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Confessions of A Xhosa Girl
Confessions of A Xhosa Girl
Confessions of A Xhosa Girl
Every night I started having dreams about the city. I never been there but I feel like I’ve been
there because of my dreams. I also had a chat with Karabo in my dream, that made me more
excited. Maybe my ancestors are trying to tell me something. Maybe if I go to the city I will be an
actress and be famous.
I noticed something very strange, for the past two days the same car came to visit my parents.
Everytime the car came, I was sitting under the tree with Linda and my friends. It was a white
car with black windows, I don’t know the car’s name but it was a nice car.
I wonder what’s going on?
The more I think about the city, the more I want to leave this place.
That Friday evening the same car came to visit my parents. This time my father went out.
What’s going on? Maybe my parents were negotiating about the baby? Who knows? After my
father finished talking with the man in the car they came inside. The man was accompanied by a
young man. They introduced themselves, the man was Patrick and the young man was Mvuyisi.
Apparently Patrick was a servant who served Mvuyisi’s family. Mvuyisi was a prince from
another village. They invited me to a maiden ceremony. The prince was going to choose his
princess, all virgins were invited to dance for the royal family.
They told me my parents already gave them permission to send me to virginity testers. The old
women test if girls are really virgins. They told me it was part of the maiden ceremony process.
My parents were smiling. My dad said, “Look at this prince, he is handsome. He’s looking for a
girl to steal his heart”. I looked at the prince, yes he’s handsome but I don’t want to get married.
“I would love to see you there Nosipho”, said the prince. I faked a smile. What am I going to do?
I can’t go to this maiden ceremony, I have to leave on Sunday. I didn’t talk for a while. “What’s
wrong? Do you know how many girls would love to marry the prince? You should be honored to
be invited. A no would be an insult”, said Patrick the servant. I couldn’t say no, I just couldn’t. I
told them I am happy to be one of the chosen girls. My parents rejoiced as if the prince asked
me to marry him.
They told me the virginity test will take place on Sunday at 05:30am. A taxi will fetch me and the
other girls so I must be ready at 04:30am. I was angry but I didn’t want to show my anger, I
faked a smile and said, “Okay”. Patrick went to the car and came back with a traditional attire for
me to wear on Sunday. “If you pass the virginity test we will give you a white traditional attire to
wear to the maiden ceremony. The white represents purity”, said Patrick. I kept nodding to
everything they said. Patrick and the prince left, my parents couldn’t stop talking about the
“respectful humble young man”.
I couldn’t sleep, I kept thinking about the maiden ceremony and the city. I knew for sure It’s the
city over the maiden ceremony. Linda told me beautiful things about the city, she never
mentioned the evil spirit or the devil possessing people to do bad things like the pastor said. My
main reason to not want to be at that maiden ceremony is not because I’m not a virgin, oops!
My parents think I’m a virgin, I lost my virginity a year ago. I was curious, I wanted to feel what
it’s like to have sex. I only had sex only once. I have to find a way out of this problem.
Shit!
**********
I woke up feeling good, it was a sunny Saturday. I sang as I was sweeping the ground. I saw
Linda smiling as she was coming towards me. “You woke up on the good side of the bed”, she
said. I told her I can’t wait for tomorrow. “You told your parents?” she asked. I quickly checked if
someone was behind me, I saw my younger brother. He greeted at Linda and left. I said softly,
“No”. She was confused, “You’re a naughty girl”, she whispered.
After I was done sweeping, we went to Melusi’s house where Linda was a guest. I told her about
the virginity test and the maiden ceremony, she laughed it off. I didn’t find that funny! She told
me to be strong and that she’ll tell me when her boyfriend sent the money. I told her about my
plan. “The virginity test will be at 05:30am, I am going to escape and come here. I know my
parents will go to church so I will sneak in the house, pack my bags and leave with you.
Unfortunately, your boyfriend hasn’t sent the money so…I don’t know”, I told her. Linda looked
at me like I was crazy, “You should really be an actress”, she said laughing. I smiled, at least
she sees potential.
I spent my Saturday afternoon with Linda. My friends were not talk to me, they didn’t greet me
when they saw me. When I greeted them they didn’t really answer me. I’m sure they’re angry at
me for spending more time with Linda. I don’t blame them.
Linda got a message from her boyfriend, she told me her boyfriend sent her money. Finally my
plan will come to life. My mom kept calling me because she wanted me to get ready for
tomorrow.
When my family was having supper, my mom kept talking about the virginity test. “Tomorrow I’m
not going to church, I’m leaving with Nosipho at 5:30am”, she said. What? No! She can’t leave
with me. My plan is ruined, what am I going to do? I went to sleep with a broken heart.
I was sleeping when my mom woke me up at 4am. I turned on the kettle. There’s been
electricity in my village for 2 years now, I’m thankful for electricity or as many villagers call it,
“electric”. I quickly took a bath. I wore the traditional attire, after I was done I faked a stomach
ache. “Ouch!” I screamed. My mom came running, “Nosipho? Nosipho what’s wrong?” she
asked. I told her I had a stomach ache, she said maybe I was nervous. Really? She ran to her
bedroom and came back with a panado pill. That’s the only cure for every illness, panado.
I took the pill and swallowed it with water. The taxi came at 5:30am and my mom came with me.
The girls in the taxi started singing traditional songs. It was dark outside, not having street lights
made it even darker.
*sigh*
**********
When the taxi arrived at the venue, many taxis were already there. I’ve never been to this
village, it had a sign written in bold capital letters “WELCOME TO KWA XHOSA CULTURAL
VILLAGE”. The huts were very colourful, there was only one bricked house. The bricked house
had patterns painted on it, there were flowers planted on the side. The village had lamps, it
wasn’t that dark.
We were all wearing the same traditional attire. There were many girls. The old women of the
village told us about the process. They told us how they can see if the girl is not a virgin. I was
so nervous. I met a girl by the name of Nontobeko. She was from Mthatha and she was 20
years old. We talked for a few minutes, she told me she once worked in Johannesburg. “I
worked there for a year. Johannesburg is a good place for hustlers, but I prefer Durban”, she
said. I asked her what she meant, before she explained further my mom grabbed my arm and
said, “Come, you should stand in the front row”. I waved at Nontobeko, and left with my mom.
I was so scared, my mom gave me less time to react. I was part of the first group, I don’t think
my plan will work. I never knew the distance between this place and my home was this far.
When I was standing in the queue my heart was beating fast. I didn’t want to speak to anyone
but this girl kept talking to me. I wasn’t in the mood, I answered her by nodding or shaking my
head.
So far all the girls that came out of the hut passed the virginity test. Now it was my turn. I was
shaking, I entered the hut. The old women were not that old, maybe they were my mom’s age or
younger. There were three women in the hut. They introduced themselves, one was MaDlamini,
the other Mam’Vundla and Mam’Gcirha. Mam’Vundla told me not to be afraid, they wouldn’t
take long. There were blankets on the floor, I was looking around for blood but I didn’t find it.
“Lay on your back and open your legs. Don’t forget to take off your panties, love”, Mam’Gcirha
said. The other two women were busy doing something else.
I did what Mam’Gcirha told me to do, Mam’Vundla kicked my panties. Mam’Gcirha went down
on her knees. I was looking at the ceiling, praying to myself. Mam’Gcirha called the other
women. I knew it! I knew it! Mam’Gcirha told me to sit up. I sat up and the women were talking
amongst each other in the corner. Mam’Vundla went out, oh no! Maybe she was going to tell my
mother I wasn’t a virgin. “Have you had sex before young lady?” asked Mam’Gcirha.
“No, I have never had sex in my life”, I lied.
“Why are you not tight?” asked Mam’Gcirha.
Oh no! I had to lie, fast!
“I was riding my brother’s bicycle and I injured myself”, I lied again. I was sweating.
Mam’Vundla came in, she was alone. Thanks God!
“That explains it! Bicycles are not for girls, the injury broke your virginity. What counts is the fact
that you never had sex. Technically you are a virgin”, said Mam’Gcirha.
I was so happy. I stood up, wore my panties and hugged the women.
I went out and my mom was waiting for me, she was so proud of me. We left.
When we got home my dad and my brother were getting ready for church. The time was
7:30am. My mom kept telling my dad how ugly the girls were and that they don’t stand a chance
with her baby girl. My mom changed her mind, she was going to church. I was so happy. She
asked if I was going, I told her I was tired and she understood. My family went to church, as
soon as they left I went to Linda. I met my friends when I was going to Linda. “I’m not going to
church today”, I told them. They didn’t say a word, they just left.
Linda already packed her bags, she told me I must get ready. I was so excited, I went home and
packed my clothes. I don’t have many clothes, there wasn’t much to pack anyway. I wrote a
letter to my parents:
Nosipho.
I quickly locked the door and placed the keys under a stone. I then left with Linda.
My life is about to get better!
**********
When we arrived in our small town, we took a taxi to Johannesburg.
The road to Johannesburg was long and tiring. I kept Asking Linda how far are we from
Johannesburg and she kept saying “very far”. The taxi stopped at a few petrol garages and we
would go pee or buy something to eat. I was so excited, finally I was going to the city. I didn’t
miss my family nor did I miss my friends.
Linda fell asleep, I couldn’t because of the excitement. We arrived in Johannesburg at 9am. The
taxi rank was full of taxis, the taxis were hundred times more than the taxis back at home. My
brother can work here, I’m sure these people earn a lot of money compared to the peanuts he
makes back home. I’ve never seen many people in my life. They were moving around, other
people were rushing to work.
Linda called her boyfriend, she kept saying, “Oh, voicemail”. I don’t care if it was mutemail or
singingmail, I was too excited to finally be in the city. After trying a few times, Linda finally talked
to her boyfriend. We waited next to a tiny tree. A guy selling earrings and pantyhose came to us.
“Beautiful earrings my sister, gold the real mcCoy just R50”, he advertised. We didn’t answer
him, he just went away mumbling.
A tall guy came out of a big car. He came towards us, I saw Linda smiling. The man had two
wrist watches, each wrist had a watch. I thought to myself, hayi uyayibagxa (he’s over doing it).
Linda and this guy hugged each other. “Introduce me to your friend”, he said in a funny accent.
“Oh, this is Nosipho the girl I’ve been telling you about”, said Linda. The man reached out his
hand for a hand shake, he had rings in every finger. I shook his hand, he looked deep in my
eyes and said, “I’ve heard a lot about you”, he said in his deep voice. People from the movies
always respond with, “I hope good things only”. I smiled shyly. He carried our bags to the car.
Wow, the car smelled good.
When we were driving to Linda’s house we passed beautiful houses. Maybe one day I’ll buy one
of these houses. I was so excited. Linda’s boyfriend, Raymond said he likes my excitement.
We finally arrived in Linda’s house. It was so big and beautiful, it was like those houses on
Generations. Her house was huge, I know I’ll get lost everyday. I saw Linda’s 2 year old son,
Stephen, he was cute. Linda had a babysitter, the woman was a bit old. Linda showed me my
room, it was lovely. Finally I had my own room, I was excited. Raymond left.
I can’t wait to chase my dreams in the city!
**********
The city was just like I saw on tv, it was big and beautiful. Linda told me a bit more about her
boyfriend. He was born in Kinshasa, Congo. His father was a wealthy man who owned several
shops around Kinshasa. His mother was a teacher who later became a head mistress. When he
was 20, he got his trust fund money that his father kept since he was a baby. His father passed
away five years ago. He moved to South Africa and started his empire. He has a sneakers, t-
shirts and caps boutique in Sandton. He also has three other clothing shops, one in the
Johannesburg CBD, other in Pretoria and Durban. He has a strip club in Hillbrow, apparently the
club makes around R100 000 a week.
Wow! Her boyfriend is a wealthy man, no wonder she lives in a big beautiful house. Linda also
has a beautiful pink lambo- something car. Life is definitely good for herself, her son and family.
“Today we’re going out. You’re in need of a serious wardrobe makeover”, said Linda. I was so
excited. Linda left her son with Gogo, the babysitter. We went to the mall. Wow, the mall was so
beautiful, many people were walking around. We entered a clothing store and Linda helped me
pick some clothes. At last, I was going to wear pants without people criticising me. The were a
lot, I’ve never bought so much clothes in my life. I was worried, I asked Linda how she was
going to pay for everything. She laughed and just took out a card. “Ever seen or heard of a
credit card”, said Linda. The lady who was behind the counter laughed. That was embarrassing,
I know I’m from the rural areas but I went to school and I’m not that stupid. Linda paid using the
credit. We left the clothing store and we went to a shoe store. The shoes looked amazing, these
shoes are like those shoes Karabo wear on Generations.
I picked a few pair of shoes. I tried walking in high heels but it was a bit difficult for me. Linda
bought me high heels even though I couldn’t walk in them. “You’ll learn my dear”, said Linda.
She paid for everything and we went to a cellular shop. She bought me a new cellphone, it was
a Nokia Express. I really appreciate her more.
We ate at Hungry Lion, damn those people take long.
We went home and I couldn’t wait to wear my clothes.
Life is about to get better.
We went to the nearest shop. Raymond bought me Eno and a bottle of water. I drank the Eno in
his car, within a few minutes I felt much better. “Let’s go buy some ice-cream”, said Raymond. I
couldn’t say no, I know he wouldn’t take no as an answer. We went to buy some ice-creams,
Raymond is a loving guy.
When we came back, Linda, her son and Gogo were already back from the mall.
I’m starting to find my feet. I’m the next big thing.
**********
Linda changed, she’s not the same person I met in the village or the person who bought me
clothes two months ago. Maybe I thought I knew her but I didn’t. Sometimes she leaves the
house without telling me where she’s going. I don’t know if maybe I did something to offend her.
One day Linda was out of the house. Gogo was playing with Stephen. I was reading a magazine
when someone opened my bedroom door. Oh, it was Raymond.
“Surprise!” he shouted.
I just laughed at him. “Linda is not home”, I told him.
“I’m not here to see Linda, I’m here to see you”
“Oh…”
“It’s Adelphe’s birthday today. We’re doing a surprise party for him. It’s all happening in the club
and you’re invited”
“Thank you, I didn’t know”
“Didn’t Linda tell you?”
“No, she doesn’t say much these days”
“That’s strange. But now you know”
All this time Raymond was talking with his hands behind him like he was hiding something.
“What’s that you have behind you?” I asked him.
“This is for you”, he said handing me a rectangular box.
“Thank you”, I said. I opened the box and it was a necklace.
“Wow Raymond! This is beautiful”, I said excitedly.
“I saw this necklace and it instantly reminded me of you. You’ve been a good friend to me and
Linda”
“It’s good to hear. Thank you”
“Uh- look, I have to go now”
“Okay, bye”
“Bye, see you later tonight”
“Wait – do I have to buy Adelphe anything? Like, a present?”
“No, no, no. Just come with your…pretty self and don’t breath a word to Adelphe”
“I promise I won’t”
“Good. Bye!”
“Go well”
Linda didn’t tell me about Adelphe’s surprise party. Maybe she forgot.
I took out what I’m going to wear tonight. I took out my black freakum dress. I was going to wear
my new necklace, it really matched with my shoes.
It’s going to be a GREAT night!
**********
When Linda came back she still didn’t tell me about the party. She later went out, when I looked
outside her car was gone. Maybe she went to the party. I sent Raymond a BBM, I asked him to
please pick me up and he replied, “Uche will fetch you”.
I wore my stunning outfit and minutes later, Uche came to fetch me. We drove to Raymond’s
strip club, Phoenix. The strip club was packed. I swear, Linda was surprised to see me. Foxy
was excited to see me, Linda watched at a distance.
“What’s up with your bestie?” asked Foxy.
“She’s been acting strange. I don’t know”, I replied.
“Look at her, she’s staring at us. Her evil eyes are piercing. She’s a devil, look at her”, said
Foxy.
“Don’t mind her”, I told her.
Raymond came to us, he asked if everything was fine and we told him not to worry. “Can I talk
to Nosi in private?” he asked, Foxy left.
“Uhm…you look wow, beautiful”, he said.
I was blushing.
“The necklace looks beautiful on you”, he said.
I was turning red everytime he gave me a compliment.
“Let me go check on Linda”, said Raymond.
Foxy came back. She told me she watched me and “Papa Ray” from a distance. “You guys like
each other”, she said. Me? And Raymond? No, I can’t like Raymond, I mean I don’t like him.
Finally, Adelphe was on the way. Everyone was hiding.
When Adelphe opened the door, we all screamed, “SURPRISE!!!” We nearly gave the poor guy
a heart attack. “Happy birthday my brother”, said Raymond hugging his friend. We sang
Adelphe the, “happy birthday song”.
After a few minutes, drinks were flowing. Foxy was on duty that night, she gave Adelphe a sexy
lap dance. People were cheering, they chanted, “TAKE IT OFF!!!” Adelphe took his shirt off but
people kept chanting, “TAKE IT OFF!!!” Foxy went down on her knees and she unzipped
Adelphe’s pants and she tried to take off Adelphe’s pants but he didn’t want.
The party was fun. I engaged in an interesting conversation with Rashidi, one of Raymond’s
close friends. Rashidi is a very gentle guy, he’s not loud. He is also cute. “Will Raymond kill me
when I take you out?” he asked.
I laughed out loud.
“What’s up with people thinking me and Raymond are something more than friends?” I asked
him.
“He’s very protective over you. You tell me, what’s up?”
“Raymond is my friend’s boyfriend. So he’s also my friend”
“Ok. So? Can I take you out?”
“Why?”
“Because I want to”
“That’s it?”
“Yeah. And maybe I, you know, kinda like you”
“You like me?”
“Isn’t that obvious?”
“Maybe”
“I know you also have a thing for me”
“You think so, right?”
“No, I know so”
“Hmm…ok”
“So? Can I?”
“Yeah”
“Tomorrow at 1pm. Okay?”
“Okay”
“I’ll fetch you”
We partied the night away, I didn’t drink alcohol because I don’t mess with alcohol. Rashidi took
me home, he’s a nice guy.
Tomorrow is a new day for new opportunities!
**********
I woke up feeling good. I was looking forward to my day out with Rashidi. I spent the morning
grooming myself. Linda walked in just as I was trying to pick an outfit to wear. “Going
somewhere?” she asked.
“Uhm… Yes. I’m going out”, I replied. She crossed her arms. “Who are you going out with?” she
asked. Wow.
“Rashidi”, I answered.
“Oh? You like Rashidi?” she asked with a smile.
“Maybe, I don’t know”
“Rashidi is a cool guy”
“I know”
“Let me leave you, enjoy your date”
Linda walked out. She was acting strange.
Anyway, Rashidi came to pick me up. On our way to the restaurant, Rashidi kept imitating
Raymond, that was hilarious. He’s good at imitating people. We had a good laugh.
When we arrived at the restaurant, Rashidi pulled out a chair for me. That was so kind of him.
He told me more about himself. He was born in Dar Es Salaam in Tanzania. He has three
siblings. Just like me, he’s the second born. His father divorced his mom when he was 10 years
old. I also told him more about myself. I told him my dream of being an actress and he said he
knew a friend who knew an agent. He told me he’s going to set me up. I was so excited to hear
that.
Rashidi couldn’t stop complimenting me. I was blushing everytime he threw a compliment.
Finally, we ate. The food was to die for.
Rashidi took me home. I had a great time with him. We never kissed, not that I’m complaining.
I can’t wait to tackle my dreams!
***********
One day later.
I was watching tv with Linda when we heard a loud aggressive knock on the door. Linda asked
who it was. “It’s me!”, shouted Raymond. She opened the door.
Raymond was angry, Linda was worried. “What’s wrong babe?” asked a worried Linda.
“Nothing”, said Raymond.
I knew something was up, he was lying. He sat next to Linda. “Get me something to drink Nosi”,
ordered Raymond. What’s wrong with this man? Does he not know how to say, “please”. I got
Raymond something to drink, he didn’t even say thank you. Something was definitely up.
There was silence. Everyone was watching tv, Linda broke the silence. “Nosipho tell Raymond
how Rashidi imitated him”, said Linda. I could see how Raymond was not in the mood. “Maybe
next time”, I said. “You guys were making a fool out of me?” asked an annoying Raymond. I
mean, what’s wrong with this man?
“No, we were just fooling around”, I said.
“Relax babe”, said Linda.
“Don’t tell me what to fucking do”, said an irritated Raymond.
“What’s wrong with you? First you knocked like a mad man, now you taking shit too personal.
What’s wrong with you?” asked Linda who was fed up.
“I can knock anyhow I like, this is my house!” shouted Raymond.
Linda looked at me and shook her head. I don’t know what was wrong with him. That’s it! Maybe
he didn’t like the fact that I went out with Rashidi. I was starting to become more and more
irritated with Raymond. I felt like shouting or screaming.
Raymond left with Linda. Good riddance.
I spent the whole day in my bedroom chatting with Rashidi via BBM. I heard Linda entering the
house. I then got a BBM from Raymond. It read:
“Hey Nosi. I apologise for being a jerk earlier. When Rashidi told me he took you out on a date I
was a bit jealous. I want you all to myself, I like you Nosi. I know you feel the same too”
I was confused. I knew Raymond liked me. He sent me a second BBM, it read:
“Can you come over tonight at my place? I need some company :)”
This man was serious. I won’t lie, I also like him. I replied, “I can’t wait”.
I lied to Linda and said I’m going to sleep at Foxy’s place.
I’ve turned to quite a bad girl these days!
I packed a few clothes and I took a taxi to Raymond’s house. Raymond’s house is like a castle,
well, I wouldn’t mind being the queen.
Ever since I’ve moved to the city, I’ve learned more things about myself. The fact that I know
many men are chasing my tail makes me powerful in a way. I like the attention, I’m sure Linda
withdrew herself from me because she is threaten by me. I can actually see what Foxy told me.
Raymond opened the door, he was wearing a white gown. When I entered the house, I saw two
ladies wearing the same uniform. “This is Cleo and Anathi, they are professional masseuses”,
said Raymond. I went to the bedroom to take off my blouse and pants. Anathi massaged
Raymond while Cleo massaged me. The masseuses gave us a full body massage. It was so
relaxing.
The masseuses later left. Raymond and I had a lengthy chat. I asked Raymond about his drug
business but he doesn’t like talking about that. He told me the girls that sell their body are not
part of his business. I told him I want to be a stripper, he was surprised but he said he can
arrange that. Foxy once told me how much strippers make everyday, I need that money.
Raymond told me his relationship with Linda is very rocky. It’s been that for quite some time but
he knows how to keep things on the low. He told me I was way more better than Linda. I was
flattered. “I want you. I want you so bad you have no idea”, he said. I was speechless. We
kissed and kissed and kissed some more. I enjoyed his company, we slept in the same bed.
Nothing happened – thanks God.
I went to Linda’s house the next morning. I didn’t stay for breakfast.
I’m falling for Raymond – hard!
**********
Two days after.
Rashidi set me up with the agent guy. I quickly rushed to the coffee shop where the agent was
waiting for me. The agent was wearing a neat tuxedo. “Hey Nosipho”, he said with a deep voice.
“Hi”, I greeted back.
“I’m Katlego Sefatsi. I’m an agent and I manage stars. I also make people famous”, he said.
“I’m happy to hear that”, I said excitedly.
“I’ve heard you want to be an actress”
“Yes I do, that’s my dream”
“Your dreams are about to be a reality. I can see you already have the style, the look. You’re
first going to start at the bottom. It depends how good you are, you might be a superstar
overnight”
“Ok”
“Here’s my business card. The address is written at the back. Visit for recordings, we want to
know what we’re working with”
“No problem”
“Can you tell me when your interest in acting came about?”
“Well, me and my family liked watching Generations. I always wanted to be an actress, I want
to be rich and famous. I want to be there amongst legends”
“Nosipho, dadewam (my sister), if you want to be an actress just for the fame and money then
you doing it for the wrong reasons. You should be passionate, very passionate -”
“I am -”
“Don’t make it about that only. Do you know a fallen star?”
“No”
“Fallen stars are because of that “mina ngifuna ukwaziwa, hehe hoho(I want to be
known/famous) If you want to be a success story then I’m willing to be the person behind all of
that, you understand?”
“Yeah I do”
“Okay, if you really want to make a future for yourself – visit that address”
“I will”
“Thank you Nosipho for your time, I have a few meetings to attend. If you mind -”
“No, thank you sir”
“You can call me Katlego or KG”
“Okay, KG”
Katlego bid farewell. He really opened my eyes, maybe I should just be passionate about my
acting rather than longing to be this famous and rich actress.
Raymond sent me a BBM saying, “Meet me at Phoenix”. I went to the club. After I arrived at
club Phoenix, Rashidi arrived too. Awkward.
“Hey babe”, greeted Rashidi kissing my cheek. I hugged him.
“Did you miss me?” he asked.
“Yeah”, I lied.
“Are you free tonight?” he asked.
Oh, poor guy.
“I don’t think so”, I stuttered.
I could see in his face he was disappointed. I just felt like saying, “yes” but Raymond was
starring like a bouncer. Raymond was making me uncomfortable around Rashidi, so I went to sit
at another table with Rashidi.
“I saw the agent”, I said.
“That’s great. What did he say?” asked Rashidi. He was really enthusiastic.
“He gave me his business card. He said I can visit any day for a recording”
“I’m really happy for you. Can we toast to that?”
“Uhm…I don’t know”
Rashidi called a waiter and he ordered some drinks.
“You have no idea how much I’ve missed you. When are we going out again?” asked Rashidi
“Uh – I don’t know”
“What about tomorrow?”
“I’ll see”
“Okay, do let me know. Alright?”
“Yep”
“Raymond told the gents you want to be a stripper”
“What else does he tell the “gents” huh?”
“Guy code”
“You just revealed what he told you, so you already broke the guy code. What else does he tell
you?”
“About this girl…”
“What girl?”
“Chill. It’s just Linda”
“Only Linda?”
“And maybe that other girl… *laughs* I’m joking”
“Don’t do that!”
“I’m sorry. What’s up with you?”
“Nothing”
“Loosen up, strippers are not tense”
“I’m not a stripper”
“Strippers to be are not tense”
“Are you trying to be funny?”
“Just chill. You always laugh to my jokes. What’s up?”
The waiter came with the drinks.
“Here. Maybe this will loosen you up”, said Rashidi.
I really wasn’t in the mood. I still can’t believe Raymond told them I want to be a stripper. What
else does this guy tell them?
“Can we toast to your future and possibly our future?” asked Rashidi
Our future? Wow.
“Yeah”, I said.
“To your acting career, I know you’re going to make it and don’t forget to write your Oscar
acceptance speech. To our future, you are a beautiful lady and I would like to spend more time
with you”
“Cheers”
“Cheers”
Rashidi is full of surprises sometimes!
**********
A week later.
I’ve been having private pole dancing lessons with Vina, the queen of pole dancing. I’m quite
flexible so it was easy for me to get the moves. Now I’m a part-time stripper at Phoenix Strip
Club. I work during the evening, my shift starts at 8pm and ends at 11pm. My stripper name is
Chichi. Much have happened during the past week.
Raymond bought me a red Suzuki Alto 1.0 GL. Raymond recently employed me to be his part-
time delivery girl. He sells those inflatable children’s swimming pools, so I deliver those
inflatable swimming pools to Durban and Pretoria. Raymond’s Durban and Pretoria friends order
the inflatable swimming pools and I deliver and then they sell them.
My relationship with Raymond is great, we’ve managed to stay out of preying eyes. Rashidi is a
nice guy, we’ve been going out on a few dates. He’s been pushing for us to be a couple, I like
him but I don’t know. He’s very different compared to Raymond. He’s the total opposite.
Raymond is rough, he is smooth. Raymond is an extrovert, he’s an introvert. But they are both
cute.
The weird thing about the past week, last weekend after getting wasted for the first time in
Johannesburg, I felt weird the next morning. Maybe I had a hangover but Foxy didn’t describe it
the way I felt. If that makes sense. Linda kept asking how I felt, it’s a good thing she still cares.
Raymond also kept asking me to describe the symptoms. It was weird but I had a great time.
I parked my car at the club’s parking lot. I entered via the back door. I had a new look, I had a
blonde weave. It looked so good on me. I saw Foxy stretching, warming up for her shift. We
were going to be on duty at the same time. I joined her.
“Hey Foxy”, I greeted with a smile.
“Hey Chichi”, she responded.
We didn’t talk much. The waiter was sent to call us for our shift. People were packed, we will
make money tonight. There are foreigners who like to go to the club as a group. They buy
expensive wine and they spill the wine on the floor and they throw strippers chunks of money.
We call them, ballers.
I did my thing on the pole, music was blasting. The ballers kept putting money in my bra.
Raymond and his friends, Rashidi, Uche, Adelphe, Kevin, Kwame and Hakeem entered the
club. They sat in the VIP section. I could see them whilst I was dancing. After a few minutes I
saw some girls joining them. I saw a drunk girl sitting on Rashidi’s lap, he didn’t mind. He was
chatting with this girl, smiling and being all friendly. I was jealous. I dragged one baller who was
enjoying my show by the arm. I dragged the baller to the stage, I kept grinding on this baller. I
was trying to get Rashidi’s attention. Rashidi was too busy with the girl, I told the guy to lay on
his back then I danced on top of him. I dry humped the poor guy, the crowd reacted with an
uproar. Finally I had Rashidi’s attention, he looked really jealous. I took the baller off the stage. I
worked my magic on the pole.
People really liked me and Foxy. It was a great night. I’ve discovered my new hobby which was
getting people’s attention.
Tomorrow I had a delivery.
I enjoy the fruits of my labour!
**********
After a crazy night on the pole, I woke up to Raymond’s delivery. Linda told me Raymond
dropped these inflatable swimming pools and I had to deliver them on time. I took a quick bath. I
was so lazy, I just wanted to rest the whole day.
Raymond sent me a BBM that said: “Deliver those inflatable pools to King Pin, Ash and Martin.
Xoxo”.
King Pin lived in Hillbrow, Ash lived in Durban and Martin lived in Pretoria. I drove my car, my
first stop was in Hillbrow. King Pin owned a few taxis, I don’t understand why he sells inflatable
swimming pools.
I stepped out of my car and King Pin was sitting outside his house. “Hey”, he greeted with a
huge smile on his face.
“I’ve got a delivery for you”, I said.
“I’m happy to hear that”, he said pleasantly.
I took out ten bags of inflatable swimming pools. I grabbed a notebook and pen for King Pin to
sign.
“Thank you”, he said.
I’ve never seen someone excited for inflatable swimming pools, maybe they sell like hot dogs?
“Please sign here”, I said.
“Ok”
He signed.
“How about we go out for drinks”, he said.
“No, that’s not a good idea”, I said.
“Why? Because you don’t mix business with pleasure?” he asked
“No, I’m not in the mood”, I said. I would never go out for drinks with this fool, he looks like he
sneaked out of a rehabilitation centre and missed an AA meeting.
“What about tomorrow? Will you be in the mood?”
“What do you want from me?”
“I just want to be your friend”
“I have many friends they can fill a village”
“I want to be your best friend”
“Well, whatever your motives are…they won’t work with me”
“Whatever!”
I left for Pretoria. King Pin is a mad man.
The drive to Pretoria was nice and smooth until I saw traffic. There had been an accident on the
N2, cars were slowing down. It was frustrating, I have to rush to Durban after I deliver these
inflatable swimming pools to Martin. Finally, I broke out of the traffic. I was heading to Martin’s
restaurant, he’s always there.
When I arrived, Martin’s friend directed me to where Martin was. Martin was at his office.
“Good day sir”, I greeted.
“Good day young lady”, Martin greeted back with a smile, a sexy smile.
“I have your delivery”, I said.
“Oh, nice. I’ve been waiting”
“Sorry for being late, there was traffic”
“Why am I not surprised?”
“I forgot my notebook, let me quickly go to my car”
“Ok”
I quickly rushed to my car, took the notebook and returned to Martin’s office.
“That was quick”, said Martin.
“Please sign here”, I said.
“Ok”
Martin signed.
“Your boss also does business with King Pin?” asked Martin
“Uhm…yes but Raymond isn’t my boss. We’re just friends”, I told him.
“Scratch my back and I’ll scratch my back kinda friendship?” he asked.
Damn, this guy was asking ridiculous questions.
“I wouldn’t say that exactly”, I said.
“You know what’s funny? Last night I spoke to Ray on the phone. He assured me that his
partnership with King Pin died a year ago. Now I see this nigga King Pin on his book. What is
that called?” he asked.
“I don’t know”, I said. I was speechless.
“Do you want me to tell you what that is called? It’s called HYPOCRISY”, he said.
I was confused.
“I have to go somewhere”, I told him.
“You can go dear”, he said.
I was so lazy to drive to Durban I just lied to Raymond, I sent him a BBM saying, “I’m feeling ill, I
can’t drive to Durban”. He told me to come home and rest.
I’m starting to get a hang of JoHUSTLEburg!
**********
Two days later.
Rashidi visited me twice in a row. I know people would think that’s sweet but I need my space. I
like Rashidi, a lot but sometime I feel like we’re not in the same page.
Raymond came to visit, Linda was out.
“How’s my beautiful lady doing?” he asked. Raymond was looking good as usual.
“I’m good. How’s my handsome man doing?” I asked. At this point I had my arms around
Raymond. Gogo was out with baby Stephen. It was only me and Raymond.
“Let’s go to your room”, said Raymond.
I led him to my room. He sat on my bed and we started kissing. I didn’t even feel guilty for
having an affair with my friend’s boyfriend. I knew Raymond didn’t like me, he loved me.
We kissed for a long time, he put his hand on my thigh. He whispered sweet words, he told me
he loves me very much. The next thing he was on top of me, breathing heavily and I was
grabbing the duvet. My breasts were pressing against his sweaty chest. I could feel his warm
testicles pressing against my butt. I let out a moan. He was on top most of the time, it felt so
good.
When we were done, he quickly wore his clothes and left. He told me he was late for a meeting.
Linda came back. I acted like nothing happened. I organised an outfit to wear for my pole
dancing tonight. I was going to rock the pole together with my girl, Foxy. I’m starting to think
Chichi is my alter ego.
Tonight is going to be a good night, I’ve got a feeling!
Linda left for the club. I quickly did a few touch ups. I sent Raymond a BBM saying, “Chichi will
meet you at club Phoenix” he responded, “I can’t wait to see Chichi’s skills on the pole”. Minutes
later he changed his BBM status to, “LINDA i LUV U WITH ALL MY HEART”. I was so pissed.
When I got to the club, Rashidi and Linda was talking in a corner. Hmm…I watched at a
distance, they were giggling like school kids. I just passed them, I didn’t even greet Rashidi. I
went to the changing room, Foxy was already there. As usual, she was stretching – I joined her.
“You see that evil friend of yours? You must look out for her, she’ll snatch Rashidi away from
you”, said Foxy.
“And leave Raymond?” I asked.
“Well, maybe not but I know her too well”, said Foxy.
“Rashidi will never fall for her”
“You think so?”
“I know so!”
“Oh”
“Oh?”
“Alright”
“Rashidi loves me”
“Are you also in love with him?”
“I…I…well, you know, I kinda li- love him”
“Nosipho, I’m going to be honest with you. I don’t like what you’re doing to Rashidi. He’s
probably falling in love with you but you don’t love him. Look, he’s giving you 100% and you’re
returning him with 50% you have to choose. Is it Papa Ray or Rashidi?”
My eyes widened.
“Raymond? What do you mean Raymond or Rashidi?” I asked.
“Come on Nosipho! Don’t act a fool. I know you like Raymond! I know these things”, said Foxy.
“I don’t like Raymond that way, we’re just friends”
“I wouldn’t surprised if you guys were screwing each other”
OMG!
“What? I’m not having sex with Raymond. Really? Come on”, I protested.
“So you never had sex with him?”
“No”
“You never wished to have sex with him?”
“No”
“You don’t like him?”
“No”
“You hate Linda, right?”
“No”
“Say yes”
The club manager told us to get ready, we were going on stage in 5mins.
When we were on stage we did our thing. People were cheering, the ballers were throwing
money on us. As I was dancing, my eyes kept starring at Linda and Rashidi who seemed in their
own zone. I tried not to give a shit about the two of them. After my shift, Raymond invited the
strippers, his friends and well, Linda to a mini party upstairs. We had cocktails. I don’t remember
much but what I can remember is Linda leading me to the bathroom, saying, “You are wasted.
Just shut your eyes, Raymond is going to help you”. I remember Raymond in the bathroom, he
kept telling me, “We’re going to take you home”. My eyelids felt heavy, I couldn’t open my eyes.
I passed out. Maybe I’m weak, I don’t know but I didn’t knew having a few glasses can get me to
that zone.
I’m learning more about myself…
**********
In the morning I was vomiting. Linda helped me, she kept bringing me glasses of water. When I
stopped vomiting Linda started asking me question after question.
“How are you feeling now”, asked Linda
“I’m much better, thank you”
“Are you dizzy?”
“No, I’m fine”
“Aren’t you hallucinating?”
“No, Linda I’m fine”
“Do you feel on top of the world?”
These questions were a bit strange.
“I’m not feeling on top of the world. I’m just fine, well, I’m just hungry”
“That’s it?”
“Yes! Let me go have something to eat. Can I?”
“Don’t be silly, of course. Go have something to eat before you starve yourself to death”
I made myself some sandwiches.
In the afternoon, Raymond came to visit. He wanted to speak to me in private. I could feel
Linda’s cold stare – but I don’t give a damn. We went outside.
“Why didn’t you tell me Martin found out about King Pin?” asked Raymond.
“It’s your business, I don’t know”
“Exactly! It’s my business. Nosi, you’re suppose to tell me these things”
“I’m sorry”
“Now Martin wants to cut things between me and him. It’s really bad for the business”
“It wouldn’t be this bad if you told him that you’re still doing business with King Pin”
“Don’t even say that, don’t even say that! I know what I’m doing”
“What are you going to do?”
“He told me he won’t cut things between us on one condition”
“And what’s that?”
“You”
“Me? *laughs* what does he want from ME? He wants to take me out for, let me
guess…uhm…drinks?”
“No”
“He wants me to be his date for some event?”
“No”
“He wants me – ”
“He wants to have sex with you”
“WHAT?! What did you say? I hope you told him to voetsek!”
“Well…”
“No! Raymond, no!”
“He’s an important customer, I need him. We need him”
“No Raymond! Why can’t you look for a new customer? No!”
“Martin has been my loyal customer for years. I need him, we do”
“I don’t”
“Can’t you be open minded for just a second? You need money for your hair don’t you? What
about the car you’re driving? Where the fuck did I get that money? Money doesn’t grow on
trees, you know that. I work hard for my money and my deals”
“Raymond if you really work hard, go have sex with Martin”
“What the fuck? Are you insane? He wants you! Nobody but you!”
“I can’t”
“Why? At least think about it”
“I’m sorry, but no”
“Please”
“I don’t think so”
“Please, I’m begging you. Think about it”
“Is that all?”
“For now, yes”
“Ok”
“Will you think about it”
“I’m going inside”
I went inside. I couldn’t believe Raymond. Anyway, why does this Martin guy care much about
who Raymond sells his inflatable swimming pools to? That’s crazy and a bit childish. Raymond
went inside, kissed Linda goodbye and he left.
Rashidi sent me a BBM saying: “Can we meet in THAT restaurant?” I replied, “Yes”. I needed to
go out, just to cool my mind. I just grabbed a jacket and drove to that restaurant.
When I got to the restaurant Rashidi was already waiting for me. I hugged him.
“Hey babe, how are you doing?” asked Rashidi. He seemed to be in a good mood.
“I’m alright, you?”
“I’m fantastic. I’ve missed you”
“I’ve missed you too”
“I hate it when you don’t reply to my BBMs”
“I’m probably busy”
“Ok, I just thought maybe you were avoiding me”
“No, why would I avoid you?”
“I don’t know, maybe I’m boring?”
“You’re funny, not boring”
“You used to come over to say hi after your shift but you act like I’m not even in the room. You
give other guys lap dances but you don’t even give me a lap dance or – ”
“It’s my job”
“I know, but I just think sometimes you do that to get to me”
“And do I?”
“Yeah, which man would enjoy another man grinding on their woman?”
“So I’m your woman?”
“Yeah, you’re mine”
“Oh?”
“Oh? What do you mean, oh?”
“We never had that talk”
“But you know”
“Am I your wife too?”
“Don’t be silly, no, we never got married”
“I don’t know because I don’t remember being in a relationship with you”
“What is this?”
“What do you mean?”
“What are we?”
“Good friends”
“Good friends? How?”
“I’m not ready for a relationship”
“I wish I can have lots of many and throw money at you when you dancing on the pole, maybe I
would be more than a “GOOD FRIEND” *laughs*”
“What are you trying to say?”
“That maybe you’re in some sort of a relationship with one of the ballers”
“Are you silly? The ballers are just my customers”
“I know you probably have a crush”
“I don’t”
“Do you like me?”
“Yeah”
“Do you want to be with me?”
“I’m not ready?”
“Yes or no, do you want to be with me?”
“No”
“Thank you for your honesty. Can I order?”
“I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings”
“You’re not the first to hurt my feelings. I’ve been hurt a thousand times. Don’t apologise to me,
I don’t need your apology”
“But I’m sorry, I’m truly sorry”
“No, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I’m not the right man for you, I’m sorry that I don’t have a lot of
money, I’m sorry that I fell deeply in love with you. I’m just sorry for caring about you. I’m sorry,
it’s my fault”
“Don’t be like this”
“Can I order something to eat? I’m starving”
“Rashidi you’re a great guy, it’s just that I’m not ready to be with you”
“It’s okay, remember it’s my fault”
“Don’t be like this Rashidi”
“Like what? I’m being real at least someone is being real here”
“I don’t want to eat, you can eat alone. I’m going”
“Bye! Say hi to Linda”
I was so angry. I left the restaurant, Linda probably said something to Rashidi. I called my friend
Foxy, she invited me to her flat. I told Foxy about the fight with Rashidi.
“It’s Linda’s fault, she’s evil”, said Foxy
“I didn’t know she was this evil”
“I told you and you didn’t listen to me”
“I now hate Linda with a passion”
“Welcome to the club. Linda’s not my favorite person in the world. She’s jealous of me, I look
better than her and I’m better than her. She always tries to bring down people because she’s so
jealous. You’re the next victim, she’s probably plotting something against you. You’re younger,
fresher and sexier than her. You’re a reflection of what she wishes to be so she hates you. I’m
sure she’s after Rashidi. Move in with me, she’s probably going to poison your food”
“I don’t want to move in with you, I love you though. I just think she won’t go to that extreme”
I had an interesting conversation with Foxy. After that I went home and Linda was sleeping, I
couldn’t be bothered.
Yerrrr….!
**********
I work up quite late, I had a lot of things on my mind. I just wanted to talk to Raymond, it was
very important. I’ve been thinking about what to say to him for the past 16hrs.
I took a bath then rushed to Club Phoenix, I needed to talk to Raymond regarding the Martin
issue.
When I arrived at Club Phoenix, I went straight to Raymond’s office. It was locked. I asked one
of the cleaners where Raymond was, the cleaner responded, “Papa Ray is out”. I asked the
cleaner if he knew where he will be back, unfortunately he didn’t. Damn it! I decided to wait for
him, I sat on the couch. Some girls were busy with their shift. I was trying to kill time, I logged
onto facebook, stalked a few timelines.
After waiting for what seemed to be an hour, Raymond entered the club, he was walking with
Foxy. They were laughing, Foxy was carrying shopping bags. I was confused, what’s
happening. I played cool, Foxy doesn’t know Raymond is having an affair with me. I could see
Foxy was shocked to see me but she acted cool.
“Hey friend!” said Foxy, acting all cool.
I didn’t want to act strangely. Maybe I was thinking too much, maybe Foxy met Raymond on her
way to the club. Silly me! I know they met on the way – or I hope so.
“Hey my friend”, I said faking a smile.
“I’ll leave you guys to catch up”, said Raymond going to his office.
“Wait – I need to talk to you, it’s important”, I said.
“Okay, come with me. Foxy, it was great catching up with you”, said Raymond.
“Ok, see you soon”, said Foxy. The way she said it seemed like she was bragging.
Maybe I’m reading too much into this, nothing is going on. Foxy doesn’t like Raymond, yes! Of
course she doesn’t.
I entered Raymond’s office and securely closed the door.
“It’s urgent”, I said.
“I can see. Take a seat”, said Raymond. “No, it’s okay”
“So tell me, what’s urgent?”
“It’s about Martin”
“And?”
“I thought about it, I thought about it long and hard. I appreciate you for what you’ve done for
me, I really do. I feel bad, really”
“What does this mean? Is it a no?”
“Yes, I can’t Raymond!”
“Why?”
“Because – ”
“Shut up! You’re ungrateful little girl! After all I’ve done for you?”
Raymond was really angry, I’ve never seen him like this. His eyes were like an animal’s eyes, I
was really scared.
“I’m sorry Raymond. I…I… – ”
“You’ve let me down. I thought you loved me”
“I DO!”
“If you really loved me, you would do this one little thing for me”
“It’s not just one little thing to me”
“It’s just sex! Just sex!”
“Just sex? Is it just sex to you?”
“Yes”
“When I have sex with you, is it just sex?”
“It’s just sex!”
“Just sex?”
“Just sex. What do you want me to say? It’s more than sex?”
“Yes, it’s love. When I’m having sex with you Raymond, it’s more than just sex. It’s making
love”
“Making love? We’re not married”
“Marry me then”
“WHAT?! Are fucking crazy? Okay. I’m sorry for yelling but I’m not ready for marriage”
“Dump her”
“Who?”
“How many are they Raymond?”
“How is all of this connected to the Martin issue? How?”
“I want us to be together”
“But we are”
“I sacrificed Rashidi for you. He really loves me. Well, I don’t know if he still loves me but I
rejected a relationship with him for you. Don’t you understand it?”
“I do. I understand everything. You are my girl, you are my woman”
“Let them know I’m your girl, let them know I’m your woman. Raymond, I’m tired of being the
spare wheel. I don’t want to be your booty call, I want to be yours. I don’t want to share you”
“Well…uhm…Linda is my son’s mom. I’m with her because of the baby, I don’t want to
disappoint her. I’ve disappointed her a lot, I don’t want to be that guy. I like you – a lot. I don’t
want to be in a romantic relationship with you. Let’s keep this more fun, the only way we can
keep it more fun is by not being in a romantic relationship. Linda is boring. You’re more
interesting, I like everything about you. You’ve got a big booty and beautiful breast. I love your
smile, your teeth, your seductive eyes, your long natural hair, I love the dimples on your butt. I
love your bushy eyebrows, I love your kissable cute lips. I appreciate you, don’t you know that? I
really do”
Raymond made my heart smile. I didn’t know he was so good with words.
“I lo – I like you a lot too”, I said.
“Come here”, said Raymond with his arms open. We hugged for a good minute.
“I don’t want to have sex with Martin, please don’t make me”, I said.
“I won’t. I’ll negotiate with Martin, don’t worry”, said Raymond.
I felt so good. Thanks God I spoke to Raymond, the weight was lifted off my shoulders. I left his
office and I received a BBM from Rashidi saying, “I need to speak to you. Plz respond” I replied,
“Leave me alone!”
I was in a good mood, I went to the mall. After that I went to a new restaurant – no, not THAT
restaurant. I was busy on my phone when I felt someone covering my eyes.
“Who are you?” I asked.
It’s not Raymond! I know his cologne. This person smelled weed and axe body spray. This isn’t
Rashidi! I asked again, “This isn’t funny anymore. Who are you?” This person revealed himself.
What? It’s that crack head looking guy, King Pin.
“Surprise!” he shouted, like a mad man. He looked like he was high.
“Are you high?” I asked him.
“Me? High? No, I’m not high”, he said.
“You’ve been smoking weed? Sies”
“I offered to take you out for drinks, look at you now. You are lonely”
“Who said I’m lonely?”
“You’re eating ice cream alone, people around you are sitting with their partners”
“Leave me alone”
“You think you’re better than me? I’m richer than your boss”
“Raymond isn’t my boss, he’s…my friend”
“Friend? I can recruit you”
“I don’t need a job”
“I loaned Raymond some money to start his empire. Did you know that?”
“I don’t need to know”
“Well you do now. Can I have a goodbye kiss? I can see you don’t want anything to do with me”
“Voetsek!”
“I can buy this restaurant right now, do you know that? I’ve got millions and millions of rands in
my bank account. Let’s go to the bank, I’ll show you my amount”
“No. Go!”
“Chill, why do you hate me? I’m sexy and not that old, I want to marry you. I will pay 5 million
for your lobola (bride price) do you know that?”
“Go before I call the manager”
“Why? I love you”
“Go sell your inflatable swimming pools, people need to swim”
“Swim? Do you think I’m really selling inflatable swimming pools? If I wanted that I would go to
Game and buy that white people shit”
“Go away! You’re annoying”
“Let’s go swim in my pool, I’ll let you touch my tap”
I called the security but King Pin quickly ran out. King Pin looks like a crack head version of T-
Pain.
I went home, I was so tired. I slept.
Is it normal to look forward to waking up just to see a man you love? To me, yes :)!
**********
I woke up to Rashidi and Linda giggling like school children. I went to brush my teeth, Rashidi
stood up and said, “Finally you’re awake. I came to talk to you”.
“I’m going to brush my teeth”, I said. He seemed happy to finally have a word with me. I didn’t
want to embarrass him in front of Linda, otherwise if Linda wasn’t there I wouldn’t even answer
him.
After I brushed my teeth, I invited him to my bedroom.
“Thank you for your time. I was really looking forward to this, how are you?” he asked.
“I’m good. Please rush to the point, I don’t have all day”, I said. I wasn’t in the mood.
“Ok. I’m really truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings. Please
find a good place in your heart to please forgive me. I am not perfect, sometimes I say things
that I don’t mean. I really like you a lot and I would like us to be together but – ”
“Rashidi, look – ”
“But you don’t want us to be in a relationship and I respect your decision. I want to be your
friend, If you only want friendship I can be your friend and nothing more. I don’t care if it takes
you hundreds of years for you to be ready for a romantic relationship with me, I’ll wait. Nosipho I
need you, I don’t want you, I need you”
“Rashidi, look I respect you. I know you respect me, I like that. I’ve seen guys taking advantage
of girls, you’re not that type of man. I like the fact that you put others before you, you’re not
selfish. I am the total opposite – ”
“But I don’t care, I just need you. I want things to be like they used to be. I miss our late night
chats on BBM. I miss our burping competition via voice notes, I miss your one liner jokes your
father taught you. I miss you, Nosipho Ndamase I really miss you”
“I miss you too”
“Please give me another chance. Let me mend this broken friendship”
“Ok, I’ll give you another chance”
Rashidi was so happy. My crush for Rashidi was reborn.
After that whole reunion with Rashidi, I decided to surprise my friend Foxy. I always call when I
go to her flat because she’s always busy. It was really sunny outside, I picked a funky outfit to
go with the weather.
I drove my car to Foxy’s flat. It looked like she wasn’t home or maybe she was sleeping. I
knocked a couple of times but she didn’t answer. I tried calling her but her phone was on
voicemail. I was a bit down because I really wanted to surprise her. I decided to drive to
Adelphe’s apartment, he doesn’t live that far from Linda’s flat. I drove a few blocks before
reaching his apartment. I know he will be surprised to see me because I never visit him.
I knocked on his door, he opened the door. I could see his eyes widening, he was surprised to
see me.
“Hey there! What brings you here? Come in”, said Adelphe.
His apartment was neat.
“I just came to say hi”, I said.
“Can I get you anything? Make yourself comfortable”
“No thanks. I went to see my friend Foxy but she wasn’t home, I decide why not drop by”
“How are you doing?”
“I’m great, and you?”
“I’m ok. Last time we had a chat was on my surprise party, if I’m not mistaken”
“It was a long time. Your apartment looks lovely by the way”
“Thank you. Well, you know, I try. So how are things between you and Rashidi?”
“Things are ok – ”
“He’s falling in love with you. I’ve never seen him falling in love like this”
“Well…”
“I think he has a thing for strippers. He dated Angelica for a year. You wouldn’t know her, she
left Club Phoenix just before you came to Jozi. He then dated Foxy for 6 months, now it’s you.
He’s really in love with you”
What? He once dated Foxy? Why didn’t Foxy tell me this? And Rashidi? Why didn’t he tell me
this?
“Me and Rashidi are just friends. We’re good friends”, I said. I was shocked.
“Rashidi told me you guys were dating. Anyway, he really loves you”
“We talked, he knows where he stands”
“Are you sure you don’t want anything? Last night I ordered Chinese food”
“No thanks. I’m fine”
“If you say so”
“Uhm…I’m happy to see you, I hope we meet again. I really have to go somewhere”
“Okay, thanks for popping in, take care”
“Alright bye!”
“Yeah”
I left Adelphe’s apartment. I decided to drive past Foxy’s flat just to see if there were any signs
that she was home. While I was driving to her flat, I saw Foxy talking to another man. She was
wearing a big t-shirt. I stopped my car, I observed. I was nowhere near Foxy’s flat, I didn’t want
her to notice my car. When the guy walked to his car I saw his face properly. That was Martin,
Raymond’s customer. Maybe when I saw Raymond and Foxy the other day, maybe Raymond
was negotiating with Foxy to sleep with Martin instead of me. But still it didn’t make sense. I
reversed my car, I didn’t want Foxy to see me.
Who really is this Foxy chick?
**********
I drove to Club Phoenix. I wanted to have a chat with Raymond. The manager told me that
Raymond went out with his girlfriend, he asked if he can deliver any message to him…I said no.
I wanted to clear my mind, I took out my phone. I went to my contact list, I scrolled down to
Rashidi. I wanted to talk to him, maybe go out and clear my mind. I know that would make him
happy but I just didn’t have the gut. I ended up not calling Rashidi.
I just went home, by home I mean Linda’s house. I tried watching tv, nothing was interesting. I
thought to myself, the whole purpose of me coming to the city was to pursue a career in acting.
KG, the agent gave me his business card long time ago but I haven’t taken the time to for
recordings. I was lazy, let me just put this acting thing aside. Being a stripper isn’t my ideal job
but I’m paid tons of cash and I must admit, I love the attention. In the future I would like to go to
college, well, an FET college. I failed my grade 11.
For the first time ever since I came to Johannesburg, I really missed my family. I miss my mom,
my dad, my brothers and my friends. I don’t want to go back to my family with nothing,
everything that I’m doing now, I’m doing for my family. I want to build a house for them, I want to
buy a car for them.
I was bored, I decided to read people’s BBM statuses. Linda’s picture had a finger with a
beautiful ring – status read: “He proposed. I luv my baby”. What? Raymond proposed? After all
that talk, why would he do such a thing. I angrily called Raymond but his phone was on
voicemail. I cooled myself down.
I stayed indoors until evening time, I got ready for my shift.
*sigh*
I drove the Club Phoenix. Foxy was stretching, I came in and sat on a chair. I didn’t feel like
stretching today.
“I came to visit you today, it was meant to be a surprise but you weren’t there”, I said.
“Oh? I was out”, said Foxy.
“Where were you?” I asked.
“Out”, she replied.
I knew she was lying. I saw Martin coming out of her flat.
“Are you sure you didn’t have any guests?” I asked, trying to drag the truth out of her.
“No, I was out”, she lied.
“You wouldn’t lie to me, right?”
“Of course”
“You would tell me anything”
“I’ve told you everything. Are you suspecting anything?”
I couldn’t say yes.
“No”
“I trust you, I know you trust me”
“I do trust you”
“That’s all that matters”
The truth is I USED to trust her, I don’t anymore. Who knows what else she’s hiding from me?
We went to dance on the pole, our shift was in full swing. The manager told us there was a
gentleman who was celebrating his birthday and he ordered a full 1hr private pole dancing and
lap dance session. There’s something called a “Birthday Special Tease”. I went to meet this
birthday guy, he introduced himself as Jason. He was turning 27 and he wanted to treat himself.
He was with his friends.
“Nice meeting you Nosipho, you can show me the way”, he said.
We went to a room, it had a pole. A colorful disco light was spinning. There was a security
outside the door – just in case the customer decides to misbehave.
I started giving this man a sexy lap dance, I was grinding myself against him. He was really
enjoying it. He had a boner, I could see in his eyes that he was a bit embarrassed. He covered
his boner with his hands, but I slowly removed his hands and I started grinding repeatedly. This
show happened for an hour, the security opened the door and we left the room.
I saw Raymond and Linda surrounded by people, they were congratulating them on their
engagement. I didn’t give a rat’s ass. I continued with my shift. After I was done with my shift, I
decided to not go home like I usually do. Foxy left, I sat with Rashidi, Uche, Adelphe, Kevin,
Hakeem and Kwame. We were laughing, enjoying ourselves. We started drinking, Raymond
and Linda came to join us. I faked a smile and congratulated them on their engagement.
Rashidi, Uche, Adelphe, Kevin and Hakeem went to dance on the dance floor. I was left with
Linda and Raymond. Awkward. Linda offered to buy me something to drink, I couldn’t say no. I
was tipsy, after drinking that drink I was on the dance floor. I was so energetic, I’m sure Linda
bought me those energy drinks.
I stumbled to the toilet. After that, I went to the back of the club. I don’t know why. I looked
around, I was a bit dizzy. When I was approaching the club’s exit doors, I met Jason. The guy I
was giving a lap dance earlier.
I drove to Linda’s house, well, that’s the only home I have in Johannesburg. When I arrived, I
rushed to my room and started crying.
After crying for over 30mins, I looked myself in the mirror and I talked to myself.
“I’m a strong person, I can get through this”, I told myself.
I can get through this!
**********
A week later.
My relationship with Raymond is obviously not the same. I try not to care about him but I do. He
tried calling me a few times but I didn’t answer his phone calls. Ever since that mini engagement
party I haven’t really spoken to him about that. Our relationship is strictly business and nothing
more. When he visits Linda, he acts like he doesn’t really know me – like the way he acted
when I first came to Johannesburg.
He no longer sends me to deliver those inflatable swimming pools. When I used to be the
delivery girl, he paid me. Now my only income is the money I make from pole dancing. I don’t
want to be a stripper for the rest of my life. I’ve thought about moving out of Linda’s house but
that would be costly.
I’ve became close to Kwame for some odd reason. Maybe that’s because we share a similar
childhood. Kwame is from Ghana and he is Rashidi’s best friend. He smokes a lot but he wants
to quit, he’s funny but Rashidi is funnier.
My afternoon was quiet. Linda decided to host a pool party this evening. She was out, shopping
for the party. She asked for my services though. She asked me to pole dance during the pool
party, she promised I will do that for only 30mins and she will pay me for every 5mins. Of course
I said yes.
I decided to visit Kwame’s house. I knocked for a while before he opened the door.
“Sorry, I didn’t hear you. Make yourself comfortable”, he said.
“Thank you. I thought you were out”, I said.
“No. Can I get you anything?”
“No thanks”
“So? What’s up?”
“Nothing. I just came to visit you”
“I feel special”
“You are”
“Oh? Ok. So…How’s Foxy?”
“Fine”
“Is she coming to the pool party?”
“I don’t know, I don’t think so, since she doesn’t get along with Linda”
“That’s the most pathetic rivalry I’ve ever witnessed”
“Linda is jealous of Foxy”
“It’s not jealousy. I don’t think so”
“But Foxy told me Linda is jealous of her because she is the reflection of what Linda wishes to
be”
“Foxy lied to you”
“What? Then why do they hate each others guts?”
“They’re just the same person. They hate each other because they’re alike. There’s no
jealousy”
“But Foxy told me that Raymond once had a crush on her and Linda liked Raymond so she was
jealous of the fact that Raymond liked Foxy and not her. That’s back when they weren’t dating.
Foxy didn’t like Raymond, she rejected him and Raymond settled with Linda”
“No, Raymond and Linda were attracted to each other. Foxy was Linda’s friend. Ray started
dating Linda and he was messing around with Foxy, they had an affair. Linda found out that Ray
cheated on her and she ended their relationship. Ray stopped messing around with Foxy and
he begged Linda to take him back. Linda took him back and a few months later they had a baby.
Maybe Foxy and Linda might be jealous of each other but I think they don’t like each other
because they’re the same person. Does that make sense to you?”
“It does, yeah. Tell me, where did Foxy and Linda meet? I heard Linda was a stripper”
“Yes Linda was a stripper but she stopped after she found out she was pregnant. Foxy’s father
was a priest and she was limited to do certain things. When Foxy passed matric, she went to
study at varsity and she met Linda at Club Phoenix. She would sneak out of Res just to come to
Club Phoenix. That’s all I know”
“She used to date Rashidi, right?”
“I don’t know if I should dig deep into that”
“Why? Come on. We’re talking, you told me about Foxy and Raymond. Why can’t you tell me
about Foxy and Rashidi?”
“You know why”
“I don’t know. Why?”
“Because Rashidi likes you a lot and I don’t want to make things awkward between the two of
you”
“Me and Rashidi are not dating. He’s just my friend”
“But he likes you a lot – you know that”
“I know but I’m not committing a crime”
“No one said you are, but I think you guys will make a great couple”
“Rashidi is just my friend”
“For now…”
“Stop forcing what’s not there”
“Are you kidding me? You like him. I know you do!”
“Let’s change the subject”
“I know the truth hurts”
“Let’s act like we never had this chat”
“I’m a good actor”
“So, what are you wearing tonight?”
I spent the afternoon at Kwame’s house, he’s so fun to be around and he talks a lot! I still can’t
believe Foxy lied to me.
The pool party is something to look forward to though. I can’t wait!
**********
It was party time.
Linda invited a few of her close friends, Raymond invited his friends and his biggest customer,
Martin. I was surprise to see Foxy at the party, she was Martin’s date for the evening.
I was with Rashidi, Kwame, Uche, Hakeem and Adelphe. Linda invited a dj, he was on fire. Foxy
was with Martin and Raymond, she looked bored.
“I heard you’ll be blazing us with your incredible presence”, said Uche.
“Yeah”, I replied.
“I’ll be throwing money like those ballers”, said Rashidi.
I gave him a nasty stare – he knows we spoke about this.
“You should teach me your moves”, said Hakeem jokingly.
I laughed.
“Where will this practice take place? In the bedroom?” asked Kwame. He’s such a joker.
“I wouldn’t mind. Nosi, I wouldn’t mind”, said Hakeem.
Rashidi was playing along – although he looked like he didn’t like what his friends were saying
to me. I knew they were joking, I was playing along.
“She has this move, man. Her ass pops out, that shit is sexy”, said Hakeem.
“I would marry her everyday”, said Uche.
“I would marry her every hour”, said Kwame.
“She wouldn’t marry neither of you. She probably won’t be ready for marriage”, said Rashidi. I
knew he meant it but I tried not to react.
“Nosi are you tired? Because you’ve been running through my mind the whole day”, said Uche.
I laughed so hard.
These guys are so fun to be around.
“Nosi, I’m writing a telephone book. Can I have your number?” asked Adelphe jokingly.
“So this is what you say to girls? Come on guys, step up your game”, I said.
Linda called me, it was time for me to pole dance. The dj turned up the music, I was ready to do
my thing. A few minutes later I was working the pole. Everyone was enjoying my performance. I
felt so good, I could see Raymond staring at me. Our eyes met, he looked away.
After I was done dancing, people kept complimenting me on my pole dancing skills. I went to
drink with Rashidi, Uche, Kwame, Hakeem and Adelphe. Linda, Raymond, Foxy and Martin
were talking – well, Raymond and Martin were doing the talking. I can imagine how awkward
things are between Linda and Foxy.
I was so tipsy. I saw Raymond entering the house alone. I just wanted to confront him,
something told me not to go but I went inside the house. I saw him in the kitchen, he was
looking for more glasses. I could tell he was shocked to see me there.
“Uhm…Nosi? Are you stalking me?” he asked.
“How could you do that to me? After all that talk?” I asked.
“I did what was best”
“Best for who? You or her?”
“For the both of us. Nosi, you should understand that you came into my life when Linda was
already there”
“So?”
“You should understand”
“You played me! I thought you cared for me”
“I do care, if I didn’t do you think I would’ve let you stay here? Of course not!”
“So what’s gonna happen now?”
“I’m gonna go outside and act like this conversation never happened”
“Just like that? No apology? Nothing?”
“I don’t owe you an apology. You owe me an apology for not answering my phone calls. That’s
rude”
“Whatever Raymond! Do you! I don’t care about you and your evil girlfriend turned fiancée”
“If you didn’t care about me, you wouldn’t be here discussing this with me”
I stormed out. I was so angry. I drank my sorrows away – well, I think I did.
People left, the party was over. Rashidi was cleaning the garden. Raymond and Martin were
inside enjoying a game of soccer. Foxy was sitting beside Martin, acting like she was enjoying
football. Linda was also cleaning the garden. I was so drunk, I was laying with my face facing
up.
“Nosipho you’re drunk. Go to sleep”, said Linda.
“Don’t tell me what to do! You’re not my mother”, I said angrily.
“I know I’m not your mother but you should go to sleep. You look tired”, said Linda.
“I look tired? I look tired? How does a tired person look like?”
“You’re obviously drunk”
“I’m drunk so what? Is it your problem?”
“You’re in my garden, so it’s my problem”
“You mean Raymond’s garden?”
“Go to sleep. You’re seriously drunk”
“Don’t tell me what to do!”
“Nosipho. Listen to Linda, please go to sleep”, said Rashidi.
“I wasn’t talking to you. Shut up! Shut up! I wasn’t talking to you”, I said angrily. I had so much
anger.
“Ok, I’ll shut up”, said Rashidi.
“Just because this is your house you think you can control me? I’m not your puppet. Do you
hear me Linda? I’ve been too patient with you – I’m losing my patience with you”, I said.
“I’ll tell you tomorrow everything you said, I’m sure you would laugh”, said Linda trying to change
the subject.
Mbali had morning classes. She is a science student – I forgot what she studies but I don’t really
care. What I care about the most is getting back up. I need to find a job – fast!
I decided to go look for a stripper job because I know I had a reputation in that field. People love
me! I know they do. As I was searching for a club, I came across Poker Face Strip Club. The
club looked so professional and beautiful on the outside. I decided to try my luck at Poker Face
Strip Club.
The manager told me to wait for the owner. A group of girls were standing in a queue. I’m sure
they’re also here for the same reason. I looked around, I saw competition. They looked like they
were models, I know I don’t stand a chance against them. The owner came, I was shocked.
King Pin? What does he want here? Is he the owner? If he is, I’m sure he won’t choose me after
I rejected him more than once. He told us he will call every girl in his office for a short interview.
I wanted to leave because I know I don’t stand a chance with him.
I watched the girls coming in and out of his office. Finally it was my turn. I entered his office, he
was a bit surprised to see me.
“I thought my partnership with Raymond is over. What are doing here?” he asked.
“I’m no longer working for Raymond”, I told him.
He didn’t believe me. He laughed.
“I’m serious. I’m no longer working for Raymond. We had a major complication, look, I don’t
wanna talk about that. But I’m serious, I don’t work for him”, I said trying to justify myself.
“How would I know that this isn’t a trap?” he asked.
“What trap? Why would I do that? Why would Raymond do that?” I asked.
“Why wouldn’t he?” he asked.
I thought about it. If Raymond and that snake of his are capable of doing what they did to me,
what else can’t they do?
“So, why are you here?” asked King Pin
“I need a job, King Pin”
“Did your boss leave you out in the cold?”
“No. He…There were complications”
“What complications?”
“It’s confidential”
“I don’t trust you”
“Why? Why are you giving me a tough time? Is it because I rejected you? Why?”
“Calm your vagina! I’m not giving you a tough time. I just don’t trust you. Why would I trust
someone who worked for my enemy and has no explanation why she left?”
“You can trust me”
“They all say that”
“I just want to be on the pole. I don’t need nothing more or less from you”
“We both know I could hire you. I just don’t know if I can trust you”
“What can I do to earn your trust?”
“Well… – ”
“Please don’t tell me to have sex with you”
“I only chased you once. I no longer have those silly feelings for you…well, it was more lust
than feelings. Anyway, I’m surrounded by women”
“Do I have the job?”
“Not so fast uhm…what’s your name again?”
“Nosipho”
“Yes, Nosipho. Look – ”
“I hate Raymond as much as you do. I want revenge. Yeah, I said it! The reason why I’m here
is because I want revenge. I want to work hand in hand with you. I hate Raymond and that witch
Linda. They’re going to pay for everything they did to me”
King Pin laughed.
“Really! I hate Raymond and his witch with a passion”, I said.
“Ok”, said King Pin unconvincingly.
“His new drug is selling”, I said out of the blue.
King Pin was suddenly curious.
“If you really hate Raymond and you want to bring him down. Then you should work hand in
hand with me, because I once worked there and I have a glimpse of how things operate there. If
you were really smart, you would work hand in hand with me”, I said.
“The job is yours”, said King Pin
I knew I got him.
“What do I get?” I asked him.
“A job. What else do you want?”
“Promotion”
“What promotion?”
“You know”
“You want to be more than a stripper?”
“Yeah”
“First earn my trust then I’ll promote you”
King Pin is really smart.
“Ok, understandable”
“You’ll start tomorrow night”
We shook hands.
I decided to think to myself, what must I do to earn King Pin’s trust? Obviously I have to help
him bring Raymond down, but Raymond is a tough nut to crack. I have to have someone who’s
in Raymond’s circle or works at Club Phoenix. Suddenly, Rashidi and Foxy popped up on my
mind. After the altercation that happened days ago, I don’t think they even want to talk to me. I
understand Foxy’s case but Rashidi? He likes me and I think maybe I should use his weakness
to benefit myself.
I should just get a hold of Raymond’s confidential files. I decided to send Rashidi a BBM but he
didn’t respond. I sent him multiple BBMs but he didn’t respond. Fuck it! I gave up.
When Mbali came back from her class, I drove her to the mall for some shopping.
We went to different clothing shops, tried different clothing. I helped Mbali pick some clothes.
We had fun.
When we went home it was a bit late. I went to work at Poker Face Strip Club, it was my first.
I run this…!
* ********
I went to Poker Face Strip Club for my first night on the pole. There were a lot of girls on the
pole, how am I going to get my own shine? I met a coloured girl, her name was Bridget – her
stripper name was Coco. She introduced me to all the girls.
She showed me the strippers’ locker room. The club was really beautiful, inside and outside.
Bridget told me she’s one of King Pin’s girlfriends. I was surprised that King Pin had many girls.
“He’s a great guy. We love him”, said Bridget.
“How many are you?” I asked.
“Six”, she replied.
I felt like laughing but I rather kept quiet.
I then started my shift. I was on the pole doing my thing, the club became more lively when I
was dancing on the pole. I can’t blame them, I have that kind of effect.
When I was done with my shift, King Pin told people that tomorrow there’s a braai at his house
and everyone is invited.
I went home and Mbali was already sleeping.
*sigh*
**********
Mbali didn’t go to class, she told me there wasn’t any class that day. I tried inviting her to King
Pin’s braai but she didn’t want to. I don’t know what’s wrong with her, it’s the only chance for her
to mingle with other people. I got a message from Rashidi, I was really excited. He wanted to
meet me at that restaurant.
I excitedly rushed to the restaurant. He was already there. I really missed him, he looked cuter
than the last time I saw him.
“Hey Rashidi”, I said hugging him.
He gave me a cold hug, I was stunned.
“Hey”, he said with a low voice.
“How are you? You look good”, I complimented.
“I’m ok. Can we cut to the chase?” he asked. He wasn’t interested.
“Yeah, why am I here?”
“I heard about you and Raymond. I can’t believe I was such a fool. No wonder you didn’t want a
relationship with me, you were messing around with Raymond. I’m disgusted”
“I don’t care if you’re disgusted or not. I can’t change the past – ”
“Such ignorance and arrogance!”
“Ok. I’m sorry but I can’t change the past. You’re a great guy and any girl would be happy to be
in a relationship with you. But I was real with you, I didn’t lead you on. We never kissed or did
anything”
“I know, but I really liked you. You knew that! I know you liked me too but you’re too proud to
admit it! I never felt that way about a girl before. You made me look stupid. I don’t like it when
people make me look stupid”
“Don’t judge me Rashidi! You don’t know me”
“With what you did with Raymond? I know girls like you too well!”
“You don’t know me Rashidi! I swear if you could walk in my shoes, you would fall! You know
my name and my face but not my story! Tell me what I already know Rashidi, tell me I’m a
foolish village girl. Tell me I’m a typical rural girl! Tell me I’m not that smart! Go ahead tell me
what I already know! What have I done to you people? Huh?”
“I… – ”
“You don’t know me Rashidi! You don’t know me! Don’t judge me! I left my village because of
people like you!”
“I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings but that’s the truth”
“You know what? Fuck you! Fuck your fake American accent! Fuck your cheesy text messages!
Fuck your friend Rashidi! Fuck your friend’s girlfriend! Fuck you and your stupid entourage!
Fuck you! Ok?”
I was angry.
“Don’t turn this around. It’s not about me, it’s about you. Fuck you too. I’ll delete your BBM
contact and I’ll block your phone number. Don’t call me, don’t send me your pathetic BBMs and
don’t text me. You’re arrogant, you think you know but you don’t know. If you’re not so arrogant
you would apologise to me. I’ve been too good to you, you’re misusing my goodness. Nosipho, I
just don’t care anymore. I had your back but you’ve shown your true colors. Goodbye!”
Rashidi left angrily. I didn’t care, he’s such a loser!
I went to King Pin’s house. Some strippers were decorating his house for the braai that will take
place this evening. I also helped with the decorating.
Hours later, the braai was underway. I was having fun, at least I’m not arguing with anyone.
King Pin called me, he wanted to introduce me to someone.
“Nosipho, this is Antonio. He’s been watching you the whole time. He just wants to have a word
with you”, said King Pin.
Antonio was Italian and really cute. He had an expensive looking wrist watch. He had a
wristband that had Italian flag colors.
“Hi, Nosipho”, he greeted me.
He had a sexy Italian accent.
“Hi”, I greeted back.
“I’m Antonio Albero. My friends call me Tony”, he said.
“I’m Nosipho Ndamase. You can call me Nosi”, I said.
“Nice name, zulu?” he asked.
“No, xhosa”
“Xhosa women are beautiful, you are very beautiful”
“Thank you”
“I love your smile. Your eyebrows remind me of my Italian people, they have thick eyebrows”
“Uhm… – ”
“I know maybe that’s a bit too much”
“No, it’s okay”
“I live in Sandton. Where do you live?”
“Rosebank”
“Ok, we should hang out sometime”
“Eish. I don’t know”
“Please give me your phone number. I really want to stay in contact with you”
“Ok. It’s 073 821 9902”
“Thanks. Nice chatting to you”
“Ok, bye”
Antonio looks like a good person. I went home with a white heart. The braai was fun.
Let’s do this! I got this city life on lock down!
**********
Two weeks later.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been trying my best to get into King Pin’s good books. I think he
trusts me now because I’m no longer a stripper at the club, I’m in charge of hiring strippers and
planning events.
My relationship with Antonio is great. He has been taking me out on several dates, he bought
me several luxurious gifts. Tony is 43 years old but the age difference isn’t a problem for me. I
like him a lot and I know he feels the same way about me.
Mbali has been the same old boring girl she is, nothing changed. But what changed though is
the fact that she wants a job. She tried different clothing stores but still no luck. After I disclosed
the job I did, Mbali was skeptic but she understood when all else fails, there’s no choice. She
didn’t judge me for being a former stripper and that made me respect her even more. She’s a
very intelligent girl.
Antonio decided to visit my flat. Mbali was studying, I was so happy to see Antonio. He bought
me flowers.
“Beautiful lady, how’s my beautiful lady today?” asked a bubbly Antonio.
“I’m good. How are you boo?” I asked.
“I’m fine now. You make me happy”, said Antonio.
“This is my flat mate Mbali”, I said.
“Mbali? That’s a beautiful name. Xhosa?” asked Antonio.
“No, zulu”, replied Mbali.
“Good to meet you, Mbali. I’m Antonio, but you can also call me Tony”, said Antonio.
Antonio had a restaurant, it’s a beautiful luxurious restaurant.
“Mbali has been looking for a job”, I told Antonio. I know he’ll offer her a job.
“You’re invited to work as a waitress at my restaurant. Well, that’s if it’s ok with you”, said
Antonio to Mbali.
I could see Mbali was happy but she couldn’t believe I told Antonio she was looking for a job.
“I’ll be more than happy, thank you”, said Mbali.
“So, when can she start?” I asked.
“This weekend. It’s Friday today, maybe tomorrow? What do you say Mbali?” asked Antonio.
“That would be great”, replied Mbali.
Antonio stayed for a couple of minutes, he was sharing his funny childhood memories, we
laughed so hard. It wasn’t long before I left with Antonio. We went to his restaurant for
something to eat.
Damn I’m good!
Everytime I’m at Antonio’s restaurant, I can’t stop complimenting the design of the restaurant.
“Tell me Antonio, how do you do it?” I asked.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“The restaurant, this luxurious life, everything. What’s your recipe to such success?” I asked.
“Well, I work hard for my money”, he replied.
“I know you work hard for your money. But what’s the recipe to such success?” I asked again.
“Ssssh! It’s a secret”, he replied.
I laughed.
“Some guests will be joining us”, he said.
I was shocked.
“Ok”, I replied.
“They’re my friends”
30mins later Antonio’s friends arrived. They were tall and big. They were wearing expensive
suits, they looked like they were just like Antonio. He introduced me to his friends, Bruno,
Collins and Patrice. Bruno was Italian just like Antonio but he spent most of his years in South
Africa. Collins was born in South Africa, his mother is coloured and his dad who passed away
five years ago was Italian and great friends with Antonio’s dad who’s alive. Patrice is
Congolese, just like you know who (Raymond). Patrice looks like a white version of Raymond. I
don’t know why I’m even comparing him to that snake.
“Bella ragazza (beautiful girl)”, said Bruno in Italian.
“Hi”, I greeted.
“We’ve heard a lot about you”, said Patrice.
“Don’t worry, only good things”, said Collins.
“I must say, Antonio has a good eye”, said Bruno.
They spent an hour or so complimenting me. I loved the attention but it felt really awkward. I
think Antonio was just using me as a show off. I was like a trophy and he was inviting people to
look at his trophy – felt like that. I’m not a person who’s shy of all the attention but sometimes I
think, “wrong timing”.
I don’t want to be anyone’s trophy but maybe I’m just overreacting.
I had a good time with Antonio and his friends. I went home and Mbali couldn’t stop telling me
how excited she is about the job. I was really happy for her, at least I played a role in all of that.
Once again, damn I’m good!
**********
It was a beautiful Saturday. I had a lot planned for the day. I was looking forward to reuniting
with Foxy. Oh, you didn’t know that? I’m too busy talking about this new gentleman in my life, I
forgot to tell you about my reunion with my former best friend.
Why reunite with Foxy? Well, firstly I need someone who works in Raymond’s business, as you
may know by now she’s a stripper at Raymond’s club. Secondly, I need more information about
Martin and lastly I want some solid proof to bring Raymond down.
Mbali went for her first shift as a part-time waitress. I went to meet Foxy.
Foxy was already waiting for me, she was excited to see me. She gave me a tight warm hug.
“It’s good to see you Nosi, you look so good”, she said.
“Thank you. You also look good”, I returned the compliment. She really looked good, I won’t lie.
“I’m sorry about – ”
“Don’t worry Foxy, it’s all in the past now. I want to move on”
“I also want to move on, wow. I can’t believe you just said that”
“Why can’t you believe? You’re my friend”
“Friend? Wow, yes friend. I really missed you”
“I missed you too. So, what’s happening at Phoenix?”
“Uhm…the usual, you know”
“No, I don’t know. So what’s happening there? Any new faces”
“A lot of new faces. There are new strippers and a new club manager. Guess who’s the new
club manager”
“Linda?”
“No, it’s Rashidi”
“Oh boy! So, is he doing a great job?”
“Yeah, everything Rashidi does is good. There are rumors going round the club that Rashidi is
secretly dating Linda”
“What?!”
“That was my reaction at first. I wouldn’t be surprised if the rumors are true”
“Why would Linda cheat on a guy who buys her anything and everything? Raymond is Linda’s
life support. It doesn’t make sense”
“I know, right? I think they’re just rumors. Some people didn’t like the fact that Rashidi was
placed as manager. He doesn’t have any experience, he’s just a smart guy”
“Yeah. Anyway, what else is happening in the club? Are you dating Martin?”
“Speaking of Martin, he had a big brawl with Raymond”
“What was the cause of the brawl?”
“I don’t know”
“Aren’t you dating Martin?”
“I am but he doesn’t talk about business. He doesn’t mix business with pleasure”
“Alright”
“He’s a great guy. His business as a drug lord doesn’t really define him as a person. He has a
good heart”
“If you say so”
“How are you Nosi? What do you do now?”
“I’m just a normal girl again”
“You’re no longer a stripper?”
“Yeah, I’m an event planner and I hire strippers at this club”
“What club”
“Uhm…Poker Face Strip Club”
“Woah! PFSC is like Phoenix’s biggest rival. Did you know that?”
“No I didn’t”
“King Pin doesn’t get along with Raymond and my boyfriend”
“King Pin is a cool guy. You would love him”
“I don’t think it would be great for me to mingle with my boyfriend’s enemy. Sorry”
“I understand”
“Can we order now?”
“Oh yeah! Of course”
It was great meeting Foxy again, I won’t lie. She gave me great information although it isn’t
enough.
I won’t home and Mbali was already there. She was resting on the couch.
“How was your first day at work?” I asked her.
“Fine”, she replied.
She looked upset.
“You look happy”, I said sarcastically.
“Would you tell your friends something that would possibly destroy them?” She asked.
That’s strange.
“If you really love your friends, yeah”, I replied.
“What if it hurts them?” she asked.
“Well, the truth hurts but sometimes we hide things from our friends because we think we’re
protecting them. Rather kill me with the truth than poison me with lies”, I said.
She looked really uncomfortable.
“I don’t know where to start”, she said. She sat up.
“Are you hiding something from your friend?” I asked.
“I don’t know if you know this but I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable”, she said.
She was making me nervous.
“Your boyfriend is married”, said Mbali.
I was shocked. Why didn’t he tell me? I can’t stand men that lie to me. It happened once with
Raymond, I don’t want it to happen again.
Antonio poured me some orange juice. We had a long heart to heart conversation. Antonio is a
wise man.
When I left, it was already dark outside. Mbali was worried but when I told her everything she
was happy for me.
Finally, things are getting much better!
**********
Mbali was attending her classes. I went to Club Phoenix. I saw Rashidi, he didn’t speak to me –
I didn’t care. The club didn’t have a lot of people because it was still morning time. I decided to
go to Raymond’s office.
The office was already open, I just stood at the door. Raymond was shocked to see me. I went
to sit on the chair opposite him. He looked at me without uttering a word. Finally, he spoke to
me.
“Why are you here? I told you to take my credit card”, he said.
“I don’t need your credit card, I’m well on my own”
“Ok, that was just a friendly gesture. I heard you work for King Pin now”
“Do you have a problem with that?”
“No – no, not at all. I don’t really give a shit about King Pin, he’s definitely in my bad books”
“I heard – ”
“And you decided to work for him to spite me?”
“I didn’t even know he owned that club – ”
“Ah…drop the act – ”
“I didn’t. Whatever! Believe all you want”
“Why are you here? Did King Pin send you to spy on me?”
“Spy on you? You don’t have anything good going on here, why would I spy on you?”
“I don’t know…maybe revenge? You tell me”
“You still haven’t apologised to me. What you did to me was really…bad”
“I don’t owe you an apology. I scratched your back and you scratched mine”
“You drugged me! You would’ve killed me!”
“You’re alive. Anyway that drug doesn’t kill and don’t worry it doesn’t make people get hooked.
It’s just a happy drug. No harm in being happy”
“Raymond you’re a sick bastard! You and your psycho girlfriend Linda!”
“I have work to do, please close the door on your way out”
“Stephen has psycho, evil parents! I feel sorry for him!”
“Don’t bring my son into this!”
“Why? Why Raymond? Oh, what are you going to do? Drug me again?”
“Leave my office before I call security”
“I won’t leave this office”
“You’re so stubborn. Nosipho, tell me…why do you think you have the world wrapped around
your pinky finger? You think you know everything. Leave this business to us professionals,
you’re an amateur, little girl. Go work as a cashier or a waitress, anything suitable for little girls
like you”
“I’m not a little girl! Stop with the name calling!”
“You’re not clever as you think. You’re just a naïve little girl who left home hoping for a perfect
life – ”
“This amateur, stupid, naïve girl knows that Antonio is doing business with you. He’s a huge
contributor in your business and he’s my boyfriend. Did you know that?”
Raymond was confused and taken back.
“I know you want me to payback for all of my sins. I know you’re seeking revenge. I’m just
waiting for you to strike because I know you will. Just get this done with, avenge already.
Doesn’t this kill you? Doesn’t it kill you that I know that you’re going to strike? I know for sure
that it’s not exciting anymore. I’m sorry for being a party pooper. Oops! That was meant to be a
surprise for me. I’m sorry I ruined it for you”
“I won’t do anything to you Raymond. The only thing that would kill you is seeing this amateur,
stupid, naïve girl succeed. It would kill you. I know that!”
“You’re so sure. I don’t really care about you Nosipho”
“Then you must learn to care about me because I’m Antonio’s girlfriend and you have to treat
me with respect. Let me go now, maybe I’ll see you in Antonio’s meetings. Please kiss Stephen
on the forehead for me, and push Linda off the balcony for me. Bye”
I left. He was silent, I knew I got to him. I knew it!
I went to work. As you may know by now, I’m no longer a stripper. I’m in charge of hiring
strippers. I go to different strip clubs and I observe strippers and offer them a deal. It’s either
they take it or leave it – well, with the money Poker Face Strip Club pays their strippers, they
take the deal. I also plan events for the club, I’m planning to get some celebrities and host them
but for all I know, celebrities are full of shit. I have my own little cute office, yay!
I told you, I run this shit!
**********
The following day, I met with two strippers from Club Phoenix. I offered them an amazing deal
and they accepted right away. So, I poached two strippers from Club Phoenix – it’s not payback
or anything, it’s just that I’m concerned about their money stability. Poker Face Strip Club pays
strippers a lot of money, I did them a favor – I’m not spiting anyone. Ha!
I decided to go do my grocery at the supermarket and I met, oh boy, Linda. Kill me now.
“Hi Nosipho”, greeted Linda.
“Who are you? Do I know you?” I asked. I was just acting.
“Come on Nosipho, drop the act”, said Linda.
“Who are you?” I asked.
“Linda”, replied Linda rolling her eyes.
“Oh? I didn’t know it was you. I just saw a snake but now I see it’s you”, I said ridiculing her.
“Whatever. You’re still holding a grudge for what Raymond did to you?” She asked.
“Clearly Raymond didn’t do that alone. Remember?”
“I know. And I’m really sorry”
“No, you’re not sorry Linda. You’re just saying sorry nje”
“Do you know how hard it was for me? No! You don’t know”
“Tell me Linda. What was hard? Telling me the truth or asking me to leave your house?”
“Everything was hard. I didn’t want Raymond to do that to you – ”
“Bullshit!”
“Really, when Raymond told me his plan – I didn’t want to do it. I didn’t know how to face
you…that’s why I always went out without telling you where I’m going. I didn’t talk to you
because I was so guilty”
“I don’t believe you. You said ever since you saw me back at the village you knew I was the
one. Tell me Linda, why did you go to the village? To come back with someone like me? Yes,
right?”
“No. Nosipho I’m not the bad man here, Raymond is”
“Trying to stop Raymond doesn’t count because you did it anyway. You’re as bad as him”
“It’s the thought that matters”
“Fuck you Linda. You stupid bitch! You and your evil boyfriend are going to pay for everything
you did to me”
“Raymond was right about you! You’re not Nosipho, you’re someone else. All you have on your
mind is revenge. I don’t know what I created. I shouldn’t have came to Johannesburg with you if
I knew you were psycho!”
“You’re a snake”
“If I’m a snake then you’re looking at the mirror Nosipho. You’re seeing your own reflection”
“Get a life Linda. Stop living under Raymond’s shadow”
“You should consider going home. I got a call from Melusi the other day. Your mom is in
hospital, she’s sick because of you. Go back home, your family and the villagers are worried”
“I…I don’t want to go back yet”
“What? And your mother? Your family? The worried villagers? You should go home Nosipho.
It’s been a while now”
“I don’t want to go back. What’s your problem? You’re not my mother! Why don’t you go back
home and stop living under Raymond’s shadow?”
“The major difference between me and you is that you have a family and I don’t. Go back home
Nosipho, stop with the whole tough girl act. Your family needs you. You don’t have to stay there
forever, just go visit your mother in hospital and your people”
“I know it hurts you to have me here in Johannesburg. It hurts you more to see me succeed
without your help. You like to be on the spotlight, you’re jealous of my shine”
“So this is what this is all about? Spotlight? I’ve been there and done that. Your arrogance is a
serious problem – ”
“Why don’t you tell Raymond the truth?”
“What truth?”
“You’re having an affair with Rashidi!”
“Really? Oh, I didn’t know that”
“Stop acting Linda! You’re having an affair with Rashidi”
“Rumors don’t shake me!”
“Rumors? Ha! Whatever”
I left angrily, I wish like punching Linda on the mouth. I left my grocery and stormed out of the
supermarket.
I went straight to Antonio’s restaurant. I saw Rashidi sweet talking Mbali, I couldn’t care less
about their stupid high school relationship. I ordered something to eat. Mbali was talking to
Rashidi, she wasn’t working. The waiter came with my food – it looked so good. As I was eating
Rashidi and Mbali kept looking at me. I wonder what Rashidi was telling Mbali. Suddenly, some
woman came and sat at my table. I stopped eating and looked at her, I was puzzled.
“Can I help you?” I asked.
“Stay away from my husband, young girl”, this woman said.
Oh, this was Bella? She looked like she was in her late 30s, she had big hair. Her skin was
tanned and she had make-up. She looked like she stepped out of a Jerseylicious scene. She
was Italian and a pretty woman.
“You must be Bella?” I asked.
“You must be that whore my husband is messing around with?”, she asked sarcastically.
“I heard a lot about you”, I said. I was so calm.
“I don’t care what you’ve heard. Stay away from my husband and go to school”
“Your husband is divorcing you – ”
“He won’t divorce me!”
“You’re crazy! Get out of my face!”
“Stay away from my man!”
We were definitely causing a scene. People were looking at us. It was out of my league to fight
for a man in public. I just went out, she followed me outside. Some people came out of the
restaurant, people who were walking outside stopped walking and watched.
Bad!
As I was driving to this place, I saw Raymond’s car parked next to a tree. He was inside his car,
talking to some girl. I didn’t see the girl properly but that wasn’t Linda. I slowed my car, I parked
in a parking lot full of cars. The girl came out of the his car, she was pregnant. I drove away. I
didn’t know what to make of it.
I drove to this place. It was a big house. I pressed the intercom and stated why I was there. The
gate opened. A security showed me inside the house.
There were many girls. I asked a few girls where Mr X’s office was and they directed me.
Mr X’s office was open, he was sitting on his chair which was facing away. I could only see his
back.
“Mr X? I have a delivery for you”, I said. He turned, and oh my goodness, I was surprised.
“Rashidi? What are you doing here?” I asked, I was surprised.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“I came to deliver this. What are you doing here?” I asked him again.
“I came to visit a friend”, he said.
“Where’s Mr X?”
“You can drop the package here, I’ll tell him – ”
“I can’t do that. I need to speak to Mr X”
“He’s out”
“The girls told me that he’s here”
“He’s out. Drop the package and leave”
“I’m afraid I can’t. I’ll come back tomorrow”
Rashidi quickly stood up and went to close the door.
“You don’t want any problem, right? Drop the package”, he said with a nasty look on his face.
“No!”
“Stop being fucking stupid!”
“Rashidi, let me first call King Pin”
“Don’t call him. Why can’t you listen to me? Drop the package and leave, is it that difficult?”
“I don’t trust you Rashidi”
The guest entered his office. How surprising can this be?
“Hey Nosipho, how are you?” asked Martin.
“I’m fine thanks, and you?”
“I’m great. Say hi to Antonio for me”
“I will”
“The atmosphere is tensed here, can I give you guys some time?” He asked.
“No, Nosipho was about to drop the package and leave”, said Rashidi.
I drove away. I can’t believe what just happened. Am I dreaming? I went straight home, I gave
King Pin a call and he was very happy that the package was safely delivered.
Mbali was watching tv and I joined her.
**********
I told Mbali that Antonio bought me a new house and new car. She was so surprised, she
couldn’t believe it. She kept saying it’s too good to be true. I don’t care, that’s all I ever wanted.
My dream is slowly becoming a reality.
I showed Mbali the video of her really high, she was so embarrassed. I think she was mad of me
for recording that video. I didn’t send her to Rashidi and company, I was recording for the sake
of entertainment.
I packed my clothes and I was ready to move into my new house. I was so excited, I promised
to visit Mbali once in a while.
When I got to my new house, I couldn’t believe a girl like me from a very small village in the
Eastern Cape can own a big house like this. I was very excited, if only I had my family by my
side, my friends. I just wished I could drag my pastor and ask him, “What about the city again?” I
was the happiest girl in the world.
Antonio came to visit me.
“Do you like your new house?” he asked.
“Yes, I love it”, I replied. I really did.
“I’m glad you like it. Now you know how I feel about you”
“Yes. I’ve never met a man who – ”
“Who what?”
“Who did everything for me. I thought that happened in the movies, this is too good to be true.
It’s like I’m living in a dream, I’m waiting for anyone to wake me up now”
“Well, can I pinch you? Because you’re not dreaming”
“Have I ever told you I love you?”
“Yes, but I don’t mind hearing that a million times”
“I love you Antonio”
“I love you too, Nosipho”
“You’re a great man Tony”
“Thank you. So, when am I meeting your family? You never talk much about your family”
“You never talk much about your family too”
“Well, my family live in Italy. But my parents once lived in South Africa for a while but they’re in
Italy now. What about your family?”
“They live in Eastern Cape”
“When am I meeting them?”
“Soon”
“I can’t wait to meet your family. I know they’re good people because you’re a great person.
You only come from the best”
“Yeah, they are. How’s your divorce going?”
“Oh, my divorce is going great. In a few days, I will be officially divorced”
“Is Bella going to get 50% of your stuff?”
“No! She came into my marriage with nothing, she will leave with nothing”
“Damn. I bet that’s good though”
“It is for me, for her? A nightmare”
“I want to have a braai. I want to invite a few friends, I just want to celebrate my new home”
“Sounds great, baby, that’s actually a great idea. Can I invite a few of my friends too?”
“Yes, why not? I like your friends, they’re cool people. Please invite them”
“I will. Babe, I have to go somewhere, I just remembered I had to deliver something to Martin”
“Martin?”
“Yeah, Raymond introduced Martin to me. I believe you’ve met him?”
“Met him?”
“You told me”
“I told you? Oh yes, I kinda know him because my friend is dating him”
“I have to deliver something to him”
“What’s that?”
“It’s just a letter”
“I can deliver it for you”
“What about work?”
“King Pin would understand”
“King Pin hates Martin”
“I will make up an excuse. I mean, he’s your friend, right? King Pin respects you, he will
understand”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah, give me the letter”
“Ok. Thank you so much babe”
Antonio rushed to his car and he came back with the letter.
“Here’s the letter”, he said.
“I’ll deliver it now, now”, I said.
“I’ll have a rest here”, said Antonio.
“Don’t worry baby, relax and take a well deserved rest”, I said.
I called Antonio and told him that I delivered the letter to Martin. I also told him about the double
date, he was also excited. I told him that I wasn’t going straight to my house, I’m going to work.
I drove to Poker Face Strip Club. Now that I’m no longer a stripper, I feel no pressure. I don’t
rely on tips or ballers anymore, thanks God!
When I entered the club, the manager told me that King Pin wants to have a word with me in his
office. I went to his office, he looked pissed off.
“Hey King Pin”, I greeted with a smile, I was trying to break the barrier.
“You’re late for work”, he said with a straight face.
“I know and I’m sorry”
“Sorry won’t fix anything. You’re not sorry, look at you”
“But I am though”
“Where were you? I hope you were getting some information on Raymond”
“I was with Antonio”
“And Raymond? How far are you?”
“Uhm…I’m still working on that”
“What have you found so far?”
“Uhm…I’m still working on that”
“Then work fast, what’s wrong with you? I trust you to get the job done”
“I will…just, chill”
“Leave my office and do your job”
If only King Pin knew I haven’t started with the Raymond operation. I’m too busy with my love
Antonio, he’s such a great man.
Work pays at the end of the day. Work hard, play hard!
**********
Antonio spent the night at my new house and I was really happy because that house is too big
for just one person. Antonio left early in the morning. I took a quick shower and I quickly went to
visit Mbali, I know she doesn’t have any classes.
I drove to Mbali’s flat, I knocked a couple of times before she opened the door. The flat looked
like she had a party last night, it looked untidy. I couldn’t believe a neat freak like her would let
something like this happen. Suddenly I heard a man’s voice saying, “Mbali who is that?”. I
looked at Mbali, I think I made her shy. The man came out of her room, why am I not surprised
it’s Rashidi. He was shirtless, had his socks and boxers on.
After work, I drove home and I dressed up for the double date. Antonio came and we drove in
his car.
When we got to his restaurant we waited for Martin and Foxy. I haven’t talked to Foxy in a
while.
We all ordered, ate and conversed. We laughed our asses off, I’m sure people thought we were
crazy.
I had an amazing time. Tomorrow Mbali is moving in, I can’t wait.
In the morning, I took a quick shower and I went to fetch Mbali. I didn’t tell her I was coming.
When I got to her flat, I knocked a couple of times but she didn’t answer me. I thought maybe
she was sleeping, I tried calling her but her phone was on voicemail. I shouted her name and
still no response. I just waited for a few minutes, I heard her unlocking the door. The door
opened, I thought it was Mbali but it was just her boyfriend Rashidi. He was wearing his boxers
and socks, he was shirtless. He opened the door but he didn’t open the gate.
“Can I help you?” he asked.
“Good morning, Rashidi. And yes I’m fine, thank you for asking”, I said mockingly.
“Mbali is asleep”, he said.
“Wake her up”, I said.
“It’s rude to wake someone up for a stupid reason”
“Stupid reason? Do you read minds now? Wake Mbali up”
“Your sugar daddy bought you a house and a car, go live your luxurious life and stop bugging
Mbali. You’re a bad influence to her, she’s a clever girl who’s doing great at school, don’t mess
things up for her. She’s studying towards a degree, she wants to be successful and work hard to
get whatever she wants. You’re an opportunist and an uneducated rural girl, you go around
claiming you’re a woman just because you sleep around with older men. You’re just a girl. Go
back to school and just go home”
What Rashidi said really hurt my feelings, I just felt like punching him or shooting him in the
head. I just told myself to remain calm and show no reaction, I didn’t want to satisfy him.
“Rashidi? Look who’s talking. You’re a vulture, you’re Raymond’s tail. You’re nothing without
Raymond. I see being the new manager at Raymond’s club really grew you some horns. You’re
a bitter boy, you think you can get over your feelings for me by bashing me? You’re afraid that
Mbali will see greener grass at the other side, huh? You’re the most insecure guy I’ve ever met.
Mr Nice Guy, you’re not as innocent as you present yourself to be. Does Raymond know that
you’re messing around with Linda? I bet not”, I said angrily.
“I’m not messing around with Linda”, he denied.
“Stop lying!” I shouted.
“Why are you so sure? You don’t have proof”
“I will…soon”
I just got into my car and left. I was so angry! Rashidi doesn’t know who he is dealing with. I
decided to surprise visit Foxy. The double date last night made me remember our good old
days. I drove to her flat.
It’s been a long while since I visited her. The gate was locked but her door was wide open. I
knocked on the door, I could hear her laughing out loud. Seems like she had a visitor. She came
to answer the door, I could see she was shocked to see me.
“Hey”, I greeted her.
“Hey doll, come in”, she said opening the gate.
I came in and I went to the sitting area, I was surprised to see Linda there. Am I dreaming?
What the hell is she doing here?
“What are you doing here?” I asked her.
“That’s not a good way to greet an old friend”, she said.
“Linda just came to visit me”, said Foxy.
I thought they hated each others guts.
“But you guys hate each other”, I said.
“Our men work together and we’ll be stupid to carry this useless feud”, said Linda.
“Yeah, it’s all in the past now and we’re concentrating on the future”, said Foxy.
I still haven’t forgiven Linda and I don’t want to ever be her friend again.
“I heard your man bought you a new house and car”, said Linda trying to be friendly. “I also
heard you quit pole dancing and you’re recruiting strippers and planning events”, she added.
I walked into King Pin’s office, he told me to close the door. I knew something was up.
“You’re late again”, he said. This time he was shouting, he was rather chilled. For a minute I
thought he was high.
“I know and I’m sorry”, I said.
“I see you have everything you ever wanted and your job doesn’t matter anymore. You have a
wealthy boyfriend, a brand new house and car. Life must be good”, he said.
“I don’t rely on my boyfriend for everything. I take this job really serious”
“If you weren’t Nosipho Ndamase then you wouldn’t be sitting here. I would’ve fired you”
“I’m glad you didn’t”
“I can’t let you go. No, you’re on a mission and I’m part of that too. It would be stupid of me to
let you go. Wouldn’t it?”
“I guess so”
“Found any dirt on Raymond? Any information or document?”
“I’m still working on it”
“Nosipho, I don’t think you heard me right. Have you found any dirt on Raymond? Any
information or document?”
“No”
“What is this? Mission impossible?”
“I’m working on it”
“How? Tell me Nosipho how are you working on it?”
“I’m doing things my way”
“And your way being shopping, eating in fancy restaurants, going to the salon and driving
around in a lambo?”
“No, I’m trying”
“You made a promise to me. Keep it”
“I am”
“You’re too slow. I want to see something in two days”
“Two days?”
“You’ve been asleep for a while. Wake up”
“How am I going to get anything in two days when almost everyone who works at Club Phoenix
hates me?”
“Rule number one, befriend your enemies”
“It’s not as easy, you know”
“If you know what you’re doing it’s easy. Or are you an amateur?”
“I’m not a professional but I will try”
“You’ve abandoned this mission. I’m slowly losing my patience”
“Don’t worry”
I went straight to work. I had to think of ways to get Raymond’s confidential documents.
I worked my butt off. When my shift ended, I decided to drive to Mbali’s flat. Luckily annoying
Rashidi wasn’t there.
“Packed yet?” I asked her.
“Yes, I thought you were not coming”, she said.
“I came earlier but you were sleeping”, I said.
“Strange. Rashidi didn’t tell me you came by”, she said.
“Are you fine?” I asked.
“I’m good”, she replied.
“Ok. Let me help you with the suitcases”, I said.
I dragged the suitcases to my car and we drove to my home.
As we were driving to my house, Mbali kept talking about the beautiful houses and how she’s
excited to see my house.
When we got to my house, I saw her jars dropping. She couldn’t believe she was going to live in
this big beautiful house.
“It’s huge, no wonder you didn’t want to stay alone”, she said.
That night we ordered takeaways.
**********
I’m just glad that Mbali is staying with me, I really enjoy her company. It’s better to live with
someone then no one, this house was too big for me.
Mbali went for her classes and I was left alone. I didn’t feel like going to work, King Pin is
already putting too much pressure on me regarding this Raymond thing.
King Pin sent me an SMS saying, “Need your help with something. Plz hurry”. I quickly drove to
the club.
There’s not much to do at work. We have lots of strippers and there’s no more recruiting I can
make. I just play cards on my computer.
Finally I went to deliver the package. The address was written there. The venue was
somewhere in Hillbrow.
**********
As I was driving to this place, I saw Raymond’s car parked next to a tree. He was inside his car,
talking to some girl. I didn’t see the girl properly but that wasn’t Linda. I slowed my car, I parked
in a parking lot full of cars. The girl came out of the his car, she was pregnant. I drove away. I
didn’t know what to make of it.
I drove to this place. It was a big house. I pressed the intercom and stated why I was there. The
gate opened. A security showed me inside the house.
There were many girls. I asked a few girls where Mr X’s office was and they directed me.
Mr X’s office was open, he was sitting on his chair which was facing away. I could only see his
back.
“Mr X? I have a delivery for you”, I said. He turned, and oh my goodness, I was surprised.
“Rashidi? What are you doing here?” I asked, I was surprised.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“I came to deliver this. What are you doing here?” I asked him again.
“I came to visit a friend”, he said.
“Where’s Mr X?”
“You can drop the package here, I’ll tell him – ”
“I can’t do that. I need to speak to Mr X”
“He’s out”
“The girls told me that he’s here”
“He’s out. Drop the package and leave”
“I’m afraid I can’t. I’ll come back tomorrow”
Rashidi quickly stood up and went to close the door.
“You don’t want any problem, right? Drop the package”, he said with a nasty look on his face.
“No!”
“Stop being fucking stupid!”
“Rashidi, let me first call King Pin”
“Don’t call him. Why can’t you listen to me? Drop the package and leave, is it that difficult?”
“I don’t trust you Rashidi”
The guest entered his office. How surprising can this be?
“Hey Nosipho, how are you?” asked Martin.
“I’m fine thanks, and you?”
“I’m great. Say hi to Antonio for me”
“I will”
“The atmosphere is tensed here, can I give you guys some time?” He asked.
“No, Nosipho was about to drop the package and leave”, said Rashidi.
I drove away. I can’t believe what just happened. Am I dreaming? I went straight home, I gave
King Pin a call and he was very happy that the package was safely delivered.
Mbali was watching tv and I joined her.
**********
The following day, I was looking forward to meeting Rashidi and hearing what he has to say. I
called King Pin and told him that I can’t come to work, he understood. I think if I didn’t deliver
that package, he wouldn’t be so okay about me taking a day off considering that I’m not even
sick.
Antonio was watering his plants. He smiled when he saw me, he dropped the hose pipe.
“Hey baby. What a pleasant surprise”, he said kissing me.
“I’ve missed you”, I said.
“Missed you too. Let’s go inside”, he said.
We went inside the house.
“Babe, can I get you anything?” He asked.
“No thanks”, I replied.
“What have you been getting up to?”
“Work, work and more work”
“Is Mbali comfortable in her new home?”
“Yes, she loves her new home”
“I’m glad”
“I was thinking of doing a mini party on Saturday just to celebrate my new house”
“I think that’s a great idea babe”
“You can invite a few of your friends”
“I will”
I had a long chat with Antonio. He is a very smart guy, he really motivated me a lot. I got an
SMS from Foxy, she wanted us to meet in Antonio’s restaurant. I left Antonio’s house
immediately.
My friendship with Foxy isn’t the same as before.
I couldn’t wait to see Foxy and ask her how things are going her side.
**********
When I got to Antonio’s restaurant, Foxy hasn’t arrived yet. I waited for her. Maybe twenty or so
minutes later, she arrived.
I didn’t know the meeting with Foxy would turn out so dull, I was expecting more.
I went to my house.
**********
Two days later.
It was Saturday and finally my house party. I spent the last two days shopping for decorations
and I’ve hired caterers. I also hired a DJ for my house party, it’s going to be fun.
By the way, King Pin gave me a lecture about that Raymond thing. I’m really not putting much
effort, not intentionally though. Anyway, my party was in session.
Antonio invited Raymond, and he came with Linda. Martin was with Foxy and Mbali invited
Rashidi. Antonio’s other friends were there, I invited a few people from the club.
The DJ was playing some good music, people were really enjoying their themselves. I didn’t
want Raymond nor Linda there but Raymond is Antonio’s friend. Foxy and Linda were all giggly,
it was annoying. I didn’t want to pay attention to Linda and Raymond, I just started drinking.
Mbali was dancing like a crazy woman, it’s good to see she’s having fun. I went inside to have a
glass of water. When I was in the kitchen, I felt someone’s hand touching my shoulder. I turned,
and it was Martin.
“Hey Martin. You want a glass of water?” I asked.
“No”, he replied.
“Ok”
“I have a gift for you Nosipho”
“A gift for me?”
“Yes…here”
Martin gave me a box.
“Open it”, he said.
I opened the box and it was a beautiful silver necklace.
“It’s beautiful but I can’t accept it”, I said.
“Why not? When I saw it I thought of”, he said.
Cheesy.
“I can’t, I mean, what will Foxy say?” I asked.
“She will understand”, he said.
“It’s really beautiful”
“Just like you”
“Why are you doing this?”
“You are my friend’s girl. And my friend”
“Your friends’ girls are lucky”
“They are. Let me help you wear it”
“Right now?”
“If you want”
“Uh- not really but thank you for the gift”
“You’re welcome”
“Let’s go back to the party”
It was so thoughtful of Martin. We went back to the party, people were really enjoying
themselves. Raymond went to dance next to me.
“Your house is beautiful”, he said.
“I know”, I said.
“You have a lot going on for yourself, I’m glad”, he said with a smile.
“Are you surprised?” I asked.
“I knew you were going to end well”, he said.
“When did you know? After or before you drugged me?”
“That happened months ago. Can’t you put that behind you?”
“Everytime I try, I always see you and your useless girlfriend”
“Can we talk in private?”
“Make it quick”
Foxy left for her shift and few hours later the house party was over.
There’s so much cleaning to do.
**********
Mbali went for her shifts at Antonio’s restaurant.
I had a strange dream about my mother last night. She was carrying a gun in my dream. I was
driving my brother’s taxi, Foxy was sitting on the passenger’s seat. It was dark, just when my
brother’s taxi approached the robot lights, my mom pointed a gun at us. She was wearing her
church uniform, she pointed the gun at us and kept talking in tongues. I woke up.
The dream was strange.
I decided to rethink my plans. I don’t want to be involved with the likes of King Pin and Raymond
anymore. As much as I don’t like Raymond, I just want to end this drama. I want to start my life
over. I want to do a spring cleaning in my life.
I don’t want to get caught up in unnecessary drama. There’s so much I know but I won’t snitch. I
knew I had to tell King Pin that I’m stepping out.
I decided to drive to King Pin’s club. When I got there, King Pin wasn’t happy to see me.
“Hi King Pin”, I greeted him.
“Hey”, King Pin greeted back.
“I just came by because I have something important to discuss with you”, I said. My heart was
beating fast.
“You found anything on Raymond yet?” He asked.
“About that, no – ”
“No? Are you insane?”
“No! I’m pulling out!”
“Pulling out? Why would you do such a thing?”
“I can’t do it anymore”
“What’s wrong? You still have feelings for the guy?”
“No! I don’t want drama in my life”
“Drama will always follow you. You can’t pull out, you made a promise to me”
“It wasn’t a promise”
“Then what was it?”
“I was very angry back then! I wanted to get back at him but I don’t have strength anymore. It
happened months ago, I just want to forget it”
“I can’t believe you”
“I know you gave me the job because I told you I wanted to help you bring down Raymond but
you can take your job. I quit”
“No one plays King Pin like that. I gave you a job and in return you had to help me get some
important documents from Raymond’s office”
“Find someone else”
“Look, you’re not out of this as yet. When I have those documents, you’re out”
“I don’t want to”
“You have to”
“Or what?”
“Or you may regret it”
“What are you going to do?”
“You don’t want to know”
“King Pin, I can repay you every cent you payed me working in this place”
“I don’t want Antonio’s money, I want the documents”
“How can I access the documents? Raymond doesn’t keep confidential documents in his office”
“You will make a way”
“Why are you so hungry for these documents?”
“Greed”
“His house is secured, I can’t even try my luck there”
“You will have to befriend your enemies, come one Nosipho, I told you this long time ago”
“What’s written in these documents anyway?”
“Everything I need to know about that club”
“Like what?”
“Everything but the tender application will be a bonus. Raymond is the only club owner who has
that application, I would kill for that application”
“I can’t do it King Pin, in the beginning I thought I could but I’m an amateur, I’m clueless”
“Do you know what’s the easiest option?”
“What?”
“Your boyfriend is the biggest contributor in Raymond’s club and I’m sure he has all sorts of
documents and – ”
“No! I can’t steal from my boyfriend, not after everything he did to me”
“It’s not stealing, it’s bailing yourself out of this mess”
“I can’t”
“You’re so stubborn. You need to sort yourself out. It’s either breaking into Raymond’s house or
stealing from your boyfriend”
Mbali came back from her shift. I went to the lounge, she didn’t look happy.
“A colleague giving you hell?” I asked.
“No”, she replied.
“What’s up with the long face?” I asked.
“I’m just tired of this Italian woman always bugging me”, she said.
“Italian woman?”
“Antonio’s ex wife”
“That Bella lady? What does she want from you?”
“I don’t know. She always gives me hell, just because I’m your friend doesn’t mean I have
anything to do with Antonio. He’s just my boss”
“She’s a bitter old granny. Just ignore her”
“I can’t ignore her, it’s my job to cater for the customer, remember?”
“Don’t worry Mbali, I’ll let Antonio know”
“Please”
“I will”
“Anyway, I hope this evening’s date with Rashidi will cheer me up”
“What’s your deal with this man?”
“We’re dating, duh!”
“I know but do you really, really, really like him that much?”
“I really, really, really like him. Why are you asking me this? Am I being clingy or…?”
“No, no! You’re just alright. I was just asking. Sometimes Mr Nice Guys have a lot to hide, deep
inside they may not be nice guys”
“Rashidi is different”
“Oh?”
“Yep, ok, let me get ready for my date”
5 HOURS LATER
Mbali was on her date, I decided to surprise my man, maybe cook him some dinner and…see
where the night leads us. I sent Mbali a text that I was at Antonio’s house just in case she
comes back earlier than me.
I told Antonio about Bella giving Mbali problems at work and he promised to ban her from ever
coming to the restaurant. I cooked him dinner, he hasn’t had homemade food in ages, he says.
These days I have to admit I eat takeaways, my mom would be angry. I can hear her voice
saying, “Ulivila”(lazy person).
I dished Antonio the food I cooked. Rice and beef stew, well, he loved my food. Luckily he had a
vanilla flavored ice cream, so that was our dessert.
After eating the delicious food I cooked, we had our own make out session.
I decided to pour Antonio’s favourite wine. Not for me but Antonio. I poured him, glass after
glass as we conversed. “You seem to be in a good mood. What did I do to deserve all of this?”
he asked taking a sip.
“Aren’t you my man?” I asked.
“I’m a lucky man. Go ahead, pour yourself some wine”, he said.
He was a bit tipsy.
“It’s fine, I’m driving anyway”, I said.
“Driving? You can spend the night here. Imagine what else we can get up to, just thinking about
it gives me a boner”, he said.
“Maybe next time I can sleep over”
“Babe, you can spend the night here. This is your house also”
“Next time”
“Babe come on”
“Maybe next time”
“Alright. May that next time be soon”
“It will. Let me fill you up babe”
“Are you trying to get me drunk or what? I’m a bit tipsy now. Yeah, fill my glass babe”
I filled up his glass.
“Let me go to the bathroom. My bladder is gonna blast”, said Antonio stumbling to the bathroom.
“Oh shit! I nearly fell”, he said.
When he was in the bathroom, I quickly went to his office. I checked his drawers, my heart was
pounding. Maybe I’ll find something in here, I checked but I couldn’t find anything. I heard the
bathroom door open, I quickly rushed to the lounge and acted like I was busy texting on my
phone.
“How about some music?” He asked reaching for the remote. He switched on his mp3 player.
I won’t lie, the music was crap.
“My favorite Italian contemporary jazz artist”, he said dancing like he lost his leg.
“Dance baby! Dance baby! Dance baby!” I cheered him on.
My phone rang, it was Mbali. She arrived and she wanted the keys, I told her to ask Rashidi to
drive her to Antonio’s house. I gave her the directions.
“Let me give you a sexy massage babe”, I said. I know by the time I’m done massaging him,
he’ll be sleeping. We went to his bedroom. I took his shirt off, he was too drunk to do that by
himself.
He laid on his stomach, I began massaging his back. I heard a car horn, might be Mbali.
“I’ll be right back”, I told Antonio. He was mumbling, I think I kinda waked him up.
I reached for my house keys in my handbag. I went outside, I gave Mbali the house keys.
“Are you spending the night here?” Asked Mbali.
“Uhm – I don’t think so, no. I’ll arrive later, I don’t know when but I’ll sleep in my house tonight”, I
said.
“Alright. Go do your thing girl”, said Mbali.
I went inside.
I hope Antonio is asleep. I just want to get this over and done.
**********
As I was approaching his bedroom, I heard him snoring. He was loud, sounded like there was a
construction site nearby. I entered his bedroom just to make sure that he was sleeping. He was
asleep, finally I went confidently into his office.
I searched the office, I opened his cabinets. I still couldn’t find anything. I remember walking to
this office for the first time, I saw his confidential files. I sat on his chair and I looked around.
Where will Antonio put his confidential files? I was thinking hard, I was looking at his cabinets. I
asked myself, what’s wrong with these cabinets? I stood up. I pushed the drawers back and
suddenly the cabinet opened. I always saw this in the movies, the cabinet opened itself. There
was a fake brick wall. It had handles, so I pulled the handles and I saw multiple files.
I tippy toed outside Antonio’s office just to check if he was still asleep, he was. I quickly went in
his office and I browsed through the files. There were many files, I didn’t know what I was
looking for. Other files were written in Italian, which I don’t understand. I saw an application, it
was a tender application. It was worth millions of rands, I saw multiple tender applications. I took
one application and I quickly placed everything in the drawer.
I left his office, I took my handbag and I placed the application in my car storage. I closed his
door and I left immediately.
I drove to King Pin’s club.
I just want to get this shit done…
**********
The time was like 12am. I arrived in the club, I went straight to King Pin’s office. His door was
closed, I knew he was talking with someone. I decided to wait. He was taking some time, I was
getting a bit irritated now and so impatient.
I thought to myself, maybe no one was inside. I went to ask the manager if King Pin was in his
office and he said yes.
“King Pin is in the office with some girl”, he said.
“Does the girl work here?” I asked.
“No. She looks familiar though, I don’t know where I know her from”, he said.
“How long have this girl been there?” I asked.
“For over an hour or so, I don’t know”
“Ok, thanks”
I went to my office, well, I did quit my job. It’s not really my office but I went to wait there.
After a few minutes, I heard people coming to my office. I heard a girl saying, “I can’t wait to
start working”. I stood up and King Pin entered with Foxy. I was shocked.
“Foxy? What are you doing here?” I asked.
She didn’t answer me.
“Foxy will take over your position as of tomorrow”, said King Pin.
“Wow. You really couldn’t wait for me to leave”, I said.
“I decided to quit, didn’t you? Or are you having second thoughts?” He asked.
“Of course not”, I said.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“I can give you guys some time to sort whatever you have going on”, said Foxy.
“You can stay, King Pin I have to talk to you privately in your office”, I said.
“What’s up? Don’t tell me you want your old job back”, he said.
“No. I have something for you”, I said.
“Ok?”
“I told you I don’t want anything to do with this Raymond thing. It’s getting tiring and old, I want
to be free – ”
“We had a deal, I don’t like people whose bark is worse than their bite”
“Don’t worry, I did stick to my word”
King Pin cracked a smile.
“This might not be bringing Raymond down, but it is any business man’s dream”, I said handing
him the application.
He took the application, his smile disappeared. He decided to read the application. I was so
nervous, I was anxiously waiting for him to say something. As he was reading, he kept widening
his eyes. I don’t know if that’s a good or bad sign.
“This isn’t bringing Raymond down, yes. For the past two years, ever since I heard about these
tender applications. I always wanted to get my hands on these. I know a few trustworthy people
that would be happy to help me win this bid. I mean lawyers, there’s this lawyer, he’s really good
and he’s my friend. He always wins these bids. You know why? Because he works for a
company that’s linked to the one that gives out these. These are really scarce and when they’re
out, everyone wants them. It’s hard to get these, some scumbag lawyers once offered to help
me get one of these. I paid him R100 000 in the first week but it was too low, as he said. I paid
him another R100 000, maybe he’ll convince them I told myself but he came back the next week
with another story. He told me that his friend who works in that company had many requests for
the same applications and many people paid him more and so I had to pay more. If you have
been following this story, I paid this lawyer R200 000 already. For the third time, I paid him R300
000, now that’s R500 000. He still came back with another story. This time I was fed up, I told
him to give me back all of my money because he failed his job. He told me stories, I found out
from the guy who’s gonna help me with this bid that he was spending my money. Since the fool
worked in that company, he already had the applications. He fooled me, I thought he was trying
to get me those applications from a colleague. Thinking about it now, it’s really funny. I hope he
was around to laugh at that shit with me, we would have some whiskey, smoke cigars and play
jazz in the background as we laugh at that shit together”, King Pin narrated.
“Where is he now?” I asked.
“Dead”, he replied.
“Shame. What happened?” I asked.
“Nobody messes with me and gets away with it”, he said.
My heart started beating fast.
“I’ve been too nice to you”, he said.
“I never did anything wrong”, I said.
“Many times, but I always ignore”
“I’ve been good to you”
“Do you want me to tell you another story?”
“Uh- no, it’s really late. I have to go”
“Come on. Take a seat”
“I really have to go”
“Please?”
“I won’t be long”
“Thank you”
I sat on the chair, King Pin was walking up and down.
“You taught me a lot of things, I don’t know if you know that. I’m not that “please” or “thank you”
kind of man but you’ve made me say those things. It’s weird. Anyway, I have to tell you this
crazy story. Years ago, a guy from Durban came to Jozi for work. I took this guy under my
wings, I taught him everything he needed to know about these streets. After I molded him, he
decided to work for a rich Italian guy. The Italian guy was a mob and his family was one of the
most respected mob families in Italy. I felt betrayed and I told myself, he’s coming back to me. I
was right, he came back to me because he wasn’t treated right by this Italian guy. I couldn’t
accept him, I told him if he wants me to trust him again, he should spy on the Italian guy for me.
He did that. He spied and he also got ahold of some information for me. He earned my trust but
I there was a huge part of me that didn’t trust him. I had to go sort out some people and he was
with me. He was the only one that saw me sort out these people, by sort out I mean shoot.
When we got back from the shooting, he acted different. I didn’t like the way he was acting, the
kid wasn’t a good liar, I knew if he was ever cornered by the police he would tell everything. I
also hope he was still around so we can chat about the past and just laugh at our little stupid
conflicts”, said King Pin.
“Why did you kill him?” I asked.
“Because he will keep the secret”, he said.
“And the lawyer that’s going to represent you on this bid, are you going to kill him?” I asked.
“No”, he replied.
“Oh…ok…I think I’ll leave now, your stories are really interesting”, I said.
“No, sit down. I can pour you something to drink. I have more stories to tell or are you getting
bored?”
“No, of course not. Your stories are…interesting”
“Can I pour you something to drink?”
“No thanks”
“Alright. Remember when I first saw you? I laugh everytime I think about it. Do you also
remember the restaurant incident? Too funny, don’t you think?”
“Very funny”
“Look what you’ve missed. All of this, this and this. Now you ended up with an old man. Tell
me, how many tablets of viagra does he use to satisfy such a beautiful woman?”
“He’s not that old. What is viagra?”
“Viagra helps old men with their erectile dysfunction”
“No, he doesn’t take those tablets. He’s not that old”
“He’s your sugar daddy”
“Antonio isn’t my sugar daddy”
“If you’re saying he’s not your sugar daddy, you’re in denial. Which guy would buy a house and
a car for a girl they met a few weeks?”
“He loves me”
“Do you love him?”
“Of course!”
“If I were you, I would ask myself, why did he buy me a house and a car – ”
“It’s because he loves me”
“You’re a beautiful girl Nosipho, any man would be hypnotised by your beautiful. We both know
why things have been too easy for you. I have to admit, I was lying to myself. After the
restaurant incident, I was like, fuck that girl. Whatever. But ever since you worked here, I kinda
felt this feeling again. I’m not romantically feeling you, I never was. I’m just sexually attracted to
you, I just wanna fuck and leave”
“You haven’t told me if you accept that application or not”
“Haven’t you been listening to what I said”
” I have but – ”
“What did I say?”
“You said a lot”
“Like what?”
“Obviously you don’t want people to backstab you”
“And?”
“And…you kill people?”
“Not just any people, sources”
I phoned Mbali and I told her that I was renting a hotel. She was confused. I think she believed
me.
King Pin is just a pervert but I thought he was going to kill me. I just want to get things done. I
just have to do what I have to.
We got to King Pin’s house. He went to heat the jacuzzi water.
“First we have to go in there”, he said.
“I don’t usually go to the jacuzzi. It’s been a long time”, I said.
“This would be your most memorable”, he said. “You can undress in that room”, he added.
He was in his boxers and I was in my bra and panty. We went into the jacuzzi. He held my waist
and whispered, “So this is what Antonio is dealing with, huh?” He pulled me towards him and I
could feel his boner pressing my belly button. He lifted my chin and he began kissing me. His
warm tongue sliding inside my mouth. I closed my eyes. I could feel his hands grasping my butt,
squeezing my butt. I won’t lie, I was enjoying it.
We kissed a minutes, and minutes and minutes. He pulled away, he went out of the jacuzzi and
he helped me out. He was so strong. We kissed as we were standing besides the jacuzzi, he
told me to jump on him, I did. We went to his bedroom, I playfully threw me on his bed. He didn’t
care about his bed getting wet, he opened my legs. We began kissing, he was laying between
my legs. I could feel his boner. He began planting kisses on different parts of my face, he went
down to my tummy. He licked my tummy, I told me to sit up, I did exactly that. He took off my
bra and I laid on my back again.
My nipples were hard, he looked at me and smiled. He whispered, “You’re enjoying it, nipples
don’t lie”. He began licking and sucking my nipples. My whole body tingled. He planted kisses
on my chest, he went down…stomach…he went down…belly button…he went
down…there…he took off my panty. He began licking and doing whatever he was doing. I
moaned. He kept licking, I was breathing heavily. I grabbed the duvet tight, I shouted, “Shit!” He
stopped and went to the bathroom. I sat up and waited for him.
When he got back, he just went to open his wardrobe. I looked at him, I was confused, why isn’t
he doing what he just did?
“Hey! What’s up now? Are you gonna leave me hanging?” I asked.
“No, I came for this”, he said holding a baby oil bottle.
“And now?” I asked.
“Ever heard of a lube?” He asked.
“Lube? That’s a baby oil”
“You have a lot to learn, but you’ll see when I use it”
He placed the, “lube” next to the bed lamp. He resumed where he left. After that he took off his
boxers.
“Suck”, he said.
“Eeuw! No thanks”, I said.
“If I can lick your pussy, why can’t you suck my dick?”
“I’ve never done this before”
“You’ll learn. Just don’t bite, open your mouth”
I can’t believe I agreed to do that. I opened my mouth and he began stuffing his dick in my
mouth, I gagged.
Finally we had sex. I won’t lie, I enjoyed every second and minute. We used a condom, by the
way. I fell asleep shortly after having sex.
I feel like a dirty skunk…
*********
King Pin woke me up early in the morning. I had to lie to Mbali and tell her I was on my way.
“I don’t do those cheesy breakfast in bed and cuddling shit”, said King Pin.
“I don’t expect you to. Anyway, I have a man”, I said.
“Yesterday I made you forgot you had a man, remember? I don’t blame you though”
“That will never happen again King Pin”
“It was nice doing business with you. You are good in bed as you’re good looking. Don’t act like
you didn’t enjoy it, I made you scream”
“Whatever”
“You were screaming, “King Pin! King Pin! Oooh King Pin!” You loved every second of it”
“When are we leaving?”
“On a serious note, it was great doing business with you. Your pussy is good”
“This stays between us”
“I can keep a secret, don’t worry”
“I hope so”
“You don’t think I can keep a secret?”
“I didn’t say that”
“Where did I put the car keys?”
“I don’t know”
“Shit!”
“So…tell me, what’s up with you and Foxy?”
“You’ve only slept with me once and you’re jealous?”
“Really, what’s up?”
“She wanted a job”
“Weird”
“Huh?”
“Weird. It’s not so long ago I had a chat with her. She wasn’t happy about the changes the new
club owner did. She never showed any signs of being interested in leaving her old club. I was
shocked to see her there, it’s so sudden and weird. I don’t know why she would accept the job,
you’re not his boyfriend’s favorite person”
“A job is a job, I didn’t even think about Martin”
“Really? What are you up to this time around?”
“Nothing, can’t I recruit? Don’t tell me you’re judging me, you out of all people”
“I’m not judging you, I just know you’re up to something. I know you”
“You know me because we’re the same person?”
“Same person? Me and you? You got that wrong”
“You’re just a female version of King Pin but you’re more emotional and soft”
“I’m not soft”
“You’re not hard”
“I’m hardcore”
“If you were really hardcore, you would’ve got me Raymond’s documents. You’re soft, you let
your emotions control the situation”
“I’m not the only person in the world that’s like that”
“Yeah, you’re one of them. I think I remember where I hid the car keys”
King Pin opened his wardrobe and found the car keys. I did take a short shower, King Pin drove
to his club. He made his way inside the club and I drove to my house.
This is a ride or die world…
As I was driving my car inside my yard, I saw Rashidi rushing to his car. I stopped the car and
came out of my car. I went straight to Rashidi’s car.
Rashidi drove away. I drove my car in my garage and I went inside the house.
“Why did you sleep in the hotel?” asked Mbali.
“Because I can”, I said.
“You have money, hey? If I had money just like you, I would do the same too”, she said.
“I don’t have money”
“Doesn’t your boyfriend give you money?”
“I’m not a gold digger”
“Oh…I didn’t mean to rub you off the wrong way”
“It’s cool. I’m just tired”
“I’m also tired”
“Aren’t you going to school today?”
“I’m tired”
“Oh?”
“I’m going to sleep”
I gave Antonio a call just to hear if he was okay. I told him what he did when he was drunk and
he laughed. He couldn’t remember a thing, he told me that as promised he fixed the Bella issue.
Bella was officially banned from entering the restaurant. I was so happy to hear that, I know
Mbali will be relieved.
I tried calling Foxy but her phone was off, I just wanted to have a chat with her. Ok, I’m lying, I
just wanted to know what’s up with her and King Pin. She’s probably at work. I decided to
visit…Martin, he’s my boyfriend’s friend and my friend.
**********
I drove to Martin’s house.
I knocked for a while before he opened the door.
Martin went to the kitchen and came back with a glass of orange juice and some biscuits.
“The other day, when I delivered that package. What were you doing with Rashidi and is he
really Mr X?”, I asked curiously.
“I met Rashidi through Raymond. He’s a cool guy and a good friend”, he said.
“So…is he Mr X?”
“I don’t know, maybe, I don’t know”
“He told me he’s Mr X, I didn’t buy it. Why would he order a package from King Pin?”
“Why wouldn’t he?”
“He told me that a guy who owned that house is the one who ordered the package”
“I don’t know, maybe”
“Are you friends with this guy?”
“Yeah”
“What’s this guy’s name?”
“You ask too many questions. His name is Jack. Can we talk about something else?”
“How’s your relationship with Foxy?”
“Okay”
“Is it just okay?”
“It’s alright. She’s cool”
“You still haven’t told me why you told Raymond to convince me to sleep with you in order for
him to save your partnership”
“That was long time ago”
“I still want to know”
“You want to know?”
“Yeah and I also want to know if he sacrificed Foxy”
“Mischief is the answer and no, he didn’t sacrifice Foxy”
“Then what did he do to save your partnership?”
“You ask too many questions”
“I want to know”
“I can’t tell you everything or is it why you’re here? You want answers?”
“No, no, no I just came to see a friend”
“For a minute I thought you were a detective”
“Sorry, I get carried away sometimes”
I left Foxy’s flat, I was boiling with anger. I drove to King Pin’s club. I couldn’t believe Antonio
has a history with a lot of girls, he even had sex with Mbali? I couldn’t believe it! Maybe Foxy
was saying that to break my friendship with Mbali.
I had to speak to King Pin.
I was furious. I made my way to King Pin’s office, his door was closed. I didn’t care what was
going on inside, I opened the door violently. What I saw really shocked me.
I saw Rashidi accept a brown envelope from King Pin.
“What the fuck are you doing here bitch? Can’t you knock? Huh?” asked King Pin.
I looked at Rashidi, we stared at each other, he looked away.
“It’s urgent”, I said.
Rashidi left the office.
“Can’t you knock?” asked King Pin.
“Why are you going around telling people that I sucked your dick?” I asked furiously.
“Am I lying?” He asked.
“You said you were going to keep it a secret”
“And I did. What do you want?”
“Then why did Foxy tell me that you’re telling people that I sucked your dick? How would she
have possibly know that?”
“Why would I go around telling people what I did with you in the bedroom? That’s absurd!”
“How would she know King Pin? Heh?”
“Foxy is a mental bitch! I didn’t tell anyone that shit! If you believe that shit, then believe it!”
“What was Rashidi doing here?”
“You’re so nosy”
“A brown envelope King Pin? What was in there? Money? What job did he do for you?”
“Bitch get out of my face. I gave you your life, go and live your life. You would have been in
heaven by now, well, hell. Get out of my face”
“I kept my promise King Pin. I hope you do as well”
I left. When I was approaching my car, Rashidi was waiting for me. He was leaning against my
car.
“Back off my car”, I said angrily. I was upset about what happened in there with King Pin and my
argument with that whore, Foxy.
“Just in case you were wondering, this isn’t for me. It’s for a friend”, said Rashidi.
“I don’t care, I wasn’t even wondering”, I said. I got into my car, just when I was about to close
the car door, Rashidi grabbed the door.
“Don’t tell anyone what you saw today”, he said.
“I have my own problems to deal with, why would I go around telling people that you’re
rewarded by King Pin for doing a great job at whatever you’re doing? Why would I?” I asked.
“Hey, hey, hey, he’s not rewarding me. This is for a friend”, he said defending himself.
“Who’s this friend? Why does he or she have to be so anonymous? Why?”
“I can’t tell you who he is”
“Oh, he’s a guy?”
“Just promise me you won’t tell anyone”
“And if I do?”
“I know some of your deepest darkest secrets”
“Ha-ha-ha”
“I’m serious. I know you wanted to bring Raymond down but failed”
“Who told you that? King Pin?”
“King Pin? What does he have to do with that?”
“I was just guessing”
“You keep my secrets, I keep yours”
“I thought you said that envelope was for a friend, why must that be a secret? Anyway, me
wanting to bring Raymond down wasn’t a secret. Everyone knows I hate him”
“That’s not the only secrets I know”
“Can I go now?”
“Promise?”
“Can I go now?”
“Promise?”
“Ok, I promise. I don’t know what makes you think I’m interested in whatever you have going
on. I have my own problems to deal with”
I drove away. I went to my house, Mbali was attending her classes, I decided to watch tv then
drive to my man’s house.
Not having a job really makes one very bored, especially me.
I drove to Antonio’s house. By the way, I bought takeaways, I hope he hasn’t had lunch.
Hmm…
**********
I parked my way car outside Antonio’s yard. I opened the gate and I went inside. I knocked on
his door, no answer. I knocked again, no answer. Maybe he’s not home. I shouted his name. He
told me he was coming, he was on the shower. I waited.
He opened the door, he had a towel wrapped around his waist. He was barefoot, he kissed me
on the lips. I went inside, he closed the door.
“How are you baby?” He asked, he was out of breathe.
“I’m okay. Babe, who knew rushing out of the shower makes someone this out of breathe”, I
said.
“Yeah. How was your day babe?”
“My day was horrible”
“What happened?”
“Long story”
“Tell me”
“I had an argument with Foxy”
“I thought you two were good friends, what went wrong?”
“We were chatting and we ended up arguing. Your name came up, in a nasty way”
“My name? Fill me in”
“Foxy told me that you have a history with her, Linda and other strippers that work for
Raymond. I hope I’m not just another black girl”
“No, no, I love you. You know that”
Antonio went to sit next to me, he kissed me on my cheek.
“That was in the past. I’m with you now, I gave you a house and a car. I love you”
“I know you love me but sometimes when things from the past come up like this, I just don’t
know what to make of it”
“I’m sorry babe, I’m sorry you had to find out like that”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Why would I tell you about someone I had a fling with years ago?”
“Foxy is my friend”
“I know, but that’s all in the past”
“I don’t know”
“You never told me about Raymond”
I was surprised.
“I don’t want to talk about him”
“You see? Please don’t let me talk about my past flings”
“Are you going somewhere?”
“Uhm…yeah, I was going to see how things are going in my restaurant”
I looked down. I don’t know if I should ask him about Mbali, maybe Foxy was lying. Mbali is in
love with Rashidi, maybe I should just keep quiet.
Antonio went to the kitchen. His pants were tangled, it looks like he was in a hurry when he took
them off. His bedroom door was not fully open, his tangled pants looked neglected. I stood up
and went to untangle them, fold them and place them neatly on his bed. I looked around,
something was weird. Antonio said he was taking a shower but his face cloth was on his bed
and DRY. I heard Antonio’s phone ringing, he went outside to answer it. I decided to rush to the
bathroom. There were no signs that he took a shower and rushed to open the door. He looked
like he faked the whole thing.
I came out of the bathroom. Antonio came inside the house.
“Here’s your glass of juice”, said Antonio giving me the glass.
“Thank you”, I said.
As we went to the lounge, I saw an item of clothing behind the couch. Antonio saw it too. He
picked it up.
“Baby, here’s your blouse. You might have forgotten it”, he said.
“This isn’t my blouse”, I said.
“What? This is your blouse”, he insisted.
“This isn’t my blouse! Don’t I know my clothes now? That doesn’t belong to me”, I said.
“What do you have to say? I thought you said you loved me”, I said with tears rushing down my
face.
“Babe, I know what I did was wrong and I’m really sorry. But you made me do that, you don’t
pay attention to me”, he said.
“My fault? How can I be responsible for you cheating on me? I wanted to ask you earlier if Foxy
was right. Guess what? She was right”, I said.
“You don’t pay attention to me and you don’t want to even have sex with me”
“How long has this been happening?”
“Me and Mbali are not in any relationship”
“How long?”
“A few weeks”
“And what’s a few weeks Antonio?”
“Only two weeks. But you know how I feel about you”
“I’m going. I need to sleep”
“Please forgive me”
“The dinner is off”
“Babe, please. I’m begging you”
“Bye”
I went out of his house. My heart was shattered into pieces, I didn’t know Antonio out of all
people would do this to me. I drove to my house.
I have to admit, karma is a bitch.
**********
When I got home I decided to throw Mbali’s clothes out. I was so angry, I threw her clothes in
the street and in my yard.
Mbali knocked on the door, I didn’t answer the door. I saw her picking up her clothes. I opened
the door. She was a bit scared to come in.
“Come in and explain to me”, I said.
She was shaking.
“I don’t have an explanation, I deserve everything you are going to do to me. You can kick me
out of your house, I understand. Sorry won’t change what happened. I don’t have an
explanation”, she said.
“Why him?” I asked.
“The first time I had sex with him, I was drunk. I’m going through a hard time, my relationship
with Rashidi turned sour. He wasn’t happy and I wasn’t happy, we were trying to make each
other happy. He came with a bottle of wine, you weren’t here. We started talking and we drank
wine. I started confessing some stuff and he confessed too, then we started making out. We
had sex. We were unhappy people”, she explained.
“Two weeks?” I asked.
“I’m going through a hard time. I am right now. Antonio loves you, I just wanted to be loved”
“Wanted to be loved by a man who has a girlfriend?”
“No. I’m just saying”
“You have something going on with Rashidi. You tell me everytime that you love him – ”
“I do but sometimes he…he’s not the Rashidi I know”
“I’m hurt Mbali. I didn’t think you had it in you to do such a thing. You are the only real friend I
have. How am I going to trust you again?”
“You can trust me. I swear I won’t do that again – ”
“What if your relationship with Rashidi turns sour? Are you going to rush to Antonio?”
“That won’t happen again”
“I think you should move out”
“I won’t do that again, I promise”
“I want to trust you but I can’t”
“I know I did you wrong but I’m a human being, sorry to sound like a complete asshole.
Everyone makes mistakes, don’t tell me you never made mistakes in your life”
“I have…plenty”
“Put yourself in my shoes”
“I think you should leave, now”
“Please”
“If I didn’t find out today, the affair would have continued”
“It wouldn’t”
“It would. If I didn’t bust you”
“I still want to be your friend”
“I don’t trust you anymore”
“I don’t blame you. At least tell me that you’re still my friend”
“I don’t know, Mbali”
“You’ve done a lot for me. I appreciate you, very much. Where must I go?”
“To your old flat or Rashidi’s house”
“Someone lives in my old flat”
“Go to Rashidi’s house”
“I can’t”
“He’s your boyfriend”
“I know but our relationship is sour at the moment”
“Then look for a place to live elsewhere”
“Are you going to let me live on the streets?”
“Why should you stay here? Go to Rashidi’s house”
“I can’t”
“Why not? Why?”
“Because he beats me. I’m afraid of him. He has some anger issues. I can’t live with him”
“He’s abusing you?”
“It’s not abuse, it’s just – ”
“Don’t defend him! He’s abusing you”
“I’m not an abuse victim”
“You’re in denial”
“He doesn’t beat me all the time. He’s a good guy but sometimes he takes work stress at
home”
“You’re a smart girl, dump his ass. He doesn’t deserve you”
“I like him a lot”
“Look, things will never be the same between us. If you show me you’re willing to make this
friendship work, then we can continue our friendship. What you did was wrong. I don’t forgive
and forget, but I’m learning. I’ve done a lot of things out of anger and I don’t want to be that
crazy girl again. You can stay in my house but you must promise me to never do what you did
again. If you do it again, I swear I’ll make you pay”
“I won’t. I swear, thank you for letting me stay. I really appreciate it”
I’ve cheated on Antonio before and I stole from him. I can’t act innocent but at the same time I
feel betrayed by my own friend. I can’t let her go now, I don’t have anyone in Jozi besides
Antonio and her.
Once again, karma is a bitch.
**********
I woke up the next morning, I felt like everything that happened yesterday was a dream. I
received many text messages from Antonio. He was apologising non-stop.
Mbali went to her classes. I decided to go out, like go eat out. I had a lot on my mind.
I didn’t go to Antonio’s restaurant. I went to a new restaurant that recently opened. A waitress
came to me and I ordered something to eat. As I was sitting waiting for my order, I couldn’t stop
thinking…how did Foxy know that Mbali was sleeping with Antonio? How did he know about
King Pin? My order came and I ate.
As I was eating, Linda entered the restaurant. She was asking people if they were enjoying their
food, weird. She disappeared, maybe she went to the restaurant’s kitchen. I called a waitress
and asked if she knew Linda. The waitress replied, “Yes, she’s my boss. She owns this
restaurant together with her fiancé”. I wasn’t surprised.
Linda was in sight again, she went towards me. Oh my goodness, I’m not in the mood.
“I hope you’re enjoying your food”, she said.
“Yeah”, I replied.
“Thanks for coming to this restaurant, I hope you come again. You can refer your friends here if
you wish”, she said. “Yeah”, I said in a low tone.
She left. I saw her going to another table, she said the same thing. She acted like I was just a
customer and she didn’t know me, great actor.
I left the restaurant. I drove to King Pin’s club. I decided to pay Foxy a visit. I went to my old
office, I didn’t find her. Maybe she hasn’t arrived for work yet, no, she’s suppose to be here. If
she’s not in her office, then maybe in King Pin’s office?
I went to King Pin’s office and the door was closed. For some weird reason, I decided to place
my ear on the door to hear if anyone was there. I heard Foxy’s voice, she was talking to King
Pin.
Foxy: They have a new restaurant.
King Pin: Who cares?
Foxy: I do, that could’ve been me. She stole my man.
King Pin: I don’t care about your girl drama, I just want the documents.
Foxy: I’m her friend now, that will be so easy.
King Pin: Raymond is going down.
Foxy: Their wedding is next month, I’m one of the bridesmaids.
King Pin: The job will be done by then?
Foxy: Yeah
King Pin: Don’t screw me, trust me, you don’t want to mess with a man that has nothing to lose.
Foxy: I won’t you can trust me.
I left, I couldn’t believe Foxy. She was planning to bring Raymond down. I don’t really care but
she doesn’t really love Linda, she’s using her to get back at Raymond.
What a fake bitch.
I was learning to get over what Antonio did to me. I think I’m growing up, I am right? I don’t think
I’m as bitter as before, maybe getting over Raymond (totally) really worked for me. As for Mbali,
our relationship isn’t the same again. Maybe when time progresses things will be just fine but in
the meantime, I don’t really know. The problem I have is trusting people too much and in the
process I get hurt. The other problem I have is getting myself in trouble.
I don’t like living without knowing. When I’m alone, I ask myself, what’s going on? Who is Mr X?
Why is Rashidi calling himself Mr X? Why did King Pin hire his enemy’s girlfriend? Why is Foxy
planning to bring Raymond down? I always ask myself questions and questions. I may not know
the answers but I won’t rest till I know what’s happening.
I decided to drive to that house I found Rashidi sitting comfortably in some guy’s office,
remember? I just wanted to visit this man who can’t be named.
I drove to this mystery man’s house.
Curiosity killed the cat but it didn’t kill this young lady.
**********
I arrived at this mystery man’s house. I didn’t see any activity happening outside. I went out of
my car, and I looked around. This house was a bit more busier the last time I was here, strange
if you ask me. My car was parked outside of this mystery man’s yard. I went towards the gate,
luckily the gate wasn’t locked, I made my way into the yard. I couldn’t hear people talking, it’s
like no one was home. I knocked on the door.
The last time I was here, there were many girls. Some guy opened the door, can this be the
mystery man? He looked clean, I mean, he looked like a man who wouldn’t be involved in any
drug related business. He was a black man, he was wearing spectacles and he looked like a
nerd.
“Hi sir”, I greeted him.
“Hi, how may I help you?” He asked.
“I’m looking for a guy named Rashidi”, I said.
“Sorry, this is the wrong house I’m sure. Try other neighbouring houses”, he said.
I heard a woman screaming, “Who’s that Vukani?” The man answered, “A young lady looking
for a guy named Rashidi”. The woman appeared, she was pregnant.
“We just moved in, we don’t really know many here”, she said.
“Or Mr X?” I asked.
“Lady, we just moved in, try next door”, the man said.
“I would like to know who the previous owner of this house was”, I said.
“An old lady, we don’t know her name. A bank sold us this house. You can ask our neighbours,
maybe they know a thing or two”, the man said.
“Okay, thank you”, I said.
“Alright”, the man said. He closed the door.
An old lady? Are you kidding me? Something was definitely up. I drove my car to Antonio’s
restaurant. I just needed something to eat.
I ordered something to eat. Just when my food was coming, I saw Bella and her friend entering
the restaurant. She has the nerve to break the rules, she was banned from ever entering the
restaurant. Bella kept looking at me. I think she was gossiping about me to her friend, they kept
giggling. I felt so uncomfortable. They kept giggling like school children. I know they were
laughing at me. I couldn’t take it anymore, I went to the table Bella was sitting.
“What’s your problem?” I asked her.
“Nothing, what’s your problem?” She asked.
“You’re not suppose to be here”, I told her.
“Says who?” She asked.
“Antonio”
“Antonio? Which Antonio?”
“Stop playing dumb or are you naturally dumb?”
“What do you want from me? Wasn’t Antonio enough?”
“You were banned from entering this restaurant, why are you here?”
“Banned? What a folk story! Who told you that bed time story, let me guess, uhm…Antonio?”
“He said he banned you from – ”
“He did? He did? I wonder why he didn’t mention that last night”
“Last night?”
“He didn’t tell you? He gave me a call”
“What call?”
“Well, it’s not like it’s the first time. Your boyfriend has been calling me non stop, I’m starting to
think he has my number on speed dial”
“Fuck you”
“Don’t tell me, he didn’t tell you. You guys should go see a relationship counselor, I’m tired of
him nagging about his bad relationship. By the way, work on your anger issues, that’s not cute”
I angrily left the restaurant. What’s wrong with Antonio? I can’t believe he made me look bad in
front of Bella and her friend.
My relationship with Antonio isn’t good at all. I don’t want to leave him, no I don’t but I’m willing
to make things work with him.
*sigh*
**********
I went to my house. Mbali was already back from her class. We don’t talk much these days. I
got a phone call from Antonio, he told me he had a surprise for me and that I should go to his
house this evening.
I wonder what surprise he had for me. I dolled myself up, when it was 6:30pm I drove to his
house.
I got to his house, stepped out of my car and went to knock on his door. He was quick to open
the door, I gave him a kiss on the cheek. He led me upstairs to a spare room. I saw a table for
two, candles around the room and some good looking food.
“Surprise!” He shouted with excitement.
“Wow”, I said.
“Since we didn’t have that dinner the last time, I figured why not? I hope you like it”, he said.
“I love it, babe”
“I’m glad you love it”
He pulled out a chair for me. He was being a gentleman but that won’t change everything.
“You look beautiful”, he complimented.
“Thank you, you look good too”, I said.
This trying too hard to make things look perfect was awkward and fake.
“I don’t know how many times I apologised to you, just know that I love you and I’m trying to
make things right”, he said.
“I know you are, but let’s not lie to ourselves, our relationship isn’t the best in town”, I said.
“I know but we should work on it”, he said.
“I would love to work on it but how can I work on our relationship when there are people who will
come in and expose secrets?”
“What are you talking? You should stop hanging out with Foxy, she’s probably feeding you shit”
“I’m no longer hanging out with her”
“Then don’t talk about her”
“Antonio, you brought up her name”
“Obviously you were talking about her”
“Whatever”
“Nosipho, we can’t carry on like this. I want to work things between us, do you?”
“I do”
“What do you think we should do?”
“I don’t know, be real with one another?”
“Yeah, we should start there”
We ate, I didn’t really enjoy myself.
After eating we went to the lounge.
“I had another thing in mind”, said Antonio.
“And what’s that?” I asked.
He placed his hand on my thigh. He leaned over for a kiss, do I have a choice? I met him
halfway and we kissed. His phone rang and he went to answer it in his office. I saw a framed
picture of him and Bella in his room divider. Wow, and he wants to move on?
I went after that girl. I did my thing and they loved it. KG told me that they were interested in
having me on their team. I was happy to hear that. He told me that he’ll do a follow up meeting
with me. We were going to discuss the percentage and other essential things. He told me that
we’ll meet at that restaurant we met months ago.
Mbali moved in with Rashidi. He doesn’t know that Mbali cheated on him, and I won’t be the one
to break the news.
One step at a time.
* * * ** * * * * * *
The house is empty, I can hear myself think. Ever since Mbali moved out, I’ve been a bit
paranoid, especially at night. I had a bad dream, remember that dream I had of my mother
pointing a gun at me? I had a second dream of my mother. This time she was eating at
Antonio’s restaurant. I walked in and I was surprised to see her, when I looked at her plate she
was eating a soup made of blood. That was a scary dream, I didn’t understand what it meant
and I didn’t want to understand it because it was too creepy.
I woke up in the morning and saw a message on my phone. I opened the inbox and I saw a
reply email from Glam. I read it and he invited me to view his apartment, I was so excited. He
even wrote his phone number, I decided to give him a call. He told me that he will be in his
apartment until 12pm because he had to go to a job interview.
I took a shower after that I wore the outfit I picked out. I drove my car to the location, the
address was written. Unfortunately there was traffic, I was afraid that I wasn’t going to make it in
time. Today I was also going to meet KG, my possible new agent. As I was in traffic, I saw a
woman passing by in my rear mirror. I looked around and I didn’t see anyone. I tried to
remember what this woman was wearing but she was quick, I just saw a grey dress, well, I
think. A man driving a Golf GTi was opposite me. I saw him lifting his hand, greeting me, I
responded with a nod. He said something, I didn’t hear him, I faked a smile. He leaned over and
fully opened the window at his passenger side and shouted, “How are you?” Is he seriously
trying to have a conversation with me in traffic? Weird. I didn’t talk, I just signaled “ok” with my
thumb. Finally cars were moving, thanks God. He hooted, I hooted back. The guy acted like he
knew me, he’s so weird.
After driving, driving and driving, I finally arrived at Glam’s apartment. I stepped out of my car. I
pray the house looks good inside like in the photos I saw.
There was a bell at the door. Who still uses a bell anyway? I pressed the bell, it didn’t work. I
knocked on the door. He opened the door, I think I disrupted him while he was putting on his
make up.
“Nosipho?” He asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
“Come in, yoh! My bell doesn’t work but I’m planning to fix it”, he said.
I entered the apartment, there were dishes in the sink. The kitchen was a mess. I was
disgusted.
“I was going to clean that”, he said. “Let’s go to the sitting room this way”, he said.
The apartment didn’t look clean. His lounge had shoes and other items of clothing.
“I was going to clean that too”, he said. I saw a toy that looked like a penis. I looked at him
puzzled.
“Don’t judge me girl, everyone has needs”, he said.
I didn’t know what he was talking about.
“Let me show you your room”, he said.
He led me to the bedroom, at least it was neat compared to the other rooms. “Do you like it?”
He asked with a smile. “Uh…it’s okay”, I said uncertain.
The bedroom looked like it belonged to a broke person, the bedroom was neat though.
Glam raised his eyebrows.
“You don’t like it?” He asked.
“I…yeah but it’s neat”, I said.
“Do you see yourself sleeping here or what?” He asked.
“I don’t know”, I said.
“You have to know, bitch – ”
“Excuse me?”
“Oops. My friends like to warn me about this. I call my friends, “bitch” and sometimes I call
other people “bitch” by mistake”
“Oh?”
“So? What are you going to do now?”
“I think the apartment is fine but the bedroom is not so great”
“Go rent a room at a hotel then”
“I would if I had the money”
“You look like you have money”
“I do? I don’t have money”
“But you have that car?”
“Yes, I hustle…”
“Bitch please, what hustle? Oh, I know. The only hustle that can get you that car is dating a
sugar daddy”
“You’re crazy”
“Bitch please, I know that for a fact”
“I don’t have time for this, is there anything left for me to see?”
“Diva! Relax your tits. Let’s check out the bathroom”
We went to check the bathroom, it was really beautiful. He also showed me his bedroom, it was
far from being neat. I told him that I will give him an answer tonight.
I left.
I had to meet KG to discuss business. I drove to my favourite restaurant, no, not Antonio’s
restaurant.
When I was driving to the restaurant, I saw a taxi full of people. When I took a quick look at the
taxi, I saw a woman who had her face buried in her arms, maybe she was sleeping. I looked
again and I saw a teenage girl talking to phone. What? It can’t be possible, I looked at the taxi,
my neck stretched out. I didn’t realise the robots were Green, I was waken by a car behind me,
hooting. I drove my car.
Why am I having these weird visions? Why? It’s crazy! I think it has gotten worse, I was even
afraid to sleep alone in the big house tonight. The best move is to move in with Glam ASAP!
I entered the restaurant and KG was waiting for me.
“Hi KG”, I greeted him.
“Hey, hey, hey. Are you ready?” He asked.
“Yep I am”, I said as I sat down.
“Ok, so Nosipho, I’m a talent agent and let me go straight to the point. If you agree to be
managed by me, I will get 10% of what you make. My role as a talent agent is to act as a go-
between for casting directors and you, the actor. I have great connections with some casting
directors, good legal connection – ”
“How would I get a role?”
“Casting directors send out notices to talent agents describing what kind of actor they’re looking
for in each role. I pick the role that I think is mostly suitable for you. I then send a picture of you,
CV and demo link”
“Okay”
“In addition to responding to casting director’s notices, I seek out upcoming
auditions, follow up on your meetings with casting directors, act as your professional contact
person and negotiate your contracts. A good talent agent, which I am, will promote you one-on-
one with casting directors when I feel you need a little push to get noticed. Are you comfortable
with me being you agent?”
“Yeah”
“Ok, to start off on a right foot, I need to know which roles you’re looking for. Just remember
that not everyone can be a leading man or woman”
“Which roles do you think will suit me?”
“Uhm, let me think…if we were talking about comedy, you’ll be more suitable with a sarcastic,
uptight character. I just think you can pull off any genre except action. I don’t think action is for
you”
“I don’t really like action movies”
“You have to sign an agreement”
“Okay”
“Are you happy with everything? Don’t you have any questions?”
“No, I’m happy”
“Thank you Nosipho, you can sign here”
I signed the agreement, I was happy with everything. KG treated me to some lunch, he told me
it was the first and last time he’s doing that for me. Funny.
I didn’t want to go home. Who was I going to talk to anyway? I decided to call Mbali, she was at
the library. I went to pick her up.
Mbali was waiting for me outside the library, she saw my car.
“Hi”, I greeted her.
“Sharp”, she said opening the car door. “Are you good?” I asked her.
“Yep”, she replied.
She didn’t seem like she was in the mood.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” I asked.
“Yep”, she replied.
“Okay, you look…happy”, I said sarcastically.
She didn’t engage in any conversation with me. It was total silence. She said I must drive her to
the bus stop nearby Rashidi’s house.
Odd, just freakin’ odd.
It’s all fun and games during the day but at night, it’s a totally different story. I don’t know, these
days I see things that aren’t there, more like I see someone. I don’t know if I’m seeing a ghost or
I’m just going crazy. I get scared at night, I no longer sleep with the lights off. I even play the
radio when I sleep. I’m scared.
I had another dream. I was walking in the forest, I was a young me. I came across a coffin. I
opened the coffin and I saw myself there sleeping peacefully. A young me was looking at the
current Nosipho, if you understand me. I woke up, I was sweating. I was so paranoid. What was
happening to me? I couldn’t go back to sleep again, I went to the kitchen and I made myself a
cup of coffee then I watched tv.
I was relieved when I saw it was getting brighter outside. I couldn’t wait to move out and live
with someone. My new gay roommate was going to be a problem, at least he won’t sleep with
someone I’m dating.
Something told me to kneel near my bed and just pray. I could feel tears rushing down my face.
How can everything be perfect and the next moment everything is chaotic? My life was starting
to be this tangled ball of yarn.
As soon as I saw the sunrise, I took a bath, a lengthy bath. I had a lot to think about, my family
was on my mind. Maybe if I go back home, give my parents some money and leave again. I’m
not rich but I did save some money. I can leave next week. I was afraid of the unexpected, I
know my parents will give me a lecture but that’s what parents are for, right?
After taking the bath, I felt eased. I phoned Glam, I told him I was moving in today. I received a
text from Mbali, she wanted to meet me. I just wonder what she had to say.
Hmm…
**********
I rushed to go meet Mbali, I wonder what she had to say. The last time I saw Mbali she wasn’t
the happiest girl in the world.
Mbali left. I couldn’t believe it! Why am I always the one to be backstabbed? What did I ever do
to these girls?
I went to pack my clothes, I was ready to move in with Glam. After I was done, I called Antonio
to collect his keys. I still had that car Raymond bought for me. Antonio came and he collected
the keys, there wasn’t much talking. I drove to Glam’s apartment and I immediately moved in.
He gave me a spare key.
That day I decided to drive to the nearest restaurant. I noticed that I had no friends, I had no
one. Mbali gone, Antonio gone too, the people I had left were gone. I had no job, I can’t only rely
on my acting gigs. As I was eating, Raymond came in, he saw me and he went straight to me.
“Why are you eating alone?” He asked.
“Why shouldn’t I?” I asked.
“You shouldn’t because…ok, I’m talking shit, I’m just trying to get you to talk back”, he said.
“Oh”
“I’ve been looking for you”
“You want to drug me again?”
“Ha-ha-ha that joke is old. Seriously, I was looking for you Mbali”
“Why?”
“I need your help”
“What makes you think I would help you?”
“Because you might be willing to make this person pay”
“I’m tired of helping people bring other people down. It never ends well”
“It will end well this time”
“I can’t help you”
“Why? You didn’t even hear what I had to say”
“You already said it Raymond”
“I mean, I haven’t told you the person’s name”
“Tell me”
“Promise you’ll help me?”
“I can’t promise”
“Ok, promise you won’t tell anyone?”
“Yeah”
“King Pin”
“What?”
“Yes, him”
“What made you think I would help you”
“Because I heard about him replacing you with Foxy”
“He didn’t fire me, I quit on my own”
“Or are you scared of him?”
“Raymond, don’t think I will help you, I won’t”
“Why Nosi?”
“Because you don’t mess with King Pin and expect to come out alive”
“King Pin talks a lot of shit and he can’t back it up, he acts tough but he’s just a coward. I know
him too well, the guy is even intimidated by my presence”
“How are you planning to bring him down? Don’t tell me you want some documents”
“Huh? No. I will tell you when you agree to help me”
“Raymond, I have an acting career to persuade. I can’t afford to jeopardise it by being involved
in crimes and – ”
“It’s not a crime Nosi”
“Then what is it?”
“It’s called tasting his own medicine”
“Oh shit! Anyway, shouldn’t you be parked in a hiding place somewhere talking to your
pregnant side chick?”
“Woah! Pregnant side chick? What are you talking about?”
“I saw a pregnant girl get out of your car. Who was that?”
“Why are you so curious?”
“I just am”
“For your information, that was Linda’s sister. Linda doesn’t get along with her family, her sister
was dating a Nigerian man but after she got pregnant, he dumped her. She just wanted some
cash, I was just helping her. Don’t tell Linda, she won’t be happy”
“Why? She’s her sister!”
“Her sister is one of the people that turned their back on her. I think she wants to fix things
between them”
“What’s her sister’s name?”
“Siba – Sibabalwe”
“Where does she stay?”
“Why are you asking me these questions?”
“Because I can”
“She lives somewhere in Jozi, I pay her monthly rent and I buy her groceries – ”
“Oh, whatever”
“See? I’m a good guy”
“Look, I don’t think I will help you”
“Why not?”
“I told you, I don’t want to jeopardise my career”
“Please think about it, here, this is my new number. Call me if you changed your mind”
“I don’t think so”
“Please take it”
“Okay, whatever”
“Nosi?”
“Yeah?”
“That ‘oh you want to drug me’ joke is so out of fashion”
“Whatever”
“Okay, bye”
“Bye”
Raymond left. I didn’t think I needed to think about, I don’t want to get involved. How ironic?
King Pin and Foxy are working together to bring down Raymond and Raymond wants my help
to bring down King Pin.
I went straight to Glam’s apartment. He’s always out partying with his gay friends, no wonder his
apartment looks dirty.
*sigh*
**********
One week later.
For the past week, I’ve been going to auditions. I played my first role as a stripper, it was a small
part but I killed it. Glam is a sweet guy but he parties a lot. I didn’t give Raymond a call because
I didn’t want to be part of some scheming, gone are those days.
I’ve been having bad dreams, I think the dreams were getting worse. Sometimes I would wake
up out of breathe. I don’t know this woman I’m always seeing, I can’t see the face properly but I
always see a grey dress. That freaks me out. I haven’t told anyone.
Now I’m driving home. It’s been more than four months since I left home. I’m sure my family will
be happy to see that I’m driving my own car.
My younger brother, Lwazi was sitting outside. He was wearing his “krwala” clothing, he was a
man. I felt bad that I didn’t go to his ceremony. Transition from a boy to a man is the most
important stage of a xhosa guy. He was wearing his “krwala” clothing, when he saw this
unfamiliar car he stood up. I parked the car and I came out. I was wearing dark sunglasses, a
skinny jean, white blouse with puffs, the necklace Martin gave me, a wrist watch and stilettos. I
took off my sunglasses, I saw Lwazi removing his hat. He quickly ran inside the house. I took a
deep breathe and I went for the door. Just when I was about to enter the house, my mother
stood on the entrance.
My brother took my suitcase that was in the car. My big brother, Bandile and my father, Wilfred
arrived. I could hear my brother’s skorokoro. My brother and father entered the house.
“Ufunantoni apha? (What do you want here?), my Bandile asked.
“Likhaya lakhe eli kaloku (This is her home too), my mom defended me.
“Why Nosipho? Sukwenzeni? (What did we do to you?)”, my father asked.
“Niks (nothing)”, I replied.
“Look at her, what are you wearing? Tight jeans and hideous shoes. This child is truly
possessed by the devil, she needs the pastor’s prayer”, said Bandile.
“Calm down, nyana (son)”, my father said to Bandile.
“She went to the evil city, she clearly breathed the evil air and she is evil. She needs to stand in
front of the congregation and admit her sin – “, my brother said.
“Woah, hima (wait) Bandile”, my mother said.
“The church will look at us funny, if we accept her, what will people say? Look at what she’s
wearing!” My brother shouted.
“What’s your problem? I forgot intloko yakho iqinile (hard-headed)”, my father said.
I felt like punching Bandile, he’s the one evil. What’s his problem?
My parents talked to me and I told them what I was up to in Johannesburg, I lied. My parents
were not quite impressed by my car or the money. It was like I was buying them.
I’m glad that I’m home. But I’m still having bad dreams.
Yep…
**********
In the morning, I woke up and I sat outside. The early morning sun was piercing my skin. I had a
hot cup of coffee in my hand. I watched the birds chasing each other in the sky, I smiled. As I
sat on the most uncomfortable chair in the world, I reminisced my childhood days. I could
remember my mother taking me to school for the first time. The other kids were crying but I
didn’t cry, I’ve been a hard nut since I was a young child. I had dreams, I wanted to be an
actress – a famous one. If you told the young me that I would end up like this, I would’ve
probably said you were insane – well, a psychopath, you know.
I went to Johannesburg with the hopes of making my life better and hopefully my family’s too. I
won’t lie though, life was good until I got involved with bad people. My pastor always preached
about the city being evil, the truth is: the city isn’t evil. Yes it isn’t, people corrupt the city. Well,
the city isn’t the only corrupt place. I don’t like how the pastor preaches about the city, he makes
it seem like the village is a perfect place. We also have corrupt people, the church itself is filled
with corrupt minds. Growing up, I’ve never loved my church. The people are very judgmental
and they think the world revolves around them. The church has brainwashed many people in
our village. One thing I will never do is stand in front of the congregation and apologise for going
to the “evil” city. If my parents are ashamed of me, then be it, I don’t care.
As I was thinking to myself, sipping coffee, I saw my friend Noluthando carrying a bucket of
water on her head. The village all of a sudden has scarce water, people now have to collect
water from the dam. I stood up and I went to her, I was delighted to see her. The last time I saw
her, she wasn’t talking to me.
“Noluthando, hi”, I greeted her.
“Nosipho you look so different”, she said.
“How are you?” I asked.
“I’m fine, when did you arrive?” She asked.
“Yesterday”, I replied.
“I didn’t see you”
“Where is Zimkhitha?”
“She’s married to a man from King Williams Town, she lives there now”
“Really?”
“Yes, she also has a baby”
“What? What happened to her boyfriend?”
“They broke up, her boyfriend impregnated another girl”
“Shame. So who married the prince?”
“Aneziwe, she’s from another village. You wouldn’t know her”
“Yes, I wouldn’t”
“So what happened in the city?”
“I looked for a job – ”
“And?”
“I’m an actress now”
“What? Nosipho, are you going to be on Generations now?”
“Not yet, but I’m still new. I have to learn first”
“Your parents were worried about you. I knew you left with that skinny girl”
“I just wanted a good life for me and my family”
“You look like you lived a good life. You have a visitor?”
“No”
“Oh, who’s car is that?”
“That’s my car”
“You’re lying! Nosipho, you’re such a liar!”
“Really! Come, I’ll show you”
“Nosipho!”
As I was going to my car, Noluthando’s mother called her, she screamed, “Noluthando! Hiza
apha wena!(Come here, you)”. Noluthando left, as she was leaving, she looked at me in the
eyes. I knew she will get into trouble. I waved goodbye.
I went inside the house and I began cleaning the house.
I’ve been away for too long.
**********
After cleaning, I used the water that was stored in a tank to wash.
After washing, I wore my pants – not a skirt or a dress. And I wore a red blouse with white polka
dots. My parents were waiting for me in our tiny lounge. I sat on the couch, my parents took
some time before saying a word. It was awkward. My father finally broke the silence.
“Nosipho, me and your mom were talking and we came to this following conclusion”, my father
said.
I looked at my mom, she looked away.
“Nosipho, you need to stand in front of the congregation and apologise on Sunday. You should
do this in order for the villagers to accept you”, he said.
“We love you Nosipho”, my mother added.
“Why should I apologise for something I didn’t do?” I asked.
My parents looked at each other.
“My child, you went to the city and the pastor always advice against that. You should apologise
for that”, my dad said.
“Why should we stay in this place forever? Look at this place, there are many opportunities
outside this place. I’m sorry but I don’t want to live my life wondering what if. Don’t tell me you
never dreamed of being somewhere besides here”, I said.
“You see? Nobesuthu you see? Hey child, why are you back chatting?”, my dad asked.
“I’m not back chatting, dad. I’m just saying”, I said.
“Look at what she’s wearing Nobesuthu”, my dad said.
“Sisi, you know we don’t dress like this in this village. Why are you making up your own rules?”,
my mom asked.
“I’m not making up my own rules. I’m just wearing whatever I want”, I said.
“This is not the city, my child”, my mom said.
“What has the city taught you? To disrespect your parents? If you didn’t go to that bloody city
you could’ve been chosen to marry the prince. I could see the prince really liked you. You
messed that up, Nosipho”, my dad said. He was angry.
“I was looking at your car outside. What job did you say did?”, my big brother, Bandile asked.
“I’m an actress”, I replied.
“How much do they pay you?” Bandile asked.
“Enough”, I replied.
“That car looks expensive. An actress who just started acting can’t even afford that car. I’m just
saying”, Bandile said. He disappeared to the bedroom.
“My child, you have to stand in front of the congregation and apologise”, my mom said.
“If I don’t apologise?” I asked.
“You must, please my child. That’s the only thing that could save you from embarrassment”, my
mom pleaded.
My big brother came out of the bedroom, he was shirtless.
“If you don’t apologise then you should find a new family that will accept you. Nosipho, people
are talking. You have embarrassed us enough. You left home, people were asking, “Where is
Nosipho?” The prince even asked where you were. What example are you setting for the young
girls in this village? Nosipho you are an embarrassment”, my brother said.
“Woah! Bandile, she’s your sister”, my dad said.
“I didn’t know I had a sister. She was gone for too long. Tell us, where did you get the car? You
need prayers”, my brother shouted. He had a short temper.
“I worked for the car”, I said. I was holding myself from shouting.
“You worked for the car? How?” My brother asked. He was so angry, his chest was sweaty.
“Bandile, leave Nosipho alone”, my mother said.
“No mama, Nosipho deserves to be punished!”, my annoying big brother shouted.
“What’s your problem Bandile?” I asked, I was starting to show my true emotions.
“You are the problem Nosipho!” Bandile shouted.
“You have personal issues”, I said.
“I’ll beat you up right now!” He shouted.
My brother tried to hold me but my parents were quick to stop him. He was really strong, my
dad even fell because he was pushing them away. I stood up and I went outside. My younger
brother, Lwazi rushed in. I could hear my mother swearing Bandile. I couldn’t take it anymore, I
came inside and I told my parents to leave Bandile. I looked at Bandile in the eyes and said, “I
deserve punishment, beat me Bandile”. He looked at me and he went to the bedroom. When he
came out he was wearing a t-shirt. He said, “God will punish you, Nosipho” and he left with his
skorokoro.
I didn’t promise my parents anything. I don’t think I will apologise for something I didn’t do.
Mxm!
The next morning, when I woke up, I heard the pastor’s voice. He was talking to my parents, oh
boy! I know what the conversation was about. I heard the pastor talking about shunning. Is he
being real? Shunning is something that USED to be practiced many years ago in our village.
Shunning is the use of social exclusion as method used to enforce church rules. Shunning
doesn’t end of all social interaction, but it does involve
rituals that remind the wayward of their sin and seek to bring them back into fellowship. I didn’t
get out of my room, I heard my mother saying, “Ok Pastor, let me wake her up”. I quickly acted
like I was sleeping, I covered myself with blankets. My mom entered the room, she gently
stroked my hair. “Nosipho, wake up” she said. I woke up and she told me the pastor wants to
have a word with me. I went to the lounge.
The pastor was sitting on the couch opposite where my parents were seated. There was a cup
of tea and biscuits on the table, I sat on the single couch. The pastor took off his eyeglasses.
“My child, do you know why I’m here?” He asked.
“No”, I lied.
“My child, your parents were worried. You may know by now that people who leave this
community to go to the city, they suffer consequences”, he said.
“I know”, I said.
“If you know, why did you leave this place? Do you know what you brought to your family is
nothing but shame?”, the pastor expressed.
“I went to Johannesburg to look for a job. I want to provide for my family”, I said, defending
myself.
“That’s a lovely gesture my child but you do know that there are places you can find work here.
Anyway, a woman is not expected to work, your work as a woman is in the house. By cleaning
and cooking, you’ve done your bits”, he said.
Can you imagine? His mentality is so many years ago! This is a new world, things are done
differently. Why can’t women be independent? Why do we always have to do housework?
That’s totally sexist!
“I just wanted to do what was right for my family, although I did a wrong thing by leaving home”,
I said.
“I had a conversation with elders of the village, we think that shunning should be reintroduced in
this village. I’m sure your parents have told you what shunning is because they grew up in that
time of shunning”
“They told me”
“You have to confess your sin in front of the congregation on Sunday. Today is Friday, you
have a lot of time to think about what to say. No one will want to be associated with you, that’s
part of the process of being shunned”
I was boiling inside. The pastor later left. My parents didn’t talk to me, that’s when I knew that
the “shunning” process was underway. I couldn’t believe I came back to this? Silent treatment?
This is bullshit!
Proper bullshit!
**********
In the afternoon, I decided to take a walk. My friend wasn’t talking to me, the neighbours were
not talking to me and my family too were not talking to me. I felt alone, seriously, I choose being
in Johannesburg than here. As I was walking, I saw a little girl crying. I went to the girl, her face
was buried in her arms against the tree.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” I asked.
The little girl didn’t respond. I asked her again what was wrong. She still didn’t respond. Her
face was buried in her arms, I couldn’t see her face.
“Are you lost?” I asked.
She didn’t answer me. I gave up, I walked away.
“Nosipho! Nosipho! Nosipho!”, the girl screamed.
I stopped. She knows my name? I turned my back and I saw that woman. That woman I’ve
been seeing in my dreams and when I was awake. I just froze, in my mind I was saying, “Run
Nosipho” but my body was frozen. I looked at this woman, her face was painted black. I could
only see her white eyeballs popping, finally my body regained strength and I ran like a mad
woman. I was screaming, I could hear this woman chasing me.
I entered the house and I locked. My parents looked at each other. They couldn’t talk to me
because I was shunned. My mom opened her mouth as if she was going to say something. I
went to my room, I was shaking. I’m probably the most unlucky person in the world right now! I
laid on my bed. I tried thinking about my next move. Where do I go from here?
It’s too early for me to go back to Johannesburg. I don’t know if I must apologise for doing
something right. If I go back to Johannesburg, my church will probably not welcome me ever
again. I don’t want to end up with no one, at the moment I’m alone even though I’m at home.
People are giving me some silent treatment, shunning is a torture. My life was perfect, I don’t
know how it changed so fast. I was fooled by Raymond and Linda, Foxy and Mbali betrayed me,
Antonio broke up with me, Rashidi hates me, people aren’t talking to me back home, I must
apologise for doing something right and I’m being chased by a ghost. Why is this happening to
me? Is this my punishment for leaving home unexpectedly?
I spent the whole afternoon in my room, I just felt asleep. I had another dream, I can’t remember
everything but I remember being chased by that ghost. I ran into the railway and the train came
and I woke up. I was breathing heavily.
The room light was on and I saw a plate of food next to my bed. I feel like a prisoner in my own
home. When will this shunning end? I ate the food. My mom entered the room. “Lwazi is
sleeping in the lounge”, she said without maintaining any eye contact with me.
That night, the whole house was sleeping, I wasn’t sleepy because I slept in the afternoon. My
big brother has his own shack located in our backyard. His shack is right next to my bedroom. I
was bored, I decided why not peek. You know, I was sleepless, I just wanted to see if he was
asleep. I saw him getting entering his shack with some random girl. And this guy judges me?
Pathetic!
I went out of my room, I tippy toed out. My younger brother, Lwazi was asleep. He was snoring,
he’s a heavy sleeper. I could see my parent’s lights going off. I waited for a while before I tippy
toed to the door. My parents were having a conversation.
“Johannesburg is a big city”, I heard my mom saying.
“I’m sure Wiseman’s son is somewhere there. He left when he was 8 years old. His mother was
a drunkard, poor child”, my dad said.
“Do you think Wiseman’s son is still alive?”, my mom asked.
“Eish, I don’t know. I think Thandolwethu is still alive”, my dad said.
“How old is he now?”
“I think 27 or 28 years old”
“He was older than Bandile, I can remember. Yes! He was 2 years ahead of him. He’s 27 years
old”
“Yes, you’re right”
“Would you ever know him if you met him?”
“Yes, he looked like my brother a lot”
I tippy toed back to my room. Wiseman was my father’s big brother. Unfortunately, I never had
the chance to meet him because he died 19 years ago.
I slept perfectly afterwards. No bad dreams, nothing.
**********
It was a beautiful Saturday morning. I took a chair out and sat outside. I just love the morning
sun. I had my cup of coffee in my hand, I’m addicted to caffeine. As I was enjoying the morning
sun, my mom said I should go and fetch some water from the dam. I took a bucket and I went to
the dam. I think the time was about 9am.
I was a bit scared of finding the ghost lady waiting for me somewhere. Luckily I saw a group of
girls, they were laughing, pretty much having a good time. I did what I was there to do and I left
afterwards. The bucket was so heavy.
When I got home, I got a phone call from my agent, KG. He told me that he had a role for me
but I told him I was at home. He didn’t take it lightly, I finally convinced him that I will make it up
to him.
After cleaning the house I watched tv. I was so bored, I missed everything about Johannesburg.
I just wanted to leave but it was too early, I just needed to spend time with my family.
My father and brother arrived, they were at another village. My mother made them a cold drink,
it was hot.
“I don’t know what’s happening here Nobesuthu”, my dad said shaking his head.
“The tokoloshe are getting worse”, my brother said.
“The cows, sheep, goats, chickens, pigs, dogs, cats and donkeys are dying like flies. Whatever
this is, it’s really killing these animals. I’m afraid that we, humans are next”, my dad said.
I just sat there and watched tv, I could hear what they were saying, obviously.
That afternoon Dlamini came to visit my parents. I was laying on my bed when he was here. I
could hear everything they were talking about. Dlamini told my parents that there’s a mermaid
on the loose. He said that he once heard a mermaid crying. I don’t know what to make of this.
What if that ghost lady is actually a mermaid? But that’s a bit absurd.
Mermaids are not something new in this village. There’s a story of a girl who lived in my village
many years ago. The girl went to fetch some water from the dam, when she there, the mermaid
apparently took her. It didn’t kill her but she drowned there and her body was never found. Her
mother didn’t cry nor did she mourn. People say that her mother knew that her child was going
to be taken by the mermaid. There’s been news that the family was going through a series of
bad luck and they had to sacrifice their daughter. After their daughter was taken by the
mermaid, the family didn’t suffer from any bad luck anymore. The mother of the girl is alive but
she’s old. She lives near the village I went to for virginity testing. I would love to visit her. I want
to ask her questions about her daughter, what if she’s the woman I’m seeing? But I don’t
understand though, if she is the woman, why did she target me? I’m not even related to her. It’s
weird but it won’t be such a bad idea to find out, is it?
In the evening, my brother Lwazi came in the room and he gave me my food. I was a prisoner in
my own home. Pathetic! Just pathetic.
*sigh*
**********
It was the early wee hours of Sunday morning. I could feel my body frozen, I laid motionless on
my back. I was breathing heavily, I could feel my eyes rolling. I saw my mom opening the door, I
couldn’t talk. She didn’t turn on the lights, she stepped forward and I realised this wasn’t my
mom. This woman took slow steps towards me, I wanted to close my eyes, I didn’t want to see
this woman’s face. My eyes couldn’t close, my eyes were rolling, I couldn’t stop them. I wasn’t in
control of my body, I felt so weak. This woman stood there, she didn’t move. I felt like screaming
but I couldn’t even utter anything. My vision became blur. I managed to walk, I was so weak. I
reached for the door, I fell. I started crawling, I stretched my arm, I wanted to reach the door
handle. I couldn’t. I wanted to make a fist and bang the door as hard as I could. I couldn’t make
a full fist, I weakly banged the door.
I passed out on the floor.
In the morning I found myself on the bed. Maybe my mom or dad or younger brother lifted me to
my bed. Everyone was getting ready for church, my dad was already dressed.
“Thank you to anyone who lifted me off the floor”, I said.
I knew I wasn’t suppose to talk to my family because I was shunned.
My family looked at each other. My mom bit her lips, she wanted to respond.
“Thank you”, I said again.
“I was sleeping”, my mom responded. “Maybe it was your dad or Lwazi”, she added.
My dad shook his head in disagreement and my brother shrugged his shoulders. Maybe I don’t
remember myself getting up from the floor, I don’t know.
I had an important decision to make. Must I go to church and apologise for nothing or should I
just stay home and don’t go to church? I watched my family as they were getting ready for
church. I decided I will stay at home. My family finally left for church, they didn’t even ask if I
was going or not. I’m sure they saw that I wasn’t going since I wasn’t getting ready for church.
I had the house all to myself. I wonder what’s happening in Johannesburg. All I know is that
everyone is playing someone. My car has been parked outside ever since I was back home, it
was in the same position I parked it when I arrived. It looked abandoned, the windows were
dusty, the wheels had mud on them, it was just dirty. I went to check if the tank had water, it had
a small amount of water. I used the water to wash my face, armpits and private part. Afterwards
I decided to take a drive, I locked the door and placed the keys under a rock.
I drove to the village that’s situated near the virgin testing village. I had to ask people where
Mam’Ngwevu lives, they directed me.
**********
I arrived at Mam’Ngwevu’s house. Her house was painted white, it was shaped like an L. She
had a hut next to her house. There aren’t many people roaming around the village, maybe they
went to church? This village is famous for its witchcraft. It is believed that witches use a broom
and fly at night. It all sounds like a folk tale to me.
I came in the house and I sat on the couch. It looked like she was alone.
“What questions do you want to ask me?”, she asked.
“Uhm…it’s about your daughter”, I said. I bit my upper lip, I was nervous. I didn’t know if she
would agree to help me.
“My daughter died 32 years ago”, she said.
“I’ve been seeing a woman – ”
“You’re having hallucinations”
“No, ma. That’s why I’m here, I want to make sure if I’m not seeing your daughter. I heard about
your daughter’s death – ”
“If my daughter could haunt someone, she would haunt anyone in this family. Why would she
haunt you?”
“I don’t know, that’s why I’m here. I want answers”
“Ndamase, I made peace with my daughter’s death in 1978”
“What was your daughter wearing the day she died?”
“I can’t remember – I forgot”
“Oh, just like you forgot to mourn?”
“Why would I mourn? The ancestors took her, she’s in a much safer place”
“Much safer place? Her bones are in the dam”
“No! She’s with her ancestors!”
“32 years? You lied to yourself for 32 years. Your daughter drowned to death, there wasn’t any
mermaid or – ”
“You don’t know the story, you weren’t even born at that time. Don’t come here and act above
me. You don’t know what happened”
“Of course I don’t”
“Do you know how hard it is for me? Till this day, I’m haunted by the incident. I can remember it
like it was yesterday”
“What happened?”
“The family was going through a hard time. My mother was a sangoma back then, a good one.
She saw her mother in a dream, her mother told her that there was going to be a storm. The
next day, there was a huge storm. Her mother appeared again in her dream, she told her that
the only way the family can reverse the curse is by sacrificing my daughter. Do you know how
hard it was for me? I told my daughter to fetch water from the dam, I knew she wasn’t coming
back. I remember hugging and kissing her – ”
“I can imagine the suffering you went through, Mam’Ngwevu”
“She was wearing a red dress and she was barefoot”
“The woman I’m seeing is wearing a grey dress”
“It can’t be Zoleka”
“I guess so”
“Maybe it’s someone from your family”
“Why would she hurt a family member?”
“Did you tell anyone about this?”
“No, you’re the first one to hear this”
“You should tell your family”
“I’m shunned back in my village”
“Oh? What did you do?”
“I went to the city”
“Or maybe someone from the city bewitched you”
“No, there’s not much witchcraft going on there, just money hungry people”
“Have you experienced any bad dreams?”
“Yes, plenty. Do you know how to interpret a dream?”
“Not really”
“I remember when I was in the city. I had a bad dream, I was driving in the dark. When I
stopped the car at the robots, my mother pointed a gun at me. What does that mean?”
“I don’t want to lie about that, I don’t know”
“Another bad dream I had in the city was seeing the young me opening a coffin. In the coffin
was me at this age. That’s weird, does that mean I’m going to die?”
“No, your dreams might be serious. You should talk to your parents”
“My parents? They won’t do anything, my mom will probably give me panado is sleep better”
“Or you should see a sangoma”
“My body was frozen this morning. I couldn’t move or talk. I saw a woman getting in my room,
at first I thought she was my mom. When she took a step forward, I realised it’s that ghost. She
disappeared, I managed to walk. I wanted to bang the door so bad but I was weak. I slept on the
floor but I woke up on my bed. I later found out that no one helped me. I don’t remember getting
up from the floor”
“These things aren’t normal, talk to your family”
“I will when I think it’s time. Thank you very much Mam’Ngwevu for your time”
“You’re welcome”
“I have to leave”
“Thank you for visiting me”
“No, thank you”
I left Mam’Ngwevu’s house. I’m now back at square one. I drove back to my village.
I spent the morning watching tv, I was just waiting for my family to get back.
*yawn*
My family got back from church. My mom told me that the pastor wanted to have a word with
me. I quickly went to hear what the pastor had to say.
The pastor was waiting for me, his legs were crossed. A bible and eyeglasses were next to him.
When he saw me, he tried to crack a smile but it was just a half smile. You know, just a crooked
smile – if you understand.
“Good afternoon young lady”, the pastor greeted me.
It’s been a long time since I saw the inside of a church.
“Good afternoon pastor”, I greeted back.
“I see you didn’t use my advice”, he said.
I didn’t reply, I just looked down.
“Why didn’t you use my advice? Don’t you want your shunning to be lifted?”, he asked.
“I do”
“Then why didn’t you come to church?”
“I can’t promise myself and the people never to do something I’ll probably do”
“In other words you don’t trust yourself?”
“I do but – ”
“You don’t believe in yourself?”
“I do, pastor. It’s just that – I can’t stay here forever. I want to experience the world, I want to
meet more open-minded people. Isn’t that what life is about? I can remember a poem I did back
in school, it talked about how life was a journey. If you never been anywhere else besides the
place you were born in, then you never experienced life”
“I’ve been through the good and worse, I’ve experienced more than you”
“You may have but there’s more to experience outside this huge fence”
“Fence?”
“Yes, this place is like a fenced area. Well, fence represents exile”
“I grew up in this place, with these rules. You should’ve adapted by now”
“Times are different, pastor”
“What are you saying?”
“Things are done differently”
“What does the city teach people? Nothing!”
“There are more jobs in the city than in this place. What does that say about the city?”
“The city is a dangerous and evil place – ”
“Isn’t this place dangerous and evil too?”
“No”
“What about the witchcraft that’s been happening?”
“I don’t know, the city is more dangerous and evil than the rural area”
“Pastor, you’re over exaggerating”
“Mind your words young girl. You should be ashamed of the unnecessary attention you brought
your family. You are shunned, you were suppose to admit your sin in front of the congregation, if
you did, we wouldn’t be talking”
“Am I the only person sinful?”
“No but that doesn’t make what you did a good thing”
“Pastor, there’s not a chapter or verse in the bible that says traveling is a sin”
“It’s not about traveling”
“Then what is it about?”
“Why are you so stubborn? You only want to listen to yourself and no one else, that’s why you
went to the city. This pastor is stupid? This pastor is stupid?”
“You’re not stupid – ”
“Then why?”
“I don’t want to be involved with this church anymore. That’s the only way I can lift my
shunning”
“Have you told your parents?”
“No”
“Why not?”
“I’m shunned, remember?”
“Drop the attitude, young girl”
“I’m sorry”
“People won’t care about you anymore. You chose this, you have to face it – on your own. You
can do as you like, just know that you’re not allowed here anymore. Remember, it was your
choice”
“What’s going to happen with my family?”
“Nothing, they can choose what to do with you”
“Will they communicate with me?”
“They have to make that decision, it’s up to them”
“I do care about my family, pastor. I want the best for them”
“I pray God shows you the right path”
“This is the right path”
“I would love to have a word with your parents. Kindly let them know, that’s it for now”
“Okay, thanks”
I left. I felt a bit free but I don’t know how my parents will take it.
I rushed home and I told my parents that the pastor would love to speak to them.
30 minutes later.
My parents came home. I looked at them, I was trying to see their reaction. “The pastor told us
about your decision”, my dad said.
I heard my brother’s skorokoro. Here comes trouble!
“I was waiting for the right time to tell you”, I said.
“But my child, why didn’t you tell us?”, my mom asked.
“I was going to tell you”, I said.
“When?”, my mom asked.
“I’m sorry”, I apologised.
“You’re sorry? Aren’t you suppose to be apologising to the congregation?”, my annoying brother
asked.
“I’m not talking to you”, I said. I was so irritated with him.
“I’m talking to you”, he said. He took a seat.
“Bandile, can you give us some time?”, my dad pleaded.
“Don’t worry dad, I wasn’t going to stay for long. I can’t stand the smell of a rotten potato”, my
brother said, as he looked me in the eye.
He left.
I discussed my decision with my parents, I made them understand my reasons. They told me
they understand but they don’t condone it. I was happy that they were cool about it, well,
obviously they’re not cool about it but I’m rather glad that they’re understanding.
I miss Johannesburg.
**********
One week later.
Not much has been happening in my life. What I’m happy about is that my friend is talking to
me, although her mother doesn’t like the idea since I’m a “disgrace”. My parents have been
talking about Thandolwethu a lot, I don’t know how they will find him if they’re stuck in the
village. I think they should just stop going to church, that’s just my opinion. If you don’t go to that
stupid church then you won’t follow those stupid rules. Johannesburg is a big city, where will
they find Thandolwethu? They don’t even have a picture of him! Looking for this Thandolwethu
will be like looking for a needle in a hay stack.
Regarding my nightmares, I’ve not been having any bad dreams but I saw the ghost just once. I
was sweeping the yard and I saw the ghost hiding behind a tree. She hid there for like 30
seconds, it’s creepy. I don’t want to tell my family because they’ll think everything is happening
because I went to the city.
I’ve been getting numerous phone calls from my agent, he’s really angry. He even threatened to
drop me if I didn’t come to Johannesburg as soon as possible. That’s why I’m leaving for Jozi.
My younger brother, Lwazi helped me with my suitcase. He carried my suitcase to the car. I’m
happy that I went home and that I gave them money. I’m sure the money will last them for a
while. The only money I have is for petrol and food.
I kissed and hugged my family. Except for Bandile, he wasn’t home – even though he was at
home, I wouldn’t have hugged him. At least this time I’m leaving in a right manner. I got into my
car, my family were waving. I drove away, as I was driving I saw my friend carrying a bucket of
water. I slowed the car and I said goodbye to her, although I did say my goodbyes a few hours
ago.
I drove to Johannesburg. I was excited to be out of that place but I was nervous on what I’ll find
there. I mean, I don’t know what’s been going on there. Mbali is cold towards me, she doesn’t fill
me in on what’s happening.
I stopped at a few garages to fuel my car.
Jozi here I come…
**********
I arrived in Johannesburg in the morning at about 8am. I parked my car outside Glam’s
apartment. His curtains were closed and the apartment didn’t have much activity going on. The
door was shut. Maybe he was sleeping or not home – he’s such a party animal! I knocked on
the door, no answer. When I knocked the second time around, he opened the door.
“Were you sleeping?”, I asked him.
“Yes, you’re back?”, he asked.
“Yes I am”, I said as I made my way in.
“For good?”, he asked.
“Are you tired of me?”, I asked playfully.
“Of course not. I was going to give you a call”, he said.
“Oh? What were you going to say? Oh shit! I nearly forgot my suitcase”, I said as I rushed to get
my suitcase that was in my car.
I received a phone call from my agent, he wanted to see me ASAP. I dragged my suitcase
inside the house, Glam offered to help – so nice of him.
“So you didn’t tell me what you were going to say”, I said.
“My friend from Cape Town recently landed in Jozi. He wants me to stay with him”, he said.
“So what’s gonna happen next?”, I asked.
“I’m moving in with him. I won’t pay rent, how cool is that? I just feel sorry for you, are you going
to rent this apartment all by yourself?”, he asked.
“I don’t have that much money”
“Find yourself a job or a person to share the apartment with”
“I’ll make a way”
“I’m sorry”
“It’s alright, Glam”
“So, how was the village?”
“Okay”
“Okay?”
“Yeah, there’s not much going on”
“I also wish I can get away from all the Joburg noise and be in a quiet area with great scenery.
The rural areas might have bad roads and bad networks but the mountains, the vegetation, the
huts – it’s just a perfect painting. Isn’t it?”
“Yep”
“Now that’s relaxation!”
Glam is a hyperactive gay man with a brain full of pink glitter.
I took a quick shower before heading to a meeting with my agent. I won’t lie, I didn’t have a lot of
money in the bank and I had to save money and make money. At least I gave my parents
money, that’s all I wanted to do – I wanted to provide – my heart is at peace. I went to meet up
with my agent, he wasn’t a happy man.
“I’ve been calling you, texting you, what’s the point of having a cellphone?”, my agent asked
angrily.
“I’m sorry, my phone was on and off, plus the network there is bad”, I defended myself.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were leaving? I’m your agent, I’m suppose to know these things”,
KG addressed.
“I’m sorry”, I apologised.
“You better be. Look, a director approached me. He’s looking for an actress to play a daughter
of a priest. The auditions are happening today at 3pm, do you think you’ll be able to make it?”
“Yeah”
“I’ll send you the address. The director said you killed your role as a stripper on your first movie.
He would love to work with you”
“That’s nice to hear”
“You know what? I have his number on speed dial. Let me give it to you”
KG reached down to his pocket and he took out his cellphone. He gave me the director’s phone
number, I was happy that the director was satisfied with my work.
I had a conversation with KG about my acting career. He later left.
I was looking at my phone when I heard a familiar voice. When I looked up, I saw King Pin. He
saw me and he came towards me.
“Hey beautiful, where have you been?”, he asked.
“Why do you care?”, I asked.
“Come on, show King some love. No hello or hi?”, he asked as he came close to my face like he
was going to kiss me.
I pulled back and I mumbled, “Hi”.
“We should hook up, you know what I’m saying? We should”, he said.
I laughed.
“What’s funny? Share the joke”, he said. He took the chair and he sat right next to me.
“Nothing”, I said.
“I kinda like you”, he said.
“Oh please! You’re high”
“Why do you always say I’m high when I express my emotions?”
“King Pin has a heart?”
“Hell yeah! What do you say?”
“About?”
“Us”
“Nothing”
“Like, you don’t even like me?”
“I don’t hate you either”
“I’m keeping it real. Ever since I saw you – ”
“Oh please! Remember you told me you never liked me, it was just lust? Remember?”
“Maybe I was high that day, don’t lie. Why can’t I remember that?”
“Are you sure you’re not high right now?”
“Of course not. If I was high I wouldn’t remember that steamy sex we had”
“I don’t want to remember that night. It was just so wrong”
“But you enjoyed it”
“Whatever”
“Nosipho, when I think about that steamy sex we had, I cum”
“Get out of here”
“Really, can we hook up?”
“Hook up and do what?”
“You know”
“Okay, bye King Pin – I’m leaving”
“Wait, wait, wait. Give me a chance”
“I don’t want to”
“Everyone deserves a second chance”
“Some people aren’t worth a second chance”
“People like me, right?”
“Wow, you’re so smart after all”
“Okay Nosipho, don’t insult me. What do you want from me?”
“Nothing, what do you want from me?”
“I want you”
“Oh well, you can’t have me”
“Why not?”
“Because I don’t want anything to do with you”
“Are you seriously going to leave me hanging?”
“Watch me”
“I would love to watch you leave, I like what I see but please, don’t go”
“Leave me alone King Pin”
“One date, please”
“What are you up to?”
“Nothing, I just feel you”
“Feel me? What the fuck?”
“You know what I mean”
“Bye King Pin”
“Nosipho? Nosipho? Nosipho?”
I stood there and I watched his disappointed self enter the shop. He thinks he can control every
girl with the promise of money, I’m not that girl. So I drove away because I didn’t want to be late
for my audition.
I’m sure KG put in a good word for me. When I arrived at the auditioning venue, I didn’t see a lot
of people. I went inside the building and I saw a few people. The director told me what to do, I
took a mini script and I learned the lines.
The casting director signaled me and I began acting in front of the camera. I was doing well until
I stopped, I saw the ghost. I closed my eyes, when I opened them the ghost was gone. I redo
my audition, I hope it was good enough for me to get the part. I drove back to the apartment.
I saw a letter from the landlord, the rent was increasing. How am I suppose to pay that amount
since I’ll be staying alone? The deposit is ridiculously high, this is hideous! I went to pay the
landlord a visit.
“Mr, why are you increasing the rent?”, I asked.
“It’s about time”, he said.
“You’re going to lose tenants”, I said.
‘I haven’t increased the rent money in two years, it’s about time. It’s not cheap to maintain this
building”, he pathetically explained himself.
“The deposit money is too high!”
“If you can’t afford the rent, move out. I’m sure many people would love to move in”
I left angrily. I knew I had to move out, I had no choice but where will I go?
For some weird reason, I drove my car to King Pin’s club. I haven’t been there in a while now.
I went to his office. His door was wide open, he was surprised to see me.
“Are you looking for a job? Because I don’t have any open positions”, he said.
“No, I’m not looking for a job”, I said.
“Then why are you here?”, he asked. He stood up and closed the door.
“Maybe I gave you a bit of a tough time”, I said sympathetically.
“If you’re here to apologise, I don’t need your sympathy”
“No – I think you deserve a second chance”
“What took you so long?”
“I don’t know”
“Come on, Nosipho, what do you want?”
“Nothing. I want to give you a second chance. We can go to your silly date – once”
“It’s not a silly date. Can I take you out tonight?”
“Sho”
“I don’t dress up for dates”
“I wasn’t planning to dress up for this date, King Pin”
“Okay, can we meet at Eat-alian Buzz?”
“That’s Antonio’s restaurant”
“Do you have a problem with that?”
“Of course not”
“Meet me there at 7”
“Okay”
“Sharp”
“Bye”
I left King Pin’s club. I was desperate, I needed cash. I later retired to my apartment, I had to
find a more affordable flat.
Yoh!
**********
I didn’t dress up, I just wore my pair of skinny jeans, sneakers and blouse. I drove to Eat-alian
Buzz.
King Pin wasn’t there, so I waited for him. I saw Martin entering the restaurant, he saw me and
smiled.
“Long time no see”, he said opening his arms for a hug.
“I went to visit my family”, I said as I wrapped my arms around him, hugging him.
“Okay, you look good”, he complimented.
“Thank you”, I said.
“Are you waiting for someone?”, he asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
“Can I take a seat with you?”
“Yeah, why not? Take a seat”
“I’m sorry about your failed relationship”
“These things do happen”
“Isn’t it weird that you’re here in his restaurant”
“It’s a bit weird but why must I hide from him?”
“I know, right?”
“So how are things going between you and Foxy?”
“We broke up”
“What?”
“Yes”
“What happened?”
“We fought all the time, I was getting tired of her nagging”
“I’m really sorry”
“Plus she works longer hours compared to the hours she used to work as a stripper. We never
really talked much, doesn’t sound like a relationship, does it?”
“I guess yes. You’ll get back to the dating scene in no time, don’t worry”
“I don’t know, hey. So, who are you waiting for?”
“A friend”
“Okay. Look, we should hang out and catch up”
“Sounds good to me”
“Your relationship with Antonio might be screwed but you both are still my friends. I have a
house party coming up this weekend, on Saturday. You can come by”
“Can I bring anything?”
“No, no, no, not at all. Just bring yourself”
“Oh, okay”
King Pin entered the restaurant, he was wearing the same clothes he wore when I visited him.
Not that I complain. I know he doesn’t get along with Martin, I hope they don’t cause a scene.
“Sorry I’m late. I had to take care of some business”, King Pin apologised.
“No problem”, I said.
“Why are you sitting with this fucking fool?”, King Pin asked.
“He’s my friend”, I defended Martin.
“Who’s a fool, you fool? So you were waiting for this bitch ass nigga?”, Martin asked.
“He’s also my friend, Martin. Just chill guys. Uhm, Martin? I think you can leave now”, I said.
King Pin and Martin stared at each other. Martin stood up, he looked at me, I looked down. “I
lost my appetite anyway”, he said. King Pin sat down and he smiled arrogantly.
“Why are you acting like you lived in the bush for a long time and you just met people?”, I asked.
He laughed.
“Come on, I’m not that bad”, he said.
“Tell me a bit more about yourself”, I said.
“I don’t like talking about myself”, he said.
“Why?”
“Because I don’t want to talk about myself. This is just too serious”
“What’s serious?”
“This talking about yourself shit. Feels like I’m in an interview”
“I don’t really know you that much”
“You will know me along the line”
“Why do you have many girlfriends? Don’t they get jealous? Do they live in the same house?”
“Too many questions”
“Answer me”
“I love bitches and bitches love them some King Pin”
“You can’t treat a girl like a bitch”
“I love bad bitches”
“Do you know that a bitch is a female dog. What are you trying to say about girls?”
“Girls call each other bitches. Some girls call themselves bad bitches but when a guy calls a girl
a bitch, why does she get mad? Why are girls like that?”
“I don’t know”
“No, you do know. Is it some girl code?”
“No”
“Yes, it is. Why do girls ask money to do their hair. A week later they ask money again to do
their hair?”
“I don’t know”
“No, you girls are tricky”
“Men are also tricky. Tell me. Why do guys like going after a girl that doesn’t want anything to
do with them? Men are like dogs, they just like chasing”
“Men love a challenge. We like what we can’t have”
“Why?”
“It’s like studying for a big test and passing. It feels good because you know that you gave your
best. If you copied the test and passed. What have you achieved? It’s just a freeby, you
convince yourself that you deserved it”
“Hmm, okay. I didn’t know you were smart, no offence”
“Are you kidding me? I’m a smart man”
The waitress came with our food. We thanked her.
“I kinda like you, hey. I know I’ve told you this a million times but it’s true”, he said.
“I don’t know what to believe anymore”, I said.
“You think I’m lying?”, he asked.
“I don’t think you’re lying”
“Do you believe me when I say I kinda like you?”
“King Pin, I would love to believe you – ”
“But?”
“But, you’re saying you kinda like me. Are you sure you like me?”
“I’m not good at expressing how I feel. I’m a gangster, I’m used to thug love”
“King Pin, you’re a teddy bear trapped in a character. Your real name isn’t King Pin”
“The food is good”
“Don’t change the topic. Why are you even surrounded by many girls? Why are you trying to be
a thug? I know you’re a nice guy, not everyone who does the business you do has to be a
hardcore, heartless person. Look at Martin, he’s a cool guy”
“I’m not Martin, I’m King Pin”
“No, you’re not King Pin – your mother didn’t name you King Pin”
“Do you think a date with you will make me change my life? What do you want me to do? Do
you want me to wear suites, turn my strip club to a children’s day care, go to church, donate my
money to charity and be friends with everyone?”
“Of course not”
“Leave me alone then!”
“I didn’t mean to get you upset”
“Jeez! ‘Look at Martin, he’s a cool guy’ cool guy my foot. Is that why you don’t like me? You
have your eyes on Martin?”
“Martin is my friend”
“Have you guys fucked?”
“Of course not! How could you even think of such a thing?”
“I like you, am I committing a crime?”
“You don’t have to be aggressive”
“I’m not a smooth guy”
“You like me, then what?”
“I want to see where things go between us”
“You have more than three girlfriends”
“They’re not even my girlfriends, they’re my girls”
“What difference does that make?”
“I’m single”
“Oh wow, all of a sudden?”
“I’m not dating those girls, I don’t want to talk about them. Did I admit to dating all of them?”
“No but you said you have many girls, remember?”
“Did I say I was dating them? No! I probably said that to make you jealous”
“Whatever, King Pin”
“I like you, that’s all”
“What do you like about me?”
“Your beauty, your attitude and everything about you”
“Let’s just eat King Pin”
I need King Pin’s help, hence me accepting to come to this date. A horrible date, if I may add.
Jeez!
I didn’t know where to start, I wanted to ask King Pin for some cash – I was going to pay him as
soon as I get back up on my feet.
He went to the bathroom. A few minutes after he entered the bathroom, he received a text
message. His cellphone was laying neglected on the sofa. I curiously opened the message, it
was from Foxy. The message read, “We are out of flake”. I deleted the message.
Minutes later King Pin got out of the bathroom. I heard someone knocking, I went to answer the
door.
I opened the door and Foxy was crossing her arms.
“What do you want here?”, she asked. She was surprised to see me there.
“What are you doing here?”, I asked her.
“It’s none of your business”, she said. “I want to speak to King Pin. Is he home or what?”, she
asked.
“King Pin!”, I shouted.
King Pin didn’t come, I closed the door – she was outside, I could see her rolling her eyes. I
went to King Pin, he was putting on his clothes.
“Foxy wants to talk to you”, I told him.
“Oh? Is she in the kitchen?”, he asked.
“No, she’s outside”, I replied.
“Tell her to come in”, he said.
I crossed my arms and I stared at him.
“What?”, he asked.
“Whatever”, I said as I walked away.
I opened the door and Foxy came in.
King Pin and Foxy talked softly in the lounge, I was making myself something to eat in the
kitchen. King Pin told me to bring a jar of juice and two glasses. I was so pissed, am I his
waitress now? I brought the jar filled with juice and two empty glasses and I placed them on the
table.
After eating I went straight to bed. King Pin, Foxy and another guy were in the lounge talking.
Oh well…
**********
I woke up early in the morning at 7:30am. I was frying some eggs when King Pin came to the
kitchen.
“You disappeared last night”, he said.
“I went to sleep”, I said.
“Okay”, he said. He poured himself some juice.
“Judging by the way you guys were loud, I would you guys had some fun last night”, I said.
“Yeah, we did. You should’ve joined us”
“I don’t really get along with Foxy”
“You sacrificed a good night because of some stupid bitch beef?”
“Hey! It’s not a bitch beef and it’s not stupid”
“Whatever, to me it’s stupid. Weren’t you guys like, the best friends in the whole wide world or
some shit?”
“Yeah, once upon a time”
“What happened?”
“Trust me, you don’t want to know”
“That’s why I’m asking. So what really happened?”
“I don’t really wanna talk about it”
“Oh?”
“What’s up with you and Foxy?”
“Foxy works at my club”
“No, I know that. I mean, between you guys”
“You think we’re dating?”
“You tell me”
“Wow, why do you care?”
“She broke up with Martin. Are you the reason for that break up?”
“Martin is a pussy, he can’t even keep a girl. I wish I was the reason for the break up just to
shove it in his face. That nigga is a bitch ass nigga”
“So you weren’t the reason behind the break up?”
“No. I’ve always known you wanted me, baby girl, relax. I’m not dating Foxy, relax baby”
“Me? Want you? That’s the funniest thing I’ve heard in a long time”
“You can act all you want, I know you like me. Just don’t fall hard, okay?”
“You’re insane”
“You make me insane”
“Shut up”
“Make me”
“Whatever. Leave me alone, I don’t want to burn my eggs”
“Can I have some?”
“Eggs?”
“Or is there anything I can have either than eggs?”
“Of course not”
“Yeah, eggs”
“Make your own eggs”
“What? Nosipho, are you seriously side lining me?”
“Watch me”
“Baby girl, you’re so heartless”
I got into my car and I drove away. I decided to visit Kwame. I know it’s crazy but I miss some of
Raymond’s friends.
Please don’t judge me.
**********
I drove to Kwame’s place.
I stepped out of my car and I went to knock on his door. There was a lot of noise going on
inside. Luckily Adelphe came to answer the door.
“No ways! Yo, Kwame, it’s Nosipho!”, Adelphe shouted.
I could hear Kwame in the background saying, “Don’t lie”
“Come in, stranger”, said Adelphe.
“Thanks”, I said as I entered the house.
Adelphe led me to the lounge. There was Kwame, Hakeem, Uche, Rashidi, Mbali and some
random girl. When the boys saw me, they chanted, “Nosi! Nosi! Nosi!”, except for Rashidi.
“Where have you been?”, Hakeem asked.
“I’ve been around but for the past weeks I’ve been at my parent’s house”, I replied.
The lounge was smokey, there was a hubbly bubbly on the table, cigarettes and lighters too.
These people were having a smoking party.
“It’s been too long man, don’t ever do that shit again”, Uche said.
“I won’t”, I promised.
“You need to try this”, Kwame said, as he handed me the hubbly bubbly.
“Uh…”, I stuttered.
“We won’t take no for an answer. After disappearing on us for months, you need to make it up to
us. Just inhale and exhale”, said Kwame.
Do I have a choice? I inhaled and exhaled.
I won’t lie, the vibe was good. It’s good to be a kid again and stop worrying about something.
Mbali still haven’t talked to me. She doesn’t really say much. I later learned that the random girl
was Hakeem’s girlfriend, Nikita. She seems like a nice girl.
I had fun at Kwame’s house. I left and I went to meet up with my agent because I received an
important message from him saying he wants to see me because it was urgent.
KG was already waiting for me.
“Sorry for keeping you waiting”, I apologised.
“This isn’t something new”, said KG.
“I’m sorry”, I Apologised again.
“The reason why I called to meet you is because I had a phone call from the director of the last
movie you auditioned for…”
“And?”
“I’m sorry to tell you that you weren’t chosen”
“What? How?”
“I don’t know, I wasn’t there when you auditioned”
“Did they tell you why they didn’t choose me?”
“No”
“You should’ve asked”
“Nosipho, look, what you need to do is just work on your acting. You need to grow as an
actress, this is part of growth”
“Not being chosen for a role isn’t part of growth. I feel like a total loser! Who did they choose?
Because those girls weren’t good”
“Hey, you’re not a loser. You can’t win everytime”
“I’m used to winning”
“Well, you should get used to losing as well”
“I need to go have a word with the director. He obviously made a mistake”
“Don’t – trust me, you don’t want to go there”
“I do”
“You’ll make a total fool out of yourself”
“I’m just going to ask nicely”
“I don’t care, don’t do it. Listen to me, I’m your agent. If there wasn’t failure, we wouldn’t enjoy
the fruits of success. You tried your best, Nosipho. Just because you didn’t get that role doesn’t
mean you’re a loser”
“KG, do you think I have what it takes to be a famous actress?”
“It doesn’t matter what I say. Do you think you have what it takes?”
“I think so”
“Then I can’t argue with that”
“I thought I was going to get the role. I really thought I was getting the role. Well, I didn’t”
“Many doors will close and many will open. When you’re a successful actress, you’ll be sitting
with your rich friends, telling them how hard it was to reach where you are…”
“I’m starting to doubt myself, KG”
“Just remind yourself why you wanted to be an actress”
“Yep”
“This is only the beginning. You have to prepare yourself for the worse”
“Yeah, I know”
“Are you good?”
“Yes, thank you”
“This is part of my job”
“How come I don’t know much about my agent?”
“What do you need to know about me? I’m just an agent, I’m here to make people’s dreams
come true”
“Who makes your dreams come true?”
“Seeing my people successful”
“Okay”
“I want my daughter to have a great life. I want her to have everything I didn’t have. I want to
provide for my family”
“Oh sweet man. What’s your daughter’s name?”
“Boitumelo”
“Nice name. How old is she?”
“A year and a half”
“Cool, do you live with her?”
“She lives with her mom but we’re all planning to move in together by the end of this week. I
bought a house”
“Wow, amazing. Your mom must be really proud of you”
“Well, yeah, my mom has been really supportive. My mom and my girlfriend have been really
supportive, they’ve been with me through my darkest days”
“That’s great”
“Uhm…What about your family?”
“My family is okay”
“Just okay?”
“Yep”
“Do you have any siblings?”
“Yeah, two brothers”
“So, you’re the only girl?”
“Yep”
“Damn, don’t your brothers gang up on you?”
“They used to but they’ve grown up now”
“Are you the oldest or youngest?”
“I’m in the middle”
“Alright…middle…I had two siblings too”
“Had?”
“My big brother passed away five years ago, I’m left with my older sister, Tshidi”
“I’m so sorry”
“Nah – it’s okay”
“At least I know something about you”
“Same here”
“You’re a good agent”
“Hmm…I don’t get that quite a lot but I’ll take it and run with it”
“Until you get angry…”
“Ha!”
“Uhm…if there’s anything – ”
“Nah, I’m done”
“Okay, thanks for your wise words”
“No problem”
“Bye”
“Bye”
I had a great chat with KG, he’s a nice guy. I love the fact that he loves his family, that’s a real
man right there. I’m lucky to have him as my agent. I drove to my new home.
**********
I was curled up on the couch, reading a magazine and glancing at the tv every chance I got.
King Pin entered the house. He looked tired, he threw himself on the couch and closed his eyes.
There was silence, I didn’t know whether to ask how his day was or just carry on reading the
magazine. He opened his eyes, he was laying on his back. He turned his head to where I was
seated, “I had a meeting with Antonio, guess who’s my new partner for this new project”, he
said. I didn’t know who to name.
“Uhm…I don’t know. Tell me”, I said.
“It’s mother fucking Raymond. It’s that nigga Raymond man”, he said unpleasantly.
“That’s awkward”, I said – my face was just written: SURPRISED.
“I don’t like this nigga Raymond but I will try and maintain my composure because there’s a lot
riding on this one. I can’t jeopardise that project”, he said.
“Good – at least you’re not being selfish”, I said.
“Woah! Says the queen of all selfishness”
“No I’m not”
“You are selfish. Saying you’re not selfish is like saying you’re not beautiful”
“You think I’m beautiful”
“Are we going to have another argument on that too?”
“No. So, am I?”
“Don’t act as if you don’t know you’re beautiful”
“I like being told I’m beautiful. I don’t want to go around telling myself I’m beautiful but people
don’t see that”
“Bullshit! You know you’re beautiful”
“I don’t want to be Foxy. She leaves her flat with this huge amount of make up, she thinks she
looks good but she looks like a clown”
“Let’s change the topic”
“Oh, when Foxy’s name get thrown you want to change the topic?”
“It’s not that – ”
“Then it’s what then?”
“I’m a man, I can’t sit hear and listen to you talking about make up and how much you dislike
Foxy”
“I’m sorry for talking bad about your girlfriend”
“She’s not my girlfriend, come on”
“Then what is she? Oh, wait, she’s helping you bring down your new partner, Raymond. Right?”
“I don’t have time for this”
“The truth hurts, does it? Yeah King Pin, walk away. That’s what you’re good at anyway”
“If you think I’m good at that then you don’t know me little girl”
“Don’t call me little girl. I hate that”
“Why does it pain you that we were plotting something against Raymond? Do you have feelings
for the guy? Foxy told me everything that went down between you and Raymond. You had the
chance to bring him down but you were so in love to do that”
“No I wasn’t”
“Do you still like Raymond?”
“Of course not”
“Really?”
“Why are you so intimidated by Raymond?”
“I’m not intimidated by that pussy”
“Say that in his face, King Pin. Why are you always looking for someone to help you bring
Raymond down? Why can’t you do it alone since you’re not intimidate by him?”
“Good night”
“You’re a pussy”
“What did you say to me?”
“What are you going to do King Pin? Are you going to beat me?”
“I don’t go around beating little girls”
King Pin went to his bedroom. I just sat there, I wasn’t angry, I felt sorry for him. Why do I even
feel sorry for him? I know him too well. I’ve worked for him, he was there when no one wanted
anything to do with me. I thought about it, he was part of the reason I didn’t feel connected to
Antonio anymore. I slowly fell for his bad boy tendencies. Antonio was soft, he was rough.
Antonio said what I wanted to hear, King Pin said what I didn’t want to hear. Different worlds.
Ever since I had sex with King Pin, everything changed. I didn’t want anything to do with
Antonio. He’s a nice guy but he was too boring. King Pin is funny but he comes across as rude
to those who don’t know him well. He does say some awful things sometimes but I don’t know
why I’m falling for him.
I had to apologise to him.
I knocked on his bedroom door, he didn’t answer. I opened the door, he was facing the other
way.
“King Pin are you sleeping?”, I asked.
“What do you want?”, he asked.
I got on his bed and I planted a kiss on his forehead.
“What was that for?”, he asked.
He was wearing eyeglasses, it seems like he was reading some papers. I won’t lie, he looked
sexy with the glasses on.
“I’m sorry for what happened earlier. I can be a bitch sometimes”, I said.
He smiled.
“Am I forgiven?”, I asked.
“Let me think”, he teased.
“Please”, I begged.
“I forgive you – only if you make it up to me”, he said.
“Do you want me to make you eggs in the morning?”, I asked.
“Even better. What about some make up sex? Come on baby girl”, he said.
I leaned forward and I kissed him. He touched my butt and squeezed it.
“Do you believe me when I say I really want you?”, he whispered in a soft deep voice.
“Yeah”, I whispered in his ear.
“Why are you so beautiful?”, he asked as he whispered in my ear.
I was home alone, I cleaned the house. I was bored afterwards. Having no job is crazy, well, I
do sort of have an acting career but I can go for weeks without getting any acting gig. I heard a
knock on the door, I went to answer the door.
When I opened the door I saw a girl standing there. She was popping her gum. What caught my
attention wasn’t the way she chewed her gum but the short skirt she was wearing.
“How may I help you?”, I asked her.
“I need to speak to KP”, she said.
“Who’s KP?”, I asked.
“King Pin”, she replied.
“Alright, uhm, King Pin is at his club”
“Really?”
“Yeah but you can leave a message”
“I want to talk to KP, face to face”
“You can go to his club, he’s always there”
“I already went there, he’s not there”
“No ways, King Pin is in his office. Whoever told you that King Pin wasn’t there is mad”
“Are you sure King Pin isn’t home?”
“Yeah I am. Do you think I’m lying?”
“I don’t trust a bitch”
“Excuse me?”
“Check here, don’t you have a few hundreds?”
“I don’t have”
“Ah, fuck. Bitch I know you’re lying to me. You’re looking good and you’re living in KP’s crib,
you gotta have a few hundreds with you”
“First of all, who are you? And secondly, don’t call me a bitch. I don’t have money, really”
“Hey, hey, hey, hey. Look, K1 calls everyone a bitch”
“Whatever, K-what what, whatever you call yourself. I don’t have money”
“No cash for K1?”
“Nope”
“I’m a struggling bitch, I don’t have anything – ”
“And what connects you with King Pin?”
“King Pin is my pimp. He fired K1 last week, can you believe that shit? KP fired one of the
bitches that made him a lot of dough. That’s some bitch ass mentality right there”
“What did you say? King Pin is a pimp?”
“Yeah, he’s a pimp. Now I’m a struggling bitch, I got debts to pay”
“Why did he fire you?”
“Arg…can I come in?”
“What?”
“I won’t cause any problems. I swear K1will act like she’s invincible”
“This isn’t my house, K1. I can’t just invite anyone – ”
“Come on bitch. This bitch right here is not just anyone, she is KP’s number one profit”
“But you said he fired you”
“When I talk to him, he’ll come to his senses”
“Sorry I can’t help you”
“Bitch why you’re so heartless? Like, can’t you see another bitch is in distress? I beg for the
sake of bitch code”
“I can’t help you”
I closed the door. I don’t know this crazy girl and I can’t believe King Pin is a pimp. He’s got a lot
of explaining to do.
Yeses!
I didn’t want to hang in the house for too long. I decided to take a drive around my new
neighbourhood. I got in my car and I drove away. I saw Rashidi’s car parked right next to a tree
and in front of Rashidi’s car was Linda’s car. Linda is a sneaky bitch, oh yes, bitch. I got out of
my car and I quickly ran to where the cars were parked. There was a tall wall so I don’t think
they will see me and the tree is huge.
I tippy toed to Linda’s car. I was cautious, I don’t want to set the alarm off. I could see the lights
in her car were on so that means she didn’t close the door properly. It was too easy for me but I
don’t want to get caught. I looked around, I didn’t see anyone. I cautiously went inside the car. I
went through her car, my earring screw fell off. I reached for it under the seat and I saw a photo,
the photo’s back part, the white part was visible. I was curious who was in that photo but I had a
feeling it was a photo of Linda, Raymond and their son. After all the rumours of Linda dating
Rashidi, what if it’s the photo of them? I picked up the photo, I didn’t turn it. I looked around to
see if there wasn’t anyone coming. I turned the photo around and what I saw shocked me. My
heart started beating fast, I could feel my lips getting dry. I was angry at the same time I felt
betrayed.
Linda and Bandile, my big brother were looking all lovey dovey on that picture. Am I dreaming? I
quickly got out of the car, I ran to my car and I drove away. I went to stop at the nearest parking
lot. I tried to process everything, I couldn’t, no I couldn’t. Why didn’t Linda tell me that she knew
my brother? I lived in that village all my life and I only saw Linda that one time. Where did she
meet my brother? Did my brother ever come to the city? I had so many questions. Suddenly I
heard a knock on my window and that really gave me a fright. It was Hakeem. I went out of my
car and I hugged him.
“Sorry I gave you a fright”, he apologised.
“It’s fine”, I said, no it wasn’t.
“Are you good? It was great seeing you the other day”, he said.
“Yeah I’m good. I missed you guys”, I said.
“Don’t ever do that again”, he said.
“I won’t”
“See you soon, I have to go. My girlfriend is waiting for me”
“Okay, cool”
Hakeem left. I got into the car and I drove away. I was still shocked because of the photo I saw.
10pm
That evening I only ate takeaways. I tried calling King Pin a multiple times but I couldn’t get
ahold of him. I didn’t know where he was. Maybe he was having an important meeting with
Antonio. I decided to give Antonio a call, he told me King Pin isn’t with him. Since King Pin is a
pimp, I thought maybe he’s with these girls, I don’t know. I looked at the time, maybe I’m
overreacting, it’s too early according to King Pin. He doesn’t come home this time, he comes
home later. Well, just because he comes home early sometimes doesn’t mean he must come
home early everyday.
Two hours later, it was midnight. I was sleeping in the couch when I heard the door opening. I
asked who it was and it was King Pin. He locked the door, I was so pissed. After he was done
locking the door, he tried to give me a kiss. I stood up angrily, “Fuck you King Pin”, I said
furiously.
“What did I do now?”, he asked.
“I’ve been waiting for you for a long time, I was worried”, I stressed.
“Thanks for waiting for me but you know that I’m a busy man”, he said.
“Yes you are a busy man, a very busy man”
“Did you make supper?”
“What the fuck do you think I am? Your wife?”
“I’m just fucking asking, calm your vagina”
“Ah! I swear to God I’m going to punch you in the face”
“What’s wrong with you today? You’re an angry maniac!”
“I’ll show you an angry maniac, you punk!”
“Hey, hey, enough”
“Or what are you going to do? Kick me out of your house?”
“Doesn’t sound like a bad idea”
“Fuck you King Pin. Fuck you for lying to me. I asked you who those girls were, you gave me a
lame excuse”
“I thought I told you that they were looking for a – ”
“Fuck you King Pin!”
“Hey, don’t be like that”
“Like what? You’re a pimp! A girl named K1 came by this morning, she was looking for you”
“K1?”
“Don’t even act like you don’t know her!”
“Damn man, I don’t know”
“What don’t you know? You’re a pimp!”
“You’re saying that like it’s a disease”
“Why are you pimping?”
“I don’t have time for your mini QnA”
“What else are you hiding from me King Pin?”
“I don’t owe you anything! Mind your business”
“Okay, I’ll mind my business. You carry on with your pimping”
“Don’t act like you’re any better”
“At least I don’t go around selling girls”
“Nosipho, please. You also had sex in exchange of money and luxurious items. From Raymond
to Antonio and now me”
“Are you trying to say I’m a prostitute?”
“If the shoe fits, fucking wear it”
“I’m not a prostitute! Fuck you King Pin!”
“Prostitution isn’t necessarily standing in fucken corners and fucking every dick you can lay
eyes on. You know it. End of discussion, I’m done Nosipho”
“Go to hell King Pin”
“I’m right after you”
I was so angry at King Pin I wanted to punch him.
Arg!
**********
The next morning, I didn’t really spend much of my morning in King Pin’s house. We didn’t really
talk about what happened last night, we acted as if we didn’t see each other. I went to have
breakfast at a restaurant.
My head rested on his chest, he wrapped his arm around me. I looked him in the eye, he kissed
my forehead. I returned the favor as I kissed his forehead, he smiled. We watched tv. I felt his
hand grabbing my butt, I didn’t say anything, I just continued watching tv.
“Let’s go cuddle in my bed”, he said.
“Okay”, I agreed.
We went home.
I’m so nervous.
**********
We arrived home.
“The doctor didn’t even give you some medicine”, he said as he took off his hoody.
I didn’t know where to start. I sat on the couch. When the doctor performed the ultrasound and I
saw the baby on the monitor, I was so shocked. I wanted to get rid of the baby but when I was in
King Pin’s car, I thought about it. I don’t want to get rid of the baby, if he doesn’t want anything
to do with the baby – I’ll take care of my child on my own.
King Pin sat next to me.
“That’s the worse sex I’ve had”, he said jokingly.
I didn’t even crack a smile, I was thinking to myself.
“Talk to me, what’s up?”, he asked.
I didn’t respond.
“How am I suppose to help you if you don’t talk to me?”, he asked.
I still didn’t respond.
“Okay I give up, but don’t ever accuse me of not caring”, he said.
I just stood up and left. I locked myself in the bathroom. King Pin knocked on the door, he was
get a bit angry. I could hear his knock getting more violent.
“I’m tired of this shit, Nosipho. Get the fuck out!”, he yelled.
“Leave me alone!”, I yelled.
“I want to use my bathroom!”, he yelled.
I got out of the bathroom and I went straight to my bedroom, he followed me.
“You’re acting strange. I don’t like the silence treatment”, he said.
“You don’t know what I’m going through”, I said.
“How am I suppose to know if you’re not talking to me?”, he asked.
“You want to know what’s wrong with me?”, I asked.
“Please”
“I’m pregnant”
“Pregnant?”
“Yes, with your child”
“My child?”
“I’m four months pregnant”
“With my child? Are you sure it’s my child?”
“Yes! What’s wrong? You want to run away from your responsibilities?”
“Four months pregnant? Nosipho, we had sex four months ago? I recently started having sex
with you”
“What are you trying to say? I’m a slut?”
“Don’t put words in my mouth”
“It’s your baby, we’ve been having sex for a long time. We once had sex when we were drunk”
“Are you sure that’s not Antonio’s baby?”
“No! It’s your baby! Fuck you!”
“Hey, don’t start! Look, if it’s my baby then I’ll support you and the child but when the baby is
born, I want a paternity test”
“Paternity test? Whatever, this baby is yours!”
“I’m going out”
“Out?”
“Nosipho, I need some fresh air”
“Is that an excuse to get away from your pregnant “friend”, oh wait, you impregnated your
“friend”. Arg!”
“I’m sick and tired of your bitching! I’m going out, I don’t know if I’ll be back. Maybe I’ll come
back in the morning”
“Are you going to sleep over at Foxy’s house or the girls you pimp?”
“I don’t have time for this. Good bye”
“Make sure you don’t impregnate whoever you’re going to, okay?”
“You’re such a bitch!”
“Go to hell, you stupid illegal women seller. I regret being your baby’s mother”
“Let’s not be sure about that, how many guys have you fucked in the last four months?”
“Go to hell”
King Pin left.
What a jerk!
The next morning, I woke up early and King Pin still wasn’t back yet. What made my morning
though was Mbali’s SMS, she wanted to meet me at Antonio’s restaurant, I was looking forward
to that. I made myself some breakfast and when I ate I heard someone opening the door, I knew
it was King Pin.
He went straight to his bedroom and closed the door. I stood up and I went to knock on his door.
“King Pin, can I come in?”, I asked.
I heard him mumble a “yes”. I came in. “I’m sorry, King Pin”, I apologised.
“Nosipho, why do you always act like a jealous girlfriend?”, he asked.
“Sorry for caring”, I said.
“I need my space, I’m a man. I can’t report to you everything I’m doing, I’m a grown ass man”
“I’m sorry, okay?”
“Okay”
“Aren’t you going to apologise?”
“For what? You were the one who put words in my mouth”
“Eish, men and their egos”
“So…you’re carrying my child?”
“Yes”
“Oh, do you know the gender yet?”
“No…the doctor told me to go for a check up after two weeks”
“Ok”
“Do you want a boy or a girl?”
“I don’t know. Well, a boy would be nice but I wouldn’t mind a girl also. Basically, I wouldn’t
mind the gender as long as, you know”
“No – I don’t know”
“As long as I have a kid”
“Are you excited?”
“I don’t know how to feel, this child is my first. A part of me is happy and another part of me is
nervous. My uncle used to say a man’s work is his children”
“So…What are we?”
“Uhm…”
“King Pin?”
“Yeah?”
“Why are you so afraid of being in a relationship?”
“I’m not scared – ”
“Yes you are – you’ve been having one night stands all your life, do you want to do that all your
life?”
“What do you want Nosipho?”
“I want us to be a couple, I want us to raise this baby together – ”
“We are going to raise this baby together – that’s if it’s mine”
“This is your baby King Pin!”
“I don’t want to fight with you again, I swear if you yell all hell will break loose”
“Stop being in denial, this is your baby”
“I’m going to take care of you and the baby, don’t you believe me?”
“I do”
“Then why are we even talking about this?”
“Okay, sorry”
“Let’s just take things one step at a time. We can’t rush things, do you get me? Because, uhm,
just because you’re carrying my kid doesn’t mean I should marry you or have a romantic
relationship with you”
“I didn’t say I want to marry you”
“I’m just saying, I’m just making an example”
“Well…”
“Nosipho, I like you but we should take things one step at a time”
“I understand”
“I’m a fucked up dude, I’m not going to lie about that. I’m real, I talk shit, I’m sexy – I’m sexy,
right?”
“You’re manly”
“Is that a good thing?”
“Yes, you’re handsome in a manly way”
“Anyway, I’m just straight to the point. It’s either you love me or hate me, I don’t really care”
“You’re also annoying”
“Yes, that too”
“You should learn to be more romantic though”
“Ha-a”
We hugged and we ironed things between us.
King Pin left for work. I went to meet up with Mbali at Antonio’s restaurant.
Mbali was already waiting for me.
“Sorry I’m late”, I apologised.
“Are you kidding me? You’re always late”, she joked.
We hugged each other.
“So nice to see you again. I wasn’t expecting that SMS at all”, I said.
“I know”, she said.
“Why did you want us to meet?”
“I’ve been hiding something from you and it’s bothering me”
“Tell me”
“I don’t know where to start”
“Just tell me”
“Uhm…remember when I told you that Rashidi was beating me?”
“Yes”
“I was lying”
“Why would you lie about that?”
“Because I didn’t want you to kick me out of the house. I had to finish my mission”
“Mission?”
“I was suppose to steal from Antonio”
“What?”
“They wanted me to steal some files from Antonio. The only way I could get access to those
files was to sleep my way to getting them. I knew it would be hard for Antonio to cheat on you so
I used his vulnerability. You and him were going through some problems and I knew he was a
desperate man. I visited him after hours, even in the afternoon – we used to chill in his house,
drink vodka and listen to his crappy jazz. When he was too drunk, I made my move and when
he was sober, I tried to seduce him. I know it’s too late for an apology but – ”
“Did you get the files?”
“Yes”
“Who are “they”, huh?”
“I don’t want to name people”
“Really? Because I think I heard Antonio’s name or am I wrong? Tell me, you’re confessing to
me – I need you to tell me the truth”
“I can’t do this, I’m not even suppose to be with you”
“Was it Rashidi and one of his friends?”
“I can’t tell you”
“It’s obvious that Rashidi is one of those “they” you’re talking about”
“That’s all I wanted to tell you”
“Do you know Mr X?”
“Who’s that?”
“I’m sure Rashidi talked about this mysterious guy”
“Why is this guy mysterious guy?”
“Because Rashidi said so. Your boyfriend is sneaky and he covers his trail pretty well, I should
applaud him on that”
“What are you talking about?”
“Months ago, I offered to help King Pin by delivering a package assigned to Mr X. King Pin
gave me the address, I went there and I found a bunch of girls, which I find it’s weird. I went to
Mr X’s office and I found Rashidi there. He told me that he’s Mr X’s friend and guess what
happened, Martin shows up. Rashidi then feels guilty, he wanted to meet up with me. I asked
him who Mr X was, he told be a bunch of tales, which doesn’t make sense until now. I asked
Martin about Mr X and he told me loads of bullshit. I instantly knew that Rashidi and Martin were
up to something. I decided to visit Mr X’s house and I found a couple living there. I asked this
couple if they knew Mr X or Rashidi or Martin and the couple said nope, the last owner was an
old lady. That’s bullshit because the last owner was Mr X, oh wait, Mr X doesn’t exist. Before I
forget, when I asked the girls that were in the house when I delivered the package if Mr X was
there they said yes. I found Rashidi there and I asked if he’s Mr X, he told me yeah. Does that
make sense to you? Definitely not! Your man is sneaky. He covered his trail pretty well, I must
say”
“I didn’t know that”
“The reason he moved out of the house is because he knew that I knew what was up”
“Nosipho, I sometimes ask myself why I fell for Rashidi. He’s a nice guy who’s involved with
bad people and that kinda makes him a bad person but he’s actually a great person”
“Rashidi really changed. He was Mr Perfect, now he’s just mean”
“I don’t think he’s mean at all”
“Yeah he is”
“King Pin is the total opposite of Rashidi. He’s just a bad boy. I can’t believe you left Antonio for
a guy like him”
“King Pin is an ass but if you get to know him, you’ll tolerate him. We do argue but I think deep
down he’s a good person”
“Eish, men”
“Men think showing emotion is for women – ”
“I know, right?”
“Showing emotion is a good thing though”
“Yeah. I miss talking to you, Nosipho”
“Me too”
I had a decent chat with Mbali, I miss having her around. It’s a good thing she told me this
because I really didn’t have any idea.
I didn’t tell her I was pregnant, only me, the doctor and King Pin know this. I need to tell my
parents – when I’m ready.
*crossing fingers*
**********
It was nice talking to Mbali, it’s been a long time since we had a chat. I haven’t received any
news from my agent, this goes to show how scarce acting jobs are for amateur actors. Or
maybe my agent wasn’t doing a good job – for once I felt like I don’t stand a chance in the
acting business. It all looks easy on tv but it’s hard. Anyway, I don’t want to think about that.
I drove to Adelphe’s place, he lived in Foxy’s neighbourhood. He was surprised to see me there.
“Nosipho, what a nice surprise. How are you?”, he asked.
“I’m fine thanks and you”, I asked as I took a seat.
“I’m fine, I’m fine – let me get you something to drink. Juice or water or tea or coffee?”, he
asked.
“Juice, please”, I politely said.
Adelphe went to the kitchen.
“I don’t want to offend you”, he said.
He was still in the kitchen.
“What’s wrong?”, I asked him.
He didn’t respond – he came with a glass of juice and some biscuits.
“Many girls are offended when they’re called big”, he said.
“What are you trying to say?”, I asked.
“You’ve gained weight – no offence. You do look good though, you’re an African woman”, he
complimented.
“Thank you – you’re not the first to see how big I am”, I said.
“Big is not the word, you’re bootylicious and beautiful”
“Okay – I get the picture”
“I heard you’re dating King Pin, why would you even date a dude like him?”
“Why wouldn’t I?”
“I just think he’s out of your league”
“Wow, why are you talking on my behalf?”
“I’m just saying, Nosi”
“King Pin is a cool guy”
“If you say so”
“Let’s not talk about him, can we?”
“Of course”
“How are things going?”
“Good”
“What’s been happening at the club?”
“Same old stuff”
“I once heard that Rashidi’s management style is different”
“Yeah, everyone’s management is different”
“He did some major changes, what did Raymond say about that? I bet he didn’t like that”
“Rashidi is still the manager, how’s that?”
“Well, I guess Raymond has no choice. Uhm…isn’t he suppose to be getting married soon?”
“The wedding was postponed – ”
“What? Did they fight again? I heard rumours that the perfect couple once had an argument at
the club in front of customers”
“Look Nosipho, I don’t want to talk about that…can we change the subject?”
“Alright – ”
“Where were you hiding?”
“I wasn’t hiding”
“You were so scarce, there’s a party happening tonight at Raymond’s club. You should come
through”
“Uhm – I don’t know hey”
“Please, we really miss having you around”
“I don’t know – ”
“Please Nosi, you can leave if you don’t like the vibe”
“With you guys around? No ways, it’s always a good time”
“Is that a yes?”
“Yes”
“You won’t be disappointed”
“What time?”
“Eight”
“Okay, I’ll be there”
I was happy that I won’t be stuck at home tonight. I left Adelphe’s place and I went to buy some
lunch for me and King Pin. I wanted to surprise him.
I drove to King Pin’s club. I went straight to his office. His door was open so I just walked in.
“Hey you”, I said.
“Hey”, he responded.
“Look what I got you”, I took out the food.
“Yummy, you read my mind”, he closed his laptop.
“You work hard so I figured why not bring my bo- I mean my friend something to eat”, I said.
“That’s thoughtful of you, thanks”, he took a big bite of the burger.
Foxy walked in.
“Oh, I didn’t know you had a visitor”, she said.
King Pin looked at me, I rolled my eyes. “I wanted to show you something”, Foxy said.
“He’s eating right now”, I said.
King Pin looked at me again, I leaned back.
“Are you King Pin?”, Foxy asked.
“Ladies please”, King Pin interrupted.
“Are you blind? Obviously you can see he’s having lunch. It’s rude to interrupt your boss while
he’s having lunch”, I said.
King Pin stood up, “Make it quick”, he said to Foxy. They disappeared together. Are you kidding
me? Who the hell does Foxy think she is?
I waited for about ten minutes. King Pin arrived at his office.
“We talked about this, why the fuck are you doing it again? I hate when girls keep tabs on me. I
hate that shit, I can speak for myself – stop acting like a psycho bitch, seriously”, he expressed.
“I brought you lunch, I wanted to spend time with you. I don’t want to be interrupted by an
attention seeking whore”, I said.
“Oh shit, this is going to be an argument again. Look, I’ll eat, you can talk till blood comes out of
your ears, I don’t care”, he said.
“Can’t you see I’m trying? I want us to turn a new leaf – for the sake of the baby”, I said.
He kept eating.
“This is really delicious”, he said.
“Stop being childish, why can’t you have a decent conversation with me?”, I asked.
“You want to know why? Because you’re immature, you can’t hold a ‘decent’ conversation
without having a fighting and you’re miss know-it-all”, he said.
“No I’m not!”
“You are, look, can we enjoy this meal without fighting?”
“I just lost my appetite”
“You should eat, don’t starve my ‘child’. Hey?”
“Whatever”
I left his office, I heard him laugh. He said, “The stress isn’t good for my baby”. He’s such an
ass.
I drove home (King Pin’s house)
**********
I searched for something to wear tonight, I haven’t shopped in a while. I went through my
wardrobe, some of my dresses were a bit small – I’m gaining weight. Luckily I had a freakum
dress which fitted perfectly fine. I chose the black freakum dress and gold stilettos with pointy
spiky design on the stiletto. I laid my outfit on my bed, I reached for my jewellery box, I took out
my necklace. My outfit looked good, I went to watch tv.
@ 7PM
King Pin arrived home, I was already dressed in my beautiful outfit. I had make up on and I was
looking hot.
“Woah! You’re looking sizzling hot”, he complimented.
“Thanks”, I blushed.
He touched my waist. His strong hands were firmly holding me. He kissed my neck.
“You smell good – you always smell good”, he complimented.
I was busy on my phone. I was talking to Adelphe.
“Let’s take a trip to my bedroom”, he said.
I was busy texting, I didn’t answer him. He grabbed my ass.
“Hey, stop”, I said – I was still texting.
“I like grabbing your ass. You never tell me to stop”, he said.
“I’m busy”, I said.
“Stop texting – let’s go to my room”, he nagged.
“Stop nagging”, I said.
He jokingly grabbed my phone. He took out my phone battery.
“Let’s go have a quickie”, he laughed.
“That’s not funny, why did you do that?”, I tried not to get pissed.
“Let’s go to my room”, he made a puppy face.
“Cute – but it won’t work”, I said.
“Please”, he puffed his cheeks like a child.
“Don’t do that”, I laughed.
“Let me go shower. I’m going to shower, do you want to join me?”
“King Pin, really?”
“Let’s take a trip to my bedroom”
“You’re a joker, you know that?”
“I get that all the time. Where are you going?”
“Out”
“Out? With who?”
“A group of friends”
“Oh, okay”
“We’re going to have a good time”
“Enjoy”
“I will – I can’t wait to see my boys”
“Oh”
“They missed me – I’ll probably give all of them a kiss on the lips – ”
“This is funny. Sorry”
“What’s funny? The fact that I’m going out with my boys? Or that I’m going to kiss them on the
lips?”
“Everything. Look, obviously you’re trying to make me jealous. It didn’t work”
“I’m not trying to make you jealous”
“You can kiss them on the lips, I don’t mind”
“Oh really?”
“Yeah Nosipho, unlike you I’m not a clingy boyfriend”
“Boyfriend?”
“Uhm…you know what I meant”
“King Pin?”
“What? I’m your boy friend, well, guy friend. You know these things”
“Oh well, don’t miss me, okay?”
“Oh please, Nosipho. I’m also going out”
“Okay”
“I’m going to Foxy’s house. Maybe I should give her a kiss on the lips too – ”
“Stop it!”
“I’m joking – I was just trying to get to you”
“It’s not funny”
“Sorry”
“It’s not funny King Pin”
“I was just trying to get to you”
“Don’t touch me”
“Come on, I’m going out though. I’m having a night out with the boys. I was forced to come. Me,
Antonio, that nigga Raymond and Jeff are going out. I heard Antonio talk about bowling, how
whack is that?”
“How are things between you and Raymond?”
“Still the same, we’re just tolerating each other for the sake of the new business venture”
“I think you guys are going to be friends again”
“Trust me, in this business nothing can be resolved after a bowling match”
“I think this new business venture is not a coincidence”
“Well, I don’t really care. I just want to be civil with the guy for the sake of the new business
venture”
“Okay”
“I didn’t ask, where are you and your ‘boys’ going?”
“Phoenix”
“Oh”
“The party starts at 8pm, I better be early”
“Drive well”
“I will”
I went to my bedroom and I took my purse. I took my car keys which were on the dressing table.
I left the house.
I drove to Phoenix, it’s been a long time.
*********
I got to the club, it was packed. I went to the VIP section where Adelphe, Kwame, Uche,
Hakeem, Rashidi, Mbali and oh boy, Linda were seated. There were new strippers and same
old ballers.
“Can we all toast to reuniting with a long lost friend, Nosipho?”, Kwame lifted his glass up.
It was super awkward for Rashidi and Linda, I could tell but they played along. Everyone lifted
their glass, I took an empty bottle and lifted it.
“Cheers”, we all said.
“Tonight is going to be a good night”, Hakeem said.
“I don’t wanna drink tonight guys”, I said.
“Booooo!!! Party pooper”, Kwame screamed.
“We will buy the booze, you don’t have to worry about a thing”, said Uche.
“I’m serious guys, I don’t want to drink tonight”, I said.
“Why not?”, asked Adelphe.
“You don’t have to force her if she doesn’t want to drink”, said Linda.
“It’s okay, you can drink your energy drink”, said Hakeem.
“The building is packed, am I a magician or what?”, Rashidi admired himself.
“Yeah buddy, you’re a magician”, said Kwame.
Me, Mbali and Uche went to dance on the dance floor. The dance floor was renewed, it really
looked nice and sparkly.
When I was tired of dancing, I went back to the VIP section. Linda was sitting there with her legs
crossed.
“I just find it funny”, she said out of the blue.
“What?”, I was confused.
“Mbali slept with Antonio when you and Tony were dating. But you still laugh with her. I don’t get
it – if you can forgive her for sleeping with your man, why can’t you forgive me for hiding a
secret from you?”, she asked.
“It’s not that”, I said.
“You slept with my man, I’m the one who’s suppose to act the way you’re acting towards me”,
she expressed.
“I forgave you long time ago, but I don’t want to be your friend”, I said.
“I can’t force friendship, that’s who I am. If you don’t want to be my friend, it’s okay”, she said.
I kept quite.
“Just know where you come from. Just know who made all of this possible for you”, she said.
“I know where I come from, I made all of this possible for myself”, I replied.
“Stop lying to yourself. If it weren’t for me, you would be stuck in that village”, she said.
“I wanted to ask you this; what you did to me – does it have anything to do with Bandile?”, I
asked her.
She looked shocked.
My car looked like nothing happened. There was no crack, I was so shocked.
“See?”, he pointed.
“I can’t believe this”, I said.
“I can’t believe it too”, he left.
I went inside the house, he locked the door.
“Did you smoke?”, he asked.
“Do I smoke?”, I asked him.
“I’m just asking”, he laughed.
“This isn’t funny, I nearly died”, I said.
“I’m going to sleep, good night”, he said.
“Can I sleep with you?”, I asked.
“You can”, he permitted.
I stood up and I slapped her. She fought back – we were fighting. I pinned her down and I
punched her, King Pin saw us fighting.
“What the fuck?”, he separated us.
“Your bitch just attacked me”, Foxy cried.
“You deserve it, bitch!”, I shouted.
“Stop”, King Pin held me.
“And you’re living with this psycho bitch? This slut?”, Foxy was angry.
“Calm the fuck down, ladies!”, King Pin yelled.
“I’m a slut? You’re a walking STI!”, I screamed.
“Hey, we talked about this”, King Pin said to me.
Foxy left angrily. King Pin was pissed.
“Why do you always do that?”, he asked.
“She started, I swear I was quite. She attacked me”, I defended myself.
“I don’t want to hear it, why are you always looking for trouble? I don’t get you”, he said.
“Fuck you, King Pin!”, I shouted.
“I’m not Foxy”, he pointed his finger at me.
“Don’t point your finger at me”, I said.
“I’m going to point my finger at you”, he kept pointing his finger.
“I’m tired of your foolishness”, I pushed him.
I made him more angry, he rushed towards me. I knew he was going to get physical because
the look on his eyes said it all. I ran to my room. He pushed the door, he was so powerful. He
managed to get in, he dragged me by my hair. I was crying. He let go off my hair, I punched him
– he pushed me. With great force, I slammed my back against the wall and fell.
“You want me to get physical with you?”, he asked.
I was crying.
“You bring out the worst in me. I try Nosipho, I try my best to be good to you. I haven’t touched
alcohol for 36 hours, 36 motherfuckin’ hours. I did it for you and my child. Why should I change
if you keep bringing the old me?”, he asked.
I was crying but all of a sudden I couldn’t hear myself cry. Everything was mute, I could see
King Pin talking but I couldn’t make out what he was saying. I started shaking, I was getting
weak at the same time. I closed my eyes, when I opened my eyes I was laying in the forest. I
stood up, I looked around – I was in the middle of nowhere.
“Nosipho”, a man with a painted face called my name. This man’s face was painted black. I
couldn’t tell who he was.
“Who are you?”, I asked him.
“Follow me”, he said.
“No”, I said.
“Nosipho, follow me”, he said with a firm voice.
“No. Where are you taking me? Where is this place? Who are you?”, I was panicking.
“I said, follow me”, he said.
We got to another place. It was a small village with no more than ten huts.
“Enter that hut”, he pointed to a big white hut.
I slowly made my way to the hut. I saw a sangoma sitting with her face down.
“Why am I here?”, I asked her.
She stood up. She spread her arms and made fists. She jumped up and down, her face was
still facing down. I looked around the hut, I saw a beautiful mirror. I looked at the mirror, I saw
someone behind me. I quickly looked behind me and no one was there. I looked at the mirror
again and I saw nothing. The woman stopped jumping up and down, she looked at me. We
were face to face. The woman was my mother, my eyes widened. She strangled me.
“Mom, mom! Stop it”, I wrestled her strong grip.
I collapsed, my eyes were shut. I opened them again, I was in hospital. I panicked, I felt a hand
touching my shoulder, I screamed.
“Don’t worry, it’s me”, King Pin said.
The doctor came, he discharged me. He gave me vitamins. King Pin drove me to his house.
When I got to King Pin’s house, I started packing my clothes immediately. King Pin went to his
club. I drove to Martin’s house.
Martin arrived with takeaways. We all ate. K1 is crazy, she’s like the female version of King Pin.
Later that evening, K1 left, she went to party with her friends.
I stayed home with Martin, we watched a movie. Martin even made popcorns. King Pin sent me
an SMS saying he wants to see me, I didn’t respond to his SMS.
“Why didn’t I move in long time ago? If this is the way a guest is treated”, I said.
“Nah, you’re my friend”, Martin looked shy.
“What’s wrong?”, I asked.
“Nothing”, he said – I could see something was bothering him.
“You have the worst poker face, do you know that? Tell me, please”, I begged.
“I have a lot of questions”, he said.
“About me moving in?”, I asked.
“And that too”, he said.
“Ask me”
“Let’s rather watch the movie, maybe I’ll ask you next time”
“What if there is no next time?”
“Nah, it’s alright”
“Please ask me”
“It’s okay”
“Martin, please”
“It’s okay, Nosipho”
“Okay”
We watched the movie, I knew he wanted to ask me whatever he wanted to ask but I think he
was a bit shy.
He’s a good friend.
*********
We were laughing so hard, the movie was really funny. It’s good to laugh again.
“This guy is insane”, Martin laughed.
There was a kissing scene and it was a bit awkward. I was sitting in the same couch as Martin,
we both were sharing a blanket. From the corner of my eye, I could see he was looking at me as
he took sips of beer. It was awkward.
“Why did you really leave his house?”, he asked.
“I told you, we need space”, I said.
“Why do you guys need space from each other?”, he sipped his beer.
“We argue a lot and that’s not healthy”, I said. The questions were uncomfortable.
“What do all these guys have that I don’t have?”
“I’m lost…”
“Raymond, Antonio and King Pin”
“Why are you asking me that?”
“I’m just asking”
“Nothing”
“Or maybe you’re into bad boys?”
“I thought we were friends”
“You only see me as a friend?”
“Duh”
“You don’t have feelings, nothing?”
“I do have feelings for you but not romantic feelings. You’re like the big brother I never had.
You’re kind, you’re extremely cool and a chilled guy”
“Oh”
“I’m sorry Martin”
“It’s okay”
“No it’s not okay”
“That’s all I wanted to know, are you happy now?”
“I’m happy that you asked the questions you wanted to know. You’re a good friend Martin”
“You’re a good friend too, Nosipho”
“Where are you going?”
“I need to pee”
“Okay”
I felt sorry for the guy but I’m not going to say ‘yes’ to every guy that likes me. He’s the coolest
guy I know in Johannesburg, I don’t even know why he’s in this business. It doesn’t suit him. I
couldn’t carry on watching the movie, I was sleepy and I think it would be more awkward if I
stick around. I went to my bedroom, on my way there I told Martin that I was going to sleep.
When I was on my bed, I rubbed my tummy for the first time. I couldn’t believe a human being
was growing inside me. Bringing life onto earth is one of the things that make women more
powerful. Women might not be the most praised human beings on earth but I think the earth will
be nothing without women. I closed my eyes and I visioned how the future will be with my baby.
Martin knocked on my bedroom door.
“Come in”, I said.
“I just wanted to say good night”, he said.
“Okay, good night”, I said.
He smiled and closed the door.
I went to sleep. I didn’t have any bad dreams. I slept peacefully like a baby.
In the morning, Martin was the first to wake up. My phone had many missed calls from King Pin.
I made myself breakfast, I don’t know why King Pin keeps SMSing and calling me. I returned his
calls but his phone was on voicemail. Well, I tried.
“Where’s K1?”, I asked Martin.
“Maybe she’s at a friend’s house”, he replied.
“She didn’t come back?”, I asked.
“Yeah – she does that all the time”, he said.
Wow.
**********
I already had my breakfast, I was watching tv while Martin was getting dressed in his room.
Suddenly I heard someone screaming my name, I looked out the window and I saw King Pin.
Martin came out of his bedroom, he looked out the window.
“What is this asshole doing here?”, he asked me.
“I don’t know”, I ran to the door.
King Pin opened the gate violently.
“One of your boys’ house? Is Martin your ‘boy’?”, he was angry.
“Calm down, Martin is my friend”, I said.
“Get out of here”, Martin said calmly.
“Shut up, I’m talking to my girl”, King Pin said to Martin.
“King Pin what are you doing here? I told you we need some space”, I said.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were moving with him? Why would you live with him?”, he asked.
“How many times must I tell you? Martin is my friend”, I was getting annoyed.
“Let’s go home Nosipho”, he ordered.
“I can’t – we agreed that we need space from each other”, I said.
“Let’s go!”, he shouted.
“Hey man, are you deaf? She doesn’t want to leave”, Martin defended me.
I stood there and I watched him drive away. Martin’s door was closed, I knocked, he didn’t
answer me. I kept shouting his name but he didn’t answer. I can understand, he has every right
to be mad at me. K1 even arrived.
“Where’s Martin?”, she asked.
“He’s inside”, I replied.
“Martin open the door, is he sleeping?”, she asked.
“No, he just had a fight with King Pin minutes earlier”, I said.
“What? Is he okay?”
“I don’t know, he doesn’t want to open the door”
“It’s all your fault”
“How is it my fault? I didn’t tell King Pin to come here”
Martin opened the door a few minutes later. When I walked in, I saw my suitcase.
“You attract so much drama, I don’t need you here. I’m sorry”, Martin said.
“Are you kidding me?”, I asked.
“You have to leave now”, he said.
“I thought we were friends”, I said.
“I thought we were friends too. Why didn’t you tell me you’re pregnant with King Pin’s baby?”, he
asked.
“What? I knew you were a sneaky bitch”, K1 added her two cents.
I took my suitcase and I left immediately. I thought my friendship with Martin was strong. I drove
away.
I sent Mbali an SMS, I told her to meet me at Bill’s Place, a small restaurant.
I drove to Bill’s Place, I parked outside and I waited for Mbali. I waited for hours, I thought she
wasn’t coming, I was starting to give up. I wanted to leave but she arrived.
“I was in varsity, I had double classes”, she said.
“Alright”, I said.
“How are you?”, she asked.
“I’m sick and tired of men that come in my life and think they can do whatever”, I said.
“Who wronged you?”, she asked.
“Today was really dramatic. It was like I was in a movie scene. I was living with Martin because I
had some issues with King Pin. Out of the blue King Pin arrives, he causes a scene, the next
thing he’s fighting with Martin. The police came, Foxy pressed assault charges against me but
the police didn’t arrest me, thanks god. Now Martin kicked me out of his house, he says I attract
drama”, I said.
“Woah, friend, that’s dramatic. What are you going to do now?”
“Do I have a choice? I must go back to King Pin”
“You don’t need him”
“I do need him, Mbali. He takes care of me”
“You’ve been through a lot, you don’t want another guy to fuck up your life”
“My life is already fucked up”
“But this is your chance to turn your life around”
“I don’t have money, I’m broke ass hell”
“Find a job”
“It’s not easy”
“Nosipho you’re just making up excuses”
“No I’m not. You won’t understand what I’m going through”
“Make me understand”
“No, you wouldn’t”
“Try me”
“Mbali, I don’t have my own place. I don’t have a job, I’m going through a very rough patch with
King Pin and I’m carrying his baby”
“What?”
“Yep”
“Oh my goodness, Nosipho. I don’t know if I can congratulate you”
“I’m going through hell, you wouldn’t understand”
“I guess, congratulations? I don’t know what to say, wow. You’re pregnant, you’re right, I
wouldn’t understand what you’re going through. Wow, it must be hell”
“It is – for now”
“I know you’re going to pull through”
“Yes”
“You’re going to be fine. You’re a strong beautiful girl. You deserve good, you deserve a man
that will respect you and love you for who you are inside”
“You’re right”
“It’s not too late to change. I broke up with Rashidi, I’m focusing on my books right now. I live in
my own tiny flat, I’m doing great things for myself”
“That’s good to hear”
I was proud of Mbali, she looked like the Mbali I met months ago. She looked free, she looked
innocent again. I do want to change but in order for me to change I want to go back to my past
and forgive the people that wronged me. I want to give birth to my child knowing there’s no
drama. I want to be a totally different person when I hold that baby for the first time.
I know I can.
**********
It was good talking to Mbali. I drove to King Pin’s club. As I was entering, I saw Raymond
coming out of the club. I saw Antonio’s car parked outside, I knew they had a meeting. They’re
working on a new business venture together.
“Hey Nosi”, Raymond greeted.
“Hey Ray…mond”, I greeted back.
“You’re looking good”, he complimented.
“Thanks”, it was awkward.
“See you this evening”, he said.
“Excuse me?”, I was confused.
“Antonio invited me, Linda, King Pin and you to have dinner in the sky”, he said.
“Oh”, I didn’t know.
“I thought King Pin told you”, he said.
“Maybe he forgot”, I said.
“Alright, see you there”, he walked away.
I walked in and Antonio walked out. He smiled and waved, I waved back. I went to King Pin’s
office.
“Do you know how proud of you I am when you said ‘my girlfriend’?”, I walked in and took a
seat.
He didn’t respond, he was typing on his laptop.
“When I was coming here, I met Raymond. He told me Antonio organised a dinner in the sky”, I
said.
“Yeah”, he mumbled.
“You didn’t tell me”, I said.
“If you answered my calls, you would’ve known”, he said.
“I’m sorry”, I apologised.
“I’m sorry too – I’m feel sorry for you”, he said.
“I want to move in with you. We can make this work for the sake of the baby”, I said.
He laughed.
“So now you want to move in? What happened? Your ‘boy’ kicked you out?”, he asked.
“You’d rather see me sleep on the street then?”, I asked.
“I didn’t say that. I’m going to accept you back but I’m not doing it for you, I’m doing it for my
child”, he said.
“Okay”
“Tonight we have to go to that dinner thingy”
“Dinner in the sky”
“Yes that”
It was good to talk to King Pin again without fighting. He took me to a dress shop where I bought
a very beautiful dress. I looked like a princess.
I spent the afternoon getting ready for dinner in the sky. King Pin had beautiful suits in his
wardrobe.
“King Pin, you never told me your real name”, I said.
“You want to know my real name?”, he asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
“My real name is Sexy Man”, he joked.
“Come on”
“Mr Sexy Man”
“Please”
“Okay, Thando Dlomo”
“Wow, Thando”
“But I prefer you call me King Pin”
“Where’s your family?”
“I don’t have a family”
“Come on, even animals have a family”
“I don’t like to talk about my family”
“Why?”
“You ask a lot of questions”
“I swear I’ll never ask you these questions again”
“My family is in Durban”
“Okay”
“My mom’s parents wanted my mom to marry some guy but my mom didn’t like the guy. She
met a xhosa man and she fell in love with him and that’s how I was born”
“What happened to your dad?”
“After my mom found out she was pregnant, she was afraid. She told her mom and her family
told her to marry the guy – ”
“The zulu guy?”
“Yes, she married the zulu guy and she lied to him and said the baby was his. The poor man
found out I wasn’t his child and he divorced my mom. When I was young, my mom went to live
with my real dad – the xhosa guy. The man passed away. I was too young, I can’t remember
how he looks like. I was about a month old, I don’t know. My mom’s family turned their back on
my mom. She moved to Johannesburg and I lived most of my life here. During school holidays I
went to my mom’s parents – they accepted me, they had no choice because I was their
grandson. But my mom’s relationship with her parents was never the same again”
“Where’s your mom now?”
“In heaven”
“I’m so sorry – ”
“It’s okay, but I’m angry at her for not telling me more about my dad”
“Do you know your dad’s name and surname?”
“I wish. But I made peace with it, long time ago. All I know is that my real dad was a xhosa
man”
“And you met a xhosa girl”
“Yes, a beautiful xhosa girl”
Dinner in the sky is always good, the view is magnificent. I was sitting next to King Pin, Linda
and Raymond were sitting opposite us. Antonio was sitting in the far end, he didn’t have a date
and that didn’t bother him. I won’t lie, the atmosphere was very tense and I was so
uncomfortable.
“Do you know if you get married to this man, he’s going to annoy you for the rest of your life?”,
Antonio joked with Linda.
Linda laughed.
“I love him”, Linda responded.
Raymond kissed Linda on the cheek.
King Pin looked like he wasn’t in the mood. He kept downing wine and eating.
“Are you alright?”, I whispered in his ears.
He nodded his head.
“How’s your relationship with King Pin going?”, asked Linda.
“Fine”, I responded.
“Just fine?”, she asked.
“What do you want it to be?”, I asked.
“I’m excited about the new business venture. I must say, good work guys”, Antonio changed the
subject.
“I’m happy, although me and Pin are not buddy-buddy – I’m happy on the turn out”, said
Raymond.
King Pin didn’t say anything, he just lifted his glass, faked smile and winked.
I give it up to Antonio though, he really wants King Pin and Raymond to be friends again. I think
they need time but I don’t trust Raymond because he once approached me to help him bring
King Pin down. I don’t know if he still wants to bring him down.
“You are all invited to our wedding. We’re still planning on a date”, said Raymond.
“That’s a second invitation for me but I’ll accept it”, said Antonio.
“Raymond can I ask you something?”, asked King Pin.
Oh boy!
Antonio was angry. Luckily, he didn’t drive with anger. As he was driving I saw someone
crossing the road.
“STOP!”, I screamed.
Antonio stopped the car, the wheels squeaked.
“What’s wrong?”, he asked.
“Didn’t you see?”, I asked.
“See what?”, he asked again.
“Someone crossing the road. You nearly ran over someone”, I said.
“No, I didn’t see anyone crossing the road”, he said.
“Oh”, I said.
We got to King Pin’s house. I thanked Antonio for the ride. I knocked on the door, King Pin
opened the door. I went to the lounge and I saw Foxy.
“I was leaving anyway”, she said.
“Let me help you out”, said King Pin.
I rested on the couch.
I had another dream. I was back at home, my mom was sitting outside. I was afraid of her
because the last time the ghost had my mother’s face.
“Come”, my mom said.
“Are you my mom?”, I asked.
“Yes”, she replied.
I sat next to my mother.
“Be careful”, she said.
“Of what?”, I asked.
“Be careful”, she said again.
My mom looked like she was a robot, she didn’t blink.
“Murder. Murder. Murder. Murder”, she kept repeating.
I couldn’t make up what she meant.
I couldn’t.
In the morning, I had a very funny feeling. I wanted to talk to my mother but the telephone
doesn’t work back home. King Pin went to buy some tools at the warehouse and also a cot for
the baby. I heard a knock on the door, I went to open the door and there was Foxy.
“King Pin isn’t home”, I said.
“He’s not?”, she asked.
“Yeah”, I said.
“Oh well, I just came to give him his shirt”, she took out King Pin’s shirt.
Mxm.
**********
King Pin came back. I helped him bring the things he bought inside the house. “I bought white
paint because we don’t know the gender of the baby yet, anyway white is for both genders”,
said an enthusiastic King Pin.
“Uhm, babe, Foxy came by earlier”, I said.
King Pin stopped what he was doing.
“What did she want?”, he asked.
“She came to drop off your shirt”, I said.
“Oh yeah, yeah”, he said.
“She said she slept here”, I said.
“Yeah, we had uhm, something to sort out. Business, yes, it was business related”, he said.
“Alright”, I said.
“Alright? Okay. Wow, I thought, oh boy, here comes another argument”
“You have a lot of explaining to do. Let’s just finish packing these things first”
“Uh – what? What explaining? I told you that Foxy slept over because we had to take care of
some business”
“Can we finish packing first?”
“Of course”
We moved everything in the spare room. We will transform the spare room into a baby room.
King Pin was going to set up the cot and paint the room. I was going to help him paint the room
but he didn’t want my help, eish, men and their ego.
King Pin is an arrogant man but I sometimes think his arrogance is sexy. I went to the lounge
and King Pin carried on what he was doing.
Aaah…
**********
After King Pin was done with the room, he went to shower. The room looked so beautiful and
neat. After King Pin was done showering, I made him something to eat.
“Hmm, looks delicious”, he said.
“You did a great job”, I complimented.
“Oh well, I did it for the baby”, he said.
“Do you love your food?”, I asked.
“Yes”, he replied.
He didn’t look happy though.
“What’s up?”, I asked.
“Nothing”, he replied.
“You must be tired”
“I’m not”
I don’t know what was wrong with King Pin. Minutes later he went to the meeting Antonio
organised. I decided to search the house. I wanted to find anything that would link up to Foxy.
Call me crazy or a jealous bitch but I’m tired of being a pushover. It’s time for me to stand my
ground and fight for what’s mine and King Pin is mine. I searched his room. I didn’t see any
evidence, I just saw a tiny notebook, I threw it across the room because I was angry that I didn’t
bust him. Something told me to check out the notebook, I took the notebook and I opened it. I
saw a list of people’s name and an amount of money written next to their names. The total was
more than a quarter of a million rands. I closed the notebook and I saw ‘bookie funds’ written
outside the book. Wow, I was surprised.
To those who don’t know, someone who facilitates gambling, commonly on
sporting events, by setting odds, accepting and placing bets, and paying out winnings on behalf
of other people. “Bookie” is a slang term for “bookmaker.” Bookies do not usually make their
money by placing bets themselves, but by charging a transaction fee on their customers’ bets
known as a “vigorish,” or “the vig.” Bookies may also lend money to bettors.
@ 6PM
King Pin arrived.
“You back early”, I said.
“Were you expecting a visitor?”, he kissed me on the cheek.
“No”, I replied.
“Let’s go out, celebrate and do what couples do”, he laughed.
“Wow, you’re starting to get romantic, I like it”, I laughed.
“I’m trying”
“What’s the celebration?”
“The baby, we never really celebrated that. Us, the deal I made with Raymond and the rest – ”
“What deal?”
“Raymond is a fake ass nigga. He knew I knew what was up, I exposed his ass. He wants us to
combine our bookie businesses into one. He said I will get 60% and that’s good enough for me”
“Why would Raymond give you a higher percentage?”
“Because I’m King Pin, hello?”
“Anyway, I can’t wait to celebrate with you tonight”
“Me too”
“That’s all I ever wanted”
“To go out for dinner?”
“More like, spend a quality time with someone I love”
“Me too”
“Really?”
“Yeah”
“I’m glad”
King Pin blindfolded me and he drove me somewhere, I was blindfolded so I couldn’t really see
where I was.
“Keep your blindfolds on, we’re going in”, he said.
King Pin parked his car. We got out and he held my hand, guiding me, the blindfolds were still
on. I heard another. man’s voice, he was talking to King Pin. What’s going on? King Pin
removed my blindfolds…
“Oh my word, King Pin”, I gushed.
“Do you like it?”, he asked.
“Of course”, I hugged him.
“Since I messed up the last dinner in the sky, I thought why not make it up to you”, he said.
“How thoughtful of you, babe. I love it”, I was so happy.
I had a great time with King Pin. He told me that Raymond, Martin and Rashidi were all partners
in their bookie business. He told me he was partners with a guy named Tim. Him and Tim are
now in business with Raymond, Martin and Rashidi. He said he’s going to get 60% of whatever
they make. I don’t think it will end well.
He gently placed me on his bed. He started dancing, that was really fun.
“I missed you”, he kissed me.
“I missed you too”, I said.
We kissed passionately, the next thing he was on top of me.
“Be gentle”, I whispered.
“I will”, he kissed me.
We started having sex.
After having sex with him, I looked the other side. I wasn’t feeling okay.
“I enjoyed that one. Your pussy is good”, he kissed me on the cheek.
I didn’t say anything.
“Did you enjoy my dick? Because I was deDICKated”, he joked.
I didn’t say anything.
“My dick educated you, I call my dick DICKtionary”, he joked.
“Sorry”, I walked out of the room.
I went straight to the bathroom and I vomited. After vomiting, I brushed my teeth. I went back to
King Pin’s bedroom.
I had to see the doctor for check up. I was happy and nervous at the same time. I ate boiled
eggs for breakfast.
“You should come to the check up with me”, I told King Pin.
“Uhm, I can’t”, he said.
“Why? But I told you this a long time ago”, I said.
“I know, maybe I’ll go with you to the next check up”, he said.
“What’s keeping you busy?”, I asked.
“I have to go to a meeting”, he said.
“You mean you have to see Foxy?”
“Come on, trust me you don’t want to go there”
“I do, let’s go there”
“Hey, I’ll just act like we never talked about this”
“Why are you always sensitive when we talk about Foxy?”
“I’m not, you are”
“Is Foxy going to be at your meeting”
“Really, Nosipho?”
“Answer me, damn it!”
“Yeah”
“Foxy and who?”
“Foxy and no one else”
“So you’re going to a private meeting with her”
“She works for me”
“Yeah, she does more than work for you, right?”
“This is funny”
“King Pin, why can’t you postpone the meeting with her and just support your girlfriend?”
“It’s an important meeting”
“Is a strip club more important than your baby?”
“Making money for us and the baby is more important”
“Don’t flip the script”
“I don’t want to argue with you Nosipho. You’re pregnant”
“Clearly making money is more important than your baby”
“I can drive you to the doctor”
“I don’t need you to do me any favours”
“I’m just helping you”
“You’re helping me?”
“If you don’t need my help, it’s okay”
“King Pin, if you’re ready to grow up please tell me”
“Hey, hey what are you trying to say?”
“I’m tired of holding your hand like you’re a bloody toddler”
“I can’t stand here and argue with a pregnant woman who’s emotionally unstable”
King Pin left. I was so angry. And Foxy wins again.
I drove myself to the doctor. The doctor performed an ultrasound procedure. I wish King Pin was
here, the doctor also told me the gender of the baby. He said it was a girl and I was happy. I
drove back to King Pin’s house.
King Pin wasn’t home, I tried to make sense of everything that’s happening around me. That K1
girl wanted to live in King Pin’s house, why? Because she had her cousin, Martin. Unless Martin
planned something, he doesn’t like King Pin. What about Rashidi? He sent his girlfriend, Mbali
to steal from Antonio. Mbali never told me the other person’s name, I’m guessing Martin? It
goes back to when I delivered that package to “Mr X” but I found Rashidi there and Martin later
entered. That’s all strange to me and now they’re all in partnership with King Pin. I don’t want to
concentrate on that but I don’t want King Pin to get hurt. I really love King Pin, I don’t see myself
with anyone else but him.
It was about 2pm, King Pin rushed to the house.
“Babe, how did it all go?”, he asked.
“Good”, I replied.
“So?”, he asked.
“It’s a baby girl”, I said.
“That’s amazing”, he said.
“Yep”
“I’m sorry for not going with you”
“I really wanted you to come with me”
“Close your eyes”
“For what?”
“Just close your eyes, please”
“Er…oh”
“Close them”
“My eyes are shut”
“Okay…”
“Still shut”
“Open your eyes”
“Okay”
“Surprise”
“King Pin”
“Beautiful necklace for a beautiful girl”
“It’s lovely but a necklace won’t change anything”
“I know”
“It’s lovely, thanks”
“Uhm…we’re having a group date with the gents”
“Oh?”
“Yeah, it’s a mini celebration”
“Oh”
“I would love for you to come with me”
“Your gents?”
“Well, Raymond, Rashidi, Martin, Tim and their dates”
“I can’t go”
“Why?”
“Because the last time I saw Raymond and Linda, it wasn’t nice”
“It won’t happen again, please”
“Are you buddy-buddy with them now that you’re all partners?”
“It’s a long way to go”
“Okay”
“Will you come with me?”
“Yes”
“Thank you babe, we should get ready because we should be there at 4pm”
“Cool”
I can’t wait.
**********
We drove to Raymond’s restaurant. When we got there, Raymond, Linda, Rashidi and Mbali
were already there. There were no customers in the restaurant, the restaurant was hired just for
us.
“Welcome guys”, said Raymond. “Martin hasn’t arrived yet, I’m sure he’s on his way”, he added.
I went to talk to Mbali.
“Hey Mbali, how are you?”, I asked.
“I’m good”, she replied.
“I thought you said you ended things with Rashidi”, I said.
“Yeah but he asked me to be his date. We’re friends now”, she said.
“Okay?”
“How are things between you and King Pin?”
Before I could answer Mbali, Martin entered with Foxy. I was surprised, I went to King Pin.
“What is she doing here?”, I whispered in King Pin’s ear.
“Why don’t you go and ask here?”, King Pin whispered in my ear.
“Okay, ladies and gentlemen, can we all come to this table”, said Raymond.
We all went to sit in the same table.
The table was long. Me, King Pin, Mbali and Rashidi were sitting on the same side. Opposite us
were Linda, Raymond, Foxy and Martin. There were waitresses serving us food. Tim, King Pin’s
friend and partner couldn’t make it.
“I never thought I would be having a meal with King Pin and his girl”, said Raymond. He added,
“I hope this partnership mends our broken friendship”.
“I hope you gentlemen know what you’re putting yourselves into. This is no joke, this is
business”, said Linda.
“I think before we start afresh, we should get everything off our chests”, said Martin.
“That’s a good start”, said Raymond.
Linda looked at Raymond, “This won’t end well, babe”, she said.
“No, let’s do this”, said King Pin.
I looked at King Pin, he shrugged his shoulders.
“Before we start, I have to say. You gentlemen are smart – at least you thought you were. Let’s
face it, my bookie business is bigger than yours”, said King Pin.
Martin interrupted him.
“Hence you got 60% of what we will make”, said Martin.
“60% isn’t enough, I looked at all your records and I compared it to mine”, said King Pin – Martin
interrupted him again.
“Well, that’s bullshit. It’s 60% and it’s final”, said Martin.
“Wait, Martin. Uh – so what are you suggesting King Pin?”, asked Raymond.
“70%”, replied King Pin.
“That’s crazy”, said Rashidi.
“You guys need me”, said King Pin.
“70% is a bit extreme, don’t you think?”, asked Linda.
“Your bookie business made between R75 000 to R80 000 a month. My bookie business made
R100 000 to R150 000 a month. Let’s say our businesses combined will make…uhm…R230
000. 70% of R230 000 would be…uhm…let me count…uhm… R161 000 is what I will get and
the R69 000 will be yours”, King Pin arrogantly said.
“R69 000 is lower than the average amount we make every month”, said Rashidi.
“Take the 60%, we all win”, said Martin. “Let me think, uhm, oh yeah…no is the answer”, said
King Pin.
“But we agreed on 60%”, said Raymond.
“65%, how’s that?”, asked King Pin.
“Better than the 70%”, replied Raymond.
The agreed on a 65/35 deal. I was so proud of my man.
“Before we take this partnership to the next level, everyone sitting here should confess”, said
Raymond.
“I don’t have anything to confess”, said Mbali. I looked at her and I looked away immediately.
“Anyone wants to confess?”, asked Raymond.
Everyone on the table was quiet.
“No confessions?”, Raymond asked again.
“Let’s just eat, things are going to be awkward”, I said.
Surprisingly, Foxy was quiet the whole time.
The food was good but there was some fakeness on the dinner table. You could cut the tension
with a knife.
After everyone was done eating, a man played a violin. Beautiful. I saw Foxy talking to King Pin,
she hugged him. She was all over him.
“Look at Foxy”, Mbali said to me.
“I saw her”, I said.
“She has a crush on King Pin, it’s visible”, said Mbali.
“I don’t know what she wants from us. She visits King Pin’s place, she’s annoying”, I said.
“What? She visits King Pin’s house? That’s shady”, said Mbali.
I was so angry, King Pin wasn’t giving me attention. I dragged him by his arm.
“What the fuck?”, he yelled.
Everyone looked at us.
“If Foxy was doing that you wouldn’t freak out”, I said.
“You’re so obsessed with my name”, said Foxy.
“Just leave me alone Nosipho. Stop acting like a selfish bitch”, King Pin was so angry.
“You’re so insecure”, said Foxy.
“Are you sleeping with her?”, I asked King Pin.
“Leave me alone”, said King Pin.
“Is that why she brought that shirt? You guys had sex and you borrowed her your shirt?”, I was
angry.
“We talked about this, you’re making a fool of yourself”, King Pin whispered in my ear.
Martin pulled me aside, he wanted to talk to me. King Pin shoved him.
“Don’t touch her!”, King Pin was clearly tipsy.
“Don’t shove him”, I defended Martin.
“Nosipho, do us all a favour and go back to where you came from”, said Foxy.
“Stay out of this, bitch”, I said.
“Mbali doesn’t like you, Rashidi doesn’t like you, Linda doesn’t like you, Raymond doesn’t like
you, Martin doesn’t like you, I don’t like you and King Pin doesn’t like you”, said Foxy.
“Wow, says a girl who wanted to bring Raymond down. Yeah, that’s a confession. Heard that
Raymond?”, I was ready to tell everything.
“Foxy, what is she talking about?”, asked Linda.
“Nothing”, lied Foxy.
“Nothing? I hope it’s nothing”, said Linda.
People were starting to show their true emotions. Fake masks were peeling off.
It’s going to be dramatic. It won’t end well.
**********
“Tell her the truth Foxy”, I said.
“I needed the money”, said Foxy.
“So that’s true?”, asked Linda.
“Yeah, I was just helping King Pin”, said Foxy.
“It never worked. I thought maybe after Nosipho failed, Foxy was going to help me. It was too
easy, Foxy was Linda’s friend, too easy. But it never really worked”, confessed King Pin.
“I wanted to bring you down, Raymond – and Linda. After what you guys did to me, I was bitter
and hurt. I never hated people the way I hated you guys. I learned to forgive you guys but I can’t
forget”, I said.
“We apologised, over and over again. You didn’t want to accept our apology. You were rude to
us, it’s understandable because we betrayed you. Sometimes I wished you weren’t stubborn.
You’re just a kid, you know nothing about this business”, said Linda.
“I’m not a kid! I’m old enough to know what’s right and wrong”, I said.
“You say you have forgiven us but you still hate us”, said Linda.
“I forgave you guys but I told you, I can’t be your friend anymore”, I said.
“I don’t care anymore, Nosipho”, said Linda.
“What makes you think I care?”, I asked her.
She didn’t answer me.
“This city is full of fake people. The pastor back home always said the city was an evil place.
People corrupt the city. Having a celebratory dinner? What is this? Celebrating new partnership
built from deceiving”, I said.
“I’ve been quiet for too long. What do you know? You’re just a selfish, arrogant, stubborn, stupid
rural girl who thinks the world revolves around Nosipho”, said Rashidi.
“Are you talking to me Mr X? Oh wait, Mr X is fake. Why don’t you tell everyone what you’ve
been up to”, I said.
“Nothing”, Rashidi took a sip of wine.
“King Pin sent me to deliver a package for Mr X. I found Rashidi in this house, he was sitting
comfortably in the office. He told me he was Mr X, Martin later entered the house. It’s strange, I
find that strange”, I said. I added, “And you, Martin? What were you and your cousin, K1 up to?
She wanted to stay at King Pin’s place. Did you send her? Did you?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about”, said Martin.
“How come you know everything?”, asked Linda.
“I’m smart”, I said.
Linda giggled.
“You? Smart?”, Linda giggled.
“Yes, I’m smart enough to know that you have a history with my brother. You thought I would
never know?”, I asked her.
“We dated, so what? It was in the past, does that make you smart?”, she asked.
“Why do you always ruin everything?”, asked Raymond. He wasn’t happy.
“And Raymond, wow, Raymond. He approached me and ask for my help to bring King Pin down
but I said no”, I said.
I could see King Pin’s face frowning. He looked at me.
“You were meeting this guy behind my back?”, asked King Pin.
“No, we met randomly”, I said.
“Since this is a confessions spree, let me confess something before she says anything. Linda,
I’m financially assisting your pregnant sister”, said Raymond.
“What? We talked about this Raymond. How could you?”, Linda was pissed.
“Rashidi, are you running a drug business behind my back?”, asked Raymond.
“If I’m going to fall, I’ll drag someone with me”, said Rashidi.
“Answer me, damn it! Are you?”, Raymond was angry.
“Yes, with Martin”, replied Rashidi.
“With Martin? You’re my friend and Martin, we’re partners. How could you guys betray me? No
wonder my business wasn’t doing well. I heard my customers were being satisfied elsewhere, I
thought it was King Pin, not my best friend and my partner”, Raymond was shouting.
“Sorry man”, apologised Rashidi.
“Linda was involved too”, said Martin.
“What? Is he telling the truth?”, Raymond asked Linda.
“Yes”, replied Linda.
“Rashidi, over friendship is over. You’re fired from the club. Martin, our partnership is over.
Linda, our engagement is over – I’m done with you. You should leave my house, leave
everything I bought you including my car. My son is staying with me”, Raymond walked out.
“Baby, listen”, Linda ran after Raymond.
I couldn’t believe my ears. Suddenly I felt this rush down my spine, my body temperature rose
and I was feeling hot. My knees began to weaken, I kneeled. I felt dizzy. My vision went blur, I
fell on the ground. I could hear King Pin saying, “Nosipho!, Nosipho!” but his voice sounded like
he was further. I closed my eyes, I opened them again and I saw trees. I was in a forest, I was
laying there, I couldn’t get up.
Bit by bit I was starting to lose myself. It was like I was escaping my body, I was too weak. I
closed my eyes.
What’s going on? Am I dying?
**********
I woke up in hospital, King Pin was sleeping on the chair next to my hospital bed.
“King Pin”, I called.
He woke up.
“Hey, how are you feeling?”, he asked.
“Good”, I replied.
“You fainted, do you remember everything that happened prior to you fainting?”, he asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
He kept quiet.
“I was right, you are sleeping with that witch”, I said.
“Only if you knew how to handle me, I wouldn’t be fucking another girl”, he said arrogantly.
“Don’t make this my fault! I never cheated on you”, I said.
“But you cheated on Antonio, you’re not a saint either”, he said.
I kept quiet.
“Stop acting like you’re perfect, because you’re not”, he said.
“Do you regret cheating on me?”, I asked.
“Do you regret treating me like shit?”, he asked.
“I never treated you like shit, I love you. Clearly you don’t love me”, I said.
“Look, I’ll wait for you outside. We’ll talk more when we get home”, he left.
The doctor came and he gave me vitamins. He wrote a list of foods I should and shouldn’t eat
while I’m pregnant. I was immediately discharged, King Pin was waiting for me outside. He
drove me home.
When we got home, Foxy was sitting on the stairs. I don’t know what she wants.
“Two weeks pregnant, here”, Foxy threw a doctor’s statement at King Pin.
“Don’t throw it”, King Pin was angry.
“I’m carrying your baby, you’re going to support me”, said Foxy.
Foxy brought her suitcases, wow.
“Can you explain the suitcases?”, asked King Pin.
“I’m moving in, I was evicted from my flat”, she said.
“You’re not staying here”, said King Pin.
King Pin opened the door, I entered and Foxy entered too.
King Pin took his car keys and we drove away. I wanted to have a serious talk with my agent,
not much has happened. I don’t think my acting career is going well, I’m not meant for that.
I met up with my agent and I told him about my pregnancy, he was surprised. I told him that I’m
quitting, he understood. He said if I consider going back to acting, his agency is always open.
KG is a good man, God bless him and his family.
We drove back to King Pin’s house, it was dark.
What’s going to happen next?
**********
When we got back at King Pin’s place, Foxy was asleep.
“It’s dark outside, you can leave tomorrow”, he said.
“Maybe you’re right”, I said.
King Pin ordered supper, I never really talked to Foxy. What’s there to say? She was in her
bedroom the whole time. After supper, I watched a scary movie with King Pin.
“You like scary movies”, I said.
“Scary movies are the best”, he said.
We were sitting on the same couch, we were sharing a blanket.
“Am I the worst boyfriend you ever had?”, he asked.
“You’re my first love”, I said.
“Wow, really?”, he was surprised.
“Yes, you’re the first man I ever truly loved”, I said.
“I feel honoured”
“Oh please”
“Really, that means the next man has a lot of stepping up to do”
“You can say that again”
“Really, that means the next man has a lot of stepping up to do”
“You can say that again”
“Really, that means the – ”
“Oh, King Pin – not like that”
“I’m just being silly”
“What about you?”
“You’re the only girl I had genuine feelings for – this is the longest relationship I ever had”
“Do you always cheat? Please, don’t be mad”
“I’m used to being a bachelor”
“Why do men cheat when they have a good girlfriend?”
“There’s a reason for cheating, you also had a reason when you cheated on Antonio, right?”
“He was a bit boring”
“Antonio is a cool guy, he’s a great businessman but he’s not as innocent as he looks”
“I know”
I had fun with King Pin that night. He made me fall in love with him again.
The next morning, I was on the road, I was heading home. I’m tired of keeping secrets from my
parents, I want to tell them the truth now.
It was a long drive, I stopped at more than five garages to take a break.
I arrived home at about 5PM. My older brother’s taxi was parked outside, I knew he was home. I
entered the house, my family was shocked.
“Nosipho, my child!”, my mom sighed.
“Good afternoon everyone”, I greeted.
“Take a seat”, my mom said.
“How are you my child?”, my dad asked.
“I’m not well”, I replied.
“What’s wrong my child?”, my dad asked.
“I don’t know how you will react”, I said.
There was silence.
“Dad, mom, I…”, I couldn’t finish the sentence.
“What’s wrong my child?”, my mom was worried.
My big brother, Bandile was staring at me and that made me more nervous.
“Did someone cut your tongue? Can’t you talk?”, Bandile pressurised me.
“Wait, Bandile”, my mom said.
“I’m pregnant”, I said.
My mom put her hands on her head and she kept saying, “Hayi Nosipho, hayi Nosipho (No
Nosipho, no Nosipho). Tears went down my cheeks, my dad didn’t say anything. I disappointed
my family. My little brother, Lwazi stood up and he went to his room. Bandile stared at me, his
eyes were piercing.
I opened my eyes, I was laying in bed. My parents and the pastor were praying. I couldn’t get
up, it’s like my body was stiff. I couldn’t move a muscle but my eyes were wide open. I was
struggling to get up, I wanted to scream but I couldn’t open my mouth. I struggled for a while
before I could move a muscle. Finally, I was free – my parents and the pastor were still praying,
I waited for ‘Amen’ so I can get out of bed.
“Amen”, they sang.
That was my cue, I got out of bed. Funny though, my parents and the pastor just went out of my
room, they didn’t even talk to me. I got out of the room.
“Mom, dad, I’m fine now”, I said.
They didn’t answer me.
“I wonder what’s wrong with Nosipho”, my mom said.
“I’m fine now”, I said.
“An evil force is responsible”, the pastor said.
“Look at me mom, look, I’m fine”, I said.
It’s like I wasn’t there, my mom ignored me – everyone did. I went to my room again, I saw
myself laying on the bed. I looked so unconscious but peaceful. What’s going on? I looked at
myself, seeing myself laying on that bed, I was helpless. I tried to wake myself, I didn’t wake up.
I was aware of what was going on, I went out of the room. I tried whispering something in my
mom’s ear but she didn’t hear me. Am I a spirit? Did I die? I went outside, suddenly the clouds
started forming. It began to rain, it wasn’t just any rain, it was heavy rain. Thunder started,
BOOM! BANG! BOOM! I was afraid, I collapsed.
We all went out of the room, we went to sit in the ‘sitting room’.
“God wouldn’t let me suffer like this if he loved me”, I said.
My mom looked at my dad.
“I don’t deserve this”, I said.
“Everything will be okay”, my mom said.
“No, mom. Everything won’t be okay. I don’t know this woman, she keeps…”, I stopped talking.
My mom sat on the edge of her seat.
“Woman?”, she asked.
“Yes”, I mumbled.
“What woman?”, my dad asked.
“I don’t know her. She always appear with a blurred face, one time she appeared as you, mom. I
don’t know what she wants. Sometimes she’s not a threat but sometimes she’s violent – like,
she wants to kill me. But hey, maybe I’m just reading too much into this crap. People around me
think I’m crazy”, I said.
‘Oh no”, my mom sighed.
“What does that all mean, mom?”, I asked.
My mom didn’t answer me.
“Are the ancestors angry at me?”, I asked her.
She kept quite.
“Please answer me”, I said.
“We have to go to my family today”, my mom said.
My dad looked at my mom. “Why?”, he asked.
“It’s really important”, she said.
My mom’s family live in another village that is not that far from our village.
My mom entered the house again, her eyes were red, it looks like she was crying outside.
“Mom are you okay?”, I asked.
“I’ll be fine”, she said.
MaDuna came inside alone, Bhele left – I didn’t know where he went.
“This has to be the most extreme case I ever had. I don’t have much experience in dealing with
such things, I don’t want to lie”, said MaDuna.
“What’s going to happen now?”, asked mom.
“Bhele is going to transfer you to MaKhumalo, she will definitely help you”, said MaDuna.
We waited for Bhele, when he arrived, he took us to MaKhumalo’s place. It wasn’t that far.
MaKhumalo didn’t look like the woman you want to mess with. She didn’t even smile when we
walked in. Her house was cold, Bhele left us there and he left.
MaKhumalo took us to a room full of traditional medicine – the room had a funny smell. There
was a mat in the middle of the room, we sat there. MaKhumalo left us there, she went outside to
smoke.
“Your mom is right – you have to wait”, MaKhumalo entered the room.
I didn’t expect her to walk in – I was shocked when she said that.
“I can’t work on you tonight”, the woman said.
“What? Why are we here?”, I was getting irritated.
“This is my house and you are going to abide by my rules”, the woman said.
“When are you planning to start?”, my mom asked politely.
“Tomorrow – maybe the day after tomorrow, that depends on Nosipho’s behaviour”, MaKhumalo
said calmly.
“Okay, we’re going to come back tomorrow”, my mom said.
“Nosipho must stay”, said MaKhumalo.
“Excuse me?”, I asked.
“You must stay”, MaKhumalo repeated. “Okay”, my mom agreed.
“I can’t stay here”, I protested.
“You have to listen to MaKhumalo, she knows what she’s doing”, my mom said.
My mom left me there. I was left with MaKhumalo, she wasn’t a friendly woman.
I went to the room. I sat on the floor, MaKhumalo entered the room.
“Sleep”, she ordered.
I didn’t want to argue but I couldn’t help myself…
“Sleep?”, I asked.
“Stop asking questions”, she said.
I laid on the floor, I closed my eyes but I wasn’t sleepy.
“Sleep…sleep…sleep”, MaKhumalo whispered.
I ended up sleeping.
In the morning, I found MaKhumalo smoking outside.
“Good morning”, I greeted.
“Good morning”, she replied.
“I want to apologise”, I said.
“How was your sleep?”, she asked.
“I slept okay but the floor, eish”, I said.
“What did you want to apologise about?”, she asked.
“About yesterday”
“What about yesterday?”
“I was acting weird maybe it’s my pregnancy hormones”
“Try another excuse”
“I’m sorry, I acted like a mad pregnant woman”
“Okay”
“You accept my apology?”
“If I don’t accept your apology we will have another argument”
“So, will we start today? This afternoon?”
“Who’s in charge here?”
“You are”
“Thank you”
“When will we start?”
“When your attitude changes”
“I apologised”
“So?”
“I thought we will move forward”
“We will move forward, go get a bucket and go fetch some water”
“I’m pregnant”
“Are your hands pregnant?”
“No”
“Go get a bucket and go fetch some water”
“Why am I here?”
“Why are you here?”
“I’m not here to be a maid”
“That water is going to help you. Don’t you want me to begin the whole process?”
“Oh, you should’ve specified”
“You need to learn to listen”
“I’m sorry”
“I feel sorry for you”
“I apologise”
“Stop apologising and go get the bucket, quick, now, now, run”
“Okay”
I rushed inside, I took the bucket and I went to the dam to fetch some water.
No one was near the dam, it was so quiet. I started pouring the water, suddenly, the water
turned to blood – I stepped back. I felt someone grabbing my shoulder, without noticing who it
was, I pushed the person. When I looked back, I saw MaKhumalo on the floor. I saw the ghost,
charging towards me, I was freaked out – I fainted.
When I woke up, I saw my mom and MaKhumalo. I noticed MaKhumalo had a knife in her hand,
I didn’t know what she was going to do. I was weak, my eyes kept opening and closing weakly. I
felt MaKhumalo cut my arm, she cut my mom’s arm too. Blood was rushing out of my arm,
MaKhumalo took my bloody arm and she placed it on my mom’s cut. MaKhumalo started talking
fast, whatever she said, it didn’t make sense. I just closed my eyes and I slept.
I had a dream – my mom was in my dream. It wasn’t a scary dream, at all.
When I woke up, my mom and MaKhumalo were having a chat in the lounge. I looked at my
arm, I had a plaster – the scar didn’t hurt that much. I felt fresh, I felt on top of the world,
something I haven’t felt in a long time. A huge burden was lifted off my shoulders. I went to join
my mom and MaKhumalo.
“You slept well?”, my mom asked.
“Yes, like a baby”, I smiled.
“I’m glad”, said MaKhumalo. “It’s not over though, your mom has to do a ceremony”, she added.
“I’m going to speak to your father”, my mom said.
“Dad is going to agree, when will this ceremony be?”, I asked.
“This weekend”, my mom replied.
“It’s important that everyone in the family is involved in the ceremony”, said MaKhumalo.
“Yes”, my mom nodded.
“You’re going home today, Nosipho”, said MaKhumalo.
I was happy – excited, really.
We left MaKhumalo’s place and we went to see how grandma was doing. She looked okay, she
was feeling better. We left grandma’s house and we went back home.
Everyone was present, mom was ready to tell everyone the news.
“Can everyone please gather”, my mom said.
Everyone went to the sitting room.
“I told you about Nosipho’s issue. This Saturday, MaKhumalo said I must do a ceremony”, my
mom said.
“Ceremony? Where?”, my dad asked.
“Here”, my mom replied.
“What will people say?”, my dad was worried.
“Who cares? We’re doing this for Nosipho, don’t you want your child to be alright?”, my mom
asked.
“I do want her to be alright. Why don’t we take her to church? We can invite the pastor and the
congregation to pray for her”, my dad said.
“No, we should do the ceremony”, my mom was getting aggravated.
“I’ve been silent for a while, Nobesuthu. This child went to the city, we never did anything. She’s
pregnant now and we still haven’t done anything. Whoever impregnated you should man up, he
must pay for the damages. After all that is done maybe you might do that ceremony”, my dad
expressed.
“We need to do this soon, my husband, this child needs to be cured”, my mom said.
“I’m sorry Nobesuthu, your child should tell her boyfriend to pay for the damages”, my dad left.
“He’s a busy man”, I said.
“I don’t care”, my dad said.
“I don’t have time for this”, Bandile left.
I went to my room and I gave King Pin a call.
He didn’t pick up his phone, I called again. This time he picked up his phone.
“Hey, Nosipho”, he said.
“Where were you?”, I asked.
“I was busy”, he replied.
“Oh”
“Why did you call? Is everything okay?”
“Can’t I call my boyfriend?”
“I’m sorry, how are you?”
“I’m alright and you?”
“I’m fine but I really miss you”
“I miss you too. So…is…is she still there?”
“No”
“Oh”
“I wish you were here”
“Uhm…my dad wants you to pay for the damages”
“What?”
“You impregnated me, he wants you to pay for the damages”
“Oh, that”
“You need to tell your uncles or any male in your family, I don’t know, just come and pay”
“I’m out of town”
“Where are you?”
“Durban”
“Oh”
“But I’ll talk to my uncle, he’s cool – he will agree – and also my friend”
“That would be cool”
“It’s just paying for the damages and nothing more, right?”
“Yeah, what more should be paid for?”
“I don’t know…lobola? I don’t know”
“Oh please”
“It’s not a trap, is it?”
“Quite with the not so funny jokes”
“I’m joking…okay…I think I have to go now”
“I love you”
“I love you too”
I was happy that King Pin agreed. I can’t wait for him to meet my family, he’s a cool guy.
Yay!
**********
The next day, it was Wednesday, I went outside. It was still in the morning, I saw my big brother,
Bandile looking at my car. He was surrounding my car, he saw me then he stopped.
“Do you want to take it for a test drive?”, I asked.
“What makes you think I want to drive your car?”, he asked with an attitude.
“I was just suggesting, I saw how you were looking at it”, I said.
“Do you want to take my taxi for a test drive?”, he asked.
“No, why?”
“You looked at it”
“Hey, I was just suggesting”
“I still don’t get how you bought this car with your own money”
“I still don’t get how you managed to be in Linda’s photo”
“What?”
“Oh, you forgot? I saw a picture of you and Linda”
“Are you sniffing around?”
“No, I saw a picture of you and Linda – that’s all”
“What’s the big deal?”
“You went to the city”
“I went to the city? You’re stupid”
“No, I’m not stupid – you are! I saw the background…you were in Jozi”
“Shame”
“You’ve been judging me for something you’re also guilty of”
“You’re talking shit”
“What did I ever do to you? Is it because I went to the city? What?”
“The world doesn’t revolve around you”
“That’s a pathetic reason. Why do you hate me so much? I’m your sister”
“Leave me alone”
“What did I ever do to you?”
“You would never understand”
“Make me understand”
Bandile just got into his taxi and he drove away angrily.
I hope my mother manages to convince my dad about the ceremony. I really want to get
everything over and done with.
I can’t wait.
**********
All my friends were no longer living in the village, I don’t blame them though. I was sitting
outside when I saw a guy I used to attend school with. The same guy I lost my virginity to – the
last time I heard, he was living in King Williams Town. We never really dated. His name is
Mfundo, he looked handsome.
“Nosipho, how are you?”, he asked with a cute smile.
“I’m alright, wow, how are you?”, I asked.
“I’m fine”, he sat on the stoep.
“You’re looking, uhm, good”, I complimented.
He laughed. “You’re looking good too”, he said.
“What are you doing here?”, I asked.
“I just came to see my sister”, he replied.
“Your sister lives here now? I thought she was also in KWT”
“She moved back here, how’s life?”
“Hard – ”
“I know, right? What are you doing at the moment?”
“Nothing, I was an actress back in Jozi but I gave acting a break – for now”
“Wow, Jozi? I also worked in Jozi for a while”
“Really? What job?”
“I was working in a bank, I was a cashier”
“That’s amazing”
“I work in Durban now, I’m still working in a bank and I’m studying accounting”
“Wow, I’m proud of you”
“You said you were an actress, did you get any chance to work with famous actors?”
“Not really, I was new and I had to start from the beginning”
“You’re right”
“You’re living in Durban right now, right?”
“Yes, I’m just on a break. I’m using my week off to my advantage”
“Good for you”
“Where in Jozi did you stay?”
“Sandton”
“I was in Rosebank”
“Okay, are you married or dating or whatever?”
He laughed. “I’m single”
“Don’t lie”
“But I am single”
“Okay”
“And you? Are you married or dating or – ”
“It’s complicated”
“What does that suppose to mean?”
“Complicated should tell it all”
“So you’re in a complicated relationship”
“Yes”
“Remember how we used to be sneaky?”
“How can I forget? Immediately when I saw you, I thought of all the sneaky things we used to
do”
“We never got caught, that’s the best part”
“Yeah, remember when you made your mom tea with salt?”
“Yes! I can still remember the funny face she made, it was hilarious”
“She thought you added salt by mistake”
“Remember when we…you know, in your room”
“My parents are inside the house right now”
“I’m sorry”
“How can I forget? We were young and we were curious”
“Your mom thought we were studying but…”
“I know, it’s really funny when I think about it now”
“Remember, ‘We’re going to marry each other when we’re old enough’ we were really crazy”
“Funny”
“I see everything is going well with you, you’re looking good. Let me go inside and greet your
parents”
“Go in”
Mfundo went in and he greeted my parents. They had a short conversation then he left.
My young brother, Lwazi was walking with a girl, when he approached the gate, the girl
returned.
“Lwazi you have a girlfriend now”, I teased.
“No, she’s my classmate”, he said.
“Classmate? Liar”, I said.
“Really”, he sat on the stoep.
“If you say so”, I smiled.
“Can I ask you something?”
“Go ahead”
“How’s pregnancy?”
“Lwazi…”
“I want to know”
“Why do you want to know?”
“Because I want to know”
“Pregnancy is okay, I guess”
“Does it hurt?”
“No, why are you asking me these questions?”
“Can you keep a secret?”
“Yes, you can trust me – I’m not Bandile”
“My girlfriend is pregnant”
“What?”
“Sssh!”
“Lwazi!”
“My girl told me today”
“The girl you were walking with?”
“No, she’s my girl’s friend”
“What are you going to do?”
“She won’t tell her parents anytime soon”
“Why?”
“Because I would be in trouble and they will come here”
“Just tell mom and dad”
“No ways! I’m not doing that”
“If you delay it, you will be in more trouble. It’s better to tell them now”
“No, Nosipho. You promised to keep it a secret”
“I will”
“I trust you, I don’t trust Bandile”
“I also don’t trust Bandile. I don’t know why he hates me so much. Did he ever tell you why he
doesn’t like me that much?”
“He never told me why. I don’t think he hates you, he just has issues with himself”
I couldn’t have said it any better, Lwazi is a smart kid. I really love him.
I hope everything turns out great.
**********
One week later.
I spent the morning giving King Pin directions to my village. I was excited for him to finally meet
my family. The house was spotless clean, my mom baked scones – tasty if I may add. My dad
was ready, he’s been ready – oh, my annoying big brother was also there. I hope he doesn’t
ruin everything because he’s good at ruining things.
Finally, King Pin arrived. He was driving a Range Rover. I immediately went to my room, as my
mom instructed me earlier. I could hear different voices, two to be precise but I didn’t hear King
Pin’s voice. I peeked, I didn’t see King Pin – I gave him a call. He told me he’s in the car and he
will enter the house when instructed by his uncle. He also told me his friend, Tim was there.
I stayed in my room as they negotiated in the sitting room. I listened to everything, it was then
time for me to meet King Pin’s uncle and friend. My mom said I must give them something to
eat. I poured cool drink and filled each plate with scones, then I went to serve them. I also made
King Pin something to eat too although he was still in his car outside.
They were sharing jokes, everyone seemed happy. King Pin entered the house, I could see my
father’s facial expressions changing. What did this mean? Maybe my dad doesn’t like King Pin?
What does it mean? My mom looked shocked.
“This is Thando Dlomo”, his uncle introduced him to my family.
“You look exactly like my older brother, Wiseman Ndamase”, my dad said.
“People look alike”, said King Pin.
“No, you look like my brother. Who’s your father?”, my dad asked.
“My dad died long time ago”, King Pin sat on the couch.
“Do you know Wiseman Ndamase?”, my dad asked.
“No”, King Pin replied.
“I also don’t know him”, King Pin’s uncle said.
“Thando Dlomo, my brother passed away 19 years ago. His son’s name was Thandolwethu, I
believe his mother’s last name was Dlomo”, my dad said.
“My full name is Thandolwethu Dlomo”, said King Pin.
There was silence in the house.
We all went to the sitting room. When I say all I mean, me, my mom, my dad, Bandile, Lwazi,
King Pin, King Pin’s uncle and his friend, Tim.
“I asked all of you here because we have a big problem. As you all may know, Nosipho is
pregnant with Thandolwethu’s child. That is incest and it’s not something to be proud of. I don’t
want people to know about this nor should the baby when he or she grows up”, my dad said.
“It’s a she”, Nosipho interrupted.
“This is a disgrace, seriously, I hope everyone participate in keeping this a secret”, my dad said.
“I can’t”, King Pin said. People were shocked.
“You have to”, my dad said.
“I can’t act like I don’t have a child. I want to be there for my child unlike my father”, King Pin
expressed.
“Hey boy! You don’t know Wiseman! He wanted the best for you but he didn’t have the
opportunity”, my dad was angry.
“Uncle, you see? I didn’t come here to be degraded. I’m not a boy, I’m not a boy!”, King Pin was
angry.
“I saw you entering this house, you were pissing, pissing, pissing now you’re shitting here”,
Bandile interrupted.
“I wasn’t talking to you”, King Pin quickly shut Bandile.
Bandile stood up, “This is my father’s house, you don’t have a right to yell at him or talk back.
You’re just a visitor”, he was pointing at King Pin.
“Sit down and shut up”, I was sick and tired of Bandile.
He took out his belt, he wanted to hit me.
“I’m going to beat the sins out of you”, he said.
King Pin stood in front of me – he was protecting me.
“Okay, everyone sit down”, my dad said.
“Thando, it’s okay man, sit down”, King Pin’s uncle gently pushed King Pin to his seat.
King Pin went out, I followed him. He went to his car.
I got out of King Pin’s car, I was angry. I saw MaKhumalo approaching the gate, I just went
inside the house and straight to my bedroom.
I heard MaKhumalo’s voice, I wasn’t in the mood. My mom called me but I didn’t answer, she
entered my room.
“MaKhumalo is here”, she said.
“I’m tired”, I lied.
“Nosipho, if you want to be better you have to see MaKhumalo, she’s here to help you”, my
mom said.
“I’ll be there in a minute”, I said.
I closed my eyes, I took a deep breath in and out. I went to meet MaKhumalo in the sitting room.
I wasn’t in the mood – there’s too much drama.
**********
MaKhumalo was drinking water, I saw King Pin – I quickly looked away.
“We can’t delay the ceremony, young girl”, said MaKhumalo.
“I told her”, my mom said.
“I need everyone to support Nosipho and Nobesuthu. Everyone has to be happy, free,
supportive – everyone has to have a positive vibe. Ghosts feed on negative energies, we want
everything to go according to plan”, said MaKhumalo.
“We’re just visitors, well, me and this gentleman over there”, King Pin’s uncle said.
“Can I please talk to the family, only?”, asked MaKhumalo.
“Okay, we’ll excuse you for a while”, King Pin’s uncle and Tim went out.
King Pin sat on the edge of his seat.
“You may stay son”, my dad said to King Pin.
MaKhumalo told us that we need to be positive. If everything goes well tomorrow, I’ll be fine. By
the looks of things, King Pin is going to spend the night at our house. I don’t know how to react,
I really don’t. It’s not going to be a ceremony where the community gets involved, it’s only for the
family. MaKhumalo will be there to assist. Grandma, Mongezi, Babalwa and Amandla will also
attend the ceremony.
MaKhumalo left, so did Tim and King Pin’s uncle. King Pin was going to spend a few days – my
father was happy because King Pin reminded him of his older brother, Wiseman. Bandile was
the same old annoying, hard-headed ‘boy’.
@ 6PM
I went outside just to cool off. The evening breeze was refreshing, I admired the beautiful
sunset, I smiled as I looked up. I felt someone brushing my hair, I froze, who’s that? I hope it’s
not that stupid ghost. Maybe it was King Pin…
“Beautiful”, this person said.
It was definitely a guy’s voice and it wasn’t King Pin or Lwazi or yuck, Bandile. I slowly turned.
“Hey”, Mfundo said with a smile.
“Mfundo, what are you doing here?”, I asked.
“That wasn’t the response I was looking for but since you asked, I just came to see you”, he
said.
“Oh, I thought you left”, I said.
“No”, he replied.
I didn’t say anything, I didn’t know what to say – it was awkward basically.
“When I see you, I just remember all the things we used to do”, he said.
I kept quite.
“We used to watch the sunset, do you remember?”, he asked.
“Yes, I can remember it like it was yesterday”, I said.
“It was cute, remember you said I was the most romantic guy?”, he laughed.
I smiled.
King Pin didn’t know I was sitting with Mfundo.
“Are you okay?”, he asked.
“I’m alright”, I replied.
“Oh, I didn’t know you had a visitor. I’ll give you guys some time”, he said.
“No, you can sit with us, right Mfundo?”, I asked.
“Yes, you can chill with us”, said Mfundo.
“No, I’ll go inside”, King Pin insisted.
“If you say so”, I said.
King Pin left.
“Who’s that?”, Mfundo asked.
“He’s…a family friend”, I replied.
“Okay. Hey, uhm, I’m going to town tomorrow, would you like to come along?”, he asked.
“I can’t, sorry”
“Oh”
“Thanks for inviting me but there will be a family gathering tomorrow”
“Okay, uhm, cool”
“Thank you”
“I – I just, I just wanted to, you know, catch up with you but I respect that. I hope the family
gathering goes well”
“Thanks”
“Uhm, I think I have to go…it’s getting late”
“Mfundo?”
“Yes”
“Send my greeting to your sister”
“I will”
“Bye”
“Bye”
MaKhumalo told everyone to close their eyes. She started shaming the ghost. “You’re evil, you
deserve to rot in hell”, she said.
I didn’t have any clue how this ceremony will be conducted.
Clouds started forming and it began to rain. I wasn’t the only person who saw that, everyone
did.
I felt sleepy, it was so sudden but I closed my eyes and I slept.
When I woke up I was on a bed, maybe I was dreaming. I am dreaming, of course I am.
I didn’t know where I was, where am I?
**********
I woke up in other room. I saw a guy, he was a bit far from where I was standing. I followed him,
he didn’t know I was following him. He entered a room, I looked around to see if no one was
there, I entered the room. I saw a long table, there was food everywhere on the table and many
people were seated. When I walked in, everyone looked at me.
“Take a seat young lady”, an old lady kindly said.
There was only one seat which was not occupied, I sat there.
“Where am I?”, I asked.
“You’re in your thoughts”, the old lady replied.
“Thoughts? What are you all doing in ‘my’ thoughts?”, I asked.
“Shall we dine?”, the old lady asked with a smile.
“Go ahead, I’m not that hungry anyway”, I said.
“You have to eat, the baby needs to grow healthily”, an old lady with a husky voice said.
I couldn’t believe she knew I was pregnant, I sat there in disbelief.
They started eating, when I looked on my left, I saw Bandile. I was shocked.
“What are you doing here?”, I asked.
“What are you doing here?”, he also asked.
“I don’t know, why are you in my thoughts?”, I asked.
“I don’t know, how am I suppose to know?”, he asked.
I was standing on the balcony, I felt someone kissing my neck. He held my waist, he pressed
himself against my ass. He whispered, “Hey”. I turned around. It was Mfundo.
“I miss you”, he said.
“Mfundo, what are you doing here?”, I asked.
“I’m here for you”, he kissed me on my forehead.
“But – “, I couldn’t finish what I was going to say, he kissed me.
*sigh*
**********
“Nosipho, this is not a joke”, said MaKhumalo.
“I know, I know”, I said.
“My child, please concentrate”, my mom said.
“I am concentrating”, I said.
MaKhumalo looked me in the eye, I quickly looked away.
I closed my eyes again.
I saw Bandile stick fighting, he was shirtless, he was sweating like a hoe in church. I took a
bottle of water and offered him.
“Here, you need it”, I handed him the bottle of water.
“No, I’ll pass”, he said.
“Come on, it’s hot and you look tired”, I said.
“I said no”, he said.
“Jeez, I was just being kind”, I said.
“If I wanted water, I would stop what I’m doing and go get water”, he said.
“Meet me half way, can you? I’m just trying my best to mend whatever’s broken between us”, I
said.
“And you thought this would help?”
“I’m just being nice to you, what’s your problem”
He came towards me, we were eye to eye.
“Stop licking my ass, will you?”, he said.
“I just want my big brother back”, I said.
He walked away, I followed him.
“Talk to me, please”, I begged.
“Stop beating yourself. Leave me alone”, he said.
“I want to know what’s wrong with me or you. Please”, I was trying my best to catch up with him,
he was walking fast. “Leave me alone”, he shouted.
“Bandile!”, I stood there.
I woke up.
“Did you see anything?”, asked MaKhumalo.
“No”, I lied.
“I’m done with this, Nobesuthu, talk to your child. I’m here to help you Nosipho, stop lying. I
know something must have happened, tell the truth right now or I’ll leave and never come back”,
she threatened.
“Nosipho, tell the truth”, my mom said. “Nosipho, this woman is here to help you”, my dad said.
“My child, tell the truth”, my grandma said.
I was being pressurised.
I went to my room, I watched the rain on the window. King Pin came in the room.
“That was a freaky experience”, he said.
“We had to”, I said.
“I know”, he sat on my bed.
“Are you enjoying your time here?”, I asked.
“To be honest, no”, he replied.
“I’m making your life hell, right? With all my weird stuff going on”, I said.
“It’s not you, it’s this place. I’m used to the city, I don’t know how you managed to live here for
over 18 years”, he said.
“I learned to adapt”
“It will take me a while”
“Have you spoken to dad?”
“Yes, he can’t stop talking about my father. He says he was a gentleman”
“My dad really loved your dad”
“When your dad told me about Wiseman, my dad, I couldn’t help but notice how different we
are. If he raised me, I think I would’ve left home or something”
“Why?”
“I don’t know. He’s good and I’m bad”
“No you’re not!”
“Do you think my dad would’ve been proud of me?”
“Yeah”
“You’re just saying that”
“Really, you’re successful”
“Wherever his soul is rested, I don’t think he approves of the businesses I’m running”
“He’s proud of you”
“Your dad was planning to show me my father’s grave today but it’s raining”
“You’re a good man, King Pin”
“I’m trying”
“You really changed compared to the first time we met”
“Oh, I don’t even want to think about that”
“Why?”
“Because it’s silly. You even tried calling the security, how embarrassing”
“You were a crazy psycho, you said you had money and you wanted to marry me”
“I said that?”
“Yes, you forgot?”
“Damn, that’s bad! Maybe I was high”
“Maybe”
“That’s embarrassing”
“You used to swear a lot”
“I still do”
“But not like you used to”
“Yeah, but when I’m mad, I swear like a maniac”
“Maniac? It’s a good thing when it comes out of the horse’s mouth”
“We really been through hell”
“I know, hey”
“This place might be crappy and stuff but it’s good for relaxation. The city is loud, this place is
quiet – peaceful”
“You don’t have to live in a fancy neighbourhood to see a beautiful view. You just get out of the
house and see it all”
“Yes”
“I always thought you and Bandile would get along”
“I don’t give a shit about that one”
“He’s your cousin”
“So?”
“He might be an ass but try and get along with him”
“I don’t respect him”
“Just fake it”
“He doesn’t even respect you”
“I don’t know what I ever did to him”
“He treats you like you’re not his sister. I would kill for a sibling, seriously”
“I’ve learned to deal with it”
“When are you coming to Jozi?”
“I was thinking of coming with you, when are you leaving?”
“In three days”
“I hope this stupid rain stops”
“Me too”
“I need to go see the doctor for a check up”
“You don’t look like you’re pregnant”
“It’s better that I don’t have a big stomach”
“You’re the sexiest pregnant woman I’ve seen”
“Oh, stop”
“Really”
“Thanks”
My bedroom door was closed. King Pin leaned over to kiss me. I looked the other way.
“Come on”, he whispered.
“Someone might walk in on us, this door doesn’t even have a key to lock”, I said.
“Just sssh…”, he placed his finger on my mouth. “You have perfect lips”, he said.
“Please”, I looked down.
“Let’s play tonsil hockey, I know you want to”, he licked my ear.
“Please, don’t tempt me”, I whispered.
“You’re not perfect, we’re both sinners – just like everybody else”, he kissed my cheek.
“King Pin”, I sighed.
“Your perfect chest”, he gently squeezed my boobs.
“Please”, I whispered.
“I want you”, he kissed my neck.
King Pin took the ‘towel’ and he went out of my room. As I looked up in the ceiling, guilt
overwhelmed me. I shouldn’t have let temptation control me but it happened anyway. I don’t
know if I’ll get over the fact that King Pin is my cousin.
Good news though, the rain stopped. I rejoiced, my mom was so happy, she hugged me. My
mom was going to spend two days at MaKhumalo’s house. My dad was going to visit a family
friends’ house, they were going to have a ceremony.
When the sky cleared, my dad went with King Pin to Wiseman’s grave. I was left with Bandile,
Lwazi was not home. It was awkward.
I don’t know who told Bandile this, whoever this is, deserves to rot in hell.
My heart sunk.
**********
King Pin and my dad returned. I made them something to eat, Bandile was out – he went to do
his useless job. After my dad ate, I ironed his clothes and packed his clothes. He left, my mom
was at MaKhumalo’s house for that ritual.
Mfundo and King Pin have a lot in common. It’s like they knew each other before.
After supper, Mfundo went home. Bandile went to sleep in his shack, I was left with King Pin,
again.
*sigh*
“We have a house to ourselves, once again”, King Pin looked me in the eyes. “Don’t even think
about it”, I said.
“We locked the door, what else can go wrong?”, he asked.
“No, King Pin”, I said.
“No what? Hey, look, we don’t have to have sex or anything – ”
“No, King Pin. Please, please, I don’t want to keep doing this”
“What?”
“You and me, we should – ”
“Should go to the bedroom?”
“No, it’s time we – ”
“It’s time we get our freaky on?”
“Be serious for once in your life!”
“I was just trying to make you smile”
“By acting like a fool?”
“Come on now”
“It’s over”
“What’s that?”
“I said it’s over, we never officially broke up”
“Are you breaking up with me?”
“We’re cousins”
“If that’s what you want”
“We’re cousins, King Pin. You have to get used to that”
“I can’t get used to that”
“You have to, I’m learning but I can’t get used to it if you keep doing what you’re doing”
“If I came in with a girl, would you be jealous?”
“Why are you asking that?”
“I’m just asking”
“No, I wouldn’t”
“Tell the truth”
“I am”
“Bandile is not here”
“Okay, yes! Are you happy now?”
“Why are you fighting your feelings?”
“Because – ”
“I know, I’m your cousin, blah, blah, blah”
“I don’t want to disappoint my family”
“You won’t – they don’t have to know”
“That’s a dangerous game”
“And you’re good at it, remember with the Antonio situation?”
“How can I forget? But it’s different”
“How different?”
“I cheated and this is not cheating, it’s incest”
“You’re starting to sound like an old lady, you’re no longer interesting anymore”
“What? No, I am”
“You used to have that ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude”
“I still do”
“No you don’t”
“Maybe I grew up”
“Give me that excitement again, one of the reasons I fell for you was because you were
exciting”
“I am”
“No, you’re boring”
“I’m pregnant, remember?”
“I know, but, funny enough I don’t see you as a cousin. Nothing really changed for me, I don’t
know about you. Oh, well, who am I kidding? A lot has changed for you”
“Not much”
“Do you still love me?”
“I told you a million times, yes I do”
“Oh”
“Oh? Remember how you used to be non-believer of love?”
“Kiss me”
“Arg”
“Give me a goodnight kiss”
“On the cheek?”
“No, lips”
I gave him an ‘innocent’ kiss on the lips. He pulled me back and he went for a passionate kiss.
We heard the locker, we stopped kissing.
“Open, it’s me”, said Bandile.
We looked at each other.
“If your brother is here to cause problems, I swear I’ll get physical with him”, said King Pin.
“No, chill, please”, I opened the door.
Bandile was holding his blanket.
“Are you sleeping here tonight?”, I asked.
“Yes, until mom and dad gets back”, he said.
He was there to monitor me and King Pin. He’s such a bore.
That evening, Bandile slept in the couch and I slept in mom and dad’s room, King Pin slept in
my room.
Boo!
**********
I had a dream that evening.
I walked into an empty room. I looked around, there were only mirrors and my reflection. I heard
footsteps, I didn’t see anyone. Finally, I saw a guy approaching me.
“Who are you?”, I asked.
“I’m Raymond, who are you?”, he asked.
“I’m Nosipho”, I said.
The guy was in front of me and I saw it was Raymond, Linda’s Raymond.
“What are you doing here?”, I asked.
“I just arrived, you’re looking amazing”, he said.
“Thank you, you just arrived?”
“Lady, I said I just arrived”
“Lady? You liked calling me Nosi, not lady”
“Sorry, I don’t mean to be rude but, do we know each other by any chance?”
“Yes, we do”
“I don’t remember you, who are you again?”
“I’m Nosipho, stop acting”
“I’m not, I don’t know you”
“Whatever”
“Do you mind joining us?”
“Us?”
“Me and my friends”
“Yes, this is weird”
“This is a beautiful place, I love the mirrors”
“Can we go meet your friends already?”
“Okay, I guess you’re not a patient lady”
Raymond led me to another room, there was Antonio, Linda, Mbali, Foxy, Rashidi and King Pin.
“What are you guys doing here?”, I asked.
“We’re taking a break from our busy schedules”, replied Foxy.
“Mbali? What are you doing here?”, I asked.
“You know me?”, she was surprised.
“You’re my good friend, remember?”, I went towards her. She stepped back.
“I guess you’ve met Mbali. This is Mbali’s husband, Antonio. This is Foxy and her husband, King
Pin and this is Rashidi and his wife, Linda”, Raymond introduced me to people I know.
Nosipho came in, she was looking good. I saw myself, weird.
“This is my beautiful wife, Nosipho”, said Raymond.
“This is me”, I said.
“This is my wife, Nosipho. Uh, Nosipho, this is Nosipho, I just met her”, said Raymond.
I shook Nosipho’s hand. I looked into her eyes.
“Can’t you people see? This is me”, I said.
“You just have the same name as my wife’s name, that’s all”, said Raymond.
“Nice to meet you Nosipho”, said Nosipho with a beautiful smile.
“Am I seriously talking to myself?”, I asked.
“Where are you from?”, asked Nosipho. “I’m from where you from”, I said.
“How did you get that cut on your face?”, she asked.
“I don’t have a cut on my face”, I said.
“Ouch, it looks painful”, she said.
I touched my face and I came across a huge scar on my face. I ran to the mirror, I had many
scars, they started multiplying, I screamed.
Aaaaaaaah!!!
**********
I woke up.
“What’s your problem, man?”, asked King Pin. He entered the room and he sat on my bed, I got
out of bed.
“What’s my problem? What do you want me to say?”, asked Bandile.
“I’ve seen you torturing her over and over again”, said King Pin.
“Playing the defensive boyfriend?”, asked Bandile.
“Back off man”, said King Pin.
“Okay, I’ll go fetch water, everybody back to whatever you were doing”, I separated them, they
were ready to get physical.
That day was really boring, mostly because Bandile was home. He was sitting next to me, he
and King Pin shared nasty stares. It was ridiculous, I wish mom and dad were home.
@ 4PM
I was sitting under a tree, I saw Mfundo, he smiled at me – I smiled at him too, I had no choice
really.
“Hey”, he sat down.
“Hey”, I said.
“You good?”, he asked.
“Yeah”
“You don’t look fine”
“Am I that ugly?”
“No, not like that”
“I’m just joking”
“You’re beautiful, you’re not ugly”
“I was just joking, chill”
“You really are beautiful”
“I know”
“Thanks for inviting me to dine with you guys, it meant a lot”
“Invite you?”
“Bandile said you invited me”
“Oh, yes, sorry”
“It’s okay”
“You had a great time?”
“Yes, the food was perfect and the conversation was cool. I like your cousin”
“We share something in common”
“Huh?”
“I was adding to what you said, you said you like King P – Thando”
“Yeah, yeah, he’s a cool cat”
“Yes”
“He’s a well established man”
“Yes, he is”
“I was thinking of something, it might be stupid but I think it’s good for me”
“What’s that?”
“I want to work in his club”
“Huh?”
“I know it might sound stupid, ‘what the hell is he thinking’ but I would love to work in a club”
“You’re tempted by the strippers?”
“No, no, not at all”
“What about your job”
“It sucks”
“And studying accounting?”
“I will continue with my studies”
“What if you end up falling in love with working there?”
“It’s a temporary thing, I won’t fall in love with working there. I know myself”
“If you say so, no one can stop you”
“This might sound out of line but, have you ever thought of, you know”
“Of what”
“Me and you”
“What are you trying to say?”
“I don’t know what I was thinking, sorry”
“Talk to me”
“Uhm, anyway would you like to go to town with me?”
“Mfundo”
“There’s no ceremony happening today”
“It’s a bit late”
“No, it’s not”
“I don’t know hey”
“Please”
“Uh – ”
“Please”
“Okay”
“Thank you, can we leave now?”
“Let me go tell my brother”
I told Bandile that I was going to town with Mfundo, he was like, “Go ahead, enjoy yourself”, he
was obviously trying to make King Pin jealous.
I drove to town.
**********
We got to town, I parked my car and he took me to a clothing store.
“What are we doing here?”, I asked.
“To buy clothes”, he replied.
“You didn’t tell me you were going to buy clothes”, I said.
“It was meant to be a surprise”, he said.
“Wait, surprise?”
“We’re not going to buy clothes for me, it’s all for you – this a surprise”
“Wow”
“Look for clothes you would like to buy”
“This is, eish, Mfundo no”
“Please”
“I have many clothes”
“I also have many clothes but I wouldn’t say no if someone wanted to spoil me”
“Thank you but…why are you doing this for me?”
“You deserve it”
“Mfundo?”
“Let’s try it again”
“What?”
“You know what”
“Mfundo, please”
“I want to be in a relationship with you, again. I miss you”
“To tell you the truth, I even forgot about you”
“You never forget your first time”
“I know – ”
“Do you at least have feelings for me?”
“Mfundo, please”
“Not even 0.1% feelings for me?”
“You’re a good guy, I would love to be your friend”
“Just friend?”
“Yes, that’s the only relationship I want to have with you”
“Ouch”
“You’re a great guy”
“Don’t even try and soften the blow”
“I’m sorry”
“We can leave”
“Are you sure, we can go around town and window shop like we used to do”
“I’ll take the taxi”
“You can ride in my car”
“It’s okay”
“I’m really sorry Mfundo, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings”
“Bye”
“Are you going to leave me hanging?”
“Let me walk you to your car”
“At least give me a hug”
“Nah, it’s fine”
“Hug”
“Handshake?”
“Are you kidding me? Come on, don’t be like that”
“I mean it”
“Okay, handshake. This is weird Mfundo”
“Drive safely”
“Thank you, same to you”
“Bye”
“Bye”
I didn’t want to lie to Mfundo, I didn’t have feelings for him. I forgot he even existed.
I drove home.
**********
When I got home, King Pin wasn’t there.
“Where’s Thando?”, I asked Bandile.
“At Kwa Bra Xola’s Place”, he replied.
“What? Those crazy drunkards will stab him and steal his chains and wrist watch”, I said.
“I thought he was iron man”, he said.
“That’s not funny”, I said.
He laughed, “You still love him?”, he asked.
“No, he’s my cousin”, I said.
“I’m watching you and this guy, I have eyes and ears everywhere. Remember that”
“I’m not sneaky”
“You are”
“We’re just cousins”
“Are you sure you’re not dating secretly?”
“No, we’re not. We just love each other like cousins”
“You don’t have a choice when it comes to guys”
“You don’t have a choice when it comes to girls”
“I do”
“Your girls, they’re crazy”
“How?”
“They’re just plain crazy”
“Like you?”
“I’m not crazy”
“Mfundo looks like a good choice for you”
“Mfundo is a good guy but he’s boring. He was naughty back then but now he’s boring”
“You want a guy who will break your heart?”
“No, I want a guy who’s confident in himself”
“You mean, an arrogant ass?”
“No. You won’t understand”
“Why?”
“Why are you even talking to me?”
“Because I can”
“What’s up? You don’t talk to me like this”
“Like what?”
“You always want to beat me up or you tell me to shut up”
“You’re annoying”
“You’re worse”
“I know”
“Am I dreaming?”
“I can leave if you want me to go”
“No, don’t. I really missed having a big brother”
Bandile looked down.
“I never hated you”, I said.
“I wish you can see yourself in my eyes”, he said.
“Am I that bad?”, I asked.
“You wouldn’t understand”, he said.
“Is it good or bad?”
“Mixture”
“I wish you can also see yourself in my eyes”
“It’s probably bad”
“A mixture”
I smiled at him, he was shy to smile back but I could see he wanted to smile.
“Stop swearing me, man”, said Bandile. “Or what? You’re going to tell your parents that King Pin
has a strip club?”, asked a drunk King Pin.
Bandile looked at me. I couldn’t believe King Pin just let the cat out of the bag.
“I’m a real ass nigga, I say my mind. Ask my baby, she’s been there for me. She knows me too
well, right my baby? Bandile, you can blackmail her all you want, I don’t care. I still love her”,
said King Pin.
“You guys are cousins, that’s disgusting”, said Bandile.
“We’re just cousins, I love him like a cousin”, I said.
“But you fucked me like a girlfriend”, King Pin laughed.
“You promised me Nosipho”, said Bandile.
“He’s just drunk, he’s just saying things”, I said.
“Saying things? We had sex this week, and man, I enjoyed that shit”, said King Pin.
Bandile looked at me and he walked out of the house.
“Look what you’ve done!”, I shouted.
“What I’ve done? Now it’s all my fault?”, asked King Pin.
“Why did you say all those things? Can’t you keep secrets? I thought you said you had my back”
“I do but you were fake, I hate shady bitches”
“You’re making things worse”
“I’m helping you”
“How?”
“You don’t have your own voice”
“You’re ruining things for me”
“Fuck you!”
“Fuck you too!”
“Go to hell, bitch”
“Say that when you’re sober”
“I will, fuck you bitch!”
“I don’t even want to argue with you, you’re drunk and I love my baby so much. I don’t want to
lose this baby”
“Go to hell!”
I went out of the house, I went to Bandile’s shack. I knocked, he took a while before opening the
door.
“I don’t want to hear your apology”, he said.
“Please Bandile, hear me out”, I said.
“You promised me”, he said.
“I know and I’m sorry”
“I told you if you don’t stay away from him, I’ll tell mom and dad the truth. You chose it – you
chose it”
“Please Bandile, please”
“Get out”
“Bandile, please”
“Get out”
“I hope you find a good place in your heart and do the right thing”
I left.
Lwazi came back, the mood in the house was different. He could sense it, he looked at me and
he signaled something, I think he wanted to ask what happened, I just shrugged my shoulders.
My parents are coming home tomorrow, I’m scared because Bandile is going to tell them the
truth.
*sigh*
**********
It was in the morning, I woke up quite later than usual. I asked Lwazi where Bandile was, I was
hoping to pursued him but he was at work. Lwazi went to his friend’s house, King Pin was in the
sitting room, he just bought clothes.
“Good morning”, he said.
“Hey”, I mumbled.
“I didn’t know I was going to stay for days, I’m tired of wearing the same outfit everyday. I went
to buy some new clothes, cool right?”, he admired his new clothes.
“Do you remember what you did yesterday?”, I asked.
“I did I do?”, he asked.
“You disrespected me and Bandile”
“Oh”
“I think Bandile is going to tell mom and dad the truth”
“Why?”
“Because you told the truth about us, you said we had sex this week”
“Oh shit, did I really say that?”
“Yes, you were swearing at me – ”
“I swore at you? I’m really sorry”
“Sorry won’t change what you did”
“I know but please understand that I was drunk”
“That’s not a good excuse”
“What do you want me to say then?”
“The old King Pin came out”
“I’m trying, I’m really trying – ”
“You’re not trying hard enough”
“This is like a cage for me”
“You’re always making up excuses”
“This isn’t my territory – ”
“Arg!”
“I’m a city guy, I’m not a rural guy”
“And then?”
“My way of thinking is different than that of a rural guy”
“Go on”
“And…and, I like having a good time”
“This is all a joke to you”
“I made a stupid mistake”
“Is this child a stupid mistake too?”
“No, come on, where does the kid come in now? This kid was unexpected but not a mistake,
okay?”
“We’re having a baby in a few months, you need to step up”
“Excuse you, I don’t need no stepping up to do. I’m going to provide for her and I’m going to be
the best father”
“Whatever”
“I don’t care what your parents say, I am going to be part of this baby’s life”
“Whatever, I don’t want to argue”
My mom was the first to arrive. My dad followed afterwards, my dad came back with a chicken –
it was still alive. My dad couldn’t stop telling us about the ceremony he attended.
Hours passed by, it was getting late. King Pin bought KFC for everyone. Bandile arrived, my
heart stopped.
Dad told Bandile what happened in the ceremony. Meanwhile I was sitting on the couch, my
heart was pounding. We watched Generations, I couldn’t watch properly – I was stressed. I kept
glancing at Bandile, he was watching tv. Two hours later, my parents were sleeping, Bandile
went to sleep in his shack. I went to knock on his door, he opened.
“Thanks for not telling mom and dad”, I said.
“You should stop”, he said.
“I will”, I said.
“It’s not healthy for the family”
“Thank you very much”
“It’s cool”
“Our relationship is improving”
“Uhm…I’m tired”
“Oh, I’ll leave you”
“Let me walk you out”
“Thanks”
“Alright”
“The sky looks beautiful at night”
“Yep”
“Goodnight Bandile”
“Yeah, bye”
“Bye”
It was awkward but I’m glad he’s not treating me like he used to. I’m also glad that he didn’t tell
mom and dad, I thought he was going to tell them.
Thanks God.
I went inside the house.
**********
I went straight to my room, Lwazi was laying on his back.
“You look happy”, he said.
“I am”, I said.
“Who’s responsible?”, he asked.
“Myself”, I laughed.
“I wish I made myself that happy”
“Who else would be responsible?”
“I don’t know, maybe Mfundo?”
“Arg, Mfundo is just a friend”
“Shame, why are you friendzoning the guy? He’s a cool guy”
“He’s super cool but – ”
“But what?”
“But we’re so different. He’s too serious”
“That’s a crazy reason, girls like giving crazy reasons. Opposites attract”
“He used to be way better when we were kids, now he’s too serious”
“Don’t you want a serious guy?”
“I want a guy who’s not that serious”
“You don’t know what you want”
“I do”
“I’m going to sleep, goodnight”
“Arg, Lwazi”
I went to sleep.
I had a dream.
I was in a strip club, I saw Bandile – he was a male stripper. He watched him from a distance,
he was giving some girl a lap dance. I watched as he grind against her, Bandile took her away
from everyone, I followed them. They went to a room, I peeked through the key hole of the door.
I saw them kissing, the door just fell BAM! Maybe I was leaning too much and it couldn’t support
my weight. Bandile was surprised to see me, the girl turned and she was me, Nosipho.
“Please don’t tell mom and dad”, said Bandile.
Bandile took a few steps forward, he held me waist and he looked deep into my eyes.
“What are you doing?”, I asked.
“What I should have done a long time ago”, he replied.
He smelled my neck, he then kissed my neck.
“What are you doing? You’re my brother”, I was surprised.
I wanted to say something but he kissed me, I quickly pulled back.
“Bandile?”, I was confused.
“All these years, I’ve watched you go out with different guys that didn’t deserve you. I didn’t tell
you how I really feel about you, I like you so much. I never really hated you, I was frustrated that
you never noticed me”, he said.
“But you’re my brother”, I said.
“I’m not your brother, my dad died a long time ago”, he said.
“What?”, I was shocked.
“My dad was a garden boy, he worked for a white man. He met your dad, they became
inseparable buddies, when he got really sick, he told your dad to take care of me like I was his
son. At that time your mom and dad didn’t have a child. Years later, you were born. And Lwazi
followed but I just like you”, he said.
“No”, I couldn’t believe it.
“I’m not even related to you and that guy is your cousin”, he said.
“Bandile, I don’t have that connection with you. I’m sorry”, I said.
Bandile pushed me to his bed. He began to kiss me, I laid there.
“I like you Nosipho Ndamase”, he whispered.
He was shirtless and at that moment, he was really sexy. I stood up, I looked at him – this
might be weird but when I thought of his past behaviour, it was just sexy.
“I know you too well”, he whispered.
“I don’t know what to say”, I closed my eyes.
I felt light, all the tension just fled away. He kissed me and I…kissed him too. He was ripping my
clothes, his strong hands grabbed my waist.
“No”, I said.
He kissed me.
“I said no, what’s wrong with you guys?”, I said.
“Just close your eyes”, he said.
“No!”, I screamed.
He placed his hand on my mouth. He locked his door.
“Nosipho Ndamase”, he whispered.
He took off his belt…then his pants.
King Pin was yelling my name, he went to knock on Bandile’s door. I opened the door, King Pin
stared at Bandile. I left his shack, Bandile took the large knife and he went to cut something, I
don’t really know what is was.
“And then? What’s up?”, asked King Pin.
“He’s leaving”, I said.
“Good riddance”, said King Pin.
“It’s not something to rejoice about because what he revealed to me in there really opened my
eyes”
“What’s up with you?”
“Did you know that Linda is Bandile’s half sister?”
“No ways”
“After the death of his father, my dad took care of Bandile”
King Pin couldn’t believe it. I heard fighting in the house, my mom and dad were screaming. I
quickly ran inside and I found Bandile arguing with my parents.
“I’m leaving this house!”, he yelled.
“I’m not stopping you, leave”, my dad encouraged.
“You finished my dad’s money long time ago”, said Bandile.
“Don’t be rude!”, my mom shouted.
“She knows, I told her everything! Everything! Thando this family is not innocent at all neither
are you and you, Nosipho. Tell them Thando, you own a strip club and you sell drugs. You, you,
you, this precious daughter of yours was a stripper, she slept with all the popular drug lords in
Jozi. That’s why she had lots of money, she had sex in exchange of luxurious items and money.
That car outside was bought by my sister’s boyfriend. She slept with my sister’s boyfriend. Your
mom is not innocent too, she had an affair with Radebe. Lwazi is not your son, tell them
Nobesuthu”, said Bandile.
The room was quiet, everyone was trying to take in everything that was just said. Lwazi entered
the house.
“You’re just in time, tell him. Tell him that this is not his real dad, tell him the truth”, said Bandile.
“What’s going on here?”, Lwazi was confused.
“Your real dad is Radebe”, said Bandile. “Get out of my house before I kill you”, my dad was
angry.
“No wonder your daughter has been seeing things, this family has dark secrets”, Bandile left the
house.
“Mom, is it true?”, asked Lwazi.
“My child”, my mom began to cry.
“Tell me the truth”, Lwazi demanded.
“Yes”, my mom was crying.
“Did dad know?”, asked Lwazi.
“Calm down boy, you would never understand”, my dad said.
“So you knew I wasn’t your child?”, Lwazi was angry.
I didn’t know that Lwazi wasn’t my dad’s child. It seems like my dad knew, I remember when my
dad was a miner, he didn’t come home for months. He saw us like, three times a year, he only
worked there for three years. I can remember my mom not being happy in her marriage, maybe
she turned to Radebe. I don’t blame her, there were rumours that my dad was cheating.
Lwazi left the house, he was angry. King Pin went to my car to chill. I followed him.
“No, Nosipho I don’t want to stick around. Your family is full of drama, I hate that shit”, he said.
“Today secrets were revealed”, I said.
“Bandile pulled a Nosipho on us”, King Pin laughed.
“It’s not funny, King Pin”
“I’m just saying, he pulled a Nosipho on us”
“He didn’t say anything about us sleeping together”
“Yeah, I’m glad”
“We should really stop”
“I think so too because this drama is too much”
“Don’t try to kiss me, don’t tell me you want to cuddle, don’t squeeze my butt, don’t flirt with me.
Our relationship is platonic starting from today”
“At least give me the opportunity to be a father”
“We talked about that, the family talked about that”
“I don’t want to be an absent father”
“You can see her but you can’t tell her that you’re her father”
“The kid must call me dad not uncle”
“You must understand”
“No, you must understand that I’m the father of this child”
“Oh really?”
“What does that suppose to mean?”
“When I first told you, you asked if the child was yours and that you wanted to do a DNA test
when the baby is born”
“No I didn’t”
“Yes you did”
“I don’t remember that”
“Were you high, again?”
“Don’t start me, okay? You’re not being funny”
“I know we were going to leave tomorrow but can’t we leave tonight? The drama here is just too
much”
“We can, yes. I can’t wait to get out of here”
“As soon as we get there, I need to go for check up. Hopefully this time, you will join me”
“I don’t want to promise you”
“You promised me that you’re going to accompany me this time around”
“What if I’m busy?”
“Why are you always busy?”
“I’m a businessman”
“That’s not an excuse”
“Don’t you need baby clothes? Your clothes? Don’t you want to eat? Don’t you want fuel for
your car? Food? Trips to the mall? All that stuff, don’t you want them?”
“I do”
“That’s why I must take care of my business”
“Why can’t you sacrifice 2hrs of your time? I don’t think it’s even 2hrs, maybe an hour or so”
“I’ll try, can we go inside?”
“You can”
“I?”
“I’ll join you later”
“Okay, cool, see you inside – my beautiful cousin”
“Don’t push it”
“Smile Nosipho, if you frown you’ll get old soon”
King Pin got out of the car, he was laughing.
King Pin bought a cordless telephone for my parents. I was happy that I will call them all the
way from Johannesburg. I packed my suitcase. My parents made peace with the fact that I
wanted to go back to the city, they had no choice. I am healed now, MaKhumalo really helped
me.
“We are leaving”, said King Pin.
“We haven’t really officially welcomed you, young man. We need to do a ceremony, just to
welcome you to the Ndamase family”, my dad said.
“Okay, I’ve been thinking about this and I don’t want to offend you or anything. I don’t want to
change my surname”, said King Pin.
“It’s your choice, young man. You are Wiseman’s only son and he would have liked it if you
changed your surname. I don’t want to force you, do you understand? You’re old enough to
make your own decisions”, my dad said.
“Am I the only child my dad had?”, asked King Pin.
“Eish, son, your dad had children everywhere he went. Wiseman was a ladies’ man, you are the
only son I knew he had. When we talked, he only mentioned you as the only son”
“How many children do you think he had?”
“I don’t know, maybe five or six”
“That’s a lot”
“I know”
“Mr Ndamase, thank you for welcoming me with open arms”
“You’re welcome my son. You’re like my own son now, Nosipho is your sister, take good care
of her”
“Nosipho’s well being has always been my priority, sir”
“She’s pregnant, make sure she takes things easy”
“I will, as stubborn as she might be, I will”
“Thank you son”
“Okay, bye. We will call as soon as we get home”
“Please do, drive safely”
King Pin hugged my parents and he went to the car. I kissed my mom and hugged my dad, I
didn’t get to see my younger brother, Lwazi. I guess he was still angry.
King Pin drove my car, I sat on the passenger seat besides him. My parents waved at us, we
waved back.
@ 1PM
King Pin went to buy something for us all to eat in the afternoon. I heard a knock on the door, it
was Foxy. Lwazi was watching tv, I didn’t want to make a scene. I went outside and I closed the
door on my way out.
“How may I help you?”, I asked.
“Is King Pin inside?”, she asked.
“No, he’s out”, I replied.
“Really?”, she thought I was lying.
“What do you want from him?”, I asked.
“He wanted to see me”, she said.
“Stop lying”
“I’m not lying, Nosipho”
“King Pin was in the Eastern Cape”
“I know, he sent me multiple text messages”
“Oh?”
“I’m not here to fight because I love my baby, I don’t want any miscarriage and stress. Your
cousin wanted to talk to me, here, you can see the messages he sent me”
I saw the messages, they were from King Pin.
“He’s not home”, I said.
“Tell him I was here, I don’t know what he wanted to tell me. Anyway, he knows my number and
where I live. Goodbye”, Foxy left.
I went inside the house, I can’t believe King Pin told Foxy that he was my cousin. I wasn’t aware
that he was chatting to Foxy. I waited for him to return.
King Pin came back with a KFC bucket.
“Kids I’m home”, he said.
Lwazi went to the kitchen.
“Go ahead, kill yourself”, he said to Lwazi.
“Hmm, I will”, Lwazi took his pieces of chicken.
“Where’s your sister?”, asked King Pin.
“In the lounge, she’s watching tv”, said Lwazi.
King Pin and Lwazi came to the lounge, Lwazi was eating KFC.
“Nosipho, you can kill yourself too. There’s plenty for everyone”, said King Pin.
“I need to speak to you, can we go to your room?”, I asked.
“Yeah, let’s go”, he said.
We went to his room, I closed the door carefully. He laid on his bed.
“I know my dick is good but I’m not in the mood right now”, he said.
“This is serious”, I said.
“You’re horny and you can’t control yourself?”, he joked.
“Stop with the silly jokes. Foxy came by”, I said.
He sat up. “Oh? What did she want?”, he asked.
“You the one that told her to come”, I said.
“What did you say to her? I hope you guys didn’t fight”, he said.
“You were sending her messages? I thought you said you were done with her”
“I never said that, Nosipho. It’s starting to become a habit for you to put words in my mouth, I
never said that. I said I can’t cut her off because she works for me”
“You said the only relationship you will have with her is business and not romantic”
“Yeah, I’m not romantically involved with her”
“She showed me the messages you sent her”
“Foxy would never do such a thing, don’t lie”
“She referred to you as my ‘cousin’, am I lying? Why did you tell her that?”
“Yo, is that what you wanted to tell me?”
“You sent her messages saying, ‘I miss you’, ‘I can’t wait to see you’ is that a business
relationship?”
“Why are you catching feelings? You’re just my cousin”
“I guess you’re right, I’m just your cousin”
“Don’t even play that card now, you were the one who said, ‘oh let’s end what we’re doing,
we’re cousins’ remember?”
“Of course we’re cousins. I’m not angry because you’re talking to Foxy, what pisses me off is
that you’re telling her everything that doesn’t concern her”
“That’s was stupid, I’m sorry”
“You see? You’re always sorry. Sorry won’t fix anything”
“I know. Foxy understands me – ”
“And I don’t?”
“I’m not saying that, it’s just…things are different between us now. You’re my cousin, I’m trying
my best to process that on my beautiful head, okay? Foxy is also carrying my child – ”
“Stop whatever you’re saying because you’re not making sense”
“Foxy is also carrying my child and you know that I want to be the best father. You might not
see eye to eye with her but that won’t stop me from seeing her”
“I understand”
“We’re cousins”
“You don’t have to repeat that, I know”
“I do care for you Nosipho Ndamase, I love you and will always love you. Maybe we had the
strongest bond because we’re cousins. These things do happen”
“It’s cool”
“Just know that I’m always here for you”
“I’m always here for you too”
We hugged.
“Let’s go to the lounge”, he said.
We went to the lounge, I found closure. That’s all I wanted to hear, he’s my cousin and I must
live with that. Although there’s a part of me that is in love with him, I have to let him go.
You wake up one morning and you have the love of your life by your side. The next morning you
wake up and the love of your life is nothing more than your cousin. It’s devastating.
How would you feel if I was you?
**********
The next morning, King Pin woke up early and he went to work. He didn’t tell me, he told Lwazi
– that’s because I was still sleeping. I made Lwazi breakfast. He was new to the city, I had to
show him around. I was planning on taking him out today, he will be very excited. My
relationship with Lwazi hasn’t changed a bit, I love him very much like before. We might not
share the same father but I still love that kid.
I took a long bath and I tried to forget about everything that happened. I rubbed my belly, I
relaxed my head and I closed my eyes. I felt calm, I don’t remember the last time I was this
calm. My bath lasted for an hour or so.
I wore a very comfortable dress and sandals. I saw King Pin’s file, he forgot his business file. I
took the file and I drove to his club to give him his file. When I got to the club, I went straight to
his office, his door was slightly open. He was talking to Tim, I heard him talking about Linda, so I
stood outside and I listened to their conversation.
“There’s this thing she does bro, woah! She turns me on”, said King Pin.
“What’s going on between you and Linda?”, asked Tim.
“We’re just having fun, she’s a cool girl”, said King Pin.
“I can’t believe you were hooking up with this girl for two weeks and I’m only hearing about this
now”, said Tim.
“Linda is hot, she’s a hot yellow bone”, said King Pin.
“What about Foxy?”, asked Tim.
“What about Foxy? It’s not like we’re dating”, said King Pin.
“Nosipho is going to kill you, she doesn’t like Linda”, said Tim.
“She’s my cousin”
“If you were seeing this Linda chick for almost two weeks, it means you were seeing her while
you were still with Nosi. Before you found out you guys were cousins”
“Linda is more mature”
“You’re going to hell, bro. You boasted about Nosi’s body, you boasted about Foxy’s boobs and
now, you’re boasting about Linda’s maturity”
“And her soft light skin”
“Do you want another baby?”
“No, no, no – ”
“I know you’re allergic to condoms”
“Ha! Come on bro”
“What if she tells you, ‘I’m pregnant King Pin’ what are you going?”
“On to the next one…”
“What?! You’re insane – ”
“I’m joking! No! I’m just joking!”
“Are you seeing Linda today?”
“No, I don’t know. Maybe, I mean, I don’t really know – it depends if she’s not busy”
I couldn’t believe King Pin was boasting about being a player. He saw me, I quickly left and he
ran after me. I quickly went to the parking lot, he held my hand.
“Please stop, let me explain”, he said.
“Don’t touch me”, I was angry.
“At least let me explain”, he said.
“Okay, go ahead, explain”
“It’s not what you think”
“What do I think?”
“Whatever you think, you probably think I’m a skunk”
“You still haven’t explained”
“Go ahead, just judge me”
“I thought you were a changed man. So tell me, you were dating me and Linda at the same
time?”
“No”
“We were dating when you met her, I heard everything”
“We were not dating”
“Oh? Really?”
“Yes”
“King Pin, you’re a liar. I’m so stupid to even have thought you changed”
“Are jealous? What’s the deal now?”
“I’m not jealous, I’m disgusted. You don’t respect women!”
“Hey, watch it”
“You can’t have them all. Is it Foxy or Linda?”
“I’m not dating neither of these girls”
“You’re just having fun, right?”
“You sound like an old lady, just chill”
“This is all a game to you”
“You cheated on Antonio with me, you’re the last person to judge me”
“You’re so arrogant, can’t you listen for a second? Are you going to jump from bed to bed all
your life?”
“We’re cousins, you live your life and I’ll live mine. Yeah, we live in the same house but don’t
interfere with what I. do, and I won’t. Simple”
“I shouldn’t have brought this file to you, I was just being generous”
“Thank you”
“Just know that you’re a dog”
“Okay, I’m a dog”
“You’re just like your father, he was nothing but a womaniser. He didn’t care about women’s
feelings, he made babies everywhere he went – ”
“Don’t talk about my father, you never met him”
“I’ve heard a lot about him”
“He’s dead, you can’t fucking talk about him”
“I can”
“You’re a fucking whore just like your mother!”
“Say that again, I dare you”
“You’re a fucking, fucking, fucking whore just like your fucking mother!”
Adelphe left in a hurry. Lwazi kept calling King Pin, he managed to get ahold of him. It was time
for my induction, Lwazi went to the waiting room. The doctor came in and he began the
induction process.
After about 8 hours, I was ready for labour. The labour pains were really painful, it’s like I was
run over by a car. The doctor accompanied by the nurses helped me. After the whole breathing
in and out and pushing, the baby came out. One nurse took the baby away, she cleaned her. It
was going to be hard to look at my motionless baby but I had to.
The nurse gave me the baby, I looked at her, she was white. The baby was a white, my
daughter was white. She was in my arms, I examined every feature. I looked at my dead infant
for about 5 minutes and I called the doctor to take her.
Minutes later King Pin came rushing to where I was laying.
“I heard everything”, he hugged me. “I couldn’t believe it”, he said.
I could tell by looking at his shirt collar that he rushed to the hospital. He looked the other way
and he closed his zipper.
“I’m really heartbroken”, he said.
I didn’t say anything. All I could smell was Linda’s perfume, he was with Linda and he didn’t
answer my phone calls.
“The only time that I needed you the most, you weren’t there”, I said.
“I was busy”, he said.
“I know you were busy, you were busy with her”, I said.
“I’m a businessman”, he said.
“Whatever”, I said.
“Where’s the kid?”, he whispered.
“Why are you whispering? The doctor took the kid”, I said.
The doctor entered the room, King Pin stood up.
“Hey, are you one of Miss Ndamase’s friends?”, the doctor asked.
“Yeah”, replied King Pin.
“This girl is the strongest young ladies I’ve seen here”, the doctor said.
“Yeah. Doc, tell me, where is the kid?”, asked King Pin.
The doctor looked at me.
“He can see the baby”, I permitted.
“Are you sure?”, the doctor asked.
“Yes, yes. I am, yeah”, I turned my back and I closed my eyes.
“Alright, follow me…uh”, the doctor stuttered.
“Thando”, said King Pin.
“Oh yeah, follow me – Thando”, they went out.
When they left the room, I cried. My heart was really achy, I was broken hearted. Minutes later,
King Pin came back alone.
“Are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? A white fucking baby? You made me drive all
the way just to see a…a white baby. That’s not my baby, am I white? That’s Antonio’s baby, you
bitch”, King Pin was furious.
I was crying.
“Stop with the crocodile tears, you mind fucking bitch. You knew all along that you were carrying
another man’s baby? You fooled me, you fucking fooled me. Look at me, don’t fucking act like
you’re heart and shit. Look at me”, King Pin turned my head.
“Ouch, you’re hurting me!”, I screamed.
“Trust me, the shit you did to me is more hurting than this shit. I was happy that I was going to
be a father”, he said.
“I didn’t know too. I didn’t know that the baby was Antonio’s”, I said.
“Stop lying, you know your body. You knew when your period stopped, you just acted like you
didn’t know. You knew you were pregnant all those months, you were just acting like you always
do. You’re a great actor, I must give that up to you, bitch. If I wasn’t your so-called cousin, I was
going to pay for the damages that I didn’t damage? What the fuck Nosipho? You judge me but
you’re not innocent. I guess you know why I said you’re just like your mother. You’re doing what
your mom did to your dad with Lwazi”, he said.
I was quiet.
“What are you going to say? Are you going to sit there and just act like you didn’t do something
wrong? No apology? Nothing?”, he asked.
“Apologise for what? I didn’t know”, I said.
“I’d be a fool to believe that”, he said.
“Whatever”
“My uncle always told me that girls always say, ‘whatever’ when they get caught. My uncle is a
very smart man. If you were not my cousin, I would’ve kicked you out of my house. I can’t do
that because I promised your dad that I will take care of you”, King Pin left.
I didn’t know that I was carrying Antonio’s baby, I was messing around with King Pin a lot when I
was dating Antonio. I wasn’t that sexually active when I was dating Antonio.
The time was 10pm, I was discharged from the hospital. I had a statement of my child’s death, I
had to bury her immediately. I drove away, Lwazi was sleeping. I drove to a restaurant, I can
imagine how hungry he was.
After eating, I drove to King Pin’s house. He wasn’t home, I didn’t really care.
It wasn’t a good pregnancy, I was stressing a lot and it didn’t feel like I was pregnant. I only
connected with the baby when I wanted to escape my problems. Learning about the death of my
premature infant, it did hurt a bit because I feel like I murdered the baby. I was way too stressed
for a pregnant girl. I heard stories of how some women would cry the whole day after learning
the news or maybe become suicidal, I wasn’t like that. I was just myself, I was fine. The fact that
I wasn’t too worried made me worried. Does that mean I’m a heartless person? Does that mean
I’m ignorant? Does that mean that I’m not a good mother? What does it mean? I guess, I
focused more on other things rather than bonding with my baby.
I went to the baby’s room. I looked around, I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jumped with fright.
“You’ll be okay”, said Lwazi.
“Thank you little brother for everything. If you were not here, the Lord only knows what would’ve
happened. I’m really grateful, you’re my hero”, I hugged him.
“I love you, sis”, he hugged me tight.
I went to the lounge, I was guilty. I think I will have nightmares of this day, for days to come,
perhaps, weeks, possibly months or years.
But for sure what I know is, I don’t know what I don’t know.
The next morning, I wasn’t feeling good. Lwazi came in my room to hand me a cellphone.
“It’s mom”, he said.
I took a deep breath and I answered the phone.
Lwazi was right, King Pin is giving me more reasons to hate him. His behavior makes me sick to
the core.
**********
That afternoon I wanted to take Lwazi out. I also needed some time out, just to cool off my
nerves. Lwazi was happy to finally be out of the house. I took him to the mall, if I had money I
would have bought him clothes but my budget was super tight.
After showing him around, we went to a restaurant. I saw Bandile, he came to us.
“Wow, Lwazi? What are you doing here?”, he asked.
“It’s none of your business”, Lwazi brushed him off.
“It’s good to see you bro. Hey Nosipho”, he smiled.
“Don’t act all friendly, what do you want?”, I asked.
“I’m just happy to see you and Lwazi, that’s all”, he said.
Linda called him and he left. Linda couldn’t look me in the eye.
I left Antonio’s office, I saw King Pin walking hand in hand with Foxy, when he saw me he
quickly let go Foxy’s hand.
“You’re a dog, King Pin”, I said.
“Hey Nosipho”, he faked a smile.
“Don’t act dumb, you’re a dog”, I said.
“I’m sorry about your baby, Nosi”, said Foxy.
“You told her?”, I asked King Pin.
“Let’s go take a seat”, King Pin said to Foxy.
I stopped him.
“I’m not a fool, King Pin. I see what you’re trying to do”, I said.
“Calm down Nosi, I know things are rough for you. Losing a baby isn’t easy”, said Foxy.
“I’m talking to King Pin not you, Foxy. Can we talk privately?”, I walked outside.
King Pin followed me.
“Why are you doing this to me?”, I asked.
“What?”, he asked.
“Why are you telling everyone that I lost the baby?”, I furiously asked.
“I’m not telling everyone”, he said.
“This is all a game to you, right? I know it’s all a game to you. You won, are you happy?”
“This isn’t a game at all – ”
“You’re mind fucking everyone now – ”
“Not true”
“You’re with Foxy now and later you’re going to be with Linda – ”
“So this is what it’s all about? You’re jealous?”
“You think you can have every girl in the world?”
“I can, do you have a problem with that?”
“Does Foxy know that you’re fucking her friend, Linda?”
“I’m not dating neither of them”
“You’re just sleeping with them? What do you call it again? Uhm…oh yeah, ‘having fun’ – ”
“I’m not interested in you anymore. I don’t think we will ever have sex again or be in a
relationship. Get that in your head, this is over, over fucking over. You drive me insane, I don’t
want to be with you. Foxy and Linda are far better than you, they’re fun to be around and they
don’t attract drama. They respect me and they’re submissive”
“You don’t need to be rude”
“I’m being fucking real though”
“I just lost a baby, you’re suppose to comfort me not tell me how Foxy and Linda are far better
than me. That’s rude, ignorant and heartless”
“You’re always seeking attention, when someone doesn’t give you attention you explode. Just
chill, Nosipho”
“And you’re my cousin?”
“Just go and take a nap”
“And you’re my cousin?”
“Bye Nosipho”
**********
I needed someone to talk to, I met up with Mbali, I haven’t seen her since I came back from the
village. Mbali was shocked when she heard my story.
“Nosipho, are you sure you’re fine?”, she asked.
“I will be fine”, I said.
“I’m really sorry for what happen, I can imagine the pain”, she said.
“It’s fine, I will get over it sooner or later”, I said.
“Your life is like a movie”
“I wish I can sleep and never wake up ever again”
“Don’t say that”
“Why are bad things happening to me?”
“There’s a reason, I think only God knows”
“I was cursed”
“Ugh, it will pass”
“It’s easy for people to say that. I don’t know what I did wrong, people don’t even like me that
much”
“Are you kidding? Guys wag their tongues when you walk pass”
“I’m always this bitch, I’m always wrong. People don’t even believe me, why do people hate me
so much?”
“I don’t hate you, I love you”
“I have people that I don’t really like but I dislike them for a reason. These people hate me for
no reason. King Pin hates me”
“King Pin cares about you – ”
“He said Foxy and Linda are far better than me”
“What? That’s a bit heartless”
“He doesn’t want to listen to me, he goes around telling everyone who cares to listen that I lost
my baby”
“That’s so wrong”
“He thinks I played him, like, I didn’t even know that I was pregnant with Antonio’s baby. I really
didn’t know because I wasn’t that sexually active with Antonio, he thinks I tricked him into
believing that was his baby”
“I think King Pin still loves you but he’s disappointed”
“In me?”
“Yes and also the fact that you guys are cousins”
“King Pin doesn’t love me, the only reason I’m still living there is because he promised my dad
to take care of me”
“He still loves you”
“You don’t know how he acts around me nowadays, he’s a totally different guy compared to the
one I fell in love with. He’s worse than before. He boasts about sleeping around with different
women”
“Really?”
“I listened on his conversation with his friend, he was telling him how good Linda was in bed.
He also has this thing going on with Foxy, he’s being a serial player”
“People told you that King Pin was a player but you didn’t believe them, I guess you do now”
“I can’t wait for tomorrow, I just want to go to the hospital, hear what the doctor say and make
plans with Antonio. Then go home as soon as possible. After burying the baby, I want to move
to a different city and start a new life”
“That would be good, are you sure”
“Mbali, I’ve been thinking about this and I’m sure”
“Which city did you have in mind?”
“Between Pretoria and Durban, I don’t know”
“They’re both great cities, I won’t lie”
“I will have to decide”
“You have to”
“Thanks for agreeing to talk to me”
“You’re my friend, Nosi”
“I love you Mbali”
“I love you Nosipho”
We hugged.
I drove home, it was a bit dark. King Pin was watching a movie with Foxy, they were eating
popcorns. I didn’t want to be rude or start drama, I just went straight to my room and I slept.
Lwazi was sleeping, I think.
I had a dream…
**********
In my dream, I saw King Pin carrying a knife, he was walking slowly. Lwazi was drunk, he was
with two guys, I didn’t know them. King Pin was hiding behind a tree, the two guys were ahead
of Lwazi, King Pin was looking at Lwazi, by the look of things he wanted to stab him.
I woke up, I was breathing heavily. I walked out of my room and I went to go look for Lwazi in
his room, he wasn’t there.
“Where’s Lwazi?”, I asked King Pin.
“He went somewhere with his new friends”, he said.
“Friends? What friends?”, I asked.
“Chill, Lwazi is a man, he can take care of himself”, said King Pin.
Something told me to look for him. I walked out of the house. I heard King Pin asking, “Where
are you going?”
I drove away a few houses and I saw Lwazi drunk. I stopped the car, I saw someone who was
hiding behind a tree, he ran as fast as he could.
“Lwazi? You’re drunk!”, I yelled.
“Oops”, he laughed.
“Who are you guys?”, I asked the two guys.
“I’m Thabo, this is Thabang”, one of the guys introduced.
“Help me get him inside the car”, I said.
They helped me. The two boys looked a bit tipsy, they smelled alcohol. Thabang kept looking at
me, I didn’t know why. I saw him rubbing his eyes, he looked at me again.
“What’s wrong?”, I asked.
“Greetings sir”, he said.
“Excuse me?”, I asked.
“I’m greeting the man next to you”, he said.
I looked besides me, no one was there.
“You’re drunk, go home”, I said.
“There’s a white man standing next to you, he’s wearing a long robe and he has long hair”, he
said.
I giggled.
“Stop smoking whatever you’re smoking”, I said.
Thabo and Thabang looked at each other and they ran. I was confused, I got into my car and I
drove away.
When I got to King Pin’s yard, I called him to help me with Lwazi. He came outside and he
carried Lwazi inside the house.
“Look at him, King Pin. How could you allow this to happen?”, I asked.
“He needed to go out, being stuck in this house especially if you’re a guy, it’s boring. He’s
young, let him live his life”, he said.
“Thanks God I’m not carrying your child, I feel sorry for you Foxy”, I said.
King Pin’s face changed.
“I’m leaving now, see you tomorrow. I had a great time”, Foxy hugged King Pin and she left.
King Pin went to his room, he slammed the door. Lwazi was sleeping, I was full of rage. I went
to sleep angry.
I forgot the most important thing which is, “Never go to bed angry”.
**********
The next day, I woke up early and I took a quick bath, ate breakfast and I drove to the hospital.
I wasn’t feeling right, I was in a bad mood. When I got to the hospital, the doctor told me
autopsy results. He told me that the baby’s stillbirth was caused by excessive stress. I wouldn’t
say I didn’t see that one coming. I gave Antonio a call, he drove to the hospital. He went to see
his baby, I waited for him in the waiting room.
We went to a funeral parlour. We chose a tiny beautiful caskette for the deceased baby. We
talked to the director of the funeral parlour, we made arrangements regarding the burial that will
take place back home.
Me and Antonio went our separate ways, I gave Bandile a call, I wanted to talk to him about
something. We met at Raymond’s restaurant.
“Just know that I’m excited that you gave me a call, I thought you didn’t want to talk to me”, he
said.
“I just want to ask you something”, I said.
“What’s that?”, he asked.
“Did you tell Thando anything?”, I asked.
“No, I haven’t seen him in a while now”, he said.
“You live with Linda and he always goes there, that’s not possible”, I said.
“What would Thando want there?”
“He’s dating Linda but he doesn’t want to admit it, he says he’s just having fun”
“Having fun with my sister? He’s crazy, are you sure something’s happening between them?”
“Yeah, he’s sleeping with her”
“What? He’s having sex with my sister? He’s penetrating my sister? That guy is a walking
STD!”
“He’s not a walking STD, your sister is a whore”
“Whore? Look who’s talking”
“Why did you tell Thando that I’m married and I have a baby boy?”
“Why would I tell him that? That’s a secret I managed to keep for years, why would I tell
someone I don’t even like? I don’t have time to talk to him”
“You revealed family secrets back home, do you remember that? And I know you told him”
“What would I gain from that if I told him?”
“You want him to hate me more”
“Really?”
“Yes, you’re bitter that I turned you down. In your head, if you can’t have me then no one else
should”
“Wow, just wow. I don’t know what to even say, this is just crazy”
“You don’t know what to say because you’re caught red-handed”
“I don’t want to keep defending myself, I’ll look guilty”
“You’re guilty but you’re just playing it cool”
“Look, I never told anyone that secret, ever. If you don’t believe me, fine”
“If you didn’t tell Thando that, who did?”
“I don’t know, Lwazi? I don’t know”
“No ways, Lwazi would never stab me in the back like that”
“You really trust your Lwazi”
“He would never do that to me”
“I guess this conversation is over, I’m gone”
“I know you told Thando, I don’t buy this surprise look you have going on”
“Okay, believe whatever you want to believe. I was looking forward to speaking to you, if only I
knew you were going to talk about this crap, I wouldn’t have come”
Bandile left. I drove home.
King Pin was watching tv in the lounge, Lwazi was sleeping in his room.
“Can I explain myself?”, I asked.
“Sit down and explain”, he said.
“Look, it’s true that I was married”, I said.
“Was?”, he asked.
“King Pin, I mean, Thando – I didn’t ask for marriage, I was still a kid. I had a boyfriend, he was
three years older than me. He broke my virginity, we didn’t know what we were doing, we were
just curious village kids. Unfortunately I became pregnant and to avoid the shame, my parents
and this boy’s parents said we must get married. We did what our parents told us to do, it’s not
an official marriage like, signing documents, it was a traditional marriage. We didn’t love each
other, no we didn’t, we didn’t even know what love was. We were miserable, that marriage was
disastrous. He went to Johannesburg to look for a job, he took the kid and he promised to come
back with him but he never returned. I was happy that he didn’t return because I didn’t want to
be in a miserable marriage but yet again I’m worried, is he okay? Is the baby okay? I don’t
know”, I said.
King Pin hugged me.
“I didn’t know the whole story, I’m sorry”, he said.
“Who told you?”, I asked.
“It doesn’t really matter now, I don’t want any drama”, he said.
“I think it’s Bandile”, I said.
“Let’s not even talk about him, just relax and concentrate on getting better”, he said.
“I went with Antonio to a funeral parlour, we made arrangements for the funeral”, I said.
“That’s good, when are you going home?”, he asked.
“Tomorrow”, I replied.
“That’s quick but it’s good, right?”
“Yes”
“Nosipho”
“Yes?”
“I would love to apologise for being an ass and I – ”
“It’s okay”
“And I love you very much like a cousin. We have a great connection and I hope we don’t screw
our relationship again”
“I also love you and I won’t lie, I’m still working on this cousin thing”
“Me too”
“Let’s forget whatever happened in the past, let’s just live in the present”
“Nosipho, I think that’s actually a good idea”
“Yep”
“Alright and there won’t be any jealousy?”
“Yes”
“I’m happy with that”
We hugged and I was happy to be in good terms with King Pin again. He’s my cousin and my
friend.
I’m happy 🙂
Part 33: Confessions Of A Xhosa Girl
The next day, I packed my clothes, Lwazi wasn’t happy to be going home. King Pin promised
he’ll come for the funeral, I believed him. We left early, the time was 7:30am. I knew it was
going to be a long, long, long drive but I had to.
I drove for hours and hours, I stopped at a few garages to take a break.
We arrived in my village at 11pm, my mom was outside. When we got out of the car, my mom
came towards us. The first thing she did was hug me, she didn’t even say, “hi” or hug Lwazi. We
went inside, my dad was eating. He didn’t show much enthusiasm, he just nodded his head. We
sat down, mom offered something to eat but we were too full.
“Boy, why did you?”, my dad asked.
“I wanted some time away”, responded Lwazi.
“I’m not even talking about that, boy. Tshawe was here yesterday”, my dad said.
“That doesn’t concern me”, said Lwazi.
“Hey boy, you impregnated Tshawe’s daughter!”, dad yelled.
“I’m not even sure if the baby is mine”, Lwazi was being ignorant.
“Lwazi”, I sighed.
“Nobesuthu, talk to your child before I kill him with my own hands”, dad went to his bedroom.
“Lwazi my child, if you knew you were sexually active, why didn’t you use a condom?”, mom
asked.
“Why is everyone on my case? No one said anything when Nosipho was pregnant”, said Lwazi.
“Don’t even mention my name”, I said.
“Are you Nosipho? How are you going to provide for your baby? Where will we get money to
pay for the damages?”, asked mom.
“I will work”, responded Lwazi.
“And school?”, I asked.
“Leave me alone”, Lwazi stood up and he went out.
My dad came out of his room with a stick, he caught Lwazi off guard. He started beating him,
he was really angry. I’ve never seen my dad that angry, it was like he was beating someone his
age or something. My mom tried to intervene but my dad pushed her away. After a while my
dad stopped, he went to his room, he was shaking with anger. Lwazi walked out, he slammed
the door. I wanted to go after him but my mom said I must leave him alone.
@1am
My parents were sleeping, I was waiting for Lwazi. I heard a knock on the door, I asked who it
was just to make sure. It was Lwazi, I opened the door.
“Are you okay?”, I was worried.
“I was just beaten by your dad, yes I’m really fine”, he sarcastically said.
“He’s your dad too. He’s our dad”, I said.
“That man isn’t my dad, that beating wasn’t because I impregnated that girl. That beating was
pure bitterness and disappointment because I’m…I’m…a jacket”, he said.
“No, don’t say that”, I said.
“He’s been holding this jacket for years. It’s not even his, I blame my mom. I hate her”, he said.
“You’re just angry, I don’t blame you but you don’t hate mom or your dad”
“Who am I?”
“Lwazi Ndamase”
“No, I’m just Lwazi”
“You’re a Ndamase”
“No, that man isn’t my father”
“He loves you like his own son”
“Nosipho that man hates me”
“Where was your real father when you were in the mountain? When you were circumcised?
When it was your ceremony? Where was him? Because he wasn’t there”
“You were not there too”
“I know, I was in Johannesburg but that’s besides the point”
“I’m going to sleep right now, Nosipho”
“Lwazi?”
“Yes”
“Don’t make the same mistakes I did”
“I’m not you. We’re different people. Now if you don’t mind, I’m going to sleep. Goodnight
Nosipho”
“Goodnight”
This afternoon I have to visit the prince, just to follow up on his visit. I don’t know what he wants
from me.
**********
In the afternoon, I nervously drove to the prince’s house. I didn’t know what I was going to say,
my mom pressurised me to follow up, I had no choice. On my way to the prince’s house, I
received a phone call, it was Antonio. I stopped the car and I answered the phone call.
“I’m going to the Eastern Cape, King Williams Town to be precise for a business meeting, I was
thinking of paying you a visit. I was told it’s not too far from this place”, he said.
I didn’t know what to say.
“Hello? Are you still there?”, he asked.
“Uhm…yes, yes. I’m speechless, I wasn’t expecting that”, I said.
“I always wanted to meet your family but if you’re not comfortable with that idea, I’ll respect
that”, he said.
I didn’t answer him. I was thinking, I didn’t want to disappoint Antonio, he sounded enthusiastic.
“Uhm…uh…why not? Yeah, you can visit me”, I said.
“Alright, have a great day. I need to you know, get going”, he said.
“Bye”, I dropped the phone.
He caught me off guard. I drove to the prince’s house.
When I got there, the prince, Mvuyisi was sitting under the tree with his family’s servant, Patrick.
The same man that accompanied him to my home when they invited me to the ceremony. When
Patrick saw me, he excused us.
“Take a seat”, said Mvuyisi.
I took a seat.
“Thanks for coming to see me”, Mvuyisi smiled.
“I heard you came to see me but I wasn’t home”, I said.
“Yes, I wanted to talk to you”, he said.
“Talk?”, I asked.
“Yes, the way you left was so sudden and – “, the sight of his father made him shut up.
“Greetings young lady”, his father said. “Good afternoon, sir”, I said.
His father, the king was walking with a group of men. They got into the car and drove away.
“As I was saying, the way you left was so sudden and I was disappointed by the way you left. I
won’t lie, I still am”, he said.
“That’s why you visited me?”, I asked.
“You didn’t even apologise, after we invited you to the ceremony, all that trouble”, he said.
“I’m sorry”, I said.
“I was worried, I kept asking myself, ‘did I force this girl into doing something she didn’t want to
do?’ I mean, you know, I was really worried”, he said.
“No, you don’t have to worry. It was my choice”
“Why did you even go when you knew you were planning to leave?”
“I didn’t want to disappoint my parents”
“Okay, anyway, I don’t blame you Nosipho”
“Is this the only thing you wanted to talk about?”
“Uh…er…no”
“Oh?”
“You may know that my father, the king, has more than one wives”
“I know”
“I was thinking of polygamy and I want you to be…you know, my second wife”
“Mvuyisi?”
“Ever since I saw you Nosipho, I fell for you. If you didn’t go to Johannesburg, I swear I would
have chose you. Every time I go to sleep, I always wonder what if…”
“Sorry, I can’t Mvuyisi”
“Why?”
“I don’t want to lie to you, I don’t have feelings for you. Marriage is all about commitment”
“I am committed – ”
“That’s you, good for you but I’m not. Look, I can’t do this…”
“Nosipho, I spoke to your mom, she said you will be more than happy”
“You spoke to my mom about this?”
“Yeah, didn’t she tell you?”
“Excuse me”
I quickly ran to my car and I drove away. I was really angry, I can’t believe my mom.
I got home and I was in rage. My mom was sitting alone in the sitting room. It seems like no one
but my mom was in the house.
“I thought you said you didn’t know why he was here”, I said.
“How did it go?”, she asked.
“Mom, why did you give the guy false hope?”, I asked.
“False hope? What are you talking about?”, she asked.
“Why did you tell Mvuyisi that I will be more than happy to be his second wife? I won’t let you
win this time around. Your days of calling the shots are over”, I said.
“You look stressed, do you want a cup of coffee or tea?”, she asked.
“No”, I replied.
“Okay, you should relax. You should mourn the death of your baby”, mom went outside.
I didn’t know what to say. I couldn’t even tell my mom that Antonio was coming to visit, the
timing was so wrong.
It was Thursday and the funeral was on Saturday morning. It wasn’t going to be a big funeral, it
was going to be a private funeral.
@9PM
Me, Lwazi and my parents were watching tv. I received a phone call from King Pin, I went to
answer the phone call in my room.
I was disappointed that King Pin wasn’t going to the funeral but it’s fine, life goes one.
**********
The next day.
I heard MaKhumalo’s voice, she was in the sitting room. I stayed in bed, I didn’t want to talk to
her. I waited for her to leave. Minutes later she left, I went to the sitting room.
“Good morning”, I greeted my mom.
“MaKhumalo was here – good morning”, my mom said.
“Oh, what did she want?”, I asked.
“She wanted to know how things are going”, my mom said.
“And?”, I asked.
“I told her about the dream you had back in the city”, she said.
“What did she say?”, I asked.
“She wants you to visit her”, she said.
“Is everything okay? I have to prepare for tomorrow’s funeral”, I said.
“It won’t take long”, she said.
“I will visit her in the afternoon”, I said.
My phone rang, I went outside to answer it. It was Antonio.
I don’t know how my parents will react, I haven’t told them that Antonio is coming.
I spent the morning answering phone calls from the funeral parlour. Everything was set for
tomorrow morning. Only my family and selected friends were going to the private meeting.
Antonio came up with the idea of renting caterers for the day. Not more than thirty people were
going to the meeting, everything will run smoothly.
That afternoon, I went to MaKhumalo’s house. She was sitting outside.
“Nosipho”, she said.
“Ma, greetings. How are you?”, I asked. “I’m fine”, she replied.
“Mom told me you wanted to see me. What’s wrong?”
“Something big is about to happen”
“Excuse me? MaKhumalo, what do you mean?”
“I didn’t want to share this with your mother. Ever since I took your mom under my wings,
helping her, curing her and helping you too – I couldn’t help notice the similarities you, your
mom and Nokwanda have”
“With all due respect MaKhumalo, don’t even put me, my mom and Nokwanda in the same
sentence. Nokwanda is an evil soul and a psychopath”
“Nosipho, I know what I’m talking about – ”
“That’s why I’m here?”
“You can’t help it Nosipho, it’s not your fault. It’s all in your blood, your blood is not pure”
“MaKhumalo, this is ridiculous. There’s nothing wrong with my blood”
“Hear me out. I helped you, it’s your turn to help me”
“What do you want?”
“I want you to help yourself”
“How?”
“Nosipho, last night my bones told me something. I needed to share it with you and not your
mother”
“Why? You’ve been helping my mom for weeks, why are you sidelining her all of a sudden?”
“Because she’s the problem”
“I don’t understand”
“Then help yourself”
“MaKhumalo, you’re speaking in codes, I don’t understand you”
“You understand me but you’re too lazy to analyse everything. I helped you, please return the
favour by helping yourself for me, please?”
“How can I help myself when I don’t know what’s going on?”
“Nosipho, open your eyes – you’re a smart girl. Just open your eyes”
“Oh? I will”
“I’m serious”
“I’m also serious, I will”
“Your mom will obviously ask why I called you here. Just make something up, I don’t want her
to know”
“Sneaky – alright, I’ll make something up”
“Don’t breath a single word to a living soul, Nosipho”
“MaKhumalo, I promise I won’t tell anyone”
“Okay, have a safe journey home”
“Alright, bye”
I left MaKhumalo’s house, I was confused. I must open my eyes? My mother is the problem?
That doesn’t make sense. Anyway, I’m not looking forward to explaining myself to my parents
when Antonio gets here.
*sigh*
**********
@2PM
I saw Antonio’s car. The weather is hot so my parents were sitting under the tree. Antonio came
out of the car, I hugged him. I could see my mom’s face changing.
“Mom and dad, this is my friend, Antonio”, I introduced.
“This is this Antonio guy who impregnated you and cheated on you with your friend?”, mom
asked.
I couldn’t believe King Pin told my mom that Antonio cheated on me.
“Hi, how are you Mr and Mrs Ndamase?”, Antonio humbly asked.
“I’m fine”, my dad said with a straight face.
“Antonio is staying with us for just a night, he’ll immediately leave after the funeral. He helped
with the funeral”, I said.
“Why didn’t you tell us that you invited your boyfriend to sleep over?”, my mom asked.
“He’s not my boyfriend – I didn’t know how I will tell you, I was scared”, I said.
Antonio looked at me.
“Uh, I didn’t know that she didn’t tell you. I thought there was mutual agreement, I’m sorry for
invading your space”, said Antonio.
“How old are you?”, my mom asked.
“Mom that’s not necessary”, I said.
I looked at Antonio and said, “Please go to your car, I want to fix this”.
Antonio went back to his car.
My dad went inside the house, my mom followed him. I also went inside, I was angry.
“I don’t want him here”, my mom said.
“We can’t just chase him away, he’s already here. He helped with the organising of the funeral”,
I said.
“He’s the father of the child, that’s his duty. This man is old enough to be your dad”, my mom
said.
“He’s not that old, Antonio is a good guy. Mom, he’s a good guy”, I said.
“Good guy my foot”, my mom said.
“Okay, Nobesuthu shut up”, my dad interfered.
“Do you want this man in your house?”, mom asked.
“This is my house, I call the shots”, my dad said.
“Do whatever you want Wilfred Ndamase”, my mom left the house.
“Tell this friend of yours to enter the house”, my dad said.
I went to call Antonio, he entered the house.
“Listen, we don’t have enough rooms here. But you can sleep in the shack, in our backyard”, my
dad said.
“Thank you Mr Ndamase, I promise I will respect your space”, said Antonio.
“I know you will respect my space, you look like a respectful man. Nosipho will change the
bedding for you, you can sit down, watch tv and relax. Are you Italian?”, my dad asked.
“Yes sir”, replied Antonio.
“Your accent sells you. If you want to have something to drink, there’s a tavern down the street,
it’s called Bra Xola’s Place”, my dad said.
“It’s okay sir”, Antonio laughed.
“Back in the 70s I used to work for Italians. I was a barman at an Italian owned bar”, my dad
liked telling stories.
It seems like my dad likes Antonio. I went to change the bedding in the shack. I put on some
fresh, clean bedding.
The last time I stepped foot in that shack was when Bandile…when he tried to do something
he’ll regret. The shack was cold inside, suddenly I had this uncomfortable feeling. I sat on the
bed, I closed my eyes and I saw Bandile taking a few steps forward, he held my waist and he
looked deep into my eyes. I relived that moment again.
I opened my eyes again, I heard a knock on the door. I quickly made myself busy. Antonio
entered the shack.
“Wow, thanks”, he looked around.
“I know this isn’t what you had in mind”, I said.
“It’s just fine, I love new experiences”, he said.
“I’m really sorry, this isn’t fancy and stuff”, I said.
“It’s fine Nosipho, really, I am. It’s not like I’m going to stay here forever”, he said. “It’s not like –
no offence, I know you grew up here, I didn’t mean to offend you or anything”, he added.
“It’s alright”, I left the shack.
Antonio chased me.
“Stop, please. I didn’t mean to offend you or make you angry”, he said.
“Stop apologising for something you didn’t do. Okay? I’m just having a bad day, that’s all. And
no, it’s not your fault”, I said.
“Okay, I was just saying”, he turned back.
I went to sit on the stoep. I thought of what MaKhumalo told me. I couldn’t understand, it didn’t
make sense. I don’t know why she didn’t tell me, I don’t understand why I should find out – at
this point, I don’t really care about what MaKhumalo told me. I want to bury my child and start a
new life, I’m tired of always looking for trouble. Lwazi got out of a red car, he entered the yard.
He seemed happy, he sat next to me. He playfully tickled my cheek.
“Smile, smile, smile”, he tickled my cheek.
I smiled.
“Yes and she smiles ladies and gentlemen”, Lwazi fooled around.
“You’re so happy, it’s like you’re not a 16 year old father-to-be”, I said.
“And she kills the mood ladies and gentlemen”, he said.
I sighed.
“When I came I out that car, I saw you thinking, daydreaming, what’s on your mind big sis?”, he
asked.
“Where do I start?”, I asked.
“I know you’re thinking about a certain man”, he said.
I giggled.
“Yes, I’m right, right?”, he asked.
“Yeah”, I said.
“Is it Thando?”, he asked.
I looked at him.
“Oh, come on. Get over him, he’s your cousin for crying out loud. He…hey, who’s car is that?
Wait, I’ve seen this car before. Anthony?”, he asked.
“You mean Antonio? Yes”, I replied.
“What is he doing here? Big sis, what’s your secret? How do you keep all these guys on a tight
leash? They’re all over you”, he said.
Lwazi looked a bit tipsy.
“Antonio is here for the funeral”, I said.
“Is Antonio on your mind?”, he asked.
“No”, I replied.
“You didn’t really give me an answer, is Thando on your mind?”
“No”
“Is it a man?”
“Yeah”
“This guessing game is kinda lame. Am I on your mind, big sis?”
“No”
“The prince?”
“No”
“Your dad?”
“No”
“If I’m not on your mind, your dad isn’t on your mind, Thando, Antonio and the prince are not on
your mind, which other man would be on your mind? Oh, wait, is it Mfundo?”
“Lwazi no”
“Which man is on your mind then?”
“Just go inside and make yourself busy”
“Tell me”
“Go inside”
“Nosipho, I won’t go inside without you telling me”
“You probably had one too many”
“I’m not drunk, Nosipho. Tell me, please?”
“It’s Bandile”
“Eeuw! Sies! Bandile?”
“Eeuw? Sies? Really?”
“That guy didn’t like you”
“I think he can help me open my eyes”
“What are you talking about?”
“Lwazi, you won’t understand. You’re…young”
“Young? You know what this ‘young’ guy did for you? He advices you, protects you, saved your
life and this ‘young’ guy has your back”
“Lwazi, you’re the only person I trust with my whole heart”
“You don’t need Bandile’s ‘eye-opening’ help, I’m right here”
“Thank you but I need to talk to Bandile”
“Alright, I tried – ”
“Lwazi it’s not like I don’t trust you, I do trust you but Bandile is old enough to know the darkest
secrets of this family”
“Stop digging these secrets, you know these secrets will destroy this family”
“I need to know, something…something big is about to happen”
“Nosipho Ndamase is that you? Is that body two?”
“It’s me, I need to know the truth”
“The truth always hurts, just know that. I won’t stand between you and whatever you’re up to.
I’m just scared that these secrets will mess things for us all”
“I just have to, Lwazi”
“Why do you all of a sudden want to know the family’s deepest secrets?”
“Because…I just have to”
“You have to? You’re weird, let me go inside and make myself something to eat”
“Lwazi…please don’t tell anyone”
“Don’t worry, I won’t. You know me”
“Thank you”
I think I have to do this. MaKhumalo gave me a simple instruction, she helped me and it’s my
turn to return the favour by helping myself for her.
I’m like Lwazi, scared of the unexpected.
@8PM
We had supper, we had a guest. Mom invited the prince, Mvuyisi and the man that serves
Mvuyisi’s family, Patrick.
“Tell Lwazi what you told me”, my mom said to Mvuyisi.
“My dad is planning this huge stick fighting competition to determine who’s the best stick fighter
in Tsomo”, said Mvuyisi.
“You should come”, said Patrick.
I’ve never seen Lwazi stick fight, the only person who loved stick fighting was Bandile.
“I will try”, responded Lwazi.
“You should. Nosipho, you should come to this ceremony happening tomorrow for girls, it’s
going to be amazing”, said Patrick.
“That’s if she’s not busy, of course”, added Mvuyisi.
“She’ll be very busy tomorrow morning, maybe if she comes in the afternoon, is that alright?”,
my mom asked.
“Yes, the ceremony will end in the evening”, said Patrick.
I faked a smile and said, “I would love to come, I can’t wait”.
“So…Antonio do you love this village?”, my mom asked.
“Well, I love this village. The scenery is to die for and the people are very kind”, replied Antonio.
“Italian?”, asked Patrick.
“Yes”, Antonio responded.
“ami il cibo? [Are you enjoying the food?]”, Patrick spoke italian.
“sì [yes]”, Antonio laughed.
“Surprised that a rural man like me knows italian?”, asked Patrick.
“Wow, you reminded me of home by the way. Mr Ndamase also has a history with italians”, said
Antonio.
“Oh, I didn’t know that. I used to serve for an italian family in Cape Town back in the 80s”, said
Patrick.
I was starting to get bored with all the italian talk, my dad was awkwardly silent.
At night, everyone was sleeping in their respected spaces. King Pin was sleeping on the couch,
well, he was having troubles sleeping. Lwazi was snoring, I couldn’t sleep so I went to watch tv.
King Pin sat up.
“I won’t lie, this couch is not comfortable at all”, he complained.
“You can sleep in my bed”, I said.
He looked at me.
I chuckled. “Not together, of course. I’ll sleep on the couch”, I said.
“No, it’s fine”, he said.
“If you say so…okay”, I shrugged.
“I drank whiskey, I’m suppose to be sleeping not struggling to sleep. Don’t tell your dad but I
think the whiskey was filtered”, he laughed.
I joined him in laughter.
“It was mixed with water, it wasn’t strong. Let’s call it, waterskey”, he laughed.
“Oh my goodness, that’s crazy”, I smiled.
“Your mom was checking me out the whole time. She was giving me the crazy eyes, it was
creepy. Every time I looked the other way, she was staring at me. When I was talking to your
dad, I can feel her eyes. Heavy. Is it because of what I said about her? Maybe she caught a few
words when she interrupted?”, he asked.
“I don’t know – I hope not”, I said.
“Because I won’t lie hey, I meant every word”, he said.
“You don’t know my mom”, I said.
“This family is built on foundation of lies. It won’t be nice when the foundation crumples and
secrets are discovered. And I’m just saying”, he said.
“You only been in this family for two seconds, you don’t know anything about my family. Don’t
pass any judgment whatsoever”, I left the sitting room angrily.
King Pin followed me to my room.
“Hey, hey – I’m not passing any judgment. I’m just saying. You also know that this family has
secrets”, he said.
“Which family doesn’t have secrets?”, I asked.
He didn’t answer me.
We heard a noise coming from the outside. We looked at each other, it wasn’t an owl or frogs or
crickets, we never heard this noise before.
“Did you hear that?”, he asked.
“Yeah, I did”, I said.
“Sounded like a wild animal or something”, he said.
“I’ve never heard that sound in my life. I’ve lived in this village for nineteen years, and I’ve never
heard such – we should go to sleep”, I was scared.
“We should at least check – let me looked out the window”, he said.
“No! You don’t do that around here. You don’t look out the window at night at something you
don’t know, you’ll go blind”, I said.
“That’s just a silly xhosa myth”, he took it lightly.
“King P – Thando, don’t look out the window. Trust me”, I tried to stop him.
“I’ll just take an innocent look, just for a few seconds – I won’t stare”, he went to look out the
window.
He doesn’t listen, he always does his own thing.
King Pin looked out the window then he closed the curtains again.
“I saw nothing, for your information, I can see just fine”, he said arrogantly.
“Do you always have to be THAT person? I told you, don’t look. You don’t listen to anyone but
yourself”, I said angrily.
“What? It’s not like I committed a crime. I did that for us – everyone – our safety”, he said.
“You did it for yourself, for your curiosity. I hope you’re happy. You’re twenty-seven years old,
not seventeen! Start acting your age”, I said.
“I can’t see! Oh my God! I can’t see”, he kneeled down.
I was worried, I went to help him.
“Oh my goodness, I told you don’t look out the window”, I hesitated.
“Ha! Got you! Next time, don’t let your frustrations out on me”, he walked away.
“You’re so childish!”, I said furiously.
He laughed, his laughter irritated the living shit out of me.
I cooled off, then I went to sleep. King Pin is just an arrogant bastard who thinks he’s the boss. I
guess it’s true what they say, “you can love a person easily and hate that person easily”. I won’t
call it hate but I’m starting to dislike him more and more. All his player tendencies, lies,
arrogance, self-centred nature and bossy attitude is starting to get on my nerves.
Tomorrow morning I have to wake up early in the morning. The hearse will arrive at 6am as
promised. The private funeral will begin at 7am.
I can’t wait to get this funeral over and done with!
**********
I woke up early the next morning. By 5:30am I was already dressed. I wanted to check on
Antonio outside but the thought of the noise I heard last night gave me a fright. Lwazi went to
pee outside, that was the best moment for me to tag along and check on Antonio.
I drove to MaKhumalo’s house. The time was around 10am. MaKhumalo was collecting woods.
“Good morning”, I greeted.
“Nosipho, I didn’t expect to see you here”, she said.
“You never really told me the problem”, I said.
MaKhumalo placed the woods in her bedroom.
“You have to figure it out by yourself”, she snapped.
“MaKhumalo, how am I suppose to do that? My eyes are always open but still nothing”, I
complained.
“Use your brain, you’re smart but you don’t have confidence in yourself. You’re a smart girl,
Nosipho – why don’t you believe that?”, she asked.
“I do”, I said meekly.
“Be aware of everything around you, the signs are around you. You just don’t use your brain,
you’re stubborn”, she said.
“At least give me a hint”, I said.
MaKhumalo looked at me in a funny way.
“I know, but please”, I begged.
“I don’t know the problem but there’s a problem”, she said.
I chuckled to myself.
“All along you don’t know the problem? And you’re judging me for not knowing the problem?
This is crazy. Maybe it’s true what they say about sangomas (traditional healer/witch doctor)
they like to break up families. I won’t let you destroy my family, there’s nothing wrong with
anyone here”, I said.
“If you think I’m doing this just to destroy families, why are you here then?”, she asked.
I didn’t answer her.
“I healed you, do you remember that? You were seeing ghosts, people thought you were crazy.
Do you see ghosts now? No. Who helped you? Who helped you?”, she asked.
“You”, I replied.
“Exactly. If I were you, I would focus on knowing this mystery problem”, she said.
“How do you know there’s a problem?”, I asked.
“My bones”, she responded.
“Last night, I heard a weird noise. I wasn’t the only person who heard this strange noise but my
cousin and my friend. It sounded like a wild animal or beast, I don’t know”, I said.
“There’s something happening in all these villages. People complain that there’s something
eating their crops, cows, dogs, cats, sheep, etc”, she said. “I saw a group of villagers
surrounding a dead cow which was killed by, supposedly, a tokoloshe”, I said.
King Pin kept coughing, I ran inside to pour some water for King Pin.
When I came out, I saw blood.
“Oh my word! What did you eat?”, I asked. I was surprised – shocked.
King Pin drank the water, he kept rinsing his mouth with water. I called Lwazi, he came rushing.
“Thando my bro, are you alright?”, asked Lwazi.
“I’m fine now”, he stood up.
“Are you sure?”, I asked.
“Yes”, he said firmly.
He went inside the house.
“What’s wrong with him? He looks angry”, said Lwazi.
“I don’t know”, I shrugged.
“He looks like a girl on her periods”, joked Lwazi.
“It’s not funny, he could’ve died”, I walked away.
Lwazi shouted, “Are you two sharing tampons?”
As promised, I had to go to the “girls” ceremony that was hosted by Mvuyisi’s family. Lwazi also
tagged along, he was going to participate in the stick fighting competition. I can’t wait to see his
ass get beaten by the other guys.
I’m not really looking forward to this but hey…
**********
When we got to the valley, there were hundreds of people. It seems like almost everyone went
there. I think most people were looking forward to the stick fighting competition. I saw
MaKhumalo, she smiled and waved when she saw me. My mother, grandmother, Mongezi,
Babalwa, Amandla, MaDuna, Bhele and Mam’Gwevu were all there. I later saw my dad and
King Pin there.
I felt this powerful energy overwhelm my body. The real me is back, I’ve imprisoned my true self
for months, well, years. I was happy, I looked for MaKhumalo, I wanted to tell her everything but
I didn’t see her. People were surrounding two boys that were stick fight. I saw Lwazi shirtless,
he looked exhausted.
“How did it go?”, I asked.
He shook his head, “I won two rounds but I got knocked out by that guy wearing a red shirt”, he
pointed to a guy that was fighting.
“He’s good, plus you wouldn’t have won this competition. Look at all these guys, they’re
stronger than you and older”, I said.
“Thank you, that’s what I want to hear after I injured my thumb”, he said.
“You injured your thumb? Let me see”, I said.
“It’s fine”, he said.
I watched the stick fighting competition, those guys can kick some ass.
My jaw dropped to the floor when I saw Mfundo. He was getting ready to stick fight. He didn’t
see me, I wanted to say hi to him but after rejecting him, I felt bad. My grandmother, MaDlamini
was sitting on a chair. Taking in what King Pin told me, I had to check it out for myself. I went to
stand next to her.
“Your brother was good”, she said.
“Oh yeah? I didn’t get to see him, I feel bad but I spoke to him”, I said.
“He should work on his stick fighting skills”, she said.
“I’m sure he will. Are you fine?”, I asked.
She looked at me confused, “Why wouldn’t I be?”, she asked.
“Didn’t you fall and injure yourself?”, I asked.
“No”, she giggled.
“It’s hot today, why are you wearing a jersey?”, I asked.
“Because I’m old”, she responded.
“Or maybe you’re hiding something”, I said.
“Isn’t that Mfundo?”, she asked.
“What happened?”, I asked her.
“He looks all grown up”, she continued. I was getting a bit agitated, she wasn’t answering my
questions, she was trying so hard to change the subject.
I quickly pulled her jersey sleeves and I saw a huge cut on her left arm. It looked bad, I wanted
to vomit.
“Are you happy now?”, she asked.
“What happened? It looks like you were involved in an accident and no, you didn’t fall”, I said.
“You always curious, this is just a cut. I’m old, I tumble and fall. My balance is not as good as
you kids”, she smiled.
I knew she wasn’t telling the truth.
Suddenly I felt someone pulling me violently, it was my mom. She pulled me to a place with not
so many people. “Why did you tell him?”, she was angry.
“Because he deserves to know the truth”, I said.
“The only thing he deserves is your love”, she said.
“I don’t love Mvuyisi”, I said.
She slapped me.
“I only wanted the best for you”, she said.
“No, you only wanted the best for yourself”, I said.
“You went to the city, I was cool about that. You were pregnant, I supported you. People were
talking bad things about you, I managed to make your name clean. This is how you thank me?”,
she asked.
“What you did for me was expectant, you are my mother. I don’t owe you anything”, I said.
“Yes you do, you owe me respect and loyalty”, she said.
“You can’t expect me to return the favour. You were being a mother, it’s your duty to love me
and do all those things for me. I respect you a lot, because you are my mother”, I said.
“I did all those things because I love you. I hooked you up with the prince because I love you, I
wanted you to live a life that I never lived. I also wanted to marry a prince but when he didn’t
accept me, I was heartbroken. I wasn’t a virgin, I couldn’t marry him. If he had chose me, I
would have been a queen now”, she said.
“Are you talking about Mvuyisi’s father?”, I asked.
“Yes”, she mumbled.
“This is just too much”, I left.
I won’t allow my mother to pollute my thoughts. I went to watch the stick fighting competition.
King Pin was standing next to my dad, I went to join them.
“Mfundo is kicking ass, he’s good”, said King Pin.
“Oh”, I mumbled.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?”, he asked.
“I’m fine”, I lied.
“Mfundo made it to the finals, he’s going to fight some guy”, he said.
“Good for him”, I wasn’t showing interest.
“Come on, this is not a funeral, loosen up girl”, King Pin tried to cheer me up.
“Nosipho if you frown, you’ll grow old soon”, my dad said.
“That beautiful face deserves a beautiful frown”, King Pin smiled.
He made me smile.
“That’s more like it, great job”, he said.
Mfundo saw us, he went to us.
“Hello people”, he greeted.
“Hello”, we sang.
“I don’t remember you mentioning that you were a great stick fighter”, said King Pin.
“That’s not something to brag about”, said Mfundo.
“I would”, said King Pin.
“I know you would”, Mfundo laughed.
“Who are you fighting next?”, dad asked.
“I don’t know – I wish I win the finals. If I win the finals, I will compete with the best. All the guys
that win the finals fight with each other. The last man standing is the champion”, said Mfundo.
“Don’t worry mate, you already won this. They should all go home because you’re the
champion”, said King Pin.
“At least you have a cheerleader”, I said referring to King Pin.
“Aren’t you my cheerleader too?”, asked Mfundo.
“I will be your cheerleader when you win”, I said.
“So you think I’m going to win?”, asked Mfundo.
“If”, I added.
“Nosipho celebrates with everyone that wins, she doesn’t have a favourite”, King Pin joked.
They all laughed.
“I wouldn’t mind having you as my cheerleader”, Mfundo flirted.
“Congratulations on a well deserved win”, Lwazi shook Mfundo’s hand.
“What happened to your thumb?”, asked Mfundo.
“I injured myself while fighting”, replied Lwazi.
“I give you a two thumbs up for the effort”, joked King Pin.
We all laughed.
“At this point I don’t know if you’re sober or drunk”, joked Lwazi.
No one laughed.
“Your joke just impregnated a girl”, King Pin laughed.
“Do you mind holding this blanket? Because you’re used to holding blankets”, joked Lwazi.
Things were becoming a bit too personal. My dad left.
“If you can’t handle the heat, get out of the car boot”, said King Pin.
Lwazi sneezed and said, “I just remember, I’m allergic to bullshit”.
“Okay, stop – this isn’t funny anymore”, I said.
“Give me your dad’s address, I want to kick his ass for not using a condom”, said King Pin.
“Woah”, Mfundo was surprised.
Lwazi was angry, he wanted to beat King Pin but Mfundo stopped him. King Pin was just
standing there, he was laughing.
“You think you can fight me? You think you can fight me? Come, I dare you boy. You’re just a
sixteen year old and you’re trying to fight me? I’ll kill you”, King Pin ranted.
“It’s okay, cool down”, I said.
“Don’t tell me to cool down. Your brother is acting immature. You took everything serious, I only
made one joke boy”, said King Pin.
“I’m not a boy, I’m a man”, said Lwazi.
“Let’s all just get along and watch these talented stick fighters. Shall we?”, asked Mfundo.
King Pin left the scene angrily.
“Look at him, and he says I’m immature? Fuck that guy, he thinks he’s better than everyone.
Fuck him”, Lwazi was angry.
Obviously things took a turn for the worse. It’s obvious that Lwazi doesn’t really like King Pin, it’s
been a while now.
I hope they resolve their issues, they’re cousins.
**********
Obviously Lwazi and King Pin are not on good terms now. They didn’t talk to each other, things
were really awkward.
Mfundo was ready to fight his opponent, Patrick introduced Mfundo’s opponent – it was Bandile.
I was shocked, I was just shocked. How did he get here?
“What is he doing here?”, King Pin asked me.
“How am I suppose to know? I don’t know”, I said.
A few minutes later Linda appeared, she ran towards King Pin.
“What’s going on?”, King Pin was confused.
“Bandile wanted to come to the stick fighting championships, he says he never missed a
competition. I decided to accompany him, I had nothing going on really. I was bored. Hey
Nosipho”, said Linda.
“Hi”, I felt uncomfortable.
“Bullshit, that’s just an excuse to come and see me”, said King Pin.
“You know you’re full of yourself, right?”, Linda laughed.
“See you later King Pin”, I excused myself.
I looked for MaKhumalo again, there were many people, I didn’t see her. Mfundo and Bandile
were stick fighting, I didn’t pay attention to that fight – I was looking for MaKhumalo.
I looked for MaKhumalo pretty much everywhere and I didn’t find her, maybe she left. I was
tired, I sat on a big rock. I felt my arm hurting, the scar to be precise. It healed long time ago,
this was weird – the pain was sharp, it’s like someone was inserting needles in my skin. I closed
my eyes, the pain disappeared.
After stick fighting match, Bandile was declared the winner and he was going to participate with
real strong competitors that advanced to the next level. He took a break, I figured that’s my cue
– he’s the person I wanted to talk to about ‘family issues’. He was sitting under a tree, eating
bread with a banana.
“Hey”, I greeted.
“Aren’t you suppose to be at the girls’ ceremony? Or did they kick you out? You’re not virgin”, he
said.
“Can we not talk about that?”, I pleaded.
“What can we talk about?”, he asked.
“I want to talk to you about something really important. I know this a wrong place to discuss
what I’m about to ask you”, I said.
“Sounds serious”, he said.
“It is”, I said.
“What’s that?”, he asked.
“You’re my only hope. I want to know the real truth about my mom and her twin”, I said.
He laughed.
“What’s funny?”, I asked.
“How am I suppose to know about your mom’s twin? I wasn’t even born at that time, I only know
what other people told me and what your family told me”, he said.
“What did other people say?”, I asked.
“They said what your family told me. Your mom’s twin was evil”, he said.
“That’s it?”, I asked.
“Yeah, what were you expecting to hear?”, he asked.
“Tell me something I don’t know”, I said.
“Like what?”, he asked.
“Tell me about the secrets you know about my family that I don’t know”, I said.
“Oh, wow, can we continue this after the competition? Plus I’m starving, I need to eat”, he said.
“Alright, you can meet me in my car then”, I said.
“Okay”, he resumed eating.
I was hopeful, I knew I was going to get the answers I was looking for.
2 hours later.
Bandile won two fights but unfortunately lost his third fight. I was waiting for him in my car. He
entered my car, he had a scar on his face.
“Woah, and your face?”, I asked.
“This? It’s nothing, it’s just a battle scar”, he said.
“Thanks for coming”, I said.
“Anything for my ex-sister”, he smiled.
“Tell me what I want to hear”, I said.
“I haven’t relaxed yet and you want me to get straight to the point? Let’s just chill first”, he said.
“Chill? I’m not here to chill, I want you to tell me nothing but the truth”, I said. “I will, if you
promise to chill”, he said.
“This is stupid”, I said.
“No it’s not, do you know what’s stupid? You asking me for help after you humiliated me and
accusing me of something I didn’t do”, he said.
“I’m sorry for everything I did to you”, I said.
“Now you’re sorry? When were you going to apologise if I didn’t bring that up? I know you’re
going to accuse me of being an asshole and I don’t care. The world doesn’t revolve around”, he
said.
“I’m sorry, what do you want me to say? Everyone makes mistakes, I’m only human”, I said.
“If you really think everyone makes mistakes, why can’t you forgive Linda?”, he asked.
“I forgave her long time ago but I can’t be her friend, I told her. Why can’t you help me? Is it
because I rejected you?”, I asked.
“Do you think when I say no to you it’s because you rejected me? I don’t care about that
anymore, why would I dwell on something I would never have?”, he asked.
“You’re the only person who can help me”, I said.
“Why are you suddenly interested in your family’s secrets?”, he asked.
“I want to know the truth”, I said.
“The truth hurts, Nosipho”
“I know, please tell me everything you know that I don’t know”
“I don’t know much”
“Tell me what you know”
“Uhm…well…when I was young I heard stories about your mom’s family being involved in
witchcraft. Your grandmother’s mother was a witch and she had an altercation with another
witch. Apparently this witch cursed your great grandmother, it was reported that she passed
away a day after the altercation. People said she was bewitched by the other witch but your
mom’s family said she died because of heart failure. The witch cursed all the female members,
born and to-be-born. I don’t know what was the curse. I think Nokwanda turned out to be the
way she was because of the curse. Your grandmother had three miscarriages, your mother had
two miscarriage and…”
“I also lost my baby”
“Yes, Nosipho I don’t know everything”
“So…you mean the story goes on?”
“Yeah, ask your mother or grandmother”
“They will never tell me the truth”
“Then ask an elderly person from the village – someone who was close with your family.
Like…the old lady that lost her child at a young age. The old lady that sacrificed her child”
“Mam’Gwevu?”
“Yes, her”
“Okay, I will. I didn’t know she was close with my family”
“There’s a lot you don’t know”
“Thank you Bandile”
“Don’t thank me – ”
“But I will anyway, thank you. Sorry for not advancing to the next stage, you’re a good stick
fighter”
“I know, maybe next year I will win for the first time”
“Maybe”
“Okay, bye Nosipho”
“Bye Bandile”
Bandile got out of the car. I need to speak to Mam’Gwevu, I saw her today, I hope she agrees to
help me.
Secrets are coming out.
**********
With this new revelation, I had to speak to Mam’Gwevu, I saw her around. I looked for her, I
couldn’t find her – how can I? There are hundreds of people, I thought to myself, maybe she
went home. I decided to drive to Mam’Gwevu’s house, when I got to her, I knocked and nobody
answered. Her neighbour told me that she went to the ceremony hosted by the king, I didn’t see
her there. My impatience was growing, maybe if I come in the evening, she will be home.
I went straight home. No one was in the house but the door was wide open, such selfishness. I
saw my mom’s bag, I instantly knew she’s the one that left the door wide open. Maybe she was
in the toilet, I went to check her and she wasn’t there. Or maybe she went to visit a friend or
she’s at her mother’s house. The pastor knocked on the door, it’s been a while since I saw him.
His beard covered his face, he looked different.
“Good afternoon Nosipho”, he said with a deep voice.
“Good afternoon pastor”, I wasn’t expecting him – he caught me off guard. “Take a seat”, I said.
My mother didn’t bake anything, I know how the pastor loves my mom’s baking.
“Mom didn’t bake anything, it’s been a while since she baked”, I said.
“Oh my child, your mom is a good baker but it’s fine. I already ate”, he said.
“Can I get your some tea or coffee?”, I asked.
“I’m fine my child. My stomach is full, eating while full is a sin. No thanks my child”, he said.
I thought to myself, does everything have to be a sin?
“Mom isn’t home”, I said.
“I can see that. People are talking out there, they say there was a funeral in this house. That’s
bizarre”, he said.
“People should just mind their own business”, I said.
“No, people are worried. What is happening in this household? People are fighting, there are
funerals happening and your parents don’t barely go to church anymore”, he said.
“Whatever is happening here doesn’t concern anyone but the people living here”, I said.
“I am worried about you and your family. What is going on?”, he asked.
“You’re here now, do you see anything odd? Definitely not”, I said.
“This family needs prayer my child. This house need prayer. This house is tense”, he said.
“As you can see my parents are not home. Nice seeing you, I’ll tell them that you came to visit”,
I said.
“I’ll come back later”, he left.
I left my mom with Nontandathu, I went home. When I got home I saw King Pin and Linda, they
were kissing.
“Where are the shack keys?”, asked King Pin.
I gave him the keys – they were next to a the tv.
“Thank you, I didn’t see them”, he went out of the house with Linda. They were holding hands.
In the evening I decided to visit Mam’Gwevu. Luckily she was home. I knocked and she opened
the door.
“Young lady, how may I help her?”, she asked.
“Good evening Mam’Gwevu. I’m here because I need your help that’s all”, I said.
“You need my help?”, she asked.
“Yes, I would like to ask you a few questions”, I said.
“Young lady, if this is about my child, we already had this talk”, she said.
“No, no, it’s not about your child. It’s about my family”, I said.
She shook her head.
“Please, I need your help. I would like to ask you a few questions”, I said.
“Where do I come in?”, she asked.
“I heard that you were very close with my family back in the days”, I said.
“Nosipho, young lady, that was back then”
“It doesn’t matter”
“What do you want to know?”
“The curse”
“You’re too young to know about that”
“I’m old enough, please I need to know”
“Why? That’s something that happened years ago”
“Mam’Gwevu – I need to know because I want to help my family”
“What do you need to know?”
“Everything, the curse, just everything”
“Are you ready for the truth?”
“Yes”
“Okay”
At last, I was going to know the real truth, getting to the root of this.
**********
With this new revelation, I had to speak to Mam’Gwevu, I saw her around. I looked for her, I
couldn’t find her – how can I? There are hundreds of people, I thought to myself, maybe she
went home. I decided to drive to Mam’Gwevu’s house, when I got to her, I knocked and nobody
answered. Her neighbour told me that she went to the ceremony hosted by the king, I didn’t see
her there. My impatience was growing, maybe if I come in the evening, she will be home.
I went straight home. No one was in the house but the door was wide open, such selfishness. I
saw my mom’s bag, I instantly knew she’s the one that left the door wide open. Maybe she was
in the toilet, I went to check her and she wasn’t there. Or maybe she went to visit a friend or
she’s at her mother’s house. The pastor knocked on the door, it’s been a while since I saw him.
His beard covered his face, he looked different.
“Good afternoon Nosipho”, he said with a deep voice.
“Good afternoon pastor”, I wasn’t expecting him – he caught me off guard. “Take a seat”, I said.
My mother didn’t bake anything, I know how the pastor loves my mom’s baking.
“Mom didn’t bake anything, it’s been a while since she baked”, I said.
“Oh my child, your mom is a good baker but it’s fine. I already ate”, he said.
“Can I get your some tea or coffee?”, I asked.
“I’m fine my child. My stomach is full, eating while full is a sin. No thanks my child”, he said.
I thought to myself, does everything have to be a sin?
“Mom isn’t home”, I said.
“I can see that. People are talking out there, they say there was a funeral in this house. That’s
bizarre”, he said.
“People should just mind their own business”, I said.
“No, people are worried. What is happening in this household? People are fighting, there are
funerals happening and your parents don’t barely go to church anymore”, he said.
“Whatever is happening here doesn’t concern anyone but the people living here”, I said.
“I am worried about you and your family. What is going on?”, he asked.
“You’re here now, do you see anything odd? Definitely not”, I said.
“This family needs prayer my child. This house need prayer. This house is tense”, he said.
“As you can see my parents are not home. Nice seeing you, I’ll tell them that you came to visit”,
I said.
“I’ll come back later”, he left.
I left my mom with Nontandathu, I went home. When I got home I saw King Pin and Linda, they
were kissing.
“Where are the shack keys?”, asked King Pin.
I gave him the keys – they were next to a the tv.
“Thank you, I didn’t see them”, he went out of the house with Linda. They were holding hands.
In the evening I decided to visit Mam’Gwevu. Luckily she was home. I knocked and she opened
the door.
“Young lady, how may I help her?”, she asked.
“Good evening Mam’Gwevu. I’m here because I need your help that’s all”, I said.
“You need my help?”, she asked.
“Yes, I would like to ask you a few questions”, I said.
“Young lady, if this is about my child, we already had this talk”, she said.
“No, no, it’s not about your child. It’s about my family”, I said.
She shook her head.
“Please, I need your help. I would like to ask you a few questions”, I said.
“Where do I come in?”, she asked.
“I heard that you were very close with my family back in the days”, I said.
“Nosipho, young lady, that was back then”
“It doesn’t matter”
“What do you want to know?”
“The curse”
“You’re too young to know about that”
“I’m old enough, please I need to know”
“Why? That’s something that happened years ago”
“Mam’Gwevu – I need to know because I want to help my family”
“What do you need to know?”
“Everything, the curse, just everything”
“Are you ready for the truth?”
“Yes”
“Okay”
At last, I was going to know the real truth, getting to the root of this.
**********
Mam’Gwevu offered me a cup of tea but I kindly turned down the offer.
“Your great grandmother wasn’t evil but people made her become another person”, said
Mam’Gwevu.
“She was involved in a lot of witchcraft scandals”, I said.
“She never killed anyone”, added Mam’Gwevu.
“But still witchcraft is not a good thing”, I said.
“She was a good person, you never had the chance to sit down with her and talk to her. She
was a good person, she did the best for her children and grandchildren. You can’t judge her,
you don’t know her”, said Mam’Gwevu.
“I’m not judging her”, I said.
“Clearly the curse went too far. Who could have imagined that her granddaughter’s daughter
would be haunted by an evil force?”, Mam’Gwevu shook her head.
“That means Nokwanda was the way she was because of the curse?”, I asked.
“Yes”, replied Mam’Gwevu.
“Why did MaDlamini desert her child when she clearly knew that she was cursed and it was not
her fault?”, I asked.
“I don’t know”, shrugged Mam’Gwevu.
“What about my mom?”, I asked.
“Your mom once experienced what you went through before she got married”, said
Mam’Gwevu.
“I didn’t know that”, I was shocked.
“I thought everything was going great after your mom’s family did a ceremony. You don’t
deserve to go through whatever you’re going through”, said Mam’Gwevu.
“I’m cured now, MaKhumalo helped me”, I said.
After mentioning MaKhumalo’s name, I saw Mam’Gwevu’s face changing.
“Did I say something that offended you?”, I asked.
“No”, she replied.
I thought Mam’Gwevu was the key to all the unknown but she’s hiding something from me. I
knew she wasn’t going to tell me the truth, she’s just telling me what she thinks I need to know. I
don’t want to know about how good my great grandmother was, I want to know about the curse
and why it occurred. I was disappointed in Mam’Gwevu, she wasn’t open enough. Funny
enough, she was open about telling her story about sacrificing her daughter.
I thanked Mam’Gwevu for talking to me although I didn’t get much out of it all. I drove home.
Lwazi and my dad were watching tv, there was awkward silence. My dad and Lwazi’s
relationship is broken, Lwazi is becoming a troublemaker. Ever since he became a man, he
thinks no one should tell him to do anything. He’s also in bad terms with King Pin. He’s a bad
boy now, he’s surprisingly arrogant compared to his calm, down-to-earth nature.
Mom banged the door like a crazy person. King Pin didn’t open the door.
“Open this door!”, she yelled.
She banged the door.
“Thando open this door before I kick it open”, said mom.
“Just open the door man”, said Lwazi.
My mom kicked the door, Lwazi also helped her. Finally, they kicked the door open. King Pin
and Linda were under the covers, King Pin was shirtless, Linda was only wearing her bra.
“What’s going on?”, asked Linda.
Mom grabbed the blanket and threw it on the floor. Linda and King Pin were totally nude, Linda
was embarrassed. She shyly wrapped the blanket around her waist and she wore her panty
whilst the blanket was around her waist. King Pin sat up on the bed and he covered his privates
with his hands.
“In my yard? My shack? How could you use my shack as a sex room?”, mom was furious.
The neighbours were looking, they gathered in small groups. I quickly went to my room, I got a
blanket and I rushed to the shack and I gave it to King Pin to cover himself.
“Why did you kick the door?”, asked King Pin.
“You should leave this house now, I don’t want to see your face here ever again. You repeatedly
stab me in the back, how could you paint me black to the king and the queen? They told me
everything”, said mom.
“I meant every word I said”, said King Pin.
“If you don’t leave right now, I’m going to kill you with my own hands!”, mom was furious.
King Pin went out of the shack and straight to the house. Linda still had the blanket wrapped
around her waist. Mom angrily followed King Pin.
“It was happening in this shack, hey. I can smell vagina and sweaty balls”, Lwazi laughed.
“Are you happy now?”, I asked Linda.
“This is not my fault”, she said.
“Leave before my mom comes back and humiliate you. There’s already an audience outside,
good luck”, I said.
“I’ll call Bandile, he’ll fetch me”, she said.
“Are you too embarrassed to show your face to the audience outside or you’re too embarrassed
to walk the walk of shame or maybe both?”, I asked.
“How the hell did you fall for an ass like Thando? You’re too pretty to mess around with that
pathetic, selfish, arrogant, abusive shit. Play far from him”, said Lwazi.
“If I needed relationship advice I would watch Dr Phil”, said Linda.
“I warned you”, Lwazi left.
“You can’t stay away from drama I see”, I left the shack.
We heard a car outside, it was Bandile. Linda quickly got inside the car. Bandile drove away.
Mom didn’t return, we ate supper without her.
**********
After supper, my dad and Lwazi went to sleep. King Pin was watching tv, I was washing the
dishes. As I was washing the dishes, I saw a shadow walking pass outside. I thought it was my
mom, I didn’t care. After a few minutes, I thought to myself, why doesn’t she come in? I saw her
walking pass. After I was finish washing the dishes, I went to the sitting room, King Pin was
sleeping and the tv was on. I heard the beast breathing heavily. I was scared, I woke King Pin
but he didn’t wake up. I shook him as hard as I can, he opened his eyes and closed them again.
I was mad at him now, I didn’t want to look out of the window. I sat on the sofa, I was really
scared. I closed my eyes, hoping when I open my eyes everything will be alright. I opened my
eyes and I didn’t hear the scary beast. My scar started to hurt again, the pain was better than
before but it still hurts. I received a phone call from Mongezi:
“Hello Nosipho, please come to MaDlamini’s house as soon as possible”, Mongezi was
breathless.
“What’s going on? Is everything alright?”, I was worried.
“No, MaDlamini collapsed, she’s not responding”, Mongezi was shaking.
I could hear Babalwa and Amandla in the background crying.
“Ok, I’ll be there”, I said.
“Please hurry”, said Mongezi.
I heard the scary beast outside, I was scared. I won’t go outside, I don’t want to be killed by that
scary beast. King Pin didn’t want to wake up. I remembered that handkerchief MaKhumalo gave
me at the ceremony. I already changed to my night dress, I went to look for the handkerchief in
that pair of jeans I wore earlier. I dug on the pockets, I saw the handkerchief, it was tightly tied. I
sat on my bed and I untied the handkerchief. It required a lot of power, I sweated trying to untie
it. Finally, when I untied the handkerchief, I saw a letter and white powder in a small packet. I
read the letter:
“I always preach about being brave and facing the music but I’m not living up to my words.
Writing you this letter is more comfortable than telling you face to face. I have been disloyal to
you and you deserve to know the truth. When I cut your arm and joined it with your mom’s
bloody scar, I was transferring all your dirty blood to your mother. Your mother knew about it,
she made me keep it a secret. You were going to turn out like Nokwanda but your mom
sacrificed herself. Now that you are alright, your mother is not okay. I told you to open your eyes
but you were too blind. Your mother is slowly turning into a monster, she needs your help. She’s
losing herself, she’s overwhelmed by an evil force. The powder is to protect you from every
single evil force. Rub your face, chest, arms and stomach with the powder. I’m leaving this place
for a while, I’ll be back at a later stage. Take care of yourself”
I was shocked, tears rushed down my face. My mother went through all that trouble for me? I
couldn’t believe it. I received another phone call from Mongezi.
I rubbed my face, chest, arms and stomach with the powder. I opened the door, I was scared – I
closed the door and I ran to my car and I drove away. I quickly drove to my grandmother’s
house.
When I got there, my grandmother was laying on the bed. Mongezi was holding MaDlamini’s
hand.
“Thanks God you’re here”, said Mongezi.
“What happened?”, I asked.
“She collapsed, I don’t know what went wrong. Maybe dehydration – I don’t know”, said
Mongezi.
“You said she wasn’t responding?”, I asked.
“Yes, I was out of my mind, I told the girls to lock themselves in their rooms. They were crying, I
don’t want them to see her suffer”, said Mongezi.
I shook my grandmother.
“Wake up”, I said softly.
My grandmother opened her eyes, she got a fright, she looked around.
“You said she just collapsed?”, I asked Mongezi.
“Yes, I don’t know – it all happened so fast. I was bringing the chickens inside, since there are
tokoloshes on the loose, when I came in, she collapsed”, said Mongezi.
I held MaDlamini’s hand.
“I need to speak to you – alone”, said MaDlamini.
Mongezi went out of the room.
“Are you fine grandmother? What happened?”, I was worried.
“My child, I didn’t give birth to that monster. She was here earlier, her eyes were ugly, almost
like a wild animal. She pushed me, I fell and I was unconscious”, said MaDlamini.
“You’re talking about my mom, right? Is she responsible for that huge scar on your arm?”, I
asked.
“You’re the only person who can stop this madness. She’s out of line”, said MaDlamini.
“How can I stop my mom? I don’t know if I should call her my mom because she’s a beast. Yes!
Beast! It all makes sense now”, I said.
“What are you talking about Nosipho?”
“My mother is the beast that has been parading our yard at night”
“Beast?”
“Yes, beast. I should call MaKhumalo”
“Wait! Don’t call her. We should solve this on our own”
“No we can’t MaDlamini, we need MaKhumalo’s help! You’re too old to be involve in this kind of
stuff, you know what happened the last time. You’ve been through a lot, please rest”
“Nobesuthu is my child, I need to help her. She needs me more than ever and no one can stop
me from doing what’s right for my child”
“Grandma – easy”
“No, Nosipho – I owe this to my child. I never had the chance to do the same for my mother – ”
“I guess there’s nothing I can do”
“We don’t need MaKhumalo’s help”
“She’s good at what she does”
“Nosipho I said we don’t need her. Don’t call her or visit her”
“But – ”
“There are not buts Nosipho. We don’t need her, okay?”
“Alright, just rest. Tomorrow I can take you to the doctor to check your scar”
“No, no, no, no, no – ”
“Grandma that scar is an open scar, it might get infected. You’ll get sick”
“No”
“Okay, you’re very stubborn. I’m going right now”
“Be safe”
“Okay, get well soon – see you tomorrow morning”
“Goodnight Nosipho”
“Goodnight”
I went to sleep.
I don’t understand why that even happened. We’re both going through a lot, I think deep down
we got each other’s back although we don’t admit that much often like we used to. King Pin is
family and my dad loves him very much. I don’t want to fight with any family member, I want to
mend this family. I’m tired of being the laughing stock of this village. It’s time to make things
right, I need to help my mother before she harms our family.
I need to be brave for everyone involved.
In the morning, my mom was in a good mood. She was singing as she cleaned the house. My
dad and King Pin were sitting outside, under the tree. Lwazi was still sleeping.
“Good morning Nosipho”, my mom was in a good mood.
“You woke up on the right side of the bed. Good morning”, I said.
“I’m feeling good”, she said.
“I can see that”, I smiled.
It was weird that she was all smiles today because last night we got into a heated argument. I
quickly went outside to make a phone call. I didn’t want anyone to hear my conversation so I
went to stand next to the shack. I phoned MaKhumalo:
I went pass King Pin and my dad, I caught King Pin looking at me – he didn’t look happy. I
figured it was because of the argument we had last night. I went to help my mother clean the
house, she was in a good mood.
After I finished cleaning the house, I went to wash myself, put on some fresh clothes and I
noticed that mom left. I asked my father, he said he saw her talking to the neighbour outside. I
didn’t see her outside, maybe she was inside the neighbour’s house. I decided to drive to
MaDlamini’s house. When I got there, MaDlamini was sitting on the couch, her arm was
wrapped in a bandage.
“Good morning MaDlamini and Mongezi”, I sat down.
“Good morning”, Mongezi smiled.
“Good morning my child, you came at the right time. MaDuna is on her way”, said MaDlamini.
I looked at Mongezi, he excused himself – he went to work in the garden.
“MaDlamini, you know MaDuna is not experienced in these sort of cases, she’s clueless. I
thought you didn’t want any third parties involved”, I said. “MaDuna is like family, she was in
Swaziland practicing and being better at her craft”, said MaDlamini.
“MaKhumalo knows what she’s doing, she helped me before”, I said.
“By transferring your bad blood to my daughter! That’s cheating, she doesn’t deserve to be
called a traditional healer, she’s a cheater”, said MaDlamini.
“She made a few mistakes, but let’s look past that, she’s very good at what she does”
“Nosipho, I don’t want to argue with you. If you don’t want to help your mother, leave right now”
“You know I do but I don’t trust MaDuna”
“You need to trust her, she’ll heal your mother”
“MaDlamini I don’t understand. Why can’t we just do this as a family, stick to your original plan.
Me, you and mom”
“You are a child, I am an adult so I make the decisions. Nobesuthu is my child and I know
what’s best for my child”
“She’s my mother and I also know what’s best for her”
MaDuna came in, she had a straw mat and a huge plastic bag with things inside.
“Good morning everyone, Nosipho help me with these”, she gave me the huge plastic bag.
I went to put the plastic bag in MaDlamini’s bedroom.
“Did I come in at a bad time? I can feel the atmosphere is tense here”, said MaDuna.
“No, not at all”, lied MaDlamini.
“Where’s Nobesuthu?”, she asked.
MaDlamini looked at me, I shrugged.
“Where did you sleep?”, asked MaDuna.
“At home”, I replied.
“How come you don’t know where your mom is?”, she asked.
“I don’t know, I don’t know where she went. She was talking to the neighbour one minute then
the next she was gone”, I said.
MaDuna nodded her head.
“Nosipho you can phone home and ask Lwazi to look for her and tell her to come here”, said
MaDlamini.
“She’ll want to know why she’s coming here”, I said.
“Make something up, tell her I’m sick”, said MaDlamini.
I phoned home.
**********
King Pin answered the phone.
I quickly drove to the king’s compound, on my way there I kept swearing! How stupid of her!
When I got to the king’s compound, my mom was causing a scene. My dad couldn’t control her
anymore.
“The mighty king, you think you’re better than everyone? Just remember how you got that
crown, you swine!”, my mom yelled.
She was drunk, my mother never touched alcohol for years.
“We must go mom”, I held her hand.
“Leave me alone Nosipho! Do you want me to beat you up? Can’t you see I’m having a
conversation with the mighty king? The king, king, king”, said mom.
“Nobesuthu let’s go home”, my dad said calmly.
“Get you wife out of my compound before I have her escorted by my men”, ordered the king.
“Where’s your pathetic son? Where is Mvuyisi? Mvuyisi! Mvuyisi! Where is he?”, mom was
drunk.
“Mom let’s go home, please. This is embarrassing”, I said.
“You are an embarrassment!”, mom yelled.
Mvuyisi came out of the house.
“Ah, I should have known. What is this drunkard doing in this compound? I told you, I don’t want
to see you and your pathetic family in this yard”, said Mvuyisi.
“Watch your mouth”, dad warned.
“This family is too good to be seen with your family. Your family are nothing but low life people
who think getting their daughter married to the royals will vanish their ugly secrets and fill their
empty pockets with gold”, Mvuyisi said to my mom.
My dad is a very chilled guy but when he retaliates, it won’t be nice.
“Hey stupid boy, I warned you. If you open that stinky mouth of yours, I will something your dad
hasn’t done in a long time”, said dad.
“Your wife sold me dreams. She wanted me to marry her daughter, knowing that she isn’t a
virgin. Dad, she passed the last virginity testing but she wasn’t a virgin”, said Mvuyisi.
“What? Are you people making a mockery out of the system of virginity testing? Huh? What’s
wrong with you people? Nobesuthu leave NOW!”, the king went inside the house.
“Bitch”, Mvuyisi said to me, he then went inside the house.
I wanted to punch him but I just looked at him. I helped my dad put my mom in the car. He
looked angry, my mother was laughing – she was drunk. I drove home.
When I got home, Lwazi was polishing his shoes outside. He dropped his shoes when he saw
mom very drunk, he went to help mom. We all helped her get inside the house. King Pin was
confused and amazed at the same time, he didn’t help her. When my sat on the couch, Lwazi
took off her shoes.
“What happened to her? Mom, why did you do such a thing? Was she at Bra Xola’s Place?”,
asked Lwazi.
“No, she was at the king’s compound. Everyone is banned from ever entering the compound”, I
said.
Lwazi looked sad, he went to resume polishing his shoes outside. King Pin looked at me and
he shook his head. I noticed dad wasn’t in sight, I don’t know where he disappeared to.
Suddenly dad came out of his bedroom with a belt, he charged at mom and he kept beating her.
We were all too stunned to even stop him, he was fire, very angry. We were afraid that he was
going to beat us also if we interfered. Lwazi heard the loud screams, he rushed inside the
house. We all watched, I couldn’t take it anymore, I went out of the house. All I could hear was
mom getting beaten, my dad was angry. He bottled up all his anger, he exploded. After the
screams were over, I could hear my dad saying.
“Leave my house! Go to your mom’s house, there’s only one man in this house. You can’t
control me, leave my house Nobesuthu. I’m tired of you, you’re too much”, he was angry.
“Cool down uncle, go outside and catch some air”, said King Pin.
Lwazi angrily rushed outside, he stood next to me.
“You saw what your dad did to my mom? I wish I can
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
hh! I’m angry”, Lwazi threw his shoes.
“You’re going to tear your shoes, it’s not use getting angry. What’s done is done”, I said.
“How can you be cool about that bullshit? How can you be
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!”, Lwazi was shaking with anger.
King Pin went outside.
“Keep the noise down”, he said to Lwazi.
“Don’t tell me what to do, you’re not the boss of me! You both don’t care about this. I’m not
surprised, Thando you’re used to beating women and Nosipho is used to being a punching bag!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! No one beats my mom like that and gets away with it”, said Lwazi.
King Pin giggled, “Hulk, keep the noise down before you attract unnecessary company from
these neighbours”, he said.
Lwazi punched the window and he broke it.
“Are you mad, boy? Are you fucking mad? You’re going to answer that to your dad”, said King
Pin.
“Calm down Lwazi”, I said.
Villagers that were working outside were looking. Those who heard the glass break, went
outside to look.
“Congratulations, you have an audience”, King Pin went inside.
My dad went out, he saw the hole in the window and he went inside the house again without
saying a word. Lwazi was bleeding.
“Let me see”, I said.
“Don’t touch me”, he walked away.
I watched him walk out the gate. I thought to myself, this family is doomed.
My mom packed her clothes, I helped her pack. When she was done, I drove her to MaDlamini’s
house.
There was silence, we both watched the sun’s reflection on the water.
“Remember when we used to get into trouble for swimming in this dam?”, he laughed.
I smiled, “Yes”.
“That day we were asked to fetch water, instead we swam until noon. That old man chased us,
so we ran home without the buckets. We lied to mom and dad, I mean your parents and said the
old guys from the South took our buckets and ran away. I remember your dad getting pissed”,
laughed Bandile.
“Mom kept asking, ‘Wilfred, can you see how ashy these kids are?’ Every time she said that, we
looked at each other”, I laughed.
“Remember that day when we said we were going to visit MaDlamini, instead we went to this
dam? We swam for a good hour or so, suddenly we saw Mongezi riding a bike, we held our
breath underwater, we didn’t want him to see us”, he laughed.
“Memories, I remember everything like it was yesterday. We were really naughty children.
Remember when you accidentally knocked Bra Mveli’s vodka and it all spill. Then you poured
water and quickly mopped the floor. Bra Thami passed out outside, you placed the bottle next to
him. When Bra Mveli came back, he saw his bottle of vodka next to Bra Thami, he was puzzled.
He drank it and it was water, he woke Bra Thami up, saying, ‘stop pretending to sleep’. Bra
Mveli accused Bra Thami of drinking his vodka and replacing it with water, we couldn’t stop
laughing. The next day they were ganging up on my dad about soccer”, I laughed.
We laughed so hard, my stomach hurt from laughing.
“Hello, MaKhumalo. Nice hearing from you, do you have anything for me?”, I asked.
“I can’t talk for much longer, I’m hiding in the bush, I just burnt my sage and I asked for the
ancestors to guide you”, she said.
“Minutes ago, I felt a sharp pain coming from my scar”, I said.
“That’s a warning, open your eyes”, she said.
“Okay”, I didn’t understand.
“I have to go before someone finds me here”, she hung up.
“I need to ask, what kind of warning? Hello? Hello? MaKhumalo? Arg, damn it! Again”, I said.
I tried calling MaKhumalo again but her phone was on voicemail. I went home.
King Pin and my dad were playing chess under the tree, I went inside the house and I searched
for Lwazi, he wasn’t home. I watched tv.
I cooked supper, King Pin and dad were sharing whiskey under the tree. Lwazi was home, his
right hand was wrapped in bandage, he was watching tv.
When supper was ready, everyone was inside. We locked the door, I dished for everyone.
There was silence, my dad broke the silence.
“Lwazi, tomorrow you have to fix that window”, said dad.
Lwazi didn’t respond.
“It can rain anytime soon”, said dad. “Do you hear me?”, he asked.
“Yes”, mumbled Lwazi.
“When is mom coming back?”, I asked. “This is not the right time to talk about your mom”, my
dad brushed off.
“Let’s just enjoy this delicious supper”, added King Pin.
I wanted to say something to King Pin but I decided it’s best to keep to myself.
“Where were you Nosipho? This afternoon, you left without saying a thing”, said dad.
“I decided to take a walk, cool off some nerves”, I said.
“Walk where to?”, asked dad.
“I was just taking a walk, roaming around the village”, I lied.
“Oh, okay”, my dad nodded.
King Pin smiled to himself.
“I have been thinking…if anything happens to me, I want Thandolwethu to take over – I want
him guide this family. This house will be Thandolwethu’s”, said dad.
Me and Lwazi looked at each other.
“What?”, I was shocked.
“What’s wrong? You didn’t hear what I said? Thandolwethu will be the head of house after I’m
gone”, he said.
“This is bullshit! Seriously, this guy just met this family five seconds ago and he’s already the
beneficiary of your assets? This is crazy”, Lwazi was angry. “How am I suppose to leave this
house to you? You’re immature, you go around impregnating girls, you break windows, you
drink alcohol, you’re too unstable for such responsibility Lwazi”, said dad.
“Does mom know about this?”, I asked. “This is my house, this house was my father’s house.
He gave this house to me and my brother, Wiseman. My brother is dead and Thandolwethu
rightfully deserves this house”, said dad.
“Thando has his big fancy house in Johannesburg, he has his own business. What makes you
think that he will leave everything to come and live in this house and this village?”, I asked dad.
“We talked about”, said dad.
“Oh, so this was already discussed?”, I asked.
King Pin was quiet the whole time.
“The reason isn’t because I’m immature, it’s because I’m not your son. That’s why leaving
everything to this thug over here”, Lwazi was angry.
“Okay, look, I didn’t ask for this. I didn’t, uncle came up to me and he told me this – he had a
dream about my father”, said King Pin.
Me and Lwazi laughed.
“That’s true, my father appeared in uncle’s dream. He told him to do what he’s saying right now.
I know my life is in Johannesburg but I’m happy that my dad accepts me as his son. That’s all
what I wanted, I don’t have any choice but to accept everything that’s given to me. Nosipho, I
told everything, you know my story and the fact that you’re acting a fool right now, pains me”,
said King Pin.
“I’m done with this!”, Lwazi went to his bedroom.
“You should understand my child, Nosipho”, said dad.
Lwazi came out of the bedroom.
“What must she understand? This guy doesn’t want to change his surname, we can’t be led by
a Dlomo, this is the Ndamase family!”, Lwazi yelled.
“Sit down or get out”, said King Pin.
“Fuck you!”, yelled Lwazi.
“Have respect, this man is older than you”, said dad.
“This guy doesn’t respect women, he beats women, he cheats on women, he has half naked
girls dancing on the pole in his club. Tell me, is that a good leader? Bullshit!”, Lwazi was angry.
“This is unnecessary”, King Pin was cool.
“Unnecessary? You once beat Nosipho until she was unconscious, you cheated on your
pregnant girl with Linda”, said Lwazi.
Dad looked at King Pin. Lwazi went out of the house. There was silence.
“Is it true?”, asked dad.
King Pin shrugged.
“Did you beat my daughter until she was unconscious?”, asked dad.
“I was stupid, I regret it”, replied King Pin.
“Your girlfriend is pregnant but you’re fooling around with that girl?”, asked dad.
“I don’t have a girlfriend”, replied King Pin.
“You don’t have a girlfriend? And that girl?”, asked dad.
“Uncle, we were just having fun”, replied King Pin.
“You’re playing games with girls? We don’t do that in this family, real men don’t do what you’re
doing”, said dad.
“You were beating your wife this afternoon, you were angry – I’m not judging you. I hope you
also understand and don’t judge me too”, said King Pin.
“Once you grow up and be my age, there’s much you can handle and cannot handle. What I did
was not right but at that moment it was right. I was talking about you playing games with girls,
we don’t do that in this family. Things are the way they are because the ancestors are angry”,
said dad.
“I apologise with all my heart. I’m sorry for putting my hands on your daughter, I already
apologised to Nosipho long time ago. It won’t happen again, I’ve grown after that, I was stupid
back then”, said King Pin.
“A true man apologises, I accept your apology. Your dad is with no doubt proud of you. Promise
me you will take care of this girl who’s carrying a Ndamase. Deep down you are a Ndamase, Mr
Dlomo”, said dad.
“I’ve been taking care of her”, said King Pin.
“Let me go wash the dishes”, I went to the kitchen.
Foxy is carrying a Ndamase? They’re not thinking of making that baby a Ndamase.
Yeses.
**********
I washed the dishes, I heard the front door opening, it was Lwazi. I sang to myself as I washed
the dishes. I heard footsteps, they stopped. I looked back, it was King Pin. He had his plate on
his hand, since I was washing the dishes, I took the plate. He was holding the plate with such
power that I couldn’t take the plate. I looked at him, I didn’t want to say anything. I thought, oh
maybe he’s fooling around. I took the plate, he was holding it tightly.
“Do you or do you not want me to wash that plate?”, I asked.
“What’s going on between you and Bandile?”, he asked.
“What? Nothing”, I responded.
“Really? Why did you lie to your dad?”, he asked.
“I didn’t lie, give me the plate”, I said.
He gave me the plate.
“You said to your dad you were roaming around the village”, he said.
“I was”, I said.
He laughed. “I’m not stupid”, he said.
“I didn’t say you were”, I said.
“Do you know why I’m saying you are lying?”, he asked.
“Why?”, I asked.
“Because I went to look for you”, he said.
I looked away.
“Nosipho, I knew I was going to find you there because you go there to cool off. I saw you and
Bandile laughing like school kids”, he said.
“I met him there”, I said.
“Did you send him an SMS or he sent you an SMS?”, he asked.
“No! I didn’t know I will find him there. He was practicing his stick fighting at the end of the dam.
He came over to me”, I said.
“Be careful”, warned King Pin.
“He’s not a monster, he’s a good guy”, I said.
“Oh? Are you guys writing love letters to each other now?”, he asked.
“Are you trying to be funny? I still consider him my brother”, I said.
“If you don’t stay away from him, I will tell your dad”, said King Pin.
“My dad won’t do anything. And I won’t stay away from him”, I said.
“You’re starting war now. You know that everything that’s happening right now is because of
him. If he decided to shut up and leave this place, everything would’ve been fine”, said King Pin.
“Fine? You think Bandile is the reason the family is the way they are? This family is cursed”, I
said.
“Ancestors are angry”, said King Pin.
“That’s not my problem. You don’t have a clue what’s happening in this family, do you?
Ancestors are not angry, this family is cursed”, I said.
“Just stay away from that troublemaker”, he said.
“Or else what? Dad won’t do anything to him”, I said.
“Your dad might not do anything but I will”, King Pin left.
King Pin should mind his own business. After I was done washing the dishes, I went to watch tv.
I sat next to Lwazi. We heard a knock on the door, my dad asked who it was, and it was the
pastor. Dad opened the door.
“Man of God, enter”, said dad.
“Ah Jola, good evening”, the pastor sat down.
“What brings you here at this time of the day?”, asked dad.
“Jola – ey, evening everyone, you see I forgot about you now? Good evening my children”,
laughed the pastor.
“Good evening”, we sang.
“You can carry on watching the tv, don’t mind me. Ey, Jola, I was sent here by Tshawe”, said
the pastor.
“Tshawe? Why?”, asked dad.
“Tshawe and his wife say they came here weeks ago to report their daughter’s pregnancy.
There hasn’t been any word or follow up from you”, said the pastor.
“Pastor, yes they came here weeks ago. They told me about their daughter, my son was not
here at that moment”, said dad.
“Okay, because they thought payment of damages would’ve been payed by now”, said the
pastor.
“I told my son about that, he said he had everything under control”, said dad.
“Ey, Jola, they don’t want to come across as being a pain in the back. They want to get pass
this, they asked me to ask you and your son to make a plan”, said the pastor.
“Do you hear that Lwazi?”, dad asked.
“Yes”, mumbled Lwazi.
“The best thing is for you and your son to meet up with Tshawe and his wife, apologise for being
quiet. Set the record straight for them”, said the pastor.
“I hear you pastor, I will go with my son tomorrow morning”, said dad.
“That’s good, Jola. Let me leave – where is Nobesuthu? She’s sleeping?”, asked the pastor.
“She’s at her mother’s house”, replied dad.
“Okay, she went to visit, okay. Ey, Jola, let me leave”, the pastor stood up.
“Let me show you the way”, dad stood up.
“This family is worrying me, I don’t see you in church anymore”, said the pastor.
My dad laughed nervously.
“Okay, good night Jola – good night children”, the pastor left.
Dad closed the door.
My dad went to sleep, my brother was asleep and King Pin was sleeping in the shack. He
managed to fix the door. I was not sleepy, I was watching tv. After being up for close to an hour,
I went to sleep.
Tomorrow is a new day.
In the morning, dad and Lwazi went to Tshawe’s house. I was getting ready to go to
MaDlamini’s house. King Pin stood on the doorway and he looked at me.
“Where are you going this morning?”, he asked.
“It’s none of your business”, I responded.
“Are you going for your meeting at the dam? Or maybe you changed your location? Huh?”,
asked King Pin.
“Why are you all of a sudden interested in whatever I get up to?”, I asked.
“I’m protecting you”, he replied.
I giggled, “I don’t need your protection”, I said.
“Stay away from Bandile, Nosipho”, he said.
“I won’t stay away from him, he never did anything wrong to me”, I responded.
“So it’s true, you’re going to meet up with the dude?”, he asked.
“No, I’m going to visit my mom”, I said. “I’m not stupid”, he said.
“Believe whatever you want to believe. I’m going to MaDlamini’s house, get out of my way”, I
said.
He got out of my way, when I was about to get out of the house, he said, “Just know I’m not a
fool”. I didn’t answer him, I got into my car and I drove away. I quickly called MaKhumalo but her
phone was on voicemail, I really wanted to talk to her. I drove to MaDlamini’s house.
When I got there, I saw MaDuna enjoying a cup of coffee with my mom and my grandmother.
“Good morning everyone”, I greeted.
“Good morning Nosipho”, they sang.
“We were waiting for you, I was about to call you but your mom said you were probably on your
way here”, said MaDlamini.
“When are we starting?”, I asked.
“You just entered, sit down and have a cup of coffee”, said MaDlamini.
“I want to get this over and done with”, I said.
“My child, relax, everything is going to be fine”, said mom.
“Nosipho, you don’t have to worry about a thing. Just trust me, I have anything under control.
Have a cup of coffee like your grandmother said”, said MaDuna.
I don’t trust MaDuna at all, the last time we came to her for help, she turned on someone else
for help. MaKhumalo is the only person who can help this family but only if she picks up her
damn phone.
I made myself a cup of coffee, Mongezi and the girls were in town. MaDuna, MaDlamini and my
mom were having a conversation instead of doing what she (MaDuna) was here for. That kind
of professionalism is questionable, if it were MaKhumalo, we would have been done by now.
“Thank you for calling back, I have been trying to get a hold of you for hours”, I said.
“I told you, don’t call me all the time. Do you want to get me into trouble? I had a thirty minutes
break, my bones are telling me something”, she said.
“What are your bones saying?”, I asked.
“You must use that powder I gave you. Be careful”, she said.
“You haven’t told me what the bones are saying”, I said.
“Your family is too hard to read. I just see danger, that’s all”, said MaKhumalo.
“How can it be too hard to read? You’re one of the best traditional healers, these things should
be easy for you to read”, I said.
“If you think my job is easy to read, why don’t you throw the bones and see for yourself. I told
you, your family’s case is the hardest I’ve done so far”, said MaKhumalo.
“MaDuna is helping mom, I don’t trust her. The last time she couldn’t treat my mom, you’re
better than her”, I said.
“Just trust her”, said MaKhumalo.
“I wish you were here with us”, I said.
“I am, in spirit”, said MaKhumalo.
“What must I do? What is my role?”, I asked.
“You just have to be brave”, replied MaKhumalo.
I didn’t say anything.
“Nosipho? Are you still there?”, asked MaKhumalo.
“Yes – thank you for calling”, I said.
“Don’t forget the powder”, she reminded.
“I won’t, bye”, I said.
“Bye”, she dropped her phone.
I went inside the house. There was silence, my mom was sitting on the couch, they didn’t look
happy.
“I forgot something at home”, I said.
“Do you want to do this or not?”, asked MaDuna.
“I do”, I replied.
“It doesn’t seem like it”, said MaDlamini.
“I will come back as quickly as possible”, I said.
“Remember your mom sacrificed for you”, said MaDlamini.
“I have to go, I’ll be back”, I left.
I drove home. When I got home, I went straight to my bedroom. I took the powder and I started
applying it on my face, arms, chest and stomach. King Pin was watching tv, he didn’t say
anything to me. I left the house and I got into my car and I drove away. On my way to
MaDlamini’s house, I saw Bandile walking. I slowed the car down. “Hey”, I said.
“Nosipho”, he smiled.
“Where are you off to?”, I asked.
“To visit a friend”, he said.
“Oh, okay. You can ride along”, I said.
He shook his head and said, “I need this walk”.
“I forgot, you’re training your stamina for next year’s stick fighting competition”, I said.
He smiled. I stopped the car, he stopped.
“You don’t give up, do you?”, he asked. “Nope”, I smiled.
He didn’t look like he was in a good mood.
“Get in, maybe you can tell me what’s bothering you”, I said.
“So now you’re a psychologist?”, he asked. He got into the car.
“Are you alright?”, I asked.
“I’m fine”, he said.
“You don’t look fine”, I said.
“I am”, he said.
I got out of the driver seat and I went to the passenger side, he was puzzled. I gave him the
keys.
“Drive”, I said.
“What?”, he asked.
“Please”, I said.
He shifted to the driver seat and I sat on the passenger seat.
“You always wanted me to drive your car”, he said.
“Yeah but you were feeling yourself too much”, I laughed.
“Oh, well”, he smiled.
When he began to start the car, King Pin’s car pulled out from behind. I saw him running
towards the car. I whispered to Bandile, “Here comes trouble”.
King Pin banged the door.
“Is this your grandmother’s house?”, he asked.
“Don’t start, please”, I said.
“What the fuck are you doing in the driver seat?”, King Pin asked Bandile.
“King Pin leave”, I said.
“You heard her, leave”, said Bandile.
“Why are you doing this to our family Nosipho?”, asked King Pin.
“What am I doing? I’m doing absolutely nothing, leave me alone. Leave Bandile alone”, I said.
“You must have a good dick since she’s sticking up for you this much”, said King Pin.
“You’re disgusting!”, I yelled.
“I know you’re fucking him. He’s screwing you because I screwed Linda”, said King Pin.
“Leave my sister’s name out of this!”, Bandile was getting angry.
“Your sister is a whore, tell her it was nice to meet her. She’s not all that, my friends sold me
dreams”, said King Pin.
Bandile got out of the car angrily, he rushed to King Pin, I got out of the car too. They looked
each other in the eye, war was about to begin, I stood in the middle.
**********
Bandile was really angry, King Pin was being mean and selfish.
“Are you fucking my cousin?”, asked King Pin.
“I swear to God, I’m going to knock you out right now”, said Bandile.
“King Pin go home”, I said.
King Pin roughly pushed me away, I fell hard on the ground. That made Bandile more angry.
Bandile started beating King Pin, he had no chance against the strong stick fighter. King Pin
was bleeding – he angrily got into his car and he drove away. Bandile helped me up.
“Are you okay?”, he asked.
“I will be okay”, I was limping.
Bandile opened the car door for me, he helped me up. He got into the car, he didn’t drive. He
was deep in his thoughts, he was looking at the steering wheel.
“You don’t have to worry about him. King Pin is an ass, I regret doing all those things I did with
him in the past. You don’t have to worry about him, I’m stuck with him for the rest of my life”, I
said.
Bandile leaned over and he kissed me unexpectedly. We kissed passionately, I got into my
senses and I pulled away.
“Drive”, I said.
He didn’t say anything, he drove. I didn’t look side aways, I looked forward. Bandile stopped the
car next to a tree, he got out of the car and he gave me the car keys.
“My friend lives around”, he said.
I nodded. He walked away. I shifted to the driver seat. I quickly drove to MaDlamini’s house.
When I entered the house, Mongezi, Babalwa and Amandla were watching tv.
“Where’s mom and MaDlamini?”, I asked.
“They just left, they said they were going to MaDuna’s hut. They just left a few seconds ago”,
said Mongezi.
“Okay, thanks”, I left.
I drove away, on my way to MaDuna’s hut, I saw them walking. I stopped the car. They got in, I
got a long lecture from MaDlamini.
When we got to MaDuna’s house, she started setting up everything like she did in MaDlamini’s
house. Mom sat in the middle.
“We call upon the Dlamini ancestors to guide us, Dlamini, Zizi, Jama kaSjadu, Mabetshe,
Bhanise, Ngxib’inoboya, Fakade, khatsini, Mtikitiki, Nomana ndab’azithethwa intsuku
ngentsuku, Bhengu, Nonyathi we call upon you, help your child”, said MaDuna.
My phone rang, it was MaKhumalo.
“You’re not planning on answering that are you?”, asked MaDlamini.
“I have no choice”, I said.
“Nobesuthu speak to your child”, said MaDlamini.
I quickly went out of the hut, I went to answer the phone call.
“I’m running out of airtime, Nosipho, open your eyes during the climax of the ritual”, said
MaKhumalo.
“What? MaDlamini was knocked unconscious the last time she opened her eyes”, I said.
“You have to do this, I’m running out of airtime, bye”, she said.
“Hello? MaKhumalo? Okay, bye”, I switched the phone off.
I opened my eyes and I was somewhere. I stood up, I looked around. I was outside my
grandmother’s village. No one was in sight, I quickly ran to MaDlamini’s house, no one was
there. I ran to MaDuna’s hut, still, no one was there. I saw two women having an argument. I
tried calming them down but it seemed like they didn’t see me. I noticed the other woman
looked familiar, I remembered I saw her on a few of my grandmother’s photos. She was my
grandmother’s mother, MaDlamini. They were arguing. They were swearing at each other, I
realised the other woman that was arguing with my great grandmother was Majola, because my
great grandmother kept saying. I tried to make sense of everything, I was back in the past. At
that exact moment when my great grandmother had the heated argument that turned into a
generation curse. I saw everything for myself, words were thrown around, it wasn’t good to
watch. After the argument I followed Majola, she angrily went to her house and she casted a
spell on my great grandmother and the family. She took a key that was hanging on the wall, she
walked to the dam that was in my village. She planted the key and she cursed my grandmother
and all her daughter’s daughters.
It was blank, I couldn’t see anything. I went down on my knees and I fell on my back.
It was raining outside, MaDuna lend me her umbrella. After all these months, I was happy –
happy that everything will be fine. I wasn’t only going to help mom but I was going to help the
future generation.
My heart is dancing.
**********
I got into my car and I drove to the dam. I parked my car under the tree, I got out of the car and I
rushed to where the key was buried. I saw someone dug the mud and found the key. What was
left on that spot was a hole. I stood there puzzled, who took the key. I was holding an umbrella,
my knees went weak. What am I going to say to my mom? To everyone? I was disappointed in
myself, I kept wondering, who knew about this? I kneeled, looking at the hole as if it was going
to tell me who took the key. My scar began to hurt. I whispered, “ouch”. I looked up, Bandile was
looking at me. The pain quickly faded. I stood up.
“Bandile”, I said.
He looked at me, he looked at me weird. His eyes were almost dead, I didn’t know what
happened to him. I thought to myself, maybe he’s high on something.
“You’re looking for this?”, he asked.
“How did you know about the key?”, I asked.
He laughed.
“Bandile, answer me. How did you know about it?”, I asked again.
“Why wouldn’t I know?”, he said.
“Give me the key”, I said.
“I’d be stupid to give you this key”, he said.
“Bandile? Are you kidding me?”
“No, I’m not”
“Please, my mom needs to be cured. The future generation rely on this key. My family rely on
this key, please”
“Nosipho, you don’t have any idea who I am”
“Who are you? Tell me”
“I’m Nosakhele Bantu. Also known as Majola, the daughter of the greatest sangoma that ever
lived”
“What have you done to Bandile?”
“You’re a lucky girl. You should’ve been dead by now”
“What have you done to Bandile?”
“I have been watching you for the past months – ”
“Watching me?”
“Your daughter is with me. I will raise her to be just like me – ”
“You’re lying, that can’t happen, it was stillbirth”
“I’m very powerful. Ever wondered why your little brother is changing? He should’ve been dead
too, you helped him”
“You were the mysterious person who was hiding behind trees? You were trying to harm Lwazi
when he was drunk. I can remember, I had a dream about that, it was in Johannesburg”
“I am slowly destroying your family – ”
“Why are you doing this to us?”
“Bandile is a fighter. I should’ve killed you in the shack, I had the knife in my hands. I was ready
to kill you but he didn’t let me”
“Bandile please fight! Wherever you are, please fight! How did you get into Bandile’s body?”
“MaKhumalo helped me”
“What?”
“Yes, your precious MaKhumalo helped me”
“She wouldn’t betray my family like that”
“When she was at your house, that ceremony she did – that was my only chance – ”
“You were the evil spirit present?”
“Today you’re going down”
“Please – ”
Bandile kneeled down like an animal and he made a very loud beast noise. The sound was very
familiar. He surrounded me, he was walking like a baboon. It wasn’t really Bandile, it was Majola
trapped in Bandile’s body. I took a few steps backwards, Majola slowly came towards me.
“Please don’t hurt me, what do you want from me?”, I was terrified.
Out of the blue, I saw my mother – or I thought. She introduced herself as Nokwanda, I was
more terrified. I knew I was going to die.
“Don’t be afraid”, said Nokwanda.
“Go away Satan!”, I yelled.
“I’m on your side”, said Nokwanda.
Majola stood upright.
“Nokwanda what do you want here?”, asked Majola.
“I’m here to help my blood”, responded Nokwanda.
“Blood?”, Majola laughed.
“You probably heard of bad things about me but let’s put that behind, I’m here for you”, said
Nokwanda.
“You believe her? She wants you as much as I want you”, said Majola.
I was confused.
“I heard bad things about the both of you. I don’t trust any of you”, I said.
“Nokwanda give up”, said Majola.
“Nosipho, please”, pleaded Nokwanda.
“Nokwanda you killed animals but you were just a kid. I can imagine how evil you are as an
adult”, I said.
“Do you blame me? I was cursed just like your mother”, said Nokwanda.
“My mother is nothing like you!”, I yelled.
“I want to help my family. People portray me as an evil person. You were never told the good
things I did”, said Nokwanda.
“I only need the key”, I said.
“I’m here to help you”, said Nokwanda.
Majola got angry, she went towards me but suddenly she stopped.
“Nosipho here’s the key”, said Bandile.
I knew it was him, I reached out my hand to get the key but he fell.
“You think you can have the key?”, asked Majola. “I’m going to destroy your family bit by bit”,
she said.
Nokwanda went towards me, I walked backwards. My phone rang, I answered it.
Majola ran towards me, she jumped on top of me. My phone flew up in the air and landed near
the tree. She strangled me.
“I’m going to kill you with my own hands. Well, not my own hands but Bandile’s hands”, she
said.
Nokwanda was carrying a big stone.
“No, don’t, please you’re going to harm Bandile”, I said.
I tried fighting back but she was so strong, well, Bandile was so strong. I gave up fighting, I
closed my eyes. I gave up on life for a moment.
I’m going to die.
**********
When my eyes were shut, everything that has happened in my life appeared in fast forward
mode. I knew I was dying, I’ve heard stories about these sort of things.
I opened my eyes, I was in hospital. King Pin, Lwazi and my parents were surrounding me.
“Mom are you okay now? Where’s Bandile, is he okay?”, I asked.
“Rest my child”, said mom.
“Yeah, rest”, said King Pin.
“I’m happy that you’re okay. I found you laying unconscious on the ground near the dam”, said
Lwazi.
“I was?”, I was surprised.
“I’m glad that you’re okay my child”, dad kissed me on my forehead.
Everyone left the hospital room except for my mom.
“It was brave of you”, said mom.
“I’m so disappointed in myself”, I said.
“Everything happens for a reason”, she said.
“I was this close to getting the key, this close but…”, tears started racing down my face.
“Don’t cry my child”, mom hugged me. “I hope there’s a next time”, I said.
“What happened?”, my mom was curious.
“Majola took the key. She was in Bandile’s body and I saw Nokwanda”, I said.
“This is unreal”, mom covered her mouth in shock.
“Don’t you believe me?”, I asked.
“I do, I do believe you my child”, mom said.
I smiled weakly.
“Get well soon, I promised MaDuna I will go back as soon as I see that you’re up and okay”,
said mom.
“You can go”, I smiled.
“Alright, see you soon”, mom left.
Minutes later King Pin entered the hospital room I was in and he had a swollen eye and a few
scratches on his face.
“Hey”, he said.
“Hey”, I mumbled.
“I owe you an apology”, he said.
“You do?”, I acted surprised.
“I’m sorry for everything I have done. I’ve been a pain in the ass, I’m really sorry. To tell you the
truth, I still had feelings for you. It was hard for me to transition from being your boyfriend to
being your cousin. I never admitted it because, you know, because of my ego. You’re the only
girl I truly loved with all my heart. Thank you for teaching me how to love, in the meantime I’m
searching for my Mrs right. Linda and Foxy are not the right girls for me”, he said.
“What I noticed is that you began to act like the old King Pin. You were changing when I was still
with you but when you became my cousin, you went back to that King Pin you don’t even like”, I
said.
“I know, I’m sorry”, he said.
“Don’t be sorry, it’s your life. I feel sorry for you”, I said.
“Can I ask you something Nosipho?”
“Yeah?”
“What’s happening between you and Bandile?”
“Nothing”
“Are you sure?”
“You just asked me a question and I answered you. What do you want me to say?”
“I’ve noticed how he looks at you”
“I hated what you said to Bandile”
“What’s that?”
“You said, ‘your dick must be good since she’s sticking up for you’ I really hated that”
“I’m sorry, I apologised to you though”
“You know what? You’re an arrogant ass”
“Why? I apologised. Do you want me to go down on my knees and beg for you to accept my
apology?”
“Don’t push it”
“You’re acting like you’re better than me or something”
“That’s bullshit, you know it”
“I don’t want to argue with you, I’m leaving”
“Leave, do us all a favour and go back to Johannesburg”
“Oh? It’s like that now? Tell me, where are you going to live when you go to Johannesburg?”
“Definitely not at your house”
“I thought so too. Bye Nosipho, sort your own issues”
“Grow up King Pin”
“You grow up, please”
King Pin left the room. I stayed in hospital for a day before getting discharged.
The next morning, I was going home. I was getting ready to leave. I received a text message
from Mbali, she was talking about her new boyfriend, I smiled at what she wrote. MaKhumalo
entered the hospital room.
“Sorry for not knocking”, she said.
“What are you doing here?”, I asked.
“Your mom told me I will find you here”, she said.
I rested the whole morning, King Pin lend a helping hand. I was grateful for the help I received
from him.
In the afternoon, I drove to Melusi’s house, where Linda and Bandile were staying. Linda was
hanging her clothes, I got out of the car. She acted like she didn’t see me.
“Linda, uhm, is Bandile home?”, I asked.
She looked at me and said, “Good afternoon Nosipho, yes, I’m fine thank you”, she said.
“Is Bandile home or not?”, I asked.
“He’s spending so much time with you these days. I thought he was with you”, she said.
“When last did you see him?”, I asked.
“This morning”, she replied.
“Oh, okay”, I said.
“I heard what your cousin said about me”, she said.
I didn’t say anything.
“I can’t believe he said that about me. Bandile told me, he wasn’t happy”, she said.
“They got into a fight – it’s old news now”, I said.
“He doesn’t answer my calls. Do you have anything to do with this?”, she asked.
I giggled.
“I don’t have time to break your fling”, I said.
“Fling? You’re probably jealous because he’s with me. Now you’re using Bandile to make him
jealous”, she said.
“So you’re still with him? I thought Bandile said you were over him”, I said. “I am now, I don’t
want anything to do with King Pin anymore. He made a promise and he broke it”, she said.
I was curious about the promise King Pin made.
“Do…do you think Foxy is really carrying King Pin’s baby?”, I asked.
“Yes”, she nodded.
I saw Bandile, he was shirtless and he had his sticks. By the looks of things, he was practicing
his stick fighting – as usual. He just went pass me without greeting me.
“Did you guys fight?”, asked Linda.
“No”, I followed Bandile inside the house.
Linda came into the room, we stopped kissing. It was really awkward.
“I…I…I have to go”, Linda dropped Bandile’s clothes on his bed.
“Thanks for washing my clothes”, said Bandile.
Linda went out of the bedroom.
“So? Are you going to MaKhumalo’s house?”, I asked eagerly.
“You don’t take no for an answer, do you? I guess I have to go. I must say, that kiss persuaded
me”, he smiled.
“Then I should kiss you more often, you stubborn man”, I said.
I quickly rushed to MaKhumalo’s house, I was sure that today the sun will set and my mother
would be okay – Bandile too.
**********
I told MaKhumalo that we should go to Majola’s house and do what Nokwanda told me to do.
We went to Majola’s house, I opened Majola’s house with the key. Majola started to become
violent, we all tried to stop Bandile, he was too strong. Majola’s spirit being in Bandile’s body
was very hard to deal with. Bandile is very strong and we couldn’t handle. MaKhumalo told me
to call my dad, Lwazi and King Pin. I drove home.
When I got home, my dad, King Pin and Lwazi were watching tv. It was really quiet.
“We need your help”, I said.
“We? Who’s we?”, asked dad.
“Me, MaKhumalo, MaDuna, MaDlamini and…mom”, I replied.
“Help on what?”, asked King Pin.
“Uhm…Bandile has been possessed by the spirit of the greatest witch that ever set foot in this
village. We can’t control him, he’s too powerful for us”, I said.
“What makes you think that we will help him?”, asked Lwazi.
“If we help him, we will help mom”, I said.
“Where are they?”, asked dad.
“In Majola’s house”, I replied.
“How did they get in? That house was locked for years”, said dad.
“We – I found the key”, I said.
“Okay”, said dad.
“I urge everyone to come out and help…please”, I said.
“I don’t know”, shrugged Lwazi.
“If we don’t do anything soon, something bad is going to happen. When that clock strikes 8pm
and we haven’t done anything, there will be trouble”, I said.
I drove to Majola’s house. MaKhumalo was giving everyone the powder to protect themselves.
Minutes later I arrived, dad, Lwazi and King Pin arrived. They held Bandile to the ground, they
were able to pin him down.
“Bandile must stab the mirror but how can he do that when Majola is in charge right now?”, I
asked MaKhumalo.
“Bandile fight man, fight. You’re strong, come on, fight”, MaKhumalo motivated.
We spent hours in Majola’s house. The time was 7pm, we had only one hour left. I was really
sweaty, everyone was tired. After many hours, Bandile finally regained his body. He was
gasping for air, I ran up to him.
“Do you want water? Are you okay?”, I was worried.
“No thanks, I’m weak – tired. It’s like I’ve been working in the field the whole day”, he said.
His legs were shaky so he sat down.
“You must look in the mirror and stab it, everything is going to be okay after that. This is the last
stage”, said MaKhumalo.
“I can’t stand up, I’m really weak”, said Bandile.
“Lwazi please help me carry Bandile”, I said.
“Don’t worry my girl, I’ll carry him – come Thando”, said dad.
Dad and King Pin carried Bandile, MaKhumalo gave him a knife to stab the mirror. Bandile was
too weak to stand on his own but he had to. He weakly stood in front of the mirror, he looked at
it and when he was about to stab the mirror, his hand went to my direction. Everyone screamed,
it seems like Majola took over again. She had the knife around my neck, ready to cut my throat
open.
“If anyone comes near me, I swear I will cut her throat open”, said Majola.
I was crying.
“Look at the time, I think 8pm is approaching – I’ll go with her underwater, you won’t see her
ever again”, said Majola.
“Take me, take me instead”, said mom. “No, no, no, no, no”, I shook my head.
“Take me”, MaDlamini came forward.
“No mom! You can’t do this”, protested mom.
“Please mom and grandmother, don’t offer yourselves”, I said.
“You’re still young Nosipho, life is longer for you. I can die any moment, I’m old”, said
MaDlamini.
“That doesn’t mean you should sacrifice your life”, I said.
“Shut up! Everyone shut up!”, shouted Majola.
I closed my eyes and I prayed. The knife fell, I kicked it away. Bandile fell, it’s like he was
battling with Majola. All of a sudden he had power, he wasn’t that weak anymore. Bandile stood
up.
“Quickly give me the knife”, he said.
I quickly gave him the knife, he ran to the mirror. He stopped, he fell, everyone was watching in
amazement. Bandile is definitely a fighter, his willingness was impressive. He stood up again
and he ran and quickly stabbed the mirror. Everyone rejoiced in excitement. He kept stabbing
the mirror until there wasn’t something to look at. There was no reflection, nothing, there
was…freedom. He dropped the knife, I hugged him tightly, he kissed my cheek. King Pin was
watching, he went outside. MaKhumalo swept the glass pieces that were shattered on the floor.
I went outside to check on King Pin, he was sitting on the stairs.
I foresee trouble.
**********
“Is it true? Is it true that I’m not a Ndamase?”, I asked my parents.
“Nosipho, this isn’t the time”, said mom.
“Is it true?”, I asked.
“Yes”, replied dad.
People were surprised, MaDlamini couldn’t hide her amazement.
“Nobesuthu what is this I’m hearing? You told me Lwazi wasn’t Wilfred’s son, why didn’t you tell
me that Nosipho too wasn’t Wilfred’s child?”, MaDlamini was amazed.
“Mom, I’m disgusted by your antics. You married this man but you had children with another
man whilst you were married”, I said angrily.
I left the house and I drove home.
When I got home, I went straight to my bedroom. I heard footsteps coming towards the
bedroom, it was Bandile.
“Nosipho”, he said.
“I don’t want to talk to anyone”, I said.
“Nosipho…it’s okay, I’ll do the talking. Look, what happened back there really shocked
everyone, including me. Saying sorry to you won’t change anything, being angry at everyone
and not wanting to talk to anyone won’t change anything either. I hope you’ll find a good place in
your beautiful heart and forgive your parents, especially your mom. Thank you very much for
what you done”, he said.
I looked at him, I was confused.
“Thank you very much for helping me. If it wasn’t for you and your brain, I would be possessed
by an old witch”, smiled Bandile.
“You should thank MaKhumalo…and MaDuna”, I said.
“Hmm…thank you for deciding to talk to me”
“Bandile, getting mad at everyone or my parents won’t change anything. I love the man that
raised me, I’m a Ndamase no matter what”
“That’s true”
“But the thought makes me…a bit mad. How would you react?”
“I would go to the dam and practice my stick fighting”
“Why didn’t I think of that? Of course you would do that”
“Do you know where I go when I’m angry?”
“Where?”
“Come let me show you”
“Bandile…”
“Nosipho come please”
He led the way, I followed him. We went up the mountain, I didn’t even know where we were
going. Finally we arrived at a very peaceful place with a beautiful view. There was a huge rock
with writings on it and also beautiful flowers. Bandile gave me a flower.
“A beautiful flower for a beautiful girl”, he said.
“Thank you, wow, this place is beautiful. I never been here, ever”, I looked around.
“You see these writings on this rock? These are my notes, I write them when I come here”, he
said.
“This is a lot of writing”, I said.
“I know, I like to…you know”, he said shyly.
“You like to write? You don’t have to be embarrassed about that”, I said.
“I like to write”, he looked down.
“Can I read what you wrote?”, I asked.
“Help yourself, you can read”
“Alright”
I read the writings, I smiled.
“Wow, you’re a good writer. You should try and publish a book or write a movie. I have a friend,
KG, well, he’s more like my former agent. I’m sure he can help you”, I said.
“I’m not that good, come on”, he said.
“This is amazing, don’t let your talent go to waste, okay?”
“I will think about that”
“So…how often do you see your kids?”
“I haven’t saw them in a long time now”
“Are you planning on – ”
“Can we please talk about something else? I don’t like to talk about my kids”
“Okay, what can we talk about then? You brought me here”
“Let’s talk about us, Nosipho”
“Us?”
“Yes”
“What about us?”
“I know you like me and I like you – ”
“I don’t want to rush anything”
“Just admit that you like me”
“Well…”
“Nosipho I know you like me”
“I do – a bit”
“Hmm, I don’t blame you, okay?”
“Oh please”
“Really. I like you, I have confessed this a million times now”
We stayed there for a while before heading home. He didn’t come in, he went home, I got in the
house. My parents, Lwazi and King Pin were watching tv. I was glad that mom came home.
“We would love to apologise to you, Nosipho and Lwazi. We haven’t been the best parents but
we love you. Just know, you’re still true Ndamases. I love you, your mom loves you too”, said
dad.
“Dad, our blood will never separate us. You’re still our dad regardless of everything that has
happened. We love you will all our hearts, Lwazi might not confess but I know he loves you with
all his heart. Mom, you’re not perfect, we love you too. Let’s start over, take things one step at a
time”, I said.
“We would love that”, dad said with tears forming in his eyes.
We all had a group hug, including King Pin.
King Pin went to sleep on the shack outside. The stars were sparkling tonight, it was the
beginning of something new. Wherever my great grandmother’s spirit is rested, she must be
definitely proud of me.
It’s been a long way coming but it has definitely been worth it. It’s been a blessing in disguise.
**********
The next morning I went to thank MaKhumalo and MaDuna for their help. I really felt blessed.
I’m alive for a reason.
I went back to Johannesburg for a few months. When I finally met Mbali’s new boyfriend, I
nearly fainted because he was the father of my child. He was also shocked to see me, I told
Mbali the truth and she wasn’t very pleased. Monde, that’s his name, he told me that he decide
to never return because he didn’t want to live a miserable life. I understood, he told me that my
son is in great health. He is a smart little man and he goes to school, I tried to negotiate with him
regarding my son. I told my family about Monde and my son, Mveli. They were shocked but
happy, Monde agreed to let my son stay with my parents on one condition – that he can visit
him and his family whenever. I felt bad that I robbed Mbali’s chance at love but she didn’t make
a big fuss about it. I knew deep down she was hurt.
My relationship with Bandile is simply platonic, nothing is happening between us.
A few months later, Foxy gave birth to King Pin’s baby. He named the child Thando Jnr, the
child was a boy. Me and Foxy were not friends we just respected each other’s space. I later
moved to Durban, I rented an apartment there and King Pin payed for my studies. Lwazi stayed
with me, he schooled in Durban. We were away from all the Johannesburg chaos.
My parents’ marriage is going stronger than ever.
King Pin stopped with all the illegal business. He renewed his strip club and named it “Destiny
Night Club”, he turned it into a night club. He also opened a restaurant.
Foxy tried out for modeling, she travels the country modeling. Her son lives with the King Pin’s
mom’s family, Dlomo family.
Linda worked as a waitress, her son lived with her family.
Bandile wrote short stories for local movies. He got a scholarship to study film and television
production.
Raymond moved to Cape Town where he opened a large chinese restaurant. He sold his club
to Martin.
Martin is engaged, he bought Raymond’s club.
Rashidi is a club manager at the club Martin bought from Raymond.
Adelphe, Uche, Kwame and Hakeem have their own t-shirt line. They’re real entrepreneurs now.
Mfundo is studying accounting in Durban, we hang out from time to time.
MaKhumalo lives in King Williams Town, she’s still doing well as a traditional healer.
Nothing changed for MaDuna.
My grandmother, MaDlamini passed away. May her beautiful soul rest in peace.
Mongezi, Amandla and Babalwa still live in MaDlamini’s house. Mongezi works as a secretary at
a municipal office. Amandla and Babalwa are still going strong at school.
I will never associate myself with bad people. After completing my high school, I would love to
go to university and study and become a social worker. During school holidays, I visit my
parents and my son in the village.
The village is a bit more free, people go to the city without getting judged. The pastor stepped
out and a new pastor was elected by the people. The old pastor moved to Butterworth.
Life is too short, make the most of it. Remember, the decisions you make today influences your
future.
THE END
PART TWO
The next day I was supposed to leave for Johannesburg. I was going to look for my mother,
Nomsa Gaxa. She left 10 years ago, she said she was going to look for a job and stay with my
father, Wilson Hlophe who was a mine worker back then.
I’m Yoliswa Gaxa, I’m a 20-year-old girl from East London, Eastern Cape. I live with my
grandmother, Regina Gaxa, she’s a healthy 65-year-old. I also live with my younger brother,
Mbulelo, he’s 16 years old. My cousin sister, Asisipho (24) and her son, Aphiwe (3) recently
moved in with us. My grandparents raised me but unfortunately my grandfather passed away 2
years ago, may his soul rest in peace. All my grandmother’s children passed away, finding my
mother was one of the motivations.
“God will be with you throughout your journey. Trust in the Lord, we will keep you in our prayer”,
my grandmother was becoming emotional.
“Gogo, don’t worry”, I assured her.
“Is the money enough for food and shelter?” She asked nervously.
“Don’t worry Gogo, everything is sorted. I will take a train to Jozi, get accommodation, look for
my mother and perhaps get a job”, I said.
“Okay”, my grandmother nodded her head.
My younger brother wanted to go with me but my grandmother and cousin convinced him that
staying is better. I was a little nervous because I never been to Johannesburg and I often hear
about how dangerous the city is.
I didn’t tell my boyfriend, Vusani (25) that I was leaving, I didn’t know where to start. But I
organised a meeting with him. He’s a busy man now, he works as a salesman for a warehouse
store. He recently got the job, I see more of him during the weekends. He told me that we can
meet after work, I agreed.
Late afternoon, I was with my friends, Aphelele, Tina and Ovayo. They are a crazy bunch.
Aphelele is very loud and energetic. Tina is more reserved and smart. Ovayo is really funny.
“My friend how anxious are you about tomorrow?” Asked Ovayo.
“I just want everything to pass, you know? I can’t wait for tomorrow”, I said.
“You still haven’t told Vusani?” Asked Aphelele.
“I will tell him today”, I said.
“Don’t be a stranger, do halla at us”, Tina reminded me – again.
“I will call you guys every chance I get”, I smiled. “I will really miss you guys”, I added.
“Stop, you will make me cry!”, Aphelele screamed.
“I will come back guys, come on don’t be dramatic”, I said.
Later that day, I met up with my boyfriend. He asked me to go to his place. He was really
excited to see me. We’ve been dating for 2 years but it seems like we’ve been dating for a
longer time.
“About that, Vusani – I don’t even know how long I’ll be away”
“I will wait for you”
“You don’t understand Vusani – ”
“I do understand Yoliswa. You will be away for a while, I will be here raising money for the
lobola. So when you come back, we will get the lobola negotiations going”
“I don’t want to waste your time, there will be a lot of girls hanging around, me not being here
will perhaps tempt you. I want to free you from the thought of not being out there because of
me”
“Yoliswa what are you trying to say?”
“Vusani, it’s best that we go our separate ways”
“What?”
“I’m sorry, I’m so, so sorry – ”
“What did I do wrong?”
“You did nothing wrong. This is best for you – ”
“Best for me? What happened to our marriage talks?”
“I thought I was ready but I’m not ready for marriage”
“You’re not ready for marriage because you’re going to Jozi, it’s all good Yoliswa. I’m sure there
are many men out there waiting for you in Jozi”
“Don’t say that”
“When you made this decision, what were you thinking?”
“I was thinking what’s best for you – ”
“Do you want to know what’s best for me? Do you?”
“It’s okay, I just wanted to tell you that”
“So I must be fine with that?”
“I don’t expect you to be fine right now but maybe when time – ”
“You never loved me!”
“Vusani, please – ”
“You never loved me Yoliswa!”
“I did!”
“If you really loved me you will think this through”
“I already thought this through, I’m sorry Vusani but we have to go our separate ways”
“You will never find a man like me. I respected you from day 1. This is how you repay me?
Thanks a lot”
“I have to go”
“Who’s stopping you? You already made the decision, haven’t you? Go!”
“Goodbye Vusani”
“I’m not a bitter man but Lord knows I curse you. You will never find the right man, you will have
problems with your love life”
“How can you be so cruel?”
“Goodbye Yoliswa, close the door on your way out”
“You’re surely a bitter boy not a man! Go fuck yourself, little boy!”
“And you’re the bigger person right now Yoliswa?”
I left angrily. It wasn’t supposed to end like that but it did and I wasn’t happy about it. It was
really dark, I went home. My cousin was the only person watching tv in the lounge.
A few minutes later I was holding the piece of paper, asking anyone who crossed my path
where Diners was located. After what seemed like forever, I got directions to a small restaurant
called Diners. My mother worked there ten years ago. I made my way to the small restaurant, I
wished I could see my mother there.
“Can I help you?” A petite black waitress asked me.
I took out my mother’s photo, I was so clumsy I dropped my cellphone. “I’m looking for this
woman”, I showed her the photo.
“I don’t know her, did she say she works here?” The lady asked.
“She worked here 10 years ago, I don’t know if she still does”, I replied.
“Let me get the manager, maybe she might know her”, the lady disappeared.
I waited for her for close to 15 minutes. Finally, an old white woman appeared.
“Hello”, she greeted with a smile on her face.
“Hello. I just want to ask if you know this woman”, I showed her the picture. “Last time I checked
she worked here, that was 10 years ago by the way”, I added.
“What’s her name?” She asked.
“Nomsa Gaxa – Nomsa Beatrice Gaxa”, I replied.
“Beatrice? Oh, I remember her. She left the restaurant 6 years ago”, she said.
“Oh”, I was disappointed.
“She went to work in my cousin’s bakery shop called Matt’s Bakery”, she said.
“Can you please give me the address?” My hope was lit again.
“Okay, do you have a pen with you?” She wrote the address down.
“Thank you very much”, I said.
“You’re welcome”, she smiled.
I felt my body tingle, the thought of finding her in the bakery was magnificent. I was battling with
what to do when I see her, must I hug her or ask why she never came back. I made my way to
the bakery, it was a small bakery.
There was a white young lady and an old white man working.
“Good morning and welcome to Matt’s bakery. What would you like this morning?” The young
lady was so friendly.
“I’m looking for someone”, I said.
“Can I help you?” The old man asked.
“I’m looking for Nomsa Beatrice Gaxa, I heard she left Diners to work here”, I said.
“Beatrice? There’s no one by the name of Beatrice Gata – G- Gaxa who works here”, he said.
“Did anyone by that name ever work here?” I asked.
“Uhm…yes. This bakery has had two people by that name. One passed away a year after
working for us and the other, oh boy, I don’t really know what happened after she left us”, the
old man looked at me with oh-so-sorry eyes. I won’t lie, I was really disappointed.
“Okay, thank you very much”, I left the bakery disappointed.
Where to from here? The sun was hidden behind the clouds, almost like it was portraying my
faded hope. I don’t have a place to stay, this was all a mistake. I could just take a train home
right now and forget this ever happened but my cousin’s words were ringing in my ear. I had to
be positive, maybe I will can find her as soon as tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.
In the meantime, I had to find a place to sleep.
My feet were sore from walking around looking for a cheap place to stay. It’s either the place is
expensive or the building is occupied. I went to sit on a bench at a park. Minutes after I was
there, three girls went to sit on the bench next to mine. They were laughing and talking out loud,
I heard one of the girls talking about finding a fourth person to move in with them. I didn’t want
to seem like I was listening to their conversation but I was so desperate. I took a long breath in
and I went over to them.
“I don’t mean to invade your conversation but I was looking for a place to stay all morning and I
heard you guys talking about wanting a fourth person to move in”, I said.
The girls looked at each other.
“What’s your name?” One girl asked.
“I’m Yoliswa”, I replied.
“Where are you from?” The girl asked.
“I’m from East London but I came her to…look for a job”, I said.
“I’m Vanessa, this is Puleng and this is Sihle”, she introduced me to her friends. “You can come
stay with us, you look completely harmless”, said Puleng.
“Are those your stuff?” Asked Vanessa.
“Oh yeah”, I went to take my bags from the bench.
“We often come here just to cool off but we can go and show you the apartment”, said Vanessa.
They told me it wasn’t that far so we took a walk. Vanessa seemed like she was the leader, she
was a beautiful, tall and skinny light skinned girl. Puleng was also beautiful, she was a short
chubby red bone with big beautiful eyes. Sihle was calm, she was also beautiful. She wasn’t tall
nor short, she had a beauty spot on her chin.
We finally arrived. The apartment was okay, it was really big enough for four people although it
was messy.
“Mind the mess”, Vanessa kicked a pair of jeans.
“Trust me, I’m used to this”, I lied.
“We should show her where she’ll be sleeping”, said Sihle.
“Follow me”, Vanessa led the way.
They showed me my bed, I was going to share a bedroom with Sihle. The bedroom had two
single beds, Sihle’s bed was neat, teddy bears were neatly stacked.
“A girl left us a few days ago, she left without saying a word. Well, she wrote a stupid letter, we
just hope you don’t pull that stunt”, said Vanessa.
“I would never do that”, I said.
The girls looked at each other, they were communicating using their eyes. Vanessa cleared her
throat, “Can we talk about rent money? When are you paying? Do you even have money?” She
asked. I giggled, “Yes, how much is the rent money?” I asked.
“R750”, replied Puleng. “The whole apartment is R3000 but we equally divide the rent money.
It’s cheap compared to other apartments you would get around here”, she added.
I paused for a while, “R750? I…I only have R500”, I said.
“So you came to Johannesburg hoping to find a place and feed yourself with only R500? What
are you? A cheapskate?” Vanessa wasn’t pleased at all.
“Or I can take my bags and leave”, I said.
“Look, the rent money is due two weeks from now. You can look for a job, everyone wins”, said
Sihle.
“I guess so”, Puleng looked at Vanessa.
“You should deposit 50% of the money you have right now. What if you take advantage of
staying here, maybe leave without paying?” Vanessa was stressing herself.
“I thought you said I look harmless. Come on, I won’t do that. Okay – okay, I will deposit the
R250”, I said.
“Great, welcome home”, said Vanessa.
I payed the deposit. The apartment needed some serious cleaning. I got to know the girls a little
bit more. Vanessa was 20 years old, she was working as a waitress at some fancy restaurant.
Puleng was also 20 years old, she had a baby boy who was 9 months. She was a
photographer. Sihle was 20 years old and a media student doing her final year. After a few
laughs, Vanessa came with a half full bottle of vodka.
“Let’s play a drinking game”, she said.
I checked the clock, “It’s only 2 o’ clock”, I said.
“My dear, it’s never too early or late for some vodka”, she said.
“Truth or dare!” Puleng shouted enthusiastically.
“No, how about Never Ever Have I Ever?” Sihle suggested.
“I love Sihle’s idea more”, said Vanessa.
“You have to count me out”, I said.
“Arg! Such a party pooper”, Vanessa teased.
The girls played a drinking game, they were so loud. I watched them act crazy, they’re a crazy
bunch.
Hours later, Vanessa and Puleng left. I was only left with Sihle.
“You should ask Vanessa to put in a good word for you”, said Sihle.
“No, I don’t know about that”, I said.
“Come on, do you seriously think this place has unoccupied jobs? Jobs are really scarce”, said
Sihle.
“I don’t want anyone to sugar coat what I’m about. I don’t need favours from anyone”, I said.
“I can tell you’re stubborn”, Sihle smiled. “I love your attitude but this is Johannesburg. You need
people”, she added.
I had a long conversation with Sihle, she told me that she met Vanessa and Puleng in
Johannesburg. After passing matric, she went to Johannesburg to study further, she met
Vanessa and Puleng at the bus station. They were looking for girls to move in with them.
Vanessa and Puleng’s friendship goes way back from high school days. Sihle gave me an
impression Vanessa always wants to be the boss. When I first saw her, I could tell what type of
person she is. My first impression of Sihle was that she’s a quiet girl but she’s really not.
Vanessa and Puleng came back in the evening with two guys and a KFC bucket.
“This is Kwame and Hakeem. And guys this is Yoliswa”, Vanessa introduced.
They were foreigners, tall, dark and handsome.
“Hi Yoliswa”, Kwame shook my hand.
“Hey”, Hakeem kissed my hand.
“Aren’t they gentlemen? They bought us dinner, how cool is that? Make yourselves
comfortable”, Vanessa pointed to the couch.
The guys looked like regular guests, they were friendly with the girls.
“Why are you quiet?” Hakeem whispered in my ear.
“I’m just thinking”, I said.
“You’re beautiful”, he complimented.
“Thank you”, I smiled.
“Are xhosa girls this beautiful? Wow”, he said.
There was a knock on the door, Vanessa opened the door. Two girls entered the apartment.
“Nosipho! When did you arrive?” Hakeem went to hug this Nosipho girl.
I was so lost, I saw people exchanging hugs.
“Mbali and Nosipho, meet Yoliswa”, introduced Vanessa.
I hugged these girls, they seemed really friendly.
In no time, we were laughing and having fun. It was like I knew them for a very long time. Liquor
was flowing.
“This is for Yoliswa! Welcome to Johannesburg!” Screamed Sihle.
I couldn’t believe total strangers could do such a beautiful and thoughtful gesture. I was tipsy, I
forgot about my mom and at that time that was good.
“I dare you to kiss Kwame”, Puleng dared Vanessa.
We all chanted, “Kiss! Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!”
They kissed and we screamed.
We played a series of drinking games, we had really had fun. Hakeem kept complimenting me
the whole time, I think it had something to do with him being drunk. We had a great night.
In the morning, I woke up on the couch. The other girls also passed out on the couch, Sihle was
sleeping on the floor. I saw Vanessa talking to Hakeem outside, I went to drink some water. I
had a terrible hangover, I heard footsteps, it was Nosipho.
“Good morning”, she greeted.
“Morning”, I greeted back.
“So where are you exactly from?” She asked.
“I’m from East London”, I replied.
“Oh, I’m from Tsomo”, she said.
“When did you move to Johannesburg?” I asked.
“It’s been a while but I live in Durban now. I don’t know if I will move here permanently”
“Nosipho, don’t you study?”
“I went back to do my grade 12, I passed and I wanted to study social work but I’m having a
change of heart”
“That happens a lot”
“A part of me doesn’t want to live here since this place has terrible memories. Hakeem and
Kwame were my ex’s friends, my friend Mbali and I also have a history of bad tension between
us but we’re cool now. Her ex is good friends with Hakeem and Kwame, it’s like everyone I meet
has some connection with these people I used to know”
“What are you doing in Johannesburg?”
“Uh, I work as a waitress”
“I’m also thinking of finding myself a job”
“You should try out Jump Cafe, I work there and they’re hiring. Vanessa also works there”
“I will, before you leave can you please write down the address?”
“Okay, you will find a job because you’re already pretty. That place is filled with pretty girls”
“I will try my luck”
“Let me wake Mbali up, I’ll take a shower at my place”
“Nice meeting you Nosipho”
“Nice meeting you too Yoliswa”
This Nosipho character was intriguing, she seemed like she had experience. I was looking
forward to meeting her again.
In the afternoon, I went to Jump Cafe to look for a job. The place was packed, I saw Vanessa,
she ran to me.
“What are you doing here?” She asked.
“I just came to try my luck, you know, try for a job or something”, I said.
“Okay, good luck”, she went back to do her job.
I was told to go to the manager’s office. He was a mature white man. He was busy on the
phone, he signaled me to sit down. After the phone call he asked how he can help me, I told him
I was looking for a job. He interviewed me, asking a few questions. The questions ranging from
my work experience in the field, my recent job, my schooling and my abilities. I was so nervous
but I think I did great. He told me that if I don’t get a phone call within two weeks then I wasn’t
successful.
Just to kill time, I went to a book shop. It was two roads away from the apartment I shared with
the girls. The book shop was small but the books were packed. When I entered the shop, a guy
came to assist me. He smiled as if he knew me.
“I see you settled in quite well”, he smiled.
“Sorry, do I know you?” I was confused.
“Pardon me, I helped you yesterday. Remember that group that gave you a hard time at the
train station?” He reminded me.
“Oh, sorry – I forgot to thank you”, I said.
“It’s okay. I’m Metaphor”, he introduced himself.
“I’m Yoliswa”, I said.
“Purchasing a book?” He asked.
“No, I just came to check out the books. I was bored and figured, why not”, I said.
“They all come here when they’re bored. Apparently this place kills time. I can’t remember the
last time someone purchased a book here”, he said.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to – ” I tried explaining myself but he cut me short and said, “That was
me being sarcastic”.
“Oh”, I felt awkward.
“You like books yeah?” He asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
“There’s a book club that meets every Sunday at 5 o’ clock. You should go and mingle with
other avid readers”, he said.
“I don’t know about that. I’m new to town and I don’t know much about this place”, I said.
“That’s a great opportunity to meet new people. Maybe make new friends, I’ll be there”, he said.
“Are they meeting here?” I asked.
“This place is too small. We meet in the third shop from here”, he pointed at the shop.
“I don’t know”, I said unconvincingly.
“It’s your choice”, he shrugged.
Metaphor was very talkative, I couldn’t believe he lived on the streets. He didn’t tell me how he
ended on the streets but he seemed like an intelligent person.
I went back to the apartment, Sihle was watching tv. I went to join her.
Hours later…
There wasn’t much to do, I was bored. I decided to go to the book club. Metaphor was right, I
have to meet new people. If I want to find my mother, I have to know a lot of people. When I got
to the book club, only four people were there. Metaphor came to me.
“Good to see you Yoliswa”, he was excited.
“Good to see you too”, I looked around. I never really been to any book club but I know there
should at least be more people.
“Where’s everyone?” I asked.
“This is everyone”, he said.
“Oh? I thought…never mind”, I said.
“I hope you stick around. We have a lot of people who come into that door and ask, ‘where’s
everyone’? Then we never see them ever again”, he said.
“I’m not promising you anything”, I said.
“Let me introduce you to everyone”, he led the way.
Metaphor introduced me to Asanda, Taylor, Steven and Aphiwe. I won’t lie, I regretted making
the decision of coming to this book club, it looked dead. Everyone except me explained what
their current book was about. Steven and Asanda’s explanation was long and boring. Books
were recommended, books were read – my mind was elsewhere. What seemed like a long hour
and thirty minutes came to an end. Everyone exchanged goodbye hugs and handshakes.
Metaphor decided to walk me.
When I got to the apartment, the girls were getting ready. I was confused, they said they were
getting ready to go to Hakeem’s pool party. They invited me to go with and I didn’t decline the
offer. I was having a bad day. I also got ready for the pool party. The girls told me that the
theme is all black everything. Luckily black is my favourite colour and I have tons of black
clothing. We all dressed up for the party, everyone was looking great.
When we got to Hakeem’s house, it was packed. I saw Nosipho and Mbali there, I was more
excited to see Nosipho. It feels like I’ve been in Johannesburg for ages. I was going to say hi to
Nosipho but Hakeem grabbed me.
“Hey beautiful”, he hugged me. He smelt really good. “I forgot to tell you yesterday”, he added.
“You have a beautiful place”, I complimented. His house was really beautiful.
“More beautiful than you? I doubt”, he was flirting with me.
Vanessa called Hakeem.
“See you around”, said Hakeem as he went to Vanessa. This was the perfect opportunity to go
to Nosipho, she was standing alone.
“Hey you”, I hugged her.
“You good?” She asked.
“Yeah”, I replied. “How are you?” I asked.
“I’m okay. How did everything go?” She asked.
“I’m only waiting for a phone call now”, I said.
“That’s good”, she said.
I had a great conversation with her, she’s a beautiful girl inside-out.
An hour later, I was tipsy. Sihle told me that Nosipho is crying, I was baffled. I went to check up
on her and she was really drunk, she confided in me. I couldn’t hear half of what she was saying
but she said something about Hakeem intentionally hurting her. I went to get Hakeem, he was
dumbfounded at Nosipho’s accusations. Apparently Hakeem’s friend was in town for a day and
he decided to show up at his place, he’s also Nosipho’s ex boyfriend. I think he’s name is
Raymond but Nosipho was pissed at Hakeem. While they were sorting this issue, I went to
dance with the girls.
“Why is she being dramatic? If she’s truly over this guy why is she acting this way?” Vanessa
expressed.
“I decided to leave her with Hakeem to sort this childish thing. One thing I don’t tolerate is
childish bullshit”, I said.
“Is she even over this guy? Where’s this guy? If he’s cute, see you later ladies”, Puleng joked.
“Go for it my friend!” Vanessa encouraged Puleng.
“Where’s Mbali?” Asked Sihle.
“Don’t ask us about Mbali we want this guy”, Puleng laughed.
Puleng and Vanessa went to ask Kwame where’s Nosipho’s ex. I thought they were joking.
Hakeem came to me.
“Why are girls full of drama?” He asked.
“Did you sort that out?” I asked.
“Yeah, I took her inside. She’s with Mbali”, he said.
“Does she always act like this when she’s drunk?” I asked curiously.
“I don’t remember the last time I partied with her. Enough about her, tell me about you”, he said.
“What about me?” I asked.
“Why are you so beautiful? We can start discussing that”, he said.
Kwame called Hakeem, apparently something broke. He went to fix that. I looked for the girls,
Sihle was talking to some guy. Vanessa and Puleng were sitting on some guy’s lap. They were
really drunk, I went to them.
“Your friends are wasted”, the guy laughed.
“Let’s go inside guys”, I tried to get them off the guy’s lap.
“I never saw you girls before”, the guy said.
“We also never say you before”, said Vanessa.
“What are your names?” The guy asked.
“I’m Vanessa, this is Puleng and this is Yoliswa”, said Vanessa. “What’s your name?” Asked
Vanessa.
“I already told you, I’m Raymond”, he said.
“So you’re Nosipho’s ex?” I asked.
“Yeah but I’m not here to discuss my relationship with her. I already heard about the
waterworks”, he said.
Nosipho saw Vanessa and Puleng sitting on Raymond’s lap and she called them snakes. There
was a huge argument between Nosipho, Vanessa and Puleng. I went elsewhere, I was so tipsy.
The pool party was fun but there was too much drama. Hakeem signaled me to meet him inside,
I went there. He was seated in his lounge.
“I hate everyone who disrupted our time alone”, he said.
“This is your pool party, you’re the man to call for everything”, I said.
“You’re beautiful”, he whispered in my ear.
“You keep saying that”, I said.
“That’s because you’re beautiful. Can I have you phone number?” He asked.
“I don’t give my number to people I don’t know”, I said.
“You can get to know me”, he said.
“That doesn’t sound bad”, I said.
There was an awkward silence, suddenly he leaned forward for a kiss.
“What are you doing?” I leaned back.
“This is a beautiful moment”, he said.
“Do you go around kissing girls who give you attention?” I asked.
“No. I’m sorry – I’m so tipsy”, he said.
“I’m also tipsy”, I said.
“What are you in Jozi Yoliswa?”
“I came to look for a job”
“How’s job hunting?”
“I only went to look for a job in just one place”
“You should try Diamond Lounge”
“What’s that?”
“It’s a club and it’s hiring. They hire girls like you – beautiful girls”
“I like partying but I don’t see myself working there”
“My friend is the manager there. If you have a change of heart, you can always talk to me”
“It’s okay, I don’t see myself working there”
“It’s your choice”
“What do you do for a living Hakeem?”
“Me, Kwame and my other friends make t-shirts. We also have our small businesses at the
side”
“I hope it has nothing to do with illegal business”
“It’s all legal”
I had a great time but I was tired. Hakeem hired a cab for us since he was too drunk to drive.
The girls were drunk, I wasn’t that drunk compared to them.
I was enjoying my time in Jozi so far but I will look for my mother once I got any leads on her
whereabouts.
A week later in Johannesburg felt like a whole month. The girls have been good to me, it feels
like I knew them for a very long time. We even call ourselves, “VPSY”, pronounced Veep-see.
The name is made out of the first letters in our names. In the beginning I liked Nosipho but as
the days went by, the girls disclosed things about her which made me dislike her. I still haven’t
gotten that phone call from the restaurant manager.
I heard Hakeem’s voice. He asked where I was, Vanessa told him I was in the bedroom. He
knocked on my door.
“Come in”, I said.
“You just woke up?” He asked.
“No”, I replied.
“Good morning”, he greeted.
“Morning”, I greeted back.
“I’m not staying, I have to be somewhere in like, five minutes”, he said.
“What brings you here?” I asked him.
“Well, my investor invited me and Kwame to his house for dinner. There will be other
businessmen there who happen to be his friends. Uhm…so he said we must bring dates. I was
wondering if you can accompany me tonight”, he said nervously.
“Okay”, I shook my head.
“I’m happy to hear that. Thank you”, he said.
“Now I have to find something formal to wear”, I said.
“I will come and pick you up in the afternoon, we’ll go shopping for a nice outfit for you”, he said.
“Sounds great”, I said.
“Okay then, let me get going”, he said.
“Who will be Kwame’s date?” I asked.
“He said he’ll ask Vanessa”, he replied.
“Oh, alright”, I said.
“See you later”, he left.
I took a long shower since we don’t have a bathtub. After showering, I took a long walk, just
roaming around. I had my mother’s photo in my pocket. Johannesburg is a big city, finding my
mother is going to be a challenge, a hard one. As I was walking, I saw Metaphor. He was
wearing a white shirt and a pair of jeans. He looked neat for a person who lives on the street.
“Hey stranger”, he said.
“Hey Metaphor”, I wasn’t really in the mood.
“I was hoping you would come back to the book club”, he said.
“I have better things to do than being in a book club”, I was annoyed.
“You’re just like them. The numbers influenced your decision to not come back, right?” He
asked.
“It’s not even about the numbers, I don’t see myself there. It’s like I’m out of place”, I said.
“I’ll respect your decision. Where are you off to?” He asked.
“Somewhere, I don’t know where but I’m just going somewhere”, I replied.
“Can I accompany you to wherever you’re going? Please? I’m really bored”, he said.
“I don’t know man”, I walked away.
He followed me, “Okay, I insist”, he said.
I had no choice but to let him accompany me. I didn’t even know where I was going. My
mother’s photo accidentally fell, Metaphor picked it up.
“Who’s this?” He examined the picture. “It’s none of your business”, I tried snatching the photo
but he quickly kept it out of my reach.
“Give me my photo”, I said.
“Who’s this?” He asked again.
“It’s my mother, now give me this”, I snatched it. I walked away. Metaphor ran after me.
“Are you looking for her?” He asked.
“I think you should go back to your friends”, I changed the subject.
“It’s a big city, you need people – lots of people to help you”, he said.
“Metaphor why are you here? I mean, why do you care so much about a total stranger you only
met at the book shop?” I asked.
“I just want to protect you”, he said.
“I don’t need your protection, Metaphor. Tell me, what else do you want from me?”
“Nothing”
“Nothing?”
“Yes, nothing”
“I can’t believe you”
“Yoliswa, look, I can’t explain why I have a soft spot for you – ”
“Soft spot?”
“Let me finish. I have a soft spot for you, I do. My instinct was to protect you since the day I first
saw you, you know I helped you out at the train station. I can’t explain it, do you believe in fate?”
“No”
“Oh…but I can help you find your mother”
“Metaphor, I – ”
“I know a lot of people in Jozi, I got connections”
“Where will we start? I don’t have any leads at the moment”
“My friend works at Home Affairs, I can ask him to check your mom in the database”
“Her former employer said two people by the name of Beatrice once worked there. One passed
away, I’m praying it’s not my mom”
“What’s your mom’s full name?”
“Nomsa Beatrice Gaxa”
“Okay, I’ll ask my friend to run that name onto the computer. I’ll let you know on the findings.
You should direct me to where you stay”
“It’s okay, we can meet at the book shop”
“Book shop? You only been there once”
“I can give you my phone number”
“Okay by me”
I had a nice conversation with Metaphor. He told me his real name is Tshepo and that he has
been living on the streets for close to three years. After his mother passed away, his uncle went
to stay with them. He abused him and his brother mentally and physically. He ran away from
home to live on the streets, his family doesn’t get along. His younger brother was sent to an
orphanage. Metaphor doesn’t know which orphanage took his brother but he says once he gets
a good job and makes reasonable money, he’ll a find flat to rent then look for his brother.
Metaphor is a smart guy.
When I got to the apartment, Hakeem was talking to Vanessa outside the apartment.
“Finally, I’ve been waiting for a while now”, said Hakeem.
“I’m sorry”, I apologised.
“See you later Vee. Let’s go”, Hakeem led the way.
I was excited to go shopping after a long time. We finally arrived at the mall, Hakeem saw his
friend, Rashidi there.
“Hey mate”, they exchanged handshakes.
“Hey girl”, greeted Rashidi.
I responded, “Hey”.
They started speaking their language, I didn’t understand a thing. They were laughing, I was so
irritated. Rashidi finally left.
We roamed around the mall, entering every clothing store that caught our eyes. Finally, we
entered a boutique. It had beautiful clothes. I tried out a few dresses and shoes. After not more
than fifteen minutes after walking into the boutique, I found a red velvet dress and silver
glittering stilettos. The outfit was perfect. Hakeem bought a maroon suit and a white collar chain
shirt. The outfit looked really good on him. He said he wanted to trim his hair so we went to the
barbershop. After that we went to the salon, I wanted a weave. Hakeem waited for me as I had
my hair done.
After eating at the restaurant, Hakeem drove me to the apartment. I went in with my shopping
bags and the girls were really excited to see what I bought. When I showed them, they went
insane.
“This is beautiful my friend”, gushed Puleng.
“This is lovely but wait till you see what Kwame bought me”, Vanessa went to her room.
“This is beautiful. I can’t wait to see you wearing the dress”, said Sihle.
Vanessa came out of her room with a blue dress, it was beautiful.
“Wow, this dress is beautiful”, I said.
“I know, right? This was custom made for me”, said Vanessa.
Me and Vanessa got ready for the dinner date. We looked beautiful, it was like we were going to
a matric ball. We waited for the boys to come fetch us. We waited for a while.
A limo pulled up, we couldn’t believe it. We were jumping up and down, Hakeem and Kwame
came out. We were surprised. Hakeem walked me to the limo and Kwame walked Vanessa.
Puleng and Sihle were taking pictures of us as if we were celebrities.
When we got to the investor’s house, we saw a few cars parked. The house was a mansion,
everyone looked great. Hakeem introduced me to his investor, Mr Arnold. He was a 53-year-old
Russian based in Sandton. He also introduced me to the co-owner of the club he’s been talking
about, he was Martin. I had a conversation with Martin, he was engaged. He told me that he
bought the club from a guy named King Pin. It was a strip club called Poker Face but they
renovated the club and they renamed it Diamond Lounge. He also introduced me to his lovely
fiancée. I spent the night mingling with businessmen and their significant others, I felt really
important.
Finally, we were all seated around a big table. Dinner was specially made by experienced chefs.
The food tasted wonderful, it was just food orgasm. I had a great time, I won’t lie. Hakeem led
me to a room full of books.
“Hakeem, what if Mr Arnold find us here”, I looked around.
“Finally, we’re alone”, he said.
I went through the books.
“Can I have your attention?” Hakeem took the book out of my hand. “Can I have your attention
now?” He asked.
“Thanks for choosing me to be your date”, I smiled.
“I had to choose you”, he took a step closer.
“Oh”
“Yoliswa, my beautiful queen”
“Queen? Okay”
“Yes you are. When can I see you again?”
“When you visit me and the girls”
“You and the girls? Are you kidding me? I want to see you not them”
“I have to tell you something Hakeem. I’m not looking to get into anything here, I recently broke
up with my boyfriend”
“I wasn’t planning to get into anything with you…yet”
“Yet?”
“I just want to get to know you first. Don’t you want to get to know me too?”
“I do want to know what you’re about”
“So when can I see you again Yoliswa?”
“I don’t know. Maybe tomorrow?”
“That would be great. I want to show you around, I want to be your tourist guide”
“Oh yeah? Sounds good”
“Let’s get out of here”
I had a great time. The limo dropped us off at our apartment. The time was 11pm.
My stay in Johannesburg so far has been nothing but great.
I woke up smiling from ear to ear in the morning. Yesterday’s dinner at the investor’s mansion
was like waking up into a dream. I was in a good mood, Hakeem sent me a good morning text.
After getting Hakeem’s text, I got a phone call from a private number. I answered the phone call
and it was the manager of Jump Cafe. He told me what I wanted to hear, “You got the job”, I
screamed with excitement. He told me I was going to work part-time, I was happy either way. I
was going to start as soon as the next day. Finally I will be able to look after myself and my
family. I shared the good news with my new friends, they were happy for me. I felt like having a
mini celebration, I gave Hakeem a call, his phone was on voicemail. The girls suggested we
have breakfast at a restaurant, it sounded really expensive but Vanessa said she will take care
of everything.
I took a long shower. After I was done showering, Sihle told me that Hakeem called and she told
him I was still showering. I decided to return his phone call.
“Good morning Hakeem”, I laid on the bed on my stomach, swinging my legs.
“Hey Yoliswa. I saw your missed call, is everything okay?” He asked.
“Yeah, I just wanted to share good news with you. Remember I told you about the job at the
restaurant? Well, I got a call, I’ll be working as a waitress part-time”, I shared enthusiastically.
“Really? That’s amazing. I’m happy for you”, he said.
“Now I’m going to eat out with my friends, have a mini celebration and stuff”, I said.
“Sounds fun, I wish I can join you guys but I’m really busy at work”, he said.
“It’s okay, you do your work”, I said.
“I don’t think I will see you today, I have loads of work to do”, he said.
“It’s okay really”, I said.
“Okay, enjoy your mini celebration. See you soon”, he said.
“Alright, bye”, I ended the call.
Just about ten minutes after giving Hakeem a call, I saw a tall, well-built white man entering the
apartment. He had tattoos, his hair was spiky, he was wearing a white vest showing his tattoos
and muscles. He was also wearing jeans and flip flops. Vanessa hugged this guy.
“Yoliswa this is Frankie, he’s a good friend of mine. He doesn’t speak good english”, said
Vanessa.
“Hi…I’m Frankie, friend of Vanessa”, said Frankie with an italian accent.
“I’m Yoliswa”, I shook his hand.
“You new girl I hear”, he said.
“Yes”, I nodded.
“Vanessa give me a call…er…she says, ‘Frankie come over and join us for breakfast’. I
was…er…eat the banana but I left it there on kitchen counter. I can’t cook, my mom is the good
cook. When I woke up, I didn’t know what to eat. I was er…happy for the call”, he said in his
italian accent.
Frankie was very talkative, his broken english was really annoying though. I had to make sense
of what he was saying at times. Frankie had a beautiful Range Rover, he drove us to the
restaurant. When we got to the restaurant, it looked really fancy. We got in.
After spending hours in the restaurant, we went our separate ways. Vanessa had a 10pm shift,
Puleng went to work and Sihle went to college. I was lonely, I wanted to go to the book shop but
something told me not to go there. I couldn’t wait to go to work. I went to window shop at the
mall and I met Nosipho carrying shopping bags. I haven’t seen her since Hakeem’s party.
“Nosipho, hi”, I greeted her.
“Hey”, she replied
“How are you?” I asked.
“I’m doing good and you?” She asked.
“I’m okay. I got the job by the way”, I said.
“Oh”, she said. She didn’t seem happy.
“Okay then, let me get going”, I said.
“Wait – “, she stopped me. “I heard you said some nasty things about me when I was drunk”,
she said. I was surprised.
“What?” I was just speechless. “Who told you that?” I asked.
“It doesn’t matter but I just want to make one thing clear, I’m not stupid”, she said.
“I never said you were stupid”, I said.
“You go around talking shit about me, you don’t know me and what I went through”, she said.
“Nosipho, what did I say about you?”
“You don’t know what you said now?”
“The only thing I remember saying was that I hate the way you acted when you were drunk.
You were mad at Hakeem for inviting your ex, if you’re over him, why did you get angry? I was
really annoyed by your behaviour that’s all”
“If you knew what I went through with that guy, you would understand why I didn’t want him
there. Hakeem knows what his friend did to me, that’s one of the things that got me angry”
“So he shouldn’t have invited his own friend because of one person who didn’t want him there?
That’s insane”
“You don’t know me Yoliswa, if you knew everything you would understand”
“What did Raymond do to you?”
“I don’t want to talk about it. You will probably hear a lot of things about me, that’s if you haven’t
heard already”
“I’ve heard everything”
“Why am I not surprised? Your friends had a discussion about me, right? They filled you up with
anything and everything you wanted to hear, right? I’m used to this”
“I don’t care about the things you’ve done in the past, it was your decision anyway”
“Whatever, I don’t have time for this childish bullshit. See you at work Yoliswa. Bye”
I didn’t know what to make of that conversation with Nosipho. I knew for a fact Mbali told her
everything me and the girls said about her when she was drunk. I didn’t apologise because I
meant everything I said. I’m not confident about my relationship with Nosipho, we will work in
the same restaurant soon and I’m not ready to be around her most of the time. Maybe when
time goes by, we will get a chance to know each other a little better but in the meantime, I’m not
really feeling her.
I spent most of my afternoon at the mall. I don’t have money, I was just window shopping. I got
an SMS from Hakeem saying he wants to see me and that he’s heading to the apartment. I
quickly rushed to the apartment. On my way to the apartment, I saw Metaphor. He was handing
flyers.
“Hey Yoliswa, here”, he handed me a flyer. “Our small book shop is moving to a new place,
bigger and better”, he said.
“Oh, that’s cool”, I said.
“Yeah, I know right? I spoke to my friend that works at Home Affairs, he agreed to help”, he
said.
“Wow. That’s good to hear. So, what does he want in return?” I asked.
Metaphor laughed, “I got this, okay? Trust me. I know you got trust issues but you can trust
me”.
“So when do you think he will get the info? I want us to meet”, I said.
“I don’t know but I told you, you should give me directions to where you stay so I can go there
and deliver feedback”, he said.
“It’s okay, I will go to the book shop”, I said.
“If you say so, remember we’re moving. The address is on the flyer, not far from where we are
located currently”, he said.
“Okay Metaphor, take care”, I left.
I remembered Hakeem said he’s coming to visit me, I ran to the apartment. When I got there, I
was breathless. I was greeted by loud laughter when I got in, Hakeem was chilling with Vanessa
and Sihle.
“At last you arrived”, said Hakeem.
“I thought you said you were going to be busy the whole day”, I took a seat, I was breathing
heavily.
“What’s up with you? Is someone chasing you? I thought I was going to be busy the whole day
but I’m here now. We can celebrate”, he said.
“Right now?” I asked.
“How about tonight?” Vanessa suggested.
“Sounds good, we can have dinner at some fancy restaurant”, said Hakeem.
“Or go out clubbing”, said Vanessa.
“No clubbing for me tonight, I have to be at work tomorrow”, I said.
“So? I go clubbing most of the time and I go to work the next morning”, said Vanessa.
“Maybe we can go out and have dinner”, said Hakeem.
“Sounds good”, said Sihle.
“Dinner it is”, I said.
Vanessa didn’t like that everyone was against her suggestion. She always likes to be heard,
she’s bossy. I’ve witnessed that for myself. Vanessa and Puleng call each other, “Sweetie”,
they’re tight friends. Before I arrived, Sihle was a loner, now she’s not because we’re pretty
close. We sleep in the same bedroom, I think that is part of the reason why we grew closer.
I was sleepy after roaming around the mall, so I decided to take a nap.
I thought being a waitress was an easy job but I couldn’t wait for my five hour shift to end. A tall
black man in a tuxedo walked in. He was carrying a briefcase and newspaper. Nosipho looked
at me and smiled.
“What?” I asked her.
“His name is Tyler – Tyler Ndlovu. He’s a regular customer. The girls have a huge crush on him,
not me though”, said Nosipho.
“Oh”, I said.
“Go take his order although I know he wants Ground Round Steak with salad and potatoes and
also a diet Coke”, said Nosipho.
I went to take this guy’s order. He was reading a newspaper.
“Good day sir, can I take your order?” I asked.
He continued reading the newspaper, without looking at me he said, “I would have a Ground
Round Steak with salad and potatoes – and a diet Coke. Thank you”. I went to the kitchen,
“Table six wants a Ground Round Steak with salad and potatoes and a diet Coke”, I said.
I took the order to this Tyler guy who was serious. He took his food, he didn’t even say thank
you. I went to Nosipho.
“Why do girls have a crush on this rude guy?” I asked.
Nosipho laughed, “He’s just serious, that’s all. You’ll get used to him”, she said.
My first day at work was okay, my shift ended at 1pm. I was so tired, when I got to the
apartment, I took a nap.
#5: Confessions Of A Xhosa Girl 2
I napped for almost an hour, not that I woke up voluntarily though. I was woken up by screams,
it was Vanessa and Puleng. I heard Hakeem’s voice, I rolled my eyes before heading to the
lounge.
“Hey beautiful”, said Hakeem, he had make-up on his face.
“Doesn’t he look adorable?” Vanessa gushed.
“He looks like a joke”, I said. The truth is, he did look like a joke.
“Come on Yoli, he looks cute with all this make-up”, said Puleng.
“I need to get this off my face right now”, said Hakeem wiping the make-up.
“No! Don’t wipe it off. You look adorable, trust. Now let me take a few photos”, Vanessa took out
her phone.
“Thank you very much for waking me up”, I went to the kitchen.
I could hear Vanessa and Puleng asking each other, “What’s wrong with her?” I had enough of
them. Luckily Sihle got back from college, she saw I was angry.
“Good afternoon Yoli”, she smiled. “Or maybe not? What’s up?” She asked.
“I was woken up by these two dogs”, I said.
“Let me guess, Vanessa and Puleng?” Sihle guessed.
“Yeah”, I shook my head.
“Arg! What are they doing? What’s with all the screams?” Asked Sihle.
“They applied make-up on Hakeem’s face”, I said.
“Seriously? I need to see this”, Sihle went to the lounge.
I quickly made a sandwich for myself, my phone rang, it was Asisipho – my cousin.
The girls were screaming even more, it seems like Sihle joined them. I just went to my bedroom
and closed the door. I ate my sandwich there. After that, I buried my face under my pillow. A few
minutes later, the screams were no more. I heard a knock on the bedroom door.
“Come in”, I said.
Hakeem came in, “Is everything okay?” He asked.
I shook my head, “I’m really tired”, I said.
He hugged me. “Are you better now?” He asked. I laughed, “Who told you, you gave magical
hugs?” I asked. He laughed so hard.
“But thank you, I feel a little, just a little better”, I said.
“That’s an improvement I guess. Let’s go out, just us”, he said.
“I’m really tired”, I said.
“We can go to…the massage parlour”, he said.
“You really won’t take no for an answer, will you”
“Nope. But the massage will be beneficial, it can release stress. You seem very tense”
“You’re right”
“What was that?”
“I said you’re right”
“Am I not always right?”
“Arg, go away”
“Ha!”
“Thank you Hakeem”
“Don’t thank me, this is nothing”
“No, thank you for everything you done for me. I’m really grateful”
“Making you happy makes me happy”
“Really?”
“Yeah. I know I’ve known you for a short period of time but it damn feels like eternity”
“What did I ever do to deserve such a gentleman?”
“Nothing, I just like you. I do respect your decision though. I know you just got out of a
relationship and you’re not ready but I’ll be here right by your side”
“I’m glad to hear that”
“Let me make a phone call”
“Go ahead”
“I’ll be right back, okay Yoli?”
“Okay”
After Hakeem got back from making his phone call, I got ready then we left for the massage
parlour. I really needed to release the stress. Nobody except Metaphor know why I’m in
Johannesburg. They all think I came here to look for a job but in actual fact, I’m looking for my
mother. I’ve gotten closer to Hakeem and Sihle but I’m not ready to disclose this secret with
them. It’s funny how I speak openly with Metaphor. Anyway, the massage was awesome I loved
every moment of it. It’s like weight has been lifted from my shoulders, I really feel light. When we
got to the car, Hakeem wanted to take me out. I couldn’t say no after such a thoughtful gesture.
He drove to Jump Cafe, my new workplace. When we got there, different girls were on duty but
Vicky was still there.
“And I come back to my new home”, I said.
“This is a beautiful restaurant”, he said.
“Yeah it is”, I looked around.
“One of my favourite restaurants in Jo’burg”, he said.
A girl came to take our order but we just wanted water for now.
“You still haven’t told me why you were mean when I had that make-up on”, said Hakeem.
“Mean? I wasn’t being mean”, I said.
“You were a mean girl”, he smiled. “Or maybe you were being jealous”, he said.
“Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, please”, I rolled my eyes.
“Roll your eyes and they will stay that way”, he said.
This Tyler Ndlovu guy entered the restaurant.
“Tyler!” Hakeem waved his hand. I didn’t know he knew this guy. Tyler went to shake Hakeem’s
hand.
“How are you doing my brother?” Asked Tyler.
“I’m fine man. You come here much often?” Asked Hakeem.
“This is my second home my brother”, he said.
“This is Yoliswa, my friend”, Hakeem introduced me to this Tyler guy.
“Hey Yoliswa. You look really familiar”, he shook my hand.
“I work here, I served you lunch. It’s amazing how you noticed that I look familiar since you
didn’t even bother to look me in my eyes”, I said.
“You came here to look people in the eyes or take orders? Don’t be silly. Hakeem my brother,
great meeting you. See you around lady”, Tyler walked away. I was so angry.
“Did you hear what he said?” I furiously asked Hakeem.
“Calm down. You’ll get to know him, he’s a straight talker. And a really cool guy”, Hakeem tried
calming me down.
“He’s rude. I don’t like him”, I expressed angrily.
“You look kinda hot when you angry, you know that?” Hakeem looked into my eyes. I looked
away, it was really awkward. “You have the most beautiful innocent eyes I’ve ever seen”, he
whispered.
“Thanks”, I said.
We had our late lunch at Jump Cafe, the food is just delicious. Hakeem dropped me off at my
apartment. Sihle, Puleng and Vanessa were watching a movie.
“Come join us”, said Sihle.
“I…”, I was speechless.
“Come on, are you going to nap the whole day?” Vanessa said. I went to sit next to Sihle.
“We’re going out tonight, if you want you can tag along”, said Vanessa.
“Eating out?” I asked.
“No, clubbing”, said Vanessa. I didn’t have money, I was really broke.
“I’m broke”, I said.
“Aren’t we all? Come on Yoli”, Vanessa begged me.
“My friend we’re all broke but Vanessa will work her V magic”, said Sihle.
“V magic? Wow. Okay”, I said.
“All black everything is the dress code for tonight”, said Vanessa.
After that drama exit by Vanessa in the restaurant Hakeem hired, I grew a little dislike for
Vanessa. She might or might not have picked it up but she’s a smart girl, she might have picked
it up. I’m hoping clubbing together will bring our friendship back to normal. Puleng is another
story, I just feel sorry for that girl. She’s such a follower, Hakeem was right. She likes to please
people, Vanessa to be precise. I’m just curious to witness this V magic, I hope the V doesn’t
stand for vagina. I don’t want her to sleep around for drinks, that’s trashy. She does have nice
clothing, I hope she doesn’t sleep around for money. That’s just a thought.
In the evening we got ready for what will be a perfect night out. I was the first to finish preparing
myself, I dug into my suitcase and I took out a notepad and a pen. I started writing…
“As I stood in front of that mirror. I took out my make-up set. When I opened it, I smelt the hard
work of manufacturers’ sweat that work hard in producing this masterpiece. A masterpiece
made so perfect that it paints all the misery and pain. I painted myself, I used every colour I
came in contact with so I could cover my guilt. I looked myself in the mirror, I look like I came
out of a magazine. If only you knew that the real me trapped in me was screaming, “Let me out!”
I don’t want to let you out, I want to chain you inside me. Use any lock I could get to chain you,
tie you on a very strong emotion called anger. Now let me be…”
When we got to the club, Vanessa went to talk to the bouncer. We stood for not more than ten
minutes before she signaled that we must enter the club. When we got in, the club was just
packed. We didn’t have money, Vanessa said by the end of the night we will be in the VIP area.
We sat down and watched the rest have fun. A man came to sit next to Vanessa. He gave us
each a 750ml can of Castle Lite Gold. He introduced himself as Philip. Vanessa opened the
cider, she spilled the cider intentionally on the table.
“Watch it!”, the man jumped up. “Let me help you with this”, he wiped the spilled cider.
“Oops. I’m not used to these cans. I usually buy spirits and all the expensive shit”, said
Vanessa.
“I thought you girls drank this, I’m sorry”, the man apologised. “I’ll be back”, he left.
Puleng and Sihle were praising Vanessa.
“How do you do this?” Sihle asked enthusiastically.
I’d take it, this might be that “V magic” they were talking about. The man came back with bottles
of vodka and wine. Our table was just full of alcohol. We had a conversation with Philip, he was
a cool guy. He called his friends to come to the club ASAP. When his friends got there, they
also bought more alcohol. They were three of them, namely Anga, Themba and Jabu. Philip
was seated next to Vanessa, Anga was seated next to Sihle, Themba next to Puleng and Jabu
next to me. The conversation flowed lightly. Hours later they took us to the VIP. It was really
boring at the VIP but we made it fun. Vanessa went to the bathroom and she signaled that we
all follow her.
When we were leaving, the guys wanted us to leave with them but we took their phone numbers
instead. We promised them that we will see them tomorrow blah…blah…blah. We were really
drunk, we took a cab home.
When we got to the apartment Puleng started vomiting, we helped her. We even tucked her to
bed. Sihle went to sleep on my bed, I tucked her nevertheless. I was stuck with Vanessa. We
just turned on the mp3 and started having our own after party. We were grinding on each other,
laughing like lunatics, apologising to each other over and over again, crying for no reason,
hugging each other and dancing like mad people.
A hard knock woke me up. I looked at the time, it was 8:15am, I jumped. I was late for work, I
quickly waked Vanessa. We were sleeping on the floor. I went to answer the door, it was
Hakeem.
“Good morning beautiful”, Hakeem gave me flowers.
“Nothing good about this morning”, I took the flowers.
“Were you drinking last night? You smell like a tavern”, said Hakeem.
We went to the lounge, he laughed at Vanessa who was still sleeping on the floor after I’ve
woken her up.
“Vanessa wake up, we’re late for work”, I woke Vanessa up.
“You girls are wasted”, Hakeem checked all the bedrooms.
“Hakeem you’re not helping”, I said.
Sihle said she’s not going to college and Puleng said she’s not going to work. I couldn’t dodge
work, it was my second day and it’s not even a great impression. Headache was killing me, I
had a terrible hangover. Me and Vanessa took a shower together. We took a quick 5mins
shower. We were running all over the place. My phone rang, I didn’t even see where it was.
Hakeem found my phone.
“Club guy is calling”, he gave me the phone. I took the phone and I went to lock myself in the
bathroom.
“Hey”, I whispered.
“Hi babe, why are you whispering?” Asked Jabu.
“Why don’t you call me later? Maybe in the afternoon?” I suggested.
“Okay”, he ended the phone call.
When I got out of the bathroom, I could see Hakeem’s facial expression changed. I went to kiss
him on the cheek, “Thanks for the flowers”, I smiled. I got ready for work, the time was 8:45am. I
asked Hakeem to take us to work.
He drove us to Jump Cafe. He told me that he has the whole day off and that he can fetch us
from work, I didn’t want to offend him, I agreed.
Vicky wasn’t happy that we were late, he was mad at me because I was new. He said I had two
more strikes left. Vanessa also got a strike, she had one strike left. Nosipho watched me and
Vanessa get a lecture from Vicky, I caught her shaking her head in disbelief. We went back to
work.
Oh my, Vicky is strict. She doesn’t waste time. I can’t believe Vanessa has only one strike left
before she’s fired. We get paid R50 per hour and we wasted an entire hour so we will work 4
hours, which is R200. By the end of the week I will get my weekly wages of R700 not the
original R750. I work three days a week, Mon. Tue. and Wed. and Vanessa also works three
days a week, Sat. Tue. and Wed.
I should focus.
#6: Confessions Of A Xhosa Girl 2
The restaurant was packed as usual. Nosipho spoke to me for the first time today.
“I see you and Queen V solved your issues”, she said.
“Nothing a glasses of vodka can’t fix”, I said.
“So you went clubbing last night? No wonder you guys were late”, said Nosipho.
“Please don’t tell Vicky”, I pleaded.
“I won’t do that”, she assured me. “Be careful of that one”, said Nosipho.
“Who? Vanessa?” I asked.
“Yeah”, she replied.
“How did you meet them?” I asked.
“I decided to move back to Jo’burg, find a job and I reunited with my friend Mbali. She met Sihle
at a student get together at some event, so Mbali introduced me to Sihle. Upon meeting Sihle,
she introduced me to her flat mates, Vanessa and Puleng. I never really liked Vanessa, I saw
her true colours more than many times to decide I should play very far from her”, said Nosipho.
“True colours?”
“She’s a jealous, manipulative and a fake person”
“So much exaggeration? Nosipho – ”
“I’m telling the truth Yoliswa. You will see for yourself”
“She can be really jealous and annoying but she’s a cool person”
“You mean fake?”
“Come on Nosipho – ”
“You’ll see for yourself. Don’t say I didn’t tell you, okay?”
“Arg”
I went back to doing my job. Minutes later Tyler entered the restaurant. He was carrying a
newspaper again. Vanessa whispered to me, “This guy is a gem”. I whispered to her, “I don’t
like him, he’s such an ass”. Vanessa went to take his order, I was happy I wasn’t the one taking
his order. I don’t understand how Vanessa is crushing on someone who doesn’t give a rat’s ass
about her. Let alone anyone. I watched Vanessa act like a teenager with a crush, it was really
unbearably annoying to watch. The restaurant was packed more than yesterday, it was a crowd
favourite. Vanessa ran to me, breathing heavily.
“Oh my word! Don’t look back”, she said ducking behind the counter.
“What’s wrong?” I asked.
“Come!” She dragged me down the counter.
“What’s going on?” I was so confused.
“Philip just entered the restaurant”, she whispered.
“Why are we hiding?” I asked.
“Because I don’t want him to see us”, she said.
“Is this part of your V magic? If it is, then it’s whack”, I said.
“I added his phone number to my reject list. Every time he called me, his call is automatically
rejected. I don’t want anything to do with that guy, all I wanted was his money and nothing else”,
she said.
“I didn’t know. Jabu called me this morning, I told him to call this afternoon”, I said.
“Silly, you’re not supposed to talk to him. You’re giving him more reason to chase you”, she
said.
Nosipho saw us hiding under the counter.
“Who do you think is going to serve these customers? Or should I call Vicky?” Nosipho was
being difficult.
“Or shut up”, said Vanessa.
“Don’t tell me to shut up you skinny bitch”, Nosipho surely didn’t like Vanessa that much.
“Please stop guys”, I tried stopping them before it escalated to something bigger. Vanessa said
she’s going to the toilet. When she was about to turn the corner, she signaled me. I excused
myself and I went to the toilet. Nosipho just looked at me and shook her head in disbelief.
We waited in the toilet for about 30 minutes. I was praying that Vicky didn’t notice that we were
not working. We got out of the toilet and Philip was gone. Hakeem entered the restaurant, I
smiled. I went over to him.
“You look really sexy in your uniform”, he complimented.
“Thank you”, I blushed.
“It’s packed in here”, he looked around.
“So what can I get you?” I asked.
“I want you for lunch”, he whispered.
“Yoliswa isn’t on the menu, I’m sorry”, I smiled.
“Really? Tough because I really wanted you”, Hakeem held my hand.
We flirted. I felt a tap on my shoulder, another waitress told me that Vicky wanted to see me
ASAP. I was so nervous, I went to Vicky. She was in her small office.
Hours later, my shift ended. Hakeem delivered on his promise, he was waiting for me in the
parking lot. Vanessa went to town, she didn’t ride with us.
“Hey gorgeous”, Hakeem opened the car door for me.
“Hey gentleman”, I got into the car.
“Let’s go to my place”, he said.
“I don’t know”, I said.
“Come on, I’m tired of hanging around your friends. But don’t tell them that”, he said.
I laughed, “Okay”, I said.
Hakeem was so excited. He drove to his house.
The last time I been to Hakeem’s place, it was crowded. He had a beautiful house.
“Make yourself comfortable”, said Hakeem. “You can make yourself anything to eat or drink.
Here’s the tv remote”, he added.
I made myself something to drink, Hakeem sat next to me. Shortly, my phone rang. It was on
the table, Hakeem looked at me.
“Aren’t you gonna answer that?” He asked. I remembered Jabu said he’s going to give me a call
in the afternoon.
“Uhm. Nope”, I said. The phone stopped ringing. I checked my phone and it was Jabu. He
called again, I rejected his phone call. There was awkward silence.
“Is it that club guy who called you this morning?” Asked Hakeem.
“He’s just a friend”, I replied.
“So it’s him?” He asked again.
“It doesn’t matter anyway”, I said.
“What’s his name?” He asked.
I didn’t respond. “Surely his name isn’t “club guy”. Huh?” Hakeem was just curious.
“Hakeem let’s drop it. I don’t owe you any explanations, you’re not my boyfriend”, I said.
“You do have a point there”, he said.
After that everything went South. It was just awkward silence.
A knock disturbed the awkward silence. Hakeem went to check who it was, I heard laughter.
The voice somewhat sounded familiar but it wasn’t Kwame. Hakeem appeared with the
Raymond guy.
“I didn’t know you had company mate”, he told Hakeem.
“Don’t worry, she’s a good friend of mine”, said Hakeem.
“I believe we’ve met before, right? You’re Yolanda?” Asked Raymond.
“No, I’m Yoliswa”, I corrected him.
“Oh yeah. How are you?” He took a seat.
“Good, and you?” I asked.
“I’m great, nice to meet you again”, he said.
Nosipho’s ex seemed really friendly but the way Nosipho made him look was totally different.
Hakeem and Raymond had a conversation, I was just there busy with my phone. My phone
rang again, it was Jabu. I went outside to answer the call.
He drove me to my apartment.
When I got to the apartment, the girls were watching a movie. I joined them. We spent the whole
day watching movies.
Days went by, Johannesburg treated me good. My friendship with Vanessa blossomed, I think it
got Puleng and Sihle very jealous. It was a Sunday night, we got ready to go out. In the past few
days, Hakeem became so distant towards me. Not that I really care, he’s not my boyfriend
anyway.
We took a cab to Club Diamond. We had money to spoil ourselves rotten. Me and Vanessa got
paid on Friday, it was all good in that department. When we got to the club, Vanessa told us that
her male friends from Pretoria will be joining us shortly.
Minutes later, Vanessa’s male friends joined us. She introduced them to us, they were Ishmael
and Tebogo. They danced and drank with us. Ishmael and Tebogo rented an apartment for the
weekend.
“You look beautiful”, Ishmael whispered in my ear. I whispered, “Thank you”.
Vanessa offered me a drink, “For my best friend in the whole wide world!” She screamed. She
was really drunk. She wrapped her arms around me and Ishmael and said, “I see you’re getting
to know each other. My friend this gentle brother has a good heart and he’s handsome, look at
him. But I want you to drink that drink and join me on the dance floor”.
After the drink, I got so turnt. I was hyperactive, I outshined everyone on the dance floor. I was
having a time of my life. When we were leaving the club, Vanessa asked me to accompany her
to see Ishmael and Tebogo’s apartment. I was so drunk, I could hear Sihle saying, “Vanessa
can’t you see she’s out? She needs to go home with us”. I left with Vanessa and her male
friends. We were singing in the car. My vision was blurry, I passed out and woke up in between.
I don’t remember getting to the apartment but I was laying on my back on the bed. Vanessa only
had her bra and panties on.
“Where’s your clothes?” I asked her. She laughed at me and said, “I’m wearing clothes”. I
thought maybe I was too drunk or perhaps hallucinating. She leaned forward and kissed me. I
pulled away, I looked directly into her eyes. I blacked out. When I opened my eyes, I was only in
my bra and underwear. Vanessa pulled me aggressively and we started kissing aggressively.
Everything was a blur after that.
My phone rang, I lazily tried reaching for my phone. My eyes were heavy, I had a terrible
headache. I looked at my phone screen, a private number was calling me. I answered the
phone call and it was Vicky. She was really mad, I checked the time and it was 11:15am. I was
very late for work, I was angry. I got out of bed, I was in my bedroom. I ran out of the bedroom,
no one but me was home. I didn’t shower, I just got dressed and left. I was mad at my friends for
not waking me up.
When I got to the restaurant, I saw Vanessa and her male friends having breakfast. I quickly
went to Vicky’s office, the door was open.
“I’m really, really sorry”, I apologised.
“I’m giving you your second strike”, she said.
“What? Please, I’m really sorry”, I begged her.
“This isn’t a joke. If you don’t wanna work here, the door is right there. If you come to work late
again, you’re fired. Go”, Vicky was furious. I got out of her office. I went straight to where
Vanessa was seated.
“Why didn’t you wake me up?” I asked furiously.
“Excuse me?” She seemed confused.
“We were partying all night together. You’re here, why didn’t you wake me up?” I asked.
“Sweetheart, I was at Ishmael and Tebogo’s apartment. Ask Sihle and Puleng why they didn’t
wake you up”, she said.
“How did I get to the apartment?” I asked.
“Our driver took you home”, she said.
I was so confused. I went back to work. Nosipho was irritating me, she was acting like my
mother. I had two strikes, I was so angry at myself. I only worked for two hours because I came
in late.
After work, I needed someone to talk to. I wanted to give Hakeem a call but I didn’t want to act
like I missed him because he hasn’t made contact with me for days. Metaphor came to mind, I
remembered the bookshop moved to another shop. On my way to the bookshop, I heard a car
hooter and someone screaming my name. I looked around, it was Raymond. He stopped his car
on the side of the road. I went to say hi.
“Where are you heading to?” He asked.
“A bookshop”, I responded.
“A bookshop, huh? So you like reading”, he said.
“Yeah”, I said.
“Let me drive you there”
“I don’t wanna waste your time”
“I insist”
“I don’t know Raymond”
“Come on, what do you have to lose?”
“You won’t take no for an answer”
“Nope”
“You will get bored. It’s just a bookshop”
“I like books too”
“Liar”
“Yeah I do”
“What was the recent book you read? Facebook?”
“Funny. I see you got jokes, I like. But nope, the recent book I read was Fifty Shades of Gray”
“Wow”
“Get in”
“Okay”
Raymond drove me to the bookshop. On the way, we spoke about books. He surprised me, he
was a really smart guy.
Hmm.
We got to the bookshop, Metaphor gave us a warm welcome. He then wanted to talk to me in
private.
“What’s up?” I asked.
“I’ve got good news for you. My friend managed to find your mom’s address”, he said. I hugged
him, I was so happy.
“That’s good to hear, thank you very much”, I was ecstatic. “Where’s the address?” I asked.
“You will have to meet with him”, he said.
“That can be arranged. When is he off?” I asked.
“Tuesdays and on the weekend”, he said.
“My shift ends at 1pm. We can arrange to meet somewhere”, I was so happy.
“I’ll tell him”, Metaphor smiled.
“Thanks again”, I hugged him. I was so relieved.
I went to join Raymond. We looked at a few books. He bought me two books, his fascination
with books was amusing. He offered to take me to home. So I couldn’t let him down after he
bought me books. He drove me home, when I got there Vanessa was listening to music.
“Where’s Puleng and Sihle?” I asked.
“Puleng is at work and Sihle is still at school”, she said.
“What happened last night?” I asked.
“We had a great time, we should do it more often”, she said unashamedly.
“I woke up in my bed, I was at your friends’ apartment. How did I end up here?” I asked.
“I told you that we called our driver for you. You can ask Puleng and Sihle”
“Vanessa, I had an incredible time last night but some things don’t end up. I remember you half
naked, kissing me. I was also half naked. What happened?”
“What?! I kissed you? When?”
“Last night, I wanted to ask you today. Didn’t we kiss?”
“No! I’ll take it as a compliment that you’re fantasizing about me”
“No, no, no – I’m not fantasizing about you, I never ever fantasized about you. I’m not crazy
either, I’m sure that happened”
“Why would I lie to you? Maybe you were hallucinating”
“Hallucinating? I don’t hallucinate when I’m drunk, my vision gets blurry but that’s it”
“Then what are you trying to say?”
“I’m trying to say that something happened between us and I want to clear things”
“Clear things then”
“Whatever happened, happened. Let’s not ever talk about it and hopefully that doesn’t happen
again”
“Nothing happened Yoliswa”
Puleng and Sihle finally got back. They told me how drunk I was last night. Hakeem came to the
apartment, he came to drop my mother’s photo. I didn’t even notice it was missing. I was in my
bedroom.
“She’s beautiful”, Hakeem looked at my mother’s photo. “Just like you. I’m sorry for not returning
it as soon as possible”, he said.
“Thanks”, I snatched the photo from his hands.
“Is she alive?” He asked.
“It’s none of your business Hakeem”, I said.
“You always keep me in the dark with most of the things happening in your life”, he said.
“Probably because I don’t owe you anything”, I said.
“You’ve changed”, he sat next to me.
“Change is good”
“Yeah but I like the Yoliswa I first met more”
“What are you trying to say?”
“That you’ve changed”
“You’ve also changed Hakeem”
“How?”
“You don’t call much often, you hardly visit and you’re cold”
“Cold?”
“Your eyes aren’t as warm as – ”
“Yoliswa, hold up. What are you saying? What are you saying Yoliswa?”
“I don’t have to repeat myself Hakeem”
“I’ve been nothing but good to you. But you showed me a side of you that I wasn’t willing to
accept”
“Oh?”
“Let’s face it, we were just friends. I might or might not have wanted more”
“We both know you wanted more”
“At some point”
“Hakeem come on man”
“Okay, yeah. But now you’re not that girl I used to kick it with”
“That’s why you’re keeping your distance?”
“I’m a busy man Yoliswa and I’m not your boyfriend, remember? Look, I don’t like keeping a
lady waiting, I have to get going”
“Lady?”
“Yeah, I just met a really cool girl. We’re not an item but we’re taking things slow”
“Wow, that’s good”
“Take care Yoli”
“You too Hakeem”
It was clear that Hakeem moved on. Not that it phased me or anything. As I was laying on my
bed, I remembered Metaphor doesn’t know where I live or my digits. I decided to take a long
walk to the bookshop. I was tired of always going to the bookshop to maintain contact with him,
he has been asking for my number or my address for a while now. When I got to the bookshop,
they were closing.
“Yoliswa, what are you doing here? Because we’re closing”, said Metaphor.
“I forgot to give you my phone number. I want you to give me a call when your friend approves
of us meeting”, I said.
“So you finally came to senses”, he said.
“Do you have a cellphone though?” I asked.
“Just because I live on the streets, doesn’t mean I’m technology unaware”, he laughed.
“Technology unaware? Whatever man, this is my number”, I entered my number on his phone.
“Thanks. I’m heading home right now, do you wanna accompany me?” He asked.
“Really? Of course not”, I said.
“I was just kidding”
“Oh. I would like to see where you stay though but I’m scared”
“Of what?”
“Street kids”
“They’re completely harmless”
“Okay”
“So you’re coming with me?”
“It’s not like I have anything to do but I’m really scared”
“I’m here, you don’t need to be scared”
“Wow, look at you”
Metaphor took me to his “home”. On the way, we walked pass a lot of street vendors. He took
me to a really dark staircase.
“I’m not getting in there”, I said.
“It’s not as dark as it looks inside”, he said.
I stood outside, he went down the staircase and shouted, “You can see me from there, I know.
It’s not as dark. Come on”. With caution, I walked down the stairs. The walls had a lot of graffiti.
It wasn’t that dark inside. The place was really neat, a pile of cardboards were neatly placed in
the corner.
“Make yourself comfortable”, smiled Metaphor. There were torn couches, a rusty two plate
stove, an old microwave and an old cupboard.
“You have a two plate stove, do you have electricity?” I asked.
He laughed, “No, Vixen just likes to collect random things. She’s hoarding this place but don’t
tell her that”, he said.
“Where’s everyone?”
“Out”
“Is Vixen your girl?”
“No, she’s just sharing this place with us until she gets a place to stay. She’s beautiful though. It
wasn’t easy for her to find a place in these streets because some guys want something in
return. I won’t lie, I’m training the guys I live with. When Vixen arrive, they wanted to smash her.
It’s typical male behaviour but they cooled down”
“How the heck do you do this? It’s like you’re helping everyone”
“I love helping others, I feel complete when I help others”
“That’s good to hear Tshepo”
“Tshepo?”
“That’s your real name Metaphor, isn’t it?”
“So you remembered?”
“Why wouldn’t I? Come on. So what will you do about your little brother?”
“I will find him when I have a proper roof over my head”
“I feel like I owe you”
“It’s nothing really”
“I’ll return the favour, you’re helping me find my mother, it’s only right that I do the same”
“If you say so”
Shortly after a girl arrived.
“This is Vixen, the girl I was talking about”, said Metaphor.
“Hey Vixen, I’m Yoliswa”, I shook her hand.
“Nice to meet you”, she smiled.
Vixen was a really beautiful girl, I don’t know how she ended up on the street. She was dressed
well.
“When did you start living here?” I asked.
“This weekend. I met Metaphor in the bookshop, I asked him if he knew a place I could stay for
a couple of days. I didn’t have money, he said I can live with him and a few friends. He was nice
but I didn’t take the offer right away. I went around looking for a place and oh my goodness,
guys out here are douchebags. I went back to the bookshop, and now I’m here”, said Vixen.
“Where are you from?” I asked her.
“Aliwal North”, she replied.
“I’m from East London”, I said.
As soon as we found out that we were from Eastern Cape, it was just craziness after that. It
was like we were old friends catching up. She told me that she ran away from home because
she wanted to follow her dreams of being a musician. She saved money to go to Johannesburg,
her story is very touching. Her mother passed away, she lived with her older sister and her
sister’s friends.
I later went back to my apartment. I was so tired. I wanted to have an early night but that can’t
happen with these girls around. Just when I wanted to nap, I heard familiar male voices. It was
Raymond and Kwame. Vanessa came to wake me up. I lazily got out of bed, I was wearing my
PJs.
“You’re in PJs? It’s so early”, said Kwame. They had two bottles of vodka.
“I have an early morning, I have a shift at 8”, I said. They all booed me.
“Really guys, I don’t want to be up all night drinking”, I said.
“Just one or two shots”, said Raymond.
“I can’t”, I went back to my bedroom. They booed me. Raymond went to my bedroom.
“Are you really going to sleep?” He asked.
“After I reach page 30, yeah”, I was reading my new book.
“Page 30? Wow, it’s like you’re a reading machine”, he said.
“Have you read your books?” I asked.
“Uh…not really, I was busy. Maybe tomorrow”, he said.
“Okay, please close the door when you leave”, I said.
“How’s your day looking tomorrow?”
“Why are you asking?”
“I’m just asking”
“It depends, I don’t know. I’m meeting someone if the person agrees to meet up”
“Who wouldn’t wanna agree to meet up with you”
“Oh well…”
“Have a good night Yoliswa”
“You too Raymond”
I was hoping Metaphor’s friend agreed to meet up with me. Vanessa also had a shift tomorrow.
I kept thinking about Vixen, maybe tomorrow I can sway the girls into letting her stay for just a
few days. The streets aren’t safe for such a beautiful girl.
The next morning, I found Sihle blacked out on the floor. Vanessa and Puleng were nowhere to
be found. I woke Sihle up.
“Sihle where’s Vanessa and Puleng?” I asked her.
She just shrugged her shoulders.
“What do you mean you don’t know? Weren’t you all drinking together last night?” I asked.
“What’s the time? I need to get ready for my lecture. They left with Kwame and the other guy, I
forgot his name”, she said. I tried calling Vanessa but I directly went to voicemail, Puleng too. I
just got ready for work, if she doesn’t go to work or comes extremely late, she’ll get fired. I tried
my best. I took a cab to work.
When I arrived at work, Vicky asked Vanessa’s whereabouts. Everyone was asking me as if I
knew where she was. I tried calling her again but it went straight to voicemail.
I went back to work. At midday, Vanessa entered the restaurant with Raymond and Kwame.
She was so chilled.
“Where were you?” I asked her. She just started laughing, tears rolled down her face.
“She was safe, don’t worry”, said Raymond.
Vicky called Vanessa to her office but she said she doesn’t want to go to her office because
she knew she was going to get fired. Vicky fired her in public, it was really humiliating but
Vanessa didn’t care. I could feel a cold stare from Nosipho. I went to speak to her.
“What’s up?” I asked.
“What is he doing here?” She asked.
“Raymond? I don’t know. This is a public restaurant, I’ll take a wild guess and say maybe he’s
here to eat”, I said.
Raymond came over, he put his arm around me and said, “I read the book”. I couldn’t believe
him, in front of Nosipho.
“I hope we go to the bookshop soon. I had a great time with you. Oh hi Nosipho”, he said.
“Hey”, Nosipho replied.
“You’re looking good”, he said.
“Thanks”, said Nosipho.
Raymond kissed my cheek and said, “See you soon”, and he left. I just froze, I didn’t know what
to do or say.
“So you guys are dating?” Asked Nosipho.
“I don’t know what just happened. I’m not dating him”, I said.
“You don’t need to explain anything to me”, she walked away.
“But I’m not dating your ex. I don’t know what just happened Nosipho”, I tried justifying myself
but Nosipho didn’t hear me out.
After work Metaphor sent me a text saying his friend wants to meet me where I work, Jump
Cafe. I was happy about this, so I decided to wait for him. Mind you, I don’t even know how this
person looks like, how stupid of me not to ask. I studied every guy’s face who entered the
restaurant. Some guy looked around, our eyes met. We stared at each other, he smiled and
came over to the table I was seated.
“You must be Yoliswa”, he said.
“Yes I am”, I smiled.
“I’m Jeffrey, Tshepo’s friend. He told me a lot about you but he forgot to mention how stunning
you are”, he said.
I blushed, “Thank you”, I was smiling. He took off his jacket, hang it on the chair and he took a
seat.
“So what did you find?” I asked enthusiastically.
“A lot”, he replied.
“Care to share?” I asked.
“I think I know where your mother lives”, he said. I was so delighted to hear that.
“Can you give me the address?”
“I can show you. I heard you’re new to the city”
“That would be lovely. But you’ve done so much for me, it’s too much now”
“I insist, really. I love helping people”
“Metaphor, I mean Tshepo said the same. I can clearly see why you guys are friends”
“Yeah, I love helping people. Can we go now?”
“Already?”
“We can chill for a bit if you want”
“No, no – we can go. I’m so nervous. Where does she live?”
“In Hillbrow”
“Okay, let’s get going then”
Finally I was going to meet my mother after many years. What am I going to say to her? “Hi
mom” or “You still remember me?” or perhaps just tell her that everyone misses her back home.
What if my mother is different now? What if the bad side of the city made her a product of the
sinful brand? My mind was racing, my heart was beating faster and faster and faster. The car
entered the Hillbrow streets, the atmosphere this place produced was heavy. When I got out of
the car, it was dusty. I coughed, dust covered my eyes. A building, an old building stood before
me. It had long staircases, I looked at it. My laziness was catching up with me, but I had to go
up for the sake of my mother.
“This is the place”, said Jeffrey. He led the way, I followed him. We climbed and climbed and
climbed, I was so tired. We finally made it to the top, he took out keys and opened the flat.
“I need to quickly refresh before heading to your mom’s flat”, he said.
“You live here?” I asked.
“Yes, I’m really thirsty. Come in, don’t you want something to drink? I can imagine how thirsty
you might be, those stairs don’t play”, he said.
“I can use a glass of water”, I walked in. His flat was small, his room divider was full of
photographs. He poured me water.
“Here”, he handed me the glass of water. I drank like a mad man, he looked at me and let out a
voiceless chuckle. He went to his bedroom, he was there for a while.
“Jeffrey, we can go now”, I said. He shouted, “I’ll be right there”. My phone rang, it was my
grandmother.
Hearing my grandmother’s voice was motivation to really find my mother. Jeffrey was taking his
time.
“Jeffrey, what’s taking you so long?” I was getting agitated now. He came out of his bedroom
with a half full glass of red substance.
“Do you want?” He gave me this glass.
“What’s this?” I asked.
“Wine”, he replied. I nodded in disagreement. He drank the wine in one go, he stumbled to his
mp3 player. He switched his mp3 player on. He increased the volume. I didn’t even hear myself
think. He locked the door, I sat on the edge of my seat. My heart was beating fast, what is he
trying to do? He pulled me towards him, whispered in my ear, “Let’s dance”.
“I don’t want to dance, I want to leave”, I said.
“Come on, can’t you dance? Come one please Yoliswa girl”, he grabbed my butt. I slapped him,
I fueled him. He turned into an animal, his eyes were red. I ran to the door but it was locked, he
took out the keys and playfully waved them.
“Why are you doing this?” I was crying. He pulled my hair and he licked my cheek. I could smell
his breathe, he was drunk. I could smell the filthy cheap alcohol. “I promise I won’t hurt you if
you give me what I want”, he said.
“Please, don’t do what you’re going to do”, I cried. He slid his hand down my pants, I couldn’t
cry anymore. I gave up, I silently prayed to the Lord. May you take the wheel baby Jesus, I
silently prayed. He dragged me to his bedroom, he was powerful, my strength was no match for
him. He threw me on the bed, I prayed for strength. Dear Lord, please give me strength. I
punched him, he fell to the ground. I quickly ran to the door but it was locked, I screamed but
nobody could hear me with all this blasting music. I was so shaken, my mind wasn’t working
properly, I couldn’t turn off the volume of the mp3. I looked back, he dragged me. He wrestled
with me until he couldn’t wrestle anymore. He looked at me and I could see his eyes widening,
he looked next to me. It was like he saw a ghost, he cried. He unlocked the door and ran out. I
looked around, what did he see? I ran as fast as I could. I wasn’t familiar with the area, I didn’t
have enough money to take a cab. I stopped a car, a woman was driving it. I asked she give me
a lift, she saw I was shaking, she helped me out. I lied to her and said someone mugged me.
She dropped me off a street near the bookshop. I ran to where Metaphor works.
“Hey, how was the meeting?” Asked Metaphor. I gave him a hard, hot slap. Luckily no
customers were in the shop.
“What was that for?” He asked.
“Your friend is nothing but a fraud. He fooled me into thinking he was a good guy and that he
wanted to help me”, I was crying.
“What happened?” Asked Metaphor.
“He tried to rape me. He said he was going to show me where my mom lived. He took me to his
flat for “refreshments” before taking me to my mom. He planned everything. I blame you”
“Yoliswa calm down”
“How can you tell me to calm down? Another man tried to take advantage of me. Are you guys
a tag team or something? Do you fool girls, tell them you want to help them? It’s really pathetic”
“I’m sorry for what happened but I wasn’t aware”
“Aware or what? Aware that your friend was going to do that today? Was it scheduled for
another day? What?”
“Look, I’m sorry! I hate what he did to you, he’s not my friend anymore. I didn’t know he’s
capable of doing something like that. What do you want to do now?”
“I don’t want to ever see that dog again”
“Good”
“And you too”
“What?”
“I don’t want anything to do with you”
“What did I do?”
“You know what? Go to hell”
“Yoliswa!”
“Go fuck yourself!”
I left angrily. When I got to the apartment, Sihle was watching tv. I just ran straight to my room.
Sihle went to check up on me.
“Are you okay?” She asked.
“I just want to sleep”, I closed my eyes.
“Okay”, she closed the door.
After she closed the door, I quickly reached for my notepad and pen and I started writing: “My
heart is bleeding. I can feel every inch of myself leaving me. He took advantage of my hunger.
He promised me food that will end the starvation I was in for many years. He had me fooled, my
eyes were blurred with hope for the future, damn I was looking forward to the future. How can a
normal person do that to another person? He’s nothing but a low life chancer. Will he be able to
look himself in the mirror? To look the shame he has brought upon himself, will he? What if I
was one of his many victims? I didn’t see it coming and it wasn’t my fault. God will deal with him,
I’m thankful I’m alive that’s all”.
After writing on my notepad, I let out a silent but yet powerful cry. My heart was tearing apart. It
was like I was showered with knives. I was consoled by my realisation that I was alone and so
lonely. I decided to take a nap, I had no other choice.
I dreamt about what happened earlier, I felt someone shaking me, I jumped with fright.
After having that talk with Sihle, I got my confidence back. I got out of bed and I got ice blocks
for my swollen eyes. But Sihle thought it was just a bad idea to put ice on my eyes, “Are you
crazy? Your eyes will go back to normal, just give them a few minutes”, she said. The time was
around 6pm, it was still early. I disclosed everything with Puleng too, she was so shocked, she
got emotional. I didn’t want them to feel sorry for me. So we spent the evening getting ready. My
eyes went back to normal. We took a cab to the club.
Drinks were pouring in, I was having a time of my life. Vanessa was sitting next to me, were
kept having shot after shot. I felt a hand under the table touch my thigh, I jumped. It was
Raymond.
“Don’t do that! May that be the last time you do that to me!” I shouted.
“I’m sorry, it was a mistake”, he apologised. “I was moving my hand, I’m sorry that I touched
your thigh”, he said.
I overreacted. He didn’t grab my thigh, it was just an innocent moving of the hand. I guess the
incident really messed me up.
“I’m sorry too”, I apologised. I also needed to be the bigger person and apologise for
embarrassing him in front of his friends. While we were enjoying ourselves, the guy that bought
us drinks the other night came in with his friends. He saw us, he came to the table.
“Don’t let these girls fool you, they’re money hungry bitches who use men to get alcohol”, said
Jabu. He was that angry guy who swore me on the phone.
“They’re our friends, who are you guys?” Asked Hakeem.
“We bought these bitches alcohol a while back. They promised to see us again the next
morning”, said Jabu.
“Stop being bitter assholes”, said Hakeem.
“What did you just call us?” Asked Philip. He was the guy whose calls were rejected by
Vanessa.
“I’m the manager of this club, I can throw you out and even worse suspend you guys from ever
entering this club. I have contacts with local club owners, I can even tell them not to let you in”,
said Rashidi.
“We didn’t come here to cause a fight, we just wanted to say hi to these bitches”, said Jabu.
They walked away.
“You girls should stay away from these guys”, said Raymond.
As dampening as that was, we managed to go back to our happy zone.
Vanessa whispered that we go upstairs. We left everyone, the club was huge. She led the way,
she used a card to open a room upstairs. We got in, it was a beautiful little room.
“This is beautiful”, I looked around.
“I want to show you something”, she said. I was curious. She got on the bed and reached for a
shoe box on top of the shelf.
“I found this”, she opened the shoe box.
“Wow! Wow! Wow!” I couldn’t believe my eyes. There was cash and a 9×99 mm pistol. “Where
did you find this?” I asked.
“Somewhere. I wanted to show you because I trust you a lot. I don’t know how I can take this
home without anyone noticing. Do you have any advice?” She asked.
“Uhm. You can put it in a bag but you can leave the pistol, just take the money only”, I said.
“You’re right, I wonder how I didn’t think of that. I guess you’re going to get your percentage”
“Percentage? No, I don’t deserve it”
“You helped me out. I will give you maybe 10%”
“No, it’s your money, you found it”
“Okay, how much do you think it is?”
“Didn’t you count the money?”
“No, I found it a few hours ago. I was too busy”
“It looks like it’s a lot of money”
“Yeah, maybe God gave me this money for a reason”
“Charity?”
“No silly. I could use some shopping, the restaurant paid me peanuts. Don’t you wanna work
here?”
“I don’t like the idea of working at a club. Hakeem tried enforcing that idea on me but it didn’t
work”
“This place pays like crazy. It’s your loss Yoliswa”
Vanessa took the money and we left the room. We went to join the others, they were dancing
except for Hakeem and Raymond. Vanessa went to dance, I was left with Hakeem and
Raymond.
“Excuse me guys”, Raymond stood up and left. It was awkward silence. I didn’t know what to
say, he broke the silence.
“Where did you and Vanessa disappear to?” He asked.
“She was just showing me around”, I lied.
“Okay”, he nodded.
“So how’s your girlfriend?” I asked.
“She’s not my girlfriend yet Yoliswa”
“Okay, your female friend who’s going to be your girlfriend soon”
“I’m still getting to know her”
“Okay. How’s life?”
“Good, yours?”
“I won’t exactly say it’s good but I’m getting there”
“What’s wrong?”
“I don’t want to talk about it”
“I respect that. Have you found someone special?”
“Hakeem I told you I got out of a relationship – ”
“I understand. Do you still love him?”
“No”
“Did he hurt you?”
“You ask too many questions, Hakeem”
“I’m just curious”
“We’re in a club, I want to have fun not discuss my ex. That’s depressing”
“If you say so”
I spent the evening dancing my youth away. At around 1am, the girls wanted to leave but
Vanessa wasn’t in sight. We spread and started looking for her. I looked for her in another room,
no one was there. I stumbled through empty boxes and I got out via the back door. I called her,
but there was no reply. I saw Jabu, he zipped his pants. It looks like he was peeing, he was
smoking a cigarette.
“You bitch, where are your friends now?” He walked towards me.
“Leave me alone”, I said.
“I saw you smiling when your friends were talking shit to us”, he pulled my hair. I kicked him in
his private area.
“You bitch!” He fell to the ground.
“I said leave me alone”, I ran. When I got into the club, the girls were now looking for me. They
found Vanessa. Raymond drove us to our apartment.
We had an incredible night out.
We got to the apartment, the time was around 3am. Sihle and Puleng went to sleep. Vanessa
showed me the money she stacked on her purse.
“Let’s count it”, she whispered. We counted the money.
“R4770…R4780…R4790…R5000. Wow, it’s R5000”, said Vanessa. It was a lot of money. “Are
you sure you don’t want at least 10% of the money?” She asked again. I didn’t want her money
because I didn’t know where it came from.
“No, I’m fine”, I said.
“Are you going to work tomorrow?” She asked. How could she even ask me that question?
“Of course”, I responded. “I have to sleep, I don’t want to be late for work”, I said.
“Okay, good night”, Vanessa put the money back in her purse.
“Good night”, I went to sleep. My eyes were really heavy, I needed to sleep.
The next morning, I got ready for work. Sihle was applying make-up in the bedroom.
“Do you think it’s a good idea for me to invite Vixen to live with us today?” I asked her. Sihle
nodded her head and replied, “What you doing is great, but you only met this girl once. How do
you know she’s not trouble?”
“You girls also welcomed me into your apartment the very same day I met you guys. You
trusted me, just like I trust Vixen. She won’t screw me over”, I said.
“If you say so”, she shrugged.
“Will you accompany me there”
“Where?”
“Where she’s currently living”
“Yoliswa you can’t be serious”
“Please Sihle”
“I’m scared”
“It’s not a dangerous place. Okay, we won’t get in, we’ll just stand outside and wait for her or
call her”
“Did you tell Vanessa and Puleng?”
“Where are they now?”
“Come on Yoliswa. So you didn’t tell them? I thought you promised to – ”
“I didn’t get the right chance. We were drinking and dancing the whole evening”
“I don’t know Yoliswa”
“Please Sihle, I’m begging you”
“Uhm – ”
“Please Sihle”
“Eish, I don’t know. I – ”
“I will return the favour. Please”
“Yoliswa – ”
“Do you want me to go down on my knees? Because I can”
“You don’t have to do it. Okay, okay, okay. Just promise we will stand outside, not go in and
stuff”
“I promise. Thank you very much Sihle”
“You will call me, okay? We can meet at the place you work in, maybe have lunch first”
“That sounds great”
“Okay. Let me love and leave you. I don’t wanna be late for my lecture”
“Okay, see you later”
“Later!”
I took a taxi to work. Luckily, I wasn’t late. I didn’t have a good night’s sleep, I slept late and
woke up early. We had thirty minutes until the opening of the restaurant. Vicky was wiping the
counter, I went to apologise and ask her about my mother.
“Good morning”, I greeted.
“Good morning”, she carried on wiping the counter.
“I’m sorry for breaking the rules and I’d like to apologise on behalf of Vanessa too”, I said.
“I forgave you long time ago but you don’t have to apologise for her. It was only a matter of time
before she left this place. She’s used to doing this”, she said.
“I’m also sorry for the way I reacted when you told me about my mother. I’m truly grateful for the
information, I’ll look for her”
“It’s satisfying to hear that”
“Thank you”
“You’re welcome. As long as you stick to the rules”
“I will, I’ve learnt my lesson”
“Good”
It was nice having a chat with Vicky, it was much needed. I had to fix my relationship with
Nosipho, as much as she says it’s okay I know it’s not okay. She just spoke on the phone, she
was glowing after that phone call.
“Hey Nos”, I smiled.
“Yoliswa, hey”, she said.
“How are you?” I asked.
“I’m good and you”
“I’m great. It’s good to see you glowing”
“Glowing? Stop being silly”
“Was that your boyfriend?”
“Boyfriend? No, that was my cousin brother”
“Who are you fooling?”
“It’s been a while since we spoke and he’s really funny”
“Oh, is it him?”
“Who?”
“The one you were dating? The girls told me”
“Yeah, I don’t want to talk about my relationship with Thando”
“I respect that. I just wanted to clear things between us – ”
“If you’re talking about that Raymond thing, don’t waste your time. Believe me when I say, I’m
over him. I know he did that to make me jealous, he was just being a big toddler. I don’t give a
damn about him. What books were you two talking about?”
“We share a passion for books – ”
“Wait, what? Raymond hates books. He doesn’t like reading”
“Really? He even bought me books. No wonder he didn’t start reading his books”
“He’s lying to you. He wants to get close to you, I think he likes you”
“Likes me?”
“Duh! Can’t you see?”
“He can’t like me because Hakeem likes me. Well, although he’s getting to know another girl, I
know he likes me”
“Do you like him?”
“He’s a good guy”
“Huh-ah, let’s try again. Do you like him?”
“Kinda”
“I’ll take that as a yes”
“I have this silly crush on him”
“Does he know?”
“I’m not crazy!”
“Yoliswa, you should let him know before he gets into a relationship with this girl”
“I’m not ready for a relationship”
“Maybe you are but you’re afraid”
“Maybe”
“Hakeem is a sweetheart, Raymond is a bad boy”
“Last night Hakeem, Raymond and Rashidi were pricking fun at Kwame, it was really funny.
Kwame was pissed”
“No, poor Kwame”
“I wish you were there”
“It sounds like lots of fun but I don’t want to be around Vanessa. She makes me sick! The way
she embarrassed herself in the restaurant just the other day. She likes attention”
“I hope you get to know her even better, she’s cool”
“Cool? Vanessa? Wow, not at all. Whatever, let’s not talk about that girl. She makes me sick”
The restaurant finally opened, customers came in bit by bit. In no time, the restaurant was
packed as usual. That Tyler guy entered the restaurant with his infamous briefcase and
newspaper. He sat down, I went to take his order. This time, he wanted a vegetable salad and
soda water. I was surprised.
“Care to explain the sudden change in your facial expression?” He asked me.
“I thought you were going to order your favourite meal”, I said.
“Who said Ground Round Steak with salad, potatoes and a diet Coke was my favourite?” He
asked.
“I guessed since you always – ”
“That’s the problem, you ‘guessed’. Yolanda, Yo something, whatever you name is, how long
have you worked here?”
“I’m Yoliswa not Yolanda or Yo something. I’ve been working here for a while”
“That doesn’t sound like a long time to me. Look, please get me my food, I’m hungry”
“Why are you so rude?!”
“Excuse me?”
“You come in here, with your fancy suit, briefcase and newspaper – ”
“Some of us have real jobs here”
“Wow, so what am I doing?”
“You’re backchatting, or is that what you do around here?”
“I’m tired of your shade. I wish you could shut that hole so bullshit doesn’t fall out”
“Do you want me to get up, go to the kitchen and get my food?”
“You need to get a bag over that personality. I’ll get your food”
I was angry at this rude Tyler guy. He was rude, I disliked him. He dampened my mood. I went
to get his food, I placed it on the table. I didn’t even say a word. He didn’t even say thank you.
What an asshole!
Hours went by, my shift ended. I gave Sihle a call, she said she was on her way. I really hoped
we could find Vixen.
She finally arrived.
“Hey girlfriend”, she took a seat. “Is this place always packed?” She asked.
“Yes”, I replied.
“I’m starving, can we take an order now?” She asked.
“Of course”, I replied.
We ordered something to eat.
“Last night you and Vanessa disappeared, where were you?” She asked.
“Uhm, we…we…we just went to the bathroom, to refresh”, I said.
“Oh, okay. So how was seeing Hakeem again?”
“Sihle!”
“What? Come on, there’s chemistry between you guys, there’s no denying”
“First Nosipho, now you”
“What? Was it good seeing him again?”
“It was good, yeah. He’s getting to know some girl, so…”
“So what? So you’re gonna let him go just like that?”
“Arg!”
“He likes you and you like him. There’s no need for us to do the maths here”
“I can’t be with him”
“Why?”
“Because I don’t want to be in a relationship. I told him that too and look where his heart is at
now”
“You pushed him away”
“No I didn’t. It got to a point where we stopped communicating. I don’t know what went wrong,
he says I’m not the girl he first me. Did I change?”
“I wouldn’t say you’ve changed because when you first came to Jozi, I didn’t know you. To me,
you haven’t changed. Maybe he didn’t think you were a party animal”
“Is there something wrong with being a party animal because he parties too?”
“Maybe that’s the problem. I don’t know, you should give him a call maybe”
“I will, when I get the chance”
After we were done with lunch, we walked to where Metaphor lived. Sihle was really scared but I
loved the fact that she accompanied me. She’s such a great friend.
I hope we find Vixen.
We got to where Vixen temporary lived. We didn’t get in, we shouted her name.
“It’s so dark”, said Sihle.
“When you get in, it’s not that dark at all”, I said.
“Do you think she’s not here?” Asked Sihle.
“I don’t know. Maybe”, I said.
We waited for a short while before she finally showed up with shopping bags.
“Hey Yoliswa, if you’re looking for Metaphor he’s at work”, she said.
“We’re here for you. Vixen, this is my friend Sihle, we share an apartment with other girls. We
would love you to come stay with us”, I said. She was really surprised.
“Wow. Really?” She asked.
“The streets aren’t safe”, said Sihle.
“Thank you guys but I don’t have enough money to rent”, she said.
“No, you can stay with us until there’s something going for you”, I said.
“I was at the mall, how long were you guys here?” She asked.
“For a while”, I said. She went inside. Sihle looked at me and whispered, “Where did she get the
money to shop at such an expensive shop?” I didn’t reply to what she said, I just smiled meekly.
I got in, just to help Vixen pack her clothes. Sihle followed. We helped her pack her clothes.
“I need to tell Metaphor that I’m moving out. You guys don’t mind passing by the book shop?”
She asked.
Sihle looked at me, she knew I wasn’t ready to face Metaphor.
“Is there a problem with that? I can go there by myself, you can wait for me here”, she said. I
quickly responded, “We’ll go with you”. Sihle looked at me wide eyed. “Are you sure Yoliswa?”
She asked.
“Yes”, I replied. Vixen smiled at me. The truth is I wasn’t ready to meet Metaphor again. He’s
nothing but a chancer and a manipulator, I’m helping Vixen by moving out. Maybe he arranged
someone to fool Vixen too, who knows? After we were done with the packing, we walked to the
bookshop. Sihle and Vixen spoke, I was too lost in my own thoughts to even participate in the
conversation.
We finally arrived at the book shop. Vixen told Metaphor that she’s moving out and will be living
with us. Metaphor was happy to hear that. He wanted us to speak but I had nothing to say to
him.
“Please give me a few minutes”, he whispered. He begged me, I finally gave in. Sihle and Vixen
left, I told them I will meet them at the apartment.
“Thanks for giving me a chance to finally talk to you”, he said.
“Get straight to the point, I don’t have time for this”, I said.
“Look, I’ve been trying to get ahold of Jeffrey – ”
“Don’t even mention his name!”
“I’m sorry, I feel like this is all my fault. I shouldn’t have introduced him to you”
“Yes, this all your fault. Can I go now?”
“Don’t be like that, please. I’m really sorry – ”
“I don’t want anything to do with you”
“Yoliswa, I said I’m sorry! Damn it! What’s wrong with you?”
“Go to hell with your attitude!”
“Okay, I’m sorry for overreacting but I’m tired of apologising over and over again for something I
had absolute no knowledge about”
“You had no knowledge about what his intentions were? Ha!”
“What does that supposed to mean? What Yoliswa?”
“I don’t trust you Tshepo, you played me. I give you a fucking compliment for fooling me!”
“So now you’re going to hate me because of this?”
“I don’t trust you!”
“Let’s go to the police right now so you can report Jeffrey. I’m tired of this!”
“I don’t want!”
“What do you want then?”
“I want you to leave me alone. That would make my life complete”
“Your life won’t be complete, you’re so unhappy!”
“You don’t know me to be making such conclusions!”
“I may not know you that well but your unhappiness doesn’t go unnoticed. If you carry on living
your life like this, you will end up being an angry, bitter person”
“Stop acting like you know everything, you’re not as clever as you act. My advice to you is to go
home, stop living on the streets and go get your brother!”
“Don’t talk about my brother!”
“I just did”
“Get out Yoliswa, I’ve been nothing but kind to you. I never wanted anything from you! Nothing!
I don’t think you’re going to find your mother anytime soon because you have trust issues. Work
on yourself and not others”
“I’ll pray for you Tshepo”
“Don’t pray for me Yoliswa, pray for yourself!”
I walked to the apartment, I was really angry. When I got to the apartment, Sihle was showing
Vixen around.
“You’ll share a bed with me”, I told Vixen. I got a phone call from Vanessa, she wanted us to
meet at the club. I quickly made my way to the club.
When I got to the club, Vanessa was seating on the sofa, I went to her.
“What seems to be the problem?” I asked her.
“I need your help”, she said nervously.
“I’m listening”, I said.
“Yoliswa, I need you to keep something for me. Keep it in a safe place, no one should see it”,
she said.
“What is that you’re talking about?”
“Yoliswa, I have this box – ”
“No, no, no – no!”
“At least hear me out for a minute, please”
“I don’t want to keep some box I don’t even know what’s inside. That sounds very criminal-like,
I’m sorry Vee but I can’t help you”
“I trust you, I really do. That’s why I’m open with you. I just want you to keep the box for only
two days. That’s all, two days, please”
“What’s inside the box?”
“Money”
“Where did you get that money from?”
“Rashidi”
“Where did he get that money from?”
“I don’t know, he asked me to keep it safe for him but I’m always busy – ”
“And I’m not?”
“You only work a few hours, a few days a week. I work every single day. Please”
“I would like to help you but I can’t, I’m really sorry”
“You don’t need to be sorry Yoliswa, it’s okay”
“Uhm…I need to tell you something”
“What’s that?”
“We have a new roommate. She used to live on the street, she – ”
“What?! Why am I only knowing about this now?”
“I was meaning to tell you. Really, I…it just slipped my mind. Sihle accompanied me to where
this girl lived. I think you’re familiar with Metaphor, are you not?”
“That bastard, yes!”
“Her name is Vixen, the streets aren’t good for a beautiful girl like her. She’ll move out when
she’s financially stable”
“I hope that’s soon”
“I don’t know about that”
“Oh well, what can I say? She’s already at the apartment”
“Yeah. Uhm…if that was all?”
“Yes, thanks for your time my friend. See you tonight. Do bring that new girl, I want to meet her”
“Alright, see you later”
I left the club. I took a cab to the apartment. When I got to the apartment, the girls were having a
conversation. Puleng seems to gel well with the new girl. I went straight to my bedroom, I took
out my notepad and started writing:
“I wish I was immune to being hurt. I feel like my soul has been crushed into tiny pieces. My
hopes were thrown back at me like sharp spears. Piercing me bit by bit. I cried till I could not cry
no more, my voice was stolen by a filthy man. I need my voice back, it seems like the only voice
I have left is the one only heard when reading words written by a distorted girl that is me. I wish I
live in a fictional world, a fairytale to be quite exact. Fairytales have good endings, I need that in
my life”.
Later in the evening, we got ready to hit the club. Vixen and myself were sharing a mirror, I
asked her where she got the money for the clothes she bought earlier. It was totally
inappropriate but I was curious.
“My boyfriend bought me these clothes”, she replied.
“Where does your boyfriend live?” I asked.
“Why are you so curious?” She asked.
“I’m sorry, I’m just a curious being”, I laughed.
“He lives in Sandton”, she said.
“Okay. Are you ready for tonight?”
“Yeah, it’s been a while since I went out”
“It’s going to be a great night, trust me. Club Diamond is a great club, you’ll meet Vanessa
there. She’s a club promoter, we used to work at the same restaurant”
“I’ve heard some interesting things about her, I can’t wait to finally meet her”
“She’s a cool person”
“That’s what I’ve gathered”
We all got ready and took a cab to Club Diamond. I was excited for Vixen to finally meet
Vanessa. When we got to the club, it was packed. Vanessa was seated at a table with Rashidi,
Hakeem, Kwame and Raymond. We went to join them, Hakeem kissed Vixen and hugged her. I
later learned that this is Vixen’s ‘boyfriend’. I was so shocked. I just wanted to get really drunk.
We were having a great time, Vanessa signalled that we go upstairs. We went to that room
again.
“Let me show you this box I’m talking about”, she reached for the box.
“It’s really not necessary”, I said. She opened the box, it was full of money.
“See? It’s a lot of cash”, she said.
“Where did Rashidi get this amount of money?”
“This is a really successful business”
“Why didn’t he just deposit the money to his bank?”
“I asked him the same thing, you know these foreigners like to flash, they flex a lot”
“But still, it doesn’t make sense”
“I’ll keep this box in my bedroom”
“That sounds like a good idea”
“I hope that bitch Puleng doesn’t get sneaky with me”
“Of course she won’t, don’t you trust your best friend?”
“I do but these days, I don’t know”
“I don’t think she’s that type of person”
We got out of the room and we went to join the rest. Hakeem and Vixen were so in love, they
were really touchy. Vanessa looked at me and winked.
The guys bought us alcohol. The trouble gang weren’t bothering us. On my way to the
bathroom, I saw a tall black man coming towards me. He had a neatly trimmed beard.
“Hey sexy”, he said.
“Hey”, I said.
“Go to the bathroom, I’ll wait for you here”, he said confidently. I took his offer, I went to the
bathroom, when I came back he was seated in the corner. I went there, he was sitting alone.
“Tell me, is your name beautiful?” He asked. I giggled, “Was that a pick up line?” I asked.
“Can I have your number? Because I’m writing a telephone book, now that’s a pick up line”, he
said.
“Hmm. Okay”, I smiled. I could see Hakeem from across the room looking at me.
“Wipe that smile off your face, I don’t want your boyfriend to injure me”
“Boyfriend?”
“Don’t you have one of those?”
“Nah”
“I’m your boyfriend then”
“So fast?”
“Yes. You still haven’t told me your name”
“I’m Yoliswa”
“I’m Thando”
“Nice to meet you Thando”
“Nice to meet you too sexy, I mean Yoliswa”
“You’re such a flirt”
“I’ve been told. I should come here much often just to bump into beauties like yourself”
“Are you from around?”
“This used to be my club. It was a strip club, I sold it to my mate, Martin. I have to say, he
turned it into a beautiful place. Not that it wasn’t beautiful in my days but I’m happy with the
change”
“Do you live in Jo’burg?”
“I moved to Pretoria. I live there now”
“Wait, so you’re this King Pin guy?”
“Yes, but I would like you to call me Thando, please”
“Does Nosipho know you’re in town?”
“I gave her a call just after I landed a few hours ago. Hey! You know Nosipho?”
“Yes, she’s my friend”
“I want to be your friend as well. Cuz didn’t tell me she had such hot friends. Now I want to
meet all her friends”
“This is really awkward”
“What?”
“I attract every guy that has had something going on with Nosipho in the past. This is awkward”
“It’s not awkward at all. Are you here with friends or what?”
“Yes, they’re seated right there”
“Those losers?”
“Don’t call them losers”
“I don’t like Raymond, he doesn’t like me as well. We just tolerate each other”
“He’s a cool guy”
“Look, I would like us to meet tomorrow, how’s that?”
“I don’t know”
“Please, I want to see you again. I have to leave right now, I’m so tired. I haven’t slept for 20
hours. I want us to continue our conversation tomorrow over a cup of coffee or tea, whatever
suits you”
“Uhm – ”
“If you don’t say yes, I’ll go back to my place, slit my wrist while Drake is playing in the
background”
“You’re funny! Okay”
“Okay?”
“Yes, Thando”
“Please give me your number”
I gave him my number, he was a really a cool humorous guy. He left, I went to join the gang.
Hakeem wasn’t looking impressed at all.
I noticed Vanessa and Raymond were missing. I asked Sihle, she had no idea where they went.
The drinks kept coming and coming, I was in a different state. I went outside, looking for
Vanessa for some weird reason. I got out via the back door. I heard the back door shutting, I
turned and it was Jabu.
“What are you doing here? You’re so obsessed with me”, I said.
“Bitch you’ve gotten away with a lot of shit. I don’t let a bitch walk all over me”, he said.
“Get lost you asshole”, I said. He grabbed me by my hair, pushed me and I fell. He grabbed me
up, knocked me against the wall, he called me all types of names. He smacked me, chocked me
and told me I was going to die a painful death. I cried, he overpowered me. I just heard two
shots, he looked me in the eyes. His eyes were rolling back, I could feel his weight all over me.
He fell to the ground, my dress had blood stains. Raymond came over to me, he was carrying a
gun. Vanessa was fixing her dress and wearing her shoes.
“Are you okay?” Raymond hugged me. I didn’t know what to say. “That bastard deserved to
die”, he said.
“My friend, are you okay?” Vanessa was worried.
“Yes”, I nodded.
“Let’s take you home”, said Raymond. He took off his jacket and he placed it on my shoulders.
“I’ll deal with him”, said Raymond.
I was so shaken. Raymond gave me and Vanessa a lift home.
In the morning, I had a terrible hangover. I didn’t even want to think about what happened to
Jabu. My mind kept going back to that moment, not when he was shot but Vanessa fixing her
dress and wearing her shoes. She and Raymond disappeared, it all added up to one thing. Last
night was just an approval that Jo’burg is sin city. Hakeem came to visit his girlfriend but she
went out for a jog around the neighbourhood.
“Your girl is out”, I said.
“Do you know when she’ll be back?” He asked.
“Not at all”, I replied.
“I saw you and King Pin last night, it looked like you were having a great time”, he said.
“Yes, it’s been a while since a man made me laugh so hard”, I said.
“He’s a ladies’ man. I’m just letting you know this so you don’t get surprised”
“Surprised? Why would I be surprised?”
“When he cheats on you”
“Who said I was going to date him?”
“Girls fall for his tricks”
“You talk like you’re one of these ‘girls’. Has he broken your heart?”
“Is that supposed to be a joke?”
“I’m happy that you’re looking out for me Hakeem but I think you should use all those efforts on
your girlfriend, Vixen”
“She’s not my girlfriend as yet – ”
“But she calls you her boyfriend”
“I’m getting to know her”
“Have you guys had sex yet?”
“No, why?”
“That answers everything”
“What are you talking about?”
“If she gives in, she’ll get the girlfriend badge, right?”
“Not everything is about sex”
“They all say so”
“But that’s the truth, not everything is about sex”
“What type of guy are you? Your girl lived on the streets ever since she came to Jo’burg. You
didn’t even care to offer her a place to crash in”
“This is new to me. She lived on the streets?”
“You didn’t know?”
“No! No wonder she didn’t want me to visit her. She made silly excuses about how dirty her flat
is. I thought it was just typical girly behaviour”
“I’m sorry to be the one to break the news to you”
“No, thank you. I have to go”
“Please don’t judge her”
“Bye Yoliswa”
I didn’t know that Vixen kept where she recently lived a secret. I hope I didn’t cause any
problems. I got a phone call from Thando, he told me he wanted us to meet at Jump Cafe. I
even forgot that I promised to meet him the next morning. I got ready.
A cab dropped me at Jump Cafe. I looked for him in the restaurant, I found him busy on his
phone. I went to sit with him. When he was done with his call, he greeted me with the most
beautiful smile.
“Slept well?” He asked.
“Like a baby”, I replied.
“I just got off the phone with a friend I recently met. He bought Raymond’s club from Martin
because Raymond sold it to Martin. I renovated my club, gave it a different name but I ended up
selling it to Martin. Now my friend wants me to invest in his new club. He’s giving me 35%”, he
said.
“Are you going to invest in his club then?” I asked.
“I will but 35% is too little”
“What percent are you looking at settling for?”
“50%”
“Do you think he will agree with that?”
“He has no choice. I know I’ll invest more money than him. If I was a crook, I’d want than 50%”
“Makes sense”
“Let’s stop with this business talk and talk about you”
“What do you want to know?”
“Where are you from? Why are you single? What do you do for a living?”
“I’m from East London in the Eastern Cape. I’m a waitress at this restaurant. I’m single because
I just got out of a long relationship and I’m still finding myself”
“Can I help you find yourself?”
“Ah, Thando!”
“I’m kidding. I could just spend the whole day looking at you without saying a word”
“Why’s that?”
“You’re beautiful, I’m trying to concentrate here”
“Can I know a bit more about you. I only know your name, what you do and that you’re
Nosipho’s cousin”
“That’s me basically. There’s nothing interesting about me”
“You look like an interesting guy”
“So you’ve been analyzing me? Okay”
“Not like that!”
“It’s okay”
“Do you have a kid?”
“Yes, I have a son. He lives with his mother”
“Do you have a good relationship with your baby momma?”
“I wouldn’t say it’s a good one but we’re trying for the sake of the kid”
“Do you visit your kid much often?”
“Yeah. Do you have a kid?”
“No, not at all”
“Okay. My past experiences changed my life, I’m not the person I used to be. People will
probably tell you things about me, please do me a favour and block everything you hear. I know
the people you hang out with don’t really like me”
“Don’t worry”
“I would like to be your tour guide, show you around”
“Hmm – ”
“I have a feeling you just go to work, go home and party”
“And go to the bookshop”
“I can give you a tour”
“I can actually take you up on that offer”
“You must. Okay, can we order?”
“Of course”
Thando was a really fun guy to be around. He made me laugh. After having breakfast with
Thando, I went to Diamond Lounge or as we call it, Club Diamond. Vanessa was typing on a
laptop.
“Good morning my friend”, she said.
“Is he dead?” I asked.
“Who are you talking about?” She asked.
“Jabu, is he dead?” I asked again.
“Oh, him. I don’t know”, she said.
“What do you mean you don’t know Vee?”
“Just like you, I don’t know”
“Vanessa, what’s going on between you and Raymond?”
“Nothing”
“It didn’t seem like nothing last night”
“You wanna know the truth?”
“Yes”
“We’re just fucking”
“How long have you been sleeping with him?”
“Since Hakeem’s party”
“That’s a long time”
“Yep”
“Oh”
“I need you here, these bitches are dumb”
“You do know I have a job, right?”
“Yoliswa come on, R750 per week is nothing. You can get that money in one hour here”
“I’ll think about it”
“If you love your job that much, you can work two jobs then. There and here”
“Tyler isn’t making my job easier, he’s a difficult and rude customer”
“The customers here are friendly”
“Okay”
“So you’ll work here?”
“Yes, I’m tired of the rude ungrateful customers. I’ll call and tell Vicky I quite. Tomorrow is pay
day”
“You can’t even make it rain with R750 in the club my friend”
“Not at all”
“I’m happy now. You won’t regret your decision my friend”
“I hope not”
“My friend! That Vixen girl is dating Hakeem! I was so shocked”
“Yeah. Me too”
“Do you regret bringing her to the apartment?”
“No”
“Hakeem was jealous when you were speaking to that guy last night”
“Did you know he’s King Pin? He sold this club to Martin”
“No ways!”
“Yes ways”
“Okay, I didn’t know he’s that guy”
“He prefers to be called Thando. I met him for breakfast”
“My friend you don’t waste time”
“I promised him, I hate not delivering – ”
“My friend, I’m watching you”
“Why?”
“You sneaky bitch! I’m watching you my friend”
“Why though?”
“I remember having a chat with a skinny stripper girl the other day, she told me she had a kid
with King Pin. That name rang bells, watch out”
“He told me he has a kid”
“You like him?”
“I only met him last night, he’s a great person. A funny guy”
“I’m watching you”
“I’m also watching you and Raymond”
“Raymond? He’s not my man and he’ll never be my man”
We had an interesting conversation. Vanessa is insane, I love her. We have a lot of things in
common. She’s very ambitious, like me. We know exactly what we want. I know I said I was
against working at the club but the money I get as a waitress is too little. Vanessa gave me
Raymond’s phone number, I called him, I told him I wanted to see him urgently. He said he was
in the neighbourhood so he’ll pass by.
Vixen was not home, I figured she came to refresh then went to her boyfriend’s house. I waited
for Raymond for a couple of minutes. He finally arrived.
“You said it was urgent”, he said.
“I just wanted to ask you something”, I said.
“Okay, ask”, he said.
“Is he dead?”
“Yoliswa – ”
“Raymond please tell me”
“Yoliswa – ”
“Yes or no?”
“No”
“Where’s his body?”
“I think it’s better if you don’t know. Yesterday didn’t happen, okay?”
“Just like you and Vanessa?”
“Did we have to?”
“Yes – ”
“I don’t owe you any explanations Yoliswa. In fact, I’m tired of you”
“What?”
“You’re up there, you always act like you have high standards”
“Really? Just because I didn’t give in to your advances?”
“It’s not even about that, if I really wanted you, I would have gotten you. I always get what I
want”
“Now why are you bitter?”
“I’m not bitter. No, Yoliswa – I’m not bitter”
“You’re being totally wrong right now”
“I’m sorry but maybe this was a good opportunity for me to express myself. You’re so uptight,
learn to loosen up”
“I won’t change who I am to please anyone. If you have a problem with who I am then you don’t
deserve to be in my circle”
“Don’t take it like that, you’re a cool girl but loosen up sometimes”
“Loosen up and fuck at the back of the club? Act like I don’t care?”
“Can we drop the subject? I see you’re getting worked up. Are you okay?”
“I’m okay”
“Look, tomorrow I’m going back home”
“Oh?”
“Kinshasa in the DRC”
“Is everything well back home?”
“Yes, I’m just going to visit my family and son”
“That’s good”
“I don’t want to leave knowing you’re angry at me”
“I’m not angry at you”
“I won’t party tonight, I have an early flight tomorrow morning”
“Okay, travel well”
“I will, thanks”
“When are you coming back?”
“I don’t know when. And I don’t know if I’ll come back to Johannesburg”
“Really?”
“Yes, let me get going. How far are you with the books?”
“It’s been a while”
“Okay. Let me get going”
“Take care Raymond”
“Okay, you too Yoliswa”
I took a long nap. When I woke up, Sihle, Puleng and Vixen were home. Sihle came to the
bedroom.
“Hey lover. I saw you sleeping, I didn’t wanna wake you up. Are you okay?” She asked.
“I’m alright, I was just tired”, I said.
“You were jerking and mumbling. It seemed like you were having a bad dream”, she said.
“Maybe”, I said. I was worried that one day I will talk in my sleep about the Jabu incident.
“Are you ready for the night ahead?” She asked. I looked at the time.
“What? It’s past six already? I slept that much? Wow”, I was shocked.
“You sleeping for those hours you’ve missed when you went clubbing, came home early
morning and went to work hours later”, she said.
“Maybe you’re right. But I feel good. I’m ready for the night ahead”, I said.
“Uh – Mbali gave me a call minutes earlier, she and Nosipho are joining us tonight”
“That’s good to hear”
“The more the merrier, right?”
“Yeah. I haven’t seen Mbali in a while”
“Let me make myself something to eat. Can I get you something?”
“Uhm, no thanks – I’m fine”
“Alright”
I managed to get out of bed. I felt like taking a quick shower just to be refresh. I took the shower,
I heard a familiar voice. It was Nosipho greeting the ladies, she came with Mbali. I was still in
the shower.
I came out of the bathroom with my towel wrapped around me.
“Hey ladies”, I greeted Nosipho and Mbali.
“Hey”, they sang.
“Let me quickly change, I’ll join you girls soon”, I headed to the bedroom to change. I heard the
girls talking loudly and laughing. After I was done getting dressed and beautifying myself, I went
to join everyone. I was really happy to see the girls back together again, Vanessa was the only
missing link.
Vixen was really distant, I figured it’s the fact that I told Hakeem that she lived on the streets. I
didn’t mean to, it just came out. If I had a time machine, I’d go back in time and correct things.
After a few hours of great laughter and conversation, our cab pulled out outside.
The driver drove us to Diamond Lounge where we were welcomed by an enthusiastic Vanessa.
She led us to our table, Hakeem and Rashidi were already there. There were many bottles of
alcohol, I was in heaven. Vixen sat next to Hakeem, I could sense the tension between the two.
I still feel bad for telling Hakeem, I seriously thought he knew.
We all took shots of Vodka except for Nosipho, she was sitting in the corner. I went over to her.
“Why are you so distant?” I asked her.
“It’s nothing really, I’m just waiting for Thando”, she said.
“Okay but you can join us. We’re having shots of Vodka”, I said.
“No”, she declined.
“What’s wrong Nosipho?”
“Yoliswa, go have fun”
“Nosipho how can I have fun when I know a friend of mine isn’t having fun?”
“It’s cool, really”
“No it’s not. I know this isn’t the right place to get all emo but tell me what’s bothering you – ”
“Nothing – ”
“Really?”
“It’s been a while since I went out. This place is just…I don’t want to talk about it”
“This place is just what?”
“Memories Yoliswa, there I said it”
“I thought you said you were over everything, you’ve moved on”
“I thought so too”
“So what will you do now?”
“I’ll wait for Thando, I told him I’ll wait for him”
“You can join us – ”
“Please, go and have fun”
“Are you sure?”
Vanessa dragged me to the dance floor, I was still talking to Nosipho. We danced. Minutes later
I saw Thando entering the club, I carried on dancing. Vanessa put her hands around my neck
and whispered in my ear, “Foxy told me what kind of man your new crush is. As your friend,
your best friend, don’t even cross that path my friend.” I was confused, I didn’t even say
anything, I continued dancing. As I was dancing, I could see Hakeem and Vixen talking in the
corner, judging by their facial expressions, it wasn’t a ‘cute’ conversation. My eyes met
Hakeem’s, I quickly looked away. I was planning to have a great night but it’s just dramatic. We
went to join the girls.
Downing alcohol, again and again and again! I switched my phone off. Rashidi expressed how
happy he is that I’ll be working at Diamond Lounge. I wanted to go over to Thando and say Hi
but I kept thinking about what Vanessa told me.
We spent hours at the dance floor, I was high, very high. Hakeem left with Vixen. Sihle and
Puleng were getting ready to leave but I wasn’t ready.
“Let’s go home”, said Sihle.
“Go home without me, I’ll leave with Vanessa”, I said.
“Are you sure?” Sihle asked.
“Yes”, I said.
“Sihle let’s leave her”, said Puleng.
“Okay, have fun. Come straight home, I don’t want to hear you went to some guy’s apartment”,
said Sihle.
“She’s old enough to make her own decisions Sihle. My feet are killing me, can we leave now?
My word!” Puleng was really impatient. They left.
I had an amazing time, I danced the night away with Vanessa. We went home at 3am, I was
more drunk than Vanessa, we took a cab home. When we got to the apartment, Sihle open and
closed the door. She dragged me to the bedroom, I slept on my bed immediately. When I woke
up in the morning, my head was heavy. I looked over at Sihle’s bed, it was neatly made. The
apartment was rather quiet, I went to look for the other girls. They were all gone, I saw a note on
the kitchen counter, it read, “I locked with my key, the other key is next to the tv – Sihle.” I had to
take a shower and go tell Vicky that I’m quitting. I checked my phone and I saw eight missed
calls from my cousin sister, Asisipho. I didn’t have airtime, I told myself that I’ll call her when I
buy airtime.
I took a cab to the restaurant. Vicky was mopping the floor, she was surprised to see me.
“Yoliswa, what can I do for you today? It’s not even your shift today”, she said.
“It’s important”, I said. Vicky dropped the mop.
“Okay, follow me”, we went to her small office. “What’s wrong?” She asked.
“I’ve been thinking and exploring my options for a while now and I’ve come to a conclusion. I
think it’s best for me to quit, it was lovely working here but I need this growth”, I said.
“Did you find a better job?” She asked.
“Kinda”, I said.
“Where?” She asked.
“It doesn’t really matter”, I said.
“Why? Why doesn’t it matter?”
“Vicky, that’s all I wanted to say”
“Did she influence your decision?”
“Excuse me, who are you talking about”
“Her”
“Vanessa?”
“Of course”
“Vicky, she didn’t influence me at all”
“Ha! If you say so”
“Really. Okay, thanks for everything”
“No problem, take care of yourself. Good luck in finding your mother”
“Alright, thank you”
I left her office and I went to the nearest ATM to withdraw money. I then bought airtime and I
dialled my cousin.
The phone rang, she didn’t answer. I dialled her number again.
“Yoliswa I tried calling you last night”, she said.
“Good morning and I’m fine thank you for asking”, I said.
“I don’t have time for games, we’ve been sweating the whole night. Grandma was rushed to
hospital, she’s in a critical condition”, she said.
“Will she be okay? Now I’m shaky”, I said.
“I don’t know, you must come down to East London”
“Asisipho just tell me the truth. Do you think she’s going to, you know, die?”
“I don’t know, she’s old. Whatever happens to her, I know she’d want to see you soon”
“I’ll be there tomorrow if I can”
“Alright”
“Send my greetings to everyone”
“Okay, bye”
“Bye”
I was so stressed, I earned R750, I can’t go back empty handed. With this R750 I’ll get transport
to East London, it’s not enough money. Maybe I should pay Vanessa a visited, she would be
happy if I asked her to lend me money since she insisted on that 10%. I took a cab to Diamond
Lounge.
When I got to Diamond Lounge, Vanessa was talking to another girl. When she saw me, she
came to me.
I left the club. I was worried that my grandmother might pass away without seeing her daughter.
What will I tell them when they ask what I’ve found so far? I got a phone call from Nosipho
asking me to meet her for lunch, I couldn’t recline. I took a cab to the restaurant. She was
looking great.
We ordered something to eat, after that we went our separate ways. She told me I must be
ready by 6pm. They’ll come and fetch me.
I knew the road will be long and tiring. Midnight, Nosipho was sleeping, I just woken up.
“You were snoring”, said Thando.
“I was? Really?” I was so embarrassed.
“I’m joking”, he laughed.
“Don’t play with me like that”, I smiled.
“I love your smile”, he complimented.
“Thanks. Stop making me blush”, I giggled like a little girl.
“If that’s how you look when you blush then I want to see you blush more often”
“King Pin…I mean Thando, my cheeks hurt”
“I only said one thing, by the time I’m done you wouldn’t feel your cheeks”
“Really now?”
“Yes. I hear you’re going to work for Martin”
“Yes, Club Diamond or Diamond Lounge”
“It’s going to be an adventure for sure but I just wish you don’t mix with the wrong crowd. You’re
already mixing with a wrong crowd”
“How so?”
“Your friends”
“Vanessa?”
“Rashidi and company. From what Nosipho told me, Vanessa is trouble”
“What else does Nosipho tell you?”
“Everything”
“Why am I not surprised”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Nothing”
“It can’t be nothing”
“Thando, carry on”
“Are you mad at me? Anyway, I’m just warning you”
“Did Nosipho put you up to this?”
“What? No, she didn’t. Did you girls talk about this?”
“Kinda”
“You can do you but you have to be careful. I only care for people I love and like”
“Where do I fit?”
“Uhm…I kinda like you. I don’t know you but I would like to know you”
“Okay”
“What about you?”
“Same”
“Same? You sound like you’re mad at me”
“I’m not, I’m just annoyed”
“I’ve been told I’m quite a nuisance, even this lady sleeping next to me, she tells me at least a
thousand times a day”
“It’s not you, it’s her”
“Oh”
“I trust her as a friend to keep things strictly between us – ”
“Me and Nos have a special bond, you don’t have to worry, your secrets or whatever it is, it’s
safe with me”
“I don’t know”
“You’re hurting me now, do I look like a guy who’d go around letting the whole wide world know
your secrets?”
“I think it’s better if we drop it King Pin…Thando, whatever your name is”
“Wow, you’re really pissed. I’m going to stop at the nearest garage. You need to cool down”
“You won’t understand”
“I get why you’re pissed. I’m also pissed – ”
“Because I said ‘King Pin, Thando whatever your name is’?”
“No, that’s petty. I’m pissed because you don’t trust me”
“I don’t know you”
“How can you know me?”
“What kind of question is that?”
“It’s a good question Yoliswa”
“I think we should drop it”
“Wow. Started from complimenting her now we’re here”
“Is that supposed to be a joke?”
“You’re so pissed, chill”
“Don’t tell me to chill”
“Alright, go on and on”
“You’re the one taking things overboard, Thando”
“Really? Okay”
I slept the entire night, when I woke up, the sun was shining bright. We stopped next to a public
telephone and Nosipho was making a phone call.
After many hours of driving, we were on our way to East London. I told them they can drop me
in town, I can take a taxi to where I live but they insisted to drop me at home. I couldn’t argue,
I’d lose anyway. I was grateful for having such amazing friends.
We finally arrived, my brother Mbulelo was playing soccer with his friends.
“Mbulelo! Come help me with the luggage”, I said. He ran to help.
“You’re looking all grown up”, I pinched his cheeks playfully.
“No, leave me alone, you’re embarrassing me”, he took my luggage inside.
“Come in guys”, I led the way. When we got inside, the sight of my ex boyfriend almost made
me faint.
“Hello beautiful”, he hugged me. I was so confused, I looked at my cousin who was smiling.
“We’ve missed you”, my cousin gave me a tight hug.
“These are my good friends, Nosipho and Thando. They gave me a lift”, I said.
“Thank you for helping my cousin. Sit down, I’ll get you something to eat”, said Asisipho.
“You don’t have to, please, we need to rush somewhere”, said Nosipho.
“It’s okay Asisipho, they need to leave ASAP”, I said.
Vusani put his arm around me. Thando looked away, I was so annoyed but I didn’t want to
show it.
“We heard about the old lady being hospitalised, we hope she recovers soon. We feel bad for
coming here empty handed”, said Thando.
“You brought my cousin back home safely, that’s all we wished for. Thank you very much”, said
Asisipho.
“Thank you man, drive safely”, Vusani shook Thando’s hand. They shook for a while, I could
see fake smiles and weird eye contact.
Nosipho and Thando finally left. Mbulelo went to his friends, Asisipho’s son, Aphiwe was
sleeping.
“What are you doing here Vusani?” I asked.
“Vusani has been helping us a lot since grandma was hospitalised. He just came here to see
you, he’s been talking about you a lot”, said Asisipho. “Can we talk in private Vusani?” I asked.
“Let me excuse you guys”, Asisipho went out.
“I’ve missed you”, Vusani stroked my hair. I stepped back. “What’s wrong?” He asked.
“You shouldn’t be here, you know that”, I said.
“All those years can’t go to waste”, he said.
“The last time we spoke, you said some hurtful things to me. You cursed me”, I said.
“I’m not proud of that. I want us to try again”
“Vusani, I can’t give you want you want right now”
“Okay, give it some time. Don’t you love me anymore? Don’t tell me you don’t even feel
something for me”
“I do – ”
“Then why are – ”
“Ssssh! It’s different now. I’m not that girl who was head over heels in love with you. Please
understand that. I’m different now”
“Of course you’re different. Tell me, what’s going on between you and that guy?”
“Friendship is going on”
“That’s all?”
“Were you expecting more?”
“No”
“Yeah, that’s it”
“I’ve really missed you. What happened there?”
“A lot but I don’t wanna talk about it now”
“We can hang out tomorrow”
“What about work?”
“What about it?”
“Don’t you have to go to work?”
“No, I’m unemployed currently”
“What?! What happened?”
“A lot happened but I’ll talk about it when we meet up tomorrow”
“Tomorrow afternoon?”
“Sounds good to me”
“Alright”
“Alright then, I guess I should get going”
“Yeah”
“See you when I see you”
“Bye”
“Bye”
I told Asisipho everything that happened in Johannesburg except the part where a guy almost
raped me.
I was happy to be home because home is where the heart is.
In the afternoon, I went to visit my grandmother in hospital. When I entered the hospital, the
scent made my blood boil. A nurse directed me to where my grandmother was lying. The sight
of seeing my grandmother wrapped in tubes, made my heart sunk. I failed her, I wanted to cry. If
only I found my mother, things would be different. I held her hand, it was weak, it had no power.
Her veins were so visible like they were going to pop out of her skin. I took a seat right next to
her.
“Grandmother, it’s me Yoliswa. I’m sure you can hear me. It pains me to see you lying here. I
wish, if it was possible for me to take your position. I came as soon as I heard you’re in hospital.
I wish I came with my mom. Unfortunately, I didn’t find her, well, seeing you like this just gave
me more strength to look for her. Johannesburg was different. I met some amazing and no so
amazing people. I nearly…I nearly got…raped but I heard you praying for me. You saved my
life, how can I repay you? There’s only one thing I know you want, and that’s your daughter, my
mother. I really love you with all my heart, you raised me to be a strong woman. Please, don’t
leave me yet. You can’t leave me, I still want you to see me succeed in life. Remember how you
used to say you want to sit on the front seat of my car? I’m working towards that, I want to see
you sitting there fully healthy. Maybe my mom will be on the back seat, how’s that? I know you’ll
love that, right? Please, don’t leave me. Don’t leave us”, tears rolled down my face. I felt my
granny’s hand squeezing me. I called the nurse, she ran in.
“My granny just squeezed my hand”, I said excitedly.
“Are you sure? It must be a twitch”, she said.
“Nurse, I’m telling you she squeezed my hand. I can differentiate between a squeeze and a
twitch”, I said.
The nurse just looked at me like I’m insane.
“You think I’m crazy, right? I’m not insane! She squeezed my hand”, I was starting to get
agitated.
“If you continue raising your voice at me, you’ll be out of here. I’m your elder, you can’t just talk
to me anyhow. I’ll call in a doctor, okay? Just calm down”, the nurse said.
“I’m sorry”, I apologised.
“It’s okay, sit down and calm down”, she left the room.
I held my granny’s hand again and she kept squeezing and squeezing my hand. She opened
her eyes and started panicking.
“Granny, calm down, it’s me Yoliswa”, I tried calming her down.
A doctor came in and he started working on my granny. I was told to leave the room. I was at
the waiting room for a long time.
A white girl came to sit next to me. She smiled at me, I faked a smile, I was too nervous.
“Hello”, she offered her hand for a hand shake.
I shook her hand, “Hello”
“I’m Jennifer, I’m waiting for my father”, she said.
“I’m waiting for my granny”, I said.
“Oh okay. What’s your name?” She asked.
“Yoliswa”, I replied. I wasn’t really in the mood.
“I was meant to fly to Johannesburg today but my dad got really sick”, she said.
“You live in Johannesburg?” I asked.
“No, I’m going there for work. It’s my first time that side. I got a good job, everything is sorted out
for me, the accommodation, everything”, she smiled proudly.
“That’s good to hear. I just got back from Johannesburg”, I said.
“Really? You live there?”
“It’s a long story but I worked as a waitress but I’m no longer one. But I have a new job waiting
for me”
“Okay, that’s great”
I was called to see my granny. I said goodbye to Jennifer. When I entered the room, my granny
was sitting up. I was so happy to see her awake and looking healthy.
“Gogo!” I hugged her.
“Easy”, she said, “You’re going to hurt me”, she added.
“I’m sorry gogo, I’m too excited”, I said.
“How’s everyone?” She asked.
“Everyone is good but they were worried about you”, I said.
“How was your journey?”
“Gogo, my journey was good”
“Thank you Jesus. You look worried, I can see the emptiness in your eyes”
“I’m tired, I didn’t sleep much and I was worried about you”
“Besides that, is everything okay?”
“No but everything will be okay. Did you hear what I said earlier?”
“No. The nurse told me you were here”
“I wish I came with good news regarding my mother”
“Don’t tell me she passed away”
“No, I didn’t find her but – ”
“Johannesburg is a big city. Maybe she’s not even in Johannesburg”
“You’re right but the search was only the beginning”
“Yoliswa – ”
“Please gogo, please give me a few weeks or months, I’ll find her”
“You’re still going back?”
“Yes, please let me. I have a job, I can take care of myself”
“Alright but if you don’t find her, come back home”
“I will”
“I support you 100%”
“And I’m grateful for that”
I went to buy my granny some fruit. We spoke for a very long time until visiting hours were over.
I went home, it was really late.
It was dark, as I was approaching my house, I saw a red old Toyota parked outside the yard. I
quickly rushed in, when I opened the door, I heard laughter coming from the dining room. I
rushed to the dining room, I saw Vusani eating. I was so furious, Asisipho smiled at me.
“Hey Yoliswa, your food is in the microwave. Vusani bought dinner”, she said.
“Your favourite”, Vusani smiled.
Before I could reply, my phone rang. It was Thando. I went to my room to answer the phone.
“Thando”
“Hey Yoliswa, how are you?”
“I’m good, not good-good. Okay, I’m coping. How are you and Nosipho doing?”
“It’s good to hear, I’m fine. Nosipho is fine too, we just finished eating supper, she’s washing
the dishes. How’s your granny?”
“Gogo is recovering, I had a nice long conversation with her”
“Wow, that’s great. I’m so happy for you. So…are you coming back to Jozi?”
“I have to”
“Uhm…are you going to work at Club Diamond?”
“Yes, why?”
“I’m just asking”
“I know you were just asking but why?”
“I said I was just asking”
“Alright. Jobs are really scarce, I’m grateful for the job”
“Of course you are. Tell me, what’s happening at your house? I hear people laughing or it’s just
the tv?”
“Uh – yeah, it’s just the tv”
“Okay. I just called to check up on you”
“Thank you, how thoughtful of you”
“Good night, dream about me”
“Good night Thando, I’ll try and dream about you”
“Bye”
“Bye”
Asisipho and Vusani were laughing and raising their voices. I couldn’t even sleep, they were
really annoying. A few minutes later, I heard the door close. I sat up, I didn’t hear any talking. I
figured Vusani left. I went to peep, indeed, he was gone. I was so relieved, I went to the living
room.
I went to my bedroom, I was happy I had the chance to get some things off my chest. I went to
sleep.
I woke up in a really good mood. I was looking forward to meeting my friends and I wasn’t
looking forward to meeting Vusani in the afternoon. I was already dressed even. My phone rang,
it was Vanessa.
I had no problem with Vixen working in the club but I was scared she might be my replacement.
I got ready to go meet my friends, Aphelele, Tina and Ovayo. It’s been a while since I saw them,
I was really excited. We were meeting at a park.
They were seating under a tree, when they saw me they all ran to me to give me a hug.
“We’ve missed you my friend”, said Ovayo, she had tears rolling down her face.
“Come on, don’t cry. I’ve missed you girls too”, I said.
“So how was Jozi?” Asked Aphelele.
“Where can I start? Jozi is Jozi. But what you see on tv is a bit exaggerated. I met awesome
people and I loved every bit of it. The nightclub life is insane! We partied hard”, I narrated.
“Sounds like where I’d fit in well”, said Aphelele.
“It’s insane”, I smiled.
“Tell us more. Your friends, your experiences, everything”, said Tina.
“I lived with Vanessa, Sihle, Puleng and Vixen. They’re amazing, we do everything together and
we support each other on everything. There’s also Nosipho, she’s amazing. I rode on his
cousin’s car, they’re both amazing people”, I said.
“Don’t you have spicy news? We don’t want to hear how amazing these people are”, said
Ovayo.
“Well, I don’t have anything bad to say about them”, I said.
“There’s some things you’re not telling us but it’s okay. I want to go to Jozi for work”, said
Aphelele.
“She’s been saying this”, said Tina.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
“Yes but I’m raising money to go there”, said Aphelele.
I wasn’t sure about her going to Johannesburg. I didn’t want people I know there, it would be
really awkward.
I had fun with my girls, we talked and laughed our asses off. In the afternoon, I went to meet up
with Vusani. He has already waiting for me in the restaurant.
I left the restaurant angry. A man never disrespected me the way Vusani did. I wanted nothing
to do with him. I rushed home where I told Asisipho everything, she wanted to knock out his
teeth. I told her he’s not worth it.
Men like Vusani are the reason women think men are dogs.
I decided to call Nosipho, my mood was ruined by that stupid guy by the name of Vusani. My
first call didn’t go through, I called her again and she answered.
“Hi Yoliswa”, said Nosipho. I could hear people talking in the background.
“Hey girl, how are you?” I asked.
“I’m good and you?”
“I’m not good”
“What happened?”
“It’s my ex, he’s such an ass”
“What did he do?”
“We met this afternoon. I wanted to clarify things with him. It turned into this horrible altercation”
“Damn, are you okay though?”
“Yes, I don’t want anything to do with him”
“Good for you”
“This day was supposed to be great. I woke up in a good mood but it seems like it’s getting
worse and worse”
“I’m sorry”
“Now I’m just crossing my fingers for my new job”
“What happened?”
“My roommate, she’s Hakeem’s girlfriend, she got hired. I’m scared she might be my
replacement but Vanessa says I shouldn’t worry”
“Leaving the restaurant was a bad idea”
“You’re not helping out. I’m telling you I might lose my job”
“I share your pain but don’t you think it’s for the best?”
“Are you kidding me? That waitress job paid me peanuts”
“Yoliswa, I’ve warned you before, don’t hang with the wrong crowd”
“It’s just work, plus they’re really nice people”
“They’re crooks”
“Okay, Nosipho I don’t care. I’m tired of hearing you bash them every chance you get. I get it,
you still hate them for what they did to you but I’m not you. I don’t hate them”
“Go ahead. Be good friends with them, you will see for yourself”
“They’re not even my friends, we have mutual friends”
“Whatever Yoliswa. But I’ll tell you ‘I told you so’ when they screw you over”
“Can we talk about something else?”
“Okay. How’s your family? Your grandmother?”
“Good. They’re good. How’s Thando?”
“He’s also good. Do you want to talk to him?”
“I don’t know”
“He wants to talk to you”
“Oh. Okay”
I was bored the whole day. Ovayo invited me to her friend’s 21st birthday party. I wasn’t going to
decline. I picked an outfit for the night, I was happy I wasn’t going to spend the whole day at
home.
Hours later, Ovayo came to fetch me. A Quantum minibus was waiting for us outside. The music
was blasting, I told my cousin, Asisipho that I’m going to a party and I’ll come home late.
Aphelele and Tina were in the Quantum minibus plus a group of unknowns. The time was
around 5pm. There was alcohol but I made a decision to not drink because I wanted to be sober
when I landed. My friends were taking shots except for Tina.
We got to the venue, it was packed outside. The 21st birthday was held in a community hall.
The birthday girl ran towards us, she gave Ovayo a hug.
“This is Lizzy”, Ovayo introduced her to us. She seemed really sweet, she hugged us.
“Welcome guys”, she smiled. She led us to a VIP-esque area.
“You are the friend that went to Johannesburg?” She asked.
“Yep, that’s me”, I said.
“Are you back permanently?” She asked.
“No, I’ll go back sooner hopefully”, I said.
“I’m going to Johannesburg soon”, she said.
“Wow. Nice”, I smiled.
“There are so many people yet it’s so chilled”, said Ovayo.
“My mom invited the whole congregation. My big brother is playing Mr Bouncer at the door. I
don’t know when everything will officially start. I can’t wait to go party”, said Lizzy.
“They’re hosting Lizzy at Club Venus tonight”, said Ovayo. It was really cool. I thought only
celebrities and wealthy people were hosted in clubs.
After a few minutes, everything kicked off. It was like church in the beginning, understandable
because there were church people there. She got lots of gifts and money. People were saying
nice things about her, it was like a wedding almost. The hall was packed, I figured her parents
were well respected people in the community.
We left for Club Venus at 8pm. There were still people in the hall. Lizzy had an outfit change.
Her father bought her the latest BMW. We rode on her new car. I wondered where Ovayo met
Lizzy, she was intriguing.
We jumped the queue, of course we won’t stand in the queue when we’re rolling with Lizzy. We
went straight to the VIP section. I wasn’t new to the VIP section, I bragged to them how I’m
always in the VIP section back in Johannesburg.
“When I hit Jozi, I want you to show me around. I want to go to every hot club”, said Lizzy.
“I will do that. I have friends who know club owners”, I was tipsy.
“Good! I’ll take you up on your offer”, she said.
“We can pinky promise right now”, I said.
We even pinky promised, it was a sealed deal. I wanted to get rid of all the weight on my
shoulders, I wanted to get wasted.
We were dancing like there’s no tomorrow. I felt someone tap my shoulder, when I turned, I saw
my high school ex boyfriend, Sanele.
“Yoliswa, don’t talk to him. He’s sneaky and you’re drunk”, she said.
“It’s all good, he just wanted my number”, I said.
“Don’t give him”, she said then walked away.
I went to dance with my friends, Sanele walked away. I was having a nice time!
Lizzy was so drunk, she was vomiting on the side of the road. The club manager called a cab
for us, Lizzy’s boyfriend drove her home in her car.
Me and my friends were singing in the cab like crazy people. The cab driver dropped us at my
house. We knocked, we were so loud, we were laughing and doing all sorts of crazy stuff.
Asisipho opened the door, she looked pissed.
I’ve never been so scared in my life. I was shaking, Asisipho came to fetch something in the
kitchen, she saw I was shaken.
“Are you alright?” She asked.
“Yeah, yes – let me go take a bath”, I said.
I went to lock myself in the bathroom. I ran the water, I watched the water fill the bathtub. I got
in the bathtub and closed my eyes. I relived the day Jabu got killed.
I didn’t feel like I was in control of my own body. I wanted someone to save me. It hurt me that I
couldn’t speak to anyone else about Jabu’s death. I got out of the bathroom, I wanted to give
Nosipho a call and pour my heart out but something told me not to.
I got dressed, my phone rang, it was Vanessa.
“Everything’s done. The interview wasn’t complicated at all. They asked me about you”, she
said.
“What did they ask? What did you say?” I asked.
“Don’t worry, they asked how your relationship with Jabu was. I told them there wasn’t much of
a relationship and that he was interested in you but you weren’t interested in him”, she said.
“Oh, okay”, I was relieved.
“You don’t have to worry about anything, be cool about it”
“How can I be cool when it replayed in my head when I was taking a bath? I remembered
everything that happened that night”
“Don’t worry yourself”
“Raymond left us in this mess”
“Don’t even talk about him. He said he got rid of the body and – ”
“Did he? Did he really? How come he never mentioned what really happened? Like where the
body is?”
“You won’t drop this? Can you please drop this?”
“I don’t like not knowing things. Don’t you think we would be at ease if we knew what he did to
the body?”
“You mean you would be at ease? I really don’t care”
“Of course you don’t care, you were busy fucking him to even care”
“What?”
“I’m sorry Vanessa. This is stressing me. We’re visiting grandma in the afternoon and I’m not in
the right mind frame”
“Cancel”
“I can’t. Maybe it’s the last time I get to see her before going to Jozi. I don’t know when the
police will call me. Did they say they’ll call me today?”
“I don’t know. You worry too much, please don’t. Look, I got you. We will pass this together.
We’ll have lunch someday and laugh about this”
“Hopefully”
“Come back to Jozi soon so I can work on your confidence”
“Don’t play like that”
“Really my friend. I have to go now, chat later”
“Okay, bye”
“Bye”
After that phone call, I felt a bit better. Vanessa is truly a good friend. I got a phone call from a
number I didn’t know, I was hesitant to answer it because I thought it was the police.
“Hello”, I answered nervously.
“Yoliswa? This is Lizzy”, she said.
“Oh, yeah – hi Lizzy”
“I got your number from Ovayo. I have a picnic this afternoon, I was wondering if you wanted to
come”
“I’m sorry, this afternoon I’m visiting my grandmother in hospital”
“Uhm…and after?”
“I don’t know. I’d love to come but I really don’t know”
“Save my number and call me when you decide to come”
“I will”
“Cheers”
“Bye”
I didn’t know about going to the picnic because I wasn’t in a mood to mingle.
In the afternoon we went to visit grandma, we bought her fruit. I never liked the hospital scent. It
was busy, the nurses were moving up and down. We went to sit in the waiting room while
Asisipho went to speak to the nurse. Asisipho’s son, Aphiwe was sitting on my lap. My younger
brother, Mbulelo was busy on his phone.
“Do you think we’ll ever find mom?” Asked Mbulelo. This was the first time he mentioned mom
ever since I returned. I don’t remember him showing any interest for a long time, he’s difficult to
read because he doesn’t say much. I didn’t know how to answer him, thankfully Asisipho came
and told us to follow her to where grandma sleeping. I didn’t answer him.
On the way to see grandma, the question Mbulelo asked was echoing in my head. We finally
got to where grandma was, she was sitting up, that was good. I wanted to give her a tight hug
but with all those tubes, I couldn’t.
“My children”, she smiled.
“We miss you gogo”, I said teary eyed.
“When are they discharging you?” Asked Asisipho.
“I feel better but you know these doctors. The food here is terrible, it’s like I’m eating cardboard”,
she exaggerated. We laughed.
“Here granny, we bought you fruit. We know how you love fruit”, Asisipho placed the fruit basket
next to her.
She told us crazy patients’ stories, they were so funny. She looked healthy. I got a phone call, I
excused myself.
“Hello”, I answered.
“Am I speaking to Yoliswa?” This gentleman asked.
“Yes, who am I speaking to?” I asked.
“I’m the detective in charge of the Jabu case. I hear you were Jabu’s love interest. I want to ask
you a few questions”
“You can ask me on the phone, sir”
“I prefer face-to-face. Where are you?”
“Not in Jozi, I’m in East London”
“When are you coming to Johannesburg?”
“Soon”
“And when exactly is soon?”
“Maybe in two or three days time”
“I’ll keep in contact”
“Okay – Sir, what will happen if I don’t show up?”
“Why would be the reason not to if you don’t have something to hide?”
“I don’t have something to hide, I was just asking”
“Okay then, let me hang up – enjoy your day”
“You too. Bye”
I was so nervous. I went to join my family, they were laughing out loud. I was so sour, I was
ruining the happy vibes.
“Are we going to act like we’re in our own world now?” I asked. Asisipho just looked at me and
shook her head.
“What’s wrong? Is it because I’m leaving tomorrow?” I asked.
“When were you planning to tell me?” She asked.
“I also didn’t know I was leaving tomorrow, I got an important phone call”, I said.
“I was really happy to have you back. I was even planning what we’ll get up to the next week. I
was so excited”, she said.
“We’ll spend quality time when I’m back”
“Yoliswa, you don’t understand”
“I do. I get that you’re mad but please understand that I have a life and there are things that I
need to take care of in my life”
“Wow! And I don’t have a life?”
“I didn’t say you don’t have a life – ”
“Sounded like you did. Look here Yoliswa, you don’t have any idea how it feels to be a mother
not only to my son but to your brother and look after gogo – ”
“Where is this coming from? I appreciate what you do. I might not get to experience what you
do around here but I do understand how hard it is for you”
“I’m scared, Yoliswa. I’m scared that I’ll be caught up in the role of perfecting motherhood and
not get to experience life in general”
“We all get scared, Asisipho. You’re doing a great job. I love and appreciate you”
“I just love you”
“I could never do what you do”
We hugged, we were so emotional.
Few minutes later, I got a phone call from Vanessa. I went to my bedroom.
“Hey Vee”, I said.
“I can’t wait to have you back, these bitches are boring the shit out of me. Vixen’s stories about
her childhood are like bedtime stories. I really miss you”
“I miss you too my friend. I’ll be back soon, I’m leaving town tomorrow”
“What?! Really?”
“Yes!”
“I just want to scream. Wait, your granny is fine?”
“She looks healthy”
“That’s great. Wow! I can’t wait to tell the girls”
“I miss the girls. Please say hi to them for me”
“I will”
“So what’s happening in Jozi besides the case?”
“Well, drama and a lot of drama”
“What happened?”
“Nosipho’s puppet, Mbali and Rashidi got into a heated argument at the club and Hakeem tried
breaking them apart and Rashidi punched him. A big fight broke out, now Rashidi is jobless.
Martin is yet to appoint a new manager”
“That’s hectic. Is Hakeem okay?”
“Yes, he beat the shit out of Rashidi. I was mad at Rashidi the past few days, it was a good
sight seeing his ass beat up like that”
“You’re something else I swear”
“Wait, you asked if Hakeem was okay? You really care”
“He’s my friend”
“Nosipho’s puppet isn’t your friend?”
“Don’t call her that. I asked because you said they got into a big fight”
“No, you asked because you care”
“I do, he’s my friend. Mbali is Nosipho’s friend – ”
“Nosipho is your friend – ”
“That’s not the point. Okay, how’s Mbali?”
“See? She’s fine”
“Happy?”
“My friend, Vixen is marking her territory. Hakeem came to the club the other day wearing
matching colours with Vixen”
“That’s cheesy”
“Very cheesy! How’s King Pin?”
“Last time I checked, he’s alright”
“I can’t wait for you to return. Martin is hosting a dinner at his place in a couple of days. I don’t
even have a date”
“I’m sure you’ll find someone”
“Yeah. I know you’re coming with King Pin”
“I don’t know”
“Don’t know if you’re coming with King Pin or if you’re attending?”
“Both”
“BOOOOO! You suck. Why are you like this?”
“Maybe when this Jabu case pass, everything will go back to normal”
“You’ll still on that tip? Come on my friend. You’ll end up depressing yourself”
“It’s not as easy as you make it seem”
“You worry yourself too much”
“You’re right”
“I’m always right”
“Don’t feel yourself too much”
“Allow me. I had a great chat with you. I have to attend a few clients my friend. I can’t wait to
have you back”
“I can’t wait too”
“Goodbye my friend”
“Bye Vee”
I needed that phone call from Vanessa, after it I felt like a different person. I was more confident
than before. I gave Lizzy a phone call regarding the picnic. She told me where it was and I got
ready. I was in the mood to loosen up and also spend time with my friends before heading to the
city of gold.
#22: Confessions Of A Xhosa Girl 2
I took a taxi to where the picnic was. When I got there, only Lizzy and Ovayo were there.
“I’m not taking my sunglasses off”, Aphelele poured juice immediately. We all looked at each
other and laughed.
“Hello girls”, Tina greeted.
“Hello”, we all sang. I really needed to be in my friends’ company. We chatted and laughed. I
made the decision that moment that I’m leaving the next day, I told them. They were happy to
had me back for a few days but they were sad I had to leave. My friends from back home are
different from my friends in Johannesburg. I don’t have to try hard for my friends in East London,
I get to be myself fully.
I got home at 8pm, Aphiwe was crying uncontrollably. The table was messy, everything from
medicine to food was on the table.
“He’s been crying for hours, I don’t know what’s wrong with him. His forehead isn’t hot, he’s
okay but he’s just crying”, Asisipho was teary eyed. I could see she was defeated and had no
fight left in her. I took Aphiwe from her and started rocking him as I walked around in circles.
“Maybe he’s affected by gogo’s health or there’s bad energies in the house”, she said. It
seemed like a bad time to tell her I’m leaving tomorrow but I had to.
“Asisipho, I – “, my phone rang. “I have to take this”, I gave her Aphiwe and went outside.
“Hello”, it was a private number. This person didn’t say anything. “Who is this?” I asked. I just
heard heavy breathing. “This isn’t funny, who are you? I don’t have time for stupid pranks”, I
dropped the call. I went inside angrily.
Aphiwe was still crying. “It’s better I just go to the hospital”, said Asisipho.
“Let me call someone and ask what the problem might be”, I dialled Nosipho’s number. The
phone rang for a long time before she picked up.
“Hello Yoli”, she said energetically.
“Hey. We have a problem here at home. I came home to my cousin’s 3 year old crying
uncontrollably. She says he’s been crying for hours and his forehead isn’t even hot. Do you
know what the problem might be? She wants to take him to the hospital. She thinks maybe the
kid is affected by gogo’s health or there’s negative energies at home. I don’t know, Nosipho”
“That’s bad. It might be bad energies but she can go to the hospital. If she says everything
seems okay, I’m afraid the nurses will give him panado or a shot”
“Okay, thank you”
“I hope the kid gets well soon”
“Me too. Alright, bye”
“Good night”
Vusani got there as soon as he could. He drove us to the hospital, he was speeding the car.
When we got to the hospital, Asisipho was immediately given attention by the nurses. They
were directed to a ward. I was with Vusani in the waiting room. Vusani was pacing up and down.
“Sit down, you’re making me dizzy”, I said. He didn’t listen to me. “Sit down, Vusani”, I said
firmly.
“Shut up!” He snapped at me. I was surprised and we didn’t say a word to one another. A nurse
came to us, he ran to the nurse. I looked at him, why is he acting like he’s the baby daddy?
“The kid is alright. He’s sleeping right now”, the nurse said.
“What was wrong?” Me and Vusani asked at the same time.
“We didn’t find anything wrong but we took some tests and we believe the results will be back
by the end of this week. We gave the kid medicine and injection”, the nurse said.
The nurse walked away. Asisipho walked to us, Vusani hugged her. “You’ll be okay”, he
mumbled. I watched them hug for a very long time.
“Is he coming home with us?” I asked.
“Yeah”, Asisipho nodded. Asisipho hugged and kissed me on the cheek. She went to fetch
Aphiwe, he was sleeping. Vusani offered to carry him, I carried his medicine.
Vusani dropped us at home, Asisipho stayed in the car because Vusani had something
‘important’ to discuss with her. I kept looking through the window, I put Aphiwe on the bed
gently. Mbulelo went to bed immediately after we came home. Asisipho got into the house.
The next day I took an early taxi to Johannesburg. I left some money behind for my family. I
took at my notepad in the taxi and started writing:
For once my cousin who I thought was the strongest of us all, was weakened. If the strong can
be that weak and vulnerable, what does it leave us weak people? When I watched her break, I
had no choice but to be strong for her. Because all the times I have been weak, she has been
strong for me and to have the roles reversed was something I have been waiting for. Not that I
have been waiting for her to be on her weakest, I have been waiting to give back what I thought
I would never give her which is emotional support. She’s such a strong young lady, I guess no
matter how strong you are, there will be moments of weakness and those moments will make
you stronger. I can’t wait to be in Johannesburg, hopefully I will channel my strong for the road
that’s ahead.
At last, I arrived in Johannesburg the next day at 11am. I spread my arms and inhaled the Jozi
air, I could taste the hustle. I saw someone who looks like Metaphor crossing the road, I just
looked away. I took a cab to the apartment, on my way there I called Vanessa who was already
at work. She said I should meet her at the club so we can have lunch at this new restaurant co-
owned by her Italian friend, Frankie. The cab had to change direction, the driver was nice.
Minutes later, I arrived at Diamond Lounge. Vanessa ran and gave me a big hug, Vixen smiled
at me, I smiled back. “Welcome back”, she said from across the room. Vanessa grabbed my
hand and led me to the parking lot, she was so excited. She dangled keys in front of me.
“Look what Santa got me”, she said excitedly.
“Wow. Where did you get it from?” I asked, I was surprised.
“It’s not new. I got it from Frankie”, she smiled.
“Does Frankie give away Range Rovers to his friends? If yes, I want to be his friend!” I joked.
“Get in my friend. Make yourself comfortable”, she said. She dropped her keys, when she
picked them up I noticed a new tattoo on her lower back. It looked like a wing, the tattoo looked
huge.
“Wait, what’s that on your back?” I asked.
“What do you mean what’s this on my back? It’s a tattoo, silly”, she got into the car.
“It looks huge”, I was surprised.
“Either you go big or go home. Look at it”, she showed me. It was an eagle, it looked really nice.
“Nice”, I gushed. It wasn’t something I’d do but it was Vanessa so it was understandable.
“I was planning to surprise you. Did my surprise work?” She asked.
“Of course. Wow! It’s like I was gone for a year. Do you have a husband and kids?” I laughed.
“I though you’d never ask”, she giggled.
It was so good to be back. Well, at least to see her. She drove me to Frankie’s restaurant, it was
called Dine With Me. She parked the car.
“What a name”, I sighed.
“I can’t wait for someone to ask where someone’s going and I reply, ‘to dine with me’ I can’t
wait”, said Vanessa.
“And I hope I’m there to go, ‘I see what you did there'”, we laughed.
The restaurant was packed for a new restaurant. The food was really delicious. Vanessa drove
me to the apartment and she drove away. Sihle was home, she was watching tv.
I was really tired so I went straight to bed. I dreamt I was swimming in the swimming pool. I
swam to the bottom and I felt someone body weight pushing me further below. I started
panicking, when I finally got this person off of me, I noticed it was Jabu with his shot wound. I
woke up gasping for air. I heard noise coming from the lounge, I walked like a zombie to the
lounge.
I wish I was as brave as Vanessa. We all dressed in black that night, Hakeem drove by to get
Vixen. The rest of the girls travelled in Vanessa’s car.
I couldn’t wait to have fun and forget my problems. When we got to the club, everyone
screamed, “Welcome back Yoliswa”. I was so surprised.
“Surprise!” Vanessa hugged me.
“You organised this?” I asked her teary eyed. “Yes, with the help of these ladies”, she said.
They gave me a group hug.
In no time, we were on the dance floor and all eyes were on us. Vixen was giving Hakeem a lap
dance in the corner.
“She hangs out with him a lot. It’s actually annoying”, Vanessa whispered to my ear.
“She must really be in love”, I said.
“What love? She’s starstruck”, said Vanessa. “She does it all the time. She left with him tonight,
it’s really annoying”, she added.
“Leave them”, I said.
“I’m actually glad Hakeem got his ass beaten”, Vanessa laughed.
“How can you say that?” I giggled awkwardly. Vanessa just stick her tongue out and started
dancing.
The club was packed!
Vanessa ran to her two male friends, Ishmael and Tebogo. I recognised them, I wasn’t fully over
that night when I saw Vanessa half naked and us kissing. Only to be told by her I was
hallucinating. I went to sit down, catch my breathe a little bit. I saw Hakeem walking towards me
smiling, Vixen was nowhere in sight.
It was good to see Vixen dancing with the girls, Hakeem was sitting with his friends. I had a
great time, when we went home I couldn’t barely walk. There was an argue between Vanessa
and her male friends, they argued that she was too drunk to drive so they drove us home.
Vanessa is very stubborn.
When we got to the apartment, we had our little party. We were all drunk, I caught a glimpse of
Vixen flirting with the boys.
Alcohol was flowing, we played spin the bottle. I drank so much I blacked out. When I opened
my eyes I was in bed, Sihle was drinking water.
I went to look for Vanessa in her room but she wasn’t there. It was awkwardly silent around the
apartment. Puleng and Vixen were nowhere to be seen.
“Where’s everyone?” I asked Sihle.
“They went out for breakfast”, she said.
“Okay. So when I was asking for forgiveness and crying, you and who were present?” I asked.
“Just me and Puleng then Vanessa came and took you to bed with the help of her male friends”,
she said.
“Last night was fun. Let me go make coffee”, I wanted to beat myself for the lack of control. I
should control my drinking, what if next time I spill the beans regarding Jabu’s murder? I wasn’t
even sure if he was really dead, Vanessa says he’s dead but Raymond said he’s alive.
The girls came back in the afternoon, they brought us lunch. Vanessa didn’t say a word to me,
she was cold.
“Did Sihle tell you how drunk you were?” Asked Puleng. “You were so drunk. ‘I’m sorry for what
happened. It didn’t have to go the way it did. I’m sorry'”, she imitated me.
“I don’t wanna hear about it again”, I said shyly.
“I wonder who were you talking about”, she said.
“Oh please, Puleng you heard what she said. She doesn’t wanna hear about it, change the
damn subject”, Vanessa said angrily.
“Whoa. Sorry Yoliswa”, Puleng said to Vanessa.
We hugged and squashed everything. Vanessa told the girls that I’m going to share a room with
her and that Puleng will move into my old room with Sihle and Vixen. Puleng took it well, there
was no arguing.
A month later.
Me, Vanessa and Vixen grew closer because we worked at the same time. Hakeem and his
friends jokingly referred to us as Destiny’s Child, usually followed by which member is which girl.
I finally met up with the detective the past month and I feel a lot more relieved because it all
passed. I have been busy in the club but I wanted to go back to looking for my mother. Vanessa
suggested I meet up with a PI, she said she’ll accompany me.
The last time I spoke or seen Nosipho was at Martin’s party. We don’t speak like before
because our conversations usually ended with me defending Vanessa. I couldn’t understand
why she was obsessed with Vanessa when she’s not her favourite person.
Thando visited me at work, although I don’t speak with Nosipho anymore, I still maintain contact
with him.
“I should meet the owner of this restaurant. This place is sick”, said Thando.
“I know him, he’s friends with Vanessa”, I said. He gave me a grin.
“What?” I asked him.
“You know everyone now?” He asked.
“Not everyone, some people”, I said.
“Don’t mix with everyone. Look at Nosipho, she learnt her lesson”
“I’m not Nosipho”
“I’m just saying”
“I don’t want a lecture”
“Fine”
“Good”
“Are you mad at me now?”
“Yes”
“Okay”
“Very mad”
“I’m sorry. We’re in a beautiful restaurant, let’s not spoil it”
“You did not me”
“You gonna blow this thing up”
“Just shut up, Thando”
“Loosen the fuck up, bruh. What the hell?”
“You’re such an ass”
“I’m an ass”
“You are”
“Let’s lighten the mood”
“Whatever”
“You know I’ll stand up and dance in front of everyone if you carry on like this. Or stand on the
table”
“You wouldn’t do that”
“I can”
“Don’t do it, you’re going to embarrass us”
“Us?”
“Yeah, you and me”
“Don’t worry, I won’t. Let’s talk about us”
“What about us?”
“I like the sound of us”
“We’ve talked about this and – ”
“It’s cool. Whatever makes you happy I’m happy”
“You’re so cheesy”
“Like a cheese spread?”
“Like a cheese spread”
“I’d like to spread something else”
Thando was really smooth, although he annoyed me sometimes, there was something about
him I liked so much. I couldn’t quite figure out what.
He stuck out his tongue and wiggled it. He can be silly sometimes, we laughed at his silliness. I
ended up having a good lunch out. He drove me to work, we planned to meet again in the
evening.
Vanessa gave me a naughty smile from across the room. She walked towards me with a tablet
in hand.
“I heard you and King Pin went out for lunch”, she said.
“Yeah, we did”, I said.
“When are you guys making it official?” She asked. I was surprised she asked because she’s
been pulling me in Hakeem’s direction but not much ever since Vixen got close with us.
“You know we’re just friends”, I said.
“I’m sure Nosipho is jealous of you guys. This is the man she once loved and found out he’s her
cousin”, she said.
“I don’t care about that one”, I really didn’t care what she was feeling.
“Enough of this King Pin and Nosipho talk. I’ve got good news for you. Remember I suggested
you meet up with a PI? Well, I was recommended this guy, he’s really good. His name is Jacob
Peters, I have his contact details. You can contact him whenever you’re ready”, Vanessa gave
me a piece of paper with the guy’s contact details.
I was so excited, it gave me so much hope.
On our long day from work, we ordered pizza. When we got to the apartment, Hakeem and
Vixen were cuddling on the couch.
I called Thando and told him about the double date, he was an uncomfortable as Hakeem but
he said yes. They don’t have a pleasant history, Hakeem is friends with the guy Thando hates
and Hakeem isn’t much of a fan, Thando too. I just hope the double date ends with both of them
walking out alive.
Dine With Me was the perfect place, Vanessa organised a table for us. We were to all meet at
the club afterwards. Vanessa got ready like she was tagging along, when I asked where she
was heading to, she said she’ll rather go to her male friends than stay behind with Puleng and
Sihle. I thought, but you lived with them before me and Vixen moved in.
Me and Vixen took our time getting ready, when we were done, luckily Sihle and Puleng got
home. Hakeem drove us to Dine With Me. Thando’s car was already parked outside. We were
shown our table, he was drinking water. I couldn’t imagine how awkward it was for Hakeem and
Thando, they didn’t shake hands, they nodded their heads. Me and Thando were seated
opposite Vixen and Hakeem.
The club was really packed. Vanessa was dancing with Tebogo, I didn’t see Ishmael. I didn’t
want to leave Thando alone so I danced with him. After some minutes, in walked Nosipho.
“You were right, she’s jealous of me and Thando”, I whispered in Vanessa’s ear.
“I told you. She’s fake this girl”, said Vanessa. “I want you to go and snatch King Pin and dance
with him. Even give him a lengthy kiss then give Nosipho a wink”
I didn’t see Vanessa on the dance floor, I saw Puleng and Sihle, I asked them if they’ve seen
Vanessa, they said she disappeared with some guy. I was worried, I went to look for her in the
rooms upstairs but didn’t see her. I went to the back of the club and I was welcomed by the
scent of marijuana. There she was, smoking with Tebogo and some random guy.
“I was looking all over for you, I was worried”, I said. She laughed and said, “You worry too
much. I’m a big girl, I can take care of myself”
She passed me a blunt.
“Here, lose yourself for once”, she said.
“No, thanks. I’m good”, I said.
“This stuff will make you better. Good is average”, the random guy said.
“Who are you anyway?” I asked him.
“He’s a friend of mine”, Vanessa replied.
“TJ”, the guy extended his hand for a handshake. I stared at his hand, reluctant. I eventually
shook his hand.
“Yoliswa”, I introduced myself.
“Nice to meet you. Join us in heaven”, he said.
I shook my head. “See you inside, Vee”, I went inside.
Later Vanessa entered the club alone. I was seated, my mood shifted slightly, I wasn’t having
fun no more.
“Hey friend who needs to learn to loosen up”, said Vanessa. She hugged me, “Why do I love
you so much?” She was high. “Do you love me too?” She asked.
“Of course I do”, I replied.
“Really?” He asked again.
“You know that”, I said.
“Are you going to leave me?” She asked.
“No. Why are you asking me these questions?” I asked.
“Because people who say they love me always end up leaving me”, she said. Things just went
deep, although she was high, she was saying things she buried deep down.
“I won’t”, I stroke her hair.
“You’re a nice kid. Really nice. But I don’t wish to have your heart. You’re soft”
“I think everyone has their soft side”
“Show me your hard side”
“I don’t want to force it, Vee. It will reveal itself”
“You’re too soft”
“Not really”
“Why didn’t you smoke that blunt?”
“Because I didn’t want to. Since when is smoking a blunt a representation of hardness?”
“It’s not. It’s just that, you’re too conscious. You need to loosen up. Look how you were freaking
out when the detective was on your tail”
“Do you blame me? I don’t want to get on anyone’s bad side”
“That’s the problem. Fuck what everyone thinks”
“The difference between me and you is that I care”
Vanessa went silent then said, “I feel so good right now. Let’s go lose ourselves on the dance
floor”. We ran to the dance floor. My eyes met with Hakeem’s, he smiled at me and continued
dancing with Vixen.
“You two want each other. It’s all written in your faces”, Vanessa whispered in my ear.
“He’s my friend’s boyfriend”, I smiled.
We continued dancing. We went home at around 4am. We had another party at the apartment,
we drank alcohol and blasted the music. We played drinking games. At one point during spin
the bottle, Vanessa and Vixen gave each other a raunchy kiss. I was amused, I suddenly
remembered our encounter. Is this girl straight?
The room started moving, I was drunk. I couldn’t keep my balance, I fell on the couch, so
comfortably I closed my eyes and dosed off.
I relived the Jabu case in my dreams again.
I heard the back door shutting, I turned and it was Jabu.
“What are you doing here? You’re so obsessed with me”, I said.
“Bitch you’ve gotten away with a lot of shit. I don’t let a bitch walk all over me”, he said.
“Get lost you asshole”, I said. He grabbed me by my hair, pushed me and I fell. He grabbed me
up, knocked me against the wall, he called me all types of names. He smacked me, chocked me
and told me I was going to die a painful death. I cried, he overpowered me. I just heard two
shots, he looked me in the eyes. His eyes were rolling back, I could feel his weight all over me.
He fell to the ground, my dress had blood stains. Raymond came over to me, he was carrying a
gun. Vanessa was fixing her dress and wearing her shoes.
“Are you okay?” Raymond hugged me. I didn’t know what to say. “That bastard deserved to
die”, he said.
“My friend, are you okay?” Vanessa was worried.
“Yes”, I nodded.
“Let’s take you home”, said Raymond. He took off his jacket and he placed it on my shoulders.
“I’ll deal with him”, said Raymond.
I went to Diamond Lounge or as we call it, Club Diamond. Vanessa was typing on a laptop.
“Good morning my friend”, she said.
“Is he dead?” I asked.
“Who are you talking about?” She asked.
“Jabu, is he dead?” I asked again.
“Oh, him. I don’t know”, she said.
“What do you mean you don’t know Vee?”
“Just like you, I don’t know”
I didn’t feel well in the morning, I didn’t even get a good night rest because we slept in the
morning. It was raining outside. The dream I had was a reminder that I will never escape Jabu’s
death. I was doing so well.
“I never realised how much I missed you before we got to Martin’s”, said Sihle.
“We live together, we share a bedroom and we go out together”, I said.
“I know but we’re always surrounded by people. We were closer when you first got to
Johannesburg”, she said.
“You’re right”, it was so awkward.
“I hope we do this more often”, she said.
“Me too”, I said.
“When are you going to look for your mom?”
“Vanessa referred me to a PI”
“That’s much better”
“Yeah”
“What’s really going on between you and Nosipho’s cousin?”
“Thando?”
“Yes, him”
“We’re just friends, I guess”
“You guess?”
“Yeah. Like, I’m not really attracted to him”
“You’re just attracted to Hakeem?”
“You guys are going to get me into trouble”
“So I’m not the only one who notices?”
“Notices what? Hakeem has a girlfriend and she happens to be a friend of mine”
“That’s tricky. I know you two like each other but as much as I’d love to see two people who like
each other together, he’s your friend’s man”
“Why are you saying that like I’m going to snatch him away from Vixen? Hakeem is just a friend
who happens to be dating my other friend”
I was overwhelmed by guilt. All the times I’d catch Hakeem looking at me and exchange glances
with him, I felt guilty. I enjoyed his attention. But he’s dating my friend, how can I be such a bad
friend?
I enjoyed lunch at Martin’s but I couldn’t shake the guilt I felt. We took a cab home, Vanessa
and Puleng were watching a movie. Vixen wasn’t home though. I dragged Vanessa to her
bedroom.
Vanessa left, she touched my heart. I saw the sincerity in her eyes, that very moment, she won
me over again as a friend. A best friend.
In the evening, we got ready to hit the club. We all wore black. There was a great vibe, mostly
because we all took shots. Minutes later, a Quantum taxi came to fetch us. Vanessa knew the
driver, she knows everyone.
Vixen seemed to be the only one tipsy, she kept telling us how much of a good boyfriend
Hakeem was and how good in bed he was.
We got to the club. I was in a good mood, I couldn’t wait to dance, drink, flirt and just live my life.
Vixen ran into Hakeem’s arms, she was very energetic, I’ve never seen her behave like that.
“I swear, she didn’t take the same shots as us”, I told Vanessa.
“Her true colours are showing”, said Vanessa.
“Look how embarrassed Hakeem is, poor guy”, I said.
“By the end of the night, you’ll be comforting him. I have a feeling”, she said. I just smiled and
shook my head.
We were sitting at the same table as Hakeem and his friends. The alcohol was flooding.
Vanessa disappeared for a while and came back with a card.
I followed Vanessa upstairs. I was nervous, I didn’t want to stay for a long time. When we got
there, they were laughing loudly. They were only four.
“You’re back”, the one smiled. He was light skinned, had dimples and really white teeth. “This is
my friend Yoliswa”, Vanessa introduced me to them.
Mr Sithole was the light skinned one. There was Mr Mbatha who looked scary, he didn’t smile
much. Mr Van Wyk, he looked like a coloured but he spoke IsiZulu. Mr Thabethe was short, he
was the only one who was wearing a ring.
“Join us girls”, Mr Sithole signalled us to sit. I looked at Vanessa, it didn’t look like we were just
going to say hi.
“Loosen up. What are the girls drinking?” Mr Thabethe asked us.
“I’m good”, I said.
“Are you sure?” Asked Mr Van Wyk.
“Yes”, I replied.
“Your friend is really smart. I like her mind, I mean, I love it”, Mr Sithole told me about Vanessa. I
saw his hands creeping under the table, he grabbed her thigh. Vanessa smiled at him.
They turned out to be really nice guys and funny too. After a few hours, they said they were
leaving. I couldn’t believe how time flew. Mr Sithole gave me their business card. We told them
we worked at the club, they didn’t even ask for our numbers. We all left the VVIP room upstairs,
Mr Mbatha turned to me and said, “Here, tomorrow go see a doctor or something”, he gave me
a stack of money. We were trailing behind, Vanessa didn’t see anything. I thanked him, I wanted
to not accept the money but I did.
They left and we went back to our table. I told Vanessa that Mr Mbatha gave me a stack of
money. We went to count it away from the crowd and it was R10 000. I paid Vanessa the money
she borrowed me when I went home. I was so excited, I was even planning on sending some
back home.
We took more shots and danced. Vixen was on the floor, Hakeem had baggage, I felt sorry for
him. Sihle and Puleng later left with Vixen. I saw Hakeem going upstairs, a few minutes later, I
followed him. He went to the storeroom, I opened the door.
I left the storeroom. I felt nausea. The thought of him, I couldn’t say his name without pulling a
face. Maybe I really needed this so I can get over him.
Vanessa was dancing on the table, the TJ guy was sitting across her cheering her on. I went
over and got her off the table.
After a while, Vanessa called her Italian friend, Frankie to come fetch us. He came instantly. He
drove us home. When we got home, Sihle told me that Vixen vomited on my bed and she was
sleeping there. It was so gross. Vanessa said it was okay, I can sleep with her. I was so tired, I
slept instantly.
In the morning I woke up with a horrible hangover. When I went to the kitchen, Hakeem was
eating bacon and eggs. Vixen was busy in the kitchen with an oversized shirt. I didn’t greet
Hakeem, I only greeted Vixen.
I called my cousin, Asisipho. I was happy to hear her voice. I told her I was going to send them
R3000. She was happy to hear that, I even spoke to my grandmother. She sounded fine, I was
happy that she was okay. They didn’t ask me about my mother, I was lowkey glad.
After Vixen and Hakeem left, I took a bath and got ready. Before leaving the house, I sent a
message to the girls, telling them where the key was hidden just in case they arrive before me.
It wasn’t that packed at the mall. I went to send the money via Shoprite Money Market. I sent
Asisipho the numbers and called her and gave her the pin code.
I heard someone calling me at the parking lot, I looked around and it was Mr Mbatha. He got out
of his black Bugatti.
“Hello there, nice to meet you again”, he said. He was wearing an expensive looking suit. He
looked like he was going to attend an awards ceremony.
“Hi, nice to meet you too”, I said nervously.
“Are you in a rush?” He asked. I wanted to say yes but I thought, I was going to get home and
nobody would be back yet. I’d spend the day alone and get bored to death.
“No, I’m not”, I replied.
“I want us to grab something to eat and talk, you know”, he said.
“I’d love that”, I said. He opened his car door. “Please wait for me here. I need to be
somewhere, it won’t take long”, he said. I got into the car.
It looked like I was in a spaceship. The interior looked out of this world. I watched him disappear
then I took multiple selfies. I waited for a long time, he said he wasn’t going to take long but it
was an hour or so. He finally came back.
“I’m sorry, I know I said I wasn’t going to take long but I also didn’t know it was going to take that
long”, he said.
“It’s okay”, I said.
“Thank you for being so understanding”, he smiled.
Moments later, his phone rang, he answered it. I saw his facial expression changing, he
dropped the phone.
“Satan doesn’t rest. That was my partner, he wants to see me, he says it will be brief. We’re
meeting at Martin’s. I’m so sorry, we will still go out. Let me drive there then we can go to a
fancy restaurant”, he said. I nodded, I didn’t have much to say.
He told me about his new restaurant in Pretoria he opened with his partner friend. I was shy to
ask if he had any kids. We arrived at Martin’s. People were looking at the car, he got out, I
waited for him in the car. Just minutes after he got into Martin’s, I saw Nosipho entering
Martin’s, I made sure she didn’t see me. She got out with Thando, they spoke for a while before
parting ways.
After 30 minutes, Mr Mbatha got out. He entered the car.
I thought, this man is filthy rich. I wasn’t familiar with the surroundings we were in but it was a
wealthy neighbourhood. He parked at the parking lot, across a very fancy restaurant called La
Concuna.
“This is it”, he said. He quickly got out of the car and opened the door for me.
“Thank you”, I got out. I felt like such a lady.
When we entered the restaurant, people showed him so much respect. It was like he was a
president. A waiter led us to a table.
He was really great company, the food was amazing, it was so delicious. He told me his funny
childhood stories and his come up stories in the business world. I had so much fun but I was still
nervous. He told me I should call him Walter. We spent hours in the restaurant, I was having
such a good time.
It didn’t feel like Sunday.
When we left La Concuna it was raining, we ran to the car. I was wearing a short sleeved top, I
was cold, I even had chicken skin.
”We need to get you a coat, it’s really cold”, he said. I was shy to say no to him. I didn’t say
anything. He drove to the mall, on the way he kept raving about this boutique he usually buy
some of his clothes at.
When we got to the mall, he led me to Dennis, the name of the boutique. The employees
displayed so much respect for him. They quickly came to assist. So this is how to gain respect
from employees as a customer, you have to be filthy rich. One lady took me to where the coats
were.
”As you can see, our beautiful coats. From Gucci to Burberry to Armani to Dior to Dolce &
Gabbana”, the lady said.
“They’re beautiful”, I said.
“And expensive”, she smiled.
“I just wanted plain and simple and not expensive”, I said.
“I’m sure Mr Mbatha won’t mind. He’s rich”, she said. “I’ve always wondered what it felt like
dating a man who can afford everything. They say money can’t buy happiness but I’d be happy
if I landed on this section once in a while. He’s come with a variety of girls but you’re not like
them. You’re pretty chilled and like, you’re not bitchy”, she added.
“We’re not together”, I quickly defended myself.
“Oh? I’m so sorry, is he your father?” She asked.
“No”, I looked at the coats.
“So what is he to you then?” She asked. She was so curious and very unprofessional.
“I didn’t come here to discuss what relationship I have with Mr Mbatha. Are you going to assist
or should I ask someone else to assist me?” At this point, I was feeling sassy.
She didn’t say anything, she helped me look for a coat. I finally found a coat, it was a black Dior
leather coat. Mr Mbatha loved it, he paid for it and we left. On our way out, Thando and Nosipho
were entering. Mr Mbatha joked how it was a coincident, I greeted Nosipho but she was so cold.
We left, finally.
I wore my coat. We were parked in the parking lot.
”You look beautiful”, he gave me a compliment. He said that like a thousand times already. I
smiled and accepted the compliment. He slowly moved his hand from the gear to my thigh. I
thought maybe he did it by mistake, he looked me in my eyes and smiled. I awkwardly smiled
back.
”I’m hosting a charity function at my place tomorrow night. I’d love to have you by my side as my
date”, he said.
“I’d love to be your date”, I couldn’t say no because he did so much for me. Giving me R10 000,
taking me to a fancy restaurant and buying me an expensive coat.
He brushed my thigh, “I love your skin”, he said. He started driving. “Tomorrow my driver will
fetch you from work so you can buy an outfit for tomorrow’s charity function. I will call a friend of
mine who owns this boutique, so I can tell him you’re coming by”, he said. I was blown away,
I’m used to people like him on TV.
He dropped me at the apartment, I thanked him. He asked for my phone number, I gave it to
him. It was late when I got home. Everyone was home. The girls were curious to know what I
got up to. I told them everything. In the evening, we started preparing to hit the club.
Me and Vanessa were getting ready in her bedroom.
“So there’s a charity function happening tomorrow and Mr S didn’t even tell me”, she said.
“Maybe he forgot”, I said.
“He’s not that old”, she said. We paused and laughed.
“Are you meeting him tonight?” I asked.
“I don’t know. He didn’t mention anything about the club. Did Mr M mention anything about the
club?” She asked.
“Not at all”, I replied. I could see Vanessa was a bit disappointed. “What meeting were you on?”
I asked.
“Business”, she replied. She didn’t say much.
When it was 10PM we left the apartment. A Quantum took us to the club. We sang along to
songs playing in the radio, it was so fun but we haven’t had anything to drink yet.
When we got to the club, as usual, Vixen went to Hakeem. She acts like a clingy girlfriend, it’s
annoying.
We all took shots except for Vixen who was busy with Hakeem.
“Vixen is annoying now. We get it, you’re dating Hakeem”, I said annoyingly.
”She’s in love”, said Sihle.
“That’s obsession not love”, I said.
“Are you the master of love now?” Sihle asked sarcastically.
“Why are we even talking about Vixen? Let’s get drunk”, Vanessa poured shots.
We took shots after shots. I was really drunk, I couldn’t stand still. While we were dancing,
Vanessa told me she saw Mr Sithole. She wanted me to accompany her upstairs, I was so
drunk, I didn’t want to face him and his friends like this.
”My friend I’m wasted. I don’t want them to see me like this”, I said.
“Fine. I’ll go by myself”, she went upstairs. She was not drunk at all, that surprised me because
she took shots with us and more even.
After a few minutes, I felt dizzy. The room was moving. Vanessa held my hand and drag me to
the dance floor. I didn’t feel drunk, I felt light. It was kind of a nice feeling. We left the club. I felt
so sleepy, I don’t remember our ride but I remember bits. Like waking up with Tebogo closing
the door of the bedroom me and Vanessa were in. We were left alone.
I closed my eyes, when I opened them again, we were kissing passionately. She sucked my
neck and planted kisses on my face. When I looked in the mirror, I had a love bite on my neck. I
closed my eyes, when I opened them, she was on top of me. Her face changed to Jabu’s face. I
screamed.
It was a blur after that.
I felt someone waking me up, I was on the couch. I don’t remember arriving at the apartment.
Vanessa was already dressed. She gave me a glass of water.
“You must get ready for work”, she said. I was so lost, the rest of the girls weren’t there.
“Where’s everyone?” I asked.
“It’s Monday. Sihle is at school, Puleng and Vixen are at work”, she said. I watched Vanessa
moving up and down the apartment, what happened last night was replaying in my mind. I tried
to put the pieces together but I couldn’t.
“What happened last night?” I asked her.
“We had an amazing night. It was crazy!” She said enthusiastically.
“How crazy?” I wanted her to tell me everything that happened.
“Very”, she smiled.
I went to take a shower. I tried to remember everything but I couldn’t. I quickly went to look
myself in the bathroom mirror. I remembered the love bite I had on my neck, but it wasn’t there.
Maybe I was imagining things. Something happened between me and Vanessa, how can she
act like nothing happened? Or she was drunk? But her memory is great and I was more drunk
than her. I continued taking a shower.
After the shower I got dressed. When I was done, we left the apartment. Vanessa drove to work.
“You’re very quiet. You’ve been quite distant, what’s wrong?” She asked.
“I just want you to be straight up with me”, I said.
“Okay? I’ve been straight up with you, what’s up?” She raised her eyebrow.
“What really happened last night?”
“I think I told you, we had a crazy night”
“Give me details”
“We drank, danced, sang, stopped at the boys’ apartment and went home”
“What happened when we were at the boys’ apartment?”
“We played the 30 seconds game but the drunk edition. It was so fun!”
“And then what happened?”
“Tebogo dared you to kiss Ishmael. You were on fire last night!”
“And then what happened? Who did I kiss next?”
“Nobody. You’re asking me a million questions, is everything okay?”
“Please, be straight up with me”
“Excuse me? Have I not been straight up with you? Where is this coming from? If you hanged
out with Nosipho last night, I would have been sure she said something to you but you didn’t”
“There are things that happened last night that you’re not telling me”
“If you know so much then what’s the point of me even telling you?”
“So you agree you’re not telling me everything?”
“You’re putting words in my mouth. I told you everything you needed to know. You don’t expect
me to tell you our journey to the club too”
“I remember that. It’s after we left the club that’s a blur. But something happened between us.
We can’t act like nothing happened”
“It’s nothing though”
“Nothing? Are you kidding me?”
“You’re back to your old self now, how wonderful – not”
“What happened last night shouldn’t have happened”
“It was a mistake -”
“It’s the second time now! You denied it the first time”
“What are you talking about?”
“Don’t act like you don’t know”
“Yoliswa, my friend, I was talking about my bottle of wine you knocked off by mistake”
“Oh”
“What were you talking about?”
“It’s nothing”
I was embarrassed. The drive to the club was awkward, I was not feeling like myself. I don’t
know what was happening, if I was imagining things, why was Vanessa in the mix? Why not
anyone other than her?
We got to the club, Hakeem took over Rashidi’s position as the manager so he called a
meeting. I wasn’t even in the mood for a meeting or hear him talk. He said we didn’t respect the
rules of the club like there were rules in the first place. He passed around a paper with rules
written down. He said if we didn’t abide by the rules, we were going to get a strike. If we had
three strikes then we would get fired. He said he’s open to suggestions for themed parties.
”Anyone with a suggestion?” He asked. There was silence for a few seconds until a girl with
purple hair, her name was Dolly, raised her hand.
“We should have pyjama parties, that would be insane”, she said. Everyone bust out laughing.
“Did she tell a joke?” Hakeem was so serious.
“Come on Hakeem, we know you want to laugh. We would host pyjama parties if we were a
group of twelve year olds”, said Vanessa.
“Do you have a better suggestion?” Asked Hakeem.
“Yes. We can host foam parties”, she said. Everyone mumbled in agreement.
“Not bad”, Hakeem nodded his head. Vanessa slowly walked towards Hakeem, she fixed his tie
and said, “You might have created silly rules but at least you have more structure than Rashidi.
We’re going to rake in a lot of money.” I looked at Vixen, trying to catch her reaction. She didn’t
seem happy, I smiled to myself.
”Thank you Vanessa, now go back to your seat”, Hakeem pointed to her seat. He acted so
serious. I couldn’t believe how someone can share a table with us, drink with us then act all
mighty. I know he’s the manager and holds authority over us but he needs to stop acting like
this intimidating guy, clearly he’s not.
“Any other suggestions? If not, then on to the next thing. There will be different roles in the club.
There will be the maintenance team, the admins and the bartenders”, he said. We were baffled,
we looked at each other in confusion.
“What will the admins do?” Asked Vanessa. She was the only one who had the balls to question
authority.
“Think what do admins who work in the office do then think club”, he said.
“We’re going to answer the telephone?” Vanessa laughed. Everyone laughed.
“Admins will get to be in control of the poster design for our themed parties”, he said.
Everyone’s face started to change, who wouldn’t want to be an admin?
“I will interview you girls tomorrow so I can decide what team you belong to. This meeting is
dismissed”, he left.
The girls were excited all of a sudden. Vanessa was so sure she was going to be an admin.
I won’t lie, I also wanted to be an admin. A few minutes after the meeting ended, Vanessa and
Vixen disappeared. No one knew where they went. I got a message from Vanessa saying I
should come upstairs. I went upstairs and saw them drinking.
A few minutes later, Vanessa and Vixen got out of the room. Vanessa went to sit next to me.
“You’re such a party pooper”, she said.
“I’d rather be a party pooper than not being able to walk straight the entire day”, I said.
“Look how I’m walking”, Vanessa catwalked across the room. “See? I’m walked straight. But I
still love you because you’re my best friend”, she hugged me.
In the afternoon a man wearing a tuxedo and white formal gloves entered the club. He was an
old man, he said he was looking for me. It dawned on me, he’s Mr Mbatha’s driver – his
chauffeur. I left the club, the girls watched me. Outside, a black limousine was parked. I’ve
never been on a limousine. It brought back childhood memories, when I dreamt of this day,
finally. I was so excited. The old man opened the door for me, he said they called him Madala.
No surprise there. There was an ice bucket and champagne, he said I can help myself. I only
poured myself a little. He didn’t speak much, he drove me to the shop.
When I got to the boutique, the people working there were so friendly. I felt like I was the first
lady. I fitted the dresses, it felt like I was playing dress up, something I dreamt of as a child. I
was so happy. It felt like I wore every dress there, finally, I found the dress for me. It hugged
every curve on my body, it was made for me. The whole boutique stopped and adored me.
I admired myself in the mirror, soon, the room was filled with familiar faces. I saw my friends
from back home, my family, my roommates, Metaphor, Hakeem, Nosipho, Thando and Richard.
They were seated, I noticed a red carpet, I walked on it, Mr Mbatha was waiting for me in a
tuxedo. The distance between me and him became longer, I couldn’t reach him. I finally gave. I
saw him kissing Vanessa on the cheeks, I was shocked.
“You look beautiful”, the employee said. I snapped out of the daydream.
“Thank you, I love it”, I smiled.
I got everything I needed, I asked Madala to drive me home instead of the club. I called
Vanessa and told her to stick up for me when Hakeem notices I’m not there.
Sihle was home, luckily she helped me with my hair while I told her about my ride to the
boutique.
“So what’s happening between you and this Mr? I never imagined you to be one of those girls”,
she said.
“One of those girls?” I asked.
“Yeah, like, those girls who like sugar daddies. I don’t blame you though, a girl’s gotta do what a
girl’s gotta do”
“I’m not those girls, Sihle”
“Then why would a grown man spend so much on a beautiful girl without wanting anything in
return?”
“I’m not dating him. If he wants something in return, that’s him. I’m not planning to sleep with
him”
“I’m just saying, no grown man spends so much on a beautiful girl without wanting anything in
return. If you don’t give him what he wants, he’ll toss you away like a bag of trash”
“What are you saying? I should give him what he wants?”
“Do you want to give him what he wants?”
“No”
“Then don’t. Stop leading him on. In his head, he thinks he’s got you because you’re accepting
his gifts”
“I do like his gifts. He treats me like a princess but I don’t want to sleep with him or be with him”
“If you don’t want him to start treating you like his property, stop this while it’s still early. You
don’t want him thinking he owns you just because he spends money on you”
This is why I love Sihle, she says it like it is. She never hypes me up. I always seek her advice.
She finished doing my hair, my hair looked great. I did my make-up, I took long because I
wanted it to be perfect. A few hours later, I was all dressed up. All the girls were there, Vanessa,
Puleng and Vixen were back from work. I got a call from Mr Mbatha aka Walter, he said his
driver was driving him to my apartment. I was really nervous because I don’t know if he was
going to like my outfit, he spent thousands on me.
“You look like you got out of those stylish magazines, you look beautiful”, said Vanessa. Her
approval made me even more confident.
“Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do”, said Sihle.
“Don’t drink too much”, said Puleng. The girls were giving me all the advice I needed and didn’t
need.
“Thank you girls for your wise words”, I said. “I got this”, I said confidently.
There was a knock on the door, maybe that’s him, I thought. Sihle answered the door, there he
was looking good in his suit. He had a new haircut, he looked 10 years younger. I didn’t notice
he had a dimple on his left cheek. He had a bouquet of flowers in his hand.
“You look so beautiful”, he said eyeing me up and down. “Wow. You’re looking good. Wow”, he
was speechless. He gave me the flowers. I handed them to Puleng to put them in a vase. He
led me by hand to the limousine and opened the door for me. The girls watched me, it was like I
was going to a matrix ball. The driver played a slow jam. Walter poured me a glass of
champagne.
“I don’t think I’ll be able to concentrate with you looking like this”, he said.
“You’re also looking good”, I said.
“Thank you. Everyone will be looking at you. Every girl in there will envy you. I don’t blame
them. If I was a girl and I saw you, I’d turn lesbian”, he said. He rubbed my thigh. “I can’t even
get my hands off you”, he whispered. I was uncomfortable.
When we entered the house, there was press and a few guests, other people were on their way.
There were waiters and waitresses, they were serving people. Mr Sithole walked in with a
beautiful girl, she was tall, she looked like a model. She was his date for the night. What about
Vanessa?
If this is how people will introduce their partners, I wonder what Walter will introduce me as. I
just work in the club, I don’t even have a title. I don’t have any money, the biggest thing I’ve
done in my life is gaining the courage to look for my mom in another city. That’s definitely not
something to brag about.
#34 Confessions Of A Xhosa Girl 2
Thando and Nosipho entered the house, I was sitting alone. They walked towards me, I wasn’t
in the mood for Nosipho.
“Hey Yoliswa”, Thando greeted me with a smile. Nosipho just looked at me with a cold gaze.
“Hey Thando”, I smiled.
“You’re looking beautiful”, he said.
“Thank you, you’re looking handsome”, I said.
“I try. You know I didn’t know you knew my partner”, he said.
“I do, it’s recent actually”, I said.
“Where did you guys meet? I wouldn’t be surprised if you said the club”, said Nosipho.
“Where else would I possibly meet him? Definitely not in a dumpster posing as a restaurant”, I
said sarcastically.
“You’re probably his date because his girlfriend couldn’t make it. She’s an accountant, she’s a
busy woman anyway”, said Nosipho.
“Okay girls, stop it”, Thando tried to stop us but Nosipho was still going on.
“Tell your stupid friend, Vanessa to not mess with me again or else I will show her the sky”,
Nosipho’s eyes were filled with grim. “You too”, she said with an icey gaze. I just looked at her
and said nothing, she left.
“I thought you were much better than this. I guess you’re just like girls out there, into money that
you would date a man who’s one foot into the grave”, said Thando.
“Your cousin was one of those girls”, I said.
“There’s a huge difference between was and is”, he walked away.
I’m sure they planned it but I wasn’t bothered, I just came to have a good time. The charity
event finally started, there were seating arrangements. Thando and Nosipho were on the table I
was on, I felt like vomiting. Walter made a speech, photographers took pictures, journalists took
notes and recorded audio. There was a small camera crew, they were taping. I was surprised
how massive it turned out.
Hours later, we were served food. That was after items were sold and the money donated to
charity. The total donation was R1.2m, Walter announced he will add a quarter of a million,
everyone gave him a standing ovation. Everything felt feigned, he was generous and his friends
and people who donated are generous but the lengths he went through are questionable. It all
screams ‘look at me’, maybe it’s a tactic to win the community’s hearts.
Walter kissed me on the cheek, there were just too many flashes. I was overwhelmed, Vanessa
is suitable for these sort of things, not me. I was interviewed by multiple journalists. Most were
curious with what’s going on between me and Walter, it was awkward. I was relieved that the
interviews were over. Metaphor served me food, I was surprised to see him there, last time I
checked, he was working in the book shop. I know we have not been talking to each other but
that moment, I broke my silence.
“Make yourself comfortable”, he said. I sat on his bed, he opened his wardrobe. He took out a
box, it was a present – because it was wrapped. I thought, he did so much for me, what would
this possibly be?
“This is for you”, he handed me the box and sat next to me. I opened the box, he watched me.
When I opened the present, I saw lingerie.
“This is beautiful”, I hugged him.
“It’s not just any lingerie, it’s Agent Provocateur”, he said. It was my first time hearing of that
brand, it sounded really expensive. “Maybe tonight you can try it on when everyone leaves”, he
came closer.
“I’m not too sure about that”, I said.
“You’re shy?” He asked.
“Uhm … Yes”, I lied.
“Don’t be”, he caressed my thigh.
“What about your girlfriend who’s an accountant?” I asked.
“She’s not my girlfriend, she’s my half-sister. Who told you she was my girlfriend?” He asked.
“Thando”, I looked down.
“He’s stupid. He knows Anele is my half-sister. Look at me, what’s wrong?” He asked.
“Mentioning Thando’s name makes me remember what happened before the event started”, I
said.
“What happened?” Walter was concerned.
“Thando and his cousin were ganging up on me. He watched his cousin degrade me and
threaten me”, I cried. Walter consoled me. He said I should stay in the bedroom. He rushed out.
I sat alone, laughing to myself. I walked to the mirror and admired myself, how much of a great,
convincing actress I am.
We kissed again, it felt so good. We eventually left the bedroom. The charity event was a
success, the journalists said we must get a copy of their newspapers the next day. Walter drove
me home and watched me get inside. The girls wanted to know what happened, I told them
everything. They playfully mocked me and called me Mrs Mbatha. I got some private time with
Vanessa.
We got ready to hit the club, it was going to be a buck wild night, just like every other night we
are out.
When we got to the club, Hakeem told us that he wants us to be at work tomorrow at 7:30am, if
we valued our work, we should be there at that time. He looked so serious, I was happy that he
wasn’t going to be in the club, at last Vixen won’t be his clutch bag. She can finally dance with
us!
I didn’t want to drink that much because tomorrow was an important day at work, Hakeem was
going to interview us. Vanessa got us shots, we don’t spend our own money in the club.
Vanessa always says girls make the clubs, men go to the club to see us and try outdo one
another by spending as much as they can on us also trying to gain a reputation. Mr Sithole
entered the club with two other guys I haven’t seen before and the girl I saw at the party.
“This man has got the nerve”, Vanessa gulped her drink. Mr Sithole just walked past us like he
doesn’t know us with his skinny ‘friend’.
“This man is messing with the wrong girl. Yoliswa, I need to speak to you privately”, Vanessa
stood up, I followed her. We got out via the back door.
“Did you see how he walked past us like he’s never seen us before?” She asked furiously.
“I saw him”, I said.
“He doesn’t know me”, she paced up and down.
“You know what I think you should do? I think you should just leave him alone, he doesn’t
deserve you”, I said.
“That’s your advice? Wow. That’s the most stupid thing I’ve heard today after Hakeem’s rules, of
course”, she said.
“You can’t make him want you if he doesn’t. He walked in with the same girl he took to the
charity event, don’t you think if he wanted you, you would be the girl he took to the event and
upstairs?” At this point I was irritated.
“So that’s the bitch he took to the charity event? I’m gonna go upstairs and see what she’s
about”
“Are you sure you want to go through all that trouble for a man who walked past you like you’re
invisible?”
“Don’t make it sound like that, please. I know what I’m doing”
“I just don’t want you to get hurt because he really doesn’t care”
“I’ve never fucked a guy who wants nothing to do with me, correction”
“What? When?”
“When I went to that ‘business meeting’, he enjoyed it. He told me nobody does it like me”
“Wow. That was fast”
“I don’t waste time and I’m going upstairs right now, there’s nothing you can say that will
change my mind. You can go back to the girls, listen to Vixen talk about Hakeem, Sihle talking
about feminism and Puleng whining about how her tummy is”
Vanessa left me there, I just stood there confused. I just shook my head and went inside. This
night was different from other nights, it wasn’t as crazy, it was more laid back. Sihle wanted to
talk to me in private.
“You know, I’m not a judgemental person but I have to say, I’m surprised how you handled the
situation with this old guy. I can’t believe you let me give you advice like you were gonna use it.
You wasted my time, I won’t lie. I’m not buying the he’s-a-nice-guy, you’re not with him because
of that. You know he’s rich, you’re after his money. I’m disappointed in you”, she ranted. She
was a bit tipsy.
“This is funny because back in the apartment, you were cheering me on, now you have alcohol
in your system, you’re calling me out. Seriously? His name is Walter not old guy. Yeah, he has
money but I’m not after it. He actually motivates me to work even harder. He’s a gentle guy, you
don’t know him”, I said.
“Neither do you. It hasn’t even been a week and you think you know him like the back of your
palm? You don’t know how he acts when he’s mad, you don’t know if he’s married or there are a
lot of yous out there or if he has kids. You don’t know him that well”, she said.
“Are you jealous of me? Because it seems like you are”
“Yoliswa why would I be jealous of you?”
“Because no one spends thousands on you”
“This is ridiculous! I don’t envy you, it’s not even your money”
“You should drop this holy attitude of yours!”
“This is who I am!”
“This is who I am too. You’re saying you’re not a judgemental person but judge people every
chance you get. I don’t even wanna carry on now”
We woke up early in the morning, I didn’t have much sleep. I don’t think anyone did. Everyone
was looking at their reflection in the mirror, busy doing make-up. There was silence, I was
thinking about the argument I had with Sihle and the interview. Vanessa asked Puleng if she
doesn’t mind that I switch beds with her, she kindly no. She moved her stuff to Sihle’s bedroom.
I told her that I will take her out for lunch one of these days.
My phone rang, it was Walter.
We finally got to the club, he gave me a card and said Walter said I should call whenever I
wanted to be picked up. I checked the time, we arrived a minute before 7am. Just on time. The
girls were dressed very professional, I was surprised, they took it serious. I know everyone is
probably hoping to be admin.
We waited for 7:30am, I listened to the girls go on about what they did the previous night and
the interview. Then out of the blue, 6 guys appeared. They said they were there for the
interview, we were all surprised. Hakeem was really taking this changing-things-around-here
seriously. We didn’t have any male workers, I guess it was good for the business. We were a
total of 12 girls.
It was finally time for the interviews, Hakeem called one girl that was close to his office. The girls
changed their sitting arrangements, some weren’t ready to be interviewed. I just sat in my seat, I
was sitting next to Vanessa, she wasn’t herself, I was worried.
“You know, what Madala said in the car – “, Vanessa interrupted me.
“I’m not interested. And life isn’t that simple”, she said.
“You’ve been acting weird since last night. Does this have anything to do with Mr Sithole?” I
asked.
“No”, she muttered. She looked around then came closer and whispered, “Richard said the body
is in the boat”
“What? I thought he got rid of it”, I whispered.
“Apparently the guy he paid to get rid of the body has been blackmailing him. He’s coming back
to ‘deal’ with the man”, she said.
“I don’t like this one bit”, I said.
“He wants us to get to know the guy, he says it’s the only way we can get to the body. I also
don’t like this”, she said.
“Where does this guy live?” I asked.
“Around Jozi. He gave me his address. This is stressing me but if we have to do this to clean
our tracks, why not? We just have to be, you know, strong and here for one another”, she said.
“Yes”, I held her hand, she smiled.
I took a deep breathe, I needed to be strong not only for myself but Vanessa as well. I waited for
my turn anxiously.
I was lost in my own world, I forgot I was sitting, waiting for an interview. In no time, it was my
turn. I walked to Hakeem’s office, closed the door and took a seat.
I left Hakeem’s office feeling uncertain, Vanessa was the next person up, I wished her luck. My
head was spinning. The thought of Jabu’s body coming back to haunt me, I thought I passed
that stage. I went to the bathroom to vomit. I locked myself in one of the stalls and cried. I heard
voices, I kept quiet.
“Vanessa says this works and she tried it on someone”, I heard a girl talking to another. I
couldn’t quite figure who, I don’t know everyone to the point of distinguishing their voices.
“She’s gonna make big bucks with these babies”, one girl added. They were in the bathroom for
a few minutes then left, I waited a few minutes then left too.
5 hours later.
Everyone was waiting for the results, Hakeem said he will put up the results on the wall. The
girls nervously waited for the results. Hakeem put up the results and everyone ran to check their
names. I waited for the region to clear up. Vanessa came back saying she got the admin job,
Vixen too. Well, Vixen only got that job because she’s Hakeem’s girlfriend. I went to check my
name and I got the bartender job, I couldn’t believe my eyes, not even maintenance. Hakeem
went to join us, they clapped for him, I just folded my arms.
“As you can see, there are a few guys with us. They work here now. I will call the names of
those in charge of these respective jobs. Steven you’re in charge of the admins, Jason you’re in
charge of maintenance and Robbie you’re in charge of the bartenders”, he said.
Hakeem didn’t say anything, he just left. Vanessa comforted me. I called Walter and told him, I
plan on having lunch with him, he was happy to hear that. Vanessa took a cab home, I called
Madala. Walter said he’s heading to La Concuna, Madala drove there. When I got there, no one
but Walter was there. I smiled.
Emily Tontho let out an exhausted sigh after reading a mini background report wrote by one of
the department’s private investigators, Lorenzo Van Wyk. Emily is a 26-year-old rookie who just
got her first major investigation case. She was thrilled, this is what she always dreamed of.
Finally, the years spent writing essays of 5000 words and learning about criminology in
university will come in handy.
Emily was in her office daydreaming when a knock interrupted her daydream. It was Lorenzo
Van Wyk, he had two coffees in hand.
Lorenzo: I went to the cafeteria and came back with these (he hands Emily the hot coffee) be
careful it’s hot.
Emily: (she places the coffee aside) Thanks mate. I read your report and there are many red
flags.
Lorenzo: Who do you suspect of murder?
Emily: Everyone. Everyone close to Majola is a suspect at this point.
Lorenzo: It’s really sad what people do for money.
Emily: (sips coffee) Money is the root of all evil.
Lorenzo: Yeah, you can say that again. What are you doing today? Are you going back to the
crime scene or what?
Emily: After this coffee, I have to go back to the crime scene. Yesterday I managed to talk to a
few neighbours, I need to speak to more neighbours. A man across the street was a tough
cookie, he didn’t want to say anything. I could see in his eyes that he was hiding something but
I’m going to knock on his door today, I might as well be a nuisance until he spills the beans.
Lorenzo: Good luck with that, I’m going to interview the Westside guy for the online crime show.
Emily: Oh yeah, the guy that witnessed the bank robbery?
Lorenzo: Yeah (looks at his wrist watch) I think it’s time for me to get moving. Andy hates it
when I’m late, good luck with the case.
Emily: Thanks.
Lorenzo: I’ll tell you when the episode is online, okay?
Emily: Please do.
Lorenzo: Bye.
Lorenzo left Emily’s office. Emily read the background report again.
She didn’t finish her coffee, she quickly rushed to her car outside. The reception was full of
policemen and policewomen, Emily smiled. Everyone likes Asakhe’s baking. Many hands dug
into the tupperware that was full of muffins. Emily went out, she got into her car, just when she
was starting her car, Vusi ran to her. Vusi worked in the laboratory, he had a file in his hand and
his other hand was holding a bitten muffin.
Vusi: Hey, excuse me (he swallowed the muffin) sorry about that.
Emily: Everyone loves Asakhe’s baking, you even got into the craze.
Vusi: (laughs) She’s the best baker we have in the station. So…I should give you this (hands
her a file) this contains everything we found on the crime scene but my men are still doing the
digging right now. I was going to meet them a bit later and…(checks wrist watch) damn it!
Emily: You’re late?
Vusi: Yeah, yeah – I have to get going right now.
Emily: You wouldn’t be late if you didn’t spend your time overdosing on Asakhe’s muffins.
Vusi: Let me get going. I can’t help it, alright? She’s a great baker.
Emily: (shakes head)
Emily drove away, she made her way to the crime scene.
The suburb was at a stand still. The atmosphere was heavy. Majola’s death took a toll on the
suburb. Emily got out of her car and she went to knock on the neighbour that lived across
Majola’s house. She knocked for a long time before the neighbour opened the door. The
neighbour, Mr Jennings looked like a strict man. He had large thick glasses with brown frames,
he had a thick mustache, he had thick eyebrows, his ears were pointy, his cheeks were red, his
hair was blonde and curly. He was wearing a blue shirt, black pants and big black construction
boots.
A woman’s voice in the house asked, “Patrick who are you talking to?” Mr Jennings replied
hesitantly, “Nobody honey”.
A woman appeared.
Paula: Don’t mind him, he’s just a stubborn man. I’m Paula Jennings, who are you?
Emily: I’m Emily Tontho, a detective. I came to investigate on the Majola case.
Paula: Poor Majola, he was a good man. Emily: How well did you know him?
Paula: Not that well, me and Patrick moved here six months ago.
Emily: Oh?
Paula: Yes, sorry for being over excited, we don’t get visitors much often.
Emily: Don’t be sorry. Why didn’t Mr Jennings just tell me that he’s still a newby?
Paula: As I said, my husband is a stubborn man.
Emily: Did you witness the fight between Mr Lewis and Majola?
Emily entered Mr Lewis’ house. It was a large house. The enthusiastic girl led Emily to the
lounge.
Mr Lewis was an old man. He was bald, his skin was pale. He was wearing glasses, he had
bright blue eyes. He was wearing a blue and white stripped golf t-shirt, white shorts and
sandals. He looked like a harmless man.
Emily: I heard that you had an argument with Majola before he was murdered.
Mr Lewis: We sorted everything out, we were civil with each other.
Emily: What caused the fight?
Mr Lewis: My daughter, Betty’s mother recently got divorced. She hired one of the lawyers at
Majola’s firm but Majola fired the guy. This lawyer didn’t tell my daughter that he was fired. My
daughter payed this man a huge chunk of money. I confronted Majola when I found out. It was
wrong to do so but at that time it felt right. I didn’t understand why Majola didn’t transfer this
guy’s customers to another lawyer, I thought it was very amateur, you understand?
Emily: Who’s this lawyer?
Mr Lewis: Frederick Smith
Emily: Okay. Did your daughter get her money back from this lawyer? What happened?
Mr Lewis: Majola blacklisted this man, she didn’t get her money back but she got another
lawyer.
Emily: Alright, before I came here I visited Mr Jennings. Are you familiar with him?
Mr Lewis: Ah, no. He doesn’t say much, he doesn’t have friends in this area at all. It’s not
healthy, you see? He shuts everyone down. Why do you ask?
Emily: I was just asking, that’s part of my job. The last time you saw Majola, how was his
mood?
Mr Lewis: He was happy. I was surprised when I heard the news of his passing.
Emily: Did you notice anything out of the ordinary the day he was murdered? Mr Lewis: Not at
all.
Emily: Did you hear any gunshots?
Mr Lewis: No.
Emily: No? Okay.
Mr Lewis: Is that all?
Emily: For now, yes.
Mr Lewis: Alright, enjoy your day.
Emily left Mr Lewis’ house. She went to Majola’s house, the police were everywhere. Michelle
was doing an interview with the news reporter, there were journalists everywhere. Majola was a
well known man in Sunnyside. Majola’s son, Bongani was sitting in the lounge.
Michelle: Detective Tontho, what are you doing in this house at a time of mourning?
Michelle was a mixed race woman. She had a nice curvy body, she looked stylish. She was
strikingly beautiful, she had big curly hair. No wonder Majola fell for her.
Michelle: We’re mourning the death of a husband, a father, a friend and a great man. Majola
was a great man, may his soul rest in peace. He didn’t deserve to die like an animal.
Emily: I would love to ask you a few questions.
Michelle: Follow me.
Emily followed Michelle. Majola’s house was so big, it looked like a castle. They passed many
rooms until Michelle entered a cosy study room. She sat in a chair, Emily also grabbed a seat.
Michelle: This is my late husband’s study room. He worked long hours here, he was such a
workaholic.
Emily: Bongani told me that you were the first to leave the house yesterday.
Michelle: I had to rush to the mall, I was meant to meet my husband for a lovely lunch later that
day.
Emily: At what time?
Michelle: At 3 ‘o clock.
Emily: You also went to help around the bakery shop.
Michelle: Yes –
Emily: (interrupts) I imagined a woman like you would come straight home and try the outfits you
bought, rather than being a cashier at a bakery shop or doing whatever you were doing there.
Michelle: (smiles) I love to help around the bakery shop. Did Bongani tell you that the whole
family like to help around the bakery? Me, Majola, Bongani, Athabile and Yoliswa.
Emily: That’s a great bonding session. I just can’t keep my mind off yesterday though. (Looks at
Michelle’s shoes) Working in six inch stilettos is fun, huh?
Michelle: Much comfortable than those shoes you’re wearing.
Emily: So Athabile and Yoliswa are always around?
Michelle: Yeah, Majola really love his girls. Athabile is his favourite child, maybe because she’s
an A student and she’s really interested in studying law. All Majola wanted was his children to
take over his legacy and run the firm after he’s gone. That came early, too early (wipes tears
with a tissue) his kids didn’t want anything to do with law, Athabile was the only kid interested in
law. She wants to be a lawyer when she grows up.
Emily: Athabile was daddy’s girl?
Michelle: Yeah, she’s a sweet girl. Majola didn’t like it when she started dating, in my opinion
she’s old enough.
Emily: I’m guessing that broke some connection links between father and daughter?
Michelle: A bit – actually a lot because I just realised that it’s been a week since she visited.
Emily: I heard that you and Majola’s ex wife don’t get along and also his son, Athenkosi doesn’t
fancy you.
Michelle: I tried being civil with that woman, she’s just jealous of me. Can you believe she told
her kids to never step foot in this house ever again? No wonder Athenkosi hates me.
Emily: How were things between Majola and her?
Michelle: Very awkward. She’s a very evil, vengeful person. She’s dating Majola’s cousin, she’s
evil.
Emily: Apparently Majola and his cousin don’t get along.
Michelle: That’s true, his cousin is just a jealous guy. He’s always been jealous of Majola, he
didn’t have what it takes to compete against Majola.
Emily: Did Majola have enemies?
Michelle: Lots!
Emily: Do you know of any?
Michelle: Edward, Nomzamo, Patrick, Steven and other lawyers whom I can’t name because
they’re a lot of them.
Emily: I thought you said things were awkward between Nomzamo and Majola. You didn’t say
they were enemies.
Michelle: She hated him, she said she would never forgive him for choosing me over her.
Emily: Did you ever witnessed an argument between Majola and his ex wife?
Michelle: Apparently in her house when Majola went to speak to his stubborn son, Athenkosi.
Emily: Apparently?
Michelle: Athabile told me.
Emily: Oh.
Michelle: (phone rings) Uhm…this is an important call, excuse me (stands)
Emily: Thank you for allowing me into your home, I’ll talk to you soon (stands)
Michelle: Have a nice day detective.
Emily: You too Michelle.
After long hours questioning the neighbours, Emily went straight home. She lived with his father,
Andile Joseph Tontho, a former detective. Joseph, as he is called, is a kind man. He is 56 years
old, he was a detective for 26 years. He retired when he was 47 years old due to an injury that
put him in a wheelchair. He got into a bad car accident and his legs were numb ever since.
Emily’s mother, Eunice was a grade 8 English teacher. She passed away four years ago after
losing a battle with breast cancer. Emily’s father used to work at Sunnyside Police Station, the
same station that his daughter now works. Emily has an older brother, his name is Bantu and
he’s 30 years old. He’s a male nurse and he doesn’t have the great son-father relationship with
his dad. Emily was always a daddy’s girl since birth. She has a striking resemblance with her
father’s mother who passed away when her father was a teenager. Emily only know her
grandmother in photos. Emily is a beautiful girl with dimples like her grandmother but she grew
up as a tomboy. She’s still a tomboy at heart.
Emily opened the door, she ran to the couch and lays there.
Emily and her dad ate supper. After that, Emily went to sleep – she had a long day tomorrow.
While most people were sleeping at 00h07, Vusi was in the laboratory working. He heard
someone’s footsteps.
He looked around and saw no one. He walked out of the room, he saw a room open. He heard
someone going through the files in the cabinet. Vusi slowly crept in the room.
Vusi: Jack?
Jack: (gets a fright) Man, don’t do that!
Vusi: What are you doing?
Jack: I’m looking for a file.
Vusi: What file?
Jack: (holds chest) That red file. Man, you gave me a fright.
Vusi: (laughs) I gave that file to Emily.
Jack: That detective chick you were talking to yesterday?
Vusi: Today not yesterday.
Jack: Buddy you might as well check your watch. It’s midnight.
Vusi: Midnight? (Checks wrist watch) Shit! Time flies.
Jack: You’re officially part of the midnight crew now.
Vusi: Midnight crew?
Jack: Yes, also known as security guard hours.
Vusi: Where were you?
Jack: Out – so when are we going to the crime scene? 6am?
Vusi: 7
Jack: Yeah (scratches head) Now I remember. Thanks buddy, I have to leave now. Wifey will
be mad!
Vusi: Oh, so you’re leaving?
Jack: Aren’t you leaving?
Vusi: I have tons of work to do.
Jack: You know what you want?
Vusi: Arg! I know, “a girlfriend, a kid and a life”.
Jack: (laughs) See you at the crime scene.
Vusi: (nods head) Drive safely.
The time was 5am, Emily woke up and she went to the lounge. She went through the file Vusi
gave her yesterday.
Emily: (reading softly) Majola suffered a few broken bones and a fractured skull. The window
was broken which shows forced entry. Majola has fighting wounds, a bloody baseball bat and
hammer were found next to the body. Majola had three shots, one in the chest, one in the rib
cage and another in the heart. His neck looked like he was strangled. (Stops reading)
Lorenzo: (smiles) Good morning my favourite detective in the whole wide world.
Emily: (giggles) I’ve been a detective for five seconds and I’m already your favourite in the
whole wide world.
Lorenzo: (laughs)
Emily: Good morning Lorenzo, good to see you here again.
Lorenzo: Ncaaw, did you miss me? (playfully strokes Emily’s cheek)
Emily: (laughs) What I meant was, what are you doing here?
Lorenzo: Good to be back, Em’. The episode is online, better watch it.
Emily: Great, I will.
Lorenzo: What’s up Vusi?
Vusi: I’m good my man, you?
Lorenzo: Great.
Vusi: Alright Emily, chat to you soon. Take care Lorenzo (leaves).
Emily: Oh, okay.
Lorenzo: Alright man.
Majola’s house was surrounded by the police and journalists. Michelle was having an interview
with a journalist. Emily went back to the spot Majola was murdered. She walked around, she
looked out of the broken window and she saw a brick. Emily went out of the house, she went to
check the brick. After a few minutes examining the house, Emily went to Nomzamo’s house.
Nomzamo was Majola’s ex wife. She didn’t look like she was happy.
Emily went to Athenkosi’s room. She knocked on the door, music was playing loudly. Emily just
opened the door. Athenkosi was laying on his back.
Athenkosi: (turns off music) Ever heard of knocking?
Emily: If you weren’t playing music that loud, you would have heard me knock.
Athenkosi: You’re already in so…(shrugs)
Emily: I want to ask you a few questions.
Athenkosi: About?
Emily: Oh (smiles) I’m Emily and I’m a detective. I’m investigating the Majola case.
Athenkosi: Okay, a few questions, right?
Emily: Yes. Tell me, when last did you see your dad?
Athenkosi: It was a long time ago. I don’t know when.
Emily: How was your relationship with your dad?
Athenkosi: Alright.
Emily: And your relationship with Michelle?
Athenkosi: Non existent.
Emily: What about your half brother?
Athenkosi: You came here to ask me about my relationships with these people?
Emily: I’m doing my job.
Athenkosi: I don’t have time for this.
Emily: Excuse me?
Athenkosi: If you really want to know who killed my dad, you should be talking to Michelle and
not me.
Jack: So?
Vusi: So what?
Jack: Did you ask for her number? Or did you ask her out?
Vusi: Here’s the file you wanted (hands him the file)
Jack: Why are you making copies of? What’s that? Shoe prints?
Vusi: Emily want copies of these.
Jack: Oh.
Vusi: Please do me a favour.
Jack: Anything my man.
Vusi: Go and do your work and stop asking me dumb questions.
Jack: Hey, hey –
Vusi: (interrupts) You’re my assistant, I’m asking you to assist me. What are you waiting for?
The work won’t do itself, go.
Jack: Someone’s sexually frustrated (leaves the room)
Emily went to the Captain’s office. Before approaching his office, she stood in front of a large
cabinet with trophies and names of past detectives in the Hall of Fame section. Emily liked
looking at the cabinet every chance she had, her father was one of the best detectives in the
station but his name was never written.
The Captain got out of his office, he saw Emily looking at the cabinet. The Captain stood there
and looked at her.
Emily rushed to the interrogation room. Her mood swiftly changed. She sat on the chair with
great force and released a tired sigh. She took out a recorder, pressed the play button, stated
the case and who she was interviewing and she placed the recorder on the table.
Charlie: I have been waiting here for quite some time now.
Emily: Sorry for the delay.
Charlie: Why am I here?
Emily: Because you won a trip to France, why do people come to interrogation rooms? I need
to ask you a few questions.
Charlie: If I don’t answer?
Emily: You have to.
Charlie: I know my rights.
Emily: And I know the law.
Charlie: Not answering the questions is breaking the law?
Emily: Let’s not make things any harder, shall we?
Charlie: Your people treated me like I was a criminal.
Emily: How exactly?
Charlie: They knocked on my door like mad people. On the way to the station, they didn’t want
to answer any of my questions.
Emily: Well, I don’t know why they did that but you’re here now.
Charlie: Hey woman, I know my rights!
Emily: Charlie –
Charlie: (interrupts) Just so you know, I didn’t kill Majola.
Emily: When last did you see him?
Charlie: Majola was a busy man, I would say…maybe a week before his death.
Emily: No phone calls?
Charlie: No.
Emily: But you guys were inseparable.
Charlie: Ha! That was high school.
Emily: What happened?
Charlie: Majola was a big shot, he hanged with big shots. Me? I’m just a nobody.
Emily: I believe you worked for him.
Charlie: Yeah but I decided to quit.
Emily: Why?
Charlie: The stress was too much.
Emily: Or maybe you didn’t rise to the occasion.
Charlie: I give my all in everything I do. Emily: Oh yes, you do give your all. You even gave
away most of your belongings just to gamble.
Charlie: That was a mistake –
Emily: (interrupts) Like the day you caused a scene when Majola fired you?
Charlie: I was never fired, I just decided to quit. And I haven’t gambled for six months, I’m even
attending meetings. I want to change.
Emily: Tell me about you and Nomzamo.
Charlie: (laughs) You heard the rumour too? Pathetic if you ask me. There’s no me and
Nomzamo. I don’t know where people get these stupid rumours.
Emily: I wonder why people would make up these rumours.
Charlie: I wish I knew, but people are bored.
Emily: My people tell me that the bank is at a verge of repossesing your car.
Charlie: Yes, I’m working on a way to keep my car.
Emily: Maybe Majola was the only way.
Charlie: Don’t do this.
Emily: The puzzles are all fitting properly in my head.
Charlie: (quiet)
Emily: Were you jealous of Majola’s success?
Charlie: (quiet)
Emily: Yes.
Charlie: (quiet)
Emily: Did you ever wish you were in Majola’s position?
Charlie: (quiet)
Emily: Yes.
Charlie: What do these questions prove?
Emily: A lot –
Charlie: (interrupts) We’ve talked about my gambling problem, my friendship with Majola, my
rumoured relationship with Nomzamo and getting dismissed at Majola’s firm (hesitates for a
second) I mean…quitting my job.
Emily: (smiles) Where were you at 2:35pm on Wednesday?
Charlie: (thinks) uh…I was having lunch with my sister.
Emily: If we called your sister, would she back you up?
Charlie: Yeah
Emily: (takes out phone) Let’s see if you have an alibi (hands him the phone)
Charlie: What do you expect me to do?
Emily: I want you to type in her number so I can call and confirm.
Charlie: I…I don’t know how to use these fancy smart phones (gives back the phone)
Emily: Okay, give me her number.
Charlie: 0 8 3 7 6 8 4 9 0 0
Emily: What’s her name?
Charlie: Ntombi
Emily: Okay (calls the number)
There was silence in the room. Emily put the phone on loudspeaker.
A few minutes later, Patrick made his way to the interrogation room. He was Majola’s cousin
and they didn’t get along. Emily sat down, took out the recorder and started recording.
After the interview, Emily was told that Edward can’t make it and they had to reschedule the
meeting. An interview with Athabile was also rescheduled because she had to attend
Mathematics classes.
After a busy day, a tired Emily went home. Her father, Joseph was watching a game of soccer.
In the morning, Emily tried to get ahold of Edward. He said he was really busy. Too bad. Emily
was looking at the file her dad gave her, Lorenzo sneaked behind her.
After Lorenzo left, Emily quickly reached for the file in the cabinet. She began to analyse it,
again!
Emily watched the video on the phone. She was left dumbfounded.
Emily: Vusi accepting a tip from a man. Uhm…Regina do you know this man?
Regina: No.
Emily: Do you have any other videos?
Regina: No.
Lorenzo: Vusi is up to something.
Regina: He works till the morning, Lord knows what else he gets up to.
Emily: What made you suspicious to the point of recording a video?
Regina: (looks at Lorenzo) He always wanted me to go home early. Whenever I left, I saw the
same car. One day I decided to record and this happened.
Emily: How long have this been going for?
Regina: For about three days now.
Emily: Alright, so…so why do you think this video will help me with my case?
Lorenzo: I got a call from Jack, he says some of the evidence is missing. This is really
suspicious if you ask me.
Emily: It was really smart of you, Regina. Can you send the video?
Lorenzo: Let me help you with that Reggie (takes phone)
An hour later, Tshidi was in the interrogation room. Emily quickly rushed in the room. Tshidi
looked really nervous.
Policeman: (points at the interrogation room next door) You have a visitor sitting next door.
Emily: Who? (peeps on the window) Michelle? What is she doing here? Lorenzo didn’t tell me
about this.
Policeman: Go and hear what she has to say.
Emily: Yeah, thanks.
Policeman: Okay (leaves).
Michelle was wearing a monochrome dress, a gold chain, black half-boots, gold wrist watch and
gold bangles on both wrists. She was sitting with her legs crossed and a brown envelope on the
table.
Emily went back to interview Tshidi who was burying her face in her arms.
Emily: I’m back (press voice recorder to record) Majola must have really loved you, opening a
small bakery shop for you.
Tshidi: He believed in me.
Emily: Seemingly, he must have really loved you. We don’t hear of such stories, if we could
stop a random stranger and ask if they believe this, what do you think they would say?
Tshidi: I don’t know, maybe they would be surprised.
Emily: Why?
Tshidi: Maybe they would think it’s crazy.
Emily: Why?
Tshidi: Because he’s not my father?
Emily: You know what I think they would think? They would think, why would an old man spoil a
beautiful young girl without nothing in return.
Tshidi: Not everyone wants something in return.
Emily: Yes, not everyone. He might be the ‘everyone’ who wants something in return.
Tshidi: Definitely not Majola.
Emily: Sexting. Do you love sexting?
Tshidi: With my boyfriend, yes.
Emily: And with other people besides your boyfriend?
Tshidi: No.
Emily: Take a look at this (hands her the envelope)
Tshidi: What’s this?
Emily: Take.
Tshidi: (takes the envelope)
Emily drove to the laboratory to check up on Vusi. She couldn’t believe the video she saw of
Vusi accepting bribe, that was out of his character. On her way to the laboratory, she received a
phone call. It was Lorenzo, he said Edward called and he would like to have the interview in his
office. Emily couldn’t miss it, she drove to Edward’s firm.
Edward’s firm looked stylish, it looked more like an interior design company. Edward’s assistant
directed Emily to Edward’s office. He was seated on his big chair, he turned around.
Emily went outside the office to answer the phone call, it was Lorenzo.
Days went by, finally, she got the opportunity to interview Majola’s two daughters. She decided
to interview them at the comfort of their home. First up was Yonela, she was 13 years old, she
was in her room listening to music and watching television.
Emily was surprised to find out what type of person Yonela was. She was childish and behaved
like a child with learning disabilities.
Emily investigated the Majola case for weeks. Another case came along and she had to put the
Majola case on hold. The missing files were never retrieved and that added to the case being
put on hold.
His father, Joseph has always been supportive of her.
Joseph: Don’t beat yourself up, my child. During my career as a detective, I put on hold
countless number of cases. It’s not the end of the world, trust me.
Emily: This was my first major case, dad – my first! Did you flop on your first case?
Joseph: Come on baby!
Emily: Definitely not! Nothing you say will erase the feeling that I’m feeling, dad.
Joseph: I’m proud of you, my baby. I’m sure your mother is looking down on you and smiling
right now.
Emily: You’re only saying that because you’re my father.
Joseph: That’s not true. I’m sure your colleagues are proud of you.
Emily: I wish I can just sleep the whole of tomorrow and not go to work.
Joseph: You’re not serious! No! Emily, that’s not a good idea.
Emily: How did you find me? Did you follow me?
Vusi: (laughs) No, I saw this (hands her I.D document) you left it in the lab.
Emily: Oh, thank you – thank you very, very much. I didn’t even notice I had a missing I.D
document.
Vusi: I just came to drop this.
Joseph shouted, “Emily who is that?”
Emily: It’s just a friend from work, but he’s leaving now.
Joseph drove his wheelchair to where Emily and Vusi were standing.
They all went inside, Emily dished up for everyone. Joseph was happy to see a visitor after a
long time.
Vusi: At work –
Emily: (interrupts) Vusi is just a friend from work.
Joseph: Just a friend?
Emily: Yes dad.
Vusi: Uhm…sir, I’ve read good stories about you. I can’t believe I’m having dinner with one of
the best detectives of all time.
Joseph: I’m flattered.
Vusi: You must be proud of your daughter, she’s really good at her work.
Joseph: I’m really proud of her, she’s in a male dominated career but she’s giving the men a
run for their money.
Vusi: Yes.
Conversation flowed between Vusi and Joseph all through the night.
The next morning Emily was at work, reading Lorenzo’s crime report. The station’s captain
came to them with a detective that used to work there.
Gift Mda was a 27 year old man. His father, David Mda was also a detective at the same
station. His father is on the Hall of Fame cabinet. Gift is an attractive man but his cocky nature
makes him annoying at times.
Emily and Gift were working in the office. Emily was seated near the corner, far away from Gift.
The two were going through the evidence.
Gift: The files that went missing in the lab were later retrieved.
Emily: I know that.
Gift: But why is it written that –
Emily: (interrupts) I was going to change that.
Gift: When?
Emily: When I had time.
Gift: Oh. The evidence here isn’t enough, we have to interview these people again.
Emily: ‘We’?
Gift: Yes, ‘we’ are partners, remember?
Emily: (mumbles) I’m not loving this.
Gift: Trust me, me too. I will set up a special interview with Michelle, maybe in a date form.
Emily: Whatever makes you sleep at night.
Gift: Woah, what’s up with you? Miss Uptight.
Emily: (leaves)
Gift: I don’t blame you, I’m too hot to handle.
Gift set up an interview with Michelle. He organised a small restaurant for their meeting.
They questioned Michelle for close to an hour after retiring to the office.
Emily stayed at work till late, she worked on the Majola case alone. Vusi came to drop some
files.
Lorenzo: I thought you would never ask. Did she say yes? (laughs) what are you two doing?
Vusi: (quickly stands)
Lorenzo: Were you asking her to marry you? (laughs) huh?
Vusi: Please rethink this, Emily.
Emily: I can’t, Vusi.
Vusi: Sleep on it.
Emily: Vusi, I –
Vusi: (holds her hand) I beg you, please.
Lorenzo: What’s going on here?
Vusi: See you tomorrow, goodnight. Cheers Lorenzo (leaves)
Lorenzo: Bye man. Emily? And now?
Emily: It’s complicated.
Lorenzo: Did you say yes? (laughs)
Emily: This isn’t a joke, he asked me to help him find out who’s in that video.
Lorenzo: The files were recovered, what’s the big deal?
Emily: That’s what I said to him.
Lorenzo: If he says that’s not him in the video, who’s that?
Emily: Jack.
Lorenzo: He doesn’t have dreadlocks, how is that possible?
Emily: He said he found a dreadlocks wig in his locker. One night he caught Jack searching for
the files.
Lorenzo: So this Jack guy was imitating Vusi?
Emily: Yeah.
Lorenzo: But why?
Emily: I don’t know.
Lorenzo: We should talk to the cleaner, find out more information.
Emily: I’m not digging into it, I’m busy with the Majola case.
Lorenzo: Ever heard of multitasking?
Emily: Really?
Lorenzo: Bad joke, but you can do it on the side. The boss doesn’t have to know.
Emily: The boss is watching me like he’s a hawk, I can’t risk my job for a silly video of an
assistant impersonating a lab researcher.
Lorenzo: An assistant accepting bribe in exchange of evident files, is that silly?
Emily: Why don’t you help him?
Lorenzo: This is your chance to shine. This Majola case is dragging. Vusi has risked his job for
you multiple times, he has broken many lab rules for you. It’s only fair if you return the favour.
Emily: I was working on the Majola case, if that’s all – please close the door on your way out.
Lorenzo: If you agree to help him, you know where to find me (leaves)
After spending most of the night in the office, Emily went home at 3am.
The next morning, Gift was the early worm. Emily followed, she was tired.
Tshidi put up the “Closed” sign on the door and she locked.
Gift gave Emily a phone call and he told her everything. After the phone call, Gift went back to
interviewing Tshidi.
Back in the police station, Bongani was sitting in the interrogation room waiting for Emily.
Emily: Hey.
Bongani: What’s up?
Emily: You do know why you’re here, right?
Bongani: Yep.
Emily: Let’s not waste any more time and get with programme.
Bongani: Why not?
Emily: (begins recording) I want you to go back to the start. You and your girlfriend left the
house first?
Bongani: Yeah, we left first.
Emily: Carry on.
Bongani: Michelle followed afterwards. We were the first to return home and we saw the body. I
tried performing CPR but my girl kept shouting, “he’s gone, he’s gone”. We both made phone
calls, I was crying like a baby.
Emily: So Michelle was the last to leave the house you say?
Bongani: Yes.
Emily: When we first spoke, you said she was the first to leave the house.
Bongani: I said that?
Emily: Yes.
Bongani: I don’t remember myself saying that.
Emily: When I lie, I also don’t remember my lie.
Bongani: What are you trying to say? I made a mistake.
Emily: Correct it.
Bongani: She was the…let me think…hmmm…she was the last to leave.
Emily: Why did you lie the first time?
Bongani: I was shaken, I was not myself. I can’t remember half of what we spoke about. You
have to remind me.
Emily: After you saw that your father was dead, what did you do except for calling the police?
Bongani: I performed CPR, I told you.
Emily: Didn’t you look around?
Bongani: No, I was busy helping my father.
Emily: You didn’t even care if the murderer was still in the house?
Bongani: No, I was focusing on my dying father.
Emily: He was dying?
Bongani: He was dead, dying, whatever. I was focusing on him.
Emily: Do you think his murder was premeditated?
Bongani: I think it was a burglar.
Emily: Everything was still intact. Seems like that “burglar” went to steal your father’s life.
Bongani: I still have nightmares of that blood! Sometimes I can’t go to sleep, I take pills. I’m so
miserable.
Emily: How was your relationship with your father before he passed away?
Bongani: We were bonding more than ever. We were suppose to go on a family trip next
month.
Emily: The surveillance cameras didn’t work, we missed some valuable information. The
cameras have a bad timing, don’t you think?
Bongani: I know, right? I was pissed. If they were working, we would’ve seen the person behind
all of this.
Emily: Your father must have been a really understanding man.
Bongani: He was, sorry, what are you talking about?
Emily: You and Michelle.
Bongani: What about us?
Emily: You had an affair with your father’s wife.
Bongani: It was a mistake.
Emily: How?
Bongani: I’m a man, she came in hard.
Emily: You had a choice, didn’t you?
Bongani: Michelle doesn’t take no for an answer. She kept coming after me.
Emily: Why do you think she came after you?
Bongani: I don’t know, maybe because I’m young and good looking?
Emily: Why would a woman like Michelle go after you?
Bongani: Wow, “a woman like Michelle”, wow.
Emily: Majola had money, everything you couldn’t afford. Why would Michelle go after you?
Bongani: You tell me, why do you think she went after me?
Emily: She wanted to make Majola jealous. Perhaps?
Bongani: Oh?
Emily: And that costed her a lot. Has your father told you about his will testament?
Bongani: No, that’s too private.
Emily: I wonder though, why did Majola write Michelle off the will?
Bongani: What? Where did you hear that?
Emily: You didn’t know?
Bongani: No, I can’t believe this! Is that even legal to write your spouse out of the will?
Emily: Was she in the will in the first place?
Bongani: I never knew!
Emily: In that household, it seems like you and your father shared the same fetish, if I may call
it, a fetish.
Bongani: And that is?
Emily: Swinging partners.
Bongani: My girl never had sex with my father, just sexting that’s all.
Emily: Who knew such amount of drama happened in the infamous, Majola’s house?
Emily: I’m tired of this. I’m here to tell you the truth about everything.
Gift: What a nice surprise, take a –
Emily: (interrupts) Your dad is not who he say he is –
Gift: (laughs) I thought we were past this.
Emily: Every time I pass that cabinet, Gift, I can’t help but think that my father deserves to be
on that Hall of Fame list. He was a hard working man, he dedicated everything to his job. Your
father robbed my dad’s chance of being in that cabinet and most importantly he ruined my
father’s reputation. He crushed his ego.
Gift: (stands) If you have a problem with my father go and speak to him, face-to-face. I don’t
know what your dad told you about my father and I don’t want to hear it. It’s obvious that he
dislikes my father and the unfortunate part is that my father never speaks about your dad.
Emily: Your father always wanted to be praised, he hated teamwork and he tried everything in
his power to get rid of my father. Do you remember that George Downey case?
Gift: Yes.
Emily: That case was never completed, my father dedicated years investigating that case. He
gave me the file, it has everything.
Gift: Why are you telling me this? What does your father completing an old case has to do with
my father?
Emily: Your father robbed my father’s chance at greatness.
Gift: Stop beating around the bush, what exactly did my father do?
Emily: You want to know?
Gift: Tell me.
Emily: Your father organised a set up for my father. He placed cocaine and weed in my father’s
locker, the boss found out and he was expelled. His badge, everything was taken from him
including his dignity.
Gift: I don’t believe this.
Emily: Stop being naïve!
Gift: Why didn’t your father tell the boss that it was a set up?
Emily: Because –
Gift: (interrupts) And how did your father knew it was my dad who did that?
Emily: My father just knew it. Your father didn’t want to work with my dad, he was jealous of
him. Your dad was a very competitive man.
Gift: (laughs) Whatever, Emily. I will just read this book and you can roam around or whatever.
Emily: Ask your dad.
Gift: Whatever, Emily.
Emily left.
It was very late, Vusi was working in the lab. He heard footsteps coming from the computer
room. He tiptoed to the computer room, he saw a cleaner carrying a bucket and mop. The
cleaner was looking around, she looked like she was up to something. Vusi walked in, she got a
fright.
Cleaner: Sir, you gave me a fright. The time is 11, I thought you were gone.
Vusi: What are you doing?
Cleaner: I was about to clean but you entered.
Vusi: At this time?
Cleaner: Yes, tomorrow my shift begins in the afternoon.
Vusi: What were you doing here?
Cleaner: Sir, I was doing nothing.
Vusi: (checks files)
Cleaner: Everything is still there. Why would I steal files?
Vusi: Apparently these files grow feet and they walk.
Cleaner: I heard the files went missing.
Vusi: Someone took them.
Cleaner: I will go if you want me to leave. It’s obvious that you don’t trust me, you can clean
(hands him the mop).
Vusi: (takes mop) You may leave.
Cleaner: Alright, sir.
Vusi: Anyway, who gives cleaners permission to clean rooms that are only for workers?
Cleaner: The boss made complaints on how dirty the rooms are.
Vusi: No – no – no – tell your colleagues to never enter these rooms with valuable information.
Many things have gone missing in this lab, I’m not saying cleaners steal – but some people will
do anything for money.
Cleaner: I will tell them, sir. Good night.
Vusi: Travel safely.
The cleaner left, Vusi just went out with the mop and bucket.
In the morning Lorenzo was having a cup of coffee while conversing with Vusi. Emily went to the
cafeteria.
Gift: Emily can we talk in private? It’s about what you told me yesterday.
Emily: Alright…Vusi, I’m sorry, maybe we can talk when we meet up next time.
Vusi: Why not? Of course, it’s getting late – I have to go to work anyway.
Emily: Alright then (leaves with Gift)
Vusi: Thanks for the coffee man, see you when I see you.
Lorenzo: Okay man.
After hours in the office, Emily took Gift home. It was around 1pm. Emily’s father was watching
news.
Gift: Your dad seems not to be in a good mood after we walked in.
Emily: I don’t know.
Gift: Maybe it’s because I’m David’s son.
Emily: Nonsense, maybe he’s having a bad day.
Gift: Oh, okay.
Emily: Let’s get back to work. We agreed that our main focus is everyone that lives in Majola’s
house.
Gift: Yes, they’re a suspicious bunch.
Emily: They change their stories when we interview them, well, Bongani changed his story.
Gift: He slipped.
Emily: Yes, he slipped. Do you think they tell each other how to answer to certain questions?
Gift: I think so but everything we gathered from the forensics showed otherwise but I have a
feeling they were involved.
Emily: Some way.
Gift: Yeah, some way.
Emily: I told you about the brick?
Gift: Yes, the cameras not working that week was suspicious. The technician says the cameras
were indeed not working following something faulty, I don’t know.
Emily: Do you really believe Michelle was written off the will?
Gift: That’s bullshit, it doesn’t make sense.
Emily: I also don’t think Majola did that but why would she lie?
Gift: If her name isn’t on the will, she gets nothing and she will gain nothing if she is suspected
of murdering her husband, that’s what she thought.
Emily: She gave me documents of her husband’s sexting messages to Tshidi. She was really
snooping around, no doubt. I don’t get it, why would Tshidi cheat on her boyfriend with her
boyfriend’s father? She blames it on stupidity, I think it was all staged.
Gift: Staged?
Emily: I saw the phone number that sent Tshidi the texts in the phone record. The number sent
a text to some number saying, “see you later my friend”.
Gift: (laughs) Michelle is stupid, she is stupid. It’s evident that she is the one that sent the texts
to Tshidi and Tshidi was co-operating.
Emily: Was Majola really paying her the huge chunk of money for her mother’s surgery?
Gift: We have to set up an interview with Tshidi. I can get her to speak, I will go hard on her.
We have concrete evidence.
Emily: We have been far too kind with them.
Gift: Yes.
Emily: Bongani is another case, I will interview him again. He is a tough nut to crack but I will
eventually get through to him.
Gift: We are slowly heading to the light.
Emily: Yes.
Gift: I think we should go out and grab a couple of beers after work.
Emily: Then we drive under the influence? Great stuff.
Gift: Or we can drink at my place, maybe you can spend the night at my house. You will look
really good on my bedside.
Emily: Nice try buddy.
Gift: Why are you like this?
Emily: I don’t mix work with pleasure.
Gift: You’re boring.
Emily: Thank you very much.
Gift: (laughs) Give me credit.
Emily: You’re a charming man but you’re not my cup of tea.
Gift: Ouch.
Emily: Cheer up, I’m joking (laughs).
Gift: Your sense of humour is weird, you know that? (stands) come here.
Emily: What?
Gift: Come here (wraps his hands around Emily’s waist)
Emily: This is awkward.
Gift: You’re beautiful.
Emily: Thank you.
Gift kissed Emily, the two held onto each other.
The time was 8pm. Emily invited Gift for dinner but he was late.
There was a knock on the door, Emily went to answer and it was Gift, he gave her a bouquet of
flowers and wine. Gift entered the house and Emily guided him to the dinner table. Emily went to
dish up.
Gift and Joseph were the only ones seated around the dinner table.
The next morning, Lorenzo and Emily were watching an online video in the cafeteria. Gift was
making himself a cup of coffee.
Emily and Gift separately conducted their interviews with Tshidi and Bongani.
Joseph went to the laboratory. The workers there who are familiar with him welcomed him with
open arms. Vusi was surprised to see Joseph. They went to a quiet room.
Vusi: Sir, what can I do for you? What a pleasant surprise.
Joseph: Feels like ages since I been here. Nothing has changed, at all.
Vusi: Can I get you anything?
Joseph: No thanks, I’m fine. I just came to speak to you.
Vusi: If this is about Emily, I’m sorry but I –
Joseph: It’s about you. Emily told me everything, she asked me to help you.
Vusi: She did?
Joseph: Yes.
Vusi: And you agreed?
Joseph: Why not.
Vusi: Sir, really? Oh my, really?
Joseph: You’re a nice guy, you don’t deserve all of this. I believe you’re innocent, Emily also
believes you’re innocent.
Vusi: Wow, she does? She has been giving me a hard time.
Joseph: Deep down she cares deeply for you.
Vusi: I like her, I like her a lot and I would do anything for her. We just not gelling these days,
she’s always with her partner. I know she has a case to take care of but I miss our small talks.
Joseph: You remind me a lot about myself when I was your age. The first time I saw you, I
could see in your eyes that you liked my daughter.
Vusi: I wouldn’t say the same for her.
Joseph: Have you told her how you feel?
Vusi: To be quite honest, I haven’t told anyone but you about this.
Joseph: I suggest you tell her. How about you come over for dinner this evening?
Vusi: Uhm…
Joseph: I won’t take no for an answer.
Vusi: Okay.
Joseph: See you there.
Vusi: Alright.
Joseph: I have to go, see you.
Vusi: See you.
The time was around 5pm and Emily was waiting for the witness, Fred at a small restaurant.
After the interviews, Emily went home. When she got home, she saw Vusi and her father
chatting on the dinner table.
Joseph: Hey baby girl, Vusi helped me cook, come join us.
Emily: What are you doing here?
Joseph: I invited him for dinner.
Vusi: Your father told me everything, thank you very much.
Joseph: We went through the video and everything is coming together.
Emily: I can’t have dinner, I already have plans.
Joseph: Plans?
Emily: Yes, I’m meeting Gift.
Joseph: Why do you waste your time with him?
Emily: He’s my partner.
Joseph: I was hoping we could all eat dinner together.
Emily: Maybe some other time, I have to take a quick shower. Enjoy your dinner (leaves)
Joseph: I tried.
Vusi: It’s alright. She’s a big girl.
Emily went to meet up with her older brother, Bantu in a restaurant. He was already waiting for
her. It has been a long time since they saw each other. Emily just ran into his arms and she
wept.
A few days later, Joseph and Vusi pieced together everything. They went to Emily’s workplace,
she was in the cafeteria with Lorenzo and Gift.
Michelle went to the station. She saw Lorenzo working in his office, she entered his office.
Vusi: Jack.
Jack: What’s up? Can I help you all? What’s going on?
Emily: You’re under arrest for stealing the files that went missing.
Jack: But the files were misplaced.
Gift: We’re taking you to the station for questioning.
Jack: Vusi my brother, how can you sell me like this?
Vusi: I should be asking you this.
Emily: Shut up and get your hands behind your back!
Gift: (handcuffs Jack) Where do you think this is? Huh? Rubbish.
Jack didn’t resist at all. They took him for questioning. Joseph went home and Vusi went back to
work.
On their way to the interrogation room, they came across the captain talking to Michelle.
Captain: What is going on here? Why is the lab assistant handcuffed.
Gift: Sir, this man is responsible for the missing files.
Captain: What?! You’ve been stealing files?
Jack: Sir…it’s a misunderstanding I can surely fix.
Emily: Misunderstanding? You must be out of your mind!
Captain: Okay, you’re going to sort out that but…uhm…Mrs Dlanga needs security for her
family.
Emily: (looks at Gift) We’re just detectives.
In the interrogation room, Jack was waiting to be interrogated. Emily and Gift were talking
outside.
Emily went to open the door, it was her older brother. He came inside, Joseph was amazed.
Emily: I invited him. Remember when Vusi came over for dinner? I lied I wasn’t going out with
Gift, I went to meet up with Bantu.
Bantu: I gave it some thought, we do need each other.
Joseph: Good evening son.
Bantu: Good evening dad. I’m sorry, for everything.
Joseph: And I also apologise for everything.
Emily’s phone rang, it was Jack. She answered the phone in her room. Jack said the man was
15mins away. Emily called Officer Mthembu to alert the force. She left the house, she gave Gift
a call.
It was dark outside. Jack was in his car, a loud knock on his window gave him a fright.
Police cars rushed to the parking lot followed by Emily and Gift.
Days ago, Emily and Gift tried to set up an interview with Majola’s lawyer but it was said that he
went overseas for a trip that will last for a few days. He was supposed to come back today but
he didn’t. His friends and family tried to get ahold of him but he doesn’t answer his phone which
is odd of him, as his family describe.
A man was directed to Gift’s office. He was the lawyer’s brother. His name was Trevor.
Gift told Emily everything Trevor told him. They were notified that Razor wanted to see them.
They went to the interrogation room.
Emily gave Vusi a call and he told her that the findings have been manipulated but he had
backup.
Emily and Gift went to Majola’s house to arrest Bongani. When they got there, Bongani was with
his girlfriend.
Bongani: Hello?
Emily: We’re taking you to the station for questioning for manipulating the evidence, you –
Bongani: Are you crazy? I’m not going anywhere!
Gift: Resisting arrest isn’t making anything easy.
Bongani: At least let me grab something to wear, you may come in and make yourselves
comfortable.
They waited for Bongani for more than 20mins, they asked Emily to check up on him and he
was gone. They went to look for him around the neighbourhood and they didn’t see him. It was
evident that he was guilty of something.
The whole day was spent trying to find Bongani, the police were everywhere.
In the evening, Emily was getting ready to leave when Tshidi came to her office.
Emily: Tshidi what are you doing at this time of the night?
Tshidi: I can’t live like this, I want to go back to my old life without drama.
Emily: What are you talking about?
Tshidi: I’m talking about the lies.
Emily: Sit down.
Tshidi: (sits) When I heard that my mother needed to do surgery, I didn’t know where I could
get the money. I couldn’t ask Majola, he bought me a bakery, that would be asking a lot from
him. I told my boyfriend and somehow Michelle found out and she gave me this great offer. She
said I should help her with something and she will give me R55 000, I couldn’t say no. Those
messages to Majola were fake, she used a phone number that Majola used to use. I’m sorry,
I’m really sorry.
Emily: Do you know why she did that?
Tshidi: I have no idea why but I know of an affair she had with Majola’s lawyer. When Majola
found out, there were talks of divorce.
Emily: Why didn’t you say this before?
Tshidi: She threatened me, she said she will hurt my family if I uttered anything to the police.
Emily: Thank you for this useful information. You have to act normal, tomorrow we will arrest
her.
Tshidi: Alright.
Emily: Thank you and good night.
Emily was happy with this valuable information, she told Gift. Who killed Majola was going to be
found soon.
The next day, Michelle was arrested and taken to the police station. She was in the interrogation
room, Emily and Gift walked in.
Michelle directed them to Tyler’s house. Tyler was playing Xbox when Emily and Gift visited
him.
Emily called Athabile to ask her where her boyfriend lived. She gave her the directions. They
drove to Marcus’ house. He was wearing a blue overaller, fixing a car.
Gift: Marcus –
Marcus: Am I in trouble?
Gift: You must be Marcus.
Marcus: Yeah, who needs to know?
Gift: I’m Gift, this is my partner Emily. We’re detectives –
Marcus: What do you want?
Gift: We want to ask you a few questions.
Marcus: I’m busy.
Emily: It won’t take long.
Marcus: Ask.
Gift: Can you stop what you’re doing?
Marcus: You have to be quick because I need to get somewhere.
Emily: Is this your car?
Marcus: Yeah, it’s really old that’s why I’m fixing it. Let’s go sit on the stairs.
Emily stood up, she went to check the car. Marcus quickly stood up.
Emily and Gift searched Marcus’ car they saw nothing. Emily saw papers hidden on the roof of
the car inside. She took the papers and Marcus ran. Gift chased him but he was too fast, they
got into the car and they chased him by car. While in pursuit, Emily saw that the papers were
Majola’s will testament.
They managed to corner Marcus, Gift handcuffed him. He didn’t want to tell them what the
papers were doing with him.
When they got to the station, Emily called Fred to check if Marcus was the guy he was talking
about. When Fred got to the police station, they lined up suspects. Fred recognised Marcus and
he confirmed that it was him.
Officer Mthembu and Vusi were trying to track down Bongani using Tyler’s phone and the recent
messages he sent him. They even tried to act like Tyler but he didn’t respond to the texts.
They arrested Marcus. He made headlines, some blogs were apologising for accusing Michelle
of murdering her husband. Athabile and her family couldn’t believe Marcus did such a thing.
Bongani was still missing, posters of him were put up. A reward for anyone who could help find
Bongani was offered. When Phillip’s family and friends found out, they were devastated. His
body was found and returned to the family. He suffered two shots to the head, one to the heart,
another to the chest and three to the stomach.
A week later. Emily and Gift were given medals for their exceptional work. Emily’s father was
also thanked, he received his badges that were stripped off him years ago. Newspapers wanted
a piece of the trio, they didn’t forget to thank everyone that helped with the case. Bongani was
still missing.
Bongani’s run was cut short when he was found in another country. Marcus and Majola were
sentenced to life in prison without parole for first degree murder.
Majola’s family each received what Majola left for them. Michelle sold the house, she moved to
another suburb. Tshidi is still running her small bakery shop, her cousins help her run the
bakery. Nomzamo and Patrick got married. Athenkosi was chosen to participate in a soccer
tournament overseas. Athabile still dreams of being a lawyer, she’s studying harder.
Who killed Majola? Bongani, his own son and his daughter’s boyfriend, Marcus. Bongani was
money crazy, he was greedy and jealous of his father’s wealth. Everything was premeditated.
Marcus was also money crazy, he never showed remorse for what he did, he just boasted about
it. They will rot in jail.
The end.