TW!!!

- Suicide

A moment I’ll never forget about is the day my best friend had passed away. It was in the
summer of 2019 and TK (what she went by) and I got into an argument. I got sick of the
argument so instead of ending it on a good note I had just blocked her. I had gotten so mad that
I thought it would be better if we didn’t talk for a while so I didn’t hurt her. She had no
communication with me and considering she had just moved she couldn’t see me in person
either. The argument had been so stupid, the way I had acted at that moment is unforgivable.
She committed suicide after she lost contact with me. I think at that moment she had thought
she lost me forever. I unblocked her after a half hour or around, she had left me voicemails tons
and tons of them. I listened to them one by one, I could hear her crying and could barely
breathe. The very last one she only said “I’m sorry, I love you” I felt my heart drop hearing those
words and my phone fell to the floor. I burst out in tears realizing what had happened, I couldn’t
breathe and my chest felt tight. I was in denial and mad, I started throwing things around my
room. I was grasping for air as I eventually ran out my house and to the park that was nearby. I
always went there to think, I couldn’t process anything that had happened in those 10 minutes. I
knew she had family issues at home and I was her home, yet I still did what I did and regret it to
this day. She wrote songs for me, called everyday, she did so much for me and I felt like I
should've done more for her. This moment changed my way of everything, the way I think and
the way I act and treat others. If I had the ability to go back in time and change one thing, this
would be it. I still miss her lots.