Honey, What I see and hear makes me lose my appetite for food, and right now i can

not even eat, because i am so afraid of my life here.

The high rate of how people and soldiers are dying is just too much.
It makes life seem like nothing

Dear, you are the only person who has made me so happy, I have never been happy in
my life, since I lost my late wife, and very especially when I came to work here,
All my moment and my time has been so sad and terrible due to the continuous daily
attacks and killings, I sometimes wonder if I will still make it out of here alive.

My love, This is how I have been for the last 2 years and 9 months that I have
worked here, that is why you hear me say that I am looking for a possibility to
terminate the contract and leave this dead
land.
It is too deadly and dangerous here.

My love, i am so worried honey, and you are the only person i can cry out my
worries to,
Honey, war is not good, the dangerous situation that is happening here each day is
getting more scary and terrible each day

I wish to tell you the situation of things here, but i don't want to bother you
with my problems.
All i need is your prayers for me to be saved here because the way innocent people
are dying here each day due to the war, it is really making me to be afraid of my
life.
I pray to God all night and day to make a way for me and help me to leave here, and
many of my colleagues here want to leave here too, mostly because of what we heard
and see today,
but no possible way to leave now

I am still waiting for my friends to help me out of here as he already promised me

that he will help me out of here, to contacts the UN headquarters to allow me leave
here to terminate my contract, successfully.

And what really scared all of us here right now, is about the emergency meeting we
had today morning, and what we all heard from the meeting, which is really so
terrible and has really made all of us here so sad and worried of our life.
It is a very terrible sad news and i have been overthinking about my life here
since i came back from the meeting.
I am so sad right now my love, i don't want to die here and leave you and our kids
behind

My love, all I need you to do for me is keep praying for me to leave here.
Today, when i was treating my patients when we all had an urgent and emergency
meeting.
And we all went to gather in the meeting hall, with a worried minds, wondering why
the meeting is so urgent and sudden

In the meeting, we were been told that

some
troops of UN soldiers were been sent on an emergency rescue assignment yesterday
morning,
and on their way, they were been ambushed by the Taliban, and their Vehicle was
been bombed with a terrible missile luncher, and all the soldiers died, while some
were been shot to death, and the Taliban captured 4 UN doctors that were with the
UN soldiers and they took them away, to their camp tortured the 4 UN doctor to
death and then sent the video of their dead to the UN Web Portal.
Letting us be aware and await their usual unpleasant visit soon.

I am really so sad and worried of my life.

I am so afraid right now, i think of running away from here at night, but i have no
where to run to
because i don't know anywhere and people here

And later today afternoon, the United Nations CyberSecurity Department received
information that rebels are planning to attack our camp in no time to kill everyone
and all the UN staff and helpless, unarmed Irag, citizens
That we all have to stay alert and be watchful for any intrusions from the rebels
and terrorists.
As i am talking to you now, many troops of soldiers are all over the base camp in
preparation of the attack my love, i am so so afraid of my life

Honey when I heard this sad news in the meeting, I was so worried about my life
I don't want to die here and leave you and my son behind.
I am so worried, i regret all my days here.
Is this how my end will be?

Honey
I'm just tired of always escaping death each day here.
Many of my medical colleagues and soldiers have died here because of this terrible
war and unnecessary killings by this heartless and terrible, dreaded terrorist and
rebels.
Sometimes I feel like giving up on life, but now I still have to live for my son
and you

It is really hard on me here,

Sometimes I regret why I accepted to sign the contracts and work here.
I sometimes wonder if I will still make it out of here alive. All my moments and my
time have been so sad and terrible Due to the continuous daily attacks and killings
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I really need to cancel this contracts, so i can leave here honey.

Although have made a lot of money from this work, but that can not pay for my
life. I care about living a happy life with you and my son as one lovely happy
family.

This is my account balance.

I sent you my account balance so that you will see and know that i tell you the
truth.
I have $4.5 billion in my account, plus all my allowances and it is about
105,750,000,000,000.00 Vietnamese dong in Vietnam. for the 2 years that i have
worked here
But my life is more important than the money and i want to leave here and don't
want to complete the contracts again

All i need you to do now, is to keep praying for me to get out of here, my love
That is all you can do now for me, i have no one here to help me except you and my
son
You and my sons are my life and my family now.
I wish they can let me have access to my account here to pay them to leave here i
would gladly do so, but they don't accept such this here and i have no other way to
leave here unless my friend help me as he promises me

I am on signed 6 years contract with the United Nations and I worked here for about
2 years. And I still have 4 years left to complete my contract with the United
Nations.
And my 6 years contract with the United Nations is worth certain sums of 70 billion
USD.
But my contract is not based on the monthly payment, I am been paid at the end of
every year, the sum of 6.5 billion USD yearly with some allowances money

And I have been paid my 2 years of salary that I have worked here already, which is
4.5 billion USD, And I am still left with 3 months to complete 3rd year, of working
here.
We do not receive our salary in cash but all my salaries are been paid directly to
my salary bank account
because it is unsafe and dangerous here to keep money here.
That is why all our salaries are been paid directly to our salary bank account, for
safety purposes

But I feel so bad and worried because due to this continuous deadly and terrible
war here I can not access my bank account here, because the banks and every other
institution in this place
were attacked by the Taliban and are inactive because of the terrible and deadly
war that is going on here, banks, schools market offices, and other buildings are
been bombed and destroyed by these terrorists and rebels.

The Iraq government has shut down many banks, companies, offices and other
institutions that are around these places, we can not have access to our money in
the bank.
It is only when I leave this deadly place that the UN will activate and unfreeze my
account and I will have access to all my money
I keep on working here, while huge sums of money are been paid to my bank account,
but it really pains me as i do not have access to my bank account here, because it
is locked and frozen up by the UN for our safety purpose. due to the terrible war
here
This hurts and affects me so badly.

So currently now, i don't have access to my bank account because it is frozen and
inactive here.
It is when i leave here, that I will have access to my account when i am out of
here and activate my bank account and access all my money.
But as i am still here, my bank account can not work here for safety reason and to
ensure that all our money are safe and protected

As we got the information from the UN we are all afraid of sudden attack from the
Talibans and now everyone is so scared of what will happen
I wish i can access my account here to get my money, i would have run out of here
at night and look for a way to fly down to Vietnam, i don't want to die here.
The last attack that happen here here before i came to work here, i heard that lots
of people, doctors, patients and UN soldiers died in the last attack.
And i don't want such a thing to happen to me here
If I had access to my account for the money, I would try to run away from here
overnight.
My life is really precious to me, you and our kids.
So I can't risk dying here

My dear, this place that I am in is a war zone and it is not that safe,
a lot of killing of innocent people and soldiers, but I am fine.
We are always so scared right now of that loud bomb explosion

Ever since I came to Iraq, this what has been happening due to the ongoing war
here.

There's no way I can get out of here, I don't have any cash with me now and I don't
know where it is,
And it's deadlier and more dangerous outside than here.
If the Taliban caught me outside, I would die completely.
And it was wrong for me to leave without the permission of the United Nations

I can't leave here until I'm done with the UN.

I am now just waiting and hoping on my friend to help me.
And I prayed day and night to ask the Buddha to save me from here and bring me back
to my friends in Vietnam.
I'm really confused and sad right now.
Since I came back, I've been thinking a lot about my life and what would happen to
me if the Taliban attacked us.

I pray that I can get out of here safely and in good health.
After the meeting, I ran to see my friend, who promised to help me terminate my
contract here.
And he said I should wait, He sent a letter of appeal to United Nations
Headquarters to allow me to cancel my contract, and still haven't replied to him.

I hope it works out.

Because it is very hard before the UN will accept and approved such letter about
leave or contracts termination

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Honey, i am scared right now and I can't sleep for the past few hours
We heard a loud bomb explosion and steady gunfire, this happen for close to 2
hours.
Just 50 kilometers away from the camp.
This made everyone afraid and right now some of my colleagues are standing outside
the camp, to watch if the rebels will be coming to attack us so we can escape for
our lives
Now i am talking to you and keeping my ears outside in case of anything should
happen, i will just run at once

Honey this is how little I have to tell you about my life and the situation of the
things that I am going through here, please darling, always pray for me.
Here is never easy with me here

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I am really not safe here my love, and i want to leave here, as soon as possible.
I just got a text from our Superior, letting us all know that the Taliban will
attack us again because the previous attack was not successful as they expected.
Rather, many of their fighters were killed by the UN soldiers as they came to
attack us.
And i heard that the Taliban are so angry and have recruited many fighters and got
lots of weapons to fight with the UN to ensure that they kill all the UN workers.
I feel so sad and scared of here my love.
I want to leave here as soon as possible, i don't want to experience another attack
again, as i am still here