DEAD STARS of a different type altogether.
She was small and plump, with wide
by Paz Marquez-Benitez
THROUGH the open window the air-steeped outdoors passed into
his room, quietly enveloping him, stealing into his very thought.
Esperanza, Julia, the sorry mess he had made of life, the years to
come even now beginning to weigh down, to crush--they lost
concreteness, diffused into formless melancholy. The tranquil
murmur of conversation issued from the brick-tiled azotea where
Don Julian and Carmen were busy puttering away among the rose
pots.
"Papa, and when will the 'long table' be set?"
"I don't know yet. Alfredo is not very specific, but I understand
Esperanza wants it to be next month."
Carmen sighed impatiently. "Why is he not a bit more decided, I
wonder. He is over thirty, is he not? And still a bachelor! Esperanza
must be tired waiting."
"She does not seem to be in much of a hurry either," Don Julian
nasally commented, while his rose scissors busily snipped away.
"How can a woman be in a hurry when the man does not hurry her?"
Carmen returned, pinching off a worm with a careful, somewhat
absent air. "Papa, do you remember how much in love he was?"
"In love? With whom?"
"With Esperanza, of course. He has not had another love affair that I
know of," she said with good-natured contempt. "What I mean is
that at the beginning he was enthusiastic--flowers, serenades, notes,
and things like that—”
Alfredo remembered that period with a wonder not unmixed with
shame. That was less than four years ago. He could not understand
those months of a great hunger that was not of the body nor yet of
the mind, a craving that had seized on him one quiet night when the
moon was abroad and under the dappled shadow of the trees in the
plaza, man wooed maid. Was he being cheated by life? Love--he
seemed to have missed it. Or was the love that others told about a
mere fabrication of perfervid imagination, an exaggeration of the
commonplace, a glorification of insipid monotonies such as made up
his love life? Was love a combination of circumstances, or sheer
native capacity of soul? In those days love was, for him, still the
eternal puzzle; for love, as he knew it, was a stranger to love as he
divined it might be.
“As you did this time. Still, you looked amused every time I--"
"I was thinking of Mr. Manalang."
Don Julian and his uncommunicative friend, the Judge, were
absorbed in a game of chess. The young man had tired of playing
appreciative spectator and desultory conversationalist, so he and
Julia Salas had gone off to chat in the vine-covered porch. The lone
piano in the neighborhood alternately tinkled and banged away as
the player's moods altered. He listened, and wondered irrelevantly if
Miss Salas could sing; she had such a charming speaking voice.
He was mildly surprised to note from her appearance that she was
unmistakably a sister of the Judge's wife, although Doña Adela was
brown eyes, clearly defined eyebrows, and delicately modeled hips--
a pretty woman with the complexion of a baby and the expression of
a likable cow. Julia was taller, not so obviously pretty. She had the
same eyebrows and lips, but she was much darker, of a smooth rich
brown with underlying tones of crimson which heightened the
impression she gave of abounding vitality.
On Sunday mornings after mass, father and son would go crunching
up the gravel road to the house on the hill. The Judge's wife
invariably offered them beer, which Don Julian enjoyed and Alfredo
did not. After a half hour or so, the chessboard would be brought
out; then Alfredo and Julia Salas would go out to the porch to chat.
She sat in the low hammock and he in a rocking chair and the hours--
warm, quiet March hours--sped by. He enjoyed talking with her and
it was evident that she liked his company; yet what feeling there was
between them was so undisturbed that it seemed a matter of
course. Only when Esperanza chanced to ask him indirectly about
those visits did some uneasiness creep into his thoughts of the girl
next door.
Esperanza had wanted to know if he went straight home after mass.
Alfredo suddenly realized that for several Sundays now he had not
waited for Esperanza to come out of the church as he had been wont
to do. He had been eager to go "neighboring."
He answered that he went home to work. And, because he was not
habitually untruthful, added, "Sometimes I go with Papa to Judge del
Valle's."
She dropped the topic. Esperanza was not prone to indulge in
unprovoked jealousies. She was a believer in the regenerative virtue
of institutions, in their power to regulate feeling as well as conduct.
If a man were married, why, of course, he loved his wife; if he were
engaged, he could not possibly love another woman.
That half-lie told him what he had not admitted openly to himself,
that he was giving Julia Salas something which he was not free to
give. He realized that; yet something that would not be denied
beckoned imperiously, and he followed on.
It was so easy to forget up there, away from the prying eyes of the
world, so easy and so poignantly sweet. The beloved woman, he
standing close to her, the shadows around, enfolding.
"Up here I find--something--"
He and Julia Salas stood looking out into the quiet night. Sensing
unwanted intensity, laughed, woman-like, asking, "Amusement?"
"No; youth--its spirit--"
"Are you so old?"
"And heart's desire."
Was he becoming a poet, or is there a poet lurking in the heart of
every man?
"Down there," he had continued, his voice somewhat indistinct, "the
road is too broad, too trodden by feet, too barren of mystery."
"Down there" beyond the ancient tamarinds lay the road, upturned
to the stars. In the darkness the fireflies glimmered, while an errant
breeze strayed in from somewhere, bringing elusive, faraway sounds
as of voices in a dream.
“Mystery--" she answered lightly, "that is so brief--"
"Not in some," quickly. "Not in you."
"You have known me a few weeks; so the mystery."
"I could study you all my life and still not find it."
"So long?"
"I should like to."
Those six weeks were now so swift--seeming in the memory, yet had
they been so deep in the living, so charged with compelling power
and sweetness. Because neither the past nor the future had
relevance or meaning, he lived only the present, day by day, lived it
intensely, with such a willful shutting out of fact as astounded him in
his calmer moments.
Just before Holy Week, Don Julian invited the judge and his family to
spend Sunday afternoon at Tanda where he had a coconut plantation
and a house on the beach. Carmen also came with her four energetic
children. She and Doña Adela spent most of the time indoors
directing the preparation of the merienda and discussing the likeable
absurdities of their husbands--how Carmen's Vicente was so
absorbed in his farms that he would not even take time off to
accompany her on this visit to her father; how Doña Adela's Dionisio
was the most absentminded of men, sometimes going out without
his collar, or with unmatched socks.
After the merienda, Don Julian sauntered off with the judge to show
him what a thriving young coconut looked like--"plenty of leaves,
close set, rich green"--while the children, convoyed by Julia Salas,
found unending entertainment in the rippling sand left by the ebbing
tide. They were far down, walking at the edge of the water,
indistinctly outlined against the gray of the out-curving beach.
Alfredo left his perch on the bamboo ladder of the house and
followed. Here were her footsteps, narrow, arched. He laughed at
himself for his black canvas footwear which he removed forthwith
and tossed high up on dry sand.
When he came up, she flushed, then smiled with frank pleasure.
"I hope you are enjoying this," he said with a questioning inflection.
"Very much. It looks like home to me, except that we do not have
such a lovely beach."
There was a breeze from the water. It blew the hair away from her
forehead, and whipped the tucked-upskirt around her straight,
slender figure. In the picture was something of eager freedom as of
wings poised inflight. The girl had grace, distinction. Her face was not
notably pretty; yet she had a tantalizing charm, all the more
compelling because it was an inner quality, an achievement of the
spirit. The lure was there, of naturalness, of an alert vitality of mind
and body, of a thoughtful, sunny temper, and of a piquant
perverseness which is sauce to charm.
“The afternoon has seemed very short, hasn't it?" Then, "This, I
think, is the last time--we can visit."
"The last? Why?"
"Oh, you will be too busy perhaps."
He noted an evasive quality in the answer.
"Do I seem especially industrious to you?"
"If you are, you never look it."
"Not perspiring or breathless, as a busy man ought to be."
"But--"
"Always unhurried, too unhurried, and calm." She smiled to herself.
"I wish that were true," he said after a meditative pause.
She waited.
"A man is happier if he is, as you say, calm and placid."
"Like a carabao in a mud pool," she retorted perversely.
"Who? I?"
"Oh, no!"
"You said I am calm and placid."
"That is what I think."
"I used to think so too. Shows how little we know ourselves."
It was strange to him that he could be wooing thus: with tone and
look and covert phrase.
"I should like to see your home town."
"There is nothing to see--little crooked streets, bunut roofs with
ferns growing on them, and sometimes squashes."
That was the background. It made her seem less detached, less
unrelated, yet with all more distant, as if that background claimed
her and excluded him.
"Nothing? There is you."
"Oh, me? But I am here."
"I will not go, of course, until you are there."
"Will you come? You will find it dull. There isn't even one American
there!"
"Well--Americans are rather essential to my entertainment."
She laughed.
"We live on Calle Luz, a little street with trees."
"Could I find that?"
"If you don't ask for Miss del Valle," she smiled teasingly.
“I'll inquire about--"
"What?"
"The house of the prettiest girl in the town."
"There is where you will lose your way." Then she turned serious.
"Now, that is not quite sincere."
"It is," he averred slowly, but emphatically.
"I thought you, at least, would not say such things."
"Pretty--pretty--a foolish word! But there is none other more handy I
did not mean that quite--"
"Are you withdrawing the compliment?"
"Re-enforcing it, maybe. Something is pretty when it pleases the
eye--it is more than that when--"
"If it saddens?" she interrupted hastily.
"Exactly."
"It must be ugly."
"Always?"
Toward the west, the sunlight lay on the dimming waters in a broad,
glinting streamer of crimsoned gold.
"No, of course you are right."
"Why did you say this is the last time?" he asked quietly as they
turned back.
"I am going home."
The end of an impossible dream!
"When?" after a long silence.
"Tomorrow. I received a letter from Father and Mother yesterday.
They want me to spend Holy Week at home.
"She seemed to be waiting for him to speak. "That is why I said this is
the last time."
"Can't I come to say good-bye?"
"Oh, you don't need to!"
"No, but I want to."
"There is no time."
The golden streamer was withdrawing, shortening, until it looked no
more than a pool far away at the rim of the world. Stillness, a vibrant
quiet that affects the senses as does solemn harmony; a peace that
is not contentment but a cessation of tumult when all violence of
feeling tones down to the wistful serenity of regret. She turned and
looked into his face, in her dark eyes a ghost of sunset sadness.
"Home seems so far from here. This is almost like another life."
"I know. This is Elsewhere, and yet strange enough, I cannot get rid
of the old things."
"Old things?"
"Oh, old things, mistakes, encumbrances, old baggage." He said it
lightly, unwilling to mar the hour. He walked close, his hand
sometimes touching hers for one whirling second.
Don Julian's nasal summons came to them on the wind.
Alfredo gripped the soft hand so near his own. At his touch, the girl
turned her face away, but he heard her voice say very low, "Good-
bye."
II
ALFREDO Salazar turned to the right where, farther on, the road
broadened and entered the heart of the town--heart of Chinese
stores sheltered under low-hung roofs, of indolent drug stores and
tailor shops, of dingy shoe-repairing establishments, and a cluttered
goldsmith's cubbyhole where a consumptive bent over a magnifying
lens; heart of old brick-roofed houses with quaint hand-and-ball
knockers on the door; heart of grass-grown plaza reposeful with
trees, of ancient church and convento, now circled by swallows
gliding in flight as smooth and soft as the afternoon itself. Into the
quickly deepening twilight, the voice of the biggest of the church
bells kept ringing its insistent summons. Flocking came the devout
with their long wax candles, young women in vivid apparel (for this
was Holy Thursday and the Lord was still alive), older women in
sober black skirts. Came too the young men in droves, elbowing each
other under the talisay tree near the church door. The gaily decked
rice-paper lanterns were again on display while from the windows of
the older houses hung colored glass globes, heirlooms from a day
when grass pith wicks floating in coconut oil were the chief lighting
device.
Soon a double row of lights emerged from the church and uncoiled
down the length of the street like a huge jewelled band studded with
glittering clusters where the saints' platforms were. Above the
measured music rose the untutored voices of the choir, steeped in
incense and the acrid fumes of burning wax.
The sight of Esperanza and her mother sedately pacing behind Our
Lady of Sorrows suddenly destroyed the illusion of continuity and
broke up those lines of light into component individuals. Esperanza
stiffened self-consciously, tried to look unaware, and could not.
The line moved on.
Suddenly, Alfredo's slow blood began to beat violently, irregularly. A
girl was coming down the line—a girl that was striking, and vividly
alive, the woman that could cause violent commotion in his heart,
yet had no place in the completed ordering of his life.
Her glance of abstracted devotion fell on him and came to a brief
stop.
The line kept moving on, wending its circuitous route away from the
church and then back again, where, according to the old proverb, all
processions end.
At last Our Lady of Sorrows entered the church, and with her the
priest and the choir, whose voices now echoed from the arched
ceiling. The bells rang the close of the procession.
A round orange moon, "huge as a winnowing basket," rose lazily into
a clear sky, whitening the iron roofs and dimming the lanterns at the
windows. Along the still densely shadowed streets the young women
with their rear guard of males loitered and, maybe, took the longest
way home.
Toward the end of the row of Chinese stores, he caught up with Julia
Salas. The crowd had dispersed into the side streets, leaving Calle
Real to those who lived farther out. It was past eight, and Esperanza
would be expecting him in a little while: yet the thought did not
hurry him as he said "Good evening" and fell into step with the girl.
"I had been thinking all this time that you had gone," he said in a
voice that was both excited and troubled."
No, my sister asked me to stay until they are ready to go."
"Oh, is the Judge going?"
"Yes."
The provincial docket had been cleared, and Judge del Valle had
been assigned elsewhere. As lawyer--and as lover--Alfredo had found
that out long before.
"Mr. Salazar," she broke into his silence, "I wish to congratulate you."
Her tone told him that she had learned, at last. That was inevitable.
"For what?"
"For your approaching wedding."
Some explanation was due her, surely. Yet what could he say that
would not offend?
"I should have offered congratulations long before, but you know
mere visitors are slow about getting the news," she continued.
He listened not so much to what she said as to the nuances in her
voice. He heard nothing to enlighten him, except that she had
reverted to the formal tones of early acquaintance. No revelation
there; simply the old voice--cool, almost detached from personality,
flexible and vibrant, suggesting potentialities of song.
"Are weddings interesting to you?" he finally brought out quietly.
"When they are of friends, yes."
"Would you come if I asked you?"
"When is it going to be?"
"May," he replied briefly, after a long pause.
"May is the month of happiness they say," she said, with what
seemed to him a shade of irony.
"They say," slowly, indifferently. "Would you come?"
"Why not?"
"No reason. I am just asking. Then you will?"
"If you will ask me," she said with disdain.
"Then I ask you."
"Then I will be there."
The gravel road lay before them; at the road's end the lighted
windows of the house on the hill. There swept over the spirit of
Alfredo Salazar a longing so keen that it was pain, a wish that, that
house were his, that all the bewilderments of the present were not,
and that this woman by his side were his long wedded wife,
returning with him to the peace of home.
"Julita," he said in his slow, thoughtful manner, "did you ever have to
choose between something you wanted to do and something you
had to do?"
"No!"
"I thought maybe you had had that experience; then you could
understand a man who was in such a situation."
"You are fortunate," he pursued when she did not answer."
Is--is this man sure of what he should do?"
"I don't know, Julita. Perhaps not. But there is a point where a thing
escapes us and rushes downward of its own weight, dragging us
along. Then it is foolish to ask whether one will or will not, because it
no longer depends on him."
"But then why--why--" her muffled voice came. "Oh, what do I
know? That is his problem after all."
"Doesn't it--interest you?"
"Why must it? I--I have to say good-bye, Mr. Salazar; we are at the
house."
Without lifting her eyes she quickly turned and walked away.
Had the final word been said? He wondered. It had. Yet a feeble
flutter of hope trembled in his mind though set against that hope
were three years of engagement, a very near wedding, perfect
understanding between the parents, his own conscience, and
Esperanza herself—Esperanza waiting, Esperanza no longer young,
Esperanza the efficient, the literal-minded, the intensely acquisitive.
He looked attentively at her where she sat on the sofa, appraisingly,
and with a kind of aversion which he tried to control.
She was one of those fortunate women who have the gift of
uniformly acceptable appearance. She never surprised one with
unexpected homeliness nor with startling reserves of beauty. At
home, in church, on the street, she was always herself, a woman past
first bloom, light and clear of complexion, spare of arms and of
breast, with a slight convexity to thin throat; a woman dressed with
self-conscious care, even elegance; a woman distinctly not average.
She was pursuing an indignant relation about something or other,
something about Calixta, their note-carrier, Alfredo perceived, so he
merely half-listened, understanding imperfectly. At a pause he
drawled out to fill in the gap: "Well, what of it?" The remark sounded
ruder than he had intended.
"She is not married to him," Esperanza insisted in her thin, nervously
pitched voice. "Besides, she should have thought of us. Nanay
practically brought her up. We never thought she would turn out
bad.
"What had Calixta done? Homely, middle-aged Calixta?
"You are very positive about her badness," he commented dryly.
Esperanza was always positive.
"But do you approve?"
"Of what?"
"What she did."
"No," indifferently.
"Well?"
He was suddenly impelled by a desire to disturb the unvexed
orthodoxy of her mind. "All I say is that it is not necessarily wicked."
"Why shouldn't it be? You talked like an--immoral man. I did not
know that your ideas were like that."
"My ideas?" he retorted, goaded by a deep, accumulated
exasperation. "The only test I wish to apply to conduct is the test of
fairness. Am I injuring anybody? No? Then I am justified in my
conscience. I am right. Living with a man to whom she is not
married--is that it? It may be wrong, and again it may not."
"She has injured us. She was ungrateful." Her voice was tight with
resentment."
The trouble with you, Esperanza, is that you are--" he stopped,
appalled by the passion in his voice.
"Why do you get angry? I do not understand you at all! I think I know
why you have been indifferent to me lately. I am not blind, or deaf; I
see and hear what perhaps some are trying to keep from me." The
blood surged into his very eyes and his hearing sharpened to points
of acute pain. What would she say next?
"Why don't you speak out frankly before it is too late? You need not
think of me and of what people will say." Her voice trembled.
Alfredo was suffering as he could not remember ever having suffered
before. What people will say--what will they not say? What don't
they say when long engagements are broken almost on the eve of
the wedding?
"Yes," he said hesitatingly, diffidently, as if merely thinking aloud,
"one tries to be fair--according to his lights--but it is hard. One would
like to be fair to one's self first. But that is too easy, one does not
dare--"
"What do you mean?" she asked with repressed violence. "Whatever
my shortcomings, and no doubt they are many in your eyes, I have
never gone out of my way, of my place, to find a man."
Did she mean by this irrelevant remark that he it was who had
sought her; or was that a covert attack on Julia Salas?
"Esperanza--" a desperate plea lay in his stumbling words. "If you--
suppose I--" Yet how could a mere man word such a plea?
"If you mean you want to take back your word, if you are tired of--
why don't you tell me you are tired of me?" she burst out in a storm
of weeping that left him completely shamed and unnerved.
The last word had been said.
III
AS Alfredo Salazar leaned against the boat rail to watch the evening
settling over the lake, he wondered if Esperanza would attribute any
significance to this trip of his. He was supposed to be in Sta. Cruz
whither the case of the People of the Philippine Islands vs. Belina et
al had kept him, and there he would have been if Brigida Samuy had
not been so important to the defense. He had to find that elusive old
woman. That the search was leading him to that particular lake town
which was Julia Salas' home should not disturb him unduly Yet he
was disturbed to a degree utterly out of proportion to the
prosaicalness of his errand. That inner tumult was no surprise to
him; in the last eight years he had become used to such occasional
storms. He had long realized that he could not forget Julia Salas. Still,
he had tried to be content and not to remember too much. The
climber of mountains who has known the back-break, the
lonesomeness, and the chill, finds a certain restfulness in level paths
made easy to his feet. He looks up sometimes from the valley where
settles the dusk of evening, but he knows he must not heed the
radiant beckoning. Maybe, in time, he would cease even to look up.
He was not unhappy in his marriage. He felt no rebellion: only the
calm of capitulation to what he recognized as irresistible forces of
circumstance and of character. His life had simply ordered itself; no
more struggles, no more stirring up of emotions that got a man
nowhere. From his capacity of complete detachment he derived a
strange solace. The essential himself, the himself that had its being in
the core of his thought, would, he reflected, always befree and
alone. When claims encroached too insistently, as sometimes they
did, he retreated into the inner fastness, and from that vantage he
saw things and people around him as remote and alien, as incidents
that did not matter. At such times did Esperanza feel baffled and
helpless; he was gentle, even tender, but immeasurably far away,
beyond her reach.
Lights were springing into life on the shore. That was the town, a
little up-tilted town nestling in the dark greenness of the groves. A
snub crested belfry stood beside the ancient church. On the outskirts
the evening smudges glowed red through the sinuous mists of smoke
that rose and lost themselves in the purple shadows of the hills.
There was a young moon which grew slowly luminous as the coral
tints in the sky yielded to the darker blues of evening.
The vessel approached the landing quietly, trailing awake of long
golden ripples on the dark water. Peculiar hill inflections came to his
ears from the crowd assembled to meet the boat--slow, singing
cadences, characteristic of the Laguna lake-shore speech. From
where he stood he could not distinguish faces, so he had no way of
knowing whether the presidente was there to meet him or not. Just
then a voice shouted.
"Is the abogado there? Abogado!"
"What abogado?" someone irately asked.
That must be the presidente, he thought, and went down to the
landing.
It was a policeman, a tall pock-marked individual. The presidente had
left with Brigida Samuy—Tandang "Binday"--that noon for Santa
Cruz. Señor Salazar's second letter had arrived late, but the wife had
read it and said, "Go and meet the abogado and invite him to our
house."
Alfredo Salazar courteously declined the invitation. He would sleep
on board since the boat would leave at four the next morning
anyway. So the presidente had received his first letter? Alfredo did
not know because that official had not sent an answer. "Yes," the
policeman replied, "but he could not write because we heard that
Tandang Binday was in San Antonio so we went there to find her."
San Antonio was up in the hills! Good man, the presidente! He,
Alfredo, must do something for him. It was not every day that one
met with such willingness to help.
Eight o'clock, lugubriously tolled from the bell tower, found the boat
settled into a somnolent quiet. A cot had been brought out and
spread for him, but it was too bare to be inviting at that hour. It was
too early to sleep: he would walk around the town. His heart beat
faster as he picked his way to shore over the rafts made fast to
sundry piles driven into the water.
conversed with increasing ease, though with a growing wonder that
he should be there at all. He could not take his eyes from her face.
What had she lost? Or was the loss his? He felt an impersonal
curiosity creeping into his gaze. The girl must have noticed, for her
cheek darkened in a blush.
Gently--was it experimentally?-- he pressed her hand at parting; but
his own felt undisturbed and emotionless. Did she still care? The
answer to the question hardly interested him.
The young moon had set, and from the uninviting cot he could see
one half of a star-studded sky.
So that was all over.

How peaceful the town was! Here and there a little tienda was still Why had he obstinately clung to that dream?
open, its dim light issuing forlornly through the single window which So all these years--since when?-- he had been seeing the light of
served as counter. An occasional couple sauntered by, the women's dead stars, long extinguished, yet seemingly still in their appointed
chinelas making scraping sounds. From a distance came the shrill places in the heavens.
voices of children playing games on the street--tubigan perhaps, or
"hawk-and-chicken. "The thought of Julia Salas in that quiet place An immense sadness as of loss invaded his spirit, a vast
filled him with a pitying sadness. homesickness for some immutable refuge of the heart far away
where faded gardens bloom again, and where live on in unchanging
How would life seem now if he had married Julia Salas? Had he freshness, the dear, dead loves of vanished youth.
meant anything to her? That unforgettable red-and-gold afternoon in
early April haunted him with a sense of incompleteness as restless as
other unlaid ghosts. She had not married--why? Faithfulness, he
reflected, was not a conscious effort at regretful memory. It was
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irreplaceability. Irrelevant trifles--a cool wind on his forehead, far-
away sounds as of voices in a dream--at times moved him to an
oddly irresistible impulse to listen as to an insistent, unfinished
prayer.

A few inquiries led him to a certain little tree-ceilinged street where

the young moon wove indistinct filigrees of fight and shadow. In the
gardens the cotton tree threw its angular shadow athwart the low
stone wall; and in the cool, stilly midnight the cock's first call rose in
tall, soaring jets of sound. Calle Luz.

Somehow or other, he had known that he would find her house

because she would surely be sitting at the window. Where else,
before bedtime on a moonlit night? The house was low and the light
in the sala behind her threw her head into unmistakable relief. He
sensed rather than saw her start of vivid surprise.

"Good evening," he said, raising his hat.

"Good evening. Oh! Are you in town?"

"On some little business," he answered with a feeling of painful

constraint.

"Won't you come up?"

He considered. His vague plans had not included this. But Julia Salas
had left the window, calling to her mother as she did so. After a
while, someone came downstairs with a lighted candle to open the
door. At last--he was shaking her hand.

She had not changed much--a little less slender, not so eagerly alive,
yet something had gone. He missed it, sitting opposite her, looking
thoughtfully into her fine dark eyes. She asked him about the home
town, about this and that, in a sober, somewhat meditative tone. He