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LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS

BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR


ACADEMIC PERFORMANCE

A Research Paper
Presented to
The class of Mr. Joey B. Manalastas Jr.
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.

In partial fulfillment of
The requirement for the subject
Practical Research 1

By
Albino, Jason
Arbasto, Princess
Barcenas, Jeric
De Chavez, Keithly
Dela Cruz, Reine
Goyon, Mary Joy
Ignacio, Edrie
Papa, Samira

March 2019
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APPROVAL SHEET

This research entitled “LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM

STUDENTS BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR ACADEMIC

PERFORMANCES” prepared and submitted by Group 3 STEM-LAKANDULA has been

approved and accepted on March 29, 2019 in partial fulfillment of the requirements for

the Practical Research 1 under JOEY B. MANALASTAS JR.

with a grade of 95.


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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

The researchers would like to express their sincere gratitude to the people behind

the process of this study. Words aren't enough to describe how thankful we are to your

constant care and guidance. For helping and motivating us in times of difficulties whether

it's financially or amongst ourselves they became a blessing to us. Of course we would

like to thank God for every blessing he gave to us and to the people behind our success.

The researchers are honored to conduct the study to the very own Mystical

Rose School of Caloocan Inc., which provides the privilege to learn and discover new

things. The life experiences and hardships of each member of the faculty and colleagues

that served as the life lessons for each one of us.

To Dr. Rolando M. Gregore, president of the school and Dr. Marcelina L.

Gregore, the directress/ principal. For giving us the opportunity to conduct the study

and their constant guidance in leadership and success

To our families, for giving us financial support. For letting our whole group stay

to another colleague’s house and for giving us food until late at night. With their constant

guidance for us to strive more and work as a team especially when we have an

uncountable misunderstandings.

Especially to our Research Teacher-Adviser, Mr. Joey Borlagdatan Manalastas

Jr for guiding us from the beginning until the end. With his valuable instruction and

suggestions to improve our study, lectures and examples we’re able to make a reasonable
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actions for this study. He spend time, efforts, patience and encouragement that motivate

us to complete this study.

We would never forget the motivational words and presence of our one and only

advicer, Mr. Jan McLean Tan whenever we have a deadlines and defense he would

always say “you can do it. “

Last but not the least the participants of this study the Grade 11 STEM Students

of the school year 2018-2019. The researchers of this study are grateful to their truthful

and honest answer regarding their real life experiences and of course for their valuable

time and effort in answering the questions asked to them.


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Dedication
The researcher’s whole heartedly dedicated this study to their RESEARCH

TEACHER - ADVISER as their role example and motivation. Also, to their FAMILIES,

who supported them during late dismissal and for letting our whole group stay to another

colleague’s house and for giving us food until late at night during the process of making

this study. Lastly, to the GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS OF MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL

OF CALOOCAN INCORPORATED who became the main reasons for the researchers

to create a guide to overcome the identified influenced of peer pressure to their academic

performances.
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TABLE OF CONTENTS

Title Page

Title Page ……………………………………………………..……………………………………I

Approval Sheet …………………………………………………………………………………..II

Acknowledgements …………………………………………………………………………….III

Dedication ………………………………………………………………………………………….V

Table of Contents …...............................................................................VI

List of Figures….................................................................................... IX

Abstract ……………………………….……………………………….…………………………...X

CHAPTER

1 PROBLEM AND ITS BACKGROUND

Statement of the problem...……………………………………………………...2

Assumption……..………………………………………………………………….3

Scope and Delimination…………………………………………………….…...11

Locale of the study...………………………………………………………….....13

Significance of the Study…………………………………………..……………14

Definition of terms……………………………………………………..…………15

2 REVIEW OF RELATED LITERATURE AND STUDIES

Local literature ……………………………………………….…………………18

Foreign literature …………………………………………………….…………21


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Local studies………………………………………………………………….…28

Foreign studies ………………………………………………………………...29

Paradigm of the study …………………………………………………………34

Relevance of the reviewed literature and studies to the present

Study/Synthesis…………………………………………………………...……35

3 METHODOLGY AND METHODS OF RESEARCH

Research Design ………………………………………………………………47

Selection of Co-Researchers/ Sampling Techniques………………………48

Research Instrumentation/ Data Collection…………….……………….…..49

Treatment of Data/Data Analysis………………………………………….….51

Validation of the Instrument ………………………………………….….……52

Research Roles and Biases…………………………………………………..52

Trustworthiness…………………………………………………………………52

Memoing ………………………………………………………………………..53

4 PRESENTATION ANALYSIS AND ENTERPRETATION OF DATA

Co-Researcher A----Ms. Leilei………………………………………………..55

Co-Researcher B----Ms. Naji………………………………………………....59

Co-Researcher C----Mr. Potpot………………………………………………63

Co-Researcher D----Ms. Dyosa……………..………………………………66

Co-Researcher E----Ms. Buwan…………………...………………………..71

Co-Researcher F----Mr. Mamamo………………………..………………...81

Co-Researcher G----Ms. Portly…………………………………..………….84

Co-Researcher H----Ms. Mama………………………………………..……93


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Co-researcher I----Ms. Peng………………………………………………...96

Co-ResearcherJ----Mr.Jie…………………………………………………....98

Researchers’ Experiences ....................…………………………………………..101

Researchers’ Reflection.......................……………………………………………104

5 SUMMARY OF FINDINGS, SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION,


IMPLICATIONS, RECOMMENDATIONS

Summary of Findings ……………..………………….……………………..123

Symbolic Representation………………..………………………………....126

Implication ………………………………………..………………………….128

Recomendation ………………………………………………………………130

Reference…………………………………………………………………...132

Appendices………………………………………………………….……....137

Curriculum Vitae………………………………………………………………………..207
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LIST OF FIGURES

Figures

1 Paradigm of the Study ……………………….…………………. 33


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ABSTRACT

LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS


BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR
ACADEMIC PERFORMANCES

GROUP 3 STEM-LAKANDULA

Researchers

Do really having low self-esteem does not have any effects on the academic

performances of a student? Or it is one of the primary reasons why some of students are

not competitive in terms of performing in class?

Many people who have leadership positions who deep down have low self-esteem

despite pretending to be someone who is in control and who makes decisions confidently.

This will lead to a lot of stress and pain as the pretense is covering up the real person

inside. You will see the true reality of this kind of person when they face real problems

and when things go wrong. They will be unable to accept any criticism and demand others

do what they say without question (Parera, 2016)

Unchecked, low self-esteem may even lead to mental health issues such as

anxiety and depression, sometimes with tragic results. The well-being of society depends

on the well-being of its citizenry. One of the most important factors that should be

fostered at home and in school, is children's self-esteem, as this is the key factor of their

success further in life (Venzin, 2018).

However, despite widespread support for the reforms, critics argue that the

benefits, particularly for poor families, are not comparable to the costs associated with
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keeping their children in school for an extra two years. (Patrinos, 2016).

There is more to self-esteem than first meets the eye. Someone may clearly lack

confidence and have a low opinion of them, whereas, some people may appear to have

confidence but their efforts to take charge and be in control is a cover for their low self-

esteem. Many of these people do not admit to themselves that they have any problem

and continue to aggressively appear full of self-esteem.

For Neuman (2013) changing ingrained ideas is very difficult. Some people with

low self-esteem continue to feel bad about them despite having had signal successes in

the world

In this regard, the researchers would like to explore the lived experiences of

selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances. Thus, the research findings can help to widen our knowledge

towards low self- esteem, clear out misunderstandings and to make people more aware.
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RESEARCH DESIGN

This study used Qualitative Phenomenological Research method, wherein the study

is focused on the lived experiences of the currently enrolled grade 11 STEM students.

According to Creswell (2013), phenomenology is an approach to qualitative

research that focuses on the commonality of a lived experience within a group. The

fundamental goal of the approach is to arrive at a description of the nature of the

phenomenon. In addition, Creswell (2007) also stated that, a phenomenological study

“describes the meaning for several individuals of their lived experiences of a concept or

a phenomenon”. Phenomenological study allows the researchers to delve into the

perceptions, perspectives, understandings, and feelings of those people who have

experienced or lived the phenomenon or situation of interest (Abels, 2018).

On the other hand, Waters (2016) phenomenological research describes a lived

experience of a phenomenon. As this is a qualitative analysis of narrative data, methods,

to analyze its data is quite different from more traditional or quantitative method of

research. Furthermore, Phenomenology focused on the subjectivity of reality, continually

pointing out the need of to understand how humans view themselves and the world

around them (Willis, 2007).


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For the main purpose of this study, qualitative phenomenological design was used

in order to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low

self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study attempts to set aside biases

and preconceived assumptions about human experiences, feelings, and responses to a

particular situations (Giorgi, 2012).


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SELECTION OF CO-RESEARCHERS/ SAMPLING TECHNIQUES

Purposive Sampling was used in the selection of co-researchers who are only

chosen if they fit rightfully to the specific intention and purpose of the study. Purposive

Sampling is a kind of non-probability sampling that focuses on a characteristic of a

population that are of interest, which will best to enable the answer in research questions

(Lund Research Ltd, 2012). In addition with that, these characteristic can help the

researchers to identify those Grade 11 STEM students who have low self-esteem;

 Is extremely critical of themselves


 Downplays or ignores their positive qualities
 Judges themselves to be inferior to their peers
 Use negative words to describe themselves such as stupid, fat, ugly or
unlovable
 Has discussions with themselves (this is called ‘self-talk’) that are always
negative, critical and self-blaming
 Assumes that luck plays a large role in all their achievements and does not
take the credit for them
 Blames themselves when things go wrong instead of taking into account
other things over which they have no control such as the actions of other
people or economic forces
 Does not believe a person who compliments them. (DOHHS, 2014)

But to really ensure the selection of co-researchers, the researchers based on the

result of the Rosenberg’s scale that serves as the assessment tool so the researchers can

carefully analyze whom are the selected students, to discover the evidence that serves

as proof of their actual experience.


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STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived

experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year

2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally influence

emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own daily

performance at school.

This specifically sought answers to the following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions

concerned for their policy development and management?


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SUMMARY OF FINDINGS

Based on the partarticipants truthful answer and after doing a careful analyzation

of the gathered data we present the summary of findings.

Low self-esteem is not known by many people and considered as shyness. But in

this study, it was shown to their lived experiences that they are feared of being judged

by others. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly about oneself. Self-

esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value themselves. It influences

in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect an individual to his own

daily performance at school.

Being “Katagelophobic” was the big thing that contributes a lot and causes them

to being low self-esteem. It was found out that the low self esteem affects the participants

negatively and positively in academic performance mostly when they are performing in

front doing a perfomance or presenting, interacting with other people like friends,

classmates and sometimes teachers.

Negative experiences affects every situation similar to their past experience makes

it feel uneasy or nervous, trying to avoid perfomance or presentaion that expose them

too much that results to a failed performance or presentation and missed oppurtunities.

They weren’t able to express their thoughts due to fear of being judge.

Most of the participants is affected by their experience in the past being judge by

their own skills and abilities to do things. It was part of their life as a student to

particpate, and perform in front of the class for this just serve as a practice.
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Having that said, It is not predictable when or what wouldbe the other opinion

about it because majority are affected on what would other opinion be regarding their

performance.

Mostly these people are their own classmates, teachers and friends. Intimidated

on how would the teacher react, limiting their actions during performance inside the

classroom because of the term "bida-bida" and the thought thatthey might became a

laughing stock if they did something wrong even if it’s not meant.Being too sensitive in

things and getting hurt secretly, the feeling of being useless at home, unequal treatment,

worrying too much about others opnions, around their friends.

Because of this missed oppurtunities are commonly happens like showcasing their

talents as an individual and cannot paricipate that much in class. Forcing oneself to

perform to the extent but ended up being discourage by others. This also affects during

discussions and recitation.

They face the world with a positive self image. Doing different kinds of things and

activites together like playing guitar, playing computer games and mobile games like

League of Legends, playing basketball, taking pictures, eating together and strolling

around. Although it's not always easy for them to walk on a straight line they still try their

best to keep up.

While their failures increase negative thoughts about themselves making an

individual feel frustrated, insecure, anxious, ignore positivity and success and etc. They

tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution.


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Their relationship with friends played a big role to their resolution. Talking with

friends that relate to the same as them gives a positive feedback and also their

unexpected achievements despite of the ups and downs in their lives.

It's not really because they feel lonely and need an attention or the unforgettable

moments in their lives that keep them behind.

It's their need to look for the right person who can listen to their stories that makes

them feel safe. The person who can listen to what their about to say. They value those

people who choose to stay by their side through thick and thin.
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IMPLICATIONS
Based on the summary of findings, the follwong implications are drawn.

Having a fear of being embarrassed, or judged by others, affects every aspects of

student’s academic performances. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly

about oneself. Self-esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value

themselves. It influences in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect

an individual to his own daily performance at school.

Negative experiences affects every situation similar to their past experience makes

it feel uneasy or nervous, trying to avoid perfomance or presentaion that expose them

too much that results to a failed performance or presentation and missed oppurtunities.

They weren’t able to express their thoughts due to fear of being judge.

Meeting new people worth keeping for they still have the feeling of afraid to get

judge by others. The opinion of others can easily affect them positively and sometimes

negatively especially when it's about their performance. Throughout the process of trying

things out of their comfort zone they're often sensitive about it and they often evaluate

themselves negatively. So, they lower themselves that affects their performance at

school, how they interact to others and how they see themselves as an individual.

While their failures increase negative thoughts about themselves making an

individual feel frustrated, insecure, anxious, ignore positivity and success and etc. They

tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution. On the other

hand, some are taking failure as a positive feedback. But it does not mean that they can

always take it as positivity.


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Although they try to face the world with a positive self image over those negative

things that they recieve. Still they're having a hard time making a steps that are out of

their comfort zone. They feel that they don't deserve to experience positivity that they're

receiving. Every body knows that happiness is a choice. But it gets complicated when

they desire to be happy. But they think that happines don't want them to be. Although

it's a choice to be affected or not or make a resolution or not.

Every body has different ways to overcome the hindrances and sometimes the

small things makes the best solution.


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Chapter 1

THE PROBLEM AND ITS BACKGROUND

Do really having low self-esteem does not have any effects on the academic

performances of a student? Or it is one of the primary reasons why some of students are

not competitive in terms of performing in class?

Educators believe that self-esteem plays an essential role in academic

achievement. Politicians, business managers, and religious leaders extol the virtues of

self-esteem as a vehicle for attaining success in numerous other pursuits and endeavors.

Social scientists proclaim that self-esteem is integral to life adjustment, and a slew of

popular books have appeared in recent years promising to help people build and maintain

high self-esteem. In short, self-esteem is a la mode (Brown, 2014).

Low self-esteem makes you feel defective internally as though you are the only

one who is unworthy. But in reality, many others feel the same way about themselves

too. And just like you, they aren’t sharing their vulnerability with others, so no one knows.

When you compare your “inside” with other people’s “outside”, you are bound to feel

more unworthy, different and lonely (Chan, 2017).

The environment at home has a big influence on a child's development it can affect

his life negatively or positively. High parental support and monitoring were related to

greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors. Academic self-esteem levels of primary

students who are ages between eight to thirteen years old differ according to level of

education of their parents, economic condition of their families and the number of the

years they received education. Depressive and other symptoms increased in students
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Junior high school in both gender. Peer social support increase only for black students in

high academic competence (Essays, UK, 2013).

The self-esteem of the students with confidence overwhelming child rearing

patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with authoritarian and negligence

patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the role of parents in providing

mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far beyond anything that has

been fulfilled (Ghorbani & Ahmadi, 2011). The stage that comes before adulthood, a point

in time determining a young person’s identity, is molded by peers, family, media and

other forces. (Sealy, 2015).

Students having low self-esteem have a big disadvantage towards their academic

performance. Some of the common reasons of having a low self-esteem are being shy to

express their own opinion and themselves. If lots of things are affecting your Self-esteem

for a long time, this may lead to a mental health problem, such as depression or anxiety

(Mind, 2016).

Having a mental health problem can make it more difficult to cope or take steps to

increase your self-esteem. But whatever the cause, it can be helpful to remind yourself

that you have the right to feel good about who you are. It can be difficult to break habits

but there are steps you can take to feel better about yourself, bit by bit. But learning to

identify and challenge your negative self-beliefs can have a positive impact on your self-

esteem. It can helpful to ask yourself: "would I talk to, or think about a loved one in such

a negative way?" (Mind, 2016).


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Almost all of the self-esteem beliefs, positive or negative, are formed in the first

six years of life as the result of interactions have with primary caretakers, almost always

the parents. To begin with, most parents are not aware that children are forming beliefs

about themselves based on interactions with their parents that don't usually appear to be

at all harmful. But even when parents are aware of this, they can have a hard time

stopping their inappropriate behavior because they are rarely aware of the conflict

between what they as parents want and what children are able to understand and do at

various ages (Lefkoe, 2011).

The lack of information about the low self-esteem of the person remains

misdiagnosed or undiagnosed and plainly being consider as shyness. Some are trying to

keep it together while others are almost at their limit trying to save themselves mentally.

Despite of having a supportive family the suffering of an individual is still different. Almost

everyone suggest talking to somebody but some people choose not to.

All those encouraging words like you can do it and that is okay do not let their

opinion get to you, are useless if that person closed his mind and think negatively about

himself.

Some students today are stuck on what kind of profession they want. Added to

that, the increasing tuition fee and miscellaneous fee. This alone can pressure not just a

student but also their parents. Due to this, the government give scholarship for students.

However, despite widespread support for the reforms, critics argue that the

benefits, particularly for poor families, are not comparable to the costs associated with
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keeping their children in school for an extra two years. An article last October in the

International New York Times raised concerns about the overall direction of the K-12

reform and particularly highlighted that many families saw ‘two more years of schooling

as a costly burden, not a benefit’ (Patrinos, 2016).

Every day our frontline services see children and teenagers struggling to

understand how they fit into the world. They have to contend with things like intense

pressure at school, bullying, problems at home, all while navigating a complex Twenty-

four/Seven world with constant stimulation from social media. (Siddique, 2018).

A report from Essays, UK (2013) shows self-esteem increased over time but males

have higher self-esteem than females. Between white and black females that ages nine

to twelve, thirteen to sixteen and seventeen to twenty-two years old, Blacks have higher

and more stable self-worth and have greater satisfaction with their physical appearance

compare to white girls. Body dissatisfaction and self-esteem are common on adolescent

aged eleven to eighteen. Adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of twelve and

eighteen showed significantly lower levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-

esteem during the adolescent years.

Unchecked, low self-esteem may even lead to mental health issues such as anxiety

and depression, sometimes with tragic results. The well-being of society depends on the

well-being of its citizenry. One of the most important factors that should be fostered at

home and in school, is children's self-esteem, as this is the key factor of their success

further in life (Venzin, 2018).


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According to the most recent UNESCO Institute for Statistics data available,

approximately 12,000 students from the Philippines studied at foreign institutions in 2013,

almost double the figure for 2002. Most of those students are self-funded. Key host

countries include the U.S. and Australia (which account for approximately a quarter of

enrollments among Filipinos enrolled abroad at the tertiary level), followed by Saudi

Arabia, Japan, and New Zealand (Craddock, 2016).

Correlations between level of self-esteem and self-esteem stability are generally

low, suggesting that these are independent manifestations of self-esteem. The Philippines

has recently embarked on an educational reform in improving the curriculum and

spreading the number of years of learning from 10 years to 13 years. The K to 12 program

aims to produce graduates who are holistically developed, equipped with 21st century

skills, and prepared for higher education, middle level skills development, employment,

and entrepreneurship. The SHS includes two years of specialized upper secondary

education. It is one where the student has the option to choose a specialization based on

their aptitude, interests, and school capacity. (Seameo Innotech, 2015).

However, many parents believe that academic excellence is the foundation for

success. Have you asked your child achiever what he/she feels about it? “Some children

perceive that you only love them because they study hard or their grades are good. The

problem with this is when they are already working, their achievements are only based

on their mental capacity or competency but when they make mistakes, they lose self-

esteem,” said Jason Sanchez, Director for Student and Faculty Development at Morning

Dew Montessori (Dela Cruz, 2012).


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Low self-esteem affects most of the students. Some of their reasons are usually

their childhood experiences or how people treated them. But they shouldn’t stick to this

kind of idea due to the increase of the low self-esteem not just in the Philippines but also

in other countries. This simple shyness that turned into a mental health disorder is a big

problem now because it cannot be cured by simple medication.

A person with healthy self- esteem can become person with low self- esteem. A

talented person can have low self- esteem. Without realizing it the things you can do

became things you cannot do. Fear of judgement, people’s negative opinion or maybe

criticisms. One these are common to us. Each individual have different sensitivity and

how should he handle himself are different too.

There is more to self-esteem than first meets the eye. Someone may clearly lack

confidence and have a low opinion of them, whereas, some people may appear to have

confidence but their efforts to take charge and be in control is a cover for their low self-

esteem. Many of these people do not admit to themselves that they have any problem

and continue to aggressively appear full of self-esteem.

Many people who have leadership positions who deep down have low self-esteem

despite pretending to be someone who is in control and who makes decisions confidently.

This will lead to a lot of stress and pain as the pretense is covering up the real person

inside. You will see the true reality of this kind of person when they face real problems

and when things go wrong. They will be unable to accept any criticism and demand others

do what they say without question (Parera, 2016).


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Students nowadays experience a lot of struggles facing their problems. Some of

them want to overcome their low self- esteem but it is not that easy to do. For Neuman

(2013) changing ingrained ideas is very difficult. Some people with low self-esteem

continue to feel bad about them despite having had signal successes in the world. That

person feels inadequate in social situations, including dating, and incapable of

accomplishing any demanding (and desirable) work. When these feelings are severe, that

individual becomes a failure. Feeling profoundly pessimistic, he/she will not try to

accomplish anything worthwhile. Anything challenging will seem to be too difficult.

Expectations of failure become self-fulfilling.

There are some students that still feel like they are having low self-esteem but not

every time. Usually it depends of the emotion that they have. However, some of them

are not considered that they are having lack of confidence or low self-esteem. Student

from grade 11 STEM stated:

Hmmmm, I don't think soo? I mean, meron mga times siguro. Pero most of
the time iniisip ko lang na kaya ko naman pag pinursigi tas ginawan ko ng
paraan. Like Kung mababa grades, just meant na di ako nagaral/nag
review. Pero Kung ginawa ko yon, parang ganon. Hmm, in those rare
instances that i'm affected by it, I think so? I mean having a low self-esteem
would make you lose a lot of confidence in doing things, so you'll not be
able to focus and study as much, pero in my experience, I can recover
pretty quick naman. Like even if I have those moments mawawala rin yun
in a day or so. I'd say minimal but yep [Hmmmm, I don't think soo? I mean,
maybe there are times, but most of the time I just thought that I can do it
if I pursue it and when I make a way to make it work. Like if I have low
grades, It just meant that I don’t study and review that well. But if I do it
just like that you know. Hmm, in those rare instances that i'm affected by
it, I think so? I mean having a low self-esteem would make you lose a lot
of confidence in doing things, so you'll not be able to focus and study as
much, but in my experience, I can recover pretty quickly. Like even if I have
those moments it will be gone in a day or so. I'd say minimal but yep].
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But in this case the person depends on the people around her. On the factors like

how they treat each other? How did they react on a mistake that you do even if it is

negative or positive? One of our co-researcher stated:

Kasi pagnagkamali kalang ng isang beses bobo kana sa isip nila. Saka yung
section natin nagpapataasan e. Sa akin lang yun a.Saka ano narin takot
mapagalitan ng teacher Oo, yan yung dahilan bat minsan wala akong
mabigay na idea kasi feeling namin hindi naman na papansinin yung
opinyon namin. Dito rin yung nasasabing wala kaming natutulong pero yung
totoo nakakahiyang makisali kasi parang mema kalang. Hindi naman,
syempre hinahanda ko muna sarili ko saka choice mo nayan kung gusto mo
pang madagdagan kabobohan mo. [because once you made a mistake
you’re illiterate at the back of their mind. My classmates thinks that they’re
better than everybody inside in our section. That’s for my own opinion only
ah. Also I’m scared to be scolded by the teachers’ yes that is the reason
why sometimes I can’t give some ideas because we felt that our opinion is
unnnoticeable. This is what they always say that we can’t help but the truth
is it’s so embarrassed to join because it’s just nothing. Not really, I just
prepared myself and it’s your choice if you want to become stupider.]
A certain student experiencing low self-esteem might not know how to handle it

or maybe they are not aware that they are already suffering from it because most of us

consider it as shyness. Added to that, the SHS program that stressed out not just students

but also their parents and teachers. Sadly, most of the students decided to stop going to

school due to the high expenses and lost hope.

In this regard, the researchers would like to explore the lived experiences of

selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances. Thus, the research findings can help to widen our knowledge

towards low self- esteem, clear out misunderstandings and to make people more aware.
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STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived

experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year

2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally influence

emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own daily

performance at school.

This specifically sought answers to the following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions

concerned for their policy development and management?


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ASSUMPTIONS

This qualitative phenomenological research aims to describe, explore, understand,

and interpret the lived experiences of the STEM students having low self-esteem. For the

purpose of the study, there is an assumption that the co-researchers would be honest

and truthful in answering the interview questions. The results and validity of the study

depends on the co-researchers providing truthful answers during the interview as the

information they would provide will be the data which will serve as the foundation to help

address the research questions.


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SCOPE AND DELIMITATION

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to discover the low self-

esteem regarding academic performances of grade 11 STEM students in Mystical Rose

School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year 2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the

low self-esteem will generally influence emotional, social interaction and mental health,

which affect an individual to his own daily performance at school.

The researchers delimited their study by giving semi-structured interview to those

STEM students. Furthermore, the other strands and the issues that are not related were

excluded for the purpose of attaining concrete answers in affiliation to the problem

proposed by the researchers. The participants of the study are students which are

purposively chosen from the strand Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics

(STEM). Assessment tool is also distributed to prove if the participants are having low

self- esteem.

According to Creswell (2013), phenomenology is an approach to qualitative

research that focuses on the commonality of a lived experience within a group. The

fundamental goal of the approach is to arrive at a description of the nature of the

phenomenon. In addition, Giorgi (2012) define phenomenological research design as the

study that attempts to set aside biases and preconceived assumptions about human

experiences, feelings, and responses to a particular situations.


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In order to explore the lived experiences of the STEM students, phenomenological

methodology design was used to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM

students being low self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study aims to

help student to become more aware about themselves being low self-esteem.
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LOCALE OF THE STUDY

This study will based on the currently enrolled students of the school year 2018-

2019 in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., taking academic track in the strand of

Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics (STEM).

Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., was established in 1993 and a private

nonsectarian school that offers Academic Track and Technical-Vocational-Livelihood

Track. Courses under academic track are General Academic (GAS), Accountancy and

Business Management (ABM) Science, Technology, Engineering and Mathematics (STEM)

while Technical-Vocational-Livelihood Track consists of Information Communications

Technology (ICT) and Home Economics (HE) categories.

As STEM students, the feeling of being rejected, shamed, embarrassed and bullied

is not that noticeable but because STEM students are considered as confident, talented

and smart there are happenings that some experienced before it changes to something

that became unexplainable. Being a student of Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc.,

and having the same environment experienced same as the participants is convenient

and accessible for the researchers and the participants. For the participants it would be

an assurance to them knowing that the researchers came from the same environment as

them. The researchers would have an idea on how to properly communicate to their

participants because they’re already exposed to the same environment.


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SIGNIFICANCE OF THE STUDY

The findings of this study will be of great significant to the following:

Students for them to become more aware, to increase the understanding about

low self-esteem, and to look at themselves in a better way.

Parents for them to help their children to have an improve relationship to each

other that helps in the child’s development.

Faculty for them to motivate their students to participate, to perform better and

to enhance each other skills. They can also improve their emotional state.

School Administrators for them to improve their guidance and be

knowledgeable about low self-esteemed of the students.

Future Researchers for them to use the study to serve as a guide and reference

for further improvements.


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DEFINITION OF TERMS
The following terms are defined operationally and conceptually to add information

in the study:

Behavior is the way in which one acts or conducts oneself, especially toward

others.

Body Mass Index is a value derived from the weight and height of an

individual.

Bullying is unwanted, aggressive behavior among school aged children that

involves a real or perceived power imbalance.

Confidence is the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something.

Criticism is the practice of judging the merits and faults of something.

Depression is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how

you feel, the way you think and how you act. Fortunately, it is also treatable.

Ethnicity is the fact or state of belonging to a social group that has a common

national or cultural tradition.

Low self-esteem is characterized by a lack of confidence and feeling badly

about oneself. People with Low Self-Esteem often feel unlovable, awkward, or

incompetent.

Pressure is the psychological stress associated with expectations to perform

well in a situation.
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Racism is the prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone

of a different race based on the belief that one's own race is superior.

Self-esteem is the effects of an individual’s overall subjective emotional

evaluation of their own worth. It is the decision made by an individual as an attitude

towards the self.

SHS means Senior High School

Sociologist is someone who studies society and social behavior by examining

the groups, cultures, organizations, social institutions, and processes that people

develop.

STEM means Science Technology Engineering Mathematics

The following terms are defined operationally and conceptually to add information

in the study:
Chapter 2

REVIEW OF RELATED LITERATURE AND STUDIES

This chapter presents the various related literatures and studies from different

foreign and local sources. The following discussions summarized the related works

referring "Lived Experiences of Grade 11 STEM Students Being Low Self-Esteem Towards

their Academics Performances".

The related literatures that are cited came from different resources such as

magazines, books, online articles, theory and opinions about authorized studies. These

studies are gathered to strengthen and inform the students on how low self- esteem

affects the academic performances of the students. Related studies are an essential part

of the planning of the study. It primarily presents the different researches and other

literatures from both foreign and local researchers, which have significant bearings on

the variables included in the research. It focuses on several aspects that will help in the

development of this study. It also reveals the similar data concluded by the other

researchers that can be found in related research, thesis or dissertations through internet,

library and other accessible sources.

In this chapter, proof and evidences is employed by this research. Local and

foreign literature is presented, collected information that can support the statement of

the problem in chapter one. The collected information will be the foundation of the study.
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LITERATURE

Literatures are the related literature which provides an overview of information

connected to the topic used. Under these are survey books, scholarly articles, and any

other sources which are relevant to the particular issue and area of research or theory,

which helps to create a greater understanding and widen our knowledge about how low

self- esteem can affect our academic performances.

Local. It composed of data that came from survey books, articles, news, and any

other sources which are parallel to the issue. That can give a description, summary and

a careful evaluation of works about the experiences and struggle of students with low

self-esteem in local boundaries.

Low self- esteem in children are considered as a normal trait or quality as we often

see shy, timid and unsociable learners sitting alone at the back of the classroom. That

should not be ignored especially by teachers since sociologist prove that it has many ill

effect on the children. And when children starts thinking negatively about themselves,

they become unhappy withdrawn and disconnected, through that it may lead to more

serious problems such as drug dependency and depression (Francisco, 2018).

Furthermore, one of the artists of GMA network also known for her role as Violet

in Destiny Rose, the seventeen-year old Kate Valdez revealed that she had low self-

esteem in her younger years because of the audition rejection for commercials. She stated

that she want her mother to bought her glutathione instead, shared Kate laughing.

Because she wanted to quit, that is when she consider herself that she’s not beautiful

thinking that is the reason why she can’t be accepted. Until she reaches the point that
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she doesn’t want it anymore. Despite of a casting reject, her morena feature had its

moments. She won the Ms. MSLO 2015 of Gen. Trias Cavite, and beating around three

hundred beauty contestants. Her perseverance in pursuing her dream to enter modeling

and acting paid off. She has done four commercials and signed a five year contract with

GMA Artists Center (Belen, 2018).

According to the article of Marajas (2018) for seven to nine years Prim Paypoon

succeeded in interviewing six hundred fourteen Filipino teenagers of every socioeconomic

class. Paypoon went fifty four out of eighty one provinces in the country with one simple

question: 'Do you have a dream in life? ‘However, according to the study, seven out of

ten teenagers answered 'no'. "It turns out that discouraging words from others was the

most common reason behind the phenomenon, followed by the lack of self-esteem, lack

of passion, lack of opportunity, and lastly, poverty".

During the school year, teenagers are most like to experience higher level of stress

than grownups. Due to the amount of school works needed to be done on deadlines,

added to that the need to analyze and review the past lessons, the new environment,

forming new friendship or relationships. The 2-year Senior High track is supposed to help

you prepare for your next steps. Whether you’re heading to college, getting employed,

or starting a business, these last two years should be able to equip you for that (Alcaraz,

M.2018).

A lot of current SHS student today experience the confusion of choosing a strand.

Especially if were talking about STEM. One of the article on when in manila by Tan (2017)

Stating that there were pressuring rumors towards the strand STEM such as all STEM
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students excel at math and science; all students will become successful, or that simply

put, all STEM students are smart.

However, these rumors might be true to a certain degree, they certainly put a

pressure towards the currently and already an STEM students that they must achieve this

kind of expectations. Not knowing these words can disturb or hinder the current students

of the said strand from doing their best by shouldering the responsibilities, it can also

discourage future SHS students from picking the strand in fear of the pressure they will

receive. She also mentioned the rumors spreading about the other strands. To support

the statement an article by Daluz (2018) two of her interviewee answered: "Never fear

to learn new things, ask questions and then record all the things you find interesting."

and “Before you finally decide to enroll in a science program, be absolutely sure first that

your heart really belongs to science and that you have an intense passion for it."

Children at school develop their potential and capabilities by the opportunity given

by the teachers, which they can help the students with low self- esteem by directly and

generously praising their exerted small or big efforts. Allowing them to speak their side

without interference in spite of mistakes will also help as correction may be done after.

Teachers must patients in explaining what and how the mistakes was done in a

way which tells them its normal to not meet others expectation from time to time.

Criticism must be just like an advice or suggestions so they won't feel like being attack

or threatened for their imperfection. These youngsters are as fragile as glass and they

need to be handled with caution and care by both parents and teachers (Francisco, 2018).

An article of Phil star Global by Beltran (2018) on having an interview with Alden
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Richards commonly known as a regular host on the daily noontime show, Eat! Bulaga.

Stating that he had low self-confidence, low self-esteem. That he felt like he did not

deserve to be part of the business where everything is about being beautiful, being

handsome, being perfect. That was the pressure on him before. It was his mother's death

that pushed him to pursue and live his mother's dream for him to be an actor.

Foreign. It contains findings from scholarly works of authors, articles and any

sources beyond the local boundaries. The result of the state studies can be used as

evidences which strengthen the stand of the researchers and for the future researchers.

We live in a world where there is an epidemic of low self-esteem. It affects almost

every aspect of our lives, from how we think about ourselves to the way we think about

or react to life situations. Nowadays, some people tend to keep their problems and

struggles by themselves, some are having a hard time expressing themselves which cause

misunderstanding and some remain unnoticed. The circumstances have endless

possibility depending on the scenario, mental stability, childhood and the people around

him (Venzin, 2015).

In the blog by Lachmann (2015), if they grew up hearing their effort was not good

enough, how are they supposed to have a positive self-image? It is difficult to feel

confident and comfortable in ourselves. Motivating ourselves to want, strive more and

imagining that they deserve more. Is ineffective when nobody paid attention to them as

if your greatest achievement is not worth to look at. This kind of scenario can often results

in feeling of being forgotten, unacknowledged, unimportant to anyone or believing that

no one is concerned about them.


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A longitudinal study was conducted, over 5 years to examine the changes in self-

esteem and feelings of competence with physical appearance and social acceptance. The

participants included were one thousand one hundred sixty-six white and one thousand

two hundred thirteen black girls, ages between nine and ten years at baseline. The

assessments of maturation stage and body mass index were done annually and Harter’s

Self-Perception Profile for children was done biennially. The report concluded that black

girls’ had higher and more stable self-worth and greater satisfaction with their physical

appearance compared to white girls (Essays, UK, November 2013; Brown).

Kling et al. (2002) conducted a meta-analysis on gender differences in global self-

esteem with two analyses. In analysis I, a computerized literature search of ninety-seven

thousand one hundred twenty-one respondents and in analysis II, the responses of

approximately forty-eight thousand young Americans, from the National Center for

Education Statistics were used. The two analyses provided evidence that males scored

higher on standard measures of global self-esteem than females, but the difference is

small (Essays, UK, November 2013; Kling et al, 2002).

In the contrary Hirsch and Rapkin (2013) conducted a longitudinal study regarding

self-esteem, school life and social support to examine the psychological well-being of

students during the transition to junior high school. The participants were one hundred

fifty nine white and black students and the findings showed that self-esteem was

unchanged from the end of sixth through the middle of seventh grades, rising by the end

of seventh grade. Depressive and other symptoms increased among girls’ overtime
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relative to boys. There is an increase in peer social support only for blacks of high

academic competence.

In addition, Richard (2013) carried out a cohort-sequential longitudinal study on

self-esteem development from young adulthood to old age. Data included 4 assessments

from the Americans’ changing lives study across a 16-year period of a nationally

representative sample of three thousand six hundred seventeen individuals aged 25 years

to 104 years. Analysis indicated that self-esteem was increasing during young and middle

adulthood, reaching a peak at about age 60 years and then declining in old age. Women

had lower self-esteem than men in young adulthood. More educated individuals had

higher self-esteem than less educated individuals. Moreover, the results suggested that

changes in socioeconomic status and physical health account for the decline in self-

esteem that occurs in old age.

A national educational longitudinal study was conducted to examine parental

support and monitoring on adolescent outcomes of self-esteem, substance abuse and

delinquency. Diverse samples of sixteen thousand seven hundred forty-nine adolescents

were included and the findings showed that high parental support and monitoring were

related to greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors (Essays, UK, November 2013;

Parker, Jennifer, Benson, & Mark ,2004).

Phinney and Chavira (2004) conducted an exploratory longitudinal study to

examine changes in ethnic identity and self-esteem with age. The sample consisted of 18

adolescents from Asian, American, Black and Hispanic ethnic groups. They were assessed

at 16 years and three years later. Results showed a significant change to higher stages
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of ethnic identity over the three-year period. Self-esteem and ethnic identity were

significantly related to each other at each time period and across the three-year time

span (Essays, UK, November 2013; Phinney & Chavira, 2004).

Wild, Flisher, Bhana, and Lombard (2004) investigated the associations among

adolescents’ self-esteem in 6 domains and risk behaviors related to substance use,

bullying, suicidal and sexuality. A multistage stratified sampling strategy was used and a

representative sample of nine hundred thirty-nine English, Afrikaans and Xhosa-speaking

students in Grades 8 and 11 were selected. The multidimensional self-esteem

questionnaire and a self-report questionnaire were used to collect the data. The results

showed that scores on each self-esteem scale was significantly associated with at least

one risk behavior. Low self-esteem in the family and school contexts and high self-esteem

in the peer domain were significantly associated with multiple risk behaviors in

adolescents of both the sexes.

Heinonen, Raikkonen, and Jarvinen (2005) conducted a longitudinal study to

investigate the relation of self-esteem in early and late adolescence to dispositional

optimism-pessimism in adulthood. The subjects comprised a population-based sample of

young Finns and were investigated at ages 12, 18 and 33 years. The results revealed that

adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of 12 and 18 showed significantly lower

levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-esteem during the adolescent years.

Biro et al. (2006) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the changes in self-

esteem in relation to race and body mass. The samples were girls recruited at ages 9 and

10 years and were followed to age 22 years. The Harter self-perception was administered
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every other year, analyzing scores from the global self-worth scale at ages 9-12 years,

13-16 years and 17-22 years. The results showed that self-worth was greater in black

than white women and greater with lower body mass index in both races. The findings

revealed that race and body mass index are important predictors of self-esteem.

Raevuori et al. (2007) conducted a longitudinal study to analyze the genetic and

environmental influences on self-esteem among Finnish twins. The 4132 twin individuals

were assessed at age 14 years and 3841 twin individuals were assessed at age 17 years.

The Rosenberg Global Self-Esteem Scale was used to measure self-esteem and the results

indicated that stability in self-esteem was differently regulated in adolescent boys

compared to girls. Genetic factors contributed to a large degree in boys, whereas

significant shared environmental influences suggest that interventions intended to

strengthen girl’s self-esteem could be more feasible than among boys.

Block and Robins (2008) in a longitudinal study examined the developmental

changes in self-esteem from early adolescence through late adolescence to early

adulthood. The samples included were 47 girls and 44 boys. The findings showed that

the self-esteem of males increased and females decreased over time. Boys and girls with

high self-esteem possessed quite different personality characteristics in early

adolescence. Although important differences remained, the personality characteristics

associated with high self-esteem were similar for the two sexes in early adulthood.

Berg (2010) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the cross-sectional

association between body dissatisfaction and low self-esteem across gender, age, body

weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status. A diverse sample of


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adolescents aged 11-18 years undergone school-based survey of eating, weight, and

related attitudes. Measurement of height and weight were done in schools and were

resurveyed through mails 5 years later. The findings indicated that body dissatisfaction

and self-esteem were strongly related among all groups of adolescents.

Erturgut (2010) conducted a study to analyze academic self-esteem levels of

primary school children whose families applied to the hospital with different complaints.

241 primary school children who were between ages 8-13 years constitute the sample of

the research. Stress level scale, Academic Self-Esteem Scale and Demographic Scale were

the three different scales used in the research. The results found out that academic self-

esteem levels of students differ according to level of education of their parents, economic

condition of their families and the number of the years they received education. Other

findings show the existence of an inverse relationship between academic self-esteem and

stress levels of the students.

Holmstrom (2010) did a meta-analysis on self-esteem as a focus of communication

scholarship to examine the interactions that aid in the development and maintenance of

self-esteem in both children and adults. The results showed that communication

influences the development of children’s self-esteem and it has important theoretical and

pragmatic implications.

Devamony & Devadoson (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the level

of self-esteem among adolescent girls before and after hugging using pre experimental

design. The samples consisted of 30 adolescent girls selected by total enumeration

method and the data was collected using Standardized Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Scale.
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Inferential statistics was used to evaluate the effectiveness of hugging among adolescent

girls and the results showed that there was a significant increase in self-esteem after

hugging among adolescent girls.

GhorbaniAmir & AhmadiGatab (2011) did a descriptive and correlation study to

investigate the relationship between child rearing styles and students’ self-esteem among

both male and female students. The sample group consisted of randomly selected 100

students including 50 girls and 50 boys. The tool used was Self-Esteem Eysenck

Questionnaire and a question was added to determine the child rearing style.

The results showed that the self-esteem of the students with confidence

overwhelming child rearing patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with

authoritarian and negligence patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the

role of parents in providing mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far

beyond anything that has been fulfilled.

Patel (2018) said that instead our brains have envolved to survive, to protect

ourselves, to keep us safe. Sure, we have moments of elation and periods of contentment

and bliss.
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STUDIES

Studies are the related studies which the critical analysis was already conducted

providing the results that is connected to the topic used. It can be found in the related

research, thesis or dissertations through internet, library and etc., which answers the

specific questions and strengthen the claims of the researchers.

Local Studies. It composed of past studies of the researchers and authors that

came from related research and thesis. That can give a detailed information about the in

the local boundary.

Poor achievement in Mathematics are caused by problems and difficulties that

include personal problems (students’ ability and attitudes), psychological (emotional)

problems, instructional problems (teachers’ strategies in teaching and attitude), family

problems (finances and relationship), adjustment to college life, peer problems

(adjustment to classmates and board mates), and co-curricular activities (Ganal, N.N&

Guiab, M.R.2014)

The conducted study about academic performance between students with

behavior problems and those without behavior problems, but no difference was found in

the self-esteem between the same groups. The most common behavior problems

observed among the respondents are 1) skipping school or cutting classes, 2) bullying or

intimidating others, and 3) arguing with teachers, friends and classmates.

Almogela. L et al (2013) showed that there is no significant difference between

the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behavior when grouped according to

males and females. It implied that when it comes to the variable gender, the relationship
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of self-esteem and health related behavior of males and females are not significantly

different from one another. The researchers used the Rosenberg’s Self-esteem scale in

Saint Louis University School of Nursing Baguio City. There is no significant difference

between self-esteem and health related behaviors (Stress and Gender in relation to Self-

esteem of University business students, 2011).

This study in contradictory to some researches in which the relationship of self-

esteem and health-related behaviors of males and females shown that there was a

statistically significant difference with one another, which shows that males scored

significantly higher level of self-esteem than females (Self-esteem and optimism in rural

youth: Gender differences, 2010).

Foreign Studies. It contains the conclusion of the researchers and authors

beyond the local boundaries. The said studies serve as the proof which toughens the

stand of the researchers and the future researchers.

Okoko (2012) define self-esteem as a person's overall evaluation of his or her own

worth. William James first introduced the concept in 1890, suggesting that self-esteem is

the result of our success (behavior) divided by our pretensions (values and goals) (Flynn,

2016; James, 1890).Low self-esteem lay behind a range of undesirable behaviors and

practices made low self- esteem the problem and high self-esteem, or methods

supposedly promote this condition, the solution (Emler, 2001; Hewitt, 1998).

Ahmavaara and Houston conducted a study using 856 English secondary pupils in

grade 7 and grade 10.Which focus on the relationship between gender and self-concept.

The research found that the boys report higher level of self-concept than girls regardless
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of their school type or age (Okoko, 2012; Ahmavaara&Houston, 2007).

Parents transmit knowledge and values to their children and help to shape

behavior and perceptions of self. Children also are actively constructing an understanding

of their environment (Flynn, 2016).Adolescents who feel accepted in their peer groups

have their love and belonging needs as well as self-esteem needs met. Rejected

adolescents are infrequently nominated as best friends. Rejection results from

aggression, poor sociability, communicative unresponsiveness and hyperactivity (Okoko,

2012; Ladd, 1999).

Authoritative parenting which encourage adolescents to be independent but still

places limits and control on their actions, encourage socially competent behavior. The

parents who allow their children to do what they want results as adolescents never learn

to control their own behavior and always expect to get their way(Okoko, 2012;Baumrid,

1999).

According to Mercury (2015), the power of being honest with yourself is incredible.

It will change your life in every in every way for the better. It will impact your financtial

situation. It will impact your relationships. It will impact your happiness. It will even

impact your sleep and overall health.

Raghunath (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the effectiveness of

writing therapy on self-esteem among adolescents. A sample size of 22 adolescents were

selected using purposive sampling method and a repeated measure time series design

was used. The results showed that there was a significant increase in mean self-esteem

score of adolescents after writing therapy.


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Mrudu, Nagarajaiah, and Janardhana (2012) did a descriptive study to assess the

parental attachment and self-esteem among adolescents. Convenient sampling was used

to select a sample of 100 adolescents between the age group of 15-18 years. Socio

Demographic Data Schedule, Parental Attachment Questionnaire and Self-Esteem

Inventory were used for the data collection. The findings revealed that, there is a

statistically significant positive correlation between overall parental attachment and self-

esteem among the adolescents.

Vidya (2012) conducted a study to evaluate the effect of a planned series of activity

sessions on positive peer relationship and self esteem among adolescent students using

pre experimental design. Simple random technique was used and 60 adolescents were

selected. Peer Relation Scale and the Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Inventory were used to

collect data. The subjects participated in the planned series of activity in eight different

sessions. The results showed that the subjects developed high positive peer relation and

self-esteem after participation in the activities and it was also found that there was a

positive correlation between the level of positive peer relation and self-esteem of the

adolescents.

Self-esteem by itself can actually decrease grades. High self-esteem correlates

highly with self-reported happiness. However it is not clear if either necessarily leads to

the other. The relationship involving self-esteem and academic results does not signify

that high self-esteem contributes to high academic result. It simply means that high self-

esteem may be accomplished due to high academic performance. (Okoko, 2012; Frank,

2009). Low self-esteem is the source of all manner of personal and social ills. That at
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least is the popular view (Emler, 2001).

According to an empirical study of McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem

rely on coping strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although,

there’s also a productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having

friends with the same characteristic and can relate with each other. Also, Low self-esteem

children tend to be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.

Furthermore, low self-esteem individual tends to be pessimistic towards to

everything that surrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).
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 Personal Information of the participants.


 preferred name
 age
 gender
 sex
 grade & section
 Describing oneself.
 Reasons for being low self-esteem.
 Describing friends and things done together.
 Social relationship with classmates and teachers.
 Performance inside the classroom.
 Worst and happiest experience in class being low self-esteem
 Effect of being low self-esteem in studies.
 Regrets for being low self-esteem.
 Suggestion and resolution.
 What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?
 What insights may be drawn from their experiences?
What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions concerned for their policy
development and management?
INPUT

 Distribution of assessment test to participants to determine if they


experience having low self-esteem
 Data gathering thru distribution and retrieval of semi-structured interview
 Analyzing, and Interpretation of Data

PROCESS

Explored the lived Experiences of STEM Students being Low Self-Esteem


to know if there is a positive or negative effects due to the trials, difficulties
and conflict to oneself towards their Academics Performances.

OUTPUT

Figure 1
Paradigm of the Study
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PARADIGM OF THE STUDY

Block 1 is the INPUT, characterization of the respondents the varied effect of

having low self-esteem in one's multiple aspects of living, the reason for studies and the

problem encountered by those students having a low self-esteem in their Academic

Performances.

Block 2 is the PROCESS, which contained the methods to come up with the

results of the study. Under these were the data gathering instruments in order to acquire

needed information from the target respondents: Distribution and retrieval of semi-

structured interview; use of formulated statistical treatments; presentation and analysis

of data through tabulations.

Block 3 is the OUTPUT, which presented the outcome of both the input and the

process. This also pertained to the goal of researchers towards determining the

relationship and impacts brought by part-time employment towards the academic

attainment of undergraduates, and coming up with a formulation of a guide that could

help the students to improve their competence stability of working while studying.
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RELEVANCE OF THE REVIEWED LITERATURE AND STUDIES TO THE PRESENT

STUDY/ SYNTHESIS

We live in a world where there is an epidemic of low self-esteem. It affects almost

every aspect of our lives, from how we think about ourselves to the way we think about

or react to life situations William James first introduced the concept in 1890, suggesting

that self-esteem is the result of our success (behavior) divided by our pretensions (values

and goals) (Flynn, 2016; James, 1890). Okoko (2012) define self-esteem as a person's

overall evaluation of his or her own worth.

Low Self- Esteem refers to a person who criticizes his or her own self in a negative

way, being unable to have choices and to solve problems by themselves or lack of

confidence. Low self- esteem in children are considered as a normal trait or quality.

Ignoring this may lead to more serious problems (Francisco, 2018).

During the school year, teenagers are most like to experience higher level of stress

than grownups. Due to the school work needed to be done and passed on a specific

deadlines (Alcaraz, M.2018).The 2-year Senior High track is supposed to help you prepare

for your next steps. A lot of current SHS student today experience the confusion of

choosing a strand. Especially if were talking about STEM.

One of the article on when in manila by Tan (2017) Stating that there were

pressuring rumors towards the strand STEM such as you need to be smart excel on math

and science, you will become successful. However, these rumors might be true to a
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certain degree, they certainly put a pressure towards the currently and already an STEM

students that they must achieve this kind of expectations.

Children at school develop their potential and capabilities by the opportunity given

by the teachers (Daluz, 2018).Parents transmit knowledge and values to their children

and help to shape behavior and perceptions of self (Flynn, 2016).

Teachers must patients in explaining what and how the mistakes was done in a

way which tells them its normal to not meet others expectation from time to time.

Criticism must be just like an advice or suggestions so they won't feel like being attack

or threatened for their imperfection. These youngsters are as fragile as glass and they

need to be handled with caution and care by both parents and teachers (Francisco, 2018).

Having a low self-esteem is big factor in all ages especially for a child's

development. The negative experiences of a child until the adolescence stage can affect

and can lead to serious problems that cannot be notice right away. Added to that the

pressure he receive at school or the strand and profession that he want, his appearance,

height or weight, nationality, childhood, the current status of his family one of these

might be the reason why he is slowly losing his self-worth. We can never tell if a child is

feeling down until he tells it to you.

The possibility is endless to this kind of situation because it still depends on how

he sees himself, the support given by the family or friends and deepness of the problem.

For this matter both literatures and studies of the previous and present are combined

since it is related to low self-esteem. The overviewed literatures and studies provides
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insight, background new information and evidences that strengthen the stand of this

study since low self-esteem is not quite known for what really it is.

According to Mercury (2015), the power of being honest with yourself is incredible.

It will change your life in every in every way for the better. It will impact your financtial

situation. It will impact your relationships. It will impact your happiness. It will even

impact your sleep and overall health.

Children starts thinking negatively about themselves, they become unhappy

withdrawn and disconnected, through that it may lead to more serious problems such as

drug dependency and depression (Francisco, 2018).

Furthermore, one of the artists of GMA network also known for her role as Violet

in Destiny Rose, the seventeen-year old Kate Valdez revealed that she had low self-

esteem in her younger years because of the audition rejection for commercials. She stated

that she want her mother to bought her glutathione instead, shared Kate laughing. She

has done four commercials and signed a five year contract with GMA Artists Center (Belen,

2018).

According to the article of Marajas (2018) for seven to nine years Prim Paypoon

succeeded in interviewing six hundred fourteen Filipino teenagers of every socioeconomic

class. Paypoon went fifty four out of eighty one provinces in the country with one simple

question: 'Do you have a dream in life? ‘However, according to the study, seven out of

ten teenagers answered 'no'. "It turns out that discouraging words from others was the

most common reason behind the phenomenon, followed by the lack of self-esteem, lack
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of passion, lack of opportunity, and lastly, poverty".

An article of Phil star Global by Beltran (2018) on having an interview with Alden

Richards commonly known as a regular host on the daily noontime show, Eat! Bulaga.

Stating that he had low self-confidence, low self-esteem. That he felt like he did not

deserve to be part of the business where everything is about being beautiful, being

handsome, being perfect. That was the pressure on him before. It was his mother's death

that pushed him to pursue and live his mother's dream for him to be an actor.

We live in a world where there is an epidemic of low self-esteem. It affects almost

every aspect of our lives, from how we think about ourselves to the way we think about

or react to life situations. Nowadays, some people tend to keep their problems and

struggles by themselves, some are having a hard time expressing themselves which cause

misunderstanding and some remain unnoticed. The circumstances have endless

possibility depending on the scenario, mental stability, childhood and the people around

him (Venzin, 2015).

In the blog by Lachmann (2015), a feeling of overprotective and over supported.

There is chance but the preparedness for the upcoming challenges in his life is not there.

Fear of speaking up because of Physical, sexual, or emotional abuse. The feeling of being

compared puts them in situations where you are constantly guilty of the same mistakes.

Kling et al. (2002) conducted a meta-analysis on gender differences in global self-

esteem with two analyses. In analysis I, a computerized literature search of ninety-seven

thousand one hundred twenty-one respondents and in analysis II, the responses of

approximately forty-eight thousand young Americans, from the National Center for
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Education Statistics were used. The two analyses provided evidence that males scored

higher on standard measures of global self-esteem than females, but the difference is

small (Essays, UK, November 2013; Kling et al, 2002).

A national educational longitudinal study was conducted to examine parental

support and monitoring on adolescent outcomes of self-esteem, substance abuse and

delinquency. Diverse samples of sixteen thousand seven hundred forty-nine adolescents

were included and the findings showed that high parental support and monitoring were

related to greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors (Essays, UK, November 2013;

Parker, Jennifer, Benson, & Mark ,2004).

Phinney and Chavira (2004) conducted an exploratory longitudinal study to

examine changes in ethnic identity and self-esteem with age. The sample consisted of 18

adolescents from Asian, American, Black and Hispanic ethnic groups. They were assessed

at 16 years and three years later. Results showed a significant change to higher stages

of ethnic identity over the three-year period. Self-esteem and ethnic identity were

significantly related to each other at each time period and across the three-year time

span (Essays, UK, November 2013; Phinney & Chavira, 2004).

Wild, Flisher, Bhana, and Lombard (2004) investigated the associations among

adolescents’ self-esteem in 6 domains and risk behaviors related to substance use,

bullying, suicidal and sexuality. Low self-esteem in the family and school contexts and

high self-esteem in the peer domain were significantly associated with multiple risk

behaviors in adolescents of both the sexes.


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Heinonen, Raikkonen, and Jarvinen (2005) conducted a longitudinal study to

investigate the relation of self-esteem in early and late adolescence to dispositional

optimism-pessimism in adulthood. The subjects comprised a population-based sample of

young Finns and were investigated at ages 12, 18 and 33 years. The results revealed that

adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of 12 and 18 showed significantly lower

levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-esteem during the adolescent years.

Biro et al. (2006) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the changes in self-

esteem in relation to race and body mass. The samples were girls recruited at ages 9 and

10 years and were followed to age 22 years. The Harter self-perception was administered

every other year, analyzing scores from the global self-worth scale at ages 9-12 years,

13-16 years and 17-22 years. The results showed that self-worth was greater in black

than white women and greater with lower body mass index in both races. The findings

revealed that race and body mass index are important predictors of self-esteem.

Raevuori et al. (2007) conducted a longitudinal study to analyze the genetic and

environmental influences on self-esteem among Finnish twins. The 4132 twin individuals

were assessed at age 14 years and 3841 twin individuals were assessed at age 17 years.

The Rosenberg Global Self-Esteem Scale was used to measure self-esteem and the results

indicated that stability in self-esteem was differently regulated in adolescent boys

compared to girls. Genetic factors contributed to a large degree in boys, whereas

significant shared environmental influences suggest that interventions intended to

strengthen girl’s self-esteem could be more feasible than among boys.


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Berg (2010) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the cross-sectional

association between body dissatisfaction and low self-esteem across gender, age, body

weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status. A diverse sample of

adolescents aged 11-18 years undergone school-based survey of eating, weight, and

related attitudes. Measurement of height and weight were done in schools and were

resurveyed through mails 5 years later. The findings indicated that body dissatisfaction

and self-esteem were strongly related among all groups of adolescents.

Erturgut (2010) conducted a study to analyze academic self-esteem levels of

primary school children whose families applied to the hospital with different complaints.

241 primary school children who were between ages 8-13 years constitute the sample of

the research. Stress level scale, Academic Self-Esteem Scale and Demographic Scale were

the three different scales used in the research. The results found out that academic self-

esteem levels of students differ according to level of education of their parents, economic

condition of their families and the number of the years they received education. Other

findings show the existence of an inverse relationship between academic self-esteem and

stress levels of the students.

Devamony & Devadoson (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the level

of self-esteem among adolescent girls before and after hugging using pre experimental

design. The samples consisted of 30 adolescent girls selected by total enumeration

method and the data was collected using Standardized Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Scale.

Inferential statistics was used to evaluate the effectiveness of hugging among adolescent
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girls and the results showed that there was a significant increase in self-esteem after

hugging among adolescent girls.

GhorbaniAmir and AhmadiGatab (2011) did a descriptive and correlation study to

investigate the relationship between child rearing styles and students’ self-esteem among

both male and female students. The sample group consisted of randomly selected 100

students including 50 girls and 50 boys. The tool used was Self-Esteem Eysenck

Questionnaire and a question was added to determine the child rearing style. The results

showed that the self-esteem of the students with confidence overwhelming child rearing

patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with authoritarian and negligence

patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the role of parents in providing

mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far beyond anything that has

been fulfilled.

Patel (2018) said that instead our brains have envolved to survive, to protect

ourselves, to keep us safe. Sure, we have moments of elation and periods of contentment

and bliss.

Almogela. L et al (2013) showed that there is no significant difference between

the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behavior when grouped according to

males and females. It implied that when it comes to the variable gender, the relationship

of self-esteem and health related behavior of males and females are not significantly

different from one another. The researchers used the Rosenberg’s Self-esteem scale in

Saint Louis University School of Nursing Baguio City. There is no significant difference

between self-esteem and health related behaviors (Stress and Gender in relation to Self-
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esteem of University business students, 2011). This study in contradictory to some

researches in which the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behaviors of males

and females shown that there was a statistically significant difference with one another,

which shows that males scored significantly higher level of self-esteem than females

(Self-esteem and optimism in rural youth: Gender differences, 2010).

Low self-esteem lay behind a range of undesirable behaviors and practices made

low self- esteem the problem and high self-esteem, or methods supposedly promote this

condition, the solution (Emler, 2001; Hewitt, 1998).

Ahmavaara and Houston conducted a study using 856 English secondary pupils in

grade 7 and grade 10.Which focus on the relationship between gender and self-concept.

The research found that the boys report higher level of self-concept than girls regardless

of their school type or age (Okoko, 2012; Ahmavaara&Houston, 2007).

Adolescents who feel accepted in their peer groups have their love and belonging

needs as well as self-esteem needs met. Rejected adolescents are infrequently nominated

as best friends. Rejection results from aggression, poor sociability, communicative

unresponsiveness and hyperactivity (Okoko, 2012; Ladd, 1999).Authoritative parenting

which encourage adolescents to be independent but still places limits and control on their

actions, encourage socially competent behavior. The parents who allow their children to

do what they want results as adolescents never learn to control their own behavior and

always expect to get their way(Okoko, 2012;Baumrid, 1999).


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Raghunath (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the effectiveness of

writing therapy on self-esteem among adolescents. A sample size of 22 adolescents were

selected using purposive sampling method and a repeated measure time series design

was used. The results showed that there was a significant increase in mean self-esteem

score of adolescents after writing therapy.

Mrudu, Nagarajaiah, and Janardhana (2012) did a descriptive study to assess the

parental attachment and self-esteem among adolescents. Convenient sampling was used

to select a sample of 100 adolescents between the age group of 15-18 years. Socio

Demographic Data Schedule, Parental Attachment Questionnaire and Self-Esteem

Inventory were used for the data collection. The findings revealed that, there is a

statistically significant positive correlation between overall parental attachment and self-

esteem among the adolescents.

Vidya (2012) conducted a study to evaluate the effect of a planned series of activity

sessions on positive peer relationship and self-esteem among adolescent students using

pre experimental design. Simple random technique was used and 60 adolescents were

selected. Peer Relation Scale and the Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Inventory were used to

collect data. The subjects participated in the planned series of activity in eight different

sessions. The results showed that the subjects developed high positive peer relation and

self esteem after participation in the activities and it was also found that there was a

positive correlation between the level of positive peer relation and self-esteem of the

adolescents.
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Self-esteem by itself can actually decrease grades. High self-esteem correlates

highly with self-reported happiness. However it is not clear if either necessarily leads to

the other. The relationship involving self-esteem and academic results does not signify

that high self-esteem contributes to high academic result. It simply means that high self-

esteem may be accomplished due to high academic performance. (Okoko, 2012; Frank,

2009). Low self-esteem is the source of all manner of personal and social ills. That at

least is the popular view (Emler, 2001).

According to an empirical study of McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem

rely on coping strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although,

there’s also a productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having

friends with the same characteristic and can relate with each other. Also, Low self-esteem

children tend to be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.

Furthermore, low self-esteem individual tends to be pessimistic towards to

everything that surrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).
Chapter 3

METHODOLOGY AND METHODS OF RESEARCH

This chapter discussed the research methodology used in this study, the research

design, the respondents of the study, the research instrumentation, the validation of

instruments, the analyzation of data, the sampling technique, and the retrieval of

instruments.

STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived

experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year

2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally influence

emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own daily

performance at school.

This specifically sought answers to the following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions

concerned for their policy development and management?


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RESEARCH DESIGN

This study used Qualitative Phenomenological Research method, wherein the study

is focused on the lived experiences of the currently enrolled grade 11 STEM students.

According to Creswell (2013), phenomenology is an approach to qualitative

research that focuses on the commonality of a lived experience within a group. The

fundamental goal of the approach is to arrive at a description of the nature of the

phenomenon. In addition, Creswell (2007) also stated that, a phenomenological study

“describes the meaning for several individuals of their lived experiences of a concept or

a phenomenon”. Phenomenological study allows the researchers to delve into the

perceptions, perspectives, understandings, and feelings of those people who have

experienced or lived the phenomenon or situation of interest (Abels, 2018).

On the other hand, Waters (2016) phenomenological research describes a lived

experience of a phenomenon. As this is a qualitative analysis of narrative data, methods,

to analyze its data is quite different from more traditional or quantitative method of

research. Furthermore, Phenomenology focused on the subjectivity of reality, continually

pointing out the need of to understand how humans view themselves and the world

around them (Willis, 2007).

For the main purpose of this study, qualitative phenomenological design was used

in order to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low

self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study attempts to set aside biases

and preconceived assumptions about human experiences, feelings, and responses to a

particular situations (Giorgi, 2012).


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SELECTION OF CO-RESEARCHERS/ SAMPLING TECHNIQUES

Purposive Sampling was used in the selection of co-researchers who are only

chosen if they fit rightfully to the specific intention and purpose of the study. Purposive

Sampling is a kind of non-probability sampling that focuses on a characteristic of a

population that are of interest, which will best to enable the answer in research questions

(Lund Research Ltd, 2012). In addition with that, these characteristic can help the

researchers to identify those Grade 11 STEM students who have low self-esteem;

 Is extremely critical of themselves


 Downplays or ignores their positive qualities
 Judges themselves to be inferior to their peers
 Use negative words to describe themselves such as stupid, fat, ugly or
unlovable
 Has discussions with themselves (this is called ‘self-talk’) that are always
negative, critical and self-blaming
 Assumes that luck plays a large role in all their achievements and does not
take the credit for them
 Blames themselves when things go wrong instead of taking into account
other things over which they have no control such as the actions of other
people or economic forces
 Does not believe a person who compliments them. (DOHHS, 2014)

But to really ensure the selection of co-researchers, the researchers based on the

result of the Rosenberg’s scale that serves as the assessment tool so the researchers can

carefully analyze whom are the selected students, to discover the evidence that serves

as proof of their actual experience.


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RESEARCH INSTRUMENTATION/ DATA COLLECTION

The researchers executed the following research instruments in gathering data.

Semi-structured Interviews. Semi-structured Interviews Define as the specific

set of questions, but there are also addition probes that may come in the form of follow

up questions that are not included in the list of original questions. Through this process,

the researcher can gather additional data from a respondent that may add depth and

significance to the findings (Cristobal & Cristobal, 2017).

As Smith and Fowler stated at Gregorious (2017), an interview protocol was

developed for use in conducting face-to-face interviews with study participants who

consented to be interviewed. The interview protocol consisted of 10 questions, the

interviews provided a more in-depth analysis of the participant’s overall experience. The

interview questions served as a guide rather than a fixed protocol for each interview. At

times, the researcher may use additional follow-up questions to clarify or expand upon

learners’ responses in keeping with the phenomenological approach used in this study.

The phenomenological interview should be structured enough to focus the

conversation on the study participant’s experience with the phenomenon of interest, but

also open enough to allow free expression of all relevant elements.

The researchers conducted the use of semi-structured interview in order to gather

the opinions and experiences of the participant which are related to the lived experience

of grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their academic performance.

The semi-structured interviews contain questions that is prepared in advance which are

only given to the participants that fits the characteristics needed in the said study. The
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use of this assessment tool in the study is included in the semi-structured-structured

interview.

This enables the researchers to identify the participants that are fitted to the study

which are given before the semi-structured-structured interview. The purpose of this

study is stated in the statement of the problem which specifically sought answers to the

following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions

concerned for their policy development and management?


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TREATMENT OF DATA/ DATA ANALYSIS

The researcher conducts face-to-face interviews with participants, in-person, or

engages in one-on-one interview. These interviews involve semi-structured and generally

open-ended questions that are few in number and intended to elicit views and opinions

from the participants (Creswell, 2013). Correlation with this, Creswell 2009 enumerates

the following process on how to analyze qualitative data:

1. Organize and prepare. - Interviews were recorded (if allowed) and transcribed
or summarized.
2. Make a general sense of the data collected-Reading through all the interview
transcripts offered an overview of the emerging general themes, tone and
insights.
3. Coding process - Coding is defined as “the process of organizing the material
into chunks or segments of text before bringing meaning to information”
(Rossman & Rallis, 1998; cited in Creswell 2009).
4. Aggregate codes into themes or categories - Categories are collection of codes
and represent the key findings of the research study. Categories should
encompass the perspectives of various individuals and be supported by various
direct quotes.
5. Connect categories - The categories emerged from the analysis will be
discussed in detail comparing and contrasting the views of various informants.
6. Interpretation - The data, codes and categories were interpreted in light of the
literature reviewed.
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VALIDATION OF THE INSTRUMENT

After formulating the semi-structured interviews, the researchers conducted a test

sample of 5 currently enrolled STEM student of Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc. of

the school year 2018-2019 and were also asked to answer the checklist made by the

researcher in order to know if the questions are suitable and comfortable enough to be

asked to the participant. The researcher computed the weighted mean 3.66(Very good).

Also, it consist` a suggestion for further revision of the semi- structured interviews.

RESEARCH ROLES AND BAISES

The researchers considered the participants honest and truthful answer as they

share their own experience and perspective during the recorded interview. Through

analyzing the response of the participants, the researchers came up with the result that

attempted to precisely connect the purpose of the study. Throughout the research

process, the researchers observed their own experiences and perspectives as they related

to the study, conforming in mind their personal biases. The researchers attempted to let

their own opinion and perspective hinder the response that discovered in the interviews

by the participants.

TRUSTWORTHINESS

Trustworthiness as defined by LaBanca (2010), Demonstration that the evidence

for the results reported is sound and when the argument made based on the results is

strong. Therefore, trustworthiness of (a) interpretations, (b) findings are dependent on

being able to demonstrate how they were reach (Mauthner & Douceth, 2003). The

participants’ answers are the highest reliable data source because, it is based on their
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own experience. The researchers distributed assessment tool to ensure that the

participants are low self-esteem students, it is also stated in our consent form that the

participants must answer it honestly.

MEMOING

In analysis of the gathered data, the researchers listened to the recorded interview

of the participants continuously until the transcribe data is accurate. After listening to the

recorded interview of the participants several times, the researchers wrote it down,

encoded the recorded interviews and translated those stories shared by the participants

and manually evaluated the transcripts to derive with the appropriate and relevant

themes.
Chapter 4

PRESENTATION, ANALYSIS, AND INTERPRETATION OF DATA

This chapter includes the presentation, analysis, and interpretation of data

gathered by the researchers from the interview conducted.

STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived

experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year

2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally influence

emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own daily

performance at school.

This specifically sought answers to the following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions

concerned for their policy development and management?


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Co-Researcher A--------------Ms. Leilei

Hello, ako si Leilei. Ako ay nag-aaral sa Mystical Rose School of Caloocan taking

up STEM Strand section Bonifacio. Hilig kong tumugtog ng gitara at syempre makinig ng

mga classic musics. Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.

Oo, okay lang pero huwag mo sasabihin sa iba. Nagsimula yun noong namatay

ang mama ko. Lagi kong tinitingnan yung mga negative sides noong nawala siya. Mas

naging stressed ako ngayon kaysa dati. Lagi akong nababalisa sa lahat ng bagay

especially sa pag-aaral ko at meron akong ugaling pagiging malungkot pero hindi ko rin

alam kung kalian yun nagsimula.

Ang mga kaibigan ko ay mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin kahit na sa

pinakamababang punto ng buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na masasandalan

ko. Lagi kaming sama-samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara.

Actually, yung relasyon ko sa teacher ko ay maayos naman dahil isa siya sa mga

nasasabihan ko ng mga problema. At yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates ko ay

hindi ganon kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay komportable

sa sarili ko at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila.

Minsan ako ay active sa recitation sa klase pero minsan tamad din ako at antukin

habang may class discussion.

Noong ako at yung kaklase ko ay nagkaroon ng hindi pagkakaunawaan during

science fair. Nakapagsabi ako ng mga masasakit na salita tungkol sa kanya. At inaamin

ko yung mga pagkakamali ko pero meron din naman siyang pagkakamali noong mga oras

na iyon. Mula noong araw na iyon ay naging mahiyain ako sa mga classmates ko dahil
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alam nila kung ano ang nangyari noong araw na iyon. At iyon din ang naging dahilan

kung bakit ako naging low self-esteem.

Yung pinakamasayang experiences na naranasan ko is during our Christmas

party, yun na iyon.

Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi ko magawang

matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong naiisip na hindi ko

magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong pakiramdam.

Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip yung

kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito.

Oo, meron akong mga pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil maraming

nasayang na opportunities.

Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap nila. Kapag

nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na sapunto na

you are not able to grow as a person.


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Co-Researcher A--------------Ms. Leilei

Hello, I’m Leilei. I am studying at Mystical Rose School of Caloocan taking up STEM

Strand section Bonifacio. I like playing guitar and of course listening to a classic music.

Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.

Yes, it’s fine but don’t tell it to anyone. It all started when my mom passed away.

I always look to the negative sides of her lost. I become more stressed than before. I

always feel anxious in everything especially in my studies and I have the attitude of being

sad but I actually don’t know when it was started.

My friends are good and they are always there for me even in my lowest point of

my life. They are kind of friends that I can lean on. We usually eating and playing guitar

together.

Actually, my relationship with my teacher was really good because she is the one

I can open up my problems. Then, my relationship with my classmates where not so

good. As I said before, I am introvert. I am comfortable with myself and I am not belong

to those circle of friends that they have.

Sometimes I am active in class recitation but sometimes I am lazy and sleepy

during class discussion.

When me and my classmate had a misunderstanding during science fair. I said

some awful words about him. And I admit my mistakes but he also had a mistakes that

time. Since that day I become shy to all of my classmates because they knew what

happened that day. And it is also the reason why I have a low self-esteem.

My happiest experiences experience in class is during Christmas party, that’s it.


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Yes it affects my studies. Because of my low self-esteem, I am not able to learn in

some discussion because I am out of my mind and I always think about myself that I

can’t do that, I can’t do this. And I hate that feeling.

I’ll just endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think about my future

that I should continue to fight even if it’s hard.

Yes I have regrets being low self-esteem because there are so much wasted

opportunities.

Don’t be afraid of those struggles and problems that they’re facing. If you fail, just

do it again. Don’t stay to you comfort zone to the point that you are not able to grow as

a person.

Co-Researcher B-------------Ms. Naji

Ako si Naji, 17 years old nakatira sa ph 1, pkg. 1, Blk 16, lot 1, BSCC. Lima kaming

magkakapatid at pang apat ako. Yung Papa ko namatay noong august 19, 2014 dahil sa

colon cancer. Si Mama na lang ang nagtataguyod sa amin, umabot sa punto na nagtitinda

na kami sa clasroomm namin para mayroon kaming panggastos. Yung ate kong panganay

4th year college noong nagstop siya dahil hindi na talaga kaya kapag lahat kami ay nag

aaral pa. Nagtrabaho siya para makatulong kay mama at sa aming mga kapatid nya.

Simula nung nawala na si papa, doon na ako pinanghinaan ng loob, nangulila sa

pagmamahal niya. Naiinggit ako sa iba kasi kumpleto ang pamilya nila. Ngayong gr.11

na ako, kahit na madalas na pinaghihinaan ako ng loob, ginagawa ko nalang inspirasyon


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yung hirap ng buhay para mas pagpursigihin ko pa yung pag-aaral ko. Dahil alam kong

mas pagod yung taong nagpapaaral sa akin.

Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na wala pa akong mai-pagmamalaki, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko

at sa ibang tao na malakas ako at matapang pero ang totoo no'n nawawalan na ako ng

tiwala sa sarili ko, kasi lagi nalang akong nakakagawa ng mga pagkakamali. Minsan kahit

maliit na bagay na kapag di ako nasusuportahan ng mga taong mahal ko sa buhay,

nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko na wala akong halaga sa kanila na wala lang ako sa kanila.

Marami akong kaibigan pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam ng tunay kong

kalagayan, yung nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging bonding

nalang namin yung puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami, syempre

kahit na bawal sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang bagay.

Madalas na nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran.

Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na umaabot sa punto na

walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila, dahil feeling ko kasi lahat

ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers ko naman, madalas

akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang paborito sa mga kaklase

ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero parang wala ka lang sa kanila,

puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo.

Pagdating naman sa klase, active naman ako sa recitation o groupings at roleplaying,

yun nga lang tingin nila sakin ng iba feeling magaling.

Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at puro ako lang

ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila.


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Nung nagkaroon na ako ng mga bagong kaibigan, yung sama-sama lahat ng bagay

at talagang nagtutulungan.

Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at ng adviser ko na

bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa sarili ko na

nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako may

mababang grades.

Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging duwag ako sa isang

bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung pagkakataon, pero hindi

na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin sa sarili mo, halos lahat

naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako.

Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin, mag-iisip pa

rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan ka nang

mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili.

Co-Researcher B-------------Ms. Naji

I am Naji, 17 years old I lived at phase 2 Pkg.1 block 16 lot 1, BSCC. We are 5 siblings

and I am the fourth. My father died last August 19, 2014 because of colon cancer. My

mother is the one who raise us, it comes to the point that we used to sell in our classroom

for us to have an income. My sister who’s the eldest, 4th year college when she stop

because we can't afford if we all study. She works to help our mother and for us her

siblings. When my father is gone, I started to lose hope, longing for his love. I am jealous

to others because they have a complete family. Now that I am grade 11, even if I always
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felt losing myself. I just make the difficulties in life as an inspiration for me to pursue my

study. Because I know the person who works for me to study, is tired than I am.

Because I know to myself that I don't have a thing to be proud of. I am telling myself

and others that I am strong and brave but the truth I lost faith to myself, because I

always commit wrong did. Sometimes in small things that my loved ones in my life didn't

support me, I felt that I don't have a value to them that I am nothing to them.

I have a lot of friends but it’s only a few who knows the truth about my situation.

Who understand me, when we are together we used to eat and drink alcohols as our

bonding, of course even its wrong we have tried, especially that I felt curious in one

thing. We often talk to each other and pissing each other would not miss.

To my classmates it’s okay, but there are times that it comes to the point that no

one talks to me and I am shy to talk to them, Because I feel that all of my gesture they

noticed, all is issue for them. To my teachers, I often feel annoying and sulky to them

when they have favoritism with my classmates. Because you know? You yourself pursuing

but seems like nothing for them, they notice all the bad things to you.

In class, I am still active in terms of recitations or groupings and roleplaying, but some

of them think that I am feeling great for myself.

When we had fight with each other and had an open-forum in our room, and it is

only me who they pointing out, and all of my mistakes.

When I had friends already, when we're always together in everything and truly has

cooperation.
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Yes, there is some point when my subject teacher told me and my adviser that my

grades are getting lower. And I felt to myself that I am getting less interested to study

that is why my major subjects have a lower grades.

I see there's nothing, or if there are it is the time when I become a coward in one

thing and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the opportunity. But it won't be

avoided that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my only difference is I

exceeded.

Maybe for those like me who have low self-esteem, its better to keep it balance, still

think right because it is bad when you stand for one it is that you completely lose your

trust.

Co-Researcher C-------------Mr. Potpot

Ako si Potpot. Ako ay 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student nag-aaral sa Mystical

Rose School of Caloocan Inc. Hilig kong maglaro ng computer games tyaka mag

basketball. Ako yung klase ng tao na laging inaantok. May apat akong kapatid, dalawang

babae dalawang lalaki. Meron akong stepfather kasi yung tunay kong tatay namatay

noong isang taon ako. Yung pangalawa kong kuya nagpapaaral sakin at binibigay niya

mga gusto ko pero hindi na siya dito naka tira sa bahay meron na siyang sariling bahay.

Tapos yung ate ko naman kumukuha ng education course sa UP Diliman. Yung bata pa

ako lagi lang ako sa bahay kasi di ako pinapayagan lumabas ni mama naging introvert

din ako ng almost 6 years pero yung grade 7 nako nasanay nako sa ibang tao at natuto

maging independent.
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Oo, okay lang. Yung rason kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong low self-

esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended in saying

na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang payan

eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing

iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos

kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa

kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh.

Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga mapagkakatiwalaan pero

minsan mga hindi rin mapagkakatiwalaan eh. Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina. Lagi kami

nag babasketball, naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip.

Ahm… yung pakikitungo ko naman sa mga classmates ko at teachers ayos naman

pero minsan nakakainis lang yung mga bida-bidang classmates na akala mo ang gagaling

eh hindi naman, tapos yung sa teachers wala akong problema don puwera lang sa P.E

teacher kasi ang yabang masyado tapos sa Reading ang Writing daming pinapagawa.

During class hour minsan tulog ako pero sa mga quiz at test ko lagi din naming

pasado at kumokopya din sakin mga seatmates ko, pag nakikinig akong mabuti tapos

mag quiz.

Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa kapag

reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali.

Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng harap ng

maraming tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya.
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Siguro? Kasi minsan ang hirap mag-adjust at yung feeling na alam mo yung sagot

pero hindi ko nasasabi kasi baka mali at mapahiya ako. Merong masamang epekto pero

nahahandle ko naman sa pamamagitan ng sarili ko minsan. Binu-boost ko confidence ko.

Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.


Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos huwag sila

papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila na mas may

iimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon.

Co-Researcher C-------------Mr. Potpot

I’m Potpot. I’m 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student of Mystical Rose School of

Caloocan Inc. My hobbies is playing computer games and playing basketball. I’m a sleepy

person. I have 4 siblings. 2 girls and 2 boys. I have a stepfather because my father died

when I was 1 year old. My second brother is the one who provide everything for my

studies and he gave me everything I want but he’s not leaving in our anymore because

he have his own house already. However, my elder sister was taking up education course

in UP Diliman. When I was a child I am always in our house because my mother did not

allow me to go outside I become introvert in almost 6 years but when I was in grade 7 I

already comfortable with other people and I learned how to be independent.

Yes it’s ok. The reason why I’m being or I feel is when I do my best at all things

but ended up saying “That’s it?, is there no any improvement? Why can’t you make it

better, that’s not enough eh. Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them

hahaha. The feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need
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something they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why

I’m looking down to myself.

My friends? They are kind, nasty and trust worthy but sometimes they are

unreliable eh. Just like what I said earilier. We are always playing basketball, LOL and we

are together even in bad things.

Ahm… my treatment with my classmates and teachers are ok but sometimes I am

annoyed with those what you call “Jollibee” classmates because you think that they are

good but not, and to my teachers there’s no any problem except to my P.E teacher

because he’s arrogant and in Reading and Writing so many things to do.

During class hour I am sleep sometimes but in the quiz and my test I always

passed and my seatmates are copying to me, if I am listening carefully and there is a

quiz.

Just being shy whenever I’m in front. Example I am reporting I can’t properly say

anything because I am afraid to make a mistake.

In our title defense and I.P because I am able to talk properly in front of many

people, I am not afraid to make a mistake and I am not afraid to be ashamed.

Maybe? Because sometimes it’s hard to adjust and the feeling that you the answer

but I can’t able to talk because what if it’s wrong and I was ashamed. There’s a bad effect

but I can handle it in terms of boosting my confidence.

There’s too many because there’s a lot of a wasted opportunity.


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My advice is don’t down yourself and don’t depend on what you can do because

you know in yourself that you can improve something in that thing.

Co-Researcher D-------------Ms. Dyosa

Ako po si Ms. Dyosa 18 years old sa March 14 po. Hindi ko po alam na low self-

esteem pala ako pero sige go! Yung tinetake ko yung test akala ko hindi ako papasa dun

sa magiging particiapant nyo. Kasi yung ibang tanong dun feeling ko ano hindi naman

pang low self-esteem. Hindi naman ako ganun ka ano friendly, pero hindi rin naman ako

ganun ka introvert. Nakikipagkaibigan ako dahil nga kapag ano matagal ko ng nakasama

pero pagka kunwari pagdalawa lang kami, madalang ako yung magsalita o mag-open ng

topic. Madalang yun mangyari.

Siguro nga ayun, hindi ako masyadong nag-oopen ng umpisa ng topic ng

conversation kaya ano, hindi ko masyado naexpress yung sarili ko kahit ano gusto ko

siyang sabihin parang kinikeep ko nalang sarili ko na ano maging quiet.

Yung grade 10 ako yung mga kaibigan ko mga babae sila tapos syempre

magkakaiba kami ng school. Meron nga akong kaibigan ditong dalawa na ano taga dito

sa GAS at taga ICT pero madalang nalang kami mag-usap saka madalang din kami mag-

usap sa personal saka sa chat. Kaya feeling ko ano nawawala sila, parang hindi nako

nagiging kaibigan nila. Lalo na pagnakikita ko post nila na ano yung mga nakatag yung

ibang kaklase nila ba parang bagong tropa nila. Yun lang parang nahuhurt lang ako sa

ganun.
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Kahit noon palang junior high hindi ako masyadong, hindi ako masyadong

nakikipag-usap sa teacher pero since ano nasa ano ako may honor ako nun. Kaya close

ay ano nilalapitan ako ng mga teacher. Kilala nila ako pero madalang akong makipag

usap sa kanila na parang ibang estudyante na marunong magbiro sa teacher pero hindi

ako masyadong ganun. Hindi ko yun kaya.

Ahh siguro semi-active lang ako, siguro nagka-top lang ako nun kasi mataas yung

quizzes ko yung exams ko, pero pagkarecitation di ako masyadong active sa ganun. Ewan

ko bat nag ka top ako nun eh hindi naman ako palarecite. More on written works diba

kasi ganun dati.

Nung grade 3 siguro yun na din yung naging dahilan kung bakit naging mahiyain

ako sa klase. Yung teacher ko na ano hindi ko alam kung may galit sakin o wala kasi pag

ka ano parang lagi akong pinagbubuntungan ng galit niya. Yung nangyari kasi nun

nakatulog ako sa klase niya, ewan ko kung bakit ako natulog diba kasi syempre grade 3

palang ako nun hindi pa ako seryoso sa pag-aaral. Tapos pagkadilat ko naglelesson pala

siya tapos tinarayan niya ko, tapos sabi niya "sarap ba matulog?" ganun-ganun. Tapos

yung isang time naman nakikinig ako sa lesson niya tapos biglang dumating yung ate ko.

Ano pabalik-balik yung ate ko may hinatid siyang I.D., bote, tapos ano yun? Panyo ata.

Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati ba panty mo naiwan mo?"

gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase ko. Pagkauwi ko iyak-iyak

ako kay mama, muntik na nga nilang ipablotter yun eh, pero hindi na nila inano kasi ayaw

na nila ng gulo kaya hindi na ako nakikipag-usap sa teachers.


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Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is yung grade 8

ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun parang yun yung

pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon ng magulang

namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng top, nakakahiya

nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am.

Oo nga yun, katulad nga nung grade 9 ako hindi ako masyadong nagpaparticipate

nun kasi nga diba? Naiintimidate ako sa teacher, feeling ko lagi niya kong sisigawan, lagi

magagalit sakin siguro yun yung nakakaapekto sakin. Pero yung mga nangyayari nung

may mga peoblema kami sa bahay hindi naman yun nakaapekto sa pag-aaral ko, parang

naging motivation.

Oo naman, oo kasi syempre diba? Mas maganda yung feeling na hindi ka nahihiya

kahit yung feeling mo tatawanan ka nila parang wala kang pakialam doon. Kasi pagka

diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas mararamdaman mong ano parang

wala akong confidence panget ng ganung pakiramdam.

Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since naranasan ko siya

hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya. Parang mamementain

mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence mo, tapos tinry mong

i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma ng naranasan ko

noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may problema ako,

parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba kaya
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nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang nila

pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun.

Co-Researcher D-------------Ms. Dyosa

I am Ms. Dyosa 18 years old on March 14. I do not know that I am a low self-

esteem person but alright go! When I was taking the test I thought that I won't able to

pass as your participant. Because some of the questions, I feel like what it is not for low

self-esteem. I am not that friendly, but I not that introvert too. I used to be friends with

a person I've for a long time, but if it is like we're two I rarely start to talk or open a

topic. It is rare to happen.

Maybe, that I rarely open to start a topic of conversation that's why I don't

express myself that much even though I wanted to say it but seems like i keep it myself

and be quiet.

When I am in grade 10 my friends are all girls, but we are in different schools. I

have these two friends that is from GAS and from ICT but we rarely see each other also

we rarely talk to each other in person and even in chat. So I feel like I lost them, that I

am not their friend anymore. Especially when i saw their posts, when some of their

classmates are tagged it's like they're their new friends. That's it; just I am hurt by it.

Even though I am still in junior high school, I did not talk to the teacher very

much but since ahm… I am in ahm… I still have an honor. So close is what the teachers

approach me. They know me but I rarely talk to them like other students who know

how to joke the teacher but I'm not really like that. I did not.
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Ahh, maybe I'm semi-active, maybe I just got up because I had my quizzes high

in exams, but I'm not very active with that. I do not know why I'm the top of you but

I'm not palarecite. More on written works than usual.

Grade 3 maybe that's why I was shy in class. I'm a teacher that I do not know if

I'm angry or I do not think that's what I always hate her. That's what happened

because I fell asleep in her class, but I was asleep since I was of grade 3 but I was not

seriously studying. Then I opened my eyes and then he kissed me, then he said "Is it

good to sleep?" like that. Then one time I listened to his lesson and suddenly my sister

came. My sister came again and again she brought I.D., bottle, what was it? Maybe

handkerchief. Then I was ashamed because she suddenly says “What you also left your

underwear? She said that to me so my classmates laughed at me. When I got home I

am crying to my mother, they almost blotter her eh, but they refuse to do it because

they don’t want to have an argument.

The most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year

when I got a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that

time our parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock

that I’ve got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there, ma’am took a

picture of me.

Yes it is, just like when I was in grade 9 I don’t usually participate because you

know? I am intimidate in teacher, I felt that she would always shout at me, always

angry at me maybe that affects me. But the happenings when we have a problem in

our house I didn’t affect my study, it became my motivation.


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Yes of course, yes because you know right? It’s better to feel that you are not

shy even if you felt that they will laugh at you maybe you don’t care. Because you

know? Even if they don’t laugh at you then you will feel that I don’t have a confident

that kind of feeling is unpleasant.

Just don’t take your problem too seriously. Since I experience that maybe it

won’t last too long that you will experience it. Just to maintain that you try to boost

your confidence, you try to open up with others it will disappear. Just like the trauma

that I experience before, I experience to have a friend specially when I have a problem,

maybe I become more friendly. I felt that I am important to others so that myself

Confident will boost up. That’s it, just do their best in school because it can help you.

Co-Researcher E------------- Ms. Buwan

Tawagin niyo nalang po akong Buwan 17 years old, yun nakakaranas po ako ng

low self-Esteem kasi may mga bagay na, mga bagay na minasan naiisip ko nalang na

hindi ko kayang gawin. Tapos napaka nega ko sa sarili ko. Yung hindi ko sinusubukan

yung mga bagay na alam ko namang kaya ko.

Okay lang naman malaman niyo kung bakit low self-esteem ako kasi ano. May

mga times kasi na yun nga nahihirapan ako. Tapos iniisip ko agad na hindi ko kayang

gawin. May mga bagay na hindi ko, hindi ko tinatry na gawin kasi iniisip ko na hindi ko

kaya tapos napapanghinaan ako ng loob.


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Yung ano kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang kaibigan

hanggang ngayon yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko lamg

nalaman yung tunay na saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga

kaibigan mo na nakasama mo ng ganun katagal malalaman moo talagang sila yung

magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga.

Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. Yung

mga saya na puro tama lang yung ginagawa niyo, yung saya namay limitasyon. Hindi

katulad ng ibang saya na iba yung ginagawa. Pero yung mga kaibigan nayun yun yung

pinakamasasabing the best sila. Kasi bawat weekends o kada linggo may ginagawa kami

na umaalis kami, sama-sama kami. Hindi kumpleto tutuloy parin kami kasi pwede rin

namang maulit yung sama-sama kami. Hindi kami nawawalan ng bonding kada linggo

ganun. Tapos yung mga ano kaibigan ko sa church namin, iba sila pagkasama mo. Ahh

lalo na pagkasama mo sila sa church, kasi yung mga ginagawa niyo yung tama lang yung

nasa aral niyo. Kaya yung masasabi ko yung mga kaibigan ko na dati saka mgayon, sila

talaga yubg mga kaibigan na tama talaga para sakin. Kasi ginagawa namin kada

ginagawa namin sa church, syempre pumupunta kami dun. Then, sabay-sabay kaming

gumagawa ng mga aral na tinuturo sa amin.

Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon sa bilang

grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi na parang

hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako gusto.

Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun kaya

hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. Tapis yung mga teacher na iba parang wala rin silang
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pakialam ganun. Sa classmates naman, syempre hindi mo naman maiiwasan yung mga

classmates na ganito na mapang-asar sa ano. Minsan nakakasakit yung mga salita pero

hinahayaan ko nalang kasi okay lang naman yun, biro lang naman yun. Hindi naman,

pero may mga times kasi na nakakapangbaba rin yun ng sarili yung mga pang aasar na

sobra na.

Pagdating sa klase mga discussion yung pagiging low self-esteem ano na nadadala

ko siya sa time ng discussion o kaya sa pagpeperform sa mga academic performance

ganun. Kasi diba pag lo self-esteem ka syempre kinakabahan ganun na mapapaisip ka na

hindi ko to kaya na baka mamaya pagtawanan lang ako mga ganun. Tapos may mga

time na discussion tapos hindi talaga ako nagrerecite kasi nahihirapan akl na sumagot

hindi, minsan kasi hindi ako agad nakaka adopt masyado ng mga lesson hindi ko siya

napagtutuunan ng pansin minsan. Tapos lalo na nga nang pagiging low self-esteem kasi

minsan, kasi nasasalungat nako sa lesson, hindi ko na siya na aadopt nahihirapan ako

pag ganun. Tapos mga performance syempre kinakabahan ako lagi, wala akong times na

hindi ako kinabahan kahit na ano elementary pako hindi talaga ako tumatayo sa harapan.

Noong elementary ako nun eh or high school. Noong time noon nung nagperform

ata ako nun tapos parang hindi ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint din yung

mga teacher yun tama. Yung nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak ko nun.

Kasi hindi namin alam yung gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport nun. Kasi

time nun MAPEH tapos puro practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi namin

naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng MAPEH

tapos nung time na mismo ng report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla kaming
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sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo

diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak.

Tapos para pa akong tanga nung pinabasa sa classmate ko tung tula ata yun o dagli?

Tapos i ano ko daw, tapos i action ko daw yung mga sinabi ng classmates ko tapos yun

nahihirapan nako tapos bumalik nako sa upuan nun. Napanghinaan nako ng loob hindi

na naano yung report namin.

Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low self-esteem

ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na kaibigan, sila yung

sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya bawat nakikita ko sila

kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may importansya pala ako kahit

papaano. Tapos yung mga happiest ayun, bilang ano nabibigyan ka ng panahon para

magsalita na mabigay mo yung gusto mong sabihin sa church nayun. Doon ko nakilala

yung sarili ko na ganito pala ako, na kahit ganito ako pero kailangan ko paring makipag-

interact sa mga tao, kailangan mo parin na makipag-usap na makipag salamuha sa kanila

na sundan o makibahagi sa mga ginagawa nila. Kaya isa san pinakamasaya yon dahil

nakakilala ka ng mga tunay na kaibigan na iingatan ka syempre may mga pagkakataong

din na minsan yung ugali nila ganun. Pero iintindihin ko nalang din yun. Pero minsan

nakakadala rin siya sa pagiging mababa sa sarili mo low self-esteeem mo, pagiging low

self-esteem sa sarili. Minsan kasi yung attitude nakakapagpababa, sinasabihan ka ng

panget na bagay bababa yung pakiramdam mo. Pero madalas naman na puro positive

naman yung sinasabi nila.


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Nakakaapekto yung low self-esteem sa studies kasi sa pag-aaral mo. Since

nakakapang baba yun di muna, parang nahihirapan kanang gawin sa mga pinapagawa

sa schools. Sa mga peformance ganon parang hindi mo na talaga siya kayang gawin.

Hmmp nakakaapekto talaga siya kasi yung mga times nga na minsan hindi ko na kaya,

yung may mga ganitong pinapagawa hindi ko na kaya nahihirapan ako, hindi ko alam

kung pano ko gagawin. Ganun naging bad effects din yun. Ayun naging bad effects sakin

kasi puro nalang kasi naiisip ko na ganito pala, wala akong ano na hindi ko pala kaya,

puro negative nalang talaga nasa utak ko. Tapos nahahandle ko naman siya paminsan

minsan pinipilit ko talaga sa sarili kong sabihin kong ganito na sana na lagi nalang sa isip

ko is positive. Na pilit akong nagpapatatag na sana magawa ko to ganun na kaya ko to.

Lagi akong nagsasabi sa sarili ko na kaya ko to, kakayanin sana mapagtagumpayan.

Maging positive talaga palagi.

Meron akong pinagsisisihan kasi may mga times na hindi ako sumasagot. Diba

yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi bakit hindi ko yun ginawa

bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre dapat gawin ko pero hindi ko

talaga siya nagagawa. Nagsisi ako doon kasi nga sobrang baba ko sa sarili di ko yun

nagagawa, bakit hindi ko to nagagawa, bakit ganun. Bakit hindi ko muna subukan mga

ganun.

Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na hanapin yung lahat

ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na maging positive lagi

tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-esteem sa sarili natin
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hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na ganito ganyan. Yung

nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating sasabihinsa utak natin na

kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa sarili ko na kakayanin ko

lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa atin na di tayo

pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin mahina ka, na

hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga magagawa

lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man yung ipagawa

sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga problems or ano pamang

pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na dito sa school marami

talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Na kaya mo yun na

may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain nayan. Na

mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang.

Co-Researcher E------------- Ms. Buwan

I am Ms. Buwan 17 years old, I experience being low self-esteem because

sometimes there are things that I thought that I can't do it. Then I am really nega towards

myself. Where I don't try the things that I know I can't do it.

It's okay if you'll find out what is the reason behind me being low self-esteem.

There are times that i'm having a hard time. Then right away I thought that I can't do it.

There are things that I don't try to do because I thought that i'm unable to do it and I

then I lost self confidence.


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My friends when I was a grade nine, I've been friends with them for almost 4 years

until now they're really a good person. I discover the true happiness when i'm with them

but it's different in family, but to your friends who's with you for a long time you'll discover

that they are the ones who gave you value. Yes in parents, in family they also gave you

value. But to that friends you feel like you really have happiness. The kind of happiness

that you do the right things, the happiness that has limitation. Unlike other happiness

that do different things.

But those friends I can say that they're the best. Because every weekends or

every Sunday we do activities like going to different places, All together. Even though

we're not complete we still choose to continue the journey because it can be repeated

when were complete. There are no times that we don't have a bonding moment every

Sunday. Then to my friends at our church, they're a different company. Ahh Especially if

you're with them inside the church, because the things we do is just right in our study.

So I can say that my friends before and today they're the right ones for me. Because we

do the things we do at the church, of course we go there. Then all together we make the

study that was teach to us.

It’s okay if I would share about my experiences as a grade 11. To classmates and

teachers. In teachers i'm having a hard time because it's like they don't like you. So. So

I though that they don't like me. Because there's something wrong with me, sometimes

i don't recite. So I can't introduce myself. Then the other teacher act like they don't care.

In my classmates, of course you can't avoid classmates who always tease. Sometimes
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their words are painful but i just let them do it because it's okay, it’s just a joke. It's not.

But there are times that their jokes are below the belt.

In class I brought being low self-esteem in times of discussion or in perfoming

academic performance. Because you know if you're low self-esteem of course you're

nervous you thought that you can't do it maybe they would lough at me. And then there

are times when discussion is on going and I don't recite because i'm having a hard time

to answer. Sometimes I can't adopt that much to the lesson and sometimes I don't put

that much attention to it. Especially if you're being low self-esteem because sometimes,

Because sometimes i can't follow the lesson, I can't adopt it i'm having a hard time if it's

like that.Then in performance of course i'm always nervous, there are no times that i'm

not nervous even when i'm still aelementary I don't stand in front.

Before when i'm elementary or high school. I'm performing that time, I think. Then

it's like i'm not satisfied to what happened it's like the teachers are also disappointed.

When i'm reporting I was grade 10 that time, I cried so much. We don't know what to do

because the topic is given and we have to report it right away. That time our subject was

MAPEH and it was all about practice. That was full of practice and we didn't took care of

it. We thought all we have to do is practice after the subject MAPEH and then when it's

the time for our actual report, then time for Filipino subject ended our teacher suddenly

told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it seems like you

didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried. I looked like stupid when my classmate

read maybe a poem or dagli? They told me to do the movements of what my classmate
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is currently reading and when i'm having a hard time doing it I go back to my seat. I was

discourage that our report is unsuccessful.

This is year are full of moments that i'm happy as a low self-esteem. Because when

i'm in the church I met true freinds, they are the ones who gave me happiness. They

gave me happiness every time I met them and if i'm having a conversation with them. I

felt that I have a value howsoever. Then the happiest, as they gave you time to speak

and say whatever you want to say inside the church. In there I understand myself more

that i'm like this, even though i'm like this I neeed to interact to other people, I need to

talk to other people to socialize follow them and be one with them in their doings.

So it's one of the happiest because I met true friends that I will treasure of course

there are times that there are problems towards their attitudes. But I just consider it.

Sometimes it's discouraging to be low self-esteem towards yourself. Sometiemes attitude

lowers yourself, when they say ugly things it makes you feel low. But most of the time

their response are full of positive.

Low self-esteem affects your studies. Since it makes you feel low, it's like you're

having a hard time acomplishing the tasks in school. In the performance it turns out that

you can't do it anymore. Hmmp It really affects me in the times that I can't do it, I'm

having a hard time doing the tasks supposed to be done, I don't know how to do it.

Things like that can be a bad effects. That became the bad effect to me because I always

thought about the things like I can't do it. My thought are all negative. There are times

that I can hadle it sometimes I force myself to always think about positive things. I force
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myself to be strong hoping to do it and I can do it. I always say to myself that I can do

it, hoping for it to be successful. Always be positive.

I have regrets because there are times that I don't answer. You know the

performance that I choose to ignore, I regret it because I lost the chance to do it why

did I loose confidence, why can't I do what i'm supposedf to do. I regret that because I

look down on myself too muchn that I can't do what i'm supposed to do, why it's like

this. Why can't I try it?

To those people who’s the same as me a low self-esteem. Dont try to look for all

the the things that happened to us, Just always think that we can be positive in life

because hmmp. If we just let low self-esteem into ourselves it will never be gone it will

remain to be triggered. The feelings you felt should be like tnat but we should say to out

brain that you can do it, that you're not like that now you can. I'm positive to myself that

I can do it becaue we have God all the time to guide us and won’t let us be lost that is

the thing that we should remember. Because if you alwasys thought that your weak, that

you can't do it anymore of course you really can't do it. You're unable to do all the things

so I hope that we choose to face all of it whatever the things supposed to be done. What

kind of problems that we face or what kind of obstacles it is, of coursewe need to face it

especially here at school there's a lot of things that should be done but you know that

deep inside yourself that you can. That you're able to do it with a companion that will

treasure you to all of those things. You will really be successful that's all.
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Co-Researcher F-------------Mr. Mamamo

Ako po si Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula, ako ay 16 years old, ano… dalawa

lang kami. Ang kapatid ko ay babae, siya ay 15 years old. Nagaaral ako sa ano Mystical

Rose School of Caloocan. Ano OFW yung dalawa kong parents eh. Dalawa lang kami ng

kapatid ko sa bahay.

Ano… pinakauna ano yung takot majudge parang ganon, takot mahusgahan kasi,

kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun yung kinakatakutan

ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang madiscriminate ganon,

kumbaga ganon.

Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos kumakain

kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba.

Ako napapansin ko naman, pero ewan ko lang sa mga classmates ko, pero… ako

kasi okay naman ako sa kanila. Wala naman akong problema sa mga classmates naming,

yon. Mmm… merong mga classmate na ganon na napapansin ko na nakaka… nakaka…

ano ba to, pano ba… parang pagnakikita ko sila, sila yung nagiging rason

Kung bakit nagiging ano ako ganon. Wala naman sa teachers.

Ano di naman kasi ako palaging nagrerecite kasi yun yung kahinaan ko, mahina

ako sa ano… Recitation lalo na kapag ano pag on-the-spot kasi parang ano nacoconscious

ako kung may masabing mali, baka tawanan ako ganon kasi takot nga akong majudge.
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Ano… parang hindi mo nasasabi ang gusto mong irecite kung halimbawa gusto

mong magrecite sa harap pero hindi mo masabi kasi takot ka sa mga sasabhin ng iba, ng

classmates mo.

Ano… yung halimbawa pag ano… gusto mong magrecite tapos mali pala yung

sinabi mo, mali pala yung sagot na nasa isip mo, parang ano… parang magiging thankful

ka na hindi mo nasabi yon kasi ano kung masabi mo yon tatawanan ka talaga nila parang

ganon. Halimbawa sabi ng teacher kung ano sagot sa number tapos may sagot ka sa

isang tanong tapos diba low self-esteem ka di mo masasabi yung sasabihin mo tapos

yung nalaman mo yung sagot na mali nasa isip mo magiging thankful ka na di mo sinabi

yon kasi ano atleast nakaiwas ka kasi ano alam mo pag mali sagot mo kumbaga

tatawanan ka kaagad ganon.

Oo naman, kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung ano…

recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka makakarecite

ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng teachers sa ganon.

Ano… bumabawi nalang ako sa performance task atsaka sa mga quizzes. Oo ayun kasi

wala talaga sa oral.

Oum… madami, yun nga yung di mo naipapabahagi yung ano… yung gusto mong

sabihin ano… kapag ano… kunwari katulad sa open forum namin ano di ako kakapagsabi

ng saloobin ko kasi ano nga yun nga. Oo.

Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di ko mabigyan

ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them parin naman
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kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano.. lalabanan nila yun. Ano ahh…wag

lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng tao nagkakamali

yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan.

Co-Researcher F-------------Mr. Mamamo

I am Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula. I’m 16 years old, ahm… we’re only two,

my sibling is a girl, she’s 15 years old. I study in ahm… Mystical Rose School of Caloocan,

ahm… my parents are OFWs eh… it’s only me and my sister is in our house.

Ahm… first, ahm… the fear to be judge like that, fear to be judge because, was like

when you’ll show your best they will tell you that you are a “Bida-bida” that’s what I’m

afraid of. It’s not that I don’t want to be rejected but it’s like, being discriminated.

Ahm… after class we use to go from one of our friends house that we’ll eat together,

kidding each other, taking pictures, like that.

I noticed, but I don’t know to my classmates but for me I’m ok for them. I don’t

have any problems for my classmates. Hmm… I have the classmate that I’ve noticed

that… that… what is this, how… it’s like when I saw them. They are the reason why I

become like that. There’s nothing for my teachers.

Ahmm… I don’t usually recite because that’s my weakness. I am weak to ahm…

recitation especially when it’s on the spot because im seem conscious if I said wrong,

they will laugh at me like that because I’m afraid to be judge.

Ahm… was like you can say what you want to recite, example you want to recite

infront but you can’t tell it because you’re afraid on what others will say, your classmates.
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Ahm… for instance you want to recite but you answered wrong, the answer in your

mind is wrong, seems like… you’ll be thankful that you did’nt say that because ahm.. if

you’ll say that they ‘ll laugh at you like that. Example the teacher asks a question then

you have an answer but you’re a low self-esteem you can’t say what you want the you

know that the answer you’ve think of is wrong. You’ll be thankful because atleast you’ve

avoid because you know that youre answer is wrong it was like they will laugh at you.

Yes, because they say all of grading is recitation ofcourse when you’re low self-

esteem you can’t recite rightly in front of course yopu will be graded low by your teachers

like that. I just maka performance task and quizzes because I am nothing in oral.

Yes! a lot, its that you can’t share what you want to say. Just like our open forum.

Ahm… I can’t express what I feel yeah, that’s it.

Ahm… I don’t have advice because even to myself I cant give myself an advice for not to

be low self-esteem but its like to them if they will be afraid on they’ll fight. Ahm… just

don’t be afraid to burst out youre opinons because all of us did wrong. Ahh… that’s all,

yes there’s nothing will lose if you only try.

Co-Researcher G-------------Ms. Portly

Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment puro ganon

lang. My name is Ms. Portly I am 16 years old Ang birthday ko is May 29, 2002. I Live at

camarin caloocan Home Owner's association, Repar street. Then ano eh apat kaming

magkakapatid tapos pangatlo ako tsaka nag-iisang babae lang. Oo kase ano nag-iisang

babae lang ako tapos yung mga kapatid ko ano sila puro lalake tapos hindi naman ano...
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matatalino naman sila pero di' sila ganong achiever katulad ko kasing nung highschool

ako lagi talaga ako nakakpasok sa top lagi ako nag kakaroon ng achievements tapos

ngayon lang siya nawala.

Sige yung una is sa ano sa ano sa academics diba ano diba minsan sa mga

reportings although naaral ko naman siya ng maayos tapos parang pag ini-imagine ko

siya parang kayang kaya ko siyang i-report tapos pag nasa harapan na koparang naano

na ko na m-mental block tas di ko namasabe yung gusto kong sabihin tapos nag ano c-

cause yun ng ano sakin low self esteem parang failure kase yun sakin tapos sa mga

during exam kahit na nirereview ko siya ng magdamag ng ilang araw pag mismong test

na parang di ko na siya maaalala syempre nagiging effects nun nakakakuha ako ng ano

mababa yung score. Disappoint...Disappointments yun para sakin.

Siguro sa ano kase ano kinakabahan ako syempre kase tsaka ano mahiyain kase

ako di ako sanay magsalita sa ano sa harap ng maraming tao kaya pag ano pinakaayaw

ko talaga is yung reporting kase lalo na pag nakatingin sila sakin nakaka intimidate yung

ganon. Mahiyain lang talaga ako lalo na di ako sanay magsalita sa mga taong di ko pa

gaanong close o di ko gaanong nakakausap. Marami kase akong kaibigan eh kase...hindi

nung syempre diba natural lang naman na magkaroon ka ng kaibigan kada grade kada

grade mo tapos ako nagkakaroon ako.

Pero etong grade 10 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga ano ay, ay nung grade 9 lang

ako nagkaroon ng mga kabigan na ano na pang matagalan na hanggang ngayon kaibigan

ko padin ano ma ano sila mababait tapos napaka cheerful napaka supportive nila para...

ano tawag dito aanong wait lang suportahan ka nila sa ano sa lahat ng bagay tapos pag
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nadodown ka andyan sila para tulungan ka di' ka nila iiwanan kahit anong mangyare ano

tapos tini... tinitreat ko naman sila ng maayos yung deserve naman nila kahit minsan

kahit pinapakitaan nila ko ng ano ugali na parang hindi parang diiii deserve na i-respect

syempre kapag kaibigan mo sila maano... mamahalin mo padin sila despite ng ano nila

yung perfection kahit na ano yung itrato nila sayo.

Tapos yung mga... yung mga ano bagay lang na ginagawa namin usually before

class kumakain lang kame sa ano sa labas ganon or ano pinaka bonding nalang namin

siguro pag ano eh pag uwian ganoon magdadaldalan lang kame bago...actually ano ang

uwian lang namin nung grade 10 is ano 12 nakakauwi nakame alauna... alasdos kase

magdadaldalan kame ng ilang oras kakain ganon.

Actually lumala siya. Nung grade 10 sobrang... di naman sa sobra pero may

confidence parin talaga ako sa sarili ko kase yung mga nakasorround sakin nun ano sila

tawag dito chinicheer-up nila ko pag ano pag nag-oopen up ako sa kanila about sa

nararamdaman ko parang ngayon kase ano yuuung YUNG lalo na nung unang grading

yung mga taong naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano nila ako icheer up nila ako pag

nadodown ako ano parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na sa salita syempre yung

confidence na meron na nga lang ako konteng konte lalong nawala so wala na talaga

akong self-esteem. Hindi lang sa akademiks pati sa physical appearance. So sobrang

down na down na ako.

Sa mga klasmeyt ko ano kase eh pag 'di ko naman sila lagi... kahit araw-araw ko

silang nakikita or nakakausap hindi naman pag ano hindi ko naman sila katabe 'di ko

naman sila totally nagiging close parang ano lang... parang close lang kame pag
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magkagroup kame during activities kase ano eh hindi naman...alam mo yung feeling na

ano kahit na kinakausap ka feeling mo 'di ka padin kasale parang di ka padin belong

sakanila yung ganoon. So hurt.

Tapos sa mga teacher wala ano lang teacher lang ganon teacher studyante wala

naman akong pakealam sa relationship na meron dito. Di kase ako pala recite kahit alam

ko yung sagot kase nga ano ako low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan

kapag nagkakamali ako kase ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay

na ano pagkakamali mo kahit 'di mo naman sinasadya.

Di ako active kase nakaturn off chat ako eh. Hindi I mean hindi di nga ko pala

recite diba kahit alam ko yung sagot di ako nag ano di ako pala... ano lang pag ano

kunwari may chips ayun nag tatry ako sumagot pero ano di talaga ako ano actually active

sa ano sa recitation focus lang ako. Pag tinawag ako tapos alam ko yung sagot ayun

sasagot ako pero pag di naman ako tinatawag tapos kahit alam ko yung sagot 'di ako

nagsasalita.

Siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung sarili mo

sa ibang tao kahit na ano feeling mo may mga...naiiyak ako kase naman eh ayokong

tinatanong yan...ayokong tinatanong yan eh naiyak ako okay lang ako. Medyo ano lang

personal siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung sarili mo

sa ibang tao kahit na ano kahit na alam mo na may mga taong handang makinig sayo

parang nahihirapan kana iexpress kase ano kase alam mo sa sarili mo na parang kahit

naman sabihin mo parang wala namang magbabago. Kase katulad nalang sa ano yung

confidence sa sarili parang kumbaga ano yung dahil sa ano pakikitungo sa sinasabe ng
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ibang tao sayo pagdating sa physical appearance parang syempre diba napakalakas ng

impact ng sinasabe ng ibang tao para sayo. Kaya kapag sinabe nilang panget ka mataba

ka ganyan syempre ikaw sa sarili mo kapag alam mo namang totoo yung nakikita nila

syempre paniniwalaan mo diba siguro yun yung pinaka worst.

Siguro yung pinaka masaya bilang low self esteem is yung may mga iilang tao na

andyan para i lift up ka pag ano nararamdaman nila na ano na down ka or wala kanang

tiwala sa sarili mo yung parang may mga kaibigan ka na andiyan para ano mag advice

sayo na ano magtiwala ka sa sarili mo na ano na mahalin mo yung kung ano ka. Tsaka

wag mong pakinggan yung sasabihin ng ibang tayo may mga kaibigan kase ako na ano...

Iilan lang sila siguro dalawa o isa pero ano napaka...sobrang treasure sila sa buhay ko

kase ano sila yung mga taon maniniwala ka na ano yung sasamahan ka through ups and

down

Meron katulad nalang nung ano isa na sa mga ano yung effects yung

pagakakaroon ng ano low scores sa mga exam tapos mababang grade gano'n. Kahit hindi

na ano lang kahit medyo matagal na s'ya siguro nung mga elementary pero ano sobrang

laking epekto no'n kasi sa grades mo kasi nga diba nahihirapan kang mag express sa

ibang tao.

'Tas kung pa'no ko siya hinahandle siguro ano, hindi naman sig-siguro ano hindi

siguro kasi talagang ginagawa ko siya pag nararamdaman ko na parang nagkaka- parang

nawawalan na ko ng tiwala sa sarili ko parang ano nag o-open up nalang ako ano sa

mama ko kasi sya yung ano mas nakakaintindi sakin, sa lahat ng bagay mag kukwento

nalang ako kahit na umiiyak na ko sa harapan n'ya, kahit na siya umiiyak na din syempre
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ayaw nya kong nakikitang umiiyak pero at least na o-open ko yung sarili ko tawag don?

Na aano ko na o-op nasasabi sasabi ko siya kahit sa isang tao lang at least alam kong

may nakakaintindi sa akin, may nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ko.

Marami. maraming beses kasi ano pag nararamdaman ko yung ano low self-steem

nagkakaroon yon ng malaking epekto sa performance ko sa school, sa grade. Syempre

ano minsan iniisip ko na ano sana hindi ko nalang nararanasan yung ano low self-steem

para madali lang saking mag express ng nararamdaman sa ibang tao tsaka 'di ako

nahihirapanag mag salita sa harap ng marami yun lang thank you.

Siguro ano, hindi-hindi ko alam kung epektib pero eto kasi yung ginagawa ko.

Yung mag-mag open ka sa tao na alam mo na makakaintindi sayo kahit hindi sila dalawa

or madami kahit nag iisang tao basta alam mo na mapagkakatiwalaan tapos alam mo na

maiintindihan ka mag open ka lang at least alam mong may-may isang taong nakakaalam

ng nararamdaman mo tsaka be yourself tapos ano mag tiwala ka din sa sarili mo tsaka

sa kakayahan mo kasi hindi- totoo naman na hindi lahat ng bagay kaya mong gawin may

mga bagay na kayang gawing ng ibang tao tapos kaya mo syempre madami naman tayon

dif- marami tayong differences diba, marami tayong kakaiba sa kakayahan pero yung

kaka- yung kakayahan na kaya mo may mga ibang tao na hindi yon nagagawa tapos ikaw

kaya mo iyong gawin tingin ko yun yong masasabi ko sa kanya.

Co-Researcher G-------------Ms. Portly

Sometimes I think of myself as a failure... Sometimes disappointment. My name is

Ms. Portly I am 16 Years old, my birthday is May 29, 2002. I live at camarin Caloocan
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Home owner's association, Repar Street. I have 3 siblings, I am the only girl. Yes because

I am the only girl and my brothers are smart enough but they are not an achiever like

me because I am always one of the top students with achievements when I was in

highschool but not anymore.Okay, the first one is about academics, sometimes when

there are reportings although I study my topic well but in the actual reporting I get mental

blocked then I can't tell then what I wanted to say and that causes me to have a low

self-esteem, it is failure for me then during exams even though I studied all night but in

the actual exams I can't remember it which results into getting a low score. It a

disappointment for me. Maybe in... Because I get nervous then I am also shy person

because I am not confident talking in front of many people that is why I really hate

reporting especially when they are all looking at me that causes me to be intimidated.

I am really shy especially beacuse I am not used to be talking in front of people

who are not close to me and I often speak with. I have a lot of friends it is only natural

to have friends every school year and I a am having a lot of friends. But I started to have

friends that are for lifetime when I was on grade 9 level only, they are still my friends up

until now, they are kind, verey cheerful and very supportive for me then when I am down

they are always there to help me, and we won't leave each other whatever happens. I

treat then well more than what they deserve to be treated even though sometimes they

show me something which is not to be respected, because if its truly your friend you will

love them even despite being a perfection, even though they treat you differently.

The things we usually do before class, we just eat outside or we bond the most

after class, we'll to each other before we go home...Actually when we are grade 10, 12pm
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is our dismissal time but we go home 1pm or 2pm because we will just talk to each other

and we will just eat. Actually it becam worse. When i was in grade 10... No too much but

I still have confidence left in me because the people who sorround me cheer me up

whenever I open up to them about my feelings but now especially in first grading those

people that surrounds me, instead of cheering me up, they intend to pull me down and

make me lose my self-esteem. Not only in academics but also in physical apperance

because of feeling so down.

To my classmates... even though I am with them or I talk to them everyday but

not when i am not sitting beside them, we're not totally getting closer... We're only getting

closer when we're on the same group during activities... the feeling that even though

they talk to you, you still feel that you didn't belong to them. It hurts. Then to our

teachers... I really don't care about the relationship between a student and teacher. I do

not recite often in class, even though I know the answer because of having low self-

esteem I am afraid of being laughed by the others if I commited a mistake because it is

my weakness. The feeling of being laughed by the others because of commiting a

mistake unintentionally.

I am not an active student, I mean I am not reciting often in our class even though

I know the answer I do not raise my hand... I also try to answer sometimes if there are

chips. I only answer when the teachers call me and I know the answer but i the teacher

didn't call me even though I know the answer, I won't answer. Maybe the worst part is

the feeling that you can't express yourself to others even though you know that there are

people who are ready to hear your feelings, but you’re struggling to fully express yourself
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because you know to yourself that even though you tell them what you feel nothing will

change. Because of what the other people telling you about your physical apperance it

has a strong impact to you. That is why when someone tell you that you are ugly or fat

then you know it to yourself that it is true ofcourse you will believe them, maybe that is

the worst part.

Maybe the happiest part of being low self esteem is there are some people to lift

you up when you are down or you don't have confidence left in yourself.The feeling of

there are some people to help and give advice to you to trust yourself and love who you

are then don't give a damn about the others who tell bad things about you... there are

some of my friends, maybe 2 or more but I treasure them the most in my life because

they are the people who will believe in me and be with me through ups and downs. Yes

there is, just like the effects of having low scores in exams then having low grades. Even

though it is long time ago maybe when I was in elementary but still it has a great effect

because of grades it difficult to express yourself to others.

How did I handle it? Maybe... not that I do it often, I'm only doing it when it comes

to the point that I don't have trust in myself anymore, I just open up to my mom because

she understants me in everyhing. Even though she is crying too when I tell her, she didn't

wanted to see me crying but at least I can open up about myself. Atleast I can tell it to

one person, atleast I know to myself that there is someone who understands me and

someone who knows what I feel.Yes, there are lots, there are a lot of moments that I'm

having low self-esteem, it causes big effect in my performance in school, in grades.

Ofcourse sometimes I think that I am not experiencing having low self-esteem for me to
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express myself easier to other people and to speak in front of many people. That's all

thankyou.

I don't know if it is effective or not but this is what I do. I open up to the person

that I know will understand me even though there are only two or more even if it is only

one person atleast I know that I can trust him or her and I know that he or she would

understand me. Just open up atleast you know to yourself that there is someone who

know and understand who you are then trust yourself too and your ability because you

can't do everything, there are things you can't do but the others can. Ofcourse we all

have a lot of differences, there are things you can only do and there ang things only other

people can. That is all I can advice.

Co-Researcher H-------------Ms. Mama

Tawagin niyo nalang akong Mama 16 years old, dalawa kaming magkapatid at ako

yung panganay, mahilig akong kumanta at magbasa, hindi ako sanay na nag o-open sa

iba.

Siguro, ako kasi yung tao na takot majudge at napakasensitive sa simpleng bagay

lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak agad pero patago at ayoko sa lahat yung pag may

nangyaring di maganda eh ako yung sinisisi at ayoko sa lahat na may taong galit sakin

kaya iniiwasan kong gumawa ng kung ano anong bagay na magiging reason para

majudge o magalit sila sakin.

Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom, naninigarilyo pero di

naman ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama kami puro kalokohan lang

ginagawa like mangtitrip ng mga dumadaan or di kaya eh gumala at puro kwentuhan.


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Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo sobrang ilang

nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di sila aware sa

mga nangyayare kung may kapalagayan man ako ng loob dadalawa lang, ayoko kase sa

plastic na mga tao, sa teacher naman comportable sila kasama.

Di talaga ako pala recite, tumatayo lang ako kapag tinawag ako o di kaya close na

close ko yung teacher ko nakikinig ako sa teacher kapag napansin kong magaling magturo

and kapag gumagawa ng paraan para di makatulog pag nagdidiscuss na.

Siguro ito yung pag nagkamali ka ng isinagot sa mga tanong ng guro eh

pagtatawanan ka ng mga kaklase mo at a-asarin ka hanggang pag-uwi hanggang

kinabukasan, like what I said im very sensitive person kaya ayoko ng attention.

Kapag may mga groupings tapos yung kagrupo ko eh nangunguna at natapos ng

dapat gawin yun na yung pinakamasaya para sakin.

Siguro minsan na-apektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka magkamali

malamang mahihiya kang magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko.

Siguro, mula naman kase minsan rito pa yung mga nag e-encourage na mag-aral

ng mabuti.

Ang masasabi ko lang eh wag masyadong magpapaapekto sa mga problema mo

at ih e-encourage mo yung sarili mo at imbes na idown ito.

Co-Researcher H-------------Ms. Mama

Just call me Mama 16 years old I am the pldest, I like to sing and eat im not

comfortable with sharing my thoughts with others.


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Maybe, I’m the kind of person that is scared of being judge and I’m too sensitive

in every simple thing can hurt me and make me cry easily but not in public and I don’t

like the most is when something bad to happen eh they blame me and I don’t like the

most is when there’s a person who is angry at me so that I’m avoide those things that

will be the reason for them to judge and be angry at me.

Some of my friends eh are rebellious drinking, smoking but I am not like them who

have vices when we’re together. Only fun staffs like pranking people passed by or maybe

stroll, singing and full of conversation.

To my classmates it is not obvious that I didn’t felt some awkwardness but the

truth is I feel very awkward especially they have that attitude that they can hurt

someone, they are not aware in what happening if I find myself comfortable, we are

just talking to each other, because I don’t like plastic person, in my teacher they are a

comfortable company.

I am not a kind of person who always recite, I only present myself if a techer ask

a question to me or maybe my teacher is very close to me. I only listen to my teacher if

I notice that he/she good at teaching and if they find a way to keep students awake

while their discussing.

Maybe, this is when you make a mistake in answering a question of a teacher,

eh your classmates will laugh at you and they will tease you until dismissal, until the

next day, like what I said I’m very sensitive person and I don’t like an attention.

When we have group activity and my groupmates, eh will finish first and do what

things needed to be done, maybe that is the happiest for me.


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Maybe, sometimes I am affected because you know if you are afraid to make a

mistake obviously, eh you become when you’re reciting, I’ll make that my answer is

correct.

There’s nothing, because sometimes that is the one that is encouraging me to

study well.

I will only say eh is don’t be too affected in those problems that you have and

encourage yourself instead of being yourself down.

Co-researcher I-------------Ms. Peng

Tungkol sa aking sarili, pwede niyo akong tawaging Peng at ako’y 17 years old.

STEM-Lakandula at may allowance ako once a week.

Oo naman siguro yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako kase

minsan feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends.

In terms of friends, kasama ko sila sa mabuti o hindi, madalas nagkwekwentuhan

kami sa buhay namin at nakikisalamuha sa ibang tao.

Pagdating naman sa social relationship ko sa kaklase ko. Mas prefer kong maging

kung ano talaga ako at in terms naman sa social relationship ko sa mga teachers hindi

ako pabor sa pakikipagsocialize kasi wala ako sa lebel na prefer nila.

Sa class discussion, laging tinetake ko yun ng dahan-dahan at tahimik na sumang-

ayon kung ano yung tinatalakay, nagtataas lang ako ng kamay kapag alam ko yung sagot.
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Yung pinaka worst na naranasan ko bilang lows self-esteem, na yung masira yung

sarili at yung pinakamalala is yung pagiging low self-esteem, hindi ko kaya imanage yung

feelings ko.

Yung happiest experience yung na o-overcome ko minsan yung nararamdaman ko

tuwing humaharap ako sa maraming estudyante.

Kung may mga bad effects, madalas kong ginagawa yung i-overcome ko yung tao.

Oo may mga pinagsisihan din ako kasi hindi ko kayang imanage yung emosyon

ko.

Advice ko lang basta hayaan lang nilang ifeel na importante sila sa ibang tao o sa

ibang bagay.

Co-researcher I-------------Ms. Peng

About myself, you can call me Peng and I am 17 years old. STEM-Lakandula and

I have my allowance for once in a week.

Yes, the reason why I became low self-esteem is because sometimes I feel useless

at home and also to my circle of friends.

In terms of friends, I have them whether it could be good or not, usual talk with

our lives and interaction with other people.

With my social relationship with my classmates, I always prefer to become what

is just I can be as myself and in terms of social relationship with my teachers, I am not

in favor of making socializing with them because I don’t have the level of what they prefer

for liveng of.


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In class discussion, I always make it slowly and silently agreeing on what is should

be tackled, I just raise my hand if I know the answer.

The worst experience being low self-esteem is when I haved experienced self

destruction and the worst was that I have nothing to answer.

The happiest experience is when I overcome sometimes what I feel everytime I

face a lot of students.

If there are bad effects, It always affects my studies because whenever I feel

being low self-esteem, I can’t manage my feelings.

Yes I have regrets because I cannot manage my emotions.

My advice is Just let them feel they are important to someone or something.

Co-Researcher J------------- Mr. Jie

Ako si Jie. 16years old gusto ko mag-isa lalo na pag nasa bahay lang.

Siguro yung mga rason una yung lack of friends, walang nagtotolerate sakin

gawin yung isang bagay na gusto kong gawin, takot majudge.

May classmates ako pero di ko sila kino-consider as friends kasi in the end of the

day uuwi akong nag-iisa at wala silang pake sa mental illness ko.

Meron akong masayahing mga kaklase pero hindi enough yun, kasi karamihan sa

kanila hindi ako gusto as their class president. Sa teachers naman normal lang kung

ano yung nakasayan ko na trato saken ng teachers ko dati ganun din ngayon.

Di na’ko nakikisali sa mga recitations if my group activity naman its either ako

yung leader tas ako din gagawa sa lahat o wala akong pake sa activity.
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Nung grade 9 ako nagrecite ako pero yung teacher naming minura lang ako tas

pinalabas ng room.

Wala akong happiest experience bilang low self-esteem.

Oo, wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa discussions.

Di ko na handle yung bad effects hinayaan ko nalang kasi lilipas din naman.

Madami, namiss ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko. May

nagyaya sakin dati na sumali sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka pagtawanan

lang performance ko.

Advice ko lang humanap kayo ng friends through your worst times hindi yung

anjan lang kapag nasa best part ka ng buhay mo.

Co-Researcher J------------- Mr. Jie


I am Jie 16 years old, I want to be alone especially at home.

Maybe the first reasons why I became low self- esteem is because of lack of

friends, no one tolerated me to do a thing that like to do, fear to be judge.

I have classmates but I don’t consider them as friends because at the end of the

day I arrive at our home alone and they don’t care about my mental illness.

I have a joyful classmates but that’s not enough, because most of them they don’t like

me as their class president. To teachers, its just normal I used to adept how my former

teachers treat me is the same like now.

I don’t participate in recitations if theres a group activity it’s either me as a leader

then I am also the one who will do everything or I don’t care to the activity.
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When I was grade 8 I recited but my teacher cussed me then tell me to go out the

room.

I don’t have a happiest experience being low self-esteem.

Yes, I don’t have self confidence that’s why I can’t go with the discussions.

` I doesn’t understand the bad effects I just ignore it because it will passed by.

A lot, I missed the opportunity to showcase my talent. Someone encourage me to

join their bond but I refuse because maybe they’ll lough at my performance.

I advice you to look for a friends through your worst times not like they’re woth

you only with the best time of your life.


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RESEARCHERS’ EXPERIENCES

“We can do it guys.” That was what we said before conducting this

phenomenological study since this is our first time to do research together and some of

us are not close enough to communicate to each other everyday. When we are conducting

this research there are times that we have unity but there are also times that we are

having a misunderstanding maybe because of stress.

We are challenged, we could say that we’re like grouping in the dark. Doing this

phenomenological research was really hard for us because just like what is written in the

first paragraph this is our first time. It was really difficult, but not until then we’ve finished

making the first two chapters.

We are not expecting to have a great time listening to our co-researchers’

experiences. After our title defense, it was relieving to know that there is no more revision

needed. And since our adviser provides most of the questions in our interview protocol,

providing questions that will fit for our research was never been a problem. Then after

we’ve done validating our interview protocol, we’ve go for interviewing with the

permission of the admins and our adviser.

Before of the day we’ve decided to conduct our interviews, we’ve distributed first

our assessment tool in all of the sections in grade 11 STEM strand for the convenience.

On March 9th, the day exactly we’ve wanted to conduct our interviews, we’ve waited for

the dismissal of classes considering the availability of our participants.

At first, it was challenging for us to ask a STEM student to answer our assessment

tool that will immediately made us found out if they’re being low self-esteem. It was
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difficult because grade 11 STEM students are few compare to other strands. But after

we’ve manage to get 10 participants from STEM – Bonifacio, the momentum leads us to

our goal.

While doing our chapter 3, it was never being expected to be fun. After we’ve

made chapter 1 and 2, we’ve always thought that it is awkward to ask peoples

experiences because some of them we’re just strangers from us. Maybe it will be more

comfortable and easy for us if we’re making descriptive research. We’re doing it because

it is a requirement for us to be able to pass the school year. But after all, we’re here and

we’ll make sure that we will finish what we started.

The process is very complicated and detailed. Some of the participants are quite

shy and some of them rejected our request to interview them because they thought that

the interview is hard to answer and too personal. While some of the participants are still

emotional about their problems and cried while the interview is on going because they

still felt the pain they felt before.

The stress affect us big time because some of the answer of our co-researchers is

not clearly stated. Not just us but also the participants because of the follow up questions

that requires them to reminisce their emotional experience. Some participants have long

answer and it’s difficult to translate beacause some of the words are not compatible with

the sentence they answered and we also felt that some partipants are shy to share their

experiences because their answers are short. In that case the researchers are not

satistfied to their answers so that we do follow up questions to make their answers


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detailed. Some participants are not capable to answer our follow up questions but it’s

also fun for us because it’s challenging.


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RESEARCHERS’ REFLECTION

1. Katagelophobic. Fear of judgement in term of physical, sexual, or emotional abuse.

It is a situation that makes you frighten and anxious just thinking about others action.

One of the many reasons to have a low self-esteem.

Co-Researcher C remembered his experience being judged. Oo, okay lang. Yung rason

kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong low self-esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa

ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended in saying na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang

igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang payan eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid

mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling

na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi

ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa

sarili ko eh. [Yes it’s ok. The reason why I’m being or I feel is when I do my best at all

things but ended up saying “That’s it, is there no any improvement? Why can’t you make

it better, that’s not enough eh. Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them

hahaha the feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need

something they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why

I’m looking down to myself.]

Co-Researcher B also shared how she feels about being judge by others. Pero merong

panahon na umaabot sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong

kausapin sila, dahil feeling ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa

kanila. [But there are times that it comes to the point that no one talks to me and I am
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shy to talk to them, because I feel that all of my gesture they noticed, all is issue for

them.]

Co-Researcher D expound how fear of judgement affect her. Naiintimidate ako sa

teacher, feeling ko lagi niya kong sisigawan, lagi magagalit sakin siguro yun yung

nakakaapekto sakin. [I am intimidated in teacher, I felt that she would always shout at

me, always angry at me maybe that affected me.]

Co-Researcher F correlation with co-researcher c, He also stated his experience being

judges by others. Kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun

yung kinakatakutan ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang

madiscriminate ganon, kumbaga ganon. [It was like when you’ll show your best they will

tell you that you are a “Bida-bida” or my confidence was too high. That’s what I’m afraid

of. It’s not that I don’t want to be rejected but it’s like, being discriminated.]

Co-Researcher G also stated how she feels being low self-esteem. Kase nga ano ako

low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan kapag nagkakamali ako kase

ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay na ano pagkakamali mo kahit

'di mo naman sinasadya. [Because of having low self-esteem I am afraid of being laughed

by the others if I commited a mistake because it is my weakness. The feeling of being

laughed by the others because of commiting a mistake unintentionally.]

Co-Researcher H shared her own experience on how fear of judgement affect her.

Naapektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka magkamali malamang mahihiya kang

magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko. [I am affected because you know if you
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are afraid to make a mistake obviously, eh you become when you’re reciting, I’ll make

that my answer is correct.]

Co-Researcher J also affected by fear of judgement and shared his experience. Namiss

ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko. May nagyaya sakin dati na sumali

sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka pagtawanan lang performance ko. [I missed

the opportunity to showcase my talent. Someone encourage me to join their bond but I

refuse because maybe they’ll lough at my performance.]

The feeling of being compared puts them in situations where they are constantly

guilty of the same mistakes (Lachmann, 2015).

2. Self Pity. Observed Unhappiness over ones`own trouble.

Co-Researcher A stated she feels disappointed about herself. Oo, meron akong mga

pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil maraming nasayang na opportunities. [Yes

I have regrets being low self-esteem because there are so much wasted opportunities.]

Co-Researcher B also shared how disappointed she is within herself. Yung naging

duwag ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung

pagkakataon, pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin

sa sarili mo, halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako. [When

I become a coward in one thing and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the

opportunity. But it won't be avoided that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my

only difference is I exceeded.]

Co-Researcher C stated why she feels pity for herself. Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa

tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa kapag reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng
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maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali. [When just being shy whenever I’m in front.

For example, when I am reporting I can’t properly say anything because I am afraid to

make a mistake.]

Correlation with the other co-researchers, Co-Researcher D, E, F, G, H, I, and J also

shared their experience on how they feel pity for themselves.

Co-Researcher D Kasi pagka diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas

mararamdaman mong ano parang wala akong confidence panget ng ganung

pakiramdam. [Yes because you know right? It’s better to feel that you are not shy even

if you felt that they will laugh at you maybe you don’t care. Because you know? Even if

they don’t laugh at you then you will feel that I don’t have a confident, that kind of feeling

is unpleasant.]

Co-Researcher E Diba yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi

bakit hindi ko yun ginawa bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre

dapat gawin ko pero hindi ko talaga siya nagagawa… [You know the performance that I

choose to ignore, I regret it because I lost the chance to do it why did I loose confidence,

why can't I do what i'm supposed to do...]

Co-Researcher F Kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung ano…

recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka makakarecite

ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng teachers sa ganon.

[Because they say… all of grading there is a part of… recitation of course when You’re

being low self-esteem you can’t recite rightly in front of course yopu will be graded low
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by your teachers like that. I just maka performance task and quizzes because I am

nothing in oral.]

Co-Researcher G Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment

puro ganon lang. [Sometimes I think of myself as a failure... Sometimes disappointment.]

Co-Researcher H Napakasensitive sa simpleng bagay lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak

agad pero patago… [I’m too sensitive in every simple thing can hurt me and make me

cry easily but not in public…]

Co-Researcher I Yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako kase minsan

feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends. [The reason why

I became low self-esteem is because sometimes I feel useless at home and also to my

circle of friends.]

Co-Researcher J Wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa

discussions. [I don’t have self confidence that’s why I can’t go with the discussions.]

Berg (2010) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the cross-sectional

association between body dissatisfaction and low self-esteem across gender, age, body

weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status.

3. Lean on me. It refers to the closeness of friendship up to the point that you will help

each other to conquer all the problems you encounter. Just like what the song says “Lean

on me, when you’re not strong and I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on.” Bill withers.

Co-Researcher A shared how close she is with her friends. Ang mga kaibigan ko ay

mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin kahit na sa pinakamababang punto ng

buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na masasandalan ko. Lagi kaming sama-
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samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara. [My friends are good and they are always

there for me even in my lowest point of my life. They are kind of friends that I can lean

on. We usually eating and playing guitar together.]

Co-Researcher E also shared the closeness they have with her friends. Yung ano

kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang kaibigan hanggang ngayon

yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko lang nalaman yung tunay na

saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga kaibigan mo na nakasama

mo ng ganun katagal malalaman mo talagang sila yung magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo

sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga. Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun

nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. [My friends when I was a grade nine,

I've been friends with them for almost 4 years until now they're really a good person. I

discover the true happiness when i'm with them but it's different in family, but to your

friends who's with you for a long time you'll discover that they are the ones who gave

you value. Yes, in parents, in family they also gave you value. But to that friends you feel

like you really have happiness.]

Co-Researcher H talked about how they usually behave when she is with her friends.

Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom, naninigarilyo pero di naman

ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama kami puro kalokohan lang

ginagawa like mangtitrip ng mga dumadaan or di kaya eh gumala at puro kwentuhan.

[Some of my friends eh are rebellious drinking, smoking but I am not like them who have

vices when we’re together. Only “kalokohan” is the one we do just like pranking people

passed by or maybe stroll, singing and full of conversation.]


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Co-Researcher B expound how bonded she is with her friends. Marami akong kaibigan

pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam ng tunay kong kalagayan, yung

nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging bonding nalang namin yung

puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami, syempre kahit na bawal

sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang bagay. Madalas na

nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran. [I have a lot of friends but it’s only

a few who knows the truth about my situation. Who understand me, when we are

together we used to eat and drink alcohols as our bonding, of course even its wrong we

have tried, especially that I felt curious in one thing. We often talk to each other and

pissing each other would not miss.]

In addition, Co-Resarcher C and F shared their experience how they’re close with their

friends.

Co-Researcher C Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga

mapagkakatiwalaan... Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina. Lagi kami nag babasketball,

naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip. [My friends? They are kind,

nasty and trust worthy... Just like what I said earilier. We are always playing basketball,

LOL and we are together even in bad things.]

Co-Researcher F Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos

kumakain kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba. [Like…

after class where going to our friend’s home then where eating there, having fun, taking

pictures, those staff.]


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According to McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem rely on coping

strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although, there’s also a

productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having friends with

the same characteristic and can relate with each other.

4. One of the Odds. Talks about the unfaired treatment of a teacher to his or her

students because they are having favoritism.

Co-Researcher B and E shared their experience why they feel different from others.

Co-Researcher A Yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates ko ay hindi ganon

kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay komportable sa sarili ko

at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila. [My relationship with my

classmates where not so good. As I said before, I am introvert. I am comfortable with

myself and I am not belong to those circle of friends that they have.]

Co-Researcher B Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na

umaabot sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila,

dahil feeling ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers

ko naman, madalas akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang

paborito sa mga kaklase ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero

parang wala ka lang sa kanila, puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo. [To my classmates it’s

okay, but there are times that it comes to the point that no one talks to me and I am shy

to talk to them, Because I feel that all of my gesture they noticed, all is issue for them.

To my teachers, I often feel annoying and sulky to them when they have favoritism with
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my classmates. Because you know? You yourself pursuing but seems like nothing for

them, they notice all the bad things to you.]

Co-Researcher C Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha.

Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag ako may kailangan

wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila kaya bumababa yung

tingin ko sa sarili ko eh. [Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them hahaha

the feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need something

they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why I’m looking

down to myself.]

Co-Researcher E Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon

sa bilang grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi

na parang hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako

gusto. Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun

kaya hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. [It’s okay if I would share about my experiences as

a grade 11. To classmates and teachers. In teachers i'm having a hard time because it's

like they don't like you. So. So I though that they don't like me. Because there's something

wrong with me, sometimes i don't recite. So I can't introduce myself.]

According to Empirical Study of McLeod (2012), low self-esteem children tend to

be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.

5. Torn Soul. It is a feeling when someone hurt you, and eventually results for you to

have a low self-esteem.


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Co-researchers expound their experienced on how their souls are torn by the people that

surrounds them.

Co-Researcher A Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong

iniisip yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito. [I’ll just

endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think about my future that I should

continue to fight even if it’s hard.]

Co-Reseacher B Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at

puro ako lang ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila. [When we had

fight with each other and had an open-forum in our room, and it is only me who they

pointing out, and all of my mistakes.]

Co-Researcher C Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag

ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila

kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh. [The feeling that when they have a problem

I am listening and when I need something they are not around, I don’t know what kind

of friend am I to them that’s why I’m looking down to myself.]

Co-Researcher D Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati ba panty

mo naiwan mo?" gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase ko. Pagkauwi

ko iyak-iyak ako kay mama… [Then I was ashamed because she suddenly says “What

you also left your underwear? She said that to me so my classmates laughed at me. When

I got home I am crying to my mother…]

Co-Researcher H Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo

sobrang ilang nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di
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sila aware sa mga nangyayare… [To my classmates it is not obvious that I didn’t felt

some awkwardness but the truth is I feel very awkward especially they have that attitude

that they can hurt someone, they are not aware on what is happening…]

Co-Researcher G shared how others affect her self-esteem by hurting her feelings.

Yung lalo na nung unang grading, yung mga taong naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano

nila ako icheer up nila ako pag nadodown ako ano parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na

sa salita syempre yung confidence na meron na nga lang ako konteng konte lalong

nawala so wala na talaga akong self-esteem. Hindi lang sa akademiks pati sa physical

appearance. So sobrang down na down na ako. [Specially first grading, those people that

surrounds me, instead of cheering me up, they intend to pull me down and make me lose

my self-esteem. Not only in academics but also in physical apperance because of feeling

so down.]

Co-Researcher E also shared her experience being hurt by a teacher. Tapos time na

nung Filipino namin bigla kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala

naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report."

ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak. [Then time for Filipino subject ended our teacher suddenly

told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it seems like you

didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried.]

The role of parents in providing mental health, academic achievement and self-

esteem is far beyond anything that has been fulfilled (GhorbaniAmir & AhmadiGatab,

2011).
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6. Survivor. It refers to those people who can overcome their greatest fear “You gain

strength, courage and confidence by every experience. In which you really stop to look

fear in the face. You are able to say to your self”. “I lived through this horror. I can take

it to the next thing that comes along. - Eleonore Roosevelt”.

Co-Researcher C shared his experience on how he still managed his esteem in crowd.

Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng harap ng maraming

tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya. [In our title defense

and I.P because I am able to talk properly in front of many people, I am not afraid to

make a mistake and I am not afraid to be ashamed.]

Co-Researcher D Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is

yung grade 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun

parang yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon

ng magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng

top, nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am. [The

most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year when I got

a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that time our

parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock that I’ve

got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there, ma’am took a picture of

me.]

Co-Researcher E also shared herself on how she is still able to be happy after being

low self-esteem. Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low self-

esteem ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na kaibigan,
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sila yung sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya bawat nakikita

ko sila kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may importansya pala ako

kahit papaano. [This is year are full of moments that i'm happy as a low self-esteem.

Because when i'm in the church I met true freinds, they are the ones who gave me

happiness. They gave me happiness every time I met them and if i'm having a

conversation with them. I felt that I have a value howsoever.]

Patel (2018) said that instead our brains have envolved to survive, to protect

ourselves, to keep us safe. Sure, we have moments of elation and periods of contentment

and bliss.

7. Storm. It is a result when some struggles or problems pass through your path of

success. It also refers to a tears just like rain that cannot be prevented to fall.

The co-researchers explained the storm they’d experience.

Co-Researcher A Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi

ko magawang matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong

naiisip na hindi ko magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong

pakiramdam. Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pagiisap ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip

yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito. [Yes it affects my

studies. Because of my low self-esteem, I am not able to learn in some discussion because

I am out of my mind and I always think about myself that I can’t do that, I can’t do this.

And I hate that feeling. I’ll just endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think

about my future that I should continue to fight even if it’s hard.]


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Co-Researcher B Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at

ng adviser ko na bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa

sarili ko na nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako

may mababang grades. [Yes, there is some point when my subject teacher told me and

my adviser that my grades are getting lower. And I felt to myself that I am getting less

interested to study that is why my major subjects have a lower grades.]

Co-Researcher D Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is

yung grafe 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos taop 1 pako nun

parang yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon

ng magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng

top, nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am. [The

most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year when I got

a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that time our

parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock that I’ve

got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there; ma’am took a picture of

me.]

Co-Researcher E Noong time noon nung nagperform ata ako nun tapos parang hindi

ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint din yung mga teacher yun tama. Yung

nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak ko nun. Kasi hindi namin alam yung

gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport nun. Kasi time nun MAPEH tapos puro

practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi namin naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang

alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng MAPEH tapos nung time na mismo ng
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report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na

"Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi

niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak. [When I'm performing that time,

I think. Then it's like i'm not satisfied to what happened it's like the teachers are also

disappointed. When i'm reporting I was grade 10 that time, I cried so much. We don't

know what to do because the topic is given and we have to report it right away. That

time our subject was MAPEH and it was all about practice. That was full of practice and

we didn't take care of it. We thought all we have to do is practice after the subject MAPEH

and then when it's the time for our actual report, then time for Filipino subject ended our

teacher suddenly told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it

seems like you didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried.]

They often interpret non critical comments as critical. They are more likely to

experience social anxiety and low levels of interpersonal confidence (McLeod, 2012).

8. Wasted Opportunity. These are the chances that they missed. Every one of us is

loosing something precious to us. “Lost opportunities, lost possibility, feeling that we can’t

never get back again that’s what it means to be alived. - Haruki Murakami”.

Both co-researcher B and C expound the missed opportunities they experienced.

Co-Researcher B Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging

duwag ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung

pagkakataon, pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin

sa sarili mo, halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako. [For

me there's nothing, or if there are it is the time when I become a coward in one thing
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and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the opportunity. But it won't be avoided

that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my only difference is I exceeded.]

Co-Researcher C Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.

[There’s too many because there’s a lot of a wasted opportunity.]

Low self-esteem individual tends to be pessisimistic towards to everything that

sorrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).

9. True Colors. It refers to your truthfulness to oneself. “Don’t be discourage and don’t

be afraid to let them show your true colors. By understanding each individual’s personality

type teams can improve communication through the recognition of a person’s true

character transforming true colors into an uncomplicated language for every individual.

Co-researcher A, B, C, D, and F are all adviced others by sharing their thoughts on

how being honest will affect themselves.

Co-Researcher A Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap

nila. Kapag nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na

sapunto na you are not able to grow as a person. [Don’t be afraid of those struggles and

problems that they’re facing. If you fail, just do it again. Don’t stay to you comfort zone

to the point that you are not able to grow as a person.]

Co-Researcher B Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin,

mag-iisip pa rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan

ka nang mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili. [Maybe for those like me who have low self-esteem,

its better to keep it balance, still think right because it is bad when you stand for one it

is that you completely lose your trust.]


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Co-Researcher C Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos

huwag sila papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila

na mas may iiimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon. [My advice is don’t down yourself and

don’t depend on what you can do because you know in yourself that you can improve

something in that thing.

Co-Researcher D Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since

naranasan ko siya hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya.

Parang mamementain mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence

mo, tapos tinry mong i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma

ng naranasan ko noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may

problema ako, parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba

kaya nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang nila

pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun. [Just don’t take your problem too seriously.

Since I experience that maybe it won’t last too long that you will experience it. Just to

maintain that you try to boost your confidence, you try to open up with others it will

disappear. Just like the trauma that I experience before, I experience to have a friend

especially when I have a problem, maybe I become more friendly. I felt that I am

important to others so that myself Confidence will boost up. That’s it, just do their best

in school because it can help you.]

Co-Researcher E Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na

hanapin yung lahat ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na

maging positive lagi tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-
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esteem sa sarili natin hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na

ganito ganyan. Yung nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating

sasabihinsa utak natin na kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa

sarili ko na kakayanin ko lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa

atin na di tayo pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin

mahina ka, na hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga

magagawa lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man yung

ipagawa sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga problems or

ano pamang pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na dito sa school

marami talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Na kaya mo

yun na may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain nayan. Na

mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang. [To those people who’s the same as me

a low self-esteem. Dont try to look for all the the things that happened to us, just always

think that we can be positive in life because hmmp. If we just let low self-esteem into

ourselves, it will never be gone it will remain to be triggered. The feelings you felt should

be like tnat but we should say to out brain that you can do it, that you're not like that

now you can. I'm positive to myself that I can do it becaue we have God all the time to

guide us and won’t let us be lost that is the thing that we should remember. Because if

you alwasys thought that your weak, that you can't do it anymore of course you really

can't do it. You're unable to do all the things so I hope that we choose to face all of it

whatever the things supposed to be done. What ever kind of problems that we face or

what kind of obstacles it is, of coursewe need to face it especially here at school there's
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a lot of things that should be done but you know that deep inside yourself that you can,

that you're able to do it with a companion that will treasure you to all of those things,

you will really be successful that's all.]

Co-Researcher F Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di

ko mabigyan ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them

parin naman kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano… Lalabanan nila yun.

Ano ahh…wag lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng

tao nagkakamali yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan. [Ahm… I don’t

have advice because even to myself I can’t give myself an advice for not to be low self-

esteem but its like to them if they will be afraid on they’ll fight. Ahm… just don’t be afraid

to burst out youre opinons because all of us did wrong. Ahh… that’s all, yes there’s

nothing will lose if you only try.]

According to Mercury (2015), the power of being honest with yourself is incredible.

It will change your life in every in every way for the better. It will impact your financtial

situation. It will impact your relationships. It will impact your happiness. It will even

impact your sleep and overall health.


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Chapter 5

SUMMARY OF FINDINGS, SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION, IMPLICATIONS,

RECOMMENDATIONS

This chapter presents the summaries of findings, symbolic representation,

implications and recommendations.

STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM

The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived

experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year

2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally as an influence

in emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own

daily performance at school.

This specifically sought answers to the following questions:

1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?

2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?

3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions concerned for

their policy development and management?


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SUMMARY OF FINDINGS

Based on the partarticipants truthful answer and after doing a careful analyzation

of the gathered data we present the summary of findings.

Low self-esteem is not known by many people and considered as shyness. But in

this study, it was shown to their lived experiences that they are feared of being judged

by others. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly about oneself. Self-

esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value themselves. It influences

in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect an individual to his own

daily performance at school.

Being “Katagelophobic” was the big thing that contributes a lot and causes them

to being low self-esteem. It was found out that the low self esteem affects the participants

negatively and positively in academic performance mostly when they are performing in

front doing a perfomance or presenting, interacting with other people like friends,

classmates and sometimes teachers.

Negative experiences affects every situation similar to their past experience makes

it feel uneasy or nervous, trying to avoid perfomance or presentaion that expose them

too much that results to a failed performance or presentation and missed oppurtunities.

They weren’t able to express their thoughts due to fear of being judge.

Most of the participants is affected by their experience in the past being judge by

their own skills and abilities to do things. It was part of their life as a student to

particpate, and perform in front of the class for this just serve as a practice.
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Having that said, It is not predictable when or what wouldbe the other opinion

about it because majority are affected on what would other opinion be regarding their

performance.

Mostly these people are their own classmates, teachers and friends. Intimidated

on how would the teacher react, limiting their actions during performance inside the

classroom because of the term "bida-bida" and the thought thatthey might became a

laughing stock if they did something wrong even if it’s not meant.Being too sensitive in

things and getting hurt secretly, the feeling of being useless at home, unequal treatment,

worrying too much about others opnions, around their friends.

Because of this missed oppurtunities are commonly happens like showcasing their

talents as an individual and cannot paricipate that much in class. Forcing oneself to

perform to the extent but ended up being discourage by others. This also affects during

discussions and recitation.

They face the world with a positive self image. Doing different kinds of things and

activites together like playing guitar, playing computer games and mobile games like

League of Legends, playing basketball, taking pictures, eating together and strolling

around. Although it's not always easy for them to walk on a straight line they still try their

best to keep up.

While their failures increase negative thoughts about themselves making an

individual feel frustrated, insecure, anxious, ignore positivity and success and etc. They

tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution.


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Their relationship with friends played a big role to their resolution. Talking with

friends that relate to the same as them gives a positive feedback and also their

unexpected achievements despite of the ups and downs in their lives.

It's not really because they feel lonely and need an attention or the unforgettable

moments in their lives that keep them behind.

It's their need to look for the right person who can listen to their stories that makes

them feel safe. The person who can listen to what their about to say. They value those

people who choose to stay by their side through thick and thin.
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SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION

The researchers choose the Gift to be the symbol of this study. The researchers

describe their co-researchers as what are the characteristics of a gift. First, a gift is always

presentable and pleasing to the eyes of people and it is always on a good condition. It

can be tall, small, or thin. No matter what they looked like on the outside it is always

beautiful and elegant, especially the surprised inside of it. Second, it can be use in any

occasion depending on its design looked liked but it can also give by you even if there’s

no occasion because some people gived present with the people important to them even
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with no reason. Third, a gift is always special depending on its used and on what’s inside.

You never know how important it is because you often look on the outside before you

find out what’s in it.

Just like the co-researcher of this study they’re different on the outside and there’s

always a surprise of what’s inside. You never know what’s inside until you have a heart

to heart talk with them. They awalys look presentable and pleasing in the way they

present themselves to others. On the outside they show their beautiful and elegant side,

so people will only look in that side and wont have a clue that they have their another

side. Making themselves ready so that if something came up they know how to handle it

and wont panic also to present themselves in a good condition mentally and physically

no matter how hard their struggles is, hardships, problems and etc.

They always try to cover up themselves, so that other people would not recognize

their true colors. Because nowadays people easily judge you eventhough they don’t know

who you are, what personality you had and struggles that they are suffering right now.

IMPLICATIONS
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Based on the summary of findings, the follwong implications are drawn.

Having a fear of being embarrassed, or judged by others, affects every aspects of

student’s academic performances. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly

about oneself. Self-esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value

themselves. It influences in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect

an individual to his own daily performance at school.

Negative experiences affects every situation similar to their past experience makes

it feel uneasy or nervous, trying to avoid perfomance or presentaion that expose them

too much that results to a failed performance or presentation and missed oppurtunities.

They weren’t able to express their thoughts due to fear of being judge.

Meeting new people worth keeping for they still have the feeling of afraid to get

judge by others. The opinion of others can easily affect them positively and sometimes

negatively especially when it's about their performance. Throughout the process of trying

things out of their comfort zone they're often sensitive about it and they often evaluate

themselves negatively. So, they lower themselves that affects their performance at

school, how they interact to others and how they see themselves as an individual.

While their failures increase negative thoughts about themselves making an

individual feel frustrated, insecure, anxious, ignore positivity and success and etc. They

tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution. On the other

hand, some are taking failure as a positive feedback. But it does not mean that they can

always take it as positivity.


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Although they try to face the world with a positive self image over those negative

things that they recieve. Still they're having a hard time making a steps that are out of

their comfort zone. They feel that they don't deserve to experience positivity that they're

receiving. Every body knows that happiness is a choice. But it gets complicated when

they desire to be happy. But they think that happines don't want them to be. Although

it's a choice to be affected or not or make a resolution or not.

Every body has different ways to overcome the hindrances and sometimes the

small things makes the best solution.


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RECOMMENDATION

To the Upcoming grade 11 STEM students, for them to stop pressuring

themselves, to stop overthinking too much over negative outcomes every time they

perform in class and gave their best and making them more aware to what’s really

happening to themselves.

To the Faculty members, should take a careful observation to the students. To

create a great understanding and to have a strong bond as a whole class.

To the Parents, for them to learn and help their own kid and to have a broad

understanding in different aspects of a kid’s characteristic traits.

To the School administrators, for them to be aware about the student’s

environment, to encourage them to look at themselves in a better way and to promote a

better program base on enhancing a person esteem throughout the school.

To the Guidance Councilor, for them to help the students promote in

academics, behavior and social growth.

To the Curriculum Planners, should planned lessons, topics, and activities that

will enhance a person’s esteem and develop their personalities.

To the Future Researchers, conduct a much detailed study about the behavior

of the participants.
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APPENDICES
 APPENDIX A: Letter to Administer Interview Protocol
 APPENDIX B: Letter to Validators
 APPENDIX C: Validation Checklist
 APPENDIX D: Letters to The Participants/ Informed Consent
 APPENDIX E: Interview Protocol
 APPENDIX F: Rosenberg’s Scale for Low Self-esteem
 APPENDIX G: Transcriptions with the Validators and Participants
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APPENDIX G: INTERVIEW TRANSCRIPTION WITH THE VALIDATORS

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Interviewer: So nido, can you please tell me something about yourself?


Interviewee: I am Nido I am 18 yearsold, a student of Mystical rose I am currently
grade 12 and from stem section diamond. I believe that some of the reason why My
esteem lowered/ lower because I think other people ... I mind to much how other people
saw me or how my classmate.... or what will others tell about me whenever I say
something or whenever I tell them something that I wanted to say and I think that affects
me too much or what I mean is or what I mean is that whatever other people tell me or
whatever their comment is or are it really affects me to the bones from where...from
which I find hard to expressing myself because I defend on what i think they will comment
about me after I speak or after I tell my thoughts in mind.
Interviewer: Could you please tell me something about your friends, and the things
you usually do together?
Interviewee: Currently I have 2 groups of friends from different areas. From the school
I ... I have my other group from where I do not tell them what's about me because I
believe that they didn’t have to know a lot about me because I don’t want them to use
the things they know about me when the time came that we apart... we part and my
other group was from our parish from where we also served. I'm also an altar server. I
have my fellow friends there who... Whom I usually served with together and we do a lot
of things together we even play together I mean playing lol and other things like sports
whenever there is sport fest...we…we get addicted to other sports although not everyone
is good at playing we try to impart to others and to teach others about the sports that
we already know and i think my relationship with them was not that much because there
is something that ... there are a lot of things I did not tell them because just like what
I’m doing my friends in school I do not tell them a lot of things about me because I didn’t
want them to use those things to me when we part.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Could you please share something about it?
Interviewee: Social relationship I was kind of shy with my classmates and teachers I
do not…I do not speak to them a lot or I do not yeah I mean I do not speak to them that
much because there's nothing to tell to them or there is no topic between else that we
have to tackle aside from the school stuff and I don’t mind ... I mind not telling them the
things that I have in the parish because I believe that I have two worlds and the things
that happen to me in the parish should only be in the parish and the things that happen
to me in school should only be in school.
Interviewer: What about in class discussions can you please tell me something about
it? How you perform in class.
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Interviewee: In class discussion like what I’ve said earlier I was believe to be confident
in speaking my thought especially when it is in terms of values and when and whenever
and there and there was this time when I stopped doing that things some of my
classmates some of my classmates kind of tell things or murmur things that is not really
pleasant or not really nice about me some says that I was just faking things faking things
or faking the words that I’ve said some of them says that I am just too wordy and my
thoughts and mind where just round or I was just telling a story which I only repeat and
repeat repeat and repeat and repeat and some of the even though they did not mention
those things to me personally I still feel that they kind of have those thoughts in mind
in their mind and because of that I did not , right now or currently i do not speak a lot
in class because I do mind I do mind what other will say about me.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self- esteem
students?
Interviewee: My worst experiences experience, experiences experience in class in being
low self - esteem student. I think that was I cannot remember when has this happen but
I believe that was the time when I wasn't able to fight for what's right I kind of I became
passive at that time i became I just accept things right away although in myself I think
that there is something that I should fight for or something that we should do about it I
didn’t know or how i let bad things to us and that was it maybe I think.
Interviewer: What is your happiest experiences experience in class being low self-
esteem students?
Interviewee: Happiest? I think one of things the happiest from the lot of those
experience was having your other classmates talk to you i mean what I mean by other
classmates those classmates who also have low self-esteem kind of talk to me because
you know we kinda understand each other and we believe sharing stories with each other.
kind of made us comfortable because we kinda have the same stories from where we
just share those experiences in our own way.
Interviewer: Do you think, at some point, your being low self- esteem affects your
studies? Please share it.
Interviewee: Yes but honestly I am not that all the time low self-esteem there are
sometimes that I have low self-esteem or my self-esteem is low and there are time it is
high but this time or I mean this period maybe I am at my lowest self-esteem.Yes there
are bad effects like having poor academic performance because instead of doing what
you really want or saying or speaking the things you have in mind you kind of stop doing
or you kind of stop resisting because I do mind what other people will say about me and
because of that my recitation is not getting high and also my performance in physical
education like that I became too shy when I have to perform a dance or a song when we
have to.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem
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Interviewee: Yes but I believe regrets are always there and until then still there is
tomorrow I believe I could still do something to change those I still have the chance to
change and do something about those.
Interviewer: What advice can you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: To the students who also have low self-esteem I that believe maybe you’re
were like me who mind sharing to other people but you have to learn how to share your
thoughts to other people it might be awkward but it’s kinda helpful because you will have
people who will be willing to hear your thoughts and whenever you started sharing to
them your story and when even though they might not understand those things I believe
they will adjust their level of understanding and level of perspective whenever they will
give advices to you and also to your parents Try talking to your parents or try at least
talking to other people or try practicing talking with other people do not mind everything
in your mind sometimes you just have to stop thinking so that you could move on just
like I have from some Facebook I don’t know I forgot where it's from tomorrow is history
yesterday is a mystery but today is a gift that is why itis called present and every gift that
we have we should used that or we should make those thing count or we should make
those gift worthy and I believe one way of making those thing worthy is trying to change
who you are and trying to be who you wanted to be.
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Interviewer: Can you please tell something about yourself.


Interviewee: Spyde Austria. I’m a friendly person and usually do something when I’m
bored.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reasons of your beung low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Sometimes the only reason when I feel low-esteem it is just because I’m
too nervous on something that might happen.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: We do bonding, playing games (computer). We’re not that close but we’re
okay
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: I do difficult task sometimes and present it in front.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: I’ve been drown in anxiety.
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Interviewer: How about your happiest experience?


Interviewee: When I overcome my fear that may cause Low self-esteem.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studoes? If there’s a bad effect, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Yes, it makes you bothered all the time. I just ignore it.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: None, since all of us experienced it and served as a lesson.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to the students who have low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Stay positive and look at the brighter side
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Interviewer: Can you tell something about yourself?


Interviewee: Before I never loved myself. Actually I always put into trouble, I almost
do all the bad things to the point that I am far the world. I mean, it seems like I abandon
myself in past maybe because of being adolescent. They say it is the stage we become
selfish and curious. But while being matured I somehow understand the things and know
the importance of life in this world.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share to me the reasons of your being low
self-esteem?

Interviewee: I became low self-esteem when the days I want to chance, but most of
the people do not believe me that is why I begin to lose self-confidence. Before I become
a part of bad friends I become a part of good friends too.

Interviewer: What about your friends? Can you say something about them and the
things that you usually do together

Interviewee: My friends now and I likes to play guitar and worship God. I became
happy with my classmates and teachers because even we did wrong outside the school
they try to make it right. Even if it is not their job like they treat us like their children.

Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teacher?
Interviewee: Actually it is okay, I am happy in our classroom because I learned and we
have a bonding with my friends.
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell something about how you perform in
class?
Interviewee: I am so happy in our classroom because it is like our home.
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Interviewer: Do you have worst experiences experience in class being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: A lot, whenever I have low self- esteem I drink alcohol and everyone
around me I feel like they are not listening, sometimes I think of committing suicide but
I would not do it.
Interviewer: Do you have happiest experiences experience as a low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Yes of course this is why I became more close to God and to my friends
I learned to respect and that is the happiest thing in my life when I met God. For me it
did not affect my studies. When I am in school I left my problems at home because I am
just wasting my time.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem
Interviewee: Yes, aside from what I said I have a lot of hours wasted because of the
things I never done when I felt useless.
Interviewer: What advice can you give to the students who have low self-esteem same
as you?
Interviewee: It is not yet the end, Give your problems to Lord and you will be alright
in times you feel tired and you lost your faith. Just pray promise all of that will be gone
in the used of God and always be positive and be brave all of that will passed away.
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Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.


Interviewer: I’m Jerelyn S. Entring from STEM 12 Diamond. Sa pamilya, dalawa kaming
magkakapatid ako ang panganay then ang mama ko abroad ung papa ko nagtratrabaho
sa ibang lugar. Kaya naman lumaki ako na ako lang mag isa sa buhay, sarili sikap lang
yun, share ko lang.
Interviewer: Is it okay if you would share the reasons of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewer: Parang ano… suguro naapektuhan kase nega ako eh. Nega kong mag-isp
kaya ayan naapektuhan ung mga nangyayari. Then clumsy ako, careless ako kaya ayun
gusto kase natatakot ako na ijudge akong ibang tao, mareject ako. Yan ayoko nang
ganun.
Interviewer: Can you tell something about your friends and the things that you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Sa mga friends, ano lang ahmm di ako masyadong friendly siguro nag
iistick ako sa friends na yung tipong friends ko siya ahmm tapos iba yung standard nila
sa ibang friends. Parang ahm tinuturing Kong, pag friends ko sila tinuturing ko talaga
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silang friends as in ‘di nagplaplastikan sa friends. Sa group of friends namin lima kame.
Ahm strong kame kase pag may problema, masama man ‘yan o ano sinasabe namin sa
isa’t-isa so bale, kapag kunyare kahit masakit kase mas gusto namin na open kame sa
isa’t-isa. Then, syempre kapag maayos din ang problema, Then yung kadalasan lang
namin ginagawa yun syempre pag STEM ka mahirap yung ano… aral lang talaga. Pero
kung minsan ano… yung gala- gala para stress reliever siya kase yun ayun mahirap.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Sa relationship sa classmate medyo introvert ako ahm… medyo kalog
pero sa una kalog ay ma… parang ‘di ako approachable. I mean ano gusto ko yung
inaaproach them, sa mga classmate okay lang naman akong bata ayun wala naming
ahm… ayun mababa lang ako sa mga recitation ‘di ako ano sa mga recitation more on
ako sa paper sa mga seatwork ganun mga ‘yun.
Interviewer: In class discussion, how do you perform in class?
Interviewee: Ahm… kagaya nga ng sinasabi ko, ‘di ako ganoon ka… ung masyadong
nahihikayat ‘di ako expose masyado ‘di rin ako ayun.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience being low self-esteem inside
and outside the classroom?
Interviewee: Yung mga worst ko lang talaga yung mga katangahan na nangyari sa
mga buhay ko yun lang.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experiences?
Interviewer: Happiest po ? Siguro yung ano kasama na rin yung friends ko. Kase sila
lang naman yung mga pam pa ano parang nakakaintindi. Yung kwentuhan ganoon.
Interviewer: Do you think, at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Ayun nga sabi ko low self-esteem ako mababa ako mag recite. Kaya ayun,
pero kahit naman ganoon nasa achiever naman ako pero feeling ko ‘di ko parin nabibigay
yung best ko yun yung isa sa mga weaknesses ko na dapat ko pa simple kase nga college
na dapat nagbago na.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Ahm regrets? Ano fifty-fifty ano… kase ‘di ako low self-esteem dati. ‘Di
ako…’di ako nasa sitwasyon ko ngayon. O.A siguro ano? ‘Di mo naman masasabi yun eh
mga weakness ko yun lang gusto ko siya improve.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to low self-esteem students like you?
Interviewee: Ahm...Ano ba? Siguroo as early as possible ipractice niyo yung ganoon
kase as a student kailangan nakikipaginteract diba ahm… iyon yung mga kadalasan
nagiging problema ng mga studyante ng mga estudyante nakakaapekto ‘din sa studies
nila.
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Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.


Interviewee: I am Trisha Mae Adano, 17 years old. My strand in Mystical right now is
Gas 11-Mabini.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Maybe… My experience is having trauma in the past.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: My friends, every time the class ends, we will decide where we will
go then, we will normally come up of what we can do.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: So…. They treat me well, I can’t say anything bad or negative. That’s what
it is. It goes well.
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: I perform in class, but I can’t tell that I’m good at performance but I know
that I have something to show. When it comes to recitation I don’t usually answer
because I have low self-esteem that is why.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: So in our subject, Oral Communication or performance task is public
speech, we need to perform public speaking then suddenly I can’t speak because of low
self-esteem. I can’t think of what to say then they are laughing at me then I don’t know
why did I cried.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: I don’t know the specific answer but being with them is the happiest.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Yes, of course if you don’t recite it instantly affects grades! Actually I don’t
know how to handle it because it is my biggest problem.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
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Interviewee: There are a lot because I can’t perform well in class because of having
low self-esteem.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just?
Interviewee: I don’t know what to advise because me, myself have low self-esteem so
I don’t know what to advice.

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Co-Researcher A--------------Ms. Leilei
Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Hello, ako si Leilei. Ako ay nag-aaral sa Mystical Rose School of Caloocan
taking up STEM Strand section Bonifacio. Hilig kong tumugtog ng gitara at syempre
makinig ng mga classic musics. Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo, okay lang pero huwag mo sasabihin sa iba. Nagsimula yun noong
namatay ang mama ko. Lagi kong tinitingnan yung mga negative sides noong nawala
siya. Mas naging stressed ako ngayon kaysa dati. Lagi akong nababalisa sa lahat ng bagay
especially sa pag-aaral ko at meron akong ugaling pagiging malungkot pero hindi ko rin
alam kung kalian yun nagsimula.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Ang mga kaibigan ko ay mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin
kahit na sa pinakamababang punto ng buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na
masasandalan ko. Lagi kaming sama-samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Actually, yung relasyon ko sa teacher ko ay maayos naman dahil isa siya
sa mga nasasabihan ko ng mga problema. At yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates
ko ay hindi ganon kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay
komportable sa sarili ko at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Minsan ako ay active sa recitation sa klase pero minsan tamad din ako at
antukin habang may class discussion.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Noong ako at yung kaklase ko ay nagkaroon ng hindi pagkakaunawaan
during science fair. Nakapagsabi ako ng mga masasakit na salita tungkol sa kanya. At
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inaamin ko yung mga pagkakamali ko pero meron din naman siyang pagkakamali
noong mga oras na iyon. Mula noong araw na iyon ay naging mahiyain ako sa mga
classmates ko dahil alam nila kung ano ang nangyari noong araw na iyon. At iyon din
ang naging dahilan kung bakit ako naging low self-esteem.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Yung pinakamasayang experiences na naranasan ko is during our
Christmas party, yun na iyon.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi ko
magawang matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong naiisip
na hindi ko magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong
pakiramdam. Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip
yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Oo, meron akong mga pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil
maraming nasayang na opportunities.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap nila.
Kapag nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na
sapunto na you are not able to grow as a person.

Co-Researcher B-------------Ms. Naji


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Ako si Naji, 17 years old nakatira sa ph 1, pkg. 1, Blk 16, lot 1, BSCC. Lima
kaming magkakapatid at pang apat ako. Yung Papa ko namatay noong august 19, 2014
dahil sa colon cancer. Si Mama na lang ang nagtataguyod sa amin, umabot sa punto na
nagtitinda na kami sa clasroomm namin para mayroon kaming panggastos. Yung ate
kong panganay 4th year college noong nagstop siya dahil hindi na talaga kaya kapag
lahat kami ay nag aaral pa. Nagtrabaho siya para makatulong kay mama at sa aming
mga kapatid nya. Simula nung nawala na si papa, doon na ako pinanghinaan ng loob,
nangulila sa pagmamahal niya. Naiinggit ako sa iba kasi kumpleto ang pamilya nila.
Ngayong gr.11 na ako, kahit na madalas na pinaghihinaan ako ng loob, ginagawa ko
nalang inspirasyon yung hirap ng buhay para mas pagpursigihin ko pa yung pag-aaral
ko. Dahil alam kong mas pagod yung taong nagpapaaral sa akin.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
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Interviewee: Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na wala pa akong mai-pagmamalaki, sinasabi ko


sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao na malakas ako at matapang pero ang totoo no'n nawawalan
na ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko, kasi lagi nalang akong nakakagawa ng mga pagkakamali.
Minsan kahit maliit na bagay na kapag di ako nasusuportahan ng mga taong mahal ko sa
buhay, nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko na wala akong halaga sa kanila na wala lang ako
sa kanila.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Marami akong kaibigan pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam
ng tunay kong kalagayan, yung nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging
bonding nalang namin yung puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami,
syempre kahit na bawal sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang
bagay. Madalas na nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na umaabot
sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila, dahil feeling
ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers ko naman,
madalas akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang paborito sa
mga kaklase ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero parang wala ka
lang sa kanila, puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Pagdating naman sa klase, active naman ako sa recitation o groupings at
roleplaying, yun nga lang tingin nila sakin ng iba feeling magaling.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at puro
ako lang ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Nung nagkaroon na ako ng mga bagong kaibigan, yung sama-sama lahat
ng bagay at talagang nagtutulungan.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at ng
adviser ko na bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa sarili
ko na nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako may
mababang grades.
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Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?


Interviewee: Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging duwag
ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung pagkakataon,
pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin sa sarili mo,
halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako.

Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin,
mag-iisip pa rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan
ka nang mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili.

Co-Researcher C-------------Mr. Potpot


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Ako si Potpot. Ako ay 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student nag-aaral sa
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc. Hilig kong maglaro ng computer games tyaka mag
basketball. Ako yung klase ng tao na laging inaantok. May apat akong kapatid, dalawang
babae dalawang lalaki. Meron akong stepfather kasi yung tunay kong tatay namatay
noong isang taon ako. Yung pangalawa kong kuya nagpapaaral sakin at binibigay niya
mga gusto ko pero hindi na siya dito naka tira sa bahay meron na siyang sariling bahay.
Tapos yung ate ko naman kumukuha ng education course sa UP Diliman. Yung bata pa
ako lagi lang ako sa bahay kasi di ako pinapayagan lumabas ni mama naging introvert
din ako ng almost 6 years pero yung grade 7 nako nasanay nako sa ibang tao at natuto
maging independent.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo, okay lang. Yung rason kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong
low self-esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended
in saying na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang
payan eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko
kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako
tapos kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako
sa kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
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Interviewee: Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga mapagkakatiwalaan


pero minsan mga hindi rin mapagkakatiwalaan eh. Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina.
Lagi kami nag babasketball, naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: hm… yung pakikitungo ko naman sa mga classmates ko at teachers ayos
naman pero minsan nakakainis lang yung mga bida-bidang classmates na akala mo ang
gagaling eh hindi naman, tapos yung sa teachers wala akong problema don puwera lang
sa P.E teacher kasi ang yabang masyado tapos sa Reading ang Writing daming
pinapagawa.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: During class hour minsan tulog ako pero sa mga quiz at test ko lagi din
naming pasado at kumokopya din sakin mga seatmates ko, pag nakikinig akong mabuti
tapos mag quiz.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa
kapag reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng
harap ng maraming tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Siguro? Kasi minsan ang hirap mag-adjust at yung feeling na alam mo
yung sagot pero hindi ko nasasabi kasi baka mali at mapahiya ako. Merong masamang
epekto pero nahahandle ko naman sa pamamagitan ng sarili ko minsan. Binu-boost ko
confidence ko.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos
huwag sila papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila
na mas may iimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon.
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Co-Researcher D-------------Ms. Dyosa


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Ako po si Ms. Dyosa 18 years old sa March 14 po. Hindi ko po alam na low
self-esteem pala ako pero sige go! Yung tinetake ko yung test akala ko hindi ako papasa
dun sa magiging particiapant nyo. Kasi yung ibang tanong dun feeling ko ano hindi naman
pang low self-esteem. Hindi naman ako ganun ka ano friendly, pero hindi rin naman ako
ganun ka introvert. Nakikipagkaibigan ako dahil nga kapag ano matagal ko ng nakasama
pero pagka kunwari pagdalawa lang kami, madalang ako yung magsalita o mag-open ng
topic. Madalang yun mangyari.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro nga ayun, hindi ako masyadong nag-oopen ng umpisa ng topic ng
conversation kaya ano, hindi ko masyado naexpress yung sarili ko kahit ano gusto ko
siyang sabihin parang kinikeep ko nalang sarili ko na ano maging quiet.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Yung grade 10 ako yung mga kaibigan ko mga babae sila tapos syempre
magkakaiba kami ng school. Meron nga akong kaibigan ditong dalawa na ano taga dito
sa GAS at taga ICT pero madalang nalang kami mag-usap saka madalang din kami
mag-usap sa personal saka sa chat. Kaya feeling ko ano nawawala sila, parang hindi
nako nagiging kaibigan nila. Lalo na pagnakikita ko post nila na ano yung mga nakatag
yung ibang kaklase nila ba parang bagong tropa nila. Yun lang parang nahuhurt lang
ako sa ganun.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Kahit noon palang junior high hindi ako masyadong, hindi ako masyadong
nakikipag-usap sa teacher pero since ano nasa ano ako may honor ako nun. Kaya close
ay ano nilalapitan ako ng mga teacher. Kilala nila ako pero madalang akong makipag
usap sa kanila na parang ibang estudyante na marunong magbiro sa teacher pero hindi
ako masyadong ganun. Hindi ko yun kaya.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Ahh siguro semi-active lang ako, siguro nagka-top lang ako nun kasi
mataas yung quizzes ko yung exams ko, pero pagkarecitation di ako masyadong active
sa ganun. Ewan ko bat nag ka top ako nun eh hindi naman ako palarecite. More on
written works diba kasi ganun dati.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
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Interviewee: Nung grade 3 siguro yun na din yung naging dahilan kung bakit naging
mahiyain ako sa klase. Yung teacher ko na ano hindi ko alam kung may galit sakin o
wala kasi pag ka ano parang lagi akong pinagbubuntungan ng galit niya. Yung nangyari
kasi nun nakatulog ako sa klase niya, ewan ko kung bakit ako natulog diba kasi
syempre grade 3 palang ako nun hindi pa ako seryoso sa pag-aaral. Tapos pagkadilat
ko naglelesson pala siya tapos tinarayan niya ko, tapos sabi niya "sarap ba matulog?"
ganun-ganun. Tapos yung isang time naman nakikinig ako sa lesson niya tapos biglang
dumating yung ate ko. Ano pabalik-balik yung ate ko may hinatid siyang I.D., bote,
tapos ano yun? Panyo ata. Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati
ba panty mo naiwan mo?" gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase
ko. Pagkauwi ko iyak-iyak ako kay mama, muntik na nga nilang ipablotter yun eh, pero
hindi na nila inano kasi ayaw na nila ng gulo kaya hindi na ako nakikipag-usap sa
teachers.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is yung
grade 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun parang
yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon ng
magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng top,
nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo nga yun, katulad nga nung grade 9 ako hindi ako masyadong
nagpaparticipate nun kasi nga diba? Naiintimidate ako sa teacher, feeling ko lagi niya
kong sisigawan, lagi magagalit sakin siguro yun yung nakakaapekto sakin. Pero yung
mga nangyayari nung may mga peoblema kami sa bahay hindi naman yun nakaapekto
sa pag-aaral ko, parang naging motivation.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Oo naman, oo kasi syempre diba? Mas maganda yung feeling na hindi
ka nahihiya kahit yung feeling mo tatawanan ka nila parang wala kang pakialam doon.
Kasi pagka diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas mararamdaman mong
ano parang wala akong confidence panget ng ganung pakiramdam.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since naranasan
ko siya hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya. Parang
mamementain mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence mo,
tapos tinry mong i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma ng
naranasan ko noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may
problema ako, parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba
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kaya nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang
nila pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun.

Co-Researcher E------------- Ms. Buwan


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Tawagin niyo nalang po akong Buwan 17 years old, yun nakakaranas
po ako ng low self-Esteem kasi may mga bagay na, mga bagay na minasan naiisip ko
nalang na hindi ko kayang gawin. Tapos napaka nega ko sa sarili ko. Yung hindi ko
sinusubukan yung mga bagay na alam ko namang kaya ko.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Okay lang naman malaman niyo kung bakit low self-esteem ako kasi
ano. May mga times kasi na yun nga nahihirapan ako. Tapos iniisip ko agad na hindi ko
kayang gawin. May mga bagay na hindi ko, hindi ko tinatry na gawin kasi iniisip ko na
hindi ko kaya tapos napapanghinaan ako ng loob.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Yung ano kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang
kaibigan hanggang ngayon yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko
lamg nalaman yung tunay na saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga
kaibigan mo na nakasama mo ng ganun katagal malalaman moo talagang sila yung
magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga.
Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. Yung
mga saya na puro tama lang yung ginagawa niyo, yung saya namay limitasyon. Hindi
katulad ng ibang saya na iba yung ginagawa. Pero yung mga kaibigan nayun yun yung
pinakamasasabing the best sila. Kasi bawat weekends o kada linggo may ginagawa kami
na umaalis kami, sama-sama kami. Hindi kumpleto tutuloy parin kami kasi pwede rin
namang maulit yung sama-sama kami. Hindi kami nawawalan ng bonding kada linggo
ganun. Tapos yung mga ano kaibigan ko sa church namin, iba sila pagkasama mo. Ahh
lalo na pagkasama mo sila sa church, kasi yung mga ginagawa niyo yung tama lang yung
nasa aral niyo. Kaya yung masasabi ko yung mga kaibigan ko na dati saka mgayon, sila
talaga yubg mga kaibigan na tama talaga para sakin. Kasi ginagawa namin kada
ginagawa namin sa church, syempre pumupunta kami dun. Then, sabay-sabay kaming
gumagawa ng mga aral na tinuturo sa amin.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon sa
bilang grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi na
parang hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako
gusto. Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun
kaya hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. Tapis yung mga teacher na iba parang wala rin
silang pakialam ganun. Sa classmates naman, syempre hindi mo naman maiiwasan yung
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mga classmates na ganito na mapang-asar sa ano. Minsan nakakasakit yung mga salita
pero hinahayaan ko nalang kasi okay lang naman yun, biro lang naman yun. Hindi naman,
pero may mga times kasi na nakakapangbaba rin yun ng sarili yung mga pang aasar na
sobra na.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Pagdating sa klase mga discussion yung pagiging low self-esteem ano na
nadadala ko siya sa time ng discussion o kaya sa pagpeperform sa mga academic
performance ganun. Kasi diba pag lo self-esteem ka syempre kinakabahan ganun na
mapapaisip ka na hindi ko to kaya na baka mamaya pagtawanan lang ako mga ganun.
Tapos may mga time na discussion tapos hindi talaga ako nagrerecite kasi nahihirapan
akl na sumagot hindi, minsan kasi hindi ako agad nakaka adopt masyado ng mga lesson
hindi ko siya napagtutuunan ng pansin minsan. Tapos lalo na nga nang pagiging low self-
esteem kasi minsan, kasi nasasalungat nako sa lesson, hindi ko na siya na aadopt
nahihirapan ako pag ganun. Tapos mga performance syempre kinakabahan ako lagi, wala
akong times na hindi ako kinabahan kahit na ano elementary pako hindi talaga ako
tumatayo sa harapan.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Noong elementary ako nun eh or high school. Noong time noon nung
nagperform ata ako nun tapos parang hindi ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint
din yung mga teacher yun tama. Yung nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak
ko nun. Kasi hindi namin alam yung gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport
nun. Kasi time nun MAPEH tapos puro practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi
namin naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng
MAPEH tapos nung time na mismo ng report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla
kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi
niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng
iyak. Tapos para pa akong tanga nung pinabasa sa classmate ko tung tula ata yun o
dagli? Tapos i ano ko daw, tapos i action ko daw yung mga sinabi ng classmates ko tapos
yun nahihirapan nako tapos bumalik nako sa upuan nun. Napanghinaan nako ng loob
hindi na naano yung report namin.

Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?


Interviewee: Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low
self-esteem ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na
kaibigan, sila yung sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya
bawat nakikita ko sila kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may
importansya pala ako kahit papaano. Tapos yung mga happiest ayun, bilang ano
nabibigyan ka ng panahon para magsalita na mabigay mo yung gusto mong sabihin sa
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church nayun. Doon ko nakilala yung sarili ko na ganito pala ako, na kahit ganito ako
pero kailangan ko paring makipag-interact sa mga tao, kailangan mo parin na makipag-
usap na makipag salamuha sa kanila na sundan o makibahagi sa mga ginagawa nila.
Kaya isa san pinakamasaya yon dahil nakakilala ka ng mga tunay na kaibigan na
iingatan ka syempre may mga pagkakataong din na minsan yung ugali nila ganun. Pero
iintindihin ko nalang din yun. Pero minsan nakakadala rin siya sa pagiging mababa sa
sarili mo low self-esteeem mo, pagiging low self-esteem sa sarili. Minsan kasi yung
attitude nakakapagpababa, sinasabihan ka ng panget na bagay bababa yung
pakiramdam mo. Pero madalas naman na puro positive naman yung sinasabi nila.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Nakakaapekto yung low self-esteem sa studies kasi sa pag-aaral mo.
Since nakakapang baba yun di muna, parang nahihirapan kanang gawin sa mga
pinapagawa sa schools. Sa mga peformance ganon parang hindi mo na talaga siya
kayang gawin. Hmmp nakakaapekto talaga siya kasi yung mga times nga na minsan
hindi ko na kaya, yung may mga ganitong pinapagawa hindi ko na kaya nahihirapan
ako, hindi ko alam kung pano ko gagawin. Ganun naging bad effects din yun. Ayun
naging bad effects sakin kasi puro nalang kasi naiisip ko na ganito pala, wala akong ano
na hindi ko pala kaya, puro negative nalang talaga nasa utak ko. Tapos nahahandle ko
naman siya paminsan minsan pinipilit ko talaga sa sarili kong sabihin kong ganito na
sana na lagi nalang sa isip ko is positive. Na pilit akong nagpapatatag na sana magawa
ko to ganun na kaya ko to. Lagi akong nagsasabi sa sarili ko na kaya ko to, kakayanin
sana mapagtagumpayan. Maging positive talaga palagi.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Meron akong pinagsisisihan kasi may mga times na hindi ako
sumasagot. Diba yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi bakit
hindi ko yun ginawa bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre dapat
gawin ko pero hindi ko talaga siya nagagawa. Nagsisi ako doon kasi nga sobrang baba
ko sa sarili di ko yun nagagawa, bakit hindi ko to nagagawa, bakit ganun. Bakit hindi ko
muna subukan mga ganun.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na hanapin
yung lahat ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na maging
positive lagi tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-esteem
sa sarili natin hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na ganito
ganyan. Yung nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating sasabihinsa
utak natin na kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa sarili ko na
kakayanin ko lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa atin na di
tayo pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin mahina
ka, na hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga
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magagawa lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man
yung ipagawa sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga
problems or ano pamang pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na
dito sa school marami talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya
mo. Na kaya mo yun na may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain
nayan. Na mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang.

Co-Researcher F-------------Mr. Mamamo


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Ako po si Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula, ako ay 16 years old, ano…
dalawa lang kami. Ang kapatid ko ay babae, siya ay 15 years old. Nagaaral ako sa ano
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan. Ano OFW yung dalawa kong parents eh. Dalawa lang
kami ng kapatid ko sa bahay.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Ano… pinakauna ano yung takot majudge parang ganon, takot
mahusgahan kasi, kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun
yung kinakatakutan ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang
madiscriminate ganon, kumbaga ganon.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos
kumakain kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Ako napapansin ko naman, pero ewan ko lang sa mga classmates ko,
pero… ako kasi okay naman ako sa kanila. Wala naman akong problema sa mga
classmates naming, yon. Mmm… merong mga classmate na ganon na napapansin ko na
nakaka… nakaka… ano ba to, pano ba… parang pagnakikita ko sila, sila yung nagiging
rason. Kung bakit nagiging ano ako ganon. Wala naman sa teachers.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Ano di naman kasi ako palaging nagrerecite kasi yun yung kahinaan ko,
mahina ako sa ano… Recitation lalo na kapag ano pag on-the-spot kasi parang ano
nacoconscious ako kung may masabing mali, baka tawanan ako ganon kasi takot nga
akong majudge.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
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Interviewee: Ano… parang hindi mo nasasabi ang gusto mong irecite kung halimbawa
gusto mong magrecite sa harap pero hindi mo masabi kasi takot ka sa mga sasabhin ng
iba, ng classmates mo.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Ano… yung halimbawa pag ano… gusto mong magrecite tapos mali pala
yung sinabi mo, mali pala yung sagot na nasa isip mo, parang ano… parang magiging
thankful ka na hindi mo nasabi yon kasi ano kung masabi mo yon tatawanan ka talaga
nila parang ganon. Halimbawa sabi ng teacher kung ano sagot sa number tapos may
sagot ka sa isang tanong tapos diba low self-esteem ka di mo masasabi yung sasabihin
mo tapos yung nalaman mo yung sagot na mali nasa isip mo magiging thankful ka na di
mo sinabi yon kasi ano atleast nakaiwas ka kasi ano alam mo pag mali sagot mo
kumbaga tatawanan ka kaagad ganon.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo naman, kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung
ano… recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka
makakarecite ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng
teachers sa ganon. Ano… bumabawi nalang ako sa performance task atsaka sa mga
quizzes. Oo ayun kasi wala talaga sa oral.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Oum… madami, yun nga yung di mo naipapabahagi yung ano… yung
gusto mong sabihin ano… kapag ano… kunwari katulad sa open forum namin ano di
ako kakapagsabi ng saloobin ko kasi ano nga yun nga. Oo.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di ko
mabigyan ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them
parin naman kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano.. lalabanan nila yun.
Ano ahh…wag lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng
tao nagkakamali yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan.

Co-Researcher G-------------Ms. Portly


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment puro
ganon lang. My name is Ms. Portly I am 16 years old Ang birthday ko is May 29, 2002. I
Live at camarin caloocan Home Owner's association, Repar street. Then ano eh apat
kaming magkakapatid tapos pangatlo ako tsaka nag-iisang babae lang. Oo kase ano nag-
iisang babae lang ako tapos yung mga kapatid ko ano sila puro lalake tapos hindi naman
ano... matatalino naman sila pero di' sila ganong achiever katulad ko kasing nung
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highschool ako lagi talaga ako nakakpasok sa top lagi ako nag kakaroon ng achievements
tapos ngayon lang siya nawala.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro sa ano kase ano kinakabahan ako syempre kase tsaka ano
mahiyain kase ako di ako sanay magsalita sa ano sa harap ng maraming tao kaya pag
ano pinakaayaw ko talaga is yung reporting kase lalo na pag nakatingin sila sakin nakaka
intimidate yung ganon. Mahiyain lang talaga ako lalo na di ako sanay magsalita sa mga
taong di ko pa gaanong close o di ko gaanong nakakausap. Marami kase akong kaibigan
eh kase...hindi nung syempre diba natural lang naman na magkaroon ka ng kaibigan
kada grade kada grade mo tapos ako nagkakaroon ako.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Pero etong grade 10 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga ano ay, ay nung grade
9 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga kabigan na ano na pang matagalan na hanggang ngayon
kaibigan ko padin ano ma ano sila mababait tapos napaka cheerful napaka supportive
nila para... ano tawag dito aanong wait lang suportahan ka nila sa ano sa lahat ng
bagay tapos pag nadodown ka andyan sila para tulungan ka di' ka nila iiwanan kahit
anong mangyare ano tapos tini... tinitreat ko naman sila ng maayos yung deserve
naman nila kahit minsan kahit pinapakitaan nila ko ng ano ugali na parang hindi parang
diiii deserve na i-respect syempre kapag kaibigan mo sila maano... mamahalin mo padin
sila despite ng ano nila yung perfection kahit na ano yung itrato nila sayo.
Tapos yung mga... yung mga ano bagay lang na ginagawa namin usually before class
kumakain lang kame sa ano sa labas ganon or ano pinaka bonding nalang namin siguro
pag ano eh pag uwian ganoon magdadaldalan lang kame bago...actually ano ang uwian
lang namin nung grade 10 is ano 12 nakakauwi nakame alauna... alasdos kase
magdadaldalan kame ng ilang oras kakain ganon.
Actually lumala siya. Nung grade 10 sobrang... di naman sa sobra pero may confidence
parin talaga ako sa sarili ko kase yung mga nakasorround sakin nun ano sila tawag dito
chinicheer-up nila ko pag ano pag nag-oopen up ako sa kanila about sa nararamdaman
ko parang ngayon kase ano yuuung YUNG lalo na nung unang grading yung mga taong
naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano nila ako icheer up nila ako pag nadodown ako ano
parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na sa salita syempre yung confidence na meron na
nga lang ako konteng konte lalong nawala so wala na talaga akong self-esteem. Hindi
lang sa akademiks pati sa physical appearance. So sobrang down na down na ako.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Sa mga klasmeyt ko ano kase eh pag 'di ko naman sila lagi... kahit araw-
araw ko silang nakikita or nakakausap hindi naman pag ano hindi ko naman sila katabe
'di ko naman sila totally nagiging close parang ano lang... parang close lang kame pag
magkagroup kame during activities kase ano eh hindi naman...alam mo yung feeling na
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ano kahit na kinakausap ka feeling mo 'di ka padin kasale parang di ka padin belong
sakanila yung ganoon. So hurt.
Tapos sa mga teacher wala ano lang teacher lang ganon teacher studyante wala
naman akong pakealam sa relationship na meron dito. Di kase ako pala recite kahit alam
ko yung sagot kase nga ano ako low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan
kapag nagkakamali ako kase ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay
na ano pagkakamali mo kahit 'di mo naman sinasadya.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Di ako active kase nakaturn off chat ako eh. Hindi I mean hindi di nga ko
pala recite diba kahit alam ko yung sagot di ako nag ano di ako pala... ano lang pag ano
kunwari may chips ayun nag tatry ako sumagot pero ano di talaga ako ano actually active
sa ano sa recitation focus lang ako. Pag tinawag ako tapos alam ko yung sagot ayun
sasagot ako pero pag di naman ako tinatawag tapos kahit alam ko yung sagot 'di ako
nagsasalita.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung
sarili mo sa ibang tao kahit na ano feeling mo may mga...naiiyak ako kase naman eh
ayokong tinatanong yan...ayokong tinatanong yan eh naiyak ako okay lang ako. Medyo
ano lang personal siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress
yung sarili mo sa ibang tao kahit na ano kahit na alam mo na may mga taong handang
makinig sayo parang nahihirapan kana iexpress kase ano kase alam mo sa sarili mo na
parang kahit naman sabihin mo parang wala namang magbabago. Kase katulad nalang
sa ano yung confidence sa sarili parang kumbaga ano yung dahil sa ano pakikitungo sa
sinasabe ng ibang tao sayo pagdating sa physical appearance parang syempre diba
napakalakas ng impact ng sinasabe ng ibang tao para sayo. Kaya kapag sinabe nilang
panget ka mataba ka ganyan syempre ikaw sa sarili mo kapag alam mo namang totoo
yung nakikita nila syempre paniniwalaan mo diba siguro yun yung pinaka worst.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Siguro yung pinaka masaya bilang low self esteem is yung may mga
iilang tao na andyan para i lift up ka pag ano nararamdaman nila na ano na down ka or
wala kanang tiwala sa sarili mo yung parang may mga kaibigan ka na andiyan para ano
mag advice sayo na ano magtiwala ka sa sarili mo na ano na mahalin mo yung kung
ano ka. Tsaka wag mong pakinggan yung sasabihin ng ibang tayo may mga kaibigan
kase ako na ano... Iilan lang sila siguro dalawa o isa pero ano napaka...sobrang
treasure sila sa buhay ko kase ano sila yung mga taon maniniwala ka na ano yung
sasamahan ka through ups and down.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
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Interviewee: Meron katulad nalang nung ano isa na sa mga ano yung effects yung
pagakakaroon ng ano low scores sa mga exam tapos mababang grade gano'n. Kahit
hindi na ano lang kahit medyo matagal na s'ya siguro nung mga elementary pero ano
sobrang laking epekto no'n kasi sa grades mo kasi nga diba nahihirapan kang mag
express sa ibang tao.
'Tas kung pa'no ko siya hinahandle siguro ano, hindi naman sig-siguro ano hindi siguro
kasi talagang ginagawa ko siya pag nararamdaman ko na parang nagkaka- parang
nawawalan na ko ng tiwala sa sarili ko parang ano nag o-open up nalang ako ano sa
mama ko kasi sya yung ano mas nakakaintindi sakin, sa lahat ng bagay mag kukwento
nalang ako kahit na umiiyak na ko sa harapan n'ya, kahit na siya umiiyak na din
syempre ayaw nya kong nakikitang umiiyak pero at least na o-open ko yung sarili ko
tawag don? Na aano ko na o-op nasasabi sasabi ko siya kahit sa isang tao lang at least
alam kong may nakakaintindi sa akin, may nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ko.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Marami. maraming beses kasi ano pag nararamdaman ko yung ano low
self-steem nagkakaroon yon ng malaking epekto sa performance ko sa school, sa
grade. Syempre ano minsan iniisip ko na ano sana hindi ko nalang nararanasan yung
ano low self-steem para madali lang saking mag express ng nararamdaman sa ibang
tao tsaka 'di ako nahihirapanag mag salita sa harap ng marami yun lang thank you.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Siguro ano, hindi-hindi ko alam kung epektib pero eto kasi yung
ginagawa ko. Yung mag-mag open ka sa tao na alam mo na makakaintindi sayo kahit
hindi sila dalawa or madami kahit nag iisang tao basta alam mo na mapagkakatiwalaan
tapos alam mo na maiintindihan ka mag open ka lang at least alam mong may-may
isang taong nakakaalam ng nararamdaman mo tsaka be yourself tapos ano mag tiwala
ka din sa sarili mo tsaka sa kakayahan mo kasi hindi- totoo naman na hindi lahat ng
bagay kaya mong gawin may mga bagay na kayang gawing ng ibang tao tapos kaya
mo syempre madami naman tayon dif- marami tayong differences diba, marami tayong
kakaiba sa kakayahan pero yung kaka- yung kakayahan na kaya mo may mga ibang tao
na hindi yon nagagawa tapos ikaw kaya mo iyong gawin tingin ko yun yong masasabi
ko sa kanya.

Co-Researcher H-------------Ms. Mama


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Tawagin niyo nalang akong Mama 16 years old, dalawa kaming
magkapatid at ako yung panganay, mahilig akong kumanta at magbasa, hindi ako sanay
na nag o-open sa iba.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
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Interviewee: Siguro, ako kasi yung tao na takot majudge at napakasensitive sa


simpleng bagay lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak agad pero patago at ayoko sa lahat yung
pag may nangyaring di maganda eh ako yung sinisisi at ayoko sa lahat na may taong
galit sakin kaya iniiwasan kong gumawa ng kung ano anong bagay na magiging reason
para majudge o magalit sila sakin.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom,
naninigarilyo pero di naman ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama
kami puro kalokohan lang ginagawa like mangtitrip ng mga dumadaan or di kaya eh
gumala at puro kwentuhan.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo
sobrang ilang nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di
sila aware sa mga nangyayare kung may kapalagayan man ako ng loob dadalawa lang,
ayoko kase sa plastic na mga tao, sa teacher naman comportable sila kasama.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Di talaga ako pala recite, tumatayo lang ako kapag tinawag ako o di kaya
close na close ko yung teacher ko nakikinig ako sa teacher kapag napansin kong magaling
magturo and kapag gumagawa ng paraan para di makatulog pag nagdidiscuss na.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Siguro ito yung pag nagkamali ka ng isinagot sa mga tanong ng guro eh
pagtatawanan ka ng mga kaklase mo at a-asarin ka hanggang pag-uwi hanggang
kinabukasan, like what I said im very sensitive person kaya ayoko ng attention.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Kapag may mga groupings tapos yung kagrupo ko eh nangunguna at
natapos ng dapat gawin yun na yung pinakamasaya para sakin.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Siguro minsan na-apektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka
magkamali malamang mahihiya kang magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro, mula naman kase minsan rito pa yung mga nag e-encourage na
mag-aral ng mabuti.
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Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Ang masasabi ko lang eh wag masyadong magpapaapekto sa mga
problema mo at ih e-encourage mo yung sarili mo at imbes na idown ito.

Co-researcher I-------------Ms. Peng


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Tungkol sa aking sarili, pwede niyo akong tawaging Peng at ako’y 17 years
old. STEM-Lakandula at may allowance ako once a week.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo naman siguro yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako
kase minsan feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: In terms of friends, kasama ko sila sa mabuti o hindi, madalas
nagkwekwentuhan kami sa buhay namin at nakikisalamuha sa ibang tao.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Pagdating naman sa social relationship ko sa kaklase ko. Mas prefer kong
maging kung ano talaga ako at in terms naman sa social relationship ko sa mga teachers
hindi ako pabor sa pakikipagsocialize kasi wala ako sa lebel na prefer nila.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Sa class discussion, laging tinetake ko yun ng dahan-dahan at tahimik na
sumang-ayon kung ano yung tinatalakay, nagtataas lang ako ng kamay kapag alam ko
yung sagot.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Yung pinaka worst na naranasan ko bilang lows self-esteem, na yung
masira yung sarili at yung pinakamalala is yung pagiging low self-esteem, hindi ko kaya
imanage yung feelings ko.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Yung happiest experience yung na o-overcome ko minsan yung
nararamdaman ko tuwing humaharap ako sa maraming estudyante.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
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Interviewee: Kung may mga bad effects, madalas kong ginagawa yung i-overcome ko
yung tao.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Oo may mga pinagsisihan din ako kasi hindi ko kayang imanage yung
emosyon ko.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang basta hayaan lang nilang ifeel na importante sila sa ibang
tao o sa ibang bagay.

Co-Researcher J------------- Mr. Jie


Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.
Interviewee: Ako si Jie. 16years old gusto ko mag-isa lalo na pag nasa bahay lang.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro yung mga rason una yung lack of friends, walang nagtotolerate
sakin gawin yung isang bagay na gusto kong gawin, takot majudge.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
usually do together?
Interviewee: May classmates ako pero di ko sila kino-consider as friends kasi in the
end of the day uuwi akong nag-iisa at wala silang pake sa mental illness ko.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Interviewee: Meron akong masayahing mga kaklase pero hindi enough yun, kasi
karamihan sa kanila hindi ako gusto as their class president. Sa teachers naman normal
lang kung ano yung nakasayan ko na trato saken ng teachers ko dati ganun din ngayon.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Di na’ko nakikisali sa mga recitations if my group activity naman its either
ako yung leader tas ako din gagawa sa lahat o wala akong pake sa activity.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: Nung grade 9 ako nagrecite ako pero yung teacher naming minura lang
ako tas pinalabas ng room.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: Wala akong happiest experience bilang low self-esteem.
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Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effect, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo, wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa
discussions. Di ko na handle yung bad effects hinayaan ko nalang kasi lilipas din
naman.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Madami, namiss ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko.
May nagyaya sakin dati na sumali sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka
pagtawanan lang performance ko.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang humanap kayo ng friends through your worst times hindi
yung anjan lang kapag nasa best part ka ng buhay mo.
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JASON ROSCO ALBINO

2495 Waling-Waling St., Area C, Camarin Caloocan City


Contact No: 0916-496-1395
Email Address: dereyalbino@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To finish my studies and have descent and stable job.


 To give back all the sacrifices that my parents did.
 To travel and explore the beauty of the Earth.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things
 Open for recommendations.
 Patience and Perseverance must always acquire.
 Always love what you are doing.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:
Date of Birth: May 27, 2002
Place of Birth: Northern Samar
Age: 16
Sex: Male
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”9’
Weight: 54
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/ English
Mother’s Name: Delia R. Albino
Occupation: House Wife
Father’s Name: Gerry B. Albino
Occupation: Mechanic
211

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Computer literacy
-Microsoft Word
-PowerPoint Presentations
-Video/Photo Editing

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
CAMARIN HIGH SCHOOL
Cadena de Amor 81 B., Camarin, Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL

CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL


Barangay 175 Area A, Camarin, Caloocan City
2008-2014

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
212

PRINCESS STEFFANIE TIMBAL ARBASTO

Ph2 Pkg1 Blk13 Lot2 Bagong Silang, Caloocan City


Contact No: 0936-646-8011
Email Address: prinsesa.stephania@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To finish my studies.
 To achieve my goals in life.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things
 Explore; and
 Discover new things.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:

Date of Birth: January 2, 2001


Place of Birth: 20 Luna ST. New Haven Village,
Novaliches, Quezon City
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”1’
Weight: 42
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/ English
Mother’s Name: Chona Paular Timbal
Occupation: Entrepreneur
Father’s Name: Nilo Labadlabad Arbasto
Occupation: Deceased
213

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
BENIGNO AQUINO JR. HIGH SCHOOL
Ph1. Pkg2. Bagong Silang, Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL

SILANGAN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL


P3 Pkg3 B65 L2, Bagong Silang, Caloocan City, Metro Manila
2010-2014
URDUJA ELEMENTARY SCHOOL
Sikatuna Ave, Caloocan City North, Metro Manila
2008-2010

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
214

JERIC LAURETA BARCENAS

675 Diamond St. Area. A Camarin Caloocan City


Contact No: 0919-495-8688
Email Address: jericbarcenas12@yahoo.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To help my parents in the future.


 To finish my studies and achieve my goals in life.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things.
 Discover new things

PERSONAL INFORMATION:
Date of Birth: September 25, 2001
Place of Birth: San Juan Roro Sorsogon, Sorsogon City
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”4’
Weight: 42
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog, English
Mother’s Name: Angelina Aringo Laureta
Occupation: House Wife
Father’s Name: Ricky Villanueva Barcenas
Occupation: Security Guard
215

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Fast Cuber

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:
SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2014-Present

ELEMENTARY LEVEL

CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL


Diamond St Area A, Camarin North Caloocan City
2008-2013
MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.
#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2013-2014

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
216

KEITHLY FELICIANO DE CHAVEZ

Blk 10 Lot 16 Gucci St. Congressional model 2


Bagumbong Caloocan City
Contact No: 0906-543-6418
Email Address: Keithlyfeliciano@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my studies.
 To achieve my goals in life.
 To make my family proud
 Be known for having a successful career

QUALIFICATIONS:

 Willing to learn new things and be trained.


 Can easily follow the instructions.
 Responsible for assigned work and can finish the work on time.
 Obey rules and regulations.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:
Date of Birth: July 24, 2002
Place of Birth: Quezon City
Age: 16
Sex: Female
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”
Weight: 47
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/ English
Mother’s Name: Mary Grace Feliciano
Occupation: Factory Worker
Father’s Name: Omar De Chavez
Occupation: N/A
217

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Able to multitask.
 Good at verbal and written communication.
 Good in arts.

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
SAMPAGUITA HIGH SCHOOL
#11 Paraiso St. Sampaguita Subd. Camarin Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL

CONGRESS ELEMENTARY SCHOOL


Brgy. 173, Congressional Caloocan City
2010-2014
GSIS VILLAGE ELEMENTARY SCHOOL
Premium St., Brgy. Sangandaan, Quezon City
2007-2010

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
218

REINE GABRIELLE DELA CRUZ

Blk 24 Lot 11 North Matrix Ville Phase 3


Camarin Caloocan City
Contact No: 0927-012-2820
Email Address: Delacruzreine37@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To finish my studies and to be a successful Architect.


 To make my family proud.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Ability to participate in sports.
 Ability to work in a team and speak in front of a large group.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:

Date of Birth: December 11, 2001


Place of Birth: Quezon City
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Civil Status: In a relationship
Height: 5”1’
Weight: 45
Religion: Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/ English
Mother’s Name: Rowena Dela Cruz
Occupation: Chef
Father’s Name: Roman Dela Cruz
Occupation: Deceased
219

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Ability to multi-task.
 Able to play guitar.

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
CALOOCAN CITY BUSINESS HIGH SCHOOL
Urduja Village Sikatuna Crossing Camarin Caloocan
2016 - 2017
MOTHER OF DIVINE GRACE ACADEMY
Amparo Subd. Camarin Caloocan
2012 - 2016
ELEMENTARY LEVEL

QUEEN HELEN LEARNING SCHOOL INC.


Almar Subd. Camarin Caloocan
2005 - 2012

CHARACTETER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
220

MARY JOY YMATA GOYON

1758 Quisumbing st. Area D Camarin Caloocan City


Contact No: 0920-127-1298
Email Address: Joygoyon0804@yahoo.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To finish my study.
 To achieve my goals in life.
 To give my parents what they need.
 Let my parents be proud of me.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things.
 Willing to accept changes.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:

August 4, 2002
Date of Birth:
Caloocan
Place of Birth:
16
Age:
Female
Sex:
Single
Civil Status:
Height: 5”35’
Weight: 69
Religion: Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/English
Mother’s Name: Jeanette Ymata Goyon
Occupation: Government Employee
Father’s Name: Edgar Salazar Goyon
Occupation: Company Driver
221

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Playing Guitar.
 Singing.

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
CAMARIN HIGH SCHOOL
Cadena de Amor Brgy. 174 Camarin Caloocan city
2014-2018

ELEMENTARY LEVEL

CAMARIN D ELEMENTARY SCHOOL


Area D, Camarin Brgy. 178 Caloocan City
2008-2014

CHARACTETER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
222

EDRIE CABOTEJA IGNACIO

Blk 5 Lot 6 Estrealla Homes Almar subd. Camarin Cal. City


Contact No: 0977-420-5713
Email Address: edrieignacio@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To be a civil engineer.
 To be a successful person.
 To travel around the world.
 To finish my studies and achieve my goals in life.

QUALIFICATIONS:

 Willing to learn new things.


 Adaptability.
 Good Decision Making skills.
 Ability to Work under Pressure.
 Good with Communicating.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:

Date of Birth: October 9, 2001


Place of Birth: Caloocan
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”6’
Weight: 51
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog, English
Mother’s Name: Mellie Caboteja Ignacio
Occupation: Overseas Filipino Worker
Father’s Name: Edgar Ranara Ignacio
Occupation: Deceased
223

SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Ability to work Under Pressure.

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2014-Present

ELEMENTARY LEVEL

OUR LADY OF LOURDES CATHOLIC SCHOOL


1117 Petunia, cor Chrysanthemum St, Camarin, Caloocan, Metro Manila
2008-2011
CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL II
Atis St. Caloocan, Metro Manila
2011-2014

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
224

SAMIRA SNOE GARGANERA PAPA

1758 Waling-Waling St. Area. A Camarin Caloocan City


Contact No: 0945-586-2518
Email Address: irapapa7@gmail.com

LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To finish my studies and achieve my goals in life.


 To become a licensed professional architect.
 To travel the iconic places together with my family and friends.
 To promote art as a way to express an individual’s thoughts that cannot be explain through
words.
 To make people appreciate art and make it understandable.

QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things.
 Ability to work under pressure.
 Can adapt to new surroundings.

PERSONAL INFORMATION:

Date of Birth: April 3, 2001


Place of Birth: Caloocan
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Civil Status: Single
Height: 4”10’
Weight: 51
Religion: Baptist
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog, English
Mother’s Name: Emelita Garganera Papa
Occupation: House Wife
Father’s Name: Fernando Aromin Papa
Occupation: Overseas Filipino Work
225

SPECIAL SKILLS:

 Ability to work Under Pressure.


 Computer Literate
-MS Word
-Excel
-Power point
-Video Presentation

EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:

SECONDARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2014-Present

ELEMENTARY LEVEL

MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.


#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2014-Present

CHARACTER REFERENCE:

JAN MCLEAN TAN


Teacher
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.

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