouseandbar r
edmef rom ent
eri
ng
Samkel
o:Yeahbr
ingheri
n
Me:OkaySmangel
ewecomi
ngt
ogetyoust
ayput

Forsuchasmar
tladyNonhl
ecanber
eal
lydumb.

Me:Sendt
het
eam down
Mzwakhe
Alri
ghtlett
hegamesbegi nwewer el i
steningto
thei
rconversat
ion.Sheknewt hoseearringsand
deviceswouldgetherint
ot r
ouble,soleftthem i
n
thecarbutweinstall
edalistendevicetoherphone.

"
Yout
hinkyoucanl
eavemybr
othernow"

Wedon'tknowwhoi
swhowej
ustknowshei
s
capt
ured.

"
Itol
dyoushewasgoi
ngt
opi
mpmeoutit
oldyal
l"

ThatmustbeSmangel
e

"
Meeewhatdi
dido"

"
Cutt
hecr
ap"
Shescr
eams.

Sma:"OkaySamkel
other
e'si
snoneedt
obe
physi
cal
"

"
Whatdi
dyousayNonhl
e"

Nonhl
e:"
Yousl
appedmeSamkel
o"

"
Gett
hisf
ooloutofher
eal
lofyou.
..yout
alk"

Hecockshi
sgun.

Nonhl
e:"
Hesawyou"

"
What
"
Nonhle:"
Hesawt hem f
rom t
hetimewewenttothe
rest
aurantandwhentheylef
ttherest
aur
antand
deci
dedt oki
ss"

"
Youknowt
hathow"

Nonhl
e:"
Takeal
ookatt
his"

"Ahmar anidom ahnidom okwangempel

a,yi
ni
nibei
ziphukuphukukanj
e.UbuyaphSmangele
ubuyaph"

Ayanda:Iam i
n

Wealsohacki
nghislapt
opwhateverhedoes,wi
ll
al
sohappenonourside.Weshallknowever
ythi
ng
abouthi
sdeal
ing,
theminut
ehest ri
kesiam t
aki
ng
hi
m down.
Sakhi
le:Sowhatnow
Me:Wedealwi
thMel
usi
Sakhi
le:Youokay
Ayanda:Iam f
ine
Sakhi
le:Do
Ayanda:Isai
diam f
inewhati
sthei
ssue

Heshout
sathi
m.

Sakhi
le:Okayphel
aungangi
dli

Nonhlewi l
lbelooki
ngforAyandat
odosomethi
ng
aboutthis,
ourassesneedtowatchhi
m ver
yver
y
ver
yver yclosel
y.
[
06/
06,
15:
14] :106
Mzwakhe
Theboyssaidtheywanttohaveapar t
yofthei
r
separat
efrom t
heoneRatoisplanni
ng.Iwaslike
dotheywanttodie,
becausethat'
swhat'sgoi
ngt o
happen.Theywanttopart
ywhilemybabyi sbeing
att
acked.MyphoneringsahMxolisi
whatdoeshe
want.

Me:Yebo
Mxol
isi
:Mzwakhewhatar
eyoudoi
ngt
omyf
ami
ly
Me:Yi
nimanj
eMxol
isi
Mxoli
si:Whyismysontel
li
ngmePhi
ndi
lewasi
nan
acci
dentyeahMzwakhewhati
sgoi
ngon
Me:Yaziuyanqamukaangi
kuzwa

Ir
ubt
hephonef
acedownont
hecouch.

Me:Huhut
hiniangi
zwaubuyeuf
onebye
Ihungup.

Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Mamawhyar
eyouup
Phi
ndi
le:Igott
ir
edofsl
eepi
ng
Me:Ohnanguubhut
iwakhoef
ona
Phindil
e:Hei
spr obabl
yonhi
swaybackheisl
ike
that,
doesn'
ttel
lyouwhenheisl
eavi
ngorcomi
ng
back
Me:Ut
hiMjtol
dhi
mt hatyougoti
ntoanacci
dent
,
whati
sgoi
ngonwiththeli
tt
leguy

Shesi
ghs.

Phi
ndi
le:Ei
shbabe
Me:Hei
syou
Phi
ndi
le:Iguessbyexper
ienci
ngchi
ldabuseopen
uphi
s3r
deye
Me:Usazobawor
se(
Ishegoi
ngt
ogetwor
se)
Phindil
e:Ineedt oknowwhyihavet hi
sgiftaft
er
that.It
hinkicanhel phi
m channelitproperl
y
i
nsteadofj ustblurt
ingi
tout,
buthet rustyouand
openlyacknowl edgesyouhowgr eatyouhavebeen
tohim
Me:Thosearemykidsnowidon'
tcar
eifwebr
eak
uporMxoli
sidoeswhat,
theymyboys
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yabonga

Ismil
eper
fectmomentt
obr
ingupt
hesepar
ate
par
ty.

Andi
le
Ididnotseethisonecomingineverexpect
edit.
ThewaitSmakel o'sr
oom wasfi
ll
edwithbull
etsal
l
over,
whenial loverimeanal
loverwecan'tevengo
i
nsidebecauset heygoi
ngtopokeus.
Smanga:Damm sni
perbul
let

Hesayspi
cki
ngoneup.

Me:UyalungayaziubuyaphinoSmangel
e
umshayelaniuNonhl
e.Isthi
sbroadel
imi
nat
ed
Sabel
o:Youneedahi
tmanj
ustl
ikehi
m goodas
hi
m
Me:Lookatt
hemessyoucr
eat
ed

Ishakemyhead.

Sandi
le:Lel
ool
iphet
he
Samkel
o:I
thasmynameengr
avedoni
t
Me:Niceoneihopehedoeskillyoubecauseyouan
i
diott
ogetherwi
thyourgi
rl
fr
iend
Sabel
o:That
snotni
ce
Me:Shutupyouf
ool

Mzwakhe
Thegentspull
edupwewer eal
lchi
ll
ingi
nthe
theat
erroom.Nonhl
eenter
swithAyandacar
ryi
nga
l
aptopthegentswhi
stl
e.

Phindi
le:Ayphel
asel
okhesaj
olaasazi
wanokut
h
sobani
Nonhl
e:Shame

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Heysexyl
adi
es
Them:Mommy
Nonhl
e:Okaywhyam iher
e
Phi
ndi
le:Remembert
hatshowweoncewat
ched
Nonhl
e:Wewat
chal
otofshows
Phi
ndi
le:Nakedsnct
m
Nonhl
e:No
Phindil
e:Hewasblabber
ingtomet
heboyswanta
separatepar
tybl
ahblahblah

Shel
aughshar
d.

Nonhl
e:Thef
***youl
ett
ingmymandot
hat
Phi
ndi
le:I
tsonenightoff
unandt
hat
sit
,connect
metothescreen
Sakhi
le:Engabeyi
nil
oNakedheemommyNaked

Welaugh.Sheplaysavideopor
ncomesont he
gentst
urnandlookather,shel
aughsandpr
ess
pause.

Phi
ndi
le:Ahyoushoul
dhaveseenyourf
aces
Sakhi
le:Kadengabonaukut
hugangi
lewena
mommy

Shepl
aysanot
hervi
deo.

Phindi
le:I
tssortofadocument aryaboutaman.He
ownsoneoft hemoster roti
cclubforpeopl
e,who
wishtoexpresst hei
rsexualdesi
resonanother
l
evelwithoutbeingjudged
Nonhl
e:Wecandoi
tint
hemostcl
assi
estwayever
Phi
ndi
le:Todot
hatweneedapr
ivat
epl
aceand
money

Theyl
ookateachot
her
.

Me:Yougoi
ngt
obeokaywi
thmedoi
ngt
hat
Phi
ndi
le:Ar
eyounott
heonewhocamet
ome
Me:Okayokayokaywedonotneedt
ogot
her
e
Phi
ndi
le:Okayweneedt
ogowhenwegetback
Phi
ndi
le
Weonourwayt oNkanyi
so'
shouse.Iam sur
eiti
s
asbeaut
ifulast
hebot
hofthem,ial
soneeda
br
eather
.

Ol
wethu:Idon'
trememberwhenwast
hel
astt
ime
wecameher e
Sindi
:Wasi
zondawasi
zondaumunt
ungent
o
engekho

Theyl
augh,
wepul
lupi
nsomeest
ate.

Nonhl
e:Wow
Si
ndi
:Ial
mostf
orgothowbeaut
if
ult
hishousei
s

Wear
ewel
comebyt
hel
ovel
yMr
sDl
omo.
Rat
o:Wozaniphel
a

Wef
oll
owher
.

Olwet
hu:Rat
oyourhousest
il
llooksbr
eat
htaki
ng
howdoyoudo
Me:I
tsj
ustsopeacef
ul
Rato:Thankyouladi
essowelcomeagai
nigot,
champagne,jui
ce,water
,wi
neandsomesider
s
Nonhl
e:Gi
rldon'
tbeexposi
ngourghet
tosi
denow
Me:Jui
cef
ormet
hankyou
Rat
o:Thankyouf
orcomi
ng
Si
ndi
:Thi
sisgood
Rat
o:Onl
ythebesthoney

Nonhl
esnapsherf
inger
s.
Rato:Okayladi
esigotsuckedupinthatworld,
i
knewt hatwasn'
tthecaseandtheyfedmelies.
Howt heboyspaidsomuchat t
entiontoyou
Me:Youknowbecomesopassi
onat
einhat
ingon
ot
herwomen
Nonhl
e:Whi
chi
spet
tyandst
upi
d
Me:Andwesi
mpl
ydon'
thavet
imef
ori
t
Olwet
hu:Wer
eal
lyl
oveyouandr
eal
lysor
ryf
orany
badblood

Mzwakhe
Me:Nkanyi
somybr
u

Wecl
ear
lydi
dn'
tant
ici
pat
eitwoul
dbeont
hisl
evel
.

Nka:Guysr
atoiscr
azyifshesawmedoingthi
s.I
meanofcourseiwanti
tbutdamnyourgi
rl
fr
iends
Me:Aykei
mamamel
ibuyal
izof
unai
mpendul
o
meni
ngenayobyebyeor
gypar
ty
Them:No

Wel
augh.

Me:Wedoi
ngi
t.
.Okayseni
yoshi
yaamakhadienu
baf
ethu

Imi
sshernowit
exther
.

Phi
ndi
le
Wewer edancingandtwerki
ngtoMar i
eCarry
classi
csandtheboysdecidetoshowunannounced.
Hesaysnot hi
ngandjustpull
smyhand, wewalk
throught
hislongpassageri
ghtt
illt
heend.He
opensthedoorweent erandhelocks.

Hei
slooki
ngatmedamnhei
ssosexy,
heki
sses
me.Iam ali
tt
lebi
tti
psyandicant
elli
tsgoi
ngt
obe
l
ongnight
.

Me:Whatwast
hatf
or
Mzwakhe:NgiyakuthandaPhi
ndil
eangisoze
ngi
phindengi
kuyeke, nomasi
ngaxabanakodwa
angi
kudedel
i(Iloveyouandiam neverlet
ti
ngyou
goevenifwefighti
ngyouain'
tgoingnowhere)
Me:Weebat
ata

Welaugh,
igodownonmykneesandpull
shi
s
pant
sdown.Hebit
eshi
sli
pandlooksup.
[
06/
06,
15:
15] :107

Sakhi
le
Isleptpeacef
ulknowi
ngthatiain'
tnevergoi
ngto
seet hatwomaneveragai
n.Ratowelcomeduswi th
lovi
nghands, t
heywerepr
eparingfoodforever
yone
iam f ami
shed.
Rat
o:Whoi
swi
tht
hatbeaut
if
ulvoi
ce
Ol
wet
hu:Phi
ndi
le
Rat
o:Hai
bo

Wecoul dhearhersingingandMzwakhepl ayi

ngthe
piano.Heplaysthepianowhenheisst r
essedout
orgoingthr
ought hemost ,
myphoner i
ngsdammi ti
forgott
oblockher.Idecli
nehercal
lthanblockher
i
mmedi atel
y.

Thabi
so:Iwi
sht
heyr
emai
nli
ket
his
Me:Youandibot
hskhul
u
Thabi
so:Aspr
inkl
eofhergoesal
ongway
Thobani
:Maseeyadakwakeumnganiwakho
Me:HeyMzwakhemaybeal otofthi
ngsbutdeep
down,deepdeepdownheisalovi
ngmanyouj ust
havet
obr eakt
hebarr
ier
s
Thobani
:Ai
n'tnobodygott
imef
ort
hat

Wel
augh.

Nka:Hi
Rat
o:Heyhusband

Hedishesoutforhi
mselfmanoft hehouse,
the
doorbellr
ingsheat
tendstoit.Sometimesit
sgood
togetsomef r
eshai
rratodidn'tl
ikeusthatmuch
andlookatusnow.

Nka:Di
dsomeoneor
dermeat
Ol
wet
hu:I
tmustbef
orPhi
ndi
le
Nka:Sheeat
smeati
nthemor
nings

Shecaneatawhol
ecowi
fitwasupt
oher
.
Me:Youwoul
dn'
tunder
stand

Phi
ndi
le
Somet hingwashappeni
ngtomeicouldn'
t
understandit
.Thesnakewashereonl
yicoul
dsee
i
t,it
houghtsingingwoul
dcalm mymindbuti
ts
aggravatingmeevenmore.Ical
lSi
ndi
swaherand
Li
ndokuhl ewil
lbeabl
etohelpme.

Mzwakhe:Youcomi
ng
Me:Justgi
vemeami
nut
epl
easengi
yakucel
a

Heopenst
hedoorLi
ndoandSi
ndiar
ebyt
hedoor
.

Me:Idon'
tknowwhat
shappeni
ngt omemybodyi
s
bur
ningandmyski
ncravi
ngtobreakout
Li
ndo:Youhavet
ochange
Me:What
Li
ndo:Youhavet
ochangei
nto
Me:Noiam f
arf
rom home
Li
ndo:I
twi
llonl
ybeaf
ewmi
nut
es
Me:Si
ndi
swa
Si
ndi
:Yougoi
ngt
obeokayj
ustl
ockt
hedoor

Theywal
koutt
hiscannotbehappeni
ng.

Mzwakhe
Ican'
thel
pbutwor
ryaboutherihopei
tsnot
hing
seri
ous.

Thobani
:Youokay
Me:Iam f
ineweNkanyi
so
Nka:Hel
ltot
heno
Me:Yourwi
thme
Shej
oinsusl
ooki
ngmuchmor
ecal
mer
.Sheki
sses
mycheek.

Phi
ndi
le:Iam okaynowij
ustneedt
ogohome
pl
ease
Me:AwPhi
ndi
lewet
alkedaboutt
his
Phi
ndi
le:Exact
lykant
ingi
hlal
aphwher
eismyhome
Me:Thef
oodi
sfi
nishedbutyourmeati
sher
e
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyoubutiam nothungr
y
Sakhi
le:WenaPhi
ndi
leunqabai
nyama
Phi
ndi
le:I
sther
eapr
obl
em wi
tht
hatiwantt
ogo
homeplease

Shel
eavest
het
abl
e.

Me:Don'
tworryRatopl
easedon'
tfeelbadshe'
sli
ke
t
hatwit
hallofus.
Sakhi
le:Unedl
ozit
hizeniyabodon'
tst
ress
Me:Excuseme

Phi
ndi
le
Ij
ustwantedtogohomeimeannodi sr
espectto
Ler
ato,herhusbandandherhome.Myski
nwas
bur
ningineededtobeinsyncwit
htheancest
ors.

Me:Canyoudr
ivel
i
ttl
efast
er
Mzwakhe:Mamakant
ikwenzakal
an
Me:Pl
easeij
ustneedt
ogethomepl
ease
Mzwakhe:Okayokay

Iwaslayi
ngonthebackseatqui
ver
ingmyst
omach
wasinknotsandiwascryi
ng.

Mzwakhe:P
Me:Mzwakhej
ustdr
ivepl
ease
Mzwakhe:Ngekephel
amase
Me:Mzwakhengi
yakucel
a

Icr
ylouderhest
epsoni
t.

Nonhl
e
Phindi
lescar
esthelif
eoutofmeisawherani mal
thi
stime,i
twasslit
heri
ngifel
tli
keiwasgoingto
dieandihadtokeepmycool .I
tcan'
tbeeasytel
li
ng
peopleiam asnake.

Ayanda:Babe
Me:Yesmyl
ove
Ayanda:Youokayyoul
ookoutofi
t

Wewentt
othemal
lonl
ybecauseif
ear
edf
ormy
l
if
e.

Me:Iam okayyouknowj
ustwor
ri
edaboutPhi
ndi
le
Ayanda:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Me:Thatshernewnormalshehatesput
ting
pr
essureonanyoneorbri
ngingt
hem hardship
Ayanda:Am iputt
inganypr
essur
eonyouand
br
ingi
ngyouhar dship
Me:Il
ikewher
ethi
sisgoi
ng

Heki
ssesme.

"
Nonhl
e"

Wet
urnar
ound.

Me:Rose
Rose:Hey
Me:Hi
Rose:Fancyseei
ngyouher
e
Me:Myl
ovedeci
dedt
otakemeout
Rose:Samkel
o
Me:NoAyanda
Rose:Wowokayi
twasni
ceseei
ngyou
Me:Mmm
Ayanda:Whoi
sthat
Me:Oneofmybr
other
sgi
rl
s
Ayanda:Youdon'
tknowyourbr
other
sgi
rl
fr
iend
Me:Theychanget
hem ever
ydayican'
tkeepup

Hel
aughs.
[
06/
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15:
15] :108

Mzwakhe
Itmakesmehappyt oknowhergif
tdoesn'tt
roubl
e
herasmuch, whensheishereatt
hepenthouse.
Untilweknowwhatiti
snosleepoveratother
places,
mysoulisatpeace.Wearebl
essedwi t
h
Thobani
'sbabymama,
whatisshedoi
ngher
eshe
hadanissuewit
hmygir
l.Ahugecr
ushonmenow
she'
sbackwhy.

Thobani
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Sethu:Idon'
twantt
ocauseanyprobl
emsshej
ust
missesyouandaskedtoseeherdaddy

Myf avor
it
erunst
ome, shest
andsbymykneesand
ti
lt
sherheadsmil
ing.Il
aughiwi
nkathershesi
ts
down.

Set
hu:Nonhl
ecomeonwef
ri
ends
Nonhl
e:Fr
iendschi
lliai
n'tyourf
ri
endt
hankyou
ver
ymuch
Set
hu:Okay
Nonhl
e:Whatiam notherf
ri
end
Wel
aughherphoner
ings.

Nonhle:Againwhat'
swrongwit
hthemaniam
dati
ng.She'sjeal
ousimeanhaveyouseenAyanda
haveyouseenMrBhenguokaybye
Set
hu:Youdat
ingAyanda
Nonhl
e:Thebot
hoft
hem
Set
hu:Youdr
ibbl
ingbot
hman
Nonhl
e:Andt
heyl
ovei
t

"
Nonhl
e"

Nonhl
e:Okaywel
augh

Phi
ndi
le
Wehadt hehousetooursel
vest
heboyswer
eaway.
Sheisheretocausest
irsometr
oubl
eandiam not
her
eforit.
Set
hu:Hel
loPhi
ndi
le
Me:Hi
Set
hu:Iseeyouset
tl
ingver
yni
cel
yher
e
Me:Iam t
hisi
smyhomenowigohomeon
weekends
Set
hu:Mmmm

Lerat
oasfabul
ousasshei swil
lwantsomething
bigandextr
aor
dinar
y,yetsi
mpleandclassy.Iwas
l
ookingthr
oughmycat al
ogthemir
rortabl
eswoul d
benumberone.

Sethu:Howwoul
dyouf
eel
ifyourmanwas
cheati
ngonyou

Mzwakhecheat
sal
lthet
ime.
Me:Iwoul
dki
llhi
m andf
eedhi
mtot
hedogs
Sethu:I
fitol
dyouiknewsomet
hingt
hatwoul
dtear
fr
iendshi
psapart
Me:Yourwi
ll
ingt
otearf
ri
endshi
psapar
t
Set
hu:Notunl
essyoudowhatit
ellyou

Shetakesoutagunandpl
acesi
tont
hecof
fee
tabl
e.

Mzwakhe
Thobani
:Whati
sshedoi
ng

Thobani,
Sakhileandiwei nPhi
ndi
le'
sapart
ment,i
f
anyonewillknowt het
rut
haboutwhathappened
thatdayi
sPhi ndi
le.

Phi
ndi
le:"
WowsweetSet
hu"
Set
hu:"
Shutupandl
ist
en.
.Iknowt
hishousei
s
crawl
ingwi
thl
ist
eningdevi
cesandcameras.Af
ter
thi
sconver
sat
ionyouaregoingt
ogetri
dofthem
gotit
"
Phi
ndi
le:"
Indul
gemesweet
hear
t"
Set
hu:"
Lahl
euml
enzei
scomi
ngout
"

Wel
ookateachot
her
.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Whatki
ndofnamei
sthat
"
Set
hu:"I
fyoudon'twantmetotel
lLi
ndani,
Mzwakhesleptwit
hhisgir
lf
ri
end,
youwillwor
kwi
th
meintaki
nghim down"

Me:Facemegi
rlf
acemeyoudon'
tneedt
ousemy
gi
rl

Phi
ndi
le:"
Mzwakhesleptwit
hLi
ndani'
sgi
rl
fri
end..
Hmm i
nterest
ingyousur
eyounottheoneheslept
wit
handthanyoumadei tl
ookl
ikei
twasLindani
's
gi
rl
fr
iend.Nowaysyousleptwi
thMzwakheand
bl
amedi tonanot
herwoman"

Shelaughs.Thobaniisnotf
azedbythi
shepours
anot
hershotofwhi skey,
hesit
sbackandr
elax.

Sethu:"
That
'snothowLi
ndanii
sgoi
ngtotakei
t
seeingasMzwakheisawhoreofaman"
Phi
ndil
e:"Idon'
tcar
eMzwakhecansl eepwith
whomeverhewant stoiknowabouti t
,butyou.You
i
maginewhatThobaniwi l
lfeelgi
rlheisgoi
ngto
sl
aughteryou"
Sethu:"
Nowthatwehadthi
sconver
sat
ioni
tst
ime
toputthemot
ioninact
"

Icl
oset
hel
apt
op.

Sakhi
le:How
Me:Shemusthavedr
uggedme
Sakhi
le:Wi
thwho
Me:That
sthemi
ll
iondol
larquest
ion
Sakhi
le:HowdoessheknowVukani
Thobani
:Nowt
hat
'st
hemi
ll
iondol
larquest
ion

Vukaniandiwenotenemieswewereonamissi
on
hegotcaughtandthatwasi
t.Idi
dn'
tknowwehave
tur
nedintoenemi
esnow.

Me:Whyam ist
il
lal
ive
Sakhi
le:Youknewaboutt
hisandyoudi
dnot
hing
Thobani
:Set
huwasami
stakeokayt
her
eyouhave
i
t

Phi
ndi
le
Andtheybackwitht
hei
rnoi
seihavet ostop
worki
ng.Nothi
ngcanbedonewiththesecrazy
peopl
earound,t
heydemandyourfullat
tent
ion.
Li
nda:Ungayi
val
iphel
angobasekukhonat
hina
Mzwakhe:Mamakancanenj
e
Li
nda:Awnj
aloni
yabhebhanani
nakant
iyi
ni
Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokukhahl
elaungi
jwayel
akabi

Helaughs.Igetupandfoll
owhim iknowwhathe
wantstoaskanditisnotaboutSet
hu.

Me:Ungi
phat
hel
eni
emnandi
Mzwakhe:Mymagi
cwand
Me:Not
hankyou

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe:Usangi
bonanamanj
e
Me:Justbecauseidon'
ttel
lyouort
hrowaf
it
doesn'
tmeanihavest
oppedseei
ngyou

Hecl
oseshi
seyesandmakessounds.

Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Don'
tmamameyounotwor
thi
t

Il
earnedt
hebestkeptsecr
etdi
einsi
det
il
lthever
y
end.

Sakhi
le
Idon'tknowifMzwakhewantstotel
lthem,
ifheis
comingoutandi sworkingwi
thsomeonefr
om the
crew.Whoknowst hedamagehecoul
ddoweat
l
easthavet othefamil
y.

Thabi
so:Youokayyoul
ookspooked
Me:NoMzwakhewi
llt
ellyou
Theycomedown.

Me:Yougoi
ngt
otel
lthem
Mzwakhe:Tel
lthem whatohayiwi
llt
ellThabi
so.
Li
sten

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Shest
il
lseesme
Me:Who
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Hewhi
sper
s.

Me:What
Mzwakhe:Mf
ethungavel
engaphat
hekakabi
Me:Uzoyi
yekaukuf
ebanawe
Mzwakhe:Dudei
m di
sappoi
nted
Me:Youshoul
dbe
Set
hu:SoPhi
ndi
lehaveyout
houghtaboutwhati
sai
d

HeregoesSethuwi t
hthebull
shi
tPhi
ndi
leal
most
hi
tsher,Thobanipul
lsherback.

Mzwakhe:Thobani

Hel
etsgoofher
.

Phindi
le:Ngi
zokushayawenayezwaangisehi
umnganiwakhoungal i
ngeungi
bhedel
e.Nxinansi
i
ntombazane
Mzwakhe:Set
huyousai
dyounother
etocause
t
roubl
ewhatareyoudoi
ngnow
EvenifPhindi
lewasn'ther
eLi
ndokuhl
ewoul
dhave
sti
llwarnedus,noti
nsomanywaysorbedirectas
her.Butwestil
lwouldknowwehavesomeenemi es
l
urking.
[
06/
06,
15:
15] :109

Mzwakhe
Mxol
isii
sbackandmybabyi
sinahappyhappy
mood.

Mxol
isi
:Dammitit
houghtiwasgoi
ngt
oseemy
ki
dsbefor
etheyl
eave
Me:Itwoul
dbeagr
eatsur
pri
sewhent
heycome
back
Mxol
isi
:Mmm
Ayanda:Hai
bokant
inenzani
Ifikeeponhidinghertheygoingt
okeepon
attacki
ng.I
filetherr
oom aroundtheysti
llgoi
ngto
attack,
ineedtoshowt hem iam r
eadyforanythi
ng
theythrowatme.

Nonhl
e:Okaywecangonow
Phi
ndi
le:Youdon'
thavet
ogoi
fyoudon'
twantt
o
Nonhle:Yeahwelliwon'
tbeahousewifewi
thout
t
hering.Hemustmar ryme,provi
deformeand
t
hanwecant al
kaboutbeingahousewif
e
Mxol
isi
:Wher
ewegoi
ng
Me:Wet
aki
ngt
hem t
owor
k
Mxol
isi
:Iam comi
ngwi
th

Nowayst
hisi
sgoi
ngt
obeal
ongday.

Phi
ndi
le
Mybr
otherf
itper
fect
lyi
ntheyl
ovehi
m event
hough
heiscrazy.Theyal
lcr
azysot
heygoodforeach
ot
her,wear r
iveatwor
kmypowersawaken.

Nonhl
eopensandtur
nsont
hel
ight
s,igett
he
bi
ggestshockofmyl
if
e.

Nonhl
e:OhmyGod

Ever
ythingi
srui
nedanddestroyedal
lmylif
e'shar
d
workfl
usheddownthetoi
let
.Everyt
hingi
sibroken
andsmashed,mywholewarehousewasin
shambles.

Myl egsfailmeistaggerbackheholdsme,idon'
t
wantt obeheld.If
ighthim hehol
dsmet i
ght,t
ears
str
eam downmycheeks.Iam unabl et
obreathe,
my
heartclosesinonme.Mybodyst iff
ensupifeelmy
soulbeingsuckedoutofme.
Mzwakhe
Mymi ndusuall
ystopswheneversomet hing
happenstoPhindi
le,butthi
swasdi f
ferentweatt he
hospi
talnow.Iwashol di
ngherandil i
terall
yfel
ther
soull
eavingherbody,iwasn'tscar
edofl osingher
anymore.

Sakhi
le:Phamandl
a
Phamandl
a:Sheisokayshewenti
ntocompl
ete
shock,
weluckyshesurvi
ved
Me:Canit
akeherhome
Phamandl
a:Yes
Me:Thankyou

Theycomet
hroughigetupandhugher
.

Me:Youokay
Phi
ndi
le:Ij
ustwantt
ogohome
Me:OkayPhamandl
aist
her
eanyt
hing
Phamandl
a:Keepacl
oseeyonher
Me:Goti
t

Wel eaveican'
timaginewhatshemustbegoing
thr
ough.Thisbetternotbeoneofmyenemies,they
don'tevenknowiam wi t
hsomeoneexceptf
or
Andileandheisnotdumbenought odosomet hi
ng
l
ikethis.

Ipul
lSakhi
let
othesi
de.

Me:Thol
alebhariakunanj aezokeili
nge
i
ngi
jwayel
ekabi.Ungangitsheliukut
hngehli
se
umoyangif
unalenjait
holakenamhl anje,
eya
Mzwakheayit
hint
wai nomai kanjan

Whoeveri
tisbet
terpr
ayidon'
tfi
ndt
hem.
Sakhi
le
WhenMzwakhest artswhisper
ingandyoucan'
t
hearwhatheissaying,
that'
swhenhei smost
dangerousal
ltheanswersweneedar eher
eatthi
s
warehouse.

Thobani
:Yol
ookwhatif
ound

Hecomest
hroughhol
dingsomet
hingyel
low.

Me:No
Thobani
:Ei
theri
twasl
efther
eonpur
poset
obe
foundori
tfel
lof
Me:Eyabani
Thobani
:Mel
usi
Me:Mel
usiumazel
aphuPhi
ndi
le
Thobani
:That
swhatwehavet
ofi
gur
eout
Me:Yout
hinki
ngwhatiam t
hinki
ng
Het
akesoutanot
heryel
lowandbl
ackbandana.

Me:Yoineedyoutodoabackgr
oundcheckon
somebodylowkey
Thobani
:Let
sgett
hismot
herf
***
*

Wel
eaveical
lSbusi
so.

Sbu:Skhul
u
Me:Ineedsomel
ockschanged

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Iwi
llt
extyout
hel
ocat
ion
Thobani
:Wol
alapho
Zamani
:Her
eiam t
hinki
ngi
am goi
ngonabr
eak
Thobani
:Li
stenineedMel
usi'
shospi
talr
ecor
ds
ever
ythi
ngandanythi
ngconnect
edtohim
Zamani
:Whyme
Thobani
:Justdoi
toriam goi
ngt
osendyour
brot
heryourway
Zamani
:What
ever

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Normal
lyshei
saquietpersonbutt
hisi
sscari
ng
me.Shehasgonemuteidon'tknowwhatt
odo, i
headdownSakhi
lebet
terhavesomethi
ngconcret
e.

Mxol
isi
:Anychange
Me:Nonenzenj
anmasekunj
e
Mxol
isi
:Uzeazi
buyel
eyena
Me:Ni
yamyekanj
ekanj
alo
Istopmyselffr
om sayi
ngsomethingthatwil
lhur
t
hisfeel
ingsandsomethi
ngiwi
llregretl
ater
.

Me:Iam nothavi
ngt
hatidon'
tcar
eiwi
llf
ixi
t

Hi
sphoner
ings.

Mxoli
si:Mayazikubukekaengathasibuyiyazi
unono,unonoangazinokuthngit
hini
.Angith
unendodahaibo,angi
khiphil
uthoyazii
nemal i
kanj
ani ndodayakhekuyafi
wa.Aymaay
si
mugadi lemaokay

Helooksatmeandl
aughswhatki
ndofbr
otheri
s
t
his.

Mxol
isi
:Ngi
yadl
alangazeungi
cebekuMommy
Me:Eyawukahl
e

Hel
aughs.
[
06/
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15:
15] :110

Phi
ndi
le
Igotupear
lyhadabaththanwentbacktoliedown.
Ithi
nkiam okayt
hatwasalott
ot akei
n,seeingmy
thi
ngsdest
royedl
iket
hataft
erthehardworkidid
i
ntomakingmybusinessasuccess.

Mzwakhe:Avei
ngi
dinal
entoyakhoyokungakhal
i(I
hat
eitwhenyoudon'
tshowanyemot i
on)
Me:Ngi
thiul
ele
Mzwakhe:Ngi
lal
ekanj
anPhi
ndi
le,
ulal
il
ewena

It
urnar
oundandl
ayonhi
schest
.
Me:Theybr
other
s
Mzwakhe:Howaboutyoujustfocusonbei
nga
gi
rl
fr
iendandl
eaveal
lthatformeandmypeople
Me:Yourpeopl eareslowendthi
swarbef or
eit
evenbegins.Iwillbackof
fdon'
ttakeyourti
me
becauseiwillki
llhim

Igetof
fhi
m andoutt
hebedmysouli
sbayi
ngf
or
bl
ood.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhewi l
lbeshockedwi t
hthei
nfor
mati
onwe
got,
whichisstrangebecausehegothi
msel
fcaught
whyareweatoddsnow.Mommycomesdownshe
doesn'
tlookokay.

Thobani
:Mommy
Phi
ndi
le:Hey
Me:Ukahl
ekodwast
handwasami
Phi
ndi
le:Iam okayiam okay

Nonhl
ehugsher
.

Mxol
isi
:Nono

Theyhugandshecr
ies.

Mxol
isi
:Ahgci
no
Thabi
so:Kantikwenzekeniangi
thandimasekhal
a
kanj
ekungiphathakabi

Mzwakhecan'
tbemadatt hi
sheisnott
hetypeof
per
sonwhowillcomf
ortyou,i
fyoudon'
ttel
lhi
m
whati
sgoingon.

Phi
ndi
le:Al
lmyhar
dwor
k
Mxol
isi
:Iknowbabyiknow
Me:Iwi
llf
il
lyoui
nlat
er
Mxol
isi
:Wi
yboi
nkosazanenzenaweemagci
noka
ma

Hei shushingherli
keheistr
yingtocalm downa
l
ittl
ebabycr yi
ngandscreaming.Theli
ftopensshe
getsof fMxoli
siandtur
nstothesidewhippingher
tears.ShecovershermouthandlooksatMel usi
.

Mzwakhe
Nowhowam igoi ngt ododealwi ththismess.
Vukaniicandealwit
hhi m heisoffnouset ome,
Melusii
fikil
lhi
mt haniwilldefi
nitel
ybest art
inga
war.Phindi
lei
slookingathimr ealbad, idon'tknow
howmuchl ongershecancont ainher self
.

Ndu:Yi
nimanj
eoh

Li
ndowascol
lect
ingt
hebandanasiam r
evampi
ng
them.Eventheydon'
tweari
ttheycar
ryt
hem
everywher
etheygo.

Li
ndo:Eyngi
khumbul
aipar
tyyakho
Ndu:Ungangikhumbuziwaphunyukaomunye
umuntuinhl
iziyoyamiyabuhl
ungu
Li
ndo:Twent
yfouryel
lowbandanas
Me:Twent
yfour
Li
ndo:Ayi
khoeyaMel
usi
Mel
usi
:Idi
dn'
tknowwemustbr
ingt
hebandanas
Sakhi
le:Di
dn'
tknowyoumustbr
ingkant
iayi
hlayi
yi
nikuwena
Mel
usi
:No
Me:Nosi
ncewhen
Mel
usi
:Idon'
tcar
ryi
twi
thmeal
lthet
ime
Me:Wher
eisi
t
Mel
usi
:Athome
Me:OkayLi
ndokuhl
egowi
thhi
m andf
etcht
he
bandana
Mel
usi
:Wecangetsomeot
hert
ime
Thabi
so:What
swr
ongwi
thget
ti
ngi
tnow
Mel
usi
:Fi
neil
osti
t
Sakhi
le:Hai
boMel
usi
Me:It
sfinet
hisbett
ernotgetmear
rest
edbecausei
am goi
ngtokil
lyourass

Igivethem backiwantedtoinst
allt
racki
ngchips
onal loft
hem, Sakhi
lest
aresatme.Ihaven'tseen
theinformati
ontheygotandPhindil
esayingtheir
brothersman.

Phi
ndi
le
Ineedt ogetoutofher
emyheadi sgoi
ngt o
explode.Thesnakewantstocomeoutthevoicei
n
myheadar escar
ingme,iam shaki
ngigetupand
calloutforMzwakhe.
Me:Mzwakhe.
.Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Mommy

Icl
imbbackont
hebedhecomesi
naf
ewmi
nut
es
l
ater
.

Mzwakhe:Yi
ndabwhyyoushaki
ng
Me:Gettheseoutofher
eican'
tMzwakheican'
tmy
soulwantstot
akethatman'
shear
tout

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Awoveramer
ethi
ngcomeonisai
diwi
ll
f
ixi
t
Me:Ohmoneyissupposedtomakethepainiam
f
eeli
nggoawaybecauseeveryt
hingi
srepl
aceabl
e
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lecal
m downt
her
eisnoneedt
o
goaggr
o
Me:Cel
aungi
phumel
a
Mzwakhe:Okay

Heget
supandleavest
heroom,igetupandl
ock
t
hedoort
hanheadbackinsi
deandcry.

Sakhi
le
Hecomesbackdownit oldthem toleaveididn't
givet
hem theful
lstor
yijustsaid,something
happenedtoPhindi
leandletsjustgivethem space.
Melusionehundredpercentisgoingbackt olook
forhi
sbandanaandhewi l
lfi
ndoutt hathemessed
up.

Thobani
:Yougood
Mzwakhe:Mmm so
Me:Damm t
heybrot
her
swhenhewenti
n,he
br
oughti
nMelusi
Thobani
:Yeshei
scomi
ngoutonpar
olegood
behavi
or
Mzwakhe:I
sther
eanywayt
ost
ophi
mfr
om get
ti
ng
out
Me:Ther
eis
Mzwakhe:Whydoeshewantt
ocomeaf
termehei
s
t
heonewhogotcaught
Me:That
swhatbeat
sme
Mzwakhe:Hmm
Thobani
:Ar
eyoul
ist
eni
ngt
ous
Mzwakhe:Ihavet
ogokeepmeupdat
ed
Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:OkaySakhi
leokay

Hewal
ksawaywhyi
shel
iket
hismanaysuka.

VukaniMhl
ongo
Anenemyofmyenemyrequest
edmypresence.I
si
tontopofhi
stabl
eandcr
ossmylegsl
ookingat
him,hebr
ingsmeagl
assofwhi
skeyil
ookati
t
thanhi
m.

Andi
le:Okayphel
ayoudon'
thavet
ober
ude
Me:Uf
unani
Andil
e:Ngi
funasi
sebenzi
saneukuqhumbal
eya
mfeneyakwaBhengu

Il
augh.

Me:No
Andi
le:Excuseme
Me:Angisebenzinezi
mfundamakhwel
a(Idon'
t
workwit
hamat eurs)
Andi
le:Doyouknowwhoiam
Me:Iknowexact
lywhoyouar
e
Andi
le:Andyouknowwhatiam capabl
eof
Me:What
sasmal
lti
memaf
ial
ikeyoui
sgoi
ngt
odo
t
ome
Andi
le:Car
efulnowicansendyoubackt
opr
ison
Me:Yout hesayinglooktheenemyi ntheeyeand
takehim downi st
rue.Iknowwhatyoubeenupt o,
tryi
ngtot akeMzwakhedownusi ngpeopl
eandit
fail
ed.SeeMzwakhei salott
hingsbutstupi
disn't
oneoft hem, dowhateveryouwantiam notscared
ofyou

Idrinkhiswhiskeyanddroptheglass,hecl
enched
hisjaw.Mzwakhe' sweaknessisl
ookinghiminthe
face,andtaki
nghi m downwithasmi l
e.Myphone
ri
ngsi thadn'
tbeentwosecondssinceigotoutand
icant el
lhemessedup.

Me:Mel
usi
Mel
usi
:It
hinkimessedup
Me:Sokhul
umamasengi
fi
keendl
ini
Heyeveryonemynamei sVukaniMhlongo34years
old.Anci
entyearsagoiwasi nvol
vedinahei
st,and
myasswascaughtandsent encedtotwent
yfive
yearsforrobber
yandmur der.Ihaver
easonto
beli
evemybei ngcaughtwasasetup.Iam outnow
andi am comingforever
ythi
ngMzwakhehas.
[
06/
06,
15:
16] :111

Phi
ndi
le
Ihadt otellratoicannol ongerdoherpar ty,my
whol eplacewast rashed.Iwasr eal
lylooking
forwardondoi ngthi sforherbuteverythi
ngi sjust
destroyed,ihadt ol etSamkeloknowourwor kis
gonei t
sgoi ngt otakesomet i
met orecover .I
closedmywebsi t
et ookdownmysoci alpages, my
dream wast akenaway.

Thabi
so:Nt
ombikabaf
o
Me:Hi
Thabi
so:Uphiyenavel
e
Me:Angi
mazi
Thabi
so:Usehambi
lenj
alo
Me:Ngi
gci
neukumbonai
zol
o

Hechuckl
es.

Thabi
so:Uxolokodwamommyngent oeyenzekil
e
umsebenziwakhoonzi
ma.Neskhathiosi
faki
le
ukuzekubeimpumelel
o,masekuf
ikaigundwanenje
l
imosheyonkint
o

Heistheonlyonefr
om t
hem t
hatunder
standswhat
iam goi
ngthrough.

Thabiso:Yebokubuhl
ungukodwaungakhal
i
kakhulusoyil
ungi
sayonkel
entowenamommy
thul
aubheke
Me:Iwasn'
tbei
ngdr
amat
ic
Thabiso:Chawenasthandwasam uvumel
eki
le
ukuphathekakabiuMzwakhei
mfeneungamnaki

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Canyoumayyouhel
pmewi
thsomet
hing
Thabi
so:Nomayi
nisweet
hear
t

Ist
andbef
orehi
m andt
akeofmycl
othes.

Thabi
so:Wai
tami
nut
enowwhatar
eyoudoi
ng
hol
don

Helooksatmywr
istandj
umpsup,
hol
dinghi
s
cheeks.

Thabi
so:No
Me:Iam r
unni
ngoutoft
imeMzwakhei
staki
ngt
o
l
ongineedt
oknowwhati
sgoi
ngon
Thabi
so:Nononowhydi dyouhavetochoosehim,
yougoingt
okil
lusallyougoingtoki
llusal
l.Oh
kodwaBhenguniyenzelanii
ntoenj
e

Hesi
tsdownandl
ooksatmei
ndi
sbel
ief
.

Vukani
Isl
aphim hef
all
sipickhi
m upandslaphim agai
n.
Ipunchhi
sguthegroansisl
aphim agai
n.

Me:Ucel
weubaniMel
usiucel
weubani
Mel
usi
:Bhut
i

Isl
aphi
m agai
n.

Me:Yinini
bei
ziphukuphukayi
nil
eenenza
ni
cabangeuMzwakheuyi sl
imanxi
.Li
phimanj
elel
o
duku
Mel
usi
:Iguessimusthavedr
oppedi
tthei
r
Me:Youidiotidon'tcareaboutbreaki
ngMzwakhe'
s
st
upidgi
rlf
riendyouf ool.Takehi
m onyesesayi
kho
nj
enezeintooyifundil
ekul abaf
ana
Mel
usi
:Jameswas
Me:AtJameshadt hebal
lstolookhiminthef
ace
andtakehim down.Mel
usiiwantthoseboyst
o
suf
ferthesamewayidid
Mel
usi
:Theywi
ll
Me:Nobecauseyour ui
ningever
ything,
findme
somethingaboutt
hatgi
rlanddon'tdoanythi
ng
stupi
d.Iam warni
ngyouMelusi

Imustsendhim awildgoosechasehecannotf
ind
outiam outal
ready.

Sakhi
le
Wequi
ckl
ycamebackaf
terMzwakhecal
ledusi
n
theweehour softhemorning,whatisPhindi
le
doingshowingThabisoherbreastesli
kehell
o.He
l
ooksdisturbedandthi
nkingwayt oohard,iwould
toodamnt hosearesomegor geousroundsmal l
boobs.

Li
ndo:Cr
azyr
ight

Hel
ooksathi
m unabl
etocan.

Li
ndo:Don'
twor
ryal
liswel
l
Thabi
so:Ihavet
owor
ryihavebeni
cabangani
ngempela

Li
ndokuhl
elaughs.

Thabi
so:Coul
dn'
titbePhamandl a,Nt
andonoheis
al
socrazyorme.AhLi ndokuhl
eniyawubonakodwa
umonakal
oeniwenzil
e
Mzwakhe:Yi
ndabi
ntombiyami
ikuvezel
aamabel
e
Thabiso:Ohuseyi
ntombiyakhomanjeusuj
uli
le
enhl
izweniyakhokumnandiulal
anoSihl
e,
uzoqhamukausuthiint
ombiyakho
Me:Mzwakhe
Thobani
:Awumeyi
ndabkadeekuvezel
aamabel
e
Thabi
so:Khohlwail
eyontouVukanikadeephumil
e
kwimanjenjeuyaphi
thi
zela.Ani
ngit
shel
ingani
ul
ahlaumlenzeuphumile
Me:Youlef
tandwentt
ogoshagSi
hlecani
tget
anymoreworset
hanthat
Thobani
:Thabi
sowhywassheshowi
ngyouher
ti
ti
es

Iam di
sappoi
ntedwow.

Thobani
:Thabi
so
Thabi
so:Nxieygowanwena
Hesnapsathi
m.

Thabiso:Olwethust
handwasam mengabeet hi
uPhindil
eniyahambamanj eniyakwivacati
on.Qoqa
i
mithwaloyakhoungihambel e,awudi
nginokuthuze
ubuzeukuthkwenzakal an(
ShouldPhindi
lesuggest
anothervacati
onmyl ove,j
ustpackyourthi
ngsand
go.Don'taskquesti
ons)
Me:Thabi
soyi
nikant
i
Thabi
so:Hawesazesashahai
bo
Li
ndo:Thabi
sokeepyourmout
hshutyougoi
ngt
o
bl
urti
tout

I
shecr
ying.

Me:Ar
eyoucr
ying
Thabiso:Si
fi
leSakhi
lesi
fananabant
uabaf
il
e
oJehovaolungi
leyo
Wel
aughhei
sdr
amat
icnow.

Thabi
so:Can'tidi
vor
cemywi feandt
hant
akeheri
promi
seiwilldoanexcept
ionalj
ob
Li
ndo:Unf
ort
unat
ely
Thobani
:Hai
bondodazi
shaph
Thabi
so:Sukumawenasukumahambauyol
ungi
sa
i
zint
o..Hambahamba

Phi
ndi
le
Okaysothewhol
ef amil
yisawareofwhatiam, but
notwhoiam.Iunderst
andThabisoali
tt
lebitand
thef
actt
hatMzwakhei staki
nghist
ime,idon'
t
knowhowmuchl ongericanhol
donhei sbreaking
myheart
.

Hewalksi
nandl
ooksatme,ilookathi
mthango
backt
omyphone.Iwassupposedtogohomethi
s
weekend,butemoti
onal
ly,
physicall
yandmental
l
yi
am exhaust
ed.Idon'
thavethestrengt
hinf
acti
thi
nkbeinginarel
ati
onshi
pwi t
hMzwakheweakens
me.

Iknowhehassomet hingbutiam goingtoignore

him.Hedoesn' tcar
eoristr
yingtoteachme
something,myheadont heotherhandi sonfindi
ng
outwhati ti
sexactl
yiam meanttodo.It hi
nki
shoul
dt ryandcommuni cat
ewi t
hthem.Nonhl eisin
l
ovevileshef i
nall
yfoundherhappinessandiam
notaboutt ocomeinbetweenthat.

Igetavisi
onofthi
smanandSet
hu.
..IgaspNozii
s
notThobani'
schi
ldbuthow.

Vukani
Iputmyhandsdeepinmypocket
sandcrossmy
ankl
es.Shest
epsoutoft
hecarandsi
ghs,she
makesherwaytome.TheBhengumoneyis
t
reat
ingherwel
l,
shei
sevenmor
ebeaut
if
ult
han
t
helastt
imeisawher
.

Me:Mommy

Shebl
ushesandshakesherhead.

Sethu:BetweenyouandSakhi
leidon'
tknowwho
saysitthebest
Me:Meobvi
ousl
ybecauseiam t
heonewhot
aught
t
hem
Set
hu:Mmm
Me:Youdon'
tcomet
ovi
sitmeanymor
e
Set
hu:Nj
omanepl
ease
Me:I
tsokay

Wher
eist
hebabywhydi
dn'
tshebr
ingher
.
Set
hu:What
sgoi
ngt
ohappennow
Me:Al
ot

Ican'
ttakeherbackshesl
eptwit
hanot herman.
YouknowMel usii
sadumbkopp, imadeami st
ake
tr
usti
nghim.Ababywasnotpar toft
hepl anbut
nevert
rustanyonetodoyourdi
rtywork.

Me:Shal
lwe
Set
hu:Idon'
tli
ket
hatl
ookonyoui
tscar
ingme

Youshoul
dbescar
edhoneyigotani
cesur
pri
sef
or
you.
[
06/
06,
15:
16] :112

Vukani
Iwaslooki
ngatherpi
ctur
esandmyeyescoul
dn'
t
bel
ievei
t.Ther
eisnowayMzwakhewasablet
o
bagsuchachi
ck,
ilookatMxol
isi
thanherpi
ctur
es
agai
n.

Me:Ubanil
o
Mel
usi
:Herbestf
ri
endNonhl
e

Okayidi
dn'
taskf
ornobestfr
iendit
eart
hepi
ctur
e
i
nhalfandgi
vehi
mtheotherhalf
.

Mel
usi
:Notyout
oo
Me:Yi
ni
Mel
usi
:Mesmer
izedbyherbeaut
y
Me:Yeahyoualwayswerethewei
rdonet
hat
swhy
nobodyl
ikesyou.Shutup

Mymymyt hi
sdarkbeaut
yheput
st hetor
nhalfof
t
hepi
ctur
e,ontopoft
heoneiam l
ookingat.
Mel
usi
:Shei
sdat
ingAyanda
Me:Unamangaumf
aziwenkabi
Melusi:Ihear
dhefil
ledoneofAndil
e'sbrot
hers
room withsni
perbul
letandoneengravedwithhis
name
Me:I
nter
est
ing

Myeyei
sont
hisdar
kbeaut
yri
ghther
e.

Sakhi
le
Phindi
lewokeuponadanci ngmood,theydanci
ng
andshakingtheirassets.Nonhl
eistheonewhowi l
l
danceandpwi lljustbelikeachor
eography,but
todaysheisshowi ngusshecanr eal
lymovemaybe
alit
tl
etoomuch.

Mzwakhe,
Mzwakhewaslooki
ngl
ikehi
sfavor
it
e
dogj
ustdi
edonshutdownmode.
Thobani
:Sakhi
lekhul
umanayephel
a
Me:Ayumunt umebhedeuyat
shel
wandoda
uyaphambukamanje
Thobani
:Butl
ookathi
m
Me:UyaziuMzwakhei
ntoayenzayosi
ngenaph
t
hina
Ol
wet
hu:Youokayt
odaydoweneedt
ocheckyou
i
n

Hehugsherf
rom t
hebackidon'
twhati
nthe
Bhenguwasgoi
ngonwithThabi
so.

Thabi
so:Iam notokayi
nfactiam somadbecause

Heshakeshi
shead.

Thabi
so:Wear
edoomed
Ol
wet
hu:Theysai
dyouwer
elooki
ngathergi
rl
s
Thabi
so:Damm r
ightiwasandhuh

Wel
augh.

Me:Kant
iyi
niThabi
so
Thabi
so:Awamahl
ekanj
engat
hungawabamba
uwabambe
Me:Doyouwantt
odi
e
Thabi
so:Pl
easeiam notscar
edofMzwakhe
Me:Whathappened
Thabiso:Ican'
ttel
lyouasbigbr
otherineedt
ostep
uport hi
ngsaregoingtotur
nbadrealquickr
eal
fast

HelooksatPhi ndil
e,hepull
soutasci ssorsf
rom
thecabinet
.Hedi sappearssomewher ethancomes
backwithaf l
oweri nhishand,
hepi nsitonPhindil
e
whil
eshei ssti
lldancing.Hestandsbackandl ooks
ather.
Thobani
:Ol
wet
hui
syourmanokay

Shecover
shermout
hshaki
ngherhead.

Vukani
Ifhewasn'twhitehewouldlookexactl
yli
keme.He
haschangedsomuchihavemi ssedoutonso
much, heprobablyst
il
ldoesn'
tli
kemeist i
lldon'
t
care.

Me:Hi

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Iam yourbr
otheryouf
oolyoucan'tbehat
ing
onmewemaybebl ackandwhite.Butwecome
fr
om t
hesamewomb
Car
son:WhatdoyouVukani
Me:Mtanoml
unguokayiseeMzwakhetaughtyou
wel
l.I
tssi
mpleiwanthi
sfor
tunet
ransf
erredi
nto
myname

Hel
aughs.

Me:Cr
azyr
ight
Car
son:Yat
hink
Me:Noti
mpossi
blet
houghr
ightyouj
ustuseyour
magi
candvoi
la
Car
son:Voi
lauyaphi
lakahl
eekhanda
Me:YouspeakZul
unow
Car
son:Whycan'
tyougoandapol
ogi
zet
han
Me:Theyputmeinjai
lCarsonwhywasit
heonly
one,onl
yonearr
est
ed.Itookthatr
out
ewhi
let
hey
escapedfr
eel
y
Car
son:Youdon'
tknowt
hat
Me:Tel
lmei
fthi
sisgoi
ngt
obeapr
obl
em f
oryou

Hehol
dshi
shead.

Me:Don'
tfucki
ngannoyme
Car
son:Vukani
Me:Hewon'
tkil
lyouhecan'
tki
llyou.Seeyounot
st
upi
dli
keMelusi

Idon'tevenhavetoli
ftafi
ngerort
rysohar
dand
breakmybal l
s,hegetsup.

Me:Ukhumbul
ekemf
okaOwensi
yigazi

Hewalksoutihearhi
m scr
eami
ngwhyishe
f
ight
ingwit
hthefurni
tur
enow,i
tdi
dnot
hingt
ohi
m.

Phi
ndi
le
Whenidanceidon'
tstopicangoonf orhour
suntil
somethingi
nmeissatisf
ied.Iwasn'
tgoi
ngto
consolMzwakhet
hereismuchmor ebi
ggert
hings
toworryabout
.

Me:Andyouar
e
Her
:Thandeka
Me:Mmm Thandekabutiaskedf
orasi
ngl
etonand
younot
Thandeka:Youneedsomet
hingbel
ieveiam your
gi
rl
Me:Yourbeaut
if
ulbeyond

Shesmi
les.

Me:Sakhi
leasi
zwanemi
nanawe

Hel
aughs.
Me:Ineedyout
odosomet
hingdr
ast
icf
ormehey
eyesuphere
Sakhi
le:Awumekancanesawubona

Shetakesthebowloffr
uitsal
adt
hanheads
upst
airsandenter
shisroom.

Me:Notsof
ast
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Yout
hinkyougoi
ngt
ohaveherf
orf
ree

Helooksathi
sroom t
hanMzwakhehegoesand
si
tsdown.

Thabi
so:Kodwankosiyamil
abaf
ana

Inod.
Thabi
so:Uf
unanimi
nangi
zoyenza
Ol
wet
hu:Youcanevensendmeiwi
lldoi
t
Me:Nopei
tsf
inei
tsnotmybusi
nessi
nfactiwant
t
oseeyouonyourknees
Thabi
so:Phi
ndi
ledon'
tsayt
hat
Me:Ohandi
fyout
hinkaboutopeni
ngyourmout
h
Thabi
so:Angeke

Iheadupst
air
s.

Vukani
Myguyst ellmeprett
yl adyi
soutandaboutwi
ththe
bestfr
iend.Iar
ri
veatt hemallwhatdoiknowabout
malls,
myphoner ings.

Me:Tal
ktome
"
Shei
sinoneoft
her
est
aur
ant
sout
side"

Me:Cool

Iheadat
extcomest
hroughi
tsapi
ctur
eofher
.

Wai
ter
:Gooddaysi
rtabl
eforone

Il
ookathi
m hest
epsasi
de.

Me:Ladi
es

Theylookatme,somet
hingver
yint
imi
datingabout
Mzwakhe'schi
ck,andt
hehit
mansgirl
fr
iendisjust
breat
htaki
ng.

Me:Vukanii
gamabengekengi
kwazi
ukudl
ula
ngasencomangaoMommyabahlekanj
e
Theyl
ookateachot
herandl
augh.

Them:Youmustbewor
kingwi
thMzwakher
ight
Me:Yeahngabeni
yamazi
Nonhl
e:She'
sdat
inghi
m
Me:Whatunamangaaysiyahal
ali
sel
auskhul
u
ngiyaj
abul
aukunaziboMommyni hl
aleni
bebahl
e
kanje

Iwalkf
uckihaveneverseent
hisi
nti
midat
edbya
chi
ckbefor
e.Myphonebeepsnicetheper
fectshot
.
[
06/
06,
15:
16] :113

Mzwakhe
Ihavenoi deahowt
ostopthi
s,i
tsbeyondmy
contr
ol.IheaddownJamesischi
ll
ingonthei
sland
wit
haf il
enexttohi
m.
Me:Sani
bonani
James:Youmi
ghtwantt
oseet
his

It
akei
tandopeni
t.

Me:Phi
ndi
legetyourassdownher
eri
ghtnow
Phi
ndi
le:Yes
Me:Yi
nil
e
Phi
ndi
le:Api
ctur
e
Me:Phi
ndi
leungangi
casul
iyezwa
Phi
ndi
le:Hawui
minauNonhl
enal
obhut
i
James:Nkosazanet
hisi
sver
yimpor
tant
Phindi
le:Wasisupposedtosaysomethi
ngay
ngobayini.Kut
hiwangibei
ntombiangan
Me:Asintombiyamiawushonganikhonauml
isa
ongamaziovesanewavumbuka
Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaxol
isa
James:Aymanj
ewenzan

Shedi
dn'
tevenf
li
nchwheni
rai
sedmyhand.

James:Mzwakhewenzan
Me:Ngiyaxoli
saPhi
ndi
ledoyour
eal
izehow
danger
oust hi
sis
Phi
ndi
le:Ngat
hkuwenaqedal
empii
ngakaqal
i
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phindi
le:Youseerightnowyouguyswon'
teven
knowwhathi tyou
Thabi
so:Ungasi
tshel
ahl
ampeyi
nisi
kwazi
ukuzi
lungi
sel
a
Phi
ndi
le:Unf
ort
unat
elyThabi
soican'
tgoagai
nst
hi
swordanythi
ngel
se
Me:No
Nonhl
e:Whyyoubei
ngmean
Phindi
le:Iam notbei
ngmeaniam r
especthi
s
wishesyouunder st
and
Nonhl
e:Soyouknowwhat
sgoi
ngt
ohappen
Phindi
le:Kuni
ngiesengi
kubonil
eit
sweighi
ngheavy
onmyshoul dersbutiam gi
rl
fr
iendandihavet
oact
l
ikeit

Vukani
IsMzwakhesweat ingno.Mzwakhei snotthet
ype
tosweatno.Hel ooksatyou, setsat r
apandyou
hangyour sel
f.Thisiswhyihavet oexecutemy
planwithpureintell
igence,
ican'tpressureCar
son
hewillbreakshamemypoorbr other.

"
Vukani
"

Me:I
nher
emnt
anoml
ungu
Car
son:Shutup
Me:Iam ol
dert
hanyou
Car
son:Ohr
eal
lyidi
dn'
tnot
ice
Me:Whatcanihel
pyouwi
th
Car
son:Iwi
lldoi
t
Me:But
Car
son:Iwanthalfi
fiam goi
ngt
odot
hisishoul
d
atl
eastbenef
itf
rom i
t
Me:30
Car
son:For
ty
Me:No

Iratherf
indsomeoneelset
odoit,
itsnotl
ikeiam
goingtoleavehi
m hi
ghanddry.Wecanbot h
controli
t,whyi
shebeingli
ket
his.

Mel
usi
:Car
son
Car
son:Hey
Mel
usi
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Car
son:Hecal
ledme
Hel
ooksatme.

Mzwakhe
Ipi
ckupther
oseandheadt
oherihopewecanget
thr
ought
hisl
ikeadul
ts.

Me:Foryou
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou
Me:Phi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:St
opyouj
ustgoi
ngt
omakei
twor
se
Me:Iknowikeepmessi
ngupandiwantt
omakei
t
uptoyou
Phi
ndi
le:Regar
dlessofwhathappensiam al
ways
goi
ngtobehere

Sherocksmywor l
diam i
nal
lthewrongpl
acesbut
ineedherandiknowshewon'
ttur
nherbackonme.
Me:Okaysopleasetel
lmeaboutyest
erdaywas
t
hereanyt
hingoutoftheor
dinar
y
Phindil
e:Noithi
nkiam bei
ngf
oll
owednot
aggressivet
hough
Me:Whatdi
dhedoorsay
Phi
ndi
le:Not
hingMzwakhe
Me:Hedi
dn'
tthr
eat
enyou
Phi
ndi
le:Whati
sthatyouwant
Me:Hel
pmePhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Me:That
sit
Phi
ndi
le:Wer
eyouexpect
ingsomet
hingel
se
Me:Yeahl
ikescr
eami
ngatmeandt
ell
ingmeiam a
b*
tchandwhatnot

Sheki
ssesme.
Sakhi
le
Mzwakhecal l
edmeandsaidhewantst
omeetup.I
orderdr
inksforushei
stenminut
esaway,
idon'
t
getwhyhei slat
e.

Wai
tr
ess:Yourdr
inksi
r
Me:Thankyoumommy

Heshowsupj
usti
nti
mehel
ookscr
azy,
ilaugh.

Me:Wowyoul
ookcr
azy
Mzwakhe:If
eelcr
azy
Me:Skhul
u
Mzwakhe:Manjenj
engomf
ethuwam engi
mcanywa
bl
indngenzenj
an
Me:Wenzeniwena
Mzwakhe:Imessedup
Me:What
snew
Mzwakhe:Man
Me:Thi sissimpl ewhatyoushoul ddoisr
espect
her,don' tf
orcet hisdon' tal
lowyourhoesto
disrespecther .Yazi seindawoyakheempilweni
yakho, ungambekii sandl ayenzanomangabeyini
ayicelakuwena.Hl al aumhl oni
phanjal
oMzwakhe,
ungal enziiphuthal okumvumel aakuzonde
uyayizwal entoengi yishi
yo
Mzwakhe:Skhul
u

Ihaven'tseenhimlikethi
snotevenwith
Samkel i
siwe.Ihopehegetsitr
ightbecauset
hey
notbreakingup,iwillmakesur
eofitevenifi
tst
he
l
astthingido.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwenthomeihadtoseet hem andtel
lthem what
happened.Iknowmom isworriedsi
ckaboutme,i
l
etMzwakheknowwher eiam andimi ghtnotcome
back.Hetextsmebackhewillcomeforagood
ni
ghtki
ss,
ismi
le.

Ma:Kuhambakanj
an

Ishowt
hem t
hepi
ctur
esofmywar
ehouse.

Ma:Awkodwankosiyamismakade
Mxol
isi
:Gci
no
Me:Heybr
o
Ma:Bat
hol
akel
elabant
u
Me:Angazikahl
ekhonanj
eimpiezayo
Ma:Ni
yabonaukuqomai
yigebengu
Mxo:Mt
shel
emamt
shel
e

Il
augh.

Me:Umsebenziwamiwonkegoneyonki
nto
engi
yisebenzel
ekanzi
ma
Mxo:Whatdi
dhesay
Me:Bazoyi
lungi
sakuzot
hat
jai
skhat
hingobai
nkul
u
Ma:I
mpi
loyakhonj
eebal
uleki
lenganeyami
Me:Yout
olddad
Ma:Udonsei
sagi
lasakheMxol
isingi
yisekhona
manj
e
Mxoli
si:Angazinamibahl
alaphingi
bonangoba
sesi
yongenakwil i
ft
Ma:Uphiunonongazengamkhumbul
a
Mxol
isi
:Sebeyaj
olaphel
awema

Hewal
ksawayil
augh.
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Mzwakhe
Ishoul
dhaveknowshewasgoi
ngt
ousethisasan
escapepl
an.Idon'
tmi
ndi
twoul
dki
ndofgiveme
t
imet
ogetmysel
ftoget
her
,myphoner
ings.

Me:Hey
Mxoli
si:Neednotwor
ryshehasn'
twokenungenwe
i
yint
ozakhe
Me:Youbet
ternotsayevi
lnow
Mxol
isi
:Iam sur
eshewi
llbef
lyi
ngt
her
eassoonas
shewakesup
Me:Anddon'tyoudar
ethi
nkaboutl
eavi
ngist
op
yourassandhaveyouadmit
ted

Hel
aughsandhungsup.

Sakhi
le:Wegood
Me:Yeahngi
mcel
il
eangi
sizeangazikeuzowenza
kanj
an
Sakhi
le:Shewon'
tsaymucht
haticanguar
ant
ee
Me:Iam hopi
ngshej
ustl
eadsmet
oint
her
ight
di
rect
ion

Isi
gh.

Me:Skhul
uyi
niengangi
qhumbaphansi
Sakhi
le:Besi
desbei
ngar
rest
ed
Me:Mymoney

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iknewtheminuteisl
eepi
nmybedt heancest
ors
weregoingt
ocallme.Iwakeupbr
eathi
ng
fr
anti
cal
lywheream i
.

Me:Hel
loi
sther
eanybodyher
e
Iseeaf i
gur
eappr
oachi
ngmeit
sawoman.She
reachesmeandsmil
ewowshe'
sbeaut
if
ul.

Me:Wher
eam i
?Whoar
eyou?

Shesmi
les.

Her
:Iam QueenZobuhl
eBhenguoft
het
heBhengu
t
ri
be
Me:Am ideaddi
dif
ailmydut
ies
Zobuhl
e:Nomychildi
nfactyouhaven'
tbegun.
Sorr
yitooksol
ongtoreachyouiam anoldbusy
woman, comef
oll
owme

Ifol
lowherassheleadsmet
hrought
hisbeaut
if
ul
gardenandst
artst
alki
ng.

Zobuhl
e:Wheniwasbor
nmypar
ent
swer
etol
di
havesomespecialpowers.Gr owi
ngupiwoul dsee
thi
ngsandpeopleforwhot heyare,iwoul
dpr edi
ct
thefut
ureandshowyouwhatisawbeyondt he
humaneye.Roughlyputt
ingi tnowiam goingtobe
asshortaspossi
bleyoucan'tbeher e.

Thi
sfeel
sli
kethej
our
neyit
akebutnotasscar
yas
i
tisi
nmydr eams.

Zobuhle:Fastforwardimett hislovelymanMamba
XuluThembi nkosiMambaXul u,oht hesexiestman
ihaveeverseen.West artedsomet hing
unfor
tunatel
yi tdi
dn'tendwel l
.Ifellpregnantwith
twoofhisbabi es,herejectedmeandt ossedmeout
li
ketr
ash.Ist art
edhatingmysel fandmygi ftt
urned
int
ohat e

Thi
sisi
nter
est
ing.

Mzwakhe
Mymoneyiswhatmostpeopl
eareaft
er.Idon't
wantt
oputanydoubtonmyteam,ial
sodon'twant
t
osweatifVukanii
saf
termet
hanheisaf t
erthe
money.

Me:Thabi
sokhonaint
oeyenzeka,
engenzaef
una
ukungi
bonangi
wil
e
Thabi
so:Idon'
trememberwhatexactl
yhappenedi
don'
tknowwhogavehimt hatr
oute,yousweati
ng
Me:Iam MzwakheBhenguidon'
tsweatt
heonl
y
t
hinghewantsist
hemoney

Peoplej
ustwanttohatemefornoreasoniam t
he
bestatwhatidoandtheycan'
thandl
ethat
.

Thabiso:Sayi
sebenzel
akanzimalempi
loangekenj
e
kufi
keushlamaezothathakonke,
okungokwethu
aneverngabuyauSdisoimbala
Me:Yazinngi
funayonkint
oiwel
engakuphi
ndi
le
ngaphandl
ekokuthikwazii
nomaubani
Thabi
so:Yabonakemanj
euyakhul
uma
Me:Ngenkat
hiesegadl
asi
wudl
alel
omdl
alowakhe
esel
aphezul
uengichomel
a
Thabi
so:Wakhe
Me:IshayenoLi
ndokuhl
eni
thol
ezonkei
zint
o
zemama

Wecheer
s.

Phi
ndi
le

Zobuhle:Imetthi
spowerfulevilhealerhetookme
i
nandt rainedmetodotheunt hinkable.Il
earned
howt obondandcontrolani
mal s,createthi
ngs.I
bondedwi thasnakeandaleopar dijustloved
thoseanimals

Excusemebutwhoint
hei
rri
ghtmi
ndwoul
dlove
dangerousani
mal
s.
Zobuhle:Idon'
tknowwhytil
lthi
sdayist
il
ldon'
t
know.OnedayMambaandibumpedi ntoeach
other
,heactedli
kehedidn'
tknowme.Igotso
angryicamet othi
spl
ace

Me:Thef
iel
ds
Zobuhl
e:Thi
siswher
edeepevi
lexi
st

I
twasnotsof
oggyandcol
dli
kei
tisi
nmydr
eams.

Zobuhle:Myhealerandist
ayedher
eicr
eatedten
creat
ures,andcursedt
hemanilovedwi
thallmy
hearti
ntoasnake.AbigblackMamba

Me:Li
kehi
sname

Zobuhl
e:That
'swheniknewiwasdanger
oust
o
humanexi stence,i
tgotwor seididal otofthings.I
cursedthemenoft hisfamilytobeunf ait
hful,t
o
thei
rlovedones.Iwant edever ywifethatcomest o
sufferf
rom thepainandmi seryiwentt hr
ough, but
youcanchangeal lofthat.Youcanmaket hings
ri
ghtandpr eventallofthatfrom happening,every
secretofminei shiddenineachandever yoneof
thoseboys

Thi
swasallt
oomuchf ormetotakein.Thi
squeen
i
stell
ingme,
itwi
llgetwor
sebef
oreitevenget
s
bet
ter
.

Mzwakhe
Iam notsurei fishouldtellSakhi
leaboutthi
s,but
thanagainhemi ghtgetmadandwef i
ghtallover
again.Ical
ledt hem overjusttochil
limustmake
theenemyt hinkiam pl anningsomething.

Ndu:I
mamael
ikho
Me:Li
yekubo

Hepout
stheyl
augh.

Nka:Khul
umasnawane
Me:Eyskhul
u
Nka:Mmm
Me:Ihaveaj
obf
oryouandi
tpays
Nka:Makunemal
icountmei
n

TheopensNonhl
eenterswi
ththeworld'sl
argest
shoppi
ngbagsever
.IseeAyandarubbinghis
for
ehead,
shemusthavespentafort
une.

Me:Andt
han
Nonhl
e:It
houghtishoul
dcomf
ortmysel
fwi
tha
l
it
tl
eshoppi
ng
Shesoundsemot
ional
.

Me:Wozakumi
nawenzeni
Nonhl
e:Hej
ustshout
edatmef ornor
easoniwas
goi
ngtodoi
tbuthewental
lrahhhonme

Heget
supandcomest
otheki
tchen.

Ayanda:Ididn'
tmeantosnapitwasuncal
ledf
or.
Ngiyaxol
isangempel
asthandwasam
Nonhl
e:Youwer
ereal
lymean
Ayanda:Iknowmyl
oveiknowandiam sor
ry
Nonhl
e:Canyouhel
pmewi
tht
hebags
Ayanda:Ofcoursekhonaongi
phat
hel
ekona.
.
Obufi
saukungiphathel
akona

Welaughahmantheygoi
ngt ogoalongway.
Sakhi
lel
ooksatmeidon'
tnecessar
il
yneedhi
s
appr
oval
,butineedhi
mtotr
ustt
hatt
hiswil
lwor
k.
Henodsiguessthati
shi
swayofagr
eeing.

Phi
ndi
le
Wenowi nt
hebl
ackri
ver,
iwasdressedupina
whi
tefl
owyshor
tski
rtandawhit
ecroptop.Myhair
wasdoi
ngthemostil
ookedl
ikeapuregoddess.

Zobuhle:Yourbiggestni
ghtmar ei
spear lt
hequeen
ofthecreatures,
youcan'tki
lleachothernomatter
whatyouguysdo.Youal socan'tcoexistint
he
samepl acetogether
,howyoudi eishiddeninone
oftheboysandhowshedi esisalsohiddeninone
oftheboys

Imakemywayi
ntot
her
iver
.

Zobuhl
e:Yourlovef
orhimi stheonlyt
hingthat
prot
ect
shim andtheotherladiesf
rom dyi
ng.He
needst
oconfesshisloveforyouandwecanf ul
l
y
connectyouwi
tht
hesnake.

Igeti
nthewat
er.

Zobuhl e:Iam sorrymychil

df orputt
ingyouthr
ough
thi
s.Iknowyouwi l
ldoagreatjobast i
megoeson
thepeopl ef r
om theri
verwi
llbeyourguides,
they
willexplaineverydetai
lwat
choutf ortheMsomi's
theirprideandpossessioni
st hatboy.Yourf
uture
withhisf atherwil
lbeshownt oyou,andyoucan
decidef rom ther
ewhatyourdesires.Rememberto
alwayspr ay

Shesmil
esandwavesgoodbye,isi
nkindeep
under
neat
hther
iver
.Iseethesnakecoming
towar
dsme.

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.
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Phi
ndi
le
Iwasstandingoutsi
dedri
nkingcoff
eestari
ng
ahead.Ihadalotonmymi ndeverythi
ngthathas
beenhappeninginmylif
e,hadbeenpreparati
onfor
whatiam yettodo.Isi
ghhowwasievenwor thyof
thi
s.

Mxol
isi
:Beaut
if
ulneh
Me:Thebestt
rul
yamagni
fi
centvi
ew
Mxol
isi
:Tel
lmeabouti
t
Me:Rememberwheniwentbl
indt
hanl
ostmy
hear
ingai
dandmymobili
ty
Mxol
isi
:Pl
easedon'
tremi
ndme

Acoupleofyear sagoonedayiwokeupandiwas
bl
ind,t
hatlastedforquitesometime.Aftert
hati
l
ostmyhear ingaid,formonthsicouldn'
ttal
kor
hearanyt
hingandf inall
yilostmylegs.Igotupand
downiwent
.

Itwasat ryi
ngtimef ormyf amil
yandNonhl e.Mom
thoughtnomansomet hi
ngwaswr ong,itcan'tbe
everyti
meihealsomet hi
ngel seat
tacksme.We
wenttochur chtheygavemeabat h,nothi
ngs
powerfulandst r
ongl i
keblessedholywater.
Abafundisi(Pastor
)confir
mediam car r
yinga
blessi
ngandacur seofagi ft
.

Ididn'
tunderst
andanythi
ngideci
dedtoacceptt
he
gi
ft.Icoul
dn'tt
akethepai
nandsuffer
inganymore,
nowihavet ofi
ghtandundoallt
heevilt
hingsgr
eat
grandmadid.

Mzwakhe
Itur
ntoanemptybedsi deisigh.Ivigorouslyget
upandheadt ot
hebathroom, imisshert err
iblyand
i
tisdri
vingmecrazy.Shewoul dhavet akenover
thewholebedwit
hhersmal lbody,theot herlegthat
si
deandtheot
heronanothersi
de.Ismileoh
Phi
ndi
lemyphoneri
ngsthathadbetterbeher.

Me:Whatdoyouwant
Si
we:Hihowar
eyoudoi
ngiam goodt
hanks.
.Iwas
wonder
ingi
fwecoul
dmeet
Me:Iwi
llseewhaticando
Si
we:Okaybye

Thesecondiputi
tdowni
tri
ngsagai
n.

Me:Yo
Si
hle:Youbeenscar
ce
Me:Canihel
pyou
Si
hle:Canwemeet
Me:Sur
e
Si
hle:Wi
llyouori
Me:Iwi
llt
extyou
Si
hle:Okaybye

Whydoievenhaveaphonei fsheisnotgoi
ngto
cal
lme,iputi
tdownt akemyclot
hesoff.Ani
ce
col
dshowerwillhel
pmer el
ax.

Phi
ndi
le
Ihavet
ogobackbeforehecomesgunsbl
azi
ng,
bei
ngmaddisr
espectf
ulandcausepr
obl
ems.

Me:Iknow
Mxo:What
Me:Iknowwhatihavet
odowit
hthi
sgi
ftandwhyi
hadtofal
linl
ovewit
hMzwakhe
Mxol
isi
:Youri
nlovehee

Hel
aughs.
Me:Umndeniwakhei wonaongini
kel
esi
pho,mele
ngiyolungisaumonakaloowenzi
wauKhokhowabo
(Hisfamilyistheonewhoblessedmewit
hthisgi
ft,
ihavet oundoal lt
hedamagethei
rgr
eat
grandmot herdid)

Mxol
isi
:Nowyougoi
ngbackt
ohi
m
Me:Wehaveanagr
eement
Mxol
isi
:Iwonderwhatl
ovepot
ionhef
edyou
Me:Whyyoubei
ngmean

Isendt
hem at
extmessaget
heyneedt
ofet
chme.

Me:Howar
eyoudoi
nghowar
etheboys
Mxoli
si:Youknowiam proudofmyboyidon't
knowwhosest r
engthheinher
it
ed,heishappyand
verymuchawar eofwhathappenedtohi
m
Me:Andt
hecust
odybat
tl
e
Mxoli
si:Iam meeti
ngupwit
hLi
ndokuhl
ehef
or
sur
esai dthatwomanisgoi
ngt
olose
Me:Thatwoman

Il
augh.

Mxol
isi
:Myki
dsPhi
ndi
leayungaf
a

Al
lMjneededwassomel
oveandsuppor
t.

Mzwakhe
Myphonehasbeenr
ingi
ngnonst
opt
hem hoesar
e
cal
li
ng.

Me:Whydi
dyouboysski
pschool
Mvel
o:Wedi
dn'
t
Heshout
s.

Me:Yabongobaumemezakanj
ewenakhanda
khul
u
Mvel
o:Ngempel
amal
ume
Mj
:Iykol
ebezi
phumaear
ly
Me:Youicanbel
ieveyourbr
other
Mvel
o:That
'snotf
air

Il
augh.

Thabi
so:Hel
loboysMxol
isi
Mj
:Yebo
Me:Wemustst artf
ixi
ngherpl
aceofwor
kit
sour
f
aultshegotcaughtinit
Mjl
ooksatme.

Thabi
so:Okaywhatyougoi
ngt
odoaboutm

Icuthi
m of
f.

Me:Whatdowehaveher
e
Thabi
so:Theboysar
ecomi
ngoverit
hinki
tst
ime
theymeether
Me:Youknowt hatneverworksoutuPhi
ndi
le
engabashayabonkelabafana

Wel aughhehasgonebackt owhathewasdoi ng,

thankGodf ort
hislovel
ygif
t,i
thasfal
lenuponthe
li
tt
leguyandhej ustwarnedmei magi
nethisi
swhy
idon'twantPhindi
leusi
ngit.

Phi
ndi
le
Iam backandi
tisabr
awlupi
nher
e.

Ndu:Ohnkosiyaminangul
oyomunt
u
Mzwakhe:Hai
bondodazi
thi
ni

Theyf
ightonwhoi
sgoi
ngt
ogett
omef
ir
st.

Mzwakhe:Ndumi
somf
ethuyi
ni

Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Hambauyekuyena

Il
ookovert
otheki
tchenandMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe:Icanexpl
aini
tsnotwhati
tlooksl
ikei
pr
omise
Me:Hawuidi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing
Sakhi
le:Mommy

Iwaveatt
hem andheadupst
air
s.

Me:AyMzwakhe

Heki
ssesmeal
lover
.

Me:I
maphel
a
Mzwakhe:Awusabuyinganihehe

Weki
ss.

Sakhi
le
Ndu:Ayangi
khol
wanamanj
e
Me:Khol
waskhul
uakayi
ndawo
Li
ndokuhl
eent
ers.

Thabi
so:Awungi
phakel
i
Nonhl
e:Ngobani
Thabi
so:Awnj
engemamal
alayi
khaya

Shegrabsapl
ateanddi
shesoutf
orhi
m,hel
ooks
atAyandawel
augh.

Ayanda:Ayngobaubhut
iomdal
asot
hini
Si
hle:Soguysni
njanangi
sanaziubanil
oya
Thabi
so:Ngi
yabongamommyi
ntombikaMzwakhe

Shel
ooksshockedt
hanl
aughs.

Si
hle:Wowineededt
hat
Me:Justbecauseyousl
eepwithhi
m doesnot
meanhedoesn'thaveagir
lf
ri
endokayyeahdon'
t
t
hinkbecauseweknow
Thobani
:Sakhi
le
Me:Noshemust
n'tt
hinkshe'
sal
lthatj
ustbecause
Thobani
:Ouch

Theycomedownshehaschanged.

Nonhl
e:Mommy

Thisbeaut
if
ulchocol
atedarkbeaut
ycomesdown
arethosemysweatsshe'sweari
ng.

Phi
ndi
le:Youl
ookexhaust
ed
Mzwakhe:Ubani
kewenaangi
kwazi
Thandeka:Yousawmeandyoudeni
edhi
m aonce
i
nal i
fet
imeopport
uni
ty
Hel
aughs,
myhear
tbr
eaks.

Mzwakhe:OkaymamauBusil
oshei
spar
tofwhati
havegoi
ngon
Phi
ndi
le:Ni
cemeet
ingyou
Busi
:Yourbeaut
if
ul
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyouyout
oo
Mzwakhe:Busit
hisi
smygi
rl
fr
iendPhi
ndi
le
Busi
:Ahshe'
ssobeaut
if
uliwi
shicoul
djusteather
Mzwakhe:Car
efulnow

Theyl
augh.Theyt
akethei
rdr
inksandf
oodand
headoutt
othebal
cony.

Li
nda:Younotgoi
ngt
oint
roduceher
Mzwakhe:Ngi
zengi
mazi
senj
euwubani
Ol
wet
hu:Si
hlet
hel
adi
esar
eout
side
Thabi
so:Ayangi
funi
Ol
wet
hu:HawuNgcol
osi
Thabi
so:Ayay
Ol
wet
hu:Thabi
so.
.Thankyou

Shegetsupandt
akesherwal
kofshame.Nobody
i
sgoingtocomebet
weenMzwakheandPhindil
e,
nobody.
[
06/
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16] :116

Sakhi
le
Phindi
lechasedever
yoneout .Mzwakhewasover
themoon, i
twasgreatbuttheyareahandf ul
.I
understandMzwakhewantingtotransfer
everyt
hingtoPhi
ndil
e,butidon'tt
hinkCarson
woulddoobviousl
ywehavet okeepthisunder
wraps.Ihopeheknowswhathei sdoing.
Me:Somommy
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm
Me:Awungi
bikel
eudabamayel
ananal
elibesi
ghei
d
Phi
ndi
le:Uhm okayhol
donl
etmegetmyl
apt
op

Shegoesup.
..Thancomesbackdownwi
thher
l
aptop.

Phindil
e:Okaysot hi
sismycat al
ogihadal otof
thi
ngs.Thesear emysupplier
sandt hisiswhatthey
chargeme, overhereiswhateveryt
hingcostso
basical
ly.Iwouldneedami l
lortwoort hree,
becauseidon'tknowt oext
entofdamagedone

Mzwakhe:Nxi

Phindi
le:SoIdon'
tknowifyourgoi
ngtobeableto
gettheexactsamethi
ngs.Changeisgoodbuti
workedsodamnhar dtobuil
dmyempi re
Me:Don'
tworrywenamommygi
vemet
woweeks
andever
ythi
ngwil
lbesor
ted
Phi
ndi
le:Forr
eal
Me:Kant
iuj
olanobani
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm iwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hatal
ot
Nonhl
e:Heybabes
Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone
Them:Heyhandsome

Theyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Domi
ndi
fwegooutt
oday
Phi
ndi
le:Youwantt
odosomet
hing
Nonhl
e:Imeanki
nda
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Mzwakhe:I
zangaph
Okayt
heygoi
ngt
obangeachot
her
.

Phi
ndi
le
Thatquickiedidnott urni
ntoaquickiehegr oans.
Hepullsoutl eavingtheti
pin,hestr
okeshi sd*ck
vi
gorously.Itfeelssogoodhepushesbacki nand
comest omyl i
ps.Pleasurehassurpassedidon' t
knowwhatt hisfeel
ingis,
hedoesn'twantt ostopi
don'
twanthi mtost op.Hepoundshar derandf ast
er

Me:AaahhMzwakhe

Ourmoansandgr
oansfi
llupther
oom, heholdson
t
ightmywai
standadeepgroanescapefrom hi
s
mouth.

Hefal
lsonmeandgent
lypul
lsout.Hepi
cksmeup
weheadtot
hebat
hroom.Wehittheshower
.
Me:Wej
usthadsex
Mzwakhe:Soiwantyouagai
n

Hepinsmeagainstthecol
dti
llwall
,helif
tsmyl eg
upputt
ingi
toverhisshoul
der
.Weki ss,hebrushes
hi
sti
pupanddownigasp.Hesl owlyenters.

Me:Aaahh.
..Baby

Sakhi
le
Theycomedownlooki
ngr
atherdappert
he
beaut
if
ulcoupl
e.

Me:Her etakethi
s.Ifyoupresst
hisi
twi
llr
ingon
me,ifyoupr esst
hisoneizokhal
akuThobanii
fyou
everintrouble
Nonhl
e:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tknow
Me:Wegoi
ngt
othegent
snow
Nonhl
e:Shoul
dwest
il
lgoout
Phi
ndi
le:Letmesi
tdownal
i
ttl
ebi
t
Nonhl
e:Youguysbet
tergobef
oreshest
opsyou

Mzwakhegivesherakissandweleave.Soonaft
er
wearr
iveatthewarehouse,i
twasami st
ake
r
ecr
uit
ingsomanypeopl elooknow.Theytryi
ngt
o
t
akehim down.

Me:Thobaniwat
chyourphone
Thobani
:Moj
a
Me:Iam sur
eyouwonderwhyyouguysher
e
Ndu:Ni
zosbhedel
a
Mzwakhe:Iam t
aki
ngovert
hewhol
eoper
ati
onnow
Me:Eyni
yabonani
nani
yizi
njayezwani
yangi
casul
a
Iseear
eddotonMel
usi
,Mzwakhej
umpsupt
hey
godown.

Me:Getdowngetdown

Manjeshotsarebeingf i
red,
wefir
ingtheyfir
ingt
oo.
Ihearsoundsofhissingiam cr
awling,idon'
tsee
them ican'
tseeanything.

Me:Fuck

Af
terawhi
let
heshoot
ingst
ops.

"
Sakhi
le"

Oht
hankgoodnesshei
sal
ive.

Mzwakhe:Ni
kephi
sever
yoneokay
Theyal
lrespond.

Mzwakhe:Thobani
..
.Thobani
Me:Thobani
Mzwakhe:Thobanimf
ethudon'
tdot
his

"
Overher
eguyshel
pme"

Vukani
Iwasdoingyogaifiguredithel
pscalm myner ves
andanger.Soonihavet oputal
lmyener gyin
crashi
ngMzwakhe, iam goingt
oneedt oremai n
calmitseemsthosepictur
esdidn'
trat
tl
ehi m.Hei s
planni
ngsomethingbigihavetohaveabackup
planforwhat
ever.

Myphoner
ings.
Me:Nj
omane
Melusi
:Areyoucr
azyareyou.Youcoul
dhaveat
l
eastwait
edformetoleavebef
oreyoublew
ever
yonetosmit
hereens
Me:What
everdoyoumean
Mel
usi
:Ar
eyouhi
ghyoual
mostki
ll
edme
Me:Mel
usiukhul
umangani
Melusi
:Thehi
tyouor
derhej
umpedi
nfr
ontofmei
al
mostdied

Andi
le.

Me:Iwi
llcal
lyouback
Mel
usi
:Vukani

Ihungupipul
lmygunoutandcocki
t.
Me:Looknowt
hisf
oolj
ustmademeangr
y

Phi
ndi
le
Thist
hingofMzwakhetaki
ngt oolonglookwhat
happenednow.Theyent
erwi t
hawoundedThobani
andplacehi
m onthecouch,istr
addlehim.

Me:Youi
diot
Thobani
:Phi
ndi
le

Ispr
inkl
ether
iverwat
eronmyhand.

Me:Pleasehol
dhi
m iam goi
ngt
otouchyouand
yourbodywil
lgoi
nsane

Ipl
acemyhandont
hewoundedpar
thescr
eamsi
n
agony.
Thobani
:Mzwakhemsuse

Theypinhi
m downmyhandcomesbackwit
h
somethi
ngsli
my,igetofhi
m.That
owor
ksonhi
m
fast
.

Me:Phuzal
a
Thobani
:Yi
nil
e
Thabi
so:PhuzaThobani

Mzwakhe'
svei
nhaspoppedonhi
ssi
de.

Thabi
so:Whathappened
Me:Asnakebi
thi
m het
ri
edt
oactgangst
erandgot
i
t
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Hegoesupst
air
s.
Vukani
Ithoughtaboutgoinggunsblazi
ngandall
,however
nahi am notworr
ied.Thebestwaytoannoyyour
enemyi stojustl
ethimthi
nkheiswinni
ng.

Mel
usi
:Real
lyVukanir
eal
ly
Me:Ohcal
m downyouai
n'tdead
Mel
usi
:Why
Me:Youdon'
tdeadsoenough
Mel
usi
:Whathappened
Me:Don'
twor
ryabouti
t
Mel
usi
:Mzwakhedi
dit
Me:Nothi
sst
yle
Mel
usi
:Thanwho
Me:Themaf
ia
Mel
usi
:Andi
le
Me:Hewant
edt
owor
kwi
thmei
ntaki
ngMzwakhe
down
Mel
usi
:Letmeguessyour
efused
Me:Idon'
twor
kwit
hamateursokayi
fyougoi
ngt
o
t
akeMzwakhedownlookhi
mi nthef
ace
Mel
usi
:Ij
ustwantal
loft
hist
obeoveranddone
wi
th

I
twi
lll
it
tl
ebr
otheri
twi
llsoon.
[
06/
06,
15:
16] :117

Sakhi
le
Theyaccident
allypressedthesoundsyst em but
ton
andwehear d,howmyboywasr eall
ygivingto
Phindi
le.Mzwakhei sgoingtomur derusall,
Thobanicomest hroughihelphim sitdown.

Thobani
:Skhul
u
Me:Don'
tdon'
tdot
hatmanever
Thabi
so:Howyouf
eel
ingnow
Thobani
:Iwi
lll
ive

Ihaveneverseenhi
minpai
nli
ket
hatial
mostf
elti
t.

Thobani
:Yi
ninenzeni
Me:Theypressedt
hewrongbutt
onandsounds
f
rom upst
air
sblast
edt
hroughthewhol
ehouse
Thobani
:St
opit
houghtyal
lwer
ewat
chi
ng
Me:No
Thobani
:Hei
sgoi
ngt
oki
llyou
Me:Manwhathappenedt
oyou
Thobani
:Idon'tknowit
ri
ppedithoughtt
heywer
e
i
nsidenextt
hingiam bei
ngbit
tenbyasnake

Iwhi
stl
e.
Mzwakhe
Iam soangr yri
ghtnowican'tbeli
evethey
disrespectedmeli
kethi
sandmygi rl
fr
iend.
Invasionofmypr i
vacyl
ikethatpi
ssedt hefuckof
.It
j
ustwentdownandwest opped,webeenl ayi
ngin
bedqui etl
y.

Me:Canyout
ell
mewhathappenedyest
erday
Phindi
le:Ionlysaywhatiam supposedt
osayot
her
thi
ngsisr eal
lynotmybusiness

Inod.

Phi
ndi
le:Whaticansayi
syoudon'
treal
lyneedme

Igetupandopenthebedsi
dedr
awert
aki
ngoutt
he
tr
ansferpaper
s.
Me:Ineedyout
osi
gnt
hispl
ease
Phi
ndi
le:Whati
sthi
s
Me:Iam movi
ngever
ythi
ngiownt
oyourname
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm i
mpr
essi
ve
Me:Ial
soneedyourdocument
s
Phindi
le:Howareyougoingtomakesur
etheydon'
t
seeyout r
ansf
err
edeverythi
ngi
ntomyname
Me:That
swhyineedyout
osi
gnt
hesepaper
s
Phi
ndi
le:Iwoul
dhavet
ogot
hrought
hem f
ir
st
Me:Don'
tyout
rustme
Phi
ndi
le:Youcoul
dbet
rappi
ngort
yingmei
nto
somet
hing
Me:Sojustsi
gnt
hedamnpaper
sandgi
vei
tto
Li
ndokuhl
e
Phi
ndi
le:Whyar
eyoubei
ngl
iket
his
Me:Phi
ndi
lej
ustsi
gnt
hedamnt
hing
Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
llhavemyl
awyerchecki
tthansi
gni
t
Me:Youknowwhatf
inewhat
ever

It
aket
hepaper
sawayfrom herandt
eart
hem,
i
gr
abmyphoneandl
eave.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Me:Notnow

Sakhi
le
Yeahheispissedoffandhewentt
ooffl
oadon
someoneelse.Phi
ndil
ewascleani
ngThobani
'
s
wouldi
nthecloseeyeofThato.

Thobani
:Ungangi
bul
alif
uth
Phi
ndi
le:Iam maki
ngsur
eal
lthevenom comesout
sot
hatyoudon'tdi
e

Shegr
abst
hecupt
handunksi
tint
hebasi
nand
comesoutwi
thwater
.Shepour
sont hewoundpar
t,
hecl
oseshi
seyesandti
ghtl
yholdsherhand.

Me:St
ayst
rongbr
oit
sal
mostover
Thobani
:Mmm damngi
rl
Phi
ndi
le:Youcanl
etgonow
Thobani
:Ohsor
ry
Thabiso:Youokaywantmetogetyouanyt
hing,
whateveriti
syounameitiwi
lldoi
t
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tneedyout
odoanyt
hing
Thabi
so:Butii
nsi
st
Phi
ndi
le:Iam f
ineThabi
so

Noshe'
snotsheleansbackont
hecouchand
cl
oseshereyes.

Thabi
so:Ngconokubei
minayaboOl
wet
hunoma
si
ngahlukana
Ol
wet
hu:Usahl
ulwayi
mihowmuchmor
eyena
Thabi
so:Angi
funiukuf
ami
naOl
wet
hu

Shel
ooksathi
m.

Thabi
so:Ngi
yaxol
isasengi
thul
e

Shegoesbackt
osl
eep.

Me:Kant
iskhul
uyi
nil
engaka
Thabi
so:Cel
anazingi
hlul
ekengi
zami
le

Me:Awnkabzi
n..Bat
hiniohayi
khoi
fl
opshar
p
Thobani
:Li
thi
nil
eloqol
a
Me:I
lahl
ebaba(Stol
encar
s)mommysi
yahambake
manj
euberightneh
Idancet
oabeatonl
yicanhear
.

Me:Younotcomi
ng
Thabi
so:Yal
lgoiam goi
ngt
ost
ayher
e

Okaythat
'sst
rangeheneverstaysbehi
nd,
heget
s
evenangr
yifwehavenopl an.

Vukani
Carsoncametoseemecanever
yonejustwai
tand
seemybi gf
inal
ewhati
swrongnow.

Car
son:Doesmom knowyouout
Me:Noiwantt
osur
pri
seheronceigott
hemoney
Car
son:Whenyoupl
anondoi
ngt
hings

It
akeofmygl
assesandl
ookathi
m.
Me:Thatsgoi
ngt
obeaver
ydanger
ousmoveon
yourend
Car
son:Idon'tcarether
e'snotmuchyoucandot
o
methatihaven'tseen
Me:Wowmt
anoml
unguMzwakhet
aughtyouwel
l
Carson:Shutupyouhoeheismovingt
hemoney
youdumbbr atinhi
sgir
lf
ri
endsname
Me:What
Car
son:Yeahcar
ryonwi
thyourzenvuksher
e

Heget
supandl
eavebuthowdammi
t.

Me:Iknewishoul
dhavebeent
wel
vest
epsahead
ofhi
m

Ilookatmyphonei thi
nkaboutcal
li
ngAndi
le,
but
thatfoolwi
llj
ustdr
agthingsout
.
Me:Yeahlet
smeetupwegotsomei
mpor
tant
t
hingstodo

Phi
ndi
le
Iprepari
ngdi
nnerl
asagnaandsomewings, whi
lei
seeMzwakheenjoyi
ngthemoment.Idon'twantto
bedistur
bedsoever
yoneherei
sdoingtheirown
thi
ng

"
Arghmansweet
hear
t"
"
Awukahl
eSi
zwe"

Dotheynotgett
hememoijustwantt
obelef
tal
one.
Thabi
socomestocheckonmeiignor
ehi
m.

Thabi
so:Phi
ndi
ler
eal
lyi
fther
eisanyt
hing
Ipoi
ntt
hekni
feathi
m.

Me:Justl
eavemeal
oneokaypl
ease
Thabi
so:Youknowwehavet
o
Li
ndo:Thabi
soi
fthi
sisgoi
ngt
obeapr
obl
em we
canmakeyoufor
get

Ijustwantt
obel
eftal
onei
sthatt
oomucht
oask
for.
[
06/
06,
15:
16] :118

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupfrom whatf
eelsli
keadeepdeepsleep.I
getupfr
om thecouchandsteponsomethi
ng, il
ook
downhesleepi
ngont hefl
oorwi
thanemptybot t
le
onhishand.

Me:Mzwakhe.
.Mzwakhegetup
Heshoot
shi
seyesopenandgr
oans.

Me:Getupwhyyousl
eepi
ngont
hef
loor
Mzwakhe:Idid..
.Idi
dn'
twantt owakeyouupand
thanyoukil
lmef ormessingup.Iam underalotof
pressur
e,t
hisidi
otgothimselfl
ockedupandt han
blamingmeforsomethingididn'
tdo.Idon'tknow
whathappened

I
shecr
ying.

Mzwakhe:Inevermyf
ami
lyneverput
sanyonei
n
har
msway
Me:Nozii
snotThobani
'
schi
ld
Mzwakhe:Iwantt
ounder
standr
eal
lywhyt
hisman
i
saft
erme
Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Car
soni
shi
shal
fbr
other

Hekissesmeifididn'
tknowthetr
uthiprobabl
y
wouldhavewalkedout.Butt
hatgr
eatgrandmother
needsme.

Sakhi
le
Iwentovert
oLindani
'spl
aceofbusi
nesssi
nce
Mzwakhesaidheistaki
ngover
,moreworkforme.

Li
nda:Awi
zinj
amadoda
Me:Mf
ethuyaziuMzwakhe
Li
nda:Wel
l

Wel
augh.
Li
nda:Ani
shongoukut
humommyuzosi
za
Me:Loshl
amal
ouf
lopi
lef
uth
Li
nda:Yenzanii
wakhemanj
esowenzani
pho
Me:Wej
usthavet
odoi
tour
sel
ves
Li
nda:Wedon'
thavethatki
ndofmanpowert
hey
st
ari
ngathi
m andtaki
nghim down

WithPhindi
lewehavesomekindofadvant
ageour
enemieswon'tevenseeuscomi
ng.Iknowits
wrongbutshe'sprovent
obeonoursideand
makingsurewedodgesomanybul l
ets.

Me:Mzwakhedoesn'
twantanywher
eneart
hiswe
wi
llf
indawayoutbel
ieveme

Idon'
tsoundconvi
nci
nghel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Thabi
socomest
omewi
thf
lower
sandchocol
ate,
i
l
augh.

Me:Forme
Thabi
so:Ther
e'smor
ewher
ethatcamef
rom
Me:Wi
thoutadoubt

Hehandsmesomepaper
s.

Thabi
so:Don'
tmi
ndt
hishoehehasneverbeeni
n
l
ovebefor
eorbei
narelat
ionshi
pokay
Me:Ohhubbyt
hesear
eusel
essnow
Mzwakhe:Mamangi
xol
isi
lenj
enamanj
e
ngi
saxol
isa
Me:Whatiam sayi
ngyouhaditandyoul
eti
tsl
ip
awayheknowswhatyourtr
yingtodo
Mzwakhe:How
SethuandThobanimakethei
rway,t
heli
tt
legi
rl
runstoMzwakhehepicksherupandswingsher
.I
l
ookathim.

Mzwakhe:Heypumpki
nhowar
eyoudoi
ng

Iwonderwhati
tiski
dsj
ustador
ehi
m.

Mzwakhe
Myhear ti
sheavyican'timaginewhatt hiswi l
ldot
o
myboy.I norderf
ormet obel i
evethi
sineedt odoa
DNAt est,
notsayi
ngidon' tbeli
evePhindile.But
thesearesomeser i
oushect i
caccusationsnowi
seewhySet huwasami st
akeandt hebaby.

Thobani
:Mzwakhedon'
tbegi
vingmychi
ld
chocol
atenow

Ishowhi
m myhandandl
aughwi
thNozi
.Myphone
r
ings.

Me:Hi
Sakhi
le:Soever
ythi
ngher
esof
ari
sgoodnowiam
headi
ngoverto
Me:Ineedyout
ost
opwhatyoudoi
ngandcome
back
Sakhi
le:What
Me:Weneedt
ofi
gur
eoutawayoutoft
his
Sakhi
le:Wee
Me:Buyaskhul
u
Sakhi
le:Youf
ixedt
hingswi
thPhi
ndi
le
Me:Notent
ir
elybutyeahwet
alki
ng
Sakhi
le:Okayiam onmyway
Me:Moj
a

Il
ookatThobani
.
Phindi
le:Hibabeoht
hat
'sagr
eati
deaahwhyay
rat
odoyouknowwhatshesaidtome

Shel
aughs.

Phindi
le:It
sf i
newecanmeetupidon' tknow
Nonhledoesn' thaveti
mef ormeitsal
labout
Ayandat hesedays..Okaymyl ovenowedon' t
,
al
ri
ghtiwi llt
ellthel
adiesbye

Ineedmyext
ermi
nat
ors.

Phi
ndi
le
Ineededthiswhileiam par
ti
all
yunempl oyed.I
l
iter
all
ynothingtodo,betweensati
sfyi
ngMzwakhe,
theancestorsandmyselfit
sgoingtobemadhect i
c
forme.Idon'tknowhowiam goi ngtobeabl et
o
handlethi
s,butiam notweakandiwi l
laccomplish
t
his.

Nonhl
e:SiyabongaweRat
ophel
asekut
hiwa
angi
naskhatbisamunt
u
Ol
wet
hu:Nonhl
euhl
eziungekho
Me:Webar
elyseeyouwhatyoumean

Shebl
ushes.

Sihl
e:Sont
ombiyaMzwakheyazi
angi
khol
wa
namanje

Rato:Youknowicall
edusherebecauseThobani'
s
bir
thdayi
scomi ngupri
ghtit
houghtwhynot
combineitwit
hmyhusband'sbi
rthdayandhavethe
ti
meofourl i
ves.Set
humaybeyouandicanpl anit

Set
hu:That
'sagr
eati
deaact
ual
ly
Si
hle:Whendi
dyoust
artdat
ing
Me:Youget
ti
ngsomewher
ewi
tht
his
Si
hle:Noij
ustwantt
oknowar
eyoupassi
ngbyor
Rat
o:Thosewer
emythought
sinthebegi
nningbut
movi
ngonwhatdoyouthi
nkaboutthi
sweekend
Me:OkaySihlespi
titoutsaywhatyouhavet
osay
l
ayitonthetabl
e,youwanttobespicyri
ght
Si
hle:Aychaangi
dal
iimpi

Shebi
tesherl
owerl
ip.

Nonhl
e:Youshoul
dwi
pet
hatsmi
rkofyourf
ace
Ol
wet
hu:Whyyouaski
ngaboutt
hei
rrel
ati
onshi
p
Si
hle:I
tsf
asci
nat
ingt
heMzwakheiknowi
s

TheMzwakhesheknowsitsbeenawhi
lesi
ncei
sl
appedsomeone,
bri
ngitSihl
e.
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06/
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17] :119
Mzwakhe
Iwasgi vi
nghimthedownl owineedt obelevel
mindedanddr unk,okaymaybenotdrunkbuthe
musthaveagl assofsomethingi
nhi shand.Aft
er
breakfastwechil
ledinmyroom l
ateronihavea
meet i
ng.

Sakhil
e:Ohmyican'
tbel
ieveiam i
nabedyoudo
nastythi
ngsi
n
Me:Shutup

Hel
aughs.

Sakhi
le:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
of*
**me
Me:Ni
ceandsl
owyourwi
lldi
sappear
Sakhi
le:Don'
thur
tmenow
Me:Okayal
readyweknowl
ahl
auml
enzeand
Melusiarebrot
her
s,mybabyconf
ir
medthat.Okay
her
eist heahamomentCarsoni
sthei
rhal
fbrother
Sakhi
le:Shutt
hef
rontdoor
Me:Iam ent
eri
ngandiam doi
ngt
het
husophal
a
Sakhi
le:Hedoesn'
thavel
if
taf
inger
Me:Onebut
ton
Sakhi
le:Themoneyi
shi
s
Me:Okaynowiam goi
ngt
ofuckyouf
orandhur
t
yousobad
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Nozi
busi
soi
snotThobani
'
schi
ld

Hegetsupandl
eavesi
fPhi
ndi
lesaysi
tit
sgott
obe
t
rue.

Sakhi
le
Iam bl
ownallt
hewaytothegraveMzwakhedid
notj
usttel
lmethi
sno,
ilookatthem pl
ayi
nghappy
famil
ydot heyr
eal
izet
hesear
esomedamagi
ng
accusat
ions.

Me:Uhm Thobani
Thobani
:Skhul
u
Me:Willyoubeabl
etocomeungat
hisi
kushi
ya
ngaphandle
Thobani
:Iam act
ual
lyi
npai
n
Mzwakhe:Doweneedt
otakeyout
othehospi
tal
Thobani
:Idon'
tknow
Phi
ndil
e:St
ophavi
ngsexandyouwi
llhealj
ust
per
fect
ly

Hel
aughs.

Me:Wenaayuyi
ngozingi
yakusaba
Phi
ndil
e:Angi
thngangi
funaukungi
sizewena
wabukauMzwakhe
Me:Ayngekeuyi
ngozimt
akaGumedeuyi
ngozi
Phi
ndi
le:Whatyoupl
anondoi
ng
Me:Hl
ampesi
ngazwanami
nanawe
Phi
ndil
e:Puthi
m onal
eashf
ort
hreedayst
hanwe
cantal
k
Me:Awkhul
ulekamommy
Mzwakhe:Ngi
cel
aul
ulamengi
yakudi
ngakul
espani

Thi
sisgoi
ngt
ori
phi
shear
tout
.

Mzwakhe
Ithinkicanbehavef ormorethanthr
eedays.I
honestlydon'tknowwhatiam goingtodoCar son
holdsallthecards,hecaneit
herbetr
ayhi
sbr other
ormeihavet otalktomyboys.

Busi
:Li
ndanist
op
Li
nda:Awmommy
Ikeeptheladi
esoutofthi
sasmuchasicanbut
todayineededtot
alktothem.

Me:WeSi hl
eyinileobuyenzanomaobuzama
ukuyenzangeskhathini
nedhi
lil
enu(
Sihl
ewhatdi
d
youdoorwast ryi
ngt odowhenyouwereoutwit
h
theladi
es)

Si
hle:Iwasj
ustaski
ngher

Me:Ubuzaubuzaninoyaziungaphendul i
.Lal
ela
mamai ntombiyamimasei kushayangeke
ngiyivi
mbe, ngi
zobengiseduzekwayongenze
i
siqiniseki
sosokuthuyakubhaxa.Uyakubhaxi
sisa
fut
h, ucabangiuzogi
ji
mauvul eumlomowakho
unekei zi
ndabazamiucabangeukut hkhonainto
ezowenzeka

Sakhi
le:Uzonya
Me:Howdumbcanyoube

Theyl
augh.

Me:Noser
iousl
yar
eyout
hatst
upi
d
Sakhi
le:Okayset
tl
edownl
etsgetbackt
obusi
ness
Me:Car
sonineedyoutoholdonal
it
tl
ebi
tther
e's
onemoreandthatyoucan

Henodsdammi thei
ssowhiteyoucan'
ttel
lifhe
l
ooksexact
lyl
ikeMelusi
orVukani
.Myphoner ings.

Me:Youmi
ssmeal
ready

"
It
smeweatt
hehospi
tal
"
Me:I
niokayiam comi
ng.
.Let
sgo
Sakhi
le:What
Me:AsambeSakhi
le

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'
tknowwhathappenedi t
sasifmystomach
wasexplodi
ng,i
twasi nknot
sandiwas
exper
ienci
ngexcruci
ati
ngpaininmylower
abdomen.

"
Tsekungi
jwayel
akabiut
hikwenzekeni
"

Hevi
gor
ousl
yent
ersandr
unst
omysi
de.

Mzwakhe:Mama

Ihol
dhi
shand.
Mzwakhe:I
tsokayiam her
e..
.Phamandl
a
Phamandl
a:Sor
ryi
tooksol
ongi
tsbusyt
hesedays

Mzwakhehel
psmet
osi
tup.

Phamandl
a:Di
dyouor
deranyt
hingat
akeawayor
somet
hing
Me:YeahNonhleandior
derafewt
akeaways,
iat
e
aburgerandt
henthi
shappen
Phamandl
a:Okayt
her
e'si
snowayt
osayt
hisyou
werepr
egnant

Mzwakhel
ooksatme.

Phamandla:Weneedtogetyoutosurger
ynowand
fl
ushoutsomemor eofwhatyouconsumed

Pr
egnanthowwasipr
egnantandidi
dn'
t
exper
iencei
tatal
l.

Mzwakhe:Phamandl
a
Phamandla:NotnowMzwakheher
eisa
pr
escr
ipt
iongof et
chi
tandwait

Icl
osemyeyesandat
eardr
opsdown.
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17] :120

Mzwakhe
Ijustdon'
tunderstandwhyorhowt hishappened,
thatshiti
sdangerous.Apowderthatsl owlyeats
yourorgans,weputat r
ackingchi
pini tthatchi
p
showsever yoneyourwhereabout
s.Ifyourpar t
ner
doesn'tmarkyouthebesthitmanwitht akeherout.

Sakhi
le:She'
sokaybr
o
Me:Man
Sakhi
le:Di
ehar
dumommy
Me:I
yasebenzabaf
oiyasebenza
Sakhi
le:Lal
elal
alel
a

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Kuyochi
thekai
gazimchana
Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:Asambesi
yoml
andake

Phi
ndi
le
Howam iget
ti
ngpregnantandthenextdayiam
havi
ngamiscar
ri
age.Thabisowasbesideme,
Mzwakhewasonhiswayt ofet
chme.

Thabi
so:Don'
twor
ryyouwi
llbef
ine
Me:Ihadadream l
astnightisawmybabyhesai
d
mommyi twasn'
tti
mef ormeyet
Thabi
so:I
sitbecauseofwhatyouar
e
Me:Idon'
tknowidon'twanttocryyallmustal
so
cl
eansemet hesear
etwomi scar
riagesnow

Hehol
dsmyhand.

"
Stophol
dingmygi
rl
fr
iendshand"

Hel
et'
sgo.

Mzwakhe:Andiwasdoubt
ingmysel
fthebi
g
act
ual
lyworks

Hehugsmeihol
dont
ohi
m al
it
tl
elonger
.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
leyougoi
ngt
omakemecr
y
Me:Iam sor
ry
Mzwakhe:Don'
tapol
ogi
ze

Heki
ssesme.

Mzwakhe:Your
eady

Hehel
psmeupandhel
psmesi
tont
hewheel
chai
r,
ohmybaby.

Vukani
Irecei
veat estmessageiopenitwhywassheat
thehospital
,ical
lMelusihet
akeshissweett
ime
answering.

Mel
usi
:Vukani
Me:Whyi
sthegi
rl
fr
iendf
rom t
hehospi
tal
Mel
usi
:Whatgi
rl
fr
iendnow
Me:Mzwakhe'
sgi
rl
fr
iend
Mel
usi
:Oh
Me:Nkokhul
umawena
Mel
usi
:It
ooki
tuponmysel
ftogi
vehert
her

Ipi
nchmynose.

Me:Yougavehert
her
Mel
usi
:Yes
Me:Ashonel
omunt
ungi
zoqedangaweMel
usi
uyangi
zwa
Mel
usi
:Hawu
Me:Ngizokubul
alanxiucelweubaniyi
niubei
sdomi
.
Yi
niungacabangiyaziuzokubul
alauMzwakhe

Ihungup.

Me:NumzanOwen
Carson:Hesayshegotonemor
ejobt
odot
hani
cancashin
Me:Okayso
Car
son:Yousai
dyouwantt
hemoney

Iwantmor
ethanj
ustt
hemoney.

Mzwakhe
Wear r
ivehomePhi ndi
ledoesn'
tcryman.She
doesn'
tshowanyemot i
onshej ustactssost
rong,
evenmyhoe- i
shwaysdon' taf
fecther.Sheal
ways
hasherb*tchrest
ingfaceallt
het i
meyoucan'tread
her.

Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Me:Yeah
Thabi
so:Wemustgohome
Me:Yi
nimanj
e
Thabiso:Sheneedst
obecl
eansedi
tshersecond
miscarri
age

Il
ookathi
m andmymi
ndst
art
str
ail
ingback.

Thabi
so:Nonodon'
tevent
hinkl
iket
hatsheat
e
somethi
ngsaphuma
Me:Bhut
i
Thabi
so:ChaMzwakhe
Me:She'
snotdyi
ngwhati
fthesepr
egnanci
esar
e
Thabiso:Nookayandyoudaregosleepout
uzongithol
akahl
e,awusukeeduzekwamihamba,
hambaMzwakheungangi casul
i

Isi
tnextt
ohershecuddl
esme.

Phi
ndi
le:OhyeahMzwakheBhengu
Me:Mommy
Iki
ssherf
orehead.

Sakhi
le:Somommy
Phi
ndi
le:Canwegetsomepr
ivacy

Sakhi
le
Whydoweneedsomepr
ivacy.

Phi
ndi
le:Yousur
eyouwantt
odot
his
Me:Mommy
Phi
ndi
le:Okay
Me:Wai
thowf
ir
st

Sheshowsmeherwr i
stshereyeschange,
wind
bl
owsthroughherhai
r.
Me:Phi
ndi
leno
Phi
ndi
le:HiSakhi
le
Me:Ist
hiswhyThabi
soi
ssoandyouknowohmy
God.OhmanMzwakheofal
lpeopl
eno

Thi
sisadi
sast
er.

Phindi
le:Hehadtheper
fectoppor
tuni
tyandhel
eti
t
sl
ipforsleepi
ngwit
hSihl
e
Me:Okaysowhatam igoi
ngt
odo

Awhi t
esnakesl
it
her
stoherandcoi
lsupnextt
o
her,
iholdmyhead.I
tcomestomeandslowly
wrapsuparoundme.

Phi
ndi
le:Spr
eadyourar
msout
Me:No
Phi
ndi
le:Sakhi
le
Me:Mommynowhati
sthi
sfor
Phi
ndi
le:Youbondi
ngwi
tht
hesnake
Me:Ohhellnoareyoubondi
ngmewi
thsome
snakeokayokay
Phi
ndi
le:Rel
ax
Me:Kodwamommy
Phi
ndi
le:Sakhi
le
Me:Canit
akeashotf
ir
st

Ispreadmyarmsoutitwr
apsal
lovermybodyand
restontopofmyhead.

Phi
ndi
le:Openyoureyes

Idosheturnsint
oabigbadbl
acksnake,
she
comesandwr apsar
oundmeandthesnake
cover
ingus.
Iopenmyeyesandbeaut
if
uldoesnotevenexpl
ain
whatsbef
oreme.

Phindi
le:Al
lyouhavetodoisacceptwhat
everyou
seeandiwilltel
lyout
herest
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Phi
ndi
le
Ofcour seMzwakhef ail
edtokeephi
swor dheleft
,
afterarestl
essni ghtheneededtogocoolofin
someone' svagina.Whydi dthi
smandenyhi s
childr
en,looknowhei sasnakeandhisgreat
grandchil
drenar ewor sethenhi
m.Lerat
ofaceti
me
megi rli
sf i
re.

Me:Wenzangani
Rato:Goodd*ck,
li
steni
ng,
keepi
ngqui
etand
spendingt
hatmoney
Wel
augh.

Me:I
fwasamaniwoul
dst
ealyouf
rom Nkanyi
so

"
Thankgoodnessyounot
"

Nonhl
e:Hmm kodwar
ato
Rat
o:Igotsomewine,champagneever
ythi
ngcome
onoverandchi
llbr
ingyourbi
kini
s
Nonhl
e:Can'
tsaynot
othat
Me:Iwi
llspeakt
oMzwakhef
ir
st

Theyal
llookatme.

Rat
o:Okayl
etmeknowwhathesays
Me:Okaybyeboo.
.Nangi
bukakwenzenjanhave
yal
lfor
got
tensomeoneoutt
her
ewantingtokil
lme
Sakhi
le
Icannotbel
ieveorexpl
ainwhatj
usthappenedt
o
me,al
liknowigotthissi
ckasstat
tooonmywr i
st.

Thabi
so:Skhul
ukonkekul
ungi
le
Me:Ngiyathembaangekekufi
keekutheni
si
phunyukelweil
entol
e(Ihopeitdoesn'
tgett
oa
poi
ntofloosingher
)
Thabi
so:Mxm ukuphimanj
eakabonwa(
Wher
eis
henow,nowheretobefound)

Phindi
lei
sgem andtof
indoutshei
sthequeen
takesi
ttoanot
herl
evel
.Mzwakhewil
lregretthi
s
sincewecan'
tknowwhosheisunti
lshefeelsin
l
ove.

Me:Mamani
ngal
ungangi
zoni
hambi
sami
na
Phi
ndi
le:Yousur
e
Me:Mommy
Thabi
so:Okaygi
vei
ttome
Me:Iwasatthi
sbeauti
fulplacewi
ththemost
beaut
if
ulbl
ackshinyri
veryohThabiso.Thepeace
andharmonyofthatpl
aceunbeli
evable
Thabiso:Andt
hati
thingi
boneni
ce.
.Hai
bomana
that
'sthefami
lybi
rt
hmark
Me:Iam t
hequeenyoiam t
hequeen

Wel
augh.

Thabiso:AwwenakadewabaowakwaBhenguayl
o
Ndlovuongamazinokumazi

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Iar
ri
vehomeandheadst
rai
ghtt
omyr
oom.I
haven'
tent
eredt
hishouseeversi
nce,thewomani
wassupposedtomar r
ydiedSamkel
isiwe.Myf i
rst
tr
ueloveil
ovedthatgi
rlwit
hmywhol eheart
,thani
messedthi
ngsupwi t
hPearl.

Samkelisi
we'
sdeathwasunbel ievabl
enoone
knowswhathappened, herfamilybl
amedmeandi
waslefthear
tbroken.Fastfor
war dever
ygi
rli
att
emptedbeinginar el
ati
onshipwithdi
edonmy
bir
thdate.

Ivowedt oneverloveagainandjustbeapur e
f*ckboy.Theycalledmet hevaginaslayertoprot
ect
them, noonedi edaftermakingthatdeci
sion.Than
Phindilecamear oundohiwasgr aspedbyher
beautyi ndoniyamanzi.Ican'
tloveherbecause
whati fshediesandiam l ef
twithasadbr oken
heart.

Ifeelbadfort
reat
inghert
hiswayiwi shicanopen
up,butigott
ensoscaredthatanyt
hingisaymight
wor
kagai
nstme.

"
Hel
loi
sther
eanybodyher
e"

Iheaddownst
air
s.

Her
:Thi
syourhouse
Me:Mybrother
sandfami
lyl
iveher
eit
sthef
ir
st
t
imeiam comingher
e

Shesmilessoonihavet
oendthi
ngsandprot
ect
her
,thangoandbreaksomebodyel
se'
sheart
.

Me:Come

Phi
ndi
le
Wearri
veatler
atohouseaboutahundr
edcars
accompanyi
ngus,wit
habunchofbigbuffangr
y
man.

Rat
o:Hai
boandt
hanwhat
swi
tht
hemi
li
tar
ybasei
n
myhouse

Wel
augh,
shehugsus.

Me:I
nkanankanababes
Rato:Notedcomeinsi
dewegoi
ngt
ochangeand
headtothepool.
.Ohokay

Wecamewel
lpr
epar
ed.

Me:Idon'
trememberyouswi
mmi
ng
Nonhl
e:Whenyouhaveamanli
keAyanda,
you
shoul
dknowhowtoswim ot
her
wiseyouwi
lldr
own

Shesaysdi
vingi
n.
Ol
wet
hu:Youguysar
erough
Me:Kahl
eOlwethuwenanendodayakho
ngi
yat
handaukuzi
gugi
sa
Olwet
hu:Ineverhadt
hisluxur
yitwast
akecar
eof
Thabi
so,t
akecareoftheboys
Me:Underst
andabl
ysobutyougottost
opl
ivi
ngin
thegol
dendaysandfocusonthenow.Wewant
babi
es

Shel
aughs.

Rat
o:Youl
adi
eshungr
y
Me:Ngat
hungangi
phai
nyamakuphel
e

Sakhi
le
Ikeptcal
li
nghim andhi
sphonegoesstr
aightto
voicemai
l.Mzwakhemanyouhavedisappoint
ed
me,phindi
leisever
ythi
ngandmorewhyishedoi
ng
t
his.Theli
ftopensSindi
swaandLi
ndokuhl
eent
er.

Si
ndi
:Hel
loever
yone
Me:Wi
fey
Thabi
so:Howdi
ditgo
Li
ndo:Iwont
hecase

Wewhi
stl
e.

Thabi
so:OwakwaBhenguwenahuh
Li
ndo:Mxol
isihasf
ullcustodyofhissons.Lizeka
get
sonceaweekendever ymont hvisi
tat
ionright
s,
unt
ilt
heyol
denought omaket heirowndecisions
Me:Whataboutschoolandwhat
Lindo:Phindi
leandMzwakhear ethei
rguardians,
thedivorceprocesswi
llbef
inali
zedaftert
hree
mont hs.Yeahwehadtouset hosesensiti
vephotos
Thabi
so:Iam pr
oudofyou
Lindo:Ngi
yabongabhut
iandcongr
atul
ati
onst
oyou
tooihearyouasnakenow

What
.

Phi
ndi
le
Myf acewasonf i
rewewer ereall
yhavingagood
ti
me, igetupandheadt othekitchen.Igr
aba
kit
chent owell
eratowi
llj
usthavet oforgi
veme.I
wetitthanringi
toutandpl aceitonmyf ace,
thani
feelhandsonmyass.

Me:Excuseyouwhatyout
hinkyoudoi
ng
Hi
m:Comeoniknowyouwantt
o
Me:Noidon'
t

It
ryt
opasshi
m hebl
ocksme,
itur
nar
oundhe
grabsmyhairiscr
eam.Het
hanbangsmyheadon
thecount
er.

"
Whatt
hef
uck"

That
sthel
astt
hingihearbef
oreipassout
.
[
06/
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Vukani
Idon'
tknowwhatweedmybr ot
herissmoki
ngright
now.Heisallovert
heplacemakingmist
akesover
someuselessgrudge.

Mel
usi
:Iwasonl
yhel
ping
Me:Ucel
weubaniMelusiuf
unangempela
i
ntombazaneyabant
uengahlangenei
bul
awe
ungaj
abul
awenayonkeleyontoife
Hel
ooksdown.

Me:Nodon'tlookdownshewaspr egnantandyou
fedhert
hepowder ,
t hankGodt heyhavedoct or
s
whoarefastontheirfeet.Youclearl
ydon'tknow
anyt
hingabouttaki
ngt hatmanon

Heget
supandl
eavesisi
ghihopehemar
ksher
.

Mzwakhe
Ihadtorushbackhomeandshehadt ogotowor
k.
Ican'
tbeli
evethesepeopletheyknowshei
sin
danger
,yettheysti
llsendherout.

Me:Benikuphiyenzekal
ent
oNkanyisouvumel
a
kanj
anabantubangenekwakho,eskhal
eni
bazohl
asela

Theykeepqui
et.
Me:Nat
hul
angi
khul
umanani

Nonhl
e:I
tsnott
hatbadcome

Il
ookup, idon'
tknowwhatcrackthoseMhl
ongo
boysaresmoking,butt
hiswartheyhavest
art
ed
won'tendwell.

Phi
ndi
le:I
khandael
i
ngi
phet
hekodwa
Nonhl
e:Whydi
dyouf
ightback

Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le:Iwalkedawaywhenicoul
dhavedone
somet
hingrealbad
Me:Whymustyoual
waysdef
ymePhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:Iwasgoi
ngt
oaskyou,
theyl
ookedatme
Sakhi
le
Me:Ujol
anoSakhi
lewenauyenaokut
shel
aukut
h
wenzeni
Phi
ndi
le:Theyl
ookedatmeSakhi
lesai
dwecango
Me:Bukaukut
hunj
anmanj
e

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Heyyeahcani cal
lyoulateriam inthemiddl
e
ofsomethi
ngnoyeaht hankyou...Ningij
wayel
akabi
ni
naaningazikahl
e,Nonhlef
akai ycathul
osambe

Sakhi
le
Wearriveinthemi ddl
eofnowher ehei
snotgoing
tobul
lshitusandt hi
nkwescar edofhi
m,al
though
somethingdiffer
entabouthim.Themenwere
hangi
ngt iedtothebranches.
Mzwakhe:Yel
lowbone

AhNonhleisgoingtoexper
ienceaj
awdr
oppi
ng
moment.Igiveheraphone.

Mzwakhe:DVDi yal
aphosweet
heartngi
funa,
unganyakazii
bonakal
ekahl
eangi
thiuyangit
hol
a

Heturnsaroundshenodsandholdsthephoneup.
Ayandastandsbehi
ndher,hol
dinghert
ight
.

Mzwakhe:Whosentyou

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:If
orgotyoucan'
ttal
k

Hepr
essest
hedet
onat
erbut
tonpoofhi
sbody
expl
odes.Nonhlefl
inchandalmostdropst
he
phone,
theotheronef ai
ntedwhi
lest
il
lhangi
ng.

Mzwakhe:Eyyazini
nesbi
ndiseni
khohli
we
ngempel
aukuthngiwubani
.Nkanyisoobanil
aba
Nka:SomedudesMel
usibr
oughtar
oundt
heypar
t
ofateam
Mzwakhe:Angi
hambingisebenzanezi
hlamamina.
Hmm youthoughtyouweretoughhuhyoubanging
peopl
eyoudon'tknowontables

Hisbodyexplodesokayithoughtiwastoughbut
thi
sisdisgust
ing,Nonhlei
sshakinghedancesand
dancesandblowsupt hel
astguy.Ayandatakest
he
phone,savesthevideoandhandsitbacktome.

Mzwakhe:Wel
comet
othef
ami
lymar
kher

Phi
ndi
le
Thatwasahar dknocki
timpair
edmyvi si
onali
ttl
e
bit
.Ihadnoideathatwasgoingtohappen,myhead
i
sbangingirunoutofmywat ersuppl
y.Ihavet
ogo
totheri
verorLi
ndoorSindi
swahavet ofet
chme
some.

Thabi
so:Ther
eyougo
Me:Thankyou

Hehandsmeagl
assofwat
erandsomepai
nki
ll
ers.

Thabi
so:Doyouwantanyt
hing
Me:Ineedt
ogo
Thabi
so:Okay
Me:Home
Thabi
so:It
hinkweshoul
dwai
tforMzwakhet
o
comeback
Me:Myheadi
ski
ll
ingme
Thabi
so:Wai
thomeasi
n
Me:It
hinkiam goi
ngt
oli
edown

Il
aydowni
tdoesn'
ttakesecondsf
ormet
opass
out
.

Mzwakhe
Wehadt ostopaf ewti
mesNonhlegotsi ckand
thr
ewupacoupl eoftimes.Wepassedbyt hemall
andgr abbedsomel emonandsalt,webackhome
nowbabyi ssl
eepingonthecouchlikeadead
person.Thabisonexttoheriam f
aili
ngto
understandthissuddenheisteam Phindi
leallt
he
way.

Icr
ouchdownandst areather
.Li
ndokuhl
ecomes
wit
hSakhil
e,iheardhewonthecaseiam sopr
oud
ofhi
m.Her unshiswri
stdownherface,
shewakes
upgaspi
ng.
Li
ndo:Ther
eyougo
Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou

Shegul
psdownt
heent
ir
egl
assofwat
er.

Li
ndo:Howdoyouf
eel
now
Phi
ndi
le:I
tsnotgoi
ngaway

Okaynotcomingbackmayhavebeenamistake
andal
sonotlett
ingherknowwher
eiam at
.

Sakhi
le:Wemommybat
hil
abami
nangi
yinyoka

Shel
aughswhendi
dSakhi
legetat
att
oo.Igetup
andheadup.

Phi
ndi
le
Whyam ibeingpunishedf orsomethinghedid,
am i
notall
owedtobeangr y.Iam supposedt omake
sureidon'
trepeatt
hesamemi stakesgreat
grandmotherdi
d,bei
ngangr yisoneoft hem.

Me:Nol etmetel
lyouhowi tsgoingtowork.You
notasnakehoweverhedoesl iveinyouandyou
l
ivei
nhi m.Whateveryoudohef eelsi
tand
whateverhedoesyouf eel
it

Sakhi
le:Ever
ythi
ng
Me:Ever
ythi
ngsoi
fyoubumpi
ngandgr
indi
nghe
wi
llf
eeli
tto
Sakhi
le:Wow
Me:OkaySakhi
lewhoeverisl
oyalyouar
egoi
ngt
o
seet
hatbi
rthmarkonthem
Sakhi
le:Exact
lyl
iket
his
Me:Youseethesnakei
swrappedaround
umkhont
o(spear
/tri
dent
)andifnot
Sakhi
le:Ngekei
vel
e(I
twon'
tshow)
Me:I
zovel
akodwai
zohl
ukana
Thabi
so:Yi
ndabi
zohl
ukana

Me:Izohlukanangobaabathembeki
leizobonwa
uwenakuphel aonce.Kodwakenayolei si
ngabuye
i
hlukanekulabaabathembekil
e(I
tsgoingto
separat
ebecauset heynott
rustwort
hy,youarethe
onlyonewhoi sgoingtoseeonce.Butitcansti
ll
separat
eont hosewhoar etr
ustwort
hy)

Sakhi
le:Yowowt
hisshi
tiscr
azy,
atl
eastwewi
ll
knowwhatwedeal
ingwit
h
Thabi
so:It
hinkwewoul
dn'
tfunct
ionwi
thouther
Sakhi
le:Butf
orhowlongpcaniaskwhati
sgoi
ng
tohappenift
hingsdon'
twor
kout
Me:Wel
lyoudon'
tneedt
oknowt
hat

Igetupandheadupst
air
s.
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06/
06,
15:
17] :123

Phi
ndi
le
Idosedofreal
lygooditryopeni
ngmyeyesthey
hurt
.Ihavetopeelucki
lyiknowmywayaroundthi
s
room,igetupheholdsme.

Mzwakhe:Uyaphi
Me:Sorr
ymyeyeshur
tij
ustwant
edt
ouset
he
bat
hroom

Hepicksmeupbri
dalst
yleiwrapmyhandsar
ound
hi
sneck.Hepul
lsmynightdressupt
hanmypanty
down.

Mzwakhe:Chamake

Isi
tdown,
iletgooft
hel
ongestpeeofmyl
if
e.Af
ter
thelastdr
opifeelmysel
fbei
ngwipedi
sn'
thej
ust
.
Afterwashi
ngmyhandshel if
tsmeupagai
nand
gentlypl
acesontopofthebed.

Mzwakhe:Iam sor
ryiam sor
ryyougothur
tandi
wasn'
tther
etoprotectyou
Me:Thankyou
Mzwakhe:Iam sor
ryiwasn'
t
Me:St
op
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:YaziMzwakhemaseungasangi f
unicela
ungi
tshele,
ungangenzii
sli
maungadl al
ingami.
Ungangibukiemehl
weniungikhohl
ise

Hesi
ghs.

Mzwakhe:Doyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
Me:Yespl
ease
Nonhl
e
Aft
ersuf
fer
ingfrom yester
daytrauma.Ayanda
deci
dedtot
akemeout ,haveyouwi t
nessedabody
bl
owingupallt
heiri
nsidesandor gansblowi
ngup.
Whodoesthatineededt obefarawayf r
om
Mzwakhe.

Me:Wher
ewegoi
ng
Ayanda:Somewher
epeacef
ul
Okay:Yousur
ethi
sisagoodi
dea
Ayanda:Babyr
elax
Me:Okay

Hepul
lsupatsomepar
kandst
epsoutoft
hecar
.

Ayanda:YaziwenanoPhindi
lenamabhi
nciwai
tfor
aniggert
oopent hedoor
Me:Iam sor
ry

Het
akesmyhandweheadt
oapi
cni
csetup.

Me:Ayandai
sthi
sforme
Ayanda:Yeah
Me:Ncooohsother
eisasof
tmushyper
son
under
neat
hallt
his,
youj
usthavet
odi
gitout
.Don'
t
rui
nthemoment

Hel
aughsandsi
tsdownisi
tinbet
weenhi
slegs.

Ayanda:Shoul
dwet
alkt
haneatoreatwhi
let
alki
ng
Me:Let
'
stal
kfi
rst
Ayanda:Youknowiloveyour
ightandiam cr
azy
aboutyou,t
hefi
rstt
imeisawyouiknewihadt o
makeyoumi ne
Me:Iam gl
adyoudi
dther
e'spl
ent
yoff
ishi
nthe
sea
Ayanda:Canyoul
etmef
ini
shpl
ease
Me:Sor
ry

Ibl
ush.

Ayanda:Iwantyout oknownomat t
erwhat
happenst ous, meoryou.Westaytruet oourselves
l
etsnotst artacti
ngbett
erthant
heot her,iwantyou
tocelebratemej ustasmuchasido.Knowyour
worthcheckmewhenist ar
tact
ingaf ool,ngi
funa
ukhululekeukuthuphethemina

Me:Idon'
thavet
orespondt
othatr
ight
Ayanda:Nowwhoi
srui
ningt
hemoment

Igi
ggl
e.
Ayanda:For
givemef
orwhatiam aboutt
odo

Heinj
ect
ssomet
hingsopai
nfulonmyar
mi
scr
eam.

Me:Whatt
hehel
lwast
hat
Ayanda:Rel
axnowi
tdoneiam sor
ry

Heblowsai
ronmyar
m andki
ssesi
t.Thatwasnot
cool
.

Ayanda:Ngi
yakut
handayezwa

Sakhi
le
Iknowhei
scomi
ngtomewi
thsomebul
lshi
tandi
am goi
ngt
oli
kei
t.

Mzwakhe:Skhul
u
Me:Bat
hini
Mzwakhe:It
hinkiwantt
oendt
hingswi
thPhi
ndi
le

Lor
dhavemer
cyuponus.

Mzwakhe:Maniam j
ustnotf
eel
ingi
tanymor
e
Me:How
Mzwakhe:Ibeenmessi
ngwi
tht
hischi
ck
Me:MzwakheBhengumanwhy
Mzwakhe:AymanPhindi
leuf
unaukuncengwayo
uhl
eziul
okheumnaki
le
Me:Okayt
ellhert
hat
Mzwakhe:Nahbr
oiam t
ir
edact
ual
ly

Ican'
ttel
lhi
m shei
sthequeen.

Me:Mzwakhedon'
tmakeami
stakebasedonwhat
youfeel
ingr
ightnowwhati
ftwomont
hsf
rom,
you
regr
etit
Mzwakhe:Iwon'
t
Me:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Iwi
llwai
tfort
her
ightmoment
Me:Skhul
umf
ethudon'
tdot
hisngi
yakucel
a
Mzwakhe:Yeah

Heget
supmyphoner
ings.

Me:Yeah
That
o:Yourr
esul
tsar
eher
e
Me:Okaykeept
hem f
orme

Voi
ce:Leti
tgoyesiam i
nyourheadSi
zwei
smy
name
Me:Ican'
tjustl
eti
tgo
Voice:Wewillcr
osst
hatbri
dgewhenwegett her
e,
i
fyouhechoosest ol
eti
tgot hani
tseveryone'
s
faul
t.Youcannotfor
celoveandwecertainl
ycan
notforcet
his

Isi
gh.

Vukani
Thedarkbeautywasoutonherownidoubti
t,
somewherethere'
smult
ipl
ebodyguar
dshidi
ngin
planesi
te.

Me:Sawubona

Shel
ooksup.

Me:Cani
Phi
ndi
le:Unl
essyouwantmet
odi
e
Me:Awnkosazaneenhl
enj
engawekanj
enj
ekodwa

Iwon'
tli
eshei
smaki
ngi
thar
dformet
otal
ktoher
.

Me:Sowhati
sagi
rll
ikeyoual
lbyher
sel
f
Phi
ndi
le:Youknowt
het
erm ukushawaumoya
Me:Yazingaj
abul
akanj
anukut
hol
aumunt
uof
ana
nawe
Phi
ndi
le:Kwazibanihl
ampeungabanenhl
anhl
a

Shesaysget
ti
ngupiknewther
ewassomebody
watchi
ngher
,iwat
chthem wal
kof
f.

Phi
ndi
le
It
snotonl yt
hef ort
uneVukaniisafteriam alsothe
pri
ce.Jameswasdr ivingmebackhome, iwas
enjoyi
ngmymeati nt hebackseat
.Myphoner ingsi
l
ookati tandletitr
ing.Jamesphonesr ings.
James:Yeahsheiswithmewecomi ngbackhome
nowokaybye.UthiuMzwakhengekeakuncenge
mawungafuniukuphendul
aif
oni

Inod.Iam notgoi
ngt
ogi
vehimthatsat
isf
act
ion,
if
hewantstoleavemehemustbr
eakupwi t
hmeand
ki
ckmeout .

James:Yi
niungavel
eumt
shel
e
Me:Imustshowmysel
fnotannouncemysel
f
James:Whatwi
llhappeni
fthi
ngsdon'
twor
kout
bet
weenyouto
Me:Ifyouaskingwhatwil
lhappentoyourfami
ly
youcanrel
ax.Andil
eisnotgoingtotaket
hem
not
hingisgoingtohappentothem
James:Idon'
twantt
osoundl
ikeiam bei
ng
i
nconsi
derate
Me:Not
hingwi
llhappent
othem igi
veyoumyl
if
e
ont
hat

Hesi
ghs.

Sakhi
le
YoThobanii
sgoi ngt odiesothatmeansSet huhad
conj
ugalvi
sit
s,fellpregnantandpinnediton
Thobanimyheartdr ops.Butthoseareforlegal
ly
marri
edpeople,
igr abmyphoneandmakeacal l
.

Me:Yeahlist
eniwantyoutofi
ndoutinf
ormati
on,
aboutSi
phosethukhozaandVukaniMhl
ongo.I
needthi
sinformat
ionnownowokayiwillawai
t
yourcal
l

Howdi
dwenotseet
hisoneeywei
nforar
ide.

Mzwakhe:Skhul
u
Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yeahmar
ri
edohmyokaynot
hankyou
Mzwakhe:Ever
ythi
ngokay
Me:EyaVukani

Hewhi
stl
es.

Me:She'
sMr
sMhl
ongo

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Waa
Me:Wi
ldmyni
ggerwi
ldar
eyouexpect
ingaphone
cal
l
Mzwakhe:NoJamesandPhi
ndi
lear
esupposedt
o
beback

Iwonderwhatwi
llhappen.

Mzwakhe:Hai
boi
sthat
Me:Thef
ami
lybi
rt
hmar
k
Mzwakhe:Hai
boyout
hequeen

Ihughi
m.

Me:Fi
nal
lyweuni
tedmyhear
tiscompl
ete

Wel
augh.

Me:Iwi
sh
Mzwakhe:Anyl
uckseei
ngt
hequeen
Me:Youwi
lldi
eMzwakheyouwi
lldi
e
Mzwakhe:I
ghost
Me:Weeshealsosai
dthatthi
swil
lhel
pusseethe
enemywhoeveri
sfai
thf
ul,i
twil
lbel
iket
hist
hose
whoaren'
t
Mzwakhe:Won'
thavei
t
Me:Theywil
lhoweveri
tsgoi
ngtobesepar
atedof
whi
chonlyiam goi
ngtobetheonewho
Mzwakhe:Wedon'
tneedPhi
ndi
let
hequeeni
sther
e
t
ohelpus

Shei
sthequeenyoudummy.
[
06/
06,
15:
17] :124

Vukani
Melusi
:Whatdoyouhavei
nmi
ndt
hatbi
ghead
al
waysgotsomethi
ng

Il
ookathi
m.
Me:Fi
ndguysandt
urnt
hatwhol
epl
acei
ntoabl
aze
Mel
usi
:but
Me:Idon'
tcar
ewhoget
shur
tleavet
hedar
kone
out
Mel
usi
:Youwantt
hatgi
rl

Ir
emai
nqui
et.

Mel
usi
:Andt
het
estr
esul
ts
Me:Ofcour
seSet
huandt
hebaby

WhenisawbabyNozisheki ndofl ookedabi

tl i
ke
mtanomlungu.Carsonl
ooksal otl
ikemom even
t
houghhei swhiteandNozidefini
tel
ylooksl
ike
mom, butican'
tbesureunt
iliknowt heDNAt est
r
esult
s.
Mel
usi
:Imal
i
Me:Uyasabenzanj
euwudokot
elakhi
phawena
i
malihawuungangicasul
i

Hel
aughs.

Me:Nanguumunt
ubo

Phi
ndi
le
Ourint
imat
esidehascomet oapointwhereiam
theonl
yonesatisf
ied.Heenj
oysi
tbuthisbody
mindandsoulisnotinit
,myhear
tbreaks.My
phoneri
ngs.

Me:Hey
Rat
o:Di
dicat
chyouatabadt
ime

Shel
aughs.
Me:Nobabewhat
sup
Rato:Ihavebookedoutt
hewholerest
aurant
,since
youclosertoi
tcanyoujustgoandoverseeafew
thi
ngs
Me:Nopr
obl
em dowehavet
owearsomet
hing
f
ancy
Rat
o:Ont
hepar
tyyouhavet
ocomeone
Me:Okaybye
Mzwakhe:Whoi
sthat
Me:Ler
atoohwehavi
ngal
uncheonf
orThobani
andNkanyi
so
Mzwakhe:Ngol
astmi
nut
e
Me:Wepl
annedt
hisdaysagoandt
hepar
ty
t
omorr
ow
Mzwakhe:Wowokay
Me:Iam goi
ngt
ogetr
eady
Igetup.

Mzwakhe
Theywouldneverf
orgi
vemeformissingtheir
bi
rthdaysandshewil
lbedi
sappoi
ntedificancel
on
her.

Her
:Hey
Me:Hey
Her
:What
swr
ongyoudon'
tsoundokay
Me:Ourpl
ans
Her
:Youcancel
ing
Me:Ihaven'
tbeenhomesoidi
dn'
tknowt
heywer
e
pl
anningsomethi
ng
Her
:Wel lsi
nceyouhaven'
tgi
venmeanyr
easonnot
t
otrustyouiwil
ltakearai
ncheck

Il
augh.
Me:Iwi
llt
ryt
omakei
tthoughandseeyou
Her
:Okayihavet
ogo

Ihungup,Phi
ndi
lecomesoutoft
hebat
hroom t
hat
wasquick.

Phi
ndi
le
Iarri
veatther
estaur
antitl
ookstheysti
llj
ust
prepari
ng.Await
erapproachesmewi t
hasmi l
e.

Wai
ter
:Apol
ogi
esma'
am wear
ecl
osed
Me:Iknow

Themanagercomes.

Manager
:YoumustbePhi
ndi
le
Me:Yes
Manager
:Pl
easecome
Wai
ter
:For
givemema'
am
Me:I
tsokay

Wehaveasi
t.

Manager
:Soidon'
tknowhowweshoul
ddot
hings
Me:Justgivet
hem themenuandt heycanor
der
fr
om i
tdon'tcr
ackyoursel
f.Justmakesuret
he
al
coholkeepscoming

Shesmil
es.Theygi
vemeamenuandil
ook
thr
oughi
tasiwaitf
oral
loft
hem.

Sakhi
le
Whereishegoi
ngnowMzwakhewi
llbet
hedeat
h
ofus.
Nonhl
e:Babepl
easebr
ingt
hepr
esent
s
Me:Uphiumommy
Nonhl
e:Rat
oaskedhert
ogoear
lyandcheckout
t
heplace

Inod.

Voi
ce:Woul
dyoul
iket
oseewher
ehewent

Iwi
llnevergetusedt
othi
s.Ii
nvol
unt
ari
lywal
kout
tot
hebal cony,
ibowmyhead.

"
Ithoughtyousai
dyouwon'
tbecomi
ng"
"
Ihadt
opassbyyouf
ir
st"

Theyki
sswhoi
sthi
sladynow.
Voice:Wecan'tt
rustyouguyst
olookaf
terher
becausewellyal
lwillal
waysst
andbyMzwakhe
Me:Whatwi
llhappenwhent
heysepar
ate
Voi
ce:Expectbadt
hingsandidef
ini
tel
ywi
llnotl
et
yal
lgetawaywitht
his

"
Getoutofhi
smi
ndyoul
it
tl
epr
ick"

Me:Li
ndo
Li
ndo:Youshoul
dnotbet
alki
ngt
othatvoi
ce
Me:Hesai
dhewasSi
zwe
Li
ndo:Oht
hanyoudef
ini
tel
yshoul
dn'
tbet
alki
ngt
o
hi
m
Me:Yourbr
otherhasmovedon
Li
ndo:Sesi
zozwangenkosazanei
ndl
elaeya
phambil
i
Ishakemyhead.

Phi
ndi
le
Final
lyt
heyfi
lluptherest
aur
antiatewit
houtt
hem
andiam ful
l,
theygoingtoki
llmeratoal
waysl
ooks
dropdeadgorgeous.

Rat
o:Aveuphoxa
Me:Howar
etheygoi
ngt
ogether
e
Rat
o:Set
hutheywoul
dknowsomet
hingi
supi
fi
waswit
hthem
Sakhi
le:Mommy

Hehugsme.

Me:Hey
Rato:Seni
laokayokay.
.Ever
ybodymyhusband
andThobaniareonhisway
Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Don'
tleavehi
m

Heenter
sintheni
ckoft
ime,
hewavesatever
yone
andcomestous.

Mzwakhe:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngwi
thmygi
rl
fr
iend
Sakhi
le:Ayl
uthoskhul
u

Sethuwalksinwit
hThobaniandNkanyiso.Nozi
runstoMzwakhe,shoul
ditel
lthem abunchofman
aregoingtoent
erandstar
tshooti
ngeverythi
ng.

Beforeicanevensayanyt
hingiheargunshots.
Mzwakheshovesmet othefloor
,bul
let
scome
fl
yinginfr
om ever
ydir
ecti
onpeoplescreaming.I
seebl
oodal
loverMzwakhewel
ookateach.
[
06/
06,
15:
17] :125

Vukani
Iopenthebr
ownenvel
opeokayNozibusi
soareyou
mybabyornot.Ir
eadt
hroughever
ythi
ngtil
ligett
o
thebot
tom.

Me:99.
9per
cent

Ist
andonmyf
eet
,igr
abmyphone.

Me:Mel
usipi
ckup

Itr
ingsandr
ingsandr
ingst
il
lheanswer
sina
happymood.

Me:Cal
litofMel
usi
Mel
usi
:Todaymybr
otherwehavemadehi
stor
y,
wai
twhat
Me:Cal
litof
f
Mel
usi
:Ayusuyangi
xakakemanj
e
Me:Ar
ghMel
usi

Igrabt
hecarkeysandr
unoutidon'
tevenhavemy
shoeson.

Phi
ndi
le
Thr oughal ltheatt
acksthi
shasbeent heworst,f
ir
e
hassei zedandwear enowdeal i
ngwiththe
aftermat h.IgetupiseeSet hulayingi
nherown
poolofbl ood,Mzwakheget supidon'tknowi fheis
bleedingori tsNozibusi
so'sblood.IhearNonhle
screamst hanpolicesir
ens,somewai ter
saredead.
Thobanisl owlycomeshef all
sonhi sknees,sheis
l
ayi ngflattheredeadeverybodyel sei
sfine.
Voice:Somet
hingsar
ewaybeyondourcont
rol
,we
can'tst
opwhathasal
readybeenwr
it
ten

Hesobs,
hebringshercl
osetohischestandcr
ies
r
ocki
ngbackandf or
ward.If
eelweakandsickt
o
mystomach.

Vukani
Iarri
veatthesceneimadesuretohidemyself
reall
ywell,
twobodybagscomeout .Aladyi
na
stret
cherever
yonehascomet oseewhatis
happening.Myhear ti
sraci
ngt
heBhengu'sandthe
crewmaket heirwayoutonebyone,if
eel
somet hi
ngbeingplacedonmyback.

"Youwongetbacktoyourcarandgosuff
erthe
consequencesofki
ll
ingyourownwi
feandchil
d"

Mywhol
ewor
ldshat
ter
s,it
urnar
oundi
tsSakhi
l
e.
Sakhi
le:HambaVukani

Iwalkawaywi t
htearsinmyeyeshowdareshe
hidethi
sfrom me.Howdaresheletanot
herman
takecareofmychild.

Mzwakhe
Wef indhergul pingdownagl assofwhi skey,
Sakhileopenst hebot t
om cabi netandpul l
souta
bott
leofvodka.Whatj usthappenedNozidyi ngin
myar ms, Sethugone.Nonhl ewoundedont hethi
gh.
Howcoul diletitgettothispoi nt,theyst and
againstthecabi netsandl ookatThobani .Thisisa
tr
agedyt hankGodwemadeoutal ive,ohmyboyi
si
tdownandbr inghimt omychest .Hegr absmy
shir
tandcr ieshowdoyout aker evengeon
someonewhoki ll
edhisf ami l
y, t
hat '
srevenge
enoughf orhim.
"
Mommy"

Rat
o:Comemybabi
esever
ythi
ngi
sokaycome

Idon'
twanthi
mt obei
nject
edhemustf
eelt
hepai
n
andhealf
rom i
t.

Me:Phi
ndi
leuyaph
Phi
ndi
le:Igott
ogosomewher
e
Me:Akuyonaimpiyakhol
enaPhindi
lemawuhamba
yaziukut
hyonki
ntoebesi
nayoi
phumanawe
Phindi
le:Ahmxm ubuvel
eungasangi
funingabe
uyashonje

Sheget
sint
hel
if
t.

Phi
ndi
le
Thi
swasaper
fectmomentf
orhi
m bl
oodybast
ard,
iwenttogotofet
chwaterf
rom t
heri
ver
.Ient
er
Sakhi
le'
sroom il
eavet
heboxonhisbedandanot
e.

Sizwe:Canit
rustonyout
omakeani
nfor
med
decisi
on
Me:Whatf
or
Si
zwe:Wef
oundyouandwecan'
tloseagai
n
Me:Wellt
hanyouhavepl
ent
yoft
imet
ofi
nd
anot
herqueen

IfMzwakhefail
stolovemeorheendst hi
ngswith
me.Ihavetopassont hegi
ftt
otheonehi shear
t
desi
res,andiwil
lbegonefr
om thei
rli
ves.They
won'tevenknowiexist
ednoremembranceofme
whatsoever
.

Si
zwe:Youknowhei
staki
ngt
hemoney
Me:Lethi
m
Si
zwe:Andhef
anci
esyou
Me:Lethi
m atl
eastevent
houghhei
sscaredofme,
hi
sonegoalisgetmeunli
kesomeot
herpeopl
e

Wet
elepor
tbackt
other
iver
.
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06/
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Aweekl
ater

Sakhi
le
Withnoideaast ohowwegoingt
oburySethuand
Nozibusi
so.Legall
ytheMhl
ongohavetoburyt
hem,
butthatwouldrai
sesomanyquesti
ons.

James:I
thi
nii
nto(
what
sthewayf
orwar
d)

Vukanit
ookt heempir
ehesparedusnoti
meand
ki
ckedeveryoneout.Wegotnomoney,nocarsno
not
hing,l
uckilyMzwakhehadt
hekeystoPhindi
le'
s
apart
ment
.Mostofusar
eher
esomear
einJames
house.

James:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:WhatdoyouwantmetodoCar
son
bet
rayedushegaveever
ythi
ngt
ohi
sbrot
her
Thabi
so:Ifyoujustusedyourbrai
nsal
it
tl
ebitand
gotPhi
ndiletosignthosepaper
snoneofthi
swould
behappening
Mzwakhe:OngiyekengoPhi ndil
e,uqaleninifut
h
ukumthanda.Ebengakusongelezololokhu( Youcan
missmewi thPhindi
le,andsincewhendoyoul ove
her.Wasn'
tshethreateni
ngyounotsol ongago)

Ifeeliti
nmyheartt
hatshei
sgoi
ngt
ocome
throughforus.

James:Gowanmannobabi l
ingizoni
shayanihl
elil
a
anazinozowenzenj
an.Akuyonaindl
ukaPhindil
ele
ngobaukhulumakakhul
uwenakhandakhul u,wena
angazii
ngqondoyakhoi
buyei
sebenzekanj
an

Shecomesthr
oughl
impi
ngAyandawant
stodi
e
ri
ghtnow.

Me:Mommy
Nonhl
e:Iam f
ineguyst
hemosti
mpor
tantt
hingi
madeitoutal
ive
Mzwakhe:Uphiumnganiwakho
Nonhl
e:Ul
a
Me:Whatdoyoumean
Nonhl
e:She'
sher
eal
lyouneedt
odoi
scal
lher
name
Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le.
.Whatshesai
dcal
lhername
Me:Real
lyman

Vukani
Nowt
hatihavecont
roloverever
ythi
ngMzwakhe
owns,noteveryt
hing.Idon'
tknowwher
ethegi
rli
s,
buti
tsti
met heyknowwhoiam.

Mel
usi
:Vukani
Me:I
tsprobabl
ygoodshe'
sdeaduyi
fi
hlakanj
an
i
nganeyami
Mel
usi
:Idon'
tknowhowidi
dn'
tsee
Me:Uyagulaekhandauyi
sli
maubuzobonakanj
an
Melusishutup

Hesi
ghs.

Me:Hambauyof unal
eyant
ombazaneungal
okhe
ungi
bangel
aiscefe

Whereist
hisdamngir
lwhatgoodisthi
spar
adi
sei
f
ican'
tenj
oyitwi
thher
.If
li
pthetabl
e.
Mel
usi
:It
sokayi
tsokay
Me:Iki
ll
edmychi
ld
Mel
usi
:It
sokay

Phi
ndi
le
Iaskedt hem t
oshowmet hegir
lthathast akenhis
heartbecausewellicoul
dn'
tseeher.Alliknowi s
thathewashappyandver ymuchal i
ve,ofcour se
theyrefused.

Me:Idon'
tunder
standwhyihavet
ofi
xthi
ngs
Sizwe:Li
steni
fhedoesn'
tappr
eci
ateyoureffor
ts
andfeelsl
ikei
tstool
atet
hanyoucanleave.Don't
actli
keyoudon'tl
ovehi
m youl
ovehim,infactyou
crazyabouthi
m

Twosnakescomeoutoft
hewat
erandt
ransf
orm
i
ntohuman.
Sizwe:Haveyoumetmybr
other
sthi
sisLungel
o
andLungani

If
orseeal
otoft
winsi
nthi
sfami
ly.

Them:Nkosazane
Si
zwe:Gobacki
nthei
randt
akebackt
hemoney

Idon'
twantt
odothat,hepull
smet owar
dst
heri
ver
.
Idon'
twantt
ogoitrygett
inghishandofmi
ne,
he
useshi
spowerst
otrickme.

Iopenmyeyesiam i
nmybedr
oom.

Sakhi
le
Wear r
iveatsomehi
llabunchofmanar
eti
edand
bagged.
Me:Mommy

Shet
urnsar
ound.

Li
nda:Wenauf
anel
weukubhej
wast
rong

Wel
ookathi
m hel
aughs.

Li
nda:Ngi
gcwel
engawe

Mzwakhest
andsbesideherandcarr
yonwal ki
ng.
Hegoesandremovesthebagsoverthei
rheadsone
byone.

Li
nda:Mt
anoml
ungu
That
o:Mel
usiwee
Theylaugh.Iknewshewasgoi
ngt
ocomet
hrough
forus.

Vukani
:Whatyougoi
ngt
oki
l
lusnow

Mzwakhesl
apshi
m hel
aughs.

Vukani
:Ist
hatt
hebestyougot
Mzwakhe:Youdon'tevenknowhalfofi
tseeyour
pl
anmi ghthaveworkedbeaut
if
ull
ybutther
ewas
onemistake,one
Vukani
:Youcankil
lmeidon'
tcarebutt
hem huh
youwil
lhaveanot
hert
hingcoming
Mzwakhe:Your
ightican'
tki
llt
hem
Phi
ndi
le:Butican

Agungoesof
.
Mzwakhe
Shel
aughs.

Mel
usi
:Youmi
ssed
Phi
ndi
le:Di
di
Vukani
:Mel
usi

Hegoesdown.Sakhi
legoesandpi
ckshi
m uphe
wakesupgaspi
ng.

Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
e
Phindi
le:Whathetor
edownmywor
kshopand
causedmet omiscar
ry
Sakhi
le:Okay

Shehandsmeabr
ownenvel
ope.
Phi
ndil
e:Thobanicanneverknowthatwasnothi
s
chi
ldandyoucanneverknowt hatwasyourchi
ld

Everyt
hingi
sinhernamemyphonebeeps." You
thi
nkwegoingtoletsomewannabecomeandt ake
i
tallway"amessagefrom Li
ndokuhl
e,ever
ythi
ngis
i
nhernameil augh.

Me:Ohyougoi
ngt
owi
shyoudi
dn'
ttakemeon
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Phi
ndi
le
Idi
dn'tgiveupmyl i
fefornothi
ng.Ithought
Mzwakhewasgoi ngtospendsomet i
mewi t
hme,
aft
eryesterdayt
hatwasn'tthecase.Thabiso
comest ohugme, ipushhim awayfrom me.He
doesn'
tcarehehugsmeanyways, thelif
topens.

Mzwakhe:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe
Mzwakhe:Yeahuhm Thankyou

Inod.

Mzwakhe:LookPhi ndil
eimayhavemeantwhati
sai
dalitt
lebi
t,butididn'
tmeantobehar sh.You
havebeenthebestt hi
ngthat
'severhappenedto
mefacts,ngi
yaxoli
samommy

Voice:Idi
dnot
hingheal
sowantst
ogi
veitat
ry,
its
yourjobnowtomakesurewegett
owher
eweneed
toget

Weshal
lsee.

Mzwakhe
Iam doi
ngt
hisf
orSakhi
leandhermaybeal
it
tl
ebi
t
ofmyself
.Ifiam goi
ngt oendthi
ngsimustdeal
wit
hitamicably,
herancestor
sseem pr
ett
yhecti
c
andthi
ngscangowor seforme.

Me:Heymama
Her
:Heyhowar
ethi
ngsgoi
ng
Me:Iam sor
ryi
tsgoi
ngtogetabi
thecti
cmyboy
neededandnowweplanni
ngthef
uneralhei
sgoi
ng
todependonmealot
Her
:Dowhatyouhavet
odoandwi
llber
ighther
e

Ismi
le.

Me:Iwi
llcal
lyoul
ater

Sakhi
le
WewenttoSethu'
shousethat
swherethef
uneral
wi
llbeat
.Thobanii
ssolel
ymourni
ngforNozit
hats
al
l,
hel
ovedt
hatgi
rlwi
thhi
swhol
ehear
t.

Me:Skhul
u
Thobani
:Mmmm
Me:Yonki
ntoi
sihl
eli
wesi
dingausukunj
e
Thobani
:Phel
ecel
ausi
bizel
aumanobaba

Whyi
shesi
tt
ingont
hemat
tr
ess.Herf
atherent
ers.

Mrkhoza:Sani
bonamadoda
Me:Yebobabahmm yonkei
ntoi
sil
ungi
lebesi
cel
a
usuku
Mrkhoza:Awkonkekugci
nekul
ungi
le
Me:Yebobaba
Mrkhoza:Makubeul
wesi
nikadevel
eesehl
ali
le
i
konzoizobei
sesont
weni
Hecover
shi
sfaceandcr
ies.

Mrkhoza:Angazihl
ampenomaoyedwawenu
engasal
anomani mushayi
sengomoya

MzwakheandPhi
ndi
leknocksandent
er.

Phi
ndi
le:Sani
bonani

Shegoestot
hemat
tr
essMzwakheandist
ep
out
side.

Mzwakhe
Sakhi
le:It
hinkyoushoul
dst
aybehi
ndandf
orget
aboutmessingaround
Me:Iam goi
ngt
obet
her
eformyboyhawu
Sakhil
e:Hesai
dThursdayandt
hef
uner
ali
sgoi
ng
totakepl
aceatchur
ch
Me:I
tsbet
tert
hannot
hingwegoi
ngt
ogi
vehert
hat
di
gni
fi
edfuner
alandmoveon
Sakhi
le:Yeah

Phi
ndil
ecomesoutf
li
rt
ingwi
thsomeguy,
hol
d
pl
ease.

Me:Myguyzwakal
a
Hi
m:Sur
e
Me:Manj emf ethukhambaniwazihl
ekisanemama
ngiyazimuhleimpelainj
ayegame.Angi nendaba
kushoniwelayikhayakodwaleyokuthiuzof
ika
ushelananomunt uwaminomyguy
Sakhi
le:Aydumikanj
alo
Thobani
:Ngazi
leni
fi
kanj
eseni
sabi
saabant
u

Thi
siswhatt
heywant
edandiam gi
vingi
ttot
hem.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwastalki
ngtomom shet oldmet osendher
condol
ences.Itol
dherwheni sthefuneralandall
ofthem wil
latt
end,Thobanineedseveryoneithur
ts
evenmor ebecauseNoziwasnothi s.

Voi
ce:Thankyou
Me:Whatdoyouwant
Voi
ce:Forhi
mtovi
situsandnotf
orgetaboutus
Me:Hewi
llneverf
orgetaboutyou
Voi
ce:Idon'
tknowhowl
ongt
il
lNoziknowst
he
t
rut
h
Me:Youcanrelaxandknowwear
enevergoi
ngt
o
speakaboutt
his

Iam wokenupbyaknockont
hewi
ndow,
myhear
t
i
sracing.
Mzwakhe:Yi
ni
Me:Anunwant
edspi
ri
tcameby
Mzwakhe:Unwant
edokayiam goi
ngt
ost
aybehi
nd
i
sthatokay
Me:Yes

Hesmi
lesandki
ssesme.
[
06/
06,
15:
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Phi
ndi
le
DayshaspassedbySet huandNoziwer egivena
verydignifi
edfuner
al.Idon'tknowhowi thappened
andwhy, butiendedupbei ngi nchargeofthe
program.Thobaniwasdi st
raught,helef
ttwodays
aftert
hef uner
alnobodyknows.Mzwakhei syett
o
fi
ndoutt heyhavebeent rackinghim,oncethey
thi
nkt heygothim.Hedi sappearsspeakingof
Mzwakheyomant hi
ngsar eterri
ble.
Apictureofhim andiwaspostediguessthelady
sawi tandgotmad.Hehasbeennur singher
feel
ings,t
here'
sjustvoi
cesi
nmyheadt el
li
ngme
nottogiveup.Buthowwhent hemandoesn' teven
wantt obehere.

Ler
atoFaceTi
meme.

Me:Mr
sDl
omo
Rat
o:Ahahwhatdoyouhaveon
Me:Iam bymysel
f
Rat
o:Pr
obabl
ythat
'swhyyoucan'
tkeepaman
Me:Shady

Shel
aughs.

Rat
o:Howdoyouf
eel
aboutt
aki
ngal
it
tl
etr
ip
Me:Youmyki
ndofgi
rl
Rat
o:That
'sayes
Me:Iwoul
dlovet
o
Rat
o:Gobathputonaweavedoyourmake-
upand
l
ookbeaut
if
ulbecauset
hisi
snotworki
ng
Me:Byer
ato
Rat
o:Byemyl
ove

Iheadt
otheki
tchenandwashmydi
shes.

Mzwakhe
Sheappr oachedt hi
smannerinaver ycalm way.
Whent hatpi ct
uregotoutif
eltmywor l
dcr ushing,i
didn'tknowwhatt odoorwhatt osay.I fiwast o
comeandt ellt
het r
utht
hatwoul dhavebr okenher
heart ,
soil i
ed.Wehavebeent ogethersinceafter
thef uneral
, backhomeiknowisai diam goi ngto
try.Butwhatgoodwoul dthatdo, shedeser vesthat
l
ittl
ebi tofrespectandiowet ohermyphoner ings.
Me:Hey
Nka:Angisenayoi
numberkaPet
erungakwazi
ukungi
nikayona
Me:Uzoyenzani
Nka:Theladi
esar
egoi
ngonavacat
ionineed
hel
icopt
ers
Me:Whydot
heyneedhel
icopt
ers
Nka:Si
yakubuzat
hinamawul
apho
Me:Mxm Fuckyou

Wel
augh.

Nka:Let
hai
numberkaPet
er
Me:Fi
neiwi
llsendi
ttoyou

Ihungupandcal
ller
ato.
Rat
o:Weeuf
unani
Me:Ni
yaphi
Rat
o:Phi
ndi
lecan'
tkeepasecr
et
Me:Shedi
dn'
ttel
lmeyourhusbanddi
d
Rat
o:Tr
ait
orwegoi
ngt
oMpumal
anga
Me:Forhowl
ong
Rat
o:Theweekend
Me:Okayl
etmeknowi
fyouneedanyt
hing
Rat
o:Byeboo

Shehungsup.Okayletsint
roducet
hewoman,
rememberthatf
emaleibumpedi nt
o,andsaw
walki
ng.Thabi
soscoldedmehernamei sCynthi
a
Mthembu.

Cynthi
a:Doyoutal
kli
ket
hati
ngener
alort
o
specif
icpeopl
e
Me:Speci
fi
cpeopl
e
Cynt
hia:Icant
ell

Wel
augh.

Me:Ihavet
ogohome
Cynt
hia:Iam sor
ryiaccusedyou
Me:Don'
tsweati
t

Weki
ss.

Phi
ndi
le
Mxoli
siwasheadingbackt
oSi ngapor
e.Thobani
wassoappreci
ati
veofthem coming,wewentfor
l
unch.Idon'
twanttoanswerhisneverendi
ng
quest
ionsandiknowheaboutt ocookmewi t
h
them.

Mxol
isi
:Iam spendi
ngt
imewi
thmysi
sternothear
f
oranyt
hing
Me:Wenaidoubt

Wel
augh.

Me:I
fitdoesn'
tihavet
opassont
hegi
ftt
otheone
hel
oves
Mxol
isi
:Whathappenst
oyou
Me:Theywillf
orgetaboutmether
ewouldbe
not
hingthatconnect
smet othem andme.Iam
goi
ngtodie
Mxol
isi
:What
Me:Ihaveseent
oomuchandknowt
oomuch
Mxol
isi
:Hai
bogci
nouyi
vumel
akanj
anl
ent
o
Me:Ngangigul
aMxoli
singangi
ziwenzaniwhati
f
ngashonangempel
a

Heshakeshi
sheadmyphoner
ings.
Me:Hel
lo
Mzwakhe:Ngi
sekhayaukuphi
Me:Ngi
noMxol
isisi
semal
l
Mzwakhe:Al
ri
ghtungi
thi
ntemaseubuya

Ihungup.

Mxol
isi
:WhataboutmyboysPhindi
lewet
oldt
he
j
udgeyouguysaregoi
ngtobethere

Mzwakhemadeanoathepr
omi
sedhewoul
dnever
t
urnhi
sbackonthem.

Mzwakhe
Shedroppedt
hatcal
lli
kei
tisnevert
obeanswer
ed
agai
n.
Me:Hel
loboys
Mvel
o:Mal
ume
Me:Mj

Hei
gnor
esme.

Me:Okayiwi
llwai
tforyout
onostressj
ustsoyou
knowyoushoul
dn'
tinvol
veyour
sel
finadul
t
probl
ems
Mj:Onewasfeedi
ngmehi
ssausagehowdeepcan
adul
tprobl
emsget

Iwi
shicanhi
thi
m.

Mj:Areyougoi
ngtochaseoutnowt
hatyouhave
endedthi
ngswit
hyourgir
lf
ri
end
Me:Takeyourthi
ngsandgotoyourr
oom bl
oody
hel
l.Iam goi
ngtosmackyouMjyoudon'
thavet
o
bedi
srespect
ful
,that
'snothowyouwer
erai
sed

Thi
schi
ldanexactr
epl
icaofwhatidon'
tli
kear
gh
l
ookhej
ustmademeangr y.

Phi
ndi
le
WecomebackhomeMjt ext
shisdaduncl e
Mzwakhethreat
ent ohithim,iplacethepacket
son
t
hecounter
.Iwillusethisfortonight
.

Mzwakhe:Awbengi
theungi
thi
ntenj
emaseubuya
Me:Myf
inger
swer
eshaki
ngicoul
dn'
ttext

Hechuckl
es.

Mxol
isi
:Whyyouhadt
othr
eat
enmychi
ld
Mzwakhe:uMxol
isingi
zomshayayezwa
ngi
zomshayaangekeuzeukholwe
Mxol
isi
:Hai
bo
Mzwakhe:Heisupinbusinessontopofthathe
saysihadanadultf
eedmehi ssausage,
iwanted
topunchhi
m sobadaf t
erallt
hehardworkweput
i
ntohim.Helashesoutli
kethi
sngizomshayawe
Mxo
Mxol
isi
:Goeasyonhim pl
easei
ficoul
diwoul
d
comebackandtakecar
eofthem
Mzwakhe:Don'
tsweati
t

Ipr
epar
efordi
nnerwi
thasmi
le.
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Mzwakhe
Iwakeupt appingtheothersideofthebed,it
s
emptywher edidshegonow.Igetupandheadt o
thebat
hroom, iam exhaustedibrushmyt eetht
han
washmyf ace.Whenyoudon' thaveagirl
fri
endyou
don'
texercisethi
spartofyourlif
e.
Phindi
lehasalwaystoldmecleanli
nessisnextt
o
godli
ness,iwoul
dn'tbathasmuchasdonow.That
gir
lyointhemorning,i
fshehasgonesomewher e
shecomesbackandbat hs,
inthenight
.Ifi
twasup
tohershebathatleasttenminut
esaday.

Iheaddownst
air
s.

Sakhi
le:Whyyounotr
eady
Me:What
sgoi
ngonwhyyoual
ldr
essedi
nbl
ack
Thabi
so:Ican'
twi
tht
hisguy
Me:UphiuPhi
ndi
le
Sakhi
le:She'
sdead

Iwakeupbreathingfr
anti
cal
ly.Il
ookt
omysi de
she'
snothereirunouttheroom.Sheisdownstai
rs
asighofrel
ief
.Igobacktobedmyphoneil ookatit
andleti
tri
ng,thatwasnotnice.
Phi
ndi
le
Nonhlewantedmet ohelpherwithpacki
ng,why
doesthi
nkineedt otal
koroff
load.Iam f
ineigotno
cont
roloverthi
s,butal
soiwanthimt osayPhindi
le
nothi
sisnotwor ki
ngforme.

Nonhle:Rat
ogaveyouanydescr
ipt
ionaboutt
he
vacat
ion
Me:Idon'
twantt
otal
kNonhl
e
Nonhle:Butbabesthistensi
onbet
weenyouguys
ever
yonecanf eeli
t,yourmindi
sgoingt
opop

Igetupandshest
opsme.

Nonhl
e:Okayiwon'
tbr
ingi
tup
Me:Thankyou
Nonhl
e:Youal
wayswer
ethewor
st
Me:Iknowr
ight

Wel
augh.

Me:Shesaidmpumalangabutwi
thr
atoidon'
t
knowsheisuptosomethi
ng
Nonhl
e:Obvi
ousl
y
Me:Yeah

Myphoner
ingsil
ookati
tthant
urnupsi
dedown.

Me:Maybepackafewbi
kini
stakesomepi
ctur
es
andsendi
ttoAyanda
Nonhl
e:Oht
hatmani
ssomet
hingel
se

Greatatl
eastshewi
llgl
oatt
omeabouthowmuch
ofaloveydoveyper
sonAyandai
s.
Mzwakhe
Iseewhatsheisdoingandi ti
swor ki
ng,thi
sdream
dist
urbmewhywoul didream ofherdead.Iact
denialwhensomethingiswrongwi t
hherandt hi
s
j
ustmadei tworse.

Phi
ndi
le:Lal
akemam Bhengu

Theyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Ngi
zokuphoxaPhi
ndi
le

AyandagetsuprunningtoNonhl
e,t
heyrepeatedl
y
ki
ssandkiss,shewrapsherarmsaroundhisneck.
Il
ookatPhindil
esheisleani
ngonthecounter
scr
oll
ingt
hroughherphone.

Thabi
so:Mommymanj
ekhonai
ntoozosi
shi
yel
a
yona
Phi
ndi
le:Li
kewhat
Thabi
so:Foodidon'
tknowl
ikeyourmealwhat
what
Phi
ndi
le:Mealpl
ans
Sakhi
le:Mommy
Phi
ndil
e:Noyout
hir
tyyear
sol
dyal
lcanmakeyour
ownfood

Icl
osemyeyes.Myphoner
ingsigetup.

Phi
ndi
le
Hi
sphoner i
nginghascertai
nlybeenanight
mare.
Hemustpi ckasidecan'tbedribbl
ingt
wowoman,
al
thoughitkindoflooksli
keiam thesi
de.Isi
ttoo
l
atetotur
nbackt hecl
ock.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Hai
boandt
han
Mzwakhe:Iam hungr
y
Me:Ther
e'sf
oodi
ntheoven
Mzwakhe:Iam hungr
y

IlaughandgetupMambaslit
herandcoi
lsupnext
tome, Sakhi
lecomesdownandgetst
hebiggest
fr
ightofhisl
ife.

Sakhi
le:Cel
aungi
that
hel
aamanzi
Me:Mengabeuzobai
gwal
ashut
huzof
a
Sakhi
le:Angicel
angami
naukubakwi
lent
ocel
a
ungi
thathel
aamanzi

Sizwebeingthemostpowerf
ulhasbondedwi
th
Sakhil
e,i
fheisweakatthi
shim andSi
zweare
goingtobeinforar
ide.

Mzwakhe
It
ext
edherihopeshewi
llbackoff
orsomet
ime.
Myphonebeeps.

Me:Hi
Cal
ler
:Mayipl
easespeakt
oMzwakheBhengu
Me:Speaki
ng
Cal
ler:Iam call
ingwit
hregar
dst
oMxol
isi
Gumede
get
tinginaf i
ghtthi
sverymoment

Iam goi
ngt
ogi
vehi
m awhi
ppi
ngheshal
lnever
for
get.

Cal
ler
:Canpl
easer
epor
ttoschooli
tsur
gent
Me:Yesofcour
set
hankyouf
orcal
li
ng

Ihungup.

Me:Avengi
zombhaxauMxol
isigogetr
eadyhegot
i
ntoaf
ight
Phi
ndi
le:What
Me:Makef
astsowecango

Hispr
obl
em i
swi
thmeandhei
slashi
ngoutf
orno
val
idr
eason.
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06,
15:
18] :130

Phi
ndi
le
Itwasti
meforusleaveandThabisopul
ledaf it
.He
i
smadbecauset herei
snof ood,
whichi
sal ie.He
doesn'
twantOlwethut
oleavenowwesi tt
ingon
thi
sbedstar
ingatthedoor
.

Me:Whywesi
tt
ingont
hisbed
Nonhle:Thabi
sokodwawecoul
dn'
tgol
astt
ime
becauseofthi
s
Me:Let
'
sgoever
ythi
ngi
sdownst
air
s
Thedooropens.

Si
ndi
:Hawuandt
han
Nonhl
e:I
fiti
sn'
tyourboyf
ri
ends
Si
ndi
:Yi
nimanj
e
Me:Let
sgo

Wegetupandheaddownst
air
s.

Mzwakhe:Seni
yahambanj
aloni
ngaval
eli
sanga
Nonhl
e:Sakhi
lewozal
a
Sakhi
le:Mi
naidi
dn'
tdoanyt
hing
Nonhl
e:Whati
swr
it
tenher
e
Sakhi
le:Foodi
ntheovenwar
mitup
Nonhl
e:Okayandwhati
swr
it
tenher
e
Hel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Nodon'
tlaugh
Sakhi
le:Hai
bouThabi
soodal
eyonkel
ent
o
Ol
wethu:Youknowwhatyouguysjustgoandenj
oy
donotmisstheoppor
tuni
tyofhavi
ngfun
Mzwakhe:Ahahmpumal
angaiswhereyouare
goi
ng,gent
slet
sgol
oadt
heluggagesodl
ala
uThabi
so

Theyl
aughhowar
etheygoi
ngt
ogoagai
nsthi
m,
wit
hThabi
sonomeansno.

Mzwakhe
WhenThabisosaysnoit
sanotheygonenow.On
t
helastdayoft
heirt
ri
pwegoi
ngt ogodown.

Sakhi
le:Udi
niweubhut
iwakho
Me:Uzobast
rongifweal
lowt
histohappent
hese
l
adi
esarenevergoi
ngtogoontr
ips,
theywil
lend
uphat
ingus
Sakhi
le:That
smywi
feandiwi
lldowhat
everiwant
todowi t
hher

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:SoMzwakhe
Me:Skhul
u
Sakhi
le:Manj
e
Me:Ay
Sakhi
le:Youar
egoi
ngt
oregr
ett
his
Me:Probabl
ybutidon'
twantt
opl
ayhermanshe'
s
j
usttoogoodfort
hat
Sakhi
le:Noyouar
egoi
ngt
oregr
ett
hisandt
he
heavypri
ceyougoi
ngt
opay
Me:Doyouknowsomet
hingt
hatidon'
t
Sakhi
le:Nobutkeiwi
shyoual
lthebest

Hel
eaves.

Me:Sakhi
le

Ichuckl
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Moghelar
eMpumal
anga,
Mpumal angaher
ewe
comekant
inor
emoWesterncapegardenr
out
e.

Rat
o:Iknowiknowwhatisai
dbuttheywil
l
ser
iousl
yrui
nourt
ri
pandididn'
twantthat

Wel
augh.
Rato:Let
sswit
chofourphonest
heypr
obabl
y
t
rackingusaswespeak

Shegotusani cefi
tt
ingaccommodati
on,shehas
thebi
ggestroom whichisl
ame.Whoeverputthe
rul
eofwhoeverplannedthetr
ip,
mustgetabigger
room waslame.Butletmenotbehypocr
iti
cali
wouldalsodothesame.

Olwet
hu:Iboughthiki
nggearthinki
ngwegoingt
o
seeGod'
seyeorwi ndow,Krugernati
onalpar
k
Nonhl
e:Skydi
ving
Me:Sheknewwhatshewasdoi
ngandiam gl
ad
shedi
dseeingasmyli
fei
satst
ake
Ol
wet
hu:Thi
sisr
efr
eshi
ngt
hough
Me:ThankyouRat
o
Rat
o:Youwel
comeb*
tchs

Wel
augh.
Mzwakhe
Ni
ggersai
dMpumal
angat
heynoti
nMpumal
anga.

Me:AychauRat oisgebenguyezwausdayisel
a
i
Mpumal anganj
engezilimasakholwanat
hi(Ler
ato
i
sacr ookshesoldadr eam l
iket
hefool
swear ewe
bel
ievedher)

Sakhi
le:Shel
iedwi
thobvi
ousr
easons
Thabi
so:Masebebuyilengi
funasi
yowenza
umsebenziekhayael
ikhul
u

Il
ookathi
m.

Thabi
so:uPhi
ndi
lemel
eagezwe

Myt
hroatdr
iesupt
hatcan'
thappen.
Sakhi
le:Yi
ndab

OhmyGod.

Me:Can'
twedoi
ther
ewel
ivi
ngher
eal
ready
Thabi
so:Angazinomausukukhohl
iweyi
nii
ndl
uka
manobaba
Me:Yesbut
Thabi
so:Mzwakhe
Me:Okay

Theygoi
ngtokil
lmethat
'swher
eCynt
hiaandi
spendmostofourt
ime.

Phi
ndi
le
Fir
stst
opwasthegamereser
veiam excit
edtosee
someanimal
s,maybesomeofthem wi
llbondwit
h
me.Theygoi
ngt
ogetahear
tat
tackmyphoner
ings.

Rato:Kantiwhatar
ewewait
ingforwhyarewenot
l
eaving,iwishJameswasherewit
hus.Phindi
le
cl
oset hedoor
Me:Ehl
isaumoyaphel
a

Hesendsmeamessage"
Mamapl
easeanswert
he
phone"

Thisdri
veri
sgi
vingusthesi
lentt
reat
menthei
snot
bother
edbyourwhini
ng.Jamesiswaybett
ert
han
thi
sguy.

Wearri
veatthegamer
eser
vet
hatwasal
ongass
bor
ingri
de.

Ranger
:WelcomeLadi
esmynamei
sTi
mot
hyandi
wouldbeyourr
angerf
ort
oday
Nonhl
e:HiTi
mot
hy
Tim:Howwoul
dyouguysl
iket
owor
kanor
mal
gamedri
ve
Me:Yesasmanyani
mal
saswecansee
Rat
o:Li
onst
hewor
ksyounamei
t

Iam soexci
ted.Wegetont
hetruckandr
ideaway,
i
tsquit
eabumpyandwi ndyri
de.

Rat
o:Myl
ashesar
egoi
ngt
ocomeof
f

Shescr
eams.

Rato:Myeyelashesar
enotgoingt
of al
lof
fint
he
middleofnowhereandpeopl
ebewitchme

Welaughsheisbei
ngdramati
cri
ghtnowwhosai
d
shemustputoneyel
ashes.Ol
wet
hugasps.
Ol
wet
hu:OhmyGodguysit
hinkiseet
het
hem
Me:Seewhatani
mal
s
Olwet
hu:Wecomi ngt
othem bukauMzwakheno
Sakhi
lebebal
eka

Wecr
acki
nlaught
er.

Rat
o:That
'sThabi
so
Ol
wethu:Sosweetl
ookathi
m hewant
stoj
umpon
t
hetr
uck
Me:Whatani
mali
sthi
s
Nonhl
e:I
sthataspr
ingbokTi
m
Me:Nonhl
espr
ingboksar
eacar
amel
-i
shcol
or
Nonhl
e:Angaziphel
a
Ti
m:Thatmyl
adi
esi
sroedeer
Wewantt
oseet
heexot
iccat
snotdeer
s.
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06/
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15:
18] :131

Phi
ndi
le
Wevisit
ingtheharbort
odayithinkthiswasj
ust
meanttobear el
axinggetaway.There'
snotmuch
act
ivi
ty,
wewer ehavingbreakfastwit
haview
l
ookingoverthemountains.

Myphoner
ingsohGod.

Me:Hey
Mzwakhe:Yi
ndabPhindi
lengi
yakuf
onel
a
awul
ibambiyi
nikodwa
Me:Icoul
dn'
ttal
kforawhi
leal
it
tl
ebi
temot
ional
Mzwakhe:Myt
ext
s
Me:Yousentonet
ext
Mzwakhe:Ni
hambekahl
e
Me:Hmm j
ustourdr
ivert
hatguyshamei
fitwasup
t
ohim,hewoul
dslap
Mzwakhe:Ubanil
oyoongi
jwayel
akabi
Me:Yeahandyouhowar
eyoudoi
ng
Mzwakhe:Iam gr
eatt
hankyouf
ort
hemeal
s
Me:Youat
ethem al
l
Mzwakhe:No.
.Yes

Hel
aughs.

Me:Excuseme

Mzwakhe
Wej ustl
andedinCapeTownitsmyfi
rstt
imebeing
here,westi
llgoi
ngdri
veoutbutf
ir
stwegoingt
o
haveourownguyst r
ip.

Li
nda:Anywor
donThobani
Sakhi
le:It
hinkhej
ustdoesn'
twantt
obef
ound
Me:Let
sgivehi
m spaceyal
lsawt
hewayhecr
ied
r
eall
ybrokeme

Iwon'
tst
oplooki
ngf
orhi
m andmaki
ngsur
ehei
s
saf
eatal
lti
mes.

Thabi
so:Whathappened

Me:Wahambangemot oyamingangazimi na
uAndi
lewayefunaukungibophi
sa.Ingakhoazi
tshel
e
l
okho(Vukaniwasdri
vingmycar ,ididn'
tknow
Andi
lewantedmear r
estedandthat'swhyhet hi
nks
wesethim up)

Thabi
so:LempiyakhonoAndi
le(
Thi
swarbet
ween
youandAndil
e)

Me:Hewant
stobemeandunf
ort
unat
elyiam one
ofaki
nd
Li
nda:Oneofaki
nd

Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Weonaspeedboatcr
uisi
ngar
oundt
heknysna
har
bor
.

Rat
o:Ar
en'
tyougl
adt
oloosenupal
it
tl
ebi
t

Shewhi
sper
s.

Me:Thankyout
hisi
sreal
lybeaut
if
ul
Rato:Ver
yoneneverget
sti
met
oadmi
renat
ure'
s
beauty
Me:Tr
ue
Theladi
esareenj
oyi
ngthemsel
vessingi
ngand
danci
ng,ever
yti
metheboatspeedswescream.

Nonhl
e:Iam hungr
y
Ol
wethu:Thankyourat
ofordef
eat
ingt
heendsof
j
ust
iceanddisobeyi
ngther
ules

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Iam st
arvi
ngl
etsgoeat
Nonhle:Yeahal
lpassenger
swear
ejumpi
ngof
fthe
boatnow

Shel
aughs.

Mzwakhe
Wewer
eseei
ngf
rom t
hepi
ctur
est
hatt
heywer
e
havi
ngagoodt i
me, butPhindileyoucantel
lgi
rlj
ust
doesnotknowhowt oletloose.Cynthi
ashecalm,
gentl
e,underst
anding.Idon'thavetotrysohardwe
meeteachot herhalf
way,Phi ndil
eisamonstera
sexybeauti
fulmonst er
.Idon'twantthatiam t
orn.

Sakhi
le:Let
ssi
tandt
alkt
ohi
m
Me:Ar
eyoudr
unk
Sakhi
le:Al
it
tl
emanj
eskhul
uyabo
Me:Thabi
sowhatdi
dyoudot
ohi
m
Thabi
so:Meehai
bonal
ibhadil
ami

Theyl
augh.

Me:Youdi
stur
bingmeiam t
ryi
ngt
orest
Thabi
so:Mzwakheidon'
tthi
nkyoushoul
dbr
eakup
wit
h
Me:B*
tcht
hatwasaconver
sat
ionbet
weenyouand
i
Sakhi
le:Ihavet
opr
otectyoumyguy
Me:Whatsthewor
stPhi
ndi
lecandocomeonyou
gi
vingherwayt
oomuchcredi
t

Theyl
ookateachot
her
.

Me:Idon'
twantt
ohur
ther

Them:Youwi
ll

Thabi
so:Byhur
ti
ngheryouar
egoi
ngt
oki
llus

Me:Doyouknowsomet
hingidon'
t

Sakhil
e:Nowejustdon'
twantyoumakingt
hesame
mistakesyoudi
d,webeenthr
oughthi
sbefor
e
Thabiso:Uwubhut iwamingi yakuthandaimpela
kodwal aayMzwakheuyaf unangempel a
ukumshi yalosisi.Inhli
ziyoyakhoi yakut
shela
l
eyont onomakhonai qhingaophezukwal o(Youmy
brotherandiloveyouver ymuch,butt hi
sMzwakhe
doyour eall
ywantt oleaveher .Doesyourhear t
all
owyout odot hatorist hissomet hi
ngyou
planned)

Idon'
tknowhowt
oanswert
hat
.

Sakhi
le:WhatLi
ndaniyoucal
lmehol
don

Heget
supandl
eaves.

Me:Thabi
sokant
i

Thabi
so:Ican'
thel
pyoubr
oyouneedt
obesur
eof
yourdeci
siononehundr
edper
cent
.Whati
sthat
Sakhi
leiam coming

Her
unsoutwhati
supwi
tht
heset
wo.

Phi
ndi
le
Thedoorbel
lri
ngsihopeitsnotst
ri
ppersRat
owil
l
def
ini
tel
ygetuski
ll
ed,iat
tendtothedoorandmy
mooddrops.

Sakhi
le:Mommy

Imakewayf
ort
hem.

Rat
o:Howdi
dyouf
indus
Mzwakhe:Mpumal
anganeh
Nonhl
e:Ol
wet
huushi
lokodwaukut
hubaboni
le
Wel
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Iknowmyboys

Mzwakhepull
smyhandandweheadt
omyr
oom,
hechuckl
es.

Me:Wow

Heshut
smeupwi
thaki
ss.
[
06/
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15:
18] :132

Phi
ndi
le
Itsourlastdayitwasgoodwhil
eitl
asted.Wewere
havingbreakfast,
Mzwakhewasalloverme.You
knowweshoul djustendthi
shei
sjustforci
ng
thingsnow, idon'
tknowforwhoandwhy.
Nonhl
e:Your
eadyt
otaket
hef
all

Irol
lmyeyesidon'
tknowwhobet
weenthem
thoughti
twasafabul
ousi
dea,
tohavemego
bungeejumpi
ng.

Me:Ni
yagul
ani
na
Ol
wet
hu:Iwi
lldoi
t
Me:Not
hankyou
Mzwakhe:Dowhatial
sowantt
odoi
t
Me:Bungeej
umpi
ng

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Okayno
Me:Seeyouwantmet
ogoj
umpofacl
ick
Sakhi
le:Iwi
lldoi
tifyoual
sogoi
ngt
odoi
t
Me:No

Myhear
twil
lexpl
odeiam scaredofhei
ghtsand
t
hati
sthehi
ghestbr
idgei
nt heworl
d,peopl
egokil
l
t
hemsel
vesther
e.

Mzwakhe
ThisisPhindi
lewetal
kingaboutshemaywantto
doitbutsomet hi
ngwil
lhol
dherback.Wearr
iveat
Bloukransever
yoneishappyexcepther
.

Me:Mamabehappy
Phi
ndi
le:Iam happy
Me:Youdon'
tlookhappybutokay

Theysi
gnuporwhatevert
heyheadt
othebr
idge,
wegowatch.Phi
ndi
lebett
erj
ump.
Rat
o:She'
snotgoi
ngt
odoi
t
Me:Iwoul
dn'
twantt
omysel
f

Li
ndaniandSakhi
lear
ehypingthemsel
vesup,
thi
s
i
stoomucht or
tur
eforoneperson.

Me:Shht
heydoi
ngi
t

Iam feel
ingt heanxi
etyf
orthem,Lindanil
ooks
downandst epsbackabitwelaugh.Hebr eat
hesin
andjumps, iwishwecouldhearthem screaming.

Me:Sakhil
eisdr
unkt
hatj
umpi
ngi
snotgoi
ngt
obe
goodforhi
m

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hel
losweet
hear
tiam busypl
easecanical
l
youwheniam okay
Cynt
hia:Okay

I
tsSakhi
le'
stur
ntoj
umpl
ight
scamer
aact
ion.

Phi
ndi
le
Okayt heset
woi di
otsj
umpedf i
rstnowit
smyt ur
n
andi am shi
tt
inginmypants.Iam soscaredi
t'
snot
funny.

Li
ndani
:Ther
eisnot
urni
ngbacknow,
yougott
his
mommy

Thisisnotaniceexper
iencef ormeever yonehere
i
sencour agi
ngme.Idon'twantt odot histheywal
k
withmet otheedgeofthebridge,t
hei nstr
uctor
s
aretel
li
ngmet obecalm, r
elax,don'
tlookdown.
Sakhi
le:Youcandot
hismommy

Thansomethi
ngi
nmet
ri
gger
sit
aket
hel
eapof
fai
thandj
ump.

Myheartisr
acing,mybodyisi
nknotsigottear
sin
myeyes.Iswingforacoupl
eminut
esbeforeiam
pul
ledbackup.

Sakhi
le:Youdi
ditmama

Hehugsme.

Sakhi
le:Musaukukhal
aphel
a
I
nst
ruct
or:Youdi
dwel
l

Theycl
apt
hei
rhandsandsi
ngmyname.
I
nst
ruct
or:Let
sdoanot
herone
Me:No

Mzwakhe
Idi
dnott
hinkthatwaspossi
blebutmybabygi
rldi
d
i
tiknowiknow,theyr
eactusandiki
ssher.

Me:Thatwasr
emi
ndi
ngyou,
yourst
il
lal
ive

Shehugsme.

Nonhl
e:Thesmi
leonhi
sfacewhenyouj
umped
pr
icel
ess
Phi
ndi
le:Iam st
il
lshakenbutthatwasgood,
iam
sur
eil
ookedhor r
ibl
ecryingandall
Me:Wel
lfunnybuti
tookavi
deo

Ishowi
ttoher
.
Phindi
le:Iwassoterr
if
iedLi
ndaniandSakhi
lekept
annoyi
ngme, iwantedtokil
lthem
Me:Iam superpr
oudofyou
Ol
wet
hu:Let
sgo

Wel
eave.

Phi
ndi
le
Ineededti
met omyselft
hatwasunbeli
evabl
e.I
can'
tbeli
eveijumpedinthehi
ghestbungeej
umpin
theworl
d,thedooropens.

Mzwakhe:Oht
hisi
swher
eyouhi
ding

Hej
umpsont
hebedandcuddl
esme.

Mzwakhe:Youokay
Me:Iam gr
eatican'
tbel
ieveidi
dit
Mzwakhe:Youf
eel
li
ber
ated

Hegr
absmyboobs,
kissi
ngmyneck.

Me:St
opi
t

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Youst
il
lli
kewhatwedoi
ng
Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Iam j
ustaski
ng
Mzwakhe:Canwet
alkwhenwegethomepl
ease

Idon'
twantt
opushf
urt
herhewi
llj
ustgetangr
y.

Me:Youshoul
dhavej
umpedwi
thme
Mzwakhe:Ohnoidon'
tthi
nkso

Wel
augh.
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18] :133

Phi
ndi
le
Iam excit
edt obebackhomei nadi f
fer
enthome.
Thisbeautif
ulmansionifeel l
ikeihavebeenher
e
befor
eori sitdej
avu, t
wor it
ualsweredoneonefor
meandonef orLindokuhle.Heneededt obeabl
eto
contr
olhisfather
'sspir
itandnott hespir
it
contr
oll
inghim.

Thabi
so:Solel
iikhayaeli
khul
ulababakwakut hr
ee
room.Azangeawuext endngenxayomsebenzi
ebewenza

Somet
hingpushesme.
Voi
ce:Hei
saboutt
oli
eonme

Thabi
so:Youokay

Me:Nevermi
nd

Thabiso:Whenheleft,helef
tsomeofhi scoins,we
demolishedthewholethingandst ar
tedfrom the
bott
om.Addedmor eroomsbecauset hereismany
ofus,thepoolafewgamear eas.Basketballcourt
becauseMzwakhel ovest opl
aybasket ball
,my
wif
e'sbeauti
fulgar
den

Me:Thi
sist
rul
ybeaut
if
ul

Thabi
so:Thankyou

Me:Haveyouguysbeenher
e
Thabi
so:Wecomeandgo

Me:Thepent
house

Thabiso:Wasabusi
nessvent
urebutt
hansome
thi
ngshappenedandMzwakhepermanent
lymoved
ther
e

Me:Wasanyoneher
elat
ely

Thabi
so:Whyyouseei
ngsomet
hing

Me:Iam j
ustaski
ng

Iwal
kawayf
rom hi
m.
Mzwakhe
If
allbackont
hebedt
ryi
ngt
ocat
chmybr
eat
h.

Cynt
hia:Thatwas
Me:Amazi
ng

Wekeepqui
ett
hanl
augh,
ibr
inghert
omychest
.

Me:Youbeaut
if
ulyouknowt
hat
Cynt
hia:Ngi
zwangawe

Ichuckl
eohmanohman.

Me:Whywer
eyoucal
li
ngsomuchl
iker
eal
ly

Cynt
hia:Iguessigotal
it
tl
ecar
ri
edawayiam sor
ry
Me:Nomani t
scutebutyoumakemel ooklike
someunf ai
thf
ulman.Ineedtimetosetthet
onefor
myf ami
ly,youwon'tevensur
viveaminutewit
h
them

Cynt
hia:West
ayi
ng

Me:Iam notevensupposedtobeherewejustdi
d
someri
tualsandiam disr
espect
ingt
heancestor
s

Cynt
hia:Oh

Shi
tineedt
otakecar
eofafewthingsandt
hisi
s
goi
ngtodel
aythi
ngsevenmore.

Me:Iguessicanst
ay

Cynt
hia:Idi
dn'
tsayst
ayhawu
Shelaughshersweetgi
gglesfi
llj
oyinmyhear
t.I
hopeiam makingtheri
ghtdeci
sion

Phi
ndi
le
Iwentjoggingt oclearmymi ndsomuchangerwas
brewinginsideofme, t
earswhereburningi
nmy
eyes.Icouldn'tseewher eiwasgoing,iwas
runni
ngandr unningandr unni
nguntilacarbumped
i
ntomeoribumpedi ntoit
.

Voi
ce:Nkosazaneyi
nikodwauf
unaukuf
a
Me:Maybe

Hehel
psmeupiscr
eam i
nagony.

Me:Don'
tyouseewher
eyoudr
ivi
ng
Hi
m:Awuboniwenaukut
hugi
ji
mel
aph

Il
ookathi
m hi
sfacegl
ows.

Vukani
:Comel
etmet
akeyout
othehospi
tal

Me:No

Vukani
:Okaygeti
niwi
llt
akeyouwher
everyou
wanttogo

Me:Vukanipl
easest
op

Vukani
:Okaypl
easel
etmehel
pyou

Ir
eachf
ormyphoneandcal
lSakhi
le.
Sakhi
le:Mommy

Me:Canyoupl
easef
etchme

Sakhi
le:What
swr
ongwhathappened

Me:Sakhi
le

Ihungup.Vukanigoesdownandgentlymassages
myknee,ihol
dont ohisshoul
dercr
ingi
nginpain.

Sakhi
le
Iarri
veatherlocat
ionr
eadyandarmed,ther
eisa
blackcarontheopposi
tesi
de.Thedooropens
Vukanistepsoutandopensthebackdoor,t
hisf
ool
istepout.

Me:Andt
hanwhathappenedt
oyou
Ipushhi
m of
fher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Okayokayenough

Me:Yi
ndabmommy

Phi
ndile:Iwasr
unni
ngandididn'
tseehi
scar
coming.Imayhavepur
posef
ullybumpedmysel
f
i
ntohiscar

Vukani
:Pur
poseful
lyyoul
it
eral
lycamei
ntot
hecar
wanti
ngtoki
llyour
self

Phi
ndi
le:GoodbyeVukani

Vukani
:Nkosazane
Ihol
dherandshel
imps.

Me:Shoul
dwegot
othehospi
tal

Phi
ndi
le:Not
akemehome

Myphoner
ings.

Me:What

Mzwakhe:Canyoucoverf
ormeubanil
okhal
ayo

Me:Whydoyoucar
e

Phi
ndi
le:Sakhi
le

Me:Okayokay
Ihungup.

Mzwakhe
Myhear
traceswhati
swr
ongwhyi
scr
ying.

Cynt
hia:Youokay

Me:Yeahidon'
tknow

Cynt
hia:Home

Me:Somet
hingl
iket
hat

Cynt
hia:Wegohomei
f

Me:I
fsomet
hingi
swr
ongt
heywi
lll
etmeknow
Cynt
hia:Yousureidon'
twantyoutobeintr
oubl
e
andthanyoublamemeandt akeitoutonme

Me:Whyyour
oll
ingyourheadnow

Wel
augh.
[
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15:
19] :134

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhecalledaf amilymeetingokay.Hedi dn'
t
comehomel astnightandiwasacompl etemess,
thedooropensandcl oses.Ipullmysel
ft oget
her
mykneei sst
illhur
ting,canhejustgetthisoverand
donewith.

Mzwakhe:Youokay
Me:Iam f
ine

Mzwakhe:Okayiam sur
eyoual
lwonder
ingwhyi
cal
ledt
hismeeti
ng

Hetakesmyhand,
ipul
litback.Her
ubshi
s
f
orehead.

Mzwakhe:Iwasaf r
aidthatwewereal
oneyouwere
goi
ngt oki
llme.Ihavebeenseei
ngsomeoneelse
andithasbeenabliss.Phi
ndi
leyouhavebecome
soboringandreser
ved

Ishakemyhead.

Mzwakhe:Ican'ttakethi
sanymor eyouhaven't
beenfulf
il
li
ngmyhear t.Ifeelt
hisconnect
ionwith
you,buti
tsjustconnecti
on.Idon'tknowifiti
sreal
ornotbutiam justnothappy
Me:Doyouwantt
ofi
xit

Hesi
ghs.

Mzwakhe:Iwoul
dli
kei
tifper
hapswet
akeabr
eak

Me:Okay

Igetup.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Me:What
,what
..Whatdoyouwantmet
osay

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
leiam sor
ryidi
dn'
tmeant
oitj
ust
happened
Me:Sorr
y..Sor
ryhuhyourSor
ryawhol
eMzwakhe
sor
ryhownobleofyou

Mzwakhe:Iwasaf
rai
dofhur
ti
ngyou

Me:Jamepl
easehel
pmewi
thmyt
hings

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

It
ransf
ormi
ntoasnakeandbackt
oahuman.

Me:St
ayawayf
rom me

Iheadout
.

James:Nkosazane
Me:Takemesomewher
ewher
enobodywi
llknow
whereiam

Igeti
nthebackseatandl
aydown.

Mzwakhe
Isi
tdownandl
ookatt
hem.

Me:Di
dshej
ustt
urni
ntoasnake

Thabiso:Ihopeshekill
syouihavetheancest
ors
takeouttheirangeronyourmi
serablel
ousyli
fe

Ol
wet
hu:Thabi
so

Thabi
so:Thabi
sowani
Me:She'
snott
hequeen

Li
ndo:Whatyoudi
dhast
akenusahundr
edst
eps
backwar
ds

Me:Howcanyounott
ellmei
tsher

Li
ndo:Youwer esupposedtol
oveherit
oldyou
guys,
treatal
adywi t
hloveandcar
eunti
lshefeel
s
l
ovedshewi l
lshowherself

Me:Guysidi
dn'
tknow

Sakhi
le:Doyour
egr
etwhatyouj
ustdi
d

Thabi
so:Wow
Soshewast hequeenal lal
ongandt heywer e
beggingmet hewhol eti
me.Phi ndi
lelovesmeshe
wouldn'tdoanythingtome, shewil
ldef i
nit
elyact
l
ikeiam notevenat hi
ngaroundher .Antagoni
zing
herewillbemesi gni
ngmydeat hwar r
ant.

Me:Wemeet
ingupi
naf
ew

Nonhl
e
Yobeingdumpedi nf r
ontofphambikwabant u.
Mzwakhei sheart
lessman, t
heirr
elat
ionshi
pdidn'
t
needacr owd.Ihavenosympat hyforhim
regar
dlessofPhindil
ebeingasnakeornot ,
ifeelf
or
hershehasn'thadagr andli
feandthanthis
happenst oher
.

Ayanda:Youokay

Me:Youalsogoingt
odumpmewhenyouf
indt
he
nextbestt
hing
Ayanda:Youar
ethenextbestt
hing

Heshout
sil
augh.

Ayanda:Angi
yenauMzwakheweNonhl
ecel
a
si
hloni
phane

Me:YoMzwakheuspi
cyman

Ayanda:Haveyoucal
ledher

Me:Herphoneisnotgoi
ngthr
oughwherevershei
s,
shemustbecryi
nghereyebal
lsoutort
hinki
ngofa
mil
li
onwaystokil
lMzwakhe

Hel
aughs.
Ayanda:Di
dyouknowshewast
hequeen

Me:Idon'
tknowt
hatij
ustknowshecoul
dtur
nint
o
asnake

Ayanda:Shei
sourmostpower
fulandst
rong
ancest
or

Me:Iam yett
oknow

Ayanda:Yout
hinkshewoul
dki
llhi
m orbi
tehi
m

Wel
augh.

Ayanda:Babydon'
tlaugh

Me:Youl
aughi
nghawu
Mzwakhe
Iam goi
ngt
obequickandsi
mpleili
ketothink
ever
ymemberoft
hecrewisher
e,ifnotidon'tcar
e
adamn.

Me:Okayset
tl
edown

Li
nda:Soskhul
uubusi
khumbul
ayi
nisal
aekhaya
el
ikhul
u

Me:Sonkel eskhathibengizitshelaukuth
ngisebenzisanakahl enaninjengabaf ethubami .
Kodwaphambi l
iniakusekhonj alo,
niyangij
ikel
a
ni
sebenzanabanyeabant u.Ni f
unaukungi qhumba
phansingingazikungani( Allthisti
meit houghti
hadagoodwor kr el
at i
onshipwi thyouguys, li
kemy
brother
s.Howeverr ecent
lythat snotthecase, yal
l
betrayi
ngmewor kingwi t
hot herpeopl etotakeme
down.Wi thoutmeknowwhy)
Li
nda:Ubanil
oyosi
mchi
shemanj
eagcwal
e

Me:Akekhoengi mbukelaphansikuninanonke,
ni
namandl aahlukeneanisebenzingokufana.
Kunezintoezenzakal
il
enikhombi si
lel
ebhar i
ewumi naaniyi
thandi
,madodani ngenzel
ephansi( I
don'tl
ookdownatyouguys, youallhavediff
er ent
str
engthsandwor kdiff
erentl
y.Somet hi
ngs
happenedthatshowed, youguysdon'treall
ylikeme.
Youhavedi sappoint
edme)

I
tssosi
lentyoucanhearapi
ndr
op.

Me:Ngal
okhongi
yazikhi
phakul
eli
thi
mba

Li
nda:What

Me:Iam l
eavi
ngt
her
avensandiam di
smant
li
ng
t
hegroup.Ever
yonei
sfr
eet
ogowher
evert
hey
wisht
ogo

Ndu:Wakawaka

Li
nda:Donwenaut
hin

Thabi
so:Iam st
andi
ngwit
hmybrotheri
fhef
eel
s
heneedstodi
smantl
ethecrewt
hanwedone

Li
nda:Fuckyounobabi
liukhonaubeerl
aykhaya

Ndu:Eyl
aykhaya

Somegetupsomeremainseatediam sur
pri
sed,
Sabel
oisoneoft
hem r
emainingbehi
nd.

Ndu:Wozaphel
aLi
ndanil
ent
wanai
yangi
str
ess
useqal
il
enomsanganowakhe

Theyl
augh.

Ndu:Hawuuphiumunt
uwamiangi
mboninj
e

Me:Youguysdon'
thavet
ost
ayi
fyoudon'
tli
keme
iwon'
thaveani
ssue

Li
nda:Wedon'
tli
keyouvel
e

Ndu:Nangi
zibamanj
euphiumommy

Me:Ebesikuhl
angansi
lesekuphel
il
e,uzungaphinde
ubuzengaye,ni
khulumengayenomangegama
l
akhe.Syezwana(Whatwehavei snomor e,youare
toneverutt
erhername,askaboutnortalkabout
her.Doyouhearme)
Theyl
ookateachot
her
,igetupandl
eave.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwentt
oabarinsteadjustdr
inki
ngawaymy
sor
rows.Il
if
tuptheglasssomeoneholdsmyhand,
il
ookathim.

Me:I
ngakhokadeuboshiweunesdi
na(
That
swhy
youwasinj
ail
,youannoying)

Hel
aughsandsi
tsnextt
ome.

Me:Akekhoomunyeumuntuongambangel
aisdi
na
(
Isn'
tther
eanybodyel
seyoucanannoy)

Vukani
:Whywhenigotyou
Me:Ifyouher
etost
opmeisweariam goi
ngt
oki
ll
you

Vukani
:Idon'
tdoubtt
hatatal
l

Me:Pl
easej
ustl
etmedr
inki
npeace

Myphonef
lashes.

Me:Hicanyoupleasegivel
ikeabi
gbiggl
assof
beernott
hoset
allglassnoabiggl
ass

Vukani
:Nkosazanekodwa

Me:Vukani

Vukani
:Okayokay
Hefi
llsthecupwithbeeribur
pmyphonef l
ashes
agai
n.Thebartendergivesmethegl
ass,
youmi st
er
cantalktot
hedrink,idunkmyphoneint
hereand
l
aughal mostf
all
ingoffthest
ool.

Mzwakhe
Herphonej
ustdi
ediknowimessedupbutcani
j
ustknowsheissaf
eandsound,ical
lJames.

James:Youdi
str
act
ingme

Me:Wher
eisPhi
ndi
lewher
edi
dyoudr
opherof
f

James:Shei
satt
hebar

Me:What
James:Ihavet
ogosor
ry

Me:Don'
tyoudar
ehungup.
..James

Amessagecomest hr
oughiopeni
t.Icl
osethe
phoneandputbesi
deme,ital
kmyselfoutofgoi
ng
onarampage.
[
06/
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15:
19] :135

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassleepi
ngpeaceful
lynextthingmybodygets
shovedontheothersi
de.Iwakeupgasping,i
squi
ntmyeyesandl ookatwhoi spushi
ngme.Iam
unablet
oseeiturnaroundandl aysi
deways,
they
pushmeagai nicr
yhel aughs.

Ican'
trememberwhenlastihadsuchani
ce
peacef
ulsl
eep,howdi
dievenendupi nVukani
'
s
house.
Me:Vukaniyi
niungi
hlukumeze

Vukani
:Haibonkosazaneumbhedewamil
okanti
wenaulal
akanjan(Pri
ncesst
hisi
smybed,andhow
doyousleepli
kethat)

Igetupandscanmysur r
oundingsiam l
it
eral
ly
sl
eepingi
nt hemiddleofthebed,wi
thmyl egs
ever
ywhere.Iscootup,hepushesmylegs.

Me:Vukani

Vukani
:Ngilokhengit
hii
nkosazaneizolal
akahle
l
utho(Ikeepthinki
ngyourgoi
ngt osleepprobabl
y
butno)

Ari
ngi
ngphoneblastt
hrought
her
oom,
myhead
pai
nsheanswer
s.
Vukani
:Jameswant
stot
alkt
oyou

Me:Ngihambeayi
khoinki
ngangahambangiye
kwaminomaekhaya(Shouldil
eaveidon'
thavea
probl
em,icangot
omypl aceorhome)

Vukani
:Nawuumnyangodado(
Ther
eist
hedoor
)

Igetupneverbeggedamanwon' tst
artnow.Iam
surehel
ockedallthedoors,buticantr
ansfor
m no
waitt
hat'
sgoingtoscarehim.

Me:Si
zwe

Mzwakhe
Ikeepki
ssi
ngherwakingupsheopenshereyes
thansmi
lesandigetaproperki
ss.
Cynt
hia:Whatwast
hatf
or

Me:Awuboningi
kuvusangest
ayel
a(Can'
tyouseei
am waki
ngyouupwi t
hstyl
e)

Cynt
hia:Hmm il
ikei
t

Me:Ul
alekahl
e

Cynt
hia:Idi
dthankyouver
ymuchwena

Me:Li
keababy

Cynthi
a:Letshaveabathandt
hanyoucanshow
yourgorgeouspent
house
Me:Iwi
llbewi
thyouj
ustnow

Shesmi
les.

Me:Boys

Mvel
o:Mal
ume

Thedemonchi
ldi
gnor
esme.

Me:Mjcanyout
ellmewher
eyouraunti
satl
east

Mj
:Mal
umeVukani
'
shouse

Ohnoshedi
dn'
t.

Phi
ndi
le
Wefight
ingforthekeysimeandidher eal
lyt
hinki
wasgoingtobeghi m.Hetickl
esmeil aughandl et
goofthekey,hepicksitupandruns.Ichaseaf t
er
hi
m heputsitinhisbri
efs.

Me:Ohsmar
tmovemi
stersmar
tmove

Isi
tdown.

Vukani
:Ubuzohambangempel
ankosazane
ungi
shi
ye

Me:Whatdi
dyouthi
nkwasgoi
ngt
ohappencan
youbor
rowmeyourphone

Vukani
:Wher
eisyour
s

Me:Iputi
tinagl
assofbeer
Vukani
:Ohwowyour
emember

Iputmyhandouthegi
vesi
ttome,
ical
lmybr
other
.

Mxol
isi
:Uwubanikemanj
ewena

Me:Hey

Mxol
isi
:Gci
noeyabanil
enumbermanj
e

Hesi
ghswel
augh.

Me:Idamagedmyphone

Mxol
isi
:Yi
niseni
hlukenef
uth
Me:Yangi
lahl
aindoda

Hel
aughs.

Me:Yangi
lahl
aingqondoyahamba

Mxol
isi
:Butyouguysal
waysgetbackt
oget
her

Me:Nott
hist
ime

Mxol
isi
:Doineedt
ocomeback

Me:Iam f
ineimi
ghtcomether
e,hesayshehas
beenseei
ngsomeoneel
se.Iam bor
inghi
m

Hel
aughs.
Mxol
isi
:Iwantt
obet
her
eandpuncht
hel
if
eoutof
hi
m nxi

Me:Yeahsoiam j
ustt
ryi
ngt
opr
ocesst
hiswhol
e
t
hing

Mxol
isi
:Byyour
sel
fuphiuNonhl
e

Me:Idon'
twantt ot
roubl
eiam goingtotakesome
t
imeoffmyhear tayshame.Iam notgoingtotur
n
mybackont heboys,ial
sodon'twanttodisr
upt
t
hem fr
om thei
rrouti
ne.Theyl
ikeitt
hereheloves
t
hem ever
yonelovesthem

Mxoli
si:Uzeuj
olenj
ewawucel
weubani
,wazi
ni
ngomjolo

Me:Canyoutal
ktomom ial
sowantsomet
hingbut
Mzwakheandthatf
ami
lycannotknow
Mxoli
si:Youknowigotyourbackanyt
hingmybaby
iwi
lldoit

Me:Andexpectavi
sit

Mxoli
si:Lethi
m comeakezengizomni
kaamaqupha
ngiml
indeleul
wabishi(
lethi
m comeiwil
lgi
vehi
ma
fewpunches)

Me:Okayiwi
llsoonf
indwayst
ocommuni
cat
ewi
th
youagai
n

Mxol
isi
:Byemyl
ove

Sakhi
le
Iam goodatmi ndi
ngmyownbusiness.Weent
er
thepenthouse,
theonl
yreasonweherearet
heboys
wepromisedMxoli
siweweregoingt
otakecar
eof
t
hem.Theymuchmor egroundednownotli
kehow
wefi
rstmetthem.Mvel
otalkedt
omuchMjwel lnot
muchhaschanged,wai
thecommunicatesmore
whenhewant st
o.

AwomancomesdownThabi
soandil
ookateach
ot
her
.

Her
:Sani
bonani

Sheissmili
ngwel ookatheraf
terawhileher
cheeksfal
ldown,sheclear
sherthroatandheadst
o
thekit
chenwelaugh.

Thabi
so:Maseni
thiiam t
hecr
azyone

Me:WowMvel
o,Mxol
isi
Theycomer
unni
ng.

Mj
:Si
yahambanamhl
anj
e

Thabi
so:Yesboy

Mzwakhe:Awseni
lanabengi
zobahambi
sa

Me:Weal
lpr
omi
sedt
otakecar
eoft
hem

Mzwakhe:Nopr
obl
em heywhatwaspcr
yingabout

Me:Wazi
shayi
sangemot
o

Mzwakhe:I
ni

Me:Hmm boom emot

weniyaVukani
Hi
sfaci
alexpr
essi
onchanges.

Thabi
so:Wawut
hikuyobanj
an

Me:Shi
ndi
ndi

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Vukanihasbeenagr eathostbuti
tst
imef
ormeto
go.Iwasdr essedi
nhisclothi
ngandhewasnot
readyt
of ormet ol
eave.

Me:Wecangonow

Vukani
:Af
teryou
Weheadoutandabunchofcarsawaitus.Iwal
k
backi
nsi
de,
itrustVukanit
ohandl
ethi
sone.

Vukani
Heshouldhaveki
ll
edmewhenhehadthechance,
nowtheyli
ningupi
nmyhousel
ikesomebigbad
boys.

Li
ndani
:Justsoyouknowihadnopar
tint
his

Me:Nihlul
ekil
eukungi
bulal
amanjeseni
semzi
ni
wami ngobanimadoda(Youfai
ledt
okil
lmenow
yal
linmyhousegent l
emenwhy)

Mzwakhe:Youdat
ingher

Me:Mengabekunj
alowenaungenaph
Heget
supf
rom t
hecarbonnet
.

Mzwakhe:Hol
doniam notgoi
ngt
odoanyt
hing

Sakhi
le:Let
stal
kVukaniwhyi
ssheher
e

Me:Icamehomewi t
hhersheshotJamesordi
d
sheandt hanranof.Iwascomingbackhomethat
s
whenisawherwi t
habottl
eonherhandandi
broughtherhere

Sakhi
le:Iam goi
ngt
otal
kheryal
lhol
dhi
m back

Bef
orehecanent
erist
ophi
m andpushhi
m back.

Me:Anginendabaukut
huzwananayekangakanan
awuzovel
eugulukudel
eemzi
niwami(Idon'
tcare
howcl
oseyouarewit
hher
,whatyounotgoi
ngt
o
doi
sentermyhouse)

Li
nda:Wor
d

Me:That haubr awakhoni ngi

phumel e.Ningathi
nivunyiwengaphandl emaseni zozidal
ela,
abangibiziulahlaumlenzemahal afuseganinonke
(Takeyourbr oandgett hehellout.Don'tthi
nkjust
becauseyal lthebaddestinthegame, yallcan
i
nt i
midatemet heydon'tcal
lmel ahleumlenzefor
nothing.Fuckof fmyhouse)

Theyl
aught
hesei
diot
s,igobacki
nsi
de.
[
06/
06,
15:
19] :136

Phi
ndi
le
Hepl
acesthi
sbeaut
if
ulpl
atebef
oreme,
mymi
ndi
s
sof
araway.
Vukani
:Youokay

Me:Yes

Vukani:Ungaqambiamangal
amachwane
owabalayolapho(
Donotliet
hosechi
ckensyou
count
ing)

Me:Yout
hinkyour
eal
lychar
mingneh

Vukani
:Yousl
eepi
ngi
nmybed

Me:Oh

Wel
augh.
Vukani
:Sowhati
s

Me:Ist
il
lhavet
ogoiwasn'
tpl
anni
ngonst
ayi
ng
her
e

Vukani
:Ifyouf
eelyour
eadyf
ort
haticant
akeyou
home

Me:Iwon'
tbegoi
nghome

Vukani
:Okay

Me:Whathappenedidon'
tneedi
thappeni
ngagai
n

Vukani
:Iknowver
ywel
lwhatMzwakhei
scapabl
e
of

Me:Andt
hat
'swhyihavet
ogo
Vukani
:Whyr
unaway

Me:Ihaveaspi ri
tualgi
ftanditsdeepl
yconnected
totheBhengu' sican'tescapethem.Untiligi
vei
tup
andt hatisn'taguar ant
ee,icaneit
herdieor
disappearf orever.I
fyoust i
llf
eelt
hesameway
aboutmewhenicomeback, t
hanwecanpur sue
thisfurt
her

Igetupandki
sshi
sfor
ehead.

Mzwakhe
Idon'
tunder
standwhati
sfunnyt
heyl
aughi
ngl
i
kea
bunchofmadhyenas.

Li
nda:Waaayshameusuwabanj
e
Me:Ngi
hlekwauwenaskhul
u

Thabi
so:Ineverseent
hissi
deofVukani

Me:Ther
eisnosi
deever
yonewant
sapieceoft
he
pi
eandihappent
ojustt
ast
ewhati
tsl
ike

Thabi
so:Youdon'
tthi
nksomet
hinggoi
ngon

Me:I
ftherewasanythi
ngyouwoul
dhaveseeni
t.
Phi
ndi
leisjustmad

Li
nda:Youmessedupadmi
tit

Me:Havei

Ithoughtiwoul
dfeelbad,iwaskindofwait
ingto
feelsomethi
ngbutidon'
t.Idofeelbadaboutwhati
di
dandicanpossibl
ypayahugepr
icef
ori
t,buti
am nothear
tbr
oken.

Thabi
so:Sowhati
sthewayf
orwar
dnowhowdo
weapologi
ze,
howdowemoveon

Me:Idon'
tmi
ndapol
ogi
zeordoi
ngwhat
evert
hat
needst
obedone

Thabi
so:Li
ndokuhl
e

Li
ndokuhle:Noamountofsor
rycanfixormendthe
damagethathasal
readybeendone.Youfuckedup
andthat
si t

Evenmybr
other
sdon'
tli
keme.

Vukani
Evenifiweretopursuearel
ationshi
pwit
hherican
j
ustseeitfr
om hereyes.ShelovesMzwakheand
thi
sbreakwilldestr
oyher
,idon'tknowwhati
tis
thatmakefemal esj
ustl
oseitallwheni
tcomesto
thatguy

Il
ookoutt
hewi
ndowwi
thagl
assofwhi
skeyi
nmy
hand.

"
Ohi
knowt
hatl
ook"

Ihi
demygl
assandsmi
le.

Me:Heyma

Shegi
vesmeahugebi
gwar
m hear
t.

Ma:Wel
comehomemychi
ld
Myhear
tmel
ts.

Ma:Al
readyoutandt
her
eisaMr
sMhl
ongoont
he
way

Me:Lut
hogogo

Shest
ilspeaksEngl
ish.

Ma:Letmepreparethemotherofal
ldi
nner
sand
youcantel
lmeallabouti
t

Me:Kodwama

Car
son:Vukani
Me:Mt
anoml
ungu

Car
son:Idon'
tl
ikeyou

Me:Aw

Twoboyscomer unni
ngi
nandcat chi
ngthere
breat
h.Idon'
tknowmom' sf
ami l
ythatwell
,
becausewellhal
fofmyli
feispentlockedup.

Phi
ndi
le
Igethomeandt hr
owmysel fonthebedandcry.
Firsthesai
didon'tfi
tinnotinsomanywor ds,
i
dresshorri
bleifi
xedthat
.Thanhesaidhedoesn't
l
iket hewayisomet i
mesactitoneddown,nowhe
saysiam boringwow.

Voi
ce:"
Queensdon'
tcry,don'
tloweryourdi
gni
tyf
or
amanwhoknowsnot hingaboutlove"
Voi
ce:"
Youwayt
oobeaut
if
ulf
ort
hat
"

Igetupt
hesear
enott
henor
malvoi
cesiheari
nmy
head.

Voi
ce:"Youar
eagorgeousyoungl
adyican'
t
bel
ieveyouar
ecr
ying"

Me:Am idr
eami
ng

Voi
ce:"
Drowni
ngi
nsor
rowwon'
tbr
inghi
m back"

Me:Whati
sgoi
ngongogo.
..Mamba

Voice:"
Iam hopingt
hiswillmakeupforallt
he
tr
oubleihaveputyouthrough.
.Ican'
tloseyoumy
chil
dwecan'tloseyou"
Am idyi
ng.

Vukani
Thedinnerstart
edonagr eatpl
atemom st
il
lcooks
eversodelici
ously.Herhusbandhaswelcomedme,
hemaybewhi tebuthiskidsdamnthesearesome
fi
nemot herfuckers.MomsDNAi st
heshit
.

Me:Soyoust
ayedandhadf
ivemor
echi
ldr
en

MrOwen:Whatcanisayyourmot
herst
il
lgot

Teyana:TMITMI

Wel
augh.

Emi
ly:I
tsl
ovel
ytof
inal
lyputaf
aceont
heeverso
char
mingVukani

Br
andon:Sot
ellusaboutt
hisgi
rl

Il
ookdown.

Emi
ly:Ooyoubl
ushi
ng

Me:Sheissomet
hingel
sebutherhear
tis
somewhereel
se

Zach:Mar
ri
ed

Me:No

Zach:Chi
ldr
en
Me:No

Zach:Than..I
sherheartreal
lyonsomeoneel
seor
i
sityoualreadyconcl
udingherhearti
swit
h
someoneel se

Me:Yol
ezi
ngamul
a(Thesewhi
tepeopl
e)

Whatdoyouguyst hi
nkishoulddo.Ireall
yli
keher
andt hetwodayswespentt oget herwerej
ust
magi cal
,teasi
ngeachothergivingeachotherspace
i
nt i
macywi thoutanyphysi
caltouching.Noishould
forgetaboutherandmoveon, wouldhavebeen
nicethough.
[
06/
06,
15:
19] :137

Twoyear
slat
er

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasmixi
ngsomeherbswhil
ehummi ngatune,i
fi
llt
hecupwit
hther
iverwat
erandpouriti
ntot
he
bowlandmix.

Si
zwe:Aywahl
alake

Hel
aughs.

Sizwe:Thi
sist
helongestyouhavebeenhereiam
sureyoucan'
tevengobacktotherealwor
ld

Ii
gnorehim andconti
nuewithmyconcoct
ion,
the
waterst
art
sbubblingilookathi
m.

Si
zwe:ThankyouMambawehadenoughofher

Ipourmymixtur
eintoatube,
closi
ngt
hetubeand
shakei
treal
lywel
l.Igetupmakingmywayint
othe
r
ivert
handi
vei
n.

Mzwakhe
Whatawowwher edoievenbegi n.ImissPhindil
e,i
tri
edtosuppressmyf eelingsanddownpl aymy
emot i
ons.Butithasbeensohar d,it
sbeent wo
yearsandnothingf rom her.Notraceor
whereaboutsofher .It
slikeshedisappearedfrom
thefaceoftheear t
h, myhear twasshatter
ed.I
madet hedecisionandnowihavet oli
vewithit.

Sheki
ssesmycheek.

Me:Hey

Cynt
hia:Whati
swr
ong

Me:Not
hingwhy
Cynthi
a:Thesedaysyouj
ustidon'
tknowoutof
touchwit
hreali
ty

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Iam sor
ry

Cynt
hia:Noi
tsokayiam goi
ngt
owor
kiwi
llsee
youl
ater

Me:Il
oveyou

Cynt
hia:Il
oveyout
oomybaby

Igr
abmyphoneandcal
lSakhi
le.
Sakhi
le:Whatupt
hough

Me:Anywor
donher

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhewesear chedeverywhereforher
.
Weevenwentt oSingapor
eshewasn' tthere,we
wenttoVukani
'sshewasn'tther
e.Whatel sedoyou
possi
blywantfr
om me, mustisellmysoult ofi
nd
her

Me:Yes

Sakhi
le:Okaygoodbye

Hehungsup.Ipourmysel fsomewhi skey,

iclose
thebli
ndsandswi tchonthel
ightst
handi mthem.I
sitonthecouchandl ookup,
thiswasmeantt obea
surpri
se.Apictur
eofherontheceil
ing,butigot
carri
edawayf arf
araway.
Me:Mamakant
iukuphi

Idownt
hewhi
skeyi
nonego.

Phi
ndi
le
Iarr
iveatthenewhouseMxol i
si boughtforme.I
mustapplaudhim hedidagr eatjob,upinhi l
ls.Thi
s
i
sexactlymykindofstylesimpl e,yetoverthetop.I
makemywayi nt
ot heki
tchent hereisanot eont he
i
sland.

"
Wel
comehome"

Nexttoi
tisaboxiopenit
.Heboughtmeaphone
andalapt
op,whataboutacarMxol
isiacarnoiam
j
oking.
"
Beenwonder
ingwhenyoucomi
ngbackhome"

Hi
sdeepyetsubt
levoi
cedoesthi
ngstomybody.I
l
ookupohmyGodhei sleani
ngagai
nstt
hewall
wit
hhi
sanklescr
ossed.

Me:It
oldgoiam f
ineiam handl
ingi
t

Him:Rightdi
sappear
ingf
ort
woyear
sisyou
handl
ingit

Whyishecomingcloset
ome, ist
epbackwar
dshe
bi
teshi
slowerli
p.Ibumpint
osomebodybehindme,
whoarethesedr
opdeadgorgeousbl
ackmen.

Hi
m:Iam Thapel
oBhengu

Hi
m:Andiam Nqobi
zit
haBhengu
If
aint
.

Mzwakhe
Iputtheglassdownwhenfeeladeepsharppai
n
comingfrom mychest
,that
'snotgood.Ical
l
Thabiso.

Thabi
so:Wakhe

Me:Canyoucomeonover

Iwi
ncei
npai
n.

Thabi
so:Yi
nikwenzenj
an

Me:Idon'
tThabi
sobutiam f
eel
ingaver
ybadkni
fe
st
abbingpai
ninmychest
Thabi
so:OhmyGodiam comi
ng

Ihungupt hesharppainhit
smehard, igodown
holdingmychest .What'sgoi
ngonwhyi sthis
happeni ngtome, t
hepainshowsnomer cyonme.I
sufferinagonyican'tevensayanyt
hing, nextthi
ng
isufferfrom asei
zure.

Sakhi
le
That
ocomest
ouswest
andup.

Thato:Imanagedtostabil
izehi
m buthei
sst
il
lina
ver
ymuchcr it
icalsi
tuat
ion

If
allbackont
hechai
r.

That
o:Hehassl
ippedi
ntoacomat
henextcoupl
e
ofhour
scanbeamakeorbr
eak.
..Excuseme

Mzwakheallhisli
fei
fhei sn'
tmessingup,heis
dyi
ng.Hedoesn'thavethecorrectheartwej
ust
bor
roweditfortheti
mebei ng,i
tdidn'
tshowany
si
gnsofresi
stingornotresponding.

Thabi
so:Uzobar
ightSakhi
le

Me:Di
dn'
tyouhearwhatThat
osai
dhei
sinacoma

Li
nda:Skhul
ucal
m down

Me:Ani
ngi
yeka

Thabi
so:Hewi
llbef
iner
elax
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :138
Sakhi
le
Iwassi t
ti
ngneart
heblackr
iver
,thisplacei
sjustso
peaceful
.Icoul
dli
veheremyentireli
feawoman
approachesme.

Me:"
Mommykodwa"

Phi
ndil
e:"
Taket
hisandmakehi
m dr
inki
theshoul
d
bef
ine"

Shegivesatubehowam igoi
ngt
ogett
hispasst
he
doct
ors,il
ookupshe'
sgone.

"
Sakhi
le.
..Sakhi
le"

Me:Mmmm.
..Yel
lowbone

Nonhl
e:Gohomet
akeashowerandr
est
Me:Ineedt
ogi
vet
hist
ohi
m Phi
ndi
legavei
ttome

Nonhl
e:She'
sback?

Me:Isawheratt
her
iveridon'
tknow

Nonhl
e:I
fyousawhert
hatmeansshe'
sback

Me:Iam goi
ngt
ojam t
hecamer
asyouwat
chout
f
orThato

Phi
ndi
le
Ifai
ntedandidon'tr
ememberwhathappenedafter
that
.Thesemenar eallupi
nface,
ifeelt
ingl
esi
nall
theri
ghtplaces.

Guy1:Whyyoubl
inki
ngal
ot
Guy2:She'
scr
yingar
ewemaki
ngyoucr
y

Me:What
sgoi
ngonwhoar
eyoupeopl
e

Thapel
o:Thesear
emybr
other
s

"
Kagi
so"

"
Mthokozi
si"

"
Sibongakonke"

"
Langel
ihl
e"

Thapel
o:Wear
etheBhengu'
s
Me:Youguysar
ereal
,iam noti
nanot
her
di
mension

Thapel
o:Wei
nyourhouser
ight

Langa:Thapel
o

Me:Yal
lar
ehear
tst
opper
sar
eyouher
etost
ayor

Thapelo:Iam heart
omakesureyouareokayand
thatyoustaycanyouguyspl
easeexcuseus

Welookateachot
herwhyam if
eel
ingt
hisway.I
am dr
ool
ingandheisl
iki
ngever
yminut
eofit
.

Mzwakhe
Iwokeupf
rom t
hegat
esofdeath.Iwasi
nawar
bet
weenmysel
fanddarknessandahandcamej
ust
i
nti
meandpul
ledmeup.

Me:Cynt
hiast
opiam okay

Myf
ami
lyent
ers.

Ol
wet
hu:Ohmysweet
iepi
emyangel

Me:Mommy

Ol
wet
hu:Whatboughtyouf
oodwhati
sthi
s

Shetakesitandthr
owsitint
hebi n,
Cynthial
ooks
downsheboughtmef oodandicoul dn'
teatit
.It
wasn'tbecauseidi
dn'
twantto,ij
ustcouldn'
teat.
Ayandacomest omyside,Nonhleisstandi
ngfar
awaywi t
hherarmscrossed.
Ayanda:Yougood

Me:Iam goodbr
o

Ayanda:Nonhl
e

Me:Don'
tshoutathernow

That
oent
ersandchoosesvi
olencehai
bo.

Thato:Youeverpul
lthatst
untagai
niam goi
ngt
o
fuckyourbal
ls

Sakhi
le:Ouch!Hei
sal
ivenj
e

That
o:Idon'
tcar
e
Heshout
s

Thato:Nonhleiam goi
ngtoki
llyouidon'
tcar
ewho
yourmani s.
.Anigudl
uke

Me:Sakhi
lewhatdi
dyoudo

Sakhi
le:Uyaphi
laangan.
.Val
auml
omowakho

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'tknowwhatt omakeoft hi
sacceptf orjust
acceptingit.Gogodoesherownt hingsandihave
toacceptt hem.IhavetoacceptthatMzwakheand
theboysar ecursed,ihavet
oacceptiam al so
cursedbecausenobodyi nt
herightmindwoul d
acceptt hi
s.Ancestor
shaveawayoff or
cingyour
hand.

Iwasdoi
ngsomeshoppi
ngt
hathousehad
absolut
elynot
hing.Thecuteguysl
eftt
heywillbe
comingbacksoon, ineedt
ofocusandfightt
heevil
thatawait
sme.

Iacci
dent
all
ybumpi
ntosomeguy,
hedr
opshi
s
phone.

Hi
m:Real
lyb

Iswal
lowineverthoughtiwoul
dseehi
m again,
my
hear
tisraci
ngwhatdoidowal kawayorsay
somethi
ng.Iwalkawayheshoutsmyname.

Andi
le:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Ngiyaxol
isangi
zoyikhokhai
foniyakho,
ngi
yacelaungangi
li
mazi(Iam sorrypleasedon'
t
hur
tme, iam gotorepl
aceyourphone)
Il
eavemyshoppi
ngcar
tandwal
kout
.

Andi
le
Aft
erthataltercat
ionPhi
ndi
lemademel osemy
sense.Ipaidforherthi
ngsanddrovedowntoher
apart
ment ,ibuzzeinandwaitbyt
hegatethegat
e
opensidrivein.

Me:Hi

Secur
it
y:Gooddaysi
r

Me:Iam lookingforPhindi
leGumedeihave
grocer
ies,wel
lsher ecei
vedacal
landlef
ther
thi
ngs.Pleasesiriam notamadmanorapsycho

Secur
it
y:Wedon'
thaveaPhi
ndi
le
It
akeoutcashandgi
vei
thi
m.Hel
ooksatt
hest
ack
ofmoneythanme.

Secur
it
y:Shedoesn'
tli
veher
eanymorei
tski
ndof
sadever
yonemissesher,
shesol
dherapar
tment

Me:Doyouper
hapsknowwher
eicanf
indher

Secur
it
y:Herbr
othermi
ghtbeabl
etohel
pyou
Mxoli
si

Me:Thankyou

Idr
iveoutwher
ecoul
dshebe.
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :139

Andi
le
IseePhi
ndi
leandmyador
abl
esonshowsupt
hat
cannotbeacoi
nci
dence.

Phi
lani
:Woul
dyoust
op

Me:Rememberyouusedt
olovet
his

Phi
lani
:Wel
lAndi
leidon'
t.
.Dadwoul
dyoust
op

Me:Yourmeanyoudon'
tli
kemeanymor
e

Hel
aughs.

Me:Youst
il
lmyf
avor
it
e

Phi
lani
:Youhavet
obef
ast

Seeisai
dit
.
Me:Wher
eisshe

Phi
lani
:Shei
sri
ghti
nfr
ontofyou

Me:Wow

Phi
lani
:Youhavet
obef
asti
fyouwanther

Ri
ghtinf
rontofmeit
extmyguysineedsome
i
nfor
mati
on.

Phi
ndi
le
Iatt
endtot
hedoorwhocouldi
tbethatpossi
bly
foundmesosoon.Iopent
hedoorandmyhear t
melts.

Me:Vukani
Hekissesmedeepandpassi
onat
etaki
ngofmy
cl
othesandhi
s.

Me:Vukani

Wefal
lonthecouch,
heni
bblesonmyneckigasp.
Heput
shisfi
ngeronmyalr
eadywetcoochi
e.

Igaspwakingup.Iwouldn'
tmi
ndbei
ngwit
hhim,
Vukanii
sasnackandi smanwhoknowshis
busi
ness.

Nonhl
e:Hel
lo

Me:Hi

Shehungsupichuckl
e.
Mzwakhe
Ican'tnotstandt hehospit
aliam gl
adt
obeback
home, allofthem fussaboutmecomeon.Ihave
beatenthisbef or
eiwi l
lagai
n.

Me:Aniyekel
entoeni
yenzayohawu.I
sesbhedl
ela
bayangi
xinangaphai
niniaygowanmarn

Ifiam dyi
ngt
hanmyt i
mehascome,whatt
hey
shouldbedoi
ngisf
indi
ngoutwher
ethehel
lis
Phindi
le.

Cynt
hia:Doyouwantanyt
hingt
oeat

Me:Nomyl
ove

Mvel
o:Mal
ume
Me:Hey.
.Heyt
her
eli
tt
leguy

Heisinhighschoolnow.Theysot
allidon'
tknow
wheretheygoi
ng,Mjismrcoolguynowt heyoung
f
emalesadorehim.

Mj
:Mpi
ntshi

Me:Nt
wana

Wef
ist
bump.

Me:Wher
eisyouraunt

Mj
:Nott
ofaraway
Iseem tohavelosthisl
oyal
tyhedoesn'topenupas
much, butiam l
ookingt
ochangethat.Heisgoing
totel
lmewher ehisauntisat
.

Mj:Baba..Usebuyil
eayakanalut
h,uqalei
mpi
namadloziayazi
phindisel
ela(
Dad..
.Heisbackno
hehasnot hi
ng,hestartedawarwiththeancest
ors
andtheytakingrevengeonhim)

Hel
aughs.

Mj
:Yebookay

Me:Ist
art
edwarwi
tht
heancest
orsohmyGodhow

Phi
ndi
le
I
fanybodybother
smeisweariwon'tbe
r
esponsi
bleforwhatiwoul
ddotothem.Ikept
t
hinki
ngaboutVukaniandwhatwoul
ditmeanfor
me, ifiweretogi
veupeverythi
ng.Ipassbythe
restaurantsmyhear
tbeatsfast,
wel ookateach
otherhei swit
hanot
herwoman.Wel lt
heregoesmy
dream, ifi
xmycapandcont i
nuewal ki
ng.

Vukani
Igotuptoseewhereshewasheaded,she
di
sappearedint
othi
nair
.Emilyhi
tsmewitht
he
napki
n,smil
ingli
kearet
ard.

Me:Awukahl
e

Emi
ly:I
sthather

Teyanashowsupf
iveyear
slat
er.

Teyana:Iknowiknow
It
urnar
oundmyhandsar
eshaki
ng.

Teyana:What
swr
ongwi
thhi
m

Emi
ly:Youmi
ssedoutonseei
ngsi
steri
nlaw

Me:Excusemej
ustf
oronesecond

Ir
unoutcal
li
ngmyguy.

Me:Yeahyeahli
stensheisint
hemal
lri
ghtnow.
.
Tel
lmewher eshe'
satfast

Par
kingshemust
,nodropoffzoneshucks.Isee
mysist
ersdr
amati
cal
lyrunni
ngtowardsme.

Me:What
swr
ong
Emi
ly:Wecomi
ngt
ohel
pyou

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yeahokayt
hankyou.
.Let
sgo

Phi
ndi
le
Iam doneshoppingiam goinghomenow.Il eave
thecl
othi
ngstore,Vukaniandthetwoladiesstop
mycart.Justl
ikemydr eam butdi
ff
erenthekisses
meandspar ksfl
y.

Vukani
:Yesist
il
lver
ymuchwantt
obewi
thyou

Il
ookdownandsmi
le.

Vukani
:Osi
sibamil
abahal
fsi
sterEmi
lyand
TeyanaOwen

Ohtheywhi
tethat
'swhyicoul
dn'
treadher
,aspiri
t
wantst
oenterandil
ookatthel
adi
eswithdisgust
.
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :140

Andi
le
Fl
owerhassomet
hingf
ormet
hatwasf
ast
.

Me:Whatdoyouhave

Fl
ower
:Idon'
tknowi
fwi
llbegoodnewsf
oryou

Me:Youonedayiam goi
ngt
otur
nyoui
ntoan
act
ualf
lower

Fl
ower
:Wel
lshei
supi
nhi
ll
s
Me:Heyt
hisi
snott
ofarf
rom myhouse

Fl
ower:Idon'
tknowwhoi
sthi
sguy,
shewasseen
ki
ssi
nghim

Il
ookathi
m andt
hepi
ctur
e.

Fl
ower:If
oundoutmor
eher
efavor
it
echocol
ate,
fl
ower
s

Iam goi
ngt
her
eri
ghtnow.

Phi
ndi
le
Nonhl
ecal
lsme.

Nonhl
e:Wher
ehaveyoubeen
Me:Somewher
e

Nonhl
e:Sor
ryidr
oppedyourcal
ltheywereinthe
r
oom andit
houghtyouwouldn'
twantyourpri
vacy
i
nvadeli
ket
hat

Thati
sal
ie.

Nonhl
e:Okayyoujustvani
shedanddi
dsayawor
d.
Phi
ndi
lehowcouldyoudot hatt
ome

Me:Haveyoueverbeendumpedandt
oldyouar
e
bor
ing

Nonhl
e:Thanyoushoul
dhavef
ought

Me:Forwhat
Nonhl
e:Can'
tyouseewhathei
sdoi
ng.
.Anyways
youokay

Me:Noiam f
ine

Thedoorbel
lri
ngs.

Me:Ihavet
ogosomeone'
satt
hedoort
ellmewhen
youwantustomeet

Ihungupandgodown.

Me:Okayokay

Ihi
pandhoptothedooronl
ytobedi
sappoi
nted.I
makewayforhi
m.
Vukani
Mysi sterwher
eshockedatherreact
ionimyself
wasal soshocked,t
hanrememberedshei sspi
ri
tual
.
Shepr obabl
ysawsomet hi
ngandshedi dn'
tli
keitor
thatspiri
tdi
dn'
tli
keit,
iam notsur
e.

Mel
usi
:Your
eal
lygoi
ngaf
terMzwakhe'
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Me:Engi
kwenzayoMel
usi
Mhl
ongoakuhl
angene
nawe

Mel
usi
:Shei
sdat
ing

Me:Was.
.Was

Mel
usi
:Thatdoesn'
tmat
tershewasst
il
lfuckedby
t
hatman
Me:Yi
niozamaukuyi
sho

Mel
usi
:She'
sdamagedgoods

Me:Hambauyahluphaomunyeumunt
uungal
okhe
ungi
bangel
aisdi
na

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Ma

Ma:Whathaveyoudonetomygi
rl
syouknow
Oweni
sreadytokil
lyou

Me:Nomal i
stenshei
sspir
it
ualunesi
pho.
Mhlawumbekhonaokwenzeki
le,
nomaumoya
omngeni
le
Ma:Iam comingthereandyougoi
ngt
oexpl
aint
o
mewhatt hehel
lisgoingon

Il
ookatMel
usi
.

Phi
ndi
le
Hebroughtmechocol
ateiam achocohol
ic.Ican
neversaynot
ochocol
ate.

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eAndi
le

Andi
le:Uhm iknowidi
dyouwr
ong

Me:Yout
ermi
nat
edmypr
egnancyandsmackedme

Andi
le:I
Myphoner
ings.

Me:Excuseme.
.Hey

Vukani
:Mommymamel aneiknowt
echni
cal
lyyabo
kodwamaolediucel
aukukbona

Me:Al
readyohaboutyest
erday

Vukani
:Nopr
essur
e

Me:Okay

Vukani
:Soshoul
dicomeandpi
ckyouupnow

Il
aughandhungup.Itakeoutt
womugsiam ver
y
i
ntr
iguedonwhathehastosay.
Mzwakhe
Ical
lMxol
isiiam hopi
nghewon'
tscr
eam atme
thi
sti
me,l
ikehealwaysdoes.

Mxol
isi
:Awi
zinj
a

Me:Uphiusi
swakho

Mxolisi
:Theonl
yreasonipickedupyourcal
lis
becauseofmyson,forsomewei r
dreasonmyson
adoresyou.Mvel
ohimselfsmartmouthobsessed
malume, mal
umemal ume

Il
augh.

Mxoli
si:Unemal
iMzwakhe,
unenkunzi
malanga
yochwepheseusei
tandyouwil
lfi
ndher.Shei
snot
ver
yfar

Hehungsupwhatdoest
hatmean.Shei
snotver
y
f
ar.

Me:Namanj
engempel
aani
mthol
i

Thabi
so:Awunayoi
ntombiMzwakhe

Me:Awumet
uThabi
soNonhl
egi
rlt
ellmewher
eis
she

Nonhl
e:Formet
otel
lyouwhati
sitt
hatyoudi
dfor
me

Me:Igaveyouaboyfri
endyouhoe,
that
smy
br
otheryoudat
ing.Soonyougoi
ngtobeaBhengu
Us:Youshi
di

Wel
augh.

Me:Noser
iousl
yNonhl
e

Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowwher
eshei
sionl
yhear
dfr
om
heraf
ewdaysago

Thabi
sosnat
chesherphoneandr
unsif
oll
owhi
m.

Nonhl
e:Thabi
soiswear

Thephoner
ingsihol
dherback.

"
YaThabi
so"
Herunsout
,iam hol
dingNonhl
eiheart
heengi
ne
st
art
ingwelaugh.
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :141

Phi
ndi
le
Iheardhi
sapologyandiam choosi
ngtomoveon.I
arri
veatVukani'
shouseandsomebodyiswait
ing
forme,heentersmybodyVukaniat
temptstohug
me.Ipushhim awayandmakemywayi nsi
de,thi
s
shouldbeint
eresti
ng.

Isi
tont
heendandst
areathi
smom.

Vukani
:Uhm ever
ybodyt
hisi
s

Me:"
Hlal
aphansinj
omane"

Igetupandheadout
sideineedasmoke.Idon'
t
smokeohthisi
shor
ri
ble.Vukanimusthave
somet
hinginhi
scar
.

Vukani
:Mommykwenzenj
an

Me:"Mommywokunukawozal
aVukanimanj
e,
awunayoi
nkawuzal
apho"

Vukani
:Hai
bonkosazane

Me:"
Nomahambauyongi
thengel
a"

Vukani
:Kant
iwhat
sgoi
ngon

Me:" I
yinganeeziwufi
veVukanifiveakuphel
anga
ngishoisonto,umawakhomanj espeakingbelungu"
(f
ivechi l
drenVukanif
ivenotevenaweekaf termy
death,youralr
eadymar r
iedtoawhi t
eman)
Hel
aughs.

Me:"Ungabii
sli
manj
engamiuyambonal
osi
sibuka
i
sinqa)

Ispankmyass.

Me:"
Amahi
psf
ullpackage"

Mzwakhe
Iam wai
ti
ngforThabi
soandheist
akingfor
evert
o
comeback.Wherehasshebeenal
lthi
sti
me.

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:Yeah
Sakhil
e:Whynotsayyouwantt
ogi
veher
,her
workshopback

Aft
eri
twasdamagedi tdi
dn'tt
akemucht
imefor
metofixandr
epai
rit.If
orgoti
twasmeantt
obea
sur
pri
sethanCynt
hiaandihappened.

Me:I
lokhonj
eengi
kuf
unayo

Sakhi
le:Manj
e

Me:Angi
maziukut
hukephnj
e

Sakhi
le:Youhave

Me:Iam goi
ngtopunchyourgr
oinsobadyou
won'
tbeabletohandl
eit
Sakhil
e:Youknowshesavedyourl
ifet
hatiswhy
Thatosmackedmeiam goingtogethi
mf ort
hat
.
Shegavemesomewei r
dlooki
ngconcoct
ion,
i
madeyoudr i
nkitandyouwokeup

Me:Justl
iket
hat

Sakhi
le:Justl
i
ket
hat

Shest
il
lcar
es.

Sakhil
e:Whenyoudogett
oseeherhumbl
e
yoursel
f

Vukani
Iam notsur
ewhati
sgoingonmydadhadaraspy
voi
ce.Howdoessheevenknowmom hasf
iveother
chil
dren,
wewal kbackinsi
deshedoesn'twantt
o.I
dragherwest r
uggl
ef orawhi
le,
lucki
lysheisa
womanipl aceherovermyshoulder.

Ma:Vukani

Imakehersi
tevent
hati
sast
ruggl
e.

Me:St
opi
t

Phi
ndi
le:"
Ngi
let
hel
eugwayiwamingi
bheme
ngi
hambe"

Me:Noyounotget
ti
nganyci
gar
ett
es

Shegaspandcoughsil
etgoofher
.Shet
ri
est
oget
upihol
dher.
Me:Phi
ndi
lest
opyouembar
rassi
ngyour
sel
f

Phi
ndi
le:"
She'
stheonewhohadfi
vebabi
eswitha
whi
teman, mi
naiwasenoughf
oryourmother
"

Shebur
iesherheadonmyshoul
derandcr
ies.

Phi
ndi
le:Wowokaydi
dir
uinmymake-
up

Me:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul

Phi
ndi
le:Iam okaynow

Me:Yousur
e

Phi
ndi
le:Washeal
waysl
iket
his
Me:Tri
ckyyouneverknewwhatyouwer
egoi
ngt
o
gett
henextday.
..Noit
sfinesi
t

Okaywecanst
il
lhaveagoodni
ght
.

Me:Okayever
yonet
hisi
s

Phi
ndi
le:"
WeJoycei
yinganeezi
wuf
ivengempel
a"

Il
aymyheadont
het
abl
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Thisguyisnotoverthefi
vechi
ldrensaga.Ihadto
chasehim outbecausehewasn'tsayi
nganythi
ng.
Vukanii
shol di
ngmyhand.

Me:Uhm l
etmeapol
ogi
ze
MrsOwen:Howdoyouevenknowihavef
ive
chi
ldr
en

Me:Idon'
tbutyouhusbanddoes

Mr
sOwen:What

Me:"Ungayenzakanj ankodwaintoenjanjoyyazi
uyi
phuli
lei
nhlizi
yoyami "that
shim againheisver
y
hurtyoudi
dn'tatleastal
lowyourselft
omour nand
heal

Vukani
:Canwemoveonf
rom t
his

Me:Ican' theneedstosaywhathewant stosay

otherwisehei sgoi
ngtokeept roubli
ngme, iam
sorryforlookingatyoul
ikethatitwasn'tme.
"Singahlanganangaphansikwesihlahlauphathe
l
eyangut shanayakhoewayut hiuyayindl
ala
zumeki
yaneumunt
u"

Shel
ooksatmeismi
le.

Me:Doyouunder
standwhatiam sayi
ng

Mr
sOwen:It
hinkido

Il
ookatVukani
.

Mzwakhe
Hef
inal
lyar
ri
ves.

Me:Whatt
ookyousol
ong

Thabiso:Sheli
vesver
yfarawayupi
nthehi
ll
syoh
thathouseissi
ck
Me:Di
dyouseeher

Thabi
so:Not
her
e'swasnobodyt
her
esoyouknow

Hehandsmehi
sphone.

Me:Whati
fshesensesyoui
nst
all
edcamer
ast
her
e

Thabi
so:Nevermindaboutt
hat
,that
sherhouse
andthi
sisheraddress

Me:Thankyoubr
o

Thabiso:Anyt
imenowdon'taggr
avat
eheraf
teral
l
sheisasnakeanddangerous
Me:Okay
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :142

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'tr
ememberwhenlastigotbl
essedwit
ha
d*ck.Helif
tsmylegupandrubshisti
ponmy
entr
ance,asourli
psmoveinperf
ectrhyt
hm.He
sl
owl ypushesi
nimoanthroughkiss.

Vukani
:Fuck

Hepushandpushesthecondom i
smakingthi
ngsa
l
it
tl
ebituncomfor
tabl
ebutsaf
etyf
irst
.If
eelal
lof
hi
mi n,
thatbl
ackMambaisgoingtodest
royme.

Vukani
:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Mmm
Hepul
lsout
.

Me:What

Vukani
:Itwentdown

Me:Huh!

Vukani
:Itwentdown

Me:Oh

Vukani
:Yout
hinkaboutsomet
hing

Me:Yeahhowyougoi
ngt
ofi
nishme
Hechuckl
es.

Me:Comeher
e

Weki
ss.

Me:Don'
twor
ryiam af
teral
lagoddessgi
vei
tti
me

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Heyl
ovey

Mxol
isi
:Mt
ase

Me:Whati
sgoi
ngon

Mxol
isi
:Wher
ear
eyouMzwakhef
igur
edoutyour
l
ocati
on.Hewasi
nst
all
ingcamer
asont
opoft
he
onesiput

Me:Di
dn'
thebr
eakupwi
thme

Mxol
isi
:Bot
tom l
inei
s

Me:Ayidon'
tneedthi
sinmylif
engi
zohamba
ngi
yekhayamekunj
aloweeavel
eangi
thol
e

Wel
augh.

Vukani
Wellthatwasembar rassi
ngbutthanagain,we
rushi
ngi nt
othings.Noiwaitedf
orherandi
deservesomepussy, ishakemyhead.Shewas
chil
li
ngont hecouchandiwassl avi
ngawayi nthe
kit
chen.Idon'tmindiam usedtodoingthingsf
or
myselfit
smyhouseandshei smyguest.
Me:Whatwoul
dyoul
iket
odr
ink

Phi
ndi
le:Wat
er

Ipul
loutawat
erbot
tl
efr
om t
her
efr
iger
ator
.

Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngt
her
e

Phindi
le:Iam t
ryi
ngt
ogetmypagebackdoyou
needanyhelp

Me:Lut
honkosazane

Phi
ndi
le:Okay.
.Hel
loiam busyyoudor
eal
izeyou
brokeupwit
hme.Okaythansowhyyoucall
ingme,
iwantnot
hingt
odowithyousopl
easeleaveme
al
one

Shegetsupandheadout si
de,shet
hrowsher
phoneinsidethepool
.Iam i
nforawil
drol
ler
-
coast
erride.

Mzwakhe
Whydoesshekeepsayi
ngt
hat
,it
ryi
ngcal
li
ngher
agai
nvoi
cemailohmyGod.

Me:Yel
lowbonepl
easet
ryandgetherher
e,t
he
t
hingi
sr eady

Theyl
augh.

Me:Ngi
yakucel
amommy
Shet
akesherphoneandmakesacal
l.

Nonhl
e:Voi
cemai
lhol
donmaybet
hisi
sher
..Hel
lo

"
WhywhyNonhl
e"

Nonhle:Hesayshehassomethingforyou
ungakwaziukuzal
aekhayael
ikhulu

Phindil
e:Lalel
alawenaMzwakheungali
nge
unginyanyiseyezwaangekeni
thandemase
ngi
casukile,anganunent
ombiwena

Me:Aw

Phi
ndi
le
Ihandhi
m backhi
sphonebot
hmywr
istwer
e
cover
edwi
tht
hebi
rt
hmar
k.

Vukani
:Ungacabangiukut
huzohl
ukananami

Me:Kuyomel
eubei
njayegame

Hel
aughs.

Me:Youbet
terbepr
epar
edt
ofi
ght

Vukani
:Whi
leyousi
tandenj
oyt
hemovi
e

Me:Exactl
yal
otoft
hingsar
egoi
ngt
estyour
pat
ience

Vukani
:Iwasinjai
lmyenti
rel
if
ehowmuchmor
e
canmypatiencebetest
Me:Jai
lthat
sit

Vukani
:What

Me:Youcan'
tsl
eepwi
thmebecauseyoudi
rt
y

Vukani
:Imustbecl
eansednowwhoi
sgoi
ngt
odo
t
hat

Me:Idon'
tknowandyoucan'
tgot
oanyheal
er
unl
esstheyspi
ri
tual

Vukani:Youarever
ydemandingandour
rel
ati
onshiphasn'
tevenbegun

Wel
augh.
Vukani
:Kul
ungil
enkosazanemengabemel
e
ngi
gezwengizogezwa

Mzwakhe
Cynthiacomesbackfr
om wor
klooki
ngexhaust
ed,
sheplaceshert
hingsont
hebedandstar
ttaki
ngoff
herclothes.

Me:Roughday

Cynthia:Youdon'
tknowhal
fofi
tif
eell
ikeihadt
hat
presentati
oni
nthebagandguesswhat

Me:Di
dn'
tgoyourway

Cynt
hia:Ohitwentmywaybutt
obegi
vent
o
someoneelsetomakei
tbet
ter
Me:Comesi
toverher
e

Shesit
sonthecouchnextt
ome, iputherl
egson
topofmythi
ghsandtakeofhershoes.

Me:Whoarethesepeopl
edot
heyknowyouhavea
manthatki
ll
s

Shechuckl
esigi
veheramassage.

Cynthi
a:Hmm t
heyr
eal
lyquest
ionyoursani
ty
thosepeopl
e

Iki
ssher
.
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :143

Mzwakhe
Shedi
dn'
tcomehomeandAndi
leshowedupather
house.Howdoesheknowwher
eshest
aysandi
knewnothi
ngabouti
t.

"
Cel
ani
ngi
phakel
anami
"

Igetupandhughi
m hewr
apshi
sar
msar
oundmy
waist
.

Thobani
:Iam back

Il
ookathi m andhughim againhelaughs.After
Set
huandNoziwer elai
dtor esthel
eft,
itri
edbyall
meansf i
ndinghim andhealwaysmanagedt oget
awayfrom me.Imustappl audhim becauseheis
l
ookingfreakishl
yhandsomeandhei swit
h
someoneel se.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u
Theyhug,
Thabi
socomesandpuncheshi
mint
he
back.

Thobani
:Ouch

Thabi
so:Youdon'
tjustdi
sappearl
iket
hatwhati
s
wrongwit
hyou

Thobani
:Mommybayangi
hlukumeza

Iknowwhichmommyhei scal
li
ngand
unfor
tunat
elyshei
snother
e.

Sakhi
le:Howdi
dyouknowweher
e

Thobani
:Ihadaf
eel
ingmommy

Cynt
hiacomesdownshei
sreadyt
ogo.
Thobani:Hai
bodi
dyoubl
eachyourski
nyi
nit
o
i
mpr essthi
sguy

Me:Thobanit
hisi
sCynt
hiamygi
rl
fr
iend

Phi
ndi
le
Hedr oppedmeof fathomemyfamilyi
susedto
thi
sot herpeopl
emaynotsomuch.Iknockonthe
doorandent er,
mom asusualt
urni
ngthehouse
upsidedown.

Me:I
minanj
aloni
ngazeni
thuke

Ma:Ohsaleusungi
khi
phel
aiwashi
ngmase
uyangi
nekel

Iheadt
othebat
hroom andt
akeoutt
hecl
othes
fr
om thewashi
ngmachine.Myphoner
ingswel
l
Vukani'
sphoner
ings.

Me:Nj
omanekaMgabhi

Vukani
:Vukaniorbabysoundsbet
ter

Il
augh.

Me:Wow

Vukani
:Youokay

Me:Awesomeij
ustgotmyownchor
eandiam
l
ovi
ngeverymi
nuteofi
twena

Vukani
:Imi
ssi
ngt
hisgi
rlt
hiscr
azygi
rldamnshei
s
cr
azy
Me:Iam notcr
azy

Vukani
:Noyounotthegi
rliam t
alki
ngaboutt
his
onethr
ewherphoneinsi
dethepool.Imean

Me:Oht
hani
tsdef
ini
tel
ynotme

Vukani
:Ingabei
nkosazanei
yabuyanamuhl
a

Me:Iwanttobutiam goi
ngt
ospendsomet
ime
wi
thmyf amil
y

Vukani
:Okay

Me:Andt
hatwi
llgi
veyout
imet
ogetcl
eansed
Vukani
:Nkosazane

Me:Letmef
ini
shupher
eandit
extyouwheniam
done

Vukani
:Cel
aukuzwal
awomazwi

Me:Goodbyest
handwasam

Vukani
:Kwavel
ekwat
hicosol
olohmm

Ismi
leohVukani
.

Mzwakhe
Hedidn'
tfindamusementtomybreakupwi t
h
phi
ndil
e,li
ketheyal
waysdo.Helooked
di
sappoint
edbutdidn'
tshowitandjustl
aughed
wit
hthem.
Li
nda:Okaykeser
ioust
alknowhowdoyouf
eel

Thobani
:AyLi
ndanianginandabail
ostmychi
ld,
he
brokeupwi
thhi
sgirl
fri
endireall
ydon'
tcar
e

Li
nda:Haaa

Welaugh.Iam sohappyhei
sback,
wechi
ll
ing
havi
ngafewdr i
nks.

Me:Neverdot
hatagai
nbr
onever

Thobani
:Ineededt
imet
oheal

Sakhi
le:Wantt
oknowasecr
et
Thobani
:Whyyoudr
unk

Sakhi
le:Iam sickandti
redofMzwakhebutt
hat
s
noti
t,iam t
ryingtokeepupso

Heshowshi
m hi
swr
ist
.

Thobani
:Damm br
othati
ssi
ck

Sakhi
le:Mommyi
yonankosazane

Thobani
:Noandyoubr
okeupwi
thher

Me:Idon'tknowshewast hequeenandicoul
dn'
t
continuestr
ingi
ngheral
ong.Iknowimadethe
biggestmistake

Thobani
:Doyour
egr
eti
t,wowwakhewow
Idon'tregr
etitihavenoregret
s,nowitsjustanger.
Shedi dn'
tevenfightshegaveinjustl
ikethatand
acceptedit.

Vukani
Mom cal
ledmei nt
oherhomeir eal
lyj
ustwanted
somepeaceandqui et
,Emi
lyopensthedoorforme.
Sheseemsdisappoint
edalotofpeopl
earehere,
whati
sgoingon.

Ma:Ahmyf
avor
it
eson

Me:Whoi
syourl
eastf
avor
it
e

Car
son:Mel
usi

Ma:Hey
Wel
augh.

Ma:Il
oveal
lofmyki
ds

Shel
ooksbehi
ndme.

Me:Whati
sgoi
ngon

Ma:I
sshecomi
ng

Me:Who

Ma:Yourgi
rl
fr
iendi
thoughtyouwer
ecomi
ngwi
th
her

MrOwen:I
ssheher
e
Hepul
lsmeout
sidehai
boil
ookatmom.

Me:Ma

Whati
sgoi
ngon.

Phi
ndi
le

"
Isai
dyest
oyournumber
Andyest
oyoudat
ingme
Yeswecanbet
oget
her
Butyougott
owai
tforme
Thef
ir
stt
imeisayno
I
t'
sli
keineversai
dyes"

Yesbybeyoncewasonr
epeat
,ihadt
hespeaker
s
onbl
ast.Vukaniandiweretext
ingbackandf or
th,
hewastell
ingmet ocomeandr escuehim.Iwas
l
aughi
ngathi m,ilookupandThobaniisstandi
ng
byt
hedoor .Igetupandjumponhi m.

Me:Thobani

Thobani
:Mommy

Iscr
eam.

Me:I
sthi
sreal
lyyou

Ma:Hai
bowamemezakangakayi
ndab

Ipul
lhi
minsi
de.

Ma:AwThobanindodana
Thobani
:Mawami

Theyhugmyphoner
ings.

Me:Makhedama

Vukani
:Avengi
bul
alananj
alo

Me:Baby

Vukani
:Theycal
li
ngf
oryou

Me:Ihavetodecl
ini
ngbabysomebodyj
ustcamei
wi
llmakeituptoyouyezwabye

IhungupandhugThobani
.
[
06/
06,
15:
20] :144

Phi
ndi
le
Thehardestt
hingaboutthi
sgift,
istil
lsee
ever
ythi
ngheisdoingsexuall
y.Iwassi tti
ngonthe
couchwithmykneesupwai ti
ngf oreverythi
ngt
obe
over,
andithasbeengoingonf orawhi l
e.Myphone
ri
ngs.

Me:Hel
lo

Vukani
:Nko.
..Hai
bokwenzakal
an

Me:Canyoupl
easef
etchme

Vukani
:What
sgoi
ngonokaywher
ear
eyou

Me:Home
Vukani
:Okayiam comi
ngt
ofet
chyou

Ihungupandcr
yinsi
lenceidon'
twantt
hisgi
ft
anymore.

Mzwakhe
Iheaddownstai
rsiam hungry,
Cynthi
aisinthe
shower.Shei
snotgoingtowor kt
oday,t
herewasa
newladyonthedini
ngtable.

Thobani
:Okayeveryoneumommywam l
oZet
hu,
shor
tofNtombizet
hu

Me:She'
sbeaut
if
ul

Thobani
:BabyuMzwakheloi
fyouseehi
mrunhe
wil
ltr
ytoopenyourski
rt
Me:Ahh

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Ireall
ywantedyoutomeetsomeonebut
sheisnothere,t
hisi
smyf amil
ymybrother
s

Me:AwDl
adl
awena

Nonhl
e:Ni
cemeet
ingyouZet
hu

Zet
hu:Thankyou

Iam hungr
yij
ustcan'
twai
tanymor
e.

Me:Yel
lowboneumnganiwakhout
hini
Cynt
hia:Goodmor
ning

Nonhl
e:Idon'
tknowmy

Me:Okay

Thobani
:Youknowhowwedot hingsi
tsgoi
ng
downyouguysbett
erpul
lupholdon

Hemakesacal
l.

Phi
ndi
le
Vukanif
etchedmeiwasamess, iwil
lseemy
famil
ysomeot hert
ime.Myphoneri
ngsilookat
Vukanit
hananswer .

Me:Hel
lo
Thobani
:Mommyhai
bouyakhal
ayi
ni

Me:Not
hingican'
thandl
e

Thobani
:Iti
sthatman

Me:Whatman

Thobani
:Mzwakhe

Me:Ifyouwantustoremai
nfr
iendsnevereveri
n
yourli
fement
ionthatname

Thobani
:Thatmeansyounotgoi
ngt
ocomet
omy
welcomehomeparty
Me:Ont
hecondi
ti
ont
hatibr
ingsomeonemaybe

Icounti
nmyhead.

Me:Konj
eni
bangakiFi
ve,
sixsomeones

Thobani
:Okaymommy

Me:Andst
opt
racki
ngme

Ihungup.

Vukani
:Gl
adyouf
eel
ingbet
ter

Me:Wi
thyouever
ythi
ngf
eel
sbet
ter

Vukani
:Whowast
hat
Me:Thobaniei
shishoul
dhaveaskedi
fyouokay
wi
thgoing

Vukani
:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Iknowiknowbuthei
scoolwi
thAndi
le

Vukani
:Theywer
eoncef
ri
ends

Me:Evenyounj
e

Vukani
:Whoar
ethosef
ivesi
xpeopl
e

Me:You,Br
andon, Zach,
TeyanaandEmi
lynotyour
ot
hertwosibl
ings.MaybeCarson
Hechuckl
es.

Me:Oocanwepassbyt
hemal
lit
sti
mef
oryout
o
spoi
lme

Vukani
:Aj
ail
bir
dli
kemengi
yit
hat
haphii
mal
i

Wel augh,ilovethefactthatheisopenand
comf or
table,speaki
ngabouthi sexper
ienceinj
ail
.
Henevermi ssestheopportuni
tytotel
lme
nkosazanengi phumaej el
e.(Pr
incessiam fr
om j
ail
)

Vukani
:Wasumoyi
zel
akangaka

Ilookoutt
hewi
ndowandconti
nuesmi
li
ng.He
takesmyhandandki
ssesi
t.

Mzwakhe
Whatissheevenangryaboutsheist
heonewho
sai
difidon'
twantheranymore.Imustbr
eakup
wit
hher,idi
dthatwhyissheacti
ngli
kethi
s.

Me:Yell
owbonemaybeungangi
tshel
iyi
ni
engi
yenzi
le

Nonhl
e:Ubul
indel
eni
beabanganiyi
ni

Me:Wenotswor
nenemieswhyi
sshemakingme
t
hebadguyshei
sthequeenoft
hisf
ami
ly

Nonhl
e:Asf arasiknowifyouhereexyohshe
l
it
eral
lydespisesyou.Youcanaskanyofthem she
hat
esthem

Isi
ghiam t
r yi
ngt
omakeamends,
whati
sitgoi
ng
tot
akereal
ly.
Me:Angi
funini
phi
ndeni
thi
phut
hal
ami

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhel
eti
tgoyoumaki
ngt
hingswor
se

Me:Fi
neherear
ethekeyst
oyourwor
kpl
ace.Iam
donet
ryi
ng

Shecanmissmewitht
hebeggi
ngiam Mzwakhe
Bhengu,
idon'
tbeg.

Phi
ndi
le
Maybeijustneededabr eather,
iam backhome.
(myplace)Spendingti
mewi t
hVukaniwassplendi
d,
ihopehedoescomet herei
sal otofbadblood
betweeneveryone.Iwantedtocommuni catewi
th
gogo,ihadtogetherpeopleher e.

"
Yebonkosazanesengi
fi
kil
e"
Igetupf
rom mybed.

Me:Iwantt
odoi
t

Hesi
ghs.

Thapel
o:Yousur
e

Mycoochi
eti
ngl
es.

Me:Iam sur
e

Thapel
o:Therear
emanyconsequencest
hatcome
wit
hyourrequest

Me:Idon'
tmi
nddyi
ng,
idon'
tmi
ndbei
ngpuni
shed.
Al
liwanti
sthi
sgi
ftoutofme

Thapel
o:Thobaniwoul
dhavet
oknowt hatNozi
wasnothischil
dandallt
heot
hert
hingsyoudid
wouldhavetoberever
sed

Me:Idon'
tunder
stand

Thapel
o:Sakhi
lewon'
tbebondedwi
tht
hewhi
te
snake

Me:Hol
donyoumeant
imewi
llr
eset

Thapel
o:Nkosazane

Me:Iam pr
epar
edf
oral
loft
hat

Thapel
o:Uyaziugogoengasanganel
wai
khanda
(
Gogowi
lll
osei
t)

Me:Yourmaj
est
ygetmeoutoft
his

Hesmi
rks.

Thobani
:Asyouwi
shnkosazane

Hedisappears.Wi
llal
loft
hem st
il
lobsessoverme
oncethegifti
sgone,orwi
llt
heyfi
ndme
unat
tract
ive?
[
06/
06,
15:
21] :145

Mzwakhe
Ithi
nkijustneededtoleti
tgo,thi
ngsaresomewhat
normalnow.Icanf ocusmyattenti
ononother
thi
ngs,t
heymustbebor ediam posi
ti
vel
ysurethey
missbeinginthegame.Ineedt ofi
ndawayt o
makeever
ythi
ngwork,myr
elat
ionshi
p,t
hequeen,
myfamil
yandtheboys.

Me:Nt
wana

Li
ndo:Mmm

Me:What
sgoi
ngon

Li
ndo:Idon'
tevenwanttosaydoyour eali
zethe
messyouputust hr
ough,becauseyoudidn'
tknow

Me:Li
ndokuhl
engi
yazama

Li
ndo:Nganicelangabuyanginzel
aizi
ntozi
belul
a
ngathii
waphathenikahleamantombazane(
I
pleadedwit
hyouguys, icamebacktomaket hi
ngs
easierf
oryou.Isai
dt r
eateveryl
adyyoumeetwell)
Isi
gh.

Sakhi
le:Udl
iwayi
ni

Li
ndo:Si
tdown

Si
ndi
swa:Sani
bonani

Sakhi
le:Wi
fey

ShehugsLi
ndokuhl
e.

Li
ndo:Wewor
kedsohar
dSi
ndi
swasodamnhar
d

Si
ndi
:Iknowiknow
Sakhi
le:Whatdi
dyoudonow

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassurpri
sedthismorningwithabeaut
if
ultreat
court
esyofVukani.Heorganizedafewbeaut
icians
tocomeandpamperme, arghmyhandsomej ail
bir
d.
Ihopehewillunderst
andwhenit el
lhi
m whatiam
abouttodo.

Theladi
esweretalki
ngandadmi r
ing,idon'
tknow
myselfhowiam lucky.Whenguysseeme, t heyj
ust
wanttospend.Mzwakheonmybi r
thdayfil
ledthe
wholeyardwit
hmyf avor
it
efl
owers,nowVukani
organi
zingt
hisspadayf orme.

Gi
rl1:Sowhatcol
ordoyouwant

Me:Idon'tknowheyiam ver
yundeci
ded,
ihave
doneblueandwhitemostl
ywhit
e.Let
sdoayell
ow
Gir
l1:Greatchoi
ceandyouhaveabeaut
if
ul
chocol
ateskin

Me:Thankyou

Myphoner
ings.

Vukani
:Don'
tsayanyt
hingj
ustenj
oy

Me:Oht
hankyoubaby

Vukani
:Dohaveanyt
hingpl
annedaf
tert
hat

Me:Iwant
edt
odomyhai
rMandl
aidon'
tknowi
fhe
i
savail
abl
e
Vukani
:Andwhoi
sthi
sMandl
a

Me:Mygayhai
rst
yli
stext
raor
dinai
re

Vukani
:Okay"
Vukani
"

Myhear
tbeat
sacer
tai
nway.

"
Whydi
dyoul
ock"

Vukani
:There'
smonkeysher
eyohthatot
herday
myrefr
iger
atorwasopenandtheywer
ehavinga
br
awl

Theyl
augh.Ican'
tmakeoutwhot
hisper
soni
s.

Vukani
:OkaynkosazaneEmi
lyi
sher
eiwi
llcal
lyou
l
ater
Me:Okaybye

Hehungsupismi
le,
thel
adi
esl
augh.

Mzwakhe
Li
ndo:OkayinacoupleofdaysPhi
ndi
lei
scomi
ng
andsheisnotcomingwit
hgoodnews

Idon'
tsomet
hingaboutthi
swholesi
tuat
ioni
s
makingmeangryreal
lyangry.

Me:Whi
chi
swhat

Lindo:Youwillhavetofi
ndoutfrom her
.Whatican
saytheancest or
strust
edyouwi t
hthis,
youknow
thesayingeverythi
nghappensforareason.We
thoughtyouwer ecapableofhandl
ingit
,wit
hthat
sai
difwef
ailt
oconvi
ncehernott
ogi
veupgi
ft

Sakhi
le:What

Me:Whatdomeangi
vei
tup

Li
ndo:Yourgi
rl
fr
iendwi
llhavet
otakei
t

Il
augh.

Me:Ni
ngangi
casul
iLi
ndokuhl
e

Lindo:Passi
ngthegi
ftwoul
dmean,youwon' t
rememberevermeeti
ngher.Thi
ngsthathappened
willberever
sed

Me:Iam notunder
standi
ngyou
Li
ndo:I
nlayman'
ster
m

Hesi
ghs.

Li
ndo:Ti
mewillr
eset
,Cynt
hiawi
llbegone.Nonhl
e
andAyandat
herewil
lbenoNonhleandAyanda

Me:Okayst op,st
opitsheshouldn'tmakeot her
peoplesufferj
ustbecauseofwhatidi d.That
doesn'tneedtohappen,yazi
ningiyahambawena
Li
ndokuhl eyoubett
ermakesur ethatdoesn't
happen

Whati
swrongwit
hthi
sgirlshewaschosenand
shewant
stogi
veital
lup,
iwi l
lbedamned.

Vukani
Mysibl
ingsvi
sitedmeiam temptedtogo,buti
don'
twanttocauseanydrama.Iam stayi
ngvery
cl
earofdrama,imayjokeaboutbei
nginjail
.Iam
notpr
eparedtogobackinthere.

Emi
ly:Sowegoi
ng

Me:Youguys

Teyana:Heywemaybewhi
tebutmomsst
rong
geneisstr
ong

Me:Thatmeansihavet
owat
chyouandheront
op
ofever
ythi
nggoi
ngon

Teyana:What
sthewor
stt
hatcoul
dhappen

Me:Ki
dnapyou,
robyouwegoi
ngt
otheghet
to,
the
ghett
oandthatsnotevenhal
fofit
.Theweir
d
beautyyouguyshave,bl
ackwit
hblueandgreen
eyes.Heal
erswouldki
dnapyouforri
ches

Theyl
augh.

Teyana:Youbei
ngdr
amat
icnownot
hingi
sgoi
ngt
o
happentous

Whattheydon'tunder
standihavebadbl
oodwit
h
t
hesepeople,ican'
tri
skthat
.Thobanimaybeaf
ter
myblood.

Phi
ndi
le
Ioff
eredtomakefoodf
orthem t
heyhumbly
decl
ined,myboyf
ri
endhasdoneenoughforthem
al
ready.Theywer
epacki
ngupmyphoner ings.

Me:Hel
lo
Nonhl
e:Somebodyi
sinagoodmood

Me:Whatcanisaywhat
sup

Nonhle:Idon'
tmeanuhm sotheysaythatuhm i
f
yougivethegif
tup,
ever
ythi
ngwi l
lgobacktothe
wayitwas

Me:Ist
hatal
lyoucar
eaboutyourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
th
Ayanda

Nonhle:Phi
ndi l
eihavebeenr i
dingwithyousi nce
dayone,andt hisi
showyougoi ngtodome.Iwas
ther
ewhenyouwer ebli
nd,iwastherewhenyou
couldn'
ttal
k,iwast herewhenyoucoul dn'twalk.
Yougoingtosnat chawayt heli
ttl
ebitofhappiness
ihavebecauseofMzwakhe, whof uckishehuhwe
mustsufferbecausehebr okeyoursoulf uckthat
you.Fuckyouf orthinki
ngli
kethat
Me:Nonhl
e

Nonhl e:NoPhindil
eithasal waysbeenaboutyou,
you, you.Anot
herpersoni sdeadt oyou,iam
gratefulyougotmeoutoft hatsi
tuati
onbutyou
goingt oputmebacki nit.MzwakhePhi ndil
e
Mzwakheyout hrowingitawayf orMzwakhe

Shehungsup.

Me:Thapel
o

Ihearhi
mlaughi
ngcomi
ngdownt
hest
air
s.

Thapel
o:Youchangi
ngyourmi
ndagai
n

Me:Nonot
hinghast
ochangeiatl
eastdeser
vet
hat
much

Thapel
o:Ver
ywel
lnkosazane.
..Hil
adi
es

Theyscr
eam,
ishakemyheadandchuckl
e.
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06/
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21] :146

Phi
ndi
le
IaskedVukanit
opleasecomeover.Hegavemex,
yandzexplanati
onabouthowunattr
acti
veisi
tfor
amant ovi
sithi
sgirl
fr
iendpl
ace,
heannoyedme
becauseir
eall
yneededhim.Iwenttothesal
onto
getmyhairdone.

Mandl
a:Whyyoucutti
ngi
taf
terwewor
kedsohar
d
t
omaintai
nyourhai
r

Me:Mandl
ajustdoi
t
Mandl
a:Sheeshokay

Icl
osemyeyes.

"
Wedi
srespect
ingeachot
hernow"

Hel
eansonthechai
randwel
ookateachot
heri
n
t
hemirr
or.

Me:No

Vukani
:Lokutefakwakhophokuchazaukut
hini
(Thi
stant
rum ofyour
swhatdoesitmean)

If
ailt
oanswerhi
m.
Vukani
:Mmm angi
kuzwankosazane

Heki
ssesmycheekmyhear
tdr
ops.

Vukani:Kul
ungil
eawungazi .Angazifut
huzi
tshel
a
ukuthngiwubani,
ugcini
lenamhl anj
eukungi
delel
a
syezwana(It
sfineyoudon'tknowme.Idon'tknow
whoyout hi
nkiam butt hi
sthelastti
meyourgoing
todisr
espectme, under
stood)

Me:Yebo

Hewalksaway.Ibr
eat
heouthedi
dn'tr
aisehi
s
voi
cenoruseaster
ntone,
damnialmostpeedmy
pant
s.

Mzwakhe
Ther
eisnot
hingmor
emyfamil
ylovesthandrinki
ng.
Wegoallt
hewayoutandt
oni
ghtithi
nktil
lthesun
r
ises,
ijustgotbackf
rom dr
oppi
ngCynt
hiaof
f.

Me:Heycanibr
ingher

Thobani
:Ifyouwantt
o

Me:Noungat
hii
fiwantt
ocanibr
ingherornot

Thobani
:No

Il
ookathi
m.

Thobani
:No

Me:Okay

Thobani
:Whoamanal
aphowhenar
eweki
ll
ing
Mel
usiandHi
sbr
other
s

Me:Wenotki
ll
ingt
hem

Thobani
:Mzwakhet
hatwasmybaby

Me:Cynt
hiai
sal
somybaby

Heshowsmet
hemi
ddl
efi
nger
.

Me:Howaboutt
hiswegoi
ngt
ocomeandt hanyou
poi
ntmewit
hagunandaskmethatquest
ion

Thobani
:Ihat
eyou

Me:I
yobonanaskhul
u
Ij
ointhem onthecouches.Nonhlewasl ayingon
Ayanda'st
highs,t
hiswil
lbedevastati
ng.Thesetwo
l
oveeachot hert
othemoonandback, therehasto
beawayt oconvincePhindi
le.Idon'
twisht obe
hat
edbyAyandaoranyoft hem.

Me:Thabisoyi
niesi
ngayenzakuyonakal
amanje
(Whatcanwedot ofi
xthi
s,thi
ngsarenotlooki
ng
good)

Thabi
so:Yaziwenaunj aloufikewonewonewone
masekubhedaufunat hinasilungi
se(You,your
uin
andrui
nandr ui
neverything,whenshithit
sthefan
youwantustofixt
hingsf oryou)

Me:Ngi
zokusakazangempamaungi
jwayel
akabi

Wel
augh.
Vukani
Shecanthrowasmanyt antr
umsasshewant siwi
ll
betheret
otakethem, butihadtomakei tknowni
am themanhere.Shemustt readcaref
ul,idon'
t
thi
nkimadeherangr yenoughf orhert
ocutherhai
r.
Shelooksbombt houghandt heohmyt heblack
Mambaasshecal li
t,i
sacti
ngup.

Me:Tshel
ami
nakenkosazaneyi
ndabungi
dinel
we

Phi
ndi
le:Becausei
neededyou

Me:Uyakhal
ayi
ni

Phi
ndi
le:Yes

Igetupandhugher
.
Me:Musaukukhal
aphel
ayi
nit
shel
ami
nakwenze
nj
an

She'
scryi
ngr
eal
lybadl
ikeshel
ostsomet
hingor
someone.

Me:Nkosazaneangi
thandi
kemaseunj
e

Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
ryiam j
ustal
it
tl
eemot
ional

Me:Ungaxol
isinkosazane

Mzwakhe
Iam seei ngsomemaj ordestructf
rom Sakhil
e.He
i
sdr inkinganddr i
nkingnonst op,t
onightheis
goingt odrinksomemor eican'thavethat
.Ibeen
texti
ngCynt hiaseeingifshe'sgamet ogoingout,i
t
willbethef ir
stti
megoi ngoni npubli
candpeopl e
seeingmewi t
hadifferentperson.
Me:Sakhi
lekwenzakal
anwal
okheuphuzanj
e

Sakhi
le:Akuphuzimi
na

Hel
aughs,
myphoner
ings.

Me:Heybabe

Cynt
hia:Yousur
eyoual
wayspul
laf
itwheniwant
ustogoout

Me:Iam posi
ti
ve

Cynt
hia:Whynow

Me:I
tsei
theryouwantt
oornot
,idi
dn'
taskf
ora
di
scussi
on

Cynt
hia:We'
l
lsee

Shehungsup.

Me:Idon'
tseeyout
hesedays

Sakhi
le:Howwhenyoual
lupThobani
'
sass

Thobani
:Ar
ewej
eal
ous

Hesayscomi
ngi
n.

Thobani
:Whati
swr
ongwi
thourmommy

Me:Angi
thuPhi
ndi
leuf
unaukuncengwa.
.Nxi
useqal
aukunginyanyi
sanje(
IsnotPhindi
lewant
ing
tobebegged.Sheisstar
ti
ngtodisgustme

Theyl
augh.

Me:Noseri
ousl
yihavenoi
deawhati
swr
ongwi
th
t
hatgi
rlnow

Thobani
:Haveyout
ri
edcal
li
ngher

Me:Forwhat

Thobani
:Sakhi
lewat
hul
akangakaut
hini

Sakhi
le:Theonlyti
meicanhelphi
m,isifPhi
ndi
l
e
deci
dest onotgi
veupthegif
t.Webeggedhim
Thobaninottobreakwi
thher
Me:Thi
sisdif
fer
entshe'
scalm andnaturi
ngshe
doesst
ufff
orme, t
hosel
it
tl
ethingsthatexci
teme

Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
ehasn'
t

Me:Asf
arasiknowshehasn'
t

Thobani
:Mzwakhe

Sakhi
le:Leavehi
m

Thobani :Noweint hismessbecausewest ayoutof

people'sbusi
ness,iam not .
.Yohyesiam back, can
yougi vemeallthef ootagef rom t
hepent house.
What everyoucanr etri
evef r
om whenMzwakheand
phindiledat
edokayt hankyou, yahsendi ttohim
skhulu.Youhavef unwat chingiwillseeyouguys
l
ater
Phi
ndi
le
Hissisterandiwer eget
tingreadyTeyanawas
doingmymakeup.Vukanist i
llwasn'
tkeenon
coming, buticanassurehim nothi
ngwi l
lhappen.
Allofthem arejustwait
ingfortheothert
ost r
ike.

Teyana:Iam sur
enowyougoi
ngt
oconvi
ncehi
m

Me:Becauseofmysituat
ionican'
tpart
ytil
lthesun
comesout,bymidni
ghtorbefor
emi dni
ghtigott
a
beinbedsleepi
ng

Emi
ly:Icoul
dn'
timagi
nehowdoesi
tfeel

Me:Hect
icidon'
thaveal
if
edar
li
ng

Vukaniwal
ksin,
hestandsbehi
nd.It
hrowmyhead
backandpoutmyli
ps.
Me:AhVukanidon'
tleavemehangi
ng

Hesmilesandki
ssesmeiputmyhandonhi
s
cheek,
hegrabsmyneck.

Emi
ly:Youguys

Teyana:Yout
urni
ngmeon

Vukani
:Whatar
eyouwear
ing

Me:Il
aidi
toutont
hebed

Teyana:Soyour
eal
l
ynotcomi
ng

Vukani
:Noj
ustt
extmeandiwi
llcomef
etchyou
Hewal
ksaway.
[
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Mzwakhe
Ifeelbadaf
terwatchingt
hefoot
age.Idi
dn'
tknow
shedidallt
hosethingsandiwasn'
tther
etoengage,
howeveriti
swhatitis.

Me:Youwear
ingheel
s

Cynt
hia:Yesofcour
sebaby

Me:Soj
aival
aphayanotmodel
ing

Cynt
hia:Iwi
llputf
lat
sint
hecarorsneaker
s
Me:Okayuhm l
etst
alk

Cynt
hia:Oht
hatcan'
tbegood

Me:List
ensomet hi
ngsmighthappent
oni
ghti
haven'
tbeent
otall
yhonestwit
hyou.What
ever
happensdon'
tal
lowittocomebetweenus

Cynt
hia:Youscar
ingme

Me:Idon'
twantt
obutpl
easebeunder
standi
ng

Cynt
hia:Okay

Me:Okayr
eady

Cynt
hia:Yeswai
tletmef
indsomef
lat
s
Phi
ndi
le
Weset t
leddownoutsidedri
nkingwi
neandget t
ing
toknoweachot her
.Teyanaayayiam sureJoyce
i
stiredofrepr
imandingher,shei
sawildcat.Emil
y
i
saf abulousovert
het opbookworm,shecanbe
bestfri
endswithMvelo.

Emi
ly:Ahmenwemaydr
ivehercr
azybutshel
oves
ust
odeath

Vukani
:Hai
bonkosazanear
eyouguysnotl
ate

Me:Wenotgoi
ng

Vukani
:Whatwhy

Me:Youdi
dn'
tlookcomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
hesi
tuat
ion
sowedeci
dedideci
dedwechi
llher
e

Vukani
:Nocomeoncome

Hepull
smyhandweheadt
ohi
sroom.Het
akesof
f
myrobe.

Vukani:Fakaibhul
ukweelihl
efakaiskhibhana
sakho.Asiwaveziamabeleangan(Putyourcut e
pantson,putyourbarel
yputtogethertop.Itdoesn'
t
showt heboobsr i
ght
)

Me:Noonl
ymyback

Vukani
:Kul
ungil
ef akakeTeyana,
Emi
lygetr
eady
sheshi
sankosazane

Me:Yousur
eidon'
t
Vukani
:Hambauyozijabul
isa,
ukhohlwaumina
ngi
yodumisaimoto(Gohavefun,for
getaboutmei
wil
lgostar
tthecar)

Heki
ssesmeandr
unsout
.

Mzwakhe
Whenl astdidwecomeher eitisjam packed.Iwant
everyonetojusthavef unandenjoy,forgetabout
Phindil
eandherst ankatti
tude.Okaydon' ttel
lher
thatsheisgoingtokillme,iwonderwhoshei s
comi ngwit
h.Andileisheresoi t
snothi m, maybe
sheiscomi ngbehindornotcomi ngatal l.

Cynt
hia:Wowt
hisi
ssomet
hing

Me:Tel
lmeabouti
t
MlaandBaf
anaont
hedecksdoi
ngt
her
ethi
ngokay
now.

Me:Bukanededel ai
gaziuj abuleunjal
ovele
umnganiwakho.Ngi yakuthembi sangi
zokwenza
ngakhokonkeokusemandl eniami ,
angekeuze
uhlukananoAyanda( Listenr el
axhavef unyour
fr
iendislikethat
.Ipr
omi seiwi lldomybest ,
iwill
doever yt
hinginmypower .Younotgoi ngtobreak
upwi t
hAyanda)

Shehugsme.

Me:Ohyel
lowboneipr
omi
seokayipr
omi
se

Shepoi
ntsherf
ingerinodal
ri
ghtl
etsgodance.

Me:Havef
unguys
Sakhi
le:At
oast

Me:Towhat

Sakhi
le:ToPhi
ndi
le

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le:Tof
ami
ly,
tol
ove,
tous

Us:Tous

Me:Bot
tomsup

Asongcomeson.

"
Isai
dyest
oyournumber
Andyest
oyoudat
ingme
Yeswecanbet
oget
her
Butyougot
tawai
tforme
Thef
ir
stisai
dnoi
tsl
ikeineversai
d"

Andt
hatbeaut
if
ulvoi
ceechoesmyhear
tdr
ops.

"
Youwasont
hewal
l
Iwaswi
thmycr
ew
Youwaswat
chi
ngmebaby
Iwaswat
chi
ngyousl
owl
y
Youwal
kedoverimai
ntai
ned
Mycoolyousai
dhel
lot
ome
Isai
dhel
lot
oyou"

Phi
ndi
le
Nowwhydi
dThobaniambushmel
iket
hat
.
Anywaysididmyt
hings,
wit
hthehel
pofThapel
o
andhi
sbrother
swhostol
etheshow.

Me:Goodeveni
ngever
yonewel
come

Theygocr
azyandwhi
stl
e.

Me:Thatguyovert
her
eli
kesambushi
ngme

Thobani
:Mommy

Me:Iseeyouguysar el
ooki
ngf
abul
ousand
gorgeous.Okaynott
otakeupt
oomuchofyour
ti
me, havefun

"
Anot
herone"

Il
augh.
Thobani
:Iphi
ndemommy

Idon'
twantt
osi
ngij
ustwantt
ohaveagoodt
ime.

Vukani
Itookthel
eapoff ai
thandcame,EmilyandTeyana
seeus.Theycallustothei
rtabl
e,il
ookatthest
age
i
st hatPhi
ndi
le.

Br
andon:I
sthatyourgi
rl

Idi
dn'
tknowshecoul
dsi
ngl
iket
hat
.

Emi
ly:Heyyoucame

Ipul
lmyphoneoutandt
akeavi
deo,
arghiam l
ate.
Phindi
le:Thankyout
hankyouenj
oyever
yonehave
alovel
yevening

Shet urnsarounditapmyselfdoihaveanymoney
onme.Shecomesoverandwehug, sheisdoi
ng
themostwi ththisoutf
itbutwehavetocoverup.I
pullmywal letoutandthemoneyihaveinthere.I
pinsomear oundherwaistandi
nthechainsofthis
ri
diculoustop.

Teyana:That
'swhatamandoes

Phi
ndil
e:Thankyouf
orcomi
ngipr
omi
sewewon'
t
st
aylong

Me:Greatbecauseyourmani
sgi
vingmet
hedeat
h
st
are
Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Br
andon,
Zach

Zach:Heyma

Phi
ndil
e:Iam goi
ngt
otr
yandgetussomedr
inks
andfood.Youknowt
hestor
y

Wat
cht
hef
ir
ewor
ks.

Mzwakhe
VukanioutofallpeopleVukaniyesesthi
sgi r
liam
goi
ngt oki
llher
, Thobanipul
lsmet otheside.

Thobani
:Tol
dyouweshoul
dhaveki
ll
edt
hem
Me:Yeahwel
ligeti
tnow

Wel
augh.

Thobani
:Sowhatdowedo

Me:for
getabouti
ttheygoingtothi
nkweaf
tert
hem
andsheisgoi
ngtoletthem know

Thobani
:Ayi
bambel
apho

Me:Cor
rectNt
wana

OkayPhi
ndi
le.

Sakhi
le:Ungabakhohl
isabonkekodwami
na
Hel
aughsi
nmyear
.

Sakhi
le:Ther
e'syoubor
inggi
rl
fr
iendweemommy

Me:Awyi
nimanj
e

Sakhi
le:Aysukamommy

IseeThabi soandLindaniont
hefarendofthe
chisanyama.theylookatmethaneachotherand
crackinlaughter
.

.
..
.

Ther
emovi
ngoft
hegi
ftst
art
s.
[
06/
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21] :148
Phi
ndi
le
Ifeelli
ghtheadedandmyvi sionwasbl ur r
y.I
wat chedt hem fr
om af ar
,everyonei sjustenjoying
themsel ves.Myear smakeal oudbuzzt hanst ops.I
can'thearasi nglethingsooniwon' tfeelmyl egs
andi won' tseeat hing.Andileisnotpayi ng
attenti
ont ome, wel lhehasn'tsinceiarrived.
Mzwakhei sal
loverhi sgir
l,ithoughtnoshewas
goingt osendmet otheER.Butnoshei sjustagi r
l
moneywashedher ,anywayshel ookshappyt hat'
s
allthatmat ter
sright .

Iquicklyrushoutiwantt obeinmybedbef or e
ever
yt hi
nghappens.Byt hetimetheyreali
ze
ever
yt hi
ngwoul dhavegonebackt onormal .Itr
iedi
real
lytriedwit
hnodi rectionorknowledgeast o
whatiam doi ng.Ican'ttakethehurtandseeinghi m
ever
yt imeheget shisf r
eakon.Mysani tymeansa
l
ottomet hantobegoi ngt hr
oughthis.

"
Phi
ndi
le"
Ist
op.

Vukani
Whereisshegoingwi
thoutme,howi ssheleaving
wit
houtme.Iam sodrunkandallicanthi
nkofi s
smashi
ngher,shetur
nsaroundlookingconfused.

Me:Yi
nil
eengal
apho(
Whati
sovert
her
e)

Phi
ndi
le:Youcanseeme

Me:Akumel
engi
kuboneyi
ni(
Am inotsupposedt
o
seeyou)

Shecover
shermout
h.

Me:Wat
handaukukhal
akangakamanj
eyi
ndab,
uyaphPhindil
euyakulendodayakhoembi(Whyare
youcryingthi
smuch.Wher eyougoingPhi
ndi
le,
uyakulendodayakhoembi)

Phi
ndi
le:Youl
oveme

Me:Ilovedyout
hemomentisawyouanswermy
quest
ionwhereareyougoi
ng

Shehugsme.

Me:Stopcryi
ngnowiwil
lusehimtost
opyoufr
om
cr
ying,byt
hewayist
il
ldon'tknowwhoi
sgoi
ngto
cl
eanseme

Weki ssandsomespar ki
gnitesi
nmet hatihave
neverfel
tbefor
e.Igrabherassthanpickherup,
l
ooksl i
kethepart
yjustst
artedandiknowwher ei
parked.
Mzwakhe
Lindokuhlegr absabeerbottl
eandgul psthewhole
thingdownl ikehisli
fedependsonit.IseeSindi
swa
runningtowar dsourtable,
theymeateachot her
halfwayandhug.Thatmustbesomet hinggoodthe
tensionaroundsor tofeased.Idon'
tseePhindil
e
andi don'tseeVukani.

Cynt
hia:Youokay

Me:Iam okaywhati
swr
ong

Cynt
hia:Youlookabithur
tthel
adywi
thherback
outt
opl ayi
snothereandyoubeenst
ari
ngather

Me:Okayyouri ntui
ti
onistel
li
ngyouexactlywhat
youthinking.Sheismyexgirl
fri
endrememberthat
pict
ure,thatwaspostedandwef oughtabouti
t
Cynt
hia:Ir
emember

Me:Thatwasherandwewasi
nar
elat
ionshi
p

Cynt
hia:Soyoubr
oughtmeher
etoembar
rassedor
humil
iat
ed

Me:Noiwantedust
ohavefunipr
omi
seij
ust
want
edtohavefunwit
hyou

Ipromiseicameher et
ohavefun,
nottoworr
y
aboutPhindi
le.Ial
soknowshewon'tl
ett
hisgo.

Me:Iam commi t
tedt
oyouokaymyhear twants
you.Iadmitibr
okeherheartandshecanki
llme,
butyouhereandthat
'sal
lthatmatter
s
Ihopeisoundconvi
nci
ng.

Sakhi
le
Iputtheglassdownf i
nal
lyiam rel
ievedfrom my
punishment.Thetor
tureiexper
iencedwasenough
tokil
lme,thankstoVukaniyohifhedi dn'
tloveher
i
twoul dhavebeenasuccess.Mzwakhewast his
closetol
osingital
l.

Thobani
:Youokay

Me:Iam f
ine

Ij
ustwantt
ogohomeandr
est
.

Voi
ce:I
tsnotoveryetwegotovert
hewor
stpar
t

Whatican'
thandl
eanot
herset
back.
Voi
ce:Justbecausei
tdi
dn'
thappendoesn'
tmean
weoutofthewoodsyet

Il
ookatMzwakheandCynt hi
a,hei
shappyli
kea
ki
dwi t
hthemostexpensi
venobodycanaff
ord
candy.Oureyesmeetheki
ssesCynt
hiaandgetsup.

Phi
ndi
le
Hebr eat
hesheavi
lynextt
omyeart
hanki
ssesmy
cheek.

Vukani
:Ukahl
e..Nkosazane

Me:Mmm

Hechuckl
es.
Me:Wai
twai
tdon'
ttakei
tout

Wekissandhesl owl
ypull
sout
,hemovesf r
om my
l
ipstomyneckt hansuckonmyboobs.Sl
iding
backinigasp.

Vukani
:Asambesi
yekhaya

Iwi
llt
ellyoual
labouthi
sdi
ngdongl
ater
.

Vukani
:Iam goi
ngt
ogogr
abt
hem andwegohome
okay

Inodhewal ksawayafterafewminutes.If
ind
str
engthtogetupandmovet ot
hefrontseat,
idon'
t
thi
nkthefourofthem aregoi
ngtofi
tintheback.
Earl
ierhedroppedusoffandwenttogof et
chhis
brot
hers.
"
Vukaniwemustcomebackher
eagai
n"

"
Nowenevercomi
ngbacknowgeti
nsi
de"

"TheMrsshoul
dcomeatt
hebacksot
her
eisno
coll
usi
on"

"
No"

"
Car
son"

"
It
sokayiwi
llt
akeal
loft
hem"

Iam al
readysl
eepi
ngi
nthecar
.
[
06/
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15:
21] :148

Vukani
Ithoughtiwasdreami
ngbutthatsnott
hecase.Al
l
thatihavedreamedofandwait
edforhappenedi
am ahappyhappyman.

Phi
ndi
le:Ai
n'tyouj
ust

Iki
ssherandpl
acet
het
rayonherl
ap.

Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou

Me:Tshel
ami
nakekwenzakal
anubuyaphi
zol
o

Phi
ndi
le:Real
lyVukaniaf
teragr
eatni
ghtof
humpi
ngandgr i
nding

Me:Chankosazanengi
bekeest
hombeni

Phi
ndi
le:Ihaveaspi
ri
tualgi
ftr
ightandiwant
edt
o
gi
vei
tbackt
othef
ami
lyt
hatgavei
ttome

Me:Youwasn'
tbor
nwi
thi
t

Phindil
e:Noitwasgiventomebyar oyalqueen.
Shef el
tihadthebestcapabi
li
ti
esofacquir
ingher
gif
t,shetrust
edmeandgavemeaj ob.Iam
supposedt oundothewrongsshedid

Me:Sowhywegi
vingi
tup

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe

Ichuckl
e.

Phi
ndil
e:Alt
houghhedi
dn'
tknowi
twasme,
hewas
st
il
lsupposedtoshowmelove
Me:Whatdoest
hegi
fthavet
odowi
thhi
m

Phi
ndi
le:Hi
sgr
eatgr
andmot
hergavei
ttome

Me:Mzwakhei
sroyal
ty

Phi
ndi
le:I
magi
ne

Me:Okayevensonkosazanet heygaveyou,t
hey
blessedyoubecauset herewasnoot herper
sonfor
thejob.Nomat terwhatobstaclesyoumayhave
endured,youwer etheresaviorandtogi
veit
becauseofhi misasl apintheface.I
tcan'
tbeyou
didn'
tfeelaboutgivi
ngi tup

Phindi
le:Ididn'
tcar
e,idi
dn'tminddyi
ng,
ididn'
t
mindsacr i
fi
ceeveryt
hingihaveaccompl
ished
Me:Damnidi
dn'
tknowyouwer
einl
ovewi
tht
his
guy

Phi
ndi
le:Nei
therdi
di

Me:Ifidi
dn'
tst
opyouornoti
ceyouwer
eleavi
ng
whatwasgoingtohappen

Phi
ndi
le:Youwoul
dn'
tknowwhoiam

Me:Thatwouldhavebeensadshut
hnj
einkomo
emnandikanj
ebengekengi
yazi

Weki
ss.

Iputt
hetr
ayasi
deherbodyi
sal
readyqui
ver
ingt
o
mytouch.
Cynt
hiaMt
hembu
Hebrusheshi
sd*ckaroundmyent
rance,
teasi
ng
me.Iwaiti
nfr
ust
rati
on.

Me:Gi
vemet
hed*
ckpl
ease

Ibegathismer cy.Heposit
ionshisd*ckproper
ly
andslowl
ysl i
desinmybr eathhit
ches.Helif
tsmy
l
egupandst artsmovinghehasbeenr el
entl
essall
ni
ght.Iam yettofindoutwhatisgoingonbetween
hi
m andthatlady,butletmeenjoythis.

Hepicksuphispaceandl
ooksdownsomethingi
s
i
mpressinghi
m downther
e.Hefucksmehard.

Me:Ohmy.
..Yesbaby

Hegoesharderandhar
derl
osi
nghi
smind,
my
boobsbounci
ngupanddownblowhi
smind.He
spr
eadmyl
egswi
der
.

Me:Aahhhhf
uckyes.
..Don'
tst
op

Sakhi
le
Li
ndokuhl
ehandsmeagl
assofwat
er,
idr
inkup.

Me:Mmm t
hat
'sr
efr
eshi
ng

Li
ndo:Cal
m downr
elaxt
hewor
stpar
tisover

Me:Whatwi
llhappennowican'
tgot
hrought
hat
agai
nandwhatthehellwast
hat

Lindo:I
fshegaveupt
hegi
ftwewoul
dhavet
aken
yourli
fe
Me:Haasengi
fel
aamacal
aengawazimanj
e

Li
ndo:Youthi
nkthisi
sagameweher et
obounce
hert
oeveryguyoutther
e.Wegoingtokeepmaking
sacr
if
icesunt
ilt
hatmanupther
el ear
nsthehar
d
way

Me:Youmaki
nghi
m seem evi
l

Lindo:Youdon'tknowthepr obl
emswearef aci
ng,
sheisbeingdelayedandt hewholepr
ocessisgoing
totakeforever
.Whatyouwentyouwentt hrough
i
magi neifitwasanevilenti
tyhmm ya

Me:I
sittoolatetogobacki
ntime,
wakeMambaup
andhavehim accepthi
schi
ldr
en

Imeanidon'
twantt
odieandicer
tai
nlydon'
twant
tobei
nnocurse.Mzwakhei
sapighedidthi
s,
becausehet houghtPhindi
lewouldbeoneofthose
gir
lsthatfi
ghtalosingbatt
le.Theone'st
hatst
ayin
alovelessrel
ati
onship,
shesawt hroughhis
fool
ishnessandt hat
'swhywei nthi
smess.

Mzwakhe
IMzwakheneverknewicoul dfeelthisway.I
ts
somet hingdif
ferentfr
om t heordinary,t
hisi
swhyi
am nol ongerwithPhindile.Butsomet hingi
s
worryingmet hisgiftt
hing, whatifiwantherback
andi neverknewsheexi sted.

Cynt
hia:Pennyf
oryourt
hought
s

Ispankherassitwobbles,i
tsdi
ffer
entfr
om
Phindi
le'
sshehasaf i
rm ass.Whenyouspankher
s
orgrabholdofi
t,youfeelwhatyougrabbi
ng.

Me:Ayl
uthomaMt
hembu
Cynt
hia:If
eell
i
keyourf
ami
lydoesn'
tli
keme

Me:Theydon'
tknowyou

Cynt
hia:Mmm so

Me:AymaMt
hembu

Shelaughs.Ihurtherthatbadforhertobesucki ng
faceswit
hVukani .Thatjai
lbi
rddoesn'tdeserveto
haveher,whatisshet hi
nkingreal
lyicallThobani.

Me:Yeahl
etsmeetangi
zuj
wayel
auPhi
ndi
lekanj
e
nal
ebhari

Hel
aughs.
Me:St
opl
aughi
ng

Ihungup.

Phi
ndi
le
Shitthesebackshotsar
esomethingel
se.Iwas
shakingmyassl ikemylif
edependsonit
,hekept
pressingmedown.

Me:Aaaaaah.
..Vukani

Il
if
tmybodyupandt it
lemyheadwekiss,hi
sone
handgrabsmytit
spinchi
ngmynippl
e.Theother
goesdownandvigor
ouslyrubsonmycli
t.Hehol
ds
meinthatposi
ti
onandwor khi
smagi
cilosemy
sel
fint
hemoment .

Myor
gasm bui
ldsup.
Vukani
:Idedel
emommy

Il
etgoalloverhi
sblackMamba,hedoesn'tgi
veme
ti
metocatchmybr eath,
hedoestheworkhimsel
f.
Fuckthi
sfeelssogoodirubmyclitwhi
lehe
poundsmehar d

Me:Aaah.
..Aaaah.
..Aaaaaaaaah
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Phi
ndi
le
Ididn'
twantt
ogetoffbed,Vukanicomesand
removestheduvetofme.

Me:Vukaniyi
nikodwa

Vukani
:Gogetr
eady
Me:Idon'
twantt
o

Vukani:Haiboufunalamadl oziakhoangi
bulal
e.
Ibhanti
ntieli
wuminali
kuthathil
ekanjal
onje,
mase
beyaziphindi
sel
akumi na(Youwantyourancestors
tokil
lme.Aj ail
bir
dli
kemej usttook,andt
heytake
revengeonme)

Il
augh.

Me:Justal
it
tl
ebi
t

Vukani
:Ifyoudon'
tgoiam goi
ngt
ocal
lal
loft
hem
t
ocomei sthatwhatyouwant

Idon'tknowhowhedoesitiam al
waysscar
ed
aroundhim,andhenevershout
satme.Hetalks
l
ikeanor malper
sonandiwouldbescar
edinmy
pant
s.

Igetupandheadt
othebat
hroom.

Mzwakhe
Lindokuhl
et el
lsusPhindil
eiscomingover
.Ihave
beenwai t
ingforthi
smomentt ojustl
ookherinthe
eye,andtellheriam sor
ry.

Me:Doesshehavet
obeher
eidon'
twantanyone
f
ight
ing

Li
ndo:She'
syourgi
rl
fr
iendr
ight

Me:Kombeni
njal
ophel
ani
na

Thedooropensmyboyswal
kinmyhear
tmel
ts.
Mvel
o:Mal
ume

Me:Comegi
vemeahug

Bot
hoft
hem hugme.

Me:Besengini
khumbul
eyi
ndabni
that
hei
skhat
hi
esi
dekangaka

Theyheadt
oki
tchenif
oll
owt
hem.

Mvel
o:Weknowourcust
odysi
tuat
ionbuti
twas
j
ustsof
unspendi
ngti
mewithmom

Me:Mxol
isi

Mj
:Ionl
ydi
ditbecauseofhi
m
Itwillt
akeali
fet
imetohealhi
m,turnsouthi
s
mot heract
ual
lyknewabouttheabuseandsaid
nothing.

Me:Okaykodwaukahl
ewena

Mj
:Ngi
yaphi
lamal
ume

Mal
umeokaywhathaveidonenowoh.

Me:Mjiam sor
rymanif
orgot

Iwassupposedt ocomet ohi

sschoolgigandi
for
got.Shityounotal
lowedtomakemi st
akeswit
h
Mj,hewillneverf
orgi
veyou.

Phi
ndi
le
Wearri
veatmydest i
nationmynervesshoot.Istar
e
l
ongandhar datthegate,whyam iherer
eall
y
seei
nghim wil
lbri
ngnot hi
ngbutpainandmisery.
Theli
tt
legateopensLindokuhl
estepsout,he
comestothecar.

Heopenst
hedoor
.

Me:Idon'
twantt
odot
his

Lindo:Iknowbuttheyhavet
oknowandyouhave
tobest r
ongtofi
ght

Il
ookatVukaniandhei
sst
art
ingoutt
hewi
ndow,
i
st
epoutofthecar.

Vukani
:Ngi
kul
indenoma
Me:Pl
ease

Vukani
:Okaynkosazane

Li
ndoandiwal
kinsi
de.

Mzwakhe
Everyt
hingwastenset
hequeenwasenter
tai
ning
andmybodywasi namood,t
opinherdownand
sexuali
nter
cour
seherass.

Me:Mama

Phi
ndi
le:Hi

Shesi
tsdown.
Me:Khonaengakut
hol
elakonai
nyama

Nowweknowwhysheat
eal
otofmeatandnotget
si
ck.

Phi
ndi
le:Iwoul
dn'
tmi
ndsomemeat

Shesayst
hati
nalowsexyt one,
irai
semyeyebrow.
Shel
ooksatCynt
hiai
flookscouldki
llmybaby
woul
dbedead.

Thabi
so:Ngobausi
vakashel
ankosazane
usi
phathel
eni

Phindil
e:TheBhengucurseihopeal lofyouwi l
l
haveabet t
erunderst
andingofwhati sgoingonand
what'sabouttohappen.Pleasecallyourbrot
hersi
needallfamil
ymember spr esent
Ical
lSbusi
so.

Nt
ando:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul

Phi
ndi
le:Thankyou

Sbu:Wakhe

Me:Wozaekhayamanj
e

Ihungupandcal
lNhl
akani
pho.

Nhl
aka:Nanguumunt
uef
unaukungi
xoshi
sa
emsebenzi
niyi
ni

Me:Canyoucomei
tsanemer
gency
Nhl
aka:Can'
ticomeaf
terwor
k

Me:Canhecomeaf
terwor
k

Phi
ndi
le:Yes

Me:Yeahi
tsi
mpor
tantyoucomeNhl
akani
pho

Ihungup.

Vukani
It
houghtaboutst
ayi
ngbutthatwouldhavebeena
missi
on.Whensheisreadyf
ormet ofet
ch,iwil
l
gl
adlycome.

Me:Yeahwhyi
sther
eacarf
oll
owi
ngme
Thiscarbeenfoll
owingme,ever
ywher eitur
nit
s
there.Ipul
luponthesideoft
her oad.
..I
tdri
ves
passmeican' tseei
tsnumberplate.Amanentersi
pullmygun.

Hi
m:Easygangst
er

Me:Whot
hef
uckar
eyou

Hi
m:Thapel
o

Me:What

Somet
hingat
tacksmef
rom t
heback,
downigo.
[
06/
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15:
21] :150

Phi
ndi
le
Me:Ngokomt
het
hobekuf
anel
eengabengi
shol
ent
o,
wonkeumunt ueset holeamakhosi kaziakhe
akhethiwe.Kodwangobai zintoazihambanga
ngendlelamel enginitshelemanj e.Kudalaukhokho
wenuwayet hol akal
aenemandl aukudl ulaumunt
ayisphiwo,wayekwaziukwenzai zinto
ezimangazayo.Ekwazinokuzi l
awul aazisebenzise
ngendlelaefanel e.(Iwassupposedt osayt hi
s
wheneachofyouhasgot t
enyourchosenwi ves.
Butbecauset hingsdi dn'tgothewayt heywer e
supposedt o, ihavet otellyounow.Longt i
meago
yourgreatgr andmot herhadgr eatpower s,shedi d
theunthinkabl econt rol
ledthingsandknewhowt o
doi ti
napr operway)

Kwasekwaqhamukai nsizwaababeyi bi
zauMamba,
ugogowayesethathekileiyona.Bagcinebathol
e
i
zinganeezi
mbiliamawel e, i
ntombazanenomf ana.
Int
ombazaneyazalaumf anaubabawenu, umfana
akazi
waukuthukephi .uMambal oakabafunanga
l
abantwanayaqalalaphoukonakal ai
ndaba.(Than
camealongthi
smant heycalledhim Mamba, gogo
wastakenbythismant heyhadki dstoget
her.
Twinsaboyandagi r
l,t
hegir
lbir
thedaboyyour
fat
her.Theboyisnowheret
ofoundMambadi dn'
t
wanttheseki
dsandthatswhereeveryt
hingt
ooka
tur
nfortheworst)

Lensizwal eyamul imazakakhuluinhli

ziyougogo,
wathukaugogokanj anumunt uamut handakanj e
amphathisekwadot i.Wayekwazi nokulawula
i
zil
wane, ayezi
thandakakhul uzimbilii
nyoka
nengweemabal abala.Wahlangananenyanga
thi
zeniyashintshainhlizi
yokagogoyabayi mbi
yagcwalaintukuthelo(Thismanbr okeherhear ti
na
waygogocoul dn'
tbel i
eveit
.Amanshel ovedso
muchcoul dtreatherl i
kedirt
,sheknewhowt o
contr
olanimalsherf avor
it
etwoani malswer ethe
snakeandal eopar d.Shemetsomecr ookedheal er
i
tchangedherhear tandf i
ll
editwithanger )

Inyangayasi
qal
aukumf undi
saimkhubaKwase
kuqhamukelezi
lwaneazenzazabaningi
.Inhl
izi
yo
yaqhubekayabayimbiwaqaleki
sauMambawaba
i
gamal akha, wathiuyokhululwamhl azanezonke
i
zilwanezi nqotshiwe.Waqhubekawat hiyonke
i
mbewuyakwaBhengukanyenabaf azibayo
ayizukutholaukut hula.(
Thishealerstartedteachi ng
herbad, evilthi
ngs.Thancameal ongt hecr eatures
shecr eatedlotsoft hem,herheartcont i
nuedbei ng
evilshecur sedthemanshel ovedintoasnake.The
onlywayt olif
tthecur seofiswhenal loft hese
creaturesar edefeated,shewentoncur singt he
Bhenguseedwi ththeirwives.Thatnoneoft hem
shallfi
ndpeace)

Ol
wethu:Youmeant
osayasol
dasThabi
soi
s,he
wi
llcheatonme

Me:NgiyezalaphomamBhengu. .
.Kuzozonkei zi
nto
azenzawatholaindl
elayokulungi
saumonakal o
wakhe.Izi
ntoezini
ngiwazifi
hlakuni
nanonke
bafanakonkeakwenzakul el
ekunina,wayesethi
ngobaimvelaphiyenueyasebukhosini
.Kudingeka
i
nkosazaneezokwaziukumel ananalent
o(Iam
comi ngtothatMr
sBhengu.Thr ougheveryt
hingshe
did,shefoundawaytof i
xhermess.Al lofi
tis
embeddedi nyouboys,becauseyourbloodisoff
royaltyaqueenwasneededt of
acet hi
scurse)

It
hingenzei sboneleNonhlewayengasi woumf azi
okhethiwa.Kodwangobanakhui nhlizi
yokaAyanda
yaveleyamt handa,amadloziakwaBhengu
nawakwasi bi
yaahlalaphansiakhul uma.
Ngokwaboseni shadil
engokomoyanangamadl ozi
angazinomani yayi
zwayinilentoengi yishoyo( let
memakeanexampl e.Nonhlewasnevert hechosen
wife,butbecauseshehadal readystolenAyanda' s
heart.TheBhenguandSi biyaancest orssatdown
andhadt hetal
k,tothem yallareal
readymar r
iedin
spiri
tandwi ththeancestors.Idon'tknowi fyouar e
under st
andingwhatiam sayi ng)

Nonhl
e:Soyouher
etot
akeal
loft
hataway

Mzwakhe:Nonhl
e
Me:Thedeci
sionwasyourstomakewhet
heryou
want
edtobewi t
hhim ornot

Nonhl
e:Butyouwer
ewill
ingt
osacr
if
icei
tforwhat
f
orwho,whyPhindi
lewhy

Thabi
so:MaSibi
yamengabeuzohlul
eka
ukuzi
bambacelausi
dedel
eimpil
ozethu
zi
sencupheni

Mzwakhe:Okayit
hinkwej
ustbr
eakawayandt
han
comeback

Me:Noihavet
ofi
nisht
ell
ingyouguysaboutt
his

Mzwakhe:Iwasn'
taski
ngyou
Me:Nei
therwasi

Li
ndo:Ever
yonel
etsl
etherf
ini
shnkosazanecal
m
down

Thabi
so:Whydoyousayamakhosi
kazi
li
kemany

Me:Asi buyelekumaSi biyaisinqumosasikuyena

ukuthuyaf unaukubanaye, nanokut h
uzothembakal ayini.Yasivelalaphoi ndaba
yokuhl ukumezaabaf azi,ukugwemaukut h
ningabal i
mazikakhul ungakushi ntshaokungenani
nithatheumf aziwesibili
.Kodwaf uthukuth
niqalekisiwe,akuninikiivumel okulalananoma
uwubanikephaangi hlangenenal okhoanginendaba
ukuthubaniof ebayo( letsgobackt oNonhlethe
decisionwasher stomake, whet hershewant sto
bewi thAyandaornot .Thati swher etheitwas
shownt hatyouguyswer emeantt omi st
reatyour
spouses.Ichangedt hatr at
heryouguyst akea
secondwi fe,howevert hatdoesn' tgiveyoutheright
tocheatorsleepwit
hjustanybodybecauseyouare
cursed.Idon'
tcar
ethough,that
'snotmybusiness
whetheryouwhorearound)

Sesi
zakuMambamanj eukuzeamandl aami
aphel
elengokufanele.Kudingekangi hlanganiswe
negazil
akwaBhengu, oyedwawenuunent o
engi
yidi
ngaukuzengi kwaziukul ungisalomonakal o.
Kephaakusenzekangakanj alo.(
Withregar dsto
Mambaf ormypower stobeabl etowor k.Ineeded
tobeinsyncwitht heBhengubl ood,oneofyouhas
whatineedunfortunatelythingsdidn'thappent hat
way)

Theysi
gh.

Me:Mzwakheyousl eepi
ngar oundwasgoingto
happen,regardl
essofwhet heriam bor
ingornot
.
It
ssomet hingicannotstopnorcanyouunt i
levery
creat
ureisgone,nowidon' tcaret
oknowwhati s
happeninginyourguy'sl
ife.Butidobecauseihave
t
omakesur eyouarepr
otect
edatallt
imesfr
om
t
hesecreat
ures.Howcanidothatwhenthi
ngsar
e
l
iket
his

Mzwakhe:Sur
elywecanwor
ksomet
hingout

Me:Wel lthatshi phassail

edal ongt i
meago,idon't
wantt odot hat.Idon'
twantt ohelpiwanttoforgeti
evermetyou.Idon' twanttoexperiencet
hetortur
e
everydayofseei ngyousleepingwi t
hsomeone.I
can'
tevenbr eathebutican'tr
ightipromi
sedgogo
andi promisedmysel f,t
hatihavet odoit

Igetup.

Me:OkunyenokunyesenizobuzauLindokuhl
eno
Si
ndiswa.Cel
aningi
bizel
auLindaninoThobani.I
am sor
rywedidn'
twor kout,
iam sorryiwasbori
ng
Ibl
inkt
het
ear
saway.

Me:Ithoughtyouhadacceptedmeflawsandall.
Nonhleiam sorryf
ortr
yingt
obreakyourhear
t,you
havebeennothingbutgoodtoandyoudidn'
t
deser
vethat

Thobani
:Mommy

Me:Comel
etsgo

Weheadoutt
othepool
.

Me:Pl
easet
akeyourcl
othesof
f

Li
nda:Asi
boneukut
hubaniuphet
heni

Thobani
:Ever
ythi
ngwi
thyoui
saj
oke
Li
nda:Duh

Me:Pl
easet
akeever
ythi
ngof
f

Hetur
nsaroundandtheyl
augh,iam par
ti
all
ybl
ind
t
hatmeanstheytakenoft
hei
runderwear.

Me:Goinsi
depleasedon'
tbeafrai
daccept
what
everyouseeandyouwillcomeback

IhopetheydoSakhilewasadi
sasterbutqui
ckl
y
gotoveri
t.Theycomebackoutthatwasfast
,
Thobanihadthebir
thmarkont
hewhol eofhi
sback.
Li
ndanionhisthi
gh.

Me:Thankyou
Iheadbackinsi
dewhi
let
heydr
essup.Igr
abmy
thi
ngsandleave.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lewai
tdon'
tgo

Me:GoodbyeMzwakhe

James:Geti
nnkosazaneiwi
llt
akeyou

Igeti
nthecarwithoutl
ooki
ngbackit
hinkever
yone
hasaclearvi
sionaswhattoisgoi
ngon.

PhakamaniboBhengui
nkosazanei
sif
iki
le.
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Thapel
o(Ki
ng)Bhengu
Damm t
hismani
sheavywedr
ophi
m ont
hef
loor
.
Nqobi
:Doyour
eal
lyt
hinkt
hisi
sagoodi
dea

Me:Ihaveneverbeenquest
ionedi
nmyl
if
eandi
am notaboutt
ostartnow

Nqobi
:Wedeali
ngwithMambahereandhei
snota
ver
ytr
ust
worthyper
son,si
ncehewasahuman

Il
ovemybrot
herigetal
ongwi
thhi
mthemost
,but
ri
ghtnowhewasannoyi
ngme.

Me:Nqobival
auml
omowakhoandhel
pmepi
ck
hi
m upyouhoe

Wel
augh.

Me:Mzwakhemani
sachar
act
er
Nqobi
:Akanendabanempi
lol
oya

Wepl acehim ont

hecouchandl
eavehi
swhatt
he
hel
listhisonthet
abl
e.

Nqobi:Real
lyt
houghThapel
oweknownot
hing
aboutthi
sworl
d

Me:That
swhyiam her
etoconqueri
t

Nqobi
:Weher
etohel
pher

Me:OhNqobist
opit.
.St
opi
twhydoyoucar
e,she
want
stogi
veitanyways

Nqobi
:Bhenguomuhl
e
IneedthisVukaniofapersont
odi sappear
, iam
goingtoril
eMzwakheupsomucht hathetakeshim
out.Nkosazanemyf ooti
fanyt
hingishouldbe
Mamba, noiam goodwi t
hmyei shican'tt
ellyou
thatyet
.

Mzwakhe
Ifel
tpaini
nmyheartthatihaveneverfel
tbefore.
Thewayshewasspeaki ng,shespeaksli
kethator
apologi
zesthi
swhol
et hi
ngwasj ustscar
ingme.

Sakhi
le:I
ngakhoni
njeumkhul
uMambawayeyisoka
(Nowonderyouguysarel
iket
hisgr
andpaMamba
wasawomani zer
)

Theyl
augh.

Cynt
hia:Al
coholi
nthemor
ning
Me:I
tsf
iveocl
ocksomewher
e

Thobani
:Comeonnow

Nonhl
e:Woul
dyoul
iket
opr
epar
esomet
hing

Sheasksl
ooki
ngatCynt
hia.

Cynt
hia:Idon'
twantt
oimpose

Me:It
syourhouseaswel
lyoucandowhat
everyou
wanttodo

Ipourmysel
fanot
hergl
ass.

Cynt
hia:Idi
dn'
tthi
nkyal
lwant
edmet
o
Me:Ayf
useggowaneduzekwami

Thabi
so:Mzwakhe

Me:Ongi
yekaThabi
so(
leavemeal
oneThabi
so)

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Li
ndokuhl
edowef
allundert
hecur
se

Li
ndo:Unf
ort
unat
ely

Sakhi
le:Tel
lhi
m whatwoul
dhavehappened

Li
ndo:Yourl
if
eforPhi
ndi
le'
s

Il
ookathi
m.
Sakhi
le:Iwasgoi
ngt
odi
eMzwakheyouhear
dthat

Me:Shutupokaydoyouseemedoi
nganyt
hingor
am ipeacef
ull
ydr
inki
ng

Sakhi
le:Iam l
ett
ingyouknowdonotmesst hisup
agai
nwhoknowswhomi ghtbesacr
if
icednext

Li
ndo:ThobaniandLi
ndani

Li
nda:I
niudakwe

Hemanagest
omakemel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iarr
iveatVukani
'
shousewhydidtheyl
eavet
he
dooropen.Igeti
nsi
deandt
hereismonkeysi
nsi
de,
il
ookatthem t
heyputwhat
evertheyhaveont
he
fl
oorandrunoutmaki
ngnoise.

Me:Vukani

Hewakesupgr
oani
ngwhi
leicl
eant
hismess.

Vukani
:Nkosazaneuwel
oyo

Me:Yebo

Vukani
:Fuckhowdi
digether
e,whendi
dyouar
ri
ve

Me:Doyour
ememberwhathappened

Vukani
:Kunemotoebi
ngi
landel
angamaecel eniko
mgwaqoangaziemvakwalokhokwenzeken
Me:Wowayshutububhl abaokwangempel
a,buka
kadesekukhonanezi
nkawu

Vukani
:Nxil
abodot
imel
engi
thengeumuziomusha.
.
Hmm wozalana

Hepullsmetohischestwekisswi
thhim hol
ding
thebackofhi
shead,hepicksmeupiwr apmyl egs
aroundhi
swaistandarmsaroundhisneck.

Hethr
owsmeont hebed..Hepull
smydr essup
andgoesdownonhi sknees,hesl
idesmypanty
asi
deandfl
icker
shistongueonmycl it
.

Me:Ohhhh.
..Vukani

Hei
nser
tshi
smiddl
efi
ngerinandslowl
yfi
ngers
me,
whil
esti
mul
ati
ngmyclitwit
hhiswarmtongue.
Me:Aaaah

Hecomesupandkissesmeipul lmydressdress
downexposingmyt
it
s,hepinchesmyni ppl
es.He
i
ncreasehi
spacevi
gorousl
yfingerf
*cksme.

Me:Vukani

Mzwakhe
Ir
eti
redt
omyroom icoul
dn'
tst
andthem.Ij
ust
want
edtobeal
one,
thedooropensandcl
oses.
Whoeveri
tisbet
ternotannoyme.

Me:Pl
easedon'
tbor
eme

"
Ngi
zokubhekaskhul
u"
It
urnar
oundandl
ayonhi
schest
.

Sakhi
le:Real
ly

Hel
aughs.

Me:Di
dyouseeher

Sakhi
le:Isawherbr
o

Me:Nxiwhatkindofnonsensewasshesayi
ng.She
shouldhavef
oughtformeandkil
ledbl
oodydamn
Cynthi
a

Sakhi
le:Youcr
azyyouknowt
hat

Me:Sheissl
eepingwit
hthatj
ail
birdwhoknows,
whatki
ndofdiseaseshei
sinf
ectingherwi
th.She
i
sourqueennobodyshoul
dtouchherexceptf
orme

Sakhi
le:Hai
boMzwakhe

Me:Ilostherbroil
osthershouldhaveseenher
eyes,t
heywer esocol
d.Phindi
lehadaspar knyana
whenshesawme, nowican'tevenimaginewhat
shethinksofme

Sakhi
le:Thanwhyyounotget
ti
ngherback

Me:Iwi
llij
ustneedt
osor
toutaf
ewt
hings

Sakhil
e:Wellyouhavemybl
essi
ngsi
fyouwi
sht o
takehim out
.Heisathr
eatt
ousinwayswenever
thoughthewould

Me:Whatshoul
dwedot
oCar
sonhowam igoi
ngt
o
cl
eanmymoneynow

Sakhi
le:Wewi
llf
igur
eoutt
oget
herl
ikeweal
ways
do

Me:Justhol
dmel
iket
his

Iam notcopi
ng.

Vukani
Me:ThankyouTeyana

Shebroughtoverabasketf orPhi
ndil
ethathas
somelovel
ytreats.Ilef
titint
hekit
chenandcame
tomystudy.Ineedt obei nmyzenmode
somethi
ngistryi
ngt ogetar i
seoutofme, guess
whatihaveri
sen.
Me:Whyyoui
nmyhouseMel
usi

Mel
usi
:Youact
ual
lydat
ingt
hatgi
rl

Me:MelusiMhl
ongoyouknowshedoesn'
tli
keyou,
whatar
eyoudoinginmyhouse

Mel
usi
:Igotl
eadsonwhoi
sfol
lowi
ngyou

Il
ookathi
m.

Mel
usi
:Ther
avens
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Mzwakhe
Nonhleandiwerehavi
ngaoneonone.Dowehave
toli
keiknowwherethi
sisgoi
ng,butshe'
smy
brot
hersgir
lf
ri
endandihavet
orespecther.
Nonhle:Soiam t
hinki
ngabouthavi
ngali
tt
legir
ls
thi
ngoveratmyhouse.IwanttogivePhi
ndil
eher
keys

Shesi
ghs.

Nonhl
e:Iam i
nvit
ingyourgir
leventhoughi
shoul
dn'
t.Myloyalt
yiswit
hPhindil
eand

Me:Yenalokadef i
saubudl
wel
anebakhono
Ayandabuphele(ThesamePhi
ndi
lewhowanted
yourrel
ati
onshi
pwi t
hAyandat
oend)

Nonhle:EjJoeungangif
akikwintoeyenzeke
phakathikwakhonoPhindil
e.Infactidon'
teven
l
ikeyourgirl
fr
iendoutofrespectiam doi
ng,
whetheryouapproveornotidon'tcare
Me:Nonhl
epl
easel
eavemeal
one

Nonhl
e:Wi
thpl
easur
e

Idr
inkmywhi
skey.

Thabi
so:Sakhi
lewhyain'
tyousayi
nganyt
hing
ever
ydayheiswakingupwithal
cohol

Sakhi
le:Thabi
souzokhal
a

Ipul
lmyphoneoutithi
nkaboutcal
li
ngherbutt
han
shemightki
llmet
hrought
hephone,ilaugh.

Vukani
Todaywasastruggl
eforhertogetup,
she
complai
nedaboutaheadacheandnotfeel
ingher
l
egs.Itr
iedbymassageherithel
pedali
ttl
ebit
,buti
cant
ellshei
sinpai
n.

Me:Tel
lmewhatishoul
ddoandiwoul
ddoi
t

Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
twantyougoi
ngt
hrought
hat

Me:Nkosazane

Thedoorbel
lri
ngsi
getupandat
tendt
oit
.

Hi
m:Yououtandyoudon'
tevencal
lme

Me:Myman

Hi
m:Noiam notyourman

Hesayswal
kingi
nsi
de.
Me:Awmpi
ntshi

Hi
m:Youdon'
tcal
lme

Me:Okaykeepi
tdown

Hi
m:Keep

Phindi
le:Hel
lo..
.Ican'
twhydoyouwantt oseeme
okayiwon'tstay,iwi
llhearwhatyouhavet
osay
bye

Helooksatme.Sheget
supbutf
all
sbackt
othe
couch.

Me:Doweneedt
ogot
othehospi
tal
Phi
ndi
le:No

Me:Phi
ndi
lemanjemaseunqabayonki
ntongenze
nj
anminangi
hlal
engi
kubuke

Phindi
le:Uzovumayi
ningi
yohl
alal
aphayakukhona
uMzwakhenabobonke.Ngobaphelaiyonant
o
abayif
unayo

Me:Hol
don...TTgirlineedt
otal
ktoyoucanyou
comeoverokaythankyou..What

Hi
m:Mzwakhe

Me:Awumekancane

Mzwakhe
Ij
ustwantt
odr
inki
npeacei
sthatt
omucht
oask
for
,cantheynotseeiwanttobealoneidon'
twant
tobebugged.Theonlypersonihavet
imeforis
Cynthi
aandmyt wochil
dren.

Me:Li
ndokuhl
eyi
ni

Li
ndo:Si
spneedst
ocomeover

Me:Okaysoyoudon'
tneedt
otel
lmet
hat

Li
ndo:Uzodi
ngai
ndawoyokul
ala

Me:Ther
e'smanyr
oomsint
hishouseawhole
mansi
onandyoucan'
tfi
ndaroom f
orhert
osleep

Li
ndo:I
ssheall
owedtocomenott
hatineedyour
per
missi
onoranyt
hing
Me:Thanwhyyouaski
ngme

Li
ndo:Okaybabepl
easehel
pmecl
eant
hatr
oom

Si
ndi
:Shei
sgoi
ngt
oneedonet
hat
sout
side

Li
ndo:Fort
hetimebei
ngwewil
lprepar
ethatone,
weneedtoregul
arl
ykeept
hepoolcl
eanalso

Si
ndi
:Goti
t

Me:AwuweMzwakhe

Isayyawni
ng.

Vukani
Teyanaagr
eedt
oaccompanyherandst
aywi
thher
f
orafewdays,
shewashel
pingherpack.Vusiandi
wer
eoutsi
dehavi
ngal
it
tl
echat.

Vusi
:Youbel
ievet
hat

Me:Imeaniwasdr
ivi
nghi
scar

Vusi
:Thatf
ami
lyi
scunni
ngt
heyt
hinkt
heyt
heshi
t

Me:Theywor
senowt
heybi
ggerandbet
ter

Vusi
:Mxm.
.Sowhoi
sthatbabe

Me:Mzwakhe'
sexgi
rl
fr
iend

Wel
augh.
Vusi
:VukaniMhl
ongohee

Me:Yeahi ti
sgoingtobeverytri
ckyandhard
becausesheissortofspi
ri
tualandcanseeal most
everyt
hing.Ihadtomakemysel finvi
nci
bleandfool
theancestor
s

Vusi
:Man

Me:Igavet
hem at
ast
eofwhoiam nowineedt
o
f
ini
shthem

Vusi
:Mommyyena

Me:Ihaveot
herpl
ansf
ort
hatonewon'
tpl
ayal
lmy
car
ds

Hel
aughs.
"
Her
eiwast
hinki
ngnoil
ostmybr
other
"

Vusi
:Youfor
everacr
ybabyl
ikeyouowed
somethi
ng

Mel
usi
:Wel
lit
sgoodt
oknowmanideser
veadr
ink

Thapel
o
Sneakythingdoeshehaveanyideawhathegot
ten
hi
msel fi
nto,nowmorethaneverhehastodi
e.
Messingar oundwi
thacreat
urewowwhowoul d
havethunk.

Me:Shameshedeser
vesbet
tert
hant
hisever
yguy
i
sjustpl
ayi
ngher

Wel
augh.
Nqobi
:Isi
tbecausetheynott
oget
herandshei
s
act
ual
lybei
ngpunished

Me:Couldbegogowilldoanythi
ngjustabout
anyt
hingnott
olosethatgi
rl
.Ifshecanmani pul
ate
peopl
earoundherwhoknowswhatshecandot o
Mzwakhe

Nqobi
:You

Me:Gogol
ovesmepl
ease

OkayVukanil
etsdance.

Nqobi
:Wenotspar
inghi
m

Me:Heconsul
tedandunf
ort
unat
elyhehast
odi
e,
youknowtheyreal
lyt
hinkt
hisi
saj
oke.Theyhave
noideawhati
sgoingon

Nqobi
:Andt
hequeenofcr
eat
uresr
ightwi
tht
hem

Me:Pear
lshe'
snotdumbshecanseesomet
hingi
s
wr
ongandwhenshest r
ikes

Nqobi
:Youenj
oyi
ngt
his

Me:Iwi
llf
ightt
hesecr
eat
uresonet
imet
heyno
matchf
orme

Mzwakhe
She'
sfi
nall
yherewit
hsomeoneel
sewhoist
hisand
whyissheinmyhouse.Iwal
koutandl
ockt
he
door
s,imeett
hem half
way.
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easewenother
etof
ight

Me:She'snotcomi
nginmyhousesoisuggestyou
putherbackorbot
hofyal
lgett
hefuckout

Phi
ndi
le:Whyar
eyoubei
ngl
iket
his

Me:Idon'
tcar
eshei
snotent
eri
ngmyhousef
ini
sh

Phi
ndi
le:Teyanai
tsokay

Teyana:Yousur
e

Phi
ndi
le:Posi
ti
ve

Teyana:Okayt
extmei
fther
e'sanypr
obl
em my
brot
her
Phindi
le:Iknowhewi
llcomef
lyi
ngi
nthankyou
though

Idr
agheri nsi
dethehouseshe'
snotgoi
ngt
o
di
srespectmeliket
hat.

Vukani
Ican'
tbel
ievehowmuchimi
ssedt
hisguy,
my
phoneri
ngs.

Me:Yeah

Teyana:I
twentexact
lyl
ikeyousai
ditwoul
dhe
di
dn'tl
etusi
n

Me:Thankyousi
s
Teyana:Anyt
ime

Vusi
:Sot
hatphonei
str
apped

Me:Assoonassheenter
siwi
llhavei
nst
antaccess
t
oeveryt
hingoft
hei
rs

Vusi
:Di
dyoust
ealf
rom t
hem

Me:Youthinkwewoul
dwor
kwi
tht
hem andnot
knowathingort
wo

Vusi
:HowisThabi
sot
hatmaggotiam sur
ehehas
abiggutbynow

Me:Thabi
soissti
llt
heDoni
tsj
ustt
hathel
ethi
s
cr
azybrot
hertakeover
Vusi
:St
il
lwi
thOl
wet
hu

Me:St
il
lwi
thOl
wet
hu

Vusi
:Dot
heyhaveki
ds

Me:Onei
vezandl
ebe(
il
legi
ti
mat
e)shedon'
tknow

Vusi
:Nobri
ngsomepopcor
n,meatandal
cohol.
Thi
smoviei
sgoodhowdoknowsomuchf reshout
ofj
ail

Il
augh.
[
06/
06,
15:
22] :153

Phi
ndi
le
Ibeencal
li
ngVukaniandhisphonegoesst
raightt
o
voi
cemail
.That
saf i
rstVukani
'
sphoneisneveroff
,
andt
hatfr
iendwhovi
sit
edhi
m.Myinst
inct
sst
art
ki
cki
nginandiwantt
oknowmoreabouthi
m.

Mzwakheisdrinki
ngsoear
lyinthemorni
ng.Isti
ll
l
ovehimjustthathehur
tmesomuch, anddoesn't
evencar
e.Isqueezemysel
fint
oThabisoandsiton
hisl
aptheyl
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Yohci
shemmm

Thabi
so:Mommywenzan

Ishowhim api
ctur
ehel
ooksati
tthanme,
thant
he
pict
ureagai
n.

Thabi
so:Wel
l

Iputmyf
ingeronhi
sli
p.
Me:Youmi ndj
ustgi
vingmeabr
iefsomet
hing
aboutt
his

Li
ndokuhl
etakesmyphoneandl
ookatt
hepi
ctur
e.

Li
ndo(Sf
iso)
:"Ni
hambani
qomal
onkeul
wabhi
shi
l
olu"

Me:Ohshutup

Lindo(Sfi
so):
"Mommyyazimi naangikaze
ngihlanganenalenki
ngaleziyi
ngane.
Ngangi bat
handakabiabafazibami"(
Ineverhad
thistypeofproblemsbef
ore.Ilovedbothofmy
partners)

Ol
wet
hu:Okayt
hat
'senoughnow
Me:Ohiam sor
ry

Igetof
fThabi
soandheadbackt
omyr
oom.

Vukani
Ican'
tanswerthephonebecauseitwil
ltr
iggert
hei
r
secur
it
ysystem andican'
tri
skthat.Whenshe
comesbackiwon' tbear
ound.

Vusi
:Thi
sisahuger
ock

Me:Iam goi
ngt
oknockt
hem of
fthepar
k

Vusi
:Okayhol
dondoyoul
ovet
hisgi
rlor

Me:Idon'
tknowal
liknowi
sthatshei
sthekeyi
n
get
ti
ngin
Vusi
:Becaref
ulnowVukaniyoudon'
twantt
obi
t
of
fmorethanyoucanchew

Me:Heywedeservehalfofever
ythi
ngt
heyownif
notmore.Whydi
dyouf akeyourowndeat
hifyou
weregoingt
obescarednow

Vusi
:Wowj
ail
bir
d

Me:Youmaki
ngmeangr
y

Vusi
:Manj
euyaphiVukani

Hel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Thedooropensil
ookup.Hehast
hebot
tl
eof
whiskeyunderneathhisar
m,aglassontheother
handhel ocksthedoor.Mzwakheli
kesst
ir
ri
ngup
thepot,hejumpsont hebed.

Mzwakhe:Suj
olanoVukanimanj
e(Youdat
ing
Vukaninow

Me:Yes

Mzwakhe:Ngathengakuphulainhl
izi
yongoba
angaziwenzan(Ihopehebreaksyourhear
t
becauseidon'
tknowwhatyoudoi ng)

Me:Ngi
yabongangokungi
themba(
Thankyouf
or
t
hevoteofconf
idence

Hi
sphoner
ingshesmi
lesandanswer
s.
Mzwakhe:Heymylovenoiam ar
oundt
hehouse
okayiam comi
ng

Me:Whati
sthepoi
ntofbr
eaki
ngupi
fyougoi
ngt
o
bedoi
ng

Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokukhombi
sanamhl
anj
euzobona

Me:Mzwakhest
opi
t

Mzwakhe:Lastni
ghtyouhadnopr
obl
em

Me:Wellt
hanwasl
astni
ghtnowgetof
fme.
..
Mzwakhegetof
fme.
.Stopi
tokayst
opit

Heget
sofme.

Me:Pl
easel
eave
Iopent
hedoori
tsl
ocked.

Mzwakhe:Iai
n'tgoi
ngnowheresoitsyourdeci
sion.
Weeit
herstayhereti
llt
heendofti
meorwequi ckly
dot
hisandwell,youknowiai
n'tqui
ck

Me:Wel
lqui
ckont
his

Hisbr
eathgetssuckedouthet r
iestoactstrongfor
acoupl
eofseconds, andikeepmyeyesf ocusedon
hi
m.Hecan' tbr
eat
hehei shyperventi
lat
ingiletgo
ofhi
m, hegasp.

Nonhl
e
Ayandascoldedmef orthefir
sttimeidi dn'
tdo
anyt
hing.Iam caughtinthemi ddlebothPhindi
le
andMzwakhewi l
lbelookingforloyal
ty,whatam i
supposedtodo.
Ol
wet
hu:Nonhl
eyousur
eyout
oldher

Me:Shei
ssmashi
ngMzwakhe

Ol
wet
hu:What

Si
ndi
:Evenabl
indper
soncanseet
hat

Ol
wet
hu:Butt
heybr
okeup

MzwakheandPhi ndil
eneverr eal
lybreakup,i
tsj
ust
thatshedisappearedfortwoyear s.Ther
eis
certai
nlynolovelostthere,
prideisintheway.One
personwant stheothertofight,
theothercansee
whattheot herist
ryi
ngt odoandnotbuyi ngit
.

Ol
wet
hu:Mzwakhet
hatchi
ldican'
twi
thhi
m
Me:Wecanr
elaxshewi
llcome

Ol
wet
hu:Thi
spl
acel
ooksgood

Ilovewhatt
heydid,t
heyaddedmoreof
fi
cesandi
thinkt
heyboughtext
rawhichi
sgr
eat.

Me:Ilovethatt
her
ei smoreof
fi
cespace.Ever
yone
hastheirpri
vat
eof
ficenow,weneedtobri
ngback
thebusiness

Ol
wethu:Speaki
ngofbusi
nessineedyourhel
pbut
wegoingtotal
kathome

Me:Okay

Si
ndi
:Youknownowyout
hel
adyot
herl
adi
esneed
t
oimpr
ess

Il
augh.

Me:That
sri
dicul
ous

Si
ndi:Ol
wet
huandihavekeptt
heboataf
loatnow
i
tsti
meforyout
osail

Me:I
zonazint
oezi
qhat
haabant
unowigot
tal
ike
t
hisgi
rlay

Si
ndi
:Idon'
tli
keher

Ol
wet
hu:Si
ndi
swa

Wel
augh.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwant
edt
ogoiwasf
eel
ingbet
ternow.

Mzwakhe:Wantmet
otakeyout
oyourboyf
ri
ends

Me:Iwantyout
oleavemeal
one

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Mamel
anehhl
ukananal
omf
ana

Me:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
obr
eakupwi
thCynt
hia

Mzwakhe:Mamadon'tt
estme.
..Br
eakupwitht
his
boyorel
seiam goi
ngtomakeyourli
feal
ivi
nghel
l
Me:Ar
eyouki
ddi
ngmer
ightnow

Mzwakhe:Ngi zokubul
alaPhindil
emasengiqedi
le
ngibul
alelenj
a.Ngizamengizokubonisaamabel
e
enyokayakho( Iwil
lki
llyouPhindi
leandwheniam
doneiwi l
lkil
lhim,t
ryme)

It
extNonhl
e,igr
abmyt
hingsandl
eave.

Vukani
Thi
swasasurpr
iseandidi
dn'
texpecti
t,it
hought
shewoul
dbebacktomorr
ow.Vusieyesme.

Me:Ithoughtyoucomi
ngbackt
omor
rowort
he
nextday

Phi
ndi
le:I
sever
ythi
ngcompl
ete
Me:Sor
ry

Phindi
le:Whatevert
hingyouneededt
odowi
tht
his
phoneisitdone

Iscr
atchmyhead.

Phi
ndi
le:Youcoul
dhaveeasi
lydonethatwit
hout
usi
ngme.Iam notat
oythatallofyoucanpl
aywith

Sheshovest
hephoneonmychest
.

Phi
ndi
le:Wedone

Me:Phi
ndi
le.
.Phi
ndi
lewai
t

Iam st
uckandican'
tmovemyl
egs.
Me:Phi
ndi
le
[
06/
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15:
22] :153

Nonhl
e
Ol
wethucamei
ntomyr
oom iwonderwhatshe
want
s.

Me:Andt
hanwenauf
unanil
a

Ol
wet
hu:Excuseyou

Shel
aughs.

Olwet
hu:HelpmeThabi
so'
sbi
rt
hdayi
scomi
ngup
andidon'
tknowwhattodo
Me:Hai
boawaziukut
hindodayakhouzoyenzel
ani

Ol
wet
hu:Yes

Il
augh.

Me:Wow

Ayanda:Yoyazici
shengaphumangi
nqunu(
I
al
mostwalkedoutnaked)

Ol
wet
hu:Thankgoodnessyoudi
dn'
t

Me:OkayMr
sBhengul
etsseewhaticandof
oryou

Iam r
eadyt
ogobackt
owor
k.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwenttowor ktodayihaven'tsetfoother
esinceit
wasdestroyed.Ilovewhatt heydidwitht
heplace
moreoffi
cespace, t
heyactuall
yopenedupthe
space.Thereismor espacef ormyequipment,i
needtogetthebal lrol
li
ngont hi
sone.

Ical
lSamkeloiwonderwhati
sthest
atusofour
rel
ati
onshi
p.

Samkel
o:Webacki
nthegame

Me:Doyoust
il
lwantt
owor
kwi
thme

Samkel
o:Heywhatever'
sgoingongotnot
hingt
odo
wit
hourworki
ngrel
ationshi
p

Me:Iam gl
adwehadt
hist
alk
Hel
aughs.

Samkelo:Seeyout
omor
rowiwi
lll
ett
heot
her
peepsknow

Me:Iwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hatt
hankyou

Ihungup.Il
ookf
orLi
ndokuhl
e'
snumberont
henet
andcal
lhim.

Li
ndo:Li
ndokuhl
eBhengul
onashi
yauml
ayezo

Me:Dammi
tpi
ckupyourphone

Heprobablyi
gnori
ngitbecausei
tsal
andl
ime
number,ical
lhi
m agai
n.
Li
ndo:Bhengusawubona

Me:Mrl
awyerbae

Li
ndo:Mommyuwenal
oongi
fonel
ayo

Me:Duhangi
nayophel
aif
oni

Li
ndo:Sorr
yithoughti
twassomeoneel
sewhat
canidoforyou

Me:Ineedhel
pwithI
Tineedmymywor kpagesup
andmywebsiter
unni
ng,canyoudoi
tforme

Lindo:Okaymommyiwi
llsendsomeonet
ofi
xitf
or
you

Me:Bye
Af
terwor
kimustgobuyanewphone.

Nonhl
e
Il
ovepartypl
anni
ngifoundcomforti
njust
engul
fi
ngmyselfint
ohecti
cwork,t
hat'
showiwas
abl
etothegetthr
oughthepai
nandabuseof
Samkeloandhisfamil
y.

Me:Okayhei smor
eofaci
garexpensi
vewhi
skey,
scot
ch,cognac

Olwethu:That
sdef
ini
tel
ymyhusbandhehi
desi
t
verywell

Me:Soiam t
hinki
ngoutsi
det
hepool
,wecancover
i
t.Ol
dschoolr
etrovi
be
Olwethu:Il
iket
hatal
otar
eyougoi
ngt
oask
Phindil
e

Me:Wegoodatwhatwedoandyourhusband
deser
vest
hebest

Ol
wet
hu:OhGodihavet
okeept
hisasur
pri
se

"
Olwet
hu"

"
MaShengeuphikant
ilomf
azi
"

Ol
wet
hu:Wai
thewi
llgoaway

Thedoorbangswel
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Ohwel
litwasgoodwhi
lei
tlast
ed
Thewebsi
teaut
omatical
lyshowsuplooksl
ikei
am
goi
ngtoworksoon.Mzwakhebett
ernottr
ymeiwil
l
puthi
minhispl
ace,i
fihaveto.

Phi
ndi
le
Thet
elephoner
ings.

Me:Qevent
ssawubona

Cal
ler
:Canispeakt
oaPhi
ndi
leg

Me:Speaki
ng

Cal
ler
:Mynamei
sAphi
wecanyoudomyweddi
ng

Ismi
le.
Me:Youcomet
other
ightpl
acewhatcanidof
or
you

Aphi
we:Somet
hingamazi
ngandbr
eat
htaki
ng

Me:Okaydet
ail
squi
ck.Venue,
locat
ion,
guest
,when,
t
ime

Aphi
we:CapeTown

Il
aughont
hei
nsi
de.

Aphi
we:Twoweeksf r
om nowiknowifanyonecan
doit
,itsyou.TheSmi
thswoul
dn'
tli
etomet hat
weddingwasohmyandiknowi t
sshortnoti
ce

Me:Okaycanyoupl
easej
ustemai
lmeadet
ail
ed
ver
sionofwhatandiwi
llhookyouup

Aphi
we:Al
ri
ghtt
hankyousomuchgoodday

Me:CapeTownwowokay.
.Comei
n

"
Nkosazane"

Mzwakhe
Istoppeddrinki
ngineededmymi ndtocal
m down,
beforeididsomet hi
ngstupidwit
houtcar
eful
ly
thi
nkingaboutit.Iam sobernowandtheonething
onmymi ndgettingri
doftheroaches.

Thabi
so:Awi
zinj
amadoda

Me:Beni
khul
umangannoPhi
ndi
le
Thabi
so:I
fshewant
edyout
oknowshewoul
dhave
tol
dyou

Igr
abmyphoneandcal
lhert
heal
arm goesof
f.

Me:Whatt
hehel
l

Ihungupandcal
lheragai
n.

Me:Iknowthi
sb*tchai
n'tt
ryi
ngmesenzot
alkt
o
mewhatisgoingon

Senzo:"Somebodyi
str
yingt
ogai
naccessi
ntot
he
mainframe"

Me:Fi
ndt
hathoeandbr
ingherher
enow.
.Thobani

Phi
ndi
le
Vukani
:Nkosazanengi
yaxol
isa

Me:Icansaveyoufrom t
hedarkshadowyou
consul
tedbutican'
tpr
otectyouf
rom Mzwakhe

Vukani
:Your
eal
lygoi
ngt
odot
hisr
ightnow

Me:Ial
sodi
dn'
tknowyouwasusi
ngme

Vukani:Okaymaybeishouldn'
thavedonet
hat,
but
thatfamil
yhasputmet hr
oughsomuch.Ideserve
halfofeveryt
hingt
heyown

Me:It
hinkyoushoul
dgo

Me:Mi
nangi
ngenaphit
hat
syourpr
obl
em wi
th
t
hem
Hepl
acesasmal
lboxbef
oreme.

Vukani
:Ifwehavet
ogot
owarl
ett
hegamesbegi
n

Hel
eavesiopent
heboxandi
tsar
ing.
[
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15:
22] :154

Phi
ndi
le
Iam notgoingt
odowhatt heseancestorswantme
todo.Ifihavet
odateathousandguysf or
Mzwakhet ogethi
stoget
her,thanathousandguys
i
swhatiam goingtodate.Irecei
vedaemai lf
rom
AphiweandMr sbhengu,whatiswrongwi t
hthese
people.

Me:Comei
n..Samkel
o

Samkel
o:Bossl
ady
Hei
snotbyhi
msel
ftheysi
tdown.

Me:Whoyouwi
th

Samkel
o:Mybr
otherAndi
lehesaysi
tst
akea
si
bli
ngt
oworkday

Me:OkayhiAndi
le

Hei
gnor
esmeil
ookathi
m.

Me:Mxm ohakul
onaphel
aiphut
hal
amiwasal
a
ngemuva

Hechuckl
es.
Me:Okaywegotaweddi
ngandapar
ty,
imagi
ne
capeTown

Samkel
o:Senzai
mal
iphel
alapho

Me:Exact
lyiknowwhatiwantt
odowi
tht
hepar
ty
wecanhaveameeting

Samkel
o:Wehaveaboar
droom now

Me:Wehaveabedr oom nowyouknowMrandMrs

Smi t
hihavetothankthem.Youknowwheniget
thesecall
sthef
irstthi
ngtheysaytheSmith
wedding.Ohihavesomet hi
ngforyou,you
elect
rocut
edmef orit

Ihandhi
mt her
ingVukanigavemeifanyonecan
tel
lmeit
sfakeorther
ealdeali
tsAndi
le.
Mzwakhe
Idon'
tknowwhatt omakeofal lt
his,idon'
tknowif
weshouldseekhelpfrom t
heancestor sorjust
al
lowVukanitotakeeveryt
hing.Vusiithoughthe
diedwhatist
hebeef,theyworkedsowel lwer ewe
supposedtothebossesofsomet hi
ngidon' t
underst
and.

Me:Thabi
sokant
iakashonangauVusi

Thabi
so:Nanguuyaphi
la

Me:Li
ndocanweaskPhi
ndi
lef
orhel
p

Lindo(Sfiso)
:Inkosazaneyam ayi hl
angene
nezizintoenizenzayo.Yakutshelaanganqedale
mpii ngakaqaliwenawenzan, akungadl
alwangayo
(Mypr incesshasnot hi
ngt odowi thwhatyouguys
aredoi ng.Shet ol
dyout ostopt hi
swarbeforei
t
evenbegun, whatdidyoudopl easedon'
tplaywi
th
her
)

Thabi
so:Uyi
gwal
aMzwakhe(
Areyouacowar
d)

Me:What

Thobani
:Uyasabayi
nina(
Areyouscar
ed)

Thabi
so:Uyaj
olasekubuhl
unguukubulal
aumunt
u
(Youdat
ingnowitshardtoki
llsomeone)

Me:Heeisniepapandvl
eishai
bo.Ani
menj
e
yel
lowboneuyaph

Nonhl
e:Wor
k

Me:Whatwor
k
Nonhl
e:Iwor
kremember

Me:Nonhl
ewegaveherbackherwar
ehousewhy
doessheneedyou

Nonhl
e:Idon'
tthi
nkiunder
standyou

Me:Iam sayi
ngyoudon'tneedtowor
kweherewe
canprovi
deforyou.Hecanverymuchpr
ovi
defor
you

Nonhl
e:OrwhatMzwakhe

Me:Youcanki
ssyourr
elat
ionshi
pgoodbye

Nonhl
e:Youknowwhatgoaheadsinceyougoodat
r
uini
ngever
ythi
ng.Doi
tiwanttoactual
lyseeyou
breakusup,i
fyout
hinkPhi
ndil
eisasnake.Youdo
notwanttoknowwhatiam goaheadwakheidare
you

Me:Okayiaskedyouni
cel
yAyanda

Ayanda:Fuckyou

Theyl
augh.

Ayanda:UngalingeudakelweweMzwakhe.Ungat h
mawungakwaziukut handaumuntu, maseufuna
nathisonkesi
benj alochaungangijwayel
ikabi.
Thabisocelaukukhul umanawengazengi di
nwe
masengi buyi
le(Don'tyoudareshitme.Don'tthi
nk
becauseyoucan' tloveaperson,
nowyouwantal l
ofust obeli
ket hatdonottestme)

Nonhl
e:Hel
lo.
.Nopr
obl
em whyyougoi
ngt
her
e.
Whatholdonshepostponed,wai
ttel
lmeallabout
.
Youalwayschoosethewrongones,youwon't
bel
ievewhathappenedyazil
oungij
wayel
akabi
angimaziucat
hiuyi
ni

Ayanda:Ongi
phel
ezel
a

Thabi
so:Si
yaphimanj
e

Ayanda:Asambe

Theyl
eave.

Phi
ndi
le
Isawthefir
ebeingl i
tandquickl
yext i
ngui
shitout
.
Nonhl
ef i
ghti
ngwi t
ht hefamil
ymaj ordest
ruct
ion,
soVukanithoughtitbebesttoproposenotpropose
wit
haf akeri
ngwowori sitbugged.
Andi
le:Canit
akeyouout

Me:When

Andi
le:Whenever
'scomfor
tabl
eforyou,
youcan
j
ustt
akemynumber sandl
etmeknowwhen

Me:Idon'
thaveaphone

Andi
le:Real
ly

Me:Mmm thefir
stoneiputiti
nsi
deahugegl
assof
beer
,theot
herit
hrewiti
nsideapool
.Theot
herwel
l
youdonotwanttoknow

Hel
if
tshi
shandsupandget
sup.
Me:Tuesdayyouknowwher
eil
ive

Hel
eaves.Thet
elephoner
ings.

Me:Qevent
ssawubona

Cal
ler
:Tuesdayi
tis

Il
augh.

Me:I
tismeorbadboysar
ejustat
tr
act
edt
ome
wow

Iam t
ir
ediwantt
ogohome.

Vukani
Imessedupigavehert
hewr
ongr
ingnowshei
s
goi
ngtot
hinkiam usingheragai
n.Dammi
tVukani
howcanyoubesoi r
responsi
ble.

Vusi
:It
houghtt
hatyousai
dyoudon'
treal
lyl
ikeher

Me:Vusiawumeman

Vusi
:AyVukanigetyourmindoutoft
hegut
terdi
d
youfor
getaboutourgoalher
e

Me:Thediff
erencebetweenmeandever
yonei
s
t
hatiam notscared,
icantakeonMzwakhe
wheneveriwantstookay

Vusi
:Youwat
cht
oomanyr
eal
it
yshows

Me:Phi
ndi
lel
ovesthem shewouldsi
thert
hewhol
e
dayandbi
ngewatcheveryt
hing
Vusi
:ThatGoddamnPhindi
lei
snother
esost
rap
upandgetitt
oget
herman

Me:Fi
nel
etsgoahead

Vusi
:Nowyout
alki
ngi
nit
iat
ingphaseone

Me:Get
ti
ngr
idoft
het
eam

Igrabmyphoneandcal
lheri
tri
ngsont
het
abl
e,i
cry.

Phi
ndi
le
Thel
ovel
yhandsomeBhengu'
scamet
oseeme,
i
hugt
hem bot
handsmil
e.

Me:Wowsowhatcanidof
oryougent
lemen
Ayandapull
ssomet
hingoutofhi
sjacketand
pl
acesitbef
oreme.

Me:Usuyi
hambi
sil
eincwadi

Ayanda:I
ngakhongi
zekuwenakuqal
eungi
boni
se,
nangunobhutiomdal
aukhona

Me:CanitouchitohmyGodt
hisi
sgor
geous,
how
doyouknowi twil
lfi
ther

Ayanda:Imeasur
edherr
ingf
inger

Me:Ayandabhenguman

Iputi
tonandimmediatel
yigetavi
sionofpeopl
e
att
acki
ngthem,ismi
le.
Me:Kunamadodaazonihlasel
a,ohicanjusthear
herscr
eam yaziasi
phut
humesi yendl
ini
.Uyindoda
manje

Itaket heri
ngoffandputitbackonthebox,
ipack
myt hi
ngsasharppainshootsthroughmystomach.
Ifallholdi
ngmyst omachokayihavenever
exper i
encedthi
sbefore.

Thabi
so:Nkosazane

Me:Gohomeiwi
llmeetyout
her
enow

I
fVukaniwant
saf
ightheneedst
ofi
ghtal
onenot
wit
hevi
l.

Iappeari
nhiscomeout,hei
sgather
ingupmani
needtoactf
ast.Somet
hinghi
tsmehardonmy
backdownigo.
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06/
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22] :155

Nonhl
e
WesupposedtomeettodayandAyandatell
sus.
Phi
ndi
lesai
dtheymustpackherthingsandcome
home,
shewillmeett
hem herebutsheisnother
e.

Mzwakhe:Whatel
sedi
dshesay

Thabi
so:Whensheputthe.
..Imeanshesai
da
bunchofmanarecomingtoattackus

Me:Youdon'
tsoundconvi
nci
ng

HelooksatAyanda,heignor
esourstaresand
shovesasausageinhismouth,igrabmyphone
andcallwor
k.Hereisavoiceineverthoughti
woul
dhearagai
n.

Me:I
tsmehasPhi
ndi
lecheckedi
n

Samkel
o:Hel
loi
tsmeiam f
inet
hankyou

Idon'thavet
imeforgamesihungup.Ical
lher
cel
lphoneanalar
m goesoff
.

Sakhi
le:Somet
hingi
swr
ong

Wher
ecoul
dshebe.Di
dshedi
sappearagai
n.

Mzwakhe
Shei susedtodisappearingandiam usedt oher
disappeari
ng,nothingnewher e.Cynthi
astepsout
i
nherbi rt
hdaysui tokaynow,ismi l
e.That
sstrange
thebigisn'
treacti
ng.
Me:Wher
eyougoi
ng

Cynt
hia:Thel
adi
esar
egoi
ngout

Eventhoughicantel
ltheydon'
tli
keheratleast
theytr
yingt
oaccommodat eher.Oncetheyknow
hertheywil
lbeeat
ingoutofherhands.

Me:Thatsniceonceyougotthem theboysar
e
pret
tyeasy.Justengageinwhattheydoaskt
o
assi
standeverythi
ngwillbeokay

Cynt
hia:Not
ed

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hel
lo.
..ohr
eal
lyokay.
..Noidon'
tcar
etoknow
Ihungupiwar
nedhershedi
dn'
tli
sten.

Thapel
o
Thisisnotgoodt hisisnotgoodwhatar epeopl e
call
edont hi
sear th.Whoki dnappedsomebodyand
holdingthem hostage.Vukanihaslosthismi ndand
phindil
ecan'tdoanyt hi
ngt ohelphersel
f,because
thereisathornfloati
ngint heair
.Onewr ongmove
i
twi l
lpri
ckherandshewi llinst
antl
ydie.

Nqobi
:Howdowef
ixt
his

Me:Idon'
tknowi
fweshowour
sel
ves,
hewi
llknow

Nqobi
:Andi
lewhatabouthi
m

Me:Hi
ssoni
sal
sospi
ri
tualhewi
llknow
Noneofthi
swouldhavehappenedi
ftheydi
dthe
bl
oodri
tualandhej
ustlovedher
.

Nqobi
:Thapel
o

Me:Ican'
tri
skNqobiij
ustcan'
tshewi
llhavet
o
f
orgi
veme

Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odo.

Vukani
Iarr
ivehomewi thsomesnacksidi
dn'tt
hinkitwas
act
uallygoingtowork,
buti
tdidfi
nal
lywear egoing
tobetogetherandnobodyi
sgoingtoseparateus.

Me:Gr
eatyouawake
Shemovestr
ytofr
eeher
sel
fthet
hor
nmoves
cl
osert
oherbody.

Me:Relaxmybabyifyoust
ayst
il
lit
snotgoi
ngt
o
pr
ickyou,buti
fyoumoveayayei
sh

Ismi
le.

Me:Ibr
oughtussomesnacksyourf
avor
it
esoont
o
beourf
avori
ter
ight

Shelooksatmewi t
hcoldeyesthat
swhatidid
whenisawt heBhengu'
s.Sheunderstandsmeand
that
'swhywehavet obetoget
herforever.

Me:Ohsor
ry

It
akeoutt
her
ing.
Me:"Youaremybabyl ove,
mybabyl ove,youmake
suncomeoutoh" .Youknowt hatsongright,"
you
myeverythingt
haticoulddream".Ican' tsingli
ke
youthatbeauti
fulangeli
cvoiceyouknowbutit ri
ed
Aforeffor
t.Wouldyoudomet hehonorsandmake
meyourhusband

Sheisbr
eathi
ngheavi
lyshemustbedyi
ngwi
th
enj
oyment.

Me:Igaveyout
hewr
ongonebutokayi
tst
hiswi
ll
makeup

Iputi
tinherr
ingf
ingerper
fectf
it
.

Me:Lookathowbeaut
if
uli
tssi
tt
ingncooh

Igr
abherphoneandsnapi
t.
Me:Whatwouldthecapti
onbe, somet
hingthatwill
makepeopl
ebelieveyousaidyes.Wit
hthet at
too
t
heywil
lknowitsyouobviousl
yohwai tiknowwai t
l
etmetakeanother

Il
ockmyhandswi
thher
s.

Me:Mzwakhei
sgoi
ngt
odi
e

Nonhl
e
Somethingweirdisgoingonandican' tputmy
fi
ngeronit.Ayandaisacti
ngwei r
dthereisavery
awfulvi
benj egoi
ngon.Hisphoner ingsKhetho
fl
ashesont hescreen,
whyi skhethocall
ingmy
man.Iansweri t
.

Khetho:Darl
ingt
imei
smoneymyt
imei
sver
y
expensive
Me:Yaaaashoney

Khet
ho:Wher
eisAyanda

Me:Whyyoucal
li
ngmyman

Khet
ho:Busi
nesshoneywedoingbusi
nesst
ellhi
m
t
ocallmeimmediat
elyNonhl
ebye

Hewal
ksi
nandsnat
cheshi
sphone.

Ayanda:Whatar
eyoudoi
ng

Me:Whyi
skhet
hocal
li
ngyou

Ayanda:Youdon'
tneedt
oknowt
hat
Hest
ormsout
.

Me:Hai
bo
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06/
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15:
22] :156

Nonhl
e
"I
fitswart heywantlett
hegamesbegin"t
he
captionreads.Whatthehel
lisgoi
ngshe
disappears,worr
yingusandsheisbusyaccept
ing
proposals.

Mzwakhe:Nil
okhenizi
xakangomunt
uubusy
uyabhej
walaphaya

Me:Nothi
sisnotPhi
ndil
eshewoul
dn'
tdot
hisl
et
al
onenott
ellmesheisengaged
Mzwakhe:I
sthatnotheri
nst
agr
am

Me:Yesbut

Mzwakhe:Nobut
sshei
smar
ryi
nganot
herman

Me:Wel
lcongr
atul
ati
onst
oheri
fshei
shappyand
l
ovedwhynot

Sakhi
le:Ri
ght

Me:Exact
ly

Sakhi
le:Somet
hingi
swr
ongt
hough

Mzwakhe:Nothi
ngswr
ongher
eist
her
e
puni
shmentfort
his
Welookathi
m heisbackt
odr
inki
ng,
somet
hingi
s
def
ini
tel
ywrong.

Vukani
Ihadtobathherf
rom t
hechai
rwhenshewas
sleepi
ng,
nowitst
imetofeedher
.Ibr
ingt
hespoon
tohermouthshedoesn'
twantt
oeat.

Me:Babyyouhavet
oeat

It
ryagai
nshemovest
het
hor
nal
mostpr
icksher
.

Me:Ifyoudon'teathowar
eyougoi
ngt
ogett
he
ener
gyt ogetmarri
ed

Iopenhermout
handf
eedhershespi
tsi
tout
.
Me:Uyagul
auyazikubi
zakanj
anukudl
a

It
hrowt
hewhol
epl
ateather
.

Me:Iam l
eavi
ngiam goi
ngt
oletyout
hinkabout
t
hisokay

Itapehermout
h,igr
abt
het
hor
nandpr
ickher
.She
dosesof.

Me:Youstayher
eandwatchguar
difanyt
hing
happensst
rai
ghtt
oherhear
t

Il
etgoi
t,myphoner
ings.

Vusi
:Soshesai
dyes

Me:OhVusiwhat
smynameohVusiwhat
'smy
name

Hel
aughs.

Me:Howi
sever
ythi
ng

Vusi
:Weal
lset

Me:Awuzwekeiam onmywaycan'tstayl
ongMrs
Nj
omanetobeisver
ystr
ictai
n'tt
hatr
ightmybaby

Vusi
:Wowokay

Hehungsup.

Me:Beagoodgi
rlokay
Igr
abmyst
uffandl
eave.

Mzwakhe
Whywoul dPhindi
ledothist
omeofal lpeopl
e.That
man,t
hatjail
birdohshemakemesomad.Thobani
get
sinthecarandwedr iveout
,ican'
tbedr i
nki
ng
anddri
ving.

Me:Igaveherever
ythi
ng,
ever
ythi
ng

Thobani
:Exceptf
orl
ove

Me:Fuckl
ovewhatt
hehel
list
hat

Thobani
:She'
sthequeennj
e

Me:Queenwokunukawhatar
etheancest
ors
sayi
ngaboutt
his
Thobani
:Youl
oveher

Me:Mymi
nd,
bodyandsoul

Thobani
:Sowhati
swr
ong

Me:Iknowwhat
'swr
ongunt
ilshef
ixesi
twegoi
ng
t
oremainbr
okenup

Thobani
:Ay

Me:Nodon'
tparkher
egoar
oundiwantt
olookat
t
hem f
rom t
hetop

Thobani
:Youguysar
ehur
ti
ngeachot
her
Me:She'
shur
ti
ngme

Thobani
:Yourdr
unk

Me:Shedi
dn'
tli
stennowshewi
llhavet
olear
nthe
har
dway

Thobani
:Mzwakhel
etherbe

Me:Noshe'sminei
fican'
thavehernoonewi
lland
iwi
llmakesur
eofthat

Hel
aughs.Hepar
ksatt
hebackofVukani
'
shouse,
wegetout
.

Thobani
:Tso(
her
e)

Hehandsmedi
git
albi
nocul
ars.
Thobani
:Cal
m downnowokay

Me:Yeahwhat
ever

Welookatathi
shouseiam goingt
oki
llPhindi
le.
Hegotsomebodyti
edtoachairwit
hwi
r esand
t
hingsar
oundthem.

Me:Lel
ibhant
int
i

Thobani
:Engabeubanil
o

Thei
rheadwashangi
ng.

Me:Nowhowwegoi
ngt
oseewhot
hati
s
Ikeepzoomingandzoomingandzooming.Iseea
ri
ngontheirhand,t
heheadmovesup.Thobaniand
il
ookateachot her
,heget
suprunni
ngifol
lowhim.

Sakhi
le
Thebuzzer
sandsir
ensgoof
f,ever
yonecomes
thr
oughwit
hthei
rguns,
myphoner i
ngsMzwakhe
i
scall
ingme.

Me:What
swr
ong

Mzwakhe:Thatbast
ardki
dnappedPhi
ndi
le

Me:What

Mzwakhe:Gether
enow

Hehungsup.
Thabi
so:What
sgoi
ngonwhoi
ssendi
ngcoder
ed

Me:VukanigotPhi
ndi
le

Li
nda:What

Me:Heki
dnapher

Isayrunningtomyr oom..
.Ikickthebedt
heshelfs
spri
ngup, iopenthebott
om shelfandpul
lthebag
outicl
osei tandkicki
tbackdown.Ikeptsaying
somethingiswrongnobodylistenedtome.

Mzwakhe
Me:Gowi
tht
hem andtakeouthi
smaniam goi
ng
t
odealwi
tht
hissonofab*tchmysel
f
Thobani
:Howdi
dwemi
sst
hisMzwakhe

Me:Idon'
tknow

Thobani
:Yeahwhatdoesi
tlookl
ike

Iseet
hedr
onef
lyi
nghi
ghup.

Thobani
:Awhat
..Fuckyeahiam seei
ngi
tnow
okay

Heshowsmeapi
ctur
ecapt
uredbyt
hedr
one.

Me:Yi
nil
eThobani

Thobani:Angazinamikuthi
wai nt
antaemoyeni(
I
don'
tknowt heysayingit
sfl
oatingintheai
r)whati
f
heisalertt
hatweher eorwait
ingforus
Me:Lethim comeidon'
tcar
eeyngi
zoyi
bul
alal
enj
a
nxiayi
ngazi

Sakhi
le
Wepul lupathisl
ocat
ionhedoesn'tevenwaitfor
thecartostop.Heopensthedoorandpullsthebag
out,
igethereandiseehertiedt
oachai rwit
ha
thor
n.

Voice:YouhavetogetouthereMzwakheneedst o
dothisbyhimself
.Thatthornonewrongmovei t
s
goi
ngt okil
lher
,iwil
lleadyoutowheretheother
guysareat.TakeThobaniandLindaniwit
hyou

Mzwakhei
slonggone.

Me:Thobanigeti
nthecar
,Li
ndaniasambe
Thobani
:Yi
ni

Me:Ican'
tsayl
etsgowewi
llmeethi
m her
e

Theygeti
nthecaridr
iveof
f.

Mzwakhe
Isetupt
hesni
perr
if
leiam goi
ngt
obl
owhi
sbr
ains
out.

"
Mindi
fij
oini
n"

Me:Idon'
tneedi
nst
ruct
ions

Ayanda:Obvi
ousl
ybut

Hemovest
heguni
nanot
herdi
rect
ion.
Ayanda:Iam t
hebestatwhatido

Me:It
aughtyout
hat

Ayanda:Youali
ttl
ebi
troughontheedgeswit
hthat
di
rect
ionPhindi
lei
sgone.Ngi
thembebhutiomdal
a

Ipushhi
m asi
dehel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Ashotcomest hr
oughpenet r
ati
ngthroughhis
chest
,anot
herblasti
ngt hroughhishead.Helooks
atmeandfall
sdown, ican'tmoveorelsethi
sthor
n
i
sgoingtopri
ckme.I tsbeent wodaysofVukani
tor
tur
ingme,idon'tevenhavet hewordstoexplai
n.

MzwakheandAyandamaket
hei
rwayi
n,het
akes
oft
het
apear
oundmymout
handst
artunt
yingme.

Me:St
op

Mzwakhe:Phindi
let
hisi
snot
imet
obemour
ning
yourpastl
over

Me:I
fyoumovemet
hist
hor
nisgoi
ngt
oki
llme

Mzwakhe:What

Me:Li
fthi
m uphei
stheonl
yonewhocant
ouchi
t

Mzwakhe:Youcr
azy

Me:Mzwakheidon'
thavet
ime
Mzwakhe:Okayokay

Theypi
ckhi
m up.

Me:Posi
ti
onhi
shandcl
oseenoughandgr
abi
t

Theydot
hat
.Thapel
oshowsupwithatubet
he
thor
nget
ssuckedi
n,t
hetubecl
oses.

Thapel
o:Iam sor
rynkosazane

Iuni
tymysel
fwi
tht
hehel
pofAyanda.

Me:Comekneelpl
ease

Ifi
ghtbackthetear
sinmyeyes,Mzwakhekneel
s
downiplaceabasinbefor
ehim.Thapel
orubshi
s
backhevomi t
soutweir
dlooki
ngball
s.He
vi
gorousl
ygetsupThapelospl
ashest
heri
verwat
er
ontheball
sandtube,
blacksmokecomesout.

Mzwakhe:Aymanyi
nil
ewhodi
dthi
s

Me:Cynt
hia

Mzwakhe:What
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06/
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15:
22] :157

Phi
ndi
le
Whenwear ri
vediqui
cklycleansedhim, heshoul
d
beokaybuthei snowmadeavessel easyto
possess.Cynthi
awasf anningherselft
heb* t
chwas
burni
ngup, shepoursherselfaglassofwaterand
gulpsi
tdown.Thapel oandsomeofhi sbrot
hers
showup.
Thapel
o:Forami
nut
ether
eit
houghtwewer
egoi
ng
tol
oseyou

Me:Justl
iket
hebi
gbadsnakeiam bad

Mzwakhecomesdown, hei
sbacktohi
soldsel
f.I
am notsur
ethoughsomethi
ngsdon'
tchangef
or
hi
m.

Sakhi
le:Mommydon'
twor
rywet
ookcar
eofi
t

Inod.

Me:Youokay

Mzwakhe:Iwi
llbef
ine

Idi
dn'
tknowVukaniwasbi
pol
arorwasi
t
somet hi
nghecreatedwhil
einjai
l,
togetthroughi
t
al
lorasasur vi
vingmechanism.Iam hurtand
disappoi
nted,
ithoughtt
hingsweregoingtowork
outbutthatwasnotthecase.

Thabi
so:Ohmybeaut
if
ulqueeniam sor
ryyouhad
togothr
ought
his,
hedidn'
tdoanyt
hingtoyou

Mzwakhel
ooksatme.

Me:Iwantt
ofor
getaboutal
loft
his

Mzwakhe:Di
dhet
ouchyouPhi
ndi
le

Hebangst
het
abl
e.

Me:Idon'
tknow
Thapel
o:Hedi
dn'
t

Iam wait
ingforhimtotouchont
heCynt
hiamat
ter
,
butheisnotsayinganythi
ng.

Me:Ar
eyounotgoi
ngt
osayanyt
hing

Mzwakhe:Aboutohthat
snotyourbusi
nessyoul
et
meworryaboutthat

Me:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Hai
bontombazaneangi
zut
shel
wauwena
ukut
hngenzenjan(
Iwil
lnotbetol
dwhatt
odoby
you)

Me:Wow
Mzwakhe:Wowwhat

Thapel
o:Phi
ndi
le

Iam out
.

Mzwakhe
Iwil
ldealwi thCynthiasomeot hertime, i
tski
ndof
cutethatshewoul dgot otheselengt hsjustt
o
makesur eist aywithher.Butwitchcr af
tthat
s
pushingital i
ttl
ebit
,perhapsiwast heonewho
madeherf eelli
keshehadt odot his.Iam innoway
shapeorf orm condoningthisbehavi or,
shemustbe
punishedandshemustknowever yact i
onhasa
consequence.

Myint
erestar
eonthesegentl
emeninmyhouse,
whoaretheyandwhyaretheyher
e.
Him:Uthibayaziyi
niababhekanenayo(
dot
hey
evenknowwhatt heyfaci
ng)

Lindo:Let
sjustf
ocusonPhi
ndi
leandf
orgett
he
rest

Me:Kombewenabhut
isot
hiuwubani

Hi
m:Awudi
ngiukwazil
okho

Me:Youinmyhouseidon'
tknowwhoyouar
eor
whatyouevendoi
ngher
e

Phi
ndi
le:Wecangonow

Hi
m:Seni
qedi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
shhi
m al
lthebestandt
hathe
cont
inuescomi
ngt
o

Hi
m:Congr
atul
ati
onsmyman

Ayanda:Thankyou,
youcomi
ngr
ight

Phi
ndi
le:I
fever
ythi
ngwor
ksoutimi
ghtj
ust

Nonhl
e:Whyal
lthesecr
ecy

Ayanda:Ahahnakai
yindabazakho(
mindyour
busi
ness)

Phi
ndi
le:Let
sgo

Theyl
eave.
Li
nda:Yougoi
ngt
oletherl
eavel
iket
hat

Me:Weenakanii
yindabazenu(
mindyourown
busi
ness)

Iheadupst
air
s.

Phi
ndi
le
Wedi dn'thavetodr iveThapeloteleportedusoutof
ther
e.Iwasr el
axingi nmybatht ubidon' tknow
what smor ehurti
ng.Mzwakhei gnoringt hefactt
hat
hisgirl
fr
iendbewi tchedhim orVukanibei nga
psycho.Isi ghwhyam it heonlyonebei ng
punished,ididn'
tbr eakupbymysel f.Mzwakhedi di
don'tknowi fgogot hinksbeggingwi llchange
thi
ngsort hisiswhatsheshoul dhavedone, when
Mambal efther.

Ti
meshavechangedyoucan'
tforcel
ovei
f
Mzwakheandiar
emeanttobet hanweshal
lbe.
Theseancestor
sinvol
vingthemselveswillonly
maket hi
ngsworse.St
rengthandpoweri swhati
needatthismoment,t
hef actt
haticouldn'thel
p
myselfbecauseonewrongmovewoul dhavebeen
theendofme.

Ifel
tsohelpless,whenhet ouchedi
tnothing
happened.Itjustputmei nt
odeepsleep,amer e
humanbei ngcannott hatmuchpowerovermeand
gogoisall
owi ngthat.Sheistheonewhocur sed
them,howcanigooni fsheisfi
ght
ingforMzwakhe
allt
heti
me.

Thedoorbellr
ingswhocoul dbedi st
urbingme
fr
om myrelaxi
ngbat h,igetupanddr ymysel f
.Ipul
l
outt
hestopperandlett hewaterout,
igrabt he
handshowerrinsi
ngt hefoam.Theper sonondoor
i
splayi
ngmusi cwithmybel lbett
ernotbet hatman.

Andi
le
Justwheniwasabouttowal
kawayt
hedooropens,
tookherl
ongenough.

Phi
ndi
le:Andi
le

Me:Hi

Phi
ndi
le:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e

Me:I
nthenei
ghbor
hoodpassi
ngby

Phi
ndi
le:Youl
ivedownt
hehi
ll

Me:Cani
..Imeanmayicomei
npl
ease

Shemakeswayf
orme.
Phi
ndi
le:Sor
ryit
ooksol
ongiwasi
nthebat
htub

Wesi
tdown.

Me:Mybadihopei
didn'
tdi
stur
byou

Phi
ndi
le:Youner
vouswhy

Me:Iam not

Phindi
le:Icanshowyoumyboobsnot
hingi
sgoi
ng
tohappen

Me:Okayicamet
oseei
fyouwer
eokay

Phi
ndi
le:Wel
lacr
azyexboyf
ri
endhel
dmehost
age
Me:Whathow

Phindi
le:Canwenott
alkaboutt
hisij
ustwantt
o
for
get

Me:Car
eforaNet
fl
ixandchi
ll

Phi
ndi
le:Whatawhi
teboyl
ikeyou

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Whatcanisay

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Andi
leMsomisawubonayoulostmyshipment
.
Whatawholemesomeballsyougot,i
tsokaynoi
ts
okay
Ihungup.

Phindil
e:I
tbythehar
borunderneat
htheshi
pifyou
gettherenow,
youmightbelucky

Sheget
sup.
..
.Igeti
nmycarandst
eponi
t.

.
..
..
..
..

Mambar
iver
.

Si
zwe
Onlynowthedarknesst hatwasblocki
ngmehas
beenremoved,nowicanseecl earl
y.Alloft
hishas
beenThapel
o'sil
lusion.Thequeenhasbeenl ong
putint
oadeepsl eep,whathasbeengoi ngonare
i
ll
usionsandeventscr eat
edbyThapelo.Mzwakhe
i
sli
vinghi
sbestl
if
e,Vukanii
snotevenr
ealbutwhy
t
hough.Whyishedoingthi
s.

Lungel
o:Thatwasunexpect
ed

Me:Tot
all
ybutwhy

Lungel
o:Br
otherdon'
tinvol
veyour
sel
f

Me:Whati
fhei
saf
tert
hemoney

Lunganil
aughs.

Lungani
:Iam sorrybutdoesThapel
oevenknow
whatmoneyi s.Heisfrom aworl
dnooneknows
exi
stsexceptforspi
ri
tualpeopl
e

Me:Hi
spower
sar
est
ronganddanger
oushow
muchl
ongercanwekeept
hepor
talcl
osed

Lungel
o:Wedoi
ngourbestt
woescaped,
ifpear
l
comesoutt
hebarr
ierbr
eaks

Me:Whoknowswhatki
ndofcr
eaturethatdamn
gogocr
eat
edist
hesonawareofallt
his

Lungel
o:Thef
utur
esofbot
hoft
hem hadt
obe
shown

Shehasbeenasl
eepfort
oolongThapel
o'spl
ani
s
soongoi
ngtobit
ehimintheass.

Thapel
o
Thecatsoutofthebagnowishoul
dhavekil
led
Cynthi
athemomentshewentlooki
ngforvudu.
Whatbusinessdidhavegoi
ngtoaheal
er,
Sizweis
ri
ghtthoughPhi
ndil
eisnotwaki
ngupandiam
af
rai
dshewi
llbest
uckandl
osti
nspi
ri
tualwor
ld.

Howeveriknowwhatiam doi
ngandi
tisgoi
ngt
o
worki
thasto.

Nqobi
:Tol
dyout
hiswasabadi
dea

Me:Badi
deai
syourf
ace

Nqobi
:Evenyourcomebacksar
ebad

Me:Ididn'
tmeantodragi
toutsomuch.Mzwakhe
shoul
dn'thavebr
okenupwit
hher

Nqobi
:Thapel
ojustst
opt
hisandwakeherup

Me:Ican'
t
Nqobi
:Thapel
o

Me:Ijustcan'
tokayij
ustcan'
tialr
eadydi
ditandi
don'
tregreti
tnotonebi
t,Shemustchoosewhats
i
mportantthethr
oneorsweetpreci
ousMzwakhe

Ihat
ethatmanwi
thmyal
l.
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06/
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Andi
le
Idi
dnotwanttogiveherachancet
oescapeme
agai
n.Icheckmyoutfi
tit
hinkil
ookgood,
ihead
downstai
rswhati
sthi
snow.

Me:Tel
lmeyoudi
dnotgetcheapassf
lower
s

Si
yanda:Whoyout
alki
ngt
oli
ket
hat
Me:Si
yanda

Si
yanda:Okayt
heydi
dn'
thaveyourr
anger
s

What
.

Me:Hydr
angea

Si
yanda:What
evert
heywer
en'
tther
e

Me:Iaskedyout
woweeksagot
oor
der

Siyanda:Youokayaskedmeyest
erday,butl
ist
ento
this.Asymbolofhumili
tyt
hewhi
terosealsosays,
i
am l oyalandwor
thyf
oryou
Hesmi
les.

Me:Wellf
uckyouandyourr
oseiwant
ed
hydr
angeas

Iheadoutsi
demomsgar denmi
ghtcomet ot
he
rescue,
whatdoesi
tevenlookl
ike.Googl
eworks
l
ikeacharm,iwal
karoundandluckil
yifi
ndt
hem.

Me:For
givememot
her

Iri
poutabunchnowwher
eam igoi
ngt
ofi
ndpaper
towrapt
hisup.

Si
yanda:Iam goi
ngt
otel
lmom

Me:Shutyourpi
ewhol
e
Hel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwaswai ti
ngforAndi l
etoarr
ive,ourdatetoday,not
reall
ylooki
ngforwar dtoi
tbutiwilltakei
t.Iwas
wear i
ngashortivoryknit
tedskir
taccentuati
ngmy
curves,wit
hamat chinglongsleeveknitt
edtopand
clearstr
aponheel s.Myhairj
ustsi mplewetlook,
MrMsomiwi l
lsurelydie.

Iseehiscarenteri
ngmydr ivewaythrought he
smallglassdoor,
whydon' tihaveagate.Hest eps
outofthecarwithflower
sandar edbox, nohe
didn'
t.Iopenthedoorforhim,hewhistles.

Andi
le:Wow

Me:Younott
obadl
ooki
ngyour
sel
f
Hechuckl
es.

Andi
le:Foryou

Me:OhmyGodwher
edi
dyougett
hesecomei
n

Igrabavaseandf
il
litwi
thwat
ert
hanputt
he
fl
owersi
n.

Me:Oht
hesear
egor
geous

Andi
le:Iam gl
adyoul
iket
hem shal
lwe

Igr
abmysmal
lbagandt
heboxofchocol
atehe
l
aughs.

Me:Wai
tcanyousnapmebef
orewego
Heget
slosti
nmeisnapmyf
inger
s.

Me:Heyeyesupher
e

Hetakesouthi
sphonedoesheevenknowhowt
o
t
akeapictur
e.Iposeforthecamer
aforaf
ew
minut
esthanwalktowardshim.

Me:Okayst
opt
hat
senoughnow

Hesmi
lesandgoest
oopenthedoorf
orme.Igeti
n,
hewal
ksovert
otheot
hersi
deandgetsi
n.

Andi
le:Okaydar
kbeaut
ywal
enzausukul
wami

Andi
le
It
ookhert
oacoolr
est
aur
antnotmanycanspot
.It
l
ooksexpensi
veandonlyther
ichandwellof
fcome
her
e.Weorderourdr
inksandjustl
ooki
ngatthe
menunow.

Me:Uhm t
hankyouf
orbei
ngher
e

Phi
ndil
e:I
tsapl
easur
edot
heyhavemeather
eiam
st
arvi
ng

Me:Andal
sof
ormyshi
pment

Phi
ndi
le:Youwel
comest
opbei
ngner
vousandj
ust
l
osenup

Me:I
tfeel
swei
rd

Phi
ndi
le:Awkwar
d
Me:Ri
ght

Wel
augh.

Wai
ter
:Yourdr
inks

Me:Keept
hem comi
ngboy

Wai
ter
:Yessi
r

Shetakesasi
pofhercockt
aill
ikeshei
sdoi
ngthe
nast
y,shenot
iceiam l
ooki
ngatherandsmi
le.

Phi
ndi
le:Ref
reshi
ng

Me:Ibet
Welaughandjustcarr
yonwithsi
ll
yconversati
ons.
Sheisnott
hatbad,int
imi
dati
ngyes,howevershe'
s
j
ustalovel
ypersonathear
t.

Phi
ndi
le
Thi sdateisgoingsupergr eatiam dist
ract
edmy
focusi sonAndi lehelookshandsomeandcan' t
stopbl ushi
ng.Whywoul diwanttobr eakhisheart
.
Mzwakhest il
llayingl
ow, t
hesecondhehear sabout
this,iwon'thaveanypeacei nmylife.

Idon'twanttoaskhi m anythingabouthi s
occupationandwhatnot ,becausei ti
stoxi
c,
dangerousandj ustunfathomabl e.Ihavebeen
talki
ngaboutmysel fthoughandmyvi sionforl
if
e
nje.Ineverbeeninacal m peacef ulset
ti
ngliket
his,
notevenVukaniwast hisharmoni ous.

Me:Icansi
ng,
danceandsi
nganddance
Il
augh.

Andil
e:Canyousi
ngsomet
hingunl
essyoushyand
notcomfort
abl
e

Ibeenhear
ingt
hissoundinmyheadandif
inal
ly
gotthewor
dsforit
,icl
earmyt
hroat
.

Me:"
Mar
ydi
dyouknow
t
hatyourbabyboy
Woul
donedaywal
konwat
er
Mar
ydi
dyouknow
Thatyourbabyboy
Woul
dsaveoursonsanddaught
ers"

Isi
ngthissongwithmysoulseewhatimean.
Andi
leismylight
.
Thapel
o
Me:NonoMzwakhei
syourl
ight
..Gi
rlyoubet
ter
wakeup

Idi
pthetoweli
nthewat
ert
hanr
ingi
toutanddabi
t
onherf
ace.

Me:Thatsnotther
ealwor
ldyouhavet
owakeup.
Youinspir
it
ualworl
dti
medoesgoslowwhenyou
ther
e,wakeupmyangel

Ifshedoesn'
twakeupicankisst
hethrone
goodbyeandgogowillchopmyheadof.She
doesn'
tknowandwhatshedoesn'tknowwon'thur
t
her.

Me:Nqobi
..
.Nqobi

Nqobi
:Yeah
Me:Fet
chmesomenewwat
er

Nqobi
:What
everhappenedt
opl
ease

Me:Yeahyeahgo

Idon'
thavemuchtimeihopeshecanbreak
thr
oughspir
it
ualworl
d,bef
oret
hecreat
uresnot
ice
andconvi
ncehertotur
nevil
.

Me:DamnThapel
oidi
dn'
tthi
nkt
hiswoul
dtaket
oo
l
ong
[
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15:
23] :159
.
..
..
..
..
.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupi
nthear
msofanot
herman,
ohmyGod
whathaveidone.

Andil
e:Don'
tfeelgui
lt
yaboutwhatwedi
ditwas
boundtohappen

Isi
tup.

Me:Alloft
hisj
ustwei
rddi
dweatl
eastuse
pr
otecti
on

Hekeepsqui
et.

Me:Andi
le

Andi
le:Idon'
tknowmaybe,
maybenot

Me:Hai
bo
Andi
le:Ohcomeonwhatdi
ff
erencedoesi
tmake

Me:Youknowwhatiam and

Heki
ssesme.

Andi
le:Idon'
tcar
eadamnaboutwhatyouar
e..
.Al
l
t
hatmat t
ersi
sthatihadagoodt
ime

Heremovestheduvetandgrabmyboobs.He
movesfr
om mylipsanddownt omyboobs,he
t
akesoneint
ohismout handgoesi
ncir
cular
moti
onwitht
heot her
.

Me:Mmmm.
..
.Andi
le

Hepul
lsmedownandt
urnsmear
ound.Isl
ept
naked,hespanksmyassif
eelhismisteragai
nst
myent r
ance.Hegrabsmywaistandsl
owl ysl
ides
i
n,igrabontothesheet
sbi
tt
ingmyl i
ps.

Hegroans,helaysontopofmeandhol
dsmyarm
outandstart
smoving.Hisd*
ckdoest
hingst
omei
can'
texpl
ain.

Andi
le:Shi
tyousogood

Hewhispersinmysendi ngshiver
sdownmyspi ne.
Hepicksuphispacegoi nginandoutharder.His
onemanagest ofindboobsandsqueezet hem,i
can'
thelpbutfeeltheur
get omeetthr
usttothrust.
Hechucklesgetti
ngup,islowl
ypushmyassuphe
spanksmyass

Me:Aaaah.
..
.Yesss.
.Justl
iket
hat
Hegrabsmywaistandpoundst
hef
*ckoutofme,
hegoesfort
heki
ll
.

Me:Aahhhh
.
..
..
..
..
.

Mzwakhe
Thechestpai nsarereall
ygoinghardoneme.We
sawPhi ndil
ebrief
lyandshedi sappearedagai
n,
aft
erthatguycameandmademevomi tsome
nastydisgusti
ngballs.Ihaven'
tbeenokayandt o
l
earnCynt hi
awasr esponsiblefori
t,hurtmealot
.

Me:I
fiknewiwouldn'
thavedat
edher
.Si
ndi
swa
t
alkt
othem pl
easeiam dyi
ng

Sindi
:Ohmyl
oveiwi
shicandosomet
hingr
eal
ly
butican'
t
Me:Yougoi
ngt
oleavemet
odi
e

Shel
aughs.

Me:I
sthisgoi
ngt
oaf
fectmyhear
tbecauseal
ready
i
tsaprobl
em

Sindi
swa:I
tsal
otiknowbuti
fyouhaddonewhat
wasneededofyou.Youwoul
dn'
tbesuf
fer
ingr
ight
now

Me:Iseet
hatnowidi
dn'
tmeant
ohur
ther

Si
ndiswa:Iknowbutyoudi
dandt
heancest
ors
werenothappy

Thabi
so:Akukhoesi
ngakwenzahl
ampe
Me:Anyt
hingiwi
lldoi
t

Sindi
:It
stri
ckynowMzwakhesomeoneelsehas
takenoverandyouwi
llwi
shyoudi
dn'
tbreakup
withher

Me:Whatwasneededofme

Si
ndi
swa:Foryout
oopenupanddot
hebl
oodr
it
ual

Me:I
fidot
hatnowwi
llibeokay

Si
ndi
swa:Tool
atef
ort
hat

Not hingiseverl
atewemaybebrokenupbutwe
sti
llloveeachotherandwegoi
ngtofindawayt
o
fi
xt hings.
.
..
..
.

Andi
le
Iknewiwasgoingtogetherij
ustdi
dn'tt
hinkit
wouldbethi
ssoon.Sheremovesmyhandunder
herlegandsi
nkdown,il
augh.Icl
osethewat erand
crouchdown.

Me:Wantt
ogoagai
n

Phi
ndi
le:Aingeke.
.Ngeke

Shesaysbreathl
essichuckl
e.Ipl
aceout
sidet
he
showertostepon,thanpi
ckherupandwalkoutof
thebat
hroom.Iplaceheronthebedandgraba
towelt
owipe.

Me:Real
ly.
..B*
tchr
eal
ly
Shei
sfastasl
eep.

Me:Whatam igoi
ngt
olot
ionyourbodywi
th

Vasel
ineworksl
ikeacharm,il
oti
onheral
loverher
bodythanl
ookforsomethi
ngshecanwear.

Me:Iguessyouwi
llhavet
oweari
twi
thoutpant
ies

Idr
essherthanmysel
f.
..It
uckheri
nandhead
downst
air
s.

Me:Hel
lof
am
Ma:It
houghtyounevercomi
ngdown
Me:Kanj
annj
ekodwa
Isi
tanddi
shout
.

Si
yanda:I
mamal
iyeza

Me:Noshe'ssl
eepi
ngiwi l
lmakehersomethi
ng
l
ater
,don'
tworr
yiwillpr
eparesomethi
ngforher

Ma:Mmmm

Ismi
lel
ooki
ngdown.

.
..
..
..

Thapel
o
Ifeelmypowersawakendeepwit
hin,
shei
sfi
nal
ly
notici
ngi
nther
esomet hi
ngiswr
ong.
Nqobi
:Ar
ewef
all
ingi
nlove

Me:Don'
tyouhavepower
s

Nqobi
:What
sthatgott
odowi
thmyquest
ion

Me:Gototheri
verandgoseehowthingsare
bef
oreyoustar
taski
ngmestupidquesti
ons

Nqobi
:Youreyesar
etur
ning

Me:Iknow

Ismi
le.

.
..
..
..
.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwakeupscanni
ngmysur
roundi
ngs,
thedoor
openshewalksi
nwi
thatr
ay.

Andi
le:Youawake

Me:Hmm

Hepl
acesitonthebedandgivesmeaki
ss.We
l
ookateachotherandki
ssagain.

Andi
le:Yougood

Me:Iam idon'
tknow,
ifeel
foggy

Andi
le:Her
ehavesomef
oodt
obr
ingyourst
rengt
h
back
Me:Thankyou

Idi
gin.

Me:Thi
sisgoodt
hankyou

Andil
e:Iam gl
adyoul
ikei
t.
..Whati
swi
thbl
ack
peopl
eanddancingwhentheyeat

Me:Youknowi
t'
sgoodwhenwest
artdanci
ng

Hechuckl
es.

Me:Thankyou

Andi
le:Youwantanot
herone
Me:Noiam goodt
hankyousomuchcanipl
ease
br
ushmyteeth

Andi
le:Onthetopl
eftsi
dedr
aweri
nthebat
hroom
youshoul
df i
ndsomethi
ng

Igetupihavetogohomeisometimesenable
myselft
ogethurtbutwhocar
es,wejusthavi
ngfun.
Heenterswrappi
nghisar
msaroundmel eavi
ng
sweetki
ssesonmyneck.

Me:Andi
le

Hisput
shi
shandi nmypant sandrubsmycl it
goingi
nci
rcul
armoti
on.Iti
ltmyheadourl ipsmeet
andmoveinperf
ectr
hythm, if
eelhi
sfingergoingi
n.

.
..
..
..
.
Thapel
o
Whydi
dithavet
ogot
her
eshei
sst
art
ingt
oannoy
menow.

Me:ShutupNqobi

Nqobi
:Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing

Hel
aughs.

Nqobi
:Lookshei
sshi
ver
ing

Herbodyar
ches.

Nqobi
:Wowhei
sreal
lydoi
ngi
tint
her
e

Me:ShutupNqobi
Nqobi
:Shei
snotgoi
ngt
oappr
eci
atewhatyoudi
d

Me:Iwoul
dn'
thavetodothi
sifhermandidn'
tbr
eak
upwit
hher.Wewouldn'
tbehereift
heyhaddone
whatt
heyneededt
odo

Heshakeshi
shead.

Me:Goprepar
eabat
hforherandst
opt
alki
ng
nonsense

Hechuckl
esandheadst
othebat
hroom.

Me:Whyar
eyousl
eepi
ngwi
thhi
m
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06/
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15:
23] :160

Sakhi
le
Wehavet akenMzwakhetothehospit
al.
Unfor
tunatel
yhecannolongerbreat
honhi sown.I
watchCynthiaf
rom t
heoutsi
deholdi
ngont ohis
handfordearli
fe,
howdidweevengett othi
spoint
.

If
eelat
aponmyshoul
deripl
acemycheekoni
t.

Me:Mommy

Ol
wet
hu:I
tsgoi
ngt
obeokay

Iexhal
e.

Olwethu:It
snobody'sfaultandweshouldn'
tbl
ame
oursel
vesf orwhat
shappeni ng.Shemaynotknow
theypunishinghi
m, l
ikethis.

Me:EyOl
wet
huasazibyt
hel
ooksofi
t,i
tdoes
seem shei
spuni
shi
nghi
m

Olwethu:Thanyouaf oolt
obeli
evethat,r
emember
whathappenedt odadwhenhehur tmom.Youi
t
hinkallofyoushouldsitdownandtalk.Hist
ory
repeati
ngit
self

Shegoesi
nil
ookather
.

.
..
..
.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassohellbentongoinghomebutt
hed*ck
spokeandistayed.Somethi
ngf
eel
sreal
lywei
rd
aboutt
hiswholething.

Andi
le:NguAndi
lekayi1nobodygoesagai
nstmy
word
Me:OkayAndi
lekay1

Hel
aughs.

Me:Canigetsomef
reshai
ridon'
twantt
ohi
deout
her
e

Andi
le:Whatwoul
dyoul
iket
odo

Me:Isawaver
ybeaut
if
ulgar
den

Andi
le:Af
teryou

Weheadout
.

.
..
..
..
Thapel
o
Iam f
astfor
wardi
ngt
hingsnowshei
staki
ng
for
evert
ogetup.

Nqobi
:Theguyi
sinhospi
tal

Me:Goodser
veshi
mri
ght

Nqobi
:Thapel
o

Me:What .Iam doingthi

sforeveryonet
hequi
cker
wefi
nish, t
hequickershecandefeatthecr
eat
ures
andeveryonegetsonwi ththei
rli
ves

Nqobi
:Butt
ohur
thi
m

Me:Hehur
thert
oosot
heyeven
Nqobi
:Thapel
oBhengu

Me:Theoneandonl
y

Let
spushthi
sfur
ther
.Let
sseehowshewi
llbeabl
e
tohandl
ethi
s.

.
..
..
.

Andi
le
Ihaven'tf
eltt
hiscompl et
einaver
ylongtime,it
s
weird.Thedoorbellri
ngswhocouldthatbe,she
getsupandopenst hedoor.

Phi
ndi
le:Hi

Voi
ce:Whoar
eyou
Mandi
sawhatt
hehel
lisshedoi
ngher
e.

Mandisa:Canyoustepasi
deplease.
.Thereyouar
e
heybaby.Ohsothisiswhatyoubeendoing

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e

Mandi
sa:Ngi
zobonawena

Sheput
sherbagdownandopenst
her
efr
iger
ator
.

Phi
ndi
le:Andi
lewhoi
sthi
s

Mandi
sa:Hi
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Phi
ndi
le:What
Me:NoMandi
sapl
easel
eave

Mandisa:Angiyi
ndawokengif
unal
omunt
u
ongi
febelanayeyiniyonal
e

Phi
ndi
le:Fi
xthi
sAndi
le

Sheheadsupst
air
sMandi
saf
oll
owsher
.

Me:Mandi
sa

Theyf
ight
.Shepul
lsagunout
.

Mandi
sa:Ngi
yisl
imami
nahuhAndi
lengi
yisl
ima

Me:Putt
hegundown
Phi
ndi
le:Letgoofmeyoust
upi
db*
tch

Mandi
sa:St
upi
db*
tchiwi
llshowyouwhatast
upi
d
b*
tchi
s

Me:Mandi
sa

.
..
..
..

Thapel
o
Nqobi
:OkayThapel
oenoughnow

Me:Iam t
ryi
ngt
o

Hecut
smeof
f.
Nqobi
:Can'
tyouseeshedoesn'
tknowwhoshei
s

Me:Sheneedstobreakt
hroughspi
ri
tualwor
ldt
he
mi
nutethathappens

Isi
gh.

Me:Lookiknowwhatiam doi
ngt
rustmeont
his
one

Iknowwhatiam doi
ng.

.
..
..
..
.

Phi
ndi
le
Whywasn'tifi
ghti
ngbackhowcoul dil
etherat
tack
meliket
hat.Ican'
tbel
ieveAndil
eall
owedthatt
o
happen,
mynosehur tsreal
lybadshehi
tmewi t
h
t
hegun.Idon'
tknowhowisur
vivedt
his.

Me:Andi
le

Andi
le:Cal
m downi
tookcar
eofi
t

Me:Fuckt
hatyoual
lowedhert
oputherhandson
me

Andi
le:Sor
rywhatwast
hat

Me:Iam get
ti
ngt
hehel
loutofher
e

Andi
le:Thehel
lyouar
e

Hepul
lsmebymyar m andsendsmedown
scr
eaming.Icl
osemyeyesandopenthem agai
n.
Whatj
usthappenedwhatam idoi
nghere,
istar
t
coughingitf
eel
sli
keiam beingr
ippedapar
t.The
room goesstar
kdark,
breat
hescapemybodyil ook
up.

.
..
..

Mambar
iver

Thapel
o
Herewegot hat
'si
t,t
her
ivertur
nsbacktoit
s
ori
ginalblackgl
ist
eni
ngcolorandst
art
sbubbli
ng
up.Weal lgetdownonourkneestheprai
sesst
art
.

Sher i
sesupf r
om thewaterwowshelooks
gorgeous.Everseenahalfhuman,halfsnakel
ook
thisdevi
neidon'tthi
nkso.Sheful
lytr
ansform and
divesbackinthewater.

Hernakedsel
fcomesoutoft
hewat
er.Ihopeidi
d
theri
ghtthi
ng,shewi
llbemadbuti
tsfort
hegr
eat
er
good.Theywrapherupinashal
landheadtot
he
huts.

Voi
ce:Wel
lwel
lwel
l

Me:Si
zwer
ight

Si
zwe:Imustappl
audyou

Me:Iam nother
etostar
tsomet
hingssowecan
ei
thergetal
ongornot

Si
zwe:Idon'
treal
lycar
eforust
ogetal
ong

Me:Youdon'
tlookl
i
keaBhengu

Si
zwe:Sor
ry
Me:Bhengumenar
edar
kyouwhi
te

Sizwe:That'
sbecauseyal
lareugl
ytheyprobabl
y
l
ef tyoui
nthesuntoburn,andbathushandsome
guysi nmil
ksowebet hepret
tyonesint
hef ami
ly

Il
augh.

Me:Iam Thapel
o

Sizwe:Andidon'
tcareyoumightwantt
ogoinsi
de
thequeeniswait
ing,andohstopt
ryi
ngtor
eadmy
mi nd.Youwon'
tgetanywher
e

Wai
thowdi
dhe.Hewal
ksaway.

"
Leavet
hegi
ftt
opeopl
ewhoknowi
t"
Me:Ar
einmyhead

Si
zwe:"
Iam ever
ywher
ebaby"

Hel
aughsmyear
shur
t.
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Aweekl
ater

Mzwakhe
Ineverwantt ofi
ndmysel fi
nahospi t
albedever
again.Idon'
twantt obeont heancestor
sbadside
everagain,whatevertheywantwedoi ngitwhat
ever
Phindil
ewant siam goingtodoitnoquest i
ons
asked.Ican'tpr
omi seiwil
lbehaveyouknowican't
dothat.
Cynt
hia:Doyouneedanyt
hing

Me:Iam f
inet
hankyou

Cynt
hia:Okay

Me:Youdoknowwhatyoudi
dwaswr
ong

Shel
ooksdown.

Me:Uyokeuphi
ndewenzel
ent
oheeayasazi

Cynt
hia:Ngi
yaxol
isa

Icl
osemyeyesiam j
ustexhaust
ed.

Phi
ndi
le
Thatwast helongestti
meihavebeenasl eepinmy
ent
ireli
fe.Thapelotr
appingmeinspir
itwor l
dfor
what,couldn'
thehavedonet hi
sinanotherway.

Mxol
isi
:WePhindi
lelamadodaohl
eziuwal
ethala
emzi
nikababayi
nikangaka,
ayeyi
safut
henjal
o

"
Besi
ngaziukut
huwubhut
iwakhe"

Mxol
isi
:Fokof

Theyl
augh.

Mxol
isi
:Bazowenzanil
a

Idon'
tknowmyselfwhattheydoi
nghere,ihave
beensoemoti
onall
yuseditsnotevenfunny.Fine
hedidi
ttopr
otectever
yone,andnothavehistory
r
epeati
tsel
f.

Me:Bazongi
lekel
elakuzintouMzwakheahlul
eke
kuzona(
Theyheret oassistmewit
hthings
Mzwakhefai
ledtodo)

Mxol
isi
:Awuj
olinabo

Me:Cha

Mxol
isi
:Ohnanini
gul
anj
engal
abaf
ana

Ihavet
ogotomyhouse,
ther
e'senoughspacet
o
accommodat
eusal
l.

Me:Si
ngayaekhaya

Mxol
isi
:Ngi
funaukuyobonai
yinganezami
Langa:Si
ngayaukut
hengai
nyamakuqal
a

Mxol
isi
:Nanini
thandai
nyama

Ihavet
osor
tmyl
if
eout
.

Mzwakhe
Iknowit roubl
eandworr yt
hem alot.Justweeks
agoi couldn'
tbreat
heonmyown.Iwashookedon
machi nesbutheariam smil
ing,
breathi
ngand
eati
ngonmyown.

Li
nda:Angi
kazengi
hlanganenomunt
uonesdi
na
nj
engoMzwakheyeses

Ismi
le.
Li
nda:Aymanl entwanai
yasikhawathisaster
ek,
umuntuusengcononextt
hing.I.
..ca.
..Ican'
t
br
eathe

Hesaysi
tdr
amat
ical
lyt
heyl
augh.

Cynt
hia:Heyl
eavemybabyal
one

Me:Thankyou

Mvel
o:Mal
ume

Me:Ther
eyouar
emybeaut
if
ulchi
ldr
enmase
ni
bahl
ekanj
e

Mj
:Ubabauyeza

Me:Oheeuzongi
shayaubabawenuokay
TheygothereseparatewaysMvelohassomekind
ofsepar
ati
onanxiety.Mji
sgrowingupandMvelo
feel
slef
tout,notmybaby.Oneofthesedaysihave
tospendti
mewi thhim,j
usttomakehimfeel
speci
al.

Linda:Atleastsomet
hinggoodcameoutofyour
relat
ionshi
p

Me:Il
ovemyboyssomuchiwoul
dki
llyou

Cynthia:Don'
tyouthi
nkitst
imet
heyknowmeand
respectme.Theyjustpassmeli
keidon'
texi
st

Voi
ce:Andwhywoul
dhedot
hat

Phi
ndi
le
I
ntr
oducehert
owhoseki
ds.

Cynthi
a:Iam hi
sgi
rl
fr
iendl
adyoft hehouset
hose
brat
sneedtoknowthatandrespectme

Mxol
isi
:Di
dshej
ustcal
lmychi
ldr
enbr
ats

Me:Myekewenabhutil
aengi
yimt
hol
akhona
kuyobabaamasende

Mxolisi
:Chaungij
wayelakabilohawuuyazi
ukuzalawena,uyakwaziukwenzaingane

Mzwakhe'seyesarefi
xatedonme.Thapeloshows
upfr
om thesli
dingdoor,
letsj
ustgett
hisoverand
donewit
h.

Thapel
o:Youcan'
tbemadphel
awhenidot
his,
pl
easest
and

Hedoes.Westandf
acingeachotheriknowhe
thi
nksiwantt
omurderhim,yesidoilookathi
m
andsmil
e.

Thapel
o:Okayyougoi
ngt
ofeel
ali
tt
lepi
nch

Mzwakhe:Ouch

Thapel
o:Si
qini
saamandl
aenkosazanekuphel
e

Me:Idon'
thavet
oki
sshi
mri
ght

Thapel
o:No

Hejoi
nsourfi
ngers,
theblooddr
ipsonthecup
f
il
ledwit
htheri
verwater
.Idri
nkhalfofi
tandgi
vei
t
t
oMzwakhe,
hel
ooksatus.

Thapel
o:Youneedt
odr
ink

Hedr
inksup.

Me:That
sdi
ff
erent

Thapel
o:Yeahthatsthekindofstr
engthyouhave.
Wewi l
lhavet
odot hisfrom ti
metoti
mebecause
youguysarenottogether,t
osafeguar
dherpowers

Me:Iam goi
ngtogocheckontheboysandiwi
ll
meetyouguysbackhomeoryouwanttookay
come

Hewrapshisst
rongarmsar
oundmeassoonaswe
di
sappeart
heylaugh.
Mzwakhe
Sakhil
eandiweretal
king,
ever
yonewentabout
thei
rownli
fe.Ir
estmyheadonhi schest
.

Sakhile:Mmm aveuthandaukungi
li
maza
ngalesgqemezasekhanda(Youli
kehur
ti
ngmewi
th
thi
sbi gheadofyour
s)

Il
augh.

Me:Yeahsoayngimoshi
leskhuluayngi
moshi
le(
I
r
uinedthi
ngs,
ireal
l
yrui
nedthings)

Sakhi
le:Bat
hini

Me:Appar
entl
yshei
sgoi
ngt
oendupwi
tht
hat
bast
ardAndi
le
Sakhi
le:What

Me:Ngi mkhawathi
leuPhindi
lebli
ndayisaj
ayi
vi,
ayisavayinj
ayam (Ihur
tPhindi
lereal
lybad,t
hings
arenott hesame)

Sakhi
le:Aynawezit
hizi
dumanj
ewenausuyel
a
i
clat
chngokuphapha

Me:Sengi
hambango220

Sakhi
le:Aynoayi
ngadumikanj
alo,
bambai
giyaut
hi
cl
utchmaseuyayi
dedela

Me:Skhul
u

Sakhi
le:Noent
lekubanil
oengi
ri
nganayef
ede
Me:Mzwakhe

Sakhi
le:Sayi
tli
keyoumeanphel
a

Ismi
le.

Sakhil
e:Uyinj
ayamampelanomasi ngakhawat
heka
grandsharp,l
eyacher
ryi
zothiBhengu

Me:Idon'
tknowit
hinkiam i
ntodeep

Sakhil
e:Khohl
waintodeepsobuyesi
mbone,
uyafunayi
ninaukubuyel
ananaye

Ikeepqui
et.
Sakhi
le:Fuckyou

Heget
supandl
eavesmebymysel
f.
[
06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Ihadafullhousetodayt henoi
setheywer emaking
wasenought owakeme.Thapel onoti
ceme, the
wayhelooksatmel i
keiam theonlythingthatexi
st.
Hissmil
epi er
cingthroughmyhear tgi
vingme
assur
anceandcomf ort,
hesmiles.

Thapel
o:Di
dwewakeyouup

Me:No

Thapel
o:Thi
scamef
oryou
Iopent
hebox.

Thapel
o:Whydi
dyoubuysuchanexpensi
vegi
ft

Me:Youbhengupeopl
edon'
tknowwhatt
odowi
th
t
hemoney

Thapel
o:Thatmeanswast
emoney

Me:Hei
sgoi
ngt
oweari
tfor
ever

Yeahididki
ndofspental
otihopeThabi
sol
oves
mygift
.

Thapel
o:Sohowar
eyou

Me:Iam doingalr
ightdespi
tet
hef
act
.Idon'
tknow
i
fishoul
df eelhur
tornot
Thapelo:Ever
ythi
nghasreasonsyoumaynotfeeli
t
now,butatsomepointyouwi l
landiwi
llber
ight
herebesideyou

Me:Youboyshungr
y

Langa:Nowyout
alki
ng

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Idon'tknowiam f eeli
nglikethi
sbecauseiam
commi tt
edtoCynt hia,howeverseeingPhindi
le
rej
oicesmysoul .Iwantt oinvit
ehert ot
his
barbecueijustdecidedt ohave,theladi
eswent
shopping.Ihopeshecomesandwecanhavea
goodt i
me.
Me:Mvel
o

Hesl
owl
ywal
ksdownl
ikewhatdoiwantnow.

Me:Boy

Her
ushesdownandsi
tsnextt
ome.

Mvel
o:Whatam idoi
ngwi
tht
his

Me:Wegoi
ngt
opl
aycanyoupl
ay

Mvel
o:Ofcour
seican,
canyou

Me:Iam l
egendbaby

Mvel
o:Gameon
HisfatherMxol i
si.Hedi dn'
tspar emehegavemea
whippingiwi l
lneverforget.Itookitlikeaman
becausewel lididwhatidi d.Hewant stomove
backhome, idon'
tthinkheshoul dtakesucha
drasti
cstep.Whatj obi shegoi ngtogethere
workingasi nITspecialist,
li
mi t
inghisbudgetand
resources.Igavemyi nputhopef ul
lyPhindi
lecan
alsoknocksomei ntohim.

Mj
:Iwantt
opl
ay

Greatthi
swil
lbeagreatbondingsessionforthem.I
smellherper
fumeengulfi
ngmynost r
il
s,shegives
meaki ssonthecheek.Iam notgoingtointr
oduce
hertotheboysnorwil
lconvi
ncet hem toli
keher.

Cynt
hia:Hi

Me:Hey
Cynt
hia:Boys.
.Okay

Shelooksatmef
orgeti
tiam notf
ight
ingwi
thMj
agai
n.

Me:Yesdi
dn'
tit
ellyoul
egend

Mvel
o:Thatwaspur
eluck

Il
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwantthem toleavemeal oneandnotbeinvit
edto
somest upidbarbecue.Thi
shasMzwakhewr i
tt
en
al
loverit,hesawmeandwasl ikeokaygi
rllet
s
dancepumpki n.
Me:Samkel
o

Sam:Heydoyouwantust
omovet
het
hingsnowor
tomor
row

Me:If
orgotaboutt
hatei
sh

Sam:Butit
snotli
keheavyst
uffexceptf
oryour
ri
dicul
ousr
equest

Iscr
eam.

Me:I
sitr
eady

Sam:I
twi
llbeasur
pri
seohwehaven'
tbeenpai
dso

Me:Iwi
llpr
ocessi
ttoni
ghtt
hankyousomuch
Sam:I
sitst
il
lthesameguestamount

Me:Mi
ghtchangebutwehaveseat
ingenoughf
or
t
heguest

Sam:Okay

Me:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
obef
ine

Sam:Iwi
llbef
ine

Me:Okaybye

Whatam igoi
ngtoweardef
ini
tel
ysomethi
ngshor
t,
thatwoul
dri
leMzwakheandCynthi
aandever
ybody
else.
Mzwakhe
Olwethuinvadesourpr
ivacywhyarepeopl
e
dist
urbi
ngmewi t
hmyboys, andhowfastt
hey
cameback.Thehousei sbusyandwehavebeen
gamingsince.

Me:Yebomommy

Ol
wet
hu:Youknowi
tsThabi
so'
sbi
rt
hdayt
omor
row

Ipauset
hegame.

Them:Mal
ume

Me:Yourugl
yhusbandi
sbei
ngbi
rt
htomor
row

Olwethu:Icantel
lnoneofyouknowli
steniasked
Phindil
etohelpme.Iwanttokeepthi
sasasur pr
ise,
howeveriam l
ett
ingyouknowpl
easedon'
trui
nit
forhi
m

Me:Wel
lii
nvi
tedhert
odayi
tshoul
dn'
tbeapr
obl
em

Ol
wet
hu:Iwoul
dli
keyout
ojustkeephi
m busy
t
omor
rowyouknow

Me:Nowhydon'tyoutel
lhi
m iam surehewil
lbe
sur
pri
sed.Phi
ndi
leisabeastatwhatshedoes

Ol
wet
hu:Youdon'
thaveapr
obl
em wi
tht
hat

Ishakemyheadcont i
nui
ngwitht
hegameiam
goingtoanni
hil
atet
hreeboys.

Phi
ndi
le
Wear
ri
veatt
hemansi
onar
eweaear
lyorl
ate,
anywaywear
egoi
ngt
ohaveagoodt
imeher
e.

Me:Hai
boi
sn'
tther
eapar
tyi
nthi
shouse

Sakhi
le:Mommy

Me:Sani
bonani
njan

Thi
sisboringiwantt
ogohomenow.Mzwakhe
comeslookingal
ri
ght
,hel
ooksatmeanddownmy
l
egsthanbackup.

Mzwakhe:Whoi
stheynowyourboyf
ri
ends

Me:Theynoneofyourbusi
ness

Mzwakhe:Thapel
o
Langa:Ismel
lmeatout
side

Kagi
so:Yeahmet
oo

Theywalkout
.Mzwakheandist
areateachot
her
,i
walkpasshi
m hegr
absmyarm andpull
smeaway.

Mzwakhe
Everyoneishavi
ngagreatt
imeenj
oyi
ng
themselves,
beenawhilesi
ncewesmil
edal
it
tl
e
andgott odri
nkasaf
ami l
y.

Li
nda:I
ngakhouMzwakheekushi
yil
e

Phi
ndi
le:Ungazongi
dakel
wa

Wel
augh.
Li
nda:Yi
ndabi
khandal
enj
e

It
hinkshel
ookshotanddidi
tonpur
posereal
ly.
Cynthi
acomesbackwheredi
dshedi
sappeart
o.

That
o:Sesf
iki
lesesi
fi
kil
e

Sheki
ssesme.

Me:Okayeveryoneset
tl
eddownuhm idi
dthi
s
becauseij
ustwantedustohavef
unandrel
axabi
t
youknow

Cynt
hia:Doot
herpeopl
eneedt
obeher
e

Mvel
o:Aunt
ie
Phindi
le:Himylovi
esahwhati
sunclef
eedingyou
guys.Youwanttobetal
lert
hanhi
m imissedyou
guyssomuch, come

Shepul
lst
hem out
sideil
ookatCynt
hia.

Phi
ndi
le
Si
tuationshavechangedweusedtobeatightass
cl
ique.Nonhledoesn'
tsayhit
ome, someofthem
ar
er eserved,
whydidievencome.

Thapel
o:Youhavesomet
hingt
osaymi
ss

Si
hle:No

Thapel
o:Youl
ooki
ngatherl
ikeyouwantt
ochoke
her
Si
hle:Mor
eli
kel
augh

Shel
aughs,
mybr
eakupwi
thMzwakhei
scl
ear
ly
amusi
ngher.

Si
hle:Youwerefl
yinghi
ghnowl
ookwher
eyouar
e
i
kushiyi
lei
ndoda

Ii
gnor
eher
.

Si
hle:Howdoesitf
eelgi
rlyoumadei
tknowyou
weregoingt
okil
lme.Iam ab*t
chandwhatnot

Igetup.

Me:Thapel
oletgoofme,
letgoofmepl
ease

Igr
abmybagandl
eave,
theyf
oll
owme.Iam
l
eavi
ngbecauseiknowwheret
hisisgoi
ng,t
hey
canst
aybehindandhavef
unwithoutme.
[
06/
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23] :163

Phi
ndi
le
Idri
nkmycof feeiam notmuchofacof f
eeperson,
butthesi
tuati
onisagreei
ngandiam goingtoneed
moreformydayahead.Thapel oandtheboyswer e
hel
pingmel oadthi
ngsint hecar
,iwil
lst
artmyset
upveryearl
ywhi l
eiwaitforSamkelo.

Langa:It
hinkwedonenow

Me:Iwoul
dti
pyoubutyouguysar
efami
ly

Mt
hoko:Ti
puswi
thwhat
,whati
sat
ip

Me:Nomanatl
eastactl
ikeyouf
rom t
hiswor
ld
comeon

Thapel
o:Younott
eachi
ngusanyt
hingsohow
wouldweknow

Me:Yeahbi gmist
akeat iphandsomei sli
kegrat
uit
y
youknowwhatgr atui
tyisri
ght.Whensomeone
helpsyououtofthegoodnessoft heirhear
t.You
givethem ati
pmoneyj usttothankthem

Mt
hoko:Ohwel
lyoucankeepyourmoney

Me:Damm

Thapel
o:Phel
atoyourwor
ldwedon'
texi
st

Me:Ar
eal
lofyousnakes
Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe
Iopenmyeyest
heybur
n,ishutt
hem agai
n.

Cynt
hia:Goodmor
ningsl
eepi
ngbeaut
y

Me:Hmm nxiyewenangi
zokushaya

Shel
aughs.

Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngsoear
lyi
nthemor
ning

Cynt
hia:I
tst
enit
ookt
hedayof
ftot
akecar
eofyou

Me:Andyoust
il
ldoubtwhyil
oveyou
Cynt
hia:Boypl
ease

Me:Di
dyouhaveagoodt
ime

Cynthia:Yeahafterwhathappenediwasokaybut
than,what'shernamemadei tapointt
odisr
espect
me

She'
sref
err
ingt
orat
oil
augh.

Cynt
hia:Iam gl
adyouf
indt
hisf
unny

Me:Don'
tmi
ndheral
loft
hem wi
llbel
iket
hat

Cynthi
a:Theymustknowyoudati
ngmenowand
stopacti
ngli
ket
hat.Whatyouandidodoesnot
concernthem
Me:Cynt
hiai
tstoear
lyt
obefight
ingwithyoui
ts
Thabi
so'
sbir
thdayt
odaypl
easedon'tr
uinit

Cynt
hia:Iam j
ustsayi
ng

"
Mzwakhe"

Whatdoeshewant
.

Me:Nodon'topenwewer
etol
dtoactl
ikewedon'
t
knowanyt
hing

Hebangst
hedoormyphonevi
brat
es.

Me:Yeah.
..Hei
sbangi
ngonmydoor

Il
augh.
Phi
ndi
le
Idon'twanttof
ightwi
thanybodyiam ent
eri
ngthis
housewi t
hagoodmood.Idon'tcarewhathappens
solongikeepasmi l
eonmyf ace,
andsatisf
ymy
cli
ent.Thabi
soopensthedoorwhyisheup,ah
theseguysaredoingabadjob.

Thabi
so:Mommy

Me:Happybi
rt
hday

Hesmi
lesandhugsme.

Me:Canyouopent
hedoorf
orme

James:Nkosazane
Ist
aggerback.

James:St
op

Ohheissnatchedupinal
lther
ightpl
aces,
looki
ng
yummy.Ifanmyselfhel
aughs.

Thabi
so:Youher
etodomybi
rt
hday

Ihandhi
mt hei
nvoi
cehewast
enot
imeandpul
lhi
s
phoneout
.

Me:Pl
easebor
rowmeyourki
tchenort
abl
eorl
it
tl
e
cor
nerf
orme

Thabi
so:Nomayi
nioyi
funayo

MzwakheandNonhl
est
epout
.
Mzwakhe:Sani
bonani

Me:Yebosani
bona

Nonhl
e:Mnagnidoyouneedhel
pwi
thanyt
hing

Me:Canyoui
cecakes

Nonhl
e:That
'syourt
hinggi
rl

Mxoli
silooksatmet hanNonhleandshakeshis
head.I
tsnotmyf aul
tthi
ngsaret
his,
everyone
headsinside.Igr
abmypl ast
icwit
hallmygoodies,
i
canfeelhisheavypresencebehi
ndme.

Mzwakhe:Youst
ayi
ngr
ight
Me:Iwasn'
tinvi
ted

Het
ri
est
otouchmeisnap.

Me:Leavemeal
onepl
ease

Mzwakhe
Icoul
dkillSi
hler
ightnowsherui
nedever
ythi
ngf
or
meandwewer ejustget
ti
ngonthesame
under
standingpage.

Mxol
isi
:Mzwakheongi
bizel
auAyanda

Iam aboutt
orecei
veanot
herbeatdown.

Me:Ayanda
Weheadout
side.

Mxoli
si:Iam nott
ryi
ngtobeinyourbusi
nessbut
whati
st hereasonforyout
oseparat
ePhindi
leand
Nonhl
el i
kethis

Ayanda:Minabhutiomdalacelaungangi
faki
kul
ento.AbantuekumeleukhulumenabouNonhle
noMzwakhe( Bi
gpleaseleavemeoutofthis,
the
peopl
eyoushoul dbetal
kingtoaboutthi
sis
MzwakheandNonhl e)

Heget
sup.

Ayanda:Ungangi f
akikwintoengahlangenenayo.
uMzwakhenoNonhl eyiboabat hat
heisnqumo
sokuzixabanisanoPhindil
e,kungonakelelut
hso
ungangifaki.(
Don'tputmei nsomet hi
ngihave
nothingtodowi t
h.MzwakheandNonhl eboth
decidetofightwit
hherf ornoreason,pleaseleave
meoutoft
his)

Hegoesbacki
nsi
de.

Mxol
isi
:Okay

Hewal
ksawayaswel
l.

Phi
ndi
le
Samkelohasar r
ivedican'twaitt
oseet hesi
gn.I
madeamessi nthere,
itwasn'tsupposedtotake
thi
slongici
ngthecupcakes.Ther eistoomany
peopleiam onedgeCynt hiai
spissingmeoff.

Samkelo:Whenyousaidmadeoutofalcohol
bott
lesiwasli
keokayyouar
ecrazy.Thaniseei
t
yeahyouarecrazy
Il
augh.

Samkel
o:Phi
ndi
le

Heshowsmet
hedi
git
alver
sion.

Samkel
o:Youonanot
herl
evel

Me:Youmaki
ngmener
vouswhyyouspeaki
ngl
i
ke
t
hat

Samkel
o:Wher
eshoul
dweputi
t

Thabi
so:Mommyyouneedhel
p

Me:Noiwantyout
ogoi nsi
deanddon'tcomeout
,
hol
donSamkeloiwi
llhelpyour
ightnow
Ipushhim backi
nsi
de.Thatmanagestocheerme
up,hecannotseethesi
gnitsasurpr
ise.

Mzwakhe
Toavoi
danyfri
cti
onorfightingir
eti
redtomyroom.
Shewasn'
tokayicantellshewishesshewasn'
t
her
e.Cynt
hiaent
ersslammi ngthedoorandt
hisis
whyiam i
nmybedr oom.

Cynt
hia:Whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout

Me:Mmmm

Cynt
hia:Yourmi
lesaway

Phi
ndi
lebutiam notgoi
ngt
oment
iont
hat
.
Me:Not
hingiam j
ustr
est
ingidr
ankal
ot

Cynt
hia:Doineedt
obewor
ri
ed

Me:About

Cynthi
a:Mzwakheever
yti
met
hisgi
rli
sar
ound
yourworl
dstops

Icl
osemyeyes.

Me:Idon'
tli
kei
nsecuri
ti
esi
fyoudon'thavef
ait
hin
methanyougoingtohaveatought
ime

Cynt
hia:Whatdoest
hatmean

Me:Cynt
hiahowlonghavewebeendating,
havei
gi
venyouareasontodoubtme.Icanhaveasmany
b*
tchsasiwantandyouwon'
tevenknowabouti
t

Cynt
hia:Wasyourexab*
tch

Me:Thebest

Phi
ndi
le
Ayanda:Thereyouar
eihavebeenl
ooki
ngal
lover
foryou.
..Phi
ndil
e

Me:Yessor
ryhowcanihel
p

Ayanda:Youst
ayi
ngr
ightican'
tdot
hiswi
thoutyou

Me:Dowhat

Heshowsmear
ingwowt
hat
shuge.
Me:Come

Weent
ermypr i
vatespaceigr
abagrassmatand
l
ayi
tout.Ir
eachforthecandl
eandanunderpl
ate.

Me:"Youallgr
ownupiam pr
oudofyou"wer
eyou
yourdad'
sfavori
te

Ayanda:Yeaht
hanLi
ndocame

Me:Pleaseacknowledgethatheissteppi
ng
for
wardandblessingthi
sunion,pleaseli
ghtt
he
candl
eandt al
ktothem.Iam goingt ofet
chwater

Ayanda:Mommy

Me:I
ntr
oduceyour
sel
fandt
alkt
othem
Ayanda:Okay

Ist
epoutoft
her
oom.
[
06/
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15:
23] :164

Sakhi
le
GivePhindi
leherflower sman.Shetr
ansfor
medt he
outsi
deintoaidon' tevenhavewordstoexplai
nto
i
t,ever
yoneisleftstunned.

Me:Webafet
huniyiboni
lekodwal
ent
oengaphandl
e
(
Didyouwhat'
soutside)

Nonhl
e:Ever
ythi
ngshet
ouchest
urnst
ogol
d

Me:Ey
Nonhl
e:Iam sadiwasn'
tapartoft
hispl
ani
ng,
t
here'
smoreilovethanwor
king

Thobani
:OkayyeswenaMzwakhe

Thesetwothinkwestupi
dlikewedon'tseethem
sneaki
ngofsomewher e,
togosmasheachot her.
Dotheyreal
lythinkwewerebornyesterday,
iclear
myt hr
oathebiteshi
sli
pandl ooksather.

Me:Yaziwena

Mzwakhe:Ungangi
phani

Thobani
:Skhul
u

Me:Ayshutupwena
Wel augh.Howdoyouclai
mt ohaveagirl
fr
iend
thanbesmashingyouexsideinthesameroof.
Mzwakheihavenowor dsforhi
m, ipul
lhi
mt othe
side.

Me:Skhul
umanj
eyi
nil
eoyenzayo

Mzwakhe:St
ayoutoft
hisoneiknowwhatiam
doi
ng

Hewal
ksawayisi
gh.

Thabi
so
I
tsgoi
ngdowndownstair
sandiam l
ockedi
nmy
r
oom l
ikeapr
isoner
.Iheart
hekeyst
urni
ngmywi
fe
wal
ksin.

Me:Wow
Olwethu:Didyourest,
hadabathbecausezi
yawa
ezansihereisyoursui
t.Thi
swassentbyPhindi
le

Me:Whatdi
didot
odeser
vesuch

Olwethu:Youknowweneverr eal
lycel
ebrat
ed
anythi
ngint hi
sfami
lyunti
lcamePhindil
e,t
hings
changed.Ijustwant
edtodosomet hi
ngforyouand
makeyouf eelspeci
alhusband

Me:Idof
eelspeci
alwi
feywi
thyoubymysi
de

Weki
ss.

Ol
wet
hu:Okaysheal
somadet
hesecuf
fl
inks

Igetdr
essed.
Me:Ngi
yabonga

Ol
wet
hu:Anyt
hingf
oryoumyl
ove

Shebl
indf
oldsme.

Me:Ohokay

Shehol
dsmyhandandwel
eave.

Me:Don'
tletmef
alldownt
hest
air
snow

Ol
wet
hu:Real
ly

Me:Whoknowswhenyouangr
yyouwi
sht
othr
ow
metothewol
ves,
woul
dn'
tyouli
ket
hat
Wel
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Okay

Sheunf
oldsmeandt
heyscr
eam sur
pri
se,
iwhi
stl
e.

Nonhl
e:Amazi
ngr
ight

Me:Hai
bohai
bot
hisi
smi
ndbl
owi
ng

Thepoolissurr
oundedbycandles,
thetreeshave
l
ightsonthem.Phindi
lewalkst
othefarendofthe
pool,mywifehol
dsme.Sher emovesthedrape
coveri
ngsomething,i
tshi
nesbri
ght.

Me:OhmyGod
Thobani
:Mommy

Theygocr
azy.

Me:I
sthatmynamemadeoutofbot
tl
es

Nonhl
e:Cor
rect
ional
cohol

Me:Phi
ndi
leal
lthi
sforme

Ol
wet
hu:Happybi
rt
hdaymyl
ove

Myhear
tdr
ops.

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'tstayaf
terset
ti
ngupbutbecauseAyandai
s
proposingIhadtostay.Dr
inkswer
eflowi
ng
bi
rt
hdaymani
sovert
hemoon.

Voi
ce:Yougooddoineedt
ocomeover

Ismi l
eandhappent olookatMzwakhe, hehasa
str
aightfaceon.Cynthiatoucheshishandhe
smilesandkissesit
,ilaughasi fiam smil
ingathi
m
myphoner i
ngs.

Me:Wowdudeyoubeencal
li
ngme

Cal
ler
:Canwemeet

Igetbutter
fl
iesi
nmystomach,icont
inuesmi
li
ng
andhungup.Isavehisnumberandtexthi
m.He
cal
lsilaughandexcusemysel
f.

Me:Whyyour
uini
ngt
hings
Hi
m:Whosai
diwant
edt
otextyou

Me:Iam atapar
tyandiam dr
inki
ng

Hi
m:Idon'
tcar
ecanwemeet

Me:Wi
tht
hatat
ti
tudeidon'
tthi
nkso

Hi
m:Okay

Hehungsupyohnotanot herdramaqueen.Cani
notat
tractbadboysanymoreiam good,theybri
ng
menothingbutstressandhear
tbreakiam good
now.Phamandlaent er
swit
haladywhoshe' s
beaut
if
ul.

Phamandl
a:Awesomecomequi
cki
ntr
oduct
ion
mommyt
hisi
sAnel
ecel
eAnel
ethi
smommy

Me:Wowshe'
sbeaut
if
ul

Shesmilesweshakehands,
her
sbur
nshequi
ckl
y
ret
ri
evesitback.

Anel
e:Ni
cemeet
ingyou

Theyconti
nuewal
kingif
oll
owbehi
ndt
hem,
wind
passesbymyenti
rebody.

Mzwakhe
Theladi
esar eenjoyi
ngthemselvestakingpict
ures
wit
hThabiso'sname.Cynt hi
aissulki
ngher ebeside
meican'tbr
eat he.Phamandlajoi
nsuswhoi sthis
babe.Sakhi
le,ThobaniandLindanistandup.
Phamandl
a:Heyf
ami
ly

Me:Whoi
sshe

Phamandla:Iwasgoingtobr
inghersomeot
her
ti
mebutthisistheperf
ectmoment

She'
sbl
ushi
ng.

Phamandl
a:Fami
lymeetAnel
ecel
eAnel
ethi
sis
myfamil
y

Anel
e:Sani
bonanif
ort
hebi
rt
hdayboy

Phindi
lesnat
chesthegi
ftf
rom her
,herhai
risnow
fl
owingandblowingal
lki
ndsofsexy.

Phamandl
a:Somet
hingwr
ong
Phi
ndi
le:Noiam r
esponsi
blef
ort
hegi
ft
s

Phamandl
a:Youdi
dn'
thavet
osnat
chi
tli
kesome
upti
ghtbi
tch

Hai
bo.

Phi
ndi
le
Deali
ngwi t
ht hi
sisonl ygoingtocausesomuch
drama.Icant el
lit
snotawar eofmypr esence,shit
Phamandlai sintheshackl esofthiscr
eature.I
can'
tgohomeineedt ost opdri
nkingnow, idon't
havetrai
ningwheni tcomest othi
s.Thapelowas
supposedt ohelpme, sincemyst rengt
hisal it
tl
ebit
weak.

Ayandaget
supt
hegent
sleanback.
Ayanda:Nonhl
eawungi
landel
elapho

Themomentoftrutht
heyfol
loweachot
herl
ikea
l
itt
lecoupl
einl
ove.Nonhl
elooksbr
eat
htaki
ngin
thatdr
ess.

Mzwakhe:Youokay

Me:Iam notsl
eepi
ngwi
thyou

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:
Whoi
sont
hatphonemaki
ngyousmi
l
e

Me:Andi
le

Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokubul
alaPhi
ndi
leungangi
li
ngi
Iwoul
dli
ket
oki
llyoual
so.

Mzwakhe:Qhubeka

Hewalksaway.Ayandagoesdownonhi
soneknee
t
heladi
esscream.

Ol
wet
hu:Bhengu,
Dlabazane

Theyululat
eandstartdancing.Nonhlei
sbeside
hersel
f,heshowsherthering.Sheputsherhand
out,hesli
desther
inginever ybodygoescr
azy.

Mzwakhe
Il
ookforPhindi
leinthemidstofal
lthi
scel
ebr
ati
on,
shewasrightnexttoThobanidi
dshegoinsi
de.
Me:Thobanii
mamal
iphikadeel
aduzekwakho

Thobani
:Cal
m downshewi
llbeback

Hewal
ksawayf
rom me.

Cynt
hia:Theyl
ooksobeaut
if
ul

Me:Excuseme

Iheadi
nsi
deandl
ookf
orher
.

Me:Phi
ndi
le.
.Mama

Whereissheient
ert
hecont
rolr
oom t
her
e'snosi
gn
ofher
.
Me:Awmanj
eushonephil
omunt
u

Iseef
rom t
hescreensheappear
sfr
om behi
ndme
wit
hherarmsfol
ded.Let
shavesomeli
ttl
efun.
[
06/
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15:
23] :165

Nonhl
e
Iam overwhelmedwi t
hemot i
onssooniam going
tobeabhengu.Awhol ebhengucanitgetany
bett
er,i
tallst
il
lfeel
ssosur r
ealj
ustt
heotherti
mei
thoughtiwaslosinghim nowiam marryi
ngtheguy.

Ayanda:Al
readyper
for
mingwi
fedut
ies

Hehugsmef
rom behi
nd.

Me:Honeyi
'
vebeenper
for
ming
Hechuckl
es.

Ayanda:Youbet
terber
eadynowt
obeMr
sAyanda
Bhengu

Me:Yebobaba

Wel
augh.

Thabi
so:Awusukamadodakwazekwakuf
anel
a
ukubal
ayikhaya

Mzwakhe:Smel
lsni
cet
o

Me:St
opi
tyoumaki
ngmebl
ush

Mzwakhe:Si
yabongaMr
stobeakazeni
mbona
uPhi
ndi
le
Ever
yonel
ooksathi
m andl
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Hawuni
hlekani

Thabi
so:Ngi
lambil
ekeminangi
funaukudl
amase
ngi
vul
aamapr esentami

Whereisshebyt
hewayshedi
dn'
teven
congr
atul
ateme,
oral
lowust
ocel
ebrat
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Thethingihadtodowast ogetawayf r
om
Mzwakhe.Ilockedmyselfinthet heaterroom,iwas
watchingcar
toons.Ii
mmedi atelyfeelherbadspiri
t,
ihavetoapproachherwithcaut i
onandnotshow
anysignofweakness.Thesecr eaturesareableto
smellmyweaknessandusei ttotheiradvantage,
mynumberonepr i
ori
tyi
smaki ngsur ePhamandla
i
ssaf
e.

WhyisThapelobeingsil
ent.Istepoutoft hetheater
,
Cynt
hiaandmxm wi l
lbemybi ggestdi
stracti
on.
Thi
sbetternotbeThapelo'
sill
usionagain, t
histi
me
iwon'
thaveapr obl
em ki
lli
nghi m.

Li
nda:Awi
mama

Me:Whatyouguyseat
ing

Li
nda:Ziyangi
chazai
ynwel
ezakhongat
h
ngakubhebha

Thabi
so:Li
ndani

Hel
aughs.
Phamandl
a:SoThabisodi
dyoul
oveyourgi
ftmy
babywassothought
ful

Thabi
so:Somanypr esent
swai
ti
ngf
ormewhat
's
sospeci
alabouther
's

Anel
e:Okayboocal
m downi
twasanepi
cni
ght

Phamandl
a:Mommywhatdoyout
hink

Me:Youcareaboutwhatit
hinkwasn'
tib*
tcht
o
youdoct
orbae

Phamandl
a:Kubeukushel
elakol
imingi
yaxol
isa
kakhul
u

Igrabasausageandwal
kawayiwantt omakei
t
feelwel
comedasthiswi
llbei
tsl
astday,i
nAnel
e'
s
body.

Nonhl
e
Shedidn'tevenacknowledgemeandt hatbrokemy
heart,
butanywayst hisbigr
ockinmyf i
ngeris
doingthemost .Igeti
tnowwhyhewasact i
ngall
weird,hewast aki
ngabi gst
epinhisl
ifeandiso
happyhechosemet odothi
sli
fethi
ngwi t
hhim.

Cynt
hia:Nonhl
eri
ght

Isi
gh.

Me:Yeshowcanihel
p

Cynthia:Welli
fyoufr
eesomedayicansetupaspa
datejustthetwoofus
Me:Why?

Cynt
hia:Justt
ogett
oknowmeal
it
tl
emor
e

Me:Noiam good

Cynt
hia:Youneedt
ounder
standhei
swi
thmenow

Me:Andthatsexactl
ywhyiam notgoingt otr
yand
evenworkthi
ngsoutwithyou.Youthet ypeofb*t
ch
fewmonthsdownt heli
ne,youandyourmanwi l
l
ali
enat
eyoursel
fbecauseohwedon' tl
ikeyou

Cynt
hia:Bal
aamagamaakhoNonhl
e
mawukhulumanami

Me:Noyouwatchyourwordsb*tch,
ifMzwakhe
want
stohecanleaveyouhighanddryli
kethat
Cynthi
a:Youdon'tknowmeyoudon'tknowmy
rel
ati
onshipwit
hMzwakhe.Younotgoingtocall
menob* tch,
there'
snoneedtodisr
espectme.St
op
acti
ngli
kewef ucki
ngthesamethesameman

Ihavenocomebacks.

Phi
ndi
le
Icl
earmythr
oatandi
nter
ruptt
her
esmooch
sessi
on.

Me:Iwasn'
tqui
temysel
fthi
smorni
ngyouknowbut
i
fyouwil
lal
lowme.Iwil
lmakei
tuptoyou

Anel
e:Whocansaynot
ogoodchampagne

Phamandl
a:Whydon'
tigi
veyoul
adi
esspacet
oget
t
oknoweachot
her
.Mommyipr
omi
seyougoi
ngt
o
l
ikeher
.

We'
l
lsee.

Me:Youenj
oyi
ngyour
sel
far
en'
tyou

Anele:I
fyoumeanimtaki
ngadvantageof
Phamandlayouwrong.Il
ovehi
m andiwantt
obe
wit
hhi m

Itouchherhandi tbur
nssher et
ract
sherhandback.
Itrytotouchitagai
nshekicksmehar donmygut ,
i
l
andhar dont hepil
ler
.Sheisunawarebutthe
creatur
eis,igetupandchargeather.Shegrabs
twopansandswi ngsthem,iduckdownshedents
therefr
igerat
or.

Anel
e:Doyouknowwhoiam
Me:Nodoyouknowwhoiam

Sheput
sthepansdown.

Anel
e:Mymani
swaiti
ngformeiam goi
ngt
otel
l
hi
m wehadagr
eatconver
sat
ion

Me:Idon'
tthi
nkso

Igrabherhai
rintoafistthanherlegandthrowher
acrossther
oom.Shegoesf l
yingt
hroughthe
sl
idingdoor
,theglassshat t
ers.Myjobist
o
el
imi nat
eal
lofthecreaturescreat
ed.

Phamandl
a:Anel
e

Her
ushest
oher
.
Phamandl
a:Babywhatdi
dyoudot
oheryouani
mal

Anel
e:Sh.
..
.Sh.
..
.Shehi
tme

Hegetsupwi t
hsomuchr ageandslapsme.Ican'
t
worr
yaboutthat,ineedt
ogett
hiscreatur
eoutof
Anel
e'sbody.Shegetsupandlaughs.

Anel
e:Nowiknowwhoyouar
eiwaswonder
ing
whymyhandkeptbur
ning

Shel
ooksatPhamandl
awhohasf
aint
ed.

Anele:Thi
sisawasteoft
ime,
bythet
imeiam done
wit
ht hi
sfamil
y.Youwon'
tbeabl
etor
ecogni
ze
t
hem
Me:Thatwi
llneverhappenwhi
leiam st
il
lal
ive,
Fi
ghtmeshowmewhoyouar e

Anel
e:Li
keiam goi
ngt
ofal
lfort
hat

It
ransf
ormi
ntoMamba

Me:I
fiwi
nyoudi
e

Anel
e:I
fiwi
niam t
aki
ngMambar
ight

Me:Fai
renough

Anel
e:Andhoneywedon'
tdi
ewemul
ti
plet
hisi
s
goi
ngtobefun

Shehopsaway.
Me:Toni
ght

Shecomesbackf
lyi
ngi
nmyf
ace.

Me:Toni
ghtornodeal

Anele:Youbet
terhavei
nsur
ancebecauseiam
t
akingyouout

Shedisappear
s.Idr
agPhamandl
a'
sbodyi
ntot
he
poolwit
hme.

Nonhl
e
Myasswast akent
ocour
tsheranandwentt
o
complainaboutmetoMzwakheandhewas
roast
ingmyass.
Mzwakhe:Dat i
ngmybr otherandbei
ngaskedyour
handinmar r
iage,
doesn'tgiveyout
her i
ghtt
o
disr
espectherortal
ktoheranyhow.Don'tyoudar
e
fuckwit
hmeNonhl eiam notyourfr
iend

Hewal
ksawaybr
eat
hingf
ir
e,mykneesf
ailmeif
all
ont
hecouch.

Me:Di
dhej
ustt
alkt
omel
iket
hat

Ir
ecei
vedamessagefrom Vumi
leyeahideser
vea
br
eakfr
om t
hishouse.

Me:Wher
eisPhi
ndi
lewhenyouneedherwow
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Phi
ndi
le
I
twasat
enseni
ghtt
hewi
ndwasbl
owi
ngcr
azy,
the
oceanwasgushingveryvulgar.Ifeltveryconf
ident
thatiwasgoi
ngtodefeatthiscreatur e,
shecomes
fl
yingint
heairmakeabigl oudlandi ngsound.

Anele(
Creat
ure):It
houghtiwasst
rongert
hant
han
guessnotpr
incess

Me:Showmeyourt
ruesel
f

Anel
e(Cr
eat
ure):Younotr
eadyf
ort
hat

Iwal
kaway.

Anel
e(Cr
eat
ure):Okay

Itrel
easesit
sel
ffr
om herbody.Mambaawakens,
theyquickl
yremoveAnele'
sbodynowit
sjustme
andt hi
sshadow.
Voi
ce:Li
stent
oyourst
rengt
h

Sakhi
le
Ayandacal
ledmesof astpani
ckingthehousewas
i
nshambles,brokenglasseverywhere.Who
damagedtherefri
geratornow,ihopeMzwakheand
phi
ndil
ewerenotf i
ghting.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
tunder
standt
hisdoori
sshat
ter
pr
oof

Ayanda:Uhm youguysmi
ghtwantt
oseet
his

Hel ooksatmeithinkhemeanttocallmeonlyandi
tookmysweett i
me.Wet ur
nouratt
enti
ontothe
screenheplaysthevideo,wewat
cheveryt
hing
unfold.Myeyesarebeyondshocked.
Cynt
hia:She'
sfi
ght
ingi
nnocentpeopl
enow

Mzwakhe:Thul
awenawher
ethef
ucki
sPhamandl
a

Me:It
hinkweneedt
ocal
m downsomet
hingbi
g
andbeyondusi
sgoi
ngon

Mzwakhe:UmshayengempamaSakhi
le

Me:Iknowwegoingtokillhi
mlet
sal
lset
tl
edown
anddon'tt
ouchanyt
hing

Phi
ndi
le
Itwaslosinganditdi
dn'tl
iket hati
tcreatedmulti
ple
fir
eball
sandshotthem atme.Ir ai
sedmyhandup
andformedt hem i
ntoonebal lthanthrewitbackat
i
t.Itwentdowninsize,i
tgotmadt hegr oundstar
ts
shaking,it
hrowasmanyf ireballasicanatit.
Me:Mamba

Ithrewmyt r
identupintheairandtransformed.The
wind, waterandsandstartt
of orm atornado,ican't
see.Iclosemyeyesandusemysenses, itf
eel
comi ngtowar dsmewi t
hfir
ejustwheni tsaboutt o
rel
easet hefir
eball
.Iwrapmysnakebodyt i
ghtly
aroundi t
sbody.

Itsoundst heonlymel
odythatcanki
llme,
ifeelmy
griploosening.Myski
ncrawls,
mybodyweakens.I
falldown.

Voi
ce:Nkosazane

Voi
ce:Gi
vei
tuppr
incessyoudonef
or

Voi
ce:Fi
ghtmyqueen
Iful
lyt
ransf
ormthethr
eesnakesappear
,wewr
ap
oursel
vesar
oundtheshadow.

Me:Idon'
tthi
nksogot
ohel
landt
akeyourf
ri
ends
wi
thyou

Ilodgemyspearst r
aighti
ntoi
tsgl
owingpart,
twist
ingandpushingdeepintoi
tssourceofl
if
e.
Theshadowbur nsigodownonmykneesandpr ay.

Sakhi
le
MikeTysonoverher emi r
acul
ouslydecidedtoshow
up,whatwashet hinki
ngandwhatwasser i
ously
goingoninhishead.SizweenterscarryingPhindi
le
andanothercar
ryingMi keTysonsgir
lfri
end.

Sizwe:Comequi
ckgetonyourkneesandwhisper
tel
lthem t
ocomeback,
quickl
ywedon'thavemuch
t
ime

Theydot
hatandt
heybot
hwakeupgaspi
ng.

Si
zwe:Youdi
dit

Theyhol
dhandsi
sshecr
ying.

Me:OhmyGodshewas

Si
zwe:Possessedhadwewai
tedanyl
ongerhe
woul
dhavebeendead

Me:Ohmygoodness

Sizwe:Youwillhearfrom af
tert
hreedays.Thapel
o
willcomeback,makesur eyouthreearebyherside
atallti
mes.Untilei
therofuscomeback
Me:Mommy

Li
ndokuhl
ekneel
sbefor
eherhelooksather
,li
ke
shei
stheonl
ythingt
hatmatt
ers.

Mzwakhe
Soshefoughtacreatureandnoneofuswere
awareofthat
.Ipourmyselfashotofvodkaand
downit,
igrabthebottl
eandmakemywayout si
de.
Irol
lmypantsupt handipmyfeeti
ntothepool,
pouri
nganothershot.

NumberoneAyandai sgoingt omurderme, idon'

t
careCynthi
aaskedpol i
tel
yi ftheycoul dhangout.
Nonhledidn'
tneedt obenast y.Secondt hi
sthing
withPhindi
leihavetostopi t,iam being
disr
espectf
ultowardsthebot hoft hem andthey
don'tdeser
vethat.Lastbutnotl eastiam goingto
si
ther eandfi
nishthisbott
le.
Thobanijoi
nsmebutsit
sont heot
herside.Li
ndani
j
oinsto,andlast
lymybestf
ri
endhesitsnexttome.

Me:Bot
tomsup
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Fewdaysl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Wegr
abourpl
atesandheadt
othel
ounge.

Mxol
isi
:Sokegci
no

Me:Thi
sissogood

Mxol
isi
:Howar
eyoudoi
ngyouandMzwakhewhat
i
sgoi
ngon

Me:Heiswit
hsomeoneel
sewhatyoumeanwhat
i
sgoingon

Mxol
isi
:Gci
no

Me:NoMxolisiiam notgoi
ngt
obegf
oramani
fhe
doesn'
twantmet hansobe

Mxol
isi
:Thatmanlovesyouever
yonecanseeitso
whyyoulet
ti
ngthi
ngsgettothi
spointgci
nocome
on

Mzwakhet hi
nkspeopl
ear edisposableheisdoi
ng
thi
ngs,t
hinki
ngheisgoingt ogetmebackoriwi l
l
runtohi
m.Mzwakhei shi ghmaintenance,hi
s
ancest
orsarehighmaintenancewhi chonedoi
choose.
Mxoli
si:I
tsbecauseyounotcryi
ng,youbott
li
ng
t
hingsupt hati
swhyhei sgoi
ngtoconti
nuebeing
wit
hthatgirl
.Idon'
tli
kehersheisnothi
stype

Me:Wel
ltheyt
oget
hersoyeah

Cynt
hia
Thehouseisquiettodayforthefi
rstt
imesincei
havebeenhere.Fi
nal l
yigettobreat
hicouldn't
evenheremyownt hought s,
ifi
tsnotthei
rstupid
mommy, it
stheseladiesdisr
especti
ngand
Mzwakhesayingnot hi
ng.

Me:Wher
eisever
yone

Mzwakhe:Theyl
eft
Me:Fi
nal
lywehavesomeal
onet
imeandt
hehouse
t
ooursel
ves

Mzwakhe:Theyl
eftbecauseofyou

Me:Whatdi
dido

Mzwakhe:Youmademef
ightwi
thNonhl
e

Me:Shewasbeingmeananddi
srespect
fulcome
onwhyisever
yonemaki
ngsuchabi gdealoutof
thi
s

Mzwakhe:Wenotdoi ngthi
sifyoudon'twanttoget
toknowmyf amil
y.Fineputyourfocusonour
rel
ati
onship,
butdon'tyoudar
ewhent heystar
t
doingthei
rownthingandyoufeellef
toutthanyou
complain
Me:I
sthi
sbecauseofPhi
ndi
l
e

Mzwakhe:DoyouseePhindi
leher
eitol
dyou
i
mpressthem andever
yoneel
seisgo

Me:Fineifthat
'swhatyouwant
.Iwi
llt
ryt
omend
r
elat
ionshipwit
hthem

Heshakeshi
shead,
theboyscomer
unni
ngi
n.He
i
salr
eadyupwit
hhisgun.

Mzwakhe:What
sgoi
ngon

Mvel
o:Wedon'
tknowacarwaschasi
ngus

Hi
sphoner
ingsamamaf
lashest
hroughhi
sscr
een.

Nonhl
e
Whenicameher eithoughtiwasn'tgoingt obe
welcomedwithopenarms.Idi dmyf ami l
ypret
ty
wrongandtheyalit
tl
ehesitantonbui l
dinga
r
elati
onshi
pwi t
hme.Butaf terAyandaohmanwe
i
nagoodpl ace.

Me:Heisjustamazi
ngmaipr
omi
senot
hingl
ike
whatiwentthr
ough

Ma:Ngi
yabonai
ndlel
aamuthandangayoubaba
wakho(
Icantel
lthewayheloveshi
m)

Me:Ngi
yabongama(
Thankyoumom)

Anotherper
sonwhowishedformetohappysi
nce
thedaywemetisPhi
ndile,
herandiar
eatoddsand
imissher.

Vumi
le:Nono
Me:Heyboo

Vumi
le:Uyashada

Ismi
le.

Vumi
le:Mustbeagoodmanf
ordadt
oli
kehi
m

Wel
augh.

Lethu:Yiningezi
mot
oezi
wut
housand(
What
swi
th
themi l
li
oncars)

Vumi
le:Aphel
ezel
einkosazane

Let
hu:WhoNono
Helaughs.Ist
epoutiam hopi
ngsheanswer
smy
cal
l.

Phi
ndi
le
Icouldbarel
ykeepmyeyesopenaf t
erthe
conversat
ionwit
hMxol i
si,
somethinghappened.He
rushedovertogocheckonhi sboys,youknowi
thi
nkheshoul dwai
tti
llt
heyfini
shschoolandhe
comesbackwhent heystartvar
sit
ylife.

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hi

Nonhl
e:Hi

Me:Ihear
dthr
ought
hegr
apevi
nest
hatyouget
ti
ng
mar
ri
ed

Nonhl
e:Youknowthisguyhepr
oposedt
omeand
myheartcoul
dn'
thandl
eit

Me:Congr
atul
ati
ons

Nonhl
e:Imi
ssyou

Me:Wher
eyouat

Nonhl
e:HomeMzwakhewentof
fonme

Me:What

Nonhle:Het
oldmei
fieverwantt
oli
veimust
watchwhatisay
Me:Hesai
dthat

Nonhl
e:Andmor
esoideci
dedt
ogetf
reshai
r

Me:Mmm igotanot
heri
ncomi
ngcal
l

IhunguponNonhl
e.

Me:Hi

Mzwakhe:Whyyounotanswer
ingyourphone

Me:Iwasont
hephonewi
thNonhl
e

Mzwakhe:Okayiam comi
ngover
Me:Thehel
lyouar
e

Ihungupineedt
oleavebef
orehef
indsme.

Thapel
o
Iwaslookingathert
hrought hemirror
,shedid
good.Iunderst
andtheri
tualwillst
rengthenher
powers,butweheretoassistandshewi l
ldoj
ust
fi
ne.

Kedi
:Youcan'
tst
ayawayf
rom t
hemi
rr
orevenf
or
onesecond

Ismi
leatherandwat
chhermakeherwayt
owar
ds
me.

Kedi
:Whati
str
oubl
ingyou
Me:Iam goingt
oawayf
oraver
ylongt
imeandi
am notsur
eiwantt
odoit

Kedi
:Thapel
othewar
ri
orbacki
ngdownf
rom a
chal
lenge

Ichuckl
e.

Kedi
:Yougoi
ngbyyour
sel
f

Me:Nomybr
other
sar
eaccompanyi
ngme

Kedi
:Wowmustbeser
iousi
fal
lofyouar
egoi
ng

Iam star
ti
ngt
othi
nkmaybet
heymadeabad
deci
sion.

Kedi
:Takeagoodl
ookatyour
sel
f.Ar
eyougoi
ngt
o
behappyknowi ngthatyoubackedoutofa
sit
uati
onthatneededyouknowi ngverywel
l
,that
youdon'thavetodoi tbutbecausesomewherein
yourheart
.Youbelievethatitwillwor
koutj
ustgot
togivei
tthatpush,thatThapelopush

Iexhal
e.

Kedi:Ther
eisar
easonwhyyouar eaking,thereis
areasonwhyyouwerechosentohelp.Don'tignor
e
i
tbecauseyoudoubti
t,t
rustandbel
ieveitwil
lwork
outintheend

Sheisrightineverbackdownf
rom achal
lenge,
thatt
hroneismi ne.
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Nonhl
e
Ir
unout
sideandj
umponher
.Wehol
dhandsand
j
umpgoi ngi
ncirclesli
keli
tt
lechi
ldren,
wit
houtheri
f
eltemptyandlonely.Shecompletesmewego
i
nsidesheulul
ates.

Phi
ndi
le:Hai
bokuyashadwal
ayi
khaya(
It
sa
weddi
ng)sani
bonani

Dad:Sawubonant
okazi

Me:MababauPhi
ndi
lel
o,phi
ndi
leumamanobaba

Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaj
abul
aukunazi(
Nicet
omeetyou)

Ma:Hai
boSi
biya

Wel
augh.Hei
sst
ari
ngathersmi
li
ngandbl
ushi
ng.

Dad:Awkodwankosi
kaziubuhl
eobungaka(
Ohmy
l
ovel
ywi
fe,
somuchbeaut
y)

Ma:Muhl
eyenai
mpel
a

Myphonebeepsi t
samessagef rom Mzwakhe
"Lal
elakekubekhonaint
oezosixabani
sael
apho
hmm"( Li
stent
herebett
ernotbeanythi
ngthatwi
ll
makeusf i
ght,
whileshe'
sther
e)

I
shet
ir
edoft
hreat
eni
ngmeir
epl
yback."
okay"

Mybrother
saregoneanywayandwegoi
ngback
hometomorrow.

Mzwakhe
Ikeept el
li
ngherwhatsheneedst odoandshe
doesn'twanttolisten.Myf amilyisbrut
aleveni
n
crazysituat
ionstheyl augh,soifshecomeswi t
han
atti
tudetheywillendupnotl i
kingherandthati
s
goingtohurtme.Shedeci dednottotalktomenow
ihavetoapologize.Ihatedat
ingatleastwit
h
phindi
leshedidn'tcare.

Il
augh,
theyl
ookatme.

Me:Guyscanyoujustforsakeofpeacecomeback
andpl
ease,pl
easepleaseiwil
ldoanythi
ngyou
wantmetodo

Agungoesof
.

Me:Okunyebaf
ethuno

I
tgoesofagai
n.

Me:Iwi
llr
econsi
der
..
.Ayayiam notr
econsi
der
ing
t
hatsheknowswhatshehastodo
Zet
hu:Sawubona

Me:Heysweet
iepi
e

Zet
hu:Woul
dyoul
ikeanyt
hing

Me:Okwamiokwezandl
amommy

WhatdoesCynt
hial
oveanyways.

Nonhl
e
KnowingPhindil
eshedoesn'tbr
eakshewi
llkeepi
t
moving,wewerer est
ingandcat
chi
ngup.Myphone
ri
ngsaht hef
ianceiscall
ingme.

Me:Heyf
iance
Ayanda:Heyf
iance

Me:Mmm

Ayanda:Whenyoucomi
ngback

Me:I
naweekorso

Hecr
ies.

Me:Gobondwi
thLuyandaiam sur
ehehat
esme

Heshout
sint
hebackgr
oundidoandt
heyl
augh.

Me:Imi
ssyout
oomyl
ovebutiam comi
ngback
soon
Ayanda:Okaymommy.
.Mama

Phi
ndi
le:Eyongi
yekewena

Wel
augh.

Me:Youwanttogoprepar
efoodwhi
lewegooveri
t
wi
thaglassofwine

Phindil
e:Idon'
tdri
nkandidon'
twanttost
artnow
becauseiwon'tstop.Iwoul
dbewanti
ngMzwakhe
topleasuremealldaylong

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Phindi
le:I
fhegi
vesmeareasonwor
thyenough
than,t
hanmaybewecandowhathewants
What
sar
easonwor
thyenoughf
orPhi
ndi
le

Mzwakhe
Ifshewant
sar
easoniwi
llgi
veheroneandiam
goingt
omakei
tmemorable.

Her:Welcomet
oEvensj
ewel
ryhowmayibeof
assist
ance

Me:Heygi
rliam l
ookingforsomethinggorgeous
andsomet
hingthatsays.Iam agolddiggerandi
gotari
chman

Shel
aughs.

Her
:Youcometotherightpl
acebef
orewecar
ryon
woul
dyouli
kei
tdesignedorchoosefr
om t
he
di
spl
ay

Me:Let
schoosef
rom t
hedi
spl
ay

Her
:Ifyoucomet
hissi
det
hisi
sthegoodst
uff

Shepul
lsoutaf
ewcasesiseeonet
hatamazesme.

Her
:Doyouknowhersi
ze

Il
ookatherandsi
gh.

Me:Wowt
hisi
sal
ot

Her:Wi
llmyhandswor
koryoushowmeapi
ctur
e
andwecanwor kwi
tht
hat
Me:Il
ikeyou

Phi
ndi
le
Mybodyfeel
sweirdmyheartstart
sbeati
ngfast
,al
l
ofasuddeniam f
eel
inganxi
ousl i
kesomethi
ngbad
i
sgoinghappenandiam notgoingtol
ikei
t.

Nonhl
e:Youokay

Me:Idon'
tknowigott
hiswei
rdf
eel
ingi
nmyhear
t

Nonhl
e:Mzwakhesl
eepi
ngwi
thCynt
hiaagai
n

Me:Mzwakhesleepswitheveryonebutthi
sisa
di
ffer
entki
ndoffeel
ing,
li
keitsgoingbreakmy
heart

Nonhl
e:Whati
sthatboyupt
onow
Wel
augh.

Me:Ihonest
lydon'
tfeel
okayl
ikesomebodybr
oke
myheart

Nonhl
e:Hai
bouyakhal
ayi
ni

Me:Nonhl
eidon'
tknowwhati
sgoi
ngon

Wel
augh.

Me:Gi
vemeasecondiwi
llber
ightback

Iexitoutt
hebackican'
tusemypower
s,whati
s
goingonthisi
snotgood.
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Phi
ndi
le
Iarri
vehomeandsomebodyi swait
ingformeby
thedoor.Whatishedoingher
eidon'twantany
troubl
e,ishakemyheadandstepoutofthecar.I
needtof i
ndawayt onewhousesomewher e
nobodywi l
leverknow.

Me:Whyar
eyouher
eAndi
le

Andi
le:Weneedt
otal
ksoopent
hedoor

Hecomescl
oset
omybody.

Me:Andi
le

Iunl
ockt
hedoorweent
er,
hespanksmyass.
Me:Boy

Hel
aughs.

Me:Ar
eyouf
orr
eal
rightnow

Ical
lmybr
other
.

Nonhl
e
Wehadt oleaveearl
yPhindi
le'
sthingswerest
art
ing
andididn'
twanttostressmyfami l
yout.Shei
s
hecti
candthingscangethecti
c,theyseemeand
ul
ulate.

Me:St
op

IknowAyandaisdyi
ngtofindouthowever
ythi
ng
went.Mom anddaddef
ini
telywantt
oseehim,
especial
lymom.Dadishookedandal
readybl
inded
wit
ht hebhengucoi
ns.

Ayanda:Hambekahl
e

Heki
ssesmycheek.

Thabi
so:Ahhl
ookatt
heset
wo

Thanhischeeksf
alliknowwhathei
sthi
nki
ng
about
.

Thabi
so:Akusenan

Me:Welli
tdefi
nit
elywasawelldeservedtr
ip.I
t
alkedtobot
hofthem andapologi
zed,they
welcomedmebackhome
Ayanda:That
sgood

Me:Andmot
herwoul
dlovet
omeetyou

Hesmi
leshowi
nghi
sgor
geousdi
mpl
e.

Me:That
showt
hingswent

Ayanda:Iam gl
adatl
eastwehaveadi
rect
ion

Me:Sowhatdi
dyoudowi
thoutme

Hechuckl
es.

Mzwakhe:Yewenayi
ndabamacamer
a
engasebenzil
a
Heshovesaphoneonhischest,iexcusemysel
f.I
am goi
ngtokeepmydistancef
rom Mzwakheand
hi
slady,hecomesorshecomesigot heotherway.

Phi
ndi
le
Webot hhavebeenshownwhatourf utur
ewould
l
iket
oget her
,buti
tisuptousifwewi sht
ostar
t
something.Mendon'tdeser
vemehowever
char
mi ngtheycanbe,iwantthem t
ostayaway
fr
om me.

Andi
le:Manj
eit
hinii
ntokazi

Me:Idon'
twantt
obewi
thyou

Andi
le:Ouch

Me:Yeahidon'
tknowwhatyousaw,
butf
ormeay
noyoutoomuchican'
t
Andi
le:Younotevengi
vingmeachance

Me:Idon'twanttowenevergoi
ngt
owor
kAndi
le.
Wetotal
lyoilandwat
er

Andil
e:Phi
ndi
leyoureal
lygoi
ngtogi veadamn
aboutwhatMzwakhesays.Icanguar ant
eeyouhe
doesn'
tcar
eaboutyoutohim youjustanother
b*t
chforgi
vemeifcomingsideways

Idon'
texpectanyonetounder
standt
heythi
nk,t
hey
knoweverythi
ngbutthi
smuchdeeperthanthei
r
wil
desti
magi nat
ion.

Hecomesovert
hei
slandwel
ookateachot
her
.

Heki
ssesme.
Thapel
o'swor
ld

Thapel
o
Ifiam goingtobedoingthi
siam doingitmyway.
Ifmeansdest r
oyingt
hewhol ecl
anthansobeit,i
willtr
ymybestt ohel
pthequeenshei snotgoi
ngto
l
ikeme.Iundr essasgogosaysthepr ai
sescal
li
ng
alltheBhengu's,
iwal
kt owar
dstheri
ver.

Gogo:PhakamaniboBhengunansii nkosanaiza
kunina.Yikhanyisel
enikuloluhambohl alaningayo
boBhengu. .
.Bhengu, Ngcolosi,Shongololo,
kaDlabazane,kaNgwane, kaNephu, kaLamula..
.
Mambayi minaundl unkul
uBhengu, ngisabel
akuwe
ngicelakuwei bekel
eleinkosana( Risehereisyour
kingcomi ngbef or
eyou.Shi nelightuponhi s
journeyleadhim, guidehim.Mambai t
smeyour
queeniam cal li
ngonyou, prot
ecthim)
Ir
eacht
hemi
ddl
eoft
her
iverandgounder
..
.

Mambar
iver

Si
zwe

Mawastal
kingt
otheBhengu'sitakemycl
othesof
andmakemywayintot
heriver.

Mast hole:SabelaniboBhengunanguumvi kel

i
wethuezakuni .Mkhayisel
eni
,vulaniindl
ela.
Siyavumakukhokonkeeni kushoyo.Bhengu,
Ngcol osi,Shongolol
o,Mambaumkhul uwena.
Yiminai ndodakaziyoBhengu,ngisabelakuwe
ngicelakuwemuvi kel
e(Comef orthhereisour
protector.Shineli
ghtuponhim, guidehim)

Ir
eacht
hemi
ddl
eoft
her
iverandgounder
.
Mzwakhe
Theatmospherehascompletel
ychanged.The
camerasatherhousewerenotworki
ng,something
wasjustuneasyhereandihavetogocheckitout.

"
Sitdown"

Il
ookathi
m.

Lindo:Uhlukani
lenayeaganiuyaphpho,mawusuka
l
angi yoyenzaibenzimaimpil
oyakhoMzwakhe
(Youbr okeupwithher,
whereyougoingnow.Ifyou
l
eaveiam goi ngtomakeyourlifever
yimpossi
ble)

I
sthi
sdadt
alki
ngorhi
m.

Li
ndo:Trymengekesilungi
selamasewenaufuna
ukumoshayonkint
o,hl
alaphansiMzwakhe(
We
can'
tbefixi
ngandthanyouwanttodestr
oy
ever
ythi
ng,
sitdown)

Alwayst
rustyourgutfeeli
ng,t
heseancestor
scan
comeatmehowevert heywantbri
ngit
.Iwalkout
andgeti
nmycar ,pleaseletmenotkil
lanyone.
[
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15:
24] :170

Phi
ndi
le
Ij
ustgotcrushingnewsAndi l
egotint
oacar
acci
dent.Mybodyi sshakenmymi ndisdist
urb
whowoul ddot hi
s,idon'
tknowifishoul
dgosee
him orwil
lthatcauseprobl
ems.

Langa:Ihopewemadei
tri
ght

Hehandsmeacupofcof f
eeit
akeasi
pand
i
mmediatel
yspi
tthet
hingout
.
Langa:Iguessnot

Il
aughiappreci
atethem f
ortr
yingtocheermeup
butthi
sisnast
y.Icantast
ealitt
lebi
tofsalta
chunkofsugar,
whataretheydoinginmyki t
chen.

Thapel
o:Younotgoi
ngt
othathospi
tal

Me:Justf
ort
womi
nut
esLangaandKGcancome
wi
thme

Kagi
so:I
sthatacut
enamef
orme

Thapel
o:Cut
enamewaniyounotgoi
ngt
othe
hospi
tal

Ipout
.
Cynt
hia
Ifi
guredishoul
dtrythisbui
ldi
ngarel
ati
onshi
pwith
theladi
esonelastt
ime.Nonhlewasmakingfood,
i
exhaleoutandapproachher.

Me:Nonhl
e

Shel
ooksatme.

Me:Wai tpl
easedon'
tgoplease.Iunderstandi
cameacr ossasaggr
essi
veandusedt heiam
dati
ngthebigbrot
hercar
d, butyouladiesarej
ust
notgivi
ngmeachance

Nonhl
e:Sowet
heoneswhohavet
ogett
oknow
you

Me:It
houghtever
yonewasagai
nstme
Nonhle:Thatf
oolal
readybr
oughtyouint
othe
housethefamil
yandyoudon'tt
hinkthat
senough

Me:Adooverpl
ease

Nonhle:Iam notgoingtoli
kejustthr
owingi
tout
ther
ebutintermsofgoi ngforward.Wecanwork
somethingout,t
ellyourmant oal
lowmet ogoto
work.Convi
ncehi mt ol
etPhindi
lehangoutwit
hus

Me:Onet
hingatat
ime

Shehast hati
nti
midat
ingl
ookbutiam notgoi
ngto
crack,hergoi
ngtoworkfi
nethatgi
rlcomi
nghere
farfr
om happeni
ng.Ismil
eandwalkaway.

Phi
ndi
le
Hejustneededal i
tt
lebitofapushofcourseLanga
andKGcamewi thmet othehospi
tal.Weenterhi
s
wardandhei sseeminglyfine,
heseesmeand
smil
esandf r
ownsagai n.

Me:Youj
ustgoi
ngt
ohavet
oaccepti
t

Andi
le:Sayswho

Ihughi
m hi
shandgoesdownandsqueezemybut
t.

Me:Andi
le

Andi
le:Nowwhyi
sthatmonkeyt
ryi
ngt
oki
llme

Me:Hehadnobusinesscomingovertomyhouse
somet
hingsweregoi
ngonwhi chican'
ttel
lyou.He
sawsomethingsandyeah,
butiam gladyouokay
notmuchhappened

Andi
le:I
smyf
acest
il
lcut
e

Me:Ver
yhandsomedar
li
ng

Whatshoul
dhavebeendonebyMzwakheandi
wasdonebyotherpeopl
e.Thi
sisgoi
ngt
obealong
j
ourney.

Voi
ce:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Okayihavet
ogonow

Hesmi
les.

Cynt
hia
Hi
sangerseemst ohavecalm downhedi dn'
tspare
meatall,andiam prett
ysureithadever
ythingto
dowit
ht hatPhindi
le.Idon'
tunderst
andreall
ywhy
i
severyonesoconcer nedandconsumedbyher .

Me:Soit
alkedt
oNonhl
e

Mzwakhe:And

Me:Canyouall
owhert
ogot
owor
ksowecanwor
k
onthi
srel
ati
onshi
p

Mzwakhe:Youokaywi t
hthatbecauset
heonl
y
t
hingt
heygoi ngtobetal
kingabouti
syou,
andhow
muchtheydisli
keyou

Me:Wehavetostartsomewher
eMzwakheyou
can'
tkeeppr
otect
ingmeandican'
tkeeponact
ing
upti
ght
Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Pl
easepl
easepl
ease

Igetupandki
sshi
m al
lhi
sface.

Mzwakhe:Okayokayshecangoback

Me:Thankyoubaby

Nonhl
eiam comi
ngf
oryou.

Mzwakhe
Theidiotsur
vivedgotofwi
thoutascr
atchonhi
s
face.
Sakhi
le:Okayt
hat
'senoughdr
inki
ngf
oryoukant
i
yi
ni

Me:Heshoul
dhavedi
ed

Sakhi
le:Whyyougoi
ngaf
terAndi
le,
Mzwakhe

Me:Woul
dyoukeepqui
etwhenideci
det
ofuck
Not
handowoul
dyoukeepqui
et

Sakhil
e:Whatdoesi
tmat
teryouguysar
enot
toget
her

Me:Ishoul
dhavemadesur
ehewasdeadwhy
woul
dshedothist
ome

Sakhi
le:St
opdoi
ngt
hist
oyour
sel
fandmoveon
Me:Ever
yonecandowhat
evert
heywantnowi
don'
tcar
e

Myhear
thasneverbeent
hisbr
oken.

Sakhi
le:Li
ndopl
easet
alkt
oyourbr
other

Li
ndo:Iwar
nedhi
m nott
ogoanywher
e

Me:Fuckyou

Phi
ndi
leshe'
sdeadt
ome.
[
06/
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15:
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Phi
ndi
le
Theroudynoi
segoi
ngoninmyhouseisannoying
me.Igetupandmakethebedandheadtot
he
bat
hroom,ibr
ushmyteetht
hanhitt
heshower.I
f
eell
ikeiam notgoi
ngt
oli
ket
hisday.
..

If
ini
shupandheaddownst
air
s,t
heykeepqui
et.

Me:Ohpl
easedon'
tst
oponmyaccount

Thapel
o:Ohsor
rydi
dwewakeyouupiapol
ogi
ze

Me:Sar
casm doesn'
tsui
tyou

Thapel
o:Idon'
tknowwhatt
hati
sbutt
hankyou

Me:Andhowar
eyouguysdoi
ng

Them:Weal
ri
ght

Me:Iam goodcomel
etsl
ear
nthehuman
exper
ience

Myphoner
ings,
ilookatandl
eti
tri
ng.

Thapel
o:Langawhati
swr
ongwi
thyou

Me:Ar
ether
egymsi
nyourwor
ld

Theygivemeblankstar
esdammi ttheseguysar
e
fi
ne,t
heywellbuil
tnott
alll
iket
heotherbhengu'
s.
Theyhavegorgeousnaughtyeyes,
justabunchof
darkchocol
atedel
ici
ousness.

Me:Worki
ngout
,youknowyouhaveever
ygi
rl
s
dr
eam body

Thapel
o:Don'
tyoumeanyou
Ili
vef
orabsil
ikeamanwithasi
xpack,st
rong
arms,
notamanwi t
habiggut
.Il
if
tLanga'
stopand
runmyhanddownhisst
omach,mykneesgoweak.

Thapel
o:Okay

Hepul
lsmeawayf
rom hi
m wel
augh.

Mzwakhe
Wewer ehavingal ovelymor ningallbecausei
snappedoutofmymoodi ness.Idon'tknowwho
wasi fooli
ngt hi
nking,Phindileisgoingtochange
withoutmet elli
nghert o.Il
ookatCynt hi
aieit
her
am goingtomaket hebi ggestmi st
akeofmyl if
eor
thestartofagr eatfuture.

Nonhl
e:SoCynthiadi
dyouhavet
imet
otal
kabout
whatwediscuss
Cynt
hia:Idi
dn'
tsayi
twasgoi
ngt
ohappen
over
night

Li
nda:Aywena

Cynt
hia:Imayhavement
ionedi
tinpassi
ngt
hat
s
uptohim

Okayshe'
ssl
owl
ylear
ning.

Nonhl
e:Weedon'
tbot
heryour
sel
fiam good,
iwon'
t
di
e

Herphoner
ings.

Nonhl
e:Wowwhoi
sthat

"
Sawubonamakot
i"
"
Sowhatam idoi
ng"

Nonhl
e:Goaheadfi
ndar epl
acementvel
e
ngi
nendodaenemal
iizongi
nakekel
a

Shel
aughsandget
sup.

Nonhl
e:Theyt
hinkiam goi
ngt
okeepbeggi
ngt
hem

Me:Don'
twor
ryyouhandl
edt
hisver
ygood

Shesmi
lesihol
dherhand.

Thapel
o
Phindi
leandLangahavebeengonefor
everwhati
s
taki
ngthem sol
ong.Iam st
art
ingt
ogetworri
ed,
Nqobicomesandsitsnextt
ome.
Nqobi
:Iknowt
hatl
ookwhatar
eyouupt
onow

Me:Whydoyoual
waysassumet
hat

Nqobi
:BecauseyourThapel
oandiknowyou

Il
augh.

Me:No

Nqobi
:Thapel
opl
easedon'
tdoanyt
hingst
upi
d

Me:Youhaveani
deaofwhatiam doi
ngsowhati
s
t
heprobl
em

Nqobi
:Noj
ustbecar
efulmanidon'
twantanyt
hing
t
ohappent
oyou

Me:Ncooohgoopent
hedoorandhel
pPhi
ndi
le

Nqobi
:Yaziwena

Myhear ti
sagainstmywholepl
anandithinkiam
fal
li
ngforher,
comeonThapelofocus.Sheenter
s
andleavessomethingont
hetabl
e.

Me:It
houghtyour
unawayiwasget
ti
ngwor
ri
ed

Phi
ndil
e:Idon'
tfeel
okayif
eell
ikemyhear
tis
det
achi
ng

Me:Idon'
tseeanyt
hing

Sheget
scl
osert
omybodyandl
aysherheadon
mychest
.Icanhearherhear
tbeat
ingsof
ast
,what
coul
dthi
smean.

Mzwakhe
Iclosetheboxandhidei
tinoneofthedrawer
aroundthebed.Mzwakhewhatareyoudoing,t
his
i
sgoi ngtohurtt
hefamil
yman.Isighokayokay
holdon.

Me:Li
ndokuhl
e

Heappear
sout
sidemybal
cony.

Me:Pl
easet
ellmewhatisawi
snott
rue

Li
ndo:I
tsnott
rue

Me:Li
ndokuhl
e
Lindo:Amadl
oziebebusyMzwakhengakutshel
a
ngathungayi
ndawowenawenzan.(theancestors
wereatworkitol
dyounottogoanywhere,whatdid
youdo)yeshemayhavebeent her
ebutshet hrew
him out

Isi
gh.

Li
ndo:Mzwakhepl
easedon'
tiam beggi
ngyoudo
notpr
oposetoher

Hekneel
sdown.

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'tunder
standwhatthatanxi
etywasabout.I
am feeli
ngmuchbetternow,myphoner i
ngs.
Me:Hel
lo

Mzwakhe:Iam comi
ngover

Hehungsup.

Me:Thedar
kcl
oudi
smaki
ngi
tswaypeopl
e

Ir
ecei
veawor
kemai
lawesome.

Nonhl
e
Myf i
rstLadycall
edtocheckonme.Ayanda
al
readypaidlobolaf
orme, idon'thaveaproblem
wit
hthatthesoonerwegetmar ri
edt hebet
ter
.I
don'
twantt oenduplikePhindi
le,ilaugh.

Ayanda:Yi
nisudl
iwaamaf
ufunyane
Il
augh.

Me:Iam j
ustt
hinki
ngidon'
twantyout
oendupl
ike
Mzwakheiam sorr
y

Ayanda:Iwon'tbeli
kehimifitevercomest
othat
poi
nt.Iwil
ltr
yt obeasrespectf
ulanddowhat
Mzwakhedoes

Me:Yougott
ogi
vei
ttohi
m hei
sthebestatwhat
hedoes

Ayanda:Youwonderwhysi
mbi
zauhl
anyo

Me:Iwoul
dlovet
ohearabouthichi
ldhoodandhow

Wel
augh.
Me:Weshoul
dn'
tbel
aughi
ngl
iket
his

Ayanda:Thi
sissimplehewil
ldri
vehercrazytothe
pointofnor
etur
n.Allshehastodoiskneelbefor
e
thedudeandeveryt
hingwil
lgobacktonormal

Me:Iam happyshei
snotf
all
ingf
ort
hatcr
ap

Ayanda:Canyoubehappyandkneelbef
oremy
dudeandeveryt
hingwi
llbeokay

Me:It
houghtyouwoul
dneverasked

Hesmi
rks.
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Phi
ndi
le
Asmuchasil
oveandador
eMzwakhe,
wehavet
o
keepourdist
ance.I fheisnotwi l
lingorpreparedto
l
etgoofCynt hia,
thanmyhandsar et
iedalso.I
won'tbemadeaf oolandidef i
nitelywon'
tbe
tr
eatedli
kethis,t
hef actthatiam notchasingafter
him gi
vesmesomuchst rength.Thapelocomes
closetomyfaceandper ksmyl ips.

Thapel
o:Whatar
eyoust
ari
ngat

Icl
earmyt
hroat
.

Me:Whydi
dn'
tyouhaveaprobl
em wit
hMzwakhe
comi
ngher
e,l
ikeyoudowhenAndil
edoes

Thapelo:Theendgoalher
eistohaveyoubacki
n
thathouseandwecannotaffordt
oloseyou

Me:Thapel
o
Thapel
o:Nkosazane

Me:Fi
nef
oodi
sready

Thapel
o:Rel
axyougoi
ngt
obef
ine

Wel
ookateachot
herandsmi
le.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhei sgoi ngthroughthemostheneedsallof
usrightnow, butwhy?Wemustnur sehisbrui
sed
egoandt heonl ypersonwhocandoi t
,wel
lisnot
here.Phindi
leshouldkillusal
landnotworr
yabout
thecurse,noiam joking.

Cynt
hia:Sani
bonanikhonaokewabonauMzwakhe

Theyi
gnor
eher
.Shel
ooksatmeshedoesn'
tthi
nki
am goi
ngtot
ellhernow.Nonhl
ecomessi
ngi
ngi
na
happymood.

Cynt
hia:Nonhl
ehaveyouseenMzwakhe

Nonhl
e:Hewentt
ogof
uckPhi
ndi
le

"
Ngi
zokubul
alawesf
ebemmm"

Nonhl
e:Nextti
mecallhi
m youneverknowwhen
t
heywillbebangi
ngeachother

SheslapsherbutNonhl
eisthatb*tchtheyf
ight
.A
manappearsandpullsNonhleoffher,
whatjust
happened.

Mzwakhe
Whati
sthi
snowwher
everCynt
hiagoesshecauses
pr
obl
emsf
orme.

Me:Whyar
eyouf
ight
ing,
whydi
dyousl
apher

Ayandahasl
eftt
hebuil
dingandiam adeadman.I
don'
tevenwantt
olookathim.

Me:Real lyCynthiawhatisyourpr obl

em,you
thoughtshe'sawhi mpandshei sgoingtoall
ow
yout ohither.Nonhlecouldn'
tyouhavesai dyou
don'tknowwher eiam andkeepi tmoving,
youhad
toprovokeher

Nonhle:Iapologi
zeCynt
hiaf
orspeaki
ngoutoft
urn.
Iam sorryiputmyhandsonyou,i
tshoul
dn'
thave
got
tentot hatpoi
nt

Me:Youdon'
thaveanyt
hingt
osay
Cynt
hia:Iam sor
ry

Me:Ican'
thearyou

Cynt
hia:Iam sor
ry

Li
ndanigoest
oNonhl
eandl
aughs.

Sakhi
le:Li
ndaniuzof
a

Hel
aughsevenhar
der
.

Me:Ayungehl
ule(
Iam shocked)

Phi
ndi
leshowsupf
rom nowher
egr
eatj
ustgr
eat
.

Phi
ndi
le:Gi
rl
Theyl
augh.

Phindil
e:Thiswouldneverhavehappenedi
fiwas
around,butthanagai
nt hesepeopl
eonlyst
ickup
forthemselves

Me:Whyyouher
ePhi
ndi
le

Phindi
le:Youdon'
tthi
nkiwasgoingtofol
dmy
arms,andwatchmyf ri
endgetat
tackedbya
nobody

Me:Hernamei sCynthi
aMt hembuandwecan
handlethi
sbyoursel
ves.Younotfami
lysost
ayout
ofit
,takeyourugl
yassboyfri
endandgett
hefuck
outmyhouse

Shesmi
les.
Li
nda:Yomamayo

Heactsdramat
ic.Di
dtheyj
ustdi
sappeari
nfr
ontof
oureyes.

Sakhi
le
Ayandatookhi
sf i
anceandleft
,thel
adi
eswentout
wit
houtCynthi
a.Ican'
tunderst
andwhyMzwakheis
subj
ecti
ngustothisbull
.

Me:Ent lekwenausi j
wayel akabinjal
okwamel e
sikhuzanenawe.Yi niloyenzayohuhuyasi xabani
sa
Mzwakhesi wumndeni .Ufunasiyit
handengenkani
l
echer ryandungal i
ngeungi casule,aywena
uyasixhaphelastr
aight( Al
lthetimewehavet o
scoldyou.Whatar eyoudoi ngyoumaki ngusf i
ght
asaf ami l
y,youwantust oforceoursel
vest ol
oving
thisgir
l.Pleasedon'tannoyme)
Thobani
:Sakhi
le

Me:Sakhilewaniusij
wayelakabiloukewasicel
a
si
yazilethekeni
,nomauvelewazithul
ele.Ngcono
noPhindi
leakazeeyenzelento(Didyouaskust o
bondwi t
hthisgir
loryoujustkeptqui
et.Phi
ndil
e
wasbet t
erthanthi
s)

Itt
ri
llshim whenfemalesactafoolandfightfor
him.Hepr etendsi
tannoyshim,butinsi
dehei s
rej
oicing.Iam sohappypisnotfal
li
ngfort hi
s.

Me:Yabonawenauzovut hwangobauzit
shelaukuth
usil
e.UzoguqaphambikwaPhi ndi
le(
Youar egoi
ng
toregrett
hisbecauseyout
hinkyousmart.Youwill
kneelbefor
ePhindil
e)

Thabi
so:Sakhi
ledon'
tgo
Theyl
augh.

Me:Fusegwenafuthngathengal
alanamadoda
awuhundredyoushidi(
Ihopeshesleepswi
tha
thousandman)

Thobani
:Sakhi
lecomeback

Theyst
il
llaughing.Igobackinsi
deiseethi
s
humanbeingandmyi nsidesbur
n,icl
ickmytongue
andwalkoutslammi ngthedoor.

James:Sakhi
lenost
opi
tSakhi
le

Idon'
tknowwhathappenedij
ustl
osti
t.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwi
shiwast
her
ewewoul
dhaveknockedherout
.I
l
ookup, heisleani
ngonthedoorframewi thhis
anklescr ossedandhandsinhispockets.Igetup
andst andbef or
ehim.Istandonmyt oesand
sl
owl ytouchhi sli
ps,her
espondsimmedi atel
y
grabbingmywai st.

Isl
idmyhandi
nhi
ssweat
shehol
dsmyhand.

Thapel
o:Wecan'
t

Me:Whynot

Thapel
o:I
..Iwi
llgeti
ntot
roubl
e

Me:Thanl
etsbot
hgeti
ntot
roubl
e

Ipul
lhi
spant
sdown.Hepi
nsmeagai
nstt
hewal
l.
Thapel
o:Youusi
ngt
hist
omakeyour
sel
ffeelbet
ter

Ilookathi
m withpleadi
ngeyes, hepull
shi
spant s
upandheadst othebed, hesit
sdown.Igather
myselfandexhaleout..
..Bef
oreicanevenwal kout
theroom.Iam roughlypull
edandt hr
ownont he
bed.

Thapel
o:Youwanti
tfi
neiwi
l
lgi
vei
ttoyou

Ast
heysayt
her
esti
shi
stor
y.
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Thapel
o
Nowthatiam heref ul
lyletmei ntr
oducemyself
.I
am ki
ngThapel obhenguofi sizwesakwaBhengu.I
am marriedwit
hthreechi l
drenapparent
lyyoucan'
t
rul
ewithoutacompani on,don'tknowwhy.Through
myentireli
feihavelearnedt olovemywife
kedi
bone,butsometi
mesitisal
ot.Ifeell
iket
hisi
s
notwhereiam supposedt
obe,butitiswhati
tis.

Iwassenthert oassi
stt hequeent hroughher
j
our ney,ofwhichMzwakheandhi ssibli
ngsfail
ed
todo.I thasshownt obepr ett
ytough, iseethem
getti
ngbackt ogether.Howeveriam goi ngtokeep
thattomysel f
,alsowhat sbrewingbet weenPhindi
le
andi isgoingtohurtal otofpeople.Ihelditi
nfora
whilebutshecr ackedmeandicoul dn'
tresi
st.

Nqobi
:Ayi
khul
umei
nkosikwenzenj
an

Me:Isl
eptwi
thher

Nqobi
:What

Me:Whyyoushout
ingnow
Nqobi
:Wasi
tgood

Me:Mant
hebestihadi
nfor
ever

Nqobi
:Di
dn'
tit
ellyou,
didn'
tit
ellyouThapel
o

Me:Shewasbeggi
ngf
orman

Thisisgoingtoputmeinalotoftroubleandiam
goingtorecei
veaheavypunishment .Ionl
yneedto
haveoneagendaandt hati
stohelpher ,other
thi
ngsishallbeunavai
labl
eunlessshet emptme.I
am verygoodatresi
sti
ngtemptati
on, butdamn
therei
sjustsomethi
ngaboutherthatdr i
vesme
crazy.

Nqobi:Ar
eyoudoingthistofeedyoursexual
hungerori
tsal
lpartofyourplanfort
akingMamba
Me:Idon'
tsayt
hisal
otyoual
wayswer
ethesmar
t
oneamongstus

Heshakeshi
shead.

Cynt
hia
Thetensionisthi
ckupinher
e,inmymi ndiblacked
outshewasannoyi ngmeandilashedout.Ididn'
t
thi
nkshewasgoi ngtofi
ghtbackihonest
lydidnot,
iunderesti
matedher.

Me:Idon'
tthi
nkicanhandl
ethi
s

Athandwa:Ohcomeonyouhaven'
tdat
edt
heguy
forthatl
ong

Me:Twoyear
sispr
ett
ycl
ose
Athandwa:Qui
tgoof
ingar
oundi
tsst
il
ltoear
lyt
obe
panicki
ng

Me:Idon'
tknowhey

At
handwa:Wellhowaboutwer
oughyouupand
bl
ameitontheex

Me:Ar
eyoucr
azy

Athandwa:Li
stenj
ustt
otesthi
mifher
eal
lyl
oves
you

Me:Butt
hisext
reme

At
handwa:Doyouwantt
obecompeti
ngwithsome
b*
tchoryouwantt
hatmant
obeonlyyour
s
Me:Ofcourseiwanthi
m al
lbymysel
f,ihat
ethat
gi
rlshame

Athandwa:Soletsdoi
tiam notsayingki
llt
hegi
rl
youalreadysai
dheputheri
nherpl ace

Thatboughtj
oyt
omyhear
t.It
hinkl
ongandhar
d
aboutthi
s.

Me:Fi
nel
etsdoi
t

Athandwa:Yousurebecauseonceist
art
somethingiam notbacki
ngdown

Me:Yes

At
handwa:Awuzwekecat
chyoul
ater
Me:Byesi
s

Phi
ndi
le
Thapelowasavoidingmeandt hatpainedme.Igot
myselfreadyforwork,
there'
senoughf oodand
meatforthem.Myphoner i
ngsidecli
net hecall
,
somet hi
ngsthathappenedwheniwast rappedin
spi
ri
twor ldweretr
ue.Acoupleindeedisget t
ing
marri
edi nCapeTown, atl
easticanshiftmyf ocus
onthat.

Thapel
o:Yougoi
ngt
oleavewi
thoutsayi
ng
goodbye

Myhear
tst
ops.

Me:Ididn'
tthi
nkyouwoul
dwantmet
osay
goodbye
Hel
if
tsmeupandplacemeontopofthecount
er.
Heki
ssesmynecksqueezi
ngmyboob.

Thapel
o:Wearenotmeantt
obedoi
ngt
hisicoul
d
beheavi
lypuni
shed

Me:Let
sbot
hbepuni
shedi
fihavet
ogi
veupt
he
gi
ftt
hansobei
t

Thapel
o:Youwoul
ddot
hef
orme

Me:Wi
thoutadoubt

Hel
if
tsmeupweki
ss.

Mzwakhe
Sakhi
lei
smadatmeidon' tbl
amehim ideci
deto
gi
vehim space.Thobani
,Li
ndaniandiwereout
,we
wentt
oat
att
ooshopourf
ri
endKhul
ulekanii
sin
t
own.

Khul
e:UbaniuPhi
ndi
le

Me:Wowbr
a

Thobani
:YourAmer
icanaccent

Wel
augh.

Me:Theloveofmyli
fe,t
hisi
sheriwantyout
odoit
i
nawaynobodyi sgoingtonot
icei
t.Al
soher
eon
mychestandneck

Khul
e:Cool

Li
nda:Youokayyouseem gone
Me:Iam f
ine

Li
nda:Mzwakhe

Me:Iam cool

Thobani
:Di
dPdosomet
hing

Myphoner
ings.

Cynt
hia:Heybabe

Me:Heymyl
ove

Cynt
hia:Canyoupleasef
etchmeiam f
eel
ingwel
l
mynervesareontheedgeplease
Me:Okayiam comi
ng.
.Brol
ooksl
ikewewi
llhave
t
odothissomeothert
ime

Khul
e:Iam l
eavi
ngMzwakhe

Me:I
tsf
inel
et'
sgo

Phi
ndi
le
Cynthiahast het i
meandener gy, shetaggedmeon
apost .Acutevi deoofher ,
MzwakheThobaniand
Lindanigroovingt oanice.Fir
stlyhowdi dshef i
nd
me, howdoinotknowshe' sfoll
owi ngme.Ont opof
thatAndi l
epost edapictureofhisnewboot hang,i
don'tknowwhi chonebr eaksmyhear tohmant hey
tryi
ngt hei
rbestt obreakohPhi ndil
edon'tfallf
orit
.

Me:Okaysotheyl
iket
hemoder
nwint
er
wonder
land,
whenloadi
ngt
hosegl
asstabl
es
pl
easebecareful
.Thebir
thdaydoyouwantusto
dothebal
loonsnow,icandothem athomedon'
t
mind

Ngcebo:Ever
ythi
ngi
sreadymphat
hi

Me:Wel
lthant
hat
sitwecango

Samkel
o:Howaboutwegooutf
oraf
ewdr
inks

Me:Iwoul
dli
ket
hat

Myphoneri
ngsidecl
ine.Iwonderi
fThapel
owoul
d
l
iket
ojoi
nus.

Me:St
handwasam

Mxol
isi
:Seni
buyel
eni
Me:Thesoonerpeopleregi
steri
tthanhim andiar
e
nottoget
herandnevergett
ingbacktoget
her,t
he
bet
terforever
yone

Mxol
isi
:It
shi
m nowhee

Hel
aughs.

Mxoli
si:Gci
nookayli
stenit
houghtyouwereat
home.Iam leavi
ngt
odayiwillbebackt
houghi
n
twodaysthatmeansfourdays

Me:Okayhoneydon'
twor
ryiam i
ngoodhands,
t
ravelsaf
ely

Mxol
isi
:Thankyouil
oveyounehst
ayst
rong
Il
oveyout
oobi
gbr
other
.
[
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Twoweeksl
ater

Thapel
o
Iam l
eavingt
odayiwonderhowshei sgoingto
takei
t.Shewon'tmissmeri
ghtbecauseshehas
beenplayi
ngthiswomanwit
habassvoi ce,thatf
eel
goodmusi cr
ight.

Mt
ho:It
hinkshecansensewear
eleavi
ng

Me:It
hinksot
oo

Kagi
so:Whywewhi
sper
ing

Me:Shutup
Phindi
le:"Nowcanyout el
lmehowyoucansay
yourinloveandthant r
eatmesobad.Boyyou
knowi tj
ustain'
tfai
r,nowicannotbel
ievet
heway
youhandl eyouwouldn'tli
e.I
fyouwer
emanj ustbe
amanabouti t
"

Mt
ho:Iknowl
etspr
epar
eherf
avor
it
emeal
s

Me:Someti
mesiwonderi
fmom r
eal
lygavebi
rt
hto
youguys

Mtho:Idon'
tseeyoucomi
ngupwi
thanyt
hing
geni
us

Me:Shutupyoudummy

Kagi
socracksinl
aught
er.Iwal
kupt
oherandhug
herf
rom behi
nd.
Me:Beaut
if
ull
adywi
thabeaut
if
ulvoi
ce

Phi
ndi
le:Doyouhavet
ogo

Me:Iknowbuti
tsamust

Phi
ndi
le:Whenar
eyour
etur
ning

Me:Iam notsur
e

Phi
ndi
le:I
nthemeant
imewhatdoido

Me:Youwai
tformyr
etur
n

Icantel
lshei
snothappyaboutt
his,
butt
her
eis
nothi
ngicando.
Mzwakhe
Ibeenoutoft hegamef orsolongidon'
t
underst
andwhowoul ddot hi
s.Cynt
hiasai
dsheis
notfeel
ingokay, shefeelsli
kesomeoneisfol
lowi
ng
her.Whocoul ditbeiknowmyenemi esverywell
,
theydon'tst
ri
keunl essidosomet hi
ng.

Li
nda:Cynt
hiayousur
eaboutt
his

Me:Broyoucantel
lshei
sshakenidon'
t
under
standwhocouldi
tbe

Li
nda:Hmmm i
nter
est
ing

Me:Ar
eyouguysnotdoingyourj
obidon'
twantt
o
f
ucksomeonebecauseofsomebull
Li
nda:We'
l
llooki
ntoi
t

Me:Moj
a

Li
nda:Ihavet
ogo

Iam goingtohur
tthi
sper
sonsobad.Igrabmy
phoneandvi ewt
heCCTV,al
lroomsareempty
exceptfort
hebathr
oom.She'
salonehmm
i
nterest
ing.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasveryemoti
onalidon'tknowwhy.Mycl i
ents
wereverymuchhappywi t
hmywor k,
thecouple
ti
ppedSamkelowithtwograndoverhi slovel
y3D
drawi
ngofhow,theirr
eceptionlookedli
ke.The
groom wasj
ustblownaway, ithanktheSmi t
hsfor
comingmyway.
Nonhl
eFaceTi
meme.

Me:Heygi
rl

Nonhl
e:Nono

Me:Youst
il
lathi
spl
ace

Nonhle:Hethi
nksweal
waysgoi
ngt
obutheads
becauseofyou

Me:YouguysNonhl etakeyourmanandgoback
home.Ifyoudon'twanttogetal
ongwit
hher
,it
s
okayifshewantsthefamil
ytobeatoddswi
theach
othert
hanthat
sonher

Nonhl
e:Hmm besoyi
shayal
eyant
ombazane
Me:Obvi
ousl
yhowdar
esheputherhandsonyou

Nonhl
e:Ayandai
snotgoi
ngt
oli
stent
ome

Me:Gi
vehim someorbet
teryetgetdr
essed,
geti
n
t
hecarandleave

Shel
aughs.

Me:Ayandagobackhomepl
easeSakhi
lei
smad
yal
lsawwhathedid

Het r
ashedever ycarthatwasont hedri
veway,he
brokesomewi ndows.Amonst ercameoutofhim,
everybodyhasj ustbeenafr
aidtoapproachhim.
Nonhl egoingbackhomewi llmakehim cal
m down
alit
tlebit
.
Me:Pl
easengi
yani
cel
a

Ayanda:Mommy

Sheendst
hecal
l.

Cynt
hia
Ican'tbelieveiam actuall
ydoingthi
sMzwakhei s
sowor riedaboutme.Hebeef edupthesecur i
ty,
one
ofthem i sfri
endswithmysi stersoitwon'
tbeas
suspiciousasmuchwhenweexecut eourplan.
Mzwakhei sgoi
ngtofor getaboutt
hatgir
landwe
canmoveonwi thourlives.

Me:Goi
ngsomewher
e

Mzwakhe:Yeah
Me:Wantmet
oaccompanyyou

Mzwakhe:No

Hi
sphoner
ings.

Mzwakhe:Yeah.
..ubaniehbabaidon'tpayyout
o
thi
nkfi
ndthi
shoebef oreif
indyou.Youhoenxa
suka

Hegrabshi
sstuf
fandl eavessl
ammingt
hedoor,he
comesbackandkissesmycheekthanwalksout
.

Igrabmyphoneandt
extAt
handwaweont
her
ight
tr
ack.

Sakhi
le
AyandaandNonhl
ear
ebackicompl
etel
ylosti
t.
Mzwakheandt hi
sCynthi
areall
yannoyedme, she
urkedmeevenmor ewhenshedeci dedt
ofight
Nonhle.It
hinkinhermindshet houghti
fshe
sl
appedher, shemadeiti
nlif
e.Nonhl ei
sfrom t
he
ghett
oandyougoi ngtorespecther.

Idon'
twantanyonet
obugmeaboutt
his.

Nonhl
e:Whydi
dyoudest
royt
hecar
sli
kecomeon

Shel
aughsmyhear
tisnotyetcont
entbutshecan
doanyt
hingt
ome.

Nonhl
e:Andt
hewi
ndows

Ol
wet
hu:Hebur
ntmygar
denl
ikewhatdi
ditt
ohi
m

Theyl
augh.
Cynt
hia:Sani
bonani

Igetupandwal
kaway.

Ol
wet
hu:Hisweet
hear
t

Sweet
hear
til
augh.

Them:Skhul
u

Mzwakhe
Iwait
edti
lli
twaslat
eenoughipar
kedmycarf
ar
awaysothatshewouldn'
tseemecomi
ngandthi
nk
aboutdi
sappear
ing.

Me:Opent
hedoor
Ibangont
hedoorf
ordearl
if
e.

Me:Opent
hedoorope

Phi
ndi
le:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e

Iwel
comemysel
finshecl
osest
hedoor
.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e

Ipulloutmyguncockitandthanpl
acei
tont
he
i
sland,itakemyj
acketout.

Me:Kumnandiheuyasebenzauhambaunikawonke
umuntui
yint
ozami(I
tsnice,
youbusygi
vingpeopl
e
mythi
ngs)
Phi
ndi
le:Pl
ease

Me:Pl
easewhatist
hathowyoubegt
obef
ucked,
pl
easewhatmylove

Shesi
ghs.

Me:Yabonanamhlanjengizokubul
alaeyaMzwakhe
ayi
ti
ntwainomaikanj
an,uyangij
wayelawena(Nowi
am goi
ngtoteachyouwhat smine,youdon'
ttouch
i
tanyhow)

Iwat
chedherf
ort
ool
ongandnowshewi
llknow
whoiam.
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Phi
ndi
le
Ihadmyheadagai
nsthi
sbody,
igotcut
sonbot
h
mywr i
standankl es.Myvaginai sthr
obbingican'
t
feelmyl egs,hewaslikeiam goingtof*ckyoufor
givi
nghi sp*ssytosomeoneel se.Hewi l
lf*
ckme
fordisrespect i
nghi
m, whatgavemet heri
ghtto
datesomeoneandgi vehim whatshis.I
twashectic,
wedi dt hemostandidon' tevenhaveanounceof
regret.

Me:Canyouhel
pmet
othebat
hroom

Mzwakhe:Angi
thandi

Isi
gh.

Mzwakhe:WhyPhi
ndi
le

Me:Whywhat
Mzwakhe:Yindabungij
wayelakabiithasn'
teven
beent
hatlongandalreadyuyangij
wayela

Me:I
tsbeent
woandahal
fyear
sofusbei
ng
br
okenboybye

Heget
sont
opofme.

Mzwakhe:Bukanamanjeuyaqhubeka
nokungi
jwayel
a(Youcont
inui
ngbeingdi
srespect
ful
)

Her
unshi
shandupanddownmypai
nfulvagi
na.

Mzwakhe:Whenyougoi
ngt
ost
opdi
srespect
ing
me

Me:Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
ost
ophur
ti
ngme
If
eeli
tgoi
ngi
n.

Mzwakhe:Shi
t

Hepushesi
nandgroansif
eeli
tcl
enchi
ngonhis
d*
ck.Hehol
dsmylegsupandstar
tsmoving.

Me:OhmyGod.
..

Sakhi
le
Everyonewast ol
dt or
emainindoors,
li
tt
lemiss
thangwassi t
ti
nginacornerworki
ng.Tellmeagain
whatattr
actedMzwakhet othi
sgirl
.Somethi
ng
heavyfall
sont hetabl
eil
ookup,myhear tsmil
es.

Nonhl
e:Wowl
ookatyoudoct
oroft
heyear

Not
hando:Youguysboughtanewhouse
sani
bonanini
njan

Nonhl
e:Youqui
t

Not
hando:No

Ol
wet
hu:Not
hando

Not
hando:Sawubonasi
sOl
wet
hu

Ol
wet
hu:Ahmycupcakeyouqui
t

Me:Hai
boani
myeke

Theyl
augh.

Not
hando:Nonobodyknowswhathappened.A
secti
onburneditwi
lltake4mont
hst
oayeart
ofi
x
i
t,iwil
lbestudyi
ngfrom home

Nonhl
e:Weel
anahowar
eyougoi
ngt
ofocusgi
rl

Shelooksexhaust
ed,shehasbeendoi
ngver ywell
.
Shedoesn' tmi
ssabeatatsendi
ngmeherpass
resul
ts,imeaniam payi
ngnoiam j
oki
ng.She
shouldn'tf
eelt
heneedtosendmeherresul
ts,buti
am happyshedoes.Canmydaygetbettert
hant hi
s.

Mzwakhe
Weenterthehouseanditisapart
yupinhere.They
keepquietwhentheyseeusNothandoi
sbackdid
shequit
,theyconti
nuewit
hthei
rconver
sat
ion.I
hugSakhilehefi
ghtsme.

Sakhi
le:Ongi
yekahawu(
leavemeal
one)
Iheadovert
oNot
handoandt
easeher
,shegi
ggl
es
andgiggl
es.

Me:Hal
omypokol
inai
pokoi
pokoi
pokol
ina

Not
hando:Mzwakhe

Sakhi
le:Mommy

Theyhugeachot
heriknowwhatever
yonei
s
thi
nki
ngnowenotbacktoget
her
.

Me:Di
dyouqui
t

Not
hando:Guyscomeonhawusengi
lahl
wauwena

Li
ndokuhl
egrabsmyfingerandpr
icksi
t,canthey
atl
eastbegent
lewhentheydothi
s.Theblooddri
ps
i
nthecup, hedoesthesamet hingtoPhindil
e.She
dri
nkshalfoft
hewat erandgivestheresttome.It
doesn'
ttastel
ikebl
ooditsjustwater.

Iheadupst
air
s.

Cynt
hia:UphumaphiMzwakhe(
wher
ewer
eyou)

Me:It
stooear
lyt
obef i
ght
ingr
ightnow,yousai
d
someonewasfol
lowi
ngyouiwast aki
ngcareof
busi
ness

Ichangemyclot
hes..
.Igetinthebedki
ssher
cheekandsl
eep,icanfeelhereyesonme.Icover
myselfandt
urntheotherway.

Phi
ndi
le
Imissedthem somuchandtheyfor
biddenfr
om
spendingti
mewi t
hme,wechil
li
ngoutsidet
his
l
ovel
yporch.Idon'
tknowthi
shouseal
liknowi
s
t
hat,
theancestor
sareher
e.

Nonhl
e:Gi
rlwhathappenedt
oyourwr
ist
sand

Rat
o:Andankl
es

Wel
augh.

Me:Asknoquest
ionshearnol
ies

Rat
o:Yousneakybi
atch

Nonhl
e:Tookt
hewor
dsr
ightoutofmymout
h

Il
ookdownandl
augh.
Rat
o:Idon'
tbel
ievewemet

Nonhl
e:Rat
othi
sisNot
handoNzuzo

Rat
o:Nzuzowowyourbeaut
if
ul

Not
hando:Thankyou

Me:Whyyounotatschool

Nothando:Asect
ionbur
neddownnobodyknows
whatstart
edthef
ire,
soiam goi
ngt
obehomef ora
l
it
tl
ewhi l
e

Me:Youshoul
dhavegonetot
hepenthouse.You
won'
tbeablet
ofocuswit
hbul
lshi
tthat
sgoing

Not
hando:Awkodwamommy
Welookathershesai
ditexact
lyt
hewaySakhi
le
saysi
t.

Not
hando:Ngi
phoxeki
leni
hlukenewhy(
Iam so
hur
tyouguysbrokeup)

Younottheonl
yoneismil
eather
.It
hinkiwantt
o
gonow,ever
yti
mesomeoneasksmeabout
Mzwakheigetemot
ional
.

Mzwakhe
Justwhenthatni
cedeepsl
eepiskicki
nginmy
phoneri
ngsiam goi
ngtoki
llt
hisperson.

Me:Mm mm mm yi
ni

"
Iwantt
ogoshoul
dil
eaveoryouwi
llt
akeme"
Me:Ungi
vusel
aumsangano

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakheiwantt
ogo

Me:Hambaphel
amawuf unaukuhambanxiayman
(
Goifyouwantt
oleave)

Ihungupmyphone, ilookovermyshoulder
Cynthiahasf al
lenasleep.Isi
tupandtidyupher
work,atleastthebedi sbigenoughshewon'tt
ip
overfall
.Ilookatherandsmi lethanki
ssherli
ps,
shewakesupandgasp.

Cynt
hia:Shi
t

Me:Relaxedyouwor
kedhar
dever
ythi
ngwi
llbe
okayi
tsokaycome
Shel
aysonmychestiki
ssherf
orehead.

Me:Iam sor
ryf
ordi
sappear
ingl
iket
hat

Cynt
hia:Justdon'
tdoi
tagai
n

It
extPhi
ndi
le.

Thapel
o
Thekeystur
nandt
hedooropensshef
reezeson
thespot
.

Me:Igi
veyoucl
eari
nst
ruct
ionswhatdoyoudo

Phi
ndi
le:Youback
Me:Answermyquest
ion

Phindi
le:Youl
ikepl
ayingthi
sconf
usi
nggame,
one
minuteyouhotthenextyoucol
d

Me:Ihandlet
hingsadif
fer
entwayandsomet i
mesi
getangrywheni'
m bei
ngdisobeyed,
notf
oll
owedor
questi
oned

Phi
ndi
le:Cont
rolf
reak

Me:Ar
ulert
hat
swhatiam ir
uleandyouobey

Phi
ndi
le:Youcameher
etor
ule

Me:Icameheret
ohelpyoudon'tt
hinkjustbecause
hesl
eptwit
hyouhelovesyou.Hedoesn'tloveyou,
hei
sjustusi
ngyouandlet
ti
ngyout ast
ewhatyou
justl
ost
.Isn'
tthi
shousefi
ll
edwit
hcamer asweal
l
knowhowamanget s,whenhi
sgirlf
*ckanot
her
man

Phindi
le:Sowhatiknowexactl
ythetypeofman
Mzwakhei s,
youwhatdoiknowaboutyouf oral
li
knowyoumaybehert oki
llme.Yeah

Shewal ksaway,it
akemyf rust
rati
onoutont
he
counterandpunchit,i
tcracks.Itti
metoampthi
ngs
up,iwil
lnotbedisobeyedlikethis.
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06/
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Thapel
o
Ifir
evealmyselfiam af
rai
dnobodyisgoingt oli
ke
me.Iam sti
llf
iguri
ngouthowt oconquerthese
fool
s,mybrothertal
kedmeoutofcausi ngmaj or
destr
ucti
on.Imustalsoapologi
zeforthewayi
tal
kedtoPhindil
e.
Me:Nkosazane

Phi
ndi
le:Hi

Me:Idon'
tknowwhatcameovermeangergott
he
bestofme.Iam sor
ryf
ort
hewayispoket
oyou

Phindi
le:Youwer
eri
ghthedoesn'
tlovemeandi
knowhei susi
ngme

Me:Sowhyyouall
owingi
tdon'
tgetmewrong.You
areaver
ybeaut
if
ulwomansuccessf
ul,
whygo
thr
oughthi
s

Phindi
le:I
fnotmethenwho,
inyourminddoyou
thi
nkanotherwomanwouldacceptt
ogothr
ough
thi
s
Me:Don'
ttel
lmeabout

Phi
ndi
le:Pl
easeifyouwantust
obecooldon'
task
meaboutthatone

Hehasgonef
rom Mzwakhet
ohi
mtot
hatone.Thi
s
i
sgoingt
obeeasy.

Mzwakhe
Theycheckedoutever yonenobodyseemst
obea
thr
eat
,isCynthialet
tinghermindrunwil
d
somethi
ngisn'taddingup.

Me:Justkeepl
ooki
ng

Li
nda:AyMzwakheno
Il
ookathi
m.

Li
nda:Lookatmeli
kethatal
lyouwantidon'
tcar
e.
Ther
e'snot
hingt
hatsaysweunderatt
acked

Me:Whoknowsmaybeyoubet
rayi
ngmeagai
n

Li
nda:Sakhi
let
alkt
oyourf
ri
end

Sakhi
le:Iwi
llchecki
tout

Me:Thankyou.Di
dPhi
ndi
lel
eave

Sakhi
le:Yes

Ineedadr
inkwhydi
dievensendt
hatst
upi
dtext
.
Nonhl
e
Weddingplanni
ng.Ayandawant stogetmarr
ied
ri
ghtaway,buthowwhenPhi ndil
eandMzwakhe
arest
il
lfi
ghti
ng.Ical
lherineedhert ocomeovert
o
themansionandhelpmewi ththis.

Me:Fanekubeininaenibekausukul
wayonki
nto
(Youaretheonesthatmustsetadatef
or
ever
ythi
ng)

Phi
ndi
le:Hel
lo

Me:Heyhowar
eyou

Phi
ndile:Askper
missi
onf
rom t
hatoneandt
hanwe
cantakeitfr
om t
here

Ayandal
aughs,
shehungsup.
Ayanda:Thatone

Me:I
dramakul
etwosoumembesot
hanumbondo
f
inal
lyt
heweddi
ng

Ayanda:Youdon'
tneedtodoanymemul
oorwhat
t
hatcanstopusfrom get
ti
ngmarr
ied

Me:Luckyforyouubabawavelewangi
sheshi
saf
or
my21stitwasbirt
hdaytoget
herwit
humemulo

Ayanda:Whati
sumemul
okahl
ekahl
e

Me:Youknowpeoplehavemanyver si
onsofthat
,
somesayit
sforst
il
lkeepingyourvi
rgi
nit
y.Some
sayi
tsaceremonytogiveyoutoyourinl
aws
Ayanda:Ukwemul
aohseet
hatonemakessense

Me:Peoplehavemoderni
zeditt
oapointwher
e,no
onereal
lyunder
standswhatt
heworl
dumemul o
means

Ayanda:Iunder
standyoumyl
ovewhat
sthi
sot
her
t
hingumhl o

Me:Umhl onyanealsothatpeopl
edon'tunder
stand.
Iti
ssai
dt hatwhenagi rlget
sherfir
stperi
odthat
's
whenyoushoul ddoit,nowyouf i
nd30yearolds
wit
hchildrensayingt
heydoi ngUmhlonyanefor
ukugci
nausi kol
ikewhat

Ayanda:Howdoyouknowsucht
hings

Me:P'
smom thatwomanhasknowledgefordays.
Shewoul
dhavetoldPhi
ndi
leherbusi
ness,butshe
keepsr unni
ngawayf rom herandMxolisipr
otect
ing
her.P'smom isnotafrai
dorcar esaboutyour
feel
ingsshewillt
elll
ikeitis

Ayanda:Shesoundsl
ikeagoodper
son

Me:Mm l
etmegot
alkt
oyourbr
other

Ayanda:Wai
t

Heget
sont
opofme.

Mzwakhe
IknowNonhl ei
snotgoingtoaskmeanythi
ng,and
that
sfinesoiam justgoi
ngtogowit
hthefl
ow.
Cynthi
awakesupgaspi ngnowiam r
eall
yworri
ed,
maybeoncepi shereicanaskherwhati
sgoingon.
Whatar eyousayi
ngMzwakhePhindil
eisgoi
ngto
dothat.
Me:What
swr
ong

Cynt
hia:Ihadabaddr
eam

Me:I
tsokaynobodyi
sgoi
ngt
otouchyouipr
omi
se
yout
hat

Cynt
hia:Mzwakheiam scar
ed

Me:Nobabydon'
tbeiwon'
tletanyt
hinghappent
o
you

Ihughertheseidi
otsbet
terf
indsomethi
ng
concr
etebeforeil
osemymi nd.It
extThat
o.

Sakhi
le
Li
ndaniknowssomet
hingt
hewayhei
slooksat
Cynthi
asomethi
ngisup.It
ookhi
m outiknowhe
foundsomet
hing.

Me:Smoko

Li
nda:Li
stent
othi
s

Hehandsmeaphonewi
thear
phones,
ipl
ayt
he
r
ecor
ding.

Me:Whoi
sthi
s

Li
nda:Cynt
hia

Me:Noways

Li
nda:Mzwakhealwayschooset
hecrazyones.She
i
splanni
ngsomethingwit
hsomebodyandthey
goi
ngt
opi
nitonPhi
ndi
le

Me:Noweneedt ofoll
ow-uponthi
siam goingto
f*
ckthisgirl
,butl
etswaitandseei
fsheactuall
y
goesthroughwithit

Li
nda:Thanwhat

Me:Thanwef
uckherup

Li
nda:WeemfokaNdl
ovuaveungi
qedamase
ukhul
umakanj
e(youki
ll
ingmewit
hlaught
er)

Me:Thi
sgi
rlPhi
ndi
leiscomingt
othemansion
t
odayweneedtokeepoureyesonCynt
hia

Li
nda:Whatar
ewewai
ti
ngf
or
Wepayandl
eave.

Phi
ndi
le
Itwasatotalmi
ssi
oncomingheret
hingswer
eokay
nowhei ssendi
ngaver
yvulgart
ext
.Donottr
yto
figur
eoutMzwakheheisgoi
ngtoshockyouinso
manyways.

Me:Anel
eri
ght

Shesmi
les.

Anel
e:Hey

Me:Ihaven'
thadt
imetotal
ktoandki
ndofmake
youunderst
andwhatwasgoingon

Phamandl
awal
ksbyandhesi
tant
lyj
oinus.
Me:Okayiknowi
tsal
ot

Anel
e:Di
dher
eal
lysl
apyou

Me:Thatsnotimport
antineededtogetthatdemon
outofyoubeforeyoucausedmajorhavoc

Theot
herdemonmakeshi
sappear
ance.

Mzwakhe:YawenaMi
keTysonhuhusushaya
amant
ombazanemanj
ewena,sawubonamommy

Phamandl
a:Mzwakheiam sor
ry

Mzwakhe:Fuckyou,
youhoe
Me:Anywayst
hatt
hinghadal
readymani
fest
ed
i
tsel
fontohi
m

Anel
e:Whatwoul
dhavehappenedi
fyoudi
dn'
ttake
i
tout

Me:Unf
ort
unat
elyhewasgoi
ngt
odi
e

Mzwakhe:What

Me:I
tshoul
dn'thavegot
tent
othatpoi
nt,
icanonl
y
dosomuchfrom prot
ect
ingyouguysandmysel
f

Phamandl
a:Mommyiam r
eal
lysor
ry

Me:It
sokaymyl ovealliswellj
ustmakesureto
pr
ayanddr i
nkthewater .Wit
houtmystrengt
h,you
st
il
lavesseltot
hesecr eatur
es
Anel e:Thawashecti
cidon'
twantt ol
iesomeofthe
thingsidid.It
hinkimayhavekil
ledsomebodyi
didn'tli
keandthist
hingmadeitworse

Me:Iam happyyout
woar
eokay

Phamandl
a:Syabongamommy

Mzwakhe:Canit
alkt
oyoupl
easengi
yakucel
a
Phi
ndi
lebuka

Hegoesdownonhi skneesidon'
thavet
imeforthi
s.
Icoul
ddi
sappearbutidon'
twanttoscar
eAnele
evenmor
e.
[
06/
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15:
25] :177

Cynt
hia
Whyi sthiswomaninmyspace, whyi sMzwakhe
al
lowingherhere.Thesepeoplearedisrespect
ing
meandiam notgoi ngtohave,shewal kspassme
wear i
ngnothi
ngbutabaggyt op.Igrabherar m and
pullhertowar
dsme, shel
ooksatmyhandt hanme.

Me:Thisi
snotyourhouseoryourgr
andmot
her
s
f
ostercar
ehouse

Phi
ndi
le:Excuseme

Me:Yourexcusedli
stenherelitt
legir
liam r
unning
thi
ngsnow,andidon'tappreciateyoushowingyour
usel
esspathet
icassalloverthishouse

Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
thavet
imef
ort
his

Igr
abheragai
n.
Me:Iam st
il
ltal
kingt
oyou

Shewi ggl
esherar
m offmeil
osemybal
anceand
fal
l.IseeMzwakheokaygameon.

Me:Pleaseiam beggi
ngyoudon'
thurtmepl
ease,
i
am sorr
yididn'
tmeantopleasef
orgi
veme

Phi
ndi
le:What

Me:Iam sor
ryokay

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lewhatar
eyoudoi
ng

Hehel
psmeupmybodyi
sshaki
ng.

Mzwakhe:WenzanPhi
ndi
le
Phi
ndi
le:I

Hepushesher
.

Phi
ndi
le
Whatthehellj
usthappenedsheusedt
heoldest
tr
icki
nt hebook.Mzwakhecomesbackdown
breat
hingfi
re.

Me:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Justbecauseiam f
ucki
ngwit
hyou
doesn'
tmeanngijwayel
ekabiwhatt
hehellwast
hat
Phindi
le

Me:Yazi
nletmego
Mzwakhe:Yahhambavel
edon'
ttestmePhi
ndi
lei
swear

Iwal
kawayf
rom hi
m whydi
dievencomeher
e.

Sakhi
le
Whatanawardwinni
ngshowsheputon.Wewere
wat
chingever
ythi
ngunf
oldf
rom t
hecontr
olr
oom.

James:Manj
eni
thul
enenzanibaf
ana

Thobani
:Don'
tshowi
ttohi
m

Me:I
tshi
sfaultt
hingsar
eliket
his,
hei
sbusy
pl
ayi
ngboth,
welloneofthem

Li
nda:Andshedoesn'
tevenseei
t
Me:Senzenj
anbaba

James:Ubaniubabawakho

Me:Kombeunj
alo

Heent
erswhi
stl
ing.

Me:Skhul
u

Mpi
lo:Moj
amom sai
dshe'
sgoi
ng

James:Wher
e

Mpi
lo:Usuzomf
onel
aphel
awena

Phi
ndi
let
akesofhercl
othesanddi
vesi
ntot
hepool
.
Li
nda:Sakhi
lengiyahambangekengiyimel
emi
na
l
ento(Iam l
eavi
ngiwon'tst
andforthis)

Isi
gh.

Thapel
o
Theweatherhaschangedanditsrai
ningcat
sand
dogs.Whathavethoseidi
otsdonenow.

Nqobi
:Thequeenst
ear
s

Me:Iwoul
dn'
tcr
yfort
hati
diotbutkewhatcanwe
say

Il
augh.

Nqobi
:Doyouhaveani
deawhatshei
supt
o
Me:Yes

Nqobi
:Whyyounotdoi
nganyt
hing

Me:Icanonl
yactbasedonwhatMzwakhewi
lldo
af
terf
indi
ngout

Nqobi:Pl
easeThapelodon'
tmakemat
ter
swor
se
andthanyoucan'tf
ixit

Me:Theirr
elat
ionshipi
swhat
sgoi
ngt
omakeher
handoverMambat ome

Avehicleenter
st hedriveway,t
hedriverget
sout
runni
ngt otheotherside.Heopensthedoor
Phindi
lestepsout ,wegetupandopent hedoor
theywalkindri
ppi ngwet .Shewal
ksonanddoesn't
l
ookback, hecallshername.Shepr etendsshe
can'
thearher
.

Nqobi
:Andyouar
e

Hi
m:Andi
le

Nqobi
:Andwhathappened

Andi
le:Whoar
eyouagai
n

Nqobi
:Uzozi
tshel
aukut
hkwenzekeninoma
usi
shayi
sengomoya

Andi
le:Shewaswalki
ngint
her
ainnotdr
essed,
i
br
oughtheroverwhati
sgoi
ngon

Iopent
hedoor
.
Cynt
hia
Ihadtoputonashow,heent
ersiam st
il
lrocki
ng
backandfort
hhuggi
ngmyknees.Hesitsnextto
meandbr i
ngmetohischest
.

Me:Whatdi
didonow

Mzwakhe:I
tsokay

Me:Iwoul
dn'
tbesur
pri
sedi
fitwasheraf
terme

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Shei
sal
otoft
hingsbutt
hat
snother

Me:ComeonMzwakheyoucanseei
tinhereyes.
Thel
oveandpassi
onshehasf
oryou
Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Shecan'
tst
andyoubei
ngwi
thsomeoneel
se

Mzwakhe:NoCynt
hiashewoul
dneverdoi
t

Me:Okaybutj
ustt
hinkabouti
t

Iknowhei
sthinki
nglongandhardaboutt
his,
its
ti
metogostr
aightfort
hej
ugular
.
[
06/
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25] :178

Phi
ndi
le
Iam def
ini
tel
ymi ssi
ngsomet hing.Iam saidtobe
themostpowerspi r
it
ualperson,nothingsurpass
mehowcant hi
ngslikethi
sbehappeni ngt
ome.I
can'
tconnecttotheriver
.Icompletelylost
communicati
onwi t
hthevoicesi
nmyhead,couldi
t
betheyt
urnedtheirbacksonmebecauseiai
n't
wit
hthei
rgoodf ornothi
ngson.Whyi
sthis
happeni
nghowi shappening.

Me:Uhm j
ustami
nut
e

Igrabati
ssueandwi
pemyt
ear
s,iexhal
eoutand
fanmysel
f.

Me:Comei
n

Samkel
o:Ibr
oughtgoodi
esar
eyoucr
ying

Me:Nosomet
hingi
nmyeye

Samkel
o:Gr
eatihavesomegoodnewsf
oryou
Iopent
heboxofdonut
s.

Samkel
o:Andil
ewantstohavesomethi
ngf
orhi
s
son,
asmallbeaut
if
ulint
imat
edinner
.Hewas
wonder
ingi
fyoucoulddoit

Me:Doesn'
thehaveOni
kat
odot
hatf
orhi
m

Hel
aughs.

Me:It
sokaywhat
evert
hecl
ient
'swant
sthecl
ient
wi
llget

Samkel
o:Anot
herahayouwasaappr
oachedbya
magazi
ne

Me:Shutt
hef
rontdoor
Samkel
o:Aspr
eadaboutyou

Me:Samkel
odon'
tyoul
iet
ome

Samkel
o:Theywai
ti
ngf
oryourr
esponse

Iwi
lldef
ini
tel
ybeconsi
der
ingt
his.Ineedt
ogo
home.

Sakhi
le
Wehaveenought opleadf orPhi ndi
le'
scase,shoul
d
thisratofaper sondecidest ogoaheadwi t
hher
stupi
dpl an.Lindaniandial socameupwi thaplan
toseei fshewoul dtakethebai t.Mzwakhedar e
doesanyt hingcrazytop, iwillnotbeheld
responsibleforwhatido.

"
She'
scomi
ngyourway"
Me:Yeahi
njal
oyabo

Li
nda:Ilovehowshedeal
swi
thpeopl
ewhoshe
doesn'
t

Me:Iwasscaredformyli
fe,
rememberwhenshe
tat
tooedournamesonsomeguyschestandl
ater
sealedwi
thaheart

Li
nda:Thatwer
ethedaysimi
sst
hem

Me:Justbecausetheynotint
hesamespace
doesn'
tmeant heynotget
ti
ngiton

Li
nda:Skhul
u

Yeaht
heymi
sst
heoppor
tuni
tyt
osmasheach
whenevert
heyar
ear
oundeachot
her
.

Me:uMzwakhel
oya

Li
nda:Theyst
il
lfucki
ng

Me:Theybeinandoutofeachot
heronThabi
so'
s
bi
rt
hday,f
rom t
hemomentshearri
ved

Sheent
ersthekit
chen.Shegr
absawat
erbot
tl
eand
anappl
ethanleaves.

Me:Act
ivecarl
ist
eni
ngdevi
ce

Thedupl
icat
ephonebeeps.

Li
nda:"
Changedofpl
answedoi
ngt
hist
oday"
Me:Azi
shei
ntshi
zaemt
aneni

Li
nda:Skhul
u

Thapel
o
Iknowimayactgoodbutal liwantisthatpowerful
snake,i
fshesomuchcamecl osetohowt heyher.I
wouldn'
tbehereshefai
ledt
odoherj ob,andthe
onlywayicangetthosepower si
sifibreak.

Nqobi:Idon'
tthi
nkthi
sisl
ikeanyt
hingyouhave
encounter
edbefore

Langa:Yout
woar
eal
wayswhi
sper
ingbehi
nd
cl
oseddoors

Me:Hel
lodearbr
other
Langa:Nottobei
nyourbusi
nessoranyt
hing,
ifeel
l
ikethi
swillt
akeadi
ff
erentt
urn

Me:Shutup

Ileavethem l
aughingt
heyannoyi
ngme.Ientermy
room andlookatmyselfi
nthemirr
or,
suddenlyi
feelli
ghtheaded.

Voi
ce:Youdon'
thavewhati
ttakest
obeMamba

Me:Who'
sther
e

Voi
ce:Youdon'
thavewhati
ttakest
obeMamba

Thanihearmanyvoi
cesshout
ingthesamewords.
Theygetl
ouderandl
ouderandlouder
,mybody
f
lushes,
myheadspi
nsar
ound.

Me:St
opst
opst
opi
t

Myl
egsf
ailmeif
all
.

Me:Nqobi

Igr
oanandgr
unti
nagony.

Voi
ce:Youdon'
thavewhati
ttakest
obeMamba

Nqobi
:Thapel
o

That
'st
hel
astt
hingihearbef
oreibl
ackout
.

Mzwakhe
Shetol
dmeshe' sjustgoingtostoresandwil
lbe
ri
ghtback.Ihopeeveryt
hingisokay.Ayandawas
di
scussingweddingstuffwit
hus, iam pr
oudand
happyformyl i
tt
lebr
other.

Me:Whatdi
dyout
hinkweshoul
ddo

Ayanda:Fir
stl
ythankyouf
orhandl
ingt
hose
negot
iati
ons

Iwoul
ddi
efort
hem i
fihavet
o.

Ayanda:Weki
ndofwai
ti
ngonpshewasn'
tabl
eto
t
alktouswhenshewasher
e

Hel
ooksatmeil
ookdownandchuckl
e.

Ayanda:Butwemustsetadat
easwhenwet
hinkof
ukuyombesa(
gif
ti
ngcer
emony)

Me:Cani
tbeaf
terisor
tthi
ssi
tuat
ionoutf
ir
st
pl
ease

Ayanda:Nopr
obl
em

Ical
lher
.

"Hit
hisi
sCynt
hiapl
easeamessageandiwi
llcal
l
youback"

Phi
ndi
le
Ical
lhomeiwantt
ocheckonhowt heydoi
ng.
Ther
ewasnotmuchtodoatwor k,iaskedSamkel
o
todr
opmeoffhomeandiam feeli
ngmuchbet t
er.

Me:Pi
ckupt
hephone
Itr
ingsandri
ngsandringsunt
ilsomeonepi
cksup,
buttheyhanguparghhowdumbcant heybe.

Ma:Gci
no

Me:Ngi
yeza.
..Maawkodwama

Icr
yshegi
vesmeachoreMxol
isimustf
indanew
wif
eandbr
ingherher
e.

Ma:kunj
anikenkosazaneangi
kwazi

Theyknowinevertal
kij
ustbot
tl
ethingsupand
keepitmovi
ng.Mom canseeiam notokay,
what
canisaytoherwheredoist
art
.Myphoner i
ngsoh
savedbythebel
l.
Me:Hel
lo

Li
ndo:Di
dn'
tyout
eacht
hem howt
oanswerphones

Me:Iam sor
rymybaby

Atl
eastsomepeopl
eareonmysi
deandnot
wor
kingover
ti
meagainstme.

Sakhi
le
Wewat chfr
om thecont r
olroom,acarpasses
throwingheroutit
,ialertJamestocheckitout
.I
can'tbeli
evethi
sgirlLindaniandistar
eateach
other.Jamescarri
esheri nsideweleavet
hecontr
ol
room.

shei
scryi
nghysteri
cal
ly,
herdr
essisr
ippedoff
.
Mzwakheboyfr
iendoft
heyearact
ingsoworri
ed
andhur
tbull
shi
t.
Mzwakhe:Fi
rstai
dki
tnow

Cynt
hia:Pl
ease.
..Don'
thur
tme

Mzwakhe:Babyi
tsmer
elax

Cynt
hia:I
'
m sor
ry

Shehyst
eri
cal
lycr
ies.

Li
nda:Cynt
hiawhathappened

Mzwakhe:Khul
umaphel
a

Cynthi
a:Theygr
ab..
.Theygr
abbedmefr
om behi
nd
baggedmeandt ookmetosomedodgypl
ace.I
'm
sor
ryfort
aki
ngyouawayf
rom her
,pl
easeidi
dn'
t
doanythi
ng

Mzwakhe:Takemef
rom who

Cynthi
a:Shesai
dyougoi
ngtoleavemejustl
ike
youlef
therwhenanot
heronecomes.Mzwakhei
am sorr
y

Shepull
sdownherdr
essreveal
ingherchest
.
Li
ndanil
ooksdownandl
aughssi l
ent
ly.

Cynt
hia:Shesai
dremembermebi
tch.Mzwakhei

Mzwakhe:Shhi
tsokay

Li
nda:Ayseni
yosal
akahl
e(goodbye)
Iwal
kawayaswel
liam notwi
tht
hebul
l.
[
06/
06,
15:
25] :179

Phi
ndi
le
Iri
seupfrom ther i
verSi
zweisawait
ingme.I
cri
ngei
npain, ifatdownonthegroundandcat
ch
mybreat
h.Her unshishanddownmyf ace,
iam
abl
etobreathe.

Me:Si
zwewhati
sgoi
ngon

Sizwe:Unti
lMzwakheconf esseswhyhecan't
commi tyourpowersareveryli
mit
ed.Thapel
ois
heretotakethem awayfr
om youandyoucan't
al
lowt hatt
ohappen

Me:Si
zwe
Sizwe:Yesyoucandoi tyourMambanobodycan
takethatawayfr
om you.Takebackyourpowers,
he
hasshutusoutwecan' tcommunicat
ewithyouand
youcan'tseeanyt
hing

Iknewsomet
hingwaswr
ong.

Si
zwe:Andr
ememberal
wayschoosi
ngt
hesnake

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Mzwakhe
Ican'tbel
ieveCynt hiawouldst
oopsol ow, hadi
actedoutf orsurebadt hi
ngsweregoingt ohappen.
IfSakhil
ehadn' tshownmeherpl otagainstPhindi
le,
iwouldhavedef i
nitel
ybeli
evedi
t.Phi
ndileonce
uponat imedi dtattoosomeoneusingpliersanda
knife.
Theyl
augh.

Thabi
so:Wowyouseeifyouhadat
tackedPhi
ndi
lei
wouldhavedi
sownedyou

Me:Iam l
ikewhydi
dievengeti
nvol
vedwi
th
f
emales

Sakhi
le:Sizwemanwher
ehaveyoubeennot
hank
Godhedi dn't

Li
ndaniwal
kshi
sli
tt
ledownplayofal
aught
ermade
menotbeli
evet
hewholethi
ng.

Li
nda:Thefactt
hatyoudi
dn'
tdoanyt
hingmeans
somethi
ng

Me:If
igur
edever
yonewasgoi
ngt
ohat
emeah
Mzwakheputhi
shandsonpr
eci
ousPhi
ndi
le

Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Heissoexcit
edtoseemeigotmystrengt
hback,
becauseiwasabl
etoseethesnakei
nhim.I
wonderwhatwouldhappeni
fi.
..
.

Astr
ongforcesendshi
m downonhisknees,he
l
ooksangry.Isi
tdownfaci
nghi
m car
essinghis
f
ace.

Me:It
oldgr
andmot
hert
hatineedanybody,
what
di
dshedothrewmeint
heli
onsden

Il
if
tmyhanduphi
smout
hopens.
Me:Youwantt
otakeMambaf
rom mehuhThapel
o
Bhengu

Asnakeappear sthansl
owlystar
tgoinginhi
s
mouth,hegagsandgagst ear
sstartstr
eaming
downhisf ace.Heswall
owsandfall
sonmyt hi
ghs
outofbreath.

Me:Enj
oymyki
ngyoubeenl
ongwai
ti
ngf
ort
his

Igethim of
fmeandstandup.Il
ookathi
sbr
other
s,
theykneeldownandbowthei
rheads.

Mzwakhe
Iswitchthephoneof fwhatthehelldi
dijust
witnessed.Cynthi
aentersisighmaybeitsmyfaul
t
thi
ngsgott hisfar
,thi
sismyonel astchanceof
escapingthis.
Me:Comesi
ther
e

Cynt
hia:Ever
ythi
ngokay

Me:WhyCynthi
awhywouldyoudot
hisandt
han
bl
ameitonsomeoneel
se

Cynt
hia:Howcoul
dihavedonet
hist
omysel
f

Igi
vehert
hepi
ctur
esandever
ythi
ngshepl
anned.

Me:Youknowiprobablywoul
dhavebrokenupwith
youaf
terf
indi
ngoutallthi
swasali
e,hadatt
acked
Phi
ndil
e

Cynt
hia:Mzwakhe

Me:Idon'
twantyourexpl
anat
ioniadmi
tihave
beenact i
ngafool.Yesihavebeensl eepingwith
Phindil
eeverychanceiget ,Yougottounderstand
shewasbui ldi
ngsomet hingwi t
hme.Thoseki ndof
feel
ingsdon'tj
ustdisappearlikethat
,iam sor
ry
thatihurtyoubutyoualsonotunder standi
ngthe
curse.Ihavebeenfaithf
ultoyouunt i
lisawher

Shei
scr
ying.

Me:Youdon'
tgett
odothi
ngsbehindcl
oseddoor
s
Cynt
hia,
youwil
lal
waysbecaught

Cynt
hia:Mzwakheiam sor
ry

Me:I
tsokayipr
obabl
yenabl
edyoui
ntodoi
ngi
t

Igetonmykneesandpul
loutt
heboxopeni
ngi
t.
Me:Iam defi
nit
elyafuckedupman.Youcanei t
her
choosetoworkonitandt r
ustyouwillbegett
ing
thebest,
oryoucanwal koutthedoorandnever
comeback.Thisistheclosestthi
ngt
oser i
ousican
be,wit
hthatsai
dwillyoumar ryme

Cynt
hia:Yousur
eimeanyes

Me:Yes

Phi
ndi
le
Ifeelasharppainatt
acki
ngmet hr
oughmychest ,
mykneesgoweek.Al oudbanger upt
sf oll
owedby
l
ightni
ng,anotheronehit
swi t
hadeaf eningsound.
Myear sexplodethananotheronehit
sif eeli
tinmy
heartanditrai
ns.

Whyam icr
ying.
Mybodytransfor
m isl
it
hertot
hecorneroft
he
houseandcoilupint
here,
whatisgoi
ngon.
[
06/
06,
15:
25] :180

Sakhi
le
Shockedisanunderst
atement.Al
lofusare
gobsmacked.Ican'
tevenbegi
nt ounderst
andwhat
thehel
lisgoi
ngon,iam theonedrinki
ngnow.

Theyl
augh.

Thobani
:Wakhe

Me:Angazini
hlekaniumuntuegul
aekhanda(
Idon'
t
knowwhyyalll
aughingatthiscr
azyper
son)

Cynthi
a:Nonhl
emaybewecanpl
anourweddi
ngs
toget
her
Nonhl
e:Thefuckweareseel
etmetellyou
somet
hingfr
ee.Iknowmylastnameisgoingtobe
MrsAyandaBhengu,youont
heotherhandyeah

Cynt
hia:Whyyousayt
hat

Nonhl
e:Justnj
ejustyouwai
tandsee

Ayanda:Andyoudar
eandyoudaremeMzwakhei
wil
lshowyouwhyPhindi
lel
eftyou

Me:Mzwakhewozal
a

Wegetupandheadout
side.

Phi
ndi
le
Ij
ustcamebackf
rom mymor
ningj
og.It
houghti
wasdyingorrecei
vingsomeheavypunishment,
f
rom t
heancestorsnoitsMzwakhe.Acarpull
sup
i
nmydr ivewayigoandopenthedoorforthem.

Weshar
eahug.

Me:Doyouwantanyt
hingt
oeat

Li
ndo:Nomommyiam good

Li
ndo:Sowhatyoupl
anondoi
ng

Me:Heisnotget
ti
ngmarr
iedt
oheroranyoneelse.
Letmegoshowerqui
ckl
yandthanwecanleave

Mzwakhe
Ever
ybodyshoul
dmindthei
rbusinessandleaveme
al
one.Idon'
toweanyoneanyexplanat
ionsothey
shouldmoveon,ihaveanditfeelsgood.Iwas
li
steni
ngtothei
rconver
sat
ionbutwasn' ti
nter
est
ed,
ihearthesoundofheel
scluckingenter
ingthe
mansion.

Il
ookupandgobackt
omyphone.

Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
leareyousur
eshei
snotacr
eat
ure,
comeont hi
sisinsani
ty

Phindi
le:I
fyougoingt
okeepworryi
ngaboutwhat
thi
sonedoes, t
hanshamelockyour
sel
fint
oa
mentalinst
it
uti
on

Me:I
'
mthi
sonehee

Myfi
ancecomest
hroughshel
ooksatPhi
ndi
let
han
meismil
e.
Cynt
hia:Wel
comeyouher
etost
opt
his

Phi
ndi
le:Nobhabhaiam her
etoshar
eitwi
thyou

Cynt
hia:Excuseme

Shehandsherasomet
hing.

Phi
ndi
le:Sobonaukut
hubaniozobauMr
sMzwakhe

Shewalksawaysmi l
ingwi t
hherhandsi nher
pocket
.Cynthi
al ooksatmel ikeshewant stoki
llme,
shedropsthepaperandr unsupstai
rs.Igetupand
picki
tup.Sakhil
esnat chesthepaperfrom me,no
shemustbepl ayingwithourmi nds.

Phi
ndi
le
Heent
erst
her
oom whi
leiam st
il
lnaked,
heget
s
l
ostinmybodyandt hancomesback.Hel ooksat
meunablet ocan,iam notpregnantafri
endof
mineispregnantandiaskedhert oborrowmeher
scan.Butiam notgoingtotellt
hem that.

Mzwakhe:Nxiishoul
dhaveknowwhati
swr
ong
wi
th

Me:Youseewhati di
dtoThapelowil
lbesmal l
water
s.QhubekaMzwakhenalentooyenzayo
qhubeka(
Continuewi
ththi
sMzwakhecont inue)

Igetdr
essed.

Me:Pl
easel
eaveiwoul
dli
ket
osl
eep.
..Getout

Hel
eavesj
ustt
hanNonhl
ewal
ksi
n.
Me:Iam goi
ngt
oshowt
hisonehedoesn'
tknow

Hel
aughs.

Me:Ishouldhaveaddedsomespi
cet
oitandsai
d
i
tsnothis

Nonhl
e:Andheki
ll
syou

Me:Iwon'
tletamereproposalshakemei
nmy
boot
s,iam her
eforsomethi
ngelse

Nonhl
e:Manj
esenzenj
an(
Sowhatar
ewedoi
ng)

Me:Ineedadat
eandthanist
artsett
ingt
hingsf
or
youfornowmyfocusi
sonthegift

Nonhl
e:Okayiam goi
ngt
otal
ktoAyandaandsee
whathi
sbr
other
sar
esayi
ng

Me:Iwantt
osl
eepnow

Nonhl
e:Yoandyouback

Assoonasshel
eavesidr
if
toft
oadeepdeepsl
eep.

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
e:Aphi
amangaamiaphi(
wher
ear
emyl
ies,
where)

Me:Shutup

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Iam sohappyshe'
sback
Me:She'
smadatmenowhowdoisayi
tsnotr
eal

Thobani:Eyawusi
yekengol
oCynt
hiawakho(
We
aret
iredofyourCynt
hia)

Ayanda:Onot
hernewsngi
cel
ausuku

Me:Howaboutyouseti
tsi
nceyouar
esoeager

Ayanda:Sat
urday

Phi
ndi
leman.

Me:Twomont
hsf
rom now

Ayanda:AyMzwakheiam notwai
ti
ngf
ort
wo
months.Phindil
eishereshewil
lhelpi
nthe
meantime,wecanst ar
tbuyingt
hingsandoncewe
ever
ythingi
sr eadywecansetthedate

Me:OkayAyanda

Il
eavet
hem ihavet
ogof
ixmymess.
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Phi
ndi
le

Iwakeupgasping, t
hatsweir
d.Mybodyfeelsst
if
f
andverydr
ained,ilookoverMzwakheisnextt
ome.
Ihi
thim wi
thapi l
lowheshootshiseyesopenand
goesbacktosleep.

Mzwakhe:Ungi
shayel
aniPhi
ndi
le(
whydi
dyouhi
t
me)
Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eandhowdi
dyougeti
n

Mzwakhe:Thisismyhouseandicangoi
n
whereveriwant
.Plusispendt
heni
ghtwi
thmy
babymama

Me:Yousoannoyi
ng

Mzwakhe:Whydi
dyouhi
t

Me:Shutup

Igetup.

Me:Hast
hatal
waysbeent
her
e
Mzwakhe:Iam sl
eepi
ng

Me:Sakhi
lehast
hatal
waysbeent
her
e

Sakhi
le:"
Inimommy"

If
eell
ightheaded,
ifai
nthi
tt
ingmyheadhar
d.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Mzwakhe
Myheartst
oppedwhenshefel
lifel
tthehouse
shaki
ng.Pi
cki
ngherupwasami ssi
onthewayshe
wassoheavyourbacksbr
oke.

Thabi
so:Ever
ythi
ngokaywhathappened
Me:Shef
ellandhi
tthef
loorhar
dthehouseshook

Thabi
so:I
sshedead

Nono.

Me:Wher
eisNonhl
e,Nonhl
e,Nonhl
e

Nonhl
e:"
Ican'
tcome"

Me:Nonhl
e

Thedooropens.

Nonhl
e:Iam af
rai
dshemi
ghthur
tal
lofus

Me:Wakeherup
Shest
andsbehi
ndme.

Nonhl
e:Nono

Thabi
so:It
hinkshe'
sbr
eat
hing

Nonhl
e:Nonookayit
hinkt
hisi
swhatweonl
y
get
ti
ng

Iputmyt wofinger
sagainstherneck,
she'
s
breat
hing.It
hinkweshouldexcuseherbutidon'
t
wanttoleaveheralone.

Cynt
hia
I
tsal
waysgoodseeingmysi
sterineededt
ooff
load.
Mzwakhedi
dn'
tonlyhur
tmehecr ushedmysoul.
At
handwa:Wai
tshe'
spr
egnant

Me:Eylentombazaneavei
ngi
dinangath
ngayi
bul
ala(Thi
sgirlt
hewaysheannoysmeiwi
sh
icanki
ll
)

At
handwa:Sohei
sst
il
lsl
eepi
ngwi
thherevenaf
ter
whatwedid

Me:Aboutt
hatourpl
anwasanepi
cfai
l

At
handwa:Idon'
tfai
latanyt
hing

Me:Yeahwel
lthi
sti
mei
tdi
d

Athandwa:AyPhindeumshayengobhekamina
ngedwa(Hithi
m againwi
ththel
ovepotion)
Me:Iwon'tgetanywhereinfactiwoul
dbedi
ggi
ng
myowngr ave.Heisprotect
edbyherandthe
ancest
ors

Athandwa:Wel
lfi
ndanot
herst
rongerpower
ful
healer

Me:Li
keisai
d

At
handwa:Doeshedoi
traw

Me:No

At
handwa:Andsti
lldon'
twantt
odoitthehot
box
mustbegoodfori
ttolandababy.Gi
rl

Me:Nosi
sigott
hisij
ustgot
taactl
iket
heydo
At
handwa:Yourmandoesn'
tsoundl
ikeaper
sont
o
i
ntr
oducetoyourpar
ent
s

Me:Hei
snotli
ket
hati
tsjustt
hatwhenshei
s
ar
oundhel
oseshi
mself

Shepopshereyesout
.

Mzwakhe
Li
ndo:Herdr
inkt
his

Ikeepquietanddoasiam t
oldhmm t
hat
s
ref
reshi
ng.

Me:Youokayyoul
ookt
ir
ed

Lindo:Yeaht
hatwhathappenswhenyoudoi
ng
yourbesttopr
otectt
hequeen
Heyawnskantiwhatdothesepeopl
ewantf
rom me.
Iwi
lldoi
tifi
twil
lhelpPhindi
le.

Me:Li
ndopleaset
ellmewhatt
odoiwi
lldoi
t
pl
easemtase

Li
ndo:Ifyoureal
lyl
ovedPhi
ndi
let
hanyouwoul
d
havedoneitbynow

Me:Butidol
oveher

Lindo:Notenought oleaveyourfi
ance..
.Wel land
thereyouhavei t
.From nowonpl easeleaveher
alone,ifyounotgoi ngtocommi ttoherpleaseleave
heralone.Wecannotsuf f
erbecauseofyou, nowi n
termsofmovi ngforwardwegoi ngtorespectyour
relat
ionship.Pleaserespectours
Hewal
ksaway.

Cynt
hia
Iarr
ivehomeaguar dopensthedoorf
orme.That
s
str
ange,iwal
kinthehouseisquiet
.Heent
ersand
west ar
eateachother
.

Me:Canwet
alk

Mzwakhe:Howwasyourday

Me:I
twasf
ineandyour
s

Mzwakhe:Sameol
d

Me:Sowhati st
hewayf or
ward,howarewegoing
todealwit
hthesit
uat
ionathand.Phi
ndil
ebei
ng
pregnant
Mzwakhe:Herbeingpregnantdoesn'
tchanges
anyt
hing,
ifyoulookatthi
ngshaveimadei tfeel
l
ikewebreakingup

Me:No

Mzwakhe:Igaveyouar i
ngevenaft
eryouplott
ed
agai
nsther
.She'sexpect
ingandyousti
llher
e

Me:Wi
llshebest
ayi
ngher
e

Mzwakhe:Doyouwanthert
o

Me:Notnecessar
il
ybutdoihaveachoi
ce

Mzwakhe:She'
sher
eonot
hert
hings
Me:Okaysowhatdowedo

Mzwakhe:Werel
axandt
akeadeepbr
eat
h,she'
s
notpr
egnant

Myhear
tdr
opshecomesoverandhugsme.

Mzwakhe:Wear
egoi
ngt
osetboundar
iesandal
lis
wel
l

Not
hingi
swel
lwi
tht
hisf
ami
ly.
[
06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Her
ewear einthedeepdarkwoods.Thi si
swere
t
hecreaturekeepschasingmeinmydr eams.Ihave
t
ofi
ndi tbeforeitf
indsmeandtrapallofushere.
Lungel
o:Whati
sthat

Sizwe:Wehavetokeepgoinganddon'tl
etanyt
hing
throwusofourt
racks.Rememberthesecreat
ures
feedonourweaknessandfear

Wer eachadeadend.Thewi ndst art

sblowingthe
tr
eesstartsingi
ng.Icanfeel
itsstrongpresence.
Anicecrystalcomesflyi
nginfullfor
ce.Lungelo
usehispower sandcoveruswi t
hashi el
d.

At ornadowit
hlightni
ngcomesbreakingthe
protecti
veshi
eld,sendi
ngusfl
yingthroughthe
woods.Mybackl andsonthet
reeihitthegr
ound
hard.

Ican'
taf
for
dt oshowweaknessweint
hei
rter
ri
tor
y.
Igetupaspainf
ulasi
tisiknowSi
zweandthe
twi
nsareokay.
Me:Showyour
sel
f

Mzwakhe
Everyonewasi ndoorsyoucanfeelt
heatmosphere
i
sver ytense.Iam guessi
ngPhindi
leisoutt
her
e
fi
ghtingGodknowswhat ,
hecti
cevilcr
eatur
egreat
grandmot hercr
eated.

Icanunderstandthei
rfrust
rat
ionthethoughtof
l
osingherthroughthis,
won'tonl
yaffectmebutt he
wholeclan.Howdi dsheeventhinkofpassingsuch
agreatgif
t.

Cynt
hiacomesdownwi
thabagdoeshavet
obe
l
iket
hisreal
ly.

Ol
wet
hu:Wher
eyougoi
ng

Cynt
hia:Ihaveaf
ewt
hingst
odo
Ol
wet
hu:Si
tdown

Cynt
hia:Excuseme

Ol
wet
hu:Si
tdown

Shel
ooksatme.

Ol
wethu:Yout
hinkwej
ustchi
ll
ingnj
ebecausewe
wantt
o

Cynthi
a:Okayyoumaybeaglor
if
iedhousewifebut
iam not.Iworkf
ormymoney,i
tdoesn'
tjustcome
fal
li
ngfrom t
hesky

Nonhl
e:Youar
gui
ngwi
tht
heDon'
swi
fe
Cynt
hia:Ofcour
seyouwoul
dsayt
hat

Bef
oreshecanl
eaveispeak.

Me:I
fyoul
eavedon'
tbot
hercomi
ngback

Cynt
hia:What

Mw:Youwouldbedoi
ngever
yoneaf
avoricanal
so
f
ixt
hingswi
thPhi
ndil
e

Cynt
hia:Woul
dn'
tyoul
iket
hat

Me:Mm hm andwewi
llpi
ckupwher
ewel
eftof
f

Sakhi
le:Rememberhesai
dthatt
oPhi
ndi
leandshe
l
eft
Theylaugh.Iwonderwhycan'tiscar
ePhindi
lel
ike
thatnotevenali
ttl
ebi
tdoesittouchheri
nanyway,
herphoner i
ngs.

Cynt
hia:Yeahican'
tcomecanwesetupanot
her
onesomeot hert
ime

Thabiso:Anddon'
tyoueverspeakt
omywi
fel
ike
thateveragai
nokaygi
rl

Me:Ahah

Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
There'
sthreeofthem f
loat
ingi
ntheair
.It
akemy
snakeform andquickl
ychangeback,
that
'swhat
theywantmet odo.Whatdoidonow.oneoft hem
sendsablackballwi
thli
ghtni
ngmyway, i
tbounce
offandstr
aightt
oitfr
om theprot
ect
ionshi
eld
provi
ded.Il
ookaroundtheyokay.

It
sawarzonenow. ..Theymut at
eintoonest il
l
admi r
ingit
.Itunleashesitslonghairtowr aparound
myl egsandwr ists,itr
ywiggli
ngoutbuti tsgri
pis
str
ongi tpul
lsme.Mambaawakens, iswitchmy
handsoveri t
shai randpulltowardsme, itstomps
causingthegroundt oshakeandcrack, ohnoi ti
s
notescapeme.

Il
etgoandt ransform wrappingar
oundi t
sbody
crushingit,wecomef acet ofaceandiloseal
l
sense.Whyi sthathappeningmygr i
ploosens
arounditsbody, iam atitscommand.Itformsan
i
cecr ystalandst absi
tri
ghtt hr
oughmybody.I
changeandgodownscr eaming.

Ican'
tfeelmybodyiam shaki
ng,
butican'
tgi
veup.
I
thasmyt
ri
dent
.

Il
ookatitunabletobreat
heitholdsitup, j
ustwhen
i
tsabouttostabmewi thit
.Itransfor
m andwr ap
aroundit
sbody,theothersnakesjoinin.Itakemy
spearandstabitthr
oughitsglowingstomach,
blacksmokecomesoutidon' tknowwhat
happenedaftert
hat.

Mzwakhe
Thr
eemanr i
seupfrom thepoolandcomerunni
ng
i
nside,ever
ybodygetsuprunningtowar
dsthem.
Mykneesf ai
lmeifallbackonthecouch,myhear
t
st
artsclosi
nginonme.

Thabi
so:Cal
lThat
onowwhathappened

Him:Shewasstabbedwit
hani cecryst
al,
sheis
goi
ngtobeokay.Shecan'
tleavethehousejust
makesureyoutakecar
eofthiswound, wedoneour
j
ob

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Ikneeldownnextt
oherandhol
dherhand.

Me:Mama.
.Phi
ndi
lewakeupPhi
ndi
le

Shewakesupcoughi
ngoutbl
ood.

Phi
ndi
le:Am idead

Shef
aint
s.

Hi
m:Wor
rynotever
ythi
ngi
sokay

Theybowandwal
kout
.
Sakhi
le
Ifel
tsomestrongconnecti
onwiththatguyidon'
t
knowwhohei s.Hehadgr eywei
rdlookingeyesl
ike
awhiteboy,
wecoul dn'
tseetheothertwo.

Voice:Don'
tworryyoual
lwoul
dhavef orgot
ten
aboutmet henextmorni
ng.
.Yesit
smebutyou
can'tknowwhoiam, wel
lyoucanjustnotnow

Iwishicoul
dtel
litt
oshutupbecauseoncei
ts
st
artsi
tgoes.

That
o:Sakhi
le

Gr
eatadi
str
act
ion.

That
o:Sheneedst
ogot
othehospi
tal
Me:That
oleti
tbepl
ease

That
o:Wedon'
tknowhowdeepori
fther
e'sany
pi
ecesr
emaini
nginsi
de

Me:I
tsf
ineiwi
llt
alkt
othem

That
o:Pleasehandl
ethatwoundwi
thser
ious
caut
ion

Me:I
fthi
ngsgetwor
sewebr
ingi
ngheri
nit
sokay

Het
akesThabi
so'
sgl
assanddownst
hewhi
skey.

Thabi
so:Hayouwantt
obei
ntr
oubl
ewi
th
Mzwakhe
That
o:Shutup

Welaughwhathadthewi
fedonenowohboy.Ibet
ever
yonei
sfeel
inghiswr
athi
nthehospi
tal
.

Thabi
so:Howi
sshe

Me:Attheendoft
hedayifwehavetogoagai
nst
order
sthansobeit
.Shei
snotgoingtodi
ebecause
theyt
ookcareofi
t

Thabi
so:Andt
hecr
azyman

Me:Wel
lyousawf
oryour
sel
f

Thabi
so:Theyget
ti
ngbackt
oget
her

Me:That
sfarf
rom happeni
ng
[
06/
06,
15:
26] :183

Phi
ndi
le
Somebodygett hismanawayf rom me.Idon'
tneed
him iam good,ihaveacceptedwenotget t
ingback
togetherandwehavedr i
ftedapartandiam okay.I
getupmybodyhur tssobad, igotdi
str
actedtherea
coupleoftimes.Iwonderwhatt henextonewi l
lbe
l
ike.

Mzwakhe:Wher
eyougoi
ng

Me:Ayl
eavemeal
one

Iwal
koutsomet
hingwr
ongi
nthi
shouse.

Ol
wet
hu:Awmama
Me:Hey

Olwethu:Whatyoudoi
ngoutofbedyoushoul
dbe
rest
ing

Me:Iwoul
dbutt
her
e'ssomet
hingdi
rt
yinmybed

Shel
aughsandhel
psmesi
tdown.

Ol
wet
hu:Youwantanyt
hing

Me:Wat
erpl
ease

Thedarkcl
oudpassesandheadsuptohisroom.
Looknowicoul
dber est
ingcomf
ort
ably.Mzwakhe
bhengu.

Phamandl
a:Cani
Il
aysi
dewaysandhel
if
tsmyt
opof
.

Phamandla:Wer
eal
lyneedt
obeget
ti
ngyoui
ntoa
hospi
tal

Me:Yousendmet
her
eidi
e

Phamandla:Butyouinpai
nandihaven'
teven
touchedyouppleasedon'
tdot
his

Me:Twodays

Phamandl
a:Thr
ee

Me:Oneorelseiam goi
ngt
odi
sappearandgo
r
ecoversomewhere
Phamandl
a:Twodaysi
tis

Iam i
npai
n.

Nonhl
e
Igott
hel
istf
rom t
hef
ami
lyandigi
vei
ttoOl
wet
hu.

Olwet
hu:OhweMr sBhenguiam sohappyyou
camealong.Iwasr
eal
lygoi
ngthroughthemost
witht
hisl
ot

Me:Soidon'twantust
odoanyt
hingwithout
Phindi
le,
howeverl
iket
hel
it
tl
esmallt
hingsyoucan
buy.Momsthings

Olwet
hu:Whyyougi
vingt
hist
omeukhonanj
e
uCynt
hia
Me:Angi
zwanga(
Excuseme)

Shel
aughs.

Me:Hai
boyoutheeldestwi
fegetr
atot
ohel
pyou
whi
lepisi
nthehospital

Ol
wet
hu:Dowehaveadat
e

Me:NoAyandasuggest
edwebuyever
ythi
ngf
ir
st
andt
hensetadate

Ol
wethu:Okayasiphuthumeingazeinkabiyakho
i
sibul
alesonke(l
etsgetthebal
lrol
li
ngbef or
eyour
ki
ll
erboyfr
iendki
ll
susal l
)

Me:Ol
wet
hu
Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Theonl ypersonicanst
ressismybr otherMj
probablycall
edhim,andtol
dhi m somethi
ng
happenedt ome.Hewasal readyonhiswayback
home, iwast ol
dhecanenteranymi nute.

Mybodyhasst ar
tedt
heheal
ingprocess,
itwoul
dn'
t
hurtsomuchortaket
hismuchti
mef ormet o
recoverhadwedonet
heri
tualwi
thMzwakhe.

Ipromiseiseehim anywhereneariam goingto

pl
uckhi seyebal
lsout.Noiam jokingiki
ndofmi ss
hi
mt houghhedef ini
tel
yisn'
tthesameper son.
Mzwakheoozedal ltypesofsexiness,
hehadt hi
s
str
ongaur aever
yonef ear
edhim.Hebl ewupbodi es
l
eft,r
ightandcenternow,heisjustaguynj e.

Thedooropens.
Mxol
isi
:Gci
nokodwayi
nyi
ni(
Whywhywhy)

Hel
ookshandsome.

Me:Youl
ookhandsome

Mxoli
si:St
opt
ell
ingmeabouthandsomewhyyou
her
e

Me:Thi
ngsgothect
iciwasst
abbedandher
ewe
ar
e

Mxol
isi
:Whatwasi
goi
ngt
otel
lyourpar
ent
s

Me:Theyyourpar
ent
stoo
Thedooropensilethi
m be.Hewon'
tsnapoutofi
t
unt
iliam okay.

Nonhl
e
Icall
edourfavor
it
edesi
gnerext
raordi
nai
rekhet
ho.
Hedidt hedr
essiwasweari
ngthenight,
Ayanda
proposedsonowiwanthimtodoi tagai
n.

Cynt
hia:Doyouneedhel
pwi
thanyt
hing

Idon'
twantyourevilassanywher
enearmy
weddi
ng,butiwil
lrespecther
.

Me:Att
hemomentnojustavai
lyour
sel
fKhet
hoi
s
t
aki
ngever
yone'
smeasurements

Cynt
hia:Hei
smaki
ngyourout
fi
ts
Me:Ever
yone'
ssoyoucangi
vehi
m howyouwanti
t
t
obedesigned

Cynt
hia:Whatyourcol
orscheme

Me:Yel
lowandbl
ue

Ij
ustl
ovet
hosecol
ors.

Cynt
hia:Okayshouti
fyouneedanyt
hing

Whyi
sshebei
ngni
ce.

Mzwakhe
Aft
erthehospit
alvi
sitshechasedusout.Mxol
isi
wantedtotal
kthisguyalwayswants,whycan'
the
beatmeupaf ewpunchesher eandthereandwe
moveon.
Mxol
isi
:Iam di
sappoi
ntedinbothofyou,can'
twe
j
ustgett
oanami cabl
epointyoudri
vingusmad
cr
azy

Me:Yout
ellhert
hat

Mxoli
si:Youknowshewon't
,doesi
tmatterwho
bet
weenyout wowhoextendtheol
ivebr
anch

Me:Whyyousoper
sist
entaboutt
hisyoudon'
teven
l
ikeme

Mxoli
si:Idon'
tli
keyou,youri
ght.Butyouguysare
goodtogether,
apartyoudest
royeachothernot
hing
i
sgoingokaybecauseyout woar eapart
.Whycan't
youseet hatMzwakhe

Me:Canweeat
..
.let
seat
Het
hrowst
henapki
ninmyf
ace.

Mxol
isi
:Igi
veup

Me:Youwi
sht
heyal
lsayt
hatbutt
heycan'
tli
ve
wi
thoutme

Mxol
isi
:Mysi
steri
sli
vingj
ustf
inewi
thoutyou

Me:Real
lybecauseit
hinkshei
sdyi
ngi
nsi
de

Wel
augh.
[
06/
06,
15:
26] :184

Mzwakhe
Phi
ndi
lecoul
dnotwai
ttocomebackhome.When
shearri
vedshedidasmallcleansi
ngceremony.I
thi
nkispeakforever
yone,whenisaytheaurain
thehousehaschanged.Thishouseisalotcal
mer
now.

Phi
ndi
le:Whyyoubei
ngni
cet
ome

Cynthia:If
igurediam goi
ngt
oseeyoual
otsowhy
notstartbehavingar
oundyou

Phi
ndi
le:Ri
ghtt
eawoul
dbeni
ce

Cynt
hia:Comi
ngr
ightup

Phi
ndi
le:Tel
lyourgi
rl
fr
iendt
ost
ayawayf
rom me

Me:Awshei
sshowi
ngyousomecour
tesy
Phindi
le:Iwi
lll
eaveandnoneofyouwi
llbeabl
eto
fi
ndme

Me:P

Thabi
so:Mzwakhe

Me:Okayhowar
eyouf
eel
ing

Shelooksatmeididn'
tanyt
hing.Shecomesback
wit
hat rayt
eapotandbi
scui
ts,ist
ealone,

Cynt
hia:Mzwakhe

Shegi
ggl
es.

Nonhl
e:Okayl
etst
alkweddi
ngs
Phi
ndi
le:Whatyoubuyputi
tint
her
oom iuse

Nonhl
e:Luckyf
oryouwet
enst
epsahead

Myphoner
ingsichuckl
e.

Me:Hel
lo

Iexcusemysel
f.

Phi
ndi
le
Adarkcloudishangi
ngoverCynthiaiam notsur
e
whatitmeans.Coul
dbeshe'sint
erestedi
nusing
muthiagai
n,oracreatur
ecansenseheremot i
ons.I
needtogettothebott
om oft
hisfast.

Me:Yout
oldyourf
ami
ly
Nonhl
e:Mom yesandshei
sal
soj
ustwai
ti
ngf
ora
dat
e

Me:I
sther
eal
istofwhowest
art
ingwi
thwhot
hey
dr
essi
ng

Nonhl
e:YouandOl
wet
huwi
llhandl
ether
opesr
ight

Me:Cynt
hiai
sher
e

Cynt
hia:Doihearmyname

Weeyeeachot
herandl
aughont
hei
nsi
de.

Me:Sinceyoudat
ingt
hebi
gbr ot
heryou
responsi
blef
ormaki
ngsur
e.Everyt
hingi
sbought
andhowyougoingtogoaboutgif
ti
ngthem
Nonhl
echuckl
es.

Me:Doyouhaveani
deaorunder
standi
ngofwhat
umembesoi
s

Cynthi
a:Doyouwantmetorui
never
ythi
ngand
haveeveryonehat
emeevenmore

Nonhl
e:Gi
rl

Mzwakhe:Iagreemi
ssweaveandnai
lsher
esor
ry
babenooffense

Cynt
hia:Nonet
aken

Theyf
li
rti
nfr
ontofme.
Nonhl
e:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Ohsor
ryiam sor
ry

Nonhlehi
tshim wit
hacushi on.Nqobiappear
s
Nonhleandthem wil
ljustt
extme, i
ftheyneed
anyt
hing.

Mzwakhe
Thatswhathappenswhenyouwi thyourper son,
automat i
call
yyouwi l
lbet ouchyfeely.Iam very
aff
ectionate,iwanttoholdyoukissyoui nfrontof
everyonethatismynat ure.Doingitinf r
ontof
Phindil
emayhavebeenat i
nyti
nyi nvinci
ble
mistake,butthefactthatshegotmadspoke
volumes.

Linda:Akasaj
abul
ikeomunyeumbengest
i(Ar
en'
t
youhappy)
Me:Wouldn'
tyoubehappyyourgi
rlgotmadseei
ng
youent
ertai
ningsomeoneel
se

Li
nda:Ngobauyadakwaekhanda(
It
sbecauseyou
cr
azyinthehead)

Sakhi
le:Whenyouendi
ngt
hings

Me:Maybeishoul
d

Sakhi
le:Youpushi
tandyougoi
ngtoloseher
for
ever.Mzwakheendt
hiscl
ear
lyyoulost

Me:No

Sakhi
le:Ihat
eyou
Me:Pi
stheonewhoi
sgoi
ngt
obeggi
ngf
orme

It
hinkmyplani
sworki
ngj
ustf
inei
nnot
ime
Phi
ndil
ewi
llbebacki
nmyarms.

Cynt
hia
Ipopmyknucklesandl
ookatt
hemirr
or.Ishoul
d
haveknowal
lthiswast
oogoodtobetrue.

"
Boo"

Hervoi
cesendsacol
dshi
verdownmyspi
n.

Her
:Didyoureal
lyt
hinkMzwakheawhol
e
Mzwakheisi
ntoyouayay

Il
ookbehindmet here'
snoone,
itur
ntot
hemi
rr
or
shei
sstandingbehindme.
Her:Mzwakhedoesn' tl
oveyoutohim youj usta
pawnabai ttoreeli
nthequeen.Mzwakhel oves
thatgir
l,sheisthefir
stheeverlovedwi t
htrue
genuinef eel
ings.Iwascomingtokillherbutshe'
s
protect
ed

Me:Whoar
eyouandwhatdoyouwantf
rom me

Her
:Iam Pear
landibel
ievewecanhel
peachot
her

Me:Hel
peachot
herhow

Pearl
:Letmegi veyouashortversi
onofwhati
s
goingon.Yesthecreat
uresarereal
,yest
heboys
arecursed.Mzwakheisusingyoutomakethe
queenfightf
orhim,butwecanendt hati
fyou
choosetowor kwit
hme
Il
ookather
.

Pearl:Usethisi
twon'
tst
opfrom him goi
ngaf
terher
,
butitwillmakeyoumoreat
tr
activetohim.Al
soyou
needt ogetmarri
edtohi
mfast,iwil
lcomeback
aft
ert heceremony

Shedisappear
silookatt
heli
tt
lebot
tl
enextt
ome.
I
fican'thaveMzwakhethannoonewil
l.

Phi
ndi
le
Thecloudsturngreyt
hunderstr
ucks,mybody
cri
nges.Irel
ievet
hesnakefrom Thapel
o,hegoes
downgr oani
ngandvomitsitout
.

Thapel
o:Didyour
eal
lyhavet
oshoveasnakedown
mythroat

Me:Wegotbi
ggert
hingst
owor
ryabout
Langa:Whatdowedo

Me:There'
snothingyoucandounfort
unat
elyhe
i
nvit
edawi t
chintohishouse.Theonl
yper
sonyou
needtoprot
ectisme

Maybeishouldhavef
oughtf
orhi
m nowever
yone
i
sindanger.

KG:What
sthewor
stcasescenar
io

Me:Them ki
ll
ingmeourbestwayoutoft
hisi
sto
notaggr
avat
eeachother

Thapel
o:Not
hebestwayoutoft
hisi
smakehi
m
fal
linl
ovewi
thyou
Nqobi
:Youokay

Thapelo:Iam nowt hankyouPhi ndilegobackt o

themansi onandf ightforhi
m.Shewel comeda
demonyourdoom, fineimayhavewentt herebut
withgoodi ntent
ions.Youneedt of ocusandt ake
everyt
hingt heythrowatyou, oncet heri
tuali
sdone
thanmaybeyoucandeci detogoyoursepar ate
ways

Me:I
sthatevenpossi
ble

Thapel
o:No

Wel
augh.

Thapel
o:I
tsyourdeci
sionanyways
Isi
gh.

Me:Dammi
tMzwakhebhengu
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Mzwakhe
Iam overthemoonPhindil
ecamebackseeitold
youmypl anwouldwork,al
thoughweareatodds
shecamebackwi thhermil
lionboyf
ri
ends,
but
that
'sokayshei
sback.Myl oveisback.

Cynt
hia:Mzwakhe

Me:Mommy

Cynt
hia:Canil
eavet
oday

Il
ookupsomet
hingdi
ff
erentabouther
.No
Mzwakhe,
Phi
ndi
lei
sback.

Me:Wantmet
ogowi
thyou

Cynt
hia:Pl
ease

Phi
ndil
e:Per
fectyouher
e,ineedt
hesenowt
hank
youbye

Me:Rai
ncheck

Cynt
hia:I
tsokay

Me:Iwi
llaskoneoft
hedr
iver
stot
akeyou

Cynt
hia:Notapr
obl
em baby
Phi
ndi
le
Nonhleisgoingtobemadbutrathert
hatthan
ever
yonebeingpossessedordyi
ng.Ayandaandi
weregoingthroughsomeofthethi
ngstheybought
.
ImustsayOl wethuandrat
ohavebeendoinga
goodjob.

Ayanda:I
zonazonkel
ezi
ntomommynomakhona
okunye

Me:Hai
boyousti
llhavetobuymor
ewhatar
eyou
goi
ngtogi
veyourmot heri
nlaw

Ayanda:I
sn'
tthi
sal
l

Me:Hai
boAyanda

Ayanda:I
ngakhoul
a
Me:Secur
it
yweneedt otr
aveldownwealsoneed
t
otalktot
hem agai
n.Haveyoutalkedt
oyourt
win

Hesmi
les.

Me:Invol
vehi
mi nsomeofthethi
ngsyouar
edoing
becausehedef
ini
tel
yfeel
slef
tout
.Heisver
yhappy
foryou

Ayanda:Iwi
llt
alkt
ohi
m

Me:Thankyou

Nonhl
e
Itakealookatt
hepregnancytestonemoreti
me.
OhmyGoddi dhehavetoknockmesosoon.What
aboutourweddingheisgoi
ngt obesohappy.I
havetogotothedoctor
sandf i
ndouthowf aral
ong
iam,thedoorhandl
eturnsiqui
cklyruntothe
bathr
oom andwrapthepregnancytestwit
hti
ssue.

Ayanda:Yewenadot
iwenzanl
apho

Ilaughihopesomebodyer
asethi
sfootageiwant
tosurpr
isehi
m.Ifi
xmyselfandexhal
eout.

Ayanda:Youf
ucki
ngyour
sel
f

Me:Maybe

Ayanda:Si
ncewhendowel
ockt
hedoor
s

Me:Iam sor
ryAyanda

Thedooropens.
Luyanda:Youcal
ledmesi
sNonhl
e

Iexcusemysel
fwher
ecanihi
dthi
s,iknow
Olwethu'
sgar
den.

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhecomesbackwi thmythi
ngsthe
yel
lowboneispregnant.Whowoul
dhavethought
thi
ngscouldgetthi
sbet t
erf
orher
.Iwishheral
lthe
bestandcongratul
ati
onstobot
hofthem.

Mzwakhe:Ihopeigotever
ythi
ng

Me:Thanksbutiwi
lluset
hem f
orl
ater

Mzwakhe:Yousentmeoutoft
hehousesoicanbe
awayfr
om Cynt
hia
Me:Noiwasgoingt
ouset
hisbutsomet
hings
cameupandican'
t

Hechuckles,
itaket
hem andmypr i
vater
oom.I
needtotal
ktotheseancestor
s,t
heycannotal
low
theset
wot orul
eusli
kethis.

Ili
tacandl
eandpl
aceasmal
lbasi
nofwat
ernext
toit
.

Me:PhakamaniboBhengui minainkosazaneyenu.
Anikwaziukuphoqaizi
ntosengi
khonangi buyil
e
kantiyi
ni,
ngiboni
senii
ndlel
abantuabadal a(Itsme
myancest or
syourqueen.Youcan'tforcethingsi
am backnowwhati swr ongnow,pleaseshowme
theway)

Thecandl
eblowsoutandthewat
erl
eaks
under
neat
hthesmallbasi
n.
Mzwakhe
Igott
otal
ktomyboysidon'
twanttodothi
s.I
rat
herwenotgobackint
hegame,butt
heywantt
o
soihavet
orespectt
hem.

Me:Okayasi
ri
ngemadodani
khal
angan

Ndu:Asi
namal
i

Sakhi
le:Asi
yishayebef
oreumshado

Me:Ayni funaukungi xabani

snoNonhlecha.Mi na
ngokwamiangi sathandibafethuangi
sayizwalento,
kodwasi ngaxoxabengi thminaakudl
ulelemcimbi
ezayoebesesi yabuya( Noyouwantmet ofi
ghtwith
Nonhle,idon'tt hi
nksoqui tfr
ankl
yidon'twantto
doitanymor e.Butwecant al
kmysuggest i
onislets
waitf
oral lceremoni estobeoverandt hangetback)
Sakhi
le:Doest
hati
ncl
udeyourweddi
ng

Ndu:Weddi
ngyoubackwi
thP

Thobani
:Cynt
hiaNdumi
soCynt
hia

Hel
aughs.

Me:Momentoverkhonaonenki
nga(
Doesanyone
appose)

Them:Skhul
u

Me:Kul
ungi
le

Theysmi
leil
ookover
.
Me:Whyyounotdr
essedPhi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Kuyashi
sa

Igetup,
sher
unsaway.

Me:Idar
eyouhoest
otr
yme

Phi
ndi
le
Iguessiam onmyownwi t
hthisoneihavetowork
hardtomakesureever
yoneissafe.Ient
erNonhl
e'
s
room,ist
hebabyshowingherfl
amesal r
eady.

Me:Wakeup

Nonhl
e:Iam goi
ngt
oki
llyou
Me:Li
tt
leAyandashowi
ngyouf
lamesal
ready

Nonhl
e:Soir
eal
lyam pr
egnant

Me:Congr
atul
ati
ons

Nonhl
e:Wowman

Me:Sodoyouhavet
hef
ami
lybi
rt
hmar
k

Shel
if
tshert
opupiscr
eam.

Me:Ohmybaby

Nonhl
e:Canyouaccompanymet
othehospi
tal
Me:Doesheknow

Nonhl
e:No

Me:Yourgoi
ngt
obeagr
eatmom andagr
eatwi
fe

Iwishimysel
fcanexper
ienceandenj
oyt
his
beauti
fulmoment
.
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Phi
ndi
le
Theonl yprotect
ionMzwakhehasi smeandican' t
doanyt hi
ngabouti t.Iwil
lshowhi m howmuchi
needhi m,hewi l
lt akeitasifhisstupidpl
ani s
working.Iknowwhyhecan' tcommi tandwhyhei s
l
ikethis,butiwilllethim explaini
thimself.Cynt
hia
mayt hinkpearlishel pinghertogetr i
dofme, buti
n
actualfactPearlispr epari
ngf orherdeath.
Mzwakhei sl
iket hisbecauseofPear l
.
Pearlisademoniam notsur ewhet
hershewas
createdorborn.Inshorti
fsheissuccessf
uli
n
kil
li
ngher,thanshebecomesmor epowerf
ult
han
me.Webot hneedMzwakhehehast hepowerof
theleopar
d, i
ftheypossesshim gai
ningmypowers
wouldbel i
ketakingcandyfrom ababyandevi
l
takesover.

Icannotall
owthem t
ogetmar
ri
ed,
pearli
slurki
ng
around.I
fiusemypowersonMzwakhe,iwouldbe
diggi
ngmyowngr ave.

Helooksatmeitsver
yhother
eidon'
tunder
stand
myself
.Iam st
il
lwear
ingabaggyt
op,iam
accompanyi
ngNonhletot
hehospi
tal
.

Ayanda:Uyaphinomfaziwamingobaungaqoki
le
nj
e,yi
nileoyidl
ayo(Whereyougoingwi
thmywi fe
notdressed.Whatar
eyoueating)
Hehasanast ylookonhisf
ace.Sheal
soshowsup
wit
habaggyt op,hepul
lsouthi
sgunandpoint
sit
ather.Shei
snotbother
edsheelegant
lyput
sonher
eari
ngs.

Sakhi
le:Ni
yaphi(
wher
eyougoi
ng)

Nonhl
e:Soqwayi
zasusalesbhamuphambikwami
(
Wegoingtogowhorearound,removet
hatgun
f
rom myface)

Ayanda:Nonhl
euyaph(
Wher
eyougoi
ng)

Nonhl
e:Doyouwantt
oeator

Me:Let
sgo
Fi
nal
lysomeal
onet
imewi
thher
.

Sakhi
le
Ther ewasasuddenchangei nMzwakhe.Phi ndil
e
doessomet hi
ngt ohim andhegoesandmess
everyt hi
ng.Iwillonlybeli
evet hi
swhenheends
thingswi thCynthia,thatgir
lisnotri
ghtinthehead.
Itsallshedoesi sf i
ndonet housandwayst of eed
Mzwakhe, wit
chcr aftkantii
sn'tshesupposedt obe
buildingsomet hingnotdest royi
ngit
.

Myphoner
ingswhyi
sNot
hando'
smom cal
li
ngme.

Me:Hel
lo

Ma:Sawubonandodanangamt
hol
auSakhi
le(
Himy
soncanpl
easegetSakhi
le)

Me:Yi
mimai
ngabekonkekuhambekahl
e(Yesi
ts
mema,
isever
ythi
ngokay)

Ma:Wathimengabesingamt
holioci
ngweni
asot
hint
alenumber(Shesai
difwecan'tr
eachher
,
weshouldcal
lthi
snumber)

Myhear
tmel
ts.

Me:Oh

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Yebomawaf ikaeskol
enisakhekhonaindawo
eyashamanjebafundel
aemakhaya( Shecamepart
ofherschoolwasburneddown,sotheystudyi
ngat
home)

Ma:Unj
ankodwayena
Me:Ukahl
emauyaf undanjeezokuxhumanaucel e
si
munqamulelezona,kodwauyaphi l
asingaya
kuyenasi
mtshel
eakithi
nte(She'
sokaymast udyi
ng,
shehasaskedustocutcommuni cation.Butshe'
s
okaywecangot oherandinform hertomakeacal l
)

Ma:Singabongakakhul
undodana(
Wewoul
d
appr
eciatet
hatalot)

Me:Yeboma

Shehungsup.

Mzwakhe:Youbl
ushi
ng

Me:ThatwasNot
hando'
smom
Mzwakhe:She'
smaki
ngyoubl
ush

Me:Obviouslybutyouwoul
dn'
tknowanyt
hing
aboutt
hatright

Mzwakhe:OkaySakhi
leNdl
ovu

Me:Nj
e

Wel
augh.

Me:Dothespeaker
swor
kther
eort
heywer
eal
so
di
sabl
ed

Mzwakhe:Wedi
sabledeveryt
hingsoyouwoul
d
havet
ogobacktothepenthouse

Me:Wantt
ocome
Mzwakhe:No

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'
tli
kethi
sSihl
egir
lbutshe'
sanObgynand
goodatwhatshedoes.Ever
ygirlMzwakhehas
smashedfeelent
it
ledt
ohim,idon'tknowwhy.

Nonhl
e:Whati
syoursur
nameSi
hle

Si
hle:Magwaza

Nonhl
e:Ohokay

Si
hle:i
fyouwi
llj
umpont
hebedandl
if
tyourt
opup

Shecovershert
highsshesmear
sthecol
dgelon
herbel
ly,
itakeavideowi
thmyphone.
Si
hle:Okayt
hingsar
elooki
nggood

Nonhl
e:Whati
sthatSi
hleandwhyi
sther
etwo

Si
hle:Thosear
eyourbabi
es

Wel
ookateach.

Me:Ahyoucar
ryi
ngt
wins

Sheget
semot
ionalcover
inghermout
h.

Me:Howf
aral
ongi
sshe

Sihl
e:Twomont
hspr
egnantwhatwer
eyourhome
test
sresul
ts
Nonhle:Twol
inessoihavebeenpr
egnantt
his
wholetime

Me:Howdi
dyouknowyoushoul
dtest

Nonhl
e:Ayandakeptcompl
aini
ngismellr
eal
lybad,
hesl
eepsduri
ngthedaywhichheneverdoes

It
hinkt
hisbabywashi
ddenbyt
heancest
ors.

Sakhi
le
Nevercomebackt oadanci ngMzwakhet hehouse
i
sonbl astandheisj ustkil
li
ngi
t.Everybodybet
ter
getther
eshittoget
her ,st
arti
ngwit
ht hosetwowho
l
eftshowingtheirt
highs.

Ayanda:Theynotpi
cki
ngup
Ipul
loutmyphoneandcal
lPhi
ndi
le.

Me:I
tsr
ingi
ng

Phi
ndi
le:Hel
lo

Me:Buyaniendli
nimanjeengazei
ndodayakho
i
sanganel
wei khanda(Comebackhomenowbef or
e
yourmangoescr azy)

Shel
aughsandhangsup.

Ayanda:Howi
sshe

Me:If
oundhersl
eepi
ngbooksever
ywher
e
Ayanda:Wowonl
yaf
ewgett
otr
apyou

Me:Excuseme

Ayanda:Iam j
ustsayi
ng

ThecrazytwoLi
ndaniandThobanij
oinhim,Li
ndani
kickshi
slegi
nairscr
eaming,t
heydosil
lymoves.
Hekeepsondancingwelookateachotherandjoi
n
them,hesurl
ysl
apallofus.

Phi
ndi
le
Wear ri
vehomeandt hehousei sonfire,
ican
al
readyfeelheisannoyed.Weent erandthey
dancing,Ol
wethulaughingherassoff.Wepl acet
he
packetsontheisl
and,yeahthisisacrazybunch
butthisl
oudnessiscausinganexcruciati
ngpainto
myhead.Iheadt otheloungeandswi tchitoff
.
Theyl
augh.

Linda:Awmommykant
iunj
an(
Whyar
eyoul
ike
this)

Theyl
augh

Me:Sengi
buyi
le(
Iam back)

Cynt
hiawal
kspassmeif
aint
.
[
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Sakhi
le
Itsbadifican'tcommunicat
ewit
ht heunderground
gang.Thevoi ceinmyheadthatone,nevermisses
theoppor t
uni
t ytoshouti
nmyear.Ourjobnowi s
protectbothPhindil
eandMzwakhef r
om whatever.
Thapel
o:Youcanaskmewhat
everyouwantt
oask

Me:Whosaysiwantt
oaskyouanyt
hing

Thapel
o:Whyyoul
ooki
ngatmet
han

Me:Wher
eyouf
rom

Thapel
o:Awor
ldt
hatdoesn'
texi
st

Me:Youraghost

Thapel
o:Iam notaghostwef
rom anot
herwor
ld

Me:Areyougoi
ngt
odi
sappearwhenal
loft
hisi
s
over
Thapel
o:I
fwewantt
ocomeback

Me:Youki
ndofcool

Thapel
o:Thankyou

Nonhl
ecomesandst
andsbef
orehi
mfol
dingher
ar
ms.

Thapel
o:Iwon'
tsayanyt
hing

Nonhl
e:Foryourowngoodyoubet
ternot

Myphonegoesbonker
s.Theywhi
stl
eokaybaby
st
eps.

Cynt
hia
Iwokeuptoanempt ybedsidewhyisMzwakhe
doi
ngthistome.Heshoutsatthet
opofhislungs,
shedoesn'
tmatt
erhelovesmewher ei
sthelove
her
e.Igetupandstandinfr
ontoft
hemi r
ror
.

Me:Espej
oespej
oenl
apar
edt
einvocoPer
la
Espej
oespej
oenl
apar
edt
einvocoPer
la
Eepej
oespej
oenl
apar
edt
einvocoPer
la

Themi
rr
orswi
shesandswi
rl
ssheappear
ssmi
li
ng.

Pear
l:Convocandomeya

Me:Iwantt
odoi
tnow

Pear
l:What

Me:Let
ski
llhernow
Pear
l:Yousur
e

Me:Iam notspendi
nganot
herni
ghtal
one

Pear
l:Hei
snotwi
thher

Me:What

Pear
l:Thi
siswher
ehei
s

Me:Si
hle

Pear
l:Ican'
tdoanythi
ngift
hequeendoesn'
tdo
anyt
hing.Sheneedstoactf
ir
st

Me:Whatdoidoi
nthemeant
ime
Pear
l:Ther
e'sat
reeaveryanci
entdar
ktr
ee,
you
canfet
chmesomeofi t
sleafs

Me:Okayicandot
hat

Pearl:Itsnoteasyt hough.Iwilll
eadyout owhere
thist
r eeis, youhavetobever ycaref
ulitbleeds
blood.I tdrawsyoui nbycryingli
keagoatoncei t
grabshol dofyou,itdoesn'
tletgo.Youwoul dhave
tocar ryaf ewanimal sandyouonl yhaveseconds
tograbwhatyouneedandr unbef or
eitcatchesyou

Ibr
eat
heout
.

Pearl
:Butyouhavetodothi
saf t
ertheceremonyor
thequeenwon'
thesit
atet
okillyou.Nobodywould
knowyoueverexist
ed
Shedi
sappear
s.

Phi
ndi
le
Ideci
dedt
ocal
lhi
m heanswer
s.

Mzwakhe:Wowthequeeni
scal
li
ngayi
tsgoi
ngt
o
t
hundertoday

Me:Cel
aubuye

Mzwakhe:Iam onmywayvel
e

Me:Okayiwi
llseeyout
han

Thapel
oent
ersandj
umpsont
hebed.

Me:Ohman
Thapel
o:Youal
sohavepr
otecther

Me:Howdoessheevenknowt
hesest
uffshei
s
put
ti
ngever
yonei
nharmsway

Thapel
o:Youhavedonegr
eatsofarnowyout hat
st
rongqueengogocoul
dn'
tkeepquietabout

Me:Thankyou

Ourhandst
ouchacer
tai
nki
ndofheatr
ushesal
l
overmybody.

Mzwakhe
Iam backhomeandiboughtt
hem somegoodi
es.

Cynt
hia:Youback
Me:Yeah

Cynt
hia:I
sthatf
orme

Me:Nopaskedmet
obuyi
tforher

Il
ie.

Me:Butiboughtsomet
hingf
orever
yonei
nher
e

Shesaysnothi
ngandstar
eunpacki
ng,Ol
wet
huand
Ayandaent
erthatonei
sonami ssi
on.

Ol
wet
hu:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Ayi
yenzekangempel
alent
o(Thi
sisr
eal
ly
happeni
ng)

Ol
wet
hu:I
yenzekaSkhul
u(Ohi
tshappeni
ng)

Iheadt
oPhi
ndi
le.

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhe:Foryou

Me:Thankyou

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hel
lo

Mxoli
si:I
ninil
ent
okaNonhl
eihavet
ogobackt
o
work
Me:NextweekMxol
isi

Mxol
isi
:Okayiam l
eavi
ngnowil
oveyou

Me:Il
oveyout
oo

Mzwakhel
ooksatme.

"
Wehaveadat
e"

Mzwakhe:Aveujabul
amaseutshel
aenyeindoda
ukut
huyayit
handa(Yougetsohappyt
ell
inganot
her
manyoulovethem)

Me:Hei
smybr
otherofcour
seil
ovehi
m hawu
Mzwakhe:Ar
eyoupr
egnantandhi
dingi
t

Me:Whatno

Mzwakhe:Whatwer
eyoudoi
ngatt
hehospi
tal

Me:Iwant
edtogodoanot
heri
nci
sionbutt
hey
di
dn'
thaveany

Mzwakhe:Youl
yingt
omenow

Me:Nonhl
eispr
egnant

Hel
ooksatme.
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Phi
ndi
le
Iwil
lbej
oini
ngNonhl el
ateri
nt heaft
ernoon.Iam
sohappyforheratleastoneofusi shappy,
ever
yonewasgat heredaroundt het
able.Ineeded
towalkt
hem thr
oughhowt hingsaredone.

Mzwakhe:Youokay

Me:Iam f
ine

Henods.

Me:Cynthiaiam notgoi
ngt
owai
tforyouwhol
e
dayigotthingst
odo

Cynt
hia:Sor
ryidi
dn'
tknowyouwer
ewai
ti
ngf
orme

Me:Itol
dyouwhatyour
esponsi
blef
orsohowcan
younotknow
Mzwakhe:Cal
m down

Me:Don'
ttel
lmet
ocal
m down

Cynt
hia:I
tsokaycal
m down

Il
eave.

Li
nda:Awmommykodwa

Ishowhi
mthemi
ddl
efi
nger
.

Mzwakhe
Toavoidanotherout
burstwer emovedthetable
andchair
s.Cynthi
aneedst opract
icehowi t
sdone
andwenotgoi ngtobeannoyingPhindi
le.The
ancest
orshaveawakent hebir
thmarkisvisi
bleon
bothherwri
st,sowemustgeti
ttoget
herbef
orei
getannoyedandAyandaki
ll
sme.

Luyanda:Comedownbr
owenotgoi
ngt
o
di
sappointyou

Ayanda:Luyandadon'
ttouchme

"
Ashabal
alawonal
amat
hembama"

Theyent
ersi
ngi
ng.

Rat
o:"
Ashabal
alawonal
amat
hembama"

Thobani
:Ayman

Them:"
Ashabal
alawonkel
amat
hemba"
Phi
ndi
le:"
Bamt
hat
hil
eozosi
mal
i"

Them:"
Bamt
hat
hil
eozosi
mal
i"

Phi
ndi
le:"
Vel
euxol
ewenami
zwayami
"

Me:Yi
yoyi
yohl
ehl
amzul
u

Ineverseenthissi
deofher,
theycheeringthem on.
Shedoingextranowbutthatsokayletherhaveit.I
am feel
ingi
nt hemoodsoijointhem,beingtal
liam
l
imitedtosomet hi
ngshowevericanmovemybody.

Phi
ndi
le
Nt
ando:Sl
waneunj
e

Theyl
augh.
Me:Ni yawazikhonaamacul
onomanamaSl ay
queens( Doyallknowanyt
radi
ti
onalsongsorare
yal
lslayqueens)

Olwet
hu:EkhonauRat
osohlulwayi
ni(
Wit
hRat
o
herewhatcoul
dbeimpossi
ble)

Me:OkayCynthiahere'
swhatt owelcomeever yone
docomewi thyourisi
ngi
si(Engli
sh)here.There'
s
goingtobeoldpeopleandtheygoingtocr yand
thaneishuhm okayiwil
ldealwit
hthatlater,
welcomethem yadayadathanyoucal lthefi
rst
personontheli
st

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
let
hat
stoomuchadmi
nforher

Me:Shewi
llmanagei
fweweretoget
heriwoul
ddo
i
tbutwenotsohush,
gofori
tyoucanusethem as
anexampl
e
Shel
ooksatMzwakhe.

Me:Don'
tlookatMzwakhe

Thabi
so:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Don'tPhi
ndi
lemewhenshest ar
tssayi
ngwhy
doidohaveto,i
sn'
tfami
lysupposedtobetheone
doingt
his.Whyi
sshenotincl
udedwhoi sgoi
ngto
ki
llme

Mzwakhe:Teachherthandon'tshoutatherwhat
ar
eyougoingtoachieveifyouarecomingwi t
hthat
ment
ali
ty

Me:Ngi
zengi
mfundi
seuwubani
Mzwakhe:She'
smyf
iance

Me:Exact
lysoidon' thaveanypar
tint
his,
soiam
goi
ngtomyf riend.Youguyscanremai
nbehind
andfi
gureitoutyourselves

Igat
hermyt
hingsandl
eave.

Nonhl
e
Final
lymyboot hangarr
ivesmyemoti
onshave
beenalloverthepl
ace.Mom meet
sherhalf
way
withaphinif
orwelaugh.Theywer
eli
ter
all
ywai
ting
forhertocome.

Phi
ndi
le:Hai
bo

Ma:Yathiukuphumul
ainhl
izi
yoyami(
Iam nowat
ease)
Phi
ndi
le:Kodwama

Dad:Nkosi
kaziaw

Hesmi
leswhenheseesPhi
ndi
le,
mom hi
tshi
m
wi
thakit
chent
owel
.

Dad:Bat
hiabafanabezakusasa(
Yourson'
sar
e
comingt
omor r
ow)

Ma:OkaySi
biya

Dad:Nganeyamisi
ngakhul
umangasese

Ihopedaddoesn'
trui
nanythingtheceremonyis
aroundthecor
ner.Al
soitol
dt hem iam pr
egnant
andtheywerehappyAyandaissteppingup.
Me:Mom

Ma:Cal
m downhecanseehowhappyyouar
eso
hewon'
trui
nanyt
hing

Phi
ndi
le
Weent
ert
hel
oungeisi
tont
hef
loorandl
ookdown.

Dad:Angi
phathekil
ekahl
enezemnt anam umf
ana
l
owonileemagcekeniami(Iam nothappymychi
ld,
t
hisboyhastaintedmyyard)

Dammi tAyandadoesn'
tknowNonhl
eispregnant
.I
am guessi
nghewant sdamagest
obepaid.

Dad:Kodwausef
unaukushadai
ntombiyami
i
yodwavo(Nowhewant stomar
rymyoneandonl
y
daught
er)

Ichuckl
e.

Dad:Kanj
ankodwankosazane(
Howdoest
hateven
work)

Me:Ehi yonankosazaneyakhoengakasholekhabo
Bhenguukut hizit
hwele.Abanal
oul
wazingabe
sebesi
lungisi
leiskhal
osakho

Dad:Chandodakazikuyomelezihl
ehl
eizi
bizo(
The
cer
emonyhast obepost poned)

Me:AwkodwaSi
biya

Dad:Gadakeunkosi
kaziengakubambingenqi
ni
(
Wat choutnowbefor
emywi f
ehitsyou)
Me:kunganj
anibaf
ikeemvakweyinsukuezimbil
i
,
si
kwaziukul
il
ungi
salol
udaba(Howaboutt hey
comeaftert
wodaystosortoutt
hesituat
ion)

Dad:Kul
ungi
lemnt
anam sengi
yozwangawe

Ibowandgetupj ustwhenit
houghtiam get
ti
nga
breather
.Ineedt
oretur
nhome,iseeasnake
sl
itheri
ng.
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Phi
ndi
le
Nonhlewasinshambl esevenifshedi
dtel
lthem,
theywouldn'
tknowt heyhavetopaydamages
becausetheyaredumb.Jamesandit ooka
heli
copt
erout,iam goingtobedoingal
otofback
andfort
h.Iam tir
edasi ti
sandiam goi
ngto
deali
ngwiththatlot
.
Cynt
hia:Phi
ndi
le

Me:Pl
easegetawayf
rom me

Cynt
hia:Idon'
twantt
ofi
ghttheot
herdayit
hink
ever
yone'semoti
onswer
ehigh

Ayanda:Cynt
hiast
epawayf
rom her

Mzwakhe:Myl
ovesi
tdown

Ayanda:Iapol
ogi
zemommyt
hings

Me:Youdon'thavetoapologi
zeforanyt
hingyou
guysdon'
tcareaboutotherpeopl
e'
sfeel
ings
Helooksdowniunl ockmyphoneandplayhimthe
vi
deo.Iplacethetwopair
sofli
ttl
eshoesNonhl
e
wantedtosurpri
sehim wi
thbeforehi
m.

Me:Congr
atul
ati
ons

Ayanda:Wai
tyoupr
egnant

Thobani
:Noyouf
ool

Ol
wet
huul
ulat
es.Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yohejustf
rozeont
hespotandaskedmewai
t
youpr
egnant

Nonhl
e:What

Hesnat
chest
hephone.
Ayanda:Youpr
egnant

Onlyt
hanhi
sli
pscurvei
ntoasmi
le.Ihavet
otal
kto
Thabi
soandMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe
Donotgetmewr ongiwasn' tt
ryingt
ost i
ckupf or
Cynthi
a.Iwasonlytryi
ngtoextingui
shoutt herage
Phindi
lewasbui
lding,shecan'
texpectusor
Cynthi
atoknowever yt
hing.Webyour selves,
the
onl
yelderwehavei sJamesandhi swi f
e.Insteadof
gui
dingusshechoset obeangr yandiain'twiththe
bul
l.

Wehereatthebanktowithdr
awmoneyiam
guessi
ngthat
'swhyshe'
sback.Nonhl
e'
sfat
her
wantstobepaiddamages.
Thabi
so:Whoar
eyou

Me:Wher
e'sCar
son

Car
son:I
tsokayiam her
eiwasonbr
eak

Me:Youonbr
eak

Car
son:OkayBhengu'
sam i
notsupposedt
oeat

Me:Ngi
zokuhl
abangempama

Thabi
so:Okayr
elaxwewantsomecash

Car
son:Ohyahhowmuch

Ayanda:Hundr
edk
Me:Angi
zwanga

Thabi
so:Hundr
edt
housandar
eser
ious

Ayanda:I
sther
eapr
obl
em

Me:Hundr
edsgodo(
thousand)i
tis

Car
son:Whati
syoudoi
ngwi
thsomuchmoney

Me:Youar
elooki
ngatf
athert
obehusbandt
obe

Car
son:Forrealnophel
ayouhoesar
eknownf
or
bei
ngkingsofthewhori
nggang

Wel
augh.
Carson:Ithoughti
tsapr
ankohwel
l
congratul
ati
ons

Ayanda:Thankyou

Myphoner
ingsigi
vei
ttoAyanda.

Ayanda:Mommynookayal
ri
ghtshar
p

Me:Whatdoesshewant

Ayanda:Wemustbuyanani
mal

Me:Car
soncomenowwever
ybusypeopl
e

Phi
ndi
le
Theypract
ici
ngagainhelpinghermajest
yonhow
togoaboutwitht
hegift
ing.Iam onlywaiti
ngf
or
Ayandatoret
urn,
wet al
kt otheancestor
sandi
headbacktoNonhle.

Olwethu:Okaysoyouwi l
lstar
tbygreet
ingthem
thanaskf orpr
ayer
,aft
erthatt
hatyoucallf
orthe
fi
rstpersonontheli
stexample.Cel
ausisCynthi
a
ezengaphambi l
i

Iwalkawayf r
om t
hem andheadout
side.Myj
obis
tojustmakesurenoevi
lisl
urki
ngar
oundother
thi
ngs,theycanmissmewithit
.

Me:Hey

Nonhl
e:Howi
sever
ythi
ng

Me:I
tsbei
ngsor
teddon'
twor
ry
Nonhl
e:Idon'
tunder
standwhyyoucan'
tdoi
t

Me:Ican'
tbel
ievehowevi
lthi
sgi
rli
s

Nonhle:Andyouwanthert
obeapar
toft
hiscome
onfr
iend

Me:Thi
siam sureofmyfr
iendshewi
llhavea
pr
oblem whywasn'
tshei
ncluded

Nonhle:Thanagai
nyour
ightt
hatsomet
hingshe
wouldsay

Me:Letsavoi
ditandmakesur
eever
ythi
nggoes
smoothl
y

Nonhl
e:Thankyoubabeswhenyour
etur
ning
Me:Todayi
tsgoi
ngt
obeal
ongdr
ivebecauset
hey
wantt
ospit
eme

Shel
aughs.

Nonhl
e:Youal
sodoi
ngt
hesamet
hing

Ihungup.

Mzwakhe
IhavepromisedAyandaheisgoingtohaveagood
ceremonyandiintendt
okeepmywor ldunless
somewantmet otakei
tther
e.AtleastOlwethuwas
tr
yingandhelpi
ng,wearri
vehomet heystil
lat.She
wasnowget ti
ngthehangofitandicouldn'tbe
mor epr
oud.
Mi
ssmoodyi
sst
il
lmoody.

Me:Ifyoudon'
twantt
obeher
eyoucangoand
saveusallt
hetr
oubl
e

Phindi
le:Welliam nother
eandyoucanl
eaveme
thefuckalone

Me:Yewena

Igrabherar
m andshesmacksmet heent
ir
ehouse
goesmute.Idon'
tknowwhathappenedwefight
.

Thapel
o
Thisiswhathappenswhenyouusewi t
chcr aft
,
thesetwoarenotsupposedtobr
eak.Phindileison
therecei
vingendandnobodyseemstocar e.It
takesfor
eversepar
ati
ngthem.
Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
ng

Mzwakhe:Ngi
dedel
eungi
jwayel
akabiwenasf
ebe

Cynt
hiai
sr ej
oici
ngovert
hisit
hinkihadenough
now.Iam goi
ngt ot
eachthem alesson,
youdonot
messwithasnakeliket
hat.

Shewi
peshert
ear
s.

Me:Langat
akeherawayiwi
llf
ini
shupher
e

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhewenzan

Mzwakhe:Uyangijwayelal
ongi zomphihl
iza
engi
jwayelaamasimbanxingiyekewena( Iwi
llki
ll
herdi
srespect
fulpieceofshi
t,youletgoofme)
Theyl
etgoofhi
m heheadsupst
air
s.

Me:Youar egoi
ngt oregrett
hisiam goingtomake
sureofit
.Youtellt
hatstupidpearliam comingf
or
you,yougoingtowishyouneverst art
edthis

Sakhi
le:Thapswhatt
hehel
lman

Hei
slostl
ikeever
yonebutmost
lydi
sappoi
nted.

Me:Ayandamandon' tcrycome, Sakhil

egotot he
riverfet
chwaterforeveryonetodrinkexcept
Mzwakheandher .Thabisogoaroundt hehouse
talkthem askthem f
ormer cy.Ol
wet huyouguysget
startedonthenamet ags,whoget swhattomake
thingseasier
.Wozandodaamadodaawakhal iqina
Ngcol osi(
Comemendon' tcrybestrong)
Phi
ndi
le
Ididn'tt
hinki twouldgettoapointwher
ewenow
physicalwi t
heachot her,i
tbr
eaksmyhear twe
fought.Hei sal otoft
hingsbutl
ayinghishandson
awomant otall
ywayoutofcharacterf
orhim.Ican
confidentl
ysayil ostthi
sbatt
le.

WeappearatNonhle'
sandibr
eakdown.Isuf
fer
ed
wi
ththeseancest
orsandnowiam suf
feri
ngeven
more,howmuchmor ecanit
ake.

Langa:Shoul
dwecal
lNonhl
e

Me:Noidon'
twantt
otr
oubl
e

KG:Iwil
lseei
fican'
tsneaki
nandseei
fican'
tfi
nd
abott
leortwo

Langa:I
tsokay
Me:I
tsnotican'
tpr
otecthi
m andhehat
esme

Langa:Hedoesn'that
eyouhei sjustnothi
mself
,
wewi l
lgett
hroughthis.Ipr
omiseyoudon'tgi
veup
nowyoucan'tgiveupnow.Nobodysai ditwas
goingtobeeasyinfactnobodysaidanythi
ng

Ichuckl
e.

Langa:Yesintheendgoodal waystr
iumphs,weare
goingtowinthi
s.Whet herpearliswatchi
ngor
wantsyoutoactf ast
,donotgi veup.Lethimt
ake
hi
mselfoutofthissit
uation,nowstandup

Ido.

Langa:Shoul
der
sbackbr
eat
hout
KG:Iguessiwi
llhavet
hesebymysel
f

Weheadi
nsi
de.
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27] :190

Thabi
so
Ihaven'tbeenadul tli
kel at
elybecausethesear e
grownman, theycant akecar eofthemselves.But
nowt heseati sheatingineedt otakechargewhat
happenedbr okemysoul .MzwakheandPhi ndi
le
shouldn'thavef ought,idon'tknowwhatthisgi r
lis
doingbuti t
st eari
ngusapar tandwewillbef ooli
sh
enought oallowt hattohappen.

Me:Iam nothappywi
thhowwehaveconduct ed
our
selves,
idon'
tknowwhetheracreat
ureis
amongstusoryouguysarejustpl
ainr
ightcr
azy
Theywer
eal
llooki
ngdown.

Me:Youal lgr
ownmanican' tt
ellyouwhatt odo
andhowt odoi t
,buti
tsmyjobtot eachyouhowt o
doit.Mzwakhehowdi dwegettot hispointbr
o,you
actwaytooi r
rat
ional
,yout
akethingst ohear,
you
breakpeopleandyouwanttocont rolus

Il
ookatCynt
hia.

Me:Youmyl adyit
sli
keyoudon'twantust oget
along.Ever
ychanceyougetyoucausef r
ict
ion
betweenus, i
sthatwhatyoucameher etodo.You
don'tl
ist
enyoudoyourownt hing,yetwhenyouare
call
edohi t
saganguponpoorCynt hia.I
fanyof
youopenyourdamnmout hsiswear

Dadwouldbeli
vidt
her
e'snot
hingmor
ehe
cher
ishedt
hanawoman.
Me:Ifyougoi ngt obeapar tofthi
sfami l
y,know
onet hingandputi tinyourhead.Phi
ndilewillcome
here,wheneverandhowevershewant sto.Shewi l
l
whateverandhowevershewant sinthi
shouse,
whileiam st i
llhere.Youkeepfi
ghti
nghert hings
aregoi ngtogetwor sef
oryou.Youguyshave
i
rri
tatedmeenough.Idon' twanttobet heold
Thabi so,don'
tbringbacktheoldThabisohei snot
goodf oryouandmysel f.Mashengeisthere
anythingyouwantt oadd

Shekeepsquietandsi
psherwineOlwethudoesn'
t
dri
nkonlywhensheisangr
y.Iam angrytoobuti
wil
lletherbe.

Me:Youl
adi
espl
easeexcuseus

Theygetupineedt
ohaveamant
omant
alkwi
th
them.
Nonhl
e
Iam blownawayt hatisnotourMzwakheir ef
uset o
bel
ieveheputhishandsonPhi ndil
e.Hel
oves,loves
Phindi
lehemaynotadmi ti
t,showorsaybuthe
adoresher.Theymaki ngmymancr ynowoht hisis
badatleastthi
ngsar eokayhere,ihopet
heysor ti
t
outthi
sisjustcrazy.Mydooropensdon'tthese
peopleknock.

Thami
:Whoi
sthatbabel
ayi
ngout
side

Isi
gh.Theypr
obabl
ymaki
ngnoi
seandshei
ssl
eep
wal
king.

Me:Noneofyourbusi
ness

Wewal
kout
.

Ma:Awngi
sat
hingi
zokubheka(
Iwasj
ustcomi
ngt
o
getyou)

Me:I
ngqondoisi
hambil
eiam surenibanga
umsi
ndo(Herisgoneandi
tsallbecauseyouar
e
maki
ngnoise)

Mybrother
swerejustarr
ivi
ngiwantal loft
hem to
seehowgoodiam treat
ed,andiwi l
lneverever
tr
oubl
ethem agai
n.Wewal koutandt heresheis
sl
eepi
ngoutinthecold,f
arm weatherisnotthe
sameascityweat
her.Wheni t
shotitshot,whenits
coldi
tscol
d.Weneedt ogetherinsi
de.

Me:Car
ryherandt
akehert
omyr
oom

Thami:Ohkodwathi
sbeaut
if
uldarkpr
incess
owakuphiwena(
Whereareyoufr
om)

Ma:Thul
awenaumphakami
se(
Shutupandcar
ry
her
)

Ican'
tst
ressaboutanyt
hingiam pr
egnant
.

Cynt
hia
Iam beingblamedididn'
ttel
lanyonetofightwit
h
anyone.Ihavetotel
lpearlontherecentevent
sor
maybesheknows.

Me:Espej
oespej
oenl
apar
edt
einvocoper
la
Espej
oespej
oenl
apar
edt
einvocoper
la
Espejoespejoenlaparedt
einvocoperl
a(Mi
rr
or
mirr
oront hewallisummonyoupearl)

Mzwakhewal
ksi
nthemi
rr
orbr
eaksandshat
ter
sal
l
ar
ound.

Voi
ce:Whati
sthat
Het
akeshi
sphoneof
fthechar
gerandwal
ksout
.

"
Boo"

Igasp.

Me:Doyouhavet
oscar
emel
iket
hatal
lthet
ime

Pear
l:Onl
ywheniwantt
oyouknowyouar
eone
dumbstupi
dgir
l

Me:Excuseme

Pearl:I
nnowaydidisayusethebot
tl
eonhi
m you
fool
ishgir
l.I
twasmeantforyou
Me:Wel
lthanyoushoul
dhavet
oldmet
hat

Il
ostmybr
eat
hingabi
li
ty.

Pearl
:Iam notyourf
ri
endicankillj
ustli
kethat
,but
i
nsteadhereiam hel
pingyouuselessself
.Maybe
i
tsforthebestyoudon'tmesswithaBhenguand
getawaywithyouruselessanyway

Shedi
sappear
sivomitoutabl
ackwei r
dlooking,
sl
imythi
ng.I
tcrawlsi
nthemir
roral
lthebroken
pi
ecesdi
sappear.

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.
..

Mzwakhe
Thabi
sogaveusamout hf
ulihaveneverbeenthi
s
shi
tscaredofthi
sniggerl
iket
hisbefor
e,tookme
backtohighschoolwhenheruledandwas
mercil
ess.Aft
ermyf i
ghtwi
thPhindil
e,isaw
everyt
hingunfol
dingandwhatCynthi
ahasbeenup
to.

Ithoughtshewasachangedper sonandshel ett

his
shitgoiguessnot.Hasanyoneseenmedoi ng
nastythi
ngs,okaymaybethatonetime.Ihavebeen
behavingwhatwouldmakegot osuchlengths,shi
t
imessedt hi
sup.

Li
nda:I
tsyourf
aul
tyouugl
ythi
ng

Sakhi
le:Li
ndani

Li
nda:Okay

Theyl
augh.
Thobani:Youcal
li
ngpeopl
eMi
keTysonkant
i
si
hlezinoMuhammedAl i

Li
nda:Gosmasheachot
herandcal
litaday

Isi
gh.

Li
nda:Yohthi
sonetakesthecup.Fir
sti
twas
psychoSamkel
isi
we,seconddemonPear l
,thi
rd
snakeywakeyPhi
ndi
lenowi t
switchgir
lCynthi
a

Hel
aughs.Snakeywakeyichuckl
e.

Li
nda:Skhul
u

Me:Ngi
yaxol
isabaf
ethu(
Iam sor
ryguys)

Li
nda:Ungaxol
isi
kut
hinakunosi
siokadeekul
indel
e
(
Don'tapologi
zetous,
there'
sal
adywhohasbeen
wai
ti
ngf oryoutoapol
ogize)

Notyet
.

Sakhi
le:Don'
tki
llhernow

Noiam goi
ngt
oshowherwhoMzwakhei
s.

*
*
*
*
*

Theboysdon'tknowPear
lisademon,sheiskept
l
ockedupmostoft het
ime.butMzwakhe'
s
fool
ishnesssometi
mesbr
ingsheroutandshe
causesmaj
ordest
ruct
ion.
[
06/
06,
15:
27] :191

Twoweeksl
ater

Phi
ndi
le
Whatabeaut i
fulceremonythattookpl
ace.
Everyonegotovert hebull
shitanddidi
tf ort
he
l
ovelycouple,myf ri
endisonanot herl
evel.Your
majestyCynthiadidagoodj obwi t
hgif
ting,ther
e's
nohar dfeel
ingswemovi ngon.

Me:Thapel
oBhengu

Hest
opshal
fwayandt
urnsar
ound.

Me:Comeher
e
Hesmi
les.

Me:Whatdi
dyoudo

Thapel
o:Not
hing

Me:Thapel
o

Thapel
o:Comeonbot
hoft
hem deser
vei
t

Me:Pleasedon'tbr
ingmetr
oubl
eiam i
nmyzen
okay.Idon'
tneedtobedeal
ingwi
tht
hattoxi
cness

Thapel
o:Lookt
heot
herwaybabyandkeepi
t
moving

Hewal
ksawayigat
hermyt
hingsandheadt
owor
k.
Cynt
hia
It
sbeent woweeksofhel ligotsleepparal
ysis.Iam
vi
sitedbysnakest heybitmet il
ltheendoft i
meand
ican'tevenwakeupf rom thisnightmare.Mzwakhe
ont heotherhandwheneverwei ntimatehecallsme
Phindil
e,anddoesn'trememberdoi ngthat
.Pear li
keephear i
ngthatnamebuti havenoi deawhati s
goingon.

Ol
wet
hu:Youokay

Nonhle:Youbeenki
ndal
ooki
ngcrazynj
ewellyou
cangoaheadandplanyourweddi
ng.Iwon'
tget
marr
iedanytimesoon

Me:I
tMzwakhe

Nonhl
e:Ncooohf
eel
ingt
heheatal
ready
Me:Hecal
lsmePhi
ndi
leever
yti
mewei
nti
mat
e

Theyl
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Ohmyl
oveiam sor
ry

Shehugsshei stheonl
ysweetoneamongstthese
vult
ures.Whatdididot
odeservesuchi
tsnotmy
faul
tshedoesn'tknowhowtokeepaman.

Nonhle:That
'sMzwakhef
oryoubegr
atef
ulhe
coul
ddof arworse

Whatsworset
hanbeingcalledbyyourexl
overs
namewhenbeingi
ntimate.Theydon'tr
eal
lycar
e
aboutmesoidon'
texpectthem t
ohavesympathy
forme.
Phi
ndi
le
Thapel
oiscruelmanthethingsheputsyouthrough
i
senought oquest
ionyoursel
f.Twowrongsdon't
makear i
ght,
notwitht
hisfamily.Youwrongthem,
theymakewishyouwasn'tborn.

Me:Comein.
..Awwakhehowdi
dyougett
hat
ni
ckname

Mzwakhe:Babyesi
hle

Me:Ohsi
t

Il
aughhei
snotl
ooki
ngokay.

Me:Whatcanidof
oryoubeaut
if
ulman
Mzwakhe:Am igoi
ngt
odi
e

Me:I
fyoucont
inuebei
ngst
upi
dyes

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
leal
liwant
edwast
oforyout
o
andwhyareyoufi
ght
ing

Me:Youcan'
thavet
hatpower

Mzwakhe:Whynot

Me:Tr
ustmeidobutwhat
'st
hepoi
nt

Mzwakhe:Don'
tyoul
oveme

Me:Withal
lmyhear tyout
ouchmysoulwhere
nobodycoul
dever.Butwhywoul
digiveyoumy
besti
fyoucan'
tacceptmyworst
.Ihavefeel
ingsi
won'tkeeponplayi
ngt hi
supanddownwi t
hyou,
thi
smar rygoroundwithyou.Iknowmywor thand
i
fyoucan' tbemywor t
hthanwebet terofl
ikethi
s.I
l
oveyouMzwakheil oveyousomuchbutwhatyou
aski
ngofmenohadeskhul u(Sorryboss)

Ther
eisnowayyoucanhat et
hisbugger
,that
mesmerizi
ngsomet
hingabouthi
mi ssl
owly
comingback.

Mzwakhe
Ihaveneverbeent hisdi
sgustedwi t
hafemale
before.Ipr
obablydeserveitaft
erallt
heshi
tiput
thi
sf amil
ythr
ough, whatannoysmeevenmor eshe
pretendsli
keshe'sthevict
im here.

Ndu:Wai
tsayt
hatagai
n

Theyl
augh.
Me:Idon'
tknowmysel
fim bangi
ngandbangi
ng
kant
iiam scr
eami
ngPhindi
le'
sname

Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Thaps

Me:Ever
yonemeett
hecr
azyf
am,
fami
lyt
hismy
cr
ew

Sakhi
le:Youst
il
lshaggi
ngmommy

Thapel
o:Shewasaski
ngf
ori
tsoigavei
ttoher

Thabi
so:Howdowegetr
idofCynt
hiawi
thouti
don'
tknowcausi
ngdr
ama
Thapel
o:Ki
llher

Me:Wenotki
ll
inganyone

Thapel
o:Wel
lkeenj
oy

Me:Youar
etheonewhoputmet
hrought
his

Thapel
o:Iam l
ovi
ngever
ymi
nut
eofi
t

Me:What
sthewor
styoucando

Thapel
o:Youdon'
twantt
oknowt
hat

Me:Canyoudoi
t

Thapel
o:Tr
ickybef
oreshei
sbei
ngpr
otect
edbya
demononl
yPhi
ndi
lecanbr
eakt
hrought
hat

Me:How

Thapel
o:Conf
esstoeachot
heronthehardshi
ps
youbothwentthr
oughandever
ythi
ngwil
lbeokay

Me:Justl
iket
hat

Thapel
o:Shewil
lhateyouandtheancest or
smay
puni
shyouhereandtherebutyouwoul dbedoing
ever
yoneahugefavor.Buticandoitifyouwant
metoifidi
ethanforsureyouaregoingtodie

Ever
yonest
aresatme.

Phi
ndi
le
IaskedJamest
otakemet
othemansi
onandyour
maj
est
ywasnothappyaboutmypr
esence.

Ol
wet
hu:Youback

Me:If
igur
edhei
sgoi
ngt
opopofsol
etsnotpush
hi
m

Idon'
twanthi
m gett
ingangr
yandturni
ngintoa
ani
malthanonlywil
lPear
landCynt
hiawin.Iwon'
t
gi
vethem t
hatsat
isf
acti
on.
[
06/
06,
15:
27] :192

Mzwakhe
Iwakeupgaspi ngfuckmyheadi spounding.Ineed
aweekt or
ecover ,
wedr ankanddr ankanddr ank
anddrankti
lli
thurt.Idon'tevenunderst
andhowi
am up.Phi
ndileisalr
eadyupdr essedtokill
.The
dri
nkswereflowinglikeawat er
fal
l.
Me:Ihopeyounotgoi
ngt
owhor
ear
ound

Phi
ndi
le:Whati
sitt
oyoui
fiam

Me:Angi
zwanga

Phi
ndi
le:Okayokayiam goi
ngt
owor
k

Me:It
houghtsoyoubet
tercomecor
rect

Phi
ndi
le:Letgoofme

Me:Canyoubuymeaf ewcl
othesdon'
targuewi
th
mepleaseyoust
il
lhavet
hebl
ackcardri
ght

Phi
ndi
le:Youhaveami
ll
ioncl
othesupst
air
s
Me:Iwantnewones

Phi
ndi
le:GoodbyeMzwakhe

Me:ByeMommy

.
..
..

Cynt
hia
Iam alr
eadysolat
eitooksomuchtimeofffr
om
work,becauseoft
hegift
ingcer
emonyandthe
bul
lshit
.

Mzwakhe:Wher
eyougoi
ng

Me:Towor
kbaby
Mzwakhe:Ihaven'
tf*
ckedyou

Me:Youshoul
dhavewokenupear l
yandhowf *ck
melooki
ngli
kethatyoucan'
tevenopenyoureyes

Hehasneverdr
ankl
iket
hisandihaveneverseen
hi
mliket
his.

Mzwakhe:Thi
adon'
tleaveyourmanl
iket
his

Me:Ialr
eadytooksomucht
imeof
fihavet
ogo
backtowork

Mzwakhe:Thi
apl
ease

Me:Idi
dn'
tsaygodr
inknowdoyouwantmet
oget
f
ir
ed
Mzwakhe:Iwi
llt
akecar
eofyou

Me:Nothankyouidon'
twantt
oendupbei
ngl
efti
n
t
hecol
dandyoul eaveme

Mzwakhe:Iwon'
tleaveyou

Me:Bye

Iki
sshi
scheek.

Me:Ci
ao

.
..
..
..

Mzwakhe
Me:Thi
areal
lyman
Thapel
o:Shehast
obel
ievet
hati
tst
her
ealt
hing

Imayhavetakenhugeriskbutshedeser
vestobe
puni
shedandiam goingmakeherwi shshel
earns
aver
ysweetlesson.

Me:Fi
ne

Thapel
o:St
ayawayf
rom yourr
oom andactnor
mal

Me:Iknowhowt
oactnor
malsohowwi
llt
hispan
out

Thapelo:Ifshecan'
tseet hatsomethi
ngiswrong
shewillbestuckinspir
itualworl
d.Itwi
llt
akea
whilebeforeherbodydisappears,andshewil
lbe
stuckinli
mbo
Me:Whatwi
llhappeni
fshei
sst
uckt
her
e

Thapel
o:Youdon'
twantt
oknowt
hat

Me:Okayletsgetonethi
ngstrai
ght
..
.Youeveri
n
yourli
fet
hinkabouti
nsert
ingyournast
ydi
ckinmy
gir
lsvagi
na,iam goi
ngtoblowyouupyougotthat

Ir
emovet
het
apehespi
tst
hebombout
.

Me:Okayyoucan'
tescapef
rom abombnowcan
you

Heshakeshi
sheadandchuckl
es.

Phi
ndi
le
Theyhavet
obever
ycar
efulaboutt
hisial
soneed
tokeepmyemoti
onsincheck,besweetand
submissi
vef
orwhat
everthosetwoareupto.

Samkel
o:Remembert
hemagazi
net
hatappr
oached
you

Me:Di
dn'
ttheysayt
hatt
heyal
readydi
dthei
ssue

Samkel
o:Wenevergavethem ananswerandt
hey
st
il
lwantt
odofrontcoverpage

Me:Yesyesyesal
ltheway

Samkel
o:Ami
ssShoziweddi
ng

Me:Gi
vei
ttomehoney

Samkel
o:Bur
gundy
Me:Sexy

Samkel
o:Iknowr
ight

Me:OkaySamkel
oMsomidowehaveanyt
hingel
se

Samkel
o:St
ockt
aki
ng

Iscr
eam.

Me:Damngi
rlineedanassi
stantnowt
hatNonhl
e

Il
ookathi
m.

Samkel
o:What
swr
ongwi
thNonhl
e
Me:Nowt
hatshehasapar
tnershehasnot
imef
or
me

Hepl
ayswi
tht
hepenwhydi
dievenopenmybi
g
mout
h.

Mzwakhe
Somet i
mesonebar elypaysattenti
ontot heli
ttl
est,
i
mpor tantthingsandf act
s.Iremember edadr eam i
don'tknowi fitwasavi si
onoriwasmeantt oknow
i
t.Wemustal waystreatt
hequeenwi thloveand
respect.Ihavebeencaughtupi njustmakingher
reali
zethatsheneedsme.Butpr i
degotthebet ter
ofhershewasn' thavingi
t.Ihopeiam nott olateat
fi
xingthings.

Me:Thankyou

Sakhi
le:Forwhat
Me:Notgi
vinguponmeipr omiseiwi
llbehaveand
makeyouguystrustmeagain

Sakhi
le:Br
ingbackPhi
ndi
le

Me:Yot
hatonewi
llmur
derme

Sakhi
le:Good

Wel
augh.
[
06/
06,
15:
28] :193

Phi
ndi
le
Myheadhur t
sicoul
dn'
topenmyeyesandit
hinki
am cr
ying.
Mzwakhe:Mamayi
nimanj
e

Me:Idon'
tknow

Mzwakhe:Whyyoucr
ying

Me:Idon'
tknow

Mzwakhe:Okayi
sitmedoineedt
oleave

Me:No

ThedooropensLi
ndokuhl
eent
ers,
hehel
psmeup.

Me:I
tsnotwor
king

Mzwakhe:I
nimama
Me:Lentoeni
yenzayoit
snotwor ki
ngicanholdon,
i
fyoureall
ygoingtoendthingswit
hCynthi
a.Iam
notput
ti
ngyoui nacornerbut

Mzwakhe:Whyyoumassagi
ngherf
eet

Li
ndo:Angi
thuyant
ant
auyaf
eba(
Youbusywhor
ing)

Hepuncheshi
m.

Li
ndo:AwMzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndal
ent
ooyi
shoyo(
Sayt
hatagai
n)

Li
ndo:Chuckt
hatwi
tchoutandyouwi
llbeone
doi
ngthi
s
Nonhlewasresponsi
blef
orthi
sbutshei
spr
egnant
andiam keepi
ngherasfarawayfr
om measbest
asican.

Mzwakhe
Shewasawakepar adinginmyhouseshecan'tget
offscot
tfree.Thapelodidwarnmewemi ghtbe
successf
ul,wemi ghtalsocr
umbleandfai
ldismall
y.
Phindi
lecomest hroughsneezi
ngandsnorti
ng,i
l
ookatherandsmi le.

Nonhl
e:B*
tchyouback

Phindi
le:B*
tchi'
m backyousaf
ebecauseyou
pregnantot
herwiseiwoul
dreal
lybr
eakdown,but
theseareguyshowcanibeababy

Ayanda:Shoul
dyoubesneezingnexttoheridon'
t
wantwhateveryouhavei
nfectherandmybabies
Theygi
vehi
m acol
ddeat
hst
are.

Ayanda:Okay

Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le:Wowt
hisi
sthewor
st

Thapel
obur
nssomet
hingacr
osshernose.

Phindi
le:Wowdoyouhaveanyt
hingf
ort
he
headache.Mxm boybye

Li
nda:SoCynt
hianowthatNonhl
eisn'
tget
ti
ng
marr
iedwhenistheweddi
ng
Il
ovemypeopl
etheyal
waysunder
standt
he
assi
gnment
.

Phi
ndi
le
Khethoishavi
ngafashionshowshowcasinghis
l
atestl
ineandaskedmet owalkdowntherunway,
ofcourseisai
dyes.Ial
sohavethismagazine
shootcomingthi
ngsarelooki
ngup.

Khet
ho:Thankyousomuchforagr
eeingwhyi
sn'
t
Nonhl
ehere.Whoist
hishunkhmm unobuyummy
man,heyyummywhatisyourname

Il
augh.

Me:Khet
hot
hisi
shunk,
hunkt
hisi
shai
bo

Thapel
o:Iam Thapel
oni
cemeet
ingyou
Khet
ho:Ni
cemeet
ingyout
oor
rrr
r

Me:St
op

Khet
ho:Okayl
adiescomet hi
sismysi
ster
Lut
hando,Lut
hisPhindi
le

Il
ookather
.

Khet
ho:Idon'
tknowwhobet
weenyout
woi
sgoi
ng
t
oopenandend

Me:Idon'
tmindbei
ngt
heopenerandsheends,
she'
syourfami
lyso

Cynt
hia
Ihadt
ogohomeandt
ellt
hem iam get
ti
ngmar
ri
ed,
mom wassuperexcitedican'tsayt
hesameabout
mydad.Ithoughtt
heywer etryingt
othrowmeoff,
butpear
lsaidt
hiswasouronl yopport
unit
yof
gett
ingMzwakhe.Icouldn'
trememberherbutaf
ter
thi
smorningmymemor ycameback.

Dad:Howareyougett
ingmarr
iedwhenthi
sboy
hasn'
tshownhi
mselforaskf
oryourhandin
marri
age

Me:Theydothingsdif
fer
entl
ytheyhugebeli
ever
s
ofancest
ors,
sodon'tworryyouwil
lgetyourl
obol
a

Dad:Howdoyouknowhei
sser
iousaboutyou

Me:Hel
efthi
sgi
rl
fr
iendandpr
oposedt
ome

Dad:Howdoyouknowhewon'
tleaveyouor
changeonyou
Me:Babauyangi
thandalomfanabengekeangi
nike
i
ndandat
homengabeengazimisel
engami(Dadhe
l
ovesmehewoul dn'
thavepr
oposedtome, i
fhe
wasn'
tser
ious)

Dad:Mamt
hembu

Mom:Comeonhoneyst
opbei
ngahothead

Gr
eatmom i
spl
eadi
ngmycase.

Dad:Don'
tlookatmeliket
hat
.Fi
neiwi
llagr
eebut
hemustdot heri
ghtt
hing

Ihughi
m.

Dad:Hai
bo
Me:Ipr
omi
seyoudadhewi
ll

Mom:Mybabyi
sget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed

Ifshewasblacktheywouldhavegangeduponme.
Notsayinganythi
ngaboutmymom imi ssher,af
ter
herdeathnothi
ngwasnormal .Dadremarr
ieda
whitewoman, mybrot
herlef
tthehouseitwasa
mess.Ihopemyweddi ngwillbri
ngever
yone
together
.

Phi
ndi
le
Wedidasmallwalkt
hroughandt
hatboost
edmy
happi
nesst
oanotherl
evel.

Thapel
o:That
'ssounl
ikeyouwow
Me:Whatdoyoumean

Thapel
o:Younotbor
ingatal
l

Wel
augh.

Thapelo:Whatmoredoesamanneedt oknowthat
thi
sistheone.Youcook,youclean,youworkhard.
Yougivetimeforpl
easur
e,youmodel ,youdon'
ttal
k
alothowar eyoubor
ingiam confused

Me:Ithoughteveryt
hingwasokayt
hanboom i
ts
overl
ikeitneverbegun

Thapel
o:Yougoi
ngt
ofor
givehi
m ormoveon

Il
ookathi
m.
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Si
xweeksl
ater
Daybef
oret
heweddi
ng.

Mzwakhe
Tomor r
owismyweddi ngdaytosayiam happyor
overthemoonwouldbeal i
e.Ifeelnot
hingatal
l
andiam afrai
diam goingt
ocauseal otof
heart
break.

Me:Soletmegett
hisst
rai
ghtyouwantmet
ost
eal
car
sforyouj
ustbef
oremywedding

Nkabi
nde:Yes

Me:Awunyihl
ampe

Nkabi
nde:Comeonear
naf
ewbucksandt
ake
wifeyonahoneymoont oParis,
Greece.Iwantt
hem
tonightyouletmeknowifineedtofi
ndsomeone
elsetodot hejob

Heget
supf
ixi
nghi
scoat
.

Nkabi
nde:Butiknowyouwon'
tdi
sappoi
nt

Ichuckl
ehewalksaway, myphonebeepsi
tswif
ey
tobe.Isi
ghandletitr
ingfuckMzwakhewhatdi
d
yougetyour
sel
finto.

Me:Excusemecanihaveanot
herext
ral
argesl
ice
ofcakeandcof
fee

Imakeacal
landshedoesn'
tpi
ckup.

Me:Heyi
tsagai
nwhyyounotanswer
ingyour
phone

Roxy:Ther
eyougosi
r

Me:Cal
lmeMzwakhepl
ease

Roxy:I
fist
il
lwantt
hisj
obsi
rwi
lldoj
ustf
ine

Ichuckleandtakeabigbi t
eofthiscakehmm,
remi ndsmeofPhindi
le'scooki
e.Itssoft
,chocolat
y,
velvetyandj
ustmeltsinyourmout h.Ihavebeen
tryi
ngt omakeamendswi thher,wedon'tsleep
wi t
houtyouknowallthetime.Iam annoyed
becauseican'tr
eachheridon'twantt oseeherhur t
again.Somehowiam j ustaddi
ctedtoher,i
continueeat
ingmycake.

Cynt
hia
Myweddi
ngi
stomor
rowiam soexci
ted.Sat
an
tri
edtost opmyweddi ng,
butJesussaidnomy
chil
dhei syours.Ourengagementpartywasaf ew
daysago, t
hegi
fti
ngandumbondo( welcomi ngof
thebride)wasdone.Everythi
ngwasabl issitwas
themostbeaut i
fulthi
ngieverexper
ienced,and
tomorrowwesayi ngido.Icannotcontainmy
excit
ement .

TT:Mt
ase

Theybroughtbackmybr othert
heseancestors.A
fi
ghtbetweenhim,ourmom anddad' swiferesult
ed
i
nourmom dyi ngbecauseofdad'swi f
e.Allmen
cheatnobodyisasaintthesedays.Iam deli
ghted
hewillgett
obeapar tofmyweddi ng.

Me:Yesmyl
ove

TT:Bi
gdayf
inal
lyher
e
Me:Iknowr
ight

TT:Justknowwhat everhappensiam al
waysgoi ng
tobethereforyou.Thankstothatl
adyiwillf
orever
begratef
ul,
todayihavear el
ati
onshipwit
hmy
fat
herandslowlyadjusti
ngtohiswife

Me:Let
snotgetemot
ionali
tsaweddi
ngday

Hesmi
lesihearul
ulat
ingt
hedr
essesmustbeher
e.

Mzwakhe
Thobani
:Youwantust
ohi
tonyourweddi
ngni
ght

Li
nda:Whati
fyougetar
rest
ed

Me:That
swhyweher
e,wedoi
ngt
hisornot
Zamani
:Ivot
enot

Me:Iam notgoi
ngt
oincl
udeyouanyways

That
o:Youshoul
dmakehi
mleadoneday

Me:Iai
n'tt
ryingt
ogetar
rest
edagai
nsonot
hank
you.WhereisSakhi
le

Li
nda:Wedon'
tknow

Ical
lhi
m.

Sakhi
le:What

Me:Hai
bo
Sakhi
le:Youi
nter
rupt
ingmewhati
sit

Me:Whyyouwhi
sper
ing

Sakhi
le:Iam hangi
ngupnow

Me:Wedoi
ngt
hisornot

Sakhi
le:Uwenaomel
eeshosi
yanci
nzayebonoma
chabye(Youaret
heonewhowillt
elluswedoi
ng
thi
sornot)

Hehunguponme.

Me:WowThobanisocanwedot
his

Thobani
:Heisaski
ngmenowimeanwecanwe
haven'
tbeeni
nthegamef
oralongt
ime
Myphonebeeps.

"
Invi
tat
iont
otheevent
"

"
Takeever
ycar
"

"
Cashondel
iver
y"

Thobani
:Alri
ghtNt
andoandPhamandlayouon
guns.AyandaandLuyandabri
ngyourgadget
s,
ever
ybodyelseweontheground.Zamaniyouwi
th
Mzwakhe,let
srockandrol
lpeopl
e.

Ical
lPhi
ndil
evoi
cemai
lagainamessagecomes
thr
ough"Fi
ndme"it
sablackdress

Igetupandl
eave.
Me:Zamani

Zamani
:Iknewyouguysneverl
ovedme

Me:St
opbei
ngap*
**y

Sakhi
le
Ibeenhelpi
ngPhindi
lesetupandt r
yingto
convi
nceher.Sheatemeal i
vereal
lybad,butsl
owly
cal
meddown.Ever yt
hingisdonejustafewtouches
hereathereasal
waysshedoesanamazi ngjob.

Phi
ndi
le:Wher
ear
emyf
lower
s

Me:Theywi
llar
ri
vef
ir
stt
hingi
nthemor
ning.Ihave
peopl
eon
Sheput
saf
ingeronherl
ipikeepqui
et.

Phi
ndi
le:Iam l
eavi
ngiwil
lbebackt
omor
rowf
ini
sh
upwhatslef
tandtakeabreak

Wel
eave.

Mzwakhe
WhenSakhi l
esaidheisbri
ngi ngapl usone.Iwas
whati nt
hehelli
shedoing, howdoeshebr ing
someonet oagig.Heisannoyi ngmeandihat e
beingcrankyonsuchnights.Nkabi ndemakeshi s
wayt owardsuswavingandsmi l
ing.Iwishicould
punchhim becausehelookscr azy,withthatf
ur
scarfonhisshoulder
.

Nkabi
nde:Idi
dn'
tsaybr
ingpeopl
etosi
ng,
isai
d
t
akecarswhatar
eyoudoing
Hewavesatsomebody.
.

"
Canever
yonehearme"

Me:Wher
ehaveyoubeen

Sakhi
le:"
Noti
mpor
tantwehavef
ivemi
nut
est
opul
l
thi
soff"

Heshout
sthr
ought
heear
piece,
thecr
owdcheer
s
andcl
aps.

"
Ladi
esandgent
lemen"

Theguyswhi
stl
enohedi
dnot
.

Phi
ndil
e:Wel
cometot
het
ent
hannualpar
tyof
AnonymousHope
Sakhi
le:"
Okayposi
ti
onsever
yone"

Phi
ndi
le:"
Ifyoudi
dn'
tnot
ice
Idon'
tli
ket
oshar
e
Wi
thouti
t,younot
ice
Ist
il
lneedyout
her
e"

Shesi
ngsshemaynotbeper
fectbutf
ormeshei
s.

Me:"
Iwi
llseeyouwhenwedone"

Nkabi
nde:Whyar
eyoust
andi
ng

Thabi
so:Rel
axhaveadr
ink

Sakhi
le
Wehavefiveminutesbetweeneachsongshe'
s
si
ngi
ng.Everyonewillbedi
str
actedshewi
ll
mesmeri
zeallofthem, whi
lewework.

Sbu:"
Iam compr
omi
sed"

Me:"
Keepdr
ivi
ngandt
hant
urnl
eft
"

Thef
ir
stt
rucki
sloadedandl
ocked.

Me:"
Okaymovei
twho'
snext
"

Sbu:"
Allcl
ear
"

Mzwakhe:"
Azi
shemadodaiyaphel
aingoma(
Make
f
astt
hesongisaboutt
ofi
nish)

Okayimayhavebi
tt
enofmor
ethanicanchewbut
i
tsf
ine.

Mzwakhe
Whi
let
hecr
owdi
sst
il
lobsessi
ngoverp,
isneakout
.

Me:Howi
sitgoi
ng

Sakhi
le:YeahMzwakhe

Ihel
phim wit
hdeact
ivat
ingthet
racker
s,somemay
nothavebuti
tsal
waysthere.

Ndu:"
WozanayoSkhul
u"

Theadrenal
ineandfi
rethi
sbringst
omysouli
s
except
ional
lyoutoft
hisworl
d.
[
06/
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28] :195
Sakhi
le
Thobani
:"Ohoo"

Me:"
OhoowhatThobani
"

Thobani
:"Myl
icensesur
e"

Phi
ndil
e:"Mzwakhepickupyourphone,
Thapel
o.
Whateveryoudo,donotgetoutoft
hetr
uck.We
goi
ngtoachar i
tyevent
"

Thobani
:"Wegoi
ngtoachari
tyevent
,thet
ruckuhm
yes.
.Pdosomethi
ng..
.Not
hing"

Iam si
tt
ingbut
tfl
atonthefl
oor,t
ryi
ngt
ocalm
down.Myhandsareshakingthi
scannotbe
happeni
ng.
Thobani:"
Yeahnoithi
nkmaybewel ost
,wegoing
tothi
splace.I
tsachari
tyeventduh,
okayoff
icer
thankyoujustt
urnr
ightokay"

Mzwakhe:"
Arewest
il
lgood,
wegood"

Phi
ndi
le:"
Okayiam goi
ngbacki
nfi
nishupt
her
e"

Mzwakhe:St
andup

Me:"
OkayAyandacl
earusout
"

Ayanda:"
Rogerthat.
..Yamommyyouwantt o
cuddl
e,ohthebabieswanttocuddleokayhol
don
babi
esdaddyjustneedfiveminut
es"

Hel
aughs.
Ayanda:"
Ehbaf okut
hiwaubuyenamawi ngsnoi
ce
-cr
eam ot
herwisengekeushadekusasa"(Youbet
ter
comebackwi t
hsomewi ngsandice-
cream
other
wiseyounotgetti
ngmar r
iedtomorrow)

Mzwakhe:Wherethef
uckam igoi
ngt
ofi
ndwi
ngs
andi
ce-cr
eam att
hist
ime

Ayanda:"
Alr
ightwecl
ear
"

Mzwakhe
Iam goingtogogetmywomanandgett
hehellout
ofhere.Iwantt
ogosleept
heboyi
sgett
ingmarri
ed
oram i,weshal
lsee.

Phi
ndi
le:Thankyoul
adi
esandgent
lemenenj
oyt
he
ni
ght
Thabi
so:"
Iwi
llgetNkabi
nde"

It
akeherhandandweleave.
..
.Afewminut
esl
ater
wearr
iveatNkabi
nde'
swarehouse,
wai
ti
ngonhis
ar
ri
val
.

Li
nda:Si
yaziusexykodwai
tsf
reezi
ngcol
dinher
e

Me:Iam noti
nthemoodf
oryourbul
lshi
t

Li
nda:Iknowwhoi
s

Heenter
smycariam goingt
opunchhi
sfacei
fhe
aggr
avatesheri
nanyki
ndofway.

Me:What
shappeni
ngwi
tht
hef
lower
s

Sakhi
le:Whenwef
ini
shher
etheywi
llar
ri
ve
Wewaitf
oreverwhati
stakingt
hem so.Aft
eran
hourt
hedoorsopenThabisodr
ivesi
nlikeamad
man.

Me:Whatt
hef
uckwewor
kingonl
imi
tedt
ime

Nkabi
nde:Myapol
ogi
es

Me:Canwewr
apt
hisupineedt
otakemywoman
home

Nkabi
nde:Wo

Me:NowNkabi
nde

Phi
ndi
lest
epsout
.
Phi
ndil
e:Youwast
ingmyt
imesweet
hear
t,igot
pl
acesineedt
obeat

Thobanist
andsi
nfr
ontofher
.

Sakhi
le:I
sthi
sal
l

Li
ndo:"
Nyakazamf
anagetPhi
ndi
leoutoft
her
e,her
j
obisdone"

Phi
ndi
le
Lindanihel
psmeoutofmyshoes, weheadt owards
thequantum.Heopenswegetiniam finished,
i
hopeSamkel oandever
yonegotever
ything.

Me:Aret
hesef
ormeandyouguyswonderwhyi
l
oveyou
ThedooropensMzwakhej
umpsi
n.

Mzwakhe:Ni
menzeniumf
aziwami(
Whatar
eyou
doi
ngwithmygi
rl
)

Linda:Si
yamudl
asi
shi
ntshi
sanangaye(
Wear
e
feasti
ngonhert
aki
ngt
urns)

Hepul
lshi
slegsandpr
esseshi
skneeonLi
ndani
.

Li
nda:Ngi
yadl
alangi
yadl
ala(Iam j
oki
ng,
iam
j
oking)

Me:Peopl
eineedt
ogo

Sakhi
le:Uhm mommy

Me:Iwi
llcr
ashi
nathomei
tsl
atenow
Mzwakhe:Youcansl
eepatt
hemansi
on

Li
nda:Younotcomi
ngt
otheweddi
ng

Theypunchhi
m hel
aughs.

Me:Iam t
ir
ed

Mzwakhe
It
sr eal
lyhappeni
ngiam r
eall
ygetti
ngmarr
ied.She
stepsoutofthebathr
oom,shelooksatmeand
si
ghs.Shedr opsthet
owelandputsonatop.

Me:Younotgoi
ngt
olot
ionyourbody

Phi
ndi
le:I
tshotMzwakheandij
ustwantt
osl
eep
Me:Okay

Iundressheadi
ngtobathr
oom. .
.Igeti
ntheshower
andletthehotwat
erdri
pallovermybody..
..

Me:Not
hingl
ikeani
cehotshowert
oendagood
j
ob

Ij
umpont
hebed.

Phi
ndil
e:Youget
ti
ngmar r
iedt
omor
rowyoushoul
d
behavi
ngabachelorpar
ty

Me:Mybachel
orpar
tyi
sri
ghtnextt
ome

Shesi
ghsibr
inghert
omychest
.
Me:Mamaiam notusedt othi
sokaycertainthi
ngs
thathappenedi nmyl i
fe,putmeinthispositi
on.
Varsityl
if
eihadt hisbabehmm shewasat opshot
,
iinst
antl
yf el
linlovewithher.Fastf
orwardwegot
mar r
iednowewer egoingt ogetmarri
ed,thanisaw
Pearlmyheadwenti nsane.

Phi
ndi
le:Shei
sbeaut
if
ulnol
ie

Me:Icheat edonmygi r
lf
riendwi thher ,she
threatenedt ol eaveme.Icoul dn'tacceptt hatsoi
l
eftPear l,gotmar r
iedbutthenshedi ed.Somehow
herdeat hdi dn'taf f
ectmet hatmuch, Pearlwas
aroundiqui cklygotoveri t.Okayt hanimetot her
l
adi esilosti nterestinPear l,butt hant heykept
dyingever yt imeigott oapoi ntoff al
linginlove.I
wasl ikefuckt hislovethingi snotwor ki
ng,wewent
totraditi
onalheal erstheysai dt heycan' thelpme.I
wasconf usedt hanyoucameal ongohmanwheni
sawyoumyhear twasexpl odi ng.Youl i
ter
all
ystol
e
myhear tbutt hanigotscar edwhati filoveyouand
di
e,ithoughtaboutal
lthoseladi
eswhodied
becauseofme.Icouldn'tputyouthr
oughthatmy
headwentcr azy

Isi
gh.

Me:ImetCynt hiaidi
dn' tevenlikeher,butilearned
toshewasj ustsomeoneibumpedi nto.Ididn't
understandPhi ndi
lebutbecausemymi ndisnot
wellthi
ngst ur
nedoutl ikethis.Mamaidi dn'
tmean
tohurtyounowidon' tknowi f,iam maki ngthe
biggestmistakeofmyl i
f eoriam goingt obel osi
ng
theoneit r
ulylove

Phi
ndi
le:Doyour
eal
izewhatyouhavej
ustdone

.
..
..
..
.

Mambar
iver
Theonet hingMzwakheneededt odohedi dit
,now
theri
tualcanbegin.Hewakesupf r
om theground
dusti
nghimsel f
,awhi t
eclot
hwascover inghis
pri
vateparts.Helooksaroundtryi
ngt ofi
gureout
wherehei s,headmiresthebreathtaki
ngbeautyof
theri
ver.Howcanabl ackri
verbethisbeauti
ful,
he
askshimsel f
.

Theri
verst
art
sbubbl
inghestepsbackal
it
tl
ebit
.
Thequeenemergesf
rom deepwit
hint
her
iver
.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Come

Mzwakhe:Thi
swat
eri
scol
dwhatar
ewedoi
ngher
e

Phi
ndi
le:Thi
siswher
edest
inybegi
ns
Af
igur
eappr
oachest
hem.

"
Mybeaut
if
ulchi
ldr
en"

Phi
ndi
le:Gogo

Gogo:Nkosazaneahyoul
ookj
ustl
ikehi
m

Shebowsdown.

Gogo:Asi
ngenengaphakat
hi(
let
sgoi
nsi
de)

Theyf
oll
owhert
othehut
s.

Gogo:PhakamaniboBhengui
nkosazanei
sif
iki
le
yi
thil
abasizaki
ni
Shel
ight
sthecandl
es.

Phi
ndi
le:Youhaven'
tagedat
hing

Gogo:Mawungaphaubuhl
ebuphakade(
Beaut
y
her
eisti
meless)

Shesmi
les.

Gogo:Mzukul uungiphoxil
ebengit
huzomt hatha
umboni seimf udumalo.Kodwakeakekhoumunt u
oyil
ungiswa, uyashadakephai nhl
izi
yoyakhoi sel
e
ngapha.Ngi yathembamzukul uuzothathai snqumo
ekuyisonasona( Mychil
drenyouhavedi sappoi nt
ed
me.It houghtyougoi ngtotakeherandgi vehert he
world,butnobodyi sperfectyougetti
ngmar ri
ed
yourhear ti
sst il
lwi
thsomeoneel se.Iyouwi llmake
therightdecision)
Theyhearthesoundsofswi
shi
ngandmel
odi
es
comingfr
om theri
ver.

Gogo:I
tst
ime

Phindil
ecallsuponallthebhengu'
saskingfor
guidance,forgi
veness,li
ghtandmostl
ylove.They
stepinandst andinthemi ddl
eoftheri
ver,
the
snakewr apsaroundt hem under
neaththewater.
Shesmi les.

Phi
ndi
le:Rel
ax

Grandmot hercut
sbot hthei
rwri
sts,
theirbl
ood
dripsinthewater.Shedunksacupi nthewater
thanplacesitagainstt
heirbl
ooddri
ppingsand
recit
estheircl
annames.
Phi
ndil
e:Ineedtoknowmyl ovef
ori
st r
ue,iam no
l
ongerfi
ghti
ngnow.Igotrightandit
srighther
e
wit
hyou,whateveryoudecideknowiloveyou

Theyki
ss.

Theydiveinther
iverwi
ththesnakewrapped
aroundthei
rbodi
es.Theysinkdowndeepbeneat
h
theri
ver.
..
.Shewakesupgasping.

Phi
ndi
le
Il
ookatmywr istt
hanhis,t
heybothwr appedina
bandaged.Ifeelstr
ongandpowerfuligrabmy
phoneandlookatt heti
me,it
salr
eadymor ni
ng.I
hearasoftknockont hedoor,
isl
owlygetupt ryi
ng
nottowakehi m up.

Me:Li
steni
m goi
ngt
ogr
abmyt
hingsandwel
eave
Sakhi
le:Haibosisihambogezai
momozi
(Gowash
yourhoneypot)

Iti
ptoetothebat
hroom andtakeaquickshower
.I
getdressednoti
met obelooki
ngcute,il
eaveasof
t
perkonlips.

Sakhi
le:Whathappenedt
oyourwr
ist

Me:Iwi
llt
ellyoul
ater

Wel
eave.

*
*
*
*
*
Apparent
lysomet hingshappenedontheri
vert
hat
weresacred,iam sadiwasn'tprevi
ewedt
othem.
I
tsaweddi ngday.
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06/
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28] :196

Weddi
ngday

Cynt
hia
Themostanticipat
eddayhascomei t
smyweddi ng
day.Mybodyi sinknot
siam superexcitediam
mar r
yingt
heloveofmyl i
fe.Ican'
tbeli
evethi
swe
havebeenthroughital
l,
intheendwemadei tand
todayiwil
lbeMr sMzwakheBhengu.

Matrimonialstart
satnineyouknowbl ackpeopl
e
andt i
medon' treal
lygotogether
.Ican'tthi
nkof
anythingelse,ij
ustwantmymanal ready.Mpumi
walksi nshestandsbyt hedoor.
Me:Nonoyounotr
uini
ngmymakeup

Mpumi
:Mnganiyoul
ookhot

Me:St
op,
stopi
tnocr
yingher
eokay

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le
Weget t
ingreadyandthegr
oom i
snowheretobe
seen.Iam goingt
oholdmysel
fti
llal
loft
hisi
sover
.
Olwethucomesululat
ingl
ooki
ngmadf i
ne.

Ol
wethu:Hawuakushadwayi
ninamuncunj
e(I
tsa
weddi
ngtodaywhyareyal
lsosour
)

Me:Aysi
li
ndeumkhwenyane(
Wewai
ti
ngf
ort
he
gr
oom)

Ol
wet
hu:Her
anaway

Shel
aughs.

Me:Mommyawukahl
e

Thobani
:Shel
ookshappyherboyf
ri
endi
sget
ti
ng
marri
edtosomeoneel
se

Thedooropenshewal
ksi
nwi
thabandagedonhi
s
wri
st.

Olwet
hu:Mzwakheyougoi
ngt
obel
atef
oryour
ownwedding

Mzwakhe:Ij
ustwentf
orar
un
Ol
wet
hu:Qui
ckgohaveabat
h

Mzwakhe:Yeah

Li
nda:Whathappenedt
oyourwr
ist

Hel
ooksati
t.

Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lecanwet
alk

Me:Nogohaveabat
h

Helooksli
kehei
slostsomewhere,her
unsupst
air
s.
TheylaughMzwakhewil
lshockyou.

Me:Li
ndanipl
easemakesur
ether
e'sal
coholal
l
overt
hishouse

Ol
wet
hu:No

Isi
tdownican'
tthi
sman'
sbs.

Cynt
hia
Soiarrivedfi
rstbef
orethegroom andhi
s
groomsmen, howidon'tunderst
and.Abunchof
carsstartshowingup,t
rustt
heBhengu'stobeover
thetop.Theystepoutlooki
ngdapperinthei
rsui
ts.

Mpumi
:Whoi
sthatpr
egnantl
adyshel
ooksbomb

Me:Fi
anceofoneoft
het
wins

Li
ndsay:Howdoesshedoi
t
Herstomachwasnowver
yvi
sibl
eandshel
ooked
notonebitofugl
y.

Mpumi
:Ist
hathi
m

Il
ookar
ound.

Me:Noi
tst
heonecar
ryi
nghersl
eeper
s

Mpumi
:Okayt
heywal
kingi
n

Theyhavebeenkeepi
ngmyner
vesdownandmi
nd
offt
hings.

Mpumi
:Damnhoneyyourmani
sfi
necapi
tall
ett
er
f
ine

Hest
opsandl
ooksatt
hecar
,hewavesMpumi
pr
essest
hehoot
err
eall
ongismi
le.

Me:Okayiam r
eady

Mzwakhe
Idonotwanttobehereidon'
tevenhaveabest
mantheyjustst
andi
ngherebesidemebecause.I
pi
nchmynoseSakhileputshi
shandonmyback.

Me:Sakhi
leican'
tdot
his

Sakhi
le:Tool
atenow

Everyonest
andsupmyhear tbeat
soutofi t
schest.
Mypal msaresweatingohshi
therewego, she
walksdowntheaislewit
hherfat
herbyhersi deal
li
seeistheexi
t.Sakhi
lestompsmyf ootif
orcea
smile.
Past
or:Whogi
vest
hisl
adyaway

Herf
ami
lyshout
swedo.

Past
or:Pl
easef
aceeachot
her

Wedoiseeshei
str
yingt
oreadmyf
acebutshe
smi
les.

Pastor:Dearl
ybelovedwearegat heredhereto
witnessthesetwojoinhandstodayandf oreveras
husbandandwi fe.Befor
ewecont inueimustaski s
thereanyoneherewhof eel
stheset woshouldn'tget
mar r
iedtodayspeaknoworf oreverholdyour
peace...Okay

Me:Wai
twai
twai
t
Past
or:I
sther
eapr
obl
em youngman

Me:Iam sorr
ybutican'
tdot
hisiam i
nlovewi
th
someoneelse

Iwal
kof fwit
hever
yonegaspingandr
ecor
dingand
don'
tlook.Iwal
kasfastasicantomycar
,igeti
n
anddriveoff
.

Sakhi
le
St
upi
dni
ggerwai
tedt
il
ltheweddi
ngdayt
odot
his.

Linda:Ladiesandgentl
emenpleaseenjoyour
refr
eshment s,l
otsandl
otsofdri
nkstherewil
lbeno
weddingt odayyeah

Hewal
ksofohmyGodt
hisi
sadi
sast
er.Cynt
hia
l
ooksatmeandr unsoff,
iam numbf r
ozentothe
ground.Idon'
tknowwhatt odo,iseeThabi
soand
Li
ndanicracki
ngbyt heentr
ance.It
snotfunnythe
poorgirli
sheart
broken.

Herecomesthebeastshout
inginmyf aceexcuse
me.Iam nott
heonewhowasi nherguyswhyi she
scr
eamingatme.

Me:Ehmadal awhatyounotgoingtodoisthis.
Ungangi
fakilaengahl
angenekhona(Don'
tinvol
ve
meinsomet hing,
iwasn'
tinvol
vedwit
h)

Li
ndo:"
Wal
kaway"

Idohei
sdi r
ect
inghisangert
othewrongper
son.
Wedecidedtoj
ustleavet
hevenueandgostr
aight
home.
Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhemustbeof ft
ohishoneymoon.Some
geni
usishavingmef ol
lowed,
whoeveriti
sgotme
ontheedge.There'
sagaragenearbyMpil
odri
ves
i
nandpar ksontheside.

Mpil
o:Yeahsomebodyisf
oll
owi
ngus.Iknowdad
whatam isupposedt
odo,nowepar
kedatagarage

LangaandKagi
sost
epout
,thatcarf
oll
owedusi
n.
Theyknockoni
tswi
ndow.

Mpi
lo:Whatar
etheydoi
ngdadihavet
ogobye

Iwantt
ogohomenow.

Mzwakhe
It
akeofmycl
othesandst
epi
ntheshower
,it
urn
thetaponandl ett
hewat errunallovermybody.I
closemyeyesandl eanback, ineedPhindil
eback
i
nmyl i
feandiknowi twon'tbeeasyget t
ingher
back.Shewon'tmakei tanyeasierformet ogether
back.Ifi
nishshoweri
ngandst epout.

Jamesi
sinmyr
oom.

Me:Wher
eisPhi
ndi
le

James:Shewi
llcomebackl
ater

Me:Whyyouher
ethan

James:Comesi
tdown

Me:Baba
James:Mzwakhe

Ivi
gor
ousl
ythr
owmysel
font
hebed.

James:Why?Mzwakhewhy?Gothroughthi
sroute
whenyouknowverywel
l,
inthebackofyourhead
thi
sisnotf
oryou

Me:Iwascaughtupi
nthemomentiwant
edt
osee
i
fshewil
ldi
esincePhi
ndi
ledi
dn'
t

James:Mzwakheyoudon'
tpl
aywi
thpeopl
e'
s
feel
ingsl
iket
hat

Me:Iknowiknowbutshewasawi t
chandwi t
ches
deser
vestobedest
royed.She'
sluckysheonlygot
awaywithembar
rassment,butil
ovePhindi
lewit
h
mywholelif
eandeveryt
hingigot
James:Nodoubtaboutt
hat

Me:Iam sor
rybutnotsor
ry

Iheaddownst
air
s.Theyl
augh.

Ndu:Eyuyi
sdi
didiyezwa(
Yourcr
azyman)

That
o:Wewoul
dn'
ttr
adeyouf
ort
hewor
ld

Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Icalm downonceiseethecargoi
ngupthecorner,
thegatesli
desopen,hedri
vesi
n.Westepoutofthe
carandheadinside.Themoodisver
ystal
edidn'
t
theyhaveaweddi ng.
KG:Webackhomesaf
e

Me:Hai
bowhati
sgoi
ngonl
etmesee

It
akehi
shandandt
her
e'snor
ing.

Me:Okaywher
eist
hebr
ide

Thobani
:Youdon'
tknow

Me:Knowwhatiwasbusy

Thobani
:Hedi
dn'
tgetmar
ri
ed

Il
ookathi
mthanMzwakheandl
aughmyassof
f.

Me:Yousomeanwhydi
dn'
tyouj
ustendt
hings
wi
thheryouhadt
obewakheayokay

Li
nda:Whathappenedt
oyourwr
ist
sbot
hofyou

Me:Youboyopenedupandigotwhatineeded

Thabi
so:Youcomi
ngbackhome

Me:No

Sakhi
le:Youbackt
oget
her

Me:Idon'
tcar
eiam hungr
y

Hepul
lsmyhandif
allonhi
slap,
hegr
absmyneck.

Mzwakhe:Bat
shel
eukut
hngowakhobat
shel(
Tel
l
t
hem iam your
stel
lthem)

Icovermymout
hlaughi
nghishandt
rai
lsdownt
o
mycoochie,
hepr
esseshar
der.

Me:Okayokayhei
smi
neandwenotl
ett
ingeach
go

Mzwakhe:Louder

Me:Hei
smymanpeopl
e

Hesmi
lesandl
et'
sgoofme.

Me:Younotmymanandyouwi
llneverbe

Irunaway.Hechasesmeal
lovert
hehouse, he
pushesmeinsomedarkcl
osetwhatevert
hisis.
Weki
ss.
[
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28] :197

Phi
ndi
le
Standi
ngbef oremewasat hreeheadedcreatur
e
withmultipl
ehands.I
tlookedveryangr
yeachhand
hadadanger ousweapons,whichcaneithercutme
int
ohalf.Poisonmeorkillmeinaninstant,
howcan
ifi
ghtthisbadboy.

Voi
ce:Neverunder
est
imat
ethepoweroft
hesnake

Itswi ngsit
sAxeacr ossmeiduck.Anot herhand
swi ngscomi ngfr
om thebackwi t
hwhatl ookslikea
hammer ,icl
osemyeyesanddi sappear.Iopen
them iam behinditsotherhead,inoti
cesomet hing
i
nt eresti
ngitcannotsee.Theheadsst arttorot
ate,
i
tswi ngsaswordandi tcutsmeigr oaninagony.I
needt
okeepmyselfontheheadt
hatcan'
tseet
hat
wayiwil
lbeabl
etodefeati
t.

Ineedt
ofindit
sli
fesourcefi
rstsomethi
nggl
owi
ng.
Theheadsrot
ateagai
n,ilookatthegr
ound.

Mzwakhe
Ithoughtiwasgoingt ospendsomequal
it
yti
me
withpbutshe'snot.She'ssomewher
eoftosave
theworldandiwast rending.

"Mil
li
onai
reboyf
ri
endl
eaveshi
sfi
ancef
oracal
l
gir
l"

"
lowl
if
elowsel
fest
imat
etypeofman"

Iam anythi
ngbutlowl
if
eokaymaybeiam al
it
tl
ebi
t,
butiam cursed.
Sakhi
le:Theycal
li
ngyouadi
sgust
inghumanbei
ng

Theyl
augh.

Me:Iwi
shyal
lcanst
opr
eadi
ngt
hat

Sakhi
le:Yoursi
desar
ecomment
ing

Thobani
:List
entothi
sone"Heisl
iket
hatj
ustf
ucks
youandleavesyoudest
it
ute"

Thabi
so:Eygowan

Heswear
satt
hem t
heyl
augh.

Nonhl
e:Yourbl
eedi
ng
Me:What

Shel
if
tsmyt
opof
.

Nonhl
e:Yourbl
eedi
ng

Phi
ndi
le
Ilookatthegroundsti
llnothi
ngishappeni
ng.Iam
tryi
ngtoopenupabi ghol esothaticant
rapit
underground,
itwil
lfi
ndawayt ocomebackupand
thatswheniwi l
lst
ri
ke.Lookslikeihavet
o
transf
orm.

Iful
lytr
ansfor
m andwr apmyselfar
ounditsl
egs
pull
ingi
t.I
tlandshardthegroundshakes,
i
maintai
nmygr ip,
itsst
ruggl
estomove.
Me:Si
zwe

Theywraparounditlegs,it
ransf
orm andrunupit
s
body.Theheadrotat
esiseet heli
ghtimustget
ther
ebefor
eitful
lyrotatesandgaini
tsstr
ength
back.

Ihol
dmyspearupandst
abi
tri
ghtt
hroughi
ts
gl
owingf
ace.

Me:Nott
odayyouugl
ydemon

Itgetsupt
hrowi
ngusof
fit
sbodyit
hinkipi
ssedi
t
off.

Me:What
sgoi
ngonwhyi
sn'
ti
tdyi
ng

Si
zwe:Youhavet
ogoi
nsi
dei
t
Me:What

Si
zwe:I
tst
heonl
ywayt
odef
eat

Lungel
o:Iwi
llgocheckont
heboys

Sizwe:Wewi
llcoveryour
ememberbef
ear
lessyou
gotthi
s

Mzwakhe
Iwasn'
tinpai
noranyt
hingsohowam ibl
eedi
ng.A
manappearsbef
oreme,hehasacup.Herunsi
ton
myback.

Hi
m:Dr
inkt
his

Ido.
Him:Ever
yoner
emai
ncal
m..
.fort
hebabi
esand
babymama

Ihopeever
ythi
ngisokay.Ican'
tlosePhi
ndi
lenow,
sheneedstofi
ghtandbestrong.

Phi
ndi
le
Wewer efi
ght
ingtoot
handnai lhal
fofit
sweapons
weredown.Holdonicancommandi tt
oswal low
meandicandef eati
tfrom t
heinsi
de.I
trotates,t
his
r
otati
ngiswhat'
sgivi
ngi tst
rengt
h.Buti
topensi ts
mouthitr
ansfor
m, il
if
tmybodyupandsl i
therinit
s
mouth.

Mzwakhe
Thepoolbubblesthreepeopl
eri
seupandr un
i
nside,
theylayherfacedown.Theyl
iftuphertop
andsheistheoneonecut ,howdidi
trefl
ectonme.
Hi
m:Pl
easel
eanandt
ellhert
ocomeback

Iasknoquest i
onandwhi speri
nherear.Shegasps
andt hancri
es,t
heypr essherdown.Ihavetohave
atleastonedoctoronst andbyandiknowj ustwho,
becausehedoesn' tnotli
kegoingtowork.Yethe
pri
deshi msel
fonbei ngthebestdoct
orever.

Me:I
sshegoi
ngt
obeokay

Hi
m:Nowt
hatshehasherst
rengt
hyes

Me:Whati
syourname

Him:Sizwet
hesear
emybr
other
sLungel
oand
Lungani
Me:Sohowdowehel
phernow

Si
zwe:Wewi l
lst
ayforacoupleofdaysj
ustt
o
moni
torherandkeeptheevi
laway

Inod.

Sakhi
le:Wher
eyouat

Thedooropenswel
augh.

Thabi
so:Youshoul
dbef
ir
ed

That
o:Yal
llovemehowcanyouf i
reboybyeokay
whatwedealingwi
thoookay.Gl
oves,
needl
e.Wil
l
shehur
tme

Si
zwe:Idon'
tknowwantt
otr
y
That
o:Okayt
hanyoudoi
t

It
aketheneedl
eandi
njecther
,hest
art
scl
eani
ng
upherwound.
[
06/
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28] :198

Mzwakhe
Shewasinal otofpai
nandshewast ryi
ngtomask
i
toff
.Ihavetomakeherst ayhereascomfor
tabl
e
aspossi
ble,
af i
ghtbreaksout
side.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhepl
easedealwi
tht
hat

Ishake,igetupandheadout sidetheyboth
transf
orm.Oneintoamul t
ipleheadsnake, theother
i
nt oawhitesnake.Thecowar dsoutsiderunwhy
am inotscaredofthi
swhol esituat
ion.Istandin
themiddleandfoldmyar ms.
Si
zwe:Youshoul
dgobackt
oyourwor
ld

Thapel
o:Ohyeahmakeme

Me:i
fanyofyout
ouchmeiswear
,iswear

Thapel
o:Hest
art
edi
t

Me:Andiam f i
nishi
ngitinkosazaneyenu
ayiphatheki
lekahleninanizi
phathisaokwemdlwane
(Thequeeni snotokayandyouher eactli
kedogs)
disappearfr
om myf aceyouhoes

Theyl
ookateachot
herver
ybad.

Me:Now
Si
zweclickshi
stongueanddi
vesi
nthepool.
Thapel
odisappear
swhataret
heyf
ight
ingabout
.

Phi
ndi
le
Theyshouldbehappyiam doinggood,nothey
wanttobefight
ing.That
owascleaningmywound,
i
cr
iedinsi
lencethepaini
sjustonanotherl
evel
.

That
o:Nodon'
tdot
hatyougoi
ngt
ohur
therand
i
nter
ruptme

Mzwakhe:Doweneedt
otakehert
othehospi
tal

That
o:Nopeshewi
llbej
ustf
ineangi
thmommy.
OuchMzwakhewhyyouabusingme

Mzwakhe:Mamaukahl
ekodwa
Ican'tt
alkiam j
usti
npai
niam wai
ti
ngf
orThat
oto
fi
nish.

Mzwakhe:Okaymyyougoi
ngt
obef
ine

Hel
if
tsmeupandsmi
lesMzwakhepuncheshi
m.

That
o:Mzwakhehawu

Me:Ican'
tputabandagewi
thout

That
o:Notyetmylovej
usttakeiteasydon'
tli
ft
anyt
hingandyouwil
lbejustfi
ne

Me:Somet
hingi
swr
ong

Andi
le
Iwonderhowpi sdoingaft
erallthebul
lMzwakhe
puthert
hrough.Yesesthatguywi l
lamazeyou
onceyouthi
nkyouhavehi mf i
guredout,t
heshit
showheisgoingtoshowwi llquesti
onyoursani
ty.

Oni
ka:Yousawt
his

Me:Thehear
twant
swhati
twant
sandhi
sdi
dn'
t
wanther
s

Oni
ka:Iwoul
dki
llyoui
fyoul
eftmeatt
heal
ter

Ini
bbleonherm&m idon'
tli
ket
hisst
uffbutonce
youhaveone,yougoonandon.

Si
yanda:Lookwhatt
hecatdr
aggedi
n

Nkabi
nde:Hel
loever
yoneineedt
ospeakt
oyou
Me:Let
sgo

Weent
ert
hest
udyr
oom.

Me:Thi
sbet
terbegoodf
oryout
oint
err
uptmychi
ll
day

Nkabi
nde:Gor
geousdar
kbeaut
if
ulgood

Hehandsmeaf
il
eiopeni
t.

Me:Ohwi
i

Nkabi
nde:Iknewyouwoul
dlovei
t

Me:Howdi
dyougett
hese
Nkabi
nde:Ihavebeenf
oll
owi
ngher

Myhear
tst
art
sbeat
ingoutofi
tschest

Nkabinde:Imeanigatheredinfor
mat i
onabouther ,
sowhatdosayl etski
llhim whereithurt
st hemost.
Paybackforbusti
ngouroper at
ionofcour se,hecan
notknowiam yourbusi nesspart
ner

Il
augh.

Nkabi
nde:What
sfunny

Me:She'
shot

Nkabi
nde:Andwoul
dsel
laf
ort
une
Me:No

Nkabi
nde:I
magi
newhatwecandowi
tht
hismoney

Idon'
tthi
nkhehear
dme.

Nkabi
nde:Wai
twhat

Me:No

Nkabi
nde:Am ihear
ingyourcor
rect
ly

Me:Younotgoi
ngtoki
dnapher
,younotgoi
ngt
o
sendpeopl
etoki
dnapher
.Shei
snotforsal
e

Nkabi
nde:Andi
le
Me:Iwi
llt
ellMzwakhewhatyouupi
fyoudon'
tlet
t
hisgo

Nkabi
nde:Younotgoi
ngt
odot
hat

Me:Tr
ymeNkabi
nde

Nkabi
nde:Yousi
gnedanagreement
.Iam goi
ngto
sendt
histohi
ghplacesandtheywi
lldeci
dewhatt
o
do

Me:Iam war
ningyouNkabi
ndeyoudonotwantt
o
gother
e

Nkabi
nde:Andiam sayi
ngt
hisi
sal
otofmoney

Hel
eavesshi
tigr
abmyphoneandt
extt
hemonkey.
Mzwakhe
Myphonebeeps"Weneedt otal
k"whatdoeshe
want
,thedooropensSakhi
lewalksi
n.

Sakhi
le:Myoneandonl
y

Me:Wher
eyouguysat

Sakhi
le:Dr
inki
ng.
..Mommy

Shesmi
les.

Sakhil
e:Avengikuthandayezwangi thandaukut h
unobrawami.Celaumphat hekahl eyezwamommy
ungamkhawat hi
,ungathathiiskhathieside
ukumxolel
a.Uyakut handangi yazinaweugcwel e
ngaye,ngi
yanicel
abaf ethu(Iloveyouman, ilove
thefactt
hatyouarewi t
hmyboy.Pl easet r
eathim
welldon'
thurthim,don'ttaket olongtof or
givehim.
Helovesyouandyoual
sol
ovehi
m,ibegofyou
guys)

Hi
sphonebeeps.

Sakhi l
e:Uhm yeahni ngathathiiskhathieside
asishademanj esenzeizingane.Ubal ulekil
ekut hina
sonkeyi zenjeuskhul uengakuhl oni
phi, uyahlanya
velekodwauncanyi weblindst handwasam.
Asenzangakahl esikuzwiseubuhl ungukani ngi
kodwa, uhlal
euwuwenaunakekel al
omndeni .
Ngal okhomi nangi yababongel a(Don'ttakef orever
fi
xingt hings,letsgetmar ri
edandmakebabi es.You
arever yi mportanttous,event houghhet r
eatedyou
li
ket hat.Hei scrazyanywaysbutyouar eloved
dearly,dear l
y.Weal sodidn'ttreatyouwel l
,we
causedyoupai nbutyoust ayedbehi ndand
protectedt hi
sf amily.Forthatonbehal fofever yone
iam sayi ngthankyou)

Shewasnowcr
ying.
Sakhil
e:Ungakhalintomboangizamiukuvusa
amanxeba,ngiyawapholi
sa(Don'tcr
yiam not
tr
yingtorubsalti
nt hewound.Iam heali
ngthem)

Iam def
ini
telygoi
ngtobespendi
ngt
her
estofmy
l
ifemaki
ngi tuptoher
.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u

Me:Andi
lewant
stoseeme

Sakhi
le:Ihaven'tpunchedanyonei
nawhi
le.Eyo
weheadingt othewar ehouse

Hel
eaves,
igr
abherneckandki
ssher
.

Me:Iai
n'tgoi
ngnowher
e
Phi
ndi
le:Br
ingsomegoodi
es

Iki
ssher
.

Andi
le
Iam addi
ctedt
othesechocol
atethings,
they
keepi
ngmecalm.Ientert
hewar ehousetheyfr
isk
meandr unametaldet
ector
.

Me:I
sthi
sreal
lynecessar
y

Ndu:Wegoi
ngt
ohol
dont
othi
s

Irol
lmyeyeswewalki
n,assoonasigett
othem
theyshovemedownachai
r.

Me:Yal
ldon'
tscar
emeiam goi
ngt
ogouzokhal
a
Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Guys

Theyl
owert
hei
rgunsit
akemygunf
rom Ndumi
so.

Me:Iam nother
etost
artawar

Mzwakhe:Whyyouher
ethan

Me:Levelwit
hmebecauseiam notgoi
ngt
otake
yourbul
lshi
t

Ihandhi
m af
il
ehesi
ghs.Hi
ssi
deki
ckt
akesi
tfr
om
hi
m.

Me:Asyoual
lknowir
unasyndi
cat
e
Mzwakhe:Hol
dpl
ease

Sakhi
le:Youwantt
otr
aff
icourmommy

Me:Shutt
hef
uckupandl
etmespeak

Mzwakhe:Whyar
eyouyel
li
ng

Me:Sot
hatnoneofyouar
shol
eint
err
uptme

Mzwakhe:Guysguys

Me:Nkabi
ndecametomewi tht
hatf
il
ehegat
her
ed
someinf
ormat
ionabouther

Mzwakhe:Whi
chNkabi
nde
Me:Ther
e'sonl
yoneNkabi
ndei
nourl
ineofwor
k

Sakhi
le:Hei
sahumant
raf
fi
cker

Me:Idi
dn'
ttel
lyout
hat
.Hesai
dhewouldmakea
l
otofmoneyandpaybackf
orbust
ingt
heoper
ati
on

Hel
aughs.

Sakhi
le:Whatdi
dyout
ellme

Me:Iwil
ltellMzwakheandiam preparedtogo
thr
oughtheconsequencesofcoursethatdidn'
t
scarehi
m, hesai
dhewi llt
akei
ttothebigbosses
nowwhathedoesn' tknow

Mzwakhe:Youpar
toft
hebi
gbosses
Me:Ifhedoesn'
tst
oppursuingthi
sal otcoul
d
happen.Myfamil
y,youguys.Yourfamily

Mzwakhe:Youst
il
lgoi
ngt
ori
ski
twhy

Me:Youdon'tneedtoknowthatnowicanpr
otect
herunt
ilyoufi
gureoutwhatt
odo

Hel
aughs.

Thabi
so:Whyar
eyoul
aughi
ng

Mzwakhe:Phol
a

Hemaybel aughi
ngbutinsi
dehei sati
ckingti
me
bombandwhenheexpl odes,cal
lthepol
ice,S.W.A.
T,FBI
,sol
dier
s.Heknowsmymovesiknowhi s.
Phi
ndi
le
Iwasf
eel
ingabi
tbet
ternowSi
zweandt
het
wins
j
oinme.

Me:Whyar
eyouf
ight
ingnow

Si
zwe:Hemustgoback

Me:Can'
tyouj
ustcoexi
st

Si
zwe:Wecan'
tbei
nthesamepl
ace

Me:Mzwakhel
ikeshi
m soyouj
usthavet
ost
ucki
t

Lungel
o:WhatarewegoingtodoaboutCynt
hiaor
rat
herwhatdoesthequeent
hinkofdoi
ng
Me:Thebesticandoishidehershefai
ledto
complet
ehertask,
thatdemonwilluseherasa
sacr
if
icetocomeback

Si
zwe:Youshoul
dki
llher

Me:Idon'
tki
llihel
pandheal
you

Theyl
augh.

Me:That
stheonlyt
hingt
hatwi
llhel
pher
.Hel
pme
t
omyr oom bef
oreMzwakheki
ll
sme

Mzwakhe
Theytookhi
sgir
landwewer eabletogetherback.
Hehasbeenhuggingherfordearl
if
e,makesme
thi
nkaboutPhi
ndil
e.I
fieverl
ostheragainiwould
l
osemysel
f.

Sakhi
le:Khambani

Me:Helooksvul
nerabl
ehewoul
dn'
tli
eabout
somet
hingli
kethi
s

Andi
le:Youokayt
heydi
dn'
ttouchyou

Sheshakesherhead.

Andi
le:Oni
kaar
eyousur
eiswear

Onika:Idon'
tknowAndi
leabunchofsnakes
showedup

Me:Ther
eyouhavei
t
Hisphoneri
ngshelooksatme,wetur
nonour
devi
cethatdi
sabl
elocat
iont
racki
ng.

Cal
ler
:Wetaki
ngt
hegi
rlandt
her
eisnot
hingyou
candoabouti
t

Andi
le:Br
ingi
tonyoust
upi
dmot
herf
ucker

Nkabi
ndeiam goi
ngt
oki
llt
hisman.

Nkabinde:Whydoyoucaresheisjustanot
her
b*tchheisfucki
ng,
comeon.Getagr i
pandprepar
e
forher,
ithi
nkiwanttot
asteherbeforeweshi
pher
off

Andi
le:Udaki
we
Hehungsupandmakeanot
hercal
l.

Andi
le:Li
stent
akemom tot
hesafehouse,
find
Samkelo'
skidandbabymama.HowdoesNkabi nde
knowaboutPhindi
le

Me:Hemayhaveseenhershi
t

Andi
le:Uyi
nkawungempel
awena(
Your
eal
lyar
ea
monkey)

Myphonebeeps"
Don'
tloseme"Isi
gh.
[
06/
06,
15:
28] :199

Andi
le
Thesi
tuat
iongotworseandwearetryi
ngourbest
todef
useit,
thesepeopl
ewerewast
ingtime.It
s
onl
yamat t
eroftimebefor
esendst
hosepicturest
o
thedar
kweb,ahonceit
sther
eherauct
ionwi
llst
art
andwecan'
tlett
hatt
hathappen.

Me:Howf
arar
eyou

Ayanda:Thet
imeitt
akesf
oryoutoaskthat
quest
ion,t
hemoreti
meitt
akesawayfrom me
doi
ngmyj ob

Me:Fuckyouiwi l
lgladlyleaveandl etmet el
lyou
Phindil
ewillbeshippedof ffasterthanyoucan
bli
nk.Taket hatpi
cturedown, lockhim outand
blockhimfrom postingit.Yousai dtobet hebest
techgeekoutt her
e,hitmanext raordinai
reandyou
can'tevencrashasi t
e.Ahhshutyourmout h

Thobani
:Ehl
isaumoyaphel
a

Me:Youchoset
hel
osi
ngt
eam
Thobani
:Youbet
rayedmeandiwi
llnevergetover
that

Me:What
ever

Sakhi
le:Younotgoi
ngt
ofi
ndanyt
hing

Me:Whosaysiwantt
ofi
ndsomet
hing

Sakhi
le:What
evert
hingyoudoi
ngt
her
eyouwon'
t
fi
ndanythi
ng

Me:Wher
eisMzwakhe

Thobani
:Andi
le
It
akeofmygl
assesandsi
gh.

Ayanda:Youwel
come

Ial
soneedt olockhim outanddon'
tcause
suspi
cion.Ical
lIvan.

I
van:Mif
avor
it
o(Myf
avor
it
e)

Me:Yahnosot
rost
enemosunpr
obl
ema(
Wegota
pr
oblem)

I
van:Notr
atobi
enl
ospr
obl
emas(
Idon'
tdealwel
l
wit
hprobl
ems)

Me:Puedesveni
rasudaf
ri
ca?(
Canyoucomet
o
Sout
hAfrica)
Hesi
ghs.

Me:Goaheadl
augh

Theycr
ack.Ihavenevermetsuchi
diot
sinmy
ent
ir
eli
fe.

Mzwakhe
Shewassi ngingf
ixi
ngwhateverintheroom.Ilean
onthedoorf r
ameadmi ri
ngher.Iam gl
adt osee
shehasrecoveredalit
tl
ebit
,ihopeshet akesit
easybecausemoghelcangocr azy.Shel ooksup
andseesmeismi l
e.

Me:Rememberyouwouldsi
ngt
hatsongandi
woul
dinst
ant
lyfal
lasl
eep

Phi
ndi
le:Apl
aceiusedt
ocal
lhomemysanct
uar
y
Me:Thisi
sst i
llyourhomeevenidest
royedit
.Iwil
l
doever
ythinginmypoweraskingforforgi
veness,
eveni
fittakesmeahundr edyear
s.Iwil
lalwaysbe
remor
seful

Shebr
eat
hesheavi
l
y.

Me:Ngi
yaxol
isaPhi
ndi
le

Phindile:IlovedyouMzwakhewi t
hallmyhear tand
yout ookt hatawayf rom me.Yesimaynotbeen
perfect,ihadt hi
ngsgoi ngoninmyl if
e.Since
foreveribeenf i
ghti
ng.Ifoughtwheniwentbl i
nd, i
foughtwhenicoul dn'thearathing.If
oughtwhen
myl egsdi dn'twork.Allineededwasj ustl
oveand
younevergavemeachancet oloveyou

Me:Whatyoumeanmama
Phindil
e:Ididn'
tknowihadthesepowersandi
didn'
tknowihadt oacceptthem,soyourancest
ors
theypunishedme.Iwatchedyouparadewi t
hthi
s
person,iunderst
andyoudidn'tl
ovemeandiwasn't
enoughf oryou

Me:Mamayoumor
ethanenough

Phi
ndi
le:Butt
hat
'snothowyouf
elt

Me:Iguessigotscar ednotbecauseyouasnake,
butbecauseoft hewomant hatyourar
e.Iwasn'
t
readyforallofthat
,iwasn'
treadytobefai
thf
ulor
bethisvulnerablet
oyou

If
eell
ikei
fiexpl
aini
tinEngl
ishi
twon'
thur
theras
much.
Me:Iwasn'
treadyf
ort
hatyouwer
etoomuchofan
al
fafemal
ethaniwas

Phi
ndil
e:Thi
sai
n'tnof
astandt
hef
uri
ousDom and
l
ett
ie

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Butir eal
izeyoujustwhatineedandwant .
Ngiyakuncanywamommyangi f
isiukuphi
nde
ngi
kuhluphe,ngiyaf
ungangempi loyami (
Iloveyou
andi don'twi
shtohur tyoul
ikethisagai
n,iswear
onmyl ife)

Shel
ooksatme.

Phindi
le:Atl
eastrespectmeenought ol
etmeknow
okaythingsar
elikethisanddon'
tjustbl
ameonthe
curse
Me:What
everyouwantyougoti
t

Phi
ndi
le:We'
l
lsee

Phi
ndi
le
Iremovet hebandagedthescrut
inyiam goi
ngto
recei
vefrom thisayshame.Mywoundhasheal ed
andclosedup, igetdr
essedandheaddownst ai
rs.

Igr
abat
hrowandputoverNonhl
eshewakesup.

Me:Tur
nupt
het
emper
atur
e

Nonhl
e:Mommy

Ayanda:Nonhl
e..
.Baby
Nonhl
e:Umemezel
ani
(Whyyouscr
eami
ng)

Sakhi
le:Iwi
llneedanewbestf
ri
endnowwher
eis
yourmanicamet ofet
chhi
m

Me:Mzwakheoht
her
ehei
s

Heki
ssesme.

Sakhi
le:Ndodaasambe

Mzwakhe:Iam si
ck

Sakhi
le:Si
ck

Mzwakhe:Hm mm
Sakhi
le:Si
ckwi
thwhat

Mzwakhe:Out
ofhouseof
phobi
a

Sakhi
le:Out
ofhouseof
phobi
a

Mzwakhe:Yeahi
tsf
earofbei
ngoutt
hehouse

Sakhi
le:Wel
lout
ofhouseof
phobi
ayourassoutnow

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantt
ogomommy

Hedr
agshim outt
heyl
eave,
out
ofhouseof
phobi
a
ohMzwakhe.
Mzwakhe
Iwoul
dn'
tbeher
eiftheygott
hisundercontr
ol.
Theywast
ingmyti
meandidon' tt
akekindl
ytothat
.

Me:Umt hethowenuniyayazii
ntoeni
yenzayonoma,
ni
jatshul
iswaukubonaubusobam, ngiyazi
ngimuhle(Doyouknowwhatyourdoi ngoryour
j
usthappyt obeablet
ost areatmyface)

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Mmm

Nkabi
nde:Myl
ovelypart
nerokayrealqui
ckmywi f
e
i
shavingadi
nnerpart
yandiwouldl ovei
tifyou
coul
djoi
nme,wit
hyourbeautif
uldarkgorgeous
fami
ly
Whatdoisayt
ohi
m.

Me:Yeahsur
ewewoul
dbedel
ight
ed

Nkabi
nde:Awesomeiwi
llt
extyoual
lthedet
ail
s

Andil
e:Hello..
.Ncwaneyinii
nkingayakhoi
ni.Shei
s
notforsalewhatdoyoumeanhef lewever
yonein.
Bandil
elistenthatgi
rli
snotforsale,
okayt
hanks
fort
heheadsup

Sakhi
le:EvenBandi
leNcwanei
sahumant
raf
fi
cker

Nowonderidon'
tli
kethem i
twon'
tbeeasyt
aki
ng
downt
hewhol ecar
telnow.

Andi
le:Idar
eyoumot
herf
uckeridar
eyou
Ismi
rk.

Phi
ndi
le
Sbusisoboughtar
oundhisboot hangwewal ked
therunwaytoget
her.Iam happyiwasthefirst
persontomeether,shewentintother
iverandt he
ancestor
sloveher.

Me:Ladi
esicomebar
inggi
ft
sthi
sisLut
handot
he
model

Sindi
swa:Iknewyoul
ookedf
amili
ar,
yout
hatgir
l
everyt
imeyoustr
utdownacert
ainki
ndofsmil
ed
poppedupinSbu

Me:Luthandothi
sisOlwet
hufir
stl
ady,
Nonhl
e,
Si
ndiswa,Ler
atooneismissi
ngshe'
satwor
kand
me
Lu:Lovel
ymeet
ingyou

Olwethu:Wedon'
twanttopunchyounowgi
rlyou
bett
ertreathi
mri
ghtnoiam j
oking

Wel
augh.

Rat
o:Pr
egnancyai
n'tneverl
ookedt
hisgood

Sheissobeauti
fulandsuperyel
lowbonei
ts
unbel
ievabl
e.

Rat
o:It
sthatd*ckr
ightwenaOl
wet
huwhenyou
get
ti
ngpregnant

Ol
wet
hu:Mepr
egnantohno

Me:Thet
imei
scomi
ng
Rat
o:Youshoul
dlonghavehadki
ds

Olwethu:Youknowther
ewasat i
mewheremyt i
ts
didn'
thangdownt omywai
st.Myasswasn'tcl
oser
tomyknees, wher
eihadpl
entyofti
megett
ing
mar r
ied

Wel
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Nowiam notsosur
e

Ohwel lal
loft
hem gett
obepr
egnantihopet
hey
don'
tloseme.
[
06/
06,
15:
29] :Seasonf
inal
e

200
Andi
le
Thisfamilyanddr amatheyacti
ngasifiam goi
ng
tostageanat t
ackont hem.Iwasbaggedandmy
handswer eti
ed, idon'
tknowwherewear eorwher
e
wegoi ng.Foralliknowtheycoul
dbetheones
planni
ngmyat t
ack.

Theyr
emovet
hebagandunt
ieme.

Me:Real
lyi
sthi
sevennecessar
y

James:Haveaseatmol
onkosazane

Her
:Sawubonababa

Jamesisanyt
hingbutubabahei
sazaddyheages
l
ikef
inewine,
shelooksatme.
Her
:Woul
dyoul
ikesomecof
fee

Me:Yespl
ease

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Ivanj
ustgi
vemeaf
ewmi
nut
esiam comi
ng
now

Awholel
otoft hem enterwhointheirr
ightmind
makessomuchnoi sei nthemorning.Myheadi s
goi
ngtoexplodeandiam goingtohaveaser ious
malf
unct
ion.Isipont hi
scoff
eeandi ti
sdevine.

Sakhi
le:YaAndi
le

Me:Sho
Sakhi
le:Youst
il
lnotgoi
ngt
ofi
ndanyt
hing

Yeahwhateveriknowthatnow,
helaughs.Thani
hearabeauti
fulvoi
ceandimmediat
elycal
m down.

Me:Whosepent
housei
sthi
s

Mzwakhe:Mi
nes

Me:Ni
ce

Mzwakhe:OkayAndi l
ewhati
sitt
hatyouwantme
todo,becauseicanseeyoudon'
twantmeto
obl
it
erateyourpart
ner

Me:Hei smymi ddl

emanli
stenigotmypartner
comingin,youasmartmaniam sureyouandyour
team canf
indwaystomakethisgoaway
Thatangel
icvoi
cecomescl
oser
.

Phi
ndi
le:Hel
loever
yone

Mzwakhe:Mama

Theyki
sseachot
herar
ghyuck.

Me:Siest
oyvi
niendo(
Yaiam comi
ng)

Mzwakhe:Hai
boyouspeakSpani
sh

Ishowhi
mthemi
ddl
efi
ngerandl
eave.

Mzwakhe
Shewasdanci
ngi
fidoki
llhi
m asquadof
tr
aff
ickersanddruglordswouldbeonmyt ai
l.I
don'
thavet hatki
ndofmanpower ,exceptmybaby
ofcourse.Wecant akethatwhol
eoper at
iondown
butwedon'twantt ori
skthat.

Sakhi
le:Yougood

Me:Wegood

Il
ookatSbu.

Sbu:Lut
handocanyoucomeher
eforasecond

Theyl
augh.

Sbu:Myl
ovemeett
heBhengu'
s

Me:Ohsot
hisi
sthel
adyyoubeenhi
ding
Li
nda:Youl
ookf
ami
li
ar

Thobani
:Sbusi
sowat
chout

Wel
augh.

Sbu:Youguyssawheratkhet
ho'
sfashi
onshow,
theysi
bli
ngs

Li
nda:Yeahyouwer
ewal
kingal
ongsi
deour
mommy

Me:Wel
comet
othef
ami
ly

Lu:Thankyou
Me:Thel
adi
eshavet
heymetyout
hel
adyoft
he
house

Lu:Theywer
ear
gui
ngaboutwhoi
swho

Me:Don'
tbel
ieveever
ythi
ngPhi
ndi
lei
ssayi
ngokay

Myphonebeeps"
Canwer
iski
tal
it
tl
ebi
t"

Me:Asambeni
..
.Phi
ndi
le

Andi
le
IknowMzwakheandhei ssl
owl
ylosi
nghi s
pati
enceifnobodycomesupwit
hapl an.The
bastar
disgoingtoexpl
odeandidefi
nit
elydonot
needhisdrama.

I
van:Queest
amoshaci
endoaqui(
Whatar
ewe
doi
ngher
e)

Me:You'
l
lsee

Theyar
ri
veI
vanl
ooksatme.

Mzwakhe:Youbet
ternotpi
ssmeof
f

Me:I
tsyourf
aul
twei
nthi
smess

I
van:Whati
sgoi
ng

Me:Miparej
aqui
erevenderaest
asenor
it
a(My
par
tnerwant
stosel
lher)

Hesmi
les.
Me:Nopuedodej
arqueesosuceda(
Icannotl
et
t
hathappen

Ivan:Porqueesmuyhermosayganar
iamucho
dinero?(
Whyshe'sver
ybeaut
if
ulandwoul
dmake
l
ot sofmoney)

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Shecomesandt oucheshishand,ishakemyhead.
Manyyear sagoI vanandist
artedthi
sthing,
along
thewayt hi
ngsgotmessy.Heki ll
edSantana'
s
brotherMike,hesoldusoutandwet ookhim out.
SincethanSantanahasbeenl ooki
ngforhis
brothersmurderers,
hepull
shishand.

Mzwakhe:Wemaynotbeablet
otakeawhole
car
teldown,
butf
rom wi
thi
nwecandest
royyou
I
van:Quet
ienesenment
e(Whatdoyouhavei
n
mind)

Me:Youguysareupnowwewi l
lst
opthi
sfrom
happeni
ngonoursi
de.Youdealwi
thNkabi
nde

Ivan:Mool
er.Esosi
emprecausapr
obl
emas(
That
onealwayscausesprobl
ems)

Me:Cuent
amesobr
eeso(
Tel
lmeabouti
t)

Ivan:Misenor
aesmuyher
mosa(
Myl
adyi
sver
y
beauti
ful
)

Me:Muy(
Ver
y)ohandr
emember

Mzwakhe:Yeahwhat
everd*
ckhead
Mzwakhe
Okaynowweget t
ingsomewher eeveni
fAndileand
hi
sSpanishguythreatenNkabi
nde,hewon'
tletthi
s
go.Hewon'tst
opunt i
lPhi
ndil
eissoldt
othe
hi
ghestbi
dder.

Thobani
:Hi
sdaught
erl
ovest
odancei
nfacti
tsher
l
if
e

Me:Okay

Thobani:Secondt
hoseguysar
eloadmadr
ich,
wit
h
gl
amor ousmachines

Me:Woul
dAndi
leal
lowust
othat

Thobani
:ForyoumaybenotbutPhi
ndi
lehecan
compromise
Sakhi
le:Weneedt
ogeti
nthei
rhousesandsecur
it
y
syst
ems

Me:Fi
ndoutf
rom Andi
lewhoNkabi
ndei
sinvi
ti
ng

Sakhi
le:I
fhedoesn'
tdr
opt
his

Me:Wegoingf
ortheki
lluphiuThapel
o.Thaps
comeoutf
rom wher
everyouhiding

Heappear
swi
thhi
sar
msf
olded.

Me:Canial
sohavet
hatpower

Thapelo:Youhavethem youj
ustcan'
tuset
hem
becauseyouangeredyourancest
ors.Whyam i
here
Me:Ineedyourhel
p

Thapel
o:Iam l
eavi
ng

Them:What

Me:Why

Li
nda:Justwheniwasst
art
ingt
oli
keyou

Thapel
o:Idon'
tli
keyouei
ther

Me:DidwedosomethingwrongThapsyoucan'
tgo
man.Ineedyouatl
easthel
pmegetoutofthisand
youcanthi
nkaboutl
eavi
ng
Li
nda:Youmadt
heygotbackt
oget
her

Hel
aughs.

Thapelo:Madaboutwhatt
heywer
egoi
ngt
oget
backtogether

Me:Thapel
o

Thapel
o:Okay

Ineedt
hesesnakes.

Phi
ndi
le
Hel
ooksatme.

Si
zwe:Phi
ndi
le
Me:Younotaboutt
omakemef
ightwi
thMzwakhe

Sizwe:Youwon'tneedt ofi
ghtwi
thhimtal
ktohi
m
withrespect
,don'tuseyoural
famaleonhi
m.Talk
tohim ashisgir
lf
r i
end

Me:It
oldyouhel
ikeshi
m

Si
zwe:Wemor ethancapabl
eofdoi
ngt
hej
ob
Thapel
odoesn'
tneedtobehere

Me:Okayiwi
llt
alkt
ohi
m

Idon'
tknowwhati
stheprobl
em wi
tht
hem
Mzwakhewil
lscr
eam atme.
[
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Mzwakhe
Anotherfi
ghtbet
weenThapel
oandSi zwe
happened,ar
etheygoi
ngtoattackeachot herever
y
ti
met heyseeeachot
her.Whatisthei
rissuereall
y.

Me:Kant
iwhywef aci
ngabigdi
lemmayouguys
wantt
omurdereachother

Sakhi
le:Whati
sgoi
ngon

Thaps:Askhi
m whati
shi
spr
obl
em

Me:Phi
ndi
leexpl
aint
hisnonsense

Phindi
le:Thapel
ocameherebecauseofyouwe
fi
xednowhehast ogobackt
ohisworld

Me:Thatst
il
ldoesn'
texpl
ainwhyever
yti
met
hey
seeeachot
her
,theywantt
oki
lleachot
her

Phi
ndi
le:Ionl
yknowwhatiam supposedt
oknow

Il
ookathersheknowssomet
hing.

Me:Wellyouhavetotal
ktoyourguysot
her
wisewe
notgoi
ngtogetalong

Sakhi
le:Mzwakheno

Me:Theyf
ight
ingwhatam isupposedt
odo

Sakhil
e:I
tsafi
ghtbetweensnakesmawuyi
ngena
l
entoyougoingtofi
ghtPhindi
leandwhenyoufi
ght
Phindi
le

Them:Yal
lbr
eakup
Thel
if
topensheent
ersandmodel
s.

Me:Yaaashoneyyaashoneywor
kit

Li
nda:Dar
li
ngt
eachmehowt
owal
k

Khet
ho:Lef
toutst
andst
rai
ghtl
eftr
ight

Wel
augh.

Andi
le
Mzwakhesayshewant sustomeetwhynowidon't
know,wegotthr oughever yt
hing.Nkabi
ndeis
pull
ingoutal
lthest ops, hei
nvit
edthetopdogst
he
dooropensPhilaniwal ksin.

Me:Son
Phi
lani
:Heydad

Me:It
akei
tyouher
ebecauseofPhi
ndi
le

Phi
lani
:Ican'
tst
ressenoughhowi
mpor
tanti
tisnot
tol
oseher

Me:Wel
lwenotiwi
llmakesur
eofi
t

Phi
lani
:Ifhedoesn'
tleti
tgo

Me:Wegof
ort
heki
ll

Phi
lani
:Iam havi
ngababy

Il
ookathi
m.
Mzwakhe
Iam theonlyonewhocanprot
ectPhindi
leandthe
reasonwhynobodyissayi
nganythi
ng.Thisismy
fi
ghtanditsti
meiputmyfooti
nit.

Khet
ho:Iwassur
pri
sedwhenyoucal
led

Me:I
fanybodycandoi
t,i
tsyou

Khet
ho:Al
ri
ghtiam l
ist
eni
ng

Me:Ifyouhaveanysui
tspleasehookusup,
alsoi
needtomakeadr essf
orher

Het
akesouthi
stapeandst
art
smeasur
ingher
.

Khet
ho:Ar
eyoudyi
ng
Phi
ndi
le:Whatno

Khet
ho:Honeyyougotaf
igur
efordays

Andanassfordaysaymanmygi
rl
fr
iendi
s
beaut
if
ul.

Me:Iwantherl
ooki
ngsnat
chedf
ordaysandal
so
makeasuit

Khet
ho:Foryou

Me:No

Thel
if
topens.
Me:Hi
m

Andi
le:Whyam iher
eit
houghtwef
inal
ized
ever
ythi
ng

Me:Iam r
unni
ngt
heshownowgomeasur
ehi
m

Hesi
ghs.

Phi
ndi
le
Icandefi
nit
elyf
eelthest
ressandheavi
nesshei
s
carr
yingandsexisnotgoi
ngtodoanythi
ng.He
getsontopofme.

Me:Mzwakheno

Mzwakhe:Awmommyngi
yacel
a
Me:Thi
sai
n'tgonnahel
p,i
twi
llj
ustsendyououtof
cont
rol

Mzwakhe:Comewi
tht
hebul
lshi
tonl
ybecausei
am
i
nagoodmood

Me:Iain'
ttryi
ngtocauseanyt
hing,
howeversi
nce
Sizweandt hetwi
nsarethepr
otect
orsoft
hesnake.
Theymyl ovearetheoneswhostepupandprotect
youguys,whateveri
tmaybe

Mzwakhe:Idon'
tknowthi
sSizweguyhei sgi
ving
mebadvibes,andchi
ll
ssomethingdodgyandcold
abouthi
m.Thosegreyeyesablackokayheisnot
bl
ackbut

Me:Wouldyour at
hert
heybewhi
teandr
efl
ect
snakeeyesbecause
Ibl
inkmyeyes.

Mzwakhe:Damm youl
ooksexy

Ibl
inkmyeyesagai
n.

Me:Al
liam sayi
nghei
smebutver
ydanger
ous

Mzwakhe:See

Me:Pl
ease

Mzwakhe:Canyouheart
hat

Me:What

Mzwakhe:P*
ssyt
hatwant
stobel
icked
Hepullsmedownt otheedgeofthebed,heri
psmy
pantsoff
.Helovesri
ppi
ngmyst ufft
hisone,
expensi
vest
uff.
[
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29] :202

Mzwakhe
Thingssortofwentleft
,wenotsureifwegoingto
makeNkabi nde'sf
akedinnerpar
ty.Phi
ndil
eisofto
fi
ghtademont hel
ifeopensJamesenterswith
Andileandsomesui tcover
s.

James:Whatar
ehi
spr
onouncebef
oreisayt
he
wrongthi
ng

Wel
augh.

Me:He
Khethoisnotyouraveragegayper
sonhehashis
moment sthoughandwenothomophobi c,
theonl
y
personwhodoesn'tunderst
andthi
sisThapel
o.We
hadtoteachhim nothi
ngwrongwithamanhaving
rel
ati
onswi t
hanotherman.

James:Anywayshewillcomel
ateryeaht
hesear
e
thedr
essesthi
sisyoursuit
.

Andi
le:I
tsnotmybi
rt
hday

Me:Yougoi
ngt
oar
ri
vewi
thPhi
ndi
lesot
ryt
haton

Andi
le:I
sther
ear
oom icanuse

Me:Weal
lmen
Thabi
so:Wai
tami
nut
e

Theyal
lhol
dAndi
leandpul
ldownhi
spant
s.

Andi
le:Whatt
hehel
l

Het
ri
est
ofi
ghtt
hem butt
heyhol
dhi
m puthi
s.

Thabi
so:Haaunesagi
laesi
ngaka

Wel
aughboyswi
llbeboyst
heyl
etgoofhi
m.

Andi
le:Thati
snotver
ymanl
yli
keiam goi
ngt
oget
youf
ool s

Welaughyeahi
tsbl
ack,
long,
thi
ckandt
her
ight
si
ze.
Me:Li
stenwemaynotbeabl
etomaket
hedi
nner

Andi
le:Why

Me:Phi
ndi
lei
snother
e

Andi
le:Youl
etheroutbyher
sel
f

Me:Rel
axshej
ustgonesomewher
espi
ri
tual

Andi
le:Oh

Me:Youwillwaitforheri
fshedoesn'
tshowupt
han
keshedoesn'tshowup

Phi
ndi
le
Today'
sdemonwasdif
fer
entanddif
fi
cul
tiwas
fi
ghti
ngashadowofal
lmyfears.

Si
zwe:Heywhyar
eyouat
tacki
ngme

Iseei
tappear
ingi
nfr
ontofhi
m.

Me:Whyyoukeephar
assi
ngme

Ipushhi
m awayandr
un.

Voice:What
swr
ongpr
incess.Facei
tyounomat
ch
forme

Lungel
o:Nkosazane

Me:St
opf
oll
owi
ngme
Myanxiet
ygetsthebestofmeami dstoffog
appear
s.Thi
sfoglooksfamil
iar,
acol dchi
llpasses
thr
oughmybody.Ilookaroundiam inthecold
for
estmygatewaytotheri
ver.Ifear
edthisplacea
l
ot.

Voi
ce:Yourf
ri
endscan'
tseemeonl
yyoucan

Me:Iwi
llf
indyout
hat
'sf
orsur
e

Voi
ce:Youwoul
dhavetofi
ghtmealonei
fyoudon'
t
wantt
oputyourf
ri
endsindanger

Mzwakhe
Wewerejustchi
ll
ingwecoul
dn'
tdoanyt
hing.
Andi
lewasmunchi ngonm&m,hesaysi
thelpshi
m
cal
m down.
Sakhi
le:Themi
ght
yAndi
leshaki
ngi
nhi
sboot
s

Andi
le:I
tsbecauseiknowonceshe'
sinther
e,t
here
i
snoget t
ingoutnomatterhowpowerf
ulonecanbe

Wenotgoi
ngt
oletanyt
hinghappent
oPhi
ndi
le.

Me:Youanyi
deawhati
sgoi
ngt
ohappen

Andil
e:Nopictur
esofhershoul dbet akenwhatever
happensdonotl etheroutofyoursight.Ther
eisa
tubedonotlethergetinthethe,Yourguysmust
getofri
doforhacki ntohissecuri
tysystem.
Whateverangleshe'singetri
dofit

Me:Wellt
hanwil
ldependonwhetherwegoingor
not.Wegott
oseehowt hedaypansoutinthe
meanti
me,youcangoandcomeorchi l
l.Iwil
lbe
backdoyouwanttocomewi t
hme.Idon'tneedyou
j
udgi
ngme

Sakhi
le:Iwi
llst
aybehi
ndbecausevel
eiam goi
ng
toj
udgeyou

Me:What
ever

Il
eave.

Si
zwe
Thequeenwasi naful
lmentalconfusi
on.She
keepsat
tacki
ngusandr unni
ngaway.Sheneedst
o
fi
ndawayt obreakf
reefrom t
his.

Me:Nkosazanest
opr
unni
ngi
tsme

Phi
ndi
le:Yout
hinki
am goi
ngt
obel
ieveibel
ieve
you
Lungani
:Wehavet
ost
opt
hispower

Lungel
o:Howdowef
ightsomet
hingwecan'
tsee

Me:Somethi
ngisconfusi
ngherwi
thus.Onl
yshe
candoit
,shecan'
tfi
ghtit

Shehasdonegr
eatsof
arwecan'
tlethergi
veup
now.

Phi
ndi
le
Theyallappearbef
oremeigetangr
yr eal
lyangr
y.I
for
mf i
reball
sonbothmyhands,ineverknewihad
thi
smuchgr eatpower.

Theylaughcausi
nganevenmor
e,i
rr
it
abl
eand
defeani
ngsoundtomyears.
"
Don'
tyour
ecogni
zeus"

Voi
ce:Savemeandyouwi
llsaveyour
sel
ffr
om t
his
ni
ghtmarepr
incess

"
Wear
ewor
ri
edaboutyou,
can'
twai
tyouseei
t"

"
Trustus"

Voi
ce:At
tackthem bef
oret
heysur
roundyou
ot
herwi
seitsoverf
oryou

"
Nkosazanef
ight
"

Voi
ce:St
abt
hem nowdest
royt
hem now
Myheadst
art
spoundi
ngi
naver
ybadway.

Voi
ce:Yest
herewegodest
royt
hem pr
incessandi
wil
lgett
heul
ti
matepower

"
Nkosazanedon'
ttr
ustwhatyouseer
ememberbe
f
ear
less"

Icl
osemyeyes.

Voi
ce:At
tackt
hem now

Me:No

Iopenmyeyest heshadowinfr
ontofthem fades
away.Iam notscar
edthisi
sapartofmyni ghtmare,
mydemi se,
myf ear
stheonlywaytodefeatiti
sto
accepti
t.
Voice:Youcan'
tacceptmeyouwoul
dbeput
ti
ng
everyonei
ndanger

Me:Icanyouj
ustapr
oject
ionofmyf
ear
s

Wet r
ansformint
osnakesigoar oundtheot
her
snake.Ican'
tbel
ieveiam abouttoswall
owasnake.

Sakhi
le
Theancest orsletmeinonhisplanandiam very
happyist ayedbehind.Mzwakhewi l
ldi
etr
yingto
protectanyofus, hewouldr
atherbeinareall
y
fuckedupsi tuati
onthant
oletanythi
nghappento
hisfamily.

Theguysweresloshediain'
tdri
nki
nganythi
ng,i
havenoideawhereitcamefrom.Iam posi
ti
vethe
dri
nksar
espikedandal lt
hefoodispoi
soned.
I
van:Mipar
ejanoi
nvi
tada(
Mypar
tnernoti
nvi
ted)

Whatmesst
hesepeopl
ehavegot
tenusi
nto.

Nkabi
nde:Pat
ienceMont
enegr
opat
ience

Hel
ookssi
dewaysandl
ooksatme.

Ayanda:"
Iam i
ndamnt
hesemot
herf
ucker
sar
e
l
oaded"

Ofcour
setheyaretheyselldr
ugsandhumansf
ora
l
ivi
ng.Moneytheydon'tdeser
ve.

Nkabinde:It
houghtyouwoul
dbebr
ingi
ngyour
wholefamily
Mzwakhe:Thi
sismywhol
efami
ly

Ayanda:"
Wedowest artwi
thMrSpani
shguy,okay
mommyj ustent
eredt
hebuil
dingshei
sget
ti
ng
ready"

Mzwakhe
Shel ooksamazi ngidon'tknowwhatt hesedresses
ar
ecal led,butit
sacut el
ongof ftheshoulderbl
ack
dress.Wi t
hasheersomet hi
ngunderneathcovered
i
ndi amomds, shelookssnatched.

Nt
ando:"
Onewr
ongmoveboom she'
sgone"

Idon'
tneedanyone'
snegat
ivet
hought
s.

Andi
le:Sor
ryiam l
atehadt
ogopi
ckt
hisgor
geous
t
hang
Theyki
ssheythatwasnotsupposedt
ohappen.
Themaniskissi
ngmygirlwow,sheact
sal
ongiam
goi
ngtopunchthisf
ool
.

Andi
le:"
Tol
dyouiwasgoi
ngt
ogetyouf
ool
s"

Nkabi
ndel
ooksgobsmacked,
theot
her
sar
esmi
li
ng.

I
van:Puedemisenor
asent
arseamil
ado?(
Canmy
l
adysitnextt
ome)

Andi
le:No

Ayanda:"YoMontenegroi
sthebaddestb*
tch
Nonhlehasbeennaggingmeaboutthose
expensi
vestr
oll
ers,andnowsheisgoingt
oget
one"
Theyser
veusf
ood.

Phi
ndi
le:Sor
ryiam al
ler
gict
oseaf
ood

Thewi
fe:Letmegochecki
ntheki
tchen

Nkabi
nde:Iwi
lldoi
t

Man1:Rel
axmool
erl
asci
aandar
elamogi
le(
Let
t
hewif
edoit)

Myphonebeeps" Whateveryouhavegoingondoi
t
now,thesepeopl
earesmi l
ingbecauset
heythi
nki
boughtherin"

Ayanda:"
Andwet
akeof
"
Andi
le
Heisgrinni
ngandlaughingdoest hi
sfoolreall
y
thi
nkinhisri
ghtmind.Iwasgoi ngtoall
owt histo
happenwellhehasanotherthingcoming,allof
thei
rphonebeepstheycan'thearitbutican
becauseofMzwakhe'shightech.Hemustsome
dayborrowmehislovelyexpensivegadgets.

"
Wowihaven'
tseensomuchmoneyi
nmyl
if
e"

Ceci
l:Questavol
tatisei
super
ato(
Thi
sti
meyou
haveoutdoneyoursel
f)

I
van:Muyher
mosa(
Ver
ybeaut
if
ul)

Me:Lament
ablement
enoest
aalavent
a
(
Unfort
unat
elyshei
snotf
orsal
e)

Them:What
Me:Whydon'
tever
ybodycheckt
hei
rphones

Mzwakhe:SeeNkabi ndewet ol
dyout olett
hisgo
youdidn'twantto,nowt hisisjustsmallwaters.I
won'tonlykil
lyouiwi l
lhurteverythi
ngand
ever
yoneconnect edt oallofyou.Shei snotforsal
e
andsuredamnai n'
tnor evengegetback.Such
audacit
yt hi
nkingyoucanpul lt
hisshitwit
hme, me
Nkabindeyousi l
lyfool

Me:Here'
swhatsgoingtohappentheygoi
ngto
l
eavenowwi t
hher.Ifanyofyout
rysomethi
ng
f
unnyiam taki
ngallofyoudown

Nkabi
nde:I
sthi
ssomeki
ndofaj
oke

Me:Iwar
nedyoudidn'
tiyout
houghtiwasj
oki
ng.
Nokeepyoureyesher
eonme
Mzwakhe:Iam real
l
ysorryyourdaddydi
dn'tgi
ve
meanychoice,cont
inueusi
ngthecream and
ever
ythi
ngwil
lheal

Atl
eastt
hisi
sovernow.
[
06/
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15:
29] :203

Andi
le
Igatheredmyassociat
esandcloseddowna
restaur
ant,ai
n'tnowayiam br
ingi
ngthese
crackheadsanywherenearmyhouseormyf ami
ly.

Me:Gent
lemencal
m down

Ceci
l:Ourmoneyi
sgone

Me:Wel
lthatwoul
dn'
thavehappenedhadt
hisf
ool
l
eti
tgol
ikeit
oldhi
mto

I
van:Mool
er

Sinceyester
dayhehasn'
tbeenokayhelooksr
eall
y
puzzled.Mzwakhemusthavekeptmeoutofhis
that'
sfinesolongPhi
ndi
lewasn'
tki
dnapped.

Al
ber
to:Whataboutourmoney

Me:Sor
rygent
lemenyoupi
ssedoft
hewr
ongone

Ivanlooksatmeidownmydr
inkhesmi
lesal
it
tl
e
bit.

Me:Ifandwhent heyf
eelli
keretur
ningyourmoney
iwi
llletyouknowunti
lthansafetr
avelsgent
leman
Mzwakhe
Allthebullshiti
sbehindusnowicutal lti
eswith
Nkabi nde.Everyonecont i
nuedwit
htheirl
ivespand
istayedbehi nd,i
noursaf espacewhereitall
startedandiam ahappyhappyman.Whatidi dto
Nkabi nde'
sdaught eriam notamonsterbutidid
whatihadt odot oprotectmyfamil
y.

Thaps:Idi
dwhatihadt
odonowiam l
eavi
ng

Me:Thankyou

Thaps:Anyt
ime

Il
ookatt
hewomanil
oveandsmi
le.

Me:Can'
tyoust
ay
Thaps:Nobutiwi
llal
waysl
ookoutf
oryoui
nmy
worl
d

Me:Okayt
hanbye

Thel
if
topens.

Me:Yodosant
osidi
dn'
tsaycomeinanoutofmy
pent
housewhatt
hehel
lareyoudoi
ngher
e

Andi
le:Iwantmymoney

Me:50/
50

Andi
le:Whatuyadakwa

Me:50/50oriam sendi
ngt
hatshi
tbackt
oit
s
owners
Theyl
ookateachot
her
.

Me:Whyyoubet
rayi
ngyourpar
tner
s

Andi
le:Ineedt
obefear
edineedpeopl
etot
hink
t
wiceaboutnotmessi
ngwit
hme

Me:Ri
ghtohwel
l

Thei
rphonebeeps.

Me:Takeescevi
cheandgett
hef
uckoutofmy
house

Andi
le:Hewant
stoaskyousomet
hing
I
van:Wi
thyourexpensi
vetechtogetherwi
thour
moneywecanmakeaf ormidableteam

Me:Wel
lidon'
tdealwel
lwi
thbul
lshi
tsobyebye

Ivan:I
feveryouhaveachangeofheartpl
ease
contactme.Wecoulduseyourexper
ti
se

Asi
f.Andi
leandiwi
llbebackt
ohat
ingeachot
her
t
henextday

Phi
ndi
le
Theydidgoodbutahugemessi sonthehorizon.
Myheadispoundingoutofcontr
ol,
ifeell
ikemy
hear
tisaboutt
oexplode.Ineedt
ospendaf ew
dayshomeinmybed.

Mzwakhe:Mama
Me:Hey

Mzwakhe:Youst
il
lnotokay

Me:Noiam f
eel
ingt
hisexcr
uci
ati
ngandi
twon'
t
st
op

Mzwakhe:Whatcanido

Me:Canyouputyourhandsonmyf
orehead

Igetupandsitinbetweenhisl
egs,
rest
ingmyhead
onhischest.Heputshishandsonmyforeheadand
i
mmedi at
elyifal
lasl
eep.

Sakhi
le
Il
etMzwakheandPhi
ndi
lehavet
hei
rpr
ivacy,
idon'
t
l
ikethir
dwheeli
ng.Icoul
dbei
nmyhousebutthey
won'tall
owmet obebymysel
fandMzwakhewil
l
cal
ltofindoutwher
eiam.

"Icoul
dhookyouupwi
thahotbabef
ort
went
y
grand"

Ist
opl
ooki
ngatmyphoneandl
ookather
.

Me:Sbuakakuni
kii
mal
i

Lu:That
snott
hepoi
nt

Me:Hai
bosbusi
socomegetyourgi
rl
fr
iend

Lu:Noyoulooksadandwi
shedt
obewr
apped
aroundawoman'shand
Me:Idon'
tneedawomanshewi
llcomewhenshe
wantst
ocome

Lu:Ormaybeyoupl
ayf
ort
heot
hersi
de

Il
augh.Shedoesn'
tlookl
ikeshei
sgoi
ngtoleti
tgo,
soiam goi
ngtojustent
ertai
nher
.Myphoneri
ngs.

Mzwakhe:Hel
lomyl
ove

Me:Uf
unani

Mzwakhe:Awngit
hingi
yambhekaumunt uuthi
ngi
funanisal
amasi
mbako(Hereiam checkingup
onyouandyoublowi
ngmeof f
,byeyouar shol
e)

Si
zweJal
i
Nowt
hatweouther
eletmet
ellyoual
it
tl
est
ory
aboutmyself
.Attheageof15mybr ot
hersandi
di
sappear
ed, wefoundoursel
vesinanopenf i
eld
l
ostforwords.A bunchofsnakesstar
tedshowing
up,weweretelepor
tedtoanotherdi
mension.

Spiri
tualwor l
dwewer especialchil
drenandathreat
tohumanexi stence,whateverthatmeant.We
stayedonancest ralgr
oundsf orourwholeenti
re
existence.Wemi ssedoutonl i
fe,pri
ortot
hatwe
sufferedal otalbecauseofamanwhocoul dn'
t
acceptt hathiswi f
ewasleavinghi m.

Thiswassupposedt obeourli
vest hemoney, t
he
extravagantli
festyle.I
twassupposedt obeour s
butt heancestorstookital
lawayfrom usandiam
takingallofi
tback.Ivowedt omybr othersthati
willavengeourpai nandsuffer
ing.St art
ingwith
thatdumbusel essqueenandwhor eofaman, once
thatisbrokenever ythi
ngel
sewi l
lfallinplace.

Lungel
o:Whati
sthepl
an
Me:Wegoi ngtostudyeachandoneofthem more
especi
all
y,thequeenandMzwakhe.Weneedt o
fi
ndoutthedynami csofever
yone'
srel
ati
onshi
ps

Lungel
o:Br
eaki
ngt
hem up

Me:Iknowr
ightei
shi
tst
imet
oadj
ustnow

Mzwakhe:Adj
ustt
owhat

Me:Wehavet
oadjustwelivi
ngwi
thhumansnow.
Wemustknownottoeatyouguys

Mzwakhe:Youeathumans

Me:Al
lthoseyouki
ll
ed
Hechokes.

Me:Iwoul
dadviseyoukeepagoodrel
ati
onshi
p
wi
thus,t
here'
salotofgoodcl
eani
ngupwecando

HelooksatusMzwakheisdefi
nit
elynotstupidhe
wil
lhavehiseyesonme.Sorr
yprincessbutthis
hasnothi
ngtodowi t
hyou,t
heywon'tseeme
coming.
[
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15:
29] :204

Aweekl
ater

Mzwakhe
Ibeenagoodboylat
elybutmygoodboynessi s
star
ti
ngtoannoymeorr at
herthefamil
y.Phindi
le
hasbeenlovi
ngever
ymi nuteofit
,myboysar e
backtol
ovingmeagain.Everyonenj
ehasbeen
l
oveydoveyandther
e'sthi
spr i
ckThobani
,yesesi
havenoi
deawhati
shappeni
ngwi
tht
hatboy.

Zet
hu:Doyouneedhel
pwi
thanyt
hing

Shedr
opst
hecasser
oledi
shandcover
shermout
h.

Me:Hai
bomama

Thobani
:Whatar
eyoumonkeysdoi
ng

Zet
hu:Goodmor
ning

Thobani
:Sho

Sakhi
le:Excusemewhoyout
alki
ngt
oli
ket
hat

Me:Thobaniyi
nimanj
e
Thobani
:Ent
lekni
yangi
bhor
ayazi(
Yal
lbor
ingme)

Het
akeshi
sst
uffandl
eaves.

Phi
ndi
le:Zet
huwai
tcomebacksi
si

She'
scryi
ngPhi
ndil
epul
lsherbacktotheki
tchen.
Whatisgoi
ngonthi
sidi
otbet
ternotbeuptono
good.

Phi
ndi
le
Anotherbabyain'
teveryonebl
essed.Thi
siswhat
happenswhenyout reatmegood.Noiam j oki
ng
butseri
ously,
goodthingsdohappenwhent r
eatme
good.Nowonderhehasbeensnappi ngateveryone
andbeingmeanZet huispregnant
.
Anele:Ihavecometot
hereal
izati
onthatthese
boysonemi nutet
heyl
oveyou,thenexttheycan'
t
standyou.Whenyouthi
nkaboutleavi
ngi t
sendof
thewor l
dfort
hem

Lu:Don'
tcr
ypl
easebeaut
if
ulpeopl
edon'
tcr
y

Zet
hu:Idon'
tunder
standwhatdi
didowr
ong

Iam tryi
ngsohardnotsayanyt
hingiwantherto
enjoyhermoment.Olwethul
ooksatmeismi l
eand
l
ookt heway,wherei
sMzwakhewhenyouneed
him.Myphoner i
ngsamen.

Me:Papi

Mzwakhe:St
handwasam
Me:Yesmyl
ove

Mzwakhe:Whati
sgoi
ngwhatar
etheyf
ight
ing

Me:Babyyouknowyourphonesar
etaped

Mzwakhe:Youhi
dingt
hingsf
rom me

Me:Iam busywewi
llt
alkl
ater

Mzwakhe:Il
oveyou

Me:Il
oveyout
oo

Thobani
Iwantt
oopenupmybusinessesagai
n.Ipassedby
Set
huandNozi
'sgr
aves,
becausethat
swhatt hey
wantedofme.Whenil ostthem l
if
et ookahuge
knockonme.Ileftisinkedintoadeepdar khole.
Mylifewasonshutdown, it
ookabr eaktoput
myselftoget
her
.Istayedi nMozambi queforquit
e
somet i
me.

Mzwakhewat chi
ngmyever ymoveit r
iedescapi
ng
him af
ewtimes,butheal waysmanagedt of i
ndme.
Iwasannoyedbutgratefuliprobabl
ywoul dhave
beendead,t
hanimett hishoneywi t
hthem long
chocol
atel
egs.Iwasgr aspedbyhermel aninshe
wasonvacationwit
hhergi rl
s,thi
ngshappenedand
herewearetodayexpecting.

Shedoesn'tknowandiam afrai
doft
ell
ingher,
thesehor
moneshavebeendr ivi
ngmecr azy.
Exactl
yli
keapr egnantwoman.

Mzwakhe:Br
oyouknowyoucant
ellmeanyt
hing
Me:Andwhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odoabouti
t

Mzwakhe:Boyiwi
llsmackyoui
nthef
ace

Me:Mzwakheyouannoyi
ngmewhatar
eyal
leven
doi
ngher
e

Mzwakhe:Ishoul
dhavel
eftyout
oki
llyourusel
ess
sel
f

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Let
sgo

Me:Fi
neZet
hui
spr
egnant

Mzwakhesl
apsmet
heyl
augh.
Me:Whatyoudot
hatf
or

WhenMzwakhesl apsyou,
youl oseyourmar
bles.I
bli
nkacoupleoft
imesidon'tknowwhatheputsin
thosehandsbutt
heyaredeadly.

Phi
ndi
le
Hormonesandt empertantr
umsaregoi
ngtodri
ve
him cr
azy.I
tstheleastwecandofort
hetr
oubl
e
theseboysarebri
nging,ist
epoutt
hebal
conyand
checkonZethu.

Me:Heygi
rl

Zet
hu:Hey

She'
snotsupposedt
obedr
inki
ng.
Zet
hu:Idon'
tunder
standwhat
swr
ongwi
thhi
m

Youpr
egnantmyl
ove.

Me:Hashet
oldyou

Zet
hu:I
twasadrunkni
ghti
nMozambique,
wewer
e
get
ti
ngourf
reakonohman.Hecr
iedsobad

Somethingst hathappenedwheniwasunder
Thapel
o'sil
lusionwerereal
.Hecanseet hefut
ure,
whathappenedi ntheremightst
il
lhappen.

Me:That showallofthem arehoney.

.Hol
donfor
onesecond, heywhenokayiam onmyway.Iwi ll
takethatifhesnapsatyoucansmackacr osst
he
face,
shoul dmakeyouf eelbet
ter
It
extMzwakheandheadupst
air
stochange.

Mzwakhe
Me:Sor
ryt
okeepyouwai
ti
ng

Phi
ndi
le:I
tsokay

Me:Iwi
llbeyouchauf
feurf
ort
oday

Phi
ndi
le:Real
ly

Me:Yeap

Phi
ndi
le:Ohwow

Me:Don'
trui
nitPhi
ndi
leial
wayst
akeyouwher
ever
youwantt
ogoi
tsj
ustt
hatsomet
imesyoudon'
t
wantt
o

Phindil
e:Arghidi
dn'
tknowyouwant
edt
odr
iveme
everywhere

Me:Nowyouknow.Whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout

Phi
ndi
le:I
syourl
ovef
ormest
rongenough

Me:Ar
eyouser
ious

Phindi
le:Alotistocomeatushar d,
aloti
saboutt
o
questi
onever yone'sl
oyal
ty.I
syourl
ovest
ronge
enoughf oreveryone

Wecan'
thandl
eanot
herdownf
allwhati
sshe
sayi
ngme.
Phindi
le:Iknowyousai
dletsnotover
thi
nkthings.
Butthefactismorei
sgoingtobreakus,andidon'
t
thi
nkicanhandleit

Me:Icannotimagi
nelif
ewit
houtyouidon'
twantto
andididn'
twantt
o.Iknowihur
tyouandiam sorr
y

Phindi
le:Iusual
lyhateyouwhenyoubr
eakmy
heartbutwithyouit
sdiffer
ent

Me:How

Phindi
le:Firstofal
lyougor geoushowcanil etthat
go,butyoucamewhenil eastexpected.The
dreamsihadaboutyouwer efascinati
ng,icouldn't
seeyourf acebuteveryt
hingel sej
ustmademel ove
youevenhar der
.Ihateadmi t
ti
ngthisbutyoumy
worldbecausewel l
Me:Tel
lmesomet
hingwhatmakesyout
hinkil
ove
you

Phi
ndi
le:Al
lyout
hinkofi
sme

Me:Ar
eyousur
eit
snott
heancest
orsyouknow

Phindi
le:Mzwakheancestorsdon'tcont
rolf
eelings,
theymightpunishyouforrefusi
ngtobewi t
ht he
persontheychoose.Butthoseareyourfeel
ings

Me:Ohsot hat
swhyyoudidn'
tdoanything,youhad
fai
thorsomethi
ngt
hatwhateverhappens.Iwil
l
alwayscomebackt
oyou

Phi
ndi
le:Somemaysayt oxi
c,somemaysayoh
Mzwakhejustusi
ngyou
Me:Buti
nact
ualf
actMzwakhel
ovesyouj
ustcr
azy
i
nthehead

Phindi
le:Youbett
ermakesureyoutrustme,you
tr
ustyourf ami
ly,
yourboysbecauseican'
tsave
youfrom that

She'
sscar
ingmewhat
sthewor
stt
hatcanhappen.

Phi
ndi
le
Imadei ttomymeet i
ngi nti
meaf terast eamy
session.Heaccompani edmeandi ssitt
ingfarfrom
ourtable,theybr inghim asli
ceofcakeandcof f
ee
orwhat everi nthatcup.Wheredoesi tsaywai t
ers
havet ofl
irtati
ouswi thcustomers.Myski naches
sheturnsar oundandl ooksatmet hanMzwakhe,
hercheeksf alldown.Yeahb* t
chhei smi ne.
Samkelo:Whati
sitwi
tht
hatguyever
yfemal
elose
thei
rsenses

Me:Idon'
tknowt
hatmustbeourcl
ient
s

Anot
herwhi
tecoupl
ewear
egoi
ngt
ober
ich.

Her:Sor
rywelat
ei'
m breeCort
ezandt
hisi
smy
soontobehusbandNickfost
er

Me:I
tsapleasur
etomeetyoui
m Phi
ndi
leandt
his
i
smypartnerSamkel
o

Br
ee:Ihear
dyouar
eabeastgi
rl

Me:Youdon'
tsay

Samkel
o:Howmaywebeofassi
stance
Bree:Weget t
ingmarri
edinacoupleofmonths
mont h,weeksnotsureyet.Fort
het
imebeingyou
aregoingtocommuni catewithmymotherKi
mberly
anddaddMi tchel
lCort
ez

Me:Okaydoyouguyshaveavenue

Br
ee:Yes

Me:Per
fectguest
s

Br
ee:Fi
vet
osi
xhundr
ed

Il
ookatSamkel
o.

Bree:Iknowiknowwehaveabi
gfami
lywef
lyi
ng
them fr
om I
tal
yandGer
many
Me:Col
or

Br
ee:Bl
ueandwhi
te

Me:Anyt
hingspeci
fi
cyouwant

Br
ee:Or
chi
ds

Ohyeahiam def
ini
tel
ygoi
ngt
omakesomegood
money.
[
06/
06,
15:
29] :205

Phi
ndi
le
Thingsareali
tt
lebi
tcl
uttereddownatwar ehouse
fr
om thelastweddi
ngidid.Ever
yonewaski ndof
ti
redandMzwakhewasget ti
ngmarr
ied,something
aboutthi
sweddingdoesn'tmakesense.Shewas
t
alki
ngal
otitl
ikeshewantedt
osaysomet
hing
t
hanqui
ckl
ychanged,butweshal
lsee.

Samkel
o:Sopcaniaskyousomet
hing

Me:Okay

Samkel
o:Nonhl
eispr
egnant

Il
augh.

Me:Samkel
owhyyouwantt
ohur
tyour
sel
f

Samkel
o:Soshei
spr
egnant

Me:Samkel
ono
Samkel
o:Wow

Nonhlei
shappyhemustjustmoveheusedand
abusedher
,andnowheisreal
izi
ngt
hatheactual
ly
l
ovesher.

Me:I
sther
eanyt
hingbr
okenorneedst
ofi
xed

Heignor
esmeandanswer
shi
scal
lshamehewi
ll
bestr
ong.

Mzwakhe
Wel eftf
orsomef r
eshairThobanii
sbuggi
ngthe
fuckoutofeveryoneandidon'twantt
obeapartof
hisnonsense.Wemaybeoutoft hegamebutsome
tradi
ti
onswekept ,imi
ssedhangingoutwi
thmy
boys.

Ndu:Igott
otel
lyousomet
hingokaysoawhi
leago
iwasatapar t
yyouknowenj oyi
ngmyself
.There
wast hi
sbabethatkeptchecki
ngmeout,fast
forwardnyanawebooki nt
oahotelayzi
yakhipha
okaywegett othei
nti
mat epar
t.Mrisr
eall
yfeeli
ng
himselfohmyGod

Wel
augh.

Ndu:Soshehadt akenofherhai
rwegroaningand
moaningreal
lyi
nt hemood,shedoesn'
thavehair
r
ightsoinst
eadof

Me:Ndumi
soKheswa

Ndu:Idon'
tknowifiwasmeanttospankherassor
gr
absomet hi
ng,iendedupsmacki
ngherboldhead

Thobani
:Waaa
Ndu:Iam l
ikedidijustdothat
,theb*t
chslowly
t
urnsaround,thereandthaniwantedtor
unt he
f
uckoutoft here

Wel
aughmyphoner
ings.

Me:Mama

Phi
ndi
le:Wher
eyouat

Me:Chi
ll
ingwi
tht
heboyswhy

Phi
ndi
le:Okay

Me:Whyyouwantmebackhome

Phi
ndi
le:Noj
ustwonder
ingokaybyeil
oveyou
Me:Hai
bonanguuPhi
ndi
leengi
sanganel
a(Her
e
shei
switht
hebul
l)

Amanappr
oachesuswi
thf
lower
s.

Hi
m:Sakhi
leandMzwakhe

Idownandsmi
leohnoshedi
dn'
t.

Hi
m:Thesear
eforyou

Sakhi
le:Wowt
hesear
ebeaut
if
ul

Me:"Imaynotbewi
thyouatallt
imesbutyouwi
ll
al
waysbeinmyheart.Il
oveyou,yourbor
ing
gi
rl
fr
iend"
Sakhi
le:"
Thebestf
eeli
nginthewor l
diswhenyou
l
ookathim andheisal
readystar
ing"

West
areateachot
herandsmi
le.

Phi
ndi
le
Afterthatgr
uesomewor koutiwantedtogohome
andseemyf amily.Imi
ssthem al
lthetime, wordi
s
Mxol i
sigothimselfanewboothang.Theyi n
Singaporetoget
hercouldshebether easonwhymy
brotherwantstocomeback.Inoticemul ti
plecars
parkeddownatt hechisanyama,t
heyst i
llt
here.

Me:Ni
yaphi
lakodwaangi
sanazi

Ma:Asakwazinat
hint
okazi

Il
augh.
Ma:I
njani
mpi
lo

Me:Kuyal
enalekodwakuyaphi
lekaakuf
ani
(
manageabl
e)

Ma:Kadesabagci
nanoMvel
o

Thoset
woar
ewi
ldcat
s.

Me:I
yimbhodl
azaMxol
isiwe(
Mxol
isi
'
ski
ds)

Amessagecomest hroughfrom Mzwakhe.I

fi
spendthenighthemi ghtno,letmej
usttr
usthe
won'tt
akeitther
e.Itexthim back"
Mayi"

Sakhi
le
Iam nott
hatl
onel
yiam t
aki
ngabr
eakaf
ter
Smangele,anyt
hingthattodowithfemalesisigned
out
.Butthereisjustoneinpar
ti
cularmyhear t
wants,
shei smywi febutshedoesn'
tknowt hat.

Ol
wet
hu:Yougotagi
rl
fr
iend

Me:Nowhy

Ol
wet
hu:Thef
lower
s

Ismel
lmyf
lower
sthatmommygaveme.

Me:Maybe

Iheadt
omyr
oom andmywi
fei
sher
eohman.

Nothando:Ohsor
ryidi
dn'
tknowyouwer
ecomi
ng
backearl
y
Me:Doyouwantspacewecango

Nothando:Idon'
thavet
hatki
ndofpowereven
thoughthatwoul
dhelpmealot.Schooli
saboutt
o
closeandiam wri
ti
ng

Me:Yebonomacha(
Yesorno)

Mzwakhe:"Ungamqomiyezwabal
ekangenyawo
zombi
le"(
Don'tdat
ehimrunaway)

Me:Shutup

Mzwakhe:"Ungathathii
skhathiesideuwumf ana
omuhlekabi,al
readynjeomommybamf unela
i
ntombi.Uzosalakanjal
o"(Don'tt
aket olongnow,
heisaveryhandsomeguy.Asi tistheladiesare
sear
chingforagirl
fri
endandyouwi llbeleftout
)
Me:Mzwakhet
hul
amanyi
nii
nki
ngayakho(
Shutup
whati
syourpr
obl
em)

Iwi
shidi
dn'
tcomebackhome.

Mzwakhe
Wassheforrealhowcansheleaveallofmeby
myself
.Shegetsint
hecariki
ssher,icanfeelher
hear
tmelti
ngaway.

Phi
ndi
le:Canwegethome

Me:Ayaycapt
ainyoht
hisphonehasbeenr
ingi
ng
nonst
op.What

Luyanda:Ever
ybodycomedownnow
Me:Okayguyspl
easedon'
tdothi
siam wi
thmygi
rl
andidon'
twantt
obeannoyed

Luyanda:Duggcameout

Me:What

Luyanda:Hehascomeoutofhi
ding

NotDuggCort
ezmyenemiesbereal
lywanti
ngme
t
ocomeback.Ilef
tahugegapandnowt heythi
nk
t
heyarethebi
gboys.

Me:Fuckokayiwi
lldr
opof fpt
hancome.Babyt
hey
wantmetobegangsteragainmama

She'
ssl
eepi
ng.
Me:Iam goi
ngt
oki
llal
lofyou
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06/
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15:
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Thobani
Iwenttogocheckonmydad.Thabi soandLindani
hadaccompaniedme, ihopeheissoberbecauseor
iwil
ldefi
nit
elyf
li
p.Ipunchinthecodeitdeni
esme
access,
thealar
m goesof f
.It
ryitagai
nitdeniesme
access.

Me:Hai
bo

Luckythesecuri
tyguar
dcomesoutandputsi
nthe
code.Thealar
m stopsyougott
obekiddi
ngme.

Thabi
so:Luckywhati
sgoi
ngon

Me:Whyi
ssecur
it
ycodechanged
Lucky:Iam goi
ngt
oopent
hegat
e

Me:Yewenal
ucky

Herunsawaythegateopens.Idr
ivei
nandpar
kon
thedr
iveway.Idon'
tknowwhatisgoi
ngonbuti
knowiam notgoingt
olikei
t.

Me:Luckywhyi
sthedoorl
ocked

Hetal
ksont hewalki
et alki
eiseesomeone
appr
oachi
ngt hedoor,iam goingtoki
llt
hisol
dman.
Sheopensthedoorient er.

Me:Daddad

Her
:Excusemebutwhatar
eyoudoi
ngi
nmyhouse
Voi
ce:Honeywhoi
satt
hedoor

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Thi
sisapr
ankr
ightwher
eismyf
ather

Her
:Idon'
tknowwher
eyourf
atheri
s

Il
ookathershest
epsbackwar
ds.

Man:Andt
hanobanil
aba(
Whoaret
hesepeopl
e)
whatar
eyoudoi
nginmyhouse

Me:Whosehouse

Man:Ni
kiwewhoar
ethesef
ool
s
Li
nda:Ehbabawhoyoucal
li
ngf
ool
s

Theyt
akeoutt
hei
rguns.

Me:Thi
sismyhouseiownt
hishousehowt
hef
uck
di
dyoutwoenduphere

Phi
ndi
le
Wecomeupwi thgoodi deasandi ncorpor
ated
diff
erentt
ypesoft heflowerstheywant ed,now
reachingthem wasanot herthing.Icanfeelt
hisi
s
nothoweverican' tseeanything,maybeiam lett
ing
myi maginati
onr unwild.Mzwakheent ersandkiss
me.

Me:Babyiam busy
Hestar
tstaki
ngofmyclot
hesweshar edalong
ki
ssandittur
nedmeon,il
aydown.Hest ops
ki
ssi
ngmeandt akesof
fhiscl
othes.

Aknockonthedoordi
stur
bsus,hevi
gorousl
yget
s
upandstepsoutt
hansmackssomebody.

Mzwakhe:Di
dn'titel
lyoumotherf
uckersidon'
t
wantt
obedisturb.Knockonmydooragainiwill
gi
veal
lofyouar easontohat
e,nxiyoushidi

Hewalksbacki
nsl
ammi ngthedoorhiserect
ion
wasnowhardandvi
sibl
e.Istar
eatitbi
tt
ingmyl i
p.

Mzwakhe:Getup

Ido.Hesearchesf
orsomethi
ngunderthebed,he
pressesi
t.Thecei
li
ngopenswhoi
sthisfoolt
hat
angeredhim.
Thobani
Theyl
ookateachot
her
.

Me:Yougoi
ngtohavet
otal
khehasagunandi
am
ver
yhormonal

Niki
we:AladybythenameofZandii
stheonewho
soldust
hishouse

Zandi
whot
hehel
lisZandinow.

Niki
we:Shewaswi
thamant
heywer
etheoneswho
soldus

Li
nda:Uvarl
oyoZandinyanawakhona

Ni
kiwe:Wedon'
tknowt
hesear
ehercont
act
s
Me:Ibuyhi
m ahouseandsel
lsi
thowmuch

Ni
kwe:Twohundr
edandf
if
tyt
housand

Wel
augh.

Me:Luckyyoukeepquietasthatmansell
s.My
housefort
wofif
tyk,youguysactual
lybuyit
wit
houtdoi
ngchecks.Ngikhulumanawewenasar
n.
Thi
sisnotyourhousepackupandbeout

Mazwi
:Whataboutt
hemoneywepai
d

Me:Shutt
hef
uckupwenat
aket
omyf
ather

Ican'
tbel
ievet
hismanibuil
dhi
m ahouseandthi
s
i
swhathedoes.Hebetterpr
ayidon'
tfi
ndhi
m and
whot
hehel
lisZandi
.

Phi
ndi
le
Despitethediscomfor
tfrom holdi
ngontothe
strapsitwasnice.Thebesthehasgivenme, ican
feelallofhi
semot i
onsandhi sbodydi
sappearing
onmi ne.

Heheldmywaistandpumpedmedi
ggi
nghi
s
handsdeeponmysides.

Me:AhhhMzwakhe

Hearingmescream hi
snamet ookittoanot
her
l
evel.Hepickeduphispace,
hisgroanandheavy
breat
hingparal
yzedme.Icouldfeeli
tdeepi
nsi
de
ofme, iwasathismercy.

Andi
le
Anoldfri
endofminecametovi
sitme.Peopl
ejust
keeppoppingup,
idi
dfoolmypartner
sandtookal
l
thei
rmoney.

Me:MrCor
tez

Dugg:Andi
le

Me:Whyyoucameoutofhi
ding

Dugg:Thatdoesn'
tmat
terineedyourhel
p

Me:Iam l
ist
eni
ng

Dugg:Idon'
tunder
standyourr
easonwhyyoudon'
t
wanttogetbackatMzwakhe

Me:Ther
e'sal
otofbet
tert
hingsicandowi
thmy
t
imet
hant
obebor
edwi
thMzwakhe

Dugg:Fi
newhydi
dyour
efusewet
aket
hegi
rl

Me:Dugggett
hehel
loutofmyhouse

Dugg:Mool
erwasrightyouhavegonesof
t,t
eami
ng
upwitht
hati
diotwhotookoutouroper
ati
on

Me:Ourt
her
ewasnoour

Dugg:Noicamet otel
lyoustayoutofmyway
Moolerandthoseot
herladi
esmaybescar edofyou.
Iain'
tgeti
nmywayAndi lel
it
tleoni
kaandyour
grandchi
ldar
egoingtogeti
t,isi
tyourgr
andchil
d
becauseyounotrel
atedtot
hatboy

Me:Yout
hreat
eni
ngme
Heleavesmespeechless.Mzwakhewi
llsquash
t
hishoe,ihavebet
terthi
ngstoworr
yaboutreal
ly.
[
06/
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15:
29] :207

Phi
ndi
le
Ijustreceivedconf i
rmat i
onwegotameet ingwith
theCor tez'
satt wo.Itisveryannoyingwor ki
ngwith
peoplewhoar eunr eachable,t
heyhavet housands
ofdemandsandcount lesschangeoft hings.This
fami l
yisgoi ngpushmeovert heedge, butwhatever
theclientwant s.Thecl i
entgets.Zethucomesdown
cryingagai n,whyisThobaniact inglikethis.

Mzwakhe:Whatdi
dhedo

Zet
hu:Heissomeanican'ttakeitanymor
e,ibr
ing
hi
m breakf
astandhegotsayinghewantedyogurt
.
Heneversaidt
hat
Hejoi
nsusinthekit
chenandpushesmeasi de,
openi
ngthefr
eezerandsteal
ingNonhl
e'
sice-cr
eam.
Ayandagoi
ngtomur dert
hisfool
.

Me:Di
dyouj
ustpushme

Thobani
:Noidi
dnot

Me:Tel
lher

Thobani
:What

Me:Tel
lherbef
oreismackt
heshi
toutofyout
ell
her

Hesi
ghs.
Thobani
:Fi
neZet
huyouar
epr
egnant

Zet
hu:What

Thobani
:Ididn'
twantyoubl
amingmef
orst
oppi
ng
yourcar
eer.Iwant
edyoutofi
ndout

Hedoesn'
tfini
sht
hatsentenceheget
sasmacki
n
t
heface,t
hisfami
lyandlaughi
ng.

Zet
hu:Soyouactl
ikeaj
erkandi
nsul
tme

Thobani
:Angi
th

Shesmackshim agai
nil
eavet
hem.Ihavet
ogo
prepar
eforameeti
ng.

Mzwakhe
Thecati soutofthebagThobanii
sgoingtobea
father
.Ineverpictur
edhi
mt obeafatherunt
ilhe
showedwi t
hbabynoziyoh,mayhersoulconti
nue
resti
ngi npeaceandnowhei sababymaking
machi ne.

Wesepar
atet
hem andl
augh.

Me:Okaymommyokay

Zet
hu:Soiam pr
egnantandyoudi
dn'
ttel
lme

Thobani
:Itwassupposedt
obeyourmomentmy
l
oveyourhappiness

Zet
hu:Howdidyoufindoutdon'
tanswert
hat
.Oh
mygoodnessiam havi
ngababy
Shebur
iesherheadonchestandcr
ies.

Zet
hu:Hemademepr
egnant

Thel
adi
est
akeherandl
eave.

Me:Wepayi
ngherdowr
y,damagesandgetmar
ri
ed

Thobani
:Nakanj
an

Me:Howdi
ditgowi
thyourf
ather

Thobani
:Hesoldmyhouset
osomepeopl
efort
wo
fi
ft
ythousand,
wit
hsomeZandiper
son

Me:Anddoug
Ayanda:Hewasseenent
eri
ngt
hemaf
ia'
shouse

Me:Whydi dhecomeoutofhi di
ngagai
nanyways
whoeverismacked.Iam sor
ryyoureal
lyannoyed
me

Nt
ombi
Zet
huLanga
Iam NtombiZethuknownasZet hu27.Thobaniis
twoyearsolderthanme, butyouwouldswearhehe
wasahundr edyearsold.Wher edoistar
tiam fun
bubbl
eper son,myfri
endwast heonewhot aught
methei mportanceoff
un.

Ilovethismanwi t
hmyallit
houghtihadgivenup
onlove,butheshowedmewhati tr
eal
lymeansto
l
ovesomebody.I nanotsoperf
ectworl
dwher el
ove
i
splayedonandusedbypeopl ewhosimplydon't
knowwhatl ovei
s.

Wemeti
nMozambi
queiwasonvacat
ionwi
thmy
gir
ls.Wewher ei
naclubandhewassi tt
ingby
himself
,looki
ngl
ikealostsoul.I
mmedi atel
yi
thoughthewasgoingthroughabr eakupand
neededsomecomf ort
,beingthepersoniam.

Iaskedtodancewi thhim,atfi
rsthejustlookedat
mel i
keb*tchgetawayf rom me.Icouldn'
tgetup
andbeembar rassed,ikeptst
il
lwaiti
ngonhi m.He
didnotbudge.Ilef
twi t
hat ai
lstuckbetweenmy
l
egs,nextthi
ngwegr oovi
ngandani nstant
connect
ionbetweenusdevel oped.

Itwasoutofthi
sworldonethi
ngledtoanotherand
herewearetoday,
pregnantwi
thhischil
d.Iwentto
thedoct
orsandtheytol
dmeadi f
ferentstor
y.

Me:Phamandl
aar
eyousur
e

Phamandl
a:Theonl
yreasonisbecauseyoudi
dn'
t
knowandyoubeennegl
ecti
ngyourchil
d
Me:Butidon'
thaveanypregnancysympt
oms
vomi
ti
ngandal lt
hoset
hings

Phamandl
a:Thobanihast
hem

Me:Idon'
tunder
stand

Phamandla:Yeahwellwhenyouwit
htheBhengu'
s
anythi
ngcongrat
ulat
ionsl
it
tl
eDladl
aneedssome
att
enti
on

Me:Fourmont
hsay

Mzwakhe
Hehasgoodexpensivet
astei
nwhiskey,il
ook
ar
oundhisstudyhehasahugeportr
aitofsomeone
onthewal
l.Thedooropenswest
areateachother,
i
f
ini
sht
hedr
inkandpourmysel
fanot
herone.

Andi
le:Whati
fit
spoi
soned

Me:Qui
etagoodt
hingyouhavegoi
ngon

Andi
le:Canyouleaveiam ser
iousl
ynotbor
ed
t
ryi
ngt otakeyououti
sexhausting

Me:Andyouneverwi
ll

Andi
le:Ial
sogotspi
ri
tualbacki
ng

Me:Seeandt
hat
swhyyouwi
llnevergetme

Andi
le:Whatdoyouwant
Me:Youknowwhatiwant

Andi
le:Let
swor
ktoget
herandiwi
llgethi
mtoback
of

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Idon'
twor
kwi
thl
oser

Andi
le:Whydowehat
eeachot
heragai
n

Me:Ohwecanhaveat
eapar
tyort
wo

Andi
le:I
fitgotnothi
ngtodowi thmyshi
tiai
n't
doi
ngjack.Wet heonlybaddestint
hegame

Me:Youcancomeatmeal
ldayidon'
tcar
e,butmy
f
amilyAndi
le
Andi
le:Whydon'
tyouandDouggobebored
somewhereel
seandjustl
eavemeal
one

Heisgoodatpr
etendi
ngiknowsomet
hings
cooki
ngwit
hthi
sone.

Me:Oht
hat
scut
enobutser
iousl
y

Andi
le:Byewakhe

Igr
abt
hebot
tl
eandr
unouthechasesaf
terme.

Phi
ndi
le
Theyseemedimpressedortheylookedlikethey
i
mpressed.Icoul
dn'
treadthei
rfacialexpressi
ons,
Mzwakhepullsupigetint
hecarsl ammi ngthe
door
.
Mzwakhe:Hai
bo

Me:Youdr
inki
nganddr
ivi
ng

Mzwakhe:Iam her
eatt
heback

Il
ookoverhegotagl
assandabot
tl
eofwhiskey,
he
pour
sandhandsitt
ome.Igul
pthewhol
ething
down.

James:Nkosazane

Mzwakhe:Okaygi
rl

Me:Idon'
tknowi
ftheywer
ehappyoridi
dn'
t
i
mpressthem
Mzwakhe:Youdi
dagr
eatj
obmyl
ovei
twoul
dbe
upt
othem

Me:Idon'
tknowsomethi
ngdoesn'
tfeelr
ightabout
t
his,
ormaybeiam t
hinki
ngtomuchabouti t

Hewhi
sper
ssomet
hingnast
yinmyearil
augh.

James:Excusemeweknowyout
woar
epor
no
fr
eaksbutnotinf
rontofme

Mzwakhe:Youjeal
ousbecauseyouol
dandyou
can'
tdothethi
ngswedo

James:Boyiwi
llhaveyouknowi
fanyt
hingigoti
t
goi
ngon

Mzwakhe:AhJames
Wel
augh.
[
06/
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15:
30] :208

Phi
ndi
le
Iam makingacupofcof feewhenSizweandt he
twinsshowup.Alreadytheyscream ofbadnews,i
grabmor ecupsandmakesomef orthem.Myhear t
i
sbeat i
ngoutiknewsomet hi
ngwaswr ong,
atleast
theancestor
sarelooki
ngoutf orme.

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lewhyyoual
waysgottobel
ike
t
his,
thi
spartofl
if
eisnoti
mport
antiam

Hecomesdownst
il
lsl
eepyiwasonl
ymaki
ng
cof
fee.

Mzwakhe:Youi
nvi
tedyourwhi
teboyf
ri
endsnow
Me:Pl
easej
ustl
ist
ent
owhatt
heysayi
ng

Mzwakhe:No

Me:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Isai
dnonowgobackupst
air
sbef
orewe
r
eal
lyhaveitgoi
ngon

Isi
gh.

Mzwakhe:Iam wai
ti
ngPhi
ndi
le

Iheadupst
air
s.

Si
zwe:"
Youneedt
olett
hisgo,
thatf
ami
lyi
saf
ter
Mzwakheandt
heyusi
ngyout
ogett
ohi
m"

Heent
erst
hebedr
oom shout
ing.

Mzwakhe:Don'
tpi
ssmeof
fPhi
ndi
le

Me:Ionl
ywentdownt
omakecof
fee

Mzwakhe:Ngi
yal
ibekauyal
ibekanawe

Si
zwe:"I
fyouwantust
odealwi
tht
hisj
ustsayt
he
word"

Hespeaksi
nmyhead,il
aysi
deways.Heholdsmei
l
ayther
enotmovi
ng,her
emoveshishand.

Voi
ce:Youguysj
ustgotbackt
oget
hert
her
ewi
llbe
nobreaki
ng
Mzwakhe:Shedoesn'
tknowhowt osepar
atebei
ng
agi
rl
fr
iendanddoingancest
ralwork

Sakhi
le:I
tsear
lyt
obef
ight
ing

Mzwakhe:Idon'
tcar
eandthoseidi
otsbet
terget
outofmyhouseuyangi
zwaPhindil
e

Me:Yebo

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Ungal
ingewePhindi
lengi
kengiphenduke
ungekhoembhedeni
,ngi
zokuli
mazahmm ngi zame
(Idaret
urnar
oundandyounotl ayi
ngbesideme,i
wi
llhi
tyousobadt
ryme)

Hei
sbei
ngunr
easonabl
enow.

Mzwakhe:Nonkefut
hhambanil
akwami
(Inf
actal
l
ofyougetoutofmyhouse)

Hi
sphoner
ings.

Mzwakhe:Yi
niuf
unani(
What
,whatdoyouwant
)

I
sheser
ious.

Zet
hu
Wewer eoftofi
ndhisfat
her,
heaskedmet o
accompanyhimt omakesurehedoesn'
tgoofas
muchonhi sfat
her.Weatthi
splacepar
ked
opposi
tethehouse,hi
sfat
herissett
obeat.It
snot
adumpbutcompar edtot
hehouse,hesol
dyeahi
ts
l
ooki
nghorri
ble.Igot
tagi
vei
ttohimthats
dedi
cat
ion.

Thobani
:Bukanjengimenzel
ayonki
ntoyena
uzongi
bongakanje(Lookidoever
ythi
ngforhi
m
andthi
sishowhet hanksme)

West
epoutt
hecar
.

Weent erthisti
nyonebedr oom house,thedooris
opened.Itsmellslikeanalcoholbreweryvomi ted
al
lover,empt ybeerbot t
leseverywhere.Ilookat
Thobaniandhei smadiam sogl adicame.He
grabsajugandwal ksout,thancomesback
splashi
ngt hewat erathisfather
,hewakesup
gasping.

Theyl
ookateachotherandt
heylooksomuchal
ike,
whyisheact
ingli
kethi
shewipeshisface.
Dad:Ndodana

Het
hrowst
hej
ugathi
m.

Me:Hai
boThobaniwenzan

Thobani:Unjanmawunj ezibekeukut
hunjan.Yinl
e
ohlal
akuyoubonai sl
imamawubonami nahuh.
Ngikuthengel
aumuzii yonandlel
aongibongangayo
l
e(Lookatyour selfwhatisthi
s.Youseeaf ool
whenyouseemei sthati
t,ibuyyouahouseand
thi
sishowyout hankme)

Dad:Tho.
..

Thobani
:Awut hul
eyaziuyanginyanyi
sa
uyangi
nyanyisakhehl
andini(Bequietyoudi
sgust
me,youdisgustmeoldman)
Heat
tempt
stohi
thi
m ihol
dhi
m.

Me:St
opi
tokayst
op

Hewal
ksoutcli
ckinghistonguealri
ghtZet
hut
ime
t
oputyourmakotiski
ll
sinaction.

Thobani
Idon'
tknowwhyshei sbotheri
ngherselfwi
th
someonewhoi sveryungr
ateful
.Iwatchthem exi
t
thi
spathet
icexcuseofahousehel i
vesinandwalk
uptothecar.Ir
ollmyeyestheybothjumpi nand
suddenl
ythecarbecomest oosmallforme.

Zet
hu:Ther
eyougo

Dad:Ngi
yabonga
Zethu:Yout
aki
ngusbackt
othepent
houseoryour
house

Me:Uswho

Zet
hu:Yourdadandi

Me:Iniudaki
weiam nott
aki
ngt
hismananywher
e
nearmyhouse

Zet
hu:Thanwher
eishegoi
ngt
ost
ay

Me:Iboughthi
m ahouset
hatwher
eheshoul
dgo

Zet
hu:Hesol
ditnj
e
Me:Akaphi
ndel
ekulomj
ondol
owakhe(
Thanhe
mustgobacktohi
sshack)

Zethu:Okayt
haniguesswebot
hgoi
ngbackt
othe
shack

Me:Whyyout
aki
nghi
ssi
de

Zet
hu:Shutyourmout
handt
akeusbackhome

Ilookathim helooksdown.Wowistar
tthecarand
driveofshaki
ngmyhead, iseehi
m smil
ingf
rom the
rearviewmirror
.

Me:Usi
nekani(Whatyousmi
li
ngf
or)

Hest
opssmi
li
ngandl
ooksoutt
hewi
ndow.
Me:Udayi
sai
ndl
uyami

Zet
hu:Thobani

Me:Ahshutup

Phi
ndi
le
Shehandl et
hatverywel
lhisancest or
sar
egoi ngt o
guideher.Herandthebabywillstartt
hej
our neyof
for
givenessandreconci
li
ati
onbet weenhi
sf amily.I
am proudofheryourmajestynexttomeissnor ing
away,andihavebeenboundt ot hi
sbed.Theonl y
ti
meigetupi swhenineedt ouset hebat
hroom
andheal wayswakesupwhenimove.

Voi
ce:Lethi
m bemychi
ldbuthemustnotgeti
n
t
hewayofourt hi
ngs

It
urnar
oundandf
acehi
m heopenshi
seyesand
looksatme,hethanpul
lsmet
ohi
schestwhosays
iwanttocuddl
e.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokushayayezwa

Il
augh.Hel
ocksmewi
thhi
slegs.

Mzwakhe:Tr
yget
ti
ngoutoft
his

Heyawnsandgrabsmyass, il
ookathi sper
fect
ly
pi
nkli
ps,t
hetatt
ooonhisneckdamnMzwakhei sa
fi
neassbl
ackman.Igetti
ngturnedonbyt hi
sandit
l
ooksli
kehereadthesi
tuati
onperfect
ly.

Heinser
tshi
sfingerinandkissesmewhi l
egently
goi
nginandout,imoant hr
ought heki
ss.Hepicks
uphispaceigr
abhi sneckandgetlostint
he
moment
Me:Aahhh

Heremovesmypant yandput smylegoverhis

shoul
derandgentlyrubsmycl it
.Ipullmytopup
andsqueezemyboobs, hisfingergoesbackand
vi
gorousl
yfinger
sme.Myt oescurljustwheniam
abouttor
elease,
ifeelhi
sd* ckgoingin.

Me:AhhhMzwakhe

Mzwakhe
Shewi lll
earnt hatiam themani nthisrel
ationship.
Idon'tneedanyonehavi ngt heirunsoli
cit
edadvi ce
andopi ni
onsabouthowidot hingsinthis
rel
ationship.Icertainl
ydonotneedt obet oldhow
toprotectmygi r
lfr
iend,iknowal laboutDougand
him sendinghi salreadymar ri
eddaught erandson
i
nl aw.Whatidon' tunderstandi sAndil
eletthisshit
go.Whydot hesenonf actors,suddenlythinkthey
haveapr oblem.
Me:IknowPhi
ndi
lesodon'
tdi
srespectmel
iket
hat

Phi
ndi
le:Iam sor
ry

Me:Sohowi
sthi
sgoi
ngt
oaf
fectyourbusi
ness

Phindi
le:Idon'
tknowbutei
therwayi
tsal
osel
ose
si
tuati
on

Me:Idon'
tloseimayhaveset
backsbutidon'
tlose

Phi
ndil
e:Theymightputmeonbl
asticoul
dlose
workovert
his.I
fit
shastodowit
hyouwhyam i
bei
nginvol
ved

Me:Gangst
ersalwayst
argetsyourfami
ly,
theone
t
hingyoucheri
shthemost.Ithoughontheother
handt
hinktheycowards,
facemeandbr
ingme
downdon'tdocutt
hroughthecor
ner
s

Sheget
sont
opofmeweki
ss.

Me:Iam t
hemanhereokayyoucalm downandi
wil
lfi
ndawaytogetyououtoft
hismessokay,
t
hinkyoucandot
hat

Phi
ndi
le:I
ftheancest
orsf
eell
ikeihavet
oint
ervene

Me:Mamano

Phi
ndil
e:Okayihavet
ogetmysel
fcl
eansedt
han
andtal
ktothem

Me:That
sal
liam aski
ng
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Mzwakhe
Idon'twanttobeamonst erpeople.Iwantt
oj ust
focusonmyr el
ati
onship,
andbeabet termanf or
Phindil
eandmysel f.Mymi ndwasmi l
li
onmiles
away, Thobaniwasbusyshoutingathisdad.Igrab
acrossiantandthrowitathim.

Me:Awuzameukubal
aamagamaakho
mawukhul
uma(Havesomerespectwhent
alki
ng)

Sakhi
le:Youokay

Me:Iam f
ine

Sakhi
le:Mommy

Me:Wegoodi
don'
tknowisor
tofact
edat
inybi
t
dr
amat
ic

Sakhi
le:Ti
nybi
tidon'
tknowaboutt
hat

Me:Yeahyeah

Sakhi
le:Sowhatdowedo

Me:Hedoesn'
tknowt
hatiknow

Sakhi
le:Andi
le

Me:Thathoehegotsomethingplannedformei
don'
tcar
ebuthedoesn'tcar
ewhathappens.Now
ever
yoneispr
egnantican'
tjustupandleave

Sakhi
le:I
tsyourdeci
sionanyways
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:Mommyokayngiyeza.Babamephi nda
ekut
hethi
saf
uthumbambengenqi ni(
Dadifhe
shout
satyouagai
ndon'tbeafr
aidtopunchhim)

Iheadupst
air
s.

Me:Youcal
ledf
orme

Phi
ndil
e:Samkel
osayst
heyr
equest
edanot
her
meeti
ngwhatdoido

Me:Agr
eebutdon'
tgo

Phi
ndi
le:Won'
thebespi
tef
ulandgo
Me:Yoay

Zet
hu
Iwasworri
edaboutThobaniandhisdad,ishe
tr
eat
inghim okayhavetheyki
ll
edeachother.I
coul
dn'
ttakeitthest
reet
swasn'tgoodformeand
mybaby.Itookhalfdayandwenttothedoctor.

Phamandla:Igotyourt
estr
esultbackeveryt
hingi
s
okay,
yourbabyisokay.Youjustneedtotakeit
easy

Me:Thankyouiwaswor
ri
edij
ustcoul
dn'
thandl
eit

Thedooropenshi
sbeaut
if
ulgi
rl
fr
iendent
ers,
he
smil
es.

Anel
e:Iam sor
ryit
houghtyouwer
eal
one
Phamandl
a:Noyoudid,youhear
diwaswi
tha
womenandyourmindleftt
hebuil
ding

Shel
ooksdown.

Me:Iwasl
eavi
nganywayst
hankyou

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hel
lo

Thobani
:Wher
eyouwhor
ingar
oundwi
thmybaby

Phamandl
a:Whenyougethomet
ryt
orel
axandeat

Thobani
:Youatt
hehospi
talwhydi
dn'
tyousayso
Me:Whyar
eyoubei
ngl
iket
his

Thobani
:Becausei
am i
nlovewi
thyoudummy

Hescr
eams.

Me:Comeonbabyletsgoyourdaddyi
sact
ing
del
usi
onal
,Bhengungiyabonga

Sakhi
le
Howwoul diknowwhatisgoingonwi t
hMzwakhe.
Heisangryidon'
tknowwhyhei sbeingthi
s
dr
amat i
candverysneakyaboutthi
ngs.Igotmy
ownt hi
ngstoworr
yaboutli
ke,howam igoingt
o
NothandoNzuza.

Li
nda:Sakhi
lekwenzakal
anngobestf
ri
endwakho
Me:Youdon'
tknowwhatt
hismeans

Thabi
so:Si
tshel
eni
phel
a(Tel
lusal
ready)

Me:Getyourpasspor
tsr
eadybecause

Thobani
:Wegoi
ngt
oAf
ri
cab*
tches

Si
zwe:Youdoknowt
hisi
sal
soAf
ri
ca

Thabi
so:NanguomunyeuLi
ndani

Wel
augh.

Thabi
so:Angi
yil
aphoni
daki
we(
Iam notgoi
ngt
her
e
yal
lcr
azy)
Thapel
oandhi
sbr
other
sshowup.

Linda:Yeni
nayinii
nki
ngayenunj
alosahl
ezi
sinil
amula(Youtwowhywealwaysgottopl
ay
referee)

Whatarethesetwofi
ght
ingaboutr
eal
ly,
because
t
heyreal
lyturnup.

Si
zwe:Whyar
eyouher
e

Me:Si
zwewhat
'sgoi
ngon

Thapel
oi shandsomelyl
aughi
ng,t
heybreakf
ree
andattackeachother
.Ahugesnakewrapsaround
thei
rbodieswetakeastepback,
ipopmyeyesout .
Li
nda:Hol
ymot
herofchr
ist

Li
ndokuhl
eandt
hem kneelbef
oreher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Thapel
owhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e

Thapel
o:Mzwakhecal
ledme

Me:Mzwakhecomeexpl
ainyour
sel
fri
ghtnow

Whyi
shecausi
ngpr
obl
emsf
oruswi
thsnakes.

Mzwakhe
Thi
sthingofthem al
waysfight
ingiswhatmadecal
l
Thapel
o.Idonottrustt
hesethreepeopl
e,t
heycan
dowhateverwithphi
ndil
ebutme.Iam seri
ousl
y
get
ti
ngbadvibesf r
om them.
Phi
ndi
le:Youcal
ledhi
m

Me:Yes

Phi
ndi
le:Why

Me:Ineedhel
p

Phindi
le:Butt
hat'
swhatSi
zweLungel
oand
Lunganiareheref
or

Me:Eyangibazil
abantubakhoangi
bat
hembifut
h
(Idon'
tknowthesepeopl
eandidon'tt
rustt
hem)

Phi
ndi
le:You

Me:Okayibambel aphoangi
kut
shel
iukuthwenzeni
kanj
an,ni
ni,keph,
nobani.Naweungayenzil
eyont
o
(Hol
ditri
ghtt
hereidon'
ttel
lyouwhatt
odo,how,
when,wher
e,wit
hwho.Sodon'ttel
lmewhattodo)

Si
zwe:I
tsokaywewi
llgo

Theywalkoutthebal
cony,
shel
ooksatmeand
headsupst
air
s.

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhemanwhatar
eyoudoi
ng

Me:Idon'
ttr
ustt
heseguys

Sakhi
le:Ohbutyoudot
rustt
heonewhosl
eptwi
th
yourgir
lf
ri
end

Il
ookathim hedidnotj
ustsayt
hat
,okaymaybei
di
dn'
tthi
nkthisthr
ough.
Phi
ndi
le
Idon'
tevenwanttobeapar tofthi
s,heaskedmet o
beagirl
fri
endandthatisexactlywhatiplantodo.
Heentersiam notevengoingtof i
ghthim,igeton
wit
hmywor kiwanttotr
ansf or
mt hisbedroom and
puti
tawal kincl
oset.

Mzwakhe:Youmad

Me:Whatdoyout
hink

Mzwakhe:Babe

Me:Whywoul dyounotcommuni
catewi t
hme
aboutt
his.Iwoul
dhaveappr
eci
atedityoutel
li
ng
meokayiam doingsoandso

Mzwakhe:Ihadtoactf
astican'
tal
waysberunning
t
oyou,whent hi
ngsgobadfrom mysi
de.Igott
o
dealwitht
hingsmywaynobodyisgoi
ngtoli
keit
,
howeveratsomepointoneneedst
obetoli
stent
o
thatuncomfort
abl
emusic

Me:Youstart
edawarwi t
hdanger
oussnakes.
Si
zweisevilhewi
llshowyoufl
ames

Mzwakhe:Younotmad

Me:Iain'
ttaki
nganysi desangiyi
ngenieyakho
angiyi
ngenieyabo.Ifyouki
lleachotheriwil
lbe
here,wai
ti
ngt odefeatanot
hercreat
ure

Helookssurpri
sedhewassosureiwoul
dpicka
fi
ghtwithhi
m andthatswhyhewascal
mly
addressi
ngthesit
uat
ion.

Si
zwe
Iwasst
art
ingt
oli
ket
hem butnowhej
ustpi
ssed
meof
fandiam t
aki
ngt
hem down.

Lungel
o:Whatnow

Me:Lethim dealwitht
hiswhit
emanissueandthen
westri
ke.Wecan' tdoanyt
hingift
her
e'senemi
es
outt
ogetthem

Lungani:Maybet
hiswasatestil
ear
nedheput
s
youintestt
oproveyourl
oyal
ty

Me:Maybebuti
twasn'
tineedhi
mtotr
ustme
Phi
ndi
lemustfi
ndawaytoblockhi
m

Lungel
o:Can'
tyougeti
ntohermi
nd

Me:Icoul
dbutt
hansomethi
ngisbl
ocki
ngme,
ever
ybodyel
sei
seasytocont
rol
.Worr
ynoti
twi
ll
soonbeover

Lungani
:Won'
tthequeenseei
t

Me:Howwheni
thasnot
hingt
odowi
thher

Sor
rySakhi
leyourboyj
ustpi
ssedmeof
f.
[
06/
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30] :210

Mzwakhe
Ij
ustlovewat chi
ngPhi ndil
egetreadyi nthe
mornings.Itbri
ngsjoytomyhear tshej ustfi
nished
showering,andismovingt onostalgicsoundsof
l
uloCafekeept helevellowclassic.Ialsolovehow
comfortablesheiswithhernakednessar oundme,
shehast hisweir
dhabitaf t
ershower ing.Shewi l
lbe
wrappedi ntowelandchi l
lunt
ilshef all
sasleep.
Shetiesherhairint
obar biegi
rls.
Me:AhPhi
ndi
le

Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakheyouknowaboutmypr
obl
em

Me:Khonanjeamawiuhm weavest
heonet
hat
s
wetil
ikeyouint
hose

Shel
ooksatme.

Me:Youjustamazemeandtur
nmeonespeci
all
y
t
heshortoneyousomet
imeswear

Sheundoesherhairandheadstot
hebat
hroom,
shecomesbackwiththatweavest
rai
ght
eningi
tout
.
Shethanspr
aysitandscrunch,
scr
unch.
Me:Ayi
chmommy

Shepi
cksupout
fi
tsf
ort
hebot
hofus.

Phi
ndi
le:Yougoi
ngoutt
oday

Me:Nobutl
etst
alk

Zet
hu
Mylif
ehascomet oacompl et
ehaul
teveryt
hing
nowisrevolvingaroundthisri
chgangst
erman.I
havetotakecar eofhisneedsandheshower sme
wit
hmoney, howdidmyl if
eendupl i
kethi
s.

Me:Whoahol
don

Si
ndi
:Somet
hingwr
ong
Me:Wher
eisThobani
'
sfat
her

Dad:Ngi
lamakot
i

Me:Sekenakhul
umanikuphinempi
lo(Haveyal
l
t
alked,
whereareyoui
nlif
e)

Theyi
gnor
eme.

Me:Akukwaziphelaukut
hngikhul
umananimase
ni
yangi
ziba(
Ican'tbetal
kingandyouguysar
e
i
gnori
ngme)

Dad:Doyouwantt
otal
k

Me:Itdoesn'
tmatt
erwhathappenedinthepast,
whatmat t
ersnowist
hati
'm pr
egnant.Yougoingto
beamkhul uandheisgoi
ngtobeaf ather
,iam not
br
ingi
ngmychi
ldi
ntot
his

Thabi
so:Iwantt
oeatsogetyourugl
ysel
fupand
outoft
hispl
aceanddon'
tcomebackunti
lyoufi
x
thi
ngs

Me:Mgabadel
i

Thel
adi
esul
ulat
e.Heget
supmumbl
ingsomet
hing.

Me:Fol
lowhi
m

Si
ndi
:Gi
rlweneedwomanl
ikeyou

Thobani
Idon'
twanttotalkt
ot hi
smanbutheismydaddy,
i
am goingtoneedbothhim andmom t
ogeti
t
toget
her.
Me:Iwil
lhaveacuppochi
noandt
hosegor
geous
muff
insdad

Dad:Idon'
tknowwhatdoyour
ecommend

Page:Ourf
amouscar
rotcakeandj
uiceourbest
sel
ler

Dad:Iwi
llhavet
hat

Page:
Comi
ngr
ightup

Wel
ooksomuchal
ikewhyi
sheact
ingcr
azy.

Me:Whydadwhyyoudoingt
hisimeant
her
e's
not
hingidon'
tdof
oryou
Dad:Haveyoucheckeduponmeoryouj
ustsend
memoney, okay

Me:Dadidon'
tunder
stand

Dad:Losi
ngmomswashar donmeilovedt hat
womanwi thmyal
landidi
dnotr
ecover,icouldn'
t
getoveri
tandidi
dn'
twantt
o

Me:Youacti
ngasi
fshe'
sdeadyal
ljustdi
vor
ced
dadser
iousl
y

Dad:Yesseriouslyuyal aziuthandoThobani
umthandeumunt u,uyavukaakasekhookayidi dn'
t
meant osoundi nsensitive.ButThobaniil
ovedyour
motherandunf ortunatelyiwasneverokay, i
thurt
s
okayithur
ts

That
'showif
eel
whenimakeZet
huangr
yandshe
t
hreat
enst
oleaveme.

Me:Youbeingr i
dicul
ousyougottastopandsnap
outofit
.Okayiam goingtobeaf at
hernowmy
hormonesareinsane.Iser
iousl
ywon' thave
pati
enceforyou,yousoannoying

Helaughsourordercomeswechi
llandgoi
nto
det
ail
sabouthismadness.

Mzwakhe
Explai
ningthatiwoul
dbegonef orawhil
edidn'
tsi
t
wellwit
hher ,
andnowshe'sgivi
ngmet hesil
ent
tr
eatment.Ihavetomakesuremyf amil
yremains
safethewholetimeandunfor
tunatel
ysheisno
excepti
on.

Me:Phi
ndi
lepl
easedon'
tdot
his
Phi
ndi
le:She'
snoti
gnor
ingyouwebusyatt
he
momentwithher

Me:Sor
ry

Phindil
e:Yousaidweshoul
dstayoutofyour
businessandthat'
swhatwedoing

Shewalksaway.Atl
eastwecommuni
cat
ingl
ike
adul
tsandsheisnotspi
tt
ingf
ir
e.

Me:Thapel
o

Thaps:Whatupt
hough

Me:Imayhavebeenwrongbybri
ngingyoubuti
don'
ttr
ustt
hoseboysmygutfeel
ingisneverwr
ong
Thaps:Theymor et
hancapableofhandli
ng
whateversi
tuat
ionyouputthem t
hrough,eyt
hose
thr
eearemor epowerf
ulthanus

Me:I
sn'
tpt
hemostpower
ful

Hel
aughs.

Me:Whyar
eal
lofyouscar
edofSi
zwe

Hechangesfr
om Thapel
otoSi
zweitryget
ti
ngupi
can'
tmoveiam st
uckonthecouch.

Sizwe:SeeMzwakheiam goi
ngt
omakeyouwi
sh
youwer eneverbor
n

Asnakestandsinfr
ontofmemymout h
i
nvol
untar
ilyopensanditgoest
hrough.
Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Me:Phi
ndi
lePhi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:What

Me:Canyoucheckt
heyshovedasnakedownmy
t
hroat

Phi
ndi
le:What

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Cal
m downl
ookatmewhathappened

Me:Idon'
tknowidon'
tremember
Phindi
le:Yousai
dsomeoneshovedasnakedown
yourthroat

Me:It
hinkt
heywer
eaboutt
oidon'
tknowPhi
ndi
le

Phindi
le:I
tsokaynobodycanhur
tyoudoyou
remembert el
li
ngmeyouleavi
ng

Me:YesPhi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Li
ndokuhl
e

Iam besi
demysel
fmybodyi
scr
ingi
ng,
iam
fr
eakingout
.

Phi
ndi
le
Hewenti
ntocompl
eteshock.
Thapel
o:Yougoi
ngt
oshoveasnakedownhi
s
thr
oatl
ikeyoudi
dwi
thme

Me:Youwer
esmal
lwat
ersSi
zweei
sh

Thapel
o:Theancest
orsar
egoi
ngt
opuni
shhi
m

Me:Whycan'
tyouj
ustsayno

Thapel
o:Maybeiam atr
oubl
emakerwher
everi
go
ihavet
oleavemymar k

Mzwakhe:Howaboutyoumakeyourmar
k
somewhereel
se

Il
aughhehasagunoverhi
shead.
Mzwakhe:Her
eyourof
fi
cial
lyci
ti
zensnow.You
exi
st

Me:Ncoooht
hankyou.Youpeopl
enowiwasgoi
ng
t
oaskyoubutthan,
youwouldhaveki
ll
edme

Mzwakhe:Youhavecl
othesokayl
etsgoshoppi
ng
Jameslocki
tdown

Iam goi
ngt ogosleepwhatisSi zwepl anning,
why
can'
thesitdownandt alktome.Ican' trisk
confr
ont
inghim, becausehewilljustcont r
olmy
mind.Wil
ltherebeapoi ntwher
ewear ehappyi n
thi
sfamil
y.
[
06/
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30] :211

Phi
ndi
le
Mzwakhel
eftandi
sof
fthegr
id.Imisshim andhi
s
cr
azi
ness,
wemovedbacktothepenthouseandi
don'
tthi
nkiwillbeabl
etohandl
eal
lthesel
adi
es.
Thepregnantbunni
esaregoi
ngtobeaheadache.

Ol
wet
hu:Fi
nal
l
ysomepeaceandqui
et

Rat
o:Ni
lambi
lenoma

Kwanel
e:Sawubonama

Me:Youwantt
obet
allasyourf
ather

Hel
ooksdownandsmi
les.

Zet
hu:Pyout
hinkmyf
ri
endcancomeover

Me:Nonhl
ehascommunicati
onwit
hthem since
bot
hofyouarebunni
es,
tal
ktoeachotherandsee
whatt
heysay.I
fshe'
shotshecancomenoiam
j
oki
ng

Wel
augh.

Me:YeahbutNonhl
eistheoneidon'
thavea
probl
em,j
ustmakesureshecomeswithdri
nksand
snacks

Thel
if
topensJamesenter
swit
hMjandMvelo.Mj
i
snotokayhescur
ri
esoff,
howcanMzwakhego
andl
eavemybabyliket
hat.

Mvel
o:kwanz

Kwanel
e:Whoi
skwanz

Theyl
aughandexcuset
hemsel
ves.
Me:Excuseme

Mzwakhe
Wearr
iveatAkoyo'
shouseiwonderwhathehasi
n
st
oref
orus.

Me:AkoyoAkoyoAkoyo

Akoyo:Wakawaka

It
sreall
ynotthathardpronounci
ngmyname.Hei
s
dri
nki
ngwhi skyandsmoki ngacigar
,withhi
s
multi
pleri
ngsidon'tunderst
andthattr
end.

Akoyo:Whatki
ndofahfr
iendahyou.Youhaveah
weddingyounoinvi
teme

Me:Iai
n'tmar
ri
edoh
Akoyo:Ahnawawookaywher
eist
hatMel
usiand
sweetThando

Me:Theybet
rayedmeicutt
hem l
oose

Akoyo:Ineverr
eall
yli
kedhim butsweetThando
i
sokaynow, anynewbabies

Lastti
mesomeoneint
hebusi
nessknewabout
Phindi
le,
theyt
ri
edt
osell
her
.Iai
n'tr
eveal
inga
thi
ng.

Me:Noij
ustst
il
ltat
atat
appi
ngt
hatass

Akoyo:Youol
dnowbuti
sokayal
ri
ghtl
et'
sgeti
nto
busi
ness
Ist
epoutforami
nut
ethi
sboyyohMxol
isiwi
ll
comerai
ningonme.

Zet
hu
Theyagreedt ol
etmybestf ri
endcomevisitme,i
havesomucht otel
lhersheisgoingtobevery
exci
tedijustknowit.Befor
eigettoint
roduceher
l
etsjustagirlmomentt ooursel
ves.

Babal
wa:Somyf
ri
end

Me:Idon'
thavemoney

Babal
wa:Hawuubaniothesengi
funai
mal
iyakho
kahl
eukungi
jwayel
akabint
ombazane

Il
augh.
Me:Youalwayswantmoneyever
yti
meyousayso
myfri
end

Babal
wa:Idon'
twantyourmoney

Me:Uf
unanipho

Sheshowsmeapi
ctur
eofMzwakheil
ookather
.

Babalwa:Howdoyouknowhi
m andi
shet
he
reasonwhyyougl
owing

Me:Ohiwi
sh

Babal
wa:Iwoul
ddi
etobei
nhi
sar
ms

Il
aughyeaht
hisl
aughi
ngt
hingi
scont
agi
ous.
Me:I
magi
newei
nhi
spent
house

Shescr
eams.

Babal
wa:Youl
yingt
ome

Me:Anywaysiam pr
egnant

Babal
wa:Myf
ri
end

Me:Remembert
hatguyf
rom Mozambi
que

Babal
wa:Thet
allhandsomef
reak

Me:Hi
snotaf
reakbutyeah
Babal
wa:Shutthef
rontdoorcongr
atul
ati
onsf
ri
end
i
shetreat
ingyouwell

Me:Mor
ethanyoucani
magi
nebutl
atel
y

Babal
wa:Hi
scheat
ingal
ready

Me:Nohehascouvadesyndr
ome

Babalwa:Waitl
etmenotembar
rassmysel
finsuch
afancyplace

Me:Hei
smeanert
hanapr
egnantwoman

Babal
wa:Wowwhowoul
dhavet
houghtl
it
tl
eshy
Zet
huisgoi
ngt
obeamother

Me:Ri
ght
Babal
wa:Okaybackt
othi
sone

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
ehandsmeadr
inkiopenandt
akeasi
p,
ref
reshi
ng.

Sakhi
le:Theysayli
fti
sli
keagr
eatl
eaderal
ways
l
ooksoutf ort
hei
rown

Me:Dot
heynow

Sakhi
le:Angazikanj
ankodwa(
Idon'
tknowhow)

Il
augh.

Sakhi
le:"
Sowhydon'
tyoul
ikeme"
Me:Excuseme

Hi
seyeschangest
osnakeeyes.

Sakhil
e:"
Iam askingbecauseyounevergaveme
theti
meofdayandi naminute,youcal
ledThapel
o
knowingver
ywel lheisnotsupposedtobehere"

Me:Haveyoueverki
ll
edanyone

Sakhi
le:"
Iwoul
dlovet
o"

Me:Doyouhaveenemi
es

Sakhi
le:"
Yourpoi
nti
s"
Me:Iam themostwant edcri
minaloutt
here.Al
lthe
t
imeenemi esfindawaytowor minandattack,
now
t
heydon'tjustatt
ackanyonetheycomeforyour
f
amily.Becausetheyknowthatsyourweakness

Sakhile:"Butyoudon' thaveaweakness"f inal

ly
somet hingweagr eeon" Shutup"quiet"Sakhile"
enoughyousai dwhatyouneededt osay.Qui tlyi
ng
toyour selftheMzwakheweknowwoul dn'tdot his,
youkeept ryingtoconvinceyourselfthatifyou
causemassdest ruct
ionpeoplewi l
lyougo.You
convincedyour sel
fsomuchoft hatli
ei t
sst ar
tingto
cloudyourj udgment.Youdon'tdon'tneedThapel o
hereandyoumostcer t
ainl
ydon'tneedt hewhol e
crewher e, maybemebutnotever yone

Theykeepsayingihavechangedihavechanged,
wherehaveichanged.Iwalkawayfrom hi
m
becauseiam get
ti
ngannoyed.

Me:Ayandagi
vemeyourphonenow
Phi
ndi
le
Iwasjustaboutt
otakeanaf
ter
noonnapwhenmy
phoneri
ngs.

Me:Hell
o.Whathavetheydonetoyounow, okayi
wasjustaboutt
osleep.Ihadnot
hingbet
tertodo,
t
hebedf eel
semptyandweak

Mzwakhe:Theysayiam weakil
ostmytouchand
thatiam nol
ongert
hesameMzwakhe,ngiyi
bhar
i
nje

Me:Noyounot

Mzwakhe:Obvi
ousl
yyouwoul
dsayt
hatbecause
wedati
ng
Me:Haveyouaskedyour
sel
fwhyt
heyt
hinkt
hat

Mzwakhe:Icamet
oyouf
oradvi
ce

Me:Idon'tknowwhatyouwanttosaymyl oveonly
youknowwhot herealMzwakheis.Thatmother
fuckert
hatdoesn'
tgi
veadamn

Mzwakhe:Yal
lnotgoi
ngt
oli
keme

Me:Wel
lil
ikei
tyoudi
dchangesi
nce

Mzwakhe:Si
nceial
mostgotmar
ri
ed

Me:MyMzwakhethearrogantbast
ard,
thefeared
one.Theonewhof
orcedmet obeinarelat
ionshi
p
wit
hhim
Mzwakhe:Haiboidi
dn'tf
orceyou.Thatguyi
slong
dead,whycan'
tyouall
owmet obet hi
schanged
person

Me:Changei
sgoodyouneedtoforgi
veyoursel
f
andl
etgo.Youdi
dn'
tal
lowyoursel
ftoheal

Mzwakhe:Yourmyheal
ing"Mzwakhe"
yeni
nozavol
ogowan.Il
oveyouPhindi
le

Me:Il
oveyout
oo

"
Mzwakhe"

Hehungsupismileourr
elat
ionshi
pisprobablynot
goi
ngtobethebest,
butil
ovehim nonet
heless.

Zet
hu
Me:Iam sor
rymyf
ri
endbutno

Babalwa:Don'
tunder
minemel
iket
hat
,don'
tbel
ike
that

Me:Sweet
yiam notj
udgi
ngyou

Babal
wa:So

Me:No

Me:Ngazi
leukut
hawungit
handiwena(Ial
ways
knewyouneverl
ikedme)

Igrabherphoneandsearchf
orPhi
ndi
leonher
Inst
agram t
hanshowittoher
.

Babal
wa:Whatam i
doi
ngwi
thher
Me:That
shi
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Babal
wa:Whatt
heypr
obabl
yjustsmashi
ng

Me:Thewomani
supst
air
ssl
eepi
ngi
nhi
sroom on
hi
sbed

Babal
wa:Yousur
e

Me:Letmegoi
ntr
oduceyout
oherandshewi
llki
ll
you

Babal
wa:Hai
boZet
hungi
yadl
ala(Iam j
oki
ng)

Igr
abherhandandpul lherout,
prot
estingandal
l.
Thebeauti
fulPhi
ndil
ecomesdown, shegetsthe
bi
ggestfr
ightofherl
if
e.Iletgoandlaughather.
Phi
ndile:Sor
rybabal
wamaybeonceiam deadyou
cantakehim

Voi
ce:Thehel
lshei
s

Wel
aughohmyf
ri
end.
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Phi
ndi
le
Somet imesiwonderwhatwasgogot hi
nki
ng
creati
ngt hesecr eatures.Howcanonemanamer e
manhur therthismuch, forhertocr
eatesuch
beasts.Iwasst ari
ngatt hedemonhi mself,
itwas
fl
oat i
ngintheai rflappingitswingswithasharp
pointylongtail.It
seyesl ookedliket
error
,adeep
holewasi nt hemi ddleofusoneper sonisgetti
ng
buriedintheirandi twon' tbeme.
Voice:Whateverhappensnkosazanedonotget
buriedi
nthereotherwisewegoingtol
oseyou
for
ever

Icl
osemyeyesandl evit
ate,i
tseyesgl ow.Thet ail
swingsacrossme.Igrabhol dofitandcuti tstip
usingmyspear,themonst ergroans.Itkicksmei
fl
yoft heai
randlandhar donthegr ound.Itappear s
ont opofmeitat
tempt stopunchme, iduckf oritt
o
puncht hegr
ound.Itcracksandwesl idedown.

Thewhi t
esnakewr apsar
oundmywai standpul
ls
meout .Sandwentintomyeyesican'
tseeandthey
hurtsobad.Icansenseitsi
nfr
ontofme, howare
thesecreat
uressopowerful
.Di
dgogomaket hem
thi
spower f
ul,ort
heylear
nedhowtobepower f
ulon
thei
rown.

Mzwakhe
Ideci
dedwenotgoi
ngt
ost
ayher
ethatl
ong,
everyonejustwantstogohome.Theybor ediwish
wedi dn'
tfl
yout,i
twasoneoft hosedays.Those
tr
ickydayswer ePhindil
emightnotmakeitback,
fi
ghtingsomemonst er
.Iam worr
iedsi
ckbutiknow
shewi l
lwin.

Akoyo:Ogapayat
tent
ionpl
ease

Me:Yeahsor
ry

Somethi
ngi
nmymi ndi
stel
li
ngmetogopr
ayor
j
usthaveaqui
etmomentt
omysel
f.

Thabi
so:Youbr
oughtusher
e

Sakhil
e:Guyspl
easei
tsokayyoucanexcuse
yoursel
f
Wedef i
nit
elynotsupposedtobeher e.Iheadmy
designatedr oom.
..Ireachunderthebedandgr ab
thatbottl
eofwat er,ipri
ckmyselfandletmyblood
dripinsi
det hebott
le.Isayali
ttl
eprayeranddrink.I
placethebot tl
eagainstmychestandl aydown.

Phi
ndi
le
Thismonst eri
sgivingmear unformymoney.
Sizweandt hetwinshavebeendoi ngthei
rbestto
makesur e,idon'
tentertheholeorelsemylif
eis
over.I
twasi ncontrolofnatureever
ytimeitr
yto
fi
ghtit
,itwouldjustshineitseyesandrockswil
l
popoutsl ammingmeever ywhere.

Ihavetoeli
minat
eit
ssourceofpowerthattai
l,
i
can'
thitanywher
e.I
tmustbeintheri
ghtplaceat
theri
ghtmoment.

Idrawoutmyspearihavehaditwit
hthismonster
,
i
tlevi
tat
esandf
lapit
swi ngsvi
gorousl
y.Thewind
star
tsbl
owingcoul
di tbeallt
hesecr
eat
uresknowi
havetodef
eatthem andtheyareal
waysreadyfor
me.

Sizwe:"
It
snotthetai
lcutoft
hewi
ngsi
twi
llweaken
someofi t
spowers"

Me:Comedon'
tbeshyyoupr ett
yboyyesyouare.
Comeyest
hat'
sri
ghtkneelbeforemeain'
tyoua
cut
ey

Ifeelmyheartbeati
ngoutofi t
schestheiseven
scarierupcl
ose.Don'tbescaredPhindi
leyoucan
dot his,
buti
tseyeswer epetr
if
yingmeilookaway.I
feelasharppainingut,isl
ipandfal
lint
othehole.

Si
zwe:Phi
ndi
le!
!!
!

Si
zwe
Thegroundj
ustswal
lowedherwel
ookateach
other
.

Lungel
o:Whatdowedonow

Lungani
:She'
str
appedi
nthatgr
avef
orf
orever

Me:Wehavet
ogetoutofher
e

Lungel
o:Si
zwe

Me:Let
sgo

Wet el
epor
tbacktot
heriver
,everysnakeis
kneeli
ngbefor
ether
iver
.Shitt
hisisdisast
er.

Me:Ma
Masthol
e:Not
imef
orf
earmyboysi
tsagoodt
hing
youcameback

Lungel
o:Butmawef
ail
edher

Masthol
e:Not
her
iverwi
llt
ellusi
fwel
ostheror
not

Phi
ndi
lecomeonyoucandot
his.

Mzwakhe
Iwassweating,shaki
ngreal
lybadandoutofbreat
h.
Igrabontothecovers,mybodywasheatingup.I
wasf r
eaki
ngouticouldn'
topenmyeyes,could
somethingmayhavehappenedt omyPhindil
e.I
hearthedooropeningandcl
osing.
"
Mzwakhe.
.OhmyGodwhati
sgoi
ngon"

Icoul
dn'
tspeakiwasbeyondf
reakedout
,icoul
d
hearmyheartbeat
ingsol
oud.

Thabi
so:Mzwakhebhut
iehl
isaumoya

Iam t
ryi
ngt
obutmyhear
tjustbeat
sevenf
ast
er.

Thabi
so:Kodwankosiyamiungenzanil
omf
ana
Mzwakhe,Sakhi
lebr
ocalm down

Whati
sgoi
ngon.

Phi
ndi
le
Iri
seupfrom t
heashandl odgemyspearst r
aight
i
ntothemonstersneck,
twisti
ngi tandstabbi
ngit
deepint
otheneck.Thantwistitagain.
Me:Got
ohel
landst
ayt
her
e

Igrabi
ttai
landstabitoni
tsgl
owingchestandstep
back.I
texpandsandexpandsandexpands,bl
ack
smokecomesandi texpl
odes.

If
alldowncat
chi
ngmybr
eat
h.
[
06/
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15:
30] :213

Mzwakhe
Iam goingtoki l
lPhindi
lewhotoldhertocomeback
tothemansi on,aft
erthosefor
eignfeeli
ngsit
ook
thefir
stfl
ightoutbackhome.Thehousei sonbl
ast
she'sdancing,ifal
lonthechairandsigh.

Si
zwe:Uhm we'
l
lleave
Me:Si
tdownnow

Thobani
:Whatdowedo

Me:Taket
hem t
othet
ree

Sheenter
sandsi tsdowniturnthechai
rar
ound
andlookather.Thismightbetheonl
yti
meshewil
l
everbesubmissive.

Me:YazingizokushayaPhindil
e.Uyazikunomunt
u
okuzungel
ayowenauzoni kelakuye(Damm iam
goingtohi
tyou, youknowsomeone' souttoki
dnap
youandwill
inglyhandingyoursel
fover)

Idar
ehert
oopenhermout
handt
alkr
ubbi
sh.

Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yaxol
isangekekuphi
ndekwenzeka(
I
am sor
ryi
twon'
thappenagai
n)

Me:Yeahwellidoubti
tyesescomelet
sgodoyou
wantsomet
hingbeforeidoanythi
ng

Phi
ndi
le:Fornowiam okayt
hankyou

Si
zwe:Mzwakhe

Me:Ahahdon'
tbor
eme

Si
zwe:Canwet
alkt
oyouguys

Isi
gh.

Si
zwe
Ihopeiam maki
ngt
her
ightdeci
sionher
e.
Lungel
o:Yousur
eaboutt
hisanyt
hingyouwantt
o
doweokaywithi
t

Me:Igotsomet
hingt
osay

Mzwakhe:Hol
donThapscanyougi
veusami
nut
e

Me:Okaysot hereisnoeasywayt osaythissoiam

justgoingtotalk.Okayithinkaboutnineorten
yearsold,idon'tquitr
emember .Ineverexperi
enced
peacei nmyl i
feinfactili
vedmostofmyl i
fein
agony.Ourmot herhadthismanwhowasher
boyfri
endidon' tknow,inhismindhehadt hisweird
fantasy.Hesexual l
yfeastedonme

Theysi
tpr
oper
lyandl
ookatme.

Me:I
twasn'
taf
ant
asyanymor
eitbecameanor
m.
hewoul dl
ockmeupandhavehi swaywithme, and
makemedot hemostunbearablethi
ngsachil
d
shouldn'
tgothr
ough.Fort
hel ongestt
imeiwas
fuckedinmybuttandfor
cefull
ymadet osuckit

Ichuckl
e.

Lungelo:Fastf orwardwecameal ongandheal so

didthesamet hingtous.Itbecamet oomuchf or
Sizwehepr otectedusandt ookitf orus,wewoul d
askhim whyi st hisgoi
ngonwhyyousuf fer
ingby
yoursel
f.Hewoul dsayitstoprotectyouguys, it
wentonandonandont hinkingi
twoul dendbutno
i
tgotwor se.Eachdaydi f
ferentmen. .
.Eachday

Me:Eachdaydi f
ferentmenwouldforcethemselves
onus.Whent heywer edoneandsati
sfi
edt hey
wouldtakeapi ssonus, theywoul
dleaveusf or
dayssmelli
ngwi thoutfoodandwater.Iwould
regai
nmyst rengthandcl eanedt
hem up,ididn'
t
careaboutmysel f.Wewoul dgoaroundseeking
whateverj
usttoputi
nourstomachs,somet
imes
st
ealandgetintomorebi
ggertr
ouble

Myvoi
cei
sbr
eaki
ngt
het
ear
skeptst
reami
ngdown.

Me:Ther ewast hisonemanwhokeptcomi ng

checki ngonus.Hewoul dcar ryni cet hi
ngsf orus,
wet houghthewasourf athert hewaymom j ust
glowedwhenevert heywer et oget her.Wecoul dn'
t
bringour selvestotellmom whatwasgoi ngon,
becauseshehasbeensobr ainwashedbyt hi sman.
Anyt hingwesai dordi dwoul dbeusedagai nstus
andwewoul dgetintoal otoft rouble.Butthisone
manwehonest l
ybel i
evedhewasourf at
her,
becausehedi dwhatanynor malf atherwoul ddo.
Wecoul dn'tunderstandwhyhel eftallt
hetime, lef
t
uswi t
hthismonst erofaman.Wel ongedforhi s
arrivalbuthenevercameback

Mzwakhe:Whowast
hisman
Me:Yourfatherusbei
ngher
ewecamet otake
revengeonyouguysovert
heyear
s.Thi
screated
l
ittl
emonsterinusandwevowedtot
akerevenge
onyou

Mzwakhe:Whatchanged

Me:WhenPhi
ndi
lei
nst
ant
lygotbur
iedunder
ground

Them:What

Me:Idon'
tknowhowshegotoutwedidourbest
makingsur
eshedoesn'
tfal
lint
hatgr
ave

Mzwakhe:Hadshenotf
all
enwoul
dyoust
il
lhave
donei
t
Me:Yourbehavi
ornazi
,woul
dhavedef
ini
tel
y
pushedme

Mzwakhe:St
il
ldoesn'
texpl
ainhowwef
iti
nthi
s
mess

Me:Yal
lknowanomceboJal
i

Sakhi
le:Nowaysit
oldyouf
ool
stheyl
ookf
ami
li
ar

Me:Ibel
ieveyouhaveat
att
ooofourmot
her

Mzwakhe:Keat
heyl
ookl
ikeKeamandaddywas
hoe

Theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Youdon'
ttaker
evengeonf
ami
lyyouf
ool
iam gl
adyouspoket
ous

Lindo:"Iam notyourfatheridohaveki dswi t

hyour
mot her,butthatmanthroughandt hr
oughi syour
father.Ifoughtwit
hherever ydayletmetakeyou
guysandunf ort
unatel
yiwasn' tgoingtoleavemy
wife"

Sakhi
le:Thisisalott
otakei
nlet
sjustt
akeaf
ive
minut
ebr eatherandcomeback

Ever
yoneget
supMzwakhecomest
ome,
igetup
andwehugeachot
her
.Hecri
es.

Mzwakhe:Ipr
obabl
ywoul
dhavemur
der
edyour
ugl
yass

Me:Uglyyoushoul
dtakealookint
hemi
rr
orand
youwil
lseethedef
ini
ti
onofugly
Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Iwoul dhavesearchedf
oronethousand
waystokillasnake.I
fyoudon'twantt
otalkabout
thi
swewon' t,
ifyouneedhelpiam her
e.Wef amil
yi
don'tl
ikehal
fofthem butt
heymybr ot
hers,t
hey
mustneverhearmesayt hat

Phi
ndi
le
Thedestr
uct
ionSizwewoul dhavecausedwoul d
havebeenenoughtodestroyever
ything,
everyone
hasworkedsohardfor.Idon'
tknowi fweshould
thankt
hebeastorwhat.Iam sorel
ievedtheymi nds
cameback,t
heywi l
lsortt
hingsoutthemselvesand
tal
kasboys.

Lungel
o:Nkosazane
Me:Somethingsdon'
tneedareact
ionyouwoul
d
haver
uinedwhatweallworkedsohardfor

Lungani
:Youshoul
dn'
tfearuswet
hel
eastofyour
probl
ems

Me:Shapeshi
ft
erst
her
e'sal
otofdamageyouguys
cando

Lungani
:Fi
vedownf
ivemor
etogo

Me:Thesecr
eat
ures

Lungelo:Theyknowwhatyourweaknessesareif
yougiveintothem t
heywil
lconqueryou.Youhave
tol
ookpasst heref
earsandthatwayyouwi l
lof
wit
htheirheads
Me:Okaypl
easeletsworkwitheachothert
he
soonerwef
ini
sh,thesooneryougetyourli
feback.
Thebett
erf
oreveryone

Theysmi
le.

Mzwakhe
Noonei ssafefrom abusemostofyoumayt hinki
am alsoabusi ngPhindil
eemot ional
ly.Butiwould
neverdosomet hingnobodyi scomf ort
ablewit
h,it
s
whoiam i fidon'tactthi
swayt hantheygoingto
thi
nkidon' tli
kethem orihavef avorit
es.Yesido
havef avor
itesbutdon'ttel
lthem that.

Me:Iwantt
oknowthi
sel
abor
atepl
anofyour
sthat
ever
yonewassoaf
rai
dof

ThetwinscomedownisitaBhengut
hingt
obet
his
handsomelikenoman.
Sizwe:Soiam ami ndcontr
oll
er.Icangeti
ntoyour
mi ndandmakeyoudot hingsiwantyoutodo,and
sayt hi
ngsiwantyoutosay

Me:Okayhowdoweknowwhosewhoher
e

L1:Iam Lungel
oihaveahor
sevoi
cel
ike

Me:Luyandaokaygoti
t

Lungel
o:Wecanal
sodot
his

Theychangei
ntome,
Sakhi
le,
Thobaniandt
her
est
ofthem.

Lungel
o:Youwoul
dneverknowwhowear
e
Lungani
:Orseeuscomi
ng

Me:Wowcanyoual
soputpeopl
eini
ll
usi
ons

Si
zwe:Wenott
hatst
rongThapel
oandi
nkosazane
ar
etheonl
yoneswhocandothat

Me:Sowhydi
dn'
tPhi
ndi
let
ellus

Sizwe:Youhavetol
duscountl
essti
meslet
i
nkosazanebeagi r
lf
ri
endandtobackof
f.I
thad
nothi
ngtodowi t
hher

Me:Ohhai
boThobanidon'
ttakeanyonet
othet
ree
nj
alo

Il
augh.
Me:Hol
doniam indest
ruct
ibl
ehowwoul
dyour
st
upi
dplanhaveworked

Si
zwe:I
tdoesn'
tmat
ternow

Me:Thehelli
tdoesineedtobereadyi
ncaseyou
f
eeltheneedtowanttoatt
acknow

Si
zwe:Doesn'
tthatdef
eatt
hepur
poseofan
at
tack

Me:Notwhenyouf
ami
ly

Si
zwe:Noasi
yekel
ent
osi
ngazesi
gwazane

Wel
augh.
Me:Doineedt
oint
roducemysel
f

Si
zwe:Wegoodwewoul
dn'
tli
keeachot
her

Me:Doyouguyshaveani
dent
it
y

Sizwe:It
hinksowedi
sappear
edatt
heageof
fi
fteen

Me:Okayexcuseme

Ineedt
ocheckuponmybabywowt
hatwasa
mouthf
ul.

Phi
ndi
le
Theladiescomebackf rom shoppingfir
stwhy
wasn'tiinvi
tedtothi
s.Iknowitoldthem nott
o
bot
hermebut ,idoli
ketohavesomef un.
Nonhl
e:Weboughtyousomet hi
ngbecausewe
knewshamewewoul dn'
theartheendofit

Theyl
augh.

Zet
hu:Ever
yonethi
sismyf
ri
endbabal
waihope
youdon'
tmindher

Shel
ooksatMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe:Ahahnt
ombazaneusuf
unangi
xabane
nomunt
uwamino

Somethi
nghappenst
omeican'
tfeelmylegs,
than
suddenl
yif
eelpai
nonmycheeki
tblocki
ngmyeye.
Iscr
eam.
Mzwakhe:Yi
nimanj
eyouokay

If
eelanot
hershar
ppai
ninmyabdomen.

Me:Mybaby

Mzwakhe:What

Il
ookatbabal
wat
hatwast
hel
astt
hingshesai
d.
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06/
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30] :214

Mzwakhe
Herfacewasswoll
ensobad,nowpeoplearegoi
ng
tot
hinkiat
tackedher
.Idon'
twantanysecr
ets
bet
weenus.

Me:Mama
Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tunder
standwhynami

Me:Whathappened

Phi
ndi
le:Somet
hingt
hathappenedt
obabal
wa

Me:Howar
eyouexper
ienci
ngi
t

Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tknowbaby

Me:Theygoi
ngt
osayihi
tyou

Phi
ndi
le:Maybeyouwi
llhi
tme

Il
ookathershel
aughs.
Phindil
e:Iguessherboyf
ri
endwasabusi ngheror
sti
llabusi
ngher.Ithi
nkiam goingt
ost ayhere,
becauseifwemeetiwi l
ldef
init
elyt
ellherbusiness

Me:Okayshoul
digetyouanyt
hing

Phi
ndi
le:Meatmyl
ove

Iki
ssher
.

Me:Heyf
am

Thabi
so:Wakhe

Me:Baf
o

Thabi
so:Unj
anumam wakwet
hu(
Howi
sourl
ady)
Me:Muhl
e(Beaut
if
ul)

Hel
ooksupandsmi
les.

Thabiso:Akuhl
alekubenj
alo(
Andi
tshal
lremai
n
l
ikethat)

Zet
hu
Iam shockedandlostf
orwordshowcaninotsee
whatmybestf r
iendhasbeengoi
ngthr
oughthe
most.

Me:Babal
wawhydi
dn'
tyousayanyt
hing

Babalwa:Iwasscar
edidi
dn'
tknowhowt
otel
l
anyone
Me:Ican'
tican'
t

Iwal
koutt
her oom t
hisi
stoomuchf
orme,
wit
hmy
hor
monesallovert
heplace.

Sakhi
le:Heymyl
ovewhyyoucr
ying

Hehugsmeandij
ustcr
y.

Sakhi
le:Whatdi
dhedo

Thobani
:AhMzwakheuyangi
li
maza(Yourhur
ti
ng
me)

Mzwakhe:Mommyj
ustsayt
hewor
d

Thobani
:Getofmeb*
tchidi
dn'
tdoanyt
hing
Mzwakhe:Shutup

Thobani
:Mzwakhe

Me:He.
..Hedi
dn'
tdoanyt
hing

Thobani
:Getofme

Mzwakhe:Yousur
e

Iwi
pemyt
ear
s.

Me:Yes

Sakhi
le:Yi
ndabphowakhalakangakakwabuhl
ungu
i
nhli
ziyoyami(Whyyoucrying.Yourcr
iesj
ust
pi
ercedt
hroughmyhear
t)

Me:I
fmyf ri
endwishestoshar
eitandcomf
ort
abl
ei
wi
llt
ellyouwhyiam cryi
ng

Mzwakhe:Yout
oldheraboutPhi
ndi
le

Me:Noexcuseme

Befor
eicanevenaskabouthi
m herunsinsi
det
he
house,t
heyl
aughiheadbacktoherroom.

Me:Iam sor
ryiam pr
egnantandyeah

Babal
wa:Pleaseihavenowher
etogohewi
llf
ind
mepleasedon'tj
udgeme

Me:Youcanst
ayher
easl
ongasyouwantbuti
havetowarnyou.Mzwakhe'sgirl
fri
endshemay
haveseenwhatyouwentt hr
ough,ormayt el
lyou
whatyouwentthrough.Sheisveryspi
ri
tual,
so
avoi
dherasbestasyoucan

Ihugher
.

Phi
ndi
le
Holdont hi
sisMzwakhe'
shouseandBabalwai sa
guestsheistheonewhoneedstodot hehi
ding,no
iam j
okingiam nott
hatki
ndofperson.Ist
epoutof
thebedroom andmyheadaches.

Me:Mzwakhe

Imi
ssast
epandr
olldownt
hest
air
s.

Mzwakhe
Iheardhercall
ingmynameandisawherbutshe
wasalreadyrol
lingdown.Wequickl
yrushedhert
o
thehospit
al,
whydi dsheevenl
eavethebed.

Me:Phamandl
a

Phamandl
a:Hol
donMzwakhe

Me:Khumul
aSi
zwekwenzakal
an

Sizwe:I
fshest
aysbeefupt
hehospi
talsecur
it
ywe
atwar

Me:Canyoupr
otecther

Si
zwe:Yeahbutidon'
twantt
o

Sakhi
le:Si
zwe
Sizwe:Youherenj
eminaionl
yprotecther
spir
it
uall
ythi
sparti
tsonyouguys

Thabi
so:Usuf
unaukuncengwanawe

Si
zwe:Angizonaizi
nqaminamelengincengwe(
I
am notabum idon'
tneedtobebegged)

Li
nda:HaaThabi
soukubi
zangezi
nqa

Wel
augh.

Me:St
op

Thato:Okayshe'
sinacomaorasyouguysputi
t
"spi
ri
tualwor
ld"di
dguysyoubr
eakup
Me:Whywoul
dyout
hinkt
hat

That
o:Thewayshegoesi
ntoshocki
sshocki
ng

Me:Idon'
tknowThat
osher
oll
eddownt
hest
air
s

That
o:Iwoul
dli
ket
okeepherover
night

Me:Okay

Igetupbutsomethingsl
owsmymi nd,Si
zweandi
star
eateachother.Mymindget
sreall
yconf
used
andhazyeveryt
hingisi
nslowmoti
on.

Si
zwe:Qui
twhi
let
ryi
ngyounomat
chf
orme

Hear
inghi
m sayt
hatanger
edmeipunchhi
m.
Me:Nob*
tchyounomat
chf
orme

Hei
slaughi
ngcover
inghi
sbl
eedi
ngnose.

Me:Anyt
hinghappenst
oPhi
ndi
leyougoi
ngt
oget
i
tgoti
t

Si
zwe:Skhul
u

"
Wakhe"

Sakhi
le
Wewer esecondslat
enobodyinthi
shousetr
oubl
es
usli
keMzwakheandPhi ndi
le,
nomat t
erwhat
anyonesaysthesetwowil
lbethedeat
hofus.

Thobani
:Int
oengi
xakayosonkesi
mboni
leay
wasegi
nqi
kil
eumunt(Whatconfusesmeweall
sawherbutt
han,
shewasalreadyrol
li
ngdown)

Me:Abat
hakat
hi

Wel augh.IseeNothandowal ki
nginmywor l
d
stops,igazeuponhergor geousface.Shetucksher
hairbehindherear
,isigh.Howmuchmor ewooing
doesoneneedt odo.

Andt hemostscariestthi
nghappensabigf i
ft
yfoot
snakefallsdownthroughtheceil
ingandlandson
thetable.Ever
yonerunsoutexceptbadboy
Mzwakhe, hol
don.Lindanihol
dsmewel augh.

Mzwakhe
Ididfl
inchidon'
twanttoli
ebutsomehowt hi
sbad
boydoesn'tscar
emet hatmuch.Iam gluedtothis
chair
,ifimoveiwoul
dbesi gningmydeat hwarrant
.
Itl
ooksconfusedil
ookoutt heylaughi
ng.
Li
nda:Touchi
t

Theyl
augh.

It
ryt
ogetupi
tmoves.

Me:Okayokaygetmeoutoft
his

Theycr
acki
ngoutsideiam shaki
ngi
nmyball
snow.
Nonhl
eappear
sitjumpsupl andi
ngonme,
iclose
myeyesandmyski ncrawl
s.

Me:Phi
ndi
lewhoeveryouar
egetofme

Iopenmyeyesit
sgonef *
ckguysihaveagirl
fr
iend
thattur
nsi
ntoasnake,
canitgetanybet
tert
han
that.
Phi
ndi
le
Iri
seupfrom t
hepoolandlayonthegroundf
aci
ng
up.Howcanigettheancestor
stofor
giveMzwakhe,
howcanigetthatl
eopardtocommunicatewi
thhi
m.
Igetupandheadinsi
de.

If
eelt
hedar
kener
gyl
urki
ngar
ound,
isi
gh.

Si
zwe:It
hinki
tsdanger
ousf
orhi
mtocommuni
cat
e
wi
ththel
eopar
d

Me:Youwoul dthinkwedonei
tallbutnopeit
sthat
onething,t
hatone.Icannowconfi
denti
ali
tysayi
hat
et hatb*t
ch.Icurset
hedayMzwakhemetwi t
h
her

Sizwe:Let
sgobackt
ot hehospi
talbef
oret
hey
noti
ceyougone.Iwi
lldealwi
tht
heboys
Maybeishoul dj
ustall
owt hedemontotakeher
,but
iam notevi
l.Iwasbroughtheretodef
eatthem,
not
toal
lowthem tohavetheirway.
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30] :215

Phi
ndi
le
Istayedupt hewholenighttryi
ngt odi
gestallof
thi
s.Whatdoyoudowhenyourl ovedoni s
knockingondeat hsdoor,howdoyoupr otectt
hem
whent heyinvit
edthedeviltodineandgr oovewith
them.Thest akesarehighnowhemaybeabul l
shit
,
butiam notgoi ngtoal
lowanyonet omesswi th
himl i
kethat.

That
o:Ohwear
eawake

Ii
gnor
ehi
m.
That
o:Iam adoct
orPhi
ndi
leandwedealwi
thf
act
s

Hegoesdownonhi
skneeshyper
vent
il
ati
ng,
iget
upandchange.

Me:Youknowwhatkhabazel
aidon'
thavet
imefor
chi
tchat
,youcancomecheckmeinthemansi
on

Iwal
kout
..
.

Ineverthoughtiwoul dseemysel
fhereagain.Even
mentioninghernamegi vesmethehibi
rij
ibbii
es,
shecallsf orthedemonallt
heti
me,i
twant sto
communi catewithher
.

Si
zwe:Phi
ndi
leyoupl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
e

Me:Theyl
itt
hemat
chandnowiam st
art
ingt
hef
ir
e
Si
zwe:Youpl
ayi
ngr
ighti
ntot
hei
rtr
ap

Me:Whatot
herchoi
cedoihave

Sizwe:YousendCynthiatotheri
veriguar
anteeyou,
shewi l
lbethegateopenerf
orthosecreat
ures.The
ri
verisoursacredpl
acedon'tdothi
s

Iwalkawaymyheadwasspi
nni
ngandpoundi
ng
real
lybad.

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Downigo.

Mzwakhe
Me:Si
zwewhatwer
eyoudoi
ngi
nthatwoman'
s
pr
oper
ty

Si
zwe:Besi
yomdli
sainyoka(
Wewer
epr
epar
ingt
o
makeherswal
lowthesnake)

Me:Yaziuchat
hingi
yadl
ala(Yout
hinkt
hisi
saj
oke)

Si
zwe:Udl
alanobaniumnganiwakho(
Whoyou
pl
ayi
nggameswi t
h)

Iam goi
ngt
opuncht
hisb*
tchonhi
sface.

Sizwe:WefightingMzwakhewef ighti
ngt
oprotect
yourdumbass.Shemadeadealwi thacr
eatur
ei n
exchangeforhersoul,youhadtogetmarri
edand
bepossessedbyashadow.Thi sshadowwouldend
thewarandt akeover,t
hepalacewasgoingtorise
anddarknesst akeover
Il
ookdownscr
atchi
ngmyhead.

Sizwe:All
owust odoourj
obandyouf
ocusont
he
evilamongstyourcr
ew

Il
ookathi
m.

Me:Whatdomean

Si
zwe:Youhavet
opr
otecti
nkosazane

Isi
gh.

Me:Am igoi
ngt
odi
e

Si
zwe:Yoursoulmaybebutyourbodywoul
dbe
ownedbythedevi
l
Me:Isawyouwereagainstwhatshewant
edt
odo
whati
syoursuggest
ion

Si
zwe:Youel
imi
nat
eher

Me:Idon'
tki
llwoman

Si
zwe:Womanmansamet
hingi
tact
scr
azychuck
i
tout

Me:Idon'
tki
llwoman

Si
zwe:Thanshutt
hef
*ckup

WWPDwhatwoul
dPhi
ndi
ledo.
Sakhi
le:"
Wedon'
tki
llf
emal
esokaydonotl
etSi
zwe
i
nfl
uenceyou"

Sizwe:Angaziwenauphawul
aniuhl
ulwaukushel
a
i
nt ombi(Hereyouar
eMropinionsbutyoucan'
t
evencourtagirl
)

Sakhi
le:"
Okusal
ayowedon'
tki
llf
emal
es"

IhateCynthi
aihatemyselff
orbri
ngingsucha
person,whil
etheydoi
ngthei
rbesttogetri
dofsuch
evi
lness.

Sakhi
le
Lordhavemercyuponusiain'
tkil
li
ngnowoman
andbri
ngingbadluck,
nothankyou.Ispeakto
Thabi
soast heel
desthewouldknowwhatt odo.

Thabi
so:Youshoul
dhavebeenaBhengu
Me:Andt
urni
ntoasnakeidon'
tthi
nkso

Thabi
so:Whatcanidof
oryou

Me:Maybeyoucanf i
ndawaytomakeeveryt
hing
happyagai
n,okayhel
pMzwakheashi
selder
brot
her

Thabi
so:Yout
heper
sonhel
ovest
hemost

Me:Youar
ehi
sbr
other

Thabi
so:Whathashedonenow

Me:Notwhathehasdone,
whathei
sgoi
ngt
odo
Thabi
so:Fi
ne

Isummont
hecr
ewhei
sgoi
ngt
oneedusal
l.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwenti
nwit
hmyf eeli
ngsandnotl
ogi
c.Iwoul
d
st
opatnot
hingt
opr ot
ectt
hem,butSi
zweisri
ght
.

Me:Idon'
tli
ket
hesei nj
ect
ionshowmuchmor
edo
youneedtoadmini
ster

Nur
se:Justone

Hisboldvoi
ceawakenst hesnakebef or
eicando
anyt
hing.Hestabsthatneedlestr
aighti
ntomyneck,
myent i
rebodyisparal
yzed.Istar
eathim br
ushi
ng
myhairwithasmileonhi sf
ace.
Istar
eatt
heceil
ingunabl
etobr
eat
heormove,
he
shutsmyeyesandthat
sit
.

Si
zwe
Him sl
idingi
ntootherpeopl
e'
svaginasi swhat
al
waysget shimintroubl
e.Looknowt hey
ki
dnappedPhi ndi
leri
ghtundert
heirnose,bei
ng
curseddoesn'
tmeanactt hi
swayandt ake
advantageofthesit
uati
on.Eachacti
onhasa
consequence.

Heenter
srunni
ngl
i
kehei
sbei
ngchasedbya
ghost
.

Sakhi
le:Andt
hanwena

Nka:Youdon'
twantt
oknow

Sakhi
le:Whydoyoui
diot
sfol
lowi
nMzwakhe'
s
f
oot
stepsayman

Nka:Wel
ear
nedf
rom t
hebest

Ichuckl
e.

Lungel
o:Youwoul
dthi
nkt
heyl
ikehi
m butnot
hey
dest
royi
nghim

Me:Hereall
ydoesli
ket
hem andal
waysl
ooksout
f
orthem t
hisissadr
eal
ly

Lungani
:"Wai
twhi
chbutt
ondoipr
essbef
orei
presst
hewrongbut
ton"

Whil
ehefigur
est
hatoutit
akemysnakef
orm and
sl
it
herout
.
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06/
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31] :216
Sakhi
le
Ientert
heirli
tt
legadgetr
oom t
ofi
ndouthowfar
theguysare.Icannotbeli
evet
hatt
hisi
shappeni
ng
andwher ethehelli
sMzwakhe.

Me:Anyl
uck

Ayanda:Iam tr
yingtoseei
ficanlocatewhereher
chipwasdeactivat
edwecanstartlooki
ngfr
om
therebuti
tsverytr
icky

Me:I
fanybodycandoi
tit
syou

Ayanda:Ri
ght

Me:Youwor
kont
hatokay
Ayanda:Mzwakhe

Me:For
getaboutMzwakheoncehecomesbackhe
i
shismindisgoi
ngtogetl
ost

Luyanda:Guys

Me:Youf
oundsomet
hing

Luyanda:Thi
siswhatt
hesat
ell
it
eispi
cki
ngup

Me:Thatcoul
dbeanywher
e

Ayanda:Weneedmor
ethanwhatwehave

Me:Si
zwecheckhi
m out
Ihopehehassomeki
ndoft
rackeronhi
m andt
he
twi
ns.

Mzwakhe
Iwanttoshowerf i
rstandthengocheckonPhi ndi
le.
Sizweiscrazyican'tki
llawomanjustbecause
she'sevi
l,
letherevil
nessbetheonetotakeher.I
entermybedroom anal armisgoi
ngof,icheckmy
phonecodewhoi ssendingacodered.

Me:Whatt
hehel
lisgoi
ngon

Sakhi
le:Howni
ceofyout
ojoi
nuswher
eyoubeen
Mzwakhe

Me:Sakhi
le

Sakhi
le:Phi
ndi
l
ewast
akenf
rom t
hehospi
tal
Me:Bywho

Sakhi
le:That
'swhatwet
ryi
ngt
ofi
gur
eout

Iscr
atchmyheadandchuckl
e.

Sakhi
le:Whyyoul
aughi
ng

Me:Yal
ldi
ditagai
nyal
ldi
ditagai
n

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:Sakhi
leitbeepsonwhatevermovementshei
s
doi
ngitbeeps,youguysdi
ditagain

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhewai
t
Thabi
so
Thi
sisthelastt
hingweneedohMambawhyhave
youfor
sakenus,weneedtofi
ndthisgi
rlbef
ore
Mzwakheloseshismind.Myphoneri
ngs.

Me:Skhul
u

Sakhi
le:Thi
swasani
nsi
dej
ob

Me:What

Hehungsup.

Me:Tel
lmeyal
lhavesomet
hing

Nt
ando:No
Me:No

Nt
ando:Don'
tshoutokaywedoi
ngt
hebestwecan

Me:Nyui ngweweyewenaungangi tshelil

amasi mba
ongitshelawona.Ngifunakuchi t
hekai gazimanje
Ntando, ngi
funaleshl
amaesi nesbindisokut hi
ntala
engathintwakhona.Ngimbul alengezamii zandlaay
f*
ckmanni ngazongicasula,
lingaphelilol
usuku
uPhindilengambonanga( Doingt hebestwecan
don'ttel
lmet hatbull
shit
.Iwantbl oodt obespi l
led
now.Iwantt okillt
hisdogwhodar emesswi t
hus,
withmybar ehands.Donotannoydonotl etthis
dayendwi t
houtmeseei ngPhi ndil
e)

Theyl
eave.

Me:KodwaPhi
ndi
leukephi(
Phi
ndi
lewher
ear
eyou)
Sakhi
le
Ayanda:Tr
evor

"
Trevor
"
"
Hmmm"

Ayanda:Tr
evoryoupuss

Her
:"Tr
evorwakeupt
her
e'ssomeoneher
e"

Tr
evor
:"Huh!Wher
e"

Her
:"Youhaveagun"

Tr
evor
:"Ofcour
seihaveagunwhatyout
hinkt
his
i
s"
Ayanda:Putt
hegundown

Tr
evor
:"Yousai
dther
e'speopl
eher
e"

Her:"
Ihear
dthem t
alki
ngwai
twhydoyouhavea
gun"

Me:Tr
evor

Her
:"Whatki
ndofaphot
ographercarr
iesagun
whatar
etheygoi
ngtost
ealyourpict
ures"

Wel
augh.

Tr
evor
:"Babywhyyouembar
rassi
ngmei
nfr
ontof
myboys"
Me:Canyout
racebackt
hel
ocat
ionwesentyou

Tr
evor:"
okayicantryi
fyoul
ockedoutt
hatmeansi
am al
solockedout
"

Me:Trymanwecanl
ett
hisdayendwi
thget
ti
ngher
back

Mzwakheopensupt
hechai
randsi
tsdown.

Ayanda:Youandyourf
ri
endsSakhi
le

Me:Excusemewhatyout rynasayiwoul
dneverhe
mightbutiwoul
dnever.Wegr ewupwit
heach
other
,hehasbeenobsessedwi t
hmesincehi
gh
schoolHai
boAyanda

Wel
augh.
Mzwakhe
Theyal
lgat
herar
oundt
het
abl
e.

Thabi
so:Bhuti
wamingiyat
hembi
sasomt
hola
(Brot
heripr
omi seyouwegoi
ngt
ofi
ndher)

IseeSi
zwest
andi
ngbehi
ndNkanyi
so.

Sizwe:Shameidon'
tevenl
ikeandial
most
destr
oyedthef
amily

Me:Whywasn'
tyout
her
ewhent
heyt
ookher

Si
zwe:Don'
tbl
amemef
oryourst
upi
dit
y

Me:Iaskedyouaquest
ion
Si
zwe:Whydi
dyousl
eepwi
thSi
hle

Me:Ohbecauseoft
hatyoual
lowedt
hesef
ool
sto
t
akeher

Thabi
so:Bhut
i

Me:Thabi
soawukahl
ewenangi
khul
umanawe

Nka:Me

Sizwe:YesMzwakheididoutofspi
teil
eti
thappen
becauseiam st
rongl
ikethat

Me:Wher
ear
eyou
Sizwe:Idon'
tknowsomedi sgusti
ngsmell
ing
abandonedbuil
ding.I
tsnottofarfr
om t
hewhite
man'shouse,haaphelaican'
ttel
lyouever
ythi
ng

Me:Whydi
dyoudoi
t

Thabi
so:Nevermi
ndhi
m Nkanyi
so

Sizwe:It
shi
spl
acet
otel
lyoumakef
astkewedon'
t
havetime

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhe:Wenotgoi
ngt
odoanyt
hing

Me:Youwon'
tbutiwi
ll

Igr
abmygunsandwal
koutSi
zwei
sst
andi
ng
out
side.
Mzwakhe:Wher
edi
dyougett
hose

Hei
scar
ryi
ngt
wosni
perguns.

Si
zwe:Ist
olet
hem

Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lewai
tokayokayf
ine

Wegeti
nthecarandidr
iveof
f.

Me:Si
zweyouabadi
nfl
uence

Si
zwe:Wet
ir
edofyourweakass

Me:Thankyouwhywelookoutf
oreachot
herwhy
woul
dhedot hi
stot
hecrew.
..wai
tpul
lup
Wel
augh,
hepul
lsupont
hesi
deoft
her
oad.

Mzwakhe:Youi
diot
swel
lit
sgoodt
oknowsomeof
youhavemyback

Sizwe:Ei
shihavet
ogoyourmachi
nesthankyou,
youmakesureyoudon'
tsl
eepwit
hanyoneokay

Me:Let
sgoki
cksomeass
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Mzwakhe
Proj
ectcupcakeishouldhaveki
ll
edDougwheni
hadthechanceto,butist
il
lcan'
tthatbast
ardbuti
knowwhowhowi l
l.

Sakhi
le:Tazz
Tazz:Skhul
u

Sakhi
le:I
fLi
ndaniwasher
ehewoul
dsaywhata
wasteofgoodp*ssy

Tazz:Yeahwel
lift
her
e'sguysl
ikeyal
loutt
her
ei
am goodwit
htheladi
es

Me:Whatdoyouhavef
orme

Tazz:Notgoodyoumi
ghtwantt
ohandcuf
fyour
sel
f

Me:Idon'
thi
tladi
esbutyou,
you

Tazz:Awskhul
u
Sakhi
lepl
ugst
heUSBi
nabunchoff
older
sappear
s.

Sakhi
le:Wow

Tazz:Qui
tanexqui
sit
eladyyougott
her
e

Il
ookather
.

Me:Mywomani
snotpr
ojectcupcake.

Sheget
sshovedi
ntosomedodgyr
oom.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Younotgoi
ngtogetawaywi
tht
his,
hei
s
goi
ngtofi
ndyouandkil
lyou"

Sherecei
vesasmacksendi
nghert
othef
loor
.She
si
tsdowncryi
ng.
Phi
ndi
le:"Theynevergoi
ngt
ofi
ndmeandiwi
llbe
st
ucki
nt hishel
lhole"

Hef astfor
war d.Threeguysentertheroom
touchingtheirpri
vatepart
sshowi ngtheiruglysmile,
ipreparemysel fforthi
smoment .Theyinstructher
totouchcr ot
ches, sheref
uses.Theyroughlygr ab
herupwant i
ngt okissher,
shepushest hem.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Yout
ouchmeiswearyougoi
ngt
odi
e"

Theypunchhershef al
lsoneoft hem pinsdownher
arms, oneseparat
eherlegs.Theot heropenshi
s
pants,herscreamingandpl eadingf al
lint
odeaf
ears.Iclosemyeyesat earf al
lsdownmycheek, i
fai
ledher .If
ail
edtoprotecther.

Thabi
so
Igodownonmykneesshaki ngmyhead.Ican'
tfeel
mybody, myhear
tiszer
opointt
wosecondsfrom
droppi
ng.Il
ookupatthescr
eenandwipemyt ears,
thesebast
ardsar
egoingtopayf
orthi
s.

Ayanda:Yo

Me:Ican'
timagi
newhatMzwakhemustbef
eel
i
ng

Theydidn'tt
ouchhersomepower f
ulfor
cet hrew
them agai
nstthewallandkil
ledthem.Shesi ts
huggingherkneesrockingbackandforth.Ilookat
theotherscr
eenSakhileistr
yingtoconsole
Mzwakhe.

Me:Khul
umanimadoda

Ayanda:It
sanabandonedbui
ldi
ngbutfi
rstweneed
t
ot akeoutDoug'
speopl
ewhichisnott
of arf
rom
t
hebui
ldi
ng

Me:I
sshet
her
e

Ayanda:Ispywi
thmyonel
it
tl
eeye

Luyanda:Ayanda

Thevi
deof
eedcut
sof
.

Me:Yi
niwhati
sgoi
ngon

Ayanda:Wehavet
ogo

Me:Okayever
yonel
et'
sgett
owor
k

Ayanda:Notgett
owor
kst
ayher
eanddon'
tmove
Sakhi
le
Afteraf ewsleeplessni ghtswefi
nallyf
oundher ,
nowwewai ti
ngont het winstocomebackwi t
h
theirfi
ndings.Mzwakheidon' tt
hinkhei sokay,to
himi thasn'tregi
steredt hatt
heydidn'
ttouch.Allhe
seesi sthosemangear ingupandhi m prepari
nghis
braintowi t
nessdi saster.

Zethu'
sfri
endbabal wababscomesdown.Shehas
completedtur
nedint oanotherdi
ffer
entperson,
everydayshelight
sacandl eandpraysforPhindi
le.
Whatagem Ndumi so'sheadturns.

Thobani
:Shehasaboyf
ri
end

Ndu:Manj
e

Wel
aughMzwakhei
sgoi
ngt
ohi
tus.
Ol
wet
hu:Youokayhavesomef
ood

Babs:I
tst
hel easti
coul
ddoyoupeopl
eof
fer
edme
yourhome,andwelcomedmewit
hopenarms

Mzwakhe:Yewenaint
ombiyamiiduki
le
uzoqhanyel
wala(
Mygi r
lf
ri
endismissi
ngandyou
herebusymaki
nggooglyeyes)

Me:Br
ost
opi
t

Hel
ooksdown.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
zokushayawena

Wel
augh.
Mzwakhe
Iam boili
nginsi
dethisismor eheart
breakingthana
breakup.Suchbetrayalineverexpecteditandibet
youithassomet hi
ngt odowi t
hhisfamily,what
makest hem anexception.Whatmakesi tokayfor
them t
odomel i
kethis,iam sodisappoint
edin
Nkanyiso.

Iguessal
ltheshi
tihavedonei
scatchi
nguponme.
Li
feishumbli
ngmer i
ghtnow.Ayandacomesback.

Thabi
so:Whatdi
dyouf
ind

Ayanda:Not
hing

Hel
ooksatme.

Thabi
so:Whatyoumeannot
hing
Ayanda:ThatThabi
sonot
hing

Heconti
nueslooki
ngatmewhyi shelooki
ngatme.
Igetupandleavet
heythoughtigoneweak,
iwil
l
showthem j
usthowweakiam.

Sakhi
le
IknockonPhamandl
a'
sroom t
hedooropens.

Anel
e:Sakhi
le

Me:Heybool
ist
enpl
easedr
essupi
tcol
dout
side

Anel
e:Ever
ythi
ngokay

Me:Iwasgi
veni
nst
ruct
ionst
otakeyou
Anel
e:Phamandl
a

Me:OhPhamandl
ast
opaski
ngquest
ionsandput
onsomet
hingwar
m

Sheputsonherbootsshegr
absherphoneand
coat
.Iopenthedoorshewal
ksoutif
oll
owher,we
meetThobani.

Thobani:Nohel
ikesherwel
lcomeont
hanpr
ett
y
missthang

Me:Babal
wababs

Babs:
Hol
doniam comi
ng.
..Yes

Me:Iwantyout
odosomet
hingf
orme,
ever
yhour
ont hehour.Comet othi
sroom ri
ghthereandpray,
amadl ozioBhenguanawesisi.Usi
celel
eindl
ela
nokuthyonkintoihambekahle,si
yahambamanj e
si
yobuyanaye( Theancest
orsarewithyouplease
prayforus, t
hatever
ythi
nggoeswel landwer et
urn
safelywithher)

Babs:
Okay

Phi
ndi
le
Allt
hepainihaveendurei
stoomuchthehardest
parti
snobodyhasfoundme.Theyfail
edto
sexual
lyf
eastonme, butt
heydi
dn'
tfai
latbeat
ing
met oapulpever
ychancetheyget
.

Idon'tknowwhocamer ecentlyandtookoutal l
of
thei
rfrustr
ati
ononme,heki ckedmyst omacht othe
pit
s.Icouldn'
tseewhatobjecthewasusi ngtobash
myheadandsomehowt hroughi tal
lisurvi
ved.I
canbar el
ymoveandihavebecomenumbt ot he
pai
n.

Me:Mzwakhe

Imanaget
owhi
sperhi
snameandcr
y.

"
Wegott
omoveher
"

"
Wenotmovi
ngher
"

"Youreal
lywantt
ounder est
imatethatguyar
eyou
cowardnowlikeAndil
e.Yeahshutupt hi
sisexact
ly
whatiwant.Heprobablykil
ledal
lmymensoiam
wait
ingforhi
m"

"
Gent
lemen"

Myhear
tst
ops.
[
06/
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15:
31] :218

Mzwakhe

Doug:Andwemeetagai
n

Me:Wemeetnothingandwenadi
dn'tAndi
lewar
n
youyoudi
dn'
tlear
nanythi
nganyways

Theytrytomovetheycan'
tidon'
twanttolookat
Phindi
le,
becauseifibr
eakher
eitsoverf
orme.

"
Needahand"

Si
zwe:No,
noiam j
oki
ng

Thapel
oshowsuphet
urnsi
ntohi
ssnakef
orm.
Me:Si
zweyouannoyi
nggett
hem outofher
e

Themedi
cswal
kin.

Phamandl
a:Shest
il
lhasapul
sebutbeat
ingver
y
l
ow

Zamani
:Okaynow

Phamandla:Wai
twehavetobever
ycareful
.We
needtoseeifwecanmoveher
,wit
houtcausing
anydamage

Whycoul
dn'
ttheyt
akemei
nst
eadwhydi
dithave
t
obeher.

Phamandl
a:Okayont
hreeeasy.
..One,
two,
thr
ee
Theyl
if
therupandshecr
yscr
eams.

Phamandl
a:Phi
ndi
lecanyouhearme

Zamani
:Wel
osi
ngherPst
aywi
thus

Iheadoutside.Theyfol
lowsoonafterwit
hherina
str
etcher,
ijumpi ntheambulanceandhelpt
hem
putherinsi
de.Phamandl ajumpsinwit
hme, st
ay
str
ongMzwakhest aystrong.

Sakhi
le
Everyoneishereatthehospi
talwait
ingforthem t
o
arri
ve.Thedoctor
sar er
eadyandwai ti
ng,i'
m
standingagai
nstthewallwit
hmyl egupl ooki
ngup.
Wehearcommot i
onandever yt
hingjustgets
emot i
onal.
Phamandl
a:Mzwakhel
etusdoourj
ob

Theydisappearhesit
sdownandl ooksatme.Do
westayordowego.Li ndaniget
supanddr opping
theyel
lowandbl ackbandana.Ipickitupandfoll
ow
him,whil
ststandingt
hereThabiso'scarpul
lsup.

Thabi
so:Haazinj
enamhl
anj
eayzi
yasha(
It
sgoi
ng
tobeagreatday)

Wegeti
nthecarandhedr
ivesof
f.

Mzwakhe
Theemot iontofeelhasleftme.Mybodyi sli
teral
ly
shaking.Iknowiam ashi ttypersonitsnoteven
funny,butpleasedonothur tanyoneicar eabout.I
willhur
tyousobadt hemonst erinmehasawaken.
Iwr apthebandanaar oundmyf orehead, t
hanti
ei t
aroundbot hmywr i
st.Ileaveandent ertheli
ft
.I
reachunder gr
oundandacoupl eofcar sarewaiti
ng
f
orme.Igeti
nmycarandspeedof
f.

Sakhi
le
Thabi
soi sf ocusedr eadyandwaiti
ng.Serious
si
tuat
ionsi nthisf amilyar
eturnedint
oaj oke.Anel
e
wasver yconf usedaboutwhatwashappeni ng.
Ratowel lshe'sbeenher ebeforeandshecant el
l
somethingi swr ong.Thestinkeyeshe'sbusygivi
ng
Nkanyiso.

Mzwakheshowsuphehasn'
tsai
danythi
ng,hei
s
j
ustkeepi
ngtohi
msel
fandthati
sdanger
ous.

Thabi
so:Let
'shavesomef
unheyDougr
emember
us

Heputsonhi
sknuckl
esallt
hesemenweret
iedup
onbr
anches,
hangi
ngfrom t
hisbi
gtr
ee.
Thabi
so:Haven'
tyouhear
doft
heDonyoupi
eceof
shi
t

Heisinhiselementhelovestopunchi
tbr
ingshim
somuchj oy.Heactsli
keheisinaboxi
ngring,
Li
ndanibehindmei sdyi
ng.Hestopsandl
ooksat
me,Li
ndanist opsl
aughing.

Li
nda:Hadebaf
o(Sor
rybr
o)

Ever
yonelaughs.Hecomestothetableandgrabsa
chai
nsaw,hegivesLi
ndaniadeat
hst areandgoes
backtot
hem.

Me:Uzoshawa

Hel
aughs.
Thabi
so:Thisismybel
ovednunushedoesal
otof
thi
ngsmyf avori
tei
s

Man:Pleasepl
easewedi
dn'
tknowwhoshei
swe
beggi
ngyou

Hejumpstar
tthechai
nsawandrunst
hebl
ade
acr
osshiskneechoppi
ngitof
f.

Thabiso:Sheal
sodoesn'
tli
kei
twhenyoui
nter
rupt
her.Areyougoi
ngtoannoyher

Theyshaket
hei
rheads.

Thabi
so:Wher
ewasisoyeah

Hechopsoft
heot
herl
egyesesbet
weenever
yone.I
don'
tknowwhoi
smoredanger
ousthant
heother
.
Mzwakhest
art
smovi
ngandst
andsbef
oreDoug.

Mzwakhe:NotevenAndi
lei
sthi
sdumbenought
o
t
akerevenge

Doug:Enj
oyherther
e'snot
hingyoucandot
ohur
t
meshe'sdamagedgoods

Mzwakhe:Mzwakhedamagedgoodsiwi
llshow
youdamagedgoods

Him andPhamandl agetinthecarsstati

onbehind
andi nfr
ontofDoug.Theyst ar
tthecarsand
reversebackthandr i
vestrai
ghtintoDoug'slegs,
eishhegr oans.Theyreverseagainandslam back
i
nt ohisl
egs.Nor mall
yMzwakhebl owsyouup, but
nowhei ssohur tblowinghim upwoul dbeeasy.
Theydot hatforacoupl eofminutesunti
lhislegs
startbl
eeding.
Thabiso:Ephumandodaasi khoiskhat
hisokukhal
a
sosebenzalaninaesbhedl
elamanj e(Getoutofthe
carthere'
snotimefortear
s, weheretowork.Yall
ret
urntothehospit
al)

Sizweshowsupwheel
ingsomet
hingwear
einf
ora
ri
dewiththi
sone.

Mzwakhe:Soyouguyswer
esupposedt
orapemy
gi
rl
fr
iend

Them:Pl
easef
orgi
veuswedi
dn'
tmeant
o

Sizwe:Tsekmanamadodaawakhalini
ngabii
zinqa
(Shutupmendon'tcr
y,don'
tbebums)

Mzwakhe:Li
ndani
Lindani
:Inihai
bokhohlwangekenjeuzeungi
bone
(Whatforgetabouti
tiam notgoi
ngtodothat
)

Sizwe:Uthembenivel
ekwi
zinqa(Whatwer
eyou
expecti
ngfrom abum)

Li
nda:Ngconongi
beizi
nqanokuthngenzel
eyont
o
(Letmebeabum thantobedoingthat
)

Welaugh.Theyundr
esshal
fofthem andputon
gl
oves,t
handunkthecupsi
nthatpot.

Si
zwe:Isaywest
arther
e

Li
nda:I
sthathotoi
l

Themangroansinagonyhi
sthi
ngfal
lsof
.Theygo
i
nsaneandvi
gorousl
ystar
tpour
inghotoi
lonthese
gent
leman.Theygrabthewholepotandsplashi
t
al
lovert
hem, ever
yonetakesastepback.

Si
zwe:Noi
ii
ice(
nice)

Mzwakhe:Yout
rust
inghi
m shame

Si
zwe:Iwonderhowi
tfeel
sli
ket
obeknockwi
tha
pl
ankboar
d

Mzwakhetakest
hefi
rsthi
tthanSizwe.Anel
eis
goi
ngtohaveahardti
mesleeping.Hegoesbackt
o
DougandSizweisj
ustenj
oyinghimselfwi
th
Nkabi
nde.

Mzwakhe:I
tst
aki
ngmyal
lnott
oki
llyour
ightnow

Si
zwecomesoverhandi
ngever
yonewhi
ps,
thi
si
am goi
ngtoenjoy.Wewhi pandwhi
pandwhi
p
Dougtooursati
sfact
ion,
eachwhipl
eavi
ngbr
uises
onhisbody.Si
zwemusthaveusedhispower
sto
gi
vethesewhipssomef i
re.

Thabiso:Iam l
ett
ingyoufourgoher
etakemykeys
becauseiam niceli
kethat

Weher
ethebl
ader
unni
ngandDouggr
oani
ng.

Sizwe:Iam sor
ryiam sor
ryit
houghtwest
il
lhavi
ng
somef un

Wel
augh.Hecut
stheot
herl
eg.

Me:Si
zwe

Wowwhatani
ghtwegeti
nourcar
sandl
eave.
..
..
Five,f
our,t
hree,
two,
one.Boom Thabi
so'
scar
explodesandgoesupinfl
ames.

Mzwakhe
Iar
ri
veatmyotherapar
tmentihavet
omakesur
e
myguesti
sst
ayingcomfort
ably.

Me:Ibr
oughtyousomet
hingt
oeat

Oni
ka:Whyam i

Igr
abaj
uiceanddr
inki
t.

Me:Comel
etssi
t

Oni
ka:Yougoi
ngt
oki
llme
Me:Noiam goi
ngt
oscar
eyourboyf
ri
endal
it
tl
ebi
t

Shesi
tsdown.

Me:Yourboyfri
endsbrotherteamedupwithan
enemytokidnapmygi rl
fri
end.Youhaveeveryt
hing
atyourdi
sposal,iwi
llr
eturnyoubacktohim once
hedoeswhatiam hopinghewi l
l

Oni
ka:Phi

Me:Iknowhi ssonisspiri
tualhewil
lknow
somethingiswrong,butyourmanwoul ddothe
samet hi
ngifthetablesweretur
ned.Iam notgoi
ng
toki
llyou.Iam l
eavingnowigott oheadbackto
thehospit
alyesluckil
ywef oundherbutnoti
na
goodshape

Dougi
sdeadj
ustnotonme.
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06/
06,
15:
31] :219

Fewdaysl
ater

Mzwakhe
Phindile'
skidnappinghasbeenat r
aumatic
experience.Idon'trememberwhenlastigott
his
scaredandf earful,
iam angr
ybutthaniam hurt
,
brokenwhywasn' tither
etoprot
ecther.Whywasn'
t
itherewhensheneededmet hemost,howcouldi
havel ett
hishappen.

Kil
li
ngthoseguysdi dnot
hingservednopurpose,
exceptsendingaclearmessageiam nottobe
messedwi t
h.Ifi
nishupdressingthanheadout.I
needhertocomehomeal r
eadyandt hosestupi
d
doctor
s,iwishicanpunchallofthem butt
hey
doingthei
rjob.
Sakhi
le:Wai
t

Thewhi
tesnakest
opsme.

Si
zwe:Atl
easthavesomet
hingt
oeat

Iam sounbot
her
edbywhathei
ssayi
ng,
theyst
op
me.

Me:EyVoetsekidon'
twantyourst
upi
dfood,
now
moveoutoftheway.Iam warni
ng

Andi
le
Iwassupposedt obemeet i
ngwit
hOnikat oday,she
sentmeat extandidon'
tknowwher ei
tis.Iwill
smackherwheneversher etur
nsfr
om wher evershe
disappear
edto.ThedooropensSamkelowheel sin
amanwear i
ngahoodie.
Me:I
vanyeahl
etmecal
lyoul
ater

Hel
if
tsuphi
sheadandil
aughmyassof
f.

Me:Wai
tgoback

Hepusheshi
m backwar
dsigetupandpourmysel
f
adr
ink.

Me:Whydi
dn'
thef
ini
shyouof
f

Il
augh.

Doug:Youwoul
dn'
tbel
aughi
ngi
fyouknewwhathe
di
d
Me:Idon'
tcar
eaboutwhathedi
dwhatar
eyou
doi
nghere

Doug:YouknowThobaniandNdumi
soar
epr
oject
cupcake

Il
ookathi
m.

Doug:Heki
ll
edNkabindeandever
yonethatwas
hangi
ngonsometree.Hepouredoi
landsome
weir
docutof
fmylegs

Me:Whatst
hatgott
odowi t
hme.Inyourdr
eams.
Samkel
ocometakeyourt
rashout

Doug:Andi
le

Samkel
oent
ers.
Doug:Letgoofmeiwi
lll
eave

Hel
ooksatme.

Doug:Iam notdonewi
thyou,
bot
hofyouar
egoi
ng
t
opay

Hetur
nsaroundigr
abmygunandpul
lthet
ri
gger
,
hi
sheadfal
ls.

Me:Idon'
tthi
nkso.
..
.cl
eant
hismessup

Mzwakhemessedwi
tht
hewr
ongone.

Mzwakhe
Iarr
iveatt
hehospitalidon'
tcar
eifit
svisi
ti
ng
hoursornotiam goingtoseePhindi
le.
Shelooksdi
ffer
entiknowPhamandlaandThat
o
ar
egoodatwhatt heydo,butidi
dn'
tknowt
hey
weremiracl
eworkers.

Phamandl
a:Fasci
nat
ingr
ight

Ipul
ldownthecovert
her
e'snotonesi
gnof
brui
sing,
swel
li
ngoranyt
hing.

Thato:Wecamet
ocheckhert
hismor
ningandsaw
thi
s

Me:She'
sspi
ri
tualmaybet
heyhealedherbut
ever
ythi
ngi
sokayinsi
deoutr
ight

Thato:Not
hingmaj orbutherheaddi
dreceivea
hardknock,iam scaredi
fcheckimightcauseeven
moredamage
Me:Haiboawhol
eneur
ologi
stscar
edkant
i
uwubaniwena

Thato:Somethingsarenotwort
hitbutiam wait
ing
ontestresul
ts.Ifineedt
ooperat
eiwilli
fnot,
there
arewayswecanr educeherswel
li
ng

Me:Okay

Thato:Nowther
e'snosignoffor
cemommyi
sokay
theonlyDNAwehavei syours

Me:That
o

That
o:Iam posi
ti
veicandoi
tinf
rontofyou

Me:Whatyounotst
icki
ngyourf
inger
sinmy
gi
rl
fr
iendsvagi
nauyahl
anyayi
ni.Phi
ndi
lemama

Phi
ndi
le:Youf
oundme

Shespeakssof
tl
ymyhear
tbr
eaksevenmor
e.

That
o:Mommyiwantyout osqueezehishandi
f
youfeel
inganypai
n.I
nyourbr
ain.Legs

Shedoesn'
tsqueezemyhand.Thedooropenshe
comesingunsblazi
ng.

Andi
le
Iputmygunawayshest
art
scr
ying.

Thato:Okayyouupset
ti
ngmypat
iencepl
easeget
out,
outPhindil
ecal
m down
Ist
epouthef ol
lowsmeoutidi
dn'
tknowshewas
hospi
tal
ized.

"
Guysweatt
hehospi
talpl
easekeepi
trespect
ful
"

Me:Wher
e'sOni
ka

Mzwakhe:What
smakeyout
hinkihaveher

Me:Mzwakhetheonl
yr easonwenotf
ucki
ngeach
ot
heri
sbecauseofPhindil
e,nowwher
eisOni
ka

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Whydi
dyouki
llNkabi
nde

Mzwakhe:Hegott
obi
gforhi
sboot
s
Me:Youknowwhatt
hismeansr
ight

Mzwakhe:Iam notscar
edofyou

Me:Neitheram ibytheti
meir eachhomeiwant
Onikaback.Idareseeanythi
ngwr ongwi
thher
,i
wil
lmakeyourl i
feverydi
ffi
cul
t

Mzwakhe:Br
ingi
ton

Thisdudejustannoysthehelloutofmeandt he
factt
hathecan'tbetakenout,pushesmeofft he
l
edge.Hi sonl
yweaknessican'tevendoanything
aboutitbecause,
ialsowouldbeput t
ingmyselfi
n
danger.

Mzwakhe
Thetestr
esul
tscamebackandThat
odoesneedt
o
oper
ate.

Sakhi
le:Di
dhedoi
t

Me:Iwi
llr
etur
nhi
sst
upi
dfami
lyback

Sakhil
e:Whati
sther
easonf
orhi
m notwant
ingt
o
revenge

Me:Idon'
tknowot
her
wisehewoul
dhavedonei
ta
l
ongtimeago

Sakhi
le:Weget
ti
ngbacki
nthegame

Me:Aywhyyouwantmet
owor
kwi
tht
hese
di
sast
ersofhumans
Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:Phi
ndi
lef
ir
stt
hant
hosehoes

Sakhi
le:Okay

Thesepeopl edonotdeser vetoworkwithme.I

haveseriouslygi
venuponmycr ew.Idon'
tthi
nki
canevent rustmybrothersokaymaybeiam
exaggerati
ngwi t
hthem, butri
skital
lforwhatfor
who.Idon'tfeelcomfort
abl eworki
ngwiththem,
everyonegotenoughmoneyt olastthem.

Me:Sohowarethingswi
thNot
handonzuzaaw
i
spawupet
e(yel
lowbone)

Sakhi
le:She'
sdi
ff
icul
tandiam t
ir
ed
Me:Youj
ustgoi
ngt
ogi
veupl
iket
hat

Sakhi
le:EnoughaboutmeNdumi
soandBabal
wa

Me:TheBabseishihopet
hei
rthi
ngwor
ksoutman
t
heylookcut
etoget
herdamn

Sakhi
le:She'
seasygoi
ngandil
ikeher

Me:Andprayi
ngf
ormommyimustgi
veher
somet
hing

Sakhi
le:Yout
hinkheknows

Me:Theymayt wopeesinapotbutNdumi so
knowsathingortwoaboutloyal
ty.Theykeptthei
r
mouthshutaboutSabel
o,knowingverywel l
heis
Andil
e'
sbrother
Sakhi
le:Tel
lmeabouti
t

Ihopeever
ythi
ngi
sokayint
her
eandmybabywi
ll
comeoutanewperson.

Andi
le
Iwasimpatientl
ywait
ingf
orOni ka'
sreturn.I
van
Montenegr
of lewinf
rom Mexico,af
teritoldhim
whatMzwakhehaddone.It houghteveryonetalked
aboutt
hiswhyhehadt oi
nter
fereidon'tknowandi
don'
tunderstand.

I
van:Somool
eri
sdead

Me:Looksl
ikei
t

I
van:I
sthi
smandanger
ousar
eyouaf
rai
dofhi
m
Me:Al
lbet
sar
eof
fnow

Si
yanda:Theyher
e

Me:Lett
hem i
n

Oni
kawalksi
nfir
stweari
ngacoat.Sheunwr
aps
t
hebel
t,Mzwakhewalksichar
geathim.

Me:Yousonofab*
tch

I
van:Andi
leno

Mzwakhe:Ahahi fitakemyt humbofthi

sdetonat
er.
Youwon' tonl
ybekill
ingher,
butyourson's
pregnantgir
lf
ri
end.Samkelo'
sboyandhi sbaby
mama
Me:Youpi
eceofshi
t

Oni
ka:Pi
ngoshepl
ease

I
van:Andi
lecomebackcome

Il
ookatOni
kamybodyi
sshaki
ng.

Mzwakhe:Bengi
thiminanawesi
yazwanayi
ndab
phowenzeloshi
dilo

Me:Don'
tbor
emepl
ease

Mzwakhe:OkaySamkel oyi nil

eoyibanga
noPhindil
eengaka,engenzauhlanganenezitha
zami ni
hlel
eukudayisauPhindil
e.Ngobaphel a
nisebenzekahl
enenzai micimbiyanokusho
engasukumiphansi(Tel
lmewhati syourproblem
wit
hPhi ndil
e,t
hatwoul
dmakeyouconspi reagainst
mewi thmyenemi est
osell
Phindi
le.From my
understandi
ngyouguyshavealovelyworking
rel
ati
onship)

Me:Whati
shesayi
ng

Mzwakhe:Iwil
lshowyouwhatiam t
alki
ngabout.
YoumadbecauseNonhlel
eftyouandsheisvery
muchhappy,oryoumadPhindi
ledi
dn'tdoanyt
hing.
Whati
sitreal
ly

Onikahandsmeaphonewi
thbuds.Iwat
cht
he
vi
deo.

Mzwakhe:WhatdoAndi l
ewesquashedthi
sbut
yourpeopl
earest
illhellbentont
aki
ngmedown.
Fineiwoul
dunderst andifi
twasyouandi,
butlook
attheshi
tyoumaki ngmedo.Howwoul dyoufeeli
f
itookt
hem andsol
dthem huhhowwoul
dyouf
eel
ifi

Hel
if
tshi
sthumbupandir
unt
oOni
ka.

Mzwakhe:So

Me:Gett
hef
uckoutofmyhouse

Mzwakhe:Gl
adwehadt
hisconver
sat
ion

F*
*ki
nggi
veMzwakhesomer
espect

Mzwakhe:Wai
tbef
oreil
eavet
hisonei
sst
il
lact
ive

Hecutssomer edwir
edonabombar oundPhil
ani'
s
babymama.Iknowt hisf
oraf
actaft
erthi
silostmy
son,hewi
llneverf
orgi
vemefort
his.
Mzwakhe:Ohher
eisyourr
ubbi
sh

Someguyent
ersdumpi
ngNkabindeont
hef
loor
,
wai
tdi
dn'
tDougsayhekil
ledhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
twantacar
tel
upi
nmyass

Theywal
kout
.
[
06/
06,
15:
31] :220

Mzwakhe
Mymi ndwasnotf uncti
oni
ngthehousehasbeen
toofullf
ormyli
king.Nkanyi
socamet omelast
nightandwetal
ked, t
hisboyhasanot
herfamil
y
outsi
deofhismar r
iageyo.

Doesi
tgetanywor
set
hant
hat
,Sakhi
ledi
dn'
tlet
hi
m gotheyf
oughtr
eall
yandij
ustdi
dn'
tcar
e.
Anot
heronewhogotint
oaheat
edargumentSi
zwe
andi
.

Itwassobadweal mostt
ookoureyebal
lsoutand
wedidn'tevenknowwhatt
hehel
lwewasf ight
ing
about.Wegoodnow,wegoodhewasj ustannoyi
ng
me.

Myphoner
ings.

Me:Yeah

"
Canyoupl
easef
etchme"

Me:Mamawhyyoucr
ying

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe
Me:Okayngi
yeza(Iam coming)yeninaokokqal
a
wenaBabal
waufikanj
eusulalanalomfana(You
twoi
thasn'
tbeenfi
vesecondsyoubei nghereand
yousmashi
ngtheguy)

Shebl
ushes.

Me:Ayyougogi
rl

Herphoner i
ngsshelooksati
tandsheisunabl
eto
br
eath,isnatchi
tfr
om hershelooksatme.

Cal
ler
:Babal
wa

Me:Yebosawubona

Cal
ler
:Yabonakeuseyaf
ebal
aekhonaawuni
ke
l
esosf
ebeugcingol
wasonj
engamanj
e(Youseeshe
i
swhoringar
ound,gi
vet
hatb*t
chherphoner
ight
now)

Me:Angi
funi(
Idon'
twantt
o)

Cal
ler
:Angizwayewenauyangazingi
wubaniey
wenangizokubul
ala(
Excusemedoyouknowwhoi
am,iwil
lkil
lyou)

Me:Wenauyangazingiwubanil
alelamawusafuna,
ukuphi
lagci
naukuthi
ntalenombolo(Doyouknow
whoiam.Listenher
eifyouwantt ostayal
ive,
stop
cal
li
ngthi
shouse)

Ihungup.

Me:Don'
twor
rynobodyi
sgoi
ngt
otouchyounow
Babs:
Ithi
nkiam goi
ngt
owor
kfr
om home

Ndu:Okayiam goi
ngiwi
llseeyout
oni
ght

Theyki
ss.

"
Love"

Thewhol
ehouseshout
swel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwanttoleaveandthesedoctor
sar eli
keican't
l
eave,iam noti
ngoodshape.FirstThat oshoul
d
havelongeddonesurgeryonme, secondi fi
cont
inuestayi
ngheretheancestorswilltakeme
andicanpeaceful
lyrecoverf
rom theri
ver .

That
o:Pr
ett
yladycal
li
ngMzwakhewi
llnotdo
anyt
hingf
oryou

Me:Youher
etodi
schar
geme

That
o:No

Me:Okayt
hanpl
easl
eave.
..Now

That
o:Hewon'
tappr
eci
ateyourbehavi
orweonl
y
doi
ngourj
ob

Me:AndwhatdoyouknowaboutwhatMzwakhe
appr
eci
ateanddoesn'
tappr
eci
ate,
getoutThat
o

Si
zwe:Wet
ellhi
m or

Me:Nohei
savoi
dingmebecauseheknowsiam
st
ubbor
nandt
hisi
ssomethi
nghecan'twi
n
Si
zwe:Don'
tgoal
lMambaonhi
m nowokay

Me:Shi
tthesepr
egnanciesar
eweakenmypower
s
whenar
et heygi
vingbi
rt
h

Si
zwe:Thi
sonehasbeenal
ongt
imecomi
ng

Me:Wear
egoi
ngt
osuf
feratyourhands

Si
zwe:Excuseme

Il
augh.

Mzwakhe
Iwon'
tevent r
ytoconvincePhamandlaandthem.
Theydon'
tletyougount i
ltheyar
esati
sfi
edwith
yourr
ecovery,shewi
llkil
lmebuttel
li
ngthem
otherwi
sewoul
djustbeadi
sast
er.Iam i
nanokay
moodidon'twantt
ogetal
langr
yagainforno
reason.

Li
ndo:Let
stal
kforasec

Me:Ihaven'
tsl
eptwi
thanyone

Li
ndo:Idon'
tcar
e

Me:Wemad

Li
ndo:Youhavet
ogodi
schar
gePhi
ndi
le

Me:Uyazinj
e

Li
ndo:Idon'
tcar
eifyoukeepPhi
ndi
lether
eandshe
cr
iesever
yti
me.Theancestor
swil
ltakeherand
shewil
lrecoverfr
om ther
iver
,andcomebackonce
shei
sheal ed.Whichcant
akeuptothreet
ofi
ve
months

Me:Whatar
eyouj
oki
ngshesentyour
ight

Lindo:Mzwakhelenyokaayifunil
uthongoPhi
ndi
le
(Thissnakel
ovesPhindil
e).Youthinkyouj
ust
kil
li
ngpeoplemahalaey

Hevani
shes.

Me:Wowokayhowt
hehel
lam isupposedt
odo
t
hat

Canif
ightt
heur
georwi
llimakemat
ter
swor
se.

Andi
le
Icoul
dn'
tevenspeakf
ormysel
fiwasali
tt
leboyon
ti
meout,si
tt
ingi
nthecor
nerbymysel
f.

I
van:Youst
il
lmopi
ng

Me:Mont
enegr
odej
ameenpaz(
Leavemeal
one)

I
van:Tudebi
lucho(
Youweakl
ing)

Me:Ther
e'snobusi
nessbacki
nMexi
co

I
van:Qui
eroaesehombr
e(Iwantt
hatman)

Me:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
ost
ophumant
raf
fi
cki
ng

Ivan:Haymuchasmanerasdeconvencerauna
persona(Ther
e'smanywaystoconvinceaper
son)
Me:Elesunmonoyyonotr
abaj
oconmonos(
Hei
s
amonkeyandidon'
twor
kwit
hmonkeys)

Thedooropens.

Me:Oni
ka

Oni
ka:Hei
sst
ayi
ngbutaskedt
obegi
venspace

Icl
osemyeyesandsigh.Iwassosur
ethatmyson
wasleavi
ngandnevert
alki
ngtomeagai
n.

Oni
ka:Excuseme

Ivan:Nodi
ji
stequeest
abasmuer
to(Youdi
dn'
tthey
sayyouweredead)
Nkabi
nde:Bywho

Me:Dougt
oldmet
hatMzwakheki
ll
edyou

Nkabi
nde:Hemayhavehi
tmewi
thsomewei
rdo
buthedi
dn'tki
llme

Whoi
sthi
swei
rdo

Me:Nkabindesomethingsarenotworthitokay.We
havemoneywehaveouroper at
ionsoli
d,youkeep
provoki
ngMzwakhehewi l
ldi
ganddi ganddigunti
l
hefindswhathe'
slookingfor

Ivan:Esporesoquet
easust
ast
e(I
sthatwhyyou
scared)

Me:Shoul
dwegetbust
edagai
nbecauseofyour
stupi
dbehavior
.Yourdaught
erswouldbethefi
rst
peopleiauct
ionofandsendthem t
ohell
,yougot
thatmooler

Ivan:Yeahyougott
hat
.nowcanwespeakabout
him

Whydi dievenmakethem methert hreat

swon'
t
meananyt hi
ng.Wecanj ustki
llSant
anabutiam
nottr
yingtodothat
,ifeelli
kePhindil
ehasbeen
thr
oughal ot.

Phi
ndi
le
HechecksmyBPthemachinest
artsbeepi
ng.He
unwrapst
hebel
tandput
sitonaroundmyar m
agai
n.

Phamandl
a:Tr
ytor
elax
Me:Iam r
elaxed

Phamandla:Heyyoudatedtheguyknowingvery
wellt
hekindofpersonheis.Yousawitandsti
ll
wentahead,Mzwakhedoesn'tshockusanymore

Me:Canyoudoyourt
hingandgetout

Thedooropens.

Si
hle:Ohiam sor
ryit
houghtbecausei
tsaysher
e

Phamandl
a:I
tsokaycanyout
aket
hel
astt
wo

Si
hle:Nopr
obl
em doc.
..Phi
ndi
le

Phamandl
a:Okaynowyour
elaxed
Me:Canihavemeatbef
oreyougo

Phamandl
a:Youknowwhatyesma'
am iwi
llgobuy
andhanddel
iveri
tmysel
f

Ismil
e,igr
abthej
ell
yandopenit.Lastt
imeitook
ever
ythi
ngandthr
ewitatt
hem, t
heirbeaut
if
ul
hear
tsmadethem l
ookpassthat
.
[
06/
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15:
31] :221

Mzwakhe
Iam notgoingtosayanythi
nganybodyhasa
problem abul
letthr
oughhishead.Phamandl
a
fi
nishescheckinghervi
tal
sandwhatnot.

That
o:Mzwakhe
Me:Idon'
tcar
e

Herheadwasbandagednot hingisgoi
ngtohappen
toher.Sheli
ter
all
yheal
swhenshe' sathome.Si
hle
enter
swi t
habr ownpaperbag,shemusttr
ynadie
l
ikegirl
.

Phamandla:Sihl
einki
ngayakhomanjeyiniwhat
youheretogloatnowisthatwhatt
hisi
s.You
alwayschoosethedumbones

Il
augh.

Phamandl
a:Wi
llyoubeabl
etowal
k

Phi
ndi
le:No

Phamandl
a:Whatar
eyoudoi
ng
Me:Iam t
ryi
ngt
ohel
p

Hepushesmeasideandhel
psPhi
ndi
lesi
tont
he
wheel
chai
rthanwheel
sherout
.

Si
hle:Wel
lonemor
ebef
oret
her
oad

Me:Don'
tbor
eme

Igr
abt
hepaperbagf
rom herandwal
kout
.

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'twantpeopl
ecryi
ngwheniar r
ivehome.Iam
safeandsound.Hekeepsgivi
ngmel i
tt
lej
abs,he
wantst osaysomethi
ngbutiam notgoingtosay
anything.
Mzwakhe:Youokay

Me:Iam f
ine

Mzwakhe:Doyouwantsomet
hingt
oeachorsnack
on

Me:Yespl
easeiwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hat

Mzwakhe:Okay

Hi
sphoner
ingshedecli
nesandswi
tchesi
tof
f.He
t
akesmyhandandholdsit
.

Me:Howar
eyoudoi
ng

Mzwakhe:Crazymymi ndisnotfunct
ioni
ng.What
t
hoseidi
otsdidiwi
llneverfor
givemyself
,or
r
ecoverf
rom i
t

Me:Iam her
enow

Mzwakhe:Aymamai nt
ombiyaMzwakheyonke,
sengawangempela(Nomanawhol eMzwakhe'
s
gir
lf
ri
end.Haveir
eal
lyl
ostmytouch)

Me:Youhaven'
tlostyourt
ouchyouf
acedt
hemaf
ia

Mzwakhe:Weet
hatonei
sgoi
ngbr
ingmeal
otof
t
roubl
e

Wel
augh.

Mzwakhe:HeydidyouknowBabal
waandNdumi
so
ar
edati
ng,wellsmashi
ng
OhBabalwamanbabsihear dherprayer
sever yone
ofthem,t
hisisgoi
ngtobeat r
ickysi
tuat
ion.Ineed
tositt
hem downifNdumisoseesthi
sasj usta
bootycal
l,
thanwhatevert
heyhavegoingonwi l
l
havetoend.

Mzwakhe
Wear r
ivehomeinter
esti
nglyshehasn'
tbr
oughtup
myrecentescapades.Ial
soam notweinaloving
r
elat
ionshi
pnow, movingforwar
d.Myphonerings.

Me:Whatupt hough..Noiswi
tcheditoffdamn
thesehoesbenotgi vingmepeace..Noijustcame
backfrom fet
chingmywoman.Iai n'tsurebutseti
t
upiwillseehowhermoodi sokaybye

Sheheadsinsideigrabherthingsandf ol
lowher.I
geti
nifindthem dancing,si
ngingtr
aditi
onalsongs.
Sheli
ftherl
eguphai bowej ustfrom t
hehospital
,
wheredidshegetallthisenergy.
Thobani
:Khuphukamzul
ukhuphuka

She'
sdancingar
oundOl
wet
hushei
sshaki
ngher
headcr
ying.

Thabi
so:Phi
ndi
lewhatar
eyoudoi
ngt
omywi
fe

Phi
ndi
le:Ngi
yamsi
nel
a

Lindokuhlej
oinsherwhist
li
ngshepushest
hem
theylaugh.Okaywhatisgoingon.

Me:Ol
wet
huwhyyoucr
ying

Shesobsevenl
ouder
.
Thabi
so:Mashengeyi
nikant
iPhi
ndi
lewhatdi
dyou
do.Mzwakhe

Sheisli
kesomeonehitherorsomethingvaluabl
ein
herl
if
edied.Ihaveneverseenourqueencryingt
his
badl
y.

Phi
ndi
le
Ili
ghtupacandl
eandspeaktothem.Theydon'
t
evenwait
,afewsecondsandiwasout.

Iopenmyeyesiam i nt
heri
verswi
mmi ngwiththe
snake.Whydi dt
heytur
nheri
ntoasnake,ican'
t
feelherconnect
ion.

Igetupgaspi
ng.

Me:Comedon'
tjustst
andt
her
e
Babs:
Dididosomet
hingwr
ong

Ndu:Wasisupposedt
oint
roduceher

Me:No.Youknowthankyouiheardyourprayer
s,
butnowhereweareNdumisodoyouseet hisgoi
ng
fur
thert
hanthi
sorwejustcr
uisi
ng

Babs:
Isn'
titabi
ttoear
lyf
orust
obeknowi
ngt
hat

Me:Okaylet
'slett
hingspl
ayoutl
etmet
ellyou
somet
hingthesemenar ehoes

Babs:
Whoi
sn'
t

Me:Theygoingt
odr i
veyoucr
azyandwhenyou
f
inal
lyhadi
t.Iam goi
ngtoaskyouthi
squest
ion
agai
n

Ndu:I
sever
ythi
ngokay

Me:Anganini thikuearl
yukut hsingakhuluma
manj engiyani
vumel anenzelentoeniyenzayo, mase
siyabuyakulenxoxo( Yousaiditsabi tearl
yf orus
totalkaboutthissit
uati
on,soiam goi ngt oletyou
doyourt hingandwer evisi
tthisconversationagain)

Theyl
ookconf
used.

Me:Ayni
ngakhul
uleka(
Youcango)

Mzwakhe
Ihopethi
swillcheerherupiheart
hedooropeni
ng
andclosi
ng.
Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:Iam i
nher
e

Shest
epsoutt
hebal
conyandcoverhermout
h.

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakhebhengu

Ifi
ll
edthebal
conywi t
hrosesandali
tt
lepi
cni
cset
up.She'
sfrom herr
oom sogoingoutwoul
dn'
thave
beenagoodidea.

Me:It
ri
ed

Shesmi
lesandt
akesasi
t.

Me:Whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
odoi
nmyr
oom
Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndil
e:I
fit
ellyou,youwil
ljusthat
emeeveni
f
youknowiwon'ttel
lyouanything

Me:What
everokaywozanazo

Phindi
le:Ol
wet
hui
spr
egnantandBabal
wai
sa
snake

Me:i
Donlizobeubabaist
hatwhyyouwer
edanci
ng
andhercr
yingli
kethat
.She'
spl
ayi
ngmyboy

Phi
ndi
le:Noasnakeywakey

Imissedseei
nghersmilesomet
imesmymi
ndj
ust
real
lydoesst
upi
dthings.
[
06/
06,
15:
31] :222

Phi
ndi
le
Ireal
lyneedt
ogobutthi
smani shover
ingoverme.
Hegr absmyboobsandsqueezet
hem,nobuddy
nottoday.

Mzwakhe:Whati
sthepointofhavi
ngagi
rl
fr
iendi
f
younotgoi
ngtosmashthem

Me:Unf
ort
unat
elyshei
sspi
ri
tualandyouj
ustgoi
ng
t
ohavetodeal

Hepushesmeil
augh.

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Me:Heyyouguysgood
Lungel
o:Weawesome

Me:Okayl
etshaveaconver
sat
ionnowt
hree
f
emalespr
egnant

Si
zwe:Don'
tyoumeanf
our

Me:Iam notpr
egnant

Si
zwe:Mm hm

Me:Shutupnowwhati
sgoi
ngt
ohappenwi
thwhat
iam supposedt
odo

Lungelo:I
tdefi
nit
elyset
susbackwar
ds.Wedon' t
wanttogivethesnakeanopport
uni
tytosacr
if
ice
al
lthesechil
dren,j
usttoshowhi
mself
Me:Yocouldn'
ttheyhavegot
tenpr
egnantaf
teri
am f
ini
shed

Si
zwe:Wenotthatcol
dever
yonedeser
vesal
it
tl
e
bi
tofhappi
ness

Me:Justnotme

Si
zwe:Youknowt
hat
'snotwemeant

Mzwakhe
Shemor et
hananybodydeser vesal
lthehappi
ness
i
nt heworl
d.Idon'twanttoevermakeherfeel
unwanted,soiam planni
ngsomethingspeci
alfor
theladi
esandiknowj ustwhotobug.Iknockon
thei
rdoorSbusisoopensthedoor.
Sbu:Baf
o

Me:Sbuda

Sbu:Zi
shap

Me:Ngi
zekumommy

Lu:MeohmyGodSbusi soiam sor

ryiwi
llal
ways
l
oveyouokay.Thankyouforbei
ngawonderful
boyf
ri
end,
yourti
mei sovernow

Shef
ixesher
sel
f.

Lu:Iam r
eady

Sbu:Hai
bo
Wel
augh.

Me:Don'
tbet
rynaget
ti
ngmeki
ll
ednow

Lu:Whatcanido

Me:Youl
ookliket
het
ypet
hatyouknowl
ovest
o
spendmoney

Lu:Asishoul
dimeanl
ookatme

Me:Iwanttodosomethi
ngforpbutidon'
tknowi
j
ustwanthertor
elaxandhavef
un

Lu:Doesyourf
unincl
udet
aki
ngapr
ivat
ejetand
l
andingonanisl
and
Sbu:WeMzwakhe

Il
augh.

Sbu:I
fyoust
artt
hisshi
t

Me:Yazinwenamt asesobayekel
a, l
amasebeqala
ukuqinakhonasi
yagadl
a( Letsl
eavethem when
theystar
tacti
nghi
ghandmi ght
y,thanweputthem
i
nt hei
rplace)

Shescr
eamsl
eavingt
her
oom okaymaybeimadea
mist
akewi
tht
his.

Phi
ndi
le
Lut
handoi spul
li
ngoutal lthestops,sheistreat
ing
ustoaspaday.It hinkthewholespawi llbooked
j
ustforus.Ineedal it
tl
ebitofrelaxi
ng,butimust
al
waysr emainvi
gilantincaseofacr eatureor
shadowl
urki
ngar
ound.

Amassageigetmani cur
eandpedi
curesi
underst
and.Butnowwhatidon'
tunderst
and,
why
i
sthisourfi
rstt
ask.

Me:Okayl uwhymustwest ar
twit
hvagi nal
steaming.Imeanareyougett
ingt
hem st eamed
becausetheyhavebeenusedup,youget ti
ngthem
steamedbecausetheyneedtobefreshenedup.Are
yougetti
ngthem st
eamedbecauset heyraw

Lu:B*
tchyout
ri
edi
t

Welaugh.Whateverhappenedt
ojustwashi
ngyour
cooki
ewithj
ustsoapandabat htowel
,myphone
ri
ngsit
sthebaby.

Me:Hibaby
Mzwakhe:Seni
yabuya(
Youcomi
ngback)

Me:Wehaven'
tar
ri
vedyet

Mzwakhe:Wenzanl
apho(
Whatyoudoi
ngt
her
e)

Me:Youbett
ernotbeupt
onogood.Iam goi
ngt
o
smackyourface

Hel
aughs.

Mzwakhe:Pl
easeenj
oyyour
sel
fneh

Me:Iwi
llmyl
ove

Hehungsup.
Lu:I
tst
eenagel
oveaf
fai
r

Wesi
ng.

Us:"Not
hingreall
ymatt
ersidon'
treal
lycar
e,what
nobodytel
lsme.Iam gonnabehere,i
tsamat t
erof
ext
remeimpor t
ance.Myfi
rstt
eenageloveaff
air
"

Rato:Youtheonewhoneedst
orej
uvenat
ion.Hebe
bangingthatcoochi
eehar
d

Me:Hedon'
tpl
ayever
ydayal
lthet
ime

Lu:Tel
lmeabouti
tSbui
samani
ac

Il
ookatthem t
heyallsobeauti
fulandgor
geous.I
don'
twantanyofthem tosuf
ferli
keido,t
heseboys
wehavet
ohaveaoneononewi
tht
hem.

Mzwakhe
Ifeell
ikeit
smyr esponsi
bil
it
ytot al
ktothesefool
s.
Ifanyt
hingtheleastwecandoi snotcausemuch
mor eheadache,t
hesameappl i
est ome.Althoughi
knowt heywil
lcruci
fyme,Thepr egnantbunny
walksbyawdi dshenotgof orsomepamper i
ng.

Me:Awyoudi
dn'
tgopamper
ing

Nonhl
e:Iam pr
egnant

Me:Sodon'tpr
egnantwomendeser
vepamper
ing
okaysengi
thul
e

Shel
ookedl
ikeshewasaboutt
opunchme.
Nonhl
e:Ifyouwaski
ndenought
ohaveonein
door
smaybeiwouldhavedonesomet
hing.I
sthat
myice-
cream

Thobani
:No.
.Yes

Wel
augh.

Ayanda:Don'
tworr
ybabyigotal
lthei
ce-
cream you
canli
ckfordays

Thabi
so:Damn

Shesmi
lesandwal
ksaway.

Me:Okaygentslet
stal
kasyallcanseeme.Iam
anythi
ngbutaman.Througheveryt
hingiput
Phindi
let
hroughshest
il
llovesme
Thabi
so:Akuhl
alekunj
alobaf
o(Andi
tshal
lbe)

Me:Soihumbl ycomebef oreyouguysandpl ead

withyou.Havet hatli
ttl
ebitofr espectforyourfi
rst
wife,ifyouchooset ohavemor ethanone.Wenot
perfectbutthelesst r
oubl ewecause, t
hebetterfor
Phindile.Shewon' thavet ostressaboutourbul l
.
Yaboexpl ai
ntot hem aboutthecur seandwhati t
entail
s.Ifyouguysgott roubleinyourr el
ati
onships,
l
et ssitdownasmenandt alkabouti t
.Avoidi
ng
maki nghast ydecisi
onsasmuchaswecan, angith
niyangat hol
a

Them:Skhul
u

Me:Ndumi sobrawamiuyazimf
ethunomai ni
ni
kodwamengabel ent
oyakhonemamai ngekho
seri
ous,
ishiyekusemanje(Myguyyouknow
anyti
me.Butifyourt
hingwit
hBabal
waisn'tser
ious,
l
eti
tgonow)

Ndu:Kantiyi
niwhyyouput
ti
ngt
it
lesonsomet
hing
wedon'tknowwhatiti
s

Me:Idon'
twantyoumaki
ngt
hesamemi
stakesi
di
d

Ndu:Ngi
yakuzwaskhul
u(Ihearyou)

Me:OkaySi
zwewhatisthethi
ngwi
tht
hem
i
ntr
oduci
ngthei
rgi
rl
fr
iends

Sakhil
e:"I
tsnotnecessari
lyi
ntroduci
ngthem toher
butthem t
ot hesnake"dudeyouknowt here'
s
speakerstherewhyyout r
oubl
ingme

Me:Okayguysl
et'
sjustt
ryandmaket
hisas
smoot
haspossi
ble

Thabi
so:Thankyou

Phi
ndi
le
Wecomebackandthehouseisal
ivethere'
snot
muchwecando,itl
ooksl
iket
heyorganizedsome
f
oodanddri
nks.

Mzwakhe:Ther
etheyar
e

Hehugsandki
ssesme.

Mzwakhe:Igotasur
pri
sef
oryouupst
air
spl
ease
puti
ton

OkayMrBhenguiwal
kawayhespanksmyass.
Me:OkayMzwakhewhatdoyouhavef
orme

Whatisheser
iouswow.Ichangei
ntoadr
essand
putt
hem pant
ieson,
mist
erwantsawil
dnight
.

Me:Himyli
tt
lebungal
owohmysweet
hear
tdoyou
wantmetopayatt
enti
ont
oyou

Nonhl
e:Yes

Me:Okaymybabywhatahwhat
everyouwant

Nonhl
e:What
swr
ong

Me:Nooo

Ibr
ingmyt
highst
oget
her
.
Me:Let
'
spl
ayagameguys

Li
nda:Br
ingi
ton

Me:Whowoul
dyousmash, whowoul
dyoumar
ry
andwhowoul
dki
llamongstus

Li
nda:AhPhi
ndi
leokaywozanazo

Ol
wet
hu:Iwi
llst
artMzwakhe,
Sakhi
le,
Thabi
so

Me:MarrySakhi
lebecausehei
ssuchasweet
heart
,
smashThabisoj
usttotast
ehowoldd*
ckfeel
sli
ke
ki
llMzwakhe

Wel
augh.
Thabi
so:Chi
lemyd*
cki
sanyt
hingbutol
dhmm
okay

Wel
augh.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakheislovingthi
sgameeveryonewantst
o
smashhi
m.Butigotanot hergameiwanttopl
ay.
Not
handoisleavingtomorr
ow,iam goingt
otr
yone
l
astt
ime.Ican'tevengetupiam sodrunk.

Mzwakhe:Needhel
p

Me:No

Itakemystr
idesupSizwemusthavespiked
somethi
nginourdri
nks.Myl
egsfeelheavyican
barel
ykeepmyeyesopen.
Mzwakhe:Sakhi
lewhatar
eyoudoi
ng

Me:Tr
yingt
ogeti
nmyr
oom

Hegrabsmyarm sovi
ciousl
yandt
urnsmet
he
ot
herway,il
augh

Mzwakhe:Putyoursouli
ntoi
t

Ishr
ugandent
ermyr
oom.

Not
hando:Iam j
ustf
ini
shi
ngup

Iwal
kupt
oherandki
ssher
.

Not
hando:Sakhi
lewhatar
eyoudoi
ng
Iconti
nuekissi
ngherandgent l
ygrabbi
ngherwaist
,
sheresistbutf
inal
lygivesi
n.Weturnaroundand
fal
lonthebed.Themomenti sget
ti
ngreall
yheat
ed
iam ti
redofthi
sgirl.

Il
ifthertopupandsqueezehmm thoseroundf
ir
m
ti
ts,ist
opandcomebackup.Ipullthetopup.

Me:Youavi
rgi
n

Shepull
shert
opdownandgoesupt
hebed
huggi
ngherknees.

Not
hando:Yes

Me:Whydi
dn'
tyout
ellme
Not
hando:Idi
dn'
twantt
oembar
rassmysel
f

Me:Soyoumakeupexcusesandbl owmeof fand

actallf
unny,becauseyouavirgi
n.Wowokayiam
goingtogotakeashower ,youknowthesecuri
ty
system t
hisr
oom islocked.

It
akeaqui
ckshower
..
.iwantt
ost
rangl
eher
.

Me:Younotgoi
ngt
oshower

Shel
ooksatmewi
tht
ear
sinhereyes.

Me:WeeeMzwakheopent
hisdoor

Thedoorbeeps.

Me:Thedoori
sopenmyl
ady
Iputmyjoggersonandj
umpont
hebed.Iwi
ll
neverf
orgett
hismoment.
[
06/
06,
15:
31] :223

Sakhi
le
Iwakeupwi thmyar mswr appedaroundthi s
beaut i
fulgorgeouswoman.Howdi digether e.I
thoughtshel eftbecauseshewassoemot ional,
i
didn'twanttobeaccusedoft aki
ngadvant ageof
herorkeepi ngheragainstherwil
l.Butt
hanwheni
wokeupi nthemi ddleoft
henight,t
hereshewas
sleepingcomf ortabl
yinmybed.WowSakhi l
ehow
didyougether e.

Not
hando:Goodmor
ning

"
Ayman"
Mzwakhewhyi
sheupsoear
ly.

Mzwakhe:"
Wakeywakeysl
eepi
ngbeaut
y"

Me:Mzwakhemf
ethu

Mzwakhe:"
Youdoal
soheymommy"

Sheblushes.Iswi
tchoft
hespeaker
swhati
swr
ong
wit
hthisguy.

Not
hando:Mayyoupl
easet
akemehome

Me:Weof
fi
cialnow

Not
hando:Ir
eal
izeimayhaveof
fendedyou
Youdi
d.

Me:Nookaymaybejustal
it
tl
ebi
t.Iam nott
hat
t
ypeofguynoneofusare

Thi
sonewasmadef
orme.

Me:Okaykel
etmeletyoudoyourt
hing.Youdon'
t
wantmetogookay

Phi
ndi
le
Iwast r
yingtofigur
eoutwhatt ypeofsnake
Babal wai sandwhydi dtheyturnherint
oone.Iam
dishingoutf orThabiso,andmymi ndissomewher e
else.Thisi snotmyf ort
ebutifMzwakhewantsme
tobet hisbar bi
edollhousewi
fe,that
swhatiwillbe.
Iam t i
redf i
ghti
ngthismanheexhaustme.

Mzwakhe:Ihopei
tsmeyout
hinki
ngabouti
n
bet
weent
hosel
egs

Thabi
so:Awkodwaskhul
usamingi
yabonga
mommy

Il
aughmyvagi nati
nglesigr
abThato'
sshoulder
.I
am goi
ngt oki
llMzwakhefort
his,
helooksatme
andsmirks.

Ndu:Manj
emommy

Li
nda:Yi
nikwenzakal
aningawe(
Whati
swr
ong
wi
thyou)

Me:Uyazi.
..Mmm. .
.Mawuj
abul
il
eumzimbauvela
uqhaqhazele(Youknowwhenli
feisgoodandyour
bodyjustreacts)
Itmustbeaswimmi
ngpooldownt
her
e.Iwal
k
awayhetingl
esmeagai
n.

Mzwakhe:Howyouf
eel
ingmommy

Me:Ravenous

Iam goi
ngt
ogethi
mfort
his.

Mzwakhe
Ihavethisover
whelmingfeel
ingthatinever
experi
encedbefor
e.Myboyf inal
lygetti
ngthelove
andhappinesshedeserves,t
hisisjustthebest
feel
ingintheworl
d.Sakhil
eandigowayback.

Istil
lrememberi
tli
keitwasyester
day,f
irstdayat
schoolhewasthi
squietchap.Hewaschilli
ngon
hisownandidecidedtostandnexttohi
m.Of
coursehewasrudetomenxit hi
slit
tl
ehoe,
anywaysiinst
ant
lyf
eltt
hisaut
hent
icconnect
ion
between.

Fewyear slaterourfr
iendshi pwasi ndestr
uct
ibl
e,
somet hingshappenedal ongtheway.Whenhi s
mot herdiedthi
ngsgotr ocky, butwhenhi sbr
other
diedthatswhenhi swor ldcamecr ashi
ngdown.He
turnedintoajunkieaser i
ousj unkie,heli
vedunder
abr i
dge.Itwashar dtrackinghim downbecausehe
knewiwasl ooki
ngandhej ustdidn'
twanttobe
found.

Idi
dlucki
lyandt
odayheisthehandsomemanever .
Il
ovethatmantothemoonandback, ihaveal
ways
beenacrybabyandtheywoul
dn'thaveitanyot
her
way.

Me:Wozal
a

Sakhi
le:Yougoi
ngt
orapeme
Me:Fi
nal
ly

Wel
augh.

Weent ert
hehiddenvoltt
hisi
swher emywhole
fort
uneis.Fi
ndthisandyouwillbesetf
oret
erni
ty,
eter
nit
y.

Sakhi
le:Whoyoust
olet
hesef
rom

Me:Iboughtt
hem

Hel
aughs.

Me:Sothi
sisemer al
d,r
ose,di
amondandyel
low.I
pur
chasedthem nosolongago
Sakhi
le:Thesear
egor
geous

Me:Iwantt
oaskPhi
ndi
lef
orherhandi
nmar
ri
age

Sakhi
le:Thi
smusthavecoastaf
ort

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Onl
yaf
teryougetmar
ri
edf
ir
st

Hel
aughs.

Sakhi
le:Youser
ious

Me:Youhavesi
xmont
hs

Sakhi
le:Wowqui
etacor
neryouputmei
n
Ihavetogetthem marri
edbef
oreweneversee
Nothandoeveragain.

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'
twantanyonefeeli
ngpit
yforme,i
ftheywant
tocel
ebrat
egoaheadt heydeser
veit
.Thabisohas
beenrunni
ngaroundthehousesingi
nganddancing,
heissuperecst
ati
caboutbeingafat
her.Ihol
dmy
stomachandgetalit
tl
ebitemoti
onal
.

Si
zwe:Congr
atul
ati
onsMr
sThabi
so

Ol
wet
hu:ThankyoumyAngel

TheylaughOl wethucal
lseveryoneangel.Shemay
appearcluelessbutdonotcomewi tht
hebull
shit
.
Sizwelaughsi twasver
ydiff
icultformebeinginthe
moment .IlookupMzwakhei sst ari
ngatme
l
eani
ngagai
nstt
hewal
l,
ilookathi
mthanl
ook
down.

Thisishardformeitsl
ikeiam supposedt
ohave
anotherone.Okayiam notfeel
ingwell
.
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Mzwakhe
Phindi
lecryingtort
uredme.Iunder standherpain
wehadt omanypr egnancyloss.Idon'twantthem
tostopcelebrat
ing,OlwethuandThabi sodeserve
thi
smor ethananyt hi
ng.Phindil
ewi l
lbefi
ne,she
neverbreaksorallowyout oseeherbr eakdown.

Thabi
so:Youokay

Phi
ndi
le:Whyyougr
abbi
ngmyassnow
Theyl
augh.

Sakhi
le:Skhul
u

Me:Baf
oni
hambekahl
ehawungi
tshel
aphel
a

Hesmi
lesandpour
shi
msel
fjui
ce.

Me:Aykul
ungi
le

Mywomanf
aint
s.

Thabi
so:Hai
boPhi
ndi
le

Ir
usht
ohersi
de.

Me:Phi
ndi
lemommy
Sizwe:Okaygivehersomespacei
tsokayshe'
s
usedtothisr
ightMrsAyandait
sokay

Noit
snotokayhowdoessomeonej
ustdr
opl
ike
t
hatandt
heysayit
snormal.

Si
zwe:Nono

Shewakesupgaspi
ng.

Si
zwe:Okayever
yonestepbackwhat
everyoudo
donotir
epeatdonotr
un

Shest artscrawlingstr
ugglingtobr
eath, herl
egs
startchanging.Shei ssti
llcri
ngi
nginagony, she
fall
sflatonherst omach.Herbodytransformint
oa
snake.Shel iftshersnakebodyupandt handrop
hardt othegr ound,shechangesback.
Lungel
o:Nkosazane

Theyl
if
therupandpl
aceheront
hechai
r.She
l
ooksatal
lofus.

Phi
ndi
le
Mambai sverycheekyhappinessican'
thavei
t.I
don'
tknowhowt odot hisnow,idon'
twanttor
iskit.
Idon'
twantthesegentlemenhatingmeandkil
ling
me,imusttal
ktoMzwakhe.

Ist
ruggl
ewi
thbr
eat
hing.

Voi
ce:Pl
easenkosazaneeveni
fhedoesn'
twant
metotal
ktohim.Evenift
hiswi
llmakeyoufi
ght
pl
ease
Igetuphol
dingmyhear
t.

Voi
ce:I
tsokaywecandot
hisiknowican'
tst
ay
l
ong

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lekodwa

Me:"
Ahsukakumi
nawenambul
ali
"

Voi
ce:Okayokay

Ikneeli
nforSakhi
le.

Me:"
Bambi
no"

Heshi
ft
suncomf
ort
abl
yandl
ooksaway.
Me:"
Bambi nopleaselookatmeican'
thol
ditf
or
muchlongeroriwillki
llher
"

At
earf
all
sfr
om hi
sface.

Me:"
Younotaloneiwil
lal
waysbether
ef oryou,
l
ooki
ngaft
eryouevenfrom t
heot
herside.Youwill
al
waysbemybambi no"

Iwi
pehi
stearandhughi
m.

Me:"Lookatyoust i
llt
hemostchar mi ngand
handsomeboy.I t
sokaydon'tcry,ididn'tl
eaveyou
byyoursel
f.Ihavebeensearchingforanyf amily
member sandifoundsomeoneshe' sourauntand
she'
sallal
one,shehasbeenl ongingt oseeus.She
knowswher esheisandwillt
akeyout oher,sucha
sweethear
twhyyoual waysgott obel iket
his"
Igetup.

Me:Yourfatherwant
stotal
ktoyou.
."Iwould
under
standifyoudon'
twantto,
iwasn'
texact
lyt
he
fat
her
lytype"

If
allonmykneesagai
n.

Me:"
Bambi
no"

Heget
supandr
unsupst
air
s.

Mzwakhe:Mama

Me:Iam okaygo

Li
nda:Hai
bomamai
ser
iousl
ent
oyakho
Me:Andhar
d

Whatevericandot ohealbr
okenwoundsiwil
ldoit
.
Iwonderwhattypeofweaponwasusedt oki
llhi
s
brot
her,heli
ter
all
yhasawhol ei
nhishear
t.

Thobani
:Iwanti
ce-
cream

Mzwakhe
Whymamawhy.

Me:Skhul
u

Heiscryi
ngreal
lybadandnothi
ngisconsolinghi
m.
ThedooropensNothandoenter
s,shelooksatme
thi
sisgoi
ngtohurtme.Wer eal
lyhavechanged.
Not
hando:Sakhi
lei
tsokayiam her
e

Isi
ghandt
akemysel
fout
.

Me:Babykodwayi
niungenzenj
ekodwa

Iki
ssher
.

Me:Ungi
bizangombul
alimanj
e

Phindi
le:I
fiboughtSamuf
orwar
dyouwoul
dreact
thesameway

Me:Nobutyoumaybe

Phi
ndil
e:I
thadtobedoneanywaysineedyourhelp.
Youseenowthesepregnantwomen,theyneedt
o
gomeetthesnake.Pr
oblem i
s,i
tsahugeriskal
ose
l
osesit
uat
ionandidon'
twantt
hei
rbabydaddyt
o
ki
llme

Me:Howareyouf
eel
ingyouneverr
eal
lyt
alkabout
howyouf
eel

Phi
ndi
le:If
eelf
ine

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Babyiam f
ine

Iwantt
osmackhersoshecancryandtel
lmewhat
i
sgoingon,whoam iki
ddi
ngshewil
lpr
obabl
ycr
y
i
nsil
enceandjustl
ookatme.

Me:Iwi
llt
alkt
othem
Sheki
ssesme.

Me:Hmm bambi
no

Phi
ndi
le
Iwonderifmysurpri
sewillbereadyont i
me.Ihead
downstair
siseeSizweneartheedgeoft hepool,
whatishedoinghepullsoutsomet hi
ngshi ny.I
gaspandr unouthegetsupsmi l
ing,iam
screamingandjumpingli
kealit
tlegirlshocked.

It
akei
tfr
om hi
m andhol
ditupicovermymout
h.

Me:Thesnakegem di
dwedosomet
hing

Hesnat
chesi
tfr
om meandheadsi
nsi
deif
oll
ow
hi
m.
Me:Si
zwe

Si
zwe:Woul
dyoust
op

Ican'
thol
dmysel
fthi
sisgol
d.

Si
zwe:Iam st
il
ltr
yingt
ofi
gur
eoutwhyhegavei
tto
me

Me:Youdi
dn'
tcont
inuewi
thyourst
upi
dpl
ans

Si
zwe:Coul
dbeorsomethi
ngiswr
onganda
cr
eat
ureisaf
tert
hesnakegem

Me:Ther
e'sonl
yonepersonwhocanbeaf t
ert
his
al
lhert
ri
ckshaverunoutthenextbestt
hing

Si
zwe:I
stoopossesMzwakhe
Me:Howdi
dthi
shappen

Si
zwe:Youneednotstophi
mf r
om whateverhe
wantst
odo,andtheladi
esbei
ngpregnantopens
upthegat
ewayforher

Il
ookathi
m.

Si
zwe:Ar
eyouMambat
hegr
eat

Lungel
o:Ar
eyouourqueen

Lungani
:Ordoweneedt
olookf
orsomeoneel
se

Me:Gosealt
hepor
tal
sandmakesur
enot
hing
comesi
norgoesout
Them:Nkosazane

Ipi
ckupt
hesnakegem andi
tdi
sappearonmy
hand.

Sakhi
le
Thisisthehardestandemot ionalihaveeverbeen.I
knowshewasn' tt
ryingtoupsetmeormakemecr y.
Thatpartofmyl if
eidon' tli
ketalki
ngabouti t,
l
oosingmybr ot
herwast hewor stfeeli
ngever.We
hadat oughtimegr owingupourdadmi st
reat
edus.
Heabusedmom al otandi nsti
ll
edf earonus,when
hediedwewer efreefrom hisshackl es.Ir
eall
y
don'tl
iketal
kingaboutt his.

Not
hando:Youher
etocausemor
epr
obl
ems

Isi
tupst
rai
ght
.
Phindi
le:B*
tchyoubeenagi
rl
fr
iendf
orfi
ve
secondsandyouthi
nkyoucancomeforme

Not
hando:Iwi
ll

Sher
aisesherhandt
osmackherPhi
ndi
leducks.I
l
augh

Phi
ndi
le:Okaygi
rl

Shej
umpsont
hebed.

Phindi
le:Don'tki
llmenowyoust oppedhimfrom
comingt hroughnowthingshavechanged.You
needtof reeyour
selft
heysti
llwanttotal
ktoyou,
howeverit hi
nkthiswasenoughfortoday

Isi
ghidon'
tknowhowt
ofeelaboutt
his.Ial
so
don'
twantt
otal
ktoher
,becausei
fiopenmy
mouthmybrot
hermayjustcr
eepi
n.Mzwakhe
ent
ers.

Mzwakhe:Fir
stofallyoudon'
tknowSakhi
lel
ike
that
,secondNothandomommywher ehaveyou
beenallmyli
fe

Igetupandl
eave,
theyl
augh.

Mzwakhe:Sakhil
ewaityoubett
ernotbegoi
ngto
thatbr
idgeagai
n,oriwil
lzapyouwit
hami l
li
on
volt
s.Trymemot herf
***
*

Iwal
koutt
hedoorandigetel
ect
rocut
ed.
[
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Mzwakhe
Thobani
:Mzwakhemf
ethu

Theyl
aughiwoul
ddoitagai
n.Hedoesn'tneedto
gotot
hatbr
idgewear
ehisbridge,
iam hisbri
dge.

Li
nda:Mzwakhehasnochi
llman

Me:Yal
lfor
gethei
sar
ecover
ingdr
ugaddi
ct

Li
nda:Thatwasmi
ll
ionyear
sago

Me:Idon'tcar
eiwillzaphim agai
nifieverseehi
m
anywherenearsomewher eheshouldn'
tbe,his
bodyisgoingtogetit

Li
nda:Di
dyouseehowhewas

Wel
aughpeopl
emaynotl
ikei
tbutipr
otectmyown
l
ikemylifedependsonit.Babsstepsoutofp'
s
pri
vat
eroom, itwasoneofthosedaysPhindil
e
fi
ghti
ng.Iholdherhandsonkissthem wit
hpeopl
e
l
ikeher,
Phindilei
sgoingtowinthis.

Me:I
fhedoesn'
twantyouiwi
llt
akeyou

Shesmi l
es.Hecomest hr
oughandki ssesheron
thecheek.Heiswhippediftheybreakupiam going
punchBabalwaintheface,shelooksatme.Ilaugh.

Phi
ndi
le
Okayoneeyedmonst erwaswinning.I
thadawhip,
eachti
mei tl
ashesmei t
swhipleavesasti
ngi
ng
el
ectri
fyi
ngpain.Idon'thaveal
lmyst r
engt
h,buti
won'tl
etmeover comeme.

Voi
ce:Cour
agemyqueen
Voi
ce:Donotdespai
rnkosazane

Itl
ashesatmeagai nigrabt hewhipmyhandbur ns.
Ican'tl
etgonowbe, anotherobjecthi
tsmefrom
behind.Iletgoofthewhipi tlashesatmeagaina
for
cef i
eldprotect
sme.

Me:It
houghtit
oldyouguyst
ocl
oset
hepor
tal
s

Sizwe:Wedidlookyouhavesomethi
nginyouokay
butdon'tl
eti
tgettoyou.I
ttwooft
hem youcan
defeatt
hem

Heli
fthi
sfi
stupokaylet
sbat
tl
ewhatdoeshe
meanihavesomethi
nginme.

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
efinal
lycomesdowni
shegoi
ngtoat
tackme.
Everyoneiswait
ingf
orhi
mtost
ri
ke,
idon'
tcare.
Sakhi
le:Sani
bonani

Li
nda:Youdon'
twantt
opunchhi
m

Sakhi
le:Ongi
yekengal
esf
ebe

Il
aughhepunchesmei
nmyar
m ouch.

Sakhi
le:Wher
eisPhi
ndi
le

Me:Ofsomewher
e

Sakhi
le:Iwantt
ofi
ndher

Me:Fi
rstt
hingi
nthemor
ningwewi
llgo
Sakhi
le:Whathaveyouguysbeenupt
o

Me:Not
hingj
ust

Awhi t
esnakecomesf l
yinginfr
om thef ront
breaki
ngt hegl
assdoor ,
aymankant ihowst rong
arethesepeople.Thisgl
assisindestruct
ible,he
turnsint
oahumant hetwinscomer unningi n.They
helphim uphelaughs,Phindi
leappear sher uns
away.Iguessthatwasaneasycr eaturetheyback
sosoon.

Shewal
ksoutanddi
vesi
nthepool
.

Si
zwe:I
sshegone

Me:I
sever
ythi
ngokay
Si
zwe:Sevendownthreemor
etogosoonthecur
se
wi
llbeover
,andever
yonecanhaveanor
malli
fe

Lungelo:Wedon'tknowt
hatthem br
eaki
ngupyou
don'tknowwhatdamagethatcaused.Whati
fthese
thi
ngsmul t
ipl
ied

Si
zwe:Yeahwe'
l
lsee

Theydi
sappear
.

Me:Hai
boni
ngi
bhekeni(
Whatar
eyoul
ooki
ngat
)

Phi
ndi
le
Isl
itmyf
ingerandl
ett
hebl
ooddr
ipi
ntot
her
iver
.

Mast
hol
e:Congr
atul
ati
onsmyl
ove
Isighwhowoul
dhavet
hunkt
hatmanandiwoul
d
creat
esuch.

Me:Canihi
dit

Masthol
e:I
tsal
lupt oyounkosazanethosel osses
hadtohappen,
fortheseonestolive.I
tsnotall
scar
yihadthem andtheysti
lldr
ivemecr azy

Il
augh.

Masthola:Youheretochangethi
ngsandbr ingjoy.
Wedon' tknowwhatescapedandmul ti
pli
ed.She
canseet hatshewil
lnotwinthi
s,andremember
shehast hepowertocreateanddestr
oy.Butshe
won'tgetveryfarl
oveistheonl
ythingthatprot
ects
us.Gomychi l
d

Whyam ievencr
yingigetupanddi
vei
nther
iver
..
..
Iappeari
nourr
oom,
thesnakei
sal
lcoi
ledupi
nthe
corner
.

Me:OhMamba

Mzwakhe
Ient
ryroom andgetshockedbywhatiam
wit
nessing.Phi
ndi
lepl
ayingwit
hasnake.

Me:Mama

Shel
ooksup.

Me:Youokay

Phi
ndi
le:Iam st
il
ldi
str
act
edf
rom r
eal
it
y
Me:Sakhi
lewant
sust
ogof
indhi
saunt

Phi
ndi
le:Okay

Me:Whyyoupl
ayi
ngwi
tht
hesnake

Phi
ndi
le:Hei
ssad

Snakesal
sogetsadokayt
hat
'saf
ir
st.

Me:Whyi
shesad

Phindi
le:Idon'
tknowdi
dyoumanaget
otal
kto
them

Me:Notyetbutdon'
twor
rymyl
ove
Shesmil
esandconti
nuespl
ayingwit
hthesnake
okayl
etmegetoutofher
e,cl
earl
yiam i
nter
rupt
ing
somesnackhumanromance.Aloudbangerupt
s,i
l
augh.
[
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Sakhi
le
Wetookthejourneyi
nseekingmyaunt .Idon'teven
knowwhatshelookslike,whosheiswillisti
ll
rememberher.Myhandsar esweati
ng,wel efti
n
theweehoursofthemor ni
ng.Idon'
tknowwhatt o
makeofthi
smyhear tisracing.

Me:Thankyoubr
o

Mzwakhe:Youknowigotyourback

Me:Nawemommyngi
yabonga
I
fitwasn'
tforheriwoul
dn'
tevenknowihavef
ami
ly.

Mzwakhe:Mamawebeenci
rcl
ingt
hispl
ace

James:I
mpelaokwesibil
isi
dlul
ala,i
loyamuzi
omncane(Iagr
eeit
st hesecondti
mewepassing
her
eandthatsmallhouse)

Phi
ndi
le:Thant
hismustbet
hepl
ace

Thecarst
opsandsheget
sout
.

Me:Ican'
tbel
ievet
his

Phi
ndi
le:"
Bambi
no"

West
epoutoft
hecarandshecan'
tbr
eat
he.
Phi
ndi
le:"
Overt
her
e"

Mzwakhe:Youokay

Phi
ndi
le:Let
sgo

Not
hiscan'
tbewher
eshel
ivesmysoulbr
eaks.

Not
handoNzuza
Mynamei sNot handoNzuza24year sofage.Iam
l
ightski nnedandf ul
lofli
fe,
iam from rur
alKZN.I
havet hreeot hersibl
ingsmybr ot
hers,icome
secondt hi
ngsbackhomear en'
tsogood.Whensi s
nokubongaof f
eredmet hisj
ob.Ithoughtabunchof
boyst heywer egoingtousemeandt aketurnsin
sleepingwi thme.Butt hatwasn'tt
hecaseiwi ll
foreverbegr atefultothem f
orgivi
ngmet hi
s
oppor tunit
y.
Sakhil
eandiwellial
wayssawt herewas
somethingt
hefir
stdayicameher e,hewasso
prot
ecti
veofme.Eacht i
mesomeonemadeamove,
hewoul dgi
vemear eall
ybadstinkeyeli
keam inot
supposedtotal
ktopeoplenow.Anywayswhenhe
fi
nall
yaskedmeoutit ot
all
yref
usedhi m andisaw
i
tbrokehisheart
.

Fastf orwardhekeptpushingandpushi ngicouldn'

t
tellhim iwasavi r
gin,
andiatt
endt hereeddance.I
don' tknowwhatiwasaf rai
dbecausesi ncethanhe
hasbeenat otalgentl
eman,hedoesn'ttouchmeor
playwi thmythingandilovehim evenmor eforthat
.

Theyleftveryear
lyinthemor ningiwasnervousf or
me.Ihopet heydofindherhehast oldmeal ot
abouthispastandhi sdrugaddi ct
ion,howhe
thoughthisgir
lf
ri
endatthatt i
mewasgenui ne.Hi
s
mesmer izi
ngfri
endshipwithMzwakheandhowt his
famil
ylaughsatjustanything.
Basical
lyever
ythi
ngineededtoknowifiseri
ously
wantedtopursuearel
ati
onshipwithhi
m.Itsquit
ea
darkpastbuttheymanagedtokeepitmoving.I
thi
nkishouldgoprayyeahmyner vesar
ejust
gett
ingthebestofme.

Sakhi
le
Wegett othehouset hedoori
sopenmyhear t
breaks.Theli
vingcondit
ionst
heyli
vingi
n,t
hey
haveacur t
ainseparati
ngthebedr
oom andthe
l
ivingroom.Mzwakheknocksont hedooraboy
showsup.

Hi
m:Sani
bona

Hel
ooksatme.

Mzwakhe:Wow
Hei
sanexactr
epl
icaofme.

Mzwakhe:Si
ngamt
hol
auma(
Wel
ooki
ngf
oryour
mother
)

Hi
m:Ma

Oureyesar
egluedt
oeachot
herihadsomeoneout
her
elooki
ngli
kemeandidi
dn'tevenknowt
hat
.

Voi
ce:Ubanimanj
eloyo

Oureyesmeet
.Shedr
opst
hebucket
.

Aunt
:Sakhi
le
Myfeetar
est ucktot
hegroundsheatt
acksmewi th
ahugandcries.Mylegsf
eelwobblyif
eltsoalone
onthi
seart
h,whi l
emyfamilywasri
ghthere.

Aunt:Ohmybabyl
ookatyou.Yousogr
ownand
handsome,
nonodon'
tcry

Shehugsmeagai
n.

Mzwakhe
Icri
edwhydi dn'
ttheancest or
sshowust hissooner .
West eppedbackandal l
owedt hem t
or eminisce
andcomf orteachother,itwashardonme, justasit
wasf orPhindil
e,Sakhil
eandhi saunt.Jameswas
taki
ngitli
keaman, theyfinall
ycont
rolthemsel ves
andheadi nside.

Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
llber
ightback
Inodandwegoi
n.

James:Ewusazesaj
abulaimpelaukuthsi
nit
hol
il
e,
kuvel
ekwaqhamukanjesasheshasangenaindl
ela
(Wear ever
yhappywefoundyou,itcameasa
surpr
iseandwewastednotime)

Aunt
:YoumustbeMzwakher
ight

Me:Yeboma

Idon'
trememberherorknowher
.

Aunt:Healwaysusedtotal
kaboutyou.Mybest
fr
iendtodayi
signori
ngme,mybestf r
iendismad.I
t
wasalwaysmybestf ri
endthi
smybestf r
iendt
hat

Wel
augh.
Sakhi
le:Whathappened

Aunt:Yourf atherhappenedt hatmanhadacr uel

heart.Hebani shedmeanddumpedmeont hisland.
Ihadt of endf ormyself,hetookmeoutof
everythingandever yone.Iwasn'tal
lowedtobe
aroundhi skids,iwasn'tall
owedt obeanywhere
nearhi sfami ly

Sakhi
le:Why

Aunt:Iwashi sfather'
si l
legitimatechi l
d,wheniwas
shownt otheNdl ovu'sdadgaveal otofhi s
att
entiontome.Iwast hegol denchi ldandyour
fat
herdidn'tli
kethat.Whenf atherdiedhebecame
soulownerofever ything, becauseofhi shate
towards.Iendedupi nt hispl acethingswer erough
man.Iam sohappyGugudi edt heamountofpai n
shewentt hrough
Sakhi
le:Tel
lmeabouti
t

Aunt:Sohet
hrewmeoutandyal
lneverknewi
exi
sted

Sakhi
le:Iam comi
ngherewithnohopeatalland
thaniseeyou.Iam her
enownomor esuff
ering,
l
etspackupandgoorl eaveever
ythi
ngbehi
nd

Phindi
lewal
ksi
nheratt
ir
esheloosesherbr
eat
h.
Shegoesdowngroani
ngandscreaming,
myphone
ri
ngs.

Me:Yeah

Cal
ler
:Don'tt
ouchhershe'
sfinesmisodoesn'
t
wanthisf
athercommunicat
ingwit
ht hem
Me:Youhaveaphonenow

Sizwe:Ezi
nyei
zinqazakhozi
ngit
shel
elekeugcingo
(Oneofyourbum fr
iendsbor
rowedmet hei
rphone)

Me:Ohwowokay

Ihungup.

Phindi
le:"
Bambinoiam l
eavi
ngnowicanrestin
peace.Younolongeral
oneandyouneverwi
llbe"

Shesi
ghs.

Me:Youokay
Phi
ndi
le:Mmm

Il
ookatherandiam amazed.

Not
hando
Iam aner vouswreck.Iam bur ningi nthekit
chen
exerci
singmymakot idut
ies,ialsol earnedthathe
hadsixmont hstomaket hingsof f
icialwit
hme.
Otherwisewemi ghtaswel lcalli
tqui ts,i
nawayi
underst
andhi m butwhatist herush.Outofal lt
he
boyshei sthesweetestofthem al l.

Ol
wet
hu:Needhel
panyhel
p

Me:Shoul
dyouar
eyoual
lowedt
obei
nher
e

Thabi
so:Noshe'
snot
Igrabaspoonanddi pitandmakehimt ast
eit
.He
grabsabowlanddi shesup,i
fhewasn'tthebi
g
brothert
otal
lysomeoneididn'
tknow.Iwouldhave
knockedhim out.

Me:Sawot
imanjeawushonganaycha(Sal
twhy
di
dn'
tyouj
ustsayso)

Ol
wet
hu:Thatdoessmel
lyummycanihavesome

Me:Yourhusband

Youneversaynot
oapr
egnantwoman.

Mzwakhe
Wemadei tbacksaf eandsoundsomehowt he
dr
ivebackhomeseemedal it
tl
ebitshort
er.They
ar
eal i
tt
lebi
treservedtheynotusedtosuch
si
tuat
ionsunderst
andablyso.Butalli
sgoodoh
waitwefl
ewbackhomethat
'swhy.Weent
erthe
ki
tchenandsomet
hingsmel
lsyummy,Not
hando
sl
avingaway.

Me:Mommysesi
buyi
le(
Wear
eback)

Sakhi
le:MameetNot
handomysoont
obewi
fe

Aunt:Ohr
eal
lywowiam happyatl
eastsomeonei
s
t
akingcar
eofyou

Not
hando:Sawubonama

Aunt
:Muhl
e(Beaut
if
ul)t
hankyouf
orl
ovi
nghi
m

Sakhi
le:Comel
etsgomeett
her
estoft
hem

Igr
abPhi
ndi
leandpul
lheri
nforahug.
Me:Wegood

Phi
ndile:Thi
shasbeenemot
ional
lyexhaust
ingbuti
am happywef oundt
hem

Ikissher.Asandascreamsandrunsoutt
heback,
herecomesSi zwepl
ayingwi
ththi
sfi
ft
yfootbi
g
blacksnakelikeit
'sagoodboy.

Si
zwe:Comeonboy

Me:Oneofushast
obet
hesaneonel
ikecomeon
br
a

Si
zwe:Hedoesn'
twantt
ogo

Me:Thanl
eavei
tal
one
YesterdayPhindil
ewasalll
oveydoveywit
hit
,now
heispl ayi
ngcatchwit
hasnake.Itsl
it
her
soutwhen
Olwethuappears.Thesepeopl
earesocreepyican'
t.

Phi
ndi
le:Canwegoshoppi
ng

Me:Yesma'
am

Aweddi
ngi
swhatiam pl
anni
ngnextf
orSakhi
le.
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Mzwakhe
Iwasenjoyi
ngmysleepandthebigguywasacti
ng
up,ani
ntensebl
oodrushrunsthr
oughmybody.I
putmyhandonmygr oinbutmetwit
hahead,I
openmyeyesandphindil
eisbusyonmyd***.
Me:Mmm

Shelocksherhandswithmi nesanddeept hr
oat
sendingmet oanot
hergalaxy.Thewar mthofher
mouthandt onguesuckingandlicki
ngmycock,
feel
slikesomeonepull
ingthelif
tforceoutofme.

Thisj
ustmademefeel
desi
red,
Ilaybackandenj
oy
thi
swonder
fulmoment
.

Sakhi
le
Icamet ocheckonmycousi nsohmant hi
sisthe
bestfeel
ingi
ntheworld.If
inall
yhaveafamily,
not
thatt
heboysandt heBhengu'sarenotf
amilybut
bloodrel
ati
ves.

Me:Soyouguysset
tl
ingi
n

Nhl
eko:Asi
wuj
wayel
enezeumbhedeomkhul
u
bekumnandi(
Wenotusedt
osuchbi
gbeds,
buti
t
wasnice)

Me:Okaywena

Asanda:Iam okay

Me:Ngi yazihl
ampeni sat
hukil
eanikholwakodwa
sekuyimpiloyenul
e,nomangabeyi nieniyi
funayo
ngingasabiukusho(Iknowt hatmaybet hisisa
shocktoyouguysunbel i
evable,
butthisisyourlif
e
now.What everyouguyswantdon' thesitatetoask)

Idon'
twantt
ooverwhel mt
hem toomuch.Buti
hopetheywi
llf
inditeasyt
oadjust
,Il
eavethem.I
knockonmomsr oom shetakesawhi
lebefore
openi
ngthedoor.

Me:Ma
Ma:Ohmysweet
hear
t

Wehug.

Me:Youset
tl
ingi
nwel
lij
ustcamef
rom t
heboys

Ma:Thi
sisabi
ghouseimustsay

Me:I
fthi
sist
oomuchidohavemyownhouse

Ma:Noiam goodmyboyt
hankyouver
ymuch

Me:Not hankyou,youdon'
tunder
standhowbig
thi
sisforme.Ithoughtiwasal
lonmyown, you
guysjustmanandAsanda
Mzwakhe
Givemeloveandloveandl
oveandsomemor el
ove
andIam al
lyour
s.Iwatchherget
ti
ngr eady,
Iwant
hertobl
essmeagai nandt
akemybr eathaway.

Me:Wher
eyougoi
ng

Phi
ndi
le:Nowher
e

Me:Whyyoudr
essi
ngupithoughtwel
ayi
ngi
nbed
cuddl
i
ngandsmashi
ngal
lday

Phi
ndi
le:Iam t
ir
ed

Me:What

Phi
ndi
le:Iam t
ir
edMzwakhe
Il
augh.

Me:Wowokay

Ikissherthanheaddownstai
rs.Iar
ri
vei
nti
met
he
foodlooksdeli
ciousandiam hungr
y.

Me:Sani
bonani

Not
hando:Whatdoyouwant

Me:I
syourmanf
edbef
oreyougetmei
ntr
oubl
e

Sheputsbefor
emeapl
atesomet
hingsmel
ls
hor
ri
blehere.

Me:AyNot
handokunukakabiukudl
akwakho
Sakhi
le:Excuseme

Me:Smel
litayman

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhenot
hingwr
..
.Youknowwhatyes
somethingdoessmel
lbad

Not
hando:Hai
boSakhi
le

Me:Taket
hatshi
tawayf
rom me

Phi
ndi
le
Iwaswatchi
ngthem fr
om thetop,Mzwakhe
alr
eadyhat
esthesmellofeggs.Ihatethesmellof
eggsandIdon'
teveneatthem, whyam iscaredof
tel
li
nghi
m.Ishouldtel
lhi
m privat
ely,
isighand
headdown.
Li
nda:Youknowi
cecausesst
onei
nyourbody

Thabi
so:Youknowwhatel
secausesi
cei
nyour
body

Li
nda:What

Thabi
so:Bei
ngdeadsoshutt
hef
***up

Wel
augh.

Me:Heyf
ami
ly

Thobani
:Mommy

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
lengi
lambi
l
e(Iam hungr
y)
Me:Whyyounoteat
ing

Nothando:Hesai
dmyf
oodi
srot
tencanyou
bel
ievethat

Ichuckl
e.

James:Nkosazanet
hiscamef
oryou

Me:Maypl
easel
eavei
tupst
air
s

Mzwakhe:Whati
sthat

Me:Al
it
tl
esur
pri
se

Mzwakhe:Yougoodwi
thsur
pri
sest
oday
Ismi
le.

Me:Ohmysweetbabyyoudon'
tli
kemeanymor
e

Mxol
isi
:Kanj
ankodwasi
swami

Me:Isomet
hingt
otel
lyou

Mxol
isi
:Am igoi
ngt
oli
kei
t

Me:Idon'
tknowbuti
tsver
ygoodnewswhenyou
comingback

Mxolisi
:Iam l
andi
ngtomor
rowMzwakhesentt he
j
et,Idon'
tunderst
andwhyhecoul
dn'
tjustsendit
st
raighttoSi
ngapore
Me:Okaybehappybei
nagoodbecauseiknow
youwil
lhi
tme

Hel
aughsandt
henhungsup.

Mzwakhe
Theywantt obebacki nthegamesobadl ysoi
mustallowthem andf ul
fi
llthei
rwisheseven
thoughIdon'twantto.Ientermyr oom anot
her
thi
ngIdon'tunderstandthissuddentir
edness,I
grabtheboxont hebedandputi tasi
de,Il
ookatit
andi am t
emptedt oopeni t
.Shesaiditsasurpr
ise
maybef orme.

Igr
abitandunwrapthepresentcover
,Iopent
he
boxit
stwopairofbabyshoes.Thedooropens
Phi
ndil
ewalksin.

Me:OhmyGod
Icovermyf
ace.

Phi
ndi
le:Congr
atul
ati
onsiam pr
egnant

NowonderIam t
ir
ed,Not
hando'ssmel
lyf
ood.I
l
ookatherandmytearsj
ustf
alldown.

*
*
*
*

Oneyearl
ater

Wel
comebabykwenzoandOnel
aBhengu
St
habi
soDl
adl
a
Banel
eBhengu
Zi
thul
eleandZakhel
eBhengu
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Phi
ndi
le
Whatawonder fulyearithasbeen.Af t
erNonhle
gavebirt
ht ohertwins, t
heyt i
edtheknotoffi
cial
ly
sheisMr sAyandaBhengu.Zet hugavebir
thtoa
beauti
fulbabyboyandThobanif oundhimselfa
thi
ng,Olwet huawel ldeservedbabyboy.Mzwakhe
andIwel lIdeli
veredsomever ybadnewst ohim.I
gavehim oneoft hemostcut est,
adorabl
eand
savagetwi nboys.

Theysupposedtohavebeengonebutt
heyst
il
lher
e
whichmeans,someoneispregnant
.

Mzwakhe:AyPhi
ndil
eangiyizwalent
oyakho
akaphel
ingi
shof
iveseconds,uzongi
tshel
aiyi
ndaba
zokuthmelengi
hlukanenezi
nganezami .Ay
ntombazane(Nomani thasbeenthatlongandyou
tel
li
ngmeihavet ogiveupmychildren,noPhi
ndil
e)

Them beingher
eisver
ydanger oust
heyareatri
sk
ofbei
ngpossessedbyt hesecr
eatur
es.Iam st
il
l
notfi
nishedandPear
lifsheknowsaboutthese
ki
ds,shecouldrai
seanar my.

Me:Idon'
twantt
omakeanenemyoutofyou

Mzwakhe:Butyouar
e

Me:Whatgoodist
hem bei
ngher
eifihavet
oki
ll
t
hem.Waityougoti
tonbackwar
ds

Hewaschangi
ngt
hei
rdi
aper
s.
Mzwakhe:Ihavetosuff
erf
orsomeoneidon'
teven
know.Youaskingalotmama

Me:Theywi l
lcomebackwhensomeonei s
pregnant
.LookMzwakheiam almostfi
nished,
what'smoreimpor
tantyourki
dsl
if
e.Iknowi t
shar
d
enoughonmeaswel l

IgrabZakhel
ehedoesn'tl
ikeanybodyt
hisoneand
breastf
eed.Myboobsarejustsosore,
itcan'
tbe
met hat
'spr
egnantagai
n.

Sakhi
le
Isol
dmypr evi
oushouseandgotsomet hi
ngbi
gger
andbet t
er.Theboysloveitt
heystart
edschool
ing
notsolongagoandt heyl
oveit.Not
handois
obsessedwi t
hit,
mom i sj
ustlazi
ngaroundand
shoppingbaby.Al othashappened,
al ot
.

Ibeenspendi
ngmostofmyt
imewi
tht
hem.We
haveabet terunder st
andi
ngourrelati
onship,she
wasal sotoldaboutt hecur
seandwhoshewi llbe
shari
ngmewi t
h.Imustsayt hatpersonisfarfrom
causingtr
oubl e,becauseshedon'twantme.The
fam heethef amily.Mzwakhe,Thobani,Thabisoand
Ayandaar enowf ather
swhowoul dhavet hunk.

Wedi dri
ghtbymommywepai dforherdamages
anddowr yal lthat'
sleftisforthem towal kdownt he
aisl
e.Iont heot herhandwhenMzwakheget sa
holdofme, heisstraightupsendi ngmyasst o
homeaf f
ai rsandget tingmemar ried.Iunderstand
thedangert heboysar ein,there'
snoguar antee
whenPhi ndi l
egoest of i
ght.Shewi l
lret
urnsafeand
sound,howmuchmor elosingtheirkidsatthe
handsoft hesecr eatures.

Hemustbegoingthr
oughalotandwithmenot
t
her
e,hedoesn'
thavehisvoi
ceofreasonandon
t
hevergeofmakinganot
herbi
gmistake.
Not
hando:Sakhi
lephel
akhul
umanaye

Me:Youwanthert
oeatmeal
ive

Not
hando:Whatwasi
treal
ly

Me:Youknowt hethi
ngwi t
hSmangele,Phi
ndile
broughtherbecause,t
heyknewiwoul dfal
lint
oher
tr
apagain.Sosomet hingshappenedandherewe
are

Not
hando:Idon'
tcar
eifshei
sasnakeorwhatIam
goi
ngtosmackhersobadayngi
zomshayaSakhil
e

Ichuckl
e.

Phi
ndi
le
Ihopehet
hinksaboutt
hisbecauseiwoul
drat
her
sacr
if
iceourhappi
ness,
tokeepthem saf
eandal
ive.
Thecrimeli
feheli
vesal
soisafactor
.

Me:Ihopeyourdaddydoesmaket
her
ightdeci
sion

Theysuchcutebabiesunt
ilyoumesswit
hthem.
Zakhel
edoesn'tsl
eepwhil
eZi t
hul
elei
scr
uisi
ng
awayinlal
aland.

Heentersandgr
absbothofhi
schi l
drenandwal
ks
out
.Isighandheadoutaswel
l,Icallzet
hu.

Zet
hu:Mommy

Me:Wher
ear
eyou

Zet
hu:Ar
eyout
racki
ngme
Me:I
fyoudon'
twantmesendi
ngl
ight
ningyourway
comebackhome

Shesi
ghs.

Sakhi
le
Iarr
ivebackatthemansionsomuchhashappened
Imissedthesefool
s.If
indThobaniandKamoint
he
ki
tchen,Iser
iousl
ydon'
tunderst
andhowthei
r
brai
nswor knoman.

Thobani
:Skhul
u

Me:F*
**you

Hel
aughs.

Me:Wenangekeuzeuhl
alel
agcwal
a
Thobani
:Awskhul
u

Me:Ongayenaumakotinomaumawenganenoma
kadeafi
ke,f
okof(I
fsheisnotawif
e,babymama,
oryourt
hinghasbeengoingonf
oralong.She
mustgetthehel
lout
)

Nomor
edi
srespect
ingourl
adi
es.

Me:Wenaawenzeengat
huyanyakaza(
Movei
t)

Mzwakhe:Skhul
u

Me:Moj
a..
..Thobani

Thobani
:Okayphel
a
Me:Yougood

Mzwakhe:Eylezi
yinyokamf
ethuzangibul
ala
zangi
qeda(Thesesnakesdi
dnotjustdropabomb
onme)

Me:Ngi
yakuzwaskhul
u

Mzwakhe:Myki
dsmanmyki
dst
heywantmet
o
gi
veupmykids

Me:Itstokeepthem safeMzwakhewedon' tknow

whatthesecreatur
esare,hasPhindi leeverret
urned
andnothinghappenedtoher.Itain'teasybutyou
doeverythi
ngforyourchil
dandt hei rwelbei
ng.All
thesepregnantl
adieshadtofacet hebi gbadsnake

Hecr
ies.
Me:Noskhul
uthinkabouti
tweknowit
stoobi
gof
anask,
butyoucandoitahwakhedon'
tcry

Phi
ndi
le
Shedidn'
twanttocomeinsteadshecall
edmeout
forl
unch.Igett
oherandshel ookssobeaut
if
ul,
I
hatewhatishappeni
ngbetweenherandThobani.

Me:Zet
hukodwa

Zet
hu:Thel
essiseeofThobanit
hebet
ter

Me:Wellgi
rlineedyoubackhomeandf
ixyour
marr
iage

Sher
oll
shereyes.

Me:Sheokayhowdoisayt
his.Somet
hing
possessedkamo'
sbody

Zet
hu:What

Me:Andyouneedt
odr
ivei
toutofher

Zet
hu:I
sn'
tthatyourj
ob

Me:It
snotacreatur
egotalkt
otheDl
adla'
s,t
alkt
o
hi
sfather
,butf
ir
stineedyoutocomebackhome
pl
ease.

Theseladieshavet
ounderst
andtheygoi
ngto
sharethesemen,howeverKamocamewithsome
agenda.
[
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Phi
ndi
le
Acreaturei
sonthehorizonit
slooki
ngfor
something,
gogo'
sancientgem.Usedtoopenup
dar
kmagi cport
als.Awhiffofi
tshadowpoisoncan
beverydetr
imentalt
ome.

Mzwakhe:Youokay

Me:Iam i
ndanger

Mzwakhe:What
,whatki
ndofdanger

Me:Thistypeofcreaturecanfeedmeitspoi
son
andcontr
olme.I tcanturnmei nt
oadarksoul,
have
meopenupi t
ssourceofpower .I
tcanusemet o
openapor t
alfordarknesstoscatt
eral
lover

Mzwakhe:Mmm
Lungel
o:Wehavetotakeyourf
ormsf
rom t
imet
o
ti
mewhenevershegoesout

Si
zwe:Andthisisgr
eatnewsshewasabl
etopi
cki
t
upfastwi
thoutworr
yingaboutyou

Mzwakhe:Andwhat
sthatsupposedt
omean

Me:Iam nott
heonl
yonewhoi
sindangerso

KG:Supbr
a

Me:Ineedt
hem her
ejustf
orpr
otect
ion

Sizwe:Nowthisdoesn'tmeanjustbecauseshe
didn'
tconsul
tthi
swi t
hyouf i
rst
,yougoingtobe
yourpett
yassandi gnoreher
.Thanshest ops
focusi
ngonherjobandnur seyourstupidfeel
ings
Whati
shedoi
ng.

Mzwakhe
WhodoesSi zwethi
nkheis,
heshoul
dbedirect
ing
thatener
gyt owardsmaki
ngsurePhi
ndi
lei
ssafe.
Everyonejustneedstost
ayoutofmybusi
ness.

James:Canit
alk

Me:I
tsaf
reecount
ryspeakyourmi
nd

James:Andi
lei
sout
sidet
hegat
e.Opent
hegat
e

Whatdoest
hisf
oolwantnow.

Andi
le:Sol
iveyourl
if
eehyeahokaywemad
Sakhi
le:Ourdeal
ingswi
thyouar
eoverwhatdoyou
want

Andi
le:Ihaveaspeci
alj
obf
oryou

Me:Whati
sthecat
ch

Andi
le:Ofcoursei
tsatr
apf oryouguysbutagood
tr
apeverheardofEvansjewelr
y.Hiswif
ehasthe
mostpreci
ousstonesknownt ohuman,Iwantt
hem
andyouallaregoi
ngtohelpmegeti t

Me:Howmuchar
ewet
alki
ng

Andi
le:I

Sakhi
le:Youconsi
der
ingwor
kingwi
tht
hisf
ool
Me:Nobuthi
sof
fersoundsj
uicyandent
ici
ng

Sakhi
le:Iknowyouangr
ybutt
hisonei
str
oubl
e
l
ookathi m smi
li
ng

Idon'
tknowwhat
shappeni
ngbutiam seei
nga
vi
sionofhi
m,i
nanurser
yhushi
ngababy.

Me:Andi
leihaveni
net
yninepr
obl
emsandiai
n't
t
rynaaddyoutothemix

Andi
le:Comeonpl easeweworkwel lt
oget
her.I
knowwenotbestf ri
endsbutiwi
llsendyouthefi
le,
Iam hopi
ngitwi
llchangeyourmind

Me:Getout
Phi
ndi
le
Anangr yMzwakhechar gersatSizweandsmack
theshitoutofhi
m.Theyhol dtheircheeks,
I
voluntar
il
yholdminetheyf i
ght.Mzwakheseemst
o
best r
ongerheoverpower shim.

Mzwakhe:Fi
ghtl
ikeamanyoupuss

Heknockshi
m onhisneckwit
hhi
salbowknocki
ng
hi
m out
.Hekickshi
m onhisst
omach.

Mzwakhe:Youwanttotakemeonhuh, It
oldyou
guysst
ayoutofmybusi ness.Lookwhatyourbi
g
mouthcaused,
im goi
ngt omakeanexampl eoutof
you

Hedisappear
sandcomesbackwi thabucket,
somethi
ngsmokinginside.HepoursitatSi
zwe,
Thobanispl
asheswateronhim hewakesup
gaspi
ng.Hepuncheshim againtheyt
hr owmore
dr
yiceandwat
erathi
m,t
het
winsgetemot
ional
.

Lungel
o:Okayokayst
oppl
easeSi
zwe

Mzwakhe:Stayoutofmybusi nessanyoneofyou
everquest
ionmyl ovef
orPhindil
e,t
hisiswhat
's
goingtohappen.Idon'
tcar
ewhoandwhatyouar e

Hewal
ksaway.

Mzwakhe:Ni
ngi
jwayel
aamasi
mbani
naani
ngazi

Lungani
:Bhut
i

Idi
dn'
tknowt
heki
dssi
tuat
ionwasgoi
ngt
ori
lehi
m
up.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhedamnheispissedoftothecore.Whathe
j
ustdidt
oSizwe,
wasn'
ttohurthim butasimpl
e
messagedonotmesswithme.

Theyl
augh.

Me:Guyscomeon

Thobani
:Don'
tf*
**ar
oundboss

Me:Hehaschanged

Thabi
so:ChangeMzwakhedoesn'
tchangehe
showsyouwhoher eal
lyi
s

Thaps:Youguysar
enotnor
mal

Theyl
augh.
Me:St
ayoutofhi
sbusi
nessandf
ocusonPhi
ndi
le

Thaps:Ar
eyal
lscar
edofhi
m ori
sitsomet
hingel
se

Me:Wegoi
ngt
odr
yiceyourassr
ightnow

Heshakeshi
sheadwel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Hewasl ookingatmeidon'tknowi fitwasangeror
hishadenough.Thisisnothowiwoul dhavegott
en
thepointacross,
butwhateverwor ksf orhi
m.
Howevert hatwasveryunpleasantf orthem,i
t
broughtbackcertai
ndist
urbingmemor i
esfort
hem.

Mzwakhe:Fi
neiwi
llal
lowmyki
dst
ogoonone
condi
ti
on
Me:Whi
chi
s

Mzwakhe:Iwi
llcomecol
lect
ingwheni
tst
imef
ori
t

That'
snotgood,hewal
ksoutsl
ammi
ngthedoor.
Theseancest
orsdonotwantt
oseemehappy.
[
06/
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15:
32] :230

Mzwakhe
Ihadtotalkt
oSizweandapologize.Idon'
twant
peopl
ethinki
ngtheycantal
ktomeanyhow, and
walkovermyhead.Whatididtri
ggeredsome
pai
nfulmemor yandfort
hatIam sorry.

Sizwe:Wej ustwantwhatsisbestf
orherandf or
hertofocusont hecr
eatures.Onewrongmovecan
ruinever
ythingweworkedsohar dfor,
Ikeeptell
ing
youguyst his.Wenotawareofwhattheycapable
of,
wealmostattheveryend.Thapelodoesn'
tneed
tobeher
e,butbecausesomanybul lhashappened.
Heneedstobehere

Me:Iam sor
ryt
hough

Si
zwe:Wat
erundert
hebr
idge

Me:Youdon'
tli
keThapel
odoyou

Si
zwe:Youj
ustdon'
thaveani
deaofwhati
sgoi
ng
on

Me:Howar ewesupposedt
oknowi
fyouguysar
e
hi
dingt
hingsfr
om us

Sizwe:Wenothi
dinganyt
hingi
tsyal
lact
ionst
hat
deter
minehowwemove.Whatyoudoshowshow
Phi
ndil
eshouldact
,ifyouguysf
***upwhati
sthe
poi
ntofhel
ping

Me:Yal
lhavet
omanyr
ulesandr
egul
ati
ons

Phi
ndi
le:Haveyal
lki
ll
edeachot
heryet

Il
ookatherandsmi
le.

Phi
ndi
le
Iseeablackshadowarrowmakingitswayinsi
de
thehouse.Ir
unandgrabitj
ustinti
mebef or
eit
coul
dstabsomebody,butIgetali
tt
lepri
ckfrom i
t
andscream i
nagony.Theshadowdisappears.

Mzwakhe
Thesnakeswer
eshouti
ngathershewasshaki
ng
andunablet
obreat
he.
Si
zwe:Whydi
dyouhavet
otouchi
t

Phi
ndi
le:I
..
.Wa.
.Iwasdoi
ngmyj
ob

Si
zwe:Onet
hatcoul
dcostyouyourl
if
e

Me:Wel
ldon'
tjustst
andt
her
edosomet
hing

Shescr
eams.

Me:Mama

Si
zwe:Nodon'
ttouchherkodwanawePhi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:Idi
dwhatihadt
odo
Me:Thapel
o

Thaps:Sor
rybr
owecan'
thel
pher

Me:What

Shest
opsshaki
ngandshut
sdown.Jamesent
ers
wit
hKhul
ewhatishedoi
ngher
e.

Khul
e:Di
dicomeatabadt
ime

Thapel
odr
awssomet
hingoutofhi
m.

Thapel
o:Thecodex

Si
zwe:Thapel
o
Thapelo:Sheismuchstrongerthanwhatyougive
hercreditf
or.Ourj
obistoprotecther
,heplacesi
t
onherpal m.Sheri
sesup.

Phi
ndi
le:Fi
nal
lyIhaveitt
hecodex,
Iwon'tki
llher
asyet
.Iwanthertoopenupafewthings

Thapel
o:That
'snotgoi
ngt
ohappen

Phi
ndi
le:Andwhoar eyout
ostopme.Iwasactual
ly
ai
mingatthatusel
essboyf
ri
endofher
s,butshe
wasquickandsharpawholequeen

Si
zwe:Phi
ndi
le

Ast
rongf
orcesendshi
mtot
hegr
ound.

Phi
ndi
le:Thi
sist
het
hir
dti
meyouf
ail
edherwher
e
ar
eyourscar
ypower
s,whi
tesnake

Sheevi
llaughshai
bowher
edi
dthatdeepvoi
ce
comefr
om.

Phi
ndi
le:Ohwel
l

Shedi
sappear
s.Whatj
usthappened.

Si
zwe
Iwasworri
ediwasreal
lyworr
ied.Dar
knesshas
consumedherandshei
swithi
n.

Sakhi
le:Youguysmi
ndt
ell
inguswhati
sgoi
ngon

Thapel
o:Somet
hingevi
lnowi
scont
rol
li
ngher
Al
lthest
rengt
hhasl
eftmeigetupandpourmysel
f
adri
nk.

Thapel
o:Si
zweyoucan'
tgi
veupnow

Ihol
dthegl
assagai
nstmyf
orehead.

Thapel
o:Youtheonewhoalwaystel
lsher
,she
mustbefear
less.Shegott
hisuset
hattobri
ngher
back

Me:Howyouidi
othow,
youpl
acedt
hatgem and
shewasgone

Lungel
o:Si
zwehei
sri
ghtwecan'
tgi
veupnow

Shecomesback.
Mzwakhe:Mama

Phi
ndi
le:Si
zwe

Mambahi
desbehi
ndme.

Phi
ndi
le:Whyyoulooki
ngatmel
iket
hat
,whydoes
myhandhurtsobad

Me:Wher
eyouf
rom

Phi
ndi
le:Somedarkpl
aceli
kereal
lydar
khol
don
whyam iexpl
aini
ngmysel
ftoyou

Mzwakhe:Phi
ndi
le

Hi
sloveisonlyt
hingt
hatcant
amet heevi
lbutonl
y
f
orseconds.Shegoestot
heki
tchenandopensthe
ref
ri
gerat
or,
thewhol
edoorcomesout
.Ihol
dmy
head.

Thapel
o:Youcan'
teatt
hatyoual
ler
gict
ofi
sh

Phi
ndi
le:Whoi
sgoi
ngt
ost
opme

Mzwakhegr
absherwr
istr
eleasi
ngt
hef
ishoutof
hergr
ip.

Mzwakhe:Mamast
opt
his

Phi
ndi
le:Mzwakheyouhur
ti
ngme

Hel
etsgoofher
.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Shameyoureal
lyloveherbutyout
oo
muchofawhore,
thi
sisgoingtobesoeasy"
Mzwakhe:Ma

Phi
ndi
le:"
Move"

Hest
epsasi
de.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Toodl
es"

Shebounceherwayout
.Shest
opsandscr
eams,
I
kneebef
oreher.

Phi
ndi
le:Si
zwewhywon'
tyouhel
pme

Me:Ican'
tmamayouhavet
ofi
ghti
t

Phi
ndi
le:"
Mxm pat
het
ic"
Shewal
ksoutanddi
sappear
s.

Thapel
o
Thispoisonisver
ypower
fulshecan'
tbr
eak
thr
oughi t
.Sizweandt
hetwinsl
eftandMzwakhei
s
l
eftdist
raught.

Thabi
so:Kant
ivel
ewhycan'
tyouguyshel
pher

Me:Imagineifal
lofuswer elikeherandshegot
thatmuchpower .Fi
rstoffal
lshecannotbe
anywhereneartheri
ver,secondaynoguyst hi
sis
hecti
c.Idon'
tknowifyallthoughtwejoki
ngorwhat

Si
zwe:Iwi
lldoi
t

Me:Ar
eyoucr
azy
Si
zwe:Iam wi
ll
ingt
otaket
hatr
isk

Me:You

Sizwe:Wenotsnakesbecausewecowardsorwho
ourfamil
yis.Snakesdon'
tbegt
heyki
ll

Me:Youreal
izeyougi
vingthecr
eat
urespower
.I
needyoutot
hinkaboutthi
s

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Sheappear
s.

Phindi
le:"
Ireal
lyt
houghtihadt
owor
kext
rahar
d
forthi
s"
Sheext
endsherhandout
.

Si
zwe:Letmespeakt
oher

Me:Si
zwe

Phi
ndi
le:"
No"

Me:Lungel
onat
hul
anj
e(Whyar
eyouguysqui
et)

Dotheynotunder
standt
hedangeroft
hisort
hey
j
ustdumb.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Ther
ewego"

Iwi
llnotst
andf
ort
his.
Si
zwe:Thapel
ono

Shescr
eams.

Si
zwe:Thapel
o

Me:Iwil
lnotl
etyouanywher
eneart
hesacr
edr
iver
andit
speople

Shesl
apsmeif
all
.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Youshal
lpayf
ort
his"

Shegrabsmeandt ossesmeupintheai
r.Icome
backdownmeetingherkneeonmyabdomen, I
groani
npain.Il
augh,shedi
sappear
s.
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06/
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15:
32] :231
Mzwakhe
Iwasworr
iedaboutPhi
ndi
le,
whenshel ookedat
me.Isawpurehatr
edandcoldnessi
tscaredme.

Si
zwe:Thapel
oIhaveever
ythi
ngundercont
rol

Thapelo:Idon'
tcareokayIdon'tcare,can'tyousee
that
'snotPhindi
le.Shewant syoutodot hat,she
wantsyout oobeyher.It
syourjobtopr otecther
andther i
ver,
whatgoodwi lli
tdogivinghert he
snakegem.Mzwakhepl easehelpmeout

Idi
dn'
tcareaboutt
hisst
upi
dar
gument
,mymi
nd
wasfaraway.

Me:Weallwantt
ohel
pasmuchaswecan,
buthe
i
sri
ghtt
hatwasnotPhindi
le

Mebei
ngcl
oset
oherdi
dn'
taf
fectheri
nanyway.
Shel
ookedatmewi
thcol
deyes,

Me:Si
zwet
hat
'snother

Thapel
o:Allt
hemor
ereasonIhadt
ost
opyour
st
upidplan

Sheappear
s.

Phi
ndi
le:Boohoowhatasadst
orycanIeatt
hisor
youwi
llstopmeagai
n

Ihavet
oappr oachthissit
uati
onwithoutany
emoti
ons,thi
sdamncr eat
ureisnotgoingtowi
n.
Shecaressmyf acethankissesme.

Phi
ndi
le:No
Shehol
dsherhead.

Phindil
e:St
opi
t.
.."NoIam notgoi
ngt
oletyoudo
that"

Il
ockherinbetweenmylegssot
hatshedoesn'
t
escape.Il
eanbackandfol
dmyarmssoshe
doesn'
tescape.Shet
ri
estosl
apmebutstops.

Phi
ndi
le:Letgo.
.."
Mzwakhepl
easedon'
tdot
his"

Theyfight
ingnow, onei
stryi
ngtooverpowerthe
other
.IfIam herweaknessthanshewillhaveto
fi
ghtforme,andt hi
screat
ureisnotgoi
ngt oli
keit
.
Shestopsandl aughs.

Phindi
le:Yousmartr
eall
ysmartbutthi
sisnot
goingtowork.I
fIconti
nuewi
ththissheisgoingto
fi
ghtmeandoverpowermeandi fshedoesthat,
whoisgoingt
osetmefr
ee.NonoIhavet
hat
,I
can'
tthi
nkwhatwoul
dPhindi
ledo

Shemumbl
esandmumbl
esandmumbl
es.

Phi
ndi
le:Letgoofme

Thapel
o:Younotgoi
ngt
owi
n

Shesendshimt of
loorbr
eat
hless.Igetupand
st
andinfrontofhi
m.

Phindi
le:Ishoul
dhaveki
ll
edhim whenIhadthe
chance.Thismanofyourswi
llbeagreatrewar
d

Shewal
ksoutanddi
sappear
s.

Thapel
o:SeeSi
zwet
hat
'showyoudoi
tthanksbr
o
Abeaut
if
ull
adyshowsupandkneel
sbef
orehi
m.

Thapel
o:Iam okayIam okay

Thapel
o
Ihadt ostopSizwefrom maki
ngthebiggest
mistakeofhislif
e.Yestheycompel
ledtoprotect
her,
butt hi
sisstrongert
hanwethought.Ican't
haveitclaimi
ngt heri
verohhel
lno.

Li
nda:Ubanimanj
elo(
Whoi
sthi
s)

Sakhi
le:Aveuyi
thandai
yint
ombizabant
u(Youl
ove
peopl
e'sgir
lf
ri
ends)

Li
nda:So
Theyl
augh.I
tsthefi
rstt
imeIam heari
ngt hem
l
augh.Abunchofweirdosthesepeopl
eare, who
l
aughatseri
oussit
uati
ons.Whodoest hatreal
ly.

Mzwakhe:Ubanivel
e

Heistr
yingt
okeepittoget
herbutyoucant el
l,
this
wastaki
ngahugetollonhim.I
tseatinghiminside
seei
ngthewomanhel ovesint
hatstate.

Voi
ce:Whatdoesheknowaboutl
ove

Hespeaksi
nmyhead.Welli
ntheendhehasher
andt
hatsal
lthatmat
ter
s.

Si
zwe:"
Mxm heaut
hor
izeshi
slove"

Me:Getoutofmyhead
Li
nda:Whoar
eyou

Lel
o:Lel
o

Me:Heynobodyaskedyout
ospeak

Sakhi
le:Uyi
ninal
omubi
za(
Whati
shet
oyou)

Lel
o:Iam hi
swoman

Mzwakhe:Ahyoucheat
ingonkedi

Me:Yabonaukuphaphakwakho

Theyl
augh.Ihadnoideawhatwasgoi
ngtheti
me,
I
waspl
anningtotakemamba.Kediont
heother
handwaspl
anningtor
emovemefr
om mythr
own,
I
l
etthi
ngssl
ipandshenowrul
esmyki
ngdom.

Phi
ndi
le:Icanhel
pwi
tht
hat
,Ineedasacr
if
ice

Me:Yoursacr
if
iceMzwakheyouki
llher
,Iki
llhi
m.
Thist
imeyouwouldhavemadeanenemyoutt he
queen

Phi
ndi
le:Iwi
llmakemor
eofme

Me:Okay

Shedisappear
sandappearsonMzwakhe'sl
ap,
thanshegetstosseddown.Theyl
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwassur
roundedbypur
edar
knesswi
thavoi
cet
hat
kepttell
ingmet ogiveup.Iknew,Imadeami st
ake
butratherthatthansomeone'sli
febei
ngtaken,
becauseoft hesecreat
ures.

Voi
ce:Givei
tupprincessi
tsonl
yamatteroft
ime
bef
oreyoufal
lint
odeepsleepandnotevenMamba
cansaveyou

Iwasreall
yfai
li
ngtost
ayst
rongeachsecondin
thi
splace,
themoreandmoremylif
egetssucked
out.

Voi
ce:Cr
eat
uresoft
hedar
kawaken

Itsvoi
ceechoesthegroundshakes.Itsi
tsdown
andsaysachant .NoIcan'
tlett
hat,Ihavetost
op
them buthowtheytookmypower saway.

Voi
ce:Phi
ndi
le
Voi
ce:Youhaven'
tlostyourpower
s

Voi
ce:Nobodycant
akeawayyourpower

Voi
ce:Comepr
incessl
ookovert
her
e

Voice:Youhol
dthecr
ownoft
hesnakesyouar
ea
pr
incess

NoIletacr
eat
uret
ri
ckmeandt
akemypower
s
away.

Voice:Nobodycanst
eal
Mambaf rom you.Youj
ust
needtodigdeepandbel
ievei
nyoursel
f

Iwakeupf
rom adeepsl
eepasasnake.
Mzwakhe
Thapel
o:Mzwakhe

Si
zwe:Phi
ndi
le

Iheadoutavoi
cespeaksi
nmyhead"
Donotf
ear
her"

Herauraseemspl easantenoughtomakeme
approachher
.Istandbef or
ehershel ooksupand
hereyesspar
kle.Asi ghofrel
iefshesmilesand
j
umpsi nthepool.

Thapel
o:Sizweal thoughhi si
nt enti
onsweregood.
Wealmostmadet hebi ggestmi stakeofourli
ves,
i
tsimportantweal waysl ovehereveni fsheisa
tot
albi
atch.Bet urnedonbyt hatokay,bearrogant
andcrazylikeher.Ipromi seallofthiswil
lsoonbe
over
Iexhal
e.

Thapel
o:Thesomewhatwor
sti
sover

Me:Haveyoueverhadt
ogi
veupyourki
ds

Thapelo:Thehardestthi
ngIeverhadtoaccept.I
f
theycandot hatt
oher ,i
magi
newhatwi l
lhappenif
theyhaveyourchildr
en.Theyalsospeci
al
remembert hat

Ist
aredeepatt
hebot
tom oft
hepool
.
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06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Iwaspr
ettymuchexhaust
ed.Iam t
ir
ed,
Ilookedat
thef
amil
ytheywer
einagoodmoodcar ryi
ngon.I
tot
all
ywoul
dhavedisappoi
ntedmyselfandawhol
e
bunchofot
herpeopl
e,hadIgivenup.

Mzwakhe:Youokay

Ismi
le.

Mzwakhe:Youwantanyt
hing,
anyt
hingIwi
llgeti
t
f
oryou

Apl
ateofmeati
spl
acedbef
oreme,
Ismi
le.

Nonhl
e:Doyouknowaboutt
oday'
svi
sit

Inod.

Nonhl
e:Andyouappr
ove
Ipointather
, shesighs.It
suptotheboysr eal
lyif
theywanttot akeasecondwi f
e,ornot.Theymust
gospeakt othatwickedsnakefir
st.Zethuenters
carr
yingbabySt habiso,shel
ooksatme.Ismi le.

Zet
hu:Yi
niPhi
ndi
leyi
nikodwaseni
ngazeni
ngenze
nj
e

Mzwakhe:Sawubonakhel
a,sawubonawenze
nzena

Il
ookatMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe:OkayPhi
ndi
leIwi
l
lfi
xit

Ifi
nishmypl
atesomebodybet t
erbri
nganot
herone
becauseImi
ghtjusteatoneofthem.
Si
zwe:St
artwi
thyourman

Il
augh,
Ihavemyvoi
ceback.

Mzwakhe
Shelookedatusconf
used,sheispar
toft
he
probl
em andever
yoneisl
ookingatmetofi
xthi
s.

Kamo:Whyam Iher
e

Me:Whosentyou

Kamo:Sor
ry

Me:Ain'
tnowaymyboycanbecr
azyover
someoneli
keyou
Kamo:Am Ibei
ngi
nit
iat
edorsomet
hing

Sakhi
lecockshi
sgun.

Me:Youknowthesoonerwet
hisoveranddone
wi
ththebet
terwecanmoveonwithourli
ves

Kamo:Iser
iousl
ydon'
thaveani
deaofwhatyou
t
alki
ngabout

Sakhi
lestepscloser
,shel
ooksver ycomposed.I
can'
tifshe'
shidingsomething.Thisper
sont
rained
hergood.Ishegoingtopullthetri
gger.

Me:Okaywegoi
ngf
ornow

Wel
eavet
hedooraut
omat
ical
lyl
ocks,
ther
e'sno
escapi
ng.

Sakhi
le:Yousur
eanenemysenther

Me:Thi
sisouronl
ywayt
ofi
ndout

Phi
ndi
le
NonhleIlaideverythingoutont hetabl
efor
everyone.Iexplainedeverythingtothem when
MzwakheandIbr okeup, howt heychoosetogo
aboutitistheirbusiness.Phindiledon'
tent
erthere,
Nothandowasset t
ingupt hetable.Nonhl
eisgoing
together,Sakhileappear sbehindherandkissher
neck.Shecl earsthetableandt hehouselaughs.

Me:Gi
rldonotmakeanenemyoutofNonhl
e

Not
hando:Howdon'
tyoueatl
iket
hisvel
e
Me:Nott
hisf
ancy

Nothando:Thi
ssituati
onatschoolmustqui
ckl
yget
f
ixed.Ican'
tdealwithsuchayay

Hecomesdownwi
thmyboys,
theyar
enoti
nthe
mood.

Mzwakhe:Angi
sazi
ke

It
aket
hem.

Me:Theyf
ineyoudi
dsomet
hing

Mzwakhe:Hai
boIbeenher
ethewhol
eti
me
Me:I
tsprobablyhi
m,t
hati
smadandoursweet
ie
pi
ecanfeelit

Mzwakhe:YabonakePhi
ndi
l
e

Il
augh,
hecri
esZit
hul
elei
sjustanangel
.Isi
ngand
hesl
owlyst
art
scalmi
ngdown.

Nonhl
e
Idon'tknowhowt ofeelaboutthis,butIam goi ng
todoi tf
orPhindi
le.Shehassuf f
er edsomuchand
worryingaboutunfai
thf
ulmeni st otal
lygoingto
derai
lher.Hehadment ionedittome, Ididn'thavea
problem.Ayandahaspr ovenhislovef ormeover
andover .

Heent
erswi
thherwowshel
ooksbeaut
if
ul.

Lu:Ihopeyouascr
azyashi
swi
fedamnyou
beaut
if
ul

Her
:Thankyou

Ayanda:Ever
yonet
hisi
sPal
esa,
Pal
esameetmy
famil
y

Pal
esa:Dumel
ang

Ayanda:Si
t

Pal
esa:Thankyou

Ayanda:Uhm

Il
ookathi
m hekeepsqui
et.
Me:Don'tthi
nkyouar egoi ngtocomei nherecall
theshot
sandt akeman.I fanybodyinfl
uenceyou
ondoingthat,youwi l
lbeoutofher efastert
hanyou
canbli
nk.Othert hanthatwelcomet othefamil
yI'
m
Nonhlebhenguhi swi
fe

Palesa:Pal
esaMoeketsit
hankyouf
orwelcoming
me.Youdon' tgett
hati
nsuchabigfami
ly,Iwon'
t
evendaretrytodothat

Mzwakhe:She'
sbeaut
if
ul

Ayanda:Thankyou

Li
nda:Whosayswewel
comedyou

Theyl
ookathi
m.
Ayanda:Wenotwel
comi
ngher

Li
nda:Idon'
tremembert
alki
ngt
oyou

Mzwakhe:Wel
comeIam hi
sel
derbr
other

Her
ecomesLi
ndanist
ari
ngupt
hepot
.

Pal
esa:I
sther
eapr
obl
em

Li
nda:Whyyouact
ingdumb

Ol
wet
hu:I
'
m Ol
wet
hubhengul
ovel
ymeet
ingyou

Li
nda:Anot
herper
sonopenst
hei
rmout
hisgoi
ngt
o
geti
t
Mzwakhe:Li
ndaniwhatar
eyoudoi
ng

Sakhi
le:Di
dyousmash

Li
nda:Maybe

Us:What

Li
nda:Whyyouact
ingl
ikeyoudon'
tknowme

Pal
esa:OhIseewhat
shappeni
ng

Ayanda:Oh

Jamesent
erswi
thsomeonewhol
ooksexact
lyl
ike
her
.
Her
:Hemustbef
***
*gor
geousf
ormet
ocomeal
l
t
hewayher
e

Pal
esa:For
getaboutt
hatl
ook

Her
:Li
ndani

Pal
esa:Smal
lwor
ld

Her
:Smal
lwor
ldi
ndeed

Li
nda:Yal
ltwi
ns

Ever
ybodycr
acksup.

Mzwakhe
Theonet
imeLi
ndanimakesaf
ooloutofhi
msel
f.
Theyidenti
calt
winswel augh,Li
ndanii
sthetype
thatdoesn'
tgetcheckednordoesitgett
ohimt hat
heisthejokeoftheday.Ilookathi
m Thobani
l
aughs.

Li
nda:Thobaniyoudon'
twantt
ogot
her
e

Thabi
so:Uhl
eziuhl
ekawonkeumuntuziyasha
manje(Youal
wayslaughi
ngatever
yone,i
tsyour
tur
nnow)

Li
nda:Ididn'
tknowshewasatwi
nandt
hat
swhy
sheactedli
keshedi
dn'tknowme

Me:Comewi
thmewehavesomet
hingt
odo

Kamo:Youher
etol
etmego
Me:Iwi
llaskyouaf
ewquest
ions,
youranswer
si
mpleandclear

Theygeti
nSakhil
ehasabucketoficehespl
ashes
i
tonher,Li
ndaniwi
tht
hewater.Shegasp.

Kamo:Thehel
l

Me:Whyyouher
e

Kamo:Ar
eyouf
orr
eal

Theyspl
ashheragai
n.

Me:Whosentyou

Kamo:St
opt
hisnowyouwantt
ofi
ghtwi
thThobani
Sheget
sanot
herspl
ash.

Me:Ever
yti
meyougi
vewr
onganswer
sthat
'sgoi
ng
t
ohappen

Li
nda:Whoyouwor
kingf
or

Me:Yougoi
ngtoendupgett
inghyper
ther
miaso
t
alkl
ookatyour
sel
fyoushi
veri
ng

ShestartscryingokayIdidn'
twanttodothi
sbut
sheleavesmenochoi ce.Theyspl
ashheragai
n,her
mouthisqui cklyIshoveabombi nhermouthand
coverwithtape.

Me:Youmaki
ngmeangr
ynowwhosentyou
Ipul
loft
het
ape,
shespi
tsi
tout
.

Kamo:Okayokayiwi
llt
ellyou.Andi
le

Me:Andi
lewho

Kamo:Andi l
eMsomiI '
m oneofhisgir
ls.I
tissaid
youtrustyourwomanwi t
hinfor
mation.Anythi
ng
youguyshadpl annedIhadtorepor
tbackt ohim so
thathecouldbustyou

Me:What
sspeci
alaboutyouwhyThobani

Kamo:IdidhaveacrushonThobanibutAndil
e
wouldn'
tletmeanywher
enearthegents.Thi
ngs
changedandIfel
linl
ovewit
hhim

Li
nda:HeeIf
elli
nloveshesays
Me:YeahIwi
lldoi
t

Ihungup.Thobaniwal
ksi
n.

Me:Youtouchheri
nanyki
ndofway,
Iwi
llshow
what
,Iam madeof

Phi
ndi
le
Wewer eget
ti
ngtoknowt hebeaut
if
ult
wins,t
he
f
amil
ywaschi l
li
ng,eat
ingmeatanddri
nking.
Mzwakhecomest omeassoonast heyseeLindani
t
heylaugh.

Li
nda:Okayt
hemomenti
sover

Heshout
s.
Hel
if
tsmeup,
Isi
tonhi
slap.

Mzwakhe:Whoi
swhoher
ebecauseyouguysar
e
soi
denti
cal

Nthat
i:KenaNthat
ikeNthabi
sengbecausewel
ook
t
hesame, shehasasecondnamePalesa

Palesa:I
tsnotthathar
ddi
ff
erent
iat
ingusandshe
doesn'tl
iveher
e

Mzwakhe:Ayandawhoi
syour
s

Ayanda:Nt
habiofcour
se

Theyalldi
sagr
eewi
thhi
m andt
hisoneoverher
eis
drool
ing.
Ademonappear sout side,shecrossesherar msso
farIhavebeendefeatingthecreaturesshei s
creat
ing.Shei
stryingt odrainoutallmyst r
engthi
n
thehopesthat
,whenwef aceeachot hershewins.

Iwishicanjuststabherwiththespearandal
lof
thi
swoul dbeover.ButIcan'
ttheonlywaytoki
ll
herishiddeninoneoftheseboys,sameasme.The
secrett
okill
ingmeisalsohiddeninoneoftheboys.

Mzwakhe:Ever
ythi
ngokay

Pear
l:Yout
hinkyouwon

Me:Youj
ustmadyouknowifyoustopdel
ayi
ngme
wecoul
dendthi
swaronceandforall

Pearl
:Idon'
twanttoendnowar
,youwer
enot
supposedtobefound.Wemadesur
eoft
hat
Me:Andyoubr
okeusup

Pearl
:Hedidthatal
lbyhi
msel
fyouknowthese
ancest
orsknewwhattheywer
edoingwi
thyou.
WhereisCynthi
a

Me:Di
dn'
tyouki
llheral
ready

Pear
l:Iam goi
ngt
oki
llyoui
fit
sthel
astt
hingIdo

Me:Br
ingi
ton

Shedi
sappear
sleavi
ngacol
dchi
ll
,Ibr
eat
heout
.

Mzwakhe:I
sther
eacr
eat
urei
nher
e
Iexcusemysel
f.
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06/
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15:
33] :233

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasmaki ngbreakf
astf orthef amily,nowmore
thaneverIneedtobeal ert.Ican'tsaynot o
Mzwakhe, Ial
socan'tsayyes.Ij ustneedtothr
ead
caref
ull
yfrom nowonwar ds.Sizwehandsmea
rose.

Me:Am Igoi
ngt
odi
efr
om t
ouchi
ngi
t

Si
zwe:Tr
yandseef
oryour
sel
f

Me:What
sgot
tenyoui
nthemood

Sizwe:Nothi
ngsomet
imesIfeell
ikenoyoudon't
gotthi
s,yougoi
ngtol
etthi
smandi str
actyouand
wel
oseyouagai
n

Me:Di
dn'
tMzwakhesayst
ayoutofhi
sbusi
ness

Si
zwe:Youhaveki
dst
oget
her

Me:Si
zwepl
easeki
dsdon'
tkeepaman

Si
zwe:Youwon'
tst
opi
tfr
om happeni
ng

Idon'tknowwhattheywantf
rom menow.Ihave
givenmyal l
,dot
heywantmydeadbodyalso.They
canhavei t
.

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Iwalkawayfrom hi
m.Itakemyseatonthedi
ning
tabl
e,Idon'
tevencareaboutbr
eakf
astmaki
ng
br
eakf
astanymor
e.

Mzwakhe
Igrabmykidsandheaddownstair
s,t
heywere
feel
ingmuchbett
ertodayandl
ikedme.Event
he
savageZakhel
eli
kesme.

Me:Youwi
llbr
east
feedorgi
vet
hem t
hebot
tl
e

Shetakesone,
theot
herwakesupandst
art
s
sobbi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le:Wowwecar ryyouf
orni
nemont
hsand
youwantisyourdaddy

Me:Don'tl
ist
ent
oher,she'
sjustjeal
ousisn'
tthat
ri
ght.Ohyousmi
li
ng,yousmili
ngf ordaddy.
Bazokhal
amasebelambil
eangithwenankehl a
Arghmanmyboysar
esocut
e,t
heyl
ookexact
ly
l
ikeme.

Me:Thankyou.
..SoSi
zwedoIneedt
obl
owyouup

Si
zwe:Youbl
owmeupshameyouwi
sh

Thabiso:I
fanyofyoumonkeysf
ight
,ar
gument
whateveri
tissohelpme

Me:Okayqhubekanokungi
chukul
uzakwakho
(
Conti
nueprovoki
ngme)

Li
nda:Kwamnandiukudl
asyabongamommy

Not
hando:Ican'
ttakeallt
hecr
edi
t,i
twasact
ual
ly
Phi
ndi
lewhomadet hi
s
Il
ookathershesmi
les.

Nt
hat
i:Hmm especi
all
ythesebl
ueber
rymuf
fi
ns

Me:Soar
eyougoodi
nthi
shouse

Nthat
i:Iam f
abul
ousalt
houghsomebodywi
tht
hei
r
st
ankat t
it
udedoesn'
twantmetobe

Heturnsaroundandl
ooksatherl
ikeb*
tchwhatdi
d
youjustsay.

Me:Don'
tmi
ndt
hem sol
ongyourst
ayi
speacef
ul

Lu:Mzwakhethi
naawukazeusibuziukut
hsihlel
i
kahl
eyini
.Aykulungi
lekodwa(Youneveraskedme
i
fIwascomf or
tableornot
,anywaysnoproblem)
Sakhi
le:It
hinkweshoul
dgot
othecl
ubbi
ngr
ight

Him andphindi
lecheer
s.Iknowalloft
hem are
expecti
ngmet odowhatInormall
ydo, Idon'
twant
tobutIam notsurehowlongIcanholdittoget
her
.

Nonhl
e
IseedangerandIgottonipthi
sinthebudri
ght
now.IknowPhindi
le'
sanger,Iknowmyt emper
.
WhenshegoesIam goi ngtopopof.Mzwakheay
shametheboyisgone.

Me:Baby

Ayanda:Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoyou

Me:Toobadwegonnat
alk
Ayanda:Doyouwanti
cebei
ngspl
ashedal
lover
you

Me:Babakakwenzo

Ayanda:Mr
sbhenguIdon'
twantt
ogeti
nvol
ved

Me:Youknowhowyourbr
otheri
s,weshoul
davoi
d
t
hisasmuchaswecan

Ayanda:Mf aziwami(Mywi f
e)lett
hem dealwit
hit,
Shoul
dPal esafeelhersi
steri
sactingi
nappropri
ate
shewil
lrepr i
mandher

Ir
ollmyeyes.

Ayanda:Rol
lyoureyesagai
nandseewhatIwi
lldo
toyou.Uyi
ngenelendabaNonhl
engizokubul
ala
yezwa(Youint
erf
erewitht
his,
Iwil
lkil
lyou)

Me:What
everi
fPhi
ndi
lef
ight
sthi
sgi
rl
,Iam i
nthei
r

Ayanda:AndIam goi
ngt
othr
owmyar
msout
sayi
ngNonhleno

Wel
augh,
heki
ssesme.

Phi
ndi
le
Idon'
tunderstandwhyhehast ousesomeonet o
getmet odothings.I
sheaf r
aidofmeorImadei t
seem l
ikeitwashardapproachingme.Luthando
nevermissesthechancetospendsomebhengu
money, moghelisext
ravagantt
hati
tiscrazy.

Lu:Ladi
esli
stenupIwasgiventhi
sblackcar
d.He
sai
dgowi l
ddon'twor
ryaboutit
,si
ncewegotnew
member
swel
comel
adi
es.Her
eweshopt
il
lwe
dr
opp

WelaughokayIseewhyhedoes,Iam noti
nthe
moodtobegoinginandoutofst
ores.Iwantt
ogo
hometomybedandmybabi es.

Ol
wet
hu:Youokayyoul
ookof
fi
sh

Me:Icanonl
ykeepmymout
hshutf
orasecond

Ol
wet
hu:Nomanay

Sheisthereasonourboysaresti
llar
ound.Weenter
thef
irstcl
othi
ngstoreandtheygocrazy,
aspiri
t
l
etsmeknowt heyhere.Myphonebeeps,Ical
lher
.

Nonhl
e:Youshoppi
ngwi
tht
hem now
Me:Youwer
ebusysowel
eft

Nonhl
e:Ispoket
oAyandahesai
dgi
rlt
ryme

Iappr
eci
ateitt
hem tryi
ngtol
ookoutf
orme,
but
theymustj
ustlett
hingsbe.

Me:Good

Nonhl
e:Mama

Me:Ever
yonel
ett
hisgookay,
Nonhl
eIam good
t
hankyoumyfri
end

Ihungup.
Mzwakhe
WhatIdoreal
lyi
snoone'
sbusi
ness.Ideci
dedt
o
chi
llbymysel
fwit
hmyboys.

Me:Canyouguyscr
awl
,canyousaydaddyokay
wenotther
eyet

Voi
ce:Ithi
nki
tsti
meIl
etyouknowwhoIam,
come
come.It
sokaycome

Phi
ndi
le
Igothomei
nsuchar
ushIhadt
ocomeseei
tfor
myself
.

Sakhi
le:Hel
lobi
gboy

I
ttapshi
sthi
ghswi
thi
tspaws,
itt
urnsar
oundand
r
ushestome.
Me:Youshoul
dstayli
kethis,youl
ookwayt
oocut
e
andhandsome.Yesyouare,yesyouar
e

I
tli
cksmeeww.

Me:Mzwakhest
opi
t

Hepul
lsdownmyt
opal
it
tl
e,t
appi
ngmybr
east
.

Si
zwe:Thi
smancannothavesomuchpower

Hechangesbackt
ohishumanform, hegr
absmy
handandpul
lsmeaway.Igotafeel
ingweare
goi
ngtobebusyforawhi
le.
[
06/
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15:
33] :234

Mzwakhe
Shewasmaki ngaf rui
tsal
ad.Ihear
dbabygir
lison
astr
ictdi
et,sheeatscert
aint
hingsoncer
tai
ndays
andtodayisfrui
tday.

Me:Get
ti
ngcomf
ort
abl
eIsee

Nt
hat
i:Wel
lhel
lot
her
eMrhandsome

Me:Hel
lot
oyout
oogor
geous

Shesmi
les.

Me:Let
sgoout

Nt
hat
i:Sor
ry

Me:Iwantt
otakeyououtonadat
e
Nt
hat
i:Why

Me:BecauseIt
hinkyourpr
ett
yandIam l
iki
ngyou
ver
ymuch

Nt
hat
i:Don'
tyouhaveagi
rl
fr
iend

Me:Asi
mpl
eyesornowoul
ddo

Nt
hat
i:No

Me:No

Nt
hat
i:No

Me:Okay
Nt
hat
i:Wai
t.
.YesIwi
llgooutwi
thyou

Me:Ber
eadybysi
x

Phi
ndi
le
Andsoi
tbegi
ns.

Si
zwe:Yourmani
sabum

Me:For
getaboutMzwakhewegotbi
ggert
hingst
o
worr
yabout

Si
zwe:Yout
hinkt
hisi
sit

Me:Icanfeeli
tinmygutweendi
ngt
hisshi
tonce
andforal
l
Si
zwe:Ihopeyour
ightaboutt
his

Me:Iwantyoual lt
ocloseal
lportals,
makei thard
forhertocreat
eanythi
ng.Sealeveryt
hingthatis
opened,Thapelocan'
tgoasyetOl wethuis
expecti
ng

Si
zwe:Agai
n

Me:Yeahbuti
fyoucanf
indawayf
ort
hem t
ogo
per
fect

Si
zwe:Hi
squeencandoi
t

Me:Babal
wawhydi
dyouguysevenchangeheray
suka
Sizwe:Iam sohappyIdonotwantt oli
veinthat
ri
vereveragai
n.Finishthi
sandeveryonecanget
thei
rli
vesback,i
sn'tthatr
ightmyboy

Hecr
ies.

Si
zwe:Whydoesthi
sbabyalwayscr
ywhenyou
pi
ckhim aymanZakhel
ezi
shaphmfethu,
hee

Mzwakhewal
ksi
n,het
akeshi
mfr
om hi
m andhush
hi
m up.

Mzwakhe:Whyyoumaki
ngmybabycr
y

Sizwe:Andthanwehavet
hissweetangelt
hese
babiesaresocut
eyoucanjusteatt
hem

Mzwakhe:Leave
Hegi veshi
m Zakheleandheleaves.Igrabmy
breastpump,myboobsar esoreshame.Idon't
haveanymi l
kandt hesetwodri
nkgal l
onsofmil
k.

Mzwakhe
Idon'tknowi
fIam seei
ngpr
oper
lyormymi
ndi
s
pl
ayinggameswithme.

Phi
ndi
le:Howmuchmi
lkl
efti
nthef
reezer

Me:Iam notsur
ewhybr
eastmi
lkr
unni
ngout

Sheremovest
hepumpandmi
lkdr
ipsdownmy
d**
*hurt
s.

Me:Iam sur
ewecanaskthedoct
orsandlookf
or
r
emediestobri
ngoutt
hemil
k.Iwantedt
otalkt
o
youaboutsomet
hing

Shewipeshert
it
stheyl
ooki
ngmi
ght
ydel
ici
ous,
I
chuckl
e.

Me:Iam goi ngouttonight,

soIdon'twanttobea
dickheadandcauseanymor edrama.RememberI
saidsomet hingsaboutconditi
ons,wel
lIam
cashingin.Celaungit
shelaukuthngenzenjan
beforenjesixabana(Pleasetel
lmewhatImustdo)

Phindi
le:That
'sonyouhowyouchooset
ogoabout
thi
ssit
uat i
ongotnot
hingonme

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Phi
ndi
le:MzwakheBhengu
Me:Seethat
st het
hingaboutyou,
Icometoyou.
Youshutmedownandt henyouwonderwhyIl
eft
yoursor
ryass.Buti
tscoolItol
dyouandyoudi
dn't
wanttoadvi
semesocont i
nue

Il
eave.

Sakhi
le
Hehadn'tbeenpayi
ngat
tent
ionsowelef
tandwent
tothechi
sanyama,somepeaceandqui
etfora
change.

Me:HeeLi
ndaniwamt
hol
aphl
oya

Li
nda:Doesn'
tmat
ternowyourboyi
ssmi
tt
enby
her

Anot
herr
easonwhyIdeci
dedt
ogetsomef
reshai
r.
Li
nda:Nor ul
eappliestoMzwakhe,
hei
sGodand
weallshouldacceptit

Me:Ngconout
hul
ebr
awami(
It
sbestt
ojustkeep
qui
etbr
o)

Twoguysent
ert
heygr
eetusandheadt
othe
count
er.

"
Ayikhoinyamahai
bokanj
anwena"(
Nomeathow
i
sthatpossibl
e)

"
Stopshout
ing"

Si
pho:Ngiyadl
alangi
sayi
lungi
sani
ngahl
alaphansi
ni
yil
inde(
Iam joki
ngit
sstil
lbei
ngpr
epar
ed)
Guy1:Uphiumphathiwakhoangi
phatheki
lekahl
e
neze(
WhereisyourbossIam notokayatall
)

Sipho:Yi
ndabwenaubenedramaengakaayhl
ala
phansi(Whyar
eyouthi
sdramati
c)

Theycomeandsi
twi
thusSi
phobr
ingst
hem dr
inks.

Guy2:Ghet
topl
easeshutupokay

Ghett
o:Butangi
shongol
uthonj
enganguuMl
u(but
Idi
dn'tsayanyt
hing)

Theyl
augh,
theyl
ookl
ikecoolgent
smyphone
ri
ngs.

Me:Ya
"
Uthi
yakubaniwena"

Il
ookatmyphone.

Me:Awkodwast handwasam bengaboniukuth

uwenangi yaxol
isa,besengi
li
ndeleuMzwakhe
ngiyaxol
isa(OhIam sosor r
yIdidn'
treal
izeitwas
you,Iwaswai ti
ngf orMzwakhe'
scall
.Iam sorry)

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Okaymommy

Mlu:Yayikhiphal
endawoobanilamathekeniaye
dansala( Thispl
acewasthebomb, wherearethose
l
adiesthatusedt oki
llt
hedancefl
oor)

Ghet
to:Usi
sikaMxo
Wel
ookatt
hem.

Mlu:Usathiuyayi
shelaleyant
ombazaneafi
ke
ubastar
d( Youcouldn'
tevencour
ther,hewas
al
waysar ound)

Theyl
augh.

Ml
u:Uphivel
eyena(
Wher
eishe)

Ghet
to:Ngi
mbonil
elaphakwesakhengenkat
hisi
za
l
a(Isawhim,whenwewer ecominghere)

Welaughwowt heguyisbackanddoesn'
tletus
know.Speakofthedevi
l,
helooksatusandlaughs.

Mxo:Maout
ie(
Gent
s)
Thobani
:Usuyat
hul
amaseusubuyi
le(
Youdon'
tsay
whenyouareback)

Mxo:Hai
bongi
sukengibuyel
eni
nayi
ni(
Idon'
t
comebackf
oryouguys)

Themusi
cdropsweendupchi
ll
ingt
oget
herand
havi
ngabl
ast.

Mzwakhe
Shesummonedmet
oherr
oom,
okayhoneywent
shoppi
ng.

Me:Iam her
e

Nt
hat
i:Gr
eatt
hisi
sforyou
Shegotasuit
coverl
ayi
ngont
hebed,
Izi
pitdown
i
tsagreensui
t.

Me:Whati
sthi
s

Nt
hat
i:Forourdat
e

Ismi
le.

Me:Mat
chi
ngout
fi
tsal
ready

Nt
hat
i:I
tsj
ustasui
tai
n'tnonet
oit

Me:Thankyou

Iwi l
lbehonestwi
thherandifherf
eel
ingschange.I
willgladl
ybackof
f,Il
eave,
Ineedtodosome
groomi ng.
Phi
ndi
le
Todaywasdi
ffer
entthegentswer
ebythemsel
ves,
usladi
eswer
ebyour sel
ves.Mzwakhewasby
hi
mselfohmaneverythi
ngwasjustspl
endi
d.

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Lu:Heyhandsome

Si
zwe:Pl
easeneIdon'
twantt
odi
e

West
epasi
de.

Si
zwe:I
sthi
sapl
anofyour
s

Me:Nolist
enwecan'tbediscussi
nganyt
hing
cr
eatur
e.Pear
lisver
ycalculat
edwecan'taff
ordt
o
sl
ipup

Si
zwe:Ihaveaf eel
ingshewant
syout ofi
ndthe
wayt
okillherandthansheusesitagai
nstyou

Notal
lcanber
eveal
edwhat
shappeni
ngnowi
sme
endi
ngthi
swar
.
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06/
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Phi
ndi
le
Ihaven'
theardanyt
hingf r
om Mzwakheinthr
ee
days.Idi
dn'tknowitwasthatdeepanywayswe
goodandkeeponmovi ng,Iexpect
edmysel
fto
breakbutIam doi
ngjustfine.

Si
zwe:Ar
eyouguysgoi
ngt
oal
lowmet
otakeyou

Me:Heyhei
stal
kingt
oyou
Si
zwe:Ahsuchcut
ebabi
escomet
ouncl
eSi
zwe

Ipreparef
ood.Thehai r
satt hebackofmyneck
stand,mybabiescry.Idropthepotandrunt
othem.
Ashar pobj
ectlungesthroughmychest.

Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Mzwakhe
Whatawonder f
ulti
meIspentwi t
hNt hati
,thi
shas
beenagreatexper
ienceforme.Iam retur
ningnow
tothedarkcl
ouds,thegateopensIdri
vein.Itl
ooks
l
iketheyhavi
ngabl ast
,weheadinside.

Me:Iwi
llcheckonyoul
ater

Nt
hat
i:Okay
Iki
sshercheek,
Idon'tseePhi
ndil
emaybesheis
upst
air
scryi
ng.Ient
ermyr oom andshei
slayi
ng
onthebed.

Me:Sawubona

Phi
ndi
le:Hi

Me:Wher
ear
emyboys

Phi
ndi
le:Theyar
egone

Me:Sor
ry

Phi
ndi
le:Theyl
eft
Me:Phi
ndi
lewher
ear
emyki
ds

Phi
ndi
le:Zi
hambi
le

Me:Yousendmyki
dsawaywi
thoutt
ell
ingme

Phindi
le:I
fyouhadcalledort
extedme, Iwoul
d
havetoldyou.Mzwakheyourkidsareindanger,
oh
ufunaukungishaya.Uf
unaukungishaya(Youwant
tohitmenow)

Me:Ali
ngaphel
iusukui
zinganezami
ngazi
bonanga
(
Letthi
sdaynotendwithoutmeseei
ngmykids)

Iwal
kout
.

Sakhi
le
Thabi
so:Sakhi
le
Me:Ani
ngi
yeka(Leavemeal
one)

Thabi
so:Khul
umanaye(
Tal
ktohi
m)

Me:I
fPhi
ndil
ewantst
ogoIam packi
nghershi
t,we
t
aki
ngthebabi
esandIam t
aki
ngherhome

Thobani
:Ar
ghshameman

Si
zwe:Her
e

Me:Wani
kami
napho(
Whyyougi
vingi
ttome)

Si
zwe:Sakhi
let
akehi
sbabi
es

Me:Idon'
twantt
o
Hepl acest
hem onthetabl
eanddi
sappear
s.Iam
nottakingt
hesebabies,
hemustcomeandtakehis
chi
ldren.

Li
nda:ThobaniThobanihl
alaphansi(
Sitdown)

Thobani
:Don'
tmi
ndtheseugl
ymen, theydon'
thave
ki
dssawubonawena.Whyarethesebabiessocute

Hecomest
hrought
opl
ess.

Mzwakhe:Thankyoubr
o

Het
akeshi
ski
dsandwal
ksaway.

Thabi
so:Ol
wet
hu
Ol
wet
hu:Thi
sisnott
het
imet
otur
nourbacks

Me:Surenikuphi
,okayngiyaqhamukamanje..
..You
guysatschoolorhomeokay, Iam goi
ngt
ot extyou
mylocati
onmeetmet her
e

Imakemywayoutcal
li
ngNot
hando.

Mzwakhe
Iknockonherdooracoupl
eoft
imesbef
oreshe
l
et'
smei n.

Me:Hi

Nt
hat
i:Comei
n

Ij
umpont
hebedandsi
gh.
Nthat
i:Whyyouher
eIt
houghtyouwoul
dbewi
th
yourbabymama

Me:Sheupsetme

Nthati
:Hobanengulemonahofapanaleholoki
sa
l
intho(Whyareyouher
einst
eadoffi
xingthi
ngs)

Idon'
twhatshesai
dbutIwi
llventt
oher
.

Me:Shesentmykidsawaybecausesomet
hingi
s
t
hreat
eni
ngourfamil
y

Nt
hati
:Seoseof at
okel
oyahosebet
sat
jena(
That
gi
vesyouther
ightt
oactli
ke)

Me:Idon'
tknowwhatyouj
ustsai
dbutIam hur
ti
ng.
Nt
hat
i:MzwakheIdon'
tthi
s

Me:Pl
easeIl
ikeyouokay

Ineedtoconvi
ncehert
ost
ay,
Ili
ftherupandpi
n
heragai
nstthewal
l.

Nt
hat
i:Mzwa.
..

Me:Pl
ease

Shegaspandwr
apsherar
msar
oundmyneck.

Phi
ndi
le
Iheaddownst
air
s.

Voi
ce:Nkosazanengi
yacel
a
Voi
ce:Ungasi
thusankosazane

Not
hando:Smoot
hie

Me:Thankyou

It
akeasi
pandcl
osemyeyes.

Not
hando:Foodsr
eady

If
ini
sht
hewhol
ethi
ngshef
il
lsupt
hegl
assagai
n.

Nt
hat
i:Dumel
ang

Me:Dumel
aousi
eNt
hat
i
Nthati:MayIal
sopl
easehavesomeoft
hati
tlooks
deli
cious

Igr
abagl
assandpoursomeoft
hesmoot
hief
or
her
.

Nt
hat
i:Thankyou.
..Oht
hisi
sgood

Mzwakhe
Idon'tknowhowIam goi ngtoexplainmybehavi or
,
somet imesyouneverknowwi t
hphi ndi
le.Shecan
dothingsoutofspit
eandi nthi
sinstancet hatwas
notthecase,ther
eisnotell
ingwhatIwoul ddoi f
anyt
hi ngweretohappentomyki ds.

Me:Ther
ewego

Ipl
acet
hem ont
opofher
.
Phi
ndi
le:Hel
locut
iesyesyouar
e

Me:Iam sor
ryImi
sreadt
hesi
tuat
ion

Phi
ndi
le:Thep*
ssywast
hatgood

Me:That
snotyourbusuhm.Phi
ndi
leokayt
heki
ds
cangoback

Phi
ndi
le:Wher
e

Me:Wher
eyouhi
dthem

Phi
ndi
le:Aw

Shel
aughs.
Phindi
le:Yousaidyouwantedyourki
dsbackwell
thanheretheyare,cr
ysothathecantakeyou.Okay
i
tsfinelet
ssleephere.Iam t
ir
edanyways

Il
ookatherdef
eat
ed.
[
06/
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15:
33] :236

Phi
ndi
le
Everythi
ngi sgoingaccordingly.Ihopeitdoesn't
takethatlongt ofi
ndthedagger , cr
eatedtokil
lpearl
.
Wi t
honesi ngletapitwi
llinci
ner ateallt
hecreatures
remaining,butIhavetostabi tstraighti
ntopearls
heartandever ythi
ngends.

Thekit
chendooropens,
twoguysent
ercar
ryi
nga
drunkSakhi
le.

Sakhi
le:Mommy
Me:Ghet
to,
mlungi
sikwenzakal
an

Ghet
to:Si
dakwe,sadakwa,
saphi
ndesadakwafuth
(
Wegotdr unk,
anddrunkandgotsomemor edr
unk)

Sakhi
le:Shhhuphi(
Hushwher
eisshe)

Not
hando:Emvakwakho(
Behi
ndyou)

Hehi
desbehi
ndt
heset
wo.

Sakhi
le:Okayboysthi
sist
hequeensheisvery
abusi
veokay,sheisnotaf
rai
dtocheckyourass.
Heybaby

Si
zwe:It
houghtyouwer
esot
ough
Ghet
tor
unsoutoft
hehouse.

Ml
u:Ghet
toyi
nimanj
e

Ghet
to:I
nyoka(
Snake)

Ml
u:I
nyoka

Si
zwe:Youcanseeme

Herunsaroundt
heyar
dandacci
dent
all
ybumpon
pi
ll
ergoi
ngdown.

Mzwakhe:Ngi
sacel
aukukhul
umanawe

Theycar
ryhi
minsi
de.
Mzwakhe
OkayIam pr
ett
ysur
eIleftt
hem ont
hebedhowdi
d
t
heyendupont hef
loor
.

Phi
ndi
le:Hibabi
es,
himysweet
iepi
e,himyangel
s
ohyousocute

Me:Wozaphel
a

Shecl
imbsont
hebed.

Me:Letmehavei
t

Phindil
e:Iwon'
tal
lowyoutodisr
espectmeokay,
I
sai
dt hi
sbackthanIam st
il
lsayi
ngitnow.I
fyou
don'twantmeletgoofme

Me:Iam af
rai
dthat
snotpossi
ble
Phindi
le:Youcan' tbemadatmef orsomethingt
hat
i
stotall
youtofmyhands.Iam sor r
yfortaki
ngyour
ki
ds,butIdon'tunder st
andwhyyoucan't
understandthegr avi
tyoft
hissi
tuat
ion.I
tsli
keyou
wantmet okil
lthem

Me:Idon'
twantyounordoIwanti
ttogett
othat
poi
nt.Thi
spai
nsmei nsi
de

Phi
ndi
le:Idon'
tfeel
pai
n

Me:Yes.Youalwayst hi
sbaddyIdon'tknow,
each
dayyouradif
ferentperson.It
hinki
fyouwerebreak
now,al
lofusnaziwedonef or

Ibr
inghert
omychest
.

Me:Iam ver
ysor
rymommy,
IknowImakeal
otof
mi
stakes

Phi
ndi
le:St
opwant
ingmet
obesomet
hingIam not

Me:Iwi
shIhaddonet
hatear
li
er

Phi
ndi
le:Whatel
se

Ichuckl
e.

Me:Idon'
twantt
opushi
t.I
fit
sokaywi
thyoucanI
bewit
hher

Phindi
le:It
snotokayl
ikeIsaidyouar
eresponsi
ble
forhowt hi
swholethi
ngturnsout

Me:Ihearyou
Il
ookdownmybabi
esar
egone.

Me:Theyl
eftal
ready

Phi
ndi
le:Theywer
enever

Me:B*
tch

Wel
augh.

Si
zwe
Somethingi swr ongnohumancanseeusunl ess
weshowour selves.Hewakesupaf t
erbei
ng
unconsciousf orawhile,
andhehast hebi
rt
hmark.
Sakhi
lehassober edupdrinki
ngdoesn'
tdo
anyt
hingj ustcreatesmoreprobl
ems.
Ghet
to:KodwaJesusngenzi
wani

Ml
u:Whati
swr
ongwi
thyou

Ghet
to:Don'
ttel
lmeyounotseei
ngthis,
lookl
ooki
t
i
sstari
ngatmeandmovingsidetoside

Hedoessomecr
azysnakehandgest
ure,
they
l
augh.

Me:That
snotwhatIam doi
ng

Thobani
:Sakhi
lewher
edi
dyouf
indt
hesepeopl
e

Ghet
to:Getmeoutoft
hispl
acer
ightnow

Me:Cal
m yourt
it
sdown
Sakhi
le:I
sther
eanexpl
anat
ionf
orwhati
sgoi
ngon

Me:P.
..I
nkosazanecant
ellus

Il
ookatt
het
winst
heyshr
ug.

Phi
ndi
le
Iheadout
,Ihavet
ofi
ndoutwhati
sthesi
tuati
on
wit
hghett
onow.Helooksatmeandpopshiseyes
out.

Me:"Final
lyIgothim,yahcleverkuni
ningi
thi
ya
ezi
ntabeni
, kuni
nizi
yashangikuthol
il
e(Foral
ong
ti
menowIbeent ell
ingyou,
got othemountai
ns.
LooknowIgotyou)

Voi
ce:Ihavebeent
ryi
ngandt
ryi
ngandcal
li
nghi
m
Sakhi
le:Khonakiniowayenesi
phosabaphansi(
Was
someonespiri
tuall
ygif
tedinyourf
amily)

Ghett
o:Ist
hatwhyIam seeingsnakesandnot
act
uall
ygoingt
hroughami dli
fecri
sis

Me:"Kuhlei
mpelaemvakokzalakwenkosazane
usuzoyaemful
eni"(
Per
fectaf
terherbi
rt
h,yougoing
str
aightt
other
iver)

Mzwakhe:Youpr
egnant

Me:Iam notpr
egnant

Mzwakhe:Uwenainkosazanel
ayi
khaya(
Yourt
he
queeni
nthishouse)
Me:Ther
e'smanyofusOl
wet
hui
stheonepr
egnant

Herj
awdr
ops.

Thabi
so:Youpr
egnant

Shesi
ghs.

Lu:Nowonderyoul
ooki
ngext
rabeaut
if
ul

Me:Unqabel
ani(
Whyyour
efusi
ng)

Ghet
to:Awsthandwasami
imagi
neaguyl
ikeme
nowheeeeyyyy

Wel
augh.
Ghet
to:Noser
iousl
y,Sakhi
leIhat
eyou

Sakhi
le:Hawu

Ghet
to:Yoni
nukanamagundawef
uthyo(Andyal
l
smel
lli
kerat
sohmyGod)

Heget
supandl
eaves.

Mzwakhe
Ihavetobuypregnancyt
est.Congr
atul
ati
onstomy
bigbrot
hert
heytrul
ydeserveit
.Banel
eain'
teven
thatol
dandalr
eady,shehasanotherbunbaki
ng.

Nt
hat
i:Wher
eyout
aki
ngme

Me:Theonepl
aceIf
eart
hemost
Nt
hat
i:AhMzwakhe

Me:Come

Nt
hat
i:Mzwakhe

Shepr
otestbal
anci
ngherbodyont
hegr
ound.

Nt
hat
i:Mzwakhepl
easedon'
t

Me:Youhavet
odot
his

Nt
hat
i:NoIdon'
t

Me:Nt
hat
i

Weheadovert
oPhi
ndi
le,
sheal
readyhasa
di
sappr
ovi
ngl
ook.

Me:Canwebotheryouf
orasec.
..Uhm myl
ovet
his
i
sNthati
,Nt
hat
ithisi
smygir
lf
ri
end

Act ual
lyPhindi
lei
smywi fejustali
ttl
eformali
ti
es
thatneedt obedone.Aft
ershegavebi rt
h,Ipai
df ul
l
bridepriceanddamagesbef oreanyoneopenstheir
mout h.Iam donewithher.

Me:Ngajabulamengasenazaneakudi ngiukut
h
nibeabangani.(
Iwoul dappreci
atei
tifyouknow
eachother,youdon'thavetofri
ends)butIreal
lyl
ike
whatisgoingonr i
ghtnow

Phi
ndi
le:Di
dyousl
eepwi
thhi
m

Shel
ooksatme.
Me:MamaIknowt
hati
shar
d..
.Okay

Nt
hat
i:Yesandhej
ustdi
dn'
twantt
ost
op

Phindi
le:That
sint
erest
ingusual
lyIseehi
m doi
ng
thedeed,butIdi
dn'
tseeyouguys

Il
ookather
,myphoner
ings.

Me:Idon'
tworkf
oryouokayyouhoe,
okay.Ladi
es
pl
easeexcuseme

Iheadi
nsi
de,
Ilookf
orapenandpaper
.

Sakhi
le:Whatam It
odot
his

Me:Ngit
hingi
buyaSakhil
eleyongcwadiayi
be
i
thel
ekaemagcekenioNzuza,uyangi
zwaukuth
ngi
thi
nishonakhonambhemu( WhenIcomeback
Sakhi
le,thi
slet
termustal
readybedeli
ver
edt
othe
Nzuza's.Doyouhearme,gettowork)
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Phi
ndi
le
Iam wokenupbysweetbabysounds,
Ilookover
andMzwakheisbat
hinghisboys.

Mzwakhe:YesIl
ovemommyver ymuchbutdon'
t
tel
lhert
hat
.Ohuyakhahl
elaumf
anakababawhoa
okay

Theyki
ckt
hewat
erevenmor
e.

Mzwakhe:That
sitnomor
ewat
ert
imef
oryouguys

Het
akest
hem outt
heycr
y.
Mzwakhe:IknowboysIf
eelt
hesamewayt
oo

Hesingsal
ull
abywhil
edr
essi
ngt
hem upIgr
abmy
phoneandr
ecordhi
m.

Mzwakhe:Awuboni
keseni
ngayakumommycome
l
etsgosawubona

Me:Hey

Mzwakhe:Thewayt
heyl
ooki
ngatyoul
ikewhoi
s
t
hishoe

Me:Yeyiwena

Wel
augh.
Me:Namaxoki(
Hypocr
it
es)

Mzwakhe:Don'
tli
stent
ohershe'
sjustj
eal
ous,
why
ar
etheyhere

Me:Somet
hingi
swr
ong

Mzwakhe:Wi
thus

Me:Noatt
heri
versomecreat
ureescaped.I
t
hought
,It
oldt
hosepeopl
enottoletanyt
hingout

Mzwakhe:Okayboysmommyi
sact
ingabi
t
st
rangel
etsgetoutofher
e

Ther
oom goespi
tchbl
ack.

Mzwakhe
Sakhil
eismadatmef orsomereasonalloft
hem
aremadatme.Theymustknowbynowt heki
ndof
personIam,nothi
ngshocksmyf amil
yaboutme
anymore.Ihavetotr
eadcaref
ullythoughone
wrongmovet heywil
lkil
lme.

Andi
le:Mfanawezimanga(Amanwit
hmanytri
cks)
whoarethesecut
iesyouwantmet
okidnapt
hem

Me:Theymycut
eli
tt
leboys

Andi
le:Ar
ght
heyst
il
lcut
ethough

Me:Let
stal
k

Andil
e:OkayEvensjeweler
yinaf ewdays,
they
goingtobeshowcasingthei
rlat
estdesi
gnsandto
showyouwhatIam t al
kingabout
Ababycr
ies.

Andil
e:Yi
nimanjeIj
ustputhert
osl
eepwhat
s
wrongpri
ncess

Me:CanIhol
dher

Andi
le:Heysayhel
lot
ouncl
emonkey

It
akehermyhear
tmel
ts.

Me:Sawubonankosazaneheygi
rl

Andi
le:Yeahshehast
hataf
fectonpeopl
e

Thi
sisabitt
ersweetmomentformehowdoesone
notgett
oraisethei
rchi
ldr
en.Heopenst
hecasi
ng
anddiamondshinesbri
ght.
Me:Wow

Andi
le:Ther
e'savol
tahi
ddenvol
tthathasal
lthe
di
amonds

Me:Howmuch

Andi
le:I
fmyboysgettoi
tfi
rst60/
40,
ifyouboys
geti
tyoutake60It
ake40

Me:50/
50

Hef
rowns.

Me:Wespl
iti
tinhal
forwegooursepar
ateways
Andi
le:Mxm gi
vemebackmybaby

Il
augh.Ourrelat
ionshi
phasalwaysbeenliket
his,
wehavethisloveandhatethi
nggoingon.
Someti
mesi t
sgood, somet
imesitsbad.Someti
mes
wekil
leachother.

Phi
ndi
le
Sizwe:Wedon'tknowwhathappenedwegot
everyt
hingcl
osed

Me:She'
sher
e

Si
zwe:What

Me:She'
sher
e

Si
zwe:That
'snotpossi
blewei
mmedi
atel
yfeelher
pr
esence

Me:Shepossessedsomeone

Us:Mzwakhe

Myhear
tbeatsout.Ipr
omisedmysel
fAnelewoul
d
bet
hefi
rstandlastper
sontobepossessed.

Si
zwe:Youshoul
dhavet
oldusyourpl
an

Me:Ther
e'si
snopl
anher
e,Shef
oundoutmy
secr
et

Si
zwe:Whati
sthat

Me:TheheartofamanIbr
oket
hat
stheonl
ythi
ng
t
hatcanki
llme
Hel
aughsandsi
ghs.

Sizwe:Ohmygoodnesst hankgoodnesst
heybr
oke
yourswaitwhataboutThapel
o

Me:Thapel
owant
edMambahedi
dn'
tknowhe
l
ovedme

Si
zwe:Maybesher
anaway

Me:Ihavet
ogo

Si
zwe:Whatar
eyougoi
ngt
osayt
oyourman

Me:HehasNt
hat
i,shewi
llkeephi
m company
Sizwe:I
fyout hi
nkpearlisher
eitsbestyoust ay
andprotectyourfami
ly.Swimmi ngintheriverwi
th
Mambawon' ter
asethedamage, shei sabouttodo.
Wegott hi
sandi t
sgoodyouactf astnow,conti
nue
tr
yingtoseekwhohast hedagger

I
fIhavet
odi
epr
otect
ingever
yonet
hansobei
t.

Mzwakhe
Iarrivebackhomewi thgoodiesPhindi
letaughtme
that.Everytimeshecameovert othepenthouse
shewoul dalwayshaveagrocerypacket,
int hose
packet sonehadt ohavechocolat
e,chi
psand
biscuit.Hecomesdownandgr absachocol atesl
ab.
Ihear dhemadenewf ri
ends,whydoesheneed
anotherf r
iend?

Me:Yousentt
hel
ett
er

Sakhi
le:Manqobasai
dherf
atherr
ecei
vedi
t
Me:Okayandwhenyoupl
ani
ngonpr
oposi
ng

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Phel
awehavetogetyoumar
ri
edaykul
ungi
le.
Youhavenewf
ri
endsnow

Sakhi
le:Idon'thavenewfr
iendstheyj
ustsome
guyswechi l
ledwi t
handgotalongwit
h.Donot
makeamount ainoutofamolehil
l.

Me:Aykul
ungi
leboysl
etusgo

Iputt
hem onthei
rbabycri
bsincet
heywere
sl
eepi
ng.Ihopetheydon'
twakeupbecauseyoi
t
cangetwi
ld.
Me:Youguysar
ethebestt
hingt
hat
'sever
happenedt
ome

Iki
sst
hei
rhandst
hanl
eave.

"
Hol
don"

Thedooropens,
shesmi
lesandj
umpsonme.

Me:Hey

Nthati
:Hakeaobonahosengket shwenyehi
le(
I
di
dn'tseeyout
hismor ni
ngIgotworri
ed)sor
ryI
wassayingIdi
dn'tseeyouandIgotworri
ed

Me:Ihadsomebusi
nesst
otakecar
eof

Nt
hat
i:Okayever
ythi
nggood
Me:Whyyousohappy

Nthati
:Youher
ewhyyout
hinkIam happyandhe
smiles

Iam set
tl
edwhatmor
ecoul
dIaskf
or.

Nt
hat
iMoeket
si
Howdi dIevenendupher e,mysi sterisdoingi
t.A
sexytallmanwi t
hdeadl yeyesappr oachedmeand
Iwasbl ownaway.Pol ygamywast hel astonmy
mind,ar el
ati
onshi pwast helastthingonmymi nd.
Aftermypr eviousexper i
enceIwasdi agnosedwith
ptsd.Ihaveepi sodicmoment s,Igocrazy
somet i
mesi thasbeent r
eatedandIam doi ngmy
besttomai ntainmysani ty.Igotnoi deahowam I
goingtohandl ethisrelat
ionship.
Me:I
fyouher
etoj
udgemet
hanpl
easegoback

Pal
esa:Shockedr
eal
lyyouar
e
Ar
eyour
eadyf
oral
loft
his

Me:Idon'
tknowbutal
lthi
sfeel
ssor
ight

Pal
esa:Youcameher etomeetAyandanotf**
khis
bi
gbrotherandparadeyourrel
ati
onshi
pinf
rontof
hi
sgir
lfr
iend,babymamaNt hati

Wel
augh.

Pal
esa:Anywaysaslongasyouhappywegood.
Youtol
dthem aboutyourcondi
ti
on

Me:Idon'
tknowi
fIshoul
d,Idon'
twantt
oscar
e
anyone
Pal
esa:WellIam l
eavingAyandai
sspoil
inguswit
h
avacat
ion,
soyougoi ngtostaywi
thyourboyf
ri
end
orgohome

Isi
gh.Thi
swasabadi
dea.

*
*
*
*
*
I
fmysot hoi
swr
ongf
orgi
vemeIusegoogl
e
t
ransl
ati
on.
[
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33] :238

Nt
hat
i
IopenmyeyesandIwassubmer
gedunderdeep
water
s.ItwassodarkbutIcoul dseet hr
oughit,I
tr
ytodiveupbutIcan'tseem tomovemybody.A
snakesli
ther
smyway, If i
ghtt
ogetoutbuti tis
i
mpossible.I
tcomesinf astmotion,
Iam screaming
andsuffocat
ingfi
ght
ingal osi
ngbattle.Suddenl
ya
str
ongforcepull
smeout ,Igaspandcough.

Ilookatt
hepeopl
estandi
ngbefor
eme,amongst
them i
sSizweandthet
wins.Awomanandman.

Woman:Wel
comemychi
ld

Man:Yal
lthi
nkt
hisi
sgoi
ngt
owor
k

Woman:Yesi
thast
o

Theyhel
pmeup.
Si
zwe:Don'
tbeshocked

Me:Am Ideadwhatam Idoi

ngher
e

Si
zwe:Noyounot

Woman:Iam Mzwakhe'
smot
herandt
hisi
shi
s
f
ather

Si
zwe:Nt
hat
iyounotdeadandyounoti
nheaven

Me:Whatam Idoi
ngher
e

Si
zwe:Weneedyourhel
pandf
inal
lywemayhavea
br
eakt
hrough

Ma:Mysonhastakenahugeli
kingtoyouandthat
hast
akenusbackwards.Wewantthi
ngsbetween
thethreeofyout oremai
nasis,mysongetsvery
boredquicklyandmovesont ot
henextbestthi
ng.
Hesl eepswiththatwomanandthatwoman,ther
e's
notaski r
tthatpasseshi
m bybutwit
hyouits
dif
ferent

Me:How

Si
zwe:Phi
ndil
eli
kesyou.Youthef
ir
stgi
rlshet
rust
ar
oundMzwakhe,wedon'tknowhowbutwe
gr
atef
ulf
orthat

Me:But

Si
zwe:Wef
eell
ikewegoi
ngt
olosePhi
ndi
le

Ma:Themor ehegi vesint

oyou,themorehe
detachesfr
om her.Shewil
lfeell
iket
hisman
doesn'tl
oveher,
knowi ngt
hatshemightgi
veyou
guyssomespaceandwewi
llneverbeabl
eto
recoverf
rom t
hat

Si
zwe:Thisiswhereourancestor
sare,t
he
Bhengu'sr
esidi
nghere.Overt
hereist
heblackr
iver
,
wherethefamil
yanimalli
ves

It
sspectacularbl
ackisusual
lydepressingbutthis
ri
verisgli
steni
ngandjustabreathoffreshair.I
t
splashesoutoftheri
ver
,Ifal
lbackinshockt hats
notananimal .

Sizwe:Wealmostt
her
eandyouar
ethekeyt
ous
succeedi
ng

Me:Butyoucan'
tblamemef
orhi
m bei
ngwi
thme
orwantmetoleavehim

Dad:It
oldyouguyst
hiswasawast
eoft
ime
Iwakeupgaspi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le
Howam Isupposedt ocopewithoutNonhle,
nobodyhasmybacki nt
hishouseeveryoneis
obsessedoverMzwakheandhi sfool
ishness.I
headout,aspir
itshowsupuninvit
ed.Iholdonto
rai
l.

Voi
ce:Yougoingthr
ought
hemosthowi
smy
pumpkinsupposedt
omarryt
hisman

Me:Heisagoodguywhati
shappeni
ngt
omewi
ll
nothappent
oher
.Igi
veyoumywor d

Voi
ce:Il
ikehi
m onlyacommi
tt
edmanbui
ldsa
homeforthebr
idesfami
ly
Me:SocanIt
akeher

Voi
ce:Onewr
ongmoveIwi
llcomedownheavyon
t
hisboy

Me:Ol
dmanyourt
hreat
sdon'
tmeananyt
hingt
o
me

Hel eaves, Iheaddownbutmi ssastepandroll

downt hest ai
rs.Shegetsontopofmeand
stranglesme, It
rygetti
ngherhandsoffme.Buther
gripissot ightaroundmyneck.Istruggl
ewith
want i
ngt ogetherof fme, abl
ackshadowappears
overher .Shegr instheshadowgetssuckedi
nme, I
stopbr eathing.

Mzwakhe
Me:Mama.
.Phi
ndi
le,
phi
ndi
levukaokay.Phi
ndi
le
Ipl
aceheronmyl
egsandl
ight
lysl
apshercheek.

Me:Phi
ndil
ewakeupyoucan'
tdi
e.Mama,Sizwe,
her
eisSizweIknowyoul
ovehi
sgrayeyes

Thabi
so:Sizweni
vesaneni
meni
nanxa(
Yal
ljust
st
andthereanddonothi
ng)

Sizwe:Wecan'
tfi
ghtwi
thwhatweuseonot
her
people,
weknowtheout
come

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Iwi
pemyt ears.Shewakesupcoughi
ngandcr
awl
s
away,
groaning.

Phi
ndi
le:Shi
t
Shel
aysont
hecol
dfl
oor
.

Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Phindi
le:I
fIdi
etell
MzwakheIlovehi
m,i
ftheydon'
t
l
eavemet hefort
une.Theymustgi
veNonhl
e
everyt
hing

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Shechuckl
es.

Phindil
e:Nomatterwhatyoudoyounevergoingto
gethim.Iwon'tl
etyou,Iki
ll
edever
ycreatur
enow
there'
syouandtheone'syourprot
ect
ing.Idon'
t
carewhetherhelovesmeornot,younotgoingto
gethim
Shewakesupgaspi
ng,cr
awlsawaythanf
all
sback
downagai
n.Nt
haticomesthr
ough,
shesit
sdown
andput
sheronherthi
ghs.

Nt
hat
i:Nkosazane

Shewakesupgaspi
ng.Theyhel
pherupandgoout
,
theydi
vei
ntot
hepool.

Sakhi
le
Cansomeonesayhect i
c,Iam besi
demyself.
Mzwakhecan'tcomprehendwhatjusthappened.I
getatextmessagef
rom ManqobaNot hando'
selder
brot
her,Isi
gh.

Mzwakhe:Yi
nii
nki
nga

Me:Ihaveadat
e
Nothandocomesscr
eami
ngwi
thapaper
,she
shovesiti
nmyface.

Not
hando:Ipassedl
ookIpassed

Me:Okaywhoa

Iseealotofpassedwi
thdi
sti
nct
ion,
some
sevent
ies.

Me:Wowcongr
atul
ati
ons

Herphoneri
ngssheissoexci
tedIdon'
twantt
o
t
akeitawayfrom her
.

Nothando:Nzuzayebobaba.Ngi
yabongamauhm
yebobaba,ungiphet
hekahl
eangi
hlal
inokuhl
ala
naye.Ngikhonangenxayokuthi
skolesishi
le(
Thank
youmom, yesfat
her.Heistr
eat
ingmever ywell
,I
don'tevenli
vehere.Iam her
eonlybecauseapart
oftheschoolgotburned)

Myner
vesst
artki
cki
ngi
n,Il
ookatMzwakhe.

Mzwakhe:JamescallThobani
'
sfat
her,
gofet
chhi
s
mom andhiscousi
n.Thabisowegoi
ngtokwa
Maphumulo

Thobani
:Cheerupbabe

Hehugsmel
aughi
ng.

Thobani
:Phut
humanimadoda,nanguesebaleka
(Hur
ryupgent
lemen,
heisgett
ingcoldfeet
)
Nt
hat
i
Mzwakhecametocheckonme,
Iseewhatt
hey
meantheki
ssesme.

Mzwakhe:What
swr
ong

Me:Not
hingIam okay

Mzwakhe:Mommy

Me:Tel
lmeaboutPhi
ndi
lewhati
sshel
ike

Mzwakhe:She'
sverysensiti
veandfragi
leshe
doesn'
texpr
essherfeel
ings.Shekeepsstuff
bott
ledi
nandsometimespl ayst
hevicti
m

Hedidn'
tevenquest
ionwhyIam aski
ngabout
Phi
ndil
e.
Me:Whywoul
dyousayt
hat

Mzwakhe:That
showIseei
t

Me:Ofcour seyouwould,
youamanyoudon' tsee
beyondthat.Haveyoueverjusttookt i
mef orher,
foryouguys.Doyouconsi dert
hef actthat
physical
lyshemaybeher e,butment al
lythis
rel
ati
onshipisoverf
orher.

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Iwi
llseeyouwhenyougetback
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Not
hando
I
twast
hedayoft
henegot
iat
ions.Phi
ndi
lewas
goingaroundthehousepr
ayi
ng,call
ingonallt
he
Ndlovu'
s,theBhengu'
sandNzuza'
saskingthem f
or
l
ightandthatthi
sdaygoassmoot haspossibl
e.

Ma:Kodwanganeyamiusuzobaumakot
imanj
e
(
Ohmybaby, yougoi
ngtobeawifenow)

Ismile.Iwasinmyr oom li
keusual
,theyarri
ved
veryearlyandtheystil
lwai
ti
ngoutside.Iwas
fr
eakingoutwhati fdadchangedhismi nd.

Me:Makodwabaf i
keearl
yngesi
khat
hkungani
ni
sabahlal
isengaphandl
e(Mom whyaret
heysti
ll
out
side)

Ma:Akukhonaet
hekwinil
anangosixbengangena
(
Thisi
snottheci
tyeven6oclocktheycancomei n)

Me:Hawuma(
Butma)
Iam sur
ethesunhasbur
nedt
hem t
il
ltheybecame
ashes.

Ma:Kodwaubukekaungat hukil
e,ngi
yakhumbul a
kuzofikaubabawakhouval oelal
ungishaya.Ubaba
ezi
phuzel ait
iyeengenaskhat hi,wazewageza
kwabai ntambama( Youdon' tl
ookscar edthough.I
rememberwhenyourf atherwascomi ng,Iwaswas
soner vousont heotherhandmydadwasj ustnot
bothered.Hewasdr inkinghi steamindi nghi
s
business,heevent ookabat h)

Me:Manj
ewenzalentoeyenzi
waumkhulu(Nowhe
i
sdoingt
heexactsamethingasgr
andpa)

ThedooropensPhi
ndi
leent
erssi
ngi
ng.

Phi
ndi
le:"
Ngi
yint
ombiwemakhul
ulekamawami
"
Mom ul
ulat
es.

Phindil
e:BabakaZakhel e..
.Bengisabusyayikho
i
nkingangi zothol
aukut hkwenzakal an.Okaylalel
an
ngiyazisizeningal
indele,umemul onomembeso
kusasal okhuokusayazi yasha(Iwasbusy
Mzwakhe, noproblem Iwillf
indoutwhati sgoing
on.Okayl ist
enIknowwecameunexpect edly,but
thecomi ngofageandgi fti
ngceremonywi l
ltake
placetomor row)

I
sshef
orr
eal
.

Mzwakhe
Itwasabeaut i
fuldayout si
dewecamehereearl
y
andstil
lwait
ing.Babymamat extmethatwegot
thegreenl
ight,befor
eIr eci
tet
heclannamesagain
wemustsor toutthisissue.
Me:Hol
donNdl
ovuorBhengu

Thabi
so:Ndl
ovuobvi
ousl
yhawukant
iunj
an

James:Awushayel
aphomf
ana

Me:Okay

Isi
ghandt akeadeepbr eathandcal lt
hem Nzuza
bastard.Mythroatisonf i
re,Ihavebeenshouting
si
ncef ouri
nthemor ni
ng.Iseemovementt womal e
fi
guresapproachingus, Iam ready.Theyst
and
beforeusquiet
ly,IplacedownR200

Baba:Avekunzi
makabimf
anaukudi
li
kaeshl
ahl
eni

Ipl
aceR300yeahSakhi
lehasmoneybutIam not
goi
ngtoal
lowanyonetotakeusf
orari
de.The
otheronepi
cksi tupandt heyheadi nsi
de,they
comebackwi thiam guessi ngherf ather
.Iplace
andR500andabot tleofwhi skeythananot her
R500.Theystartwhispering,Iplaceanot herR500,
thesemadal
asbet t
erletusin.

Thabi
so
Iam seei
ngadiff
erenttypeofMzwakhe.James
andIarejusti
nawe,hei shandl
ingthese
negoti
ati
onsli
keapieceofcake.Hepl acessome
moneyont hecof
feetable,t
heseoldmaneyeeach
other
.

Mzwakhe:Ngokukhul uukuzithobasyani bi
ngel
ela,
besi
thisocelaubuhl oboobuhl e.Umfanawet hu
uboneimbalienhlel aykhayaenhl ekunazozonke
(Wit
hallduer espect,wegr eetyou.Weher e
becauseoursonsawaf l
ower, abeauti
fulfl
ower
andwoul dl
iket opickitout)
Baba:EhSyanamukel amadodani sit
husi
le,nif
ike
si
ngalindele.Umkamingaphaebesenzaamat i
ye,
asazinokut hkhonai
yinsi
zwaezizayo(Wewel come
yougent l
emen, weweresurpr
isedbyyourvi si
t.We
didnotexpecti t
,mywifewasstil
lmakingtea)

Uncl
e:Engabei
yinsi
zwaezakwabani(
Whoar
eyou
gent
lemen)

Mzwakhe:Si
ngabakwaNdl
ovubaba

Uncl
e:Syanamukel
aboGat
sheniawboyabenyat
hi
(
Wewel comeyou)

Theyrequestelevencows,twel
vethousandeach
thatsareasonableamount.Alt
houghSakhilewould
sayshei sworthmor et
hanthat,t
heycallt
hegirl
s
out.Theywrappedi nbl
ankets,
Mzwakhebet ter
chooserighthere.
Uncl
e:Engabeni
yambonaeni
zengayemadoda

Mzwakhe:Longasemnyangobaba(
Theonecl
ose
t
othedoor)

Uncl
e:Mant
ombazane

Howdi
dheknowi
twasher
.

Baba:Not
hando

Not
hando:Yebobaba

Baba:I
ngabeuyawazil
amadodanokut
hazengani
(Doyouknowthesegentl
emenandwhatt
heyhere
for
)

Not
hando:Yebobaba
Baba:Uyasi
vumai
scel
osabo(
Doyouagr
ee)

Not
hando:Yebo

Baba:Kul
ungi
leni
ngakhul
uleka(
Yourexcused)

Mzwakhel
aysoutst
acksofcashont
het
abl
e.

Mzwakhe:Esal
ayosekuyi
siphosenunomakot
i
(
Theresti
syoursandthebr i
de)

Theybr
ingoutt
hatmoneycounti
ngmachine.I
t
goesal
itt
lemor
ethanwhattheyaskedf
or.

Uncl
e:Hai
bobhut
iamehloamiyi
ninoma(
Isi
tme
orar
emyeyesdecei
vingme)
Baba:Hai
bonkosikaziki
kizaniphel
aumshado
l
aykhaya(Pl
easeululat
eit
saweddi ng)

Ihaveneverbeent
hispr
oudofMzwakheorwi
tness
thi
ssideofhim.

Sakhi
le
Whi l
etheyholditdownf ormet hatsi
demaZandi
andmom wer ehelpingandbuyingthingsfor
tomorrow,evenOlwet huwhoshoul dn'
tisout
helpi
ngme.Nt hatiletsnotf
orgether.

Nt
hat
i:WhatdoIdo

Me:Youseeanamewr
it
eitdown

Nt
hat
i:OkayIgoti
t
Myphoner
ings.

Me:Hey

Mzwakhe:Lookever
ythi
ngwentwell,
theyhappy
she'
shappy.Ever
yoneishappyl
ist
en

Iheart
henoi
seandt
hewomanul
ulat
ing.

Mzwakhe:Ehl
isaumoyakeIgotyouboy

Izoneoutf
orawhi
le.

Nt
hat
i:Sakhi
le

Me:Mmm yeah
Phi
ndi
le
Ican'
tthefat
herofmykidshel
dthosenegot
iat
ions
l
iketheywerenothi
ng.Wher
ehasthismanbeen
hidi
ng,babaNzuzapull
smetotheside.

Baba:Nkosazane

Ismi
le.

Baba:Ngiyabonainkosazaneyamii zobei hlel

ikahl
e.
Kukodwanj eengikucelayoumvikelenjalo,
ungamnikiit
hubal omfanaintombazaneyami
yodwa(Iseemypr i
ncessiswelltakencar eof,
ther
e'sonlyonethingIaskf r
om you.Pl easeprotect
mychi l
d,don'
tgivethisboyanyoppor tunity.Sheis
myonl ybabygir
l)

Ican'tpr
omisehewon'
thurtherbutIcanpromise,
I
wil
ltakever
ygoodcareofherandprotectheratal
l
ti
mes.
Me:Yebobaba

Baba:Ngi
yabongankosazane

Aunt
:MakaZakhel
e

Me:Okaymangi
yezamanj
e

Igosayhi
ght
heboys.Wegotal ongdayaheadof
us,weal
somustgi
vethem spacetopr
epare.

Thabi
so:WenaRatongobaushadi
lenj
ewhyyou
here(
Lerat
oyourmarr
iedhowareyouher
e)

Theyl
augh,
MzwakheandIshar
eal
ongwar
m hug.
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Mzwakhe
It
sacelebrati
onabigmomentf ort
hefamily.
Sakhi
lesil
entbutdeadl
ygett
ingmarri
ed.Iam so
happyforhim,Ican'
thel
pit
.

Nt
hat
i:Babear
ewenotl
ate

Me:Wever
ylat
emaver
y

Thegr
oom ent
erswelookateachother,bl
oodyf
ool
hewentt
othatbri
dge.Iam goi
ngt
oki l
lhim.

Nt
hat
i:Sakhi
le

Sakhil
e:Iknow,
Iknow.Ihadafewt hi
ngstosor
t
outbutIam her
enow,letmesplashfastandwe
canleave
Nt
hat
i:Doeshenotwantt
ogetmar
ri
ed

Thef
ami
lyf
inal
lycomesout
,theyul
ulat
e.

Me:Eynonsensewel
ateani
boni(
can'
tyousee)

Lu:Sukaungat
hmawucasul weuSakhil
eukhi
phel
e
kuthi
na(Don'
ttakeyourf
rust
rat
ionoutonus)

Theyl
augh.

Ol
wet
hu:Nt
hat
iingubokaPhi
ndi
le

Sherunsupst
air
s,Imustsayever
yonei
slooki
ng
ver
ygorgeousali
tt
let
oogorgeous.
Me:Wesupposedtobewearingtr
adit
ionalnot
l
ooki
ngthi
sglamorous.Guyswelateeveryone
pl
easej
ustgetout
,wegoingveryfar

Hesendsmeatext"
Iam sorr
y"Ir
epl
yback,
"Just
getdr
essedsot
hatwecanleave"

Phi
ndi
le
Sakhil
eyoucant akethemanoutoft hebridge,but
youcan'ttakethebri
dgeoutoftheman.Ient erthe
houseul ul
atemomsandaunt scelebrat
ing.
Nothandowasbei ngtest
ed,sheissti
llavirgi
nand
thecelebrat
ionbegi
ns.Idon'
tknowwhysomeof
them doubtedher.

Not
hando:Angazini
ngi
sol
aningempel
a

Me:Gqokanikei
skhat
hiasi
naso(
Getdr
essedwe
don'
thaveanyti
meleft
.
Iam t r
yi ngtobecal m,Ijustgotbackf rom prayi
ng
wher et hecer emonywi llbehel d.Thedecorpeopl e
eveni fyouhavemoneyt heseguyswi l
lsti
ll
disappoi nt,butitslooki
ngver ybeauti
fulbythetime
wef i
ni shever ythingwillbedone.Iam t akenout
yoht hisol dgr andpaisvur ivyingme.

Not
hando:Phi
ndi
leIsai
dIdon'
twantt
hatMrand
Mrstabl
e

Me:Okaygogetr
eadyIwi
llsor
titout

"
MakaZakhel
e"

Iam exhaust
ednow.

Mzwakhe
Hecomesdownandal lthatangerdi
sappear
.They
ulul
ateyeshappi
nessandjoyiswhatwesupposed
tobefeeli
ng.

Sakhi
le:Ngi
yaxol
isaukuni
li
ndi
sa

Lu:Papi

Me:Let
sgo

Igr
abuMqhel
eandputonhi
shead.

Me:Ayman

Phi
ndi
le
Theladi
eswerel
ookinggorgeous,somebody
borr
owedmeat radi
ti
onaloutf
itIcanwear.We
headtoesgcawi
niwheretheceremonywillt
ake
place.Nothandohasont hecowskinprovi
ngsheis
verymuchseal ed,
Icouldn'
tbemor ehappi
er.I
ts
i
nt actandnotri
pping,t
hevir
ginshavethei
r
l
usci ousboobsout.Theboysaregoingtogocrazy.

Me:Manqobaongephei
mal
i

Theyeveninvit
edaking,ahugegustofwind
passesby.Whyi sthi
sMkhulul
ikethi
sman,she
goesovertothekingandkneel
s.HepinsherR10
thenst
aresatme.

Me:Manqobaumkhul
uwakhowayenedr
amavel
e

Manqoba:UbaniuKhwel
aweethatguyshame,
wher
everhewent.Weluckywegottospendsome
t
imewithhim

Ishakemyhead.
Mzwakhe
Theceremonyi sal
readyunderway,
welookover
them f
rom theski
es.Itol
dthesef
oolswelat
e,t
he
heli
copter
sland.

Weapproachthem,Iseemybabywhoi sthatnow.
Bet
ternotbesomeoneIam goingtoki
ll
.Sheturns
ar
oundthanrunstous,shereachesmeandjumps
onme.Igrabherandspinheraround,
wekiss.

Me:Youmi
ssedme

Phi
ndil
e:OfcourseIdidbutyoualwaysmeant
ome
andIdon'
tli
kethat,
theydon'tl
iket
hat

Iki
ssher
.
Phi
ndi
le:Comel
etsgogi
veawaysomemoney

Thabi
so:Awawngi
fi
kanj
e

Welaugh,Olwethupi
nsherR100sinceshe'
s
pr
egnant,becauset
hesel
adiesar
elazywhen
pr
egnant.Theygobacktosi
nginganddancing.

Phi
ndi
le:Whyar
eyouguysl
ate

Me:Don'
task

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasover whel
medbyanunexpectedbal
lof
happiness.Thecer
emonyi
salmostover,
onemor
e
personthanweheaddownforgif
ti
ng.

Not
hando:"
Ngi
yamet
hembaangekeadl
alengami
"
"
Angekeadl
alengami
"

Not
hando:"
Angeke"

"
Angekeadl
alengamingowamingi
yamet
hemba"

Not
hando:"
Sengi
shouNdl
ovuangekeadl
alengami
"

Mzwakhe:Ayman

Theboyswhi stl
e.Shedancesswayi ngherhi ps,
Mzwakhehol dsme.Thener vousnessandj oywe
arefeel
ingisoutofthi
sworld.Shepokest hespear
onthegr ound,
hewai t
sforhertoreachthel adies.

Mzwakhe:Youneedhel
p
Sakhi
le:NoIgott
his

Hetakest hespearandheadst owar

dsthem.I
tsl
ike
akingi swalki
ngthrough,hi
saurashouts
confidence.Hispostur
esaysIam herel
ookatme,
theladieshelphim pi
nthestackofmoneyhegot
.I
grabhi smom andheadt othem.

Sakhi
le
EverythingwentperfectIwasnervousandexcited
atthesamet i
me.Sakhileawholehusband, af
ami l
y
mannotj ustt
otheboysbutIhavesomeone.Iam
goingt ospendtherestofmyl i
fewith.Thi
sis
pleasantmomentf orme, thegi
fti
ngalsoisgoi
ng
verywel l.

Phindi
le:Sacel
aobhut
ibamakot
i(Thebr
other
sof
thebri
de)

Iwonderhowt
heygoi
ngt
oreactwi
thwhatIgotf
or
t
hem.

Phi
ndi
le:Nkosanasi
shi
wai
skhat
hibo

Wel
aught
heysi
tont
hegr
assmat
.

Phi
ndi
le:Asi
nakhookwenu

Nonhl
ehandst
hem eachsmal
lboxes.

Nonhl
e:I
wavul
eni

Theydo.Manqobaisthefi
rstonet
orunout,t
hey
foll
owhim.Theyscr
eam andjumpli
keli
tt
lechi
ldr
en,
theycomerunni
ngandhugme.

Manqoba:AwkodwawenaweNdl ovu,
Gatsheni
,
Boyabenyat
hi,
MpongokaZi
ngel
wayo.Khala
amaf
lui
tlaphoni
thit
jovi
tj
o

Ever
yonewhi
stl
es.

Them:Skhul
u

Nonhl
e:Sesi
cel
aumakamakot
i

Iwavef
orher
.

Me:Maseni
qedi
lesonyukasi
yekul
oyamuzi

Shenods.Theyqui
ckl
ydresshergi
vingher
,her
sugar
soilandwhatnot
.

Ma:"
Ungi
jayi
vel
akamnandieyi
ntakusa"
Mzwakhe:Hai
bo

Ma:"
Ungi
jayi
vel
akamnandieyi
ntakusa"

Li
nda:Yeswenamommy

Theycheerheronshedoesal
it
tl
edance,
wel
augh.

Phindil
e:Okaysesicel
aumakotiweMakoti
umkhwenyaneunesi phoekumeleani
phesona,
sacelasimlandel
e

OkayhowdoIevenbegi
ntoexpl
aint
hisohl
ord.

Me:Wamuhl
emkami

Shesmi
les.
Me:Angazinokut hngizoqalaphkodwa
ngizokhulumaokusenhlizweni( Idon'tdon'tknow
wher etostart
,butIwil
lspeakf r
om t heheart)
.Ma,
babananiNkosanasondel ani.Ngi qalaukumbona,
ngamt handaumunt u.Ngavelengezwai nhl
izi
yo
yami inci
bil
ikangenyeindl
ela, ngababazakodwa
oNdlovubangenzani(Mom, dad, Nkosanapl ease
stepforward.Thefir
sttimeIsawher ,Ii
nstantlyf
eel
i
nl ove.Ifel
tmyhear tmelti
ngaway, howcansuch
happent ome)

Thi
sishar
dert
hanIant
ici
pat
ed.

Me:Ngacel aumf ethuwamil aphayaubaf o,

angit
holeleukuthi sukaphlentokazieyakwabani
.(I
askedmybr otherovertheretof i
ndinformati
on
abouther ,
whoi sshewher eisshef rom)
Wangilethelaubaf oimfomation,okwakungit
hint
a
kakhuluisimosal aykhaya.Ngikhulangalahl
ekwe
umanobhut iwami .(hebroughtmet heinfor
mation,
whatt ouchedwast hesi
tuati
onhereathome.
GrowingupIl ostmymom andbr ot
her)
.Impil
oyami
ayiphindangayafanangabeintoyasemgwaqeni,
i
phar akahlekahle.Ngi
sandaukumt hol
auaunty
usewumawamimanj ekanyenomzal abami.(My
l
ifewasnevert hesame, It
urnedint
oast r
eetki
d,I
recentlyfoundmyauntwhoi snowmymom and
mycousi ns)

Idon'
twantt
obel
ong.

Me:Angi f
uniukubamudengobangi zogcine
ngikhal
iseabantu.Manj
engithengisibonai simo
i
ngqondoyamiyashonal enaleyazeyaf ikal a,ma
umuziwakhol o(Idon'
twanttobelongandmake
peoplecry,whenIsawthesituat
ionmymi ndwent
crazyuntili
tgother
e.Mom thisi
syourhouse)

Not
hando:What
Me:Owamiumkhwekazingi membesakanj e.
Sekuphel
eiyi
nyangangakhalomuzi,ngingazinami
ngi
zowuthini
.Kwavesanekwavelal
eskhathiesihl
e
(Thisi
showIgi f
tmymot heri
nlaw.Itsbeen
monthsofmebui l
dingthi
shouse,wi
thnowayof
howIam goingtogiveitt
oyouthanthisperfect
momentcame)

Not
hando:Sakhi
le

Me:Mommy

Thobani
:Gat
sheni

Me:Angini
thengingi
funanazinginemal i
,ngi
funa
naziusi
siwenuinganeyakhomai hlel
ikahl
e
i
nethezi
kel
e.(Iam notbuyingyou, Iwantyouto
knowyourdaughterisreal
lyt
akencar eof)
Thobani
:Yayayaya

Me:Ngi ni
kaabantui
ntoabazokhulumangayonit
hi
yeyibasobhaakumalikuyaf
iwe.(
Iam gi
vingpeopl
e
somethingtotal
kabout)

Me:Seni ngashoenikushoyomababaowenul omuzi.

Niyawudayi sanomaniangisekhol
apho,
sengizi
boni sengi
zobaumkhwenyaneonj an.
Ngalokhoke.( Yal
lcansaywhatyal lwantmom dad
thi
sisyourhouse, youselli
tornot.Idonemyj ob,
I
shownmysel fwhattypeofhusbandIam goingto
be.Wi t
ht hatsai
d)

Lu:Papi

Igetdownoneknee.
[
06/
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Sakhi
le
Iam verysadIcouldn'
tcomebackhomewi thmy
wif
e.Itwasal l
justsobeautif
ulandIdon'teven
havethewor dstoexpl
ain,whatabeauti
ful
ceremonyitwas.Everyonewaspr et
tymuch
hangoverexceptforPhindi
le,shewasti
redbut
somethinginherwasup.

Me:Mommykodwagobackt
osl
eepbecause
obvi
ousl
yyout
ir
ed

Phi
ndi
le:Anempt
ybedIdon'
tthi
nkso

Me:It
houghtyal
lwoul
dbeget
ti
ngyourf
reakon

Phi
ndi
le:Youshoul
dknowyourbestf
ri
endbynow

Me:Whati
sthei
ssuekant
iwedon'
twantyouguys
br
eaki
ngupagai
n
Phi
ndi
le:Hai
boawuboniwena

Me:Hambi
le

Shechuckl
es.

Nt
hat
i
Idon'
tknowwhythismanisbesideme,youthi
nk
youhavehi
mf i
gur
edouthegoesandsur pri
sesyou.
Mzwakhehasami ndofhi
sown, aft
erdr
inki
ngso
hardIt
hought
,Iwi
llhaveahangoverbutnothi
s
guyayman.

Me:Goodmor
ning

Sakhi
le:Youupaswel
l
Me:Iam t
hir
stymama

Phi
ndi
le:Hey

Igr
abor
angej
uiceandabot
tl
eofchampagne.

Phi
ndi
le:I
sitmi
mosaMonday

Me:NobutIneedthatki
ck,
thathmm t
hisi
sgood.
AyphelaIwonderwhatt
heweddingwi
llbel
ike
af
teryest
erday

Phi
ndi
le:Fi
rewor
ks

Sakhi
le:Thebombbabyanexpl
osi
on

Me:Iwasr
eadyt
oexpl
ode,
Icoul
dn'
t
Phi
ndi
le:Thegi
rl
s

Me:Ikeptchasi
ngthem awayIal
mosthi
tone,
li
ke
ever
yonecouldseewhatwashappeni
ng

Phi
ndil
e:WhenMzwakhedancehebecomesagi
rl
magnet

Me:Di
rot
otsenasuka(Thoser
ats,
getoutofher
e)

Sakhi
le:Isawyou

Hewal
ksi
nonusl
aughi
ngandj
oki
ngwekeepqui
et.

Mzwakhe
Iwal
kint
her
oom andt
heykeepqui
et.
Phi
ndi
le:Ihavet
hatt
hingIneedt
odo

Sakhi
le:Igot
tagocal
lmywi
fe

Nt
hat
i:Pal
esawhatwast
hatokaycomi
ng

Theyal
lgetupandleave.Iam t
oohangovert
o
apol
ogize,
soIam goi
ngbackt osl
eepmyphone
ri
ngs.

Me:Andi
le

Andi
le:Igotani
cehangoverr
emedy

Isi
gh.
Me:Iam t
ir
edmanl
ikewhati
syourpr
obl
em

Andi
le:Icandot
hisonmyowni
fyoudon'
twantt
o

Me:Youknowwhat

Andi
le:WozababakaZakhel
e

Howdoyousaynowhensomeonepr
aisesyoul
ike
t
his.

Phi
ndi
le
Ineededtot
alktoSi
zweandf i
ndoutwhats
happeni
ngintheworldofdar
kness,howisi
tIdon'
t
seeMzwakheandNt hati
.Whentheydothedeed.

Me:Si
zwe
Si
zwe:Nkosazane

Me:Canwet
alk

Si
zwe:Doyouneedt
het
winsaswel
l

Me:Notel
lmesomet
hingwhydon'
tIseeMzwakhe
andNt
hati

Si
zwe:It
hinkyouknowwhy

Me:Iwoul
dn'
tbeaski
ngi
fIdi
d

Si
zwe:Youl
ikeher

Me:Whatt
hat
'st
hedumbestt
hingyoueversai
d
Si
zwe:Yesyoul
ikeher

Me:Idon'
tli
keher

Si
zwe:Youdon'
tli
keher

Me:She'
sever
ythi
ngIam not.Thehappysideof
MzwakheandIhavet
urnedintothedarksi
de

Si
zwe:Youar
ethedar
ksi
de

Me:Herbodyistodi
efor
,she'
stal
landpr
ett
yli
ke
youcanjustki
ssher

Il
ookathi
m whyam Iget
ti
ngt
urnedon.

Sizwe:Thatswhyyoucan'
tseeanythi
ng,
you
comfortabl
ewithher
.Youcomfort
ablewi
tht
hem
bei
nginarel
ati
onshi
palmostli
keyouwantt
hem t
o
worksoyoucanexcuseyour
self

Me:Nowt
hat
'
sjustanexagger
ati
on

Sizwe:Wewatchi
ngyouPhindil
e,youcan'
tgi
veup
thesnakebadthi
ngswi
llf
alluponyou

Me:Shutyourdumbmout
h,wher
eist
hedemon

Sizwe:It
hinksheranaway,youver
ydanger
ousgir
l.
Iam scaredtoknowwhatyouwouldtosomeone
whohur t
syou,Ithi
nksheisscar
edofyou

Ismi
le.

Mzwakhe
Bot
hmyl
adi
esar
enott
omeorsomewhatangr
yat
me.IswearIdidn'tdoanythi
ng,Phi
ndilewasup,
shestr
ugglessleepingaf
terahecti
cday.Iquickl
y
wenttocheckonNt hatit
hanfel
lasleep,ohshucks
yeahIseewhatIdi dwrongnow.

Andil
e:Overherei
sther oom thenewdesi gnwil
lbe
showcased,behi
ndthesecloseddoor stherei
sa
passageandmanydoor s.Yourpeopleneedt o
fi
gureoutwheretherestofthem arekeptbehind
thesedoor
s.Mzwakhe

Hebangst
het
abl
e.

Me:Iam doi
ngal
lthewor
kher
e

Andi
le:AndIam get
ti
ngal
lofusi
nvi
tedi
ntheevent

Me:Whydon'
tyouandIj
ustdoi
tbyour
sel
ves,
your
i
diot
swon'
tworkwit
hmeandmyboyswon'twork
wi
thyou

Andil
e:Theywil
lknowsomet
hingi
supsuddenl
ywe
bestf
riendsnow

Me:Whynotl
etsmakeal
oudbuzz

Andi
le:Monkiesarenotthi
sdumbyouknow.Yeah
l
ookslikeyouwereri
ght.Iwil
lokaybye,t
ake
your
selfoutofmyhouseandmakesur eyouhave
somethingconcr
ete

Me:Yougoti
tboss

Itextmycrew.Amessagef
rom Phi
ndi
lecomes
through.

Andi
le:Anyonedi
esbecauseoft
hishei
st,
donotl
et
mef
indyou.Hai
bo

Wegott
hegr
eenl
ight
.
[
06/
06,
15:
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Not
hando
Letmet el lyouaboutSakhi l
eNdl ovut hatman.Isee
whyMzwakhel oseshi smar blesforhim, Igetthat
obsessionhehaswi thSakhi le.Theirbromancei s
onanot herl evel.Formont hswewat chedt hat
housebei ngbui l
tlit
tl
edi dweknowi twasf orus.
Mommyanddadwer esospooked, theycoul dn't
beli
eveit .Heboughtt hreeMer cedesBenzcar sfor
mybr other '
s,Iwaswonder ingwher et heyrunning
oftoheeSakhi l
eisgoi ngt obet hedeat hofme.A
tr
uckf ullofal coholwassent , Manqobahadt he
keysandhewast hegiftthatkeptongi vi
ng.My
auntsandcousi nsgotbl anket sandi Phone's,and
hestil
lkeptmeavi r
gin.Igetwhyever yoneloves
anddependsonhi m.
Ma:AyNot handowavelewasibulal
a(Youhave
kil
ledus)awawmnt anam angiphuphinj
ekodwa
owamingempel al
oyamuzi(Am Idr eaming,
isthat
reall
ymyhouse)

Me:Khol
wamai mpiloyakhomanj
ele(
Bel
ievei
t
mom thi
sisyourl
if
enow)

Ma:Cel
ani
ngi
xol
ele(
Excuseme)

Sheisst
il
linshockandIt
hinkshei
scr
ying,
Iam
goi
ngtocryto.

Manqoba:Wowyourhot
boxi
sawap

Me:Manqoba
Manqoba:Nol
ikeyousureyousti
llavi
rgi
nno
f
reaki
ngway.AMer cedesBenzi
BenzNothando

Me:Wher
eisdad

Nkosana:Att
henewhouse

Wel
augh.

Me:Hel
eftmom

Mncedi
si:Usibongelekubafohai
bouseyi
zwileyi
ni
i
mpahlaenkulu(Gi veourt
hankstoSakhi
le,
hashe
t
astedi
talready)

Me:Guysyal
lsawmewear
ingumhl
wehl
we(
Cow
ski
n)
Manqoba:Whoknowsmaybeyal
ltr
ickedt
he
ancest
ors

Me:Stopitandhel
pmepr eparefortomorr
ownow
donotdisappoi
nthi
m andruinthosecars,
li
kehe
sai
dheisnotbuyingyouguys

Nkosana:Iam sol
dwheneverIwantsomethi
ng.I
wil
lpi
ckupt hephoneandcallsbar
iwuukuni
ni

It
sbeent
oughwesurvi
vedont
hei
rbursarymoney
andnowthi
ngsar
efi
nall
ycomi
ngtogether
.

Mzwakhe
Theannoyingcel
lphoneechoesallovert
heroom.I
i
gnorei
t,butthi
spersonispersi
stentoncal
li
ng.

Me:Yi
nimanj
e
Andi
le:Youal
ivegoodweneedt
omeet

Me:Don'tyouhaveababy,Oni
ka,li
stenher
eyou
hoeIdon'twor
kforyou.St
opcall
ingmel i
keyoumy
b*t
ch,gotohell

Ihungup,Phi
ndil
eturnsaroundthisfooli
s
di
sturbi
ngme.Shelooksmeandi sshocked,
she
buri
esherheadandrelaxesherbody.

Me:Hei
sannoyi
ngnow

Sakhi
le:Coul
ditbehei
sset
ti
ngat
rap

Me:If
eell
ikesomepeopl
eshoul
dsi
tthi
soneout
,I
seel
otsofangeronhi
m
Sakhi
le:Wel
lyout
heonewhoagr
eed

Me:YouguysknowIl ookoutf
oryal
lheknows
aboutpr
ojectcupcake

Sakhi
le:NduandThobaniar
eindanger

Shel
ooksatme.

Me:Ayaygobackt osleep.Iam sayi

ngheknows
aboutproj
ectcupcake,hemaynotbeabl etodo
anythi
ngbuthi spart
ners.Wewillmeetinthe
aft
ernoon,Ayandabetterhavesomethingbythen
anddon'tbloodydist
urbme

Ihaveal i
feanditdoesn'
trevol
vearoundhi m,he
wil
lgethisdiamonds.Thisiswhatlandsoneinjail
bei
ngirrati
onalwit
hnoplanwhat soever.Ipul
l
Phindi
lecloseandrestmyheadonher s.
Sakhi
le
Nthat
ijoi
nsmeonthecouch,shei
sint
obui
ldi
ng
andwhatnot
.Shei
stheperf
ectper
sonwhocan
helpme.

Nthat
i:Whyyoul
ookingatmel
iket
hatyouwantme
t
oshakemyassf oryou

Me:Gi
rlbye

Wel
augh.

Me:OkaysoIwantyout
obui
ldahousef
orme.I
gotver
yver
ybigl
andandweneedahousef
or
get
away

Nt
hat
i:Okay
Me:Iwanti tbigitmusthavepl us30r oomswi t
h
ensui
ts,Idon'twantittohighort oolow.Itmustbe
afami l
yhome, ahomewher ewhenyousi t
ti
ngon
thecouchyoui nstantl
yfal
lasleep.Iknowyoust il
l
onthe30r ooms, wear eaverybigf amily.I
ncludea
poolthepatiooutside,t
heladi
esl oveit.Anout si
de
room forPhindil
e,alif
tcanaliftgosideways

Weallsometi
mesj ustneedt
ogetawayfr
om t
he
ci
tyandvisi
tthefarm andwher
emom usedt
ostay
i
sperfectf
orthat
.

Me:Idon'
twantanakedhouseoranythingf
lashy,
ohalsoagameroom i
smust,theateri
samust .
Maybetryt
omakeitli
keatheaterandnotahome
theat
er

Nthat
i:Onewoul dquest
ionthat,yousayyoudon'
t
wantflashyyetyouthefl
ashiestone
"
Thankyou"

Me:Ohshutup

Shel
aughs.

Me:Iwi
llt
akeyousi
tevi
sit
ingsomeot
herday

Nt
hat
i:YesMrNdl
ovusi
r

Mzwakhe
Idon'
tgetwherethi
sexhaust
ioniscomingfr
om.I
am verymoodyandthi
sAndileofapersonhadt
o
bethisannoyi
ng.

Luyanda:Secur
it
yishect
ic
Ayanda:Madhecti
c,thatwholepassagehas
cameras.Ourvol
tissit
uatedontheleft
,yougott
o
punchinacodetoopeni t

Luyanda:Ifyoustayinther
efortoolong,
youwil
l
acti
vatethecensor.Thevoltwi
llshut
,col
dairwi
ll
bereleasedandyoumayormaynotmakei t

Ayanda:PieceofcakebutIhavetobeinsidet
o
cont
rolthesystem andi
tscameras,wealsocan'
t
l
oopanyt hi
ng

Li
nda:BabakaZakhel
eIam notdoi
ngt
hisshi
t

Ayanda:I
nthi
scaset
hef
ivemi
nut
erul
eappl
ies

Li
nda:Ni
daki
we,wedon'
tevenknowi
fthi
sonei
s
pl
ani
ngatrapornot
Isi
gh.

Me:Andi
leandIwil
ltakethedi
amondsyouguys
ar
ebackup.Adiver
sion,backupandamasterplan,
i
fthi
ngsgowrongeit
herofushast ot
aket
hef al
l

Samkel
o:Yousur
eyoucant
rustt
hem

Andil
e:Thi
sai
n'taboutt
rustwear
eaboutmake
hi
story

Myphonevi
brat
es,
Ipul
litout
.

Me:Whati
sitnow

Li
nda:Hawemamommykodwa
Phi
ndi
le
Ican'tbeli
evet hist heyputmei nablondewig,and
i
twasdoi ngnoj usticeatal
l.Nthat
iwhydidIlether
tr
ickme.Al leyeswer eonmeandIwasf eel
ing
sl
ightlyuncomf ortable,
wel adi
eswentoutshoppi ng.
Thisgr ouplovest oshop, Ili
kedgoingonvacation,
Luthandowast heonewhoseemedl i
keshewas
cominggoodwi tht hatbutIthi
nkshegottir
ed.

Idon'
tknowifIam hall
ucinat
ingorseei
ngthi
ngs,
myheadhur t
saflashbackmemor yhit
sme.Iam
seei
ngtheguywhot ort
uredme, whenIwas
ki
dnapped.Howispossibleghett
oappears.

Ghett
o:Idon'tknowwhyIdidn'
tacceptt
hissooner,
Icanjustappearanddi
sappearonpeopl
elikethat

Nt
hat
i:Youokay

Ir
unaway.
Nt
hat
i:Phi
ndi
le,
phi
ndi
lewai
tPhi
ndi
le

Iam nothear
inganyt
hingIj
ustwantt
ogetoutof
her
e.
[
06/
06,
15:
34] :243

Mzwakhe
Shehascal
meddownbutsomet
hingdef
ini
tel
y
scar
edher.

Me:Babywhathappened

Phindi
le:Idon'
tknowIsawhim andever
ythi
ng
cameback, howhelookedatmewhenhet hought
aboutfeasti
ngonme

Shest
art
shyper
vent
il
ati
ngandt
hencr
ies.
Me:I
tsokay,
cal
m downmama

That
oinj
ect
sher
.

Phi
ndi
le:Fi
..
.Fi
xitbef

Il
ayherdown.

Sakhi
le:I
magi
nei
fIdi
dn'
tanswert
hecal
l.

Thobani
:Whathappened

Nthat
i:Idon'
tknowshef
rozeont
hegr
oundand
t
hanst ar
edrunning

Me:Youokay
Nt
hat
i:NoIam f
inej
ustwor
ri
edabouther

Me:Shewi
llbef
ine

Sakhi
le:Youokayyour
avel
ed

Idon'twanttocommuni cateanyt
hinginfrontoft
he
l
adies.Iam alwayspreparedforwar,Ist
ayready
thatway.Ineverneedtogetready,Iam readyri
ght
now.

Nt
hat
i
SinceIcan'
tgoanywher eImightaswelldo
somethinguseful.ThankGodIbroughtmydr awi
ng
equipment,t
hisismycopingmechani sm.Ihaveto
fi
gureouthowIam goi ngtobuil
dthisgigant
icnot
sogiganti
chouse, myphonerings.
Me:Shandu

Dad:Myf
avor
it
e

Me:Whatdoyouwant

Dad:Ar
eyounotsupposedt
obeback

Me:WellMrIwi
llhaveyouknow,
Igotaj
oba
massi
vejob

Dad:Desi
gni
ngamal
lagai
n

Me:Ahousewi
thl
if
tmovi
ngsi
deways

Dad:What
Me:Exact
lyIcan'
tli
vecoul
dyouaccompanyme
whenwegosi t
eseeing

Dad:Okayt
extmet
hedet
ail
s

Hehungsup.Whenourbiologi
calfat
herpassed
awaymom remarr
iedazulumanandhel ovesust
o
themoonandback.Hehaschildr
enofhisown
thr
eeboy,
PalesaandIcompletethepack.

Mzwakhe:Mommy

Me:Heyhowar
eyoudoi
ng

Mzwakhe:Bet
ternowt
hatyouhavecal
ledmewhat
youdoi
ng

Me:Get
ti
ngmypenci
lon
Mzwakhe:Doyouwantanyt
hing

Me:Justyou

Ismi
le.

Mzwakhe
Iarr
ivej
usti
nti
meJameswast i
edt
oachai
rand
beatent
othecor
e.Hechuckl
es.

James:I

Me:Shutup,
howdoyougetyour
sel
fki
dnapped

Agunget
scocked.
"
MzwakheMzwakheMzwakhe"

Him:YouknowIdon'
tknowwhatIwasdoingbutit
suredi
dbri
ngyouhereandnowIam goi
ngtofi
nish
you

Ifeelt
hegunatthebackofmyneck,Isti
llhavet
he
pocketkni
feonmyhand.Istomphisfeethegraons,
Istabhimintheneck.

Me:Nott odayman.List
enupwhateverhappens
shootanythingandanyonewhot
hreatensmy
famil
y,Iam onmyway

Icutofft
her opesandhelphi
m up,hegroansol
d
ageisgett
ing.Busyacti
ngallzaddyher
efor
nothi
ng,helaughs.

Me:Shutup
Andi
le
I
vanwasi
ntown.

I
van:Youat
tacki
ngt
hem,
butyouwantt
owor
kwi
th
t
hem

Me:Al
lisf
airi
nthi
sli
fe

I
van:Noyouchooseyourbat
tl
es

Me:Theyhadnobusi
nessconspi
ri
ngwi
tht
hat
monkey

I
van:Themonkeyi
ssmar
t

Heshout
s.Mzwakhe,
ther
e'snot
hingsmar
tther
e.
Me:Li
keyousai
dwechooseourbat
tl
esandt
hisi
s
oneoft
hem

Ivan:Herearethei
nvit
eswhenyoudead,Iwil
lbe
thefir
stpersontospeak.Andi
lewasabraveman
theonlythi
nghedi dn'
thavewasabrai
n,ohmyhis
soulresti
npeace

Me:F*
*kof
f

Welaugh,Ili
keThobanibutwhatbusi
nessdidhe
havet
ot akedownmyoper at
ion.Il
ostbi
ll
ions,
Iam
anddisappoi
nted.

Me:Yeahcal
litof
ftheynotwor
thi
t

Thabi
so
Thebabi
eswer
erest
lesssomet
hingwasof
f.

Me:Yi
nikhehl
alababakwenzenj
an(
What
'swr
ong
myboy)

IseeareddotonThobani
,bef
oreIcanevenshout
hisnameashotisf
ir
ed.

Me:Thobani

Thobani
:F*
**

Andmor
eshot
sar
ebei
ngf
ir
ed.

Me:Gogo

Isendacoder
edwer
unt
oAyanda'
sroom.
Thobani
:Shi
t

Me:I
tsj
ustaf
leshwoul
d

Thobani
:Iam shot

Ileavehim,thehousei
sunderatt
ackweareunder
attack.Imoveoutsi
de,
ihearsomethi
ngmovi
ngin
thebushes.

Voi
ce:Don'
tshootdon'
tshot

Igr
abher
,shescr
eams.

Me:Nt
hat
iwhatt
hehel
l
Nthati
:IsawguysandIst
art
edr
unni
ng,
they
st
artedshoot
ing

Shot
sarebeingfi
redatus,Ipushherdownwhat
wasshedoingoutsi
de.Asnakeappearsand
cr
eatessomekindofbarr
ier.

Me:Fol
lowt
hesnake

Nt
hat
i:Sur
eThabi
sohavemef
oll
owasnake

Me:I
fyouwantt
oli
vef
oll
owt
hedamnsnake

Wher
ehasMzwakhegonet
onow.
[
06/
06,
15:
34] :244

Phi
ndi
le
Iwokeupf
rom adeepdeapdeepsl
eep,
myheadi
s
spinni
ng.Theroom isupsi
dedown,Isneezeget
ti
ng
up.There'
sholeseverywher
e.Feat
hersfl
oati
ngi
n
theair
,whatinthehelli
shappeni
nghere.

Iheadout
.

Me:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:Iam her
emama

Hehel
psmedownt
hest
air
s.

Me:Whathappened

If
eelmydl
oziawakeni
ng.

Mzwakhe:Cal
m downever
ybodyi
ssaf
e
Me:No

Mzwakhe:Mamahei
sal
iveandbr
eat
hing

Sakhi
le
Howdoyour evengeonsomeoneyoukidnapped,i
t
doesn'
tmakesense.Dougisdeadal
lhi
smanar e
dead,whowouldthi
nkabouttaki
ngr
evenge.

Me:I
sever
yoneokay

Ndumi sowasshotandisinacrit
icalcondi
tion.
Thobanijustgotawaywithafl
eshwound, thiswas
atargetedmissi
on.Wetakentheladiesandkidsto
thepenthouse,wenolongert
hatsafeeverywhere
webei ngatt
acked.
Thabiso:Howcomeyouguysdi
dn'
tseet
his
happening

Si
zwe:I
tsnotourf
ight

Thabiso:Nobodyi
sasusel
essasyou,
pret
tyboy
fornothi
ng

Me:Thabi
so

Thabi
so:Aymanweaf
ami
lyofsnakescomeon
mancomeon

Wel
augh.

Phi
ndi
le
Iar
ri
veatthehospi
talBabal
waisgoi
ngtokil
l
somebody.Ient
erhi
swar dshei
ssit
ti
ngbesi
dehi
m,
hol
dinghishandrocki
ngbackandfor
th.Four
bul
letswenti
ntohisbody,
Ihol
dhishandhegasp
wakingup.

Me:Cal
m down

Hel
ooksatBabalwaandshet
ransf
ormi
ntoa
mul
ti
pleheadedsnake.

Me:Iam goi
ngt
oaskyouthi
squesti
onagainare
youpl
ayi
nggamesorareyouser
iousabouther

Hel
ooksatme.

Me:Rememberwhent heyki
dnappedmeandshe
wasthereprayi
ngformet oreturnsafel
y,andalso
herboyf
riendwasjustnotwill
ingtoletgoofher.
Theytur
nedherint
oasnakedon' tlookather,
you
wil
lmakeherangry.Iam notforcinganythi
ngupon
you,
itsokayshewon'
thur
tyou

Whyi
sshest
il
ldangl
ingont
opofus.

Mzwakhe
Idon'tgetwhywhenpeoplearerunni
ng,sheis
stuckinthebushesout
side.Doesshereal
izeshe
couldhavebeenshot.

Lungani
:Howmuchi
sthi
sone

Me:Idon'
tknowbuti
tmustcostaf
ort
une.Si
zwe

Si
zwe:Youst
il
labum soIdon'
tcar
ebutt
hiswi
ll
gi
veyousomerespect

Ichuckl
e.
Si
zwe:Whatyougoi
ngt
odo

Me:Handt
ohi
m

Hechokesonhi
sdr
ink.

Sizwe:Thi
siswort
hmill
ionsifnotbi
ll
ions.NoIam
taki
ngsomepieceswhetheryouli
keitornot,
haibo

Theywel aidoutacr
ossthelongtable,Ipourmyself
anotherglassofwhi
skey.Iwassupposedt ohave
endedhisl i
fewhenIhadthechance, andthatsthe
thi
ngaboutus.Wej ustcan'
tseem tokilleachother
.
Ihatethatguy.

Lungel
o:Si
zwecomeongi
vei
ttohi
m comeon

Si
zwe:Fi
neyourar
ethemant
hatyout
hinkyouar
e
Nt
hat
i
Theli
ftopensshestr
utsi
nlooki
ngli
keami
ll
ion
dol
lar
s,shelooksatmeandlaughs.

Me:Youwantsome

Phi
ndi
le:Whatwer
eyoudoi
ngi
nthebushes

Me:Ihadenoughtr
aumaf oroneday,Idon'tneed
youandMzwakheaddinglayersandl
ayer s.Youthe
onewhoissickwhywouldyour unof
flikethat

Phindi
le:Al
lIsawwast heexit
,Igoti
ntosomuch
shock.Icoul
dn'thandl
eithaveyoubeenher
e
before

Me:Yes
Phi
ndi
le:Iseeyouver
ycomf
ort
abl
eanddi
dyou
sl
eepi
nt hatbedr
oom

Me:Yes

Forasecondthereitl
ookedl
ikeshewasaboutto
ri
pmyeyebal l
sout.Shesmil
esandheadst othe
l
ounge,shethrowshersel
fonthecouch.Igrabmy
coff
eeandjoinher.

Me:Wher
ewer
eyouwhenal
loft
hiswashappeni
ng

Phindil
e:Theyi
nject
edmewit
hsomeanest
het
ic
thatthi
ngcanknockyououtf
ordays

Me:Youweresleepingwhil
esomeofuswer
ebei
ng
shot
,tal
kaboutli
vingthesof
tli
fe
Phi
ndi
le:Gi
rl

Herphoner
ings.

Phindi
le:I
sn'
tther
eot
herr
oomsi t
'sokayyouused
toputti
ngmesecondanddisr
especti
ngme,yeah
wellbye

Myphonebeeps."Befor
ewecamet othemansi
on
weusedtol
ivedthere,j
ustt
ryshi
tIam i
ntr
oubl
e
her
e"

Il
augh.

Me:AykehoneyIam goingtosleepyoumor
ethan
welcometocome,butIai
n'tgoi
ngnowherei
fwe
havetof
ightPhi
ndil
eweshal lf
ight
Shegi
vesmeabor
edl
ook,
Ilaugh.

Mzwakhe
Iwasflyi
ngont her oadpanicki
nghavetheykill
ed
eachotheryet .Phindil
emaynothaveapr oblem
wit
hNt hati,butthatdoesn'
tmeanweshoul dhave
ourwaywi thher .Thelif
tsopens,Ir
unupstairs,
I
entermyr oom andt heybothsleepi
ngsobeaut i
ful
andpeacef ul.Phindil
efaci
ngupandNt hatifaci
ng
down,Isigh.

Thabiso:"
Youhur tPhi
ndi
leeveragai
ninyourl
if
e.I
am goingtoki
llyou"

Li
nda:"
Weshal
lhaveaser
iouspr
obl
em"

Me:"
Iai
n'tscar
edofyou"
IknowIdon'
tdeser
vet
hiswomanbutshei
smy
world.
[
06/
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15:
34] :245

Phi
ndi
le
Myadr enali
neispumpi ng,Iwasr eadytofightand
Pear ldeci
dedt odisappearandt aketheremaining
creatureswi t
hher .Idon'
tknowi fsheisdelaying
meonpur poseorshe'swat chi
ngmymovesand
willstri
keonceIf indthedagger.Idon'tknow, Ican
nothol donanymor e.Ihavegivenmyal ltothis
fami l
yandal ltheydoi sj
usttake,take,t
ake.

Af
terpr
ayi
ngIheaddownst
air
s.

"
Sur
pri
se"

Igetthebi
ggestf
ri
ghtofmyl
if
eandt
urni
ntoa
snake.
Mzwakhe:Okaymaybeweshoul
dn'
thavedone

Li
nda:Phi
ndi
lei
sgoi
ngt
oeatusal
ive

Mzwakhe:Hey

Theyl
augh.

Me:Whati
sthi
sfor

Mzwakhe:Wethoughti
twasbesttoshowyouhow
appr
eciat
ivewear
eoftheamazingstr
ongwoman
youare

Me:Why
Thabi
so:Phi
ndi
lesi
tyourassdown

Me:Okay

Ismil
eandsitdown,
onet akesmylegsunt ohi
s
thi
ghs.Theot
hermassagemyshoul der
,these
peopl
edoknow.Idon'tl
iketobet
ouched, butoh
well
.

Thobani
:Rel
axandenj
oymommy

Mzwakhe:Wegotyousomegoodi es,
everyone
boughtwhattheyfel
tli
keyouwouldlove.Since
nothi
ngimpressesyou,al
itt
lebi
tofeveryt
hing

Heopensupthefir
stpresentandi
tsabunchofr
ed
boxLi
ndtchocol
ates,
theylaugh.
Li
nda:Iam sor
rybutmakaZakhel
eshameayi
kho
nj
eintoekuj
abuli
sayo(
Nothi
ngmakesyouhappy)

Heopensanot
herboxIgasp.

Me:Whoboughtmet
heset
hankyou

Heopenseveryboxallmygift
sarecut
eandhave
somesortofsent
imentalval
ue.

Mzwakhe:Idon'
thaveagi
ftforyouorIt
hinkIdo,
youj
usthavetowaitandf
indoutlat
er

Mzwakhe
Weatt hewar
ehousegoingovert
heplanf
orthe
heist
,somemiracl
ehappenedNdumisohas
recover
edandhelookssodamnhandsome.
Me:Anikhul
umenimadodakuni
ngiokusangi
li
ndi
le
(
Talkgentl
emenIhavealongdayahead)

Ever
yoner
emai
nsqui
etandl
ooksateachot
her
.

I
van:Sinceyoubr
oughtusher
ehowaboutyoudo
t
hetalki
ng

Me:Howaboutyoushutthef*
**up,i
fnobody
speaks.Iam get
ti
ngupandl
eavi
ng

Andil
e:Youknowt
heplantellever
yonewhatt
hey
needtodoandwewil
ltakeitfrom t
her
e

Me:Okay

Igetupandl
eave.
I
van:MrBhenguhol
donasecond

Hechasesaf
terme,
Igeti
nmycarhest
andsi
n
f
rontofi
t.

Ivan:Runmeoverandyouwon' tl
ivetoseet
heday.
Listenstopbei
ngcocky,gobackinsideandl
ets
wor kthi
ngsoutpl
ease.Please,
please

Phi
ndi
le
Don'
tpeopl
ejustl
ovemet oday,
fir
sti
twasthegi
fts
nowIam get
ti
ngmyhai randnail
sdone.Somet
hing
i
supandIcan'tseei
t.

Lu:Idon'
tevenwantt
oknowwhenl
astyoudi
dyour
nail
s

Me:Lut
handoi
fit
snotyoui
tsr
ato
Rat
o:Hai
bomanj
emi
nangi
ngenaphi

Me:Ar
ewegoi
ngt
osomef
ancyeventyi
ni

Rat
o:Li
veal
it
tl
ebabesandj
ustenj
oy

Al
loft
hem ar
eactingstr
ange,
whati
fIam
dr
eamingandtheancest
orsar
eshowingme.Iam
i
ndangerohGod.

Sakhi
le
Theycomeback,
Ichuckl
eandl
ookdown.

I
van:Okayifnoonetal
ks,
Iam shoot
ingsomebody
t
heeventistoni
ght
.Whatist
heplan,Andi
le

Ayanda:Ther
e'st
wot
ruckst
hatar
egoi
ngt
obe
stat
ionedonei
thersi
deoft
hevenue.Onewil
lbe
carr
yingthedi
amondsandonewil
lbeadiver
sion

Andi
le:Whyt
rucksandnotcar
s

Me:Car
sdr
awat
tent
ion,
trucksar
einvi
nci
ble

Ayanda:Aftertheshowcase, t
hediamondsar e
goingtober emovedandt akenbackt otheVol
t.
MzwakheandAndi l
ewi llhavet ounl
ockandent er
theVolt
,nowt heyalsoneedadi str
action.Whi
lethe
partyi
sgoingondi str
actt hecrowd, youtwosneak
outbehindthesetwogl assdoor s

Sandi
le:Whataboutt
hecamer
as

Ayanda:Getmybr
otherandIi
nsi
deandwecont
rol
t
hem
I
van:Seemseasyr
ight

Ayanda:Fi
veminutesever
yonehasfiveminut
est
o
doeveryt
hingandgetourassesbackher
e

Andi
le:Excuseme

Me:Takei
torl
eavei
t

Andi
le:Thi
sisr
idi
cul
ousandamocker
y

Ayanda:Rememberyoucamet
ousnott
heot
her
wayaround

Hi
sbr
other
slookathi
m.

Mzwakhe
Andil
emustnott
hinkher
unst
hest
reet
s,IdoandI
wil
lshowhi
m whoseboss.

Me:Si
ngf
rom t
hehear
tSakhi
le

Sakhil
e:Myt
hroatisgoi
ngt
obur
nbef
oreweeven
getthr
ought
otonight

Me:Aloti
sri
dingonthi
s,itcouldbethestartofa
newjour
neyorasnowballeffectoft
hisheaviness

Sakhi
le:Plovesyouokayyouj
ustneededt
oval
ue
yourr
elati
onshipthat
sal
l

Me:Ican'
thel
pbutwonder

Sakhil
e:LookMzwakheyouadadnow,
timefor
pl
ayinggamesisover.Beamanmaanleadusl
ike
youal
wayshave,youknowbreakingupwit
hher
andalmostmar
ryingsomeoneelsemessedupwit
h
youhead

Isi
gh.

Sakhil
e:Li
kenobodygetsyoul ikewedonobody
underst
andsyouli
keus, butherfrom dayoneal
l
shetri
edtodowasl oveyouandyouwer etri
ppi
ng.
EvennowyouputNt hatifi
rstyoubarelyknowher,
she'
sschizophr
eniaandmaybet hat
'swhyyou
obsessedwithher
.Yallbothcrazyinthehead

Me:She'
snotschi
zophr
eni
ahai
bo

Sakhil
e:I
fIsai
dthataboutpwoul
dyoubet
his
defensi
ve

Me:Iwasn'
tbei
ngdef
ensi
veIt
houghtwej
oki
ng,
Sakhi
lej
ustpl
ayt
hepi
ano

Sakhi
le:ChangeMzwakhechange

Hepl
ayst
hepi
anoandcont
inuepr
act
ici
ng.

Andi
le
Fi
vemi nut
emyass, acarpul
lsupj
ustaft
erIst
ep
outiup.Thedooropensandthemonkeyget
sout,
hmm hecleanedupnice.

"
Canever
yoneher
eme"

"
Loudandcl
ear
"

Me:Hmm lookatyoumonkeyboyshowsomet
eet
h
youdon'
twanttodrawanyat
tent
iont
ous
Hecl i
ckshist
ongueandwalksaway, I
.Theway
theyjustl
aughatever
ythi
ngiscont
agious.Ifollow
him.Theycheckournamesont heguestandl etus
through,t
heyshi
ningal
lthewaytotheent r
ance.I
wonderhowt heyfi
ndthei
rdi
amonds, theyhave
quiteafewpreci
ousgemsandIam t akingthem all
.
[
06/
06,
15:
34] :246

Mzwakhe
Weheadt othebarar ea.Andil
eissmil
ingfr
om ear
toear,
thebartenderservesuswhiskey.Il
ookatthe
Tatt
ooonhiswr ist,
hel ooksupandsmi l
esince
whenishemi xologist
.

Ayanda:"
Okaywehaveasl
ighti
shi
ssue"

Hel
ooksatme.

Ayanda:"
Thevol
tisheavi
lypr
otect
ed,
ithasmot
ion
sensors.Acamer aaboveandoneont hesideofthe
vol
t,t
her e'
sakeycardholderyouhavetoinserta
speci
alcardforthedoortoopen.Inther
ethese
heatsensorsaswellanothercameraandal i
ght
sensoraswell"

Il
augh.

Ayanda:"Idroppedoffaduf fl
ebagbehi ndt hegl
ass
door.Withallt
hethingsyouwi l
lneedtouset oget
thr
ought hevolt
,wit
houttr i
ggeringanyalarm.Do
thi
scorrectl
yokay,youflopt hatthi
ngwi l
llockyou
i
nsideandyougoi ngt odie"

Andsoi
tbegi
ns.

Phi
ndi
le
Af
terthatKhet
hocamewithdresses,eveni
ng
dr
esses.Igett
ochoosefi
rst
,butwhatam I
dr
essi
ngupf orwhati
stheoccasion.
Me:Guysi
fyout
ellmewhatIam dr
essi
ngupf
or
t
hanmaybeIcanpickanout
fi
t

Rat
o:Tryonal
lthedressesandwewi
llpi
ckout
whatl
ooksbangingonyou

Igothr
oughthehanger
slseeasi
lkdr
esswi
than
openback.

Me:Iwi
llt
ryt
hisone

Khet
ho:Per
fectchoi
ce

Lu:Ther
e'snotasi
gnt
hatshej
ustgavebi
rt
h

Rat
o:Zet
huyena
Zet
hu:Di
dsomebodysaymyname

Iputonthedr
essandi
thugsmebutmybacki
stoo
exposed.

Me:Ther
e'smor
edr
essest
ochoosef
rom anyways

Iam hungr
y.

Mzwakhe
Thesepeoplearegoodheartedtheybeent
reat
ing
thei
rguestwit
hf i
vest
artreatment,
toobadAndil
e
i
sgoi ngt
oripthem of
f.Thepartywasunderway,
thecrowdgasp.

Ayanda:"
Whati
shedoi
ng"

Themi
ght
yIvant
ri
psont
hef
loorwi
thhi
spant
s
comingoff,
everyonet
urnsthei
rat
tent
iont
ohim.
Andil
eandIuset hi
sopport
unit
ytosneakout
,he
grabstheduff
elbag.

Ayanda:"
Okayt
hecodei
s**
**"

Iopenthebaghepunchesi
nthecodet
hedoor
opens.

Me:Whyi
sitsodar
kinher
e

Ayanda:"
Youhavet
odot
hisi
nthedar
k"

Andi
le:WhatIt
houghtyouguyswer
ethebestwhat
i
sallthi
snow

Ayanda:"
Onyourr
ightt
her
e'sal
it
tl
e"
Hepoi
ntsagunatmewhyi
sher
ushi
ng.

Andi
le:Opent
hisdamnvol
tbef
oreIpopyourbr
ains
out

Il
augh,Iwantedhi
mt osweatal
it
tl
eanywaysI
haveimport
antthi
ngstodo.Het
wistt
helockand
opensthevol
t.

Andil
e:Nxiangazinomanichathingineskhat
hi
sokudl
alawenainside.Khi
phakonkeuf ake
eskhwameni(Idon'tknowifyouthinkIhavet i
me
forgames.Youinsideputever
ythinginthebags)

Hestandsbyt
hedoorankl
escr
ossedpoi
nti
ngt
he
gunatme.

Andi
le
Idi
dn'
tthi
nkever
yonewasgoi
ngt
opul
litof
f.
Mzwakheandhi st
eam werebeingalloverthepl
ace,
butwedi dandgotawaywi thit
.Thediamondswer e
l
aidoutont hetabl
e,Ivangrabsaloupe.Helooksat
met hanthediamond, hel
ooksatmeagai n.Hethan
putsitdownandpul l
souttwoguns.Thobaniand
Ndumi soareri
ghttherewit
hhim.

Ivan:Okaywhatbul
lshi
tist
hisar
eyout
ryi
ngt
ori
p
usof f

Me:Mzwakhewhati
sgoi
ngon

Mzwakhe:Whydi
dyouputouthi
tsonThobaniand
Ndumiso

Me:Ical
ledi
tof
ftheyhadnobusi
nesshel
pingyou
t
akemedown

Mzwakhe:Younotagoodper
son,
youdi
dthesame
t
hingwi
thMpi
lo.Yout
hrewhi
m undert
hebusand
l
ethimr
oti
njail

Hehi
tst
het
abl
eitf
li
psover
,theyshi
nebr
ight
.

Mzwakhe:Ineverwanttoseeyourfaceeveragain.
Stayawayf r
om myfamily,
stayawayfrom Thobani
andNdumi so.Idon'
twantnostupi
dcutkeepyour
stupi
ddiamonds

Me:Mzwakhe

Mzwakhe:It
houghtwegoodbutyouj
usthadt
o
t
akei
tthere

Theyl
eave.

I
van:It
oldyouIt
oldyousomebat
tl
eswechoose
Me:Ohshutup

Phi
ndi
le
Iwonderwhati
sgoi
ngon.Whyi
sJamest
aki
ngme
tot
hehood.

Me:Magebangempel
angekeungi
tshel
eukut
h
kwenzakal
an(
Jamesyouwon'
ttel
lmewherewe
goi
ng)

James:Angazinaminkosazaneindodayakhoivel
e
yangibokel
angafi
saukukhal
a(Idon'tknow
pri
ncess,thewayyourmanshout edatme.Iwanted
tocry)

Wel
augh.
Me:Anothersur
pri
sewowMzwakhei
spul
li
ngout
al
lthest
ops

Wear r
iveatthechisanyama,hestepsoutoft
hecar
andthancomest oopenthedoorforme.Iendedup
weari
ngt hedresswithanopenbackandmyhai r
l
aidbackt i
edintoalowponytai
l.

James:Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul

Me:AwkodwaMageba

Ientert
hechisanyamather
e'sapi
anopl
ayi
ng,
on
ei
thersi
dethere'
smi r
ror
sandaredcar
petont
he
fl
oor.

Me:Jameswhe
Il
ookoverhehasdi
sappear
ed.

"
Ifoundl
ovei
nyou
AndIl
ear
nedt
olovemet
oo
NeverhaveIf
eltt
hatIcoul
d
Beal
lthatyousee"

Themi r
ror
sdisplaythefi
rstdayMzwakheandImet,
Icovermymout h.Iwalkthroughwatchi
ngever
y
momentofourl i
vestogether,t
hegoodandthebad
whatisgoingon.

"
Thi
siswhyIl
oveyou
Thi
siswhyIl
oveyou
Becauseyoul
oveme"

Theli
ghtshines.Ther
eheisst
andi
ngwear
ingasuit
,
thel
ightshi
nesont heper
sonsi
ngi
ngandplayi
ng
t
hepi
anoHai
boSakhi
le,
hecansi
ng.

Sakhil
e:"
Thest
arshaveallal
ignedandri
ghtnowis
theperf
ectt
imetosayIloveyou,Il
oveyou,Il
ove
you.Il
oveyou,
IloveyouIdo"

Hehit
sahighnot
eMzwakhet
urnsar
oundand
l
ooksathi
m.

Sakhi
le:"
Ifoundl
ovei
nyou"

Hegoesdownoneknee,
Ist
aggerhol
dingmychest
.

Sakhi
le:"
Andnoot
herl
ovewi
lldo"

Mzwakhe:IknowIhaven'
tbeent heperfectman,I
al
lowedmyselfl
osethebestthingthatsever
happenedt
ome.Iwantt oapologizeformaking
fal
sepr omises,nottreati
ngyouwel l.Iam not
perfectbutIam bet t
erwithyou.AllIcanhopei s
thatonedayyouf orgivemeandf i
ndi tinyourhear
t
body, mindandsoult oacceptmef orIam nobody
withoutyou.Wi t
ht hatsaidi
nfrontofeveryone,
Phindil
emakaZakhel e.NkosazaneyakwaBhengu
celaungenzei ndodaemododeni

Me:Yes.
..YesIwi
llmar
ryyou

Hesli
destheri
ngin,heget
sup.Wekiss,t
heli
ght
s
comeon.Iseemyf amil
ybehindt
hemirr
ors,
I
scr
eam showi
ngthem myring.

Sakhi
le:"
That
'swhyIl
oveyou"
[
06/
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15:
34] :247

Fi
nal
e
Mzwakhe
Aslongasshei shappymyl if
eiscont ent.Iam on
cl
oudni ne,ever
ywheresheturnedshef lashedher
ri
ngandt hatbroughtmelot
sofj oy.Iwentt ogo
checkonNt hati
,sheopensthedoorf ormeand
smiles.

Me:Hey

Nt
hat
i:Congr
atul
ati
ons

Me:Thankyou,
youokay

Nt
hat
i:Iam f
abul
oushoney

Me:I
sthi
sgoi
ngt
ocausef
ight
s

Nt
hat
i:Doyouwanti
tto
Me:Okayfrom nowIshal
ldori
ghtbythebothof
you.Iam f
arfr
om bei
ngperf
ect,butwi
thyoutwo
bymysideIam complete

Nthati
:Therewil
lbesomebi cker
inghereandther
e,
wejustneedt oberespect
fulandacknowledgewho
sheis.Icanthequesti
oniscanyou

Me:OkayNt
hat
i

Shel
aughs.

Phi
ndi
le
Iwasenjoyingmyengagementt otheMzwakhe
Bhengu,abastardthatdoesn'tgiveadamn.He
doeshaveahear t,
hedoescar esforsomeoneonl
y
onhistermsandcondi t
ions.Idon' tcar
eabout
othert
hingsallt
hatmat t
ersist hatheisst
eppi
ng,
si
nceNt
hat
icamehehasbeenagoodboy.

Alt
houghIwasf eeli
ngver yover
whelmedand
anxious,
somet hingaboutt hi
sparti
cul
ardaywas
verywrong.Icallmybr other,
Iam veryappr
eci
ati
ve
hewasabl etowi tnessmypr oposal
,maybethi
swill
makehi m changehi smindaboutMzwakhe.

Mxol
isi
:Gci
no

Icovermyf
acewi
thmyl
efthand,
hel
aughs.

Me:Bhut
iwam

Mxol
isi
:Congr
atul
ati
ons

Me:Thankyouli
kemanhecamethr
ough,
whati
s
t
hewayf or
wardnowdoIcomebackhome
Mxol
isi
:Alr
eadyyouhiswifewhenyougavebi
rt
h
hedi
dn'twast
eanyti
me,theycameandpaid
damagesandlobol
a

Me:What

Mxol
isi
:Yeahal
lthat
slef
tist
hegi
ft
ingcer
emony
andweddi
ng

Me:WowokayIam goi
ngt
ocomei
nacoupl
eof
days

Mxol
isi
:Okaygci
no

Me:Iwonderwhot
hati
s

Mxol
isi
:Bye
MzwakheandNt hat
icomet hrough,t
heybreakfr
ee
oncetheyseeme.Ichuckle,Iseesomethi
ng
gl
owingonhischest.Igetupandf ol
lowhi
m, Ipush
Nthat
ioutofthewayandpul li
tout.

Mzwakhe:Awmama

Iheadouttheweat herchanges, bef

oreIcanr each
outaheavyobjectbangsmef rom behind.If all
downlett
inggooft hesmal l
spear ,Pearlgrabsi t
andsti
cksitri
ghtthroughmyst omach.Mybody
getsacoldshi
verandaches, sheholdst hespear
upitbur
nsandt urnsintoashno.

Mzwakhe
Ast
rongforcecameandbl
ewusaway,
itt
akesa
whi
lecol
lect
ingmystr
engt
h.
Me:Pear
l

Pear
l:Ohheymyl
ove

Me:What
..
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng

Pear
l:WhatIshoul
dhavedoneal
ongt
imeago
don'
tworr
yitwon'tbepai
nful

Me:Phi
ndi
lewakeup

Shel
ooksatmest
ruggl
ingt
obr
eat
he.

Me:Phi
ndi
ledon'
tcl
oseyoureyes

Shest
ruggl
esandst
ruggl
es.
Me:NkosazanevukaPhakamaniboBhengu
i
nkosazaneisi
fi
kil
e

Mybodylevi
tat
eandcomesbacksmashi
ngdown
ont
hetable.

Pearl
:Shewasnevermeantt
obef ound,Iwas
supposedt
of i
ndMambaandr ul
e.Butshe
i
mmer sedherugl
ysel
fwaydeep

Wekeeptheeyecont
act
,shetr
ieshol
dingonbut
shegaspandst
opsmoving.

Phi
ndi
le
Shesentmyspi r
itstr
aighttothedarkunder
wor l
d.I
am sur
roundedbyt hecreatur
es,Ihavetodefeat
andsomeshecr eated.Ifi
tsabattl
etheywanta
bat
tlet
heyshallget.
Voi
ce:Ohnoboyst
hisonei
smi
ne

Me:I
fyougoi
ngt
odef
eatmeyouhavet
ogetoutof
t
hatbody

Pearl
:Noyout
hinkIam goi
ngt
ofal
lforyourst
upi
d
tr
ick

Me:Okay

Iraisemyhandoneofthecreat
uregear
supto
attackme,
shelooksati
t.I
tstandsdownohnoit
doesnotworkli
kethat
.

Pear
l:Okay

Whatevert
hatisinsi
deofherext
ract
sitsel
foutof
herbody,i
tfal
lsdown.Il
ookatherthanthe
cr
eat
ure,
that
snotacr
eat
urei
tsaman.

Him:Anymorethant
his,
Imi
ghtnotl
etyoul
ivet
o
seethenextday

Howcanahumanpossesanot herhumanorthi
s
creat
ureappearst
obehuman.Hedisappear
sand
appearsi
nfrontofmet
humpingmyhead.

Hi
m:Comepr
incessshowmewhatyougot

Thathur
t.

Sakhi
le
Mzwakhewashuggi ngalif
elessPhindi
lecr
ying,
I
don'tknowwhathappened.AllIsawwaseveryone
fl
yingeverywher
e.
Mzwakhe:Mamavuka

Hewasbr
eaki
ngmyhear
tandwedi
dn'
tknowhow
t
ohel
p.

Me:Si
zwewhati
sgoi
ngon

Si
zwe:Todayi
sthedayourpr
incesssur
vivesornot

Me:Whathowcanwehel
p

Thabiso:Ubuzaumuntowr ongakazenjeamsi
ze
uPhindil
elo(Youaskingt
hewr ongperson,
hehas
neverhelpedPhindi
le)

Thapel
o:Si
zwecanwegethert
othehospi
tal

Si
zwe:Howi
sthatgoi
ngt
ohel
phersi
tuat
ion,
the
l
ongershe'sstucki
nthei
r.Themoreherli
fe
deter
ior
ates,
shewon'thavethest
rengt
htocome
back

Thapel
o:Atl
eastifshe'
sinahospit
al,
thewest
ern
si
decanhelpgiveherthest
rengt
hsheneeds

Thabi
so:Thapsjustdowhatyouhavet
odoand
st
opaskinghim

Thapel
o:I
tsnotthathecan'
t,yeshecan'
thowever
i
fshegetsassi
stancefr
om them.Weatriskof
l
osingher

Sizwe:Nextt
imegetyourfactsst
rai
ghtbef
oreyou
openyourbigmouth,st
artthecar
s

Me:HeyPhi
ndil
ewouldn'
twantusfight
ing,
weneed
t
oholdi
ngeachother
'shandsr
ightnow
Phi
ndi
le
IwasloosingandIdidn'thavet
hestrengtht
ocarry
on,Icrawlaway.Shekicksme,Ifal
ldown.Ipick
myselfupandcr awlaway,hedidn'
tfeel
comfortabl
ebattl
ingmesohewentbackt oPearl
's
body.

Pear
l:Yougi
vingupal
readyj
ustwhenwehavi
ng
wefun

Shegr
absmeandt
urnsmear
ound.

Pear
l:Ti
met
ofi
nishyou

Shebecomeshal fbeasthalfhuman,herfi
ngernails
tur
nintosharpnail
s.Shelaughs,Iusethelit
tl
ebit
ofstr
engthIhaveandl odgethespearstr
aightint
o
herglowi
ngheart.Shechangesbackt oherhuman
sel
fandf
all
sbackdown.

Sakhi
le
Shewasbr eathi
ngatleastt
hatswhatthedoctor
s
say.Mzwakhedi dn'
twanttoleavehersi
de,
weal so
optedtost
ayshecan' tdi
ewhatwi l
lwebewithout
her.Ourmommy, t
hewomanwhocamewhenwe
l
eastexpectedit
.

Phi
ndi
le
Iopenmyeyesandgaspwher
eam I
,am Idead.
Fourfi
gur
esst
andbefor
eoneoft
hem hel
psmeup.

Him:Wel
comenkosazaneIam ki
ngBhengut
he4t
h
nextt
omearepr
eviouskings

King1:Thejour
neyendsher
eyouhavefoughtwi
th
greatcour
ageandhonor.Al
eaderwor
thyofour
power
King4:Ididn'treal
izet
heamountofdamagemy
princesshadcaused.Myf el
lowkingswantedt o
destroyeverythi
ng,butyoucamealongandt hey
steppedback.Whatmypr i
ncessdidn'
tknowwe
wer ebornsnakes,Imayhavemadeami stakein
chasingherout

Abi
gmi
stakeyourhi
ghness.

King1:Youhavesacr
if
icedyourl
ife,wehavebeen
watchi
ngyouforaverylongl
ongtime.Thepower
ofMambacannotbef ound,i
tisearned

King4:Ret
urnnowtakebackyourl
if
e,t
akeback
yourpower
.Foriti
sandhasalwaysbeenyour
desti
ny

Whydoesitfeell
iket
hisisnotagoodbye,butawe
shal
lmeetagainsoon.Idon'
tthi
nk,Iwanttoret
urn.
Mzwakhe
Thel
inegoesst
rai
ghtandt
hemachi
nebeeps.

Me:Phi
ndi
lePhi
ndi
lePhi
ndi
le

Theyholdmebacknoshecannotl
eaveme.Iam
cr
ying,
Idon'
tunder
standwhyt
heyholdi
ngme.

Me:Phi
ndi
leyoucan'
tleavememybabi
es

Phamandl
afeel
sherneck.

Me:NoPhi
ndi
lel
etmego

Phamandl
a:Ti
meofdeat
h
Me:NoPhindi
lewakeup,
Phamandl
adosomet
hing
That
o.Phi
ndil
ewakeup

Sakhi
le:Mzwakhe

Me:NoPhi
ndi
lepl
easedon'
tdot
hist
ome,
Phi
ndi
le

Ihol
dherhandandcr
y.

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Thabi
so:Bhut
i

Me:Phi
ndi
le

Themachi
nest
art
sbeepi
ng,
shesqueezemyhand.
Me:Mama

Phi
ndi
le:I
'
m pr
egnant

What
.

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