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‫ﺧﺎﺩﻣﻬﺎﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﺘﺰﻡ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻒ‬

‫"ﺧﺪﻉ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ ﻭ‬

‫ﺧﻴﺎﻧﺔﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ"‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺳﺦ‬
‫ﻣﻠﺤﻮﻇﺔ‪:‬‬

‫ﻋﺪﺩﻗﻠﻴﻞ ﺟﺪﺍ‬
‫ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮﺍﺕﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺗﻢﺻﻨﻌﻪ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻹﺻﺪﺍﺭ‪:‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺍﻟﺤﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺉﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻮﻳﻠﻬﺎﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﺻﻢ‪.‬ﺍﻝ‬
‫"ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻳﻄﺎﻧﻲ"‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﻣﺰ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻮﻳﻠﻬﺎﺇﻟﻰ '‪'L‬؛‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻋﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻒﺧﺎﻃﺊ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻣﻼﺉﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻼﻣﺎﺕﺍﻟﺘﺮﻗﻴﻢ ﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔﺑﺎﻷﺣﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮﺓ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﺠﺰﺓ‬

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 ‫ﺃﺭﺳﻞﺍﻟﺤﺮﻑ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﺰﺍﺑﻴﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‬

‫ﻛﻢﻣﺮﺓ‪ ،‬ﺭﺩﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻮﺳﻼﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﺮﺭﺓ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺗﻌﻄﻲ ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻲ ﺗﻔﺎﺻﻴﻞ‬

‫ﻣﻨﺘﻈﻤﺔﻋﻦ ﻣﺼﺎﺉﺐ ﻭﻣﻐﺎﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠﺖ "ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻡ‬
‫ﺑﻄﻠﺒﻚﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺣﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺧﻄﺮ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻵﻥ"‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎءﺍﻟﻤﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ .55‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻗﻴﻞ ﻳﻮﻣﺎً ﺇﻥ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺄﻣﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺜﺎﺑﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺯﻣﺔ ﻟﻠﻌﺸﺎﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻳﻬﻴﻦﻭﺍﻵﺑﺎء ﺍﻟﻌﻨﻴﺪﻳﻦ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ .‬ﺇﻳﺰﺍﺑﻴﻞ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪2‬ﺍﺧﺘﺼﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻲﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﻳﺰﺍﺑﻴﻞ‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻔﻖ ﻣﻌﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻓﺘﺮﺍﺽ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬

‫ﻟﻦﺃﺗﻌﺮﺽ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﻟﻤﺼﺎﺉﺐ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺴﺘﺤﻘﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺭﺕﺑﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﺘﺠﻨﺐ ﺍﺗﻬﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻨﺎﺩ ﺃﻭ ﺳﻮء ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﺷﺒﻊﻓﻀﻮﻝ ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻚ؛ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺜﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﺎﻧﻴﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻻﻡ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺜﺒﺖ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺩﺭﺳﺎً ﻣﻔﻴﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﻋﻢ ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻳﺼﻴﺒﻮﻧﻬﺎﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪3‬ﺑﺤﺚ ﻭﺗﻄﻮﻳﺮﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭﻱﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﻴﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺤﻖ‬

‫ﻟﻚﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﻘﺼﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲﻃﻠﺒﺖ ﻣﻨﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺪﻣﻬﺎﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﻟﻴﺪ ﺃﻳﺮﻟﻨﺪﺍ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺳﻜﺎﻥ‬

‫ﻭﻳﻠﺰ؛ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻲ ﺍﻻﺑﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﻷﺏ ﺍﺳﻜﺘﻠﻨﺪﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﻭﺑﺮﺍ ﺇﻳﻄﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺳﺒﺎﻧﻴﺎ ﻭﺗﻠﻘﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻌﻠﻴﻤﻲﻓﻲ ﺩﻳﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻓﺮﻧﺴﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺑﻠﻐﺖ ﻋﺎﻣﻲ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻣﻦ ﻋﺸﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﺪﻋﺎﻧﻲ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍﻱﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻳﻠﺰ‪ .‬ﻳﻘﻊ ﻗﺼﺮﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺣﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺜﺮﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﻃﻖ ﺭﻭﻣﺎﻧﺴﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﻓﺎﻟﻲ‬

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 ‫ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲ‪.‬ﻣﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺳﺤﺮﻱ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺧﻔﻮﺗﺎً‬
‫ﻭﺿﻌﻔﺎًﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﺑﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺉﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ‬
‫ﺑﻬﺎ‪،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺟﻤﻴﻼً ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻻﺗﻲ‪.‬ﻣﻦ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻹﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺘﺎﺩﺓ ﻟﺠﻨﺴﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖﻋﺸﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺕ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺗﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻻﻛﺘﺴﺎﺑﺎﺕ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻌﻤﺮﻱ‪،‬‬

‫ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥﻣﺎ ﺗﺠﺎﻭﺯﺕ ﺩﺭﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺟﺴﺘﻴﺮ‪.‬‬

‫ﻓﻲﺫﻫﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻓﻀﻴﻠﺔ ﺗﺰﻳﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺤﺎﺑﺔ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬

‫ﻣﺘﻤﺮﻛﺰﺓ؛ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻠﺘﻘﻰ ﻟﻜﻞ ﺻﻔﺔ ﻃﻴﺒﺔ ﻭﻛﻞ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮ‬
‫ﻧﺒﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺇﻥﺍﻹﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﺠﻒ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻣﺤﻨﺔ‬

‫ﻳﺘﻌﺮﺽﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﺻﺪﻗﺎﺉﻲ ﻭﻣﻌﺎﺭﻓﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻨﺔﺃﻋﺎﻧﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺧﻄﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﻧﺴﻤﻴﻪ ﺧﻄﺄ!ً ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻐﻴﺮﺕ ﺍﻵﻥ! ﺛﻮ 'ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊﺑﻠﺪﻱ‬
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 ‫ﺇﻥﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺉﺐ ﻻ ﺗﺆﺛﺮ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﻀﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺑﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻵﺧﺮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﻱﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃ ﻳﺘﻼﺷﻰ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﻐﻨﺎء ﺟﻴﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻭﻻﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ ﺑﺮﺷﺎﻗﺔ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻧﺴﻴﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ .MINUET DELA COUR‬ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪4‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺣﻴﻨﺎ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺘﺄﻟﻒ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻚﻓﻘﻂ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎﺗﺮﻛﺎﻫﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻇﺮﻭﻑ ﻣﻌﻮﺯﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻘﺎﻋﺪﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻭﻳﻠﺰ ﻟﺪﻭﺍﻓﻊ ﺍﻗﺘﺼﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻷﻭﻝﻣﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺇﻳﺰﻭﺑﻴﻞ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺣﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻳﻦ‪.‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺭﺿﺎﺉﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺨﺼﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺧﻼﻗﻬﺎ)ﺑﻴﻨﻨﺎ( ﻓﺈﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺍﻟﺠﺰء‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺉﺎﺕﻣﻦ ﺟﻤﺎﻟﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺇﻧﺠﺎﺯﺍﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﺃﺕ ﺇﻳﺰﺍﺑﻴﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻣﻀﺖ ﻋﺎﻣﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﻣﺪﺍﺭﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻮﺍﺭﺍﻳﻨﺞﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻓﻲ ﻟﻨﺪﻥ؛ ﺃﻣﻀﻰ ﺃﺳﺒﻮﻋﻴﻦ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻭﺛﻬﺎﻣﺒﺘﻮﻥ‪.‬‬

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‫"ﺍﺣﺬﺭﻱ ﻳﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ( ﺍﺣﺬﺭﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻓﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺒﺪﻳﺪﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﺎﺭﻏﺔﻓﻲ ﻣﺪﻳﻨﺔ ﺇﻧﺠﻠﺘﺮﺍ؛ ﺍﺣﺬﺭﻭﺍ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻤﺎﻟﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺑﺎﺙﺍﻟﺘﺎﻓﻬﺔ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺃﺳﻤﺎﻙ ﺳﺎﻭﺛﻬﺎﻣﺒﺘﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺘﻨﺔ‪«.‬‬

‫"ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ! )ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ( ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ‬

‫ﺃﻥﺃﺗﺠﻨﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻌﺮﺽ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً؟‬
‫ﻣﺎﻫﻮ ﺍﺣﺘﻤﺎﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﺎﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﺒﺬﻳﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻟﻨﺪﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻟﻴﺎﺕﺑﺎﺙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﺳﺎﻭﺛﺎﻣﺒﺘﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺘﻨﺔ؟ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﻣﺤﻜﻮﻡ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺑﺈﺿﺎﻋﺔ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﺷﺒﺎﺑﻲ ﻭﺟﻤﺎﻟﻲ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻮﺥﻣﺘﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺁﻩ!ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺣﻴﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺳُﻤﺖ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔﻟﺘﺮﻙ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺥ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺍﺿﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻠﺬﺍﺕﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺩﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‬
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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪5‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺇﺣﺪﻯ ﺃﻣﺴﻴﺎﺕ ﺷﻬﺮ ﺩﻳﺴﻤﺒﺮ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ‬

‫ﻭﺃﺑﻲﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻧﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺣﺎﺩﻳﺚ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﺣﻮﻝ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻓﺄﺓ‪،‬ﺃﺻﺎﺑﺘﻨﺎ ﺩﻫﺸﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺳﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﻃﺮﻗﺎً‬
‫ﻋﻨﻴﻔﺎًﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺭﺟﻲ ﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻳﻔﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﺪﺃﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ "ﻣﺎ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻀﺠﻴﺞ" )ﻗﺎﻝ‪" (.‬ﻳﺒﺪﻭ‬

‫ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻪﺣﻤﻮﻟﺔ ﺗﻘﺮﻉ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ" )ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻲ(‪"" .‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪) "،‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ‪ "(.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺃﻳﻚ؛ )‬
‫ﻗﺎﻝﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ( ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﻨﺒﻊ ﻣﻦ ﺑﻌﺾ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝﺍﻟﻌﻨﻒ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺄﻟﻮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﻮﺭﺳﺖ ﺿﺪ ﺑﺎﺑﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺩﺉ‪".‬ﻧﻌﻢ )ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ( ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻣﻨﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺘﻔﻜﻴﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻳﻄﺮﻕﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮﻝ‪".‬‬

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 ‫"ﻫﺬﻩ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ )ﺃﺟﺎﺏ؛( ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻻ ﻧﺘﻈﺎﻫﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻄﺮﻗﻪ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻣﺎ ﻳﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻊ ﺟﺰﺉﻴﺎً ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪".‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻗﺎﻃﻌﺖ ﻣﻮﺳﻴﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺉﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱﻓﻲ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺛﺎﺭﺕ ﻗﻠﻘﻲ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻫﻞ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻻ ﻧﺬﻫﺐ ﻭﻧﺮﻯ ﺫﻟﻚ؟ )‬

‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ( ﺍﻟﺨﺪﻡ ﺧﺎﺭﺟﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ‪) ".‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫‪" (.‬ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ )ﺃﺿﺎﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ( ﺑﻜﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺉﻞ‪" ".‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﻧﺬﻫﺐﺍﻵﻥ؟" )ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺃﻣﻲ( "ﻛﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﺳﺮﻉ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ"‪) .‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏ‪“ (.‬ﺃﻭﻩ! ﻻ ﺗﺪﻉ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻳﻀﻴﻊ" )ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ‪(.‬‬

‫ﻫﺎﺟﻤﺖﺃﻏﻨﻴﺔ ﺭﺍﺏ ﺛﺎﻟﺜﺔ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻋﻨﻔﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ‬

‫ﻭﻗﺖﻣﻀﻰ ﺁﺫﺍﻧﻨﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪" :‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﺷﺨﺼﺎً ﻳﻄﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ"‪) .‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺑﻠﺪﻱ‬

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 ‫ﺃﻣﻲ‪" (.‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪) "،‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ( "ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺨﺪﻡ؛ )ﻗﻠﺖ( ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺳﻤﻌﺖﻣﺎﺭﻱ ﺗﺬﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪" .‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ )‬
‫ﺑﻜﻰﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ( ﻟﺬﺍ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﻮﻕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻫﻮ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﻨﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺗﺨﻤﻴﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻷﻥ ﻣﺮﻳﻢ‬

‫ﺩﺧﻠﺖﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺷﺎﺑﺎً ﻧﺒﻴﻼً‬
‫ﻭﺧﺎﺩﻣﻪﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺿﻠﻮﺍ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺸﻌﺮﺍﻥﺑﺎﻟﺒﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ ﻭﺗﻮﺳﻠﻮﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻹﺫﻥ ﻟﺘﺪﻓﺉﺔ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻴﻬﻤﺎﺑﻨﻴﺮﺍﻧﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻟﻦ ﺗﻌﺘﺮﻑ ﺑﻬﻢ؟" )ﻗﻠﺖ‪ :‬ﻟﻴﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ ﻣﺎﻧﻊ ﻳﺎ‬

‫ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ؟( )ﻗﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪" (.‬ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪) ".‬‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻲ‪(.‬‬

‫ﻣﺎﺭﻱ‪،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭ ﺃﻱ ﺃﻭﺍﻣﺮ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭ‬

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 ‫ﻋﺪﺕﺳﺮﻳﻌﺎً ﻣﻘُﺪﻣﺎً ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻭﺃﻟﻄﻒ ﺷﺎﺏ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪.‬ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻈﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻟﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺗﺄﺛﺮﺕ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ‬

‫ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞﺑﻤﻌﺎﻧﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺐ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺉﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻪ ﻷﻭﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟﺒﺆﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻴﺔﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺘﻤﺪ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪6‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﺎﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺳﻤﻪ ﻟﻴﻨﺪﺳﻲ‬

‫ﻷﺳﺒﺎﺏﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺧﻔﻴﻪ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺗﺎﻟﺒﻮﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﺎﺃﻧﻪ ﺍﺑﻦ ﺑﺎﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﺇﻧﺠﻠﻴﺰﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺃﺧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻮﺳﻄﺔﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ‪" .‬ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ )ﺗﺎﺑﻊ( ﻫﻮ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺑﺎﺉﺲ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻴﻊﻭﻣﺮﺗﺰﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺒﺮ ﻋﻦ ﺇﺧﻔﺎﻗﺎﺗﻪ‬
‫ﺇﻻﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﻣﺤﺪﺩﻳﻦ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺰﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻳﺰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻀﺎﺉﻠﻚﻳﺎ ﺑﻮﻟﻴﻔﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻒ )ﻣﺨﺎﻃﺒﺎً ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ(‬
‫ﻓﻀﺎﺉﻠﻚﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ ﻛﻠﻮﺩﻳﺎ ﻭﻓﻀﺎﺉﻠﻚ ﻳﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺮﺓﺗﺪﻋﻮﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺣﺔ ﻓﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﺛﻘﺘﻲ‪ «.‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻧﺤﻨﻰ‪".‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻢ ﺇﻏﺮﺍء ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺑﻮﻫﺞ ﺍﻟﺤﻆ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺫﺏ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺑﻬﺔﺍﻟﻠﻘﺐ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺩﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﻋﻄﺎﺉﻲ‬

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 ‫ﻳﺪﻱﻟﻠﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺟﺬﺍﺑﺔ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻓﻀﻞّ ﺃﻱ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ؛‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦﺍﻋﻠﻢ ﻳﺎ ﺳﻴﺪﻱ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻓﺾ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻣﺘﺜﺎﻻ ً‬
‫ﻟﺮﻏﺒﺎﺗﻚ‪.‬ﻻ! ﻟﻦ ﻳﻘﺎﻝ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺇﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻟﺰﻣﺖ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ«‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﻋﺠﺒﻨﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺟﻮﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺩﻩ‪ .‬ﻫﻮ‬

‫ﺃﻛﻤﻞ‬

‫»ﺗﻔﺎﺟﺄﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ؛ ﻭﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻳﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻥ‬

‫ﻳﻮﺍﺟﻪﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﺭﺿﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻹﺭﺍﺩﺗﻪ‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻦ‬
‫ﻳﺎﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺑﺎﺳﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺠﺐ )ﻗﺎﻝ( ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻄﺖ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺜﺮﺛﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻻ ﻣﻌﻨﻰ ﻟﻬﺎ؟ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﻳﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺃﻋﺘﻘﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﺣﺘﻘﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﻴﺐ‪ :‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺍﻣﺘﻲ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺭﻛﺒﺖ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺗﻲ ﻭ‬

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 ‫ﺗﺒﻌﻪﻭﻳﻠﻴﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻠﺺ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻧﻄﻠﻖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻤﺎﺗﻲ‪«.‬‬

‫"ﻳﻘﻊ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻴﺪﻓﻮﺭﺩﺷﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻨﺰﻝ‬

‫ﻋﻤﺎﺗﻲﻓﻲ ﻣﻴﺪﻟﺴﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻏﻢ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻃﺮﺏ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻜﻮﻧﻲﻣﺎﻫﺮﺍً ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺠﻐﺮﺍﻓﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺪﺙ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻳﻘﻊ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺟﻨﻮﺏﻭﻳﻠﺰ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻌﻪ"‪ .‬ﻟﺘﺼﻞ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻋﻤﺎﺗﻲ‪".‬‬

‫»ﺑﻌﺪﺃﻥ ﺗﺠﻮﻟﺖ ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺿﻔﺎﻑ ﻧﻬﺮ‬

‫ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺳﻠﻜﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺪﺏﻗﺪﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻲ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺮﻳﺮﺓ ﻭﻣﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻠﺸﻔﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﺣﻞ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻧﺠﻢ ﻭﺍﺣﺪ‬
‫ﻟﺘﻮﺟﻴﻪﺧﻄﻮﺍﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺳﻴﺤﺪﺙ ﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻮﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴﻴﺰ ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻴﺐﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺣﺎﻁ ﺑﻲ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

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‫ﺍﻟﻀﻮء‪،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺑﺖ ﻣﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻛﺘﺸﻔﺖ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺷﻌﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻧﻴﺮﺍﻧﻚﺍﻟﺒﻬﻴﺠﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻧﻴﺖﻓﻲ ﻇﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺒﺮﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻮﻉ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﺮﺩﺩﺕﻓﻲ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻛﺘﺴﺒﺘﻪﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً؛ ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺣﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﺗﺎﺑﻌﺖ ﺍﻹﻣﺴﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺑﻴﺪﻱ( ﻣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻓﺄﺓ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﻧﺎﺓﺍﻟﻤﺆﻟﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﺗﻌﻠﻘﻲ‬
‫ﺑﻚ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻃﻤﺢ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺃﻭﻩ! ﻣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺎﻓﺉﻨﻲﺑﻨﻔﺴﻚ؟‬

‫"ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﺰﻳﺰﻱ ﻭﻭﺩﻱ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪) ".‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ‬

‫ﺃﻧﺎ(‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻠﻖﺃﻱ ﺃﻭﺍﻣﺮ ﺑﺘﺮﺑﻴﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪7‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺯﻭﺍﺟﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺗﻮﺩﻳﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺇﻳﺰﺍﺑﻴﻞ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺆﺛﺮ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﻓﻘﺖ‬
‫ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻴﺪﻟﺴﻜﺲ‪ .‬ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ ﺑﻜﻞ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺒﻴﺮﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﺤﻨﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻭﺻﻮﻟﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓﺳﺎﺭﺓ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺗﺠﻬﻞ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً‬
‫ﺯﻭﺍﺟﻲﻣﻦ ﺍﺑﻦ ﺃﺧﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﺤﺴﺐ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‬
‫ﺃﺩﻧﻰﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﻦ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﺃﻭﻏﺴﺘﺎ‪،‬ﺃﺧﺖ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺓ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬

‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻀﺒﻂ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻭﺻﻔﻬﺎ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻮﺳﻄﺔﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺟﺄﺓ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻴﺲﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﺑﻪ ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ‬

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 ‫ﺑﺮﻭﺩﺓﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻘﺒﻮﻟﺔ ﻭﺗﺤﻔﻆ ﻣﺤﻈﻮﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻨﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺆﻟﻤﺎً ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻊ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺜﻴﺮﺓ ﻟﻼﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻒﺍﻟﻮﺩﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺧﻼﻗﻬﺎ ﻭﻣﺨﺎﻃﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﻨﺎﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﻴﺰ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻔﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﻐﺘﻬﺎ ﺩﺍﻓﺉﺔ ﻭﻻ ﺣﻨﻮﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻦﺗﻌﺒﻴﺮﺍﺗﻬﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻻﺣﺘﺮﺍﻡ ﻣﻔﻌﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻴﻮﻳﺔ ﻭﻻ ﻭﺩﻳﺔ؛ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻦﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻬﺎ ﻣﻔﺘﻮﺣﺘﻴﻦ ﻻﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻟﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻤﺘﺪﺓ ﻟﺘﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔﻗﺼﻴﺮﺓ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﻭﺷﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬

‫ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻬﺎﺑﺎﻟﺼﺪﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﻣﻦ ﻛﺮﺍﻫﻴﺘﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗﻨﻌﺘﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﺸﻜﻞ ﻟﺮﻭﺍﺑﻂ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺒﺐﻟﻠﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ‪.‬‬

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 ‫"ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻞ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺘﺼﺎﻟﺢ ﻣﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺤﻜﻴﻢ؟" )ﻗﺎﻝ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ‪(.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻭﻏﺴﺘﺎ )ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻞ( ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‬

‫ﺭﺃﻳﺎًﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻋﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺨﻴﻞ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺳﺄﺣﻂ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺪ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺘﺒﺮ ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺷﺆﻭﻧﻲ‪،‬ﺳﻮﺍء ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺃﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﺑﺼﺪﻕ؛ ﻫﻞ ﻋﺮﻓﺘﻨﻲ ﻳﻮﻣﺎ ًﺃﺳﺘﺸﻴﺮ ﻣﻴﻮﻟﻪ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺃﺗﺒﻊ ﻧﺼﻴﺤﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻗﻞ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﺗﺎﻓﻬﺎ ًﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ؟‬

‫»ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ :‬ﺃﻧﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻓﻲ‬

‫ﺟﺎﺉﺰﺗﻚﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺮﻙﻓﻘﻂ! ﺃﺧﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻳﺰ‪ ،‬ﻣﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺮﻙ‪،‬ﺃﺑﺮﺉﻚ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺳﺎﻫﻤﺖ ﻋﻦ ﻃﻴﺐ ﺧﺎﻃﺮ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺇﺭﺿﺎء ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻙ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺖ ﻻ ﺗﺨﻠﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺎﻭﻑ‬

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 ‫ﺳﺘﻀﻄﺮﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻂ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻧﻔﺴﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻈﺮ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻚﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻃﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﻢ ﻟﺰﻭﺟﺘﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺮﻡ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪«.‬‬

‫"ﺃﺑﺪﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﺪﺍ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻫﻴﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺪ‪) .‬‬

‫ﻗﺎﻝﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ(‪ .‬ﻳﺪﻋﻢ! ﻣﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﻠﻘﺎﻩ ﻣﻨﻪ؟‬

‫"ﻓﻘﻂ ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻻ ﺃﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﻟﻬﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ‬

‫ﻭﺍﻟﺸﺮﺍﺏ‪) ".‬ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ‪(.‬‬

‫”ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﺮﺍﺏ! )ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺯﻭﺟﻲ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻧﺒﻞ‬

‫ﺍﺯﺩﺭﺍء‪،‬ﻓﻬﻞ ﺗﺘﺨﻴﻞ ﺇﺫﻥ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺩﻋﻢ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﻌﻘﻞ ﺳﺎﻡ ٍ)‬
‫ﻣﺜﻞﻋﻘﻞ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ( ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻴﻊ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻼﺉﻖ ﻟﻸﻛﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺸﺮﺏ؟«‬

‫"ﻻ ﺷﻲء ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﺎﻝ‪) ".‬ﻋﺎﺩ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ(‪.‬‬

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 ‫"ﻭﻫﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺑﺂﻻﻡ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻳﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ؟)ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ(‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﺴﺘﺤﻴﻼً ﻟﻄﺒﻘﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﺮﻭﺍﻟﻔﺎﺳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ؟ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺼﻮﺭﺗﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺶ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺿﺎﺉﻘﺔ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺒﺒﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺮ‪،‬ﻣﻊ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﺘﻚ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ؟‬

‫"ﺃﻧﺖ ﺳﺨﻴﻒ ﺟﺪﺍً )ﺳﻌﻴﺪ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ( ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻻ‬

‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚﺍﻟﺠﺪﺍﻝ ﻣﻌﻪ؛ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻘﺘﻨﻊ ﺑﺄﻥ‬
‫‪"...‬‬

‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻣﻨﻌﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺣﺪﻳﺜﻬﺎ ﻇﻬﻮﺭ ﺷﺎﺑﺔ‬

‫ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﺗﻢ ﺇﺩﺧﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺘﻤﻊﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪ ﺳﻤﺎﻉ ﺇﻋﻼﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﺳﻢ "ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎ"‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﺮﻛﺖﻭﻇﻴﻔﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭﺗﺒﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺩﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺣﺴﻨﺎً‪-‬‬

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 ‫ﺗﺬﻛﺮﺕﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻋﺮﺿﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﻻ ﻳﻠﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺯﻭﺟﺔ ﻹﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﺪﻱ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬

‫ﺍﺳﻤﻴﺎًﺇﻟﻰ ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ ﻭﺃﻭﻏﺴﺘﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺳﺒﺒﺎً ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞﺃﻥ )ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺘﻲ ﺑﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﻭﺻﻮﻟﻪ( ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻫﻲﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﺮﺉﻴﺴﻲ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥﻣﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻮﻧﻬﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻠﺔ‬

‫ﻭﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔﻓﻲ ﺷﺨﺼﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﻬﻠﺔ ﻭﻣﻬﺬﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺧﻄﺎﺑﻬﺎ‪،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﺩﻧﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺉﻨﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻤﺎﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔﺍﻟﺮﺍﻗﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً ﻣﻨﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﻤﻜﺚ ﺳﻮﻯ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺄﺳﺮﻧﻲ ﺧﻼﻝ‬

‫ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺗﻬﺎﺑﺄﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺛﻖﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﺄﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺘﺨﻴﻞ ﺑﺴﻬﻮﻟﺔ‬

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‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻱ ﻣﻮﺩﺓ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺍﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁﺻﺎﺩﻕ ﺟﺪﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪8‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫ﻟﻢﺗﻐﺎﺩﺭﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺪﺓ ﺩﻭﺭﻭﺛﻴﺎ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﺍﻹﻋﻼﻥﻋﻦ ﺯﺍﺉﺮ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺳﻴﺎﺩﺗﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺑﻠﻐﺘﻪ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﺑﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﺷﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﺟﺎء ﺑﻼ ﺷﻚ ﻟﻴﻮﺑﺨﻪ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺗﺠﺮﺃ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﺑﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻤﻪ‪.‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺗﺼﻤﻴﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻗﺘﺮﺏ ﻣﻨﻪ ﺑﺜﺒﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺑﻄﻮﻟﻲﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺩﺧﻮﻟﻪ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﺎﻃﺒﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺳﻴﺪ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻭﺭﺍء ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻚ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺗﻴﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﻤﻴﻢ ﺍﻷﺳﺎﺳﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻤﺜﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻮﺑﻴﺨﻲ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻨﻲﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺭﺗﺒﺎﻁ ﻻ ﻳﻨﻔﺼﻢ ﻣﻊ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘﺘﻚ‪.‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﺎ ﺳﻴﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻣﺠﺪ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻧﻮﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻬﺎ‬

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 ‫ﺃﻋﻈﻢﻓﺨﺮ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺳﺒﺒﺖ ﺳﺨﻂ ﺃﺑﻲ!«‬

‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‪،‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﺃﻣﺴﻚ ﺑﻴﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ‬

‫ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩﻭﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ ﻭﺃﻭﻏﺴﺘﺎ ﻳﺘﺄﻣﻠﻮﻥ ﺑﺈﻋﺠﺎﺏ ﺑﻼ ﺷﻚ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺷﺠﺎﻋﺘﻪﺍﻟﺸﺠﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﺩﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺩﻫﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺮﺑﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻇﻠﺖ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻢ ﻧﻘﻠﻨﺎ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻌﺮﺑﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﻄﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗﻠﻘﺖﻋﺎﺉﻠﺔ ‪ Postilions‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺃﻭﺍﻣﺮ ﺑﺴﻠﻮﻙ‬

‫ﻃﺮﻳﻖﻟﻨﺪﻥ ﻓﻘﻂ؛ ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻓﻜﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﺮﻧﺎﻫﻢﺑﺎﻟﻘﻴﺎﺩﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ‪ .M‬ﻣﻘﺮ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻴﺔ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻣﻴﺎﻝ ﻓﻘﻂ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎﺇﻟﻰ ﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ؛ ﻭﻋﻨﺪ ﺇﺭﺳﺎﻝ‬

‫ﺃﺳﻤﺎﺉﻨﺎﺗﻢ ﻗﺒﻮﻟﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‬

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‫ﺇﻟﻰﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺯﻭﺟﺔ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺣﺮُﻣﺖ ﺧﻼﻝ ‪3‬‬
‫ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊﻣﻦ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﻲ )ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺃﺳﻤﻴﻪ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻚ( ﺗﺨﻴﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺳﺎﺉﻞﺍﻟﻨﻘﻞ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻲ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﺴﺘﺤﻖ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺳﻢﺣﻘﺎً‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺠﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﺳﻂ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺣﺪ ٍﻣﺎ؛ ﻭﺍﻧﺘﺸﺮ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟﻜﺴﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻼﻣﺤﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪﺯﺍﺩ ﺟﻤﺎﻟﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺧﺼﺎﺉﺺ ﻋﻘﻠﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻬﺎﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻭﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻃﺎﺭﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺣﻀﺎﻥ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻟﻨﺎ ﻋﻬﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﺎﺩﻟﺔ ﻟﺒﻘﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻨﺎ‪،‬ﻛﺸﻔﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻟﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺳﺮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﻗﻠﻮﺑﻨﺎﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ ﺧﻔﺎﻳﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻤﺖ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺒﻬﺞﻋﻨﺪ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﺃﻭﻏﺴﻄﺲ )ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ( ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻋﺎﺩ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺘﻮﻣﻦ ﻧﺰﻫﺔ ﺍﻧﻔﺮﺍﺩﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢﻳﺴﺒﻖ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺃﻳﺖ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﻬﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺛﺮ ﻣﺜﻞ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺎءﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪.‬‬
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‫"ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ! ﺭﻭﺣﻲ!" )ﺻﺎﺡ ﺍﻷﻭﻝ( "ﻳﺎ ﻣﻼﻛﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺉﻊ! )‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺏﻻﺣﻘﺎً( ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺗﺒﺎﺩﻻ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ ﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻏﻤﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻨﺎﻭﺏﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪9‬ﺫﻣﻦ ﻧﻔﺲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﻔﺲ‬

‫ﻭﻣﻊﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ‬

‫ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ‪.‬‬

‫»ﺇﻥﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻏﺎﺿﺐ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻣﻦ ﺭﺣﻴﻠﻚ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺟﺊ؛ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻋﺎﺩ ﺃﻭﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﻴﺪﻓﻮﺭﺩﺷﻴﺮ‪" .‬ﺑﻘﺪﺭ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﻤﺠﺘﻤﻌﻚ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﻻﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺭ ﺍﻧﺘﺰﺍﻋﻚ ﻣﻦ ﻫﺆﻻء ﺍﻷﺻﺪﻗﺎء ﺍﻷﻋﺰﺍء‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺤﻘﻴﻦ‪.‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻨﺘﻬﻲ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺗﻚ ﻟﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺛﻘﺔﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺳﺘﻌﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺣﻀﺎﻥ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺘﻚ" "ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ‪" .‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺃﺭﺳﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﺟﺎﺑﺔ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻟﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ‬

‫ﻭﺑﻌﺪﺃﻥ ﻓﻜﺮﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻋﻮﺗﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﻳﻤﺔ ﺃﻛﺪﻧﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪﺳﻨﺴﺘﻔﻴﺪ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻨﺎ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺁﺧﺮﻧﺬﻫﺐ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ'‬

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 ‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺷﻲء ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﻷﻱ ﻛﺎﺉﻦ ﻋﺎﻗﻞ‬
‫ﺃﻥﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺇﺭﺿﺎء ًﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺠﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺘﻨﺔ ﻟﺪﻋﻮﺗﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ ﻻ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﺘﺴﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻘﻠﺒﺔﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ ﻟﺘﺴﺘﺎء ﻣﻦ ﺳﻠﻮﻛﻨﺎ ﻭﺗﻨﺘﻘﻢ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺳﻠﻮﻛﻨﺎ‪،‬ﺃﻭ ﺗﺰﻭﺟﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺻﺎﺉﺪ ﺛﺮﻭﺓ ﺷﺎﺏ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﺓﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺤﻜﻴﻤﺔ )ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺪﺭﻙ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺳﺘﺤﺮﻣﻨﺎﻣﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺜﺮﻭﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻤﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻴﻠﻴﺒﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺘﻮﻗﻌﻬﺎ‬
‫( ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻘﻮﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﺗﻨﻬﻴﺪﺓ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ؛‬
‫ﻭﻣﻊﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻗﻞ ﺗﻘﺪﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺼﺪﺭﺍً‬
‫ﻟﺒﺆﺱﻻ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﻪ ﻟﻠﻌﺮﻭﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺗﺄﺛﺮﺕ‬
‫ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻨﺎﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﺠﻔﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﺪﺙ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺘﻮﺳﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺤﻨﻮﻧﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻏﺴﻄﺲﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺳﻨﺮﻳﺪﻫﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻷﺑﺪ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺮﻣﻨﺰﻟﻬﻢ ﻫﻮ ﻣﻮﻃﻨﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺳﺎﺩ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﺑﺴﻬﻮﻟﺔ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻘﺮﺭﺃﻻ ﻧﺘﺮﻛﻬﻢ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺜﻨﺎﺉﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺩﻭﺩ‪،‬ﻗﻀﻴﺖ ﺃﺳﻌﺪ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻀﻴﻨﺎ ﻭﻗﺘﺎً‬
‫ﻣﻤﺘﻌﺎًﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺣﺘﺠﺎﺝ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﺎﺩﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲﻋﻬﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺑﻞ ﻟﻠﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺎ ﺁﻣﻨﻴﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻃﻌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻄﻔﻠﻴﻦ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻏﻮﺑﻴﻦ‪،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺩﺧﻮﻟﻬﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻝﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺣﺮﺻﻮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺑﻼﻍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺉﻼﺕﺍﻟﻤﺤﻴﻄﺔ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺗﻬﻢ ﺗﺘﻤﺤﻮﺭ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﻣﻞ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻬﻢ‪،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻻ ﻳﺮﻏﺒﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﻣﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻸﺳﻒ!ﺛﻢ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﺜﺎﻟﻴﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً ﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﻳﺪﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺩﻣﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻀﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪﺓ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﻗﻌﺔﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ ﻛﻞ ﺇﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺘﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻊ ﻛﻤﺎ‬
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 ‫ﻣﻦﻣﺎ ﻗﻠﺘﻪ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ ﺑﺄﻏﺴﻄﺲ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪،‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺯﻭﺟﺎﻥ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪،‬ﻻ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺨﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﻠﻐﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩﻫﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﺨﺎﻟﻔﺎً ﻟﻤﻴﻮﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻳﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﺎﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺮﺗﺰﻗﺔ؛ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ‬
‫ﺳﻌﻮﺍﻋﺒﺜﺎً ﺑﻤﺜﺎﺑﺮﺓ ﻋﻨﻴﺪﺓ ﻹﺟﺒﺎﺭﻫﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻜﺮﻫﻮﻧﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺜﺒﺎﺕﺍﻟﺒﻄﻮﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﻓﺾ ﻛﻼﻫﻤﺎ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺨﻀﻮﻉ‬
‫ﻟﻤﺜﻞﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﺓ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﺒﺪﺍﺩﻳﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﺮﺭﻭﺍ ﺑﻨﺒﻞ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻏﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴﻠﻄﺔ ﺍﻷﺑﻮﻳﺔ‪،‬‬

‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺼﻤﻤﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺪﻡ‬
‫ﻓﻘﺪﺍﻥﺍﻟﺮﺃﻱ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻛﺘﺴﺒﻮﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺧﻼﻝﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻗﺒﻮﻝ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻘﺘﺮﺣﺎﺕ‬
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 ‫ﺭﺑﻤﺎﻋﺮﺿﻬﻢ ﺁﺑﺎﺅﻫﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﻛﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺑﻮﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻻﺳﺘﻘﻼﻟﻬﻢﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻨﻜﺸﻔﻮﺍ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺰﻭﺟﻴﻦ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺷﻬﺮ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ‬

‫ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺗﻨﺎﻟﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﻼﻝ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻣﺪﻋﻮﻣﻴﻦ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺑﻤﺒﻠﻎ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻝ ﺳﺮﻗﻪ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﺑﺮﺷﺎﻗﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺳﻜﺮﺗﻮﺍﺭﻭﺍﻟﺪﻩ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺤﻖ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻳﺎﻡ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩﻩﻣﻊ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺑﺤﻠﻮﻝﻭﺻﻮﻟﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺯﺍﺩﺕ ﻧﻔﻘﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻨﻔﺎﺩ ﻭﺳﺎﺉﻠﻬﻢ ﻟﺘﺰﻭﻳﺪﻫﻢ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺎﻟﻰ‪.‬ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻗﺎﺕ! ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺤﺘﻘﺮﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔﻜﺮﻭﺍ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻨﺘﻬﻢﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺨﺠﻠﻮﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺳﺪﺍﺩ‬
‫ﺩﻳﻮﻧﻬﻢﻟﻸﺳﻒ! ﻓﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺰﺍﺅﻫﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ‬

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‫ﺳﻠﻮﻙﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻬﺘﻢ! ﺗﻢ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﺾ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻭﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﻢﺍﻟﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﻋﻨﺎ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً‪ .‬ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﺎﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺣﻢ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻑﻳﺼﺪﻡ ﻣﺮﺗﻜﺒﻮ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺛﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎﻭﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ .‬ﻻﺳﺘﻜﻤﺎﻝ ﻫﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬﻤﺠﻴﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ ﻣﺜﻴﻞ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑُﻠﻐﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﻋﺪﺍﻡ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺠﻠﺲﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﺏ ﺳﺘﻨُﻔﺬ ﻗﺮﻳﺒﺎً‪ .‬ﺁﻩ! ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﻮﺳﻌﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻔﻌﻞﺳﻮﻯ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻨﺎﻩ! ﺗﻨﻬﺪﻧﺎ ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﻳﻜﺔ‪.‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪10‬ﺫﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭﻳﺔ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﺗﻌﺎﻓﻴﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻓﻴﻀﺎﻥ ﺣﺰﻧﻨﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻏﻲ‪،‬ﺭﻏﺐ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻔﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﺓ ﺍﻷﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﺣﻜﻤﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺍﺗﺨﺎﺫﻫﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺿﻌﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺲ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻮﺟﻪﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺠﻮﻥ ﻟﻠﺮﺛﺎء ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﺘﻪ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﺼﺎﺉﺐ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻓﻮﺍﺻﻞ ﺭﺣﻠﺘﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪.‬ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﻏﻴﺎﺑﻪ ﺍﻣﺘﺜﻠﻨﺎ ﻟﺮﻏﺒﺘﻪ ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻣﺪﺍﻭﻻﺕﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻧﻀﺠﺎً‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﻔﻘﻨﺎ ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﻴﺎﻡ ﺑﻪ ﻫﻮ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻠﺲ؛ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻛﻨﺎﻧﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﺘﺤﻮﺫ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺿﺒﺎﻁ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺍﻟﺔ‪.‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﻔﺎﺭﻍ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺮ‪ ،‬ﻝ‬

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 ‫ﻋﻮﺩﺓﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻧﺴﺘﻮﺭﺩ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻧﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻣﺪﺍﻭﻻﺗﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻢﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﻋﺒﺜﺎ ًﺃﺣﺼﻴﻨﺎ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺎﺑﻪ ﻋﺒﺜﺎ ً‬
‫ﺑﻜﻴﻨﺎﻋﺒﺜﺎ ًﺣﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﺗﻨﻬﺪﻧﺎ ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻫﺬﻩ ﺿﺮﺑﺔ ﻗﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻌﺔ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻨﺎﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻧﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻦﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻔﻘﺪ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺟﻤﻌﺖﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﻴﺪﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻧﻬﻀﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺟﻬﺰﺕ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻤﻼﺑﺲ ﺍﻟﻀﺮﻭﺭﻳﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻭﻟﺼﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺟﺮﺗﻬﺎﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﺮﺑﺔ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻃﻠﺒﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻄﻠﻘﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻟﻨﺪﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺴﻜﻦ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﺍﺛﻨﻲﻋﺸﺮ ﻣﻴﻼ ًﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﻳﻤﺾ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ‬
‫ﺣﺘﻰﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺩﺧﻠﻨﺎ ﺣﻠﺒﻮﻥ ﺣﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺧﺬﻟﻨﺎ‬

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 ‫ﺇﺣﺪﻯﺍﻟﻨﻈﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻣﻴﺔ ﺳﺄﻟﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺷﺨﺺ ﺣﺴﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻈﻬﺮﻣﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺑﻪ "ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻭﺍ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ؟‬
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‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﻘﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ‬

‫ﺟﺪﺍًﺑﺤﻴﺚ ﻟﻢ ﻧﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺴﺎﺭﺍﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﺮﺭﺓ‪،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕﻋﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻌﻠﻮﻣﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻬﺎ‪".‬ﺃﻳﻦ ﺳﺄﻗﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ؟ ""ﻗﺎﻝ ‪ "".Postilion‬ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻧﻴﻮﺟﻴﺖﺟﻨﺘﻞ ﻳﻮﺙ )ﺃﺟﺒﺖ(‪ ،‬ﻟﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﺃﻭﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪" .‬‬
‫ﺃﻭﻩ!"ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ" )ﻫﺘﻔﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ( ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻟﺬﻫﺎﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻧﻴﻮﺟﻴﺖ؛ﻟﻦ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺍً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺩﻋﻢ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹﺑﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺤﺒﺲ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ‬
‫ﻣﺼﺪﻭﻣﺔﺑﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﺩ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺤﻜﻲ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻨﺘﻪ‪،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﺍﺗﻔﻖ ﻣﻌﻬﺎ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺪﺍﻟﺘﻬﺎ‬

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‫ﺗﻢﺗﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ‪ Postilion‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻟﻠﻌﻮﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺍﻟﺒﻼﺩ‪ .‬ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﺗﻔﺎﺟﺄﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻣﺎ ﻳﺎ ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‪،‬ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺤﻤﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺤﺮﻭﻣﺎًﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺩﻋﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺰﻭﺩ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺳﻜﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲﻟﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻛﻮﺥ ﺃﺑﻲ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﺘﻔﺴﻴﺮ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻨﺴﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻈﺎﻫﺮﻱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻳﺠﺐﺃﻥ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻙ ﺑﻈﺮﻑ ﺗﺎﻓﻪ‬

‫ﺑﺨﺼﻮﺻﻬﻢﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺫﻛﺮﻫﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻐﺎﺩﺭﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻈﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻳﺚ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻋﻲ ﻟﺨﺮﻃﻮﻣﻬﻢ ﻭﺛﺮﻭﺗﻬﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻜﻦﻟﻸﺳﻒ! ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻣﻠﻜﺎً ﻟﻬﻢ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺛﺮﻭﺗﻬﻢ ﻓﻘﻂ‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻤﻌﺎﺵ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﻓﺴﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ!ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻚ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻠﻴﺰﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺎﻥﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﺘﻘﺪﻳﻤﻬﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺣﺮﺓ‪،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻀﻲ ﺑﻤﺮﺡ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺒﻘﻰ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲﻓﻲ ﻧﺰﻝ ﻣﺠﺘﻤﻌﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻳﺰ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﺩﻱ ﺃﻭﺳﻜﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻮﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻣﺨﻄﻂ ﻣﻘﺒﻮﻝ ‪ ،‬ﺗﺪﺧﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺗﻚ ﻭﻧﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﺰء ﺑﻌﻴﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻳﺮﻟﻨﺪﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪11‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫"ﻟﺪﻱ ﻗﺮﻳﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﻜﺘﻠﻨﺪﺍ )ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‬

‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎﻏﺎﺩﺭﻧﺎ ﻟﻨﺪﻥ( ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻟﻦ ﺗﺘﺮﺩﺩ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﺎﻟﻲ‪" ".‬‬

‫ﻫﻞﺃﻃﻠﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﺩ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ؟«‬

‫ﻗﻠﺖﻭﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﻌﺖ ﻗﻮﺍﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭﺻﺮﺧﺖ‪:‬‬
‫»ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ‪،‬ﺃﺧﺸﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺨﻴﻮﻝ‪«.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺍً ﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﺭﻏﺒﺘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺇﻻ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺘﻲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﻭﻗﺪﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﻮﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﺸﺮﺕ‪ ،Postilion‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻟﻪ ﺭﺃﻳﻲ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻓﻴﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖﺑﺎﻟﻘﻀﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﺮﺭﻧﺎ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺨﻴﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻳﻨﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔﻭﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺑﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﺣﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺁﺧﺮ‬
‫ﻧﺰﻝﻛﻨﺎ ﺳﻨﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻣﻴﺎﻝ‬
‫ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺰﻝ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‬

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 ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺍًﻟﻌﺪﻡ ﺭﻏﺒﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻄﻔﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺠﺘﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺑﺸﻜﻞﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻛﺘﺒﻨﺎ ﻟﻪ ﻣﺬﻛﺮﺓ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔﻭﻣﻜﺘﻮﺑﺔ ﺟﻴﺪﺍً ﺗﺤﺘﻮﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺻﻒ ﻟﻮﺿﻌﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻮﺯﻭﺍﻟﻜﺉﻴﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻦ ﻧﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﻗﻀﺎء ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻷﺷﻬﺮ ﻣﻌﻪ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﺳﻜﺘﻠﻨﺪﺍ‪ .‬ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻠﻨﺎ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺪﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻟﻤﺘﺎﺑﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺎً ﻭﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺪﺧﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺑﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻬﺬﺍﺍﻟﻐﺮﺽ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻧﺠﺬﺏ ﺍﻧﺘﺒﺎﻫﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺪﺧﻞ ﺣﺎﻓﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺘﻮﺟﺔﻭ ‪ 4‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳﺎﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺰﻝ‪ .‬ﺭﺟﻞ ﻧﺒﻴﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻪ‪.‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻇﻬﻮﺭ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗﺄﺛﺮﺕ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻲ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺭﺍﺉﻊ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﻠﻤﺎﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﻟﻠﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﺲ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﺑﺘﻌﺎﻃﻒ‬
‫ﻏﺮﻳﺰﻱ‪،‬ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺎً ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻄﺉﺎًﻓﻲ ﺗﺨﻤﻴﻨﻲ‬

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‫ﻗﻔﺰﺕﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺩﺧﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺒﻌﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻳﺐﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻢ ﺍﺻﻄﺤﺎﺑﻪ ﺇﻟﻴﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺭﻛﻌﺖﺃﻣﺎﻣﻪ ﻭﺗﻮﺳﻠﺖ ﺇﻟﻴﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﺘﺮﻑ ﺑﻲ ﻛﻄﻔﻠﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮ‪.‬ﺑﺪﺃ ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﺤﺺ ﻣﻼﻣﺤﻲ ﺑﺎﻧﺘﺒﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﺭﻓﻌﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻪ ﺍﻷﺑﻮﻳﺘﻴﻦ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺻﺎﺡ‪":‬ﺃﻋﺘﺮﻑ ﻟﻚ!" ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﻋﺰﻳﺰﻱ ﺍﻟﺸﺒﻪ ﺑﺎﺑﻨﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎﻭﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﻜﻠﻮﺩﻳﺎ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻛﻠﻮﺩﻳﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻨﻲﺃﻋﺘﺮﻑ ﺑﻚ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺃﺣﺪﻫﻤﺎ ﻭﺟﺪ ﺍﻵﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﺎﻧﻘﻨﻲ ﺑﺤﻨﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺪﻫﺸﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺭﺣﻴﻠﻲﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﺮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺤﺜﺎً ﻋﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﺪ‬
‫ﺗﺨﻄﻒﺃﻧﻈﺎﺭﻫﺎ‬

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 ‫ﺃﻳﻬﺎﺍﻟﻨﻈﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﻗﺮ‪ ،‬ﺻﺎﺡ ﺑﻜﻞ ﻋﻼﻣﺔ ﺩﻫﺸﺔ‪» :‬ﺁﺧﺮ‬

‫ﺣﻔﻴﺪﺓ!ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻧﻚ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﺮﻯ ﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎ؛‬

‫ﺇﻥﺗﺸﺒﻴﻬﻚ ﺑﻤﺎﺗﻴﻠﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻳﻮﺿﺢ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻓﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺎﻳﺔ‪«.‬ﺃﻭﻩ! ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪" :‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﺘﻚ ﻷﻭﻝ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓ‪،‬ﻫﻤﺴﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻏﺮﻳﺰﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﺎ ﻣﺮﺗﺒﻄﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺣﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻫﻞ ﻧﺤﻦ ﺃﺟﺪﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻈﺎﻫﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺘﺤﺪﻳﺪﺫﻟﻚ‪ ".‬ﻃﻮﺍَّﻫﺎ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻌﺎﻧﻘﺎﻥﺑﺤﻨﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻔﺘﺢ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻬﺮ ﺷﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺟﻤﻴﻞ‪.‬ﻋﻨﺪ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺭﺩ ﺳﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻠﻴﺮ ﻳﺘﺮﺍﺟﻊ ﺑﻀﻊ‬
‫ﺧﻄﻮﺍﺕﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍء‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺪﺍﻩ ﻣﺮﻓﻮﻋﺘﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝ‪" :‬ﺣﻔﻴﺪ‬
‫ﺁﺧﺮ!ﻣﺎ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﻗﻌﺔ! ﻻﻛﺘﺸﺎﻑ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻏﻀﻮﻥ‪ 3‬ﺩﻗﺎﺉﻖ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻳﺪﻣﻦ ﺃﺣﻔﺎﺩﻱ! ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺘﺄﻛﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻼﻧﺪﺭﺍﺑﻦ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎ ﺛﻼﺛﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﺑﻌﺎﺩ‪ ،‬ﺑﻴﺮﺛﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ؛‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙﻣﺎ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻩ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺟﻮﺳﺘﺎﻓﻮﺱ ﻳﻜﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺍﺗﺤﺎﺩﺃﺣﻔﺎﺩ ﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻭﻫﺎ ﻫﻮ )ﻗﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺩﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ‬

‫ﻓﻲﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ( ﻫﻨﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎﻓﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺮﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻪ‪.‬ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﺑﻦ ﺃﺟﺎﺛﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻚ ﻟﻮﺭﻳﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻌﺔﺫ"ﻭﺍﻻﺑﻨﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺮﻯ‪" "،‬ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻧﻚ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻧﺖﻛﻠﻴﺮ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ )ﺗﺎﺑﻊ ﻧﻈﺮﻩ ﺑﺨﻮﻑ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ(‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ‪،‬ﻫﻞ ﻟﺪﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺃﺣﻔﺎﺩ ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ‪" ".‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺷﻲءﻳﺎ ﺭﺑﻲ‪" ".‬ﺛﻢ ﺳﺄﻭﻓﺮ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺟﻤﻴﻌﺎً ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﺰﻳﺪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺄﺧﻴﺮ‪،‬ﺇﻟﻴﻜﻢ ‪ 4‬ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﻧﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﺑﻘﻴﻤﺔ ‪ 50‬ﺟﻨﻴﻬﺎً ﻟﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻬﺎ‪،‬ﺧﺬﻫﺎ ﻭﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻗﻤﺖ ﺑﻮﺍﺟﺐ ﺍﻟﺠﺪ‪".‬‬

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‫ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻣﺒﺎﺷﺮﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ‪،‬ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪12‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺨﻴﻞ ﻛﻢ ﻓﻮﺟﺉﻨﺎ ﺑﺮﺣﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺭﺩ‬

‫ﺳﺎﻧﺖﻛﻠﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺟﺊ‪" .‬ﺳﻴﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﻧﻲء!‬
‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪ ".‬ﺟﺪ ﻻ ﻳﺴﺘﺤﻖ! ﻗﻠﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻨﺎﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﺑﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﻌﺾ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﻠﻢ‬
‫ﻛﻢﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﺎﻓﻴﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﻭﺣﺪﻧﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﻏﻮﺳﺘﺎﻓﻮﺱ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻴﻼﻧﺪﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺍﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺄﺳﻒ ﻟﻤﺼﻴﺮﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺲ‪،‬ﻓﺘُﺢ ﺑﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻢ ﺍﻹﻋﻼﻥ ﻋﻦ ﺍﺳﻢ "‬
‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ"‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﺑﻦ ﻋﻢ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺟﺎءﺑﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﺭﺗﻴﺎﺣﻨﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻭﺟﻴﺰﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﺳﺘﻼﻡ‬
‫ﻣﺬﻛﺮﺗﻨﺎ‪،‬ﺗﺤﺪﺛﺖ ﻟﺼﺎﻟﺤﻪ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺩﺩﺕﻓﻲ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻧﻄﻘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺒﺼﺮﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﺎء ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﺎﻃﻒ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ! ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻖﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻻﺳﻢ ﻗﻠﻴﻼً ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﻠﻘﺎً‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻣﺼﺎﺉﺒﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺭﻭﺍﻳﺘﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻉ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﺪﻓﻌﻪﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﻟﻘﺎء ﻟﻌﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﺠﻮﻣﻨﺎ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻪ ﺗﻌﺘﻤﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻮﺩﺗﻬﺎ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪﻫﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺼﺪﻳﻖ ﻻﺑﻦ ﻋﻤﻪ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥﺳﻌﻴﺪﺍً ﺑﺮﺅﻳﺘﻲ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ .‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺫﻫﺒﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪﻫﻮﻝ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻘﺒﻠﺘﻨﺎ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻴﺪﺓﺍﻟﻘﺼﺮ ﺑﻠﻄﻒ ﻛﺒﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ ﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺨﺎﻣﺴﺔﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻫﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ؛ ﺣﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺑﻄﺒﻴﻌﺘﻪ‪،‬ﻭﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﻘﻠﺐ ﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻭﻣﺘﻌﺎﻃﻒ‬

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‫ﻛﺎﻥﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺗﻢ ﺗﺸﺠﻴﻊ‬
‫ﻫﺬﻩﺍﻟﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺻﺤﻴﺢ؛ ﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﺴﻮء‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻆ‪،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻯ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ ﺭﻭﺡ ﻣﻤﺠﺪﺓ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﻜﻔﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻺﻋﺠﺎﺏﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻋﺪﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺬﻝ ﻗﺼﺎﺭﻯ‬
‫ﺟﻬﺪﻩﺑﻜﻞ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺉﻞ ﻟﻤﻨﻌﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﻮ ﻣﻊ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ‬
‫ﺳﻨﻮﺍﺗﻬﺎ‪.‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻃﻔﺄ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺍﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻠﺔﻟﻘﻠﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﺘﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﻬﺎ ﺑﻘﺒﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺽﺍﻟﺘﻮﺻﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺮﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺰﻭﺟﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻏﻀﻮﻥﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺷﻬﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﺟﺮﺍﻫﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻠﻨﺎ‪.‬ﻭﺳﺮﻋﺎﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺭﺟﻼ ًﻛﻤﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺍﻟﻤﺮء ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍﺇﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﻗﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳﻊ ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻘﺒﻮﻻ؛ ﻧﺤﻦ‬

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‫ﻟﻢﻧﺘﻈﺎﻫﺮ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻜﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺘﻔﺎﻫﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻛﻨﺎ ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻪ ﺭﻭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﺮﺃ‬
‫ﺃﺑﺪﺍًﺃﺣﺰﺍﻥ ﻓﻴﺮﺗﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺷﻌﺮﻩ ﻻ ﻳﺸﺒﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮﺍﻟﺒﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻘﻴﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺃﻥ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺃﻱ ﻋﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻗﻞﻻ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺷﻲء‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻇﺮﻭﻑﻛﻮﻧﻪ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺻﺎﻟﺤﻪ‬
‫ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً‪،‬ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻟﻮ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺴﺘﺤﻘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻮﺍﺣﻲﺍﻷﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪ ﺫﺍﺗﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﺐ‬
‫ﺃﻥﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺳﺒﺒﺎً ﻛﺎﻓﻴﺎً ﻓﻲ ﻧﻈﺮ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ ﻟﺮﻓﻀﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻋﻘﺪﻧﺎﺍﻟﻌﺰﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺮﺽ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺿﻮءﻫﺎﺍﻟﺼﺤﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺸﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺗﺤﻘﻴﻖ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺡ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺸﻮﺩﻣﻦ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺑﺤﺴﻦ ﺍﻟﻨﻴﺔ ﺑﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ‪،‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲﻧﺸﺄﺕ ﺃﺧﻄﺎﺉﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻀﻴﺔ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻡﺍﻟﺜﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﻳﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻻﺯﺩﺭﺍء ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺐ‬
‫ﻟﺮﺃﻱﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻭﺟﺪﻧﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺘﻤﻨﺎﻩ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺃﺣﺮ ﺃﻣﻨﻴﺎﺗﻨﺎ؛ ﻟﻢ ﻧﺠﺪ ﺻﻌﻮﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻗﻨﺎﻋﻬﺎ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﺐ ﺟﺮﺍﻫﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻦ ﻭﺍﺟﺒﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻋﺼﻴﺎﻥﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ؛ ﺍﻟﺸﻲء ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻣﺘﺮﺩﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻪﻫﻮ ﺗﺄﻛﻴﺪﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻣﺮﺗﺒﻄﺔ ﺑﺸﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﺒﻌﺾﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﺛﺎﺑﺮﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﻋﻼﻥ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺷﺎﺏﺁﺧﺮ ﺗﻜﻦ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺩﺓ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺷﺮﺡﺍﺳﺘﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﺣﺪﻭﺙ ﺷﻲء ﻛﻬﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺇﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻌﺘﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﺎﺗﺤﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺑﺘﻦ ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨﺮﻱ‬

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 ‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﺨﺺ ﻋﺮﻓﺘﻪ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻗﻨﻌﻨﺎ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺮﺍﻑﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻛﺮﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻳﺘﻤﺘﻊﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨﺮﻱ ﻭﺃﻛﺪ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﺮﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻋﻠﻦ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺣﺎﻝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺣﻮﺍﻝ‬
‫ﻋﻦﺣﺒﻪ ﻟﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺣﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﺼﻘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺲ‬

‫ﻟﺪﻱﺃﻱ ﺳﺒﺐ ﻟﺘﺨﻴﻞ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻗﺪ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻱ ﺷﻲء ﺗﺠﺎﻫﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪" ".‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪ ".‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﺄﻛﻴﺪ ﻳﻌﺸﻘﻚ )‬
‫ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ( ﻓﻼ ﺷﻚ‪ .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻓﻖ‬
‫ﻣﺘﺒﺎﺩﻻ‪ً.‬ﺃﻟﻢ ﻳﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ ﺑﺈﻋﺠﺎﺏ ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎً‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻳﻀﻐﻂ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﻳﺪﻙ ﺑﺤﻨﺎﻥ ﻭﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﺩﻣﻌﺔ ﻻ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﻳﺔ ﻭﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔﻓﺠﺄﺓ؟ ﻟﻢ )ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺘﻬﺎ( ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺎً ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺘُﺮﻙﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺯﻳﺎﺭﺗﻪ‬

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 ‫ﺍﻧﺘﻬﻰﻭﻟﻜﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺨﺘﻔﻲ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺊ ﺃﻭ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﺤﻨﺎء‪.‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻳﺎ ﺣﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ )ﻗﻠﺖ( ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﺃﻧﻚ‬
‫ﻣﺨﻄﺉﺔﻷﻧﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴﻞ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺮﻛﻚ ﺇﻻ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺭﺗﺒﺎﻙﻭﺍﻟﻴﺄﺱ ﻭﺍﻻﻧﺪﻓﺎﻉ‪ .‬ﻓﻜﺮ ﻭﻟﻮ ﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻨﻊ ﻛﻢ ﻫﻮ ﺳﺨﻴﻒ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﺘﺮﺽ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﻳﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﻨﻊ ﻗﻮﺳﺎً ﺃﻭ ﻳﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺷﺨﺺﺁﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺗﺴﻮﻳﺔ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻄﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ ﻳﺮﺿﻴﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻷﻣﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺧﺬﻧﺎﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﻫﻮ ﺗﺤﺪﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺒﻠﻎ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨﺮﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻳﺠﺎﺑﻲﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻋﺮﺑﺖ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ ﺑﺸﺄﻧﻪ…‪ .‬ﺍﺗﻔﻘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍًﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻌﺮﻳﻔﻪ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺑﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ ﻣﺠﻬﻮﻟﺔ ﻛﺘﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

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‫"ﺃﻭﻩ! ﻋﺎﺷﻖ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ ﻟﺠﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻩ! ﺃﻳﺘﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻟﻜﺔﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ ﻟﻘﻠﺒﻬﺎ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺘﺠﻪ ﻳﺪﻫﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍﺗﺆﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺮﺍﻑ ﺑﻬﺎ؟ ﺃﻭﻩ! ﺿﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭﻙ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﺳﺘﻀﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ ﺣﺪﺍً ﻟﻜﻞ ﺃﻣﻞ‬
‫ﺟﻤﻴﻞﻗﺪ ﺗﻨﻌﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺗﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺉﺴﺔﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺟﺮﺍﻫﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺒﻐﻴﺾ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻜﺮﻭﻩ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ! ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺘﻐﺎﺿﻰ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮﺓ ﻋﻦ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺒﺆﺱﺍﻟﻤﺘﻮﻗﻊ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻭﻟﻨﻔﺴﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺗﺄﺧﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺇﻳﺼﺎﻝﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻄﻂ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺳﺘﺤﻮﺫ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻴﺎﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺑﻼ ﺷﻚ؟ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻻﺗﺤﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻱ ﺳﻴﻀﻤﻦ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ ﺳﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻛﻠﻴﻬﻤﺎ‪«.‬‬

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‫ﻣﺎﻛﻴﻨﺮﻱﺍﻟﻮﺩﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺗﻮﺍﺿﻌﻪ ﻛﻤﺎ ﺃﻛﺪ ﻟﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻤﺎﺑﻌﺪ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﺒﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ﻭﺭﺍء ﺇﺧﻔﺎءﻩ ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ‬
‫ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔﻋﻨﻒ ﻣﺤﺒﺘﻪ ﻟﺠﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻼﻣﻪ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺑﻴﻠﻴﺖ‪،‬ﻃﺎﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺟﻨﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﻫﻮﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻘﻮﺓﺷﺪﻳﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﺗﻮﺳﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﺭﺗﺒﺎﻃﻪ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻟﻬﻤﺘﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﺑﻌﺪ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻣﻘﺎﺑﻼﺕ ﺧﺎﺻﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎﺑﺎﻟﺮﺿﺎ ﻋﻨﺪ ﺭﺅﻳﺘﻬﻢ ﻳﻐﺎﺩﺭﻭﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏﺮﻳﺘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺟﺮﻳﻦ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺧﺘﺎﺭﻭﻫﺎ ﻟﻼﺣﺘﻔﺎﻝ ﺑﺰﻭﺍﺟﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﻔﻀﻠﻴﻦ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻜﺎﻥ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔﻛﺒﻴﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﻫﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔ‪12‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻣﺮﻭﺍ ﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺎﻋﺘﻴﻦ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﺪﻯ‬

‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪﺃﻭ ﺟﺮﺍﻫﺎﻡ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻀﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﺑﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍﻟﻴﺸﻜﻮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮﻻ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺩﺙ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺣﺪﺙﺃﻥ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﺩﺭﺟﺎً ﺧﺎﺻﺎً ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜﺘﺒﺔ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪﺯﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﺃﺣﺪ ﻣﻔﺎﺗﻴﺤﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻛﺘﺸﻔﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻆ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺑﺄﻭﺭﺍﻗﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ ﻭﻣﻦ ﺑﻴﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﻟﻎ ﺍﻟﻜﺒﻴﺮﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﻘﻠﺖ ﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻻﻛﺘﺸﺎﻑ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺗﻔﻘﻨﺎ ﻣﻌﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﺘﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺎﻣﻠﺔﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ ﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺣﻘﻴﺮ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﻟﺤﺮﻣﺎﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻤﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻋﺪﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺘﺴﺒﺎﺕ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺷﺮﻳﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻘﺮﺭ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﻠﻚ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﺳﻨﺄﺧﺬ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺍً ﺃﻭ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ‬

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 ‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﺔ ﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻧﺠﺤﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻨﻔﻴﺬﻫﺎ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻸﺳﻒ! ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﻳﻮﻡ‬
‫ﻫﺮﻭﺏﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺗﺰﻳﻞ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻬﻴﺐﺫﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺤﻔﻈﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﺠﺄﺓﺗﻤﺖ ﻣﻘﺎﻃﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺊ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺧﻼﻝ ﺩﺧﻮﻝ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻔﺎﺟﺉﺔ‬
‫ﻭﻣﺘﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ )ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺗﻜﺘﺴﺐﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺤﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﺘﻄﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺴﺘﺪﻋﻲﻛﺮﺍﻣﺔ ﺟﻨﺴﻬﺎ( ﺃﻟﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﻣﺤﺮﻣﺔ‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬ﻭﺭﻣﻘﺖ ﻋﺒﻮﺳﺎً ﻏﺎﺿﺒﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺎﻉ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻃﺎﻟﺒﺖﺑﻨﺒﺮﺓ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻣﺘﻐﻄﺮﺳﺔ‪" :‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻘﺎﻋﺪﻫﺎ؟" ﻭﻫﻜﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺗﻢﺍﻗﺘﺤﺎﻣﻪ ﺑﻮﻗﺎﺣﺔ؟ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ﻳﺨﺠﻞ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺤﺎﻭﻝﺣﺘﻰ ﺗﺒﺮﺉﺔ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﺮﻳﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺗﻬﻢ ﺑﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺳﻌﻰﺑﺨﺴﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﻮﺑﻴﺦ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧﺴﻴﺲ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﺳﻠﺒﻪﺃﻣﻮﺍﻟﻪ‪ ..‬ﺟﺮﺣﺖ ﻛﺮﺍﻣﺔ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪" .‬ﺃﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺉﺲ )‬
‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺴﺘﺒﺪﻝ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺟﻮﺩﺓ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺠﻞ( ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﺠﺮﺅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺗﻬﺎﻣﻲ ﺑﺎﺭﺗﻜﺎﺏ ﻓﻌﻞ‬
‫ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻓﻜﺮﺗﻪ ﺃﺧﺠﻞ؟" ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺉﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﺮﺓ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺰﺍﻝﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻘﺘﻨﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻮﺑﻴﺦ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻬُﺎﻧﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺤﻖﺑﺎﺳﺘﺨﺪﺍﻡ ﻟﻐﺔ ﺑﺬﻳﺉﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ ﺃﺛﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺑﺸﻜﻞﻛﺒﻴﺮ ﻋﺬﻭﺑﺔ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺣﺜﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﺘﻘﺎﻡﻣﻨﻪ ﺑﺈﺑﻼﻏﻪ ﺑﻬﺮﻭﺏ ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﺰء ﺍﻟﻨﺸﻂ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱﺍﺗﺨﺬﻧﺎﻩ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻀﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺎﺭﺑﻴﻨﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻭﺷﻌﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺘﺨﻴﻞ‪،‬ﺑﺎﻹﻫﺎﻧﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻻﺗﻬﺎﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺳﺎﺱﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﻘﺮ‪".‬ﻗﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻏﺎﺩ! )ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ( ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻚ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﺤﺎﻭﻝﺑﻼ ﻫﻮﺍﺩﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻄﺦ ﺍﻟﻄﺎﻫﺮ‬

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 ‫ﺳﻤﻌﺔﻣﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﻴﺰ ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺮﻕ؟ ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﺗﺸﻚ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺑﺮﺍءﺗﻲﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ؟ "ﻛﻦ ﺭﺍﺿﻴﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺳﻴﺪﺗﻲ )ﺃﺟﺎﺏ( ﺇﻧﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺃﺷﻚﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺎﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻐﺎﺩﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‪".‬‬

‫»ﺳﻨﺬﻫﺐﻋﻦ ﻃﻴﺐ ﺧﺎﻃﺮ؛ )ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ(‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺮﻫﺘﻚ ﻗﻠﻮﺑﻨﺎ ﻣﻨﺬ ﻓﺘﺮﺓ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﻭﻻﺣﻈﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺘﻨﺎﻻﺑﻨﺘﻚ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﻓﻌﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎء‬
‫ﻟﻔﺘﺮﺓﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺳﻘﻒ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻚ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻢ ﺑﺎﻟﻔﻌﻞ ﺗﻌﺰﻳﺰ ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺘﻚ ﻻﺑﻨﺘﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ‬

‫ﺭﻣﻴﻬﺎﻓﻲ ﺃﺣﻀﺎﻥ ﺻﺎﺉﺪ ﺛﺮﻭﺓ ﻋﺪﻳﻢ ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ‪) ".‬ﺃﺟﺎﺏ ﻫﻮ‬
‫(‬

‫"ﻧﻌﻢ‪) ،‬ﻫﺘﻔﺎً( ﻓﻲ ﺧﻀﻢ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺤﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻴﻮﻓﺮ ﻟﻨﺎ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺾﺍﻟﻌﺰﺍء ﺃﻥ ﻧﻌﻜﺲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺍﻗﺔ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﻣﻊ‬

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 ‫ﺟﺎﻧﻴﺘﺎ‪،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺍﻻﻟﺘﺰﺍﻣﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻠﻘﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻫﺎ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻻﻣﺘﻨﺎﻥ‬

‫ﺗﺄﻣﻠﻮﺍﻟﻌﻘﻮﻟﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪) ".‬ﻗﺎﻝ ﻫﻮ(‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩﺃﻥ ﺣﺰﻣﻨﺎ ﺧﺰﺍﻧﺔ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﻏﺮﺍﺿﻨﺎ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺜﻤﻴﻨﺔ‪،‬ﻏﺎﺩﺭﻧﺎ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﻣﺎﻛﺪﻭﻧﺎﻟﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻣﺸﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﺴﺎﻓﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻴﻞﻭﻧﺼﻒ ﺗﻘﺮﻳﺒﺎً ﺟﻠﺴﻨﺎ ﺑﺠﺎﻧﺐ ﺟﺪﻭﻝ ﺻﺎﻑ ٍﻹﻧﻌﺎﺵ‬
‫ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻨﺎﺍﻟﻤﻨﻬﻜﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺎً ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻣﻞ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺃﺷﺠﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ ﻣﻜﺘﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﻮ ﻳﺤﻤﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﺳﺮﻳﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻧﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺹ ﻛﺎﻣﻞ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺏ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺮﺍﻟﻤﺘﺬﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺧﻠﻔﻨﺎ ﻳﺠﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺪﺍﺉﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺰﺍﺝﻟﻠﺘﺄﻣﻞ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﻟﻼﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉ ﺑﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ ﺟﺪﺍً‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﻜﺴﺮﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺒﺎﺩﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺎﺩ ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺻﺮﺧﺖ‪":‬ﻳﺎ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺸﻬﺪ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ!‬

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 ‫ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ‪،‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺘﻮﺍﺟﺪ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ ﻫﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻼﺳﺘﻤﺘﺎﻉﺑﺠﻤﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻌﻨﺎ؟«‬

‫"ﺁﻩ! ﺣﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ( ﻣﻦ ﺃﺟﻞ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺸﻔﻘﺔ‪،‬ﺍﻣﺘﻨﻌﻲ ﻋﻦ ﺗﺬﻛﻴﺮﻱ ﺑﺎﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺲ ﻟﺰﻭﺟﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺠﻮﻥ‪.‬ﻳﺎ ﻟﻸﺳﻒ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻦ ﺃﻋﻄﻴﻪ ﻷﻋﺮﻑ ﻣﺼﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ! ﻟﻤﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﺎ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻧﻴﻮﺟﻴﺖ‪.‬ﺃﻭ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻣﻌﻠﻘﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻟﻦ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﺘﻐﻠﺐ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻟﻼﺳﺘﻔﺴﺎﺭ ﻋﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻭﻩ!‬
‫ﺃﻻﺃﺗﻮﺳﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺪﻋﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﻤﻌﻚ ﺗﻜﺮﺭ ﺍﺳﻤﻪ ﺍﻟﺤﺒﻴﺐ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺓﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺆﺛﺮ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺑﻌﻤﻖ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺗﺤﻤﻞ‬
‫ﺳﻤﺎﻋﻪﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳﺠﺮﺡ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ”‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻋﺬﺭﻳﻨﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺎءﺕ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻗﺼﺪ‬

‫" )ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﺃﻧﺎ( ﺛﻢ ﻏﻴﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻣﺘﻨﻌﺖ ﻋﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻋﺠﺎﺏﺑﺎﻟﻌﻈﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻠﺔ ﻷﺷﺠﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺤﻤﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻟﻨﺎﻣﻦ ﺯﻓﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻗﻴﺔ‪" .‬ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ! ﻳﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﻋﺎﺩﺕ(‬
‫ﺗﺠﻨﺐﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻜﺉﻴﺐ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻮﺳﻞ ﺇﻟﻴﻚ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﺠﺮﺡ‬
‫ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻲﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﻤﻼﺣﻈﺎﺗﻚ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺩﺍﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻧﻬﻢﻳﺬﻛﺮﻭﻧﻨﻲ ﺑﺄﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪ .‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻣﺜﻠﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻃﻮﻳﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﻣﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﻬﻴﺒﺎً‪،‬ﻳﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌﻈﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻌﺠﺐ ﺑﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻬﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﻨﺖﺻﺎﻣﺘﺎً‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﻓﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺯﻋﺠﻬﺎ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻏﻴﺮ‬

‫ﻗﺼﺪﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺘﺮﻛﻴﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺁﺧﺮ ﻟﻠﻤﺤﺎﺩﺛﺔ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻳﺬﻛﺮﻫﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺑﺄﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺛﻴﻦ ﻳﺎ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ؟ )ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺻﻤﺖ ﻗﺼﻴﺮ‬

‫( ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺅﻳﺪ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺘﺮﻛﻴﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻟﺘﺄﻣﻼﺗﻲﺍﻟﺨﺎﺻﺔ؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻋﺎﺩﻭﺍ ﺩﺍﺉﻤﺎً ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪.‬‬

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 ‫"ﻣﺎ ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء! )ﻗﻠﺖ( ﻛﻢ ﻫﻮ ﺳﺎﺣﺮ ﺗﻨﻮﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥﺍﻷﺯﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﻭﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﻁ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎءﺍﻟﺮﻗﻴﻘﺔ!‬

‫"ﺃﻭﻩ! ﺍﺑﻨﺘﻲ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺴﺤﺐ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬

‫ﻋﺠﻞﻣﻦ ﻧﻈﺮﺓ ﺧﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎء( ﻻ ﺗﺰﻋﺠﻨﻲ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔﺑﺪﻋﻮﺗﻲ ﺍﻻﻧﺘﺒﺎﻩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺬﻛﺮﻧﻲ ﺑﻘﺴﻮﺓ‬
‫ﺑﺼﺪﺭﻳﺘﻲﺍﻟﺴﺎﺗﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﺭﻗﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻄﻄﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ!‬
‫ﺷﻔﻘﺔﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻏﻴﺮ ﺳﻌﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺗﺠﻨﺐ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻋﺎً ﻣﺆﻟﻤﺎً‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬ﻣﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺭﺍﺉﻌﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺤﻨﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻪ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲﻣﺆﺛﺮ ﺟﺪﺍً ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺪء ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺧﻮﻓﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻮﻗﻆ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻮﻗﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻞﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻋﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﺗﻮﺟﻴﻪ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﺰﻭﺟﻬﺎ‪.‬ﻭﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﺈﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻤﺖ ﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻣﺮﺍً ﻗﺎﺳﻴﺎً؛ ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻃﻠﺒﺖﻣﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﻟﺤﺴﻦﺍﻟﺤﻆ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺎﻻﺭﺗﻴﺎﺡ ﻣﻦ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻌﻀﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺴﺒﺐﻭﻗﻮﻉ ﺣﺎﺩﺙ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﺣﻘﺎً؛ ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻻﻧﻘﻼﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻈﻮﻅﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺟﻨﺘﻠﻤﺎﻥ ﻓﺎﻳﺘﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﻳﺮﻛﺾ ﺧﻠﻔﻨﺎ ﻣﺘﺬﻣﺮﺍً‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﺎﺩﺛﺎً ﻣﺤﻈﻮﻇﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‬
‫ﻷﻧﻪﺻﺮﻑ ﺍﻧﺘﺒﺎﻩ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻜﺉﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﻻﻧﻐﻤﺎﺱ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻛﻨﺎ ﻣﻘﺎﻋﺪﻧﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺭﻛﻀﻨﺎﻹﻧﻘﺎﺫ ﺃﻭﻟﺉﻚ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺿﻊﻣﺮﺗﻔﻊ ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔ ﻣﺜﻞ ﺳﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻓﺎﻳﺘﻮﻥ ﻋﺎﻟﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﺍﺯ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢﺃﺻﺒﺤﻮﺍ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻣﻨﺨﻔﻀﻴﻦ ﻭﻣﻤﺘﺪﻳﻦ ﺗﺤﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺒﺎﺭ‪" .‬‬
‫ﻳﺎﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻭﺍﺳﻊ ﻟﻠﺘﺄﻣﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺘﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺆﻛﺪﺓ‪،‬ﺃﻻ ﻳﻮﻓﺮ ﻓﺎﻳﺘﻮﻥ ﻭﺣﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺭﺩﻳﻨﺎﻝ ﻭﻭﻟﺴﻲ ﻋﻘﻼً‬
‫ﻣﻔﻜﺮﺍً!" ﻗﻠﺖ ﻟﺼﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﻨﺎ ﻧﺴﺮﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻴﺪﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻟﻢﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻟﻠﺮﺩ ﻋﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻛﻞ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﺔﺍﻵﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺸﻬﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻭﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬
‫ﺳﻴﺪﺍﻥﻳﺮﺗﺪﻳﺎﻥ ﻣﻼﺑﺲ ﺃﻧﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻟﻜﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺎ ﻳﺘﺮﻧﺤﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺩﻣﺎﺉﻬﻤﺎ‪،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺎ ﻟﻔﺖ ﺍﻧﺘﺒﺎﻫﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺑﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻣﻨﻬﻤﺎ‪،‬ﻭﻫﻤﺎ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪ .‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻘﺪﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺃﺯﻭﺍﺟﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺻﺮﺧﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻭﺃﻏﻤﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪،‬ﻓﺼﺮﺧﺖ ﻭﻏﻀﺒﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺮﻭﻣﻴﻦﻣﻦ ﺣﻮﺍﺳﻨﺎ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺪﻗﺎﺉﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪ ﺍﺳﺘﻌﺎﺩﺗﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺣﺮﻣﻨﺎﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﻨﺎ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺆﺳﻒ‪.‬ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﺗﻐﻤﻰ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ‬
‫ﺑﺎﻟﺠﻨﻮﻥﻓﻲ ﻛﺜﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﺣﻴﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺎﺩﻧﺎ ﺃﻧﻴﻦ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺉﺲ)ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﺣﺘﻔﻆ ﺑﻤﻔﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﺄﻱ ﻧﺼﻴﺐ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ(‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺃﻧﻔﺴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻮ ﺃﻧﻨﺎ ﺗﺨﻴﻠﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌﻴﺶ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﻬﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕﻭﺭﺑﻊ ﻟﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺘﺠﻨﺐ ﺣﺰﻧﻨﺎ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ‬
‫ﻛﻤﺎﻓﻌﻠﻨﺎ‬

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 ‫ﻟﻘﺪﺍﻓﺘﺮﺿﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﻨﺎﻫﻢ ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﻮﺩﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺟﻮﺩﻳﻦ‪،‬ﻋﻠﻤﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﺷﻲء ﻧﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺳﻮﻯ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻧﺤﻦ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺳﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﺃﻧﻴﻦ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﺍﻟﺨﺎﺹ ﺑﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﻤﻨﺎﺑﺘﺄﺟﻴﻞ ﺭﺛﺎءﻧﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﺿﺮ‪ ،‬ﺭﻛﻀﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺠﻞ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﻳﺰ ﻭﺭﻛﻌﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻭﻧﺎﺷﺪﻧﺎﻩ ﺃﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻮﺕ‪".‬ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﻗﺎﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺮﻛﺰ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻫﻨﺘﻴﻦ ﻋﻠﻲ(ّ ﺃﺧﺸﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻥﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻧﻘﻠﺒﺖ‪".‬‬

‫ﻟﻘﺪﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻣﺮﺓ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻋﺎﻗﻼً‪.‬‬

‫"ﺃﻭﻩ! ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﻳﺎ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ )ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ( ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ‬

‫ﺃﺗﻮﺳﻞﺇﻟﻴﻚ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﺪﺙ ﻟﻚ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻢ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﺾ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪.‬‬

‫"ﺳﺄﻓﻌﻞ )ﻗﺎﻝ ﻫﻮ( ﻭﺃﺧﺮﺝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﺗﻨﻬﻴﺪﺓ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ‪،‬‬

‫ﺍﻧﺘﻬﺖﺻﻼﺣﻴﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻏﺮﻗﺖ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻟﺔﺇﻏﻤﺎء‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻥ ﺣﺰﻧﻲ ﻣﺴﻤﻮﻋﺎً ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻲ‬

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 ‫ﺗﻌﺜﺮﺍﻟﺼﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﺠﻤﺔ ﻓﺎﺭﻏﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺢ‬
‫ﻭﺟﻬﻲﺷﺎﺣﺒﺎً ﻣﺜﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻌﻄﻠﺖ ﺣﻮﺍﺳﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪ‬
‫ﻛﺒﻴﺮ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻻ ﺗﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻲ ﻋﻦ ﻓﺎﻳﺘﻮﻧﺰ )ﻗﻠﺖ‪،‬‬

‫ﻳﻬﺬﻱﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺤﻤﻮﻣﺔ ﻭﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﺘﻤﺎﺳﻜﺔ( ﺃﻋﻄﻨﻲ ﻛﻤﺎﻧﺎً‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺄﻋﺰﻑﻟﻪ ﻭﺃﻫﺪﺉﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﺉﻴﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﺬﺭﻭﺍ ﺃﻳﺘﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻮﺭﻳﺎﺕﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺎﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺻﻮﺍﻋﻖ ﻛﻴﻮﺑﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺮﺍﻍ ﺃﻋﻤﺪﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺸﺘﺮﻱﺍﻟﺜﺎﻗﺒﺔ ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻨﻮﺏ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺳﺎﻗﺎً ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻟﺤﻢﺍﻟﻀﺄﻥ ﻗﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺇﻥ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻤﺖ؛ "ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻢ ﺧﺪﻋﻮﻧﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺄﺧﺬﻭﻩﻛﺨﻴﺎﺭ‪ ".‬ﻭﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻭﺍﺻﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﺥ ﺑﻌﻨﻒ ﺑﺸﺄﻥ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ‬
‫ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‪.‬ﻟﻤﺪﺓ ﺳﺎﻋﺘﻴﻦ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﻫﺬﻱ ﺑﺠﻨﻮﻥ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻳﻨﺒﻐﻲ‬
‫ﻟﻲﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻒ‪ ،‬ﻷﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻣﺮﻫﻘﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗﻄﻠﺐﻣﻨﻲ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻌﺎﻓﺖ ﻟﻠﺘﻮ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻏﻤﺎءﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺘﺒﺮﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻳﻘﺘﺮﺏ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻗﺪ ﺍﻗﺘﺮﺏ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕﺍﻟﺮﻃﻮﺑﺔ ﺗﺘﺴﺎﻗﻂ‪" .‬ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﻧﺬﻫﺐ‬

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 ‫)ﻗﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ( ﻟﻴﺤﻤﻴﻨﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻣﻨﻬﻤﺎ؟ "ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺑﻴﺾ‪) ".‬ﺃﺟﺎﺑﺖ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺸﻴﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﺒﻨﻰ ﺃﻧﻴﻖ ﻳﺮﺗﻔﻊ‬
‫ﻭﺳﻂﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻤﺰ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻻﺣﻈﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ( ﻭﺍﻓﻘﺖ ﻭﺳﺮﻧﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻴﻪﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ ﻭﻃﺮﻗﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻔﺘﺤﺘﻪ ﺍﻣﺮﺃﺓ ﻋﺠﻮﺯ؛ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ‬
‫ﻃﻠُﺐﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﻓﺮ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺇﻗﺎﻣﺔ ﻟﻴﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﺗﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺻﻐﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﻏﺮﻓﺘﻲ ﻧﻮﻡ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻜﻮﻥﻣﻮﺿﻊ ﺗﺮﺣﻴﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﺍﻫﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﻧﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺮﺿﺎ ﻭﺗﺒﻌﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺃﺓﺍﻟﻄﻴﺒﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺍﺑﺘﻬﺠﻨﺎ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﺑﺮﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺤﺔ‪.‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻧﺎﻓﺬﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻟﻬﺎ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﺑﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺁﻧﺬﺍﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻋﻤﺮﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀﻞﺍﻷﻋﻤﺎﺭ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻟﻸﺳﻒ! ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺑﺴﻴﻄﺔ ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺳﻤﻬﺎﺑﺮﻳﺪﺟﻴﺖ…‪ .‬ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻣﻨﻬﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻻﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺘﺮﺽ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺗﻤﺘﻠﻚ ﺃﻳﺎً ﻣﻦ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺴﺎﻣﻴﺔ‪،‬‬

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‫ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺣﺎﺳﻴﺲ ﺭﺍﻗﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻦ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ‬
‫ﺷﺎﺑﺔﺣﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻷﺧﻼﻕ ﻭﻣﺘﺤﻀﺮﺓ ﻭﻣﻠﺘﺰﻣﺔ؛ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﺤﻮ‪،‬ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺎﺩ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﻜﺮﻫﻬﺎ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ‬
‫ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉﺍﺯﺩﺭﺍء‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺩﺍﻋﺎﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺍﻟﺮﺳﺎﻟﺔﺭﻗﻢ ‪14‬ﺫﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‬

‫ﺳﻠﺢﻧﻔﺴﻚ ﻳﺎ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻮﺩﻭﺩ ﺑﻜﻞ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻔﻠﺴﻔﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻧﺖ ﺳﻴﺪﺗﻬﺎ؛ ﺍﺳﺘﺠﻤﻊ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻟﺪﻳﻚ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺛﺒﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻸﺳﻒ! ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻃﻼﻉ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻴﺔ‪،‬ﺳﻴﺘﻢ ﺍﺧﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺘﻚ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‪ .‬ﺁﻩ! ﻣﺎ ﻫﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺼﺎﺉﺐﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﺮﺭﺕ ﺑﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺒﻞ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺳﺒﻖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺼﺼﺘﻬﺎﻋﻠﻴﻚ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺳﺄﺧﺒﺮﻙ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻭﻓﺎﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺪﻱﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺯﻭﺟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺎﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺤﻤﻠﻪ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻄﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﺗﺎﻓﻬﺔ ﻣﻘﺎﺭﻧﺔ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺤﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺗﺤﺪﺙ ﻋﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲﺻﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻟﻲ ﻟﻮﺻﻮﻟﻨﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﺥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷﺘﻜﺖ‬
‫ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻢ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻓﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﺴﺎﺳﺔ‪،‬‬

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 ‫ﻣﺼﺤﻮﺑﺔﺑﺼﺪﺍﻉ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻘﺒﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺰﺕ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﺻﺎﺑﺘﻬﺎ ﺑﻨﺰﻟﺔ ﺑﺮﺩ ﻧﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﺇﻏﻤﺎءﻫﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﻤﺮ‬
‫ﻓﻲﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء ﺍﻟﻄﻠﻖ ﺑﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺪﻯ ﻳﺘﺴﺎﻗﻂ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻠﺔﺍﻟﺴﺎﺑﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺧﺸﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻝ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜﻦﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻳﻀﺎً ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ؛ ﻷﻧﻪ ﻛﻴﻒ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦﺗﻔﺴﻴﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﺄﻧﺠﻮ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻧﻔﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﻋﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺑﺎﻓﺘﺮﺍﺽ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﺩﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺠﺴﺪﻳﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺑﺬﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻣﻲ ﺗﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺎً‬
‫ﻟﺮﻃﻮﺑﺔﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺻﻮﻓﻴﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺴﺘﻠﻘﻴﺔﻏﻴﺮ ﻧﺸﻄﺔ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ .‬ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥﻗﺪ ﺗﻌﺮﺽ ﻟﻜﻞ ﺧﻄﻮﺭﺗﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺰﻋﺠﺖ ﺑﺸﺪﺓ‬
‫ﻣﻦﻣﺮﺿﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗﺪ ﻳﺒﺪﻭ ﺗﺎﻓﻬﺎً ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻫﻤﺴﺖﻟﻲ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺔ ﻏﺮﻳﺰﻳﺔ ﻣﻌﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔﻗﺎﺗﻼً ﻫﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻭﺍﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎﻩ!ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻣﺨﺎﻭﻓﻲ ﻣﺒﺮﺭﺓ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎً؛ ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺍﺯﺩﺍﺩﺕﺣﺎﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﺳﻮءﺍً ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺠﻴﺎً‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻗﻠﻘﺎً ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻛﺜﺮﻳﻮﻣﻴﺎً‪ .‬ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪ ،‬ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺼﺮ ﻧﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺧﺼﺼﺘﻪ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺻﺎﺣﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﺰﻝ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺘﺮﻣﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺤﻮﻝﺍﺿﻄﺮﺍﺑﻬﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﺳﺘﻬﻼﻙ ﺳﺮﻳﻊ ﻭﻓﻲ ﻏﻀﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻳﺎﻡﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺬﻫﺎ ﺑﻌﻴﺪﺍً‪ .‬ﻭﺳﻂ ﻛﻞ ﺭﺛﺎﺉﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ )‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻨﻴﻔﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻈﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ( ﻣﺎ ﺯﻟﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺗﻠﻘﻰﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻌﺰﺍء ﻓﻲ ﺍﻧﻌﻜﺎﺳﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻭﻟﻲ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺪﻣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﺮﺿﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺑﻜﻲﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻞ ﻭﺟﻬﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻞ‬
‫ﺑﺪﻣﻮﻋﻲ‪،‬ﻭﺃﺿﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻳﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺠﻤﻴﻠﺘﻴﻦ‬

‫ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭﻓﻲ ﺑﻠﺪﻱ‪" .‬ﺣﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﻟﻮﺭﺍ )ﻗﺎﻟﺘﻬﺎ ﻟﻲ ﻗﺒﻞ‬

‫ﺳﺎﻋﺎﺕﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻭﻓﺎﺗﻬﺎ( ﺧﺬﻫﺎ‬

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‫ﺍﻟﺘﺤﺬﻳﺮﻣﻦ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﻴﺴﺔ ﻭﺗﺠﻨﺐ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻓﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻜﻴﻤﺔﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺴﺒﺒﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ ...‬ﺍﺣﺬﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻮﺑﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻏﻤﺎء‪....‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻘﺒﻮﻟﺔ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻦ ﺻﺪﻗﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﺎ ﺳﺘﺜﺒﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻳﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﺫﺍﺗﻜﺮﺭﺕ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﺍً ﻭﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﺍﺳﻢ ﻏﻴﺮ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻣﺪﻣﺮﺓﻟﺪﺳﺘﻮﺭﻙ ‪ ...‬ﺳﻴﻌﻠﻤﻚ ﻣﺼﻴﺮﻱ ﻫﺬﺍ ‪...‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﻮﺕﺷﻬﻴﺪﺍً ﻟﺤﺰﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻘﺪﺍﻥ ﺃﻭﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪ ...‬ﺇﻏﻤﺎء‬
‫ﻣﻤﻴﺖﻭﺍﺣﺪ ﻛﻠﻔﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ...‬ﺍﺣﺬﺭ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻹﻏﻤﺎء‬
‫ﻋﺰﻳﺰﺗﻲﻟﻮﺭﺍ‪ ...‬ﻧﻮﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻨﻮﻥ ﻟﻴﺴﺖ ﺭﺑﻌﺎً ﺿﺎﺭﺍً ﺟﺪﺍً؛‬
‫ﺇﻧﻪﺗﻤﺮﻳﻦ ﻟﻠﺠﺴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﻋﻨﻴﻔﺎً ﺟﺪﺍً‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻞ‬
‫ﺃﺟﺮﺅﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺇﻧﻪ ﻳﺆﺩﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻮﺍﻗﺒﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻦﻣﺠﻨﻮﻧﺎً ﺑﻘﺪﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺗﺨﺘﺎﺭ؛ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﻻ ﺗﻐﻤﻰ ﻋﻠﻴﻚ"‬

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 ‫ﻛﺎﻧﺖﻫﺬﻩ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺧﻴﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺟﻬﺘﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻲﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪ ...‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻧﺼﻴﺤﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﺛﻨﺎء ﺍﺣﺘﻀﺎﺭﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰﻟﻮﺭﺍ ﺍﻟﻤﻨﻜﻮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺰﻣﺖ ﺑﻬﺎ ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻧﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻃﻼﻕ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪﺃﻥ ﺫﻫﺒﺖ ﺑﺼﺪﻳﻘﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﻠﻮﻣﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬

‫ﻗﺒﺮﻫﺎﺍﻟﻤﺒﻜﺮ‪ ،‬ﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭ )ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﺘﺄﺧﺮ‬
‫ﻣﻦﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ( ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺒﻐﻴﻀﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻣﺎﺗﺖ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺗﻮﻓﻲﺑﺎﻟﻘﺮﺏ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﺯﻭﺟﻲ ﻭﺃﻏﺴﻄﺲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛﻦ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﻣﺸﻴﺖﻋﺪﺓ ﻳﺎﺭﺩﺍﺕ ﻣﻨﻪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﺤﻖ ﺑﻲ ﺣﺎﻓﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺘﺠﻬﺔﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﻳﺪﻧﺒﻮﺭﻭ‪ ،‬ﺣﻴﺚ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺁﻣﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺟﺪ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺎًﻳﺸﻔﻖ ﻋﻠﻲ ّﻭﻳﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻨﻲ ﻭﻳﻮﺍﺳﻴﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺤﻨﺘﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺷﺪﻳﺪﺍً ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺩﺧﻠﺖ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻓﻠﺔ‬

‫ﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺗﻤﻴﻴﺰ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﻢ‬

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 ‫ﻣﻦﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ؛ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻊ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻬﻢﻛﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻛﺜﻴﺮﻳﻦ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻐﺾ ﺍﻟﻨﻈﺮ ﻋﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲء ﻳﺘﻌﻠﻖ‬
‫ﺑﻬﻢ‪،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺳﻠﻤﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻟﺘﺄﻣﻼﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﺰﻳﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﺳﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺻﻤﺖﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺻﻤﺖ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻘﻄﻌﻪ ﺇﻻ ﺷﺨﻴﺮ ﻋﺎﻝ ٍﻭﻣﺘﻜﺮﺭ‬
‫ﻷﺣﺪﺃﻋﻀﺎء ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬

‫"ﻳﺎ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺷﺮﻳﺮ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ‬

‫ﺍﻟﺮﺟﻞ!)ﻓﻜﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ( ﻳﺎ ﻟﻬﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﺗﺎﻣﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻘﻞﺍﻟﺪﻗﻴﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﺪﻡ ﺣﻮﺍﺳﻨﺎ ﺑﻤﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍﺍﻟﻀﺠﻴﺞ ﺍﻟﻮﺣﺸﻲ! ﻭﻳﺠﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﻘﻴﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻪﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺳﻲء! ﻻ ﺗﻮﺟﺪ ﺟﺮﻳﻤﺔ ﺳﻮﺩﺍء‬
‫ﻟﻠﻐﺎﻳﺔﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻤﺜﻞ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ! " ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻓﻜﺮﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻲﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺷﻚ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺬﻩ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺯﻣﻼﺉﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺎﻓﺮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺃﺧﻴﺮﺍً‪،‬ﻣﻜﻨﺘﻨﻲ ﻋﻮﺩﺓ ﺩﺍﻱ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺅﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﻏﺪ‬
‫ﻋﺪﻳﻢﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺯﻋﺞ ﻣﺸﺎﻋﺮﻱ ﺑﻌﻨﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥﺍﻟﺴﻴﺮ ﺇﺩﻭﺍﺭﺩ‬

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