Been worn out lately thinking about life that I have and I don’t what will be my future.

Sometimes I cry and ask God if he still recognize me. Because everything that I achieved doon
lang ako nakakapag pasalamat sa Lord and I know it’s not right being alone sabi nila ayan ung
way o paraan ng Lord for you to know him well but the reality is the road is too rough for me.
Even thou na I have good a family and my woman who always got my back. The truth is I’m
writing this letter for me to vent out or maybe not, but all I know is I’m tired and I can’t make it
someday but I need to survive because I have my family who put trust on me.

But I ask myself after I achieved those things that I want for my family what will be my life?
I can give back but when it comes sa sarili ko maybe hindi na some people might say that I’m
too hard for myself. But the truth is all I know is “I Deserve this” and I need to pay back for
what I’ve done before, but I just want to find the true meaning of life, maybe I’m too far sa
Diyos. Maybe sa journey na meron ako hindi ko totally nilalapit ang sarili ko for me to know
him well, I failed once my family and I don’t to have a same mistake. So I need to step forward.
But after I give everything I hope I’ll find my purpose to survive. I know we can do it.
Lilipas ang ilang panahon at tutungo ako sa mag kabilang landas ng buhay, as long as the human
live from this world it won’t change the fact that we need to suffer in order to accomplish our
dreams. You need to suffer and feel the pain that brought by this world. This life that we had is
our free trial in order to decide whether we fight or not. Because we have two option it’s either
you lose your battle or you win it and get it.

I just need a time for me to force myself to overcome my limit and I know it’s not easy but I
need to try it. But I’m happy for what I have in my life right now at least I make my life better. I
know kakayanin but the path that I enter it’s never been easy I pray for my heart and soul to have
inner peace. Calmness and have a uncodditional love to the person that I love. Been a while since
I do this for myself nakakatuwa lang kasi nag kakaroon ako sobrang ng halaga sa sarili ko. Even
na hindi nagging maganda ang naging takbo ng buhay ko. But I need to give myself ng 2nd
chance

I hope I can make it, this will be my farewell at the end of the day. One day lahat siguro ng
ginagawa ko for me mag rereturn.