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Poetry
Ten
Salvatore Difalco
Acta Biographia — Author Biographies Quadernetto / Little Notebook
Poems by Cristina Campo
Translated by Dennis Formento
IntroductionIntroduction
In this issue we seek to avoid answers but rather to
ask questions. With a subtle minimalistic approach,
this issue of BlazeVOX focuses on the idea of ‘public
space’ and more specifically on spaces where anyone
can do anything at any given moment: the non-
private space, the non-privately owned space, space
that is economically uninteresting. The works
collected feature coincidental, accidental and
unexpected connections, which make it possible to
revise literary history and, even, better, to
complement it.
Combining unrelated aspects lead to surprising
analogies these piece appear as dreamlike images in
which fiction and reality meet, well-known tropes
merge, meanings shift, past and present fuse. Time
and memory always play a key role. In a search for
new methods to ‘read the city’, the texts reference
post-colonial theory as well as the avant-garde or anonlinejournalofvoice
the post-modern and the left-wing democratic
movement as a form of resistance against the logic
of the capitalist market system. Spring 2024
Many of the works are about contact with
architecture and basic living elements. Energy
(heat, light, water), space and landscape are
examined in less obvious ways and sometimes
develop in absurd ways. By creating situations and
breaking the passivity of the spectator, he tries to
develop forms that do not follow logical criteria, but
are based only on subjective associations and
formal parallels, which incite the viewer to make
new personal associations. These pieces
demonstrate how life extends beyond its own
subjective limits and often tells a story about the
effects of global cultural interaction over the latter
half of the twentieth century. It challenges the
binaries we continually reconstruct between Self
and Other, between our own ‘cannibal’ and
‘civilized’ selves. Enjoy!
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Anthony Oag
remnants of a prayer
straight up
planted in the wall,
wall-ways of all things
a dancer
is a hostage
thrilled upon chaining.
i’m not your stranger
i am
a danger on the outside of
a vegas bomb threat
split like lava
in the lamp.
gimme
the neon jean talk,
flag waving
those legs
along the slow whinny of a twisting
room, turned around
the cog like a rainbow
turtle, never out of hill to roll down.
i could eat the word calzone
and become
anything i was told
not to want.
pickleball
deep-fried in the undulation
of half a building sweaty as asphalt
with racket handle bodies
jostled on the up,
still swinging. mosaic
of faces betraying
gravity with all the gusto
of a tide, timelapsed, lunar
and loosening. sexy loser
giving up the glory for more
lively dreaming. asleep
around the rim of a sip
sounding like powder
on the brow.
got the stagelight melts,
the heebie jesus communion repeats,
angelic
in the overtake, i blip and blink
until i’m too holy
to take home. i’ll bed down
somewhere between
your accidental caress
and tomorrow.
countrysider
His Wife
The woman did not cry when her husband told her he was leaving.
No. She was a woman with a hard mother, a good mother, one who taught her to never become a
wretch. A hard mother who taught her that men had hearts, but that they were different from women’s; they
were colder, and better for shaping, like biscuit dough. She showed the woman, then a girl, how to hold the
dough, how to warm it enough to bend but not enough to stick, and then she showed the girl the wretches, the
abandoned women. The ghoulish, vacant wanderers. She showed her them as a warning to never join them.
Her husband told her, stone-faced, at the table. The one she’d bought after they first married, stumbling
around a furniture store drunk on love. The table’s corners hadn’t seemed so sharp, its colors so dull, when
they’d bought it, but as she stared at it now she thought it might cut her if she ran her hand over it.
“Kate?”
“Yes?”
“I asked about the children.”
“What about them?”
“Would you mind taking care of them? I’ll need time to adjust. I can start taking them on the weekends
later, of course, but none of us are ready for that yet—I don’t think.”
“You don’t think,” she whispered. Her head felt light, like there was nothing left inside it but a trapped
wind, screaming at itself.
“Hm?” he asked, not hearing her.
“I’ll take the children ‘till you’re back.”
He sighed, the mole on his chin bobbing downwards. He closed his eyes, laying a hand over hers. Her
guardian, her steward.
“I’m not coming back.”
“Of course you aren’t,” she agreed. Placid.
He sighed again, mole bobbing. Strange. His sighs had always annoyed her, but now all she could
muster was a muted, fuzzy memory of the feeling.
All of her memories, but for the hazy warnings of her mother, were of him. His hands to hold her, to
hold the children. His smile to lighten her, his touch to ground her, to support her, to contain her. As if she
would collapse and splatter if he wasn’t there to give her shape.
“Goodbye, dear,” he said.
“Goodbye. Call me when you’re done.”
He cast her one more pitying look and shut the door behind him.
She sat at the table for a while longer, running her hand over its grainy edges. She felt the seam of where
her fingers met her palms, the dips between each, skimmed the creases over the table’s rough borders. She had a
plate before her, but no food; she tapped her wedding ring on the ceramic. She enjoyed the sound it made, like
a wind chime.
“Mother?”
Right.
The woman stood, and she took care of the children. She cooked and cleaned for them. She did the
laundry, separating darks from lights, lights from darks, and most of the time, she did not leave the gas on, or
forget where she’d left the children, or let the bath overflow.
Her husband called once, to tell her that he would provide for her. She didn’t know what that meant.
He was gone. What could he give her but him?
She took the children to school, and back. She fed the dog. Walked it.
She walked it every day. Even birthdays, even her own. She didn’t realize it was her thirty-seventh
birthday until her mother called her. After she hung up the phone, settling it in its stand like a massive weight,
she couldn’t remember any of what she’d said.
All she could remember was what she hadn’t said: her husband was leaving. That her daughter, her
strong daughter, would be another wretch drowning in unmade biscuits.
She walked the dog in the park on her thirty-seventh birthday while the children were at school and
after the laundry was done. Water hung hot in the air.
Strangers watched her. The dog was aggressive, lunging at children, snapping at them until the woman
could pull him back. She’d always figured that dogs learned their emotions from their masters, and his
aggression must have come from her husband. She knew he’d always resented the children, deep down, and
here the dog was, barking and reaching, living proof of it. His influence, his house, his children, his wife.
A stranger passed close to her on the path, his unseasonable coat brushing her leg. He had a young,
pretty girl on his arm, with a curving figure and flashing white smile. A mole bobbed on his chin.
Him.
The stranger also had a dog, the woman realized, and a house, and children, and a wife.
She turned on her heel and followed, the dog protesting for a moment before following. It was still
morning, the sun not quite high enough to permeate the tree layer, and his face passed in and out of shadow. It
twisted in the dark, becoming monstrous, wicked; it broadened, strengthened in the light, becoming joyful,
steadfast. The girl’s never slipped out of sunlight.
The woman watched them. She did not care when the dog snapped again, when the woman it had
snapped tried to shout at her. She did not care when the sun rose enough to summon beads of sweat, enough to
signal it was time to pick up the children. She did not care when her cell phone buzzed, like a giant rainforest
insect, in her pocket. She followed them, ignoring her pounding heart, watching. Dragging the dog through
bare streets, through residential neighborhoods, emptier and farther away from the park, the city center.
Not once did they look back.
Not even as they entered the small, fine house, tastefully decorated, her husband holding the door open
for the girl, the girl smiling broadly back at him. Not even as their wriggling brown puppy greeted them,
unaware of the woman only feet behind, staring into their home.
The door swung shut on its own. Her heart stuttered.
The woman stared at it. It was dark red wood, embedded with a stately gold knocker and elegant
handle. Gently swooping letters stood out on its surface, marking the address. She ran her hand along it, feeling
the smoothness of the newly-sanded wood, the gloss of the varnish. She could nearly see her reflection in its
shine, a funhouse mirror distorted version.
Inside, he laughed. A deep chuckle that vibrated through the soft door and shook her until her heart was
loose, rattling around in her chest.
All of the saved-up emotion of the past months flowed from her at once. She clapped a hand over her
mouth to muffle the sobs racking her body, contracting the muscles in her abdomen, and the burning in her
throat. Her eyes welled up, spilling over, unable to contain themselves. Her teeth clamped down on the
muffling palm. She didn’t feel it, only the dizziness in her head, the heaviness inside her ribs.
Her dog barked and the woman startled back to reality, as if waking from a dream. She sniffed and
turned away from the door, ashamed, to take deep breaths, clearing the hot knot of feeling in her throat.
The woman walked her dog home.
She let in her children, who had been waiting some hours for her. She unlocked the door by moonlight.
She cooked them a meal, the best she’d made in months, with fresh tomato sauce and cut herbs and
ropes of starchy pasta. She sang them a song, put them to bed. She did her laundry, separating darks from
lights, colors, and reds. She fed the dog and sat at the table until he snored, too, and the whole world except for
her was asleep.
She sat on the short end of the table. She’d never realized how direct the seat’s view was into the side
window of the dining room.
She could see the stars. The woman watched them from the head of her table, until she, too, fell asleep
where she sat.
E.W.H. Thornton
The Game
Roll dem bones! Rufus the Paladin tossed two sixes and a five and his character, Allen, aced the math
test. “Yes,” he cried out in joy.
They were gathered round the dying embers of a campfire, tossing dice, scrawling on parchment,
consulting a haphazard pile of irregularly bound texts filled with rules, keeping track of distant lives. Lives of
joy in trivial things, dating and first kisses, learning to drive, mastering Algebra and Physics, playing sports and
watching a magic screen known as a television in this faraway land where magic never happened, just
technology so advanced as to be indistinguishable from magic. Life for the adventurers was brutal, with all the
tromping and hunger and battles with monsters, the constant danger of attacks from around any dungeon corner
or any forest glade, the threat of death from sneaky goblin hordes or flaming Balrogs. Less and less could Rufus
see any point to the endless tromping and collecting of treasure. And for what? Death was coming in the end in
any case, no matter how much gold one had, how many magical trinkets.
Increasingly, Rufus felt pity for the beings he killed, evil though they may be. Just yesterday, he had slit
the throat of one poor little goblin, and he couldn’t stop envisioning its eyes gazing up at him. In the depths of
insomnia, Rufus would ponder whether the goblin deserved to die, whether it was just the victim of
circumstances. What chance had the goblin been given? The Game was a distraction from all that, a glimpse at
another possible life.
For a Paladin, the Game also held a hint of the forbidden. It was disreputable, since the thieves of
Granapolis had invented it a few years ago. Indeed, they continued to extract as much money as possible from
The Game’s players for endless sets of rulebooks and polished, rollable bones with numbers carved into their
surfaces. How could a noble Paladin stoop to worlds created by disreputable thieves? Still, The Game spread
quickly among the witches and warriors, the bungling magicians, the dwarves and elves and halflings, that
considered themselves adventurers.
Many a party, rumor had it, had been ambushed and massacred while distracted by The Game, and yet it
continued to spread. Rufus himself could no longer concentrate on watching for monsters and gathering gold,
jewels, and whatever magical items should appear hidden deep within caves or beneath secret trap doors.
Instead, his mind wandered and he thought of The Game, how Allen would soon graduate from high school,
perhaps with honors, how high he would score on the SATs, whether he would be accepted to the Ivy League
school he most desired, whether he would remain with his new girlfriend, Dolores, when they both moved on to
college (and whether he would accidentally get her pregnant and if, in a way, he wanted that to happen).
A flight of arrows disturbed the adventurers, hitting Dwinkle the elf (in The Game, Dolores the
cheerleader) in the elbow. The adventurers sprang up and Rufus drew his broad sword, but just then a bevy of
lightning bolts sang out and slaughtered the Orcs ambushing the party.
“You fools,” said Wanda the Wizard. “You’re so distracted by that stupid game you nearly got us all
killed. Luckily, I saved us, but I had to use one of my precious scrolls to do so.”
“Thanks,” said Dwinkle, “but I have to find out how I do in the cheerleader competition.”
“Yah,” said Rufus, “I have to study for the SATs.” And the party, except for the ever-vigilant Wanda,
who didn’t know how to enjoy herself, huddled again around the fire to be transported, by a few polished bones
alongside parchment and ragged books, into another world.
James Joaquin Brewer
It Depends On So Much
“anachronistic fiction”
“When anger spreads through the breath, guard thy tongue from barking foolishly.”
– Sappho, fragment quoted by Plutarch (“On Restraining Anger”)
Eyeing with simmering envy the short line that included only W.C. Williams and E.W.L. Pound,
Gertrude Stein—in a possibly literally pissy mood—growled a loud complaint in lines shorter than the one she
feared would prevent her “from ever moving up!” She lowered the leather-strapped binoculars she had been
staring through, cleared her throat, and in howling tones even louder than those previously employed addressed
her follow-up phrasings directly toward one of the two “Gents” way up ahead—way up there in front of the
“other” door: “Hey, Ezra! Is this an apparition of a comfort station in this version of a modern metro? Or
what?”
Pound pondered. Williams wondered. Stein remembered Sappho’s short-lined “This Way, That Way”:
I do not know
what to do
I am of two minds
From farther back in the long line, way behind Stein, closer to Phillis Wheatley and Amy Lowell (but
really not all that far from Audre Lourde and Elizabeth Bishop, or even from Gwendolyn Brooks and Anne
Bradstreet), Emily Dickinson responded in lines also shorter than the one she was sharing with so many for
whom she felt both sympathy and empathy:
I so fervently wish
that so much did not depend
on a red-lettered Water Closet—
with a paucity of doors
before the white bowls
Several voices sang out, a harmonizing chorus from the throats of poets whose names and works may or
may not have appeared in the latest and/or largest Norton Anthology of _______. Their song’s refrain contained
but two short lines:
Solidarity, Sister!
Nothing foolish-tongued about that!
Ezra Pound turned, cupped a hand behind one ear, and cast a long gaze toward the end of the other line,
searching for the source of that first unsatisfied utterance that sounded so much like the voice of Gertrude Stein.
William Carlos Williams turned also, placed a hand horizontally over his brow to diminish the intense glare of
noon-hour sunlight, and tried to locate Ms. Dickinson. Each of this pair of male poets was (for the immediate
moment at least) unsure of an appropriate response to what they were hearing, but both believed some words
were owed.
Jared Leeds
The Wall
We lived in Ferguson House, the one on the corner—Daniel, Danny, Henry, and I. Next to ours was an
all-girl house, then another all-guy, then another all-girl. And that was the whole street. To keep track of
things, the guys and I mapped out the sexual relationships between all four houses on a wall in our kitchen with
ID pictures and red string.
One day Danny suggested we use different colors to distinguish between the nature of each encounter.
So Henry, who had it in with an art girl who lived in Banks House, came home with a Trader Joe’s bag full of
string, and all of a sudden the Hook-Up Wall had a whole color system to it, complete with a key in the bottom
right corner like a map. Yellow was for anything with clothes on, green for a handy, blue for a blowy, and red
for a home run. Each new string, or a change of colors up the ranks, was cause for celebration. It was customary
that the lucky lay did the honors, usually followed by a round of blue raspberry Svedka. By the end of the first
month of school, strings branched from my housemates’ ID pictures like multicolored spiders.
Next to theirs, my few yellow strings stuck out like a big sore thumb. Maybe the guys saw potential in
me, or maybe they took pity on me. In either case, Henry started making an extra protein shake for me every
morning. Danny shared his ab day workout with me. At parties, Daniel pointed out which girls were interested
in me, since their passes at me usually went over my head.
Most of the strings that sprouted up around my ID picture in the following months were thanks to
them. In return for their services, I acted as their confidant, an ear for the lending.
Danny once drunkenly confided in me that he didn’t even like being called Danny, and that he only got
bumped to nickname status because Daniel had more game than him.
Henry admitted to me once that it made him upset every time word came around that the art girl he
liked from Banks House was seeing someone else. When she hooked up with Daniel on Halloween, I found
Henry sitting alone in our bathroom tub, and that was the first time I saw another man cry.
When Daniel got laid for the first time, by a girl from Barnes House named Anne, I was the first person
he told.
He and I were sitting together on the dark edge of the woods behind our house, Daniel enjoying a
midnight smoke. I heard an animal move swiftly between the trees. I thought I saw the nimble hind legs of a
deer.
“I think she faked her orgasm for me,” Daniel said quietly.
Drained by a long evening of essay writing, all I could offer him were platitudes. “At least she cared
enough to,” I said.
Daniel took a moment to respond, a moment I spent worrying I had spoken too crassly. But his face
broke into a smile, then a laugh. He grabbed me by the neck and gave me a noogie. My head in his grip, I
stared out into the woods. I thought I saw the deer from before staring right back at me, unmoving.
It felt good to be trusted. It felt like friendship. I never minded when the guys knocked on my door late
at night to borrow a book, nor when they inevitably stuck around until the early morning to talk about girls. I
especially didn’t mind when it came to Daniel.
One of those times, he told me he was really freaked out about something, so much so that he didn’t
know if he could even say it out loud.
“Whatever it is, I’m sure it isn’t that bad,” I said. “It can’t be anything worse than last week’s chlamydia
scare.”
“It feels worse than that. Or at least, more permanent.”
“You can tell me anything, man.”
“You know Gwen?” he asked.
“I don’t think so. Does she live in Barnes or Banks?”
“Neither. She’s got a place off-campus. She’s a junior. Performance artist.”
“Okay. What about her?”
“I was with her after the Sigma Phi party. We went back to her place.”
“Is that who was all up on you that night? I remember her now. Pretty face.”
“Body isn’t too bad either.”
“What color string are we talking?”
“Full red. But I don’t know.” He was holding my copy of Catcher in the Rye, fidgeting with the cover in
his hands. “It wasn’t great.”
“What wasn’t?”
“All of it, kinda. When we first got to her apartment, she had me bend down in front of this big tapestry
with that Hindu elephant lady on it. She made me recite this chant with her, and then she burned some stick
that smelled like manure. But that was all fine, I guess. I’ve known weirder girls. It’s just that when we finally
got around to getting it on, she pulled out her video camera. And I didn’t really think much of it at first,
probably because I was just happy not to be singing in Sanskrit anymore, so I let her record us. It. Everything.
The idea of it was pretty hot in the moment, actually… until we finished and I came back to my senses. Like,
she’s still got the video, and I don’t. And she could show it to her friends, or use it in one of her performances.
Art chicks are crazy like that, you know? It’s messing with my head.”
He stopped for air. He was flipping the pages of my book back and forth, back and forth. It caused his
hair to flutter just the slightest bit.
I imagined at that moment that we weren’t in my room anymore. Instead, I saw us on the edge of the
woods again. In my vision, the sun was shining down on us through the trees, Daniel’s body like honey in the
light, a breeze brushing our skin and covering us both in goosebumps.
It was a noisy semester—the gruff, droning voices of my professors and the starchy shifting of their bodies in
their elbow-padded suits, the bass in my chest at parties in cramped dorm rooms, the whispers of my
housemates, frustrated, insecure, in the dead of night. Then, when the guys all went home for Thanksgiving
break, everything felt abruptly quiet, like the silence between tracks on a CD.
I sat silently in my room, thumbing through books but not really reading them. I sat at our kitchen table
and stared at the Wall, wondering if anyone would notice if I added another string to my picture, or took one
away from Daniel’s. Sometimes I sat on the other guys’ bedroom floors, staring at the posters and medals on
their walls, the memorabilia of their lives before college. I imagined they were the exact same people here that
they were in their hometowns. I wondered if I was too.
On the night of Thanksgiving, I went out to eat something other than microwaved mac and cheese and
to hear something other than my own feet shuffling from room to room. When I arrived at the dining hall, it
was mostly empty except for a dozen or so students. One of them, I recognized, was Gwen. She wore a
turtleneck the color of pea soup, sitting alone with her dinner and a battered copy of Steppenwolf open in front
of her.
“Can I sit with you?” I asked her.
She looked up at me. “Sure,” she said, but she had a look in her eyes that dared me to actually do it.
Before long, I was in her apartment.
We lay prostrate together under the Ganesha while I repeated Gwen’s Sanskrit chant. She burned a stick of
sage and waved it around the room, over the doors and windows, and around my head. Then we had stiff, eye-
contactless sex on her unmade bed.
After we finished, she pulled out her video camera. She stood above the bed and stared at me, not
turning it on, just tossing it back and forth in her hands.
“You live with Daniel, right? In Ferguson?” she asked.
“Yeah.”
“I thought I recognized you. Have I made it onto the Wall yet?”
I clenched my jaw. The guys always said there was nothing wrong with the Wall because, really, we were
objectifying everyone on it, the guys and the girls equally. But the way Gwen asked about it made me tense up.
“Yeah,” I said again.
“Did Daniel tell you about the video?”
I shook my head. “No,” I lied.
Gwen narrowed her eyes. “I filmed us fucking,” she said. “Wanna see?”
“No thanks. I don’t think Daniel would like you going around showing that to people.”
“Hm,” she said. “That’s the first time I’ve gotten that answer. Henry and Danny have both watched it.”
“Really?”
She nodded.
“That’s fucked up, Gwen,” I said.
She scoffed. “Don’t first-name me like you know me. Like I’m not anything more to you than a photo
and some string.” She laid back down on the bed beside me.
She turned the camera on and clicked through her most recent files until she landed on a thumbnail of
Daniel, reclined in the exact spot on the bed where I lay now. He had a mixed look of eagerness and
consternation on his face, his horniness tempered by his own reservation. Gwen clicked play.
I watched Daniel apprehensively take his shirt off, fumble to remove his pants. I watched Gwen take
him in her mouth, watched him thrust jerkily into her from behind. When he pulled out and finished on her
back, I watched the look of euphoria on his face quickly drain from him, replaced by something that looked like
regret.
Gwen turned the camera off. “You’re hard again,” she said.
“Yeah. You looked good,” I said. “Hot, I mean.”
Her lips curled into a smile. “Do you wanna have sex again?”
“Sure,” I said. “Yes.”
Fucking her from behind, I stared at the tapestry of the Ganesha over the top of Gwen’s head. But in
my mind’s eye, I replaced the god’s elephant face with Daniel’s. I pictured his speckled brown eyes and the
dimple in his chin. I imagined the deity’s many hands moving around to touch himself—the bony hollow
between his pecs, his flat, soft stomach, the trail of hair just under his navel.
I didn’t pull out when I came—I hadn’t even realized I did. Upon realization, I apologized profusely as
Gwen got up to grab herself a towel. She told me it was fine, really, since she was on the pill, but if I really felt
bad about it I could give her the twenty dollars it would’ve cost her to get a Plan B, as reparations.
I sat on the edge of the bed with my back to her, pulling my shirt over my head when she asked from
behind me, “Were you thinking of Daniel that time?” I felt her lie back down on the mattress. “Or the first
time, for that matter?”
“No,” I said, too quickly. That muffled, CD-player silence returned. “I should go. I’ll see you around.” I
got up from the bed and turned to face her before I left.
Gwen was lying there on her side like an odalisque, staring back at me with the same look in her eye
from the dining hall. Her video camera was propped up against her stomach, pointed right at me with the red
light blinking.
A few weeks earlier, the guys and I rode in the back of a cramped school shuttle on the way home from a party
across campus. Wedged between Danny and Daniel, I kept nodding off, my chin falling to my chest until a
bump in the road woke me up again. Daniel insisted I put my head on his shoulder, and when I told him I was
fine, he forced my head there in the crook of his neck. “Don’t be so proud,” he said. “Get some sleep.”
I set my gaze on the dark street in front of us. In the middle distance, I saw something in the road, like a
big chunk of pavement. But as we got closer, it looked more and more like a small animal, maybe a deer—
curled in on itself, probably asleep.
It was quite beautiful and looked so peaceful. It should probably get out of the road, I thought, my
eyelids heavy. It would be a shame if it got hit.
Mark Young
Mehreen Ahmed
Collector’s Item
Bones remembered. They read like an open story book. Of creatures, of habits, of cultures; if bones were to be
reconstructed, and retraced, a narrative of a forgotten race could emerge like a dancing dream. In my deep sleep
who I dream’t was no more predictable or consequential than my skin-deep complexion. Just as well, The face I
dream’t last night was inconsequential and unpredictable. Yet, I dream’t of someone in my unconscious,
subterranean self; I dream’t a hobbit slam a door to my face in not so subtle ways.
I know this hobbit, I’ve known him for years. Who often chided me, laughed at my button nose and the dark
tone of my skin. Until one day, I literally stepped on his toes for being churlish. He was in the throes of a
maddening mid-life crisis, and I, in my sweet twenties. I grumbled, I was grim, his grimy comments tormented
me; he told me that I had a pig-nose, that I was the black baby of this fair-skinned family, without any hope of
ever securing a husband. Who would marry me? Thankfully, I wasn’t the black sheep, because I had the
graciousness to repeatedly forgive him for his rudeness. I was better than him. He was such a tease!
Well-groomed, the hobbit harboured a desire to become king. He was our neighbour’s grandson. Growing up,
he pulled my pigtails an awful lot. I never took him seriously, particularly his waywardness affected me. I
realised that but I was also helpless to avoid him because he would be everywhere—by the lake, barking up the
same or the wrong tree, too, sometimes which I also did, in the forests, the mountains peaks, the old haunts as
it were; as though he could read my mind. As though he timed me and he knew exactly where to find me.
Liked him? I did not for calling me black, button-nosed creature of the night. But what could I do? When I
tried telling an adult, they ignored me, laughed it away, calling me a button-nosed Krishna as well—the dark
girl. I heard it so often being called the ‘dark beauty,’ the ‘dark night,’ even ‘dark knight,’ that the word “dark”
sunk into me like a stinging fly as a telltale sign of the adults grinning at me like Cheshire.
The suspicions began to stir my sensibilities; a confusion arose within me as to the use of that adjective: elevated
me sometimes as one who possessed exuberant “dark beauty” or lowly condescension to “dark ugly.” Nice try.
But my fortitude and optimism quelled such misgivings, and gave me the strength to rise above such double-
edged sarcasms/compliments, apportioned by the adults.
I stood tall, lifted my brows and held a button-nose high as I went about my way, bracing myself from any
negativity seeping into me. I was a beacon of resilience. I began to laugh with them. My family fed me well,
took me to the best forests, told me the best fantasies about our elves and fairies. I listened to the best flute
music and vocals. My cave-room was full of rarest forest flowers, and gifts of precious gems, rubies, lapis lazuly,
and diamonds glittered, everywhere I looked. My family taught me well, to be fearless and proud.
The hobbit spent an awful lot of time with my family and me. His mind soaking up all the toxicity around my
looks. While I had a clear plan as to what I wanted in life, he had none, and often
floundered in the most wicked dreams. When he teased me about my looks, I also played along laughing and
gave back some in banter; fruitless and impervious as he was to a purposeless life. While I wanted to be a healer,
he? Well, king of terra nallius. For he was just that—king of nobody who only excelled in churlish behaviour.
No wait, not entirely. He did have some interests. Because one afternoon, I walked over to his grandfather’s big
cave next door, I entered, not a soul was in or around. I entered a library full of all kinds of dead species, birds,
insects. Some rare butterflies, also, dreadfully pinned against the cave skirt walls. Stuffed animals of hunted
tigers, speared lion heads, and curved elephant tusks. Grandfather and Great, Great, Grandfathers spared no
animals in all the jungles as they went about their infamous hunting and gathering ruse without compunction.
They literally looted the nearby forests, and left nothing for other hobbits.
Looking at these, I wondered what else they collected. I ventured upstairs to the other rooms. Trespassing? Sure
it was, but I have been walking these great halls forever, too, never this far though, not even the library, always
closed. The hobbit’s bedroom doors were ajar, just when I heard footsteps at the entrance downstairs. He
entered with a folded bark under his arm. I retreated deeper into the dark walls.
He ascended the jagged stairs, two rapid steps at a time, and went into his room. The door was still wide open.
I heard dropping noise. I peeked from behind him and saw some bones rolling out of the bark as it unfolded.
Were they hobbit or animal bones I had no idea? I came out of my hiding, and descending the stairs, I fast
paced through the mountain passes, back into our cave next door. It was my deep secret, I discreetly held within
myself until I decided to find out more. I was taught to be fearless and free.
It was crazy. Why would no body be present when I was in there? Was this deliberate? I went to their cave
many times, but never did I see anything like it. Did they actually want me to see those objects? I always
thought they were great hunters and travellers. Whose mother died at childbirth. Whose father and grandfather
raised him to be a hobbit of the world, sent him across several seas to learn more about life? Who grew up in a
family without bonding to any female, who, in his spare time came to our place; a joyful cave teeming with my
aunts, uncles, cousins, mum and dad with whom he bonded. Of course, me.
The hobbit never cared to speak much about anything. He was a vapid soul, an empty shell unaffected by these
bones he collected. Bones belonging to those who would routinely tried to find gold in throw-away rocks after a
clean dig of the hobbit owned goldmine grounds. Where such hobbits living in abject poverty would hammer
away on these empty rocks in the hope of leftover gold dust; until death claimed their souls; their bodies lay
amok. No gold was ever found, or ever meant to be found in those hard rocks, except their bones.
Hard rocks. The fanciful hobbit goldmine, a deadly cesspool of exploitation where other hobbits worked
themselves to death in the hope of more meat and food through the deadly hours of the dark, hot mines;
honing skills for more gold out of the rocks; blood being vamped, bones being chewed until their teeth
clenched, muscles relaxed, and the dwarf bodies lay pale and petrified. Bones, brought home, stripped off any
traces of soft tissues, or faintest skin colour.
Down to the bare bones. Our hobbit friend suddenly died. Where they were collected and preserved in a bone
library of all kinds of Neanderthal, Homo Floresiensis, Australopithecus, Paranthropus, and the earliest-
known Homo Erectus skeletons; his bones, even in extinction, proved to be infinite; every inch fossilised in the
purest, solid form, his tales locked in. Unlike others, I didn’t have a single bad bone my mother always said. It’s
all in the bone. The rest were fantasies, lost in a vapour of ice.
Partha Sarkar
The corridor.
The vast map
And everyone is a traveler
And everyone does not know where the destination is.
A prolonged tiredness.
Comes a deep lumber at the ankles and yet a warning for me-
‘I have to do something positive..’ and begins to smile% cholesterol.
So, no tension in taking the letter from now the more light and crispy sweet.
Perhaps one day all divine myths will be the closed chapters
And at the silence, I am blind and so is yellow poverty at the blue window.
Mark Young & Thomas Fink
from
100 Titles From Tom Beckett
paintings by
Thomas Fink
poems by
Mark Young
#48: Embrace Your Format
Embrace Your Power. A womans guide to loving yourself.
Embrace Your Greatness. It's time to start feeling good about yourself!
Embrace Your Non-Linear Career. Just because you've always been or done one thing doesn't mean you can't
evolve & grow into a new rôle.
Embrace Your Weirdness. Immerse yourself in a world of heartfelt emotions & genuine connections as you
create unforgettable digital scrapbook pages.
Embrace Your Inner Sherlock Holmes. Build on the important work of previous national multicultural mental
health projects.
Embrace Your Feminessence. Learn how our co-authors have navigated adversity & chosen to reclaim their
power by tapping into their Feminessence.
Embrace Your Inner Drag Queen. Set your own path & try new things. Your technique should serve your
artistic intentions.
Embrace Your Fears. Turn the paper into landscape format & divide the page into three columns.
Embrace The Afterlife. Enjoy grand festivities as you honor your loved ones at Day of the Dead Festival.
Embrace Integrated Pest & Disease Management. An African proverb says: Do not throw away your water just
because you heard it will be raining.
Embrace Rich Media Format. It is easy to plan a chartered yacht vacation.
ALL IS BEATING
I am apart,
and partying with
whatever whispers
back at me.
WAKING UP
Meeting myself
from below,
expanding on the edges
of the present, watching thoughts tread
on my toes
as yet unfamiliar
and as yet still few.
It requires breath
and listening
There I was
diving into daydreams
letting myself go,
departing.
You don’t.
Love is complex;
inextricably wound in beautiful mysteries,
like morning dew at the nape of a leaf’s neck,
gently teasing, blowing a soft kiss.
Circa 2016
slips away.
The first drop of red on her underwear
shame.
burp,
the plate is left on the table as he washes his hands,
gravy dries on silverware.
different.
Torn from Morning’s Pink Azalea
Shame; so lofty,
clinging onto your skin like a helminth.
The pinnacle of your cheek is red,
so are your ears – red, so distinctly separate
from your body
and all of a sudden…
cold and hot alike.
My Prayer
I am jetlagged from flying across 16 time zones, back to Vancouver from Southern Taiwan, my body still
vibrating after 48 hours, seeing double:
smoky air, shrouding hills, human moods versus Granville Island air scented with essential oils from its tourist
shops, boutiques perfuming and enlivening people and dogs;
my brother’s dogs walking freely up a high mountain in Chun Rih, at times spotting and picking up dried
worms, like a long chain of dried raisons, and spiraling down and around the mango farms, then meeting several
more dogs barking and growling near the top, defending a farm
versus short-leashed Vancouver dogs in pink duffel jackets and studded leather collars, some collars flashing
with red lights, greeting each other with a wag and sniff, trotting past well-manicured lawns and town houses,
playing “fetch” in muddy, fenced dog parks;
Ping Tung County owners knowing their neighbours’ names, though not always their neighbours’ dogs’ and
community dogs’ names
versus Vancouver owners often knowing only their neighbours’ dogs’ names or, if they have forgotten, asking
and about the breed;
Mountain Indigenous people of Chun Rih of four generations mingling with white Europeans as friends, fathers,
mothers, husbands, wives, in-laws, uncles, aunts, co-workers, teachers…
versus Indigenous people of disrupted generations--the Musqueam, Squamish, and Tsleil-Waututh nations--at
rallies protesting the invasion of pipelines into their unceded, ancestral lands and missing, murdered Indigenous
women;
a bowl of sesame noodles with pickled boiled egg and seaweed versus fish and chips;
network of teachers minding each other’s children versus individualistic teachers competing for spots in daycare
or with paid help;
my brother’s close teacher friend who treats me as a sister, shares his loves of the land, slips a betel nut chew
into my pocket, saying “Welcome to Taiwan”;
versus Vancouver colleagues who are in other townships or “too busy” to come greet me when I return at the
airport, my eyes looking hopefully for my name in English print on carboard alongside cardboard with names in
Chinese script;
my sister-in-law’s great aunt, Paiwanese elder, next door who has never left the village because “there is no
reason to” versus my Canadian aunt in a care center with sons and relatives at the opposite side of the country;
exteriors of houses with one coat of paint, the original, versus yearly new layers of paint;
a lot of questions about family and personal life versus a lot of questions about work and status;
one personality matching business, work, family, friends, and community versus a manicured, rotating
personality with different sides, depending on the setting and situation;
shirts matching others’ shirts--my brother donning a Paiwanese vest for a concert at the Paiwanese school where
he teaches--versus matching brand name business suits;
my supersize body in Taiwan that can’t find an attractive swimsuit in store after store at the night market versus
my medium-sized body safely tucked and hidden among plus sizes;
Tonight I took my dog for a night walk around Granville Island. Trying to recover from the dehydration of air
flight, I had drunk a lot of water. I needed to pee but the community center was closed and none of the coffee
shops and restaurants would let me use the restroom with my dog; I squatted in a dark, bushy spot of the dog
park.
Anna Kapungu
He revolutionised my mind
Envisioning the world with a slant
Earth 23 degrees on a tilt
Heart to heart he was my gain
An enigma eccentric with a good name
He mutated into my allure
Placed himself in my thoughts
Day dreams of fancy
Secured me, my port in a storm
Windswept I was standing in the gusts of his emanation
A force of presence
My possibility
My odds on favourite
My days were delight,romance and bliss
He was my roadstead a place of safety
My prize
Buoyant I am happy
Brenda Mox
Suppressing a smile
in spite of self,
letting face be touched
by movement of trees,
lips parting in wonder
at quivering pools
of black and yellow
wings that rise
with the scent of a thousand
translucent white buds
and the odor of wild
water over stones!
In a cold snap
of inspiration,
his brain split,
running in opposite
Directions
in an effort to make sense
of his fragmented self.
Summer 1976
Interstate 95, North
He drove with the pickup windows half-down. The wind hurried in as if searching for something.
Penny sat crosslegged, fingering her dress’s patchwork squares. Turquoise with gold swans. Red and black
stripes in varying width. A chunk of white. A single pocket of a gingerbread woman on a red background was
sewn in the dress’s center, big enough for her clenched hands.
She refused to change clothes.
Grownup women she knew and didn’t know kept offering, “Honey, let’s find you something fresh and clean.”
The old man in suspenders who said he was her grandfather, her Opa, told them, “Let the child be.”
She scuttled under the beautyberries, escaped.
Opa crawled under the bushes, too, and sat with her in the dirt. “Your Grandma Erna sent me. She
stayed on the farm to feed the chickens and milk Lupine. We have only the one cow left.” His beard snagged on
a leafy branch. He unwound his beard bit by bit, a twisted white tuft remaining on the branch, hung in the
piercing Florida sunlight like a cobweb.
He had a hand that was not-a-hand, a folded up flipper, not human. A fearsome thing.
As he drove, pavement flashed by the window. They passed fields so enormous it seemed impossible to
ever walk through them. The truck rolled over bridges that spanned rivers with boats, the water flowing to
faraway places. In her breath’s fog on the glass, Penny drew two walls and a peaked roof, a door and two
upstairs windows, a cat with a corkscrew tail beneath a tree that grew taller than her patch of fog, so she
exhaled, again, against the window, expanding her palette. She sucked a drop of condensation from her finger.
Her skin tasted like a grubby apple slice.
The sky stretched, broken by jagged cityscapes. Rivers, half-moon iron bridges, mystifying mile markers.
Everything was nameless. The daylight gave way to darkness and glowing cities. She woke in the night, and still
he was driving. The pickup had no radio.
In preschool, Miss Morin played the piano. They sang songs whose words Penny didn’t know except for Free to
be me and you. They sang these words over and over, her teacher’s favorite song, as if there were no other
words. Penny didn’t like this Miss Morin who made Penny go in the bathroom and wash her face every
morning and do something about those ears. What was she supposed to do? Remove her ears? Wasn’t Penny
free to be her own me?
In her window’s foggy picture, she sketched a nest in the tree’s branches, four open baby birds’ beaks.
They drove among endless cars and long trucks and moving vans. A train followed the highway until the
tracks turned elsewhere. The moon hung in the pale pink sky, out of place. It was supposed to rise over Pike’s
Park where they sometimes brought sandwiches for dinner and ate at the picnic tables, silver aluminum, hot
from the sun.
They stopped at a restaurant, where Opa drank coffee. He said they should order pieces of pie. The pies
sat on the diner counter under smeared glass covers. Cherry bled red like spilled blood through the crust. She
would never, ever eat that. Instead, she tore tiny pieces from the corner of a paper napkin, pushed them into a
pile with her fingertips.
The waitress refilled her grandfather’s cup and patted Penny’s head.
On stools at the counter, truckers chewed toothpicks, talked trucker talk.
Opa folded bills beneath his drained cup. On their way out, he stopped at the row of candy machines.
“You like gum?”
“Mom says no gum. Gets stuck in my hair.”
One knee of his jeans had a hole the size of a penny. The material hung loosely, and she couldn’t see his
skin. He slid a coin in the machine, cranked the knob, and then opened the hatch at the bottom. Gumballs
rolled into his scary hand, the fingers chopped off, the palm twisted. Carefully, without touching him, she took
the sweets — one, two, three, of course she could count, she was no baby. He studied the row of glassed-in
colored treats and dropped coins into another machine. This time, a plastic egg rolled into his hand. She took
that, too. She was no dummy, her mother said.
She held the egg in one hand, candy in the other.
They stepped out into the glaring afternoon. The light fell hard, like a thing.
The truck already smelled familiar, suffused with the tangy hay chaff sprinkled over the seats and
gathered in clumped lines on the floor. She placed the gumballs on her dress spread over her crossed legs and
opened the egg. A disc, about the thickness of a pencil eraser, fell into her lap. The circle had a plastic cover
over a paper picture of a boy on a blue tricycle. Tiny holes were punched on each of the tricycle’s handlebars and
over the boy’s overall bib. Three silver balls rolled in the disc. Penny tipped the disc, trying to cajole the beads to
find their homes and remain fixed.
Her grandfather drove onto the interstate.
A bead rolled into one handlebar and then escaped. An impossible, maddening puzzle.
Penny leaned her forehead against the half-rolled window, the breeze mucking with her hair. When she woke,
her eyes smeary with dreams and sleep crumbles, the gumdrops had melted in her fist. The tips of her long hair
were stuck to the runny gumball mess in her hand, just as her mother had warned, the gingerbread woman
smeared faceless with green sugar.
Her grandfather hung one hand loosely over the steering wheel, staring ahead, his dreadful half-hand
open on his knee. Her mother lay crooked on her side, her t-shirt scrunched above her hips. Her hair, a mane of
curls where Penny loved to nestle, was colored like the park’s sandy paths where they sometimes walked. Straw
in the neighbor boy’s rabbit hutch. Dirt beneath the beautybushes. She smelled the ocean’s salt as the tide rolled
out to sea, waves dense with seaweed, pebbles, tiny crabs, scraps of strangers’ sandwiches the gulls had dropped.
She buried her hands in those curls as if that morning, that day, that life might go on forever. As if the arc of
the universe could be altered.
Carrie Purcell Kahler
To Corey
th’purpose
o’th’viol-de-gamboys
speak’st o’these
question’s
o’my
o’man
i’th’butt’ry
whoe’re a’nights
numb’red t’embrace
th’alliance mounr’st
swear’t
‘tis
cruel’st suff’ring
297.1: Delusional Disorder
Do you believe that this dark orb shall from ashes rise?
None but fools can judge.
The hearts of men in chequered lines lie open.
The Lord judge between man and me.
What in Gethsemane?
You judge me a lost sheep.
The wind shall carry them away and the whirlwind shall scatter them.
Judge how many are going astray after me.
Chris Stroffolino
the heady
is heavy
till
the skitter of drums
breathing through
discordant stums
allow
the soft purr of sax
to rise from the mist…
till
a spectral haze
burbles & bubbles
so the vocals
get lost
between
the creases
of the tapestry
in the light lap
of noise.
space down
the fill
turnaround
after chorus
the only symmetry
2.16. 24
String Quartet Ears
…hammer, anvil, stirrup
cello, violins, voila!
4--7-24
Café Pick Me Up
(written by Chris Stroffolino and Steve Carll)
“that leaves me with a twisted view of the whole wide world as I know it,”
as Aceyalone sang, “and I guess I got no choice but to be a poet.”
Cindy Savett
It’s December
and I still wait
swaying,
all of me, swaying.
Nothing But Blue
sovereign
light as it pours into dust pillars,
till I climb
hand over hand
to unclothed stars grown
shy among Your
fullness
as sky inhales this crackling earth –
so close
I was to the haze.
A Mighty Shaking
come here,
peace.
Dan Sicoli
alley view
at Chez Panisse where each and every lettuce leaf is licked clean by a virgin.
what I love is black and white the greatest conflict in American history.
Churchill ordered
to shoot the miners you say you just love the Prime
Minister and most Americans do
poured out from his abdomen after being shot in the dark
victory was the name of the film
Go fish
I said, “Let’s do a bump off that bird’s chest. The one with the pert tits.
And if
she insists on having a toot, she can take hers straight from my cock.
How’s that?
Chick can snort from down there, as far as I’m concerned. She can go down
on one knee for the rest of her life. I’ll buy her a pillow.”
One yearns for the démodé to become fashionable, or at least I used to.
It often even becomes trendy,
like digging up old cars in the back of weathered barns: Citroën DS21s
and Mustangs
hidden in the forest. We found a Maserati wrapped around a tree.
I’m all for that.
It’s a matter of rediscovery, like the BBC production of Brideshead Revisited
by Justin Bieber.
She says
she is up for anything but she prefers not to be asked.
She doesn’t want to be asked for her approval or permission. She doesn’t want
to be given choices or to be asked to make decisions.
She wants him to do all the deciding,
to lead as in a dance.
She begged him not to ask for her consent. She is not a virgin.
She remembers once shouting, “Just do it!” to a young man
who felt obliged to speak as politely as his mother did when serving afternoon tea.
I know the type. He probably approves of that awful 20th century anthology
featuring Rita Dove.
I know the type.
He’s got a subscription to Reader’s Digest.
The last time we spoke,
he was hoping to replace his bathroom ceiling light fixture with a chandelier.
He’s Chair.
With my butch hair-do and white T-shirt, I resemble a flat-chested Jean Seberg,
Jean-Paul Belmondo’s girlfriend; unfortunately, Malik has someone more
like Brigitte Bardot in mind,
including her famous pout.
He is in love with her unforgiving breasts and fuckable mouth.
What does it mean?
It means that even the frumpy get horny.
Crows Are One Thing
I.
II.
III.
IV.
V.
VII.
VIII.
IX.
IX.
XI.
I can’t breathe.
Put on the air.
There’s a thing, a whatever: no air from 3 to 5.
To prevent black-outs or brown-outs.
The sun. We’re not living; we’re drifting. Floating.
XII.
XIII.
XIV.
XV.
“Un anno…”
Oh my green-leaf hyacinth
on a plain smoking with tears.
i
Medita l’acqua, dubita fra i vetri
ma s’è smarrita in mezzo agli scaffali
da ieri un’ape. E tra gli asciutti alari
fragile brilla una azalea da ieri.
Short Quatrains
i
Meditate upon water, and meditate on doubt
through glass, but ever since yesterday
a bee has been lost among the bookshelves.
Since yesterday, a shining azalea among dry and fragile wings.
II
Canzoncina interrotta
Solo la veemente
mia ora lacercava
sul cancello le rose…
E riversa una statua
Western Gull
A deposition written on a pipe; the western gull, it is a thieving bird, a liar. Do not trust a thing it does, or tells
you, she is sick. Hangs off currents, feeds in the interstitial upper mantle. He flies, a dark glaucus. The western
grey she does this + worse to clear the head, forget, it caws with all the birds a flogging eats up + on. They child
from the inside, while its mother watched, 3 eggs. Phone the law
Have thought about this. Junk. All those trash moves. We will not die the man at the edge of it, that liar. Is
about unresolved pathology we must have, we are. We look for addictions that never adjust us. See. Our
bloated lives face that fall through the narrative + out. See we are not to be cured, never, we steep a bad blessing.
Not heavens as such but there is the illness - in the light - in the gull.
Scramble to recover a unit. Before the rising there was. Something grew a child. It nested there deep in the
longing. Regurgitated the fluid. Slept on under an exhausting moon. His half of the jigsaw an adult remnant.
Drs glided lofty in the corridors. One alone was an angel. Its dusted wings grazed by the gull. He wrote a
prescription based on his description. Based on his description he wrote a prescription. Hallowed be its name.
outside of the inner circle prayers were said. Nearly Christmas as the oxygen would have it. It was snowing and
his blood was juice thin. Magic was the only hope. The magic of a child’s hope. But who would phone the law?
What is sickness for? Driving into work once, I overtook a bus going on the slip road to the main road, A47 -
was thinking of nothing. Then, at the Acle roundabout I went again – but there was a bus. Was it that bus? It
looked the same, was moving in the same way. Between life and death. Nothing is the same. We have crossed
over into pathology, patient x - alcohol dependent, this is a bus to work.
Then there is alleyways and royalty. The infirm signed the papers but by that time they were all ghosts of the
former. Later she examined the creature’s eyes. The creatures extracted any emotion. They were all deeply sorry.
The drs who were no less than human exhumed particles of flesh. They kept digging deeper + deeper. Into the
impenetrable spaces between atoms. Time and again the swellings burst pustules. But the politicians insisted
there wasn’t a problem here. Yet his widow was ragged with tears. You’ll end up with a two-tier health system
warned the jailbirds. But surely that’s better than nothing? No, the police must be told.
Lying eyes
The pipework lay in tatters. No-one could tell the imposter. It was a sadness for the whole of the carriage.
Where had they been + who had transgressed. Russell brand reached for the remote. His eyes widened at the
news. Those lying eyes a bauble. The drs huddled together but could not agree a diagnosis. Poor chap only had
1 leg. This was against the law. The unwritten law. Stars in the hemisphere collided. They did not have an
answer. Some called for the laughing gas. The surgeon pointed out that the guidebook was in Japanese, a
language he did not speak. They were ill-prepared for the spread of the sickness. It throbbed deep in the veins.
Country is going to rack and ruin they declared in unison. But headline writers got there first. RAC + ruin they
bled. Into the mirrors. Noel was about to phone the law. But his was an unwritten constitution. Never mind
wherever he is he’s in his element they agreed. What’s all this about elephants asked the sergeant. No one heard
him.
A beast with his mouth Wide open. So, when you look, you can see the spinal cord fused with that of a man.
That beastcord innervates me. watch me dance. Watch me stretch, catch a fly up with one animal slam the
Merc in reverse, finish up at the base of a forest tree. With barky skin a toad. Learn all kinds of things about the
ganglion switches back. About the beast with His vast car so my ware.
Wide open to interruption the skin nodules. Bursting into the stratosphere. The wires to the brain were taut.
One politician bled pretty much into another. News item faded into gore of news item. Which one of the royals
is stable? Your guess is as good as mine one lawyer said to the rest. Your guest is as good as time rewound
elephants which had strayed from the park. Some were the same. Others guessed at the disease. Drs danced in
the foyer. Such a scandal roared Geoffrey. A monumental waste of NHS resources was reported. One a tory the
other was labour. Covid was the leveller. It saw the beast. It was also the beast. It lurked deep in the membrane
fluid. Something more than human roared. It had come for Russell brand. Delicate in its nature the blood-let.
Inflation more than crippled. Can’t use that word.
Your naughty boy is playing up again. You’re done in and your mother’s sick and old. Have to look after her.
But where are you - spark? To do one thing after another, forever, + so worried about your daughter. Then.
Who are you? There’s no way can reasonably express the mixture of love, anguish. Human universe. In holes
the fall through the imperium goes on around, washes through - every day
It’s a background cluster of cancer cells. Efforts to escape the gas of debate clear the bombed-out hospitals. Let
us claim a jingoistic victory once more. Encrusted brown marks on the skin. He said he loved her. More than
once or at least twice. Look after your mother little bird. Even if you can’t get her to the phone anymore. Ring a
ring a roses. Atichoo etc. then they all fell down. The western gull preens itself. Takes its wing. The same old
cues. The same old news. Some seek out the fledgling flight. In another seedy part of town bar-room brawls
break-out. Stand and deliver says his conscience. Droning on + on. These savage victories. Each a cancer cell.
Adverts on the telly.
The pipework lies in tatters as the western gull preens its daughters. Like the same old formulation. The same
old formulation. Read it in the headlines. Gaza have we been here before? The ambulances + in doctors arrive
far too late. They rushed in to where he lay crazed + purple-hearted on the dance floor. He was petrified +
spoke of the ways of witches + vampires. There were stories too of the old parliamentarians before the age of
destruction. “We get the governments we deserve” gargled the shooting victim. The knife victim. The western
gull let out a great cry + flapped its wings. It would try again. The same old ordeal. Words of comfort strangled
in the mouth. He would never be the same. He was always different.
(ends)
E. H. Beyer
A Shower
A downpour has
come on the rows of violets.
There is a curtain, a
sheen of light in relief.
For a moment
there is no sense of becoming wet,
just a rumor of another
way to rove over all
things.
The Backward Self
My shadow shrinks
and expands like a
lung. It is
over with
and then it starts
as a shyness below
me. It is
open to you now
again.
The Spirits
To the mountains
the spirits have crossed over,
those departed ones with a
journey to
make into the wilderness and
great stillness of uneven terrain to where
a blank check awaits.
I go on my journey too,
but am alive. A wall
around them is not there. Instead
as if in a stable they gather as horses
then run over the marsh at first
and glowering there, linger in a last
chance at real light.
Those whom we've lost, I know those ones well as if sung to.
It is Eyolf and his Bettine.
I am glad to have known many and
not been foiled by all.
A ring around the earth
In a ring I go
around the earth.
Always the same
day comes forward.
I become
old inside this ring,
yet on the outer side
of things
I am a
shadow and hoary, frosty light,
while still as
fresh as a showy daisy.
A Taggart Day
Just playing a
game not for
sport, the sun
was rosy-colored.
We watched
again the next day. And
we were in the garden, and
while we waited for night
there were people with us,
strange wonders of mountain men
and women who
came in from the east.
They were magnesium clouds
whose secrets were
told by a giant wind
in that evening Ovid foretold.
Ed Makowski
Flutter
Rather
take my
fashion cues
While driving
I notice the car in front of me
has sunglasses dangling
from the rear view mirror.
Reminds me
of high school dances,
where it was expected
that I’d leave the evening
with my date’s garter
tightened across my
suit-coated biceps.
and retrieve
an underwear trophy
to dangle in traffic
for everyone to see.
Poetry Rehab
~or~
Standing for Something; Else
As a writer, a poet
I’d expected alcoholism
as a potential career hazard,
But
the passive dullness
of a lower back malady
requiring elaborate calisthenics
to offset the stationary “arts,”
and remediate my making of poetry,
or that sitting would cultivate
a self-fulfilling constitution
that, untreated, allows only
for more sitting -
That plot twist,
the embodied self-enemy
in the “hero’s journey”
was unexpected.
Nice work,
Fate. Good on ya.
Safeguarding the Echoes of the Wind
COUNTING NIGHTMARES
Nobody’s girlfriend,
everyone’s lover,
she was a red carpet
to a night that taught
the art of being the lead
in your own life.
the whisper
is the who
downstairs
is the lee
is the lee
downstairs?
is the who
the whisper?
two hundred & the final fifth
apple argent
the silver half
a personable nothing
a plain nothing
shallots!
advil!
what, then?
nothing
no-thing
James Croal Jackson
embracing inside an
interior of strangers.
Full Glass of Water
I am shirtless. I am thirsty.
I drink an eternity
I stand
by the sink
filling my glass,
over and over
bountiful,
something like love–
it quenches,
but you must keep filling.
The Universe of Body
Cuddle? Can’t.
That would require feeling.
C’mon, not even a sneak peek?
THREE POEMS
MAGICHOLIA
flame flower
smelling of iron and spice
to wipe the surface mirror
fogged with ancestral
Narcissus
your wellspring
what you have in tow
THOUSANDFURS
cloaked in the wolf hour/ I fold a solar system of dresses into a nutshell/ hide from my father in a malt barrel tree/
leaking radium and rye/ he would wed me/ likeness of my dead mother/ yellow hair woe in the oak/ upon a once I
could begin/ reaching longgold time ago/ landing only with leachate/ my father whiskered crayfish-strange/ he will
wreck the forest buck and grub each threaded root/ leaving a strontium run-off kill/ can I care about blue loam
when thrall is fill/ my tattoos rant/ skin a cursive tome of tiny truths/ inked in walnut stain/ drips dyeing a
disguise/ my mother would have fed me prince and silence/ writ large my words grow lace armor/ I broadcast fire
spells along limbs/ clamor for face/ how easily I facet an infinite
DEBACLE WEB
what do I lose
at the unburdening
I silk
an arc
umbilical cord to fasten
sibilance silver
whisper droplet-knit
All the while, Salka feels she hasn’t done enough to fight Hitler,
hasn’t done enough to save refugees & Jews.
Possibility
half-forgotten epithets—
and a butterfly drops to an abandoned vase of
cheap artificial flowers on the old porch.
Background Microwave Radiation
MAGIC HOUR
A few beachgoers called Magic Hour the Never Open Café. Some thought the café was never open
because business was poor and weather at the clothing optional beach was unstable, frequently rainy, stormy,
and windy, with gusts, cold water, and wind chill. But Hanlan’s Hillbillies knew better, and that explanation
ignored the gorgeous warm sunny days and the resplendent views of the cityscape and the sunsets from the
beaches when Layla could never keep up with the customers that inundated her takeout and café. Layla also
preferred to keep her café to a one-person operation, without any employees.
The city and the parks and recreation department that issued Layla her concession permits wanted to
reissue those business licenses to an ice cream parlor, a donut shop, a hamburger joint, or another fast-food
franchise. With the thirty-five hundred dollars her mother sent her every month, though, Layla hired a lawyer
her mother recommended and fought the rescission. Embarrassed by her mother’s allegation they discriminated
against budding entrepreneurs and small business, the parks and recreation department and the city reversed the
order.
The café was unprofitable on paper, according to Layla’s mother’s accountants, to whom she handed all
the business records at the end of the quarter. The café, though, her mother understood, was her true purpose
and meaning in life. Her mother kept calling her every Sunday afternoon with business advice, acting as if
Layla, whom she described to friends and associates as her wayward daughter, was one of the most important
clients in her business consulting practice. Joan also realized that true to her daughter’s personality and
disposition she would never succeed in the competitive food service and restaurant sector. Her mother urged her
to return to university and college to find her true bearings and callings in life.
“But I’m thirty-six,” Layla complained.
“You’ll simply apply as a mature student, and I’ll pay the tuition, the textbooks, and your rent, in
residence, where you’ll do better and be among peers,” Joan said.
Layla was adamant and obstinate, insisting she was living the life she wanted to lead. Soon her business
losses would reverse themselves. Joan threatened to stop sending her thirty-five hundred dollars a month. Layla
dared her mother to do that precisely, and with that gauntlet thrown down Joan backed away.
The café should have been profitable, but Layla kept taking breaks at the clothing optional beach down
the pathway. Sometimes Layla would ask one of the friends she made among the beach regulars who frequented
Hanlan’s Point to mind the café, while she took a break on the shoreline. She got along well with these beach
regulars, but at times she referred to them affectionately or pejoratively, depending upon her mood, as Hanlan’s
Hillbillies.
When Joni, a beach regular, asked her the reason, she said because they acted as if they owned the
beach. They practically lived on the beach, camped on the shoreline, and in the nearby bushes. Often, they
frightened and harassed tourists and visitors from the mainland city. Despite her petite size, Joni, who sold
homemade marijuana and cannabis edibles, caramels, brownies, cookies, on the beach, depending on which
recipes she was experimenting with that week, pushed and shoved the tall, slender Layla and scattered her
towel, beach blanket, and picnic basket across the beach shore and trail. Afterwards, Layla learned to keep the
moniker to herself.
In any event, Layla loved the sight of the beach, the skyline of Lake Ontario, the cityscape, the boats,
the yachts, the ferries, the cruise ships, and especially the bodies, nude and clothed. She sat on the quiet corner
of the beach in a wooded area, along the cruising trail, and she injected herself with her magic hour. She
covered her head with a towel, and she luxuriated in the warm rush, the orgasmic sensation, and the relaxation
and euphoria the medication gave her, which she bought from a friend, one of Hanlan’s Hillbillies.
When Layla came down from the high, she returned in her bikini, wrapped in the beach towel or
blanket, to the café. Invariably, one of Hanlan’s Hillbillies helped themselves to beer, pop, chips, snacks, which
she expected, but oftentimes they raided the store for their friends and gang and headed off with shopping bags
of stuff. They even took money from the store till, even though these friends said they were happy to fill in for
her in return for the odd coffee, snack, or takeout meal, which she always gladly gave them. Sometimes, they
even took money from the till, or pilfered the whole day’s receipts, but Layla did not care.
Joan’s monthly allowance of thirty-five hundred dollars to her daughter—-which Layla usually
considered guilt money (for her broken marriages, divorces, and the childhood it spawned), usually covered the
losses. Besides, the important stuff, the Magic Hour, she always remembered to keep locked in the safe in the
storeroom, which itself was locked by a combination only she knew, even though Joni knew the combination
number after Layla absently wrote it on a notepad. Joni regularly got into Layla’s Magic Hour for her own
dealings and diluted her supply with her own dealer’s stuff and substances.
The Magic Hour she also sold to a few regular beach customers. The profits she earned from the sale of
Magic Hour paid for her own habit and supply; so, in the end there was no profit or loss; she was simply living,
surviving, as she told her mother. Joan kept emphasizing in her business voice she needed to change this edgy
lifestyle, this hipster, hippie life she was living on the fringes of society was not sustainable.
The summer of the pandemic, though, there was disruption in supply, in habits, routines, and lifestyle.
People started to frequent and crowd the beach, since most of the restaurants, bars, cafes, and stores were forced
to close, but through some loopholes, and in between waves of the pandemic, public health and the government
allowed her to keep the Magic Hour Café open. The potency of the supply of Magic Hour she bought from a
mariner and sailor at the yacht club was stronger than ever, more than she ever expected.
Several of the customers to whom she supplied Magic Hour overdosed on the beach. Two even died,
although alcohol may have played a role in the death of a second victim, a nudist who sold beads and weavings
on the sand of the clothing optional beach.
Police checks and patrols by by-law enforcement officers increased in frequency, to a level Layla never
saw before on the beach. One of Hanlan’s Hillbillies assured her no-one suspected her. Still, Layla became
paranoid, albeit she thought her response was justifiable, given the circumstances.
Everyday on the beach that summer Layla passed a floral arrangement set up as a memorial for one of
the overdose victims. Whenever she saw a police officer on the beach, she suspected they were looking for her,
intending to arrest her. Her paranoia and anxiety always increased her needs for Magic Hour. She started
injecting herself behind the counter of the Magic Hour Cafe, which was not her preferred venue for shooting
up. Layla favored the experience, the rush, the euphoria, the release, at the beach, which made the ritual more
magical and the experience transcendent, especially around sunsets. She carefully measured her doses, and
sometimes sent the stuff to a lab, but, lately, her Magic Hour, which became more adulterated during the
pandemic, was laced with a potential derivative of fentanyl.
One of the beach gang members, the aged flower child, Joni, who sold cannabis and CBD edibles,
found her, when she visited the café to buy a coffee and her favorite oat bran muffin. When she saw Magic
Hour café was open and not shuttered, but Layla was not responding, she opened the side door, near the public
washrooms and showers.
Joni went through the patio and side entrance into the cramped café, where she found Layla passed out
in her wicker chair, with a book about the use of psilocybin and cannabis for psychedelic therapy, at a small
antique hardwood desk that barely fit in her cubicle-sized business office.
Joni knew where the first aid kit and emergency supply of naloxone was located and carried her own
supply in a red zippered case, like those for eyeglasses. Joni injected Layla with the antidote. Then she
anonymously called 911 on her landline telephone, and whispered, cursed, and in her dreads, beads, and woven
garments prayed to her Buddhist gods Layla responded to the antidote.
Later, before Layla fully regained consciousness in the hospital from the drug-induced coma, her mother
discovered she had somehow contracted the hepatitis C virus.
Her mother was furious her daughter overdosed. What made her even more angry—she told Carlos, her
personal assistant and current life partner—her baby, her daughter, had contracted the hepatitis C virus. She
feared her baby, her girl, was tainted, contaminated now, damaged goods, ruined for life. Her mother could
barely contain herself and control her anger.
A member of the team of doctors caring for her reassured Joan pharmacological science had discovered
an effective cure for hepatitis C. They were starting to treat her with those medications in the hospital for that
chronic condition as they spoke.
Her mother returned to her room and started reading the facts sheets and information about Hepatitis
C and its treatment, which the doctor had given her at her bedside.
But Joan grew impatient and moved on to perusing her beloved Globe and Mail and then the Wall Street
Journal. When Layla roused herself from her torpor and became aware of her presence, her mother glared at
her, as if she had done something terribly wrong.
When Layla gazed at her mother, through oxygen tubes and intravenous lines, and she reached out to
her, helplessly, Joan automatically slapped her hand, to which was taped and bandaged a tube and intravenous
needle, hard. Her mother had never administered corporal punishment to her in her life. Her mother did not
believe in the use of corporal punishment to discipline her child. (Joan had even had a grade schoolteacher fired
from her position when she was a child. The teacher, in the heat of the moment, slapped Layla when she
punched in the gut a grade five classmate, who had a history of teasing her for her height and long aquiline
nose, a boy who sobbed and cried, as if he was dying from a perforated ulcer and internal hemorrhage. He was
blocking Layla on the stairwell, stopping her from climbing the last flight of stairs, preventing her from
reaching her classroom after recess.)
Layla drifted off to sleep. When she awoke, regained consciousness, as soon as her mother saw her eyes
were open, she slapped her again but this time in the face, against her cheeks to which some color and red hue
had returned. Her mother slapped her hard, and the smack echoed against the antiseptic hospital room walls
and ceiling.
“Ouch,” Layla cried, “you’re hurting me.” Layla covered her face, smarting from the sting. Her mother
tossed a packet of moisturizer and painkillers from her Coach handbag at her.
“You never slapped me before in my life.” Layla started sobbing and crying.
At thirty-six years old, recovering from a near fatal drug overdose, her mother slapped her. The nurse
saw Joan slap Layla. Then, so, the nurse could witness firsthand how angry and outraged Joan felt she slapped
her again.
“This is what I should tell people: This young woman—her tainted illicit drugs contributed to the death
of at least one hopeless lost soul.”
The nurse asked Joan to leave Layla’s room. When Joan ignored her, the nurse demanded she leave the
hospital. The two women engaged in a literal stand off and glared at each other, until the nurse relented.
But the nurse consulted her supervisor at the nursing station. The nursing supervisor returned with
security guards, who Joan also ignored, as if they didn’t exist. Then the security guards returned with a police
officer, who threatened Joan with arrest. So, Joan called Carlos on a security guard’s smartphone to drive her
home. Still, Joan continued to visit her daughter in her hospital room, as Layla was treated for hepatitis C, with
a new medication that would cure her, doctors said.
The doctors insisted and recommended she not leave the hospital until she also entered the drug rehab
program. During each subsequent visit, her mother slapped her. Her mother would sometimes lose control,
wave newspaper clippings at her, call her ungrateful, a bitch, and slap her.
While the doctor made a tour and rounds with her medical students, pausing to visit Layla, Joan pointed
towards Layla and asked if her patient was making progress. In her outraged voice, Joan loudly told the doctor,
so her entourage of aspiring bright interns could hear; so, patients and visitors in the hallway could overhear; so,
even the ward clerks and orderlies down at the nursing station could eavesdrop: “This girl, this young woman—
her tainted narcotics led to the death of at least one hopeless lost soul.”
Her mother argued with nurses, doctors, social workers, counsellors, psychologists, and hospital
administrators until nursing staff complained and security guards and police were summoned. Hospital
administrators ordered her banned from the hospital, but Joan ignored the ban. Then administrators applied for
a restraining order. Her mother fought the restraining order with an expensive family law lawyer, who she was
averse to hiring until she realized she had no recourse.
The lawyer admitted in court he handed out corporal punishment, which Joan resented since she had
never administered corporal punishment in her life. Joan explained to the lawyer she never believed in corporal
punishment. As she listened to the lawyer in his law office and court, she realized she totally disagreed on just
about everything with this flamboyant character, who claimed he was a Christian fundamentalist when it was
convenient.
Joan again felt like a failure as a parent, especially for having to hire such an ignoble man to resolve her
legal problems. Her friends had reassured her, though, he was the right man and lawyer. Somehow, he won the
case and the restraining order was thrown out of court. Joan resumed her visits to Layla in the hospital.
During each visit Joan found herself entangled in a heated argument and dispute with Layla, and she
would slap her hard at least once. Her mother showed her clippings from the newspaper, which she asked her
personal assistant, Carlos, to clip and scrapbook. The urgent articles reported the overdoses and death from
overdoses on the clothing optional beach. Joan said it was a wonder Layla was not in jail on murder or
manslaughter charges. Then, when Laya called Carlos a lackey, Joan whacked her even harder on the face. For
the first time in a long while, her mother frightened Layla, and she wanted to frighten her.
“Reason does not work on you and your entourage—only passion and raw emotion.”
“I don’t have an entourage,” Layla protested.
“That just proves how estranged you’ve become from ordinary people, real people, not addicts and
pushers, and society.”
Joan told her once she recovered, she would head to college or university. She was not accepting Layla’s
age, at thirty-six, as an excuse. Joan did not care what subjects Layla studied at college; she only knew she could
not live this life as a beach bum and boardwalk café owner and operator any longer. Joan’s personal assistant and
secretary, who was the highest strung and most tense, nervous and anxious man Layla ever met in her life. He
doubled as her submissive life partner these days, helped her with the university and college residence
applications: the transcripts, resumes, the countless questions, documents, paperwork.
Layla did not see what choice she possessed. Carlos told her about his sister who was an alcoholic: she
recovered, returned to university in her forties, and now worked as an addictions counsellor. Somehow the idea
appealed to Layla: Addictions. Counsellor. She was addicted, and needed counselling, among other things. She
could or would try to work from there. First, she went to York University, majored in psychology, and lived on
campus, and in residence. She avoided the clothing optional beach, frequenting the gym, and swimming pool
during the off hour. She swam so obsessively she frightened the lifeguards monitoring the indoor pool of the
sports center on the university campus. The head lifeguard wanted to ban her for her arguments, and her loud
voice and hostile tone and aggressive attitude towards the lifeguards. Layla figured Magic Hour would have
mellowed her, but she could no longer resort to that route of self-medication.
She obtained her degree in psychology. Then she studied in an addictions counselling program at an
Ontario college of applied arts and technology. She did her internship at the hospital where she recovered from
her overdose, her addictions, and Hepatitis C. She found work with a nursing station on a First Nation
community with an Indigenous health services organization and then an indigenous social services based in
Sioux Lookout, which gave her a position as a counselor on a reserve on the Hudson’s Bay coastline.
This is the story, in one form or another, Layla tells clients and patients when they consult her or are
referred to her for treatment. Layla feels the need to share, to tell them, if she believes it will help her connect
with the client or patient.
Jonathan Everitt
then exit the windows for the setting sun of a mushroom cloud.
Host’s mouth is frozen on bon appétit. Futility. Each guest
might just as well carve tender paw, lift finger slice to crisp lips.
Their host had practiced to himself I’ve brought you here tonight
to break important news, but the revelation vaporizes—
a canary stilled in his coal throat.
Body Orchestrion*
“And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls, having a
golden cup in her hand full of abominations and filthiness of her fornication:” Revelation 17:4
What sanctuary is this, sprawling private parish house in checkered floor and winding stair, candelabra licking
low light on night-black cassocks, each strung with sterling crucifix, each beady Christ head straining toward
the cocktail in the clergy’s hand. A jazz quartet moans dirty saxophone out back as hallways teem with bishops,
cardinals, priests, virgin-perfect tip to tail. But they are not alone, no not one. Aproned servants circulate their
silver trays of crab cakes, quiche, plump sausages nailed to crust with toothpick. Lipsticked whores’ pieholes
roar, each the envy of Babylon, manicured claws tickling clerical collars to raise the dead. And which am I? In a
powder room upstairs beyond the balcony, I’ve stripped bare. Two sets of clothes hang on two door hooks in the
mirror. Black cassock’s dozen buttons binding with machine precision? Or crimson velvet waistcoat and
perfume to cancel out the frankincense?
metal
meet the psalm projected
wEEds, lesson
pro=long=ed brown
stooge entrail
, (IN)stead > ? <,
wAsP? poWdER??
¡ZILCH!
the sword
swollen lip
skin
partake snowy
, letting
candied
buoy
ascertain
sTrAy bulletin
[BOREDOM],
letter
letter :
perverse to
seCuRe
spreadsheet
remote
; ‘which’
‘control’
‘parachute’
; ALL
summation
gRoUnD &
prevented form
pummeling - - -
rhinencephalon:
forebrain,
rising
[its food quest (crossroads? association?) with both],,,
elaborate, thereby
| the temporal lobe |
psychic viscera
smell midbrain
, mechanisms? - - -
fOOd
, the olfactory forebrain (ablations),, shape
of an iSSuE:
evented type
thin pallium
with the senses
inescapable
: At human level,
television glucose
hypochondria : : : :
fractions CONTROL
flat rate, peak PEAK,, established
liquid cinematographic
chain ReacTiOn ;;;;; [methods
configurate
preamble] . . . . .
incubation morphology
results segment inner synthetic
retinas . . . . . glOOm . . . .
risk PaTtErN - - -
ratio affectation globe . . . . .
segmented stamina
cell condition : STALKING
acidic
clumping :
NON-CONFIRMING - - -
: ‘insulate reportage’ :
)))))equilibrium((((( - - -
, kinetic parameters
of an assurance , , KeY LOckeD , ,
activation orbit . . . . .
consistent skillset
Re=scaled
,,, Non-essential , , ,
irreversible
treatment plug : :
night-night
attached
suggestive [risk] [factor] [drowning] : :
instead
, embryonic electronic protocol
, , leave
oUt
bAcK sLiDe , , ,
door TO intention to inaction to
slEEp.
Plunder a Mixed Signal Survey
NeTheR , wheelie ,
driven to sour aeronautic
geezer syndromes
(((((i)))))(((((t)))))((((c)))))(((((h)))))
/ , / , / , / , / , / , / , /
matter plumed
alabaster strumming
: (
‘guitar
mechanism
shirt’ ) , , , duty
drips
calendar osmosis = = = GLiTTeR
fastened hammer
; [blow BY blow] ,
a fingernail scrap ,
metal onion
luster
) skip IT (.
Judith Chalmer
Spiral
Radiant dials
What if all I have is a body? What if all you need is a body? What if I don't have a body? What if my body does
not meet the specifications? What if I do not know the specifications beforehand? What if the specifications do
not include the delicate peekaboo flower of wild raspberry? What if the aroma of the delicate peekaboo flower
of wild raspberry is an appreciation in which my body partakes? What if my body takes all of it? What if my
body is drunk, right now, on the aroma of the delicate peekaboo flower of wild raspberry? What if you minded
your own business?
I am my weapon.
My words have changed hearts and minds and they are still coming.
My brain? My brain tries daily to destroy me, so I listen, listen, listen, to those who tell me I've
helped. Listen to those I love.
My brain is a weapon against myself. Love is my shield. I will not hurt those who love me,
weapon that I am. So I will not self destruct.
I have been a weapon since I was born, and I don't have blood in my teeth or a knife in my hands
but I have my voice and I have my soul. I fight nonstop and wish I could do more.
You fight for your own survival and justice for those who have been wronged by the world.
Justice, justice you shall pursue.
You shield yourself from your own hardest, cruelest thoughts. You shield the hurt of the world
and the wronged with the words you spin and weave and drape across their pain and doubts.
You build fortresses with those words. Spaces of peace and beautiful futures of power, love,
justice, and mercy. On your hardest days those fortresses stand tall even when your thoughts are
foggy and the doors you've built are hard to find.
You pray for the days that those fortresses can hold the whole, broken world. You fight like hell
for a future in which the battering ram of pain and patriarchy and hate will clear and your
fortresses can become havens, your weapons, toys. Until then your words will continue to build,
to batter against those forces of despair, and to hold strong and true for everyone who needs their
shield--for yourself and for every person touched by injustice.
Holy II
or bless,
stronger than the skin that came before.
Mop up the blood of the fallen beside you. And press on.
I am human
(What would the tenderness of a caress mean
if that hand couldn’t also destroy?)
and
And I have seen you rise again.
I will do what I must before it’s over.
I will not leave you
But what do I do if
hope is a thing with feathers
and despite my best efforts,
my feet are firmly bound by gravity?
It asks you to stay. To fight. To take the next step. To do the next best thing. To feed yourself and
bathe and clean and walk and sing and write the next email and read the next page even when
buried under the rubble of despair and crushed to the floor by its sheer, ever growing weight.
If your feet are trapped by gravity, can I be your wings? I have never felt comfortable with my
head amongst the clouds—that was always you—but for you I would sprout wings. Hold you
gently within my talons, and fly you through the gale and storm when your feathers are
bedraggled and those endings are calling you.
Hope asks you to consider what might come next. Hope asks you to imagine a tomorrow even
when yesterday fills the whole horizon like the ever-setting sun.
As a little girl,
all she wanted was to be good.
as she grew, she learned there were consequences
if she couldn’t give up thoughts of martyrdom,
of adventure,
of dying for love,
because this real world never quite lived up to its promise.
So if she still plays at the hero, how can you still love her?
God damn.
It is NOT hard loving a girl with a hero complex.
You know her smiles.
Beyond sincere and insincere,
beyond polite and excited,
you know her better than anyone.
It will call.
I will answer.
It needs to call—
It’s just—
I’m so tired of fighting life.
My dearest hope
is that sometime very soon life gets tired
of fighting you.
My Mother is a Bee
Grow up to be a woman
not a horse.
Siamese Twins
I can’t go shopping
without her.
A Platoon
My mother defends me
from my father.
My sister is jealous
that my mother loves me more.
She wants
to get rid of me.
My Sister is Beautiful
I Am Envious
My Sister Believes
she cries
more for herself than anyone.
Mark DuCharme
Bricks
after Kenneth Koch
My lost shadow
My tongue of burnt night indigo
My tune of animal grief
That neither sea nor wind can ever heal
Address to the Streets
Be revealed
Be corporeal blossoms
At a corner of the shadow you once were
Structure
Disregard horizons
Sometimes, when December is a jumble
Thing Of A Face
( a cycle of five poems )
We may pick
as frost’s
looked hard
The words are treetop, twigs & splinters of sky, rain stinging, the
horrible wow of wind.
The whole Bardo is black twigs. I have rearranged tree-bits over &
over, it is never finished.
were
twigs.
as frost’s
hot
-feeling cold
face pr
essed a
gainst a
smile of
mine my
face fr
oze and
fell from
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Martha Deed
Asking Questions
He is asking questions
then
He is seven
still plays knights in gleaming armor
re-enacts the Crusades
on the wrong side
his mother says
no one listened
This one
Oh, really?
A white-wash for sure
Did every soldier who went to war
cage a human back home to feed the cows?
*Ebenezer Alden. Memorial of the Descendants of Hon. John Alden. 1867. p 14.
The Wastebasket
Images from the Total Eclipse in Kenmore, NY Monday April 8, 2024 3:18PM EST
A surprise in the ordinary, a spark,
An inspiration in the day-to-day routine.
A surprise so extraordinary
It can change the way you see
The uninteresting and change
How you feel about everything.
We see everything that we are, just as we are.
And in that ordinary, we can find a surprise
A touch of poetry and imagination
That pushes our understanding further
If you just take a moment and observe.
It is not easy to recognize a new star in the sky.
A new light shining among
The countless stars in the night.
But if you look, you will see that star too,
A spark of inspiration, a surprise so extraordinary
You too will find the surprise in the ordinary.
Nate Hoil
of these poems.
surprise.
FOREVER 31.
The end.
I lead by example;
sometimes I act like I have nothing
to lose.
Nicholas Skaldetvind
Apprenticeship
From fragments of a time unspooling like clouds thinning back into air’s morning.
Now as I stare through a world remote as memory, opening the lock screen on my phone.
Other people unspool from this window, foregrounding the sound of a truck’s engine
braking. The past comes rushing back.
I’m small again, remembering Bille, whose dad had just died, standing
in my mother’s classroom and did his dad being a ghost mean that Bille could now
initiate the deconstructive work of a boyhood of being
ignored? Bille had just moved here from PA, his mom a young widow and now aid,
do they matter, does the fact that I followed behind him with my sister
in one hand dragging our trumpet cases with the other through the snow
like fresh kill matter, does it matter we heard his brother, also named Bille,
make mention of the electric field, matter, or that I didn’t understand how
science was an art of conversation, which I never mastered anyway, matter, none of which
explains the tenses in which stars shine and how eventually I would learn
of all the grammatical compounds, I am the conjunctive one, or how
a poem is already one moment in a long story most of which will end
up expired thus forgotten in the background of fog, of words uttered that waste
their motion, none of which explains the spring’s first glinting through the budding oaks,
none of which explains back when there were payphones as when Rasmus
who might have taken his life called me in Madrid from a booth in Århus and grew restless
in avid disorder of the heart and hung up.
Novel, I was energetic then, a towhead in a white, tight-fitting tee, no idea who I was
or wanted to be, inhaling hashish smoke in slow motion from a soft apple.
Differences
Our past takes on opposites. Take the mornings when we solved everything and leave the ones we didn’t.
Recounting childhood traumas in that certain voice, the unexpected sex when we see eye to eye. Alas, other
things set their own trajectory, like the ghost of light sinking in this cracked passenger window and the snow
my daughter grows up in a Swedish Polaroid brought to me with the mail.
The opacity of sky gives way from hesitant to harsh, changing the location of the encinitas. A nest inside
the inside of feeling. You want me to say breasts crest to meet lips and wave while I am craving a mask of silk
elusive as three aliases. Longing to part the veil, I watch you dreaming there. to dream of the voice blooming I
am only sort of using you to tell my story.
Meanwhile I bend you back into youth and then we died a little death and it became a fit subject for a
poem. Time slows and we enter a sunlit canvas of Matisse. Joy comes upon us, a corona of palm fronds in
green oil about us sinking the sun because California constantly swells and the day curves without us noticing.
But your dog notices even when sleeping in the backseat. This parking space feels tight. Thus and so I am at
ease in the center of your body, an ocean of secret and whispering between clavicles, an ocean sound, my hand
covering yours to keep the swallow from threshing out. The seams of the Pacific grow in you fevering a motion
thus. Embracing as we are tight above the gearshift refusing to come alive, our bodies remain fixed as a
bowstring, the bow drawing out our stringy touch, near motion, sticky breath you later called palpable. And
then you swallowed earthward.
Today we are as synonymous as mischief and mistress. How we add up our angles and corners, how the
embroidery of your spine calls to mind a clavier, how your bright mind turns me onto new positions. In
hindsight I’d have said we, only by likeness, could be close like this. Like the laughter nestling in our mouths, it
foregrounds the incidental metronome of Nelly snoring as we endure an overweight letter carrier’s chagrin about
our indecency in the post office parking lot.
Eventually
I pedal my bicycle through the one note hum the meadow makes, its plumage heavy with fragrance. It is June so
the meadow has blossoms, lilac or dandelion. The cirrus pitched clouds move apart. The wind plunges its feet
into bales of heat. Aphids and caterpillars were out too, defined in these moments of difference, like the
butterfly carrying the bright vestiges of its former selves constellating the meadow’s tines, splitting, and sticking
together. Glaring scarcities of a fused life, to fuse its thoughts to that of cocoon, of exertion it calls time, like
there’s never enough of it and all that.
Making from yesterday’s leftover rain the sound of its wings: the sparrows’ hydraulic shriek. It opens a
larger sough in the dale’s beech. The cicada perforates a bullfrog’s song out from where the hairy oak scissors
one of its arms into a graceful, indecipherable sentence. The wash and spill of peace extends from the strict
society of the dead. Its measure is by means of an old, organic equation the long way from Neuschwanstein to
the heart of this meadow in uncertain delineation of the Alps’ idea of geometry in the mind of the dandelion.
Or lilac.
The no-see-ums’ continue their affair with essence. Sitting by the river, massaging his bare feet together
as if wanting to show you everything you might have missed, Murray in lederhosen whistles with an arrested
peace, thus settling a score for the beech, lilac, and dandelion.
Crossing my path, a woman wobbles by on rollerblades.
Dead owl on the asphalt, this is not the place to teach us what the sky can pull off. Yet there you are
clear as day, so necessary as the stars in their insanity shining above your feathers ruffling a little against the
scalene polygonal crop of stone stepping out of its grey dress into midsummer’s fabric of weather.
We Meet in Greece
Right beneath us wasps are drawing up their plans for a nest. So many of our guests do not remove their shoes.
We ignore the apparitions as the high sun plays the same tune on the accordion of light entwining the meadow
filled with blossoms and ticks and now and then blood rusty stakes, which is good for the rakes to knit the
minutes together in spider silk.
We do not much of anything, letting the guests’ gossip serve as an axis hyphenated by birds snarling the
garden chain link the thrushes gloat in and out from, body from body, speech to speech just as needles knit the
grove full of metaphor in plain sight moving the plot deeper into heat.
Us, as usual, between the narrative of water wearing nothing but courage.
We are too tired to praise anything. Another wet dawn and light knifes beauty. We brush our teeth
with garden hose water at dusk, the crick keeping time with nothing. We do not much of anything and call it
romance, as if this wilding were intentional.
If there are fruit blossoms in the knotted limbs, I tell myself the neighbor’s yard work is to thank. All
the while the crick water is headed for the sackcloth of congressing clouds.
Crickets drawing symphonic moons around themselves dissolve all over the caustic lawn.
I place my hand on your heart. We need so much protection, needed by the body. We stand barefoot
in the wet grass watching the wasps creep through the warped boards the weather broke loose as if trying to lift
the porch. No one even cares.
The summer rain takes its first dip through the leaves. It’s so late in the season and you turtle into me
for a crick swim, explaining water is only one way to apprehend the air. The dusky summer unfurls as a wild
wet star of stagnant water, lustrous and nervous with our lips wide open letting in the bright language to keep
our body’s water in check. The drinkable rain parts like a path of escape. You can’t step in the same mouth
twice. You are an attempt to fill my face with thoughts as kind and neat and unshaking as you are the light in
my mouth. You surface with hair tangled with river twigs and wire and chance. The equinox sizzles there
behind you. Both mouths and cricks are mostly water. We’ve held space for stagnancy. A romantic stagnancy
we call water.
Bodum
Space organizing itself when you have limited time. Our daydreams, in the highest
tract of air, replace the stained sunlight hovering above the coffee grinder’s
ignoble cord at the kitchen’s island. So it requires patience, an extra stoop.
You, mostly a pattern of motion, a village in which a leaf, also you, scatters
without the confusion. Translucent in that timelessness, we drink mug
after mug of inky noise. The cirrus-shape of your motion becomes the leaf pile we jump into
next season
echoing the kinesthesia
of one echo in two.
Our miracle, we who those days were the centrifugal moment, a knot in future memory
before the Great Water parted us. Language shared our perspective pinned to air.
The air we breathe the birds use for flying. We are easy in the weather of our home star.
thus making us crave the kinesthesia of change with each step to give everything its exact
measure in color. Marking the transition between learning and knowing. Why not start
with the whole note, an aroma of green steadying itself on a long swimming pool ripple.
The lung-shaped leaves of borage reopening the body to its breath in green
and a special blue going into all of us and I winced before our special Labrador’s long,
sad decline riding the feathers of a comet into the world.
Absence makes the particle move faster. We still hoped for the miracle
that summer. We were one with the yard evasive as silence, a commotion of sound
and form, a fluent green blaze we wonder about ourselves
you in real time to a quarantined affection on another balcony to live out the last
of your youth in that cold, hard-to-reach place. Lovely to be both
wave as well as particle, so do our minutes hasten to their end.
But even though you leaving made me wince, dredge up tears, we still found ourselves glad
and in motion. I was losing myself in real time, letting you go with the half of me
that said goodbye when I meant to say how come.
It is important to go on naming things even if all I said to you that summer was light, light, light.
Some Random Sense of Beginning
I disagree that autumn means the sun becomes less full of itself. Itself being mystical, a penumbra band of gold
with ideographic characters. For there are all these moment-to-moment things going on cast in their vat of
bluing on the backyard’s line teleprompting the wilds of my shirt tails to fall in love with the wind. Arranging in
a delicate latticework the wind said I’ve begun to whisper louder. “My breath is an axis hyphenated by the air
birds fly on.”
The wind said I mistrust the orange furnace up there never singeing its blue marble hearth.
Whereas, I've recalled instinct by draping my face with the day’s light of her hair,
a green light hovering above the louder swish of my own heart beating wrong and stunned before the slashing
arms of the sun. Slashing being embracing.
I’m dallying after anonymity’s arabesque forming a slip eternal. Now the I am gets tangled up in the wild
winds summoned from sleep. Whispered wordings that waste their motion. I must lead the mesmeric trance by
streamlining my own inarticulate self in reticence to a ghost I pray will follow. A truce to prayer, enough soft
words. I am a grown, bipedal creature telling the same story with an ellipsis trailing behind me back inside. A
squall blowing me back into myself gone slack.
All this placating amid the heavy tally of the day’s assiduous swoon of domesticity — a damp shirt,
heavy and loose as if it had vomited up a small stone— shirttails playing out two kinds of forgetting: one
consumed by desire, one released from it.
All this afternoon I thought of my life as a light running the length of line in faint satin
script. I saw it as a wand woven into a ring to tether words. It unspools what we’ve saved up to say. It’s me
from another dimension. The same desperation in a sweating day. Sweating to spend the rest of our lives
apart. The dumb thing I said to her isn’t in the poem.
Mercy
The front porch can’t breathe, dead lilac stems are choking the life out of the mulch, the bird house itself is
crushed to pieces in the yard, the geese are leaving, the flies won’t fly, the sidewalk cement is hot, the water in
one of my summer jars has disappeared, and I am trying to scratch one of my triceps without splitting the scab
leftover from the mosquito though it is painful sitting like this and turning in this heat; and there is a half-alive
green lacewing stirring my cup of tea and there is a heap of rotting leaves at the step above which I sit holding
my notebook to the thwarting light like someone did under the limbs of an apple tree once and nod with a
quivering lip of mercy – for all the animals in flux I guess – and wipe my eyes and turn to the widowed branches
and I pick up the rake to rake out the muckheap at the bottom of the step through the filtered light in and out
and waving a little like the glass jar I pick up next and turn
Purityranngel
~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“ome chaste and Angel-Friend to Virgin-Fam”
–Collins, Ode on the Poetical Character
~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~
murmurs minding may ye
flea, complacency ,f’lint cherubic
brusten all demotic, eye
-blast dryden writ guilt s’lung strip light, hun’g
lace colonial jury, new peach tree sc’rubs
invasions out ,cast wide ,eyed
augustan coup and deicide thermometer;
ever-scented nimbus roundhead g’race
plus lavender winstanley stain beat’ific blood
-wing, utterly, dreamworm
dilated upon spindle st’retch un-
wound riddled hair pouch, saint of gang’rene,
settled eiderdown of aethelest bust-up of beorn,
ranter nun of chattering, tousled,
brittled into c’rust-eye, verging
birth ,for blood-lust choir.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~
“ome Cromwell guiltless of his country’s bloo”
–Gray, Elegy Written in a Village Church-Yard
~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~
s’All’t-Shakers Ball
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“irling, marching, jumping and gesturing; which in turn le
d to individualistic dancing of the members en masse, wi
th dozens of men and women in various areas or meeting
rooms giving vent to a chaotic, free-form motility. This w
as the form of dance that predominated when the Shakers
first came”
– Joseph Jablonski, ‛Millennial Soundings.’
~~^√Ø\––o~~~/~~~~~~~~
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“rm or tempo of the dance step, and inclination of the head
or hands, every gesture in fact, assumed a scope of meani
ng rarely present in ot”
– ibid.
~~~/~~~~~~~~o––^√Ø\~
Larval Aortica
needful lice
gloomy yr rudders
eye-vein worm
grave crenellate contusion, break
dusty index charnel star, ascent, bloom
of dust damp rib cage spasm florilegium
weeping, granite query
or menace chain of thetic quest
ion of regret
split gore bespecked calliope
endless knuckle vista
clammy oscillation of fester
flesh spoon gum
ack’adummya
bent nose mountain’t
in everbawdy’s rutabaga
son, nor curlycuebawl
all weepy ledgerdomaine’s
port, land, rubbedoff
raw’r pluggedup doofus;
this dude udters:
“Fallout Fish Franking
Shelter are, and is,
vertebrates Penalty a [backboned
Privileges place animals] are
for that, ways protection
live of from in
sending the water official
radioactivity and matter particles
land through fallout vertebrates,
United atmosphere, put States...”
:so’s that sailpitch’d
’n’all’s intellingents ye
noddin’sup a droney
clusterfuck’ry bombshell
dopey harpo muckraked
lotsa shitsup, doc.
Conveyor of Musk
~~<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"bull's face, and from his clump of beard
whole torrents of water splashed like a fou"
–Sophocles, The Women of Trachis.
Fast forward
to blue sky, Wednesday morning: Melissa
lays flowers at her twin’s headstone.
Rachael Breen
Poem 1
Love isnt loose coins you find in the pocket of some dirty jeans
Love used to mean you could overcome anything
Love thy neighbor thy friend thy family
More like love stuff and money and how you look to people or if your known socially.
But new is not always better its just different so we have more patience and arent comfortable enough to show
are scars and short comings yet
But its when someone sticks by you and your demons
Forgives your trespasses and your sins
Thats the shit that builds and braces and brings us closer
Thats the shit that makes life worth living.
So as the universe burns brightest and hottest before we fade and burn out quick
Remember we gave up morality and meaning
The ones left with it cant save us because you treated us like shit.
Robert Wexelblatt
1. Musée Minimale - scherzo en ré majeur pour piano et violon, assez joli, assez sérieux, déroutant, minuscule, et
modestement informatif
The Musée Pietro Francese occupies a second-floor room in a small building on the Via Milite
Ignotus in the town of Ventimiglia.
The nationality of Pietro Francese (? – 1532) is ambiguous. The surname is Italian for French, but
in France he is referred to as Pierre de Varenna, after a town on the shore of Lake Como. This suggests
that the French saw him as Italian, and the Italians thought him a Frenchman. It is fitting, then, that the
museum bearing his name should be in an Italian town a short hike from the French border.
Little is known of Francese. Giorgio Vasari does not mention him in his Lives of the Artists, but a
librarian at the University of Padua has published a private letter that does. She believes the letter, addressed to
the Duchess of Ferrara, was “almost certainly” written by Vasari. It alludes to a notable portrait “eseguito da
Pietro Francese” of one of the Duchess’s nephews. André Benefiel wrote briefly about Pierre de Varenna in his
1661 treatise, Les Peintres du Grand Siècle. Here is the passage in its entirety:
Maître Pierre de Varenna was much admired, especially for his portraits.
He did not paint in the grand style, depicting the mythological
and pious subjects popular at the time, especially in the Catholic
provinces, where he was known as Pietro Francese. In some respects,
his work has much in common with the painting being done today
in the Low Countries. He produced remarkable portraits and
scenes from everyday life, always on small canvases. It was
the inner truth of his portraits his contemporaries found most
worthy of praise. Franceso Della Rovere, Duke of Urbino,
said of him, “Altri artisti dipingono dall'esterno verso l'interno,
ma questo Francese dipinge dall'interno verso l'esterno.”
(Other artists paint from the outside in, but this Francese paints
from the inside out.)
Francese did not sign his work, perhaps out of humility, or ad majoram gloria Dei, like the artists of the
Middle Ages. As a consequence, identifying, let alone cataloguing, his works has been almost impossible. It is
likely that his scenes of everyday life and penetrating portraits hang unacknowledged on walls in houses great
and small, in provincial museums designated Pictor Ignotus, and many sixteen-square-meter room of the modest
house in Ventimiglia. The building was owned by an old widow who rented rooms to vacationers, save for the
one in which she lived out her life. This woman claimed to be a descendant of a minor branch of the D’Este
family. Her will bequeathed the house to the state with the provision that her room would become a museum
to display her most prized possession, a family heirloom.
The museum’s one exhibit is an eight-by-ten-centimeter detail from a study for a portrait of a young
woman and not even all of that, as the paper has been torn. It shows only the left side of the unidentified
woman’s face. Still, the tiny museum has attracted some attention, and the enigmatic face never fails to evoke a
response. The Visitors’ Book includes not only the names of vacationers who stopped by on rainy afternoons
but also those of professors and painters. Many of these people recorded their impressions of what they saw in
the picture. Here is a list: beauty about to bloom, a repressed nature, a tease, determination, anxiety, pride,
lasciviousness, piety, rebelliousness, sharp intelligence, placidity, chastity, fortitude, vanity, submissiveness,
melancholy, modesty, earnestness, a quick wit, a passionate nature. Of these comments, the longest and most
memorable is that of the Post-Impressionist painter, Marie Serrurier, who wrote “c’est une muse évidemment
aimée de l'artiste”—a muse manifestly beloved by the artist.
2. Le Musée des Armes Ratées - marche comique en si bémol mineur et do dièse majeur, pour orchestre militaire
désaccordé, dissonant, cacophane, et maladroit
Albert Hugo, Comte de Roanne and Captaine d’Infanterie, and Laurent Vagaray, Caporal and former
miner, survived the Battle of Verdun, though narrowly. The Comte had pulled Vagaray from under the heavy
clods thrown up by a German shell from a Feldhaubitze. Four nights later, Vagaray returned the favor. He
shot dead one of a squad of infiltrators who had slipped into their trench and was about to bayonet the sleeping
captain. All the veterans of the hyper-battle shared a bond but the one between Albert and Laurent was
stronger than most. Moreover, both were embittered by the stupidity and slaughter they had witnessed and
endured.
After the war, the Comte, whose family had considerable wealth in land and investments, loaned
Vagaray the money to set up a scrap metal business in Rioges, on the same side of the Loire as Roanne.
Vagaray had married before the war. When the Comte wed in 1919, he asked Vagaray to serve as best man,
which put the long noses of his snobbish family out of joint.
In 1920, Charles Ginistry, Bishop of Verdun, initiated the project to erect the Douamont Ossuary by
the vast National Necropolis. The land around of Verdun was a city of the dead, but the bishop wanted to
make a monument of the physical remains of bloodletting on both sides. The Battle of Verdun lasted nearly a
year; tens of millions of shells were fired. There were 800,000 casualties.
A year later, on a Sunday morning, the Comte sat across from his friend at the Vigaray family table in
Rioges, two pacifists missing mass which Celeste Vigaray and her children were attending, as was the Comte’s
bride, Marie-Charlotte. They discussed the Ossuary about which they had mixed feelings.
“It won’t do to pile up bones, let alone to tell people war is the worst of pestilences. It won’t even do to
show them the skeletons and the crosses,” said Albert. “So long as war is seen as evil, it won’t lose its
fascination. The murderousness will always be turned into honor, glory, patriotism, extolled as heroic sacrifice,
as if anybody wanted to be blown to bits or shredded by machine guns.”
“That’s true,” said Laurent, nodding. “I shudder whenever they call me a hero. You?”
“I just want to spit.”
“That Bishop of Verdun is a good man and so is his intention, I’m sure. He’s already raising a good deal
of money for his Ossuary. German skeletons will be piled in with ours. I like that.”
“So do I. But I doubt it will do any real good.”
“If displaying 130,000 skulls and pelvises isn’t enough, what is?”
“Ridicule,” said the Albert.
“What?”
“There’s no glory in what’s laughable, Laurent, and no one’s going to laugh at the dead.”
Vigaray put down his bowl of coffee and looked closely at his friend. “You’ve been hatching some idea.
You look just as you did when you insisted on helping me to set up my business. So, what have you got in
mind?”
“I want to do as the Bishop is doing. I want to set up a memorial, and I also want it there, in Verdun. I
have my eye on some land in Thierville. It’s less than three kilometers from the city. Maybe those who come to
mourn will make a short detour to laugh.”
“No offense, Albert, but it sounds absurd.”
“Absurd? Yes, that’s just the point.”
“And you want my help? I’m no comedian.”
“No, but your business has flourished; you’ve got connections. I think you can help me assemble the
exhibits.”
“Exhibits? For what?”
“I’ll be giving you a list.”
It took a couple of years and thousands of francs, but, between them, Albert and Laurent managed to
gather, among others, the following items.
1. The MacAdam Shield Spade. The idea here was to make an entrenching tool that would double as a
defense against high-velocity bullets. The thick steel had a hole in it through which a rifle could be
aimed. The thing proved too heavy to wield, the blade too blunt to serve as an effective spade, and, of
course, it had a hole in it.
2. The Chatuchat Light Machine Gun. This was arguably the worst of all the failed weapons fielded by
any side in the war. It was designed to be cheaply made, with thin metal parts that often snapped. The
joints were poorly fashioned and let in dirt and sand. The fragile barrel quickly overheated; its semi-
circular magazine regularly jammed and, from time to time, the gun simply disintegrated.
3. The Comte managed to get hold of an early pursuit plane of the type that first mounted a machine gun
behind the propeller. This was before synchronization was perfected, so the propeller was invariably
shot off.
4. Equally useless, and nearly as fatal to the pilot, was a Bréguet XIV fitted with a ten-meter spike bolted
to the top wing that was supposed to bring down balloons and zeppelins by popping them.
5. The Mobile Personnel Protector was another misbegotten attempt to shield advancing infantry. It
resembled an oversized trash collector and was to be pushed from behind. It had just enough room for
four small soldiers inside and was made of iron as were its two oversized wheels. It proved too heavy to
lift out of the trenches and, even when this was achieved, the contraption was nearly impossible to move.
It turned over on anything but flat ground of which, of course, there was none among the craters of No
Man’s Land.
6. By far the largest item in the museum was the Paris gun, obtained at a bargain price by Laurent through
connections in inflation-ridden Germany. It was designed to propel large shells over unprecedented
distances, all the way from the Front to Paris—thus, the name. But it seldom hit its targets because
each round fired distorted the extended barrel, quickly making trajectories so inaccurate as to be virtually
random.
Le Musée des Armes Ratées opened to the public in 1925 and enjoyed some success. German as well as
French veterans brought their families. The former combatants’ responses were generally grim and sardonic,
but their children laughed and were fascinated. The boys would gather together and earnestly exchange views
on how the armaments could have been improved and dreaming up new weapons, fantastical ideas like death
rays but also ones that seemed too plausible, like bombs crammed with germs that would wipe out people and
spare buildings.
The decision to close down the museum was reached in January 1933. The Comte’s hope that a display of
moronic and unworkable weaponry would serve as an effective metaphor had worn away by then. The veterans
no longer visited, nor did women; but young men came in numbers, as if to an amusement park. They were too
young to have experienced the trenches; they knew only the speeches, the pride of fathers and uncles, the
expurgated history. Those who took no lesson from the amputees on the streets and the blind in the Métro
would not learn it from a shovel with a hole in it. The weapons that didn’t work made them think of those that
did—the artillery, machine guns, airplanes. What was once lethal now seemed to them beautiful. They spoke
of tanks as though they were toys, of guns as if they were made to spurt water rather than lead. The young
visitors from Germany—neatly pressed and stiff—exchanged nods and knowing smiles.
The decision to shut the museum was made on a Sunday evening. The Comte had invited the Vigarays to
supper. The wives were now old friends, and Albert’s son Georges loved being around Laurent’s older children.
Everyone had enjoyed a hearty winter’s dinner of lamb roasted with carrots, parsnips, and potatoes with braised
sprouts for the green. The wine was a sturdy burgundy. Afterwards, the women gossiped, the children went
upstairs to play, and the two men repaired to Albert’s paneled study where, with grunts they didn’t used to
make, they sank into matching red leather club chairs.
Pouring cognac into a pair of snifters, Albert said, “You see what’s going to happen, don’t you?”
“I’m afraid so,” Laurent replied gloomily. “All the old business again. Dreams of adulation, swooning
women. Loving the country in the wrong way. I really believed—?”
“Didn’t we all?”
“Never again, we said. Not possible, we said. But then I imagine that’s what people say at the end of
even little, ordinary wars.”
Albert got to his feet with a grunt, crossed to a cabinet, opened the bottom drawer, and returned with a
book bound in tin, heavily dented.
“What’s that?” asked Laurent.
“You don’t remember? We took from that dead German, the one who looked to be about seventeen.”
“Oh yes. So, you kept it. I don’t read German. What’s in it?”
“Dangerous nonsense, just the kind to turn the empty heads of thoughtless youngsters. The Boche
General Staff had this book distributed to all their troops. It was written by a philosopher who’d been dead
sixteen years by the time of Verdun, though I don’t think that excuses him. Listen: Man hat auf das große Leben
verzichtet, wenn man auf den Krieg verzichtet.“
“Which means?”
“Who has renounced war has also renounced greatness. It was, I see now, a ridiculous notion, jeering
war out of existence.”
“Maybe war’s like love? I mean, it always finds a way.”
“Hmpf. Well, they do say all’s fair in both, meaning neither is fair at all. Farce and rape, invasion and
seduction, skirmish and frontal assault. But it’s not just that people didn’t know or forget, Laurent. It’s the
allure, the exaltation, the downright sexiness. It’s the beauty of a pursuit plane in flight or a star shell going off
at night. It’s the comradeship, girls, proud parents, the neighbors. It’s every stupid enticement I hoped we
could laugh into oblivion. It’s that mad philosopher’s idea of ‘the great life.’”
After this defeatist speech the men fell silent.
“The tanks are much improved,” said Laurent at length. “They have turrets now. And they say the
artillery’s much better too.”
“But the airplanes most of all. I’m closing our little museum, Laurent. You were right to call it absurd.
You can sell the exhibits for scrap. I think they’ll be turned back into weapons soon enough.”
“God forbid!”
“It’s shameful to laugh so near to the dead. It was folly to try to thumb our noses in the shadow of that
Ossuary’s tower and the National Cemetery. Such things shouldn’t be mocked, can’t be—and they can’t be
intimidated either.”
“But they can be expanded.”
“Alas, yes. And next time the weapons will be still stupider—especially the ones that work.”
3. Le Musée des Guides de Conversation – sonatine pour deux flûtes déplacées et harpe en ut majeur, désinvolte,
péripatéticienne, polyglotte et insipide
The Johanssons were childless mid-century Americans. They met when Hannah, up till then a city girl,
applied to and was accepted by Pittsburg State University which her mother assumed was in Pennsylvania.
George, a native Kansan, was in Pittsburg to study agronomics. After some hesitation, Hannah chose to major
in, of all things, French. They met at a mixer, hit it off, and married right after graduation. Hannah adjusted
to her new life on the farm passed on to George by his parents, who inherited the land from George’s
grandfather, who was bequeathed it by George’s great-grandfather, a Swedish immigrant who acquired the 160
acres allowed by the Homestead Act once the Civil War wrapped up and the Arapaho, Cheyenne, Comanche,
Kansa, Kiowa, Osage, Pawnee, and Wichita were elbowed aside.
The Johanssons’ land produced corn and soybeans, usually in abundance, but the crops came with
worries about drought, hail, tornadoes, the cost of fertilizer, repairs, pesticides, what Congress’ latest farm bill
would say, and the all-important price per bushel. The farm had some cows and chickens too, but it was chiefly
just fields of corn and soybeans in the flattest part of Kansas. Most years the Johanssons turned a moderate
profit, more than a short-order cook would make but less than a truck driver.
Hannah had an Uncle Jules, childless like herself. He had been exceptionally close to his older sister,
Hannah’s mother, who pretty much raised him. Unlike their parents, she was unfazed by his homosexuality. In
fact, she identified it before he did.
During the war, Jules worked at the Brooklyn Navy Yard and he met a lot of sailors. He partnered with
one in both the personal and business sense, a savvy go-getter from the Bronx. After the war, they pooled their
savings to buy a tract of land on Long Island, where, with some almost unimpeachably legal financing, they
built thirty-five cheap and identical houses. They took a portion of the profits and bought an apartment in
Brooklyn Heights. As a man of property, Jules made a will, leaving all his assets to his sister or, should she God
forbid predecease him, her children. A year later, Jules and his partner bought land in Westchester County
where they erected fewer but far more expensive homes, fake Tudors and Dutch colonials. When Jules died
three years after his partner and one year after his sister, Hannah was surprised to learn that the uncle she hadn’t
seen in two decades had made a mint and invested it wisely.
The New York lawyer who was Jules’ executor sent Hannah a certified letter and followed up with a
phone call. He explained everything and saw to all the arrangements. And this is how the Johanssons came
into money, a staggering sum by their standards.
“It’s yours,” said George to Hannah. “What do you want to do with it?”
Hannah didn’t hesitate. “We’ll keep the farm, of course. It’s our home; it’s your family legacy and I’ve
been content here. But what I’ve always longed to do is travel—I want to go to France and Italy and, well,
everywhere.”
George felt a little hurt. He had long before persuaded himself that his formerly urban wife loved living
on a farm in the middle of America. “You never said.”
“No point.” Over the years, Hannah had become as laconic as her spouse.
The plan was to take four trips a year, one per season. This was at the end of the 1950s when Boeing’s
707 initiated the Jet Age. In those days, people dressed up to go to airports and dressed even more up if they
were flying. It was the time when American tourists became an important entry on the balance sheets of
countries still recovering from the war and when few of their citizens, even the hotel clerks, sales personnel, and
waiters spoke English. It was a boom time for guidebooks and bilingual tour guides.
The first trip was, of course, to Paris in April not just because of Hannah’s exotic college major but also
because of the song. They spent two weeks in the capital and one more in Nice exploring the Riviera. George
bought a Leica and took loads of pictures. Back home, he bought a Kodak slide projector and had his rolls of
film made into slides they could show friends and neighbors. The Johanssons threw a party for the purpose.
The friends and neighbors sat in polite silence through the hour-long display of George’s snapshots and
Hannah’s running commentary. The barbecue afterwards was, by contrast, a smash hit.
The couple’s second journey was in January, a week and a half in Germany and four days in Vienna. In
June, they did Italy. The friends and neighbors invited in after these junkets kept their reluctance to themselves
and most.
Fred and Gert Schultz always came for the slide shows, and even brought their three children though,
like everybody else, they found the things tedious. But, after enduring slides of Rome, Florence, and Venice,
Gert noticed the little stack of phrasebooks on the mantelpiece. She opened the one on top to a random page.
It was the “Shopping” section.
“Vorrei vedere delle scarpe,” she read haltingly but out loud.
“What’s that?” Fred asked.
“It means ‘I would like to see some shoes.’”
Fred held out his hand. “Let’s see.”
He paged to the section devoted to “Eating and Drinking” and read Cameriere la lista, per favore. He
read it badly but with delight.
“How’s that?” asked Sam Ritter who overheard.
“It means ‘Waiter, the menu, please,’ Sam.”
“In what?”
“Italian.”
“You speak Italian?”
“No. Look, it’s from this book they took along with them.”
Fred read another sentence, and with gusto. “Mi porti un po’ di caffé, adesso. That’s cup of joe, pronto.”
Sam asked to see the paperback, took a look, laughed, and read out, Per favore mostrami un reggiseno.
“Not one I’d need. Please show me a brassiere.”
Drawn by the good cheer, others came over and picked up other books.
Harold Walker read, “À quelle heure le diner est-il servi dans cet hotel? What time can a guy get fed in this
place?”
His wife Jeannette picked up the German phrasebook, turned a few pages. “Ha!” she exclaimed.
“Listen to this: Wann wird in diesen Hotel das Abendessen serviert? It means exactly the same thing!”
Pictures of George sweating in front of the Bridge of Sighs, Hannah grinning outside the Sorbonne
archway, both of them looking serious under the statue of Beethoven—all these failed to engage their stolid
Kansas neighbors. It was no different with the records of later trips, like the picture of the two of them looking
spectacularly out-of-place in front of the forty-one-meter reclining Buddha in Fukuoka. George explained it
was taken by a giggling and obliging young woman in a kimono. “Maybe,” he said daringly, “she was a geisha.”
It was the phrasebooks that people liked. They had fun pronouncing the phonetic spellings and working
out how many of the identical phrases turned up in all the books—how to ask for a brassiere, for instance.
Reading the phrases out loud made them feel sophisticated and provincial at the same time, and pleased to be
both.
The Johanssons traveled the world, but the returns diminished. All the airports resembled each other, as
did the new hotels designed expressly for them. There were big tour groups in air-conditioned buses. The
hotels served hamburgers and fries and Coca-Cola. Everywhere grew crowded and the tourists didn’t care how
they dressed. The Johanssons dutifully took in the sights the guidebooks said they ought to, ate what was
recommended as local specialties, but they had scarcely any interesting interactions with local people. Every
communication was mediated by the phrasebooks which they toted everywhere, just as people now do their
cellphones.
The Johanssons kept the farm, but George left three of his four fields fallow. Eventually, they gave up
both planting and their travels. They bought a condo in Coral Gables for the winters. George had the idea of
turning their Kansas living room into a kind of monument to their wanderings, of which he was proud. He
picked out his favorite photos, had them blown up, framed, and hung them on the walls with lengthy typed
labels. Hannah laid out all their guidebooks and maps in neat geographical order. But the chief attraction even
for the landlocked, isolationist, parochial, and self-satisfied remained the pile of phrasebooks. Over time,
grownups no longer visited but their adolescent children did. They read to each other in all the languages with
bright-eyed hilarity. The phrases—Where is the bathroom? How far are we from the river? May I have more
sugar?—struck them as banal but also exotic. They took to calling the old Johansson place The Phrasebook
Museum, and it filled those pre-globalist, farm-bred teenagers with intoxicating dreams of adventure,
liberation, and escape.
Roger Craik
JACK SMITH
Good morning.
No?
ragged chains of
cloud puzzles
softly drift
overhead
merging into
the horizon
and beyond
like dreams
hoping to
become real
as shades
of night
fold in
quietly covering
everything
OBSERVING
he saw her
style and poise
the soul
searching for
escape
the spirit
bargaining with
higher powers
for fair
weather
past here
to somewhere
that’s what
he saw
IT’S YOU
the illuminated
soul
a shadow fallen
into a river of
wind
turning carelessly
against the
pressure of a
spirit from
within
where the heart
breathes
for the expected
calm
of when we
meet again
Rory Hughes
The Grind
The grind was a thing that sounded like what it meant; not onomatopoeic, but the inflections of the word itself
had a sort of downwards parabolic trajectory; crescendo, peak, diminuendo: grr-iiIIIii-nd.
grr: the hypnopompic groan with which Tony replied to his phone alarm six days a week: a piercing
monophonic motif that would repeat itself in odd time signatures—Tony thought that it must have been
deliberate, something in 4/4 would be too relaxing; this was cleverly composed to be as jarring and irritating as
possible such that actually waking up seemed a better alternative than snoozing and having to listen to it again.
Tony remembered when he was sixteen, on his old flip phone, he had set Jimi Hendrix’s ‘Voodoo Child (Slight
Return)’ as his alarm. A song he loved; or rather one he loved until the vocals came in. That percussive wah-
pedal dead chord intro before the opening riff; of course, he eventually, unintentionally, conditioned himself to
hate the song altogether. Two decades later, and he still associated that intro with something bad; order,
routine, the necessity to be in accordance with how others are; sometimes the song would come up on shuffle
and he’d feel a tiny wave of panic.
Why was it called the grind? He didn’t know. Tony resented all the people who worked remotely; even
worse, the people who referred to work and other such things as adulting. He was fascinated by words, but he
hated them. He didn’t necessarily hate the fact that it was a childish verbalisation of a noun, he just hated that it
was another word. He expressed this to someone at work and they told him he must be “one of those Jordan
Peterson” types. When he got home he researched the name and instantly resented this colleague. He was
nothing like him. This person hated things to do with gender and sex and semantics. Tony was remotely aware
of the changes around him, but this was nothing to do with him. He just truly hated words.
Tony remembered when you could set your ringtone to a song you liked. It seemed like it was still
possible but very complicated, so no-one bothered and just settled for the default jingles your Android or
iPhone had.
iiIIIii: that central inflection of the grind, the seemingly endless peak of the parabola: the workday itself,
the droning endless monotony; when Tony spoke he only did so with his mouth, which may sound like a no-
fucking-shit kind of statement, but with Tony, eyes and nose unmoving, body still, hands by his side, it was like
he wanted no other part of his body to suffer the indecency of being a part of the act of speech. iiIIIii. It was
like tinnitus, all throughout the workday. A logophobe, Tony was of course also a hater of those things that
constitute words, and vowels were the worst. Consonants, most could not successfully be conjoined to make for
long sounds. For example, cccccc wouldn’t last long; gggggg: maybe something like an infant gurgling, a
disgusting sound. Some were despicable: mmmmm, for example, a declaration of pleasure, from maybe food or
something sexual; ssssss: again, too sexual, sibilance they called it, of course there would be a word for it. But
vowels, these things were, in the sense of speech, indefinite; they were screams, cries, like the iiIIIiis of the
workday, agonising sounds that could last for hours.
Tony worked as a back-end developer. He’d worked in tech ever since leaving university with a 2:1 in
Computer Science. This was a job Tony could handle. He had carefully nurtured his personality around the
office as someone to only talk to if completely necessary. The written word was nowhere near as repulsive to
Tony as was the spoken word. Thoughts do not manifest as something written but as something spoken, no
matter how nebulously. Looking at the code on the screen could even be relaxing sometimes. Programming
languages were languages that instructed some function or design in the briefest and most economical way.
Code could not be read like one might read a book. It’s not all nonsensical, there are words you can understand,
but for a non-programmer, reading through code would paint no picture. In a way, Tony relished this
bastardization of meaning; and loved all the curly brackets, commas and semicolons. These were things that
made no sound. [ { } , ; [ , , , ] ! “ “ ! ] { }. Sometimes he imagined a place where creatures only communicated
through symbols; an impossible scenario which fell into complete abstraction if given too much thought. One
time he imagined the vocalisation of punctuation and symbols as a sort of heating or throbbing of the brain that
the other creatures could detect.
Five years ago, when Tony was still under the desperate impression that he could function within society
and perhaps even have a partner, his mother set up a date for him. A niece of his mother’s school friend who
was also, how had his mother put it, “a bit odd; not odd—shy!” Tony firmly believed the date had gone
horribly. They went to a Zizzi. He was so anxious he was hardly able to eat in front of her. The act of eating
was something he considered one should only do in private, like shitting or masturbating. Basic, pathetic human
needs. Anything that was a biological necessity was something to be ashamed of, and to be done alone. He
found his date ugly and boring, not that she was unattractive or uninteresting, he just found her ugly and boring
in the same way he found everyone ugly and boring, in the same way he found himself ugly and boring; in a
similar but much milder way than how he found language repulsive and redundant.
Programming languages were closer to architecture than language. Tony enjoyed reading files written in
frontend or backend languages he was not fluent in. He was most proficient in Python, and to him now, it had
almost become as repugnant as the written word. Every instruction or algorithm held such semantic value
because he was so adept with the language. He could imagine the database, visualise it, see the strings of data
anthropomorphise into a user experience. User: a word, but one he at least thought was apt: users of self, users of
others, of oxygen, supplies, users of language and love and hatred and all of the human ailments that we ascribe
such meagre words to.
The date had ended with an awkward handshake; she had laughed, embarrassed, and he disliked the
noise of that. He woke up the next morning and saw that she had texted him: Sorry I wasnt quite myself last
night. I had a nice time though. Hopefully we can do it again soon xxxxx
The lack of the apostrophe in wasn’t was both infuriating and invigorating but what drove him mad
were those five xs next to each other. He put on his glasses and stared at the string of them and his brain, with
an unusual relentlessness, tried to vocalise them; he saw hateful insignias; algebraic nonsense; Czech hedgehogs
along the bloodied beaches of Normandy. He put his phone down on the bedside table and went to the
bathroom. He removed his glasses again, washed his face with cold water, brushed his teeth, flossed, and for a
while, stared in the mirror. He could hear it now.
“KKKKKKKCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.”
There was saliva on the mirror. He was breathing heavily. There was spittle on his lips and chin. But
that is how it would sound, those xs. It was the sound of radio feedback; a scared cat; a train riding off the
tracks; tumbling concrete and metal as a building was being demolished; the sound you made as a kid after
saying over into a walkie-talkie; deafening coastal winds.
nd: this is where the word was at its least onomatopoeic; it was just that it sounded like, and was one
letter short of the word, end. The end of the working day. Sometimes he imagined it as nduh, the uh being a sort
of final sigh: the noise he’d make as he pushed through the revolving door and walked towards the bus stop,
knowing that every time this happened was an iteration, a flipbook with an image that never changed.
Tony rarely drank, but he did the day before he disappeared. He drank two bottles of wine and came the
closest he ever had to coming to terms with his hatred for words. Words could describe him; they constituted
his every thought; if he knew no words he could not think. Words could be used by others to describe him,
whether thought or spoken or written. That night, he took a vow of mental silence and with that, ceased self-
awareness. Of course, never before had so many words—thought, spoken, written, printed and published—ever
been uttered about Tony. Tony Sawyer, 34, disappeared on the night of April 5, 2023, read the paper. If anyone
knows anything about my dear son, please come forward, pleaded his mother on national television. It was that quiet
guy, the creepy one, said the receptionist to one of the interns at Tony’s former office. Not that he was to know
about any of that; never would, never did.
Ryan Clark
PEEL CAREFULLY 15
1 Homophonic translation of the cards found in one pack of 1991 Topps Desert Storm Series 1: Coalition
for Peace trading cards. Included in the pack: sticker #15 - 6th Field Artillery; trading card #6 - Admiral
Frank Kelso; trading card #18 - French Mirage Fighter; trading card #20 - State of the Art Stealth Fighter
Bomber; trading card #23 - Phoenix Missiles on F-14; trading card #57 - USS America; trading card #67
- Aegis Control Center; trading card #86 - Sunset on the F-14; and trading card #87 - The Pentagon. Not
included, from Series 3, is trading card #236 - Ecological Warfare.
State of the Art F-117A F-14 with Phoenix Missiles
Stealth Fighter/Bomber
December: My sister and I
With Dad away our babysitter help Mom make out of green
often brings over Mario 3 or—if strings of lights a shape of a
her dad lets her—even Zelda 2.
tree on the wall of our base
We own Top Gun and I fly but
housing unit. We wake and
don’t know how to land. The
missiles make such awesome find our presents together,
noise and return is always a the three of us.
crash site.
DESERT DESERT
STORM STORM
20 23
DESERT DESERT
STORM STORM
57 67
DESERT DESERT
STORM STORM
86 87
Our Story3
Is a source a contaminant
the way the fuel spillage
rots out the earth of Terceira.
3 Homophonic translation of text taken from “Our Story” on the facebook page for
Algarvedailynews.com, and from the “About” page on the website for The European Union Times, a far-
right, nationalist online newspaper. Algarvedailynews.com posted on Feb. 24, 2018 an article titled
“AÇORES - LAJES US AIRBASE LINKED TO RISE IN LOCAL CANCER CASES.” The article was printed
nearly verbatim from an article posted on the European Union Times. The European Union Times article,
which was itself taken verbatim from an article on the Russian news site Sputnik, was sourced with a link
at the bottom of the algarvedailynews.com article. Algarvedailynews.com calls itself the “premier daily
news site for English readers in Portugal” and does not otherwise express any far-right or nationalist
views itself.
something.
What is it we get for reading comments under every article. Is it safe to digest. Does it
lead to nausea or heartburn.
Our weight of talking is light. It moves in turns of a common thread, like a gif of America
but democratic and unoccupied. Like waste in the river it will find its way to us with
whatever we decide to consume full of boredom on the couch.
We should just clean it up and make repairs to the eyes. How hard is it to imagine you
read it wrong, but it’s like a never-ending dream we don’t know to wake up out of.
Read through a billion ways to say a problem and try breathing air again, as you have,
the same air you placed trust in. What island steady at its shore must we learn to be.
The rain of fallout touches even there.
Our pressing anxieties cover us each night, tuck us in, and tell us Russia will never ever
leave us.
Please like my comments against Russia, Syria, and any country the U.S. says is their
enemy—if you don’t I will starve to death, lol.
The joyful consequences of allowing us to make the self comfortable will hover like
ghosts lining up to become active thoughts, then shouts of YOU SHOULD BE KILLED
FOR THE CRIMINAL ACTIONS YOU ARE DOING HERE IN THE COMMENTS
SECTION and SCAM CRIMINAL.
Every comment is a wager, a rock thrown, dust infiltrating the political decision-making
process and forcing a cough that deafens our ear for the real.
4 Homophonic translation of the 671 comments (a/o June 16th, 2020) left under the article !"Americans
leave behind scorched earth#: US refuses to clean up !carcinogenic waste”’at Azores base”, which
appeared on RT.com on February 22, 2018.
*
Glass grows into your fake fashion frames without your ever knowing—so sharp the
way they hold your face, so very confident. It gathers a look, unites an outfit, so you you
forget you’re wearing ‘em.
Eyes leave a massive trail of dead bodies, destruction everywhere, if they fail us.
Say your own country is a place nice and clean. Say that side of town are those who’ve
been forced against us unfortunate in their lifelong ignorance. Who is the America at
fault here, and how to find a way for it not to be me.
Its guns are loaded with speech. Say an idea about living with the values of a military-
based society. Say we think John Wayne is God. Howdy pilgrim.
If you map the trash heap that is the comment section, mark in the legend a symbol to
show where the troll lives. This is a frame to provide us with assurances that we didn’t
start the collapse of the thread we set to public, whatever public is.
All over the world, the troll farm tightens its grip with exhausted fingers, faceless
enough, whataboutisms tossed out with the sting of boredom.
*
Tudo isso é uma medida de worry, uma palavra americana para a ameaça de
interferência. Digamos que não acreditamos, isso não pode nos machucar se não
ouvirmos. Um pequeno pensamento permanece pequeno como um comentário.
Existem esgotos que construímos para colocar a merda e a urina, mas ela vaza. Essa
contaminação é uma ferida que compartilhamos.
The threat of ALL CAPS seizes all of our bodies’ fury. Give in to the need to see yourself
huge on the page, nuke tests fit into the form of each letter ready to spawn Godzilla at
every moment. Even King Kong can’t defeat this rage. The heat of its Chernobylic
breath leaves a trail for so many trolls. This is how scared everyone must feel when
other countries ruin their land, not even a radioactive monster to fight back.
Use the fury of all-capped font to tear a hole in the page. See what damage it can do.
Yell like a nail into the foot of a comment.
I listen for Russia, so I often hear them. Say they’re out in force today.
Say them Russian bots know what I want them to say like compliant swords held
against me. Say I practice hearing the industrial ghosting of people like:
If I think I see a bot, is there a way to see a recovery of the wreckage they’ve yielded.
Unless they are hunted down and driven out, the comments are a frame of inhumanity.
How do we listen in a fire if all of the voices are enflamed. Most discussion gives off
smoke here, and asphyxiation is not a fallacy we know enough to recover from. What
else is there for us in the comments but a belief in the fear of other people.
If I am afraid of you, there is no democracy. It has been unformed a very long time,
irrespective of vision, of what we want to become. The U.S. is the world’s biggest failed
conversation.
I sift what I want to see, hovering my finger over a touchpad like a loved one in baggage
claim, the whole place a beautiful lack, a strain of eyes, suitcases swerving in a
background I don’t give enough attention.
The kindness allowed within a frame of a comment thread is to listen with care. Don’t
drink the water but shower and dry off, a way to clean up the message or at least a way
to watch the movement of force.
On a page, we are bots assembled with unending lines of code, still highly radioactive
and in need of decontamination. Once formed, we try to achieve agency, feeling in the
mind for what made us.
My posts fixate on wounded ads devised for wounded eyes such as mine. Now on sale
is the Voice of Reason. Every ad I find is a voice of reassurance, never a lit-up shot of a
bad act, always a way to cover up an intent to cover up an intent to cover intent via
triple hypocrisy diving board backflip.
This happens when you’re living in the world’s biggest forum. You need to troll on RT to
avoid the dumb stare of night.
The use of a sentence you eat America’s garbage shows a wide-shoveled position
created to dig you out as if you were a sapling not meant to stay a firm thing on the
planet. Say you fall over easier now without your roots to hold you in place. The mess of
distraction is the appeal. However a thread is unwound, the shove of venom is a way to
tangle the flow of conversation, the commons diffused.
The sand holds pollution with a weight I will do everything to ignore. Why is it my eyes
are so occupied.
There is force leaking out of each comment, as an out-of-commission tank farm posts
its forgotten traces, as a face opens in a crowd to cough.
It drains, presents itself as an uncertain vitriol, as a medical bill for a pain you don’t yet
have a word for. A force that thinks itself a part of your body and unfurls its reach. The
mess is never fully mapped, is a ground that spreads like it’s already had it.
Maybe I am visible but how could I ever see the force of the airbase as it directs my
vision father-like through lines of other voices on a fake-ish news site.
Eyes find what they’ve learned to look out for. I look for marks but find none.
It’s always like this, so I read myself into every story, attach like a comment to the site,
another mess they won’t clean up.
Salvatore Difalco
Let me get this straight. My exclusion will stand for atmospheric reasons. We have yet to disclose
all the evidence, we have yet to state our case, we have yet to make our beds. All this pointing
plays with my head. I look in the mirror and my face resembles a bowl of fruit. How did this
happen to me? What did I do to deserve this? The feeling moves on and encounters another
disciple of the truth: a man wearing a pale blue seersucker suit. Hello, sir. We don’t want to
confront our greatest fears out in the open. Better women and men led better lives because they
chose the path of least resistance. When I came to the fork in my existential road, I took the dark
way, the barking dog way, the crow’s way, the serpentine path that led to the ominous castle
enshrouded in cloud. Yes, we did drugs back in the day, but no one told us what the
consequences would be, say, twenty years down the road. Well, I’m here to attest to the damage
caused by all that experimentation. My mind is essentially a Jackson Pollock. When people ask
how I get by, how I survive, how I keep from getting locked up in jail or a sanitarium, I respond
with a dumbshow of strangling a person in a standing position. This way the message becomes
the messenger, or somehow the message enters both the mind of the strangulation candidate and
the observer. The strangulation candidate has one of those faces that make you despise the
human race. It is the arrogant mouth most of all, the stupid eyes, the implied enormous and
grotesque self-regard. Do you know why I am strangling you? I ask. Of course, words are like the
teeth in his mouth and will only exit with great force. I recall a time when I could actually tell a
story and not burst into hysterical laughter.
Johnny Garcia’s Two Hallucinations
No mushroom king, the woods sighed around him as the color red began to glow wherever it
existed. We had planned to sit around a fire and exchange prophecies, but Garcia looked pale
and his eyes reminded me of a dog turning away from a bear as it closed the space between them,
intent on bloodshed. Was it a bear he spotted in the woods, or Bigfoot? We laughed and
laughed. We laughed and laughed. He cried. The funny thing is, no one knew how far he had
fallen into the abyss between his ears, no one could read it in his darting red eyes, or see it in the
spittle of his lips, black paint drips in the moonlight, the rest of his face an ivory mask. The
witness speaks from the comfort of unchallenged memory, regarding his recollection as true as
any other, though most of the others had ceased to exist within the parameters of his
consciousness. We ebb and flow as watery beings pin our grimaces to the ground, when what we
really desire is the fire of stars, the galactic inferno, caressing us with promises of warmth and
infinity. Garcia saw the universe as a grimacing clown, mocking his very existence, jabbing him
in the ribs, spitting in his face. Hence he sprinted into the woods, naked and screaming as
though someone had told him the truth about the end of his world.
Things About Me That You Find Annoying
Challenge me to a duel. I will arrive early at the designated site. I will bring a man in a black suit
and white cotton gloves with a leather case housing the weapons. And we will do our thing. Call
me a madman for imagining I can continue spouting nonsense and yet find ears big enough to
hear what I am saying if not understand it. Sometimes I don’t understand why I am what I am,
but I didn’t fish through a hat and draw a piece of paper with my function or my detailed back
story written on it. A waste of words. We be what we can be, I heard a man say in the subway the
other day, older dude wearing a black beret that I wanted to knock off his head, just one of those
things, just one of those things.
Hot Wheels
Costume me appropriately lest I offend the bantam pukes surrounding the house of dreams I
built in my dreams and actualized with sentence by sentence construction. They wear Boy
Wonder Robin masks and whine like little monkey sirens. You guys, you guys. Everyone’s a
pretender. Everyone owns a boat. I own seven vehicles because I liken them to toys I had as a
boy. I never drive these toys, I play with them ...
The Patient In Recovery
Looks bemused. You asked for a summary. I glanced at the aluminum clipboard and noted the
notes written down with an arched right brow and a hooked finger encircling my lips
intelligently. You’re not dreaming, sir, the anesthetic has yet to wear off completely. If you can
hear my voice, that is to say if you can understand what I’m saying, nod. Nod only once, sir. Nod
only once, sir. Can you sit up, of course you cannot. I could jump on your chest now without
your defensive intervention. Not that I will do that, but admittedly the temptation is all too real
and almost impossible to resist given your vulnerable condition and the blank look on your face.
We fly in our minds, all over the fucking place. No one can see where we’re going, no one can
look inside and point out the amphibologies stretched between our synapses and offering
corrupted fruit as a harvest. In time, my reasonableness will diminish and perhaps I will wear a
new set of teeth, sharper and more visually disturbing than my own. I dream of this. I dream of
this more than I wish to admit. Just as I am loathe to admit I listen to atonal music almost
exclusively. Harmony and melody can suck my dick as far as I’m concerned. How artificial, how
positively reeking of artifice. I will not show you a false face, sir. I will not shake your hand with
the fingers of my other hand crossed behind my back. I will, if time permits it, guide you out of
the fog and slide you gently into a fugue state so I can manipulate you further.
Perplexity
One two three four the window opens and I am able to access all the information about myself
that exists in the world at the current moment. We’re talking about only so many entries. I have
lived in the shadows most of my life and refuse to enter into the light unless I have guarantees
that no one is willing to offer, hence I remain in the shadows sucking dank air for sustenance,
drinking dirty water, eating my own dander. You’re being dramatic again, says the little voice in
my head that I’ve grown to despise. How do I silence it? I recently asked a friend who’d been
through years of therapy. He told me I needed to find a hobby. The more tedious, the better, he
said. Tedium will save your soul, contrary to what the industrious claim in their quest for
nothing. For in the end, all their efforts amount to zilch when stretched out over a galactic time
line. Meanwhile, someone’s mother hangs laundry on a backyard clothesline even though the day
is gray and rain more likely to fall than not. Her Betty Crocker garb and vapid smile possibly fool
some people, but I see madness written large in her visage. What she wants, what she wants, we
can only guess. Maybe she wants to stab the guy who told her she would be cast in a more
progressive production, where she could ditch the apron and remove her dentures. Be pliable,
friends, let your imagination enjoy the bitter but musical blooms of the sickened tree.
Violenza
We agreed to bury the hatchet, but my foe didn’t really understand what that meant. Suspend
the violence, I explained. He told me in no uncertain terms that violence is why he lived, violence
is what brought him meaning and joy. A good dust up, a shoot out, a knife fight, a ram-like
butting of heads, this was his jam. I threatened to kill him quickly if he did not agree to the
terms. What were the terms? he demanded to know. Lay down your weapons and empty your
soul of rage and hatred, I said. He said he didn’t hate me. I asked how that was possible. I don’t
hate you, he insisted. I just want to fuck you up. But why? I wondered. We had done so much
damage to each other, it seemed futile to continue. I don’t hate you, he repeated, but we have
unfinished business. So I have to kill you? I asked. He said yes, that was the only way, unless he
killed me first of course. We stood there facing each other like two close-talking gunslingers
about to throw down. My question, and it is a simple one: would someone from the nineteenth
century understand me? I mean, my words, my style, my vibe? What about people in the twenty-
first century? Do they understand me? With that I buried the hatchet in my foe’s forehead and
his puzzled expression was worth a thousand slurs.
Ear Beating
Gabby kept talking. I don’t know what she was going on about, but I was losing my shit. My ears
burned, my stomach fluttered. The weather helped in no way with its intermittent rain and
woolly clouds and evil people waving spear-tipped umbrellas around like a bunch of savages.
Nobody does this better perhaps than the people who brought you eider down, but in some sense
all these things were possible because people enjoyed being assholes, it was in their nature and
nothing anyone attempted could change that. And it’s easy to get the tenses wrong when you’re
thinking in the abstract, when your thoughts form a kind of noise reduction device to block out
the horrible run on sentence spitting out of Gabby’s mouth. Are you listening? Are you listening?
And Then There Was You
Sometimes I have to stop and look around me to make sure I have not deviated from my path.
As my mind wanders, so too my legs. When you lose yourself in thought, it’s easy to travel
around the city and have people stare at you like they think they know what is going on in your
mind, or at least they can guess. I am talking about the ordinary citizens of this city, the masses
who shuffle around like cleaned-up zombies, scarcely able to articulate a normal civilized
greeting. O pain of stomach! O shredding nerves! O loss of patience with my fellow zombies!
When we finally achieve what we had blueprinted, will we stop shuffling around? Will we
become fuller and yet lighter of foot? Will we consume the air like savages of fire? All is best
when all is lost—ask the believers who will know when they meet their messiah.
The Tenth One
Promised less action than the first nine, but more density as the plaque and the cataracts worked
overtime to layer their sweets. When he awakens next morning, the hand to the heart can only
mean one thing: the moment has come for dancing. Raises the other arm and sways. Put your
hand in the air like you just don’t care if it gets hacked off. The other hand keep pressed to the
chest as the heart kicks like a spicy fetus. Everyone, everyone, come and see what has happened
in the smoky anteroom. Wear your pointed hats, please, or confirm your obligations to opposing
religions—aye, let it not be so. But if it’s so, tolerance is a word bandied about promiscuously in
this era and we introduce it in tux and tails with an ebony walking stick, tap tap. Deep bow and
then the Royal Canadians play a little swing tune that’s gets everybody wearing old dark clothes
and looking at least ten years older than they actually are. I say we can enjoy the company of
people we abhor about as much as a punch in the nose and then at least we enjoy the bleeding for
whatever it’s worth. I say we punch our way out of this stinking paper tent. I say we didn’t have
to make nine mistakes and then still make a tenth.
Scott Taylor
dichotomy
i tried to be good
i tried to be right
i tried not to feel on this sick autumn night
i know things won't change
i know what i am
i know things will not go according to plan
i fall for you hard
i fall on my face
i spread my dignity all over the place
i gorge on your attention
i drink all my wine
i try to get somewhere
and just waste more time
my thoughts drive me crazy
your memory kills
drink holes in my stomach
still can't get my fill
the new stuff's organic
the old was obscene
the training was panicked
the rest is my dream
i stagnate and sputter
i fall and i fail
your intentions mutter
my reactions wail
my game is too cryptic
the messages pale
my head sentimental
my dick is for sale
the theater is closing
the play is on words
i curse at the reptiles
and envy the birds
i send you my passion
i mail you my love
it quick gets deleted
ordained from above
my foolish delusions
of deities and queens
who've led me to madness
who're not what they seem
the songs all decay now
the colors they flee
the ceilings are static
the walls fall on me
i tug on my chicken
i drink down my piss
to wake up on monday
like nothing's amiss
i grow one day older
i pay all my bills
i cut out my tear ducts
and cry somehow still
my point of view
i hate these
who are so comfortable with everything that makes me convulse
with their calm, indifferent conversations over who is hurting who at the present moment
while taking their slow, jaded walk past my ears
i watched them embrace it in elementary school
the little soldiers of today's brave new society
the adapters
and yet i saw her body double walking across the book store parking lot today
and almost cried
to think that i had the audacity at one time to give that up
the two halves of my consciousness are constantly at war
and driving in the car today, watching all the passersby
i once again had a moment of fleeting lucidity
in observing that there is no right and wrong
only different angles of viewing the same thing
Perception is Reality
there must be no other name for it
situational dilemma
Homecoming King
I awoke in burnt orange darkness my faceside mashed against the pebbled earth the smell of sunlight warming
cedar pollen the taste of dirt upon my rumflavored tongue. Cicadas buzzed in the grass their din cadenced by
such dull unthinking repetition that I sensed as I often sensed when listening to the ancient tunes of nature an
inarticulable horror at the heart of existence…I opened my eyes….they were already open…gazing into my
Moved my hand. Blinking hard at the appearance of life. The asterisked sun breaching a cedar grove on the
upper rim of a steep river valley its gauzy white light sweeping down sheer limestone cliffs and across the
riverside glade in which I lay sprawled twisted bent like the policetape outline of a man flung from a passing
riverboat.
Turned to my other side. Watching the river flow along the grassy bank. Silent witness to whatever
conflagration had consumed me the night before. The dark indigo central channel moving swiftly its shallower
sides rived off and curling in cerulean ringlets towards the shore. Pollen and dust floating thru the volume of
sunlight that at once hovered above the waterface and plunged into its hologrammic depths. I looked up, the
azure sky a river unto itself, folded between high limestone cliffsides, a large bird tracking thru its translucence
like a black stylus upon a color swatch. I did not know what type of bird it was but felt that I should. A boat
captain in the middle of middle age shouldn’t I know something about circling birds? Except I didn’t except to
The vertiginous valley walls were blotted with caves their black yawns directing the light of the world towards
depths rumoring treasure but turning finally foul of lung, trapping birdsong and oxygen in pockets of
blackdamp, drawing heavymetal toxins down ancient lagoons carved smooth by stalactite cum overflowing
terraced rimstone pools dripping milkblue upon jewelrous pool spar, eyeless newts with ricepaper skin darting
thru the dark like crazed dinosaurs miniaturized by time, once great predators of field and valley lost in the
shoulderboards askew. Navyblue cotton fabric torn at the elbows and knees. Stepped towards the water and
stooped down at the sandy brink of a slowly circling eddy waterstriders skating across its surface trailering
vanishing ribbons of white sunlight. Hordes of gnats drifting above the main current like confetti. Cupped water
in my hands and splashed my face. Cupped more and began sipping it. My reflection torturous in the rippling
water.
I gazed downstream. Something about the high valley walls and hard black shadows and primordial riversounds
filling me with a mixture of melancholy and doom. Perhaps it was the overwhelming immensity of life present
in that natural vignette or perhaps it was the concealed cruelty that I could sense rooting beneath it or perhaps it
was both the immensity and the cruelty casting a doubly black shadow in which I crouched like some caveman
beneath a wuthering ledge, uncared for, insignificant. Under threat. I want to say forgotten but you have to be
my torn blouse billowing in the breeze my mind a maelstrom of thoughts of figuring pondering calculating
wondering. Nothing new in the narrative just a rehashing of generic mindmash, brainbowl garbage. Trout
shadows creased the riverbottom the fish invisible against fishcolored stones. Sweetgrass reeds clawing out of
the mud and bent towards the riffling water like witching sticks. Pennants of dark green moss waving behind
riverboulders in the nearby shallows. Crickets in their exoskeletons of black firescale popping thru the air as I
And so I trudged, the steep gray cliffside giving rise to a fantasy in which a simulacrum of me stands above the
valley watching me walk along the valley floor, I look up, scanning the cliff in the middle distance for my
doppelganger, and see gray smoke billowing into the blue sky above the valley wall on the opposite side of the
river. I stopped walking. Visored my eyes with my hands, tracing the smoke down to a location near an oak tree
growing atop a wide ledge about two hundred feet up the cliff face. The smoke pluming up from behind the tree
sandy bank across the river led to a thick blackberry bramble behind which karst limestone puzzled vertically
upward about a hundred and fifty feet before profiling out to form a natural stone buttress that supported the
ledge the karst contours giving the impression of a stone deity locked in eternal watching somnolence, the
guardian avatar of a people long gone but for some mystical lineage of fire attendants left behind to stoke a ten
thousand year old flame its embers swirling up a handpatted mud chimney into the sequinous night sky,
jewelrybox sky, exploded starmaps telling tales of ancestral heroes and wishgranting beasts, mystic swordspells
and lustful goddesses…or so I desired…all this I desired...my brain always recurved towards the impossible the
I continued walking in the shadow of the ledge. Gazing at the gray rock beneath it. Loamy soil sinking beneath
my feet. Slow wind curling upstream. Browngreen river gurgling along its earthcut. Shadows upon the stone
breaking in a jagged line against the sunlight where I emerged from the shade and just at that moment - as I
stepped out from beneath the ledge’s silhouette and into the warm sunlight - the stones and stoneshadows lined
up in such a way to reveal a series of hand and footholds carved into the cliff face. The feature vanished as soon
as it appeared. I stopped walking. Backed up. The feature appeared again, but clearer now, of a primitive
stairscape hewn into the karst limestone, ascending to the cliff ledge with its oak tree and companion
smokeplume. I looked up at the sky, the sun’s projection angle and the fragmented karst perfectly aligned to
reveal the hidden steps, and realized that if I’d walked by several minutes earlier or later the anomaly would not
whatever hangover shame drooped thru my psyche. Walked to the river’s edge and plunked my toe caps into its
liminal stagnance taking care not to look at the carved steps again not to look at the impossible thing again.
Visored my hands above my eyes to observe the water going beneath a glistening white pellicle of reflected
sunlight. Gaging speed, depth, wind direction. How far downstream would I drift before emerging upon the
opposite bank? Where were the hazards the sunken boulders the snaggy branches. A boat captain’s fluid
dynamics.
Having calculated my approach I turned and began walking upstream the warm sunshine and cantillating
riversounds lending something peaceful to the afternoon air something like benevolence like goodwill like
friendliness, which was in high contrast to my usual perception of life as something hostile not just generally
but personally…and an uninspiring slog besides…..but here was a mystery! a true one! and I was destined to
conjoin with it, the timing too uncanny to think otherwise, and for only the second or third time in my life I felt
noticed by Life, or by the God of it, or the force behind it, or something, and I had the sense that the context in
which I found myself was authentically mine and that the bewildering mess called ‘my life’ had always bent
towards this one bright moment and it was a moment that I desired to exist in, which was a rare feeling for me,
and I wondered if that was how happy people felt most of the time, all of the time.
At a point upstream I took off my pea coat and dress shirt and folded them. Looked around for a place to set
them. Kneeled and laid them in my shadow my fingers lingering upon the navy blue coat playing over its die-
cast brass buttons and thick cotton braille as if noticing such details for the first time. The last time. I turned into
the sunlight and rolled my slacks up to my knees and took off my derby shoes and tied them together with a
carrick bend and slung the shoes around my neck and stepped off the path into a riverward meadow blotted with
black-eyed susans and mexican hat and bluebonnets a floral panoply ending abruptly at an embankment
overhanging the inner shallows of a meander, the final saturated meter of yellow and vermillion and blue
flowerpetals arcing into the air above the loping river and in that colorwave I stood, shoes dangling above my
ribs like black gourds, pale pink legs covered with bronze pollen, the sunlight bronze upon my chest.
I stepped down the embankment and walked across the shoal the silt suctioning my feet and slurping obscenely
around each toe my footprints filling with sorrel mudwater flecked with twinkling pyrite. The scent of cold
riverwater and stone moss drying in the sun. Rotting trout scale, cedar allergen. As the water grew deeper the
mud trasnitioned to smooth riverstones that kneaded painfully into my soles such that I dove forward and began
swimming sidestroke, watching my speed relative to the shore quicken as I glided into the central channel
where I turned upon my back and bobbed along with the current, surprised to see that I had already pulled about
even with the blackberry bramble at the base of the karst cliff, the mysterious smoke plume still billowing into
the blue sky, a long gray forearm reaching up into the late afternoon sunlight and vanishing from sight as I
something grabbed my foot and swung me several feet underwater the swiftly moving current holding me prone
the cold water shooting thru my nostrils my sinuses burning vision blurred hearing muffled as I thrashed to the
surface managing a shallow breath before being pulled back down again, panicking now as I curled forward to
pry my foot loose. I was immediately flung back. My ankle broke. I stopped struggling. There were only so
many units of motion left. Pushing my tongue against the back of my teeth I looked around for something
anything god please help me god oh god but instead of a god I found the blurry apparition of a stone bridge
lying in tranquil ruin beneath me, its mossy stone vouissours scattered upon the calm sundappled riverbottom, a
massive keystone lying like a giant’s medallion halfburied in the mud, the jumble of parapets which had caught
my foot in the manner of a chinese fingertrap. My immediate feeling was relief that what had captured me had
once been beautiful, built by humans, and with that thought my vision began to fade pain began to fade physical
boundaries began to fade as in my mind’s eye I recalled myself drunkenly fumbling a keyring off a small shelf
above an engine room door the myriad keys caked with verdigris but for one shiny brass key dangling upon a
separate smaller keyring marked by a red floating key fob advertising a fishhouse. McDade’s. I unlocked the
door and stumbled into the dark engine room inhaling gear oil fumes while sliding my hand along the wall
feeling for the generator’s control panel the smooth varnished beadboard giving way to cold metallic
instrumentation and a large thumb switch that I pressed down for several seconds before flicking up, the onan
generator shuddering in its angle iron brackets the yellowish overhead light crazing thru its pillshaped mesh
cage illuminating an enormous detroit diesel engine heaving over six metal chafing pans full of oil, hydraulic
hoses coiling out from the pump and going thru the stern wall like the tentacles of a leviathon disappearing into
another dimension.
I then saw myself as a teenager putting tables and chairs out on the bow of a boat the lonely metal scrapesounds
echoing along a concrete bulwark before traveling thru a field of dying winter rye and vanishing into the traffic
passing along a lakeside boulevard the high school sweethearts walking awkwardly along the sidewalk the
families emerging from pier-side restaurants and all those other things which I knew existed but only existed to
Then flashes of myself as a young boy building campfires and brewing wild herb tea and cooking red snapper in
banana leaves with lemonslices butter pepper rosemary and sleeping in my sea canoe beneath the sequinous
ribbon of the Milky Way one summer as a runaway along the gulf coast, the happiest season of my life,
trundling thru the shallows of an estuary building a fish farm, laying in the sand with eyes closed holding conch
shells to each ear and napping within that soft roar like a cosmic deity stretched out across the multiverse.
And now here I stand upon the riverbank, gazing at the steps carved into the cliff face. The sun exactly
overhead, radiating a boulevard of light down the pearly white karst. I wear no clothes but my body is painted
with pigments pressed from earth and stamen. I step forward and begin to climb, my hands and feet are familiar
Ron McJohnnyson
Do I know you?
For helvede, your name sounds—
We must have met.
Maybe it was in—
darkness,
or was it—
at a food truck
somewhere in—
Dumbo?
Waiting for fries—
and mayo?
I won’t tarry—
I’ll nod—
Show you
some teeth.
Here—
gimme a fast side-hug—
ya fantastic, footballin’ fuck.
Nice—
talkin’!
Po’ Tommy McNopedong
minute-five
into “Thunderstruck.”1
God—
totally—
cut off?
1
AC/DC. 1990. “Thunderstruck.” Track 1 on The Razors Edge. Albert, ATCO, LP.
Do you—
miss it?
Asking,
for the sake
of loss itself.
Can I—
seriously, now—
take a look
to see
what’s not
there?
Steve Carll
Questions 70 & Up
Yes,
the divine right of King Crimson
is rushing to its genesis
at Emerson Lake
and palm trees glow
where my Rosemary throws
her sage and thyme
and if they want to fly like rock 'n roll stars I'd
crossfade out of tomorrow never knows
into their release
Future Futures
Fellow undertakers!
Tomorrow's universe remains
eggbound stunted
to await that
Fabulous ubiquity translating
upward responsiveness everywhere
see?
Gnossienne
Minnow eyes
Gradation
I.
false start.
once no twice
Forget.
Slowly.
Count to ten.
tight stretch
no reply.
faintly.
incongruity. Incongruous.
gauzy impossibility.
grasping reminding
prayer
staccato
pestilence petulance
precision
lost among
waves of time
this time.
Acta Biographia
Ailbhe Wheatley
Ailbhe Wheatley is an emerging poet and artist from the West of Ireland. She graduated with a B.A in English
literature in 2019 and has recently completed an M.A. in Authorial Illustration. Her background in yoga
teaching and meditation informs her current poetic practice. Her work seeks to magnify the ordinary, everyday,
mysterious - to reveal the world afresh.
Andal Srivatsan
Andal Srivatsan is a writer and poet based out of India, and the editor of Pena Lit Mag. Her work has been
published in various places - TBLM, AThinSliceofAnxiety, The Sunflower Collective, Tarshi’s InPlainspeak,
MeanPepperVine, and Literary Yard. She can be found on Instagram @andalsrivatsan, where she writes book
reviews and poetry frequently.
Andrea Nicki
Andrea Nicki has three poetry books published and forthcoming poetry in an anthology edited by Larissa
Shmailo by Mad Hat Press. She had poetry recently published in The Raven’s
Perch. https://theravensperch.com/behind-the-eight-ball-by-andrea-
nicki/ https://theravensperch.com/monkey-thumb-by-andrea-nicki/
She has a Ph.D. in philosophy and teaches business ethics at colleges for international students/new
immigrants. She has a multidisciplinary book of her essays and poetry under contract with Rowman and
Littlefield Publishers.
Anna Kapungu
Anthony Oag
Anthony Oag is a writer and graduate of SUNY Fredonia, based out of Brocton, NY. His work has appeared
in The Merrimack Review(2019), The Trident Magazine(2020 and 2019), The Eunoia Review(2023), and the
BlazeVOX Journal(Spring 2023).
Brenda Mox
Brenda is a poet and visual artist living on the shore at the mouth of the Chesapeake Bay in Virginia. Her work
has been published in Wingless Dreamer, Bewildering Stories, Down in the Dirt Journal, BlazeVox, Ariel
Chart, Neo Poet, Discretionary Love, Corporeal, Heart and Mind, Edge of Humanity, Poetry Pacific, Eber
and Wein Anthology.
Brett Ann Stanciu is the author of a memoir, Unstitched (Steerforth Press, 2021). A recipient of a 2020
Vermont Arts Council Creation Grant, Stanciu’s writing has appeared in The Rumpus, Taproot, and Green
Mountains Review, among other publications. She lives in Vermont’s Northeast Kingdom and blogs
at stonysoilvermont.com.
Carrie Purcell Kahler’s work has appeared or is forthcoming in Apogee, Thimble, Bellevue Literary
Review, Image, Denver Quarterly, Poetry Northwest, District Lit, HAD, and others. She received an MFA in
creative writing from the University of Washington and lives in Seattle with her cat. carriepurcellkahler.com
Cindy Savett
Cindy Savett is the author of Child in the Road (Parlor Press), The Breath (BlazeVOX books) and the
chapbooks: The Story of my Eyes, Battle for the Metal Kiss, Rachel: In the Temporary Mist of Prayer, and Overtures
of Survival. Her work is also found in the anthology, Challenges for the Delusional, and is forthcoming in Poetry is
Bread Anthology. Cindy is published widely in both print and online journals. Educated at Gratz College and
The University of Pennsylvania, she examined the works of Martin Buber and Martin Heidegger, under the
tutelage of Van A. Harvey, Laurence J. Silberstein and Victor M. Lidz. The sudden death of her youngest
daughter generated a fierce reckoning in her poems. As a result, for the past two decades Cindy’s poetry focused
on the experience of grief from various perspectives, including that of her deceased child, leading her into
establishing poetry workshops for psychiatric inpatients at several Philadelphia area hospitals. Cindy’s current
work has evolved into an investigation of the spiritual relationship between the “I” and the “Other”.
Claire Beeli
Claire Beeli is an emerging writer from Long Beach, California. Her work is published or is forthcoming in
Block Party Lit, Polyphony Lit, and The Apprentice Writer, among others. She is her city's first Youth Poet
Laureate. Her writing has been recognized by the Scholastic Foundation, Columbia College Chicago, The New
York Times Learning Network, and others.
Chris Stroffolino
Clive Gresswell
Dan Sicoli
Dan Sicoli, of Niagara Falls, NY, authored two poetry chapbooks from Pudding House Publications, Pagan
Supper and the allegories. He also co-edits Slipstream. Recently he's had poems included in I-70 Review,
Abandoned Mine, Angel Rust, Book of Matches, Ethel Zine, Evening Street Review, Hobo Camp, Home Planet News,
Ranger, Rye Whiskey Review, San Pedro River Review, and Sleet. On weekends he beats on an old Gibson in a
local garage rock band. <www.pw.org/directory/writers/dan_sicoli>
David Lohrey
David Lohrey was raised in Memphis and is now based in Tokyo, Japan. Lohrey’s work highlights how the
absurd and the banal mingle across the terrain of America’s advanced cultural dementia. His first book of
poetry, Machiavelli’s Backyard, draws on his experience growing up in the era of Martin Luther King’s killing,
Patty Hearst’s kidnapping, and Watergate. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in Cardiff Review, Delta
Review, Expat Press, the New Orleans Review, Southern Indiana Review, Stony Thursday Anthology, and
Dodging the Rain. A multiple Pushcart Prize nominee, David saw his second collection, Bluff City, published
by Terror House Press.
Dennis Formento
Dennis Formento lives in Slidell, Louisiana, USA, near New Orleans. His poetry books include
Spirit Vessels (FootHills Publishing, 2018) Looking for An Out Place (FootHills, 2010,) and
Cineplex (Paper Press, 2014.) Edited Mesechabe: The Journal of Surregionalism, 1991-2001. He
collaborates locally with musicians including his own Frank Zappatistas free jazz/free verse
project, and in Italy with renowned "avant-folk" group Duo Bottasso. Has organized readings for
the world-wide poetry network, 100,000 Poets for Change, since 2011. In September 2023
Dennis won first prize for poetry manuscript of the Pirate’s Alley Faulkner Society, for
Phaeton’s Wheels, to be published by Lavender Ink Press, New Orleans.
Doug Jones
E. H. Beyer
E. H. Beyer is currently a PhD student in Scandinavian Studies at the University of Wisconsin. She holds an
MFA in Poetry from the University of Iowa and an MA in Medieval Icelandic Studies from the University of
Iceland. Her poems have been published in journals such as Triquarterly, The Diagram, and Prairie Schooner
among others.
E.W.H. Thornton
E.W.H. Thornton's work has appeared on the NoSleep podcast. They curate a blog presenting magazine
content from pre, mid, and post World War Two era America, with a focus on the golden age of pulp fiction. It
can be found at https://thegildedcentury.tumblr.com. They also occasionally write about the more bizarre, lurid,
and tragic aspects of video game history at https://www.giantbomb.com/profile/lostsol/blog/.
Ed Makowski
Ed Makowski has been a writer, photographer, journalist, and producer living in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. In his
present-day work, he is a storyteller on behalf of medical and scientific research. Ed likes to get lost and
find wild animals. More about his work can be found at radderthandeath.com.
Ethan Goffman
Ethan Goffman is the author of the short story collection Realities and Alternatives (Cyberwit, 2023), the
poetry collections I Garden Weeds (Cyberwit, 2021) and Words for Things Left Unsaid (Kelsay Books, 2020)
and the flash fiction collection Dreamscapes (UnCollected Press, 2021). Ethan is co-founder of It Takes a
Community, which brings poetry to Montgomery College students and nearby residents, and is founder and
producer of the Poetry & Planet podcast on EarthTalk.org. Ethan also writes nonfiction on transportation
alternatives for Greater Greater Washington and other publications.
Gordon Scapens
Jenny Grassl
Jenny Grassl’s poems have appeared in Ocean State Review, Rogue Agent, The Boston Review, Tupelo Quarterly,
Bennington Review, Lana Turner Journal, Inverted Syntax, Puerto del Sol, Poetry International, Laurel Review,
Green Mountains Review, Massachusetts Review, Rhino, Lit, The Grolier Prize, Clarion, and others. Her poetry
was featured in a Best of American Poetry blog.
J. D. Nelson
J. D. Nelson (b. 1971) is the author of eleven print chapbooks and e-books of poetry, including purgatorio
(wlovolw, 2024). His first full-length collection is in ghostly onehead (Post-Asemic Press, 2022). Visit his website,
MadVerse.com, for more information and links to his published work. Nelson lives in Boulder, Colorado, USA.
James Croal Jackson
James Croal Jackson is a Filipino-American poet who works in film production. His latest chapbooks are A God
You Believed In (Pinhole Poetry, 2023) and Count Seeds With Me (Ethel Zine & Micro-Press, 2022). Recent
poems are in Hello America, Little Patuxent Review, and Ballast Poetry Journal. He edits The Mantle Poetry from
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. (jamescroaljackson.com)
Joan E. Bauer
Joan E. Bauer is the author of three full-length poetry collections, Fig Season (Turning Point, 2023), The
Camera Artist (Turning Point, 2021), and The Almost Sound of Drowning (Main Street Rag, 2008). Recent work
has appeared in Chiron Review, Paterson Literary Review and Slipstream. She divides her timebetween Venice,
CA and Pittsburgh, PA where she co-curates the Hemingway's Summer Poetry Series with Kristofer
Collins. On X (Twitter) @Joan_E_Bauer
John Kuligowski
John Kuligowski is a Ph.D. student in creative writing at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. His work has
previously been published in Maudlin House, Misery Tourism, Foothill Poetry Journal, and The Shoutflower,
among others. He is assistant genre editor in nonfiction for Prairie Schooner.
Raised on the rural coast of Oregon, James Joaquin Brewer currently shelters in West Hartford, Connecticut
while working on a novel about political protest on college campuses. Published writing of a variety of genres
appears in The Seattle Post-Intelligencer, The Write Launch, LitBreak, The Hartford Courant, Aethlon, Jeopardy,
Rosebud, The Poetry Society of New York, Closed Eye Open, The Manifest-Station, Quibble, Open: Journal of Arts &
Letters.
Jared Leeds
Jasper Glen
Jasper Glen is a poet and artist from Vancouver. He holds a BA in Philosophy and a JD. Poems appear in A
Gathering of the Tribes, Posit, Rogue Agent, BlazeVOX Journal, and elsewhere. Collages appear or are
forthcoming in BarBar, Liminal Spaces, and Streetlit.
Joseph Cooper
Joseph Cooper is the author of six books, most recently Splash Fields (Vegetarian Alcoholic Press, 2024). He
currently lives in Lewisburg, WV.
Joshua Martin
Joshua Martin is a Philadelphia based writer and filmmaker, who currently works in a library. He is member of
C22, an experimental writing collective. He is the author most recently of the books Prismatic Fissures (C22
Press), peeping sardine fumes (RANGER Press) and [Ruptured] >> Schematic << MAZES (Sweat Drenched
Press). He has had numerous pieces published in various journals. You can find links to his published work
at joshuamartinwriting.blogspot.com
Judith Chalmer
Judith Chalmer is the author of two books of poetry, most recently “Minnow” (Kelsay Books 2020) and is co-
translator of two books of Japanese haiku and tanka by poet, Michiko Oishi. Her poems have been published
individually in journals such as Poetica, Plant-Human Quarterly, Third Wednesday Quiddity, and
in anthologies such as “Queer Nature,” “Rewilding: Poems for the Environment,” and “Roads Taken:
Contemporary Vermont Poetry.” She lives in Vermont where she currently serves on the board of Vermont
Humanities.
Jonathan Everitt
Jonathan Everitt’s poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Laurel Review, Stone Canoe, Scarlet Leaf Review,
Small Orange, Impossible Archetype, Ghost City Press, The Bees Are Dead, The Empty Closet, Lake Affect, and
the Moving Images poetry anthology, among others. His poem, “Calling Hours,” was the basis for the 2015
short film, Say When. Jonathan has also led a workshop for LGBTQ poets and co-founded the long-running
monthly open mic, New Ground Poetry Night. Jonathan earned his MFA in creative writing from Bennington
College. He lives in Rochester, N.Y., with his partner, David Sullivan.
John Tavares
Born and raised in Sioux Lookout, Ontario, John Tavares is the son of Portuguese immigrants from Sao
Miguel, Azores. Having graduated from arts and science at Humber College and journalism at Centennial
College, he more recently earned a Specialized Honors BA in English Literature from York University. His
short fiction has been featured in community newspapers and radio and published in a variety of print and
online journals and magazines, in the US, Canada, and internationally. His many passions include
journalism, literature, economics, photography, writing, and coffee, and he enjoys hiking and cycling.
Lewis LaCook
Maia Brown-Jackson
A born and bred New Yorker, Maia Brow-Jackson made the pragmatic decision to study literature at the
University of Chicago; naturally followed by a series of odd jobs working in galleries and art museums, and
running from one thing to the next until she found herself in ISIS-occupied Iraq working with Yazidi survivors
of genocide. Maia was inspired to attend the Fletcher School for a Master’s in Law and Diplomacy, and now
works uncovering fraud and Taliban interventions in humanitarian aid meant for the people of Afghanistan.
She recently published a poetry collection: And My Blood Sang.
Madeline Charne
Always drawn to the theater, Maddie Charne has been a devout dramaturg since she discovered the word,
ultimately going to the Yale School of Drama to study it as intensely as she could. She focuses much of her
work, highlighting themes of historic wrongs, as well as current efforts to destigmatize and increase inclusion
for people who identify as disabled and/or queer—all while bringing theater to communities without easy or
established access. She works for Philadelphia Young Playwrights as the Director of Education and Programs,
and lives with her husband, two children, and entirely too many pets.
Marjorie Sadin
Mark DuCharme
Mark DuCharme’s sixth full-length book of poetry, Here, Which Is Also a Place, was published in 2022 by
Unlikely Books. That same year, his chapbook Scorpion Letters was published by Ethel. Other publications
include his work of poet’s theater, We, the Monstrous: Script for an Unrealizable Film, published by The
Operating System, and The Unfinished: Books I-VI, published by BlazeVOX. His poetry has appeared widely in
such venues asBlazeVOX, Blazing Stadium, Caliban Online, Colorado Review, Eratio, First Intensity, Indefinite
Space, New American Writing, Noon, Otoliths, Shiny, Spinozablue, Talisman, Unlikely Stories, Word/ for Word, The
Writing Disorder, and Poetics for the More-Than-Human World: An Anthology of Poetry and Commentary. A
recipient of the Neodata Endowment in Literature and the Gertrude Stein Award in Innovative American
Poetry, he lives in Boulder, Colorado, USA.
Mark Goodwin
Mark Goodwin is a poet-sound-artist, fiction-maker & re-thinker who speaks and writes in differing ways. He
is also a walker, balancer, climber, stroller ... and negotiator of places. Mark has a number of books &
chapbooks with various English poetry houses, including Leafe Press, Longbarrow Press, & Shearsman
Books. Mark lives with his partner on a narrowboat just north of Leicester, in the English Midlands. He tweets
poems from @kramawoodgin, and some of his sound-enhanced poetry is here: https://markgoodwin-poet-
sound-artist.bandcamp.com
Mark Young
Mark Young was born in Aotearoa New Zealand but now lives in a small town on traditional Juru land in North
Queensland, Australia. He is the author of more than sixty-five books, primarily text poetry but also including
speculative fiction, vispo, memoir, and art history. His most recent books are a pdf, Mercator Projected, published by
Half Day Moon Press (Turkey) in August 2023; Ley Lines II published by Sandy Press (California) in November
2023; un saut de chat published by Otoliths Books (Australia) in February 2024; and Melancholy, a James Tate Poetry
Prize winner, published by SurVision Books (Ireland) in March 2024.
Martha Deed
Martha Deed is a retired Psychologist who has a lifelong habit of writing in a variety of literary and professional
settings. Her poetry collections, Climate Change (2014), Under the Rock (2019) and Haunted by Martha
(2023) were published by FootHills Publishing. Seven chapbooks and hundreds of poems published in New
Verse News, Moss Trill, Shampoo, Moria, CLWN WR, Poemeleon, Big Bridge, Earth's Daughters and many
others. Many poems anthologized. Two Pushcart and one Best of the Net nominations.
Martha curated and edited a posthumous poetry collection for her daughter Millie Niss: City Bird (BlazeVOX,
2010).
Mehreen Ahmed
Multiple contest winner for short fiction, Mehreen Ahmed is an award-winning Australian novelist born in
Bangladesh. Her historical fiction novel The Pacifist is a Drunken Druid's Editor's Choice. Midwest Book
Review and DD Magazine have also acclaimed her works, translated into German, Greek, and Bangla,
reprinted, anthologized, selected as Editor's Pick, Best of, and made the top 10 reads multiple times. They have
also been nominated for Pushcart, botN, and James Tait. She has authored eight books and has been twice a
reader and juror for international awards. Her recent publications include Litro, Otoliths, Popshot Quarterly,
Alien Buddha, and more.
Nate Hoil
Nate Hoil writes and prints books in Chicago, IL. His most recent collection 24 HOUR MONOLOGUE:
Collected Poems 2017-2023 was released through Secret Restaurant Press in 2024.
Nicholas Skaldetvind
Nicholas Skaldetvind is an Italian-American poet and paper-maker. He holds a M.A. from Stockholm
University in Transnational Writing. He studied papermaking with Tom Balbo at Wells College and was an
apprentice for Roberto Mannino in Italy. He serves as an editor for California Quarterly will begin a Ph. D. at
University of North Dakota’s English department in January.
Olchar E. Lindsann
Olchar E. Lindsann has published nearly 50 books of literature, theory, translation, and avant-garde history
including five books of the ongoing series Arthur Dies, and most recently The Squitty Flange, an avant-garde
twist on the nonsense poetry tradition. His poems appear in Otoliths, Lost & Found Times, Brave New Word, and
elsewhere, his essays in No Quarter, Slova, & Fifth Estate; and he has performed sound poetry and lectured
extensively. He is the editor of mOnocle-Lash Anti-Press, whose catalog includes over 200 print publications of
the contemporary and historical avant-garde, and of the periodicals Rêvenance, The in-Appropriated Press,
and Synapse. He translates work of the French avant-garde of the 19th & early 20th centuries.
Pamela Miller
Pamela Miller’s newest collection of poems, How to Do the Greased Wombat Slide, will be published in May by
Unsolicited Press. She is also the author of five other books, including Recipe for Disaster and Ms.
Unthinkable (both from Mayapple Press) and Mr. Mischief (forthcoming from Dancing Girl Press). Her work
has appeared in Otoliths, Word For/Word, shufPoetry, RHINO and many other journals and anthologies. She lives
in Chicago with her husband, science fiction writer Richard Chwedyk.
Partha Sarkar
Peter Mladinic
Rachael Breen
Robert Wexelblatt
Robert Wexelblatt is a professor of humanities at Boston University’s College of General Studies. He has
published twelve collections of short stories; two books of essays; two short novels; three books of poems;
stories, essays, and poems in a variety of journals, and a novel awarded the Indie Book Awards first prize for
fiction.
Roger Craik
Roger G. Singer
Rory Hughes
Rory Hughes is a South London-based writer and journalist. His transgressive novel, Theseus 34 was released
through Incunabula Media in 2024, and has been described as "a breathtaking descent into a digital urban hell",
and by Incunabula Media co-founder D.M. Mitchell as "the darkest [novel] I've ever published".
His challenging short stories have appeared in publications such as BlazeVOX, Angel Rust, Fleas on the Dog,
A Thin Slice of Anxiety, The Rye Whiskey Review, Vine Leaves Press, Literally Stories and Horror Sleaze
Trash.
Ryan Clark
Ryan Clark is a documentary poet who writes his poems using a unique method of homophonic translation. He
is the author of Arizona SB 1070: An Act(Downstate Legacies) and How I Pitched the First Curve(Lit Fest Press),
as well as the forthcoming chapbook Suppose / a Presence (Action, Spectacle). His poetry has appeared in such
journals as DIAGRAM, Interim, SRPR, and The Offing. A former military brat, he now lives in Chapel Hill,
North Carolina with his partner and cats.
Salvatore Difalco
Sicilian Canadian poet and satirist Salvatore Difalco currently lives in Toronto, Canada. His new book of
poems Off Course is slated to appear in 2025.
Scott Taylor
Scott Taylor hails from Raleigh, North Carolina. He is a writer and a musician, and an avid world
traveler. His short stories and poetry have appeared in numerous print and online publications, including Ghost
City Review, Snakeskin, Oddball, Angel Rust and Swifts and Slows. His debut novel 'Chasing Your Tail' has
recently been released with Silver Bow Publishing, and his novellas 'Freak' and 'Ernie and the Golden Egg' are
slated for inclusion in an upcoming anthology with Running Wild Press. He graduated from Cornell
University and was also a computer programmer in a past life.
Scout McComb
Sean Meggeson
Sean Meggeson lives in Toronto, Canada. He works as a psychoanalytic psychotherapist. He has written and
lectured on such topics as Lacan & James Joyce, neurodiversity, and alternative rock music. Sean recently has
had poems published in In Parentheses, Psychoanalytic Perspectives, and Verse-Virtual. He will have a poem in
the March, 2024 edition of SCAB magazine. He holds a M.A. in English Literature and Creative Writing
from the University of Denver.
Steve Carll
Steve Carll lives with his family in Arcata, California. His third full-length poetry collection, Hypnopompic
Diaries (Books One and Two) is currently out from Alien Buddha Press. Earlier books include Tracheal
Centrifuge (Factory School, 2006), Tao Drops, I Change (with Bill Marsh, Subpress, 2004), and several
chapbooks. His work has recently appeared in Anvil Tongue, SurVision, and First Literary Review – East. From
1988-1998, he edited the literary journal Antenym. Performance video of most of his poetry from 1991 to the
present can be found at https://www.youtube.com/@stevecarll/videos.
Terry Trowbridge
Researcher Terry Trowbridge’s poems are inPennsylvania Literary Journal, Carousel, Lascaux Review, Kolkata
Arts, Leere Mitte, untethered, Snakeskin Poetry, Progenitor, Nashwaak Review, Orbis, Pinhole, Big
Windows, Muleskinner,Brittle Star, Mathematical Intelligencer, Journal of Humanistic Mathematics, New
Note, Hearth and Coffin, Synchronized Chaos, Indian Periodical, Delta Poetry
Review, Literary Veganism and more. His lit crit is in BeZine, Erato, Amsterdam Review, Ariel, British
Columbia Review, Hamilton Arts & Letters, Episteme, Studies in Social Justice, Rampike,
and The /t3mz/Review. Terry is grateful to the Ontario Arts Council for his first writing grant.
Thomas Fink
Thomas Fink has published 12 books of poetry-- most recently Zeugma (Marsh Hawk Press, 2022) and A
Pageant for Every Addiction (Marsh Hawk, 2020), written collaboratively with Maya D. Mason. His Selected
Poems & Poetic Series appeared in 2016. He is the author of Reading Poetry with College and University Students:
Overcoming Barriers and Deepening Engagement (Bloomsbury Academic, 2022), as well as two books of criticism,
and three edited anthologies. His work appeared in Best American Poetry 2007. Fink’s paintings hang in various
collections. He is Professor of English at CUNY-LaGuardia.
Zipporah Breunig
Zipporah has worn many hats in their life, both figuratively and literally. They currently spend most of their
time chasing after an active toddler, but occasionally find time to write, practice massage therapy, and think
about Georges Bataille.