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Writer's Memo
experience and then on Kincaid ’s essay. I tried to word vomit; to write down all of my thoughts
on both my situation and on Kinkaid’s writing without establishing any sort of line of reasoning
between the two. I found the 1.2 and 1.3 exercises extremely helpful because they allowed me to
grasp a solid idea of what I most wanted to emphasize throughout my essay. Once I chose the
main points for Kinkaid’s writing, I struggled to pick out which ones I most wanted to elaborate
on. The comments on my rough draft and second draft about using what related best to my own
experience to streamline the point of my essay helped me narrow down my focus on Kinkaid’s
essay. Consequently, I had more room to deepen my analysis, something I did between the
second and final draft with help from the comments on which questions required expansion. I
found it very helpful to write my own experience in a kind of creative, storytelling style. As a
whole my writing through this progression got more specific and narrow, where I could dive
deeper into the connections and analysis. Reading both Jules’ and Milena’s essays allowed me to
experience how they represented their text, and make sure I had accurately conceptualized mine.
In revising my essay I attempted to read in sections, making sure each focus was relevant to my
problem as a whole, as well as closely checking for details I may have missed when reading from
points are most important from it? As a practice I know this writing is a combination of my
synthesis of the text and my own experience, but I wonder if any of our arguments become
Emma Flett
Mrs. Lepri
3 October 2021
The holidays are the season I look forward to most. So when two of my best friends invited me
to have a gingerbread decorating contest, I was more than excited. I turned up to Brooke’s house,
sleeping bag in tow, and Kate informed me that they invited their boyfriends. I didn't mind, it
When it was time to begin, the boys teamed up while the girls worked separately. As the
timer went off we were laughing at the sheer difference between houses; laughing as the boys
scribbled on their unsalvageable mess of a house. But one of the scribbles took shape: A shape
Because dead center of that stupid, ugly, house they had drawn a swastika.
A swastika that they were now posing with, photographing, as if it were a wonderful,
novel design. And my friends? They said nothing.Chuckling nervously, they turned away, as if
See, I would rather stand in awkward silence in an elevator than create conversation that
would end in that same silence, and I avoid confrontation at all costs to save myself the dwelling.
So, how exactly was I to address a group of boys I barely knew and confront my best
friends about their bystanding? Well, the short answer is that I didn’t. Never have I wanted more
to be someone who can yell. Instead, I walked to the bathroom and dissolved into tears of anger
and shock. I, as a Jewish woman, sat there and let them draw a swastika. I felt so enraged, sad,
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betrayed. I was so mad at myself; mad for caring about what they thought of me, for not wanting
them to think I couldn't “take a joke”. Why was I so concerned about people I had no respect or
love for?
I would have been happier that day if I had said something -- I wouldn’t feel so guilty,
like the weakest link in my community. Why would I sit there and allow blatant antisemitism to
Maybe the “facts'' of history played a role in influencing the events of that day. I bring
this up not to shift the blame, but to consider all possibilities of contributing influences, with
history as background noise, rumbling in our everyday lives. Jamaica Kincaid’s essay, In History,
explores this intersection between fact and bias, delineating her feelings towards our world’s
subjective reality, and where she stands within it. The dominant side of history propagates the
narrative it wants to relay, one which often ignores the people, cultures, and establishments that
came before. Columbus’ ignorant accounts of the Americas neglect Kincaid ’s ancestors’
histories and lives, bringing forth questions like, “what should history mean to someone like
me?” and then, “why should I be obsessed with these questions?” (Kincaid 620). How is it fair
that the events of history which she had no part in make her continually question her place in the
past and present? She goes on to examine her feelings about her cultural identity in relation to
how history has treated her ancestors. She asks herself “should it be an open wound and each
breath … healing and opening the wound again and again, over and over, or is it a moment that
began in 1492 and has come to no end yet?” (Kincaid 620). The repetitions of the words “again”
and “over” place emphasis on the continual strife these questions cause her internally. Since
1492 was the “discovery” of the Americas, we can infer that the inciting event of this wound was
its invasion, and since then “each breath [she] take[s]” has been followed by these uncertainties;
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she does not go a day, not a second, without dealing with these questions -- it's as much of a part
of living for her as breathing. This constant struggle begs the question of how her ancestors'
distinct history is compatible with the “discovery” of the Americas. Is there a way to reconcile
the two? Or are the events of the past still present and relevant in the story which is still writing
itself today?
Kincaid continues to question the truthfulness of how we account for history, asking
herself “[Is it a collection of facts, all true and precise details, and, if so, when I come across
these, what should I do, how should I feel, where should I place myself?”(Kincaid 620). The
intersection of her focus on “fact and precise detail,” with her question of how she should feel is
interesting; usually one looks to facts for evidence or argument, but here she uses “facts” as a
point of reference. This is telling in how the “facts” are not representative of her truth; and thus
she must decide how she may feel about them. When the “truths” and “certainties” implied in the
word “fact” do not apply to all, it is no longer an objective form of reasoning. So then, how does
one reconcile their past and that of their ancestors when the information they have to go off of is
written by the very side which destroyed their culture, autonomy, and history?
She further delves into this argument of her role in both past and current events when she
asks “[w]hy should I be obsessed with all these questions?”(Kincaid 620). This is a personal
question; why is she individually tasked with resolving these questions? What exactly makes her
responsible for answering the questions which continually burn inside of her? I’m not sure if
there is a concrete answer she is looking for; and even if there could be one, I am doubtful this
conclusion would remain a constant throughout her life. So then, who should solve this continual
Through Kincaid's writing, I have gained a new perspective on how the “facts'' of history
history led me to question how my experience fits into the larger narrative of bias that is implicit
throughout our society. This brought me to Kinkaid’s next point: why should I be the one to
address these questions? Because although I wish that I had spoken up, perhaps it is not my job
to teach others to correct the biases they do not care to address. For them, the reality of
antisemitism “vanished’’ alongside Hitler when he died. For me, the nuances of history linger,
dirtying my current reality. These different understandings of the “facts” of history could be at
the heart of this situation. One allowed the bias to be written off as a thing of the past, harmless,
even. The other classified it as a continuation of a long narrative of inequality, something unable
Acknowledgements
I would like to thank Milena and Jules for editing my essay and offering meaningful feedback
that really helped me consolidate my ideas and focus my argument. My suitemate Eloise was
also a huge help in reading over my essay. She was able to offer a perspective of someone who
has not read Kinkaid’s writing, making sure my reasoning was clear and understandable without
Works Cited:
Kincaid, Jamaica. “In History”. Literature, Arts & Culture Journal, Callaloo, Spring 2001.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_aYVcKIgkbjqCk8w6eKvKN2JVmKDccwB/view
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Emma Flett
Mrs. Lepri
25 September 2021
Radical Revision
The holidays are usually the season I look forward to most: I love the cozy blankets, warm drinks,
friendly gatherings, and anything to do with snow (which granted I don’t get a ton of living in Texas, but
the concept is still there). So when two of my best friends invited me to have a gingerbread decorating
contest in full festive pajamas and holiday music, I was more than excited. I turn up to Brooke’s house,
sleeping bag in tow. Kate’s already there, and she informed me that they also invited their boyfriends. I
didn't mind, I mean it was a celebration; the more, the merrier! I waited impatiently for them to arrive so
that we could start the fun, making sure all of the decorations and house pieces were in place. Finally it
was time to begin, and the boys teamed up on their own house while the girls worked on two separate
ones. Ours were going great; a few mishaps but in general really holding up well. The boys, on the other
hand, were struggling to say the least. As the timer went off we were all laughing; at the sheer difference
between the houses we had made. Laughing as the boys drew squiggles on their unsalvageable mess of
a house. But one of the squiggles took shape. A shape that if I would have been standing up, would have
knocked me flat on my back. I immediately stopped laughing. But no one else noticed. No, they were
laughing even harder than before. [Because dead center of that stupid, ugly, house they had drawn a
swastika.]* A swastika that they were now posing with, photographing it, as if it was a novel design they
just recently had the genius of inventing. And my friends? They didn’t say anything.They chuckled
nervously, then turned away, as if pretending not to see it would absolve them from having to say
anything.
See, I’m the kind of person who would rather stand in awkward silence in an elevator than have
to create conversation and have it end in that same silence, but when I’m with a group of people I love,
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you will find me virtually screaming in public. Talking in class makes me sweat and I avoid confrontation at
all costs because I hate having to think about it for months after.
So how exactly was I to address a group of boys I didn’t really know and confront my best friends
about being bystanders in this situation? Well, the short answer is that I didn’t. [But never have I wanted
more to be the kind of person who is good at yelling*. Because instead I got right up and walked to the
bathroom, and immediately dissolved into angry, shocked tears.] In private I told Kate why I was mad
because she still didn’t get it, and yet I never confronted them. I, as a Jewish woman, sat there and let
them draw a swastika. I felt so enraged and sad and betrayed. And yet all I could do was cry. And I was
so mad at myself. Mad for caring about what they thought of me, for not wanting them to think I was the
sensitive, unfunny, girl who couldnt “take a joke”. [Why was I so concerned about these people who I had
I want to figure out why I care so much about what other people think]. I really believe I would be
so much happier if I wasn't constantly fixated on the thoughts of how other people around me are
perceiving me, if they are upset, angry, or any other emotion which frankly should not be my problem. If I
could stop caring so much I think I could be so much more true to myself in allowing myself to do the
things I want to say and act on. I do think I’m getting there; I certainly am less dependent on the thoughts
of others than I was earlier in life, but the process is exceedingly slow. You can’t just flick a switch and go
I do know that I most definitely would have been happier that day at Brookes’ if I had said
something. Then I wouldn’t feel so guilty, like the weakest link in my community, because why would I sit
Maybe the “facts” of history played a subconscious role in the way others as well as myself acted
on that day. Not to shift the blame, but only to consider all of the influences which may have contributed to
the events. This intersection of facts and bias in history is explored throughout the essay “In History”, by
Jamaica Kincaid. In this text she examines her feelings towards the very subjective reality of the world we
live in today, one which often lacks much nuance, through a recounting of Columbus' “discovery” of the
Americas and her own personal experiences. The dominant side of history gets to write and propagate
the narrative which they want to tell, one which more often than not leaves out the people, things,
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cultures, establishments, etc which came before. These uncertainties concerning the ignorance towards
Kincaid ’s ancestors’ histories and lives bring forth questions like, “what should history mean to someone
like me?” and then, “why should I be obsessed with these questions?” (Kincaid 620). How is it fair that
the events and retelling of history which she has had no part in make her continually question her place in
the past and present? Kincaid continues to explore the complexities of how one's perspective on what is
important is fundamentally subjective, and thus how this outlook on life allowed people like Columbus to
advance without a second thought to those who had established their lives, and instead regard his
“discovery” as a blank slate to write on however he saw fit. This carelessness is so impactful because his
account of the “world” would become much of what those today have to go off of; “[m]y world then—the
only world I might have known if circumstances had not changed, intervened, would have entered the
human imagination, the human imagination that I am familiar with, the only one that dominates the world
in which I live—came into being as a footnote to someone just passing by” (Kincaid 622). [What he
deemed worth noting versus what to him was not important enough for preservation or note remains
largely lost in history, and thus Kincaid must struggle with how to reconcile this basic ignorance and
injustice which happened so long before her birth but continues to affect her ancestors and her in the
Kincaid goes on to examine her own feelings about her cultural identity and past in relation to
history and how it has treated her ancestors. She asks herself “[s]hould it be an idea, should it be an
open wound and each breath I take in and expel healing and opening the wound again and again, over
and over, or is it a moment that began in 1492 and has come to no end yet?” (Kincaid 620). The
repetitions of the words “again” and “over” place an emphasis on the continual strife these questions
cause her internally. Since 1492 was the “discovery” of the Americas by Columbus, we can infer that the
inciting event of this wound was its invasion, and since then “each breath [she] take[s]” has been followed
by these uncertainties; she does not go a day, not a second even, without dealing with these questions,
it's as much of a part of living for her as breathing. Kincaids’ constant struggle with how she should
approach her history and the history of her ancestors begs the question of how this distinct history is
compatible with that of the discovery of the Americas and how we approach this event today. Is there a
way to reconcile the two? Or are the events of the past still present and relevant in the story which is still
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writing itself today?* Kincaid continues to question the truthfulness and merit of how we account for
history when she asks herself “ [Is it a collection of facts, all true and precise details, and, if so, when I
come across these true and precise details, what should I do, how should I feel, where should I place
myself? “(Kincaid 620). The intersection of her focus on “fact and precise detail” with the question of how
she should feel is interesting; usually one looks to facts for evidence or argument, but here she looks to
these facts as a point of reference in attempting to determine her emotions. This is telling in how the
“facts” in this situation are not representative of the truth of her ancestors; and thus she must decide how
she may feel about them. Does she accept them? But then what is the alternative? Is there even one?
There are no forthcoming accounts or living people to verify with, and if there were, is it worth attempting
to address this nuance of history? When the “truths” and “certainties” which are implied in the word fact
do not apply to all, it is no longer an objective form of reasoning. But now that we have acknowledged the
subjectivity of history in relation to “facts”, where does that put us?* How does one reconcile their own
past and that of their ancestors when the information they have to go off of is written by the very side
which conquered and largely destroyed their culture, autonomy, and history?
She further delves into this argument of her role in both past and current events when she asks
“[w]hy should I be obsessed with all these questions?”(Kincaid 620). This is of course a very personal
question; why does she in particular have to be the one constantly troubled by these questions? Because
she definitely did not cause any of the events which led up to the inequality and domination of her past
culture and contributed to the previous evolution to the world that exists now. So then how is it fair that
others live without a second thought about their origins or how history has continually erased them from
the past? Or maybe even more unfair, how do those who played a part in erasing the nuance of history
get to live their everyday lives without a second thought about these same questions?* Should they not
be the ones tasked with these ponderings? I think this last rhetorical question of the series is so
meaningful; what exactly makes her responsible for answering these questions which burn inside of her
continually? And after asserting how often and how skewed the answers are, it seems as if there is not a
plausible escape or conclusion to these ponderings. I’m not sure if there is a concrete answer she is
looking for in herself; and even if there could be one at a particular point in time, I am even more doubtful
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that this conclusion would remain throughout her life. So then, how and who should be the ones to solve
this
continual strife? Is there a plausible way to allow history to account for the voices that have been
generationally silenced?
It should not be one's problem to deal with fitting history to themselves. History should be an
unbiased force which fits itself to them instead.[It is unfair that those who have been so continually left out
of the narrative have to struggle with their feelings towards the current and past narratives, as well as
figure out how to feel when looking at these “facts” which are so much so not a fact for them and their
ancestors]
With all of these questions and contradictions presented in Kincaid's writing, I have gained a new
perspective on my situation and how I should relate to the facts of history and their role in my experience
of bias. Maybe my reaction was not only because of all the emotions in the moment, but also the history
and “facts'' which occurred before me, all compounding to contribute to the experience I retold. It is a fact
that I did not say anything to scold what the boys did that day, but maybe my feelings about that fact are
Emma Flett
Mrs. Lepri
20 September 2021
Exercise 1.3
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Kinkaid is primarily trying to get at her feelings towards the very subjectivee reality of the world
we live in today which often lacks much nuance. The dominant side of history gets to write and
propagate the narrative which they want to tell, one which more often than not leaves out the
people, things, cultures, establishments, etc which came before. These uncertainties about the
ignorance towards her ancestors’ histories and lives thus bring forth questions like, “what should
history mean to someone like me?”and then, “why should I be obsessed with these questions?”
(Kinkaid 620). Because how is it fair that the events and retelling of history which she has had no
part in make her continually question her place in the past and present. Kinkaid continues to
subjective, and thus how this outlook on life allowed people like Columbus to advance without a
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second thought to those who had established their lives, and instead regard his “discovery” as a
blank slate to write on however he saw fit. This carelessness is so impactful because his account of
the “world” would become much of what those today have to go off of; “[m]y world then—the only
world I might have known if circumstances had not changed, intervened, would have entered the
human imagination, the human imagination that I am familiar with, the only one that dominates
the world in which I live—came into being as a footnote to someone just passing by” (Kinkaid
622). What he noticed and deemed worth keeping versus what he deemed not important enough
for preservation or note remain largely lost in history, and thus Kinkaid must struggle with how to
reconcile this basic ignorance and injustice which happened so long before her birth but
continues t0 effect her ancestors and her in the present, all this time later.
Emma Flett
Mrs. Lepri
15 September 2021
Exercise 1.2
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Dialogic Journal
Is it a collection of Facts= in history fact Which facts/ specific This passage now
facts, all true and is extremely difficult details is she getting seems to deal with
precise details, and, to discern, the at? The ones written the intersection of
if so, when I come dominant influence by Columbus? By her subjectivity in history
across these true will spread their ancestors? The ones and how it is skewed
and precise details, “fact”, however it is simply taught in towards the dominant
what should I do, almost always history today? side. How does one
how should I feel, subjective to the reconcile their own
where should I times and whoever past and that of their
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Why should I be Very personal Interesting that she I think this last
obsessed with all question; why does references no one else rhetorical question of
these questions? she in particular who is asking these the series is so
(Kincaid 620) have to be the one questions, only meaningful; what
constantly troubled herself. Does she think exactly makes her
by these questions? that others also think responsible for
How is it fair that this way or that she is answering these
other live without a so obsessed with these questions which burn
second thought struggles? inside of her
about their origins continually. And after
or how the history asserting how often
has continually and how skewed the
erased them from answers are, it seems
the past. as if there is not a
plausible escape or
conclusion to these
ponderings.
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Kinkaid uses the beginning three paragraphs of her essay in order to examine her
own feelings about her cultural identity and past in relation to history and how it has
treated her ancestors. She asks herself “[s]hould it be an idea, should it be an open wound
and each breath I take in and expel healing and opening the wound again and again, over
and over, or is it a moment that began in 1492 and has come to no end yet?” (Kincaid 620).
The repetitions of the words again and over place an emphasis on the continual strife
these questions cause her internally. Since 1492 was the “discovery” of the Americas by
Columbus, we can infer that the inciting event of this wound was its invasion, and since
then “each breath [she] take[s]” has been followed by these uncertainties; she does not go
a day, not a second even, without dealing with these questions, it's as much of a part of
living for her as breathing. Kincaids’ constant struggle with how she should approach her
history and the history of her ancestors begs the question of how this distinct history is
compatible with that of the discovery of the Americas and how we approach this event
today. Is there a way to reconcile the two? Or are the events of the past still present and
Kinkaid continues to question the truthfulness and merit of how we account for
history when she asks herself “ [iIs it a collection of facts, all true and precise details, and,
if so, when I come across these true and precise details, what should I do, how should I
feel, where should I place myself? “(Kincaid 620). The intersection of her focus on “fact
and precise detail” with the question of how she should feel is interesting; usually one
looks to facts for evidence or argument, here she looks to these facts as a point of
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reference in attempting to determine her emotions. This is telling in how the “facts” in
this situation are not representative of the truth of her ancestors; and thus she must
decide how she may feel about them. Does she accept them? But then what is the
alternative? Is there even one? There are no forthcoming accounts or living people to
verify with, and if there were, is it worth attempting to address this nuance of history?
These questions in the passage seem to deal with the subjectivity of history and how it is
skewed towards the dominant side. How does one reconcile their own past and that of
their ancestors when the information they have to go off of is written by the very side
which conquered and largely destroyed their culture, autonomy, and history.
She further delves into this argument of subjectivity and her role in all of the past
and current events when she asks “[w]hy should I be obsessed with all these
questions?”(Kincaid 620). This is of course a very personal question; why does she in
particular have to be the one constantly troubled by these questions? Because she
definitely did not cause any of the events which led up to the inequality and domination
of her past culture and contributed to the world around her. So then how is it fair that
others live without a second thought about their origins or how history has continually
erased them from the past? Or maybe even more unfair, how do those who played a part
in erasing the nuance of history get to live their everyday lives without a second thought
about these same questions? Should they not be the ones tasked with these ponderings? I
think this last rhetorical question of the series is so meaningful; what exactly makes her
responsible for answering these questions which burn inside of her continually? And after
asserting how often and how skewed the answers are, it seems as if there is not a plausible
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escape or conclusion to these ponderings. I’m not sure if there is a concrete answer she is
looking for in herself; and even if there could be one at a particular point in time, I am
even more doubtful that this conclusion would remain throughout her life. So then, how
and who should be the ones to solve this continual strife? Is there a plausible way to allow
history to account for the voices that have been generationally silenced?