In this essay, the author recalls his experiences as a child at a
revival. He and other children were brought before by the adults, and soon their desperate prayers for the salvation of the children began. Some of the children expressed their salvation by rising up one by one, and finally, even the remaining child rose from his seat pretending to have been saved falsely, but Langston could not easily do so. This shows that he is a pure and honest young child who cannot easily lie. He prayed desperately for Jesus to come inside him, but nothing happened. How nervous, painful, and frightening must have been the heart of a young boy surrounded by adults who prayed hotter and hotter. Eventually, he could no longer endure it and stood up. Then a great deal of joy rides and flows among the adults. Returning home, he cried a lot in bed. He couldn't bear the guilt that he had deceived all the adults in the church. Reading this short essay, I lamented that adults were depriving children of their purity. Unlike the boy who left his seat lying easily, the author squeezed out every effort to meet the moments demanded by adults. In the end, of course, he deceived the adults, but struggled with the guilt. What a pure and tender-hearted child. Perhaps if the adults had raised and taken good care of him with love and patience and sometimes had gone to church together, this innocent child might have surely met Jesus one day. But the impatience and compulsion of the adults drove this child into a corner, and eventually made him leave the church altogether. Is this really something that can happen in a specific religion? Aren't we adults endlessly demanding and urging children to do what they think is right and giving them a hard time? Even if they make children fit the purpose of adults, will they be able to enjoy happiness? If we love children, we have to change the way we love them. Rash behavior should not destroy children's purity and vulnerable personality.
Scarred Faith: This is a story about how Honesty, Grief, a Cursing Toddler, Risk-Taking, AIDS, Hope, Brokenness, Doubts, and Memphis Ignited Adventurous Faith