I blame the situation, I blame the world it

was not a mistake or a wrong step taken by

me or her. we both cared for each other but
the things they did not do wrong to me she
cared about me I was not the only one with
the feeling I know, I just know that I wasn't
a habit for her, I wasn't an object to her all I
was, was an idiot in love and if you say she
played with me you are probably right still I
wanna believe in her I wanna love her till
the end of time and wait for the day she
will come back to me and I will be waiting
for her for that moment to say to her once I
love you and shout in front of the whole
fucking world. I know she won't come back
to me and that makes me feel empty, I feel
that was my mistake I loved her that I made
her my everything I made her feel special
that I made her my first preference that I
showed her my side that no one has seen
did I make a mistake by loving her. I don't
know when ,but I
became a habit to her I became an obstacle
in her ways, am I the reason why she left
me hanging on some thread in this
sorrowful world. Sometimes I think ( yea I
think) that if I didn't love her that much she
wouldn't have left me and we were still
watching Naruto together drinking red bull
and eating each other's brains out alive and
looking into each other 's eyes for hours I
wish that I can see her one last time and tell
her if you don't wanna come back its ok but
just be happy and love someone who loves
you the way I do.