[

06/
12,
19:
07]Lynne:PROLOGUE

Me:
”mamayouhavet
ogot
ohospi
tal
”
Mom:
”Ndi
yazimnt
wanawam”
Me:
”Okayl
etmegoandcal
lumal
ume"
Mom:”NobabygirlIam f
ineokayi
tisj
ustImi
nor
wounditwi
llheal
”
Me:”
Itwon'
tmom tr
ustme"okaymom i
ssi
ck,
but
shedoesn'
twantt
oagreewit
hme
Mom:”Babygirlwhatwi
llhappenwhenIgoto
hospi
talhuhtheywil
ladmitmeofcoursewhowi
ll
l
ookafteryou"
Me:
”Icanl
ookaf
termysel
fmot
her
"
Mom: ”
It
'snotliket
hatbabewhowi l
llookaf
teryou
f
inanci
ally,youknowitverywellt
hateventhe
moneyt hatIearnit
'snotenoughforbothofus"
Me:”
Iwil
ltakeovermom"motheri
sawomanwho
hust
lei
nor derf
orustogetf
oodandnowshei
s
si
ckiti
sLittl
ebi
ttoohar
dtowashsheet
sohyou
hear
dmer i
ghtshedoesever
yonel
aundr
yher
ein
vi
ll
ages”
Mom:
”NobabyWenafocusi
nyourschoolwor
k
mi
naIwi
llbef
inedon'
tworr
y"
Me:
”Youwon'
tbefi
nemom awuboniukuba
uml
enzewakhoubol
il
eyoucan'
tevenwalk"
Mom:”nt
ombiyam goandpl
aywi
thot
herki
dsIwi
ll
bef
ine"
Me:
”OkayIl
oveyoumom”
Mom:
”Il
oveyout
obabygi
rl
Oopsf orgottoi ntroducemysel fokaymynamei s
Noxol oButhelezi doinggrade12atvi l
lages,at
homewear enotr ichinfactwear epoorIam l ivi
ng
withmymom t hatwomeni smyr ockshei sso
strongshef oughtsomanybat tlesinherl i
fe,andI
am notashamedofherevent houghtshei ssick
ri
ghtnowIdon' tknowwhat 'sthepr oblem butwhen
shewokeupherl egwassoswol l
enmi naIt hought
thattheybewi tchedherIdon' tevenknowwhy
woul dtheydot hatbecausewear enotevenr i
ch
actuall
ywest ayi naoner oundvelmudr oom i twas
buil
tbymymom andr ightnowshewashes
people'
slaundr
yinordertomakesur ethatwe
survi
vecanyoui magineherpainwhatcanwesay
i
t'
sl i
feOhhhIguessyounot icedt
hatIdidn'
t
ment i
onmyf at
herthatguywenttoGaut engand
neverret
urn.
Youwantt oknowmydr eam?Mydr eam istogoto
Gautengandexplor
etheworldIheardthatiti
sa
beauti
fulci
tyIr
eall
yhopeGodgrantmywi shes
[
06/
12,
19:
11]Lynne:CHAPTER1

NOXOLO

Iremember edthatIhadtogoandf etchwater.

Livi
ngi navil
lagewedon'thavetapsi nouryar
ds,
ther
e'sonlyonet apadist
antawayf r
om home
wherewegot ofetchwater.Thequeueisusuall
y
unbearablemost l
ywheni t
'smidday,youcanstand
ther
ef orhoursbeforeyoucangetclosetothetap.
Thequeuedr agsmor ewhenpeopl ehavemor ethan
onebucketsomeoft hem bri
ngallmaybe3of4
bucketsinawheel bar
row.It ookmyusualbuckett o
goandgetwat er,mymot herwasr esti
ngabi t.She
hasn'tbeenf eelingwellforawhi lenow, herhealth
i
sst arti
ngt obeaconcer nf orme.Hert hri
stfor
waterisbecomi ngt oomuchnotf orgett
inghow
smel l
yherur inei sandmost l
yit
'sgoldenyel l
owi n
colour.Imadet hatlongfatefulwalktot hetap.Iam
most l
yaccompani edbythesongst hatIsingalong
theway, justsoIdon' tfeelthedistance.
Iar
ri
vedatthetapandIsawt hatmyf
riend
Nomalangawasthelastper
sononthequeue,t
oday
Iwon'
tbebored.I
'l
lhavesomeonetotalkt
oo.

Me:"
HeyNomal
anga"
Nomalangai
smybestf
ri
end.Wever
ycl
oseandI
l
oveherli
keasi
ster
.
Nom:
"Heybabygi
rlyouar
elat
e"
Me:
"IknowIsl
eptl
atel
astni
ght
"
Nom:
"Sl
eptl
ate?Whatwer
eyoudoi
ngl
astni
ght
?"
Shesai
dthatasi
fli
keIwaswi
thaguy.
Me:"Fr
iendIwasbusyt
hinki
ngaboutmyMot
her
's
condit
ion,
it'
swor
seni
ng"
Nom:
"It
hinki
t'
sti
menowyout
akehert
ohospi
tal
"
Me:
"youknowmom i
sst
ubbor
n"
Nom:
"Youneedt
oconvi
nceher
,she'
sbeensi
ckf
or
awhi
lenow"
Me:
"Iwi
llt
ry"
Isai
dthati
nFust
rat
ion.
Nom:"I
'
m sor
ry,
Iknowyourmom i
sal
lyouhave
now.Iknowshemeansthewor
ldt
oyou"
Herst
atementremindedmeofhowmuchI 'l
lbea
l
oneronthisear
th,
ifanyt
hingcoul
deverhappent
o
mymot her
.
Me:"Ireall
yhopeso.TobehonestI'
mt i
rednow, l
ast
nightwewentt obedwi t
hemptystomachs.Since
mom st art
edgetti
ngsickwehaven'
thadanymoney
comingi nbecauseshehadtoquitherpi
ecejobs,
si
ckasshei s.Sheshoul
dnevergotobedwithan
empt ystomach"
Nom:
"l
if
eiscr
uelatt
imes,
buthopeandf
ait
his
whatcangetyouby.Raindoesn'
tlastf
orever
,one
daythi
ngswil
lchangeforthebet
ter"
Me:
"WhatcanIsayi
t'
sli
fe"
Nom:"Godwi l
lneverf
orsakeyou,
keeponprayi
ng.
Neverlosehopeit'
swhatkeepsusgoingwhenall
seemst ofadeaway"
Me:
"I
'l
ltr
y"
GodandIwenotbestfr
iendsri
ghtnow,there'
sso
muchthat'
shappeni
ngandit'
shardtobeli
evewhen
not
hingseemstobemakingsense.
Nom:
"Ncoohcomeher
e"
shegavemeoneofherwar
mesthugIneededone
ri
ghtnow.

•Afterthetal
kwithNomal angaitwasmyt urn,soI
fi
ll
edupmybucket ,placeditonmyheadt hen
returnedhomewhi lesingi
ng.WhenIst eppedmy
footinsideourl
it
tleroundvelIsawmom ont he
fl
oor ,Il
etgoofthebucketandi tfel
lonthef l
oor.I
t
startedonmyf ootbeforemeet i
ngthefloorthe
wat
erwasspl
ashedal
lover
.Ir
ushedt
oher
.

Me:
"Mama,
mamapl
easewakeupmama"
Iturnedhersoshecoul dl
ookatme, hereyeswere
halfopened.Hermout hwasver ydryandwhenshe
tri
edtosaysomet hi
ngaterr
ibl
esmel lcameout
from hermout h.Il
ookathermout h,t
hecor ner
sof
hermout hhadwhatseemedl i
kesoresandher
mout hwasdr y.Shetri
edtospeakevenherhand
thatshetri
edt oplaceonmycheekf elldownagain
ont hefl
oor.Shewasweak.
Me:"
it
'sokaymom hol
donokayIam goi
ngt
ogeta
hel
p"
Shegavemeanodherbr
eat
hingwasal
sof
aint
.

Istoodupr antoNomal anga'shouse,

tearswere
fall
ingandwhenIgl anceddownmyf ootwas
bleeding.Thebucketmust '
vecutme.Thatdidn'
t
mat ter
,myMot her'
shealthmatteredmore.I
knockedandwal kedinbef or
etheycouldevensay
"
comei
n"

Me:
"Nomal
anga!
!"
shecameoutf
rom t
hebedr
oom.
Nom:"what
'swr
ongNoxol
owhyar
eyoucr
yingwhat
happened"
Hereyesshowedconcer
n.
Me:"
pleasehel
pmyit
'smom Nomalanga!Idon'
t
knowwhat '
sgoi
ngonwit
hherI.I
"
Nom:"Cal
m downNoxol
oIcan'
thearwhatyou
sayi
ng"
Me:"
Shei
sdyi
ngNomal
angaIcan'
tleavewi
thout
her
"
Nom:
"wher
eisshe?
"
Me:"
Athomeont
hef
loor
"
Nom:"
Let
'sgo,
weneedt
otakehert
othehospi
tal
"
Sheheldmyhandandwerantomyhouse,i
thi
tme
thent
hatt
hehospi
tali
sout
sidet
hevi
ll
age.Howar
e
wegoingt
ogett
her
e?Wedon'
thaveacar
.I
st
opped.
Me:
"HowNomal
angawedon'
thaveacar
"
Iputmyhandsonmyknees.
Nom:
"l
etmet
hink"
Icaughtmybr
eat
hasshewasdeepi
nhert
hought
s.
Her:"
Weneedtogett
oher,wewillt
hinkof
somethi
ngwhenweinyourhouse"
Wer
ant
omyhouse,
shewasst
il
lont
hef
loor
.
Me:
"Mama?
"
Ther
ewer
esi
gnsofl
if
ebuti
twasn'
tpr
omi
sing.
Nom:
"NoxsWenagot
oNdabezit
haBenguandask
hi
mtodri
veustot
hehospi
tal
"
Me:
"OkayIcandot
hat
"
Nom:
"hur
ry!I
'
llkeepmyeyeonher
"

Iranoutt
otheBenguhousehol
d.MrBengui
sthe
communityl
eader
,hei
stheonlyoneweknowwho
ownsacar
.Iknocked,
hiswi
feopened.Shef
olded
herar
msandlookedatme.

Me:
"Mahowar
eyou?
"
MaBengu:
"Uf
unani
"(whatdoyouwant
)
Me:
"I
sNdabezi
thahome"
MaBengu:
"whatdoyouwantf
rom myhusband?
"
Me:"
PleaseMaIneedhi
shelpmom i
sdyi
ngandwe
havetogethert
ohospi
tal
"
MaBengu:"Whosai
dmyHusband'
scari
sapubl
ic
t
ranspor
t"
Me:
"Ngi
yacel
abandl
a"(
PleaseI
'
m beggi
ng)
MaBengu:
"Ni
yahl
uphakodwa"(
Youar
etr
oubl
e)
Me:
"Ngi
yacel
a"(
please)
Il
ookedatherwi
tht
ear
sinmyeyes.
MaBengu:
"Ar
ghst
andt
her
eIam comi
ng"

Shewentbacki
nsi
det
hehouseIwai
tedf
orl
ike6
minsunti
lshecamebackwithNdabezi
thaBenguI
guessshetol
dhim whatIwant
edbecausehecame
hol
dingthecarkeys.

Ndabezi
tha:
"Umkamiuchazekonkeasambe"(
my
wif
eexplai
nedlet
'sgo)
Me:
"Thankyou"

Wegotinsidet
hecarthendrovet
omyhousetoget
mymom, wecarr
iedhert
othecaranddr
ovet
othe
hospi
tal
..
[
06/
12,
19:
11]Lynne:Chapt
er2

Noxol
o

Whenwesawdoctorcomi
ngweallst
oodup
want
ingt
ohearwhathehadt
osay.
Me:
"doct
orhow'
smymom"
Dr:"Yourmot herhasdi abetesandi t'
snotcont r
oll
ed,
whichr esultedintot hegangr enousl eg.Ifshe
wasn' tbroughtinsooneri twasgoi ngtor esulti
nto
somet hingwecal l"ketosi".Ketosisisa
compl icati
onwher ebyt hebodypr oducesexcessi ve
bloodaci dsknownasket ones.Itmost lyaffects
patientswhoar ediabet ic,whichrisesfrom t he
i
nsul i
nnotbei ngsuf fi
cientenoughi nthebody.I n
typi
calt ermsi ti
sknownas" diabeti
ccoma"
Me:"
whatki
ndofGodwoul
dputsomeonet
hrough
t
his?
"
Dr:
"Noyoungl adyyourMothercanstil
lrecover
,we
wil
lputheronmedi cat
ionandseeherpr ogressbut
onl
yifshef ol
lowstheri
ghtdietandtakesher
medicati
on.Wehavehadpat ientsl
ikethi
sand
somer ecover
ed"
Atleastt
here'
sabitofhope,
shecanst
il
lrecover
eventhoughIdon'
tknowwhatthi
s"di
abetesis"
Dr
:"Youcanmaybecomet
omor
rowt
oseeher
"
LI
ZOKUHLE
Iwassi
tt
ingont
hechai
rinmyStepf
ather
'sof
fi
ce,
hewasonthesi
deoft
hetabl
e.
Dad:"
Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
"
Idi
dn'
trepl
y.
Dad:"
Youhat
emet
hatmuch?
"
Il
ookedatt
hecuf
fsandl
aughed.
Dad:"
Lizokuhl
e,ar
eyoudoi ngt
hisbecauseyou
t
ryi
ngtogetmyat tent
ion?
"
Me:"YesIwouldbreakthel
awtogetmy"St
ep
fat
her'
satt
ent
ionthat'
showdesper
ateIam f
oryour
att
enti
on!
"
Hi
m:"Doyouknowhowser
iousthi
sis?Youbroke
t
helaw!Youwer
efoundwi
thalotofcocai
ne"
Me:"Bekungasel
amil
eloshandi
s"(
thatwasnotmy
par
cel)
Him:"Thatdoesn'
tmat
ter
!Whatmatt
ersi
sthatI
cannotkeepondoingt
hiswi
thyou"
Myst
epf
atheri
sasuper
int
endent
.
Him:"
Youneedtogetyourshi
ttoget
heryoungman,
thi
spathyoutaki
ngisgoi
ngtoleadyoudowndeep
i
naver ydar
ktunnelandIwon'
tbether
etosave
youanymore"
Hesatdown.
Hi
m:"
YourMot
heri
swor
ri
edaboutyou"
Me:
"Yout
oldher
?"
Hi
m:"
Ihadt
otel
lher
"
Me:
"Whyam Inotsur
pri
sed"
Hi
m:"
LizoIdi
dn'
tki
llyourf
athert
ogetyourMot
her
"
Me:"Youhadmyf atherarrest
ed.Theykill
edhi min
jai
landthennotevenaf ewmont hsafterwebur i
ed
him,youwerealreadymar ryi
ngmymot her.Then
youwannasi tt
her eung'shayelei
Stor
yesi ngapheli
"
(yousit
ti
ngthereandt ell
ingmenonsense)
Hi
m:"
YourFat
herwasacr
imi
nal
.Hewasabusi
ve!
"
Me:"
Awazinexnget
aimalam"(
youdon'
tknow
anyt
hingaboutmyf
ather
)
Ir
oseupf
rom t
hechai
r.
Me:
"Pl
easeIwannagohomeSi
r"
Ist
ret
chesmycuf
fedhandst
ohi
m.
Him:"
YourMot
herandI
,havedeci
dedt
hatyou
shoul
dmoveinwit
hus"
Me:"
Minanawe?Sgindlesonke?Awumekancane"
(
YouandIli
vingt
ogether,
waitaminut
e)
Hegott
hecuf
fsof
fme.
Me:
"TaDavi
d"(
thankyou)
Him:"yourmom want st
oseeyoutoni
ght
!We
havi
ngdi nnerat19:
00.Don'
tbel
ate!
"
Ii
gnor
edhi
m andwal
kedoutoft
hest
ati
on.

Sor
ryforposti
ngshorti
nser
tTommor owIam
wri
ti
ngphysicssoIhavetoprepar
e.
[
06/
12,
19:
11]Lynne:Chapt
er3

Noxol
o
WellwhatcanIsayaboutl i
feeverythi
ngi samess.
Isaidt hattomysel fasIwasl ostdeepi nmy
thought swhilewashi ngdishes.Mymot herissick,
andont heot
hersi deIhatethatthere'snothingI
candoabouti t.Tomakehersi cknessgoaway.My
mot heri smyr ock,thepil
larofmyst rength.Wi t
hout
her,I'
m not hi
ng.Icannotevenr el
yonr elati
ves,they
areallf arawayf rom us.Reali
zingtheirdreamsi n
thecityofgol d.Af t
erwashingmydi shesIdisposed
thewat ertot
hepl antsthatmamapl antedbef or
e
shedi scoveredt hatshewassi ck,thenIr et
urned
backt ot hehut,todoabi tofcleaningbef or
egoi ng
backt ot hehospi t
al.

Noma:
"weemngani
"
Me:
"Fr
iendwhat
'sup"
Nom:"Lookf
ri
endI
'veaskedmymom toal l
owmet
o
comeandstaywit
hyouunt i
lyourmom comes
back"
Me:"
That'
sveryni
ceofyou.Thankyou.I
'mj
ust
cl
eaningupbefor
ewegot othehospi
tal
.
Nom:
"Okaysl
etmehel
pyou,
it'
l
lbeal
otqui
cker
"
Me:
"Thankyou"

Sowef ini
shedcl
eaningt
henItookabath,and
aft
erthatwemadeourwaytothehospi
tal.Wehad
tohikethi
sti
mearound.

ATTHEHOSPI
TAL
Wewenttotherecept
ionistsoIcanenqui
rewhich
wardmymom wasi n,therecepti
oni
stcal
leda
nur
setoescor
tust oherwar d.
.
Whenwegott
oherward,
thebedwasni
cel
ymade.
TheNur
sel
ookedatme.
Me:"
Ismymom bat
hing"
Nur
seshookherhead.
Nur
se:"I
'
m sor
ry,
yourMom passedonat2am t
his
morni
ng.
Thi
swasn'
ttr
ue,theDrsai
dthatmymot
herwas
goi
ngt
omakei t
.
Me:
"Butt
heDrsai
dmymot
herwasgoi
ngt
omake
i
t"
Nur
se:
"I'
m deepl
ysor
ry"
Idi
dn'tknowwhatt ofeel
becauset
hiswasnot
happening,
itcan'
thappentome.
Nur
se:
"I
'l
lgi
veyousomespace"
Shewal
kedout
.
Igotcl
osertothebedandlookedatit
,shepassed
onbefor
eIcouldseeher.Iwantedtoseeher,I
wantedtotal
ktoher.Thi
sisn'
tri
ght!
Noma:"
Mngani
"
Me:"Thi
sisn'
tri
ght,i
tcannotbehappening.God
cannott
akeherfrom me.It
'snott
rue.Tellmethat
i
t'
snottrue"
Tear
srandownwit
houtani
nvi
te,
ital
lfeel
sli
kea
ni
ghtmar
e.Onet
hatIwasgoi
ngtowakeupf r
om.

Il
ookathert
hennodmyhead,
wewentt
oherwar
d
i
ndeedthe
LI
ZOKUHLE
Iwaswokenupbymyphoner
ingi
ng,
itwasmy
Mother
.Ianswer
ed.
.
Me:"
Goose"
Her
:"Wehaddi
nnerl
astni
ghtandyoudi
dn'
tshow
up"
Ir
osemyheadupf
rom t
hepi
ll
ow.
Me:"
I'
m sor
ry,
Ihadal
otoft
hingst
odo"
Her
:"Li
kewhat
?"
Me:"
Justt
hings"
Her
:"Youbr
eaki
ngmyhear
tLi
zo"
Me:"
It
'snotmyint
enti
on,whywoul
dIhur
ttheonl
y
womaninmylovethatIl
ovewit
hal
lmyheart
"
Her
:"Davi
dist
ryi
ngt
ogetyouaj
ob"
Me:"
Idon'
twantdashf
rom hi
m"
Her
:"St
opi
t!
!Justst
opi
t!
!"
Me:"
I'
m sor
ryI
'
llst
opbyl
atert
oni
ghtf
ordi
nner
"
Her
:"Iwon'
thol
dmybr
eat
h"
Me:"
I'
llseeyoul
ater
"
Shehungup.
Me:"
Iloveyout
oo"

NOXOLO
Ihavebeenlayi
ngonthi
sbedf ormaybe30minnow,
Icoul
dn'
tmove.Apartofmewant edtoconnect
wit
hher,Iwantedt
ofeelherl
astmoment.
Noma:"
Mngani
,It
hinkweshoul
dgonow"
Me:"
I'
m notgoi
nganywher
e"
Noma:"
Theymi
ghtwannauset
hiswar
d"
Me:"
I'
m notgoi
nganywher
e"
Noma:"
No-
"
Me:"Iwantt
obeal
one,
Ineedt
obeal
one.Fornow.
.
Pl
ease"
Noma:"
I'
llgi
veyousomespace"
Shewal
kedout
.
LI
ZOKUHLE
Ihear
dmyAuntcoughi ngf
rom t
helivi
ngroom.
WhenmyMom mar r
iedDavi
d,Imovedouttocome
andli
vewithmyAuntinthehood,becauseDavi
d
andIweren'
tseei
ngeyetoeye.
.
Me:"
Areyouokay?
"
Shespatont
het
issue.
Her
:"I
'
mfi
ne,
it'
sjustanast
ycought
hat
'sal
l"
Icouldhearawheezi
ngsoundcomi
ngf
rom her
chestasshetr
iedtobreat
h.
Me:"Whenareyougoi
ngt
ohavei
tcheckedout
,it
's
beenweeksnow"
Shesmi
led.
Her
:"I
'
mfi
neLi
zo"
Whydosi
ckpeopl
edon'
twannagot
othehospi
tal
?
Myphonebeeped,
itwasamessagef
rom Fr
ank:
"
Ihear
dthecopsgott
oyou,
Ihopeyoust
ashedmy
mer
chandi
sesomewher
esaf
e.That
'sR100000
wor
thofcocai
ne"
Aunt
:"Whati
sit
?"
Me:"
It
'sgoose,
shei
sinvi
ti
ngusf
ordi
nner
"
Aunt
:"Maybesomef
reshai
rwi
lldomegood"
Shewasst
ruggl
ingt
okeephereyesopen.
Me:"
Yeah,
maybe"
(
Sil
ence)
Me:"
Shoul
dImakeyousomet
hingt
oeat
?"
Shesmi
ledwi
thhereyescl
osed.
Her
:"Ij
ustneedt
orestf
ornow,
Ifeelver
yti
red.
Maybelat
er"
Il
eanedagai
nstt
hewal
landl
ookedather
.

Let'
skeept hel
ikesandcommentsrol
li
ngdon'
t
disappoi
nt.Andalsokeeponshar
ingthepage
[
06/
12,
19:
11]Lynne:Chapt
er4
Noxol
o

AllthatIcouldt hi
nkaboutwashowqui ckl
ymy
mom l eftthi
swor ld,
Ineverthoughtt hatmymom
coulddi ejustl
ikethat.Sheusedt obeaver ystrong
woman, nevershownsi gnsofbei ngsickuntil
recently.Hadshesai dsomet hing,orhadInoticed
earli
er.I'
m sureofallthiscould'vebeenavoided.

Nom:
"I
'm sor
ryagai
nMngani
"
Me:"
It
'smyfaul
tthatmymom di
edNomaIshoul
d
havenot
icedt
hatshewassi
ck"
Shehuggedmewhi
let
ear
smadet
hei
rwaydown
Nom:"
Don'
ttal
kli
ket
hatf
ri
endi
tisnotyourf
aul
t,i
t
washert
ime"
Me:"
NoIshoul
dhavetakencar
eofher,Ishoul
d
haveknownt
hatsomethi
ngisoffwi
thmama"
Nom:"Fri
endIknowthati
t'syourj
obtol
ookaf t
er
yourmom butsomehowyoumustknowt hatyou
arenotperf
ecti
neveryt
hingyouarehumanImean
whowouldhavethoughtthatyourmom i
ssi
ck
phel
athatonewasahar dcore"
Me:"I
'
m goi
ngtomissheryouknow,shewasa
humbleper
son.Nevercausedanyt
roubl
ewit
h
anyone"
Nom:"
Evenwhenpeoplest
art
edtr
oubl
ewi t
hher,
shewoul
djustapol
ogi
zefort
hesakeofpeace"
Me:
"Shewasneveravi
olentper
son"
Nom:
"Iwi
llmi
sshert
oo"
Me:
"Iwi
llal
somi
ssherver
ymuch"
Nom:
"Wehavet
ocont
actyourr
elat
ives"
Me:"Ij
ustneedthisonenightt
omysel
f,bef
ore
contact
ingthem.I'
lldot
hattomor
row,
it'
snotli
ke
theygoingt
ocar eanyway"
Nom:
"Wehavet
otr
ybef
oreassumi
ng"
Me:
"I
'l
lcal
lthem t
omor
rowmor
ning"
Nom:"Wecanal
soaskfordonat
ionsar
oundher
e,
yourmom wasadmi
redbymany"
Me:
"weshoul
d,maybet
hey'
l
lhel
p"
Nom:
"I
t'
sgoi
ngt
obeokay,
don'
tst
ress"

LI
ZOKUHLE
I
fImisstonight
'sdi
nner
,mymotheri
sgoi
ngt oski
n
meali
ve..Theplanwastogowi
thmyAunt,butshe
wassti
llsi
cksoIlef
ther.
.
Mymom l
ookedatme.
.
Me:Imadei
t
SheopenedthedoorwiderandImademywayi
n..
Shethencl
oseditbehi
ndme.
Her:I
'
m gladt
hatt
oni
ghtyoudeci
dedt
oshowup,
you'
vemissed5di
nner
s
Me:I
'
m sor
ry,
I'
vebeenbusy
Her
:Wi
thwhatexact
ly?Sel
li
ngdr
ugs?St
eal
ingcar
s?
Me:Idi
dn'
tcomeher
etof
ightwi
thyou
Her
:Ifi
twasn'
tforDavi
d,you'
dbei
njai
l
Me:Ofcour
se.
.Remi
ndmet
othankt
heSup
Her
:GooseDavi
disnott
her
easonwhyyourf
ather
andIdivor
ced,Davidisnotther
easonwhyyour
fat
hergotarr
ested.Yourfat
herwasacr i
minal
,who
madeyouacr iminalt
oobeforehedied.Yourf
ather
usedtoabuseme, healmostkil
ledmeatsome
point
Davi
dshoweduphol
dingagl
assofwhi
skey.
.
Hi
m:Li
zo
Me:Davi
d
Hi
m:Thankyouf
orj
oini
ngus
Me:Icoul
dn'
tletGoosedownagai
n
Hewr
appedhi
sar
m ar
oundmyMot
her
'swai
st.
.
Me:I
'
m goingt
ogot
othedi
nni
ngar
eabef
oreIl
ose
myappet
it
e.

st
il
lwr
it
ingmyexams
[
06/
12,
19:
12]Lynne:Chapt
er5

Sot
odaywear
efi
nal
lybur
yingmom peopl
ewer
e
runningaroundsomeeat i
ng, somegett
ingwat ert
o
bathsothatwecangot othechurchwheret heywill
holdtheservice.AsformeI '
vebeenthi
nkingabout
mymom t hewhol et
imeIstil
lcan'
tbeli
evethatshe
i
snomor e,whatcanIsayt houghit
'sli
feGod
decidewhathewant edandnobodyget stoquest i
on
him.

Noma:
"Noxs,
Noxol
o"
Me:
"whatdoyouwant
?"
Noma:
"Ij
ustwant
edt
oknowhowyouhol
dingup"
Me:
"Idon'
tevenknowhowI
'
mfeel
ing,
I'
m empt
y"
Noma:
"I
'mt
rul
ysor
ry"
Me:"
Ijustwanttogeti
toveranddonewith,
these
r
elat
ivesallwal
kingar
oundasiftheycar
edforus
whentheydidn'
t"
Noma:
"Theyher
eforyou,
inf
actweal
lar
e"
Me:"
Iam al
onemnganidon'tyouunderst
andthat
?
Theyonl
ygoingtoshowtheirfakel
oveandsupport
onl
yfort
odaythenit
'sdone"
Noma:
"don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"shoul
dIl
ie?
"
Noma:
"Theyal
lseem genui
neandsi
ncer
e"
Me:
"That
'showt
heyar
enow"
Noma:
"I
t'
sti
meXol
o,l
et'
sgo"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
hasshehel
dmyhand.
.

Itookmyj acketpl acedi tonmyshoul dersIwas

wear ingabl ackdr esswi thblackTomyt akkies.we
madeourwayt ochur chonf oot,Ididn'twannar i
de
withmyf akef ami l
y.Iwant edt olaymyMot hert o
restthesamewayt hatithasonl ybeent het woof
usal ltheseyear s.Thesepeopl eshowedupand
didn'tevenputacentasacont ributi
ont omy
mot her'sfuneral.Theyal lmadet heexcuse" Itwas
toosudden"or" Wedi dn'texpecti t
,wedi dn'tsave"
meanwhi leIover headhowmucht hey'llbecashi ng
ont hef uneralpolici
est hattheyi ncludedheri n.I
t
didn'tsurpri
semet hough, mymot herwast heonl y
onewhoset tl
edf orahumbl elife.Notbychoi ce
though, butbecauseherf ami l
yexcl udedher .When
herownmot herwasgr avel yil
l,shewast heonl y
onewhodeci dedt ogiveupherdr eamst ocar efor
herwhi lsthersiblingswentont or eal
izet heir
dreams.Shemour nedal onef orhermot her ,they
wer e" toobusy"t oevendr iveher eandseehowt hei
r
mot herwashol di
ngup.Shecar edf orhermot herall
onherown.Evendur i
ngherbur i
al, t
hevi l
lager s
wer et heoneswhohel pedher .Bl oodi st hi ckert han
wat ert heysay, butatl eastwat eri st r
anspar ent.
Wheni t'
sdi l
uted,youwi llseer ightt hroughi t
.We
arrivedatt hetentthatwer egar dasour" chur ch"
alreadyt he"familywassi tt
ingatt hef rontr aw.My
aunt yt urnedbackandsi gnaledt hatIshoul dcome
sitwi tht hem, IwantedNomat obet her e.Ineeded
forhert obet hereal estper sonIsatnextt oo.She
hasal waysbeent her ef orme, shehasal ways
shownmeherundyi ngl oyal t
y..

Iconcent
ratedonhercoff
inthatwascar r
ieshere
byavan, t
heprogr
am wasgoi ngbutmymi ndwas
notpart
akingonanythi
ng.Untilofcour
sei twasmy
t
urnt
osayaf
ewwor
ds.

Ilookedateveryone,myfami
lywassi
tti
ngf
lashi
ng
theirexpensi
vedressesandf
asci
nat
ors.
Me: "Youal lknowmewel lIam MmaBut helezi'
s
daught er
.Heronl ychil
d.LifeasIknowi thas
alwaysbeenmeandmymot her.Myf atherwassai d
tohavedi edwhenIwasver yyoung.Li fewasnever
goodf orusbutwemadei tthrough, Mamaal ways
knewhowt omakei twork.Iam gr ownasIam
todaybecauseofher ,Idon'tevenr emembergoi ng
tobedwi thanempt ystomach.Iam evensur pri
sed
thatIhaveaf ami l
y.See,Idon'tknowt hesepeopl e.
Ionl yknowt hem t odayatmymot her '
sfuneral.It'
s
truewhent heysayt hataf uneralbr ingspeopl e
toget her,eveni fsomeoft hem l i
veundert her ock.I
don' thavemucht osayot herthant hateveryone
her eknewmymot her,
exceptf orthest rangers
joiningust odaywhoar esitti
ngatt hef rontrow.Al l
thatI '
mt hankf ulforisthatmymot hermademet he
youngwomant hatIam today..Thankyou"
Iwenttosi
tdownwithmyfamil
yhavingsourfaces,
asifl
iket
heyhaveswal
lowedalotoflemons.

Mymot herwasneveraf rai

dtovoiceheropi nionor
beonet omincewor ds,shewasalwayspur einher
i
nt enti
onsandt r
ueinheract i
ons.Iwasl oved, she
didn'tgivemethewor ldbutshegavemeherl ove.
AsIgof orwar
d,Irememberherst rengthandpur it
y,
herf i
ercespir
it
,hergenerousheart,sensit
ivi
ty, and
hersenseofhumor .Throughoutherlif
eand
especiallyi
nherfightagainstdi
abetes,shenever
gaveup.Sheonl ygaveupwhenherl astbreath
escapedherl i
ps.

IknowMom wi l
lforeverbewithmei nspiri
t.
Goodbyesareonlyforthosewhol ovewiththei
r
eyes,
becauseforthosewhol ovewi t
hheartand
soult
hereisnosucht hingasseparati
on.Iloveyou
Mom, Resti
npeaceMmaBut hel
ezi".

Af
tert
hatwhatwasl
efti
nthepr
ogr
am wewentt
o
thegraveyard,
hercof
fi
nlai
dnextt
oheret
ernal
placeofrest
.

Pastor:
"nguMbheki seniKaShibelaButhelezi
eMcakwi ni,si
dabukakanjenauBut heleziuzale
Ndaba, Shenge,Ngwane, Nyathi,Mlambo, Shebeni,
Nonkonkel a,uNonkonkelawaganwauMnt wana
OkaSithayi,uMntwanaShi bel
auzal waeNdl unkulu
kaZuluuzalwai NkosazanaKaMnt wanaSi thayi
kaMbuzikaNdabaeSi godlwenieGazini,Lokoza
,uMthulisazwel al
angoXol ont ombozane"

Whent hecoffi
nwaslower ed,myheartsankdown
wit
hit.TodayIdidn'
thaveanyt ear
s,t
hosewho
coul
dcr ycri
edforher.If
eltveryempt
y, mytear
s
haddriedup.

LI
ZOKUHLE
Igl
anceddownather,shel
aiddownsopeaceful
ly.
Apartofmedi
dn'teventhi
nkthatshewasgone,
shewassl eepi
ngandunfortunat
elyshewasnever
goingtowakeup.MyAunthadhi ddenthatshehad
l
ungcancer ,maybehershameofbei ngachr oni
c
smokerformor ethan30yearswast hereasonshe
hidthi
sfrom us.Ifeel
shewasscar edthatshewas
goingtobejudged..
Thiswomanwasmor et
hananAuntt ome, shewas
mymot her .Shelovedmewhenmyownmot her
couldn'tloveme, shecouldn'
tchangemywaysbut
herlovewasneveruncondi ti
onal
.Ilostawoman
thatIloveddear l
y, awomanwhodi dn'tdeser
veto
dieli
ket his.Ifel
tahandonmyshoul der.
.
Ma:Goose,
themor
guepeopl
ear
eher
e
Shediedinherbedroom,shewenttosl
eepl
ast
nightandneverwokeup.Thatcoughwasherl
ast
,
I'
l
lneverseeheragain.
.
[
06/
12,
19:
12]Lynne:Chapt
er6

Noxol
o
Soaft
erthefuner
alpeopl
ewenttotheirhomesbut
someofmyf amil
ymember ssai
dtheywi l
lgo
TommorowandIam okaywi tht
hatevenaunt ysai
d
shewil
ldri
veTommor owtodaysheistir
edallshe
needi
saherbeaut ysl
eepnotmywor dsbuthers.

Noma:"what
everyouar
ethi
nki
ngaboutyoumust
snapoutofi
tfri
endwehavetofi
nisht
hosepl
ates
befor
eIgo"
Me:
"OhhIf
orgotyouar
egoi
ngbackt
oday"
Noma: "
it
'snotli
keIdon'twanttostaywithyouhere
youknowmysi tuat
ionandIhavetobet hereformy
si
blingsyouknow"Nomal angaistheonewho
makessur ethateveryonewenttobedwi thful
l
stomachs,somet i
messhesl eepswithpeople
aroundthevill
ageandt heypayherforthat"
Me:
"Mnganiyouhavet
ost
opsel
li
ngyour
sel
f"
Noma: "
Idon'tneedyourj
udgementNoxol
oand
besidesthatwherewil
ligett
hemoneytofeed
them"
Me:"
Iam not
..Nomal
angapl
easef
ri
endImeant
hey
gi
veyouR50mngani"
Nomalanga:
"Atl
eastwit
hthatmoneywecanget2
packet
sofchickenfeet
s"
Me:
"Il
oveyouokayandIam sur
ethatal
lwi
llbe
wel
l"
Noma:
"Solongyoukeepyourj
udgmentcomment
s
t
oyour
self
"
Me:
"Iwi
ll
..l
et'
sfi
nishupIal
sohavet
opackmy
mom st
aff"
Noma:
"Sowhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odowi
them"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowfri
endmaybeIcant
ryt
ogi
vet
hem
awayeventhought
heynotf
ancy"
Noma:
"wel
ldot
hatmngani"

Ismi l
edatherthenweconti
nuedwashingour
dishesaft
erthatNomalangawenthomeasformeI
wasi nourroom packi
ngmymom' sstaf
f.
Aunt
y:"
Nox"
Il
ookedather
..
.
Me:"
Aunt
y"
Aunt
y:"
Weneedyouout
side,
ther
e'sameet
ing"
Me:
"whatmeet
ingIdon'
tknowanyt
hingabouta
meet
ing"
Aunty:
"dr
opthatat
ti
tude,
don'tt
hinkwefor
got
aboutyouspeaki
ngil
laboutusatchur
chinfr
ontof
thewholevi
ll
age"
Ikeptmycool
..
Aunt
y"buya"
Il
eftever
ythi
ngandwal
kedoutwi
thher
.

Ever
yonewasseat
ed,meaningtheydi
scussed
somethi
ngbef
oreIevensatdown.

Uncl
e1:"
Noxol
oyoumustbequest
ioni
ngyour
sel
f
what
'sgoi
ngonher
e"
Inodded.
..
Uncl
e'
swife1:"Babygi
rlwedeci
dedtohol
dthi
s
meet
ingsothatwecandecidewhatt
odoaboutyou
"
Me:"Aboutme?Withal
lduerespectaunt
yIam abi
g
gi
rlIcantakecar
eofmyself
"
Uncle:
"wewon'
tall
owthattohappen,youare
youngandyoucan'tst
ayhereal
one.Aftert
hatl
it
tl
e
speechyougave,
whatwillt
hevi
ll
agerssay"
Me:
"wel
lthankyoubutIwantt
oli
veher
einmy
mot
her'
shouse"
Aunty:
"Weareyourel
der
sandwehaveal ready
spoken.Youdon'
thaveajob,
younotatschool.
Whatkindofli
fear
eyougoingtohave?
"
Ir
emai
nedqui
et.
.
Aunty:
"BabyIwasthi
nki
ngsi
nceIli
vewit
hmytwo
pri
ncessesandwe'
vegotaverybi
gspacewhy
don'
tyoucomewi t
hme"
Me:"
AsfarasIwanttogoandexploretheworld
aunt
yIam afr
aidIcan'
tgoIcan'
tjustabondenmy
mom'
shouse"
Aunt
y:"Hel
angaBagolo!Someonet
ellt
hischi
ldt
hat
shedoesn'
thaveachoice"
Uncl
e:"
YourAuntmeanswel
lXol
o"
Me"I
'
m sor
ry"
Uncl
e:"
Justt
hinkabouti
t"
Me:
"Thankyou.
.Excuseme"
Aunty:
"Iam goi
ngbackt
omor
rowi
ncaseyou
changeyourmind"
Me:
"okay"

Istoodupwentinsidetheroundveltoconti
nue
packingherst
uffaftert
hatIshi
ftedtheboxt hentr
y
tofindaspacetolaymyheadwhi l
eont hataunty
bargedin

Aunty:"
Youknowbabygir
litIwer
eyouIwould'
ve
consideredt
heoppor
tuni
tyofgoi
ngtoGaut
engwith
me"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowaunt
ylookIfeell
ikeIam l
eavi
ng
mymom behindwhataboutmyf r
iendaunt
y"
Aunty:"
Thisisaboutyouandyourfut
ure,
stop
thi
nkingaboutfri
endsthatwon'
tgetyouanywher
e.
Star
tthinki
ngaboutyoursel
fandyourfut
ure"
Inodded.
.
Aunt
y:"
leti
tsi
nki
n"

Ihatet oagr eewithherbutshei sr i

ghtIdon'twant
todiei nthisplace..Iwanttoencour agekidsofthis
vil
laget hateverythingi
spossi bleyouhavet owor k
hardi nordert osucceed,allIwantinmyl i
feisto
becomeal awyer.Iwantever yonetobepr oudof
meIwantmamat obepr oudofmewher eversheis
IguessIhavet oacceptaunty'sofferIhope
Gaut engdoesn' tchangeme. ..
[
06/
12,
19:
12]Lynne:Chapt
er7

Thefol
lowingmorningIwokeupandprepar
ed
myself
,lastni
ghtIhadalott
othi
nkaboutandI
've
fi
nal
lymademydeci
sion.I
'
m goi
ngt
otakemy
Aunt
'sof
fer
.

Aunt
y:"
Mor
ning"
Me:
"Mor
ningaunt
y"
Aunt
y:"
Hopeyout
houghtaboutmyof
fer
"
Me:"yesIdi
d,andIwoul
dli
ket
ost
aywi
thyouand
yourfamil
y"
Shesmi
led.
.
Aunt
y:"
Youwon'
tregr
et"
Me:"
Ihopenot
"
Aunt
y:"
Iknowthatyoudon'
tli
keus,nortr
ustus.I
'm
doi
ngthissot
hatyoucanseewecar e.Iwasthe
onl
yonewhoagr eedt
otakeyou,pl
easedon't
di
sappoi
nt"
Me:"
Ipr
omi
set
hatIwon'
t"
Mydream ofgett
ingoutofherehasfi
nall
ycome
t
rue,
Ineverthoughtofl
eavingli
kethi
sthoughbut
l
if
ehasit
'sownpl ans.
Me:
"Iwouldl
iketogoandsaygoodbyet
o
Nomalangabefor
eweleave"
Her
:"
Don'
ttakel
ong,
it'
sal
ongt
ri
p"

Ismi
ledathert
henr
ant
oNomal
anga'
shouse

Me:
"Mngani
!!
Noma:
"hai
bowhyar
eyour
unni
ngt
hismor
ning"
Shecameoutofherhousehol
dingabucketofdi
rt
y
water

Me:
"MnganiI
'
vecamet
osaymygoodbyes"
Noma:
"Yourgoodbyes?Wher
eyougoi
ng"
Me:"
Wellmydreamsofl
eavi
ngt
hispl
acehave
f
inal
lycomet
rue"
Noma:
"don'
tspeaki
nri
ddl
es"
Me:"
Okaysl
ist
enmyAuntaskedmet
omovei
nwi
th
her
"
Noma:"
wai
tmoveinwi
thherasi
nli
kegoi
ngt
o
Gaut
engwi
thher
"
Me:
"Yes!
"
Noma:"
Iam happyf
oryoubutar
eyousureabout
t
his?Di
dn'
tyousayyoudon'
tknowthesepeopl
e?"
Me:
"Whatchoi
cedoIhave?
"
Noma:
"Soyouwanttoleaveeveryt
hinghereandgo
t
oGautengyouwanttoleaveyourchil
dhood
memor
ies"
Me:"NoNomal angapleaseunderstandthatI'
m
goingtoGautengtoreali
zemydr eams.I '
m goingto
Gautengbecausethere'
snothingleftf
ormeher e
anymore"
Noma:
"wel
lit
'sagoodbyet
hen"
Me:"
Iknowthatt
hisi
sdi
ff
icul
tbutwewi
llvi
siteach
ot
herIpromi
se"
Noma:
"Justdon'
tfor
getmewhenyoust
artmaki
ng
i
t"
Me:
"Iwi
llnever
"
Noma:
"Wel
lIhopeyoudon'
tcamebackwi
thababy
bump"
Me:
"Iam notgoi
ngt
her
eforboys"
Noma:"hopesomnganipr
otectyour
sel
fdontl
et
anyonestandi
nyourway"
Noma:"Iwi
llandIwi
llcomebackever
ymont
hto
checkyou"
Noma:
"comeher
e"

Iwentandhuggedher
,itwasanemot
ionalmoment
forbot
hofus.

Noma:
"don'
tcr
ymngani
"
Me:
"Iam goi
ngt
omi
ssyouf
ri
end"
Me:"
met
oobutIunder
standwhyyouchoset
his
pat
h"
Me:"
thankyouforunderst
andi
ng,
Iwi
llcal
lyou
whenIgettothebigci
ty"
Noma:"
okayIwi
llgot
otheshopsandchar
gemy
phone"
Me:
"Goodbyef
ri
end"
Her
:"
Goodbye"

Ihuggedherf
orthelastt
imethenIretur
nedhome,
myAuntwasal r
eadyputt
ingherluggagebagi
nthe
car.

Aunt
y:"
ri
ghtont
ime"
Me:
"I
'l
lgogetmyt
hings"
Aunt
y"Hur
ry"
Me:
"yesaunt
y"

Iwalkedbackinsidetopackeveryt
hingofmi ne,
I
didn'
thaveniceclot
hesbutwhatchoi cedoIhave?
MyMot herandIwewer en'
tri
ch.Thi
si sabig
changeandIam adamantt omakemymot her
proud..
_
___
___
___
_
LI
ZOKUHLE
Ma:Wel
comehomeGoose
Shehuggedme.
.Ihuggedherback
Ma:Iknowthatyoudon'
twantt
obeher
ebutyou
havenochoi
ce
MyAunt '
sDaught erwil
lbet akingoverthehouse,
she'
llbel
ivingwi t
hherkids.Whi chleftmeno
choi
cebutt omovei nwithmyMot herandher
Husband.Thef ami l
yhasdeci dedthatwenotgoing
tohaveaf uneral,
wegoingt ocr emateher.
Apparent
lyt hat
'swhatshewant ed..
Ma:Doyoul
iket
her
oom?
Me:I
t'
snotbad,
justt
hatI
'
m not8
Shel
aughed.
.
Her
:Ij
ustwant
edyout
ofeel
athome
Me:Thankyou
Her
:GooseIknowthatal
othashappenedbet
ween
usandI
'm hopi
ngt
hiswil
lbeastar
tofagoodlif
e
f
oral
lofus
Me:Ihopesot
oo.
..
[
06/
12,
19:
12]Lynne:Chapt
er8

Noxol
o

Thetri
pwasl ong,Idar
ednott
osleep.Ikepton
star
ingoutofthewindowbusyadmiri
ngallthe
beauti
fulpl
acesthatwewerepassi
ng.

Aft
erwhatseemedl
ikef
orever
,wef
inal
lydr
ovei
nto
t
hisbi
ghouse.

Me:
”Aunt
ydoyoul
iveher
e”
Aunt
y:”
yesbabycomeonl
et'
sgol
eavet
hebags”
Me:
”Ican'
tleavemybagsher
eaunt
y
Aunt
y:”
don'
twor
ryIwi
llaskt
heguar
dtobr
ingt
hem
t
oyourroom”
wow,
soI
'
vegotmyownr
oom.
Me:
”Thankyouaunt
y”
Aunt
y:"
Don'
twor r
yIam doingthi
sforyourmom I
meanit
snotlikeIam goi
ngtoberai
singastr
anger
,
youar
emyni ece”
Me:
”Iam l
ooki
ngf
orwar
dofst
ayi
ngher
ewi
thyou"
Aunty:
”ComeIam sur
ethatt
hatt
hegi
rl
sar
eso
eagert
omeetyou”
Me:
”I
'dl
ovet
omeett
hem"
Mymom t ol
dmet
hataft
erthedeat
hofthei
r
par
ents,
myauntmovedtoJoburgandnever
l
ookedback.
Aunty:
"stopwhat
everyouar
ethi
nki
ngaboutcome
l
et'
sgoi n"
Shesmi l
edt hent
ookmyhand, wewalkedinsi
dethe
houseandf oundtwogirl
sdri
nkingsomethi
ngredin
theirglasses.Iam sur
ewhateveri
twastheywere
enjoyingitcausethebott
lewasabouttobeempty..
Aunt
y:”
Gir
lsmom i
sback"
Gir
l1:"mom we'
vebeenwor
ri
edsi
ckaboutyouand
yourphonewasoff
”
Aunty:”
Youknowvill
agesnetworkyouhavetofi
rst
cl
imbt hemount
ainsot hati
tcanconnect
”thegi
rls
burstoutwi
thalaughter.
Gir
l2:”
mountai
n?mamat hankGodIdon'
thave
rel
ati
vesbackathome”
Aunt
y:”
enoughaboutmytr
ipNol
waziandZodwa
meetNoxol
oyourcousi
n”
Theybot
hlookedatme.
.
Aunt
y:"
Shewi
llbest
ayi
ngwi
thusf
rom nowon"
Theybot
hdi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingf
oral
ongt
ime.
Zodwa:
"uhm wel
comehomeIguess!
!"
Nol
wazi
:"
Whati
sshewear
ing?
"
Theybot hlaughed.Itdidn'ttakemucht hinki
ngto
noticethattheywerespoi ledrotten.
..
Idon'tt
hinkI
l
iket hem,Idon'tl
ikepeopl ewhot hi
nkthatli
fe
revolvesaroundthem.Idon' tlikepeoplewhol ook
downont helessfortunate.
Aunty:
"Maybeyougi
rl
scantakeheroutshoppi
ng
forni
cecl
othes,
andpl
ayni
ce"
MyAuntlef
tther
oom.Iwast
ir
ed,
allIwant
edwas
t
orest
..
Me:
"t
hankyouguysf
orwel
comi
ngme"
Zodwa:"
Maybelet
'sgotomyroom andf
ind
somethi
ngsui
tabl
eforyout
owear"
Me:"
okay"
Nol
wazi:
"CountmeoutZodwaIam t
ir
edyouknowI
t
oldyouthatI
'vebeenupt
hewhol
enight"
Zodwar
oll
edherbi
geyes.
.
Zodwa:
"Nopr
obl
em asl
ongasIgett
ochowmom'
s
money"
Nol
wazi
:"What
ever
"
Wewal
kedt
oherr
oom.
.
Me:
"ZodwaI
'
dli
ket
orestf
ir
st"
Zodwa:"
Ther
e'snot
imef
orr
est
,maybel
ater
def
ini
tel
ynotnow"
Me:
"Lookwewi
llgowhenI
'
ver
est
edabi
t"
Ij
ustwant
edt
obeal
onef
orawhi
le.
.
Me:
"Canyoupl
easeshowmewher
ewi
llIsl
eep?
"

Zodwashowedmet omynewr oom.I

twas
beauti
ful
,fort
heveryf
ir
stti
meI '
l
lbesl
eepi
ngona
bed.Iwalkedtoi
tandsatdown..
Me:
"Thankyou"
Zodwa:
"Youwel
come"
Shel
eft
..
It
'sgoi
ngt
obehardt
oadjustt
othi
snewlif
e,Iwas
alr
eadymi
ssi
nghome.Imisst
helovet
hatexi
sted
undermyMom'sr
oof
..

Aft
erwhatseemedl i
kehour sIwokeup, Iwentto
t
hesi t
ti
ngroom foundt hem t
alki
ng.Idon'tknow
whattheyweretalki
ngaboutbecausewhenI
walkedint
heykeptqui et.
Zodwa:
"Sohowdi
dyour
est
"
Me:
"okay"
Zodwa:"
Alr
ightgoandbat
hI'
l
lbr
ingyousomet
hing
towearsothatwecango"
Me:
"Okay"

Iwentandbat he, Zodwashowedmehowt o

operatetheshowert aps.WhenIwasdone, Iwore
herjeansandt -shirt
.Thejeansnolongerfither.It
hasn'tbeenaweeksi nceI
'vemovedin,alr
eadyt hey
werechangingme.I '
m notcompl
aini
ngt hough,
maybet heyjustdon' twantmetoembar rasst hem,
thi
sisabi gcit
yandpeopl ewholiveherear e
probablyri
ch.Al lofthem..

Zodwa:
"ar
eyoudoneNox"sheshout
ed
Me:
"Yesumm Iam comi
ng"

Iwentdownst
air
sfoundherr
eadyt
ogo
Zodwa:
"wel
lyoudon'
tlookt
hatbadcomel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"wai
thowol
dar
eyouZodwa?
"
Zodwa:
"Iam 26andNol
azwii
s16"
Me:
"Ar
eyoust
udyi
ng"
shebur
stoutwi
thheri
rr
it
ati
ngl
aught
er
Zodwa:
"who?Meandbooksnogi
rl"
Me:
"Sowhatdoyoudof
oral
ivi
ng"
Zodwa:
"Ihust
legi
rl
"
Inoddedmyhead
Me:
"Okaysl
et'
sgot
hen"
Zodwa:
"l
et'
swai
tforanUber
"
Me:
"Okay"

Wewai
tedf
ewminut
esunt
ilacarpul
ledupnextt
o
t
hegat
eandwegoti
n.
Zodwa:
"Rel
axwoul
dyou?
"
Me:
"I
'mt
ryi
ng"
Her:
"Youi
nJohannesburggir
l,i
t'
sever
ygir
l'
svi
ll
age
dr
eam tocomehere.Youareabouttol
ivet
heli
feso
behappy"
If
akedasmi
le.
.

LI
ZOKUHLE

Icl
osedt
hebr
ochur
eandl
ookedatt
hem.
Me:Idon'
twannagot
oschool
Ma:Yourmatr
icresul
tswereout
standi
ng,
you'
ve
al
wayswantedtodoengineer
ing
Me:"
Want
ed"notanymor
e
Davi
d:Youcanst
il
lgo
Me:Not
hankyou
Ma:Goose
Me:I
fI'
m goi
ngt
obel
ivi
ngher
e,pl
easeal
lowmet
o
domyownt
hing
Davi
d:Const
ant
lybr
eaki
ngt
hel
aw?
Me:Ihust
leandgetmyown
Davi
d:I
fyougoingt
obestayi
ngundermyr
oof
,you
won'
tbebreaki
nganyl
aw
Me:Ther
eiti
s,waswonder
ingwhent
hatwasgoi
ng
t
ocomeup
Ma:Li
zo!
Me:Idon'
twannali
vehere,I
'
mj usther
ebecauseI
havenowheretogofornowbutassoonasIgetmy
shi
ttoget
herI'
l
lbemovingout!
Myphonebeeped,i
twasamessagef
rom my
gi
rl
fr
iendZodwa.
.
Me:Excuseme
Igotupandread,shewant
edustogooutt
oni
ght
.
That'
sbet
ter
,Ineedabreat
herf
rom mypar
ent
s.
[
06/
12,
19:
13]Lynne:Chapt
er9
Thef oll
owingmor ningIwokeupst retchedmyar ms
up, t
henr ol
ledoutoft hebedwentbat hroom and
freshenupaf terthatIr eturntomyr oom wor emy
pinksummerdr esswi thbeachTom t henf ixmybed.
IthinkZodwai srightImustl osenupabi tIam i n
Jo'burg.ImeanImustchangemyl ook, Iknowt hatI
cameher etost udyandal lofthatbutImustal so
l
ookl ikesomeonewhol ovesher self.Isai dthatin
myt houghtswhi l
egoi ngt otheki tchen, Iam
thinki
ngofmaki ngt hem abr eakf astat l
eastt oshow
them thatIam gr atefulofwhatt heyar edoingfor
me.Whoam Iki ddingIam usedatcooki ngporridge
andIt hinkaunt yeatsaf ancybr eakfastandIdon' t
evenknowhowt opr epareitmaybei fIaskZodwa
tohelpme.

Me:"
Zodwa"I'
vebeencal
li
ngherf
orl
ikef
ivet
imes
t
hisgir
lcansl
eep
Me:
"Zodwa"
Zodwa:
"WhatdoyouwantNoxol
o?"
Me:
"Sor
ryt
owakeyouupbutIneedyourhel
p"
Zodwa:
"Whathel
p?can'
tyouseeher
ethatI
'
m st
il
l
sl
eepi
ng?
Me:"Ohhsorryt
owakeyouup,
youcangobackt
o
yoursleep"
Iwal
kedoutofherr
oom IguessIwi
llhavet
ofi
gur
e
i
toutonmyown.

Idecidedtocookpor
ri
dgeaddi
ngbut
teri
t'
sbeen
whilesinceIhadapor
ri
dgemixedwi
thbut
terhope
theyenjoyit
.

Aunty:"
Ohhyoumadebreakf
ast
"shesai
dthat
ent
eringtheki
tchen"
Me:
"YesIwant
edt
osayt
hankyouaunt
y"
Aunt
y:"
Thankyou"
Me:
"Doyouwantmet
odi
shoutf
oryou?
Aunt
y:"
Whatdi
dyoucook"
Me:
"IcookedAf
ri
canpor
ri
dgemi
xedwi
thbut
ter
"
Aunty:"
Wel
lIdon'
tli
ket
hatbutsi
nceIam st
arvi
ngI
wil
ltry"
Me:"
Okaygoandsi
tdownIwi
llbr
ingt
hebr
eakf
ast
nownow"
Aunt
y:"
Pleasehur
rybef
oreIdi
e"
Me:
"Okay"
shewentt
osi
tatt
het
abl
easf
orme,
Idi
shedupf
or
her
..
Me:
"Enj
oy"
Aunt
y:"
hopeIdon'
tdi
e"
Me:
"Don'
twor
ryaunt
yyouar
etooyougt
odi
e"
Aunt
y:"
Youneverknow"
Me:
"Tr
ustmeIam t
ooi
nnocent
"
Aunt
y:"
Okaymi
ssi
nnocentsi
tdown"
Me:
"al
ri
ghtsoaunt
ywhenwi
llIst
artmyst
udi
es"
Aunt
y:"
That
'sbi
g"
Me:
"Iwantt
omakemymom pr
oud"
sher
oll
edhereyes.
.
Aunt
y:"
Yourmom isdeadeveni
fsheispr
oudof
youhowwil
lyouknowthatshei
sproudofyou"
Me:
"Sor
ryaunt
yIwi
llst
opt
alki
ngabouther"
Voi
ce:
"mor
nings"
i
twasNol
wazi
..
Aunt
y:"
SitdownNoxol
owi
lldi
shoutf
oryou"
Nol
wazi
:"
whatar
eyoueat
ingmama"
Aunt
y:"noxol
ocookedt
hisdel
ici
ouspor
ri
dge"
Nol
wazi
:"
mepor
ri
dgenot
hankyouIwi
llpass"
Aunt
y:"
tr
ustmenoxol
o'scooki
ngski
ll
sar
eonpoi
nt"
Nolwazi
:"
Zodwacanyoubel
ievemom i
seat
ing
Afr
icanporr
idge"
Shesai
dthatt
oZodwawhowasgr
abbi
ngachai
rto
si
tdown..
Zodwa:
"Mor
ning,
wel
lther
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
th
that
"
Nol
wazi
:"
OkayIwi
llor
deri
nthen"
Zodwa:
"pl
usI
'
vebeencr
avi
ngf
ort
hese"
Nolwazi
:"
Mxm whenar
eyoumeet
ingyourboyf
ri
end
Zodwa"
Zodwa:"
Idon'
tknowLi
zohavebeengi
vingmecol
d
shoul
der"
Nol
wazi
:"
Youknowi
tver
ywel
lthatyoumangot
moodswings"
Zodwa:
"Andi
tisst
ressi
ngmeout
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Givehimthepussyyouwi
llseehewi
ll
al
waysmissyou"
Zodwa:
"Doyouthi
nkI
'
ddat
ewi
thsomeonewi
thout
sl
eepi
ngwitht
hem"
Nolwazi:
"Youwantt
otel
lmet
hatyoual
readysl
ept
wit
hlizo"
Me:
"Aunt
y"
Ithoughtmaybeshewillaskthem tostopt
hei
r
conversat
ionbutheyshejustlookedatmethen
conti
nuedeati
ngherfood
Zodwa:
"Tr
ustmeLi
lsi
sIal
readysl
eptwi
thhi
m"
Nol
wazi
:"
maybeyouwer
en'
tri
dinghi
m wel
l
"
Zodwa:
"Shi
tNol
waziIknowIam good"
Nol
wazi
:"
wel
lfuckhi
m agai
n"
Zodwa:
"Iwi
llt
ry"
Me:
"Umm excuseme"
Aunty:
"Wher
ear
eyougoi
ngnoxol
ofi
rstf
ini
shyour
food"
Me:
"Okay"

Iat
emyf oodinsilentaf t
erthatIl
eftthem wentt
o
myroom thencleanit,that'
sitIam goingtoask
Zodwatodomymakeup.Iwant edtot r
yit
,she
l
ookedbeauti
fulyesterday.

Me:
"Zodwacanyoupl
easechangeme"
Zodwa:
"Idon'
tunder
standyouwhatdoyoumean"
Me:"LookIunder
standIam i
nGautengIwantt
o
changemyl ookpl
easeIwanttot
rymakeup"
Zodwa:
"Whyal
lofat
hesudden?"
Me:"
LookZodwaItol
dmyselft
hatwhenIgett
o
Jobur
gIwanttochangemysel
f"
Zodwa:
"Okaysi
tdownt
hen"
Me:
"Al
ri
ght"

Isati
nfr
ontoft
hemi
rr
orshedi
dhermagi
conmy
face.
.
[
06/
12,
19:
13]Lynne:Chapt
er10

Noxol
o

Zodwa:
"Am done"
Shel
ookedatme.
.
Zodwa:
"youl
ookgr
eat"
Il
ookedatmysel
fint
hemi
rr
or.Il
ookeddi
ff
erent
..
Me:
"Thankyou"
Zodwa:
"Makeupsui
tsyou,
yougoi
ngt
otur
nheads"
Me:"
ThankyoubutIwi
llpassIam nother
eforboys
Zodwa"
Zodwa:"
AsI'vesai
dyouneedt
oloosenupabi
t,you
arest
il
lyoung"
Me:"
IknowZodwabutIwantt
ogetmyl
if
ebacki
n
or
derthent
herestwi
llf
oll
ow"
Zodwa:
"That
'sgoodbutpl
easel
iveal
it
tl
e"
Me:
"Tr
ustmeZodwaIdon'
thavet
imef
orboys"
Zodwa:
"Okaysanywayl
et'
str
ythi
sweave"
Me:
"Ohh"
Zodwa:
"I
'vegotl
otofweavesyoucankeepi
tifyou
want"
Me:
"uhm t
hankyouIguess"
Zodwa:
"Nopr
obl
em youl
ookf
ant
ast
icNoxol
o"
Me:"
thankyou,canyoubeli
eveitthatyouarethe
f
ir
stpersontot
ellmethatIam beauti
fulbesi
des
mom"
Zodwa:
"That
'ssadt
houghtyou'
vehear
ditbef
ore"
Me"AnywayIhear
dyoutal
kingaboutyour
boyf
ri
endwithNol
wazi
"
Zodwa:
"Yeshi
snamei
sLi
zo"
Me:
"Yousoundver
ymuchi
nlove"
Zodwa:
"Idol
ovehi
m,he'
sagr
eatguy"
Me:
"okay"
Zodwa:
"hi
sabi
thar
dheadedbuthe'
sgood"
Me:
Soyouar
enotl
ongeravi
rgi
n"
Shel
aughed.
..
Zodwa:"Noxswhi
chworl
dareyoul
ivi
ngi
neven
Nolwaziisnol
ongeravi
rgi
n"
Me:
"Ser
ious?
"
Zodwa:
"Dontwor
ryyouwi
llgetusedt
othi
sli
fe"
Wewer
edi
stur
bedbyaunt
y..

Zodwa:
"Mamawhatdoyouwant
"
Aunt
y:"
Ineedyourhel
pguysthere'
sthi
sgirlshe
di
dn'
tshowupf orwor
ktoday,Ineedastandin"
Zodwa:
"Youwantust
oent
ert
aint
hecl
ient
s"
Aunt
y:"
Nonogi
rl
sIneedwai
tr
esses"
Zodwa:
"Kodwamama"
Aunt
y:"
PleaseIwi
llmakei
tupt
oyou"
Zodwa:
"Okaywewi
llcome"
Aunt
y:"
Thankyou"
shewentout
..
.
Zodwa:
"Wehaveaj
obt
odo"
Me:
"whatcl
ient
s?"
Zodwa:
"You'
l
lsee"
Me:
"Okayl
etmegoandwashmymakeupsot
hat
wecango"
Zodwa:
"Ther
e'snot
imenoxoxl
oleavei
tli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"Okayl
etmewearmyshoest
hen"
Zodwa:
"Sur
elet
'sgo"

Wewal
kedoutandmyAuntwasal
readywai
ti
ngf
or
usi
nthecar
..

Aunt
y:"
Hopemycl
ient
sar
enotmad"
Zodwa:
"Ihopesot
oo"
Aunt
y:"
WhenshecomesbackI
'
mfi
ri
ngher
"
Zodwa:
"That
'sext
remedon'
tyout
hink"
Aunt
y:"
Wher
emymoneyi
sconcer
ned,
Idon'
tpl
ay"
Zodwa:
"I
'mj
ustsayi
ngf
ir
ingheri
swayt
oo
ext
reme"

Wedroveforawhi
leunt
ilweendedupinthi
sot
her
pl
ace,i
twasabighousetoo.Shedr
ovein.
.

Aunt
y:"
Zodwayouwi
llshowNoxwhatt
odo"
Me:
"whatdoyoumeanaunt
y"
Aunt
y:"
Zodwawi
llshowyou"
Zodwa:
"Let
'sgo"
Wegotof
fhercar
..

Me:
"ZodwaIam scar
ed"
Zodwa:
"Scaredofwhat
?Weher
etoser
vedr
inks
andent
ertai
nthat'
sal
l"
Me:
"ent
ert
aint
hem i
nwhatway"
Zodwa:
"Not
hingmaj
orj
ustt
alkandsmi
le"
Me:
"Ohw"
Zodwa:
"Smil
eandmaket
hem f
eelwel
comesot
hey
spendmoremoney"
Me:
"okay"

Shesmiledaswemadeourwayi n.Thepl acewas

heavi
lyguarded,
whichmademeuncomf ortabl
e.
Thosemenwi thgunsscar
edmeal i
tt
le.Ididn't
knowwher eIwasgoingsoIf
oll
owedZodwa. .
Zodwa:
"let
'sgoandchange"
Wewal kedupst ai
rstochange, al
lther
oomswer e
closedandIhear dnoisecomi ngdownstai
rs.Men
talki
ng.
.Wegott oacertainroom andwechanged,
tomor ereveal
ingclothes.Ididn'
tli
ket
hisatal
l,
thi
s
i
snotme.
Zodwa:
"Pul
li
ngi
twon'
tmakei
tlonger
"
Me:
"I
'm uncomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
his"
Zodwa:"Noxol
oyouthinkagoodli
fecomescheap?
Itdoesn'
tanditwon'
t,
youpartofourf
amil
ynow
andthisiswhatwedo"
Me:
"Whati
sthi
spl
ace?
"
Hi
m: "I
t'
sabr
othelbutdon'
ttel
lanyoneorMom wi
ll
ki
llyou"
Me:
"What
'saBr
othel
"
Her
:"
Youwi
lll
ear
nal
ongt
heway"
Shel
ookedather
sel
fint
hemi
rr
or.
.
Zodwa:
"Let
'sgo"
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Walkingi ntothatr oom wasl ikewalkingi ntoal i
on's
den.Thosemenkeptqui etasImademywayi n,the
heelswer eevenadi stract
ion.IfIdon' tsprainmy
ankleI'l
lbel ucky.Idon' tknowwhataBr othelisbut
I'
m verysur ethati t'
snotagoodt hing, al
lthesemen
gatheredher etheymustbehearf ormal i
ci ous
i
ntentions.Ever ythingaboutt hiswasmaki ngme
uncomf ort
able,thest ares,theirbreathing,the
smokeoft heirbigl ookingci garet
tesmademe
nauseat ed.Oneevenhadt heaudi cit
yt olickhislips
whilstlookingatme, Ihadt ogetoutofher e.Ihad
togetoutofher er ightnow! !!

JustasIwasst
eppi
ngbackhopi
ngIdon'
ttr
ip,
I
bumpedint
osomeone.MyAuntpul
ledmeout.
Me:"
Aunt
yIcan'
tdot
his"
Her
:"Li
stent
omeXol
o"
Ishookmyheadandsheshookmevi
olent
ly.
Her
:"Youar
eundermycar
enowandl
it
tl
egi
rlyou
notyounganymor e.Youneedtoopenyoureyes,
youar eatanacceptabl
eagetotakecareof
yourselfandt
hisisasmal l
pri
cetopay!Noxol
onot
everyt
hingisati
tseems, agoodli
fehasasmall
pri
cet opay"
Sheputherhandonmycheek.
Her:
"Youwannagobackt
othatvi
ll
age?Di
epoor
l
ikeyourMom?"
Me:
"NoAunt
y"
Her
:"Thengobacki
nther
eandmakemepr
oud"
Me:
"Idon'
tevenknowwhatt
odo"
Her:
"Youjustgotothet
abl
easki
ftheywant
somethi
ngtodrink"
Shel
if
tedmychi
nup.
Her:
"Youwillhavebeaut
if
ulthings,
youwil
levengo
toschoolbutyouneedtowor kfori
t.Li
fei
sli
kethat
sweethear
t,li
feher
eisli
kethat"
Shehel
dmyhand.
Her
:"Gobacki
nther
eandmakemesomemoney"
Me:
"Butt
hei
rlooks"
Her:
"Theywon'tf
orcethemsel
vesonyou!They
knowtheprot
ocol.Thesear
egrownmen,notli
tt
le
boys.I
'
llbest
andingbythebarandl
ooki
ngatyou"
Me:
"Okayaunt
y"
Her
:"Goodgi
rl
"
Wewal kedbacki nandIl ookedather ,she
mumbl edthewor ds"go".Ilookedar oundand
Zodwawasatoneoft het abl
es, Iscannedt hrough
unti
lIsawat ableoftwoMen.Theyl ookedold.I
mademywayt othem, t
heyl ookedatme.Myhear t
st
artedbeati
ngver yfast.Ifelthotflushes,Ifelt
weaklikeI
'mj ustgoi
ngt ocol lapse..
Me:
"Goodday"
Theynodded.
.
Man1:
"Pl
easer
efi
llus"
Me:
"Yessi
r"
Iwalkedtot
hebar
,myAuntgavemeabot
tl
eof
whiskey.
Aunt
:"Becar
eful
,i
t'
sver
yexpensi
ve"
Me:"
YesAunt
y"
It
ookthebot
tl
etot
hem,
theyt
hankedmeandI
movedon.

Itwasgett
ingabi tbet
ternowbecauset heyonly
dressedmedownwi ththeireyes.Theydidn'tt
ouch
meorst ar
tanyinappropriateconversat
ionswith
me.Theywer eli
kedogswhower etrai
ned,they
fol
lowedtheprotocoltothecor e.
Aunt
:"
Her
edr
inkt
his"
Me:"
Idon'
tdr
inkal
cohol
"
Aunt
:"
Youdonow"
Il
ookedatt
hesmal
lcont
entt
hatwasi
nthegl
ass.
Her
:"I
twi
llt
aket
heedgeof
f"
Me:
"Okay"
It
ooktheglassandgulpedwhat
everi
twasdown,
mychestfel
thot.Icl
osedmyeyes.
Me:
"That
'sbi
tt
er!
"
Aunt
:"
You'
l
lbeokay"
Isatononeoft
hechai
rsandt
ookof
ftheheel
s.
Me:
"CanIpl
easet
akeabr
eak"
Aunt
:"
Ofcour
se"
Shel
ookedatt
hebar
tender
.
Aunt
:"
Giveheracockt
ail
,st
rawber
rydai
qui
ri
"
Bar
tender
:"YesMam"

Aswewer echat ti
ngwi thmyAunt y,hereyesmoved
fr
om met othedoor .Ther oom wentqui etagain,
did
anothergi
rlwal
ki n?Imovedmyeyest othedoor
andthenthisotherManwal kedin.Hewaswear i
ng
ablacksuit,
andhel ookedver yhandsome.The
j
acketwasabi ttightaroundhi sstrongarms, but
notti
ghtinawayt hatwoul dputyouof f.Hestood
atthedoorandl ookedar ound.
Aunt
:"
Whati
shedoi
ngher
esoear
ly"
Me:
"Whoi
she"
Aunt
:"
Bones"
Me:
"Whatnamei
sBones"
Aunt
:"
Someoneyoushoul
dn'
twor
ryabout
"
Judgi
ngf rom hisfacialexpressionhel ookedabi t
i
rri
tat
edbybei ngher ei nasense.MyAuntwal ked
outfr
om thebarandwentt ohim, theyspokeal itt
le
andthenshewal kedhi mtoat abl ethatwasabi tfar
awayf r
om theot hers.Isawherspeaki ngtooneof
thegi
r l
s.Thegi r
ldroppedwhatshewasdoi ngand
wenttohim.Shewast alki
ngandhewasbusywi t
h
hisbi
gphonet hathecamewi t
h, hedi dn'
tevenlook
ather.Thenhedi smi ssedherwi thhi shand, t
hat's
veryr
ude!

Itwasqui
etwhenhewal
kedi
nbutnowmusi
c
star
tedpl
ayi
ng:
"
MeandMr
s.Jones
Wegotat
hinggoi
n'on
Webot
hknowt
hati
t'
swr
ong
Buti
t'
smucht
oost
rong
Tol
eti
tgonow"
MyAuntcameback.
Aunt
:"
Pleasebr
ingourbestbot
tl
e"
Me:
"Whoi
sthat
?"
Iaskedwhi
legi
ggl
ing.
Aunt
:"
Youwayover
,gi
vehercof
fee"
Bar
tender
:"
YesMam"
Hemademesomecof
fee.
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
hat
,br
ingmet
hispi
nkt
hing"
Aunt
:"
Noxol
o!"
Igotdownf
rom t
hechai
randf
ell
,Il
aughed.
Aunt
:"
Getupyouembar
rassi
ngme"
Shewal
kedovert
ogetmeup.
Me:
"Leavemeal
one!
!"
Noweyeswer
eonus.
Aunt
:"
Youar
eembar
rassi
ngme!
"
Me:
"Ever
yoneat
tent
ionpl
ease!
"
Aunt
"Noxol
o!!"
Shegrabbedmyarminar oughway.Thenwe
st
art
edwal ki
ngt
oadiffer
entexit
.Onethatwas
cl
osetotheBonesguy.Iyankedmyhandf r
om my
Aunt
'sgri
pandwenttohim.
Me:
"Si
r"
Hemovedhi
seyesandl
ookedatme.
Me:
"Smi
leal
it
tl
eyouwayt
ooupt
ight
"
Hel
ookedatmewi
thoutsayi
nganyt
hing.
Me:
"Ohhhni
cewat
ch"
Iwal
kedovert
ohi
m andgr
abbedhi
sar
m.
Me:
"Howmuchi
sit
?"
Aunt
:"
Noxol
o!!
"
Me:
"I
'm notf
eel
inggood"
MyAuntcamet
ogr
abmeagai
nbutIf
oughther
back.
Me:
"Leavemeal
oneI
'
m notachi
ld!
!"
Aunt
:"
BonesI
'
m ver
ysor
ryaboutt
his"
Me:
"Letmego!
!!
"
WhenIyankedmyar
mfr
om hergr
ip,
Ifel
l.
Aunt
:"
Eishmaan!
!"
Shet
ri
edt
ogetmeupbutMrManst
oodup.
Hi
m:"
Pleasel
etme"
Hisvoi
cewasdeep.Hecroucheddownand
ext
endedhi
shandtome, Iext
endedminetohi
m.
Hepull
edmeuplikeIwasnothingbutapaper
.I
l
ookedathi
m andhelookedatme.
Aunt
:"
Let
'sgo"
Shedr
aggedmeawaywi
thmyeyesst
il
lgl
uedon
hi
m,andhisonme.
.
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06/
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er12

Iwokeupi nmyroom,don'tevenrememberhowI
gotherenordoIrememberwhathappened.I
l
ookedatmyselfandIwaswear ingadress,
one
thatj
uggledmymemor y.I
twasnowdar koutside,
I
gotoutofbedandmademywayt othedoor
.Itwas
l
ocked, whoeverlockedt ookthekeywi t
h.Iwalked
tothewi ndowt oremini
sceaboutwhathappened
earl
ieron,itdawnedonmet hatImadeaf oolof
myself.
.Someoneunl ockedt hedoorandopened,
NolwaziandZodwawal kedin.Foll
owedbymyAunt
whowashol dingasjambok.If roze.Theycl
osed
thedoor..
Aunt
:"
Whatyoudi
dtodayyouwi
llneverdoagai
n"
Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hing.
Aunt
:"
Catgotyourt
onguenowhuh?
"
ShelookedatZodwaandNol waziwhocamet o
holdmedown.Mybackwasf aci
ngher.Ifel
tthe
fi
rstwhipandthesecond,andthethir
d.Iwas
wearingadressbuti
tfel
tlikeIwaswearingnothi
ng.
Icouldn'
tgetawayfr
om theirgri
ptheywereholdi
ng
myar mstight
..
Me:
"Ngi
yaxol
isa"(
I'
m sor
ry)
Aunt:
"Ucabangaukut
hiungubani
?"(
whodoyou
t
hinkyouare)
Shecont
inuedwhoopi
ngme,
whenIt
houghtshe
wasdone.Shewouldhaveabr eat
herandthengo
agai
n.Icr
iedunt
ilIcouldn'
tcr
ynomor e,
I
surr
ender
edtohermer cy.
Zodwa:
"OkayMa,
that
'senough"
Shestopped,andtheyletgoofme.If
ellst
rai
ghtt
o
thef
loor.Theyal
lwalkedout.
Aunt
:"
Nextti
meyout r
ysomet
hinglikethat
,I'
m
goi
ngtogiveyouscar
sonyourface.Thatbeaut
yis
goi
ngtovanish"
Shecl
ickedhert
ongueandIhear
dthedoorcl
osi
ng
andbeingl
ockedagai
n.

Me:"Mawungangidl
uliJesu,
izwaamazwi
Ami
.
Laphoubabi
zaabanye,mawungizweNam"
ThatsongmyMot herusedt osingittomeal lt
he
ti
mewhenIwasf eeli
ngdown, Ifel
tli
kesingingit
now.Thiswasthelowestpointofmyl if
e..Iheard
thedoorunl
ocki
ng,IthoughtthatitwasmyAunt .
ButitwasZodwa.Shewal kedinwi t
hat owel,a
basi
n,andasmallbag.Sheputt hebasi
ndownand
closedthedoor.Shemadeherwayt omeand
helpedmeup, shetookmydr essoffandt henlaid
meont hebedwithmyst omach.Shebr oughtthe
basincloserandopenedt hebag.Shetookouta
fewt hi
ngs.Icl
osedmyeyesasIf el
tthetowel
comi ngint
ocontactwit
hmysor eback,Ifl
inched.
Her
:"
Sor
ry"
Asshecontinuedthewarmthofthetowelbecame
soot
hing,
shewor kedonmeandt hendressedme
upinmyPj '
s,shewalkedoutaf
tert
hat..
.

ThenextcomingdaysIspentt hem l
ockedupinthe
bedroom.Zodwawoul dcomeandbr ingmef ood
thencleanmywounds, Ihaven'
tsai
dawor dt
oher.
Iwasi nabadstat
e,Ididn'
tknowwhet herIwas
comingorgoingout.
.
MyAuntwal
kedinmyroom oneaft
ernoon,she
t
hrewsomeclot
hesonthebed.
.Iwasstandi
ngby
t
hewindow.
Aunt
:"
Goandbat
h,pi
typar
tyi
sover
"
Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingIwal
kedt
othedoor
.
Aunt
:"
Noxol
o"
Il
ookedather
..
Her
:"
Ihopeyouhavel
ear
nedyourl
esson"
Inodded.Iwalkedouttobat
h,t
henIcamebackand
dressedup.Zocamet odomymakeupandfixmy
weave,whenIwasdoneshet ookmedownstai
rs.
MyAuntwaswai t
ingforme.
.
Aunt
:"
Let
'sgo"
Wewal
kedoutandgoti
ntohercar
,thenshedr
ove
of
f.
Aunt:
"Youl
uckythatI
'm st
il
lkeepi
ngyouaf
ter
ever
ythi
ngthathashappened"
Ij
uststaredoutofthewindowandl
ethert
alk
whatevershefel
tli
kesayingt
ome,unti
lwearri
ved
att
hebr othel
.
Aunt
:"
Ihopeyouwi
llr
edeem your
sel
ftoday"

Wegotoutoft
hecarandwal
kedi
n,Idi
dn'
tneedt
o
bet oldwhattodo.Istar
tedtaki
ngor dersand
servingthosemen.Sof art
heystil
lrespectedmeby
nott ouchi
ngmenorspeaki nganythingthatmade
meuncomf ortabl
e.Iwasonmyf eetf orhour
s,I
onlyt ookabreakwhenIwast hi
rsty.Thebartender
gavemeagl assofcola.
.
Me:
"Thankyou"
Thi
sismyli
fe,
maybeIneedt
oacceptt
hatt
hisi
s
goi
ngtobemylif
e.

Boneswal
kedin,
hewasshownt ohi
stabl
e.Bynow
Iwasbackonmyf eetser
vingt
hecli
ent
swhenmy
Auntmadeherwayt ome.
Aunt
:"
Nox"
Iwal
kedupt
oher
.Shel
ookedatme.
Aunt
:"
Boneshasaskedf
oryourcompany"
Il
ookedathi
m.
Aunt:"
Bonesisveryimpor
tantt
omybusiness,
pleasedon'
tdisappoi
ntmeagainorel
seI'
l
lsend
youstrai
ghttohell
"
Inoddedandt
ookadeepbr
eat
h,t
henImademy
waytohim.
Me:
"Goodaf
ter
noon"
Hemovedhi
seyesf
rom hi
sbi
gphoneandl
ooked
atme.
Me:
"Mynamei
sNoxol
o,I
'
llbeser
vingyout
oday"
Hi
seyesf
ellbackont
hephoneagai
n.
Me:
"MayIgetyousomet
hing?
"
Hei
gnor
edme,
Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay.
Me:
"Si
r?"
Hi
m:"
Howaboutanapol
ogy?
"
Me:
"For
?"
Hi
m:"
Forwhathappenedt
heot
herday"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tbel
ieveyou"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhatt
osayanymor
e"
Hi
m:"
Maybesayi
tli
keyoumeani
t"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryf
ort
heot
herday"
Hi
m:"
Thatwi
lldof
ornow"
Me:
"CanIgetyouanyt
hingt
odr
ink?
"
Hi
m:"
Myusual
"
Iwalkedtot
hebarandt hebart
endergavemehi
s
usual,myAuntkepthereyesonmel i
keahawk.
Me:
"Her
eyougo"
Iputever
ythi
ngont
het
abl
eandwal
kedaway.
Hi
m:"
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"Toser
veot
hercust
omer
s"
Him:"Youmi
sunder
stood,
asf
rom t
odayyouwi
llbe
servi
ngmeonly"
Me:
"Ohw"
Hi
m:"
Pleasehaveasi
t"
Isatdownopposi
tehi
m.
Ami
nut
epassedwi
thouthi
m sayi
nganyt
hing.
..
Me:
"I
syourr
ealnameBones?
"
Hi
m:"
Youdon'
ttal
k,youj
ustsi
tther
e"
Thi
swasver
yunusual
.

Wesatinsi
lencef
oratl
east2hour
s,t
henhel
ooked
atme.
.
Hi
m:"Iam at
tendi
ngabusi
nessf
unct
iont
oni
ght
,I
wantyoutoaccompanyme"
Il
ookedathi
m..
Hi
m:"
It
'sabl
ackt
ieevent
"
Doesn'
tthi
sguyhaveawi
fe?
Me:
"Ohwokay"
Him:"
Myassistanti
sgoi ngtowalkin,
shewilltake
youshoppi
ngf oranappr opr
iat
edressand
ever
ythi
ngelse.Youwillgohomeandf i
xyourself
,
I'
l
lsendmydr i
vertopickyouup"
Me:
"Di
dyoudi
scusst
hiswi
thmyAunt
?"
Hi
m:"Idon'
tneedherappr
ovalf
oranyt
hingal
ways
r
ememberthat"
Iswal
lowed.
Me:
"Okay"
Hei
sdamni
nti
midat
ing.
..
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NOXOLO

Zodwawal kedinsi
demyroom whi
leIwasf
ixi
ng
myselfup.Thankful
lyI
'
m donewit
hmyhygiene
process,
Ijustneedt
ocombmyhai r
.
Zodwa:
"Someonei
satt
hedoor
,It
hinki
t'
sthedr
iver
"
Isi
ghedasIlookedatmyref
lecti
ononthemirr
or,
I
neat
lycombedmyhai rt
hent
ur nedt
olookather.
Me:
"HowdoIl
ook?
"
Shesmi
ledscanni
ngme
Zodwa:
"Il
oveyourdr
ess,
you'
rebeaut
if
ul"
Ismil
edasIt
urnedtothemi
rr
oragai
nwi
thawi
dest
smil
edacr
ossmyf ace
Me:
"I
twasaspeci
algi
ft
"
I
twentsi
lencef
orawhi
let
henIcl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Zodwa:
"Thedr
iveri
swai
ti
ngf
oryou"
Me:
"Oh"
Iturnedtowalkoutofmybedroom.Nolwaziwas
sit
ti
ngont hecouchpaint
inghernai
lswhi
leshe
keptonchewingherbubblegum whichwas
i
rrit
ating.
Zodwa:
"Her
e"
Shepoi
ntedatt
hedr
iver
,Ismi
ledather
Me:
"Thankyou,
l
etmego"
Nolwazi
:"
Don'
ttel
lmeyou'
regoi
ngt
oMal
ldr
essed
l
ikethat
"
Ist
oppedonmyt
racksandt
urnedt
olookather
Me:
"What
'swr
ongwi
thmydr
ess?
"
Sher
oll
edhereyesandLookedatme
Nol
wazi
:"
It
'snotni
ce,
notni
ceatal
l"
Isi
ghedandwal
kedoutoft
hehousewi
thoutsayi
ng
anythi
ngfurt
her
.Igreet
edandhegr
eet
edbackand
i
ntroducedhi
mself
;Zweliwast
henameoft
he
dri
ver.
Me:
"Idon'
tknowt
hewomanI
'
m meet
ingwi
th"
Isai
dassoonashepressedtheaccel
erat
or.He
l
ookedatmeandfai
ntl
ysmi l
ed
Zwel
i
:"Don'
twor
ryyour
sel
f"
Inoddedashedr
oveof
f.
..

Thecarstoppedatt
heMal
l,
Itookadeepbr
eat
h
bef
orecli
mbingout.
Zwel
i
:"Iwasgoi
ngt
oopent
hat
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"Ther
e'snopr
obl
em,
nopr
obl
em atal
l"
Zwel
i
:"Ver
ywel
lthen,
l
etmeshowyout
heassi
stant
"
Ifol
lowedhim asheledtheway.Isawt hi
slady
whowasonaphone.Zwel iwantedtosay
somethi
ngbutsheshushedhi m byholdi
ngupher
hand.Sheendedthecallandlookedatme.
Her
:"
Iguessyou'
reNol
oxo,I
'
m Kat
legobutyou'
re
wel
comedtocallmeKat"
Shewassobeaut
if
ul,
gor
geous!
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeetyouKat
,You'
rebeaut
if
ul"
Kat
:"
Thankyou.Samecompl
imentgoest
oyou"
Zwel
i:
"Okayladi
esI
'l
lbeonmyway,
Katcal
lme
whenyou'r
edone"
Kat
:"
Iwi
lldot
hat
"
Zwel
eftust
her
e..
Kat
:"
Let
'sgetyouanout
fi
t"
Wewalkedinsi
dethemal lt
henheadedst
rai
ghtto
someshopthatlookedfancyandexo.Wewalkedi
n
andst
artedl
ookingatthedresses.
Wor
ker
:"
Thi
swoul
dlookgoodonyou"
Welookedatthebabybl
ackdresswhi
chwasso
beaut
if
ul,
ther
ewasnoliei
nthat.
Me:
"Letmesee"
Wor
ker
:"
You'
reWel
come"
ItookitasIl
ookedati
tcar
eful
ly,
Igaspedasmy
eyeslandedonthepri
ce
Me:
"R15000.00j
ustf
oradr
ess?
"
Kat
:"
Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hepr
icesweet
ie,
goandt
ry
i
ton"
Il
ookedatt
heWor
ker
Me:
"I
sital
lowed?
"
Shenodded.
Wor
ker
:"
Youmay"
Theyshowedmeaf i
tti
ngroom,IwentinandIwor
e
thedress.Iwascarefulastonott
earitormakei
t
dir
ty.Iwalkedoutt
ot hem,theyl
ookedatme..
Kat
:"
It
'sper
fect
"
Ismi
ledl
ooki
ngdownatmysel
f
Me:
"I
sitf
ine?
"
Kat
:"
Yes,
you'
ret
aki
ngi
t"
Iwalkedbacktochanget
omyclot
hest
henshe
tookthedressandwentt
opay.
.
Wewal kedoutandwenttoanothershopt
hatsold
shoesonl y,wewereal
sowel comedinbyoneofthe
wor kers.Shehel
pedustolookaroundunt
ilher
handsl andedonsomeblackheels.Theywerever
y
high...
Lady:
"Shoesi
ze?
"
Me:
"5"
Her
:"
tr
ythem on"
Me:
"Theyt
oohi
gh"
Katl
ookedatt
heLady.
.
Kat:
"Somet
hingmor
eset
tl
ingpl
ease,
wedon'
twant
herfal
li
ngf
acedown"
Shewalkedbackandcamewi thanotherpai
r,t
hat
wasn'
ttoohigh.Isatdownandstar
tedfit
ti
ngthem..
Me:
"Il
iket
hem,
howmuch?
"
Lady:
"R6000"
Kat
:"
We'
l
ltaket
hem"
Lady:
"Pl
easef
oll
owme"
WewenttothecounterandKatpayed.What
f
oll
owednextwasabag, adesi
gnerclut
chbagt
hat
wasver
yexpensive.I
twas"24000"
Me:
"Katt
heset
hingsar
eexpensi
ve"
Her
:"
Whycompl
ain?Younott
heonebuyi
ng"
Me:
"Bonesi
sri
ch?
"
Her
:"
Yeshei
s"
Me:
"Whatdoeshedo?
"
Her
:"
That
'snoneofyourconcer
n"
Me:
"But
..
"
Her:
"Don'
taskmeanythi
ngabouthim,wecant
alk
aboutanyt
hingj
ustnotwhathedoesandwhohe
i
s"
Me:
"Okaysor
ry"
Herphoner
ang,
sheanswer
ed.
.
Her
:"
Sir
"
Shel
ookedatmeandputhi
m onl
oudspeaker
,hi
s
voi
cei
ssodeept
hati
tscar
esmeabi
t.
..
Hi
m:"
Howi
stheshoppi
nggoi
ng?
"
Kat
:"
Ver
ywel
lsi
r"
Hi
m:"
Howmuchhaveyouguysspentsof
ar?
"
Kat
:"
Dress15k,
shoes6k,
bag24k"
Hi
m:"
Notbad,
butt
heshoeswhydot
heycostl
ess?
"
Kat
:"
Noxol
oli
ket
hoseones"
Hi
m:"
Isee"
Kat
:"
Nowweof
ftogetherhai
rdone"
Hi
m:"
Pleasegetheraphonet
oo"
Kat
:"
YesSi
r"
Hehungup.
.
Kat
:"
Youhear
dtheboss,
let
'sgo"

WhyisBonesspendi
ngsomuchoneme?What
exact
lyi
sitt
hathewant
sfr
omeme?
Doesn'
thehaveawi
fe?Aguyl
ikehi
m shoul
dhave
awi
fe.Thi
sdoesn'
tmakesenseatal
l.

BONES
Her
:Si
ryoursui
tisr
eady
Me:Thankyou
Igavehermycar
d..
Her
:Nobl
ackcar
dtoday?
Me:I
t'
swi
thsomeone
Shenoddedandwentt
othecount
er.
.Ical
ledmy
Lawyer
..
Hi
m:Bones?
Me:Hasshesi
gnedt
hepaper
syet
?
Hi
m:No
Me:Whynot
?
Hi
m:Shewant
smor
e
Me:Whatmor e?I'
m gi
vingher5mi
ll
ion,
she'
snot
evensupposedtogetanythi
ng
Hi
m:I
'
llt
alkt
oheragai
n
Me:DosoorIwi
ll
Hi
m:YesSi
r
Ihungupandcal
ledmysoont
obeexwi
fe.She
pi
ckedup.
.
Me:Whatar
eyoupl
ayi
ngat
?
Her
:Ar
eyout
racki
ngmewi
tht
hiscal
l?
Me:Don'
tfl
att
eryour
sel
f
Her
:Iwant10mi
ll
Me:Laphowayi
fundakhona(Youwi
llgeti
twher
e
youl
earnedt
opronounceit
)
Her
:Thenwehavenot
hingt
otal
kabout
Me:Listenher eyoupieceofshi
t!
!Youdon'twanna
dothiswi t
hme, t
hiscantur
nverybadforyou.You
knowmeandyouknowhowIcanget .Takethe
5millandsignt hedamnpaperswoman! !Noma
kochithekaigazi
Voi
ce:Daddy?
Me:Pr
incess?
Her
:Whyar
eyoumad?
Me:I
'
m notbabyI
'
mjust
..Wher
eisMommy?
Her
:She'
smaki
ngmuf
fi
ns
Me:I
'
m notmadPr
incessI
'
mjust
..
Thesal
esl
adygavemet
hepl
ast
icandmycar
d..
Her
:youneedt
osi
gn(
whi
sper
ing)
Me:I'
m comi
ng..Pri
ncesslookDaddyhastogo,
I
pr
omiseyouthatI'
l
lcallyoubacktomor
row
morni
ng
Her
:OkayDaddy
Me:Il
oveyou
Her
:Il
oveyout
oo
Ihungupandwentt
osi
gn.
.
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06/
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19:
14]Lynne:Chapt
er14

Noxol
o
Wellaf
tert
heshoppi
ngspr
eewithkatt
hedri
ver
drovemehometheti
mewasar ound16:
00andI'
ve
gotanhourt
obedoneanywayZodwawasdoingmy
makeup

Zodwa:"
Noksyouaresobeauti
fuliam t
ell
ingyou
evenboneswon'
trecogni
seyoutoday"Ohhhwe
werei
nherbedroom
Me:"Youarelyi
ngiam sur
ehei
susedt
omor
e
beauti
fulgi
rl
s"
Zodwa:
"Noxol
oyouarebeaut
if
ulthewayyouar
e
andIam gl
adyouar
ewi l
li
ngtotr
ysomethi
ngnew"
Me:
"Somet
hingnew?
Zodwa:"
YesImeanyoudidyourmanicur
edon'
tget
mewr ongbutwhenyouar
ri
vedhereyouwere
horr
ibl
enowyouaresogorgeousIam evenj
eal
ous
ofyou"
Me:
"Hopemymom i
sokaywher
eevershei
s"
Zodwa:
"Iam sur
eNokswhowoul
dn'
tbepr
oudof
herchi
ldwhoisinvi
tedtoablackt
ieeventbyt
he
mostsuccessf
ulbusinessman"
Me:
"Iam gl
adhei
nvi
tedme"
Zodwa:
"Umm passmeyourweavesot
hatwecan
go"
Me:
"Ar
eyoudonedoi
ngmymakeup?
Zodwa:
"yesI
'
vedeci
dedtoletyourockyournat
ural
l
ookwit
habitofLi
psti
ck,mascaraandeyeli
ner"
Me:
"Ohhokay"
IpassedhermyBr
azi
li
anweavei
twasst
il
lnew.
Zodwa:
"Ican'
twai
ttoseeyoui
nthatdr
ess"
Me:
"AndIt
hinkIam l
ateZodwa"
Zodwa:
"Wel
lit
'sgoodtobel
atebabeyouaregoi
ng
tomakeagrandentr
ancewi
thyourhunk"
Me:
"Hopet
heydon'
tgi
vemeugl
ylooks"
Zodwa:
"Never
"
Me:
"OkayokayIhear
dyouZodwacanIpl
easewear
mydress"
Zodwa:
"Don'
ttel
lmeyouwantmet
ogoout
"
Me:
"I
t'
sobvi
ous"
Zodwa:
"Ai
n'tdoi
ngt
hatIwantt
oseewhatyouar
e
hi
ding"
Me:
"I
'm nothi
dinganyt
hingZodwa"
Zodwa:
"Wel
lletmemakemysel
fcomf
ort
abl
e"
Me:
"Okayat
leastcl
oseyoureyes"
Zodwa:"Comeoni
t'
snotl
ikeIdon'
thavewhatyou
arehi
ding"
Me:
"Okay"
Iletherbet
hentookmybl ackdr
essandwor ei
t
eventhoughitwastoohardtowearitbutI
managedonmyown, Ial
soworetheheels.
Me:
"Iam done"
Zodwa:"
Wowyouar
ehotwai
tletmet
akeyouf
ew
pi
ctur
es"
Me:
"Iam l
ateZodwa"
Zodwa:
"Chi
llNoxol
o"
Me:
"Okay"
shetookf
ewpict
uresofmethenwewentt ot
he
l
oungeIwant
edtotel
launt
ythatIam goi
ng

Nol
wazi
:"
Andt
henyou,
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng"
Aunt
y:"
Itol
dyouNol
wazit
hatt
hisgi
rli
spr
etendi
ng
t
obeinnocent
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Iknewi
tmamashei
sabi
tch"
Zodwa:
"Whatisgoi
ngonwi
thyouguys,
mamawhat
asuddenchange"
Aunt
y:"
Misswher
ear
eyougoi
ng"
Me:
"Umm .
.Bonesi
nvi
tedmeatbl
ackt
ieevent
"
Aunt
y:"
Wenana"
Zodwacl
appedherhands.
Nolwazi
:"
Wel
lletmetel
lyoubeforeyougoBonesi
s
marri
edandIam sur
eheisgoingtochowyouthen
t
hrowyouawayl i
keyoudon'
texist"
Zodwa:
"Don'
tmi
ndherBabygi
rl,
justgoandenj
oy"
Me:
"Okay"
someoneknockedNol
waziwentt
oopenguess
what,
itwasboneshol
dingf
lower
s.

Bones:
"Goodeveni
ng"
hesaidt
hatl
ooki
ngmeashemadehi
swayi
n,he
i
gnoredNol
wazi.
Me:
"Hi
"
Bones:
"Ibr
oughtyout
hese"
Me:
"t
hankyou
It
ookt
hem
Me:
"theyar
eni
ce"
Bones:
"Youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Ibl
ushed.
.
Me:
"Thankyou"
Bones:
"shal
lwe?
"
Me:
"Yes"
Heputmyhandunderhi sar m.Wewal kedoutsi
de
tothecar.Thedriveropenedf orme, Igotin.Bones
wentandgott otheot herside.Healsol ooked
handsomei nhissuit.Thedr i
vetotheeventwas
quiet
,hewaskeepi nghi mselfenter
tainedwi t
hhis
phone,Ialsokeptmypeace.Katboughtmewhat
theycal
lani Phone,I'
m sti
llgoingtolearnit.
Wearri
vedatt
hehotel
,thedr
iverpar
kednextt
othe
door
.Wegotoutandmadeourwayt otheentr
ance.

Secur
it
yman:
"Goodevenl
ady,
Bones"
Bones:
"Goodeveni
ng"
Secur
it
yman:
"Enj
oyt
heevent
"
Bones:"
Thankyou"

Wewalkedinsidet
owheretheeventwasheld.I
t
wasbeaut
if
ullydecor
atedi
nblack.Ever
yonewas
wear
ingbl
ack.
Anywaybonesheldmyhandwhilehegreet
edhi
s
busi
nessassoci
ates.
.Iwasuncomfor
table
becausethi
splaceissurroundedbyr ichpeople.
Mostofthem werediscussingbusinessasf ormeI
don'
tknowanythingaboutbusi ness.Ijustsmil
ed
andansweredtothosewhogr eetedme.

Heopenedt hechairf
ormeandIsatdown, hesat
nexttome.Wewer eprobably6atourtabl
e, t
hose
ri
chmenandt hei
rpart
ners.Hepour edaglassof
champagnef ormeandst artedtal
kingt
othenext
personunt
iltheMCaskedf orever
yone'
sattenti
on.

Mc:Iwel comeeveryonetothi
seventwhi chi
shel
d
everyyear.TheBlackti
eeventisaimedto
recognizeandhonourthemostsuccessful
businessMen.Wi tht
hatbeingsaidladi
esand
gentlemen.Let
'sgetstar
ted.
Hecal l
edoutaf ewcandidat
esont helist,he
start
edwiththet opt
enofwhi chthefi
rstper son
call
edwast heleastri
chpersonont helist.The
personwasl eadingwit
hanetwor thof20mi l
l.I
don'tknowwhyhewascl assi
f i
edasthel east
ri
chestper
son,Imean20millsoundsli
kealotof
moneyt ome.Thel
istwentonunt i
lhegott
o
number2.
Number2wassai
dtohaveanetwor
thof900mi
ll
..
MC:For2year sinar ow, thefi
rstawardgoest ot he
ri
chestmani ntheroom.MrSakhi l
e"Bones"Zulu.
Hisbusinessesgeneratedani ncomeof1bi l
li
onf or
himthisyear.Mymout hfellt
ot hefl
oor,f
orthefirst
ti
meIsawaf aintsmilefrom him, t
hatdi
sappear ed
aft
erhehadst oodup.Hewal kedupt othestaget o
accepthisaward,hedi dn'
tsayanyspeechhecame
backandsatdown.
MC:
"Nowwewil
lbehandl
ingdonat
ionst
hatwi
llgo
t
ochari
ti
es"
Il
ookedathi
m,t
hismani
sri
ch.
Thedonat
ionpar
twasbor
ing,makethatt
heevent
bor
edmebutIheldt
hrewbecauseofhim..
Bones:
"It
hinkweshoul
dleave"
It
'sl
ikehereadmymi nd,
webot
hst
oodupandt
hen
hesmi l
edatthepeopl
ewhower
eatthet
abl
ewi
th
usandthenwewal
kedout
.Whenwegotout
side,
thedr
ivert
ookt
heawar
dfr
om hi
m.
Dr
iver
:Congr
atul
ati
onsSi
r
Heopenedf
orusandwegoti
n..
Me:
"Congr
atul
ati
ons"
Hel
ookedatme.
.
Hi
m:"
Thankyou"
Hewentbackt ohisphone.Thedriverdroveust oa
restaurant
,Iwasindeedhungry.Wegotoutand
wenti nsi
de.I
twasqui et
,theonl
ypeopl ewhower e
presentwerethepeoplewhower ewor kingthere.
Theyl edustoatablethatwasalreadypr epar
edf or
us,therewasal i
vebandi nther
oom. .
Me:
"Wher
eisever
yone?
"
Hi
m:"
Ibookedt
her
est
aur
antf
ort
heni
ght
"
Me:
"Youpai
dfornoonet
oeather
e?"
Hi
m:"
Yes"
Me:
"Why?
"
Hi
m:"
BecauseIcan"
Ididn'tsaynomore,Isatdown.Hesatdowntoo.
.
Het ookhisphoneagain,t
hisphonesi
tuat
ioni
s
start
ingtobebori
ng.
Me:
"Ar
eweact
ual
lygoi
ngt
otal
k?"
Hi
m:"
No"
Me:
"Why?
"
Him:"Justor
dersomethi
ngandeatNoxol
o,st
op
botheri
ngmewi thpet
tytal
ks"
Iexhal
ed.Hel
ookedatmeandt
henwentbackt
o
hisphone.
.
Me:
"Iwoul
dli
ket
ogohomenow"
Hi
m:"
Youwi
llgohomewhenIsayso"
(
Sil
ence)
Me:
"Whatbusi
nessdoyoudo?
"
Hei
gnor
edme.
.
Me:"
Iam or
igi
nal
lyf
rom asmal
lvi
ll
age,
Imoved
her
ewhenshepassedon"
Him:"
Whatdoyouexpectmet
odo,
sendf
lower
sto
hergrave?
"
Me:
"That
'si
t,I
'
mleavi
ng"
Igotup.
.
Hi
m:"
Sitdown"
Me:
"Goodni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
Isai
dsi
tdown!
!"
Hi
svoi
ceshookme.
.
Isatdown.
.
[
06/
12,
19:
14]Lynne:Chapt
er15

Aft
erthedinnerbonesreturnedmebacktothe
house,If
oundever yonesleepi
ng.Iwentt
omy
bedroom andslepttoo.
.

Thef ol
lowi
ngdayIwokeupandwentt of
reshenup.
Ireal
lyhopeit
'sst
il
lear
lybecauseIwanttocook
breakfastf
oraunt
ymaybeshewi lldr
opheratti
tude
t
owar
dsmeIdon'
tknow.
AnywayIwenttothekit
chenandIf oundthem
eat
ing,
whichwasunfortunatebecauseIwas
l
ookingfor
wardtopreparingsomethingforthem,
I
hopeshewon'tt
hrowhernast yinsult
satme.Isat
down.

Me:
"Mor
ning"
IputmyiPhoneont
opoft
het
abl
e,
Zodwaqui
ckl
y
grabbedi
t.
Zodwa:
"Wowsoyou'
vegotanewphone"
Me:
"YesZodwa,
Katboughti
tforme"
Zodwa:
"I
t'
sbeaut
if
ulandver
yexpensi
ve"
Me:
"Iknowt
hankyou"
Aunt
y:"
Soyousl
eptwi
thhi
m"
Me:
"Aunt
y?
Her:
"Boneswoul
dn'tjustbuyyouexpensivegif
ts
andtakesomuchinteresti
nyouifyoudidn'tsl
eep
wit
hhim"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
t"
Her
:"
Wellt
hent
odayyouwi
llbehel
pingi
ncl
eani
ng
t
hehouse"
Zodwa:
"Butmom we'
vegotmai
dswhodot
hat
"
Aunt
y:"
Doyouwantt
ojoi
nher
"
Zodwa:
"Nomamabut
-"
Aunt
y:"
Shutandyoumustgetr
eadywear
egoi
ngt
o
t
hebrothelt
oday"
Zodwa:
"Agai
n?
Aunt
y:"
YesZodwa"
Zodwa:
"Sor
ryIcan'
tmom Li
zoi
staki
ngmeout
"
Aunt
y:"
Nopr
obl
em Nol
waziwi
llf
il
linf
oryou"
Nol
wazi:
"MamaIam notall
owedatbr
otheldon'
t
f
orgett
hatIam under
age"
Aunt
y:"
It
'smybr
othel
,myr
ules"
Nol
wazi
:"
Okayl
etmegoandgetr
eadyt
hen"
Aunt
y:"
Alr
ight
"
Nol
wazist
oodupwentt
oherr
oom.

Zodwa:"Mom youhavetost
opwhatyouar
edoi
ng
Nolwaziisst
il
lyoung"
Aunt
y:"
Whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay"
Zodwa:"
Mamawhatifsomeonet
ipt
hepoli
cethat
youaremakingNol
waziwor
katt
hebrot
helyoucan
getar
rested"
Aunt
y:"
Andwhowi
lldot
hat
"
Zodwa:
"Idon'
tknow!Butf
ixyourshi
tNol
wazii
stoo
youngshemustgobacktoschool"
Aunty:
"Nol
waziisatanacceptabl
eagetomakeme
money,Iam hermotherIchoosehowsheshoul
d
l
ive"
Zodwa:"Mom Iam Nolwazisist
erican'
tsi
tdown
andlookatmyl i
lsi
sterdestr
oyherlif
eIdon'twant
hertoendupl i
kemeIdon' twanthertohavetheli
fe
thatIam havi
ng"
Mom:"Nol
wazii
smydaught
erandwhoar
eyout
o
t
ellmehowtorai
semydaught
er"
Zodwa:
"LookIr
espectyoubutwhatyouar
edoi
ngi
t
hastost
op"
Aunt
y:"
ShutZodwaandgetoutofmyf
ace"
Zodwa:"Noxsl
et'
sgoscrewthecl
eani
ng,
let
's
prepar
eandgot othebr
othel
"
MyAuntcl
ickedhert
ongueaswewentupst
air
s.

Zodwa:
"Don'
tmi
ndmom Idon'
tknowwhat
'swr
ong
wit
hher"
Me:"
It'
sokayZodwaIunder
standwher
eshei
s
comingfr
om"
Zodwa:"Nopr
obl
em sot
ellmewhathappened
yest
erday"
Me:
"Bonesi
saj
erk"
Zodwa:
"whysayt
hat
"
Me:
"howcanyouinvi
tesomeonetoaneventt
hen
t
akeyourphoneandent
ert
ainyour
sel
f"
Zodwa:
"Youwantt
otel
lmet
hatyouwer
en'
ttal
king
wit
hhim?"
Me:"
Noanywaypleasemakemecutesot
hatIcan
goIdon'
twantyourmom t
obeatme"
Zodwa:
"Aght
hatone"

Ismiledt
henshedidhert
hingonmyf aceaft
ert
hat
Itookmysidebagandwenttoloungefound
Nolwaziandaunt
yreadyt
ogo.

Aunt
y:'
Let
sgo"

If
oll
owedthenli
kealostpuppy.Wedr
ovet
othe
br
othel
,Iwasquiett
hroughoutt
hej
our
neyunt
ilwe
ar
ri
ved.
.

Iwenttothebar
,It
ookatr
ayandwenttoserve
customer
s.Iwasstar
ti
ngt
ogetusedt
ot hi
swhole
thi
ngnow.

Nol
wazi
:"
Wat
chwher
eyouar
egoi
ngbi
tch"
Shesai
dthatasshebumpedi
ntome.
Me:
"Nol
waziyouar
etheonewhobumpedme"
Nol
wazi
:"
Sowhat
?andl
ist
enher
est
ayawayf
rom
mycust
omer
s"
Me:
"Iwasn'
tpl
anni
ngont
aki
ngyourcust
omer
s"
Nolwazi:
"Don'
tgi
vemethatatt
itudeNoxol
odon't
f
orgetthatyouar
esti
lll
ivi
ngundermyMot her
's
r
oofandIcanmakeyouhomel essinl
essthana
Minute"
Me:
"whatdoyouwantNol
wazi
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Stayawayf
rom bones"
Ir
aisedmyeyebr
ow
Me:
"ohhokay"

Thenaunt
ycameIam sur
eshehear
dthegl
asses
break.

Aunt
y:"
whati
sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Nol
wazi:
"Noxol
obumpedi
ntomeandIbr
okeaf
ew
gl
asses"
Aunty:
"Youwon'
tbeget
ti
ngpai
d,t
hemoneyyou
weresupposedt
ogetI'
l
lber
epl
acingt
hegl
asses"
Me:
"I
t'
sokay"
Shewal
kedaway.
.
Nol
wazi
:"
Shamesor
ry"
Shewal
kedoutt
oo.
.
Iscr
eamedi
nfr
ust
rat
ion.
Zodwa:
"Heywhat
'swr
ong.
"Idi
dn'
tevenseeher
her
e.
Me:
"Yoursi
sterj
ustmadeyourmom cutmypay.
"
Zodwa:
"What
?Why?
"
Me:"
DoesNolwazieverneedar
easont
odoorsay
somethi
ngbadtome? "
Zodwa:
"Iguessnot.Butit
'snotf
airt
hatyouar
enot
goi
ngtogetyourfullsal
ary.
"
Me:
"I
t'
sfi
ne,
i
t'
sonl
yfornow.Iwi
llsur
viveunt
ilt
he
nextpaycomest
hrough.
"
Zodwa:
"ar
eyougoi
ngt
olett
hisgo?
"
Me:"
Youknowhowaunt yi
sZodwa,not
hingIsay
wi
llmakeherchangehermind.
"Sheshr
ugged
Zodwa:
"Iguess.Let'
sgobacktoworki
ngbef
oreshe
comeshereandst ar
tyel
li
ngatus.
"

Wewentont oservecustomerstheirdr
inks,whi
le
'
Princess' Nolwaziwassitt
ingonsomeol dguy'slap
seemi nglyfl
irt
ingwithhi
m.Ipaidnoat tent
ionand
focusedonwhatIwasdoi ng.I
twasnoneofmy
businesst hatshe'sher
eandent ert
aini
ngoldmen,
sheseemst obever yhappywithhermom' schoice
ofbringingherher eandshe'senjoyi
ngherselft
oo.
AsIwaswal ki
ngupanddownser vi
ngcust omer s,
I
coul
dn'thel
pbuttolookaround.Iwasexpect i
ngt o
seehim somewherearoundhere,
notthatIwant ed
toseehim,I'
m st
il
lnothappywiththewayhe
tr
eatedmelastnight
.Justexpectat
ion,
nothing
much.
Nolwazi:
"Looki
ngforsomeone?
"Damn!Whendi
d
sheleavehertabl
e?
Me:
"Youscar
edme.
"
Nolwazi
:"
IthoughtImademysel
fcl
earwhenIsai
d
st
ayawayf rom hi
m."
Me:
"Hi
m?Whoar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Nol
wazi
:"t
heper
sonyouar
elooki
ngar
oundf
or.
"
Me:"
I'
m act
ual
lyl
ookingforaunty,
nott
his'him'you
ar
etalki
ngabout
."Shelookedatmesuspiciousl
y.
Nol
wazi
:"
Foryoursake,Ihopeyouar
e.Qui
ckheads
up,
oncehewalksinthatdoorhei
smine.
"
Me:"Idon'tevenknowwhoyouar etal
kingabout .
Pleaseexcuseme, Ihavecust
omerstoat tend.
"I
walkedonl eavingherstandi
nginthemi ddleofthe
room, IcouldfeelhermeanstareonmebutIdi dn'
t
bothertoturnbackandl ook.

Ti
meel
apsedandsooni
twast
imet
ogobackhome.
Bonesdidn'
tshowupattheclub,apar
tofmewas
happyandanotherpar
twasfeeli
ngsomehowabout
notseei
nghim.Iwashopinghewouldcomebuthe
di
dn't
.

Aunty:
"Noxol
o,doyouknowwhyBoneswasn'
ther
e
t
onight?"
Me:
"No.
"
Nol
wazi:
"Iknow,youcl
earl
ydi
dn'
tsat
isf
yhi
mlast
ni
ght
."Shelaughedoutl
oud.
Me:
"Wedi
dnotsl
eept
oget
her
."
Nol
wazi:
"Maybeyouar
esayingthatjustsowedon'
t
f
indoutt
hatyoudidahor
ri
blejoblastnight
."
Me:
"mxm.
"
Nolwazi
:"
leaveBonest
omedar
li
ng,
youcan'
t
handl
emenl i
kehi
m."
Me:
"andI
'
m sur
eyoucan.
"Imumbl
ed.
Nol
wazi
:"
What
?"
Me:
"not
hing.
"
Nolwazi:
"mmh.Mom,youshoul
dgivemeBones'
contactnumberIwi
l
lconvi
ncehimtocomebackto
theclub.
"
Aunty:
"andweneedhim,he'
sourbi
ggestcl
ient
.I
wil
lfor
wardyouthedetai
ls.
"
Zodwa:
"BonesdoesnotwantNol
wazi
,hewant
s
Noxol
o."
Nol
wazi
:"
notanymor
ebi
gsi
s."
Me:
"It
hinkIshoul
dgot
obed.
"
Aunt
y:"
notbef
oreyoumakeussomet
hingt
oeat
."
Zodwa:
"Di
dn'
tyoueatatt
hebr
othel
?"
Aunt
y:"
Youcan'
tcal
lwhatt
heyser
vet
her
efood.I
wantpr
operf
ood."
Zodwa:
"bu-
..
"
Aunty:
"Zodwa!
"Shewar
ned.Zodwai
mmedi
atel
y
kepthermouthshut
.
Me:
"Whatwoul
dyoul
iket
oeataunt
y?"
Aunty:"
Idon'
tknow,youf
igureitout
.Andi
tbett
erbe
good."Shewalkedaway,herli
ttl
epuppyf
oll
owed
behi
ndher
.
Zodwa:"
I'
m sorr
y."Sherubbedmyshoul
derand
walkedaway.Ibreat
hedoutloudt
henIt
ookoffmy
shoes.
Iguessi
t'
sti
meIal
soacceptedt
hatIam goi
ngt
o
bemaidinmyaunt
'shouse.

BONES
Sher
anupt
ome.
.
Her
:Daddy!
!
Ipi
ckedherup.
.
Me:
"Howar
eyou?
"
Il
ookedatt
heNanny.
..
Me:
"Thankyou"
Nanny:
"Youhave2hour
s"
Shewalkedaway,shehadcomewi t
h2pol i
ce
off
icer
swhower estandi
ngnotfarf
rom us.We
wereatthepar
k,I'
m supposedt
omeetmyDaughter
atapubl
icpl
ace.
.
Lul
u:"
Daddywhydon'
tIvi
sityouatyourhouse?
"
Me:
"It
oldyout
hati
t'
sbei
ngf
ixed"
Her
:"
Whydon'
tyouvi
sitmeatMom'
shouse"
Me:
"YouknowDaddywor
ksal
otbaby"
Her
:"Tobuymeauni
cor
n?"
Ichuckl
ed.
.
Me:
"Yeaht
obuyyout
hat
"
Her
:"Tor
isaysuni
cor
nsdon'
texi
st"
Me:
"Whoi
sTor
i?Yourf
ri
end?
"
Her
:"
Nohei
sMom'
sfr
iend"
Me:
"I
ssheagi
rl
?"
Her
:"
Noi
t'
saboy"
Me:
"Doyouwannagot
otheswi
ng?
"
Shenodded.
.
Me:
"Let
'sgo"
I
'
m notevenal
lowedt
otakepi
ctur
esofmy
Daught
er,
norbeonmyphonewhenI
'
m wi
thher
"
[
06/
12,
19:
14]Lynne:Chapt
er16

Noxol
o

Thenextmor ni
ngIwokeupr ememberingmymom,
Ireall
ymissherifshewasher ethi
swoul dn'
tbe
happeningIsomehowhat eGodhowcanheal l
ow
thistohappent
ome, Ishoul
dhavedeclinedaunty'
s
offerwhensheaskedmet ocomeandst aywithher.
AnywayIcan'tcontroll
if
eandIcan'tchangeGod' s
planheknowswhat 'sgoodf orme.

AfterbathingIwentt
ot hekitchensinceauntysaid
thatImustcookandst uffsoIst ar
tedtowash
dishesthenmadebr eakfast.Itwasnothi
ngf ancy
andi t
'
snotl i
keIknowhowt ocookf ancystuffaf
ter
thatIplaceditatt
hetablethenwentt ocall
everyonesot hatt
heycaneat
Aunt
y:"
OhhIseeyouwakeupear
lyt
oday"
Me:
"YesI
'
vegotal
otofwor
ktodo"
Aunt
y:"
lookt
her
e'sofl
aundr
yatmyr
oom"
Me:
"Doyouwantmet
owashi
tforyou?
Aunt y:
"Wowyouar esobril
li
antIli
keyourmindyou
thinkfast
,ofcoursedearandpleasedon'
tuse
washi ngmachineuseyourhandst owashmy
clothesbecauseitr
uinsmycl ot
hes"
Zodwa:
"Si
ncewhenar
eyourcl
othesar
ewashedby
handsmama"
Aunty:
"Don'
tir
ri
tat
emeZodwadoyouwantt
ojoi
n
her
?
Zodwa:
"Idon'
tknowanywayNol
wazi
I'
ver
egi
ster
ed
youatboardi
ngschool
"
Nol
wazi
:"
WhatZodwayoucan'
tcont
rolmyl
if
eyou
ar
enotmymom "
Zodwa:
"I
'm hel
pingyou"
Me:
"Don'
twor
ryNol
waziwewi
llgot
oget
herIwant
t
odomymymat ri
c"
Aunt
y:"
Mm ar
eyousur
e?
Me:
"whatdoyoumeanaunt
y?
Aunty:
"Not
hing,
Ijustt
houghtNol
wazii
stheonly
chi
ldinthi
shouse.Ahacangobacktoschool
"
Me:"
Whataboutmeaunt ydi
dn'
twet
alkt
hatIam
goi
ngtoschoolnextyear
"
Aunt
y:"
Idon'
tremember
"
Iexhal
ed.
.
Aunt
y:"
Schooli
sexpensi
veyouneedmoney"
Shesai
dthatwhi
leget
ti
ngupf
rom herchai
r

BONES
Me:Ineedyout
ofi
ndoutwhomyExwi
fei
sfool
i
ng
ar
oundwith
PI
:That
'seasy
Me:Hi
snamei
sTor
i,don'
thavemuchonhi
m
PI
:I'
l
ltr
ymybest
Me:I
'
llsendt
hedeposi
t
PI
:Nopr
obl
em
Me:Youdi
smi
ssed
Hegotupandl
eft
..
Ical
ledKat
..
Kat
:Si
r?
Me:Makedi
nnerr
eser
vat
ionsf
ormeandNoxol
o
Kat
:Fort
oni
ght
?
Me:Nof
ornextyear
Kat
:Toni
ghti
tis.
.Usualr
est
aur
ant
?
Me:Nomaybeatmypent
house
Kat
:Onet
abl
eatt
heusualr
est
aur
ant
,anyt
hingel
se?
Me:Idon'
tknow.
.Maybesuckmydi
ckwhi
leyouat
i
t
Shel
aughed.
.
Her
:Al
waysapl
easur
ehear
ingf
rom youSi
r
Ihungup.
.It
ookmyphoneandt
ext
edNoxol
o
"
Ber
eadyat19:
00"
Shecal
ledaf
ter5mi
n..
Ianswer
edandwai
tedf
orhert
osaysomet
hing.
.
Her
:Whoi
sthi
s?
Me:Excuseme?
Her
:Whoi
sthi
s?
Me:Whodoyout
hinki
tis?
Her
:Idon'
tknowt
hat
'swhyI
'
m aski
ng
Ihear
dShi
rl
eyyel
li
ngatt
hebackgr
ound.
.
Shir
ley:Noxol
o!!
!Myunder
wear
swon'
twash
themselves
Noxol
o:Sor
ryAunt
y,I
'
m comi
ng
Her:Youuselessdoyouknowt
hat
?WhyIkeepyou
Idon'tevenknow!
!
Her
:Uxol
o
Af
tert
hatIhear
dsomecl
appi
ng.
.
Shirl
ey:Godoyourjobdammi t
!!WenaonedayI
'l
l
haveallthemeninthatbr
othelsl
eepwit
hyou,t
o
teachyoualesson.
.Awuva!!
Shehungup.
.
It
houghtf
orawhi
le.
.Ical
ledSl
ing.
.
Sl
ing:Bones
Me:Iwantyout
osetf
ir
eatsomebr
othel
Hi
m:Sendt
hel
ocat
ionSi
r
Me:Comi
ng
It
ext
edNoxol
oagai
n..
"At19:00makesurethatyouhavepackedal
lyour
shitf
rom t
hathouse"
[
06/
12,
19:
15]Lynne:Chapt
er17

Noxol
o

WhatIdon'tunderst
andismyAuntt reati
ngmel ike
adog.Thi
swomani smymother'
ssi st
er,Iam her
ni
ece.I
'm notsayingsheshoul
dl ovemebutat
l
eastsheshouldtreatmewithrespect,I
'm al
so
human.Afteralongt i
meofdoi
nghousechor esI
f
inal
lyt
ookanap,
ever
yonewasgone.Iwasal
one
i
nthehouse

BONES
Iwashavingl
unchatoneoft hefi
nestr
estaurants
whenmyexwi fewal
kedin.Shewasescor tedtomy
tabl
ebyoneofthewait
resses.Thewait
resswal ked
outandshest
oodatmyt able.
Me:I
sn'
tthi
savi
olat
ionofyour"
Rest
rai
ningor
der
?
Shepul
ledachai
randsatdown.
Me:Yespl
easej
oinme
Her
:Youf
rozemyaccount
s
Me:That'
sbecauseyouhaveaboyf
ri
endnow,I'
m
notgoi
ngtohaveyouspendmymoneyonhi m
Her
:WhataboutyourDaught
er?
Me:Youar
egoi
ngt
ogi
vememyDaught
er
Shechuckl
ed.
Her
:Idon'
tthi
nkso
Me:Howdoyoubri
nganothermant othehouse
t
hatI'
m payi
ngf
ori
nthepresenceofmyDaught er
?
Doyouknowhowdanger
ousst epfat
hersare?
Her
:Tor
iisagoodman
Me:Idon'
tcar
e!
Her:Ideser
vet
obeloved!Ideser
veabett
er
r
elati
onshipwi
thsomeonewhot r
ulyl
ovesme!
Me:Idon'
tcar
e!Ij
ustdon'
twanthi
mint
he
pr
esenceofmyDaughter!
Shekeptqui
et.
Me:Haveyout
akenyourmedi
cat
ion?I
sther
apy
worki
ng?
Her
:Youact
ual
lycar
e?
Me:IcareaboutmyDaughterandnowI'm
wonderi
ngifyousaneenoughtotakecar
eofher
?
Her:Iwoul
dn'tknowbecauseyout
heonewho
drovemeinsane!BonesyouamonsterandIcur
se
thedayImetyou
Me:Thef
eel
ingi
smut
ual
Her
:Justunf
reezemyaccount
Me:I'
m notgoingtodothat!Youaregoingt
ogive
memyDaught erthensignthedivor
cepapers,
ohw
andtheini
ti
alamountisoffthetabl
e,nowyou
get
ti
ng2mi l
!
Il
ookedatmyphone.
Me:Cal
lmewhenyouhavet
houghtabouti
t
Igotupandwal
kedaway

SHI
RLEY
Ireceivedacal lthattherewasf
ireattheBrothel.
WhenIgott here,thef l
amesweretoomuchandt he
fi
ref i
ghterswer en'tevenher
e.Whocoul dpossibl
y
dot hi
s?Idon' thaveanenemyt hatcouldresortto
somet hingli
ket his?Thisismylegacy,mybread
andbut ter
.

NOXOLO
Iwokeupabi
tlat
er,
Iwaswokenupbyacal
l.I
twas
Kat
.
Kat
:Ar
eyour
eady?
Me:Readyf
orwhat
?
Her
:I'
m her
etopi
ckyouup
Me:Huh?
Her
:Di
dn'
tBonescal
lyou?
Me:No
Her:Noxol
oI'
m supposedtof
etchyou,
haveyou
evenpackedyourcl
othes?
Me:Katwhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Her
:Packyourt
hingsI
'
m att
hegat
e
Ihungupandchecked.Ihadamessagef
rom
Bones,
itsai
dat19:
00.Nowi t
's16:
00
Packupmyt
hings?Idon'
tunder
stand.Ical
led
hi
m...
Bones:I
sKatt
her
e?
Me:Idon'
tunder
standyourmessage
Bones:It
houghtyouknewhowt
oread
Me:Packmyt
hingsf
orwhat
?
Bones:I
'
mt aki
ngyououtoft
hathousef
orgood!
Packyourt
hings,
youmovingout
Me:I
'
m what
?
Him:IhadamessydayandI
'
m notgoi
ngt
otel
lyou
agai
n,Kati
swai
ting!
Hehung.It
houghtaboutt
hisf
orawhi
le.
Couldthi
sbeGodsavi ngme?Igotoutofbedand
packedmythings.Iwasconf
used,whatexact
lyam
Idoing?I
sthi
sevenr i
ght?
I
ttookmeatleast30mi
ntopackupt
henIt
ookmy
t
hingsandwenttomeetupwit
hKatatt
hegat
e
Kat
:Fi
nal
ly!
Sheputmybagi nthet
runk,t
henIgotinthefront
si
t.Ihavelear
nednowtokeepquiet
,evenifIasked,
i
t'
snotlikeshewasgoi
ngt ot
ellmeeveryt
hing.

Wedrovef
orawhi
leunt
ilwegott
osomebuil
ding,
wet
ookmybagandmademyourwayi n.Wegotto
t
heel
evatorandKatpl
acedherfi
ngeronsome
moni
tor
,thenaft
eri
tscannedherf
ace.
Voi
ce:Codepl
ease
Shepunchedint
hecodet
hentheel
evat
oropened.
Wegotinanditt
ookusst
rai
ghtup,
toavery
beaut
if
ulapar
tment
.
Me:Wow
Kat
:Wel
comehome
Il
ookedather
.
Her
:Youcant
ourt
hepl
ace
Itwasn'
tabigapar
tmentbuti
twasverybeaut
if
ul,
I
walkedtot
hewindowtoseeotherbui
ldi
ngs
outsi
de.
.
Me:I
t'
sver
yhi
ghup
Her
:It
'sapent
house
(
Sil
ence)
Her
:Yourcl
othesDear
Il
ookedathershewasgoi
ngt
hroughmyt
hings.
.
Her
:Youneedanewwar
drobe,
let
'sgo

ZODWA
NolwaziandIwer
eatthemalldoi
ngsome
shoppi
ng,wegotbacktoaverycl
eanhouse.
Me:I
'
llgoandcheckonNox
Her
:Agh
Me:Shecl
eanedt
hehouseal
oneshemustbet
ir
ed
Her
:What
ever
Iwalkedupstai
rstoherroom butshewasn'
tther
e,I
tr
iedcall
inghershedidn'
tpi
ckup.That'
sstr
ange

NOXOLO
It
hinkfort
hef
irstt
imeinalongti
meIwashappy.
Theshoppi
ngwithKatwassonice,andIl
ikehera
l
otshsisaver
ygoodper son.
Iboughtal
otofcl
othes,atsomepoi
ntIwasscar
ed
thatwewer
espendingtoomuchbutshedidn'
t
seem tomind.SoIwentonandboughtal
otof
cl
othes,whenweweredonewewentouttoeatthen
shedrovemebackwedr ovebackt
othepent
house..
Shepoppedthebot
tl
eofchampagnet
henhanded
meaglass.
.
Her
:Tonewbegi
nni
ngsandbet
terones
Me:Tonewbegi
nni
ngs
Shepour edthechampagneandthenwestar
ted
dri
nking.Thiswasgoingtobemynewlif
e,I
couldn'
thelpitbutsmil
eli
kear
etard
.
Tobecont
inued
[
06/
12,
19:
15]Lynne:Chapt
er18

Noxol
o

Isett
ledwelli
nthepenthouseeventhoughIwasa
bitworr
iedaboutstayi
ngalone.Katassur
edme
thatIwil
lbestayi
ngwithbonesandI tki
ndamakes
mehappyevent houghheissointi
midati
ng.Idon'
t
knowhowt hi
sisgoingtoworkthough.Iwas
dist
urbedbyboneswhoappearedfrom ki
tchenas
formeIwaswat chi
ngTVatthelounge.

Me:
"Umm whatwer
eyousayi
ng"
Hewasweari
ngoneofhi
sfl
ashysui
tst
hatmade
mest
areathi
m evenmor
e.
Bones:
"Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oli
stent
omeorwhat
"I
cl
earedmythr
oat
.
Me:
"Ohhhsor
ryaboutt
hatwhatwer
eyousayi
ng"
Imovedmyat
tent
iont
ohi
m
Bones:
"Goandabat
hIam t
aki
ngyouout
"
Me:"
Umm I
'
dli
ket
orestt
odayIt
hinkIam cat
chi
ng
f
lue"
Ibr
eat
hthatoutandhebl
ankl
ylookedatme
Bones:
"Iam notaski
ngyounoxol
o"
Isi
ghed.
Me:
"Okay"
Bones:
"Iam gi
vingyou30mi
nmax"

Inodwal ki
ngtothetothebedroom.Thisguy
doesn'tl
aughnorsmileandIfinditsocreepy,
what
i
fher apesme?Isnappedoutofmyt houghtsaft
er
shower i
ng.Ichoseanoutf
itf
rom theclot
hesthat
KatandIbought .

Hel
ookedatme.
Me:
"Ar
eyouokay?
"
Hi
m:"
Yes,
let
'sgo"

Itookmyphoneandf oll
owedhim st
rai
ghttothe
el
evator
,wegotinandwentdownwi t
houtsaying
anywordtoeachother.Iwasn'
tusedtotheelevat
or
asyet,i
tmademeabi tnauseous.
.

Whenwegotdownst
air
sthedr
iverwaswai
ti
ngf
or
usatt
hebasementpar
king.DoesBoneseverdr
ive
hi
mself
?Doesheevenknowhowt odrive?

Thedri
vewasquietasalways,I'
veevenst
art
ed
get
ti
ngusedtohowquiethei s.Heoccupi
ed
hi
mselfwi
thhisphone,andsodi dI
Wegottother est
aurantandat abl
ewasr eserved
f
orus,t
histimehedi dn'
tclosedownt herestaurant
.
Weorder
edf rom themenu, Iwasn'
treal
lyfamili
ar
wit
hthedishessot hewaitr
esshelpedmeout .
.
Bones:
"Youawf
ull
yqui
ett
oni
ght
"
Il
ookedathi
m..
Hi
m:"
It
'sunl
ikeyou"
Me:
"Youdon'
tli
kespeaki
ngso.
."
Him:"
Tel
lmesomet
hingaboutyour
sel
fthatIdon'
t
know"
Me:
"Yougof
ir
st"
Her
aisedhi
seyebr
ow.
.
Me:
"I
fyoucan'
ttel
lmeaboutyou,
thenIcan'
ttel
l
youaboutme.I
t'
sonl
yfai
r"
Hi
m:"
Youdr
iveahar
dbar
gai
n"
Me:
"Iwoul
dli
ket
oenj
oymydi
nneri
npeace"
Iwentbackt
omyphone, Kathasshowedmehow
touseaphone.ThoughIwasn'
tperf
ect
.
Weateinsil
ence, hekeptonst
eali
ngglancesatme
andcl
eari
nghi sthroat
.Iact
edli
kehewasn' tt
here,
l
et'
sseehowi tfeelswhenhegetsatasteofhis
ownmedicine.

Whenwedr ovebacktot
hepent
house,
thefir
st
thi
ngIdidwhenwegotinwastogostr
aighttot
he
bedroom,mybedroom.
Me:
"Goodni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
Goodni
ght
"
Hesatont
hecouch.

Thefol
lowingdayIwokeupwenttofr
eshenupI
haven'
theardfr
om zodwaIwonderwhyshesai
d
shewi
llcal
lmebut
..

SoIaf t
ershower i
ngIwenttothekitchentheto
makemysel fsomet hi
ngtoeat,Iatecerealbecause
fortheli
feofmeIcoul dn'
toperatethestove.AsI
waseat i
ng,Iheardthemonitoraler
tingmet hata
visi
torwascomi ngup.Whent heelevatoropened,i
t
wasKat ..

Me:
"Heygi
rl
"
Kat
:"
Hihowar
eyoudoi
ng"
Me:
"Iam per
fect
"
Kat
:"
Okaygoandbat
hwear
egoi
ngout
"
Me:
"I
'veal
readybat
he"
Kat
:"Goputonsomethi
ngbet
ter
,Bonesi
nst
ruct
ed
metotakeyououtf
orfr
eshai
r"

Iwenttomyroom t
oputonabet
terout
fi
t,t
henI
wentbackt
oher.
Kat
:"
Wowyouar
eper
fectbabel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"Idon'
thavecashonme"
Kat
:"
Don'
twor
ryaboutt
hat
"
Me:
"Okaysur
e"

Wedr
oveout
..

Me:
"Sof
rom her
ewher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Kat
:"
Ther
e'st
hisbot
iqueI
'
dli
ket
oseet
hei
rdesi
gns"
Me:
"uhm okay"

Wewentt
othebout
iquet
ocheckaf
ewcl
othes.
.

Kat
:"
Wantsomet
hing"
Me:
"YesIsawt
hispant
sandi
tst
opIl
ovet
hem"
Kat
:"
Okaygoandgett
hem"
Me:
"Butt
heyar
eexpensi
ve"
Kat
:"
Isai
ddon'
twor
ry"
Me:
"Ohhl
etmegoandgett
hem t
hen"
Iwentt
ogett
hem t
henwewentt
opay.
Katsaidthatwemustgoandchangeourhai
rst
yles
Iagr
eedImeanIneedtochangeforabitsowe
wenttothi
ssaloni
nsi
dethemall
.

Kat
:"
heyLucy"
Lucy:
"whatani
cesur
pri
seKat
"
Kat
:"LucymeetNoxol
o"
Lucy:
"Heydol
lyouar
ebeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"Thankyou"
Lucy:
"SowhatcanIdof
oryou"
Kat
:"
Wear
ebot
hher
etogetourhai
rdone"
Lucy:
"OhhnotKatyourhai
risst
il
lokay"
Kat
:"
Real
lyokayt
henst
yleNoxol
o"
Lucy:
"Al
ri
ghtbabygi
rlcomesi
tdown"
Isatdownshedi
dhermagi
conmyhai
r.
[
06/
12,
19:
15]Lynne:Chapt
er19

Noxol
o

Afterdoi
ngmyhai rwewentt oeatatthisrestaur
ant
Katassuredmet hatt heysellthebestburgersand
shemeanti tIenjoyedt heburgersIevenputt he
nameoft heRestur antinmyheadi t
'scall
ed
McDonaldsoaf tert hatwewenthomeKatdr opped
met hendrovetoherownapar tmenttheti
mewas
around15:46

Aft
erKatdroppedmeiwentt ofi
tmyout f
ititi
s
beauti
fulIl
oveitsoIt
ookmyphoneandt akea
mirr
orphotostheycameoutperfectIr
espect
i
PhoneandIt hinkIam goi
ngtoenjoyusi
ngi t
.
Bones:
"Sodi
dyouenj
oy"
Me:"
YesIdidandt
hankyouKati
sagr
eatper
sonI
t
hinkIl
ikeher
"
Bones:
"OkayanywayIam goi
ngt
otheof
fi
ce"
Me:
"Okay"
Bones:
"Weshoul
dpr
obabl
ydodi
nneragai
ntoni
ght
"
Me:
"I
'm abi
tti
red,
thi
nkI
'
mjustgoi
ngt
orest
"
Hi
m:"
Iwasn'
taski
ngyou"
Me:
"ButIam t
ell
ingyou"
Idon'
tthi
nkheexpect
edt
hatr
epl
y.
Hi
m:"
Youcan'
ttal
ktomel
iket
hat
"
Me:"What'
stheuseofgoingtodinnerbecausewe
j
usteatandsaynot hi
ngtoeachother,i
t'
sbor i
ng.
Let
'srat
herstayinandeati
nf r
ontoftheTV, at
l
eastitwil
lkeepusenter
tai
ned"
Hi
m:"
Noxol
o..
"
Il
ookedathi
m..
Hi
m:"
Wear
egoi
ngoutt
oni
ght
"
Me:
"I
'm notgoi
ngout
"
Iwal
kedupt
othedoor
,hebl
ockedi
t.
Me:
"CanIpass"
HemovedandIwalkedouttothekit
chen,
Ionl
y
heardhi
svoi
cewhenIreal
izedthathewas
fol
lowi
ngme.
Hi
m:"
Whatdoyouwannat
alkabout
?"
Me:"Anyt
hing,Iunder
standyoudon'
twannatal
k
aboutyoursel
fsomaybewecant al
kaboutt
he
weather"
Hesmi
ledal
it
tl
e,anent
ir
eBonessmi
li
ng.
Him:"
Okay..Wewi
llhavedi
nneri
ndoor
sandt
alk
abouttheweat
her
"
Me:
"Tel
lmesomet
hing,
whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
hisf
or
me?
"
Hi
m:"
Angi
zwanga?
"
Me:"
Imightbeafool,
butIknowthatapersoncan'
t
j
ustspendonanotherper
sonli
kethis.Sowhati
sit
t
hatyouwantfr
om me? "
Hi
m:"
GoodbyeNox,
I'
llseeyoul
ater
"
Hewalkedt
otheel
evat
orandt
henst
opped,
he
t
urnedandl
ookedatme..
Hi
m:"
Isai
dgoodbye"
Ikeptqui
et.
Hef i
xedhisj
acketandt henmadehi swayt ome,
givi
ngmeaser iouslook.It ookafewst epsback
unti
lIwasagainstthef ri
dge.Hegotr eall
yclose,my
heartwasalr
eadydoi ngbeat sofi
t'sown.Het urned
andtookhiscarkeysf rom thecounter,andthen
madehi swaytotheel evatoragai
n.Iclosedmy
eyesandletoutasigh. .

Bor
edom star
tedt
oki
cki
n,It
ookmyphoneand
cal
ledZodwa.

Me:
"HeyZodwa"
Zodwa:
"Ohhyoust
il
lal
ive?
"
Me:
"Yes"
Idi
dn'
tknowwhatshemeantbyt
hat
.
Her:
"Whereareyou?Youjustupandl
eft
.No
expl
anat
ion,nonothi
ng!
"
Me:
"I
'm sor
rybutyouknowhowi
twasf
orme,
Ihad
t
ogo"
Her
:"
Hadt ogo?Gowher
eexact
ly?Wet
heonl
y
f
amilyyouknow"
Me:
"Toamor
esaf
erpl
ace"
Her:
"Iknowweweren'
tthebestt
oyou,butt
hisi
s
wrongNox.Youcan'
tjustl
eavel
iket
hat"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryZodwa"
Her
:"Ar
eyousaf
eatl
east
?"
Me:
"YesIam"
Her
:"
Okayt
hat
'sgood"

BONES
Iwasn'
treal
lygoingtotheof
fi
ce,Iwasgoingto
at
tendanemer gency.WhenIgotint
othecar,
I
coul dn'
tstopt hinki
ngaboutNox.Shei sbecomi ng
exact l
ywhatIwanthert obe, herbeingt hatfi
est y
l
ef tmewi t
hahar derecti
on.If el
tli
kegr abbingher
ri
ghtt here,turnherar oundandr i
poffhercl othes.
Bendheroverandf uckthelivingshitoutofher ,
unt i
lshepassesout .Iwant edhert oscream my
nameandbegf ormer cy,thatwoul dturnmeon
mor eandmor e.Myphonebeeped, Icheckedi t.It
wasawhat sappmessagef rom acont actofmi ne.
Act uall
yitwasavi deoofTor i
.Hewashel datsome
war ehouse, ti
edt oachai randhewascoughi ng
blood.Anot hermessagef ol
lowed:
"
awai
ti
ngf
urt
heri
nst
ruct
ions"
It
ext
edback:
"
Bur
nhi
m al
ive"
Het
ext
edback:
"
Obey"
It
ossedt
hephoneont
hef
rontseat
.

NOXOLO
Kati steachingmehowt ousesoci almedia,Ihad
createdanaccountonFacebookandpost edaf ew
pictures.Ididn'thaveanyfri
endsbutwhenIwentt o
checkagai nafterafewmi nutes,Ihad10f ri
end
request s.Itwasallguys.Iacceptedt hem all
.This
Facebookt hingisgoingtobegr eatIcanf eel
alreadyf eelit
..

SHI
RLEY
Zodwa:
"Noxol
ocal
led"
Me:
"And?
"
Her
:"
She'
ssaf
e"
Me:
"Wher
eisshe?
"
Her
:"
Shedi
dn'
tsay"
Ithoughtf
orawhil
e,mybr
othelbur
ning,Noxol
o
di
sappeari
ng.Ther
ewasonlyonepersonwrit
tenon
i
t."Bones"
Me:
"Cal
lNol
wazif
orme"
Zodwa:
"Okay"
Iwantt
oburstt
hatl
it
tl
egirl
'
sbubbl
esof
astt
hat
shewon'
tknowwhathither
..

NOXOLO
Ihadmanagedt ooper at
ethestovewi t
ht hehelpof
Kat.Ihadvideocalledheronwhat sapp.Idi dn't
cookaf ancymeal ,
Ijustpreparedchicken, r
ice,and
asalad.Afteral
lI'
m notsof amili
arwithallthese
spices,
andf ancydishes.Isti
cktowhatIknowand
IhopeBoneswi l
lenjoymyf ood.Ionlyhadhi m,kat
,
andzodwaonwhat sappasmycont acts.Iwasso
gluedtomyphonet hatanythi
ngel sedidn'tmatter.

SHI
RLEY
Nol
wazi
:Youhavecal
ledf
orme?
Me:Yes
Her
:Whati
sit
?
Me:Iwantyout
odat
eBones
Shesmi
led.
.
Me:St
ri
ctl
yforr
evengepur
poses
Her
:I'
min.
.WhatdoIdo?
Me:I
'
llcoachyou
Her
:Whyar
ewedoi
ngt
hisagai
n?
Me:Wear
egoi
ngt
oteachNoxal
esson
Her
:Nox?
Me:YesIt
hinkshe'
sinvol
vedwi
thBones,l
ucki
lyI
knowBonestoowell
.Iknowwhatbut
tonstopush.
Noxol
owon'tseei
tcoming..
.
[
06/
12,
19:
15]Lynne:Chapt
er20

Thefol
lowdayIwokeupwenttot hebathroom
fr
eshenupthenworemyblacklegginwithback
baggyt-
shi
rtwi
thfl
ipfl
opssandalsaftert
hatI
combedmyweavet henwentdownst ai
rsfound
bonesbusyonhisl
aptop

Me:
"Mor
ning"
Bones:
"Hi
"

Idisappear
edtothekitchenfoundmybr eakf
aston
thecounterl
ookslikebonesalreadyatehi
ssoI
mindmyownbusi nessaftereati
ngbreakf
astI
washedmypl atethenwentt owhereheissit
ti
ng

Me:
"Iam bor
ed"
Bones:
"whydon'
tyoucal
lKat"
Me:
"andsaywhatt
oher
?"
Bones:
"Maybeyoucangooutanddowhatl
adi
es
do"
Me:
"Iwantt
ogot
oschool
"
Bones:
"It
hinki
t'
stool
atewewi
llseeast
imegoes
on"
Me:
"Okayasl
ongasIgot
oschoolIdon'
tmi
nd"
Bones:
"Sowhi
chGadewer
eyoudoi
ng"
?
Me:
"Iam goi
ngt
orepeatgr
ade12"
Bones:
"Howol
dar
eyou?
"
Me:"
19"hel
ookatmewi
thshockwr
it
tenonhi
s
eyes
Me:
"what
?"
Bones:
"Youar
esoyoung"
Me:"Iknowanywaydoyouwantmet
olooki
nto
col
leges"
Bones:
"Yes"
Me:
"Wel
lokay"
Bones:
"Iam goi
ngt
owor
k"
Me:
"Whatdoyoudo?
"
Bones:
"Umm Iwi
llseeyoul
ater
?

Iwonderwhyheignor
edmyquest
ioniwil
laskKat
maybesheknowwhathedoforali
vinganywayI
deci
dedtocal
lZodwamaybeIwanttomeetupwith
herpl
usImissher
Me:
"Hey,
howar
eyoudoi
ng"
Zodwa:
"Iam per
fectandyou"
Me:
"GoodIam bor
edyouknowl
et'
smeetup"
Zodwa:
"Okaywher
e"?
Me:"
Let'
smeetatMcDonal
dsIam cr
avi
ngf
ort
hei
r
bur
gers"
Zodwa:
"OkayIwi
llbet
her
einl
esst
hanandhouror
so"
Me:
"Al
ri
ghtl
etmegetr
eady"

Iwenttomyr oom andfixedmyselft

henworebl
ack
l
eatherski
rtwithwhit
ebl ouseandbl
ackhi
ll
saft
er
thatIappl
iedfoundat
ionwi t
hli
pbalm"

Aft
erthatIr
equestedanUber .Ir
eci
eveda
not
ifi
cati
onnoti
fyi
ngmet hatmyUberhasarri
vedI
wentout,gr
eet
edthedr i
verthenpayedwentout
meetZodwaatther est
aurant
Me:
"Hey"shest
oodupandhuggedme
Zodwa:
"Howar
eyou"
Me:
"Iam per
fectandyou"
Zodwa:
"Iam good"
Me:
"Sohow'
saunt
yandNol
wazi
"
Zodwa:
"Mamai
sgoi
ngcr
azyhey"
Me:
"what
'swr
ong"
Zodwa:
"Herbr
othelhasbur
ntdownandwor
set
hing
hermoneywasinsidet
hesafei
nherof
fi
ce"
Me:
"OhhGod"
Zodwa:"Everyt
hingi
sfal
li
ngapartNoxol
oIam
grat
efulthatLi
zogavemef i
vethousandyest
erday"
Me:
"Soshei
sfi
nanci
alst
ruggl
ing"
Zodwa:"
Shedoesn'
thaveacentasformeiam
st
ressedthatt
hecompanywil
ltakethehouse"
Me:
"Kant
ishei
sst
il
lpayi
ngf
ort
hehouse"
Zodwa:
"YesbutIam gr
atef
ult
hatsheboughtt
he
carwi
thcash"
Me:
"Sohowmuchdoessheowet
hem"
Zodwa:
"It
hinksheowet
hem t
hir
tyt
housand"
Me:"
whydon'
tshesel
lhercarst
henpayt
hem i
t'
s
bat
tert
hanbei
nghomeless"
Zodwa:
"Yesheyyouar
eri
ghtNoxol
oIwi
llt
ellher
"
Me:"Hopesheagr
eesphel
ayourmom i
sahot
headed"
Zodwa:
"t
ellmeabouti
t"
Me:"
Letmegoandpl
acet
heor
der
,whatdoyou
wanttoeat
"
Zodwa:
"Iwi
llhavebi
gmacwi
thcoke"
Me:
"Okay"

Iwentt
opl
aceanor
der

Me:
"hey"
Wai
ter
:"
Hi"
Me:
"I
'dl
ike2bi
gmacswi
tht
wocokes"
Wai
ter
:"
ist
hatal
l"
Me:
"yes"
Wai
ter
:"
Youar
ebeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"t
hankyoudol
lyouar
eal
sobeaut
if
ul"
Wai
ter
:"
don'
tletJobur
gchangeyou"
Me:
"Umm whywhatdoyoumean"
Wai
ter
:"
ain'
tyouf
rom t
hevi
ll
ages"
?
wei
rdr
ight
Me:
"Umm yes"
Wait
er:
"mar
kmywor
dsdon'
tletJobur
gchange
you"
Me:
"okay"
shegavemet heslipIwenttosi tdownaf t
erten
minsourordercameweat ethenIr equest
edan
Uberwenthomei t'
saroundfourpl usIam tir
edsoI
deci
dedtowat chTV.whilewat chingsomeshow
themonit
ornot i
fi
edmet hatsomeonei scomingit
wasKat
Me:
"Kat
?"
Kat :
"Bonesaskedmetocomeandchi l
lwi
thyou
sinceyourreboredandgir
lit
'sSatur
dayanddon'
t
tellmeyouar epl
ani
ngtogotosleep"
Me:
"Iam Idon'
tgoout
"
Kat
:"
That
'swhyIam her
egoandf
reshenupsot
hat
wecanhi
tthecl
ub"
Me:
"Idon'
tthi
nkt
hat
'sagoodi
dea"
Kat:
"Noxol
oyouareyoung,
youmustenjoyli
fe
babesdon'
ttel
lmeyouwanttost
artgr
oovingwhen
youreach40year
sold"
Me:
"Iam notusedt
othatl
if
eKat
"
Kat:
"Iknowthat'
swhyIam t
ell
ingyout
olosenup
l
ivetheli
fegir
l"
Me:
"Maybeyouar
eri
ght
"
Kat
:"
Iam al
waysr
ightgi
rl
"
Isur
render
edthenwenttomyroom f
oraqui
ck
showeraft
ert
hatIwentoutwor
eblackj
amsui
twi
th
sti
ll
etost
hencombmyweaveIl
eti
tloseaf
tert
hatI
ret
urntothel
ounge

Kat:
"Youar
egetti
ngt
her
ebabessoonyouwillbe
knowingwhatt
owearwhent
herethi
sandthat"
Me:
"Thankyou"
Kat
:"
Letmemakeupyourf
ace,
youcan'
tgot
othe
cl
ubwithabar
eface"
Me:
"NoIam okayl
iket
his"
Kat
:"
Noxol
ojeezl
ivet
hel
if
eman"
Me:
"Kat
"
Me:
"Okaydon'
tKatmeIam comi
ng"

Shewentt
ohercarandcomebackwi
thamakeup
ki
t

Me:
"Soyougoar
oundwi
tht
hemakeupi
nyourcar
"
Kat
:"
YesIam agi
rlsowhenIf
eell
ikemymakeup
i
srui
nedIgot
othecarandr
eappl
yit
"
Me:
"Yhooar
easl
ayqueen"
Kat:"
WhatnobabesIam justagi
rlwholovethi
ngs
evenifIwanttobeaslayqueenIwouldn'
tcompet
e
withthem Imeangi
rlsl
ayqueenli
vetheli
fe"
Me:
"Whatdoyoumean"
Kat
:"Imeantheyhavegoteveryt
hingt
heywantcar
s,
cl
othes,
weaveseveryt
hingnoxol
o"
Me:
"Dot
heywor
k"
Kat
:"
Wor
knogi
rlt
hey'
rebl
esser
sdoi
tfort
hem"
Me:"Wowanywayl
et'
sgoIwantt
ocomeback
ear
ly"
Kat
:"
bef
orewegomakesur
eyoust
ayawayf
rom
t
hem "
Me:
"Why"
Kat
:"
DoasIsaydon'
tfl
ir
twi
tht
hem okay"
Me:
"Buti
t'
snotl
ikeIam dat
inganyone"
Kat
:"
Bonesl
ikeyou"
Me:
"Thatguysi
sscar
y,cr
eepyhedoesn'
tlaughnor
smi
le"
Kat
:"
Andobeyhi
m Noxol
odowhathet
ell
syout
o
do"
Me:
"Andi
fIsayno"
Kat
:"
theguymightki
l.
..Youknowwhatl
et'
sgoand
enj
oy"Inodded

Wewentinsi
detheelevat
ort
henKatpr
essedt
he
basementwewenttothepar
king

Me:
"Sowhi
chcl
ubar
ewegoi
ngt
o?
Kat:
"Wel
laf
ri
endofmi
netol
dmethatt
her
e'st
he
openi
ngoft
hecl
ubinSandt
on"
Me:
"Okayl
et'
sgo"

Wedrovewhil
eli
steningt
oasongIfel
linl
ovewit
h,
t
hisguy'
smusichisnamei sAnt
honyHamil
tonI
t
hinkIam goi
ngt
ol ovehi
m.
Kat
:"
Andher
ewear
e"
Me:
"hopeIdon'
tregr
etcomi
ngher
e"
Kat
:"
youwon'
ttr
ustme"
Me:
"mm"

Wewenti nsi
deitwaspackedheyanywayKat
grabbedmyhandwewentt oVI
Pareaandchi
ll
thereboozewascomingli
kenobody'
sbusi
ness

Icouldfeelmybodyget tingwar mer,thealcohol

wasdef i
nitel
yki cki
ngi
n.Ki ckingi nt
oapoi ntwher e
Ifoundmysel fmovingalongt ot herhythm ofthe
songsplaying.Katwashypi ngmeupasIwas
dancing,Iwasr eall
ymysel ftoapoi ntwher eIfel
t
l
iketheVI Par eawasabi tsmal lformet odancei n.
Ipull
edKatt odancef l
oorandwedancedout
assessof famongt hecrowd.Iwashavi ngthebest
ti
meofmyl i
fe.
Whenwehavehadenoughofdanci
ng,
wewent
backt
oourseat
sandsatdown.

Kat:
"Damngi
rl
!Wheredi
dallthatener
gycome
fr
om? "Wel
aughed."
Andtheshynessgone!
"

Me:
"Mustbet
hebooze.Damnmyheadi
sspi
nni
ng.
"

Kat:
"Don'
ttel
lmeyouar
ealr
eadydrunk,
wear
enot
evenhalf
waythr
oughourdr
inks.
"

Me:
"I
'mf
eel
ingsomet
ypeofway.
"

Kat:"
Ohno!Youar enotgoi
ngtodot hattome.
Take,t
ake.
"Sheshovedsomei ceinmymout h.
"Thatwil
lcoolyoudown.Thenighti
sst i
llyoung
gir
l!
"Ikeptoneati
ngtheiceunti
lIcouldfeelmysel
f
gett
ingbett
er,myheadhadstoppedspi nning.
Me:
"It
hinkI
'
mfi
nenow.
"

Kat
:"
Good!Wear eheretohavefun!"Shegaveme
myglassofchampagne."Andpleasesipitt
histi
me
ar
ound,paceyoursel
fwiththeal
cohol.
"Iam real
ly
anamateurdr
inkeraren'
tI?

Me:
"I
t'
sabi
tbi
tt
er.
"

Kat
:"
It
'sal
coholNoxol
o."

Me:
"Thebr
utalf
rui
twasn'
tthi
sbi
tt
er.
"Shel
aughed.

Kat
:"
That'
ski
ddiesdri
nk.Drinkt
heexpensivekind.
Youneedtogetusedtotheseki
ndofdrinksifyou
ar
egoingtohangaroundBones."

"
Hel
lobeaut
if
ull
adi
es.
"Webot
htur
nedt
olookwho
thevoi
cebelongedt
oo.Thetwoguysbot
hhad
smil
esplast
eredonthei
rfaces.

Kat
:"
Hii
."Shesai
dinabor
edt
one.

Guy1:
"Mi
ndi
fwej
oinyoupr
ett
yfaces?
"

Kat:
"Asyoucansee,
it'
sapar
tyf
ort
wowedon'
t
needanextr
as.
"Damn!

Guy2:"
Comeon, wej
ustwanttochil
landhavefun.
Youseem l
ikepeopl
ewhoknowhowt ohavefun
j
udgingbywhatyoudidonthatdancefl
oor.
"

Kat
:"
maybesomeot
hert
imeabut
i(
sir
).
"Whyi
sshe
bei
ng.

Me:
"Kat
,comeone.Ofcour
seyoucanj
oi-
..
"
Kat
:"
No!AsIsai
d,it
'
sapart
yfort
wo.4i
sacr
owd.
Soi
fyouwil
lexcuseus.
"

Guy2:"
Damnbi
tch,
youdon'
thavet
obesor
ude
abouti
t."

Kat:
"Iwouldn'
thavet
oberudeifyouhadleftt
he
minuteIsaidwearenoti
nter
estedi
nchil
li
ngwi t
h
you.
"

Guy1:
"mxm,let'
sgomyguy.Theydon'
tknowwhat
t
heyaremissingouton.
"

Kat
:"
Bye!
"Thet
woguysshookt
hei
rheadsandl
eft
.

Me:
"Thatwasnotni
ce.
"
Kat
:"Guysl
iket
hem don'
tneedani
cegirl
.Andwena
It
oldyounottofl
ir
twit
hanyoneher
e."

Me:
"Iwasn'
tfl
ir
ti
ng.
"

Kat
:"
Trustmethat'
swher
eitwasgoi
ngt
oendup,
andBoneswouldn'
tli
ket
hat.
"

Me:
"Bonesi
snother
eandwear
enotdat
ing.
"

Kat
:"
Boneshaseyesever ywhere.Donotdo
somethi
ngthatwil
lgetyouonhi sbadside.Weare
her
etohavefunnottogetour sel
veski
ll
ed."She
si
ppedonherdrink."
Nwa( dr
ink).
"It
ookmygl ass
anddrank.
Wecar r
iedondri
nki
ng,assoonastheal
cohol
ki
ckedinagain,
wesangont opofourl
ungsand
danced.Thewholepl
acewasbanginganditwas
hot.
Icoul
dfeelmyheadspi
nni
ngagai
n,butIcar
ri
edon
dri
nki
ngagain.

Kat
:"
Ohshi
t!
"Sheexcl
aimed

Me:
"Whati
sit
?"Isai
dinmydr
unkent
one.

Kat
:"
Bones.
"Myeyeswental
lout

Me:"Where?"Iturnedmyheadsidetosidetryi
ngt
o
fi
ndhim.Shepul l
edmyhandandwewentbackt o
theVIParea.IndeedBoneswast here,
Iwasso
happytoseehi m.Thefeart
hatIhadf orhi
m was
notheretonight.Ii
mmediat
elyt
hr ewmyselfonhim
whenIsawhi m."Youarehere!
"Hegavemea
funnystare.

Bones:"
Kat,t
hisi
snotwhatImeantwhenIsai
d
havefun."
Me:"Ohcomeon,stopbeingagr umpycatandhave
somef unwit
hus.Heredrink."Igr
abbedabot tl
eof
champagneandattemptedt omakehi m dri
nk,he
movedhi sf
aceanditspil
tonhi sshi
rt."Oops!I
thi
nksomeonehasal eaki
ngmout h.
"Ilaughed.

Bones:
"That
'si
t,wear
egoi
nghome.
"

Me:"No!Isti
llwanttost
ay!"Bonesl ookedatmeand
shookhishead.Themusi cst opforasecondbef or
e
anothersongcameon." Shit!
!That'
smysong!
That'
smydamnsong! "Iattemptedt owalkbackto
thedancefloor,whenIwassuddenl yforceful
ly
pull
edback.Iturnedinatt
empt edtoyankmysel foff
theperson,butsomethi
ngcomeupmyt hroat
.Next
thi
ngIknowIhadvomi tedalloverBones'pantsand
shoes.

Bones:
"Yeses!
"Hegr
abbedmel
ikeasackof
potatoesandputmeoverhisshoulderand
mar chedthr
oughthecrowd.Icoul
dseeKatrushi
ng
behinduswi t
hourbags.
Wegottowherehewasparki
ngthecar,heshoved
meinthebackseat
,myheadhi
tthedooranditwas
l
ight
soutforme.

Li
ke,
shar
eandcomment
[
06/
12,
19:
17]Lynne:Chapt
er21

Noxol
o
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Thef ol
lowi ngdayIwokeupwi t
hamot herof
headache, Idon'tt
hinkIwi l
leverdri
nkalcoholinmy
l
ife,yesterdaywegr oovedli
ketheworldiscomi ng
toanendbutIdon' twantt olieIenj
oyedmysel flast
night,
Idon' tevenknowhowIendupher ebyt he
l
ooksofi titl
ookslikeIsharedthebedwi th
someonel astnightIreall
yhopeIdidn'tsl
eepwi th
bones.

Me:"
Morningbabes"af
termymor ni
ngr
out
ineI
f
oundKatbusydr i
nki
ngwhatevershei
sdr
inki
ngI
wonderhowdidsheendupher e
Kat
:"
Heyhowdi
dyousl
eep"
Me:
"Gi
rlmyheadi
spoundi
ngrealbadandWenat
ell
mehowdidyouendupher
e?"
Kat:
"Ispentt
heni ghther
eandWenayou' r
eindeep
shi
tyouembar assedbonesyesterdayyoueven
pukeonhisdesignedtrouseranywaydr i
nkthi
syou
wil
lbealri
ght
"
Me:
"youar
ejoki
ngr
ightohhGodandi
t'
syourf
aul
t
Kat
"
Kat
:"
Don'
twor
ryIam sur
ehef
orgotaboutt
ha"
Me:"
Ireal
lyhopesoandIdon'
twantyourmi
xtur
e
whatwhat"
Kat:
"Gi
rlrespectthi
sdr
inkitcanmakeyour
hangoverdisappearwi
thi
nami nut
e"
Me:
"Not
hankyouIwi
llpass*
Kat
:"
sui
tyour
sel
f"
Me:
"ai
n'tyousupposet
obeatwor
k"
Kat
:"
I'
vecal
ledi
nsi
ck"
Me:
"Andbonesagr
eedj
ustl
iket
hat
"
Kat
:"
NoI
'
ver
epor
tedt
omysuper
visor
"
Me:
"ai
n'tyouhi
sPA"
Kat:
"Iam butIr unfewerr
andsastaki
ngyout o
shoppingact uall
yIam t
heonewhobuysgr oceri
es
forhi
m, Iam theonewhomakesur ehisclot
hesstil
l
fi
thim,girliam theonewhobuyshimtoi
letr
ies"
Me:
"Ohhsoyouar
enothi
sbusi
nessPA"
Kat
:"
Yes"
Me:"Mm okayl
etmetakeanapmaybemy
headachewil
lbegonewhenIwakeup"
Kat
:"
Gir
lyouj
ustwakeup"
Me:
"Youar
emaki
ngnoi
segosh"
Kat
:"
dri
nkt
hisNoxol
oyouwi
l
lbeal
ri
ght
"
Me:
"Noiwi
llpass"
Kat
:"
Okayt
henl
etopenI
nst
agr
am accountf
oryou"
Me:
"Let
'sdoi
tbabe"
Kat
:"
Andpeopl
ewi
lll
oveyougi
rlyouar
ebeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"Ohhyouarenott
hef
ir
stper
sont
ocompl
iment
mebutthankyou"
Kat:
"Gir
lwhat
'shappenedt
ot heNoxol
oImett
hat
dayitookyouforar
eshopping"
Me:
"Nahnot
hinghappenedIam st
il
lthegi
rlyou
metf
orthef
ir
stti
me"
Kat
:"
Ohhl
et'
ssi
tdown"
Me:"
haymanKatt
hishangoveri
sgoi
ngt
obet
he
deat
hofme"
Kat
:"
Itol
dyout
odr
inkt
his"
Me:
"Noiwi
lldr
inkpai
nki
ll
ers"
Kat
:"
Agai
nsui
tyour
sel
f"
Me:
"Mxm"
Kat
:"
Givemeyourphone"
Me:
"Al
ri
ght
"

Igavehermyphoneshedownl
oadedTwi t
ter
,
Inst
agram andWhat
sAppl
ucki
lyIal
readyhave
Facebook

Kat
:"
user
name?
"
Me:
"youdon'
tknowmyname?
"
Kat
:"
Ohhyouwantmet
oguessyoursur
name"
Me:
"Noxol
oBhut
hel
ezi
"
Kat
:"
youwanti
tjustl
iket
hat
"
Me:
"yes"
Kat
:"
Girlwhi
chplanetar
eyoul i
vinginbecausei
t'
s
cl
earyouarenotfr
om planetEar
t h"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowmaybepl
anetPl
uto"
Kat
:"
Qui
tej
oki
ngNoxol
o"
Me:"
Lookeventual
lypeopl
ewillhearaboutmewho
wi
llt
hinkofrandom nameinst
eadofsear chi
ng
Noxol
oBhut
hel
ezi
"
Kat
:"
Youar
eri
ght
"
Me:
"Yes"
Kat
:"
Iam al
sochangi
ngmyuser
name"
Me:
"what
'syouruser
name"
Kat
:"
Theegi
rlKat
"
Me:
"Kat
legowhowil
lthi
nkoft
hatnameJesusyou
r
eal
lyneedGodinyourl
if
e"
Kat
:"
leavemeal
one"
Me:
"soar
eyoudone"
Kat:
"YesGirlwewillt
agbonesthenbonesfanswil
l
noti
ceitsomewi l
lthi
nkyouarehisgi
rl
fr
iendand
theywil
lstartf
oll
owingyou"
Me:
"Nodon'tr
atherment
ionmeonyourst
oryt
ell
t
hem t
ofol
lowme"
Kat
:"
why?
"
Me:
"Nobonesdoesn'
tlovemedi
aandIdon'
twant
t
opisshi
m"
Kat
:"
Bonesdoesn'
thaveI
nst
agr
am"
Me:
"whatdoyoumean?
"
Kat
:"youheardmehi
saccounti
sownedbyt
heguy
whoStan(l
ove)hi
m"
Me:
"Okayt
aghi
m"
Kat
:"
sur
e"

Shedidherstuffaftert
hatshewenttohercri
bKat
wasr i
ghtI
nstagram isli
tI'
veal
readygot500
fol
lowersi
nlesst hananhour

Bones

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Af
terj
ackaldecl
aredthatheburntTi
roItookmy
whi
skeyandcelebrat
egoodriddancetoabadbit
ch
whi
leenj
oyingenjoymyexpensivewhiskeymyex
wi
febar
gedi
n,hernamei
sTasha

Tasha:
"Howcanyoudot
hatbones"
Me:
"Whatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutmamakaLul
u"
Tasha:"
Don'tmamakaLulumeBonesYouareso
evi
lhowcanyouburnTiroandsendmeavideoof
him bur
ninghuh"
Me:
"Ar
eyoudone"
Tasha:"
NoIam noti tseemsl
ikeyoudon'
tknowme
"TatakaLul u"shemi ni
miset
heword"Don'
tfor
getI
knowal lyoursecretIknowhowyoubuyvirgi
ngir
ls
from t
hehi ghestbidder"
Me:
"Youwoul
dn'
tdar
eTasha"
Tasha:
"Tr
ymeyouknowwhat ?bonesyoupressed
thewrongbut
tonthedayyoubur
ntthemanIloved
withmywholeheartt
hemanwhounderstandme"
Me:
"Ar
eyoudoneIhavet
obesomewher
e"
Tasha:
"NoIam notdone,
youwon'
tevenremember
yournamewhenIstartwit
hyoubones"
Isighi
ndefeatthi
swomenknowmyal lsecr
etsand
Ihatet
hefactthatIcan'
tkil
lheridon'twantmy
daught
ertogrowupwi thoutamot herfigur
edinher
l
ifeandIdon'
twantt ohurtherLul
ul ovehermother
verymuch

Shi
rl
ey

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___
_

Nol
wazi
:"Mom whenar
eweput
ti
ngt
hepl
ani
ntoa
mot
ion"
Me:
"Don'
twor
rymygi
rl
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Mom"
Me:"Babygirldon'
twor
ryIwi
llconsul
tthe
sangomat hatIknowar
oundt
hembi sa"
Nol
wazi
:"
Hopehef
ellf
ormemamaIl
oveBones"
Me:"
Don'
twor
ryoncewearedonewit
hthatbit
ch
Noxol
oshewi
llcomebackher
ebeggi
ngust otake
heri
n"

Voi
ce:
"t
akeheri
nmamaIam sur
ethecompanyi
s
pl
anni
ngtocomeandt
hrowusaway"
Me:
"Zodwar
elax"
Zodwa:
"Mamayoucan'
ttel
lmetorel
axwhent
he
monthendwewil
lbehomeless"
Me:
"Iwi
llsor
titout
"
Zodwa:"
sor
titouthowmamahuhyouarebankr
upt
youdon'
tevenhaveacentandt
hegr
oceryi
snot
enough"
Me:
"IsadIwi
llsor
titoutZodwa"
Zodwa:
"youknowwhatIam outofher
e"
Nol
wazi
:"
byesi
ster
"
Zodwa:
"Iwi
llsl
apyou"
Nol
wazi
:"
bye"
Li
ke,
shar
eandcomment
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17]Lynne:Chapt
er22

Shi
rl
ey

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Thef ollowingmor ningIimmedi atelywokeupi nthe

mor ningwentt owashmyf acet henbr ushmyt eeth,
afterthatIwor emybl ackmaxidr esswi thAdidas
takkieswentt ost artmycar .dammi tpet r
ol!Iam
starti
ngt ohatet hislif
eI t
'struewhent heysayl if
eis
adog, Imeanl astofl astnightIwasr ich, money
tal
kedf ormeandt odayIam st ruggling.Idon' teven
haveasi nglecentt obuypet rolireall
yhopet he
mi ssionIam pl anninghel psme, Iwi l
lbei nvolvi
ng
mybaby' slif
eindanger .Snapoutofi tShirl
ey!I
havet ogettoTembi saasi nnow, Ineedt oconsul t
withasangomat hismor ning.Maybei fIcontactmy
boot
ycal
lhewi
llagr
eet
obor
rowmehi
scar
.

Me:
"HeyJohn"
John:
"Shi
rl
eywhatar
eni
cesur
pri
se"
Me:"
Don'tbesil
lyJohnKat
ri
na(
herpussy)mi
ssher
t
iger
(John'
sdick)"
John:
"Real
ly"
Me:
"YesIam sohor
nyJohn"
John:
"Youknowwherewemeetdogetyourassat
thehot
elIwil
lmeetyout
her
einl
essthananhour"
Me:
"Idon'
thaveacar
"
John:
"Whathappenedt
oyourLandr
over
"
Me:"OhhhZodwawenttofet
chherLilsi
sterat
hospit
al"i
twast
hebestli
ethatIcoul
dcomewi that
themoment
John:
"RequestanUber
"
Me:
"Idon'
thavecashonmeJohn"
John:
"What
'sgoi
ngonwi
thyouShi
rl
ey"
Me:
"Pl
easeJohn"
John:
"OkayIwi
llsendoneofmydr
iver
s"
Me:
"al
ri
ght
"

Iwentinsidemyhousechangeintoashor
tfl
ower
dresswithblack6-
inchhi
llt
hencombmyweave

Me:
"Nol
wazi
!"
IshoutedhernameIwanthert
odomymakeup,
I
wanttoimpressJohn
Nol
wazi
:"
Somuchnoi
sei
nthemor
ningmom"
Me:
"Babygi
rlcomeandmakeupmommy"
Nol
wazi
:"
What
?mom Iam sosl
eepy"
Me:
"St
opsul
kingpr
incess"
Nol
wazi
:"
Mom you'
resuchabor
e"
Me:
"Iam doi
ngt
hisf
oryougi
rl
s"
Nol
wazi
:"
Whatever
"shet
ookmymakeupbag,
make
upmyface,
i
twassomethi
ngsi
mpl
e.
Nol
wazi
:"
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ngt
hismor
ning"
Me:
"OhhIam meet
ingJohnatt
hehot
el"
Nolwazi:
"Mom don'
ttel
lmeyouwantt
ogobackt
o
yourschemingjob"
Me:
"WhatcanIsayNol
wazihuhagir
lgottadowhat
agi
rlgot
tadotomakeyouguyssur
vive"
Nolwazi
:"
Butmom Johnknowwher
eyoust
ayhe
knowus"
Me:
"ByeNol
wazi
"

It
ookmysli
ngbagandwentout
sidef
indt
hedr
iver
wait
ingf
orme.

Dr
iver
:"
Mor
ningmam"
Me:
"Canyoudowhatyouar
epai
dtodoandl
eave
mealonenx"
Dr
iver
:Henoddedt
henconcent
rat
eont
her
oad
Afteraf ewmi nsIar r
ivedatt hehot el,
wentt othe
recept ionistandt ol
dhert hesamer oom.She
noddedt hengavemeacar dt oaccesst heroom.I
catwal kedmywayt other oom Ifoundhi mr eadyto
eatme.Hei mmedi atelytookofmycl othesthen
pinnedmyl ipsagai nsthis,whenhesawt hathei s
satisfiedhet ookof fhi strousersalongwi thboxers
theni nser tedhi shugeshaf tdeepinsideofme.He
didn'tevenwai tformet obewet ,
wel lthethingi sI
waski ndal yingwhenIsai dIam hor ny.AnywayI
am usedt ot his, Johni snotr omant icitlookslikehe
doesn' tknowhowt omakel ovetoaper son,wor se
heismar ried.

John:
"Whatar
e..t
hin.
.ki
nga.
.boutpi
nky(
hecal
lme
wit
hthisname)
"
Me:
"not
hing"
hegr
oanedont
opofme.
.
John:
"O.
.hhh"
hefuckedmeunt
ilhemadesur
ethathesat
isf
ied
hi
mself.
Me:
"Soar
ewedoneher
e"
John:
"Yes"
hedi
sappearedt
othebat
hroom.Ipour
edadr
ugi
n
hi
swhiskey.
.
John:
"Youcango"
hesaidt
hatwhi
lecomi
ngoutoft
hebat
hroom
wipi
nghisf
acewit
hatowel
Me:
"Don'
twor
rydar
li
ngl
et'
scel
ebr
atebef
oreIgo"
Igavehi
mthewhi
skeyhegul
pedi
tdown
Me:
"Hopeyoucal
lagai
n"
John:
"Yes.
..
pi.
nkywhatdidyoudo?Di
dyoupour
somethi
nginmydr i
nk?"
Hesaidwi
thapoorweakvoi
ceIknewt
hedr
ugi
s
ki
cki
ngin
Me:"Nothingmaybeyouar etiredlaydown"Ihelped
himtot hebed,Iwavedmyf i
ngersonhisfacehe
wasl ongasleepIimmedi atel
ywentt ohistrouser
tookacoupl eofrandsinhiswal letal
sotookcar
keysaf t
erthatIwenttothebasementwher ehe
packedhi
scar
.

Idr
ovest
rai
ghtt
oTembi
sa

Me:
"knockknock"
Sangoma:
"Takeof
fyourshoes"
Iwentbackoutandlef
tmyshoesatt
hedoor
,thenI
wentbackinagai
n..
Sangoma:WhatcanIdof
oryou?
Il
ookedar
ound,
thi
spl
acewasabi
tcr
eepy.
Me:Ineedaloveport
ion,
formydaught
ert
omake
t
hisothermanfal
linl
ovewithher
Sangoma:Thatwon'tbeaprobl
em,I
'
llal
somake
herapor
tionthatshepourever
ymorni
nginher
bathwat
er
Me:Thankyou
Sangoma:Al
linal
lit
'sR500
It
ooki
toutf
rom mypur
se,
it'
sabi
texpensi
vesoI
hopei
twi
llwor
k

Aftert
hatIr
etur
nedt
othehot elputt
hekeyswher
eI
foundthem,
Johnwassti
llpassedoutonthebedI
guessthedrugi
sworki
ng

Me:
"Heygir
ls"
Igr
eet
edmyki
dswhower
etal
kingat
t
helounge
Nol
wazi
:"
Mamayouar
eback"
Me:
"yesbabygi
rlohhzodwayouar
eback"
Zodwa:
"I
t'
sobvi
ousmama"
Me:
"Okayl
etmel
oveandl
eaveyouguys"
Zodwa:
"what
'si
nthebag"
Me:
"Ohhnot
hingbabygi
rl
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Youmustbet
ir
edhey"
Me:
"Iam gi
rl
"
Nol
wazi
:"
Goandt
akeanap"
Noxol
o

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Iwasbusyonmyphonewhenbonesent
ert
he
l
oungepissed

Me:
"Heyhowwaswor
k"
Bones:
"Okay"
Me:
"whyar
eyoupi
ssed?
"
Bone:"
Noxol
ocanyoujustmindyourownbusi
ness
andleavemeal
one"heroar
ed
Me:
Ilookedathi
m wi
thf
eari
nmyeyes
Bones:
"Sor
ry"
Me:
"i
t'
sokay"
Bones:
"Wantt
oeatout
?"
Me:
"okayl
etmegoandchange"
Bones:
"Youwi
llf
indmeher
e"
Me:
"okay"

Ij
oggedtomyroom changei
ntoaplai
nbluej
ean
wit
hpeachSebenzagir
lt-
shi
rt,
tookmyphonewent
downst
air
s

Bones:
"Youar
enott
hatbadcomel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"Thankyou"

Hegr
abbedmyhandwewenti
nsi
det
hecarI
gr
eet
edthedr
iver

Bones:
"Ar
eyouokay"
Me:
"yeswhy?
"
Bones:
"You'
requi
tet
odaywhat
'swr
ong"
Me:
"ohhnot
hing"
Bones:
"Sui
tyour
sel
f"
Me:
"okay,
whyar
eyousopr
ivat
e"
Bones:
"Idon'
twantpapar
azzionmyback"
Me:
"Ohhar
eyouf
amous"
Bones:
"Yesyoucanputi
tli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"Ok"
Bones:
"Yessot
ellmeaboutyourvi
ll
agel
if
e"
Me:"
Whatdoyouwantt
oknowaboutmyvi
ll
age
l
if
e"
Bones:
"Anyt
hing"
Me:"
Butonaseri
ousnot
ethoughImi
ssmyvi
ll
age
l
if
e,Imissmyfr
iendNomaplusMymom"
Bones:
"whathappenedt
oyourmom?
"
Me:
"Shepassedawaybecauseofdi
abet
es"
Bones:
"Mycondol
ence"
Me:
"i
t'
sokay"
Bones:
"Wher
edoyouwantt
oeat
"
Me:
"McDonal
d"Isai
dwi
tht
hebi
ggestsmi
leonmy
f
ace"
Bones:
"Nol
et'
sgot
oSpur
"
Me:
"Okay"

Wewentt ospurpeoplei
mmedi at
elyl
ookedatus
somewer edrool
ingoverbones,
somewere
gossi
pingaboutus

Bones:
"Don'
tmi
ndt
hest
ares"hesqueezedmyhand
Me:
"okay"Inodded
Bones:
"Youwi
llgetuset
othi
s"
Me:
"okay"

Wewentt ochoosethetabl
eandordert
hemeal
af
tereat
ingwer et
urnedhome..
..
..

TOBECONTI
NUED
[
06/
12,
19:
17]Lynne:Chapt
er23
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Noxol
o

Igotacallfrom Katlegotel
li
ngmet hatsheis
comingwi thherfri
ends;RenaandKoki .Shesai
d
wearegoi ngoutandIam gl adshei
nvit
edme.I
meanbor edom wasgoi ngt okil
lmeanyway.I
ki
ckedoffmybl anketsandwentt ot
akeashower
wit
hat owelwr appedar oundmybody.
Ithi
nkit'
sthebestthi
ngtoeatbefor
eweari
ngmy
outf
it
.Idon'twanttorui
nit
.soImademywayt o
thekit
chen,IfoundBonestal
kingonhi
sphone.
'
dammi t
'icur
sedt
omysel
f,It
houghthehad
al
readylef
t
Bones:"Li
stenIwil
lgetbacktoyou"het
hencutthe
conversati
onshortwit
hwhoeverhewast al
king
to.
"Noxolohey"hestaredatmewi t
hhungerand
l
ustfil
ledhiseyes.
Me:
"Umm mor
ning.ai
n'tyougoi
ngt
owor
k?"
it
ight
enedt
het
owel
aroundmybody,hi
sgazer
eal
lymademef
eel
uncomfor
tabl
e.
Bones:
"Iam,
act
ual
lyIam onmywayt
her
e"
Me:
"Okay.umm Iam goi
ngf
orashoppi
ngwi
th
Kat
lego"
Bones:
"Ohhsodoyouneedmoney?
"
Me:
"No.don'
twor
ry,
Iwi
llbef
ine"
Bones:
"ohno,
don'
tbemodest
"
hetookhi
swall
etout,
rightt
henmyeyesl
andedon
thebundl
eofnot
esinsi
dehiswall
et.
Bones:
"Thepi
nis*
***
"
Hi
svoicedrewmeoutofmytr
ance,t
hatwasso
muchcash,maybeaf
ewthousandsi
fIam not
mi
staken.
It
ookt
hecar
devent
houghi
tfel
twr
ong.
Ir
ememberedmymot her
'swor
ds.sheal
wayst
old
metoneverdependonaman
Me:
"Thankyou"
AsItookthecar
dourhandstouched,awei
rdand
ti
ngl
ysensati
onshott
hroughmyski naswemade
cont
act.
Bones:
"I
t'
sapl
easur
e"
Irever
tedmygazef
rom ourhandsandcl
ear
edmy
throat
.
Me:
"Haveyoueat
enbr
eakf
ast
"
Iasked,tryi
ngtobr
eakt hr
oughtheawkwardness
thatsurr
oundedusandIwast ryi
ngtogethi
mt o
stopstari
ngatmythighsbecausehewasmaki ng
mer eal
lyuncomfor
table.
Bones:
"No,don'
tbother
.Ialr
eadygotachefatwor
k.
I
'veaskedhimtopreparesomethi
ngforme"
Me:"
Okay,iguessishoul
dgost
artpr
epar
ingmy
br
eakfastt
hen"
WhenItur
nedt ol
eave,Bonesi
mmedi at
elytook
hol
dofmyl ef
thand, Iwasst
il
llostathisbehavi
our
whenhesmashedhi sli
psonmi ne.
Ij
ustst
oodt
her
e,f
rozen.Idi
dn'
tknowhowt
oki
ss,
I
haveneverki
ssedsomeonebef
ore.
'
whatdoido,doir
espond,
doimovemyl
ips,
what
i
fidoandthenibi
tehi
m.
Ihopedmybr eat
hwasohk,
shi
twhatdoi
do..
..
.whatdoido.'
gosh!whydoihavet
obesoi nexper
ienced,
i
si
lentl
yscr
eamedatmysel
f.Thebattlei
nmymi nd
hadmef or
get
ti
ngabouthi
m, aboutwhatwe're
doing.
Bones:
"Fol
lowmyl ead"hespokei
nahushed,
and
hoar
sevoice.Iguesshesensedmypani
c.
Mymi ndwasatast and-
sti
ll
,apartofmewantedt
o
pushhim awaybutyouallknowtheheartwant
ed
theopposit
esoIdidexactl
ywhathet ol
dme.
Ifol
lowedhislead.Thekisswassoslowyet
passionat
e,hi
slipsweresowar m andt
ender
,if
elt
i
tswar mnessspreadrightt
hroughmyenti
rebody.
hedeepenedtheki
ss,
thenifel
tsomet
hinghar
d
poki
ngmyst omachgett
ingmebacktomysenses.
Whatt
hehel
lwasIdoi
ng.
..
..
.Isummonedt
hel
it
tl
e
powerIhadlef
tandpushedhi
m awayf
rom me,
breaki
ngtheki
ss.
Me:
"Iam sor
ry"
myvoicewassol
owandabi
tshaky.Iwasal
so
pant
ing.
Boneschuckl
edt
hennodded
Bones:"igoti
t,don'
tst
ress"hegrabbedhis
br
iefcaseandmadehi swayt ot
heel evat
or
"
wewi
llt
alkwhenIcomeback"
headded.
Ij
ustnoddedspeechl
essl
y.
WhathaveIdone?Ij
ustkissedamanwhom Idi
dn'
t
evenknow,ImeanIdon'
tevenknowifhei
smarri
ed
ornot.Whathasgot
tenintome?
mymom di
dn'
trai
semel
iket
his.
Iam sur
eshewadi sappoi
ntedwher
eshewas,
Iso
hat
edmyselfr
ightatthati
nstant
.
Idespi
sedthefactthatIwasf
all
ingf
ort
his
str
angersodeeply.
Ihatedt
hefactthathemademykneesweakandhe
sentshi
ver
srightdownmyspinewi
thjustasi
ngl
e
ki
ss
"IHATETHIS"Iscreamedt omyselfwhi
leopeni
nga
boxofcor
nflakes.Iguessthechefisof
ftoday
becauset
here'snoEnglishbreakf
astpl
acedonthe
tabl
e.
Iguessiwil
lhavet
oeatcor
nfl
akesevent
houghI
hatethem.
Aft
ereati
ng, Ir
insedmybowlandt henr
etur
nedto
myr oom.myphonebeepedj ustasient
ered.i
checkeditonlytodiscovert
hatitwasamessage
fr
om Katl
ego.
Kat:
"Noxoloweareonourwayout
.pleasewear
somethinggoodbecausewear
egoingtomallof
Afr
ica"
idi
dn'trespondt othetext
.Iwenttomycl oset,
took
outbluer i
ppedj eansandoptedforawhi t
eplaint-
shi
rtandpi nkjacket.Whatwasst r
essingmewas
shoes.Idon'thaveal otofshoes.IguesstodayI
wil
lhavet obuymysel fapairortwo.
Idecidedt
owearbl
ackst
il
ett
os.Il
ookedokay,
not
thatbad.
ihopeKatlegoli
kesit.Speaki
ngofher
,Ihear
dthe
el
evatoropening.Iguessshewashere.
iImmedi
atel
ybr
ushedmyweave,
leti
tloset
hen
tookmybagandwentt
othel
ounge.
Kat
:"
heybabe"
Me:
"HiKathowar
eyoudoi
ng"
Kat
:"
am okay.RenaandKokimeetNoxol
o,babes
t
hosear
emyf ri
endsIt
oldyouabout
"
Me:
"heyguys"
Koki
:"
Higirl
"Kokigr
eet
edwhil
eRenagavemean
at
ti
tude.Idi
dn'
tknowwhatherpr
obl
em was.
Kat
:"
Soyourmangaveyout
hecar
d"
Me:
"ai
n'tdat
ingbones,
Kat
"
Kat
:"
Butyouwi
llanywayl
et'
sgogi
rl
s"
Me:
"Iwon'
tokay"
Shegi
ggl
edwhi
lewewal
kedt
ohercar
.Wedr
ovet
o
t
hemal
loveracasualconver
sat
ion.
Rena:
"Guyscanwegot
opol
oIwantt
obuyf
ormal
shoesformyman"
Kat
:"
Ohhsohei
sal
sogoi
ngt
otheevent
?"
Rena:
"Yeshei
sbuttoobadbecauseonl
ybusi
ness
menandpaparazzi
areal
lowed"
Kat
:"
Ohhokay"
Rena:
"yep"
Wewentt opolowhereshepickedbrownformal
shoesaft
erthatwewenttobout i
ques,
boughtlotof
cl
othesandstil
let
osaft
erthatwewentt ospor
t
scene.
Kat
:"
Gir
lwhydon'
tyoust
artexer
cisi
ngwi
thus"
Me:
"NoIam okayKat
legoImeanIam notf
at"
Koki
:"
Nosi
ll
yonl
ytomai
ntai
nyourf
igur
e"
Me:"
Idon'tknow"thosegi
rl
slookedl
ikesl
ayqueens.
IwassurprisedwhenKatl
egosaidshewasnota
sl
ayqueen.
Rena:
"Guyswhyar
eyout
ryi
ngt
ochangeNoxol
o"
Koki
:"
wear
enot
,Rena"
Rena:
"Yesyouar
ecan'
tyouseethegir
ldoesn'
t
wantt
ogym sostoppressur
ingher
"
Kat
:"
What
'supwi
thyouRena"
Rena:
"NoIwon'
tsi
thereandall
ow yout
wodot
he
samethi
ngtohert
hatyoutr
iedtodotome"
Kat
:"
Ithoughtyouar
eovert
hat
"
Rena:
"Iam notKatokayandKokiIt
oldyout
hatI
don'
twanttomeetwi t
hKatl
ego"
Koki
:"
Sor
ryf
ri
endIt
houghtyouf
orgaveher
"
Rena:"
Youknowwhat,Iam outofher
e"wi
tht
hat
,
shetookherpl
ast
icandexi
tedtheshop
Me:
"Okay,
whatwast
hatabout
?"
Koki
:"
Idon'
thaveani
deaanywayl
et'
scont
inuewi
th
ourshoppi
ng"
Wewentt odif
fer
entshops,boughtsneaker
sand
wigsaf
terthatwewenttorockomamasandat e
t
here.
Me:
"GuysexcusemeIneedt
ouset
hebat
hroom"
Koki
:"
Alr
ight
"
Iwenttothebathr
oom anddi
dmybusi ness.After
thatIwentoutt
ofindRenaapplyi
ngLipst
ick.i
decidet
owashmyhandsandi gnoreher
Rena:
"Wal
koutwhi
leyoust
il
lcan"
Me:
"huh"
Rena:
"i
twasnicemeet
ingyouNoxol
o"shesmi
led
t
henwalkedout
Me:
"ookay"
wei
rdr
ight
Iroll
edmyeyesthenr et
urnedtothegirl
s.Whatdi d
shemeanbyt hat?Atfir
st,Ihadthoughtthatshe
didn'tl
ikemeunt
ilshesortofstoodupf ormet hen
this…verywei
rd.

Renat
la

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HeyIam Renat
la.Ioncedat
edBones.Atfi
rsthe
wasalovi
ngman;heshowedmet heloveIal
sofel
l
i
ntohi
strap.
Idatedhi
m knowingfull
ywellt
hathewasmar ried
buthemadesur ethatIdon'
tsuf
feroranyt
hing.I
metKatatBone'soffi
ce.Sheaskedmet obeher
fr
iendandIagreed.
Katwouldcallmeandi nvi
temet opar
ti
esandcl ubs,
IhatedthefactthatKatknewt heani
malthatbones
wasbutsheneverwar nedmeabouthi m.Shewas
myf ri
end,t
hel eastshecouldhavedonewast ell
meaboutt hedevi lIwasdatingi
nst
eadofthrowing
meint heli
on'sdenandl et
tingmeexperi
encet hei
r
fur
y.
IrememberwhenBonessl
appedmefort
hef
ir
st
ti
me.Hehadaccusedmeoflyi
ngtohi
m.
Atfi
rstIthoughti
twasamist
ake,Ihadf
oundal
l
sort
sofreasonstojust
if
yhi
sacti
onsunti
lhe
star
tedtoabuseme.
Hehitmeunt i
lmybodycoul
dn'
ttakei
tanymore
andsti
llheconti
nued,
heki
ckedmesohar dt
hatI
endeduplosingourbaby.Hiski
cksdamagedmy
wombsoasofnow, Iam bar
renbutIam gr
atef
ul
thatKagi
solovesmet hewayIam.
.
Shi
rl
ey

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__

Me:
"NolwazibabyIt
hinki
t'
sti
meweactonour
mi
ssion"
Nol
wazi
:"
real
lymom?
"
Me:"Yes.Look,I'
vecall
edoneofmyf r
iendsandhe
tol
dmet hatt
herewillbeaneventt
hatwillbehel
d
atProteaHotelandI'
veaskedhimt ogivemea
paparazziaccesscard"
Nol
wazi
:"
real
lymom?
"
Me:
"YesandIam sur
eBoneswi
llbet
her
e"
Nol
wazi
:"
Sowheni
sthi
seventt
aki
ngpl
ace"
Me:"
Tomorr
owbabygi rll
ist
en,
IwillaskZodwat
o
doyourmakeup.ineedyoutolookperfect
"
Nol
wazi
:"
okayasl
ongasIgett
osl
eepwi
thBones"
Me:"
Takethisandspi
kehisdr i
nkokay,hewil
lfeela
l
it
tl
edizzyandIam surehewi l
laskforaroom to
sl
eepthat'
swhenyouwi l
lfol
lowhim"
Nol
wazi:
"SoIwi
llbewear
ingl
inger
ieundermy
dr
ess?
"
Me:
"Yesandmakesur
eyoumakehi
mfuckyouand
r
ecordavi
deo"
Nol
wazi
:"
Alr
ightt
hanksgod"
Me:
"Al
lwi
llbewel
lmydaught
er"

Igiggledt
henwentout
side,
Ichi
ll
edwhi
ledr
inki
ng
tea..
.
Icouldalreadytastemyvi ct
oryandlookedforwar
d
toeverythingworkingi
nmyf avour
.Ihaditall
plannedoutandhopedt hatit
'l
lpl
ayoutexactl
yasI
hadant i
cipated.I
thadto.
LI
KE,
SHAREANDCOMMENT

(
Sor
ryf
ornotpost
ingyest
erday)

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NUED
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12,
19:
18]Lynne:Chapt
er24

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Noxol
o

Thefol
lowi
ngmor ningIwokeupf eeli
nggoodbutI
wasbitworr
iedaboutwhatRenat oldmeyesterday
soIam meetingwithhertodayI
'vealr
eadysenther
aDM onInstagram andsheagreed.

Me:
"Hey"
Isai
dtoboneswhowasbusyshout
ingonhi
s
phone
Bones:
"Mor
ning"
Me:
"Whyar
eyouangr
ysoear
lyt
hismor
ning"
Bones:
"I
t'
snot
hing"
hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Bones:"
sitdownNoxol
olet
'st
alk"
Me:
"Okay"
Isatdownwhi
lef
ixi
ngmysi
lkygownKatboughti
t
forme.
Bones:
"I
'vebeenmeani
ngt
otel
lyout
hisf
oraver
y
l
ongoftime"
hewaswast
alki
ngf
ast
Me:"
Waitfi
rstbr
eat
hbecauseIai
n'thear
ingwhat
youaresayi
ngtome"
Bones:
"Okayumm noxol
oI.
i.
i"
Hewasst
utt
eri
ng,
whichwassounl
ikehim.
Me:
"What
?"
Bones:
"Dammi
tIl
oveyou"
didIhearhimri
ghtawholeboneslovemeImeanI
am notri
chIam justaper
sonwit
houtanyoneorhe
wanttoplaymeIdon'tknow,
lot
sofquesti
onsare
runni
ngthroughmymi nd.
Bones:
"Iam ser
iousNoxol
oIwast
akenbyyour
beaut
yatthebrothel
"
Me:
"Umm okay"
Iwasst
il
lconf
usedImeanIdon'
thaveanyt
hingt
o
off
erhi
m
Bones:
"Okaywhatar
eyousayi
ng?
"
Me:
"Il
oveyoutoo,
l
et'
str
yitevent
houghI
twi
llbe
myfi
rstt
ime"
Bones:"ThankyoubabeIpr omisetoloveyou"I
don'tknowwhatcameovermebutIgott hef eeli
ng
ofshuttinghi
m wit
haki ss,hetookoverandl ead
thekissIam surehenoticedthatIam sti
llnewi n
thi
st hi
ngssohewr appedhi sbigarmsaroundmy
ti
nybodywhi leanditmademef el
tsomet hing
movei nmyst omachhegr abbedmyasst henlead
met
ohi
sbedr
oom
Me:"
Iloveyou"
Isaidthatl
ookingi
nhiseyeswi t
hal otofl
ovei
nmy
eyes.Andwi t
houtwait
ingforanothersecondI
crashedmyl i
psonhis.Hewasdel ightedbymy
acti
on,hepressedhismuscularbodyonmybody.
Hest ar
ted
l
icki
ngmyl owerlipist
artedt
obitehisl
owerl
ip
gentl
y,hishandswereplacedfi
rmlyonmywaist.
Hest ar
tedfeel
ingmysoftboobswithhi
shandshe
star
tedtoslowlyremovemysilki
nggownwhile
ki
ssingme
Bones:
"Damnhel
pmepl
ease"
hegrantedirri
tatedly.
Ithenletthegownf al
lonthe
groundhegent lylif
tedmei ntohisarmsandwent
towardsthebedwhi chwassocomf y.
..
.Heslowly
keptmeont hebedandst art
edkissingmyupperl ip
onceagain,hekissedmycl eavageandsuckedoni t.
Thenhesl owlyremovedmypyj amawi thmyhel p
thenhelookedatmyper f
ectroundcar amelboobs
andtakechocol ateynippl
ei nawet henhesl owl
y
tooktheboobonei nhismout handstart
edsucking
thenippl
e.Ifeltfor
eignsoundssoundescapemy
mout handitonlyencouragedhim .Thenhedipped
histonguei
nsidemybel lybutt
onandci r
cledi
t
i
nside
Me:"ohhmygod"iscr eamedl oudlyHekeptki ssing
onthenavelr egionandsl owlyst ar
tedf inger i
ngmy
pussyovert hef abri
cofherbl acklacepant y(that
Katsuggest ed).Iwasnowsqui rmingwi t
hpl easur e
mymoanswasbecomi ngl ouderandl ouder.Then
hesmi ledwickedl yandr emovemyl acet hong
gentl
y.Hel i
ftedmyr ightlegandst artedki ssingi t.
Asher eachedmyt high,Iwasoutofbr eathhe
sl
owl ykissedmyi nnert highandkeptki ssi
ngt here.
Andsuddenl yhet ookmypeanutsi zedcl i
tinhi s
mout hhekeptsucki ngonmycl i
tandmadeeye
contactwi t
hatt hesamet ime.Hest artedtodr aw
ci
rcleinsidemypussywi thhi stongue.Icoul df eela
ti
ghtknotf ormi ngi nmyst omachandsl owl yhe
i
nserthi smiddl ef i
ngeri nsi demycooki eIf li
nched
I'
m pain
Me:
"ohhGodSi
khul
i"can'
tbel
ieveIcal
ledhi
m wi
th
hi
srealname
Heincr
easedthespeedofhi
sfi
ngerIcoul
dfeel
t
hatIwasclose
Me:
"ahhhBones"
Iwasoutofbr
eat
h"
Bones:
"cum f
ormebabe"
Suddenl
yIfeltmyselfexpl
odingicl
osedmyeyesi
coul
dlit
erar
yf eel
thewhitesport
Me:
"ohhGod"
Hekeptl
icki
ngmypussy
Bones:
"il
oveyoudar
li
ng"
Hegotupandcr
ashedhi
sli
psonmi
ne.
Icoul
d
t
ast
emyselfonhi
sli
ps
Me:
"Il
oveyou"
Bones:
"loveyoumor
e"
Heslowl
yunzi
ppedhi
strouserandr
emovedhi
s
pant
sasslowl
yaspossi
ble
Hegr
oanedandr
emovet
heboxer
s
Nowhewasf
inal
lynaked
Bones:
"Iwantt
obei
nsi
deyoudar
li
ng"
Me:"
Iwantt
hatt
ooj
ustbecar
eful
"can'
tbel
ieveI
sadthat
Bones":
Don'
tworryiwil
ltr
ytobegent
lyasican
.ButIam af
rai
ditwil
lhurtdar
li
ngj
ustthi
sonce"
Idi
dn'tsayanythi
ngIj ustgavehim anassur
ing
smil
eandki sshim passionat
ely
Bones:
"Tel
lmeyoul
oveme"
Me:
"Il
oveyousomuch"
Heeyesmoi
stwi
thammo
Hesmileandsl
owlygotuphewidenedmyl egsand
posi
ti
onedhimsel
fbetweent
hem helookedatmy
eyeswit
hsomuchl ove
Bones:
"Tel
lmet
ost
opi
fithur
tst
oomuch"
Ismil
edagainIknowhecan'thur
tmeinanyway.
Hetookhisdicki
nhishandsandslowl
yinser
thi
s
headinsi
demycookie
Hewaslooki
ngatmyeyesforanysi
gnof
di
scomf
ortIwasjustsmi
li
ngencour
agi
ngl
y
Me:
"Comeonbones"Imour
ned
Heent
eredsl
owl
yIscr
eamedhi
snamei
npai
n
Me:
"AhhhBones"
Bones:
"Don'
tcl
oseyoueyesbabemakesur
eyou
keepeyecont
actwi
thme"
Thenhest
aredmovi
ngslowl
y.Hecoul
dfeelt
he
momentofmywall
saroundhi
m
It
henwrappedmyl egsaroundhiswai
stti
ght
ly
.Nowheincreasedhisspeedevenmore
Bones:
"iam cl
osenowhoneypl
easecum wi
thme"
hesai
dthatbetweent
heki
ss
Weejaculat
edexact
lythesamet
ime.Wewer ebot
h
outofbreath.Wetooksomemomenttocooldown
.Hekissedmegently
Bones:
"ar
eyouokayhoney"
Me:"mor
et hanokay"Isnuggl
est
ohi
m andkeptmy
headonhisbarechest.
Bones:
"Thankyou"
Me:
"Nopr
obl
em "
heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Iam sor
rybutIhavet
ogo,
Ihaveameet
ingwi
th
Rena
Bones:
"Renawho?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowhersur
name"
Bones:
"Okayyoucangobutyouwon'
tfi
ndme
whenIcomeback"
Me:
"Ohh"
Bones:
"Yest
heyi
nvi
tedmet
osomeevent
"
Me:
"Okay"

Ikissedhimt henwentt omyr oom Iam sur

eI've
disappoint
edmymom sheusedt otel
lmethatsex
beforemar r
iagei sasi nIam sorr
ymamabutIwas
alsoledonisai dt hattomyt houghtswhil
ewashing
mywhol ebodyaf terthatIworemybl ueAdidas
tracksui
twi t
hbl ackNi keTekki
esaftert
hatI
requestanUber .

Me:
"HeyRena"Igr
eet
edRenawhowasbusyonher
phone
Rena:
"Hi
"sheputherphoneawaywewer
eatWi
mpy
i
fIam notmist
aken
Me:
"Rememberwhatyout
oldmeyest
erday?
"
Rena:
"Yes"
Me:
"Whatwer
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Rena:"
NonevermindNoxol
oit
'st
ool
ateIcaneven
t
ellbyyourwal
k"mywalk?
Me:
"Mywal
k?"
Rena:
"You'
renol
ongeravi
rgi
nNoxol
oorar
eyou?
"
Me:
Icl
eanedmyt
hroat
"Noneofyourbusi
ness"
Rena:
"Wel
lIt
hinkmybusi
nessi
sdoneher
e"
Me:
"Ohhh"shet
ookherbagandl
eftme
Whatbusi
nesswassheonabout ?Ihadt hought
she'
dexpl
ainorenlightenmer egardingwhatshe
meantbutohwell.IthoughtofBones, ofwhatwe'd
doneandwonderedi fIhadmadeami st
ake.How
didwegofrom hi
mt el
li
ngmehel ovedmet ome
l
osingmyvirgi
nit
y?Whati fhe'
dsai di ttobedme
andhadn'tr eal
lymeantit?Mixedt
houghtspl ayedin
mymi ndasIsatt her
eafterRena'
sdepartureand
prayedformysaket hatmanhadn'tli
ed.Imi ghtnot
haveparticular
lyli
kedhiminthepastbutIr eall
y
thoughtIlovedhim atthemomentandwi shed,for
thesakeofmydi gnit
y,hewouldn'
tleavemeaf t
er
defl
oweringme.

Shi
rl
ey

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_

Me:"
Babygi
rlyouar
esohotIam pr
ett
ysur
eyou
ar
ecomingbackwit
hBones"
Nol
wazi
:"
real
lymom"
Zodwa:"Hopetheyt
ellyout
hatyou'
reunder
age"
she
rol
ledhereyes
Nolwazi
:"
Nosistodayi
smybi
gdaysoIdon'
tneed
yourbadatt
it
ude"
Zodwa:
"Bi
gday?Don'
tmakemel
aughNol
wazi
"
Me:"Mxm nevermindherbabygi
rlI
'
veal
ready
cal
ledanUberf oryou"
Nol
wazi
:"
Butmom It
houghtyouhi
redadr
iverf
or
me"
Zodwa:
"Wi
thwhatmoneyyouseemssof
orgett
hat
yourmom i
snotr
ich"
Me:"
Nextti
mebabygirl
,l
ist
enNolwaziwhenyou
ar
ri
veattheeventdo.
whatItol
dyouokay"
Nol
wazi:
"Iwi
llmom"wehear
dahoot"
that
'smyque
t
oleave,
seeyouwhenIcomeback

Shegrabbedhersli
ngbagandr unoutmybabyis
happysheisfi
nall
yget
tingherdream manand
that
'smakesmehappyt oo

Zodwa:
"Mamaai
n'tyouashamedofyour
sel
f"
Me:"
Leavemealonenx"Isnappedt
henwentt
omy
bedr
oom.Whoisshetojudgeme?Iam doi
ngitf
or
ourf
uture,
notonl
ymine.Myplanhadt
owork,
I
can'
taff
ordtobet
hrownoutofmyhouse.

Nol
wazi

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_

Iarri
vedattheeventitwassopackedwi th
businessmansonlytherewasnowomeni t
'sonl
y
paparazziandIam safebecauseI'vegota
paparazzicar
dtoentersoIwenti nsidet
hehallt
ook
awi neinonethewaiter
swhopassedby. Itookmy
phoneandgotbusywi t
hitunti
lmyeyesmetwi t
h
bonesIdecidetotaketheopportunit
yandwentt o
greethim.

Me:
"Bones"
Bones:
"Nol
wazi
howar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"Umm okay"
Bones:
"Sowhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:
"Ohhoneofmymom' sfr
iendaskedmet
ost
and
i
nforherbecauseshei
ssick"
Bones:
"okay"hewentbackt
ohi
sphone
Me:
"Letmegoandgetyouawhi
sky"
Bones:
"No,oneofmyguar dwenttogeti
tdon't
worr
y"dammi tIbett
erfi
ndhim,soismil
edthen
wenttolookhisguardunti
lIf
oundhimtaki
nga
dr
inkfrom await
er

Me:
"hey"
Hi
m:"
hey"Godhei
ssoscar
y
Me:
"Boneshasbeenat
tacked"
Hi
m:"
Whatdoyoumean?
"
Me:
"Hei
s..
sssbl
eedi
ngsomeoneshothi
m"
Him:"
shi
t"hegavemet hedr
inkandwentout
runni
ngIgiggl
edthenpourt
heporti
oni
nhisdri
nk
andwenttogavehim.
Bones:
"Whathappenedt
omyguar
d"
Me:
"Ohhhesai
dther
e'saf
ami
lyemer
gency"
Bones:
"r
eal
ly?
"
Me:
"yes*
Henoddedanddr
inkhi
swhi
skeyInot
icednoxol
ois
onhi
sphonewall
paper
Bones:
"Umm wast
hinki
ng,
whydon'
twegetar
oom
forbot
hofus"
Me:
"umm r
eal
ly"Ithoughtmom sai
dthepor
ti
onwi
ll
wor
kaft
er10mi ns
Bones:
"Yes"hebi
tehi
slowerl
ipl
ooki
ngatmyass
"whydon'twego.
tomyroom?
Me:"
Idon'tt
hinksoExcuseme"
Iat
tempt
edt
ogo
buthegrabbedmyarm
Bones:"
Nobodysaynot
ome"hehar
denhi
sface,
I
swall
owhardthensl
owl
ynodded
Bones:
"Comef
oll
owme
Ifol
lowedhimli
kealostpuppyunt
ilwearr
ivedat
theroom r
eser
vedforboneshiqui
ckl
ygrabbedmy
ti
nybodyandhungril
ykissedme
Me:"
Idon'tthi
nkthi
sisgood"heshutmeupwit
ha
sl
apIlendedont hebedhegotontopofmeheeyes
wasfullofhungerandlust
Bones:
"Shutup"her
oar
ed
Me:"
PleaseBonesletmego, IswearIwon'
ttr
yto
pul
lthestuntt
hatIjustpul
ledplease"
Bones:
"Youar
esobeaut
if
ul"
Hiseyeswer ef ul
lofdar kness, thatwasnott he
BonesIknew.Hel ookedl ikesomet hinghadt aken
overfrom him.Hechuckl edt henunbut tonedhi s
tr
ouserhepul ledmydr essupandt earedmypant yI
wasbusycr yingaski nghi mt oletmegobuthe
wasn'thearingnoneofi t.
Ionl ybel i
evedt hatIam
abouttober apedwhenIf eel hi
shar ddickonmy
vagi
na.If eltwallstrembl ing.Itriedtofighthim but
hewassost r onghepoundedmel i
kethere'sno
Tomor row.Iwant ednost rengt hleftforme.Il ethi
m
sati
sfyhimsel f
.Afterthathewor ehisclothesand
wentoutandl ef
tmecryi
ng. Itouchedmyvagi nait
wasswol len.Ipull
edmydr essandwentout
running.Ilef
tmybagi nt
hehot el
.Idon'thavea
choicebutt ogohomewi thmybar elegs.Iranli
ke
ther
e'snoTomor rowunt
ilIsawal ightcome.The
l
astt hi
ngIhear dwasahoott heitwasal i
ghtouts.

LI
KE,
SHAREANDCOMMENT

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er25

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NOXOLO

Ifoundmyselfi
ndarkbathroom,dankeven,andon
thewallswer
ethreemir
rorswithoutf
rames.I
approachedt
oadjustmymakeupbutwhenmy
eyesr estedonthegl assIsawt hef acebutit
swas
blurr
ysoicoul dn'ttellwhoitwas, theimagewas
softwi t
hagent l
eexpr essi
on.Iscreamedandwent
backt olookagain.Thi stimeitl
ookedabi tclearbut
notclearenough, icoul dseethatitwasawoman, a
l
ilbitolderbutsti
llcalm.Everyt i
meIl ookedthe
i
magegotcl earer
.Mymi ndbegant ospark
errat
icall
y.

"
Iam sodisappoi
ntedi
nyounoxol
o"t
hewoman
f
inal
lyspoke.

Me:
"Mama"icr
ied.

sheshookherheaddi
sappoi
ntmentcl
ear
lywr
it
ten
al
loverherpl
ace.

"
pleasemama."ibeggednotevenknowi
ngwhati
wasbeggi
ngfor.
r
ightt
hent
hebat
hroom seemedl
ikei
twasonf
ir
e.
Thebunsenbur nerwasabur ni
shedsi l
verandf ar
l
ar gerthananyI '
deverseenbef ore,t
hef l
amea
bril
li
antbl ueandst r
ong.Ir eachedovert oturnthe
base, t
of eedi twithoxygen.Atoncet hefire
becamegol denandt ookt heshapeofaf lowerhead.
Iwat chedt hemanypet al
sbecamemor edisti
nct,
foldingout ward,radiati
ngl i
ghtandwar mt h.Itwas
quitethemostbeaut i
fulflowerI '
deverseen, mor e
transit
oryt hananyot her,
yetet ernalinmymi nd.

"Iam sodisappoi
ntedi
nyoubabygi
rl
"mymot her'
s
voicespokethreemoreti
mesbef
orei
tdi
sappeared

Me:
"Nomamadon'
tgomama!
"Ishout
ed
"pl
ease,comeback,
don'tl
eaveme.
"ibeggedt
ear
s
str
eamingdownmyf ace.

"shhh!,
itsokay,
Don'
tcr
ybaby,
it'
sjustadr
eam"a
voiceddist
urbedme.
ir
apidl
yopenedmyeyes,iwasshaki
ng
uncont
rol
labl
y,mywhol
ebodycoveredi
nsweat
s.

ishookmyheadassomeoneembr
acedmei
nthei
r
arms.IwonderhowhecameI
nmyroom.

Bones:
"Whatwereyoudreamingaboutbabe?
"he
askedbrushi
ngmyhairgentl
einaneffor
ttocal
m
medown.

Me:"Huh?
"Icouldn'
tut
teranywordhowcanmom
sayssheisdisappoi
ntedinme.
whatdi
dIdo,wasitbecauseIsl
eptwit
hbones?So
manyquest
ionsr
anthroughmymi nd

Bones:
"Don'
tcr
ybabe"
Me:
"Howcanmom saysuchat
hing"
Bones:
"Babe"
Me:
"Huh?
Bones:
"Lookatme"

Isl
owl
yrai
sedmyheadunt
ilmyeyesmethi
s;
Godthi
smanwasbeyondhuman,hewasa
def
inat
ionoft
hewor
dhandsome.
Myhear
tbeatr
api
dlyashest
aredi
ntomyeyes.
ii
mmedi
atel
ymel
tedwhenIseehi
m

Bones:
"Lestgot
oCapet
own"
hespokesof
lt
y

Me:'
Umm why"iaskedt
akenabackbyhi
ssudden
suggest
ion.

Bones:"
Youseem t
obedist
urbedbabesoIwantt
o
takeyououtIwantyout
obehappy"
ist
aredathi
m speechl
ess.

Bones:
"pl
easebabe,
thet
ri
pwi
llbegoodf
oryou"

Maybeheisri
ght,atr
ipawayf
rom ever
ythi
ngcoul
d
beexact
lywhatineed.
youknowcat
chsomef
reshai
randseenewpl
aces.

Me:
"Okayl
et'
sgo"ir
esponded

Bones:
"Real
ly?
"heasked,
itseemsl
ikehewasn'
t
expect
ingmyanswer.

Me:
"Yes,
icandowi
that
ri
p."

Bones:
"Thankyoubabe"heki
ssedmycheeks
Me:
"St
op"

Bones:
"Lol
sletmegoandbookti
cketsyoucan
i
nvit
eKattogoandbuythi
ngsthatyouwil
lneedt
o
useatCapetown"

Me:
"Okay"

Zodwa

_
___
___
___

Me:"
Mama!!
"Iscr
eamedwithtearsinmyeyesaf
ter
hear
ingt
hatNol
wazii
sathospital
"
Mom:
"What
'swr
ong"
Me:
"Nol
wazii
sathospi
talmom"
Mom:shechuckled"StopplayingIam sur
emy
daught
eri
senjoyingwhereversheis"
Me:"
Mom oneSi
sBongical
ledme(
mom'
sfr
iend
shei
saNurse)
Mom:
"Ar
eyouser
ious"
Me:"
Mom whywoul
dIj
okeaboutsomet
hingl
ike
t
hishuh?
"
Mom:
"How?Whathappened?
"
Me:
"Shewasi
nvol
vedi
nanacci
dent
"
Mom:
"OhhGodwhathaveIdone"
Me:"
Mom iti
snottheti
metobl
ameyour
sel
fwe
havetor
ushtohospit
al"
Mom:
"OkayOkay"

It
ookcarkeysli
kel
yI'
veboughtpet
rolyest
erdayI
dr
ovetohospit
alwi
thmom busyblaminghersel
f.

Mom:"
HeyIam her
eformydaughterapper
ant
ly
shewasi
nvol
vedinacaracci
dent
"
Rec:
"What
shername"
Me:
"Umm Nol
waziBhut
hel
ezi(
wear
eusi
ngmy
mom'ssur
name)
Rec:"
Waitamoment .OhhNol waziwasadmitt
ed
around6PM Iam sur ethedoct
orsisst
il
lbusywit
h
herbecauseshewasbadl yinj
uredasforyouguys
youcansitatthebarstool
"
Me:"Wher
eisNur
seBongi
?shei
stheonewho
cal
ledus"
Rec:
"Shei
sal
soatt
het
heat
re"
Me:
"OhhGod
IsatdowndefeatedIcan'
tlosemyBabysi
sI
shouldhaveprot
ectedher
.
Thishospi t
alisnot hi
ngl iket
heoneIam usedt o,
wheret hereceptionistismor eplasticthanthe
puri
fi
edwat erdispenser .Herethereisnoopenness,
nospace, nothingshi nesorhast hesmel l
of
disi
nfectant.Insteadthewayi nisdownal ong
hall
waysonar r
owt hatifawheel chairortrol
ley
weretocomet ootherwayI '
dhavet odi pi
ntoaside
room toletitgoby.Thewal l
swer eoncepai nted,
I
cantellthatfrom thecr eam fl
akest hatremain,
thoughmost l
ytheyshowt hegreyunder coator
perhapstheconcret
ebeneat hthat.Thef looris
unevenfrom somucht raf
ficwithbothf eetand
wheelsandit'
sdarkerthanamausol eum.Theai ris
stagnantl
ikewejustwentintosomepi t.Ther eare
nohandsani t
izer
sonthewal ls,howt heypr event
thespreadofgermsher eIdon'tknow, per hapsthey
don't
.
Mom i
sbusypaci
ngupanddownIam sur
eshei
s
r
eal
isi
ngt
hatthi
sisherf
aul
t.
From aheadcomemuf f
ledvoices,someangry,
somepl acat
ing.Ibi
tedownonmyl i
p,t
hisi
sn't
goingtobefun, wesawt hedoctorcomingmom ran
toherIalsofoll
owed.

asthedoct orwalkedt owardsus, shehadt he

postureofasoldier.Ever yact
ionshet ookwas
preciseandpurposef ul.Shesmiledinthecol dand
di
stantwaypr ofessionalsdo.Icanneverr elax
aroundsuchexpr essions.Ineedagenui neface,
preferabl
yasmi l
e, butifnotI'
dreallyr
atherthey
di
dn'
tfakei
t.Hereyesweredevoidofanymake-up
andherhai
rwasinat i
ghtbun,notastr
andoutof
pl
ace.

Mom:"
Doct
orhow'
smydaught
erpl
easet
ellmeshe
i
sokay"

Doct
or:
"Ar
eyouNol
wazi
'
sfami
ly"
Mom:
"YesyesIam hermom"

Doctor:shesi
ghed"
Iam sor
rybutNol
wazi
suf
fer
ed
abraindamage"

Me:
"What
?

Doct
or:"
Brai
ndamagei sani
njur
ythatcausest
he
dest
ruct
ionordet
eri
orati
onofbr
aincel
ls
Mom:
"Wi
llshebeokay?
"

Doct
or:
"Idon'
tknowbutnowshei
sincomashe
al
sohavebrokenri
b
Astheprot
ectorsofherhear
tandlungs,herri
bs
aredesi
gnedtowithst
andalot.Butsuddenand
sever
eblowstothechestandbackcanf ract
ure
them.Iam sor
ryNolwaziwasalsoraped.

Me:"What
?"Tear
sst
art
edt
ost
ream downmy
cheeks

Doct
or:
"Umm excuseme"sher
ubmyshoul
dert
hen
wentt
oattendot
herpat
ient
s

Me:
"Thi
sisyourf
aul
tmom"
Mom:"Sowhathuhwhatdoyouwantmet odo,do
youwantmetokil
lmysel
ftoshowthatIr
egret
whatIdi
dhuh"
Me:
"Idon'
tcar
eMama"
Mom:
"YouknowwhatIam outofher
e"
Me:"Youcan'tevenstayatthehospi
talandsuppor
t
yourchil
d,youknowwhatmom Iam pr ayi
ngthat
Nolwazisurvi
veandaf t
erthatIam t
akingheraway
fr
om you, youwon'tseeher"
Mom:
"Don'
ttr
ymeGi
rl
"
Me:
"Ohhokay"shecl
ickedhert
onguet
henwentout

Isatatthebencht hi
nkingaboutgoodt i
mesIhad
wit
hNol wazi
, Nolwaziisagoodgirlbutmom
changedheri nnocenthear
tshemadeNol wazi
to
agreeateverythi
ngshet ohernx.

Voi
ce:
"Zodwa"
Itur
nedIcoul
dn'
tbel
ievewhatIsaw
Me:
"Dad?

TOBECONTI
NUED
LI
KE,
SHAREANDCOMMENTS
[
06/
12,
19:
19]Lynne:Chapt
er26

Her
e'st
hecor
rectone.

Zodwa

_
___
___

How?DadIt houghtheisi
npr i
son,well
appar ent
ly
mydadwasaccusedofki ll
ingaschoolkidand
rapedherandIknowthatmydaddi dn'
tdoitIam
suremymom f ramedhim becausehethreatenedto
takeusawayfrom her
.

Dad:
"Ar
eyougoi
ngt
ost
andt
her
eandnothugyour
dad"
isnappedoutofi
tandhugt
hedayl
ightoutofhi
m

"
Dadhowdi
dyoucomeout
"
iasked.

Dad:"Theyf
oundtheper
sonwhokill
edherbutdon'
t
worrybabeIam goi
ngtosuethem f
orputt
ingmein
jai
lfor15year
s,Hehasbeensent
encedfor25
years"

Me:
"It
houghtt
heyf
orgotaboutt
hecasedad"

Dad:"
Babygi
rll
etsconcent
rat
eonNol
wazi
'
sheal
th
fornow"

Me:
"Dadam scared,whati
fshedoesn'
twakeup,
Whati
fshedoesn'tmakeit
?"
Dad:"
Shhh,
let
sbepositi
vebabygi
rl
,yoursi
steri
s
gonnabefi
ne.wher
e'syourmom?"

Me:
"Shewentoutaf
terourLi
lar
gument
"

Dad:
"Okaybabygi
rl
"

IlovemydadIdon' twannal i
e,it
sonlyterr
ibl
ethat
hedeci dedtohaveki dswiththathear
tl
esswomen.
Imeanwhatki ndofawomanwhosendst hefather
ofherki dstojailj
ustfort
heheckofi t
,whodoes
that,howt hatwomansl eepsatnightwithsucha
dirt
yhear tbaff
lesme.
Igavemydadawar m smil
e.t
ryi
ngmyhar
destt
o
covermyt
err
ibl
ethoughts.
thi
sguyget
smet hat
'swhyIlovehim.hewas
alwayst
her
eforusandiwil
lforeverbegr
atef
ulf
or
that
.
hewast hetoughestpersoni knowt ohaveputup
withmymot her'
sevilways.Inf acthewasmuch
l
ikeatreewithgreatboughsst rivi
ngtotouchthe
skyanditsnoblerootsstrengtheningi
tsholdonthe
ground.
hewasmyanchor
.

Dad:"
What everyou'
ret
hinki
ngaboutgeti
toutof
yourskul
l"hesaidthatputt
inghi
sarm ar
oundmy
shoul
der.
ishruggedmyshoul
der
saswewal
kedt
oNol
wazi
'
s
ward.

Noxol
o

Me:
"OkaymeetmeatMcDonal
d"

Kat
:"
Alr
ight
"
Idr
oppedt
hecal
l,Iam meet
ingkatatt
hemal
l.
ichangedi
ntosomethi
ngpresent
abl
e,iwentt
othe
carthendr
ovetothemall
,Boneshadhir
edadr i
ver
forme.

wegottot
hemal
lawhi
lel
ater
,itwascr
owdedas
usual
.
katwasal
readywai
ti
ngf
ormesoiwal
kedt
oher
.

Me:
"heygi
rl
"

weshar
edaqui
ckhug.

Kat:
"Heydolll
et'
sst
artshoppi
ngsot
hatIcango
backtowork"

Me:"
Okay,
Ican'
tbel
ievet
hatmeNoxol
owi
llbe
goi
ngtoCapeTown"
Kat
:"
geezNoxol
oit
'sj
ustcapet
ownnotSpai
nso
chi
ll
"

Me:
"YhoobutIam soexci
ted"

Kat
:"
Mm soyouar
eof
fi
cial
lydat
ingbones"

Me:"
Yesandiam nol
ongeravi
rgi
n,hepoppedt
he
cher
ryl
astni
ght
"

Kat
:"
Wow...
..Noxol
ohowcanyousl
eepwi
th
someoneyoujustmett
woweeksago"

Me:
"I
t'
slovewhatcanIsay"

Kat
:"lover
eal
ly?owhpl
ease,
You'
react
ingl
ikea
whore"
Me:
"whatdoyoumeanam act
ingl
ikeawhor
e,i
t
houghtyouwil
lbehappyf
orme.
ar
eyouj
eal
ousorsomet
hing?
"

Kat:
"Whywoul
dIbejeal
ousofyouImeanIslept
wit
hbonesbef
oreyouevenknewthatt
her
e's
Gauteng"

Me:"
Wellheismi
nenowsogetusedt
oitandst
op
bei
ngjudgement
alandabi
tt
erf
uckbuddy"

Kat:
"huh,
foryouri
nfor
mati
on,
Iwasn'
tbonesf
uck
buddyIam hi
sexfi
ance"

Me:
"owh.
..
Real
ly?pl
easedon'
tfl
att
eryour
sel
f"

Kat
:"seemsl
ikesl
eepi
ngwi
thbonesmadeyou
thi
nkl
ikeyouareallthat
,wellgi
rl
yletmet
ellyou
somet
hing,iknowBones, iknowtheki
ndofmanhe
i
s.soenjoywhilei
tlast.
asf
ormeIam outofher
e"

shecli
ckedhertonguet
henwalkedaway,
herheel
s
cl
icki
ngharderonthemallf
loor
.
Ij
ustrol
ledmyeyesandt
hencont
inuedwi
thmy
shoppi
ng.
iwentt
otheswi
mwearshopandf
ewst
ores,I
'
ve
al
soboughtabi
gsui
tcase.

Nol
wazi

Iopenedmyeyes.t hemomentt heywereopenedI

couldtastethecopper ybl
oodpool i
ngi
nmymout h.
Icouldfeelitgrazingmyt eet
handsoaki ngmy
tongue.Ifel
ttheachi ngandcracksinmybones.
Eachcr ackfeltli
ker ockswereburrowi
ngi nt
omy
skin.Isuckedi ncrampedai r
,feel
ingmyl ungs
cavinginont hemselves.Isawt hespot sint he
cornersofmyvi si
on, makingmyheadf eelliket
he
onlythinginsi
deofi twasst ati
c.Iheardabuzzi ng
noise,f
ill
ingmyear s.Ifel
tlikeIwast heref orhour
s,
fadingandwaki ngandf adingandwaki ng.My
agonywast heonlythingkeepingmeal ive.Itwas
theonlythingIcouldfeelanymor e.
everyt
hingwasblur.pl
usandmyheadwasbusy
poundingIfel
tli
keIwasbumpedbyat r
uck.t
he
nolt
agicscentofrubbi
ngalcoholmademecertai
nly
surethatIam i
nhospital
.
memoriesofthenightt
hatbonesr
apedmecame
backt
earsdropped.

Voi
ce:"
Nol
waziohhGodt
hankyouDadNol
wazi
is
awake"
Me:
"Wa.
t.
e.rpl
ease"myt
hroatwassodr
y

asSheHandedmetheglassofwaterMyhands
weref
rai
lt
yandcaut
ion,
shakinggentl
yasit
ri
edto
drink.mymovement swer esomuchofthewomani
wasandst i
lli
s.Theywer eashenwherethesunli
ght
caughtthem,notghostlyli
keawhiteper
son,just
subduedandgr eyi
sh.Ithinkt
hat'
sthefi
rstt
imeI
reali
zedhowvulnerableiwasandhowmuchofa
tol
ltheacci
denthadt aken.

"
her
eletmehel
p"mysi
stert
ookt
hegl
assf
rom me.

shehel
pedmedri
nkwat
er.t
henshecl
osedt
he
cur
tai
nsint
heward
shest
aredatmewi
thpi
tyandsymphat
hy.

me:"Iknowyouwantt ohearaboutthecr ash,Ican

seethequest i
onsinyourbrainasiftheywer e
cart
oonbi rdsfl
yingaroundyourskull.Thethingis,
ther
ei sthebefore,t
hesli
ckroadandt hebeli
ef
everyt
hingwoul dbeokayandt heafter,whenI
walkedawayf rom whatmanydon' t
.It'sasifit
happenedt osomeoneel se,
ifI'
m honest ,
orperhaps
asi
fIsawi
tinamovieoneti
me.Itwasnoise,
mangl
edmetal
,andi
njur
iest
hatiwishcanheal.
"

Zodwa:
"Iam sosor
ry,
Icoul
dn'
tpr
otectyouf
orgi
ve
meNolwazi"
shecr
ied

Me:"
it
sohk,
It'
snotyourf
aul
tSi
s"Myvoi
cewasso
weak

Zodwa:"
Anywaydadt
hisi
syourdaught
er'
sthatyou
l
eftwhenshewas1yearol
d"

Dad:"
HeyAngel"Il
ookedathi
m wi
thoutbl
inki
ng
remember
ingwhatmymom t ol
dme.
shesai dthatmyf atherr
apedhert henmymom f al
l
pregnantaftershetoldhi
mt hatshei spr
egnanthe
tol
dhert oabortorelsehewi l
lki
llZodwabutmom
runawaywi thus.
Iam evenamazedhowZodwai
swi
thhi
m.
hereyesaref
ullofl
ove,
hersmil
ewhenshel
ooks
athi
m Iwishi
tcouldbethesamewi
thme

Me:
"Hi
"Isai
dwi
thabor
edt
one

Zodwa:
"HaiboNol
waziai
n'tyouhappyt
ofi
nal
ly
meetyourdad"

Me:"
OhhhIam nothappysi
stert
hismandi
dn'
t
wantmethi
smanwant edmymom t oabor
tme"

Zodwalaughed"Reall
yNolwazi?dadwassomadl y
i
nlovewi t
hhiskidshowcanyoual l
owmom t o
manipulat
eyouwi t
hli
eshuhlookatyou.You'r
ein
hospi
talbedbecauseofheryou'r
erapedbecause
ofherhaymarngr owup"

Ther
apepar
thi
thomeIwast
ryi
ngbyal
lmeanst
o
f
orgeti
t.
iguessit'
st hewoundt hatwi
llal
waysbei nmy
bodyitwon'thealIhatemom forwhatshedi dto
mei t
'sherfaultIshoul
dhavesaidnotohersi l
ly
plansIwishIcanki l
lherbymyownhandst hat'
sit
fr
om nowonIam goi ngtoenj
oymyt eenagelife
andstoprunningaf t
eroldmens.iam goi
ngbackt o
school

Zodwa:"
LookbabysisIknowyouhat eyoursel
fri
ght
nowbutpleaseopenup.please,
alwaystel
lme
what'
seati
ngyou"

Nolwazi
:"
Wherewasmydadal
lal
ongyouknowi
t
ZodwaI'
vebeenlongi
ngf
ormydad'
slove"

Zodwa:
"Hewasi
njai
lNol
waziMom f
ramedhi
m
dammit
"

Me:
"Iknowmom i
shear
tl
essbutshewoul
dnever
dot
hatt
oherhusband"

Zodwa:
"Therewegoagai
nyoudefendi
ngyour
mother
,lookwher
esheputyout
oday.
whereisshenowhuh..
..
.Iam sur
eshei
sbusy
sucki
ngoldman'sdi
ck"

Dad:"
NoZodwanoti nfrontofmeokaylookNolwazi
I'
dneverneglectyouguysyoumeant heworldto
meandiam gl adIam outofpri
sonIwillmakesure
thepersonwhodi dthistoyoupayIdon'tcarehow
famousheisIwi l
lki
llhi
m okaypri
ncess"Inodded
witht
earsinmyeyeshepul l
edmeinforahugI
dwell
edoni tforawhi l
e...

"I
'
llcomevisi
ttomor
row.Sl
eepwel
l
,dar
li
ng.
"He
saidaf
terwebroket
hehug.

Hi
sEyeswer
erawandful
loflove,
awar mt
h
wei
ghedonmychest
,mylungsbutter
ysof
t.
me:
“Fat
her
,st
ay.
”

Howsof tandmeaninglessmyvoiceseemednow.
Withoutther
eins,
withoutdi
rect
ion,
itsl
ikeiwasa
ghost.

Dad:"i
tsf
inebabygi
rl
,iwi
llstay"hi
svoi
cewas
si
lver,
afl
ameofwhiteandfrost.

if
eltsaf
eri
nhi
spr
esence.

Bones

Me:
"If
uckent
oldyout
otr
aceTasha'
sever
ymove
Dragon(ri
ghthandma):"
Ididthat
'swhyIam t
ell
ing
youthatsheisworki
ngwithoneofyourenemy"
Me:
"Dammi
tdosomet
hingdr
agonIdon'
twantt
o
endupi
njai
lthatwomenknowsal
otaboutmyl
i
fe"
Dr
agon:
"Iwi
llboss"
Me:
"Ki
llhermot
her
"
Dragon:
"Areyousur
eImeanyouknowhowmuch
pumpkinlovehergr
andmot
her
"
Me:
"Idon'
tcareIwantt
osendheramessageofnot
messi
ngwi t
hme"
Dr
agon:
"Consi
deri
tdone"
Me:
"sendherhandt
oTasha'
shouse"
Dr
agon:
"sur
e"

IdroppedthecallIam t
ir
edofTashashe'
sbeenon
myneckf orawhi l
enow.I'vet
oldhert
ost
ayaway
fr
om mybusi nessandsher ef
used.
nowshewasgoi
ngt
olear
nthehar
dway.
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er27

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NOXOLO

Exhi
lar
ati
onandchild-
li
keexci
tementfi
ll
edmef r
om
headtotoeasIbeganfoldi
ngmyclothesint
othe
box-
li
keluggage.
Icoul
dn'
twai
ttoseecapet
own.

Wel ef
tf ortheai
rpor
tearlythefol
lowingmor ni
ng,
Contemptandhappi nessf l
owedthroughmeasI
rol
ledthel oudwheel
salongt hemar bl
efloorofthe
air
port.War mthandelat
ionblossomedi nmyhear t
asthel uggagelayontherubberbeltatcheckin.

me:"
Icantbel
ieveam goi
ngtocapet
own"Isai
das
wesati
nfir
stclassi
ntheplane.

Bones:"Ist
il
lcan'
tbel
ieveyouagr
eedt
ocomewi
th
me,am gladyoucame"
Me:"
Iam gl
adicamet
oo"

Ast heplanetookoff
,laybackonmyseat ,It
hink
aboutwhat '
sbehindme, whaticancel
ledordidn'
t
bothertocancel.Asformyr oom,ij
ustshutthe
doorwithit'
sshinynewl ockandwalkedout,si
ncea
vacati
oni swhatineeded.
fl
ightenxi
etytookoverbutI
tgetseasi
erandeasi
er
astheplanereachedtheski
es,whenwel andedi
n
thecapetowni twasalr
eadylat
eafter
noon.

Bones:"t
hehi
redcarshoul
dal
readybeher
dforus"

Me:"
youhi
redacar
?"

Bones:
"of
'causeidi
d,andourhot
elhasal
ready
beenbooked"
Hetookmyluggageandwewal
kedt
otheai
rpor
t
ent
rance.
amandr essedinbl
ackwit
hBonesnamewr
it
teona
paperwasalreadywai
ti
ngforus.

hetookust
oablacktaxicabwegoti
nandhe
dr
oveawayfrom t
heair
port.

Iwatchedoutt
hewi
ndowast
hedr
ivert
ookust
o
thehotel
.
Thenewl yurbanisedcapet ownci tywasf l
oodedby
aseaofpeopl eheadingindi ffer
entdirecti
ons.The
higherclasspeoplestrutteddownt hehighst r
eet
carryi
ngt hei
rGuccihandbagsandwear ingtheir
Armanicoat s.Whereast hel owerclasspeopl esat
downont hecoldli
tteredfloorbeggi ngformoney.
TheyhadnoGuccihandbagt okeept hei
r
belongingsnevermi ndat hickcoatt oseet hem
throughthehar shwinter.Onever ycornerthere
wer ebuskers.Somesi ngingwi t
hmar vell
oust al
ent
andot herswhichsoundedl ikeacati nawashi ng
machine.Therewasalsoal
otoffoodstal
lssel
li
ng
f
ast-
foodgal or
ewhichmadethehomelesspeoples
mouthswat er.

me:
"Wowcapet
owni
ssohugeandabi
twi
ndy"

Bones:"youhaven'
tseennot
hingyet
,tomor
rowam
gonnatakeyoutotheoceanandwegonnaseethe
tabl
emoui nt
ain"

me:"wowr
eal
ly,
icantwai
tandt
hankyouf
ordoi
ng
t
hisfor
"
Bones:
"i
t'
smypl
easur
ebabeIl
ovespendi
ngmy
cashonyou"
Me:"
AndIl
ovespendi
ngyourhar
dear
nedmoney"
hecl
ear
edhist
hroat
Bones:
"Yesbabe"

Wewal
kedi
ntot
hef
ivest
arhot
el,
theygaveusa
keyt
oourr
oom
andwet
ookt
heel
evat
ort
othet
ent
hfl
oor
.
boneshadgot
tenust
hepr
esi
dent
ialsui
te.

Thehot elroom isoneoft hemostl uxur iousihave

everseen.t hesuitwashugeanddi dn'tlooklikea
hotelroom atal l
..
.morelikeaguestsui t
ei napal ace.
Thebedwaski ng-si
zedwi thpurewhi te,Egypt i
an
cottonsheet s.thewasadesk, athirty-six-
inchTV
withvideoandDVD, aspr awlingl eathersof a,and,
ontheot hersideoft hefloor -
to-ceil
ingwi ndows
wasourver yownpr i
vatet err
ace.Andt hebat hroom!
Aswel last hepowershower ,therewasabat hbig
enoughf oraf ootballt
eam, andaJacuzzi .
Everythi
ngi nmar bleandhandcr aftedt i
les.The
mill
ionair
esui te.ishudder edtot hinkhowmuchi t
mightcostani ght.

Me:"Bones,
,
,,t
hispl
acei
ssobeaut
if
ul"
Bones:"
am gl
adyouli
keit,
nowiknowyoumustbe
ti
redsohowaboutweorderroom ser
vicet
henwe
rest
.wehavealongdaytomorrow"

me:"soundsl
ikeagoodi
dea"

Bonedcalledforr
oom ser
vice,
theroom keeper
broughtourfood,
weateandaf t
ereati
ngwer et
ired
tobed..
..
.

Iwokeupt oBi rdstri

ll,sweetlyhigh, t
hechor usas
playfulasthebi rdsthemsel ves.Wi thcl osedeyes,I
i
magi net heirmusi ctobecol our
s, paintingstairsi
n
thesamewaygr apevinesgr ow-t hiswayandt hat
,
i
nabeaut ifulchaost hatisn'tqui
ter andom.I nthe
calm oftheday, myhear tbeatisthest eadydr um t
o
theirmelodyandIseepi ntot hemoment ,al
lowing
mysel ftoclimbt hoser ainbowst airs.

r
ightt
henBonesent
eredcomi
ngf
rom t
hebat
hroom.
Bones:"heyyouar
eal
readyawake,
gof
reshenup.
Ihaveal
readyor
der
edbr
eakf
ast
".
Me:
"Goodmor
ningmyl
ove"
Bones:
"Mor
ningbabe"hepeckedmyl
ipshewas
hol
dingmeti
ghtinhisgr
ip
Me:"
BabeletgoIhavet
ogoandbat
hsot
hatwe
canstar
toutday"
Bones:
"IknowbutIl
ovef
eel
ingyourski
n"Ibl
ushed
Me:
"Iknow"

Igotupandwenttotakeashower
,iwr
appeda
fl
uff
ywhitet
owelaroundmybodyasiret
urnedt
o
theroom.
Boneswasst
il
lundr
essed.
Intheroom thatistwil
ightandshadowBones
standscloseenoughf ormet obreat
heinhisscent
.
Hisarmswr apar oundmybackandi nonegentl
e
pullourski
nt ouches.Ifeelhi
shandinmyhair,how
hel ovest hesof t
ness, wat chingittumbl eashe
releasesi t.Thenhi shandmovesdownmy
cheekbonest omyl i
ps.That '
swhent heki ssing
startsandwest arttomovel ikepar t
ner sinadance
thatiswr i
tteninourDNA.Ourbodi esf ittoget heras
i
fwewer emadej ustf ort his,tofalli
nt ooneanot her
,
tof eelthisnat uralr hyt hm.Wi thal aughhel i
ftsme
ri
ghtof fmyf eet ,car ryingmet owar dt hebed, l
etti
ng
mef allwithasof tbounceont hemat tress.Wel ock
eyesf orj ustamoment ,j
ustenoughf orust of eel
saf ewi thoneanot her .Thenhe' sallbusi ness,
undoi ngt het owel ,slidi ngi toff
,kissingf rom my
toesupwar d,slowl y, hishandsonmyl egs, always
j
ustal itt
lehighert hant heki sses.If eelmyback
archi nant ici
pat ion, knowi ngwher ehi sf inger swill
soonr each.Myheadr ocksbackagai nstt hepi ll
ow
ashedoes, t
hef irstmoanescapi ngmyl ips.

Heismydr ug.Onet ouchandhi

sintoxi
cati
onis
i
nstant.Whateverhewantstodoiswhatwe' l
ldo
andtherei
sn'tathingIcandotostophim -nott
hat
I'
dwantto.
There'ssomethingabouthimthatl
ight
smeupf r
om
theinside,t
here'
ssomethingaboutmet hatmel
ts
hisconf i
dencetonothi
ngatall
.Touchinghimisli
ke
beinghandedt hehol
ygr ai
l,
li
kemyhear tismended
eventhoughIneverknewi twasbroken.
Justhisscentsendsmei ntoaheadytr
ance,one
thatdoesn'
tenduntilourbodi
esaresti
lloncemore,
j
ustwar m andsnuggledinascloseastwosouls
canbe.

Wewenti nforthesecondr ound, breathedeep.I n.

Out .Wi t
hinaspl itsecondI '
mt hereagai n,i
tslikeI
nevercame.Ti mei sforgott
en.Thesi deofhi s
thighsar epressedagai nstmine.He' ssureof
himsel f,heknowshei sincontrol.Isurrender
compl et
ely.Ihavewant edthissincet helasttime
wedi dit,icravedhi shumanf l
esh, histongue
tastingmybr eath.Wear ebothcaughtupi nt he
moment ,i
tsli
kewewi llneverleaveeachot her.I
feelf orhim,her eachesf ormybr east s,pul
lsmeup,
wet wistandt urnandi tsstar
tsalloveragai nl i
kea
cycle.Isenseever ythi
ng, t
hisimmensemagnet i
c
f
iel
dbet
weenus.El
ect
ri
cit
y.Butdoeshe?

Ir
eal
lyhopedhedoes.

whenweweredonewewenttotakeaquickshower
thenwewentt
ohavebr
eakf
astbefor
eleavingt
he
hotel
.

Capet ownwassobeaut if
ul,Themount ai
nswer e
si
lhouet t
esagainstacr imsonskyandt heai rsmel l
s
oftheocean.Ther ei snodr oneofcar s,orthehi ss
astheymoveovert hedampcoat edst r
eet;thereis
onlythecr yofthegul l
sast heycal lf
orthef ishi
ng
boatstocomei n.Thereissomet hingaboutt he
dawnt hatmakeseachnewdaysuchagi ft,easesit
i
ngent ly,unwrappingthewor l
danew.Bycont rast
wakingl ateri
nthedayf eelslikear udeness, thesun
al
readyhi gh,bri
ghtandhot .Atthisti
meofdayt he
ai
riscoolanddamp, Icouldgot oanal ldayspa
andnotbesor efreshed,sor echarged..
.
Aft
ergoi
ngsi
ghtseei
ngf
orabi
t,Bonest
ookmet
o
t
heocean.

Aswewal katt heoceanif eltfree, Wi thever yst ep

thesandshi fted.Wi thever ymot ionf orwar dt her e
wassomebackwar danddown, justl i
kewal kingin
freshf allensnow.Yetunl i
ket hecr yst al
linebl anket
ofwhi tebequeat hedbyt hewi ntert i
me, thef i
ne
grainsunderf ootgi vemewar mt hf rom t hesun' s
rays.Li ket heirsky- boundbenef actor ,theyar a
yellow, asi fthesunshi nei t
sel fistrappedi nside
theirunmel ti
ngcr ystals.Despi tet heheatIf ind
mysel ff rozeni npl aceoncemyeyest akei nt he
ocean.Thewavesr ollinwhi tet i
pped, spr eading
themsel vesl i
kef i
nel aceovert hebeachaf tert hey
crashi nt heirsof tway.Ther eisnot hingnoi syabout
them, yett heyhavesound.Per hapst omei tismor e
l
iket hemusi cofmychi ldhoodsummer ssol ong
agowi tht hepeopl eIhavel ovedandl ost.IfIcl ose
myeyesIcanhearmymot hercal l
ingmef orl unch.i
coul dn'tbel i
evemysel fthatIam f i
nal lyinCape
townI'
vebeendr
eamingtoseetheseathatwast
he
goalIwant
edtoarchi
vewhenIstar
ttowork.

wetookpictur
eswit
hBonesIwasreal
lyenj
oyi
ng
capetown.icoul
dn'
twai
ttoSeet
heTablemountai
n.

Me:
"Thankyou"
Bones:
"You'
vebeensayi
ngt
hissi
nceyest
erday"
Me:
"BabeIam r
eal
lygr
atef
ul"
Bones:
"Let
'sgoandshopti
llwedrop"Igasped
"WhatbabeIalsoknowt
hatyouladiespai
ntthe
wholetownred"
Me:
"Andwear
egoi
ngt
odoi
tlove"
Bones:
"Yesboo"wegi
ggl
edt
henki
ssedmy
for
ehead
Me:
"Let
'sgo"

Wewentt
owat
erf
rontmal
litwassobi
gandgotl
ot
ofpi
ctur
es

Bones:
"Ar
eyouenj
oyi
ngyour
sel
f"
Me:
"YesbabeIam"
Bones:
"Let
'sgot
osomebot
iques"
Me:
"Ohhyouwantt
otr
ythei
rsdesi
gns?
"
Bones:
"NobabeIwantyout
ochoosewhat
everyou
want"
Me:
"Okay"

Wewentt oGuccishopandboughtlotofbags,
hil
ls
andclot
hesaft
erthatwe.wwnttoDiorIal
sobought
tr
acksui
tsandkickstocuti
tshortI
'
veboughtlotof
cl
othesandshoes.

Me:
"GodIam sot
ir
ed"
Bones:
"l
et'
sgot
oeatt
hen"
Me:
"Mm sowher
ear
ewegoi
ngTommor
ow?
"
Bones:
"Tabl
emount
ain"
"
Me:
"Mm Ican'
twai
t"
Bones:
"Met
oo"

Iwentt
opl
acedcl
othesatt
heboott
henwentt
oeat
.

Me:
"Whathaveyouor
der
ed?
"
Bones:"
I'
veor
deredpr
awns,
Mudcr
absandl
obst
ers
fol
lowedbypinkgi
n"
Me:
"HopeIenj
oyt
hem"
Bones:
"Don'
twor
ryyouwi
ll
,
theyar
enotbadatal
l"
Me:"
Okay"Isatdownourf
oodcameIdon'
twanna
l
ieIenj
oyeditevent
houghther
ewasl
otofst
ares.

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___

Doc:
"Sohow'
smypat
ient
"
Me:
"Iam hangi
ngt
her
e"
Doc:
"OkayIwi
llbedi
schar
gingyoui
n2dayst
o
come"
Me:
"Wowt
hankyou"
Doc:
"Butyoumustnotover
workyoursel
favoid
l
if
ti
ngheavythi
ngsbecauseyourr
ibsaresti
llweak"
Me:
"Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"
Voi
ce:
"AndIwon'
tletheroverwor
khersel
f"Ir
oll
ed
myeyeswhenInoticedthati
tismom
Doc:
"YespleaseandIsuggestshegoanseea
t
herapi
st"
Mom: "
Iwi
llpl
acet
hebooki
ngt
hankyoudoc"he
noddedandwentout

Mom:
"Howar
eyoudoi
ngpr
incess"
Me:"
Mom ar
eyour eal
lygoingtoaskhowam I
doi
ngaft
erwhatyouputmet hroughhuhIwas
bumpedbyacarnoact ual
lyi
twasahi tandr
un"
Mom:
"Pr
incessIam sor
ryIknowi
t'
smyf
aul
t"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
oseeyouanymor
e,Ihat
eyou"
Mom:
"Youdon'
tmeant
hatpl
easeNol
wazi
"
Me:"
Pleasewhatmamahuhmywhol el
if
eyou'
ve
beenfeedi
ngmelies.Ohhheysi
s"mymoodli
ght
en
whenIsawNolwaziandDad
Zodwa:
"Howar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:"
Am okaypl
ust
hepai
nsar
est
art
ingt
ofade
away"
Zodwa:"
Ohhbutonaser
iousnot
ear
eyouokay
emoti
onal?
"
Me:
"Don'
twor
rysi
sIam f
ine"
Zodwa: "
Daddon'tyouthinkthatNol
wazii
snotokay
mentallyImeanshedoesn' tl
ookli
keapersonwho
wasr aped"shewhisperedtoherdadmakingsur
e
thatNolwazidoesn'
thearher.
Dad:
"It
hinkso"heal
sowhi
sper
ed
Me:
"Guyswhatar
eyouwhi
sper
ingabout
?"
Dad:
"Nothi
ngAngeldon'
tyouwantt
ocomeand
st
aywithus?"
Me:
"Us?
"
Dad:
"YesZodwai
sli
vingwi
thme"
Mom:"Don'
tyoudaretakemyki dsawayf
rom me"
Mom snappedaft
erbeingshockedbyseei
ng
dad,
shenevert
houghthewoul dcomeoutanyti
me
soon.
Dad:
"Tr
yme"
Me:
"Don'
twor r
ydadasl
ongasIdon'
tgett
ost
ay
wi
thShir
ley"
Mom:"Youknowwhatyouwi
llpayf
ort
his"shesai
d
t
hatshooti
ngdadwi
thastar
ethenwentout.

TOBECONTI
NUED

LI
KE,
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Noxol
o

Thefoll
owingmorningIwokeupfeeli
ngalit
tl
ebit
drowsy,iwasinbonesarmsItr
iedtobreakfr
ee
fr
om hisholdbutheti
ghtenedt
hegrip.

Me:
"BabyIwantt
opee"
Bones:
"ButIam enj
oyi
ngt
his"
Me:"
OkayIam goi
ngtopeet
hencomebackaf
ter
doi
ngmybusiness"
Bones:
"butwhy?"hewhi
nedl
ikeachi
ld,
hiseyes
werebarel
yopened.

Me:"
babepl
ease,
ineedtogori
ghtnow,doyou
wantmetowetmyself
?"It
ri
edbreaki
ngfr
ee.

Bones:"f
ine"hepout
ed"butbef
astabouti
t,t
he
bedisget
tingcol
dalr
eady"
Me:"stopbei
ngacrybaby,
justgi
vemeasec."he
l
etgo,butqui
ckl
ypeckedmylipsandir
ushedoft
o
t
hebathroom.

whenigottot
hebathr
oom ipeedthendeci
dedt
o
j
usttakeabat
hbecauseiwasalreadyi
nthe
bat
hroom.
itookaqui ckshowerthenworemywhi teplai
nt-
shirtwit
hmar rondungreeandpeachkicks.il
ooked
hotifImaysayact ual
lyIwassl
aying,
evenBones
wasl i
teral
lydrool
ingoverme.

Bones:
"Babyar
eyoudone?
"
Me:
"YesbutIhavet
ocombmyweave"
Bones:
"Bef
astHunanddon'
tfor
getTommor
owwe
ar
egoingbackhome"
Me:
"GoshIam goi
ngt
omi
ssCapet
ownsobad"
Bones:
"Youcancomebackagai
nIr
eal
lydon'
t
mi
nd"
Me:"
Iknowbutifi
rsthavetoputmyl
if
etoget
herI
can'
tkeepondependingonyou"
Bones:
"I
t'
snotl
ikeIam compl
aini
ng"
Me:"
Iknowyou'
renotcomplai
ningbutbabewhati
f
youl
eavemethefoll
owingdaywherewillIgo?
"
Bones:
"Getthatt
houghtoutofyourskul
l"hesai
d
wit
hasadf ace
Me:
"Done"Isai
dsmi
li
ngandhemel
ted
Bones:"
Babyyoursmi
lemakemewantt
odothi
ngs
toyourbody"
hesaidt
hatr
unni
nghi
shandsonmy
waist
Me:
"wedon'
twantt
obel
atedowe?
"
Bones:
"Fuck"
Me:
Igi
ggl
edt
henpeckedhi
sli
ps
Bones:
"Let
'sgobabe"
Me:
"Haveyoubat
hed?
"
Bones:
"Yes"
Hewasl
ying.
Me:"MyGoodnessbabegoandtakeashowerso
thatwecango"I’
m notl
eavi
ngwit
hsomeonewho
hasn’tshower
ed.
Bones:
"Okay"

Hesmackedmyasst henwentt oshower ,Ifi

xedmy
hairthenlai
dmyedgesaf terthatImadet hebedI
knowwear einhotelbutIdon' twantpeopl e
i
nvadi ngmybusi nessthat'swhyI 'vedecidedtotel
l
Bonest hatIwil
lmaket hebedsoaf tert
hatBones
camebackwear ingblackt rousersitwasoneofhi s
designedandGucci shirtl
astlywithblackf or
mal
shoest hi
smanl ovesf ormall i
kereallybuthewas
l
ookingappeal i
ng.

Bones:
"Wecango"
hesai
dthatpuf
fi
nghi
scol
ogne
Me:
"you'
rehot
"Icompl
iment
ed.
Bones:
"Iknowbabes"
Okayr
emi
ndmenevert
ocompl
imenthi
m agai
n.
Me:"ar
rogantmuch,Comeondude,
athankyou
wouldbeniceyouknow"
Bones:
"Ohhthankyoubabe"whatI
'venot
icedabout
bonesist
hathedoesn'
tsmilef
requent
ly,
it’
sli
ke
he’
salwaysmadatsomet hi
ng.
Me:
"Andasmi
lewoul
dbeper
fectonyourf
ace.
”
Bones:
"Nowyouarepushi
ngit.canwejustgo.
what
youhavetounder
standNoxol
oisthatIsmil
ewhen
Iwantdon'
tfor
cemeokay"
Me:
"Ohksor
ry"

Het ookhiscarKeysandexit
edtheroom, ihurri
dly
fol
lowedaf t
erhim unt
ilwewerei
nsidethecarI
don'tknowit'
sname.Iam evensurpri
sedt hatheis
dri
vingonhi sown.Anywaywewentt otable
mount ai
n

Bones:
"babewear
egoi
ngt
odosomet
hingexci
ti
ng"
Me:
"Real
ly"
Bones: "
Yesbabe"hesaidthatusi
ngarockcli
mb
unfortunat
elyweweregoingtodoaskydivingI
don'tknowwhatt hat
'st
hingbutbythel
ooksofitI
t
l
ooksl ikei
tisfun.

Bones:
"Ar
eyousur
ethatshewon'
tfal
l"hewas
aski
ngoneoft
heworker
swewer eontopofthe
mountai
n
Hi
m:"
Nodon'tworryshewon'
tfal
l.Eveni
fshef
all
wegi
vel
if
einsurance"
Bones:
"NoWenamakesur
ethatmywomendoesn'
t
fal
l"
Hi
m:"
Shewon'
t"

Anywayhebuckl edt
hebeltsonmybodyIwas
actual
lyt
erri
fi
edandanxious,whydidBonesthi
nk
i
t ’
sagoodideatodosomet hi
ngliket
his?Doeshe
valuemylif
e?WhatifIdi
e?Godt hisi
st hesameas
signi
ngyourowndeathcertif
icat
e.Ifel
tmyheart
jumpingyositatmythr
oatasIwaspushedoft he
cli
ff
,theworldseemedtobespi nni
ng,itl
ookedli
ke
someoft herocksmayfallonmeandf orasecondi
thoughtimightlandont
her ocksbelow.
iti
ghtl
yclosedmyeyes,sayingasmallprayer
hopingthatgodwil
lsaveme.idon'twannafalland
icl
earlynotgonnadothateveragai
n.
aft
erawhil
eIcamebackIf
eltl
iketheworldi
s
comingt
oanendwhywouldhet rytoki
llmeIam
somadatbones.

NOLWAZI

Asil
ayal
onei
nthathospi
talbediRemember
edol
d
t
imes.
wheniwasyounger.whenihadf r
iendsandiwas
soinnocent
,nowif
eltl
ikeal
lthatwasstolenf
rom
me.
ial
lowedmymom touseme,
ili
stenedt
oherunt
ili
wasbrutal
lymol
est
ed.
howdi
digether
e?
tear
ssli
ddownsidewaysasif
ail
edtoswal
lowt
he
hugelumpthatwasst
uckonmyt hr
oat
.

whycan'
tibeyoungagai
n,whycan'
titur
nback
ti
meandbebackwheniuset opl
ayaroundwi
th
zodwa,
nothi
ngwasexpectedofmethen.
iwasj
ustachi
ld.
ir
ememberwhenweuset opr et
endli
kemydad
waswi t
hus, zodwawil
lpr
etendtobedad,
onmy
bi
rthdaysshewi l
lpl
aceaboxofsweetsonthef
ront
doorstepthathadmynamewr i
tt
en
i
nhersl
oppyhandwr
it
ing.
IrememberhowIcamehomesobbi
ngloudly
becausemyfri
endshadt
easedmet
hatididn'
thave
adad,mysalt
ytears
rol
li
ngeffor
tl
esslydownmymot
her'
slap.st
il
lshe
nevert
oldmet hatshewast
her
easondadwas
gone.
whatki
ndofamot
herdoest
hatt
oherki
ds?
asil
ayi
mmobileandbor
edatt
hehospi
talbed,
st
ari
ngatt
hebori
ngwhit
ewall
al
adywhowasi nherl
atet
went
ieswal
kedi
n,she
gr
inassheent
ers.
Hersmil
eext
endstohereyes,t
winkl
ingl
ikeshe'
s
gr
eeti
ngabeloveddaught
er.

"
heyt
her
e,youar
eawake"shesays.

inoddedandtri
edmybestt ogi
veherasmi
le,
reci
procat
ingherhospi
tal
it
yinaway.
shelookedatmewit
hpi
ty,
iguessmysmi
lewas
l
imit
edt omymouth.

unsur
eofwhathappensnextandwaryofbei
ng
drawnint
oaconver
sati
onididn'
thavet
imefor.
ilookedawayandcl
osedmyeyeshopi
ngshewi
ll
leave.
"
am MAY,
what
'syourname?
"

me:"am Nol
wazi
"

May:"Nol
wazi,I'
l
lbeyournur
set
oday.Howwas
yoursl
eeplastnight
?"

Me:"
itwasfi
ne,
whenam igoi
nghome,
am t
ir
edof
l
ayi
nghereal
lday"

May:"soon,hopeful
ly,
letmejustchangeyourdr
ip
andgiveyou,yourmedici
ne"

iturnedt
heotherwayandneversmiled,
ijust
want edt
oleaveandf
orgetwhathappenedtome.I
thinkIwi
llbegoi
nghomeTommor owbecausemy
doctormenti
onedmethathewilldi
schargemein
thenexttwodays.
iwant
edt
ofor
gethi
shandscr
awl
ingovermybody,
iwant
edever
ythi
ngt
obeover
.
Thehospi
talsmel
lwasdespi
cabl
e,Ihat
edi
t.

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Bones

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Me:"
Haveyoudonet hej
obIt
oldyou?"
Iwasona
cal
lwithdragonIlef
tmywomanont hebed
sl
eepingpeaceful
ly

Dr
agon:
"NobossTashahi
redguar
dsf
orher
"
Me:"Andsi
ncewhendowehavepr
obl
em abouther
guar
dsorareyout
ryi
ngt
otel
lmeyou'
regett
ing
weak?"

Dragon:"
Ofcour
senotboss,
butt
hoseguysarent
j
ustsomepeopleshepi
ckedupofthest
reet
s,t
hey
ar
epr of
essi
onal
."

Me:"
DragonwhydoIpayyou?Mhmm.Whyam I
wast
ingmymoneypayi
ngyouifyouarejustgoi
ng
t
obri
ngmepr obl
emsandnotsol
uti
ons.
"

Dr
agon:"
Har
dyboss.
"

Me:"DammitDragonstopwit
ht heapologies,
you
ser
iouslywanttotel
lmethatyoucan'ttakethem
down? "
Dragon:"
Icant
rybuti
twil
lnotbeeasyboss,
her
securi
tyist
ooti
ghtImeanshegot15guards
aroundtheyar
d"

Me:"Youknowwhatf or geti
t,
clearl
yIhavet odo
everythi
ngbymyself.
"Ihungupandt hr
ewt he
phoneont hecouch.IfIdidntneedi tIprobabl
y
wouldhavesmashedi tagainstthewal l
.Thereis
nothingIhat
emor ethani ncompet entpeople.

Iwasdeepi
nt houghtwhenIf
eltwar
m handson
mywaistIt
urnedonlytofi
ndmyangelsmil
ing

Me:
"Mor
ningbabe"
Noxol
o:"
Morningloveareyouokay?Yourbodyi
s
t
ense,what
'sstr
essingyou?"

Me:
"I
tsnot
hingbabe,
Iwi
llbeal
ri
ght
"
Noxol
o:"
Okaysowhatt
imewi
llwel
eave?
"
Me:
"Ohhhhal
fpastt
en.
"

Noxolo:"
Okay."Shel
etgoofmeandsatonthebed,
butIcoul
dtellsomet
hingwaswei
ghi
ngheavil
yon
her.

Me:"
What
'swr
ong?
"

Noxol
o:"
BonesI'
vebeenthi
nki
ng,Idon'
tknowwho
youar
e."Shesai
dnotlooki
ngatme.

Me:
"Whatdoyoumean?
"

Noxolo:
"BonesIwantt
oknowt herealyou.Iwantt
o
knowwhatmakesyouhappy, whatmakesyousad,
Iwanttobeapartofyourli
feandt
hatmeans
gett
ingtoknowthepersonbehi
ndthename.Iwant
toknowyou."
Me:
"Butbabyyouknowthei
mpor
tantt
hingsand
t
hat
'sallt
hatmatt
ers.
"

Noxolo:
"NoMyloveIdon'
t,
ImeanIdon'tevenknow
whereyourmoneycomesfrom,Iknowyouhave
moneybutIdontknowwhereitcomesfrom."

Me:"
Okay.
"Isi
tdownnextt
oher"
Askmewhat
ever
youwantt
oknowbabe."

Noxolo:"Idontwantyoutot
ellmet
hingsifyouare
notready.Ijustwoul
dli
ketoknowwhoI'm deal
ing
wit
h."

Me:"
Andt hat'
swhyIsai
daskmeanyt
hingandI
wi
llt
ellyou.
"

Noxol
o:"
Ithi
nkwear
erushi
ngi
ntot
hingsandIdont
wantt
oendupget
ti
nghur
t.
"

Me:
"WhatdoyoumeanNoxol
o."

Noxol
o:"
Iloveyoubuti
tfeel
slike,
Idontknow,
li
ke
I
'minarel
ationshi
pwit
hastranger.
"

Me:
"Youbet
ternott
hinkofl
eavi
ngme.
"

Noxol
o:"Noofcour
senot
."Icoul
dseei
tthatshe
wasbitscar
edofmylook.

Me:
"Okaywhatdoyouwantt
oknow?
"
Noxol
o:"
Whatdoyoudoforal
ivi
ng?
"Shepout
ed
t
hatmadehermorecut
e
Me:
"OkayI
'
vegott
wol
ogi
sti
cscompani
es"
Noxol
o:"
mm what
'st
hat
?"
Me:
"Wedealwi
tht
ranspor
tat
ion,
truckset
c.Li
ke
someevenhavet
rucksoper
ati
ngatt
hemi
nes"
Noxol
o:"
Wow,
okayIt
hought
,youknowwhat
,never
mind.
"

Me:
"Yout
houghtwhatbabe?
"

Noxol
o:"
Nol
etsl
eavei
t
Il
oveyouSi
khul
iiZul
u"
Me:"Il
oveyoutwoMazul uwam."Iknowshehas
herownreservati
onsbutwhensheisreadyshewil
l
l
etmeknow.Iki ssheronthel
ips.ImustadmitI
real
lyl
ovethi
sgi r
l.

Noxolo:
"Letmegoandbat
hsot
hatIcanpackour
cl
othes.
"

Me:
"Howaboutwebat
htoget
her
?"
Noxol
o:"
IuhIdon'
tknow.
"
Me:"
Don'
tworryit
'snotl
ikei
t'
sthef
ir
stt
imeIwi
llbe
seei
ngyounaked"
Noxol
o:"
Okay"
Me:
"Okay?
Noxol
o:"
Yes."Ismi
ledandwewal
kedi
ntot
he
bat
hroom t
ogether
.

Nol
wazi

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Zodwa:
"Can'
tbel
ieveyou'
regoi
ngbackhomeLi
l
si
s"
Me:"
Zodwacanwet al
kIfeell
ikeyoudon'
tknowt
he
whol
estor
y"Isadt
hatbli
nkingtear
saway

Zodwa:
"Comeher
e"Il
impedt
oherar
msshegave
meoneofherwarmesthugs"allwi
llbewel
lLi
lsi
s
I
'vegotyouIwon'
tleaveyoursi
deokay"
Me:"
Irememberhisgr
oansontopofmeZodwa
af
tersat
isf
yinghi
msel
fhelef
tmelikeadamn
pr
osti
tut
emypussywassoswol l
en"myvoicewas
br
eaking
Zodwa:
"Shhhdon'
tcr
yNol
waziyou'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Me:
"Iam beyondrepai
rZodwaIam gl
adt
hatmy
wombisstil
lokay"

Zodwa:"
Dadgotyout
hebestt
her
apyal
lwi
llbewel
l
okay"
Me:
"Idon'
tneedashr
inkIam okayl
et'
sgo"

Zodwa:"
Idon'
tcar
eNol
waziyou'
regoi
ngt
ogethel
p
andthat
'si
t"
Me:
"Okay"

Shet
ookmybagwedr
ovet
odad'
shouseIam
r
eli
evedt
hatIwon'
tbest
ayi
ngwi
thmom.

Tasha

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_

Me:"
Lookdr
agonIdon'
tneedhi
smoneyanymor
eI
j
ustwantt
orui
nhim"
Dr
agon:
"IknowTashabutyoumustbecar
eful
"
Me:
"Iam andIam gl
andt
hatyou'
rewor
kingwi
th
metobri
nghim down"
Dr
agon:"LookIwi l
lal
waystel
lyouwhat'
sgoi
ngon,
what'
she'splanningandsoonandyoumustalso
pr
otectyoursel
f,Iknowheisaft
eryourmom'
s
bl
oodbutyoual soneedtobesafe.
"

Me:
"Ofcour
seI
'
vet
ight
enedt
hesecur
it
y"
Dr
agon:
"Okaysur
eshar
pletmego"
Hehuggedmet henwentout,Iam gladthatdragon
i
swill
ingt
ohelpmeIr eal
lyhopeIwi nthisfi
ghtas
f
arasIwanttoruinhi
m Ialsodon'twanthim near
mychildt
hatguyisdangerousIdon'tevenknow
whatIsawinhiminthefi
rstplace.

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Nol
wazi

"Pleasedon'
thur
tmeIdidn'
tmeantodowhatIdi
d
pleasebonesspareme,
IknowIdidyouwr
ongbut
i
twasn'tmyintent
ion.
"Iwasdownonmyknees
beggi
nghim buthedidn'
twantt
oheari
t.
"Shutupyoubi tch"Hesaidjustasahotslapmade
contactwithmyf aceashepi nnedmedown.If el
t
someoneshaki ngmeandIscr eamedlouder,t
hey
keptshakingmeunt ilIopenedmyeyesandsawmy
sist
er.Il
ookedar oundandhewasn' ther
e,itwasa
dream, i
twasal lj
ustadream.Ibur i
edmyheadi n
mysi st
er'schestasshecomf ortedme.

Zodwa:"
It
'sokayLi
lsi
sdon'
tcr
yitwasadr
eam
okay"
Me:"I
tfel
tsor
ealZodwathi
sti
mehewasusi
nga
condom"Iwassweati
ng

Zodwa:
"Ohhhshi
t"
Me:Isni
ff
ed"what
?"
Zodwa:"
Nonot
hingcomebabyl
etsgoandsl
eep
toget
her
"
Me:
"Won'
thecomebackf
orme?
"
Zodwa:
"Nohewon'twegotourf
atherhei
sgoi
ngt
o
beourher
ookay"

Me:
"Okay"
Zodwa:
"Don'tcr
y"shewi
pedmyt ears"
comel
et'
s
goandsleepsothatwecanvi
sityourt
her
api
st
Tommorow"
Me:
"Umm okay"

Noxol
o

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_

Me:
"Babear
eyouokay?
"
Bones:
"YesIam don'
twor
ryokay
Me:
"Ohhal
ri
ght
"
Bones:
"Yeahdon'
twor
ryyour
sel
fokay"
Me:
"Umm okayl
et'
scook"
Bones:
"Not
hat
'snotmyt
hing"
Me:
"You'
renotnotr
omant
ic"
Bones:"
Okayokaybutnextt
imeyoumustknowt
hat
Iam notusedt
othatshit
"
Me:
"Okayl
et'
sbakechocol
atemuf
fi
nsf
ordesser
t"

Bones:
"Andl
ambst
ewf
ormai
ncour
sewi
thpap"
Me:
"Yes"Igi
ggl
edwhi
lehef
lashedhi
ssmi
le
Bones:
"Lestst
art
"

Wewenttothekit
chenanywayI'
vecookedthelamb
st
ewt hewaymom showedmeevent houghthere
wasnosoupnorveggiesaf
tert
hatwebaked
muffi
nsIhadtogoogl
ehowt obakethem because
i
twasmyf ir
stt
imebakingmuff
instr
ustmet he
ki
tchenwasamess.
Me:
"Iam sof
uckent
ir
ed"
Bones:
"Cl
eanyourmessNoxol
oIam goi
ngt
obat
h"
Me:
"Ohhnobabei
t'
sourmess"
Bones:
"Mm mybabecanyoupl
easecl
eanour
mess"

Me:
"Wi
thpleasur
ebutIam t
ir
edImeanI
'
vebeenon
apl
anefor3hourssoIwanttor
est
"

Bones:
"Iknowbabebutpl
ease"
Me:
"Okay"

Heki
ssedmyf
oreheadt
henwentt
obat
h.

Zodwa

_
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_
Me:
"Ohhso.youwantt
ot el
lmethatyoumi
spl
aced
Nol
wazi
'sresul
tswi
thotherwomen"
Doc:
"Iam sosor
rymi
ss"
Me:
"YouknowwhatIam goi
ngt
osueyou"

Doc:
"Pl
easeweonl
ymi
spl
acedt
her
apeki
t"

Me:"
Idon'
tcar
eokaymyLilsi
sisdepr
essedand
youwantmetodropanot
herbomb"
Doc:
"Comewi
thherTommor
owIwi
lldr
opt
he
news"
Me:"Youdon'
tunderst
anddoyou?HuhNol
wazi'
sis
sofuckedupandyouexpecthert
obeli
kenoIam
happythatam goi
ngtobeamom"
Doc:"NoIunder
standwhatyou'r
esayingandiknow
shewon'tbehappyaftert
ell
inghert
hatsheis
pregnantandworsethi
ngshewasr aped"
Me:
"Youknowwhatdon'
tbot
herIwi
lldoi
tonmy
ownnx"

Ist
ormedout
.

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NOLWAZI

Hear i
ngmysi st
ertel
lmeIam pr
egnantwasa
shocker.Iknewfrom t
hemomentsheutter
edthose
wor dsthatIwascarr
yingmyr
apist
schil
d.ButIsti
ll
didntwanttobeli
eveit.
Me:
"WhatdoyoumeanIam pr
egnantZodwa?
"
Zodwa:
"i
twhati
tisbabygir
l?"Icantbel
ieveshe
wasbei
ngsocasualaboutthis.
Me:
"Iam abor
ti
ngi
tZodwa,
Iam st
il
lyoungt
obea
mot
her.
"
Zodwa:
"No!
"Sheshout
ed
Me:"Whatdoyoumeanno, i
ncaseyouf or
got,
you'
renottheonewhoispregnantyou'
renott
he
onewhowasr apedandyou'regoi
ngtositt
hereand
tel
lmetonotabortarapi
st'
schil
d"
Zodwa:
"LookIunder
standwher
eyou'
recomi
ng
fr
om si
s..
..
..
."
Me:"youdon'
tunderstandanyt
hingZodwaIam not
goingtocarr
yar api
st'
s,chi
ldIam notgoi
ngt
obear
thatdogachildokay.
"
Zodwa:
"Hedoesn'
tdeser
vet
oknow.
"
Me:"Idon'
tcareokayandal
lIknowisthatIwon'
t
carr
yar api
st'
schil
dokayhowwi l
lIl
ookatthebaby
knowinghowIconvincedherorhi
m"
Zodwa:
"Thebabywi
llal
waysr
emi
ndyouoft
he
bat
tl
esyou'
vef
ought
"
Me:
"GetoutZodwa"
Zodwa:
"pleasethi
nkaboutit
,youcan'
tki
lland
i
nnocentkidbecauseshe/heist
heproductofrape"
Me: "Zodwapl easegetout "Shenoddedt henwent
outIhuggedmypi ll
owhowwi l
lIrai
seababy, how
willpeopl elookatmehuhhowcanIr ai
seachi l
d
thatisapr oductofr ape,i
t'sobvi ousiwillhatethe
child,itwillal
waysbeaconst antreminderofwhat
thatbast arddidtomeandIdon' twantt hatIwant
tofor get.Ihatethis,Ihatef eeli
ngl i
kethis.Ijust
wanti tal
ltoend, Ijustwantsomepeace, Iwantthe
paint oendandt hischildwi llnotmakemef orget
.

Bones

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Ifel
therpains,
hercri
esherbeggi
ngmet ostop,her
tel
li
ngmet hatIam hur
ti
ngherIevenf
eltherti
ny
handspushi
ngmewhatki ndofanani malIam to
badIcan'
tpict
urethegi
rl'
sfaceIhatethefactt
hatI
don'
trememberthekid.
.Iam ti
redofrapi
ngyoung
ki
dstosati
sfythedemont hat
'sisi
nsideme.

"
Baby"hert
inyvoi
cedi
stur
bedmyt
hought
s
Me:
"Baby?
"
Noxol
o:"
Whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout
?"
Me:
"Nonot
hingbabe"
Noxol
o:"
Okaydamnt
hiscari
t'
ssobeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"Doyouwanti
t?"
Noxol
o:"
YesbutIwantt
obuyi
twi
thmyown
money"
Me:"
Wor
khar
dbabeyouwi
llar
chi
veal
lyour
dr
eams"
Noxol
o:"
Yhheybutt
hiscari
sabeastIi
magi
ne
mysel
fdrivi
ngi
t"
Me:
"Icanbuyi
tforyou"
Noxol
o:"
Real
ly"
Me:
"yes"
Noxol
o:"
TobadIwantt
obuyi
twi
thmyownmoney"
Me:
"Butbaby.
..
."Iwasdi
stur
bedbyaphonecal
l

Me:
"Jomo?
"Isi
gnal
ledNoxol
otoexcuseme
Jomo:"
Bonest
her
e'ssomeonewhoi
swor
kingwi
th
Tasha.
"
Me:"
Who?
"
Jomo:"
Idon'
tknowyet
."
Me:
"Soyouwanttot
ellmet
hatt
her
e'ssomeone
whoisbet
rayi
ngme?"
Jomo:
"Yes"
Me:"
Dammitli
stenfi
ndwhoeveriswor
kingf
ort
hat
bi
tchandIwantthepussydead"
Jomo:
"Okaysur
eboss"

Il
ovet
hef
actt
hatIdon'
tdot
heki
ll
ingsIdon'
twant
t
oomuchbl
oodi
nmyhands.

Tasha

_
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__

Lul
u:"
MamaIwantt
oseedad"
Me:
"Youwi
llbabyst
opsul
kingokay"
Lul
u:"
Nomamait'
sbeenweekswi
thoutseei
ngdad
andImisshi
m"
Me:
"Okayl
etmecal
lhi
m"
Lul
u:"
Thankyoumommy"

Idi
all
edhi
sno

Bones:
"t
alk"
Me:
"Lul
uwant
stoseeyou"
Bones:
"t
ellherdaddycan'
tseeher
"
Me:"Bonesyourdaught
erwantstoseeyoushe
missesyouwhatkindofafatherar
eyouhuhyou
don'
thavetimeforyourchi
ld"
Bones:
"Okayf
inebr
ingher
"
Me:
"wher
e"
Bones:
"dammi twomanyouknowthatImeetheri
n
publ
icplacessoIthi
nkWimpyisokay"
Me:
"sur
e"

Idr
oppedt
hecal
l.

Me:"
Iwi
llt
akeyout
omeethi
m atWi
mpy
Tommorow"
Lul
u:"
ThankyoumommyIl oveyou"Ibentdown
sheshekissedmycheekandwentt oherplayroom
Il
ovemychi ldt
obehonestIwouldn'
ttradeherfor
anyt
hingsheisther
easonIam f
ightingbones.
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Nol
wazi
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Iheardtheaknockont hedooral lthewayfrom my

room.IthoughtIwouldopenf orwhoeveritisthat
's
ther
ebutbyt helooksofi tIhaddr aggedmyf eet
causeicouldhearvoicesi nthelounge.Ireal
ized
maybeitwasadel iverysincetherewasanuber
eatspaperbagont hekitchent able.If
igur
edI'dgo
backtomyr oom sinceIwasntneededher e,unti
lI
heardwhot hethevoicesi ntheloungebelongedto.
i
twasZodwaandourdad.
Zodwa:
"Sheispr
egnantdad.
"Iknewt
hiswasabout
mesoIdecidedt
ostopandhearwhatwasbei
ng
sai
d.
Dad:
"What
!"Hehal
fshout
ed
Zodwa:
"Andshewant
stoabor
t.
"
Dad:
"TobehonestzodwaIdon'
tunder
standwhat
's
goi
ngonwithNolwazi.
"
Zodwa:"Appar
entl
ymom wenttot
hesangomato
getaloveport
ionforNol
wazisot
hatshecanf
eedi
t
toBones."
Dad:
"Thenhowdidherapeher
?Isntt
hiswhatshe
want
edt obegi
nwit
h?Tosleepwit
hhim?"
Zodwa:"
YesdadbutIdon'
tthi
nkt
hatt
hepor
ti
on
worked.
"
Dad:
"Thenwhatmadehi
mrapemydaught
er?
"
Zodwa:"Idon'
tknowdadandIdon'
tli
keseei
ng
Nolwazili
kethati
thur
tsme.
"
Dad:"
Butit'
sherfaul
t,nowshehast
odealwi
tht
he
consequencesofheracti
ons.
"
Idontknowwhatwasmor eheartbr
eaking,heari
ng
mydadsayIdeser vedthisormaybeitscausehei s
ri
ght.Idi
dthist
omysel f
.ButIjustt
houghthe
wouldbeonmysi de.SureIdidwhatIdi dbutthat
doesn'tmeanIdeservetoberaped.
Zodwa:"
Iknowdadbutt hei
rpl
anturnedoutwrong
becausebonesrapedher,t
oeventhinkt
hatI
warnedNolwazitonotgo."
Dad:"
Iwi
llt
alkwi
thherasf
orBoneshewi
llpayf
or
rapi
ngmydaughter
."
Zodwa:"Nodadlethi
m goImeanNolwaziwanted
tosl
eepwi thBonesi
nthefi
rstpl
acesoit
'snothi
s
faul
tthatshewenttoent
ert
ainhi
m att
heevent."
Dad:"
Idon'
tknowZodwabutIwantanswer
sIwill
vi
sitt
hesangomaTommorow,Iwil
laskShi
rleyt
o
di
rectme."
Zodwa:"
Umm okayasf
ormeIwi
llvi
sitherdoct
or,
heisconfusi
ngme"
Dad:
"yesbutl
et'
sthankgodt
heacci
dentdi
dn'
t
har
mthebaby"

Iwi
pedmyt ear
sthenandr et
urnedtomyroom it
hur
tssobadIfeell
iket
hedoct ordi
dn'
tgi
veme
morei
nfor
mat i
onaboutthebabybutit
'snotl
ikeI
car
e.
Itookapacketofpil
lst hatIwasgi venathospital
andt ookaglassofwat eranddr ankt hem allaf
ter
thatIlayonthebedwai tforthedar knesstotake
placeIam ti
redofli
ving, Ican'tl
ivel i
feknowingthat
Iwasr apedIwon'tf
or gett hati
nmyl if
esot hat
'sitI
reall
yhopetheydontf indmei ntimeIdon' twantto
l
iveIwantt odie.

Bones

_
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___
__

Me:"
BabeIam goi
ngt
othemal
ldoyouwantmet
o
br
ingyousomethi
ng?
"
Noxol
o:"
NobabeIam goodyoucango"
Me:
"OkayanywayIam meet
ingmydaught
erLul
uat
t
hemall"
Noxol
o:"mm okaygr
eetherf
orme"
Me:
"Okayshar
ploveyou"
Noxol
o:"
Loveyoumor
ebabe"

Tasha

Me:
"Hur
rypr
incess"
Lul
u:"
Okaymom Iam donel
et'
sgo"
Me:Ar
eyoul
ooki
ngf
orwar
dofmeet
ingyourdad?
"
Lul
u:"
yesmom Ican'
twai
tImi
ssedhi
m"
Me:
"Ncoohl
et'
shopehegotsomet
hingf
oryou"
Lul
u:"
Hopesomom"

Idr
ovet
omal
lwi
thLul
utal
kingnon-
stop.Wegott
o
themallandt
hepersonIhadaskedtotakeherto
Boneswasalreadyt
herewai
ti
ngsot heytookherto
him whi
leIdi
dmywi ndowshopping.

Bones

_
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__

"
Daddy"

Il
ookedupandsawmypr incesscomi
ngwi
tha
pol
iceoff
icer
.Isohat
ethi
sImustputmypl
anin
motion

Me:"
Howar eyouAngel
"Ipi
ckedherupandki
ssed
herf
orehead
Lul
u:"
Youdon'
tlovemeDad?
"
Me:
"whydoyousayt
hatAngel
?"
Lul
u:"
Youdon'
tsendgoodni
ghtt
extanymor
edad"
Me:
"Lookwhatdaddygotyou"Iputaboxont
he
t
abl
e
Lul
u:"
Wowt hankyoudad"sheopenedi
t"Dada
uni
corni
tissobeauti
fulIl
ovei
tbutmom al
ready
boughti
tforme"
Me:
"Ohhbutt
akei
tbaby"
Lul
u:"
Ithi
nkyoudon'
tcar
eaboutmeanymor
e"
Me:"
Babygir
lnobodywi
llt
akeyourspacei
nmy
hear
tokay"
Lul
u:"
OkayIl
oveyout
oodad"
Me:
"l
et'
sor
der
"
Lul
u:"
Yey"shej
umpedupanddownitsendso
muchjoyinmyhear
tIreal
lyl
oveLul
ushemeltmy
hear
t.

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NOXOLO

AfterBonesleftir
ecei
vedacal lfr
om Katshe
want edtomeetwi t
hmesoIwentt otakeaquick
shower .Worealongti
ghtblackdr essandWhi teal
l
starsthenbrushedmyweave, tobehonestIam so
eagertohearwhatshewantf r
om meIr eal
lyhope
shedoesn'tpulloneofherstuntsBecauseIam not
readyforit
.Andshebet t
ernott hi
nkofsepar at
ing
mewi t
hBones.

Me:"HiKat
"Igr
eet
edherwi
thabi
ggestsmi
leI
'
ve
everput
Kat
:"
HiNoxol
osi
tdown"herspi
ri
twasdown
Me:
"Whyar
eyoudownwhat
'swr
ong?
"
Kat:
"Nonothingjustwant
edtoaskf
orf
orgi
veness
forever
ythi
ngI'vesai
dtoyou"
Me:
"Oh"
Kat
:"
Yesf
orgi
vemeplease,
Iwassohar
donyou
andi
twasuncal
ledf
or"
Me:
"okaynopr
obl
em"
Kat
:"
Doyouf
orgi
veme?
"
Me:
"YesIdo"
Kat
:"
ThankyouanywayIgott
ogo"
Me:
"ohhseeyout
henandsayhit
oKokiwhenyou
meether
"
Kat:"
Al r
ightshar
p"shestoodupandwentawayI
sighedt henrai
sedahandf orawait
ert
oassi
stme
I'
veor deredri
bswithoni
onr i
ngsandchi
psI'
veal
so
orderedagl assofwineIneededi
t.

"
Heyi
stheseatoccupi
ed?
"
Me:"Noyoucansi t
"Isai
dtotheangelt
hatwas
standi
nginfrontofmetobehonestshewasso
beauti
fulnottomenti
onhershapedbody
Her
:"
Am Kel
e"
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeetyouKel
eam noxol
o"
Kel
e:"
You'
resobeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"Don'
tfl
att
ermeKel
e"Iscof
fed
Kel
e:"
Youar
ebabes"
Me:
"Thankyoubabessoar
eyou"
Kel
e:"
I'
vebeent
oldbutt
hanksdol
l"
Me:
"Sot
ellmeaboutyour
sel
f"
Kele:
"Okayam Kelet
soMogal
eIam doingmedici
ne
atuniversi
tyofCal
if
orni
aBer
kel
eywellIam doi
ng
myt hir
dyear."
Me:"
Wowgi r
lyou'
veal
readyachi
evedaloti
nyour
l
if
eImeanyouar est
udyingi
noneofthebest
uni
versi
ti
es"
Kel
e:"
Let'
ssayGodmadeamiracl
eandIam also
gl
adthatmyGrandmot
hert
aughtmealotofthings"
Me:"
Ohhsowhoi
spayi
ngyourschoolf
eessor
ryt
o
besofor
war
d"
Kel
e:"
Noyou'
renotwel
lI'
vegotaschol
arshi
p"
Me:
"Ohhokay"
Kel
e:"
Yescanyoupleasegi
vemeyourcontact
det
ail
ssothatIcancal
lyouwhenIam ar
ound"
Me:"
Ohh"shegavemeherphoneIpunchedmy
number
s
Kel
e:"
Iwi
llcal
lyou"
Me:
"Shar
p"

Shegi ggl
edandt ookherhandbagandwentaway.I
thinkIli
keKel esheseemsli
keaninnocentper
son
plusshei sbubblyandherfut
urei
ssobr i
ghtIam
sur eherparentsmustbeproudofher.

Tasha
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___

Me:
"Whatdoyoumeanyouar
egoi
ngt
oLi
mpopo
wor
seKaMajosi
?"
Dragon:
"Jomoissuspect
ingmeal
readyTashaand
Idon'
twantbonestokil
lmesoIneedtolayl
ow."
Me:"
Soyouthi
nkrunni
ngawayf
rom yourpr
obl
ems
i
sthebestopt
ion?
"
Dragon:
"NoTashaIreal
lydon'
twantmysont
obe
fat
herl
essno,andi
tisnonnegoti
abl
e"
Me:
"Okaybutbesaf
eDr
agonandt
hankyouf
or
t
ryi
ngtohel
pme"
Dragon:
"Don'
twor
ryMaj
osii
sthel
astpl
acehe'
d
l
ookinto"
Me:"
OkaybesafeDragonyouhel
pedmeal
otand
sor
ryforput
ti
ngyourli
fei
ndanger
"
Dr
agon:
"Okayshar
p"hehuggedmeanddr
oveaway

Zodwa
_
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_

Me:"
Nolwaziwakeupwedon'
twantt
obel
ate"
looks
l
ikesheisdeepi
nhersl
eep
Me:"Nolwaziwakeupokay"It ri
edwakingherupfor
l
ike5t i
mesIevensl apherli
ghtlybutshewasn'
t
havingit
,real
it
ykickedi
nwhenInot i
cedanempty
pil
lbott
leonthebedsidetable.Ideci
dedtocheck
herpulseitwasgoneIpanickedandcal ldad

Me:"Dad,Dad"tearsweremaki
ngtheirwaydown
myf acedist
urbingmyvisi
onbutIkeptonrunni
ng
unt
ilIfoundhim putt
ingonhi
sjacket
Dad:
"HeyAngelwhat
swr
ong?
"
Me:
"Dad.
.Nol
..
..
..
Nol
wazi
..
..
..
"
Dad:
"Br
eat
hingoodandoutokaynowt
ellme
what
'smaki
ngyoucry"
Me:
"DadNol
wazii
snotwaki
ngupsheshe
over
dosedherpi
ll
s"
Dad:
"What
"
Me:"
Dadwehavet ogethert
ohospi
talasi
nnow,
I
can'
tloseherdadpl
ease"
Dad:"
Okayokaygoandstartt
hecarIam goi
ngt
o
fet
chher,
pri
ncessconcent
rat
eokayNolwaziwi
llbe
Alr
ight
"
Me:
"Pl
easedadwehavet
ohur
ry"henoddedand
r
ushedtoherr
oom

Af
ter5minsorsohecamebackwi t
hherinhis
ar
msheputherinthebackseat
,Ial
sowenttosit
wi
thherandpl
acedherheadonmyt hi
ghs.

Itri
edtonotcrybutt hewayshewasmademy
tearsgush,shewassoweak, herski
nwassopal e
herafrowasal loverherface.Isobbeddadlooked
atmewi thpiti
fuleyesthenconcent r
ateont
her oad
i
twassaf etosayt hathewasdr i
vingli
keamani ac.
It
hankedGodwhenwear r
ivedathospi
talt
hey
i
mmedi at
elypushedhert
owher eIsupposethey
ar
egoingtohelpher.

Dad:
"Nol
waziwi
llbeal
ri
ghtpr
incessdon'
tcr
y
pl
ease"
Me:"
DadhowcanInotcryI
thur
tmeseei
ngherso
pal
eIloveNol
waziver
ymuchokay"
Dad:"Iknowpr i
ncess"heembracedmeforahugI
cri
edmyl ungsout,I
'vecr
iedli
keIwon'
tcr
y
anymor ethankstodadhekeptonhushingme,t
o
tel
lthetruthheisalsohurti
ng.
Dad:
"Letmegoandcal
lShi
rl
ey"
Me:
"No!
"
Dad:
"Whatdoyoumeanno"
Me:"
Dadshedoesn'
tdeser
vetoknowanythi
ngshe
i
sthereasonwhyNol
waziist
herefi
ght
ingforher
l
if
eokay"
Dad:"
Okay"hesurr
ender
edandcont
inuet
orubmy
backunti
lIfal
lasl
eeponhi
sthi
ghs
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Fourmont
hsl
ater

Noxol
o

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Thepastfourmonthshavebeengr eatandmy
rel
ati
onshi
pwi t
hBonesisstil
lstr
ongandt i
ght
.I
haddoubtsaboutusworkingoutbutIguessIwas
wrong.We'veburi
edNolwazieventhoughZodwais
hurt
.Andithurt
sthatsheisblaminghersel
f
anywaylet
'sgetbacktomylifeKeleisnowmybest
fr
iendI '
veneverheardfr
om Katsincethatday.Ohh
Iforgottoment i
onthatI
'vebeenattendi
ngdrivi
ng
schoolI'vealsowrit
tenmylearner
sr i
ghtnowIam
waitingforl
incence.
If
eltsomeone’
shandi
nmywai
standIt
urned
Me:"
Youar
eback?
"
Bones:"
Yes.Mymeet
ingwasr
eschedul
ed"
Ismi
led
Me:
"At
leastyouwer
en'
tbor
edasf
ormebor
edom
waski
ll
ingme"
Bones:"Sor
rybabysoIwasthinki
ngokayhow
aboutIbuysharesf
oryouatthisbeaut
ysal
on"
Me:"
BonesIknowyou'
reusedofbuyi
ngt
hingsf
or
mebutbabesal
onisabigthi
ng"
Bones:"
Iknowbabybutpl
easer
econsi
deri
t"
Me:"Iwil
landyoumustknowthatIam st
il
lmadat
yourfort
eari
ngmypussy"Ipout
ed
Bones:
"Iknowbabet
hat
’swhyIgotyout
hisgi
ft
"
Het
ookoutacarkeys
Bones:"
Comel
et’
sgoout
sideandyou’
l
lseeyour
newbaby"
Heboughtmeacar
?
Ij
umpedof
fthebed

Zodwa

_
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___
_

Iwal
kedoutofNol
wazi
'
sroom
It'
sbeenf ourmont hssi nceherdeat handst i
ll,I
can’tgetoveri t
.Iblamemysel ffornotbeinghar d
onher .Ihat ethefactthatIwasn' tthebestsi st
erto
her,Ididn'tshowhert her i
ghtpat htofoll
owandf or
thatIwi l
lalwaysblamemysel ff orherdeath.I
all
owedmymom t otreatherbadl y.Talki
ngabout
mymom, af t
erthedeathofNol wazisheleftto
overseaswi t
hherBen10.Shedi dn’teventhink
aboutme, lucki
lymyf atherdidn’tleaveme.Hehas
supportedmeandIam t hankfulforhim
Dad:"
Todaywear
egoi
ngt
ocl
eanyoursi
ster
’s
gr
ave"
Ever
yti
mewegotohergr
aveapar
tofmest
ays
behi
ndwit
hher
Me:"
Iwi
shmom coul
dcomeback"
Dad:"
Yourmot herf
ail
edyou.Whatki
ndofamot her
wholeavesherchil
dbehi
ndandgogalli
vant
ing"
Tear
swerestr
eami
ngdownmycheeksal
ready.My
mom hasal
waysbeensel
fi
sh
Me:"
Letmepr
epar
esomet
hingf
orust
oeatbef
ore
wego"
Dad:"Noleavei tpri
ncesswewi llbuyovert
akeson
ourwayther e"TobehonestNol wazi '
sdeat
hhurt
Dadandi tcausedhi mtodr i
nkhi ssorr
owsaway,he
usedtodrinklikenobody'sbusinessbutIam
grat
efult
hathemanagedt onoticebeforei
twastoo
l
atethatdrinkingisabadhabi t
.

Bones
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_

Dealingwithmydemonshasn’ tbeeneasybutIf eel

l
ikeNoxol ohasawayt ocal
m medown.Somet imes
Ilosemyt emperandhur ther.(Bysexingherr ough)
Igivehereverythi
ngshewant s, herwaysofl oving
megi vesmepl easure.Imanagedt odealwi t
h
Tashawel ll
etmesaywecamet oanagr eement
afterwe’
velostmanyofourmeni nourf ight.Tasha
andIagr eeditwil
lbebestifwecutt het ensionand
dowhat ’
sbestf orourdaughter.Butisstillhardt o
seeherinpr i
vate,mypastkeepsonbei ngabar r
ier
Noxol
o:"
Youboughtt
hiscarf
orme?"I
twasa
Vol
kswagenGol
fGTIVR6Ilovei
t.
Bones:"
Foryoumyl
ove.Youseehowsor
ryIam"
Ihat
eseei
nghercr
ying,
shei
stoof
ragi
le
Noxolo:"I
’vebeeneyeingthi
scar,thankyouso
muchIam onl ytaki
ngt hi
scarbecauseit'
sa
presentcomingfrom youdarl
ing"shepeckedmy
l
ipsandhuggedme
Me:"Youdon’
thavet
oThankmemyl ove.
Ever
ythi
ngIdo,Idoi
tforyouandyouknowthatwe
havetol
ookhousessothatLul
ucancomeandst ay
wit
hus"
Noxol
o:shesi
ghed"Idon'
tknowaboutt
hatbones"
Me:"
PleaseNoxol
oatl
eastdoi
tforme"
Noxol
o:"
Okayatl
eastl
etmet
hinkabouti
t"
Me:"
OkayIl
oveyouboo"
Noxol
o:"
Iloveyoumor
e"

Iki
ssedherl
ipsf
ivet
imesmaki
nghert
ogi
ggl
e
Thi
swomani sallIneedandIwil
lprot
ecther
.Iwil
l
makesurethatIwil
lbreakt
hesacri
fi
ceImade.(Go
andreadt
her omovedpartatt
hegroup)

Am SikhuliZul
ubutyoucancal lmebonesIam
mult
i-
bill
ionai
reofali
feti
me.I'
vegottwocompanies
t
hathidemyShaddyst uf
fandsoallIam adrug
l
ordIalsodealwithhumant r
aff
icki
ng.Well
,youal
l
knowt hatr ichnessdoesn' tcomewi thoutworki ng
foritsoI 'vesacr i
ficedmymanhoodi norderto
becomer ichmydi ckisownedbyt hedemont hat'
s
i
si nsideme, ther easonIdidt hatwasBecauseMy
parentswer eowi ngadanger ousl oanshar ksome
moneyandhe' dal waysthreatent hem tokillmei f
theydon' tpayt hemoneyt hathewasowni ngt hem.
Asf orme, Iwentt ohi shouseandr easonwi t
hhi m
tonotki llmebuthesai dhewon' tdoi ti
none
conditionwhi chwast otr
ansferhi sbeastinsi demy
bodyandhewi llgivemeal lhisrichnessandI
agreedbecauseIwassoyoungt or eason.

RightnowIam onami ssiont

ofoundsomeonewho
i
swi l
li
ngtotakethebeastIam t
ir
edoffeedi
ngi
t
younggir
lsscreams.

Noxol
o

_
___
___
Hey, I
'
vegotacar ,whatmor ecouldIaskhuh?
anywayaf terthehotst eamyr oundswithbabeI'
ve
decidedt ohi tacl ubwi thKel eeventhoughitwas
goingtobehar dtoconvi nceherbecauseshei sa
churchgi rlasf ormet hosel astfewmont hsI'
ve
beensl ayingonI nstagram peopl elovesme,what
canIsayIam enj oyingl ife.

Me:"
Heykel
e"
Kel
e:"
Noxol
owhat
'sup"
Me:"Guesswhatboobi
e(t
hat
'st
heni
cknameIgave
her
)"
Kel
e:"Whatnokx"
Me:"
I'
vegotacarbabes"
Kel
e:"
Ohhcongrat
ulat
ionssowher
edi
dyougett
he
moneytobuyacar?"
Me:"WhatdoyoumeanyouknowI'
vegotar
ich
boyf
ri
endsohegoti
tformebabes"
Kel
e:"
Unt
ilwhenNoxol
oHuhcan' tyouseethatyou
ar
ethr
owi
ngawayyourlif
ejustl
ikethathuh"
Me:"Idon'
tneedyourwor
dofGodr
ightnow
Boobie"
Kel
e:"
Okay,
canIgobackt
omyst
udi
es"
Me:"
Let
'sgoandcel
ebr
atef
ri
end"
Kel
e:"
Ican'
tIam wr
it
ingonMonday"
Me:"Boobi
eit
'sFr
idayt
odayyouwi
llst
udyon
Sat
urdayandSunday"
Kel
e:"
Noxol
oIdon'
tneedt
hispl
easeokay"
Me:"Boobi
ewhenwast
hel
astt
imewebonded
huh?
"
Kel
e:"
Fine"
Me:"
Thankyou,
love,
getr
eadyIwi
llpi
ckyouupat
7"
Kel
e:"
Mxm shar
p"

Idr
oppedt
hecal
landscr
eam happi
lyInever
thoughtmeNoxol
oBhutheleziwi
lldri
vemyowncar
anywayIam gl
adthatIwenttodrivi
ngschool
.

ItookmyphoneandwenttoInst
agram wel
lI'
vegot
125kf ol
lowerssof
arandt
hatmakesmehappyt hat
everyoneislovi
ngme.

Kel
e:"
Sowher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
ocel
ebr
ate"
Me:"
Okaymyf r
iendJam i
nvi
tedmehei
slaunchi
ng
hi
snewclub"
Kel
e:"
Areyousur
eaboutt
hisNoxol
o?"
Me:"
Stopbei
ngsonegat
iveboobi
eokay"
Kel
e:"
Okayi
fyousayso"
Me:"
Wear egoi
ngt
oenj
oydar
li
ngt
her
e'snoot
her
wayaround"
Kel
e:"
Yesbabes"shegi
ggl
ed

Wedr
ovet
oRedcl
ub(
justcameupwi
thaname)we
weresi
ngingtosongsitwashi
p-hopunt
ilwe
ar
ri
ved.Iam gl
andthatwearri
vedsaf
e

Jam:
"Heyyouar
ri
ved"
Me:"
Yesjam meetmysi
sterKel
e(It
akeherasmy
ot
herhal
f)
Jam:
"Ni
cet
omeetyouKel
eam Noxol
o'sf
ri
end"
Kel
e:"
Okay,
wher
e'st
hebooze"
Me:"
Hai
bochur
chgi
rl
"
Kel
e:"
Leavemeal
onebi
tch"
Me:"
Yhoookay"

Jam chuckledIshotadeathst
areheimmediat
ely
keptquit
eandl eadustoaVIPsportwel
lweparti
ed
i
twassof un,IwassodrunkIevendi
sappear
edto
thetoi
let
s.

Me:"
Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
ejam?
"
Jam:"DammitIcan'
tkeepmyeyesof
fyouBabe
you'
regor
geous"
Me:"
Ohht
hankyou"
Jam:"
You'
resohot"herubbedmythi
ghohhgodhe
di
dthi
ngst
omyvi gina(
Goandreadther
emoved
par
tatt
hegroup)

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Noxol
o

WhathaveIdone?Boneswil
lhat
emeI 'vebr
oken
hi
sheartIam sur
ehehatesmerightnowwhatkind
ofagi
rl
fr
iendam I
?

Me:"
Kel
est
opaski
ngmeusel
essquest
ionsl
et'
sgo
home"
Kele:
"Thef
unisaboutt
ostartnoxol
oyoucan'
t
expectmetogohomethisti
me"
Me:
"Boobi
epl
easeokay"Iwasnowt
ear
ingup
Kel
e:"
What
'swr
ongNoxol
o?okayf
inel
et'
sgo"

Isi
ghedandwedr
ovet
okel
e'
shouse.

Kele:
"Iknowyou'
renotokaybabet
ellmewhat
's
wrong?"
Me:
"I'
vemessedupKelehewon'
tfor
givemewhen
hef
indsoutwhatIdi
d"
Kel
e:"
Whatdi
dyoudonoxol
o?"
Me:
"Pr
omi
seyouwontj
udgeme"
Kel
e:"
OhhGodpr
omi
se"
Me:
"Isl
eptwi
thJam"
Kel
e:"
What
?Noxol
ohowcanyoudot
hatt
oBones?
"
Me:
"Youpr
omi
sedt
onotj
udgemeNoxol
o"
Kel
e:"OkayIknowam sorrybutFr
iendt
ellhi
m
bef
orehefindsoutf
rom someone"
Me:
"No!
"Ihal
fshout
ed"DoyouwantBonest
oki
ll
me?
"
Kel
e:"
Hewon'
tfr
iendhej
ustwantyout
obehonest
"
Me:
"Nopl
easedon'
ttel
lanyone"
Kel
e:"
Okaydr
ivesaf
edon'
tcr
yont
her
oad"
Me:
"Al
ri
ghtt
hankyou"
Kel
e:"
Wipeyourt
ear
syou'
reugl
y"
Me:
"VoesekKel
etso"
Kel
e:"
It
'st
het
rut
h"
Me:
"Byeboobi
e"
Kel
e:"
Iam notadogNoxol
o"
Me:
"Yesboobi
eyou'
renotadog"
Kel
e:"Sowhyar
eyoucal
li
ngmeboobi
e"
Me:"
Iloveyouf
ri
endbye"shegi
ggl
edandgotoft
he
car
.

Idrovestrai
ghthomeIspent5mi nsinsi
dethecar
thi
nkingaboutthesi
tuat
ionthatI
'veputmyselfi
n.I
am soashamedofmysel fI'
vecheatedontheman
whol ovesme.Iam suchaslut.

Me:
"Heybabe"Isai
dcl
osi
ngthedoormyhands
wer
esweati
ngIwassoscared.
Bones:
"HeyAngelwhyar
eyoubackear
ly?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowIwant
..
..
..Godpl
easehol
dme"
Bones:
"What
'
swr
ongNoxol
owhyar
eyoushaki
ng?
"
Me:Iam reall
ynotgoodatl
ying"OhhhIam j
ust
angrythatt
hewast hi
sguywhowant edt
orapekel
e
but.
..
"
Bones:"
Really?
"Hecoul
dseei
tthr
oughmyeyes
thatIam l
ying
Me:
"Yesgoodni
ghtbabe"
Bones:
"Okay"

Heret
urnedtohi
slapt
op.Ij
oggedupst
air
sand
t
hrowmyselfonthebed.

Bones

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__

Thenextmorni
ngIimmediatel
ywokeupandcal
l
JomoI'
vetol
dhimt okeeptabsonNoxol
oIdon'
t
havet
ogiveyoureasonsyouallknowwhy.

Me:
"HeyJomowhat
'snewsdoyouhavef
orme?
"
Jomo:
"BossIdon'
tknowhowt
otel
lyout
his"
Me:"
JomoIsai
dtel
lmewhathappenedatt
hecl
ub
yest
erday"
Jomo:
"OkayIwi
llsendt
hevi
deocl
ip"
Me:
"Getoni
tnow"
Jomo:
"Sur
eboss"

Af
ter3minstherewasanot i
fi
cati
ononmyphone.
WhatIsawbr okemyheartIt
houghtNoxolowas
di
ff
erentf
rom theot
hergi
rlsI'
vedatedIthoughtshe
wassospecialdammitNoxoloyouwillr
egretever
messingwit
hme.Itookmykeysanddr ovetothe
cl
ubIneedaf ewdri
nks

NOXOLO

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Thenextmor ni
ngIwokeupwithoutBonesbymy
si
deIwonderwher edi
dhegohedi dn'
tbothert
o
evenl
etmeknow.Mostoft heti
mewhenhegoest o
workheleavesanoteorwakesmeupbutt odayit
's
anotherstory,anywayIwentt of reshenupaf t
er
thatIwentt omakecer eal
sandeataf tereat i
ng
boredom deci dedtokil
lmepl usI nstagram i sbori
ng
soIdecidedt ot akeamagazineandl ooki nto
fashi
oncl othesandr eadart
icles.Themostt opic
thattr
iggeredmybr ai
ncell
swast heonet hatsai
d
"Educati
oni sthewayt oli
fe"
.Wel lIhaven' tbeen
goingtoschoolandmygoalwhenIcamet o
Johannesbur gwasIam gonnagot ouni versit
yand
becomei ndependent l
ysuccessf ul.Welly'all
rememberi tchangedwhenmyauntdeci dedt obe
cheekywi thme.
Movingonaft
erreadingitIdeci
dedtocook.Iwas
busywit
hmypot scookingr i
ceandbeefstewwhen
Iheardt
hedoorbanging,Ij
umpedalitt
lethi
nking
whowouldthatbe..
.t
oanswermyt houghtsitwas
Bones.

Me:"
Babeareyouokay?
Whyar
eyoubangi
ngt
he
doorl
iket
hat.
"
Bones:
"I
'mf
ine.
"
Me:"Doyouknowt hatwi
thyouri
mpul
sivei
diocy
youwillbr
eakthedoor,
nowcomeonsitdownI '
m
abouttodishup.
"
Bones:
"Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
"Her
oar
edwi
th
anger
.
Isl
ight
lyj
umpedandl
ookedathi
m.
Me:"
UhhBones,
I
..I
..
.wasj
ustj
oki
ngokay.
..
lookIam
sor
ry.
"
Bones:"Iwarnedyoutonevert
alktomel i
kethat
Noxolo...
youknowwhatcomeher e,Iwannateach
youal essontoday,
youknowIdon'tli
kerepeat
ing
myself."
Hecamet owardsandpi
ckedmeup,
heputmeon
hi
sshoulders.
..
(DamnIdi
dn'
tknowhewasthi
s
st
rong)
Me:"
Bonespleaseputmedown"Heactual
lywasn'
t
havi
ngitokay.
Heswitchedt
hestoveof
fandledme
upst
air
s
Me:
"Baby.
..
?Myl
ove.
.?Bonespl
ease.
"
Bones:
"TodayI
'
m notgonnaf
orgi
veyou.
"
Wear ri
vedinourbedr oom andheputmeont he
bed,
hewast ednot i
mebyt ear
ingmyclothesoff.
..
I
knewhewasgonnaf uckthelivi
ngdayl
ightsoutof
me.Assoonashewasdonet aki
ngorshouldisay
ri
ppingmycl ot
hesof fmybodyhegotupand
specif
ical
lywarned.
Bones:
"Donotmoveorel
se.
..
"
Helockedthebedroom doort
opreventmefrom
runni
ng,hewenttohiscl
osetandtookoutsexy
handcuffs,
asil
kybli
ndfol
d.Hecamet owar
dsme.I
waslit
erall
yshaki
ng.
Me:"
Bones,
babypl
easeIwillneverdisr
espectyou
l
iket
hatagai
nmylovepleasef or
giveme."
Bones:
"You'
reabi
tchnownoxol
ohuh"
Me:"PleasebabeIwasdr unk"Iwascryi
ngInever
thoughtIcouldseet hi
sdayactual
lyIneverthought
mypar tnercouldroughsexmet hi
swasgoi ngto
tearmeup.IknowI '
vemessedupbutt hisi
snott he
wayt ofixthi
ngs.Byt henIknewwewer egonna
haveroughsex. Iwaslayi
ngtherewit
hmybackon
thebed.Het ookthehandcuff
sandcuffedbot hmy
hands,
andtiedthesi
lkbli
ndf
oldmyeyest
opr
event
mef r
om seeinganyt
hing.
Bones:
"TodayI
'm gonnashowyouasideofmet
hat
youneverknewNoxolo,youpr
essedt
helast
bot
tom ofmyanger."
Iwasl
it
eral
lyscar
edandpr
ayi
nghedoesn'
tki
llme.
Hestartedoffbyroughl ykissingmyl ipsandwent
tomyneckandst artedsucki ngit,
hishandswer e
roamingaroundmybodyandsomehowt hismade
mesick. Hishandsl andedonmymedi um sized
boobsandhest ar
tedmassagi ngmyr oundni ppl
es
meanwhi l
ehewasst i
llsucki
ngmyneck. Hewoul d
changef r
om suckingi tfrom thelef
tandr i
ght.He
wouldpullmyni ppleshar dandpi ncht hem in
between.
Me:"
Ah..
babyplease.
"Iwasnotcertai
nifIwas
moaningorscr
unchinginpainbecausewowitfel
t
gl
ori
ousandalitt
lebitpai
nful
-mi
xmasal a.
Hetrai
ledhi
slipsdownt omyboobsandhest art
ed
sucki
ngmyl eftboob,
hisri
ghthandslowlytr
ail
edto
mypussy,heinsert
edhismiddlefi
ngerinsi
deand
slowlybutsur
elyst
art
edfi
nger
ingme.Iletouta
moanbecausedamnhi sfi
ngerwasgoingwayt oo
deepinsidemypussyandhewasfingeringme
roughly.
Heki
ssedmyl
ipst
ost
opt
hemoansf
rom escapi
ng
mymouth.
Me:
"Ohmy.
..
j.
.j
eeper
sBonesf
uck.
"
HestoppedwhenhesawIwasaboutt ocum.He
gotof
fmeandIt hi
nkhewasundr essi
nghimsel
f
si
nceIheardhi
sbeltandt
rouser
'stakenoff
.
Thi
sti
mear
oundhedi
dn'
tmuf
fmeoranyt
hing.
Heheldontomybreast
sandheimmediat
ely
i
nser
tedhisdi
ck.
Thepainandt
hepleasur
equickl
y
r
ushedin.
Hestar
tedsqueezi
ngmyboobsnowt hathewas
f
eel
ingthewarmthofmypussy,
hedidnotwaste
t
ime,
hestart
edgoingupanddownroughly.
Me:
"Ah.
..
fuckBonest
hathur
ts,
pleasest
opar
h!"
Bones:
"Shutup,
thi
sistoteachyounottonotcheat
onme."Hewasl egi
tpoundingi
nmet hatInomor e
fel
tthepleasure.
Ifel
tasifmyPussywasgonnaget
ri
pped,If
elthisdi
ckthrusti
nsi
deofmewaytoo
deeply.
Me:
"Ohmy.
..God.
.BonesI
'
m sor
ry"
Iwasnowcr
ying
Itwasl
ikeiwast
alki
ngt
omysel
fbecausehedi
dn'
t
evengi
veadamn.
Hisgroansfil
ledt
heroom.Mysobswer
elike
tur
ninghim onbecausehewoul
dgodeeperand
deepereachsecond.
Het ookmyr i
ghtlegandputi tonhi
sshoul
der
,t
hat
gavehi mthegreatestaccesstomypussy.
Hewas
groaningandpant i
ng
Bones:
"Youwil
llear
ntocl
oseyourl
egswhenIam
donewithyou"
Hewouldchangefrom spanki
ngmyr
ightbut
tto
squeezi
ngmyleftboob.
Ifi
nal
lygaveupbecauseIcoul
dtel
lhewasnot
gonnafi
nishanyt
imesoon.
Ij
ustl
ethi
m beupunt
ilIf
eltwetl
iqui
donmybel
ly
andsomeexi
ti
ngmypussy.
Wellt
hatwasn'ttheendofi
t.Hi
sgroanswerel
oud
andhim hear
ingmesobgavehi mtheenergyt
o
fuckmeagain.Hetookofft
hehandcuff
sandturned
mearoundandt ookitf
rom t
heback.
Bones:
"Ahh.
..
you'
re.
­..sof
..
uck.
.i
ngwar
m baby"
Hewasdeepi nsidemeenj oyi
ngt he
pleasur
e,spankingmyasswasver yenjoyabl
ef or
him.Hewasgr oaningreal
lyhardandt hatmademe
awar et
hathewascl osetocummi ng.
Hewas
shakingmyassmeanwhi l
efuckingmeupunt ilhe
gavemeahugespank
Me:
"BonesYou'
rehur
ti
ngme"
That'
swhenhecameandst
oppedt
ocat
chhi
s
breat
h.
Hetookhi
sdi
ckoutandmovedthebl
indf
oldof
fof
me.Andmademetolookathi
m
Bones:"
That.
..
thatwasgoodbabe,
comel
et'
ssl
eep
i
toff"
Iwassoangryandhurtf
rom t
hisnewdemon..
.I
si
lent
lycr
iedmysel
ftosl
eepupuntil
lIwaswoken
upbysomeone.
..

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Noxol
o

AftertakinganapIwokeupf eeli
ngbetterIsti
ll
couldn'tbeli
eveBoneswoul ddot hatt
ome.IknowI
fuckedupbycheat ingonhi
m butwhathedi d
wasn'tr i
ght.Iwenttotakeashowerandwentt o
makef oodevent houghIwaslimpingonmywayt o
thekit
chenIt hi
nkbonesisnotaroundIam act ual
ly
gladbecauseIdon'
tknowhowt
ofacehi
m af
ter
cheati
ngonhim Iam al
sogl
adt
hathedi
dn'
tbeat
me.

Aft
ereat
ingIwenttoputmyplat
einthesi
nkt
hen
deci
dedtocal
lKele.Shepi
ckedup.
Kel
e:"
Hey.Whathappened?Di
dyout
ellhi
m?"
Me:"
No,al
thoughhedi
dfi
ndout
,I'
m notsur
ehow
t
hough.
"
Kel
e:"
Okaysowhatdi
dhesay?
"
Me:"
Wehadsex.Roughpai
nfulsex.
"
Kel
e:"
Idon'
tknowwhatt
osayNoxol
obutyoudi
d
hi
m wrong"
Me:
"Buthedoesn'
thavet
her
ightt
ofor
cehi
msel
f
onme."
Kele:
"Babeswhydon'tyoul
eavehi
mifyoudon'
t
feelt
herelat
ionshi
panymore?
"
Me:
"No!
"Ihal
fshout
ed"
Wher
ewi
llIgoKel
e."
Kel
e:"
Youcancomeandst
aywi
thmeand
Gr
andma"
Me: "
NoKeleIdon'
twanttobeaburdenandbesi
de
relat
ionshi
psgotal
otofupsanddownsIcan'
tjust
giveupandgo."
Voice:
"Youai
n'tgoi
nganywher
enobodyleavesme"
hi
sdeepvoicemademej umpandIdr
oppedmy
phone.
Me:
"Ohhyouscar
edme"
Bones:"
IfIhearyoucallthatbit
chyoucallaf
ri
endI
wil
lki
llyouunderstand?"Her oaredandhi
svoice
wassoscar y
Me:
"Ipr
omiseIwon'
tcal
lheragai
n"hecl
ickedhi
s
t
ongueandwenttot
akeaglassofmil
k
Me:"Whydidyoufor
ceyour
selfonme?Andhowdid
youfindoutt
hatIsl
eptwi
thJam? "myvoi
cewasso
shaky
Bones:
"I
'vegotear
sandeyesever
ywher
edar
li
ng"
Me:"
Okayokaypleasefor
givemebabeIdidn'
tmean
t
osleepwit
hhimi twasami s.
."heshutmeupwit
h
ahotsl
apIscreamedinpain
Bones:"
Don'
tyoudaretellmei twasmi st
akedoyou
hearme?Hepinnedmeagai nstthefr
idgeand
grabbedmyneckroughly.Isil
entlycr
iedbeggi
ng
hi
mt ostop
Bones:"
List
enhereandlistencarefulf
rom nowon
youain'
tgoinganywhereIwi l
lgetyouanythingyou
wantbymysel fam ImakingMycl ear"
Me:
"Yespl
ease"
Imanagedt
osayt
hroughmyt
ear
s
Bones:"
Iam t
aki
ngal
lyourdevi
cesandyouwillbe
l
ockedinthi
shousefor
ever
"hiseyeswer
eblack
theyonl
yshowedanger
Me:
"Pl
easeyouarehurt
ingme"Icr
iedunt
ilhelet
megoIsli
dtothefl
oorwithmyhandsonmyf ace
Bones:
"Disgust
ingcl
eanyour
sel
fupandputmake
uptohideyourbrui
seswearegoi
ngout
"
Me:"
PleasebonesIam notokayl
et'
seati
ndoor
s"I
sai
dwi t
hpit
ywr i
tt
eni
nmyeyes
Bones:
"Di
dIhearyousaysomet
hing?
"
Me:
"No"Ishookmyhead
Bones:
"Goodgi
rl
"
Hewal kedawayandlef
tmecr
yingunt
ilIdeci
dedto
goandbat hagai
nandappl
ymakeupImadesur e
thatIhidet
hebrui
ses.

Bones:
"You'
regoodathidingt
hoset
hingsdon'
t
worr
ynoonewi llnot
iceyou"
Me:
"Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
hist
ome?
"
Bones:
"Idon'
tknow"hesai
dwi
thasmugonhi
s
face
Me:
"Am donel
et'
sgo"
Bones:
"Cool
"hewant
edtoki
ssmyl i
psbutIbacked
awayandgivehi
mthecheekhechuckl
edand
pul
ledmyarm
Bones:
"youbet
ternotpul
lthatst
unti
nfr
ontofmy
cl
ient
"
Me:"
Ohhr
eal
lyokay"Ismi
ledIwant
edt
opi
sshi
m
of
f
Bones:
"I
fyout
ryi
tNoxol
oIwon'
thesi
tat
etoki
ll
you"
Icl
ear
edmythroatbecausehemeanteverywor
d
hesai
dIdon'
twanttodieIam st
il
lyoung

Wedr ovetothef ancyr

estaurant
,hesai dwear e
havi
ngdi nnerwiththemostimpor tantcl
ient
,het ol
d
met oplayalonghewar nedmet onotment i
on
anythi
ngaboutt heslapthathappenedhonest l
yI
don'
tknowBonesanymor e,hechangedi njustone
ni
ght ,
thesweetboneswasgonehi seyeswer efull
ofhatredIknowIdi dhim wrongbutt obeatmehe
doesn'thavearighttodothatImeanhepuni shed
mewhatmor edoeshewantf rom me?Ir eal
lylove
BonesbutIdespi semanwhol aytheirhandson
women.

Bones:
"Weareher
eNoxol
oandst opzoni
ngoutI
don'
twantyoutomakehi
m suspectanyt
hing"
Me:
"Okay"
Thedri
veropenedt
hecarf
oruswewewenti
nsi
de
theRest
urant
.

Bones:
"JacksonmymanmeetNoxol
omyf i
ance"I
for
gott
oment i
ont
hathemademetowearari
ng
Jackson:
"HeyNoxol
o,al
someetmywi
feLut
hando"
Me:
"Ni
cet
omeetyouNoxol
o"
Lut
hando:
"Thef
eel
ingi
smut
ual
"Igi
ggl
edandt
ook
asi
t
Jackson:
"SoNoxol
owhatdoyoudo?
"
Me:"OhhIwassupposedtobesti
llatschoolbutl
if
e
happened"If
eltBoneshandpoki
ngme
Luthando:
"Wowyouar
esoyoungNoxol
ogoback
toschool"
Me:
"I
t'
snoteasy.AndyouLut
hando"
Lut
hando:
"OhhIam anur
se"
Me:
"Wowi
mpr
essi
ve"
Lut
hando:
"Yes"
Jackson:
"Andt
henBoneswhyar
eyouqui
te"
Bones:heclearedhisthroat"Ithi
nkmyf ianceher
e
i
st ir
edyouknowhowpr egnantwomenar e."I
quicklyl
ookedathim andr eal
it
ysunki nwhenI
remember edthatIam notonconcr at
rept
ivesandI
sleptwit
hJam wi t
houtacondom"
Bones:
"Ri
ghtbabe"
Me:
"OhhyesI
'
dli
ket
ogohome"
Lut
hando:
"Umm okayt
heni
twasni
cemeet
ingyou
Noxol
o"

Wehandshakeandr
etur
nedhome.

Me:"
yourcl
ientisnotbadatallyouknow"Isai
d
whil
eopeni
ngt hebathroom doorandcamein
cont
actwit
hBoneshandshesl appedthedayl
ight
outofmeIfellonthecouch.
Bones:
"Howdar
eyouembar
assmel
iket
hat
"
Me:
"Iam sor
ryokay"
Bones:
"Di
dn'
tIt
ellyout
opl
ayal
ong"
Me:
"Idi
d"
Bones:
"Noyoudi
dn'
tNoxol
oyousai
dyouar
enot
worki
ng"
Me:"
Iam sor
ryBabepl
easeyouar
ehur
ti
ngmeI
di
dn'
tmeant o"
Bones:
"Dammit
"heletmegoandgr
abbedhi
scar
keysandwentout
.

Icri
edsil
entl
ymythroatwassosor efr
om t
he
str
angl
ingthatI
'
verecievedInevert
houghtBones
wasawomenbeat er.

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hlat
er

Theabusehasbeengoi ngonsincethatday.he'
s
beentreati
ngmel i
keshi thewouldsomet i
mesbeat
mewhenhef eelsli
kedoi ngi
tandthenextdayhe
wouldwakeupl ikenothinghappened,weain'
t
vibei
ngatal levenhissexgameIdon' tfeeli
t
anymor eIfeelli
kehei sforci
nghimselfonmeandi
hateit
.Hekeeponr emindingmeeverynowand
thenthatIdon'thaveacentsoi tisnoteasyto
l
eavehi m.

Bones:
"Wakeupgoandbat
h"Inoddedqui
ckl
y
st
oodup"bequick.
"
ThankGodI 'vegotthechancet odot hepregnancy
testI
'vebeenvomi ti
nglatelynottoment i
ongetti
ng
emot ionsoverasmal lt
hing.Iam gladthatIbought
i
tbef oreBonesl ockedmei n.SoIpeedoni tt
hen
tookashoweraf terthatIcheckeditwithmyl i
ps
pressedhopi ngforanegat iveresul
tsonlytosee
twor edlinestobehonestIam notr eadytobea
mom andIam sur ethatiti
sJam' sbaby,Boneswi l
l
kil
lmewhenhef oundoutaboutt hi
s.

Bones:
"Noxol
ogetoutIdon'
thavet
hewhol
eday"
Me:"Umm okay"Iwi
pedmyf acewit
hmyhands
onlytocomeoutwithtear
sI'velett
hem gush
thr
oughmycheeksInevert houghtthatmyli
fe
wouldturnoutl
iket
his.

Bones:
"Noxol
o"
Me:"
OkayokayIam coming"Isai
dwi
thapani
cked
voi
cetobehonestIdon'
tknowBonesanymor
eI
f
eelli
kesomethi
ngtookover,heisnotSi
khul
ithatI
f
elli
nlovewit
h.Iputt
het hetesti
nmybreastf
lash
t
heboxhopingtonotblockthetoi
let
.

Bones:
"Whatt
ookyousol
ong?
"
Me:
"OhhIwasshavi
ngmypri
vatepar
ts"
thatwas
t
hebestl
ieIcoul
dcomeupwit
h
Bones:
"Real
ly?
"hesai
dwi
thasmugl
ookpl
ast
ered
onhisface

Me:
"YesohhIforgott
omentionthatmypadsare
r
unningout
"Iwantedhimtoall
owmet ogotothe
mal
lsothatIcanescape,
itwasalsoali
e.

Bones:
"Okayhi
deyourbl
ackeye"
Me:
"Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
hist
omehuh?
"
Bones:
"Ohhhdi
dyouf
orgetaboutJam?
"
Me:
"Umm di
dyouki
llhi
m?"
Bones:
"Don'
ttel
lmeyoucar
eaboutt
hatbust
ard
noxol
o"angerari
sesi
nhi
seyes
Me:
"YesImeanno"
Bones:
"Whi
choneshoul
dIgowi
th?
"
Me:
"NoIdon'
t"
Bones:
"Good"

It
urnedandhi
dthebl
ueeyewi
thmakeup.

Me:
"Am donel
et'
sgo"
Bones:
"Okay"Iwasabouttot
urnandtookmysli
ng
bagwhent hetestf
allont
hef
loorDammitIam
bust
ed
Bones:
"What
'
sthatNoxol
o?"

Me:
"Ohhnonot
hing"Iqui
ckl
ypi
ckedi
t.

Bones:
"Letmesee"hesnat
chedt
het
est"
soyou
deci
dedtonott
ellmet
hegoodnews"hi
seyeswer
e
ful
loff
ir
e

Me:"
Itisnotwhati
tlooksl
ikeBonesIwant
edt
o
sur
priseyou"

Bones:"
Minereal
lyIam notafoolNoxol
oIknow
thatyousl
eptwit
hJam wi t
houtusingpr
otect
ion"
Me:
"Wedi
d"
Bones:
"Noyoudi
dn'
t"
Me:
"Pl
easel
etmegoIwon'
tbot
heryouanymor
e"
Bones:
"Iwantt
oruinyouNoxol
o"t
hatst
atement
mademybodyshi veri
nfear
Me:
"Pl
ease"
Iwasnowonmykneesbeggi
nghi
m.

Bones:
"St
andup"
Me:
"Nopl
easeSi
khul
i"
Bones:
"St
andupdammi
t"hehal
fshout
ed
Me:
"Sor
ry"Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Bones:
"Youar
egoi
ngt
oabor
tthatt
hingi
nsi
deyour
tummy"

Me:
"No"
Bones:
"Yesyouwi
llandi
t'
snotupf
ordebat
e"

Me:"
PleaseIwi
lldoanyt
hingyouwantmet
odoj
ust
don'
tkil
lmybaby"
Bones:"
baby?
"hescof
fed"t
hat'
str
ashIwoul
dn'
t
l
abelitasababyi
fIwereyou"

Ilookedatt
heanimalthatisstandi
nginfr
ontofme.
Isighedandsatdowntr yi
ngtoplanhowtoescape
thishel
lhol
eIdon'twanttodieI'
veheardhow
dangerousabor
ti
onsar e.

Bones:
"Iwi
llbeback"
Iam gl
adtodayhedidn'taskf
orsex.IhateJam f
or
makingmesleepwi t
hhim noact
uallyIhatemen.It
noteasyt
ostayinthishousewit
houtaphonehe
madesuretodisconnectTVsandeverythi
ngthat
canmakemeescape.Iam sur eKeleisworri
ed
aboutme.

Bones:
"Honeyam home"sai
dboneswhenhecame
backaf
ter2hours

Me:
"Hey"Isadt
othewhi
teguyhewaswi
th
Bones:
"Her
oldmeetmyf
ianceNoxol
o"
Her
old:
"HeyNoks"
Me:Ismi
led
Bones:
"Babehei
sadoctorbyprof
essi
onhei
s
goi
ngtohelpyoudoabort
ion"
Me:"
No"Ishout
edt
hatmadehi
m gasp"Iwon'
tdo
abor
ti
onBones"
Bones:
"Why?
"
Me:
"Iam notamur
der
erokay"Isai
dbacki
ngaway

Bones:
"Her
olddowhatIpai
dyout
odo"
Me:"
Pleasedon'
tBonesdon'
tri
skmyl
if
eImi
ght
di
e"

Her
old:hel
ookedatbones
Bones:
"Doi
t"
Her
old:
"Okaymi
ssfi
rstpeeonthiscontai
nerso.
that
wecanbesuret
hatyouarepregnant"
Me:
"Youwillhavet
ofi
rstf
ightmeIwon'
tgi
veup
t
hateasi
ly"
Bones:
Hechuckl
ed"Noxol
odon'
tfi
ghtme"he
di
smissedme

Honest
lyi
twasbeyondmeact
ual
lyIdon'
thavea
sayi
nmyl
if
e.It
ookt
hecont
ainerandwentt
opee
onit
.

Me:
"Hopeyour
oti
nhel
l"

Bones:
"Don'
twor
ryhel
lismyhome"

Ikeptqui
et.Ther
esul
tcamebackposi
ti
ve

Her
old:
"Li
edownmi
ss"

Ilayonthebedandl ethi
m dohisworktobehonest
thepai
nt hatIf
eltwasunbearabl
eIstar
tedt
osweat
mybodywasshaki nguncont
roll
abl
e.

Her
old:
"Dammi
twear
elosi
ngherbones"

That
'st
hel
astt
hingIhear
d.
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NOXOLO

Ifeltahandt ouchi
ngme, onl
yt or eal
iseiti
sBonesI
decidedt okeepquietandshutmyeyest hinki
ng
aboutthewhol ethingthatiti
shappeni nginmyl i
fe
Ireall
yhopet heabor t
iondidn'tsucceedbutwho
am Ikiddingbecausemybodyi sweakIcanf eeli
t.I
don'twantt omentionhowpoundi ngmyheadache
i
s, Iam surethatBonesi senjoyingwhat everheis
doingtome.Butatt heendoft hedayIam t heone
whowr ongedhim IguessIdeser vethetort
urethatI
am r
ecei
ving

Bones:
"Heyyou'
reawake,
thankGod"Iam sur
ehe
noti
ceditbyl
ooki
ngatmyeyesbecauseIwas
bl
inki
ngthem
Me:"Waterpl
ease"mythroatwassosor
eIfel
tli
keI
haven'
thadwat erf
orl
ikeamonthplusIam t
hir
sty
Bones:
"Howar
eyou?
"
Il
ookedattheani
malt
hati
ssi
tt
ingnextt
omy
hospi
talbed
Me:"
Whatdoyout
hink?
"
Bones:
"Don'
tworrybabeever
ythi
ngwi
llgobackt
o
nor
maltheabort
ionwasasuccesssothere'
s
not
hingtoworr
yabout "
Me: "
Ohhsoyousucceededi nkilli
ngmychi ld?
Congr at
ulati
ons"Iwasbeyondhur tIwantedt o
raisemychi ldthewaymamar aisedme, Iwast o
teachhim/ herrespectbutwhoam It osayt hat?
Thedevi ldecidedtokil
lmychildandf orthatIwon'
t
forgivehim.
Me:
"Soar
eyouhappy?
"
Bones:"Mor ethanhappybabe"hebrokemyheart
heshut teredit
.Ifel
tmyt ear
sbur
ningmyeyesbutI
blockedt hem fr
om fal
li
ngIdon'
twanttogi
vehim
thesatisfacti
onofseeingmecryi
ng,Iknowiti
snot
goodt obat t
leupemot i
ons.
Bones:
"Si
nceyou'
reokayIt
hinki
t'
sti
mewego
home?"
Me:
"Wi
thoutt
hedoct
orsper
missi
on?
"
Bones:
"DoyouIthi
nkI'
dtakeyoutohospital
?
WomenIam notcrazysodon'tworr
ywedon' tneed
hi
sapproval
,i
nthiswarehouseIcal
ltheshots"
Me:"
ButIam notokay"deepdownIwant
edtostay
her
eformaybe5daysIwantt oheal
,mybodyisin
pai
n.
Bones:
"DoIlookl
ikeIcar
ewoman?Ther
e'san
eventt
hatIneedt
oat t
endinl
esst
han3hours.
"
Me:
"Umm okay"hest
oodupandhelpedmegetoff
t
hebed,
Inoticedt
hatIwaswear
ingthecl
othest
hat
Ipassedoutwear
ing,
itwasevenst
ainedwi
thbl
ood,
Bonesissoevi
l.
Bones:"
Don'twor
rybabeever
ythi
ngwil
lbealr
ight
"
hedisconnect
edthedri
psandhelpedmeli
mpal l
thewaytothecar.

Bones:
"Thi
sladyherewi
llhelpyouwit
hmakeup"I
noddedeventhoughIdi
dn'twanttogo
Bones:
"shar
p"hewentt
ost
andbythedoorf
rameI
am sur
eheisguardi
ngmefr
om notdoi
nganyt
hing
wrong.
Lady:
"OkayIam goi
ngtoapplyalotofproduct
son
yourf
acebecauseofthebrui
ses."Inodded
Me:
"Dowhat
everyout
hinkwi
llsui
tme"shenodded
Lady:
"Can'tbel
ievei
t'
s16Junewithoutmegoing
anywhere"soI'
vebeeninhospi
talfor3dayswow
Me:
"I
t'
s16June?
"
Lady:
"Yes"Ir
emember
edt
hatIam spendi
ngt
he
daywithoutmymom.
Me:
"Okay"
Lady:
"Sor
ry"
Me:
"Noi
t'
sfi
ne"If
akedasmi
le

Lady:"
Wowyouar esogor
geous"Iwasturni
ng
aroundpr
etendi
ngtobehappyintheexpensi
ve
dress
Me:"
Nosil
lyyou'
ret
heonewhomademet
his
gor
geous"
Lady:
"Wowyouaresoperf
ect
,anywaymywor
kis
doneheresoIgott
ogo"
Me:
"Okaygowel
l"

Shesmi l
edandwentout,Isighedi
ndefeatInever
thoughtI
'dseemysel
fpretendingt
obehappywhen
Iam notIputmyhandont heholethatBones
causedbythrowi
ngabedsi delamp,myfaceis
rui
nedbecauseofhim.
Bones:
"Let
'sgoIdon'
twanttobel
ateandohh
womanyoubet t
ernott
rytoembar
rassme"hewas
hol
dingmyhandsot i
ght
Me:
"Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"myvoi
cewasbr
eaki
ng
Bones:
"Goodcomel
et'
sgoohhdon'
tfor
gett
oput
onyourri
ng"
Me:
"Okay"

Il
impedt othedrawerandputont heringafterwe
drovetotheevent,bythelooksofthecarsitwas
packedIhatecrowdedpl acesbutIdon'thave
choiceIam for
cedt odothisnottoment i
onhow
painfulmybodyis,theheadacheisnot
disappear
ingatall
.

Bones:
"Ready?
"
Me:
"Yes"It
hinkt
hepai
nwasst
art
ingt
ocomeback
wi
thalotofpower
Bones:
"Ar
esur
eyou'
reokay?
"Asi
fhecar
es
Me:
"YesIam"Ipr
essedmyl
ipsagai
nsteachot
her
t
ryi
ngtokeepmysel
fcal
m

Hel ockedhi
sar
mi nt
omineandwentinsi
dethe
event.Thesmel
lofri
chpeopl
efi
ll
edmynost r
il
s,i
fol
lowedBonesli
keapuppyunti
lIaskedhi
mt o
excuseme

Me:
"Ineedt
ogot
othet
oil
etshopeyoudon'
tmi
nd"
Bones:"
Don'
tworr
yyoucangobutdon'
ttr
ytodo
anyt
hingIwoul
dn'tdo"
Me:"Okay"
.Iqui
cklywentt othetoil
etsIhaveto
escapetodayIcan'
tgoonwi tht
heabuseIam t i
red
butfi
rstImadesuret hathewasntwat chi
ngme
thenusetheemergencydoor ,It
ookofmyheel s
andran.Iwasn'
tthinkingaboutthepainIhaveto
runasfastasIcanbef orehenoticesI'
m gone.

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NOXOLO

Me:"CanIpl
easesqueezeinfort
henight?
"Iwas
aski
ngahoboyounggirlwhowasf ol
dingboxest
o
makeabedIam gladthatImanagedtorunaway
fr
om boneswit
houthi
m notici
ngmethatIam gone
Her
:"Yesbutyoumustwakeupandhust
lewi
thme
Tomorrowther
e'snot
hingf
orf
ree"
Me:"
Okayt
hankyou"shesmi
ledandmadeaspace
f
ormetogeti
nsi
dethedi
rt
ybl
anket
Her
:"Am Zanel
eandyou?
Me:"
Youcancal
lmenoxol
o"
Her
:"Okaysi
sNoxol
o"

Wellwetalkedabouteveryt
hingshet
oldmeabout
herabusi
vegr andf
atherwhousedtohithert
hat'
s
whysher anawayf r
om him andshei
s16year sol
d.

Zanel
e:"
Sowhataboutyou?
Me:"
wel
lIwasdati
ngsomeotherguywhoabused
mesoIdeci
dedtorunawayfrom hi
m"Idon'
teven
knowwhyIopeneduptoher
Zanel
e:"
Sohowar
eyouhol
dingup?
"
Me:
"It
rust
edhi
m "Ibl
inkedawayt
ear
s
Zanel
e:"
Don'
twor
ryever
ythi
ngwi
llbeokay"
Me:
Okay"

Thef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningIwokeupt
othesoundof
pol
icevans.

Zanel
e:"
Noxol
owhat
'sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Me:"Whatdoyoumean?Idon'
tknow.Whatdi
dyou
do?
"
Zanel
e:"
Idi
dn'tdoanyt
hing"wewer
edi
stur
bedbya
pol
iceof
fi
cer
Hi
m:"
CanIpl
easeseeNoxol
oBhut
hel
ezi
"
Me:"
It
'sme"
Hi
m:"
Okay"hegavemeasear
chwar
rant
Me:"
Andt
henwhat
'st
his?
"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
thavet
oreadi
tforyoumi
ss"
Zanel
e:"
Whatdi
dyoudonoxol
o?"
Me:"
Not
hingokay"
Hi
m:"
CanIpl
easewor
k"
Me:"Sur
e"het
urnedupt
hewhol
epl
aceandf
ound
not
hing
Hi
m:"
Nosof
astmi
ssy"hewentt
ohi
svanand
cameoutwi
tht
wobul
ldogs"
Me:"
What
'sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Hi
m:"
I'
ver
ecei
vedat
ip-
off
"
Me:"
What
?"
Him:"Yesappar
entl
yyouaret
hepersonwhoi
s
sel
li
ngthedrugsthatki
ll
ed5t
eenager
s"
Me:"
Whatno"
Hi
m:"Sopl
easei
fyouknowyouar
einnocental
low
metodomyjobi
npeace"
Me:"Okay"thedogsstart
edt osnif
fmeunt i
lthey
stopinfrontofmyweavet hatIwaswearing"the
poli
cemanst art
edtosearchmywi gunti
lhef ound
twopacksofwhi tepowderhet ast
edi
tthen
chuckled
Hi
m:"
Mam youunderar
restf
orsel
li
ngdr
ugs"
Me:"What
?No,
Idon'
tknowanyt
hingaboutdr
ugs
pl
ease"
Hi
m:"Youhavetheri
ghttor
emainsil
entandcal
la
l
awyeri
fyoucan'taf
for
donethegovernmentwi
ll
provi
deyouwi t
hone,"hesaidpushingmei nside
thevanInevert houghtI
'dfi
ndmysel fi
nsi
det hevan
goingtojail
,IknowbonessetmeupbutwhatwasI
thi
nkingfall
inginlovewit
hbonesIwasdef initel
y
notthinki
ngstraightnowIbeli
evethatbonesisevil
.

Bones

_
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___
__

Me:"NoJomol etherr
otinjai
lfor4monthsthenwe
wi
llstealt
hedocketorbr
ibethejudget
olethergo"
Jomo:"
Areyousur
eaboutt
hisboss?
"
Me:"
YesIwantNoxol
otosuf
fert
hewayIsuf
fer
ed
whenIsawhervi
deocl
ip"
Jomo:"
Irespectyouboss"
Me:"
It
'sf
ort
hebestandi
t'
snotl
ikeshei
sgoi
ngt
o
di
e"
Jomo:"
She'
sbeent
hroughal
otofboneswhycan'
t
youl
ethergo?
"
Me:"
Whatwasshet
hinki
nghuh?
"
Jomo:"
Doyoul
oveher
?"
Me:"Don'
tfuckenaskmebul
lshi
tIcareabout
Noxolobutwhodoesshethi
nksheishuhtryi
ngt
o
r
unawayf rom me?
Jomo:"
Iknowbonesbutyoudon'
tdot
hatt
othe
per
sonyoulove"
Me:"
NoIam t
eachi
ngheral
esson"
Jomo:"
Byf
rami
ngherwi
thdr
ugs?
"
Me:"DammitJomoIam yourbossyoudon'
tgett
o
quest
ionme"
Jomo:"
Okay"her
aisedhi
shandsi
nsur
render

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NOXOLO

5MONTHSLATER

It'
sbeenahel loffi
vemont hsinsi deajailhole
everythingi
samesst heyusedt obeatmeandr ape
meIcanbel ievethatagi r
lcanr apeagi rlt
heyused
totakemyf oodandl etmest arvesomet imest hey
wouldbeatmewhenIt rytofi
ghtt hem thebigboss
i
sBi llIdon'
tevenknowhowshegott henamebut
sheisdanger ousshemademyl ifehorri
blethose
pastf ewmont hsshewoul dhitmeoutofnowher e
therewast hisdayt hatIwokeupwi t
hachi skopon
myheadonl yt ofi
ndoutt hatshei stheonewho
razedmyhai rIcri
edmysel ftosl eepthattheday
somet imesshewoul dsendmet ogoandsel ldrugs
forherbutIam gl adt hatIam usedt oever yt
hing
nowandnewpr i
sonersar etheonewhobowdown
tomeIam al soselli
ngdr ugsOhhhIam nott hat
heartf
aintedNoxoloanymor eIkil
ledtwogi r
lswho
tr
iedtostealmydr ugsatf ir
stIwast er
ri
fiedI'
dalso
dream aboutthegirlbutwhenIki l
ledthesecond
oneIwokeupf eeli
nggoodact ual
lyi
tfeltsogoodI
didn'
tevenblamemysel forpitymyself.

Wardener
:"
Prisoner104someoneisr
equest
ingto
seeyou"t
hatwasmynumberIam soconf usedI
meannoonevi sit
edmebeforeevent
hatskunk
bonesIguesshef or
gott
enaboutme
War dener
:"
HeyIdon' thaveafullday"Isnappedout
ofitandfoll
owedhi m Inevert
houghtI'
dseeBoobie
i
nfrontofme, Iwantedtohugherbutwear enot
al
lowedt odot hat
Me:
"Boobi
eh.
.i
"
Kel
e:"
OhhmyGodf
ri
endwhat
'sgoi
ngon?Huh?
"
Me:"
IwishIknewBoobiebutt
ocuti
tshor
thowdi
d
youknowthatIam i
njai
l"
Kel
e:"
Gir
lyouaredat
ingamul
tibi
ll
ionai
resoi
twas
soeasytofi
ndyou"
Me:"
Was,anywaytocutt
hest
oryshortBones
fr
amedmeBoobi epr
omiset
onotforgetmewhenI
comebackokay"
Kel
e:"
Ipr
omi
sebutf
ri
endhowar
eyoucopi
ng?
"
Me:
"Umm Iwil
lbefi
ne"t
earsstar
tedtomaketheir
wayoutBonest
urnedmeintosomethingIam not
Kel
e:"
Hangint
her
eNoxol
o,Godwi
llneverabonden
youokay"
Me:
"Ist
il
lcan'
tbel
ievet
hatBoneswoul
dpl
antdr
ugs
i
nmywi g"
Kele:
"Fri
endli
stenst
opfeel
ingsor
ryf
oryoursel
f2
yearsisnot
hingyouwil
lbeoutofher
ewithi
nblink
ofaneye"
Me:
"Butst
il
lIal
lowedhi
mtouseme"
Kele:
"Don'
ttel
lmeyoust
illlovehi
m Noxolot
heguy
changedyouIcaneventellbythewayyouare
usi
ngyourhandswhenyout al
kNoxol
oyou'vegot
l
otofangerbottl
edupi
nsideyourheartyouhavet
o
l
eti
tgoyouhavet
ofor
giveandf
orget
"
Me:
"Noboneschangedmeandiwon'trestunt
ilI
makehi
mf eelt
hepaint
hatIam f
eel
ing"
Kel
e:"
Umm okaypl
easepr
otectyour
sel
f"
Me:
"Yheasur
evhaya(
Go"
)
Kel
e:"
Iwi
llcomebacknextweek"
Me:
"Okayubegr
and"

ShenoddedandwentoutIsi
gnedandr
etur
nedt
o
mycell
.

Kel
e

_
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___
___

Am kelet
soNoxolo'
sfri
endIwasst
udyingmedici
ne
atuni
versit
yofCali
for
niaBer
kel
eybutI'
veaskedfor
tr
ansfertocomeandstudyatTUTenoughabout
mewhenIsawt heheadlinenewsaboutNoxol o
beingarrest
editdidn'
tsitwellwi t
hmeatf irstIwas
i
gnor i
ngitbecauseIthoughtt hatNoxol oi
snot
i
nnocentbutwhent heti
mewentonIr eal
isedthat
noNoxol owouldn'tdothatandbygoi ngtothe
courthervoicewasscreami ngi nnocentbutIam
gladthatImanagedt ogoandcheckonhereven
thoughIdon'tli
ketheper sonshei schanginginto.

Bones

_
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___
___

Tasha:
"BabywhathappenedtoNoxolo"Ohhh
TashaandIgivi
ngourrel
ati
onshipachanceagain
don'
taskmehowweendupt oget
herIalsodon'
t
know
Me:
"Don'
tment
iont
hatbi
ych'
snameher
eTasha"
Tasha:
"Ohhsorr
ybutbabywhywouldyouf
rame
her"It
oldherwhatIdi
dtoNoxol
oandshewasnot
happyatal
l
Me:
"Thegi
rlcheat
edonmeTasha"
Tasha:
"St
il
lSi
khul
ithatdoesn'
tgi
veyout
her
ightt
o
fr
ameher"
Me:
"Noshedeser
vedi
t"
Tasha:
"WowyouknowwhatIam goi
ngf
oradr
ive"
Me:"
Tashababycomebackher
e"shei
gnor
edme
anddroveof
f

Tasha

_
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___
_

Iam notaf oolIknowwhatIam doingIam goingto

breakBonest hewayhef akedmymentali
ll
nessI
gotbackwi thhim onpurposehewon'tseewhathit
him Iam goingtodestroyhimthewayhedestroy
myr elat
ionshi
pbybur ningmyboyfr
iendItooka
dri
vet omymom' shouse
Me:
"Heymama"
Mama:
"Wherei
sLul
u"Isweart
hiswomenl
oves
Lul
umoret
hatme
Me:
"Nomamayouar
est
art
ingt
omakemej
eal
ous"
Mama:"
Sor
rybabyhow'
syourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
th
Si
khul
i"
Me:"
Ithi
nkhei sst
art
ingt
otr
ustmemom Imeanhe
t
oldmet hatheist
heonewhoframedt
hatgi
rl
Noxol
o"
Mama:"What
?!yourexhusbandi
shurt
lessTasha
pl
easebecaref
ulIdon'
twanttol
oseyoumy
daught
er"
Me:"Don'
tworr
ymom youwon'
tIj
ustwantthekey
tohissaf
ethat
'swher
ehehi
deshisi
mportant
documents"
Mama:
"Whydon'
tyouj
ustl
ett
hisgo"
Me:
"Whatno"
Mama:
"Youar
esost
ubbor
nTasha"
Me:
"It
akeaf
teryoumom"
Mama:
"Iwi
llsl
apyou"Il
aughedIl
ovespendi
ng
t
imewi
thmymom sheget sme.

Bones

_
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___

Me:
"SoJomowher
eisshe?
Jomo:"Sheiswit
hhermom.Ican'
tbel
ieveyouare
keepi
ngt absonyourexwi
fenowai
tyourgirl
fr
iend"
Me:"
Iwanttoknowi
fshei
supt
onogoodor
somethi
ng"
Jomo:"
Don'
twor
ryshei
sbehavi
ngIt
hinkshei
s
ser
ious"
Me:
"Ar
eyousur
eJomo"
Jomo:
"Yesbonesf
ocusonyourf
ami
ly"
Me:
"Okay"
Idr
oppedt
hecal
landdr
ankmywhi
skey

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er41

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_

Nar
rat
ed

It'
sbeenaweeksi nceNoxolohasbeenoutofjailat
fi
rstshewasconf usedonhowshecameoutbut
sher ememberedthatshewasdati
ngthemost
fearedguyintown.BonesmanagedtogetNoxol o
outofjailbyf
raminghisenemywithaboxofdr ugs
thatheusedtoframeNoxolosothepoli
cearrested
t
heguyandletnoxol
ogobecauset
heywant
eda
wel
lknowndruglor
d

Noxoloi
snowl i
vingwithZanel
eatfirstZanel
ewas
nothavi
ngitbecauseshedoesn'twantpolice
sni
ffi
ngaroundhercornerbutNoxolomanagedto
convi
nceher.
BonesandTasha' srelati
onshi
pi sgoi
ngwel lbut
Tashaisn'
tlet
ti
nggoofherpl anssheisstil
l
pl
anningonhowt obr eakhi
m allsheneedsnowi s
ateam becauseitwillnotbeeasyt of
ightBones
al
one

Noxol
o

_
___
___

It
'sbeenaweeksinceIwasouteverythi
ngisokay
onmysi deandIam grat
efult
hatBonesisn'
t
bother
ingmerightnowIwanttoconcentrat
emore
onmyl if
eandf or
getaBoneswhoputmyt hr
ough
hellIam nowaki ll
erbecauseofhi m butIam
gratefulthattheyclearedmynameIdon' thavea
cri
mi nalrecordappar ent
lytheyfoundaper sonwho
wassel li
ngt hedrugs(Esetency)thattheyfoundi
n
mywi gandIknowt hatboneshasahandi nit.

Zanel
e:"
Noxol
owakeupdon'
tfor
gett
hatwehavet
o
wakeupbefor
e6"
Me:"
Dammi twhycan'ttheyl
eaveusal one"wear e
sl
eepingi
nfrontofaminiResturantsowedon' t
wantthemanagertofindusher eIheardthatheis
ar
rogantheoncehitZanelewithaspade"
Zanel
e:"
Don'tf
orgett
hatwearesl
eepi
nginf
rontof
hi
sResturantsohehasther
ightt
ochaseus"
Me:"
Okay"Iwokeupandf ol
dedtheboxesandwent
tohi
dethem atthecornerhonest
lyit
'snot
comfor
tabl
esleepingonboxeswor seatthest
reet
andbecauseI'
m agirlIhavetosl
eepwi t
honeeye
open
Zanel
e:"
Iam goi
ngt
ofi
ndsomet
hingatt
hemal
l"
Me:
"OkayasformeIam goi
ngt
otr
yandl
ookf
ora
mi
nijobsIdon'
tknow"
Zanel
e:"
Nahgoandl ookforf
oodsot hatwecanbe
ablet
oeatsomet hi
ngtoni
ght"yest
erdaywesl
ept
wit
hempt ystomachbecauseitwashardwedidn'
t
fi
ndanyfreshfood
Me:
"Okayshar
p"

Wewentoursepar
atewaysIwenttot
hemallt
oil
ets
andwashedmyfaceIdon'
tevenknowwher
eto
star
ttoday.

SoI'
vedecidedt ogotothebusiestst
reetthestreet
wasbuzzingwi thpeopl
esomegoi ngtowor ksome
werefi
xingthepavementt hatwasbroken.Ladies
werebusypr epari
ngthei
rfrui
tstosel
lthem Ican't
spendanotherdaywi t
houteati
ngsomet hi
ng.Ihave
todosomet hing.

Bones
_
___
___
__

Afterf
ewmont hsJomomanagedt oconvincemet o
l
etNoxologosinceIam nowwi t
hTashaandI
thoughti
tthr
oughIframedmyenemyi t'
stimeIlet
NoxologoeventhoughIsti
lll
oveheranywayIam
busywithJomoplanningaromanti
cdinnerfor
TashaIwanthertoremarr
ymehopesheagr ees.

Jomo:
"Ar
eyousur
eyouwantt
odot
his?
"
Me:
"YesIwantt
ofor
getaboutNoxol
oandmoveon"
Jomo:"Okayl
et'
shopeshedoesn'
tdecl
ineyour
off
er"
Me:
"Let
'shopesoanywayl
et'
sfi
nishup"
Jomo:
"Okay"

Wedecor
atedthetabl
eJomowentt
ohi
scr
iband
l
eftmewait
ingforTasha
Me:"
Heywhere'
sLulu?"IaskedTashawhowas
l
ocki
ngthedoorshockwaswr it
teninhereyes
Tasha:"
Ohhum she'svisi
ti
ngmymom what '
sthe
occasi
on?DidIforgetsomething?Arewe
cel
ebrati
ngsomething?Ordidyousi gna
part
nershi
pwit
hsomeone? "Ishutherupwi
tha
ki
ss
Me:"
Yout al
ktomuchnobabewear
enot
cel
ebrat
inganyt
hing"
Tasha:
"Okay"
Me:
"St
opbei
ngsoconf
usedcomet
akeaseat
"
Tasha:
"Umm okay"shesmi
led
Tasha:
"Thi
sisl
ovel
ywhomadet
hem?
"Shewas
eat
ingduckedwi
ngs"
Me:
"YouknowIdi
dit
"
Tasha:
"Mm okay"

Wewer
eint
hemi
ddl
eofourdi
nnerandt
het
imeof
dr
oppi
ngt
hebombar
ri
ved

Me:
"Babycanwepl
easer
enewourvows"
Tasha:
"Ar
eyousur
eBones?
"
Me:
"YesIam sur
e"
Tasha:
"Okay"
Me:
"Wai
tokayj
ustl
i
ket
hat
?"
Tasha:
"Yesokay"
Me:
"Thanksbabe"

Tasha

Afteradi nnerwithbonesIwenttotakeashower
afterthatwentt oworemypyjamasatt heclosest
I
j
ustgotoutoft heclosetandIhearthewaterisno
l
ongerr unning,
hemustbedone.Ist artget
ti
ng
readyf orbedwhenhesuddenl ycomesoutdr ippi
ng
wet .Iforgothowf i
nethismanlookswi t
hout
clot
heson.Hi sbodysof ir
m andbuf fyoucansee
hevisit
sthegym f requently,t
hedrippingwat eris
doingnojust icetot hosepacksper fectlyli
nedlike
hewasscul ptured.Thet owelishangi ngsol owI
couldseet heper fectshapeofhi sv-li
nemaki ngme
wonderofwhat '
sunder neaththattoweli fgodown
l
owabi t
,Ibitemyl owerlipsdrooli
ngovert hi
ssex
Godi nfr
ontofme.Ican' tstopmysel f,didhehave
tohavesuchaper fectbodyar ghhIchast i
cemyself.
Wehaven' tbeeni ntimatesi ncewegotback
toget
hersot hisisasi ghtforsoreeyesandi t'
snot
doingmeanyj usti
cedownsout h.

Ididn'treali
seIwasst ari
ngforsol ongthatIdidn'
t
seehewasal r
eadyst andinginf r
ontofme.Ihat e
thi
sman, Ir
emindmysel fthemomentmyeyes
meethi sbuthi sgazeonmemakesmef eelallhot
andf uzzy.Iwantf orhi mtotouchme, mymi nd
yel
ls" no", i
nnerbit
chsays, "
wellyougottamake
him believeyou'reinvestedinthisandbesi des
whatcoul dhurtyouai n'
tnovi r
ginnomor e".West i
ll
holdi
ngast ari
ngcont estwhenIf i
ndmysel frunni
ng
myhandsonhi
sabsasIr
eleaseasi
gh,
hesmi
rks.

Bones: Al
lyougott
adoisaskf
ori
tTash,hesaysin
hisraspvoi
ce,Iwantt
osaysomet
hingbutwords
fai
lme.

Her unshisf ingerupmyar m whi lehi sot herhandi s

holdingmyneckbr ingmet hatcl osert ohi sface.He
pull
smecl oseandst artskissi
ngme, slowand
passionately,Ihopet odayhedoesn' tt hinkof
Noxol o,
thisonet i
meheoncecal ledhername
whilewewer emaki ngoutmaki ngmest ophi m so
weneverdi danyt hi
ngt hereafter.Iam i nt hezone, I
feelmybodyyear ni
ngf orhim, Iwr apmyar ms
aroundhi sneckandwhi sper"Pleaset akeme, am
yours"hedoesn' twastet i
me, hepi cksmeupandI
automat i
callywr apmyl egsaroundhi swai stashe
walksmet ot hecouchnextt othesl idingdoor .As
heput smedownoni t,hepul l
smysi lkni ghtieover
myhead, mybodyal r
eadyhavi nggoosebumps, my
nipl
essohar dt heystaringrightathi m seeki nghi s
att
ent
ionandmynunasowetitwasastoni
shi
ng
howmuchmybodysti
llr
espondstohi
m befor
ehe
event
ouchedme.

Thelookofsat isf
act i
ononhi sfacewashar dto
miss,hewal kedbackt othemi nibarfr
idgeinthe
cornerandcamebackwi thIce,heputiti
nhi s
mout hashecapt ur edmylipsinhis,t
hecol dfeel
ing
sendingsensat i
onsoverme, Iwantmor e.He
movedt okissingmyneckgoi ngdownt omy
boobies,heat t
ackseachonegi vi
ngitenough
att
entionwhi chdrivesmecr azy.Hemovesdownt o
myst omachl eavingkissesmaki ngmegi ggle,
Ifeel
him blowingsomeai ront
omynuna.

Bones:
Alr
eadyr
eadyf
ormeIsee
Hestar
tstovi
gorousl
yrubmycl i
twhil
ehi
sfi
nger
sl
idesi
n.Icl
osemyeyesenjoyingthi
sashei
s
ki
ll
ingmewitheachslowst
roke.
Heblowsai
rontomyNunaandrunst
heiceonit
al
readyt
hatmakesmemoanloudashecaptur
es
mycl itmakingmemoanagai nandheeat smy
pussyl i
kehedi dn'
tgethisdi nnerwhi l
efinger
fuckigme,If i
ndmysel fpushi nghi sheaddeeper
call
ingouthi shisnamet illIfeel avibr
ationt hat
causesmet oexplodeonhi sf acel i
keabomb.He
l
ooksatmewi thasmi rkashemovest oki ssme,
maki ngmet astemysel f
.Wi thoutanywar ninghe
sli
dehi sst
ickintothehi l
t.Not hingbustl ustand
desireisvi
sibleinhiseyes.Sl owl yhest arts
humpi ngandhumpi ngwhi l
ehol dingagaze.

Me:
Mor
epl
ease.
..
Hewast esnot i
measheopensmyl egswi derashe
stretchest oapoi ntwher epainandpl easureblurs
andshoveshi sdestroyerin.Hest artshumpi ng
vi
gor ousl yasIdigmynai lsonhi sshoul ders
cl
awi ngintohiml ikealion.Ifeelmybui l
dupashe
i
ncr easeshi spaceandi ttakesaf ewseconds
befor emyor gasm washesovermel i
keamassi ve
storm.Ihearhi m moansol oadwhi l
et ur
ningme
over, thestarsandt hemoonar egi vi
ngl i
ghting,I
seehi srefl
ecti
onashesl amsi ntomemor e
fer
ociousl
yonlytheslappingofhisbal
lsandbody
againstmineismakingthenoise.Mymoansar e
uncontrol
labl
e,t
hismani sdoingmesogoodr i
ght
nowIcoul dli
ckhist
oes.

Hisf
ingersweepsovermycl
itashe'
ssl
amming
i
ntomel i
keapossessedani
malIknowhei
sclose
ashi
sbodyi sgoi
ngrigi
d.
Bones:
WaitformeBaby,
ashesl
amshar
derand
rubsmor
evigorousl
y.
I
t'
sthatBabythatsendsmeof fasanorgasm hi
ts
meli
keawi l
dhurricaneasheshortl
yfol
lowswitha
l
odroarspil
li
nghisjuicesi
nmemaki ngmef al
lon
t
hecouch.Am gladont hepil
lscozni
ggawould've
f
uckedanotherbabyintomer i
ghtnow.
West ayli
kethatcal mingourer r
ati
cbreat
hing
befor
ehewal ksovert othebathr
oom comingback
wit
hawar mt oweltocl eanmeupandhi mselft
oo.
Hesoonaf terpicksmeupt obed,ki
ssesme
goodnightandwef alli
ntoslumber.
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er42

(
Tooshor
t)

Noxol
o

Zanel
e:"
Atl
eastI
'
vemanagedt
ogetR100t
oday"
Me:
"Real
lyyoumadeal
otofmoneyZanel
e"
Zanel
e:"
Andyou?
"Isi
ghed
Me:
"Hect
icbutImanagedt
ogetussomef
ood"
Zanel
e:"
Wher
edi
dyougeti
t?"
Me:"
Ohhsomeoneboughti
tformeyouknowhow
r
ichpeopl
ear
e"
Zanel
e:"
Ihat
ethef
actt
hatt
heypi
tyus"
Me:
"Yeahsheal
soboughti
tformeoutofpi
ty"
Zanel
e:"
Okayl
et'
seatdon'
tfor
gett
hatTommor
ow
wehavet
owakeupear
ly"
Voi
ce:
"Wel
lwel
lyouwon'
tbewaki
ngupear
ly"
Zanel
e:"
Shi
t"
Me:
"What
sup?
"Theguywassoscar
y
Zanel
e:"
Wehavet
orunbef
orehebeat
susNoxol
o"
Me:
"Why?
"
Zanele:"
Noxol
orunhei
stheowneroft
he
Resturant"
Me:
"WhataboutyouZanel
e?"
Zanel
e:"
I'
llhandl
eitNoxol
ogo"
Me:"Okaysure"Itooktheboxesandr anIdon'teven
knowwher ewillIsleeptodayIcan'
tevengoto
Kele'
shouseIdon' twanttobeabur dentoherand
hergrandmotherevenZodwai t
'sbeenawhilesince
I'
vecontactedheranywayI 'vemanagedtorunto
thenearestbri
dgeandl aydownmyboxesIguessI
wil
lsleepheretodaybutIam wor ri
edaboutZanele.

Thef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningIwokeupwi
thoutZanel
e
nexttomeIthoughtshewouldfoll
owmebutshe
di
dn'tIr
eal
lyhopeshei sokaywhereshei s.If
olded
boxesandhidthem TodayIam goi
ngt olookfora
j
obIneedmoneysoIcanl ookforaplacet ost
ayit
i
snotsafehere.

Voice:
"Heywatchwher
eyou' r
egoi ng"af
terwaki
ng
upIwentt ot
hestr
eetthat'
sfil
ledwi t
hri
chpeopl
eI
mistakenl
ybumpedint
ot hismi ddl
eagedwoman
shesmel l
sgoodevenbyt hecl
ot hessheiswear
ing
spellr
ich
Me:
"Iam sor
ry"
Her
:"
Andt
henwhyar
eyousmel
li
ngbad"
Me:honest
lyspeaki
ngIdosmellbadmyarmpit
s
arer
ipe"Mam Iam hungr
yevenifyoucangi
veme
tworandIwouldn'
tmind"
Her
:"
What
'syourname?
"
Me:
"Noxol
o"
Her
:"
Noxol
oni
cename"
Me:
"Thankyou"
Her:
"Wai
ther
eIam goi
ngt
ogetyousomet
hingt
o
eat
"
Me:
"Okay"

Sheretur
nedt
ohercarandcamebackwi
thabr
own
paperbag

Her
:"
Her
eeatyoucancal
lmeMaZwane"
Me:"
OkayMaZwane"shegavemet hebagi
twasa
bur
gerfr
om st
eer
swit
hchipsIbegantoeat
Her
:"
Sot
ellmehowdi
dyouendupi
nthest
reet
"
Me:
"Ir
athernott
alkabouti
t"
Her:
"okaynopr
obl
em,
Icant
akeyououtoft
he
st
reets"
Me:
"Bydoi
ngwhat
?"
Her:
"Iam i
nneedofamai
difyoudon'
tmi
ndyou
cancomeandwor kf
orme"
Me:
"Mai
d!?
"
Her:
"YesIdon'
tseeanythingwr ongaboutt
hatand
besi
desIam off
eringyouaj obyouwon'tbe
sl
eepingi
nthestreetanymor e"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowmam canIpl
easet
hinkabouti
t"
Her:
"There'
snot
hingtothinkabouther
eNoxol
oI
am off
eri
ngyouaj obhereyouwon'tbest
ayi
ngin
thestr
eetanymore"
Me:"Thel
astti
meaper
sonof
fer
edmesomet
hingI
endedupinjai
l"
Her
:"
I.
..
Iam sor
ryIdi
dn'
tknow"
Me:
"Sopl
easeal
lowmet
othi
nkabouti
t"
Her:
"Okaycont
actmehere"shegavemeacar d
wit
hherdetai
lsi
nitandwalkbacktohercar
.

Af
tereat
ingItookthepaperbagandshovedi
tint
o
mypocketsIwillputmyimport
antt
hingsi
nsi
deit.

Aft
er5hoursofbeggi
ngI
'
vemanagedtomakeR50
soIwentt
obuyanewspaperIwantt
oseei
fther
e's
anyjobsavai
labl
ebuti
nsteadaheadl
inecaughtmy
att
enti
on"HOBOGI RLFOUNDINBUSHESDEAD"

Zanele'snameappear edbefor
eIf i
nishedreading
thenewspaperi twasdecl aredthatoneofherhobo
fri
end'sident
if
iedt hebodyshewasmur deredand
theytookherintestinesIimmedi at
elyfel
tweakI
wasst arti
ngtotakeZanel easmyl it
tlesist
erI
shouldhavepr otectedherbutrightnowi ti
snotthe
ti
met opi t
ymysel fIwenttosleepear l
y

Bones

Jomo:
"Howdar
eyouki
llt
hati
nnocentgi
rl
"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
tki
llherokay"
Jomo:
"Whatdi
dyoudo?
"
Me:"
Ididn'tdoanythingappar
ent
lyshewas
sl
eepinginfrontofJaguar
'sRest
urant
"
Jomo:
"I
sn'
tJaguaryourf
ri
end?
"
Me:
"Mandon'
tfor
getIam yourboss"
Jomo:
"Don'
tremi
ndme"
Me:"
AllIwantedwasforhi
mt oki
dnapt
hegi
rland
addhertotheshort
ageofgir
lst
hatwer
egoi
ngto
beshippedtoGhana"
Jomo:
"And?
"
Me:"Shefoughthi
m butsheistheonewhoended
updeadsoIt oldhimtotakeherpar
tsandsel
liton
theblackmarket"
Jomo:
"Andt
heot
hergi
rl
"
Me:
Isi
ghed"
itwasNoxol
o"
Jomo:
"Okayl
etmego.Nowai
tsohowwasl
ast
ni
ght
?"
Me:
"Fuck!Iam notgoi
ngt
odi
scussmyl
ovel
if
e
wi
thyou"
Jomo:
"ar
rogantmuch"
Me:
"GoJomo"
Tasha

_
___
___
_

Wowsoheki ll
edt hegirlokaythisisinter
est i
ngbut
thepoli
cewon' tbeli
evemeIhavet ocomewi th
proof.Wel
lIover heardtheirconversati
onl astnight
thi
sdoesn'tchangeanyt hi
ngIstilldon'tf
eelat hing
forbonesallIwanti stodestroyhi m andwi t
ht he
heari
ngbugt hatIam goi ngtoplanti nhisofficewill
makemywor kmor eeasier

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Noxol
o
_
___
___

Iwaswokenupi nthemi ddl

eoftheni ghtbyagroup
ofhobostheywer eallboysreali
tystart
edtokicki
n
Iwonderwhattheywantf r
om me, whywoul dthey
wakemeupatt hemi ddl
eoft henightwhatdidIdo
Iwasnowget t
ingscar ed

Me:"
Hey"Icl
ear
edmyt
hroatmyvoi
cewasso
scr
atchy
Hobo1:"Whatareyoudoi
ngi
nourspot
"Whatt
he
hel
lIf
oundthisBri
dgewit
hnoone
Me:
"OhhIdi
dn'
tknow"
Hobo2:"
Kit
soshemustpayus"Iguesst
hef
irst
guy'
snameisKi
tsot
heylookedl
iket
heywer
ei n
thei
rmi
d30s
Me:"
PleaseIdon'
thaveanyt
hingonmebutIcango
i
fyoudon'twantmehere"
Ki
tso:"
Youwantt
ogowi
thoutpayi
ngusyoumust
becrazy"
Me:
"Idon'
thavemoney"
Ki
tso:
"Ther
ear
eot
herwayst
opayus"Hesmi
rks
Me:
"NoNoyoudon'
tmeant
hat
"
Kit
so:"
Wellyoul
eaveuswi
thnochoi
cebutt
ofor
ce
oursel
vesonyou"
Me:
"Whatno!
"Iwaswi
deawaket
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndaway
t
oescape
Hobo2:
"Br
olet
'sbef
astIwantt
osl
eep"

Ki t
sotri
edtopullmyj eansdownbutIf oughthi mI
knowhowt ofightjailhelpedmet heyal ltr
iedto
fightmebutIwasn' twill
ingt oletthem r apemeNo! !
Imanagedt ogethol doft hebot tl
eandst abbedone
oft hem t
heyletmegoandshi ftedt heirattent
iont
o
theguyIst abbedIgott heoppor t
uni t
yt orunand
jumpt hefenceIlandedont hegr oundr oughlyand
spr ai
nedmyankl eIl i
mpedal lthewayt othepubli
c
phonesandsear chedmysel fluckilythel it
tlemoney
Ihadlef
tfrom theR50didn'tfal
loutsoIinser
teda
coi
nandt ookoutMaZwane' sdetail
scardthatwas
i
nmybr east sandcal
lheritrangfourti
mesbef or
e
sheanswer ed

Me:
"Hel
lo"myvoi
cewasbr
eaki
ng
Mazwane:
"YesIcanhearyout
alk"
Me:
"Sor
rymam Idi
dn'
tmeant
owakeyouupi
nthe
mi
ddleoft
heni
ght"
Mazwane:
"Whoareyou?Andwhyar
eyoucal
li
ng
mewithpr
ivat
e?
Me:
"I
t'
sNoxol
o"
Mazwane:
"Noxol
o?OhhhokayhowcanIhel
pyou
Noxol
o"
Me:
"Iam t
aki
ngyourof
ferma'
am"
Mazwane:"
Soyoudeci
dedtocal
lmei
nthemi
ddl
e
oft
henighttot
ellmet
hat
?"
Me:
"Iam sor
rymam butIam notsaf
ewher
eIam
t
odaygroupofhobostr
iedt
or apeme"
Mazwane:
"Ohhhokayl
ookNoxol
opl
easecal
lme
t
omorrow"
Me:"Nonopleasedon'
tdropthecal
lIdon'
tmeanto
i
ntrudeyourni
ghtandyourfamil
y'
sbutma'am can
youpleasecomeandfetchme"
Mazwane:shechuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
ief"
What
?"
Me:"
PleaseMangi
yak'
cel
a(Iam beggi
ngyou)
pl
ease"
Mazwane:
"Okayokaywher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:"
Iam inMidr
andt
rai
nst
ati
onwher
ether
e's
publ
icphones"
Mazwane:
"Bef
oreIr
eacht
axir
ank?
"
Me:
"Yes"
Mazwane:
"okay"

Idroppedthecallandwaitforhert
hankGoditwas
Springther
ewasn' tt
omuchcol dIthi
nkmaZwane
hasagoodhear tImeanal otofwomenwhoar e
ri
chwoul dn'
tevenbothertoanswerthecal
lsome
wouldlaughatyouanddropthecallt
hat
'show
cruelt
heworldisIam gl
adthatsheiswi
ll
ingt
o
helpme

Voi
ce:"
Heycomebef oreyourankl
egetsswoll
en
andatt
ractgerms"It
urneditwasmaZwaneinher
whit
eshortsil
kyrobethatwassofastIt
houghtshe
wasgoingtotake20mi nsormore
Me:
"Thankyouf
orcomi
ngmam"
Mazwane:
"Nocal
lmeMai
t'
sfi
ne"
Me:
"Okay"
Mazwane:
"Whathappenedt
oyourankl
e?"
Me:
"It
hinki
t'
sspr
ained"
Mazwane:
"Butt
her
e'sbl
ood"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowmaybeIhur
tmysel
fwhi
lej
umpi
ng
t
hefence"
Mazwane:
"Okayokaycomel
et'
sgo"
WewentinsidehercarIwasfeel
ingashamedof
mysel
fthethoughtofmakinghercarsmellawf
ul
mademeuncomf or
tabl
e

Mazwane:
"Rel
axokay"
Me:
"Okay"

Wedr
ovet
oherhousei
twasadoubl
est
ory.

Me:
"Yourhousei
sbeaut
if
ul"
Mazwane:
"Thankyou"theinter
iorwassobeaut
if
ul
andthel
eathercouchesi
nt hecorneroft
hel
ounge
wit
habigplasmaTV
Mazwane:
"si
ther
eIam comi
ng"

Shedisappearedupst
air
sshelooksli
kea
housewif
eherhousei sbeaut
if
uleventhecol
ourof
thepai
ntingisbeaut
if
ulsheisgoodatchoosi
ng
desi
gns
Mazwane:"Ihopet
hiswi
lleaset
hepai
n"Idi
dn't
hearherwhenshecamebackshewasholdingan
emergencykit
Mazwane:
"Canyoupl
easer
ollyourj
ean"
Me:
"I
twon'
trol
liti
stoot
ight
"
Mazwane: "
Okaygothrought
hepassagefi
rstdoor
ther
e'sthebat
hroom youcanchangeandputona
bathrobe"
Me:
"Okay"

Istoodupandl i
mpedt ot hebat
hroom onmyway
thereInoticedastandt herewasfamil
yphotos
anywayIchangedmyj eanmyankl ewasswollen
withabi tbloodl
ookslikeIdidsprainmyankle
whenIj umpedt hefencebutwher ethebloodwas
comi ngfrom Idon'
tknow.

Mazwane:
"i
tisgoi
ngt
obebi
tpai
nful
"
Me:"
Okay"shecl
eanedmyankleandbandaged
wherebl
oodwascomi ngf
rom
Mazwane:"
I'
llt
akeyout
othef
ami
lydoct
or
t
ommor ow"
Me:
"Okayt
hankyouMa"
Mazwane:
"Youwelcomecomel
etmeshowyou
wher
eyouwi l
lsl
eep"
Me:
"Okay"

Wewenttothebackroomsout
sidesheshowedme
wher
eI'
l
lsleepitwasaoneroom wit
habathroom
andaki
tchencounter

Mazwane:
"Feel
freeitwasusedbyourpr
evi
ous
mai
dbutshewasf ir
ed"
Me:
"Okay"

Shewentout
Icheckedever
ythingt
heroom wasokayIdon'
t
havetheri
ghttojudgeI'
mjustgl
adthatI
'
vegotroof
overmyhead.

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er44

Noxol
o

_
___
___
__

Iwaswokenupbyaknockont
hedoori
twas
MaZwane
MaZwane:
"GoodMor
ning"wi
thagenui
nesmi
le
pl
ast
eredonherf
ace
Me:
"Mor
n..
.(
yawn)
..
.i
ngMa,
sor
ryaboutt
hat
"
MaZwane:
"Don'
twor
ryabouti
thowdi
dyousl
eep"
Me:
"Isl
eptbet
termor
ethanont
hest
reet
sma"
MaZwane:
"Gr
eat
!Li
stenNoxol
oIneedyout
omeet
meinsi
det
hehouseinanhour
"
Me:
"Nopr
obl
em Ma"
MaZwane:
"I
'l
lleaveyout
oitt
hen"
shewentback
i
nsi
deherhouse

Iwentt obat hr
oom anddi dmyt hi
ngluckyt her e
weret owelsandt oil
etri
esthatwer en'
tusedIt hi
nkI
heardt hedooropennahmaybei t
'smyi magi nation
Iwentbackt othebedr oom readytoputont he
cl
othesIhadonyest erdaysinceIdidn'
thaveany
otherclothingIlookedovert othebedandt her e
wasabl ackandwhi teuniform neatl
yplacedont op
ofit,
myr agsnotwer enottobeseenIdr essedup
andheadedt othehouseIf oundMaZwane
addressingt heotherstaffaboutwhatt odot oday.
Me:
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
MaZwane: "
OhNoxol
ocomecloser
"Iwenttost
and
nexttotheguywhowaswear
ingasecuri
tyuni
for
m
I'
m guessi
nghe'
stheguar
d
MaZwane:"
Guysthi
sisNoxoloanewaddi
ti
ontothe
f
ami l
yIwouldappr
eci
atei
tifyouwel
comedher
wit
hwarm hand'
s"
St
aff
:"
Yesma'
am"t
heyal
lsai
dasauni
on
MaZwane:"
Okaytheneveryoneyoucangobackto
work"t
heybowedandleftIdidn'
tbecauseIdi
dn'
t
knowwheretost
art
MaZwane:
"Noxolot
here'
salistt
hathaseveryone'
s
namesonitundert
henamest hechoresIwantyou
todoi
tsri
ghtnextt
othefri
dge"
Me:"
yesma' am"shenoddedandwentupst
air
sI
wentovertotheli
stcheckedf
ormynameIhadto
washdishesclean,MaZwane'
sbedr
oom and
pr
eparesupper

Me:
"l
etmegetst
art
ed"
Ist
aredwi
thMaZwane'
s
room Ihadal i
tt
lediffi
culti
esfindi
ngherroom but
oneoft heothermai dsthewer etwomaids
i
ncludingme.sheshowedmet hewayandI
thankedher.Ther oom washugei twasn'
tthatdir
ty
i
tjusthadaf ewcl otheslyi
ngont hefl
oorhereand
thereIstar
tedpickingtheclothesupanddusteda
bitImovedont othedi shestherewerealot

Voice:"
oledi(mom) !
!"Iturnedar oundtoseet he
personwhosai dthatonl ytometanangelst andi
ng
i
nfrontofmewhol ookedl ikehecameoutofa
magazi nehewasgor geoussexyevenBoneshad
nothingonhi m Il
ookedathi m heal solookedat
menowor dswereexchangedhef i
nal
lybrokethe
eyecont actandclear edhist hr
oat.

Hi
m:"
whoar
eyou"
Me:
"ahel
lowoul
dbeni
cer
udemuch"Imumbl
ed
Hi
m:"
whatIdi
dn'
tqui
tecat
cht
hat
"
Me:
shi
thehear
dme"I
'
mthenewmai
drepl
acement
f
ort
hepr
evi
ousone"
Hi
m:"
Mmmhokaywher
e'smymot
her
"
Me:
"Shewentout
"justashewasaboutt
orepl
y
MaZwane:"Myboy!Comegivemommysome
sugar
"shehadshoppingbagswit
hhershe
i
mmedi at
elydr
oppedthem whenshesawherson
Hi
m:"
Mom"wher
e'syourhusband?wi
thabor
ed
f
ace
Mazwane:
"Li
zo"Ohhhsohi
snamei
sLi
zoper
fect
"
givet
heguyachance"
Hi
m:"
He'
snotmyf
ather
"
Mazwane:
"He'
syourmom'
shusband"
Hi
m:"
So?
"
Mazwane:
"What
'swr
ongwi
thyou?
Hi
m:"
Thatmanki
ll
edmyf
athermom"
Mazwane:"
Hedidn'tokay,howmanyti
mesmustI
t
ellyout
hatyourfatherwasabusi
ve"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tcar
e"
MaZwane:
"okayt
hencomegi
vemeaki
ssoryou
wantmetodragyouher
e"
Li
zo:
heclear
edhist
hroatandchar
gedt
ohismother
andgaveheraki
ssonthecheek"umnandike
manje?(
happy)
"
MaZwane:
"no"Li
zogaveherapeckonhermout
h
MaZwane:
"nowI
'
m happy"Igi
ggl
ed
Li
zo:
"I
sther
eanyt
hingf
unny"hi
smot
hernudged
hi
m
MaZwane:"
don'tberudeheyNoxol
ohowwasyour
day,
thechoresIgaveyoudidyoumanage"
Me:
"yesMa"
MaZwane:"okayhow'syourleg?Iam sor
ryI
coul
dn'
ttakeyoutothedoctor"
Me:
"It
hinki
t'
sbet
tert
odaymom"
Mazwane:
"Noaf
tereat
ingsupperLi
zowi
lldr
ove
you"
Hi
m:"
Whyme?
"
Mazwane:
"Li
zost
opbei
ngsoar
rogant
"
Hi
m:"
Sur
e"
Mazwane:
"goodt
henyoucanst
artpr
epar
ing
supper
"
Me:"okay"t
heyl
eftIl
impedt
otheki
tchenandcook
supper

Nar
rat
ed

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Boneswasspendi ngthedaywit
hhisli
tt
lef
amil
y
Lul
uandTasha, hewassohappy.Theywere
havi
ngapicnici
nt hegardenLul
useemstobe
enj
oyingspendi
ngt i
mewi t
hherfat
her
Lul
u:"
DaddymayIhaveapuppy"
Bones:
"sureanyt
hingformybaby"luluscr
eamedi
n
exci
tementhesmiledthesi
teofseeinghis
daughtermadehim ver
yhappy
Bones:
"butyouhavet
opr
omi
set
otakecar
eofher
onyourownnohel
pfr
om mommy"
Lul
u:"
Iwon'tdaddy"sheattackedhim wi
thahug
andturnedtoTashaandmout hedIl
oveyoushe
smil
edandmout heditbackheshi f
tedhi
sattent
ion
backtoLuluTashawasdi sgustedshewantedki
ll
hi
mr ightt
hereonthespotbutshehadt obepatient

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Noxol
o

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Aft
ercooki
ngsuperIwenttoputpl
atesonthe
t
abl
emaZwaneal r
eadyaler
tedmethattheyar
ea
f
ami
lyoft
hreebutLi
zoi
shar
dlyt
her
e.

Mazwane:
"Iseeyou'
redonecooki
ng"
Me:"
YesMai sther
eanythi
ngyouwantmet
odo
bef
oreIheadtomyr oom?"
Mazwane:
"Yesgetr
eadyI
'
veaskedLi
zot
otakeyou
t
othedoct
or""
Me:
"Ther
e'snoneedma'
am myl
egi
sper
fect
lyf
ine"
Mazwane:
"Ar
eyouadoct
or?
"
Me:
"Noma'
am but
"
Mazwane:
"Nobut
's,
goandgetr
eady?
"
Me:
"Okay"
Mazwane:
"Shar
pyourf
oodi
sgr
eatbyt
heway"
Me:
"Thankyouma"

Ismil
edwenttomybackroom andtookashowerI
thi
nkIheardsomeoneopenedthedoorbutIpaid
noatt
enti
ontoitaf
tert
hatIwenttomybedal l
nakedonl
ytofindLizostar
ingatmewithhi
smout h
hungwideopen.Iquickl
ytookatowelandcover
ed
mywholebody

Li
zo:
"Ni
cet
it
sbyt
heway"hi
sli
psf
ormedasmi
le
Me:
"Umm .
.pl
easel
ear
ntoknocknextt
ime"
Li
zo:
hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
"Okayl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"GetoutIwantt
ogetdr
essed"
Li
zo:
"No,
Iknowyounakedal
ready"
Me:
"Li
zopl
ease"
Li
zo:
"Okaysi
nceyousaidpleaseIwi
llgetoutOhhh
mamagavemet hese"hehandedmepai rofj
eans
wi
thablackpl
aint-
shir
t
Me:
"Thankyou"
Li
zo:
"You'
l
lfi
ndmeout
sidepl
easebef
ast
"
Me:
"Okay"

TosayIwasn'
tembar
assedwoul
d'vebeenal
ie.
Me:
"Iam Noxol
obyt
heway"wewer
eonourway
Li
zo:"
Iknowyou,sowhatdoyouwantatmymom'
s
houseNoxol
o?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowokaybutyourmom of
fer
edmea
j
obandIcouldn'
trej
ecti
t"
Li
zo:
"Youdon'
tknow?
"
Me:
"Yes"
Lizo:
"Justst
ayawayf
rom mymom anddowhat
you'r
epaidfor
"
Me:
"Umm okaymayIaskwhy?
"
Li
zo:
"JustdoasIsaypl
easeokay"

OkayLizolooksli
keaper sonwho'sso
over
protecti
veofhismom andi t'
snotabadthingat
al
lIwasal soprot
ecti
veofofmymom Iam sur e
sheisdisappoi
ntedinmewher esheissi
ncewe
buri
edherIneverwentt ovisi
therIneverwentto
cl
eanwher esheisresti
ng.Iam sorrymamaI '
ve
di
sappoi
ntedyouI
'
m sor
rymom.

Li
zo:
"Heywhat
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"Not
hingwhy?
"
Li
zo:
"Butyouar
ecr
yingNoxol
o"
Me:
"Ohhreal
ly?It
ouchedmycheeksindeedt
her
e
wastear
s"canIpleasehaveat
issue
Li
zo:"
Checki
nsi
dethedashboar
d"Hewasdr
ivi
ng
Toyot
aCorol
laAl
ti
s
Me:
"Okay"Iopenedi
tandfoundapi
ctur
eofLi
zo
wi
thawomenshewasbi tol
dmaybeandal
soagun
Li
zo:
"Sor
ryyouhadt
oseet
hat
"
Me:"
Okay"i
t'
snotli
keIdon'tknowgunstheydon't
scar
emeanymor eIam notthatf
ragi
leNoxol
o
anymor
eIam nowf i
ght
ingf ormyfut
ureaft
erthatI
am t
aki
ngBonesdown
Me:
"Sowho'
sthi
s"
Li
zo:"
Ohht hat
'smyauntyunfor
tunatel
yshepassed
away"hesaidconcent
rat
ingontheroadgett
inga
chancet
ostareathi
m Iguessi
tissafetosaythat
Li
zoishandsomeevenhismessyhairlooksperf
ect
onhim
Me:
"Okaysor
ryt
oheart
hat
"
Li
zo:
"I
t'
sokay"
Me:
"Soi
sthi
shercar
?"
Li
zo:
"Yupbutnowi
tbel
ongst
omom"
Me:
"OkayIdon'
tmeant
obeforwar
dorsomethi
ng
sowhatar
eyoucurr
ent
lydoi
ngwit
hyourl
if
e?"
Li
zo:
"Not
hing"
Me:
"Justnot
hing?
"Thi
sguy
Li
zo:
"YesIam notdoi
nganyt
hing"
Me:
"Mi
ndi
fIaskwhy?
"
Li
zo:
"Idon'
tevenknowwhyIam openi
ngupt
oyou
butmyauntylef
tacompanyf
orme"
Me:
"Ohhokaysobasi
cal
lyownacompany?
"
Li
zo:
"Yesmyaunt
ylef
tal
awf
ir
mforme"
Me:
"Real
lywowsodoyouknowanyt
hingabout
l
aw"
Li
zo:
"St
il
lbusyl
ear
ningi
t"
Me:"Butyousai
dyou'
renotdoi
nganyt
hingwi
th
yourli
fe.
..
"
Li
zo:
"Iknowcomewe'
vear
ri
ved"
Me:
"Okay"

Weheadedt ot
hedoctor
'sof
fi
cel
uckymaZwane
al
readybookedforus

Doc:
"HeyLi
zoyourmom cal
ledyest
erday"
Li
zo:"
Iknowdoctorcanwepl
easegett
hisoverand
donewith"i
twasafemale
Doc:
"Okaybyt
hewaycal
lmedoct
orMokwena
Me:
"Okaydoc"
Doc:"Thankst
omaZwanesheal
readyexpl
ained
everythi
ngtomet
hequest
ioni
showdoyouf eel
today"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowhonest
lybutsometi
mesthepai
n
woul
dfadeandcomebackwi t
hlotofpower
"
Doc:
"Letmesee"
Me:
"Okay"

Doc:"
perf
ectusethi
stor
ubyourlegever
yni
ght
unt
ilthepai
nfadescompl
etel
y"
Me:
"Okaydoct
hanks"
Doc:
"You'
rewel
come"shegavemet
heoi
ntmentwe
wentbackhome

Li
zo:
"Shar
pIam goi
ngt
oseemychi
ck"
Me:
"Okay"

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Zodwa
Capet ownwasgr eatandIam gl adt hatIam now
backI '
vemanagedt odealwel lwi t
hNol wazi'
s
passingallthankst odadf orhelpingme.Okayaf t
er
Nolwazi'spassingdadsuggest edt hatwegot o
Capet ownandst artaf r
eshandyeswedi dIeven
gotthejobasPAsomecompanybutsi ncetheboss
hadt ocomeandst ayher eatJobur gIhadt oalso
comebackandl eavemydadatcapet ownohhhe
i
sstillbusytryi
ngt of indawayt odest r
oyBones
evenwhenIt ol
dhi mt oletitgobutheyt heoldmen
i
sobsessedwi thbr i
ngi ngBonesdown" Sono
j
usticeformydaught er?Yoursi ster"that'
stheline
healwaysusewhenIt r
ytoconvi ncehi mt oletitgo
soendedupnotent ertaini
ngi tri
ghtnowIam so
eagertoseeLi zoImi ssedhi m.

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Li
feisn’taboutwai
ti
ngfort
hestormtopass…I
t’
s
aboutlearni
ngtodanceint
herain.

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Noxol
o

Yester
daybef or
eIsleptIappli
edtheoint
mentthat
thedoctorgaveme, whenIwokeupmyankl ewas
muchbet terit
hinkbyt hedayaft
ertomorr
owitwil
l
becompl etel
yhealed.OkaysotodayI'
vedeci
dedto
makepancakeshopi ngtheyl
ovethem.

Mazwane:
"Goodmor
ningNoxol
o"
Me:
"Mor
ningma'
am"
Mazwane:
"Canyoupl
easemaket
oastbr
eadt
oday"
Me:"OkayMabutIwast
hinki
ngofmaki
ng
pancakes"
Mazwane:
"No,
I'
llsett
het
imet
abl
eofwhatyou
shoul
dcookonwhatday"
Me:
"OkayMa"
Mazwane:
"OhhandLi zosl
eptathi
sapar
tment
t
odaysodon'tcounthim"
Me:
"OkayMa"
Mazwane:
"Af
terdoi
ngt
hel
aundr
yyoucant
aket
he
r
estoft
hedayoff"
Me:
"Ohht
hankyouMa"
Mazwane:"
BeforeIf
orgetpl
easegi
vemeyour
banki
ngdetai
lssothatIcanbeabl
etopayyou
monthend"
Me:Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat"
Idon'
thavebankaccount
Ma"
Mazwane:
"OhhIf
orgotdon'
twor
ryI
'
llt
akeyout
o
t
hebankstommorow"
Me:
"Il
ostmyI
D"
Mazwane:"
Wowokaywewi
llgot
ohomeaf
fai
rs
t
ommor ow"
Me:
"Nopr
obl
em"

Shesmiled, honest
lyt
hisisf
uckedupIam justa
personwithoutanIDnott omenti
onclot
hesIdon't
haveanythingbutIam gladthatmaZwanebought
met hewor kesunif
orm

Afterpreparingbreakf
astIwenttopl aceever
ything
ont hetableandal sogreetMrZwanehei sa
detecti
ve,somet i
mesIwonderwher ethi
sfamily
getsmoneyt obuildsuchabighouseohhnoI
forgotthatli
zo'sauntleftmoneyforhim maybe
theyusedi ttorenewthehousewhoknows
speakingofLi zowellLizoisacuteguyhehas
whi t
estraightteet
hhei swellbui
ltbefor
eIforgetI
havet ocallKele.

Me:
"Boobi
e"
Kel
e:"
OMG!Noxol
oist
hisyou?
"
Me:
"You'
redamagi
ngmyear
drums"
Kel
e:"
Sor
ryboobiebuthowIvi
sit
edyoul
astofl
ast
weekandtheysai
dyou'r
eout"
Me:
"It
hinki
t'
sbetteryoucomewhereIam st
ayi
ng
sot
hatIcantel
lyouthewholest
ory"
Kel
e:"
OkayletmebathnownowIam comi
ngt
her
e
ohhwaitpl
easesendtheaddr
ess"
Me:"
Iwi
ll
,kel
epleasepassbypepandgetmea
Noki
acel
lphone"
Kel
e:"
Smar
tphone?
"
Me:
"Noi
tmustbear
ound150"
Kel
e:"
OkayIwi
ll"
Me:
"I
'l
lpayyoumont
hend"
Kel
e:"
don'
tsweati
t"

Ismi
ledanddropedthecal
lIam gl
admyli
feis
comi
ngallt
ogetherIhavet
oworkhardt
hisyear
andsavemoneyf ormet ogoandf i
nishmat ri
cat
thecoll
egeandaf tert
hatI'
llfocusonget tingmy
l
awdegr eeit'
spartofmyr evengepl ansf orwhat
BonesdidtomeIwantt ohi thim whereithurt
sthe
mostaf t
ersett
li
ngdownIam goi ngt ofixmymom' s
graveandbuyat ombst onef orherandal soaskfor
forgi
venesstoNomal angaIshoul dn'thave
abondenher.

Me:"
Heyyoucame"Ihuggedhert
ear
sescapedmy
eyes
Kel
e:"
Don'tcryi
t'
sokay"aft
erdroppingthecal
lI
i
mmedi at
elysentt
headdressandcl eanedmyroom
I
'l
ldothelaundryl
aterIwantt
ot al
ktokele
Kel
e:"
sot
hisi
swher
eyou'
rehi
ding"
Me:
"Noboobi
eaf
terIgotoutofj
ailIwentt
ost
ayon
t
hestr
eet
s"
Kel
e:"
Whydi
dn'
tyoucal
lmeNoxol
o"
Me:
"Idi
dn'twantt
obotheryouKeleIdi
dn'
twantt
o
beaburdentoyouandyou'r
egrandmayoutwoare
al
readysuf
fer
ing"
Kel
e:"
ButIwoul
dhavemadeapl
an"
Me:
"I
tdoesn'
tmat
teranymor
e"
Kel
e:"Noi
tdoesandIhat
eitbecauseIdi
dn'
thel
p
youwhenyouneededmyhelpthemost"
Me:
"Don'
tbl
ameyour
sel
f"
Kel
e:"
Anywayhowdi
dyouendupher
e"
Me:
"MaZwaneof
fer
edmeaj
obasherf
ami
lymai
d"
Kel
e:"
OkayIseesohowar
eyouhol
dingup"
Me:
"Iam goi
ngt
obef
ine"
Kel
e:"
ButNoxol
oyoushoul
dhavecamet
ome"
Me:
"I
t'
sal
lint
hepast
"
Kel
e:"
Haveyouhear
d?Bonesi
sreuni
ti
ngwi
thhi
s
exwif
e"
Me:"Wellgoodforhi
m andboobi
elet
'snott
alk
aboutthatdevi
l"
Kel
e:"
Okayher
e'syourphone"
Me:
"Thankyou,
Idon'
tevenknowwhatt
ogi
veyou
butl
etmegoandpr
epar
esomet
hingf
oryoui
nthe
mainhouse"
Kel
e:"
Nodon'
tIam okay"
Me:
"Cool
"
Kel
e:"
What
'sgoi
ngonwi
thyou?
"
Me:
"Whatdoyoumean?
"
Kele:
"you'
renott
hesameNoxoloever
yoneknewi
t'
s
l
ikeyoudon'tcar
eaboutanyt
hing"
Me:
"Idocar
eaboutmyl
if
eandIam t
ryi
ngt
ofi
xit
"
Kel
e:"
Butwhathappenedwhenyouwer
einj
ail
"
Me:
"Ipr
efernott
alki
ngabouti
tKel
epl
ease"
Kel
e:"
Youhavet
otal
kinor
dert
oheal
"
Me:
"Iknowbutpl
easedon'
tfor
cemeI
'
llt
alkwhen
I
'mready"
Kel
e:"
Okayl
et'
sgoandchi
llout
side"
Me:
"I
'vegotl
otofwor
ktodo"
Kel
e:"
I'
llhel
pyoul
et'
sgo"
Me:
"Washi
ngl
aundr
y?"
Kel
e:"
Yesokay"

Ismil
edandwenttoeachroom t
akingdi r
tyclothes
i
nthewashingbasketandwentout
si dewithitIsti
ll
wonderwhytheydon'
tbuyawashingmachi nefor
Cri
stsaket
heyli
veinhighpl
acesMi drandWat er
Fal
lbutwhoam Itocomplai
n

Kele:
"Ar
eyougoi
ngt
owashal
loft
hiswi
thyour
hands?"
Me:"
Yesbutdon'
twor
ryI
'
llgett
hechai
rtoavoi
d
st
anding"
Kel
e:"
Noshe'
sabusi
ngyou"
Me:
"She'
snotIam t
hemai
dher
e"
Kel
e:"
Iunder
standokaywashI
'
llr
inseandhangi
t"
Me:
"Ar
eyousur
e"
Kel
e:"
Yes"
If
il
ledthebat
hingtubewit
hwaterandst
art
ed
washingal
lwhitecl
othi
ngswi
thji
kbecauseoft
he
st
ains

Kel
e:"
Letmegoandhangt
his"
Me:
"ThankyouKel
e"
Kel
e:"
It
'snot
hingf
ri
end"
Me:
"Okay"

Aft
er3hoursIfi
nishedallt
hewashingIwasdead
t
ir
edKelecall
edacabandl eft
,Iam goi
ngt
orestf
or
2hour
sbeforeIstartcooki
ngsuper.

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Noxol
o

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Todaywasj ustar andom dayIpreparedbr eakfast

i
nt hemorningwhi chwaspor ri
dge,alsowentt o
cleanmaZwane' sroom whichwasnott hatdirt
yI
hadtoironallherclothesandpackt hem perfectly
i
nherclosetatf i
rstIdidn'
tknowthati twasmyj ob
todolaundrybutmaZwaneassur edmet hatifIdo
i
tshewi l
laddsomecashonmypaycheck.

Mazwane:
"Areyoudone?
"Todaywear
egoi
ngt
o
homeaff
air
s
Me:
"YesIam"
Mazwane:
"Gr
eatl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"Ican'
tgol
iket
hisma'
am l
etmegoandchange"
Mazwane:
"Okayyou'
l
lfi
ndmei
ntheki
tchenIam
hungr
y"
Me:
"Okayma'
am"

Iquicklywentt
omyr oom changedi
ntoajeanthat
Lizogavemet heot
herdayluckil
yIwashedit
yesterday.

Mazwane:
"IhopeIdi
dn'
tfor
gett
heaf
fi
davi
tat
home"
Me:
"Di
dn'
tyoucheckbef
orewel
eft
"
Mazwane:
"Idon'
trememberbutl
et'
shopeIhavei
t
her
ewithme"
Me:
"Whydon'
tyouchecknowbef
orewegeti
nsi
de"
Mazwane:
"yesyou'
rer
ight
"shesear
chedherbag
"
ohhherei
tislet
'sgo"
Me:
"Thankyouma"
Mazwane:
"You'
remyhel
perNoxol
oIal
sohavet
o
hel
pyouwhenyouneedit
"
Me:
"Iknowt
hankyouMa"
Mazwane:
"Noneed"

Wecatwal kedinsidelucklyt
hequewasn' tthatl
ong
whenwegoti nsi
deitwasar ound13:45andby
14:21wewer edoneever ythi
ngwentwel lIwastold
thattheywil
lsendamessagesot hatIcancome
andcol l
ectmyI Dcardaftert
hatwewentt othe
nearestmallandhadl unchthereshealsobought5
dressesformeandunder wearsatJet

Me:
"Thankyou"
Mazwane:"
Coolat
leastyou'
vegotsomet
hingt
o
changei
ntoonyourdayof f
s"
Me:
"Yes"
Mazwane:"Il
ovehel
pingpeopleNoxol
oandIdon'
t
expectnot
hingbackfr
om them"
Me:
"Thankyouagai
nMai
treal
lymeansal
ott
ome"
Mazwane:
"Okaylet
'sgohomeI'
vepromisedtohave
l
unchwit
hLizoandhisgir
lf
ri
endshejustcame
backf
rom CapeTown"
Me:
"Ohh"
Mazwane:
"WhydoIsensedisappoi
ntmenti
nyour
voi
ce?Wai
tareyouf
all
ingformyson? "
Me:
"WhatnoMaser
iousl
yLi
zo?Noma"
Mazwane:
"Mm"shegavemeoneoft
hoseIdon'
t
t
rustyoul
ooks
Me:
"Iam ser
iousMaIdon'
thaveat
hingf
orLi
zo"
Mazwane:"
Ididn'tsayanythi
ng"Ikeptqui
etIalso
don'
tknowwhyIam hur tbyhearingt
hatLizohasa
gi
rlf
ri
endbythewayadr ivetohomewasshor tthe
Uberguywaski ndaspeedingwellsower equested
anUbertogot otownbecausemazwanecoul dn'
t
dri
veshe'
sbeencompl ai
ningwithherl
eg.

WhenwegothomeIwentandpl acedtheplasti
csin
myr oom butf
ir
stl
ychangedt heunderwearthatI
waswear i
ngbecausei thadholesI'
vebeenwear ing
thesameunder weareversinceI'
vegothereitwas
notsmelli
ngthoughbecauseIwoul dwashitwhenI
gotosleepandletitdr
yunt ilt
henextdaybutIam
glandthatIam goi
ngtostopdoingt
hatsince
maZwaneboughtnewunder wearsf
ormeaf t
er
changingIwenttotheki
tchenIputpotsonthe
stovesheaskedmet ocooklunchsincet
he
girl
fr
iendiscomingIwasgoingtocookmogodu
andpap.

Sheevenaskedmet ot
akeouthernewsetofpl at
es
Ithi
nkshelovesherbecauseshei sal
lsmil
eyface.
Final
lyIwasdonecookingittookme2hour sitwas
nowar ound17:
30wasn'titsupposedtobelunchI
meani tget
ti
nglat
enowIdon' twanttogotosleep
befor
eseeingthepreci
ousDAUGHTERI N-
LAW.

Mazwane:"
Theyarehere"shesai
dcomi
ngt
othe
ki
tchenandtookajugofjui
ce
Me:
"Youmustbehappyneh"
Mazwane:
"Youdon'twannaknowIam overt
he
moonbutIhopeLizodoesn'
tspoi
lthemoodby
f
ight
ingwi
thhisfather
"
Voi
ce:
"Myf
atheri
sdead"
Mazwane:
"Ohhmyboy"
Li
zo:"
Mom howareyou?HeyXol
o"gotani
ckname
al
readyi
mpressi
ve
Me:
"Hey"hesmi
led
Li
zo:
"Won'
tyoubej
oini
ngusmom?
"
Mazwane:
"Ofcourseson"theywentoutgi
ggl
ingI
si
ghedandcleanedthestoveandwashedthepot
s

Voice:"
Heypleasef
il
lupthejuiceforme"It
urnedI
couldn'
tbel
ievewhatIam seeingZodwaohhnoso
that'
stheLi
zoshe'sbeenpraising?
Zodwa:"
Noxol
o?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
ewor
sei
na
maid'
sunif
orm"
Me:
"Iam amai
dwhat
sup?
"
Zodwa:
"Pl
easef
il
lupt
hisf
ormebuthow?
"
Me:"ZodwaIdon'
tmeant
ober
udebutt
hisi
snone
ofyourbusi
ness"
Zodwa:"
OkaybutInevert
houghtt
hemi
ght
yNoxol
o
wouldbeamaidBonesgirl
fr
iendamai
dGod!
"She
excl
aimed
Me:
"Her
e"Igavehert
hej
ugf
ullofor
angej
uice
Zodwa:
"Wow"
Me:
"Excuseme"shewentoutal
lconf
used

_
___
___
___
_

Zodwa

Mybossi
sgoi
ngt
olovet
hiswel
lIam aj
our
nal
ist
's
PA

Me:
"Bossyouwon'
tbel
ievewhatIsawt
oday"
Boss:
"What
"
Me:
"RememberNoxol
oBones'
sgi
rl
fr
iend?
"
Boss:
"Ohhyest
hesl
ayqueen"
Me:
"Wel
lappar
ent
lyt
hesl
ayqueeni
snowamai
d"
Boss:
"Youl
ie"
Me:
"NoIai
n'tl
yingBossI
'
llsendt
hepi
ctur
es"
Boss:
"Wowi
magi
net
heheadl
ineNews"
Themai
d
Noxol
o"
Me:
"Bonesgi
rl
fr
iend"Il
aughed
Boss:"
Thankyoul etmest
artdiggi
ngformore
i
nformationthestati
onwi
llbeboomingwit
hcash
thefol
lowingdays"
Me:
"Wearegoi
ngtogetal
otofmoneyoutoft
his
i
maginet
hecopi
esofnewspaper
s"
Boss:
"Thankyou"

Idroppedthecal
lexcit
edlyit'
sworkagirlgot
tado
whatagirlgot
tadoi nordertosur
viveIknowI
shouldn'
thaveputthatsloganbutIwantcash
moneyokay!!

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NUED
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KE,
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er48
(
Iti
stooshor
tIknowsodon'
tcompl
ain)
_
___
___
___

Noxol
o

Aft
erdi
nner,
Iclear
edt het
ableandwentt
owash
t
hedishest
henr et
urnedtothedi
nnert
abl
eZodwa
wasalr
eadygone.

Me:"
Iam goi
ngt
osl
eepnowma"
Mazanec:"
Okaysi
sgoodni
ght
"
Me:"
Goodni
ghtMa"

Ismil
edandwenttomyr oom t
ookashower
washedmyunderwearhangeditandwentt
osl
eep
Thefol
lowi
ngmorni
ngIwokeupfeel
inghappyI
don'
tknowwhybutIam happy
Af
termaki
ngmybedIwentt otakeashowerwor
e
myunif
orm wentt
othemai nhouseandfound
mazwanetaki
ngmilkoutofthefri
dge

Me:"
Mor
ningMa"
Mazwane:"
Heyhowar
eyoudoi
ngbabe"
Me:"I'
m okaymawhyai n'
tyoureadi
ngyout
newspapertoday"Ever
ymorningIfi
ndmazwane
readi
nganewspaper
Mazwane:"
I'
veaskedLi
zot
ogoandgetonef
orme"
Me:"
Okay,
how'
syourl
egma"
Mazwane:"
Mylegi
sokaymaybei
tsol
dageIdon'
t
knowanymor
e"
Me:"
Youai
n'tt
hatol
dMa"
Mazwane:"
Lizowhatt
ookyousol
ong?
"Myback
wasfaci
ngt
hedoor
Li
zo:"
YahooMamat
her
ewasal
ongquet
oday"
Me:"
HeyLi
zo"
Li
zo:"
Dol
lf
ace"
Mazwane:"
Youhaveagi
rl
fr
iendLi
zo"
Li
zo:"
Doyoual
wayshavet
oremi
ndmema?
"
Mazwane:"
Incaseyouf
orgot
"
Li
zo:"
Idi
dn'
tanywayher
e'syournewspaper
"

Hepassesi
ttome

Me:"Let
'sseewhatmakesMaal
waysst
ucki
nthi
s
t
hing"
Li
zo:"Lol
syouwon'
tremoveheroncesheget
sher
handsonit"

Me:"
Whatt
hehel
l!
!"
Li
zo:"
What '
sgoi
ngonwhyar
eyoushaki
ng"Tears
st
ream downmyfacehowdi
dtheyf
oundoutabout
mebeingamaid?t
hereareevenpi ct
uresofme
wear
ingmymaidunifor
mt heyalsoment i
onedt
hat
Iwasinpr
isonwholi
nkedthestory?

Mazwane:"OMGLizothi
spi
cturesweretakenby
someoneinthi
shousenodon'ttel
lmeitwasyou"
Li
zo:"Whatnomom whywouldIdothatImeanIl
o..
IcareaboutNoxol
oIcar
eaboutourworker
sI'
d
neverdothatt
oher"

Thei
rwordswer ethelastthingthatwasonmy
mindIwasi nmyownwor l
dnowever yoneknows
aboutmydownf allt
hat'
swhyt her
ewasal ong
queueatthestoreeveryonewasbuyi ngthe
newspapertoreadaboutme, mywhol el
ifewas
wri
ttenonthenewspaper .

Li
zo:"
Heycomeheredon'
tcr
y"heembracedmein
hi
sboldar
mshisscentGodt
heguyissmelli
ngso
good"
Don'
tcry"
Hehushedme

Me:"
Mywhol
eli
fei
srui
nedLi
zoIam t
rendi
ng"
Li
zo:"
Itwi
llpasst
heywi
llf
indnewt
hingst
otal
k
about
"
Me:"
Butt
heywon'
tfor
getaboutmeokay"
Li
zo:"
Theywi
llXol
odon'tcr
ypl
easeatl
eastshout
orhi
tmebutdon'
tcry"
Me:"
I'
vegotnoonei
nthi
swor
ld"
Li
zo:"
Nonsenseyou'
vegotme,
mom andMr
Zwane"
Me:Ichuckl
ed"
he'
syourdad"
Li
zo:"
ThankGodhesmi l
eddon'tcryokay"hel
ooks
deepi
nmyeyesandl oweredhisheadandcupped
myfaceandkissedmeIr etur
neditanddeepened
i
t"onl
ytoreal
izethatwhatIam doingi
swr ong
Me:"
Umm excusemeIhavet
ogo"
Li
zo:
"Sur
e"

Hebr
ushedmycheeksandwentout

WhathaveIdoneIdon'
twantZodwat
ohat
emeI
shoul
dn'
thaveki
ssedhim.

Li
zokuhl
e

Idrovet oZodwa'shouseasfastasIcouldshehas
someexpl aini
ngt
odoIknowi t'
sherbesi
des
yesterdayi twasmom,dad,herandplussheis
workingf orajour
nal
ist
.

Me:"
Zodwahowcoul
dyoudot
hat
"
Zodwa:"Huhwhatareyout
alki
ngaboutI
'
m
confused,
anywaybabymoneyisget
ti
ngint
odayat
work"
Me:"Bysomeone'
stear
showcoul
dyoudot
hatt
o
yourcousi
n"
Zodwa:"
Sowhat
"
Me:"
Youar
enotser
iousZodwaar
eyou?
"
Zodwa:"
Lizowhat
supwhyar
eyoual
lwor
kedup"
Me:"Becauseyoumadesomeoneal
aughi
ngst
ock
notj
ustanyoneyourcousi
n"
Zodwa:"
It
'spar
tofmyj
ob"
Me:"YouknowwhatIdon'
tthi
nkIcancont
inue
doi
ngthiswit
hyou"
Zodwa:"
What
?"
Me:"YesZodwayouar
eevencelebr
ati
ngher
eit
's
goodtobeyoukumnandineh"
Zodwa:"
Soyouar
ebr
eaki
ngt
hingsof
fmebecause
ofNoxol
o"
Me:"
Yesbecauseoft
hat
"
Zodwa:"
Areyoui
nlovewi
thher
?"
Me:"
Whatno!I
t'
sjustt
hatIcan'
tdat
esomeone
whoenj
oyst
ort
uri
ngpeopl
e"
Zodwa:"
Iam notl
ett
ingyougo"
Me:"
Isi
t?"
Zodwa:"
YesIwon'
tletyougot
hateasi
ly"
Me:"
Idon'
thavet
imef
ort
his"
Zodwa:"
Iam cal
li
ngyourmom"
Me:"
Whatwi
llmom do?
"
Zodwa:"Iam tell
ingherthatyouarefal
li
ngf or
Noxolot
hemai d"Iquickl
ypinnedheragainstthe
wall"
Don'tevercal lNoxol
oamai ddoyouhear
me,"hesaidthatwi thaharshtone
Zodwa:"
You'
rehur
ti
ngmeLi
zo"
Me:"
Doyouunder
stand?
"
Zodwa:"
Yesyes"

Il
ethergoandst
ormedout

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NUED
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KE,
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[
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er49

Noxol
o

(
Fewweeksl
ater
)

Todayi t'
smypaydayIam gl adthatIam goi ngt o
getmymoney,goandbuymysel fst uf
fandf ood
sincemaZwanesai dIwon' tbeeat i
ngatt hemai n
houseanymor eohhmyI Dcar dcamebackal so
withbankcar deverythi
ngi sgoingaccor dingt o
planwel lthenewspapersagapassedpeopl ewer e
givi
ngmepi t
ylookssomewer edisgustedmor e
especiallyoldpeoplesayi ngthatIshouldn'thave
dependedonamanbutanywayi tiswhati tis,aft
er
thekisst hathappenedLi zoassur edmet hatitwas
ami stakei twon'thappenagai nIalsoknowi twas
Zodwawhowasbehi ndt henewspapersaga.
Aftershower i
ngiwor emydr esswithsandalst
ook
mybagI '
llgot herankandtaketaxisbutgoi
ngto
themal lofAfricaisawasteoft i
meandmoneyof
coursesoI 'l
ljustwalktoMidranditisnott
hatf
arI
thi
nkit'
s20mi nut
eswalk.

Spendingmyownhar dear nedmoneymademe

happyMazwanepai dmeR3000si nceI
'vestart
edto
workinthemi ddleofthemont hshewassupposed
topaymeR5000soibought12. 5Kgofmai zemeal
and10kgofchi ckenfeet,tomatoesandonionsI
alsoboughtpant i
esandbr aswithtwoplai
nt-shi
rt
andleggingsafterami nishoppingIwantback
homeonl ytofindMazwanesi tti
ngonthebedwel l
youdon'thavepr i
vacyint hishousehol
d.

Me:
"HeyMa"
Mazwane:
"Noxol
ohowar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"I
'm okay"
Mazwane:
"Iseeyouwentt
oshopst
oday"
Me:"
YesMaIhadt
obuygr
ocer
iesandcl
othesf
or
myself
"
Mazwane:
"CanIsee?
"
Me:
"Nopr
obl
em"Ipassedt
hecl
othespl
ast
ict
oher
Mazwane:
"Wedon'
twearl
eggi
ngsher
e"
Me:"
Don'
twor
rymaI
'
llweart
hem undermywor
k
uni
form"
Mazwane:
"Okayt
hat
'sbet
ter
"
Me:"
Mahaveyout alkedtoZodwa"maZwanehas
beentr
yingtof
ixl
izo'srel
ati
onshi
pwithZodwaand
l
izohatesi
thedoesn'tevencometothehouse
anymoreMazwaneevenwar nedmetostayaway
fr
om Li
zoshemadei tcl
eart
hathersonisoffl
imi
ts
Mazwane:
"Whydoyouask"hermoodsuddenl
y
changemaZwanel
ovesZodwaalot"
Me:
"Not
hingwasj
ustaski
ng"
Mazwane:
"Ohhhokay"
AsIam busymi ndingmyownbusi nessi nt he
kit
chen, Isuddenl yf eelcagedbyapai rofst rong
arms.Myhear tjumpsabi t,Ifeelhisbr eathonmy
neck,hisbananai spoki ngmeonmyass.Bl ood
rushest hroughmeasIgetgoosebumps.Het urns
mear oundandsmasheshi sl ipsonmi ne.Theki ss
wasf i
lledwi t
hl ustanddomi nance, beforeIcoul d
processwhathappenedhepi cksmeup,
automat ical
lymyl egswr apar oundhi swai stashe
walkswi t
hmet oGodknowswher e.Hi slipshaven' t
l
eftmi neaswecont inuecli
mbi ngthest aircase,
suddenl yhisheput smeont hebed, Iopenmyeyes
andseewear ei nhisr oom.Hehasal r
eadyt aken
offmyt op,am justl eftwit
hmybr anow, Ihel ptake
offhisaswel lwithhi spants.

Hegoesdownki ssingmewhi lewhisperingsweet

stuffinmyearandt akesoffmybr a.Heat tacksmy
nipplesthathavebeenwant i
ngthef eelofhiswarm
mout h.Asam st i
lll
osti
nhi sadventureonmy
boobi es,
If eelmythongteari
ng,niggabet ter
replaceit.Iain'
tabouttorunoutofst ock.He
conti
nueskissingmeal lt
hewaydownt omyhoney
j
arandbl owssomeai rwhenhecomesf acetoface
withmycooki e.Het easesmebyl i
ght l
ygrabbingon
mybeanwi t
hhi steethandIf eellikecomi ngall
overhisfacealready.Hesuddenl ygoeshar dat
eati
ngandf i
nger i
ngmeIf eellikescr eamingallhi
s
clannamesbecauset hebr otherist oodamngood
forwords.Il
oseal lmysensest hemomenthe
presseshisthumbonmyot herhol eandvi gor
ously
sucksonmybeanmaki ngmesqui r
tinstantl
y

Hecomebackt omyf acewi thasmi r

kof
sati
sfaction,asheki ssesmeIf eelhi
m sl
owly
rubbinghi sbananaonmyent r
ance,hepushesitin
andImoveupal it
tl
e,Imeanhei sbigokayandit'
s
beenawhi l
esi ncethegi r
lgotsome, hehelpsme
rel
axbyki ssingmesomemor eandsuddenly
pushesi tallin, Ican'
thelpbutbi t
ehisshoulderto
muf f
lethescr eam.Her elaxesabitasmyni ppl
es
rubsagai nsthi schest,I'm gett
inggoosebumps.
Me:
"Movepl
ease"
Him:"
Ibeenwait
ingf
ort
hisdayf
orawhi
lenow,
youar
emi nenowNoxol
o"

Everyt
hingabouthi
mi ssexyandIam i
nawe.My
eyeshavebeenclosedasIopenthem f
indi
nghi
m
star
ingatmewi t
hasmi l
e..
.
Li
zo:"You'
re.
..
sobeaut
if
ul.
"Hewhisper
s,wi
thhi
s
handsonbothsidesofmyhead.
Me:"Juss..
ahhh.."Hepullsandpushesi nagainwi t
h
for
ce,Her oarsinpleasure,asheslowlystartsto
move.Hismout hget sincontactwithmine,sucking
myl i
pgent l
yaswe' redeeplystari
ngateachot her.
..
webot hgrinasIr unmyhandst ohisbuttpressi
ng
him deeper.
..Igasp..
Hebur yshi
sfaceonmyneckashei ncreaseshi
s
pace..
.Poundi
ngmef ast
erandf
aster,Ifeelabi
g
waver ushi
ngthr
oughmybodyI '
m comi ngasI
presshim moredeeper

"
Ohf
uck.
..
"Hegr
owl
s"wai
tformebabe"Mycunt
automati
cal
lysqueezeshisdickasIfeelmy
orgasm t
aki
ngmebyst orm,Icomecr ashi
ngcal
li
ng
hisnameashecur ses,andaggressi
velyhumps
i
ntomehar derbef
oreheal sorel
easeshisloadwi
th
aloudgrowlandsweatdr i
ppingoverme.Damnnn
thi
swasper f
ectal
thoughmynunuf eelsover
worked.

Li
zo:"
Thatwasamazi
ng"Ii
mmedi at
elyregr
et
sl
eepingwi
thmycousi
n'sboyf
ri
endthiswil
lmake
Zodwahateme
Me:
"Yeah"If
akedasmi
le
Li
zo:
"Heydon'
twor
ryokay"
Me:
"Iam scar
edLi
zookay"
Li
zo:
"Scar
edofwhat
?"
Me:
"I
sn'
tZodwayourgi
rl
fr
iend?
"
Li
zo:
"So"
Me:
"Shei
smycousi
nokay"Isai
dst
andi
ngup
Li
zo:
"Soyouar
erui
ningt
hismomentbecauseof
Zodwacomeonwhyyouact
ingl
ikeyou'
rescar
ed
ofZodwa"
Me:
"Iam,
Zodwai
scapabl
eofhur
ti
ngsomeone"
Li
zo:
"SheknowsIl
oveyou"
Me:
"What
?"
Li
zo:"
Yesyouthi
nkI'
dsleepwi
thyoujustl
iket
hat
?
NoNoxoloyouarenotj
ustagi
rlbutanangelt
ome
okay"
Me:
"Ishoul
dgetbackt
owor
k"
Li
zo:"Takeashoweryoucan'
tgobacktothe
ki
tchensmelli
ngsex.Whatwil
lmom say?
"
Me:
"I
'l
lbat
hatmyownr
oom"
Li
zo:
"LookNoxol
oIl
oveyouandIam notj
oki
ng
pl
easeall
owmet ol
oveyou"
Me:
"Whyme?
Li
zo:
"Becauseyouar
ebeaut
if
uli
nandout
"
Me:
"Iam notper
fectokay"
Li
zo:
"Iam al
sonotper
fectal
lowmet
oloveyou"
Me:
"No!
"Hewasamazedbymysuddenl
ybur
st"
Li
zo:
"Whyar
eyoushout
ing?
"
Me:"
Thelastti
meIall
owedamani nmyli
fehe
pl
ayedmel i
keyou.Youknowwhatthi
swasnever
meantt
ohappenandst ayawayf
rom me"

Iwor
emycl
othesandst
ormedoutofhi
sroom.

Mazwane:
"Whatwer
eyoudoi
ngi
nli
zo'
sroom"
Me:
"Not
hingNa"
Mazwane:
"Youbett
erbenotfucki
ngwi
thmysonhe
hasagi
rlf
ri
endstayawayfr
om him"
Me:
"Okay"

Iwenttomyroom t
ookashowerandwor
eoneof
thedr
essest
hatsheboughtf
orme.

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Noxol
o
_
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Sleepi
ngwithLizowasami stakeandiam not
goingtoall
owthathappenagai nIr
egretitIact ed
l
ikeawhor eIdon'tknowwhat 'swrongwi t
hme
becauseIvowednott obeplayedbyamanaf ter
Bones'ssagaZodwawi l
lhatemeishoul dn'thave
sleptwit
hherboyfriendthi
swi l
lmakeherhat eme
mor e.

MaZwane:
"Noxol
o"shedi
stur
bedmei
nmy
t
hought
s
Me:
"YesMa"
Mazwane:
"Canyoupl
easecl
eanl
izo'
sroom Zodwa
i
scomi
ng"
Me:
"OhhokayI
'
lldoi
taf
terwashi
ngdi
shes"
Mazwane:
"You'
l
lgetbackt
othat
"
Me:
"Okayma"

Iqui
ckl
ywentt
ocl
eanaf
terdust
inghecamei
n

Li
zo:
"Whyar
eyoucl
eani
ngmyr
oom"
Me:
"Yourmom t
oldmet
ocl
eani
t"
Li
zo:
"Whyi
twasn'
tdi
rt
y"
Me:
"Appar
ent
lyZodwai
scomi
ng"
Li
zo:
"What
"
Me:
"Yep"
Li
zo:"Nol
ist
engoandtel
lmom t
hatyouare
fi
nishedI
'
llgoandf
ixt
hespar
eroom forher
"
Me:
"Why?
"
Li
zo:
"Iam nol
ongerdat
ingZodwawhi
chmeansI
am notgoi
ngt
oshar
ear
oom wi
thher
"
Me:"
HowcomeMazwaneknowst
hatZodwai
s
comingandyoudon'
t"
Li
zo:"
Idon'
tknowNoxol
ookaybutmom loves
Zodwashebusysayi
ngshefoundadaughteri
n
Zodwa"
Me:
"Umm okay"
Li
zo:
"Wai
thavet
hese"hegavemeagl
assofwat
er
andapi
ll
Me:
"What
'st
his"
Li
zo:
"Mor
ningaf
terpi
ll
"
Me:
"Ohht
hankyou"Idr
anki
t
Lizo:
"ImeantwhatIsai
dyest
erdayNoxol
oIl
ove
you"
Me:
"Yourmom l
ovesZodwa"
Li
zo:"
Idon'
tcar
eaboutwhomymom l
ovesyou'
l
lbe
dat
ingmenother"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowLi
zoi
t'
snotl
ikeIl
oveyou"
Li
zo:
"Real
lyl
ookatmenoactual
lyl
ooki
nmyeyes
andt
ellmeyoudon'
tlovemeXol
o"
Me:Ir
aisedmyhead"
II.
.dammi
t"
Li
zo:
"Youknowwher
etofindme" het
urnedand
at
temptedt
ogobutIqui
cklyhel
dhisarm
Me:"
OkayIl
oveyouandpleasedon'
tgi
veuponme"
hesmil
edandbrushedhi
sli
psonmi ne
Li
zo:
"Soar
ewedat
ing"
Me:"
Lizolet
'st
aket
hingsst
epbyst
epIam st
il
l
heal
ing"
Li
zo:
"Fr
om?
"
Me:
"Umm"Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat

Voi
ce:
"Li
zo!Zodwai
sher
e"

Lizo:
"Fuckl
ist
enIam goi
ngt
omyapar
tmentI
'
llcal
l
you"
Me:
"Doyouhavemynumber
?"
Li
zo:
"Yes,
mamagavet
hem t
ome"
Me:
"Whyar
eyougoi
ngt
oyourapar
tment
"
Li
zo:
"Gi
rlIdon'
tli
veher
e"
Me:"
Okay,
soyouar egoi
ngt ol
eavemeher
eal
l
al
onewhatifyourmom f
iresme"
Li
zo:
"Iwon'
ttel
lherwear
edat
ingf
ornow"
Me:
"Li
zopl
easedon'
tshe'
sal
readydoi
ngsomuch
f
orme"
Li
zo:
"Icant
akecar
eofyou"
Me:"Enough!!
"Iam t
ir
edofyoument hi
nki
ngli
ves
revolvear
oundyouIcantakecareofmysel
fwhy
don'tyoujustl
ovemewithoutgi
vingmemoney
huh"
Li
zo:
"Iam sor
ryidi
dn'
tmeant
ohur
tyou"
Me:
"Justshutupnx"

Iwentoutofhisr
oom f
umingwithangerandfound
Zodwagiggl
ingwithmaZwanehavi
ngamot herand
daught
erinlawmomentatthedi
nningarea
Zodwa:
"Ohhcousi
nhaveyoucl
eanedmyr
oom"
Me:
"Whi
chr
oom Zodwa?
"
Zodwa:
"Li
zo'
sroom"
Me:
"OhhyeahIcl
eanedi
tevent
houghi
twas
smel
li
ngsex"
Zodwa:
"YesIcamel
astni
ghtbutyouwer
eal
l
asl
eep"
Me:
"Real
ly"Ismi
rked
Zodwa:
"Yes"
Mazwane:
"wowbabywhydi
dyoul
eftwi
thout
seei
ngme
Zodwa:
"OhhIwant
edt
opack"
Mazwane:"
Okay,
Noxol
ocanyoupl
easef
ixf
oodf
or
usIam sur
eZodwaishungr
y"
Me:
"Okaycool
"

Idi
sappear
edt
otheki
tchen
Li
zo

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___
___

Noxolohasaprobl
em Icanseeitthr
oughhereyes
I
'l
lhavetogett
othebottom ofi
t.

Me:
"Mawhati
sZodwadoi
ngher
e"
Mazwane:
"Zodwai
svi
sit
ingherboyf
ri
endwhat
's
t
heprobl
em"
Me:"DammitMahowmanyt i
mesmustItellyout
o
stopmeddlingi
nmyr el
ati
onshi
pwithZodwadidn'
tI
tel
lyouthatIam nol
ongerdati
ngher"
Mazwane:
"I
sthi
showyout
alkt
oyourmom"
Me:"
Idon'tknowbutpleasest
opinvit
ingherhereI
don'
tloveheranymorewhydon'tyouacceptthat
i
t'
soverbetweenZodwaandIyouknowwhatIam
goi
ngbackt omyapartmentIthoughtcomingto
stayhereIwasgoingt
ohaveamot herandson
relati
onshi
pbutnoyoumamawantt oforcemeint
o
l
ovi ngZodwawhoIdon'tl
oveanymore"
Zodwa:
"WowIseeNoxol
ogotyoubyt
hebal
ls"
Mazwane:
"What
!Whi
chNoxol
oar
eyout
alki
ng
about
"
Zodwa:
"Youdidn'
tknowMaLi
zoyoursoni
sinl
ove
wit
hNoxolo"

Voice:
"Weain'
tdat
ing,mayourl
unchi
sready"
my
angelappear
edholdi
ngtabl
ecl
oth
Mazwane:
"Ar
eyour
eal
lydat
ingmyson?
"
Xol
o:"
NoIam notdat
inghi
m"
Mazwane:"GoodandwenaLi
zol
ear
ntor
espectme
Iam notyouragemat
e"
Me:
"Wel
lst
opact
ingl
ikeanui
sance"
Mazwane:
"Hai
bo"
Xol
o:"
Cal
m downLi
zoshedi
dn'
tmeananyhar
m"
Me:
"Idon'
tcar
e"Ist
ormedout

Noxol
o

Mazwane:
"Andwenawhatareyouwait
ingf
ordi
dn'
t
Iaskyout
omakefoodforus?"
shesnapped
Me:
"Youdi
d,Iam done"
Mazwane:
"Justgo"

Inoddedandwentt
omyr oom Ineverpictur
edLi
zo
asapersonwhogetsangr
ysoeasi l
yIthinkhehas
ashortt
emper

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2Weeksl
ater
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Noxol
o

It'
sbeenahel loftwoweeksf ormeIam t alking
aboutt hedramat hatmazwanecaused.Appar entl
y
theoldwomanl ockedLizoandZodwai noner oom
andt ol
dt hem tosor toutthei
rissuestotellthetruth
Iwasshockeddi dn'tLi
zoaskhert ostayawayf rom
hislovelifeTosayLi zowashappyI '
dbelyinghe
wasf umi ngwhenhecameoutMrZwaneopened
forthem.Si ncethatdayhenevercamebackeven
Zodwapackedherst uf
fthefoll
owingdayandwent
backt oherpl acemaZwanewel lt
hewomenhas
beengi vi
ngmeat ti
tudesheisnott hesamewomen
Imet .

Mazwane:
"Mor
ninghaveyounot
icedhowdi
rt
ythe
yar
dis?
"Sheaskedplaci
ngabowlint
hesi
nk
Me:
"YesMa"
Mazwane:
"Si
nceMari
awentbackhomeit
sal
so
yourj
obtosweept
heyar
dfrom nowon"
Me:"Iam sor
ryt
oquest
ionyouMabutwhenI
st
artedtoworkher
eyouonlysai
dI'
l
lbet
hehouse
maid"
Mazwane:
"Thi
ngschangeandbesi
deIam payi
ng
youal
otofmoney"
Me:
"Okay"
Mazwane:
"I
'l
lgogetyouabr
oom i
nthegar
age"
Me:
"Okayma"

Iwashedt
hebowlandwai
tedf
orhert
ocomeback.

Mazwane:
"Doyouknowhowt
ocutt
hegr
ass?
"
Me:
"NomaIdon'
tknowhowt
o"
Mazwane:"
Nosi
ll
yandbesidethemachi
nei
sst
il
l
newyou'
llr
eadt
heinst
ruct
ions"
Me:
"I
'l
lcuti
tar
ound5Ma"
Mazwane:
"Si
syou'
rei
nwor
kdowhatIam t
ell
ing
yout
odonow"
Me:
"Okay"

Itookthebroom andwentoutIdon' tknowwhy

maZwanei sacti
nglikethisshetr
eat i
ngmeasher
slaveanywaysweepingt heyar
dwasn' tt
hathard
becauseIusedtodoi tbackhomeAf tert
hatIwent
tothegarageandindeedt hemachinewasst il
lnew

Idon'tevenknowhowtocutt
hegrassbutreadi
ng
ofinstr
ucti
onshel
pedmeIpluggedi
tbutitwasn'
t
makinganysound

Me:
"Whyi
sn'
tthi
sthi
ngwor
king"

Voi
ce:
"I
tneedspet
rol
"itwasLi
zohi
svoi
cest
art
led
me
Me:
"Li
zoyouscar
edme"
Li
zo:
"Iam sor
rybabewhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Me:
"WellmaZwaneaskedmet
ocutt
hegrasssoI
wasbusytr
yingt
ofi
ndawaytomakethi
sbloody
machi
nework"
Li
zo:"
Thesepastf
ewdaysIcoul
dn'
tsl
eepatal
l
noxol
o"
Me:
"Whywhat
'swr
ong"
Lizo:
"Thinki
ngaboutyoubabeIcan'
tseem t
oshake
thefeel
ingofther
e'ssomethi
ngwrongwithyou"
Me:
"Why"
Li
zo:
"Al
lowmet
oloveyouokayl
etmei
nbabe"
Me:
"Li
zoi
..
i"
Li
zo:
"Okaycomel
et'
sgot
omyapar
tment
"
Me:
"Whatno!Iam st
il
lwor
kingdoyouwantyour
mom t
omur derme?"
Li
zo:hechuckl
ed"
shewon'
tcomebabel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"NoLi
zoIdon'
twantt
olosemyj
ob"
Lizo:
"Howwi
llyouloseitwhenIam theonepaying
youdammit!
"Her oaredthatcaughtmeoffguar
d
Me:
"Whatsoyouar
emyboss"
Li
zo:
"Yesnowl
et'
sgoI
'
llf
ir
eyoui
fyoudon'
tcome
wi
thme"
Me:
"IguessI
'
mjobl
esst
hen"
Li
zo:
"Noxol
o"hesi
ghed"pl
easeXol
o"
Me:"
Finebutpl
easebr
ingmebackbef
orehal
fpast
t
hree"
Li
zo:
"Ipr
omi
se"

Ismi
ledhel
edmet
ohi
scar(BMW X5)

Hisapar
tmentwasnottoomuchit'
sonl
ya2
bedr
oom fl
atwit
htvroom t
heki
tchenwasawal
kin.

Li
zo:
"Wel
comet
omycr
ib"
Me:
"Thankyou"
Li
zo:
"Anyt
hingt
odr
ink?
"
Me:
"Wat
eri
sfi
ne"
Li
zo:
"Okay"hewentt
ofet
chabot
tl
eofOasi
swat
er
andgl
ass
Me:
"Thankyou"
Li
zo:
"Sur
e,l
et'
stal
kNoxol
owhat
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:
"Wi
thwhat
?"
Li
zo:
"Youknowgrowi
ngupwithyourmom isa
gr
eatthi
ngbutf
ormenoshedidn'tshowmet he
l
ovethatanymom woul
dshowherchildr
en"
Me:
"Why?
"
Li
zo:heclear
edhisthroat"
Mymom wasbusy
complai
ningaboutmyf at
hersayi
ngthathe'
s
abusi
ngherIunderstandshewasbusymendi ng
herbr
okenhurtbutwhyf or
getaboutherson"
Me:
"WhatdoyoumeanLi
zokuhl
e"
Li
zo:
"Mymom sentmet ost
aywit
hmyauntwho
wasstr
uggli
ngfi
nanci
all
ymont
hswouldgoby
wi
thoutseei
ngher6monthsol
dbaby"
Me:
"What
?"
Lizo:"
YesnoxoloIt ookmyauntasmymom she
woul dsometi
mesaccusedadofr api
nghershe
woul daskherpol i
ceboyfriendwhoisnowher
husbandt obruisehersot hatmydadcanbe
arrestedandyupt heyarrestedhi
m mydaddiedin
jailt
hatmandi dn'tabondenmemyf at
herwoul
dn't
spentaweekwi thoutseeingmebutmom Idon't
knowabouther "
Me:
"Iam sor
ryt
oheart
his"
Li
zo:
"Nosweat
"
Me:"
Sohowdoyouknowt
hatyourmom was
pl
ayi
ngyourdad?
"
Li
zo:
"Hel
eftl
ett
erf
ormebef
orehedi
ed"
Me:
"Butyouki
ssedhercheekwhenshei
ntr
oduced
me"
Li
zo:
"Idi
dn'
twantt
oembar
assher
"
Me:"
Iunder
standt
hesamethi
nghappenedt
ome
youknowwhenmymom diedmyaunttookmei n
shel
iedtomeshetol
dmeli
esshetoldmethatIam
comi ngheret
ostudyonlyforhertoint
roducemet
o
alcoholandworkatherbrothel
"tear
sescapedmy
eyes
Li
zo:
"I
t'
sokaybaby"hewi
pedi
tusi
nghi
snumb
Me:"Il
atermetBoneswhohappenst obemyex
boyfri
end"Ismiledt
hroughthetears"IknowIdid
him wrongbycheati
ngonhi m butforhi
mt ofr
ame
meandki llmybabyI'l
lneverf
orgetwhatBonesdid
tome" Li
zo'svei
nswerepoppingouthewasf uming
Li
zo:
"Iam her
enow"inhisheadhewasthi
nki
ngof
howheisgoingtobr
eakBonesheari
ngXolocr
ied
madehim moreangr
ier
"
It
'sokaybaby"
Me:
Hewouldforcehi
msel
fonmebeatmel
ockme
i
nthehousei
.i

Isobbedi
nhi
sar
m hehushedmewhi
lebr
ushi
ng
myar ms

Ivowedt
onevert
ellanyoneaboutt
hisbutIf
ound
mysel
ftel
li
ngLi
zowhatBonesdi
dtome"

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Noxol
o

Li
zo:
"Heyar
eyouawake?
"
Me:
"Yes,
whatt
imei
sit
?"
Li
zocheckedhi
swr
istwat
ch
Li
zo:"
hal
fpastf
ive.
"
Me:
"What
!!Li
zo,
yourmom wi
llki
llme.
"
Li
zo:
"Shewon'
t,
trustme"
Me:
"Li
zo,
shewi
llaskmewher
eIwas"
Li
zo:
"I
'l
ltel
lheryouwer
ewi
thme"
Me:
"Ar
eyoucr
azy,
youwantyourmom t
oki
llme?
?"
Li
zo:"
Shewon'
t,
tel
lme,
whatdoyouwantmet
o
do?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowLi
zo,
Idon'
twantt
olosemyj
ob"
Li
zo:
"Iwoul
dnevermakeyoul
oseyourj
obNoxol
o"
Me:
"Dammi
t"
Li
zo:
"Comel
et'
sgoI
'
llt
akecar
eofmymom"
Me:
"Okay"

_
___
___
___
___
___

Mazwane:
"Andyou,whydi
dyoul
eavewi
thout
cut
ti
ngthegrass"
Li
zo:
"Mom,
Noxol
oisahousemai
dnotagar
den
gi
rl
"
Mazwane:
"Whoaskedf
oryouropi
nion?
"
Li
zo:
"Iwasjustsayi
ngmom, youneedt
ostop
tr
eat
ingnoxoloasyoursl
avesheisnot
."
Mazwane:
"Orel
sewhat
?"
Li
zo:
"Wel
lyoudon'
twantmet
osayi
t"
Mazwane:
"Idoorel
sewhat
?"
Mazwane:"
I'
llstoppayinghousebill
syouknowit
ver
ywellt
hatt hemoneyyourboyf ri
endi
sgett
ing
monthl
yisnotenought ocoveral
lthebi
ll
ssi
nce
youwanttolivethehighli
fe"
Mazwane:
"Ar
eyout
hreat
eni
ngmeLi
zo,
your
mom??"
Li
zo:
"Youarenotmymom di
dn'
tyouabandonme
atmyaunt'
splace?huhmymom di
ed.
"
Mazwane:
"DoIf
uckencar
e?"
Lizo:
"Yesyoushoul
d,myfatherisdeadbecauseof
youandyourdetect
iveboyf
riend"
Mazwane:
"he'
syourdad"
Lizo:hechuckled"
women, didn'
tIsaymyf at
her
died?youaccusedhim ofrapingyouwhichwasall
wr ong.Whodoesthat?huh?t heonl
ymistakedad
didwast oloveyouandwhatdi dyougi
vehi m??
yougavehi m deat
h"
Me:
"Li
zo,
that
'snowhowyoushoul
dtal
ktoyour
mom"
Li
zo:
"Forhel
lIcar
eNoxolo,st
ayoutoft
his,
she'
s
notmymom, shejustcar
ri
edmeinherwombnje"
Me:
"Li
zo!
!"
Mazwane:"
Reall
yLizo,
doyouwantmet
odi
e
becauseofyouhuh?"
Li
zo:
"Whatwi
llki
llyou?
"
Mazwane:
"Youknowwhat
,getoutofmyhouse.
"
Li
zo:"
Wit
hpleasureandohhmamadon'
tgi
ve
noxol
oyouratt
it
ude"
Mazwane:
"Go!
!"

Li
zo:
"Wi
llyoubeokay?
"
Me:
"Yes,
go"
Mazwane:
"Getoutofmyhouse!
"

Henoddedandwentout
Mazwane:
"Andwena,
whatar
eyoust
ari
ngat
?don'
t
youhaveworkt
odo?"
Me:
"Yesmam,
iam sor
ry.
"
Mazwane:
"I
t'
sal
readyf
ive,
goandcooksuppernx
andgetmeacupofstr
ongcof
fee.
"
Me:
"okayMa"

Iwentt
omakecof
feeandgi
veher

Mazwane:"
your
eal
lyt
aket
imet
ojustgetacupof
Cof
fee"

shedrankt
heCoff
eethenshespil
lthecof
feet
hat
wasinhermout
hallovermyface.
Mazwane:"
Thi
sthi
ngi
stoohot
"

Idi
dn'
tsi
gnupf
ort
hisno
Me:"
Mayouaskedf
oracof
fee"
Mazwane:
"Sodoyoucallt
hisacoffee?huh?ohh!
whoam it
oaskyouthisIfor
gotIfoundyouunder
t
hebri
dgesoyoudon'tknowthesethings,
right
?"
Me:"
Lookher emadam Idon'
tmeantodisr
espect
youbutpleaserespectmeasyourmai
dyoudon't
havetoremindmewher eIcomefrom"
Mazwane:
"Nxgetoutofmyf
aceyoust
inki
nass"
Me:
"Okay"

Iwenttomyr oom cl
eanedmyselfandreturnedto
theki
tchentocookstewbeefwithpapandl eave
thepotsonthestoveshewil
ldishupforher sel
fI
knowshei smybossIhavetoobeyever ythi
ngshe
tel
lsmebutwhoi sshetospi
llhercof
fee?.

Zodwa
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___

Didhejustpostnoxol
o'spi
csleepi
ngonhis
WhatsAppstatus?nohedidn'
tIam notgoi
ngtolet
noxologetawaywiththi
sIam notgoi
ngtogiveup
onLizoheismymansogoi ngtoaskforBones'
s
helpi
sagoodst art
.

Ical
ledacabwenttohi
spent
housel
ucki
lyIf
ound
hiswif
egoingout
.

Me:
"Hey,
Tashar
ight
?"
Tasha:
"Dependi
ngonwhowant
'st
oknow"
Me:
"Zodwa"

It
ookoutmyhandf
orashakeshej
ustl
ookati
t

Me:"
ohhIam l
ooki
ngf
orMrZul
u"
Tasha:
"Ohhcomehei
sin"
.

Tasha:
"Babyt
her
e'ssomeonewhowant
'st
omeet
you"
Bones:
"Ohhhicanyoupl
easeexcuseus"

"
shenodded"

Tasha

_
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___

Plant
ingabugi
nbonesof
ficehelpedmealotnowI
needapart
nert
oworkwit
hsot hatIcant
akehim
down

Zodwa
_
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___
_

Me:
"Iknowyouar
etheonewhor
apedNol
wazi
"
Hi
m:"
So?
"
Me:
"Noxol
ohasmovedon"

Ihadt
opr
esst
hebut
tonIknowhel
ovesNoxol
o

Hi
m:"
Whatdoyoumeanshehasmovedon?
"
Me:
"She'
sdat
ingsomeguynamedLi
zo"
Hi
m:"
Okay"
Me:
"Justokay"
Hi
m:"
Getoutzodwa"
Me:"
Okayyou'
l
ltextmewhenyouwantt
hewhol
e
i
nfor
mati
on"
Ismil
edandwentoutIknowhedoesn' twanttosee
Noxol
owithanyoneothert
hathim Iknowthathe
l
ovesmakingherli
femiser
able"

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er53

(
Itwasn'
teasywr
it
ingi
tbutIt
ri
ed)

_
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_

Zodwa

Recei
vingacal lfr
om BonesmademydayIdon' t
evenknowwher ehegotmyphonenumberf r
om but
i
tdoesn'tmatter.Iam j
ustgladthathecall
edme, I
knowmostofyouar easkingwhyIam wor kingwith
amanwhor apedmysi ster?it
'sal
linthepast
Nolwaziisdeadandnotcomi ngback.Aft
erlocki
ng
myf
latIwal
kedt
othet
axir
ank.

Me:"
GoodMor
ningMr
.Zul
u"
Bones:"
Ye"
Me:"
Youcal
ledme"
Bones:"
Whatdoyouhaveinmi
nd?
"Ij
ustknewt
hat
heistal
kingaboutmypl
an
Me:"
Let
'ski
dnapherunt
ilhef
orget
sabouther
"
Bones:"OkayIdi
dabackgroundcheckaboutt
he
boyhe'sjustasmal
lfi
sh"
Me:"
Iknow"
Bones:"
Iam l
ist
eni
ng"
Me:"
OkayIkindahaveagoodrel
ati
onshi
pwi
thhi
s
mom soI
'l
laskhertosendnoxol
otomyapar
tment
"
Bones:"
You'
rei
diotshe'
sgoi
ngt
osendhert
oyour
houseanddowhat"
Me:"Il
eftsomeofmyst
uffatthehousesoI
'
llask
hert
osendNoxolotobr
ingthem"
Bones:"
Iseeokaydothatandgivemeacal
lI'
l
lal
so
cal
lJomotogettheboysready"
Me:"
Okayshar
p"Iat
tempt
edt
ogobuthehel
dmy
ar
mtight
ly
Bones:"
Don'
tevert
ryt
othr
eat
enmedoyouhear
me"
Me:Ismi
led"
sur
e"

Hel etgoofmyar m Iam gl adthathei shelpingme.

Noxol owilll
earnnott ost ealsomeone' smanIdon' t
carewhet hershe'smybl oodorwhatact uallyIdon't
giveadamnabouther ,shepr essedt hewr ong
buttonswhenshesl eptwi thmymanwhi leshe
knewt hatIam dat i
ngLi zo.Iusedt otalkabouthi m
whileshewasst ayingatmymom' shousespeaki ng,
aboutmom i t
'sbeenawhi lesinceIsawherIguess
herben10i streati
nghergoodwher eevershei sit
's
notlikeIcare.Idon'thaveamot hersheist he
reasonwhymyl it
tl
esi sterdiedIdon' tcarewhet her
i
t'sinthepastsheshoul dhavepl ayedherr oleasa
mot herandshowhert hewaynotl eadi
nghert othe
l
ion'
sdenandf
ort
hat
,I'
l
lal
wayshat
emom!

Bones

_
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___
__

Ii
mmediatel
ycal
ledJomoal
ert
inghi
mtogett
he
boysr
eady.

Jomo:"
Bosswhyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his"
Me:"
Idon'
tpayyout
oaskmest upi
dquest
ions
JomodowhatIam t
ell
ingyou"
Jomo:"
Whydon'
tyoul
ett
hegi
rlgo"
Me:"Whywoul
dIl
ethergoNoxol
obet
rayedmeshe
cheat
edonme"
Jomo:"
Didn'
tyousendhert
ojai
l?
"
Me:"I
tisnotenoughdammi
tJomodoyoust
il
lwant
yourj
ob?"
Jamo:"
Hadeboss"
Me:"
Thoughtasmuchdowhatyou'
reaskedt
odo"

Idroppedt hecallifIdon'
tgettodateNoxol o
nobodywi llImeani tnobodywilldateher.Noxolo
doesn'tdeservetobehappyIwasevenr eadyto
sacri
fi
cemydemonsf orherbutshecheat edonme,
shebloodysl eptwi t
haniggaundermynoseI '
l
l
won'tlethergot hateasil
ynever!Iroar
ed.

Noxol
o

_
___

Mazwane:"
Noxol
odi
dn'
tIaskedyout
ost
ayaway
f
rom myson?"
Me:"
Youdi
dma'
am"
Mazwane:"
NowZodwaistaki
ngallherst
uffdoyou
t
hinkI
'
dlovetohaveadaught
er-
in-
lawwhoisa
maidhuhnoi nfatahobo?
"okaynoxol
onevercr
yin
fr
ontofyourenemythosewerethewordsmymom
usedtotel
lmetoputonyourbravestl
ook
Me:"
Iam sor
rymaIpr
omi
set
oleaveLi
zoal
one"
Mazwane:"Real
lyyouar
eluckyLizosaidt
hatI
shoul
dletyoucarr
yonworkinghereother
wise"
Me:"IknowmaIam r
eal
lysor
ryIr
eal
lyhat
emysel
f
r
ightnow"
Mazwane:"Cutt
heactgi
rlyouknowwhatgoand
packZodwa'sstuf
fshesaidImustaskyout
obr
ing
them f
orher"
Me:"
CanIpl
easehaveheraddr
ess"
Mazwane:"
Okay"shetookapenandapaper"
her
e
doyouknowhowt oread?
"
Me:"
YesIdoma"
Mazwane:"
Goodnowgodon'
tgetl
ost
"
Me:
"Okay"

Shegavemef
if
tyr
andsf
ort
axif
areIpackedher
stuf
finaShopri
tepaperbaggoi
ngtoZodwa's
apart
mentwashardbecauseourtaxiwasst
opped
byagr oupofmenwearingbl
ackunif
ormsholdi
ng
bi
gguns.

Guy1:"
AnyladynamedNoxologetout
"whyme
whatwoul
dtheywantfrom memaybeiti
sabout
medati
ngLizoIdon'
tknow"
Me:Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat"
It
'sme"
Guy1:"
Getoutsi
syouknowwhatyoudi
d"
Ol
dwomeni nsi
dethet
axi
:"Shamepoort
hingI
wonderwhatdi
dshedo"
Me:"
Whatdi
dIdopl
easedon'
tki
llme"
Guy1:"
Getoutwi
thyourpaperbagyoungl
ady"

Iwentout

Me:"
Pleasedon'tki
llmeokayil
lgiveyouwhatever
youwantjustdon'
tkil
lmeplease"Ikneel
edi
nf r
ont
ofguy1
Guy1:"
Sil
enceher
"Ifel
tsomet
hinghi
tmyhead
har
danditwasli
ghtsout

TASHA

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_

Hear i
nghi m andt hatbl oodyZodwapl anningto
kidnapt hegirldi
dn'tsi twellwit
hmemaybe
partneri
ngupwi thheri snotabadi dea.Iam goi
ng
togetheroutandof ferheraj obmaybeshecanbe
myPAIdon' tknowIr eall
yneedsomeonet ohel
p
mebr i
ngBonesdown, Ican'tdoitonmyown
Noxol oisabr il
li
antgi rlwhowasf edwithli
esshe
didn'tdeservetoloseherbabyi nthatmanner
Bonesi sevilIdidn'texpecthi mt odowhathedi dto
noxol oshe'sonly19year sandshehasal ready
beent ojailpoorthing
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er54

Noxol
o

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Iwokeupwi t
habangi ngheadache, Waki ngupwi th
thi
sheadachewasn' teasy.It ouchmyheadwher eit
washur t
ingonlytocomebackwi tht
her edli
qui d,I
reali
zedt hati
twasbl oodbuti thasdried.Istoodup
andl ookedar oundallIcouldseewer ewal l
swi t
ha
ti
nywi ndowatt het
opever ythingcamebackt hey
haveki dnappedme.Ipani ckedandst artedbangi ng
themet aldoorhopingsomeonewoul dcomeand
rescueme.

Me:"Hel
p!Somebodyhelp!"t
hemet
aldoorsli
ghtl
y
openedgi
vingmeachancet ost
epbackitopened
widel
yIcouldn'
tbel
ievei
twasmyeyesdeceivi
ngor
am Idr
eaming?pinchingmyselfwast
omakeme
wakeupfrom t
hedr eam,wel
litwasn'
tadr
eam at
al
lBonescamei nwi t
hZodwa

Me:"
You, whatdoyouwantf
rom mewhyam Iher
e"
t
heylaughed
Bones:"yout
hinkI
'
dforgetwhatyoudi
dtome,
oh
waityoudidf
orget
"hechuckl
ed
Me:"Yousentmet oj
ailf
orsomethi
ngIdidn'
tdo
i
sn'
tthatenoughpunishmentyouki
ll
edmybabyat
l
eastsparemelif
eleavemealone"Ist
art
edtear
ing
up
Bones:"
Noi t
'snot
,Noxol
obabyyouknowmeI
don'
tfor
giveandIwon'tf
orget
"Icoul
dn'
thol
dthe
tear
sanymor e
Me:"Zodwawhywoul
dyoudot
hist
omeI
'
m your
cousi
nyourbl
ood"
Zodwa:"
Didyouthi
nkaboutt
hatwhenyout
ook
Li
zoawayfrom mehuh"
Me:"
Hecamet
omeIdi
dn'
tmeant
osl
eepwi
thhi
m
ZodwaI
'm sorrypleasej
ustl
etmegoIpromiseI'
l
l
l
eaveLi
zoI'l
lleavethecount
ry"mor
etear
sfell
Zodwa:"Youalr
eadysleptwit
hhi
m damngir
lI
salut
eyou.Leavethecountr
ywit
hwhat?youdon'
t
evenhaveacent"
Me:"Idi
dn'
tmeant
osl
eepwi
thhi
m pl
easel
etme
go"
Zodwa:" t
ool atecousinI'm goingt
oeraseLizo'
s
memor yandski pthecount rygosomewhereyou
willneverfi
ndhi m"shel aughedherlaughcarri
ed
somuchevi linitaft
ertorturi
ngmewi thwordsthey
wentout ,l
ockedt hedoorl eavi
ngmei ntear
s.I
neverthoughtzodwawoul ddosomet hi
ngliket
his
damnIwasaf oolIshoul dhavekeptquietwhen
theyaskedwho' snoxolo.

Tasha

_
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Tashawaspacingupanddowni nherbedroom not
knowingwhatt
odo,shetookherphoneinsideher
bagandcall
edherPIheansweredonthethirdri
ng

Voi
ce:"
Mrs.Zul
u"
Me:"
HiDonal
dar
eyoubusy"
Donal
d:"
Notatal
lhowcanIhel
pyou"
Me:"
Ineedyout
odoabackgr
oundcheckonagi
rl
namedNoxol
o"
Donal
d:"
Hersur
name?
"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowDonal
dbutshewast
rendi
ng
t
hosepastf
ewdays"
Donal
d:"
Theonewhowasdat
ingyourhusband?
"
Me:"
Yespl
easeIneedt
hei
nfor
mat
ionasi
nnow"
Donal
d:"
Itgoi
ngt
ocostal
ott
hough"
Me:"
Idon'
tcar
eaboutmoneyDonal
dIneedt
osave
t
hegir
lasi
nnow"
Donal
d:"
Isshei
ndanger
?"
Me:"
Sor
tof
"
Donal
d:"
Noprobl
em whendoyouneedt
he
i
nfor
mati
on"
Me:"ASAPdudeweren'
tyouheari
ngmewhenIsai
d
Ineedthei
nfor
mat
ionasintoday"
Donal
d:"
giveme20mi
ns"
Me:"Okayt hankyou"Idroppedthecal
landwaited
i
mpat i
entl
y.Af terawhi
leIrecei
vedanemail*
Ihope
thi
swillhel
p*i twasNoxolo'si
nfor
mati
onfrom her
dateofbirt
h,mot her
,et
c...
Me:"
sheworksasamaidatt
heZwanehousehol
d,
I
'l
lst
artl
ooki
ngther
e"

Iqui
ckl
ytookmybag, carkeysandphoneIam
gl
andLuluiswithmymom anywayIdr ovet
ot he
houseasfastasIcoul
d,rangthedoor
bellamiddl
e-
agedwomanopenedt hedoor
MaZwane:"
Hel
lo"
Me:"HiMahowar
eyou?OkayI
'
mlooki
ngf
orMr
s.
Zwane"
MaZwane:"
Whyareyoupani
cki
ngcomei
n"Iwent
i
nsi
dethehouseshel
edmetolounge
Me:"
AreyouMazwane"
Mazwane:"
Yessi
swhat
'swr
ongyoul
ookl
ikea
mess,
water?
Me:"
NoMaIam okay"
MaZwane:"
Okay"shet
ookaseatnextt
ome"
Me:"
I'
m notst
ayi
ngIcamet
oaski
fNoxol
ois
home"
MaZwane:"
NosinceIsenthert
orunaner
randf
or
meyester
dayshe'
snotbackyet
"dammitt
heygot
her
Me:"
err
and?Wher
e"
MaZwane:"
tomydaught
eri
n-l
aw'
sapar
tment
"
Me:"ohnoma'am,sorrybutyourdaught
er-
in-
law
andNoxol
o'sex-
boyfri
endkidnappedNoxol
o"she
l
ookedatmeandbur stint
olaughter
MaZwane:"
You'
refunny"shest
oppedlaughi
ng
whenshesawthatIwasn't"
whoareyouandwhy
wouldyouwanttohel
pNoxolobecausel
astt
imeI
checkedshehasnofami
ly"
Me:"
I'
m agoodf
ri
endofher
s"
MaZwane:"WellIdon'
tcareifshe'skidnappedgood
ri
ddancetor
ubbishandbesi deswhywoul dZodwa
ki
dnapnoxolowhileshe'snothi
ngbutahobo"Li zo
wasintheki
tchenlist
eningheimmedi at
elygot
angrywhenhehear dhismom talkingbadlyabout
noxolo.

Li
zo

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___
__

Me:"Whatdi
dyoujustcal
lher
"Mazwanewas
shockedt
oseeLi
zo
Mazwane:"
Lizowhendidyougether
ewhatdi
dyou
hearandl
ongenoughtohearyoucal
li
ngXol
oa
hobo"
Lizo:"
Iheardever
ythi
ngIcan'
tbeli
eveyou,Mama,
whendi dyoustar
tbeingsowickedandself
-
center
ed?ohnowai tIfor
goti
trunsinyourblood"
MaZwane:"
Lizo!Don'
tyouevertal
ktomel i
kethat
agai
n"Li
zocli
ckedhistongueandfacedTasha
Me:"HiI'
m Noxolo'
sboyf
ri
endwhatdidyousay
happenedtoher"Mazwanerol
ledhereyesandl
eft
theroom
Tasha:"shewaski
dnappedbyherboyf
ri
endand
yourgir
lfr
iendwedon'
thavet
imeweneedtosave
herasinnow"
Me:"ex-
gir
lf
ri
end,doyouknowwher
etheyar
e
keepi
ngher?waithowdoyouknownoxol
o"
Tasha:"
Iam boneswi
feokayI
'
lldot
heexpl
aini
ng
l
aterwehavetosaveher
"
Li
zo:"
Okayl
et'
sgo"
Tasha:"
Nowewon' tmakei
toutal
ivei
fweshowup
wit
houtanybackupbonesi
sthemostfear
edguy"
Me:"Iknowsomeonewhocanhelpbut.
..Iam noti
n
goodtermswit
hhim"Tashai
nter
rupt
edhim
Tasha:"
thi
sisnotimeforgrudgesweneedt
ohel
p
Noxoloyouloveherdon'
tyou?"
Me:"
wit
hever
yfi
beri
nmybody"
Tasha:"
thenl
et'
sgo"t
heyr
ant
othei
rcar
s
Me:"We'
regoi
ngtothepoli
cestati
on"Tasha
noddedandgoti
ntohercarandlef
tforthepol
ice
st
ati
on.

Att
hepol
icest
ati
on

TashaandLi
zobargedinandwenttother
ecept
ion
anddemandforDetect
iveZwane(
Mr.Zwane)

Recept
ioni
st:"
whoi
saski
ng"
Li
zo:"Dammi t
"hebangedt hetable"
cal
lDet ect
ive
Zwanerightnowandt el
lhim hissonwant sto
speaktohim"therecept
ionistwasfri
ghtenedshe
cal
ledMr .Zwane
Recept
ioni
st:"
Uhm hel
loDet
ect
ive.
..
..
yessi
ryour
soni
saskingforyou.
..
.yessi
ritl
ooksurgent
"aft
er
afewminutesMr.ZwanecameLi zospott
edhim
andwenttohim

Li
zo:"
Ineedyourhel
pit
'samat
terofl
if
eanddeat
h"
Mr.Zwane:"Goodeveni
ngt oyout
ooLizohowar
e
youdoing"Li
zowasirri
tat
edbytheol
dman' s
cocki
ness
Li
zo:"
thi
sisnott
heti
met
obecockysomeone'
sli
fe
i
sindangerweneedt
ogonow"
Mr.Zwane:"Woahcal
m downtel
lmewhat
'sgoi
ng
on"Li
zosignal
edTashatocometot
hem
Tasha:
"af
ter
noondet
ect
ive"
Lizo:"
tel
lhi
m whatyoutol
dme, "shetol
dhi
m
everythi
ngandbeggedhim nottomenti
onher
namebecauseBoneshascont actsinsi
det
he
stati
on
Lizo:
"whatarewewaiti
ngforshet
oldyou
everyt
hingyouneed,
let
'sgo"
Mr
.Zwane:"
okay"doyouanychancenobywher
e
hekepther
"
Tasha:"
YesIknow"
Mr .Zwane:"
Okay"heworehisbul
letpr
oofand
requestedabackup"youneedtostayhereunt
ilI
comeback"
Li
zo:"
WhatnoIam comi
ngwi
th"
Mr
.Zwane:"
Don'
tbest
ubbor
n,boy"
Li
zo:"
Iwon'
tstayher
eandwai
tforyout
ocome
backwit
hadeadbody"
Mr
.Zwane:
"okayMr
sar
eyoucomi
ngwi
th"
Tasha:"
NoIdon'
twanthi
mtoknowt
hatIt
oldyou
guys"
Li
zo:"
Thankyou"
Tasha:"Hopeyoufi
ndherinti
meshet ookouta
pieceofpaperi
twastheaddressofthewar ehouse
theynoddedandlef
tforthewarehouse.Theygotto
thewarehouseandplannedhowt ogetinwithout
beingdetect
edbyBonesmen
Mr.Zwane:" okaylet'
ssurroundthispl acewewi l
l
evencalltheheli
copterifiti
sneeded"t heynodded
"I
'l
lcountwhenIr eacht hr
eewegeti n, Lizost
ay
hereI'
llgetherbackIpr omise.123l et'sgo!t
hey
wentinsidethewar ehouserunningandshoot ing
everyguardthatwascomi ngintheirway.Bones
menwer eoutnumber ed

Li
zo

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__

Iam glandMr.Zwaneri
skedhisj
obformeIam
sur
et heywil
lgi
vehim awri
tt
enwarni
ngforusi
ng
pol
icesourceswit
houtacasebei
ngopened.

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NUED

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KE,
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er55

(Iwasbor
edanddeci
dedt
owr
it
esomet
hingsmal
l
nyana)

NOXOLO

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__

Hearinggunsgoof fmademepani cmyhear t

st
artedt obeatabnormall
y,f
astert
hanitshoul
dI
wasal soshiveri
ngprayi
ngtoGodaskinghimf or
prot
ect i
onafter15minutesofpani
cki
ngBonesand
Zodwabar gedi nar
guing.

Zodwa:"Didn'
tyout
ellmet
hatnobodyknowst
his
warehouse"
Bones:"
Womendon'
tquest
ionmedon'
tfor
getwho
Iam"
Zodwa:"
Letusconcent
rat
eonescapi
ngokay"
Bones:"
What!No,
Iam notgoi
ngt
oescapeasi
fas
I
'm acowar
dnever"
Zodwa:"
Allyourmenar
edeadBones"
Bones:"
So?I
tdoesn'tmeanIam scaredofthem
theyar
edogsthatbarkbutt
heydon'tbi
te"
Zodwa:"Theyar
ethef
uckenpol
ice!
.Idon'
twantt
o
gotojai
l"
Bones:"
Sowhatdoyouwantmet
odo"
Zodwa:"
Whyam It
heonl
yonewho'
spani
cki
ng
her
e"

Voi
ce:"
Yourout
numberedBonesdr
opyourgun"i
t
wasMr.Zwaneandot
herpoli
cemen
Bones:"ZwaneZwanedidn'
tIwar
nyout
ost
ay
awayfrom mybusiness'
s?"
Mr.Zwane:"
DropyourgundownSi
khul
iandst
op
bar
king"
Bones:"
Ourwhat
?"
Mr.Zwane:"Don'
tmakemeshootdr
opyourf
ucki
ng
gun!
"sothismancanswear
Bones:"
Fine!JustknowI'
l
lbeouti
nlesst
han24
hoursandI'
m comi ngf
oryou"
Mr .Zwane:" Cutt hebul lMr.SikhuliZul
uyou' r
e
underar restalongwi thyoumadam you' reunder
arrestforkidnappi ngMi ssNoxol oBhutheleziYou
havet her i
ghttoal awyerifyoucannotaf fordone
thest at
ewi llprovidef oryou.Mosti mportantl
yyou
havet her i
ghttor emai nsilent
, t
obei nf
ormed
prompt l
yofsuchr ight,andtheconsequencesof
notr emainingsi l
ent .Anyinfor
mat ionutteredor
willi
nglygivent oanof fi
cerwillbeusedagai nstyou
i
nt hecour toflaw.
Zodwa:"OhhmyGodIam notgoi
ngt
ojai
lnotnow
notever
"
Mr
.Zwane:"
Sispl
easemakeourj
obeasy"

Theyhandcuff
edthem Iknowthey'
l
lbeoutby
tomor
rowBonesisawel l-
knownmanhehasal ot
ofpoweriti
snotgoingtobeeasytobreakBones
asf
ormeIhavet
obemor
ecar
eful
.

Theyallwentoutandl
eavemeLi
zocamei
n
runni
ng

Li
zo:"
Babyar
eyouokay"
Me:"
Lizo"Ir
ant
ohi
sar
msandcr
ied
Li
zo:"
It
'sgoi
ngt
obeokaybabeIgotyou,
you'
re
saf
enow"
Me:"Theyki
dnappedmebecauseofyouLi
zoIcan'
t
Iam sorr
y"
Li
zo:"Whatdoyoumeanl
ookNoxol
oIthought
aboutthi
sIwantt
ohel
pyoubri
ngBonesdown"
Me:"What
!AsmuchasIalsowanttoseehim go
downbutIdon'
twantt
oendangeryourl
if
e"he
chuckl
ed"
what?"
Li
zo:"
Iam notscar
edofBones"
Me:"
Lizohe'
sdanger
ous"
Li
zo:"
Iknownoxol
oIam al
sodanger
ousinmyown
wayandbesi
deswewil
laskMr.Zwanetohel
pus"
Me:"
Yourf
ather
"hel
aughed
Li
zo:"He'
snotmydadcomeonl et'
sgetoutofhere
andohhyouhavet ogotot
hepoli
cesothatthey
cantakeyourst
atement
"

Inoddedwewenttohiscar.OnourwayhomeI
thoughti
tthr
oughIhavet
oactasifIam scaredof
Bonesbreakupwit
hLizoandnotpresscharges
againstt
hem

Me:"
Lizol
et'
sbr
eakup"
Li
zo:"Whatno"heparkedasi
det
heroad"hel
lno
l
ookNoxoloIloveyouokayandIam wi
ll
ingt
orisk
mylif
etohelpyoubri
ngBonesdown"
Me:"IknowLi
zobutt
hesoonert
hebetterZodwa
knowsthatwebr
okeupshewon'tbot
herme
anymore"
Li
zo:
"Okay"
Me:"
Okay?
"
Li
zo:"
Yes"
Me:"Okayl
ookwewil
lcont
inueourr
elat
ionship
oncewehavesor
tedt
heZodwaandBonesi ssues"
Li
zo:
"Okay"
Me:"
Don'
tbeangr
ypl
easel
izo"
Li
zo:
"Sur
e"

Li
zokuhl
e

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_

Whennoxolobrokeupwit
hmemademewonderi f
sheeverl
ovedmeIdon'tt
hinkI
'
deverbeabl
eto
l
ivewit
houtNoxolo.

Me:"
Sonowwe'
rewor
kingonbr
ingi
ngBonesdown?
Xol
o:"
yes"
Me:"
Okaypar
tner
,Iwantyout
omeetsomeone"

WhileMr.Zwanewasinsi
dethewar
ehouseTasha
sentmeheraddressshewantst
oworkwit
hmeand
Xolotobri
ngBonesdown

Xol
o:"
Who?
"
Me:"
You'
l
lseewhenwegett
her
e"
Xol
o:"
Okay"

Wedroveinsil
entNoxol
oisbeaut
if
ulhergl
owi
ng
yel
lowboneskinisf
lawl
essplust
hedeepdimpl
e
onhercheekIalsol
ovehert
hinbody
Wear
ri
vedatt
headdr
essTashasentt
ome.

Tasha:"
Heyyoucame?
"
Me:"
Yes,
Xol
omeetTashat
heper
sonwhot
oldme
wher
eyouwer
e"
Xol
o:"
Nicetomeetyo.
.wai
tar
en'
tyoubonesex-
wif
eorwif
e"
Tasha:"
Thedi
vor
cei
snotf
inal
izedyetsoIcant
ake
awife"
Xol
o:"
Okaysowhatam Idoi
ngher
e?"
Tasha:"Pri
ncessgot
oyourr
oom okay,
"shet
olda
beauti
fulgi
rlwhowaspl
ayi
ngonthefloor
Lul
u:"
Mom whyar
eweher
eIwantt
oseedad"
Tasha:"
Dadwil
lcomebackt omorr
owokaybaby"
shenoddedanddisappear
edtothepassage
Tasha:"Sor
ryaboutthatit
'sjustthatIwantedt
o
meetyouguysher esinceIdon' tknowifhe
burger(
notsur
eifthespelli
ngi scorrect
)hi
s
penthouse"
Li
zo:"
Weunder
stand"
Xol
o:"
what
'sgoi
ngonher
e"
Tasha:"
okayBonesburntmyboyf
ri
endthat
'swhyI
wanttobri
nghim downI'
vegotal
otofi
nfor
mation
abouthi
sshenani
gans"
Me:"
Yessoshei
sgoi
ngt
obeourpar
tner
"
Xol
o:"
Whywhati
fshe'
swor
kingwi
thBonest
ospy
onus"
Tasha:"
Iam not
!"
Xol
o:"
Okay"

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Noxol
o

Iwokeupfeel
ingti
red,
mybackwashur ti
ngsobad
butIwokeupanywaydidmydailyr
outineworemy
maidsuni
for
m andmademywayt othemainhouse
st
artedwi
thbreakf
astwhi
lebusymakingbreakf
ast
MaZwanewal
kedi
nhummi
ngl
ikeabi
rd

MaZwane:
"Soyoudeci
dedt
ocomet
owor
ktoday"
t
hiswomanreal
lyhat
esmygut
s
Me: "
Morninghopeyousleptwel
lma'
am"Ihaveto
respecthershe'
stheonewhogavemeapl acet
o
sleep
MaZwane:
"Iseesl
eepingwithmysonhasmade
yout
oughhuh"Ikeptquietandcar
ri
edonwi
thwhat
Iwasdoi
ng
MaZwane:"
sinceyoudi
dn'tcomet
oworkt
heother
dayI'
m goi
ngtodeductsomemoneyf
rom your
sal
ary"
Me:
"youcan'
tdot
hat
"
MaZwane:
"IcanandIwi
llwat
chme"
shesmi
led
evi
ll
y
Me:"
youcan'tdeductmoneyf
rom mysal
aryIwas
ki
dnapped"
MaZwane:
"doyout
hinkIcar
e"wowIcan'
tbel
ieve
t
hiswomen
Me:
"I
'l
ltel
lLi
zoaboutt
his"
MaZwane:
"youwoul
dn'
tdar
e"
Me:
"hei
stheonepayi
ngmeaf
teral
l"
Mazwane:
"sowhat
?"shelookedatmewi
thso
muchhatr
edandwalkedaway.

Af
tercookingbreakf
astIwentt
oringthebell
al
ert
ingthem t
hatbreakf
astisr
eady.Aftert
hatI
wenttowashthesheetssincet
heywer edir
ty

Li
zo

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_

Dri
vingtomymom'shousebor edmethatwomenis
al
waysonmyneckanywaywhenIdr oveinsi
deI
sawmyangeldoingthelaundr
yIwal
kedupt oher
andheldherwai
stshejumpedaway.
Me:
"heyheyi
t'
sjustme"shel
ookedt
err
if
ied
Xol
o:"
ohsor
ryIt
hough.
..
"Ii
nter
rupt
edher
Me:"noonei
sgoi
ngt
ohur
tyouanymor
eIpr
omi
se
okay"
Xol
o:"
Lizoyoucan'
tpr
omisesomethi
ngli
kethat
"
myheartshat
ter
edali
ttl
eshedoesn'
tbel
ieveme
Me:"
li
stenIcamet
ogetyouwe'
regoi
ngt
oTasha'
s
apar
tment"
Xol
o:"
Uhm Idon'
tthi
nkmaZwanewi
llagr
ee"
Me:"
I'
llt
akecareofhergochangetimeisnotonour
si
de"sherantoherroom minut
eslatershecame
outandweleft
.Wear r
ivedatTasha'
s

Tasha

_
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I'
vecal
ledLizotocomewithnoxoloit
'sti
mewepl an
howtot akeonbonesIam t
iredofseeinghi
m hurt
i
nnocentsoulit
'st
imeIgetjusti
ceformyboyfri
end!

Ther
ewasaknockont
hedoorIst
oodupandf
ound
Noxol
oandLi
zo

Me:
"Hel
loI'
m gl
adyoucoul
dmakeit
"Lizosmi
led
"
comein,comeinmakeyour
sel
vesathome"
Me:
"Anyt
hingt
odr
ink?
"
Li
zo:
"Iam goodXol
o?"
Noxol
o:"
Iam okay"Ismi
led
Me:"Okaywedon'
thavemuchtimeonourside,
I'
ve
gotsomedocumentsher
e"Igavethem t
oread"
Li
zo:
"Buti
tlooksl
ikecodes"
Me:"
Yesthosecodeshavei
nfor
mat
ionaboutbones
i
ll
egalt
hings"
Li
zo:
"Sohowar
ewegoi
ngt
ogett
hei
nfor
mat
ion?
"
Me:"
Letmegoandt
akemyphonesot
hatIcancal
l
Donal
dhe'
smyPI"
Lizo:
"Okay"Iwenttogetmyphonefr
om the
bedroom andcall
edmyPIitrangheansweredon
thethir
dcall
Donal
d:"
MrsZul
uhowcanIhel
pyou"
Me:
"Ineedyout
ocomet
omyapar
tment
"
Donal
d:"
sur
e"Idroppedt
hecal
landsenthi
mthe
addr
essandret
urnedtomyguest
s

Noxol
o:"
Ishecomi
ng?
"
Me:
"Yeshe'
sonhi
sway"
Li
zo:
"OkayIguesswe'
l
lwai
tforhi
mthen"
Me:"
Areyousur
eyoudon'
twantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Don'
tbeshy"
Li
zo:
"not
hankyouI
'
mfi
ne"
Noxol
o:"
wat
erpl
ease"
Me:
"sur
eitmeansyouwer
eshy"Ismi
ledNoxol
o:"I
wasn'
t"Ismi
ledandwentt
ogetwat
erf
orher
.
f
ewmi
nut
esl
aterDonal
dar
ri
ved
Me:"
NoxoloandLi
zothi
sisDonal
dmyPI
,donal
d
t
hisisNoxol
oandLizomypart
ners
Donal
d:"
Nicet
omeetyouguys"
Li
zo:
"Ni
cet
omeetyout
oo"
Me:"Greatnowthatyouguysknoweachot herl
et'
s
getdownt obusiness,Donal
dIhavefi
lesheret
hatI
stol
efrom Bonessaf eneedyoutocl
arif
ywhat'
s
writ
tentherebecauseit'
swri
tteni
ncodes
Donal
d:"
noprobel
m"Igavehimt hef
il
es" wel
li
t'
s
i
nfor
mationabouthi
senti
redeali
ngsfr
om the
humantraf
fi
cki
ngtotheexport
ingofdrugs"
Me:
"goodwor
kDonal
d"
Li
zo:
"Weshoul
dsendt
hatt
oDet
ect
iveZwane"
Me:"Befor
ewedot
hatboneswehavet
oti
ghtour
securi
ty"
Li
zo:
"I
'l
lhavet
ohi
resomeguar
dst
hen"
Me:
"Weneedpeopl
ewhoknowt
hei
rjob,
fear
less
guar
dsnotpussies.SoI'
l
lcont
actt
hem t
heywi
llbe
i
nyourhousetonight"
Li
zo:
"WellIdon'
tneedaguar
dIcant
akecar
eof
mysel
f"
Noxol
o:"
Noyou'
l
lgetaguar
dandi
tisnotupf
or
di
scussi
on"
Li
zo:
"But
..
"
Noxolo:
"Am doneher
e"Ncooht
hoset
wol
ooksl
i
ke
t
hey'r
ear ei
nlove
Me:
"Okayguysi
nthi
sfi
ghti
swi
norl
ose"
Li
zo:
"wear
eready"
Me:"Okaywebet
terbereadyoncehegett
henews
abouttheUSBofhim conf
essi
ngever
ythi
nghewi
ll
wanttokil
lme"
Li
zo:
"Doyouhavei
tinyou?
"
Me:
"Yesbuthewon'
tgeti
t,eveni
fIdi
eint
his
mi
ssiondon'
tgi
veupguys"
Li
zo,
Xol
oandDonal
d:"
Wewon'
t"
Me:
"yesso"Noxol
owasawf
ull
ytooqui
et"
Noxol
o
whatdoyousuggestwedo"
Noxol
o:"
Iwanthi
m gone"
shesai
dinacol
dtone
Me:"
tr
ustmethatdaywi
llcome"aswewereabout
topl
anfur
thermyphonerangi
twasBonesI
answer
ed"hel
lo"
Bones:
"I
'm outwher
ear
eyou"
Me:
"I
'm atmyol
dpl
acebutI
'
m onmyway"
Bones:
"okaybr
ingLul
uwi
th"
Me:
"okaywai
tyouout
?
Bones:
"Yeswhy?
"
Me:
"How?Why?
"
Bones:
"why?
"
Me:
"NoImeandi
dyoubr
ibet
hem"
Bones:"No"hedr oppedthecal
lthat
'sbonesforyou
heissosecretive"soguyswe'r
egoingtohaveto
reschedulet
oday'smeet i
ngtotomorrow"t
he
agreedandleftIwenttof et
chlul
uatmymot her'
s
house
Bones
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I'
m outofjai
lIt
oldthatst
upidcopthatI'
llbeouti
n
l
essthan24hour siti
seasyI'vegotpeopleworki
ng
formeinside.I
'm goi
ngtokil
lhim andhisenti
re
famil
ystarti
ngwit
hhi swi
fe.Tashaarri
vedwithmy
babygirl
.

Lul
u:"
Daddy"sher
ant
omyar
ms
Me:
"Pr
incess"
Lul
u:"
Daddywher
edoyoucomef
rom"
Me:
"Iwasawayonbusi
nesst
ri
pbaby"
Lul
u:"ohokaycanIcomet
oonextt
imeIr
eal
ly
missedyou"
Me:
"tel
lyouwhatI'
l
lmakeitupt
oyoubygoi
ngto
Di
sneyl
andwithyou"shej
umpedonmeonceagain
Lul
u:"Yay!
"Ismiledweplayedwithherdoll
sfora
whileshestart
edgett
ingsleepyIt
ookhertobed
andwentbackt oTashaIloveseeingthesi
ghtof
her
.shewascooki ngthebestviewever.Iheldher
waistandkissedheronherneckbutshepushed
meaway
Me:
"what
'swr
ong"
Tasha:
"I
'm noti
nthemoodBones"
Me:
"ComeonTashaImi
ssbei
ngi
nsi
deyou"
Tasha:
"Maybet
omor
row"
Me:
"What
'swr
ong?Younevert
urnedmeof
f"
Tasha:"
Nothi
ngIam justt
ir
ed,ifyoudon'tmind"
shepushedmeoutofherwayIgr oanedand
walkedawayIwasbeyondpi ssedItookmykeys
andwalkedtothedoor
Me:
"Don'
twai
tup"Il
eft

Idon'
tknowwhat'
swrongwithTashabut
somethi
ngisof
fwithherI
'
llhavet
olooki
ntoi
t.
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Bones

Lastni
ghtTasha'
smoodwasof fsotodayIdeci
ded
tocal
lJomotoinvest
igat
ehersothatIcanknow
what'
swrongwithher.

Me:
"HeyJomowhatdoyouhavef
orme"
Jomo:"
Jomoyouwon'
tli
kewhatIam aboutt
otel
l
you"
Me:
"Shoot
"
Jomo:
"Okay,I'
vemanagedt
ot r
aceeverycal
lthat
shemadeI'
llsendt
herecor
dingsorshouldIcome
yourhouse"
Me:"
Nocomet
othepent
houseI
'
llbewai
ti
ngf
or
you"
Jomo:
"OkayI
'
m onmyway"

Ijumpedoutoft
heblanket
swenttohugTashaon
thebalconyi
nLul
u'sr
oom shel
ovestodoitever
y
morning

Me:
"Mor
ningmyl
ove"
Tasha:
"Mor
ning"Iki
ssedhershewassot
ense
Me:
"Babeyou'
resot
ensewhat
'supwi
thyou"
Tasha:"
Nothi
ngBoneswhydon'tyoujustleaveme
al
one!"Shesnapped,Ir
aisedmyeyebrow" Sor
ryi
t'
s
j
ustthatIam st
ressedaboutmymom' shealth
Me:
"I
syourmom si
ck?
"
Tasha:
"Yesthat
'swhyIam sot
enseIam wor
ri
ed
abouther"
Me:
"Comeher
e"Ihuggedher"
what
'swr
ong"
Tasha:
"She'
sbeencoughi
ngandcomplai
ningabout
herneckbuti
tnothi
ngtoomuchshe'
l
lbeokay"she
avoi
dseyecontact
Me:"
Doyouwantmet ogiveyousomecashsot
hat
youcangetmedi
cat
ionforher?
"
Tasha:"
Nochil
lshe'
l
lbef
ine"shewentbacki
nsi
deI
fol
lowedher
Me:
"Okaycool
,Jomoi
scomi
ng"
Tasha:"
Wantspace?Don'
tworryI
'
vegotbusi
ness
toatt
end"shepouredagl
assofwhiskey
Me:"
Haveyouwashedyourface?Whyar
eyou
dr
inki
ngwhiskeyatt
hist
ime?"
Tasha:
"Doyouhaveprobl
em?don'
twor
ryIknowi
t'
s
yourboozeI
'l
lrepl
acei
t"
Me:"Watchyourwor
dsTashawhent
alki
ngt
omeI
am notyouragemate"
Tasha:
"Orwhat
?"Shegul
pthegl
assandbangedi
t
onthetabl
e
Me:
"I
'l
lfuckyouup"
Tasha:
"Isi
t"Ii
mmedi atel
ygotangryandheldher
handti
ghtl
ysher eachedforsomethi
nginherwaist
andpullagun.Iwasn'treadyfort
his"Tr
yingt
o
beatme?Isee"
Me:"Whatareyoudoingwi
thaguni
nthemorni
ng
Tashaandhowdi dyouputi
nyourwai
stwhi
le
wearingni
ghtdress?
"
Tasha:
"I
'l
lshootyourbal
lsi
fyouevertr
yt obeatme
agai
nnx"what '
sgoingonwithTasha?Shechanged,
shenottheTashawhousedt oobeyeverythi
ngI
sai
dshei st
oof ei
sty
Me:
"Don'
tdi
srespectmeinmyhousewomen,
Iwear
t
hepantsi
nthishouse"
Tasha:
"You'
reamonsterhi
dingi
nthosef
ancysui
ts
don'
tworryBonesyourdayi
scoming.

Noxol
o

Tasha'
sguar
dscamel
astni
ghti
twasnoteasyt
o
convincemaZwanewhyt her
e'sabunchofmen
wit
hgunsgoi ngar oundherhousebutLi zo
managedt oexpl ainwhat 'sgoingont oher .Shejust
tol
dhert hatMrZwanear restedoneoft hebi ggest
gangstersohe' safraidthathemi ghthur thisfami l
y
togetbackt ohim andsheunder stoodj ustlikethat
anywaydi dItellyout hatwear enotal l
owedt ogo
anywherewi thoutaguar d?IguessIdi dn'tbutIam
tel
li
ngyounowimi ghtgetusedt oi tbecausei tis
goingtobel i
ket hatuntiltheBonesi ssuei ssorted.

Bones
_
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__

Jomoar
ri
vedwiththebestI
TTerryhei
sthebesti
n
di
ggi
ngdir
tyi
nfo'
saboutaperson.

Me:
"Whatdoyouhavef
orme"
Jomo:
"BossTashahasbeenpr
etendi
ngt
hewhol
e
ti
me"
Me:
"Whatdoyoumean?
"
Jomo:"
Shedoesn'
tloveyou,she'sgotenough
i
nfor
mat i
ont
osentyout ojai
lforaverylongt
ime"
Me:
"What
!Bl
oodyshi
t"
Jomo:"Ther
e'saUSBaboutyouconf
essi
ng
ever
ythingyoudi
d"
Me:
"How?Wher
edi
dshegeti
t?"
Jomo:
"Ther
ewasabugpl
ant
edunderyourt
abl
e"
Me:
"Sowhatam Igoi
ngt
odonow?
"
Jomo:
"Wehavet
ogett
hatUSB"
Me:"
How? "Iam soshockedTashadeservesan
Oscarawardshei sgoodatact
ingsheplayedme
sowellIswearI
'llki
l
lherwit
hmybar ehands
Jomo:
"Wewi
llhavet
otakei
tbyf
orce"

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Bones

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I'
vehiredpeopl
et ogoandsear
chTasha'
smom
housemaybet hey'l
lfi
ndt
heUSBthereIr
atherki
ll
herthangot oj
ail.

Me:
"Di
dyougeti
t?"
Canada:
"Bosstheplaceist
ot i
ghtshepl
annedi
t
well
"dammi tubangedthetabl
e
Me:
"DoIpayyout
ogi
vemeexcusedCanada?
"
Canada:
"Noboss"
Me:
"Justdot
hedamnj
ob"
Canada:
"Bosswemi
ghtdi
ether
e"
Me:
"Idon'
tneedf
uckencowar
dsdammi
t!You
bett
ercomebackwi t
hthatfucki
ngUSB! "Ir
oar
ed,I
l
astsawTashayesterdaysheleftwit
hLuluIam so
fr
ustrat
edIwon'
tloseeveryt
hingIworkedhardfor
nohowcanTashapl aymel i
kethis

Tasha

_
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___
_

Aft
erdroppi
ngLuluatmymom' shouseIdroveto
Jomo'scri
bri
ghtnowIam wor ri
edaboutgetti
ng
j
usti
ceforTir
o(myboyfri
end)Idon'
tcarei
fheki l
ls
me.Igotoutofthecarandrantohisdoor.

Me:
"Jomopl
easeopen"Ishout
ed
Jomo:Heopenedthedoorshi
rt
less,
Iwaswearinga
blackcoatwi
thnot
hingunder
neath"Tashawhatar
e
youdoingher
e"
Me:
"Pl
easedon'
tcal
lhi
m pl
ease"
Jomo:
"What
'swr
ong"heaskedwi
thaconcer
ned
voi
ce
Me:
"Heki
ll
edherJomoandnowhe'
saccusi
ngme
oft
ryi
ngt
obri
nghim down"
Jomo:
"Buti
t'
str
uebossl
ady"
Me:
"NowhywouldIdot
hattoevent
hinkIpl
anned
t
heromant
icdi
nnerf
orus,
hekill
edmymom"
Jomo:"
Iam sosor
ry"Icri
ed,
hepull
edmeint
oahug
Igott
hechancetokisshi
m hepushedme
Me:
"ComeonIneedt
hispl
easur
e"
Jomo:
"NoIam notgoi
ngt
obet
raymyboss"
Me:"
Cuttheactai
n'tyout
ir
edofbeingor der
ed
ar
ound?Calli
ngsomeoneyourageboss?Runni ng
er
randsforsomeone?Ineedthi
splease,Iwon'
ttel
l
hi
mi ti
sgoingtobeourli
tt
lesecr
etplease"
Jomo:
"Notawor
dtohi
m"
Me:"Mymout hisshut"hesmil
edandpull
edmef or
akiss,Ij
umpedonhi m heputmeonhi swai
stand
l
edt hekisst
ohisbedr oom,
whent hi
ngwere
heatingupIgotthechancetostabhi
m 5ti
mesin
hi
schest
.

Don'tj
udgeinorderf
ort
heplantowor kIhadtokil
l
Jomohi sri
ghthandman!Hewon' tbeabletodo
thi
ngsonhisownaf t
ert
hatIcl
earedeverythi
ngthat
mightleadbacktomeanddrovebackt omymom' s
house.

Mom:"
OhhmyGodbabywhyt
her
e'ssomuchbl
ood
i
nyourcoat
"
Me:
"Not
hingmom,
whyar
eyousoj
umpy"
Mom:"Gunshot
swereexchangedher
etasha.
What
'sgoingonbabygir
l?"
Me:
"Not
hingmom"
Mom:"Don'
ttel
lmeit
'snot
hing,
isi
tyourhusband?
Whatdidyoudothi
stime?
Me:
"Mom i
t'
snot
hingwher
e'sLul
u?"
Mom: "
she'
ssleepi
ngIhadt
ogiveherwat
erwi
th
sugartocal
m downherner
ves"
Me:
"Okay,
don'
topenupf
oranyonemom"
Mom:
"Iwont
"

Iwentt
omyr
oom f
oundmybabyl
ayi
ngonmybed.

Me:"
Iam doingthisf
oryoumyl ove"Ibr
ushedher
back"Ipromiseoncethisisoverwewi l
lst
artover
j
ustthetwoofuswi t
houtanydr amaokaymommy
l
ovesyoubaby.Iwasdi sturbedbymyphone
ri
ngi
ngitwasLi zo

Me:
"HeyLi
zo"
Li
zo:
"Jomoi
sdead,
areyout
heonet
hatki
ll
edhi
m?
Me:
"Nowhyt
hinkofme?
"Wownewst
ravelf
ast
Li
zo:
"Yes,t
her
ewasagunshotexchangi
ngher
eat
mymom' shouse"
Me:
"Dammi
t,anyonehur
t?"
Li
zo:
"Nobutt
heygotmymom'
sar
m si
nceshewas
out
side"
Me:
"Wher
eisshenow?
"
Li
zo:
"she'
sadmi
tt
ed"
Me:
"Dammi
tLi
zogoandf
etchyourmom now"
Li
zo:
"whatdoyoumean"
Me:"Dammitt
hatwassolowofyoudon'taskany
questi
onsgoandtakeyourmom Li
zohurry"

Li
zo
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__

Tasha'
scal
llef
tmewonderi
ngohhnowhatifhe
ki
dnappedmymom Ipushednoxol
oli
ght
ly

Me:
"Noxol
oIhavet
ogot
ohospi
talf
ast
"
Noxol
o:"
What
'
sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:
"It
hinkBonesmi
ghtgoandki
dnapmom or
wor
sekillher
"
Noxol
o:"
What
!"Shehal
fshout
ed
Me:
"Let
'sgo"

Wedr ovefastt
ohospit
al.Iwast
ednotimeI
i
mmedi at
elywenti
nsi
deonlytobemetbya
str
etcherpushi
ngsomeonewho' sbodywas
covered.

Me:
"Hey"
Nur
se:
"Si
rIam sor
rybutwehavet
ogett
hewomen
t
othef
orensi
cstoseewhatki
ll
edher
"
Me:
"OkayIam her
eforSar
ahZwaneshe'
smy
mom"
Nurse:"
Goandaskatt
her
ecept
ion"doct
or
di
sturbedus
Doc:"
Isthatt
hewomenwhowasboughther
e
becauseofherar
m"

Mybl
oodst
art
edt
oboi
lcoul
ditbemymom no!I
knowwewer enotinspeaki
ngtermsbutnoi
tcan'
t
behershecan'
tdiewhowi l
lIl
ivewi
th?

Me:
"CanIpl
easeseeher
"myvoi
cewassoscr
atch
Noxol
o:"
PleaseLi
zoi
t'
snotyourmom"
Me:"
PleasecanIseeher"theypul
lofft
hecover
i
ndeeditwasmymom shel ooksopalewit
hher
bi
rt
hmar konherforehead,Noxol
orubbedmyarm
Noxol
o:"
It
'sgoi
ngt
obeokay"
Me:
"Whatki
ll
edher
"myvoi
cewassol
ow,
losi
nga
mom i
ssopainf
ul
Doc:
"Wedon'
tknow,butherneckgotbr
uiseswhi
ch
meanssomeonestr
angledher"
Me:
"CanIseeyourf
oot
age"
Doc:"
Iti
snotgoi
ngtobepossi
blesir
,weareonl
y
al
lowedtoshowfoot
agetothepol
iceonl
y"
Me:"Mymom waski
lledint
hishospi
tal
!Whatyou'
re
t
ell
ingmeisbul
lshi
t"Iroar
ed
Doc:
"Wear
egoi
ngt
oexami
neyourmot
her
'sbody
si
r"
Theypushedherout

Noxol
o

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__

SeeingLi zothatbrokenbr
oughtbackmemories
thatIlongbur i
edIr emember
edhowIl ostmymom
hebar el
yt al
kedhi svei
nswerepoppi
ngouthekept
onr ubbingmyt highsandsqueezi
ngthem.

Me:
"NoLizolet
'st
ellTashat
hatwecan'
tcont
inue
wi
ththeplananymore"
Li
zo:
"No!
"
Me:
"Li
zoal
otofpeopl
ewi
llgetki
ll
ed"
Li
zo:
"Iam mot
her
lessbecauseofhi
m"
Me:
"Doyoual
sowantt
oloseme?
"
Lizo:
"Iwon'
tloseyou,
andpl
easel
et'
snottal
kabout
thisagai
nIam notbacki
ngawayIam goi
ng
forwardwit
ht hepl
an"

Wedr
ovehomei
nsi
lence.

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Noxol
o

WhenLi zodroppedthenewsaboutt hepassingof

maZwane.Ever yonecriedevenMrZwanehecr i
ed
whil
etalkingabouthim notsurvi
vingwi t
houthis
wif
e.TheZwanef amilyisnotabigbi gfamil
yit'
s
j
ustLizo,hismom andMrZwanesi nceMr sZwane
passedawayi t'
sjusthim,hi
sstepf ather
,2secur
it
ies,
meandot hermai dsonly,everyonewasdevast at
ed
asformeIknowt hatshedi dnttreatmegoodthese
pastfewdaysbutshedi dn'
tdeser vetodi
ejustli
ke
thatshewasi nnocent
.Bonesi ssoheartl
esswhy
wouldhekillaninnocentwomen.

Tasha
_
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__

TodayIam dri
vingmom toLimpopoI'
vetakena
fewguardstogowithus.Idon'
twanttori
skmy
mom' sl
if
ethiswomansuppor t
edmeineverythi
ng
I'
vedoneshe'smyrocksoI'ddiei
fBoneswast oki
ll
her.

Mom:"
Idon'
tunder
standwhyIhavet
ogot
o
Li
mpopo"
Me:
"Youhavet
omom oryou'
l
ldi
e"
Mom:"Iam notscaredofBones"l
astni
ghtIt
oldher
what
'sgoingon,Itoldherever
ythi
ngsheevengave
meideasofwhattodoinor
dert
odef
eatBones
shesmypart
nerincri
me.
Me:
"Iam notgoi
ngt
ori
skyourl
if
emom"
Mom:
"Whydi
dyoumar
ryt
hatdogi
nthef
ir
stpl
ace"
Me:"
YouknowIwaspr egnantmom,
Idon'
twantmy
babytohavesepar
atedparent
s"
Mom:"
NowIhavet
ogot
oLi
mpopoandbebur
ntby
t
hesun"
Me:"
Stopbei
ngdr
amat
icmom youdr
oveupt
her
e
bef
ore"
Mom:
shesmi
led"
It
'snott
hesame"
Me:
"I
t'
sthatal
lyourbags?
"
Mom:
"Yes"
Mom:
"Wher
e'sLul
u?"
Me:
"Iam l
eavi
ngherbehi
ndwi
thhernanny"
Mom:
"Ar
eyousur
e?Whati
fheki
dnapsher
?"
Me:
"Hewon'
tmom andIam goi
ngbackt
oday"
Mom:
"Hawusoyouai
n'tgoi
ngt
osl
eepf
orone
ni
ght
"
Me:"
Nomom Ial
sohavet
ogoandseehowLi
zo
andNoxol
oar
ecopi
ng"
Mom:
"Iunder
stand"

Thedr i
vet
oLimpopowasnotthatl
ongwi
thmom
tal
kingnonst
op.Il
eftt
heguar
dsbehindt
oprot
ect
mom

WhenIcamebackIdr ovestr
aighttoLi
zo'
shouse
therewaschur
chladi
esIam gladthatIwas
wear i
ngamaxiwhit
edress.Ij
usttookadoekand
foldedmyheadasasignofrespectandwenti
nside.
Luckil
yImetNoxoloonmywayi n

Me:
"Hey"
Noxol
o:"
Ithoughtyouwer
ecomi
ngt
ommor
ow"
Me:"
Iknowi
t'
slat
ebutIhadt
o"Ihuggedher"
how'
s
Li
zo?"
Noxol
o:"
Hei
snotopeni
ngupTasha"
Me:
"Comel
et'
sgoandchi
llout
side"
Noxol
o:"
Iwasgoi
ngt
ogett
eaf
ort
hechur
chl
adi
es"
Me:
"ohhl
etmehel
pyou"

Wewentt
omaket
eaaf
tert
hatwewentout
side

Me:
"Iam sorr
yaboutyourl
ossNoxol
oIdi
dn'
tknow
hewoul
dki l
lher
"
Noxol
o:"
It
snotyourf
aul
t,youdi
dyourpar
titwas
f
ate"
Me:
"Iknowbutshedi
dn'
tdeser
vet
odi
eli
ket
hat
"
Noxol
o:"
Youcan'
tcont
rolever
ythi
ngTashai
twas
hert
ime"
Me: "
Okaytake"IgavehertheUSB"it
'st
hel
ast
placehe'
sgoingt olooki
ntopromi
semeyouwil
l
keepitsaf
e"
Noxol
o:"
Areyousur
e?"
Me:"
Yesdon'teventel
lLi
zoaboutthis,hel
ovesyou.
Heevenri
skedhi smom'sli
febyhelpingyoumeet
hi
m hal
fway"
Noxol
o:"
ThankyouI
'
llkeept
hissaf
e"
Me:"
I'
llcomebackt
ommor
owt
ohel
pwi
tht
he
baki
ng"
Noxolo:
"Wearebur
yingheronFriday"t
odayitwas
Tuesday"hesokeenaboutbreakingBonesIdon'
t
knowanymore"
Me:Ismil
ed"
Don'
twor
rythesoonerthebet
terwe
getdonewit
hthi
sal
lwil
lbealr
ight
"
Noxol
o:"
Okay"

West
oodupandj
oinedt
hepr
ayer
.

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Noxol
o

TodayisFridaywear eburyingMazwane,herbody
wil
lbeheretodaysinceshewasshot .Sheisnot
supposedtogetinsi
dethehouset heysayitbr
ings
badluckinthefamil
y.Pit
yt hey'
rebur
yingherhere
atJoburg

Me:
"Iwi
llbebyyoursi
det
hewhol
eday"
Li
zo:"
Doyouwanttogowi t
hmetothe
hospi
tal
?"t
hat
'swher
ethey'
regoi
ngtocol
lecther
spi
ri
t
Me:
"Iam notf
ami
lyLi
zo"
Li
zo:
"Youwer
eherwor
kercomeon"
Me:
"Noj
ustgowi
tht
hef
ami
lyyou'
l
lfi
ndmeher
e"
Li
zo:
"Il
oveyouokay"
Ismi
led
Hewentout ,Isl
eptinhisr
oom yester
daysincehe
wasn'tokaywhent hefami
lyar
rivehewasso
emotionalyouknowhowf amil
iesaretheywer e
gi
vinghimt hepit
ylookandhedoesn'tlovethat.
Ohhal sohisfat
her'
sfamil
ycamet hatmadehi m
happy.

Anywayaftert
hefami
lyl
efttofet
chmaZwane' s
spi
ri
tIwenttomaketeafortheel
dersitwasaround
6theser
viceisgoi
ngtostar
tathalfpastseven.

Tashacameandhel
pedme.

Tasha:
"How'
sLi
zo?
"
Me:
"He'snotokayIdon'
twannal
iehe'
shi
dinghis
emot
ionsbutyester
dayhewaski
ndaemotional
"
Tasha:
"hol
dont
ohi
m babei
twi
llbeal
ri
ghtt
hiswi
ll
bl
owover "
Me:
"Ij
ustcan'
twai
ttoseeBonesi
npr
ison"
Tasha:
"Yeaht
hat
'swhenI
'
llst
artt
oenj
oyl
if
ewi
th
mybaby"
Me:"Buthowdoyouf
eel
aboutsendi
ngyourbaby'
s
daddytojai
l"
Tasha:
"Nothi
ngIdon'
tfeelathi
ngforhi
m.Bonesis
amonsterIknowhe'sl
ookingformewhereeverhe
i
s.He'saft
ertheUSBandmybl ood"
Me:
"Whydon'
twel
eavet
his?Wel
ost1l
iveal
ready"
Tasha:
"Noi
ttookmemont
hst
opl
ant
hisIam not
backi
ngout
"
Me:
"Don'
tbl
ameagi
rlf
ort
ryi
ng"
Tasha:
"Ar
eyouget
ti
ngcol
dfeetal
ready?
"
Me:
"No"

Weheardpeopl
esingi
ngwhichmeanstheyare
backweal
sowentoutsideMazwanewasnota
chur
chpersonshewasnotint
ochurcht
hings
Iwenttositwi
thTashaatt
hetent
,Li
zowasatt
he
fr
ontthat
'swaswherefami
lywasseati
ng.

Seeingherpict
ureont het
abl
ethatwaspl
acedwel
l
nexttothecasketwassodevastati
ngwhoever
boneshiredi
sheartlesshowcanhekil
lanol
d
womenwhodoesn' tknowanyt
hing.

Theser vicewentonevenLi zowentt osayf ew

thingshi smot her'ssi st
erwentwi thhi mt othe
standsi ncehewasn' tstrongenought ogoal onehis
wor dswer esohear tbreakinghespokeabouthi m
nothavi ngmot her-sonr elati
onshipandher egretsit
hef eel
sl ikeit
'shisf aultthathermom di edthatway.
Hiswor dsgotal otofpeopl esobbingevenMr
Zwanewascr ying, herpi ctureonthepr ogram was
sobeaut i
fulevenherbi rthmar kmadehermor e
beaut i
fulanywayaf tertheser vi
cewewentt othe
graveyar dsandl aidhert oherf i
nalr est
ingplacei t
washear tbreakingt hat'
swher eal otofpeopl ewere
cryingIwasbusybr ushingLi zo'
sback
Me:
"Wi
llyoubeabl
etodr
ivebackhome?
"
Li
zo:hecl
earedhi
sthr
oat"
Umm Idon'
tknowIj
ust
..
wanttogohomeand..
"hesi
ghed
Me:"
It
'sokayLizokuhl
eI'
l
ldr
ive,
comel
et'
sgoback
si
nceeveryt
hingisdoneher
e
Li
zo:
"Sur
e"

Wedr ovebackhomeLizowentt
ohi sroom t
orestI
alsowenttodishupf
orelder
sandsoal lwhenIgot
thechanceIwenttomakefoodforLizohemustbe
hungry

Me:
"Li
zo,
wakeuphavesomef
ood"
Li
zo:
"Idon'
tfeell
ikeeat
ing"
Me:
"Pl
easekuhl
eatl
easthave5spoonsI
'
llbegl
ad"
i
twassampwi t
hporkandgreensal
ad
Li
zo:hesi
ghedhesatupstrai
ghtInot
icedhewas
huggi
nghi
smom' sdress"
Imissher"
Me:
"I
t'
sokayIknowt
hef
eel
ingi
twi
llbeal
ri
ght
"
Li
zo:"
Idon'
tthi
nkI'
l
leverr
ecoverf
rom t
his,
IknowI
hat
edherbut..
."
Me:"Youwil
lrecoverf
rom t
his,
youdidr
ecoverf
rom
yourdad'
sdeathandyouraunty's"
Li
zo:
"I
'l
ltr
y"Inoddedandlef
thi
mtoeati
npeace
wi
thoutmedistur
binghi
m"

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_

Bones

Theygotmewhentheyki
ll
edJomo.Iwillal
ways
rememberhi
m hewasmyloyalr
ighthandman

Thisf
ighti
tisgoi
ngtobealotformeImeanIdon' t
evenhaveasomeonewhom It rustt
odothejobfor
meallIhavetodonowist
ot raceTasha'
severy
move.Iwanttogi
veherapainfuldeathwhoi
sshe
toplayme?Shemustbeoutofhermi ndnobodyI
meannoonedoubl ecr
ossesBones.Maybei fIcan
gettheUSBIgetTashawhensheleastexpectesitI
won'tbegoingt
ojai
lnotnownotanyti
mesoonno!
I'
vegotmyment ogoandsearchTasha'splace
shootever
yonewhoisthere

Tasha

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___
__

ImadeagoodmovewhenIsentmom t oLimpopo
ri
ghtnowIam wor r
iedaboutLul uIleftherwithher
nannywhenIwent t
ot hef uneral
.Ihadtogot here
show myr especttomypar tner
s.WhenIar ri
vedat
myplaceeverythingwasamessImeandead
bodi
esaroundInot iceanot eontopoft het
able"
Yourdayiscomi ngNat ashaZulu"fuckhim befor
eI
knowitt
hepol i
cest ar
t edtocomei n.
Pol
ice1:"
Werecei
vedacompl
ainaboutgunshot
s
bei
ngfir
edint
hishouse"
Me:"
Yesi
t'
str
ue,youcanseethosef
uckenpeopl
e
ki
ll
edmyguardsIam notsaf
eanymore"
Poli
ce1:"
Wewi
llhavet
otur
nthi
spl
acet
oacr
ime
scene"
Me:
"Ar
eyoucr
azy?Wher
ewi
llsl
eep?
"
Pol
ice2:
"Youcanbooki
ntoal
odgeorhot
el"
Me:
"Fuck!
"

Icursedheplannedi tgoodheknewver ywellt

hat
thepoli
cewil
lt urnmypl aceintocrimescenewhich
meanshewi llstartt
olookf ormeathot el
sthat
's
notwhereIam goi ngtosleep.Wor seheknowsall
myf ri
endsFuck!Whydi dn'
tIthinkofthi
satthefi
rst
place.

Thepoli
ceplacedayellowtapeandleftf
ew
minut
eslaterpar
amedicscameIpackedan
over
nightbagforforusI'
l
lsleepatl
ulu'
snanny'
s
pl
acet
hat
'st
hel
astpl
acehewi
lll
ook.

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Tasha

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___

It'
sbeenafewdayssinceLi
zo'
smom funer
al,
Boneshasbeenquitehehasn'
tmadeanymoveyet
Ithinkhehasgi
venupanywaytodaywearetaki
ng
theUSBt oLi
zo'
sstepdad'
sMr.Zwane.

Me:"Heyareyoual
lready"Iwasonacallwit
h
Noxolo,
Itol
dthem t
omeetmeatt hepol
icest
ati
on
Noxol
o:"
Yes"
Me:"
Okaydon'
tfor
gettobri
ngt
heUSBI
'
llcome
wi
thcodesandi
nformati
on"
Noxol
o:"
besaf
e"

Idr
oppedthecal
landt
ookmybah, Lul
uwassti
ll
asl
eepwit
hhernannyIam sur
etheywil
lbeawake
whenIcomeback.

WhenIwasaboutt oopenmydoor ,Isawfiveblack

USV carsstopbythegate,
Bonesgotoffthecar
withhi
sguardstheywereholdi
nggunsIam t alki
ng
aboutAK-47.It
ri
edtorunbackint
ot hehousebutI
fel
tasti
ngingpaini
nmyl egdamnheshotme.I
tri
edtost
andupbuti twastool
atebecauseIf elt
somethi
ngonmyneckandi twasli
ghtsout.

Noxol
o
_
___
___

Idi
dgoodbymaki ngmor ecopi
esoftheUSB(aft
er
mazwane'sf uner
alIgott
hechancetogoandmake
copiesusi
ngt heli
tt
lemoneyIhad)andcodes
becauserightnowwe'vebeenwait
ingforTashaf
or
l
ike30mi nutesbutshe'
snotshowingup.

Li
zo:"
Let
'sgobackasyoucanseeTashai
snot
showi
ngup"
Me:"
Wel
llet
'sgoi
nsi
dewi
thouther
"
Li
zo:"
Anddowhatdon'
tfor
getwedon'
thavet
he
USB"
Me:"
Ohhr
eal
ly"It
ooki
touti
nmybag
Li
zo:"
Wowwher
edi
dyougett
hat
"
Me:"
Wel
lagi
rldoesn'
tki
ssandt
ell
"Ismi
led
Li
zo:"
Let
'sgoi
nsi
det
hen"
Wewenti
nsi
det
hest
ati
on.Wewal
kedt
oMr
.Zwane.

Mr
.Zwane:"
Hey,
youcame"
Li
zo:"
Yeswewantedtogiveyout
hewhol
e
i
nfor
mati
onaboutBones"
Mr
.Zwane:"
Wowr
eal
ly"
Lizo:"
Yesdad"Isawasmi
lef
ormedi
nMr
.Zwane'
s
l
ips

Mr.Zwane:"
Okay,
comel
et'
sgot
omyof
fi
ceand
t
alkther
e"
Li
zo:"
Wear
einahur
ry"
Mrzwane:
"Iwon'
ttaket
oomuchofyourt
imeguys"
Li
zo:
"Okay"

Wef
oll
owedhi
mtohi
sof
fi
ce.

Mrzwane:"
Let
'sgetj
ust
icef
ormywi
fe"
Me:"
Yessi
r"

Hei
nser
ttheUSB

Mr.Zwane:"
Viol
a"heshothi
sfi
tsupshowi
ngt
hat
he'
shappy
Li
zo:"
thi
sguyi
sdanger
ousIsal
utehi
m"
Me:"Sohe'straf
fi
cki
ngi
nnocentgi
rl
swhodon'
t
knowanything"
Li
zo:"
Yep,
sowhenwi
llyoudot
hear
rest
?"
MeZwane:"SinceIam thecaptai
noft
hisst
ationI'
ll
havetokeepquietaboutt
hissomepol
iceof
ficers
mightbeworki
ngf orhi
m here"
Li
zo:"
Wow"

Aft
erdroppi
ngof
ftheUSBwer
etur
nedhomeand
cel
ebrat
e.
Bones

_
___
___

TodayIam goi
ngt
oteachTashaal
essonI
'
lldot
he
j
obonmyown.

Me:"
Canadawakeherup"
Canada:"Sur
eboss"het ookabucketf
ullofwater
andsplashedital
loverherface,
shegaspedforair
"
Me:"
Heywi f
ey"shelookedatmewi
thcol
deyes
"
Youain'
tscared?Isee"
Tasha:"
Shesmil
ed"
Don'
twor
ryBoneswear
egoi
ng
downtoget
her
"
Me:"
Ohhr
eal
ly?
Tasha:"YesasIam speaki
ngt
heyar
ebusy
organi
zingyourar
rest
"shesmil
ed
Me:Igavehert
hehot
testsl
ap
Tasha:"
Andt
hissi
de"shegavemeanot
hercheek
tosl
ap
Me:"
Roughherup"

Itookaseatandsi
ppedmyexpansivewhiskey
whileIwat
chedtheshow.Theyexchangedshot
s
andkickswit
hhershewasgroaninginpai
n.

Me:"
Wher
e'st
heUSB?
"
Tasha:shelaughed"
Idon'tknow"Iki
ckedherface
shefel
lwiththechai
r"pi
ckherup,sti
lldoesn'
twant
total
k?"
Tasha:"
Iwon'
ttel
lyouat
hingBones"
Me:"
Okay,
bri
ngi
nLul
u"
Tasha:"
Nonodon'
tki
llmybabypl
ease"
Me:"
wher
e'st
heUSB"
Tasha:"
I'
llt
ellyouj
ustdon'
tki
llmychi
ld"
Me:"
Wher
eiti
s?"Ir
oar
ed
Tasha:"
Inmygar
den"
Me:"
Canadagoandcheckbef
astpl
ease"
HewentoutIleftwi
thTashashewasshi
ver
ingi
n
col
dthi
sroom iscol
d

Tasha:"
soyouwer
egoingtokil
lmychi l
d?"She
l
ookedsobadwit
hbloodinherfacebutstil
l,she
putonthebr
avef
ace.Whil
eIwasati tChicken
bri
ngsLului
n.

Lul
u:"
Mommy"shescr
eamedandwentt
oher
Tasha:"Babymommyl ovesyouokay, don't
disappointmeI '
l
ldomybestt oleaveyouwi t
h
somet hingokaybaby,respectyourgrandmot her
andf i
nishschoolandbet hepersonyouwantt obe
whenyougr owupokay, eventhoughIwon' tbe
theretoseeyougr aduatebutmyspi ri
twillal
ways
bewi t
hyoupr incess"
Lul
u:"Ipr
omi
seMommy,
whyar
eyousayi
ngal
lof
thi
s?"
Tasha:"
Doyour
emembert
he7bst
hatIt
aughtyou"
Lul
u:"Booksbefor
eboysbecauseboysbr
ing
babi
es.Ofcourse,Idomom"
Tasha:"
Goodgir
l"Iam def
ini
tel
ygoi
ngtoki
llher
whodoesshethinksheistobetr
ayme

WhenIwasbusypuffi
ngmyci
garIrecei
vedacal
l
fr
om theot
herdudewho'
swor
kingf
ormei nsi
det
he
poli
ce

Me:"
Tal
ktome"
Hi
m:"Bossyourex-
gir
lf
ri
endwasher
ewi
thzwane'
s
ki
d"
Me:"
so?
"
Hi
m:"
Ihear
dthem t
alki
ngaboutar
rest
ingyou"
Me:"
What
,st
ealt
heUSB"
Hi
m:"
Hel
ockshi
sof
fi
cewhenhegoeshome"
Me:"
Idon'
tcar
ejustmakesur
eyougett
hatUSB!
"
Hi
m:"
Sur
eboss"

Dammi
t

Me:"
Soyoul
iedt
omeTashadammi
twomen"
Tasha:"YouaregoingdownBone'
sandt
hist
imeno
onewillsaveyou"
Me:"
Justst
opi
tokay!
"Ishout
ed
Tasha:"
Youhavedemons"Ist
art
edtopaceupand
downscreami
ngforhert
oshoutuo

Lulu:"
mommymakehi m st
opmom!
"Shewas
cryi
nguncont
rol
labl
e
Tasha:"
It
'sokaybaby"
Me:"shutupwomen"Ical
ledCanadat
ocomeback
Tashali
edtomeagain

Me:"
yout
akemef
oraf
ool
,Igaveyouachancet
o
tel
lmewhere'sthefuckenUSBbutyoul
iedt
ome.
Chickent
ieherupsi
de-down"

Het ookaropeandt iedherIam goingtokillheri

n
frontofherdaughtershewillnotdi
ei npeace.I
knowLul uismychi l
dbutIwanthert odi
eknowi ng
thatherdaughtersawherbei ngkil
led.

Itookaknifeandtearhercl
othes,
tookakni fe
shoveittoherpussyholeIf
uckedherwi thakni f
e
unti
lshediedanddisposedherbodyi nsi
det he
fl
esh-eat
ingacid,
Luluwastakentot hehospital
becauseshewasshaki nganddroppingsalivaout
ofhermout h,
shewassof uckentraumatized

Tobecont
inued

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keshar
eandcomment
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Noxol
o
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Af
terdroppi
ngtheUSBwewentt
othemal
lof
Af
rica,
Lizosai
dhe'
staki
ngmeout.

Me:"
Dudewecan'tcel
ebratet
odaywef
ir
sthavet
o
makesur
ethathe'
sreal
lyinpri
son"
Lizo:"
IknowbutIcan'
thol
dmysel
fI'
m soexci
ted,
thatguykil
ledmymom soIhavet
ocelebr
atehi
s
downfall
"
Me:Il
aughed"Iam gl
adt
hisi
sal
lover
"

Whil
eIwastal
kingt
oLi
zomyphonedi
stur
bedme,
i
twasanunknownnumber

Me:"
Hel
lo"
Kat:"
Hey,
Noxol
oit
'sKat
"wherethef
uckdidshe
getmynumberandwhatdoesshewantf
rom me
Me:"
HeyKathowcanIhel
pyou"
Kat
:"Gi
rlyoudi
sappear
edonme"
Me:
"Okay"
Kat:"
Anywayl
etmegetstr
aightt
othepoi
nt,
Bones
askedmetocal
lyou"Ir
oll
edmyeyes"
Me:"
So"
Kat:"
Doyouwantt obeaslayqueenagain?Hetol
d
met omakeanofferforhi
m,R5mi l
li
onforyouto
di
sappearwi
thoutatracehesai
dyoumustf ir
st
handhimtheUSB"
Me:"
Ohhhr
eal
ly?
"
Kat
:"Yeshegotaver
yi mport
antf
uncti
ontoat
tend
t
omor r
owyoucangowi thhi
m andtel
lthewor
ld
t
hatyou'r
ebackt
ogetherordi
sappear
"
Me:"
CanIpl
easet
hinkaboutt
his?
"
Kat
:"Okay,
I'
llcal
lyout
omor
rowmor
ning"
Me:
"Okay"
Idr
oppedt
hecal
landchuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
ief

Li
zo:"
What
'sup?Whyar
eyoul
aughi
ngal
one?
"
Me:"Canyoubel
ieveBonesmadeanoff
erf
ormet
o
handhimtheUSBhesaidhewillgi
vemeR5
mil
li
on"
Lizo:herai
sedhi
slef
teyebr
ow"Ihopeyouai
n't
reconsi
deri
ngit
"
Me:"
Whatno!
"
Li
zo:"
Okayst
ellhi
mtogot
ohel
l"

Ikeptthinki
ngwhydon'tIplayhi
m athi
sowngame?
MaybeIcanaskhi mt ogivemeallhi
slegal
businessesbutno!Ipr
omi sedmymom tomakeher
proudandImustwor khard.

Me:
"Li
zot
urn"
Li
zo:"
Whydoyoumean?
"
Me:"
Let
'sgohomeandr
est
,Iam t
ir
ed"
Li
zo:"
Soyoudon'
twantt
ocel
ebr
ateanymor
e?"
Me:"
Yest
urn"

Hemadeaut ur
nandwentbackhomethedr
ive
wasn'
tthatl
ong.Whenwearri
vedwefoundMr
zwaneinthel
oungehewasbowinghi
sheaddown
onhishands

Li
zo:"
You'
reear
lyt
oday"
MrZwane:"
TheUSBismi
ssi
ng"her
aisedhi
shead,
hi
seyesweresor
ed
Li
zo:"
Whatdoyoumeant
heUSBi
smi
ssi
ngdammi
t
Bones"
Me:"
Sowear
ebackt
osquar
eone?
"
Mrzwane:"
Ihat
etot
ellyout
hisbutguyslet
'sgi
ve
upt
here'
snouseinf
ighti
ngalosi
ngbatt
le"
Li
zo:"NoIam notgoi
ngtogiveupnotnowl
etme
cal
lTasha"hetookhi
sphoneanddial
edTasha'
s
numberseveralt
imes"she'
snotpi
cki
ngup"hewas
paci
ngupanddown"
Me:"Cal
m downLi
zoshe'
l
lcal
lyouwhensheget
sa
chance"
Li
zo:"
Fuckt
hatIam goi
ngt
oherhouse"
Me:"
Noi
t'
snotsaf
e"
Li
zo:"
Ineedj
ust
icef
ormymom Noxol
odon'
ttel
l
meshit"
Me:"
Wow"

Istoodupandwentt omyroom,I
'
llgi
vehi
mthe
copywhenhe'saloneIwanthimt
omakethear
rest
wit
houtLizoknowinganyt
hing

Bones

_
___
___
_
Me:"
Whatdi
dshesay?
"
Kat
:"Shewi
llt
hinkabouti
t"
Me:"Okay,pl
easegoandpickupmyt uxedoatt
he
ai
rport
"Iboughtatuxedoover
seasthatI
'l
lbe
weari
ngTomor rowIwanttomakeagood
appear
ancetherewil
lbepaparazzi
andsoall

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___
___
___

Zodwa

Aft
erbeingar r
estedBonesmanagedtogetbothof
usoutofjailbuthegavemeasext apeofNoxolo
andsomeguyi nthetoi
let
,het
oldmetopostit
whenhedi esorwhensomet hi
nghappenstohim.
Hejustwant stomakeNoxolo'
sli
feali
vinghel
lI
al
sowanthert ostr
uggl
eforwhatshedidtome.
Noxol
o

WhenLizolef
ttohi
scr
ibIwenttocooksampand
beansi
ttookme2hoursaft
erthatIdi
shedupf
or
MrZwane.

Me:"
Her
e'syourdi
nnersi
r"
Hi
m:"ThankyouNoxol
oyou'
regodsenti
ndeed"I
l
aughed
Me:"Umm Si
rIwantedtotel
lyouthatI
'vegot
copi
esoft
heUSBt hatBonesstol
e"Isawhismood
l
ight
enup
Hi
m:"
wher
eisi
t?"
Me:"here"Igavehi
m" butyoumustnott el
lanyone
aboutthis,
Tomorrowt her
e'sabigfunct
ionthat
BonesishostingIwantyout obargeinwhenhe'si
n
themiddleofhisspeech"
Hi
m:"
ThankyouNoxol
oI'
l
ldot
hatt
hankyousi
s"
Me:"
youwel
comel
etmegoandsl
eep"
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Noxol
o

IwaswokenupbyLizobangi
ngmydoor
,Iqui
ckl
y
gotupandopenedt
hedoor.

Me:"
Heywhat
'sup?
"Hewasbr
eat
hingf
ast
Li
zo:"
I.
."
Me:"Okaybr
eat
hinandout"Iusedmyhandst
o
di
recthi
m"Youcant
alknow"
Li
zo:"Youwon'
tbel
i
evet
his"hewashol
dinga
newspaper
Me:"
Comei
nbutdon'
tmi
ndt
hemess"
Li
zo:"
Tashai
sdeadBoneski
ll
edher
"
Me:"whatdoyoumeanTasha'
sdead?
"Hegaveme
thenewspaperi
tsai
dshe'
smissi
ngnoonehas
seenher
Me:"She'
snotdeadLi
zoshe'
sjustmi
ssi
ngand
besi
destheywil
lfi
ndher
"
Li
zo:"Imanagedtobri
beanyaopeboywho's
worki
ngforBonessincehi
sri
ght-
handmandied,
he'
stryi
ngtopoli
shCanadabutIbri
bedhi
m,he
confi
rmedit
"
Me:"
Woahhe'
scomi
ngf
orus"
Li
zo:"
Weai
n'tgi
vingupokay"
Me:"
Ineedtot
akeaf
astshowerr
ightnow,
what
t
imeisi
t?"
Li
zo:
"8o'
cl
ock"
Me:
"Okay"

Hewentoutandlef
tme.It
ookafastshowerand
wor
eablackdresswit
hpumps.Iam at
tendi
ngthe
functi
onint
hisIwantt
oseehi
sfacewhent
hey
arresthi
m.

Iwentoutbor rowedairtimeusingmyNoki aphone

andcal l
edacabIam gl adthatIsavedthei
rnumber.
Iwentt othefuncti
onwel lyouallknowBonesis
wellknownandadanger ouspersontherewere
securit
iesalloverbutImanagedt osneakinusing
theemer gencydoor.Thef uncti
onwasaboutt o
star
t,Iwentt ogetajuicefrom awaitr
esswhowas
passingbyandkeptmysel fbusy.

Thefuncti
onwasgoi ngwelli
twast
imef
orBones
tosayhisspeecheveryonewasget
ti
ngr
eadyt
o
hearwhathe'sabouttosay.

Bones:Hewasaccompani edbyKatandhi sthree

guardsIwonderwher ehegotthem "Greeti
ngstoall
ofyou?You'llknowmesoIwon' tgetintotoomuch
i
nfoaboutwhoIam wel l
..
."Thecrowdcl aphands
forhim "t
hisfunct
ionisaboutcouragi
ngor phans
tobebetterpeopleIwould'
veaskedthem t
oallow
met ohostitatt
heor phanagebutIam abusyman
soIforgot"hechuckledbloodyfool
ish"
okayletme
getdownt obusiness

•Tel
lthem t
heyarei
nasafepl
acewher
etheywi
ll
betakencareofandbegr
atef
ulf
ort
hat.

•Askt
hem totakeini
ti
ati
veinl
if
etosucceedand
becomegreatrolemodelswhocanhel
pot herki
ds
becomebetterpeopl
e.

•Quotestor
iesthatmeanalott
ot hem,thatwi
ll
encouragetheotherki
dstofur
therthei
rstudi
esand
beli
eveinthei
rdreams."

Therewerekidsatt
heVI
Psect
ionIguesst
hey'
re
theorphans
Hetur
nsint
ot hi
ski
ndofhar
mlesssel
fl
essper
son
ar
oundpeople.

Hetoldt hem stori

esofhowhegr ewupIthi
nkhe
waslyingwhenhesai dthathegrewuppoorbluh
bl
uh.Af terthat
, hetol
dthem aBuddhast
orythey
weregiggl i
ngtheylookedsohappycameraswere
st
reami nglivevideosandsoall

Hemadet hem realizewhatt hewor l

disabout.
.li
ke
theymightt
hinkthatt hey'
retheonlyonesGodhas
putthr
oughtoughsi tuati
ons.Het oldthem i
t'
snot
theendofthewor ld.Ever yone'sli
feisful
lofups
anddownsandever yonehast ogothroughit
,it
prepar
esonef orther ealwor ld

Throughoutthewhol
espeech,hetol
dthem howt
o
succeedinlif
e,t
obegratef
ulf
orthepeopl
ewho
hel
pt hem andtopr
aiseGodallt
heti
me
Whenhewasaboutt osaysomet
hingMrzwane
cameinwit
hdogsandpol i
cementheywer
eall
wear
ingbul
let
proof
s.

Bones:"Whatt
hefuckisgoingonhere?
"Hisf
ace
waspricel
essheneverthoughthewoul
dbe
embarrassedi
nfr
ontoft hemedial
iket
his

Mrzwane:"BonesBoneswer
ecei
vedat
ip-
offt
hat
youpl
anteddrugsher
e"
Bones:"
Whatareyou,cr
azyGuar
ds!t
hrowt
hem
out
"theyal
lst
oodstil
l
Mr.Zwane:"
her
e'st
hesearchwarr
ant"hegavei
tto
Boneswhowassweati
ng,hisf
oreheadwas
dr
ippi
ngwet

HetookitMr.Zwanet ookhisdogsandt heystart

ed
t
osniffever
ythinguntilt
heystopunderthetable
wherehewasseat ed.Hewentt osearchandfound
t
hem, buthetastedthem toconf
ir
m
Mr .Zwane: "wowMr .Zuluyou'reunderarrestf
or
selli
ngi l
legaldrugs,forframingandkidnapping
Noxol oBhut helezidon'
twor r
yIconvincedhert o
presst hechar gesandf orhumant raf
fi
ckingyoung
gir
lsahhmanyoudi dal otofthi
ngsIevenl ost
count "

Thequest
ioniswhopl
antedthem whi
leIwason
thatamanstooduphelookedli
keNol
wazialot
.

Him:"Youthoughtyouwoul
drapemygi
rlandget
awaywi t
hit?Ohhhboygowell
"wowIwonderwho
herapedIalsostoodup

Me:" I
t'
snowyourt ur
nbabygoandgr eetmyfr
iends
i
nt hereit
'soverf
oryou"healr
eadypeedhispants
hewasevenshaki ngInevert
houghthewouldbe
scaredofpolicet
hemi ght
yBoneswasgoingdown!
Mr .Zwane:"Let'
sgomandon'twast
emyt ime,ohh
alsoyourfri
endZodwaandCanadat hey'
reinj
ail
wai t
ingf
oryoubutt heyar
egoingt
oget2years
sentenceIthink"

WowMr .Zwanedoesn'
tpl
ayIdon'
tevenknowhow
hemanagedtopulli
tof
f

Theypushedhimi
nsi
dethevant
hewhol
ehal
lwas
cel
ebrat
inghi
sdownf
all

Atpol
icest
ati
on

Bones:"
CanIpl
easemakeacal
l"
Mr
.Zwane:"
Okaycomel
et'
sgo"

Bones:hedial
edhi
slawyer
sno."heyMr .Smi
thcan
youpleasecometoPret
ori
aEaststat
ion"
Hi
m:"Wellmanyou'
ret
rendi
ngIsawhowt
hey
ar
rest
edyouit
ssobadbro"
Bones:"
Iknowpl
easecomeandr
epr
esentme"
Him:"Iam sorr
ybutIcan'
tyouusedtobl
ackmail
mesono"hedr oppedt
hecallonhi
m,hecursed
underhisbreat
h

Mr .Zwane:"I
t'
slat
eBonescomelet
'sgotoyourcel
l
there'
snoneedf ormei
nter
rogat
eyouI'vegotal
ot
ofinfor
mat i
onandpeopl
ewhoar ewit
nesses"

Theyleadhimtowherehewasgoi
ngtosl
eept
oo
badforbonesNolwazi
'
sdadpai
dpeoplet
omake
hi
slif
eal i
vinghel
l.

MrZwane:"
geti
n"hepushedhi
m

Theyallcl
appedtheirhandswhent
heysawBones
they'
rebossgeti
nt heyboweddownforhi
m Bones
i
mmedi atelypeedhimselfwhenhesawhim hewas
sobigtattoosalloverhi
sfaceBonesremember
ed
thathe'
stheonet hatsenthi
mt oj
ail

Boss:"
Friendyoufoll
owedme?Ohhshityoupeed
onyourself
?"Theothersl
aughed"
boysdowhatwe
dotonewcomer s"

Theybeathim upandrapedhi
m af
tert
hattheyt
ook
foundat
ionandli
psti
ckanddidmakeuponhim.
Theytorehi
spantsapartandmadeaskir
tforhi
m.

Theygavehi
mthename"
Ourki
tchengi
rl
"

(
Don'
tblameI'
veneverwenttoj
ail
,soI
'
vet
yped
what
evercametomymi nd)

TOBECONTI
NUED
LI
KE,
SHAREANDCOMMENT
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NOXOLO

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i
t'sbeen2mont hssi nceboneswentt ojai
l,hewas
sentenced20year sf orki
dnappingandot her
scandal shedi dasf orZodwashewi l
lbeget ti
ngout
i
nt woyear stocome.Iam j usthappyever yt
hingi s
goingwel li
nmyl ifeIam st i
llamaidatMrzwane' s
house, LizoandIar enowdat i
ng.Iam goingt o
applysot hatIcanf inishmymat ri
catTVETcol l
age.
Well,Kelehasbeensuppor t
ingmet hrought he
wholet hingIam t alkingaboutgoingt ocourtwi t
h
meevenLi zohewast her
ebymysi deandIam
thankfulf orthat
.

Li
zo:"
Babyar
eyousur
ethi
sist
hegr
eatout
fi
t?"
Me:"YesitisgoodandbesideLi
zoyouractionswil
l
speakforyou"aft
erhi
smom' sdeathheactedasif
thewholethingwasn'
thurt
inghi
m, hewoul
dbot t
le
uphisemot i
onsunti
lIt
alkedhimthroughI
'
ve
managedt ogethimtotal
k
Li
zo:"
Yousur
eyou'
l
lbeokayappl
yingonyour
own?"
Me:"
Yes,
Kel
epr
omi
sedt
ocomewi
thme"
Li
zo:"
Okayl
etmegoandnai
lthedealt
hen"
Me:"
Shar
p"
Li
zo:
"Il
oveyou"
Me:" you'
restarti
ng"sincemaZwanepassedawayI
feelbadabouti tIfeell
ikeIam theonewho' s
responsibleforherdeath.Ifeell
ikeIshouldn'
thave
tol
dLi zoaboutmyscandal sIam evenstruggli
ngto
sayIl oveyoutoLi zoIfeell
ikeIam making
maZwanet urninhergr aveImeanshedi dn'twant
met odat ehersonIam t roubli
nghersoulbutwhat
canIsayyoucan' tchoosewhom t olovemyhear t
choosesLi zo"
Lizo:"
tohel
lwi
thmom Noxol
o,"It
oldhi
mthe
reasonwhyIcan'
tsayi
tback
Me:"
Don'
tfor
cemeI
'
llsayi
tonmyown"
Li
zo:
"Fede"

Het ookhisbr
ief
caseandwentout.Wowjustl
ike
thathedidn'
teveneatbr
eakf
astanywayI'
vesetthe
tabl
ef or1per
sonandwenttomybackroom totake
abat hcal
ledacabIwasgoingtomeetkel
eatthe
coll
ege.

Kel
e:"
HeyBubu"
Me:"
How ar
eyoudoi
ngmyf
ri
end?
"
Kel
e:"
Am okaycomeonlet
'sgoandr
egi
stersot
hat
wecancel
ebrat
eaft
ert
his"
Me:"
Wehavet
owai
tfort
hem t
oacceptmef
ir
st"
Kele:"Idon'
tcar
elet'
sgoasl
ongasyou'
ve
regist
ered"Ismi
led
Sheledthewayf ormeIwentt oregi
stert
heygave
meami nitesttowri
teandthankgodI '
vepassedit
whichmeanst hey'
veacceptedme.Aftert
hatthey
gavemeaschoolbag, at-shir
t,andacap.

Afterr
egi
steri
ngIcalledLi
zotolethi
m knowthat
they'
veacceptedmehet ol
dmewear egoingto
haveami nicelebr
ati
onandIcan'twai
t.Iwantto
givehimthebestsex

Kel
e:"
Andt
hewenawhyar
eyousmi
li
ngal
lal
one?
"
Me:"
Iam j
usthappyKel
e"
Kel
e:"
Iam sopr
oudofyouBubu"
Me:"Thankyou,
fri
end,
onceIf
ini
shschoolIam
goi
ngbackhome"
Kel
e:"
Soyou'
regoi
ngt
oleavemeal
lal
oneher
e?"
Me:"I
t'
snotli
ket
hatf
ri
endIj
ustwantt
ofi
x
ever
ythi
ng"
Kel
e:"
I'
mjoki
ngI
'
m goi
ngt
osuppor
tyoui
n
what
everdeci
sionyoumake"
Me:"
Iam sot
hankf
ult
oGodf
orgi
vingmeyou"
Kel
e:"
Iknowyouwon'
tsur
vivewi
thoutme"
Me:"
ComeonKel
eyou'
renotaGod"
Kel
e:"
WowI
'
m hur
t"shegi
ggl
edIj
oinedher

Af
terl
unchwit
hKele,
Iwentbackhomef
oundLi
zo
al
sobackfr
om wor
k

Me:"
Hey,
didyounai
lthedeal
?"
Li
zo:"
Yes"
Me:"Congr
atul
ati
onsthi
sgivesusmorer
easonto
cel
ebrat
e"Iputmyschoolbagontopoft
hetabl
e
andwenttohim
Li
zo:"
Yes"hepeckedmyl
ips
Me:"Letmegoandtakeashowersot
hatwecan
cel
ebrate.I
sMrZwanehome?
Li
zo:"
No"
Me:
"Okay"

Iwentt otakeashoweri
nmyr oom.Whil
eIwas
hummi ngasongonmyownLi zogotint
heshower.
Hecl osedthegl
assdoor.I
nst
antl
y,Iwaspushed
againsttheti
lewi
thli
zo’
shandsonmyhi psandhis
tonguef i
ghti
ngagai
nstmine.
Myf ingerswrappedaroundhispul
singl
engthandI
tookpr i
dewhenIf el
thim moanint
omymout hand
shiveragainstmybody.Ipushedhimint
othewall
andwat chedast hewaterfel
ldownhist
an-t
oned
chest.
Igotdownonmyknees, ignoringthewat ert
hatwas
hitt
ingmyback.Notwast inganyt i
me, Igri
pped
ontot hebaseandgui dedther ed(i
tkindoflooked
l
ikei twasbl ushi
ng)headintomymout h.Thewater
from theshower headandt hespiti
nmymout h
madei tsl
ipperysothatl
izo’sdickeasil
yslid
throughmyt hroat
.Iwasgi vi
nghim abl owjob
“DamnXol
o,”hemoaned,hi
sfinger
sgent
lypull
ing
onmyhead.Icoul
dfeelhi
shipspushi
ngforward,
dri
vinghi sdi
ckf urt
herdownmyt hr
oat.Il
etgoof
thebaseandst art
edtofondlehisball
s,l
ett
inghi
m
controlfucki
ngmyt hr
oat.Befor
eIknewi thewas
mutteringshitIstoppedandgotbackuponmyf eet
.
Li
zo:“
Iwantt
opl
easur
eyounow.
”
Backagainsttheti
ledwallagain,Iwatchedashe
gotonhisknees.Hest ar
tedof fbykissi
ngmy
thi
ghsandsl owlymadehiswayt omycl i
t.
Massagingmyt highswit
hhi sonehand, hemade
patt
ernswithhistongueonmycl it
;whil
ehisother
handwasbusypushi ngi
tsfingersintomycli
t.
Me:"
Jesus,
”Icr
ied.“
Ohshi
t.
”
Whi mpers,curses,screams.Theywer etheonl y
thingstoleavemymout hashecont inuedwi t
hhi s
deviouspleasuring.Thehandt hatwasmassagi ng
myt highwasnowr ubbingagai nstmybackhol e.I
j
umpedasIf el
toneoft hosef i
ngerspusht hrough
thetightspace.Icamer i
ghtthenandt here.Five
minut esl
aterandIwasst il
lshakingashef inall
y
stoodupandki ssedmewi t
hur gency.
Li
zo:"
I’
m goi
ngt
ofuckyousohar
dthatt
heonl
y
thi
ngyou’ l
lbedoingi sbeggi
ngformetostop,
”he
whisperedintomyearashet ur
nedmesot hatI
wasf aci
ngt heti
les.Myhandswer epl
acedinfront
ofmeandi fitwasn’tfort
hem,Iwoul
dprobablybe
onthegr ound.
Hi
m:“
Ormaybeyou’
l
lbebeggi
ngmef
ormor
e.”
Me:“
Lizokuhl
e!”Imoanedashepushedhiscock
i
ntomypussy.If el
thi
shandsast
heygraspedmy
hi
ps.
Imaskedi nthef eel
ingoft hewayIf el
thi scockslid
againstmypussywal lsandhowhi sli
psf eltagai
nst
myneck.Theonl ythingIcoul dthinkaboutwast hat
i
fitwasn’ tforBonessendi ngmej ail,endingupa
hobo,Iwoul dn’tbest andi nghereget t
ingt hebest
ki
ndofpl easur eIhaveevergot t
eni nmyent i
re
l
ife.
AsIcont i
nuedt ot hinkt hatwebot hclimaxed
andact uall
ycleanedour selves(ormor elikewe
cl
eanedeachot her,
slowl yandsexual l
y).Itwasthe
bestfeeli
ngi nthewor ldandIneverwant edittoend.

Me:"
Thatwas.
..
ohhgod!
"Ibr
eat
hedoutl
oud"
Li
zokuhl
e:"
Iloveyou"
Me:"WowIloveyou"hewasdoi
ngwonder
stomy
bodyIam amazed!
Li
zokuhl
e:"
Heyl
et'
sgetoutofher
ebef
orewecat
ch
fl
ue"
Me:"
You'
rer
ightwedon'
twantt
hat
"

Wegotoutoft
heshoweranddr i
edoursel
vesIwore
mygownandwentt ocooksupperf
orMrZwane.
Af
tert
hat
,Iret
urnedtomyroom andfoundLizo'
s
sl
eepi
ngNchoohhemustbet i
red.

Tobecont
inued

Li
ke,
shar
eandcomment
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Noedi
ts)
Noxol
o

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3Year
slat
er

Thesepastf ewyear shavebeengr eatformeIcan

saymyr el
ationshipwithLizoi
sdoi nggr eat.Iam
nowl ivingwi thhiminhi sapar
tmentIagr eeour
rel
ationshiphadupsanddownbutweconquer edi
t.
Zodwawasoutl astyearIneverhear dfrom herI
guesssheaccept edthatLizowasnotmeantt obe
herfut urehusbandi fImaysay. Iam studyingLawI
don'twantt obeanat torneynoIwantt obean
advocat e,Iwantt obesel femployedwhi chmeansI
am gr aduatingthisyearandIam sopr oudof
mysel f.

I
nthemor
ningIwokeupnotf
eel
inggoodIdon'
t
knowwhat '
swr ongwithmeI '
vehavebeen
experi
enci
ngsever eheadache,tempor
ari
lylossof
visi
onanywaywhenIwokeupLi zowasnotnextt o
meIwonderwher ehewent ,
aftermaki
ngthebedI
wenttotakeashowerandwentt ot
hekit
chen.I
foundhim busyont hest
oveIguesshe'smaki ng
breakf
ast.

Me:
"Goodmor
ningbabe"
Li
zo:
"Mor
ningbaby,
youseem weakwhat
'swr
ong?
"
Me:Isi
ghed"Idon'
tknowbabybutI
'
vegotaver
y
badheadache"
Li
zo:
"Ar
eyousur
e?Letmet
akeyout
ohospi
tal
"
Me:"
Whatno!I
twi
llpassdontwor
ryi
tsnotabi
g
deal
"
Li
zo:"
NoIam notr
iski
ngmybaby'
sli
fe"yesyou
guyshear
dri
ghtIam 6monthspr
egnant
Me:
"Okayt
henl
etmegoandwearmycl
othes"
Li
zo:
"okayl
etmeal
sobookanappoi
ntmentwi
tht
he
doct
or"
Af
terdr
essi
ngupwel
eftt
othedoct
or.

Doc:
"Myf
avour
it
epeopl
e"
Li
zo:
"Hey"
Me:
"Howar
eyoudoc?
"

Wet
ookaseat

Me:
"OkaydocI'
vebeenexper
iencingheadachesf
or
t
hepastfewdayssometi
mesIl osemysightfor
f
ewseconds"
Doc:
"Thosearesymptomsofbleedi
ng
pr
eeclampsi
a,haveyoueverbl
edorsomet
hing?
"
Me:
"Nobutmyunar
inei
sthi
ckl
ikebl
oodi
teven
smel
lsbad"
Doc:
"I'
l
ltakeyourbl
oodsampl
e.ButIam def
ini
tel
y
sur
ethatyouhavepr
eecl
ampsi
a"
Me:
"docwhat
'st
hat
?"
Doc:"Preecl ampsiai sapr egnancycompl i
cat ion
characterizedbyhi ghbl oodpr essureandsi gnsof
damaget oanot heror gansyst em, mostof tent he
l
iverandki dneys.Preecl ampsi ausual l
ybegi nsaf t
er
20weeksofpr egnancyi nwomenwhosebl ood
pressurehadbeenl eftunt reat
ed, preeclampsi acan
l
eadt oser ious—evenf atal—compl i
cat i
onsf or
bothyouandyourbaby.I fyouhavepr eecl ampsi a,
themostef fecti
vetreatmenti sdel i
veryofyourbaby.
Evenaf terdeliver
ingt hebaby, itcanst i
lltakea
whileforyout ogetbet ter.
Li
zo:
"Soi
twon'
thur
tthebaby?
Doc:
"I
twil
l,
onceIgett
hemedi
calr
esul
tI'
l
lhavet
o
admi
tyou"
Me:
"You'
reconf
usi
ngme"
Doc:
"You'
l
lhavet
ogi
vebi
rt
hnowusi
ngcsect
ion"
Li
zo:
"What
?Docshe'
s6mont
hs"
Doc:
"Thebabywi
lldi
eifwedon'
tactnow,
I'
llcal
l
youwhentheresul
tcomebackyouguysgohome
andt
hinkaboutthi
s"

Il
ayedont
hebedhet
ookmybl
oodsampl
es.

Af
tert
hatwewenthome

2year
slat
er.
.

Sincet hatsagaathospi t
alIgavebi rthtoababy
boynamedLi zoMuhl eZwane.Iam nowa
successf uladvocat eowningami nilawf i
rm my
goalist obuildabi gsuccessful f
rm andofcour seI
am goi ngtodoj ustli
kethat,
thepastyear swas
hardf orusIhadt ogi vebi
rt
hatanear l
yaget hatled
mybabyt obedi sabledbutbesidet hatwet hank
godf orgivingusababyboy!Di dItellyouguyst hat
Zodwal eakedt hevideo?Wel lshedidj ustthat.She
diditonmygr aduationdaysher uinedi tbutmy
fi
anceassur edmet hatnomat terwhatZodwa
mightdoshehewi l
lnotletherbreakusapart
.
WhenIheardthatshewasi nvolvedinacar
acci
dentIwasshockedandwassur ethatLi
zohas
ahandinitbutI
'vel
etitsli
desinceitwasn'
tmy
busi
ness.

WhenIgott hej
obi askedLi zototakemet o
l
usikisi
kiyo(Myhomet own)Icr i
edwhenIsawi t
,
whenIsawNomal angashewasat eacherwitha
twobabi esIevenfixedmymomst ombst oneit
rai
nedt hatdaywhenIwentt oaskforher
for
giveness.ApparentlyLului si
nment alinsti
tut
ion
Isometimesgoandvi sithersincehermot her
helpedusbutshewoul dn'tsayanythingshekept
onsayingmommyonl yIt hi
nksheexper ienceda
scarycreepything.

Noma:"
Gir
lyou'
rest
il
lasl
eep?
"Shehasshouted.I
qui
ckl
ygotofft
hebedwhenIrememberedthatit
's
myweddingday
Me:
"Fuckai
n'twel
ate?
"
Kel
e:"
Justgoandbat
h,you'
remakeupar
ti
stwi
llbe
her
eshortl
y"
Me:
"Okay"
Lulama:
"Can'
tbeli
evet
hisf
ooli
sget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed"
she'smycoll
eague
Me:
"I
'l
lsl
apyou"Igi
ggl
ed

Bythewayt odayit
'smyweddingday!YesIam
happytof i
nal
lygodowntheaisl
ewithLizokuhl
eI
neverthoughtI'
dseemysel
finaweddinggown
anyti
mesoon.

Noma:"Fr
iendyou'
restunni
ng"sheismymai
dof
honourIam gl
adthatKeleunder
stood
Me:
"Iknowf
ri
endguyst
hankyouf
oryoursuppor
t"
Kel
e:"
Wewi
llal
waysbebyyoursi
debubunomat
ter
what"
Noma:"
Okayfri
endthisi
sit
"sheputont
hevei
l"I
l
oveyou.EventhoughIhat
etogi
veupmyspot,but
Ihopehebecomesyourbestf ri
end,theoneyou
cantalkt oaboutanything, t
heoneyoucant rust
withyourl i
fe,
theoneyoucanr evealyoursecret
sto
andknowt hathewon’ tjudgeyou.Ihopehe
becomest hemaleversionofme.Ihopeyoucansi t
togetherinsil
enceandst i
llbehappy, Ihopeyou
canhaveendl essconver sationswithhim andnot
getbor ed,Iam soproudofyou"shewasi ntears
rui
ningherpr ett
ymakeup"Iwi shIcameher ewith
youmaybeIwoul dhavemett hevisi
onofLi zo"
Me:"
Lolsyou'
rest
art
ing"Nomadeci
dedt
oteachat
herhometown
Kele:
"Wewi
shyout
hebestbabe"wedi
dagr
oup
hug.

Aft
erfourhour
sofal ongweddingwemadeit.We
werenowonapl anetoPariswearegoi
ngto
cel
ebrat
eourhoneymoont her
eLizomuhl
eIlef
thi
m
wit
hNomashedi dn'tcomplai
n.

Mybackhi
tthewal
lashepushedmeagai
nsti
t.I
wouldusuallycompl ai
naboutthedoorknobinmy
backbutrightnowal lIcoul
dthi
nkaboutar el
izo'
s
handsroami ngaroundmybodyandhi sli
ps
pressi
ngagai nstmyneck.Iconti
nuouslywhimper
becauseIfeltli
keifIsaysomethi
ng,itwouldbarel
y
beEnglishwor ds.
Thefrict
ionIwascr eatingbyr ubbingmylowerhips
i
ntohim madeever ythingmor eagoni zi
ng.Suck,
bit
e,andl i
ck;hedidslowlyagai nstmyneck.I’
m not
hereforforepl
ay.Yes,foreplayisalwaysfunbutnot
whenyouhavebeenwai t
ingfor10hour sfort
histo
fucki
nghappen.Iwanthi m now.
Withoutevent
hinki
ng,
Ipushedhi m backunt
ilwe
bothfel
lontot
hebed.Icouldfeeltherumbl
esofhis
chuckli
ngagai
nstmybr eastanditmadememoan
out.
Hi
m:“
Someone’
sal
i
ttl
eeager
,”hebr
eat
hedagai
nst
myneck.
Leani
ngdown,
Ipl
acedmylipsontohi
s.WhenI
camebackup,
Iwassit
ti
ngonhiscockandal
ready
thr
owingof
fmybat
hingsui
ttop.
Me:“
Shutup.
”
Ileanedbackoveragai
nandcontinuedt oki
sshis
l
ips.Myhi pswentbacktogri
ndi
ngagai nsthi
m and
Icouldfeelhowhardhisdi
ckwasget t
ing.
Oneofhi shandswasstart
ingtorubtheoutsi
deof
mybikinibott
omswhiletheotheronewastwisti
ng
mynipple.Imoanedint
ohismout h,whichmade
hi
m starttochuckl
eagai
n.
Me:“
Iwantt
ohavesexli
zo,
notgropeandlaughl
ike
vi
rgi
ns,
”Igr
owl
edstar
ti
ngtounti
ehisbathing
shor
ts.
Hechuckl
ed(It
hinkhe'
sjustdoi
ngi
ttoannoyt
he
shi
toutofme).
Hi
m:“
What
’st
her
ushbaby?
”
Grabbingont ohisthi
ck(Ijustknewi t
)dick,Iused
hispre-cum tomovemyhandupanddown.Hi s
eyesrolledbackandaheavy, al
mostbr eathless
groanescapedhi smout h.“I
’vewaitedawhi lefor
thi
sandI ’
m notgoingtojustwastemyt i
mewi t
h
thi
sstupi dforepl
ay.Fucki
ngf i
rst
,forepl
ayaf ter
.”
Pull
ingdownmybi ki
nibot
tomsandst eppi
ngout
them qui
ckl
y,Iwat
chedashecont i
nuedtonodhi s
headandmur muryes.Next,
Ipull
edoffhisbottoms
andclimbedbackon,mounti
ngont opofhislength.
Ihel
dont ohi
sshoulder
swhilepushingmybody
down.
“Ohfucki
nghel
l,
”ImoanedoutasIfel
thisent
ir
e
dickst
ret
chi
ngmywalls.“
Ohfuck,
babe!”
Hegrippedontomyhipsandstart
edt ohelpby
gui
dingmeupanddownont ohislength.Myfinger
s
cur
ledintohi
sshoulder
s,dr
awingbloodandI
watchedashet hr
ewhisheadback,moani ngout
myname.
Istart
edtomovef
asterbutbef
oreanyt
hingcoul
d
reall
yhappen,
hef
li
ppedusoversonowhewason
top.
InthedistantIcoul
dheartwosetsofphones
ri
ngingbutheandIpai dnomindt oi
t.Therewas
nothingthatcouldbr
ingusoutofthi
slustf
ulhaze
ri
ghtnow.
“
li
zo,
”Igr
oanedashi
spacewentsl
ower
,al
mostl
ike
hewasn’tmovi ngatal
l.Myhipsbuckl
eduptryi
ng
togetthefeel
ingofbeingf
ullagai
nbutheroughly
grabbedontomyhi psandpushedthem backonto
thebed.
“Howbaddoyouwantmet ofuckyoubabe?”I
near
lycamer i
ghtther
e.Iactual
lyfel
tmylegsshake
andbodyquiver.Li
zoanddirtytal
kispr
obablyt
he
sexi
estt
hingthathaseverfucki
ngexist
ed.
“
Sobad,
”Imoaned,
sti
llt
ryi
ngt
omovemyhi
ps.
Hepul
ledoutandIcr
iedouti
npr
otest
.“Howbad?
”
Hewhi
speredint
omyear.
“JustfuckmeLi zokuhle!
”Hesmi rkedandnearl
y
poundedi ntomemaki ngmewantt ocryoutin
pleasure.Myhandsr eachedupi ntohi
shairand
start
edt opullhi
sdreads.IknewIwasst ar
ti
ngto
getclosewhenhi sthumbpr essedontomycl i
tand
rubbedci r
cles.“
OhJesusChr i
st.
”
“Areyougoingt ocum f
ormel ove?”Het
aunted,
his
voi
cenearlyawhi sper
.Justthosewordsmademe
wanttocum. Inoddedmyhead, myeyesclosedand
Iconti
nuedtot akeint
hepleasureofhi
sthumb
pl
ayi
ngwithmycli
tandhisdi
ckr
api
dlymovi
ngi
n
mypussy.“
Answerme,”hegr
owl
ed.
“
Yes,
hun!I
’
m goi
ngt
ocum,
”Iscr
eamed.
“
Iwantyout
ocum al
lovermycock.
”
Thatdidit
.Icoul
dn’thol
ditanhmor
eIcame.Ithink
Ipassedoutfrom t
hepleasur
eandi
ntensi
ty
becausethenextthi
ngIknew,hewasgrunt
ingand
rel
easinghisowncum intome.
Fli
ppingusbackoversoIwasont op,Islowl
y
pull
edof fhi
sdickandmoveddownt oplaceitinmy
mouth.Thef actthatIwasnotjusttast
inghiscum
butmi neaswel lmadeital
lthemor ekinkyordareI
say—enjoyable.Ihaveneversuckedaguy’ sdick
aft
ersexandhonest l
yIhavenoideawhyIhaven’ t
.
Hisfingerslacedi ntomyhai randstar
tedtopush
meheadf urtherdownsot hathisdi
ckwasent er
ing
myt hroat
.Nomat terhowbadlyIwantedtofuck
Lizoagain,Ididn’twanthimt ogethardsoIslowly
cameup, letti
nghi sdickleavemymout hwit
ha
“pop!”
ImovedupsoIwasl
yingnextt
oLi
zo.Hi
sar
m
i
mmedi at
elypul
ledmei
ntohi
ssi
deandhi
sface
nuzzl
edint
omyneck.

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